June 25, 2025

(no music) (10 hours) And he was Yellow | LMBYTS #1381 | Jason Newland | 24th June 2025

(no music) (10 hours) And he was Yellow | LMBYTS #1381 | Jason Newland | 24th June 2025
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Hello, and welcome to jasondewland dot com. My name is

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Jason Newland. I hope you are well. Hi, so oh god,

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no idea? What today is? How it's Tuesday? I don't

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know what the day is. Is it a twenty second

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or something like that of June twenty twenty five, I'm

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not really sure. Please only listen when you can safely

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close your eyes. This is let me bore you to sleep.

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My name is Jason Newland. Oh got itchy leg? I

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think I might have been bitten by a gnat? Okay,

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it's flease, Okay, who I've been?

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It's probably been the busiest five days I've had for

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a very very very long time, as far as.

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I suppose you could call it outside activities. You know,

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I'm busy sometimes making recordings, but not this week. I

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haven't been, so I'm gonna I'm gonna tell you about it.

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First of all, my website is back, so apologies to

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anyone that were annoyed for the website going, but it's

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now back as it was. I'm just going to have

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to do a little feud, little checks to make sure

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it's as exactly how it was, but it is back online.

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Jason nuland dot com and the yeah, that's done. I

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haven't made a recording, according to my web I don't know.

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I'm losing track. To be fair, I did let me

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boy a Q and A Friday on Friday, and I

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think I did a deep sleep whisper recording afterwards later

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on in the day, I think, and then no, I

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don't think i'd have done this Saturday. So basically, here's

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what's happened. I'm going to talk about a medical situation,

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but I'm not going to go into information about the

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medical condition. Okay, so this is going to involve hospitals

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and stuff, so if that's might not be the most relaxing,

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most relaxing thing to tell you to talk about, but

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you know, I like to tell you what's going on

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in my life as well. But at the same time,

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I'm not going to I'm not going to go all

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deep and serious with this, although it has been a

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very very serious situation. So you know, it involves medical

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and I'm going to talk about a little bit about

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medical stuff, but not really if you know what I mean.

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But I will be talking about hospitals because that's where

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I've been every day for the last five days, not

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for me, but for someone else. So it all started

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in nineteen seventy when I was born. Now it's so

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my neighbor. He's having his new bathroom done. And I

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didn't see him last week pretty much all week because

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he's having his bathroom done and he's used to having

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his own space. So really the fact that he had

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people coming and going all week, didn't really see him,

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and I didn't bother him, you know, I didn't really

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knock on his door because I could see on the

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camera that he was in and out and he was fine,

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and they were all in and out on the I

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got a door camera in and out doing the building work.

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So on Friday evening, when all the builders had finished,

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I knocked on his door to see how he's getting on.

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I mean, I say evening. It's still light outside, so

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probably pretty about o'clock seven, eight seven ish, you know,

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six seven, and this is Friday. It's now Tuesday evening,

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and he opened the door. I just got in from

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the sun. I mean, I've just been outside and it

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was still sunny or bright anyway, maybe not Sunday, it

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was still still very bright outside. So everything looks a

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bit weird when when I get inside after being outside,

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especially with these glasses because they're tinted glasses, so it

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makes everything a little bit of a weird kind of

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visual for a short while. Plus my eyesight's it's not

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as good as it used to be. Well, my friend,

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my neighbor. He's my friend as well, but just use

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the word neighbor. I guess it's probably classes with me

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more as a friend now. But he opened the door,

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so I just explained my relationship with him. It's friends

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with benefits. No, No, it's neighbors with benefits. No, it's

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a he's quite elderly, he's nearly seventy eight. I help

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him out with some stuff, so paying bills, when he

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gets letters, making phone calls, I help him with that stuff,

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just stuff because he's hearing it's not great. So I

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help him out with stuff where he you know, just general.

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I'm not his career, but I just try and help

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him when he needs help. And he hard never asks

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for help all for the first nine years, but over

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the last year he's been a bit more. I mean

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he's asked. He asked me for help in the past,

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but only for little bits and bobs. He normally locks

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himself out, or he's lost his debit card things like that,

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or if he looked, Yeah, he's had my telephone number

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for a long time, so he's locked himself in a

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couple of times where he couldn't open the lock. So

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you know, I was talking to him through the letterbox

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even though he both were on the phone as well,

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which is weird. And that was I've actually did a

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podcast about that episode. And that was strange because the

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council who I phoned would not talk to me because

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I'm not him. Okay, So I phone up saying, my

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elderly neighbor is a locked inside his flat. He needs

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to leave his home, but he can't open the door

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because the door is jammed. The lock was jammed, so

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it needed locksmith. And they said, well, who is he?

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I said who he was? And he said who are

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you to him? I said, I'm his neighbor. And then

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they said, well, we can't talk to you. I said,

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you are talking to me. Nope, we can't talk to you.

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We have to talk to him. So I literally had

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I said, well, she said we'll phone him up. I said,

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but you can phone him up. So they did phone

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him up. He couldn't hear him. So they phoned me

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up and they said, can you please put me can

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you put the phone through the letterbox so he can

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talk to us? So it was weird anyway. That so

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a few little things like that. I ended up putting

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his fish and chips through the letterbox because he couldn't

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get out to get any food. That's a weird one.

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It's a shared memory though, So Friday evening he opens

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a door. Now he's got very froll lately, but he's again,

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he's seventy eight. He's not a big eater. He doesn't drink,

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doesn't smoke, doesn't He's probably one of the most enthusiastic

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people I've ever met regarding sport, regarding anything, and I've

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ever met anyone possibly of any age, that was so

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enthusiastic about what they love. And he loves sport, I

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mean all sport. Boxing's not too bothered about. That's the

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one I love. But he knows about boxing, but not

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a huge amount. But when it comes to football, rugby, cricket,

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absolutely knows. There don't seem to be anything you don't know,

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and he follows all of it. He'll actually he'll listen

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to one spot on the radio. He'll watch one sport

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on the TV and he'll have another one playing on

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his tablet, like three different sports at the same time.

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It's just like, I don't know how he does it.

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It's not something I could do. But he loves it.

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And that's what's so sad about the situation because he

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loves being alive. Right, Okay again, I'm not going to

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go any I want to go into deep stuff. But

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he loves he's got energy, he's got he's enthusiastic about life,

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constantly looking forward to the next day because the rugby's on,

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or the crickets on, or the football match. He's looking

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forward to that. He's looking forward to the weekend every

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week because that's when a lot of sport is on television.

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So you know, I'm just I'm trying to get across that.

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He's really nice, very chatty, very chatty, but he's a

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really nice person. It's a kind and gentle person. But

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as probably I am me sitting his ways like a

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lot of people are. I guess I am as well

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in a lot of ways, probably in maybe more ways

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than he is. To be fair, and he's independent, and

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he does not like being does not like people interfering

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with his business, and who does. To be honest, I

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think anyone does, really do they. However, I'm laughing just

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because it put me in a very difficult situation. There's

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nothing funny at all about this situation. There's zero humor.

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But I'll probably get some out of it. But just

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remember I'm not mocking him or his situation at all.

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That's not what I'm doing. But I will perhaps laugh

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at some of the things that happened. So open a door,

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and literally I couldn't keep my eyes open because it

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was so bright. I thought he had some kind of

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light shining out of his flat, and I thought my

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glasses were turning brown again, like the lenses, and I

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know what's going on. So I took my glasses off,

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and it wasn't coming from there, it was coming from him.

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He was yellow. And I've seen that once before, many

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many years ago, like two fouls and two thousand and

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two thousand and four, that's when I last saw that,

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the only time I've ever seen it, and that person

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was a severe alcohol drinker, alcohol drinker, and he survived,

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but he was in hospital, but it gained another really

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nice person. So I lived in that house. That's when

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I lived in Ipswich. I lived in the house that

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was every single person in there, apart from the person

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at the bottom, was an alcoholic except me, and I

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didn't drink that whole year. It was just, really I

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think that's pretty irony. I stopped drinking because I a

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little bit of a drink issue previous. I was just

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drinking excessively for three years, like every night for three years,

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pretty much. So I stopped drinking for a whole year.

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Two thousand and four, I moved into this place. The

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bloat next to me was full on alcoholic. I'm talking

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like proper not didn't go to work. He's just drunk

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all the time. The man downstairs, and I got him

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really well with him. I helped him get a council

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flat when he got evicted, so I kind of helped

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him during that period. I wasn't living there anymore, but

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I just couldn't leave him. I wanted to help him

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to well, if you're friends of Somedden, you've got to

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help him. And the bloke downstairs was a full on,

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like really almost like a functioning alcoholic. The one next

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to me wasn't functioning. The one downstairs was functioning, and

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I got him really well with him, so again really

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quite good friends with him. The man next to him

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was also an alcoholic, but I didn't He wouldn't talk

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to me. He just didn't like me. So he lived

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directly below me, and he moaned that my I was

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making too much noise because when I moved in, I

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had this bed what they called the beds that are

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on the floor footons. I had a foot on the

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most uncomfortable bed in my life. That was so every

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time I moved he oh, I guess I was moving

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the floorboards or whatever, and he could hear me. I

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think I'd be listening to the radio or something, and

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he just moaned. So he didn't like me, which is fine.

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Then down stairs at the bottom, so that's one two

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three people, two at the top with me and someone

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two at the bottom, two below me, and then two

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right at the bottom. The one right at the bottom,

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that's the one that ended up possible. He was again

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another functioning alcoholic, and I think he was retired, like

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the two functioning ones were retired. Next to him, there

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was a crackhouse. Well I'm not joking. It got closed

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down by the police. So he didn't drink, but he

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did other stuff. But he also was really nice. It's

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just a weird situation. He was lovely. Yeah, everyone in

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the house was nice. I didn't get on with one

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and he might be nice as well, but everyone else

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was really nice. And it's really strange because that was

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my year of abstinence, almost like I'm not doing anything

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this year, and I'm surrounded by all this alcohol. It

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was ridiculous. It was yeah, I don't know, almost like

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it was a test anyway. So I've seen that before.

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So my friend neighbor opposite yellow, yellow skinned skin, and

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I thought I'm seeing things here. I had Vinnie with

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me on his leads. I said, look, do you want

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to show me a bathroom? So said, yeah, come in.

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He's exactly the same. It's the same as what he

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ever is. He's like, you know, he was quite bubbly, Jess.

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He normally is. He's genuinely quite pleased to see me.

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He doesn't let anyone else in his flat other than

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the builders. He's got no choice about that. But he

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doesn't invite anyone into his home. But he does me now.

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He didn't for the first nine years or eight years.

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So I went in there, went to the bathroom. It's

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a really good job they've done. So he's had his

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kitchen done and now he's got his bathroom. It's nearly finished.

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I've been letting them in this week because he's in hospital.

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Such a really nice bathroom. But it's very bright as well,

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because there's a new light in there. It's really because

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it's really bright at the moment and I look at him,

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I'm thinking, at this point, my glasses have gone back

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to normal. I said to him, you are you okay?

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He said? He said, what are you talking about? What

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are you? Are you okay? Said yeah, you feel okay?

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Said yeah? He said why, I said, oh, you're yellow?

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And he said what Now he doesn't have a mirror

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in his home, and I don't know how he shaves.

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He does shave, so he must just do it by

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He must just guess. He's done it for years. But

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mind you, I've shaved at the sink without looking in

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the mirror. It's possible to do it like I've done

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it with a wet shave, a wet razor where I've

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had a sink that was nowhere near mirror because I

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couldn't be bothered to like walk two steps to the

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mirror to do it. But hey, it's this laziness. It's

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a challenge as well, isn't it to do it by touch?

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And it is possible. I mean, millions of people around

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the world, I have no choice but to do it

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by touch, do they? I guess if they're unable to see.

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So yeah, it is, of course it's possible. He he

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didn't know that he was yellow, but it wasn't just

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his skin, it was his eyes as well, you know,

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the whites of his eyes. And I said, are you sure?

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He said, yeah, I'm fine, And then we just have

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a normal conversation and I said, well, I'm just going

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to head off, and he was joking saying, I said,

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if you've got the builders coming at the weekend, he said, nope,

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they're not coming in if they are, even if they not,

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they're not coming in because it's rugby tomorrow. And I laughed,

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I know he would not answer the door at the weekend.

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That's his time. I said, okay, cool, I'll see it.

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I see it, So I see you on Monday, because you know,

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I leave him alone at the weekend. In then then

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I get in here because I live opposite and get

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in here, and I'm thinking that ain't right. It's just

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not right. It's like, I can't how can I ignore that?

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Is I understand? I mean, there's people coming and going

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not said a thing to him about it all week.

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They must have seen him. They have to see him

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because he's letting him in and he's he's a right

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chatter box. He's probably been talking to them the whole week,

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so they've seen him and no one's mentioned it. But

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then maybe the fact that they haven't seen him before

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they might think that's just how he looks all the time.

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It's a weird one, isn't it. It's difficult. It's see

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if I see if you see someone you know really

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well and they're limping, you're going to mention it and

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say you're okay, you're limping. But if you see someone

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for the first time, you know, you're a building, you're

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knock on the door, and they're limping, you're not going

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to question it. Yeah, it's I guess it's the same

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kind of thing. I suppose, I don't know. I imagine if

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you're going into people's houses, you see so many different

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things that you. Maybe they don't even notice it, you know,

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I'm not sure. Anyway, I'm sitting in here and I'm

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starting to get upset because I don't know what to do,

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like really starting to get Oh, this is very awkward

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situation because I know what he's like and I know

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that he he wouldn't want me interfering. I was correct

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as well. So what I did is which is something

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I don't normally do. I left Finny here and I

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went out around the corner to a neighbor that I know,

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and she's she's a bit older than me. She's someone

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that I can like. I felt I needed to talk

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to someone a bit older than me. I don't know

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why there's not many people older than me these days,

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but I thought, I just get her perspective. And I said,

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I don't know what to do, and I said, what

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I need is really a second opinion, because I might

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be I might not be seeing things correctly. I'm seeing yellow,

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but maybe he's not. He's not tan because he doesn't

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go out in the daytime. Really, he goes out at night.

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And you know, there was always that maybe that's why,

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maybe there's some kind of vitamin deficiency. I don't know.

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I'm not a doctor. I didn't finish the entire course.

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I didn't start. I didn't start the course either. But

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you know, by saying I didn't finish my doctorate, it's correct,

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isn't it. I didn't. I didn't complete, I didn't get

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my doctorate. I didn't start a doctorate, but I didn't

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get the doctorate. I never became a doctor. It's true.

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Doesn't mean I don't you know, I also don't have

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any medical training either, So that's irrelevant, isn't it. Really.

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I'm almost in disbelief about what's happened over the last

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five days. Just so I'm used to not going out

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other than three times a day with this little one here,

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this little fur ball in the park. I don't even

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I don't even cross the road like to go to

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the Petra station or the pet shop anymore. Everything I

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buy is online. I don't. It's almost like there's an

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invisible barrier that I've struggled to cross. I don't get

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my my prescriptions get delivered or I try and get

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someone to pick them up for me. I don't even

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travel there anymore. And it's been like that for probably

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since my friend downstairs passed away pretty much. I haven't

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really got out. I haven't been out much at all.

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In fact, the last time I went out, last time

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I left this area, like literally kind of left this

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area I think was probably my friend's funeral, which was

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a year and a half ago something like that. Yeah,

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over a even a half ago. So yeah, it was

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kind of strange. So anyway, I'm saying that because I've

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ended up having to go out so Friday, so around

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my friend and neighbor's house, and they said, oh, you know,

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I'm not being rude to them, because natural human thing,

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isn't it. We start, we start diagnosing as soon as

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you say someone's turned yellow, Well it's this, it's that.

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It's that, you know, And my personal the way I

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kind of look at it is, I don't know what

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it is, but I know it's not supposed to be yellow.

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That's all I can say. And I know that that

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can be a sign of something very serious. And I

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went online. I did research it as well before as

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soon as I came back just online to sort of all, okay,

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no description of turning yellow came up as being a positive,

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That's all I'm saying. So I thought oh, what do

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I do next? So I went around my neighbors. They

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basically diagnosed him, and we're about to write him a prescription.

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I said, no, no, wait a minute. First of all,

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you're not a doctor. Secondly, can one of you come

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around with me? And he knows the daughter because he's

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met a loads of times. She's a little bit younger

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than me, and so I said, if you come round,

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and I knock on his door because they asked me. Actually,

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the neighbor they will visited asked me if I had

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a toilet roll they could borrow. So I thought, okay,

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I'll use that as an excuse. I knock on my

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neighbor's door the opposite me, asking me if he's got

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a spare toilet role because I've only got one left.

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So it gave me an opportunity to get into open

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the door because he does as he did, answer the

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door to me and the other neighbor around the corner.

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She was with me, and as soon as the door

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opened she just went wow like she I mean, she

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was even shocked, even considered I'd already told her what

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was happening. I don't know she didn't believe me or

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whatever or didn't think it was quite as you know, significant,

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and he kind of says he got rid of us

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quite quickly, and so I gave him a toilet role

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because I didn't need a toilet role, but I just

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gave him my one. Came back in there. I've I

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didn't know what to do next. I really I struggled. Really,

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it's weird, I did. I think with my friend downstairs

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it was just me the whole time, well not just me,

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but generally it was very often only me that was

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dealing with him with his issues. So I kind of

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got used to it over years. In years of it,

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it was just progressive, you know, in a sense of

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more of the same. This was completely new. This is

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something I'd never dealt with with him before, or with anyone,

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not really in this sense, like being the person he

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needed to do something. So I called one one one,

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which is in the UK. That is, it's like a

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medical helpline. It's not nine to nine nine like in

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some countries it's nine to one one, isn't it or whatever,

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different different numbers that would be emergency. One one one

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is a place where you can phone up. They ask

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you some questions. You can ask questions on behalf of

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someone else technically, I mean you can't. Personally, you can

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if you've got a loved one that's got conditions or

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got some kind of symptoms, you can ask for advice. Well,

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I did this, and the person on the one one

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one they were very limited because I wasn't with him,

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and they kept asking me questions that I couldn't answer. Well.

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They asked, how does he feeling? I said, he's feeling fine.

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Is he there with you now? I said no, he's

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not with me. Now, well, can you go and get him?

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I said not really, because he told me to leave

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him alone, basically in so many words, stop fussing I

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think might have been one of his sentences. And they said, okay,

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what's his day of birth? So I don't know his

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day at birth, but I know he's nearly seventy eight. Okay,

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but I do know his name. I've got his address

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and all that stuff. I've got his telephone number. I

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said to him and said, okay, all right. So they said, well,

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based on what you said, he needs to call. We

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need to speak to him. I said, okay, So he said,

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They said, we can't deal with you. We're going to

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need to deal with him because he's the one that

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is got the condition. And I thought, Okay, this is

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going to be awkward, but they said it's important because

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not really because of his age or anything, just basically

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because of the from what you said, it's an important thing.

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It's a condition that will need medical attention, and we

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want to get some information from him regarding medical background,

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which I don't have. I don't know anything. It turns

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out he's never ever been, never had anything wrong with

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him ever in his life. Never. I'm not going to

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give his information away or say who it is. He

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could be anyone, so you're not going to know that.

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But he's he's completely never been ill other than just

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general things that all people have every now and then.

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Doesn't even have a doctor. It's not even registered with

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a doctor. And that's how healthy he's been his whole life.

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And I did tell them that I knew. I didn't

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know about the doctor, but I knew that he told

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me for he's all told me never been on medication,

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because when he heard that I was medication, he was

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kind of surprised that I was on because he's on

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nothing and I'm on what four different medications and he

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was like, really, you're on all them. I said, yeah,

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shut up, and he and he was interested in the bipolar.

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He was interested in me telling him about that stuff.

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So every now and then he asks me a question

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about it, but it's like gradual, you know. Anyway, So

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I'm here, I don't know what to do. I've phoned

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downstairs to my other neighbors and I said, I don't

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know what to do. I really don't know what to do.

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And this is there's a lady that lives downstairs that

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I go really well with. She's just directly blow me

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me and she's twenty years old, but she's probably way

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more mature than I am. It's weird. It's not really weird,

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but I'm just not. I didn't know what to do.

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I really didn't know what to do, and I needed

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some support. And maybe the fact that I asked for

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support is because I've never had any support with my

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other friend and I realized that I needed it back then,

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but I didn't have any I had no one to

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ask for help this situation. I just decided I'm going

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to ask, which is why I did ask the neighbor

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around the corner. The neighbor downstairs, and she said, well,

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i'll tell you what I do. I'll come up and

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we'll tell him together, because I didn't know if he

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was going to get angry with me, because he already

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told me pretty much know twice. The second time it

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was a little bit like go away. He cut closed

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the door a little bit, you know, quite quickly. So

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I knock on his door for a third time. This

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time is someone else standing there? So that's this is

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really annoying him, which is understandable. He would annoy me

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as well, especially as he doesn't he knows them, but

465
00:34:24.760 --> 00:34:26.679
he doesn't know them the way he knows me. So

466
00:34:26.719 --> 00:34:30.920
these are people that he's seen, but he hasn't doesn't

467
00:34:30.920 --> 00:34:34.639
really have like regular contact with them. And I said,

468
00:34:34.679 --> 00:34:36.760
I'm the only one he lets in his house. No

469
00:34:36.800 --> 00:34:42.920
one else, no one else is allowed in there. So

470
00:34:44.119 --> 00:34:47.440
I've got her. Her boyfriend's there as well. He's standing

471
00:34:47.480 --> 00:34:50.159
on the stairs, but he's tall enough to see over

472
00:34:50.239 --> 00:34:55.320
the banister and he opens the door and I say

473
00:34:55.360 --> 00:35:01.280
to him, oh, you know, you know her downstairs. I

474
00:35:01.280 --> 00:35:03.360
don't know what excuse I made for her being there,

475
00:35:03.920 --> 00:35:10.400
but I said, I've called one one one about your

476
00:35:10.639 --> 00:35:13.159
about your situation. And he said, what did you do

477
00:35:13.239 --> 00:35:21.119
that for? I said, well, I said it just he

478
00:35:21.199 --> 00:35:22.920
seemed like you were looking forward to the weekend. I

479
00:35:22.960 --> 00:35:24.840
just wanted to ruin all the rugby for you. So

480
00:35:26.360 --> 00:35:30.119
I didn't say that that's like, what other option did

481
00:35:30.159 --> 00:35:33.840
I have? He said, why? I said, because I care.

482
00:35:36.519 --> 00:35:39.519
That's why. That's why I called. Because I care. I said,

483
00:35:39.519 --> 00:35:41.679
if that's I was getting a little bit defensive to

484
00:35:41.679 --> 00:35:43.800
be honest, that that's a problem for you. That's your

485
00:35:43.920 --> 00:35:47.880
that's your problem. But I'm sorry. You know, I've gone

486
00:35:47.880 --> 00:35:50.199
through life with a lot of people not caring and

487
00:35:50.320 --> 00:35:52.880
no one it's like, and he's used to not being

488
00:35:52.880 --> 00:35:55.920
on his own, and I see him as a future

489
00:35:56.000 --> 00:35:59.559
version of me in some ways, because we're both very

490
00:36:00.119 --> 00:36:06.280
on her own, doing her own thing, very independent, don't

491
00:36:06.599 --> 00:36:13.159
really like being bothered, and don't generally ask anyone for

492
00:36:13.239 --> 00:36:19.880
anything for all possible. And I was really I was

493
00:36:20.000 --> 00:36:23.360
really getting in a way of that. I was, I mean,

494
00:36:23.440 --> 00:36:31.320
knocking on his door three one, two, three, three times,

495
00:36:32.679 --> 00:36:36.079
And the first time was fine anyway, because that was

496
00:36:36.119 --> 00:36:38.280
just a standard let's say, a look at your bathroom,

497
00:36:39.599 --> 00:36:43.159
but the other two times and having different people standing

498
00:36:43.159 --> 00:36:46.880
there with me, he was very anyway. The third time

499
00:36:46.920 --> 00:36:50.039
he got anger with me, and I understand it. I do,

500
00:36:50.760 --> 00:36:54.159
But at the same time I also needed a third opinion.

501
00:36:54.840 --> 00:36:57.760
I just I needed to be one hundred percent sure

502
00:36:58.239 --> 00:36:59.960
because I knew I was about to ruin his week

503
00:37:00.159 --> 00:37:03.880
end at the very least, because he's looking forward to

504
00:37:03.920 --> 00:37:08.440
watching the rugby. And I also thought there's a chance

505
00:37:08.440 --> 00:37:12.519
he won't talk to me again. But then I've got this.

506
00:37:12.960 --> 00:37:17.280
There's this I told my friend downstairs, the one Luke.

507
00:37:17.960 --> 00:37:22.480
I said to him at least once when because I'd

508
00:37:22.480 --> 00:37:26.639
call an ambulance for him multiple times and he hated it.

509
00:37:26.760 --> 00:37:31.039
He would never go to hospital. Never under any circumstances

510
00:37:31.199 --> 00:37:34.320
would he be taken Tosspital in an ambulance. And they

511
00:37:34.320 --> 00:37:37.760
always wanted to take him, but he never went. And

512
00:37:37.800 --> 00:37:39.719
I said to him once, I might have said it

513
00:37:39.760 --> 00:37:43.400
more than once. I said, listen, mate, I'd rather you

514
00:37:43.760 --> 00:37:46.559
hate me and be alive that love me and be dead.

515
00:37:47.440 --> 00:37:49.679
You know. I noticed, it's pretty a silly sentence to say.

516
00:37:49.719 --> 00:37:55.519
But and when I said it, I was quite not aggressive,

517
00:37:55.599 --> 00:37:59.000
but like I wasn't being all gentle with it. It

518
00:37:59.119 --> 00:38:02.360
was like, that's how it is. You got a problem

519
00:38:02.360 --> 00:38:05.480
with it. You're gonna have to deal with it, because

520
00:38:05.679 --> 00:38:08.119
I'm not going to stand and watch. I'm not just

521
00:38:08.119 --> 00:38:13.480
going to ignore someone who's in trouble. I can't. I

522
00:38:13.559 --> 00:38:15.280
can't do that. I just don't have it in me

523
00:38:15.360 --> 00:38:21.199
to do that. So I said the same thing to Alex.

524
00:38:22.719 --> 00:38:26.159
It's like, I got that little line rehearsed. I feel.

525
00:38:26.400 --> 00:38:27.920
Do you ever get a feeling, you know when you

526
00:38:27.960 --> 00:38:32.880
see Clint Eastwood or those movies and they say that

527
00:38:33.000 --> 00:38:37.079
things like go on make my day, Like he's got

528
00:38:37.119 --> 00:38:41.960
it rehearsed. I know he got rehearsed, as in it

529
00:38:42.000 --> 00:38:45.519
was in the movie. It was a script. But it's like,

530
00:38:45.599 --> 00:38:50.440
it's a really good line, but I'll just keep it

531
00:38:50.480 --> 00:38:53.440
there for the good, for the right moment. So I

532
00:38:53.480 --> 00:38:57.039
said that to him on the third time we were together,

533
00:38:58.039 --> 00:38:59.800
No not no. One wasn't the third time together. It

534
00:38:59.840 --> 00:39:02.840
was okay. The third time I was knock on his door.

535
00:39:05.360 --> 00:39:14.039
I told him that I'd called one one one, and

536
00:39:14.079 --> 00:39:17.159
he said he shouldn't have done that. I said, well

537
00:39:17.199 --> 00:39:21.039
I did, so he shouldn't have done but I did.

538
00:39:22.480 --> 00:39:24.800
And he was very angry. He shut the door in

539
00:39:24.840 --> 00:39:27.719
my face, standed the door in my face. Apparently he

540
00:39:27.760 --> 00:39:29.599
says something rude to me as well, but I didn't

541
00:39:29.639 --> 00:39:33.280
realize that my neighborhood, well, both of them heard him

542
00:39:33.719 --> 00:39:38.960
for some reason, I didn't hear it, so that was awkward.

543
00:39:40.920 --> 00:39:45.119
Now at this point, my other neighbors from downstairs, they

544
00:39:45.159 --> 00:39:51.679
come into my flat and they're like, wow, probably surprised

545
00:39:51.679 --> 00:39:53.360
at how he was acting to me, because I know

546
00:39:53.480 --> 00:39:57.000
that me and him are being quite close for the

547
00:39:57.119 --> 00:40:03.639
last year or so, so it's kind of she was

548
00:40:03.679 --> 00:40:07.320
surprised at that because she's the whole time she's lived there,

549
00:40:07.440 --> 00:40:10.239
me and him have been We get on really, you know,

550
00:40:10.639 --> 00:40:17.559
she sees us. I don't know, it just be just yeah.

551
00:40:17.880 --> 00:40:21.199
She was just surprised at how he was acting. So

552
00:40:21.239 --> 00:40:28.400
she came in here and she said, well, I don't

553
00:40:28.400 --> 00:40:33.480
know what to do. So what she did is she

554
00:40:33.679 --> 00:40:38.360
called one more one and reported it and said, look,

555
00:40:38.519 --> 00:40:43.199
the neighbor he won't he won't listen to us, he

556
00:40:43.239 --> 00:40:46.400
won't allow anyone to come in and you know, medical

557
00:40:46.920 --> 00:40:54.559
anything like that, blah blah. So one more one they'd

558
00:40:54.559 --> 00:40:57.000
already told me because I called them back again as well,

559
00:40:58.400 --> 00:41:00.840
and they kept asking the same question, is he with you?

560
00:41:01.880 --> 00:41:03.280
Can you check what's his condition?

561
00:41:03.400 --> 00:41:03.559
Now?

562
00:41:03.599 --> 00:41:07.760
I said, I mean, I'd literally to the same person.

563
00:41:07.800 --> 00:41:11.039
I said, probably six seven times, I'm not with him

564
00:41:11.599 --> 00:41:13.360
because you won't let me in the flat, shut the

565
00:41:13.360 --> 00:41:15.199
door in my face. We slammed the door in my face.

566
00:41:15.639 --> 00:41:19.000
He won't let me in. I can't talk to him,

567
00:41:19.320 --> 00:41:24.519
and every other probably three minutes later, So can I

568
00:41:24.559 --> 00:41:27.840
talk to him? Like he's not with me? So is

569
00:41:27.880 --> 00:41:30.440
he still yellow? Like? It was weird? It was kind

570
00:41:30.480 --> 00:41:34.119
of I realized they've got their script and they're trying

571
00:41:34.159 --> 00:41:35.559
to get to the bottom of it. So I'm not

572
00:41:35.639 --> 00:41:41.800
in no way being horrible. I'm just it was. It

573
00:41:41.920 --> 00:41:48.519
was difficult, and she said, well, we'll get back to you.

574
00:41:49.880 --> 00:41:52.079
I'll get her. They were all nice everyone. I spoke

575
00:41:52.119 --> 00:41:56.880
to his nice. We'll get someone back to you. She

576
00:41:56.920 --> 00:41:59.039
already spoke to a manager. And then they said we'll

577
00:41:59.079 --> 00:42:01.320
get back to you, and and then they said that

578
00:42:01.360 --> 00:42:03.400
also to my other neighbor. They didn't get back to

579
00:42:03.400 --> 00:42:08.400
my other neighbor, and I thought that was it right.

580
00:42:10.480 --> 00:42:15.360
I gave them his number and I said, unlikely he's

581
00:42:15.360 --> 00:42:17.639
going to answer the phone if he hasn't even turned

582
00:42:17.679 --> 00:42:20.440
it off. He's locked the door so you can't get in,

583
00:42:21.199 --> 00:42:24.079
and unlikely he's going to answer the door. I was

584
00:42:24.119 --> 00:42:26.920
wrong on all that. Actually I was wrong. He had

585
00:42:26.960 --> 00:42:31.440
locked it, but he actually was very compliant with them,

586
00:42:31.480 --> 00:42:38.000
not with me. So I got I can't. Haven't got

587
00:42:38.000 --> 00:42:42.119
access to my phone, so probably a bad half an

588
00:42:42.119 --> 00:42:45.440
hour later, maybe the phone went. Maybe an hour later

589
00:42:46.280 --> 00:42:50.000
the phone went and it was one more one again.

590
00:42:50.599 --> 00:42:56.920
I think this time it was a nurse and she said,

591
00:42:57.480 --> 00:42:59.800
are you with him? I said, no, I'm not with him.

592
00:43:00.960 --> 00:43:03.519
He's in a different flat. The door was locked. He

593
00:43:03.639 --> 00:43:10.760
hates me now, She said, I I understand. Well, we've

594
00:43:10.760 --> 00:43:20.599
got his telephone number and he's yeah, I will try

595
00:43:20.599 --> 00:43:29.159
and call him, and we're gonna basically send a paramedic around.

596
00:43:29.239 --> 00:43:30.800
She said, can you knock on his door let him know?

597
00:43:30.840 --> 00:43:35.239
I said no, I really can't. I said, well I can,

598
00:43:35.360 --> 00:43:37.360
but you won't answer the door. That's a guarantee for

599
00:43:37.519 --> 00:43:41.159
dot to me anyway, and that's just going to upset

600
00:43:41.199 --> 00:43:44.840
him even more. I really didn't expect him to answer

601
00:43:44.880 --> 00:43:49.000
the phone to them, But she phoned back about fifteen

602
00:43:49.000 --> 00:43:52.360
minutes later and said they've spoken to him. He was

603
00:43:52.440 --> 00:43:55.480
nicest pie on the phone. He agreed to have the

604
00:43:55.519 --> 00:43:58.440
paramedics come around. He was going to let them in,

605
00:43:59.440 --> 00:44:06.559
and it was absolutely lovely, and I thought, really, so,

606
00:44:09.199 --> 00:44:14.440
I think it's at this point I went to bed.

607
00:44:16.199 --> 00:44:17.639
I didn't really go to bed, but I went for

608
00:44:17.719 --> 00:44:22.039
a lie down because I didn't feel any longer that

609
00:44:22.079 --> 00:44:25.719
I could be involved, because the way he'd treated me

610
00:44:26.079 --> 00:44:29.880
and the way that he'd spoken to me, and I

611
00:44:29.880 --> 00:44:32.920
didn't think that he'd want me involved. But at the

612
00:44:32.960 --> 00:44:37.840
same time, he was getting medical assistance and that was

613
00:44:37.880 --> 00:44:43.199
the most important thing. Having me around wasn't important, That's

614
00:44:43.239 --> 00:44:49.239
what I thought anyway, but him getting help was important.

615
00:44:50.599 --> 00:44:53.280
So they went in there. I was just laying down,

616
00:44:53.599 --> 00:44:57.159
like quarter past ten or something. They weren't in there long.

617
00:44:58.239 --> 00:45:01.239
There was no big long thing. It was like, right, yep,

618
00:45:02.159 --> 00:45:05.039
we're taking his hospital. They were in there for fifteen

619
00:45:05.079 --> 00:45:10.239
minutes at half past ten with in his barking, so

620
00:45:10.280 --> 00:45:12.880
you can hear the door go. I left my door open,

621
00:45:12.920 --> 00:45:14.880
which is not what I normally do when I'm in

622
00:45:14.920 --> 00:45:19.239
bed at that time, but I looked at the camera

623
00:45:19.280 --> 00:45:21.480
I saw that they were coming out and he was

624
00:45:21.519 --> 00:45:29.400
locking the door. So I came out and I said,

625
00:45:30.119 --> 00:45:36.320
you're right. It's very awkward. And the paramedics they knew

626
00:45:36.360 --> 00:45:37.920
who I was. I guess they knew because I didn't

627
00:45:37.920 --> 00:45:42.840
want to called not knew me personally, but I think

628
00:45:42.840 --> 00:45:47.000
I probably told him I'm the one at Cordier. In fact,

629
00:45:48.079 --> 00:46:01.639
wait a minute, wait a minute, I am no, I've

630
00:46:01.639 --> 00:46:06.320
got this wrong. I'm doing this in the wrong order. Right.

631
00:46:06.360 --> 00:46:11.320
Here's what happened. I took Vinnie out for his last

632
00:46:11.320 --> 00:46:17.599
little wi that's it, and I'm coming back and the

633
00:46:17.639 --> 00:46:24.480
ambulance is there. Or yeah, we're coming back, and the

634
00:46:24.519 --> 00:46:28.480
ambulance was there. So I go up to them and

635
00:46:28.519 --> 00:46:32.679
say hi. They said hi. I said, I'm the one

636
00:46:32.679 --> 00:46:37.199
that called you. They said, oh, okay, hi, and I

637
00:46:37.239 --> 00:46:41.079
said and I had just explained the situation, and they

638
00:46:41.119 --> 00:46:47.800
went upstairs, and I just waited, oh yeah, oh that's what.

639
00:46:47.880 --> 00:46:53.320
That's it. I saw the ambulance outside. I came down

640
00:46:53.440 --> 00:46:55.480
to take him into the garden, but for I go

641
00:46:55.519 --> 00:46:59.880
out the front and I turned right for some of me,

642
00:47:00.119 --> 00:47:03.440
and then I turned left again. Said it's weird anyway,

643
00:47:03.480 --> 00:47:05.239
And I went out and told him who I was

644
00:47:05.320 --> 00:47:09.360
and that I want I'm the one that called originally

645
00:47:09.480 --> 00:47:15.840
and explained my perspective of what's kind of going on

646
00:47:15.880 --> 00:47:19.840
with him, just because he's coloring really but he physically

647
00:47:19.840 --> 00:47:22.679
feels fine and everything, and they said okay, so they

648
00:47:22.679 --> 00:47:30.679
went upstairs. I took Vinnie in the garden. So they

649
00:47:30.719 --> 00:47:32.719
were knocking for a little while before your answers to

650
00:47:32.719 --> 00:47:37.320
be fair and then but they didn't give up, and

651
00:47:37.360 --> 00:47:41.000
I just waited. I waited and listened until he'd let

652
00:47:41.000 --> 00:47:43.880
them in and they closed the door, and then I

653
00:47:43.920 --> 00:47:47.440
went upstairs and I went and lied down. But they

654
00:47:47.480 --> 00:47:49.400
weren't there for long and then they brought him out.

655
00:47:49.440 --> 00:47:53.280
So I go outside, say you're right, and she said

656
00:47:53.599 --> 00:47:58.760
there was two paramedics, so we'd take him to the hospital.

657
00:47:59.800 --> 00:48:02.519
I said, as I speak to Alex, I said, how

658
00:48:02.559 --> 00:48:05.440
you doing? He said, I think he apologized to me.

659
00:48:07.360 --> 00:48:11.880
And I said to him, drought me to come with you?

660
00:48:13.800 --> 00:48:19.000
He said yes, So I went with him. This was

661
00:48:19.079 --> 00:48:22.599
like half ten, got an ambulance with him. He's lying

662
00:48:22.639 --> 00:48:26.239
down on a bed thing and I'm sitting in a chair.

663
00:48:26.280 --> 00:48:29.880
I didn't even know they had chairs and ambulances. Never

664
00:48:29.960 --> 00:48:35.280
been for an ambulance ride as in my memory, maybe

665
00:48:35.320 --> 00:48:37.840
when I was a kid, but not in my adult memory.

666
00:48:37.880 --> 00:48:42.159
I don't remember ever ever being traveling in an ambulance.

667
00:48:44.440 --> 00:48:48.400
And it was a very strange very strange experience because

668
00:48:48.400 --> 00:48:51.119
there was no windows. Well there's windows, but all black

669
00:48:51.280 --> 00:48:56.880
blackened out. So it's almost like traveling on the tube,

670
00:48:57.000 --> 00:49:03.239
like underground, the underground railway, but no stops. You got

671
00:49:03.559 --> 00:49:08.760
not no railway stations or anything going through. And I

672
00:49:08.800 --> 00:49:10.800
had no idea where I was. I knew I was

673
00:49:10.800 --> 00:49:14.679
in an ambulance, but I had no idea where I was,

674
00:49:16.159 --> 00:49:20.719
like within the distance of traveling to the hospital. He

675
00:49:20.920 --> 00:49:25.280
was fine, he was joking, and they've got a cup

676
00:49:25.280 --> 00:49:30.679
of coffee from Costas on the way. It was yeah.

677
00:49:30.800 --> 00:49:37.199
And then so I was with him till three o'clock

678
00:49:37.320 --> 00:49:41.239
or three thirty in the morning. That's when I took

679
00:49:41.280 --> 00:49:44.960
that photo. I took that video of that fox outside

680
00:49:45.000 --> 00:49:48.360
the hospital because I was waiting for taxi. It was

681
00:49:48.400 --> 00:49:50.639
bright outside, but there's got a lot of lights at

682
00:49:50.679 --> 00:49:53.519
day in the hospital. But it was just like wow,

683
00:49:53.639 --> 00:50:00.159
almost like daytime, but very quiet. See, Friday night was

684
00:50:00.199 --> 00:50:04.599
going to be really busy, but it wasn't. And the

685
00:50:04.639 --> 00:50:08.920
busiest days, which I found very interested, just kind of

686
00:50:10.159 --> 00:50:12.360
threw me off a bit. But apparently the busiest times

687
00:50:12.360 --> 00:50:16.400
at the hospital are Sunday, Monday, and Tuesday. At that

688
00:50:16.480 --> 00:50:19.840
hospital anyway, I mean A and E. Of course it

689
00:50:19.920 --> 00:50:25.199
gets I suppose it's busy pretty much the whole time,

690
00:50:25.239 --> 00:50:28.159
but it's you know, it seems to be that the

691
00:50:28.159 --> 00:50:31.039
hospital as a whole, because they've got less staff on

692
00:50:31.039 --> 00:50:37.480
onto the weekend. So I've been here every day since Friday,

693
00:50:38.639 --> 00:50:41.000
and I've seen it get busier and busier and busier,

694
00:50:42.119 --> 00:50:45.800
like every day. It's almost like a twenty five percent

695
00:50:46.239 --> 00:50:51.199
of the people added on. It's weird, including staff as well.

696
00:50:51.679 --> 00:50:53.760
So where there was like maybe two or three staff,

697
00:50:53.880 --> 00:51:01.800
now there is ten. It's yeah, really busy. Anyway, So

698
00:51:07.039 --> 00:51:10.920
they didn't put him into A and E. They didn't

699
00:51:10.960 --> 00:51:14.239
have him sitting down waiting to be seen for hours

700
00:51:14.280 --> 00:51:21.239
and hours. They took him straight into an emergency observation place,

701
00:51:21.599 --> 00:51:23.400
so he was still he was in A and E,

702
00:51:23.920 --> 00:51:25.760
but he was on a bed in A and E.

703
00:51:26.679 --> 00:51:29.920
And they took his bloods and they did all that

704
00:51:30.039 --> 00:51:36.440
really quickly, and he had a cat scan within an

705
00:51:36.480 --> 00:51:44.880
hour of being there, I'd say maybe two hours, So

706
00:51:45.079 --> 00:51:46.519
I was kind of with him. I didn't go into

707
00:51:46.519 --> 00:51:53.400
the X ray place, but I was outside and everyone

708
00:51:53.480 --> 00:51:58.920
was so nice. Bearing in mind they're just super busy,

709
00:52:00.239 --> 00:52:04.360
you know, it's really weird. I think that some people

710
00:52:04.440 --> 00:52:07.920
they oh, they're just sitting around doing nothing, but they're not.

711
00:52:09.400 --> 00:52:13.159
You know, it's like, okay, maybe they're chatting. They need

712
00:52:13.199 --> 00:52:16.000
to have that moments, a couple of moments of just

713
00:52:17.000 --> 00:52:20.639
having a chat, you know, with their friends, talking about

714
00:52:20.719 --> 00:52:22.800
and as part of the learning process is what, isn't it?

715
00:52:22.800 --> 00:52:26.719
Because you've got a lot of young student students working there,

716
00:52:26.960 --> 00:52:31.079
student nurses, student doctors, and they learn from each other's

717
00:52:31.159 --> 00:52:34.800
experiences as well, don't they. So if someone's just had

718
00:52:35.000 --> 00:52:40.239
a situation as a nurse with a patient, they tell

719
00:52:40.280 --> 00:52:43.199
their colleague or their friend who's also a student nurse,

720
00:52:43.760 --> 00:52:46.039
and they can kind of learn from that experience. I

721
00:52:46.159 --> 00:52:50.199
just thought that out loud, and I really pleased myself. Yeah,

722
00:52:50.400 --> 00:52:54.239
so chatting may be useful sometimes could be helpful for

723
00:52:54.360 --> 00:53:00.519
future patients. And are always doing paperwork. I noticed that

724
00:53:00.559 --> 00:53:04.800
as well. It's constant because I kept I kept interrupting people.

725
00:53:06.360 --> 00:53:11.960
But it was it got to three o'clock or just

726
00:53:12.039 --> 00:53:15.880
after maybe half three to half three, I can't remember exactly,

727
00:53:16.960 --> 00:53:19.320
and the nurse said to me because I said, is

728
00:53:19.360 --> 00:53:22.760
a doctor coming around? Because I told her hours earlier

729
00:53:22.800 --> 00:53:25.119
that the doctor was going to come around. Because he

730
00:53:25.199 --> 00:53:30.159
had his blood test. Is that is cat scan done?

731
00:53:30.400 --> 00:53:32.400
So I guess we were waiting for the doctor to

732
00:53:32.440 --> 00:53:35.960
tell him the results of the cat scan, maybe not

733
00:53:36.000 --> 00:53:41.360
the blood tests, but the cat scan. And she said, no,

734
00:53:41.519 --> 00:53:46.320
he won't be seeing a doctor tomorrow, probably because I

735
00:53:46.360 --> 00:53:48.079
thought I was going to wait for him to see

736
00:53:48.079 --> 00:53:53.360
a doctor, either privately or with me there, whatever he wanted,

737
00:53:54.199 --> 00:53:57.960
and then be with him until he got into the ward,

738
00:53:58.159 --> 00:54:00.920
whatever ward he was going to be. And because it

739
00:54:01.039 --> 00:54:03.519
looked like they already said that he's going into a ward,

740
00:54:03.599 --> 00:54:12.519
he was not being sent home, and I, oh, that's

741
00:54:12.519 --> 00:54:14.599
what I was going to do. I was so tired.

742
00:54:15.199 --> 00:54:19.320
I wasn't delusional, delusional, whatever you want to call it.

743
00:54:19.320 --> 00:54:24.800
I wasn't like tripping or anything, but that particular I

744
00:54:24.840 --> 00:54:27.559
know it's weird, but that particular morning, I woke up

745
00:54:27.639 --> 00:54:30.679
at three point thirty in the morning. It's a really

746
00:54:30.719 --> 00:54:34.639
early morning. I don't normally wake up that early, but

747
00:54:34.719 --> 00:54:36.920
I got out of bed. I had had a nap

748
00:54:37.000 --> 00:54:42.800
during the day, but I'm normally in bed by ten,

749
00:54:43.599 --> 00:54:47.239
so to be awake at three point thirty I was

750
00:54:48.519 --> 00:54:51.719
I felt like I was almost on another planet. You know,

751
00:54:52.920 --> 00:54:59.280
it was really strange. I felt very weird, and he

752
00:54:59.400 --> 00:55:02.880
wasn't tired, But then I wouldn't have been tired if

753
00:55:02.920 --> 00:55:10.119
I was in this situation either, So I was. I

754
00:55:10.239 --> 00:55:13.360
was stimulated as well because I'm not used to being

755
00:55:13.400 --> 00:55:18.239
around people, not that many people whatever. Really, you know,

756
00:55:18.360 --> 00:55:21.400
just in my life, I saw more people on Friday

757
00:55:21.480 --> 00:55:29.000
night than I've probably seen the last two years, as

758
00:55:29.199 --> 00:55:33.079
like amount of people. And that was just in the evening.

759
00:55:33.559 --> 00:55:36.239
It's just a huge amounts of the people in the hospital,

760
00:55:37.320 --> 00:55:43.079
even when it's quiet. So the nurse said to me,

761
00:55:43.239 --> 00:55:45.920
you might as well go home. He's not going to

762
00:55:45.920 --> 00:55:50.280
be seen by a doctor tonight, very unlikely. It's free

763
00:55:50.320 --> 00:55:52.000
in the morning, but he probably won't be seen until

764
00:55:52.000 --> 00:55:59.559
Saturday during the day. And he very unlikely he's going

765
00:55:59.599 --> 00:56:02.800
to be put to a ward until tomorrow. That she

766
00:56:02.880 --> 00:56:05.480
was saying tomorrow, but you know Saturday. It was already Saturday,

767
00:56:05.519 --> 00:56:10.000
I guess early hours. So I told my friend. I said,

768
00:56:10.039 --> 00:56:14.320
I'm going to go, and he said, okay, it said

769
00:56:14.320 --> 00:56:17.079
to me a few times ago, if you want, because

770
00:56:17.119 --> 00:56:20.159
I was yawning and like I was struggling to keep

771
00:56:20.159 --> 00:56:27.440
my eyes open, like physically struggling a bit like now.

772
00:56:30.400 --> 00:56:41.960
So I left, got a taxi home and I called

773
00:56:42.039 --> 00:56:47.159
him in the morning about ten o'clock Saturday, so I

774
00:56:47.199 --> 00:56:53.719
went to sleep. Was it ten o'clock? It probably was,

775
00:56:53.760 --> 00:56:56.519
because I went to sleep and I awoke. I couldn't

776
00:56:56.519 --> 00:56:59.599
go straight to sleep either, which is weird. Even though

777
00:56:59.599 --> 00:57:05.800
I was tired, I hadn't eaten anything for eight hours,

778
00:57:05.880 --> 00:57:09.480
nine hours, so I just needed to get some food

779
00:57:09.519 --> 00:57:12.880
in me. So I just had some breakfast cereal, waited

780
00:57:12.920 --> 00:57:15.960
for half hour, forty minutes or whatever. Then I went

781
00:57:16.000 --> 00:57:18.000
to sleep. In fact, I didn't go to bed. I

782
00:57:18.000 --> 00:57:21.079
fell asleep on this chair here. I don't know if

783
00:57:21.119 --> 00:57:23.760
I was watching Telly, but I just fell asleep and

784
00:57:23.800 --> 00:57:27.880
I woke up probably about eight or nine in the morning,

785
00:57:28.199 --> 00:57:32.039
so I probably maybe three hours four hours sleep. I

786
00:57:32.119 --> 00:57:35.199
called him up about ten and he told me he'd

787
00:57:35.199 --> 00:57:39.280
been moved and had been seen by a doctor already.

788
00:57:40.679 --> 00:57:43.239
I said, wow, okay, so he's moved into a different

789
00:57:43.320 --> 00:57:46.480
ward and I said, what did the doctor say? He said,

790
00:57:46.519 --> 00:57:48.639
it's not good. I said, okay, do you want to

791
00:57:48.639 --> 00:57:50.880
tell me now? You wrought me to come and visit

792
00:57:50.920 --> 00:57:53.039
you and tell me. Then he said, well, i'll tell

793
00:57:53.079 --> 00:58:02.480
you in person, So I said, give me. I don't

794
00:58:02.480 --> 00:58:04.960
know when I went what time. I think, yeah, I

795
00:58:05.039 --> 00:58:08.360
left it at midday, so I said, give me, give

796
00:58:08.400 --> 00:58:11.000
me a couple of hours because I need to get ready,

797
00:58:11.559 --> 00:58:13.960
but I'll head off. So I got a taxi there

798
00:58:13.960 --> 00:58:20.519
at midday and got there just four one o'clock I

799
00:58:20.559 --> 00:58:27.639
don't know, twenty to one or something. And so there

800
00:58:27.719 --> 00:58:34.880
was a new ward He's on the left hand side, yeah,

801
00:58:35.239 --> 00:58:37.760
and he had someone opposite. Oh, yeah, there was a bloke.

802
00:58:38.960 --> 00:58:41.239
I got chatting to one of the blokes that was

803
00:58:41.639 --> 00:58:44.519
the other side. There was two people waiting to go

804
00:58:44.639 --> 00:58:50.719
home basically, and he was in. He was just sitting

805
00:58:50.760 --> 00:58:58.199
there again, felt fine physically, and so told me what

806
00:58:58.239 --> 00:59:01.199
a doctor said. So I'm like, okay. So we started

807
00:59:01.199 --> 00:59:08.039
having some quite serious conversations and that, and so I'm there.

808
00:59:08.239 --> 00:59:14.559
I got home. I couldn't even tell you what time.

809
00:59:14.599 --> 00:59:20.800
I got home about seven o'clock in the evening. And

810
00:59:20.800 --> 00:59:27.559
there was there again Sunday. So I was leaving here

811
00:59:28.760 --> 00:59:35.239
probably I think probably midday again on Sunday, get home

812
00:59:35.280 --> 00:59:43.599
about six or seven Monday. I left at about twenty

813
00:59:43.639 --> 00:59:48.960
to ten a quarter ten in the morning, got home

814
00:59:49.039 --> 00:59:55.920
about half six in the evening. That was Monday. Today,

815
00:59:57.440 --> 00:59:59.320
I tried to get a little bit earlier, so I

816
00:59:59.400 --> 01:00:03.719
left hear about ten past nine. But I missed the bus.

817
01:00:04.519 --> 01:00:06.519
This because all the rest of the time I've been

818
01:00:06.519 --> 01:00:10.679
paying taxis and it's twenty pound per visit, twenty pounds

819
01:00:10.679 --> 01:00:13.000
per trip, and I've been doing two trips a day,

820
01:00:13.760 --> 01:00:17.639
so one trip on Friday, two on Sunday. No one

821
01:00:17.679 --> 01:00:20.599
on Friday, two on Saturday, two on Sunday, and two

822
01:00:20.679 --> 01:00:26.360
on Monday. So today I had to get the bus.

823
01:00:26.480 --> 01:00:31.320
I really didn't have any choice. And it's a journey.

824
01:00:31.360 --> 01:00:37.119
It's at a real journey because two buses and I

825
01:00:37.239 --> 01:00:38.440
missed the bus.

826
01:00:42.159 --> 01:00:42.199
No.

827
01:00:42.440 --> 01:00:45.239
Yesterday I got the bus back. No, I didn't get

828
01:00:45.280 --> 01:00:47.519
I didn't use a taxi. I got a bus back,

829
01:00:48.360 --> 01:00:52.800
and it took me two hours from the hospital to

830
01:00:52.840 --> 01:00:56.639
my home. It takes two hours with two buses waiting

831
01:00:56.719 --> 01:01:01.800
and walking. It's two hours, which is kind of strange really,

832
01:01:02.920 --> 01:01:05.360
And so I got the bus again today, missed the

833
01:01:05.400 --> 01:01:09.280
first bus, and then I missed the connection coming back.

834
01:01:10.039 --> 01:01:12.599
In fact, I didn't miss the connection. What happened is

835
01:01:12.760 --> 01:01:15.079
I got the bus back from the hospital to the

836
01:01:15.159 --> 01:01:19.480
track to the bus station. That bus station road was

837
01:01:19.559 --> 01:01:22.199
closed off, so the bus has had to do a detour.

838
01:01:23.400 --> 01:01:29.360
I was waiting for a specific bus there was. It

839
01:01:29.400 --> 01:01:33.159
didn't stop at the correct bus stop because there was

840
01:01:34.360 --> 01:01:36.880
I don't know why it didn't stop there. It went

841
01:01:37.079 --> 01:01:39.360
over and there's all these other buses in a way,

842
01:01:39.400 --> 01:01:41.199
so I'm following it to see where it's going to park.

843
01:01:41.920 --> 01:01:45.519
It parked further down the road, so I'm walking towards it,

844
01:01:45.599 --> 01:01:47.599
thinking it's going to open the doors and let people out,

845
01:01:47.840 --> 01:01:50.559
so people are going to wait to get in. No,

846
01:01:51.199 --> 01:01:54.320
it just drives off again. So I missed that bus.

847
01:01:56.400 --> 01:02:01.519
Then there's another bus which is going to the airport,

848
01:02:01.920 --> 01:02:04.760
but it does go past where I live, go past

849
01:02:04.800 --> 01:02:12.000
the estate chop a chopper chopper full proper full of

850
01:02:12.000 --> 01:02:16.559
people all on their way to holiday. I guess, so

851
01:02:16.760 --> 01:02:20.480
suitcases and everything everywhere. And I managed to get on

852
01:02:20.840 --> 01:02:25.519
and did get seat, which is okay, but it's very noisy.

853
01:02:25.880 --> 01:02:29.760
And now I guess people was excited they're on holiday.

854
01:02:29.760 --> 01:02:37.000
They just enjoy themselves, but it is, Yeah, it was

855
01:02:37.880 --> 01:02:41.639
anyway I got home. That's the bottom nine. I got home.

856
01:02:43.360 --> 01:02:46.840
I didn't I didn't do a late one though, because

857
01:02:47.239 --> 01:02:52.159
I left to get there for ten and I told

858
01:02:52.199 --> 01:02:57.000
him that I can't leave Ville on his own for

859
01:02:57.079 --> 01:02:59.519
you know, seven eight hours a day. I can't. I

860
01:02:59.559 --> 01:03:02.400
can't keep doing that. It's just not fair on him

861
01:03:02.400 --> 01:03:06.360
because he's been unhappy. He's he's stopped eating his food.

862
01:03:07.960 --> 01:03:09.840
I literally I give him his food and his water,

863
01:03:10.679 --> 01:03:13.800
and he's got everything in these But he's in one

864
01:03:13.880 --> 01:03:16.320
room like the living room. It's not it's not a

865
01:03:16.360 --> 01:03:19.159
tiny room or anything, but the windows are open, so

866
01:03:19.239 --> 01:03:21.760
he's got air ventilation. You can't get you can't get

867
01:03:21.800 --> 01:03:29.480
to the windows, TVs on or something. But it's too

868
01:03:29.519 --> 01:03:34.039
long for him, and he's now like rested. He's cuddled

869
01:03:34.119 --> 01:03:38.480
up to me and chilled out now because I got

870
01:03:38.480 --> 01:03:40.639
home a bit earlier, and I think it makes a difference.

871
01:03:41.199 --> 01:03:42.519
So I took him for a walk before I took

872
01:03:42.599 --> 01:03:47.679
him out. Today he's had three w a l k's.

873
01:03:47.719 --> 01:03:51.000
I just realized said the word. He said three today.

874
01:03:51.639 --> 01:03:54.400
He said A one normal one and one really short one.

875
01:03:54.760 --> 01:04:01.400
He said three normal length ones. Soe before I went out,

876
01:04:02.800 --> 01:04:12.559
I was back by carter past two, maybe half past two.

877
01:04:13.840 --> 01:04:17.400
So it worked. Even though I missed the bus and everything,

878
01:04:17.440 --> 01:04:19.679
I still managed to get back by half past two.

879
01:04:20.960 --> 01:04:25.760
And he didn't seem quite as stressed out as he

880
01:04:25.880 --> 01:04:30.679
was the last few days, so that taken off that

881
01:04:30.880 --> 01:04:34.599
four four odd hours more really soons to many difference.

882
01:04:35.519 --> 01:04:37.880
And I gave him some food and he's eating it.

883
01:04:40.239 --> 01:04:42.480
I gave him food yesterday, he wouldn't eat it. He

884
01:04:42.519 --> 01:04:44.320
didn't eat the food all day long. And the food

885
01:04:44.320 --> 01:04:49.639
I gave me, it wouldn't eat either. I mean on

886
01:04:49.639 --> 01:04:52.559
on Saturday or Sunday, Sunday, I think it was, or

887
01:04:52.559 --> 01:04:55.800
maybe Monday. I gave him his food and it's water.

888
01:04:56.119 --> 01:04:58.519
And I gave him a t R E E E

889
01:04:58.519 --> 01:05:02.079
E T one of his favorite ones, and I put

890
01:05:02.119 --> 01:05:04.079
it down. He grabbed it and brought it in the

891
01:05:04.119 --> 01:05:07.840
hat into the room, and then I close the door

892
01:05:07.840 --> 01:05:11.559
and he's just going bananas because he doesn't want me

893
01:05:11.599 --> 01:05:15.039
to leave. I come home, you know, eight nine hours

894
01:05:15.079 --> 01:05:19.639
late or whatever. The food's untouched. The tree's still on

895
01:05:19.679 --> 01:05:23.880
the floor. It's not even touched the tree. So yeah,

896
01:05:24.199 --> 01:05:28.480
he's been a little bit affected. I Mean, the problem

897
01:05:28.519 --> 01:05:30.760
is I've never left him on his own, hardly at all.

898
01:05:31.239 --> 01:05:34.159
The whole time had him. It's been twenty four hours

899
01:05:34.159 --> 01:05:39.639
a day pretty much together. And there's been a couple

900
01:05:39.639 --> 01:05:41.960
of occasions where I've had to leave him for a

901
01:05:42.000 --> 01:05:46.320
few hours, but never more than a few hours. I

902
01:05:46.360 --> 01:05:49.880
think maybe four four hours, five hours at the most.

903
01:05:50.920 --> 01:05:53.599
It's you know, it's a very it's rare, and this

904
01:05:53.679 --> 01:05:59.320
has been every day for four days, five days. But

905
01:05:59.360 --> 01:06:01.239
he seems to be a bit more chilled out today

906
01:06:01.239 --> 01:06:04.559
because I took him out. I had to sit down

907
01:06:04.639 --> 01:06:07.519
first because I was naked, and I took him out

908
01:06:07.559 --> 01:06:10.800
about quarter to three, and then I took him out

909
01:06:10.800 --> 01:06:16.079
again about seven. So he's had he's been out, and

910
01:06:16.119 --> 01:06:19.039
he's he's done all he needs to do out there.

911
01:06:19.280 --> 01:06:21.880
It's now dark, so it's probably about ten o'clock at night,

912
01:06:22.760 --> 01:06:25.360
and I don't feel so tired as well, because I

913
01:06:25.400 --> 01:06:27.400
had a nap when I got back here. I took

914
01:06:27.480 --> 01:06:29.400
him out. Then I had a nap for about an

915
01:06:29.440 --> 01:06:34.360
hour hour and a half and I found I work

916
01:06:34.480 --> 01:06:36.119
up with I think maybe I went to bed about

917
01:06:36.159 --> 01:06:41.239
four worke up about six. I needed I needed to

918
01:06:41.360 --> 01:06:46.519
sleep because it was I was so tired, and I'm

919
01:06:46.559 --> 01:06:50.440
still tired enough to go to bed now, you know,

920
01:06:50.559 --> 01:06:52.440
because it's what it might be gone ten. I don't

921
01:06:52.440 --> 01:06:54.719
know how long I've been talking for. I started this

922
01:06:54.840 --> 01:07:06.679
about nine o'clock, very dark, so knackering. And what's really

923
01:07:06.800 --> 01:07:13.320
strange is my neighbor has started to talk about his life,

924
01:07:13.760 --> 01:07:18.000
which he never used to do. It's away about sport generally,

925
01:07:18.880 --> 01:07:22.079
and now he's we've been going out because he doesn't

926
01:07:22.119 --> 01:07:27.119
have to stay in the ward all the time. I mean,

927
01:07:27.400 --> 01:07:30.000
I mean legally he can do whatever he wants. He

928
01:07:30.039 --> 01:07:32.440
doesn't have to stay in the ward ever. You know,

929
01:07:32.719 --> 01:07:34.400
he can come and go and do what he wants.

930
01:07:34.440 --> 01:07:37.280
But you know, as far as from a medical perspective,

931
01:07:37.639 --> 01:07:41.000
as long as he lets them know, and if he's

932
01:07:41.039 --> 01:07:43.440
got a doctor on the way, then he stays. You know,

933
01:07:43.480 --> 01:07:45.400
they say, well can you wait until you've the doctor

934
01:07:45.480 --> 01:07:48.639
seen you. And he needs to be there when they're

935
01:07:48.679 --> 01:07:50.960
doing the meals as well, because otherwise it messes it

936
01:07:51.039 --> 01:07:55.480
up for other people. So outside of that, for the

937
01:07:55.599 --> 01:07:59.519
last three days or I think Sunday, Monday, Tuo. Yet

938
01:07:59.559 --> 01:08:02.800
the last three days maybe Saturday as well, we've been

939
01:08:02.840 --> 01:08:05.480
going out for a walk. We've been gone outside and

940
01:08:05.559 --> 01:08:09.760
sat down and yes, Saturday, Sunday, Money and tew all

941
01:08:09.840 --> 01:08:17.760
four days. Which is weird because yesterday we were sitting

942
01:08:17.760 --> 01:08:21.319
at this bench and a duck started pecking at my

943
01:08:21.359 --> 01:08:25.560
grain and for a second I thought it was Vinny.

944
01:08:27.279 --> 01:08:29.000
It's because I'm so used to having him with me.

945
01:08:29.239 --> 01:08:32.319
I'm not saying that Vinnie pecks at my grain, but

946
01:08:32.560 --> 01:08:41.079
just if there's movement in my pants, this sounds wrong. Oh,

947
01:08:41.119 --> 01:08:44.279
this movement in my pants, I assume it's Vinnie. No.

948
01:08:44.920 --> 01:08:51.199
If you know I'm used to him, like rubbing up

949
01:08:51.199 --> 01:08:53.760
against me again, that sounds wrong. You know, just things

950
01:08:53.800 --> 01:08:56.159
like lick it. No, that sounds wrong as well, just

951
01:08:56.680 --> 01:08:59.960
you know, him doing his thing like jumping on me,

952
01:09:00.279 --> 01:09:05.079
or laying down and cuddling up to my feet or

953
01:09:05.960 --> 01:09:08.199
this thing, or walking on my feet, stuff like that,

954
01:09:09.239 --> 01:09:13.680
or you know. So it was weird because I nearly said,

955
01:09:13.680 --> 01:09:15.960
with Annie, what are you doing? I looked down. It

956
01:09:16.000 --> 01:09:18.720
was this duck looking up at me, and he's pecking

957
01:09:18.760 --> 01:09:26.560
at me bits gently, very gentle lover, to be honest,

958
01:09:26.800 --> 01:09:29.399
very I'm glad because they've got those big old beaks.

959
01:09:29.399 --> 01:09:32.880
They could imagine they could cause problems, but he didn't.

960
01:09:34.279 --> 01:09:39.199
It was very lovely. His name is Cyril. We got

961
01:09:39.199 --> 01:09:43.560
on quite well. We swapped numbers. You know, we're going

962
01:09:43.600 --> 01:09:49.760
to see how it goes. So I he's been talking

963
01:09:49.760 --> 01:09:53.760
and he's been opening up, and he's been asking me

964
01:09:53.880 --> 01:09:57.319
about me, which he never normally does, asking me about

965
01:09:57.359 --> 01:10:05.199
my childhood, talking about his own childhood. And I'm not

966
01:10:05.239 --> 01:10:07.159
sure if he ever saw me as a human before.

967
01:10:08.479 --> 01:10:10.199
I don't know if he ever saw me as a

968
01:10:10.239 --> 01:10:14.279
person just a neighbor, I don't think. I'm not sure

969
01:10:14.279 --> 01:10:18.279
if he saw me as a I don't know, as

970
01:10:18.279 --> 01:10:23.119
a person with feelings and or had any interest. But

971
01:10:23.159 --> 01:10:25.319
I understand that because I'm a bit like that myself.

972
01:10:28.239 --> 01:10:30.720
But then, you know, he's never really talks about his

973
01:10:30.800 --> 01:10:33.960
life normally. It's just all about sport, and I get bored.

974
01:10:34.359 --> 01:10:36.640
I tell him, I don't pretend. I tell him I'm

975
01:10:36.680 --> 01:10:41.680
not interested in hearing about football. I says, boring to me.

976
01:10:41.840 --> 01:10:44.079
It's not boring to you. It's not boring to most people,

977
01:10:44.079 --> 01:10:48.680
but to me, I switch off if you. I like

978
01:10:48.760 --> 01:10:52.840
talking about boxing, but generally I only like talking about

979
01:10:52.840 --> 01:10:58.920
boxing to people that know about boxing, because I would

980
01:10:58.960 --> 01:11:01.159
probably say that I'm more more than a casual fan

981
01:11:01.239 --> 01:11:06.600
of boxing, you know, it's something that I really have

982
01:11:06.840 --> 01:11:12.680
loved for decades. I sound probably more than just a

983
01:11:12.800 --> 01:11:18.119
I don't just watch the big fights, although they are

984
01:11:18.119 --> 01:11:25.319
the best fights quite often, but not always actually anyway,

985
01:11:25.439 --> 01:11:27.880
So that's not really about boxing.

986
01:11:28.000 --> 01:11:28.319
Is that this.

987
01:11:28.439 --> 01:11:35.600
Recorded, And I've done made a few faux pas along

988
01:11:35.600 --> 01:11:40.720
the way. So I was taken my going to take

989
01:11:40.720 --> 01:11:44.520
my friend outside, and I said to his neighbor, oh, yeah,

990
01:11:44.760 --> 01:11:50.840
he got moved to another award on Monday morning, I

991
01:11:50.880 --> 01:11:55.800
think or Sunday morning Monday. I lose in track of

992
01:11:55.840 --> 01:11:58.239
the days, to be honest, I think it might have

993
01:11:58.279 --> 01:12:01.199
been Sunday morning, and he got moved because there was

994
01:12:01.199 --> 01:12:08.159
someone was starting and being problematic with him. I don't

995
01:12:08.199 --> 01:12:20.119
know really what that was about. And so we it's

996
01:12:20.199 --> 01:12:21.600
quite funny. I said, they want me to go and

997
01:12:21.680 --> 01:12:23.960
visit him and go and then the word because it

998
01:12:24.000 --> 01:12:27.800
because they basically moved my neighbor, not the bloke, and

999
01:12:27.800 --> 01:12:30.359
he said, no, you laughed. But then we were out

1000
01:12:30.399 --> 01:12:32.000
for a walk. He said, are we going to go

1001
01:12:32.000 --> 01:12:36.439
and see that bloke? Was like, no, I didn't mean it.

1002
01:12:37.159 --> 01:12:42.319
I said, look, I think it's really worth remembering that

1003
01:12:44.079 --> 01:12:51.239
people react differently to being unwell, you know, and some

1004
01:12:51.279 --> 01:12:56.239
people are very patient, some people are not, some people

1005
01:12:56.279 --> 01:13:00.319
have you know, It's it's just it's no way of different.

1006
01:13:00.359 --> 01:13:03.319
We all react different and and I try just like

1007
01:13:03.399 --> 01:13:09.359
say to everyone in the beds. Every bed apart from

1008
01:13:09.439 --> 01:13:17.359
mabe we most beds mean I'm sure places like the

1009
01:13:17.399 --> 01:13:22.680
baby maternal maternity ward there's a lot of pretty a

1010
01:13:22.680 --> 01:13:27.039
lot of very happy people in those beds. I'm guessing

1011
01:13:27.600 --> 01:13:30.279
after giving birth. I don't know, I've never I've never

1012
01:13:30.319 --> 01:13:39.640
had a baby. But outside of that, saying to him like,

1013
01:13:41.960 --> 01:13:45.600
no one's here because I want to be here, and

1014
01:13:46.439 --> 01:13:50.399
everyone this in those beds are unwell. So it's got

1015
01:13:50.399 --> 01:13:54.439
to just need to just try and give everyone a

1016
01:13:54.479 --> 01:13:59.439
break if you can. Don't take it too personally. I

1017
01:13:59.439 --> 01:14:02.119
think I've been quite lucky in life in a sense

1018
01:14:02.199 --> 01:14:06.000
of I've done some jobs which have involved a lot

1019
01:14:06.000 --> 01:14:11.439
of rejection. That's sales. Sales is one job where it

1020
01:14:11.479 --> 01:14:17.199
doesn't matter how good you are, rejections the majority. You know,

1021
01:14:17.680 --> 01:14:23.600
it's people saying no most of the time. And I

1022
01:14:23.680 --> 01:14:25.880
kind of got used to that. And also being in

1023
01:14:25.920 --> 01:14:29.359
a working a call center, I got used to a

1024
01:14:29.399 --> 01:14:33.720
lot of very rude people as well, and I kind

1025
01:14:33.760 --> 01:14:37.479
of become accustomed to it. And then when I became

1026
01:14:37.520 --> 01:14:40.279
a counselor, I've got to find out a lot of

1027
01:14:40.279 --> 01:14:45.119
what people are going through behind the scenes as humans

1028
01:14:45.680 --> 01:14:49.479
that is not you know, because I've kind of got

1029
01:14:49.479 --> 01:14:52.520
my own experiences and I've got that to work with.

1030
01:14:53.359 --> 01:14:59.079
But then hearing in depth hundreds of other people's experiences

1031
01:14:59.119 --> 01:15:02.119
over i know, five years or whatever I was a

1032
01:15:02.159 --> 01:15:09.359
counselor that was like, wow, it was very educational, I guess.

1033
01:15:11.039 --> 01:15:16.199
So I think with those experiences mixed together, I'm kind

1034
01:15:16.239 --> 01:15:22.439
of able to look at situations from different angles. And

1035
01:15:22.560 --> 01:15:24.760
I'm not saying I do it well because sometimes I

1036
01:15:24.840 --> 01:15:34.640
really don't. Yeah, I'm not always perfect. I'm never perfect.

1037
01:15:35.640 --> 01:15:37.640
I don't even I don't even want to be perfect,

1038
01:15:37.800 --> 01:15:44.000
never really. I think being decent. I like to be

1039
01:15:44.159 --> 01:15:51.000
known as kind, and that's but naturally kind, not doing

1040
01:15:51.039 --> 01:15:54.920
it for any other reason, not doing it because I

1041
01:15:54.960 --> 01:15:58.079
want attention or because I want people to think, ooh

1042
01:15:58.279 --> 01:16:04.960
he's so kind, not that, not not like that, but

1043
01:16:05.199 --> 01:16:14.840
just genuine like a decent person. But not perfect because

1044
01:16:17.039 --> 01:16:20.039
it's easy. It's only one way to go. Once you're perfect,

1045
01:16:20.079 --> 01:16:22.760
you can't go any higher up ken you. So I'd

1046
01:16:22.880 --> 01:16:34.960
rather just I'd rather kind of surf surf in the

1047
01:16:34.960 --> 01:16:42.960
middle somewhere possibly. And yeah, anyway, I said to this,

1048
01:16:43.359 --> 01:16:47.399
his his neighbor who's in the ward. So I've got

1049
01:16:47.399 --> 01:16:51.439
to talking to two of the people because he's now

1050
01:16:51.479 --> 01:16:54.760
an award with four people. One of the people doesn't

1051
01:16:54.760 --> 01:16:58.479
talk to me, but admit that he can't anyway, so

1052
01:16:59.159 --> 01:17:07.920
he's he is very not very unwell, so but he

1053
01:17:07.960 --> 01:17:09.760
does talk to the other day. They've all got to

1054
01:17:09.800 --> 01:17:11.279
know a little bit because they're in the same room

1055
01:17:11.279 --> 01:17:14.079
with him twenty four hours a day. But he's his

1056
01:17:14.079 --> 01:17:17.560
wife usually there when I go there, so I say

1057
01:17:17.600 --> 01:17:21.279
lo to her. But the two other blokes in there

1058
01:17:22.119 --> 01:17:24.319
got chatting to him. They know my name and everything,

1059
01:17:25.520 --> 01:17:30.640
and so I've been starting to go and get coffees

1060
01:17:30.680 --> 01:17:32.479
for them and sort of saying do you need anything.

1061
01:17:32.560 --> 01:17:37.479
And it turns out neither of them are allowed to

1062
01:17:37.560 --> 01:17:46.560
leave the ward, but my neighbor can. So it's like

1063
01:17:46.800 --> 01:17:54.159
for medical reasons. And I really put my foot in it.

1064
01:17:54.880 --> 01:17:58.000
So I said to the blokes in the bed next

1065
01:17:58.000 --> 01:18:00.960
to my neighbor, I said, what if you fancy it,

1066
01:18:03.479 --> 01:18:05.560
you come in comfortab walk with us if you want

1067
01:18:05.640 --> 01:18:08.039
if you want to get out, because he hadn't editning

1068
01:18:08.119 --> 01:18:11.880
visitors for a day or so, and he said no,

1069
01:18:12.000 --> 01:18:14.880
I can't. I said, what's up to you? If you're

1070
01:18:15.319 --> 01:18:16.880
up to you, if you don't want to he said, no,

1071
01:18:17.000 --> 01:18:23.239
I can't walk. Ah, I'm so sorry, he laughed. He said, no,

1072
01:18:23.399 --> 01:18:26.439
you didn't know digit because I've only seen him in

1073
01:18:26.479 --> 01:18:29.079
the bed. I had no idea that he wasn't able

1074
01:18:29.119 --> 01:18:33.880
to walk. And I said, well if you if you

1075
01:18:33.920 --> 01:18:36.439
want to get a chair, I'm happy to push it down,

1076
01:18:37.199 --> 01:18:39.520
you know. And he said no, I'm not allowed out.

1077
01:18:39.560 --> 01:18:43.159
I was okay. I think there's a bit of rejection.

1078
01:18:43.239 --> 01:18:45.880
I think he just I'm not saying he's pretending, but

1079
01:18:47.199 --> 01:18:49.520
he might be pretending he's not allowed to leave. I mean,

1080
01:18:49.560 --> 01:18:56.640
that's what I mean. He's perhaps I'm boring him, but

1081
01:18:56.680 --> 01:19:00.399
he's a nice bloke and you are. One position asked

1082
01:19:00.439 --> 01:19:03.760
me can you take me out? And I said, well,

1083
01:19:05.439 --> 01:19:08.119
when you release from hospital, we can perhaps go for

1084
01:19:08.159 --> 01:19:10.680
a drink. He said no, no, I want Can you

1085
01:19:10.760 --> 01:19:13.039
just help me go outside? I said, oh, okay, sorry,

1086
01:19:13.560 --> 01:19:19.039
I was embarrassing. And he said to me, why do

1087
01:19:19.119 --> 01:19:21.359
you do that? I said, what do you mean? He said,

1088
01:19:21.520 --> 01:19:24.800
why do you like going about, like all, having dates

1089
01:19:24.800 --> 01:19:29.520
with men when you you like women? I said so,

1090
01:19:30.600 --> 01:19:33.520
He said, this just seems a weird thing to do.

1091
01:19:35.479 --> 01:19:39.319
I said why, He said, just I don't know. Just

1092
01:19:40.079 --> 01:19:42.720
a lot of straight people don't say things like that,

1093
01:19:43.600 --> 01:19:45.319
you know. I said, well, I'm not a lot of

1094
01:19:45.359 --> 01:19:49.399
straight people. He said that doesn't make sense. I said,

1095
01:19:49.399 --> 01:19:54.840
I know, nothing does. And then we all just like

1096
01:19:54.960 --> 01:19:59.640
looked at each other and like that moment, you know

1097
01:19:59.720 --> 01:20:04.119
that my where you all realize that's true. Nothing really

1098
01:20:04.119 --> 01:20:07.279
does make sense, does it. If you really like delve

1099
01:20:07.319 --> 01:20:13.359
into it, it's like okay, wow. So anyway, and then

1100
01:20:13.399 --> 01:20:19.279
I just I did a little dance. Again. I thought

1101
01:20:19.359 --> 01:20:22.600
that shouldn't have done that the last if someone tells

1102
01:20:22.600 --> 01:20:24.560
you they can't walk, you don't start dancing in front

1103
01:20:24.600 --> 01:20:28.319
of them. That's kind of just I wasn't doing it

1104
01:20:28.319 --> 01:20:31.079
for that reason. It was just I just had a

1105
01:20:31.079 --> 01:20:34.760
bit of nervous energy. You know. It was strange. But

1106
01:20:35.199 --> 01:20:37.760
he forgave me anyway. So I was kind of like,

1107
01:20:38.000 --> 01:20:40.119
I can't believe. I just said, do you want to

1108
01:20:40.159 --> 01:20:42.840
go for a walk? And he said, yeah, I'm not

1109
01:20:42.840 --> 01:20:45.159
a dog as well. Just don't don't don't put it

1110
01:20:45.159 --> 01:20:46.600
in that word. Do you want to go for a walk?

1111
01:20:46.640 --> 01:20:49.359
Can I take you for a walk? I said, I

1112
01:20:49.359 --> 01:20:52.279
didn't say that today. He said, yeah, you did. He said.

1113
01:20:52.279 --> 01:20:54.439
Another thing I said was that he said, when you

1114
01:20:54.520 --> 01:20:56.800
do that don't hold a dog lead in your hand,

1115
01:20:57.800 --> 01:20:59.840
and don't say good boy, good but you want to

1116
01:20:59.880 --> 01:21:05.399
go good boy, and don't call me Vinnie. I was like, okay, sorry,

1117
01:21:06.359 --> 01:21:10.840
I miss him. The other bloke, he said, they're not

1118
01:21:10.840 --> 01:21:16.279
taking me outside. I said, okay. And he's been here

1119
01:21:16.319 --> 01:21:21.800
since I don't know, he's been there for five days,

1120
01:21:21.920 --> 01:21:25.840
six days, five days and he's not been outside since

1121
01:21:25.920 --> 01:21:29.199
he's been there. And I went to the reception. I said,

1122
01:21:29.800 --> 01:21:32.520
can I take what's his name out? He's asked me?

1123
01:21:32.560 --> 01:21:35.680
And she said no. I said, I'll go on. She

1124
01:21:35.760 --> 01:21:39.920
said no. I said please. She said no. I said,

1125
01:21:40.000 --> 01:21:42.479
is that all you can say? Just no? She said no.

1126
01:21:43.479 --> 01:21:46.279
That's when I realized that she could say other things,

1127
01:21:46.319 --> 01:21:48.600
and I thought maybe she might. I just figured she'd

1128
01:21:48.600 --> 01:21:52.239
won the argument, really, And she said, the reason that

1129
01:21:52.279 --> 01:21:55.079
he can't go out is because he needs a medically

1130
01:21:55.119 --> 01:21:58.199
trained person with him. Are you medically trained? And I

1131
01:21:58.239 --> 01:22:01.760
said yes. If she said are you really, I said no,

1132
01:22:02.119 --> 01:22:04.960
I'm not. She said why did you say yes? Because

1133
01:22:04.960 --> 01:22:08.680
I thought maybe you believe me? I said, why don't

1134
01:22:08.680 --> 01:22:10.840
you just stick to your stick to your guns? And

1135
01:22:10.960 --> 01:22:13.800
if you say yes, why did you say yes? Twice?

1136
01:22:13.920 --> 01:22:20.239
I said, because I didn't think you believed me. Ah,

1137
01:22:20.800 --> 01:22:25.520
it was weird. So she said no. But I did

1138
01:22:25.600 --> 01:22:27.920
say to her, if you need someone to take him out,

1139
01:22:27.920 --> 01:22:30.239
I'm happy to take him out or any of the

1140
01:22:30.279 --> 01:22:35.199
other people, either with my neighbor or separately. I don't care,

1141
01:22:36.279 --> 01:22:38.399
you know, while I'm here, I'm happy to be useful,

1142
01:22:40.279 --> 01:22:44.359
which is a weird, weird thing. I'd rather do something

1143
01:22:44.399 --> 01:22:48.479
than just not do anything. Not in life, but just

1144
01:22:48.720 --> 01:22:53.279
in a hospital setting. I see this so much, so

1145
01:22:53.359 --> 01:22:58.399
many people working so hard, and I kind of like,

1146
01:22:58.439 --> 01:23:03.439
for example, the man next to my neighbor, he asked

1147
01:23:03.479 --> 01:23:06.840
one of the nurses or I don't have it the

1148
01:23:06.960 --> 01:23:11.960
nurse or care I don't know the different workers. Isn't

1149
01:23:11.960 --> 01:23:15.000
there in hospital if you could get a bag? Because

1150
01:23:15.000 --> 01:23:16.560
she had a lot of rubbish on his bin on

1151
01:23:16.680 --> 01:23:19.399
his table, and I said, I can get rid of

1152
01:23:19.399 --> 01:23:22.960
that for you. Just suddenly binzos over there. I'll just

1153
01:23:23.000 --> 01:23:25.760
take it bit by bit. So I emptied his table,

1154
01:23:27.000 --> 01:23:32.199
and he seemed surprised I did that. That's no difference

1155
01:23:32.279 --> 01:23:40.520
to me, And yeah, I just she was like, there's

1156
01:23:40.600 --> 01:23:47.119
a hero if you look insert your pants. It's I

1157
01:23:47.159 --> 01:23:49.760
don't know why I say that. I'm not saying this,

1158
01:23:49.840 --> 01:23:52.880
so like cool, how good I am? I emptied someone's table.

1159
01:23:53.239 --> 01:23:55.680
It's not I don't think that's going to be my epitaph,

1160
01:23:55.800 --> 01:23:59.279
is it. It was a bit annoying, but he did

1161
01:23:59.319 --> 01:24:03.760
empty people's tables. They didn't want him to. This is

1162
01:24:03.760 --> 01:24:07.640
to walk randomly around hospitals and put people's stuff in

1163
01:24:07.680 --> 01:24:16.520
the bin. It was very annoying. Yeah, so I'm trying

1164
01:24:16.560 --> 01:24:18.520
to think of any other weird things that have happened

1165
01:24:20.079 --> 01:24:26.279
since I was one. Weird occasion is older to taxi? No,

1166
01:24:26.520 --> 01:24:31.000
this is this is weird. Yeah, order a taxi and

1167
01:24:31.800 --> 01:24:36.000
I did it. It's got like this automatic auto system.

1168
01:24:36.680 --> 01:24:39.600
And at the end of it, they couldn't even understand

1169
01:24:39.600 --> 01:24:41.239
what I was saying. But at the end of it,

1170
01:24:41.319 --> 01:24:46.079
they said, so picking you up from your address and

1171
01:24:46.079 --> 01:24:50.279
delivering you back to your address my home address, and

1172
01:24:50.560 --> 01:24:53.720
I wanted to pick me up the hospital and take

1173
01:24:53.800 --> 01:24:56.239
me to my address. So they were going to pick

1174
01:24:56.279 --> 01:24:58.039
me up and drop me off at the same place.

1175
01:25:00.159 --> 01:25:03.680
Think that like caused some kind of an error in

1176
01:25:03.720 --> 01:25:09.520
the system, wouldn't you. But n So I phoned them

1177
01:25:09.600 --> 01:25:12.800
up again, and as I phoned them up, they phoned

1178
01:25:12.840 --> 01:25:15.399
me up. So I hung up, answered the phone that

1179
01:25:15.399 --> 01:25:19.199
they were calling me, and I said, she said, oh,

1180
01:25:19.479 --> 01:25:21.640
is that whatever? I said, yeah, you made a book

1181
01:25:21.640 --> 01:25:24.119
and I said yeah, and I was about to explain,

1182
01:25:25.560 --> 01:25:29.039
and she said, oh, wait it was. She didn't say

1183
01:25:29.319 --> 01:25:32.199
I'm talking, but it was kind of that attitude like,

1184
01:25:32.560 --> 01:25:36.880
wait a minute, let me finish. So she went on

1185
01:25:36.920 --> 01:25:39.560
and on and said. She said, so you don't want

1186
01:25:39.600 --> 01:25:41.479
to be picked up from that address that I said no.

1187
01:25:41.960 --> 01:25:46.760
She said, okay, I'll cancel it then, and I don't

1188
01:25:46.880 --> 01:25:48.319
explained to her. I was at the hospital and I

1189
01:25:48.359 --> 01:25:52.640
wanted to go there from the hospital. I assumed that

1190
01:25:52.760 --> 01:25:56.479
by telling her that that she would send me a taxi. No,

1191
01:25:57.239 --> 01:26:05.600
she canceled the taxi all together. So I'm waiting for

1192
01:26:05.640 --> 01:26:08.319
half an hour. Nothing comes. I phone up the taxi

1193
01:26:08.399 --> 01:26:12.279
office again. This time I speak to someone different and

1194
01:26:12.319 --> 01:26:18.479
they say, oh, you know, it's canceled. I said okay,

1195
01:26:19.640 --> 01:26:22.840
And he was surprised that it was canceled and they

1196
01:26:22.880 --> 01:26:26.479
didn't send me a taxi, and so he said, I'll

1197
01:26:26.479 --> 01:26:30.119
get someone with you now. So probably about another fifteen

1198
01:26:30.119 --> 01:26:32.119
to twenty minutes and I've got a taxi turn up.

1199
01:26:32.880 --> 01:26:37.560
And I might be exaggerating the timescale here for effect.

1200
01:26:38.359 --> 01:26:40.720
I don't know what type of effect, to be honest,

1201
01:26:41.159 --> 01:26:49.720
a boring effect. So he pulls up and I don't know,

1202
01:26:49.920 --> 01:26:51.720
he doesn't like look at the way. He didn't know

1203
01:26:51.840 --> 01:26:56.319
me anyway, but he parked up, and he didn't seem

1204
01:26:56.319 --> 01:27:00.399
to be indicate who's for because there was always people

1205
01:27:00.399 --> 01:27:06.640
waiting for taxis. So I went to where his stories,

1206
01:27:06.680 --> 01:27:11.079
you know, where he was sitting in the car. It

1207
01:27:11.199 --> 01:27:13.960
was definitely from the company i'd ordered, but it could

1208
01:27:13.960 --> 01:27:17.520
have been for anyone. And I said, are you here

1209
01:27:17.560 --> 01:27:22.920
for Jason? He said yeah, but he had a weird

1210
01:27:22.920 --> 01:27:25.239
look on his face. I said, you are right. He

1211
01:27:25.319 --> 01:27:29.359
said no, I can't go anywhere at the moment, I

1212
01:27:29.399 --> 01:27:34.439
said why not? And he pointed to the screen which

1213
01:27:34.600 --> 01:27:38.079
was the payment thing, and they said, they're telling me

1214
01:27:38.079 --> 01:27:41.640
the journey is going to be seven pound. I'm not

1215
01:27:41.720 --> 01:27:46.520
taking you all away there for seven pound, and there's

1216
01:27:46.520 --> 01:27:50.039
actually seventeen pound. I'll give a three pound tip. But

1217
01:27:50.920 --> 01:27:53.520
so they'd missed out the ten pound. So what they've

1218
01:27:53.560 --> 01:27:58.199
done is they'd put on the same thing where it

1219
01:27:58.239 --> 01:28:00.960
was the same price as the original journey. So what

1220
01:28:01.000 --> 01:28:04.520
they had charged me to pick me up and drop

1221
01:28:04.600 --> 01:28:10.000
me off at the same address was seven pounds. Why

1222
01:28:10.000 --> 01:28:11.680
would you want to be picked up and dropped? I

1223
01:28:11.720 --> 01:28:15.399
mean literally picked up. So you get in a car,

1224
01:28:16.159 --> 01:28:18.199
give them seven pounds and then you get out in

1225
01:28:18.199 --> 01:28:21.279
the car again out of the taxi. I mean, why

1226
01:28:22.000 --> 01:28:25.960
unless you're the only time I've seen anyone get into

1227
01:28:25.960 --> 01:28:28.199
a car and then get straight out again. And I

1228
01:28:28.239 --> 01:28:32.800
think this was a taxi. It was Superman movie like

1229
01:28:33.439 --> 01:28:37.000
in the late seventies. He gets in the taxi and

1230
01:28:37.079 --> 01:28:39.279
gets out the other side and he's Superman goes in

1231
01:28:39.319 --> 01:28:42.720
Clark Kent, and I think there's a taxi or was

1232
01:28:42.760 --> 01:28:46.880
a police in might bean a police car that was

1233
01:28:46.920 --> 01:28:49.159
a bit a bit rude though if it was a

1234
01:28:49.159 --> 01:28:54.039
police car, a bit rude any car really, isn't it.

1235
01:28:57.319 --> 01:29:01.000
And he said, we're not going anywhere. I'm not taking

1236
01:29:01.039 --> 01:29:04.239
anyone anywhere until I get the proper price. And I

1237
01:29:04.279 --> 01:29:07.760
said to him, look, it's seventeen pound. I'm paying you

1238
01:29:07.800 --> 01:29:10.600
twenty pound anyway, and he said, I I'll get in there.

1239
01:29:11.720 --> 01:29:14.039
I said, you know, there's no arguing on my side.

1240
01:29:14.039 --> 01:29:17.159
I'm too tired to argue, and I know that it's

1241
01:29:17.199 --> 01:29:20.600
not seven pound. I've done the journey since well I've

1242
01:29:20.640 --> 01:29:24.920
done it. I think I've done it four times at

1243
01:29:24.920 --> 01:29:34.600
that point, and he just halfway through the journey, the

1244
01:29:35.119 --> 01:29:40.000
office called him up and he explained the situation and

1245
01:29:40.039 --> 01:29:42.319
they said, oh, they didn't know what was going on,

1246
01:29:42.359 --> 01:29:51.279
and eventually they they changed it, changed it to it

1247
01:29:51.319 --> 01:29:57.720
came up properly at seventeen. But it's like I couldn't

1248
01:29:57.720 --> 01:30:00.800
wait around. I was like, I want to really because

1249
01:30:00.800 --> 01:30:04.880
when he charge me waiting time, that's what I was thinking.

1250
01:30:04.960 --> 01:30:07.720
Is he going to charge me waiting time because he's

1251
01:30:07.760 --> 01:30:14.479
waiting on the proper price. I don't know, but it

1252
01:30:14.560 --> 01:30:16.439
was a it was a cool bloke, so that was

1253
01:30:16.720 --> 01:30:21.640
that was an easy situation too to change or to

1254
01:30:21.760 --> 01:30:30.279
a remedy. And so basically, you know, my friend's under observation.

1255
01:30:30.920 --> 01:30:37.600
It's got things you know, going to be observed, et cetera.

1256
01:30:40.920 --> 01:30:46.760
That's going back and forward. This really really connected me

1257
01:30:47.920 --> 01:30:54.720
really in a way that I'm surprised at. I kind

1258
01:30:54.720 --> 01:31:01.439
of just didn't expect it, to be honest. I managed

1259
01:31:01.479 --> 01:31:06.039
to get my prescription, which is good on the way

1260
01:31:06.960 --> 01:31:15.479
and had a weird experience today. I went into because

1261
01:31:15.520 --> 01:31:18.960
they've got a W. H. Smith, They've got a Costa

1262
01:31:19.000 --> 01:31:27.119
Coffee in the hospital. There's a a supermarket in Marks

1263
01:31:27.159 --> 01:31:33.000
and Spencer's. I think, yeah, there's two Costa coffees, actually

1264
01:31:34.520 --> 01:31:36.680
one small one and one larger one where you can

1265
01:31:36.760 --> 01:31:40.920
eat like you can sit down. So I go into

1266
01:31:41.680 --> 01:31:44.479
w A Smith as well. So I go into Marks

1267
01:31:44.479 --> 01:31:47.560
and Spencer's. I get some milk because I've got no

1268
01:31:47.680 --> 01:31:54.000
milk at home for my breakfast in the morning, and

1269
01:31:54.039 --> 01:32:00.359
I realized I've got very little breakfast cereal. Ever, I'm

1270
01:32:00.359 --> 01:32:03.000
looking for the breakfast cereal and what I've noticed in

1271
01:32:03.319 --> 01:32:08.119
this Marks and Spencer's it's just maybe it's the same,

1272
01:32:09.720 --> 01:32:11.720
maybe it's always the same. I haven't been in Marx

1273
01:32:11.720 --> 01:32:16.600
Suspenser's for years, but everything is home brand. There's no

1274
01:32:16.880 --> 01:32:19.920
like norm branded stuff. It's just Marks and spencer stuff.

1275
01:32:20.840 --> 01:32:26.920
Perhaps that's the norm because you know things like Sainsbury's

1276
01:32:28.000 --> 01:32:31.640
they have their own brand, but they also sell popular

1277
01:32:31.680 --> 01:32:36.720
brands as well. Maybe Markus Spencer's don't do that, but

1278
01:32:36.760 --> 01:32:40.880
I thought they did. I thought they sold both. Hmm,

1279
01:32:41.479 --> 01:32:46.000
I'm not sure anyway, this one doesn't seem to. So

1280
01:32:46.039 --> 01:32:49.800
I'm looking for maybe just some some corn flakes or

1281
01:32:49.840 --> 01:32:54.520
something like that, and I end up in this corner

1282
01:32:54.560 --> 01:33:00.439
where they've got marks and Spencer's home brand. This gets

1283
01:33:00.520 --> 01:33:04.079
like we a BIS and I think good. Another one

1284
01:33:04.199 --> 01:33:08.640
is like Mooseley something like that. But there's this smell.

1285
01:33:10.359 --> 01:33:13.600
It's not on, it's not on. It's not a horrible

1286
01:33:13.640 --> 01:33:17.319
smell or anything, but it's like a foody kind of smell.

1287
01:33:21.720 --> 01:33:29.039
It felt very familiar, but from the past. It's very strange.

1288
01:33:30.079 --> 01:33:34.640
I had a very unusual feeling like I smelled that before,

1289
01:33:36.800 --> 01:33:42.000
but it's a long, long, long time ago. And I

1290
01:33:42.119 --> 01:33:46.439
just stood there for a second just thinking, hm hmm,

1291
01:33:47.680 --> 01:33:55.439
how strange. In fact, when I visit next time, I

1292
01:33:55.520 --> 01:33:57.199
might go in there and just have a little sniff

1293
01:33:58.000 --> 01:34:03.680
a game. It's a little like hmm, because it's going

1294
01:34:03.720 --> 01:34:06.439
to bug me. I kind of want to know what

1295
01:34:06.479 --> 01:34:12.159
that reminds me of, because it there was emotions connect

1296
01:34:12.159 --> 01:34:18.600
to it, emotions connect to it, emotions connected to it.

1297
01:34:18.800 --> 01:34:23.159
I'm not sure if I've been talking correctly anymore. Oh

1298
01:34:23.479 --> 01:34:35.840
so tired. So that's it. Really, that's the updated version

1299
01:34:35.880 --> 01:34:38.520
of where I've been and why I have not made

1300
01:34:38.560 --> 01:34:44.560
any recordings this week since Friday, I think, so I

1301
01:34:44.560 --> 01:34:53.119
didn't do anything Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Today's Tuesday. Yeah, I

1302
01:34:53.159 --> 01:34:58.319
don't know. I can't even really predict if I'm going

1303
01:34:58.359 --> 01:35:03.039
to make any more recordings this week. It's just hard

1304
01:35:03.199 --> 01:35:08.520
to know. So probably no Q and a Friday, and

1305
01:35:08.800 --> 01:35:14.079
hopefully fingers crossed and get back to be doing a

1306
01:35:14.119 --> 01:35:20.640
normal week next week. But I don't know. It's I'm

1307
01:35:20.720 --> 01:35:22.560
kind of surprised that I was able to do a

1308
01:35:22.640 --> 01:35:29.560
recording today, but up till now, I just haven't been

1309
01:35:29.600 --> 01:35:32.359
able to. I just it's just been around so many people.

1310
01:35:32.520 --> 01:35:38.000
It's I just find it very draining. I just do

1311
01:35:39.359 --> 01:35:44.600
I always have done, and it's I can thrive off

1312
01:35:44.600 --> 01:35:51.920
it for a while. But then after, you know, after

1313
01:35:51.920 --> 01:35:53.960
a couple of hours or an hour or two, I

1314
01:35:54.000 --> 01:35:58.199
was like, oh, and then after four or five hours

1315
01:35:58.199 --> 01:36:02.079
of being out, you know, I'm nearly fallen asleep on

1316
01:36:02.119 --> 01:36:09.880
the bus back today or in a taxi back. And technically,

1317
01:36:09.920 --> 01:36:12.720
you know, I've not really I've not done anything physical.

1318
01:36:14.199 --> 01:36:16.239
I've not technic, I mean literally, I've not done anything

1319
01:36:16.279 --> 01:36:21.399
physical other than just a little, pretty a bit more

1320
01:36:21.439 --> 01:36:24.920
walking than normal, because just walking around as hospitals is

1321
01:36:24.960 --> 01:36:27.159
probably more than I do when I take in for

1322
01:36:27.239 --> 01:36:36.359
a walk. Big old places, an't they And that's it. Really,

1323
01:36:36.680 --> 01:36:41.159
that's pretty much the update, there's there's I'm sure there's

1324
01:36:41.239 --> 01:36:45.039
other stuff that's happened that I've not thought about or

1325
01:36:45.079 --> 01:36:50.399
that I was thinking about, and I haven't remembered I

1326
01:36:50.479 --> 01:36:52.760
as one as one thing. Where As these two nurses

1327
01:36:52.800 --> 01:36:55.520
came in and asked one of the other patients if

1328
01:36:55.520 --> 01:36:59.880
they could borrow her this his skin cream because she

1329
01:37:00.079 --> 01:37:03.640
had sunburn. And I said, you're a sunburn She said, oheah,

1330
01:37:03.640 --> 01:37:09.000
look at this because she had a costume, a uniform one.

1331
01:37:09.159 --> 01:37:11.960
And she showed me a picture and it was like

1332
01:37:13.199 --> 01:37:16.000
her back and showed her where it was like sunburn

1333
01:37:16.039 --> 01:37:23.680
on her back and I said, oh, okay, and she's

1334
01:37:23.680 --> 01:37:26.960
holding it. She looked at me. I said next picture, please,

1335
01:37:27.960 --> 01:37:31.960
and they laughed. Thankfully, they didn't show me another picture.

1336
01:37:32.000 --> 01:37:36.640
But it was just I thought, at least I can't

1337
01:37:36.640 --> 01:37:38.920
get away with it still, because that's this kind of

1338
01:37:38.920 --> 01:37:41.039
stuff I used to say when I was younger. Maybe

1339
01:37:41.039 --> 01:37:43.159
I get away with it now because I'm so old

1340
01:37:43.199 --> 01:37:45.520
and they're just looking at me like a grand like

1341
01:37:45.600 --> 01:37:51.840
a grandfather or something. But it was nice. It was

1342
01:37:51.880 --> 01:37:55.680
just it was I'm not saying looking at the picture

1343
01:37:55.800 --> 01:38:01.680
was nice. It's just nice to have that friendliness. And

1344
01:38:02.039 --> 01:38:05.800
they've all been friendly. Everyone I've met at the hospital

1345
01:38:05.840 --> 01:38:15.600
has been very friendly, and it says cool. And that

1346
01:38:15.840 --> 01:38:20.560
is the end of this. Or are recording, so as a summary,

1347
01:38:20.800 --> 01:38:25.800
the website is back up and running. I will edit

1348
01:38:25.840 --> 01:38:31.239
this tomorrow. I'll try and do it when I wake up.

1349
01:38:31.760 --> 01:38:37.960
I don't know when I'm going to wake up. It

1350
01:38:38.000 --> 01:38:41.079
won't be early early, because it may be getting on

1351
01:38:41.119 --> 01:38:43.960
to eleven o'clock now, I don't know how long i've

1352
01:38:44.000 --> 01:38:46.680
been talking for. If that'll let me have a look,

1353
01:38:46.760 --> 01:38:52.039
if I can do it about it's twenty past eleven

1354
01:38:53.640 --> 01:38:57.680
and I've been talking for ninety nine. I've been talking

1355
01:38:57.720 --> 01:39:08.239
for one hundred minutes. What's that hour and forty minutes? See, yeah,

1356
01:39:08.239 --> 01:39:10.159
I've thought I started at ten. I've thought I started

1357
01:39:10.159 --> 01:39:14.720
at nine. Could have done one hundred minutes, So sixty

1358
01:39:15.159 --> 01:39:19.880
seventy eighty ninety one hundred an hour and forty Okay,

1359
01:39:20.800 --> 01:39:27.239
So that's it. Thank you for listening, and remember to

1360
01:39:27.279 --> 01:39:29.600
be kind to yourself because you do deserve to be

1361
01:39:29.640 --> 01:39:34.640
happy and be gentle with yourself. You deserve to feel safe,

1362
01:39:36.680 --> 01:39:37.279
lots of love.

1363
01:39:39.960 --> 01:39:40.319
Bye.

1364
01:39:46.239 --> 01:40:00.840
Relax in a more deep and meaningful way, maybe in

1365
01:40:00.880 --> 01:40:06.439
a way that can not just allow you to feel

1366
01:40:07.800 --> 01:40:17.039
calmer now and throughout the time we spend together here,

1367
01:40:19.039 --> 01:40:24.760
not just relaxed at the end of the recording when

1368
01:40:24.760 --> 01:40:31.439
it's finished and you can enjoy that sense of comfort

1369
01:40:31.600 --> 01:40:46.520
and peace, but also I think it would be nice

1370
01:40:46.640 --> 01:41:06.439
to have those feelings of relaxation continue for longer after

1371
01:41:06.520 --> 01:41:17.079
the recording has ended, so that you can still benefit

1372
01:41:19.960 --> 01:41:27.239
from listening to my voice, maybe in a few hours time,

1373
01:41:29.159 --> 01:41:42.640
perhaps tomorrow, and then by listening regularly, especially if you

1374
01:41:42.800 --> 01:41:47.439
find like some people do, and myself as well, I

1375
01:41:47.600 --> 01:41:54.359
sometimes I find one particular recording that really resonates with me,

1376
01:41:58.720 --> 01:42:01.199
and I just listen to it over and over again

1377
01:42:03.359 --> 01:42:16.399
every morning, every evening. There was this recording from We're

1378
01:42:16.399 --> 01:42:22.159
going back to about nineteen ninety nine. It wasn't hypnosis,

1379
01:42:22.239 --> 01:42:26.239
but it was a guided visualization, so it kind of

1380
01:42:26.359 --> 01:42:33.640
was hypnosis really, and I managed to find it again

1381
01:42:34.520 --> 01:42:40.000
and it still has the same effect on me, And

1382
01:42:40.199 --> 01:42:53.720
part of it was the person's voice relaxed me, just

1383
01:42:53.800 --> 01:43:00.319
felt so peaceful, and I'd look forward to listen then

1384
01:43:00.800 --> 01:43:13.039
to her in the morning and in the evening. And

1385
01:43:13.239 --> 01:43:22.359
I knew before even pressing the play button that since

1386
01:43:22.439 --> 01:43:26.840
I've done that, pressed the play button. This is in

1387
01:43:26.880 --> 01:43:41.439
the days of CD players pressed the play button. I fact,

1388
01:43:41.479 --> 01:43:45.520
it might have even been a tape tape recorder. I'd

1389
01:43:45.560 --> 01:43:55.319
lie down on the bed and then, even without necessarily

1390
01:43:56.439 --> 01:44:07.159
listening to her words, yes, because I had to memorized. Really,

1391
01:44:11.800 --> 01:44:17.800
it was as if my body knew exactly what to do,

1392
01:44:22.600 --> 01:44:44.439
and the muscles just almost went into automatic relaxation, and

1393
01:44:44.560 --> 01:44:58.199
I remember my mind would slow down. Now. Now, I

1394
01:44:58.600 --> 01:45:04.840
was listening to this recause in the early days of

1395
01:45:04.960 --> 01:45:15.640
learning hypnosis, and long before I ever made any videos

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or audio recordings myself, because I didn't start doing that

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till two thousand and six. But I knew, I knew

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how helpful I found being able to just let go,

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to have that trust in the person that I'm listening to,

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knowing that it's going to be just as relaxing, if

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not more so. Each time you hear my voice, you

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01:46:21.199 --> 01:46:32.840
may feel the same. Some people have been listening to

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01:46:32.920 --> 01:46:46.840
me for over a decade, maybe not solidly, obviously, not

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01:46:46.840 --> 01:46:53.159
twenty four hours a day, but maybe people come back.

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01:46:55.000 --> 01:47:08.680
Some people may be listen every day. And something that

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01:47:08.760 --> 01:47:21.760
I do which you may not realize by listening, is

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when I record these recordings. Now, for example, I also

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am affected by the words that I say. So if

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I set you focus on your feet, notice your feet relaxing,

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I will be focusing on my feet. I will be

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01:48:14.840 --> 01:48:32.920
noticing my feet relaxing. If I said, focus on your hands,

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and maybe notice the difference between each hand, perhaps notice

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the the air in the room, the temperature of the room.

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01:48:53.279 --> 01:49:03.680
On the backs of your hands. You may start to

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notice what almost feels like a very light breeze, even

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01:49:12.359 --> 01:49:16.600
though there may not be any type of breeze at

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all where you are right now. And as you become

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aware of your hands, I'm also aware of how relaxed

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01:49:44.960 --> 01:50:08.720
my hands are feeling now. And when it comes to

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potentially drifting off to sleep, which may be the reason

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you're listening, I also feel drowsy when I make these recordings.

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I also notice my mind drifting. In fact, at times

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I've actually fallen asleep without even noticing, and then I

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01:51:10.319 --> 01:51:21.680
carry on talking. And it's only when I listen back

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01:51:21.880 --> 01:51:30.880
to do the editing I hear snoring and I think

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01:51:31.279 --> 01:51:41.479
I don't remember snoring. I remember talking. This snoring was

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a pig turned up. That's why I sound like when

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I snare and I get really into the whole experience.

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I don't know how you feel, how relaxed you feel

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01:52:16.720 --> 01:52:27.319
in your feet, how relaxed you feel in your hands.

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01:52:42.399 --> 01:52:54.640
I have noticed more and more that the more relaxed,

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01:52:56.359 --> 01:53:12.520
deeper level of comfort you feel, the easier your breathing becomes.

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01:53:18.720 --> 01:53:35.399
It's almost like that additional muscle relaxation. So this allows

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01:53:35.439 --> 01:54:06.560
you the breath easier without necessarily focusing on your breath, however,

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01:54:06.800 --> 01:54:35.600
being able to notice the ease in which you breathe

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01:54:35.760 --> 01:55:25.640
so naturally, you breathe so very easily and smoothly. Whenever

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I imagine my breathing improving. When I've got my eyes closed,

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I tend to visualize a beautiful field with trees and

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flowers producing all that life giving oxygen. It feels nice to,

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if nothing else, just taking some time away from everything,

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01:57:15.479 --> 01:57:48.159
enjoying that feeling of peace serenity with a joyful heart.

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Time seems to just drip by, so very slowly, relaxed,

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so deeply peaceful, completely unattached to any thoughts whatsoever in

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01:59:24.079 --> 02:00:32.960
this moment, completely free, noticing that your mind has slowed down.

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02:00:36.760 --> 02:01:23.600
Slowed down because nothing really requires your attention, you can

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02:01:23.720 --> 02:01:39.840
enjoy the physical sensations of allowing the stress to drip

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02:01:40.600 --> 02:01:54.520
out of your body, to appear out of every part

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02:02:00.359 --> 02:02:26.319
of your body, being released from your brain in your mind,

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02:02:44.199 --> 02:03:33.680
slowly but surely, the muscles signally relax x really so

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02:03:34.119 --> 02:04:15.000
very deeply, relax so deeply, And the feelings, the pleasant

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02:04:15.199 --> 02:04:40.000
feelings in your arms and shoulders, deepening each part of

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your body further and deeper and deeper. Noticing the feelings

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in the back of your neck, feelings in your wrists, muscles,

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in front of your body, I all say, feeling peaceful deeply.

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There's a sense of peace spreads through your fairy core.

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Even when you focus on your mind, your mind becomes

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eve and slower, even deeper, relax so very slow, his stomach,

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02:10:03.800 --> 02:10:45.800
peace fall in your stomach. You're back. Notice Notice how

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relaxed you'd never feel in the hole of your back.

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You spy from your brain all the way down the

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middle of your back, sending and receiving millions of messages

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every day, deep comfort, increasing, deeply relaxed unslegs, spreading those

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02:13:21.479 --> 02:13:30.720
signals down a spine or cord into air every part

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of your body, your shins and your calf muscles, your elbows,

1465
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feelings of peace and tranquility, spreading through your body, tips

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of your toes, to your eyes, your fingers, all the

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way till you lower back on lettinker Rea, thinker, please

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02:16:08.720 --> 02:16:39.360
drifting mind just wandering away. Happy to let go, let

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go completely, let go, so tranquil, the whole body enjoying

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a sense of listening God he for more peece fur

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joining the space, this space of peace and safety, so

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very very relaxed, letting go. Maybe we can just focus

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on the different parts of your body, just to notice

1474
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a foelhead in your eyes, Uo so Louise, noticing the

1475
02:24:22.280 --> 02:25:55.040
sense of complete freedom, absolute freedom, PRIs tri Pea's fall

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energy peace to breathe, such easier loose you may have

1477
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you may not have noticed your mind drifting peaceful man,

1478
02:28:46.639 --> 02:29:06.840
even more deeply in the direction of total bliss for pace,

1479
02:29:11.040 --> 02:31:02.479
blissh pace terrefting to to to pace. Come so calm,

1480
02:31:14.239 --> 02:31:42.239
letting go, peace with mind.

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Rexed forty, so relaxed, so relaxed.

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Your body feels almost invisible, So the very relaxed. I'm peaceful,

1483
02:33:23.760 --> 02:34:33.840
so peace relax liquor, and you could start to notice

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that you are feeling more relaxed, even though I've not

1485
02:34:45.000 --> 02:34:55.719
purposely focused your mind upon that sense of physical comfort

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02:34:56.440 --> 02:35:03.280
that is growing within you throughout your body, and your

1487
02:35:03.399 --> 02:35:13.959
mind starts to slow down, and that could be almost

1488
02:35:14.159 --> 02:35:22.360
in recognition of I guess my speech not being particularly

1489
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fast and things just generally feel calmer. Just by listening

1490
02:35:40.559 --> 02:35:49.280
to my voice, you give yourself an opportunity to take

1491
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a break from the day, take a break from your

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02:35:56.000 --> 02:36:03.000
life as it is, and to give yourself a rest,

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02:36:05.639 --> 02:36:12.920
giving yourself permission to take some time off and to

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allow your body to relax and allow your mind to

1495
02:36:19.120 --> 02:36:30.479
slow down, which in turn releases the tension and it

1496
02:36:30.680 --> 02:36:39.559
stresses that you had in your body. It's almost as

1497
02:36:39.600 --> 02:36:45.399
if the parts of your body just open up, allowing

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02:36:45.520 --> 02:36:57.440
the negativity out and at the same time replacing that

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02:36:57.680 --> 02:37:07.280
negativity with positive heathing energy, which then fills your body

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up and your mind to also starts to appreciate those

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02:37:20.399 --> 02:37:38.040
feelings of increasing confidence, an almost uplifting feeling, positive healing,

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02:37:41.239 --> 02:37:49.799
an energy that spreads through your body like a wave

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02:37:52.120 --> 02:38:04.280
of comfort. And all this comes from just allowing yourself

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02:38:07.079 --> 02:38:12.280
a few minutes, maybe half an hour, however long you

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02:38:12.399 --> 02:38:24.959
want it to be, to just rest and allow your

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02:38:25.079 --> 02:38:35.520
mind and your body to almost reset itself to the

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02:38:35.680 --> 02:38:51.559
settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness, which allows more room

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02:38:52.040 --> 02:39:05.079
for feelings of pleasure and happiness to move around your

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02:39:05.159 --> 02:39:13.600
body and into your mind, almost as if your mind

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02:39:13.680 --> 02:39:24.319
and your body are sinking together, almost mirroring each other,

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02:39:25.360 --> 02:39:37.399
with that growing positivity and calmness, And it feels nice.

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02:39:39.799 --> 02:39:45.840
It really does feel nice to know that you are

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the one that has allowed yourself to feel more comfort

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02:39:59.280 --> 02:40:12.719
and to experience more of this deep relaxation spreading throughout

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02:40:12.879 --> 02:40:25.079
your body. And as I focus on each part of

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your body, you can notice that that part becomes even

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02:40:38.600 --> 02:40:47.879
more relaxed just by focusing on it. It becomes even

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02:40:48.120 --> 02:41:00.799
more calm and comfortable just by focusing. And as I

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move down your body, starting at your head, the parts

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02:41:09.479 --> 02:41:16.920
that you've already focused on will continue to relax deeply,

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02:41:19.680 --> 02:41:25.719
and those parts that we've not yet focused on or

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02:41:25.879 --> 02:41:37.680
just automatically release any remaining tension in anticipation of even

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02:41:38.079 --> 02:41:50.639
more comfort about to come. Now, I'm going to start

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02:41:50.719 --> 02:41:58.559
by focusing on your forehead. Just being aware the feelings

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02:41:58.680 --> 02:42:08.959
of your forehead and any background sounds like mister Herbert

1526
02:42:09.079 --> 02:42:13.879
the Pigeon, can just allow you to feel even more

1527
02:42:13.959 --> 02:42:24.200
relaxed just means you're in the moment. This isn't this

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02:42:24.360 --> 02:42:32.399
isn't a sterile environment. This is the world. I live

1529
02:42:32.559 --> 02:42:39.600
in the countryside, so there's lots of nature sounds around.

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So as you focus on your forehead, just notice how

1531
02:42:50.120 --> 02:43:00.200
it becomes even more relaxed as you focus only on

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02:43:00.360 --> 02:43:09.879
my voice and that part of your body. Moving down

1533
02:43:10.159 --> 02:43:22.639
to your eyes, Focusing on your eyes, noticing how your

1534
02:43:22.719 --> 02:43:30.520
eyelids feel so heavy yet so light at the same time,

1535
02:43:33.920 --> 02:43:44.600
and all the muscles around your eyes relaxing completely. Moving

1536
02:43:44.719 --> 02:43:51.879
your focus down to your mouth, your lips, your tongue,

1537
02:43:53.120 --> 02:44:01.040
your teeth, and your gumbs, the whole of your mouth relaxing,

1538
02:44:04.559 --> 02:44:14.719
calm and lease. As you focus now on your jaw,

1539
02:44:17.840 --> 02:44:21.399
not just the parts of your jaw near your mouth

1540
02:44:22.200 --> 02:44:26.520
and your chin, but all the way up the size

1541
02:44:26.600 --> 02:44:33.079
of your face to your ears, that hole of your

1542
02:44:33.200 --> 02:45:00.479
jaw feeding more relaxed and calm. Focusing on your neck,

1543
02:45:03.120 --> 02:45:08.920
the front of your neck and your throat relaxing and

1544
02:45:10.440 --> 02:45:20.879
loose and calm. The side of your neck, the right

1545
02:45:21.079 --> 02:45:34.000
and left side of your neck, relax and loose and calm.

1546
02:45:40.360 --> 02:45:47.040
And now the back of your neck. Focusing on the

1547
02:45:47.280 --> 02:45:57.719
back of your neck, letting go of any tension that

1548
02:45:57.920 --> 02:46:06.760
may have been there before, and enjoying that sense of

1549
02:46:07.799 --> 02:46:18.440
increasing comfort and release that you can experience in the

1550
02:46:18.559 --> 02:46:30.840
back of your neck, moving down your back and moving

1551
02:46:31.079 --> 02:46:35.440
either side of your spine right from the top of

1552
02:46:35.520 --> 02:46:41.040
your back all the way down to the bottom of

1553
02:46:41.159 --> 02:46:58.120
your back down to your lower back, and as you

1554
02:46:58.360 --> 02:47:05.680
move up and down your spine, you can feel the

1555
02:47:05.879 --> 02:47:20.920
muscles either side of your spine relaxing even more. And

1556
02:47:21.079 --> 02:47:27.760
as those muscles relax, that sense of comfort starts to

1557
02:47:28.000 --> 02:47:38.399
spread outwards from your spine into both sides of your back,

1558
02:47:42.200 --> 02:47:45.879
the top of your back, the middle, and your lower back.

1559
02:47:49.440 --> 02:47:56.559
And as you scan gently and slowly up and down

1560
02:47:56.760 --> 02:48:04.000
your back, muscles in the top of your back relax

1561
02:48:04.600 --> 02:48:12.159
and become looser. The muscles in the middle of your

1562
02:48:12.280 --> 02:48:19.680
back also seem to just almost divide from each other,

1563
02:48:20.639 --> 02:48:36.879
separating and almost melting, and in your lower back there

1564
02:48:36.959 --> 02:48:49.639
seems to be an extra special feeling of comfort. The

1565
02:48:50.000 --> 02:48:56.280
spreads into your hips, so down your lower back, into

1566
02:48:56.360 --> 02:49:07.639
your hips, into the area where your cosis are, and

1567
02:49:07.799 --> 02:49:16.760
into your buttocks, and all those muscles that spread from

1568
02:49:16.799 --> 02:49:26.280
your lower back into your hip area start to melt,

1569
02:49:30.719 --> 02:49:43.040
start to really let go, and don't even nowhere about

1570
02:49:43.200 --> 02:49:49.200
to focus on your shoulders. Your back and your spine

1571
02:49:50.239 --> 02:50:07.000
will continue to let go, continue to relax so calmly.

1572
02:50:11.680 --> 02:50:16.639
And as you focus on your shoulders, you may notice

1573
02:50:16.879 --> 02:50:41.000
that they're already feeling really loose. They're already feeding, calm

1574
02:50:47.360 --> 02:50:59.760
and feeling those muscles the move from your neck in

1575
02:51:00.079 --> 02:51:18.520
to your shoulders feel so soft and gentle, so smooth

1576
02:51:24.760 --> 02:51:47.239
and calm, and the feeding in your shoulders seens to

1577
02:51:47.719 --> 02:51:56.120
spread deep into your shoulders, that sense of relaxation, not

1578
02:51:56.680 --> 02:52:10.479
just traveling deeply into your muscles, but also relaxing the

1579
02:52:10.639 --> 02:52:20.319
bones and moving all the way to underneath your arms,

1580
02:52:23.159 --> 02:52:29.079
relaxing that whole area between the tops of your shoulders

1581
02:52:30.440 --> 02:52:45.639
and underneath your arms. He Then you feel so relaxed

1582
02:52:48.159 --> 02:53:00.200
and comfortable in your shoulders, which sends that deep heating

1583
02:53:03.520 --> 02:53:20.799
message into your arms, and you may feel almost as

1584
02:53:20.879 --> 02:53:27.600
if your arms are not even there, because they're so relaxed,

1585
02:53:30.840 --> 02:54:17.000
so deeply relaxed, so so calm, so loose, not feeling

1586
02:54:17.319 --> 02:54:32.600
spreading all the way down your arms two elbows, including

1587
02:54:34.280 --> 02:54:59.840
your elbows circumforts spreads or away into wrists, your four

1588
02:55:00.079 --> 02:55:14.520
farments and your wrists being so heavy yet at the

1589
02:55:14.879 --> 02:56:02.200
same time so light and gentle. Focusing now on your hands,

1590
02:56:23.920 --> 02:56:55.520
my hands, so peaceful in your hands. It's is sense

1591
02:56:59.239 --> 02:57:25.239
real peace. It just seems to feel so familiar when

1592
02:57:25.319 --> 02:58:30.360
your hands relax deeply, else your fingers a thing is

1593
02:58:33.479 --> 02:59:36.479
sadly you think, your tips, moving your attention to the

1594
02:59:36.680 --> 03:00:05.159
front of your body, so comfortable, Move on your focus

1595
03:00:07.079 --> 03:01:54.040
your legs, a musculs in your thighs, your knees so relaxed,

1596
03:02:21.360 --> 03:04:30.520
a carved muscles, and just shins, a puzzy four feathing

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03:04:32.000 --> 03:04:58.959
and your feet. Sir, peaceful, so calm, so peaceful, so calm,

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03:05:29.040 --> 03:05:59.000
so peaceful, so calm, so peace for re sin peace

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03:05:59.639 --> 03:06:17.719
for oh so calm, allowing that deep relaxation to spread

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your chest, in your stomach, real, letting go of everything.

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03:06:50.440 --> 03:06:56.440
So I'm gonna start counting down now, from twenty down

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03:06:56.520 --> 03:07:04.639
to one. You can imagine in a way it's like

1603
03:07:05.440 --> 03:07:11.879
just walking down some steps and each step or twenty steps,

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03:07:11.959 --> 03:07:21.079
and each step represents a level of comfort, each step

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03:07:21.600 --> 03:07:37.120
represents a deepening of that comfort, and the vervies you

1606
03:07:37.280 --> 03:07:43.319
walk down those steps, the deeper and more relaxed you feel.

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03:07:50.079 --> 03:10:24.440
So starting with number twenty twenty, nineteen, eighteen, seventeen six

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steam three four four see too well five eight nine

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eight seven four five us four two one. And now

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03:28:34.719 --> 03:28:47.000
as you focus on your eyes, we're going to count

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03:28:47.120 --> 03:28:58.920
down from ten tout one, focusing just on your eyes,

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03:29:02.680 --> 03:29:11.159
your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your eye walls themselves,

1613
03:29:12.680 --> 03:29:29.719
our whole area that makes up your eye. And as

1614
03:29:29.799 --> 03:29:38.159
we count down from ten down to one, whilst focus

1615
03:29:38.280 --> 03:29:53.280
in on your eyes, you'll become twice is relaxed with

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03:29:53.680 --> 03:30:06.680
each number counting down, and you may find the all

1617
03:30:06.799 --> 03:30:12.920
you want to do is just drift off to sleep.

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03:30:15.920 --> 03:30:22.559
And if that's what you want, then just allow yourself

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03:30:22.639 --> 03:30:37.280
to do that. Now, focusing on your eyes, I'm going

1620
03:30:37.399 --> 03:30:47.360
to begin counting down from ten down to one right now,

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ten nine eight seven four.

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Five four.

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03:37:19.520 --> 03:40:10.520
Three two one. So counting down from ten to one

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ten nine eight seven six five four three two one.

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And maybe that was a bit too quick in order

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03:40:46.840 --> 03:40:50.760
to relax. Maybe it's a bit too fast for you

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03:40:51.120 --> 03:41:00.799
to notice the calming of your body, maybe even a

1628
03:41:00.840 --> 03:41:04.680
little bit of pressure there, like you're counting down from

1629
03:41:04.760 --> 03:41:07.440
ten to one. Would you expect me to do? Man?

1630
03:41:08.360 --> 03:41:12.920
Expect me to stick, go floppy just because you're counting down.

1631
03:41:18.520 --> 03:41:21.799
We could try it again, but this time I go

1632
03:41:21.959 --> 03:41:29.319
this slower. This time, as you focus on the whole

1633
03:41:29.440 --> 03:41:35.680
of your body before we focus on your legs. Just

1634
03:41:35.920 --> 03:41:45.920
notice how your body does start to feel more relaxed

1635
03:41:50.680 --> 03:42:52.600
with every number that I count down ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three,

1636
03:43:06.120 --> 03:43:43.840
two one, And just notice how how you feel, generally,

1637
03:43:44.239 --> 03:43:55.520
how your body feels. It's not necessarily even about ye

1638
03:43:58.159 --> 03:44:05.360
counting down from ten to one. It's that space that

1639
03:44:05.520 --> 03:44:24.239
you have, that space between being active physically or mentally

1640
03:44:25.239 --> 03:44:34.120
to just sitting or lying down, just being there, not

1641
03:44:34.639 --> 03:44:40.440
doing anything, not saying anything, or needing to think about anything.

1642
03:44:42.280 --> 03:44:45.959
So it opens up a space, you know, a bit

1643
03:44:46.000 --> 03:44:56.799
of a space, a gap. And the more I came

1644
03:44:56.920 --> 03:45:01.440
down from ten to one, the bigger that gap becomes.

1645
03:45:04.479 --> 03:45:16.959
So there's that gap of calmness, of comfort, relaxation. It's

1646
03:45:17.000 --> 03:45:30.639
a nice feeling, and it moves those stresses or discomforts

1647
03:45:30.719 --> 03:45:46.719
physically or emotionally, moves them away. Allows you to just

1648
03:45:49.760 --> 03:45:56.479
slow down, someone to count again from ten down to one,

1649
03:45:56.920 --> 03:46:07.120
and notice that gap widening, the gap, And as it widens,

1650
03:46:07.200 --> 03:46:13.239
it's almost like the stress and attention falls into the

1651
03:46:13.319 --> 03:46:38.799
gap and gives you that distance, that space. Now ten

1652
03:46:43.360 --> 03:48:09.879
nine eight, seven, six, five, four three two.

1653
03:48:28.079 --> 03:48:28.319
One.

1654
03:48:40.239 --> 03:49:00.479
How does your body feel now? Can you notice step?

1655
03:49:01.360 --> 03:49:15.399
Do you feel in calmer? Do you feeling more relaxed

1656
03:49:37.840 --> 03:49:42.200
as we now focus on your legs, just your legs.

1657
03:49:58.200 --> 03:50:18.319
We're just gonna start with focusing on your thighs. Of course,

1658
03:50:18.440 --> 03:50:23.360
it's not the most exciting thing to be doing, because

1659
03:50:26.799 --> 03:50:29.440
I'm sure like most of your body is not a

1660
03:50:29.559 --> 03:50:41.959
lot going on right now. Just focusing on the whole

1661
03:50:42.120 --> 03:50:48.520
of your thighs, the tops of your thighs, the sides

1662
03:50:48.639 --> 03:50:55.639
of your thighs, the bottoms of your thighs, your outer thighs,

1663
03:50:55.760 --> 03:51:00.639
and you're inner thighs. Basically the whole of your thigh

1664
03:51:00.760 --> 03:51:09.520
that leads into your hip and it goes down to

1665
03:51:09.760 --> 03:51:23.799
your knee joints. Now, this is a big area. It's

1666
03:51:23.799 --> 03:51:29.280
a very heavy area. It's very strong, probably the strongest

1667
03:51:30.319 --> 03:51:43.479
muscles in your body or in your thighs. But I

1668
03:51:43.559 --> 03:51:51.840
don't think we perhaps give enough attention to our thighs.

1669
03:51:57.799 --> 03:52:08.559
Perhaps we don't acknowledge how important our thighs are to

1670
03:52:08.719 --> 03:52:29.360
our lives, how much they actually do for us all

1671
03:52:29.440 --> 03:52:39.879
through our lives. And it may seem to sound really weird,

1672
03:52:40.000 --> 03:52:48.399
but I think that all of our body parts, especially

1673
03:52:48.520 --> 03:52:56.120
our thighs, need some TLC, a bit of love shown,

1674
03:52:57.120 --> 03:53:15.360
a bit of acknowledgement. I thank you gratitude for our

1675
03:53:15.520 --> 03:53:24.840
thighs do for us. And I know this may sound

1676
03:53:24.920 --> 03:53:31.159
a bit strange. Maybe you think, why am I sure

1677
03:53:31.200 --> 03:53:33.639
that how I should be out in the garden hugging

1678
03:53:33.719 --> 03:53:41.639
a tree or something. Well, it's hard to set a

1679
03:53:41.680 --> 03:53:45.360
microphone up on a tree. That's why I'm doing this indoors.

1680
03:53:45.399 --> 03:53:48.920
Otherwise I would be outside hugging a tree. Now I

1681
03:53:49.000 --> 03:53:57.760
can't see the television from the tree. If you move

1682
03:53:57.840 --> 03:54:07.159
down to your knees gain such an important part. And

1683
03:54:07.760 --> 03:54:12.239
I think we don't necessarily I'll speak for myself here.

1684
03:54:14.719 --> 03:54:19.799
I don't necessarily appreciate all that my needs do for

1685
03:54:19.920 --> 03:54:26.399
me until I have a problem with my knee. It's occasionally,

1686
03:54:26.440 --> 03:54:31.440
if I ever maybe i'll bash it or it's aching

1687
03:54:31.600 --> 03:54:38.000
for some reason. It's then that I realize how much

1688
03:54:38.120 --> 03:54:41.760
it does. You know, the benefit of being able to

1689
03:54:42.719 --> 03:54:51.920
use my legs without any kind of physical discomfort is

1690
03:54:52.760 --> 03:54:59.959
a beautiful thing that's possibly not appreciated until it's temporary.

1691
03:55:00.040 --> 03:55:08.920
Really removed. You know that's comfort. But as you focus

1692
03:55:09.040 --> 03:55:16.920
on your knees, regardless of how your knees feel, you

1693
03:55:17.000 --> 03:55:22.840
can have that sense of gratitude and love to your

1694
03:55:22.879 --> 03:55:35.520
knees for all that they do for you, And you

1695
03:55:35.600 --> 03:55:39.479
can still have that attention on your thighs and maybe

1696
03:55:39.680 --> 03:55:45.920
notice how your thighs feel. Maybe you've noticed that they

1697
03:55:46.840 --> 03:56:04.639
are relaxing more deeply as you focus now on the

1698
03:56:04.719 --> 03:56:09.120
bottoms of your legs, your shins and your calf muscles

1699
03:56:09.479 --> 03:56:17.200
and the bones between your knees and your feet incorporate,

1700
03:56:17.280 --> 03:56:28.079
and of course your ankles so important. You know, anyone

1701
03:56:28.159 --> 03:56:34.399
that's had even the slightest sprain of an ankle knows

1702
03:56:34.719 --> 03:56:46.639
how how much we take our ankles for granted. And

1703
03:56:46.760 --> 03:56:49.040
it's kind of strange in a way when you think that.

1704
03:56:51.600 --> 03:56:55.559
You know, logically, our wrists are a lot thinner than

1705
03:56:55.680 --> 03:56:59.760
the rest of our arms, which is okay, it doesn't

1706
03:57:00.440 --> 03:57:03.799
can't see any problem with that because we're just picking

1707
03:57:03.879 --> 03:57:11.239
stuff up. But our ankles so much thinner than the

1708
03:57:11.280 --> 03:57:21.559
rest of our legs, and from a physics perspective or

1709
03:57:21.719 --> 03:57:25.879
logical even it doesn't really make sense that all this

1710
03:57:26.159 --> 03:57:34.959
weight would ultimately be resting on your ankles then leading

1711
03:57:35.000 --> 03:57:47.799
to your feet, that thin area, a thin bone. Yeah,

1712
03:57:47.879 --> 03:57:53.600
it does so much great work. Supports us, supports our

1713
03:57:53.680 --> 03:58:05.440
body for a lifetime, helps us to balance, It helps

1714
03:58:05.520 --> 03:58:18.079
you to get her around and be mobile. And there's

1715
03:58:18.120 --> 03:58:26.000
the calf muscles. Of course, when I was younger, I

1716
03:58:26.079 --> 03:58:29.280
couldn't see the point in calf muscles. It didn't seem

1717
03:58:29.319 --> 03:58:34.399
to do anything. Okay, if I walked around on tiptoes,

1718
03:58:35.200 --> 03:58:39.040
then my calf muscles get some work. But of course

1719
03:58:39.120 --> 03:58:43.239
that's not true. The calf muscles are being used whenever

1720
03:58:43.319 --> 03:58:55.239
we use our legs and your shins there to protect

1721
03:58:57.239 --> 03:59:05.879
your lower legs, shaped in a way, almost as a

1722
03:59:05.959 --> 03:59:18.239
protector for the bone, leading of course to your ankles

1723
03:59:21.600 --> 03:59:28.159
and your feet. But we're not going to focus on

1724
03:59:28.280 --> 03:59:30.360
your feet. We're just going to focus on the legs.

1725
03:59:32.479 --> 03:59:37.079
I realize that now that I've mentioned your feet, it

1726
03:59:37.200 --> 03:59:42.120
probably focuses on them anyway, So maybe I should focus

1727
03:59:42.200 --> 03:59:48.040
on your feet a little bit. You can have them

1728
03:59:48.079 --> 03:59:53.639
in your awareness, the same as you have your thighs

1729
03:59:53.920 --> 03:59:58.200
in your awareness. Even though we haven't been focusing on

1730
03:59:58.360 --> 04:00:03.120
your thighs a few minut it's who've been focusing on

1731
04:00:03.239 --> 04:00:20.440
your ankles. There's still that sensation of comfort in your thighs,

1732
04:00:25.440 --> 04:00:32.799
and there's that movement of energy because the thighs hold

1733
04:00:34.719 --> 04:00:40.000
lots of different sensations. Of course, there's the muscles, the

1734
04:00:40.319 --> 04:00:52.799
big strong muscles that we have in our thighs. But

1735
04:00:52.959 --> 04:00:58.600
the skin on the outside of the thighs, as in

1736
04:00:59.120 --> 04:01:04.879
the outside of all of our body, can be very sensitive,

1737
04:01:08.799 --> 04:01:22.000
sensitive to the touch, sensitive to temperature. And inside your

1738
04:01:22.120 --> 04:01:29.559
thighs the bones, there's the muscle, there's the blood, vessels,

1739
04:01:29.719 --> 04:01:35.520
the arch trees, to all this stuff that's inside your thighs.

1740
04:01:39.840 --> 04:01:43.000
And I guess sometimes it'd be nice if you could

1741
04:01:43.040 --> 04:01:48.399
actually put your fingers inside your thighs and a message,

1742
04:01:50.760 --> 04:01:54.319
so you can message on the outside, of course, but

1743
04:01:54.399 --> 04:01:57.520
to be able to get deep into the muscles and

1744
04:01:57.600 --> 04:02:02.719
to be able to just message inside your thighs, message

1745
04:02:02.760 --> 04:02:11.520
in the bones of your leg, massage in all the veins,

1746
04:02:11.719 --> 04:02:21.920
and just gently healing your thighs, and you could move

1747
04:02:22.120 --> 04:02:29.479
down message and inside your knees, just message in those bones,

1748
04:02:30.479 --> 04:02:37.520
but with healing fingertips, spreading that healing energy deep into

1749
04:02:37.639 --> 04:02:47.040
the joints of your knees. Of course, there's the back

1750
04:02:47.319 --> 04:02:52.239
of your your knee you know, the inside crease where

1751
04:02:52.280 --> 04:03:00.120
your knee is. It's a very sensitive area. Very it's

1752
04:03:00.200 --> 04:03:04.159
very nice when you stroke it. That might be because

1753
04:03:05.040 --> 04:03:09.959
it's an area that's not really touched very often. It's

1754
04:03:10.120 --> 04:03:16.639
almost like a hidden part, that crease in your legs.

1755
04:03:16.760 --> 04:03:24.079
It's almost like a part that has a sensitivity, which

1756
04:03:24.159 --> 04:03:34.600
is a little bit different. Of course, it's protected by

1757
04:03:34.680 --> 04:03:46.079
your legs, So you can imagine putting your fingers into

1758
04:03:46.200 --> 04:03:55.840
that crease in your legs, that fold in between your legs.

1759
04:03:56.559 --> 04:04:00.479
You can just mess out with your fingertips, letting your

1760
04:04:00.600 --> 04:04:11.680
fingertips going inside, massage in the muscle tissue you can

1761
04:04:11.920 --> 04:04:19.000
cause field the bones of your knees, healing through your fingertips,

1762
04:04:26.399 --> 04:04:31.719
and then as you go down to your calf muscles.

1763
04:04:32.079 --> 04:04:33.799
Now that's the part I'd like to be able to

1764
04:04:34.639 --> 04:04:42.000
really put my fingertips deep inside my calf muscles, massage

1765
04:04:42.120 --> 04:04:51.200
in every single tissue of that muscle, healing every part.

1766
04:04:57.120 --> 04:05:03.239
And then doing the same for my shins, massage in

1767
04:05:03.399 --> 04:05:10.920
and gently stroking the bones, gently stroking them, healing in

1768
04:05:11.040 --> 04:05:18.200
a loving way, because they deserve to be treated as

1769
04:05:18.280 --> 04:05:22.319
the precious bones that they are. Because our legs are

1770
04:05:22.360 --> 04:05:26.159
so precious as in all the other parts of our body,

1771
04:05:28.639 --> 04:05:42.520
and more precious than any jure on the planet. When

1772
04:05:42.600 --> 04:05:50.360
you start to think about your legs in this way,

1773
04:05:54.959 --> 04:06:01.600
it can change your perspective. It might sound a bit

1774
04:06:04.719 --> 04:06:08.959
a bit silly to start with the idea of having

1775
04:06:09.879 --> 04:06:19.879
love for your legs, showing appreciation for your thighs, wanting

1776
04:06:20.000 --> 04:06:23.920
to be able to put your hands in your thighs,

1777
04:06:26.159 --> 04:06:32.479
massage the muscles and the bones, and to get your

1778
04:06:32.600 --> 04:06:41.120
fingers deep in there, releasing all tension, just to show

1779
04:06:43.000 --> 04:06:50.360
how much you care about your legs, how much you

1780
04:06:50.520 --> 04:06:59.079
care for what your legs do for you regularly, your knees,

1781
04:06:59.319 --> 04:07:12.159
your car's, your ankles. The strength of your ankles, considering

1782
04:07:12.360 --> 04:07:16.840
how thin they are compared to the rest of your legs,

1783
04:07:17.040 --> 04:07:30.719
especially your thighs. Yeah, they're so strong, so flexible, absolutely

1784
04:07:30.959 --> 04:07:42.760
amazing things. Your ankles are truly a gift because of

1785
04:07:42.840 --> 04:07:54.120
what they do for you, supporting all that weight, regardless

1786
04:07:54.200 --> 04:07:58.200
of how what weight you are, even if you only

1787
04:07:58.600 --> 04:08:08.319
ate stone's still a lot of weight for these little ankles. Now,

1788
04:08:08.360 --> 04:08:16.159
I'm a lot heavier than eight stone double down, yet

1789
04:08:16.200 --> 04:08:25.200
my ankles support my body all the time. Although they

1790
04:08:25.280 --> 04:08:30.959
do give off a sigh of relief when I sit down. That's,

1791
04:08:31.799 --> 04:08:38.959
in fact, my whole legs do. My feet feet also

1792
04:08:39.159 --> 04:09:04.399
go and my toes clap. We're so happy. Your legs

1793
04:09:06.280 --> 04:09:14.479
really are amazing. And I know that about talking about

1794
04:09:14.559 --> 04:09:21.319
your legs is probably possibly among the most most boring

1795
04:09:21.440 --> 04:09:28.959
things I've ever heard anyone say. Possibly, but boring or not,

1796
04:09:30.520 --> 04:09:46.000
everything I said is true. Your legs are amazing. Your

1797
04:09:46.120 --> 04:09:58.719
legs deserve not just respect, they deserve to relax deeply.

1798
04:10:06.000 --> 04:10:09.360
They deserve to take some time out of the day

1799
04:10:11.559 --> 04:10:40.280
to just let go completely. Your legs really can relax.

1800
04:10:47.920 --> 04:10:52.040
And because the legs are so such a most, you know,

1801
04:10:52.280 --> 04:10:58.200
very important part of your body. When you relax your legs,

1802
04:10:58.319 --> 04:11:05.559
the rest of your body also naturally follows in that

1803
04:11:09.280 --> 04:11:20.120
journey of comfort. I can feel it in my hips.

1804
04:11:21.520 --> 04:11:28.319
My hips feel really loose, and also in my lower

1805
04:11:28.440 --> 04:11:35.280
back as well. My lower back really feels it feels stretched,

1806
04:11:36.399 --> 04:11:39.440
even though I'm just sitting in a chair and there's

1807
04:11:39.559 --> 04:11:44.799
no stretching as far as I'm aware that I'm doing.

1808
04:11:45.840 --> 04:11:48.479
It's almost as if the muscles are just relaxed so

1809
04:11:48.719 --> 04:11:54.639
much that there is a natural stretch as the tension

1810
04:11:55.520 --> 04:12:16.799
has reduced a lot and I'm now going to count

1811
04:12:16.879 --> 04:12:24.719
down from ten down to one, and you can continue

1812
04:12:26.600 --> 04:12:52.879
to feel wonderfully relaxed ten nine, eight, seven, six, five,

1813
04:12:57.479 --> 04:13:25.559
four three two one relaxed. So I'm just going to

1814
04:13:25.639 --> 04:13:31.040
count down from five down to one, and as a countdown,

1815
04:13:32.319 --> 04:13:37.040
if you just focus on the numbers, just the numbers

1816
04:13:38.719 --> 04:13:47.719
counting down, and notice how you feel in this moment

1817
04:13:49.479 --> 04:13:53.840
as you hear the numbers counting down, knowing that those

1818
04:13:54.000 --> 04:14:07.079
numbers counting down represent you feeling calmer, not just in

1819
04:14:07.159 --> 04:14:15.520
your body, but also relaxing your mind. I just notice

1820
04:14:15.559 --> 04:14:21.600
how you feel. There's nothing to do, there's nothing to say,

1821
04:14:22.280 --> 04:14:39.360
there's nothing to think about, starting with number five, four

1822
04:14:48.879 --> 04:15:24.600
three tw one. And as you notice the gradual letting

1823
04:15:24.760 --> 04:15:34.120
go the tension in your body, you may also begin

1824
04:15:34.440 --> 04:15:40.399
to notice and be aware of how your mind is

1825
04:15:41.479 --> 04:15:49.319
starting to slow down. This is just a natural thing

1826
04:15:49.799 --> 04:15:57.200
that happens. It's not really a special procedure. It's just

1827
04:15:57.399 --> 04:16:03.639
natural because as your body relaxes, your mind also starts

1828
04:16:03.680 --> 04:16:08.360
to relax. And the more your mind relaxes, the more

1829
04:16:08.440 --> 04:16:13.639
your body relaxes. It's just a continuous circle of relaxation,

1830
04:16:19.719 --> 04:16:28.239
and there's that calmness that comes from relative quietness. You know,

1831
04:16:28.360 --> 04:16:34.000
even even if there's background sounds either your side online,

1832
04:16:35.719 --> 04:16:41.600
it's still going to be quite calm. You know, you

1833
04:16:41.680 --> 04:16:46.360
haven't got the television on, there's no music in the

1834
04:16:46.399 --> 04:16:49.639
background unless you're listening to the recording. With music, of course,

1835
04:16:54.520 --> 04:16:56.680
you're very likely not going to be sitting in a

1836
04:16:56.799 --> 04:16:59.840
room with other people. Of course you might be, but

1837
04:17:01.200 --> 04:17:04.479
generally it's more ideal if you can do this on

1838
04:17:04.600 --> 04:17:15.920
your own, so no distractions, and when you stop thinking

1839
04:17:15.959 --> 04:17:33.159
about stuff, relaxation automatically rises. A sense of comfort starts

1840
04:17:33.200 --> 04:17:41.959
to grow, and without trying to build it up into

1841
04:17:42.079 --> 04:17:54.200
something fantastical or something magical, this is just a natural process,

1842
04:17:56.520 --> 04:18:07.200
something that's easy to accomplish. In fact, it's almost you know,

1843
04:18:07.360 --> 04:18:14.200
the sense of relaxing completely happens really when you put

1844
04:18:14.399 --> 04:18:18.239
no effort into it. It's not something that you can

1845
04:18:18.360 --> 04:18:29.959
really force. It's something that happens naturally. And part of

1846
04:18:30.399 --> 04:18:40.639
the process of this recording and others is simply two

1847
04:18:42.200 --> 04:18:52.559
allow you to take advantage of this space. This time,

1848
04:18:55.479 --> 04:19:06.479
it's just let go to just be here, to be

1849
04:19:07.120 --> 04:19:20.559
in tune with how you feel, yet with the intention

1850
04:19:22.799 --> 04:19:34.239
of wanting to relax deeply and maybe even to fall asleep,

1851
04:19:35.399 --> 04:19:40.559
depending on what it is that you wish for yourself

1852
04:19:42.360 --> 04:19:57.399
in this moment. As we know, relaxing is the majority

1853
04:19:58.639 --> 04:20:02.639
of the process of full and asleep. The actual falling

1854
04:20:02.680 --> 04:20:09.440
asleep part is the tiny bit at the end. The

1855
04:20:09.600 --> 04:20:24.079
deeper relaxed you become, the easier you find yourself drifting.

1856
04:20:33.520 --> 04:20:40.000
But you can also if you choose stay focused on

1857
04:20:40.239 --> 04:21:03.920
my voice and really enjoy the process of gradually relaxing

1858
04:21:08.239 --> 04:21:34.719
each muscle in your body effortlessly and just observing the

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sensation of letting go completely. This time, I'm going to

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count from six down to one, and you can notice

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your mind calming down more with each number that you

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04:22:16.959 --> 04:22:33.399
hear me say, naturally, feeling calm and slow and peaceful

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sex five, four, three T one. Being aware of how

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your mind has slowed right down, sinking deeply into relaxation.

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And as you focus on your mind, you may notice

1866
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that there are some thoughts still there, maybe some stubborn

1867
04:26:17.520 --> 04:26:33.319
thoughts that for some reason perhaps need your attention. That's

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what you can do is send love to those thoughts.

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Sprinkle those thoughts with love like all petals from a flower,

1870
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Just sprinkle it over them. Petals filled with love towards

1871
04:27:04.239 --> 04:27:08.159
those thoughts, to let those thoughts.

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Know that.

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You're not abandoned in them. You just need them. You

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04:27:16.200 --> 04:27:27.959
require them to just calm down, slow down, quiet down.

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For now.

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So as you focus on those remaining thoughts as we

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04:27:45.079 --> 04:27:50.319
count down this time from seven down to one. With

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04:27:50.479 --> 04:28:04.360
each number, just imagine sprinkling those flower petals of love, kindness,

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04:28:05.959 --> 04:28:17.799
gratitude over those thoughts, which will allow them to just

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04:28:19.239 --> 04:28:34.239
melt away and relax deeply. With every number, those thoughts

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will become more and more relaxed, starting with number seven, six, five, four,

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04:30:09.000 --> 04:31:23.879
three two one. Yeah, And as you now notice how

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relaxed you're feeling in your body, we're going to focus

1884
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on your hands because the more relaxed your hands are,

1885
04:32:01.159 --> 04:32:20.399
the more relax your body and mind are. And there's

1886
04:32:22.120 --> 04:32:32.280
you focus on your hands and your fingers. There's nothing

1887
04:32:32.799 --> 04:32:37.520
needed to be done. There's no clenching of fists or

1888
04:32:38.559 --> 04:32:48.879
tents in the fingers or anything like that. It's just

1889
04:32:49.399 --> 04:33:03.440
noticing and focusing on your hands, noticing how they feel,

1890
04:33:18.080 --> 04:33:28.520
because the more relaxed your hands feel, the calmer your

1891
04:33:28.759 --> 04:33:40.639
mind feels, and the more comfort you feel throughout your body.

1892
04:33:46.599 --> 04:34:19.919
You may have already notice you mind is starting to

1893
04:34:20.279 --> 04:34:47.919
dress like since just on your hands and fingers, allowing

1894
04:34:48.520 --> 04:35:02.919
them to experience a real deepening of that relaxation in

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04:35:03.080 --> 04:35:21.159
your hands and fingers, more and more relaxed. With each

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04:35:21.479 --> 04:35:41.720
number from eight down to one. You can almost feel

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04:35:42.200 --> 04:35:52.880
that healing and relaxing energy spreading into your hands and fingers,

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04:35:56.240 --> 04:36:02.959
becoming year more.

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Relaxing with each number you hear, going down eight down to.

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One, drifting, drifting again starting with number eight, seven, six, five, four, three.

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Fo.

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Just being here now, nothing to think about, nothing to do,

1903
04:40:49.080 --> 04:41:03.000
nothing to say, and everything just feels calmer. And this

1904
04:41:03.279 --> 04:41:10.880
is your natural state of being. This is how you

1905
04:41:11.159 --> 04:41:18.080
just normally feel when you take away all that other

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04:41:18.479 --> 04:41:25.400
stuff that we add, you know, things like stress and

1907
04:41:25.639 --> 04:41:41.799
worrying and overthinking and anxiety, tension, just generally thinking about stuff.

1908
04:41:43.840 --> 04:41:47.119
When you take that away, which is what we do

1909
04:41:47.919 --> 04:41:59.720
what we do now, you're left with a real sense

1910
04:42:00.400 --> 04:42:12.919
of peacefulness which comes to you very quickly, because ultimately

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it's just a feeling, a feeling of comfort. It's almost

1912
04:42:27.319 --> 04:42:30.919
as if you've gone inside yourself and you've found a

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04:42:31.159 --> 04:42:45.040
special place where everything is peaceful, a place where you

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04:42:45.240 --> 04:42:55.759
can feel relaxed and your natural sense of comfort, a

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04:42:55.880 --> 04:43:04.400
place where you can be you, where you can accept

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04:43:04.520 --> 04:43:10.599
yourself for who you are, a place where you're not

1917
04:43:10.799 --> 04:43:21.159
trying to please anybody else ever, a place where you

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04:43:21.400 --> 04:43:30.959
can actually not just love yourself, but in some ways

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04:43:31.040 --> 04:43:40.159
more importantly, you can like yourself appreciate who you are.

1920
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That sense of gratitude is in the air all around you.

1921
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That's also a place where you can actually feel the

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04:44:11.439 --> 04:44:26.720
healing energy soaking into your body. Healing energy soaking into

1923
04:44:26.840 --> 04:44:36.799
your body, and that healing energy spreads through your veins,

1924
04:44:40.560 --> 04:44:47.439
traveling to each and every single part of your body,

1925
04:44:53.400 --> 04:44:57.959
and you start to realize that actually that healing energy,

1926
04:45:00.439 --> 04:45:06.840
it's not just entered into your brain, it's become part

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04:45:07.360 --> 04:45:18.680
of your brain, and that spinal fluid is now mixed

1928
04:45:18.759 --> 04:45:29.880
with healing energy, not just allowing you to feel so

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04:45:30.159 --> 04:45:42.000
much more relaxed and healthy in this moment, but also

1930
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you start to realize that actually, what's happening now with

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that heathing, relaxing energy spreading through your body, it's actually

1932
04:46:02.720 --> 04:46:12.919
changing your life. It's actually changing the way you're going

1933
04:46:13.000 --> 04:46:19.479
to feel not just now, but tomorrow and the next

1934
04:46:19.599 --> 04:46:29.000
day as your health improves, not just your physical health

1935
04:46:29.119 --> 04:46:36.479
but your mental health. Things that used to bother you

1936
04:46:36.680 --> 04:46:43.840
in the past, for some reason, no longer have the

1937
04:46:43.959 --> 04:46:52.880
effect that they used to because something has changed deep

1938
04:46:53.360 --> 04:47:04.000
within you. Maybe things they used to cause you to

1939
04:47:04.159 --> 04:47:16.439
feel anger no longer have that power to control you

1940
04:47:18.959 --> 04:47:25.240
the way they seem to be able to before. As

1941
04:47:25.400 --> 04:47:36.919
you realize that you're the one who decides what affects you,

1942
04:47:40.560 --> 04:47:49.400
you're the one who decides to feel relaxed and calm

1943
04:47:51.000 --> 04:48:06.319
when you choose to enjoy noticing these natural developments of

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healing continuing to grow and improve your life day by day,

1945
04:48:24.119 --> 04:48:32.319
including of course, your ability to relax so much easier.

1946
04:48:37.279 --> 04:48:46.880
And sleeping is the most natural thing in the world

1947
04:48:48.319 --> 04:48:56.639
to you, because falling asleep is something that you've done

1948
04:49:00.119 --> 04:49:07.639
many times in your life, and you know that you

1949
04:49:07.759 --> 04:49:14.479
were born, as we all were, with the ability to

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fall asleep naturally. We were born with that ability to

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just drift off into a deep, healing sleep. Even when

1952
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we're kids, sometimes we'll fall asleep when we don't even

1953
04:49:47.119 --> 04:49:53.200
want to try to us stay awake. Maybe it's a

1954
04:49:53.360 --> 04:49:57.840
birthday in the morning, or it's Christmas or holiday or

1955
04:49:57.880 --> 04:50:00.840
something we look forward to want to go to sleep.

1956
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But the more we want to stay awake. The more

1957
04:50:08.279 --> 04:50:16.599
we just start to drift, and the more you fight drifting,

1958
04:50:17.279 --> 04:50:19.639
the more you try and stop yourself and drift in

1959
04:50:19.720 --> 04:50:32.759
a shape, the deeper and stronger that drifting becomes. Because

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we're born not just with the need to relax deeply

1961
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and to naturally fall asleep, but it's our birthright, it's

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part of our DNA, and sometimes as we get older

1963
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in life, perhaps at times we have forgotten that relaxing completely.

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It's not only a wonderfully pleasant experience, it's also really easy.

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It's very, very easy to let go, because that's all

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it is. It's just deciding to let go. And when

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you press the play button on my recordings, you have

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04:52:10.520 --> 04:52:21.080
given permission for my voice to relax you. When you

1969
04:52:21.240 --> 04:52:26.400
press that play button, you have given me permission for

1970
04:52:26.560 --> 04:52:40.639
my words to affect you in a positive, only a

1971
04:52:40.799 --> 04:53:02.119
positive way, opening up your mind to useful and healing

1972
04:53:03.720 --> 04:53:19.759
suggestions that can have such an amazing effect on how

1973
04:53:19.919 --> 04:53:31.959
you feel right now, as well as those changes that

1974
04:53:32.319 --> 04:53:42.279
continue long after the recording ends, those changes within you

1975
04:53:45.159 --> 04:53:59.599
that continue to flourish and grow, transforming your life in positive,

1976
04:54:01.439 --> 04:54:11.040
beautiful way, allowing you to move forward in your life

1977
04:54:12.520 --> 04:54:27.319
in the direction that you choose for yourself. And this feeling,

1978
04:54:30.080 --> 04:54:38.159
this feeling that you can experience a safety, comfort, calmness.

1979
04:54:45.959 --> 04:54:59.840
This feels so nice. It's such a healthy place to be,

1980
04:55:07.799 --> 04:55:21.560
and that positivity grows within you each and every day.

1981
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Moving forward, you're going to find that you're more relaxed

1982
04:55:36.799 --> 04:55:49.119
physically and in your mind is more relaxed. And it's

1983
04:55:49.200 --> 04:55:54.720
not that you're thinking slower. It's just that your mind

1984
04:55:54.840 --> 04:56:06.720
will be less clogged up with unnecessary negativity because from

1985
04:56:06.840 --> 04:56:17.080
now on, your mind rejects negativity. From now on, you're

1986
04:56:17.159 --> 04:56:27.959
going to start noticing when negativity arises and you can

1987
04:56:28.159 --> 04:56:42.080
just say stop, stop, and that negativity will turn around

1988
04:56:42.720 --> 04:57:02.080
and leave you alone. Stop and that negativity would disappear.

1989
04:57:10.240 --> 04:57:16.720
And as you notice that you feel way more relaxed

1990
04:57:18.119 --> 04:57:33.479
than you probably expected, you can now congratulate yourself because

1991
04:57:33.720 --> 04:57:40.080
you're the person that has done this. You are the

1992
04:57:40.240 --> 04:57:45.279
one that has opened your mind up to the simple

1993
04:57:45.520 --> 04:57:53.360
facts that you can feel more relaxed in your body

1994
04:57:54.119 --> 04:58:03.360
and in your mind. You've opened your mind up to

1995
04:58:05.720 --> 04:58:12.279
the birthright of being able to just fall asleep easily

1996
04:58:13.360 --> 04:58:27.360
when you choose, And that's a nice feeling. Don't you

1997
04:58:27.479 --> 04:58:39.040
think it feels nice? Doesn't it to feel calm? All

1998
04:58:39.119 --> 04:58:43.680
that healing energy is spreading through your body and your

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04:58:43.799 --> 04:59:00.279
mind to spend time a special place where negativity Kah

2000
04:59:01.080 --> 04:59:13.959
can no longer enter. Negativity is banned. It's bad, it's

2001
04:59:14.040 --> 04:59:20.720
not allowed entry. Doesn't it doesn't. This doesn't deserve to

2002
04:59:20.799 --> 04:59:29.959
be here, doesn't belong here. Negativity has no place in

2003
04:59:30.119 --> 04:59:46.680
your life, which makes room for more comfort, more heathing,

2004
04:59:48.840 --> 05:00:16.080
more relaxation, more peace. It feels nice, doesn't it? Just

2005
05:00:19.599 --> 05:00:39.880
the leto with everything. I'm going to count down now

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05:00:40.159 --> 05:00:48.360
from twenty down to one. You can continue to relax.

2007
05:00:50.560 --> 05:01:02.080
If you choose, you can drift to sleep. With every

2008
05:01:02.279 --> 05:01:13.919
number you hear me say, you can fill twice as relaxed,

2009
05:01:16.959 --> 05:01:21.159
or if you choose, you can feel twice a sleepy

2010
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now twenty nineteen, eighteen seven vighteen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven.

2011
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Ten and.

2012
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Nine eight seven six five four. This is your time

2013
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to just take a break, your time to relax, to

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allow your mind to slow down, to give yourself permission

2015
05:04:58.759 --> 05:05:11.479
to take a break, break from everything. And you're the

2016
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only person that can make that decision. You're the only

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05:05:18.840 --> 05:05:27.000
person that can actually tell your mind to just relax,

2018
05:05:35.119 --> 05:05:50.720
to just take some time off so that you can

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focus on your body, getting in touch with how you

2020
05:05:57.080 --> 05:06:13.959
feel physically. And in the process of this body scan,

2021
05:06:14.360 --> 05:06:24.840
where you focus on different parts of your body, those

2022
05:06:25.159 --> 05:06:32.319
parts that you focus on and observe, even though you're

2023
05:06:32.400 --> 05:06:41.240
not purposely requesting for those parts of your body to relax,

2024
05:06:43.479 --> 05:06:49.799
it's kind of expected. You expect when you listen to

2025
05:06:49.959 --> 05:07:02.639
my voice to feel more relaxed naturally, because when you're

2026
05:07:02.720 --> 05:07:12.919
listening to me, your attention is focused on my words,

2027
05:07:17.880 --> 05:07:28.759
and as my words guide you to focus on those

2028
05:07:29.000 --> 05:07:47.119
parts of your body, your focus increases, which actually calms

2029
05:07:47.319 --> 05:08:07.400
your mind. And when your mind calms down, your body relaxes.

2030
05:08:14.919 --> 05:08:36.840
And when your body calms down, your mind relaxes. And

2031
05:08:37.200 --> 05:08:45.040
even though we've not really started the focus on your body,

2032
05:08:48.000 --> 05:08:59.040
you can already feel that healing energy spreading through your body,

2033
05:09:03.959 --> 05:09:18.240
pushing out stress and tension, healing all the parts of

2034
05:09:18.360 --> 05:09:19.119
your body.

2035
05:09:20.799 --> 05:09:28.479
Including your skin, your bones, your blood, all of your

2036
05:09:28.680 --> 05:09:34.439
organs inside your body, all of the muscles, all of.

2037
05:09:34.479 --> 05:09:41.880
The fat, all of everything, every hair on your body

2038
05:09:44.119 --> 05:09:55.439
is filled with that healing energy. And when your brain

2039
05:10:00.119 --> 05:10:13.319
fills with that healing energy, The feeling of comfort and

2040
05:10:13.479 --> 05:10:39.599
relaxation increases deeply, increases in a way that your mind

2041
05:10:43.200 --> 05:10:56.720
starts to feel perhaps bit drowsy because it's not needed,

2042
05:11:00.119 --> 05:11:16.360
and it may start to drift if that's what's needed.

2043
05:11:19.520 --> 05:11:24.119
So if you're listening to this and what you need

2044
05:11:24.400 --> 05:11:30.200
is deep relaxation, that's what you get. If what you

2045
05:11:30.520 --> 05:11:38.520
need is to fall asleep naturally and easily as your

2046
05:11:38.680 --> 05:11:55.040
mind drifts, that's also what will happen. Because by pressing

2047
05:11:55.159 --> 05:11:59.840
that play button on the podcast and listening to me,

2048
05:12:01.119 --> 05:12:09.639
you give permission for your body and your mind. In fact,

2049
05:12:14.560 --> 05:12:18.840
you give the command to your body and your mind

2050
05:12:19.159 --> 05:12:31.520
to relax deeply and to drift off to sleep, if

2051
05:12:31.799 --> 05:12:46.880
that's what you want or need. And as I focus

2052
05:12:48.520 --> 05:12:58.560
on the different parts of your body, you may start

2053
05:12:58.919 --> 05:13:07.119
to just and then you come back again and you

2054
05:13:07.319 --> 05:13:11.919
hear me talking, and I'm focusing on a different part

2055
05:13:12.119 --> 05:13:25.919
of your body, and you may find yourself drifting, but

2056
05:13:26.000 --> 05:13:33.159
you don't realize you're drifting until you stop drifting and

2057
05:13:33.479 --> 05:13:40.639
you're alert again to my voice. Focusing on a different

2058
05:13:40.759 --> 05:13:50.360
part of your body starts to relax even deeper, because

2059
05:13:50.479 --> 05:13:58.439
that drifting is basically you already in the sleep zone.

2060
05:14:04.959 --> 05:14:09.959
And the more you drift, the longer you drift, and

2061
05:14:10.119 --> 05:14:20.599
the longer you drift, eventually that drifting continues into sleep,

2062
05:14:25.599 --> 05:14:30.439
and that's the last you remember until you wake up

2063
05:14:34.919 --> 05:14:40.040
in your own time, when you experience the right amount

2064
05:14:40.159 --> 05:14:49.119
of sleep. Fear, because when you do, and if you

2065
05:14:49.279 --> 05:15:03.360
do fall asleep, it's extremely pleasant. So relaxing, so deep

2066
05:15:04.880 --> 05:15:22.840
healing sleep. I'm going it feels so nice to relax

2067
05:15:23.159 --> 05:15:32.639
into your own body and mind as you feel that

2068
05:15:33.919 --> 05:15:47.479
healing energy is spreading through it, relaxing, Use so deeply, relaxing,

2069
05:15:47.759 --> 05:16:04.560
use so so deeply. As we start to focus on

2070
05:16:04.759 --> 05:16:27.400
your eyes, moving down to your jaw, down to your neck,

2071
05:16:34.880 --> 05:17:15.200
your shoulders, arms, hands, fingers, is your chest, your stomach,

2072
05:17:22.560 --> 05:17:57.080
your back, your spine, your hips, your legs, your feet,

2073
05:18:05.919 --> 05:18:35.360
your toes, and feeding, feeting, spreading and growing inside your body,

2074
05:18:37.279 --> 05:18:48.919
feeling you up. Now let's focus again, are parts of

2075
05:18:49.000 --> 05:18:55.560
your body? Focusing this time on.

2076
05:18:55.639 --> 05:19:08.520
Your forehead, Now on your mouth, your lips, your tongue,

2077
05:19:11.720 --> 05:19:12.720
the whole of your mouth.

2078
05:19:24.959 --> 05:19:36.279
Focus in on your fingers. Maybe you could move your

2079
05:19:36.400 --> 05:19:41.959
fingers a little bit. You can focus on each one individually,

2080
05:19:48.240 --> 05:19:55.520
both hands, and even though you focus on both of

2081
05:19:55.599 --> 05:20:01.599
your hands now they almost seem just melt into one.

2082
05:20:06.919 --> 05:20:11.000
Where is your right hand start and your left hand end,

2083
05:20:14.520 --> 05:20:26.680
almost as if just mixed together. Now, focusing on your knees,

2084
05:20:32.560 --> 05:20:55.560
just noticing how your knees fell. Now, focusing on your elbows,

2085
05:20:58.319 --> 05:21:10.759
focusing on both of you elbows, just observing the feeling

2086
05:21:13.439 --> 05:21:45.360
of your elbows. Now, focusing observing the back of your neck,

2087
05:21:55.319 --> 05:22:32.959
feeding that energy in the back, clean your neck, observing

2088
05:22:35.319 --> 05:22:59.959
your ankles, being aware of physical sensations in your ankles. HM,

2089
05:23:54.680 --> 05:24:06.319
let you see no your toes on both of your feet,

2090
05:24:13.360 --> 05:24:58.360
being aware how you toes feel right now, not too

2091
05:24:58.639 --> 05:25:36.040
sn how your entire body feels. Noticing your mind feels

2092
05:25:39.880 --> 05:26:32.919
now letting go, letting go, letting go everything, letting go,

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letting go, letting go everything everything.

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I'm going to start now, and I would like you just,

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first of all, just to see yourself.

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Lying down on that message table, lying on your front.

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Your head is supported, your arms are supported, and you

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05:27:36.000 --> 05:27:42.639
feel comfortable and breathing. It's really easy, and you feel

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you feel confident in how you look as well, so

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there's none of that issue of body problems or shyness.

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Because I'm a professional and this is a therapy session,

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So none of that stuff matters whatsoever. This is about you.

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This is about how you feel and how you can

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enjoy that sense of comfort and relaxation that comes from

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letting go and allowing my hands and my fingers to

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05:28:34.400 --> 05:28:45.840
relax you by a message your body. So I want

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to start off just by placing my hands on the

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05:28:50.880 --> 05:28:55.799
back of your head, just gently, just you can feel

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05:28:55.959 --> 05:29:04.400
what my hands feel like really on you. So you

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05:29:04.479 --> 05:29:06.720
can maybe feel the warmth of my hands on the

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back of your head.

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With my hands to the side of your head, not pressing,

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05:29:14.919 --> 05:29:21.240
but just holding there very gently, maybe over your ears,

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05:29:21.799 --> 05:29:24.759
and a little bit on your face, just so you

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05:29:24.840 --> 05:29:27.479
can feel my hands.

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So you can become accustomed to them. And now put

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my hands on the back of your head again and

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05:29:44.840 --> 05:29:51.840
gently let them slide down onto the back of your neck.

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You can feel my hands gently stroking the back of

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your neck to start with, just so you can get

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05:30:16.159 --> 05:30:20.639
used to the feeling of my hands on your skin,

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05:30:21.240 --> 05:30:29.799
get accustomed to realize that you're safe and it's all good,

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05:30:30.119 --> 05:30:39.680
it's all fine. And I'm going to start gently messaging

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05:30:40.479 --> 05:30:51.080
the muscles in the back of your neck with both hands.

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Now This is a very trusting situation really, because our

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05:31:03.360 --> 05:31:07.520
necks are so fragile and to have someone have their

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05:31:07.639 --> 05:31:12.720
hands around your neck in that way can sometimes be

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05:31:13.040 --> 05:31:17.919
problematic for people, which is why massages are quite good,

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05:31:19.080 --> 05:31:27.479
because it allows you to relax and to get in

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05:31:27.720 --> 05:31:45.040
touch with trust, to feel peaceful and calm. And there's

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05:31:45.080 --> 05:31:52.680
a massage the sides of your neck gently moving from

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the bottom of your neck, it would be sort of

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05:31:57.720 --> 05:32:00.959
near where your shoulders start, I guess, all the way

2134
05:32:01.080 --> 05:32:08.240
up to your jaw, your ears, kind of area that

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05:32:08.479 --> 05:32:13.479
side of your neck. Of course, it's a lot longer

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05:32:13.599 --> 05:32:29.799
than the front of your neck. The message in the

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05:32:29.919 --> 05:32:37.639
back of your neck, especially that area where perhaps we

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05:32:37.840 --> 05:32:45.880
hold tension, and as that area's message, you can actually

2139
05:32:46.040 --> 05:32:50.119
feel a sense of release in the back of your neck,

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05:32:55.720 --> 05:33:00.959
and maybe you can breathe it out as well. Notice

2141
05:33:01.040 --> 05:33:13.759
how it feels. Notice how you feel. And then moving

2142
05:33:13.919 --> 05:33:17.560
down to that area between your neck and your shoulders,

2143
05:33:19.080 --> 05:33:28.000
that musty area, starting to message that area on both sides.

2144
05:33:30.159 --> 05:33:32.400
I mean, this would be the area that a lot

2145
05:33:32.439 --> 05:33:34.599
of people would message if they were going to give

2146
05:33:34.639 --> 05:33:41.080
you like a shoulder message. Even that's not technically the shoulders,

2147
05:33:41.639 --> 05:33:44.080
but it's all the muscles that lead to the shoulders

2148
05:33:45.919 --> 05:33:52.520
from the neck and again that can hold tension and stress.

2149
05:33:53.759 --> 05:33:58.759
And when massaged sometimes a nice deep message is useful,

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05:34:01.840 --> 05:34:17.240
and you decide how deep that message is, and just

2151
05:34:17.439 --> 05:34:24.360
allow my knuckles just to dig in to get to

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05:34:24.520 --> 05:34:34.520
those muscles and to really relaxed all the time being

2153
05:34:34.799 --> 05:34:52.319
firm yet gentle with you and just stroking down the

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05:34:52.520 --> 05:35:01.040
area to your actual shoulders, moving to the muscles of

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05:35:01.119 --> 05:35:12.240
your shoulders and maybe initially just pulling up the shoulders

2156
05:35:12.240 --> 05:35:15.599
a little bit of the table just to give you

2157
05:35:15.680 --> 05:35:26.080
a little bit of a stretch, but very gently, and

2158
05:35:26.200 --> 05:35:28.720
you've got the muscles at the front of your shoulders

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05:35:29.479 --> 05:35:40.439
the sides of the back. Again, this is a part

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05:35:40.599 --> 05:35:46.000
that can really take quite a bit of pressure, quite

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05:35:46.000 --> 05:35:54.080
a bit of needing. If if you wish to really

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05:35:55.959 --> 05:36:01.400
release the tension to really get into those muscles and

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05:36:04.840 --> 05:36:08.159
you can let your fingers in there. I can feel

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05:36:08.360 --> 05:36:16.439
really nice sometimes just being stroked gently or being massaged

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05:36:17.880 --> 05:36:26.560
quite strongly. It can all be beneficial to the realaxation

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05:36:31.680 --> 05:36:44.720
with the muscles in your shoulders. Now to move down

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05:36:44.840 --> 05:36:55.279
your arms, we do one arm at a time, starting

2168
05:36:55.360 --> 05:37:04.159
with your right arm. What I do is I just

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05:37:05.560 --> 05:37:08.720
lift your arm up, just hold it to the side

2170
05:37:08.759 --> 05:37:15.799
of you that way it still be attached, and I

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05:37:16.000 --> 05:37:30.599
just message the tops of your arms all the way

2172
05:37:30.680 --> 05:37:55.639
down to your forearms, into your wrists, gently messaging that parts,

2173
05:37:58.159 --> 05:38:01.840
the softer part, which is the under part of the arm,

2174
05:38:04.919 --> 05:38:08.680
which leads to the crease in your elbow, the inside.

2175
05:38:10.119 --> 05:38:24.439
It's much more sensitive skin. Sometimes just having that stroked,

2176
05:38:27.680 --> 05:38:43.200
I feel really nice, pleasurable and relaxing. Now moving down

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05:38:44.599 --> 05:38:57.000
to your right hand, just holding your hand in both

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05:38:57.040 --> 05:39:06.639
of my hands, just pressing gently on the back of

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05:39:06.720 --> 05:39:17.639
your hand and stretching your fingers ever so lightly, at

2180
05:39:17.680 --> 05:39:32.479
the same time, pressing down and massaging each finger, and

2181
05:39:32.599 --> 05:39:43.200
then starting to massage the palms of the hand. Just

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05:39:43.439 --> 05:39:54.560
turning the hand gently, stretching it gently, and actually having

2183
05:39:54.680 --> 05:40:01.840
your hand held can really be an emotional experience sometimes

2184
05:40:02.840 --> 05:40:07.520
even if it is a stranger, so when you don't

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05:40:07.639 --> 05:40:12.840
know very well, like a massage person or a therapist,

2186
05:40:13.000 --> 05:40:27.919
maybe because it's intimate and you can feel nice, you

2187
05:40:28.000 --> 05:40:38.599
can feel safe. And as I put that right arm

2188
05:40:38.799 --> 05:40:46.360
back down where it was, we're going to do the

2189
05:40:46.520 --> 05:40:58.520
same with your left arm, exactly the same massage the

2190
05:40:58.639 --> 05:41:04.119
muscles and your arm all the way down to your rest,

2191
05:41:08.279 --> 05:41:18.080
Stroking the inside of your arm, just being gentle or

2192
05:41:18.159 --> 05:41:32.119
as firm as you require, and then massaging your left hand,

2193
05:41:38.639 --> 05:41:48.680
stretching the fingers, gently massaging the palm of your left hand,

2194
05:42:00.560 --> 05:42:28.560
and you can feel so so relaxing, so comforting, and

2195
05:42:28.880 --> 05:42:40.959
just rest your left arm back down. Start to message

2196
05:42:41.520 --> 05:42:51.319
your back, the biggest part of your body, starting at

2197
05:42:51.319 --> 05:42:57.439
the top, starting again where we already be have been,

2198
05:42:58.200 --> 05:43:02.759
the area at the top and between your shoulders k

2199
05:43:02.759 --> 05:43:08.159
near your neck. Going back, the massage in that area again,

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05:43:09.279 --> 05:43:23.000
but this time moving downwards, taking a downward stroke to

2201
05:43:23.000 --> 05:43:29.520
the middle of your back, working from the outside inwards.

2202
05:43:30.759 --> 05:43:38.159
It's a massage in the your back, but the outsides

2203
05:43:38.520 --> 05:43:48.040
of your back, the parts where your arms would maybe

2204
05:43:48.560 --> 05:44:01.000
rest against, almost the part that can its your front

2205
05:44:01.200 --> 05:44:18.919
to your back, just messaging down firmly but gently, as

2206
05:44:19.119 --> 05:44:27.000
firm as you want, moving down, and then moving across

2207
05:44:27.040 --> 05:44:29.279
a little bit and moving all the way down again,

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05:44:30.639 --> 05:44:43.479
being very gentle yet firm as you choose. Eventually we

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05:44:43.599 --> 05:44:48.240
get to the spine. We can massage the muscles and

2210
05:44:48.560 --> 05:44:52.040
either side of your spine from the top of your

2211
05:44:52.159 --> 05:45:04.080
neck all the way down to your lower back. We

2212
05:45:04.159 --> 05:45:13.279
can do that a few times. Sometimes people use the

2213
05:45:13.400 --> 05:45:19.000
knuckle or the you know, two fingers and just go

2214
05:45:19.240 --> 05:45:24.520
your side of the spine almost just push down, go

2215
05:45:24.680 --> 05:45:26.759
all the way down to the bottom of the spine,

2216
05:45:28.400 --> 05:45:38.080
each time releasing tension and opening up the body, stretching

2217
05:45:39.240 --> 05:45:46.159
your body so that you feel more relaxed but at

2218
05:45:46.200 --> 05:46:02.479
the same time rejuvenated. And now I'm going to move

2219
05:46:02.639 --> 05:46:10.919
to one side, to your right side, and from the

2220
05:46:11.000 --> 05:46:16.479
bottom of your ribs to your pelvis, I'm going to

2221
05:46:16.599 --> 05:46:23.279
massage that area of your back. I'll stretch over the

2222
05:46:23.360 --> 05:46:28.119
other side and i will pull the muscles gently and

2223
05:46:28.360 --> 05:46:33.360
massage and push from one end that side or right

2224
05:46:33.479 --> 05:46:38.200
to my side. It's in the middle of fact to

2225
05:46:38.240 --> 05:46:43.439
where your spine is. Massaging that side of your spine

2226
05:46:45.080 --> 05:46:50.279
the opposite side to where I'm standing. It's almost like

2227
05:46:50.520 --> 05:46:58.520
kneading bread. There's that big area which is firm yet

2228
05:46:59.520 --> 05:47:08.400
lots there to message. Potentially one of the most important

2229
05:47:08.439 --> 05:47:15.599
places to actually have a message because you really feel it.

2230
05:47:17.520 --> 05:47:22.520
You really feel the release and the pleasure of having

2231
05:47:22.639 --> 05:47:30.119
your lower back massaged. It releases so much from your

2232
05:47:30.159 --> 05:47:40.200
body that's not useful starting a healing process which will

2233
05:47:40.279 --> 05:47:53.360
continue long after this recording is over. The message in

2234
05:47:53.439 --> 05:47:56.599
this part of your body not only feels really good

2235
05:47:57.319 --> 05:48:02.360
for you, it's actually fun to do because it is,

2236
05:48:02.919 --> 05:48:07.919
as I said, like kneading bread, it's a part that

2237
05:48:07.959 --> 05:48:13.200
you can really get hold of and really message deeply.

2238
05:48:15.479 --> 05:48:25.680
If that's your choice, then I'm going to move over

2239
05:48:25.799 --> 05:48:28.080
to the other side of your body and do the

2240
05:48:28.240 --> 05:48:40.040
same with the opposite part of your lawer back, kneading

2241
05:48:40.240 --> 05:48:48.360
and messaging from your sides all the way to the

2242
05:48:48.479 --> 05:48:56.200
middle of your back where your spine is pressing and

2243
05:48:56.639 --> 05:49:07.279
kneading firm and gentle at the same time. It feels

2244
05:49:07.759 --> 05:49:20.240
so releasing this mixture of pleasure, comfort, release, calmness, relaxation

2245
05:49:21.639 --> 05:49:31.599
or mixed together. Plus there's that feeling from your stomach

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05:49:32.080 --> 05:49:37.040
as it's being stretched. Even though you're in your stomach now,

2247
05:49:37.680 --> 05:49:41.439
you can feel it being stretched because that whole area

2248
05:49:41.599 --> 05:49:52.680
is connected to your stomach. Now we're going to move

2249
05:49:53.000 --> 05:49:57.720
or move further up to your top of your body

2250
05:49:58.400 --> 05:50:06.240
and we do the same this time, starting with your

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05:50:06.360 --> 05:50:12.319
upper back. Put my hands forward over and mass massage

2252
05:50:12.400 --> 05:50:19.279
in that area up to your spine. From the side

2253
05:50:19.360 --> 05:50:23.319
of your body up to your spine. So some of

2254
05:50:23.400 --> 05:50:30.439
that massage area, the muscle tissue or whatever fatty tissue

2255
05:50:30.479 --> 05:50:36.080
even will be possibly from your chest because all connected

2256
05:50:36.520 --> 05:50:42.720
chest and the back connect together. I'm going to be

2257
05:50:42.880 --> 05:50:47.840
massaging and just pulling some of that skin from your

2258
05:50:48.040 --> 05:50:57.439
side up and massaging that area of your upper back

2259
05:50:59.240 --> 05:51:05.759
all the way to your spine. And then I'll move

2260
05:51:05.880 --> 05:51:08.639
down a bit and I'll continue with the middle of

2261
05:51:08.680 --> 05:51:15.959
your back, doing exactly the same thing as gentle or

2262
05:51:16.040 --> 05:51:29.159
as deep as you choose. Now I'll move or the

2263
05:51:29.279 --> 05:51:34.080
other side again and do the exact same thing with

2264
05:51:34.319 --> 05:51:38.400
the top of your back on the other side, from

2265
05:51:43.560 --> 05:51:52.279
pretty much underneath your arm area really to your spine,

2266
05:51:57.360 --> 05:52:04.000
and then continue in that all the way down, including

2267
05:52:04.119 --> 05:52:21.119
your lower your middle of your back. I'm gonna go

2268
05:52:21.560 --> 05:52:27.840
to your thighs, the backs of your thighs, and the

2269
05:52:28.040 --> 05:52:37.919
sides of your thighs, starting with your right leg. Massage

2270
05:52:38.080 --> 05:52:47.599
in the back and the sides of your thighs gently

2271
05:52:47.880 --> 05:52:53.759
and firmly. There's a lot of muscles there. It's an

2272
05:52:53.799 --> 05:52:57.360
area that can be very tense at times and maybe

2273
05:52:58.080 --> 05:53:00.560
needs a little bit more pressure. And the rest of

2274
05:53:00.599 --> 05:53:09.240
the body that's up to you. You can gently stroke

2275
05:53:09.319 --> 05:53:16.240
the back look your legs where you know, opposite your

2276
05:53:16.319 --> 05:53:24.200
knee joint or underneath your knee joint, very sensitive, gentle area.

2277
05:53:31.119 --> 05:53:38.279
And then working down to your calf muscles. Massage in

2278
05:53:38.400 --> 05:53:47.639
your calf muscles thoroughly and deeply, if you choose, using

2279
05:53:47.720 --> 05:54:06.599
both hands and fingers, digging deep to your ankles, in

2280
05:54:06.720 --> 05:54:12.919
the back of your back of your ankles, just gently

2281
05:54:13.119 --> 05:54:25.479
massage in that area, maybe lifting the leg and stretching

2282
05:54:25.599 --> 05:54:50.840
a little bit. Moving to the right foot, massaging the

2283
05:54:50.959 --> 05:54:57.919
bottom of your feet and the side of your fate

2284
05:55:05.119 --> 05:55:14.520
gently but firm enough so they don't tickle, and just

2285
05:55:14.680 --> 05:55:20.240
allow the pleasure that you get from having your feet

2286
05:55:20.400 --> 05:55:30.000
massaged to just overtake you as I continue to message

2287
05:55:30.080 --> 05:55:39.560
your feet, the bottoms of your feet, the sides, your arches,

2288
05:55:40.279 --> 05:55:45.000
your heel. You can put a lot of pressure into

2289
05:55:45.080 --> 05:55:51.159
your heel and it feels amazing, yet the arches need

2290
05:55:51.279 --> 05:55:59.639
to be a bit more gentle. Stretching your toes gently,

2291
05:56:02.360 --> 05:56:06.680
a massage in the bottoms of your toes with my fingers,

2292
05:56:09.119 --> 05:56:22.919
each one individually. Moving her to the left leg to

2293
05:56:23.040 --> 05:56:31.279
do exactly the same thing, starting at the top of

2294
05:56:31.400 --> 05:56:36.000
the thighs, work in the back of the thighs and

2295
05:56:36.119 --> 05:56:48.520
the sides, massaging deeply and gently the whole area, working

2296
05:56:48.599 --> 05:56:57.680
all the way down. And this is an area that

2297
05:56:58.799 --> 05:57:06.639
maybe you could like to spend more time relaxing and messaging.

2298
05:57:09.479 --> 05:57:14.919
So perhaps if you wanted like a bigger future recording,

2299
05:57:15.479 --> 05:57:18.400
I want to spend more time on one particular area.

2300
05:57:24.200 --> 05:57:36.200
As you move down to your calf muscles. Massage in

2301
05:57:36.360 --> 05:57:51.759
your calf muscles firmly and gently, moving down your aincord

2302
05:57:51.959 --> 05:57:57.959
into your feet. Massage in the backs of your feet,

2303
05:58:00.040 --> 05:58:09.200
bottoms of your feet, stretching your toes and message in

2304
05:58:09.279 --> 05:58:17.240
each tone individually. And then feeling of pleasure and release

2305
05:58:17.520 --> 05:58:24.240
that you experience when your having your feet massaged feels

2306
05:58:24.799 --> 05:58:44.439
really good. Now she turn over in your mind. Laying

2307
05:58:44.560 --> 05:58:57.240
on your back, I'm just going to start again for

2308
05:58:57.360 --> 05:59:12.159
your neck area in your shoulders, just to get back

2309
05:59:12.240 --> 05:59:21.680
in touch with that area. And as you move up,

2310
05:59:29.520 --> 05:59:34.319
I can clean my hands make them more fresh, because

2311
05:59:34.400 --> 05:59:43.560
now I'm gonna message your face gently, starting off with

2312
05:59:43.680 --> 05:59:54.360
your forehead. Your eyes are closed and I can just

2313
05:59:54.919 --> 06:00:00.360
stretch your eyes a little bit, pushing up on your

2314
06:00:00.439 --> 06:00:18.919
eyebrows and just massaging around your scalp, massaging down your cheeks,

2315
06:00:20.439 --> 06:00:32.840
around your ears into your chaw gently the side of

2316
06:00:32.959 --> 06:00:50.599
your neck, your chin mm hmm, and just moving down

2317
06:00:54.759 --> 06:01:02.200
from your neck down to your chest, starting by massage

2318
06:01:02.279 --> 06:01:09.159
in the very top of your chest where the collar

2319
06:01:09.240 --> 06:01:22.439
bone is. Give a side of the collarbone, and then

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06:01:22.680 --> 06:01:35.080
just massage in the hole of the chest, moving the

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06:01:35.240 --> 06:01:48.840
chest around. Because it's quite a large area. You can

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06:01:49.000 --> 06:01:57.080
move from one side to the next, moving my hands

2323
06:01:59.639 --> 06:02:10.080
under pretty much where your arms are stretching up, stretching

2324
06:02:10.240 --> 06:02:12.639
some of the muscles of your back in the process,

2325
06:02:17.919 --> 06:02:26.560
moving up over your chest and they're moving down again,

2326
06:02:39.159 --> 06:02:44.000
and then allowing my hands they just massage gently and

2327
06:02:44.279 --> 06:02:51.000
slide down towards your stomach, starting in the middle of

2328
06:02:51.119 --> 06:03:00.720
your chest, and then gradually my hands moving apart and

2329
06:03:01.000 --> 06:03:10.959
massaging and sliding at the same time, moving down to

2330
06:03:11.200 --> 06:03:26.840
just below your rib cage, moving down, then massaging up again,

2331
06:03:29.680 --> 06:03:37.520
giving your chest all the attention that it needs to

2332
06:03:37.759 --> 06:03:49.959
feel completely relaxed. Remembering that I'm also going to be

2333
06:03:50.080 --> 06:03:56.080
focusing on your sides as well, an area that really

2334
06:03:56.360 --> 06:04:03.959
doesn't get much attention but feels really good when it's massaged.

2335
06:04:08.880 --> 06:04:12.880
Just stroking my hands down the sides of your body,

2336
06:04:16.680 --> 06:04:20.080
just below your arms, all the way down to your hips.

2337
06:04:29.720 --> 06:04:35.599
Now move into your stomach area. I'm going to stand

2338
06:04:35.840 --> 06:04:38.400
one side of you like I did when I did

2339
06:04:38.439 --> 06:04:44.720
your lower back. I gonna do a similar process of

2340
06:04:44.959 --> 06:04:59.720
just stretching the muscles from your side, gently massaging from

2341
06:04:59.759 --> 06:05:07.439
one side to the next, move in a whole area

2342
06:05:08.520 --> 06:05:12.439
from below your ribs all the way down to below

2343
06:05:12.520 --> 06:05:22.080
your belly button, and then move around to the other

2344
06:05:22.240 --> 06:05:38.040
side of you and repeat that process of relaxing deeply, calmly.

2345
06:05:41.159 --> 06:05:48.360
You feel loose, you feel free. And it's something about

2346
06:05:48.479 --> 06:05:53.319
having your stomach message that's different from any other part

2347
06:05:56.799 --> 06:06:00.919
because we do have a tendency of whole in a

2348
06:06:01.000 --> 06:06:05.360
different kind of stress in her stomachs that we may

2349
06:06:05.439 --> 06:06:14.240
not be aware of. As a now massage your stomach

2350
06:06:16.599 --> 06:06:24.240
in front of your stomach, making circles around your belly button,

2351
06:06:29.919 --> 06:06:39.759
anything going the other way around. There's a gentleness and

2352
06:06:39.880 --> 06:06:51.400
a freedom that comes from feeling how you're feeling. As

2353
06:06:51.479 --> 06:06:57.680
I now move down the tops of your thighs, the

2354
06:06:57.840 --> 06:07:03.439
muscles message in them, and I can do this two

2355
06:07:03.599 --> 06:07:13.919
legs at the same time, pressing down, massaging deeply those

2356
06:07:14.040 --> 06:07:23.080
muscles in your thighs at front of your thighs and

2357
06:07:23.319 --> 06:07:34.479
moving down to your knees, gently massaging your knees, sliding

2358
06:07:34.680 --> 06:07:40.119
down your shins, putting pressure on either side of your

2359
06:07:40.240 --> 06:07:53.080
shin gently softly but firmly, moving down to your ankles,

2360
06:07:58.000 --> 06:08:07.639
stroking the tops of your feet, and then with each

2361
06:08:09.000 --> 06:08:14.439
foot in each hand, just gently messaging the whole of

2362
06:08:14.520 --> 06:08:23.279
the foot, the top, the bottom, your heel, your ankle,

2363
06:08:24.159 --> 06:08:35.759
your toes, messaging every part of your feet. It feels

2364
06:08:35.880 --> 06:08:47.439
so good. Just let go and enjoy the process. Enjoy

2365
06:08:50.959 --> 06:09:06.360
feeling so deeply relaxed, so much comfort, and so many

2366
06:09:06.599 --> 06:09:22.880
feelings that come just from touching your skin. And you

2367
06:09:23.040 --> 06:09:29.240
can just lie there for as long as you choose,

2368
06:09:33.240 --> 06:09:45.000
enjoying the feeling of deep comfort from being massaged by me.

2369
06:09:52.200 --> 06:10:14.159
Enjoy feeling deeply right. And all we're gonna do is

2370
06:10:17.799 --> 06:10:34.279
blow out some candles. In your mind, there are going

2371
06:10:34.360 --> 06:10:44.720
to be a hundred candles, and you're going to blow

2372
06:10:44.919 --> 06:10:55.279
each one out individually, one by one, starting at one hundred.

2373
06:10:56.360 --> 06:11:03.720
As I count down all the way down to one,

2374
06:11:08.240 --> 06:11:17.159
and each time I say a number, you can imagine

2375
06:11:17.200 --> 06:11:23.639
that candle in front of you, and I'd like you

2376
06:11:23.759 --> 06:11:43.040
to actually physically generally blow that candle out, just so

2377
06:11:43.159 --> 06:11:51.599
it's not big blow. It's just a gentle, and that

2378
06:11:51.959 --> 06:12:01.119
candle will extinguish and there and I'll say the next

2379
06:12:01.240 --> 06:12:12.040
number as we move down, and you can just blow

2380
06:12:12.119 --> 06:12:21.479
that one out as well. And as we move down

2381
06:12:21.599 --> 06:12:32.240
the numbers, you'll find yourself feeling more and more relaxed.

2382
06:12:35.240 --> 06:12:41.240
If you need to sleep, you'll also find yourself becoming

2383
06:12:43.000 --> 06:12:56.680
incredibly tired and sleepy. In fact, you may struggle to

2384
06:12:56.799 --> 06:13:09.720
blow out all one hundred of these candles as you

2385
06:13:10.880 --> 06:13:37.840
feel more and more deeply relaxed, more and more deeply tired.

2386
06:13:42.159 --> 06:13:49.959
And the further you go down, the more your mind

2387
06:13:51.720 --> 06:14:04.360
starts to drift. Me find that you stop listening to

2388
06:14:04.520 --> 06:14:17.000
me after a while. And even though there may be

2389
06:14:18.000 --> 06:14:25.959
background sounds where you are, you'll be aware of those

2390
06:14:26.159 --> 06:14:45.000
sounds at the moment, be may start to just not

2391
06:14:45.240 --> 06:15:04.759
even notice them at all because they're unimportant. Where I am,

2392
06:15:07.360 --> 06:15:12.159
I've got the sounds of the birds, there's horrors, the

2393
06:15:12.279 --> 06:15:20.159
pigeon who likes to say hello sometimes, and there's the

2394
06:15:20.240 --> 06:15:30.799
odd plane that goes by, maybe traffic and trains in

2395
06:15:30.919 --> 06:15:43.200
the distance. But none of that scene is important whatsoever.

2396
06:15:47.919 --> 06:15:57.360
More candles you blow out, the less important anything is.

2397
06:16:02.279 --> 06:16:13.720
More candles you blow out. The further seem to move

2398
06:16:14.360 --> 06:16:33.680
away from sounds and from general date days. Stuff seems

2399
06:16:33.959 --> 06:16:48.360
to just move away on its own. You feel more.

2400
06:16:50.639 --> 06:17:08.000
Calmer with every candle you blow out, Yeah, guiding you.

2401
06:17:11.240 --> 06:17:24.279
To the next number, do you hear me say? And

2402
06:17:24.400 --> 06:17:36.479
then you blow that candle out to h So easy,

2403
06:17:41.360 --> 06:18:02.000
so simple. We're gonna start by introducing the first candle,

2404
06:18:05.479 --> 06:18:22.880
which is a hundred. First candle is one hundred. When

2405
06:18:23.159 --> 06:18:37.880
you blow that candle out, you'll find immediately a slight

2406
06:18:39.959 --> 06:18:51.840
change in how you feel, as well as a real

2407
06:18:52.159 --> 06:19:13.759
sense of positivity growing within you, relaxation and sleepiness expanding.

2408
06:19:22.560 --> 06:19:52.439
Starting with one hundred, blow out by candle now ninety nine,

2409
06:20:10.919 --> 06:21:47.520
candle ninety eight, cand ninety seven, ten ninety six, ten

2410
06:21:52.599 --> 06:23:09.520
ninety five, hand ninety four, can do ninety three and

2411
06:23:21.119 --> 06:24:42.360
ninety two and ninety one, ten to ninety and eighty two,

2412
06:24:42.680 --> 06:27:34.759
nine and eighty eight and eighties candle eighty eight, five

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06:28:10.759 --> 06:28:53.360
four fen and eighty two.

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06:29:15.520 --> 06:30:00.680
Hu and.

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06:30:09.720 --> 06:32:27.400
Two one jenz seventy nine, candle seventy eight, candle seventy seven,

2416
06:32:38.799 --> 06:33:39.959
candle seventy six, candle seventy five, candle seventy four, candle

2417
06:33:44.119 --> 06:34:48.599
seventy three candle seventy two, candle seventy one, candle seventy one,

2418
06:35:00.279 --> 06:35:59.040
handle seventy and sixty nine, candle sixty eight, candle sixty seven,

2419
06:36:12.799 --> 06:37:00.959
candle sixty five, candle sixty four mm, candle sixty four,

2420
06:37:17.000 --> 06:38:15.759
candles sixty three, candle sixty two and sixty one, candle

2421
06:38:20.520 --> 06:39:42.000
sixty and fifty nine, handle fifty eight, candle fifty seven,

2422
06:40:01.360 --> 06:41:29.680
candle fifty six, candle fifty five, candle fifty four, handle

2423
06:41:32.159 --> 06:43:00.639
fifty three, candle fifty two, fifty two ten to fifty two,

2424
06:43:31.639 --> 06:45:09.159
candle fifty one, candle fifty candle fourty nine, candle forty eight,

2425
06:45:46.560 --> 06:47:26.360
candle forty seven, candle forty six, candle forty five and

2426
06:47:31.520 --> 06:49:36.759
voty two candle What do you on? Candle forty candle

2427
06:49:40.680 --> 06:50:57.720
thirty nine, can't do thirty eight, can't do thirty seven,

2428
06:51:36.799 --> 06:53:43.240
canto thirty five, j thirty four, handle thirty three, handle

2429
06:53:46.599 --> 06:56:41.880
thirty one, chandle thirty and twoin teen nine, ten, twenty

2430
06:56:42.080 --> 06:59:46.479
eight and twenty seven, twenty six, candle twenty five, can

2431
06:59:52.319 --> 07:01:47.799
tif four end twenty three and twin deep two and

2432
07:01:52.279 --> 07:01:54.000
twenty one.

2433
07:02:28.680 --> 07:02:29.360
And to.

2434
07:02:33.560 --> 07:06:23.599
Winiti yen can do ninety candle seventeen sixteen, chancel four,

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07:07:40.520 --> 07:10:35.360
ten tu well four and eleven y yeah, shame do

2436
07:10:39.840 --> 07:14:45.880
nine ten eight S six him can do, can do

2437
07:15:54.159 --> 07:17:09.880
seven Camp four. Let go of all of those thoughts, worries,

2438
07:17:10.159 --> 07:17:16.279
concerns about the past, thoughts about the future, and even

2439
07:17:17.759 --> 07:17:22.119
things you've been thinking about today. Just let it all

2440
07:17:22.159 --> 07:17:28.400
go because none of it is useful in this moment.

2441
07:17:33.319 --> 07:17:48.720
This is your opportunity to just focus on feeling relaxed,

2442
07:17:53.000 --> 07:17:59.439
allowing yourself to get in touch with that natural sense

2443
07:18:01.520 --> 07:18:09.639
of peace that we all have within us. It's available

2444
07:18:09.720 --> 07:18:14.560
for everyone. It just sometimes takes a little bit of

2445
07:18:14.680 --> 07:18:22.080
effort to set up the right time and place in

2446
07:18:22.319 --> 07:18:28.560
order for you to just let go. Because when you

2447
07:18:28.799 --> 07:18:36.560
do decide to let go and relax, that's what your

2448
07:18:36.599 --> 07:18:45.319
body starts to do because you've chosen, You've chosen to

2449
07:18:45.759 --> 07:18:52.880
just allow your body to unwind and your mind starts

2450
07:18:52.959 --> 07:19:00.439
to slow down. And it's a nice feeling. It's a

2451
07:19:00.520 --> 07:19:04.759
nice feeling at the beginning, just to know that you

2452
07:19:05.240 --> 07:19:15.520
have chosen to decide to relax deeply, and because you've

2453
07:19:15.639 --> 07:19:24.119
made that decision, your body will just follow suit. Because

2454
07:19:24.200 --> 07:19:28.840
sometimes all the muscles in your body need is just

2455
07:19:29.159 --> 07:19:38.400
permission from you to relax, because so often we're busy,

2456
07:19:38.680 --> 07:19:42.880
we're going from here to there, we're walking around, and

2457
07:19:42.959 --> 07:19:50.279
we're doing stuff, and the body doesn't have any time

2458
07:19:50.560 --> 07:19:58.959
or space to really relax deeply. So it kind of

2459
07:19:59.040 --> 07:20:04.599
waits for you to lead the way, waits for your permission.

2460
07:20:08.959 --> 07:20:15.439
And when you do give your permission, when you give

2461
07:20:15.520 --> 07:20:21.799
the say so, when you say okay, it's time for

2462
07:20:21.919 --> 07:20:31.560
your body to let go completely and relax totally, your

2463
07:20:31.599 --> 07:20:41.080
body just follows. It's like a breath of relief. Ah. Good,

2464
07:20:41.200 --> 07:20:48.080
I can now relax. That feeling at the end of

2465
07:20:48.159 --> 07:20:51.439
a day, of a very physical day that you may

2466
07:20:51.520 --> 07:20:55.319
experience in the past, where you get home and you

2467
07:20:55.560 --> 07:20:59.279
just sit down on a chair, maybe you kick your

2468
07:20:59.360 --> 07:21:05.479
shoes off, and now, ah, feels so nice knowing that

2469
07:21:05.599 --> 07:21:09.599
you don't have to get up again for a little

2470
07:21:09.639 --> 07:21:13.319
while at least if you choose, you can just sit

2471
07:21:13.439 --> 07:21:26.000
there for maybe an hour to It feels blissful. And

2472
07:21:26.279 --> 07:21:31.240
just by sitting down like that, your body knows that

2473
07:21:31.400 --> 07:21:36.840
it's time to relax. Your body has been given permission

2474
07:21:37.040 --> 07:21:46.720
from you because it's a mindset. In your mind, you're

2475
07:21:46.840 --> 07:21:58.560
prepared to let go of everything and just completely allow

2476
07:21:59.000 --> 07:22:08.439
all the dress your body to evaporate. Any tensions can

2477
07:22:08.680 --> 07:22:27.520
just gradually vanish. It's almost like magic, really, because that

2478
07:22:28.080 --> 07:22:35.000
sense of relaxation in your body, it's a very natural state.

2479
07:22:36.880 --> 07:22:41.479
It's not something unusual. It may feel unusual when you

2480
07:22:41.639 --> 07:22:44.919
first start to relax, if you if you haven't really

2481
07:22:46.360 --> 07:22:50.240
spent a lot of time focusing and giving yourself this

2482
07:22:50.439 --> 07:22:55.479
space to let go completely and relax, they seem are

2483
07:22:55.599 --> 07:23:03.880
most alien, but it isn't. It's actually the most natural

2484
07:23:04.040 --> 07:23:12.599
thing in the world to let go completely, to relax totally,

2485
07:23:14.599 --> 07:23:21.319
the most natural thing in the world to allow yourself

2486
07:23:25.720 --> 07:23:33.080
to feel really calm in your mind. And it is

2487
07:23:33.360 --> 07:23:41.040
almost like a literal unwinding. It's like you press a

2488
07:23:41.159 --> 07:23:49.880
button and all the tension just releases, and it's like

2489
07:23:50.000 --> 07:23:53.959
a wheel, like a cog, like the inside of a clock,

2490
07:23:54.200 --> 07:23:58.040
just unwinding. And it's almost like you could see the

2491
07:23:59.040 --> 07:24:04.360
little wind up knob that's used just going the opposite

2492
07:24:04.400 --> 07:24:10.400
way that you choose to wind it up, and the

2493
07:24:10.639 --> 07:24:21.240
energy that fremetic stress for energy gradually winding down, losing

2494
07:24:21.360 --> 07:24:29.119
its power, losing its strength. As a sense of relaxation

2495
07:24:29.520 --> 07:24:40.279
becomes stronger and deeper, and you may find a the

2496
07:24:40.479 --> 07:24:47.479
more relaxed, you feel that your mind starts to wonder,

2497
07:24:50.639 --> 07:24:56.479
maybe just seem to stop listening to me for a while,

2498
07:24:58.119 --> 07:25:03.439
your mind goes somewhere else, and then you realize you're

2499
07:25:03.520 --> 07:25:08.720
listening to me again, and that was just your mind

2500
07:25:08.880 --> 07:25:19.159
to drifting to sleep, which is quite natural, because sometimes

2501
07:25:19.400 --> 07:25:26.040
when we're stressed and tense, we're not I mean, I

2502
07:25:26.080 --> 07:25:31.159
actually be aware of what we need, what we physically

2503
07:25:31.400 --> 07:25:40.400
or emotionally need in this moment. But when you allow

2504
07:25:41.639 --> 07:25:47.479
your body and mind to relax completely, and you let

2505
07:25:47.639 --> 07:25:56.799
go of all thoughts, concerns, worries, ideas, all letting them go,

2506
07:25:57.840 --> 07:26:06.240
allow them to drop onto the floor. When you start

2507
07:26:06.360 --> 07:26:14.840
to get in touch with the feelings of such relaxation,

2508
07:26:18.639 --> 07:26:25.200
this feels so nice, to be in touch with the

2509
07:26:25.479 --> 07:26:34.520
calmness of the different body parts as they become looser

2510
07:26:36.319 --> 07:26:50.040
and looser. Even your breathing seems easier and more natural, effortless,

2511
07:26:53.279 --> 07:26:58.720
as that cool adenters through your mouth or nose into

2512
07:26:58.799 --> 07:27:09.680
your lungs, breathing in comfort and relaxation, and then just

2513
07:27:09.840 --> 07:27:18.200
breathing out any excess remain intention or stress from every

2514
07:27:18.840 --> 07:27:26.599
part of your body and mind. And as you start

2515
07:27:26.720 --> 07:27:32.799
to focus on your mind. Maybe you notice that things

2516
07:27:35.400 --> 07:27:41.880
come to a standstill or maybe just much much lower

2517
07:27:42.639 --> 07:27:52.319
than before because your mind is not really needed when

2518
07:27:52.520 --> 07:28:00.560
listening to my voice, which allows your mind to relax

2519
07:28:02.599 --> 07:28:10.639
just as deeply as your body. And that's synchronicity between

2520
07:28:12.200 --> 07:28:23.919
the relaxation of your body relaxation of your mind. Let

2521
07:28:24.159 --> 07:28:25.000
you know that.

2522
07:28:27.159 --> 07:28:34.439
Feeling completely calm, loose, and relaxed.

2523
07:28:36.200 --> 07:28:52.040
Really is a great healing experience fear and has so

2524
07:28:52.479 --> 07:29:00.439
many positive benefits for your body, mind, and your life.

2525
07:29:03.119 --> 07:29:09.720
To be able to let go everything and to relax

2526
07:29:10.959 --> 07:29:21.880
completely in all parts of your body and mind. Even

2527
07:29:22.000 --> 07:29:30.159
your bones as are axed, all your muscles are rixed,

2528
07:29:36.959 --> 07:29:51.240
even the skin that covers your body is relaxed. Every hair.

2529
07:29:54.240 --> 07:29:54.840
That you have.

2530
07:29:56.599 --> 07:30:14.159
Is also deeply relaxed. And your brain really starts to

2531
07:30:14.400 --> 07:30:27.400
feel the benefits of this healing relaxation. And then as

2532
07:30:27.599 --> 07:30:33.799
you focus on the inside of your scalp where your

2533
07:30:33.880 --> 07:30:41.599
brain is, you can start to realize and notice the

2534
07:30:41.840 --> 07:30:53.240
benefits of your brain relaxing deeply. Then, as your brain

2535
07:30:54.880 --> 07:31:05.159
continues to relax, is set those messages to the rest

2536
07:31:05.400 --> 07:31:15.959
of your body and your mind to re relax even

2537
07:31:16.240 --> 07:31:35.759
more deeply, relax iny more completely, letting go of any

2538
07:31:37.639 --> 07:31:47.799
remaining thoughts or concens allowed them just to drop onto

2539
07:31:47.919 --> 07:31:56.599
the floor because they're no longer necessary in this moment.

2540
07:31:58.840 --> 07:32:12.119
In this moment, deep relaxation and calmness, filling your brain

2541
07:32:14.080 --> 07:32:36.840
with deep concentrated heathing, calming, relaxing every part of your

2542
07:32:36.959 --> 07:32:58.240
brain feeling so loose and comfortable, so relaxed and peaceful.

2543
07:33:01.520 --> 07:33:04.319
Your brain feels.

2544
07:33:05.520 --> 07:33:06.360
So light.

2545
07:33:08.360 --> 07:33:19.880
And so healthy. In a sense, deep deep comfort really

2546
07:33:20.799 --> 07:33:33.560
does allow you to enjoy those ever increase in sensations

2547
07:33:33.880 --> 07:33:48.279
of comfort, that is spreading throughout your body, relaxing each

2548
07:33:49.880 --> 07:34:03.200
and every muscle of your body, e deeper and deeper,

2549
07:34:06.319 --> 07:34:23.959
much more deeper than before, much more comfort spreading through

2550
07:34:25.360 --> 07:34:36.520
your body. In your mind, be so peaceful and calm,

2551
07:34:39.360 --> 07:34:53.840
so very very peaceful, in a very part of your body,

2552
07:34:55.479 --> 07:35:11.520
letting go mm hm, everything and everything so peaceful and calm,

2553
07:35:14.959 --> 07:35:36.000
so relax a very second the passes you feel dper deeper,

2554
07:35:38.159 --> 07:36:03.520
relax dper and deeper, relax calm, so calm, peace, for

2555
07:36:06.319 --> 07:36:09.400
so very peace.

2556
07:36:12.200 --> 07:36:23.080
From your head down to your toes, such peace and comfort.

2557
07:36:24.840 --> 07:36:38.279
Throwing all all the time, such peace and comfort spreading

2558
07:36:39.279 --> 07:36:42.279
through your body and mind.

2559
07:36:44.479 --> 07:36:58.360
Deeper, deeper, such comfort, spreading and sinking deeper.

2560
07:37:00.520 --> 07:37:12.119
Into every muscle your body so that you feel amazing,

2561
07:37:15.119 --> 07:37:36.119
so relaxed, so piece so so relaxed and peace letting

2562
07:37:36.680 --> 07:37:50.639
go everything. I'm gonna do a body scan, focusing on

2563
07:37:51.639 --> 07:37:56.360
firstly how you feel in your body, not trying to

2564
07:37:56.560 --> 07:38:03.159
change how you feel, not trying to relax, not trying

2565
07:38:03.240 --> 07:38:08.439
to move away from any discomfort or stress or tension.

2566
07:38:09.720 --> 07:38:16.439
Just accepting, observing and accepting how you feel in the

2567
07:38:16.520 --> 07:38:22.799
different parts of your body, just allowing yourself to be

2568
07:38:23.119 --> 07:38:30.599
exactly as you are, to notice, to get in touch

2569
07:38:35.200 --> 07:38:42.360
with how you actually feel in this moment. So I'm

2570
07:38:42.400 --> 07:38:53.360
going to start off by focusing on your hands. Just

2571
07:38:53.479 --> 07:39:01.439
be aware of your hands. I'd like you to move

2572
07:39:01.560 --> 07:39:06.720
your hands around, just maybe move your fingers a little bit.

2573
07:39:09.200 --> 07:39:15.360
I've been enclosing your hands very gently, just so that

2574
07:39:15.599 --> 07:39:23.360
you can get in touch with how your hands and

2575
07:39:23.560 --> 07:39:44.520
your fingers fell, very very slow movements. Focusing now on

2576
07:39:44.720 --> 07:39:51.799
your feet, and if you can just do kind of

2577
07:39:51.840 --> 07:39:55.840
an equivalent with your feet is you've.

2578
07:39:55.880 --> 07:40:02.119
Just done with your hands, maybe turn in your ankles,

2579
07:40:04.080 --> 07:40:09.720
moving your feet around, moving your toes gently.

2580
07:40:11.959 --> 07:40:24.159
But only very gently and very slowly, noticing how your

2581
07:40:24.319 --> 07:40:37.439
feet feel in this moment. Focusing now and your eyes.

2582
07:40:40.439 --> 07:40:47.560
I like you to just focus on your eyelids. Maybe

2583
07:40:47.639 --> 07:40:50.360
you can open and close your eyes a couple of

2584
07:40:50.479 --> 07:40:55.919
times to really get in touch with how you feel.

2585
07:40:56.040 --> 07:41:04.040
When you do close your eyes, the bustle changes in

2586
07:41:04.159 --> 07:41:11.040
your eyes when you do close them, maybe raising your eyebrows.

2587
07:41:12.759 --> 07:41:14.200
It stretches the.

2588
07:41:14.319 --> 07:41:25.159
Tops of your eyes, perhaps squinting your eyes, scrunching up

2589
07:41:25.240 --> 07:41:29.680
your eyes just so you can hear it again.

2590
07:41:29.959 --> 07:41:52.959
Touch with all aspects of how your eyes feel right now. Now,

2591
07:41:53.200 --> 07:41:59.319
focus in on your thighs, and it just starts you

2592
07:41:59.479 --> 07:42:09.599
to gently tense your thighs, just very very gently, just

2593
07:42:09.880 --> 07:42:22.080
enough so you can become more achuned to the physical

2594
07:42:22.720 --> 07:42:29.959
sensation of your upper legs, the front of your thighs,

2595
07:42:30.240 --> 07:42:41.279
and the backs of your thighs. Noticing and observing how

2596
07:42:43.599 --> 07:42:58.680
your thighs feel. Right now, moving your focus to the

2597
07:42:58.799 --> 07:43:05.439
back of your neck, just noticing the back of your.

2598
07:43:05.439 --> 07:43:11.799
Neck, the muscles, and of course they lead to the

2599
07:43:12.080 --> 07:43:16.479
side of your neck. They also lead to the top

2600
07:43:16.560 --> 07:43:21.000
of your back, which leads to your shoulders.

2601
07:43:22.599 --> 07:43:26.279
So as your focus on the back of your neck,

2602
07:43:28.240 --> 07:43:34.720
maybe you can move your head gently upwards as if

2603
07:43:34.759 --> 07:43:42.119
you're looking up, maybe moving your head down as if

2604
07:43:42.200 --> 07:43:49.159
you're looking down, perhaps moving your head side to side,

2605
07:43:50.279 --> 07:44:03.720
right to left, only very slowly, very gently. I'm not

2606
07:44:03.919 --> 07:44:12.520
trying to force anything. It has to be very very gentle,

2607
07:44:15.599 --> 07:44:27.119
just so you can be more in touch with the feelings,

2608
07:44:28.880 --> 07:44:37.240
with the sensations, the physical sensations of how the back

2609
07:44:37.360 --> 07:44:53.479
of your neck feels. Right now, as we now focus

2610
07:44:56.279 --> 07:45:01.520
on the tops of your arms, the parts where your

2611
07:45:01.680 --> 07:45:06.799
biceps and your triceps are between your elbow and your shoulders.

2612
07:45:10.520 --> 07:45:15.479
She'll focus on those parts the tops of your arms.

2613
07:45:17.680 --> 07:45:25.240
You may like to just tense them, but very very

2614
07:45:25.400 --> 07:45:34.639
gently and slowly. See you're not straining or put in

2615
07:45:34.759 --> 07:45:39.400
any pressure whatsoever.

2616
07:45:40.319 --> 07:45:41.240
On your arms.

2617
07:45:43.919 --> 07:45:46.400
It's just so that you can.

2618
07:45:48.840 --> 07:45:56.040
Gain more of a sense of how your upper arms

2619
07:45:57.599 --> 07:45:59.000
are feeling.

2620
07:46:00.759 --> 07:46:13.119
In this moment, and just noticing as you gently, very gently.

2621
07:46:14.599 --> 07:46:25.959
And slowly tighten the muscles and then let go. Notice

2622
07:46:28.080 --> 07:46:42.400
how the tops of your arms feel right now. As

2623
07:46:42.479 --> 07:46:53.319
a now focus on your stomach, the area the lower

2624
07:46:53.439 --> 07:46:59.360
abdomen area below your belly button. Move it all the

2625
07:46:59.439 --> 07:47:06.520
way down to your hips, just above your grind.

2626
07:47:12.880 --> 07:47:20.080
Maybe you're able to tense these muscles in that area

2627
07:47:20.840 --> 07:47:24.439
very very gently.

2628
07:47:27.479 --> 07:47:37.880
And slowly, if that's a difficult thing to do, and

2629
07:47:38.000 --> 07:47:47.000
maybe you can just move your body, pushing your stomach up,

2630
07:47:48.720 --> 07:47:52.560
maybe moving a little bit to the side using your hips,

2631
07:47:54.720 --> 07:48:02.880
just so you can get more in tune with how

2632
07:48:03.119 --> 07:48:22.080
your lower abdomen area is feeling in this moment. Just

2633
07:48:22.479 --> 07:48:44.720
noticing the physical sensations or your lower abdomen as you

2634
07:48:45.000 --> 07:48:58.200
move your attention to your mouth, notice in your lips

2635
07:49:00.240 --> 07:49:08.720
and inside your mouth, the teeth, your guns, your tongue,

2636
07:49:18.279 --> 07:49:23.840
Just noticing how your tongue and your mouth feels.

2637
07:49:26.880 --> 07:49:28.319
It may help by.

2638
07:49:30.279 --> 07:49:37.560
Moving your tongue around your mouth, moving it to your left,

2639
07:49:39.279 --> 07:49:45.000
maybe pressing it gently against the side of your mouth,

2640
07:49:46.560 --> 07:49:51.520
and then to the right, gently to the side of

2641
07:49:51.639 --> 07:49:59.560
your mouth, perhaps pressing up against the top of your mouth,

2642
07:50:00.680 --> 07:50:06.560
and then down gently against the bottom of your mouth,

2643
07:50:09.279 --> 07:50:25.479
always very slowly and a very very gentle so that

2644
07:50:25.720 --> 07:50:41.159
you can be aware of how you feel in your

2645
07:50:41.279 --> 07:51:02.520
mouth area. Now I'm going to focus on your wrists

2646
07:51:13.200 --> 07:51:20.240
and I'll ask you to maybe just rotate your wrists

2647
07:51:22.119 --> 07:51:30.159
by moving your hands in a circular motion very gently

2648
07:51:32.080 --> 07:51:52.599
and slowly, just so that you can feel the sensations

2649
07:51:53.680 --> 07:51:56.360
that you are currently.

2650
07:51:57.479 --> 07:52:10.000
Experiencing MHM, your wrists, perhaps smooth in your.

2651
07:52:10.080 --> 07:52:27.119
Hands up and down again very very gently and slowly,

2652
07:52:36.119 --> 07:53:02.360
very gentzl and slow, as we know, start to observe

2653
07:53:06.479 --> 07:53:18.720
your lower pack. The bad part is just above your hips,

2654
07:53:23.119 --> 07:53:35.599
where your coxix are, a whole area which also really

2655
07:53:35.799 --> 07:53:42.959
does include the signs of your body because those muscles

2656
07:53:43.080 --> 07:53:53.759
are very much connected. There's those muscles also move into

2657
07:53:53.880 --> 07:54:02.479
your hip area connecting to your buttocks, the sides of

2658
07:54:02.560 --> 07:54:17.159
your hips, and if you're physically able to do so,

2659
07:54:19.439 --> 07:54:30.560
maybe eating very gently, just move body ever so slightly,

2660
07:54:32.919 --> 07:54:49.520
very slowly from side to side, just enough to gauge

2661
07:54:54.759 --> 07:55:08.159
how you feel in your lower back, perhaps it cautly.

2662
07:55:08.159 --> 07:55:22.040
Even move your hips gently up and down, gently and

2663
07:55:22.840 --> 07:55:40.560
slowly in order to be in touch with the physical sensations.

2664
07:55:40.880 --> 07:55:59.319
Of your law backs.

2665
07:56:00.279 --> 07:56:15.759
Move your attention to your jaw, an area from your

2666
07:56:16.040 --> 07:56:21.639
chin all the way up to near where your ears are.

2667
07:56:25.880 --> 07:56:41.119
Your jaw you can just yeah, it's okay to do so.

2668
07:56:43.080 --> 07:56:53.560
Gently open your mouth, not wide, no stretching, just very

2669
07:56:54.319 --> 07:57:06.959
gently and slowly opening your mouthing close in your mouth,

2670
07:57:09.279 --> 07:57:28.200
very gently and slowly, so you can be in touch

2671
07:57:35.000 --> 07:58:08.040
with how your jaw feels now and I have to

2672
07:58:08.159 --> 07:58:23.680
sit now your chest area, and you don't need to

2673
07:58:23.880 --> 07:58:32.040
do anything to move your chest because it moves every

2674
07:58:32.159 --> 07:58:45.040
time you breathe, and it moves very gently and slowly

2675
07:58:47.439 --> 07:59:02.520
automatically with each breath you takee As you focus on

2676
07:59:05.080 --> 07:59:49.040
how your chest feels when you breathe, move in your

2677
07:59:49.319 --> 08:00:04.560
focus to your forms, your elbows. Maybe you're able to

2678
08:00:07.319 --> 08:00:18.479
very gently and slowly tense the muscles in your forms,

2679
08:00:21.919 --> 08:00:28.599
and when you do that, you can feel your elbows

2680
08:00:28.840 --> 08:01:05.840
as well, very gently and slowly, gently softly up sad

2681
08:01:10.360 --> 08:01:15.959
your forearms and del boys.

2682
08:01:26.639 --> 08:01:26.880
Nah.

2683
08:01:35.240 --> 08:01:36.720
You focus.

2684
08:01:43.360 --> 08:01:55.400
The rest of your back, your upper back in the middle,

2685
08:01:57.000 --> 08:02:13.159
the middle of your back again this part of your

2686
08:02:13.319 --> 08:02:28.080
body news Also every time you breed. You may not

2687
08:02:28.400 --> 08:02:28.919
notice that.

2688
08:02:31.119 --> 08:02:43.240
Usually these you observe your upper back in the middle

2689
08:02:43.400 --> 08:03:08.560
of your back. You can really feel that gentle and movement.

2690
08:03:43.159 --> 08:03:56.880
Moving your focus into your area, the buttys, the brain,

2691
08:03:59.560 --> 08:04:05.720
let's a new muscles and those bones in your midsection.

2692
08:04:33.360 --> 08:04:53.279
Just noticing how your hips feel. Right now, you can

2693
08:04:55.880 --> 08:05:09.479
very very gently leave your hips maybe side to side,

2694
08:05:11.040 --> 08:06:01.880
very gently and slowly, y verry gently, softly, slowly. Everything

2695
08:06:04.119 --> 08:06:18.599
starts to slow down, including the thoughts in your mind,

2696
08:06:20.319 --> 08:06:30.479
and your mind itself just starts to gradually. It doesn't

2697
08:06:30.520 --> 08:06:38.080
have to be instant, but just gradually starting too. It's

2698
08:06:38.119 --> 08:06:47.200
almost like time is storing chin It's a slower pace

2699
08:06:49.680 --> 08:06:54.880
to maybe what you're used to in your day to

2700
08:06:55.000 --> 08:07:21.680
day life. It's a slower movement of energy, very small

2701
08:07:22.000 --> 08:07:30.000
movements which make up the larger movements, which is always

2702
08:07:30.040 --> 08:07:37.720
the case. Now, when you move your hand, it might

2703
08:07:37.880 --> 08:07:41.720
seem like it's one movement, but it's lots of minute

2704
08:07:42.479 --> 08:07:54.439
different muscles moving in accordance with each other. What happens

2705
08:07:54.720 --> 08:08:06.720
in this space that we're sharing is we move from

2706
08:08:09.639 --> 08:08:27.880
that big movement into those smaller movements. Starting to focus

2707
08:08:28.200 --> 08:08:38.439
on how your body feels, not just as a whole,

2708
08:08:39.840 --> 08:08:42.959
not just oh, i'm feel in this way. I'm feeling

2709
08:08:44.040 --> 08:08:50.000
stressed or tense, or I'm feeling relaxed and calm. I'm

2710
08:08:50.119 --> 08:08:57.119
feeling this way, I'm feeling that way. Starting to notice

2711
08:08:57.319 --> 08:09:09.560
that your body begins to present to you small feelings

2712
08:09:11.119 --> 08:09:28.360
around your body, small physical sensations in your legs, whether

2713
08:09:28.759 --> 08:09:41.560
pleasurable or not. Maybe resisting the temptation to label them

2714
08:09:44.479 --> 08:09:52.119
or to judge them, those feelings, just thinking them, thinking

2715
08:09:52.159 --> 08:10:05.319
about them as just being neutral, just feelings, not being

2716
08:10:06.400 --> 08:10:16.680
particularly concerned, but just noticing what your body is telling you,

2717
08:10:24.479 --> 08:10:30.639
the feelings in your arms, instead of feeling the whole

2718
08:10:30.919 --> 08:10:40.680
of the arm. Maybe notice those individual feelings, all those

2719
08:10:40.759 --> 08:10:52.560
different muscles and the skin, the hairs of your arms,

2720
08:10:54.520 --> 08:11:08.560
all the internal parts of your arms, the veins, the bones,

2721
08:11:11.400 --> 08:11:17.439
just being aware of maybe your elbow on your right

2722
08:11:17.639 --> 08:11:28.240
arm has a certain feeling. Maybe your left wrist also

2723
08:11:28.520 --> 08:11:51.560
has its own individual physical sensation. What about your forearm

2724
08:11:52.599 --> 08:12:04.799
on your right arm, your right forearm, there may not

2725
08:12:04.959 --> 08:12:05.560
be any.

2726
08:12:05.919 --> 08:12:13.159
Particular feeling that you could even give a name to,

2727
08:12:16.880 --> 08:12:21.240
may not feel like anything other than just a feeling.

2728
08:12:22.159 --> 08:12:34.240
You know, it's there. The feelings in your shoulders, perhaps

2729
08:12:34.319 --> 08:12:38.040
your shoulders when you think about them, kind of almost

2730
08:12:38.240 --> 08:12:44.919
like they're the same, you know, the same feeling, almost

2731
08:12:45.080 --> 08:12:49.720
like both of your shoulders are just one thing. Of

2732
08:12:49.880 --> 08:13:01.080
course they're not. And when you because on your left

2733
08:13:01.159 --> 08:13:09.439
shoulder and then on your right shoulder, maybe find.

2734
08:13:09.279 --> 08:13:14.639
That you move the muscles a little bit, maybe tense

2735
08:13:14.759 --> 08:13:24.680
the muscles gently, noticing the difference.

2736
08:13:27.319 --> 08:13:28.759
In each shoulder.

2737
08:13:40.200 --> 08:13:56.000
Your lower back, the left side of your lower back

2738
08:13:56.240 --> 08:13:58.520
and the right side.

2739
08:13:58.360 --> 08:14:09.000
Of your lower back. Of course, that connection to your

2740
08:14:09.080 --> 08:14:22.400
buttocks and to your hips, and also moving up into

2741
08:14:22.479 --> 08:14:35.840
the middle of your back, and sometimes like right now, actually,

2742
08:14:36.720 --> 08:14:40.400
when I focus on their part, When I focused on

2743
08:14:40.479 --> 08:14:46.279
my buttocks and then I focused on the middle of

2744
08:14:46.360 --> 08:14:48.439
my back, I almost felt like the.

2745
08:14:48.560 --> 08:14:53.119
Muscles in my lower back were being stretched very gently,

2746
08:14:57.880 --> 08:14:59.840
just stretched a little bit.

2747
08:15:01.799 --> 08:15:08.560
Even though I wasn't doing anything to try to stretch

2748
08:15:10.560 --> 08:15:14.880
your lower back, it just seemed to happen. The feeling

2749
08:15:15.560 --> 08:15:35.560
of very gently stretching your lower back comes along. I

2750
08:15:35.639 --> 08:16:00.479
have feeling in your chest, just noticing what sensations you

2751
08:16:01.200 --> 08:16:18.200
are experiencing in your chest right now. And there's so

2752
08:16:18.439 --> 08:16:22.840
much of the chest. Obviously, there's the collar bone leading

2753
08:16:23.040 --> 08:16:29.439
to the chest. You've got the chest bone, You've got

2754
08:16:29.479 --> 08:16:37.639
the muscles in your chest. Of course, if you're female,

2755
08:16:38.319 --> 08:16:45.479
there's possibly the breasts. If you're male, you've got the

2756
08:16:48.360 --> 08:16:53.880
different well why not that different these days, But there

2757
08:16:53.959 --> 08:16:54.919
may be more.

2758
08:16:56.639 --> 08:17:02.919
Muscles at the top of the chest, but at the

2759
08:17:03.119 --> 08:17:06.799
side underneath, it's pretty much the same.

2760
08:17:07.599 --> 08:17:10.639
Whether you're a man or a woman. There's muscles there,

2761
08:17:12.000 --> 08:17:17.119
muscles that stretch out to your back, as well as

2762
08:17:17.200 --> 08:17:25.599
breast tissue which stretches and moves into your back to

2763
08:17:25.799 --> 08:17:45.159
just being aware of your chest, being with whatever feeling

2764
08:17:45.360 --> 08:18:05.159
there is in your chest. When I noticed that, I

2765
08:18:05.319 --> 08:18:13.240
focus on my chest, I feel it in my back

2766
08:18:13.439 --> 08:18:17.200
and my upper back. I mean, I guess the obvious

2767
08:18:17.360 --> 08:18:24.959
reason would be because you know, I'll breathe in in

2768
08:18:27.720 --> 08:18:30.880
then it stretches my chest and my back at the

2769
08:18:30.919 --> 08:18:51.639
same time. It feels it feels okay, it doesn't feel

2770
08:18:54.360 --> 08:18:58.599
I got a little bit of pain in my right chest.

2771
08:18:59.639 --> 08:19:03.680
M a little bit, not pain, but a little discomfort,

2772
08:19:03.840 --> 08:19:13.880
maybe stiffness possibly, I don't know. I noticed my shoulders

2773
08:19:13.919 --> 08:19:22.799
are also wanting to flex for some reason. I think

2774
08:19:22.880 --> 08:19:31.240
that's probably part of my upper back, that connection between

2775
08:19:31.360 --> 08:19:35.479
my shoulders and my oper back, because I can move

2776
08:19:35.560 --> 08:19:42.880
my shoulders and stretch the muscles in my back, moving

2777
08:19:42.919 --> 08:19:49.360
the shoulders backwards or up, which then moves. I think

2778
08:19:49.439 --> 08:20:05.319
it's the scapulous in your back. It feels quite nice. Actually,

2779
08:20:10.680 --> 08:20:13.840
a good thing about this is you can, if you

2780
08:20:14.000 --> 08:20:27.919
want to, you can just flex or stimulate the various

2781
08:20:28.159 --> 08:20:35.639
muscles in your body gently in order to get more

2782
08:20:35.639 --> 08:20:45.959
of a sense of how they feel and when you're relaxing,

2783
08:20:50.799 --> 08:20:54.840
when you do tense and muscle and you let it

2784
08:20:54.959 --> 08:21:02.360
go and you let it relax. It relaxes way more

2785
08:21:04.000 --> 08:21:04.919
than it would normally.

2786
08:21:09.880 --> 08:21:12.119
That you have to feel.

2787
08:21:14.000 --> 08:21:17.520
That you're able to do that. There's no point in

2788
08:21:17.639 --> 08:21:23.360
doing it if there's an issue with the per part

2789
08:21:23.400 --> 08:21:29.919
of your body. You need to be gentle with yourself

2790
08:21:32.560 --> 08:21:46.200
at all times when relaxing deeply. It's important to be

2791
08:21:46.479 --> 08:22:02.240
kind to yourself as you notice your mind. How much

2792
08:22:03.400 --> 08:22:11.040
has your mind slowed down since we started this recording.

2793
08:22:27.040 --> 08:22:42.639
How came and peaceful is your mind right now? We

2794
08:22:42.680 --> 08:22:48.240
have nothing to think about and just my voice to

2795
08:22:48.400 --> 08:22:59.080
listen to. Because you know, the intention behind this recording

2796
08:23:00.599 --> 08:23:08.119
is relaxation. At the very least, for you to feel

2797
08:23:08.400 --> 08:23:12.799
more relaxed at the end of the recording than you

2798
08:23:13.000 --> 08:23:24.880
did at the beginning, at the very least, for your

2799
08:23:25.080 --> 08:23:36.400
mind to slow down as your body continues to relax,

2800
08:23:41.799 --> 08:23:52.680
because that's what you want to happen. That's what you

2801
08:23:53.360 --> 08:24:22.080
expect to happen, a relaxation to fill your body, maybe

2802
08:24:22.479 --> 08:24:30.639
calm in your mind to the point of boredom. When

2803
08:24:30.720 --> 08:25:14.919
you start maybe to drift away, it's almost as if

2804
08:25:15.080 --> 08:25:24.319
you're moving further away from your body in your mind,

2805
08:25:26.759 --> 08:25:38.599
just leaving that there. Kind of liking it an escape

2806
08:25:38.680 --> 08:25:43.880
pod and the spaceship a movie, a space movie, you know,

2807
08:25:44.040 --> 08:25:48.360
when against a little part in it. Since the man

2808
08:25:50.360 --> 08:26:19.799
far away from the spaceship safe dream continue to relax

2809
08:26:40.000 --> 08:27:45.880
terrefting so slur empy so so rare m p so,

2810
08:28:07.040 --> 08:28:21.720
and focusing on the feeling of those individual parts your

2811
08:28:21.880 --> 08:28:40.240
body that are relaxing one by one. You may find

2812
08:28:40.799 --> 08:28:54.080
that every now and then you realize that you aren't

2813
08:28:54.400 --> 08:29:03.240
listening to my voice because your mind started to imagine

2814
08:29:05.599 --> 08:29:18.439
something different, maybe started to almost move into some kind

2815
08:29:18.520 --> 08:29:26.840
of a dreamy state, and then you become aware of

2816
08:29:27.040 --> 08:29:36.279
my voice again. And even though you may want to

2817
08:29:36.520 --> 08:29:44.080
focus on my voice, you may also wish to allow

2818
08:29:44.319 --> 08:29:55.639
your mind to just drift naturally into that space of

2819
08:29:55.959 --> 08:30:20.159
comfort and safety. As you feel more comfort spreading through

2820
08:30:20.279 --> 08:30:37.040
your body like a warm blanket covering you gently, keeping

2821
08:30:37.159 --> 08:30:55.119
your body at just the perfect temperature, and even if

2822
08:30:55.200 --> 08:31:07.159
you can hear background sounds, they just don't seem to

2823
08:31:08.319 --> 08:31:24.560
matter anymore. There's that sensor. Peace spreads through your mind

2824
08:31:31.720 --> 08:31:38.479
like a gentle breeze, yet strong enough to blow away

2825
08:31:42.400 --> 08:31:58.040
all negativity, strong enough to remove from your mind any

2826
08:31:58.159 --> 08:32:12.560
anxiety or strong Yes, that was there before and blow

2827
08:32:12.639 --> 08:32:23.560
away any other thoughts or feelings that just don't fit

2828
08:32:27.720 --> 08:32:52.759
with the sense relaxation, that is, feeling your body end

2829
08:32:52.919 --> 08:33:12.959
your mind unless you focus on your mind and count

2830
08:33:13.080 --> 08:33:19.159
down from ten down to one, and with each number

2831
08:33:19.680 --> 08:33:46.599
you hear, your mind will become slightly more relaxed, just

2832
08:33:47.080 --> 08:33:55.840
just slightly, from ten down to nine, just a slight

2833
08:33:56.319 --> 08:34:09.639
movement from nine down at eight, just another small change

2834
08:34:11.080 --> 08:34:22.599
in how you feel. Eight down to seven, that feeling

2835
08:34:22.799 --> 08:34:28.520
is a gap, almost like a gap that starts to

2836
08:34:28.639 --> 08:34:38.000
get wider, the gap between those feelings that you used

2837
08:34:38.080 --> 08:34:45.279
to have in your mind compared to the feelings you

2838
08:34:45.479 --> 08:34:56.720
have there growing now, feelings of comfort and security and confidence,

2839
08:34:59.360 --> 08:35:05.479
and the ga becomes wider. Eight down to seven, seven

2840
08:35:05.639 --> 08:35:14.560
down to six. When you get to five, the mind

2841
08:35:14.639 --> 08:35:28.040
will start to have a certain physical sensation, most like

2842
08:35:28.159 --> 08:35:34.959
there's a magnet outside of your head sucking the tension

2843
08:35:35.200 --> 08:35:36.560
and stress.

2844
08:35:36.680 --> 08:35:43.560
And any remaining feelings that you don't want, sucking them

2845
08:35:43.799 --> 08:35:45.400
out through your skull.

2846
08:35:51.159 --> 08:35:52.680
And in down to four.

2847
08:35:54.479 --> 08:36:01.279
You can start to really experience that sense of not

2848
08:36:01.560 --> 08:36:11.759
just emptiness, but space, a place full of fresh air,

2849
08:36:16.759 --> 08:36:23.560
place where you can stretch. It's almost as if as

2850
08:36:23.639 --> 08:36:27.680
you go down to four and three, your mind is

2851
08:36:27.880 --> 08:36:42.400
expanding with this sense of peace and tranquility growing as

2852
08:36:42.439 --> 08:36:49.919
it moves down to When you get to one, your

2853
08:36:50.080 --> 08:37:02.319
mind just feels exactly how you want to feel, almost

2854
08:37:05.400 --> 08:37:17.520
perfect feeling, maybe a sensation that.

2855
08:37:19.119 --> 08:37:20.560
You'd like to keep.

2856
08:37:23.560 --> 08:37:34.400
A place that's safe, where nothing can affect you at all,

2857
08:37:46.080 --> 08:37:52.560
and you can stay in that a space of conform confidence,

2858
08:37:55.279 --> 08:38:02.159
confident in your own ability to create this space and

2859
08:38:02.319 --> 08:38:09.439
this feeling of comfort within your own mind just by

2860
08:38:09.639 --> 08:38:19.599
counting from ten down to one. And this is something

2861
08:38:19.799 --> 08:38:21.919
that you can do yourself.

2862
08:38:22.880 --> 08:38:30.000
When you're on your own, the time when you can

2863
08:38:30.119 --> 08:38:38.599
maybe sit down, maybe just for a few minutes, close

2864
08:38:38.639 --> 08:38:46.400
your eyes, just count slowly from ten.

2865
08:38:49.080 --> 08:39:01.000
Down to one and re experience these feelings in your mind.

2866
08:39:06.880 --> 08:39:11.200
And when you feel that way in your mind, your

2867
08:39:11.279 --> 08:39:25.799
body copies your mind, and the feeling is spread through

2868
08:39:26.000 --> 08:39:33.119
your spine and your nervous system into every part of

2869
08:39:33.240 --> 08:39:48.360
your body, travels through your bloodstream, heaving and relaxing every

2870
08:39:49.279 --> 08:40:06.680
particle of your existence. Now we can we can practice

2871
08:40:06.759 --> 08:40:14.520
this a few times before the end of the recording,

2872
08:40:15.159 --> 08:40:21.000
and then you can practice on your own and each

2873
08:40:21.279 --> 08:40:34.479
time you countfort ten about one the feelings of comfort, calmness,

2874
08:40:35.720 --> 08:40:54.759
deep deep relaxation, become stronger and deeper feeling your mind

2875
08:40:55.159 --> 08:41:04.400
and your brain. With these positive chemicals, the spread throughout

2876
08:41:04.479 --> 08:41:14.279
your body, relaxing you so quickly, relaxing your whole body

2877
08:41:14.479 --> 08:41:26.520
and mind so very very easily, just by counting.

2878
08:41:27.520 --> 08:41:28.400
From ten.

2879
08:41:31.040 --> 08:41:31.840
Down to one.

2880
08:41:36.840 --> 08:41:39.520
That's what we're going to do now. I'm going to

2881
08:41:39.680 --> 08:41:43.759
count from ten down to one. I'd like you to

2882
08:41:43.959 --> 08:41:46.000
repeat the number after me.

2883
08:41:47.240 --> 08:41:53.240
So when I say ten, you can just repeat to

2884
08:41:53.439 --> 08:42:06.599
yourself ten. Just notice, be aware of how you feel

2885
08:42:10.799 --> 08:42:18.360
in your mind and your body. Then when I say nine,

2886
08:42:20.759 --> 08:42:36.319
you can beat to yourself nine again, noticing the increase

2887
08:42:36.680 --> 08:42:44.919
in comfort and calmness in your mind and in your body.

2888
08:42:50.880 --> 08:43:00.479
The same when I say eight, when I say seven, dicks,

2889
08:43:02.880 --> 08:43:12.680
when I say five, four, when I say three.

2890
08:43:16.959 --> 08:43:26.119
Two, and lastly you want to say one, you can.

2891
08:43:26.240 --> 08:43:38.200
Beat that number. Now. Of course, when you do this

2892
08:43:38.560 --> 08:43:44.639
on your own without listening to me, you can say

2893
08:43:44.720 --> 08:43:52.159
the numbers or whatever speed that you feel is necessary

2894
08:43:53.880 --> 08:44:00.360
for you, so you can adapt. So if you feel

2895
08:44:00.560 --> 08:44:05.040
you want to say the numbers ten down to one.

2896
08:44:06.639 --> 08:44:11.200
Faster than I do, then you go ahead and do that.

2897
08:44:12.119 --> 08:44:15.799
Or if you feel when you do it yourself that

2898
08:44:15.919 --> 08:44:21.919
you'd like to have more more space between the numbers,

2899
08:44:24.520 --> 08:44:28.799
maybe take a lot longer to get from ten.

2900
08:44:30.720 --> 08:44:38.959
All the way down to one. That's your choice also

2901
08:44:39.240 --> 08:44:51.439
to do. So I'm going to count from ten.

2902
08:44:51.439 --> 08:44:59.000
Down to one. I want to get to one.

2903
08:45:00.360 --> 08:45:03.000
That will be the end of this recording.

2904
08:45:05.479 --> 08:45:09.080
The less, of course, you're listening to music, and the

2905
08:45:09.240 --> 08:45:11.000
music will continue.

2906
08:45:18.200 --> 08:50:25.799
Ten nine eight, yes, twenty ninety eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen,

2907
08:50:30.479 --> 08:51:27.639
twelve eleven, ten nine eight, seven, five, four, three two one.

2908
08:51:36.040 --> 08:51:46.400
Now open your eyes, noticing how you physically feel having

2909
08:51:46.520 --> 08:51:54.119
counted down from twenty to one, allowing stress and tension

2910
08:51:54.599 --> 08:51:57.159
to leave through your fingertips.

2911
08:51:56.639 --> 08:51:57.439
And your taes.

2912
08:51:58.959 --> 08:52:03.680
And as you focus on your fingertips maybe they feel

2913
08:52:03.680 --> 08:52:10.479
a little bit tingly, which is I suppose quite an understanding,

2914
08:52:10.599 --> 08:52:15.680
considering attention has been exiting your body through your fingertips.

2915
08:52:22.159 --> 08:52:24.159
So now I'm going to count from twenty down to

2916
08:52:24.279 --> 08:52:31.479
one again. This time you're going to feel relief of

2917
08:52:31.680 --> 08:52:37.360
tension and stress and the anxiety that you may have

2918
08:52:42.040 --> 08:52:50.400
leaving through your stomach, just leaving through your stomach, almost

2919
08:52:50.479 --> 08:52:56.240
as if it's just releasing the whole of your stomach

2920
08:52:57.360 --> 08:53:01.919
enable to just the bove your chest or below your chest,

2921
08:53:02.040 --> 08:53:06.599
rather so surrounding your belly by an area. The whole area.

2922
08:53:08.720 --> 08:53:13.319
You can feel the tension of your body where it's left,

2923
08:53:13.599 --> 08:53:18.880
just releasing from the area, and you may notice that

2924
08:53:19.000 --> 08:53:25.240
your stomach will become very relaxed. As I countdown from

2925
08:53:25.360 --> 08:54:49.400
twenty down to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four,

2926
08:54:53.520 --> 08:55:03.919
three two what.

2927
08:55:08.759 --> 08:55:11.000
And you can open your eyes again if you choose,

2928
08:55:11.520 --> 08:55:12.639
or you can just keep them.

2929
08:55:12.560 --> 08:55:18.959
Closed because it feels relaxing. Just notice, say your stomach

2930
08:55:19.080 --> 08:55:24.159
feels I notice, there's your focus. Just do a little

2931
08:55:24.240 --> 08:55:25.400
scan of your body.

2932
08:55:27.479 --> 08:55:28.400
Just notice how.

2933
08:55:28.360 --> 08:55:41.240
Your body feels, focusing on upper body, your back, chest, stomach, legs, arms, hands, feet,

2934
08:55:44.279 --> 08:55:51.200
just noticing, and you know, you may start to feel

2935
08:55:53.680 --> 08:55:57.919
more a sense of tiredness, which may be the reason

2936
08:55:58.000 --> 08:56:02.119
you listening to this recording because you.

2937
08:56:03.599 --> 08:56:03.959
Like to.

2938
08:56:05.599 --> 08:56:17.479
Let go completely of everything and dread or into a nice, natural, calm,

2939
08:56:17.880 --> 08:56:33.040
relaxing sleep. So now we're going to focus on your forehead,

2940
08:56:37.000 --> 08:56:39.759
and if you choose, you can incorporate your eyes in

2941
08:56:39.919 --> 08:56:46.799
this focus as well your forehead and your eyes. It's

2942
08:56:46.880 --> 08:56:51.360
that whole area basically almost as if you were wearing

2943
08:56:51.400 --> 08:56:55.080
a mask, you know, like a I don't know, a

2944
08:56:55.319 --> 08:56:57.880
Batman mask or something, or.

2945
08:57:00.040 --> 08:57:02.919
I'm trying to zorrow or something, you know, the kind

2946
08:57:02.959 --> 08:57:06.080
of mask that covers your eyes but also covers quite

2947
08:57:06.119 --> 08:57:07.040
a lot of the forehead.

2948
08:57:10.919 --> 08:57:11.720
Focusing on that.

2949
08:57:11.880 --> 08:57:14.479
Area because that's the area that we're now going to

2950
08:57:14.599 --> 08:57:18.080
release tension and stress from your.

2951
08:57:18.040 --> 08:57:24.000
Mind and your brain. From your mind and any tension

2952
08:57:24.080 --> 08:57:28.080
that you may have remaining your face, in your neck

2953
08:57:28.560 --> 08:57:34.400
and your jaw, your eyes, your forehead, or your scalp.

2954
08:57:36.040 --> 08:57:41.319
So basically any tension within your head area, including your

2955
08:57:41.479 --> 08:57:48.400
mind and your brain, and that's going to be released

2956
08:57:50.000 --> 08:57:56.599
through your forehead and your eyes. As I count down

2957
08:57:56.680 --> 08:59:18.439
again from twenty down to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six.

2958
08:59:22.279 --> 08:59:42.840
Five, four, three two one.

2959
08:59:50.919 --> 09:00:00.360
Notticing and she scanned her face, mature, your eyes, the

2960
09:00:00.639 --> 09:00:08.799
cheap bones, your ears, your forehead, your scalp, on.

2961
09:00:08.880 --> 09:00:12.520
Your neck, the back of your neck, in the front

2962
09:00:12.599 --> 09:00:16.400
of your neck, the side of your neck, and the throat,

2963
09:00:22.680 --> 09:00:27.080
noticing being aware of the comfort.

2964
09:00:28.880 --> 09:00:30.680
Increased be in that.

2965
09:00:33.000 --> 09:00:39.400
Relaxation, not just in your head and neck and mind,

2966
09:00:40.400 --> 09:00:42.360
also the rest of your body.

2967
09:00:47.680 --> 09:00:54.759
Just notice how loose and calm you feel, and how easily.

2968
09:00:56.479 --> 09:01:07.799
It is to just let go completely, Let go completely

2969
09:01:15.439 --> 09:01:16.560
now easily.

2970
09:01:24.400 --> 09:01:28.279
So to do balance, I want to focus on.

2971
09:01:28.319 --> 09:01:29.400
The top of your head.

2972
09:01:34.840 --> 09:01:35.040
Am.

2973
09:01:35.040 --> 09:01:36.240
We're going to allow.

2974
09:01:37.520 --> 09:01:45.919
Every last piece of tension or stress of mind, be

2975
09:01:46.240 --> 09:01:50.759
lingering or hiding in your body or mind.

2976
09:01:51.319 --> 09:01:53.599
Head to just.

2977
09:01:55.360 --> 09:01:58.560
Be sucked out at the top of your head.

2978
09:02:01.240 --> 09:02:01.720
Released.

2979
09:02:05.439 --> 09:02:09.520
And yeah, I want sucked down into the clouds.

2980
09:02:12.000 --> 09:02:16.840
Imagine a bit cloud of God your head and it's

2981
09:02:16.959 --> 09:02:23.000
like a whirlpool and this can suck that tension out

2982
09:02:23.200 --> 09:02:27.759
the top of your head and just take it away.

2983
09:02:29.880 --> 09:02:36.840
Good to focus. Imagine an opening on the top of

2984
09:02:36.959 --> 09:02:42.959
your head with a tension and stress and in remaining

2985
09:02:43.200 --> 09:02:47.680
issues maybe ways of concerns that have no use to you.

2986
09:02:47.840 --> 09:02:51.639
Now you can all be sucked down at the top

2987
09:02:51.680 --> 09:02:52.520
of your head.

2988
09:02:53.959 --> 09:02:59.840
And taken away. As I count down again for twenty,

2989
09:03:00.360 --> 09:04:49.360
down to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thighteen, twelve, even, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four.

2990
09:04:53.200 --> 09:05:03.479
Three what.

2991
09:05:14.040 --> 09:05:32.119
Breathe, Noticing how you feel, how relaxed and calm you

2992
09:05:32.319 --> 09:05:35.439
physically and mentally feel.

2993
09:05:35.959 --> 09:05:44.200
Right now, how peace.

2994
09:05:46.240 --> 09:05:53.000
Your mind feels. It feel so nice to just let go,

2995
09:05:55.240 --> 09:06:04.560
to give yourself some space to breathe easily, to think calmly,

2996
09:06:09.400 --> 09:06:14.239
and just to take a break from all that pointless

2997
09:06:14.440 --> 09:06:18.239
worry concerns about things.

2998
09:06:18.120 --> 09:06:20.919
That you don't need to think about.

2999
09:06:23.800 --> 09:06:31.160
Right now, because this is your time to let go.

3000
09:06:32.519 --> 09:06:42.279
This is your space to enjoy feeling deeply relaxed, peaceful

3001
09:06:42.440 --> 09:06:45.800
in your mind, relaxed in your body.

3002
09:06:48.959 --> 09:06:55.480
They can feel so good, so nice to just.

3003
09:06:57.839 --> 09:07:04.919
Not have to do anything to be able to really

3004
09:07:06.879 --> 09:07:16.680
enjoy that serenity that comes and letting go completely, that

3005
09:07:16.959 --> 09:07:18.959
peacefulness that comes with.

3006
09:07:25.680 --> 09:07:37.080
Being in this peaceful space. And you can keep this

3007
09:07:37.519 --> 09:07:41.680
sense of calmness for as long as you choose.

3008
09:07:49.879 --> 09:07:56.800
You choose to drift off into deep, healing natural sleep,

3009
09:07:58.080 --> 09:08:04.839
and you can do that. It's completely up to you,

3010
09:08:09.639 --> 09:08:14.360
and you can keep this feeling of calmness physically, mean

3011
09:08:14.440 --> 09:08:20.400
in your mind, as long as you choose to feel

3012
09:08:20.639 --> 09:08:36.120
completely relaxed, completely relaxed. And I'd like you to make

3013
09:08:36.279 --> 09:08:38.080
up your mind.

3014
09:08:40.040 --> 09:08:41.519
That you're going to relax.

3015
09:08:49.760 --> 09:08:53.040
And want to explore that with you. What it feels

3016
09:08:53.199 --> 09:08:54.559
like when you actually.

3017
09:08:55.839 --> 09:09:03.080
Decide that you're going to relax, not forcing yourself, but

3018
09:09:03.279 --> 09:09:04.839
giving yourself that.

3019
09:09:07.800 --> 09:09:10.040
Yes, it is a command, really, isn't it. When you're

3020
09:09:10.080 --> 09:09:18.239
telling yourself relax in a gentle but firm way, that

3021
09:09:19.680 --> 09:09:25.319
only you can really tell yourself in that way. You

3022
09:09:25.360 --> 09:09:29.760
can't really have someone else saying to you, now it relax, relax,

3023
09:09:30.400 --> 09:09:34.120
you know, and it needs to be gentle, but you

3024
09:09:34.199 --> 09:09:41.279
can't someone else can't really have the same the same

3025
09:09:41.480 --> 09:09:48.959
kind of influence or power that you have over your

3026
09:09:49.120 --> 09:09:52.239
own physicality.

3027
09:09:52.279 --> 09:10:00.839
Over how you feel, because when when you say it.

3028
09:10:01.239 --> 09:10:09.480
To yourself, it means more. It's personal, and your brain

3029
09:10:09.760 --> 09:10:14.559
and your unconscious mind and your body listens to what

3030
09:10:14.800 --> 09:10:20.160
you say. So, for example, we'll test it out.

3031
09:10:20.760 --> 09:10:23.279
We'll do a little test, a few little tests along

3032
09:10:23.319 --> 09:10:26.319
the way, and you can get more.

3033
09:10:26.199 --> 09:10:32.599
Of an idea of the force, the positive force that

3034
09:10:32.800 --> 09:10:39.559
you can have in creating a sense of comfort and

3035
09:10:39.720 --> 09:10:46.160
relaxation in your body and your mind quite quickly just

3036
09:10:46.559 --> 09:10:49.400
by you telling yourself.

3037
09:10:50.760 --> 09:10:51.400
To relax.

3038
09:10:56.080 --> 09:10:59.680
So I'm going to start by it's focused on your hands.

3039
09:11:03.319 --> 09:11:05.519
To focus on your hands and just tell your hands

3040
09:11:05.919 --> 09:11:09.319
to relax, and just say relax.

3041
09:11:10.959 --> 09:11:16.319
As you focus on your hands. You could say, my

3042
09:11:16.639 --> 09:11:20.440
hands are relaxed, or I want my hands to relax.

3043
09:11:22.519 --> 09:11:28.279
I think if you actually do it directly by focusing

3044
09:11:28.959 --> 09:11:33.480
and imagining that your hands can hear what you're saying.

3045
09:11:33.319 --> 09:11:35.760
You know, like they've got little ears, which is a

3046
09:11:35.839 --> 09:11:36.279
little weird.

3047
09:11:38.879 --> 09:11:49.120
So talking to your hands and just say relax, you.

3048
09:11:49.239 --> 09:11:57.000
Know, disiny your hands.

3049
09:11:56.720 --> 09:11:57.599
Start to relax.

3050
09:12:10.000 --> 09:12:13.480
Now focus on your eyes and tell your eyes to relax.

3051
09:12:14.599 --> 09:12:16.279
You just say in the same word.

3052
09:12:16.839 --> 09:12:25.080
Relax and find the right tone for you. You know,

3053
09:12:25.239 --> 09:12:32.160
I might say relax, but you you might say relax

3054
09:12:33.319 --> 09:12:38.680
or relax. You know, you might say it differently to yourself,

3055
09:12:39.680 --> 09:12:46.199
and that's important for you to gauge what feels right

3056
09:12:46.599 --> 09:12:52.879
for you. But just tell your eyes to relax whilst

3057
09:12:53.040 --> 09:12:57.040
focusing on your eyes, your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes,

3058
09:12:57.919 --> 09:13:03.160
your eyebrows, and just tell your eyes directly.

3059
09:13:05.360 --> 09:13:07.919
Relax now.

3060
09:13:34.720 --> 09:13:44.879
Now, I just did that myself, And sometimes you may

3061
09:13:45.000 --> 09:13:47.360
feel that you need a bit more time.

3062
09:13:49.360 --> 09:13:52.599
Or the different parts to relax, you know, because I

3063
09:13:52.680 --> 09:13:57.599
start talking again and maybe that part hasn't relaxed fully.

3064
09:13:58.559 --> 09:14:01.239
But what will happen is that would continue to relax

3065
09:14:01.360 --> 09:14:05.160
even dawn talking, And that's happened.

3066
09:14:04.919 --> 09:14:12.080
With my eyes. Something else I noticed is when I

3067
09:14:12.160 --> 09:14:16.720
started focusing on my eyes, they actually almost became They got.

3068
09:14:16.680 --> 09:14:19.480
Worse before they got better in a way, so that

3069
09:14:19.559 --> 09:14:20.160
I felt.

3070
09:14:19.959 --> 09:14:25.400
A degree of tension growing in my eyes and then disappearing.

3071
09:14:27.120 --> 09:14:29.279
So I think what that was really was just me

3072
09:14:29.480 --> 09:14:35.800
becoming more aware of the tension that was already there

3073
09:14:36.360 --> 09:14:40.959
that I was. I wasn't focused on it before, so

3074
09:14:41.080 --> 09:14:59.879
I wasn't really acknowledging it or really conscious to those feelings. Yeah,

3075
09:15:00.080 --> 09:15:02.760
my eyes is still continuing to relax.

3076
09:15:03.000 --> 09:15:08.639
As well as my hands. Actually, my hands have got

3077
09:15:08.720 --> 09:15:14.879
a certain kind of energy, like not buzzing, but I

3078
09:15:15.000 --> 09:15:20.080
can kind of funeral a degree of energy in my hands.

3079
09:15:23.279 --> 09:15:28.000
Maybe that's where the tension is being released. Maybe that's

3080
09:15:28.000 --> 09:15:28.680
the causing that.

3081
09:15:36.080 --> 09:15:38.319
The next part, I think we should focus.

3082
09:15:38.080 --> 09:15:39.000
On the back of the neck.

3083
09:15:39.720 --> 09:15:41.440
That's a part which is quite often.

3084
09:15:43.239 --> 09:15:44.879
Or for me, holds tension.

3085
09:15:44.959 --> 09:15:47.559
I don't know about it for yourself, but I think

3086
09:15:47.599 --> 09:15:52.559
it's quite a standard place where tension is sometimes held.

3087
09:15:54.120 --> 09:15:57.360
So and I'm doing.

3088
09:15:57.400 --> 09:15:59.919
Exactly what you're doing as you do it as well,

3089
09:16:00.160 --> 09:16:04.080
So I'm telling my body parts to relax as well.

3090
09:16:04.879 --> 09:16:06.279
So if you tell your neck at.

3091
09:16:06.199 --> 09:16:08.760
The back of your neck, focus on the back of

3092
09:16:08.760 --> 09:16:15.800
your neck, and just say relax in your own words,

3093
09:16:15.959 --> 09:16:16.599
in your own.

3094
09:16:16.559 --> 09:16:18.160
Tone, in your own voice.

3095
09:16:18.800 --> 09:16:20.879
You can say out loud, or you can just say

3096
09:16:20.879 --> 09:16:26.400
it to yourself internally. But you're focusing and you're saying

3097
09:16:26.440 --> 09:16:27.760
it literally.

3098
09:16:27.760 --> 09:16:31.040
To the back of your neck, as if the back

3099
09:16:31.120 --> 09:16:34.360
of your neck can actually hear what you're saying.

3100
09:16:37.800 --> 09:16:41.360
So do that now, Just say relax to the back

3101
09:16:41.400 --> 09:16:43.879
of your neck, and I'll do the same.

3102
09:17:22.720 --> 09:17:26.440
And what I noticed, and you may have a similar thing,

3103
09:17:27.919 --> 09:17:30.760
is even though I was focusing.

3104
09:17:30.319 --> 09:17:38.440
On the back of the neck, other parts started to.

3105
09:17:41.400 --> 09:17:45.040
I don't know, showed themselves to me or maybe because

3106
09:17:45.080 --> 09:17:46.480
they want to be relaxed as well.

3107
09:17:46.599 --> 09:17:51.040
But I started noticing the feelings in my shoulders, at

3108
09:17:51.120 --> 09:17:53.519
tension in my shoulders and in my upper back.

3109
09:17:56.599 --> 09:17:59.279
Whether that was because my.

3110
09:17:59.760 --> 09:18:03.680
Back my neck was saying, well, I'm pretty much okay.

3111
09:18:05.279 --> 09:18:14.599
It's the other parts that need attention, but my low

3112
09:18:15.319 --> 09:18:18.879
back of my neck is still relaxing. But I just

3113
09:18:19.000 --> 09:18:23.279
became more aware of other parts that needed attention.

3114
09:18:25.519 --> 09:18:30.480
Now, this might happen and it's not. It doesn't mean

3115
09:18:30.599 --> 09:18:31.639
that it's going wrong.

3116
09:18:31.760 --> 09:18:37.480
It just means you're being notified of more places.

3117
09:18:38.199 --> 09:18:40.120
But also wanted to be relaxed.

3118
09:18:43.400 --> 09:18:47.760
So I'm going to focus on my other back so

3119
09:18:47.959 --> 09:18:48.879
you can do the same.

3120
09:18:50.639 --> 09:18:52.160
Even if you don't have any.

3121
09:18:53.599 --> 09:18:57.080
Feelings of tension that are obvious in your other back,

3122
09:18:59.040 --> 09:19:03.879
you just focus on your back and the whole area

3123
09:19:04.080 --> 09:19:08.559
from the shoulder blades down to the middle of your

3124
09:19:08.639 --> 09:19:12.879
back and the spine. And with me, it's more the

3125
09:19:13.000 --> 09:19:20.519
shoulder blades that are more Yeah, that's the parts that

3126
09:19:20.760 --> 09:19:24.720
really sort of given me.

3127
09:19:26.480 --> 09:19:26.800
Did not.

3128
09:19:28.720 --> 09:19:31.160
That it needs relax in the sounds to ask that

3129
09:19:31.360 --> 09:19:32.559
part to relax.

3130
09:19:33.400 --> 09:19:34.400
And you can do the same.

3131
09:19:34.480 --> 09:20:01.239
Now relapse out the back. There's something strange happened there,

3132
09:20:01.760 --> 09:20:02.040
And this.

3133
09:20:03.519 --> 09:20:04.400
Often happens.

3134
09:20:04.480 --> 09:20:05.599
I've been doing this well.

3135
09:20:07.919 --> 09:20:14.080
For sixteen years or something, and often I'm one surprised

3136
09:20:14.959 --> 09:20:21.760
but amazed. Really bad, there can be a feeling. So

3137
09:20:21.959 --> 09:20:24.519
when I was focusing on the back of my neck,

3138
09:20:25.400 --> 09:20:29.519
my other back was starting to feel quite stressed and

3139
09:20:30.279 --> 09:20:35.839
in need of attention. As soon as I started talking

3140
09:20:36.040 --> 09:20:41.720
to you about my upper back and talking about getting

3141
09:20:41.760 --> 09:20:46.519
ready to ask the other back to relax, why the

3142
09:20:46.599 --> 09:20:52.199
back already started to relax It's almost as if it

3143
09:20:52.360 --> 09:21:02.599
doesn't need to hear the words, just needs attention, just

3144
09:21:02.800 --> 09:21:15.279
needs to be noticed. That is something that often happens

3145
09:21:15.720 --> 09:21:23.959
in this type of situation is when you start to relax.

3146
09:21:25.080 --> 09:21:25.599
A couple of.

3147
09:21:25.680 --> 09:21:28.599
Parts of your body, as we've done with.

3148
09:21:28.680 --> 09:21:34.360
Our hands, the eyes and the eyelids, and.

3149
09:21:34.599 --> 09:21:43.319
Now back of the neck, top of the bag, up

3150
09:21:43.360 --> 09:21:43.720
the bag.

3151
09:21:45.040 --> 09:21:49.519
The rest of the body seems to just take notice.

3152
09:21:51.760 --> 09:21:58.000
And decide in its own way to start relaxing.

3153
09:22:00.199 --> 09:22:01.480
Parts of your body.

3154
09:22:01.879 --> 09:22:02.720
Start to just.

3155
09:22:04.440 --> 09:22:05.239
Become looser.

3156
09:22:09.959 --> 09:22:12.800
I suppose it's kind of like a bit of an avalanche,

3157
09:22:13.000 --> 09:22:17.720
you know, a little ball starts rolling, and before you

3158
09:22:17.839 --> 09:22:19.519
know it, the whole of your body is.

3159
09:22:19.639 --> 09:22:21.760
Completely relaxed and can't.

3160
09:22:30.599 --> 09:22:38.199
And if you focus on your face, you focus on

3161
09:22:38.279 --> 09:22:46.879
your eyes, the eyelids, your eyebrows, and the muscles around

3162
09:22:47.000 --> 09:22:55.879
your eyes, and maybe you start to notice that your

3163
09:22:55.959 --> 09:23:01.239
forehead is more relaxed than it was. Maybe your face

3164
09:23:01.440 --> 09:23:06.959
is more relaxed. I would say, my entire face is

3165
09:23:08.239 --> 09:23:21.720
a lot more relaxed than was. So you're going to

3166
09:23:21.800 --> 09:23:28.040
focus now on your shoulders the game, just like before.

3167
09:23:29.400 --> 09:23:33.800
Just tell your shoulders you can't do them in the digitally.

3168
09:23:33.519 --> 09:23:35.639
You can do the right shoulder and your shoulder.

3169
09:23:37.239 --> 09:23:41.440
I just didn't do both at the same time. Just

3170
09:23:41.639 --> 09:23:45.199
tell your shoulders and you focus on them in your mind.

3171
09:23:46.559 --> 09:23:51.480
Focus on them if you feel maybe you can see

3172
09:23:51.599 --> 09:23:53.199
them in your mind's eye.

3173
09:23:56.760 --> 09:24:02.800
Just tell your shoulders to relax.

3174
09:24:39.959 --> 09:24:41.480
As nice as they relax.

3175
09:24:51.919 --> 09:24:57.239
I did notice specially my bag.

3176
09:24:59.639 --> 09:25:06.040
Is the connection between the different parts the back, the shoulders,

3177
09:25:06.199 --> 09:25:16.160
the neck, being all connected and being such a large

3178
09:25:16.319 --> 09:25:22.120
part of your body, it's always hard to separate them

3179
09:25:22.440 --> 09:25:30.160
from each other. And when lower back is starting to

3180
09:25:30.279 --> 09:25:41.480
relax on the soon may be going too slow, and

3181
09:25:41.639 --> 09:25:45.040
that could be an issue because we will go at

3182
09:25:45.080 --> 09:25:51.400
different speeds. And the idea at the beginning of this

3183
09:25:51.680 --> 09:25:54.360
recording was for you to be able to just say

3184
09:25:54.440 --> 09:26:10.800
to yourself, relax without focusing on any particular part of

3185
09:26:10.919 --> 09:26:11.400
your body.

3186
09:26:13.680 --> 09:26:20.000
Because when you know that turning your hands to relax,

3187
09:26:24.000 --> 09:26:32.160
your hands relax, You tell your eyelids and your eyes

3188
09:26:33.040 --> 09:26:39.559
and muscles around your eyes and your eyebrows to relax,

3189
09:26:43.360 --> 09:26:44.199
and they relax.

3190
09:26:49.959 --> 09:26:52.599
You tell the back of your neck.

3191
09:26:55.720 --> 09:26:56.360
To relax.

3192
09:27:01.879 --> 09:27:30.239
Relaxes until you're out backs in different relaxes.

3193
09:27:37.959 --> 09:27:39.919
You tell your shoulders.

3194
09:27:52.680 --> 09:28:20.360
They relax. You told your hands to relax. They relaxed,

3195
09:28:20.879 --> 09:28:31.800
and they continued to relax. And you told your eyelids,

3196
09:28:34.199 --> 09:28:41.839
the muscles around your eyes, your eyebrows, to relax. They relaxed,

3197
09:28:45.400 --> 09:28:56.279
they continue to relax. And you told at the back

3198
09:28:56.360 --> 09:28:59.919
of your neck, don't give some the back of your neck.

3199
09:29:03.440 --> 09:29:04.839
And told it to relax.

3200
09:29:09.160 --> 09:29:10.440
The relaxed.

3201
09:29:12.239 --> 09:29:15.319
And continued to relax.

3202
09:29:23.519 --> 09:29:25.800
And you told your alco back.

3203
09:29:29.160 --> 09:29:34.599
To relax, be relaxed, and continued.

3204
09:29:36.559 --> 09:29:50.279
To relax. That's with your shoulders. He told your shoulders

3205
09:29:50.400 --> 09:30:03.720
to relax, and your shoulders relaxed and continued to relax.

3206
09:30:09.400 --> 09:30:14.360
And it's not just that, it's.

3207
09:30:17.040 --> 09:30:21.080
But the rest of your body is also in the

3208
09:30:21.199 --> 09:30:29.239
still and their relaxation has been spreading. So from your eyes,

3209
09:30:29.599 --> 09:30:37.000
the relaxations spread to your forehead, around your face, into

3210
09:30:37.080 --> 09:30:49.760
your skin, into your jaw, into.

3211
09:30:49.639 --> 09:30:54.000
The front and sides of the neck, hold way down

3212
09:30:54.120 --> 09:30:55.120
your chest.

3213
09:30:55.080 --> 09:30:56.040
And stuff.

3214
09:31:02.680 --> 09:31:04.879
Relaxed hands and shoulders.

3215
09:31:06.879 --> 09:31:11.440
It's up through your arms relaxing.

3216
09:31:13.080 --> 09:31:13.519
For a.

3217
09:31:15.160 --> 09:31:18.959
Top of elbows, wrists.

3218
09:31:22.080 --> 09:31:38.760
Let's you know, the low back my hips that's exploiting you,

3219
09:31:39.120 --> 09:31:48.120
just starting to relax, and the tiny help spreading through

3220
09:31:48.239 --> 09:32:02.040
your legs poll the way down to your ankles, the

3221
09:32:02.160 --> 09:32:07.879
tips of your feet, the side of your feet, and

3222
09:32:08.000 --> 09:32:22.519
the bottoms of your feet, relaxing into your toes in

3223
09:32:23.040 --> 09:32:48.559
tone relaxing because and your body relaxes wth your mind

3224
09:32:50.199 --> 09:33:16.239
becomes slower, peaceful. It's the point where if you choose

3225
09:33:17.319 --> 09:33:33.879
to forsake your job, easily do that. He said to

3226
09:33:34.959 --> 09:33:46.519
the way, because it's nothing way in the world. The

3227
09:33:46.680 --> 09:34:31.120
pray was peaceful, The body were teased, vacation between body

3228
09:34:31.199 --> 09:34:36.879
and rights in the word you say to yourself.

3229
09:34:38.959 --> 09:34:51.559
Lights and still need to pack this on just one pod.

3230
09:34:53.040 --> 09:35:04.639
If you just play the song, the entire body saying

3231
09:35:05.199 --> 09:35:36.639
about a word that their sensations compsad.

3232
09:35:35.639 --> 09:35:37.120
Well the body.

3233
09:35:42.160 --> 09:36:21.360
Who saying a mom to your body easing, oh Dost

3234
09:36:23.160 --> 09:38:27.239
tells starting now number twenty ninety eighteen, seventeen, sixteen four.

3235
09:40:00.279 --> 09:45:16.639
Attatatatatatatat attatatatatatatatas