June 2, 2025

(no music) (10 hours) Buddhism | Monday’s Boring Objects | LMBYTS #1363 | 2nd June 2025

(no music) (10 hours) Buddhism | Monday’s Boring Objects | LMBYTS #1363 | 2nd June 2025
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Hello, Hello, Welcome to Jasonnewland dot com. My name's Jason

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Newland and this is let Me Boy You to Sleep.

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Please only listen when you can safely close your eyes,

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and this is Monday's boring Objects. I hope you're well.

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I actually started this recording to do a kind of

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a relaxation recording, and I realized that it's just not

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quite enough to do that. Here. Too much noise, too

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much background noise. Vinnie's like cleaning himself and it's weird.

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So yeah, I'm gonna do this instead because he is

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a part of the let Me Boy You to Sleep

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or to let Me Boil Your Pain Away recordings. And

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those that listen regularly know who Vinny is. You know

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that he's a little Jack Russell, little red Jack Russell

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who likes to be involved. He's kind of like my

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co host in a weird way. Very weird way, really,

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isn't it. So I've ordered some shopping and it's apparently

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it's on its way. It should be here in about

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twenty minutes. And then I've got a meeting a friend

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for coffee at this afternoon. So that's the first time

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I'll've been out anywhere in public since wow, December. Yeah,

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first time I've been out anywhere since December, because that

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was when I went saw my dad at the pub

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just before Christmas. I mean, I go to the park

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and I have been to the pet shop probably since then.

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I'm into the garage a couple of times, but I

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don't like going to the garage anymore. I have been

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to the pharmacy probably a couple of times in that time.

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I mean last month I didn't go, but all the

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other months I did. This month I didn't go, but

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I got a neighbor that I asked a neighbor to

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go and collect it for me, and they did, which

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is grew groovy. So probably January, February, March, January, February,

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March I got them. You know, I probably had to

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go and collect themselves. Maybe not January, but definitely February.

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Much But I haven't been in a public place, you know,

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sitting down with humans around me. So it's going to

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be a bit strange, but it's okay. It's it's a

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very old friend, someone I've known for a long time.

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I'm thinking I'm going to talk about Buddhism because it's

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a Buddhist friend. I'm meeting, and I don't I don't

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want to really focus on him as the boring object.

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And also I don't think. I don't think that anything

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I talk about is boring. It's just yeah, that's the thing.

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I hope people don't think that if I was going

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to talk about let's say, yeah, train spotting or a

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subject that's some people would be absolutely engrossed and fascinating with.

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You absolutely love that I'm mocking it and corn it

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boring because I'm not. I mean, look at some of

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the subjects that I've covered in my Boring Objects. I say, look,

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I don't know what I had myself. I'm gonna have

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to go and look. I go and look, look, look, look, look,

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look look at where is it? Okay, sleepy boring objects.

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Monday's sleepy Boring Objects. So I've now done I've done

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a lot. There's a lot of a lot of episodes.

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But and when I first started doing them, I did

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the first song was rain. Okay, that's not something I

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particularly find interesting. Hair, that's the number one I don't

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particularly find interesting. Bricks, so you know, printers, cameras, plugs.

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So I was talking about really random just objects. And

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then swimming pools, ovens, hitch hiking. Books. Now, there's nothing

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boring about books to me. So that was something that

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I've had a big interest in over the years. And

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once I actually get my eyes tested and get some

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proper glasses, I will be getting back into reading the

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books once in my eyes. Work microphones, that's not a

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boring subject. Well, mops, now that probably is. So yeah,

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I don't know how manage you talk about mops for

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thirty five minutes. Wallpaper, I mean, that is the epiphany

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of boringness, isn't it really wallpaper or a painted wall? Train, spotters, games, beds,

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as jobs, baths now the jobs only lasted thirty eight

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minutes fifty nine seconds when that was the eighteenth of

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October twenty twenty one. So yeah, I started doing these

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sleepy boarding objects on the ninth of August twenty twenty one,

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so I've been doing it for a while now. I yeah,

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I could have made that jobs one last for about

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ten hours. Really, I got baths, wooden benches. Belgium. Again,

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I loved Belgium. I got It's like I don't have

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an issue with Belgium. I really really loved Belgium. When

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I went there, brilliant place great especially it's it. Whatever

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I say now is going to probably come across as wrong,

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and it's just I like the fact that it's flat

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like this. I'm not a big I'm not a lover

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of hills, really, I'm not. I'd like to be able

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to just walk and you can see ahead of yourself,

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can't You can see what's about you can wherever you go,

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So basically, whenever you leave your house, no matter where

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you go, how far away you go, you can always

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see your house. It's great and tea bags cheese. Yes,

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I've done quite a few. The last one I did

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was dog walking and I'm pretty sure that was super

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super exciting for everyone. Oh God, I'm trying to manipulate, manipulate,

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maneuver the laptop, but it keeps missing schools. I did

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that the week before Monday's Boring Objects, but I didn't

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even talk. I didn't even give it a subject. And

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the one before that, I didn't give it a subject.

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That's weird. I don't know what that is about. Strange.

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And then I did Willy Wonka that was the twenty

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first of April, then another one before that I didn't

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give it a subject. That's kind of the point of

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the thing, isn't it said? Why am I not giving

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them subjects? Doc job? That's the one they first of

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March this year, twenty twenty five homes cleaning jobs, New

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Year's Eve, Monday's boring objects. So I did a recording

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on New Year's Eve last year and an hour and

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forty minutes. So maybe I was actually talking about New

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Year's Eves that I had spent over the years. And

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then the Monday before that it was Christmas. Well, it

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was probably Christmas Eve, wasn't it New Year's EO Christmas Eve?

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So I talked about Christmas for one hour and eighteen minutes,

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blind me. Then before that I talked about friends, hair styles.

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Before that, counseling degree, girlfriend's girlfriends and girl they tell

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your girlfriend ooh girlfriends lasted two hours and seven minutes.

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What the ex about? On nine IQ tes tests? Two

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hours and fourteen minutes. So I actually did an online

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I did online IQ tests. Wow, I kind of vaguely

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remember that. That was in October last year. So today

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what did I say I was going to talk about?

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I can't remember. I have a not deliveries. Oh Buddhism.

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So I'm going to talk I'm going to talk about Buddhism.

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I'm not going to talk about Buddhism itself. I'm not

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going to go into details, you know, about what Buddhism

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is and stuff. But I'm going to talk about my

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experiences with Buddhism from from an early age and then onwards.

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So just let you know. I do have a Facebook

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group called Jason Newland's Boring Group. The link is on

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my website. I also have a YouTube channel at Jason Newland.

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I'm just going to go back to doing I tried

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to make some videos the last few days and it

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takes so long and my head looks my face looks

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like a tomato. I'm not Yeah, I'm just going to

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go back to doing audios. It's much more relaxed for me.

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I'm just talking to the microphone. I can look at

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the computer screen if I want to, I can close

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my eyes, I can just chill out and yeah, this

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suits me better, better, and what else. So yeah, that's it.

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I'll probably just continue go back to uploading on YouTube.

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The six versions that are recording, you know, without music

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and then with music five and ten hours. Yeah, today's

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second of June two thousand and twenty five. I got

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my Universal Credit an email from them telling me to

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check some stuff and I didn't understand it. I genuinely

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didn't understand it. And then then I've got a letter

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through today, so apparently on my new style employment and

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support allowance on your interview on and there's a little gap,

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but you you had an interview, so they did call

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me last week with us to agree what you need

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to do to get new style essay. This is known

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as your claimant commitment. You agreed your claimant commitment on

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a twenty eighth of May two twenty five, which was Thursday, Wednesday, Wednesday,

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last Wednesday. What happens next? We're right to tell you

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if you can get newest new style of essay and

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this so how much you will get. So at this

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point I don't even know I'm getting if I'm getting it,

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I don't know when they're going to tell me. And

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then this is this is absolutely it's kind of it's funny,

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but it's not funny because it's very confusing. I've got

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a letter about another one about my employment and support allowance,

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your contribution based employment and support allowance will change the

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new style employment and we will book an appointment. So

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I get this. They sent this in a twenty fifth

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bearing in mind it's so they sent this on well,

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it's dated the twenty fifth, which would be the Sunday

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before last, so it will have been sent out earliest

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on a Monday. So it's literally taken Yes, it's taken

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a whole week to get here, so I'm not sure

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how that works. And now I've got a letter from

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the rent for the council ari rent reminder. It appears

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you have not received your rent. We have not received

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your rent payment on time, and you now owe one

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hundred and sixty eight pound ninety if you have paid

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within the last few days. Thank you. Please disregard this letter.

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And it's given me like a list of things that

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will happen over pay payment overdue that leads to legal action,

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core proceedings, then eviction a little bit heavy handed. I mean,

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my rents ten years. My rent's always been paid and

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the only reason it's not being paid yet is because

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the benefits have changed over they just so does that

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mean I owe one hundred and sixty eight pound ninety?

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I don't know. This is confusing me. I really think,

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you know, if you owe one hundred and sixty eight

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pound ninety, the word legal actions, core proceedings and evictions

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shouldn't not be on that letter. This is just a

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really it's weird. I'm not I'm not a big fan

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of that. If I have in paid difficulty paying you rent,

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please contact us. If you normally pay your rent with

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housing benefit or have made a claim for Universal Credit,

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then it may have been suspended or stopped. Wow. The

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thing is, these letters are just generic, aren't they. No

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one's actually like thinking all that Jason want to get

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him now and typing it out. It's just I guess

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if you go, I mean one hundred and sixty eight

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pound ninety. The rents one hundred and what four pounds

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a week, so that's not even two weeks rent, and

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they's sending a letter out, so I don't know, very strange,

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it's very very unusual behavior. I personally think, should I

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talk about a rent? I can't even remember that A

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lot of the rents I've paid over the years that

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might be more interesting or moor less interesting, more boring.

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I just viny just said, Oh, you're all over the place.

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Why are you making so much noise? You've already ruined

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one recording today, viny, Why don't try and ruin this

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one as well. I'm doing it all on my own.

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He said, that's so rude. Stop being so rude. Don't

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flap your ears at me. You've got such an attitude

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now as you're getting older. Yes, you have. You're getting

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an attitude. You need to calm yourself down. No, don't

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look away, you look at me. You need to calm

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He's so cute. He's wiggling his tail. It's both his

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ears are up and he's turning his head. He's so

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damn cute. And if you are. I finally found some

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food that he likes, that he really likes, and one's

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called I'll tell you though. It's like a whole food.

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Where is it? I got it from Amazon. I've got it.

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I bought it on Amazon. It's not, you know, an

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Amazon mute food? Where is it? Okay? He really likes it.

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And I've gone through probably ten different types of food

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trying to find him something that he would almost, I

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don't want to say, get excited to eat, but it

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seems sometimes he just reluctantly eats what I give him,

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it's like okay, or eat it if he's hungry, But

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he doesn't seem to be particularly you know, excited. Let's

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have a look past three months. Oh, I got some Yeah,

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because I also got some soap and some toothpaste, tough

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paste and some deodorant. Sketches shoes on the thirteenth for

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me that my other shoes are falling apart, right, so

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I get these sketches. Men's go Max Athletic. The idea

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of me buying anything with the name athletic in it

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is kind of funny to me. But they're supposed to

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be good for sort of slipping on. And the weird

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problem is, and they're supposed to be ten size ten,

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they're too loose. They're not too loose. They're not falling

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off me when I walk, but they're not I definitely

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couldn't run in them. Again, That's kind of tiggles me

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a little bit because it was I've just had the

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little visual of me trying to run. I'm not going

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to be running in them. But that's not the point

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is I took Vinnie around the field the other day,

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around the actual field fields and ended up with a

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blister on the back of my foot. This is this

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is wearing socks. So how much did it cost? Fifty

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pounds fifty sixpences supposed to be tenpence, size ten and

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I desperately needed because the other ones. When I broke

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my foot, probably ah, BlimE me two years ago, two years,

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maybe a year, a year and a half. I can't

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it's a while, and I couldn't put socks on. Maybe

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it was when I broke my toe. I can't remember,

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but I couldn't put socks on because my foot. It

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must have been my toe. Oh was it when I

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kicked the wall when I was asleep. I think I

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kicked the wall. Yeah, so I broke my toe, my

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big toe. And it wasn't on purpose, by the way,

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So I was hobbling around for a while. I couldn't

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put my socks on. That was just a just no,

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it's a no no. So but luckily the shoes I

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had were comfortable enough, the former sketches ones. I had

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to not need shoo to not need socks, and I

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went through about a year where I didn't wear socks

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at all. Some would say that's gross, but it's it's

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not the worst thing I've done. So it's it probably

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maybe it is, maybe it is groom. I don't know,

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but I got I went through the whole winter about

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wearing socks. I was outside, didn't need socks, just got

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used to it, and there was a degree of freedom

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I quite liked. I enjoyed that, I know, just a

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little bit of it was relaxing. It was I didn't

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feel so restricted. But then the shoes that I had

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started falling apart internally and also at the bottom. They're

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just worn out, basically because I do I suppose, I

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do quite a bit of walking through the week, taking

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him out and stuff. So I could no longer where

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I could no longer have them without socks. So I

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started wearing socks. But then they just became really uncomfortable

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because there's just it's like stick things sticking into my foot.

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So that's why I had to better go and buy

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some new shoes. And I did think maybe I could

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go back to not wearing any socks again, But it

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turns out I'm going to need to two pairs of

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socks really if I want them to fit tight no nicely.

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If I was going to walk around the field like

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I did before, I probably need two pairs of socks.

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But the question is why it is only my right

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heel blister, but my left heel didn't. I mean I

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wasn't hopping, I'd use both feet, So why did only

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one blister and the other one did not? That just

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seems a bit strange. So, okay, we're talking about dog food.

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Dog food. I just had my delivery, by the way,

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I just I had a few, a few. I think

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that's why I'm kind of losing track of where I

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am with this recording a little bit, because I've had

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a few interruptions from Vinnie from the door, going from

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the door going to once is when the post got

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delivered and Vinnie went absolutely rah rah rah. And then

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I got my delivery and Vinie went rah rah rah

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rah rah. And earlier we had someone in the garden

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talking a loudness or volume that's unnecessary. Really, I think

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she did, did he or she? When they talk on

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their phone and have their phone on a loud speaker

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and they walk to the next road, so I think

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what they do They leave their phone like the other

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side of the road or something, and then come back

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into the garden and talk. That's what it sounds like.

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So loud Lily's Kitchen Natural adult dog Food. Now it

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was blah, six pound fifty six and it was six

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tins one hundred and fifty grams each. I give him

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half a tin per meal basically because he had treats

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and he eats the dry food and stuff in between.

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So I did give him the whole packet. I give

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him the whole tin, and he couldn't eat all. It's

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too much, so I'm just give him half at a time.

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He loves it. I don't have to coax him to

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eat it, which I did before with the other stuff,

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and I really have I mean, you might think, oh,

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wait a minute, it was a one time purchase. So

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I paid seven pound twenty nine. Really seven pounded? Does

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it tell me how much I paid delivered twenty eighth

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of may buy it again? Okay, let's have a look.

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Buy again. Seven pound twenty nine. Yeah, that's how much

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I paid for six So I'm going to have another

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look to see what other what other foods visit the store.

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Lily's Kitchen calling all daring dogs shop dog food. Okay,

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that's what we want. I'm not I'm not happy now

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because they also serve they help I don't want to

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buy food that also makes food cat for cats. It

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just it just feels feels unfair for any shop dry food. No, well,

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I suppose good shop wear food. Let's have a look

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see what different ones they've got. So they've got ones

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in big ten, which I don't want. Classic dinners. That's

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the ones I got, uh, Classic dinners multipack six times

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one point fifty gram all I can also by them.

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What's this thirteen pound forty nine thirteen amiens in that one?

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Then thirty is Cottage pie pack of ten. It's oh,

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it's not thirteen pounds, it's twelve pounds fourteen, So it's

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a different it's a discount, but that's the same, the

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same one. I'd like the idea of maybe me, you know,

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having options, having different ones. I don't want to just

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get him like ten of the same, although there's quite

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a few different ones that they do. They've got let's

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have a look beef goulash, Cottage pie, lean machine, whatever

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that is great British breakfast Sunday lunch, chicken and turkey,

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casse role lamb, hot pot lamb tag in to guinea

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fishy pie, fishy fish pie, fishy fish pie as opposed

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to what kind of other fish pie, coronation chicken. Okay,

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so that's all the ones I do. It's still good.

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Oh no, it's more beef supper, lamb supper, chicken supper,

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and you've got organic as well. So I don't know

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how many is in that one? One, two, three, four?

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Is it four for fourteen pound? That seems a little

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bit Oh no, it's back of ten fourteen pound pack

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of ten. Okay, so I'll go back. So there's quite

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a few. Let's have a look at some of these

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other ones. This is the pack of pack of one

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Lily's Kitchen six six Weekend Favorites. Okay, so that's seven

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pound A note it is eight pound forty nine. But

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there's cheaper ways of getting it lowest price other sellers

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seven pound seventy five plus three delivery. So why is

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it costing more than the actual place that makes the stuff?

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That don't make so much sense. Where are they getting

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it from? Or they buying it in bulk and then

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dividing it into smaller packs, or you know, I knew

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what I meant when I said what I said. I

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could put it down on my Amazon list if anyone's

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interested in buying Viny some food, let me know if

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you are, because honestly I have tried. Is what I

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bought him so far. Win a lot meaty chunks, Win

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a lot of Sunday dinners, Caesar's Country Stew Adult and

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Lily's Kitchen, so that's recent. The other one's pedigree charm Adult,

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Wet Food, Sebalt or other ones have I got him? Oh,

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some of it might actually have been from Sainsbury who

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won't be on here. But he's had lots of different

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old another pedigree Chum, different one Sultana cake, and then

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that's for me. I do like a bit of cake.

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Hard to believe, but I do. I do like to

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kick Oh, Morrison's Chocolate Claires. I ordered that at some

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point in the past. I haven't ordered anything from Amazon,

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like the shopping groceries for ages. I use Uber Eats

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now because Amazon kept not delivering the stuff that I ordered,

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so they used Morrison's and had a few examples when

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they just didn't. The stuff wasn't in the bag and

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you get refund and stuff, but I just didn't. That

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wasn't quite what I was looking for, you know what

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I mean? Sketches Men's Go Max delivered Tuesday ten for

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June our three delivery chooes. I was going to say

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I didn't buy it in tenth for June. I need

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a second of June. Now. I did buy some FM

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London one two, three, four five eight pack. There was

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an eight pack of boxes or underwear and they were

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too small, just too They weren't too small, but they

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were just too tight. So I can't really wear them.

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I can wear them, but they're just a bit too tight,

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you know, a bit too Oh, look at this, just

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looking at something. I've bought. Most of the stuff I've

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bought on Amazon, it's just been food. Just looking at

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other dog food. It must be I'll wag a complete

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dog food. So I've bought oh yeah, James well beloved

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adult dog food. And according to this, I bought socks.

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But I don't know where any of them are now.

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I'm not sure how many of those have been eaten

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by Vinnie. Possibly a few, possibly, I mean genuinely, possibly

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a few have been eaten by him or hidden. He

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might have a stash somewhere. I don't know where he

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would have them. Oh wow, I there's a muzzle that

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I got for LOGI, so that's quite a while back.

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In it it doesn't say what date it was, man, right,

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I can't find any others. So, yeah, what was I

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talking about? What was the etireking a boot? This is

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going to be one of those recordings where I don't

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actually get to the point, and as we all know,

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that doesn't happen very often. Maybe so we stick with

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a Buddhist. So my first interest in Buddhism, I would say,

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probably came when I watched Kung Fu on TV, Kung

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Fu show Good Our Supper, I don't know if you remember,

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and there was one scene where he was locked in

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a I don't know what it was called, like a

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heated little shed thing, you know, like a coal bunker thing,

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and he was locked in there overnight or for two

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days or three days, and he when they opened the door,

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expecting him to be in a not very good space,

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he was calmly, meditating, smiling, if I if I remember correctly.

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They were so annoyed that they closed door again, but

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that might just be added, and I just added that myself.

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And that's when I started thinking and like, oh, because

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I've been I've been in a situation where I was

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locked in cupboards and locked in places, and like, I

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didn't know how to deal with it. And I thought, oh,

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there is a way of dealing with that kind of

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stuff where you, you know, to calm yourself down. I

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didn't really understand because I was like eight nine years old,

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but I liked it. I liked it a lot, I did.

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I liked it, and I thought, hmm, And then I

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remember seeing Incredible Hulk and he also used to try

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and work, what you know, find ways to calm himself

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down so that he didn't get angry because you wouldn't

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like him when he got angry. And this was the

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TV show from the seventies and I guess early eighties

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as well. And again I was kind of like, okay,

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because I had a few anger stuff issues. I guess

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back then I would explode. So I could see the

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similarity between me and the Incredible Hulk, except I just

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turned red and stayed the same size other than that,

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and didn't get any stronger, but just screamed like a benchie.

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So I kind of like that seed was sown the

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idea of finding a way to calm down my mind

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or calm down me, and I was I guess I

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was a little bit a stress head when I was

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a kid, and I didn't even know why I wasn't.

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I didn't understand why I was how I was. And

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I remember one particular time I went home from school

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and was still living in the house where my name

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and the grand had moved in, so I would have

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been about nine eight or nine. I went into kitchen

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and I and my stepmom said, we are You're right.

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I said, yeah, fine, he said, come on, you don't

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and I started crying. And I'm sort of just uncontrollably crying,

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and I didn't know why, and it was I just

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remember that, and it happened a few times. It still

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happens as an adult sometimes, but it was really just

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like built up and I didn't really I had no

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way of dealing with it. I guess I had nowhere

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of dealing what happened in the past. I didn't understand it.

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None of it really made sense bucket see the benefit

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of some kind of I knew it was meditation. So

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I don't know how I knew it was meditation. Maybe

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someone told me that was that Kung Fu was doing

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in that like dungeony room thing that he was locked

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in like a hot room or something. But yeah, those

466
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seeds were planted of like, maybe there is a way

467
00:39:32.599 --> 00:39:44.920
to calm myself. And then I when my dad was ill,

468
00:39:45.039 --> 00:39:47.760
he had to have a serious operation when I was

469
00:39:47.800 --> 00:39:57.360
about twelve, i'd say, maybe eleven. So at that time

470
00:39:57.440 --> 00:40:00.400
I turned to the New Testament. It kind of co decided.

471
00:40:00.440 --> 00:40:04.920
When the Gideon Society came around the school, and probably

472
00:40:05.000 --> 00:40:07.000
right at the beginning of the first year of high school,

473
00:40:07.079 --> 00:40:11.480
they handed these Gideon Bibles. I've got one on the shelf.

474
00:40:11.519 --> 00:40:15.199
Actually it's not the same one, but it's say it

475
00:40:15.320 --> 00:40:17.480
is the same one. It's a red Gideon's Bible, and

476
00:40:18.280 --> 00:40:21.920
that they produced probably millions over the years, hundreds of

477
00:40:21.920 --> 00:40:27.880
millions probably, and I read it. I spent all my

478
00:40:27.920 --> 00:40:33.719
time reading it, really and there was a degree of

479
00:40:35.960 --> 00:40:44.400
meditation that came from that for me, by letting go

480
00:40:44.599 --> 00:40:50.920
and not clinging onto stuff and not not getting angry

481
00:40:50.920 --> 00:40:54.159
with people. But at the same time, I was letting

482
00:40:54.159 --> 00:40:56.559
people get away with stuff that I would not normally

483
00:40:56.559 --> 00:40:59.840
have done at school and that so, you know, it

484
00:41:00.000 --> 00:41:05.519
didn't last long, but it lasted till my dad had

485
00:41:05.519 --> 00:41:08.559
his operation and was better. So then I went back

486
00:41:08.559 --> 00:41:15.280
to my old ways and then when I was then

487
00:41:15.320 --> 00:41:21.480
I started doing karate and there was a degree of

488
00:41:23.719 --> 00:41:30.079
self control involved in that. There was definitely, I would say,

489
00:41:30.239 --> 00:41:36.199
a degree of controlled in the anger because it's it's

490
00:41:36.199 --> 00:41:39.079
a very It's a discipline, isn't it. Like all sports,

491
00:41:39.079 --> 00:41:42.760
it's a discipline. So I was starting to learn a

492
00:41:42.800 --> 00:41:45.679
bit of discipline. I'd already been in the cecre det

493
00:41:45.760 --> 00:41:47.719
so I'd had to learn that kind of discipline as

494
00:41:47.760 --> 00:41:59.719
well being shouted at and not reacting, which yeah, wasn't easy.

495
00:42:00.679 --> 00:42:11.079
But they're on a a religious education trip school trip

496
00:42:11.599 --> 00:42:18.159
to London, visiting a few different religious places. So we

497
00:42:18.199 --> 00:42:27.039
went to a church I think we went to is

498
00:42:28.159 --> 00:42:32.960
was it what are they called, a Muslim place, a

499
00:42:33.039 --> 00:42:42.000
Jewish place, Catholic place, and a Buddhist place. We might

500
00:42:42.039 --> 00:42:44.440
have even gone to a Sekh place. So we went

501
00:42:44.480 --> 00:42:48.440
to quite a few different places and didn't spend a

502
00:42:48.519 --> 00:42:52.480
huge amount of time there, but because there was nothing there.

503
00:42:52.280 --> 00:42:55.559
There was just like empty buildings really, so we kind

504
00:42:55.559 --> 00:42:57.320
of had to look around. But when we got to

505
00:42:57.360 --> 00:43:02.800
the Buddhist center in London, there was people there and

506
00:43:03.480 --> 00:43:07.400
we all sat around and they answered questions because we

507
00:43:07.440 --> 00:43:09.360
didn't have that with any of the other places that

508
00:43:09.400 --> 00:43:14.519
we visited, so you know, it was probably a bit

509
00:43:14.559 --> 00:43:19.000
more enjoyable because there was interaction. And then they did

510
00:43:19.039 --> 00:43:22.039
they answered questions, and I kept asking questions about karate

511
00:43:22.960 --> 00:43:26.719
because they did karate there as well, so that kind

512
00:43:26.760 --> 00:43:29.280
of I think I annoyed everyone else in the in

513
00:43:29.320 --> 00:43:32.639
the group. And then I was also the first time

514
00:43:32.639 --> 00:43:37.440
I ever had a McDonald's milkshake. Oh my goodness, that

515
00:43:37.559 --> 00:43:43.360
was phenomenal. So two really lovely experiences in one day.

516
00:43:44.280 --> 00:43:47.000
So what they did at the London Buddies Center, which

517
00:43:47.039 --> 00:43:55.480
is in bethnal Green, I think we did some meditation

518
00:43:55.719 --> 00:44:00.840
that probably lasted ten minutes, maybe fifteen minutes, and we

519
00:44:00.920 --> 00:44:07.320
all sat on mats. They had bells and incest was

520
00:44:07.360 --> 00:44:12.760
burning and it was like, really, I liked it a lot,

521
00:44:12.960 --> 00:44:18.039
I mean really really liked it. In fact, I think

522
00:44:18.079 --> 00:44:21.960
if if I'd have been closer, if there'd been one

523
00:44:22.000 --> 00:44:27.480
in my town, I possibly would have gone. I mean

524
00:44:27.519 --> 00:44:29.440
I might not have been allowed to go, but I

525
00:44:29.440 --> 00:44:32.760
would have probably asked to go and maybe sneaked in

526
00:44:33.400 --> 00:44:36.079
just for the meditation because I needed it. I so

527
00:44:36.239 --> 00:44:45.039
needed it a way to calm my mind, makes you

528
00:44:45.239 --> 00:44:48.679
must I'm starting to think, why don't I go I

529
00:44:48.719 --> 00:44:54.440
should go back Hey. So that was that experience, and

530
00:44:54.480 --> 00:45:01.280
then I left school the next year and I didn't

531
00:45:01.320 --> 00:45:05.199
do anything other than just try and survive really, so

532
00:45:05.280 --> 00:45:09.880
I gave up the karate. I didn't had no interests really,

533
00:45:11.760 --> 00:45:16.920
and then it was probably nineteen eighty nine I decided

534
00:45:17.440 --> 00:45:22.639
I became very interested in comedy. I started to write

535
00:45:22.639 --> 00:45:28.760
a journal. And then nineteen ninety, after living in London

536
00:45:28.800 --> 00:45:31.559
for a while, I came back to the town I

537
00:45:31.599 --> 00:45:38.519
was used to living, and I decided to become a comedian,

538
00:45:38.559 --> 00:45:42.079
a stand up So I planned and I was going

539
00:45:42.119 --> 00:45:43.880
to move back to London the next year, and I

540
00:45:43.880 --> 00:45:49.000
did so. I went back to London ninety one, and

541
00:45:49.039 --> 00:45:56.159
then probably about ninety two, maybe ninety three, but I'd

542
00:45:56.199 --> 00:46:00.639
say probably about ninety two, I started getting in trusted

543
00:46:01.000 --> 00:46:10.000
in Beat generation books like the Dama Bumbs, the I

544
00:46:10.000 --> 00:46:12.960
Don't know, there's so many different ones, wasn't there on

545
00:46:13.000 --> 00:46:18.119
the Road and the Dama Bums both by Carriac Karaoke

546
00:46:19.039 --> 00:46:25.920
Jack Carroac and then Alan Ginsburg and Cassidy or whatever,

547
00:46:26.159 --> 00:46:32.199
lots of different ones. And as I have a tendency

548
00:46:32.280 --> 00:46:35.440
to do in my life, I collected every single book

549
00:46:35.519 --> 00:46:40.480
I could on the subject, every single Beat book, every

550
00:46:40.559 --> 00:46:45.079
poetry book, everything. I'm not saying I had all those books,

551
00:46:45.079 --> 00:46:47.679
but I collected all the ones I could afford to get,

552
00:46:49.159 --> 00:46:52.199
and I did that for the next three years up

553
00:46:52.199 --> 00:46:54.199
to one for the next couple of years to two

554
00:46:54.280 --> 00:47:00.280
thousand and four, nineteen ninety four. Sorry, not too for

555
00:47:00.480 --> 00:47:06.239
nineteen ninety four. So I got very much into after that, though,

556
00:47:06.599 --> 00:47:12.480
I got into Buddhism. Well, actually probably more Taoism to

557
00:47:12.519 --> 00:47:16.840
start with, because the Beat generation, a lot of what

558
00:47:16.880 --> 00:47:21.480
they're talking about was very Buddhist, very Dooist or Taoist,

559
00:47:21.599 --> 00:47:26.480
however you want to pronounce it. And that interested me.

560
00:47:27.480 --> 00:47:31.320
So I kind of from there got back into interested

561
00:47:31.360 --> 00:47:35.679
in Buddhism. Interested in I mean, I remember I used

562
00:47:35.719 --> 00:47:37.840
to go to school, go to school, go to work,

563
00:47:38.880 --> 00:47:43.719
and I would be reading books like Confucious books or

564
00:47:44.480 --> 00:47:50.719
Zen books about Zen maybe the cones or not like

565
00:47:50.880 --> 00:47:56.920
ice cream cones but or is it co Aen's, And

566
00:47:56.960 --> 00:48:01.400
I'd have these I think the right word piffy, you know,

567
00:48:01.559 --> 00:48:04.639
like there a book of sayings, and I'd read those

568
00:48:04.760 --> 00:48:09.639
in my breaks at work. So I got very involved

569
00:48:10.119 --> 00:48:16.639
in Buddhism. But only in the sense of reading the books.

570
00:48:17.559 --> 00:48:25.239
And then two thousand and five or two thousand, yeah,

571
00:48:25.280 --> 00:48:28.639
between yeah, so between that time and two thousand and

572
00:48:28.719 --> 00:48:42.440
five September August, No, when was it, probably li I'm

573
00:48:42.440 --> 00:48:46.760
in November, maybe two nineteen ninety five, I keep it's

574
00:48:46.760 --> 00:48:50.159
so long ago. I can't it's like nineteen ninety five.

575
00:48:50.880 --> 00:48:55.519
That was like that was a different century. So nineteen

576
00:48:55.599 --> 00:49:00.840
ninety five, I I sold all my book books, or

577
00:49:00.960 --> 00:49:07.159
my Buddhist books. And I had a good collection, a

578
00:49:07.320 --> 00:49:13.960
large collection, but I sold them all and because I

579
00:49:14.000 --> 00:49:18.280
was basically being evicted and I needed somewhere, I needed

580
00:49:18.320 --> 00:49:21.159
some cash, and then I went and worked at Butlin's.

581
00:49:21.400 --> 00:49:25.719
So you know, it didn't really work out. It worked

582
00:49:25.760 --> 00:49:33.719
out in the end. I love that little collection and

583
00:49:34.519 --> 00:49:36.760
I had, Yeah, I had a good collection of books

584
00:49:36.760 --> 00:49:43.960
back then, probably a good couple of hundred books. Yeah,

585
00:49:46.119 --> 00:49:52.599
and then nothing. Honestly from ninety five then ninety six

586
00:49:53.360 --> 00:49:59.079
I did read buy another book, which was it was

587
00:49:59.119 --> 00:50:06.519
a Buddhist book, the Tibetan. I've still it's not the

588
00:50:06.559 --> 00:50:08.480
same one, but it's the same one. So I basically

589
00:50:08.519 --> 00:50:10.920
had that book three times now and it's on my

590
00:50:10.920 --> 00:50:17.760
bookcase it's a red cover. I forget something path of

591
00:50:17.880 --> 00:50:21.599
good Fortune to make me want to read it again. Strange,

592
00:50:21.599 --> 00:50:25.440
isn't it? So I bought that and I was reading

593
00:50:25.440 --> 00:50:29.360
that when I was doing a security job during ninety

594
00:50:29.400 --> 00:50:35.599
six ninety seven, and I think I also got I

595
00:50:35.639 --> 00:50:42.679
also had see this is weird. I've had this book.

596
00:50:43.800 --> 00:50:50.239
It is Teachings of the Buddha, and I've had it

597
00:50:50.320 --> 00:51:00.079
since probably nineteen ninety three. I still got it. So

598
00:51:00.119 --> 00:51:09.559
I can't get it. What is that book name? Where

599
00:51:09.519 --> 00:51:11.519
is oh?

600
00:51:11.679 --> 00:51:26.639
Is that? Still can't find that book.

601
00:51:29.159 --> 00:51:33.000
Much.

602
00:51:37.320 --> 00:51:47.840
There's obstacles everywhere. I came back the cover and there's

603
00:51:47.920 --> 00:51:50.800
like a I guess it's a dust cover or whatever.

604
00:51:50.880 --> 00:51:56.360
It's is very worn now. But it's called The Teachings

605
00:51:56.400 --> 00:52:02.760
of Buddha and it's one size English. Other side is

606
00:52:05.800 --> 00:52:09.159
I don't know, Chinese, Mandarin. I'm not sure what the

607
00:52:10.360 --> 00:52:13.000
what the language is. It might be Japanese. Actually, I'm

608
00:52:13.039 --> 00:52:18.000
not sure the Teachings that of Buddha. What year was

609
00:52:18.039 --> 00:52:27.360
this printed? Oh, it's Japan, Yes, so it's Japanese. So

610
00:52:27.480 --> 00:52:32.199
it's English and Japanese. Nineteen sixty six it was printed,

611
00:52:33.639 --> 00:52:39.639
and then again the revised edition. Wow seven hundred and

612
00:52:39.840 --> 00:52:48.760
third revised edition, seven hundred and three revisions of this,

613
00:52:50.079 --> 00:52:52.480
nineteen ninety one, this was so this this was from

614
00:52:52.519 --> 00:52:55.119
nineteen ninety one, so I probably got it in about

615
00:52:55.199 --> 00:53:02.440
ninety two. It's the only item that I have from

616
00:53:02.480 --> 00:53:05.239
that long ago. And then do you know how much

617
00:53:05.239 --> 00:53:10.360
it cost me? Twenty five pound still got the price

618
00:53:10.440 --> 00:53:17.840
tag on it on the inside. Twenty five pound. When

619
00:53:17.880 --> 00:53:22.639
you consider at the time my rent was forty pounds

620
00:53:22.639 --> 00:53:26.559
a week. I was earning one hundred pounds a week

621
00:53:27.119 --> 00:53:30.800
in my job, So I spent twenty five pounds on

622
00:53:30.840 --> 00:53:36.920
a book, which kind of shows how interesting I was

623
00:53:36.960 --> 00:53:44.800
in the subject, because so it's English and Japanese, and

624
00:53:44.880 --> 00:53:49.519
there is how many pages, over six hundred pages. But

625
00:53:49.559 --> 00:53:53.079
it's not a big book. It's you know, quite small.

626
00:53:53.400 --> 00:54:00.119
The writing is quite small. So yeah, it's good, but

627
00:54:00.159 --> 00:54:02.599
it's very in a way. It's kind of similar to

628
00:54:02.639 --> 00:54:06.960
the Gideon's Bible in the sense of you can look

629
00:54:07.039 --> 00:54:14.920
up things to to focus on. So, for example, if

630
00:54:14.960 --> 00:54:25.519
you're interested in Iuly I should be at the back. Actually, yes,

631
00:54:25.719 --> 00:54:32.800
at the back like a glossary. No, it isn't, hm,

632
00:54:34.519 --> 00:54:41.599
it's not at all. There is a there's a also Okay,

633
00:54:42.360 --> 00:54:45.719
So there is like it's an index. So if you

634
00:54:45.760 --> 00:54:52.840
want to look at truth where you want to, okay,

635
00:54:53.599 --> 00:55:01.800
do not forget what you are seeking. Do not let

636
00:55:01.840 --> 00:55:07.440
your mind be disturbed, even under unsatisfactory circumstances. So there's

637
00:55:07.480 --> 00:55:09.920
little things like that you can go into and say, okay,

638
00:55:12.159 --> 00:55:17.840
it can help in a few you know, I suppose

639
00:55:18.800 --> 00:55:21.800
stuff when it's getting when things are maybe a little

640
00:55:21.800 --> 00:55:28.119
bit difficult, the meaning of life, a prejudice life, and

641
00:55:29.679 --> 00:55:32.119
the five things that no one can accomplish in this world,

642
00:55:33.320 --> 00:55:38.920
the four truths in this world is faith is a

643
00:55:39.360 --> 00:55:44.639
manifest manifestation, manifestation. I can't even say the word, but

644
00:55:44.679 --> 00:55:46.880
anyway that the reason I getting that out is because

645
00:55:48.880 --> 00:55:52.239
I just I forgot. I don't think I've got that book,

646
00:55:52.280 --> 00:55:58.079
but I forget that that book predates every other item

647
00:55:58.199 --> 00:56:02.480
or belonging that I have in world. I have nothing

648
00:56:02.559 --> 00:56:07.679
that's older in that book. I mean, even my internal

649
00:56:07.800 --> 00:56:12.320
organs have regenerated in that time, because I'd say, is

650
00:56:12.320 --> 00:56:15.159
that every seven years our organs regenerate over time, So

651
00:56:16.079 --> 00:56:22.320
that book's older than me. Technically it was born when

652
00:56:22.320 --> 00:56:26.199
I was twenty one. That book, so in this sense,

653
00:56:26.400 --> 00:56:31.639
like my son or my daughter that book is and

654
00:56:31.679 --> 00:56:36.920
it's the only thing. Even when I was destroying books

655
00:56:37.840 --> 00:56:45.840
back in twoenty fourteen, I wouldn't go near that one.

656
00:56:48.400 --> 00:56:50.800
I mean, it's not that it's irreplaceable, because it's probably

657
00:56:52.159 --> 00:56:57.119
probably now on it's nine thousandth edition reprint or whatever,

658
00:56:57.199 --> 00:57:05.000
but it's yeah, it's traveled with me. You think about it,

659
00:57:05.000 --> 00:57:11.480
it's traveled for so it was in Stratford and it's

660
00:57:11.519 --> 00:57:14.599
traveled with me all the different places I've moved, So

661
00:57:14.760 --> 00:57:20.360
let's count those. So from Stratford ninety four to another

662
00:57:20.400 --> 00:57:26.920
place in light and so that's one, then again stayed

663
00:57:26.920 --> 00:57:32.239
with me there, then to Ireland, then back to London.

664
00:57:32.760 --> 00:57:36.960
So that's four places. Just been to Ireland, it's been,

665
00:57:38.559 --> 00:57:44.920
then to Bogner, Regis, then back to London, then to

666
00:57:44.960 --> 00:57:53.320
another place in London, another place in London, then another

667
00:57:53.400 --> 00:58:00.159
place in London, then Ipswich, another place in it's which

668
00:58:00.280 --> 00:58:06.360
number place in Nipswich, nomber place in Ipswich, number place

669
00:58:06.400 --> 00:58:14.480
in Nipswich. So that's fourteen so far. Then where I'm

670
00:58:14.519 --> 00:58:19.960
living now that's fifteen. No, where I moved, So he's

671
00:58:20.039 --> 00:58:32.239
rather then six sixteen, seventeen, eighteen, nineteen nineteen or twenty,

672
00:58:32.679 --> 00:58:37.199
so about nineteen or twenty different places I've lived since

673
00:58:37.239 --> 00:58:41.239
I've got this book. I think it's more than that.

674
00:58:41.480 --> 00:58:44.320
I've moved, probably more than that. I'm just think old. Yeah,

675
00:58:44.360 --> 00:58:48.920
twenty one, twenty two, Yeah, maybe twenty three, twenty two,

676
00:58:48.960 --> 00:58:52.079
between twenty one and twenty three. Times I've moved since

677
00:58:52.119 --> 00:58:55.800
I've got this book. So it's moved around with me. Now,

678
00:58:56.719 --> 00:58:58.320
how I thought about it, I would have took it

679
00:58:58.639 --> 00:59:02.440
with me to when I went to Amsterdam, or when

680
00:59:02.440 --> 00:59:04.480
I went to the Isle of Man, or when I

681
00:59:04.519 --> 00:59:11.719
went to Bulgaria, or when I went to Thailand or whatever.

682
00:59:12.199 --> 00:59:13.800
I could have sort of taken it with me. Is

683
00:59:13.840 --> 00:59:18.639
my travel my travel companion, But I didn't didn't think

684
00:59:18.679 --> 00:59:22.679
about it. I've got you know, I like to travel light,

685
00:59:24.119 --> 00:59:32.039
not in physical weight, but just generally light. So yeah,

686
00:59:32.079 --> 00:59:34.119
so that I've got that book, So that's that's been

687
00:59:34.159 --> 00:59:39.960
with me the whole time. I I generally, I don't

688
00:59:40.000 --> 00:59:42.880
really look at it. It's terrorist or I should have

689
00:59:42.880 --> 00:59:44.960
got that other book, shouldn't I The other book that

690
00:59:44.960 --> 00:59:48.880
I've got, Path of Great Fortune, Noble Path of Great

691
00:59:48.920 --> 00:59:58.880
Fortune or something it's called. So what year am I

692
00:59:59.000 --> 00:59:59.760
up to on this?

693
01:00:02.920 --> 01:00:03.000
So?

694
01:00:03.159 --> 01:00:06.039
Yeah, I think when I got involved in about two thousand,

695
01:00:06.760 --> 01:00:09.880
nineteen ninety seven blind Me. I keep saying two thousand,

696
01:00:10.320 --> 01:00:19.800
nineteen ninety seven, I started getting into self development, and

697
01:00:19.880 --> 01:00:23.119
before that I was it's going to be strange because

698
01:00:23.119 --> 01:00:28.719
I never really did any sales in the nineties. I

699
01:00:28.800 --> 01:00:33.360
tried a few different sales jobs and failed every single

700
01:00:33.360 --> 01:00:38.679
one of them. And because they were always not always

701
01:00:38.719 --> 01:00:44.159
but one wasn't, but most of them were, you know,

702
01:00:46.039 --> 01:00:53.800
bonus only no actual pay unless you sell. I couldn't

703
01:00:53.880 --> 01:00:56.639
keep it up because I always I had a tendency

704
01:00:56.679 --> 01:01:01.360
of starting those jobs. They're not hard to get because

705
01:01:01.719 --> 01:01:03.960
there's nothing for the people to lose. Is that really

706
01:01:04.320 --> 01:01:06.599
The companies that take you on they don't pay you anything,

707
01:01:07.440 --> 01:01:10.440
and they give you a commission, so they'd have to

708
01:01:10.480 --> 01:01:13.039
pay you a commission. If you make money, it's a

709
01:01:13.079 --> 01:01:19.239
win win for them. So I didn't get you know,

710
01:01:19.719 --> 01:01:21.760
but I was interested in selling, and I had lots

711
01:01:21.760 --> 01:01:24.440
of selling books, lots of sales books, and I used

712
01:01:24.480 --> 01:01:28.440
to read those books for fun in the ninety five,

713
01:01:28.599 --> 01:01:34.760
ninety six, ninety seven, ninety eight, ninety nine. It's weird.

714
01:01:34.800 --> 01:01:39.360
I just in fact, earlier than that, I started reading

715
01:01:39.440 --> 01:01:45.679
sales books in nineteen eighty nine when I was doing canvassing,

716
01:01:46.679 --> 01:01:51.000
and I just liked the positivity of it. Anything that

717
01:01:51.039 --> 01:01:53.199
could help me to feel a little bit more positive

718
01:01:53.559 --> 01:01:58.480
was a good thing. But I did go after rails

719
01:01:58.519 --> 01:02:06.960
a bit during the nineties, and then I started doing

720
01:02:07.079 --> 01:02:13.039
sales in two thousand and one as a job, like

721
01:02:13.320 --> 01:02:20.079
full time properly, so you know, I kind of began

722
01:02:20.199 --> 01:02:24.159
reading books again on sales and listening to audio tapes

723
01:02:24.199 --> 01:02:33.519
by zig Ziggler and people like that. I kind of, yeah,

724
01:02:33.599 --> 01:02:37.280
I'd lost contact with the Budhi, the Buddhism stuff. I

725
01:02:37.320 --> 01:02:40.679
didn't have anything to do with that, although I didn't

726
01:02:40.719 --> 01:02:42.960
have my little book here, but I didn't look at it.

727
01:02:44.280 --> 01:02:48.719
And then probably about November two thousand and two or

728
01:02:48.960 --> 01:02:51.840
the end of two thousand and two, I was in

729
01:02:53.679 --> 01:03:02.400
much need to for help as far as relaxing, as

730
01:03:02.440 --> 01:03:08.400
far as anxiety control and stuff like that. So what

731
01:03:08.559 --> 01:03:13.440
happened is I used to walk past this place every day,

732
01:03:14.320 --> 01:03:17.719
a Buddhist center. No, it was at a Buddhist shop,

733
01:03:17.800 --> 01:03:21.400
and then I realized there was a Buddhist center, and

734
01:03:21.440 --> 01:03:24.000
then I kind of started thinking about going in there,

735
01:03:24.119 --> 01:03:26.599
and I knew it was open, and I think a

736
01:03:26.719 --> 01:03:32.400
Wednesday or Tuesday evening, and I don't know, it kind

737
01:03:32.400 --> 01:03:35.000
of pulled me in a little bit. So I was

738
01:03:35.039 --> 01:03:39.960
going into the shop quite regularly and buying gifts. It

739
01:03:40.000 --> 01:03:43.800
was a gift shop called Evolution, so I'd buy gifts

740
01:03:43.840 --> 01:03:46.639
for my nan or buy gifts for family from there,

741
01:03:46.639 --> 01:03:49.159
because I liked it in there, and I liked the atmosphere.

742
01:03:49.679 --> 01:03:54.800
I liked the calmness of the people that were working there,

743
01:03:55.639 --> 01:03:57.920
who I ended up being friends with. I ended up

744
01:03:57.960 --> 01:04:02.679
actually working there myself, but at that time I wasn't

745
01:04:02.719 --> 01:04:07.679
going to the Buddhist center. And then I'm not quite

746
01:04:07.760 --> 01:04:13.480
sure how it worked, but I ended up going and

747
01:04:13.519 --> 01:04:16.519
from then on. In fact, that very first night, I

748
01:04:16.639 --> 01:04:20.000
met my friend who I'm going to see in a

749
01:04:20.039 --> 01:04:28.000
couple of hours, and he was there and we just

750
01:04:28.039 --> 01:04:30.440
got on really well. I mean, what's that two thousand

751
01:04:30.480 --> 01:04:35.239
and two, three four five, So that's what twenty twenty

752
01:04:35.280 --> 01:04:41.320
three years? Twenty three years. Yeah, so I've known him

753
01:04:41.320 --> 01:04:44.960
for twenty two twenty three years. Even we lived with

754
01:04:45.039 --> 01:04:49.119
him for a little while. I worked with him twice,

755
01:04:49.639 --> 01:04:53.639
so because he lived in a Buddhist community. When I

756
01:04:53.719 --> 01:04:58.119
moved in and then moved out, he moved out after

757
01:04:58.119 --> 01:05:00.000
a couple of weeks, but he was planning on moving

758
01:05:00.079 --> 01:05:02.400
now anyway, That's why they were looking for someone to

759
01:05:02.440 --> 01:05:08.119
move in. And I worked with him in the Evolution

760
01:05:08.199 --> 01:05:11.280
Shop in It's which he got me a job there

761
01:05:12.000 --> 01:05:15.840
because after going to the Buddhist Center for a while

762
01:05:17.320 --> 01:05:21.360
for about a year, Yeah, I kept I kept my

763
01:05:21.480 --> 01:05:23.199
job going for as long as I could. I didn't

764
01:05:23.199 --> 01:05:25.440
want to leave my job. I didn't want to lose it.

765
01:05:25.440 --> 01:05:27.559
Didn't want to leave it because I was good at it,

766
01:05:27.599 --> 01:05:33.480
and you know, I was doing quite well, but I

767
01:05:33.559 --> 01:05:35.599
wasn't well enough to keep going. And then in the

768
01:05:35.719 --> 01:05:38.000
end I had to leave. So it was another year.

769
01:05:38.119 --> 01:05:41.079
So it's the end of two thousand and three. Even

770
01:05:41.119 --> 01:05:43.760
though I'd gone part time, I just packed it in.

771
01:05:45.000 --> 01:05:50.440
I couldn't do it anymore. And that Christmas, my friend

772
01:05:51.199 --> 01:05:55.559
offered me a job just over the Christmas period working

773
01:05:56.159 --> 01:06:00.400
in the Evolution shop because that was their busy part

774
01:06:00.400 --> 01:06:03.760
of the whole year. So I did. I worked there,

775
01:06:03.880 --> 01:06:08.679
probably not every day, probably three days a week or

776
01:06:08.800 --> 01:06:13.960
you know, part time, but just you know, having somewhere

777
01:06:14.199 --> 01:06:16.519
because I needed to have an income. But at the

778
01:06:16.559 --> 01:06:20.119
same time, I couldn't work full time. I didn't fill

779
01:06:20.199 --> 01:06:26.400
up to that, so and I worked there part time

780
01:06:27.760 --> 01:06:36.440
until the following August, and I kind of lived on

781
01:06:36.599 --> 01:06:39.719
savings really, and then again I ended up living on

782
01:06:39.760 --> 01:06:44.760
credit cards and stuff, which wasn't probably the best idea.

783
01:06:44.800 --> 01:06:51.199
And then and then I left, but I didn't leave

784
01:06:51.199 --> 01:06:54.519
the Budhet Center, but I left the shop, got a job,

785
01:06:56.840 --> 01:07:04.719
and I continued going to the Buddhist Center. Four soce

786
01:07:04.760 --> 01:07:11.840
is two thousand and four, I had my Mitra ceremony,

787
01:07:12.119 --> 01:07:14.400
which is kind of like I guess, like a christening,

788
01:07:16.519 --> 01:07:20.559
like a christening kind of thing. It's a ceremony. And

789
01:07:21.440 --> 01:07:24.239
that was in August two thousand or August or September

790
01:07:24.280 --> 01:07:30.280
two thousand and four. And then in two thousand and

791
01:07:30.760 --> 01:07:36.360
five I moved into the Buddhist community because I was

792
01:07:36.719 --> 01:07:39.960
going very well with the people living there, well most

793
01:07:40.000 --> 01:07:42.400
of them. I didn't know everyone, but I knew like

794
01:07:42.639 --> 01:07:48.639
at least one, two three people before, in fact four

795
01:07:48.679 --> 01:07:51.639
people living there. There was another person I didn't know

796
01:07:51.719 --> 01:07:54.719
so well, but he moved out, and another person my

797
01:07:54.760 --> 01:08:00.000
friend who yeah, so and I lived there. In continue

798
01:08:00.119 --> 01:08:04.519
you go to the Buddhist Center from up until I

799
01:08:04.639 --> 01:08:15.119
left in two thousand and seven, around November time when

800
01:08:15.800 --> 01:08:20.239
I had to find because basically there was a squirmish,

801
01:08:20.479 --> 01:08:25.880
a squirmish, and so I had to move out and

802
01:08:25.920 --> 01:08:31.159
I went and lived. I needed really to live closer

803
01:08:31.159 --> 01:08:33.760
to where the university was, which was in a different town,

804
01:08:36.039 --> 01:08:38.520
which is what I did. But then I started going

805
01:08:38.560 --> 01:08:42.640
to the Buddhist center in that town, and then I

806
01:08:42.720 --> 01:08:46.560
ended up working in the because a couple of people

807
01:08:46.640 --> 01:08:50.239
knew me anyway, because it was it wasn't that far away.

808
01:08:51.720 --> 01:08:54.239
And then I started working in the Evolution shop in

809
01:08:54.279 --> 01:09:02.359
that town because my friend was working there, the one

810
01:09:02.359 --> 01:09:05.920
that got me a job at the Evolution in Ipswich,

811
01:09:06.319 --> 01:09:10.199
got me a job at the Evolution in this town

812
01:09:10.239 --> 01:09:13.640
as well, And it was it was just part time

813
01:09:14.000 --> 01:09:19.920
again during Christmas, their busiest time, and it was handy

814
01:09:19.960 --> 01:09:22.680
because I was a student that actually a little bit

815
01:09:22.720 --> 01:09:28.199
of money was useful. So I did that on and

816
01:09:28.239 --> 01:09:32.479
off for a couple of years during the period of

817
01:09:32.560 --> 01:09:39.920
being at university, really just part time Saturdays, not every Saturday,

818
01:09:40.000 --> 01:09:43.960
it's just whenever. Really, you needn't be barking, please mate.

819
01:09:44.640 --> 01:09:54.000
And then I when I finished university, I moved literally

820
01:09:54.039 --> 01:09:57.720
around the corner from the Buddhist center, so I was

821
01:09:59.000 --> 01:10:02.079
probably going a little bit more regular then because it's

822
01:10:02.119 --> 01:10:05.359
just up the road. And then I moved again a

823
01:10:05.439 --> 01:10:08.479
year later and it was also across across the road.

824
01:10:08.520 --> 01:10:11.079
It's just like the opposite, but it's still the same

825
01:10:11.159 --> 01:10:14.199
kind of distance, a little bit further away, but you know,

826
01:10:14.760 --> 01:10:19.279
ten minute walk, five minute walk, six minute walk, ten seven,

827
01:10:19.680 --> 01:10:25.119
eight nine, something like that, and so i'd go along.

828
01:10:25.560 --> 01:10:27.600
I used to go New Year's Eve and stuff like

829
01:10:27.640 --> 01:10:32.560
that as well. So I was involved in the Buddhist

830
01:10:32.600 --> 01:10:38.359
center then during this period sort of especially like during

831
01:10:38.399 --> 01:10:44.720
two thousand and three two thousand and four, I bought

832
01:10:45.159 --> 01:10:50.279
so many books on Buddhism. It's just it's one of

833
01:10:50.319 --> 01:10:52.560
those things that I have a tendency of doing. If

834
01:10:52.560 --> 01:10:55.359
I really get into a subject, I'll buy every book

835
01:10:55.399 --> 01:11:02.640
I can. What I find is to study a subject,

836
01:11:02.800 --> 01:11:08.319
I like to if you, if you read enough books

837
01:11:08.319 --> 01:11:15.520
on a subject, you'll start to see repetition almost or yeah,

838
01:11:15.640 --> 01:11:19.560
you guarantee to see repetition. But that repetition is good

839
01:11:19.720 --> 01:11:23.039
because then it helps for me, It helps it to

840
01:11:23.119 --> 01:11:27.640
absorb it and also get to see things from a

841
01:11:28.199 --> 01:11:33.560
slightly different angle or different opinion or expressed in a

842
01:11:33.600 --> 01:11:42.520
slightly way. You know, so that that's what I did.

843
01:11:42.640 --> 01:11:45.159
Bought a lot of books. I ended up giving most

844
01:11:45.199 --> 01:11:51.960
of them to the Buddhist Center. Yeah, I did accept

845
01:11:52.960 --> 01:11:55.760
this one. The reason I know is because I didn't print.

846
01:11:56.960 --> 01:12:00.279
I didn't prink because I printed the Buddhist Center's print it.

847
01:12:01.319 --> 01:12:03.800
But I didn't give this one. I kept this one.

848
01:12:04.479 --> 01:12:08.199
This was never this will be with me, this will

849
01:12:08.239 --> 01:12:12.359
be me, this is this is with me forever, I

850
01:12:12.359 --> 01:12:24.760
guess now. And when I moved away to hear So

851
01:12:24.800 --> 01:12:27.600
there's a lot of things happened in the Buddhist world,

852
01:12:27.640 --> 01:12:32.319
you know, since I've been involved. I went to retreats

853
01:12:32.359 --> 01:12:35.000
and I went on a pain management retreat as well,

854
01:12:35.520 --> 01:12:39.680
back in two thousand and five, I think, unless it

855
01:12:39.720 --> 01:12:45.439
was two thousand and six, and I think it might

856
01:12:45.439 --> 01:12:48.359
have been two thousand and six. And that was amazing

857
01:12:48.560 --> 01:12:53.359
because I was interested in pain relief as a practitioner

858
01:12:53.399 --> 01:12:57.199
and this was like a breath works mindfulness pain relief

859
01:12:59.640 --> 01:13:03.199
and lasted for about a week I think two weeks

860
01:13:03.239 --> 01:13:07.079
a week. I think it's about a week. So as

861
01:13:07.119 --> 01:13:16.199
well as being a retreat, it was also training as well. Yeah,

862
01:13:16.680 --> 01:13:22.319
so I used to go out and meet up with Buddhists.

863
01:13:22.359 --> 01:13:24.039
I used to meet up with my friend that I'm

864
01:13:24.079 --> 01:13:28.640
seeing today when I was in the same town. You know,

865
01:13:28.760 --> 01:13:32.720
when I first started going to the Buddhist center, we

866
01:13:32.840 --> 01:13:36.359
used to meet up quite often, once a week, once

867
01:13:36.359 --> 01:13:41.640
every two weeks, and he almost kind of became like

868
01:13:41.680 --> 01:13:45.920
a counselor to me. It wasn't the idea, it wasn't

869
01:13:45.920 --> 01:13:49.680
the plan, and that wasn't his intention. But I used

870
01:13:49.680 --> 01:13:53.520
to just go and unload and he just sit down

871
01:13:53.560 --> 01:13:59.520
and listen, and you know, it was probably wasn't really

872
01:13:59.560 --> 01:14:03.319
fair on him, but he was so so gentle and

873
01:14:03.520 --> 01:14:11.159
so what the right word attentive? And I said to him,

874
01:14:12.479 --> 01:14:15.680
why don't you, why don't you become a counselor, and

875
01:14:15.720 --> 01:14:22.159
they said he didn't want to. But then once I'd

876
01:14:22.199 --> 01:14:26.359
finished my counseling course, he trained up to become a counselor.

877
01:14:28.960 --> 01:14:31.760
So he also is a counselor. Well, he's trained. I

878
01:14:31.800 --> 01:14:34.399
don't know if he's seeing clients or not. I don't know.

879
01:14:35.000 --> 01:14:38.279
I know why not. I haven't seen clients for over

880
01:14:38.319 --> 01:14:47.600
a decade now. I wouldn't even know how what what why?

881
01:14:49.760 --> 01:14:53.680
I'm sure I must have some skills. I don't know it,

882
01:14:54.760 --> 01:15:01.800
h but yeah, it's so I've seen him go food,

883
01:15:01.840 --> 01:15:04.920
lots of different things. I mean, he's now got a

884
01:15:05.039 --> 01:15:15.119
kid that's probably thirteen, twelve, thirteen, fourteen now. And I

885
01:15:15.159 --> 01:15:18.399
went to his wedding which was in probably about two

886
01:15:18.439 --> 01:15:34.239
thousand and nine, which is yeah, two thousand and nine,

887
01:15:34.560 --> 01:15:40.920
twenty nineteen, so yeah, probably the next year they had

888
01:15:40.920 --> 01:15:45.800
a baby, so it's probably fifteen years old. He's boy. Now. Wow,

889
01:15:47.159 --> 01:15:50.319
it's really weird. My niece. I got a message from

890
01:15:50.359 --> 01:15:53.760
my stepmom saying, I'll just letting you know that your

891
01:15:53.800 --> 01:16:00.000
niece is now it's her seventeenth birthday today. This is yesterday.

892
01:16:01.239 --> 01:16:06.439
I forgot to send a card, but hey, and seventeen,

893
01:16:13.199 --> 01:16:15.319
and I remember, it doesn't seem long ago that she

894
01:16:15.439 --> 01:16:18.520
was running around two all of us and just punching

895
01:16:18.600 --> 01:16:23.119
us all in the balls. You know what was last year? No,

896
01:16:23.199 --> 01:16:24.520
but you know when she was a little kid, you know,

897
01:16:25.159 --> 01:16:28.159
kid doing they just sort of they realized they've found

898
01:16:28.159 --> 01:16:32.159
a place where they can hurt you. And I had

899
01:16:32.199 --> 01:16:34.640
a video camera and I filmed her when she was

900
01:16:35.159 --> 01:16:43.319
probably five four something like that, and she was at

901
01:16:43.319 --> 01:16:45.319
a dinner table if it was at Christmas, and I

902
01:16:45.399 --> 01:16:50.800
was filming and she was just being so funny and

903
01:16:50.880 --> 01:16:54.279
start making faces and doing all funny voices and stuff.

904
01:16:55.880 --> 01:17:00.520
But I lost it. I lost the film footage. I

905
01:17:00.560 --> 01:17:04.399
don't know what happened. And it's a little bit unlike

906
01:17:04.439 --> 01:17:06.880
me because I did. I kept a lot of film

907
01:17:06.880 --> 01:17:09.319
footage that well, most film footage that I took with

908
01:17:09.359 --> 01:17:13.720
that camera is actually on YouTube. Now that wouldn't be,

909
01:17:13.760 --> 01:17:18.680
of course, because that's of family and stuff I wouldn't show.

910
01:17:18.880 --> 01:17:21.680
I wouldn't have videos of kids and stuff on my

911
01:17:21.760 --> 01:17:28.439
YouTube channel. Even with my neighbor, I was filming Vinnie

912
01:17:28.520 --> 01:17:33.279
in their garden, and I made sure that the little

913
01:17:33.279 --> 01:17:35.520
girl wasn't in the camera. You could hear a voice.

914
01:17:35.520 --> 01:17:39.840
But I'm not filming. I just want to All I

915
01:17:39.880 --> 01:17:42.000
want is to film Vinie. I don't want to film humans.

916
01:17:42.840 --> 01:17:48.479
I don't want humans on the camera. It's laying on

917
01:17:48.520 --> 01:17:51.880
the floor, the windows the curtains are open, and the

918
01:17:52.079 --> 01:17:55.880
sun shining in, and he's found the one little part

919
01:17:56.000 --> 01:18:02.680
where the sun's still shining on the carpet. Honestly, it's

920
01:18:02.760 --> 01:18:09.960
almost dog shaped size. He fits in it perfectly. It's

921
01:18:10.000 --> 01:18:12.800
a tiny little bit on the carpet that's got some

922
01:18:15.159 --> 01:18:21.680
This makes me laugh. He's so funny. He's so cute,

923
01:18:21.680 --> 01:18:23.399
but I know if I went over and I touched him,

924
01:18:23.399 --> 01:18:29.439
he'd growl at me. It doesn't like being disturbed, but

925
01:18:29.520 --> 01:18:32.560
it's okay for him to disturb me. It's fine for

926
01:18:32.720 --> 01:18:38.319
me to disturb him. Mind you. I woke up this

927
01:18:38.439 --> 01:18:45.000
morning and he was just standing over me, and I

928
01:18:45.000 --> 01:18:48.119
thought he needed to get up and go, but he didn't.

929
01:18:48.720 --> 01:18:51.199
He didn't want to go out, didn't want anything. As

930
01:18:51.239 --> 01:18:52.720
soon as I got out of bed, he just went

931
01:18:52.800 --> 01:18:56.319
back and laid down to go to sleep. So I'm

932
01:18:56.319 --> 01:18:59.800
thinking he woke me up. So maybe but I was

933
01:19:00.279 --> 01:19:02.960
making some weird noises or something and he was concerned,

934
01:19:03.000 --> 01:19:05.920
so he woke me up. Or he was protecting me,

935
01:19:06.039 --> 01:19:13.520
guarding me or something which or just watching me. Either

936
01:19:13.560 --> 01:19:17.520
he was he was helping me, or he's just a weirdo,

937
01:19:19.760 --> 01:19:27.199
A bit of both. Tech stuff is da dar. See

938
01:19:27.199 --> 01:19:34.399
if I've got any messages? Okay, right? PayPal? Yeah that's

939
01:19:34.479 --> 01:19:42.600
just for the groceries I got delivered, which is fine, Okay,

940
01:19:42.600 --> 01:19:52.840
it's not coming up right. Another message? My what sit downstairs?

941
01:19:54.039 --> 01:19:57.720
Jason's sorry, babe, do you have any fizzy drink? As

942
01:19:57.720 --> 01:20:09.239
my sugar levels are really low? I don't nothing I don't. Sorry,

943
01:20:10.000 --> 01:20:16.199
I'm not allowed to drink fizzy drinks, although saying that

944
01:20:16.880 --> 01:20:24.039
some times I have. Oh, I could give her an

945
01:20:24.079 --> 01:20:28.439
ice cream I got on Yeah, I could give her that.

946
01:20:28.479 --> 01:20:31.880
I would be I just got some cornetto's, could give

947
01:20:31.880 --> 01:20:35.439
her a cornetto. I suppose every day she asks us something.

948
01:20:37.199 --> 01:20:38.920
The weird thing about it is she doesn't even talk

949
01:20:38.960 --> 01:20:41.960
to me. She like has no conversation with me at all,

950
01:20:42.479 --> 01:20:47.159
but constantly asking stuff. So that's today yesterday, hijason, do

951
01:20:47.199 --> 01:20:49.600
you have some juice please? As I literally only have one,

952
01:20:49.720 --> 01:20:59.600
only have tap water. That was yesterday and last Tuesday?

953
01:21:00.039 --> 01:21:03.640
Do you have any frozen meals? I could nick because

954
01:21:03.680 --> 01:21:09.119
I'm waiting on the food bank. And the Thursday before that,

955
01:21:10.439 --> 01:21:14.720
can you put if she wanted me, have someone put

956
01:21:14.760 --> 01:21:19.000
money into my account. And then the Monday before that,

957
01:21:19.760 --> 01:21:23.479
I've got some butter. I can borrow to butter some rolls.

958
01:21:25.720 --> 01:21:29.960
And then the Sunday before that is r anywhere you

959
01:21:30.000 --> 01:21:32.239
can order me some white chest of drawers on a

960
01:21:32.319 --> 01:21:34.960
pay monthly for the baby, as I got so much

961
01:21:35.000 --> 01:21:44.039
baby clothes now nowhere to put them, and I can

962
01:21:44.079 --> 01:21:49.279
pay you once a month towards it. Like no I

963
01:21:49.319 --> 01:21:53.600
can't get credit. I literally cannot get credit. Even if

964
01:21:53.600 --> 01:22:01.840
I wanted to, I couldn't. It's amazing, absolutely amazing. So

965
01:22:02.960 --> 01:22:06.760
length okay, the the Sunday before that, have you got

966
01:22:06.800 --> 01:22:14.079
a lighter? Please? Sunday before that? Can you keep my

967
01:22:14.760 --> 01:22:25.199
can you keep an eye on my flat? It goes on.

968
01:22:26.079 --> 01:22:28.079
I told I had a friend that did this. It's okay.

969
01:22:29.199 --> 01:22:33.079
And then the thirtieth of April, do you have any

970
01:22:33.079 --> 01:22:35.479
money I could have because I need to go to London.

971
01:22:35.479 --> 01:22:40.439
I need twenty pound which I didn't have any money.

972
01:22:40.720 --> 01:22:45.720
So that's the twenty fifth of April. Fifth of April.

973
01:22:46.159 --> 01:22:48.560
Don't suppose you've got fifteen pound I can have so

974
01:22:48.600 --> 01:22:51.039
I can get a or if you can just order

975
01:22:51.119 --> 01:22:54.199
me an egg, egg, fried rice, set a chicken and

976
01:22:54.279 --> 01:23:01.399
chips from the Chinese. It's like, what did I answer that? Nope,

977
01:23:01.920 --> 01:23:04.039
got no money, but you can have a pasta pack

978
01:23:04.560 --> 01:23:08.039
just needs boiling. I left a bag outside your door.

979
01:23:10.119 --> 01:23:13.560
I don't think she ate that. And in the Thursday

980
01:23:13.600 --> 01:23:20.600
before that, oh no, And oh the Wednesday before that,

981
01:23:21.319 --> 01:23:28.000
do you have any potatoes? Friday before that do you

982
01:23:28.039 --> 01:23:35.840
have any chocolates? And Friday twenty first of March, I

983
01:23:35.840 --> 01:23:37.560
wonder if you had in money I could borrow for

984
01:23:37.680 --> 01:23:49.000
taxi okay, which I didn't. And then the Monday, BlimE me,

985
01:23:49.640 --> 01:23:56.319
that's amazing, this is amazing. The Monday, seventeenth March, I

986
01:23:56.319 --> 01:24:00.199
wonder if you could transfer me seventeen pound so I

987
01:24:00.239 --> 01:24:08.920
can give you cash at midnight, or if you can

988
01:24:08.960 --> 01:24:11.119
borrow me the money, could you order me a big Mac?

989
01:24:14.039 --> 01:24:22.239
That was a nom twenty seventh of February. Is there

990
01:24:22.279 --> 01:24:24.119
any way you could do me a big favor and

991
01:24:24.159 --> 01:24:27.279
try and get me an iPhone? Please? Mine keeps turning

992
01:24:27.319 --> 01:24:30.439
off and he's smashed, and I'm having whatever. I'm not

993
01:24:30.439 --> 01:24:32.439
going to be the whole thing out. I can pay

994
01:24:32.479 --> 01:24:45.399
you next week when I'm paid. I said, I have

995
01:24:45.439 --> 01:24:47.560
no money. Is the only way you could get paid monthly?

996
01:24:50.079 --> 01:24:53.600
And I said I can't. I can't, I can't borrow

997
01:24:53.600 --> 01:25:04.920
any money. Whatever. Look nineteenth of February, will I be

998
01:25:04.920 --> 01:25:07.800
able to ask? Can I? Can you boy? I boy

999
01:25:07.920 --> 01:25:11.720
sixty pound? I said, sorry, I've already learnt some an

1000
01:25:11.800 --> 01:25:14.600
eighty pounds and they didn't pay it back, which left

1001
01:25:14.640 --> 01:25:33.000
me with nothing. What other one? What's the next one?

1002
01:25:39.319 --> 01:25:52.239
Just kind of can just going back all right? January? Oh,

1003
01:25:52.359 --> 01:25:59.359
jee certainly got any eggs? This is last January. Third

1004
01:25:59.399 --> 01:26:01.520
of January? Do you have any Do you have ten

1005
01:26:01.600 --> 01:26:08.760
pound I can borrow? Third of January? Have any? Yeah? Painkillers?

1006
01:26:13.000 --> 01:26:20.000
Seventeenth December last year? Any painkillers? Fifteenth of December. You've

1007
01:26:20.000 --> 01:26:32.039
got a lighter? Please? Twenty third of October? Do you

1008
01:26:32.119 --> 01:26:41.880
have seventeen pound you can put in my count? Don't

1009
01:26:41.880 --> 01:26:49.159
have any money as I couldn't. Nineteenth of October? Can

1010
01:26:49.199 --> 01:26:51.399
I have six pound or eight pounds to borrow off you?

1011
01:26:53.800 --> 01:27:03.560
And then a big whatever? Information? I said zero cash?

1012
01:27:04.000 --> 01:27:09.399
Sixteenth the day before? Wow, can I borrow you ten

1013
01:27:09.479 --> 01:27:13.199
or fifteen pounds? I got thirty seven pence so I

1014
01:27:13.239 --> 01:27:18.479
can do that. Fifteenth of October last year, do you

1015
01:27:18.560 --> 01:27:25.039
have any newspapers I can use? Sixteenth of October? Have

1016
01:27:25.119 --> 01:27:32.199
you got any milk? Okay? What's the next one? Going back?

1017
01:27:39.880 --> 01:27:42.520
Seventh of October? See this is when this is at

1018
01:27:42.520 --> 01:27:45.079
a time when I was helping her. I had to

1019
01:27:45.079 --> 01:27:49.760
stop after this. My heating box is not working. I

1020
01:27:49.800 --> 01:27:53.640
was wondering if you know how to whatever? Just wondering.

1021
01:27:53.920 --> 01:27:56.319
This is seventh October, wondering if you have ten pounds

1022
01:27:56.319 --> 01:28:00.640
till Thursday? As I'm very not very well. So I

1023
01:28:00.760 --> 01:28:03.000
put ten pounds in a bank and I just texted

1024
01:28:03.079 --> 01:28:06.520
that to her. Oh sorry, I'm at a garage and

1025
01:28:06.520 --> 01:28:18.680
on a six pounds short. Could you help me out? Yeah?

1026
01:28:18.680 --> 01:28:24.920
It just goes on and on and on. It's weird.

1027
01:28:25.840 --> 01:28:29.680
Seventeenth of August last year, do you have thirty pounds?

1028
01:28:29.680 --> 01:28:47.319
I can board to get whatever? Where's you're going? Wow? Friday,

1029
01:28:47.720 --> 01:28:52.159
nineteenth of July, could you transfer me sixty nine pence?

1030
01:28:53.880 --> 01:28:55.920
And then a little while later can you put twenty

1031
01:28:55.920 --> 01:29:00.920
pounds on my account? And I give you cash? I

1032
01:29:00.960 --> 01:29:05.359
had no money in my accounsel. I couldn't thirty first

1033
01:29:05.359 --> 01:29:08.399
of July do you ever take measure? I don't know

1034
01:29:08.399 --> 01:29:22.520
what that was about? Random? Oh, this is the word.

1035
01:29:23.239 --> 01:29:26.479
Thirteenth of July. Could I connect my to your WiFi? Please?

1036
01:29:26.560 --> 01:29:31.479
My data is low? No no no no no no.

1037
01:29:31.520 --> 01:29:34.560
That you give someone your password for your WiFi, that's

1038
01:29:34.600 --> 01:29:37.239
it forever, then you're never going to get them off.

1039
01:29:38.079 --> 01:29:40.880
You can block people and you can change the password,

1040
01:29:40.960 --> 01:29:45.600
but blind me, I can't bother with that. Okay, so

1041
01:29:45.640 --> 01:29:57.600
we're going back to seventh of July. So wow, seventeenth

1042
01:29:57.880 --> 01:30:05.039
seventh of July. Oh yeah, I let my umbrella. I

1043
01:30:05.039 --> 01:30:09.439
didn't get my umbrella back then. I need you, really

1044
01:30:09.479 --> 01:30:14.119
need your help. I'm in a taxi and I only

1045
01:30:14.159 --> 01:30:17.319
have three pound and I put I have less than you.

1046
01:30:19.039 --> 01:30:34.159
So what do I do? Wow, it's weird just looking

1047
01:30:34.199 --> 01:30:40.239
back at it, it's uh oh yeah, what is this?

1048
01:30:40.479 --> 01:30:45.279
Back in God, this was like constant. This is a

1049
01:30:45.319 --> 01:30:55.680
long This is a twenty seventh, twenty seventh for June,

1050
01:30:56.039 --> 01:31:05.840
twenty seventh for June, So twenty sixth of June. I

1051
01:31:06.000 --> 01:31:07.640
just want to check your okay as there is an

1052
01:31:07.640 --> 01:31:11.439
ambulance outside at four m this morning. I'm okay and

1053
01:31:14.279 --> 01:31:16.680
very lot. I don't have money for fizzy drink or chocolate.

1054
01:31:19.600 --> 01:31:36.600
The ambulance wasn't for her anyway, So I got I

1055
01:31:36.720 --> 01:31:40.800
got some coke. I less some coke outside your door.

1056
01:31:40.840 --> 01:31:57.199
This is on the twenty seventh. Can you? Oh yeah?

1057
01:31:57.279 --> 01:32:08.039
Can you? So you want to borrow a fifty quid?

1058
01:32:09.079 --> 01:32:16.439
Could you buy me thirty for my prescription? And then

1059
01:32:16.520 --> 01:32:20.760
later on another fourteen pound? Wow? This is just silly,

1060
01:32:20.800 --> 01:32:24.279
isn't it. Oh well, I'll move on from that because

1061
01:32:25.760 --> 01:32:27.840
it's weird because she's only lived here for three months.

1062
01:32:28.279 --> 01:32:31.960
He's only moved in last monk. There's only been here

1063
01:32:31.960 --> 01:32:39.239
three days. So I think one of the downsides of

1064
01:32:39.319 --> 01:32:42.800
the Buddhism, I guess was, well, not a downside, but

1065
01:32:43.039 --> 01:32:47.279
I tried to help people. I guess one of the

1066
01:32:47.319 --> 01:32:52.840
downsides of helping people is more here than anywhere else.

1067
01:32:52.920 --> 01:32:58.119
Not here, but like in this area, people have sort

1068
01:32:58.119 --> 01:33:01.920
of took advantage of it, or took advantage of the situation.

1069
01:33:02.039 --> 01:33:07.359
And bit by bit I've managed to stop it. I'm

1070
01:33:07.359 --> 01:33:09.399
still getting asked for stuff, but I just say no.

1071
01:33:10.000 --> 01:33:12.319
I had another neighbor downstairs knock on my door when

1072
01:33:12.319 --> 01:33:16.479
I was in bed on Friday about eleven o'clock, asking

1073
01:33:16.520 --> 01:33:20.840
if I had twenty pound. She said, oh, I need,

1074
01:33:21.039 --> 01:33:25.000
I need some tobacco. If you got twenty pound, Well,

1075
01:33:25.039 --> 01:33:29.479
twenty pound doesn't buy tobacco, it's like thirty six pounds

1076
01:33:29.560 --> 01:33:31.800
or something, so twenty pound's not going to get you anything.

1077
01:33:32.640 --> 01:33:34.960
And I said, but she did, you know? She just

1078
01:33:35.000 --> 01:33:38.760
want And I said, no, she's okay, bye, So she

1079
01:33:38.760 --> 01:33:41.800
didn't hassle me for it. But like, I don't have

1080
01:33:41.800 --> 01:33:45.560
any money, I don't have any cash. I'm thinking of

1081
01:33:45.640 --> 01:33:48.600
getting a big sign sticking it on my door, my

1082
01:33:48.680 --> 01:33:52.439
front door. You know those what do those, you know

1083
01:33:52.479 --> 01:33:57.680
when a shop is empty, and they said this property

1084
01:33:57.720 --> 01:34:04.000
does not contain cash. Some shops had that done it

1085
01:34:04.079 --> 01:34:08.439
in the window when they're closed. I remember when I

1086
01:34:08.439 --> 01:34:11.359
worked in the chip shop, he always left the till

1087
01:34:11.399 --> 01:34:14.560
open and I said, why do you do that? Then

1088
01:34:15.199 --> 01:34:18.720
he said, because if someone does break in it, they

1089
01:34:18.760 --> 01:34:24.279
can just help themselves to because there was always like

1090
01:34:24.359 --> 01:34:27.479
a float, maybe twenty quid or something. They can help

1091
01:34:27.479 --> 01:34:32.199
themselves to that and leave. They haven't got a take,

1092
01:34:32.279 --> 01:34:34.399
they won't take the till with them. I think the

1093
01:34:34.439 --> 01:34:38.560
till was quite expensive, probably a few underquid, so they

1094
01:34:38.560 --> 01:34:41.279
won't break the till because generally they'll smash the till

1095
01:34:41.359 --> 01:34:44.760
up to get into it, even though underneath the till

1096
01:34:44.880 --> 01:34:46.760
was a little catch which you could push and it

1097
01:34:46.760 --> 01:34:50.880
would open it. I don't know if they still have

1098
01:34:51.000 --> 01:34:56.319
that end tills. They had it in a oh. When

1099
01:34:56.359 --> 01:35:00.239
I was in the comedy club, they had one which

1100
01:35:00.279 --> 01:35:05.880
was really old. For some reason, my boss liked it.

1101
01:35:05.880 --> 01:35:12.399
It didn't work at all, but it looked nice like wooden.

1102
01:35:13.880 --> 01:35:15.600
But you could open it from the bottom. So I

1103
01:35:15.600 --> 01:35:18.640
think maybe a lot of tills you can just open

1104
01:35:18.680 --> 01:35:21.680
them from the bottom, press a button or a lever

1105
01:35:21.840 --> 01:35:24.479
and they open, so you haven't got smash them and

1106
01:35:24.520 --> 01:35:27.199
break them or anything. I mean, listen, I'm not giving

1107
01:35:27.239 --> 01:35:32.399
advice to thieves. If he was to break into a shop,

1108
01:35:33.560 --> 01:35:41.159
here's my advice. No, not really, but yeah, this was

1109
01:35:41.199 --> 01:35:44.000
about Buddhism. It didn't really end up being about Buddhism,

1110
01:35:44.039 --> 01:35:49.560
did it. Not really? Not really, I replied to the

1111
01:35:49.640 --> 01:35:59.000
neighby downstairs or not, I can't remember. Wow, that's a

1112
01:35:59.039 --> 01:36:03.920
lot of it's sorry, Oka, I replied. There. The thing is,

1113
01:36:04.119 --> 01:36:06.239
if I do take her anything down like the other day,

1114
01:36:06.760 --> 01:36:08.239
I want to have a chat with her, just to

1115
01:36:08.239 --> 01:36:10.479
find out what's going on. So can I come in

1116
01:36:10.520 --> 01:36:17.000
and got no clothes on? I said, that's fine, And

1117
01:36:19.439 --> 01:36:23.560
doesn't talk to me, doesn't have any any conversation with

1118
01:36:23.560 --> 01:36:28.359
her or anything. It's just it's almost like she doesn't

1119
01:36:28.479 --> 01:36:32.720
like me at all. Yeah, she asks her stuff. I don't.

1120
01:36:32.760 --> 01:36:37.399
I don't kind of understand that. It's weird. It just

1121
01:36:37.399 --> 01:36:44.279
seems a bit strange. I did buy her television. That's

1122
01:36:44.279 --> 01:36:48.600
a long, a long while ago. That was the second

1123
01:36:48.640 --> 01:37:01.960
of June last year, second of June. Oh, yeah, she

1124
01:37:02.039 --> 01:37:04.159
wanted me to go. She asked me to go to television.

1125
01:37:04.560 --> 01:37:06.800
And she said I'd like one like yours or a

1126
01:37:06.840 --> 01:37:10.279
little smaller, And my answer was, my TV is huge,

1127
01:37:10.359 --> 01:37:13.359
there's no way I can. So I've got this on

1128
01:37:13.359 --> 01:37:15.399
a special offer and I paid for it over a

1129
01:37:15.439 --> 01:37:18.800
long time. But this was like over a grand or

1130
01:37:18.800 --> 01:37:24.039
maybe just under one thousand pounds. It's like, I think,

1131
01:37:24.640 --> 01:37:28.840
I don't know what size it is, seventy five eighty

1132
01:37:28.880 --> 01:37:31.680
five something like that, but she got I ended up

1133
01:37:31.680 --> 01:37:47.199
getting her a fifty five inch one. Wow. So yeah,

1134
01:37:47.279 --> 01:37:55.960
it's just not going to look when my very first message,

1135
01:37:57.039 --> 01:38:10.239
the very first message, eighteenth of May last year, eighteenth

1136
01:38:10.239 --> 01:38:13.000
of my very first message, So soon as she got

1137
01:38:13.000 --> 01:38:15.680
a message, this is probably the day I gave her

1138
01:38:16.039 --> 01:38:24.079
the telephone number. How are you? This is at half

1139
01:38:24.239 --> 01:38:28.600
six eighteenth, so you'd be a Saturday. Probably cool. Thanks,

1140
01:38:28.680 --> 01:38:32.000
just watching boxing. Okay, that's good. I'm just waiting to

1141
01:38:32.039 --> 01:38:34.119
see if my friend can borrow me twenty pounds to

1142
01:38:34.119 --> 01:38:48.520
get food. So I'm like, okay, so I must have

1143
01:38:48.640 --> 01:38:51.600
maybe a carder. So I ended up giving her that money.

1144
01:39:03.000 --> 01:39:22.800
H so yeah, oh dear, so yeah, I see. That's

1145
01:39:22.920 --> 01:39:26.600
the end of the recording. The end of the recording.

1146
01:39:27.520 --> 01:39:40.359
La La la La, La la la I'm feeling quite hungry.

1147
01:39:41.520 --> 01:39:44.960
Anyone else, I can't be bothered to go out though,

1148
01:39:45.319 --> 01:39:47.720
I might have to cancel going out. I'm not really

1149
01:39:47.880 --> 01:39:50.800
in the mood. I don't want to go out or

1150
01:39:50.920 --> 01:40:00.560
don't really don't, but I don't know or don't. Yeah

1151
01:40:05.119 --> 01:40:15.319
did it? Here wee go walking down the street. Mm hmmm.

1152
01:40:26.000 --> 01:40:41.479
Oh quite tired? Mm hmm how interesting.

1153
01:40:43.079 --> 01:40:59.920
Deep d d dede. So I'm just looking at some

1154
01:41:00.119 --> 01:41:17.960
and online. So really that's pretty much the end of

1155
01:41:18.000 --> 01:41:28.239
the record. And I do believe is it time to

1156
01:41:28.319 --> 01:41:30.640
eat though? Because when did I eat last nine? Ten?

1157
01:41:30.840 --> 01:41:34.399
And yeah, maybe it is. Yeah, I think I'm going

1158
01:41:34.479 --> 01:41:37.359
to cancel my meeting. I don't want to go out

1159
01:41:40.399 --> 01:41:42.239
after all these nice things I said about him. I

1160
01:41:42.399 --> 01:41:57.239
just coming bothered. It's not just that I just can't. Yeah,

1161
01:41:58.600 --> 01:42:06.319
you know not can't you bother? That's not the right word.

1162
01:42:12.600 --> 01:42:21.359
Am hm. Oh, I have suffing to eat and then

1163
01:42:21.399 --> 01:42:30.960
I see how I feel afterwards. So yeah, thank you

1164
01:42:31.000 --> 01:42:36.600
for listening. I feel like I really wound down this

1165
01:42:36.680 --> 01:42:45.840
recording to almost to stand still. It's real boo, So

1166
01:42:46.000 --> 01:42:50.520
thank you for listening. Remember to be kind to yourself

1167
01:42:50.640 --> 01:42:54.680
because you do deserve to be happy. Remember to be

1168
01:42:56.119 --> 01:43:05.159
gentle with yourself. You deserve to feel safe lots of

1169
01:43:05.159 --> 01:43:25.840
love by relax in a more deep and meaningful way,

1170
01:43:28.319 --> 01:43:33.399
maybe in a way that can not just allow you

1171
01:43:33.840 --> 01:43:43.880
to feel calmer now and throughout the time we spend

1172
01:43:43.960 --> 01:43:51.920
together here, not just relaxed at the end of the

1173
01:43:52.000 --> 01:43:57.359
recording when it's finished and you can enjoy that sense

1174
01:43:57.479 --> 01:44:14.119
of comfort and peace, but also I think it would

1175
01:44:14.119 --> 01:44:30.000
be nice to have those feelings of relaxation continue for

1176
01:44:30.159 --> 01:44:42.079
longer after the recording has ended, so that you can

1177
01:44:43.720 --> 01:44:54.359
still benefit from listening to my voice, maybe in a

1178
01:44:54.399 --> 01:45:06.920
few hours time, perhaps tomorrow, and then by listening regularly,

1179
01:45:10.000 --> 01:45:14.640
especially if you find like some people do and myself

1180
01:45:14.680 --> 01:45:19.239
as well. I sometimes I find one particular recording that

1181
01:45:19.439 --> 01:45:28.159
really resonates with me, and I just listen to it

1182
01:45:28.199 --> 01:45:41.079
over and over again every morning, every evening. There was

1183
01:45:41.079 --> 01:45:48.199
this recording from We're going back to about nineteen ninety nine.

1184
01:45:48.520 --> 01:45:53.840
It was it wasn't hypnosis, but it was a guided visualizations.

1185
01:45:53.960 --> 01:46:00.960
It kind of was hypnosis, really, and I managed to

1186
01:46:01.039 --> 01:46:04.520
find it again and it still has the same effect

1187
01:46:05.039 --> 01:46:16.680
on me. And part of it was the person's voice

1188
01:46:17.079 --> 01:46:27.319
relaxed me just felt so peaceful and I'd look forward

1189
01:46:27.720 --> 01:46:35.279
to listening to her in the morning and in the evening,

1190
01:46:40.800 --> 01:46:49.840
and I knew before even pressing the play button that

1191
01:46:49.920 --> 01:46:53.399
as soon as I'd done that, pressed the play button.

1192
01:46:54.159 --> 01:47:05.159
This was in the days of CD players pressed the

1193
01:47:05.199 --> 01:47:10.920
play button, ifact it might have even been a tape

1194
01:47:11.359 --> 01:47:15.560
tape recorder. I'd lie down on the bed and then

1195
01:47:20.880 --> 01:47:33.960
even without necessarily listening to her words because I had

1196
01:47:33.960 --> 01:47:43.520
them memorized. Really, it was as if my body knew

1197
01:47:44.479 --> 01:47:56.880
exactly what to do, and the muscles just almost went

1198
01:47:56.920 --> 01:48:26.119
into automatic relaxation, and I remember my mind would slow down. Now. Now,

1199
01:48:26.640 --> 01:48:32.920
I was listening to this recording in the early days

1200
01:48:32.920 --> 01:48:43.000
of learning hypnosis, and long before I ever made any

1201
01:48:43.079 --> 01:48:48.520
videos or audio recordings myself, because I didn't start doing

1202
01:48:48.560 --> 01:49:02.600
that till two thousand and six, I knew, I knew

1203
01:49:02.920 --> 01:49:15.720
how helpful I found being able to just let go,

1204
01:49:18.720 --> 01:49:24.119
to have that trust in the person that I'm listening to,

1205
01:49:31.760 --> 01:49:39.840
knowing that it's going to be just as relaxing, if

1206
01:49:39.920 --> 01:49:49.319
not more so. Each time you hear my voice, you

1207
01:49:49.399 --> 01:50:01.079
may feel the same. Some people have been listening to

1208
01:50:01.079 --> 01:50:15.000
me for over a decade, maybe not solidly, obviously, not

1209
01:50:15.039 --> 01:50:21.359
twenty four hours a day, but maybe people come back.

1210
01:50:23.159 --> 01:50:38.239
Some people maybe listen every day. That's something that I

1211
01:50:38.279 --> 01:50:49.439
do which you may not realize by listening.

1212
01:50:49.840 --> 01:50:50.079
Is.

1213
01:50:54.039 --> 01:51:08.359
When I record these recordings. Now, for example, I also

1214
01:51:09.880 --> 01:51:21.119
am affected by the words that I say. So if

1215
01:51:21.119 --> 01:51:31.520
I set you focus on your feet, notice your feet relaxing,

1216
01:51:35.000 --> 01:51:42.920
I will be focusing on my feet. I will be

1217
01:51:43.000 --> 01:52:01.119
noticing my feet relaxing. If I said focus in your hands,

1218
01:52:03.880 --> 01:52:13.399
and maybe notice the difference between each hand. Perhaps notice

1219
01:52:13.520 --> 01:52:19.600
the the air in the room, the temperature of the room.

1220
01:52:21.479 --> 01:52:31.880
On the backs of your hands. You may start to

1221
01:52:32.439 --> 01:52:40.520
notice what almost feels like a very light breeze, even

1222
01:52:40.560 --> 01:52:44.800
though there may not be any type of breeze at

1223
01:52:44.840 --> 01:52:57.800
all where you are right now. And as you become

1224
01:52:58.439 --> 01:53:12.840
aware of your hands, I'm also aware of how relaxed

1225
01:53:13.119 --> 01:53:36.920
my hands are feeling now. And when it comes to

1226
01:53:38.439 --> 01:53:44.479
potentially drifting off to sleep, which may be the reason

1227
01:53:44.800 --> 01:54:03.479
you're listening, I also feel drowsy when I make these recordings.

1228
01:54:05.760 --> 01:54:22.279
I also notice my mind drifting. In fact, at times

1229
01:54:24.199 --> 01:54:38.399
I've actually fallen asleep without even noticing, and then I

1230
01:54:38.520 --> 01:54:49.840
carry on talking. And it's only where I listen back

1231
01:54:50.079 --> 01:54:59.079
to do the editing I hear snoring, and I think

1232
01:54:59.439 --> 01:55:08.640
I don't remember, but snoring I remember talking. Is this

1233
01:55:08.800 --> 01:55:16.119
snoring was a pick turned up? That's why I sound

1234
01:55:16.239 --> 01:55:25.960
like when I snare, how I get really into the

1235
01:55:25.960 --> 01:55:44.119
whole experience. I don't know how you feel. How relaxed

1236
01:55:44.239 --> 01:55:54.359
do you feel in your feet? How relaxed you feel

1237
01:55:54.560 --> 01:56:21.159
in your hands. I have noticed more and more that

1238
01:56:21.359 --> 01:56:37.560
the more relaxed, deeper level of comfort you feel, the

1239
01:56:37.760 --> 01:56:58.359
easier your breathing becomes. It's almost like that additional muscle relaxation.

1240
01:57:02.680 --> 01:57:23.680
So this allows you the breve easier without necessarily focusing

1241
01:57:25.880 --> 01:57:51.520
on your breath, however, being able to notice the ease

1242
01:57:54.920 --> 01:58:21.520
in which you breathe so naturally. You breathe so very

1243
01:58:21.760 --> 01:59:10.479
easily and smoothly. Whenever I imagine my breathing improving, when

1244
01:59:10.520 --> 01:59:25.760
I've got my eyes closed, I tend to visualize a

1245
01:59:25.920 --> 01:59:42.520
beautiful field with trees and flowers producing all that life

1246
01:59:42.640 --> 02:00:18.239
giving oxygen. It feels nice too, if nothing else, just

1247
02:00:18.680 --> 02:00:52.720
taking some time away from everything, enjoying that feeling of

1248
02:00:56.640 --> 02:01:43.520
peace serenity with a joyful heart. Time seems to just

1249
02:01:45.359 --> 02:02:29.399
drip by so very slowly, relaxed, so deeply peaceful, completely

1250
02:02:35.279 --> 02:03:36.960
unattached to any thoughts whatsoever in this moment, completely free,

1251
02:03:37.720 --> 02:04:29.119
noticing that your mind has slowed down. Slowed down because

1252
02:04:29.279 --> 02:04:57.880
nothing really requires your attention. You can enjoy the physical

1253
02:04:58.199 --> 02:05:15.359
sensations of allowed the stress to rip out of your body,

1254
02:05:16.319 --> 02:05:39.319
to appear out of every part of your body, and

1255
02:05:39.680 --> 02:06:19.199
being released from your brain in your mind slowly but surely,

1256
02:06:26.039 --> 02:07:13.880
the muscles se lex relax rex so very deeply, relacs

1257
02:07:19.119 --> 02:07:44.520
so deeply, And the feelings, the pleasant feelings in your

1258
02:07:44.800 --> 02:08:12.640
arms and shoulders, deepening each part of your body further

1259
02:08:17.600 --> 02:08:50.920
and deeper and deeper. Noticing the feelings in the back

1260
02:08:50.960 --> 02:09:53.359
of your neck, feelings in your wrists, muscles in front

1261
02:09:53.439 --> 02:10:47.279
of your body. I also feeling peaceful deeply. There's a

1262
02:10:47.439 --> 02:11:29.279
sense of peace spreads through your fairy core. Even when you.

1263
02:11:32.199 --> 02:11:48.359
Focus on your mind, your mind becomes.

1264
02:11:55.000 --> 02:13:17.840
Bef and slower. Heeven deep relaxing, so very slow. His stomach,

1265
02:13:31.920 --> 02:14:19.600
it's Fin's stomach. You're back. Notice Notice how relaxed you'd

1266
02:14:19.840 --> 02:14:58.159
now fear in the hole of your back. His spy

1267
02:15:02.279 --> 02:15:07.000
from your brain all the way down the middle of

1268
02:15:07.039 --> 02:15:26.760
your back, sending and receiving millions of messages every day,

1269
02:15:29.800 --> 02:16:50.319
deepcomfort increasing deeply relaxed, your knees les, spreading those signals

1270
02:16:50.600 --> 02:16:59.280
down a spine or cord into air, every part of

1271
02:16:59.399 --> 02:17:44.719
your gooding yeh, your shins and your car missles. We're

1272
02:17:44.799 --> 02:18:15.440
outpers feelings of peace and tranquility spreading through your body,

1273
02:18:19.000 --> 02:18:35.280
tips of your toes, to your eyes, your fingers, all

1274
02:18:35.280 --> 02:19:37.559
the way to your lower back. Lettinger reatinker peace, drifting

1275
02:19:45.000 --> 02:20:13.520
mind just wounding away. Happy to let go, Let go completely,

1276
02:20:15.879 --> 02:21:13.920
let go, so tranquil, the whole body enjoying a censor,

1277
02:21:38.639 --> 02:23:35.239
lett him go, he even more peace, enjoy the space,

1278
02:23:37.559 --> 02:24:19.399
this space of peace and safety. So fury fy relaxed,

1279
02:25:49.159 --> 02:26:13.920
lessing God. Maybe we can just focus on the different

1280
02:26:14.280 --> 02:26:49.079
parts of your body, just to notice your forehead and

1281
02:26:49.319 --> 02:27:55.799
your eyes uture so loose, noticing the sense of complete freedom,

1282
02:28:07.799 --> 02:30:04.120
absolute freedom, presta peace for energy, peace to gray, so

1283
02:30:04.319 --> 02:31:14.639
much ease, yer lease. You may have or may not

1284
02:31:14.879 --> 02:32:16.520
have noticed your mind drifting peaceful, movely, even more deeply

1285
02:32:22.040 --> 02:33:09.760
in the direction of total blissful pace, blissful pace, raft

1286
02:33:57.719 --> 02:34:43.040
out to pace. Come on, so calm, let him go,

1287
02:35:07.920 --> 02:36:18.879
peace with mind relaxed forty sir, relaxed, so relaxed. Your

1288
02:36:19.079 --> 02:36:52.000
body feels almost invisible. So very relaxed. I'm peaceful, so

1289
02:37:00.040 --> 02:37:00.639
you Saul.

1290
02:37:16.239 --> 02:37:53.879
Real liquor h M, so peaceful, son of fair fair face.

1291
02:37:59.680 --> 02:37:59.719
Ed.

1292
02:37:59.799 --> 02:38:07.120
You could start to notice that you are feeling more relaxed,

1293
02:38:10.159 --> 02:38:19.879
even though I've not purposely focused your mind upon that

1294
02:38:21.239 --> 02:38:27.319
sense of physical comfort that is growing within you throughout

1295
02:38:27.440 --> 02:38:40.239
your body, and your mind starts to slow down, and

1296
02:38:40.360 --> 02:38:47.840
that could be almost in recognition of I guess my

1297
02:38:48.120 --> 02:39:02.840
speech not being particularly fast, and things just really feel calmer.

1298
02:39:06.399 --> 02:39:14.360
Just by listening to my voice, you give yourself an

1299
02:39:14.399 --> 02:39:22.360
opportunity to take a break from the day, take a

1300
02:39:22.440 --> 02:39:30.120
break from your life as it is, and to give

1301
02:39:30.159 --> 02:39:38.239
yourself a rest, giving yourself permission to take some time

1302
02:39:38.399 --> 02:39:45.840
off and to allow your body to relax and allow

1303
02:39:46.040 --> 02:39:56.360
your mind to slow down, which in turn releases the

1304
02:39:56.559 --> 02:40:01.000
tension and he stresses that you had in your body.

1305
02:40:07.000 --> 02:40:10.879
It's almost as if the parts of your body just

1306
02:40:11.159 --> 02:40:22.840
open up, allowing the negativity out and at the same

1307
02:40:23.000 --> 02:40:34.280
time replacing that negativity with positive heathing energy, which then

1308
02:40:34.479 --> 02:40:43.600
fills your body up and your mind to also starts

1309
02:40:43.760 --> 02:40:59.680
to appreciate those feelings of increasing confidence, an almost up

1310
02:41:00.000 --> 02:41:15.600
if didn't feeling positive healing, an energy that spreads through

1311
02:41:15.680 --> 02:41:26.319
your body like a wave of comfort. And all this

1312
02:41:26.680 --> 02:41:38.719
comes from just allowing yourself a few minutes, maybe half

1313
02:41:38.799 --> 02:41:42.600
an hour, however long you want it to be, to

1314
02:41:42.959 --> 02:41:56.760
just rest and allow your mind and your body to

1315
02:41:56.879 --> 02:42:13.479
almost reset itself to the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness,

1316
02:42:17.760 --> 02:42:27.120
which allows more room for feelings of pleasure and happiness

1317
02:42:31.159 --> 02:42:40.000
to move around your body and into your mind, almost

1318
02:42:40.799 --> 02:42:45.360
as if your mind and your body are sinking together,

1319
02:42:49.639 --> 02:42:59.360
almost mirroring each other with that growing positivity and calmness,

1320
02:43:04.399 --> 02:43:11.600
And it feels nice. It really does feel nice to

1321
02:43:11.840 --> 02:43:17.520
know that you are the one that has allowed yourself

1322
02:43:21.000 --> 02:43:33.159
to feel more comfort and to experience more of this

1323
02:43:35.000 --> 02:43:50.159
deep relaxation spreading throughout your body. And as I focus

1324
02:43:51.719 --> 02:43:57.479
on each part of your body, you can notice that

1325
02:43:57.680 --> 02:44:12.200
that part becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on it.

1326
02:44:14.760 --> 02:44:24.399
It becomes even more calm and comfortable just by focusing.

1327
02:44:28.479 --> 02:44:34.239
And as I move down your body, starting at your head,

1328
02:44:36.920 --> 02:44:43.639
the parts that you've already focused on will continue to

1329
02:44:43.799 --> 02:44:51.440
relax deeply, and those parts that we've not yet focused

1330
02:44:51.520 --> 02:45:04.840
on were just automatically release any remain intention in anticipation

1331
02:45:05.280 --> 02:45:18.280
of even more comfort. About to come. Now. I'm going

1332
02:45:18.360 --> 02:45:25.280
to start by focusing on your forehead. Just being aware

1333
02:45:25.600 --> 02:45:34.200
of the feelings of your forehead and any background sounds

1334
02:45:35.959 --> 02:45:40.840
like mister Herbert the Pigeon can just allow you to

1335
02:45:41.000 --> 02:45:48.239
feel even more relaxed. Just means you're in the moment.

1336
02:45:51.399 --> 02:45:56.719
This isn't this isn't a sterile environment. This is the world.

1337
02:46:00.200 --> 02:46:06.239
I live in the countryside, so there's lots of nature

1338
02:46:06.760 --> 02:46:17.239
sounds around. So as you focus on your forehead, just

1339
02:46:17.520 --> 02:46:25.280
notice how it becomes even more relaxed as you focus

1340
02:46:27.600 --> 02:46:32.079
only on my voice and that part of your body.

1341
02:46:37.239 --> 02:46:45.559
Moving down to your eyes, focusing on your eyes, noticing

1342
02:46:48.040 --> 02:46:57.719
how your eyelids feel so heavy yet so light at

1343
02:46:57.760 --> 02:47:04.200
the same time, and all the muscles around your eyes

1344
02:47:04.479 --> 02:47:18.879
relaxing completely. Moving your focus down to your mouth, your lips,

1345
02:47:19.360 --> 02:47:26.000
your tongue, your teeth, and your gumbs, the whole of

1346
02:47:26.159 --> 02:47:40.920
your mouth relaxing, calm and loose. As you focus now

1347
02:47:41.760 --> 02:47:48.639
on your jaw, not just a part of your jaw

1348
02:47:48.719 --> 02:47:53.159
near your mouth and your chin, but all the way

1349
02:47:53.280 --> 02:48:00.280
up the size of your face to your ears, all

1350
02:48:00.920 --> 02:48:27.920
of your jaw feeding more relaxed and calm. Focusing on

1351
02:48:28.120 --> 02:48:33.520
your neck, the front of your neck and your throat

1352
02:48:35.719 --> 02:48:46.479
relaxing and loose and calm. The sides of your neck,

1353
02:48:48.559 --> 02:48:55.479
the right and left side of your neck relax and

1354
02:48:57.040 --> 02:49:10.639
loose and calm. And now the back of your neck.

1355
02:49:13.959 --> 02:49:23.959
Focusing on the back of your neck, letting go of

1356
02:49:24.159 --> 02:49:31.040
any tension that may have been there before, and enjoying

1357
02:49:31.440 --> 02:49:44.319
that sense of increasing comfort and release that you can

1358
02:49:44.479 --> 02:49:55.559
experience in the back of your neck. Moving down your

1359
02:49:55.719 --> 02:50:02.680
back and moving either side and if your spine right

1360
02:50:02.840 --> 02:50:07.760
from the top of your back all the way down

1361
02:50:08.399 --> 02:50:20.799
to the bottom of your back, down to your lower back,

1362
02:50:25.879 --> 02:50:32.920
and as you move up and down your spine, you

1363
02:50:33.040 --> 02:50:40.159
can feel the muscles either side of your spine relaxing

1364
02:50:40.840 --> 02:50:54.239
even more. And as those muscles relax, that sense of

1365
02:50:54.520 --> 02:51:05.159
comfort starts to spread outwards from your spine into both

1366
02:51:05.360 --> 02:51:12.399
sides of your back, the top of your back, the

1367
02:51:12.600 --> 02:51:20.959
middle and your lower back. And as you scan gently

1368
02:51:21.520 --> 02:51:28.840
and slowly up and down your back, there's the muscles

1369
02:51:29.040 --> 02:51:34.120
in the top of your back relax and become looser.

1370
02:51:38.479 --> 02:51:44.479
The muscles in the middle of your back also seem

1371
02:51:44.600 --> 02:51:54.079
to just almost divide from each other, separating and almost melting,

1372
02:52:00.000 --> 02:52:05.840
And in your lower back it seems to be an

1373
02:52:05.920 --> 02:52:20.120
extra special feeling of comfort. The spreads into your hips,

1374
02:52:22.399 --> 02:52:30.239
sit down your lower back, into your hips, into the

1375
02:52:30.440 --> 02:52:39.200
area where your cosicks are, and into your buttocks, and

1376
02:52:39.280 --> 02:52:48.479
all those muscles that spread from your lower back into

1377
02:52:48.559 --> 02:53:02.000
your hip area start to melt, start to really let go.

1378
02:53:08.600 --> 02:53:13.559
I don't even know where about. To focus on your shoulders.

1379
02:53:15.319 --> 02:53:22.319
Your back and your spine will continue to let go,

1380
02:53:25.399 --> 02:53:41.000
continue to relax so calmly. And as you focus on

1381
02:53:41.159 --> 02:53:54.040
your shoulders, you may notice that they're already feeling really loose.

1382
02:53:58.879 --> 02:54:24.840
They're already yea, feeding calm and feeding those muscles. Then

1383
02:54:25.040 --> 02:54:37.440
move from your neck into your shoulders. Feel so soft

1384
02:54:40.719 --> 02:55:06.280
and gentle, so smooth and calm, and the feeling in

1385
02:55:06.360 --> 02:55:21.200
your shoulders seens to spread deep into your shoulders, that

1386
02:55:21.520 --> 02:55:30.399
sense of relaxation, not just traveling deeply into your muscles,

1387
02:55:33.840 --> 02:55:47.040
but also relaxing the bones and moving all away to

1388
02:55:47.319 --> 02:55:56.239
underneath your arms, relaxing that whole area between the tops

1389
02:55:56.360 --> 02:56:10.760
of your shoulders and underneath your arms healing. You feel

1390
02:56:10.959 --> 02:56:24.399
so relaxed and comfortable in your shoulders, which sends that

1391
02:56:26.680 --> 02:56:46.440
deep healing message into your arms, and you may feel

1392
02:56:48.239 --> 02:56:53.280
almost as if your arms are not even there. Because

1393
02:56:53.399 --> 02:57:37.000
they're so relaxed, so deeply relaxed, so so calm, so loose,

1394
02:57:44.479 --> 02:57:54.719
not feeling spreading all the way down your arms, two

1395
02:57:54.959 --> 02:58:24.520
elbows bluding, your elbows, circumforts, spreads or away into rests,

1396
02:58:27.399 --> 02:58:42.479
your forearments, and your wrists being so heavy, yet at

1397
02:58:42.680 --> 02:59:23.200
the same time so light and gentle. Frey. You see

1398
02:59:25.639 --> 03:00:04.319
now on your hands, my hands, peaceful in your hands,

1399
03:00:22.799 --> 03:00:41.799
there's a sense of real peace. It just seems to

1400
03:00:46.079 --> 03:01:24.520
feel so familiar when your hands relax deeply fes A

1401
03:01:24.799 --> 03:03:01.959
thing is you things? Sidently you think it tips Moving

1402
03:03:02.319 --> 03:03:20.719
your attention to the front of your body, so comfortable,

1403
03:03:31.719 --> 03:04:59.479
Moving your focus to your legs. Why muscus in your thighs,

1404
03:05:16.200 --> 03:05:58.639
your knees so relaxed, you carved mussels and just chans compresedly.

1405
03:06:51.120 --> 03:08:19.239
Four see in your feet, sir, peaceful, so calm, so peaceful,

1406
03:08:26.399 --> 03:09:11.200
so calm, sir peaceful, mhm, so calm, so peace fall

1407
03:09:19.799 --> 03:09:43.479
RelA sin peace fall, so calm, loving that deep relaxation,

1408
03:09:45.159 --> 03:10:01.959
to spread your chest in your storch, so rel letting

1409
03:10:02.479 --> 03:10:20.680
go of everything. So I'm gonna start counting down now,

1410
03:10:23.360 --> 03:10:32.040
from twenty down to one. You can imagine in a

1411
03:10:32.120 --> 03:10:37.920
way it's like just walking down some steps and each

1412
03:10:38.120 --> 03:10:43.760
step or twenty steps, and each step represents a level

1413
03:10:44.319 --> 03:10:57.040
of comfort. Each step represents a deepening of that comfort,

1414
03:11:03.680 --> 03:11:08.719
and the fairvies you walk down those steps, that the

1415
03:11:08.959 --> 03:11:20.079
deeper and more relaxed you feel. So starting with number

1416
03:11:20.200 --> 03:16:52.040
twenty twenty, nineteen eighty seventeen sixteen us fifteen fourteen four

1417
03:16:52.440 --> 03:26:10.680
two too well five eight nine hey seven four five

1418
03:27:29.680 --> 03:32:04.719
four two one. No, as you focus on your eyes,

1419
03:32:14.280 --> 03:32:24.600
We're gonna count down from ten down to one, focusing

1420
03:32:25.920 --> 03:32:34.200
just on your eyes, your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes,

1421
03:32:37.239 --> 03:32:45.920
your eye walls themselves, our whole area that makes up

1422
03:32:46.000 --> 03:33:02.040
your eye. And as we count down from ten down

1423
03:33:02.159 --> 03:33:15.120
to one, whilst focus in on your eyes, you'll become

1424
03:33:17.200 --> 03:33:29.280
twice is relaxed with each number counting down, and you

1425
03:33:29.440 --> 03:33:37.000
may find the all you want to do is just

1426
03:33:39.040 --> 03:33:46.200
drift off to sleep. And if that's what you want,

1427
03:33:49.239 --> 03:34:02.200
then just allow yourself to do that. Now, focusing on

1428
03:34:02.360 --> 03:34:09.680
your eyes, I'm going to begin counting down from ten

1429
03:34:10.079 --> 03:37:18.840
down to one, right now, ten nine eight seven say

1430
03:38:23.040 --> 03:43:38.200
five four three two one. So counting down from ten

1431
03:43:38.319 --> 03:43:59.000
to one ten nine eight seven six five four three

1432
03:44:01.920 --> 03:44:13.959
two one, And maybe that was a bit too quick

1433
03:44:14.559 --> 03:44:18.440
in order to relax. Maybe it's a bit too fast

1434
03:44:18.760 --> 03:44:27.559
for you to notice the calming of your body, maybe

1435
03:44:28.360 --> 03:44:32.239
even a little bit of pressure there, Like you're counting

1436
03:44:32.360 --> 03:44:34.799
down from ten to one. Would you expect me to

1437
03:44:35.079 --> 03:44:40.000
do man, expect me to stick go floppy just because

1438
03:44:40.040 --> 03:44:49.239
you're counting down. We could try it again, but this

1439
03:44:49.479 --> 03:44:55.760
time I go this slower. This time, as you focus

1440
03:44:56.159 --> 03:45:00.760
on the whole of your body before you focus on

1441
03:45:00.840 --> 03:45:11.200
your legs. Just notice how your body does start to

1442
03:45:11.719 --> 03:45:22.840
feel more relaxed with every number that I count down

1443
03:45:26.280 --> 03:46:55.680
ten nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three two one,

1444
03:47:07.040 --> 03:47:12.719
And just notice how how you feel generally, how your

1445
03:47:12.760 --> 03:47:27.600
body feels. It's not necessarily even about counting down from

1446
03:47:27.719 --> 03:47:35.360
ten to one. It's that space that you have, that

1447
03:47:38.000 --> 03:47:58.879
space between being active physically or mentally to just sitting

1448
03:47:59.159 --> 03:48:03.920
or lying down, just being there, not doing anything, not

1449
03:48:04.239 --> 03:48:11.239
saying anything, nor needing to think about anything. So it

1450
03:48:11.360 --> 03:48:14.920
opens up a space, you know, a bit of a space,

1451
03:48:15.920 --> 03:48:25.719
a gap. And the more I comed down from ten

1452
03:48:25.799 --> 03:48:33.200
to one, the bigger that gap becomes. So there's that

1453
03:48:33.440 --> 03:48:46.040
gap of calmness, of comfort, relaxation. It's a nice feeling

1454
03:48:51.600 --> 03:48:59.920
and it moves those stresses or discomforts physically or most

1455
03:49:00.040 --> 03:49:11.760
and he moves them away. Allows you.

1456
03:49:14.440 --> 03:49:14.959
To just.

1457
03:49:17.920 --> 03:49:24.680
Slow down, someone to count again from ten down to one,

1458
03:49:25.079 --> 03:49:35.319
and notice that gap widening, the gap, And as it widens,

1459
03:49:35.399 --> 03:49:41.440
it's almost like the stress and attention falls into the

1460
03:49:41.520 --> 03:50:51.280
gap and gives you that distance, that space. Now ten nine, eight, seven, six, five,

1461
03:51:02.399 --> 03:52:14.559
four three two one. How does your body feel now?

1462
03:52:27.280 --> 03:52:42.559
Can you notice that you feeling calmer, the feeling more

1463
03:52:43.000 --> 03:53:10.399
relaxed as we now focus on your legs, just your legs.

1464
03:53:26.360 --> 03:53:46.520
We're just gonna start with focusing on your thighs. Of course,

1465
03:53:46.639 --> 03:53:51.520
it's not the most exciting thing to be doing, because

1466
03:53:54.959 --> 03:53:57.600
I'm sure like most of your body is not a

1467
03:53:57.760 --> 03:54:10.159
lot going on right now. Just focusing on the whole

1468
03:54:10.280 --> 03:54:16.680
of your thighs, the tops of your thighs, the sides

1469
03:54:16.840 --> 03:54:23.799
of your thighs, the bottoms of your thighs, your outer thighs,

1470
03:54:23.920 --> 03:54:28.840
and your inner thighs. Basically the whole of your thigh

1471
03:54:28.959 --> 03:54:37.719
that leads into your hip and it goes down to

1472
03:54:37.920 --> 03:54:51.959
your knee joints. Now, this is a big area. It's

1473
03:54:52.000 --> 03:54:57.479
a very heavy area. It's very strong, probably the strongest

1474
03:54:58.479 --> 03:55:11.600
muscles in your body are in your thighs. But I

1475
03:55:11.719 --> 03:55:20.000
don't think we perhaps give enough attention to our thighs.

1476
03:55:25.959 --> 03:55:36.719
Perhaps we don't acknowledge how important our thighs are to

1477
03:55:36.920 --> 03:55:57.520
our lives, how much they actually do for us all

1478
03:55:57.639 --> 03:56:08.079
through our lives. And it may seem to sound really weird,

1479
03:56:08.159 --> 03:56:16.559
but I think that all of our body parts, especially

1480
03:56:16.680 --> 03:56:24.319
our thighs, need some TLC, a bit of love shown,

1481
03:56:25.319 --> 03:56:43.280
a bit of acknowledgement. I thank you gratitude for what

1482
03:56:43.399 --> 03:56:52.479
our thighs do for us. And I know this may

1483
03:56:52.719 --> 03:56:58.360
sound a bit strange. Maybe you think, why am I

1484
03:56:59.120 --> 03:57:02.319
short hot should be in the garden hugging a tree

1485
03:57:02.479 --> 03:57:10.600
or something. Well, it's hard to set a microphone up

1486
03:57:10.680 --> 03:57:14.000
on a tree. That's why I'm doing this indoors. Otherwise

1487
03:57:14.040 --> 03:57:17.399
I would be outside hugging a tree. Now I can't

1488
03:57:17.440 --> 03:57:26.200
see the television from the tree. If you move down

1489
03:57:26.239 --> 03:57:36.000
to your knees, getting such an important part, and I

1490
03:57:36.120 --> 03:57:42.920
think we don't necessarily I'll speak for myself here, I

1491
03:57:43.000 --> 03:57:48.159
don't necessarily appreciate all that my knees do for me

1492
03:57:49.440 --> 03:57:54.600
until I have a problem with my knee. It's occasionally

1493
03:57:54.639 --> 03:57:59.600
if I ever maybe I'll bash it, or it's aching

1494
03:57:59.760 --> 03:58:06.159
for some reason. It's then that I realize how much

1495
03:58:06.319 --> 03:58:09.959
it does. You know, the benefit of being able to

1496
03:58:10.879 --> 03:58:20.079
use my legs without any kind of physical discomfort is

1497
03:58:20.920 --> 03:58:29.639
a beautiful thing that's possibly not appreciated until it's temporarily removed.

1498
03:58:30.799 --> 03:58:37.799
You know that's comfort. But as you focus on your knees,

1499
03:58:39.959 --> 03:58:45.600
regardless of how your knees feel, you can have that

1500
03:58:45.879 --> 03:58:52.000
sense of gratitude and love to your knees for all

1501
03:58:52.159 --> 03:59:04.360
that they do for you, And you can still have

1502
03:59:04.520 --> 03:59:08.680
that attention on your thighs and maybe notice how your

1503
03:59:08.799 --> 03:59:20.639
thighs feel. Maybe you've noticed that they are relaxing more

1504
03:59:22.440 --> 03:59:34.040
deeply as you focus now on the bottoms of your legs,

1505
03:59:34.520 --> 03:59:39.879
your shins and your calf muscles and the bones between

1506
03:59:40.120 --> 03:59:46.280
your knees and your feet incorporate, and of course your

1507
03:59:46.399 --> 03:59:59.479
ankles so important. Anyone that's had even like the slightest

1508
04:00:00.120 --> 04:00:07.440
brain of an ankle knows how much we take our

1509
04:00:07.680 --> 04:00:16.239
ankles for granted. And it's kind of strange in a

1510
04:00:16.280 --> 04:00:21.840
way when you think that. You know, logically, our wrists

1511
04:00:22.040 --> 04:00:24.879
are a lot thinner than the rest of our arms,

1512
04:00:26.000 --> 04:00:29.479
which is okay, it doesn't I can't see any problem

1513
04:00:29.520 --> 04:00:34.399
with that because we're just picking stuff up. But our

1514
04:00:34.520 --> 04:00:40.319
ankles so much thinner than the rest of our legs,

1515
04:00:46.760 --> 04:00:51.200
and from a physics perspective or logical even it doesn't

1516
04:00:51.239 --> 04:00:57.239
really make sense that all this weight would ultimately be

1517
04:00:58.360 --> 04:01:08.360
resting on your ankles then leading to your feet, that

1518
04:01:08.959 --> 04:01:17.159
thin area, a thin bone. Yeah, it does so much

1519
04:01:17.280 --> 04:01:24.319
great work. Supports us, supports our body for a lifetime,

1520
04:01:29.079 --> 04:01:38.600
helps us to balance, It helps you to get around

1521
04:01:38.760 --> 04:01:47.680
and be mobile. And there's the calf muscles. Of course,

1522
04:01:52.799 --> 04:01:55.280
when I was younger, I couldn't see the point in

1523
04:01:55.360 --> 04:02:01.360
calf muscles. It didn't seem to do anything. If I

1524
04:02:01.399 --> 04:02:05.319
walked around on tiptoes, then my calf muscles get some work.

1525
04:02:06.719 --> 04:02:09.280
But of course that's not true. The calf muscles are

1526
04:02:09.319 --> 04:02:19.239
being used whenever we use our legs, and your shins

1527
04:02:22.520 --> 04:02:31.520
there to protect your lower legs, shaped in a way

1528
04:02:33.360 --> 04:02:45.440
almost as a protector for the bone, leading of course

1529
04:02:45.559 --> 04:02:55.680
to your ankles and your feet. But we're not going

1530
04:02:55.760 --> 04:02:57.879
to focus on your feet. We're just going to focus

1531
04:02:57.959 --> 04:03:04.600
on the legs. I realize that now that I've mentioned

1532
04:03:04.680 --> 04:03:09.360
your feet, it probably focuses on them anyway, So maybe

1533
04:03:09.440 --> 04:03:15.559
I should focus on your feet a little bit you

1534
04:03:15.639 --> 04:03:20.079
can have them in your awareness the same as you

1535
04:03:20.879 --> 04:03:24.760
have your thighs in your awareness. Even though we haven't

1536
04:03:24.799 --> 04:03:30.479
been focusing on your thighs a few minutes, let me

1537
04:03:30.639 --> 04:03:45.040
focusing on your ankles. There's still that sensation of comfort

1538
04:03:47.799 --> 04:03:59.680
in your thighs, and there's that movement of energy because

1539
04:03:59.719 --> 04:04:06.719
of eies hold lots of different sensations. Of course, there's

1540
04:04:06.799 --> 04:04:11.520
the muscles, the big straw muscles that we have in

1541
04:04:11.600 --> 04:04:25.440
our thighs. But the skin on the outside of the thighs,

1542
04:04:26.479 --> 04:04:31.159
as in the outside of all of our body, can

1543
04:04:31.200 --> 04:04:42.600
be very sensitive, sensitive to the touch, sensitive to temperature,

1544
04:04:49.159 --> 04:04:56.680
and inside your thighs the bones, there's the muscle, there's

1545
04:04:56.719 --> 04:05:01.840
the blood, vessels, the ar trees, all this stuff that's

1546
04:05:02.079 --> 04:05:10.719
inside your thighs. And I guess sometimes it'd be nice

1547
04:05:10.760 --> 04:05:15.040
if you could actually put your fingers inside your thighs

1548
04:05:15.680 --> 04:05:20.879
and a message, so you can message on the outside,

1549
04:05:21.120 --> 04:05:24.040
of course, but to be able to get deep into

1550
04:05:24.120 --> 04:05:28.920
the muscles and to be able to just message inside

1551
04:05:29.000 --> 04:05:36.000
your thighs, message in the bones of your leg, message

1552
04:05:36.079 --> 04:05:45.319
in all the veins, and just gently healing your thighs,

1553
04:05:49.239 --> 04:05:54.479
and you could move down message and inside your knees,

1554
04:05:55.959 --> 04:06:02.760
just message in those bones, but with healing fingertips, spreading

1555
04:06:02.840 --> 04:06:08.600
that healing energy deep into the joints of your knees.

1556
04:06:14.000 --> 04:06:17.719
Of course, there's the back of your your knee, you know,

1557
04:06:17.799 --> 04:06:23.840
the inside crease where your knee is. It's a very

1558
04:06:24.040 --> 04:06:29.920
sensitive area. Very it feels very nice when you stroke it.

1559
04:06:31.319 --> 04:06:34.680
That might be because it's an area that's not really

1560
04:06:34.879 --> 04:06:41.360
touched very often. It's almost like a hidden part, that

1561
04:06:41.680 --> 04:06:48.399
crease in your legs. It's almost it's like a part

1562
04:06:48.559 --> 04:06:53.399
that has a sensitivity, which is a little bit different.

1563
04:07:01.239 --> 04:07:11.159
Of course, it's protected by your legs. So you can

1564
04:07:11.239 --> 04:07:16.559
imagine putting your fingers into that crease in your legs,

1565
04:07:21.959 --> 04:07:25.879
that fold in between your legs. You can just message

1566
04:07:25.959 --> 04:07:33.000
with your fingertips. Imagine your fingertips going inside, massage in

1567
04:07:33.159 --> 04:07:42.639
the muscle tissue. You can of course field the bones

1568
04:07:43.120 --> 04:07:55.040
of your knees heading through your fingertips, and then as

1569
04:07:55.120 --> 04:08:00.760
you go down to your calf muscles. Now that's the

1570
04:08:00.840 --> 04:08:04.319
part I'd like to be able to really put my

1571
04:08:04.479 --> 04:08:13.280
fingertips deep inside my calf muscles, massage in every single

1572
04:08:14.280 --> 04:08:25.920
tissue of that muscle, healing every part, and then doing

1573
04:08:26.000 --> 04:08:33.440
the same for my shins. Massage in and gently stroking

1574
04:08:33.639 --> 04:08:39.959
the bones, gently stroking them, healing in a loving way,

1575
04:08:41.280 --> 04:08:47.680
because they deserve to be treated as the precious bones

1576
04:08:47.760 --> 04:08:52.399
that they are. Because our legs are so precious as

1577
04:08:52.479 --> 04:08:57.159
in all the other parts of our body, and more

1578
04:08:57.239 --> 04:09:11.360
precious than any jure on the planet. When you start

1579
04:09:11.520 --> 04:09:23.399
to think about your legs in this way, it can

1580
04:09:23.680 --> 04:09:33.159
change your perspective. It might sound a bit a bit

1581
04:09:33.440 --> 04:09:38.879
silly to start with the idea of having love for

1582
04:09:39.000 --> 04:09:48.319
your legs, showing appreciation for your thighs, wanting to be

1583
04:09:48.399 --> 04:09:54.959
able to put your hands in your thighs and massage

1584
04:09:55.760 --> 04:10:01.280
the muscles and the bones, and to get your fingers

1585
04:10:01.600 --> 04:10:11.360
deep in there, releasing all tension, just to show how

1586
04:10:11.479 --> 04:10:18.879
much you care about your legs, how much you care

1587
04:10:19.239 --> 04:10:27.280
for what your legs do for you regularly, your knees,

1588
04:10:27.520 --> 04:10:40.360
your calves, your ankles. The strength of your ankles, considering

1589
04:10:40.559 --> 04:10:45.040
how thin they are compared to the rest of your legs,

1590
04:10:45.200 --> 04:10:58.879
especially your thighs. Yeah, they're so strong, so flexible, absolutely

1591
04:10:59.159 --> 04:11:10.959
amazing things. Your ankles are truly a gift because of

1592
04:11:11.040 --> 04:11:22.319
what they do for you, supporting all that weight, regardless

1593
04:11:22.360 --> 04:11:26.360
of how what weight you are, even if you only

1594
04:11:26.799 --> 04:11:31.520
ate stone, there's still a lot of weight for these

1595
04:11:31.959 --> 04:11:38.440
little ankles. Now I'm a lot heavier than eight stone

1596
04:11:40.079 --> 04:11:49.200
double out, Yet my ankles support my body all the time,

1597
04:11:52.959 --> 04:11:55.959
although they do give off a sigh of relief when

1598
04:11:56.000 --> 04:12:01.079
I sit down. That's a and got my whole legs do.

1599
04:12:04.760 --> 04:12:11.600
My feet feet also go and my toes clap. They're

1600
04:12:11.639 --> 04:12:40.079
so happy. Your legs really are amazing. And I know

1601
04:12:40.520 --> 04:12:46.920
that talk about talking about your legs is probably possibly

1602
04:12:47.159 --> 04:12:51.840
among the most most boring things you've ever heard anyone say.

1603
04:12:52.760 --> 04:13:00.000
Possibly they're boring or not. Everything I said is true.

1604
04:13:00.079 --> 04:13:17.559
Through your legs are amazing. Your legs deserve not just respect,

1605
04:13:23.360 --> 04:13:35.680
they deserve to relax deeply. They deserve to take some

1606
04:13:35.920 --> 04:13:41.920
time out of the day to just let go completely.

1607
04:14:00.159 --> 04:14:17.920
Legs really can relax. And because the legs are so

1608
04:14:18.959 --> 04:14:23.760
such a most you know, very important part of your body.

1609
04:14:25.040 --> 04:14:27.639
When you relax your legs, the rest of your body

1610
04:14:28.319 --> 04:14:47.079
also naturally follows in that journey of comfort. I can

1611
04:14:47.200 --> 04:14:52.120
feel it in my hips. My hips feel really loose,

1612
04:14:55.399 --> 04:14:59.920
and also my lower back as well. My lower back

1613
04:15:00.239 --> 04:15:05.760
really feels it feels stretched, even though I'm just sitting

1614
04:15:05.840 --> 04:15:11.840
in a chair and there's no stretching as far as

1615
04:15:11.879 --> 04:15:14.840
I'm aware that I'm doing, But it's almost as if

1616
04:15:14.920 --> 04:15:18.799
the muscles are just relaxed so much that there is

1617
04:15:18.959 --> 04:15:27.440
a natural stretch as the tension has reduced a lot.

1618
04:15:43.799 --> 04:15:46.879
And I'm now going to count down from ten down

1619
04:15:46.959 --> 04:15:58.280
to one, and you can continue to feel wonderfully relaxed

1620
04:16:02.079 --> 04:16:45.239
ten nine, eight, seven, six, five four three two one relax.

1621
04:16:53.079 --> 04:16:56.879
So I'm just going to count down for five down

1622
04:16:56.959 --> 04:17:01.399
to one, and it's a countdown if you just focus

1623
04:17:01.520 --> 04:17:09.440
on the numbers, just the numbers counting down, and notice

1624
04:17:10.360 --> 04:17:18.360
how you feel in this moment as you hear the

1625
04:17:18.479 --> 04:17:26.559
numbers counting down, knowing that those numbers counting down represent

1626
04:17:27.520 --> 04:17:36.559
you feeling calmer, not just in your body, but also

1627
04:17:38.840 --> 04:17:46.000
relaxing your mind. Just notice how you feel. There's nothing

1628
04:17:46.719 --> 04:17:52.040
to do, there's nothing to say, there's nothing to think about.

1629
04:17:55.120 --> 04:18:44.159
Starting with number five four three two one. As you

1630
04:18:44.360 --> 04:18:57.079
notice the gradual letting go with the tension in your body,

1631
04:19:00.680 --> 04:19:06.360
you may also begin to notice and be aware of

1632
04:19:06.520 --> 04:19:15.520
how your mind is starting to slow down. This is

1633
04:19:15.680 --> 04:19:22.239
just a natural thing that happens. It's not really a

1634
04:19:22.399 --> 04:19:29.479
special procedure. It's just natural because as your body relaxes,

1635
04:19:29.639 --> 04:19:35.120
your mind also starts to relax, and the more your

1636
04:19:35.200 --> 04:19:38.399
mind relaxes, the more your body relaxes. It's just a

1637
04:19:38.559 --> 04:19:51.120
continuous circle of relaxation. And is that calmness that comes

1638
04:19:51.280 --> 04:19:58.479
from relative quietness. You know, even even if there's background

1639
04:19:58.760 --> 04:20:05.600
sounds either your side, online, it's still going to be

1640
04:20:06.920 --> 04:20:11.239
quite calm. You know, you haven't got the television on,

1641
04:20:11.840 --> 04:20:16.079
there's no music in the background unless you're listening to

1642
04:20:16.159 --> 04:20:23.840
the recording. With music, of course, you're very likely not

1643
04:20:23.959 --> 04:20:26.000
going to be sitting in a room with other people.

1644
04:20:26.920 --> 04:20:31.559
Of course you might be, but generally it's more ideal

1645
04:20:31.639 --> 04:20:36.680
if you can do this on your own, so no distractions,

1646
04:20:42.840 --> 04:20:55.760
and when you stop thinking about stuff, relaxation automatically rises.

1647
04:20:58.120 --> 04:21:08.879
A sense of comfort starts to grow, and without trying

1648
04:21:08.920 --> 04:21:17.840
to build it up into something fantastical or something magical,

1649
04:21:19.959 --> 04:21:30.159
this is just a natural process, something that's easy to accomplish.

1650
04:21:32.959 --> 04:21:37.319
In fact, it's almost you know, the sense of relaxing

1651
04:21:38.159 --> 04:21:43.920
completely happens really when you put no effort into it.

1652
04:21:44.920 --> 04:21:50.600
It's not something that you can really force. It's something

1653
04:21:50.760 --> 04:22:01.520
that happens naturally. And part of the process of this

1654
04:22:01.799 --> 04:22:13.760
recording and others is simply two. Allow you to take

1655
04:22:13.840 --> 04:22:28.680
advantage of this space, this time, to just let go,

1656
04:22:31.840 --> 04:22:40.040
to just be here, to be in tune with how

1657
04:22:40.159 --> 04:22:53.520
you feel, yet with the intention of wanting to relax

1658
04:22:53.680 --> 04:23:05.000
deeply and maybe even to fall asleep, depending on what

1659
04:23:05.200 --> 04:23:11.319
it is that you wish for yourself in this moment.

1660
04:23:18.319 --> 04:23:27.680
As we know, relaxing is the majority of the process

1661
04:23:27.799 --> 04:23:32.959
of falling asleep. The actual falling asleep part is a

1662
04:23:33.120 --> 04:23:40.879
tiny bit at the end. The deeper relaxed do you become,

1663
04:23:44.840 --> 04:24:02.840
the easier you find yourself drifting. You can also if

1664
04:24:02.879 --> 04:24:13.719
you choose stay focused on my voice and really enjoy

1665
04:24:19.680 --> 04:24:48.760
the process, gradually relaxing each muscle in your body effortlessly

1666
04:24:55.879 --> 04:25:23.760
and just observing the sensation of letting go completely. This time,

1667
04:25:23.920 --> 04:25:32.120
I'm going to count from six down to one, and

1668
04:25:32.360 --> 04:25:41.920
you can notice your mind calming down more with each

1669
04:25:42.479 --> 04:28:34.000
number that you hear me say, naturally, feeling calm and slow, peaceful, six, five, four, three, two, one,

1670
04:28:55.120 --> 04:29:15.639
being aware mind has slowed right down, sinking deeply into relaxation.

1671
04:29:29.319 --> 04:29:36.120
And as you focus on your mind, you may notice

1672
04:29:36.360 --> 04:29:45.520
that there are some thoughts still there, maybe some stubborn

1673
04:29:45.680 --> 04:30:01.479
thoughts that for some reason perhaps need your attention. So

1674
04:30:01.559 --> 04:30:10.200
what you can do is send love to those thoughts.

1675
04:30:13.479 --> 04:30:24.360
Sprinkle those thoughts with love like all petals from a flower.

1676
04:30:25.399 --> 04:30:32.280
Just sprinkle it over them, petals filled with love towards

1677
04:30:32.440 --> 04:30:39.000
those thoughts, to let those thoughts know that you're not

1678
04:30:39.120 --> 04:30:45.239
abandoned in them. You just need them. You require them

1679
04:30:48.040 --> 04:31:08.120
to just calm down, Slow down, quiet down. Now, so

1680
04:31:08.280 --> 04:31:13.559
as you focus on those remaining thoughts as we count

1681
04:31:13.639 --> 04:31:19.360
down this time from seven down to one. With each number,

1682
04:31:22.360 --> 04:31:34.879
just imagine sprinkling those flower petals of love, kindness, gratitude

1683
04:31:38.159 --> 04:31:47.680
over those thoughts, which will allow them to just melt

1684
04:31:47.760 --> 04:32:02.799
away and relax deeply. With every number, this thought would

1685
04:32:02.840 --> 04:33:11.200
become more and more relaxed, starting with number seven, six, five, four,

1686
04:33:37.159 --> 04:34:58.479
three two one. The needing. Now, notice how relaxed you're

1687
04:34:58.680 --> 04:35:18.400
feeling in your body. We're going to focus on your hands,

1688
04:35:24.240 --> 04:35:30.520
because the more relaxed your hands are, the more relaxed

1689
04:35:30.759 --> 04:35:51.439
your body and mind are. And this you focus on

1690
04:35:51.599 --> 04:36:01.639
your hands and your fingers. This is nothing needed to

1691
04:36:01.720 --> 04:36:07.400
be done. There's no clenching the fists or tents in

1692
04:36:07.560 --> 04:36:19.080
the fingers or anything like that. It's just noticing and

1693
04:36:19.400 --> 04:36:46.799
focusing on your hands. Noticing how they feel. Because the

1694
04:36:47.119 --> 04:36:58.080
more relaxed your hands feel, the calmer your mind feels,

1695
04:37:00.119 --> 04:37:14.840
and the more comfort you feel throughout your body. You

1696
04:37:17.560 --> 04:37:48.840
may have already noticed your mind is starting to dress,

1697
04:38:02.599 --> 04:38:18.040
fixing just on your hands and fingers, allowing them to

1698
04:38:20.520 --> 04:38:32.000
experience a real deepening of that relaxation in your hands

1699
04:38:32.119 --> 04:38:58.159
and fingers, more and more relaxed. With each number from

1700
04:38:58.319 --> 04:39:11.680
eight down to one, you can almost feel that healing

1701
04:39:13.159 --> 04:39:25.040
and relaxing energy spreading into your hands and fingers, becoming

1702
04:39:29.520 --> 04:39:46.360
yell more relaxing with each number you hear, going down

1703
04:39:48.479 --> 04:40:06.680
eight down to one, drifting, drifting din again, starting with

1704
04:40:11.240 --> 04:44:06.919
number eight seven, yes, five, four, three, two, just being

1705
04:44:07.279 --> 04:44:17.599
here now, nothing to think about, nothing to do, nothing

1706
04:44:17.720 --> 04:44:31.520
to say, and everything just feels calmer. And this is

1707
04:44:32.639 --> 04:44:39.400
your natural state of being. This is how you just

1708
04:44:40.520 --> 04:44:47.040
normally feel when you take away all that other stuff

1709
04:44:49.439 --> 04:44:54.279
that we add, you know, things like stress and worrying

1710
04:44:54.520 --> 04:45:10.000
and overthinking. It's an anxiety tension just generally thinking about stuff.

1711
04:45:12.200 --> 04:45:16.119
You take that away, which is what we do. What

1712
04:45:16.279 --> 04:45:28.639
we do now you're left with a real sense of

1713
04:45:29.560 --> 04:45:41.919
peacefulness which comes to you very quickly, because ultimately it's

1714
04:45:42.200 --> 04:45:55.639
just a feeling a feeling of comfort. It's almost as

1715
04:45:55.680 --> 04:45:59.759
if you've gone inside yourself and you've found a special

1716
04:45:59.799 --> 04:46:13.560
place where everything is peaceful, a place where you can

1717
04:46:13.720 --> 04:46:24.360
feel relaxed and your natural sense of comfort, a place

1718
04:46:24.439 --> 04:46:33.240
where you can be you, where you can accept yourself

1719
04:46:34.240 --> 04:46:39.279
for who you are, a place where you're not trying

1720
04:46:39.360 --> 04:46:49.720
to please anybody else ever, a place where you can

1721
04:46:51.439 --> 04:46:59.880
actually not just love yourself, but in some ways more important,

1722
04:47:00.840 --> 04:47:17.880
you can like yourself appreciate who you are. That sense

1723
04:47:18.000 --> 04:47:31.680
of gratitude is in the air all around you. That's

1724
04:47:31.759 --> 04:47:40.119
also a place where you can actually feel the healing

1725
04:47:40.680 --> 04:47:55.560
energy soaking into your body. Healing energy soaking into your body,

1726
04:48:00.479 --> 04:48:09.439
and that healing energy spreads through your veins, traveling to

1727
04:48:09.799 --> 04:48:21.799
each and every single part of your body, and you

1728
04:48:21.959 --> 04:48:28.919
start to realize that actually that healing energy, it's not

1729
04:48:29.240 --> 04:48:36.680
just entered into your brain, it's become part of your brain,

1730
04:48:41.599 --> 04:48:48.240
and that spinal fluid is now mixed with healing energy,

1731
04:48:53.520 --> 04:48:59.759
not just allowing you to feel so much more relaxed

1732
04:49:01.840 --> 04:49:13.840
and healthy in this moment, but also you start to

1733
04:49:14.000 --> 04:49:23.360
realize to actually what's happening now with that healing, relaxing

1734
04:49:24.520 --> 04:49:32.360
energy spreading through your body is actually changing your life.

1735
04:49:37.520 --> 04:49:42.639
It's actually changing the way you're going to feel not

1736
04:49:42.919 --> 04:49:50.279
just now, but tomorrow and the next day. As your

1737
04:49:50.439 --> 04:49:58.479
health improves, not just your physical health, but your mental health.

1738
04:50:02.439 --> 04:50:07.599
Things that used to bother you in the past, for

1739
04:50:07.799 --> 04:50:13.840
some reason, no longer have the effect that they used

1740
04:50:13.880 --> 04:50:28.119
to because something has changed deep within you. Maybe things

1741
04:50:28.439 --> 04:50:38.119
that used to cause you to feel anger no longer

1742
04:50:38.479 --> 04:50:48.119
have that power to control you the way they seem

1743
04:50:48.279 --> 04:50:56.840
to be able to before. As you realize that you

1744
04:50:57.040 --> 04:51:09.919
are the one besides what affects you, You're the one

1745
04:51:10.560 --> 04:51:21.000
who decides to feel relaxed and calm when you choose

1746
04:51:24.560 --> 04:51:39.080
to enjoy noticing these natural developments of healing continuing to

1747
04:51:39.279 --> 04:51:53.639
grow and improve your life day by day, including of course,

1748
04:51:53.720 --> 04:52:11.240
your ability to relax so much easier and sleeping. It's

1749
04:52:11.319 --> 04:52:21.639
the most natural thing in the world to you, because

1750
04:52:21.919 --> 04:52:29.080
falling asleep is something that you've done so many times

1751
04:52:30.799 --> 04:52:36.439
in your life, and you know that you were born,

1752
04:52:37.959 --> 04:52:44.560
as we all were, with the ability to fall asleep naturally.

1753
04:52:48.799 --> 04:52:59.439
We were born with that ability to just drift off

1754
04:53:00.240 --> 04:53:13.360
into a deep, healing sleep. Even when we're kids, sometimes

1755
04:53:13.479 --> 04:53:17.880
we'll fall asleep when we don't even want to try

1756
04:53:17.959 --> 04:53:22.200
to take a stay awake. Maybe it's a birthday in

1757
04:53:22.279 --> 04:53:26.439
the morning, or it's Christmas or holiday or something we

1758
04:53:26.560 --> 04:53:29.000
look forward to. We don't want to go to sleep.

1759
04:53:31.279 --> 04:53:36.240
But the more we want to stay awake, the more

1760
04:53:36.479 --> 04:53:44.799
we just start to drift. And the more you fight drifting,

1761
04:53:45.479 --> 04:53:47.840
the more you try and stop yourself and drift in

1762
04:53:47.919 --> 04:54:00.919
a sleepe, the deeper and stronger that drifting becomes. Because

1763
04:54:00.959 --> 04:54:06.400
we're born not just with the need to relax deeply

1764
04:54:08.119 --> 04:54:17.959
and to naturally fall asleep, but it's our birthright, it's

1765
04:54:18.080 --> 04:54:28.599
part of our DNA, and sometimes as we get older

1766
04:54:28.680 --> 04:54:40.080
in life, perhaps at times we have forgotten that relaxing

1767
04:54:41.400 --> 04:54:55.439
completely it is not only a wonderfully pleasant experience, it's

1768
04:54:55.520 --> 04:55:13.279
also really easy. It's very very easy to let go,

1769
04:55:15.319 --> 04:55:24.959
because that's all it is. It's just deciding to let go.

1770
04:55:30.159 --> 04:55:36.159
And when you press the play button on my recordings,

1771
04:55:38.000 --> 04:55:45.360
you have given permission for my voice to relax you.

1772
04:55:49.040 --> 04:55:52.560
When you press that play button, you have given me

1773
04:55:52.759 --> 04:56:04.479
permission for my words to act you in a positive

1774
04:56:07.880 --> 04:56:26.599
only a positive way. Opening up your mind too useful

1775
04:56:28.200 --> 04:56:44.639
and healing suggestions that can have such an amazing effect

1776
04:56:47.479 --> 04:56:58.840
on how you feel right now, as well as those

1777
04:56:59.240 --> 04:57:08.759
changes to continue long after the recording ends, Those changes

1778
04:57:09.599 --> 04:57:23.319
within you to continue to flourish and grow, transforming your

1779
04:57:23.439 --> 04:57:36.319
life in a positive, beautiful way, allowing you to move

1780
04:57:37.639 --> 04:57:42.919
forward in your life in the direction that you choose

1781
04:57:44.479 --> 04:58:00.639
for yourself. And this feeling, this feeling that you can

1782
04:58:00.799 --> 04:58:25.159
experience of safety, comfort, calmness, just feels so nice. It's

1783
04:58:25.360 --> 04:58:39.520
such a healthy place to be, and that positivity grows

1784
04:58:40.799 --> 04:58:58.400
within you each and every day. Moving forward, you're going

1785
04:58:58.520 --> 04:59:09.279
to find that you're more relaxed physically and in your

1786
04:59:09.400 --> 04:59:19.439
mind is more relaxed. And it's not that you're thinking slower,

1787
04:59:21.720 --> 04:59:25.360
it's just that your mind will be less clogged up

1788
04:59:26.439 --> 04:59:39.759
with unnecessary negativity because from now on, your mind rejects negativity.

1789
04:59:43.799 --> 04:59:51.240
From now on, you're going to start noticing when negativity

1790
04:59:51.360 --> 05:00:05.799
arises and you can just say stop, stop, and that

1791
05:00:06.040 --> 05:00:24.959
negativity will turn around and leave you alone. Stop and

1792
05:00:25.119 --> 05:00:40.279
that negativity will disappear. And as you notice that you

1793
05:00:41.599 --> 05:00:54.840
feel way more relaxed than you probably expected, you can

1794
05:00:55.159 --> 05:01:04.279
now congratulate you yourself because you're the person that has

1795
05:01:04.439 --> 05:01:10.599
done this. You are the one that has opened your

1796
05:01:10.799 --> 05:01:18.919
mind up to the simple facts that you can feel

1797
05:01:19.840 --> 05:01:29.599
more relaxed in your body and in your mind. You've

1798
05:01:29.759 --> 05:01:35.639
opened your mind up to the birthright of being able

1799
05:01:35.720 --> 05:01:52.560
to just fall asleep easily when you choose. And that's

1800
05:01:52.599 --> 05:01:59.799
a nice feeling. Don't you think it feels nice? Doesn't it?

1801
05:02:02.919 --> 05:02:09.799
To feel calm? All that healing energy is spreading through

1802
05:02:09.880 --> 05:02:20.200
your body and your mind to spend time in a

1803
05:02:22.360 --> 05:02:38.799
special place where negativity can no longer enter. Negativity is banned.

1804
05:02:39.840 --> 05:02:47.279
It's bad, it's not allowed Entryue doesn't it doesn't. This

1805
05:02:47.840 --> 05:02:55.680
doesn't deserve to be here. It doesn't belong here. Negativity

1806
05:02:55.919 --> 05:03:10.240
has no place in your life, which makes room feel

1807
05:03:10.400 --> 05:03:41.880
more comfort, more heathing, more relaxation, more peace. It feels nice,

1808
05:03:42.000 --> 05:04:06.840
doesn't it. Just let go with everything. I'm going to

1809
05:04:06.959 --> 05:04:14.520
count down now from twenty down to one. You can

1810
05:04:14.880 --> 05:04:26.080
continue to relax. If you choose, you can drift to sleep.

1811
05:04:29.759 --> 05:04:39.520
With every number you hear me say, you can feel

1812
05:04:40.680 --> 05:04:46.919
twice as relaxed, or if you choose, you can feel

1813
05:04:47.840 --> 05:07:17.479
twice a sleepy now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five. Ooh,

1814
05:07:50.880 --> 05:08:00.720
this is your time to just take a break, your

1815
05:08:00.880 --> 05:08:11.560
time to relax, to allow your mind to slow down,

1816
05:08:20.279 --> 05:08:34.319
to give yourself permission to take a break from everything.

1817
05:08:39.040 --> 05:08:43.520
And you you're the only person that can make that decision.

1818
05:08:46.400 --> 05:08:49.119
You're the only person that can actually tell your mind

1819
05:08:53.919 --> 05:09:18.200
to just relax, to just take some time off so

1820
05:09:18.360 --> 05:09:23.200
that you can focus on your body, getting in touch

1821
05:09:23.479 --> 05:09:38.159
with how you feel physically, and in the process of

1822
05:09:40.959 --> 05:09:45.720
this body scan, where you focus on different parts of

1823
05:09:45.799 --> 05:09:56.599
your body, those parts that you focus on and observe.

1824
05:09:59.520 --> 05:10:07.799
Even the though you're not purposely requesting for those parts

1825
05:10:07.840 --> 05:10:14.680
of your body to relax, it's kind of expected. You

1826
05:10:14.880 --> 05:10:21.479
expect when you listen to my voice to feel more

1827
05:10:21.880 --> 05:10:35.439
relaxed naturally, because when you're listening to me, your attention

1828
05:10:37.720 --> 05:10:48.599
is focused on my words, and as my words guide

1829
05:10:48.880 --> 05:11:02.360
you to focus on those parts of your body, your

1830
05:11:02.400 --> 05:11:24.560
focus increases, which actually calms your mind. And when your

1831
05:11:24.759 --> 05:11:44.119
mind calms down, your body relaxes. And when your body

1832
05:11:47.799 --> 05:12:07.759
calms down, your mind relaxes. And even though we've not

1833
05:12:08.080 --> 05:12:17.919
really started the focus on your body, you can already

1834
05:12:19.599 --> 05:12:33.080
feel that healing energy spreading through your body, pushing out

1835
05:12:36.520 --> 05:12:47.040
stress and tension, healing all the parts of your body,

1836
05:12:49.000 --> 05:12:56.639
including your skin, your bones, your blood, all of your

1837
05:12:56.840 --> 05:13:03.080
organs inside your body, of the muscles, all of the fat,

1838
05:13:05.000 --> 05:13:12.919
all of everything, every hair on your body is filled

1839
05:13:13.040 --> 05:13:28.919
with that healing energy. And when your brain fills with

1840
05:13:29.119 --> 05:13:47.200
that healing energy, the feeling of comfort and relaxation increases

1841
05:13:54.639 --> 05:14:12.759
deeply increases in a way. Your mind starts to feel

1842
05:14:16.000 --> 05:14:29.000
perhaps bit drowsy because it's not needed, and it may

1843
05:14:29.439 --> 05:14:48.159
start to drift if that's what's needed. So if you're

1844
05:14:48.279 --> 05:14:54.000
listening to this and what you need is deep relaxation,

1845
05:14:54.799 --> 05:15:01.040
that's what you'll get. If what you need is to

1846
05:15:01.279 --> 05:15:10.720
fall asleep naturally and easily as your mind drifts, that's

1847
05:15:10.919 --> 05:15:24.720
also what will happen. Because by pressing that play button

1848
05:15:25.680 --> 05:15:30.639
on the podcast and listening to me, you give permission

1849
05:15:32.560 --> 05:15:43.119
for your body and your mind. In fact, you give

1850
05:15:43.200 --> 05:15:48.119
the command to your body and your mind to relax

1851
05:15:51.880 --> 05:16:00.639
deeply and to drift off to sleep if that's what

1852
05:16:01.040 --> 05:16:16.959
you want or need. And as I focus on the

1853
05:16:17.080 --> 05:16:28.439
different parts of your body, you may start to just drift.

1854
05:16:32.520 --> 05:16:35.799
And then you come back again and you hear me

1855
05:16:36.080 --> 05:16:40.959
talking and I'm focusing on a different part of your body,

1856
05:16:46.720 --> 05:16:56.159
you may find yourself drifting, but you don't realize you're drifting.

1857
05:16:57.880 --> 05:17:04.759
Until you stop drifting and you're alert again to my voice,

1858
05:17:06.200 --> 05:17:12.080
focusing on a different part of your body starts to

1859
05:17:12.279 --> 05:17:23.119
relax even deeper, because that drifting is basically you already

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into sleep zone. And the more you drift, the longer

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you drift, and the longer you drift, eventually that drifting

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continues into sleep, and that's the last you remember until

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you wake up in your own time, when you experience

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the right amount of sleep for you, because when you

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do and if you do fall asleep, it's extremely pleasant,

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so relaxing, so deep, healing sleep. I'm going to feel

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so nice to relax into your own body and mind.

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You feel that heathing energy is spreading through it, relaxing

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05:19:07.880 --> 05:19:29.040
news so deeply, relaxing news, so so deeply. As we

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start to focus on your eyes, moving down to your jaw,

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down to your neck, you shoulders, arms, hand, fingers, your chest,

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05:20:42.479 --> 05:21:16.560
your stomach, your back, your spine, your hips, your legs,

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your feet, your toes, and the feeling iseings spreading and

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grows inside your body, feeling you up. Now let's focus

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again on parts of your body, focusing this time on

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05:22:23.840 --> 05:22:36.680
your forehead, Now on your mouth, your lips, your tongue,

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the whole of your mouth. Focus in on your fingers.

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Maybe you could move your fingers a little bit. You

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can focus on each one individually, both hands, and even

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though as you focus on both of your hands now

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they almost seem to just melt into one. Where there

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is your right hand, start in your left hand, and

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almost as if just mixed together. Now focusing on your knees,

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just noticing how your knees feel. Now, focusing on your elbows,

1885
05:24:26.479 --> 05:24:38.919
focusing on both of your elbows, just observing the feeling

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of your elbows. Now focusing absurding the back of your neck,

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feeling that energy on the back of your neck, absurd

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05:26:03.520 --> 05:26:22.840
your ankles, being aware of physical sensations in your ankles,

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05:27:22.880 --> 05:27:41.799
noticin now you toes on both of your feet, being

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aware how you TOAs feel right now, Notice thin high

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05:28:37.639 --> 05:29:27.040
you entire body fails, noticing you mind feels now letting go,

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letting go, letting go everything, m letting go, letting go,

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letting go everything everything. I'm going to start now, and

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I would like you just first of all, just to

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see yourself lying down on that message table, lying on

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your front. Your head is supported, your arms are supported,

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and you feel comfortable and breathing is really easy, and

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you feel you feel confident in how you look as well.

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So there's none of that issue of body problems or shyness,

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because I'm a professional and this is a therapy session,

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so none of that stuff matters whatsoever. This is about you.

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This is about how you feel and how you can

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enjoy that sense of comfort and relaxation that comes from

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letting go and allowing my head and my fingers to

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relax you by a message your body. So I want

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to start off just by placing my hands on the

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back of your head, just gently, just so you can feel, well,

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my hands feel like really on you, so you can

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maybe feel the warmth of my hands on the back

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of your head. And with my hands to the side

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of your head, not pressing, but just holding there very gently,

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maybe over your ears, and a little bit on your face,

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just so you can feel my hands so you can

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become accustomed to them. And now put my hands on

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the back of your head again and gently let them

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slide down onto the back of your neck. You can

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feel my hands gently stroke in the back of your

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neck to start with, just so you can get used

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to the feeling with my hands on your skin, get

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accustomed to realize that you're safe and it's all good,

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it's all fine, and I'm going to start gently massaging

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the muscles in the back of your neck with both hands. Now,

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this is a very trusting situation really, because our necks

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are so fragile and to have someone have their hands

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around your neck in that way can sometimes be problematic

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for people, which is why massages are quite good because

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it allows you to relax and to get in touch

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with trust, to feel peaceful and calm. And there's a

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massage the sides of your neck, gently moving from the

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bottom of your neck. It would be sort of near

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where your shoulders start, I guess, all the way up

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to your jaw, your ears kind of area that side

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of your neck. Of course, it's a lot longer than

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the front of your neck. And then massage in the

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back of your neck, especially that area where perhaps we

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hold tension, and there's that area's message. You can actually

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feel a sense of release in the back of your

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neck and maybe you can breathe it out as well.

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Notice how it feels, Notice how you feel. And then

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moving down to that area between your neck and your

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shoulders that muscle area. Starting to message that area on

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both sides. I mean, this would be the area that

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a lot of people would message if they were going

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to give you like a shoulder message. Even that's not

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technically the shoulders, but it's all the muscles that lead

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to the shoulders from the neck and a game that

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can hold tension and stress. And when massaged sometimes a

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nice deep message is useful. And you decide how deep

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that message is and just allow my knuckles just to

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dig in to get to those muscles and to read

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relaxed all the time being firm yet gentle with you

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and just stroking down the area to your actual shoulders,

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moving to the muscles of your shoulders and maybe initially

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just pulling up the shoulders a little bit of the table,

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just to give you a little bit of a stretch,

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but very gently. And you've got the muscles at the

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front of your shoulders, the sides.

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And the back.

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Again, this is a part that can really take quite

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a bit of pressure, quite a bit of needing if

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if you wish to really release the tension to really

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get into those muscles, and you can let your fingers

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in there. They can feel really nice. Sometimes just being

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stroked gently or being massaged quite strongly, it can all

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be beneficial to the relaxation the muscles in your shoulders.

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Now to move down your arms, we do one arm

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at a time, starting with your right arm. Well, I

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dear is, I just lift your arm up, just hold

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it to the side of you that way still be attached,

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and I just message the tops of your arms all

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the way down to your arms into your wrists, gently

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massaging that part, the softer part, which is the underpart

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of the arm, which leads to the crease in your elbow,

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the inside it's much more sensitive skin. Sometimes just having

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that stroked I feel really nice, measurable and relaxing. Now

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moving down to your right hand, Just hold in your

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hand in both of my hands, just pressing gently on

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the back of your hand and stretching your fingers ever

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so lightly at the same time pressing down and messaging

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each finger, and then starting to massage the palms of

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the hand. Just turning the hand gently, stretching it gently,

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05:43:21.880 --> 05:43:27.479
and actually having your hand held can really be an

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emotional experience sometimes even if it is a stranger, so

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when you don't know very well, like a massage person

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05:43:39.680 --> 05:43:52.639
or a therapist, maybe because it's intimate and you can

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05:43:52.720 --> 05:44:05.639
feel nice, you can feel safe. And as I put

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that right arm back down where it was, we did

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the same with your left arm, exactly the same. Massage

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05:44:26.279 --> 05:44:30.520
in the muscles in your arm all the way down.

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Do your rest, stroking the inside of your arm, just

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05:44:44.200 --> 05:44:57.759
being gentle or as firm as you require. And then

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05:44:57.880 --> 05:45:14.040
massage in your left hand, stretching the fingers, gently massaging

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05:45:14.279 --> 05:45:30.159
the palm of your left hand. You can feel so

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05:45:33.080 --> 05:45:58.319
so relaxing, so comforting, and I just rest your left

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05:45:58.560 --> 05:46:12.560
arm back down. Start to massage your back, the biggest

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05:46:12.720 --> 05:46:24.080
part of your body, starting at the top, starting again

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05:46:24.279 --> 05:46:27.200
where we already be have been, the area at the

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05:46:27.319 --> 05:46:33.959
top in between your shoulders, near your neck. Going back

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05:46:34.680 --> 05:46:40.080
a message in that area again, but this time moving downwards,

2000
05:46:46.599 --> 05:46:52.319
taking a downward stroke to the middle of your back,

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05:46:54.759 --> 05:47:03.040
working from the outside inwards. A massage in the your back,

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05:47:03.200 --> 05:47:15.119
but the outsides of your back, the parts where your

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05:47:15.319 --> 05:47:28.439
arms with maybe rest against, almost the part that connects

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05:47:28.639 --> 05:47:45.799
your front to your back. Just messaging down firmly but gently,

2005
05:47:46.919 --> 05:47:55.200
as firm as you want, moving down and moving across

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05:47:55.240 --> 05:47:57.479
a little bit, and moving all the way down again

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05:47:58.840 --> 05:48:11.400
being very gentle. You have ferm as you choose. Eventually

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05:48:11.599 --> 05:48:16.279
you get to the spine. We can message the muscles

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05:48:16.360 --> 05:48:20.000
and either side of your spine from the top of

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05:48:20.080 --> 05:48:26.000
your neck all the way down to your lower back.

2011
05:48:32.200 --> 05:48:38.560
We can do that a few times. Sometimes people use

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05:48:41.439 --> 05:48:47.560
the knuckle or the two fingers and just go your

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05:48:47.720 --> 05:48:53.000
side of the spine, almost just push down, go all

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the way down to the bottom of the spine, each

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05:48:57.000 --> 05:49:07.560
time releasing tension and opening up the body, stretching your

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05:49:07.599 --> 05:49:14.400
body so that you feel more relaxed but at the

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05:49:14.520 --> 05:49:30.840
same time rejuvenated. And now I'm going to move to

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05:49:31.000 --> 05:49:39.520
one side, to your right side, and from the bottom

2019
05:49:39.599 --> 05:49:45.319
of your ribs to your pelvis, I'm going to massage

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05:49:46.400 --> 05:49:51.720
that area of your back. I'll stretch over the other

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05:49:51.840 --> 05:49:57.200
side and i will pull the muscles gently and massage

2022
05:49:57.319 --> 05:50:01.680
and push from one end that side or way to

2023
05:50:01.880 --> 05:50:06.759
my side to the middle of fact to where your

2024
05:50:06.799 --> 05:50:13.880
spine is, massaging that side of your spine the opposite

2025
05:50:14.000 --> 05:50:19.599
side to where I'm standing. It's almost like kneading bread.

2026
05:50:22.000 --> 05:50:28.360
There's that big area which is firm yet lots there

2027
05:50:28.639 --> 05:50:38.119
to message. Potentially one of the most important places to

2028
05:50:38.240 --> 05:50:45.759
actually have a message because you really feel it. You

2029
05:50:45.959 --> 05:50:50.919
really feel the release and the pleasure of having your

2030
05:50:51.000 --> 05:50:58.680
lower back massaged. It releases so much from your body

2031
05:51:00.200 --> 05:51:09.080
that's not useful, starting a healing process which will continue

2032
05:51:09.240 --> 05:51:21.680
long after this recording is over. The message in this

2033
05:51:21.840 --> 05:51:25.759
part of your body not only feels really good for you,

2034
05:51:27.200 --> 05:51:31.639
it's actually fun to do because it is, as I said,

2035
05:51:31.840 --> 05:51:36.919
like kneading bread, it's a part that you can really

2036
05:51:37.040 --> 05:51:44.799
get hold of and really message deeply. If that's your choice,

2037
05:51:52.840 --> 05:51:54.720
then I'm going to move over to the other side

2038
05:51:54.759 --> 05:52:01.240
of your body and do the same with the opposite

2039
05:52:01.360 --> 05:52:10.680
part of your lawer back. Kneading and messaging from your

2040
05:52:10.840 --> 05:52:18.319
sides all way to the middle of your back where

2041
05:52:18.319 --> 05:52:31.959
your spine is pressing and kneading firm and gentle at

2042
05:52:32.000 --> 05:52:47.240
the same time. It feels so releasing this mixture of pleasure, comfort, release, calmness,

2043
05:52:47.599 --> 05:52:59.240
relaxation or mixed together. Plus there's that feeling from your

2044
05:52:59.319 --> 05:53:04.479
stomach as it's been stretched. Even though you're in your

2045
05:53:04.560 --> 05:53:08.840
stomach now, you can feel it being stretched because that

2046
05:53:09.000 --> 05:53:20.400
whole area is connected to your stomach. Now we're going

2047
05:53:20.479 --> 05:53:25.360
to move or move further up to your top of

2048
05:53:25.439 --> 05:53:29.880
your body, and I we do the same this time,

2049
05:53:31.200 --> 05:53:38.000
starting with your upper back. Put my hands forward over

2050
05:53:39.319 --> 05:53:45.520
and massive massage in that area up to your spine,

2051
05:53:46.680 --> 05:53:49.279
from the side of your body up to your spine.

2052
05:53:51.080 --> 05:53:57.240
So some of that message area, the muscle tissue or

2053
05:53:57.279 --> 05:54:01.279
whatever fatty tissue even will be possibly from your chest

2054
05:54:03.119 --> 05:54:07.240
because all connected, the chest and the back connect together.

2055
05:54:10.360 --> 05:54:13.639
I'm going to be massaging and just pulling some of

2056
05:54:13.759 --> 05:54:21.720
that skin from your side up and massaging that area

2057
05:54:24.720 --> 05:54:28.840
of your upper back all the way to your spine.

2058
05:54:33.279 --> 05:54:35.479
And then I'll move down a bit and I'll continue

2059
05:54:36.119 --> 05:54:38.880
with the middle of your back, doing exactly the same

2060
05:54:38.959 --> 05:54:56.279
thing as gentle or as deep as you choose. Now

2061
05:54:56.400 --> 05:55:00.720
I'll move the other side again and with the except

2062
05:55:00.919 --> 05:55:04.599
same thing with the top of your back on the

2063
05:55:04.720 --> 05:55:14.240
other side, from pretty much underneath your arm area really

2064
05:55:19.680 --> 05:55:29.840
to your spine, and then continuing that all the way down,

2065
05:55:31.639 --> 05:55:48.479
including your lower your middle of your back. I'm gonna

2066
05:55:49.279 --> 05:55:55.840
go to your thighs, the backs of your thighs, and

2067
05:55:55.959 --> 05:56:03.200
the sides of your thighs, starting with your right leg.

2068
05:56:05.520 --> 05:56:12.880
Massage in the back and the sides of your thighs

2069
05:56:15.360 --> 05:56:21.759
gently and firmly. There's a lot of muscles there. It's

2070
05:56:21.799 --> 05:56:25.080
an area that can be very tense at times and

2071
05:56:25.279 --> 05:56:28.639
maybe needs a little bit more pressure than the rest

2072
05:56:28.680 --> 05:56:36.840
of the body that's up to you. You can gently

2073
05:56:37.000 --> 05:56:44.279
stroke the back of your legs where you know, opposite

2074
05:56:44.360 --> 05:56:49.880
your knee joint or underneath your knee joint, very sensitive,

2075
05:56:50.159 --> 05:57:02.759
gentle area, and then working down to your calf muscles.

2076
05:57:05.680 --> 05:57:12.080
Massage in your calf muscles thoroughly and deeply, if you choose,

2077
05:57:15.520 --> 05:57:32.479
using both hands and fingers, digging deep to your ankles.

2078
05:57:34.759 --> 05:57:40.360
In the back of your back of your ankles, just

2079
05:57:40.680 --> 05:57:52.279
gently massage in that area, maybe lifting the leg and

2080
05:57:53.119 --> 05:58:07.639
stretching it a little bit. Moving to the right foot,

2081
05:58:15.639 --> 05:58:25.360
massage in the bottom of your feet and the side

2082
05:58:25.520 --> 05:58:36.880
of your feet gently but firm enough so they don't tickle,

2083
05:58:42.439 --> 05:58:47.919
and just allow the pleasure that you get from having

2084
05:58:48.000 --> 05:58:57.360
your feet massaged to just overtake you as I continue

2085
05:58:57.479 --> 05:59:03.400
to message your feet, the bottoms of your feet, the

2086
05:59:03.639 --> 05:59:12.360
sides your arches, your heel. You can put a lot

2087
05:59:12.520 --> 05:59:18.360
pressure into your heel and it feels amazing, yet the

2088
05:59:18.599 --> 05:59:26.680
arches need to be a bit more gentle. Stretching your

2089
05:59:26.799 --> 05:59:33.240
toes gently and message in the bottoms of your toes

2090
05:59:34.000 --> 05:59:49.279
with my fingers, each one individually. Moving over to the

2091
05:59:49.439 --> 05:59:58.840
left leg to do exactly the same thing. Starting at

2092
05:59:58.880 --> 06:00:03.200
the top of the thigh is work in the back

2093
06:00:03.279 --> 06:00:08.840
of the thighs and the sides, massaging deeply and gently

2094
06:00:10.919 --> 06:00:24.880
the whole area, working all the way down. And this

2095
06:00:25.119 --> 06:00:31.000
is an area that maybe you could like to spend

2096
06:00:31.159 --> 06:00:39.959
more time relaxing and messaging. So perhaps if you wanted,

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I could bigger future recording. Want's spend more time on

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06:00:45.279 --> 06:00:57.479
one particular area. As you move down to your calf muscles,

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06:01:03.439 --> 06:01:16.840
Massage in your calf muscles firmly and gently, move down

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your aincor into your feet, Massage in the backs of

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06:01:25.639 --> 06:01:36.040
your feet, the bottoms of your feet, stretching your toes

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06:01:36.400 --> 06:01:42.720
and massage in each tone individually. And then feeling of

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06:01:42.880 --> 06:01:48.799
pleasure and release that you experience when your having your

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06:01:48.880 --> 06:02:10.360
feet massaged feels really good. Now, she turn over in

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06:02:10.479 --> 06:02:21.680
your mind. Laying on your back, I'm just gonna start

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06:02:21.720 --> 06:02:38.639
again for your neck area in your shoulders, just to

2107
06:02:39.840 --> 06:02:49.200
get back in touch with that area. And as you

2108
06:02:49.400 --> 06:03:01.479
move up, I can clean my hands, make them more fresh,

2109
06:03:02.200 --> 06:03:11.360
because now I'm going to massage your face gently, starting

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06:03:11.439 --> 06:03:22.119
off with your forehead. Your eyes are closed, and I

2111
06:03:22.200 --> 06:03:28.159
can just stretch your eyes a little bit, pushing up

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on your eyebrows, just massaging around, just scalp, massaging down

2113
06:03:46.360 --> 06:04:00.360
your cheeks, around your ears, into your jaw gently, the

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06:04:00.560 --> 06:04:06.279
side of your neck, your chin.

2115
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Mm hmm.

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Then just moving down from your neck down to your chest,

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starting by message in the very top of your chest

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06:04:36.680 --> 06:04:41.919
where the collar bone is. Give a side of the collarbone,

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and then just massage in the hole of the chest,

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moving the chest around, because it's quite a large area.

2121
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You can move from one side to the next, moving

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06:05:24.599 --> 06:05:35.599
my hands underneath pretty much where your arms are stretching up,

2123
06:05:37.759 --> 06:05:40.840
stretching some of the muscles of your back in the process,

2124
06:05:46.119 --> 06:05:54.759
moving up over your chest and they're moving down again,

2125
06:06:07.360 --> 06:06:12.159
and then allowing my hands to just massage gently and

2126
06:06:12.479 --> 06:06:19.159
slide down towards your stomach, starting in the middle of

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06:06:19.279 --> 06:06:28.840
your chest, and then gradually my hands moving apart and

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06:06:29.200 --> 06:06:34.799
massage in and slide in at the same time, moving

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06:06:34.959 --> 06:06:53.680
down to just below your red cage, moving down, then

2130
06:06:53.840 --> 06:07:03.040
massaging up again, giving your chest all the attention that

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06:07:03.200 --> 06:07:17.639
it needs to feel completely relaxed. Remembering them. I'm also

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06:07:17.799 --> 06:07:23.040
going to be focusing on your sides as well, an

2133
06:07:23.159 --> 06:07:29.439
area that really doesn't get much attention but feels really

2134
06:07:29.560 --> 06:07:39.759
good when it's massaged. Just stroking my hands down the

2135
06:07:39.959 --> 06:07:46.919
sides of your body, just below your arms, all the

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06:07:47.000 --> 06:08:00.360
way down to your hips. Now moving to your stomach area,

2137
06:08:02.400 --> 06:08:06.040
I'm gonna stand one side of you like I did

2138
06:08:06.159 --> 06:08:10.520
when I did your lower back. I'm gonna do a

2139
06:08:10.680 --> 06:08:16.520
similar process of just stretching the muscles from your side,

2140
06:08:20.040 --> 06:08:32.080
gently massaging from one side to the next, move in.

2141
06:08:34.639 --> 06:08:38.840
A whole area from below your ribs all the way

2142
06:08:38.919 --> 06:08:50.119
down to below your belly button, and I'm gonna move around.

2143
06:08:49.880 --> 06:08:59.720
To the other side of you and repeat that process

2144
06:09:00.159 --> 06:09:13.159
of relaxing, deeply, calmly. You feel loose, you feel free,

2145
06:09:15.520 --> 06:09:20.240
And it's something about having your stomach massage that's different

2146
06:09:20.279 --> 06:09:27.119
from any other part because we do have a tendency

2147
06:09:27.759 --> 06:09:31.599
of holding a different kind of stress in our stomach

2148
06:09:33.040 --> 06:09:40.880
that we may not be aware of. As a now

2149
06:09:41.080 --> 06:09:49.279
message your stomach in front of your stomach, making circles

2150
06:09:50.759 --> 06:09:59.880
around your belly button, anything going the other way around.

2151
06:10:06.520 --> 06:10:12.240
There's a gentleness and a freedom that comes from feeling

2152
06:10:12.919 --> 06:10:23.200
how you're feeling. As I now move down the tops

2153
06:10:23.279 --> 06:10:30.040
of your thighs, the muscles, massaging them, and I can

2154
06:10:30.159 --> 06:10:36.119
do this two legs at the same time, pressing down,

2155
06:10:38.959 --> 06:10:45.080
massaging deeply those muscles in your thighs, the front of

2156
06:10:45.200 --> 06:10:56.159
your thighs, and moving down to your knees, gently massaging

2157
06:10:56.279 --> 06:11:07.520
your knees, sliding down your shins, putting pressure on either

2158
06:11:07.720 --> 06:11:19.840
side of your shin gently softly but firmly, moving down

2159
06:11:20.200 --> 06:11:34.880
to your ankles, stroking the tops of your feet, and

2160
06:11:35.080 --> 06:11:41.159
then with each foot in each hand, just gently messaging

2161
06:11:41.959 --> 06:11:49.799
the whole of the foot, a top the bottom. You'll

2162
06:11:49.959 --> 06:11:58.520
heel your ankle, your toes, messaging every part of your feet.

2163
06:12:03.560 --> 06:12:09.599
Feels so good, Just to let go and enjoy the process,

2164
06:12:15.279 --> 06:12:34.119
enjoy feeling so deeply relaxed, so much comfort, and so

2165
06:12:34.319 --> 06:12:50.840
many feelings that come just from touching your skin. And

2166
06:12:51.040 --> 06:12:57.400
you can just lie there for as long as you choose,

2167
06:13:01.400 --> 06:13:13.000
enjoying the feeling of deep comfort from being massaged by

2168
06:13:20.400 --> 06:13:42.360
enjoy fearing deeply raxed. And all we're gonna do is

2169
06:13:45.959 --> 06:14:02.479
blow out some candles. In your mind, there are going

2170
06:14:02.520 --> 06:14:12.919
to be a hundred candles, and you're going to blow

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06:14:13.080 --> 06:14:23.479
each one out individually, one by one, starting at one hundred.

2172
06:14:24.560 --> 06:14:31.919
As I count down all the way down to one,

2173
06:14:36.439 --> 06:14:45.360
and each time I say a number, you can imagine

2174
06:14:45.400 --> 06:14:51.799
that candle in front of you, and I'd like you

2175
06:14:51.959 --> 06:15:11.279
to actually physically gently blow that candle out, just so

2176
06:15:11.319 --> 06:15:19.799
it's not big blows, just a gentle m and that

2177
06:15:20.159 --> 06:15:29.720
candle will extinguish. And then I'll say the next number

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06:15:31.240 --> 06:15:40.200
as we moved down, and you can just h blow

2179
06:15:40.319 --> 06:15:49.639
that one out as well. And as we move down

2180
06:15:49.799 --> 06:16:00.439
the numbers, you'll find yourself feeding more and more real axed.

2181
06:16:03.439 --> 06:16:09.400
If you need to sleep, you'll also find yourself becoming

2182
06:16:11.159 --> 06:16:24.880
incredibly tired and sleepy. In fact, you may struggle to

2183
06:16:25.000 --> 06:16:37.919
blow out all one hundred of these candles as you

2184
06:16:39.040 --> 06:17:06.000
feel more and more deeply relaxed, more and more deeply tired,

2185
06:17:10.319 --> 06:17:18.119
and the further you go down, the more your mind

2186
06:17:19.919 --> 06:17:32.240
starts to drift. You may find that you stop listening

2187
06:17:32.479 --> 06:17:45.240
to me after a while. And even though there maybe

2188
06:17:46.159 --> 06:17:54.159
background sounds where you are, you'll be aware of those

2189
06:17:54.319 --> 06:18:13.159
sounds at the moment, be may start to just not

2190
06:18:13.439 --> 06:18:32.919
even notice them at all because they're unimportant. Where I am,

2191
06:18:35.560 --> 06:18:40.360
I've got the sounds of the birds. There's horrors. The

2192
06:18:40.439 --> 06:18:48.360
pigeon who likes to say hello. Sometimes and there's the

2193
06:18:48.400 --> 06:18:59.000
odd plane that goes by, maybe traffic and trains in

2194
06:18:59.080 --> 06:19:11.400
the distance, yes, but none of that seems important whatsoever.

2195
06:19:16.080 --> 06:19:25.560
More candles you blow out, the less important anything is.

2196
06:19:30.479 --> 06:19:39.639
More candles you blow out, the further you seem to

2197
06:19:41.639 --> 06:20:00.240
move away from sounds and from general date days stuff, yah,

2198
06:20:01.400 --> 06:20:15.439
seems to just move away on its own. You feel

2199
06:20:15.959 --> 06:20:36.159
more calma with every candle you blow out, guiding you

2200
06:20:39.639 --> 06:20:52.720
the next number, do you hear me say? And then

2201
06:20:52.840 --> 06:21:10.479
you blow that candle out to m so easy, so simple.

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06:21:20.040 --> 06:21:34.040
We're gonna start by introducing the first candle, which is

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06:21:34.119 --> 06:21:51.400
a hundred. First candle, she is one hundred. When you

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06:21:52.319 --> 06:22:08.599
blow that candle out, you'll find immediately a slight change

2205
06:22:12.479 --> 06:22:20.720
in how you feel, as well as the real sense

2206
06:22:20.919 --> 06:22:51.520
of positivity growing within you, relaxation and sleepiness expanding. Starting

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06:22:52.240 --> 06:23:20.639
with one hundred, floor out my candle now ninety nine,

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06:23:39.119 --> 06:25:15.720
candle ninety eight, can ninety seven, CAM ninety six ANDEN

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06:25:20.799 --> 06:26:49.680
ninety five and ninety four, candle ninety three, candle ninety

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06:26:49.959 --> 06:27:17.919
two and ninety one.

2211
06:27:36.119 --> 06:27:36.720
And to.

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06:27:39.599 --> 06:29:22.000
Ninety eight two nine M and eighty eight and eighties

2213
06:29:55.279 --> 06:32:21.360
can do eighty eighty five and can four eighty two

2214
06:33:28.759 --> 06:35:40.279
and two one he candle seventy nine, can dole seventy eight,

2215
06:35:49.200 --> 06:36:51.799
candle seventy seven, candle seventy six, candle seventy five, candle

2216
06:36:54.639 --> 06:37:51.799
seventy four, candle seventy three, candle seventy two, candle seventy one,

2217
06:38:12.520 --> 06:39:13.520
candle seventy one, candle seventy and sixty nine, candle sixty eight,

2218
06:39:23.319 --> 06:40:26.000
candle sixty seven, candle sixty five, candle sixty four, candle

2219
06:40:28.159 --> 06:41:20.599
sixty four, candle sixty three, candle sixty and sixty one,

2220
06:41:43.319 --> 06:43:10.159
candle sixty and fifty nine and fifty eight. Can fifty seven,

2221
06:43:29.560 --> 06:44:57.840
can fifty six, candle fifty five, candle fifty four, handle

2222
06:45:00.360 --> 06:47:00.080
fifty three, candle fifty two, candle fifty two two and

2223
06:47:00.240 --> 06:48:31.959
do fiftty one, candle fifty, candle four forty nine, candle

2224
06:48:36.159 --> 06:50:27.599
forty eight, candle forty seven, candle forty six. Can't forty five,

2225
06:50:54.520 --> 06:53:10.119
can two candle four to one and forty candle thirty nine,

2226
06:53:44.200 --> 06:55:09.159
Can do thirty eight, can't do thirty seven, can't thirty five,

2227
06:55:52.639 --> 06:57:15.720
can't do thirty four, TENO thirty three, candle thirty one,

2228
06:57:58.919 --> 07:01:02.200
candle four and twoin ten nine and twenty pints and

2229
07:01:06.919 --> 07:03:21.080
twenty seven candle, twenty six and twenty five and twoin

2230
07:03:23.439 --> 07:03:59.520
four haendle twenty.

2231
07:04:00.080 --> 07:04:38.759
Th and.

2232
07:04:41.240 --> 07:07:05.159
Twine pots and tent you wane and to wine, can

2233
07:07:05.479 --> 07:09:52.119
do ninety, can't do seventeen candla sixteen chancel four, se

2234
07:11:08.919 --> 07:12:55.880
en oh candle, eleven hands yeah.

2235
07:13:37.599 --> 07:14:08.680
Yeah, nine.

2236
07:15:06.200 --> 07:17:35.080
Hm to eight, shamdo six jam came four.

2237
07:18:13.279 --> 07:18:25.119
And doy.

2238
07:19:22.319 --> 07:20:38.040
Two two candle or let go of all of those thoughts, worries,

2239
07:20:38.360 --> 07:20:44.479
concerns about the past, thoughts about the future, and even

2240
07:20:45.959 --> 07:20:50.279
things you've been thinking about today. Just let it all

2241
07:20:50.360 --> 07:20:56.599
go because none of it is useful in this moment.

2242
07:21:01.479 --> 07:21:16.880
This is your opportunity to just focus on feeling relaxed,

2243
07:21:21.200 --> 07:21:27.599
allowing yourself to get in touch with that natural sense

2244
07:21:29.680 --> 07:21:37.799
of peace that we all have within us. It's available

2245
07:21:37.880 --> 07:21:42.720
for everyone. It just sometimes takes a little bit of

2246
07:21:42.880 --> 07:21:50.279
effort to set up the right time and place in

2247
07:21:50.520 --> 07:21:56.759
order for you to just let go. Because when you

2248
07:21:56.959 --> 07:22:04.759
do decide to let go and relax, that's what your

2249
07:22:04.799 --> 07:22:13.520
body starts to do because you've chosen. You've chosen to

2250
07:22:13.959 --> 07:22:21.040
just allow your body to unwind and your mind starts

2251
07:22:21.159 --> 07:22:28.599
to slow down, and it's a nice feeling. It's a

2252
07:22:28.720 --> 07:22:32.959
nice feeling at the beginning, just to know that you

2253
07:22:33.439 --> 07:22:43.680
have chosen to decide to relax deeply, and because you've

2254
07:22:43.799 --> 07:22:52.319
made that decision, your body will just follow suit. Because

2255
07:22:52.360 --> 07:22:57.000
sometimes all the muscles in your body need is just

2256
07:22:57.360 --> 07:23:06.599
permission from you to relax acts because so often we're busy,

2257
07:23:06.840 --> 07:23:11.040
we're going from here to there, we're walking around, and

2258
07:23:11.159 --> 07:23:18.479
we're doing stuff, and the body doesn't have any time

2259
07:23:18.720 --> 07:23:27.119
or space to really relax deeply. So it kind of

2260
07:23:27.240 --> 07:23:32.799
waits for you to lead the way, waits for your permission.

2261
07:23:37.159 --> 07:23:43.639
And when you do give your permission, when you give

2262
07:23:43.680 --> 07:23:50.000
the say so we need say okay, it's time for

2263
07:23:50.119 --> 07:23:59.680
your body to let go completely and relax totally, your

2264
07:23:59.720 --> 07:24:06.279
body he just follows. It's all like a breath of relief.

2265
07:24:07.479 --> 07:24:15.919
Ah good, I can now relax. That feeling at the

2266
07:24:16.080 --> 07:24:19.319
end of a day of very physical day that you

2267
07:24:19.479 --> 07:24:23.360
may experience in the past. But you get home and

2268
07:24:23.479 --> 07:24:27.279
you just sit down on a chair, maybe you kick

2269
07:24:27.360 --> 07:24:33.560
your shoes off and not Ah feels so nice knowing

2270
07:24:33.639 --> 07:24:37.479
that you don't have to get up again for a

2271
07:24:37.560 --> 07:24:41.119
little while, at least, if you choose, you can just

2272
07:24:41.319 --> 07:24:50.040
sit there for maybe an hour to It feels blissful

2273
07:24:54.159 --> 07:24:58.840
and just by sitting down like that, your body knows

2274
07:24:59.360 --> 07:25:04.360
that it's and to relax. Your body has been given

2275
07:25:04.479 --> 07:25:11.360
permission from you because it's a mindset. In your mind,

2276
07:25:14.720 --> 07:25:25.159
you're prepared to let go of everything and just completely

2277
07:25:26.360 --> 07:25:35.119
allow all the stress of your body to evaporate. Any

2278
07:25:35.360 --> 07:25:49.319
tensions can just gradually vanish. It's almost like magic, really,

2279
07:25:54.880 --> 07:26:01.919
because that sense of relaxation in your body, it's a

2280
07:26:02.040 --> 07:26:08.479
very natural state. It's not something unusual. It may feel

2281
07:26:08.599 --> 07:26:12.240
unusual when you first start to relax if you if

2282
07:26:12.279 --> 07:26:16.639
you haven't really spent a lot of time focusing and

2283
07:26:17.360 --> 07:26:21.880
giving yourself this space to let go completely and relax,

2284
07:26:22.840 --> 07:26:29.520
they seem more most alien, but it isn't. It's actually

2285
07:26:30.840 --> 07:26:36.000
the most natural thing in the world to let go completely,

2286
07:26:37.720 --> 07:26:45.520
to relax totally, the most natural thing in the world

2287
07:26:48.159 --> 07:26:58.240
to allow yourself to feel really calm in your mind.

2288
07:27:00.840 --> 07:27:08.520
And it is almost like a literal unwinding. It's like

2289
07:27:08.680 --> 07:27:16.240
you press a button and all the tension just releases,

2290
07:27:17.599 --> 07:27:21.040
and it's like a wheel, like a cog, like the

2291
07:27:21.119 --> 07:27:25.040
inside of a clock, just unwinding. And it's almost like

2292
07:27:25.200 --> 07:27:30.279
you could see the little wind up knob that's used

2293
07:27:31.200 --> 07:27:35.240
just going the opposite way that you choose to wind

2294
07:27:35.279 --> 07:27:43.799
it up, and the energy that fremetic stress for energy

2295
07:27:45.319 --> 07:27:55.639
gradually winding down, losing its power, losing its strength as

2296
07:27:55.680 --> 07:28:04.720
a sense of relaxation becomes stronger and deeper, and.

2297
07:28:05.040 --> 07:28:05.599
You may.

2298
07:28:07.040 --> 07:28:13.959
Find a the more relaxed you feel, that your mind

2299
07:28:14.400 --> 07:28:23.680
starts to wonder, maybe just seem to stop listening to

2300
07:28:23.840 --> 07:28:28.240
me for a while, and your mind goes somewhere else,

2301
07:28:29.680 --> 07:28:35.520
and then you realize you're listening to me again, and

2302
07:28:35.639 --> 07:28:44.680
that's just your mind drifting to sleep, which is quite natural,

2303
07:28:46.200 --> 07:28:54.119
because sometimes when we're stressed and tense, we're not I mean,

2304
07:28:54.200 --> 07:28:58.639
I actually be aware of what we need, what we

2305
07:28:58.840 --> 07:29:07.479
physically and make need in this moment. But when you

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07:29:08.200 --> 07:29:15.360
allow your body and mind to relax completely and you

2307
07:29:15.520 --> 07:29:24.680
let go of all thoughts, concerns, worries, ideas, all letting

2308
07:29:24.720 --> 07:29:33.720
them go, allow them to drop onto the floor. When

2309
07:29:33.799 --> 07:29:39.759
you start to get in touch with the feelings of

2310
07:29:41.639 --> 07:29:52.040
such relaxation, this feels so nice, to be in touch

2311
07:29:52.439 --> 07:29:58.720
with the calmness of the different body parts as they

2312
07:30:01.520 --> 07:30:14.959
become looser and looser. Even your breathing seems easier and

2313
07:30:15.159 --> 07:30:24.720
more natural, effortless, as that cool enters through your mouth

2314
07:30:24.919 --> 07:30:34.799
or nose into your lungs, breathing in comforts and relaxation,

2315
07:30:37.400 --> 07:30:43.360
and then just breathing out any excess remain intention or

2316
07:30:43.520 --> 07:30:54.000
stress from every part of your body and mind. And

2317
07:30:54.119 --> 07:30:59.159
as you start to focus on your mind, maybe you

2318
07:30:59.439 --> 07:31:07.520
notice that things come to a standstill or maybe just

2319
07:31:08.240 --> 07:31:16.279
much much lower than before because your mind is not

2320
07:31:16.680 --> 07:31:27.319
really needed when listening to my voice, which allows your

2321
07:31:27.439 --> 07:31:35.919
mind to relax just as deeply as your body. And

2322
07:31:36.040 --> 07:31:47.840
that's synchronicity between the relaxation of your body and relaxation

2323
07:31:48.799 --> 07:32:00.639
of your mind. Lets you know that feeling completely calm, loose,

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07:32:01.000 --> 07:32:02.560
and relaxed.

2325
07:32:04.360 --> 07:32:05.400
Real is.

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07:32:07.159 --> 07:32:23.159
A great healing experience fear and has so many positive

2327
07:32:23.520 --> 07:32:31.479
benefits for your body, mind, and your life. To be

2328
07:32:31.639 --> 07:32:42.000
able to let go everything and to relax completely in

2329
07:32:42.880 --> 07:32:50.840
all parts of your body and mind. Even your bones

2330
07:32:51.200 --> 07:33:06.560
has arised, all your muscles are arised, even the skin

2331
07:33:07.319 --> 07:33:19.560
that covers your body is relaxed. Every hair.

2332
07:33:22.439 --> 07:33:23.000
That you have.

2333
07:33:24.799 --> 07:33:42.360
Is also deeply relaxed. And your brain really styles to

2334
07:33:42.599 --> 07:33:55.799
feel the benefits of this healing relaxation. And as you

2335
07:33:56.080 --> 07:34:02.599
focus on the insight at your scalp where your brain is,

2336
07:34:04.439 --> 07:34:12.240
you can start to realize and notice the benefits of

2337
07:34:12.400 --> 07:34:24.040
your brain relaxing deeply. Then it's your brain continues to

2338
07:34:24.200 --> 07:34:34.319
relax sends those messages to the rest of your body

2339
07:34:36.240 --> 07:34:52.000
and your mind to re reax e more deeply, relax

2340
07:34:52.799 --> 07:35:09.759
me more completely, letting go of any remaining forts or

2341
07:35:09.919 --> 07:35:19.759
concerns allowerm just drop onto the floor because they're no

2342
07:35:19.919 --> 07:35:28.840
longer necessary in this moment, in this moment of deep

2343
07:35:30.680 --> 07:35:48.119
relaxation and calmness, filling your brain with deep, concentrated healing,

2344
07:35:53.400 --> 07:36:13.639
calming relact since every part of your brain feeling so

2345
07:36:14.919 --> 07:36:30.319
loose and comfortable, so relaxed and be peaceful, your brain

2346
07:36:31.639 --> 07:36:41.959
feels so light, that's so healthy in that sense of

2347
07:36:42.520 --> 07:36:58.240
deep deep comfort really does allow you to enjoy those

2348
07:36:58.720 --> 07:37:09.639
ever increase sense sensations of comfort that are spreading throughout

2349
07:37:09.840 --> 07:37:20.880
your body, relaxing each and every muscle of your body

2350
07:37:23.319 --> 07:37:43.319
e deeper and deeper, much more deeper than before, much

2351
07:37:44.400 --> 07:37:59.360
more comfort spreading through your body and your mind, feeing

2352
07:38:00.400 --> 07:38:17.560
so peaceful and calm, so very fairy, peaceful in avery

2353
07:38:18.080 --> 07:38:32.439
part of your body, letting go mm hm, a everything averything,

2354
07:38:36.159 --> 07:38:54.520
so peaceful and calm, so relax A very second the passes.

2355
07:38:57.560 --> 07:39:18.880
You feel d per deper relax, dper and deeper, relax

2356
07:39:21.880 --> 07:39:40.840
cal so calm, peace for so very peace from your

2357
07:39:41.159 --> 07:39:53.439
head down to your ties. Such peace and comfort growing

2358
07:39:54.000 --> 07:40:08.439
all the time, Such peace and comfort spreading through your

2359
07:40:08.639 --> 07:40:24.319
body and mind deep and deeper, such comfort spreading and

2360
07:40:24.759 --> 07:40:36.000
sinking deeper into a muscle of your body, so that

2361
07:40:36.360 --> 07:40:55.439
you feel amazing, so laxed, so pea, so so last,

2362
07:40:59.360 --> 07:41:15.799
and he's letting go. I'm going to do a body scan,

2363
07:41:17.599 --> 07:41:23.959
focusing on firstly how you feel in your body, Not

2364
07:41:24.119 --> 07:41:29.520
trying to change how you feel, not trying to relax,

2365
07:41:30.799 --> 07:41:35.799
not trying to move away from any discomfort or stress

2366
07:41:36.040 --> 07:41:43.439
or tension. Just accepting, observing and accepting how you feel

2367
07:41:44.439 --> 07:41:49.360
in the different parts of your body, just allowing yourself

2368
07:41:50.759 --> 07:41:58.240
to be exactly as you are, to notice to get

2369
07:41:58.279 --> 07:42:06.919
in touch with how you actually feel in this moment.

2370
07:42:10.400 --> 07:42:16.919
I'm going to start off by focusing on your hands.

2371
07:42:21.479 --> 07:42:29.200
Just be aware of your hands. I'd like you to

2372
07:42:29.400 --> 07:42:34.360
move your hands around, just maybe move your fingers a

2373
07:42:34.439 --> 07:42:40.799
little bit. I've been and closing your hands very gently,

2374
07:42:42.439 --> 07:42:48.119
just so that you can get in touch with how

2375
07:42:48.240 --> 07:43:02.439
your hands and your fingers feel. Very very slow movements.

2376
07:43:10.840 --> 07:43:18.599
Focusing now on your feet, and if you can just

2377
07:43:18.759 --> 07:43:23.880
do kind of an equivalent with your feet is you've

2378
07:43:24.080 --> 07:43:30.279
just done with your hands, Maybe turn in your ankles,

2379
07:43:32.279 --> 07:43:40.599
moving your feet around, moving your toes gently but only

2380
07:43:41.840 --> 07:43:53.639
very gently and very slowly, noticing how your feet fill

2381
07:43:55.720 --> 07:44:09.040
in this moment. Focusing now and your eyes. I like

2382
07:44:09.159 --> 07:44:16.159
you to just focus on your eyelids. Maybe you can

2383
07:44:16.360 --> 07:44:20.520
open and close your eyes a couple of times to

2384
07:44:20.759 --> 07:44:24.439
really get in touch with how you feel. When you

2385
07:44:24.639 --> 07:44:32.919
do close your eyes. The muscle changes in your eyes

2386
07:44:33.119 --> 07:44:41.000
when you do close them, maybe raising your eyebrows. It

2387
07:44:41.319 --> 07:44:48.759
stretches the tops of your eyes, perhaps squinting your eyes,

2388
07:44:52.520 --> 07:44:57.880
scrunching up your eyes just so you can hear it again,

2389
07:44:57.880 --> 07:45:08.400
in touch with all aspects of how your eyes feel.

2390
07:45:11.159 --> 07:45:27.000
Right now, now focusing on your thighs, and it just

2391
07:45:27.040 --> 07:45:35.400
starts you to gently tense your thighs, just very very gently,

2392
07:45:37.720 --> 07:45:48.360
just enough so you can become more attuned to the

2393
07:45:49.680 --> 07:45:58.159
physical sensation of your upper legs, the front of your thighs,

2394
07:45:58.439 --> 07:46:09.479
in the backs of your thighs, noticing and observing how

2395
07:46:11.799 --> 07:46:26.880
your thighs fear. Right now, moving your focus to the

2396
07:46:26.959 --> 07:46:33.840
back of your neck, just noticing the back of your neck,

2397
07:46:35.319 --> 07:46:40.599
the muscles, and of course they lead to the side

2398
07:46:40.639 --> 07:46:44.799
of your neck. They also lead to the top of

2399
07:46:44.880 --> 07:46:51.240
your back, which leads to your shoulders. So as your

2400
07:46:51.599 --> 07:46:58.479
focus on the back of your neck, maybe can move

2401
07:46:58.560 --> 07:47:06.040
your head gently upwards as if you're looking up, Maybe

2402
07:47:07.319 --> 07:47:15.000
moving your head down as if you're looking down. Perhaps

2403
07:47:15.240 --> 07:47:21.759
moving your head side to side, right to left, only

2404
07:47:23.560 --> 07:47:34.319
very slowly and very gently. I'm not trying to force anything.

2405
07:47:36.080 --> 07:47:45.240
It has to be very very gentle, just so you

2406
07:47:45.400 --> 07:47:57.479
can be more in touch with the feelings, with the

2407
07:47:57.759 --> 07:48:05.840
sensations of physical sensations of how the back of your

2408
07:48:06.040 --> 07:48:24.720
neck feels. Right now, as we now focus on the

2409
07:48:24.880 --> 07:48:30.759
tops of your arms, the parts where your biceps and

2410
07:48:30.880 --> 07:48:38.919
your triceps are between your elbow and your shoulders. Should

2411
07:48:39.000 --> 07:48:45.880
focus on those parts, the tops of your arms. You

2412
07:48:46.040 --> 07:48:54.040
may like to just tense them, but very very gently

2413
07:48:55.919 --> 07:49:04.919
and slowly, so you know, straining or putting any pressure

2414
07:49:06.080 --> 07:49:17.319
whatsoever on your arms. It's just soly you can gain

2415
07:49:17.880 --> 07:49:25.959
more of a sense of how your upper arms are

2416
07:49:26.279 --> 07:49:37.680
feeling in this moment, and just noticing as you gently,

2417
07:49:39.840 --> 07:49:49.439
very gently and slowly tighten the muscles and then let go,

2418
07:49:53.720 --> 07:50:02.119
notice how the tops of your arms feel right now

2419
07:50:10.319 --> 07:50:21.119
as a now focus on your stomach, the area the

2420
07:50:21.240 --> 07:50:27.560
lower abdomen area below your belly button, moving all the

2421
07:50:27.639 --> 07:50:34.720
way down to your hips, just a part of your grind.

2422
07:50:41.080 --> 07:50:48.279
Maybe you're able to tense these muscles in the area

2423
07:50:49.000 --> 07:51:04.240
very very gently and slowly. If that's a difficult thing

2424
07:51:04.479 --> 07:51:13.919
to do, maybe you can just move your body, pushing

2425
07:51:14.080 --> 07:51:18.599
your stomach up, maybe moving a little bit of a

2426
07:51:18.840 --> 07:51:26.200
side using your hips, just so you can get more

2427
07:51:27.880 --> 07:51:34.439
in tune with how you're lower capped to an area

2428
07:51:38.279 --> 07:51:57.040
is feeling in this moment. Just noticing the physical sensations

2429
07:52:00.119 --> 07:52:19.360
your lower abdomen as you move your attention to your mouth,

2430
07:52:24.720 --> 07:52:32.919
notice in your lips and inside your mouth, your teeth,

2431
07:52:34.040 --> 07:52:50.200
your guns, your tongue, Just noticing how your tongue in

2432
07:52:50.279 --> 07:52:59.919
your mouth feels. It may help by moving your tongue

2433
07:53:01.279 --> 07:53:08.240
around your mouth, moving it to your left, maybe pressing

2434
07:53:08.319 --> 07:53:15.040
it gently against the side of your mouth, and then

2435
07:53:15.479 --> 07:53:20.319
to the right, gently to the side of your mouth,

2436
07:53:23.439 --> 07:53:28.959
perhaps pressing up against the top of your mouth, and

2437
07:53:29.080 --> 07:53:37.959
then down gently against the bottom of your mouth, always

2438
07:53:38.919 --> 07:53:53.959
very slowly and a very very gentle so that you

2439
07:53:54.159 --> 07:54:09.720
can be aware of how you feel in your mouth

2440
07:54:10.080 --> 07:54:41.599
area now and to focus on your wrists. And I'm

2441
07:54:41.639 --> 07:54:50.439
gonna ask you to maybe just routine your wrists by

2442
07:54:50.520 --> 07:55:01.360
moving your hands in a circular motion very gently and slowly,

2443
07:55:04.159 --> 07:55:22.840
just slowly, you can feel the sensations that you are

2444
07:55:23.319 --> 07:55:39.080
currently experiencing in your risks. Perhaps move in your hands.

2445
07:55:40.360 --> 07:55:41.799
Up and down.

2446
07:55:44.200 --> 07:56:11.520
Again very very gently and slowly, very gentzl and slow.

2447
07:56:25.000 --> 07:56:41.400
As we now start to observe a lower back. The

2448
07:56:41.759 --> 07:56:51.680
bad part is just abu of your hips where your

2449
07:56:51.799 --> 07:57:04.799
cosix are a whole area which also really does include

2450
07:57:05.599 --> 07:57:11.840
the side of your body because those muscles are very

2451
07:57:11.959 --> 07:57:23.240
much connected as those muscles also move into your hip

2452
07:57:23.319 --> 07:57:31.439
area connecting to your buttics the sides of your hips.

2453
07:57:40.000 --> 07:57:48.279
And if you're physically able to do so, maybe you

2454
07:57:48.479 --> 07:58:01.319
can very gently just move your body evisus slightly, very

2455
07:58:01.680 --> 07:58:23.119
slowly from side to side, just enough to gauge how

2456
07:58:23.279 --> 07:58:36.720
you feel in your lower back. Perhaps it could even

2457
07:58:40.400 --> 07:58:54.919
move your hips gently up and down gently slowly in

2458
07:58:55.279 --> 07:59:09.119
order to be in touch with the physical sensations of

2459
07:59:09.319 --> 07:59:10.520
your law back.

2460
07:59:27.319 --> 07:59:28.040
As we know.

2461
07:59:33.279 --> 07:59:43.959
To your attention to your jaw an area from your

2462
07:59:44.200 --> 07:59:53.360
chin all the way up to near where your ears are. Oh,

2463
07:59:54.080 --> 08:00:09.319
your jaw. You can just if it's okay to do so.

2464
08:00:11.240 --> 08:00:21.759
Gently open your mouth, not wide, no stretching, just very

2465
08:00:22.520 --> 08:00:35.119
gently and slowly opening your mouth in closing your mouth

2466
08:00:37.439 --> 08:00:56.360
very gently and slowly, so you can be in touch

2467
08:01:03.159 --> 08:01:37.000
with how your jaw feels. Now know to sit now

2468
08:01:39.880 --> 08:01:54.720
the chest area. You don't need to do anything to

2469
08:01:54.959 --> 08:02:01.560
move your chest because it moves every time you breathe,

2470
08:02:06.680 --> 08:02:19.880
and it moves very gently and slowly automatically with each

2471
08:02:20.400 --> 08:02:35.400
breath you take. As you focus on how your chest

2472
08:02:40.599 --> 08:03:21.479
feels when you breathe, move in your focus to your forearms,

2473
08:03:23.959 --> 08:03:40.119
your elbows. Maybe you're able to very gently and slowly

2474
08:03:42.520 --> 08:03:51.080
dense the muscles in your forearms, and when you do that,

2475
08:03:51.599 --> 08:04:15.119
you can feel your elbows as well. Very gently and slowly,

2476
08:04:23.599 --> 08:04:54.840
gently and softly obsurv your forarms and del boys. No

2477
08:05:03.880 --> 08:05:22.520
focus the rest of your back, your upper back and

2478
08:05:22.880 --> 08:05:40.840
the middle the middle of your back again this part

2479
08:05:41.040 --> 08:05:55.680
of your body news. Also, every time you pray. You

2480
08:05:55.959 --> 08:06:09.520
may not notice that usually makes you sir your off

2481
08:06:09.639 --> 08:06:16.639
your back. In the middle of your back, you can

2482
08:06:16.880 --> 08:07:15.520
really feel that gentle and moment moving your focus into

2483
08:07:15.599 --> 08:07:29.439
your area of buttees the grain. There's muscles and those

2484
08:07:29.639 --> 08:08:09.639
bones in your midsection. Just noticing how your hips feel.

2485
08:08:12.799 --> 08:08:30.599
Right now, you can very very gently move your hips,

2486
08:08:35.599 --> 08:09:14.639
maybe side to side, very gently, and yeah, sort of

2487
08:09:29.599 --> 08:09:46.360
everything starts to slow down, including the thoughts in your

2488
08:09:46.520 --> 08:09:58.279
mind and your mind itself just starts to gradually. It

2489
08:09:58.360 --> 08:10:04.720
doesn't have to be instant, but just gradually starting to

2490
08:10:06.119 --> 08:10:14.919
It's almost like time is strength chin. It's a slower

2491
08:10:15.080 --> 08:10:22.919
pace to maybe what you're used to in your day

2492
08:10:23.000 --> 08:10:45.000
to day life. It's a slower movement of energy, very

2493
08:10:49.400 --> 08:10:57.880
small movements which make up the larger movements, which is

2494
08:10:57.880 --> 08:11:05.639
always the case. Now when you move your hand, it

2495
08:11:05.799 --> 08:11:08.520
might seem like it's one movement, but it's lots of

2496
08:11:09.319 --> 08:11:16.759
minute different muscles moving in accordance with each other. And

2497
08:11:21.720 --> 08:11:34.040
what happens in this space that we're sharing is we

2498
08:11:34.279 --> 08:11:55.200
move from that big movement into those smaller movements. Starting

2499
08:11:55.319 --> 08:12:06.159
to focus on how your body feels, not just as

2500
08:12:06.200 --> 08:12:10.520
a whole, not just oh, i'm feel in this way.

2501
08:12:10.599 --> 08:12:16.680
I'm feeling stressed or tense, or I'm feeling relaxed and calm,

2502
08:12:18.000 --> 08:12:24.599
I'm feeling this way, I'm feeling that way. Starting to

2503
08:12:24.840 --> 08:12:36.040
notice that your body begins to present to you small

2504
08:12:37.159 --> 08:12:53.520
feelings around your body, small physical sensations in your legs,

2505
08:12:56.279 --> 08:13:09.520
whether pleasurable or not. Maybe resisting the temptation to label

2506
08:13:09.599 --> 08:13:19.119
them or to judge them, those feelings, just thinking them,

2507
08:13:20.040 --> 08:13:33.000
thinking about them is just being neutral, just feelings, not

2508
08:13:33.240 --> 08:13:44.319
being particularly concerned, but just noticing what your body is

2509
08:13:44.439 --> 08:13:58.159
telling you. The feelings in your arms, instead of feeling

2510
08:13:58.319 --> 08:14:07.000
the whole of the arm, Maybe notice those individual feelings,

2511
08:14:08.479 --> 08:14:19.919
all those different muscles and the skin, the hairs of

2512
08:14:20.040 --> 08:14:25.799
your arms, all the internal parts of your arms, the veins,

2513
08:14:35.919 --> 08:14:45.080
the bones, just being aware of maybe your elbow on

2514
08:14:45.200 --> 08:14:53.560
your right arm has a certain feeling. Maybe your left

2515
08:14:53.680 --> 08:15:18.880
wrist also has its own individual physical sensation. What about

2516
08:15:18.919 --> 08:15:32.639
your forearm when your right arm, you're right forearm, there

2517
08:15:32.680 --> 08:15:38.919
may not be any particular feeling that you could even

2518
08:15:40.639 --> 08:15:47.720
give a name to, may not feel like anything other

2519
08:15:47.840 --> 08:15:58.400
than just a feeling. Yeah, it's there. The feelings in

2520
08:15:58.520 --> 08:16:04.360
your shoulders, perhaps your shoulders when you think about them,

2521
08:16:05.560 --> 08:16:10.880
kind of almost like they're the same, you know, the same, feeding,

2522
08:16:12.720 --> 08:16:16.040
almost like you both of your shoulders are just one thing.

2523
08:16:17.919 --> 08:16:28.959
Of course they're not. And when you focus on your

2524
08:16:29.040 --> 08:16:37.240
left shoulder and then on your right shoulder, maybe find

2525
08:16:37.439 --> 08:16:42.840
that you move the muscles a little bit, maybe tense

2526
08:16:42.959 --> 08:17:08.279
the muscles gently, noticing the difference in each shoulder and

2527
08:17:08.360 --> 08:17:24.200
your lower back, the left side of your lower back

2528
08:17:24.439 --> 08:17:35.840
and the right side of your lower back of course,

2529
08:17:35.919 --> 08:17:48.159
that connection to your buttocks and to your hips, and

2530
08:17:48.319 --> 08:18:01.680
also moving up into the middle of your back. And

2531
08:18:01.840 --> 08:18:06.400
sometimes like right now, actually when I focus on their part,

2532
08:18:07.799 --> 08:18:12.159
when I focused on my buttocks and then I focused

2533
08:18:12.200 --> 08:18:16.319
on the middle of my back, it almost felt like

2534
08:18:16.560 --> 08:18:21.319
the muscles in my lower back were being stretched very gently,

2535
08:18:26.040 --> 08:18:31.360
just stretched a little bit. Even though I wasn't doing

2536
08:18:31.439 --> 08:18:40.200
anything to try to stretch your lower back, it just

2537
08:18:40.319 --> 08:18:52.599
seemed to happen. The feeling of very gently stretching your

2538
08:18:52.680 --> 08:19:11.759
lower back comes along. I have feeling in your chest,

2539
08:19:19.400 --> 08:19:32.799
just noticing what sensations you are experiencing in your chest

2540
08:19:33.040 --> 08:19:49.319
right now. And there's so much of the chest. Obviously,

2541
08:19:49.400 --> 08:19:53.000
there's the collar bone leading to the chest. You've got

2542
08:19:53.080 --> 08:20:01.680
the chest bone, You've got the muscles in your chest.

2543
08:20:04.439 --> 08:20:11.040
Of course, if you're female, there's possibly the breasts. You're male,

2544
08:20:13.080 --> 08:20:19.840
you've got the different well why not that different these days.

2545
08:20:19.680 --> 08:20:19.759
But.

2546
08:20:21.919 --> 08:20:27.319
There may be more muscles at the top of the chest.

2547
08:20:30.720 --> 08:20:34.959
But at the side underneath, it's pretty much the same

2548
08:20:35.759 --> 08:20:38.840
whether you're a man or a woman. There's muscles there,

2549
08:20:40.159 --> 08:20:45.319
muscles that stretch out to your back, as well as

2550
08:20:45.400 --> 08:20:53.759
breast tissue which stretches and moves into your back. To

2551
08:20:53.959 --> 08:21:13.360
just being aware of your chest, being with whatever feeling

2552
08:21:13.520 --> 08:21:33.319
there is in your chest. Well, I noticed that I

2553
08:21:33.479 --> 08:21:41.439
focus on my chest. I feel it in my back

2554
08:21:41.639 --> 08:21:45.400
and my upper back, and mean, I guess the obvious

2555
08:21:45.520 --> 08:21:53.159
reason would be because you know, I'll breathe in in

2556
08:21:55.880 --> 08:21:59.040
then it stretches my chest and my back at the

2557
08:21:59.119 --> 08:22:19.799
same time. It feels it feels okay, it doesn't feel

2558
08:22:22.520 --> 08:22:26.759
I got a little bit of pain in my right chest,

2559
08:22:29.040 --> 08:22:35.279
a little bit, not pain, but little discomfort, maybe stiffness possibly,

2560
08:22:35.799 --> 08:22:44.919
I don't know. I noticed my shoulders also wanting to

2561
08:22:47.279 --> 08:22:51.959
flex for some reason. I think that's probably part of

2562
08:22:52.119 --> 08:23:01.080
my upper back, that connection between my shoulder lose map back,

2563
08:23:02.919 --> 08:23:06.919
because I can move my shoulders and stretch the muscles

2564
08:23:07.720 --> 08:23:15.919
in my back, moving the shoulders backwards or up, which

2565
08:23:16.040 --> 08:23:22.080
then moves I think it's the scapulous in your back.

2566
08:23:32.119 --> 08:23:39.799
It feels quite nice. Actually, A good thing about this

2567
08:23:40.080 --> 08:23:44.880
is you can if you want to, you can just

2568
08:23:48.439 --> 08:23:59.880
flex or stimulate the various muscles in your body can

2569
08:24:01.599 --> 08:24:05.040
in order to get more of the sense of how

2570
08:24:05.119 --> 08:24:20.000
they feel. And when you're relaxing, when you do tense

2571
08:24:20.119 --> 08:24:24.040
and muscle and you let it go and you let

2572
08:24:24.080 --> 08:24:33.080
it relax, it relaxes way more than it would normally.

2573
08:24:38.200 --> 08:24:43.279
You have to feel that you're able to do that.

2574
08:24:44.919 --> 08:24:48.680
There's no point in doing it if there's an issue

2575
08:24:50.599 --> 08:24:56.080
with the per part of your body. You need to

2576
08:24:56.200 --> 08:25:06.599
be gentle with yourself at all times when relaxing deeply,

2577
08:25:09.599 --> 08:25:24.840
It's important to be kind to yourself. As you notice

2578
08:25:25.040 --> 08:25:36.119
your mind. How much has your mind slowed down since

2579
08:25:36.200 --> 08:26:03.000
we started this recording? How came peaceful is your mind?

2580
08:26:03.439 --> 08:26:15.159
Right now? We have nothing to think about and just

2581
08:26:15.439 --> 08:26:23.319
my voice to listen to. Because you know the intention

2582
08:26:25.040 --> 08:26:35.040
behind this recording, this relaxation. At the very least, for

2583
08:26:35.200 --> 08:26:39.639
you to feel more relaxed at the end of the

2584
08:26:39.799 --> 08:26:48.599
recording than you did at the beginning, at the very least,

2585
08:26:52.759 --> 08:27:01.759
for your mind to slow down. That's your body continues

2586
08:27:03.799 --> 08:27:20.400
to relax because that's what you want to happen. That's

2587
08:27:20.520 --> 08:27:41.680
what you expect to happen. For relaxation to fill your body.

2588
08:27:49.919 --> 08:27:55.040
Maybe calm in your mind to the point of boredom

2589
08:27:58.639 --> 08:28:41.959
when you start maybe to drift away, drifting it's all

2590
08:28:42.119 --> 08:28:51.599
mist as if you're moving further away from a body

2591
08:28:51.840 --> 08:29:05.279
in your mind, just leaving that there, kind of liking

2592
08:29:05.400 --> 08:29:10.759
it an escape pod and the spaceship and movie a

2593
08:29:10.919 --> 08:29:13.599
space movie, you know, when they gets a little part

2594
08:29:13.680 --> 08:29:20.639
in it. Since the man far away from the spaceship,

2595
08:29:29.759 --> 08:30:29.000
save to dream and continue to relax, drifting so slow.

2596
08:30:41.840 --> 08:30:42.759
And pa so.

2597
08:30:59.000 --> 08:31:45.599
So and peace and focusing on the feeding of those

2598
08:31:47.040 --> 08:32:05.880
individual parts your body that's relaxing one point one. You

2599
08:32:06.080 --> 08:32:18.400
may find that every now and then you realize that

2600
08:32:21.759 --> 08:32:30.360
you weren't listening to my voice because your mind started

2601
08:32:30.560 --> 08:32:45.040
to imagine something different, maybe started to almost move into

2602
08:32:46.000 --> 08:32:54.279
some kind of a dreamy state, and then you become

2603
08:32:54.360 --> 08:33:04.240
aware of my voice again. And though you may want

2604
08:33:04.439 --> 08:33:09.360
to focus on my voice, you may also wish to

2605
08:33:11.880 --> 08:33:23.479
allow your mind to just drift naturally into that space

2606
08:33:23.759 --> 08:33:47.759
of comfort and safety. As you feel more comfort spreading

2607
08:33:48.119 --> 08:34:00.880
through your body like a warm blanket covering you gently,

2608
08:34:04.880 --> 08:34:23.000
keeping your body at just the perfect temperature. And even

2609
08:34:23.159 --> 08:34:35.159
if you can hear background sounds, they just don't seem

2610
08:34:35.319 --> 08:34:52.319
to matter anymore. There's that sensor. Peace spreads through your

2611
08:34:52.400 --> 08:35:06.680
mind wh gentle, grease, yet strong enough to blow away

2612
08:35:10.599 --> 08:35:17.080
all negativity, strong.

2613
08:35:16.840 --> 08:35:17.319
Enough to.

2614
08:35:20.720 --> 08:35:30.840
Remove from your mind any anxiety or stress that was

2615
08:35:31.040 --> 08:35:46.119
there before, and blow away any other thoughts or feelings

2616
08:35:46.520 --> 08:36:11.919
that just don't fit with the sense relaxation, that is

2617
08:36:12.240 --> 08:36:37.560
feeling your body and your mind. Unless you focus on

2618
08:36:37.720 --> 08:36:44.119
your mind and count down from ten down to one,

2619
08:36:45.520 --> 08:36:55.840
and with each number you hear, your mind will become

2620
08:37:01.959 --> 08:37:22.279
slightly more relaxed, just just slightly seven, ten down to nine,

2621
08:37:23.080 --> 08:37:30.000
just a slight movement, from nine down to eight, just

2622
08:37:30.119 --> 08:37:47.200
another small change in how you feel. Eight down to seven.

2623
08:37:50.000 --> 08:37:55.400
That feeling is a gap, almost like a gap that

2624
08:37:55.759 --> 08:38:05.400
starts to get wider, the gap between those feelings that

2625
08:38:05.599 --> 08:38:12.560
you used to have in your mind compared to the

2626
08:38:12.720 --> 08:38:20.240
feelings you have there growing now, feelings of comfort and

2627
08:38:20.520 --> 08:38:32.159
security and confidence, and the gap becomes wider. Eight down

2628
08:38:32.279 --> 08:38:39.720
to seven, seven down to six. When you get to five,

2629
08:38:42.080 --> 08:38:51.360
the mind will start to have a certain physical sensation,

2630
08:38:55.759 --> 08:39:01.439
most like there's a magnet outside of your head sucking

2631
08:39:02.360 --> 08:39:08.200
the tension and the stress and any remaining feelings that

2632
08:39:08.319 --> 08:39:19.400
you don't want, sucking them out through your skull. And

2633
08:39:19.560 --> 08:39:25.959
in down to four you can start to really experience

2634
08:39:26.159 --> 08:39:38.599
that sense of not just emptiness, but space, a place

2635
08:39:38.840 --> 08:39:50.680
full of fresh air, place where you can stretch. It's

2636
08:39:50.720 --> 08:39:54.479
almost as if as you go down to four and three,

2637
08:39:54.959 --> 08:40:05.479
your mind is expanding with this sense of peace and

2638
08:40:05.680 --> 08:40:16.520
tranquility growing to move down to When you get to one,

2639
08:40:17.959 --> 08:40:26.520
your mind just feels exactly how you want to feel.

2640
08:40:29.840 --> 08:40:45.720
It's almost perfect feeling, maybe a sensation that.

2641
08:40:47.319 --> 08:40:48.759
You'd like to keep.

2642
08:40:51.759 --> 08:41:02.560
A place that's safe, where nothing can affect you at all,

2643
08:41:14.240 --> 08:41:19.000
and you can stay in that that space of comfort

2644
08:41:19.080 --> 08:41:28.799
and confidence, confident in your own ability to create this

2645
08:41:29.720 --> 08:41:35.720
space and this feeling of comfort within your own mind

2646
08:41:37.279 --> 08:41:47.240
just by counting ten down to one. And this is

2647
08:41:47.360 --> 08:41:52.040
something that you can do yourself when you're on your own,

2648
08:41:56.919 --> 08:42:00.840
the time when you can maybe sit down, maybe just

2649
08:42:00.919 --> 08:42:11.959
for a few minutes, close your eyes. It just counts

2650
08:42:12.479 --> 08:42:26.040
slowly from ten down to one and re experience these

2651
08:42:26.240 --> 08:42:36.599
feelings in your mind. And when you feel that way

2652
08:42:36.720 --> 08:42:51.680
in your mind, your body copies your mind, and that

2653
08:42:52.000 --> 08:42:58.520
feeling is spread through your spine and your nervous system

2654
08:42:59.200 --> 08:43:05.520
into a free parts of your body, travels through your

2655
08:43:05.639 --> 08:43:19.639
blood stream, heathing and relaxing every particle of your existence.

2656
08:43:32.319 --> 08:43:36.319
Now we can. We can practice this a few times

2657
08:43:41.040 --> 08:43:46.639
before the end of the recording, and then you can practice.

2658
08:43:46.159 --> 08:43:46.720
On your own.

2659
08:43:48.840 --> 08:43:58.560
And each time you count for ten about one, the

2660
08:43:58.759 --> 08:44:12.159
feelings of comforts, calmness, deep deep relaxation becomes stronger and

2661
08:44:12.919 --> 08:44:29.200
deeper feeling your mind and your brain. With these positive chemicals,

2662
08:44:31.000 --> 08:44:41.119
the spread throughout your body, relaxing you so quickly, relaxing

2663
08:44:41.279 --> 08:44:52.919
your whole body and mind, so very very easily just

2664
08:44:53.319 --> 08:44:59.919
by counting damn down to one.

2665
08:45:05.159 --> 08:45:06.439
So we're gonna do now.

2666
08:45:07.279 --> 08:45:11.200
I'm going to count from ten down to one. I'd

2667
08:45:11.400 --> 08:45:15.720
like you to repeat the number after me. So when

2668
08:45:15.799 --> 08:45:24.319
I say ten, you can just repeat to yourself ten.

2669
08:45:29.959 --> 08:45:39.319
Just notice, be aware of how you feel in your

2670
08:45:39.479 --> 08:45:49.000
mind and your body. Then when I say nine, you

2671
08:45:49.080 --> 08:46:05.840
can repeat to yourself nine again, noticing the increase in comfort,

2672
08:46:08.520 --> 08:46:19.599
calmness in your mind and in your body the same.

2673
08:46:19.840 --> 08:46:31.319
Wanna say eight when I say seven, six, when I

2674
08:46:31.400 --> 08:46:50.400
say five, four, when I say three, two, and lastly

2675
08:46:50.560 --> 08:46:55.919
when I say one, you can repeat that number.

2676
08:47:03.400 --> 08:47:03.560
Now.

2677
08:47:03.680 --> 08:47:09.240
Of course, when you do this on your own without

2678
08:47:09.360 --> 08:47:14.360
listening to me, you can say the numbers or whatever

2679
08:47:16.000 --> 08:47:24.439
speed that you feel is necessary for you, so you

2680
08:47:24.599 --> 08:47:30.360
can adapt. So if you feel you want to say

2681
08:47:30.479 --> 08:47:36.319
the numbers ten down to one faster than I do,

2682
08:47:38.080 --> 08:47:40.639
then you go ahead and do that. Or if you

2683
08:47:40.840 --> 08:47:44.840
feel when you do it yourself that you'd like to

2684
08:47:45.040 --> 08:47:53.439
have more more space between the numbers, maybe take a

2685
08:47:53.520 --> 08:47:54.799
lot longer.

2686
08:47:55.639 --> 08:47:57.040
To get from ten.

2687
08:47:58.880 --> 08:48:06.720
Oh the way down to one. That's your choice.

2688
08:48:06.759 --> 08:48:07.639
I'll say it to do.

2689
08:48:17.680 --> 08:48:19.639
So I'm going to count and ten.

2690
08:48:19.639 --> 08:48:27.200
Down to one. I want to get to one.

2691
08:48:28.560 --> 08:48:34.479
That will be the end of this recording, unless, of course,

2692
08:48:34.520 --> 08:48:59.639
you're listening with music, and the music will continue. Ten nine.

2693
08:49:24.560 --> 08:53:19.040
Y four, yes, twenty.

2694
08:53:22.880 --> 08:54:09.240
Nineteen eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen thirteen, twelve eleven, ten

2695
08:54:14.000 --> 08:55:04.360
nine eight seven, six, five, four, three two one. Now

2696
08:55:04.479 --> 08:55:15.040
open your eyes, noticing how you physically feel having counted

2697
08:55:15.080 --> 08:55:22.840
down from twenty to one, allowing stress and tension to

2698
08:55:23.080 --> 08:55:27.520
leave through your fingertips and your toes. And as you

2699
08:55:27.639 --> 08:55:33.080
focus on your fingertips maybe they feel a little bit tingly,

2700
08:55:35.400 --> 08:55:40.560
which is I suppose quite understanding, considering the tension has

2701
08:55:40.639 --> 08:55:50.799
been exiting your body through your fingertips. So now we're

2702
08:55:50.840 --> 08:55:53.959
going to count from twenty down to one again. This time,

2703
08:55:58.279 --> 08:56:04.840
you got to feel relief and stress and the anxiety

2704
08:56:04.959 --> 08:56:17.240
that you may have leaving through your stomach. Just leaving

2705
08:56:17.400 --> 08:56:23.240
through your stomach, almost as if it's just releasing the

2706
08:56:23.360 --> 08:56:28.720
hold of your stomach and naval to just above your

2707
08:56:28.840 --> 08:56:33.000
chest or below your chest, rather so surrounding your belly

2708
08:56:33.080 --> 08:56:37.959
by an area, the whole area. You can feel the

2709
08:56:38.159 --> 08:56:44.639
tension of your body wherever it's left, just releasing from

2710
08:56:44.720 --> 08:56:48.000
that area. And you may notice that your stomach will

2711
08:56:48.040 --> 08:56:55.200
become very relaxed as I countdown from twenty down to

2712
08:56:55.319 --> 08:57:55.840
one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine,

2713
08:58:00.560 --> 08:58:26.840
eight seven six by ooh three two.

2714
08:58:32.000 --> 08:58:39.799
What And you can open your eyes again if you choose, or.

2715
08:58:39.799 --> 08:58:43.360
You can just keep them closed because the girls relaxing.

2716
08:58:45.680 --> 08:58:50.799
Just notice saying your stomach, girls, notice is your focus.

2717
08:58:51.080 --> 08:58:55.919
Just do a little scan of your body. It's not

2718
08:58:56.119 --> 08:59:03.439
to say your body feels focusing on upper body, in

2719
08:59:03.520 --> 08:59:13.200
your back, chest, stomach, legs, arms, hands, feet, just noticing,

2720
08:59:17.360 --> 08:59:22.159
and you know you may start to feel more a

2721
08:59:22.279 --> 08:59:27.319
sense of tiredness, which may be the reason listening to

2722
08:59:27.439 --> 08:59:35.159
this according because you would like to let go completely

2723
08:59:35.319 --> 08:59:45.680
of everything and dread all into a nice, natural, calm,

2724
08:59:46.040 --> 09:00:05.200
relaxing sleep. So, now the focus on your forehead, and

2725
09:00:05.319 --> 09:00:08.119
if you choose, you can incorporate your eyes in this

2726
09:00:08.479 --> 09:00:15.080
focus as well. Your forehead and your eyes. It's that

2727
09:00:15.240 --> 09:00:20.520
whole area basically almost as if you were wearing a mask.

2728
09:00:20.319 --> 09:00:20.959
You know, like a.

2729
09:00:22.919 --> 09:00:28.319
I don't know, a Batman mask or something, or I'm

2730
09:00:28.400 --> 09:00:31.159
trying to zorrow or something, you know, the kind of

2731
09:00:31.240 --> 09:00:34.319
mask that covers your eyes but also covers quite a

2732
09:00:34.400 --> 09:00:41.159
lot of the forehead. You're focusing on that area because

2733
09:00:41.159 --> 09:00:44.479
that's the area that we're now going to release tension

2734
09:00:44.720 --> 09:00:50.200
and stress from your mind and your brain. From your mind,

2735
09:00:50.360 --> 09:00:54.599
and any tension that you may have remaining your face,

2736
09:00:55.639 --> 09:01:00.319
in your neck and your jaw and your eyes, your

2737
09:01:00.439 --> 09:01:07.119
forehead or your scalp. So basically, any tension within your

2738
09:01:07.279 --> 09:01:10.279
head area, including your mind.

2739
09:01:10.720 --> 09:01:15.880
And your brain, that's going to.

2740
09:01:15.919 --> 09:01:19.919
Be released through your forehead and your eyes.

2741
09:01:23.880 --> 09:01:25.799
As I count down again from.

2742
09:01:26.159 --> 09:03:01.080
Twenty down to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three,

2743
09:03:10.560 --> 09:03:28.560
what noticin she scanned her face mature your eyes, the

2744
09:03:28.840 --> 09:03:37.279
cheap bones, your ears, avoihead, your scalp, your.

2745
09:03:37.279 --> 09:03:40.799
Neck, the back of your neck, in the front of

2746
09:03:40.880 --> 09:03:46.159
your neck, the side of your neck, and your throat h.

2747
09:03:50.880 --> 09:04:01.959
Noticine. Being aware of the comfort increased in the rennaxation,

2748
09:04:04.080 --> 09:04:09.040
not just in your head and neck and mind, also

2749
09:04:09.479 --> 09:04:17.360
the rest of your body. Just it is how loose

2750
09:04:18.880 --> 09:04:22.959
and calm you feel, and how easily.

2751
09:04:24.680 --> 09:04:36.000
It is to just let go completely, let go completely,

2752
09:04:43.680 --> 09:04:45.439
how easily.

2753
09:04:52.439 --> 09:04:55.759
That's what I'm going to do now, is I could

2754
09:04:55.840 --> 09:04:57.599
focus on the top of your head.

2755
09:05:03.040 --> 09:05:04.360
I'm gonna allow.

2756
09:05:05.720 --> 09:05:07.720
Every last.

2757
09:05:09.159 --> 09:05:15.240
Piece of tension or stress that mind be lingering or

2758
09:05:15.439 --> 09:05:20.080
hide it in your body or mind my head.

2759
09:05:21.400 --> 09:05:21.799
To just.

2760
09:05:23.520 --> 09:05:26.759
Be sucked out at the top of your head.

2761
09:05:29.439 --> 09:05:34.439
Released and yeah.

2762
09:05:35.439 --> 09:05:42.319
I'm sucked out into the clouds. Matine Bee aloud of put.

2763
09:05:42.240 --> 09:05:47.159
Your head and it's like a warm pool, and this

2764
09:05:47.360 --> 09:05:49.959
is gonna suck that attension.

2765
09:05:50.959 --> 09:05:52.639
How at the top of your head.

2766
09:05:54.759 --> 09:05:56.279
And just take away.

2767
09:06:01.479 --> 09:06:05.240
To focus. Imagine an opening on the top of your

2768
09:06:05.319 --> 09:06:13.000
head with intension, stress and in remaining issues maybe worries

2769
09:06:13.120 --> 09:06:14.639
of concerns that have.

2770
09:06:14.919 --> 09:06:18.959
No use to you. Now you can all be sucked

2771
09:06:19.000 --> 09:06:23.160
down at the top of your head. I've taken away.

2772
09:06:25.160 --> 09:06:29.639
As I count down again from twenty down to one.

2773
09:06:33.000 --> 09:07:29.599
Now twenty nineteen, eighteen seventeen sixte fifty four thirty weeve.

2774
09:07:35.040 --> 09:07:48.680
Even nine.

2775
09:07:54.879 --> 09:08:48.160
Eight seven six by four three j ware, I'm noticing

2776
09:08:48.480 --> 09:09:03.279
how you feel e relax and come you physically and mentally.

2777
09:09:03.080 --> 09:09:04.800
Feel right now.

2778
09:09:10.319 --> 09:09:20.360
Helpeace or your mind feels it feels so nice to

2779
09:09:20.639 --> 09:09:29.239
just let go, to give yourself some space to breathe easily,

2780
09:09:31.160 --> 09:09:41.160
to think calmly, just to take a break from all

2781
09:09:41.239 --> 09:09:47.919
that pointless worry concerns about things that you don't need

2782
09:09:48.040 --> 09:09:55.919
to think about right now, because.

2783
09:09:57.199 --> 09:09:59.319
This is your time to let go.

2784
09:10:00.720 --> 09:10:10.480
This is your space to enjoy feeling deeply relaxed, peaceful

2785
09:10:10.599 --> 09:10:17.879
in your mind, relaxed in your body. I can feel

2786
09:10:18.440 --> 09:10:28.239
so good, so nice to just not have to do anything,

2787
09:10:30.559 --> 09:10:39.519
to be able to really enjoy that serenity that comes

2788
09:10:41.000 --> 09:10:47.160
of letting go completely, that peacefulness that comes with.

2789
09:10:53.839 --> 09:10:55.199
Being in this.

2790
09:10:57.040 --> 09:11:07.120
Peaceful space. And you can keep this sense of calmness

2791
09:11:07.959 --> 09:11:19.080
for as long as you choose, if you choose to

2792
09:11:19.319 --> 09:11:26.559
drift on into a deep, healing natural sleep, and you

2793
09:11:26.639 --> 09:11:38.160
can do that, it's completely up to you, and you

2794
09:11:38.279 --> 09:11:43.279
can keep this feeling of calmness physically mean in your mind,

2795
09:11:44.559 --> 09:11:45.519
as long.

2796
09:11:45.720 --> 09:12:02.959
As you choose to feel completely relaxed, completely relaxed. They'd

2797
09:12:03.120 --> 09:12:08.720
like you to make up your mind that you're going

2798
09:12:08.800 --> 09:12:09.319
to relax.

2799
09:12:17.959 --> 09:12:21.239
I want to explore that with you. But it feels

2800
09:12:21.360 --> 09:12:28.199
like when you actually decide that you're going to relax,

2801
09:12:29.879 --> 09:12:33.040
not forcing yourself, but giving yourself that.

2802
09:12:36.000 --> 09:12:36.639
Yes, it is a.

2803
09:12:36.680 --> 09:12:43.760
Command, really, isn't it. When you're telling yourself relax in

2804
09:12:43.879 --> 09:12:48.519
a gentle but firm way, that only you.

2805
09:12:48.839 --> 09:12:53.720
Can really tell you something in that way. You can't

2806
09:12:53.760 --> 09:12:54.800
really have someone else.

2807
09:12:54.639 --> 09:12:57.919
Saying to you, now it relax, relax.

2808
09:12:58.599 --> 09:12:58.800
You know.

2809
09:13:01.000 --> 09:13:03.239
It needs to be gentle, but you can't. Someone else

2810
09:13:03.279 --> 09:13:11.360
can't really have the same the same kind of influence

2811
09:13:12.519 --> 09:13:20.400
or power that you have over your own physicality.

2812
09:13:20.440 --> 09:13:29.080
Over how you feel, because when you say it.

2813
09:13:29.440 --> 09:13:37.639
To yourself, it means more. It's personal, and your brain

2814
09:13:37.919 --> 09:13:42.720
and your unconscious mind and your body listens to what

2815
09:13:43.000 --> 09:13:49.000
you say. So, for example, we'll test it out and

2816
09:13:49.120 --> 09:13:51.480
do a little test. I do you little tests.

2817
09:13:51.160 --> 09:13:54.760
Along the way, and you can get more of an.

2818
09:13:54.800 --> 09:14:01.040
Idea of the force of positive of force that you

2819
09:14:01.199 --> 09:14:08.720
can have in creating a sense of comfort and relaxation

2820
09:14:09.000 --> 09:14:14.919
in your body and your mind quite quickly, just by

2821
09:14:15.120 --> 09:14:25.519
you telling yourself to relax. So I'm going to start

2822
09:14:25.599 --> 09:14:32.279
by let's focus on your hands. To focus on your

2823
09:14:32.319 --> 09:14:37.480
hands and just tell your hands to relax. Just say relax.

2824
09:14:39.160 --> 09:14:44.519
As you focus on your hands, you could say my

2825
09:14:44.839 --> 09:14:48.599
hands are relaxed, or I want my hands to relax.

2826
09:14:50.720 --> 09:14:56.480
I think if you actually do it directly by focusing

2827
09:14:57.160 --> 09:15:01.279
and imagining that your hands can hear what you're saying.

2828
09:15:01.480 --> 09:15:04.480
You know they've got little ears, which a little weird.

2829
09:15:07.080 --> 09:15:11.080
So talking to your hands and just say relax.

2830
09:15:17.239 --> 09:15:18.120
You know this sin.

2831
09:15:24.080 --> 09:15:25.760
And your hands start to relax.

2832
09:15:38.160 --> 09:15:41.680
Now focus on your eyes and tell your eyes to relax.

2833
09:15:42.800 --> 09:15:47.639
You're just saying the same word relax. And find the

2834
09:15:47.839 --> 09:15:50.559
right tone for you.

2835
09:15:53.120 --> 09:15:54.319
You know, I might say.

2836
09:15:54.760 --> 09:16:03.279
Relax that you you might say really adds or relax.

2837
09:16:03.839 --> 09:16:07.879
You know, you might say it differently to yourself, and

2838
09:16:09.040 --> 09:16:15.000
that's important for you to gauge what feels right for you.

2839
09:16:17.160 --> 09:16:22.319
Just tell your eyes to relax, whilst focusing on your eyes,

2840
09:16:22.879 --> 09:16:27.559
your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your eyebrows, and

2841
09:16:27.800 --> 09:17:03.279
just tell your eyes dioricly relax. Now now I just

2842
09:17:03.400 --> 09:17:04.680
did that myself.

2843
09:17:04.680 --> 09:17:04.760
And.

2844
09:17:12.160 --> 09:17:14.760
Sometimes you may feel that you need a bit more

2845
09:17:14.919 --> 09:17:20.720
time or the different parts to relax, you know, because

2846
09:17:20.720 --> 09:17:25.800
I start talking again and maybe that part hasn't relaxed fully.

2847
09:17:26.760 --> 09:17:29.839
But what happen is it will just continue to relax.

2848
09:17:29.559 --> 09:17:30.440
Even though I'm talking.

2849
09:17:32.160 --> 09:17:37.879
And that's happening with my eyes. Something else I noticed

2850
09:17:38.040 --> 09:17:44.199
is when I started focusing on my eyes, that actually almost.

2851
09:17:44.000 --> 09:17:46.440
Became they got worse before they got better in a

2852
09:17:46.480 --> 09:17:47.599
way sort of.

2853
09:17:47.760 --> 09:17:50.839
I felt a degree of tension growing in my eyes

2854
09:17:52.480 --> 09:17:56.879
and then disappearing. So I think what that was really

2855
09:17:57.080 --> 09:18:02.959
was just me becoming more aware of the tension that

2856
09:18:03.160 --> 09:18:04.080
was already.

2857
09:18:03.760 --> 09:18:05.239
Dead that I wasn't.

2858
09:18:06.239 --> 09:18:10.160
I wasn't focused on it peopole, so I wasn't really

2859
09:18:10.879 --> 09:18:12.400
acknowledging it or.

2860
09:18:13.959 --> 09:18:15.239
Am really.

2861
09:18:16.559 --> 09:18:29.919
Conscious to those feelings. Yeah, my eyes is still continuing

2862
09:18:30.000 --> 09:18:30.879
to relax.

2863
09:18:31.199 --> 09:18:36.800
As well as my hands. Actually, my hands have got

2864
09:18:36.879 --> 09:18:42.680
a certain kind of energy, like not by thing, but

2865
09:18:43.040 --> 09:18:43.480
I can.

2866
09:18:43.440 --> 09:18:43.720
Kind of.

2867
09:18:46.080 --> 09:18:51.959
Feeling a degree of energy in my hands. Maybe that's

2868
09:18:52.040 --> 09:18:56.919
where the tension is being released. Maybe that supports in that.

2869
09:19:04.279 --> 09:19:06.480
And it's part I think you should focus.

2870
09:19:06.239 --> 09:19:08.440
On the back of the neck as a part of

2871
09:19:08.480 --> 09:19:09.599
it is quite often.

2872
09:19:11.360 --> 09:19:13.800
Well for me, hold'st tension I don't know about it

2873
09:19:13.839 --> 09:19:18.839
for yourself. I think it's quite a standard place where

2874
09:19:19.160 --> 09:19:26.080
tension is sometimes held. So and I'm doing exactly what

2875
09:19:26.239 --> 09:19:28.720
you're doing as you do it as well, so I'm

2876
09:19:28.800 --> 09:19:32.279
telling my body parts to relax as well.

2877
09:19:33.040 --> 09:19:34.480
So if you tell your neck at.

2878
09:19:34.400 --> 09:19:36.919
The back of your neck, focus on the back of

2879
09:19:36.959 --> 09:19:43.760
your neck, and just say relax in your own.

2880
09:19:43.639 --> 09:19:46.319
Words, in your own tone, in your own voice.

2881
09:19:47.000 --> 09:19:49.080
You can say out loud, or you can just say

2882
09:19:49.160 --> 09:19:54.680
to yourself internally. But you're focusing, and you're saying it

2883
09:19:55.040 --> 09:19:56.919
literally to the.

2884
09:19:56.959 --> 09:19:59.680
Back of your neck, as if the back of your

2885
09:19:59.760 --> 09:20:01.160
neck an h the year.

2886
09:20:01.839 --> 09:20:08.639
What you're saying, So do that now, just say the legs,

2887
09:20:09.160 --> 09:20:50.919
so bang your nick And I did the same. And

2888
09:20:51.080 --> 09:20:54.639
what I noticed and you may have had similar thing.

2889
09:20:56.040 --> 09:20:58.879
Yes, even though I was focusing.

2890
09:20:58.480 --> 09:21:06.599
On the back of the neck, other parts started to.

2891
09:21:09.599 --> 09:21:13.239
I don't know, showed themselves to me or maybe because

2892
09:21:13.239 --> 09:21:16.120
they want to be relaxed as well. But I started

2893
09:21:16.279 --> 09:21:20.879
noticing the feelings in my shoulders, attention in my shoulders.

2894
09:21:20.720 --> 09:21:21.680
And in my upper back.

2895
09:21:24.800 --> 09:21:28.919
Whether that was because my back of my neck was

2896
09:21:29.000 --> 09:21:34.800
saying and I'm pretty much okay, it's the other parts

2897
09:21:34.839 --> 09:21:43.760
that need attention. But my lobe, my my back of

2898
09:21:43.839 --> 09:21:48.080
my neck is still relaxing, but I just became aware

2899
09:21:48.120 --> 09:21:54.800
of other parts that needed attention. Now, this might happen

2900
09:21:54.919 --> 09:21:59.839
and it's not. It doesn't mean that it's going wrong.

2901
09:22:00.160 --> 09:22:05.639
Just means you're being notified of more places.

2902
09:22:06.360 --> 09:22:08.319
But also want to be relaxed.

2903
09:22:11.559 --> 09:22:13.319
So I'm going to focus on.

2904
09:22:13.760 --> 09:22:19.319
My upper back so you can do the same, even if.

2905
09:22:19.239 --> 09:22:20.360
You don't have any.

2906
09:22:21.760 --> 09:22:25.279
Feelings of tension that robb us in your upper back.

2907
09:22:27.199 --> 09:22:32.080
You just focus on your back and the whole area

2908
09:22:32.239 --> 09:22:34.120
from the shoulder blades.

2909
09:22:33.839 --> 09:22:38.440
Down to the going of your back and your spine.

2910
09:22:39.919 --> 09:22:47.720
And with me, it's all the shoulder blades. Th yeah,

2911
09:22:47.800 --> 09:22:48.599
that's the parts.

2912
09:22:48.680 --> 09:22:49.000
They re.

2913
09:22:51.279 --> 09:22:58.120
Sort of given me the log do you needs relaxing?

2914
09:22:58.319 --> 09:23:01.839
So I's going to ask that part that and you

2915
09:23:01.919 --> 09:23:02.559
can do the same.

2916
09:23:02.639 --> 09:23:29.440
Now relapsed about the back, there's something strange happened there.

2917
09:23:29.919 --> 09:23:30.199
And this.

2918
09:23:31.680 --> 09:23:32.720
Often happens that.

2919
09:23:32.760 --> 09:23:33.720
We're doing this FIR.

2920
09:23:36.080 --> 09:23:45.000
For sixteen years or something, and often I'm once surprised, amaze.

2921
09:23:44.440 --> 09:23:45.080
Really bad.

2922
09:23:47.360 --> 09:23:51.680
There can be a feeling. So when I was focusing

2923
09:23:51.760 --> 09:23:52.319
on the back of.

2924
09:23:52.360 --> 09:23:56.879
My neck, my upper back was starting to feel quite

2925
09:23:57.080 --> 09:24:02.800
stressed and in need of attention. As soon as I

2926
09:24:02.879 --> 09:24:08.720
started talking to you about my upper back and talking about,

2927
09:24:08.879 --> 09:24:12.680
you know, getting ready to ask the upper back to relax,

2928
09:24:14.400 --> 09:24:20.120
why the back already started to relax. It's almost as

2929
09:24:20.160 --> 09:24:25.959
if it doesn't need to hear the words, just needs attention,

2930
09:24:30.760 --> 09:24:42.760
just needs to be noticed. That is something that often

2931
09:24:43.000 --> 09:24:46.440
happens in this type.

2932
09:24:46.199 --> 09:24:47.639
Of situation.

2933
09:24:48.839 --> 09:24:54.160
Is when you start to relax a couple of parts

2934
09:24:54.199 --> 09:25:01.199
of your body, as we've done with our hands, their eyes, eyelids.

2935
09:25:02.440 --> 09:25:09.440
And now back of the neck, top of the bank.

2936
09:25:11.279 --> 09:25:14.680
At the bank, the rest of the body seems to

2937
09:25:14.919 --> 09:25:23.599
just take notice and decide in its own way to

2938
09:25:23.800 --> 09:25:26.199
start relaxing.

2939
09:25:28.000 --> 09:25:33.440
Other parts of your body start to just become looser.

2940
09:25:38.160 --> 09:25:40.959
I suppose it's kind of like a bit of an avalanche,

2941
09:25:41.160 --> 09:25:43.040
you know, the.

2942
09:25:43.120 --> 09:25:46.760
Little balls starts rolling and before you know, the whole

2943
09:25:46.839 --> 09:25:59.080
of your body is completely relaxed and cool. And if

2944
09:25:59.080 --> 09:26:10.080
you focus on your face, focus on your eyes, the eyelids,

2945
09:26:11.239 --> 09:26:20.879
your eyebrowns, and the muscles around your eyes, then you

2946
09:26:21.040 --> 09:26:26.080
start to notice that your forehead is more relaxed than

2947
09:26:26.160 --> 09:26:33.519
it was. Maybe your face is more relaxed. I would

2948
09:26:33.599 --> 09:26:37.800
say my entire face is a lot more relaxed than you.

2949
09:26:49.440 --> 09:26:53.040
So I'm going to focus now on your shoulders.

2950
09:26:54.800 --> 09:26:55.760
The game, just like.

2951
09:26:55.839 --> 09:26:58.760
Before, just to your shoulders.

2952
09:26:59.559 --> 09:26:59.959
Mm hmm.

2953
09:27:00.160 --> 09:27:02.080
You can't do them in the bituity. You can do

2954
09:27:02.440 --> 09:27:03.839
right shoulder and this shoulder.

2955
09:27:05.400 --> 09:27:07.559
I just can't do both at the same time.

2956
09:27:09.319 --> 09:27:12.720
I just tell your shoulders as you focus on them

2957
09:27:12.800 --> 09:27:17.680
in your mind, focus somehow feel maybe.

2958
09:27:18.720 --> 09:27:21.360
You can see them in your mind time.

2959
09:27:24.959 --> 09:28:09.639
Just tell your shoulders to relax as nice as they relax.

2960
09:28:20.000 --> 09:28:28.400
But I don't notice, especially with my bank, is the

2961
09:28:28.559 --> 09:28:40.639
connection between the different parts, the banks, the neck being

2962
09:28:40.760 --> 09:28:45.400
more connected and being such a large part of your body,

2963
09:28:48.400 --> 09:28:50.400
it's almost hard to separate them.

2964
09:28:50.599 --> 09:28:51.199
From each other.

2965
09:28:56.919 --> 09:28:59.480
My lower back is starting to relax on the son.

2966
09:29:05.639 --> 09:29:10.279
I think you're going too slowly, and that could be

2967
09:29:10.319 --> 09:29:16.639
an issue because you will go at different speeds. And

2968
09:29:17.879 --> 09:29:21.040
the idea of beginning of this recordings for you.

2969
09:29:21.199 --> 09:29:22.720
To be able to just say to.

2970
09:29:22.800 --> 09:29:39.599
Yourself, relax without focusing on any particular part of the body.

2971
09:29:41.879 --> 09:29:48.160
Because when you know the tend your hands to relax,

2972
09:29:52.199 --> 09:29:54.160
your hands relates.

2973
09:29:56.160 --> 09:29:56.199
Me.

2974
09:29:56.319 --> 09:30:07.080
Tell your eyelids, eyes, muscles around your eyes, eyebrows, to

2975
09:30:07.279 --> 09:30:12.760
the laps, relax.

2976
09:30:18.360 --> 09:30:20.720
Too, back of your neck.

2977
09:30:23.879 --> 09:30:59.160
To relax, relaxes until you're out backs. Did relaxes.

2978
09:31:06.639 --> 09:31:08.080
Your shoulders.

2979
09:31:09.760 --> 09:31:46.879
Night night, took your hands to night.

2980
09:31:48.160 --> 09:32:03.720
Next two nights, told your mind, yeh, the much sus around.

2981
09:32:03.519 --> 09:32:06.519
Your eyes, the wide girls.

2982
09:32:06.559 --> 09:32:07.639
Two lads.

2983
09:32:09.319 --> 09:32:14.559
The next two two.

2984
09:32:16.599 --> 09:32:27.120
Nights and told the back of your neck, you siwer

2985
09:32:27.199 --> 09:32:27.879
back of your neck.

2986
09:32:31.639 --> 09:32:33.440
I'm told the too nats.

2987
09:32:37.360 --> 09:32:38.319
The last.

2988
09:32:40.680 --> 09:32:53.959
Two two nights and you told your arm back.

2989
09:32:57.319 --> 09:33:14.919
To your lash. Relax team twas that's what you shoulders

2990
09:33:17.400 --> 09:33:24.400
until the shoulders to X. So it's relaxed.

2991
09:33:25.559 --> 09:33:38.839
To It's not just that.

2992
09:33:42.120 --> 09:33:46.519
It's with the rest of your body.

2993
09:33:47.480 --> 09:33:49.959
It's all so inst.

2994
09:33:51.519 --> 09:33:58.839
The reaxations. Been spreading your eyes to your safe and

2995
09:33:59.080 --> 09:34:00.519
spect ahead.

2996
09:34:03.559 --> 09:34:08.080
Now your face and the skin into jo.

2997
09:34:17.639 --> 09:34:18.519
Two pounds of.

2998
09:34:18.720 --> 09:34:19.839
Side and then.

2999
09:34:21.720 --> 09:34:33.080
My damn chests, hands and shoulders.

3000
09:34:41.639 --> 09:34:50.559
Mus that's a.

3001
09:34:58.879 --> 09:35:03.239
Bad up.

3002
09:35:07.720 --> 09:35:09.720
Start Sip.

3003
09:35:15.519 --> 09:35:35.800
Sip sign.

3004
09:36:13.080 --> 09:37:09.519
And should you about s mine steps? Ye did school

3005
09:37:16.040 --> 09:37:27.040
peaceful stump.

3006
09:37:59.000 --> 09:38:04.239
M m y us

3007
09:38:14.800 --> 09:38:38.959
I sh