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(no music) (10 hours) Discussing My Bipolar & EUPD – LMBYTS#1435

🎙️ Discussing My Bipolar & EUPD – LMBYTS#1435 ⏱️ Duration: 1 hour, 22 minutes 📅 Recorded on: 20 September 2025 🧠 Topic: Deep personal reflection on mental health, especially bipolar disorder and EUPD (Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder) 🧵...

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🎙️ Discussing My Bipolar & EUPD – LMBYTS#1435
⏱️ Duration: 1 hour, 22 minutes
📅 Recorded on: 20 September 2025
🧠 Topic: Deep personal reflection on mental health, especially bipolar disorder and EUPD (Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder) 🧵 OVERVIEW This episode of Let Me Bore You To Sleep is a raw, meandering, yet heartfelt monologue where Jason Newland reflects on recent tech struggles with his podcast, then opens up about his personal experiences with bipolar disorder and EUPD. It evolves from a casual update into a deep dive into the complexities of living with fluctuating mental health. He discusses diagnosis, therapy, medication, and how others have misunderstood his journey. There's also a lot of self-deprecating humor, honesty, and vulnerability throughout. 🧩 STRUCTURED SUMMARY ⛓️ Part 1: Podcast & Website Woes (~0:00–9:00)

  • Jason is frustrated about recent problems with Apple Podcasts, which drastically dropped his listenership stats.
  • He shares that he’s been working hard to fix the issue and reorganize his website, letmeboreyoutosleep.com.
  • He’s visibly tired and emotionally drained by the tech issues but reassures listeners that things are working again.
  • Shout-outs to new Facebook group members, Karen and Kaylee.
🧠 Part 2: Mental Health Journey Begins (~9:00–18:00)
  • Jason discusses a recent GP phone appointment, which resulted in a referral to a mental health nurse and an increase in his medication.
  • Humorously notes that he may become even “slower and more boring” with the new dosage.
  • Reflects on past manic behavior from 2011 and being diagnosed with bipolar disorder later that year.
  • Talks about how his mood swings began in childhood and shares prior experiences with antidepressants and anxiety from as far back as 1995.
💊 Part 3: Medication Stigma & Acceptance (~18:00–27:00)
  • Shares a story about a friend at a Buddhist center who encouraged him to accept medication as part of wellness, despite Jason’s initial resistance.
  • Uses a humorous appendix analogy to emphasize that you don’t refuse treatment for physical illness—so why for mental health?
  • Admits that past judgment from others made him hesitant about long-term medication use.
🧍♂️ Part 4: EUPD & Dual Diagnosis (~27:00–42:00)
  • Delves into the co-diagnosis of EUPD (Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder) and bipolar.
  • Shocked to learn of the EUPD diagnosis years after therapy began.
  • Recalls a 5-year treatment period that included:
    • DBT (Dialectical Behavior Therapy)
    • Group therapy
    • Psychotherapy at home
  • Shares how mood instability, impulsivity, and difficulty with relationships are key EUPD symptoms he relates to.
🎭 Part 5: Humor, Dating, and Disguises (~42:00–59:00)
  • Veers into lighthearted stories:
    • Taking his ferret Andre into town.
    • Online dating and profile pictures.
    • Hilariously cynical commentary on filtered dating profile photos and photo manipulation.
  • Recounts a short-lived romantic encounter that ended just before a critical psychiatric evaluation, which ironically led professionals to think he was “fine” due to being in a good mood.
⚖️ Part 6: Bipolar Diagnosis – The Real One (~59:00–1:10:00)
  • Shares how in 2011, a new doctor finally took him seriously and referred him for proper diagnosis.
  • Officially diagnosed with bipolar affective disorder (again) in December 2011.
  • Talks about years of ups and downs, job loss, and therapy.
  • Begins understanding his pattern of mood cycles and their impact on life and relationships.
📚 Part 7: Final Thoughts – Acceptance & Awareness (~1:10:00–1:22:00)
  • He explores how both bipolar and EUPD explain so much of his lived experience.
  • Researches EUPD symptoms live during the recording (fluctuating emotions, impulsivity, relationship challenges).
  • Notes that DBT was the key therapy used during treatment—but he hadn’t known that at the time.
  • Reflects on how some people’s moods bounce back quickly, while others (like him) have longer, deeper troughs and spikes.
  • Ends on a gentle note: encourages listeners to be kind to themselves, feel safe, and allow themselves happiness.
  • Mentions the possible reward of a Cornetto. 🍦😄
💬 KEY THEMES & TAKEAWAYSTheme Insight Mental health stigma Jason illustrates the long journey of confronting others’ opinions about medication and mental illness. Dual diagnosis His story highlights the complexity of having both bipolar and EUPD—conditions that can overlap but require distinct approaches. Self-awareness & humor Jason’s ability to talk honestly while keeping it light with jokes and analogies makes this reflection accessible. Therapy & treatment DBT, medication, and long-term psychotherapy played huge roles in stabilizing his life. Loneliness & connection Undercurrent of seeking human connection, acceptance, and the ongoing tension between vulnerability and protection.

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Welcome to Let Me Boy to Sleep. My name is

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Jason Newland. Please only listen when you can safely close

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your eyes. And uh, my website is Jason Newland. No, no,

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my website is let Me Boy to Sleep. Yeah dot com.

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Don't ask. Let's just I made some changes. Not all

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changes go smoothly. I have discovered, for example, it's going

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to open my laptop. Now I've got that shining in

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my face. Okay, so I've had a lot of problems

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with my Apple podcasts the last few days. I think

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it's now sorted. I play it's now sorted, but it's

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taken quite a lot of effort to get it done. Yeah,

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so hopefully it's all done. I'd say all done, and

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it's never going to be complete, but I hope it's done,

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as in working correctly. Please please, please, please please, because

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the stats were ridiculous yesterday. I mean, honestly, two hundred

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and sixty three downloads of my podcasts. Two hundred and

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sixty three in one day. Now, you know, it can

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go down quite low sometimes if I haven't recorded anything

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for a week or two weeks or something like that.

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and Friday, so there wasn't really unless the recordings were

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just really bad, really bad. So I need to get

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these lights sorted outs. I don't like the light shining

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in my face. I know the picture isn't great. I'm

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doing this on YouTube. It's very windy, very very windy.

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I don't know why I'm doing it on YouTube. So

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what I've been doing is I'm trying to organize my website,

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let Meboydsleep dot com so that I just wanted to

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get everything kind of back to normal. And I'll be honest,

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I'm not sure. I don't know what normal is anymore.

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So what's this I look at today? It is Today's

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the twentieth of September two thy twenty five, and it's

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Apple podcast is now back now eventually, I got it

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back by about lunchtime ish, so it's been about six

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hours and it seems to be kind of getting back

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to normal again ish, But I know how difficult it

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can be. All right. Yeah, I'm seeing that some of

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the people that the places that normally listen are still

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listening again. That's good. But I'll give you an example,

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like yesterday's let Me boy This Sleep, which was Q

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and A Friday. I looked at the stats this morning,

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and I think I had three listens to the ten

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hour version with music, or six listens sis yesterday. This

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was this morning, you know. I mean, I'm not getting

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millions a day normally, but six listens and when I

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upload I would get that in the first few minutes.

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I uploaded a recording, what are you doing books? Something

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went wrong? Okay, so SoundCloud's not working for some reason. Hm,

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of that SoundCloud a little message to Sebastian, and then

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that was Sebastian. I'm just trying to think, because this

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me that basically the new recordings are not shown themselves.

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this eight hours ago, hopefully fixed the Apple podcast issue.

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group on Facebook, and so I like to say hello

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to Kaylee, Hi Kayley, and also yesterday Karen, Hi Karen.

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So welcome to Karen and Kayley Welcome. And if you'd

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like to join Jason Newland's boring group, then just please

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go to Facebook or if you go to my website,

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let me boril you to sleep dot com. There's a

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there's a message, it's basically a link at the top

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Facebook group and you can go there and just join.

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So I've had messages from people telling me that it's

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successful now and everything's up to date. All the old

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stuff now plays again. So yeah, that's a weird face.

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I just made it on a computer screen camera. Roh.

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my GP. I had a doctor's appointment on the phone

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on Thursday, after having spoken to the mental health nurse

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a month ago, and then having spoken to the doctors

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surgery a week ago, and then I got to the

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doctors called me on Thursday morning and has referred me

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to the mental health team, and the mental health nurse

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is going to contact me on the thirtieth of September.

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I think, I think something like that. So, yeah, I

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get that the doctor increased my medication. So I might

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become even slower than I already am, even slower just

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when you thought that I couldn't get any slower and

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any more boring. And it might be the medication that

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makes me boring. Maybe if I didn't take my medication,

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I wouldn't be boring and slow, and I would be

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talking oh so quickly. See, you can't get to see

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me what I was like. In a kind of a

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Manichy phase because all those videos were lost. But there

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was a little phase, a little phase back in two

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thousand and eleven, probably looking at summertime, and I was

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definitely I was laughing at things that weren't even funny. Really,

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it was weird. I was a little bit, very hyper

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a little bit, and I did some stuff on camera

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because I was making regular vlogs back then on YouTube.

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My cousin contacted me and said, I'm worried about you

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because there's some of the things I was saying and

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doing on there. So yeah, and that was shortly before

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I was Yeah, that was in the summer, and then December,

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I was diagnosed with bipolar for the first time. For

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the first time. I do remember. I actually had a

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a review, a psychiatric review back in two thousand and four.

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So I was having severe anxiety between November two thousand

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and three. It lasted for years, but luckily it did

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it reduced sort of during two thousand and four, induced

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it was almost kind of sorted, not sorted, but like

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it wasn't seemingly all the time, and that's part of

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the reason why I started doing audios and videos to

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try and help calm people down, calm the mind, perhaps

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a distraction, maybe just a calm in voice to listen to,

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which is kind of what I needed for myself anyway.

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I waited for months for this psychiatric review. I was

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initially I'm talking about mental health here, so I should say,

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don't listen to this if you don't want to hear

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about my mental health stuff. I'm not going to go

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into any juicy details or anything like that. I'm just

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going to sort of I'm not going to talk about

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it too much, although there's some stuff I'd like to say,

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but I won't. I won't shall I I would like

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to quite like to, quite like to make a video

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or recording where I open up about some of the

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more personal aspects of my life in the past and

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even now, but it doesn't necessarily fit together with the

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lighted the lightheartedness or the lightness of what these recordings

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are supposed to be. So I don't really get into

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heavy conversations. Really, I talk about factual stuff. You know,

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I've seen a doctor, I'm seeing a mental health nurse

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or whatever. I'm not going to go into any more

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detail than that. Really, it's just I give you an

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update on what's going on in my life. That's part

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of what this is. And so this is kind of

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a I suppose, quite a funny story, not funny, but

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you know, kind of funny, but also a little bit sad,

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a little bit sad. So what happened is I was

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first and when I first started going to the doctors,

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because I've been on I was on antidepressants nineteen ninety five.

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then I was on them again in I think probably

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ninety six, then again end of ninety seven, and then

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probably nothing until two thousand and two November. So I

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went quite quite a few years. I didn't I don't

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It's hard to remember, but back then i'd take it

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and I didn't like it, and i'd stopped taking it.

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I also had two friends that were very I wouldn't

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say unsupportive, but judgmental because they didn't understand. I had

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one friend saying to me, it wasn't saying that I

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was weak because I was on medication. But that's kind

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of what I took from the conversation. So my ad

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My response was, well, stuff the medication, I'll stop taking

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it then, or maybe the person said that I well,

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I felt that they were saying that I was reliant

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upon it. And you know, medication shouldn't be taken long term. Well,

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what do you do for a long term medical condition? Then,

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my dear, what am I supposed to do? Bipolar EUPD.

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take medication when you're feeling bad, or take medication. You know,

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when you're too high, you can't just take medication to

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like bring you down. And when you're feeling too low,

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you can't take medication just to bring you up. It'd

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be nice if I could, and then on those days

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one kind of average, i'd be just wouldn't take anything.

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I'd love that, just pop a pill and then I'm fine.

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routine to keep those levels of I don't know, serotonin

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and balance in my brain. I don't want to be

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on medication. But you know what, I had a friend

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and I used to know that the Buddhist center, and

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he said something to me that was really He's part

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of the reason I think I wanted to go and

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visit Thailand because he loved the East. He traveled all

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over Vietnam. I'm trying to think of different countries, but

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that whole kind of area. He just loved it. And

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he kept telling me the people there are so nice,

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so friendly. He said, you never, you won't understand it

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unless you go there. You need to see for yourself

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how lovely the people are when you go to you know, Vietnam.

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I can only think of Vietnam and Thailand, and there's

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lots of other countries in that area. I just can't

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think of any Canada. I don't know, but he said

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he said something to me, and I remember I was

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at the bottom behind the cat the Buddhist center. There

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was like a cabin. It was an actual building structure

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and we would use it classes like meditation classes or

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teaching classes, you know, groups to getting together and stuff

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like that. And it was just separate so it fitted

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probably six people that's chairs wise. I mean, it wasn't

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a lot of space, but there was a little toilet

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and a coat rack, you know, pretty much everything you needed.

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A little heater, so therapists also used to use it.

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I went to a few times because I've had I've

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tried so many different therapies to try and help with

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my to you know, to relax and my situation, and

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I like acupuncture. I think there was a reiki person

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possibly that worked down there, so they just went the

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room by the hour. And what I did when I

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became a counselor, I also rented that room so for

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private clients, but also people that I did the because

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there as well, so I used that for the same

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same thing. I also used it when I lived around

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the corner from there. This is in twenty eleven, I

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used it. I used to go there in the nighttime.

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I'd ask them first. I didn't just turn up by

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the keys to get in, and there was okay ovid.

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I went there at night once everyone was gone, so

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like eleven o'clock or something, and I'd stay there for

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a few hours and I'd make videos, hypnosis videos and

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stuff like that because it was quiet and well. Anyway,

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one day I was in there and I was waiting

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for a client to turn up, and my friend of

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the man I would tell me about. He was there

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as well, and some of the other people were there

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and they were meeting up and he was there. I'm

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not quite sure why he was there, but he was

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there anyway. And he told me, he said, because I

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I was going for a very difficult, very difficult time

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at that at that moment, and I pretty much refused

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to take medication. I refuse to go and get help.

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He knew my history of know all the different things

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that had kind of time I'd been on medication, stuff

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like that, so you can't have we had a little

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bit in common from that perspective, And he knew that

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I had a bit of an attitude about taking medication

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for me, not for other people. I don't judge other

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people for what they need to do, but for me,

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I just I didn't want to. I just didn't want

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to take it. I didn't. I just didn't. I didn't

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want to be I don't know how much of that is,

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just how much of that is other people have influenced

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me with their attitudes, with their stinking thinking. As Ziggy

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Ziggy Ziggler wherever his name is would say so I

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he said, anyways, it's in the summer, and he said

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to me, I said, well, he said hmm. I said no,

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I had to go. But why why are you going

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for He said, well, you're clearly not doing very well.

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I said, no, fair enough. I gotn't argue on that one.

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And he said, why don't you just go back to

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the doctor and see maybe get back on the antidepressants.

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This is better one. This is before I was diagnosed

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with bipolars. It was I knew I was not doing

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this too good, but I didn't quite know what they

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didn't know about that part of it. And because this

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is after the me being all like mannic and stuff previous,

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so this is probably the end of the summer, probably

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kind of September time or maybe August. And I said, nah,

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I just can't be bothered. I don't want to be

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reliant upon it. I don't want to be dependent upon it.

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And there was I think there's a part of me

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still used to think that maybe it made me weak,

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which is ridiculous, but there was kind of a sense

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of ole, it's a week, it's you know, I want

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to be stronger than that. And he said, look, because

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he was a lot older than me. He retired, So

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I was in my wow was what was I forty? Wow?

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so I was forty years old. One more wow wow.

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would say, probably late fifties, maybe early sixties. He'd retired early,

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but he was I probably had about twenty years on me.

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And he said to me, he said little JJ. I said,

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don't call me that. Don't call me that. He said, okay, sorry,

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he said juicy JJ. I said, that's right, that's the nickname,

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Juicy JJ, not little JJ. But he said anyway, he

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said that he went through the same kind of thing

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where he didn't want to be on a tablet. He

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didn't want to take tablets, didn't like the way that

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made him feel. But he realized, you know, the side effects,

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maybe feeling a bit tired, a bit groggy, a bit

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slow whatever. Everyone's differently. But he said, after about forty

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years of going through that, he decided that he'd rather

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take a tablet a day, or two tablets day whatever,

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in order to feel stable, in order to feel maybe

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human even, you know, in order just to be well,

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to feel well most of the time. And he said

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that there's no there's no shame. There's no shame in,

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no shame in doing what's necessary. You know, if you're

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appendix burst, you have them taken out, you don't say

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to the doctor or the surgeon, now it's all right,

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I'll keep them. I'll suffer Now. I'm not comparing appendicitis

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a burst appendix or whatever, which can be fatal, of course,

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but and it probably would be if if it wasn't

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medically sorted out. But it's kind of a comparison, you know.

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He's like, you need when something is needed, you wouldn't

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think twice about it, would be just like, okay, take

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it out. It's just that's it. There's not really a conversation.

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They don't even ask today. You know, you've got you know,

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my brother hadn't a burst appendix, and they he rushed

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into surgery as an emergency. He had sepsis and he's fine,

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he's a vibe and everything, and he was very allful

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a while, but at no point where they didn't ask him,

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they excuse him. Is mister Newland junior juicy? I'm just wondering,

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is that okay, if we remove your appendix or what's

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left of them. They didn't. They just took his appendix

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out because that's what was necessary. I don't even know

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if he was even conscious enough for them to sign,

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for him to sign a form or anything like that.

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I visited him. Of course, I was a little bit

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disappointed because there was no grapes. I suppose I thought

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they were supposed to be grapes in the hospital room.

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Ye had his own hospital room. How ridiculous is that?

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Since when does anyone get their own hospital room? He

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had his own room. I don't know how he figured

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how how I don't know. Anyway, the I thought it

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through and I thought, what my you know, I kind

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of thought about what my friend said, and it did

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have an effect. It was annoying to start with, I thought,

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shut up, we're talking about you don't know what he

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liked to be me on different And then I started thinking,

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you know what, this is something I've been going through

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on and off since I was a little kid. So

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it's not a new thing. It's not you know, the

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mood swings now sometimes you can you can contribute it

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to puberty, or you can or adolescence. Mood swings. You

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can contribute it to lots of lots of different things

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throughout life and bereavement and stuff that you know. There

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could be lots of different reasons for people to have

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issues with their mood or instability with the mood. But

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if it's happening all the way through your life and

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it's not like it started when I was twenty or fifteen,

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I'm talking little as far back as I remember, I've

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had extreme moods all the way back. I just didn't

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tell anybody. That's the difference. I didn't I didn't understand

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why other people weren't feeling the way I was feeling.

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But I also didn't understand why I wasn't feeling the

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way other people were feeling, because there'd be times when

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everyone was like miserable, and I'd be happy, and then

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I'll be sad. I'll be tap dancing and ruining the funeral.

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And I wasn't tap dancing on top of the coffin

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or anything. But I'm just saying I would, I'd love it.

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I wouldn't necessarily tune in to the event because my

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mind was doing something different. And I've been at some

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of the most wonderful events as far as like everyone

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seems to be happy and I'm not for whatever reason,

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and there's no reason. It doesn't seem to be a reason,

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Like there's no logic behind it. I remember I was

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at the oh is it what's his name? It's the

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biggest motivational speaker in the world, World's biggest motivational motive

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fational speaker, Tony Robbins. What they got bear grills next

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to Tony Robins and bear grills may be popular, but

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Tony Robbins, there is no one as big as Tony Robbins,

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like as far as worldwide longevity and all that. Plus

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he's probably the tallest man and sever lived. He's about

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eight foot told. Yeah, it's true. So I went to

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Tony Robbins thing event in London in two thousand of

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I think it was two thousand and five, might have

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been two thousand and six. I think it's two thousand

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and five, Yeah, probably, Maybe it was two thousand and four,

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might have been. But I went there and I yeah,

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I think I stayed at my friends because he got

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he gave me tickets, so I think I stayed with

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him and I enjoyed it. I did I enjoyed it,

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and i'd listened to his recordings because that's another thing

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I've been trying to do since for a long long time,

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is trying trying to increase my motivation, trying to increase

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my positivity, trying to go against the grain almost at times,

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and it doesn't always work, but I don't I don't

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give up, so I keep going. And I couldn't get

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into the the old I don't know what I want

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to call it, the cultiness of it, you know, the

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going long because the every now and it said, if

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you believe this, say I like, I'm not going to

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shout eye more than once. That's once. I'm not going

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to keep saying it. You're not going to condition me,

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mister Robbins.

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No.

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So he is really good. And I've never known anyone

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that can talk for that long, that fast, for that long.

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I mean literally doesn't take a breath for like four

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or five hours. I've never seen that before, not on stage.

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And I think because he's naturally talked so fast. When

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he decides just to slow things down and talks a

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bit slow, I think he's kind of taken a nap

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in between sentences. It's just because he's normally so fast

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no one notices it. That's what I'm thinking. He just

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switches off and just like and then she said this,

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I'm your mother. I don't know. Just whatever he says,

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the stuff he says, And it was very A lot

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of people, there's about ten thousand people there, very excitable.

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I'm not a very excitable person, and I'm not saying

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it in a good way. I just some people are

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very extremely lively and extremely enthusiastic, and I wish I

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was like that in a way, no matter how annoying

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it might be for other people. I just it it

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would be not I'm just thinking of a couple of

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people from the past that would be so excited about

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something like it, Like it's a toilet role holder, welly

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are you excited about a toilet role holder? Everyone's got

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their own thing, an't they. I think my base level

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is not too high. There's a with positive psychology, there's

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a theory that no matter what happens in our lives,

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we kind of have a base level, and that base

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level can be risen up, you know, with positive thinking,

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positive affirmations, diary writing, what other things. I'm trying to think,

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like gratue to journal things like that. But the general

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base level is what we end up going back to,

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whether no matter how low we go or how high

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we go, we have a tendency of going back to

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the base level of mood. And as I said, it

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can be risen. Some people just tend to have a

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higher base level and some people have a much lower

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base level. But it's not stuck. That's something that's the point.

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It feels stuck, but it's not. It can it can

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be moved, but it takes an effort or extreme stuff

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in life. But generally the base level kind of stays

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where it is if it's left alone. So for example,

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someone wins the lottery if they're naturally maybe not high energy.

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But I'm not high energy person, so I'm going to

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be high energy to a degree. If I wonder lottery,

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I would seem high energy in some ways, but in

430
00:39:24.239 --> 00:39:28.199
other ways I would still be kind of be in

431
00:39:28.239 --> 00:39:36.159
touch with that level and the heightening of Oh I

432
00:39:36.199 --> 00:39:39.639
got money, I can do stuff. I can buy myself

433
00:39:39.679 --> 00:39:44.239
as much chocolate as I like. I can get trousers

434
00:39:44.840 --> 00:39:53.960
made of wigwhams. That makes no sense, And then are

435
00:39:54.000 --> 00:39:59.159
we allowed to say wigwhams I don't know, I just did,

436
00:40:02.199 --> 00:40:08.400
but then I'd end up going to my base level. Now,

437
00:40:08.480 --> 00:40:15.320
if I use that situation correctly of having money, helping

438
00:40:15.360 --> 00:40:29.639
other people, helping myself live in a nicer lifestyle, traveling,

439
00:40:31.280 --> 00:40:36.920
improving my outlook on the world and life, then my

440
00:40:37.039 --> 00:40:45.480
base level is much more likely to rise up. However slightly.

441
00:40:45.519 --> 00:40:51.320
It will rise up, but it won't stay at that

442
00:40:51.440 --> 00:40:55.800
top bit of where I first won the lottery, because generally,

443
00:40:56.079 --> 00:40:59.239
the theory is the mood goes back down to its

444
00:40:59.280 --> 00:41:03.360
general base leg So if someone's got a high base

445
00:41:03.480 --> 00:41:08.840
level where they're generally positive, when they go really low

446
00:41:08.960 --> 00:41:17.280
for whatever reason, generally they will go back to their

447
00:41:17.320 --> 00:41:21.000
base level. So it would be very difficult, it will

448
00:41:21.079 --> 00:41:23.800
hurt and be painful, it would be uncomfortable, but they

449
00:41:23.800 --> 00:41:31.039
will go back to their base level. I've been thinking

450
00:41:31.079 --> 00:41:40.360
about it for someone like me or someone that walks around,

451
00:41:40.719 --> 00:41:43.119
I say walks around, but someone that lives their life

452
00:41:43.760 --> 00:41:48.039
in a much more positive higher level of I don't

453
00:41:48.039 --> 00:41:51.000
want to say high level of consciousness, but their base

454
00:41:51.119 --> 00:41:55.960
level is much more optimistic bright. It's not being you know,

455
00:41:56.159 --> 00:42:01.039
disrupted continuously by their brains. May is kind of just

456
00:42:02.519 --> 00:42:05.480
it's almost it just it touches the base level, and

457
00:42:05.519 --> 00:42:11.119
it's just so when I'm okay, it's still not great,

458
00:42:12.079 --> 00:42:16.719
it's weird, and then it's good, and then it's really not.

459
00:42:19.000 --> 00:42:22.159
But someone's got a higher base level in their normal life,

460
00:42:22.599 --> 00:42:27.239
be a happier person. But then when things are not good,

461
00:42:28.519 --> 00:42:31.280
perhaps it feels perhaps I'm just thinking off the top

462
00:42:31.320 --> 00:42:37.360
of my feet, perhaps it feels much worse for them

463
00:42:37.599 --> 00:42:40.960
because they're not used to it. They're not used to

464
00:42:41.400 --> 00:42:49.559
the low as opposed to someone that is used to it.

465
00:42:50.159 --> 00:42:56.960
I'm used to it. There's no it doesn't make me

466
00:42:57.000 --> 00:43:01.039
a superhero. I'm just saying so, I just had to

467
00:43:01.880 --> 00:43:02.920
have a quick break there.

468
00:43:05.320 --> 00:43:16.880
Phiddy was barking, oh, like really loud, which means I

469
00:43:16.880 --> 00:43:17.800
don't actually understand.

470
00:43:17.800 --> 00:43:19.960
I don't understand. I don't remember what I was talking about.

471
00:43:22.400 --> 00:43:38.400
Oh oh yeah, base levels. So anyway, I'm just trying

472
00:43:38.440 --> 00:43:45.800
to think, yeah, I don't know what I was talking about.

473
00:43:45.800 --> 00:43:50.880
I was just basically just jabbering on really just having

474
00:43:50.920 --> 00:43:56.599
a yabba jabber as it were, a jabberlaber.

475
00:43:57.159 --> 00:44:04.639
Ooh ooh ooh, ooh ooh.

476
00:44:04.719 --> 00:44:12.079
If you're listening on my podcast, maybe visit my YouTube channel.

477
00:44:12.199 --> 00:44:16.239
Just have a look if you fancy a laugh, because

478
00:44:16.719 --> 00:44:19.440
I haven't got to say anything funny. Just my face.

479
00:44:19.480 --> 00:44:22.760
That should be enough. Just look at me thinking, wow,

480
00:44:23.320 --> 00:44:27.199
how could anyone be that pink? He must have a

481
00:44:27.239 --> 00:44:32.840
lot of light shining on him. I don't. It's really weird.

482
00:44:32.920 --> 00:44:35.400
My face is so bright when I look in the mirror,

483
00:44:35.400 --> 00:44:39.599
I give myself sunburn. This no, make that even makes sense?

484
00:44:39.639 --> 00:44:49.239
Does it? A? Hello? Fellow?

485
00:44:49.960 --> 00:44:51.039
How are you bo.

486
00:44:51.519 --> 00:44:56.679
Thinny's underneath the desk looking at me? Hello? Hello. The

487
00:44:56.719 --> 00:45:01.760
reason he was barking is because he's his girlfriend downstairs

488
00:45:01.760 --> 00:45:05.920
who was coming in. Wasn't she his girlfriend who lives downstairs?

489
00:45:06.119 --> 00:45:15.719
He loves you? Love her? Yes? You do? You love her? You, Viny?

490
00:45:17.480 --> 00:45:25.599
You love her? Yes? Okay, I'm back if I do

491
00:45:25.880 --> 00:45:30.039
make more videos. Oh yeah, there was a spider downstairs

492
00:45:30.079 --> 00:45:34.199
and she was screaming. That's that's why he was reacting.

493
00:45:34.880 --> 00:45:37.360
So I went downstairs and the spider was on front

494
00:45:37.360 --> 00:45:41.599
of her near a door handle, and she wouldn't go in,

495
00:45:43.000 --> 00:45:50.239
So I just I got the spider and took it outside.

496
00:45:50.519 --> 00:45:52.880
It was quite handy. I was used Vinnie's lead, and

497
00:45:52.880 --> 00:45:54.920
I put it around his neck and just you know,

498
00:45:55.039 --> 00:46:02.360
dragged it outside a huge thing. It was. She did

499
00:46:02.400 --> 00:46:04.639
say to me, you're not you're not scared of spiders

500
00:46:04.639 --> 00:46:09.840
and said, no, so what you're scared of? Then? I said, crocodiles.

501
00:46:10.440 --> 00:46:14.360
Let's chance of seeing them on your doorstep blocking your

502
00:46:14.360 --> 00:46:19.639
door handle. I used to get that when I was

503
00:46:20.440 --> 00:46:25.519
I used to take Andre my ferret into town. That's

504
00:46:25.559 --> 00:46:27.239
when I in the days when I used to go

505
00:46:27.280 --> 00:46:31.119
into town and I didn't have him off the lead.

506
00:46:31.320 --> 00:46:34.440
I didn't have him off there. I didn't have him

507
00:46:34.480 --> 00:46:36.559
walking on the lead in town. I'd always, you know,

508
00:46:36.639 --> 00:46:38.320
if it was busy, i'd have him in my coat,

509
00:46:39.519 --> 00:46:41.960
or i'd be holding him, or he'd be inside my

510
00:46:42.079 --> 00:46:47.280
jacket with his little head looking out his little face.

511
00:46:48.760 --> 00:46:54.039
And sometimes people would scream like they'd turn a corner.

512
00:46:54.480 --> 00:46:59.000
Aha aha, Like.

513
00:47:01.320 --> 00:47:07.960
I'd understand if I had, I don't know, like a

514
00:47:08.199 --> 00:47:14.000
skateboard with a big shark behind me pulling it along.

515
00:47:15.960 --> 00:47:18.920
Or I'm trying to think, what kind of other animal

516
00:47:21.639 --> 00:47:29.599
is scary to people? A gorilla on skates, I don't know.

517
00:47:29.920 --> 00:47:32.159
I don't know what it has to have wheels. I

518
00:47:32.199 --> 00:47:38.519
don't know why wheels have to be involved. So this

519
00:47:38.559 --> 00:47:44.360
all started when I started talking about my first psychiatric review.

520
00:47:46.440 --> 00:47:48.719
Now this is two thousand and four. I waited for

521
00:47:48.960 --> 00:47:52.119
eighties and ages and ages for this. I'd been diagnosed

522
00:47:52.159 --> 00:48:01.400
with PTSD, anxiety depression, recurring anxiety, recurring depression, depression disorder

523
00:48:01.519 --> 00:48:05.719
of a major depression disorder, clinical depression, you name it.

524
00:48:05.719 --> 00:48:08.239
They just like kept checking all these titles at me.

525
00:48:10.039 --> 00:48:11.719
I felt like a professor at the end of it.

526
00:48:13.239 --> 00:48:17.920
And none of them were useful. To get a job, though,

527
00:48:20.360 --> 00:48:37.000
But however, what was that sound? Were this a fair look? Hmm? Though?

528
00:48:40.519 --> 00:48:43.599
That week was weird because I think it was on

529
00:48:43.960 --> 00:48:53.159
a wednsday or a day. Yeah, I think it was

530
00:48:53.280 --> 00:49:00.320
a Tuesday, it was it was a day anyway, it

531
00:49:00.360 --> 00:49:06.440
was a day during the week. Now, on the Saturday,

532
00:49:07.559 --> 00:49:12.800
I received a letter. I wish I should have kept

533
00:49:12.840 --> 00:49:15.840
it because I could read it to you, and basically

534
00:49:15.920 --> 00:49:22.840
what it said is talking about starting the new year

535
00:49:23.719 --> 00:49:26.519
the same as every other year, and wanted to do

536
00:49:26.639 --> 00:49:31.199
something different this year. And here's my telephone number. And

537
00:49:33.079 --> 00:49:35.480
I was trying to think, what the heck is this about?

538
00:49:36.159 --> 00:49:38.840
So I checked the address and it was definitely for me,

539
00:49:40.320 --> 00:49:48.679
I thought. Now, it turns out I was probably drunk

540
00:49:48.719 --> 00:49:53.280
at the time, but I put an advert in the

541
00:49:53.519 --> 00:49:57.679
lost and like the love Heart section of the local newspaper.

542
00:49:58.960 --> 00:50:04.960
I don't remember doing it. Yeah, anyway, she replied, I'm guessing.

543
00:50:05.039 --> 00:50:10.280
She replied to everyone to be fair. So we went

544
00:50:10.320 --> 00:50:16.719
out I find her up. She said, you're right. I

545
00:50:16.760 --> 00:50:20.320
said yeah, she said you want to meet up? And

546
00:50:20.360 --> 00:50:26.159
said okay. Then, because I'd learned having done blind dating,

547
00:50:27.360 --> 00:50:33.800
as in okay may not blind dates, what's the pen

548
00:50:33.920 --> 00:50:41.039
palin or blind blind dates? The trick is to there's

549
00:50:41.039 --> 00:50:52.639
a very fine line between first speaking to the person

550
00:50:54.239 --> 00:50:57.599
and first meeting the person. There's a there's a very

551
00:50:57.760 --> 00:51:04.360
short period. I'm not but just quite often where if

552
00:51:04.360 --> 00:51:06.360
you want it to go well, you need to kind

553
00:51:06.360 --> 00:51:10.400
of make the move. And sometimes in the past I've

554
00:51:10.480 --> 00:51:13.760
left it too long where I became almost best friends

555
00:51:13.760 --> 00:51:16.000
with them on the phone, hadn't even met them, did

556
00:51:16.039 --> 00:51:18.840
know what they looked like. This is a days before

557
00:51:20.679 --> 00:51:26.480
you know, being able to stream and live cam. And

558
00:51:26.519 --> 00:51:28.719
I don't mean live cameras in chatter bait. I mean

559
00:51:29.280 --> 00:51:37.039
live cam as in Facebook, you know, stream and saying

560
00:51:37.239 --> 00:51:45.800
hi Hi. I don't know how many dates I would

561
00:51:45.800 --> 00:51:50.079
have had if we had cameras back then, video cameras,

562
00:51:51.880 --> 00:51:53.639
I never did very well on those things, you know,

563
00:51:53.679 --> 00:51:58.239
the ones where like there used to be these things

564
00:51:58.280 --> 00:52:03.000
called Rulette. They did it with voices, and then when

565
00:52:03.000 --> 00:52:07.480
the cameras came out online, probably twenty odd years ago,

566
00:52:07.519 --> 00:52:12.039
they had it and I went on there twenty five

567
00:52:12.079 --> 00:52:16.920
years ago. Probably any picture you'd be on there and

568
00:52:16.960 --> 00:52:19.400
it'd be like it'd be really grainy, but it's still

569
00:52:20.480 --> 00:52:22.920
the picture was good enough, clear enough for them to

570
00:52:22.960 --> 00:52:26.559
see that. They didn't want to talk to me. It's

571
00:52:26.599 --> 00:52:29.239
like just swiped left or right or whatever it is.

572
00:52:32.119 --> 00:52:36.000
So yeah, that didn't really go well. The only time

573
00:52:36.840 --> 00:52:40.719
I ever get any kind of attention from women because

574
00:52:40.760 --> 00:52:48.320
I joined that plenty of fish years ago and I

575
00:52:48.480 --> 00:52:59.159
was in my thirties at the time, probably twenty years ago.

576
00:52:59.320 --> 00:53:05.360
Probably I don't think I got one person under fifty

577
00:53:06.360 --> 00:53:10.800
that showed any interest in me. And I don't know

578
00:53:10.840 --> 00:53:16.480
if it was just because of how I look. I

579
00:53:16.519 --> 00:53:24.679
don't think I'm particularly photographic. Now you can't see on

580
00:53:24.920 --> 00:53:32.920
camera what I really look like, because I don't know

581
00:53:32.960 --> 00:53:35.360
why where the camera seems to hide all my good

582
00:53:35.360 --> 00:53:44.199
looks or my sexiness, my chies will jaw, my long flowing,

583
00:53:45.199 --> 00:53:53.639
dark brown, curly hair, my perfect vision, tiny little nose.

584
00:53:57.000 --> 00:54:01.360
You know, it's all hidden, it's all hidden on the camera,

585
00:54:04.000 --> 00:54:10.440
hidden in the camera, and you get this this you

586
00:54:10.519 --> 00:54:15.039
get me, and it's weird. It's kind of like a

587
00:54:16.880 --> 00:54:20.760
it's a fake. Really, it's not real. But then I

588
00:54:20.760 --> 00:54:25.400
don't feel too bad because I've seen pictures of people

589
00:54:26.320 --> 00:54:31.239
and the way that Facebook or on Instagram, the way

590
00:54:31.239 --> 00:54:38.239
that people manipulate the photographs to make them look like,

591
00:54:38.440 --> 00:54:44.679
make themselves look completely different, and there doesn't seem any

592
00:54:44.719 --> 00:54:51.039
point in that. For fun, yeah, for fun, But if

593
00:54:51.039 --> 00:54:57.119
it's a dating profile, what's the point in portraying yourself

594
00:54:57.400 --> 00:55:06.239
as looking completely different? And I'm not saying show you

595
00:55:10.239 --> 00:55:12.760
that's that all. We should show all our faults straight away.

596
00:55:12.800 --> 00:55:17.960
I mean, you know, you're doing a close up so

597
00:55:18.000 --> 00:55:21.079
you can see your black heads on your ears or whatever.

598
00:55:21.159 --> 00:55:29.000
You know, I don't mean that. But take a picture

599
00:55:29.000 --> 00:55:33.360
of yourself after your eating a sausage roll with all

600
00:55:33.360 --> 00:55:36.320
the bits all over your face and in between your teeth,

601
00:55:36.360 --> 00:55:40.880
and like, yeah, I'm not okay, that's not perhaps your

602
00:55:40.920 --> 00:55:47.960
best picture. But unless you want to meet someone that

603
00:55:48.159 --> 00:55:58.320
likes sausage rolls, the problem is, see, I could make

604
00:55:58.320 --> 00:56:01.679
myself look different on a camera. You know, I've got

605
00:56:01.840 --> 00:56:04.519
editing software. I've got ways of changing how I look

606
00:56:06.199 --> 00:56:09.480
even in this video if I wanted to, and I haven't,

607
00:56:09.559 --> 00:56:12.159
just so you know, but if I wanted to, I

608
00:56:12.199 --> 00:56:15.639
could make my eyes smaller, I could make my head smaller.

609
00:56:16.519 --> 00:56:19.840
I could change the color of my skin. I could

610
00:56:19.840 --> 00:56:23.840
do all kinds of things. It's ridiculous what you can

611
00:56:23.960 --> 00:56:28.239
do with editing now. But I'm not going to do

612
00:56:28.280 --> 00:56:34.159
any of that. And I don't know why I'm telling

613
00:56:34.199 --> 00:56:35.760
you that I'm not going to do any of that,

614
00:56:35.880 --> 00:56:45.280
Because if this is the result of me working really

615
00:56:45.360 --> 00:56:49.559
hard on editing my face to look better than what

616
00:56:49.599 --> 00:56:56.639
I normally do, then something's gone wrong, isn't it. You

617
00:56:56.719 --> 00:57:04.880
know what I mean? So how does that work? Though? So?

618
00:57:05.159 --> 00:57:10.519
Do you put on a made up picture looks nothing

619
00:57:10.679 --> 00:57:17.400
like you and then you go on the date? How

620
00:57:18.119 --> 00:57:20.400
is that going to work? You're just going to hope

621
00:57:20.400 --> 00:57:23.280
that maybe the other person's done exactly the same thing

622
00:57:26.559 --> 00:57:32.599
so that it doesn't matter. I don't know, I mean,

623
00:57:32.599 --> 00:57:35.719
how would you even know that you were the same person?

624
00:57:35.760 --> 00:57:37.679
Because if you go in, Oh, I'm going to meet

625
00:57:37.719 --> 00:57:42.440
you in Weatherspoons or whatever some pub and you both

626
00:57:42.760 --> 00:57:46.679
have messed up with your with your images, so neither

627
00:57:46.719 --> 00:57:49.599
of you look how you really look. And you turn

628
00:57:49.679 --> 00:57:56.079
up at this bar full of people. You're not even

629
00:57:56.119 --> 00:58:00.840
going to meet each other unless you walk up to

630
00:58:00.880 --> 00:58:05.960
each other and say Hi, are you Jucy, JJ, are you?

631
00:58:06.320 --> 00:58:13.400
Are you s Seannaanahna, Mad mcenroy or whatever. So yeah,

632
00:58:20.480 --> 00:58:25.119
hm hmm. Anyway to this lady, I realized that she

633
00:58:25.400 --> 00:58:31.840
was it was because of that advert thing that I

634
00:58:32.239 --> 00:58:37.880
posted in the new local newspaper, and she responded, I mean, obviously,

635
00:58:38.000 --> 00:58:42.800
needless to say, my picture wasn't in the newspaper. And

636
00:58:43.880 --> 00:58:49.079
I realized that if anything was going to happen, we

637
00:58:49.199 --> 00:58:51.920
just have to make it happen now, you know, soon.

638
00:58:52.800 --> 00:58:58.039
So we ended up meeting I think Monday night. Yeah,

639
00:58:58.159 --> 00:59:06.400
it was Monday night because east Enders was the next day. No, yeah,

640
00:59:06.760 --> 00:59:10.719
whatever day Holby City was on, it was the night

641
00:59:10.760 --> 00:59:14.159
before that, so I think Holby City used to be

642
00:59:14.199 --> 00:59:19.239
on a Tuesday night, unless it was on a Thursday night.

643
00:59:19.400 --> 00:59:35.920
This is two thousand and four January. I think it

644
00:59:35.960 --> 00:59:39.880
was a Tuesday night. Anyway, it doesn't really matter. So

645
00:59:40.400 --> 00:59:43.559
I said to her, you know, what's your best feature?

646
00:59:43.639 --> 00:59:46.239
And she told me. I said, okay, where do you

647
00:59:46.280 --> 00:59:50.880
want to meet? And she asked me about myself and

648
00:59:50.920 --> 00:59:52.440
I said, I said, do you want to know anything?

649
00:59:52.480 --> 00:59:53.880
I said no, no, that's fine, that's what I need

650
00:59:53.920 --> 00:59:59.159
to know. And so we just had a little chat

651
00:59:59.199 --> 01:00:02.559
on the phone. She seemed nice, she seemed to like me.

652
01:00:02.639 --> 01:00:08.039
So we met up. I went to this bar. She

653
01:00:08.159 --> 01:00:11.079
was already in there. I think she might have been

654
01:00:11.079 --> 01:00:18.599
in there a while before I got there. And I

655
01:00:18.639 --> 01:00:23.880
sat down and said hello. She said, I don't know.

656
01:00:24.039 --> 01:00:27.400
She was particularly excited to see me, but she acknowledged

657
01:00:27.440 --> 01:00:32.000
I existed, so that was a start. Didn't completely ignore me.

658
01:00:32.599 --> 01:00:42.599
That's happened before. That's enough about my wedding. And I

659
01:00:42.760 --> 01:00:52.039
gave her a oh what's it called? What those eggs?

660
01:00:52.239 --> 01:00:55.760
Kind of surprise kinder surprise eggs. I gave her one

661
01:00:55.760 --> 01:00:58.800
of those. I said, there, go give you something to

662
01:00:58.800 --> 01:01:01.239
play with, if something to play with if you get

663
01:01:01.280 --> 01:01:09.639
bored with me, and we laughed. So we had a drink.

664
01:01:09.679 --> 01:01:12.039
I didn't drink the whole of two thousand and four,

665
01:01:12.159 --> 01:01:15.639
so that intrigued her because she seemed to be enjoying drinking.

666
01:01:18.280 --> 01:01:24.039
And then we went to another place, and then we

667
01:01:24.119 --> 01:01:26.280
went back to my place. She wanted to come back

668
01:01:26.320 --> 01:01:32.280
to mine. I didn't expect that. I never expect that.

669
01:01:34.960 --> 01:01:38.519
I just didn't see that coming. I thought it was

670
01:01:38.559 --> 01:01:41.800
just going to be a date and then probably wouldn't

671
01:01:41.800 --> 01:01:43.480
see her again, or maybe I would see her again,

672
01:01:43.559 --> 01:01:49.920
but just you know, I wasn't expecting anything interesting to happen.

673
01:01:54.119 --> 01:01:56.480
And at the time, I was living in a YMCA,

674
01:01:57.199 --> 01:01:59.920
not in the hostel part, but in the flats part,

675
01:02:00.079 --> 01:02:04.480
so studio apartments, so I did have my own studio apartment.

676
01:02:06.679 --> 01:02:14.440
But I it was messy and there was stuff on

677
01:02:14.480 --> 01:02:17.679
the I just said, just wait here. I went in

678
01:02:17.719 --> 01:02:21.400
and I tried to check everything underneath the bed it was.

679
01:02:21.800 --> 01:02:24.880
It wasn't good. I just didn't know. I didn't think

680
01:02:24.920 --> 01:02:29.400
there was going to be another human in that flat ever,

681
01:02:30.440 --> 01:02:32.440
or that studio thing. I didn't think anyone will ever

682
01:02:32.480 --> 01:02:40.199
go in nextcept me. So she spent the night. I

683
01:02:40.360 --> 01:02:42.880
had fun. I don't know if she did or not.

684
01:02:46.360 --> 01:02:52.360
The relationship did last one more night, so we spent

685
01:02:52.519 --> 01:02:57.280
the Monday night together, spent the Tuesday night together, and

686
01:02:57.360 --> 01:03:00.280
on the Wednesday. It's a little bit like Craig David's song,

687
01:03:00.400 --> 01:03:05.880
except well it's seven nights or seven days Spare the

688
01:03:06.000 --> 01:03:10.119
night on Monday, I spoke, I phoned her up on Sunday.

689
01:03:10.559 --> 01:03:14.599
We went out on Monday, we made love on Monday night,

690
01:03:14.920 --> 01:03:17.920
and then we met up on Tuesday again, and then

691
01:03:17.920 --> 01:03:22.119
Wednesday she dumped me by text. I'm not sure how

692
01:03:22.159 --> 01:03:30.800
those lyrics would go, but she uh so. The Monday

693
01:03:31.599 --> 01:03:35.880
night was pretty good, so quite a good night. The

694
01:03:35.960 --> 01:03:40.840
Tuesday morning, at eleven o'clock, I had my very first

695
01:03:40.920 --> 01:03:48.480
psychiatric evaluation with two psychologists or psychiatrists, psychologists, I'm not sure.

696
01:03:50.800 --> 01:03:58.039
And they said how are you? And I said I'm good,

697
01:03:58.800 --> 01:04:02.960
and I was smiling because I'd had a really good

698
01:04:02.960 --> 01:04:08.599
time and I was in a good mood and I

699
01:04:08.679 --> 01:04:13.079
was on a waiting list for ages to see them.

700
01:04:13.639 --> 01:04:16.880
But the reason I've been waiting to see them wasn't

701
01:04:16.960 --> 01:04:22.000
how I was feeling in that moment, and they couldn't

702
01:04:22.039 --> 01:04:26.000
understand that. I was trying to explain to them, I

703
01:04:26.199 --> 01:04:31.760
just just had a really good night's session. I'm not

704
01:04:31.800 --> 01:04:33.360
sure how I worded it, but I was just like,

705
01:04:33.920 --> 01:04:36.119
I'm in a good mood because of that. Trust me,

706
01:04:36.199 --> 01:04:38.440
this is not my normal, this is not what I'm

707
01:04:38.440 --> 01:04:41.559
normally like. I'm just still buzzing from that because I

708
01:04:41.559 --> 01:04:45.480
got to hold someone's hand. She'd let me touch her leg,

709
01:04:46.639 --> 01:04:56.840
her ankle, oh, you know, and they didn't get it.

710
01:04:56.920 --> 01:05:02.960
They's like, oh, they decided they went outside, not outside

711
01:05:03.000 --> 01:05:05.800
in the cold, but they went into a different room

712
01:05:06.199 --> 01:05:08.760
or into the hallway. I don't know. I wasn't looking

713
01:05:08.760 --> 01:05:14.480
through the keyhole. They were in the hallway, and they

714
01:05:14.559 --> 01:05:17.360
decided that I was okay, there's nothing wrong with me,

715
01:05:18.079 --> 01:05:21.719
didn't need any help because I was in a good

716
01:05:21.760 --> 01:05:30.039
mood on that day. Now at the time, bear in mind,

717
01:05:30.079 --> 01:05:37.039
this is two thousand and four, I'd had over a

718
01:05:37.199 --> 01:05:43.519
year of really I mean, I'd lost my job, lost

719
01:05:43.800 --> 01:05:46.719
you know, got into debt loads of things because of

720
01:05:46.760 --> 01:05:50.840
my situation. And they weren't taking me seriously because I

721
01:05:50.920 --> 01:05:55.840
wasn't taking myself seriously, because I was struggling to take

722
01:05:55.840 --> 01:06:03.599
myself seriously because I'd had a really nice time and

723
01:06:03.719 --> 01:06:07.360
I wasn't over. I wasn't drinking or anything like that,

724
01:06:07.400 --> 01:06:16.719
so I wasn't hungover. I was just buzzing from I guess,

725
01:06:16.800 --> 01:06:23.440
a different type of stimulation. So instead of my brain

726
01:06:24.719 --> 01:06:29.880
stimulating me in ways I didn't want it to, my

727
01:06:29.960 --> 01:06:33.599
brain was being stimulated I was going to say manually,

728
01:06:33.639 --> 01:06:35.119
but That's probably not a good way to put it,

729
01:06:35.199 --> 01:06:40.320
is it. But it was like more naturally, you know,

730
01:06:40.480 --> 01:06:46.199
it was kind of a nice kind of thing. I

731
01:06:46.199 --> 01:06:51.400
don't know how to really verbalize it, but they didn't

732
01:06:51.400 --> 01:06:55.119
take it seriously. The fact that I was grinning and

733
01:06:55.320 --> 01:07:06.760
smiling and laughing probably didn't help. That's the thing, isn't it.

734
01:07:07.079 --> 01:07:15.320
I think you can't. Yeah, And then so I go

735
01:07:15.400 --> 01:07:22.760
through the next how many years? So yeah, I go

736
01:07:22.800 --> 01:07:35.280
through the next six years of that's ridiculous. It's like, yeah,

737
01:07:35.679 --> 01:07:39.119
losing jobs and all kinds of things because of my

738
01:07:41.800 --> 01:07:49.880
mood stuff. And it took a doctor again. This was

739
01:07:49.920 --> 01:07:54.960
twenty eleven in I don't know if it was August,

740
01:07:55.039 --> 01:07:58.440
maybe it was July. I went to a doctor. This

741
01:07:58.519 --> 01:08:01.199
is when I realized that because I'd gone from being

742
01:08:03.519 --> 01:08:11.440
up to not being up, and this doctor wasn't my

743
01:08:11.480 --> 01:08:16.800
regular doctor. She I think my regular doctor was. I

744
01:08:16.880 --> 01:08:20.119
got an emergency appointment, so my regular doctor couldn't see me.

745
01:08:20.880 --> 01:08:28.520
So and this doctor I'd not seen before. She looked

746
01:08:28.520 --> 01:08:30.720
back at my files and she saw that I'd been

747
01:08:30.760 --> 01:08:40.159
on medication since ninety five and all the different things

748
01:08:40.239 --> 01:08:42.239
that have been on my record, on my you know,

749
01:08:42.319 --> 01:08:48.119
on my file and all that stuff. Bang my microphone,

750
01:08:48.199 --> 01:08:51.039
and she said, if you had, if you had a

751
01:08:51.079 --> 01:08:53.760
psychiatric ever being referred, And I said, yeah, I've got

752
01:08:53.760 --> 01:08:56.720
referred two thousand and four. But I got laid that

753
01:08:56.920 --> 01:08:58.760
night before and I was just in a good mood.

754
01:08:59.640 --> 01:09:04.880
She aft, and I said, I wasn't really representing myself

755
01:09:05.000 --> 01:09:07.920
very well. She said, well, in future, when you're with

756
01:09:07.960 --> 01:09:11.159
a doctor, maybe don't mention getting laid. I said, okay,

757
01:09:11.880 --> 01:09:13.359
do you feel like I should have said something different

758
01:09:13.359 --> 01:09:15.640
to them? She said, I'm talking about me. Shouldn't have

759
01:09:15.640 --> 01:09:23.760
said it to me now, So okay, ooh, and I

760
01:09:23.880 --> 01:09:26.039
still got the letter. I did have the letter. I'm

761
01:09:26.079 --> 01:09:30.079
not sure if I got it now somewhere She said,

762
01:09:30.119 --> 01:09:37.720
I'm going to refer you to a psychiatrist. I said, okay,

763
01:09:37.960 --> 01:09:41.840
And so to get a diagnosis, because she said that

764
01:09:43.439 --> 01:09:49.039
you need a proper session, proper be taken seriously, because

765
01:09:49.039 --> 01:09:51.960
this is just happening too much, and she's been going

766
01:09:51.960 --> 01:09:56.880
on for too long. So I that's what happened. So

767
01:09:56.920 --> 01:09:59.399
I was on put on antidepressants, and then I went

768
01:09:59.439 --> 01:10:05.439
to the psychiatrists at the beginning of Somber twenty eleven,

769
01:10:06.720 --> 01:10:14.479
and after quite a long time dissecting my life, going

770
01:10:14.520 --> 01:10:20.720
back over stuff, and also looking at my medical history.

771
01:10:21.920 --> 01:10:30.640
I was diagnosed with bipolar effective disorder and put on medication,

772
01:10:32.199 --> 01:10:41.399
which I took for a few days and then stopped.

773
01:10:44.319 --> 01:10:45.920
I still took the end of the persons, but I

774
01:10:45.920 --> 01:10:58.039
didn't take the the antipsychotic stuff. And then twenty twelve,

775
01:10:59.760 --> 01:11:06.399
when by still all over the place, twenty thirteen, I

776
01:11:06.479 --> 01:11:10.359
was still on the antidepress now I stopped taking the antidepressants.

777
01:11:10.640 --> 01:11:18.960
Twenty thirteen I went back on antidepressants in the springtime,

778
01:11:23.640 --> 01:11:27.319
and then about August September, I couldn't go back to

779
01:11:27.359 --> 01:11:34.640
work anymore. I had just couldn't do it, And eventually

780
01:11:34.680 --> 01:11:38.880
I was referred to see a psychiatrist again. This time

781
01:11:39.039 --> 01:11:48.399
I saw four different psychiatrists interviewed, and I think one

782
01:11:48.479 --> 01:11:50.880
was twice and the other two, so two different, three

783
01:11:50.920 --> 01:11:54.439
different psychiatrists. One I saw twice and I saw another

784
01:11:54.479 --> 01:12:05.000
one and this was like over a probably every two weeks,

785
01:12:07.520 --> 01:12:16.920
and they decided that I had bipolar effective disorder. So

786
01:12:16.960 --> 01:12:20.840
I was re re not reassigned, and that sounds the

787
01:12:20.880 --> 01:12:23.600
wrong word, isn't it. I was rediagnosed with what I'd

788
01:12:23.640 --> 01:12:28.520
already proved is to being diagnosed as with anxiety and stuff,

789
01:12:28.680 --> 01:12:34.760
and so I started having I started going in having psychotherapy,

790
01:12:35.600 --> 01:12:37.520
so I was on a waiting list for that. I

791
01:12:37.560 --> 01:12:41.640
was put on medication for the mood stabilizers for the

792
01:12:41.680 --> 01:12:53.199
bipolar and still took the antidepressants as well, and then

793
01:12:54.920 --> 01:12:58.680
I didn't know right I was. I had psychotherapy for

794
01:12:59.760 --> 01:13:03.680
over a year year and a half. I was finally

795
01:13:03.720 --> 01:13:08.680
released two thousand and seventeen or was it twenty eighteen,

796
01:13:09.640 --> 01:13:17.479
So from two thousand and thirteen for five years really,

797
01:13:17.600 --> 01:13:20.800
so from beginning to them releasing me, it was a

798
01:13:20.880 --> 01:13:23.680
five year period. It wasn't like all the time for

799
01:13:23.720 --> 01:13:26.720
five years, and I wasn't hospitalized or anything, but it

800
01:13:26.800 --> 01:13:28.640
was a five year period when I went to the

801
01:13:28.680 --> 01:13:33.359
bipolar group and you know, all different things. And eventually

802
01:13:33.399 --> 01:13:38.560
after five years I was released released from my contract

803
01:13:41.600 --> 01:13:45.760
and my psychotherapist. First of all, I went to see

804
01:13:45.800 --> 01:13:52.119
her and then she started coming here, it's my psychologist,

805
01:13:52.279 --> 01:13:56.279
and we were doing I didn't know what. I didn't

806
01:13:56.319 --> 01:14:00.600
know what we were doing. And she said something to

807
01:14:00.640 --> 01:14:03.479
me once because I said, I don't know what it was.

808
01:14:03.520 --> 01:14:07.800
I said to her it was like a question, I

809
01:14:07.800 --> 01:14:12.640
don't understand this, understand why this happens, I said, I

810
01:14:12.680 --> 01:14:14.239
don't know why I'm like this. So I was sitting

811
01:14:14.239 --> 01:14:16.560
over there at the table, she was sitting opposite at

812
01:14:16.560 --> 01:14:20.159
the table, and I had Andre running around trying to

813
01:14:20.159 --> 01:14:24.239
get inside a purse. He was literally inside a handbag

814
01:14:24.279 --> 01:14:29.039
at some point. It was funny. She didn't laugh. I did,

815
01:14:29.800 --> 01:14:33.600
and I said, I don't understand that, and she said, well,

816
01:14:34.279 --> 01:14:38.600
it's probably just it's because of the part of the

817
01:14:38.640 --> 01:14:47.760
personality disorder. I said, what. So this was twenty fifteen, right,

818
01:14:49.880 --> 01:14:52.560
No one said anything to me about having a personality disorder.

819
01:14:53.399 --> 01:14:55.880
I knew about the bipolar. They told me bipolar. I'd

820
01:14:55.920 --> 01:15:02.520
already been diagnosed before bipolar. Okay, no one mentioned personality disorder,

821
01:15:02.840 --> 01:15:06.079
but they diagnosed me and not even told me that

822
01:15:06.199 --> 01:15:13.000
was my official diagnosis medically. Yeah, And I was upset

823
01:15:13.199 --> 01:15:19.359
because it it tapped into something separate, which I do

824
01:15:19.439 --> 01:15:28.479
not want to go into. But it was really weird.

825
01:15:29.840 --> 01:15:34.279
So I suppose really I wasn't probably diagnosed with bipolar,

826
01:15:34.319 --> 01:15:39.359
probably till two thousand. No, it's twenty thirteen. The end

827
01:15:39.359 --> 01:15:43.000
of twenty thirteen, I suppose, So it's over a year

828
01:15:43.000 --> 01:15:45.720
and a half before I even heard about the borderline

829
01:15:45.760 --> 01:15:55.199
personality like emotionally unstable borderline personality disorder EUPDP. Are you

830
01:15:56.159 --> 01:16:05.479
emotionally unstable personality disorder? If okay, I've got to look

831
01:16:05.520 --> 01:16:23.880
this up. EUPD with with there's different things that comes

832
01:16:23.920 --> 01:16:38.039
with it can come with, okay, emotional unstowed personality disorder.

833
01:16:42.319 --> 01:16:47.800
It affects hundly one percent of the population. It's common

834
01:16:47.880 --> 01:16:52.359
for EUPD to coexist with other psychological health conditions, eg.

835
01:16:52.560 --> 01:16:59.479
Depression and other anxiety and stuff. The cause used includes

836
01:16:59.520 --> 01:17:04.880
both in genetic and environmental with a history of childhood stuff.

837
01:17:12.680 --> 01:17:17.239
So DBT. What my psychologist was coming around and do

838
01:17:17.319 --> 01:17:24.159
with me was DBT called dialectical behavioral therapy. I didn't

839
01:17:24.159 --> 01:17:32.560
know that. I didn't know. So she was really there

840
01:17:32.640 --> 01:17:39.960
more for them personality disorder than for the bipolar. I mean,

841
01:17:39.960 --> 01:17:49.159
with bipolar there's coping strategies, there's yeah, there's an overlap

842
01:17:49.199 --> 01:17:53.640
with the whole what's going on here. Some of the

843
01:17:53.680 --> 01:17:59.880
symptoms intense fluctuating emotions with mood changes out at hour

844
01:18:00.199 --> 01:18:06.520
or day to day tack relationships are difficulty maintaining stable relationships.

845
01:18:07.479 --> 01:18:15.399
I don't even don't even try to anymore. Impulsivity, Yeah,

846
01:18:15.640 --> 01:18:20.560
apparently that's what I minus is EUBD with impulsivity, and

847
01:18:24.039 --> 01:18:31.279
I think I'll have to look it up, but yeah,

848
01:18:31.520 --> 01:18:35.119
it's it's really weird to see something and just like

849
01:18:35.159 --> 01:18:40.680
it explained you, it's very strange. But there's also the

850
01:18:40.680 --> 01:18:44.479
the bipolar as well, so it's kind of it's both

851
01:18:44.520 --> 01:18:48.640
of them. I don't know why I'm talking about this today,

852
01:18:48.680 --> 01:18:57.279
because this isn't really let me boy to sleep proper. Really, Vinny,

853
01:18:57.399 --> 01:18:59.279
are you really going to be making noises like that?

854
01:19:00.880 --> 01:19:05.720
This isn't really Maybe I'm just going to call it

855
01:19:05.760 --> 01:19:13.640
talking about bipolar and b DP eup D. I don't know,

856
01:19:15.079 --> 01:19:17.399
talking about being mental. I suppose I could put that

857
01:19:17.520 --> 01:19:26.319
down how mental am I? I don't know it's I

858
01:19:26.359 --> 01:19:29.479
don't know what the title could be, but yeah, I

859
01:19:29.520 --> 01:19:31.880
thought it just it just seems to be what I've

860
01:19:31.920 --> 01:19:36.600
talked about. I don't ever really plan what I'm going

861
01:19:36.680 --> 01:19:42.880
to talk about, but I guess if I put it

862
01:19:42.880 --> 01:19:46.640
in the title, then people are going to know it

863
01:19:46.720 --> 01:19:50.279
makes sense, doesn't it. It makes a sense to me.

864
01:19:55.840 --> 01:20:03.279
I've got a very iffy fart building up. It's a

865
01:20:03.319 --> 01:20:07.199
confusing part, you know. I'm not sure if it's safe

866
01:20:07.279 --> 01:20:15.760
or not. And I literally just had a shower a

867
01:20:15.800 --> 01:20:19.319
few weeks ago. So I don't want to I don't

868
01:20:19.319 --> 01:20:22.079
want to make him. I don't want to make a

869
01:20:22.159 --> 01:20:31.159
miss wow, oh dear. So Yeah, I just I don't

870
01:20:31.159 --> 01:20:36.600
know why I'm talking about this. I don't know why

871
01:20:37.319 --> 01:20:45.680
I'm talking about this. I don't know why I'm talking

872
01:20:45.840 --> 01:20:52.920
so much crab. So that's it. Really, I'm just just

873
01:20:53.039 --> 01:20:57.279
chatting about I suppose because I've been Yeah, I've been

874
01:20:57.279 --> 01:21:01.159
going through it a little bit, and I suppose I

875
01:21:01.239 --> 01:21:06.000
kind of would like to kind of explain a little

876
01:21:06.000 --> 01:21:10.000
bit about what it's like from my perspective. I don't

877
01:21:10.000 --> 01:21:13.560
think I have, really, I don't think I've particularly delved

878
01:21:13.640 --> 01:21:21.000
too deeply. I've touched the surface. But I don't know.

879
01:21:25.000 --> 01:21:30.119
I didn't expect a therapy session. Nobody expects a therapy session.

880
01:21:30.680 --> 01:21:38.079
I don't know. I might have a cornetto. I know

881
01:21:38.159 --> 01:21:40.800
it's not perhaps relevant to what we're talking about, but

882
01:21:42.199 --> 01:21:48.600
I suddenly got the urge, the urge to purge on cornetto's.

883
01:21:51.479 --> 01:21:54.560
So that's it. I'm going to go, thank you for listening,

884
01:21:56.560 --> 01:22:00.359
and remember to be kind to yourself because you do

885
01:22:00.479 --> 01:22:04.680
deserve to be happy and be gentle. With yourself. You

886
01:22:04.800 --> 01:22:22.039
deserve to feel safe, lots of love, bye, relax in

887
01:22:22.079 --> 01:22:32.840
a more deep and meaningful way, maybe in a way

888
01:22:32.960 --> 01:22:41.680
that can not just allow you to feel calmer now

889
01:22:42.680 --> 01:22:51.279
and throughout the time we spend together here, not just

890
01:22:51.560 --> 01:22:57.159
relaxed at the end of the recording when it's finished

891
01:22:57.199 --> 01:23:03.800
and you can enjoy that sense of comfort and peace,

892
01:23:08.520 --> 01:23:21.319
but also I think it would be nice to have

893
01:23:21.840 --> 01:23:38.840
those feelings of relaxation continue for longer after the recording

894
01:23:38.880 --> 01:23:52.359
has ended, so that you can still benefit from listening

895
01:23:53.239 --> 01:24:02.199
to my voice, maybe in a few hours time, perhaps tomorrow,

896
01:24:08.199 --> 01:24:16.039
and then by listening regularly, especially if you find like

897
01:24:16.199 --> 01:24:19.640
some people do and myself as well. I sometimes I

898
01:24:19.800 --> 01:24:30.359
find one particular recording that really resonates with me, and

899
01:24:30.439 --> 01:24:35.640
I just listen to it over and over again every morning,

900
01:24:35.800 --> 01:24:48.359
every evening. There was this recording from We're going back

901
01:24:48.399 --> 01:24:53.680
to about nineteen ninety nine. It was it wasn't hypnosis,

902
01:24:53.760 --> 01:24:59.079
but it was a guided visualizations. It kind of was hypnosis, really,

903
01:25:01.520 --> 01:25:06.720
and I managed to find it again and it still

904
01:25:06.800 --> 01:25:12.399
has the same effect on me. And part of it

905
01:25:12.560 --> 01:25:27.279
was the person's voice relaxed me just felt so peaceful,

906
01:25:29.399 --> 01:25:35.960
and I'd look forward to listening to her in the

907
01:25:35.960 --> 01:25:46.680
morning and in the evening, and I knew before even

908
01:25:47.439 --> 01:25:55.920
pressing the play button that since I've done that pressed

909
01:25:55.920 --> 01:26:04.479
the play button. This was in the days of CD

910
01:26:04.680 --> 01:26:13.319
players press the play button. In fact, it might have

911
01:26:13.399 --> 01:26:17.760
even been a tape tape recorder. I'd lie down on

912
01:26:17.800 --> 01:26:30.640
the bed and then even without necessarily listening to her

913
01:26:30.840 --> 01:26:43.760
words because I had them memorized. Really, it was as

914
01:26:43.800 --> 01:26:54.520
if my body knew exactly what to do, and the

915
01:26:54.680 --> 01:27:16.720
muscles just almost went into automatic relaxation, and I remember

916
01:27:16.800 --> 01:27:30.880
my mind would slow down. Now. Now, I was listening

917
01:27:30.920 --> 01:27:37.680
to this recording in the early days of learning hypnosis,

918
01:27:40.239 --> 01:27:48.079
and long before I ever made any videos or audio

919
01:27:48.119 --> 01:27:52.880
recordings myself, because I didn't start doing that till two

920
01:27:52.920 --> 01:28:12.199
thousand and six, I knew, I knew how helpful I

921
01:28:12.279 --> 01:28:22.600
found being able to just let go, to have that

922
01:28:22.960 --> 01:28:35.600
trust in the person that I'm listening to, knowing that

923
01:28:35.680 --> 01:28:44.000
it's going to be just as relaxing, if not more so.

924
01:28:46.640 --> 01:28:53.640
Each time you hear my voice, you may feel the same.

925
01:29:00.079 --> 01:29:14.640
Some people have been listening to me for over a decade.

926
01:29:15.439 --> 01:29:19.439
Maybe not solidly, obviously, not twenty four hours a day,

927
01:29:21.199 --> 01:29:28.279
but maybe people come back. Some people maybe listen every day.

928
01:29:39.439 --> 01:29:47.439
There's something that I do which you may not realize

929
01:29:47.840 --> 01:30:06.439
by listening. Is when I record these recordings. Now, for example,

930
01:30:10.960 --> 01:30:23.119
I also am affected by the words that I say.

931
01:30:24.000 --> 01:30:33.359
So if I set you focus on your feet, notice

932
01:30:33.439 --> 01:30:40.800
your feet relaxing, I will be focusing on my feet.

933
01:30:45.560 --> 01:31:02.960
I will be noticing my feet relaxing. If I said,

934
01:31:03.079 --> 01:31:10.760
focus on your hands, and maybe notice the difference between

935
01:31:10.800 --> 01:31:21.079
each hand, perhaps notice the the air in the room,

936
01:31:21.600 --> 01:31:27.079
the temperature of the room. On the backs of your hands.

937
01:31:34.199 --> 01:31:38.119
You may start to notice what almost feels like a

938
01:31:38.239 --> 01:31:46.319
very light breeze, even though there may not be any

939
01:31:46.720 --> 01:31:51.640
type of breeze at all where you are right now.

940
01:31:59.760 --> 01:32:10.399
And as you become aware of your hands, I'm also

941
01:32:10.760 --> 01:32:22.439
aware of how relaxed my hands our feeling.

942
01:32:23.880 --> 01:32:33.800
Now.

943
01:32:38.880 --> 01:32:44.720
And when it comes to potentially drifting off to sleep,

944
01:32:45.800 --> 01:32:58.399
which may be the reason you're listening, I also feel

945
01:32:58.560 --> 01:33:12.760
drowsy when I make these recordings. I also notice my

946
01:33:13.079 --> 01:33:29.359
mind drifting. In fact, at times I've actually fallen asleep

947
01:33:34.960 --> 01:33:49.439
without even noticing, and then I carry on talking. It's

948
01:33:49.520 --> 01:33:58.520
only when I listen back to do the editing I

949
01:33:58.680 --> 01:34:04.600
hear snoring, yeah, and I think I don't remember snoring.

950
01:34:07.840 --> 01:34:14.720
I remember talking. Is this snoring was a pig turned up?

951
01:34:18.680 --> 01:34:26.079
That's why I sound like when I snare and I

952
01:34:26.159 --> 01:34:39.640
get really into the whole experience. I don't know how

953
01:34:39.760 --> 01:34:49.000
you feel. How relaxed do you feel in your feet?

954
01:34:52.119 --> 01:35:15.000
How relaxed you feel in your hands. I have noticed

955
01:35:17.600 --> 01:35:33.840
more and more that the more relaxed, deeper level of

956
01:35:34.079 --> 01:35:51.319
comfort you feel, the easier your breathing becomes. It's almost

957
01:35:51.720 --> 01:36:12.000
like that additional muscle relaxation. So this allows you the

958
01:36:12.159 --> 01:36:38.600
free easier without necessarily focusing on your breath, however, being

959
01:36:38.640 --> 01:37:08.319
able to notice the ease in which you breathe so naturally.

960
01:37:22.960 --> 01:38:05.680
You breathe so very easily and smoothly. Whenever I imagine my

961
01:38:05.880 --> 01:38:22.239
breathing improving, when I've got my eyes closed, I tend

962
01:38:22.319 --> 01:38:42.840
to visualize a beautiful field with trees and flowers producing

963
01:38:42.960 --> 01:39:17.000
all that life giving oxygen. It feels nice too, if

964
01:39:17.119 --> 01:39:47.840
nothing else, just taking some time away from everything, enjoying

965
01:39:54.079 --> 01:40:45.279
that feeling of he's serenity with a joyful heart. Time

966
01:40:45.720 --> 01:41:16.399
seems to just drip by so very slowly, relaxed, so

967
01:41:17.000 --> 01:41:56.439
deeply peaceful, completely unattached to any thoughts, whatsoever in this moment,

968
01:42:13.079 --> 01:43:00.199
completely free, noticing that your mind has slowed down muh,

969
01:43:08.279 --> 01:43:55.079
slowed down because nothing really requires your attention. You can

970
01:43:55.279 --> 01:44:12.399
enjoy the physical sensations of allowing the stress rip out

971
01:44:12.439 --> 01:44:31.960
of your body, to appear out of every part of

972
01:44:32.119 --> 01:44:56.640
your body and being released from your brain in your

973
01:44:56.800 --> 01:45:47.920
mind slowly but surely. The muscles in you les relax

974
01:45:52.880 --> 01:46:43.119
res mhm so very deeply, relacs so deeply, and the feelings,

975
01:46:45.720 --> 01:47:10.640
the pleasant feelings in your arms and shoulders, deepening each

976
01:47:11.039 --> 01:47:49.079
part of your body further and deeper and deeper. Noticing

977
01:47:52.359 --> 01:48:19.199
the feelings in the back of your neck, feelings in

978
01:48:19.239 --> 01:49:15.720
your wrists, muscles in front of your body. I also

979
01:49:18.560 --> 01:49:57.840
feeling peaceful deeply. There's a sense of peace spreads through

980
01:49:59.359 --> 01:50:37.159
your very core. Even when you focus on your mind.

981
01:50:49.079 --> 01:51:35.640
Your mind becomes beef and slowly lower yeven deeper, relaxing,

982
01:51:59.439 --> 01:53:00.279
so very slow his stomach he's for in your stomach back.

983
01:53:05.560 --> 01:53:34.439
Notice Notice how relaxed you'd now fear in the hole

984
01:53:34.760 --> 01:54:07.640
of your back. In spy from your brain all the

985
01:54:07.680 --> 01:54:16.399
way down the middle of your back, sending and receiving

986
01:54:18.800 --> 01:54:50.840
millions of messages every day, deep comfort increasing deeply relaxed,

987
01:55:20.760 --> 01:55:57.680
you knees, spreading these signals down a spine or cord

988
01:56:00.239 --> 01:56:19.119
into air, every part of your body, your shins and

989
01:56:19.239 --> 01:57:10.880
your calf muscles. We're outbursts feelings of peace and tranquility

990
01:57:14.760 --> 01:57:28.760
spreading through your body, tips of your toes, to your eyes,

991
01:57:33.159 --> 01:57:52.560
your fingers, all the way to your lower back. Letting go,

992
01:57:54.880 --> 01:59:06.840
radiatink peace, drifting mind just wandering away, happy to let go,

993
01:59:10.079 --> 02:00:11.399
let go completely, let go, so tranquil, the whole body,

994
02:00:15.720 --> 02:02:38.600
enjoying a sensor listing go, geph more p enjoy the space,

995
02:02:40.920 --> 02:02:46.399
this space of peace.

996
02:02:49.520 --> 02:04:53.039
And safety, so fiery, relaxed, lessing go.

997
02:05:11.119 --> 02:05:18.760
Maybe we can just focus on the different parts of

998
02:05:18.840 --> 02:06:26.720
your body, just to notice your forehead and your eyes mutual,

999
02:06:32.319 --> 02:07:13.039
so loose, noticing the sense of complete freedom, absolute freedom,

1000
02:07:59.119 --> 02:09:03.600
yes day, pres day, Peace for energy, peace to breathe

1001
02:09:07.760 --> 02:10:18.279
much easier lest you may have I may not have

1002
02:10:18.520 --> 02:11:19.880
noticed your mind drifting peace for moveingly, even more deeply

1003
02:11:25.359 --> 02:12:13.119
in the direction of total blissful pace, blissful pace, arrest,

1004
02:13:01.079 --> 02:14:13.479
total peace, com so calm, letting go peace with mind

1005
02:14:23.119 --> 02:15:27.319
rexed firty sir, relaxed, so relaxed. Your body feels almost invisible,

1006
02:15:42.560 --> 02:16:44.840
so very relaxed. I'm peaceful, so peace real liquor, so peaceful,

1007
02:16:50.719 --> 02:17:05.840
so fair face, And you could start to notice that

1008
02:17:06.840 --> 02:17:17.639
you are feeling more relaxed, even though I've not purposely

1009
02:17:19.079 --> 02:17:28.000
focused your mind upon that sense of physical comfort that

1010
02:17:28.239 --> 02:17:35.200
is growing within you throughout your body, and your mind

1011
02:17:37.319 --> 02:17:45.719
starts to slow down, and that could be almost in

1012
02:17:46.639 --> 02:17:55.200
recognition of I guess my speech not being particularly fast,

1013
02:18:01.760 --> 02:18:12.159
and things just generally feel calmer. Just by listening to

1014
02:18:12.319 --> 02:18:20.879
my voice, you give yourself an opportunity to take a

1015
02:18:21.040 --> 02:18:27.799
break from the day, take a break from your life

1016
02:18:28.959 --> 02:18:37.440
as it is, and to give yourself a rest, giving

1017
02:18:37.479 --> 02:18:44.959
yourself permission to take some time off and to allow

1018
02:18:45.120 --> 02:18:51.280
your body to relax and allow your mind to slow down,

1019
02:18:55.360 --> 02:19:03.639
which in turn releases the any stresses that you had

1020
02:19:03.719 --> 02:19:13.479
in your body. It's almost as if the parts of

1021
02:19:13.559 --> 02:19:25.479
your body just open up, allowing the negativity out and

1022
02:19:25.639 --> 02:19:34.040
at the same time replacing that negativity with positive heathing energy,

1023
02:19:37.120 --> 02:19:41.719
which then fills your body up and your mind to

1024
02:19:43.360 --> 02:20:01.760
also starts to appreciate those feelings of increasing confidence, an

1025
02:20:01.840 --> 02:20:18.920
almost uplifting feeling, positive healing, an energy that spreads through

1026
02:20:19.040 --> 02:20:29.680
your body like a wave of comfort, and all This

1027
02:20:30.040 --> 02:20:42.079
comes from just allowing yourself a few minutes, maybe half

1028
02:20:42.120 --> 02:20:45.959
an hour, however long you want it to be, to

1029
02:20:46.319 --> 02:21:00.159
just rest and allow your mind and your body to

1030
02:21:00.280 --> 02:21:16.840
almost reset itself to the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness,

1031
02:21:21.120 --> 02:21:30.479
which allows more room for feelings of pleasure and happiness

1032
02:21:34.520 --> 02:21:43.319
to move around your body and into your mind, almost

1033
02:21:44.159 --> 02:21:48.719
as if your mind and your body are sinking together,

1034
02:21:53.000 --> 02:22:02.680
almost mirroring each other with that growing positivity and calmness,

1035
02:22:07.760 --> 02:22:14.959
And it feels nice. It really does feel nice to

1036
02:22:15.159 --> 02:22:20.840
know that you are the one that has allowed yourself

1037
02:22:24.319 --> 02:22:36.520
to feel more comfort and to experience more of this

1038
02:22:38.360 --> 02:22:53.520
deep relaxation spreading throughout your body. And as I focus

1039
02:22:55.079 --> 02:23:00.840
on each part of your body, you can noticed that

1040
02:23:01.040 --> 02:23:15.559
that part becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on it.

1041
02:23:18.120 --> 02:23:27.760
It becomes even more calm and comfortable just by focusing.

1042
02:23:31.840 --> 02:23:37.559
And as I move down your body, starting at your head,

1043
02:23:40.280 --> 02:23:47.000
the parts that you've already focused on will continue to

1044
02:23:47.159 --> 02:23:54.799
relax deeply, and those parts that we've not yet focused

1045
02:23:54.879 --> 02:24:08.200
on were just automatically release any remain intention in anticipation

1046
02:24:08.639 --> 02:24:21.639
of even more comfort about to come. Now, I'm going

1047
02:24:21.719 --> 02:24:28.600
to start by focusing on your forehead. Just being aware

1048
02:24:28.959 --> 02:24:37.520
of the feelings of your forehead and any background sounds

1049
02:24:39.319 --> 02:24:44.159
like mister Herbert the Pigeon can just allow you to

1050
02:24:44.360 --> 02:24:51.600
feel even more relaxed. Just means you're in the moment.

1051
02:24:54.719 --> 02:24:57.719
This isn't this isn't a sterile environment.

1052
02:24:59.120 --> 02:24:59.959
This is the world.

1053
02:25:03.520 --> 02:25:09.559
I live in the countryside, so there's lots of nature

1054
02:25:10.120 --> 02:25:20.600
sounds around. So as you focus on your forehead, just

1055
02:25:20.879 --> 02:25:28.639
notice how it becomes even more relaxed as you focus

1056
02:25:30.959 --> 02:25:35.440
only on my voice and that part of your body.

1057
02:25:40.600 --> 02:25:48.879
Moving down to your eyes, focusing on your eyes, noticing

1058
02:25:51.360 --> 02:26:01.079
how your eyelids feel so heavy yet so light at

1059
02:26:01.120 --> 02:26:07.559
the same time, and all the muscles around your eyes

1060
02:26:07.840 --> 02:26:22.239
relaxing completely. Moving your focus down to your mouth, your lips,

1061
02:26:22.719 --> 02:26:29.079
your tongue, your teeth, and your gumbs in the whole

1062
02:26:29.319 --> 02:26:43.879
of your mouth, relaxing, calm and loose. As you focus

1063
02:26:44.120 --> 02:26:51.639
now on your jaw, not just the part of your

1064
02:26:51.760 --> 02:26:56.239
jaw near your mouth and your chin, but all the

1065
02:26:56.319 --> 02:27:00.680
way up the side of your face to your ears,

1066
02:27:02.959 --> 02:27:18.840
the hole of your jaw, feeding more relaxed and calm.

1067
02:27:27.040 --> 02:27:36.079
Focusing on your neck, the front of your neck and

1068
02:27:36.239 --> 02:27:49.239
your throat, relaxing and loose and calm. The sides of

1069
02:27:49.360 --> 02:27:54.600
your neck, the right and left side of your neck

1070
02:27:57.559 --> 02:27:58.879
relax and.

1071
02:28:00.399 --> 02:28:14.000
Loose and calm, And now the back of your neck.

1072
02:28:17.319 --> 02:28:26.559
Focus in on the back of your neck, letting go

1073
02:28:27.280 --> 02:28:33.040
of any tension that may have been there before, and

1074
02:28:33.719 --> 02:28:47.360
enjoying that sense of increasing comfort and release that you

1075
02:28:47.520 --> 02:28:58.280
can experience in the back of your neck. Moving down

1076
02:28:58.799 --> 02:29:06.040
your back and moving either side of your spine right

1077
02:29:06.200 --> 02:29:11.120
from the top of your back all the way down

1078
02:29:11.760 --> 02:29:24.159
to the bottom of your back down to your lower back.

1079
02:29:29.239 --> 02:29:36.280
And as you move up and down your spine, you

1080
02:29:36.399 --> 02:29:43.520
can feel the muscles either side of your spine relaxing

1081
02:29:44.200 --> 02:29:57.600
even more. And as those muscles relax, that sense of

1082
02:29:57.840 --> 02:30:08.520
comfort starts to spray outwards from your spine into both

1083
02:30:08.719 --> 02:30:15.760
sides of your back, the top of your back, the

1084
02:30:15.959 --> 02:30:24.319
middle and your lower back. And as you scan gently

1085
02:30:24.840 --> 02:30:32.200
and slowly up and down your back, there's the muscles

1086
02:30:32.399 --> 02:30:37.479
in the top of your back relax and become looser.

1087
02:30:41.840 --> 02:30:47.799
The muscles in the middle of your back also seem

1088
02:30:47.920 --> 02:30:57.440
to just almost divide from each other, separating and almost melting,

1089
02:31:03.200 --> 02:31:09.200
And in your lower back it seems to be an

1090
02:31:09.280 --> 02:31:23.440
extra special feeling of comfort that spreads into your hips,

1091
02:31:25.760 --> 02:31:33.559
sit down your lower back, into your hips, into the

1092
02:31:33.760 --> 02:31:42.520
area where your cosicks are, and into your buttocks, and

1093
02:31:42.639 --> 02:31:51.840
all these muscles that spread from your lower back into

1094
02:31:51.920 --> 02:32:05.360
your hip area start to melt, start to really let go,

1095
02:32:12.079 --> 02:32:18.840
and even nowhere about to focus on your shoulders, your

1096
02:32:19.040 --> 02:32:29.680
back and your spine will continue to let go, continue

1097
02:32:30.520 --> 02:32:45.399
to relax so calmly, and as you focus on your shoulders,

1098
02:32:47.159 --> 02:33:03.239
you may notice that they're already feeling really loose, already

1099
02:33:06.280 --> 02:33:29.479
feeding calm and feeding those muscles then move from your

1100
02:33:29.639 --> 02:33:49.000
neck into your shoulders. Feel so soft and gentle, so

1101
02:33:49.520 --> 02:34:18.440
smooth and calm, and the feeding in your shoulders seens

1102
02:34:18.719 --> 02:34:26.399
to spread deep into your shoulders, that sense of relaxation,

1103
02:34:27.639 --> 02:34:39.120
not just traveling deeply into your muscles, but also relaxing

1104
02:34:41.959 --> 02:34:51.879
the bones and moving all away to underneath your arms,

1105
02:34:54.680 --> 02:35:00.639
relaxing that whole area between the tops of your shoulders

1106
02:35:01.959 --> 02:35:19.719
and underneath your arms healing. You feel so relaxed and

1107
02:35:20.000 --> 02:35:35.559
comfortable in your shoulders. Who sends that deep healing message

1108
02:35:40.920 --> 02:35:52.799
into your arms, You may feel almost as if your

1109
02:35:53.159 --> 02:36:02.399
arms are not even there, because they're so relaxed, so

1110
02:36:04.000 --> 02:36:52.559
deeply relaxed, so so calm, so not feeling, spreading all

1111
02:36:53.040 --> 02:37:06.719
the way down your arms to elbows, including your elbows

1112
02:37:16.559 --> 02:37:32.879
circumforts spreads or away into your wrists, your forearments and

1113
02:37:33.079 --> 02:37:55.920
your wrists so heavy, yet at the same time so

1114
02:37:56.239 --> 02:39:00.280
light and gentle. Freak. See now on your hands, my hands, Yeah,

1115
02:39:02.600 --> 02:39:05.440
so peaceful.

1116
02:39:06.520 --> 02:39:07.639
In your hands.

1117
02:39:26.120 --> 02:39:45.159
There's a sense of real peace. It just seems to

1118
02:39:49.120 --> 02:40:10.120
I feel so familiar when your hands relax deeply. Yes,

1119
02:40:27.840 --> 02:41:36.280
your things, A thing is sidle, a thing, it tips.

1120
02:42:04.920 --> 02:42:24.040
Moving your attention to the front of your body, so comfortable,

1121
02:42:35.079 --> 02:44:01.799
moving your focus to your legs. Why my souls in

1122
02:44:01.959 --> 02:44:55.840
your thighs, your knees, so relaxed, a calf, muscles and

1123
02:44:56.120 --> 02:47:12.920
just chins, a puzy the feathing your feet, sir, peaceful,

1124
02:47:15.040 --> 02:48:06.840
so calm, so peaceful, so calm, so peaceful, so calm,

1125
02:48:11.120 --> 02:48:44.600
so peace fall RelA sin peace fall, so calm, loving

1126
02:48:44.719 --> 02:48:51.840
that deep relaxation, to spread your chest, in your stomach,

1127
02:48:55.600 --> 02:49:23.360
so relat letting go everything. So I'm gonna start counting

1128
02:49:23.479 --> 02:49:35.200
down now, from twenty down to one. You can imagine

1129
02:49:35.239 --> 02:49:38.959
in a way it's like just walking down some steps

1130
02:49:40.879 --> 02:49:45.239
and each step or twenty steps, and each step represents

1131
02:49:46.520 --> 02:49:59.399
a level of comfort each step represents a deepening of

1132
02:49:59.600 --> 02:50:10.360
that comfort and the fervies you walk down those steps

1133
02:50:10.520 --> 02:50:22.760
that the deeper and more relaxed you feel. So starting

1134
02:50:22.920 --> 02:54:12.239
with number twenty twenty nineteen a same seventeen, sixteen, fifteen,

1135
02:54:55.000 --> 03:02:21.200
fourteen four two too well five eight nine eight seven

1136
03:03:58.239 --> 03:11:07.120
four five four two one. And now as you focus

1137
03:11:07.280 --> 03:11:20.959
on your eyes, we're gonna come down from ten douts one,

1138
03:11:27.319 --> 03:11:36.879
focusing just on your eyes, your eyelids, the muscles around

1139
03:11:37.000 --> 03:11:48.440
your eyes, your eye walls themselves, a whole area that

1140
03:11:48.680 --> 03:12:02.719
makes up your eye. And as we count down from

1141
03:12:02.920 --> 03:12:10.920
ten down to one, whilst focus in on your eyes,

1142
03:12:17.239 --> 03:12:27.760
you will become twice is relaxed with each number counting

1143
03:12:27.920 --> 03:12:39.040
down that you may find the all you want to

1144
03:12:39.200 --> 03:12:47.799
do is just to drift off to sleep. And if

1145
03:12:48.040 --> 03:13:01.479
that's what you want, then just allow yourself to do that. Now,

1146
03:13:04.479 --> 03:13:10.799
focusing on your eyes, I'm going to begin counting down

1147
03:13:12.360 --> 03:15:22.879
from ten down to one right now, ten nine eight seven,

1148
03:16:22.000 --> 03:22:41.280
say five four three two one. So counting down from

1149
03:22:41.360 --> 03:22:42.239
ten to one.

1150
03:22:44.120 --> 03:22:46.840
Ten nine.

1151
03:22:48.239 --> 03:23:15.920
Eight seven six five four three two one. And maybe

1152
03:23:16.079 --> 03:23:19.000
that was a bit too quick in order to relax.

1153
03:23:20.200 --> 03:23:24.440
Maybe it's a bit too fast for you to notice

1154
03:23:24.719 --> 03:23:32.799
the calming of your body, maybe even a little bit

1155
03:23:32.840 --> 03:23:36.920
of pressure there, Like you're counting down from ten to one.

1156
03:23:37.079 --> 03:23:40.440
Would you expect me to do man, expect me to

1157
03:23:40.520 --> 03:23:50.360
stick go floppy just because you're counting down. We could

1158
03:23:50.399 --> 03:23:54.120
try it again, but this time I go, this's slower

1159
03:23:56.360 --> 03:24:01.239
this time, as you focus on the whole of your

1160
03:24:01.280 --> 03:24:09.639
body before we focus on your legs. Just notice how

1161
03:24:09.719 --> 03:24:23.840
your body does start to feel more relaxed with every

1162
03:24:23.959 --> 03:25:16.440
number that I count down ten nine, eight, seven, six, five, four,

1163
03:25:23.879 --> 03:26:15.360
three two one, And just notice how how you feel, generally,

1164
03:26:15.799 --> 03:26:30.079
how your body feels. It's not necessarily even about counting

1165
03:26:30.239 --> 03:26:37.360
down from ten to one. It's that space that you have,

1166
03:26:38.680 --> 03:26:57.159
that space between being active physically or mentally to just

1167
03:27:01.879 --> 03:27:07.079
sitting or lying down and just being there, not doing anything,

1168
03:27:07.239 --> 03:27:13.879
not saying anything, not needing to think about anything. So

1169
03:27:14.559 --> 03:27:17.600
it opens up a space, you know, a bit of

1170
03:27:17.639 --> 03:27:28.639
a space, a gap. And the more I comed down

1171
03:27:28.680 --> 03:27:36.040
from ten to one, the bigger that gap becomes. So

1172
03:27:36.200 --> 03:27:48.600
there's that gap of calmness, of comfort, relaxation. It's a

1173
03:27:48.719 --> 03:28:02.760
nice feeling, and it moves those stress or discomforts physically

1174
03:28:02.959 --> 03:28:15.079
or emotionally, moves them away, allows you.

1175
03:28:17.799 --> 03:28:18.319
To just.

1176
03:28:21.280 --> 03:28:28.000
Slow down, someone to count again from ten down to one,

1177
03:28:28.440 --> 03:28:38.680
and notice that gap widening, the gap, And as it widens,

1178
03:28:38.719 --> 03:28:44.760
it's almost like the stress and attention falls into the

1179
03:28:44.879 --> 03:29:41.559
gap and gives you that distance, that space. Now ten nine, eight, seven, six,

1180
03:29:54.319 --> 03:31:14.920
five four three two. Yeah, Now, how does your body

1181
03:31:15.239 --> 03:31:42.440
feel now? Can you notice? Do you feeling calmer? Do

1182
03:31:42.559 --> 03:32:11.280
you feeling more relaxed? As we now focus on your legs,

1183
03:32:13.000 --> 03:32:33.440
just your legs. We're just gonna start with focusing on

1184
03:32:33.879 --> 03:32:53.040
your thighs. Of course, it's not the most exciting thing

1185
03:32:53.200 --> 03:32:59.959
to be doing because I'm sure, like most of your body,

1186
03:33:00.520 --> 03:33:12.200
there's not a lot going on right now. Just focusing

1187
03:33:12.879 --> 03:33:18.440
on the whole of your thighs, the tops of your thighs,

1188
03:33:19.239 --> 03:33:24.600
the sides of your thighs, the bottoms of your thighs,

1189
03:33:26.079 --> 03:33:31.559
your outer thighs, and your inner thighs. Basically the whole

1190
03:33:31.639 --> 03:33:39.120
of your thigh that leads into your hip and it

1191
03:33:39.280 --> 03:33:49.959
goes down to your knee joints. Now, this is a

1192
03:33:50.040 --> 03:33:58.440
big area. It's a very heavy area. It's very strong.

1193
03:33:59.639 --> 03:34:04.680
Probably the strongest muscles in your body are in your thighs.

1194
03:34:14.879 --> 03:34:22.559
But I don't think we perhaps give enough attention to

1195
03:34:22.799 --> 03:34:36.520
our thighs. Perhaps we don't acknowledge how important our thighs

1196
03:34:36.760 --> 03:34:56.559
are to our lives, how much they actually do for

1197
03:34:56.719 --> 03:35:10.440
us all through our lives. And it may seem to

1198
03:35:10.559 --> 03:35:15.719
sound really weird, but I think that all of our

1199
03:35:15.760 --> 03:35:26.600
body parts, especially our thighs, need some TLC, a bit

1200
03:35:26.680 --> 03:35:39.559
of love, shone, a bit of acknowledgement. I thank you

1201
03:35:42.719 --> 03:35:55.040
gratitude for what our thighs do for us. And I

1202
03:35:55.159 --> 03:36:00.879
know this may sound a bit strange. Maybe you think,

1203
03:36:01.280 --> 03:36:04.200
why am I Surely I should be out in the

1204
03:36:04.319 --> 03:36:12.840
garden hugging a tree or something. Well, it's hard to

1205
03:36:12.879 --> 03:36:16.079
set a microphone up on a tree. That's why I'm

1206
03:36:16.120 --> 03:36:18.959
doing this indoors. Otherwise I would be outside hugging a tree.

1207
03:36:20.159 --> 03:36:28.959
Now I can't see the television from the tree. If

1208
03:36:29.000 --> 03:36:34.360
you move down to your knees, getting such an important part,

1209
03:36:38.680 --> 03:36:43.760
and I think we don't necessarily I'll speak for myself here,

1210
03:36:46.239 --> 03:36:51.319
I don't necessarily appreciate all that my knees do for

1211
03:36:51.479 --> 03:36:57.319
me until I have a problem with my knee. It's

1212
03:36:57.360 --> 03:37:03.000
occasionally if I maybe i'll bash it or it's aching

1213
03:37:03.159 --> 03:37:09.520
for some reason. It's then that I realize how much

1214
03:37:09.680 --> 03:37:13.280
it does you know the benefit of being able to

1215
03:37:14.239 --> 03:37:23.440
use my legs without any kind of physical discomfort is

1216
03:37:24.280 --> 03:37:33.000
a beautiful thing that's possibly not appreciated until it's temporarily removed.

1217
03:37:34.159 --> 03:37:41.120
You know that's comfort. But as you focus on your knees,

1218
03:37:43.319 --> 03:37:48.959
regardless of how your knees feel, you can have that

1219
03:37:49.200 --> 03:37:55.360
sense of gratitude and love to your knees for all

1220
03:37:55.520 --> 03:38:07.719
that they do for you, And you can still have

1221
03:38:07.879 --> 03:38:12.040
that attention on your thighs and maybe notice how your

1222
03:38:12.120 --> 03:38:24.000
thighs feel. Maybe you've noticed that they are relaxing more

1223
03:38:25.799 --> 03:38:37.399
deeply as you focus now on the bottoms of your legs,

1224
03:38:37.879 --> 03:38:43.239
your shins, and your calf muscles, and the bones between

1225
03:38:43.479 --> 03:38:50.280
your knees and your feet, incorporating of course, your ankles

1226
03:38:52.600 --> 03:39:03.879
so important. Anyone that's even like the slightest sprain of

1227
03:39:03.959 --> 03:39:11.520
an ankle knows how how much we take our ankles

1228
03:39:11.639 --> 03:39:19.799
for granted. And it's kind of strange in a way

1229
03:39:19.879 --> 03:39:25.520
when you think that. You know, logically, our wrists are

1230
03:39:25.559 --> 03:39:29.600
a lot thinner than the rest of our arms, which

1231
03:39:29.719 --> 03:39:32.920
is okay, it doesn't I can't see any problem with

1232
03:39:33.000 --> 03:39:38.440
that because we're just picking stuff up. But our ankles

1233
03:39:40.239 --> 03:39:50.159
so much thinner than the rest of our legs. And

1234
03:39:50.280 --> 03:39:54.799
from a physics perspective or logical even it doesn't really

1235
03:39:54.920 --> 03:40:00.600
make sense that all this weight would old to be

1236
03:40:01.680 --> 03:40:11.719
resting on your ankles then leading to your feet, that

1237
03:40:12.319 --> 03:40:21.280
thin area, thin bone. Yeah, it does so much great work.

1238
03:40:23.440 --> 03:40:32.959
Supports us, supports our body for a lifetime, helps us

1239
03:40:33.639 --> 03:40:43.000
to balance, It helps you to get around and be mobile.

1240
03:40:49.280 --> 03:40:57.120
And there's the calf muscles. Of course, when I was younger,

1241
03:40:57.520 --> 03:41:00.600
I couldn't see the point in calf muscles. I didn't

1242
03:41:00.600 --> 03:41:05.920
seem to do anything. Okay, if I walked around on tiptoes,

1243
03:41:06.719 --> 03:41:10.559
then my calf muscles get some work. But of course

1244
03:41:10.639 --> 03:41:14.760
that's not true. The calf muscles are being used whenever

1245
03:41:14.879 --> 03:41:26.760
we use our legs and your shins there to protect

1246
03:41:28.760 --> 03:41:37.399
your lower legs, shaped in a way, almost as a

1247
03:41:37.479 --> 03:41:49.760
protector for the bone, leading of course to your ankles

1248
03:41:53.159 --> 03:41:59.680
and your feet. But we're not going to focus on

1249
03:41:59.760 --> 03:42:01.920
your feet. We're just going to focus on the legs.

1250
03:42:04.000 --> 03:42:08.639
I realize that now that I've mentioned your feet, it

1251
03:42:08.760 --> 03:42:13.639
probably focusing on them anyway, So maybe I should focus

1252
03:42:13.760 --> 03:42:19.600
on your feet a little bit. You can have them

1253
03:42:19.639 --> 03:42:25.159
in your awareness the same as you have your thighs

1254
03:42:25.479 --> 03:42:29.760
in your awareness. Even though we haven't been focusing on

1255
03:42:29.920 --> 03:42:34.639
your thighs for a few minutes, we've been focusing on

1256
03:42:34.799 --> 03:42:51.479
your ankles, there's still that sensation of comfort in your

1257
03:42:51.600 --> 03:43:04.319
thighs and this that movement energy because the thighs hold

1258
03:43:06.280 --> 03:43:11.520
lots of different sensations. Of course, there's the muscles, the

1259
03:43:11.840 --> 03:43:24.319
big straw muscles that we have in our thighs. But

1260
03:43:24.520 --> 03:43:30.120
the skin on the outside of the thighs, as in

1261
03:43:30.680 --> 03:43:36.440
the outside of all of our body, can be very sensitive,

1262
03:43:40.319 --> 03:43:53.520
sensitive to the touch, sensitive to temperature, and inside your

1263
03:43:53.639 --> 03:44:01.280
thighs the bones, there's the muscle, the blood, vessels, the

1264
03:44:01.559 --> 03:44:07.040
ar trees, it's all this stuff that's inside your thighs.

1265
03:44:11.360 --> 03:44:14.559
And I guess sometimes it'd be nice if you could

1266
03:44:14.559 --> 03:44:19.920
actually put your fingers inside your thighs and a message,

1267
03:44:22.319 --> 03:44:25.840
so you can message on the outside, of course, but

1268
03:44:25.920 --> 03:44:29.040
to be able to get deep into the muscles and

1269
03:44:29.120 --> 03:44:34.280
to be able to just message inside your thighs, message

1270
03:44:34.319 --> 03:44:42.360
in the bones of your leg, massage in all the

1271
03:44:42.520 --> 03:44:53.120
veins and just gently heaving your thighs and you could

1272
03:44:53.239 --> 03:44:59.959
move down message and inside your knees, just a message

1273
03:45:00.120 --> 03:45:07.040
in those bones. But with healing fingertips, spreading that healing

1274
03:45:07.319 --> 03:45:17.799
energy deep into the joints of your knees. Of course,

1275
03:45:17.879 --> 03:45:21.200
there's the back of your your knee, you know, the

1276
03:45:21.399 --> 03:45:28.360
inside crease where your knee is. It's a very sensitive area.

1277
03:45:30.399 --> 03:45:34.719
Very it feels very nice when you stroke it. That

1278
03:45:34.879 --> 03:45:38.600
might be because it's an area that's not really touched

1279
03:45:38.799 --> 03:45:45.360
very often. It's almost like a hidden part, that crease

1280
03:45:47.479 --> 03:45:53.920
in your legs. It's almost like a part that has

1281
03:45:54.239 --> 03:46:05.000
a sensitivity which is a little bit different. Of course,

1282
03:46:05.040 --> 03:46:15.559
it's protected by your legs, so you can imagine putting

1283
03:46:16.440 --> 03:46:26.079
your fingers into that crease in your legs, that fold

1284
03:46:26.239 --> 03:46:30.360
in between your legs. You can just massage with your fingertips.

1285
03:46:31.559 --> 03:46:38.319
Imagine your fingertips going inside, massage in the muscle tissue.

1286
03:46:42.920 --> 03:46:47.200
You can of course feel the bones of your knees

1287
03:46:48.680 --> 03:46:59.120
heading through your fingertips. And then as you go down

1288
03:47:02.000 --> 03:47:04.799
to your calf muscles. Now that's the part I'd like

1289
03:47:04.879 --> 03:47:09.559
to be able to really put my fingertips deep inside

1290
03:47:10.360 --> 03:47:19.280
my calf muscles, massage in every single tissue of that muscle,

1291
03:47:20.879 --> 03:47:30.799
healing every part, and then doing the same for my shins,

1292
03:47:34.000 --> 03:47:40.879
massage in and gently stroking the bones gently stroking them,

1293
03:47:41.799 --> 03:47:45.920
healing in a loving way, because they deserve to be

1294
03:47:46.079 --> 03:47:53.319
treated as the precious bones that they are, Because our

1295
03:47:53.399 --> 03:47:56.959
legs are so precious as in all the other parts

1296
03:47:57.040 --> 03:48:04.680
of our body, and more precious of any jure on

1297
03:48:04.799 --> 03:48:21.120
the planet. When you start to think about your legs

1298
03:48:21.280 --> 03:48:32.399
in this way, it can change your perspective. It might

1299
03:48:32.600 --> 03:48:39.200
sound a bit a bit silly to start with the

1300
03:48:39.360 --> 03:48:47.520
idea of having love for your legs, showing appreciation for

1301
03:48:47.639 --> 03:48:53.680
your thighs, wanting to be able to put your hands

1302
03:48:54.639 --> 03:49:01.520
in your thighs and massage the muscles and the bones,

1303
03:49:03.399 --> 03:49:09.079
and to get your fingers deep in there, releasing all tension,

1304
03:49:11.959 --> 03:49:20.600
just to show how much you care about your legs,

1305
03:49:21.479 --> 03:49:25.239
how much you care for what your legs do for

1306
03:49:25.360 --> 03:49:38.959
you regularly, your knees, your calves, your ankles, the strength

1307
03:49:39.120 --> 03:49:47.200
of your ankles, considering how thin they are compared to

1308
03:49:47.319 --> 03:49:54.040
the rest of your legs, especially your thighs. Yeah, they're

1309
03:49:54.159 --> 03:50:06.440
so strong, so flexible, absolutely amazing things. Your ankles are

1310
03:50:10.280 --> 03:50:15.360
truly a gift because of what they do for you,

1311
03:50:20.840 --> 03:50:27.799
supporting all that weight, regardless of how what weight you are,

1312
03:50:28.959 --> 03:50:33.760
even if you only ate stone, it's still a lot

1313
03:50:33.799 --> 03:50:40.479
of weight. For these little ankles. Now, I'm a lot

1314
03:50:40.680 --> 03:50:50.639
heavier than eight stone, double dot, yet my ankles support

1315
03:50:50.719 --> 03:50:58.079
my body all the time, although they do give off

1316
03:50:58.120 --> 03:51:03.760
a sigh of relief when I sit down. That's my

1317
03:51:03.799 --> 03:51:12.760
whole legs do. My feet feet also go and my

1318
03:51:12.879 --> 03:51:40.399
toes clap. We're so happy. Your legs really are amazing.

1319
03:51:43.000 --> 03:51:46.680
And I know that talking about talking about your legs

1320
03:51:46.799 --> 03:51:53.440
is probably possibly among the most most boring things you've

1321
03:51:53.440 --> 03:52:02.559
ever heard anyone say. Possibly worry or not. Everything I

1322
03:52:02.680 --> 03:52:18.600
said is true. Your legs are amazing. Your legs deserve

1323
03:52:19.680 --> 03:52:38.280
not just respect, they deserve to relax deeply. They deserve

1324
03:52:38.520 --> 03:52:43.399
to take some time out of the day to just

1325
03:52:43.760 --> 03:53:19.959
let go completely. Your legs really can relax. And because

1326
03:53:20.040 --> 03:53:23.959
the legs are so such a most, you know, very

1327
03:53:24.040 --> 03:53:29.760
important part of your body. When you relax your legs,

1328
03:53:29.840 --> 03:53:37.079
the rest of your body also naturally follows in that

1329
03:53:40.799 --> 03:53:51.639
journey of comfort. I can feel it in my hips.

1330
03:53:53.040 --> 03:54:00.200
My hips feel really loose, and also my lad back

1331
03:54:00.239 --> 03:54:06.840
as well. My lower back really feels it feels stretched,

1332
03:54:07.920 --> 03:54:11.000
even though I'm just sitting in a chair and there's

1333
03:54:11.079 --> 03:54:16.319
no stretching. As far as I'm aware that I'm doing

1334
03:54:17.360 --> 03:54:20.000
it's almost as if the muscles are just relaxed so

1335
03:54:20.239 --> 03:54:26.159
much that there is a natural stretch as the tension

1336
03:54:27.079 --> 03:54:48.319
has reduced a lot. And I'm now going to count

1337
03:54:48.399 --> 03:54:56.239
down from ten down to one, and you can continue

1338
03:54:58.120 --> 03:55:24.399
to feel wonderfully relaxed. Ten nine, eight, seven, six, five

1339
03:55:29.040 --> 03:55:57.079
four three two one relax. So I'm just going to

1340
03:55:57.200 --> 03:56:02.559
count down for five down to one, and as a countdown,

1341
03:56:03.840 --> 03:56:08.600
if you just focus on the numbers, just the numbers

1342
03:56:10.239 --> 03:56:19.239
counting down, and notice how you feel in this moment

1343
03:56:21.000 --> 03:56:25.399
as you hear the numbers counting down, knowing that those

1344
03:56:25.559 --> 03:56:38.600
numbers counting down represent you feeling calmer, not just in

1345
03:56:38.719 --> 03:56:47.239
your body, but also relaxing your mind. Just notice how

1346
03:56:47.319 --> 03:56:53.159
you feel. There's nothing to do, there's nothing to say,

1347
03:56:53.840 --> 03:57:10.879
there's nothing to think about, starting weird number five four

1348
03:57:20.399 --> 03:57:56.159
three two one. Now, as you notice the gradual letting

1349
03:57:56.280 --> 03:58:04.760
go of the tension and you body, you may also

1350
03:58:05.360 --> 03:58:10.799
begin to notice and be aware of how your mind

1351
03:58:11.920 --> 03:58:19.840
is starting to slow down. This is just a natural

1352
03:58:20.680 --> 03:58:28.600
thing that happens. It's not really a special procedure. It's

1353
03:58:28.719 --> 03:58:34.000
just natural because as your body relaxes, your mind also

1354
03:58:34.760 --> 03:58:39.639
starts to relax. And the more your mind relaxes the

1355
03:58:39.760 --> 03:58:45.200
more your body relaxes. It's just a continuous circle of relaxation.

1356
03:58:51.239 --> 03:58:59.760
And is that calmness that comes from relative quietness. You know,

1357
03:59:00.639 --> 03:59:07.399
even if there's background sounds either your side, online, it's

1358
03:59:07.559 --> 03:59:13.440
still going to be quite calm. You know, you haven't

1359
03:59:13.479 --> 03:59:18.399
got the television on, there's no music in the background

1360
03:59:18.520 --> 03:59:21.159
unless you're listening to the recording. With music, of course,

1361
03:59:26.040 --> 03:59:28.200
you're very likely not going to be sitting in a

1362
03:59:28.319 --> 03:59:31.440
room with other people. Of course you might be, but

1363
03:59:32.760 --> 03:59:36.000
generally it's more ideal if you can do this on

1364
03:59:36.120 --> 03:59:47.440
your own, so no distractions, and when you stop thinking

1365
03:59:47.520 --> 04:00:04.680
about stuff, relaxation automatically rises. A sense of comfort starts

1366
04:00:04.719 --> 04:00:13.479
to grow, and without trying to build it up into

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04:00:13.600 --> 04:00:25.719
something fantastical or something magical, this is just a natural process,

1368
04:00:28.079 --> 04:00:38.920
something that's easy to accomplish. In fact, it's almost the

1369
04:00:39.239 --> 04:00:45.959
sense of relaxing completely happens really when you put no

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04:00:46.159 --> 04:00:50.719
effort into it. It's not something that you can really force.

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04:00:53.360 --> 04:01:02.719
It's something that happens naturally. And part of the process

1372
04:01:03.120 --> 04:01:14.319
of this recording and others is simply two allow you

1373
04:01:16.719 --> 04:01:27.559
to take advantage of this space this time, to just

1374
04:01:31.760 --> 04:01:39.319
let go to just be here, to be in tune

1375
04:01:43.000 --> 04:01:55.079
with how you feel, yet with the intention of wanting

1376
04:01:55.399 --> 04:02:07.479
to relax deeply and maybe even to fall asleep, depending

1377
04:02:07.719 --> 04:02:13.920
on what it is that you wish for yourself in

1378
04:02:14.079 --> 04:02:30.200
this moment. As we know, relaxing is the majority of

1379
04:02:30.360 --> 04:02:34.920
the process of falling asleep. The actual falling asleep part

1380
04:02:35.200 --> 04:02:43.360
is the tiny bit of the end. The deeper relaxed

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04:02:43.760 --> 04:03:05.879
you become, the easier you find yourself drifting. You can also,

1382
04:03:06.040 --> 04:03:16.120
if you choose, stay focused on my voice and really

1383
04:03:16.600 --> 04:03:46.280
enjoy the process, gradually relaxing each muscle in your body

1384
04:03:51.360 --> 04:04:20.520
effortlessly and just observing the sensation of letting go completely.

1385
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This time, I'm going to count from six down to one,

1386
04:04:35.440 --> 04:04:44.559
and you can notice your mind calming down more with

1387
04:04:45.000 --> 04:04:58.680
each number that you hear me say, naturally, feeling calm

1388
04:04:59.159 --> 04:07:58.799
and slow, peaceful, six, five, four, three, two, one, being

1389
04:07:59.120 --> 04:08:08.040
away kin of how your mind has slowed right down,

1390
04:08:11.319 --> 04:08:34.719
sinking deeply into relaxation. And as you focus on your mind,

1391
04:08:35.000 --> 04:08:44.959
you may notice that there are some thoughts still there,

1392
04:08:47.520 --> 04:08:57.079
maybe some stubborn thoughts that for some reason perhaps need

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04:08:57.159 --> 04:09:12.360
your attention. So what you can do is send love

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04:09:12.600 --> 04:09:26.239
to those thoughts. Sprinkle those thoughts with love, like all

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04:09:26.399 --> 04:09:32.000
petals from a flower. Just sprinkle it over them, petals

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04:09:32.079 --> 04:09:39.280
filled with love towards those thoughts, to let those thoughts

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04:09:39.520 --> 04:09:46.319
know that you're not abandoned in them. You just need them.

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04:09:47.559 --> 04:09:58.600
You require them to just calm down, slow down, quiet

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04:09:59.000 --> 04:10:14.959
down for now, so as you focus on those remaining thoughts.

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As we count down this time from seven down to one.

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04:10:21.799 --> 04:10:35.920
With each number, just imagine sprinkling those flower petals of love, kindness,

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04:10:37.479 --> 04:10:49.319
gratitude over those thoughts, which will allow them to just

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04:10:50.760 --> 04:11:05.760
melt away and relax deeply. With every number, they thoughts

1404
04:11:05.920 --> 04:13:13.600
would become more and more relaxed, starting with number seven, six, five, four, three, two,

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04:13:32.319 --> 04:14:06.959
one anything. Now, notice how relaxed you're feeling in your body.

1406
04:14:15.319 --> 04:14:28.559
We're going to focus on your hands, because the more

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04:14:28.680 --> 04:14:35.680
relaxed your hands are, the more relaxed your body and

1408
04:14:36.000 --> 04:14:56.680
mind are. And this you focus on your hands and

1409
04:14:56.799 --> 04:15:06.840
your fingers. There's nothing needed to be done. There's no

1410
04:15:07.159 --> 04:15:12.120
clenching of fists or tents in the fingers or anything

1411
04:15:12.280 --> 04:15:26.159
like that. It's just noticing and focusing on your hands,

1412
04:15:33.200 --> 04:15:54.239
noticing how they feel. Because the more relaxed do your

1413
04:15:54.479 --> 04:16:07.799
hands feel, the calm mind feels, and the more comfort

1414
04:16:08.040 --> 04:16:31.559
you feel throughout your body, you may have already noticed

1415
04:16:35.879 --> 04:17:11.280
your mind is starting to dressed, fixing just on your

1416
04:17:11.479 --> 04:17:29.799
hands and fingers, allowing them to experience a real deepening

1417
04:17:31.000 --> 04:17:45.840
of that relaxation in your hands and fingers, more and

1418
04:17:46.120 --> 04:18:05.280
more relaxed. With each number from eight down to one.

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04:18:10.280 --> 04:18:20.159
You can almost feel that healing and relaxing energy spreading

1420
04:18:21.399 --> 04:18:40.319
into your hands and fingers, becoming year more relaxing with

1421
04:18:40.760 --> 04:18:45.040
each number you hear.

1422
04:18:48.879 --> 04:18:50.040
Going down.

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04:18:51.239 --> 04:19:10.000
From eight down to one, drifting twisting again starting with

1424
04:19:14.600 --> 04:23:10.280
number eight, seven, six, five, four, three two, just being

1425
04:23:10.639 --> 04:23:20.920
here now, nothing to think about, nothing to do, nothing

1426
04:23:21.040 --> 04:23:34.879
to say, and everything just feels calmer. And this is

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04:23:36.000 --> 04:23:42.760
your natural state of being. This is how you just

1428
04:23:43.879 --> 04:23:50.399
normally feel when you take away all that other stuff

1429
04:23:52.799 --> 04:23:57.639
that we add, you know, things like stress and worrying

1430
04:23:57.879 --> 04:24:13.360
and overthinking and anxiety, tension, just generally thinking about stuff.

1431
04:24:15.360 --> 04:24:18.680
When you take that away, which is what we do

1432
04:24:19.440 --> 04:24:31.319
what we do now, you're left with a real sense

1433
04:24:31.959 --> 04:24:44.479
of peacefulness which comes to you very quickly because ultimately

1434
04:24:45.120 --> 04:24:58.719
it's just a feeling, a feeling of comfort. It's almost

1435
04:24:58.879 --> 04:25:02.479
as if you've gone in yourself and you've found a

1436
04:25:02.680 --> 04:25:16.600
special place where everything is peaceful, a place where you

1437
04:25:16.799 --> 04:25:27.280
can feel relaxed and your natural sense of comfort, a

1438
04:25:27.399 --> 04:25:35.920
place where you can be you, where you can accept

1439
04:25:36.040 --> 04:25:42.120
yourself for who you are, a place where you're not

1440
04:25:42.319 --> 04:25:52.719
trying to please anybody else ever, a place where you

1441
04:25:52.920 --> 04:26:02.479
can actually not just love yourself, but in some ways

1442
04:26:02.559 --> 04:26:11.680
more importantly, you can like yourself appreciate who you are.

1443
04:26:20.520 --> 04:26:27.159
That sense of gratitude is in the air all around you.

1444
04:26:34.799 --> 04:26:42.639
That's also a place where you can actually feel the

1445
04:26:43.000 --> 04:26:58.239
healing energy soaking into your body. Healing energy soaking into

1446
04:26:58.360 --> 04:27:08.360
your body, and that healing energy spreads through your veins,

1447
04:27:12.120 --> 04:27:18.959
traveling to each and every single part of your body,

1448
04:27:24.920 --> 04:27:29.520
and you start to realize that actually that healing energy,

1449
04:27:32.000 --> 04:27:38.360
it's not just entered into your brain, it's become part

1450
04:27:38.920 --> 04:27:50.200
of your brain, and that spinal fluid is now mixed

1451
04:27:50.280 --> 04:28:01.440
with healing energy, not just allowing you to feel so

1452
04:28:01.680 --> 04:28:13.559
much more relaxed and healthy in this moment, but also

1453
04:28:16.520 --> 04:28:24.000
you start to realize that actually, what's happening now with

1454
04:28:24.159 --> 04:28:33.799
that healing, relaxing energy spreading through your body, it's actually

1455
04:28:34.239 --> 04:28:44.440
changing your life. It's actually changing the way you're going

1456
04:28:44.559 --> 04:28:51.319
to feel not just now, but tomorrow and the next day.

1457
04:28:53.239 --> 04:29:00.559
As your health improves, not just your physical or health,

1458
04:29:00.680 --> 04:29:08.040
but your mental health. Things that used to bother you

1459
04:29:08.239 --> 04:29:15.360
in the past, for some reason, no longer have the

1460
04:29:15.479 --> 04:29:24.399
effect that they used to because something has changed deep

1461
04:29:24.879 --> 04:29:35.520
within you. Maybe things that used to cause you to

1462
04:29:35.680 --> 04:29:48.000
feel anger no longer have that power to control you

1463
04:29:50.520 --> 04:29:56.799
the way they seem to be able to before. As

1464
04:29:56.920 --> 04:30:08.440
you realize you're the one who decides what affects you,

1465
04:30:12.120 --> 04:30:20.920
You're the one who decides to feel relaxed and calm

1466
04:30:22.520 --> 04:30:37.879
when you choose to enjoy noticing these natural developments of

1467
04:30:38.159 --> 04:30:49.719
healing continuing to grow and improve your life day by day,

1468
04:30:55.639 --> 04:31:03.840
including of course, your ability to relax so much easier

1469
04:31:08.799 --> 04:31:18.399
and sleeping. It's the most natural thing in the world

1470
04:31:19.879 --> 04:31:28.200
to you, because falling asleep is something that you've done

1471
04:31:31.239 --> 04:31:38.920
so many times in your life, and you know that

1472
04:31:39.120 --> 04:31:44.360
you were born, as we all were, with the ability

1473
04:31:45.959 --> 04:31:56.280
to fall asleep naturally. We were born with that ability

1474
04:31:59.239 --> 04:32:13.479
that just drift off into a deep, healing sleep. Even

1475
04:32:13.559 --> 04:32:18.319
when we're kids, sometimes we'll fall asleep when we don't

1476
04:32:18.319 --> 04:32:24.319
even want to try to take a stay awake. Maybe

1477
04:32:24.399 --> 04:32:27.760
it's a birthday in the morning, or it's Christmas or

1478
04:32:28.600 --> 04:32:31.680
holiday or something we look forward to. We don't want

1479
04:32:31.680 --> 04:32:36.239
to go to sleep, but the more we want to

1480
04:32:36.280 --> 04:32:45.559
stay awake, the more we just start to drift. And

1481
04:32:45.680 --> 04:32:49.600
the more you fight drifting, the more you try and

1482
04:32:49.719 --> 04:32:55.440
stop yourself and drift in asleep, the deeper and stronger

1483
04:32:55.559 --> 04:33:06.759
that drifting becomes. Because we're born not just with the

1484
04:33:07.040 --> 04:33:16.439
need to relax deeply and to naturally fall asleep, but

1485
04:33:16.520 --> 04:33:30.799
it's our birthright, it's part of our DNA, and sometimes

1486
04:33:30.959 --> 04:33:36.360
as we get older in life, perhaps at times we

1487
04:33:36.720 --> 04:33:50.279
have forgotten that relaxing completely. It's not only a wonderfully

1488
04:33:50.720 --> 04:34:14.720
pleasant experience, it's also really easy. It's very, very easy

1489
04:34:16.080 --> 04:34:20.400
to let go, because that's all it is. It's just

1490
04:34:24.000 --> 04:34:35.400
deciding to let go. And when you press the play

1491
04:34:35.520 --> 04:34:45.759
button on my recordings, you have given permission for my

1492
04:34:46.000 --> 04:34:54.119
voice to relax you. When you press that play button,

1493
04:34:55.119 --> 04:35:03.560
you have given me permission for my words to affect

1494
04:35:06.040 --> 04:35:17.880
you in a positive, only a positive way, opening up

1495
04:35:23.080 --> 04:35:41.319
your mind to useful and healing suggestions that can have

1496
04:35:45.880 --> 04:35:53.319
such an amazing effect on how you feel right now,

1497
04:35:58.080 --> 04:36:08.680
as well as those changes that continue long after the recording.

1498
04:36:09.000 --> 04:36:20.119
Ends those changes within you to continue to flourish and grow,

1499
04:36:24.680 --> 04:36:38.360
transforming your life in a positive, beautiful way, allowing you

1500
04:36:38.959 --> 04:36:45.200
to move forward in your life in the direction that

1501
04:36:45.599 --> 04:37:02.720
you choose for yourself. And this feeling, this feeling that

1502
04:37:02.919 --> 04:37:19.040
you can experience of safety, comfort, calmness, just feels so nice.

1503
04:37:28.360 --> 04:37:41.080
It's such a healthy place to be, and that positivity

1504
04:37:42.439 --> 04:38:01.479
grows within you each and every day. Moving forward, you're

1505
04:38:01.560 --> 04:38:12.360
going to find that you're more relaxed physically and in

1506
04:38:12.520 --> 04:38:21.319
your mind is more relaxed. And it's not that you're

1507
04:38:21.479 --> 04:38:27.080
thinking slower, it's just that your mind will be less

1508
04:38:28.000 --> 04:38:39.560
clogged up with unnecessary negativity because from now on, your

1509
04:38:39.759 --> 04:38:49.479
mind rejects negativity. From now on, you're going to start

1510
04:38:49.720 --> 04:39:06.040
noticing when negativity arises and you can just say stop, stop,

1511
04:39:08.919 --> 04:39:15.680
and that negativity will turn around and leave you alone.

1512
04:39:23.680 --> 04:39:43.000
Stop and that negativity will disappear. And as you notice

1513
04:39:43.279 --> 04:39:51.599
that you feel way more relaxed than you probably expected,

1514
04:39:57.759 --> 04:40:07.319
you can now congratulate yourself because you're the person that

1515
04:40:07.479 --> 04:40:13.560
has done this. You are the one that has opened

1516
04:40:13.799 --> 04:40:21.479
your mind up to the simple facts that you can

1517
04:40:21.959 --> 04:40:26.560
feel more relaxed in your body and in your mind.

1518
04:40:32.759 --> 04:40:38.680
You've opened your mind up to the birthright of being

1519
04:40:38.720 --> 04:40:55.599
able to just fall asleep easily when you choose. And

1520
04:40:55.720 --> 04:41:02.680
that's a nice feeling. Don't you think it feels nice?

1521
04:41:02.799 --> 04:41:12.159
Doesn't it? To feel calm? All that healing energy is

1522
04:41:12.279 --> 04:41:23.119
spreading through your body and your mind to spend time

1523
04:41:23.360 --> 04:41:34.159
in a special place where negativity can no longer enter.

1524
04:41:40.599 --> 04:41:49.840
Negativity is banned. It's bad, it's not allowed Entryue doesn't

1525
04:41:50.119 --> 04:41:53.560
it doesn't. This doesn't deserve to be here. It doesn't

1526
04:41:53.720 --> 04:42:12.439
belong here. Negativity has no place in your life, which

1527
04:42:12.599 --> 04:42:27.319
makes room feel more comfort, more heathing, more relaxation, more peace.

1528
04:42:44.240 --> 04:42:56.040
It feels nice, doesn't it? Just let go with everything.

1529
04:43:09.759 --> 04:43:14.080
I'm going to count down now from twenty down to one.

1530
04:43:17.520 --> 04:43:24.000
You can continue to relax. If you choose, you can

1531
04:43:27.240 --> 04:43:37.680
drift to sleep. With every number you hear me say,

1532
04:43:42.040 --> 04:43:49.360
you can feel twice as relaxed, or if you choose,

1533
04:43:49.520 --> 04:46:20.840
you can feel twice as sleeping now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five. Oh,

1534
04:46:54.240 --> 04:47:04.040
this is your time to just take a break, your

1535
04:47:04.240 --> 04:47:14.919
time to relax, to allow your mind to slow down,

1536
04:47:23.599 --> 04:47:37.680
to give yourself permission to take a break from everything,

1537
04:47:42.400 --> 04:47:46.880
and you're the only person that can make that decision.

1538
04:47:49.759 --> 04:47:52.479
You're the only person that can actually tell your mind

1539
04:47:57.279 --> 04:48:21.520
to just relax, to just take some time off so

1540
04:48:21.720 --> 04:48:26.520
that you can focus on your body, getting in touch

1541
04:48:26.840 --> 04:48:41.520
with how you feel physically, and in the process of

1542
04:48:44.319 --> 04:48:49.080
this body scan, where you focus on different parts of

1543
04:48:49.159 --> 04:48:59.919
your body, those parts that you focus on and observe,

1544
04:49:02.919 --> 04:49:11.240
even though you're not purposely requesting for those parts of

1545
04:49:11.319 --> 04:49:18.840
your body to relax, it's kind of expected. You expect

1546
04:49:20.200 --> 04:49:27.880
when you listen to my voice to feel more relaxed naturally,

1547
04:49:33.400 --> 04:49:41.799
because when you're listening to me, your attention is focused

1548
04:49:43.560 --> 04:49:54.759
on my words, and as my words guide you to

1549
04:49:54.919 --> 04:50:07.279
focus on those parts of your body, your focus increases,

1550
04:50:14.400 --> 04:50:30.759
which actually calms your mind. And when your mind calms down,

1551
04:50:35.639 --> 04:50:57.680
your body relaxes. And when your body calms down, your

1552
04:50:57.840 --> 04:51:14.720
mind relaxes. And even though we've not really started the

1553
04:51:14.880 --> 04:51:27.520
focus on your body, you can already feel that healing

1554
04:51:27.799 --> 04:51:42.279
energy spreading through your body, pushing out stress and tension,

1555
04:51:46.400 --> 04:51:53.720
healing all the parts of your body, including your skin,

1556
04:51:54.880 --> 04:52:01.759
your bones, your blood, all of your organs inside your body,

1557
04:52:03.200 --> 04:52:09.919
all of the muscles, all of the fat, all of everything,

1558
04:52:11.799 --> 04:52:18.000
every hair on your body is filled with that healing energy.

1559
04:52:26.000 --> 04:52:41.759
And when your brain fills with that healing energy, the

1560
04:52:42.000 --> 04:53:06.360
feeling of comfort and relaxation increases deeply, increases in a

1561
04:53:06.479 --> 04:53:21.400
way that your mind starts to feel perhaps bit drowsy

1562
04:53:26.680 --> 04:53:37.159
because it's not needed, and it may start to drift

1563
04:53:46.000 --> 04:53:52.639
if that's what's needed. So if you're listening to this

1564
04:53:54.759 --> 04:53:58.959
and what you need is deep relaxation, that's what you'll get.

1565
04:54:01.159 --> 04:54:08.040
If what you need is to fall asleep naturally and

1566
04:54:08.279 --> 04:54:16.880
easily as your mind drifts, that's also what will happen.

1567
04:54:22.560 --> 04:54:30.279
Because by pressing that play button on the podcast and

1568
04:54:30.560 --> 04:54:36.880
listening to me, you give permission for your body and

1569
04:54:37.000 --> 04:54:49.040
your mind. In fact, you give the command to your

1570
04:54:49.119 --> 04:55:00.439
body and your mind to relax deeply and to drift

1571
04:55:00.560 --> 04:55:09.439
off to sleep if that's what you want or need.

1572
04:55:17.119 --> 04:55:22.799
And as I focus on the different parts of your body,

1573
04:55:27.759 --> 04:55:36.560
you may start to just drift. And then you come

1574
04:55:36.680 --> 04:55:41.959
back again and you hear me talking and I'm focusing

1575
04:55:42.080 --> 04:55:52.919
on a different part of your body. You may find

1576
04:55:53.080 --> 04:56:01.639
yourself drifting, but you don't realize you're drifting until you

1577
04:56:01.840 --> 04:56:10.200
stop drifting and you're alert again. To my voice, focusing

1578
04:56:11.360 --> 04:56:16.119
on a different part of your body starts to relax

1579
04:56:16.360 --> 04:56:28.799
even deeper, because that drifting is basically you already in

1580
04:56:28.959 --> 04:56:39.279
the sleep zone. And the more you drift, the longer

1581
04:56:39.400 --> 04:56:49.200
you drift, and the longer you drift, eventually that drifting

1582
04:56:49.439 --> 04:57:01.279
continues into sleep, and that's the last you remember until

1583
04:57:01.319 --> 04:57:10.319
you wake up in your own time, when you experience

1584
04:57:10.599 --> 04:57:18.240
the right amount of sleep for you, because when you do,

1585
04:57:20.119 --> 04:57:31.119
and if you do fall asleep, it's extremely pleasant, so relaxing,

1586
04:57:34.159 --> 04:57:51.360
so deep, healing sleep. I'm going it feels so nice

1587
04:57:53.560 --> 04:58:02.639
to relax into your own body and mind as you

1588
04:58:03.200 --> 04:58:08.119
as you feel that heathing energy is spreading through it,

1589
04:58:10.400 --> 04:58:32.279
relaxing us so deeply, relaxing us so so deeply. As

1590
04:58:32.360 --> 04:58:48.720
we start to focus on your eyes, moving down to

1591
04:58:48.880 --> 04:59:31.560
your jaw, down to your neck, your shoulders, arms, hands, fingers,

1592
04:59:38.919 --> 05:00:10.959
your chest, your stomach, your back, your spine, your hips,

1593
05:00:18.880 --> 05:01:01.319
your legs, your feet, your tayst and I'm feeding, spreading

1594
05:01:02.720 --> 05:01:16.520
and growing inside your body, feeling you up. Now let's

1595
05:01:16.639 --> 05:01:26.919
focus again on parts of your body, focusing this time

1596
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on your forehead. Now on your mouth, your lips, your tongue,

1597
05:01:43.240 --> 05:02:05.040
the whole of your mouth, focusing on your fingers. Maybe

1598
05:02:05.400 --> 05:02:09.639
you could move your fingers a little bit. You can

1599
05:02:10.720 --> 05:02:25.360
focus on each one individually, both hands, and even though

1600
05:02:25.599 --> 05:02:30.599
if you focus on both of your hands now they

1601
05:02:30.720 --> 05:02:38.840
almost seem to just melt into one where there is

1602
05:02:38.919 --> 05:02:46.520
your right hand start in your left hand end, almost

1603
05:02:46.680 --> 05:02:58.200
as if just mixed together. Now, focusing on your knees,

1604
05:03:04.119 --> 05:03:27.119
just noticing how your knees feel. Now, focusing on your elbows,

1605
05:03:29.840 --> 05:03:42.279
focusing on both of your elbows, just observing the feeling

1606
05:03:44.959 --> 05:04:16.880
of your elbows. Now, focusing observing the back of your neck,

1607
05:04:26.880 --> 05:05:04.520
feeling that energy on the back of your neck, Observing

1608
05:05:06.840 --> 05:05:26.200
your ankles, being aware of physical sensations in your ankles.

1609
05:06:26.240 --> 05:06:45.159
Noticing now your toes on both of your feet, being

1610
05:06:45.400 --> 05:07:40.919
aware how your toes fear right now, notice than high

1611
05:07:41.720 --> 05:08:30.400
entire body fails. Noticing how your mind feels now. Letting go,

1612
05:08:39.200 --> 05:09:21.279
letting go, letting go everything, letting go, letting go, letting go,

1613
05:09:25.360 --> 05:09:47.880
oh everything everything. I'm going to start now, and I

1614
05:09:47.919 --> 05:09:50.000
would like you just, first of all, just to see

1615
05:09:50.040 --> 05:09:58.240
yourself lying down on that message table, lying on your front.

1616
05:09:59.479 --> 05:10:08.360
Your head is supported, arms are supported, and you feel comfortable,

1617
05:10:08.880 --> 05:10:18.040
and breathing is really easy, and you feel. You feel

1618
05:10:18.159 --> 05:10:21.520
confident in how you look as well, So there's none

1619
05:10:21.560 --> 05:10:27.840
of that issue of body problems or shyness, because I'm

1620
05:10:27.880 --> 05:10:36.000
a professional and this is a therapy session, so none

1621
05:10:36.040 --> 05:10:45.959
of that stuff matters whatsoever. This is about you. This

1622
05:10:46.119 --> 05:10:53.479
is about how you feel and how you can enjoy

1623
05:10:54.479 --> 05:11:00.479
that sense of comfort and relaxation that comes from letting

1624
05:11:00.599 --> 05:11:06.319
go and allowing my hands and my fingers to relax

1625
05:11:06.439 --> 05:11:17.439
you by a message your body. So I want to

1626
05:11:17.479 --> 05:11:22.599
start off just by placing my hands on the back

1627
05:11:22.680 --> 05:11:27.639
of your head, just gently, just so you can feel, well,

1628
05:11:27.680 --> 05:11:36.119
my hands feel like really on you, so you can

1629
05:11:36.200 --> 05:11:38.520
maybe feel the warmth of my hands on the back

1630
05:11:38.560 --> 05:11:44.040
of your head. And with my hands to the side

1631
05:11:44.080 --> 05:11:48.680
of your head, not pressing, but just holding there very gently,

1632
05:11:51.680 --> 05:11:54.680
maybe over your ears, and a little bit on your face,

1633
05:11:55.919 --> 05:12:01.159
just so you can feel my hands so you can

1634
05:12:01.240 --> 05:12:14.439
become accustomed to them. And now put my hands on

1635
05:12:14.520 --> 05:12:18.759
the back of your head again and gently let them

1636
05:12:18.880 --> 05:12:31.240
slide down onto the back of your neck. You can

1637
05:12:31.319 --> 05:12:41.119
feel my hands gently stroke in the back of your

1638
05:12:41.200 --> 05:12:47.959
neck to start with, just so you can get used

1639
05:12:48.040 --> 05:12:52.919
to the feeling of my hands on your skin, get

1640
05:12:52.959 --> 05:13:01.319
accustomed to realize that you're safe and it's all good,

1641
05:13:01.639 --> 05:13:11.200
it's all fine, and I'm going to start gently massaging

1642
05:13:12.000 --> 05:13:28.840
the muscles in the back of your neck with both hands. Now,

1643
05:13:28.919 --> 05:13:35.200
this is a very trusting situation, really, because our necks

1644
05:13:35.240 --> 05:13:39.560
are so fragile and to have someone have their hands

1645
05:13:40.240 --> 05:13:45.240
around your neck in that way can sometimes be problematic

1646
05:13:45.360 --> 05:13:50.919
for people, which is why massages are quite good, because

1647
05:13:50.959 --> 05:13:59.520
it allows you to relax and to get in touch

1648
05:13:59.720 --> 05:14:16.560
with of trust, to feel peaceful and calm. And there's

1649
05:14:16.599 --> 05:14:24.240
a massage the sides of your neck gently moving from

1650
05:14:25.439 --> 05:14:29.159
the bottom of your neck. It would be sort of

1651
05:14:29.240 --> 05:14:32.479
near where your shoulders start, I guess, all the way

1652
05:14:32.599 --> 05:14:39.759
up to your jaw your ears kind of area that

1653
05:14:40.000 --> 05:14:45.000
side of your neck. Of course, it's a lot longer

1654
05:14:45.159 --> 05:15:01.680
than the front of your neck. Massage in the back

1655
05:15:01.759 --> 05:15:10.360
of your neck, especially that area where perhaps we hold tension,

1656
05:15:14.639 --> 05:15:19.159
and there's that area's message. You can actually feel a

1657
05:15:19.319 --> 05:15:27.279
sense of release in the back of your neck and

1658
05:15:27.439 --> 05:15:32.720
maybe you can breathe it out as well. Notice how

1659
05:15:32.799 --> 05:15:45.759
it feels. Notice how you feel. And then moving down

1660
05:15:45.959 --> 05:15:50.639
to that area between your neck and your shoulders, that

1661
05:15:50.919 --> 05:15:59.520
musty area, starting to message that area on both sides.

1662
05:16:01.680 --> 05:16:03.919
I mean, this would be the area that a lot

1663
05:16:03.959 --> 05:16:06.119
of people would message if they were going to give

1664
05:16:06.159 --> 05:16:12.599
you like a shoulder message. Even that's not technically the shoulders,

1665
05:16:13.159 --> 05:16:15.599
but it's all the muscles that lead to the shoulders

1666
05:16:17.439 --> 05:16:24.040
from the neck and again that can hold tension and stress.

1667
05:16:25.279 --> 05:16:30.279
And when massaged sometimes a nice deep message is useful,

1668
05:16:33.400 --> 05:16:48.799
and you decide how deep that message is and just

1669
05:16:49.000 --> 05:16:55.919
allow my knuckles just to dig in, to get to

1670
05:16:56.040 --> 05:17:05.439
those muscles and to really relaxed and all the time

1671
05:17:05.840 --> 05:17:23.680
being firm yet gentle with you and just stroking down

1672
05:17:23.799 --> 05:17:32.479
the area to your actual shoulders, moving to the muscles

1673
05:17:32.520 --> 05:17:43.200
of your shoulders and maybe initially just pulling up the

1674
05:17:43.279 --> 05:17:47.040
shoulders a little bit off the table, just to give

1675
05:17:47.080 --> 05:17:51.159
you a little bit of a stretch, but very gently.

1676
05:17:57.560 --> 05:18:00.000
And you've got the muscles at the front of your shoulder.

1677
05:18:00.080 --> 05:18:11.639
There's the sides and the back. Again, this is a

1678
05:18:11.759 --> 05:18:15.880
part that can really take quite a bit of pressure,

1679
05:18:17.279 --> 05:18:25.119
quite a bit of needing. If if you wish to

1680
05:18:25.319 --> 05:18:32.759
really release the tension to really get into those muscles

1681
05:18:32.919 --> 05:18:39.400
and you can let your fingers in there. They can

1682
05:18:39.439 --> 05:18:46.639
feel really nice sometimes just being stroked gently or being

1683
05:18:47.279 --> 05:18:58.080
massaged quite strongly. It can all be beneficial to the relaxation.

1684
05:19:03.200 --> 05:19:16.279
Put the muscles in your shoulders. Now you move down

1685
05:19:16.360 --> 05:19:26.959
your arms, weld one arm at a time, starting with

1686
05:19:27.080 --> 05:19:37.560
your right arm. W I DEAs. I just lift your

1687
05:19:37.720 --> 05:19:40.479
arm up, just hold it to the side of you

1688
05:19:43.720 --> 05:19:50.080
by ways still be attached, and I just message the

1689
05:19:50.240 --> 05:20:04.000
tops of your arms all the way down to your forearms,

1690
05:20:06.759 --> 05:20:30.639
into your wrists, gently massaging that parts, the softer part

1691
05:20:30.759 --> 05:20:37.400
which is the underpart of the arm, which leads to

1692
05:20:37.520 --> 05:20:42.919
the crease in your elbow, the inside it's much more

1693
05:20:43.080 --> 05:21:03.840
sensitive skin. Sometimes just having that stroked through nice, pleasurable

1694
05:21:04.119 --> 05:21:23.240
and relaxing. Now moving down to your right hand, just

1695
05:21:23.439 --> 05:21:35.799
holding your hand in both of my hands, just pressing

1696
05:21:35.959 --> 05:21:42.000
gently on the back of your hand and stretching your

1697
05:21:42.159 --> 05:21:52.959
fingers ever so lightly at the same time pressing down

1698
05:21:53.040 --> 05:22:06.240
and messaging each finger, and then starting to massage the

1699
05:22:06.479 --> 05:22:19.080
palms of the hand. Just turning the hand gently, stretching

1700
05:22:19.200 --> 05:22:28.919
it gently, and actually having your handheld can really be

1701
05:22:30.720 --> 05:22:36.360
an emotional experience sometimes even if it is a stranger,

1702
05:22:38.360 --> 05:22:42.040
So when you don't know very well, like a massage

1703
05:22:42.319 --> 05:22:55.799
person or a therapist, maybe because it's intimate and you

1704
05:22:55.880 --> 05:23:08.680
can feel nice, you can feel safe. And as I

1705
05:23:08.759 --> 05:23:17.360
put that right arm back down where it was, we're

1706
05:23:17.400 --> 05:23:24.159
gonna do the same with your left arm, exactly the same.

1707
05:23:28.880 --> 05:23:33.880
Massage in the muscles in your arm all the way down,

1708
05:23:35.119 --> 05:23:47.400
do your rest, stroking the inside of your arm, just

1709
05:23:47.520 --> 05:24:01.119
being gentle or as firm as you require, and then

1710
05:24:01.240 --> 05:24:17.680
massaging your left hand, stretching the fingers, gently massaging the

1711
05:24:17.959 --> 05:24:37.360
palm of your left hand. And you feel so so relaxing,

1712
05:24:45.040 --> 05:25:02.799
so comforting, and just rest your left arm back down.

1713
05:25:10.360 --> 05:25:17.000
Start to massage your back, the biggest part of your body,

1714
05:25:22.080 --> 05:25:29.000
starting at the top, starting again where we already have been,

1715
05:25:29.759 --> 05:25:34.439
the area at the top in between your shoulders, near

1716
05:25:34.520 --> 05:25:39.680
your neck. Going back, the massage in that area again,

1717
05:25:40.799 --> 05:25:54.520
but this time moving downwards, taking a downward stroke to

1718
05:25:54.560 --> 05:26:01.080
the middle of your back, working from the outside inwards.

1719
05:26:02.279 --> 05:26:09.680
It's a message in the your back, but the outsides

1720
05:26:10.040 --> 05:26:19.599
of your back, the parts where your arms would maybe

1721
05:26:20.080 --> 05:26:32.759
rest against, almost the part that connects your front to

1722
05:26:32.959 --> 05:26:50.880
your back. Just messaging down firmly but gently, as firm

1723
05:26:50.959 --> 05:26:59.119
as you want, moving down and moving across a little bit,

1724
05:26:59.159 --> 05:27:03.119
and moving all the way down again, be very gentle.

1725
05:27:04.880 --> 05:27:15.400
You have firm as you choose. Eventually you get to

1726
05:27:15.479 --> 05:27:20.880
the spine. We can message the muscles and either side

1727
05:27:20.959 --> 05:27:24.560
of your spine from the top of your neck all

1728
05:27:24.759 --> 05:27:36.000
the way down to your lower back. We can do

1729
05:27:36.159 --> 05:27:46.279
that a few times. Sometimes people use the knuckle or

1730
05:27:46.360 --> 05:27:51.319
the you know, two fingers and just go your side

1731
05:27:51.360 --> 05:27:56.400
of the spine. Almost just push down, go all the

1732
05:27:56.479 --> 05:28:00.639
way down to the bottom of the spine, each time

1733
05:28:02.319 --> 05:28:11.279
releasing tension and opening up the body, stretching your body

1734
05:28:14.040 --> 05:28:18.119
so that you feel more relaxed but at the same

1735
05:28:18.279 --> 05:28:35.080
time rejuvenated. And now I'm going to move to one side,

1736
05:28:36.159 --> 05:28:43.200
to your right side, and from the bottom of your

1737
05:28:43.279 --> 05:28:50.319
ribs to your pelvis, I'm going to massage that area

1738
05:28:51.080 --> 05:28:56.080
of your back. I'll stretch over the other side and

1739
05:28:56.200 --> 05:29:01.159
I will pull the muscles gently and massage and push

1740
05:29:02.680 --> 05:29:05.240
from one end that side or the way to my

1741
05:29:05.479 --> 05:29:10.520
side to the middle of fact to where your spine

1742
05:29:10.639 --> 05:29:17.639
is massaging that side of your spine the opposite side

1743
05:29:17.720 --> 05:29:25.560
to where I'm standing. It's almost like kneading bread. There's

1744
05:29:25.639 --> 05:29:32.759
that big area which is firm yet lots there to message.

1745
05:29:37.919 --> 05:29:42.240
Potentially one of the most important places to actually have

1746
05:29:42.799 --> 05:29:50.200
a message, because you really feel it. You really feel

1747
05:29:50.400 --> 05:29:55.759
the release and the pleasure of having your lower back massaged.

1748
05:29:58.959 --> 05:30:04.599
It releases so much from your body that's not useful,

1749
05:30:07.799 --> 05:30:13.360
starting a healing process which will continue long after this

1750
05:30:13.560 --> 05:30:25.680
recording is over. The message in this part of your

1751
05:30:25.720 --> 05:30:31.080
body not only feels really good for you, it's actually

1752
05:30:31.240 --> 05:30:35.240
fun to do because it is, as I said, like

1753
05:30:35.439 --> 05:30:40.599
kneading bread, it's a part that you can really get

1754
05:30:40.799 --> 05:30:48.159
hold of and really message deeply. If that's your choice,

1755
05:30:56.200 --> 05:30:58.080
then I'm going to move over to the other side

1756
05:30:58.119 --> 05:31:04.560
of your body and do the same with the opposite

1757
05:31:04.680 --> 05:31:14.000
part of your lower back, kneeding and messaging from your

1758
05:31:14.200 --> 05:31:21.639
sides all way to the middle of your back where

1759
05:31:21.680 --> 05:31:35.319
your spine is pressing and kneading firm and gentle at

1760
05:31:35.360 --> 05:31:50.599
the same time. It feels so releasing. This mixture of pleasure, comfort, release, calmness,

1761
05:31:50.959 --> 05:32:02.599
relaxation or mixed together. Plus there's that feeling from your

1762
05:32:02.680 --> 05:32:07.799
stomach as it's being stretched. Even though you're in your

1763
05:32:07.919 --> 05:32:12.200
stomach now, you can feel it being stretched because that

1764
05:32:12.360 --> 05:32:23.720
whole area is connected to your stomach. Now we're going

1765
05:32:23.799 --> 05:32:28.720
to move or move further up to your top of

1766
05:32:28.799 --> 05:32:33.240
your body and I we do the same this time,

1767
05:32:34.560 --> 05:32:41.360
starting with your upper back, put my hands forward over

1768
05:32:42.680 --> 05:32:48.840
and mess it. Massage in that area up to your spine,

1769
05:32:50.040 --> 05:32:52.639
from the side of your body up to your spine.

1770
05:32:54.439 --> 05:33:00.599
So some of that message area, the muscle tissue or

1771
05:33:00.599 --> 05:33:04.639
whatever faty tissue even will be possibly from your chest

1772
05:33:06.479 --> 05:33:13.880
because all connected chest and the back connect together. I'm

1773
05:33:13.959 --> 05:33:17.159
going to be massaging and just pulling some of that

1774
05:33:17.400 --> 05:33:28.080
skin from your side up and massaging that area of

1775
05:33:28.200 --> 05:33:36.639
your upper back all the way to your spine. And

1776
05:33:36.759 --> 05:33:39.479
then I'll move down a bit and I'll continue with

1777
05:33:39.639 --> 05:33:42.479
the middle of your back, doing exactly the same thing

1778
05:33:46.400 --> 05:33:59.840
as gentle or as deep as you choose. Now I'm

1779
05:34:00.680 --> 05:34:04.880
the other side again and do the exact same thing

1780
05:34:05.560 --> 05:34:08.680
with the top of your back on the other side,

1781
05:34:09.759 --> 05:34:23.799
from pretty much underneath your arm area really to your spine,

1782
05:34:28.919 --> 05:34:35.799
and then continueing that all the way down, including your

1783
05:34:35.840 --> 05:34:53.159
lower your middle of your back. I'm gonna go to

1784
05:34:53.319 --> 05:34:59.880
your thighs, the backs of your thighs, and the side

1785
05:35:00.080 --> 05:35:09.599
of your thighs, starting with your right leg. Massage in

1786
05:35:11.000 --> 05:35:20.159
the back and the sides of your thighs gently and firmly.

1787
05:35:22.319 --> 05:35:25.720
There's a lot of muscles there. It's an area that

1788
05:35:25.840 --> 05:35:30.040
can be very tense at times and maybe needs a

1789
05:35:30.080 --> 05:35:32.560
little bit more pressure than the rest of the body

1790
05:35:33.599 --> 05:35:41.319
that's up to you. You can gently stroke the back

1791
05:35:44.159 --> 05:35:48.479
of your legs where you know, opposite your knee joint

1792
05:35:49.759 --> 05:36:02.720
or underneath your knee joint, very sensitive, gentle area, and

1793
05:36:02.720 --> 05:36:10.040
then working down to your calf muscles. Massage in your

1794
05:36:10.159 --> 05:36:19.520
calf muscles thoroughly and deeply, if you choose, using both

1795
05:36:19.680 --> 05:36:38.279
hands and fingers, digging deep to your ankles. In the

1796
05:36:38.400 --> 05:36:45.240
back of your back of your ankles, just gently massage

1797
05:36:45.319 --> 05:36:57.080
in that area, maybe lifting the leg and stretching it

1798
05:36:57.159 --> 05:37:19.799
a little bit. Moving to the right foot, massage in

1799
05:37:22.360 --> 05:37:29.119
the bottom of your feet and the side of your

1800
05:37:29.159 --> 05:37:45.799
feet gently but firm enough so they don't tickle, and

1801
05:37:46.040 --> 05:37:51.439
just allow the pleasure that you get from having your

1802
05:37:51.520 --> 05:38:00.880
feet message to just overtake you as I continue to

1803
05:38:01.080 --> 05:38:07.400
message your feet, the bottoms of your feet, the sides,

1804
05:38:10.080 --> 05:38:15.759
your arches, your heel. You can put a lot of

1805
05:38:15.880 --> 05:38:21.720
pressure into your heel and it feels amazing, Yet the

1806
05:38:21.959 --> 05:38:30.000
arches need to be a bit more gentle. Stretching your

1807
05:38:30.159 --> 05:38:36.599
toes gently the message in the bottoms of your toes

1808
05:38:37.360 --> 05:38:52.639
with my fingers, each one individually, moving over to the

1809
05:38:52.799 --> 05:39:00.159
left leg to do exactly the same thing, starting in

1810
05:39:02.080 --> 05:39:06.560
at the top of the thighs, work in the back

1811
05:39:06.639 --> 05:39:12.200
of the thighs and the sides, massaging deeply and gently

1812
05:39:14.240 --> 05:39:28.240
that whole area, working all the way down. And this

1813
05:39:28.479 --> 05:39:34.360
is an area that maybe you could like to spend

1814
05:39:34.520 --> 05:39:43.279
more time relaxing and messaging. So perhaps if you wanted,

1815
05:39:43.439 --> 05:39:48.240
I could big a future recording wants spend more time

1816
05:39:48.400 --> 05:39:59.680
on one particular area. As you move down, do you

1817
05:39:59.799 --> 05:40:13.759
ca half muscles, Massaging in your calf muscles firmly and gently,

1818
05:40:19.439 --> 05:40:27.919
move down your aincor into your feet. Massage in the

1819
05:40:28.360 --> 05:40:38.439
backs of your feet, the bottoms of your feet, stretching

1820
05:40:38.680 --> 05:40:45.000
your toes and massage in each tone individually. And the

1821
05:40:45.400 --> 05:40:50.840
feeling of pleasure and release that you experience when your

1822
05:40:50.919 --> 05:41:13.080
having your feet massaged feels really good. Now, she turn

1823
05:41:13.240 --> 05:41:24.319
over in your mind. Laying on your back, I'm just

1824
05:41:24.439 --> 05:41:37.759
going to start again for your neck area in your shoulders,

1825
05:41:41.759 --> 05:41:52.159
just to get back in touch with that area. And

1826
05:41:52.319 --> 05:42:03.959
as you move up, I can clean my hands, make

1827
05:42:04.040 --> 05:42:09.840
them more fresh, because now I'm gonna message your face gently,

1828
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starting off with your forehead. Your eyes are closed and

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I can just stretch your eyes a little bit, pushing

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up on your eyebrows, just massaging around your scalp, massaging

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05:42:48.479 --> 05:42:58.680
down your cheeks, around your ears, into your chaw, gently

1832
05:43:03.680 --> 05:43:09.400
the side of your neck, your chin.

1833
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Hm.

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Then just moving down from your neck down to your chest,

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starting by message in the very top of your chest

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05:43:40.040 --> 05:43:45.279
where the collar phone is either side of the collarbone,

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05:43:53.720 --> 05:43:56.959
and then just message in the hole of the chest,

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05:44:06.159 --> 05:44:18.200
moving the chest around, because it's quite a large area,

1839
05:44:20.119 --> 05:44:27.560
you can move from one side to the next, moving

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05:44:27.959 --> 05:44:38.959
my hands underneath pretty much where your arms are stretching up,

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05:44:41.119 --> 05:44:44.159
stretching some of the muscles of your back in the process,

1842
05:44:49.439 --> 05:44:58.080
moving up over your chest and they're moving down again,

1843
05:45:10.720 --> 05:45:15.520
and then allowing my hands to just massage gently and

1844
05:45:15.799 --> 05:45:22.520
slide down towards your stomach, starting in the middle of

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05:45:22.639 --> 05:45:32.240
your chest, and then gradually my hands moving apart and

1846
05:45:32.560 --> 05:45:38.159
massage in and slide in at the same time, moving

1847
05:45:38.319 --> 05:45:57.040
down to just below your red cage, moving down, then

1848
05:45:57.200 --> 05:46:06.400
massaging up again, giving your chest all the attention that

1849
05:46:06.560 --> 05:46:21.000
it needs to feel completely relaxed. Remembering that I'm also

1850
05:46:21.159 --> 05:46:26.360
going to be focusing on your sides as well, an

1851
05:46:26.520 --> 05:46:32.799
area that really doesn't get much attention, but feels really

1852
05:46:32.919 --> 05:46:43.119
good when it's massaged, just stroking my hands down the

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05:46:43.319 --> 05:46:50.240
sides of your body, just below your arms, all the

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05:46:50.319 --> 05:47:03.720
way down to your hips. Now move into your stomach area.

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05:47:05.799 --> 05:47:09.159
We're going to stand one side of you like I

1856
05:47:09.240 --> 05:47:13.759
did when I did your lower back. I'm gonna do

1857
05:47:13.799 --> 05:47:19.880
a similar process of just stretching the muscles from your side,

1858
05:47:23.360 --> 05:47:35.439
gently massaging from one side to the next, move in.

1859
05:47:38.000 --> 05:47:42.200
A whole area from below your ribs all the way

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05:47:42.279 --> 05:47:53.159
down to below your belly button, and then move around

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05:47:53.240 --> 05:47:55.880
to the other side of you and repeat that.

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05:48:02.479 --> 05:48:16.479
Process of relaxing, deeply, calmly. You feel loose, You feel free.

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05:48:18.880 --> 05:48:23.599
And it's something about having your stomach message that's different

1864
05:48:23.639 --> 05:48:30.479
from any other part because we do have a tendency

1865
05:48:31.080 --> 05:48:34.959
of holding a different kind of stress in your stomach

1866
05:48:36.400 --> 05:48:44.240
that we may not be aware of. As in our

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05:48:44.400 --> 05:48:52.639
message your stomach in front of your stomach, making circles

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05:48:54.119 --> 05:49:03.319
around your belly button, and then going the other way around.

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There's a gentleness and a freedom that comes from feeling

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05:49:16.279 --> 05:49:26.560
how you're feeling. As I now move down the tops

1871
05:49:26.639 --> 05:49:33.360
of your thighs the muscles, massaging them, and I can

1872
05:49:33.520 --> 05:49:39.439
do this two legs at the same time, pressing down,

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05:49:42.319 --> 05:49:48.439
massaging deeply those muscles in your thighs, the front of

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your thighs, and moving down to your knees, gently massaging

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05:49:59.560 --> 05:50:10.880
your knee, sliding down your shins, putting pressure on either

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side of your shin gently softly but firmly, moving down

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to your ankles, stroking the tops of your feet, and

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then with each foot in each hand, just gently messaging

1879
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the whole of the foot, the top, the bottom, your heel,

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05:50:54.119 --> 05:51:01.240
your ankle, your toes, massaging the ear free part of

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05:51:01.360 --> 05:51:11.080
your feet. Feel so good, just to let go and

1882
05:51:11.360 --> 05:51:36.240
enjoy the process, Enjoy feeling so deeply relaxed, so much comfort,

1883
05:51:36.439 --> 05:51:43.400
and so many feelings to come just from touching your skin.

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05:51:54.119 --> 05:52:00.759
And you can just lie there for this long you choose,

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05:52:04.759 --> 05:52:16.560
enjoying the feeling of deep comfort from being massaged by me,

1886
05:52:23.720 --> 05:52:45.680
enjoy fearing deeply. Lights And all we're gonna do is

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blow out some candles. In your mind, there are going

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05:53:05.880 --> 05:53:16.240
to be a hundred candles, and you're going to blow

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05:53:16.439 --> 05:53:26.840
each one out individually, one by one, starting at one hundred.

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As I count down all the way down to one,

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and each time I say a number, you can imagine

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05:53:48.759 --> 05:53:55.159
that candle in front of you, and I'd like you

1893
05:53:55.319 --> 05:54:14.599
to actually physically gently blow that candle out, just so

1894
05:54:14.680 --> 05:54:23.959
it's not big blows, just a gentle, and that candle

1895
05:54:25.439 --> 05:54:34.720
will extinguish. And then I'll say the next number as

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we moved down, and you can just blow that one

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out as well. And as we move down the numbers,

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you'll find your s feeling more and more relaxed. If

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you need to sleep, you'll also find yourself becoming incredibly

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tired and sleepy. In fact, you may struggle to blow

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05:55:28.680 --> 05:55:42.720
out all one hundred of these candles as you feel

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05:55:45.680 --> 05:56:09.319
more and more deeply relaxed, more and more deeply tired,

1903
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And the further you go down, the more your mind

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05:56:23.279 --> 05:56:35.599
starts to drift. You may find that you stop listening

1905
05:56:35.840 --> 05:56:48.400
to me after a while. And even though there may

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05:56:48.479 --> 05:56:57.200
be background sounds where you are, you'll be aware of

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05:56:57.319 --> 05:57:02.520
those sounds at the moment.

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Be me.

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Start to just not even notice them at all because

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they're unimportant. Where I am, I've got the sounds of

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the birds, there's horrors, the pigeon who likes to say

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05:57:47.159 --> 05:57:53.439
hello sometimes, and there's the odd plane that goes by,

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maybe traffic and trains in the distance, but none of

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that seems important whatsoever. More candles you blow out, the

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less important anything.

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Is.

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More candles you blow out, the further you seem to

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move away from sounds and from general date days, stuff

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05:59:04.759 --> 05:59:18.799
seems to just move away on its own. You feel

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05:59:19.319 --> 05:59:39.520
more calmer with every candle you blow out, guiding you

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05:59:43.000 --> 05:59:56.080
the next number, do you hear me say? And then

1922
05:59:56.159 --> 06:00:13.840
you blow that candle out too? So easy, so simple.

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We're gonna start by introducing the first candle, which is

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a hundred first candle, this is one hundred. When you

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06:00:55.639 --> 06:01:11.959
blow that candle out, you'll find immediately a slight change

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in how you feel, as well as a real sense

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of positivity growing within you, relaxation and sleepiness expanding. Starting

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with one hundred flor I candle now ninety nine candle,

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ninety eight, cand ninety seven, candue ninety six, end ninety five,

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hand ninety four, candle, ninety three, candle ninety two and

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ninety one, can to ninety eighty nine and eighty eight

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candle eighties can do eighty he eighty five, can candle

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fur eighty two and May two one candle, seventy nine candle,

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seventy eight candle seventy seven, candle seventy six, candle seventy five,

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candle seventy four, candle seventy three, candle seventy two, candle

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seventy one, candle seventy one, and seventy and fifty nine,

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Candle sixty eight, candle sixty seven, candle sixty five, candle

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sixty four, candle sixty four, candle sixty three, candle sixty

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and sixty one, candle sixty fifty nine, hand fifty eight,

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candle fifty seven, candle fifty six, candle fifty five, candle

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fifty four, handle fifty three, handle fifty two, candle fifty two,

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ten to fifty, candle fifty one, candle fifty, candle fourty nine,

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candle forty eight, candle forty seven, candle forty six, candle

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forty five, candle forty two, candle What do you one?

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Handle forty candle thirty nine, handle thirty eight, canto thirty seven,

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cant thirty five, can't thirty four, pando thirty three, handle

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thirty one, chandle thirty and twenty teen nine ten twenty eight,

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candle twenty seven, candle twenty six, candle twenty five and

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too chief four endle twenty three, hand to twenty teap

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two and tuent you want and to winty hand, candle ninety,

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candle seventeen, candle sixteen, Canza fourteen and.

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Well candle eleven, candy.

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Hey came.

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Nine, chen too eight, chendo six, camel five, can do.

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Four, can doy.

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Can two, caned oh. Let go of all of those thoughts, worries,

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concerns about the past, thoughts about the future, and even

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things you've been thinking about today. Just let it all

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go because none of it is useful in this moment.

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This is your opportunity to just focus on feeling relaxed,

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allowing yourself to get in touch with that natural sense

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of peace that we all have within us. It's available

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for everyone. It just sometimes takes a little bit of

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effort to set up the right time and place in

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order for you to just let go. Because when you

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do decide to let go and relax, that's what your

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body starts to do because you've chosen. You've chosen to

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just allow your body to unwind and your mind starts

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to slow down. And it's a nice feeling. It's a

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nice feeling at the beginning just to know that you

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have chosen to decide to relax deeply, and because you've

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made that decision, your body will just follow suit. Because

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sometimes all the muscles in your body need is just

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permission from you to relax. Because so often we're busy,

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we're going from here to there, we're walking around, and

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we're doing stuff, and the body doesn't have any time

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or space to really relax deeply. So it kind of

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waits for you to lead the way, waits for your permission.

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And when you do give your permission, when you give

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the say so, when you say okay, it's time for

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your body to let go completely and relax totally, your

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body just follows. It's like a breath of relief. Ah good,

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I can now relax. That feeling at the end of

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a day, of a very physical day that you may

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experience in the past, where you get home and you

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just sit down on a chair, maybe you kick your

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shoes off, and ah, feels so nice knowing that you

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don't have to get up again for a little while

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at least if you choose, you can just sit there

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for maybe an hour to It feels blissful. And just

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by sitting down like that, your body knows that it's

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time to relax. Your body has been given permission from you.

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Because it's a mindset. In your mind, you're prepared to

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let go of everything and just completely allow all the

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stress of your body to evaporate. Any tensions can just

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gradually vanish. It's almost like magic, really, because that sense

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of relaxation in your body, it's a very natural state.

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It's not something unusual. It may feel unusual when you

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first start to relax, if you if you haven't really

2000
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spent a lot of time focusing and giving yourself this

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space to let go completely and relax may seem are

2002
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most alien, but it isn't. It's actually the most natural

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thing in the world to let go completely, to relax totally,

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the most natural thing in the world to allow yourself

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to feel really calm in your mind. And it is

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almost like a literal unwinding. It's like you press a

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button and all the tension just releases, and it's like

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a wheel, like a cog, like the inside of a clock,

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just unwinding. And it's almost like you could see the

2010
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little wind up knob that's used just going the opposite

2011
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way that you choose to wind it up, and the

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energy that fremetic stress for energy gradually winding down, losing

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its power, losing its strength as a sense of real

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axation becomes stronger and deeper, and you may find a

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the more relaxed you feel, that your mind starts to wander.

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Maybe just seemed to stop listening to me for a while,

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and your mind goes somewhere else, And then you realize

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you're listening to me again, and that was just your

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mind drifting to sleep, which is quite natural, because sometimes

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when we're stressed and tense, we're not mean I actually

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be aware of what we need or we physically or

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emotionally need in this moment. But when you allow your

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body and mind to relax completely and you let go

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of all thoughts, concerns, worries, ideas, all letting them go,

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allowing them to drop onto the floor, you start to

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get in touch with the feelings of such relaxation. This

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feels so nice to be in touch with the calmness

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of the different body parts as they become looser and looser.

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Even your breathing seems easier and more natural, effortless, as

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that cool air enters through your mouth or nose into

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your lungs, breathing in comforts and relaxation, and then just

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breathing out any excess remain intensional stress from every part

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of your body and mind. And as you start to

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focus on your mind, maybe you notice that things have

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come to a standstill or maybe just much much lower

2036
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than before, because your mind is not really needed when

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listening to my voice, which allows your mind to relax

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just as deeply as your body. And that's synchronicity between

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the relaxation of your body and relaxation of your mind.

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Let you know that feeling completely calm, loose, and relaxed

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real is a great healing experience fear and has so

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many positive benefits for your body, mind, and your life.

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To be able to let go everything and to relax

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completely in all parts of your body and mind. Even

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your bones are relaxed, all your muscle rules are relaxed,

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even the skin that covers your body is relaxed. Every

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hair that you have is also deeply relaxed. And your

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brain really starts to feel the benefits of this healing relaxation.

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And as you focus on the inside of your scalp

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where your brain is, you can start to realize and

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notice the benefits of your brain relaxing deeply, and it's

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your brain continues to relax sends those messages to the

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rest of your body and your mind.

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To rely, relax even more.

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Deeply, relax in more completely, letting go of any remaining

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force or concerns, allow them just to drop onto the

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floor because they're no longer necessary in this moment, in

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this moment of deep relaxation and calmness, filling your brain

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with deep, concentrated healing, calming, relaxing every part of your brain,

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feeling so loose and comfortable, so relaxed and peaceful. Your

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brain feels.

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So light.

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And so healthy in that sense of deep deep comfort

2064
07:15:51.080 --> 07:16:05.080
really does allow you to enjoy those ever increasing sensations

2065
07:16:05.400 --> 07:16:19.799
of comfort that are spreading throughout your body, relaxing each

2066
07:16:21.439 --> 07:16:34.720
and every muscle of your body, e and deeper and deeper,

2067
07:16:37.840 --> 07:16:55.520
much more deeper than before, much more comfort spreading through

2068
07:16:56.919 --> 07:17:08.080
your body. In your mind, be so peaceful and calm,

2069
07:17:10.880 --> 07:17:25.360
so very very peaceful, in every part of your body,

2070
07:17:27.040 --> 07:17:43.119
letting go of a everything averything, so peaceful and calm,

2071
07:17:46.479 --> 07:18:01.840
so relax With every second the passes, you feel.

2072
07:18:03.880 --> 07:18:16.319
Deeper deeper, relaxed, deeper.

2073
07:18:17.759 --> 07:18:40.560
And deeper relax, calm, so calm, peace for so very piece,

2074
07:18:43.759 --> 07:18:53.040
from your head down to your toes. Such peace and

2075
07:18:53.439 --> 07:19:09.840
comfort growing all the time, Such peace and comfort spreading

2076
07:19:10.840 --> 07:19:23.000
through your body and mind deeper and deeper, Such comfort

2077
07:19:25.599 --> 07:19:39.080
spreading and sinking deeper into a muscle your body, so

2078
07:19:39.319 --> 07:19:58.759
that you feel amazing, so relaxed, so peaceful, so relax

2079
07:20:02.759 --> 07:20:08.279
and peaceful, letting go.

2080
07:20:12.240 --> 07:20:13.119
Everything.

2081
07:20:17.400 --> 07:20:23.599
We're going to do a body scan, focusing on firstly

2082
07:20:23.759 --> 07:20:28.520
how you feel in your body, not trying to change

2083
07:20:29.200 --> 07:20:34.799
how you feel, not trying to relax, not trying to

2084
07:20:35.000 --> 07:20:42.159
move away from any discomfort or stress or tension, just accepting,

2085
07:20:43.720 --> 07:20:48.799
observing and accepting how you feel in the different parts

2086
07:20:48.880 --> 07:20:55.560
of your body, just allowing yourself to be exactly as

2087
07:20:55.639 --> 07:21:07.080
you are, to notice to get in touch with how

2088
07:21:07.159 --> 07:21:14.599
you actually feel in this moment. I'm going to start

2089
07:21:14.720 --> 07:21:25.639
off by focusing on your hands. Just be aware of

2090
07:21:25.799 --> 07:21:34.040
your hands. I'd like you to move your hands around,

2091
07:21:35.520 --> 07:21:41.200
just maybe move your fingers a little bit open and

2092
07:21:41.319 --> 07:21:47.599
closing your hands very gently, just so that you can

2093
07:21:49.520 --> 07:21:56.560
get in touch with how your hands and your fingers feel,

2094
07:22:01.959 --> 07:22:20.919
very very slow movements. Focusing now on your feet, and

2095
07:22:21.000 --> 07:22:24.880
if you can just do kind of an equivalent with

2096
07:22:25.080 --> 07:22:30.799
your feet, is you've just done with your hands, Maybe

2097
07:22:32.240 --> 07:22:39.639
turn in your ankles, moving your feet around, moving your

2098
07:22:39.799 --> 07:22:53.040
toes gently, but only very gently and very slowly, noticing

2099
07:22:53.560 --> 07:23:07.919
how your feet feel in this moment it Focusing now

2100
07:23:08.119 --> 07:23:15.319
and your eyes. I like you to just focus on

2101
07:23:15.479 --> 07:23:21.240
your eyelids. Maybe you can open and close your eyes

2102
07:23:21.400 --> 07:23:25.759
a couple of times to really get in touch with

2103
07:23:26.639 --> 07:23:31.319
how you feel when you do close your eyes. The

2104
07:23:31.479 --> 07:23:37.680
muscle changes in your eyes when you do close them,

2105
07:23:40.560 --> 07:23:46.919
maybe raising your eyebrows. It stretches the tops of your eyes,

2106
07:23:50.159 --> 07:23:58.599
perhaps squinting your eyes, scrunching up your eyes, just so

2107
07:23:58.720 --> 07:24:08.520
you can here again touch with all aspects of how

2108
07:24:10.319 --> 07:24:27.360
your eyes feel. Right now. Now focusing on your thighs,

2109
07:24:29.759 --> 07:24:33.040
and you know it just starts you to gently tense

2110
07:24:33.279 --> 07:24:43.200
your thighs, just very very gently, just enough so you

2111
07:24:43.360 --> 07:24:57.040
can become more attuned to the physical sensation of your

2112
07:24:57.119 --> 07:25:02.520
upper legs, the front of your thighs, and the backs

2113
07:25:02.599 --> 07:25:16.919
of your thigh noticing and observing how your thighs fear.

2114
07:25:18.200 --> 07:25:31.200
Right now, moving your focus to the back of your neck,

2115
07:25:34.880 --> 07:25:41.520
just noticing the back of your neck, the muscles, and

2116
07:25:41.639 --> 07:25:44.599
of course they lead to the side of your neck.

2117
07:25:46.080 --> 07:25:51.200
They also lead to the top of your back, which

2118
07:25:51.360 --> 07:25:56.759
leads to your shoulders, so it's your focus on the

2119
07:25:56.919 --> 07:26:02.479
back of your neck. May be can move your head

2120
07:26:03.400 --> 07:26:11.159
gently upwards as if you're looking up, maybe moving your

2121
07:26:11.279 --> 07:26:18.880
head down as if you were looking down, perhaps moving

2122
07:26:18.919 --> 07:26:27.119
your head side to side, right to left, only very

2123
07:26:28.520 --> 07:26:37.680
slowly and very gently. I'm not trying to force anything.

2124
07:26:39.439 --> 07:26:48.319
It has to be very very gentle, just so that

2125
07:26:48.560 --> 07:27:00.479
you can be more in touch with the feelings, with

2126
07:27:00.799 --> 07:27:08.919
the sensations, the physical sensations of how the back of

2127
07:27:09.040 --> 07:27:27.880
your neck feels. Right now, as we now focus on

2128
07:27:28.000 --> 07:27:33.959
the tops of your arms, the parts where your biceps

2129
07:27:34.080 --> 07:27:38.360
and your triceps are between your elbow and your shoulders.

2130
07:27:42.080 --> 07:27:47.000
To focus on those parts, the tops of your arms,

2131
07:27:49.200 --> 07:27:56.759
you may like to just tense them, but very very

2132
07:27:56.959 --> 07:28:06.520
gently and slowly, so you're not straining or putting any

2133
07:28:07.799 --> 07:28:17.720
pressure whatsoever on your arms. It's just solely you can

2134
07:28:20.400 --> 07:28:27.599
gain more of a sense of how your upper arms

2135
07:28:29.159 --> 07:28:41.040
are feeling in this moment, and just noticing as you gently,

2136
07:28:43.200 --> 07:28:52.799
very gently and slowly tighten the muscles and then let go,

2137
07:28:57.080 --> 07:29:05.479
notice how the tops of your arms fell right now.

2138
07:29:13.680 --> 07:29:24.479
As a now focus on your stomach, the area the

2139
07:29:24.599 --> 07:29:30.919
lower abdomen area below your belly button, moving all the

2140
07:29:31.000 --> 07:29:44.720
way down to your hips, just above your grind. Maybe

2141
07:29:44.919 --> 07:29:52.560
you're able to tense these muscles in that area very

2142
07:29:54.799 --> 07:30:08.080
very gently and slow if that's a difficult thing to do,

2143
07:30:09.360 --> 07:30:17.560
and maybe you can just move your body, pushing your

2144
07:30:17.680 --> 07:30:22.520
stomach up, maybe moving a little bit to the side

2145
07:30:23.119 --> 07:30:31.279
using your hips, just so you can get more in

2146
07:30:31.680 --> 07:30:46.080
tune with how your lower aptomen area is feeling in

2147
07:30:46.240 --> 07:31:04.119
this moment. Just noticing the physical sensations of your lower

2148
07:31:04.439 --> 07:31:28.680
abdomen as you move your attention to your mouth, noticing

2149
07:31:28.959 --> 07:31:38.159
your lips and inside your mouth, your teeth, your guns,

2150
07:31:39.560 --> 07:31:55.360
your tongue, Just noticing how your tongue in your mouth feels.

2151
07:31:58.400 --> 07:32:05.799
It may help buy moving your tongue around your mouth,

2152
07:32:07.319 --> 07:32:13.520
moving it to your left, maybe pressing it gently against

2153
07:32:15.040 --> 07:32:19.520
the side of your mouth, and then to the right,

2154
07:32:21.119 --> 07:32:28.159
gently to the side of your mouth, perhaps pressing up

2155
07:32:28.279 --> 07:32:34.439
against the top of your mouth, and then down gently

2156
07:32:36.400 --> 07:32:47.319
against the bottom of your mouth, always very slowly, in

2157
07:32:47.439 --> 07:33:02.080
a very very gentle so that you can be aware

2158
07:33:07.400 --> 07:33:29.639
of how you feel in your mouth area. Now I'm

2159
07:33:29.720 --> 07:33:45.200
going to focus on your wrists and I'm going to

2160
07:33:45.360 --> 07:33:54.200
ask you to maybe just routate your wrists by moving

2161
07:33:54.279 --> 07:34:04.680
your hands in a circular motion very gently and slowly,

2162
07:34:07.479 --> 07:34:26.159
just soly you can feel the sensations that you are

2163
07:34:26.680 --> 07:34:42.439
currently experiencing in your wrists. Perhaps move in your hands.

2164
07:34:43.720 --> 07:34:45.159
Up and down.

2165
07:34:47.560 --> 07:35:14.919
Again, very very gently and slowly, very gentle and slow.

2166
07:35:28.360 --> 07:35:44.759
As we now start to observe your lower back. The

2167
07:35:45.119 --> 07:35:55.000
bad part is just above of your hips, where your

2168
07:35:55.159 --> 07:36:08.159
copsis are, a whole area which also really does include

2169
07:36:08.959 --> 07:36:15.200
the sides of your body because those muscles are very

2170
07:36:15.319 --> 07:36:27.000
much connected as those muscles also move into your hiperia,

2171
07:36:28.000 --> 07:36:43.400
connect into your buttocks, the sides of your hips, and

2172
07:36:43.560 --> 07:36:52.000
if you're physically able to do so, maybe you can

2173
07:36:52.919 --> 07:37:05.599
very gently just move your body ever so slightly, very slowly,

2174
07:37:08.720 --> 07:37:26.639
some side to side, just enough to gauge how you

2175
07:37:26.959 --> 07:37:43.959
feel in your lower back. Perhaps you could even move

2176
07:37:44.200 --> 07:37:58.279
your hips gently up and down, gently and slowly in

2177
07:37:58.639 --> 07:38:12.479
order to be in touch with the physical sensations of

2178
07:38:12.680 --> 07:38:41.680
your lower back. As we now move your attention to

2179
07:38:41.919 --> 07:38:49.639
your jaw, the area from your chin all the way

2180
07:38:49.759 --> 07:38:57.279
up to near where your ears are, the hole of

2181
07:38:57.439 --> 07:39:12.319
your jaw, and you can just if it's okay, to do.

2182
07:39:12.639 --> 07:39:24.279
SA gently open your mouth, not wide, no stretching, just

2183
07:39:24.919 --> 07:39:38.119
very gently and slowly opening your mouth thing closing your

2184
07:39:38.200 --> 07:39:59.119
mouth very gently and slowly so you can be in

2185
07:39:59.360 --> 07:40:40.360
touch HHM with how your jaw feels. Now noticing now

2186
07:40:43.200 --> 07:40:56.119
your chest area and you don't need to do anything

2187
07:40:58.040 --> 07:41:04.919
to move your chest because it moves every time you breathe,

2188
07:41:10.040 --> 07:41:23.240
and it moves very gently and slowly automatically with each

2189
07:41:23.799 --> 07:41:38.759
breath you take. As you focus on how your chest

2190
07:41:43.959 --> 07:42:24.840
feels when you breathe, move in your focus to your forearms,

2191
07:42:27.319 --> 07:42:43.479
your elbows. Maybe you're able to very gently and slowly

2192
07:42:45.919 --> 07:42:54.439
tense the muscles in your forearms and when you do that,

2193
07:42:54.959 --> 07:43:11.639
you can feel your elbows this as well, very gently

2194
07:43:16.279 --> 07:43:58.400
and slowly, gently and softly observing your forearms and dilbos noah.

2195
07:44:06.560 --> 07:44:16.159
I think a focus on the rest of your back,

2196
07:44:20.279 --> 07:44:42.560
your upper back in the middle, the middle of your back. Again,

2197
07:44:43.240 --> 07:44:54.119
this part of your body moves also every time you breathe.

2198
07:44:58.959 --> 07:45:09.000
You may not know what to say, usually makes you

2199
07:45:09.240 --> 07:45:15.680
observe your upper back in the middle of your back.

2200
07:45:19.400 --> 07:46:15.119
You can really feel that gentle and slow movement. Moving

2201
07:46:15.360 --> 07:46:28.439
your focus into your hip area, your buttees, you grain

2202
07:46:31.119 --> 07:47:05.919
there's muscles and those bones in your midsection. Just noticing

2203
07:47:08.319 --> 07:47:28.639
how your hips feel. Right now, you can very very

2204
07:47:29.240 --> 07:47:44.000
gently move your hips, maybe side to side, very gently

2205
07:47:44.319 --> 07:48:36.560
and slo yeah, yeah, softly and slowly. Everything starts to

2206
07:48:40.240 --> 07:48:52.200
slow down, including the thoughts in your mind and your

2207
07:48:52.279 --> 07:49:02.279
mind itself just starts to gradually. It doesn't have to

2208
07:49:02.319 --> 07:49:10.159
be instant, but just gradually starting too. It's almost like

2209
07:49:10.479 --> 07:49:21.799
time is streng chin. It's a slower pace to maybe

2210
07:49:22.040 --> 07:49:27.119
what you're used to in your day to day life.

2211
07:49:30.279 --> 07:49:57.240
It's a slower movement of energy, very small movements which

2212
07:49:57.360 --> 07:50:05.479
make up the larger movements, which is always the case. Now,

2213
07:50:05.560 --> 07:50:10.080
when you move your hand, it might seem like it's

2214
07:50:10.240 --> 07:50:15.919
one movement, but it's lots of minute different muscles moving

2215
07:50:18.119 --> 07:50:27.080
in accordance with each other. And what happens in this

2216
07:50:29.000 --> 07:50:43.599
space that we're sharing is we move from that big

2217
07:50:48.240 --> 07:51:05.319
movement into those smaller movements. Starting to focus on how

2218
07:51:05.400 --> 07:51:12.680
your body feels, not just as a whole, not just oh,

2219
07:51:12.759 --> 07:51:17.000
i'm feel in this way. I'm feeling stressed or tense,

2220
07:51:17.279 --> 07:51:22.680
or I'm feeling relaxed and calm, I'm feeling this way,

2221
07:51:22.799 --> 07:51:29.680
I'm feeling that way. Starting to notice that your body

2222
07:51:34.040 --> 07:51:43.639
begins to present to you small feelings around your body,

2223
07:51:50.200 --> 07:52:02.279
small physical sensations in your legs, whether pleasurable or not.

2224
07:52:07.680 --> 07:52:17.000
Maybe resisting the temptation to label them or to judge them,

2225
07:52:18.439 --> 07:52:24.520
those feelings, just thinking them, thinking about them is just

2226
07:52:24.759 --> 07:52:41.680
being neutral, just feelings, not being particularly concerned, but just

2227
07:52:42.080 --> 07:52:56.799
noticing what your body is telling you. The feelings in

2228
07:52:56.919 --> 07:53:03.080
your arms, instead of feeling the whole of the arm,

2229
07:53:04.520 --> 07:53:13.439
Maybe notice those individual feelings for all those different muscles

2230
07:53:13.680 --> 07:53:26.279
and the skin, the hairs of your arms, all the

2231
07:53:26.479 --> 07:53:43.000
internal parts of your arms, the veins, the bones, just

2232
07:53:43.119 --> 07:53:49.319
being aware of maybe your elbow on your right arm

2233
07:53:52.080 --> 07:54:00.279
has a certain feeling. Maybe your left wrist also has

2234
07:54:03.439 --> 07:54:24.200
its own individual physical sensation. What about your forearm on

2235
07:54:24.360 --> 07:54:36.520
your right arm, your right forearm, there may not be

2236
07:54:36.680 --> 07:54:44.680
any particular feeling that you could even give a name to,

2237
07:54:48.439 --> 07:54:53.919
may not feel like anything other than just a feeling. Yeah,

2238
07:54:54.080 --> 07:55:06.520
it's there. The feelings in your shoulders, perhaps your shoulders,

2239
07:55:06.560 --> 07:55:09.840
when you think about them, you're kind of almost like

2240
07:55:09.959 --> 07:55:16.639
they're the same, you know, the same feeling, almost like

2241
07:55:16.759 --> 07:55:21.119
you both of your shoulders are just one thing, but

2242
07:55:21.200 --> 07:55:32.319
of course they're not. And when you focus on your

2243
07:55:32.400 --> 07:55:40.599
left shoulder and then on your right shoulder. Maybe find

2244
07:55:40.799 --> 07:55:46.200
that you move the muscles a little bit, maybe tense

2245
07:55:46.279 --> 07:56:00.360
the muscles gently, noticing the difference in each show order

2246
07:56:11.720 --> 07:56:27.560
your lower back, the left side of your lower back

2247
07:56:27.759 --> 07:56:39.159
and the right side of your lower back of course

2248
07:56:39.279 --> 07:56:51.479
that connection to your buttocks and to your hips, and

2249
07:56:51.639 --> 07:57:05.000
also moving up into the middle of your back. And

2250
07:57:05.200 --> 07:57:09.759
sometimes like right now, actually when I focus on their part,

2251
07:57:11.119 --> 07:57:15.520
when I focused on my buttocks and then I focused

2252
07:57:15.560 --> 07:57:19.680
on the middle of my back, it almost felt like

2253
07:57:19.880 --> 07:57:24.639
the muscles in my lower back were being stretched very gently,

2254
07:57:29.400 --> 07:57:34.680
just stretched a little bit. Even though I wasn't doing

2255
07:57:34.799 --> 07:57:43.560
anything to try to stretch your lower back, it just

2256
07:57:43.639 --> 07:57:55.959
seemed to happen. The feeling of very gently stretching your

2257
07:57:56.040 --> 07:58:15.119
lower back comes along. I have feeling in your chest,

2258
07:58:22.720 --> 07:58:36.119
just noticing what sensations you are experiencing in your chest

2259
07:58:36.400 --> 07:58:52.680
right now. And there's so much of the chest. Obviously

2260
07:58:52.720 --> 07:58:56.360
there's the collar bone leading to the chest. You've got

2261
07:58:56.400 --> 07:59:05.000
the chest bone, You've got the muscles in your chest.

2262
07:59:07.799 --> 07:59:13.880
Of course, if you're female, there's possibly the breasts. If

2263
07:59:13.919 --> 07:59:22.479
you're male, you've got the different Well why not that different?

2264
07:59:22.520 --> 07:59:29.759
These days? But there may be more muscles at the

2265
07:59:29.840 --> 07:59:37.279
top of the chest, but at the side underneath it's

2266
07:59:37.360 --> 07:59:40.319
pretty much the same. Whether you're a man or a woman.

2267
07:59:41.200 --> 07:59:46.959
There's muscles there, muscles that stretch out to your back,

2268
07:59:48.159 --> 07:59:51.720
as well as breast tissue which stretches and moves into

2269
07:59:51.799 --> 08:00:08.040
your back. To just being aware of your chest, being

2270
08:00:15.200 --> 08:00:35.119
with whatever feeling there is in your chest. And when

2271
08:00:35.119 --> 08:00:42.959
I noticed that, I focus on my chest. I feel

2272
08:00:43.040 --> 08:00:47.759
it in my back, my upper back. I mean, I

2273
08:00:47.840 --> 08:00:50.840
guess the obvious reason would be because you know, I'll

2274
08:00:50.919 --> 08:01:01.040
breathe in in and it stretched, which is my chest

2275
08:01:01.360 --> 08:01:14.880
and my back at the same time. It feels it

2276
08:01:14.959 --> 08:01:26.720
feels okay, doesn't feel I've got a little bit of

2277
08:01:26.840 --> 08:01:33.599
pain in my right chest, a little bit not pain,

2278
08:01:33.759 --> 08:01:43.680
but little discomfort, maybe stiffness possibly, I don't know. I

2279
08:01:43.880 --> 08:01:51.919
noticed my shoulders also wanting to flex for some reason.

2280
08:01:54.080 --> 08:02:01.479
I think that's probably part of my upper back, that

2281
08:02:01.680 --> 08:02:07.000
connection between my shoulders marper back, because I can move

2282
08:02:07.080 --> 08:02:14.400
my shoulders and stretch the muscles in my back, moving

2283
08:02:14.439 --> 08:02:20.919
the shoulders backwards or up, which then moves. I think

2284
08:02:20.959 --> 08:02:36.479
it's the scapulous in your back. It feels quite nice.

2285
08:02:36.520 --> 08:02:45.279
Actually a good thing about this is you can if

2286
08:02:45.360 --> 08:02:58.840
you want to, you can just flex or stimulate the

2287
08:02:59.040 --> 08:03:05.799
various muscles in your body gently in order to get

2288
08:03:07.000 --> 08:03:16.639
more of a sense of how they feel. And when

2289
08:03:16.639 --> 08:03:25.799
you're relaxing, when you do tense and muscle and then

2290
08:03:25.880 --> 08:03:29.400
you let it go and you let it relax, it

2291
08:03:29.599 --> 08:03:41.840
relaxes way more than it would normally. But you have

2292
08:03:42.080 --> 08:03:48.599
to feel that you're able to do that. There's no

2293
08:03:48.759 --> 08:03:54.240
point in doing it if there's an issue with the

2294
08:03:54.319 --> 08:04:00.840
per part of your body. Need to be gentle with

2295
08:04:00.959 --> 08:04:17.599
yourself at all times when relaxing deeply. It's important to

2296
08:04:17.720 --> 08:04:33.479
be kind to yourself as you notice your mind. How

2297
08:04:33.599 --> 08:04:42.560
much has your mind slowed down since we started this recording,

2298
08:04:58.599 --> 08:05:14.200
How came and peaceful is your mind right now? We

2299
08:05:14.240 --> 08:05:19.759
have nothing to think about and just my voice to

2300
08:05:19.959 --> 08:05:30.639
listen to. Because you know, the intention behind this recording

2301
08:05:32.119 --> 08:05:39.680
is relaxation. At the very least, for you to feel

2302
08:05:39.959 --> 08:05:44.319
more relaxed at the end of the recording than you

2303
08:05:44.560 --> 08:05:56.439
did at the beginning. At the very least, for your

2304
08:05:56.639 --> 08:06:07.959
mind to slow down as your body continues to relax,

2305
08:06:13.360 --> 08:06:26.439
because that's what you want to happen, that's what you expect.

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To happen.

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08:06:36.720 --> 08:06:54.680
For relaxation, to fill your body, maybe calm in your

2308
08:06:54.880 --> 08:07:03.720
mind to the point of boredom. When you start maybe

2309
08:07:04.159 --> 08:07:50.560
to drift away, drifting, it's almost as if you're moving

2310
08:07:51.200 --> 08:07:59.080
further away from your body in your mind, just leaving

2311
08:07:59.279 --> 08:08:10.479
that there. Yeah, kind of liking it an escape pod

2312
08:08:11.240 --> 08:08:15.439
in a spaceship a movie. A space movie. You know,

2313
08:08:15.560 --> 08:08:19.439
when they're get into a little pod in it, since

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08:08:19.560 --> 08:08:35.639
the mon far away from the spaceship, safe to dream

2315
08:08:44.200 --> 08:09:46.119
and continue to relax, drifting so slow and peace so

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08:10:02.400 --> 08:10:48.439
so relax and peaceful, and focusing on the feeling of

2317
08:10:48.639 --> 08:11:01.000
those individual parts of your body debts or relaxing one

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08:11:01.080 --> 08:11:17.840
by one. You may find that every now and then

2319
08:11:20.720 --> 08:11:31.919
you realize that you weren't listening to my voice because

2320
08:11:31.959 --> 08:11:43.479
your mind started to imagine something different, maybe started to

2321
08:11:45.720 --> 08:11:56.880
almost move into some kind of a dreamy state, And

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08:11:56.959 --> 08:12:03.520
then you become aware of my voice again. And even

2323
08:12:03.680 --> 08:12:10.400
though you may want to focus on my voice, you

2324
08:12:10.560 --> 08:12:18.479
may also wish to allow your mind to just drift

2325
08:12:21.680 --> 08:12:38.159
naturally into that space of comfort and safety. As you

2326
08:12:39.000 --> 08:12:56.080
feel more comfort spreading through your body like a warm

2327
08:12:56.279 --> 08:13:12.919
blanket covering you gently, keeping your body at just the

2328
08:13:13.200 --> 08:13:30.360
perfect temperature, and even if you can hear background sounds,

2329
08:13:35.919 --> 08:13:48.279
they just don't seem to matter anymore. As that sense

2330
08:13:48.439 --> 08:14:04.799
of peace spreads through your mind like a gentle breeze,

2331
08:14:07.759 --> 08:14:20.439
yet strong enough to blow away all negativity, strong enough

2332
08:14:20.560 --> 08:14:33.880
to remove from your mind any anxiety or stress that

2333
08:14:34.159 --> 08:14:48.400
was there before, and blow away any other thoughts or

2334
08:14:48.680 --> 08:15:10.119
feelings that just don't fit with the sense relaxation that

2335
08:15:15.240 --> 08:15:40.599
is feeling your body and your mind. Unless you focus

2336
08:15:40.840 --> 08:15:47.479
on your mind and count down from ten down to one,

2337
08:15:48.840 --> 08:15:59.200
and with each number you hear, your mind will become

2338
08:16:05.279 --> 08:16:24.880
slightly more relaxed, just just slightly so, from ten down

2339
08:16:25.000 --> 08:16:32.080
to nine, just a slight movement. From nine down to eight,

2340
08:16:33.319 --> 08:16:49.759
just another small change in how you feel. Eight down

2341
08:16:49.880 --> 08:16:57.759
to seven. That feeling is a gap, almost like a

2342
08:16:58.240 --> 08:17:05.520
gap that starts to get wider, the gap between those

2343
08:17:06.439 --> 08:17:15.520
feelings that you used to have in your mind compared

2344
08:17:15.639 --> 08:17:22.319
to the feelings you have that are growing now, feelings

2345
08:17:22.360 --> 08:17:32.599
of comfort and security and confidence. And that gap becomes

2346
08:17:32.840 --> 08:17:41.919
wider eight down to seven, seven down to six, And

2347
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when you get to five, your mind will start to

2348
08:17:48.400 --> 08:18:00.759
have a certain physical sensation, almost like there's a magnet

2349
08:18:01.360 --> 08:18:07.680
outside of your head, sucking the tension and the stress

2350
08:18:08.240 --> 08:18:15.119
and any remaining feelings that you don't want, sucking them

2351
08:18:15.319 --> 08:18:26.040
out through your skull. And then down to four you

2352
08:18:26.200 --> 08:18:34.840
can start to really experience that sense of not just emptiness,

2353
08:18:35.080 --> 08:18:48.599
but space, a place full of fresh air, a place

2354
08:18:48.680 --> 08:18:55.200
where you can stretch. It's almost as if as you

2355
08:18:55.360 --> 08:19:00.000
go down to four and three, your mind is expanded,

2356
08:19:00.119 --> 08:19:03.479
ending with this sense.

2357
08:19:06.080 --> 08:19:07.439
Of peace.

2358
08:19:08.759 --> 08:19:19.080
And tranquility growing as it moves down to When you

2359
08:19:19.200 --> 08:19:28.599
get to one, your mind just feels exactly how you

2360
08:19:28.959 --> 08:19:44.680
want to feel. It's almost a perfect feeling, maybe a

2361
08:19:47.799 --> 08:19:56.880
sensation that you'd like to keep a place that's safe,

2362
08:19:57.880 --> 08:20:18.159
where nothing can affect you at all, and you can

2363
08:20:18.360 --> 08:20:27.319
stay in that that space of comfort and confidence, confident

2364
08:20:27.479 --> 08:20:33.919
in your own ability to create this space and this

2365
08:20:35.279 --> 08:20:41.639
feeling of comfort within your own mind just by counting

2366
08:20:42.400 --> 08:20:51.360
and ten down to one. And this is something that

2367
08:20:51.560 --> 08:21:00.319
you can do yourself when you're on your own, a

2368
08:21:00.520 --> 08:21:04.319
time when you can maybe sit down, maybe just for

2369
08:21:04.400 --> 08:21:16.360
a few minutes, close your eyes and just count slowly

2370
08:21:17.000 --> 08:21:30.159
from ten down to one and re experience these feelings

2371
08:21:31.799 --> 08:21:40.119
in your mind. And when you feel that way in

2372
08:21:40.279 --> 08:21:55.840
your mind, your body copies your mind and that feeling

2373
08:21:56.000 --> 08:22:02.840
is spread through your spine and your nervous system into

2374
08:22:03.200 --> 08:22:09.880
every part of your body, travels through your blood stream,

2375
08:22:15.439 --> 08:22:35.959
healing and relaxing every particle of your existence. And we

2376
08:22:36.080 --> 08:22:44.840
can we can practice this a few times before the

2377
08:22:45.040 --> 08:22:49.560
end of the recording, and then you can practice on

2378
08:22:49.680 --> 08:22:56.639
your own, and each time you count from ten down

2379
08:22:56.639 --> 08:23:09.919
to one, the feelings of comfort, calmness, and deep deep

2380
08:23:10.520 --> 08:23:27.000
relaxation become stronger and deeper, filling your mind and your

2381
08:23:27.200 --> 08:23:36.560
brain with these positive chemicals that spread throughout your body,

2382
08:23:38.119 --> 08:23:46.799
relaxing you so quickly, relaxing your whole body and mind

2383
08:23:49.759 --> 08:24:02.799
so very very easily, just by counting from ten down

2384
08:24:02.880 --> 08:24:10.799
to one. So we're going to do it now. I'm

2385
08:24:10.840 --> 08:24:14.799
going to count from ten down to one. I'd like

2386
08:24:14.959 --> 08:24:19.159
you to repeat the number after me. So when I

2387
08:24:19.319 --> 08:24:34.159
say ten, you can just repeat to yourself ten. Just notice,

2388
08:24:34.799 --> 08:24:43.520
be aware of how you feel in your mind and

2389
08:24:43.639 --> 08:24:53.080
your body. Then when I say nine, you can repeat

2390
08:24:54.279 --> 08:25:09.599
to yourself nine again, noticing the increase in comfort and

2391
08:25:11.840 --> 08:25:22.919
calmness in your mind end in your body. The same

2392
08:25:23.200 --> 08:25:34.560
when I say eight, when I say seven, six, when

2393
08:25:34.639 --> 08:25:53.159
I say five, four, when I say three, two, And

2394
08:25:53.360 --> 08:26:06.919
lastly when I say one, it can repeat that number. Now.

2395
08:26:07.040 --> 08:26:12.599
Of course, when you do this on your own without

2396
08:26:12.720 --> 08:26:17.720
listening to me, you can say the numbers or whatever

2397
08:26:19.360 --> 08:26:27.799
speed that you feel is necessary for you, so you

2398
08:26:27.919 --> 08:26:33.720
can adapt. So if you feel you want to say

2399
08:26:33.840 --> 08:26:39.680
the numbers ten down to one faster than I do,

2400
08:26:41.439 --> 08:26:44.000
then you go ahead and do that. Or if you

2401
08:26:44.200 --> 08:26:48.200
feel when you do it yourself that you'd like to

2402
08:26:48.439 --> 08:26:56.759
have more more space between the numbers, maybe take a

2403
08:26:56.880 --> 08:27:03.319
lot longer to get from ten and all the way

2404
08:27:03.439 --> 08:27:21.040
down to one, that's your choice also to do. So

2405
08:27:21.159 --> 08:27:29.560
I'm going to count from ten down to one, and

2406
08:27:29.639 --> 08:27:32.959
when I get to one, that will be the end

2407
08:27:33.560 --> 08:27:39.240
of this recording, unless, of course, you're listening with music,

2408
08:27:40.439 --> 08:27:42.000
then the music will continue.

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Ten nine eight five s five.

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Yessy twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve

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eleven ten nine eight seven, six, five, four three two one.

2412
08:34:07.599 --> 08:34:17.919
Now open your eyes, noticing how you physically feel having

2413
08:34:18.040 --> 08:34:25.680
counted down from twenty to one, allowing stress and tension

2414
08:34:26.159 --> 08:34:30.799
to leave through your fingertips and your toes. And as

2415
08:34:30.840 --> 08:34:35.560
you focus on your fingertips maybe they feel a little

2416
08:34:35.599 --> 08:34:43.279
bit tingly, which is suppose quite understanding considering the tension

2417
08:34:43.720 --> 08:34:53.959
that's been exiting your body through your fingertips. So now

2418
08:34:54.000 --> 08:34:56.319
I'm going to count from twenty down to one again.

2419
08:34:56.799 --> 08:35:05.840
This time you can feel relief of tension and stress

2420
08:35:07.279 --> 08:35:17.000
and the anxiety that you may have leaving through your stomach,

2421
08:35:19.599 --> 08:35:23.319
just leaving through your stomach, almost as if it's just

2422
08:35:24.319 --> 08:35:30.840
releasing the whole of your stomach. You will navel to

2423
08:35:31.400 --> 08:35:34.880
just above your chest or below your chest, rather so

2424
08:35:35.119 --> 08:35:40.279
surround in your belly button area, the whole area. You

2425
08:35:40.400 --> 08:35:44.840
can feel the tension of your body wherever it's left,

2426
08:35:45.119 --> 08:35:50.400
just releasing from that area. And you may notice that

2427
08:35:50.560 --> 08:35:55.599
your stomach will become very relaxed as I count down

2428
08:35:56.599 --> 08:37:20.919
from twenty down to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four,

2429
08:37:25.040 --> 08:37:41.799
three two one, And you can open your eyes again

2430
08:37:41.880 --> 08:37:44.560
if you choose, or you can just keep them closed

2431
08:37:45.279 --> 08:37:51.000
because it feels relaxing. Just notice how your stomach feels.

2432
08:37:52.439 --> 08:37:56.080
I notice as your focus, just do a little scan

2433
08:37:56.319 --> 08:38:02.880
of your body. Just notice how you body feels, focusing

2434
08:38:05.599 --> 08:38:12.759
on your upper body, back, chest, stomach, legs, arms, hands, feet,

2435
08:38:15.799 --> 08:38:22.759
just noticing, and you know, you may start to feel

2436
08:38:25.200 --> 08:38:29.000
more of a sense of tiredness, which may be the

2437
08:38:29.119 --> 08:38:35.159
reason you're listening to this recording because you would like

2438
08:38:35.400 --> 08:38:44.840
to let go completely of everything and drift off into

2439
08:38:44.959 --> 08:38:59.919
a nice, natural, calm, relaxing sleep. So now we can

2440
08:39:00.200 --> 08:39:09.720
focus on your forehead, and if you choose, you can

2441
08:39:09.840 --> 08:39:15.279
incorporate your eyes in this focus as well. So your forehead,

2442
08:39:15.400 --> 08:39:21.520
in your eyes, it's that whole area basically, almost as

2443
08:39:21.560 --> 08:39:24.279
if you were wearing a mask, you know, like a

2444
08:39:26.240 --> 08:39:31.680
I don't know, a Batman mask or something, or I'm

2445
08:39:31.720 --> 08:39:34.520
trying to zorro or something, you know, the kind of

2446
08:39:34.599 --> 08:39:37.680
mask that covers your eyes but also covers quite a

2447
08:39:37.720 --> 08:39:44.479
lot at the forehead, and focusing on that area because

2448
08:39:44.520 --> 08:39:47.840
that's the area that we're now going to release tension

2449
08:39:48.080 --> 08:39:52.959
and stress from your mind, from your brain, and from

2450
08:39:53.000 --> 08:39:57.159
your mind, and any tension that you may have remaining

2451
08:39:57.279 --> 08:40:01.959
in your face, in your neck, in your jaw, in

2452
08:40:02.080 --> 08:40:08.080
your eyes, your forehead, and all your scalp. So basically

2453
08:40:08.279 --> 08:40:14.119
any tension within your head area, including your mind and

2454
08:40:14.319 --> 08:40:21.880
your brain, and that's going to be released through your

2455
08:40:21.959 --> 08:40:28.959
forehead and your eyes. As I count down again, from

2456
08:40:29.520 --> 08:41:54.159
twenty down to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five,

2457
08:42:04.080 --> 08:42:29.360
three two one. Noticing as you scan your face, your jaw,

2458
08:42:29.919 --> 08:42:38.759
your eyes, your cheap bones, your ears, your forehead, your scalp,

2459
08:42:40.240 --> 08:42:43.639
in your neck, the back of your neck and the

2460
08:42:43.759 --> 08:42:47.240
front of your neck, the side of your neck, and

2461
08:42:47.319 --> 08:42:58.080
your throat mm hmmm. Noticing being aware of the comfort,

2462
08:43:00.400 --> 08:43:08.959
increased feeling, the relaxation, not just in your head and

2463
08:43:09.200 --> 08:43:19.240
neck and mind, also the rest of your body. Just

2464
08:43:19.479 --> 08:43:25.799
notice how loose and calm you feel, and how easily

2465
08:43:28.040 --> 08:43:39.360
it is to just let go completely, let go completely,

2466
08:43:47.119 --> 08:43:57.439
how easily. That's what I'm going to do now, is

2467
08:43:58.680 --> 08:44:06.400
wanting to focus on the top of your head, and

2468
08:44:06.560 --> 08:44:14.840
we're going to allow every last piece of tension or

2469
08:44:15.040 --> 08:44:20.200
stress that might be lingering or hiding in your body

2470
08:44:21.439 --> 08:44:23.439
or mind or head.

2471
08:44:24.759 --> 08:44:25.159
To just.

2472
08:44:26.880 --> 08:44:32.599
Be sucked out at the top of your head and

2473
08:44:32.799 --> 08:44:41.080
released into the air. Once sucked out into the clouds,

2474
08:44:43.720 --> 08:44:49.520
imagine a big cloud above your head, almost like a whirlpool,

2475
08:44:50.319 --> 08:44:54.599
and this is going to suck that tension out of

2476
08:44:54.759 --> 08:44:59.279
the top of your head and just take it away

2477
08:45:01.400 --> 08:45:08.279
good as your focus. Imagine an opening in the top

2478
08:45:08.360 --> 08:45:14.520
of your head without tension and stress, and any remaining

2479
08:45:14.759 --> 08:45:18.840
issues may be worries or concerns that are no use

2480
08:45:19.000 --> 08:45:22.840
to you now, can all be sucked down at the

2481
08:45:22.959 --> 08:45:29.319
top of your head and taken away as I count

2482
08:45:29.439 --> 08:47:10.200
down again from twenty down to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six,

2483
08:47:14.560 --> 08:47:52.880
five four three two war three, noticing how you feel,

2484
08:47:59.439 --> 08:48:06.680
how really acts and calm you physically and mentally feel

2485
08:48:07.479 --> 08:48:22.840
right now, how peaceful your mind feels. It feels so

2486
08:48:23.159 --> 08:48:28.479
nice to just let go, to give yourself some space

2487
08:48:30.159 --> 08:48:41.680
to breathe easily, to think calmly, and just to take

2488
08:48:41.759 --> 08:48:48.880
a break from all that pointless worry and concerns about

2489
08:48:49.040 --> 08:48:55.720
things that you don't need to think about right now,

2490
08:48:58.560 --> 08:49:04.319
because this is your time to let go. This is

2491
08:49:04.439 --> 08:49:14.720
your space to enjoy feeling deeply relaxed, peaceful in your mind,

2492
08:49:15.919 --> 08:49:25.240
relaxed in your body. They can feel so good, so

2493
08:49:25.840 --> 08:49:34.119
nice to just not have to do anything, to be

2494
08:49:34.279 --> 08:49:44.959
able to really enjoy that serenity that comes with letting

2495
08:49:45.080 --> 08:49:58.520
go completely, that peacefulness that comes with being in this

2496
08:50:00.400 --> 08:50:10.479
peaceful space, and you can keep this sense of calmness

2497
08:50:11.319 --> 08:50:22.439
for as long as you choose. If you choose to

2498
08:50:22.680 --> 08:50:29.880
drift off into a deep, healing, natural sleep, then you

2499
08:50:30.000 --> 08:50:41.479
can do that. It's completely up to you, and you

2500
08:50:41.639 --> 08:50:46.240
can keep this feeling of calmness physically and in your

2501
08:50:46.319 --> 08:50:54.360
mind for as long as you choose to feel completely relaxed,

2502
08:51:00.119 --> 08:51:08.840
completely relax. And I'd like you to make up your

2503
08:51:09.080 --> 08:51:21.759
mind that you're going to relax, and I want to

2504
08:51:21.840 --> 08:51:25.240
explore that with you. What it feels like when you

2505
08:51:25.400 --> 08:51:34.479
actually decide that you're going to relax, not forcing yourself,

2506
08:51:34.560 --> 08:51:40.759
but giving yourself that. Yes, it is a command, really,

2507
08:51:40.840 --> 08:51:47.759
isn't it. When you're telling yourself relax in a gentle

2508
08:51:47.880 --> 08:51:54.919
but firm way, that only you can really tell yourself

2509
08:51:55.360 --> 08:51:58.240
in that way. You can't really have someone else saying

2510
08:51:58.240 --> 08:52:04.360
to you, now it relax, relax, you know, and it

2511
08:52:04.479 --> 08:52:06.840
needs to be gentle, but you can't. Someone else can't

2512
08:52:06.919 --> 08:52:15.919
really have the same the same kind of influence or

2513
08:52:16.279 --> 08:52:24.400
power that you have over your own physicality over how

2514
08:52:24.599 --> 08:52:34.759
you feel, because when you say it to yourself, it

2515
08:52:35.040 --> 08:52:42.880
means more. It's personal, and your brain and your unconscious

2516
08:52:43.080 --> 08:52:49.200
mind and your body listens to what you say. So

2517
08:52:49.520 --> 08:52:53.279
for example, we'll test it out. We'll do a little test,

2518
08:52:53.400 --> 08:52:57.040
a few little tests along the way, and you can

2519
08:52:57.159 --> 08:53:03.400
get more of an idea of the force, the positive

2520
08:53:03.639 --> 08:53:10.040
force that you can have in creating a sense of

2521
08:53:10.319 --> 08:53:15.319
comfort and relaxation in your body and your mind quite

2522
08:53:15.439 --> 08:53:28.040
quickly just by you telling yourself to relax. So I

2523
08:53:28.159 --> 08:53:34.919
want to start by it's focus on your hands. To

2524
08:53:35.040 --> 08:53:38.080
focus on your hands and just tell your hands to relax.

2525
08:53:39.080 --> 08:53:44.000
Let's just say relax. As you focus on your hands,

2526
08:53:46.240 --> 08:53:50.799
you could say my hands are relaxed, or I want

2527
08:53:50.840 --> 08:53:55.040
my hands to relax. But I think if you actually

2528
08:53:55.119 --> 08:54:02.080
do it directly by focusing and imagining that your hands

2529
08:54:03.119 --> 08:54:05.479
can hear what you're saying, you know, like they've got

2530
08:54:05.560 --> 08:54:11.240
little ears, which is a bit weird. So talking to

2531
08:54:11.439 --> 08:54:28.200
your hands and just say relax, noticing how your hands

2532
08:54:28.240 --> 08:54:43.840
start to relax. Now focus on your eyes and tell

2533
08:54:43.840 --> 08:54:48.840
your eyes to relax. You're just saying the same word relax.

2534
08:54:50.319 --> 08:54:56.840
And find the right tone for you. You know, I

2535
08:54:57.000 --> 08:55:06.680
might say relax, but you you might say relax or relax.

2536
08:55:07.200 --> 08:55:11.240
You know, you might say it differently to yourself, and

2537
08:55:12.360 --> 08:55:18.159
that's important for you to gauge what feels right for

2538
08:55:18.319 --> 08:55:25.040
you to just tell your eyes to relax whilst focusing

2539
08:55:25.119 --> 08:55:28.560
on your eyes, your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes,

2540
08:55:29.439 --> 08:56:06.319
your eyebrows, and just tell your eyes directly relax. Now. Now,

2541
08:56:06.360 --> 08:56:16.759
I just did that myself, and sometimes you may feel

2542
08:56:16.840 --> 08:56:21.599
that you need a bit more time for the different

2543
08:56:21.680 --> 08:56:25.360
parts to relax, you know, because I start talking again

2544
08:56:25.919 --> 08:56:30.560
and maybe that part hasn't relaxed fully. But what will

2545
08:56:30.639 --> 08:56:33.119
happen is that it will just continue to relax even

2546
08:56:33.159 --> 08:56:40.360
though I'm talking. And that's happened with my eyes. Something

2547
08:56:40.400 --> 08:56:45.240
else I noticed is when I started focusing on my eyes,

2548
08:56:45.520 --> 08:56:49.040
that actually almost became They got worse before they got

2549
08:56:49.119 --> 08:56:51.959
better in a way, so that I felt a degree

2550
08:56:52.000 --> 08:56:58.720
of tension growing in my eyes and then disappearing. So

2551
08:56:58.799 --> 08:57:00.840
I think what that was really it was just me

2552
08:57:01.040 --> 08:57:07.319
becoming more aware of the tension that was already there

2553
08:57:07.919 --> 08:57:12.479
that I wasn't. I wasn't focused on it before, so

2554
08:57:12.599 --> 08:57:31.439
I wasn't really acknowledging it or really conscious to those feelings. Yeah,

2555
08:57:31.599 --> 08:57:35.000
my eyes are still continuing to relax, as well as

2556
08:57:35.080 --> 08:57:40.959
my hands. Actually, my hands have got a certain kind

2557
08:57:41.040 --> 08:57:47.040
of energy, like not buzzing, but I can kind of

2558
08:57:49.439 --> 08:57:55.319
feel a degree of energy in my hands. Maybe that's

2559
08:57:55.360 --> 08:57:59.919
where the tension is being released. Maybe that's the cause,

2560
08:58:00.080 --> 08:58:09.520
and that the next part I think we should focus

2561
08:58:09.599 --> 08:58:12.000
on the back of the neck. That's a part which

2562
08:58:12.080 --> 08:58:16.840
quite often, well for me, holds tension. I don't know

2563
08:58:16.880 --> 08:58:21.439
about for yourself that I think it's quite a standard

2564
08:58:21.520 --> 08:58:28.639
place where tension is sometimes held. So and I'm doing

2565
08:58:28.919 --> 08:58:31.520
exactly what you're doing as you do it as well,

2566
08:58:31.680 --> 08:58:35.639
so I'm telling my body parts to relax as well.

2567
08:58:36.400 --> 08:58:38.240
So if you tell your neck at the back of

2568
08:58:38.319 --> 08:58:40.880
your neck, focus on the back of your neck, and

2569
08:58:41.080 --> 08:58:48.400
just say relax in your own words, in your own tone,

2570
08:58:48.799 --> 08:58:51.639
in your own voice. You can say out loud, or

2571
08:58:51.720 --> 08:58:56.080
you can just say it to yourself internally. But you're

2572
08:58:56.200 --> 08:59:00.599
focusing and you're saying it literally to the back of

2573
08:59:00.680 --> 08:59:03.560
your neck, as if the back of your neck can

2574
08:59:03.639 --> 08:59:10.360
actually hear what you're saying. To do that. Now, just

2575
08:59:10.439 --> 08:59:14.840
say relax to the back of your neck, and I'll

2576
08:59:14.880 --> 08:59:15.439
do the same.

2577
08:59:54.240 --> 08:59:54.360
Now.

2578
08:59:54.439 --> 08:59:58.000
What I noticed, and you may have had similar thing

2579
08:59:59.439 --> 09:00:02.400
is even though I was focusing on the back of

2580
09:00:02.479 --> 09:00:13.840
my neck, other parts started to I don't know, show

2581
09:00:13.919 --> 09:00:17.119
themselves to me or maybe because they want to be

2582
09:00:17.200 --> 09:00:21.040
relaxed as well. But I started noticing the feelings in

2583
09:00:21.119 --> 09:00:25.040
my shoulders, attention in my shoulders and in my upper back.

2584
09:00:28.119 --> 09:00:34.119
Whether that was because my back of my neck was saying, well,

2585
09:00:34.159 --> 09:00:39.159
I'm pretty much okay. It's the other parts that need attention,

2586
09:00:45.560 --> 09:00:48.560
but my low back of my neck is still relaxing.

2587
09:00:50.040 --> 09:00:52.520
But I just became more aware of other parts that

2588
09:00:52.759 --> 09:01:01.400
needed attention. Now, this might happen and it's not. It

2589
09:01:01.479 --> 09:01:04.919
doesn't mean that it's going wrong. It just means you're

2590
09:01:05.000 --> 09:01:11.680
being notified with more places that also want to feel relaxed.

2591
09:01:14.919 --> 09:01:19.279
So I'm going to focus on my upper back. So

2592
09:01:19.520 --> 09:01:23.119
you can do the same even if you don't have

2593
09:01:23.279 --> 09:01:28.639
any feelings of tension that are obvious in your upper back,

2594
09:01:30.400 --> 09:01:35.000
if you just focus on your back and the whole

2595
09:01:35.159 --> 09:01:39.880
area from his shoulder blades down to the middle of

2596
09:01:39.959 --> 09:01:44.319
your back down your spine. And with me, it's more

2597
09:01:44.360 --> 09:01:51.959
the shoulder blades that are more Yeah, that's the parts

2598
09:01:52.040 --> 09:02:00.279
that are really sort of giving me the nod that

2599
09:02:00.439 --> 09:02:02.720
it needs relaxing. And so it's going to ask that

2600
09:02:02.880 --> 09:02:06.200
hard to relax and you can do the same. Now

2601
09:02:17.400 --> 09:02:33.520
relaxed up the back, something strange happened there, and this

2602
09:02:35.080 --> 09:02:41.240
often happens. I've been doing this for sixteen years or something,

2603
09:02:42.040 --> 09:02:50.840
and often I'm I'm surprised, but amazed really that there

2604
09:02:50.880 --> 09:02:55.159
can be a feeling. So, when I was focusing on

2605
09:02:55.240 --> 09:02:59.240
the back of my neck, my upper back was starting

2606
09:02:59.319 --> 09:03:05.680
to feel quite stressed and in need of attention. As

2607
09:03:05.720 --> 09:03:09.000
soon as I started talking to you about my upper

2608
09:03:09.080 --> 09:03:14.279
back and talking about, you know, getting ready to ask

2609
09:03:14.599 --> 09:03:19.319
the upper back to relax, my other back already started

2610
09:03:19.360 --> 09:03:24.840
to relax. It's almost as if it doesn't need to

2611
09:03:24.959 --> 09:03:35.520
hear the words, just needs attention, just needs to be noticed.

2612
09:03:44.279 --> 09:03:49.479
And that is something that often happens in this type

2613
09:03:49.560 --> 09:03:57.000
of situation. Is when you start to relax a couple

2614
09:03:57.040 --> 09:04:01.080
of parts of your body, as we've done with our hands,

2615
09:04:02.159 --> 09:04:04.680
our eyes and their eyelids.

2616
09:04:05.799 --> 09:04:15.279
And now back of the neck, top of the back, upper.

2617
09:04:15.080 --> 09:04:19.919
Back, the rest of the body seems to just take

2618
09:04:20.119 --> 09:04:29.560
notice and decide in its own way to start relaxing.

2619
09:04:31.400 --> 09:04:36.799
Other parts of your body start to just become looser.

2620
09:04:41.520 --> 09:04:44.360
I suppose it's kind of like a bit of an avalanche,

2621
09:04:44.520 --> 09:04:49.240
you know, the little ball starts rolling and before you

2622
09:04:49.400 --> 09:04:52.400
know it, the whole of your body is completely relaxed

2623
09:04:52.479 --> 09:05:09.119
and calm. And if you focus on your face, you

2624
09:05:09.240 --> 09:05:16.799
focus on your eyes, your eyelids, your eyebrows, and the

2625
09:05:16.959 --> 09:05:25.520
muscles around your eyes. Maybe you start to notice that

2626
09:05:27.319 --> 09:05:32.360
your forehead is more relaxed than it was. Maybe your

2627
09:05:32.479 --> 09:05:38.279
face is more relaxed. I would say my entire face

2628
09:05:38.439 --> 09:05:53.040
is a lot more relaxed than it was. So we're

2629
09:05:53.080 --> 09:05:59.560
going to focus now on your shoulders again, just like before,

2630
09:06:00.959 --> 09:06:04.959
Just tell your shoulders. I mean, you can't do them individity.

2631
09:06:05.080 --> 09:06:09.040
You can do the right shoulder, left shoulder. I just

2632
09:06:09.199 --> 09:06:13.360
generally do both at the same time. And just tell

2633
09:06:13.720 --> 09:06:16.720
your shoulders as you focus on them in your mind,

2634
09:06:18.080 --> 09:06:23.279
focus on how they feel. Maybe you can see them

2635
09:06:23.800 --> 09:06:33.919
in your mind's eye. Just tell your shoulders to relax

2636
09:07:11.160 --> 09:07:24.720
and as nice as they relax. But I do notice,

2637
09:07:26.400 --> 09:07:33.160
I mean, especially with my back, is the connection between

2638
09:07:33.360 --> 09:07:44.000
the different parts the back, the shoulders, the neck being

2639
09:07:44.080 --> 09:07:48.760
all connected and being such a large part of your body,

2640
09:07:51.760 --> 09:08:00.319
it's almost hard to separate them from each other. My

2641
09:08:00.480 --> 09:08:09.319
lower back has started to relax on its own. Maybe

2642
09:08:09.400 --> 09:08:10.000
I'm going.

2643
09:08:09.879 --> 09:08:15.919
Too slow, and that could be an issue because we

2644
09:08:16.040 --> 09:08:20.040
all go at different speeds, and.

2645
09:08:21.239 --> 09:08:24.160
The idea at The beginning of this recording was for

2646
09:08:24.279 --> 09:08:30.680
you to be able to just say to yourself, relax

2647
09:08:39.000 --> 09:08:45.559
without focusing on any particular part of your body. Because

2648
09:08:45.639 --> 09:08:55.400
when you know that tenning your hands to relax and

2649
09:08:55.559 --> 09:09:03.680
your hand relax, you tell you your eyelids and your eyes,

2650
09:09:04.559 --> 09:09:11.120
the muscles around your eyes, and your eyebrows to relax,

2651
09:09:14.879 --> 09:09:23.879
and they relax. You tell the back of your neck

2652
09:09:27.239 --> 09:09:43.279
to relax, and it relaxes. You tell your upper back

2653
09:09:49.959 --> 09:10:13.440
to relax, and it relaxes. He telia shoulders to relax,

2654
09:10:23.959 --> 09:10:50.319
and they relaxed. And you told your hands to relax,

2655
09:10:51.120 --> 09:11:02.400
they relaxed, and they continued to relax. When you told

2656
09:11:02.440 --> 09:11:10.639
your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your eyebrows to relax,

2657
09:11:12.639 --> 09:11:27.519
they relaxed and continue to relax. When you told the

2658
09:11:27.599 --> 09:11:30.959
back of your neck, focus on the back of your

2659
09:11:31.040 --> 09:11:44.760
neck and told it to relax, they relaxed and continued

2660
09:11:46.239 --> 09:12:01.319
to relax. When you told your upper back to relax,

2661
09:12:03.319 --> 09:12:18.239
be relaxed and continued to relax. As with your shoulders,

2662
09:12:20.720 --> 09:12:27.279
he told your shoulders to relax, and your shoulders relaxed

2663
09:12:27.800 --> 09:12:45.680
and continued to relax. And it's not just that, it's

2664
09:12:48.559 --> 09:12:53.000
that the rest of your body has also been listening,

2665
09:12:54.680 --> 09:13:02.080
and that relaxation has been spreading from your eyes to relaxation,

2666
09:13:02.400 --> 09:13:09.360
spread to your forehead, around your face, into your skin,

2667
09:13:10.559 --> 09:13:23.160
into your jaw, into the front and sides of your neck,

2668
09:13:24.720 --> 09:13:34.800
all the way down your chest and stomach. Your relaxed

2669
09:13:35.000 --> 09:13:45.519
hands and shoulders meet up through your arms, relaxing your forearms,

2670
09:13:45.839 --> 09:14:02.559
your upper arms, elbows, your wrists, letting go your lower back,

2671
09:14:05.839 --> 09:14:12.519
your hips, buttocks grind, or just start to relax so

2672
09:14:12.760 --> 09:14:25.800
continue even more comfort spreading through your legs all the

2673
09:14:25.879 --> 09:14:34.800
way down to your ankles, the tops of your feet,

2674
09:14:35.919 --> 09:14:41.000
the side of your feet, and the bottoms of your feet,

2675
09:14:44.800 --> 09:15:16.760
relaxing into your toes, each toe relaxing loose. And as

2676
09:15:16.839 --> 09:15:34.160
your body relaxes more, your mind becomes slower, more peaceful,

2677
09:15:41.879 --> 09:15:49.839
to the point where if you choose to fall asleep,

2678
09:15:55.160 --> 09:16:12.559
you can easily do that easy drift doay because there's

2679
09:16:12.680 --> 09:16:28.400
nothing going on in your mind. Your brain's peaceful, your

2680
09:16:28.519 --> 09:17:02.199
body continues to write. And with that connection between your

2681
09:17:02.319 --> 09:17:07.919
body relaxing and the word that you say to yourself,

2682
09:17:10.360 --> 09:17:21.480
relax means that you don't need to focus on just

2683
09:17:21.800 --> 09:17:29.319
one part. You can just focus on your entire body.

2684
09:17:35.839 --> 09:17:59.839
Saying the powerful word relax. And there's those familiar since

2685
09:18:00.080 --> 09:18:15.599
satis of comfort spreading throughout your body, loosening and calming

2686
09:18:18.080 --> 09:18:34.440
and healing every part to your body, feeding more relaxed,

2687
09:18:49.120 --> 09:18:52.120
so that all you need to do from now on

2688
09:18:52.480 --> 09:19:16.040
is just telling yourself really eating completely, come fool and

2689
09:19:16.480 --> 09:20:18.720
come so, starting now with number twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen,

2690
09:20:35.480 --> 09:30:31.760
fifteen fourteen, attatatatatatatat Yes well live U attatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatat