July 1, 2025

(no music) (10 hours) Attempted Monday’s Boring Objects | LMBYTS #1385 | Jason Newland | 30th June 2025

(no music) (10 hours) Attempted Monday’s Boring Objects | LMBYTS #1385 | Jason Newland | 30th June 2025
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Hello, and welcome to Jasonnewland dot com. My name's Jason Newland.

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This is let me bore you to sleep. Please only

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listen when you can safely closer eze. Today is Monday,

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the thirtieth of Dewan Tall zero little five. Then he

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is carried up next to me on the sofa. Something's

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got his attention because he's is a pricked up and

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he's looking around. So haven't you heard something, haven't you? Yeah,

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he's not quite so angry with me today because although

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I did leave him on his own again visiting my

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day by in hospital M I I left early, so

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I got a left by it with another neighbor who

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took me to the hospital after dropping off his wife

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and the kid at school and work. And I got there.

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My left here at half seven, got there about core

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past eight a M. And I left.

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And B B B.

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I'm not sure what I left. I left about.

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One. I think.

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I'm not exactly yeah, I'm not exactly sure. So I was.

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Home.

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I think I was home by two o'clock. I took

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Vinnie into the garden too, do wee wiz, But it's

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too hot outside for him to go out properly. So

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I'm not gonna he won't be going out until probably

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six seven six or something like that because it's just

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a bit too hot. He did have a nice w

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alk this morning, which was about half an hour out.

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We was out for about half an hour, but I

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think it because it was so early in the morning.

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I mean, we did wake up about I don't know,

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twenty to four, because we did. We went to bed

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about half eight last night and woke up about twenty

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to four, and so we got up. I got up,

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I had my breakfast. He got up as well, and

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we went for a walk about half six till. Yeah,

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it was about twenty five to seven till about five

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past seven, and then I had a shower, So I

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got back, had a shower, yeah, and then pretty much

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had about three minutes to get prepared to go downstairs

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and get a lift. So it all worked out okay. Potentially,

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Potentially I was maybe moving a bit too fast because normally,

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you know, I'm not I'm not necessarily set to a timer.

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So I found that I was making slightly more noise

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than usual when I was I think I was probably

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attempting to make less noise. I find that the try

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the more I try to make less noise, the more

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noise I tend to make. So if I'm in the

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if I'm gonss, I'm in the kitchen and I'm trying

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to wash up really quietly because it's early in the morning.

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I don't want to disturb, you know, the neighbors. That's

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when I start dropping stuff in the sink. It's weird,

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isn't it strange? And it's strange. So yeah, I just

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want to say thank you to everyone that's sent their

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well wishes for my neighbor. It's very kind of you,

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and I do appreciate your support. He So I'll give

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you the update. I know this is going to be

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Monday's boring objects. I'm going to talk about hospitals, but

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none of it is going to be medical or anything

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like that. Okay, so it was a little bit, but

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it's not really good. It's not It's all going to

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be tasteful, if that's the right word. I'll try and

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keep everything tasteful apart from some of my jokes. Maybe

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I don't know. Well, don't you tell jokes, do you?

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I've never remember you ever telling a joke. Okay, I

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don't if jokes is a correct word. I think they're jokes.

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Maybe other people don't know, they don't notice. So, yeah,

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hospitals is going to be and maybe I've even done

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that before, but we're doing it again, doing it again.

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So I will talk about my experiences in hospitals, including

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being in hospital twice myself, also going to hospital a

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few times for different things, and visiting people in hospital.

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The first time I did hypnosis with someone in hospital. Yeah,

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so this had a few little instances along the way,

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visiting my nan in hospital, but I mean that was

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that was a journey, and that took me about five hours,

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six hours to get there, and then when I get there,

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I'm told that it's closing time or yeah, kind of

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that wasn't good. So the update on me neighbor is

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two things. Really, his next door neighbor, his current next

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door neighbor that's in the bed next to him, is

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leaving tomorrow and so he won't be there. And they're close.

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They're really close. They've been together for a week and

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you can see there's a it's almost like a brotherly

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kind of thing going on there. It's nice. And this

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is ten. This bloke's probably ten years younger than him.

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I mean, I think he's about sixty six. She's kind

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of in the middle between me and my neighbor. My

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neighbor's seventy eight on Friday, I think this week. The

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other neighbor this Friday, third Wednesday, froze whatever. I'm fifty four,

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he's sixty six, and everyone's sixty sixty eight, so it's

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kind of midway between us, and you can see there's

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a playfulness between them. I did discover something quite interesting

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about my neighbor today from his neighbor, his new neighbor. Now,

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my neighbor can't stop talking. He literally can't stop talking,

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and he just talks, talks, talks. Apparently he talks when

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he's asleep. He doesn't even stop talking when he's asleep.

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So I don't know what and this, okay, I don't

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I was talking to the nurses about him talking because

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I was laughing about it, and they can't believe. I

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don't think they've ever met anyone who talks as much

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as him. They thought he was due to his condition,

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and I said, no, he's been like that since I've

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known him for ten years. I'm not saying that he's

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not affected by his condition. You know, I don't want

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to get in the way of any kind of medical

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intervention that might help. But yeah, they laughed, They said really,

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I said, yeah, there always been a chatterbox, But then

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I'm a chatterbox and I do see myself in him.

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That sounds wrong, doesn't it, But I you know, I

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see myself. I tell I think part of the reason. It's

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not a conscious thing, but I think part of the

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reason why I I've helped him over the period the

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time I been here and continue to do so, to

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try and help. Anyway, I'm not sure how helpful I

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am is because I see it's almost like I'm looking

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at him and that's me in twenty five years time,

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or twenty three years time, twenty six years time. Wait

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a minute, fifty four, fifty four, sixty four, seventy four,

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I'll be seventy five, it'll be seventy eight. That's twenty

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three years anyway, something like that. So you know, twenty

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three years, you know in some ways, Oh, it's a

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long time away, is it?

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Though?

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It is for someone who's ten, it is for someone

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who's twenty, it is for someone who's thirty, maybe someone

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who's forty. But it doesn't seem that far away now.

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I mean for someone who's twenty, if you say, oh,

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in twenty twenty five years, don't look at you like really,

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I'll be an old age pinchner in twenty five years.

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Or if you say that to a twenty year old

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in twenty five years, like yeah, I remember when I

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was a kid, Okay, when I was a kid, when

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I was a younger man, in my twenties, even up

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to my mid twenties, I remember thinking, I'm not genuinely

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thinking if someone said, oh, you got some wrong on

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your leg, you're going to have to have it removed

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in twenty years time, wouldn't even care. It's like twenty

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years that's a lifetime away. I don't care about twenty

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years away now. If someone said that now, it'd be like,

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that's like telling me before Christmas, by the end of

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this year, you're going to have that. That's how close

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it seems, almost because it goes so quickly, so quickly.

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In twenty five years ago or twenty three years ago,

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even I was working in a core center in Churchill Insurance,

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and I felt old then. I felt old then. I

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think part of the reason was because I was working

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with when nearly everybody there was younger than me by

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a lot. So you know, I was thirty one, thirty two.

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There was people there in their early twenties, some even

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in late teens, and quite a few of them treated

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me like I was old, like really old. And there

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was this female I think she was probably about twenty,

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and she was in my team. She's quite new, and

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she oh god, I think I was just finished to shift.

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So I get my phone out of my pocket. I'm

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just gonna look at it, so if I'd any texts

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or anything, and she starts laughing. She says, oh, ah,

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I didn't think you'd have a modern phone because it

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was a small phone. It's like, really, what did you

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think I'd have some kind of big satellite phone or

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bring out put out an egg cup with a bit

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of string attached to it, Like, what did you think

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I was going to use? It's a phone.

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It's just.

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It is. It's some weird you may be using something something,

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something up to date. Yeah, and now as I get older,

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I'm thinking I was selling mobile phone contracts forty twenty

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four years ago. So my neighbor downstairs wasn't even live

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when I was selling mobile phone contracts. My neighbors stays.

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My neighbor downstairs wasn't I even alive when I was

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working at Churchill. I mean she was, Yeah, she wasn't alive.

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She wasn't even alive when I just when I'd finished

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working at Churchill. In fact, my neighbor downstairs was born

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a year before I started making recordings online. So I've

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been doing it nineteen years. She's twenty. It's unbelievable, fully

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formed human being with her whole lifetime experiences at the

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same time as me sitting here. We're not sitting here

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necessarily but making weird audios. And the youth it's beyond measure.

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I find a very confusing, I really do. And to

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make it worse, she's probably thirty times more mature than

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I am as a person.

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Like now.

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Not when when I was your age, I was like

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a what twenty I was? I was a child. Mentally

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I was a child. I can just hear like all

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many children when they entering in their age and no

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mental never grab up. Sure stop. This is about love,

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this is this is a gentle, loving place. Come on,

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come on, can't we just get along? He hey? Anyway,

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my neighbor. He talks in his sleep. I didn't know that.

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I tried to explain that to his neighbor. I said, well,

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we don't sleep together. And I made a mistake. I

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said the wrong thing earlier. I've got a habit of

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doing this, just generally in life. I'm talking to one

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of the nurses and I'm just asking some questions and

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we just chatting. I said, oh, you've got lovely eyes.

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I didn't mean anything by it, and she punched me.

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Now she didn't. I said you got lovely eyes. I said, oh,

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sorry about that, and we carried on talking and apparently

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it was distracting her change in the cafeter but she

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didn't know it was behind the curtain. But it's and

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I thought, oh, bit, I might think.

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See.

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I didn't care about myself embarrassing myself. It's far. It's

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it's quite hard for me to embarrass myself these days.

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Although something did happen later on that was a bit embarrassing.

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Involved a toilet. I'll tell you that in a minute. Anyway,

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it started to bug me. I'm thinking she's at work,

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and this is someone that I've gotten quite well with

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divid last week. It's really nice, very friendly, we have

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a laughing that, and I thought, that's that's that was

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just it was not on. I can't be. It's you know,

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it's one thing if I was, even even if I was,

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I don't know, just paying someone a compliment. It's probably

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not the thing to do anymore. It used to be

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kind of okay when I was younger, in my in

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my day, you know, in the seventeenth century. But and

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I thought, no, that's just can I apologize?

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Sins?

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I said it, And so I thought, you know what

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what I'll do is when there's no one else around,

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I just apologize to us. So I did. I said, Look,

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and then what I thought i'd do, okay, is i'd apologize.

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But it's part of me wanted to. I don't know,

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it's just it's just it's the cheeky, cheeky little monkey

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inside of me. So this is what I said to her.

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I said, I just I just want to apologize earlier

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if I was inappropriate when I said that you've got

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a lovely smile. And she said, oh, don't worry about it,

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and she's and she said, honestly, I said, no, it

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was unprofession of me. And she laughed, And so now

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I'm thinking when she left, did she notice I said

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something different? Because before I said she had lovely eyes,

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and I said a lovely smile, and I thought, oh,

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that's wrong. I shouldn't, so I thought a better just

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changed side. As I left, I said, oh, by the way, again,

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before I go, I want to say so sorry for

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saying saying that you got a really perky bum. I

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should I didn't say that. I just I didn't. I

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actually didn't say goodbye to her because I didn't see

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her when I left. But I'm wondering if she if

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she noticed that I said something different. Is it just

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popped out in my mouth. It's a little bit like,

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I don't know. It's a bit like watching my name

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try to eat more than one bald sweet at a time.

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One always seemed to pop out, one always fell on

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the floor. No, I didn't. I don't want was saying

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that leave my name alone. Blimey. It's like seeing it

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a hamster try and eat a gobstopper. Anyone's see it.

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Everyone knows what a gobstopper is. Oh, my body's so sensitive.

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I'm just stroking my chest. I got a little it's

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a spot. Actually I've aughtay was a nipple. I thought,

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oh no, not a fifth nipple. So yeah, I he's

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all right. But he had he had this body scan,

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like a big old body scan on Friday morning, like

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you know, early hours before nine o'clock. I got Friday

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morning and he still hasn't had the results, and I

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hung around hoping that he would get the results before

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I left. But by half a I think it was

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by about one o'clock, still no one had come to

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see him, and he was eating his dinner. So I

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just left him. I went downstairs to get him some

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stuff from the shop, and then I just came home.

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So I was going to give him a call tomorrow.

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I'm not going to go every single day this week

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because I don't think I can. I can't financially do it.

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But it's not just that I could get a bus.

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It's just a journey. I couldn't, you know. I got

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a taxi back today. I just couldn't face getting on

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a bus and two journeys and standing out in that sun.

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And so yeah, I just got the taxi back. And

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then I'm in the taxi just talking about technology and

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just some whatever, and just as we pull up outside

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my house. I notice he's got a camera. There's a

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little not only a camera, but there's a little screen.

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It's shown me and him together. There's one thing having

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a camera. It's fine. I've never seen myself on a

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little screen like that. And I said, I don't know.

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It was.

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A little bit annoying. I think I felt a little

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bit trest passed upon because if I knew i'd been filmed,

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I think there's one thing being filmed without sound, because

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you know, you need to be filmed if what you're doing,

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you know, I guess that's okay, but I didn't really

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want my conversation recorded. I don't know. It felt a

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little bit intrusive, a little bit, a little bit, you know.

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And I.

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Mean I've been in places, I've been in taxis and

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cars where there's a camera. I just I don't take

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much notice of it. But I've never been anywhere before

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where there's actually a screen it shows you yourself being recorded.

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It made it more real. And there's a reason I

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don't film myself anymore because I don't like being on camera,

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which is a shame because my YouTube channel's going completely

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to nothing. Really, even though every recording I do is

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uploaded onto YouTube. I'm losing subscribers. I don't know why.

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That's funny, but it's yeah, it's weird. I thought it

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would be quite handy to have it as a as

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a separate like there's another place to listen to the podcast,

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but YouTube doesn't seem to agree. Agree agree.

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Yeah.

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So it's Monday, Monday, and that's it. I don't think

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there's anything else going on with the hospital visit today.

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Went there. I found out my other neighbor because I

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knew it used to be in a band. He was

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quite one of the and I say originators, but it's

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one of the originators of the psychedelic movement in this country.

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It started in America, but he he built a group

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and he was in a lot of he worked with

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a lot of really famous people in the sixties when

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the psychedelic movement was around, which would be I don't

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probably late sixties, maybe early seventies, late sixties, yeah, late sixties,

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because I know the Beatles were influenced by the psychedelic

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movement in sixty six, sixty seven, sixty eight, something like that.

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And and he's literally it's in London recording an album.

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You know, he's still and he's think he's over eighty

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I think now, and he's still going. And he knows

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loads of people. But to him it's not they're not

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famous people. They're just people that he's known for sixty years.

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And it's weird. He said, something just off. This is

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by the way, this is somebody that does not brag.

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That's the thing about it. He's not a bragger. I'm

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a bragger. I just don't have anything to brag about.

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That's why you don't really hear me bragging because there's

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nothing to brag about. He's got loads to brag about,

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and he doesn't. But he will ask. He will answer questions,

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and not all questions, but he will, you know, if

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I ask him stuff. And he said, the only Beatole

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member that he didn't meet was Paul McCartney. He met

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the other three and I said to you, okay, well

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you know the next question I'm going to ask. And

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he said, what's that? How did I get my name?

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I said, no, because he's got I won't say because

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you're about to look it up. Because he's on a

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Wikipedia page.

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He's not.

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He was well known, but he's not kind of like famous,

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famous in a sense of possibly anyone under the age

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of seventies will have heard of possibly, Like I mean

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as in the period of time that he was well

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known with the seventies, late sixties and seventies, and but

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he worked on albums with a lot of famous artists

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over a long period of time. So I'm bragging about him.

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But he doesn't brag, um won if he brags about me.

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So I'm bragging about him telling people or one of

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my neighbors used to be in famous bands and stuff

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in the sixties and seventies, and I know him. Do

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you think he's saying the same kind of thing about me? Yea,

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I got a neighbor's he's got a dog. What else

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is it to say? Yeah, you've got a dog? What else?

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You know?

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He's quite a nice bloke. You want to be trapped

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at a lift with him because he was just talking

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a lot of rubbish. But other than that, h yeah,

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he was saying something about he was It was at

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this gig what was it? The Birds? The Birds were

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playing this one of the birds were like huge. The

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band called the Birds b y r Ds, I do believe,

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And they were at a small club in London, and

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all the names went to this club on this occasion

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because they wanted to see them in concert. So my

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neighbor went along and it was jam packed. He was

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telling me this this morning, because I was asking him

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about acause I said to him, no, what was John

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Linnan like? And he said, exactly the same as you'd think,

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because at that time, that's when he was in the Beatles.

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And he said, sarcastic, funny, full of energy, and he

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just was kind of what you saw on TV. You know, Yeah,

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obviously he could be serious as well, but great sense

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of humor and yeah, and he said basically, my neighbor said,

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he got into this club it is so jam packed.

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I don't know if it was Johnny Scott's or whatever.

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It is one of those big places, and he ended

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up I think it was one of the I think

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Pink Floyd's manager was there and knew him and called

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him over and invited him to go and sit on

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the table with John Lennon, and he ended up sitting

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between John between Pink Floyd's manager and John Lennon's wife

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at that time, and John Lennon's wife was sitting next

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to John Lennon so he's literally just and he'd never

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met John Lennon. And to be fair, there was no

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one more famous in the world of entertainment at that

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time than the Beatles, so even you know, he was

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in I imagine he was in awe of beating him.

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He got chatting to him and stuff. But in that situation,

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you'd probably just be like an ordinary person really, because

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you can't treat someone like they're a superstar. I've always

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They're probably not going to want to talk to you.

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I'm guessing, in fact, I find that way. I find

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that in the past when I when I when I

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act like a superstar, people don't like to talk to me.

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Who actually just generally people don't like to talk to me.

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Apart from the people that do. They're the ones that

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worry me though, you know, the people that want to

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sit down and actually, oh, tell me more. Jason, I'm like,

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I'm not sure if I do want to a little

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bit worried Ooh yeah, he's of my neighbors. That's a

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different neighbor. So the neighboring hospital is just waiting for

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his tests. And it was weird because today he started

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asking me questions about myself. Now I was expecting him

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to use this as an excuse to start to talk

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about sports, which is what he sometimes does. He asks

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questions and then it can lead him on to talking

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about something he wants to talk about, or maybe there

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was a subject that he wanted to talk about, and

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he was trying to get me there by drawing me in,

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you know, by pretending to be interested in what I

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used to do. But he seemed genuinely interested. And he

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was asking me about the comedy, about doing stand up

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comedy in London, because I think I must have mentioned

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to him at some point, and he was asking me

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about people that I'd met. I think, yeah, because I

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think I was telling about the neighbor what I just

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told you. I was telling him about that, and he

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started asking me about me, about me and saying, now,

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who did you meet? I said, in London, you haven't

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met any famous people? And I said, he said specifically

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famous comedians when I was on the comedy circuit. And

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I used to be involved in comedy for about ten

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years or twenty years really, but ten years solidly. And

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he said that he kept he had follow up questions,

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where did I go? How much was the gigs that people,

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how much the people pay to get in. I feel

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a little bit like he was trying to catch me out,

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like I was just lying and he was trying to

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find out if I was just telling porky pies. But

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the thing is why I'd have to be a bit

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silly to lie about my failures, wouldn't I because I

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wasn't successful. I never made out I was successful.

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Ever.

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I had some good gigs. I had a few really

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really brilliant gigs, but not many, and a few average

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gigs but not many. I would say, probably if you're

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going to go buy an audience response or the comedy

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promoter's response or the comedy club promoter percentage wise, I

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would say, if you broke it up into good, I'll

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leave good and really good in the same category.

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So good.

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Okay, not really good, not okay bad, I'm good, so

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okay would be a few laughs okay would be where

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they didn't the promoter didn't get kicked out of the

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club and told they're never going to be able to

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allowed to have another night there of comedy because of

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what I'd said, So that would be an okay gig,

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but not necessarily a good gig for me. A bad

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gig that I had lots of those, especially in the

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first couple of years. The first year, I don't think

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I was even aware that they were bad. I was,

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I wasn't the most I don't know, I don't know.

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What's this got to do with hospitals. Well, this conversation

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occurred in the hospital, so it is still part of

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the boring objects Monday's boring objects A and percentage wise,

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I would say probably I worked out. I think a

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bit about I did about I worked out once. I

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did about two hundred and fifty gigs twenty fifty twenty

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fifty performances over the period, and things did start to

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slow down once I got to nineteen ninety five, and

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I went through periods when I didn't do any comedy

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at all for months and months. So nineteen ninety four,

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A lot of this was to do with accommodation jobs

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situations where you know, I was I just couldn't either

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I was not interested or I didn't have the money

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to get to gigs anyway, So I didn't bother because

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there were some gigs I could just turn up at,

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like a talent contest that was every Thursday or every Wednesday,

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or every other Thursday. You know, I think it was

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a downstairs at the King's Head was once a month

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on a Thursday, I do believe. And at the Comedy

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Cafe every Wednesday there was a new Act Night, which

470
00:38:03.079 --> 00:38:09.199
I performed there a lot, many, many, many times, pretty

471
00:38:09.360 --> 00:38:16.519
much every Wednesday for most of nineteen ninety one. Yeah,

472
00:38:17.079 --> 00:38:17.599
it's true.

473
00:38:17.920 --> 00:38:19.400
Wow, and.

474
00:38:21.199 --> 00:38:24.000
Quite a few ninety two, quite a few ninety three,

475
00:38:24.599 --> 00:38:29.519
ninety four, ninety five, sub ninety six, ninety seven and

476
00:38:29.639 --> 00:38:34.320
ninety eight. So yeah, I performed there over an eight

477
00:38:34.440 --> 00:38:39.519
year period, but less and less as the years went by.

478
00:38:43.519 --> 00:38:46.559
In nineteen ninety six, I was a security guard.

479
00:38:49.800 --> 00:38:51.000
And I.

480
00:38:53.199 --> 00:38:55.639
Couldn't do any gigs at all because I was doing

481
00:38:55.800 --> 00:38:57.199
weird shifts.

482
00:38:59.079 --> 00:39:04.159
And you know what.

483
00:39:06.719 --> 00:39:12.559
This is strange. I don't think I performed on stage.

484
00:39:18.199 --> 00:39:21.519
I might be wrong, but I'm not sure if I

485
00:39:21.639 --> 00:39:25.920
performed on stage the whole of nineteen ninety six. So

486
00:39:25.960 --> 00:39:28.280
I thinking at the beginning of the year I was

487
00:39:28.320 --> 00:39:35.159
homeless and then managed to find somewhere to live, I

488
00:39:35.280 --> 00:39:37.239
might go and done a few gigs at the beginning

489
00:39:37.280 --> 00:39:40.119
of the year, possibly, and then I got the security

490
00:39:40.239 --> 00:39:48.800
job in around March nineteen ninety six, and I had

491
00:39:48.880 --> 00:39:52.960
that security job all the way toward the summer nineteen

492
00:39:53.079 --> 00:40:01.639
ninety seven, still about probably June, maybe July time, maybe

493
00:40:01.960 --> 00:40:06.599
May June nineteen ninety seven, so I had that. I

494
00:40:06.679 --> 00:40:09.480
worked for that security company the whole time, and I

495
00:40:09.599 --> 00:40:16.800
was doing night shifts weekends. It was almost impossible for

496
00:40:16.960 --> 00:40:23.639
me to plan to do gigs to even because most

497
00:40:23.679 --> 00:40:26.119
of the gigs I did were free, you know, nearly

498
00:40:26.840 --> 00:40:29.559
all my gigs were just ones that I'd do for nothing.

499
00:40:29.920 --> 00:40:32.760
I'd do an open spot or turn up at the

500
00:40:32.800 --> 00:40:37.239
comedy cafe on a Wednesday night. So I'm sure I

501
00:40:37.320 --> 00:40:40.559
probably did a couple during that period, but I didn't

502
00:40:40.599 --> 00:40:44.079
do much in ninety six. That was really the tail

503
00:40:44.239 --> 00:40:50.400
end of my comedy non career, as it were. But

504
00:40:50.519 --> 00:40:55.360
that was also at the time when I was I

505
00:40:55.480 --> 00:41:03.119
was getting better. I was able to be more topical,

506
00:41:04.719 --> 00:41:07.119
and I found that I was I'm not saying that

507
00:41:07.159 --> 00:41:13.079
I was good, but I was a better than before,

508
00:41:14.400 --> 00:41:18.400
and by talking about topical things, it was I don't know,

509
00:41:18.639 --> 00:41:21.639
it just sometimes you don't even have to be particularly funny.

510
00:41:21.679 --> 00:41:27.719
I found by just saying something a bit silly about

511
00:41:28.159 --> 00:41:31.400
something that's really big in the news, it's just like

512
00:41:31.480 --> 00:41:33.800
a silly line. Sometimes get a little might just get

513
00:41:33.800 --> 00:41:37.280
a little smirk or something. But I still better than

514
00:41:37.320 --> 00:41:41.679
what I was used to getting. Well, I did say

515
00:41:41.679 --> 00:41:43.480
to be making anyone angry, that was That was the

516
00:41:43.559 --> 00:41:55.400
good thing. And nineteen so ninety seven, from the summer

517
00:41:55.519 --> 00:41:59.360
ninety seven to the end of end of ninety seven,

518
00:41:59.639 --> 00:42:03.800
I did do a few gigs. Yeah, I did, I went,

519
00:42:03.960 --> 00:42:06.039
I did, and went to a few gigs as well.

520
00:42:06.400 --> 00:42:10.559
So I performed a bit more at the latter part

521
00:42:10.639 --> 00:42:15.199
of ninety seven because I was back involved in comedy again.

522
00:42:15.920 --> 00:42:23.639
So I did Yeah, on a probably never at the

523
00:42:23.679 --> 00:42:26.840
weekend because I was busy at the weekends. But on

524
00:42:26.960 --> 00:42:32.599
a on a Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday night, I'd probably end

525
00:42:32.719 --> 00:42:36.480
up going to gigs, whether to just watch my friends

526
00:42:36.599 --> 00:42:40.760
who are other comedians performing, or to perform myself. Ones

527
00:42:40.760 --> 00:42:42.280
that I could just turn up at and they'd let

528
00:42:42.320 --> 00:42:47.639
me on. So that was pretty cool. And then in

529
00:42:47.840 --> 00:42:55.719
ninety eight January, I just did my very last gig. Ever,

530
00:42:57.719 --> 00:42:59.639
I didn't realize just my last gig, but it was

531
00:42:59.679 --> 00:43:06.320
still last performance. And yeah, I've just heard him go.

532
00:43:08.000 --> 00:43:11.440
He started barking then because someone sneezing in the garden

533
00:43:12.159 --> 00:43:15.880
or well it was outside this building. It might have

534
00:43:15.880 --> 00:43:19.440
been in the building, but outside where I live. It

535
00:43:19.559 --> 00:43:27.679
was just a little sneeze and thinking, so yeah, I

536
00:43:30.119 --> 00:43:33.199
why oh yeah, because because my neighbor in hospital. He

537
00:43:33.280 --> 00:43:37.559
was just asking me all these questions, and I was thinking,

538
00:43:37.639 --> 00:43:41.039
what's the catch, How's he going to lead on to

539
00:43:41.920 --> 00:43:51.199
talking about football or sport? And yeah, he seemed almost

540
00:43:54.000 --> 00:43:56.159
almost interested in what I was saying.

541
00:43:57.960 --> 00:43:59.760
Weird, So.

542
00:44:01.920 --> 00:44:09.599
Because he's absolutely he's phonetic. It's a phonetic about sport.

543
00:44:10.159 --> 00:44:12.400
I mean on a level that I've never seen before.

544
00:44:14.280 --> 00:44:15.480
Loves sport.

545
00:44:16.159 --> 00:44:16.280
Ah.

546
00:44:16.360 --> 00:44:19.880
What I did do is because he's saying he didn't

547
00:44:19.880 --> 00:44:23.360
want the TV on, and they've got these TVs not

548
00:44:23.599 --> 00:44:26.920
like the some of the NHS TVs are not great

549
00:44:27.079 --> 00:44:30.400
quality screens, and there the ones that are the side

550
00:44:30.440 --> 00:44:32.320
of the bed and you have to pay five pounds

551
00:44:32.320 --> 00:44:35.360
a day to have it. These TVs are free to

552
00:44:35.559 --> 00:44:40.880
use and they're decent TVs. And his one was unplucked.

553
00:44:41.239 --> 00:44:43.840
So and the person next to hims had his TV

554
00:44:43.960 --> 00:44:48.079
on the whole time. Now, I didn't realize how good

555
00:44:48.119 --> 00:44:52.440
the screen was the picture because I've never looked at

556
00:44:52.519 --> 00:44:56.760
the other blokes TV. And I said to my neighbor

557
00:44:57.840 --> 00:45:02.039
in hospital. I said, I'm saying not that he's in hospital,

558
00:45:02.119 --> 00:45:05.199
because I've talked about a few different neighbors. I want

559
00:45:05.199 --> 00:45:08.960
you to know who are talking about, who I'm gossiping about.

560
00:45:11.079 --> 00:45:14.559
I said to him, you know, Wimbledon's starting today, and

561
00:45:14.679 --> 00:45:20.639
he starts talking about Wimbuden and I said, well, why

562
00:45:20.679 --> 00:45:24.000
don't you watch it? Oh no, I'm happy with my tablet.

563
00:45:24.519 --> 00:45:26.920
I said, you've got a good You've got a television

564
00:45:27.039 --> 00:45:32.280
up there, a big screen. Well compared to his little tablet,

565
00:45:32.320 --> 00:45:35.519
it's a big screen. It's not they're not they're not

566
00:45:35.599 --> 00:45:40.280
big TVs, but probably twenty four inches or thirty inches

567
00:45:40.400 --> 00:45:40.719
or something.

568
00:45:40.760 --> 00:45:41.000
They're not.

569
00:45:41.880 --> 00:45:46.599
They're not little, but they're not big A nice size.

570
00:45:46.599 --> 00:45:52.480
If you're in a really small room and it's up,

571
00:45:52.679 --> 00:45:57.239
it's kind of I think it's I wonder if they

572
00:45:57.280 --> 00:45:59.440
could be moved down. I'm going to ask that. I

573
00:45:59.480 --> 00:46:02.760
don't maybe there can be. I would need it moved

574
00:46:02.840 --> 00:46:05.639
down for me because with my eyesight and it, I

575
00:46:05.639 --> 00:46:13.559
would need it closer. And it was unplugged. So between

576
00:46:13.639 --> 00:46:16.000
me and his neighbor next to him, I got the

577
00:46:16.039 --> 00:46:19.079
TV plugged in because he said, oh, it's not working.

578
00:46:19.159 --> 00:46:22.559
I said, oh, and then we had to find remote control.

579
00:46:23.360 --> 00:46:25.679
A nurse went and got remote control that he could use,

580
00:46:26.079 --> 00:46:28.559
which was exactly the same as a remote control. I

581
00:46:28.679 --> 00:46:31.400
got here in my hand and he might be thinking,

582
00:46:31.599 --> 00:46:33.679
why are you Why have you got a TV remote

583
00:46:33.719 --> 00:46:36.679
control in your hand? Because I just picked it up.

584
00:46:37.000 --> 00:46:40.440
That's why it's just there to the left. I've not

585
00:46:40.559 --> 00:46:43.119
had a remote control in my hand the whole time

586
00:46:43.159 --> 00:46:50.079
I've been talking. That would be strange. It might not

587
00:46:50.239 --> 00:46:56.880
be strange. I've had a can of whipped cream though. Yeah,

588
00:46:58.400 --> 00:47:02.599
so he said to me. I said to him, and

589
00:47:02.599 --> 00:47:04.119
then he said to me. Then I said to him,

590
00:47:04.920 --> 00:47:07.000
So I plucked it in, turned it on. We got

591
00:47:07.039 --> 00:47:14.079
the TV onto it was. It was a political program

592
00:47:14.360 --> 00:47:19.480
on BBC two and then the live coverage of Wimbledon

593
00:47:19.679 --> 00:47:26.719
starting at I think eleven thirty in the morning. And

594
00:47:26.840 --> 00:47:30.639
once it started, he started to be distracted by it,

595
00:47:32.920 --> 00:47:38.000
and I thought, yeah, this is good because once football

596
00:47:38.159 --> 00:47:42.599
is on, or rugby or cricket, he's now got a distraction.

597
00:47:46.119 --> 00:47:48.159
And it was kind of funny because we were talking

598
00:47:49.039 --> 00:47:55.760
and it was it was a women's tennis match and

599
00:47:55.880 --> 00:48:03.920
it was just grunting. It was like ah, and it

600
00:48:04.119 --> 00:48:05.840
was I don't know. I just found it quite funny

601
00:48:05.880 --> 00:48:10.079
because it seemed a little bit inappropriate for well, for

602
00:48:10.199 --> 00:48:14.000
where we were, just to hear, because I kept thinking,

603
00:48:14.199 --> 00:48:16.480
I forgot the TV was on, because I've been going

604
00:48:16.519 --> 00:48:19.440
in there for however long and the TV has never

605
00:48:19.519 --> 00:48:23.480
been on, so any sounds like that I'm used to hearing.

606
00:48:23.639 --> 00:48:29.199
Maybe he is from a different ward, because there's there's

607
00:48:29.280 --> 00:48:38.639
six different wards on that ward. That makes sense, So yeah,

608
00:48:38.800 --> 00:48:43.159
it's a ward, but there's six different rooms with four

609
00:48:43.239 --> 00:48:46.599
beds in each, and then there's a couple of other

610
00:48:46.719 --> 00:48:51.840
kind of single rooms which I'm thinking might be private. Perhaps,

611
00:48:52.000 --> 00:48:55.599
I don't know, I'm not sure.

612
00:48:57.760 --> 00:49:00.360
So he it was weird.

613
00:49:01.119 --> 00:49:02.840
I don't know what other people must have thought, if

614
00:49:02.840 --> 00:49:05.239
they'd have heard all that grunting coming out of the

615
00:49:05.360 --> 00:49:10.239
TV or out of our ward. I think they're also

616
00:49:10.440 --> 00:49:15.599
single sex wards, so the men. There's women in that

617
00:49:17.000 --> 00:49:21.039
big ward that he's in, but not in his particular ward.

618
00:49:22.159 --> 00:49:25.239
Does this make sense? It seems to be too many wards.

619
00:49:25.280 --> 00:49:29.559
I'm using the word ward too often. Four wards, six

620
00:49:29.639 --> 00:49:37.719
wards in one ward. But yeah, it's I've not been

621
00:49:37.760 --> 00:49:40.480
in the other wards, but I have, actually I went

622
00:49:40.559 --> 00:49:45.119
in one by accident. And that was all females, and

623
00:49:45.280 --> 00:49:52.239
I thought it looks like my neighbor, but it wasn't.

624
00:49:53.280 --> 00:49:54.960
Do you ever get that where you see someone and

625
00:49:55.039 --> 00:50:00.119
you just think, oh, and it's not the person. You

626
00:50:00.360 --> 00:50:04.400
try to adapt, so adapt, you know, scrunch your face

627
00:50:04.480 --> 00:50:07.159
up a little bit and close your eyes half half

628
00:50:07.320 --> 00:50:09.760
so it makes them look a bit more like the

629
00:50:09.840 --> 00:50:15.880
person that you think they should look like. No, okay,

630
00:50:20.679 --> 00:50:28.280
And then I left. So I spent probably four and

631
00:50:28.360 --> 00:50:32.320
a half five hours with him. I never left it

632
00:50:33.360 --> 00:50:40.360
half one or maybe it was one, not sure.

633
00:50:41.239 --> 00:50:41.920
I think it was.

634
00:50:42.159 --> 00:50:44.880
He didn't eat his fish and chips. They're still on

635
00:50:44.960 --> 00:50:48.639
the side. No one's noticed. They're still on the side

636
00:50:48.639 --> 00:50:53.280
of his bed back on his bedside cabinet thing. And

637
00:50:53.440 --> 00:50:55.920
it's going to start stinking at some point, isn't there fish?

638
00:50:57.280 --> 00:50:59.159
It's been there since Friday?

639
00:51:01.000 --> 00:51:01.360
No one.

640
00:51:02.320 --> 00:51:04.519
You're going to start noting. There's be going to be cats.

641
00:51:05.199 --> 00:51:06.840
And why is there so many cats in the ward

642
00:51:06.880 --> 00:51:09.960
where they're coming from? Why they're coming in there? They'll

643
00:51:09.960 --> 00:51:12.199
all be climbing up to the windows. Went now on

644
00:51:12.280 --> 00:51:15.880
a big ladder, a cat ladder? Is there such a

645
00:51:15.960 --> 00:51:19.079
thing as a cat ladder? I suppose they could all

646
00:51:19.159 --> 00:51:22.159
just climb on each other's backs and make a big heap.

647
00:51:24.000 --> 00:51:27.480
I don't know if that's possible. Oh you know what

648
00:51:27.519 --> 00:51:31.360
I forgot to do today. I was going to ask

649
00:51:31.719 --> 00:51:34.639
somebody if I'm able to take Vinnie with me to

650
00:51:34.800 --> 00:51:37.039
see my neighbor, because he keeps asking about him and

651
00:51:37.519 --> 00:51:42.400
he wants to see him. And another person who walks

652
00:51:42.480 --> 00:51:47.920
their dog told me that sometimes the hospital does allow

653
00:51:49.159 --> 00:51:54.880
depending on the patient's situation. They do allow hospital visits

654
00:51:55.119 --> 00:51:59.840
with a dog, but in a specific part of the hospital.

655
00:52:00.800 --> 00:52:03.039
So he'd have to go to that part of the

656
00:52:03.079 --> 00:52:05.639
hospital and I'd have to take Vinnie there and he

657
00:52:05.719 --> 00:52:09.239
could sort of spend time with him. The alternative is

658
00:52:09.280 --> 00:52:12.159
if he comes outside. I know, I can take Vinnie

659
00:52:12.320 --> 00:52:16.920
outside the grounds of hospital and he could come downstairs.

660
00:52:17.000 --> 00:52:23.719
But he can't. Really, I don't know how to explain this,

661
00:52:23.920 --> 00:52:31.719
but he doesn't seem to The mobility he had a

662
00:52:31.800 --> 00:52:33.880
week ago doesn't seem to be there for some reason.

663
00:52:35.239 --> 00:52:39.280
You know, before, I think it's been going downhill a

664
00:52:39.320 --> 00:52:42.079
little bit. Just I think it's his age maybe. But

665
00:52:44.320 --> 00:52:46.960
the week before he went in hospital, he was walking

666
00:52:47.000 --> 00:52:53.840
around every day, going to the Petro station, taking strides.

667
00:52:53.920 --> 00:52:57.199
You know he wasn't like now, he's walking one foot

668
00:52:57.280 --> 00:53:00.519
next to another, next to the other when I take

669
00:53:00.599 --> 00:53:02.920
him outside. I couldn't take him outside today because I

670
00:53:03.000 --> 00:53:05.199
was waiting for the doctor, and the other day we

671
00:53:05.280 --> 00:53:07.159
went out and the doctor came while we were out,

672
00:53:07.480 --> 00:53:17.320
so it was not ideal. But he's really walking very

673
00:53:17.480 --> 00:53:23.840
very slowly and at times holding on to me. So

674
00:53:24.000 --> 00:53:27.079
I don't know. It might be a confidence thing. It

675
00:53:27.400 --> 00:53:30.719
might just he might have a similar thing to me,

676
00:53:30.920 --> 00:53:37.719
where it's there's too many people. He's not used to that.

677
00:53:38.480 --> 00:53:42.320
He's not used to be walking down a hallway with

678
00:53:43.639 --> 00:53:48.119
let's face it, thousands of people coming and going, you know,

679
00:53:48.760 --> 00:53:52.639
and everyone's walking at different angles, different directions, people walking

680
00:53:52.719 --> 00:53:58.920
directly at you, and trolley's and you know, all sort

681
00:53:58.960 --> 00:54:06.840
of people on gurney and deliveries and all kinds of stuff.

682
00:54:08.440 --> 00:54:13.639
No parachutes and no elephants. But you know, I'm not

683
00:54:13.679 --> 00:54:15.599
saying everything's in the hallway, but it's quite a lot

684
00:54:15.599 --> 00:54:20.159
of stuff. So I don't know how much of it

685
00:54:20.320 --> 00:54:24.000
is that. But he doesn't go downstairs on his own.

686
00:54:24.760 --> 00:54:27.000
He doesn't go he doesn't go to the shop on

687
00:54:27.079 --> 00:54:31.639
his own, which a week ago he would have done

688
00:54:32.320 --> 00:54:35.400
before he went in there. He would have just you know,

689
00:54:36.000 --> 00:54:38.679
if he was visiting someone. Let's say, if he was

690
00:54:38.760 --> 00:54:41.400
visiting me and I said, oh, I need a bottle

691
00:54:41.400 --> 00:54:44.840
of coke, or can you get me some cheese, which

692
00:54:44.920 --> 00:54:49.000
is what he wanted today. Can you get me something

693
00:54:49.039 --> 00:54:52.239
from the shop? He just said, yeah, okay, you need

694
00:54:52.320 --> 00:54:58.840
have gone down and got it for me. So, yeah,

695
00:54:58.920 --> 00:55:04.920
there's a that's a difference that I've noticed. And he's

696
00:55:04.960 --> 00:55:09.519
not talking as loudly as he used to. He's still

697
00:55:09.639 --> 00:55:13.719
talking unstop, but it's how much quieter talk Because I

698
00:55:13.760 --> 00:55:16.079
can't hear him sometimes I kind of have to get

699
00:55:16.760 --> 00:55:19.599
closer to him and then he just goes boom in

700
00:55:19.719 --> 00:55:28.000
my ear makes me jump. So I was going to

701
00:55:28.079 --> 00:55:31.639
do some washing today, some laundry. What do I say

702
00:55:31.719 --> 00:55:35.800
to him? I said something, I've got to do some

703
00:55:35.920 --> 00:55:42.519
laundry today. He said, he thought I said something else.

704
00:55:45.119 --> 00:55:55.519
What sounds like laundry? Now? He thought, I said, law degree,

705
00:55:58.400 --> 00:56:00.719
So I need to start. You need to do some

706
00:56:01.000 --> 00:56:08.960
law do some laundry. And he said, oh, when are

707
00:56:08.960 --> 00:56:13.519
you starting that? I said what I said this afternoon?

708
00:56:13.599 --> 00:56:20.880
He said, oh, I said yeah. He so like, well,

709
00:56:20.920 --> 00:56:22.519
I didn't know why it was so interested in me

710
00:56:22.639 --> 00:56:27.000
doing my laundry because I'll be honest, and i'll break

711
00:56:27.039 --> 00:56:29.199
this to you. I don't want to come across as

712
00:56:29.280 --> 00:56:34.800
being ungrateful or negative, but I don't get a huge

713
00:56:34.880 --> 00:56:37.519
kick from doing the laundry. It doesn't give me the

714
00:56:38.239 --> 00:56:40.920
it doesn't give me everything I hoped I hoped out

715
00:56:40.920 --> 00:56:41.280
all life.

716
00:56:42.920 --> 00:56:43.079
You know.

717
00:56:43.360 --> 00:56:46.440
It's but at the same time, it's a hell of

718
00:56:46.480 --> 00:56:49.280
lot easier and going to the laundret, which is what

719
00:56:49.360 --> 00:56:53.719
I did for most of my adult life, well since

720
00:56:53.760 --> 00:56:58.280
the age of sixteen. So I do appreciate not going

721
00:56:58.360 --> 00:57:00.800
to the laundret. And if I didn't have washing machine,

722
00:57:01.199 --> 00:57:04.760
I would do my washing by hand. I'm never going

723
00:57:04.840 --> 00:57:12.119
to a laundrette again, especially as the Yeah, the local laundrette,

724
00:57:12.119 --> 00:57:15.360
what there isn't one. So the closest laundrette is about

725
00:57:15.519 --> 00:57:19.000
six miles away, six and a half miles away. So yeah,

726
00:57:19.119 --> 00:57:23.519
I'm not getting there. Yeah, but I used to because

727
00:57:23.519 --> 00:57:26.079
I used to live across the road from there. Even then,

728
00:57:26.119 --> 00:57:30.719
it was it was a struggle still used to do.

729
00:57:30.880 --> 00:57:32.960
I used to wash my stuff by hands sometimes. Then

730
00:57:33.760 --> 00:57:38.039
I just couldn't face going over there. I guess I

731
00:57:38.119 --> 00:57:42.239
didn't have the same relationship with her the launderette ladies

732
00:57:42.280 --> 00:57:45.440
I did with the laundrette lady in Stratford in London,

733
00:57:46.960 --> 00:57:51.280
although I did end up being friends of her. There's

734
00:57:51.360 --> 00:57:57.840
two ways it can go. I found with someone that

735
00:57:58.119 --> 00:58:05.400
washes your underpants, okay, on a regular basis. So the

736
00:58:05.519 --> 00:58:11.000
relationship is probably in some ways the most intimate relationship

737
00:58:11.239 --> 00:58:20.519
I have ever had with a female. It's something very

738
00:58:21.760 --> 00:58:28.199
there's a lot of unsaid stuff, you know, it's like

739
00:58:28.280 --> 00:58:36.239
an understanding. I no amount of money, no amount of

740
00:58:36.320 --> 00:58:40.480
money that I gave my launderette ladies for washing my

741
00:58:40.599 --> 00:58:46.159
clothes was compensation enough for what they had to go through,

742
00:58:47.079 --> 00:58:52.880
is you know, for handling my washing my underpants or whatever.

743
00:58:53.960 --> 00:58:58.400
So I realized that, and I've always realized that right

744
00:58:58.440 --> 00:59:02.840
from an early age. I thought, yeah, it's a job

745
00:59:02.880 --> 00:59:06.360
I wouldn't particularly want to do out and I've had

746
00:59:06.440 --> 00:59:10.360
some really grotty jobs and I don't. It's just something

747
00:59:10.400 --> 00:59:13.639
I don't think i'd really I feel I'd rather I'd

748
00:59:13.760 --> 00:59:20.639
rather work down the sewers. I think they do that.

749
00:59:21.679 --> 00:59:26.760
It just yeah, it's so I had. But the difference

750
00:59:26.920 --> 00:59:30.840
is instead of like it's not looking down at someone

751
00:59:30.960 --> 00:59:36.199
doing a job, is admiration. That's how I feel. I

752
00:59:36.360 --> 00:59:39.519
admire someone who can do something like that, something that

753
00:59:40.280 --> 00:59:44.960
I don't think I could do, and it's just because

754
00:59:45.000 --> 00:59:52.559
it would just it's I don't have the rights. There's

755
00:59:52.599 --> 00:59:56.840
a certain skill set that I just don't have to

756
00:59:56.960 --> 01:00:00.239
do something like that to do that kind of work.

757
01:00:00.400 --> 01:00:02.920
So I've got a lot of admiration. I do admire

758
01:00:02.960 --> 01:00:05.719
people that can do things that I can't do, which

759
01:00:05.800 --> 01:00:08.039
means I admire probably most of the people in the

760
01:00:08.079 --> 01:00:11.719
world because I can't really do too much. I can

761
01:00:11.840 --> 01:00:17.800
talk absolutely rubbish for an hour. I'm quite good at

762
01:00:17.800 --> 01:00:25.159
watching television. That's about it. Really, I ain't got much

763
01:00:25.199 --> 01:00:30.400
else to me. It's that's my skill. My skill is

764
01:00:31.639 --> 01:00:39.920
just talking absolute warbly bobbly for whatever, you know, an hour,

765
01:00:40.079 --> 01:00:44.639
hour and a half. I've been talking for an hour.

766
01:00:44.679 --> 01:00:50.079
I've not even got onto the subject of boring hospital stories.

767
01:00:51.119 --> 01:00:56.599
Apart from I guess this last hour being boring. I

768
01:00:56.719 --> 01:01:04.440
can't stop talking. What's going on, By the way, I don't.

769
01:01:05.159 --> 01:01:09.800
I don't want this podcast to turn into me talking

770
01:01:09.800 --> 01:01:13.159
about hospitals the whole time. That's that is not my intention.

771
01:01:13.840 --> 01:01:17.519
So if you feel that's happening, let me know. But

772
01:01:19.840 --> 01:01:22.559
over the years, what you may have noticed if you've

773
01:01:22.639 --> 01:01:27.079
been following me for a while is I do talk

774
01:01:27.159 --> 01:01:30.440
about what's going on in my life as well as

775
01:01:32.360 --> 01:01:36.159
making up a lot of just silly stuff. This so

776
01:01:36.320 --> 01:01:39.599
this is one of those occasions where I'm I'm kind

777
01:01:39.639 --> 01:01:47.679
of intertwining reality and stupidity, I guess, instead of being

778
01:01:47.840 --> 01:01:52.280
mainly stupidity. So I try and mix it up.

779
01:01:54.320 --> 01:01:55.920
A little bit, just.

780
01:01:57.559 --> 01:02:12.960
Just a little bit. And yeah, I said, I guess

781
01:02:14.320 --> 01:02:17.519
because I didn't do Did I do recording yesterday? I

782
01:02:17.559 --> 01:02:20.079
think I did? Didn't I I think I did. Didn't

783
01:02:20.119 --> 01:02:22.880
do one Saturday? Did a Q and a Friday. I

784
01:02:22.960 --> 01:02:27.400
think yesterday. By the way, you might be able to

785
01:02:27.440 --> 01:02:32.360
hear some background music. Sorry about that, but it's summer.

786
01:02:32.880 --> 01:02:35.280
Everyone's got their windows open rightly, so.

787
01:02:37.119 --> 01:02:39.039
And you know what.

788
01:02:40.760 --> 01:02:44.400
Yesterday I was I'd made a recording in the afternoon,

789
01:02:46.679 --> 01:02:50.360
and I could hear the neighbors shouting as I was

790
01:02:50.440 --> 01:02:55.639
doing the editing, and I thought, wow, if you can

791
01:02:55.719 --> 01:03:00.880
hear that on this microphone, then that just shows you

792
01:03:01.039 --> 01:03:05.400
how loud it was, because they're not in my garden,

793
01:03:05.599 --> 01:03:12.840
in a different garden over a fence. Just shows you

794
01:03:12.960 --> 01:03:19.400
how loud it was, but it didn't seem to be continuous.

795
01:03:20.679 --> 01:03:25.000
That was just a particular right, ra ra raa like that.

796
01:03:27.199 --> 01:03:29.159
I mean I think I just made more sense than

797
01:03:29.639 --> 01:03:37.440
the person that was shouting. But yeah, kind of. So

798
01:03:37.559 --> 01:03:41.119
I've been in hospital twice. Oh, now we start the

799
01:03:41.199 --> 01:03:44.199
recording an hour into it, begin to start, now, are

800
01:03:44.280 --> 01:03:49.119
we well? Okay, calm down. I've been in hospital twice.

801
01:03:51.440 --> 01:03:56.519
I had my adenoids out when I was seven. I

802
01:03:56.679 --> 01:03:59.559
was about eight. I think it was even just before

803
01:03:59.599 --> 01:04:02.360
I was a or just after. I think it was

804
01:04:02.519 --> 01:04:06.199
just before I was eight years old. Now, the reason

805
01:04:06.480 --> 01:04:10.880
I had my adenoids out is because I was partially deaf.

806
01:04:11.840 --> 01:04:32.800
We have a drink of water. Ah, yeah, so it's

807
01:04:32.920 --> 01:04:40.119
basically just start. It started with. Oh, so I was

808
01:04:40.159 --> 01:04:42.800
in junior school and I started having to go to

809
01:04:43.480 --> 01:04:49.519
the nurse. So I was getting earaches, and progressively it

810
01:04:49.599 --> 01:04:55.440
was kind of becoming really really regular. I don't know

811
01:04:55.559 --> 01:04:57.719
how much I was skiving. If I'm honest with you,

812
01:05:00.280 --> 01:05:02.639
I might have just liked the nurse. I don't know,

813
01:05:02.800 --> 01:05:08.800
I can't remember, but I think I might have told

814
01:05:08.840 --> 01:05:14.880
her she had nice eyes. It's possible this inappropriateness started

815
01:05:15.079 --> 01:05:24.039
many very very young. I said oh, yeah, I had

816
01:05:24.239 --> 01:05:28.719
my I didn't know what was going on. And then

817
01:05:28.800 --> 01:05:31.119
I started going to the I get sent to the doctors.

818
01:05:31.599 --> 01:05:35.320
Then I got sent to the hospital, and they started

819
01:05:35.400 --> 01:05:40.599
testing my ears to see what was wrong with my ears.

820
01:05:40.880 --> 01:05:43.719
And they started testing my ears as in not just

821
01:05:43.880 --> 01:05:48.760
looking through them and stuff through them. I'd been through them,

822
01:05:49.239 --> 01:05:52.760
but into them with those little eye things that they do.

823
01:05:57.400 --> 01:06:00.519
But they started to give me hearing tests and I

824
01:06:00.679 --> 01:06:05.800
was partially deaf in my ear. Now. They said, that

825
01:06:06.000 --> 01:06:12.400
explains why I'm so behind at school, and it's really weird.

826
01:06:12.559 --> 01:06:14.559
I seem to be the only one that was surprised

827
01:06:14.599 --> 01:06:18.519
at that statement. I didn't know I was behind a school.

828
01:06:19.760 --> 01:06:26.519
I said, look, it's I have I'm behind.

829
01:06:26.880 --> 01:06:28.800
I'm wow.

830
01:06:29.239 --> 01:06:31.440
Finished staring at me? Are you staring at me for?

831
01:06:32.199 --> 01:06:35.880
Were you staring at You're deady for? I think he's

832
01:06:35.960 --> 01:06:39.679
just happy to have me home. I spent the whole

833
01:06:39.719 --> 01:06:43.119
weekend with him here this weekend, and it was boring,

834
01:06:43.400 --> 01:06:47.840
but he seemed so much happy to have me here.

835
01:06:48.599 --> 01:06:51.400
He was cuddled up to me. Weren't you You were

836
01:06:51.400 --> 01:06:53.239
happy to have your daddy back. Wasn't here for a

837
01:06:53.280 --> 01:06:56.039
couple of days, and I'm here tomorrow as well, So

838
01:06:56.039 --> 01:07:00.519
I'll spend all day with him tomorrow, and then I'll

839
01:07:00.719 --> 01:07:04.960
go on Wednesday for a bit visit, and then Thursday,

840
01:07:04.960 --> 01:07:07.840
I'll have all day with my little baby again on Thursday,

841
01:07:07.960 --> 01:07:11.480
won't I Yeah, then I'll go up to visit uncle.

842
01:07:11.719 --> 01:07:15.800
My uncle sausages, that's what Vinny calls him, Uncle's sausages

843
01:07:16.400 --> 01:07:24.280
because he gives him sausages. And I will then have

844
01:07:24.480 --> 01:07:26.920
the weekend off again. So I'm not going to go

845
01:07:27.039 --> 01:07:29.000
up at the weekends, and I'm going to go on Monday,

846
01:07:29.239 --> 01:07:36.039
Wednesday free right day. Yeah, depending, of course, I'm upon

847
01:07:36.119 --> 01:07:39.920
the situation. You know, if he called me up and said,

848
01:07:40.079 --> 01:07:43.480
can you please come tomorrow, I'll go. There's not an

849
01:07:43.519 --> 01:07:46.480
issue with that. But generally I told him I'll be

850
01:07:46.559 --> 01:07:50.559
there Wednesday. I'll call him tomorrow I see how he is.

851
01:07:51.199 --> 01:07:53.880
But if he needed me to go up, then I

852
01:07:53.920 --> 01:07:57.320
would go up. I mean, if he needed me to

853
01:07:57.320 --> 01:07:58.880
go up now, i'd go up. Now you know, I'll

854
01:07:58.920 --> 01:08:03.960
go back, So it's not that ain't no problem. You know,

855
01:08:04.159 --> 01:08:06.760
I've told him my phone is on anytime if he

856
01:08:06.840 --> 01:08:09.039
needs to call me in which he did over the weekend,

857
01:08:10.599 --> 01:08:17.000
and I'm kind of his I could say lifeline. That's

858
01:08:17.079 --> 01:08:20.439
very dramatic. But I'm I'm someone that he can just

859
01:08:20.560 --> 01:08:27.039
contact if he just wants to just update me on stuff,

860
01:08:27.119 --> 01:08:30.199
you know, even if it's And he phoned me up

861
01:08:30.279 --> 01:08:36.199
yesterday to talk about Jaws the movie, and him and

862
01:08:36.279 --> 01:08:38.479
his neighbor in there they were having like a little

863
01:08:38.560 --> 01:08:45.239
quiz quizzy game talking about movies and they were trying

864
01:08:45.279 --> 01:08:50.119
to remember the main character that the actual actors in Jaws.

865
01:08:51.479 --> 01:08:58.399
So you had Robert Shaw, David s Or Schneider. I

866
01:08:58.479 --> 01:09:04.159
forget what his first name is, and I've lost his

867
01:09:04.279 --> 01:09:05.600
name again. I did remember it.

868
01:09:06.079 --> 01:09:06.640
He was in.

869
01:09:09.359 --> 01:09:16.840
Uh do Do Do Do Do? That movie something of

870
01:09:16.960 --> 01:09:21.680
the Close Encounters of the Third kind. So it's those

871
01:09:21.760 --> 01:09:23.920
three that were in that movie. They were the stars

872
01:09:25.920 --> 01:09:31.800
and Schneider who what was his first name? But Robert

873
01:09:31.880 --> 01:09:35.920
Shaw was the He was a captain, the captain of

874
01:09:36.039 --> 01:09:42.640
the of the the boat and what's his name?

875
01:09:43.119 --> 01:09:44.439
Do do do Do do?

876
01:09:45.720 --> 01:09:45.760
That?

877
01:09:46.039 --> 01:09:53.680
That bloke he was also in it is it Schneider

878
01:09:53.760 --> 01:09:55.760
that says, oh, you need to get a bigger boat.

879
01:09:56.199 --> 01:09:59.319
I think how's a good line in it, need to

880
01:09:59.319 --> 01:10:05.600
get a bigger boat. There was a movie called The

881
01:10:05.720 --> 01:10:09.319
Perfect Storm and I think this is in the two thousands,

882
01:10:10.399 --> 01:10:14.039
and it was basically a really big storm as basically

883
01:10:14.079 --> 01:10:19.039
what was around a boat in a storm, really big

884
01:10:19.119 --> 01:10:26.279
boat in a really bigger storm. And I remember seeing

885
01:10:26.560 --> 01:10:33.880
the trailer for this movie on television and in the

886
01:10:34.000 --> 01:10:37.079
trailer this is when it was like being released at

887
01:10:37.079 --> 01:10:40.600
the cinema. In the trailer, it was a bloke from

888
01:10:41.039 --> 01:10:47.119
a beautiful mind what's his name, and Gladiator, so he

889
01:10:47.319 --> 01:10:51.840
was the star of this movie. In the trailer, there's

890
01:10:51.880 --> 01:10:57.520
a part where there's this massive wave coming and Gladiator,

891
01:10:57.520 --> 01:11:05.479
a beautiful mind man shouts out hold on. At that point,

892
01:11:05.560 --> 01:11:10.159
I thought, I'm never going to watch that movie. If

893
01:11:10.279 --> 01:11:14.479
that's going to be the hook word hold on. If

894
01:11:14.520 --> 01:11:16.680
that's the best they can do in a situation like that,

895
01:11:16.880 --> 01:11:18.880
just shout hold on, then no, I'm not going to

896
01:11:18.920 --> 01:11:19.199
watch it.

897
01:11:19.359 --> 01:11:19.680
Sorry.

898
01:11:20.760 --> 01:11:26.199
If that, if that's the level of dialogue, just I

899
01:11:26.239 --> 01:11:30.039
don't know why it just But there again, I had

900
01:11:30.079 --> 01:11:34.640
the same I had the same opinion about Gladiator. I thought,

901
01:11:34.680 --> 01:11:36.760
I'm not watching this, but it was a great movie.

902
01:11:37.560 --> 01:11:41.279
I've found it to be a great movie. I need

903
01:11:41.359 --> 01:11:43.760
to be specific, and I mean it was class is

904
01:11:43.760 --> 01:11:50.359
a great movie by the critics and by the audience members.

905
01:11:54.039 --> 01:11:58.960
But I can only go by what I found, and

906
01:11:59.079 --> 01:12:05.399
it was I partly watched Gladiator too. But I made

907
01:12:05.439 --> 01:12:12.439
this error because I got this little walking machine. It's

908
01:12:12.680 --> 01:12:16.359
really cheap, nasty for members, and I got it about

909
01:12:16.399 --> 01:12:20.439
a year and a half ago. But it's really honestly,

910
01:12:20.720 --> 01:12:26.880
it's it doesn't feel safe even walking on it like

911
01:12:26.960 --> 01:12:32.439
a treadmill. Bit it's really tacky, and I'm a little

912
01:12:32.439 --> 01:12:37.880
bit worried about the carpet underneath. Seriously, but I thought,

913
01:12:37.920 --> 01:12:39.520
you know what, I'm going to give it a go.

914
01:12:40.640 --> 01:12:44.760
So I started watching Gladiator, and I thought, I'm only

915
01:12:44.840 --> 01:12:46.359
going to walk and I walked on it for about

916
01:12:46.359 --> 01:12:49.800
an hour, no half an hour maybe, so said I'm

917
01:12:49.800 --> 01:12:51.960
only going to walk on it when I watched Gladiator.

918
01:12:54.000 --> 01:12:56.600
Actually that's not what I thought. I thought, I'm never

919
01:12:56.640 --> 01:13:00.640
going to walk on it again, because it's rubbish. No,

920
01:13:00.680 --> 01:13:03.720
I didn't. Fact, I did feel like I was actually

921
01:13:04.239 --> 01:13:08.079
touching the carpet, which is not supposed to happen. And

922
01:13:08.159 --> 01:13:11.600
I was a bit concerned about my neighbor downstairs because

923
01:13:11.640 --> 01:13:17.840
she did see me a few days later and she said,

924
01:13:20.039 --> 01:13:25.159
were you dancing upstairs? I said no, She said, you

925
01:13:25.239 --> 01:13:28.960
were doing something because the whole flat was shaking. I said, no,

926
01:13:30.359 --> 01:13:34.680
I don't even live there anymore. She said what I said,

927
01:13:34.720 --> 01:13:36.279
I do live there. I don't know why I said that,

928
01:13:36.479 --> 01:13:39.000
but yeah, it wasn't me, he said it. Who else

929
01:13:39.039 --> 01:13:42.239
would it be? I said that I'm pigeons, maybe in

930
01:13:42.319 --> 01:13:50.680
the loft. Pigeons often are naughty in the loft. She said,

931
01:13:50.680 --> 01:13:53.960
how would the pigeons, said the loft affect my flat

932
01:13:54.520 --> 01:13:58.520
when your whole flat is in between me and the loft.

933
01:14:01.239 --> 01:14:03.680
I said, I don't have the answers to every question.

934
01:14:05.079 --> 01:14:10.479
You know, I'm not. I'm not a the thoras. She said,

935
01:14:12.239 --> 01:14:18.239
a fufill left. I said yeah. She said, well, if

936
01:14:18.279 --> 01:14:21.600
you're trying to say thesaurus, that doesn't have the answers

937
01:14:21.640 --> 01:14:26.359
to any questions. That's just descriptions of words and various

938
01:14:26.399 --> 01:14:32.199
different versions of the same word. Really, and I said yeah.

939
01:14:33.399 --> 01:14:37.039
She said we didn't make sense. I said, you don't

940
01:14:37.079 --> 01:14:37.560
make sense.

941
01:14:43.960 --> 01:14:44.159
Yeah.

942
01:14:44.159 --> 01:14:46.800
It was one of the better conversations I've had this year, actually,

943
01:14:48.520 --> 01:14:53.119
But then I didn't go back on the treadmill, if

944
01:14:53.159 --> 01:14:55.680
you want to call it that. So I'm not. And

945
01:14:55.800 --> 01:14:57.479
it's weird because I want to watch the rest of

946
01:14:57.560 --> 01:14:59.600
the movie. But every time I go to like watch it,

947
01:14:59.680 --> 01:15:03.119
I think, no, I need to need to get on

948
01:15:03.199 --> 01:15:09.560
the treadmill to watch that. How strange, isn't it? Isn't

949
01:15:09.600 --> 01:15:16.159
that a weird one? So I was having my ears

950
01:15:16.279 --> 01:15:20.279
tested and they said, oh, yeah, I was partly I

951
01:15:20.399 --> 01:15:24.199
don't even know which ear it was, right ear or

952
01:15:24.279 --> 01:15:26.079
left it. I couldn't even tell you such a long

953
01:15:26.199 --> 01:15:31.039
time ago I knew at the time, and it said, yeah,

954
01:15:31.159 --> 01:15:39.520
you're partially deaf in one ear, which explains why you're well.

955
01:15:39.560 --> 01:15:42.359
They didn't tell that. My parents said that to me.

956
01:15:43.039 --> 01:15:46.880
It's why I'm so behind at school. So they first

957
01:15:46.960 --> 01:15:49.119
all they blamed while I was so behind at school

958
01:15:49.319 --> 01:15:52.479
on the fact that I moved around so much as

959
01:15:52.520 --> 01:15:55.439
a little kid, so I never stayed in any school

960
01:15:55.479 --> 01:16:01.000
for a very long period of time. So pretty much

961
01:16:01.079 --> 01:16:04.600
taught myself to read, and my writing wasn't up to

962
01:16:04.720 --> 01:16:09.439
much at the age of seven, but you know I did.

963
01:16:09.600 --> 01:16:14.279
I picked it up and I loved reading, so I

964
01:16:14.399 --> 01:16:19.640
definitely wasn't. I wasn't behind. I personally wouldn't say that

965
01:16:19.720 --> 01:16:25.359
I was behind in reading. Whether I understood what I

966
01:16:25.479 --> 01:16:28.399
was reading, I said, it's still an issue now I'm

967
01:16:28.439 --> 01:16:33.279
not sure how much I understand, But I and writing.

968
01:16:34.560 --> 01:16:39.239
I learned to do joined up writing when I was

969
01:16:39.279 --> 01:16:44.760
about nine, nine or ten. That's when I learned to

970
01:16:44.800 --> 01:16:55.279
start doing joined up writing. And writing was okay. I

971
01:16:55.439 --> 01:17:00.680
was okay with writing. I didn't necessarily understand or the

972
01:17:02.680 --> 01:17:09.439
apostrophees and commas and stuff. I understood full stops made sense.

973
01:17:12.880 --> 01:17:18.720
So I wasn't necessarily grammatically correct, but I did as

974
01:17:18.760 --> 01:17:25.479
far as writing goes. But reading, yeah, reading was something

975
01:17:25.560 --> 01:17:31.279
that I just adored. I loved reading. And something happened

976
01:17:31.279 --> 01:17:34.439
the other day. I was watching a YouTube channel, a

977
01:17:34.520 --> 01:17:36.800
YouTube video, and it was about the Wizard of Oz.

978
01:17:38.479 --> 01:17:42.159
Now i'd forgotten or I didn't know, but I think

979
01:17:42.199 --> 01:17:44.920
I did previously. I think I did previously know, but

980
01:17:45.000 --> 01:17:48.880
I think i'd forgotten it. The Wizard of Oz books.

981
01:17:49.039 --> 01:17:54.079
There was a lot of books, like a lot, and

982
01:17:54.199 --> 01:17:58.000
the bloke who wrote the Wizard of Oz wrote lots

983
01:17:58.000 --> 01:18:02.159
of books about Oz and the different characters in US. Now,

984
01:18:04.760 --> 01:18:06.720
this is a memory that I'm not sure if it's

985
01:18:06.800 --> 01:18:10.199
true or not, but I'm pretty certain I read most

986
01:18:10.199 --> 01:18:13.760
of those books because I would get a book like

987
01:18:13.840 --> 01:18:16.560
that and i'd read it overnight or over a couple

988
01:18:16.560 --> 01:18:19.840
of days because I was just it was almost like

989
01:18:22.760 --> 01:18:25.640
it was like being really thirsty and drinking a lot

990
01:18:26.520 --> 01:18:29.920
of water. That was almost a bit like that for me.

991
01:18:30.039 --> 01:18:32.880
When I was reading, I just thought, ah, more, more

992
01:18:32.880 --> 01:18:36.399
and more and more. Loved it. And when I talk

993
01:18:36.399 --> 01:18:38.720
about it, it makes me hard, No, it makes me

994
01:18:39.239 --> 01:18:43.880
not horn. It makes me I didn't mean to say that,

995
01:18:44.000 --> 01:18:51.279
it makes me kind of damp. No, not damp. It

996
01:18:51.720 --> 01:18:53.119
makes me kind of want to do it, That's what

997
01:18:53.159 --> 01:18:55.439
I mean. It makes me want to kind of guess

998
01:18:55.560 --> 01:18:59.920
my juices going again, that probably sounds wrong to get

999
01:19:00.079 --> 01:19:03.960
a book, and I'm not even talking about factual books,

1000
01:19:04.000 --> 01:19:07.920
which is something that I've focused on for most of

1001
01:19:08.000 --> 01:19:12.760
my adult life. Really, I'd like to get back to

1002
01:19:13.000 --> 01:19:23.199
maybe reading some what do you call it fiction? I

1003
01:19:23.279 --> 01:19:29.680
guess yeah, story books and perhaps not most of supposed

1004
01:19:29.720 --> 01:19:31.399
to call them story books, but that's what they are,

1005
01:19:31.520 --> 01:19:34.279
isn't as a story. I'd like to get back to that.

1006
01:19:36.279 --> 01:19:43.720
And maybe I did think about writing my own romantic novel,

1007
01:19:44.359 --> 01:19:46.119
but doing it in my own, you know, doing my

1008
01:19:46.199 --> 01:19:51.359
own little way. I did do it. Oh, I did

1009
01:19:51.439 --> 01:19:57.560
this recording. I think it was a video or it

1010
01:19:57.680 --> 01:20:01.720
might have been an audio, and I posted it online

1011
01:20:02.119 --> 01:20:08.439
and a few this is back when I was fairly

1012
01:20:08.760 --> 01:20:12.880
doing quite well on YouTube. They got quite quite a

1013
01:20:12.960 --> 01:20:13.880
positive response.

1014
01:20:15.880 --> 01:20:16.520
But I lost it.

1015
01:20:17.199 --> 01:20:20.760
I lost the recording somewhere along the line. But it

1016
01:20:20.880 --> 01:20:23.720
was quite funny and it was just a story of

1017
01:20:24.039 --> 01:20:28.720
me a romantic encounter on a train and I was

1018
01:20:28.840 --> 01:20:31.920
just saying all the wrong things and it was but

1019
01:20:32.039 --> 01:20:36.119
this is I mean, we're talking like two tenty twelve.

1020
01:20:36.880 --> 01:20:42.960
I think I did this recording, and yeah, well I

1021
01:20:43.039 --> 01:20:44.399
wish I had it, just so I could have a

1022
01:20:44.439 --> 01:20:51.840
little listen. I also did a recording based on Andre

1023
01:20:52.039 --> 01:20:57.159
talking and it was a whole recording of him just

1024
01:20:57.520 --> 01:21:00.359
making fun of me. I think I lost that as well,

1025
01:21:02.199 --> 01:21:03.720
so that would have been it would be good to

1026
01:21:03.920 --> 01:21:09.159
be able to listen to. Lost a lot of recordings

1027
01:21:09.199 --> 01:21:13.399
over the years, a good few hundred videos and recordings,

1028
01:21:13.479 --> 01:21:21.479
audio recordings. I've lost some that will potentially not too awful,

1029
01:21:22.520 --> 01:21:28.199
potentially I reckon. Over the nineteen years I've been doing

1030
01:21:28.279 --> 01:21:32.319
these things, there must be I've got I have at

1031
01:21:32.399 --> 01:21:37.680
least a handful of decent recordings, ones that are just good.

1032
01:21:39.399 --> 01:21:41.840
There's got to be. There's got to be a few

1033
01:21:41.880 --> 01:21:50.239
little gems there. Surely even if it was accidental. So

1034
01:21:51.199 --> 01:21:55.840
the doctor regarding my hearings said, well, it is going

1035
01:21:55.920 --> 01:22:02.520
to be pretty much one of two things. Either I

1036
01:22:02.680 --> 01:22:05.800
was born that way so I've always been partially deaf

1037
01:22:05.840 --> 01:22:09.960
in one ear. Or I'd had an accident and bang

1038
01:22:10.079 --> 01:22:14.560
my head when I was a kid little, which did happen,

1039
01:22:14.640 --> 01:22:16.279
but I think it happens for a lot of kids,

1040
01:22:16.359 --> 01:22:18.920
don't there. But I remember I fell down some concrete

1041
01:22:18.960 --> 01:22:23.800
steps once when I was about five, four or five,

1042
01:22:25.399 --> 01:22:29.880
And yeah, health and safety wasn't really a thing back

1043
01:22:29.920 --> 01:22:35.159
then in the seventies, So yeah, I did take a Yeah,

1044
01:22:37.000 --> 01:22:40.319
definitely had a few bashes on the head over my childhood.

1045
01:22:42.680 --> 01:22:44.399
But I might also have been born like this. I

1046
01:22:44.439 --> 01:22:50.359
don't know. So what they did is they it was

1047
01:22:50.560 --> 01:22:54.359
It's basically just a blockage. So my adinoids were blocking

1048
01:22:55.119 --> 01:23:01.880
or causing a blockage in one of my ears, maybe

1049
01:23:01.960 --> 01:23:04.800
both my ears, but I think it was one. So

1050
01:23:04.960 --> 01:23:06.359
they took my had anoyds out.

1051
01:23:08.239 --> 01:23:08.880
When I was.

1052
01:23:10.560 --> 01:23:12.760
I was either eight or just before I was eight.

1053
01:23:15.399 --> 01:23:19.479
My biggest memory of that two things. First of all,

1054
01:23:20.239 --> 01:23:23.479
I've made Teddy Bear with me, which was nice. I

1055
01:23:23.600 --> 01:23:27.039
love my little Teddy Bear, and I might have called

1056
01:23:27.079 --> 01:23:31.560
him Teddy, and you might think, oh that's original, oh Teddy,

1057
01:23:32.279 --> 01:23:35.760
like okay, Well, my granddad was called Teddy and my

1058
01:23:35.880 --> 01:23:41.079
uncle was called Edward, so both of them because in

1059
01:23:41.199 --> 01:23:47.840
this country, ted is another name for Edward and Eddie

1060
01:23:48.039 --> 01:23:50.760
is another name for Edward. So my granddad was called

1061
01:23:50.800 --> 01:23:54.159
ted and my uncle was called Eddie, but they were

1062
01:23:54.199 --> 01:24:01.720
both called Edward. And I called my Teddy ted or Teddy,

1063
01:24:02.279 --> 01:24:04.880
probably after my granddad. Probably maybe I called him ted,

1064
01:24:05.600 --> 01:24:09.399
But I wouldn't dare call my granddad ted. No, it

1065
01:24:09.520 --> 01:24:16.560
was Granddad. He didn't play those games. Oh no, he

1066
01:24:16.640 --> 01:24:22.319
would have. I there was that. And the other thing

1067
01:24:22.800 --> 01:24:28.439
is I had botherel for the first time, which was

1068
01:24:28.479 --> 01:24:32.720
a bad idea because that was the last drink of

1069
01:24:32.760 --> 01:24:34.600
the day, and I think that was just before I

1070
01:24:34.640 --> 01:24:37.279
had the operation, so I wasn't allowed any more water

1071
01:24:37.479 --> 01:24:40.439
or anything, any food or anything. And as botherl, which

1072
01:24:40.520 --> 01:24:42.880
meant I mean that to me, it was just like

1073
01:24:42.960 --> 01:24:47.279
having a a mouth of mud, mouthful of mud, liquid mud.

1074
01:24:48.119 --> 01:24:48.399
It was.

1075
01:24:50.479 --> 01:24:53.720
It wasn't my thing. Botherel wasn't my It's kind of

1076
01:24:53.760 --> 01:24:58.479
like liquid marmite. I would say, it's a yeast extract drink.

1077
01:25:00.279 --> 01:25:05.840
And I wasn't pleased with that. It wasn't a good decision.

1078
01:25:05.880 --> 01:25:08.680
But I remember. It's really weird because bearing in mind

1079
01:25:08.720 --> 01:25:12.920
it's such a long time ago. Now I remember the

1080
01:25:13.560 --> 01:25:17.319
because I was an award Bloody Dogs again, can you

1081
01:25:17.359 --> 01:25:21.359
hear that? I wait till it stops and I'll start

1082
01:25:21.439 --> 01:25:27.640
talking again. So I just remember this that. I don't

1083
01:25:27.680 --> 01:25:30.840
think it was anyone else in the ward. Maybe one

1084
01:25:30.880 --> 01:25:33.920
other person. There was a children's ward, I think, but

1085
01:25:34.079 --> 01:25:39.479
it was grim. It was like underground, no windows, it was.

1086
01:25:40.239 --> 01:25:42.359
It wasn't a nice ward. It was in a really

1087
01:25:42.520 --> 01:25:46.279
old hospital that I think got shut down because it

1088
01:25:46.399 --> 01:25:49.640
was it'd been there since the Civil War, I think,

1089
01:25:52.479 --> 01:26:01.760
and the one in France, and I I thought, so

1090
01:26:02.000 --> 01:26:10.039
the lady came down with this trolley full of different things, tea, coffees, cocoa,

1091
01:26:11.399 --> 01:26:20.319
bov real water, juice probably I don't know if there

1092
01:26:20.359 --> 01:26:23.439
be any fizzy drinks, probably not, but just that kind

1093
01:26:23.439 --> 01:26:29.680
of stuff aholics and no coffee that I don't think

1094
01:26:29.680 --> 01:26:35.319
they had coffee for kids back then. It didn't want

1095
01:26:35.319 --> 01:26:42.079
me running around or whizzing being excited, and I couldn't

1096
01:26:42.079 --> 01:26:44.239
make my mind up. This has been an issue I

1097
01:26:44.399 --> 01:26:51.239
had all through my childhood and still today struggle to

1098
01:26:51.319 --> 01:26:56.600
make my mind up about anything. Really, I mean, it

1099
01:26:56.680 --> 01:27:01.199
was an issue more for other people than me. It

1100
01:27:01.319 --> 01:27:04.359
was annoying for me where it was trustrating. For me

1101
01:27:05.319 --> 01:27:07.800
it was I suppose it got really annoying for other people,

1102
01:27:08.560 --> 01:27:10.880
you know, if who was in a who were ordering

1103
01:27:11.000 --> 01:27:16.319
food or you know, things like that, choosing a video

1104
01:27:16.520 --> 01:27:22.239
to watch, even up to the last time I went

1105
01:27:22.279 --> 01:27:33.239
into Blockbusters, which would have been two when the Blockbusters

1106
01:27:33.800 --> 01:27:37.760
shut down, so over ten years ago. In it twelve

1107
01:27:37.840 --> 01:27:41.319
years ago, So the last time I went into Blockbusters,

1108
01:27:42.239 --> 01:27:45.560
and every other time, and every other time that I

1109
01:27:45.600 --> 01:27:52.079
went to any video shop, I would spend an absolute

1110
01:27:53.439 --> 01:28:01.479
age trying to decide which video to get. Unless I

1111
01:28:01.560 --> 01:28:04.680
went there for a specific thing. So if I went

1112
01:28:04.720 --> 01:28:08.159
there for the new season of the Sopranos box set,

1113
01:28:09.600 --> 01:28:15.000
then it was quite simple. I'd get that. But if

1114
01:28:15.039 --> 01:28:23.079
I was if there was a particular movie, but outside

1115
01:28:23.119 --> 01:28:26.600
of that, I would be there for ages. And I

1116
01:28:26.720 --> 01:28:30.880
did the same thing as a kid. I'd spend probably hours,

1117
01:28:31.880 --> 01:28:35.039
I'm not even joking be I'd go and look at

1118
01:28:35.119 --> 01:28:40.680
the back cover of every single video. Now in Blockbusters,

1119
01:28:40.880 --> 01:28:43.680
that's not you don't you know, things were in cases,

1120
01:28:43.720 --> 01:28:48.720
weren't they, uh, the Blockbuster cases, but in the original

1121
01:28:49.439 --> 01:28:53.600
video shops, well at least where I lived, all the

1122
01:28:53.720 --> 01:28:57.920
videos were still in the video case with you know,

1123
01:28:58.319 --> 01:29:00.960
the picture of the movie on the front, who was

1124
01:29:01.039 --> 01:29:05.039
in the movie on the back, the synopsis of the movie,

1125
01:29:05.960 --> 01:29:10.520
Pluster videotape was in there, so everything was kind of there.

1126
01:29:10.560 --> 01:29:16.640
So I'd go through every video looking for something that

1127
01:29:17.439 --> 01:29:28.880
peaked my peakiness, got my juices going, made me moist,

1128
01:29:29.119 --> 01:29:35.520
I don't know, whatever got me excited, and it would

1129
01:29:35.560 --> 01:29:43.279
take forever. Honestly, I'd be in there for an hour

1130
01:29:43.319 --> 01:29:47.119
and a half. And none of these shops were big,

1131
01:29:47.520 --> 01:29:51.399
by the way, they were jam packed, but they like,

1132
01:29:51.520 --> 01:29:53.640
we have videos. And I only did this when there's

1133
01:29:53.680 --> 01:29:56.960
no one else around, So I wouldn't do this if

1134
01:29:57.039 --> 01:29:58.920
it was busy, if there was a lot of other customers,

1135
01:30:00.199 --> 01:30:02.199
it was you know, and they all got to know

1136
01:30:02.359 --> 01:30:09.560
me because I think one of the owner of the

1137
01:30:09.680 --> 01:30:16.720
video shop once said to me, do you what did

1138
01:30:16.760 --> 01:30:22.800
he say? It's just something like, oh, by the way,

1139
01:30:22.960 --> 01:30:24.600
just let you know you're going to be getting a

1140
01:30:24.640 --> 01:30:30.640
pay rise next month. And I said what he said

1141
01:30:31.520 --> 01:30:33.920
and he just liked he laughs. So I forgot you

1142
01:30:34.000 --> 01:30:37.159
don't work here, do. I was there so often he

1143
01:30:37.199 --> 01:30:40.680
thought I worked there. He was the boss, he was

1144
01:30:40.760 --> 01:30:46.079
the owner. They had no staff. It was a family

1145
01:30:46.159 --> 01:30:54.600
run business. They lived there. I mean, once I stay,

1146
01:30:55.840 --> 01:30:58.760
he started moaning because so used to me. He once

1147
01:30:58.840 --> 01:31:02.560
he has started moaning. It was moaning nights. He said, Jason,

1148
01:31:02.640 --> 01:31:06.880
can you please stop leaving dirty dishes in the sink,

1149
01:31:07.000 --> 01:31:10.279
but can you wash up after yourself? I said, I

1150
01:31:10.319 --> 01:31:17.880
don't live with you. You're not my dad. What's going on?

1151
01:31:18.880 --> 01:31:21.119
And he just forgot. I thought I was actually one

1152
01:31:21.159 --> 01:31:24.279
of his kids because I was always there looking at

1153
01:31:24.279 --> 01:31:29.119
the videos. Now, technically that would have been a really

1154
01:31:29.159 --> 01:31:33.880
good job for me because not only was I an

1155
01:31:33.960 --> 01:31:39.079
avid video watcher, I knew where all the videos were.

1156
01:31:39.479 --> 01:31:43.279
I knew where all the titles were. So if you

1157
01:31:43.399 --> 01:31:45.840
just said to me, oh, if you got the Big

1158
01:31:45.960 --> 01:31:52.479
Boss Bruce Lee's movie, or if you've got I don't

1159
01:31:52.479 --> 01:31:54.520
know anything like a Disney movie, or if you've got

1160
01:31:55.039 --> 01:31:58.119
I could say yes or no. Because I knew what

1161
01:31:58.359 --> 01:32:03.960
was on the shelves. I was always It's really weird.

1162
01:32:04.000 --> 01:32:07.319
I just knew where everything was. So because I was

1163
01:32:07.399 --> 01:32:09.680
in there a near the every day looking for the

1164
01:32:09.760 --> 01:32:14.319
next video, and that's what I did. And it was

1165
01:32:14.399 --> 01:32:19.560
so cheap. It was probably like fifty pence forty pence

1166
01:32:19.640 --> 01:32:22.560
or something to rent a video out for one day,

1167
01:32:23.479 --> 01:32:26.800
and so i'd get At times I would be in

1168
01:32:26.880 --> 01:32:33.439
there every day, especially during the holidays. Oh, such a

1169
01:32:33.560 --> 01:32:40.760
nice I liked those times. With Blockbusters. It was more

1170
01:32:41.359 --> 01:32:47.680
a weekly thing because I was working, and it'd be

1171
01:32:48.000 --> 01:32:51.640
probably like a lot of people would, I guess, do

1172
01:32:52.319 --> 01:32:57.039
go on a Friday evening or Saturday evening and just

1173
01:32:57.199 --> 01:33:00.399
rent out like maybe two or three videos for the

1174
01:33:00.479 --> 01:33:08.199
weekend and bring them back on a Monday. So yeah,

1175
01:33:08.279 --> 01:33:14.239
I lived just up the road from Yeah, I did

1176
01:33:14.319 --> 01:33:23.199
lift just up the road from the video shop. Yeah,

1177
01:33:23.600 --> 01:33:28.279
but it's actually two different places. I lived just the

1178
01:33:28.399 --> 01:33:31.279
next place was just around the corner. The other place

1179
01:33:31.520 --> 01:33:34.600
was a lot further away, but the place before that

1180
01:33:34.960 --> 01:33:42.880
was and it wasn't far, probably fifteen minute walk, so

1181
01:33:42.960 --> 01:33:43.760
it wasn't far.

1182
01:33:44.079 --> 01:33:44.359
Really.

1183
01:33:48.840 --> 01:33:50.439
I used to love it though, it's I love getting

1184
01:33:50.520 --> 01:33:58.000
videos out. It's strange how things had changed because now

1185
01:33:58.439 --> 01:34:02.399
because of all the streaming, I mean, Blockbusters closed down

1186
01:34:03.199 --> 01:34:05.439
in this country anyway. I don't know if this video

1187
01:34:05.520 --> 01:34:09.520
shops elsewhere, but I don't think video shops exist anymore,

1188
01:34:11.279 --> 01:34:18.119
or DVD shops. They still sell DVDs, I think, but

1189
01:34:18.279 --> 01:34:23.119
it's streaming. But the thing is, what I noticed with

1190
01:34:23.239 --> 01:34:29.560
the streaming companies, the channels, is they don't keep the

1191
01:34:29.640 --> 01:34:32.439
same stuff on there. They tend to take stuff off.

1192
01:34:33.000 --> 01:34:37.000
Even Netflix doesn't keep the same stuff on there. Forever

1193
01:34:38.479 --> 01:34:41.079
they love stuff and then they'll take it off. I

1194
01:34:41.119 --> 01:34:44.399
don't know why I repeat myself then, and that is

1195
01:34:46.640 --> 01:34:56.600
slightly disappointing to myself, because because because of the wonderful

1196
01:34:56.640 --> 01:35:02.640
thing he does, I'm thinking of what, maybe reading all

1197
01:35:02.720 --> 01:35:07.920
of the Wizard of Oz books, maybe getting them all

1198
01:35:07.960 --> 01:35:10.359
and just reading them. I mean, that would be the

1199
01:35:10.399 --> 01:35:12.479
point of reading them, isn't it. I'd have to get

1200
01:35:12.560 --> 01:35:18.680
them first. And I was also thinking about writing a book,

1201
01:35:20.479 --> 01:35:25.000
not a Wizard of Oz book, but I did wonder

1202
01:35:25.279 --> 01:35:32.800
sometimes the idea of creating a new world. Now it's

1203
01:35:32.880 --> 01:35:37.039
been done, of course well by lots of people, but

1204
01:35:38.000 --> 01:35:45.439
more famously what's her name? But what's a Harry Potter.

1205
01:35:46.279 --> 01:35:50.479
You've got the Wizard of Oz, you've got Narnia, you've

1206
01:35:50.520 --> 01:36:02.560
got Discworld, you've got the uh Token and whatever may be,

1207
01:36:03.000 --> 01:36:06.640
my precious that that thing the Hobbit or that kind

1208
01:36:06.680 --> 01:36:13.520
of world. So I do think, you know, I thought

1209
01:36:13.520 --> 01:36:18.079
about making a world up, but that's it looks like

1210
01:36:18.359 --> 01:36:24.039
it looks like a lot of effort, and remember on

1211
01:36:24.119 --> 01:36:29.439
all the different characters. I don't know, I thought. I

1212
01:36:29.560 --> 01:36:33.319
did think maybe introducing some new characters to my podcasts,

1213
01:36:36.920 --> 01:36:40.640
or perhaps having a guest, a guest come in and

1214
01:36:41.000 --> 01:36:47.279
like a you know, a different personality you come and

1215
01:36:47.399 --> 01:36:53.159
talk once a week, or maybe Vinnie doing a show.

1216
01:36:55.279 --> 01:36:55.680
I don't know.

1217
01:36:59.399 --> 01:37:01.439
When I have my appendix out. When I was about twelve,

1218
01:37:01.640 --> 01:37:02.439
that was brilliant.

1219
01:37:02.479 --> 01:37:02.920
I loved that.

1220
01:37:03.279 --> 01:37:06.640
I loved everything about that. There was a few moments

1221
01:37:06.680 --> 01:37:11.520
when I was embarrassed. There was one particular time when

1222
01:37:13.960 --> 01:37:19.720
I all I wanted to do is I don't know

1223
01:37:19.960 --> 01:37:23.279
why I didn't just go over there, but I think

1224
01:37:23.359 --> 01:37:25.640
at this point I wasn't really supposed to leave my

1225
01:37:25.720 --> 01:37:28.479
bed because it was just after the op, so they

1226
01:37:28.520 --> 01:37:30.920
didn't want me putting pressure on the stitches and stuff.

1227
01:37:34.920 --> 01:37:38.279
But I thought I got a way around this, so

1228
01:37:38.359 --> 01:37:43.800
I put my hand up, I said miss, and I

1229
01:37:43.880 --> 01:37:47.439
actually got up and I started walking towards the hallway

1230
01:37:47.760 --> 01:37:49.840
because that's where there was a box of comics, and

1231
01:37:49.920 --> 01:37:53.239
I wanted to have a look at the comics to

1232
01:37:53.359 --> 01:37:55.439
see what was in there. I think there was like

1233
01:37:55.680 --> 01:37:59.439
X Men comics and stuff like that. And the nurse

1234
01:38:00.800 --> 01:38:04.119
we're going. I said, I'm just going to go to

1235
01:38:04.239 --> 01:38:06.880
the toilet. She said, no, turn around. You know you're

1236
01:38:06.880 --> 01:38:10.199
not allowed to walk around until the stitches are a

1237
01:38:10.279 --> 01:38:17.960
bit more cemented. I said, okay, so I go just

1238
01:38:18.039 --> 01:38:19.520
to get back in bed. She said, no, no, if

1239
01:38:19.520 --> 01:38:26.720
you just if you can just stand there, and she

1240
01:38:26.880 --> 01:38:34.960
pulled out this. I actually thought there were hats, but

1241
01:38:35.039 --> 01:38:41.560
they're not hats, like a cardboard hat, and she yeah,

1242
01:38:42.399 --> 01:38:47.920
she pulled one of them out. Apparently I thought people

1243
01:38:48.079 --> 01:38:51.920
laughing because they were enjoying my dance in my comedy routine,

1244
01:38:52.000 --> 01:38:56.600
but apparently it's because that's not what they were for.

1245
01:38:59.079 --> 01:39:01.399
So she got me to she said, well, now do

1246
01:39:01.920 --> 01:39:04.760
we weies in? I don't know. She said those words

1247
01:39:05.319 --> 01:39:06.960
when I was twelve, so I don't know if that

1248
01:39:07.159 --> 01:39:14.119
was the right thing. But anyway, at this point, at

1249
01:39:14.159 --> 01:39:18.439
this junction in my life, I was a teenager. I

1250
01:39:18.520 --> 01:39:24.159
was getting onto being a teenager. I was self conscious

1251
01:39:24.199 --> 01:39:28.560
about my body. I also had a huge interest in

1252
01:39:29.479 --> 01:39:33.680
the ladies in females at this time, especially older women,

1253
01:39:33.880 --> 01:39:39.119
loved really. They had no interest in me. I was

1254
01:39:39.199 --> 01:39:42.960
interested in them. And there was a particular nurse Therecord

1255
01:39:43.079 --> 01:39:47.960
Nurse Nichols, that I was in love with. I've been

1256
01:39:48.039 --> 01:39:51.039
in love many times, especially when I was a kid,

1257
01:39:51.199 --> 01:40:00.600
constantly in love with women, and yeah, but anyway, I

1258
01:40:00.680 --> 01:40:02.760
don't think it was Nurse Nichols, but it's a different

1259
01:40:02.840 --> 01:40:07.039
nurse another. They were all nice, but she came like friendly.

1260
01:40:07.079 --> 01:40:10.720
I mean, she came over and she said, just do

1261
01:40:10.800 --> 01:40:12.319
it in here. I said, it's okay. He says, no,

1262
01:40:12.399 --> 01:40:16.479
that's right. I hold it. This is the cardboard fing

1263
01:40:16.560 --> 01:40:22.319
of me. And it was among the most embarrassing things

1264
01:40:22.600 --> 01:40:26.359
that I've done because I didn't need to go to

1265
01:40:26.479 --> 01:40:29.760
the toilet, I didn't need a we wi. So I'm

1266
01:40:29.800 --> 01:40:39.279
standing there with my you know, aimed and nothing happened,

1267
01:40:42.600 --> 01:40:48.439
and I was talking to her. I just wish you'd

1268
01:40:48.479 --> 01:40:50.079
look at me in the eyes. That's all I wanted.

1269
01:40:50.680 --> 01:40:52.920
Just just look up here. My face is up here.

1270
01:40:54.079 --> 01:40:59.800
And it was so embarrassing. The weird thing about it

1271
01:40:59.840 --> 01:41:02.840
is even more embarrassing really when I think about it,

1272
01:41:02.920 --> 01:41:09.359
because at the time she was an old woman, you know,

1273
01:41:09.520 --> 01:41:13.680
I was twelve. She was I mean old, as in

1274
01:41:13.800 --> 01:41:19.279
she was as old. But in reality the nurses might

1275
01:41:19.279 --> 01:41:23.079
have only been like eighteen nineteen, so they were young.

1276
01:41:23.800 --> 01:41:26.239
But because I was so young, they all seemed really old.

1277
01:41:26.399 --> 01:41:30.840
They might be like twenties. So the fact is these

1278
01:41:30.920 --> 01:41:37.119
were young women, which makes it more embarrassing. But I

1279
01:41:37.239 --> 01:41:47.760
was I couldn't, I couldn't go weeries and yeah, that wasn't.

1280
01:41:47.840 --> 01:41:52.279
I didn't didn't enjoy that, which just goes to show

1281
01:41:52.279 --> 01:41:59.880
I suppose that was another another you know, learning moment

1282
01:42:00.199 --> 01:42:05.399
about not lying. I suppose, but I didn't. I didn't

1283
01:42:05.479 --> 01:42:13.000
really feel that I was lying, although technically I suppose

1284
01:42:13.079 --> 01:42:17.920
I was, but it didn't really feel that way. I

1285
01:42:18.079 --> 01:42:24.720
was just telling FIBs because I wanted to. I wanted

1286
01:42:24.760 --> 01:42:31.439
to read a comic. But the problem is at that

1287
01:42:31.760 --> 01:42:37.279
time I was still getting the Dandy and looking and

1288
01:42:37.439 --> 01:42:39.439
I was probably a bit too old for those comics,

1289
01:42:39.600 --> 01:42:43.159
so I said, don't bring them in. But the comics

1290
01:42:43.199 --> 01:42:45.159
they had for the kids were a little bit older

1291
01:42:45.760 --> 01:42:51.760
than what I would normally look at. And I've never

1292
01:42:51.880 --> 01:42:55.119
seen any of the whole thing you've noticed is a

1293
01:42:55.199 --> 01:42:58.359
fly again of you. I've never seen any of these

1294
01:42:58.439 --> 01:43:02.960
superhero comics before, because my brothers didn't used to get

1295
01:43:03.039 --> 01:43:07.039
those kind of comics, although I think one of them

1296
01:43:07.079 --> 01:43:12.319
did start to. But I used to get Looking and

1297
01:43:12.520 --> 01:43:17.800
the Dandy every week. My brother that was two years

1298
01:43:17.800 --> 01:43:22.239
older than me used to get The Beano and Wizard

1299
01:43:22.319 --> 01:43:26.760
and Chips. And my oldest brother, who was four years

1300
01:43:26.800 --> 01:43:29.760
older than me, I think he used to get a

1301
01:43:30.119 --> 01:43:36.279
football magazine and a war magazine because there used to

1302
01:43:36.319 --> 01:43:40.279
be a lot of that stuff back in the late

1303
01:43:40.439 --> 01:43:46.600
seventies early eighties those But yeah, I think he might

1304
01:43:46.640 --> 01:43:51.840
have had a roy of the Rovers or something was

1305
01:43:51.920 --> 01:43:56.119
a comic that he might have gotten, and but of

1306
01:43:56.199 --> 01:43:59.039
course it might changed. I'm sure one of them started

1307
01:43:59.039 --> 01:44:05.359
getting superhero comics. So I got this this memory of

1308
01:44:05.520 --> 01:44:13.520
seeing Wolverine, and I struggled to follow this story because

1309
01:44:13.560 --> 01:44:18.960
the graphics were amazing, but I couldn't always see figure

1310
01:44:18.960 --> 01:44:22.680
out who was saying what and why, And because the

1311
01:44:22.800 --> 01:44:25.760
story is carried on from the previous week or the

1312
01:44:25.840 --> 01:44:30.720
previous comic, there seemed to be a lack of consistency,

1313
01:44:32.399 --> 01:44:35.279
or I suppose maybe too much consistency depends on how

1314
01:44:35.319 --> 01:44:35.760
you look at it.

1315
01:44:38.399 --> 01:44:38.880
Yeah, so.

1316
01:44:41.119 --> 01:44:43.000
I just wanted to look at the comics. That's all

1317
01:44:43.079 --> 01:44:47.279
it was. But other than that, it was the bestest

1318
01:44:47.439 --> 01:44:52.239
time of my childhood. Being in that hospital was brilliant.

1319
01:44:52.439 --> 01:44:56.800
So not all the everyone, one of the doctors, not

1320
01:44:56.920 --> 01:45:01.039
so much, but all of the nurses.

1321
01:45:05.199 --> 01:45:06.079
You know, it was.

1322
01:45:11.159 --> 01:45:15.680
Yeah, it was okay, it was more than okay. I

1323
01:45:15.920 --> 01:45:19.359
enjoyed it. It was a nice time. It was lovely

1324
01:45:19.439 --> 01:45:22.039
to have a break from school, have a break from

1325
01:45:23.119 --> 01:45:26.680
family life. That was lovely. Just to be away from everyone.

1326
01:45:27.760 --> 01:45:33.800
It was just spectacularly wonderful. I stayed in there for

1327
01:45:35.279 --> 01:45:38.520
a long time because I loved it. I got so

1328
01:45:38.720 --> 01:45:43.920
well with the other kids, and yeah, I didn't feel

1329
01:45:45.800 --> 01:45:47.800
I mean, I just didn't feel out of my depth.

1330
01:45:47.880 --> 01:45:53.760
I didn't feel self conscious. We just had fun and

1331
01:45:54.119 --> 01:45:57.319
I probably never laughed as much as I did then.

1332
01:45:58.000 --> 01:46:01.720
That's the first time I'd laughed. It's almost like the

1333
01:46:01.760 --> 01:46:06.239
first time I felt free, really without restrictions of I

1334
01:46:06.279 --> 01:46:09.800
suppose adults in a way, and brothers, so they didn't

1335
01:46:09.840 --> 01:46:12.239
have any known people around and I could just be

1336
01:46:12.520 --> 01:46:18.600
myself without I don't know, there was I don't know

1337
01:46:18.760 --> 01:46:20.840
how to explain it. It was just nice. It was

1338
01:46:20.920 --> 01:46:26.039
so nice. I loved it, and I'm going to go

1339
01:46:26.079 --> 01:46:29.079
because Vinnie started barking. A few doors, Bear slammed, and

1340
01:46:29.199 --> 01:46:33.800
music's gone up downstairs. So I realized I haven't really

1341
01:46:33.960 --> 01:46:39.239
gone in depth about talking about being boring, hospital, boring

1342
01:46:39.279 --> 01:46:47.640
objects and stuff. I attempted it. So give me two

1343
01:46:47.760 --> 01:46:49.840
out of ten. Please give me a even know if

1344
01:46:49.880 --> 01:46:52.359
it's a low mark, give me a low mark. I

1345
01:46:52.399 --> 01:46:58.479
don't mind. So thank you for listening. Remember to be

1346
01:46:58.640 --> 01:47:01.520
kind to yourself, because you do deserve to be happy

1347
01:47:02.640 --> 01:47:05.640
and be gentle with yourself. You deserve to feel safe,

1348
01:47:07.079 --> 01:47:07.640
lots of love.

1349
01:47:10.760 --> 01:47:11.000
Bye.

1350
01:47:17.399 --> 01:47:31.920
Relax in a more deep and meaningful way, maybe in

1351
01:47:32.039 --> 01:47:37.520
a way that can not just allow you to feel

1352
01:47:38.960 --> 01:47:48.039
calmer now and throughout the time we spend together here,

1353
01:47:50.199 --> 01:47:55.840
not just relaxed at the end of the recording when

1354
01:47:55.920 --> 01:48:02.560
it's finished and you can enjoy that sense of comfort

1355
01:48:02.760 --> 01:48:17.640
and peace, but also I think it would be nice

1356
01:48:17.800 --> 01:48:37.520
to have those feelings of relaxation continue for longer after

1357
01:48:37.680 --> 01:48:48.199
the recording has ended, so that you can still benefit

1358
01:48:51.119 --> 01:48:58.359
from listening to my voice, maybe in a few hours time,

1359
01:49:00.279 --> 01:49:14.279
perhaps tomorrow, and then by listening regularly, especially if you find,

1360
01:49:15.600 --> 01:49:19.159
like some people do and myself as well, I sometimes

1361
01:49:19.199 --> 01:49:25.479
I find one particular recording that really resonates with me,

1362
01:49:29.840 --> 01:49:32.199
and I just listen to it over and over again

1363
01:49:34.479 --> 01:49:47.520
every morning, every evening. There was this recording from We're

1364
01:49:47.560 --> 01:49:52.159
going back to about nineteen ninety nine. It was it

1365
01:49:52.279 --> 01:49:57.279
wasn't hypnosis, but it was a guided visualizations. It kind

1366
01:49:57.319 --> 01:50:04.359
of was hypnosis, really, and I managed to find it

1367
01:50:04.479 --> 01:50:08.359
again and it still has the same effect on me.

1368
01:50:11.000 --> 01:50:20.720
And part of it was the person's voice relaxed me,

1369
01:50:24.760 --> 01:50:31.359
just felt so peaceful, and I'd look forward to listening

1370
01:50:31.960 --> 01:50:43.800
to her in the morning and in the evening, and

1371
01:50:44.359 --> 01:50:53.479
I knew before even pressing the play button that since

1372
01:50:53.560 --> 01:50:57.920
I've done that, pressed the play button. This is in

1373
01:50:58.039 --> 01:51:12.600
the days of CD players press the play button. I fact,

1374
01:51:12.640 --> 01:51:16.600
it might have even been a tape tape recorder. I'd

1375
01:51:16.720 --> 01:51:26.399
lie down on the bed and then even without necessarily

1376
01:51:27.600 --> 01:51:38.239
listening to her words because I had them memorized. Really,

1377
01:51:42.960 --> 01:51:48.800
it was as if my body knew exactly what to do,

1378
01:51:53.720 --> 01:52:15.399
and the muscles just almost went in automatic relaxation, and

1379
01:52:15.720 --> 01:52:29.600
I remember my mind would slow down. Now, Now, I

1380
01:52:29.760 --> 01:52:35.920
was listening to this recording in the early days of

1381
01:52:36.079 --> 01:52:46.640
learning hypnosis, and long before I ever made any videos

1382
01:52:46.920 --> 01:52:51.560
or audio recordings myself because I didn't start doing that

1383
01:52:51.760 --> 01:53:05.399
till two thousand and six, but I knew, I knew

1384
01:53:05.880 --> 01:53:18.560
how helpful I found being able to just let go,

1385
01:53:21.680 --> 01:53:27.039
to have that trust in the person that I'm listening to,

1386
01:53:34.760 --> 01:53:42.800
knowing that it's going to be just as relaxing, if

1387
01:53:42.920 --> 01:53:52.239
not more so. Each time you hear my voice, you

1388
01:53:52.359 --> 01:54:03.800
may feel the same. Some pe people have been listening

1389
01:54:03.880 --> 01:54:17.760
to me for over a decade, maybe not solidly, obviously

1390
01:54:17.840 --> 01:54:24.279
not twenty four hours a day, but maybe people come back.

1391
01:54:26.159 --> 01:54:39.960
Some people maybe listen every day. That's something that I

1392
01:54:41.279 --> 01:54:57.239
do which you may not realize by listening, is when

1393
01:54:57.560 --> 01:55:13.000
I record these recordings. Now, for example, I also am

1394
01:55:13.279 --> 01:55:24.159
affected by the words that I say. So if I

1395
01:55:27.119 --> 01:55:34.479
set you focus on your feet, notice your feet relaxing,

1396
01:55:37.960 --> 01:55:45.680
I will be focusing on my feet. I will be

1397
01:55:46.000 --> 01:56:04.039
noticing my feet relaxing. If I said, focus on your hands,

1398
01:56:06.880 --> 01:56:16.359
and maybe notice the difference between each hand, Perhaps notice

1399
01:56:16.479 --> 01:56:22.520
the the air in the room, the temperature of the room.

1400
01:56:24.439 --> 01:56:34.800
On the backs of your hands. You may start to

1401
01:56:35.399 --> 01:56:43.439
notice what almost feels like a very light breeze, even

1402
01:56:43.520 --> 01:56:47.720
though there may not be any type of breeze at

1403
01:56:47.800 --> 01:57:00.159
all where you are right now. And as you, you

1404
01:57:00.359 --> 01:57:14.000
become aware of your hands. I'm also aware of how

1405
01:57:15.199 --> 01:57:39.560
relaxed my hands our feeling now and when it comes

1406
01:57:39.800 --> 01:57:46.720
to potentially drifting off to sleep, which may be the

1407
01:57:46.960 --> 01:58:02.760
reason you're listening. I also feel drowsy when I make

1408
01:58:02.880 --> 01:58:24.000
these recordings. I also notice my mind drifting. In fact,

1409
01:58:24.319 --> 01:58:41.000
at times I've actually fallen asleep without even noticing. And

1410
01:58:41.079 --> 01:58:50.439
then I carry on talking. And it's only where I

1411
01:58:52.119 --> 01:59:01.600
listen back to do the editing. I hearnoring, and I

1412
01:59:01.760 --> 01:59:12.199
think I don't remember snoring. I remember talking. This snoring

1413
01:59:12.560 --> 01:59:19.239
was a pig turned up. That's why I sound like

1414
01:59:19.359 --> 01:59:30.399
when I snaw. How I get really into the whole experience.

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01:59:38.359 --> 01:59:47.359
I don't know how you feel. How relaxed do you

1416
01:59:47.520 --> 01:59:58.439
feel in your feet, how relaxed you feel in your hands.

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02:00:13.560 --> 02:00:25.760
I have noticed more and more that the more relaxed,

1418
02:00:27.520 --> 02:00:43.279
deeper level of comfort you feel, the easier your breathing becomes.

1419
02:00:49.840 --> 02:01:05.720
It's almost like that additional must sort of relaxation. So

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02:01:05.840 --> 02:01:28.920
this allows you the breve easier without necessarily focusing on

1421
02:01:29.079 --> 02:01:57.920
your breath. However, being able to notice the ease in

1422
02:01:58.119 --> 02:02:25.279
which you breathe so naturally, you breathe so very easily

1423
02:02:26.880 --> 02:03:13.600
and smoothly. Whenever I imagine my breathing improving. When I've

1424
02:03:13.680 --> 02:03:29.439
got my eyes closed, I tend to visualize a beautiful

1425
02:03:29.640 --> 02:03:46.680
field with trees and flowers producing all that life giving oxygen.

1426
02:04:06.960 --> 02:04:22.439
It feels nice too, if nothing else, just taking some

1427
02:04:23.079 --> 02:05:00.279
time away from everything, enjoying that feeling of p yes

1428
02:05:05.079 --> 02:05:49.560
serenity with a joyful heart. Time seems to just drip by,

1429
02:05:54.119 --> 02:06:43.960
so very slowly, relaxed, so deeply peaceful, completely unattached to

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02:06:44.840 --> 02:07:41.760
any thoughts whatsoever in this moment, completely free, noticing that

1431
02:07:49.359 --> 02:08:35.840
your mind has slowed down. Slowed down because nothing really

1432
02:08:36.119 --> 02:09:07.399
requires your attention. You can enjoy physical sensations of allowing

1433
02:09:07.680 --> 02:09:20.399
the stress drip out of your body, to appear out

1434
02:09:20.479 --> 02:09:49.600
of every part of your body and being released from

1435
02:09:49.720 --> 02:10:30.520
your brain in your mind slowly but surely, the muscles, sing,

1436
02:10:30.920 --> 02:11:23.119
legs relax rs r MHM, so very deeply, relax so deeply,

1437
02:11:40.960 --> 02:11:51.079
and the feelings, the pleasant feelings in your arms and shoulders,

1438
02:12:09.039 --> 02:12:33.399
deepening each part of your body further and deeper and deeper,

1439
02:12:48.079 --> 02:13:18.439
Noticing the feelings in the back of your neck, feelings

1440
02:13:18.680 --> 02:14:07.479
in your wrists, muscles in front of your body. I

1441
02:14:07.760 --> 02:14:56.760
also feeling peaceful, deeply, there's a sense of peace spreads

1442
02:14:57.199 --> 02:15:36.760
through your fairical or even when you focus on your mind,

1443
02:15:48.680 --> 02:16:35.239
your mind becomes eve and slower. Yoh, yeeven deep relaxing,

1444
02:16:59.079 --> 02:17:36.959
so fair be slow your stomach, he's fall in your stomach,

1445
02:17:59.120 --> 02:17:59.680
you'll bay.

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02:18:00.079 --> 02:18:00.319
Yeah.

1447
02:18:05.200 --> 02:18:34.040
Notice Notice how relaxed you'd now fear in the hole

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02:18:34.399 --> 02:19:07.200
of your back. Your spy from your brain all the

1449
02:19:07.319 --> 02:19:16.000
way down the middle of your back, sending and receiving

1450
02:19:18.399 --> 02:19:50.319
millions of messages every day, deep comfort, increasing deeply relaxed.

1451
02:20:20.399 --> 02:20:55.479
You knees, spreading these signals down a spine or cord

1452
02:21:00.159 --> 02:21:19.000
davery parts of your body, m your shins and your

1453
02:21:19.159 --> 02:22:15.120
calf muscles. We're outbursts feelings of peace and tranquility spreading

1454
02:22:15.920 --> 02:22:28.360
through your body, tips of your toes, to your eyes,

1455
02:22:32.799 --> 02:22:52.200
your fingers, all the way to your lower back. Lettinger,

1456
02:22:54.520 --> 02:24:05.559
radiatinker peace, drifting mind just wounding away, happy to.

1457
02:24:05.799 --> 02:24:10.639
Let go, let go.

1458
02:24:15.479 --> 02:25:16.079
Completely, let go, so tranquil the whole body, enjoying a

1459
02:25:16.360 --> 02:27:38.120
sensor letting go, he even more peece enjoy the space,

1460
02:27:40.559 --> 02:28:22.200
this space of peace and safety. So fury he relaxed,

1461
02:29:52.120 --> 02:30:16.840
lessing go. Maybe we can just focus on the different

1462
02:30:17.239 --> 02:30:52.040
parts of your body, just to notice your forehead and

1463
02:30:52.280 --> 02:31:58.719
your eyes future so Louise, noticing the sense of complete freedom,

1464
02:32:10.760 --> 02:34:07.079
absolute freedom, prating peace, fall energy, peace, to breathe so

1465
02:34:07.360 --> 02:35:17.879
much easier lest you may have or may not have

1466
02:35:18.159 --> 02:36:25.040
noticed your mind drifting peaceful, moveingly, even more deeply in

1467
02:36:25.200 --> 02:38:01.920
the direction of total blissful peace, blissful peace est total peace,

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02:38:26.639 --> 02:39:28.159
com so calm, letting go peace with mind relaxed, forty

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02:39:45.479 --> 02:40:42.200
so relaxed, so relaxed. Your body feels almost invisible, so

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02:40:42.920 --> 02:41:44.479
very relaxed. I'm peaceful, so peace, real liquor, sweet peaceful,

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02:41:50.319 --> 02:42:05.000
son of fair peace. And you could start to notice

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02:42:05.399 --> 02:42:14.440
that you are feeling more relaxed, even though I've not

1473
02:42:16.159 --> 02:42:26.840
purposely focused your mind upon that sense of physical comfort

1474
02:42:27.600 --> 02:42:34.440
that is growing within you throughout your body, and your

1475
02:42:34.520 --> 02:42:45.120
mind starts to slow down, And that could be almost

1476
02:42:45.319 --> 02:42:54.840
in recognition of I guess my speech not being particularly fast,

1477
02:43:01.399 --> 02:43:03.680
and things just generally.

1478
02:43:04.959 --> 02:43:05.840
Feel calmer.

1479
02:43:09.360 --> 02:43:17.319
Just by listening to my voice, you give yourself an

1480
02:43:17.399 --> 02:43:25.319
opportunity to take a break from the day, take a

1481
02:43:25.440 --> 02:43:33.079
break from your life as it is, and to give

1482
02:43:33.120 --> 02:43:41.239
yourself a rest, giving yourself permission to take some time

1483
02:43:41.360 --> 02:43:48.799
off and to allow your body to relax and allow

1484
02:43:49.000 --> 02:43:59.319
your mind to slow down, which in turn releases the

1485
02:43:59.520 --> 02:44:10.120
tension any stresses that you had in your body. It's

1486
02:44:10.159 --> 02:44:14.719
almost as if the parts of your body just open up,

1487
02:44:16.079 --> 02:44:27.680
allowing the negativity out and at the same time replacing

1488
02:44:28.559 --> 02:44:38.079
that negativity with positive heathing energy, which then fills your

1489
02:44:38.120 --> 02:44:49.959
body up and your mind to also starts to appreciate

1490
02:44:50.840 --> 02:45:09.200
those feelings of increasing confidence, an almost uplifting feeling, positive healing,

1491
02:45:12.399 --> 02:45:20.959
an energy that spreads through your body like a wave

1492
02:45:23.280 --> 02:45:35.399
of comfort. And all this comes from just allowing yourself

1493
02:45:38.239 --> 02:45:43.440
a few minutes, maybe half an hour, however long you

1494
02:45:43.559 --> 02:45:47.760
want it to be, to just rest.

1495
02:45:52.799 --> 02:45:53.760
And allow.

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02:45:55.959 --> 02:46:06.680
Your mind and your body allmost reset itself to the

1497
02:46:06.840 --> 02:46:22.719
settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness, which allows more room

1498
02:46:23.200 --> 02:46:27.159
for feelings of pleasure.

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02:46:29.319 --> 02:46:30.600
And happiness.

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02:46:34.159 --> 02:46:42.959
To move around your body and into your mind, almost

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02:46:43.760 --> 02:46:48.360
as if your mind and your body are sinking together,

1502
02:46:52.639 --> 02:47:02.319
almost mirroring each other, with that growing positive activity and calmness.

1503
02:47:07.399 --> 02:47:14.600
And it feels nice. It really does feel nice to

1504
02:47:14.799 --> 02:47:20.479
know that you are the one that has allowed yourself

1505
02:47:23.959 --> 02:47:33.319
to feel more comfort and to experience.

1506
02:47:35.040 --> 02:47:36.200
More of this.

1507
02:47:37.959 --> 02:47:53.120
Deep relaxation spreading throughout your body, And as I focus

1508
02:47:54.680 --> 02:48:00.200
on each part of your body, you can notice is

1509
02:48:00.440 --> 02:48:14.879
that that part becomes even more relaxed just by focusing

1510
02:48:15.000 --> 02:48:25.959
on it. It becomes even more calm and comfortable, just

1511
02:48:26.360 --> 02:48:35.840
by focusing. And as I move down your body, starting

1512
02:48:36.479 --> 02:48:42.680
at your head, the parts that you've already focused on

1513
02:48:43.319 --> 02:48:52.440
will continue to relax deeply, and those parts that we've

1514
02:48:53.120 --> 02:49:04.879
not yet focused on were just automatically release any remaining

1515
02:49:05.040 --> 02:49:18.600
tension in anticipation of even more comfort about to come. Now,

1516
02:49:20.959 --> 02:49:27.159
I'm going to start by focusing on your forehead. Just

1517
02:49:27.360 --> 02:49:35.799
being aware of the feelings of your forehead and any

1518
02:49:35.879 --> 02:49:43.399
background sounds like mister Herbert the pigeon can just allow

1519
02:49:43.520 --> 02:49:50.600
you to feel even more relaxed. Just means you're in

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02:49:50.719 --> 02:49:57.360
the moment. This isn't this isn't a sterile environment.

1521
02:49:58.719 --> 02:49:59.680
This is the world.

1522
02:50:03.159 --> 02:50:09.200
I live in the countryside, so there's lots of nature

1523
02:50:09.719 --> 02:50:20.200
sounds around. So as you focus on your forehead, just

1524
02:50:20.479 --> 02:50:28.239
notice how it becomes even more relaxed as you focus

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02:50:30.559 --> 02:50:35.040
only on my voice and that part of your body.

1526
02:50:40.239 --> 02:50:48.520
Moving down to your eyes, focusing on your eyes, noticing

1527
02:50:51.000 --> 02:51:00.680
how your eyelids feel so heavy yet so light at

1528
02:51:00.760 --> 02:51:07.200
the same time, and all the muscles around your eyes

1529
02:51:07.440 --> 02:51:21.879
relaxing completely. Moving your focus down to your mouth, your lips,

1530
02:51:22.360 --> 02:51:28.959
your tongue, your teeth, and your gumbs, the whole of

1531
02:51:29.120 --> 02:51:43.920
your mouth relaxing, calm and loose. As you focus now

1532
02:51:44.719 --> 02:51:51.600
on your jaw, not just the part of your jaw

1533
02:51:51.719 --> 02:51:56.399
near your mouth, your chin, but all the way up

1534
02:51:57.120 --> 02:52:03.159
the size of your face to your is the hole

1535
02:52:03.879 --> 02:52:30.879
of your jaw feeding more, relaxed and calm. Focusing on

1536
02:52:31.079 --> 02:52:36.479
your neck, the front of your neck and your throat

1537
02:52:38.719 --> 02:52:49.440
relaxing and loose and calm. The sides of your neck,

1538
02:52:51.520 --> 02:52:58.479
the right and left side of your neck relax and.

1539
02:53:00.120 --> 02:53:13.639
Loose and calm, and now the back of your neck.

1540
02:53:16.920 --> 02:53:26.200
Focus in on the back of your neck, letting go

1541
02:53:26.920 --> 02:53:32.680
of any tension that may have been there before, and

1542
02:53:33.319 --> 02:53:46.959
enjoying that sense of increasing comfort and release that you

1543
02:53:47.159 --> 02:53:57.879
can experience in the back of your neck. Moving down

1544
02:53:58.399 --> 02:54:04.200
your back and moving the either side of your spine

1545
02:54:05.479 --> 02:54:10.159
right from the top of your back all the way

1546
02:54:10.399 --> 02:54:23.079
down to the bottom of your back down to your

1547
02:54:23.159 --> 02:54:33.719
lower back. And as you move up and down your spine,

1548
02:54:35.840 --> 02:54:40.280
you can feel the muscles either side of your spine

1549
02:54:42.479 --> 02:54:57.079
relaxing even more, and as those muscles relax. That sense

1550
02:54:57.159 --> 02:55:07.639
of comfort starts to spread outwards from your spine into

1551
02:55:07.840 --> 02:55:14.479
both sides of your back, the top of your back,

1552
02:55:15.319 --> 02:55:21.600
the middle, and your lower back. And as you scan

1553
02:55:23.280 --> 02:55:31.120
gently and slowly up and down your back, there's the

1554
02:55:31.239 --> 02:55:37.079
muscles in the top of your back relax and become looser.

1555
02:55:41.440 --> 02:55:47.440
The muscles in the middle of your back also seem

1556
02:55:47.559 --> 02:55:57.079
to just almost divide from each other, separating and almost melting.

1557
02:56:02.840 --> 02:56:08.840
And in your lower back it seems to be an

1558
02:56:08.879 --> 02:56:23.079
extra special feeling of comfort that spreads into your hips.

1559
02:56:25.399 --> 02:56:33.200
Sit down your lower back, into your hips, into the

1560
02:56:33.399 --> 02:56:42.159
area where your cosicks are, and into your buttocks, and

1561
02:56:42.280 --> 02:56:51.479
all those muscles that spread from your lower back into

1562
02:56:51.520 --> 02:57:04.959
your hip area start to melt, start to really let go,

1563
02:57:11.719 --> 02:57:18.440
and even nowhere about to focus on your shoulders, your

1564
02:57:18.680 --> 02:57:29.280
back and your spine will continue to let go, continue

1565
02:57:30.159 --> 02:57:45.000
to relax so calmly, and as you focus on your shoulders,

1566
02:57:46.799 --> 02:58:06.520
you may notice that they're already feeling really loose, already feeding,

1567
02:58:11.760 --> 02:58:29.479
calm and fearing. Those muscles then move from your neck

1568
02:58:30.920 --> 02:58:49.639
into your shoulders. Feel so soft and gentle, so smooth

1569
02:58:55.920 --> 02:59:18.399
and calm, and the feeling in your shoulders seens to

1570
02:59:18.840 --> 02:59:27.280
spread deep into your shoulders, that sense of relaxation, not

1571
02:59:27.840 --> 02:59:41.639
just traveling deeply into your muscles, but also relaxing the

1572
02:59:41.799 --> 02:59:55.000
bones and moving all away to underneath your arms, relaxing

1573
02:59:56.840 --> 03:00:01.639
that whole area between the tops of your shoulder and

1574
03:00:01.879 --> 03:00:20.319
underneath your arms healing. You feel so relaxed and comfortable

1575
03:00:21.559 --> 03:00:40.840
in your shoulders. Who sends that deep healing message into

1576
03:00:40.920 --> 03:00:52.399
your arms? And you may feel almost as if your

1577
03:00:52.799 --> 03:01:02.000
arms are not even there because they're so relaxed, so

1578
03:01:03.639 --> 03:01:32.959
deeply relaxed, so so calm, so.

1579
03:01:39.680 --> 03:01:40.040
Pose.

1580
03:01:47.440 --> 03:01:58.559
The feeling spreading all the way down your arms to elbows,

1581
03:02:02.399 --> 03:02:27.520
including your elbows circumforts spreads or away into your wrists,

1582
03:02:30.399 --> 03:02:45.479
your forearments, and your wrists being so heavy, yet at

1583
03:02:45.639 --> 03:03:28.840
the same time so light and gentle. Frey, say now

1584
03:03:29.559 --> 03:04:07.280
on your hands, my hands, so peaceful in your hands.

1585
03:04:25.760 --> 03:04:44.760
There's a sense of real peace. It just seems to

1586
03:04:48.760 --> 03:05:09.760
I feel so familiar when your hands relax deep. Yes,

1587
03:05:27.440 --> 03:06:59.840
you things, you things silas you think it tips h

1588
03:07:04.520 --> 03:07:23.680
Moving your attention to the front of your body, so comfortable,

1589
03:07:34.680 --> 03:07:36.799
Moving your focus.

1590
03:07:38.239 --> 03:08:59.719
To your legs, Why my soures.

1591
03:09:01.399 --> 03:09:54.040
In your thighs, your knees, so relaxed, A calf muscles

1592
03:09:55.399 --> 03:12:03.959
and just chins. Oh pleazy they the fathing your feet,

1593
03:12:11.000 --> 03:13:01.840
so peaceful, so calm, so peaceful, so calm, so peaceful,

1594
03:13:05.520 --> 03:13:35.879
so calm, so peace fall RelA sin peace fall, so calm,

1595
03:13:43.879 --> 03:13:51.479
loving that deep relaxation, to spread your chest, in your stomach,

1596
03:13:55.239 --> 03:14:23.000
so RelA, letting go everything. So I'm gonna start counting

1597
03:14:23.120 --> 03:14:34.840
down now from twenty down to one. You can imagine

1598
03:14:34.879 --> 03:14:38.559
in a way it's like just walking down some steps

1599
03:14:40.520 --> 03:14:44.840
and each step or twenty steps, and each step represents

1600
03:14:46.159 --> 03:14:59.040
a level of comfort. Each step represents a deepening of

1601
03:14:59.239 --> 03:15:09.959
that comfort, and the firvies you walk down those steps,

1602
03:15:10.120 --> 03:15:22.399
that the deeper and more relaxed you feel. So starting

1603
03:15:22.520 --> 03:19:11.879
with number twenty twenty nineteen A tame seventeen sixteen fifteen

1604
03:19:54.600 --> 03:27:20.840
fourteen four see too well five ey nine hey seven

1605
03:28:57.879 --> 03:36:06.920
tho five four one. And now as you focus on

1606
03:36:07.079 --> 03:36:20.559
your eyes, we're gonna count down from ten dout to one,

1607
03:36:26.959 --> 03:36:36.520
focusing just on your eyes, your eyelids, the muscles around

1608
03:36:36.639 --> 03:36:48.079
your eyes, your eye walls themselves, a whole area that

1609
03:36:48.319 --> 03:37:02.360
makes up your eye. And as we count down from

1610
03:37:02.559 --> 03:37:10.559
ten down to one, whilst focus in on your eyes,

1611
03:37:16.879 --> 03:37:27.760
you'll become twice is relaxed with each number counting down,

1612
03:37:31.920 --> 03:37:38.840
and you may find the all you want to do

1613
03:37:39.360 --> 03:37:48.319
is just drift off to sleep. And if that's what

1614
03:37:48.600 --> 03:38:01.120
you want, then just allow yourself to do that. Now,

1615
03:38:04.079 --> 03:38:10.440
focusing on your eyes, I'm going to begin counting down

1616
03:38:12.000 --> 03:39:28.440
from ten down to one right now. Ten nine eight

1617
03:40:22.000 --> 03:44:51.319
seven four five four three.

1618
03:45:56.639 --> 03:47:25.120
Two one.

1619
03:47:31.440 --> 03:47:48.120
So counting down from ten to one ten nine eight

1620
03:47:50.920 --> 03:48:15.760
seven six five four three two one. And maybe that

1621
03:48:15.959 --> 03:48:20.040
was a bit too quick in order to relax. Maybe

1622
03:48:20.079 --> 03:48:24.399
it's a bit too fast for you to notice the

1623
03:48:25.680 --> 03:48:32.520
calming of your body, maybe even a little bit of

1624
03:48:32.639 --> 03:48:36.559
pressure there. Like you're counting down from ten to one.

1625
03:48:36.680 --> 03:48:40.079
Would you expect me to do man, expect me to

1626
03:48:40.120 --> 03:48:49.959
stick go floppy just because you're counting down. We could

1627
03:48:50.000 --> 03:48:53.239
try it again, but this time I go a bit

1628
03:48:53.399 --> 03:49:00.639
slower this time, as you focus on the whole of

1629
03:49:00.719 --> 03:49:07.520
your body before we focus on your legs. Just notice

1630
03:49:09.120 --> 03:49:21.879
how your body does start to feel more relaxed with

1631
03:49:23.159 --> 03:49:47.159
every number that I count down ten nine eight seven

1632
03:49:56.319 --> 03:51:11.520
six five four three two one. And just notice how

1633
03:51:13.920 --> 03:51:23.360
how you feel generally, how your body feels. It's not

1634
03:51:23.559 --> 03:51:34.559
necessarily even about counting down from ten to one. It's

1635
03:51:34.639 --> 03:51:51.799
that space that you have, that space between being active

1636
03:51:54.159 --> 03:52:03.319
physically or mentally to just sitting or lying down and

1637
03:52:03.639 --> 03:52:08.399
just being there, not doing anything, not saying anything, or

1638
03:52:09.280 --> 03:52:15.520
needing to think about anything. So it opens up a space,

1639
03:52:16.520 --> 03:52:25.639
you know, a bit of a space, a gap. And

1640
03:52:25.760 --> 03:52:30.360
the more I camed down from ten to one, the

1641
03:52:30.440 --> 03:52:38.399
bigger that gap becomes. So there's that gap of calmness,

1642
03:52:39.799 --> 03:52:55.479
of comfort, relaxation. It's a nice feeling, and it moves

1643
03:52:57.040 --> 03:53:06.959
those stresses or discomforts physically or emotionally, moves them away.

1644
03:53:13.719 --> 03:53:26.479
Allows you to just slow down, someone to count again

1645
03:53:26.559 --> 03:53:32.760
from ten down to one, and notice that gap widening,

1646
03:53:34.920 --> 03:53:39.360
the gap. And as it widens, it's almost like the

1647
03:53:40.799 --> 03:53:58.639
thestress and attention falls into the gap and gives you

1648
03:53:58.760 --> 03:54:02.360
that distance, that space.

1649
03:54:04.719 --> 03:54:10.200
Now ten.

1650
03:54:14.520 --> 03:55:41.040
Nine, eight, seven, six, five, four three two.

1651
03:55:59.239 --> 03:55:59.479
One.

1652
03:56:11.040 --> 03:56:31.159
Now, how does your body feel? Now? Can you notice?

1653
03:56:32.520 --> 03:57:09.239
Do you feeling calmer, the feeling more relaxed. As we

1654
03:57:09.440 --> 03:57:29.639
now focus on your legs, just your legs. We're just

1655
03:57:29.799 --> 03:57:49.760
gonna start with focusing on your thighs. Of course, it's

1656
03:57:49.879 --> 03:57:58.120
not the most exciting thing to be doing because I'm

1657
03:57:58.280 --> 03:58:00.879
sure like most of your body, there's not a lot

1658
03:58:01.000 --> 03:58:13.280
going on right now, Just focusing on the whole of

1659
03:58:13.399 --> 03:58:19.840
your thighs, the tops of your thighs, the sides of

1660
03:58:19.920 --> 03:58:26.799
your thighs, the bottoms of your thighs, your outer thighs,

1661
03:58:26.920 --> 03:58:31.799
and your inner thighs. Basically the whole of your thigh

1662
03:58:31.920 --> 03:58:40.680
that leads into your hip and it goes down to

1663
03:58:40.920 --> 03:58:54.959
your knee joints. Now, this is a big area. It's

1664
03:58:54.959 --> 03:59:00.479
a very heavy area, it's very strong. Probably the longest

1665
03:59:01.440 --> 03:59:14.600
muscles in your body are in your thighs. But I

1666
03:59:14.719 --> 03:59:23.000
don't think we perhaps give enough attention to our thighs.

1667
03:59:28.959 --> 03:59:39.719
Perhaps we don't acknowledge how important our thighs are to

1668
03:59:39.879 --> 04:00:00.520
our lives, how much they actually do for us all

1669
04:00:00.600 --> 04:00:11.040
through our lives. And it may seem to sound really weird,

1670
04:00:11.159 --> 04:00:19.559
but I think that all of our body parts, especially

1671
04:00:19.680 --> 04:00:27.280
our thighs, need some TLC, a bit of love shown,

1672
04:00:28.280 --> 04:00:46.239
a bit of acknowledgement. I thank you gratitude for what

1673
04:00:46.399 --> 04:00:55.479
our thighs do for us. And I know this may

1674
04:00:55.680 --> 04:01:02.399
sound as strange. Maybe you think, why am I, Surely

1675
04:01:02.479 --> 04:01:05.280
I should be out in the garden hugging a tree

1676
04:01:05.479 --> 04:01:13.600
or something. Well, it's hard to set a microphone up

1677
04:01:13.639 --> 04:01:17.000
on a tree, That's why I'm doing this indoors. Otherwise

1678
04:01:17.040 --> 04:01:20.360
I would be outside hugging a tree. Now I can't

1679
04:01:20.399 --> 04:01:29.159
see the television from the tree. If you move down

1680
04:01:29.239 --> 04:01:38.959
to your knees gaining such an important part, and I

1681
04:01:39.079 --> 04:01:45.879
think we don't necessarily I'll speak for myself here, I

1682
04:01:46.000 --> 04:01:51.120
don't necessarily appreciate all that my knees do for me

1683
04:01:52.399 --> 04:01:57.559
until I have a problem with my knee. It's occasionally,

1684
04:01:57.600 --> 04:02:02.600
if I ever maybe i'll lash it or it's aching

1685
04:02:02.760 --> 04:02:09.159
for some reason. It's then that I realize how much

1686
04:02:09.280 --> 04:02:12.920
it does. You know, the benefit of being able to

1687
04:02:13.879 --> 04:02:23.079
use my legs without any kind of physical discomfort is

1688
04:02:23.920 --> 04:02:32.639
a beautiful thing that's possibly not appreciated until it's temporarily removed.

1689
04:02:33.760 --> 04:02:40.760
You know that's comfort. But as you focus on your knees,

1690
04:02:42.920 --> 04:02:48.559
regardless of how your knees feel, you can have that

1691
04:02:48.840 --> 04:02:55.000
sense of gratitude and love to your knees for all

1692
04:02:55.120 --> 04:03:07.319
that they do for you. And you can still have

1693
04:03:07.479 --> 04:03:11.639
that attention on your thighs and maybe notice how your

1694
04:03:11.760 --> 04:03:23.639
thighs feel. Maybe you've noticed that they are relaxing more

1695
04:03:25.440 --> 04:03:37.040
deeply as you focus now on the bottoms of your legs,

1696
04:03:37.520 --> 04:03:42.879
your shins and your calf muscles and the bones between

1697
04:03:43.120 --> 04:03:49.280
your knees and your feet incorporat and of course your

1698
04:03:49.360 --> 04:04:02.440
ankles so important. Anyone that's had even like the slightest

1699
04:04:02.879 --> 04:04:08.920
sprain of an ankle knows how how much we take

1700
04:04:10.280 --> 04:04:19.079
our ankles for granted. And it's kind of strange in

1701
04:04:19.159 --> 04:04:24.319
a way when you think that. You know, logically, our

1702
04:04:24.399 --> 04:04:27.840
wrists are a lot thinner than the rest of our arms,

1703
04:04:29.000 --> 04:04:32.479
which is okay, it doesn't I can't see any problem

1704
04:04:32.520 --> 04:04:37.399
with that because we're just picking stuff up. But our

1705
04:04:37.479 --> 04:04:43.319
ankles so much thinner than the rest of our legs,

1706
04:04:49.760 --> 04:04:54.159
and from a physics perspective or logical even it doesn't

1707
04:04:54.239 --> 04:05:00.239
really make sense that all this weight would ultimately be

1708
04:05:01.319 --> 04:05:11.360
resting on your ankles then leading to your feet that

1709
04:05:11.920 --> 04:05:20.120
thin area, a thin bone. Yeah, it does so much

1710
04:05:20.239 --> 04:05:27.280
great work. Supports us, supports our body for a lifetime,

1711
04:05:32.040 --> 04:05:41.760
helps us to balance, helps you to get around and

1712
04:05:41.920 --> 04:05:55.920
be mobile. And there's the calf muscles. Of course, when

1713
04:05:56.000 --> 04:05:58.600
I was younger, I couldn't see the point in calf

1714
04:05:58.680 --> 04:06:04.600
muscles didn't seem to do anything. Okay, if I walked

1715
04:06:04.600 --> 04:06:08.319
around on tiptoes, then my calf muscles get some work.

1716
04:06:09.719 --> 04:06:12.280
But of course that's not true. The calf muscles are

1717
04:06:12.319 --> 04:06:22.200
being used whenever we use our legs and your shins

1718
04:06:25.479 --> 04:06:34.479
there to protect your lower legs, shaped in a way

1719
04:06:36.319 --> 04:06:48.440
almost as a protector for the bone, leading of course

1720
04:06:48.520 --> 04:06:58.680
to your ankles and your feet. But we're not going

1721
04:06:58.719 --> 04:07:00.879
to focus on your feet. We're just going to focus

1722
04:07:00.959 --> 04:07:07.600
on the legs. I realize that now that I've mentioned

1723
04:07:07.639 --> 04:07:12.319
your feet, it probably focusing on them anyway, So maybe

1724
04:07:12.399 --> 04:07:18.520
I should focus on your feet a little bit. You

1725
04:07:18.600 --> 04:07:23.040
can have them in your awareness the same as you

1726
04:07:23.840 --> 04:07:27.760
have your thighs in your awareness. Even though we haven't

1727
04:07:27.799 --> 04:07:33.399
been focusing on your thighs for a few minutes, we've

1728
04:07:33.440 --> 04:07:44.360
been focusing on your ankles, there's still that sensation of

1729
04:07:47.559 --> 04:08:00.360
comfort in your thighs and this that movement of energy

1730
04:08:02.399 --> 04:08:09.399
because the thighs hold lots of different sensations. Of course,

1731
04:08:09.520 --> 04:08:14.239
there's the muscles, the big straw muscles that we have

1732
04:08:14.479 --> 04:08:27.799
in our thighs, but the skin on the outside of

1733
04:08:27.879 --> 04:08:33.200
the thighs, as in the outside of all of our body,

1734
04:08:34.000 --> 04:08:45.559
can be very sensitive, sensitive to the touch, sensitive to temperature,

1735
04:08:52.120 --> 04:08:59.600
and inside your thighs the bones, there's the muscle, there's

1736
04:08:59.639 --> 04:09:04.840
the blood, vessels, the arch trees, all this stuff. It's

1737
04:09:05.079 --> 04:09:13.680
inside your thighs, and I guess sometimes it'd be nice

1738
04:09:13.719 --> 04:09:18.040
if you could actually put your fingers inside your thighs

1739
04:09:18.680 --> 04:09:23.840
and a message, so you can message on the outside,

1740
04:09:24.120 --> 04:09:27.000
of course, but to be able to get deep into

1741
04:09:27.079 --> 04:09:31.879
the muscles and to be able to just message inside

1742
04:09:31.959 --> 04:09:38.959
your thighs, message in the bones of your leg massage

1743
04:09:39.040 --> 04:09:48.280
in all the veins, and just gently healing your thighs,

1744
04:09:52.200 --> 04:09:57.440
and you could move down message and inside your knees,

1745
04:09:58.920 --> 04:10:03.799
just a message in the bones, but with healing fingertips,

1746
04:10:05.200 --> 04:10:11.559
spreading that healing energy deep into the joints of your knees.

1747
04:10:16.959 --> 04:10:20.680
Of course, there's the back of your your knee, you know,

1748
04:10:20.799 --> 04:10:26.799
the inside crease where your knee is. It's a very

1749
04:10:27.000 --> 04:10:32.879
sensitive area. Very it feels very nice when you stroke it.

1750
04:10:34.280 --> 04:10:37.639
That might be because it's an area that's not really

1751
04:10:37.840 --> 04:10:44.319
touched very often. It's almost like a hidden part, that

1752
04:10:44.639 --> 04:10:51.559
crease in your legs. It's almost like a part that

1753
04:10:53.399 --> 04:11:04.600
has a sensitivity, which is a little bit different. Of course,

1754
04:11:04.680 --> 04:11:15.159
it's protected by your legs, so you can imagine putting

1755
04:11:16.079 --> 04:11:25.680
your fingers into that crease in your legs that fold

1756
04:11:25.840 --> 04:11:29.959
in between your legs. You can just message with your fingertips.

1757
04:11:31.159 --> 04:11:37.920
Imagine your fingertips going inside, massage in the muscle tissue.

1758
04:11:42.520 --> 04:11:46.799
You can of course feel the bones of your knees

1759
04:11:48.319 --> 04:11:58.760
heading through your fingertips. And then as you go down

1760
04:12:01.639 --> 04:12:04.440
to your calf muscles. Now that's the part I'd like

1761
04:12:04.520 --> 04:12:09.200
to be able to really put my fingertips deep inside

1762
04:12:09.959 --> 04:12:18.920
my calf muscles, massage in every single tissue of that muscle,

1763
04:12:20.520 --> 04:12:30.440
healing every part. And then doing the same for my shins,

1764
04:12:33.600 --> 04:12:40.520
massage in and gently stroking the bones, gently stroking them,

1765
04:12:41.399 --> 04:12:45.520
healing in a loving way, because they deserve to be

1766
04:12:45.719 --> 04:12:52.920
treated as the precious bones that they are, because our

1767
04:12:53.040 --> 04:12:56.600
legs are so precious as in all the other parts

1768
04:12:56.680 --> 04:13:04.959
of our body, more precious of anytual on the planet.

1769
04:13:13.520 --> 04:13:21.520
When you start to think about your legs in this way,

1770
04:13:26.120 --> 04:13:32.760
it can change your perspective. It might sound a bit

1771
04:13:35.840 --> 04:13:40.120
a bit silly to start with the idea of having

1772
04:13:41.040 --> 04:13:51.040
love for your legs, showing appreciation for your thighs, wanting

1773
04:13:51.159 --> 04:13:55.079
to be able to put your hands in your thighs

1774
04:13:57.000 --> 04:14:03.479
and massage the muscles and the bones, and to get

1775
04:14:03.520 --> 04:14:11.799
your fingers deep in there, releasing all tension, just to

1776
04:14:12.000 --> 04:14:21.440
show how much you care about your legs, how much

1777
04:14:21.520 --> 04:14:27.159
you care for what your legs do for you regularly,

1778
04:14:29.559 --> 04:14:39.040
your knees, your calves, your ankles, the strength of your

1779
04:14:39.200 --> 04:14:47.280
ankles considering how thin they are compared to the rest

1780
04:14:47.360 --> 04:14:54.760
of your legs, especially your thighs. Yeah, they're so strong,

1781
04:14:56.280 --> 04:15:10.760
so flexible, absolutely amazing things. Your ankles are truly a

1782
04:15:10.879 --> 04:15:21.719
gift because of what they do for you, supporting all

1783
04:15:21.920 --> 04:15:28.799
that weight, regardless of how what weight you are, even

1784
04:15:28.840 --> 04:15:33.479
if you're only eight stone, there's still a lot of

1785
04:15:33.600 --> 04:15:40.639
weight for these little ankles. Now, I'm a lot heavier

1786
04:15:40.719 --> 04:15:50.399
than eight stone double down, yet my ankles support my

1787
04:15:50.479 --> 04:15:57.760
body all the time, although they do give off a

1788
04:15:57.920 --> 04:16:03.600
sigh of relief when I sit down. That's my whole

1789
04:16:03.680 --> 04:16:13.159
legs do. My feet feet also go and my toes clap.

1790
04:16:14.360 --> 04:16:15.120
They're so happy.

1791
04:16:34.879 --> 04:16:44.079
Your legs really are amazing. And I know that talking

1792
04:16:44.120 --> 04:16:50.559
about talking about your legs is probably possibly among the

1793
04:16:50.639 --> 04:16:56.200
most most boring things I've ever heard anyone say. Possibly

1794
04:16:59.040 --> 04:17:06.280
they're boring. On everything I said is true. Your legs

1795
04:17:06.920 --> 04:17:26.920
are amazing. Your legs deserve not just respect, They deserve

1796
04:17:27.040 --> 04:17:39.440
to relax deeply. They deserve to take some time out

1797
04:17:40.000 --> 04:18:03.479
of the day to just let go completely. Your legs

1798
04:18:08.920 --> 04:18:22.159
really can relax. And because the legs are so such

1799
04:18:22.239 --> 04:18:26.719
a most, you know, very important part of your body.

1800
04:18:28.040 --> 04:18:30.639
When you relax your legs, the rest of your body

1801
04:18:31.280 --> 04:18:50.040
also naturally follows in that journey of comfort. I can

1802
04:18:50.159 --> 04:18:55.120
feel it in my hips. My hips feel really loose,

1803
04:18:58.399 --> 04:19:02.959
and also my lower back as well. My lower back

1804
04:19:03.200 --> 04:19:08.760
really feels it feels stretched, even though I'm just sitting

1805
04:19:08.799 --> 04:19:14.799
in a chair and there's no stretching as far as

1806
04:19:14.840 --> 04:19:17.920
I'm aware that I'm doing. It's almost as if the

1807
04:19:18.040 --> 04:19:22.000
muscles are just relaxed so much that there is a

1808
04:19:22.159 --> 04:19:46.840
natural stretch as the tension has reduced a lot. And

1809
04:19:46.920 --> 04:19:50.319
I'm now going to count down from ten down to one,

1810
04:19:54.639 --> 04:20:24.040
and you can continue to feel wonderfully relaxed. Ten nine, eight, seven, six, five,

1811
04:20:28.639 --> 04:20:56.719
four three two one relax. So I'm just going to

1812
04:20:56.799 --> 04:21:02.200
count down for five down to one. And as a countdown,

1813
04:21:03.479 --> 04:21:08.200
if you just focus on the numbers, just the numbers

1814
04:21:09.879 --> 04:21:18.879
counting down, and notice how you feel in this moment

1815
04:21:20.639 --> 04:21:25.000
as you hear the numbers counting down, knowing that those

1816
04:21:25.159 --> 04:21:38.239
numbers counting down represent you feeling calmer, not just in

1817
04:21:38.319 --> 04:21:46.879
your body, but also relaxing your mind. Just notice how

1818
04:21:46.920 --> 04:21:52.760
you feel. There's nothing to do, there's nothing to say,

1819
04:21:53.440 --> 04:22:10.479
there's nothing to think about. Starting with number five four

1820
04:22:20.000 --> 04:22:55.959
three two one. As you notice the gradual letting go

1821
04:22:58.319 --> 04:23:05.639
the tension in your body, you may also begin to

1822
04:23:05.920 --> 04:23:13.200
notice and be aware of how your mind is starting

1823
04:23:13.680 --> 04:23:21.639
to slow down. This is just a natural thing that happens.

1824
04:23:24.239 --> 04:23:29.440
It's not really a special procedure. It's just natural because

1825
04:23:29.520 --> 04:23:35.440
as your body relaxes, your mind also starts to relax.

1826
04:23:37.040 --> 04:23:40.680
And the more your mind relaxes, the more your body relaxes.

1827
04:23:40.799 --> 04:23:51.319
It's just a continuous circle of relaxation. And is that

1828
04:23:52.600 --> 04:24:00.440
calmness that comes from relative quietness. You know, even even

1829
04:24:00.479 --> 04:24:07.440
if there's background sounds either your side, online, it's still

1830
04:24:07.959 --> 04:24:13.239
going to be quite calm. You know, you haven't got

1831
04:24:13.280 --> 04:24:18.440
the television on, there's no music in the background unless

1832
04:24:18.440 --> 04:24:25.879
you're listening to the recording with music. Of course, you're

1833
04:24:26.079 --> 04:24:28.159
very likely not going to be sitting in a room

1834
04:24:28.239 --> 04:24:32.799
with other people. Of course you might be, but generally

1835
04:24:33.000 --> 04:24:36.079
it's more ideal if you can do this on your own,

1836
04:24:37.799 --> 04:24:47.879
so no distractions, and when you stop thinking about stuff,

1837
04:24:54.479 --> 04:25:04.719
relaxation automatically rises a sense of comfort starts to grow,

1838
04:25:09.239 --> 04:25:15.920
and without trying to build it up into something fantastical

1839
04:25:16.319 --> 04:25:28.079
or something magical. This is just a natural process, something

1840
04:25:28.200 --> 04:25:38.559
that's easy to accomplish. In fact, it's almost know. The

1841
04:25:38.879 --> 04:25:45.600
sense of relaxing completely happens really when you put no

1842
04:25:45.760 --> 04:25:50.319
effort into it. It's not something that you can really force.

1843
04:25:52.959 --> 04:26:02.799
It's something that happens naturally. Part of the process of

1844
04:26:04.440 --> 04:26:16.360
this recording and others is simply two allow you to

1845
04:26:16.559 --> 04:26:31.639
take advantage of this space, this time, to just let go,

1846
04:26:34.799 --> 04:26:43.040
to just be here, to be in tune with how

1847
04:26:43.120 --> 04:26:56.520
you feel, yet with the intention of wanting to relax

1848
04:26:56.639 --> 04:27:07.959
deeply and maybe even to fall asleep, depending on what

1849
04:27:08.159 --> 04:27:14.319
it is that you wish for yourself in this moment.

1850
04:27:21.280 --> 04:27:30.639
As we know, relaxing is the majority of the process

1851
04:27:30.799 --> 04:27:35.959
of falling asleep. The actual falling asleep part is the

1852
04:27:36.079 --> 04:27:43.879
tiny bit of the end. The deeper relaxed you become,

1853
04:27:47.840 --> 04:28:05.799
the easier you find yourself drifting. You can also if

1854
04:28:05.840 --> 04:28:16.680
you choose stay focused on my voice and really enjoy

1855
04:28:22.639 --> 04:28:51.760
the process gradually relaxing each muscle in your body effortlessly

1856
04:28:58.840 --> 04:29:26.719
and just observing the sensation of letting go completely. This time.

1857
04:29:26.879 --> 04:29:35.079
I'm going to count from six down to one, and

1858
04:29:35.319 --> 04:29:44.879
you can notice your mind calming down more with each

1859
04:29:45.440 --> 04:32:36.959
number that you hear me say naturally, feeling calm and slow, peaceful, six, five, four, three, two, one,

1860
04:32:58.079 --> 04:33:07.680
being aware. Yeah, how your mind has slowed right down,

1861
04:33:10.959 --> 04:33:34.319
sinking deeply into relaxation. And as you focus on your mind,

1862
04:33:34.599 --> 04:33:44.560
you may notice that there are some thoughts still there,

1863
04:33:47.159 --> 04:33:56.680
maybe some stubborn thoughts that for some reason perhaps need

1864
04:33:56.799 --> 04:34:12.000
your attention. So what you can do is send love

1865
04:34:12.240 --> 04:34:25.880
to those thoughts. Sprinkle those thoughts with love like all

1866
04:34:26.000 --> 04:34:31.639
petals from a flower. Just sprinkle it over them, petals

1867
04:34:31.720 --> 04:34:38.919
filled with love towards those thoughts, to let those thoughts

1868
04:34:39.119 --> 04:34:45.959
know that you're not abandoned in them. You just need them.

1869
04:34:47.159 --> 04:34:59.159
You require them to just calm down, slow down, quiet down.

1870
04:35:02.759 --> 04:35:03.159
For now.

1871
04:35:11.080 --> 04:35:16.080
So as you focus on those remaining thoughts as we

1872
04:35:16.240 --> 04:35:21.479
count down this time from seven down to one. With

1873
04:35:21.639 --> 04:35:35.520
each number, just imagine sprinkling those flower petals of love, kindness,

1874
04:35:37.119 --> 04:35:48.959
gratitude over those thoughts, which will allow them to just

1875
04:35:50.400 --> 04:36:05.400
melt away and relax deeply. With every number, they thoughts

1876
04:36:05.560 --> 04:36:23.000
would become more and more relaxed. Starting with number seven

1877
04:36:42.240 --> 04:38:55.080
six five, four three two one. Needing. Now, notice how

1878
04:38:56.759 --> 04:39:16.439
relaxed you're feeling in your body. We're going to focus

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on your hands, because the more relaxed your hands are,

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the more relaxed your body and mind are.

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And this.

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You focus on your hands and your fingers. There's nothing

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needed to be done. There's no clenching of fists or

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04:40:09.759 --> 04:40:20.040
tents in the fingers or anything like that. It's just

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noticing and focusing on your hands, noticing how they feel.

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Because the more relaxed do your hands feel, the calme

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of mind feels, and the more comfort you feel throughout

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04:41:11.200 --> 04:41:43.840
your body. You may have already noticed your mind is

1889
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starting to dressed fince just on your hands and fingers,

1890
04:42:18.479 --> 04:42:32.279
allowing them to experience a real deepening of that relaxation

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04:42:34.040 --> 04:42:36.360
in your hands and fingers.

1892
04:42:41.919 --> 04:42:42.560
More.

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And more relaxed. With each number from eight down to one,

1894
04:43:09.919 --> 04:43:19.799
you can almost feel that healing and relaxing energy spreading

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04:43:21.000 --> 04:43:39.959
into your hands and fingers, becoming year more relaxing with

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04:43:40.400 --> 04:43:54.119
each number you hear, going down from eight down to one,

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drifting drifting again, starting with number eight, often.

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A six, five.

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Four three two, just being here now, nothing to think

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04:48:15.880 --> 04:48:26.479
about nothing to do, nothing to say, and everything just

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04:48:27.000 --> 04:48:37.400
feels calmer. And this is your natural state of being.

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This is how you just normally feel when you take

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04:48:46.520 --> 04:48:55.000
away all that other stuff that we add, you know,

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things like stress and worrying and overthinking and anxiety, tension,

1905
04:49:10.720 --> 04:49:16.439
just generally thinking about stuff. When you take that away,

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04:49:17.479 --> 04:49:26.560
which is what we do what we do now, you're

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04:49:26.639 --> 04:49:37.799
left with a real sense of peacefulness which comes to

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04:49:37.919 --> 04:49:51.560
you very quickly because ultimately it's just a feeling, a

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04:49:51.759 --> 04:49:59.759
feeling of comfort. It's almost as if you've gone inside

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04:50:00.479 --> 04:50:12.080
and you've found a special place where everything is peaceful,

1911
04:50:15.040 --> 04:50:20.400
a place where you can feel relaxed and your natural

1912
04:50:22.599 --> 04:50:28.919
sense of comfort, a place where you can be you,

1913
04:50:33.639 --> 04:50:40.639
where you can accept yourself for who you are, a

1914
04:50:40.720 --> 04:50:47.240
place where you're not trying to please anybody else ever,

1915
04:50:51.240 --> 04:50:59.759
a place where you can actually not just love yourself

1916
04:51:01.439 --> 04:51:08.720
in some ways, more importantly, you can like yourself appreciate

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who you are. That sense of gratitude is in the

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air all around you. That's also a place where you

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04:51:38.880 --> 04:51:46.799
can actually feel the healing energy soaking into your body.

1920
04:51:53.479 --> 04:52:04.840
Healing energy soaking into your body, and that healing energy

1921
04:52:05.240 --> 04:52:15.520
spreads through your veins, traveling to each and every single

1922
04:52:15.959 --> 04:52:27.080
part of your body, and you start to realize that actually,

1923
04:52:27.880 --> 04:52:33.959
that healing energy, it's not just entered into your brain,

1924
04:52:36.799 --> 04:52:46.279
it's become part of your brain, and that spinal fluid

1925
04:52:48.959 --> 04:52:59.680
is now mixed with healing energy, not just allowing you

1926
04:52:59.840 --> 04:53:08.000
to feel so much more relaxed and healthy in this moment,

1927
04:53:12.520 --> 04:53:21.959
but also you start to realize to actually, what's happening

1928
04:53:22.159 --> 04:53:30.680
now with that healing, relaxing energy spreading through your body,

1929
04:53:32.599 --> 04:53:43.439
It's actually changing your life. It's actually changing the way

1930
04:53:43.560 --> 04:53:50.159
you're going to feel not just now, but tomorrow and

1931
04:53:50.240 --> 04:53:59.200
the next day. As your health improves, not just your

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04:53:59.279 --> 04:54:07.040
physical health, but your mental health. Things that used to

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bother you in the past, for some reason, no longer

1934
04:54:14.639 --> 04:54:21.200
have the effect that they used to because something has

1935
04:54:21.680 --> 04:54:34.680
changed deep within you. Maybe things that used to cause

1936
04:54:34.799 --> 04:54:46.759
you to feel anger no longer have that power to

1937
04:54:46.919 --> 04:54:52.520
control you the way they seem to be able to before.

1938
04:54:56.240 --> 04:55:03.680
As you realize that you all the one who decides

1939
04:55:06.959 --> 04:55:17.799
what affects you. You're the one who decides to feel

1940
04:55:18.400 --> 04:55:31.720
relaxed and calm when you choose to enjoy noticing these

1941
04:55:32.240 --> 04:55:46.639
natural developments of healing continuing to grow and improve your

1942
04:55:46.759 --> 04:55:59.599
life day by day, including of course, your ability to

1943
04:56:00.119 --> 04:56:14.680
acts so much easier and sleep in it's the most

1944
04:56:14.959 --> 04:56:25.919
natural thing in the world to you, because falling asleep

1945
04:56:26.159 --> 04:56:34.479
is something that you've done so many times in your life,

1946
04:56:37.720 --> 04:56:41.759
and you know that you were born, as we all were,

1947
04:56:42.560 --> 04:56:52.520
with the ability to fall asleep naturally. We were born

1948
04:56:53.880 --> 04:56:56.439
with that ability.

1949
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To just drift.

1950
04:57:02.200 --> 04:57:14.040
Off into a deep, healing sleep. Even when we're kids,

1951
04:57:15.720 --> 04:57:18.560
sometimes will fall asleep when we don't even want to

1952
04:57:20.639 --> 04:57:25.720
try to stay awake. Maybe it's a birthday in the morning,

1953
04:57:25.880 --> 04:57:30.200
or it's Christmas or holiday or something we look forward to.

1954
04:57:30.799 --> 04:57:34.840
We don't want to go to sleep. But the more

1955
04:57:35.400 --> 04:57:40.279
we want to stay awake, the more we just start

1956
04:57:40.400 --> 04:57:48.720
to drift. And the more you fight drifting, the more

1957
04:57:48.759 --> 04:57:51.279
you try and stop yourself and drift in a sleep,

1958
04:57:53.439 --> 04:58:04.520
the deeper and stronger that drifting becomes. Because we're born

1959
04:58:05.479 --> 04:58:11.319
not just with the need to relax deeply and to

1960
04:58:11.520 --> 04:58:21.360
naturally fall asleep, but it's our birthright, it's part of

1961
04:58:21.439 --> 04:58:32.119
our DNA. And sometimes as we get older in life,

1962
04:58:33.439 --> 04:58:47.000
perhaps at times we have forgotten that relaxing completely is

1963
04:58:47.119 --> 04:58:59.959
not only a wonderfully pleasant experience, it's also really easy.

1964
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It's very very easy to let go, because that's all

1965
04:59:19.159 --> 04:59:33.520
it is. It's just deciding to let go. And when

1966
04:59:33.639 --> 04:59:41.439
you press the play button on my recordings, you have

1967
04:59:41.680 --> 04:59:52.240
given permission for my voice to relax you. When you

1968
04:59:52.360 --> 04:59:57.560
press that play button, you have given me permission for

1969
04:59:57.720 --> 05:00:11.799
my words to affect you in a positive, only a

1970
05:00:11.959 --> 05:00:33.279
positive way, opening up your mind to useful and healing

1971
05:00:34.840 --> 05:00:50.919
suggestions that can have such an amazing effect on how

1972
05:00:51.040 --> 05:01:03.159
you feel right now, as well as those changes that

1973
05:01:03.479 --> 05:01:13.479
continue long after the recording ends, those changes within you

1974
05:01:16.319 --> 05:01:29.040
that continue to flourish and grow, transforming your life in

1975
05:01:29.639 --> 05:01:41.560
a positive, beautiful way, allowing you to move forward in

1976
05:01:41.680 --> 05:01:48.200
your life in the direction that you choose for yourself.

1977
05:01:57.319 --> 05:02:06.479
And this feeling, this feeling that you can experience of safety,

1978
05:02:07.279 --> 05:02:28.680
comfort and calmness, just feels so nice. It's such a

1979
05:02:29.000 --> 05:02:44.319
healthy place to be, and that positivity grows within you

1980
05:02:50.119 --> 05:03:02.080
each and every day. Moving forward, you're going to find

1981
05:03:02.360 --> 05:03:14.240
that you're more relaxed physically and in your mind is

1982
05:03:14.479 --> 05:03:24.880
more relaxed. And it's not that you're thinking slower, it's

1983
05:03:24.959 --> 05:03:29.439
just that your mind will be less clogged up with

1984
05:03:29.959 --> 05:03:42.720
unnecessary negativity. Because from now on, your mind rejects negativity.

1985
05:03:46.759 --> 05:03:54.959
From now on, you're going to start noticing when negativity arises,

1986
05:03:58.599 --> 05:04:09.759
and you can just say stop, stop, and that negativity

1987
05:04:12.200 --> 05:04:28.159
will turn around and leave you alone. Stop and that

1988
05:04:28.439 --> 05:04:44.880
negativity will disappear. And as you notice that you feel

1989
05:04:46.240 --> 05:04:58.319
way more relaxed than you probably expected, you can now

1990
05:05:01.880 --> 05:05:07.759
congratulate yourself because you're the person that has done this.

1991
05:05:09.479 --> 05:05:14.959
You are the one that has opened your mind up

1992
05:05:15.680 --> 05:05:23.680
to the simple facts that you can feel more relaxed

1993
05:05:23.799 --> 05:05:33.479
in your body and in your mind. You've opened your

1994
05:05:33.639 --> 05:05:39.080
mind up to the birthright of being able to just

1995
05:05:41.799 --> 05:05:56.599
fall asleep easily when you choose. And that's a nice feeling.

1996
05:05:58.240 --> 05:06:08.319
Don't you think it feels nice? Doesn't it? To feel calm?

1997
05:06:09.959 --> 05:06:14.560
All that healing energy is spreading through your body and

1998
05:06:14.720 --> 05:06:26.959
your mind to spend time in a special place where

1999
05:06:29.880 --> 05:06:43.520
negativity can no longer enter. Negativity is banned. It's bad,

2000
05:06:44.959 --> 05:06:51.720
it's not allowed Entryue doesn't it doesn't. This doesn't deserve

2001
05:06:51.840 --> 05:06:59.360
to be here, It doesn't belong here. Negativity has no

2002
05:06:59.599 --> 05:07:14.840
place in your life, which makes room feel more comfort,

2003
05:07:16.759 --> 05:07:45.360
more healing, more relaxation, more peace. It feels nice, doesn't it?

2004
05:07:47.200 --> 05:08:10.639
Just let go with everything I'm going to count down

2005
05:08:10.840 --> 05:08:19.520
now from twenty down to one. You can continue to relax.

2006
05:08:21.720 --> 05:08:33.240
If you choose, you can drift to sleep. With every

2007
05:08:33.439 --> 05:08:45.080
number you hear me say, you can fell twice as relaxed,

2008
05:08:48.119 --> 05:08:52.319
or if you choose, you can feel twice as sleeping

2009
05:08:59.159 --> 05:11:04.840
now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six.

2010
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Five.

2011
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Oh, this is your time to just take a break,

2012
05:12:03.479 --> 05:12:14.560
your time to relax, to allow your mind to slow down,

2013
05:12:23.240 --> 05:12:37.279
to give yourself permission to take a break from everything.

2014
05:12:42.040 --> 05:12:46.520
And you're the only person that can make that decision.

2015
05:12:49.360 --> 05:12:52.400
You're the only person that can actually tell your mind.

2016
05:12:56.919 --> 05:13:06.680
To just relax, to just.

2017
05:13:10.360 --> 05:13:23.240
Take some time off so that you can focus on

2018
05:13:23.360 --> 05:13:30.639
your body, getting in touch with how you feel physically,

2019
05:13:39.560 --> 05:13:45.959
and in the process of this body scan where you

2020
05:13:46.720 --> 05:13:57.159
focus on different parts of your body, those parts that

2021
05:13:57.279 --> 05:14:05.599
you focus on and observe, even though you're not purposely

2022
05:14:06.799 --> 05:14:14.799
requesting for those parts of your body to relax, it's

2023
05:14:14.919 --> 05:14:21.159
kind of expected. You expect when you listen to my

2024
05:14:21.360 --> 05:14:34.279
voice to feel more relaxed naturally, because when you're listening

2025
05:14:34.360 --> 05:14:49.080
to me, your attention is focused on my words, and

2026
05:14:49.240 --> 05:15:00.599
as my words guide you to focus on those parts

2027
05:15:00.720 --> 05:15:19.040
of your body, your focus increases, which actually calms your mind.

2028
05:15:26.959 --> 05:15:46.119
And when your mind calms down, your body relaxes. And

2029
05:15:46.279 --> 05:16:08.959
when your body calms down, your mind axes. And even

2030
05:16:09.119 --> 05:16:16.159
though we've not really started the focus on your body,

2031
05:16:19.159 --> 05:16:30.200
you can already feel that healing energy spreading through your body,

2032
05:16:35.119 --> 05:16:49.400
pushing out stress and tension, healing all the parts of

2033
05:16:49.520 --> 05:16:59.279
your body, including your skin, your bones, your blood, all

2034
05:16:59.360 --> 05:17:03.880
of your and is inside your body, all of the muscles,

2035
05:17:05.279 --> 05:17:12.400
all of the fat, all of everything, every hair on

2036
05:17:12.520 --> 05:17:25.959
your body is filled with that healing energy. And when

2037
05:17:26.000 --> 05:17:42.279
your brain fills with that healing energy, the feeling of

2038
05:17:42.479 --> 05:18:06.680
comfort and relaxation increases, deeply increases in a way to.

2039
05:18:10.159 --> 05:18:11.080
Your mind.

2040
05:18:14.360 --> 05:18:27.880
Starts to feel perhaps bit drowsy because it's not needed,

2041
05:18:31.240 --> 05:18:47.520
and it may start to drift if that's what's needed.

2042
05:18:50.680 --> 05:18:55.279
So if you're listening to this and what you need

2043
05:18:55.560 --> 05:18:58.599
is deep relaxation, that's what you get.

2044
05:19:00.799 --> 05:19:02.279
If what you need is.

2045
05:19:03.959 --> 05:19:10.919
To fall asleep naturally and easily as your mind drifts,

2046
05:19:13.479 --> 05:19:27.240
that's also what will happen. Because by pressing that play

2047
05:19:27.319 --> 05:19:32.720
button on the podcast and listening to me, you give

2048
05:19:33.040 --> 05:19:45.720
permission for your body and your mind. In fact, you

2049
05:19:45.880 --> 05:19:50.360
give the command to your body and your mind to

2050
05:19:50.560 --> 05:20:03.240
relax deeply and to drift dove to sleep, if that's

2051
05:20:03.560 --> 05:20:19.720
what you want or need. And as I focus on

2052
05:20:19.880 --> 05:20:30.119
the different parts of your body, you may start to

2053
05:20:30.520 --> 05:20:38.279
just drift. And then you come back again and you

2054
05:20:38.479 --> 05:20:43.080
hear me talking and I'm focusing on a different part

2055
05:20:43.279 --> 05:20:57.119
of your body. You may find yourself drifting, but you

2056
05:20:57.279 --> 05:21:04.840
don't realize you're drifting until you stop drifting and you're

2057
05:21:04.919 --> 05:21:12.200
alert again to my voice. Focusing on a different part

2058
05:21:12.360 --> 05:21:21.680
of your body starts to relax even deeper, because that

2059
05:21:21.919 --> 05:21:36.159
drifting is basically you already in the sleep zone. And

2060
05:21:36.159 --> 05:21:41.279
the more you drift, the longer you drift, and the

2061
05:21:41.479 --> 05:21:56.799
longer you drift, eventually that drifting continues into sleep, and

2062
05:21:56.919 --> 05:22:06.119
that's the last you remember until you wake up in

2063
05:22:06.279 --> 05:22:11.880
your own time. When you experience the right amount of sleep.

2064
05:22:12.720 --> 05:22:21.799
Fear because when you do and if you do fall asleep,

2065
05:22:22.000 --> 05:22:49.240
it's extremely pleasant, so relaxing, so deep healing sleep. I'm

2066
05:22:49.279 --> 05:22:56.720
going it feels so nice to relax into your own

2067
05:22:56.880 --> 05:23:05.479
body and mind as you as you feel that heathing

2068
05:23:05.720 --> 05:23:18.599
energy is spreading through it. Relaxing us so deeply, relaxing

2069
05:23:18.919 --> 05:23:35.720
use so so deeply. As we start to focus on

2070
05:23:35.880 --> 05:23:58.560
your eyes, moving down to your jaw, down to your neck,

2071
05:24:06.040 --> 05:24:54.319
your shoulders, arms, hands, fingers, your chest, your stomach, your back,

2072
05:25:00.880 --> 05:25:38.040
your spine, your hips, your legs, your feet, your chayst

2073
05:25:55.479 --> 05:26:08.799
and the feelings spreading and growing inside your body, feeling

2074
05:26:09.080 --> 05:26:20.639
you up. Now let's focus again on parts of your body,

2075
05:26:25.360 --> 05:26:35.200
focusing this time on your forehead. Now on your mouth,

2076
05:26:36.439 --> 05:26:56.720
your lips, your tongue, the whole of your mouth. Focusing

2077
05:26:58.119 --> 05:27:08.040
on your fingers. Maybe you could move your fingers a

2078
05:27:08.119 --> 05:27:13.119
little bit so you can focus on each one individually,

2079
05:27:19.400 --> 05:27:26.560
both hands, and even though as you focus on both

2080
05:27:26.599 --> 05:27:32.080
of your hands now they almost seem to just melt

2081
05:27:32.200 --> 05:27:40.159
into one where there is your right hand start in

2082
05:27:40.240 --> 05:27:50.639
your left hand end, almost as if just mixed together.

2083
05:27:56.159 --> 05:28:07.479
Now focusing on your knees, just noticing how your knees fell.

2084
05:28:24.200 --> 05:28:31.799
Now focusing on your elbows, focusing on both of your elbows,

2085
05:28:38.119 --> 05:29:13.439
just observing the feeling of your elbows. Now focusing absurd

2086
05:29:15.479 --> 05:29:30.799
the back of your neck, feeling the energy on the

2087
05:29:30.919 --> 05:30:20.919
back of your neck, observing your ankles, being aware of

2088
05:30:21.159 --> 05:31:36.159
physical sensations in your ankles, noticing now your toes on

2089
05:31:36.400 --> 05:31:53.599
both of your feet, being aware how your toast feel

2090
05:31:56.880 --> 05:33:00.159
right now, notice thin high entire body fails noticing O

2091
05:33:02.520 --> 05:33:54.840
your mind feels now, letting go, letting go, letting go everything,

2092
05:33:59.959 --> 05:34:38.200
m letting go, letting go, letting go, h everything everything.

2093
05:34:44.479 --> 05:34:48.200
I'm going to start now, and I'd like you just,

2094
05:34:48.360 --> 05:34:53.959
first of all, just to see yourself lying down on

2095
05:34:54.119 --> 05:34:59.959
that message table, lying on your front. Your head is support,

2096
05:35:00.000 --> 05:35:08.000
what did? Your arms are supported, and you feel comfortable

2097
05:35:08.479 --> 05:35:17.680
and breathing is really easy, and you feel you feel

2098
05:35:17.759 --> 05:35:21.159
confident in how you look as well. So there's none

2099
05:35:21.200 --> 05:35:27.479
of that issue of body problems or shyness because I'm

2100
05:35:27.479 --> 05:35:35.599
a professional and this is a therapy session, so none

2101
05:35:35.639 --> 05:35:45.599
of that stuff matters whatsoever. This is about you. This

2102
05:35:45.759 --> 05:35:53.119
is about how you feel and how you can enjoy

2103
05:35:54.080 --> 05:36:00.159
that sense of comfort and relaxation that comes from can

2104
05:36:00.279 --> 05:36:05.959
go and allowing my hands and my fingers to relax

2105
05:36:06.080 --> 05:36:17.080
you by a message your body. So I want to

2106
05:36:17.119 --> 05:36:22.240
start off just by placing my hands on the back

2107
05:36:22.279 --> 05:36:27.279
of your head, just gently, just so you can feel, well,

2108
05:36:27.319 --> 05:36:35.759
my hands feel like really on you, so you can

2109
05:36:35.840 --> 05:36:38.119
maybe feel the warmth of my hands on the back

2110
05:36:38.200 --> 05:36:43.680
of your head, and with my hands to the side

2111
05:36:43.720 --> 05:36:48.319
of your head, not pressing, but just holding there very gently,

2112
05:36:51.279 --> 05:36:54.279
maybe over your ears, and a little bit on your face,

2113
05:36:55.560 --> 05:37:00.759
just so you can feel my hands so you can

2114
05:37:00.840 --> 05:37:14.080
become accustomed to them. And now put my hands on

2115
05:37:14.119 --> 05:37:18.360
the back of your head again and gently let them

2116
05:37:18.520 --> 05:37:30.840
slide down onto the back of your neck. You can

2117
05:37:30.959 --> 05:37:40.720
feel my hands gently stroke in the back of your

2118
05:37:40.840 --> 05:37:47.560
neck to start with, just so you can get used

2119
05:37:47.639 --> 05:37:52.560
to the feeling with my hands on your skin, get

2120
05:37:52.599 --> 05:38:00.959
accustomed to realize that you're safe and it's all good,

2121
05:38:01.279 --> 05:38:10.840
it's all fine, And I'm going to start gently massaging

2122
05:38:11.639 --> 05:38:28.479
the muscles in the back of your neck with both hands. Now,

2123
05:38:28.560 --> 05:38:34.799
this is a very trusting situation, really, because our necks

2124
05:38:34.840 --> 05:38:39.200
are so fragile and to have someone have their hands

2125
05:38:39.840 --> 05:38:44.840
around your neck in that way can sometimes be problematic

2126
05:38:44.959 --> 05:38:50.520
for people, which is why massages are quite good, because

2127
05:38:50.560 --> 05:38:59.159
it allows you to relax and to get in touch

2128
05:38:59.400 --> 05:39:16.279
with trust, to feel peaceful and calm. And there's a

2129
05:39:16.360 --> 05:39:25.080
massage the sides of your neck gently moving from the

2130
05:39:25.159 --> 05:39:29.000
bottom of your neck. It would be sort of near

2131
05:39:29.040 --> 05:39:32.319
where your shoulders start. I guess all the way up

2132
05:39:34.400 --> 05:39:39.880
to your jaw, your ears kind of area that side

2133
05:39:39.919 --> 05:39:44.919
of your neck. Of course it's a lot longer than

2134
05:39:45.279 --> 05:40:01.319
the front of your neck. The message in the back

2135
05:40:01.400 --> 05:40:10.000
of your neck, especially that area where perhaps we hold tension,

2136
05:40:14.240 --> 05:40:18.799
and as that area's massage, you can actually feel a

2137
05:40:18.919 --> 05:40:26.919
sense of release in the back of your neck and

2138
05:40:27.080 --> 05:40:32.319
maybe you can breathe it out as well. Notice how

2139
05:40:32.400 --> 05:40:45.400
it feels. Notice how you feel. And then moving down

2140
05:40:45.599 --> 05:40:50.279
to that area between your neck and your shoulders, that

2141
05:40:50.560 --> 05:40:59.159
musty area, starting to message that area on both sides.

2142
05:41:01.319 --> 05:41:03.560
I mean, this would be the area that a lot

2143
05:41:03.560 --> 05:41:05.759
of people would message if they were going to give

2144
05:41:05.799 --> 05:41:12.240
you like a shoulder message. Even that's not technically the shoulders,

2145
05:41:12.799 --> 05:41:15.240
but it's all the muscles that lead to the shoulders

2146
05:41:17.080 --> 05:41:23.680
from the neck, and again that can hold tension and stress.

2147
05:41:24.919 --> 05:41:29.919
And when massaged, sometimes a nice deep message is useful,

2148
05:41:33.000 --> 05:41:48.400
and you decide how deep that message is, and just

2149
05:41:48.599 --> 05:41:55.520
allow my knuckles just to dig in to get to

2150
05:41:55.680 --> 05:42:05.680
those muscles and to really relaxed all the time being

2151
05:42:05.959 --> 05:42:23.479
firm yet gentle with you and just stroking down the

2152
05:42:23.680 --> 05:42:32.200
area to your actual shoulders, moving to the muscles of

2153
05:42:32.279 --> 05:42:43.400
your shoulders and maybe initially just pulling up the shoulders

2154
05:42:43.400 --> 05:42:46.759
a little bit off the table, just to give you

2155
05:42:46.840 --> 05:42:57.240
a little bit of a stretch, but very gently. And

2156
05:42:57.360 --> 05:42:59.840
you've got the muscles at the front of your shoulders,

2157
05:43:00.639 --> 05:43:11.599
the sides and the back. Again, this is a part

2158
05:43:11.759 --> 05:43:17.159
that can really take quite a bit of pressure, quite

2159
05:43:17.159 --> 05:43:25.240
a bit of needing if if you wish to really

2160
05:43:27.119 --> 05:43:32.560
release the tension to really get into those muscles, and

2161
05:43:36.000 --> 05:43:39.319
you can let your fingers in there. They can feel

2162
05:43:39.560 --> 05:43:47.599
really nice sometimes just being stroked gently or being massaged

2163
05:43:49.040 --> 05:43:57.720
quite strongly, it can all be beneficial to the relaxation.

2164
05:44:02.840 --> 05:44:15.880
Put the muscles in your shoulders. Now you move down

2165
05:44:16.000 --> 05:44:26.439
your arms. We do one arm at a time, starting

2166
05:44:26.520 --> 05:44:35.319
with your right arm. Well, I, dear is, I just

2167
05:44:36.720 --> 05:44:39.880
lift your arm up, just hold it to the side

2168
05:44:39.919 --> 05:44:46.959
of you the way it still be attached, and I

2169
05:44:47.159 --> 05:45:01.759
just message the tops of your arms all the way

2170
05:45:01.840 --> 05:45:26.680
down to your forearms into your wrists, gently massaging that part,

2171
05:45:29.360 --> 05:45:33.000
the softer part, which is the under part of the arm,

2172
05:45:36.119 --> 05:45:39.799
which leads to the crease in your elbow. The inside.

2173
05:45:41.279 --> 05:45:55.560
It's much more sensitive skin. Sometimes just having that stroked

2174
05:45:59.000 --> 05:46:14.360
feel really nice, yes, pleasurable and relaxing. Now moving down

2175
05:46:15.759 --> 05:46:27.840
to your right hand, just holding your hand at the

2176
05:46:27.880 --> 05:46:37.720
both of my hands, just pressing gently on the back

2177
05:46:37.759 --> 05:46:45.319
of your hand and stretching your fingers ever so lightly

2178
05:46:48.639 --> 05:46:55.560
at the same time, pressing down and messaging each finger,

2179
05:47:03.599 --> 05:47:07.639
and then starting to massage the palms of the hand.

2180
05:47:14.319 --> 05:47:25.319
Just turning the hand gently, stretching it gently, and actually

2181
05:47:25.439 --> 05:47:31.919
having your hand held can really be an emotional experience

2182
05:47:32.360 --> 05:47:38.360
sometimes even if it is a stranger. So when you

2183
05:47:38.439 --> 05:47:44.000
don't know very well, like a massage person or a therapist,

2184
05:47:44.159 --> 05:47:59.080
maybe because it's intimate and you can feel nice, you

2185
05:47:59.159 --> 05:48:09.759
can feel safe. And as I put that right arm

2186
05:48:09.959 --> 05:48:18.159
back down where it was, we did the same with

2187
05:48:18.279 --> 05:48:30.360
your left arm, exactly the same message in the muscles

2188
05:48:31.520 --> 05:48:35.279
in your arm all the way down. Do you rest,

2189
05:48:39.439 --> 05:48:49.240
stroking the inside of your arm, just being gentle or

2190
05:48:49.319 --> 05:49:03.279
as firm as you require, and then massaging your left hand,

2191
05:49:09.799 --> 05:49:19.840
stretching the fingers gently, massaging the palm of your left hand.

2192
05:49:31.919 --> 05:50:00.880
You can feel so so relaxing, so comforting. Rest your

2193
05:50:01.000 --> 05:50:14.919
left down, back down, Start to massage your back, the

2194
05:50:15.080 --> 05:50:26.599
biggest part of your body, starting at the top, starting

2195
05:50:26.680 --> 05:50:30.159
again where we already have been, the area at the

2196
05:50:30.319 --> 05:50:36.919
top in between his shoulders, near your neck, going back,

2197
05:50:37.639 --> 05:50:43.040
a message in that area again, but this time moving downwards,

2198
05:50:49.560 --> 05:50:55.279
taking it downward. Stroke to the middle of your back,

2199
05:50:57.720 --> 05:51:03.200
working from the outside inwards. It's a message in the

2200
05:51:05.479 --> 05:51:15.080
your back, but the outsides of your back, the parts

2201
05:51:17.759 --> 05:51:30.639
where your arms would maybe rest against, almost the part

2202
05:51:30.759 --> 05:51:44.119
that connects your front to your back. Just messaging down

2203
05:51:46.319 --> 05:51:55.639
firmly but gently, as firm as you want, moving down

2204
05:51:55.840 --> 05:51:59.479
and moving across a little bed and moving all the

2205
05:51:59.520 --> 05:52:05.279
way down on again, being very gentle. You have ferm

2206
05:52:05.520 --> 05:52:17.159
as you choose. Eventually you get to the spine. We

2207
05:52:17.279 --> 05:52:21.360
can message the muscles and either side of your spine

2208
05:52:22.240 --> 05:52:25.240
from the top of your neck all the way down

2209
05:52:28.040 --> 05:52:37.000
to your lower back. We can do that a few times.

2210
05:52:40.040 --> 05:52:47.400
Sometimes people use the knuckle or the you know, two

2211
05:52:47.560 --> 05:52:53.400
fingers and just go your side of the spine, almost

2212
05:52:53.840 --> 05:52:56.880
just push down, go all the way down to the

2213
05:52:56.919 --> 05:53:04.759
bottom of the spine. Each time, I'm releasing tension and

2214
05:53:05.080 --> 05:53:14.080
opening up the body, stretching your body so that you

2215
05:53:14.319 --> 05:53:32.560
feel more relaxed but at the same time rejuvenated. And

2216
05:53:32.720 --> 05:53:36.040
now I'm going to move to one side, to your

2217
05:53:36.159 --> 05:53:45.240
right side, and from the bottom of your ribs to

2218
05:53:45.400 --> 05:53:51.319
your pelvis, I'm going to massage that area of your back.

2219
05:53:53.279 --> 05:53:56.400
I'll stretch over the other side and I will pull

2220
05:53:56.560 --> 05:54:03.000
the muscles gently and massage should push from one end

2221
05:54:03.479 --> 05:54:07.599
that side or the way to my side to the

2222
05:54:07.720 --> 05:54:13.279
middle of fact to where your spine is. Massaging that

2223
05:54:13.560 --> 05:54:18.279
side of your spine the opposite side to where I'm standing.

2224
05:54:20.639 --> 05:54:26.639
It's almost like kneading bread. There's that big area which

2225
05:54:26.720 --> 05:54:38.520
is firm yet lots there to message. Potentially one of

2226
05:54:38.560 --> 05:54:45.159
the most important places to actually have a message because

2227
05:54:45.240 --> 05:54:51.080
you really feel it. You really feel the release and

2228
05:54:51.240 --> 05:54:59.400
the pleasure of having your lower back massaged. It releases

2229
05:54:59.720 --> 05:55:08.040
so much from your body that's not useful, starting a

2230
05:55:08.240 --> 05:55:14.319
healing process which will continue long after this recording is over.

2231
05:55:23.639 --> 05:55:26.520
The message in this part of your body not only

2232
05:55:26.639 --> 05:55:31.400
feels really good for you, it's actually fun to do

2233
05:55:32.840 --> 05:55:38.520
because it is, as I said, like kneading bread. It's

2234
05:55:38.560 --> 05:55:42.439
a part that you can really get hold of and

2235
05:55:42.639 --> 05:55:56.240
really message deeply. If that's your choice, then I'm going

2236
05:55:56.319 --> 05:55:58.279
to move over to the other side of your body

2237
05:55:58.799 --> 05:56:07.520
and do the same with the opposite part of your

2238
05:56:07.599 --> 05:56:14.919
lower back. Kneeding and messaging from your sides or way

2239
05:56:19.319 --> 05:56:22.040
to the middle of your back where your spine is

2240
05:56:26.479 --> 05:56:35.720
pressing and kneading, firm and gentle at the same time.

2241
05:56:37.720 --> 05:56:50.200
It feels so releasing this mixture of pleasure, comfort, release, calmness,

2242
05:56:50.560 --> 05:57:02.759
relaxation or mixed together. There's that feeling from your stomach

2243
05:57:03.240 --> 05:57:08.200
as it's being stretched. Even though you're in your stomach now,

2244
05:57:08.840 --> 05:57:12.599
you can feel it being stretched because that whole area

2245
05:57:12.759 --> 05:57:23.799
is connected to your stomach. Now we're going to move

2246
05:57:24.119 --> 05:57:28.880
or move further up to your top of your body

2247
05:57:29.520 --> 05:57:37.400
and we do the same this time, starting with your

2248
05:57:37.520 --> 05:57:43.479
upper back. Put my hands forward over and mass massage

2249
05:57:43.560 --> 05:57:50.439
in that area up to your spine, from the side

2250
05:57:50.520 --> 05:57:54.479
of your body up to your spine. So some of

2251
05:57:54.560 --> 05:58:01.599
that message area, that muscle tissue or whatever faty tissue

2252
05:58:01.639 --> 05:58:07.240
even will be possibly from your chest because all connected

2253
05:58:07.400 --> 05:58:13.799
the chest and the back connect together. I'm going to

2254
05:58:13.840 --> 05:58:18.840
be massaging and just pulling some of that skin from

2255
05:58:18.880 --> 05:58:28.319
your side up and massaging that area of your upper

2256
05:58:28.400 --> 05:58:36.720
back all the way to your spine. And then I'll

2257
05:58:36.759 --> 05:58:39.720
move down a bit and I'll continue with the middle

2258
05:58:39.759 --> 05:58:46.799
of your back doing exactly the same thing as gentle

2259
05:58:47.080 --> 05:59:00.319
or as deep as you choose. Now I'll move the

2260
05:59:00.439 --> 05:59:05.240
other side again and do the exact same thing with

2261
05:59:05.479 --> 05:59:09.560
the top of your back on the other side, from

2262
05:59:14.720 --> 05:59:23.439
pretty much underneath your arm area really to your spine,

2263
05:59:28.520 --> 05:59:35.159
and then continue in that all the way down, including

2264
05:59:35.279 --> 05:59:52.279
your lower your middle of your back. I'm gonna go

2265
05:59:52.720 --> 05:59:58.959
to your thighs, the backs of your thighs, and the

2266
05:59:59.159 --> 06:00:09.240
sides of your starting with your right leg. Massage in

2267
06:00:10.599 --> 06:00:19.799
the back and the sides of your thighs gently and firmly.

2268
06:00:21.919 --> 06:00:25.360
There's a lot of muscles there. It's an area that

2269
06:00:25.479 --> 06:00:29.639
can be very tense at times and maybe needs a

2270
06:00:29.720 --> 06:00:32.159
little bit more pressure than the rest of the body

2271
06:00:33.200 --> 06:00:40.919
that's up to you. You can gently stroke the back

2272
06:00:43.759 --> 06:00:48.080
of your legs where you know, opposite your knee joint

2273
06:00:49.400 --> 06:01:02.319
or underneath your knee joint, very sensitive, gentle area. And

2274
06:01:02.319 --> 06:01:09.680
then working down to your calf muscles. Massage in your

2275
06:01:09.759 --> 06:01:19.159
calf muscles thoroughly and deeply, if you choose, using both

2276
06:01:19.279 --> 06:01:37.919
hands and fingers, digging deep to your ankles, in the

2277
06:01:38.040 --> 06:01:44.840
back of your back of your ankles, just gently massage

2278
06:01:44.919 --> 06:01:56.759
in that area, maybe lifting the leg and stretching a

2279
06:01:56.840 --> 06:02:22.000
little bit. Moving to the right foot, massage in the

2280
06:02:22.119 --> 06:02:29.080
bottom of your feet and the side of your feet

2281
06:02:36.240 --> 06:02:45.680
gently but firm enough so they don't tickle, and just

2282
06:02:45.840 --> 06:02:51.400
allow the pleasure that you get from having your feet

2283
06:02:51.560 --> 06:03:00.240
massaged to just overtake you as I can you. You

2284
06:03:00.240 --> 06:03:05.520
need to message your feet, the bottoms of your feet,

2285
06:03:06.319 --> 06:03:15.080
the sides, your arches, your heel. You can put a

2286
06:03:15.159 --> 06:03:19.000
lot of pressure into your heel and it feels amazing,

2287
06:03:21.040 --> 06:03:23.639
Yet the arches need to be a bit more gentle.

2288
06:03:28.840 --> 06:03:35.560
Stretching your toes gently, the message in the bottoms of

2289
06:03:35.639 --> 06:03:51.880
your toes with my fingers, each one individually. Moving over

2290
06:03:52.040 --> 06:03:55.759
to the left leg to do exactly the same thing.

2291
06:03:59.080 --> 06:04:05.840
Starting at the top of the thighs, work in the

2292
06:04:05.959 --> 06:04:11.200
back of the thighs and the sides, massaging deeply and

2293
06:04:11.400 --> 06:04:27.680
gently that whole area, working all the way down. And

2294
06:04:27.799 --> 06:04:33.560
this is an area that maybe you could like to

2295
06:04:33.639 --> 06:04:42.919
spend more time relaxing and messaging. So perhaps if you wanted,

2296
06:04:43.040 --> 06:04:47.880
I could big a future recording. Want's spend more time

2297
06:04:48.040 --> 06:04:59.400
on one particular area. As you move down to your

2298
06:04:59.479 --> 06:05:13.360
calf muscles, Massage in your calf muscles firmly and gently,

2299
06:05:19.080 --> 06:05:27.520
move down your aincord into your feet. Massage in the

2300
06:05:28.000 --> 06:05:38.040
backs of your feet, the bottoms of your feet, stretching

2301
06:05:38.319 --> 06:05:44.639
your toes and massage in each tone individually, and the

2302
06:05:45.040 --> 06:05:50.479
feeling of pleasure and release that you experience when you're

2303
06:05:50.560 --> 06:06:12.279
having your feet massaged feels really good now as she

2304
06:06:12.479 --> 06:06:23.880
turn over in your mind. Laying on your back, I'm

2305
06:06:23.919 --> 06:06:36.439
just going to start again for your neck area, in

2306
06:06:36.599 --> 06:06:44.840
your shoulders, just to get back in touch with that area.

2307
06:06:51.759 --> 06:07:02.080
And as you move up, I can clean my hands,

2308
06:07:03.439 --> 06:07:07.200
make them more fresh, because now I'm gonna massage your

2309
06:07:07.319 --> 06:07:23.119
face gently, starting off with your forehead. Your eyes are

2310
06:07:23.200 --> 06:07:29.439
closed and I can just stretch your eyes a little bit,

2311
06:07:30.479 --> 06:07:41.520
pushing up on your eyebrows, just massaging around your scalp,

2312
06:07:47.240 --> 06:07:56.720
massaging down your cheeks, around your ears, into your chaw,

2313
06:07:57.919 --> 06:08:20.479
gently the side of your neck, your chin h then

2314
06:08:20.639 --> 06:08:28.000
just moving down from your neck down to your chest,

2315
06:08:31.799 --> 06:08:35.840
starting by massage in the very top of your chest

2316
06:08:39.639 --> 06:08:44.880
where the collar bone is. Give a side of the collarbone,

2317
06:08:53.360 --> 06:08:56.560
and then just message in the hole of the chest,

2318
06:09:05.799 --> 06:09:17.799
moving the chest around, because it's quite a large area.

2319
06:09:19.759 --> 06:09:27.200
You can move from one side to the next, moving

2320
06:09:27.599 --> 06:09:38.560
my hands underneath pretty much where your arms are stretching up,

2321
06:09:40.759 --> 06:09:43.799
stretching some of the muscles of your back in the process,

2322
06:09:49.080 --> 06:09:57.720
moving up over your chest and they're moving down again,

2323
06:10:10.360 --> 06:10:15.119
and then allow my hands to just massage gently and

2324
06:10:15.439 --> 06:10:22.159
slide down towards your stomach, starting in the middle of

2325
06:10:22.279 --> 06:10:31.840
your chest, and then gradually my hands moving apart and

2326
06:10:32.159 --> 06:10:37.799
massage in and slide in at the same time, moving

2327
06:10:37.919 --> 06:10:56.680
down to just below your rib cage, moving down, then

2328
06:10:56.799 --> 06:11:04.599
massaging up again, giving your chest all the attention.

2329
06:11:06.000 --> 06:11:06.880
That it needs.

2330
06:11:08.639 --> 06:11:21.000
To feel completely relaxed, remembering them. I'm also going to

2331
06:11:21.080 --> 06:11:26.639
be focusing on your sides as well, an area that

2332
06:11:26.959 --> 06:11:34.159
really doesn't get much attention but feels really good when

2333
06:11:34.200 --> 06:11:43.439
it's massaged. Just stroking my hands down the sides of

2334
06:11:43.560 --> 06:11:50.479
your body, just below your arms, all the way down

2335
06:11:50.560 --> 06:12:05.560
to your hips. Now move into your stomach area. We're

2336
06:12:05.560 --> 06:12:09.040
going to stand one side of you like I did

2337
06:12:09.119 --> 06:12:14.119
when I did your lower back. You do a similar

2338
06:12:14.279 --> 06:12:23.439
process of just stretching the muscles from your side, gently

2339
06:12:25.840 --> 06:12:37.639
massaging from one side to the next, move in a

2340
06:12:37.799 --> 06:12:42.159
whole area from below your ribs all the way down

2341
06:12:43.080 --> 06:12:52.880
to below your belly button, and then move round to

2342
06:12:52.959 --> 06:13:03.080
the other side of you and repeat that process of

2343
06:13:03.520 --> 06:13:18.560
relaxing deeply, calmly. You feel loose, you feel free, and

2344
06:13:18.639 --> 06:13:23.439
it's something about having your stomach massage that's different from

2345
06:13:23.560 --> 06:13:30.759
any other part because we do have a tendency of

2346
06:13:30.919 --> 06:13:36.080
holding a different kind of stress in our stomach that

2347
06:13:36.200 --> 06:13:44.639
we may not be aware of. As I now message

2348
06:13:44.720 --> 06:13:54.200
your stomach in front of your stomach, making circles around

2349
06:13:54.520 --> 06:14:02.919
your belly button, and then going the other way around,

2350
06:14:09.479 --> 06:14:15.240
there's a gentleness and a freedom that comes from feeling

2351
06:14:15.880 --> 06:14:26.200
how you're feeling. As I now move down the tops

2352
06:14:26.240 --> 06:14:33.000
of your thighs, the muscles, massaging them, and I can

2353
06:14:33.119 --> 06:14:39.080
do this two legs at the same time, pressing down,

2354
06:14:41.919 --> 06:14:48.080
massaging deeply those muscles in your thighs, the front of

2355
06:14:48.159 --> 06:14:59.159
your thighs, and moving down to your knees, gently massaging

2356
06:14:59.240 --> 06:15:10.520
your knees, sliding down your shins, putting pressure on either

2357
06:15:10.680 --> 06:15:22.840
side of your shin gently softly but firmly, moving down

2358
06:15:23.159 --> 06:15:37.880
to your ankles, stroking the tops of your feet, and

2359
06:15:38.080 --> 06:15:44.159
then with each foot in each hand, just gently messaging

2360
06:15:44.959 --> 06:15:53.240
the whole of the foot, the top, the bottom, your heel,

2361
06:15:53.759 --> 06:16:01.520
your ankle, your toes, messaging every part of your feet.

2362
06:16:06.560 --> 06:16:12.599
Feel so good just to let go and enjoy the process,

2363
06:16:18.240 --> 06:16:37.080
Enjoy feeling so deeply relaxed, so much comfort, and so

2364
06:16:37.279 --> 06:16:54.080
many feelings come just from touching your skin, and you

2365
06:16:54.159 --> 06:17:00.400
can just lie there for as long as you choose,

2366
06:17:04.360 --> 06:17:16.159
enjoying the feeling of deep comfort from being massaged by me,

2367
06:17:23.360 --> 06:17:32.880
enjoy feeling deeply.

2368
06:17:37.279 --> 06:17:37.520
Light.

2369
06:17:43.799 --> 06:17:50.319
And all we're gonna do is blow out some candles.

2370
06:17:52.840 --> 06:18:07.919
In your mind, there are going to be a hundred candles,

2371
06:18:15.040 --> 06:18:20.799
and you're going to blow each one out individually, one

2372
06:18:21.200 --> 06:18:28.599
by one, starting at one hundred. As I count down

2373
06:18:33.759 --> 06:18:40.639
all the way down to one, and each time I

2374
06:18:40.919 --> 06:18:50.000
say a number, you can imagine that candle in front

2375
06:18:50.040 --> 06:19:01.040
of you, and I'd like you to actually physically gently

2376
06:19:01.200 --> 06:19:16.880
blow that candle out, just so it's not big blows,

2377
06:19:17.279 --> 06:19:31.119
just a gentle, and that candle will extinguish. And then

2378
06:19:31.319 --> 06:19:38.520
I'll say the next number as we move down, and

2379
06:19:38.680 --> 06:19:51.000
you can just blow that one out as well. And

2380
06:19:51.159 --> 06:20:01.040
as we move down the numbers, you'll find yourself feeling

2381
06:20:01.520 --> 06:20:10.360
more and more relaxed. If you need to sleep, you'll

2382
06:20:10.360 --> 06:20:22.240
also find yourself becoming incredibly tired and sleepy. In fact,

2383
06:20:22.360 --> 06:20:32.439
you may struggle to blow out all one hundred of

2384
06:20:32.560 --> 06:20:51.000
these candles as you feel more and more deeply relaxed,

2385
06:20:57.680 --> 06:21:15.639
more and more deep tired, and the further you go down.

2386
06:21:18.319 --> 06:21:19.040
The more.

2387
06:21:20.479 --> 06:21:32.680
Your mind starts to drift, you may find that you

2388
06:21:34.000 --> 06:21:47.520
stop listening to me after a while. And even though

2389
06:21:47.639 --> 06:21:56.319
there may be background sounds where you are, you'll be

2390
06:21:56.400 --> 06:22:02.159
aware of those sounds at the moment.

2391
06:22:07.159 --> 06:22:07.639
Be me.

2392
06:22:11.119 --> 06:22:25.959
Start to just not even notice them at all, because

2393
06:22:26.080 --> 06:22:39.639
they're unimportant. Where I am, I've got the sounds of

2394
06:22:39.759 --> 06:22:46.680
the birds, there's horrors, the pigeon who likes to say

2395
06:22:46.799 --> 06:22:53.040
hello sometimes, and there's the odd plane that goes by,

2396
06:22:56.080 --> 06:23:09.520
maybe traffic and trains in the distance. But none of

2397
06:23:09.560 --> 06:23:21.799
that scene is important whatsoever. More candles you blow out,

2398
06:23:23.639 --> 06:23:36.400
the less important anything is. More candles you blow out,

2399
06:23:40.599 --> 06:23:53.799
the further you seem to move away from sounds and

2400
06:23:56.400 --> 06:24:08.759
from general date days. Stuff seems to just move away

2401
06:24:11.279 --> 06:24:27.439
on its own. You feel more caarma with every candle

2402
06:24:27.599 --> 06:24:47.240
you blow out, guiding you the next number, do you

2403
06:24:47.479 --> 06:24:58.720
hear me say? And then you blow that candle out? Two?

2404
06:25:06.840 --> 06:25:30.360
So easy, so simple. We're gonna start by introducing the

2405
06:25:30.639 --> 06:25:47.599
first candle, which is a hundred. First candle, this is

2406
06:25:48.040 --> 06:26:04.639
one hundred. When you blow that candle out, you'll find

2407
06:26:06.439 --> 06:26:22.159
immediately a slight change in how you feel, as well

2408
06:26:22.240 --> 06:26:36.959
as a real sense of positivity. Growing within you, relaxation

2409
06:26:37.520 --> 06:27:06.279
and sleepiness expanding, starting with one hundred flow out by

2410
06:27:06.560 --> 06:28:16.639
candle now ninety nine, candle ninety eight, cand ninety seven,

2411
06:28:39.080 --> 06:29:46.759
canone we ninety six and ninety five and ninety four,

2412
06:30:11.520 --> 06:31:39.360
candle ninety three, hand ninety two and ninety one, ten

2413
06:31:39.520 --> 06:33:24.959
to ninety and eighty nine and eighty eight and eighties

2414
06:33:58.279 --> 06:36:24.319
can do eighty eighty five and can f eighty two

2415
06:37:31.759 --> 06:39:52.840
and two one candle seventy nine, candle seventy eight, candle

2416
06:39:57.439 --> 06:40:58.599
seventy seven, candle seventy six, candle seventy five, candle seventy four,

2417
06:41:10.439 --> 06:42:16.040
candle seventy three, candle seventy two, candle seventy one, candle

2418
06:42:18.840 --> 06:43:16.479
seventy one, and seventy and sixty nine, candle sixty eight,

2419
06:43:26.279 --> 06:44:28.959
candle sixty seven, candle sixty five, candle sixty four, candle

2420
06:44:31.159 --> 06:45:46.919
sixty four, candle sixty three, candle sixty sixty one, candle

2421
06:45:51.680 --> 06:47:33.040
sixty fifty nine and fifty eight candle fifty seven, candle

2422
06:47:39.040 --> 06:49:05.880
fifty six, candle fifty five, candle fifty four, handle fifty three,

2423
06:49:23.959 --> 06:51:08.919
candle fifty two, candle fifty two two the candle fifty one,

2424
06:51:29.080 --> 06:53:23.279
candle fifty candle fourty nine, candle forty eight, candle forty seven,

2425
06:53:52.599 --> 06:55:44.840
candle forty six, can't do forty five, can forty two, candle.

2426
06:55:48.799 --> 06:56:23.479
Ho end.

2427
06:56:28.400 --> 06:58:28.880
Forty, candle thirty nine, hand thirty eight, can't do thirty seven,

2428
06:59:07.919 --> 07:01:14.360
canto thirty five, can't thirty four, teno thirty three, handle

2429
07:01:17.759 --> 07:04:13.479
thirty one, chendle thirty and twoentighteen nine, ten, twenty eight,

2430
07:05:04.919 --> 07:07:17.639
candle twenty seven, candle twenty six and twenty five can

2431
07:07:23.479 --> 07:08:46.200
chin chief endle twenty three, hand to twenty tap two

2432
07:09:18.959 --> 07:12:05.439
and tand and too witty, mm end ninety, candle seventeen,

2433
07:12:51.240 --> 07:17:40.919
candle sixteen, chancel four, ten tu, candle eleven, handy yay,

2434
07:18:05.360 --> 07:21:38.159
shame nine jam to eight, chendo six m came four.

2435
07:22:16.279 --> 07:22:17.040
And do.

2436
07:22:22.360 --> 07:23:25.919
Hey ten.

2437
07:23:31.200 --> 07:23:31.400
Two.

2438
07:24:22.080 --> 07:24:41.000
Can or let go of all of those thoughts, worries,

2439
07:24:41.319 --> 07:24:47.439
concerns about the past, thoughts about the future, and even

2440
07:24:48.919 --> 07:24:53.279
things you've been thinking about today. Just let it all

2441
07:24:53.319 --> 07:24:59.560
go because none of it is useful in this moment.

2442
07:25:04.479 --> 07:25:19.880
This is your opportunity to just focus on feeling relaxed,

2443
07:25:24.159 --> 07:25:30.599
allowing yourself to get in touch with that natural sense

2444
07:25:32.680 --> 07:25:40.799
of peace that we all have within us. It's available

2445
07:25:40.880 --> 07:25:45.720
for everyone It just sometimes takes a little bit of

2446
07:25:45.840 --> 07:25:53.240
effort to set up the right time and place in

2447
07:25:53.479 --> 07:25:59.880
order for you to just let go. Because when you do,

2448
07:26:00.119 --> 07:26:07.720
you decide to let go and relax, that's what your

2449
07:26:07.759 --> 07:26:16.479
body starts to do because you've chosen, You've chosen to

2450
07:26:16.919 --> 07:26:24.040
just allow your body to unwind and your mind starts

2451
07:26:24.119 --> 07:26:31.599
to slow down. And it's a nice feeling. It's a

2452
07:26:31.680 --> 07:26:35.919
nice feeling at the beginning, just to know that you

2453
07:26:36.400 --> 07:26:46.680
have chosen to decide to relax deeply, and because you've

2454
07:26:46.799 --> 07:26:55.279
made that decision, your body or just follow suit, because

2455
07:26:55.360 --> 07:26:59.799
sometimes all the muscles in your body need is just

2456
07:27:00.319 --> 07:27:09.560
permission from you to relax. Because so often we're busy,

2457
07:27:09.840 --> 07:27:14.000
we're going from here to there, we're walking around and

2458
07:27:14.119 --> 07:27:21.479
we're doing stuff, and the body doesn't have any time

2459
07:27:21.720 --> 07:27:30.119
or space to really relax deeply. So it kind of

2460
07:27:30.200 --> 07:27:35.759
waits for you to lead the way, waits for your permission.

2461
07:27:40.119 --> 07:27:46.599
And when you do give your permission, when you give

2462
07:27:46.680 --> 07:27:52.959
the say so, when you say okay, it's time for

2463
07:27:53.080 --> 07:28:02.720
your body to let go completely and relax totally, your

2464
07:28:02.759 --> 07:28:12.279
body just follows. It's like a breath of relief. Ah, good,

2465
07:28:12.360 --> 07:28:19.240
I can now relax that feeling at the end of

2466
07:28:19.319 --> 07:28:22.599
a day, of a very physical day that you may

2467
07:28:22.680 --> 07:28:26.479
experience in the past, where you get home and you

2468
07:28:26.720 --> 07:28:30.439
just sit down on a chair, maybe you kick your

2469
07:28:30.520 --> 07:28:36.759
shoes off, and ah, feels so nice knowing that you

2470
07:28:36.880 --> 07:28:41.000
don't have to get up again for a little while

2471
07:28:41.080 --> 07:28:44.799
at least if you choose, you can just sit there

2472
07:28:44.919 --> 07:28:57.479
for maybe an hour to It feels blissful. And just

2473
07:28:57.639 --> 07:29:02.720
by sitting down like that, your body knows that it's

2474
07:29:02.840 --> 07:29:08.520
time to relax. Your body has been given permission from you.

2475
07:29:10.720 --> 07:29:21.040
Because it's a mindset in your mind, you're prepared to

2476
07:29:21.240 --> 07:29:30.799
let go of everything and just completely allow all the

2477
07:29:31.080 --> 07:29:39.880
stress of your body to evaporate. Any tensions can just

2478
07:29:40.240 --> 07:29:59.599
gradually vanish. It's almost like magic, really, because that sense

2479
07:30:00.080 --> 07:30:06.159
of relaxation in your body, it's a very natural state.

2480
07:30:08.040 --> 07:30:12.639
It's not something unusual. It may feel unusual when you

2481
07:30:12.799 --> 07:30:16.080
first start to relax, if you if you haven't really

2482
07:30:17.520 --> 07:30:21.400
spent a lot of time focusing and giving yourself this

2483
07:30:21.599 --> 07:30:26.639
space to let go completely and relax, they seem are

2484
07:30:26.759 --> 07:30:35.040
most alien, but it isn't. It's actually the most natural

2485
07:30:35.200 --> 07:30:43.759
thing in the world to let go completely, to relax totally,

2486
07:30:45.759 --> 07:30:52.479
the most natural thing in the world to allow yourself

2487
07:30:56.880 --> 07:31:04.240
to feel really card in your mind, and it is

2488
07:31:04.520 --> 07:31:12.200
almost like a literal unwinding. It's like you press a

2489
07:31:12.319 --> 07:31:21.040
button and all the tension just releases, and it's like

2490
07:31:21.159 --> 07:31:25.119
a wheel, like a cog, like the inside of a clock,

2491
07:31:25.319 --> 07:31:29.200
just unwinding. And it's almost like you could see the

2492
07:31:30.200 --> 07:31:35.520
little wind up knob that's used just going the opposite

2493
07:31:35.560 --> 07:31:41.560
way that you choose to wind it up, and the

2494
07:31:41.799 --> 07:31:52.360
energy that fremetic stress for energy gradually winding down, losing

2495
07:31:52.520 --> 07:31:59.919
its power, losing its strength. As a sense of relaxing

2496
07:32:00.040 --> 07:32:11.240
station becomes stronger and deeper, and you may find a

2497
07:32:11.400 --> 07:32:18.639
the more relaxed you feel, that your mind starts to wonder,

2498
07:32:21.759 --> 07:32:27.639
maybe just seemed to stop listening to me for a while,

2499
07:32:27.799 --> 07:32:34.400
and your mind goes somewhere else, and then you realize

2500
07:32:34.439 --> 07:32:39.400
you're listening to me again, and that was just your

2501
07:32:39.599 --> 07:32:50.319
mind drifting to sleep, which is quite natural, because sometimes

2502
07:32:50.520 --> 07:32:57.200
when we're stressed and tense, we're not I mean I

2503
07:32:57.240 --> 07:33:02.319
actually be aware of what we need, what we physically

2504
07:33:02.479 --> 07:33:11.560
your emotionally need in this moment. But when you allow

2505
07:33:12.799 --> 07:33:18.639
your body and mind to relax completely and you let

2506
07:33:18.759 --> 07:33:27.799
go of all thoughts concerns, worries, ideas all letting them

2507
07:33:27.919 --> 07:33:36.799
go allow them to drop onto the floor. When you

2508
07:33:37.040 --> 07:33:46.000
start to get in touch with the feelings of such relaxation,

2509
07:33:49.840 --> 07:33:56.360
this feels so nice to be in touch with the

2510
07:33:56.639 --> 07:34:08.200
calmness the different body parts as they become looser and looser.

2511
07:34:12.439 --> 07:34:24.639
Even your breathing seems easier and more natural, effortless, as

2512
07:34:24.680 --> 07:34:30.680
that cool enters through your mouth or nose into your lungs,

2513
07:34:33.360 --> 07:34:41.720
breathing in comforts and relaxation, and then just breathing out

2514
07:34:41.959 --> 07:34:50.599
any excess remain intension or stress from every part of

2515
07:34:50.680 --> 07:34:58.479
your body and mind. And as you start to focus

2516
07:34:58.599 --> 07:35:06.759
on your mind, maybe you notice that things have come

2517
07:35:06.880 --> 07:35:13.959
to a standstill or maybe just much much lower than

2518
07:35:14.040 --> 07:35:24.119
before because your mind is not really needed when listening

2519
07:35:24.599 --> 07:35:33.799
to my voice, which allows your mind to relax just

2520
07:35:34.240 --> 07:35:43.400
as deeply as your body. And that's synchronicity between the

2521
07:35:43.520 --> 07:35:55.360
relaxation of your body relaxation of your mind. Lets you

2522
07:35:55.639 --> 07:36:07.639
know that feeling from completely calm, loose, and relaxed really

2523
07:36:08.279 --> 07:36:15.840
is a great healing experience fear.

2524
07:36:18.159 --> 07:36:18.919
And has.

2525
07:36:23.159 --> 07:36:31.599
So many positive benefits for your body, mind, and your life.

2526
07:36:34.279 --> 07:36:40.840
To be able to let go everything and to relax

2527
07:36:42.119 --> 07:36:53.040
completely in all parts of your body and mind. Even

2528
07:36:53.159 --> 07:37:08.799
your bones has araxed, or your muscles relaxed. Even the

2529
07:37:09.159 --> 07:37:22.360
skin that covers your body is relaxed. Every hair.

2530
07:37:25.400 --> 07:37:26.000
That you have.

2531
07:37:27.759 --> 07:37:45.319
Is also deeply relaxed. And your brain really starts to

2532
07:37:45.560 --> 07:37:47.680
feel the benefits.

2533
07:37:48.919 --> 07:37:49.279
Of this.

2534
07:37:50.880 --> 07:38:03.240
Healing relaxation. And as you focus on the inside of

2535
07:38:03.360 --> 07:38:09.040
your scalp where your brain is, you can start to

2536
07:38:09.319 --> 07:38:18.840
realize and notice that benefits of your brain relaxing deeply

2537
07:38:23.159 --> 07:38:31.880
and then aish your brain continues to relax sends those

2538
07:38:32.639 --> 07:38:37.599
messages to the rest of your body.

2539
07:38:39.240 --> 07:38:41.040
And your mind.

2540
07:38:42.680 --> 07:39:05.479
To rely, relax even more deeply, relax more completely, letting

2541
07:39:05.720 --> 07:39:17.439
go of any remaining thoughts or concerns, allow them just

2542
07:39:17.680 --> 07:39:24.200
to drop onto the floor because they're no longer necessary

2543
07:39:25.479 --> 07:39:37.319
in this moment, In this moment of deep relaxation and calmness,

2544
07:39:39.680 --> 07:40:06.279
filling your brain with deep concentrated heathing, calming, relaxing, every

2545
07:40:06.959 --> 07:40:24.119
part of your brain feeling so loose and comfortable, so

2546
07:40:25.360 --> 07:40:39.560
relaxed and be peaceful. Your brain feels so light and

2547
07:40:39.959 --> 07:40:51.040
so healthy. In that sense of deep, deep comfort really

2548
07:40:51.959 --> 07:41:05.080
does allow you to enjoy dose ever increasing sensations of

2549
07:41:07.000 --> 07:41:21.119
comfort that are spreading throughout your body, relaxing each and

2550
07:41:21.720 --> 07:41:37.720
every muscle of your body, Eat deeper and deeper, much

2551
07:41:38.439 --> 07:41:57.159
more deeper than before, much more comfort spreading through your body.

2552
07:41:57.720 --> 07:42:13.360
In your mind, be so peaceful and calm, so very

2553
07:42:14.479 --> 07:42:27.479
very peaceful, in avery part of your body, letting him go.

2554
07:42:29.560 --> 07:42:54.040
The a everything averything, so peaceful, come so relax every

2555
07:42:55.360 --> 07:43:01.520
second the passes, you feel.

2556
07:43:03.520 --> 07:43:04.680
D per.

2557
07:43:06.159 --> 07:43:33.639
Deper relaxed, dper and deeper. Relax calm, so calm, peace

2558
07:43:34.599 --> 07:43:46.759
fa so very peace from your head down to your ties.

2559
07:43:49.880 --> 07:44:03.479
Such peace and comfort growing all the time, Such peace

2560
07:44:04.560 --> 07:44:18.000
and comfort spreading through your body and mind deep and deeper,

2561
07:44:20.919 --> 07:44:35.040
Such comforts, spreading and sinking deeper into a muscle your body.

2562
07:44:38.639 --> 07:44:40.279
So you feel.

2563
07:44:42.479 --> 07:45:07.880
Amazing solaxed, so pea, so solast and peaceful, letting go.

2564
07:45:17.000 --> 07:45:23.200
We're going to do a body scan, focusing on firstly

2565
07:45:23.400 --> 07:45:28.119
how you feel in your body, not trying to change

2566
07:45:28.799 --> 07:45:34.439
how you feel, not trying to relax, not trying to

2567
07:45:34.639 --> 07:45:41.799
move away from any discomfort or stress or tension. Just accepting,

2568
07:45:43.360 --> 07:45:48.439
observing and accepting how you feel in the different parts

2569
07:45:48.520 --> 07:45:55.159
of your body, Just allowing yourself to be exactly as

2570
07:45:55.240 --> 07:46:06.720
you are, to notice to get in touch with how

2571
07:46:06.799 --> 07:46:13.759
you actually feel in this moment. So I'm going to

2572
07:46:13.880 --> 07:46:25.159
start off by focusing on your hands. Just be aware

2573
07:46:25.240 --> 07:46:33.680
of your hands. I'd like you to move your hands around,

2574
07:46:35.119 --> 07:46:40.680
just maybe move your fingers a little bit. I've been

2575
07:46:40.759 --> 07:46:46.560
and closing your hands very gently, just so that.

2576
07:46:46.759 --> 07:46:47.360
You can.

2577
07:46:49.159 --> 07:46:56.159
Get in touch with how your hands and your fingers feel,

2578
07:47:01.560 --> 07:47:20.520
very very slow movements. Focusing now on your feet, And

2579
07:47:20.639 --> 07:47:24.520
if you can just do kind of an equivalent with

2580
07:47:24.680 --> 07:47:30.400
your feet is you've just done with your hands, maybe

2581
07:47:31.840 --> 07:47:39.279
turn in your ankles, moving your feet around, moving your

2582
07:47:39.400 --> 07:47:52.639
toes gently, but only very gently and very slowly, noticing

2583
07:47:53.159 --> 07:48:07.799
how your feet fulfill in this moment. Focusing now and

2584
07:48:07.919 --> 07:48:14.959
your eyes, and I like you to just focus on

2585
07:48:15.080 --> 07:48:20.840
your eyelids. Maybe you can open and close your eyes

2586
07:48:21.040 --> 07:48:25.400
a couple of times to really get in touch with

2587
07:48:26.279 --> 07:48:30.959
how you feel when you do close your eyes. The

2588
07:48:31.119 --> 07:48:37.319
muscle changes in your eyes when you do close them,

2589
07:48:40.159 --> 07:48:46.560
maybe raising your eyebrows, it stretches the tops of your eyes,

2590
07:48:49.759 --> 07:48:58.200
perhaps squinting your eyes, scrunching up your eyes, just so

2591
07:48:58.360 --> 07:49:08.119
you can here again touch with all aspects of how

2592
07:49:09.959 --> 07:49:11.360
your eyes feel.

2593
07:49:14.119 --> 07:49:14.599
Right now.

2594
07:49:23.959 --> 07:49:30.479
Now focusing on your thighs and it just starts you

2595
07:49:30.639 --> 07:49:40.759
to gently tense your thighs, just very very gently, just

2596
07:49:41.040 --> 07:49:53.240
enough so you can become more attuned to the physical

2597
07:49:53.880 --> 07:50:01.439
sensation of your upper legs, on to your thighs and

2598
07:50:01.560 --> 07:50:14.919
the backs of your thigh, noticing and observing how your

2599
07:50:15.080 --> 07:50:30.159
thighs fear. Right now, moving your focus to the back

2600
07:50:30.240 --> 07:50:36.799
of your neck, just noticing the back of your neck,

2601
07:50:38.279 --> 07:50:43.560
the muscles, and of course they lead to the side

2602
07:50:43.639 --> 07:50:47.759
of your neck. They also lead to the top of

2603
07:50:47.880 --> 07:50:54.240
your back, which leads to your shoulders. So there's your

2604
07:50:54.560 --> 07:51:01.439
focus on the back of your neck. Maybe can move

2605
07:51:01.560 --> 07:51:09.000
your head gently upwards as if you're looking up. Maybe

2606
07:51:10.279 --> 07:51:14.319
moving your head down as if you were looking down.

2607
07:51:17.479 --> 07:51:22.319
Perhaps moving your head side to side, right to left.

2608
07:51:24.279 --> 07:51:35.520
Bind me very slowly, very gently. I'm not trying to

2609
07:51:35.919 --> 07:51:46.799
force anything. It has to be very very gentle, just

2610
07:51:47.439 --> 07:51:48.720
so you can.

2611
07:51:50.279 --> 07:51:51.959
Be more.

2612
07:51:53.520 --> 07:52:02.959
In touch with the feelings, with the sensations, the physical

2613
07:52:04.319 --> 07:52:09.439
sensations of hownd back of your neck.

2614
07:52:10.799 --> 07:52:11.279
Feels.

2615
07:52:13.040 --> 07:52:28.439
Right now, as we now focus on the tops of

2616
07:52:28.560 --> 07:52:34.799
your arms, the parts where your biceps and your triceps

2617
07:52:34.880 --> 07:52:42.919
are between your elbow and your shoulders. To focus on

2618
07:52:43.200 --> 07:52:50.360
those parts, the tops of your arms, you may like

2619
07:52:50.520 --> 07:52:59.799
to just tense them, but very very gently and slow,

2620
07:53:02.599 --> 07:53:10.560
so you're not straining or putting any pressure whatsoever.

2621
07:53:11.479 --> 07:53:17.479
On your arms. It's just so that you can.

2622
07:53:20.000 --> 07:53:27.200
Gain more of a sense of how your upper arms

2623
07:53:28.759 --> 07:53:40.680
are feeling in this moment, and just noticing as you gently,

2624
07:53:42.840 --> 07:53:50.759
very gently and slowly tightening the muscles.

2625
07:53:51.599 --> 07:53:52.439
And then let go.

2626
07:53:56.720 --> 07:54:14.639
Notice how your arms fell right now as a now

2627
07:54:15.319 --> 07:54:25.560
focus on your stomach, the area the lower abdomen area

2628
07:54:26.240 --> 07:54:34.639
below your belly button, moving all the way down to

2629
07:54:34.759 --> 07:54:44.759
your hips, just a part of your grind. Maybe you're

2630
07:54:44.799 --> 07:54:54.599
able to tense these muscles in the area very very

2631
07:54:54.799 --> 07:55:07.720
gently and slowly. If that's a difficult thing to do,

2632
07:55:09.159 --> 07:55:18.159
maybe you can just move your body, pushing your stomach up,

2633
07:55:19.880 --> 07:55:23.720
maybe moving a little bit to a side using your hips,

2634
07:55:25.880 --> 07:55:34.040
just so you can get more in tune with how

2635
07:55:34.240 --> 07:55:37.759
you're lower capped to an area.

2636
07:55:41.279 --> 07:55:43.240
Is feeling.

2637
07:55:45.680 --> 07:56:03.240
In this moment. Just noticing the physical sensations or your

2638
07:56:03.400 --> 07:56:22.360
lower abdomen as you move your attention to your mouth,

2639
07:56:27.680 --> 07:56:35.919
notice in your lips and inside your mouth, your teeth,

2640
07:56:37.000 --> 07:56:53.159
your guns, your tongue. Just noticing how your tongue in

2641
07:56:53.240 --> 07:57:02.919
your mouth feels. It may help buy moving your tongue

2642
07:57:04.279 --> 07:57:11.240
around your mouth, moving it to your left, maybe pressing

2643
07:57:11.279 --> 07:57:18.000
it gently against the side of your mouth, and then

2644
07:57:18.439 --> 07:57:23.319
to the right, gently to the side of your mouth,

2645
07:57:26.400 --> 07:57:31.919
perhaps pressing up against the top of your mouth, and

2646
07:57:32.080 --> 07:57:40.919
then down gently against the bottom of your mouth, always

2647
07:57:41.880 --> 07:57:57.479
very slowly, in a very very gentle so that you can.

2648
07:58:01.080 --> 07:58:02.159
Be aware.

2649
07:58:07.040 --> 07:58:29.279
Of how you feel in your mouth area. Now I'm

2650
07:58:29.319 --> 07:58:45.479
going to focus on your wrists, and I'll ask you

2651
07:58:45.919 --> 07:58:49.680
to maybe just routine.

2652
07:58:50.720 --> 07:58:51.840
Your wrists.

2653
07:58:53.240 --> 07:59:01.279
By moving your hands in a circular motion very gently

2654
07:59:03.240 --> 07:59:24.880
and slowly, just so you can feel the sensations that

2655
07:59:25.119 --> 07:59:40.560
you are currently experiencing in your risks. Perhaps move in

2656
07:59:40.840 --> 07:59:49.439
your hands up and down again very.

2657
07:59:51.759 --> 07:59:53.479
Very gently.

2658
07:59:56.479 --> 08:00:09.720
And slowly, very gentzo.

2659
08:00:13.159 --> 08:00:14.520
And slow.

2660
08:00:28.000 --> 08:00:29.000
As we now.

2661
08:00:31.439 --> 08:00:46.000
Start to observe a lower back. The bad part is

2662
08:00:47.639 --> 08:01:03.360
just above of your hips where your coxis are a

2663
08:01:03.520 --> 08:01:10.439
whole area which also really does include the side of

2664
08:01:10.560 --> 08:01:21.360
your body, because those muscles are very much connected as

2665
08:01:21.439 --> 08:01:28.479
those muscles also move into your hip area, connecting to

2666
08:01:28.639 --> 08:01:43.599
your buttics the sides of your hips, and if you're

2667
08:01:44.840 --> 08:01:55.799
physically able to do so, maybe can very gently just

2668
08:01:56.479 --> 08:02:09.119
move your body ever so slightly, very slowly some side

2669
08:02:09.319 --> 08:02:29.279
to side, just enough to gauge how you feel in

2670
08:02:29.479 --> 08:02:44.599
your lower back. Perhaps it could even move your hips

2671
08:02:45.000 --> 08:02:58.639
gently up and down, gently and slowly, in order to

2672
08:03:00.560 --> 08:03:12.479
really be in touch with the physical sensations of your

2673
08:03:12.639 --> 08:03:13.240
lower back.

2674
08:03:30.319 --> 08:03:37.840
As we know live your attention.

2675
08:03:41.279 --> 08:03:48.959
To your jaw, the area from your chin all the

2676
08:03:49.040 --> 08:03:57.639
way up to near where your ears are. Oh, your jaw,

2677
08:04:07.919 --> 08:04:14.720
you can just yeah, it's okay to do so. Gently

2678
08:04:16.200 --> 08:04:26.080
open your mouth, not wide, no stretching, just very gently

2679
08:04:26.479 --> 08:04:38.119
and slowly opening your mouth. I thing, closing your mouth

2680
08:04:40.439 --> 08:04:59.319
very gently and slowly, so you can be in touch

2681
08:05:06.159 --> 08:05:08.319
with how your jaw feels.

2682
08:05:11.720 --> 08:05:11.919
Now.

2683
08:05:38.599 --> 08:05:40.119
I just sit now.

2684
08:05:42.840 --> 08:05:55.720
Your chest area, and you don't need to do anything

2685
08:05:57.680 --> 08:06:04.520
to move your chest because it moves every time you breathe,

2686
08:06:09.680 --> 08:06:22.840
and it moves very gently and slowly automatically with each

2687
08:06:23.400 --> 08:06:38.400
breath you take. As you focus on how your chest

2688
08:06:43.560 --> 08:07:24.439
feels when you breath, move in your focus to your forearms,

2689
08:07:26.959 --> 08:07:43.080
your elbows. Maybe you're able to very gently and slowly

2690
08:07:45.520 --> 08:07:54.080
tense the muscles in your forearms, and when you do that,

2691
08:07:54.560 --> 08:08:27.639
you can feel your elbows as well, very gently and slowly, gently.

2692
08:08:30.599 --> 08:08:31.919
And softly.

2693
08:08:36.080 --> 08:09:15.000
I'm sad your forearms and delpas. No focus the rest

2694
08:09:15.119 --> 08:09:28.200
of your back, your upper back and the middle the

2695
08:09:28.520 --> 08:09:44.840
middle of your back again this part of your body.

2696
08:09:47.799 --> 08:10:00.279
News Also every time you pray, you may not notice yeah,

2697
08:10:02.279 --> 08:10:14.400
usually makes you serve your upper back. In the middle

2698
08:10:14.520 --> 08:10:31.560
of your back. You can re feel that gentle and

2699
08:10:38.759 --> 08:11:28.040
moment moving your focus into area of buttes, the grain.

2700
08:11:30.720 --> 08:12:05.560
There's muscles and those bones in your midsection. Just noticing

2701
08:12:07.959 --> 08:12:12.599
how your hips feel.

2702
08:12:15.799 --> 08:12:30.080
Right now, you can very very gently.

2703
08:12:32.159 --> 08:12:44.000
Move your hips, maybe side to side, very gently and.

2704
08:12:59.599 --> 08:13:25.840
Yeah, m hmm, yeah, softly, and.

2705
08:13:32.599 --> 08:13:49.360
Everything starts to slow down, including the thoughts in your

2706
08:13:49.479 --> 08:14:01.240
mind and your mind itself just starts to gradually. It

2707
08:14:01.319 --> 08:14:07.680
doesn't have to be instant, but just gradually starting to

2708
08:14:09.080 --> 08:14:17.880
It's almost like time is storing chin. It's a slower

2709
08:14:18.040 --> 08:14:25.919
pace to maybe what you're used to in your day

2710
08:14:25.959 --> 08:14:48.000
to day life. It's a slower movement of energy, very

2711
08:14:52.360 --> 08:15:00.799
small movements which make up the larger movements, which is

2712
08:15:00.880 --> 08:15:08.639
always the case. Now, when you move your hand, it

2713
08:15:08.759 --> 08:15:11.520
might seem like it's one movement, but it's lots of

2714
08:15:12.319 --> 08:15:24.720
minute different muscles moving in accordance with each other. What

2715
08:15:25.080 --> 08:15:37.520
happens in this space that we're sharing is we move

2716
08:15:37.680 --> 08:15:58.360
from that big movement into those smaller movements, starting to

2717
08:15:58.560 --> 08:16:09.599
focus on how your body feels, not just as a whole,

2718
08:16:11.000 --> 08:16:14.119
not just oh, i'm feel in this way. I'm feeling

2719
08:16:15.200 --> 08:16:21.159
stressed or tense, or I'm feeling relaxed and calm. I'm

2720
08:16:21.279 --> 08:16:28.279
feeling this way, I'm feeling that way. Starting to notice

2721
08:16:28.479 --> 08:16:40.680
that your body begins to present to you small feelings

2722
08:16:42.319 --> 08:16:59.520
around your body, small physical sensations in your legs, whether

2723
08:17:00.040 --> 08:17:12.720
pleasurable or not. Maybe resisting the temptation to label them

2724
08:17:15.639 --> 08:17:23.279
or to judge them those feelings, just thinking them, thinking

2725
08:17:23.319 --> 08:17:36.479
about them is just being neutral, just feelings, not being

2726
08:17:37.520 --> 08:17:47.840
particularly concerned, but just noticing what your body is telling you.

2727
08:17:55.799 --> 08:18:02.119
Feelings in your arms, instead of feeling the whole of

2728
08:18:02.240 --> 08:18:12.240
the arm, Maybe notice those individual feelings, all those different

2729
08:18:12.479 --> 08:18:25.799
muscles and the skin, the hairs of your arms, all

2730
08:18:25.880 --> 08:18:39.680
the internal parts of your arms, the veins, the bones,

2731
08:18:42.560 --> 08:18:48.599
Just being aware of Maybe your elbow on your right

2732
08:18:48.799 --> 08:18:59.400
arm has a certain feeling. Maybe your left wrist also

2733
08:18:59.680 --> 08:19:09.000
has its own individual physical sensation.

2734
08:19:21.400 --> 08:19:28.119
What about your forearm on your right arm, You're right forearm,

2735
08:19:35.479 --> 08:19:36.720
there may not be any.

2736
08:19:37.080 --> 08:19:44.319
Particular feeling that you could even give a name to,

2737
08:19:48.040 --> 08:19:53.520
may not feel like anything other than just a feeling. Yeah,

2738
08:19:53.680 --> 08:20:06.159
it's there. The feelings in your shoulders, perhaps your shoulders

2739
08:20:06.200 --> 08:20:09.439
when you think about them, you're kind of almost like

2740
08:20:09.599 --> 08:20:16.279
they're the same, you know, the same feeling, almost like

2741
08:20:16.400 --> 08:20:20.919
you both of your shoulders are just one thing. Of

2742
08:20:21.040 --> 08:20:32.240
course they're not. And when you focus on your left

2743
08:20:32.319 --> 08:20:40.439
shoulder and then on your right shoulder, maybe find that

2744
08:20:40.639 --> 08:20:45.959
you move the muscles a little bit, maybe tense the

2745
08:20:46.080 --> 08:21:12.159
muscles gently, noticing the difference in each shoulder. Your lower back,

2746
08:21:25.040 --> 08:21:28.720
the left side of your lower back and the right

2747
08:21:29.000 --> 08:21:39.560
side of your lower back, and of course that connection

2748
08:21:39.880 --> 08:21:52.119
to your buttocks and to your hips, and also moving

2749
08:21:52.400 --> 08:22:05.919
up into the middle of your back. And sometimes like

2750
08:22:06.159 --> 08:22:10.919
right now, actually when I focus on their part, when

2751
08:22:10.919 --> 08:22:15.240
I focused on my buttocks and then I focused on

2752
08:22:16.919 --> 08:22:19.560
the middle of my back, I almost felt like the

2753
08:22:19.720 --> 08:22:24.279
muscles in my lower back were being stretched very gently,

2754
08:22:28.720 --> 08:22:33.959
but just stretched a little bit. Even though I wasn't

2755
08:22:34.080 --> 08:22:42.959
doing anything to try to stretch your lower back, it

2756
08:22:43.159 --> 08:22:53.319
just seemed to happen. The feeling of very gently stretching

2757
08:22:55.439 --> 08:23:14.759
your lower back comes along. I have feeling in your chest,

2758
08:23:22.360 --> 08:23:35.759
just noticing what sensations you are experiencing in your chest

2759
08:23:36.040 --> 08:23:52.279
right now, and there's so much of the chest. Obviously

2760
08:23:52.360 --> 08:23:56.000
there's the collar bone leading to the chest. You've got

2761
08:23:56.040 --> 08:24:04.639
the chest bone, You've got the muscles in your chest.

2762
08:24:07.439 --> 08:24:13.680
Of course, if you're female, there's possibly the breasts your

2763
08:24:13.799 --> 08:24:22.119
male you've got the different well why not that different

2764
08:24:22.159 --> 08:24:22.720
these days, But.

2765
08:24:24.919 --> 08:24:26.080
There may be more.

2766
08:24:27.799 --> 08:24:34.080
Muscles at the top of the chest, but at the

2767
08:24:34.279 --> 08:24:39.159
side underneath, it's pretty much the same. Whether you're a

2768
08:24:39.240 --> 08:24:44.240
man or a woman. There's muscles there, muscles that stretch

2769
08:24:44.360 --> 08:24:49.240
out to your back as well as breast tissue. It

2770
08:24:49.400 --> 08:24:57.720
stretches and moves into your back to just being aware

2771
08:24:57.759 --> 08:25:18.319
of your chest, being with whatever feeling there is in

2772
08:25:18.439 --> 08:25:37.639
your chest. When I noticed that, I focus on my chest,

2773
08:25:42.000 --> 08:25:45.560
I feel it in my back and my upper back.

2774
08:25:47.000 --> 08:25:50.080
I mean, I guess the obvious reason would be because

2775
08:25:50.119 --> 08:25:59.880
you know, I grieve in in and it stretches my

2776
08:26:00.400 --> 08:26:11.159
chest end my back. At the same time it feels

2777
08:26:14.479 --> 08:26:26.119
it feels okay, it doesn't feel I got a little

2778
08:26:26.119 --> 08:26:32.560
bit of pain in my right chest, a little bit

2779
08:26:32.720 --> 08:26:38.799
not pain, but a little discomfort, maybe stiffness possibly, I

2780
08:26:38.919 --> 08:26:50.639
don't know. I notice my shoulders also wanting to flex

2781
08:26:50.759 --> 08:26:55.159
for some reason. I think that's probably part of my

2782
08:26:55.400 --> 08:27:06.159
upper back, that connection between my shoulders marper back. Because

2783
08:27:06.200 --> 08:27:10.720
I can move my shoulders and stretch the muscles in

2784
08:27:10.880 --> 08:27:19.159
my back, moving the shoulders backwards or up, which then

2785
08:27:19.279 --> 08:27:35.159
moves I think it's the scapulous in your back. It

2786
08:27:35.200 --> 08:27:43.119
feels quite nice. Actually, a good thing about this is

2787
08:27:43.279 --> 08:27:51.880
you can, if you want to, you can just flex

2788
08:27:52.560 --> 08:28:04.599
or stimulate the various muscles in your body gently in

2789
08:28:04.759 --> 08:28:08.639
order to get more of a sense of how they feel.

2790
08:28:15.919 --> 08:28:23.680
And when you're relaxing, when you do tense and muscle

2791
08:28:25.200 --> 08:28:27.759
and you let it go and you let it relax,

2792
08:28:29.000 --> 08:28:30.639
it relaxes.

2793
08:28:32.639 --> 08:28:33.759
Way more.

2794
08:28:35.159 --> 08:28:45.159
Than it would normally. And you have to feel that

2795
08:28:45.240 --> 08:28:49.000
you're able to do that. There's no point in doing

2796
08:28:49.080 --> 08:28:54.599
it if there's an issue with the per part of

2797
08:28:54.680 --> 08:29:01.040
your body. You need to be chan tool with yourself

2798
08:29:03.720 --> 08:29:17.240
at all times when relax in deeply, it's important to

2799
08:29:17.319 --> 08:29:33.080
be kind to yourself. As you notice your mind. How

2800
08:29:33.200 --> 08:29:42.200
much has your mind slowed down since we started this recording?

2801
08:29:58.200 --> 08:29:59.119
How come.

2802
08:30:02.919 --> 08:30:14.520
And peaceful? Use your mind right now with nothing to

2803
08:30:14.639 --> 08:30:24.520
think about and just my voice to listen to, because

2804
08:30:24.639 --> 08:30:35.560
you know the intention behind this recording is relaxation at

2805
08:30:35.599 --> 08:30:42.040
the very least for you to feel more relaxed at

2806
08:30:42.080 --> 08:30:45.439
the end of recording than you did at the beginning,

2807
08:30:50.599 --> 08:30:59.279
at the very least, for your mind to slow down

2808
08:31:02.119 --> 08:31:14.919
because your body continues to relax, because that's what you

2809
08:31:16.560 --> 08:31:36.360
want to happen. That's what you expect to happen, for

2810
08:31:36.639 --> 08:31:54.799
relaxation to fill your body, maybe calm in your mind

2811
08:31:56.319 --> 08:32:03.799
to the point of boredom. When you start maybe to

2812
08:32:09.439 --> 08:32:51.200
drift away, it's almost as if you are moving further

2813
08:32:51.360 --> 08:32:59.599
away from a body in your mind, just leaving them there,

2814
08:33:07.599 --> 08:33:11.880
kind of liking it an escape pod and the spaceship

2815
08:33:12.279 --> 08:33:15.799
and movie, a space movie. You know, when to gats

2816
08:33:15.919 --> 08:33:22.200
a little part in it sends the man far away

2817
08:33:22.599 --> 08:33:50.959
from the spaceship save to dream and continue to relax,

2818
08:34:11.159 --> 08:35:38.200
drifting so slow and pa so relax and peaceful, and

2819
08:35:38.479 --> 08:35:53.400
focusing on the feeling of those individual parts your body

2820
08:35:54.400 --> 08:35:58.479
that's relaxing.

2821
08:35:59.560 --> 08:36:09.319
M One by one, you may.

2822
08:36:11.080 --> 08:36:24.759
Find that every now and then you realize that you

2823
08:36:24.919 --> 08:36:33.560
aren't listening to my voice because your mind started to

2824
08:36:33.799 --> 08:36:49.040
imagine something different, maybe started to almost move into some

2825
08:36:49.360 --> 08:36:57.759
kind of a dreamy state. And then you become aware

2826
08:36:57.959 --> 08:37:07.200
of my voice again. And even though you may want

2827
08:37:07.439 --> 08:37:12.319
to focus on my voice. You may also wish to

2828
08:37:14.880 --> 08:37:26.439
allow your mind to just drift naturally into that space

2829
08:37:26.720 --> 08:37:50.720
of comfort and safety as you feel more comfort spreading

2830
08:37:51.119 --> 08:38:03.840
through your body like a warm blanket covering you gently,

2831
08:38:07.880 --> 08:38:26.000
keeping your body at just the perfect temperature. And even

2832
08:38:26.119 --> 08:38:38.159
if you can hear background sounds, they just don't seem

2833
08:38:38.279 --> 08:38:55.279
to matter anymore. There's that sensor. Peace spreads through your

2834
08:38:55.400 --> 08:39:09.240
mind like a gentle breeze, yet strong enough to blow

2835
08:39:09.319 --> 08:39:25.680
away all negativity, strong enough to remove from your mind

2836
08:39:28.959 --> 08:39:43.720
any anxiety or stress that was there before, and blow

2837
08:39:43.840 --> 08:39:54.720
away any other thoughts or feelings that just don't fit

2838
08:39:58.840 --> 08:40:23.759
with this as relaxation, that is feeling your body and

2839
08:40:24.080 --> 08:40:44.119
your mind. Unless you focus on your mind and count

2840
08:40:44.240 --> 08:40:50.319
down from ten down to one, and with each number

2841
08:40:50.880 --> 08:41:17.759
you hear, your mind will become slightly more relaxed, just

2842
08:41:18.240 --> 08:41:28.000
just slightly, from ten down to nine, just a slight movement,

2843
08:41:30.080 --> 08:41:42.279
from nine down to eight, just another small change in

2844
08:41:42.479 --> 08:41:53.959
how you feel. Eight down to seven. That feeling is

2845
08:41:54.479 --> 08:41:59.880
a gap, almost like a gap that starts to get

2846
08:42:00.080 --> 08:42:09.159
the wider, the gap between those feelings that you used

2847
08:42:09.200 --> 08:42:16.439
to have in your mind compared to the feelings you

2848
08:42:16.639 --> 08:42:27.880
have there growing now feelings of comfort and security and confidence,

2849
08:42:30.479 --> 08:42:36.639
and the gap becomes wider. Eight down to seven, seven

2850
08:42:36.799 --> 08:42:45.720
down to six. When you get to five, the mind

2851
08:42:45.799 --> 08:42:59.200
will start to have a certain physical sensation, most like

2852
08:42:59.319 --> 08:43:06.360
there's an outside of your head sucking the tension and

2853
08:43:06.840 --> 08:43:14.479
stress and any remaining feedings that you don't want, sucking

2854
08:43:14.599 --> 08:43:16.560
them out through your skull.

2855
08:43:22.319 --> 08:43:23.840
And in down to four.

2856
08:43:25.639 --> 08:43:32.439
You can start to really experience that sense of not

2857
08:43:32.720 --> 08:43:42.880
just emptiness, but space, a place full of fresh air,

2858
08:43:47.919 --> 08:43:54.720
place where you can stretch. It's almost as if as

2859
08:43:54.799 --> 08:43:59.880
you go down to four and three, your mind is expanding,

2860
08:44:00.560 --> 08:44:13.639
with this sense of peace and tranquility growing as it

2861
08:44:13.799 --> 08:44:21.560
moves down to When you get to one, your mind

2862
08:44:24.880 --> 08:44:37.959
just feels exactly how you want to feel, almost perfect feeling,

2863
08:44:43.799 --> 08:44:48.680
maybe the sensation that.

2864
08:44:50.279 --> 08:44:51.720
You'd like to keep.

2865
08:44:54.720 --> 08:45:05.560
A place that's safe, where nothing can affect you at all,

2866
08:45:17.240 --> 08:45:22.000
and you can stay in that that space of comfort

2867
08:45:22.040 --> 08:45:31.759
and confidence, confident in your own ability to create this

2868
08:45:32.680 --> 08:45:38.680
space and this feeling of comfort within your own mind

2869
08:45:40.279 --> 08:45:42.840
just by counting in ten.

2870
08:45:44.400 --> 08:45:45.119
Down to one.

2871
08:45:49.680 --> 08:45:54.200
And this is something that you can do yourself when

2872
08:45:54.240 --> 08:46:02.360
you're on your own time, when you can maybe sit down,

2873
08:46:03.360 --> 08:46:13.959
maybe just for a few minutes, close your eyes. It

2874
08:46:14.159 --> 08:46:17.479
just counts slowly from ten.

2875
08:46:20.240 --> 08:46:21.240
Down to one.

2876
08:46:25.439 --> 08:46:38.360
And re experience these feelings in your mind. And when

2877
08:46:38.400 --> 08:46:46.200
you feel that way in your mind, your body copies

2878
08:46:48.040 --> 08:46:58.759
your mind and the feeling is spread through your spine

2879
08:47:00.080 --> 08:47:07.720
and nervous system into every part of your body, travels

2880
08:47:08.159 --> 08:47:21.400
through your blood stream, heathing and relaxing every particle of

2881
08:47:21.560 --> 08:47:38.400
your existence. Now we can we can practice this a

2882
08:47:38.520 --> 08:47:46.639
few times before the end of the recording, and then

2883
08:47:46.680 --> 08:47:54.279
you can practice on your own. Each time you count

2884
08:47:54.400 --> 08:48:07.200
for ten about one, the feelings of comfort, calmness, deep

2885
08:48:09.240 --> 08:48:26.360
deep relaxation becomes stronger and deeper, filling your mind and

2886
08:48:26.479 --> 08:48:36.200
your brain with these positive chemicals. The spread through your body,

2887
08:48:37.759 --> 08:48:46.400
relaxing you so quickly, relaxing your whole body and mind

2888
08:48:49.360 --> 08:49:03.000
so very, very easily, just by counting ten down to one.

2889
08:49:08.119 --> 08:49:09.400
So we're gonna do now.

2890
08:49:10.240 --> 08:49:14.200
I'm gonna count from ten down to one, and I'd

2891
08:49:14.400 --> 08:49:18.720
like you to repeat the number after me. So when

2892
08:49:18.759 --> 08:49:25.720
I say ten, you can just repeat to yourself.

2893
08:49:27.080 --> 08:49:27.319
Ten.

2894
08:49:32.959 --> 08:49:42.279
Just notice, be aware of how you feel in your

2895
08:49:42.439 --> 08:49:51.959
mind and your body. Then when I say nine, you

2896
08:49:52.080 --> 08:50:07.479
can repeat to yourself nine a game, noticing the increase

2897
08:50:07.840 --> 08:50:15.599
in comfort and calmness in your mind and in your

2898
08:50:15.720 --> 08:50:22.560
body the same.

2899
08:50:22.799 --> 08:50:24.080
Want to say eight.

2900
08:50:26.840 --> 08:50:38.479
When I say seven, six, when I say five, four,

2901
08:50:42.439 --> 08:50:54.400
when I say three, two, and lastly when I say one,

2902
08:50:56.799 --> 08:50:58.919
you can be that number.

2903
08:51:06.400 --> 08:51:06.520
Now.

2904
08:51:06.639 --> 08:51:12.200
Of course, when you do this on your own, without

2905
08:51:12.319 --> 08:51:17.319
listening to me, you can say the numbers or whatever

2906
08:51:18.959 --> 08:51:24.080
speed that you feel is necessary.

2907
08:51:25.040 --> 08:51:28.319
For you, so you can adapt.

2908
08:51:30.680 --> 08:51:34.159
So if you feel you want to say the numbers

2909
08:51:34.439 --> 08:51:41.279
ten down to one faster than I do, then you

2910
08:51:41.360 --> 08:51:45.119
go ahead and do that. Or if you feel when

2911
08:51:45.159 --> 08:51:48.919
you do it yourself that you'd like to have more

2912
08:51:50.759 --> 08:51:57.759
more space between the numbers, maybe take a lot longer.

2913
08:51:58.599 --> 08:51:59.919
To get from ten.

2914
08:52:01.919 --> 08:52:10.119
All the way down to one, that's your choice also

2915
08:52:10.400 --> 08:52:22.599
to do. So I'm gonna count from ten.

2916
08:52:22.599 --> 08:52:30.319
Down to one, and when I get to one.

2917
08:52:31.520 --> 08:52:37.040
That will be the end of this recording. And let's

2918
08:52:37.080 --> 08:52:41.040
of course you're listening with music, and the music will

2919
08:52:41.119 --> 08:55:56.799
continue ten nine eight fo.

2920
08:55:00.279 --> 08:55:04.680
As at.

2921
08:57:21.200 --> 08:58:47.080
Twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three.

2922
08:58:51.919 --> 08:59:07.959
Two one. Now open your.

2923
08:59:07.919 --> 08:59:18.520
Eyes, noticing how you physically feel having counted down from

2924
08:59:18.599 --> 08:59:26.599
twenty to one, allowing stress and tension to leave through

2925
08:59:26.639 --> 08:59:31.119
your fingertips and your toes. And as you focus on

2926
08:59:31.240 --> 08:59:38.560
your fingertips maybe they feel a little bit tingly, which

2927
08:59:38.639 --> 08:59:43.799
is I suppose quite understanding, considering the tension has been

2928
08:59:44.560 --> 08:59:53.880
exiting your body through your fingertips. So now I'm going

2929
08:59:53.959 --> 08:59:56.959
to count from twenty down to one again. This time

2930
09:00:01.279 --> 09:00:06.919
you need to feel relief of tension and stress and

2931
09:00:07.000 --> 09:00:08.040
the anxiety that.

2932
09:00:08.080 --> 09:00:08.560
You may have.

2933
09:00:13.200 --> 09:00:21.560
Leaving through your stomach. Just leaving through your stomach, almost

2934
09:00:21.639 --> 09:00:27.400
as if it's just releasing the hole of your stomach

2935
09:00:28.200 --> 09:00:32.799
and enable to just above your chest or below your

2936
09:00:32.880 --> 09:00:36.959
chest rather so surrounding your belly on an area, the

2937
09:00:37.119 --> 09:00:43.000
whole area you can feel the tension of your body

2938
09:00:43.599 --> 09:00:49.119
or wherever's left just releasing from the area, and you

2939
09:00:49.240 --> 09:00:51.119
may notice that your stomach will.

2940
09:00:51.000 --> 09:00:55.439
Become very relaxed. As I count down.

2941
09:00:56.240 --> 09:02:03.840
From twenty down to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight,

2942
09:02:07.919 --> 09:02:25.200
seven six by ooh three.

2943
09:02:29.479 --> 09:02:41.639
Two what And you can open your eyes again if

2944
09:02:41.639 --> 09:02:43.799
you choose, but you can just keep them.

2945
09:02:43.720 --> 09:02:50.639
Closed because it feels relaxing. Just notice saying your stomach, gills.

2946
09:02:52.200 --> 09:02:55.959
Notice there's your focus. Just do a little scared of

2947
09:02:56.080 --> 09:03:05.279
your body's not to saying your body else. Focusing on

2948
09:03:05.360 --> 09:03:12.400
the upper body in your back, chest, stomach, legs, arms, hands, feet,

2949
09:03:15.439 --> 09:03:22.319
just noticing, and you know you may start to feel

2950
09:03:24.840 --> 09:03:29.080
more a sense of tiredness, which may be the reason

2951
09:03:29.159 --> 09:03:33.279
you listening to this according because you.

2952
09:03:34.759 --> 09:03:35.119
Like to.

2953
09:03:36.759 --> 09:03:39.439
Let go completely of everything.

2954
09:03:41.439 --> 09:03:42.520
And dreat.

2955
09:03:43.799 --> 09:03:49.000
Moth into a nice natural, calm.

2956
09:03:49.040 --> 09:04:00.599
Relaxing sleep. So now, because.

2957
09:04:03.279 --> 09:04:10.040
On your forehead, and if you choose, you can incorporate

2958
09:04:10.119 --> 09:04:15.040
your eyes in this focus as well. Your forehead and

2959
09:04:15.159 --> 09:04:21.319
your eyes. It's that whole area basically almost as if

2960
09:04:21.400 --> 09:04:23.400
you were wearing a mask, you.

2961
09:04:23.439 --> 09:04:23.959
Know, like a.

2962
09:04:25.880 --> 09:04:27.720
I don't know, a Batman mask.

2963
09:04:27.560 --> 09:04:29.040
Or something, or.

2964
09:04:31.119 --> 09:04:34.080
I'm trying to zorrow or something, you know, the kind

2965
09:04:34.119 --> 09:04:37.240
of mask that covers your eyes but also covers quite

2966
09:04:37.279 --> 09:04:44.119
a lot of the forehead. Focusing on that area because

2967
09:04:44.159 --> 09:04:47.439
that's the area that we're now going to release tension

2968
09:04:47.680 --> 09:04:53.200
and stress from your mind and your brain. From your mind,

2969
09:04:53.319 --> 09:04:56.919
and any tension that you may have with meaning in

2970
09:04:57.000 --> 09:05:03.919
your face, in your neck, duel, your eyes, your forehead,

2971
09:05:04.720 --> 09:05:11.040
or your scalp. So basically any tension within your head area,

2972
09:05:11.759 --> 09:05:13.240
including your mind.

2973
09:05:13.680 --> 09:05:14.720
And your breath.

2974
09:05:18.360 --> 09:05:22.880
That's going to be released through your forehead and your eyes.

2975
09:05:26.840 --> 09:05:28.520
As I count down again.

2976
09:05:28.360 --> 09:06:54.000
From twenty down to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five.

2977
09:06:59.319 --> 09:07:04.000
Four three.

2978
09:07:09.440 --> 09:07:13.599
Yeah, what.

2979
09:07:22.080 --> 09:07:30.120
Noticing And she scanned your face, the jure, your eyes,

2980
09:07:31.480 --> 09:07:38.800
the cheap things, your ears, your forehead, your scalp.

2981
09:07:40.040 --> 09:07:43.680
Your neck, the back of your neck, in the front

2982
09:07:43.760 --> 09:07:47.559
of your neck, the side of your neck, and the throat.

2983
09:07:49.080 --> 09:07:50.720
Hm m hmmm.

2984
09:07:53.879 --> 09:07:54.480
Leticine.

2985
09:07:55.760 --> 09:08:04.959
Being aware of the comfort increased fin in that rennaxation,

2986
09:08:07.080 --> 09:08:11.959
not just in my head and neck and mind, also

2987
09:08:12.480 --> 09:08:21.919
the rest of your body. Just notice how loose and

2988
09:08:22.239 --> 09:08:25.919
calm you feel, and how easily.

2989
09:08:27.639 --> 09:08:29.199
It is to just let go.

2990
09:08:32.000 --> 09:08:47.720
Completely, let go completely, how easily.

2991
09:08:55.400 --> 09:08:57.120
That's what I'm going to do now, is.

2992
09:08:58.599 --> 09:09:00.559
To focus on the top of your head.

2993
09:09:06.000 --> 09:09:07.360
That we're gonna allow.

2994
09:09:08.720 --> 09:09:17.040
Every last piece of tension or stress that might be

2995
09:09:17.400 --> 09:09:21.919
lingering or hiding in your body or mind.

2996
09:09:22.239 --> 09:09:23.040
Of my head.

2997
09:09:24.360 --> 09:09:24.760
To just.

2998
09:09:26.519 --> 09:09:29.919
Be sucked out the top of your head.

2999
09:09:32.319 --> 09:09:32.879
At least.

3000
09:09:36.599 --> 09:09:40.680
And yeah, I want to suck down into the clouds.

3001
09:09:43.319 --> 09:09:48.160
Imagine a people, cloud of God your head. It's like

3002
09:09:48.279 --> 09:09:50.440
a whirlpool, and this is.

3003
09:09:50.519 --> 09:09:55.360
Gonna suck that attension how the top of your head

3004
09:09:57.760 --> 09:09:58.919
and just take you away.

3005
09:10:01.040 --> 09:10:07.080
Did your focus Imagine.

3006
09:10:06.559 --> 09:10:11.559
An opening on the top of your head with a tension.

3007
09:10:11.559 --> 09:10:17.360
Stress and in remaining issues, maybe worries of concerns that

3008
09:10:17.519 --> 09:10:20.839
have no use to you now can.

3009
09:10:20.919 --> 09:10:23.639
All be sucked down at the top of your head.

3010
09:10:25.120 --> 09:10:31.080
And taken away. As I count down again from twenty

3011
09:10:31.480 --> 09:11:11.559
down to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen fifty

3012
09:11:17.239 --> 09:12:24.919
four th twowelve, eleven, nine eight seven six by four three.

3013
09:12:29.199 --> 09:12:35.080
J wa.

3014
09:12:45.120 --> 09:13:01.239
Bream, I'm noticing how you feel every life stink calm

3015
09:13:03.239 --> 09:13:06.519
you physically and mentally feel.

3016
09:13:07.120 --> 09:13:15.239
Right now, how peace or.

3017
09:13:17.400 --> 09:13:24.160
Your mind feels. It feels so nice to just let go,

3018
09:13:26.400 --> 09:13:35.680
to give yourself some space to breathe easily, to think calmly,

3019
09:13:40.800 --> 09:13:45.919
just to take a break from all that pointless worry

3020
09:13:47.480 --> 09:13:52.080
concerns about things that you don't need to think about.

3021
09:13:54.959 --> 09:14:02.319
Right now, because this is your time to let go.

3022
09:14:03.680 --> 09:14:06.519
This is your space to enjoy.

3023
09:14:07.760 --> 09:14:16.959
Feeling deeply relaxed, peaceful in your mind, relaxed in your body.

3024
09:14:20.120 --> 09:14:29.040
I can feel so good, so nice to just not

3025
09:14:29.319 --> 09:14:38.400
have to do anything to be able to really enjoy

3026
09:14:40.120 --> 09:14:48.879
that serenity that comes and letting go completely that peacefulness

3027
09:14:49.120 --> 09:14:50.120
that comes with.

3028
09:14:56.839 --> 09:14:58.199
Being in this.

3029
09:15:00.120 --> 09:15:02.160
Peaceful space.

3030
09:15:06.639 --> 09:15:11.239
And you can keep this sense of calmness for as

3031
09:15:11.360 --> 09:15:12.279
long as.

3032
09:15:12.239 --> 09:15:25.239
You choose, if you choose to drift on into a deep,

3033
09:15:26.160 --> 09:15:34.879
healing natural sleep, and you can do that, It's completely

3034
09:15:35.559 --> 09:15:42.919
up to you, and you can keep this feeling of

3035
09:15:43.120 --> 09:15:45.639
calmness physically.

3036
09:15:45.360 --> 09:15:49.000
Mean in your mind, as long as you.

3037
09:15:49.199 --> 09:16:06.120
Choose to feel completely relaxed lately, relax, And I'd like

3038
09:16:06.239 --> 09:16:12.279
you to make up your mind that you're going to relax.

3039
09:16:20.919 --> 09:16:24.199
I want to explore that with you. What it feels

3040
09:16:24.360 --> 09:16:31.160
like when you actually decide that you're going to relax,

3041
09:16:32.839 --> 09:16:39.440
not forcing yourself, but giving yourself that. Yes, it is

3042
09:16:39.519 --> 09:16:44.519
a command, really, isn't it. When you're telling yourself relax

3043
09:16:46.680 --> 09:16:51.360
in a gentle but firm way that only.

3044
09:16:51.440 --> 09:16:52.559
You can really.

3045
09:16:53.879 --> 09:16:57.319
Tell yourself in that way. You can't really have someone

3046
09:16:57.360 --> 09:17:00.879
else saying to you, now it relax, relax.

3047
09:17:01.559 --> 09:17:05.599
You know it needs to be gentle, but you can't.

3048
09:17:05.760 --> 09:17:12.879
Someone else can't really have the same the same kind

3049
09:17:12.959 --> 09:17:22.599
of influence or power that you have over your own physicality,

3050
09:17:23.440 --> 09:17:32.440
over how you feel, because when you say it to

3051
09:17:32.559 --> 09:17:40.959
yourself it means more. It's personal, and your brain and

3052
09:17:41.160 --> 09:17:46.480
your unconscious mind and your body listens to what you say.

3053
09:17:48.800 --> 09:17:52.239
So for example, we'll test it out and do a

3054
09:17:52.279 --> 09:17:54.519
little test, a few little tests.

3055
09:17:54.120 --> 09:17:57.800
Along the way, and you can get more of an.

3056
09:17:57.760 --> 09:18:04.319
Idea of the force, a positive force that you can

3057
09:18:04.480 --> 09:18:12.000
have in creating a sense of comfort and relaxation in

3058
09:18:12.120 --> 09:18:15.800
your body and your mind quite quickly.

3059
09:18:17.239 --> 09:18:20.559
Just by you telling yourself.

3060
09:18:21.919 --> 09:18:30.040
To relax. So IM want to start by it's focused

3061
09:18:30.080 --> 09:18:36.080
on your hands. Focus on your hands and just tell

3062
09:18:36.120 --> 09:18:42.879
your hands to relax. Just say relax. As you focus

3063
09:18:42.959 --> 09:18:49.160
on your hands, you could say my hands are relaxed,

3064
09:18:50.000 --> 09:18:54.160
or I want my hands to relax. I think if

3065
09:18:54.199 --> 09:19:00.919
you actually do it directly by focusing and imagining that

3066
09:19:01.000 --> 09:19:04.319
your hands, can you hear what you're saying.

3067
09:19:04.480 --> 09:19:07.440
You know they've got little ears, which is a little weird.

3068
09:19:10.040 --> 09:19:20.480
So talking to your hands and just say relax, no.

3069
09:19:20.599 --> 09:19:28.760
Disin your hands, start to relax.

3070
09:19:41.160 --> 09:19:44.639
Now focus on your eyes and tell your eyes to relax.

3071
09:19:45.760 --> 09:19:50.599
You're just saying the same word relax, and find a

3072
09:19:50.800 --> 09:19:53.519
right tone for you.

3073
09:19:56.080 --> 09:19:57.360
You know, I might say.

3074
09:19:57.720 --> 09:20:07.000
Relax, but you you might say relax or relax. You know,

3075
09:20:07.279 --> 09:20:12.959
you might say it differently to yourself, and that's important

3076
09:20:13.839 --> 09:20:19.879
for you to gauge what feels right for you. You

3077
09:20:20.120 --> 09:20:25.319
just tell your eyes to relax, whilst focusing on your eyes,

3078
09:20:25.839 --> 09:20:30.519
your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your eyebrows, and

3079
09:20:30.800 --> 09:20:37.000
just tell your eyes directly relax.

3080
09:20:38.879 --> 09:20:39.040
Now.

3081
09:21:05.879 --> 09:21:16.639
Now, I just did that myself, and sometimes you may feel.

3082
09:21:16.480 --> 09:21:18.480
That you need a bit more time.

3083
09:21:20.519 --> 09:21:23.760
Or the different parts to relax, you know, because I

3084
09:21:23.839 --> 09:21:28.760
start talking again and maybe that part hasn't relaxed fully.

3085
09:21:29.720 --> 09:21:31.879
But what will happen is it will just continue to

3086
09:21:32.000 --> 09:21:36.720
relax even though I'm talking. And that's happening with my eyes.

3087
09:21:39.680 --> 09:21:44.279
Something else I noticed is when I started focusing on

3088
09:21:44.360 --> 09:21:47.760
my eyes, that actually almost became.

3089
09:21:47.440 --> 09:21:49.639
They got worse before they got better in a way.

3090
09:21:50.360 --> 09:21:53.440
So I felt a degree of tension growing in my

3091
09:21:53.559 --> 09:21:59.480
eyes and then disappearing. So I think what that was

3092
09:21:59.599 --> 09:22:04.800
really it's just me becoming more aware of the tension

3093
09:22:05.919 --> 09:22:10.160
that was already dead that I wasn't I wasn't focused

3094
09:22:10.199 --> 09:22:15.360
on the people, so I wasn't really acknowledging it or.

3095
09:22:16.959 --> 09:22:18.199
Am really.

3096
09:22:19.559 --> 09:22:32.919
Conscious to those feelings. Yeah, my eyes is still continuing

3097
09:22:32.959 --> 09:22:39.480
to relax as well as my hands. Actually, my hands

3098
09:22:39.519 --> 09:22:45.400
have got a certain kind of energy, like not buzzing,

3099
09:22:45.639 --> 09:22:46.440
but I can.

3100
09:22:46.400 --> 09:22:46.720
Kind of.

3101
09:22:48.839 --> 09:22:54.680
I feel a degree of energy in my hands. Maybe

3102
09:22:54.760 --> 09:23:00.040
that's where the tension is being released. Maybe that's causing.

3103
09:22:59.760 --> 09:23:09.480
That, and it's part I think you should focus.

3104
09:23:09.239 --> 09:23:10.160
On the back of the neck.

3105
09:23:10.879 --> 09:23:12.599
That's a part of which quite often.

3106
09:23:14.400 --> 09:23:17.360
Or for me, holds tension. I don't know about for yourself.

3107
09:23:18.480 --> 09:23:22.720
I think it's quite a standard place where tension is

3108
09:23:22.839 --> 09:23:23.720
sometimes held.

3109
09:23:25.279 --> 09:23:29.120
So and I'm doing it exactly what.

3110
09:23:29.199 --> 09:23:31.720
You're doing as you do it as well, So I'm

3111
09:23:31.760 --> 09:23:35.239
telling my body parts to relax as well.

3112
09:23:36.000 --> 09:23:38.160
So if you tell your neck at the back of your.

3113
09:23:38.120 --> 09:23:40.720
Neck, focus on the back of your neck, and just

3114
09:23:40.839 --> 09:23:47.319
say relax in your own words.

3115
09:23:47.120 --> 09:23:49.319
In your own tone, in your own voice.

3116
09:23:49.959 --> 09:23:52.040
You can say out loud, or you can just say

3117
09:23:52.040 --> 09:23:57.519
it to yourself internally. But you're focusing, and you're saying

3118
09:23:57.599 --> 09:24:03.239
it literally to this mac and Munich.

3119
09:24:03.160 --> 09:24:09.519
Nd hear what are you're saying? So do you think

3120
09:24:09.559 --> 09:24:14.440
now to say the thanks? So that unique and I'll

3121
09:24:14.480 --> 09:24:55.839
do the same. And what I met is and you

3122
09:24:56.080 --> 09:24:57.760
may have that similar thing.

3123
09:24:59.120 --> 09:25:02.040
Is even though I was focusing on the back of

3124
09:25:02.120 --> 09:25:02.480
the neck.

3125
09:25:07.519 --> 09:25:09.879
Other parts started.

3126
09:25:09.480 --> 09:25:15.720
To I don't know, showed themselves to me or maybe

3127
09:25:15.919 --> 09:25:18.559
because they want to be relaxed as well. But I

3128
09:25:18.720 --> 09:25:22.800
started noticing the feelings in my shoulders, attention in my

3129
09:25:22.919 --> 09:25:24.680
shoulders and in my upper back.

3130
09:25:27.760 --> 09:25:31.879
Whether that was because my back of my neck was

3131
09:25:32.000 --> 09:25:34.839
saying I'm pretty much okay.

3132
09:25:36.440 --> 09:25:38.440
It's the other parts that need.

3133
09:25:38.360 --> 09:25:48.160
Attention, but my low back of my neck is still relaxing.

3134
09:25:49.639 --> 09:25:54.440
But I just became aware of other parts that needed attention.

3135
09:25:56.680 --> 09:26:01.639
Now, this might happen, and it's not. It doesn't mean

3136
09:26:01.720 --> 09:26:02.800
that it's going any wrong.

3137
09:26:02.919 --> 09:26:08.639
It just means you're being notified of more places.

3138
09:26:09.360 --> 09:26:11.279
But also want to feel relaxed.

3139
09:26:14.559 --> 09:26:16.279
So I'm going to focus on.

3140
09:26:16.720 --> 09:26:20.040
My other bank. So you can do the same.

3141
09:26:21.800 --> 09:26:23.319
Even if you don't have any.

3142
09:26:24.760 --> 09:26:28.239
Feelings of tension that are obvious in your upper bank,

3143
09:26:30.160 --> 09:26:35.040
you just focus on your back and the whole area

3144
09:26:35.239 --> 09:26:37.040
from the shoulder blades.

3145
09:26:36.839 --> 09:26:40.199
Down to the middle of your back.

3146
09:26:40.440 --> 09:26:44.519
And your spine. And with me, it's more the shoulder

3147
09:26:44.599 --> 09:26:54.440
blades that are Yeah, that's the parts that we sort

3148
09:26:54.480 --> 09:27:01.760
of giving me the nod that needs relaxing themselves. To

3149
09:27:01.959 --> 09:27:05.279
ask that part to relax, and you can do the

3150
09:27:05.360 --> 09:27:32.400
same now relapse in upper back. There's something strange happened there.

3151
09:27:32.919 --> 09:27:33.199
And this.

3152
09:27:34.680 --> 09:27:35.559
Often happens.

3153
09:27:35.599 --> 09:27:36.279
I've been doing this.

3154
09:27:36.440 --> 09:27:45.919
For sixteen years or something, and often one surprised.

3155
09:27:46.839 --> 09:27:48.040
Amaze bring you back.

3156
09:27:50.360 --> 09:27:51.400
It can be a feeling.

3157
09:27:52.879 --> 09:27:53.599
So when I was.

3158
09:27:54.120 --> 09:27:57.279
Focusing on the back of my neck, my other back

3159
09:27:57.559 --> 09:28:02.720
was starting to feel quite stressed and in need of attention.

3160
09:28:05.160 --> 09:28:08.199
As soon as I started talking to you about my

3161
09:28:08.400 --> 09:28:13.279
upper back and talking about, you know, getting ready to

3162
09:28:13.599 --> 09:28:18.360
ask the opper bank to relax, why the back already

3163
09:28:18.480 --> 09:28:24.199
started to relax. It's almost as if it doesn't need

3164
09:28:24.400 --> 09:28:34.400
to hear the words, just needs attention, just needs to

3165
09:28:34.440 --> 09:28:47.839
be noticed. That is something that often happens in this

3166
09:28:48.800 --> 09:28:56.279
type of situation is when you start to relax a

3167
09:28:56.360 --> 09:28:56.760
couple of.

3168
09:28:56.800 --> 09:28:59.720
Parts of your body, as we've done.

3169
09:28:59.599 --> 09:29:00.319
With A and.

3170
09:29:01.800 --> 09:29:04.199
The eyes and the eyelids.

3171
09:29:05.440 --> 09:29:12.400
And now back of the neck, top of the bag,

3172
09:29:14.519 --> 09:29:16.279
the bad the.

3173
09:29:16.360 --> 09:29:22.959
Rest of the body seems to just take notice and

3174
09:29:23.199 --> 09:29:29.160
decide in its own way to start relaxing.

3175
09:29:30.959 --> 09:29:32.639
Other parts of your body.

3176
09:29:33.040 --> 09:29:33.879
Start to just.

3177
09:29:35.639 --> 09:29:42.959
Become looser. I suppose it's kind of like a bit

3178
09:29:43.000 --> 09:29:47.559
of an avalanche, you know, the little ball starts rolling

3179
09:29:47.720 --> 09:29:49.239
and before you know it.

3180
09:29:49.360 --> 09:29:52.519
The whole of your body is completely relaxed and all.

3181
09:30:01.720 --> 09:30:09.360
And if you focus on your face, you focus on

3182
09:30:09.440 --> 09:30:17.720
your eyes, the eyelids, the eyebrowns, and the muscles.

3183
09:30:17.720 --> 09:30:24.480
Around your eyes, and then you start to.

3184
09:30:24.599 --> 09:30:29.480
Notice that your forehead is more relaxed than it was.

3185
09:30:31.519 --> 09:30:36.879
Maybe your face is more relaxed. I would say my

3186
09:30:37.199 --> 09:30:38.160
entire face is.

3187
09:30:39.360 --> 09:30:41.080
A lot more relaxed than us.

3188
09:30:52.400 --> 09:30:55.480
So we're going to focus now on your shoulders.

3189
09:30:57.800 --> 09:31:03.160
It came just like before. Just tell your shoulders. You

3190
09:31:03.279 --> 09:31:05.239
can't do them in the Bitually you can do the

3191
09:31:05.400 --> 09:31:09.639
right shoulder and your shoulder. I just didn't do both

3192
09:31:09.680 --> 09:31:14.680
at the same time. Just tell your shoulders as you

3193
09:31:14.879 --> 09:31:16.639
focus on them in your mind.

3194
09:31:17.720 --> 09:31:20.639
Focus somehow and you feel maybe.

3195
09:31:21.680 --> 09:31:28.319
You can see them in your mind's eye. Just tell

3196
09:31:28.360 --> 09:32:12.599
your shoulders to relax as nice as they relax.

3197
09:32:23.040 --> 09:32:31.400
But I didn't notice, especially with my bank, is the

3198
09:32:31.559 --> 09:32:37.400
connection between the different parts. The bank is shuts the

3199
09:32:37.599 --> 09:32:47.800
neck being reconnected and being such a large part of

3200
09:32:47.879 --> 09:32:52.199
your body, it's always.

3201
09:32:52.040 --> 09:32:54.199
Hard to separate them from each other.

3202
09:33:00.120 --> 09:33:02.639
Our back is starting to relax on the same.

3203
09:33:08.680 --> 09:33:13.279
Maybe are going too slow, and that could be.

3204
09:33:13.319 --> 09:33:19.599
An issue because we will go at different speeds. And

3205
09:33:20.839 --> 09:33:23.959
the idea of giving that this recording was for you

3206
09:33:24.160 --> 09:33:25.680
to be able to just say to.

3207
09:33:25.760 --> 09:33:42.559
Yourself, relax without focusing on any particular parts of the body.

3208
09:33:44.839 --> 09:33:47.680
Because when you know that tenning your.

3209
09:33:47.879 --> 09:34:01.239
Hands to relax, your hands relax, you tell your eyelids,

3210
09:34:02.680 --> 09:34:06.199
your eyes and muscles around.

3211
09:34:05.919 --> 09:34:15.360
Your eyes and your eyebrows to relax and they relax.

3212
09:34:21.360 --> 09:34:23.680
To back up your neck.

3213
09:34:26.839 --> 09:35:01.879
To relax, and it relaxes until you're upper back to relax, dips.

3214
09:35:09.319 --> 09:35:11.000
Till your shoulders.

3215
09:35:12.400 --> 09:35:13.400
To rights.

3216
09:35:23.839 --> 09:35:24.239
The r.

3217
09:35:48.000 --> 09:35:53.760
When you tell your hands to relax and relaxed, continued.

3218
09:35:54.959 --> 09:35:55.440
To relate.

3219
09:36:01.400 --> 09:36:07.040
And you told your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes,

3220
09:36:08.040 --> 09:36:12.919
your money browns to relax. They relaxed.

3221
09:36:16.480 --> 09:36:29.959
And you told at the back of your necks, in

3222
09:36:30.040 --> 09:36:30.680
the back of your.

3223
09:36:30.639 --> 09:36:36.360
Neck and told it to the lace.

3224
09:36:40.559 --> 09:36:56.760
Relaxed, continue to relax, and you told your alp back

3225
09:37:00.279 --> 09:37:18.440
to relax. It relaxed, team to relax. That's what you shoulders.

3226
09:37:20.519 --> 09:37:27.319
Till your shoulders to relax, dus relaxed.

3227
09:37:28.519 --> 09:37:34.879
To relax.

3228
09:37:40.519 --> 09:37:45.559
And it's not just that, it's.

3229
09:37:48.199 --> 09:37:52.599
But the rest of your body is also been listening.

3230
09:37:54.480 --> 09:37:57.800
The reaxation has been spreading.

3231
09:37:59.360 --> 09:37:59.680
Something.

3232
09:37:59.760 --> 09:38:06.879
You eyes to your laxation spread to your forehead, around

3233
09:38:07.040 --> 09:38:07.919
your face.

3234
09:38:07.919 --> 09:38:21.279
Into your skin, into your jaw, on to the front,

3235
09:38:21.360 --> 09:38:25.400
to the side of your knack. Hold me down your

3236
09:38:25.639 --> 09:38:38.480
chest and stuff and laxed hands and shoulders. It up

3237
09:38:39.959 --> 09:38:48.800
through your arms, spreads your arms upper arm, elbow to

3238
09:38:48.879 --> 09:38:49.599
your wrists.

3239
09:38:53.239 --> 09:38:53.720
Let you know.

3240
09:39:05.800 --> 09:39:12.959
It's just start set.

3241
09:39:14.800 --> 09:40:19.680
Yet the sign what your body, that's what you mind.

3242
09:40:33.199 --> 09:41:12.279
Peaceful cheese, peace, not.

3243
09:41:17.839 --> 09:41:19.559
Way s peace.

3244
09:41:29.400 --> 09:41:59.680
Peas which.

3245
09:42:01.080 --> 09:42:21.440
To you said to you, I need you said this one.

3246
09:42:24.680 --> 09:42:25.400
Just put your.

3247
09:42:25.440 --> 09:43:04.639
Son, said Sam.

3248
09:43:04.239 --> 09:43:24.919
Spl Us to your boy.

3249
09:43:52.040 --> 09:44:35.559
To stop. Yeah, starting now up the chiny.

3250
09:44:42.599 --> 09:45:58.400
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