Sept. 17, 2025

(no music) (10 hours) #1433 Let me bore you to sleep | Trivia Tuesday

(no music) (10 hours) #1433 Let me bore you to sleep | Trivia Tuesday
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(no music) (10 hours) #1433 Let me bore you to sleep | Trivia Tuesday | Jason Newland | 16th September 2025

🎙 Title: Let Me Bore You to Sleep #1433 – Trivia Tuesday (Shortest Days, Longest Rambles) 📄 Description (Spreaker-formatted, ready to paste): Hello and welcome to Let Me Bore You to Sleep, I’m Jason Newland. It's Trivia Tuesday... or actually Wednesday. I missed Tuesday. Oops. 😴 In this extra-dull, extra-soothing episode, I take you on a rambling journey that begins with the trivia of shortest and longest days around the world — and ends somewhere in a memory of selling comedy albums to a policeman and having cold hands in 1990. Also: Vinny cuddles, night shift chaos, and a Buddhist fire exit incident. Please only listen when you can safely close your eyes. 🙏
Website: LetMeBoreYouToSleep.com ⏱️ Timestamps: 0:00 – Intro & Lighting Talk
Why I didn’t record Tuesday. The morning is strangely dark. I ramble about windows and needing the lights on.

5:00 – Trivia Tuesday Begins

  • 🌍 Longest and shortest days by country
  • Ecuador, Kenya, UK, Australia, Iceland, the Poles
  • Wondering where the moon goes for 6 months 🤔
30:00 – Memory Lane (Night Shift Jobs)
  • My double-glazing canvassing job in 1990
  • Working night shift at a meter factory
  • Trying to do two jobs and sleeping like a vampire
55:00 – Living with My Dad
  • Staying at Dad’s while working two jobs
  • Heating issues and blackout curtains
  • How many towns were involved in getting me to move out?
1:05:00 – Comedy Dreams & Video Players
  • Selling all my comedy stuff for £250
  • Trying (and failing) to learn stand-up from tapes
  • Buying a broken VCR from a “friend”
1:20:00 – Vinny Gets Affectionate
  • Vinny cuddles up on my lap ❤️
  • I wonder if he’s just accepted his fate...
1:25:00 – Outro
  • Realizing I’ve completely abandoned the trivia
  • Reminders to be kind to yourself
  • “You deserve to be happy. You deserve to feel safe.”
🐾 Special Guest: Vinny the dog – occasional barking, cuddles, and sabotage.

🔑 Keywords: sleep podcast, longest day trivia, ASMR, Jason Newland, relaxing voice, bedtime story, night shift, UK nostalgia, Vinny the dog, Let Me Bore You to Sleep, meditation, boring podcast, fall asleep fast

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Hello, and welcome to let me bore you to sleep.

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My name's Jason Luland and this is Trivia Tuesday now.

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To be honest, I don't like being honest, as you know,

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But to be honest, I'm doing this on Wednesday because

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yesterday I couldn't be bothered. I couldn't do it. I

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just I was busy, not busy, but a neighbor knocked

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and had a a chat, and time went by and

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before I knew it, it was time to go bye byes.

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So I didn't do it. And the weather's changed, not

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not that that should really be a reason, but it's

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nine twenty two in the morning, and really I need

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the light on. It's like early evening here lightwise inside

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days now. If I was going to read a book,

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I would need the light on, or a paper or something,

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you know, something like that. Luckily, with computers, you know,

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there's a light on in the behind the screen, isn't there,

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So I ain't got to worry about that. But if

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I was sitting here writing stuff down, I would need

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to have the light on at nine twenty three in

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the morning. It's kind of weird, honestly, And I haven't

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even got the curtains drawn, so the curtains are open.

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The windows are open because it's it was cold. I

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put the heating on and now it's too hot for

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our ton. The windows weird time, it's I mean, it's

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only what is it, the seventeenth of September two thous

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and and twenty five. Hmmm, that's kind of I think

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that's the thing about this time of year. Not this

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time of year, but like between now and March oct Jenney,

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there's only six months and between you get a lot

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of these days. And you know, during any in England

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or where I live anyway, this is kind of standard

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sort of lighting during the day for a good couple

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of months, like December, January, maybe part of November. I

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don't remember it normally being quite like this in September.

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M m.

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It's just really I can't I can't really show you

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because if I took a picture, it doesn't give you

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a gauge. Really. I mean, it's never like super bright

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inside here anyway, because there is a tree that's blocking

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a fair bit of like sunlight when the sun's out. Yeah,

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it's a little bit dull. Please only listen when you

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can safe the close your eyes. My website is let

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me bore you to sleep dot com. What else can

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I tell you? Not really much. I just yeah, everything's okay.

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I I slept last night and then I got up.

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I dreamt Vinny is now in my dreams with me,

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which I don't know if that's normal or weird, I

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don't know, but yeah, he's in my dreams, so he

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accompanies me wherever I go, just like in real life.

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By the way, I've got Q and A Friday coming

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up this week, which is in two days. It's Wednesday today.

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So I have posted on my my Facebook group, which

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is Jason Newland's Boring Group, but I haven't had any

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questions yet. Had two people like it the post I put,

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but no questions. So please go to the page Jason

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Newland's Boring Group on Facebook and ask me some questions

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if you'd like to. And I should also say welcome

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to the newest members of the group, which would be

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Sue Brooke, Janice Patrick, Camilla, Melenis, Marina, Mary Forge, Vivek

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Fari Bada and Peter so Yeah and Andy. So that's

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like the last few that have joined. So thank you

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for being part of this Shoper Grove group. The link

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is on my website if you want to find it.

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If you can't find it is I think it should

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be quite easy to find. So here we go. So

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this is time for trivia Tuesday. I need to figure

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out a For some reason, I'm very focused on light today.

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So what are the shortest day's longest days? Or shall

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I do weather? Because really weird because if I just

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what's the shortest days of the year, there's one short day,

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then there's one longest day, longest days in the summer,

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shortest days in I suppose probably December or beginning of January.

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Let's just shucked. I could just go through countries or

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the shortest and longest days. Please give me shortest, shortest

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if I could spell, and longest days days of the

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year by country. Got it? The shortest and longest days

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of the year, depending on leitude, not the country itself. No,

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by country? Oh it is, oh okay, So it has

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example by country list all countries. The thing is it's

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probably going to be a lot of them. That's a

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huge list, almost two hundred countries. But I can absolutely

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create it for you. Before I dive in, I want

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to check list all countries. Yes, I just asked you.

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Just just do it, man, I'm a proper task master,

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mask tasker. Right. I'll start off with the general rules.

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It says equator equator, zero latitude equator. Sorry, day length

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barely changes after twelve hours of daylight all year. Twelve

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hours of daylight all year in the equator, so it's

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like twelve hours daylight twelve hours night and the kind

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of stays the same length. I am kind of ad libbing,

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but fair enough. Tropics up to I don't know what

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that means. Variation is small. The longest thirteen hours, shortest

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is eleven hours, so there's not a lot of differences there.

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Mid latitudes, which would be UK, USA, Europe, China bigger swings.

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So longest days sixteen to seventeen hours, shortest days seven

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to eight hours. Arctic Antarctic circle at least one day

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with twenty four hour daylight midnight Sunday okay specific and

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one with twenty four hour darkness polar night. Does that

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mean continuous So twenty four hours of light, twenty four

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hours of darkness, twenty four hours of light, twenty four

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hour darkness. See. If that's the case, that must have

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been really weird for people that were traveling up there

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to kind of try and climb a mountain or something

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and thinking, Wow, time just slows down when we're here.

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This is brilliant. This is been light for age years,

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the days We've got so much done, and then they

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go to sleep and think, God, it's light again. I

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feel so refreshed. I feel like I've been asleep forever.

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So poles one continuous six month day and one continuous

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six month night each year. Yeah, I've heard about that.

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That's got to be very, very strange. So that's a

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North and South pole or North South pole, one continuous

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six month day, one continuous six month night. I'd like

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to visit that just to see what that's like. It's

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gotta be weird because so that means the moon never

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comes out. Where does the moon go? Where does the

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sun go? After the six months? The sun just goes

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on holiday meanwhile, and go somewhere hot with it. But

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what we're I mean the moon, what happens to the moon?

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So can you literally during the night, where does the

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sun go for six months? That's strange, isn't it? Unless

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it's literally because of the mountains are so maybe it's

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because of the mountains. They're so big that the sun

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can't penetrate them. That's a problem. The sun's been trying

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to penetrate the mountains for years, but he can't. Perhaps

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they just don't get on examples by country. So let's

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have a look. Here's a complete that's what I'm using

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chat GPT. Right, there's a huge list, almost two hundred countries.

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But I can actually absolutely absolutely create it for you.

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List all countries alphabetically with their shortest the longest day lengths. M.

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It's not given it to me. It's just given me

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loads and loads of countries. Yes, I'm going to see

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if they can do that. Yes, please, because this offered

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me maybe to tell me ones that they can give

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me the shortest and longest days. But before that has

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given me a list of some So Ecuador longest days

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twelve hours seven minutes. So that's Ecuador, Kenya near equator equator.

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I keep no Ecuador, yeah, near equator, Kenya, Keny is

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near the equator. Okay, I didn't know that. Longest day

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twelve hours seven minutes. Shortest day eleven hours fifty three minutes.

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So they have long days. It's basically like pretty much

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twelve twelve, isn't it. Twelve hours of dark, twelve hours

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of sun kind of all year round, with a few

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minutes in between. Literally, I mean that's seven minutes either way.

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So wow, it is fourteen minutes. So there can be

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fourteen minutes difference in the entire year between the longest

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day and the shortest day. That's absolutely And then you've

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got UK London, so oh, it's going to give me

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the actual date. That's nice. Around June twenty first, London.

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The longest day is sixteen hours forty minutes. The shortest

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day around the twenty first of December. I thought it

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was around December time, seven hours fifty minutes. The good

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thing about the shortest day is knowing that every single

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day afterwards the day is going to get longer. And

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I don't know, just there's something quite nice about that.

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I mean, it takes a while, it does. But you know,

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there was a time when I'd be up till four

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in the morning, sometimes eight in the morning. I'd be

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awake all night for years and years and years. And

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what I noticed in the summer, like well, in the

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spring rather really, so when you forget get to like

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March April kind of those kind of months. It's light

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so early in the morning and it really gets early quick.

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It's like the time seems to just I don't know.

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It's it's quite nice and the birds are up and singing,

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and you know you can look out and see them

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having a shower, brushing their teeth, you know, tucking into

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their corn flakes they did, They all really getting ready. Okay,

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they're worring flakes. New York longest day is fifteen hours,

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shortest days nine hours. So so far the UK has

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got the shortest day out of anyone. Also the longest day,

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oh no, yeah, just by ten minutes. Austraia longest day

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December twenty first, it's the summer solstice fourteen hours twenty minutes,

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so it's not as long as we have. Well, so

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we're doing all right, and we really shortest days June

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twenty first, nine hours fifty minutes. So it's literally the

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exact opposite of us in the UK. In Australia it's

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like the mirror image sixteen out or the opposite image. Rather,

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that's not really a mirror image, is it. But then

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if you look at a mirror, it's back to front,

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isn't it. People use the word in the mirriage, in

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the mirriage mirror image in the wrong way, don't they really?

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I think when I say it was like looking at

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someone's like a mirror image, which technically if someone looks

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right like you and you're facing them, and if they

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were your doppel ganger or whatever, or your twin, then

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that would be like looking in the mirror, and that'd

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be an imm mirriage. I can't say that. My words

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all back to front these days, so an IMMI mirriage.

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And but at the same time, it's also back to front,

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isn't it, So it's not really a mirror image. I

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wonder where imma merriage came from. Way you think words

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sentences would be quite easy for me, wouldn't you really?

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Considering an amount of talking I've done over the years.

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That's got to be weird. How do people in Australia

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get used to it being warm in the winter? How

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do you get used to that? Could you imagine like

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it's warm in the winter. But you know what Australia do.

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They do it wrong. They they do it back to front.

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They say, oh, the summertime is their winter. No, it's

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still summer. It's just you're getting bad weather. December, November, December, January,

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February or whatever or January. That's winter still. Just because

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you're getting nice weather, it's still winter. Don't call it summer.

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You got it wrong. Canada longest day sixteen hours thirty minutes.

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Shortest day seven hours thirty minutes. So we're still ahead.

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Looks like we're still ahead. The UK is still ahead.

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For the longest day we so far have all these countries. Nope,

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just got to Iceland. Iceland. Wow, longest day twenty one

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hours daylight. Shortest day three to four hours daylight. But

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then if you look at the UK, where are we?

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Okay seven hours fifteen minutes eight so it's double but okay,

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fair enough. We don't have the shortest day, but Iceland

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do three to four hours. So literally, what time does

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it get light in Iceland? That's gotta be really weird

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just to think that you've got to get you pretty

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much got to get everything done. So if you live

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in Iceland, maybe let us know, do you, I mean,

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do the shops open outside of those four hours or

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does everything open and close? Because there's a lot of

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polar bears and stuff around. Isn't there in Iceland? I

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don't know. I might be was that Denmark or was

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that Greenland? Or I'm sure it's polar bears somewhere walking around.

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I don't mean like walking around doing their shopping, but

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walking around, not like fully clothed and gossiping about each other.

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But you know there's polar bears. But then twenty one

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hours daylight sometimes, So how does that regulate mood? And

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how does that How does that affect sleep? Because I'm

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just going back to where is it Ecuador? Not Ecuador?

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The are right the poles to the north pole South pole,

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one continuous six month day and one continue a six

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month night. So how does that affect people's sleeping habits?

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I mean, technically, I suppose if you're born there, you're

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acclimatized and you don't know any different. But I don't know,

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because I thought that the moon, the lunar kind of

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sequence and stuff had an effect. And that's as much

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as I know. I suppose you just got to get

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thick curtains, aren't you. Well though I can sleep in daylight,

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never used to be able to, but I can now.

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I can just go to bed in the middle of summer,

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you know, eleven o'clock in the morning or two in

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the afternoon, and I can go to sleep, just not

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like full eight hours sleep, but I have a nap

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and fall asleep. Fine, as long as Vinnie don't bark.

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Nothing else really bothers me, and I can have the

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curtains open, windows open. It's fine. I don't need it

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to be dark anymore. But there was a time back

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in nineteen ninety one, No, nineteen ninety I had this

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part time No, I had a full time job. I

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had two jobs, actually, but I moved away from London

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in review. I think it was March nineteen ninety it

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might be in February, it's around that time. And then

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I got a job I was going back to doing.

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By the way, unless you in case you wondered what

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the sound is in the background, it's Vinny chewing on

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one of his bony things. Okay, so I I still

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remember that conversation. It's weird because where I was living

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there was a phone at the bottom of the stairs,

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I think, and it was a payphone. So I phoned

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up my Actually I don't know if I phoned them up. Well,

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they phoned me up, but basically to let me know

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that there was a job. If I wanted it, I

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might have just phoned them up just to see how

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they are. And this person I used to work with,

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and they said, oh, there's a job Jeff has taken on.

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People are going to do canvasing. And he was the body.

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He's no longer with us, but he was sort of

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in charge of the canvassin for double glazing, because that's

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what I was doing in eighty nine nineteen eighty nine,

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and then lost that job because the company, the main

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company we were working for, decided to invest their money

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in advertising on radio instead of canvassing. But then and

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that was kind of late summer, end of the summer,

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sort of autumn time in nineteen eighty nine, and then

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nineteen ninety the same man had found another company to

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work for, maybe more than one actually, and we went

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out between I think about four o'clock in the afternoon

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until about eight. It was four hours work and I

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think it was like one hundred and twenty pound a week, so,

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which is pretty good back then. So I was told

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there's a job if you want it. So I called

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up Jeff and he said, yeah, if you can get

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back here. We can start Monday. And so I phoned

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my dad up and told him, and my dad said, well,

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you can move in here for a little while, you

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can stay here for a little while. So I did.

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I packed my bags. Didn't have much stuff literally, just

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probably a couple of black bags of stuff, bin bags

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and stuff, and then got on the train, came back

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or went back to my dad's, and I started working

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at this doing the canvassing. And then I started thinking, hmmm,

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it's not really I mean, it was more than what

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I was learning before. I was earning less than one

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hundred pound a week before during that period, but one

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hundred and twenty poundst wasn't like lots of money, but

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it was still, you know, twenty quid more than a

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while I was getting. But I wanted to. I was

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looking maybe get a job, like a proper job, and

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I applied to go and work at this meta factory

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that I'd already worked at twice before, so I knew

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people at work there, I knew some supervisors, and I

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kind of I didn't work my way back, but I

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managed to get a job interview and they took me on.

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But this time it was night shift, which is what

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I wanted because then I could continue to do the

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canvassing job, not really thinking too much about how much

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work that would be. It's a heck, you know, it's

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a long day. So I was starting work at ten

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in the evening and then I was finishing at six

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in the morning. I was, yeah, then I did. I'd

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go to bed, be in bed by seven, and i'd

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be up by two and i'd start working four, finish

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at eight. I'd normally get dropped off at home so

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I wouldn't have to travel, and then i'd get ready,

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maybe pasig to eat, and then just had to work.

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So that's what my week was like for I don't

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know a couple of months until I just it was

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too much. It was It's a shame because I think

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I was doing Saturday mornings as well in the canvasing

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a lot extra overtime and when they needed me, so

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it was a little bit too much. In retrospect, I

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kind of wish i'd just stuck at it and saved

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some money, which I didn't because since I started doing

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some money, I decided that I wanted to move back

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to London and do stand up comedy, and instead of

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saving money, which is what I would need to do that.

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I every time I got paid, I would go to

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London and I would buy comedy albums and comedy videos.

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I suppose in a way trying to learn the craft

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without doing it. You know, maybe if I could learn

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something from watching the greats performing and I didn't. I

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learned nothing, but that kind of became my hobby. So

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I didn't save a penny. However, I think it was

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December time I did sell my entire collection of comedy

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stuff for about two hundred and fifty pound and I

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had loads of albums, tapes, video tapes, a lot, you know,

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lots of stuff. So I sold it all for two

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hundred and fifty and that did help me to move

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back to London. So it kind of worked, but it did.

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I mean, there was probably thousands of pounds worth of

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stuff there, but never mind, and i'd sort of the

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blokes that bought this stuff was a He did stand

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up comedy, but as a like for charity, so he

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was a policeman but at the charity gear. He did

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charity gigs where he did stand up and he just

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wanted the albums just to get new jokes for his

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stand up show. So yeah, it all worked out. I

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think he was a friend of my dad, actually, unless

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my dad just gave him money. So just I don't

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care how much it costs, just pay him what he

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wants so that it'll move away. That might be like

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he wanted to move to London. Just come on. The

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whole of the town got together and put a pound

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in each. There was more than two hundred and fifty

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people living in that town. But you know, you get

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the idea. Everyone wanted me out. They are, they are,

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But then I remember I'm staying at my dad's. This

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was quite good, Like this was the best time that

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we kind of lived together because during the week he

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was at home. During the week, I was at work

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like nearly all the time every night, so literally he'd

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get home, he go to worker with sometimes cross swords,

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cross swords. Sometimes i'd see him in the morning. I'd

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be having my breakfast when he was getting up, and

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then I'd be going to bed. So sometimes I see

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him before he went to book to work, and i'd

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be gone before he got home. I might see him

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briefly for a few minutes at eight o'clock when I

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got back. But you know, that was kind of sometimes,

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and then he spent most of his weekends at his

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girlfriend's who ended up being his wife. So it was

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quite a good situation. We didn't really sort of annoy

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each other too much. Yeah, so that was quite cool.

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So it was nice, especially at the weekend. I kind

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of had the house to myself. Not that I needed

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the whole house, but it was just nice to have

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the TV in the living room and instead of my

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black and white TV upstairs, which I could have got

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myself a color TV. I didn't I could have done

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unless I did. Maybe I did have a colored TV,

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because I'm thinking, you know, if I had, because I've

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got this. Yeah, this is a thing. When I lived

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in nineteen eighty nine, I lived in a house, like

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in a room in a house, and I watched Eddie

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Murphy's Delirious on videotape, which meant I must have had

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a video recorder. There's no way I would have a

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video recorder with a black and white TV. That doesn't

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make sense. So I must have had a TV unless

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there was just one in a room that I was

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renting as possible. It is possible, but I rented that

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Delirious out from the video shop or borrowed it someone.

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I can't really remember. It's a long time ago now,

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I suppose I do remember the turning up for the

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job interview, and if nothing else, I was kind of

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having to explain why I had worked there twice already

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in the meter the meta factory, not meat but met

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like electric meters factory, and why I had left twice

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without even telling them. I just I had a habit

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of not telling people when I left. And because I've

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had like fifty odd jobs or something, so I think

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I had one. I had three jobs in one week once.

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I think this is not nineteen eighty eight. So what

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I did is I told the lady who was interviewing

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me the story of me going to Spain for the afternoon,

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and she found it so hilarious that she just gave

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me the job. I don't think she felt sorry for me,

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but I just you know the facts. I got ripped

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off by a taxi driver and I was left with

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no money and I just couldn't just had to come back,

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had no choice. And she I don't know, however, whatever

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it was the way I told her the story, she

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found it very funny. I don't quite know what I said,

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but she found it humorous. And if I remember, she

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was almost crying. I don't know if it's because she

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was crying from boredom or I mean she was sitting there.

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Maybe she had piles. I don't know, but she just

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could have been hemorrhoid and induced tears. But she. Yeah,

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she gave me the job and I started working. I

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had to be trained, so I think I had a

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week of days. So I wasn't able to do the

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canvasin or was I I worked nine till five. Maybe

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I was able to maybe they I don't know. I

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think I had to have a week off. But a

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problem I had at that time was I'd be going

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to sleep at seven in the morning, and because i'd

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get home, probably i'd probably get home about half six,

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have started to eat and then go to bed. So

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maybe it was half past seven, just trying to think

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for me to go to bed after eating, who knows.

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But really I struggled a little bit because of the

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light coming in. And I think my dad puts some

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extra thick curtains up, and he he made it. He

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put these curtains up, but it was like he made

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it from a big sign. So he pushed them over,

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so I had to put them over the thing. But

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it's this big like like fabricated sign like stitched to

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it as well. So when the curtains are open or

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closed rather, and it was covering the whole window, it

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was completely black, but we could see a luminous as

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please leave. So I'm not quite sure what that was about,

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please move out. And I got used to it after

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a while. The hardest bit was the weekends really, because

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I'd be finishing at six on a Friday and I

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wouldn't be going back till ten on a Monday in

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the evening on a Monday, so you could say, technically

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I had three days off every week. I didn't, but

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I kind of did. I had all day Friday, all

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day Saturday, no Monday night, Tuesday night, Wednesday night, Thursday,

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no Friday night, so Saturday Sunday, we'll talk about two days.

449
00:40:42.320 --> 00:40:46.239
What was I saying three days? I know, three days

450
00:40:46.239 --> 00:40:48.800
because then you got the whole of Monday. So yeah,

451
00:40:48.840 --> 00:40:54.320
technically three days off. Bit's not you know, three whole days,

452
00:40:56.639 --> 00:41:02.800
but it's you know, I kind of wasn't sure what

453
00:41:02.960 --> 00:41:05.000
to do. I mean when I first started, I thought,

454
00:41:05.039 --> 00:41:08.440
now I'm just go to bed, go to bed like normal,

455
00:41:08.559 --> 00:41:12.880
wake up at two or three in the afternoon, and

456
00:41:12.920 --> 00:41:21.000
then go back to bed. Maybe try and try and

457
00:41:21.039 --> 00:41:25.480
just have the normal sleep patterns and wake pattern as

458
00:41:25.480 --> 00:41:30.800
I normally do, you know, like night shift. And that

459
00:41:30.920 --> 00:41:32.920
was a little bit hard because you know, back then,

460
00:41:35.000 --> 00:41:38.840
there was no night television really to speak of. There

461
00:41:38.880 --> 00:41:40.679
was a few bits and bobs on at night, but

462
00:41:40.800 --> 00:41:46.039
there wasn't a lot going on. There wasn't really anything

463
00:41:46.119 --> 00:41:50.000
to do or anywhere to go. Unlike when I moved

464
00:41:50.000 --> 00:41:52.519
to London, there was always stuff to do, you know,

465
00:41:52.599 --> 00:41:55.880
providing I could afford to get there and afford a

466
00:41:57.199 --> 00:42:00.679
bottle of coke or whatever while I was there an

467
00:42:00.840 --> 00:42:04.880
entrance fee, I could just there's always somewhere like in

468
00:42:05.440 --> 00:42:11.760
the West End or somewhere like that. But where I

469
00:42:11.800 --> 00:42:16.239
was living at the time, there was nothing there. There was,

470
00:42:17.239 --> 00:42:19.280
it was something. It's a nice little town, but there

471
00:42:19.360 --> 00:42:24.119
was nothing to do really other than maybe going into

472
00:42:24.119 --> 00:42:27.519
pubs and stuff. And that's at the time that really

473
00:42:27.599 --> 00:42:31.480
wasn't me. I wasn't really a pubby person. I'm still

474
00:42:31.519 --> 00:42:38.760
not really, but I definitely wasn't then. I didn't like pubs.

475
00:42:40.239 --> 00:42:44.199
I liked pubs when I was sixteen. But I didn't

476
00:42:44.239 --> 00:42:46.719
as well. I just liked it because I wasn't supposed

477
00:42:46.760 --> 00:42:52.079
to be in there, but it wasn't. Yeah, I never

478
00:42:52.119 --> 00:42:56.320
really never really got the point of it. I never

479
00:42:56.320 --> 00:43:02.840
really saw the point of pubs. I can see the

480
00:43:02.840 --> 00:43:04.519
point of them in the past, you know, with a

481
00:43:04.599 --> 00:43:13.880
community getting together, and but I didn't. I was never

482
00:43:13.960 --> 00:43:18.199
really part of any kind of community, as in like

483
00:43:19.000 --> 00:43:21.840
lots and lots of different people or living together in

484
00:43:21.920 --> 00:43:24.800
a in a room, not in a room in a road. Rather,

485
00:43:25.920 --> 00:43:28.320
I suppose I lived in houses where there was like

486
00:43:28.320 --> 00:43:33.719
a community of people living not together but separately but

487
00:43:34.119 --> 00:43:38.519
kind of get to know them a bit. But that

488
00:43:38.719 --> 00:43:41.800
going into a pub and saying a load to your

489
00:43:42.679 --> 00:43:46.320
calm mechanic or the person who delivers your milk or

490
00:43:46.320 --> 00:43:52.559
your post or the local electrician or never really kind

491
00:43:52.559 --> 00:43:56.599
of had that. I suppose the only closest thing I

492
00:43:56.679 --> 00:44:02.239
got was maybe seeing people that I worked with. That

493
00:44:02.239 --> 00:44:06.119
would be probably the closest thing. And even when I

494
00:44:06.159 --> 00:44:11.559
moved to London, really I would say the only time

495
00:44:11.599 --> 00:44:13.559
I went to a pub is were people that I

496
00:44:13.639 --> 00:44:17.559
worked with, outside of when I was going to comedy

497
00:44:17.559 --> 00:44:21.920
clubs or when I was dating if I dated someone

498
00:44:21.960 --> 00:44:34.199
and would go to a pub. But became accustomed to

499
00:44:34.239 --> 00:44:39.800
being able to sleep during the day. And it wasn't

500
00:44:39.840 --> 00:44:41.800
the last time I did night shift either. So I

501
00:44:41.840 --> 00:44:48.320
did night shift in nineteen ninety. I finished I think

502
00:44:48.440 --> 00:44:53.880
October nineteen ninety because what they did is they got

503
00:44:53.960 --> 00:44:57.920
rid of the night shift and they moved me onto

504
00:44:58.280 --> 00:45:02.320
a double shift of one week being six in the

505
00:45:02.320 --> 00:45:05.239
morning till two at night six in the morning til

506
00:45:05.239 --> 00:45:08.880
two in the afternoon other and then they'd following week

507
00:45:09.360 --> 00:45:13.000
two in the afternoon until ten at night. And I said,

508
00:45:13.000 --> 00:45:16.599
I don't want to do that, and they said, that's

509
00:45:16.639 --> 00:45:18.519
your new hours. I said, but I don't want to

510
00:45:18.559 --> 00:45:22.000
do it. And they were also making Peter redundant as well,

511
00:45:26.039 --> 00:45:29.760
and I just I wasn't pleased. I wasn't happy with it.

512
00:45:29.800 --> 00:45:33.840
So I left, just didn't go in because I only

513
00:45:33.880 --> 00:45:36.920
took the job on because it was night shift. I

514
00:45:37.000 --> 00:45:40.199
never liked the double shifts. I did that two previous

515
00:45:40.239 --> 00:45:43.519
times I worked there. Didn't like it because it's hard

516
00:45:43.559 --> 00:45:50.519
to get really, I've found it was hard to get

517
00:45:50.599 --> 00:45:54.760
into any kind of routine. If the hours are the

518
00:45:54.800 --> 00:46:01.239
same every day, then it's a routine that I can

519
00:46:01.280 --> 00:46:05.320
get my head around. I mean, what are you doing

520
00:46:05.400 --> 00:46:12.480
any there? He goes, you're dinner there? Do you want

521
00:46:12.519 --> 00:46:16.639
to hear? What is it? He's standing on the side

522
00:46:16.679 --> 00:46:21.079
of the of the settee looking at me. He doesn't

523
00:46:21.119 --> 00:46:23.760
really do that. He's on the armist but on this

524
00:46:23.920 --> 00:46:25.039
side of where I don't sit.

525
00:46:25.440 --> 00:46:26.400
You want to get on my lap?

526
00:46:28.440 --> 00:46:31.480
You want to go on my lap? Come on, that's

527
00:46:31.519 --> 00:46:38.800
all right. One of the problems he has he loves

528
00:46:38.840 --> 00:46:45.440
to cuddle, but he doesn't like cuddling, which is a

529
00:46:45.480 --> 00:46:50.559
weird one and it's hard to explain. Is like if

530
00:46:50.599 --> 00:46:54.639
he is like he's he doesn't know whether to do

531
00:46:54.719 --> 00:46:57.679
it or not. So if I had to pick him up,

532
00:46:57.719 --> 00:47:03.360
he'll run away. But actually what he really wants is

533
00:47:03.800 --> 00:47:08.960
probably to lay on my lap. And he looked like

534
00:47:09.000 --> 00:47:11.280
he was trying to get onto my lap from over there,

535
00:47:12.280 --> 00:47:13.880
but as soon as I went to reach out to

536
00:47:13.920 --> 00:47:18.559
help him, he ran off, jumped off the chair. Don't

537
00:47:18.599 --> 00:47:24.519
you whether it's just that he wants attention and I

538
00:47:24.599 --> 00:47:28.360
wasn't giving it to him. Hey, you get my attention now,

539
00:47:28.360 --> 00:47:31.920
aren't you. You definitely get my attention when you bark.

540
00:47:33.840 --> 00:47:38.920
That's not the kind of attention you want though, is it? No, No,

541
00:47:39.000 --> 00:47:44.440
it's not. He's been a little bit more affectionate these

542
00:47:44.559 --> 00:47:52.800
days to me. Maybe he's he's just succumbed to the

543
00:47:52.880 --> 00:47:57.480
idea that he's stuck with me. Perhaps that's what it is.

544
00:47:57.519 --> 00:48:00.800
Maybe all his dreams have just faded and he's given

545
00:48:00.920 --> 00:48:04.719
up the hope of getting out of here, and he's

546
00:48:04.800 --> 00:48:08.920
just accepted his fate, that he's stuck with his old man.

547
00:48:10.159 --> 00:48:13.920
Is that what it is? Then, if you just accepted

548
00:48:13.920 --> 00:48:19.920
your fate. He doesn't have it too bad, he can't.

549
00:48:20.000 --> 00:48:23.199
I mean, he gets out at least three times a day.

550
00:48:23.480 --> 00:48:27.880
I mean, it sounds like a prison, isn't it. Like

551
00:48:28.400 --> 00:48:37.000
he's released, he has exercise three times a day. I

552
00:48:37.000 --> 00:48:40.400
think he has okay. I don't know. It's hard to tell,

553
00:48:40.480 --> 00:48:44.480
isn't it. But he seems it seems okay. He seems

554
00:48:44.599 --> 00:48:54.360
fairly fairly content, all right. So I've had night shift jobs.

555
00:48:54.440 --> 00:48:59.840
So I had the one at the factory making meters,

556
00:49:00.199 --> 00:49:02.480
but I was doing a different job this time. I

557
00:49:02.639 --> 00:49:06.760
was actually instead of packing the meters, which is what

558
00:49:06.800 --> 00:49:09.480
I did the last two previous times I worked there,

559
00:49:11.159 --> 00:49:20.719
I was doing more meter work, as in testing meters,

560
00:49:22.079 --> 00:49:26.960
putting meters together, you know, building them, taking them apart,

561
00:49:27.800 --> 00:49:30.199
fixing and stuff like that. So there's a lot more

562
00:49:30.920 --> 00:49:33.320
technical stuff and it's a lot more interesting as well.

563
00:49:33.840 --> 00:49:36.599
But then sometimes I'd be on the conveyor belt where

564
00:49:36.639 --> 00:49:39.360
all I was doing was just putting a screw in.

565
00:49:41.079 --> 00:49:44.800
You know, there's the conveyor belt would be huge. It's

566
00:49:44.840 --> 00:49:48.599
start off with like an empty case, and then by

567
00:49:48.639 --> 00:49:51.400
the end of it there'd be a meter, you know,

568
00:49:51.400 --> 00:49:55.880
a complete met I put together. Now, I'm pretty sure

569
00:49:56.079 --> 00:49:59.760
that that wouldn't be done by hand anymore, probably hasn't

570
00:49:59.800 --> 00:50:07.159
been for a long time. But it was weird because

571
00:50:07.599 --> 00:50:11.840
at the time. So when I'm moved and because I've

572
00:50:11.880 --> 00:50:16.360
lived around a lot, every time I saw electric meter,

573
00:50:17.559 --> 00:50:19.280
I look at it and think that could have been

574
00:50:19.320 --> 00:50:23.400
one of the ones that I touched. You could argue, well,

575
00:50:23.400 --> 00:50:25.000
I just touch it now and then you know it is,

576
00:50:25.599 --> 00:50:29.000
But no, I mean it's something nice. I suppose you know,

577
00:50:29.039 --> 00:50:32.239
if you make toilet seats and you visit someone and

578
00:50:32.320 --> 00:50:34.719
you sit down the toilet seat, instead of thinking about

579
00:50:34.719 --> 00:50:36.199
all the different people who have sat down on that

580
00:50:36.280 --> 00:50:41.159
toilet seat doing poos, you can think, oh, I might

581
00:50:41.199 --> 00:50:50.239
have helped make that seat when it was clean. It's

582
00:50:50.599 --> 00:50:52.320
I don't know, it's just I kind of looked at

583
00:50:52.320 --> 00:50:58.719
the meters and thinking, ah, because you imagine I saw

584
00:50:58.960 --> 00:51:04.239
thousands and thousands and thousands and thousands of these electric meters.

585
00:51:04.880 --> 00:51:09.480
They were all black. They all looked the same. And

586
00:51:10.440 --> 00:51:14.159
I've seen loads of them since no open back in

587
00:51:14.199 --> 00:51:19.400
the past. Not so much recently, but it used to have.

588
00:51:22.400 --> 00:51:24.480
They used to have their little logo on it and stuff.

589
00:51:24.719 --> 00:51:28.280
But I think they were the main provider of electric

590
00:51:28.400 --> 00:51:34.639
meters in Europe. Maybe not the world, but in Europe,

591
00:51:35.360 --> 00:51:38.639
and they had more than one factory, but they were big.

592
00:51:38.960 --> 00:51:43.199
That was pretty much the main place to get employment

593
00:51:43.280 --> 00:51:49.719
in that town outside of the docks. Sod. It was

594
00:51:49.800 --> 00:51:53.519
the I think it was the biggest poor in Europe

595
00:51:53.559 --> 00:51:57.800
for a while. So, you know, it's sort of it

596
00:51:57.920 --> 00:52:01.159
was doing quite well well. Maybe this second maybe Dover

597
00:52:01.360 --> 00:52:07.599
was up, you know, higher up, but it is at

598
00:52:07.760 --> 00:52:12.519
loads and loads of jobs from trawling, you know, trawlling

599
00:52:12.599 --> 00:52:15.559
the seas and stuff or whatever. And I think, what

600
00:52:15.599 --> 00:52:17.400
do they do They take the ships out to the

601
00:52:17.440 --> 00:52:28.079
sea they called trawlers. Two working in the export agencies.

602
00:52:29.599 --> 00:52:42.880
Two I mean I worked on the docks one one, two, three, four,

603
00:52:45.360 --> 00:52:48.920
at least four times. Three of those times were for

604
00:52:49.000 --> 00:52:57.880
cleaning jobs and the other time was in a what

605
00:52:58.159 --> 00:53:03.599
was it, Oh, it was a holage company for chemicals,

606
00:53:04.840 --> 00:53:10.000
so liquid chemicals and these big tankers would that that

607
00:53:10.079 --> 00:53:18.199
was what my job was working in the office. I

608
00:53:18.320 --> 00:53:21.440
remember that. I remember because I had a lot well,

609
00:53:21.519 --> 00:53:24.360
I knew quite a few people that worked on the docks,

610
00:53:24.639 --> 00:53:27.400
because that was the main place really to get jobs

611
00:53:27.639 --> 00:53:32.400
outside of retail or in the factory, unless you was

612
00:53:34.440 --> 00:53:39.719
I suppose delivering post or milk or a builder or

613
00:53:39.719 --> 00:53:42.320
you know, just the other kind of things. But as

614
00:53:42.360 --> 00:53:48.000
far as condensed jobs, like lots of jobs in one place,

615
00:53:48.800 --> 00:53:54.519
they were the two main ones in that town. But

616
00:53:54.559 --> 00:53:56.480
then if you go to the next town, there was

617
00:53:56.519 --> 00:54:05.599
a sugar factory and so that employed huge amounts of people.

618
00:54:06.679 --> 00:54:09.039
I'm not sure what else they had there. It turned

619
00:54:09.079 --> 00:54:13.280
in to be in the pretty much the capital of insurance,

620
00:54:13.679 --> 00:54:17.599
like nearly every insurance company was held there as well.

621
00:54:17.719 --> 00:54:21.519
In the ninety in the two thousands, I made like

622
00:54:22.199 --> 00:54:28.719
so many different companies in one place. So yeah, I

623
00:54:28.800 --> 00:54:39.840
worked in two and in both those companies I I

624
00:54:39.920 --> 00:54:45.000
actually worked with, I think I had three, possibly three

625
00:54:45.159 --> 00:54:50.800
or four people came in from the previous company. One

626
00:54:50.880 --> 00:54:58.280
was already there, so Jody he I remember Jody like

627
00:54:58.400 --> 00:55:01.360
he was the number one sells per in Churchill. When

628
00:55:01.360 --> 00:55:03.840
I worked at Churchill, I was kind of number two.

629
00:55:05.320 --> 00:55:08.000
Sometimes Jersey was number two, but that was rare. He

630
00:55:08.039 --> 00:55:16.559
was overall number one, and I didn't really I did

631
00:55:16.760 --> 00:55:18.320
not talk to him, but I didn't really kind of

632
00:55:18.320 --> 00:55:20.320
get to know him because he was in a different

633
00:55:20.360 --> 00:55:25.079
team to me and we didn't really have an opportunity

634
00:55:25.119 --> 00:55:30.719
to just wander around and talk to each other, and

635
00:55:31.159 --> 00:55:32.639
you know, so I didn't really I knew him to

636
00:55:32.679 --> 00:55:36.519
sort of saylo to. And he knew me because we

637
00:55:36.519 --> 00:55:40.480
were on the leaderboard and you know, on the wall,

638
00:55:40.559 --> 00:55:45.559
so everyone kind of knew who we were. And he'd

639
00:55:45.599 --> 00:55:49.800
been there for a long time, I think. So he

640
00:55:49.960 --> 00:55:53.440
left and I didn't see him for probably a couple

641
00:55:53.480 --> 00:55:59.079
of years, maybe a year. And this is in two

642
00:55:59.119 --> 00:56:07.000
thousand and I'm working in the It's like a gift shop,

643
00:56:07.719 --> 00:56:15.800
a Buddhist gift shop, selling some nice stuff, some absolute

644
00:56:16.679 --> 00:56:20.440
just yeah, it depends on what you like. But there

645
00:56:20.519 --> 00:56:30.320
was incest you could buy. There was ornaments, cushions, curtains.

646
00:56:32.159 --> 00:56:34.119
I did have. I mean I can't remember. They had

647
00:56:34.159 --> 00:56:37.960
like these hairy curtains that you could buy. It's like, wow,

648
00:56:38.079 --> 00:56:45.119
it's really weird. I remember this one time because I

649
00:56:45.159 --> 00:56:47.360
worked in the same shop in a different town when

650
00:56:47.360 --> 00:56:53.079
I was doing my degree, and the manager at the

651
00:56:53.159 --> 00:57:02.880
shop it's spent about five hours putting together this curtain

652
00:57:02.960 --> 00:57:07.000
display like really put a lot of energy into it

653
00:57:07.039 --> 00:57:11.079
in time. And he said, what do you think. I said,

654
00:57:11.119 --> 00:57:16.639
I think it's lovely. However, he said, what do you mean? However,

655
00:57:18.000 --> 00:57:21.960
I said, you put it right in front of the

656
00:57:22.000 --> 00:57:29.559
fire exit, and he said, so, now, what go to

657
00:57:29.639 --> 00:57:34.760
explain is what I noticed with some of my Buddhist friends.

658
00:57:35.480 --> 00:57:41.599
It wasn't that they didn't care about stuff like that.

659
00:57:41.639 --> 00:57:50.360
They were so focused on the moment that he just

660
00:57:50.440 --> 00:57:55.960
didn't really have I would in some ways, I'm a

661
00:57:55.960 --> 00:58:03.360
bit too prepared for things like that. Hopefully nothing like

662
00:58:03.400 --> 00:58:05.280
that happens, but I'm kind of if I get on

663
00:58:05.280 --> 00:58:11.599
a ship, I know where the lifeboats are and you know,

664
00:58:11.679 --> 00:58:14.719
I'm ready. I've got a dress. I walk around with

665
00:58:14.760 --> 00:58:18.239
a full dress underneath my clothes in case they go,

666
00:58:18.400 --> 00:58:21.320
you know, like only women and children. I'm on there.

667
00:58:23.199 --> 00:58:26.719
None of that stuff I'm getting out of there. I'm

668
00:58:26.760 --> 00:58:29.519
soon going to stand there because I've got a WILLI No,

669
00:58:29.800 --> 00:58:31.679
you don't get to go on a ship because you've

670
00:58:31.679 --> 00:58:34.599
got a WILLI No, it doesn't work like that. Sorry.

671
00:58:35.400 --> 00:58:41.800
In fact, on the Titanic, I can't believe it. I

672
00:58:41.960 --> 00:58:47.719
just I understand children that get I understand that. Well,

673
00:58:47.760 --> 00:58:52.239
you go against women, then they are you asgginest? Are

674
00:58:52.280 --> 00:58:56.159
you sexist? Well, sometimes when I brush my hair and

675
00:58:56.239 --> 00:58:59.599
have a bath, I would say that I'm pretty sexist

676
00:59:00.440 --> 00:59:05.679
sometimes get attention. No, that's not what it means. So

677
00:59:07.039 --> 00:59:16.599
I I like to be fairly prepared. And when I

678
00:59:16.599 --> 00:59:18.840
said that to him, he's like, oh, it's all right,

679
00:59:19.000 --> 00:59:23.639
done matter and he went upstairs, and I thought, it

680
00:59:23.679 --> 00:59:29.280
does matter. But at the same time, he'd just spent

681
00:59:29.360 --> 00:59:35.960
about five hours putting it together, and I did feel

682
00:59:36.000 --> 00:59:40.400
for him because it was a lovely display and he's

683
00:59:40.519 --> 00:59:46.440
very artistic, and he'd been doing that job for a

684
00:59:46.559 --> 00:59:49.719
long time, also in the other shop that I used

685
00:59:49.760 --> 00:59:52.159
to work in, because that's he got me that job

686
00:59:54.639 --> 00:59:58.239
originally in the other shop back in two thousand November

687
00:59:58.280 --> 01:00:08.360
two thousand and two. And yeah, I felt bad, but

688
01:00:08.519 --> 01:00:12.320
like you know what, a fire exit's there for a reason.

689
01:00:13.400 --> 01:00:19.280
And you don't need it till you need it. I

690
01:00:19.360 --> 01:00:21.079
was going to say, like a condom, but it's not

691
01:00:21.159 --> 01:00:27.559
really good analogy, is it, But you know, generally, But anyway,

692
01:00:27.679 --> 01:00:30.199
he went upstairs, he had the he did have the

693
01:00:30.280 --> 01:00:33.400
up with me. He was like. Then he came down

694
01:00:33.400 --> 01:00:37.679
and he started taking the stuff down and I helped him.

695
01:00:37.679 --> 01:00:39.159
I said, look, we just move it to a different

696
01:00:39.159 --> 01:00:41.800
part of the part of the shop and he said, yeah,

697
01:00:41.800 --> 01:00:48.800
I suppose, and he probably didn't say that. I did

698
01:00:48.840 --> 01:00:51.880
feel a bit bad because that where the fire exit

699
01:00:52.119 --> 01:00:57.599
was was really he couldn't kind of have anything there,

700
01:00:58.880 --> 01:01:01.679
and it looked at a place it was very kind

701
01:01:01.679 --> 01:01:09.079
of bear area, and there was like a little courtyard outside.

702
01:01:11.719 --> 01:01:17.639
So although a fire exit if yeah, I wouldn't want

703
01:01:17.679 --> 01:01:20.039
to be stuck in that courtyard to be fair. Although

704
01:01:20.079 --> 01:01:24.199
you could get onto the roofs, which I sometimes did.

705
01:01:25.639 --> 01:01:27.480
There was one member of staff that I didn't get

706
01:01:27.480 --> 01:01:30.960
on with, and she used to pick on me. Basically.

707
01:01:31.000 --> 01:01:32.760
She used to be just say rude things to me

708
01:01:32.840 --> 01:01:38.920
for no reason. And I think there was that safety

709
01:01:38.960 --> 01:01:42.199
of working with Buddhists, and she wasn't a Buddhist, but

710
01:01:42.280 --> 01:01:45.800
she felt safe that she could probably get away with

711
01:01:45.840 --> 01:01:51.519
more stuff than she would normally, and in the end

712
01:01:51.559 --> 01:01:56.679
I just had to let the management know that I

713
01:01:56.679 --> 01:02:02.039
wouldn't work with her anymore. It's weird and this is

714
01:02:02.079 --> 01:02:05.719
supposed to be a peaceful environment. But that was my opinion.

715
01:02:06.960 --> 01:02:10.079
It should it should be peaceful, And I wasn't out

716
01:02:10.079 --> 01:02:14.559
to cause trouble. I was just unfortunately being criticized every

717
01:02:14.599 --> 01:02:20.599
turn by her for no reason. And then every now

718
01:02:20.639 --> 01:02:22.840
and I thought, no, I'm not talking to her anymore.

719
01:02:23.400 --> 01:02:26.760
She'd draw me in by asking me a question about myself,

720
01:02:27.719 --> 01:02:30.440
knowing that I love to talk about myself, and she'd

721
01:02:30.519 --> 01:02:34.599
draw me in being friendly, and then she'd criticize something

722
01:02:34.639 --> 01:02:37.199
I just said, or she'd pull apart what I just said.

723
01:02:37.360 --> 01:02:41.920
It's like ah, and then she said she kept going

724
01:02:41.960 --> 01:02:47.480
about I'm angry, what's its own, I'm at Cambridge, I'm

725
01:02:47.519 --> 01:02:50.719
at Cambridge University. I'm at Cambridge. She used to love

726
01:02:50.840 --> 01:02:54.880
saying that. It turned out she was an Angrier Ruskin

727
01:02:56.199 --> 01:02:59.159
in Cambridge, which is not the same as being at Cambridge.

728
01:02:59.599 --> 01:03:06.320
There's an Angland Ruskin at Chelsford Angler Ruskin University is

729
01:03:06.400 --> 01:03:09.440
not the same as going to Cambridge just because it's

730
01:03:09.480 --> 01:03:15.559
in Cambridge. It's like me working in McDonald's in Cambridge

731
01:03:15.559 --> 01:03:20.679
and saying, yeah, I'm at Cambridge. It's not exactly the same,

732
01:03:23.400 --> 01:03:27.400
but she really was acting like she was at Cambridge

733
01:03:28.480 --> 01:03:35.679
University campus and she wasn't. I found it funny. I

734
01:03:35.760 --> 01:03:40.079
laughed for about an hour. Solid she didn't enjoy that

735
01:03:42.400 --> 01:03:47.440
because someone asked her because she said something that her

736
01:03:47.480 --> 01:03:50.679
car broke down, and I think she was on the

737
01:03:50.679 --> 01:03:52.840
phone saying, yeah, if you picked the car up yet,

738
01:03:54.039 --> 01:03:55.519
because she had to get I think she got a

739
01:03:55.559 --> 01:04:00.760
lift back, and she was saying that. She was saying

740
01:04:00.800 --> 01:04:04.119
to the address, it's in the car park at the

741
01:04:04.199 --> 01:04:09.719
university in Cambridge, and I think they were asking, like

742
01:04:09.840 --> 01:04:14.800
what Cambridge University and you're like, yeah, well we're in

743
01:04:14.920 --> 01:04:23.360
here now, we can't see it. And then she says

744
01:04:23.400 --> 01:04:29.119
Anglia Ruskin and they laugh about ten minutes. And there's

745
01:04:29.159 --> 01:04:31.000
nothing wrong with Angler Ruskin, by the way, it's a

746
01:04:31.039 --> 01:04:36.280
really good place, but pretending you're somewhere that you're not.

747
01:04:38.679 --> 01:04:44.480
I could go to Anglio Ruskin, but I couldn't go

748
01:04:44.519 --> 01:04:48.280
to Cambridge. I could go to Angry Ruskin in Cambridge

749
01:04:48.679 --> 01:04:51.199
potentially said I could. I don't know if I could,

750
01:04:51.199 --> 01:04:54.159
but I you know. I mean, I'm qualified probably enough

751
01:04:54.159 --> 01:05:03.719
to go and do that. However, there's no way on

752
01:05:03.719 --> 01:05:08.639
this planet I would get into Cambridge University because I'm

753
01:05:08.679 --> 01:05:15.000
not of that ilk. I'm not. I'm not. I'm not

754
01:05:15.079 --> 01:05:22.079
in that on that level of education. Just not. Oh

755
01:05:22.480 --> 01:05:24.480
but Jason, I'm sure you could do it if you

756
01:05:24.599 --> 01:05:29.400
really tried. No, not even if I tried, if you

757
01:05:29.480 --> 01:05:33.360
tried really hard. No, not even if I gave it

758
01:05:33.760 --> 01:05:37.239
at least ten percent, I couldn't. Well, don't you give

759
01:05:37.239 --> 01:05:41.079
it more than ten percent? Because I'm lazy. Where have

760
01:05:41.119 --> 01:05:45.079
you been? Have you not been observing? Okay, don't got

761
01:05:45.119 --> 01:05:55.880
to be rude, you're rude, dere I think the next

762
01:05:55.880 --> 01:06:00.960
time I did night shift? Oh yeah, So I went

763
01:06:01.000 --> 01:06:05.719
back to London. This is how Cheico was. I went

764
01:06:05.800 --> 01:06:08.239
back to the job that I had before in London

765
01:06:08.599 --> 01:06:10.679
that I didn't give them notice. I didn't go back,

766
01:06:11.639 --> 01:06:13.079
and I went back to him and said there's any

767
01:06:13.119 --> 01:06:17.920
chance of another job? And I suppose rightly. So they

768
01:06:17.960 --> 01:06:27.840
said no, we're fall now. Sorry bye. So just like okay,

769
01:06:27.920 --> 01:06:33.719
and this is January nineteen ninety one, so I've moved there.

770
01:06:36.079 --> 01:06:41.159
I paid rent probably two weeks in advance or something.

771
01:06:41.199 --> 01:06:45.719
Like that. I was in this grotty room. I lived

772
01:06:45.719 --> 01:06:49.519
for four years, believe it or not, nearly four years,

773
01:06:49.679 --> 01:06:51.840
was it all the way through ninety one, ninety two,

774
01:06:52.000 --> 01:06:55.239
ninety three and up to the summer ninety four, so

775
01:06:55.840 --> 01:07:04.639
three and over three and a half years. And there

776
01:07:04.719 --> 01:07:07.840
was this when I moved in, there no central heating

777
01:07:09.719 --> 01:07:12.159
and there was a little bathroom heater on the wall.

778
01:07:12.480 --> 01:07:14.760
The other side of the room to where I was

779
01:07:14.960 --> 01:07:22.960
my bed was a draft coming in the window, and

780
01:07:24.039 --> 01:07:27.519
there was a meter, an electric meter. So I wasn't

781
01:07:27.519 --> 01:07:34.360
even getting that heating for free electric meter fifty pence pieces,

782
01:07:35.920 --> 01:07:47.199
so I pretty much had that. Eventually it broke, but

783
01:07:47.320 --> 01:07:50.480
it was like a little bathroom. You know, there's ones.

784
01:07:50.639 --> 01:07:53.400
I don't know if they still exist, but I think

785
01:07:53.440 --> 01:07:59.800
it was like two bars. And it shouldn't have been

786
01:07:59.800 --> 01:08:05.199
on a bedroom war Why would you not have central heating.

787
01:08:05.360 --> 01:08:10.079
I mean, central heating is not a new thing. It wasn't.

788
01:08:10.159 --> 01:08:13.719
It wasn't like in nineteen ninety one. Oh, we don't know.

789
01:08:13.880 --> 01:08:20.239
That's central heating. No, that's that's uh, that's the devil's work.

790
01:08:20.399 --> 01:08:25.680
That is No, if God had wanted me to be warm,

791
01:08:26.000 --> 01:08:30.560
he'd have made me warm I don't know what the

792
01:08:30.560 --> 01:08:38.199
answer would be. It's like we're supposed to be cold.

793
01:08:38.239 --> 01:08:41.880
That's why we're boiled in a cold country. Yes, it

794
01:08:41.920 --> 01:08:48.680
builds character. Shivering in your bed builds character. Yeah, builds

795
01:08:48.680 --> 01:08:52.239
an attitude. I'll tell you that's that's for sure. After

796
01:08:52.479 --> 01:08:56.359
decades of that living in places that were cold, I

797
01:08:56.359 --> 01:09:01.880
won't be cold anymore. So the heating goes on. If

798
01:09:01.880 --> 01:09:04.479
it's cold, the heating goes on. I don't care what

799
01:09:04.560 --> 01:09:06.640
time of the year it is. I'm not going to

800
01:09:06.680 --> 01:09:12.159
sit here being cold. I know some people are. Nope,

801
01:09:12.239 --> 01:09:15.279
the heating goes off in March and it comes back

802
01:09:15.319 --> 01:09:18.840
on at the end of September. That's it. No heating

803
01:09:19.039 --> 01:09:22.439
throughout that whole time, regardless of how curled it is.

804
01:09:23.880 --> 01:09:25.800
I don't do that. I know a lot of people

805
01:09:25.800 --> 01:09:31.199
do do that because I've done a survey. I haven't

806
01:09:31.239 --> 01:09:33.560
done a survey, but I've just known a lot of

807
01:09:33.600 --> 01:09:37.399
people that have said that, and they were literally with

808
01:09:37.479 --> 01:09:41.199
his cold, put an extra pair, another jumper on if

809
01:09:41.199 --> 01:09:46.159
it's cold. No. The way I say is, I don't

810
01:09:46.199 --> 01:09:48.920
put a jumper on if I'm cold. I put a

811
01:09:49.000 --> 01:09:55.279
jumper on if I'm not warm enough. There's a difference there.

812
01:09:55.720 --> 01:09:58.560
To me, there's a difference between like I've got a

813
01:09:58.600 --> 01:10:04.000
little cardigan on. Now, if I don't have this on,

814
01:10:04.520 --> 01:10:12.560
it's a little bit too cool. It's not cold, it's

815
01:10:12.600 --> 01:10:18.800
a little bit too cool. I'm not shivering, That's what

816
01:10:18.840 --> 01:10:21.840
I mean. I don't put the jumper on and then

817
01:10:21.880 --> 01:10:26.960
have cold hands and a cold face when I'm indoors.

818
01:10:27.119 --> 01:10:30.880
I just don't allow that to happen. Because I had

819
01:10:30.960 --> 01:10:36.000
decades of it. That's why I mean, even when I

820
01:10:36.039 --> 01:10:39.239
was a kid, it was the same like so really

821
01:10:39.319 --> 01:10:44.840
from up to the age of forty four, so I

822
01:10:44.880 --> 01:10:49.800
had forty four years of living in places that I

823
01:10:49.840 --> 01:10:56.079
had no control over the heating pretty much, forty four

824
01:10:56.199 --> 01:11:00.000
years where I couldn't decide whether or not I could

825
01:11:00.159 --> 01:11:05.239
be warm. It's a long time. So now I have

826
01:11:05.359 --> 01:11:12.119
the heating on all summer. It's like a greenhouse in here.

827
01:11:12.399 --> 01:11:16.319
I've got tomatoes grown out of my ears. It's brilliant.

828
01:11:18.039 --> 01:11:24.399
No phillis turned into a cactus. No, I don't have

829
01:11:24.479 --> 01:11:27.760
the heating them. If it's cold, if it's like a

830
01:11:27.800 --> 01:11:31.880
really cold night, which we do have in this country.

831
01:11:32.000 --> 01:11:34.840
We have really cold nights in the summer. Sometimes if

832
01:11:34.880 --> 01:11:36.399
I need the heating, and I'll put the heating on

833
01:11:36.439 --> 01:11:39.960
for a little while. I got no issue. I mean,

834
01:11:40.000 --> 01:11:42.039
most of the summer the heating is turned off, like

835
01:11:42.439 --> 01:11:45.600
off off, so I don't leave it on automatics, so

836
01:11:45.680 --> 01:11:49.840
it comes on if it's cold, I'll decide. In the winter,

837
01:11:49.880 --> 01:11:52.000
I've got it on automatics, so if it gets below

838
01:11:52.079 --> 01:11:55.479
a certain temperature, it comes on. In the summer, I

839
01:11:55.520 --> 01:12:00.960
don't do that, but sometimes it's cold, just because it's

840
01:12:01.319 --> 01:12:08.760
July or June, which is pretty much the hottest months

841
01:12:08.800 --> 01:12:11.600
of the year in this country, and we have We've

842
01:12:11.600 --> 01:12:17.760
had some really hot days this year, but only I

843
01:12:17.800 --> 01:12:23.000
would say, only a few hot nights. There's been a

844
01:12:23.079 --> 01:12:28.319
few nights where it's been like, oh, a little bit,

845
01:12:28.479 --> 01:12:35.239
a little bit stuffy, but the real heat. I didn't

846
01:12:35.960 --> 01:12:40.760
really experience the real heat at home this year because

847
01:12:40.800 --> 01:12:45.840
I was visiting uncle Sausages, so I experienced the heat

848
01:12:45.880 --> 01:12:49.399
as in, you know, going there in a taxi or

849
01:12:49.439 --> 01:12:55.399
on the bus, mainly taxis to start with, and then

850
01:12:55.520 --> 01:13:01.479
but then the getting side the hospital, and it wasn't

851
01:13:01.479 --> 01:13:06.520
warm inside the hospital because there's air conditioning everywhere. It

852
01:13:06.600 --> 01:13:09.560
wasn't cold everywhere, but it wasn't you know, it's definitely

853
01:13:09.600 --> 01:13:19.039
a different temperature to being outside. So I didn't. Yeah,

854
01:13:19.079 --> 01:13:23.119
I didn't really get the full extent of the summer

855
01:13:23.600 --> 01:13:30.600
because I spent well six weeks or something going backward

856
01:13:30.640 --> 01:13:33.279
and forward, so I can't. I spent most of the

857
01:13:33.319 --> 01:13:44.399
summer pretty much from the end of June. The end

858
01:13:44.399 --> 01:13:48.720
of June. That's it.

859
01:13:48.840 --> 01:13:52.640
You come to me, good boy, good boy. We don't

860
01:13:52.680 --> 01:13:57.000
do that too, No, we don't. We don't bark. We

861
01:13:57.239 --> 01:14:00.680
don't bark because you're a good boy. You're not just

862
01:14:00.720 --> 01:14:04.840
a good boy. You're a clever boy. You're very clever.

863
01:14:05.600 --> 01:14:08.560
You're the most beautifullest boy in a whole wide world.

864
01:14:08.640 --> 01:14:11.640
Yes you why? Yes you are yes? You are yes?

865
01:14:11.720 --> 01:14:14.720
You are yes? You are yes. You are yes. You

866
01:14:14.840 --> 01:14:17.960
are yes? You are yes? You are yes? You were

867
01:14:18.000 --> 01:14:38.319
you you? Yeah, good boy.

868
01:14:38.479 --> 01:14:38.720
Come.

869
01:14:45.319 --> 01:14:48.399
Vine's decided he wants to come and sit on my lap,

870
01:14:48.520 --> 01:14:52.640
so he's doing that. He put his poor out literally

871
01:14:52.680 --> 01:14:55.520
to try and get onto my knee, so he's not

872
01:14:55.680 --> 01:14:57.159
I've let him get on my lap and he's not

873
01:14:57.159 --> 01:14:59.720
trying to get down. So it's clearly where he wants

874
01:14:59.760 --> 01:15:06.479
to be, isn't it. You're happy? Yeah, I can't. Rich

875
01:15:06.560 --> 01:15:12.039
and hurt my neck the other times. So yeah, when

876
01:15:12.039 --> 01:15:17.199
I couldn't get that job in the at the place.

877
01:15:17.239 --> 01:15:20.800
When I moved back to London, I said to my landlady,

878
01:15:20.800 --> 01:15:25.239
I said, oh, excuse me, landlady. She said, yes, tenant.

879
01:15:26.319 --> 01:15:31.039
I said, I'm not sure what I'm going to do.

880
01:15:31.279 --> 01:15:33.720
She said, what do you mean. I said, well, you

881
01:15:33.760 --> 01:15:37.079
know that job I told you I had. She said yeah.

882
01:15:38.199 --> 01:15:43.159
I said, I lied. There's no job there. There never was.

883
01:15:44.520 --> 01:15:47.479
She said, does it not exist? I said, yeah, it exists,

884
01:15:47.640 --> 01:15:51.159
but I just thought I could go back there, but

885
01:15:51.279 --> 01:15:57.600
I was wrong. I misinformed you. Please forgive me. Can

886
01:15:57.640 --> 01:16:02.439
you ever forgive me? And she said probably not. I said, okay, thanks.

887
01:16:03.600 --> 01:16:05.119
She said, why are you thanking me? I just said,

888
01:16:05.119 --> 01:16:08.359
I won't forgive you. I said no, but I just

889
01:16:10.199 --> 01:16:12.119
it's a new thing I'm trying out. I'd just like

890
01:16:12.199 --> 01:16:15.880
to say thanks to people. Just stop trying to make

891
01:16:15.920 --> 01:16:18.399
new friends, you see. So if I say thanks to everyone,

892
01:16:19.119 --> 01:16:23.159
maybe it will cause a more peaceful society and catch

893
01:16:23.239 --> 01:16:29.239
on and end up with some kind of world stability

894
01:16:29.800 --> 01:16:35.000
politically and emotionally. Maybe. She said, so you didn't get

895
01:16:35.039 --> 01:16:37.119
the job. What if can you pay the rent next week?

896
01:16:37.920 --> 01:16:45.479
I said, well, and she said, you're joking me. I said,

897
01:16:45.520 --> 01:16:47.640
I wish I was not very funny joke, is it.

898
01:16:48.119 --> 01:16:52.159
She said no. She said what you're going to do?

899
01:16:52.359 --> 01:16:54.680
I said, I don't know. I guess I'm just going

900
01:16:54.760 --> 01:16:58.279
to have to move back. And she said, what would

901
01:16:58.279 --> 01:17:02.399
your dad say? I said, what do you mean? She

902
01:17:02.439 --> 01:17:04.479
said nothing, don't worry. I said, what do you mean,

903
01:17:04.479 --> 01:17:06.000
what would my dad say? What do you know about

904
01:17:06.000 --> 01:17:11.880
my dad? She said nothing? And then she looked away

905
01:17:11.920 --> 01:17:15.720
and started humming and whistling, which I thought quite weird behavior.

906
01:17:16.760 --> 01:17:19.520
And I said, have you spoken to my dad? She

907
01:17:19.680 --> 01:17:24.880
said no? I said, come on, have you spoken to

908
01:17:24.920 --> 01:17:30.600
my dad? She said well, I said, come on, did

909
01:17:30.640 --> 01:17:33.520
you taken ages? Have you spoken to my dad? She

910
01:17:33.560 --> 01:17:38.840
said yes, I have? I said how? She said, well,

911
01:17:39.359 --> 01:17:42.600
when he helped you move? He said no. I said,

912
01:17:42.600 --> 01:17:45.119
wait a minute, he didn't help me move. Someone else

913
01:17:45.159 --> 01:17:52.159
helped me move. Okay, Well, you gave him the telephone

914
01:17:52.239 --> 01:17:54.920
number for the house, didn't you? I said, yes, will

915
01:17:54.960 --> 01:17:59.039
he phoned me up? Why to warn me about you?

916
01:18:00.079 --> 01:18:03.359
What do you mean, warn you about me? Just to

917
01:18:03.439 --> 01:18:09.399
let me know how annoying you were? I said, what,

918
01:18:11.319 --> 01:18:13.720
that's what it was. It's nothing rude, nothing bad. You

919
01:18:13.840 --> 01:18:16.319
just want to let me know, warn me in you

920
01:18:16.359 --> 01:18:19.600
know ahead of time that you're just a bit of annoying,

921
01:18:19.600 --> 01:18:23.399
a bit of a pain to live with. I said,

922
01:18:23.479 --> 01:18:25.880
I'm not really living with you, an't I you're downstairs.

923
01:18:25.880 --> 01:18:30.479
I'm upstairs. I got my own room. She said, yeah,

924
01:18:30.479 --> 01:18:33.119
but we have to share a kitchen and a bathroom.

925
01:18:33.640 --> 01:18:38.079
I said yeah, and she said, well, he just warned me.

926
01:18:39.520 --> 01:18:42.840
What do you mean warned you? She said, it doesn't matter.

927
01:18:44.279 --> 01:18:47.720
All I can tell you is that you might not

928
01:18:47.880 --> 01:18:51.600
want to tell him you're coming back. What do you

929
01:18:51.680 --> 01:18:55.600
mean tell him I'm going back? What I think he's

930
01:18:55.680 --> 01:19:03.000
moved moved? Yeah, he waited till you left and went

931
01:19:03.159 --> 01:19:08.000
came back to London and he moved. Did he give

932
01:19:08.000 --> 01:19:08.600
you an address?

933
01:19:08.800 --> 01:19:08.880
No?

934
01:19:10.479 --> 01:19:13.319
And she looked away and started whistling and humming. I said, look,

935
01:19:14.239 --> 01:19:16.319
I've I kind of figured out that when you do that,

936
01:19:16.359 --> 01:19:22.199
you're lying. And she said, wow, you are clever. I

937
01:19:22.239 --> 01:19:28.159
wasn't sure she's being sarcastic or not. And I said

938
01:19:28.199 --> 01:19:31.600
to her, well, where's he moved to? She said, I

939
01:19:31.640 --> 01:19:39.880
can't tell. You said, why not swore me to secrecy? Okay,

940
01:19:41.119 --> 01:19:46.640
Well I guess I have to stay here. She said,

941
01:19:46.640 --> 01:19:52.159
it's okay, it's okay, actually, I said, why, said well,

942
01:19:52.840 --> 01:19:55.960
he said that when you lose your job, he'll pay

943
01:19:56.239 --> 01:19:59.600
for the first month and then I can kick you

944
01:19:59.640 --> 01:20:05.520
out if you haven't found anything. So you're telling me

945
01:20:05.720 --> 01:20:10.239
that you're going to be phoning them up tomorrow or

946
01:20:10.279 --> 01:20:12.560
whatever to let him know that I haven't gotten myself

947
01:20:12.560 --> 01:20:15.479
a job, so that he pays rent for the next month.

948
01:20:16.600 --> 01:20:21.000
She said no, I said, good, said no, I've already

949
01:20:21.000 --> 01:20:25.119
spoke to him. He's already sent the money. He's sent

950
01:20:25.239 --> 01:20:34.800
a check. It's going to be here tomorrow probably. I like,

951
01:20:35.359 --> 01:20:38.079
so you've basically he's sent you one hundred and sixty pound.

952
01:20:38.880 --> 01:20:41.399
She said yeah, there's forty pounds a week back then.

953
01:20:43.479 --> 01:20:44.960
And she said it's that why there was such a

954
01:20:45.000 --> 01:20:47.199
pause between you talking just then, because you have to

955
01:20:47.199 --> 01:20:50.479
try and add it up in your head. I said, yeah.

956
01:20:51.119 --> 01:20:53.520
I was going to say one hundred and twenty, and

957
01:20:53.560 --> 01:20:57.600
then I realized that's three fours. So I thought, how

958
01:20:57.640 --> 01:21:02.359
else can I work it out? And I realized if

959
01:21:02.359 --> 01:21:06.800
I do eighty times by two, it's one hundred and sixty.

960
01:21:07.720 --> 01:21:12.279
She said yeah. I said thanks. She said yeah, I

961
01:21:12.359 --> 01:21:16.279
wasn't really congratulating you. I'm just you know, acknowledging and

962
01:21:16.439 --> 01:21:21.399
what you said. And I said to her, look instead

963
01:21:21.439 --> 01:21:25.399
of just being a little bit gnarly, a little bit ugh,

964
01:21:25.760 --> 01:21:28.399
a little bit you know, looking down at me, a

965
01:21:28.439 --> 01:21:36.520
little bit judgmental, perhaps you could be helpful, caring kind. Baby.

966
01:21:38.319 --> 01:21:46.079
He just gives me kisses, just gives me kisses. And

967
01:21:46.159 --> 01:21:51.760
she said, well, okay, I suppose I could try and help.

968
01:21:52.520 --> 01:21:56.319
I said, that'd be nice. She said, are you any

969
01:21:56.319 --> 01:22:01.880
good at cleaning toilets? I said, what I could give you,

970
01:22:01.920 --> 01:22:04.520
like a two pounds discount a week if you clean

971
01:22:04.560 --> 01:22:08.239
the bog? I said, no, one's called it a bog

972
01:22:08.279 --> 01:22:10.760
for years. She said, I do. I love calling it

973
01:22:10.760 --> 01:22:15.159
a bog makes her feel really down to earth. Should

974
01:22:15.159 --> 01:22:17.600
we call it a toilet? And she said, no one

975
01:22:17.600 --> 01:22:22.960
called it a bog? And I was like, okay, fair enough, No,

976
01:22:23.760 --> 01:22:26.960
I said, I'm not cleaning the toilet for two pound.

977
01:22:28.720 --> 01:22:31.239
How's that going to make a difference to my rent?

978
01:22:31.279 --> 01:22:35.399
Just two pounds off a week off of forty? She said, well,

979
01:22:35.399 --> 01:22:41.520
that minilonio thirty eight pound. It wasn't a literal question.

980
01:22:41.640 --> 01:22:45.479
I know it'll leave me with thirty eight pounds to pay.

981
01:22:46.039 --> 01:22:51.239
She said, well, that's what you just asked me. And

982
01:22:52.239 --> 01:22:54.880
obviously i'd done her accent different because she was Italian,

983
01:22:54.920 --> 01:22:58.720
so she had a very very strong Italian accent, but

984
01:22:58.760 --> 01:23:03.439
I didn't do her accent. Yeah, I hope you're pleased.

985
01:23:04.520 --> 01:23:07.359
I hope, I hope you appreciate.

986
01:23:09.039 --> 01:23:09.119
Me.

987
01:23:10.439 --> 01:23:20.479
Thank you very much. Yeah, and what else? Yeah, anyway,

988
01:23:20.600 --> 01:23:27.800
she came through and she gave me a shout json Jason, Jason.

989
01:23:28.960 --> 01:23:31.960
So I go down and I said, yeah, she said,

990
01:23:32.640 --> 01:23:37.760
come down the stairs please. So I went downstairs and

991
01:23:38.840 --> 01:23:44.199
there was this other lady there and I said, I

992
01:23:44.199 --> 01:23:49.640
said hello, you said yeah, and this is my friend Canterbella.

993
01:23:50.079 --> 01:23:56.600
I said, she wants to doc to you do I said, okay,

994
01:23:56.640 --> 01:23:59.960
fair enough, So I'm talking to her. She ends up

995
01:24:00.079 --> 01:24:02.880
it ends up that she's the HR. She's in charge

996
01:24:02.920 --> 01:24:07.279
of the HR department in a bakery, a huge bakery

997
01:24:07.479 --> 01:24:12.600
in London, East London. And she said to me there's

998
01:24:12.640 --> 01:24:15.640
a job going in the canteen and you can work

999
01:24:15.680 --> 01:24:20.600
there or you can apply to it there. I said, okay,

1000
01:24:21.680 --> 01:24:27.039
told me the hours, told me the wages. So she

1001
01:24:27.199 --> 01:24:29.039
was helping me out, but she was helping a friend

1002
01:24:29.039 --> 01:24:30.720
out so that she got her rent, but at the

1003
01:24:30.720 --> 01:24:34.640
same time in helping me out, and I went along

1004
01:24:34.680 --> 01:24:38.640
for the job interview, got the job. Turned out the

1005
01:24:38.720 --> 01:24:41.479
chef who was in charge of the kitchen didn't have

1006
01:24:41.520 --> 01:24:43.600
a choice about whether I worked there or not. And

1007
01:24:43.640 --> 01:24:46.119
he told me that he wouldn't have employed me, which

1008
01:24:46.159 --> 01:24:49.560
is nice, how lovely, and that's that he told me

1009
01:24:49.600 --> 01:24:54.600
that after we'd become friends. Yeah, like he still he

1010
01:24:54.720 --> 01:24:56.319
liked me at that point when he said he wouldn't

1011
01:24:56.319 --> 01:24:59.760
have employed me, and he still wouldn't, so hey nice.

1012
01:25:00.680 --> 01:25:04.279
And he sold me a dodgy video player that didn't work,

1013
01:25:05.359 --> 01:25:10.600
but I've forgiven him twenty five pounds that cost me.

1014
01:25:13.159 --> 01:25:17.760
I don't get that money back while I I mean,

1015
01:25:17.840 --> 01:25:23.079
how could you do that to someone? Admittedly, he'd stopped

1016
01:25:23.079 --> 01:25:26.279
working there, so he'd left, and I was still working

1017
01:25:26.319 --> 01:25:30.000
at the factory, so he Yeah, I guess he was

1018
01:25:30.000 --> 01:25:31.439
just trying to make a little bit of money in that,

1019
01:25:31.560 --> 01:25:38.680
but seemed a bit rude. So Vinnie's still lying on

1020
01:25:38.720 --> 01:25:43.800
my lap and cuddling up to me. Normally it might

1021
01:25:43.880 --> 01:25:45.960
do it and hold him and I want to get down,

1022
01:25:46.600 --> 01:25:48.760
but he doesn't want to get down. He seems happy

1023
01:25:49.560 --> 01:25:55.680
to just be cuddling. It's weird. It's almost like he's

1024
01:25:57.000 --> 01:26:02.720
become an affectionate turning into a dog, like a nice

1025
01:26:02.960 --> 01:26:10.520
friendly doggie. Hey, I don't understand. But anyway, I ended

1026
01:26:10.600 --> 01:26:16.920
up working after that. I worked in the actual factory,

1027
01:26:17.000 --> 01:26:21.560
the bakery itself, not the canteen, and I was doing

1028
01:26:25.760 --> 01:26:36.520
what was I doing. I was doing all kinds of shifts,

1029
01:26:36.920 --> 01:26:41.119
including night shift, So yeah, I did a nice st

1030
01:26:42.000 --> 01:26:46.079
Was I doing night shift? Yeah, I'm pretty certain I

1031
01:26:46.119 --> 01:26:49.920
was doing night shift, and then sometimes a night shift

1032
01:26:49.960 --> 01:26:57.560
led me to do days as well. Yeah, yeah, so

1033
01:26:57.680 --> 01:26:59.680
that it was kind of all over the place, but

1034
01:26:59.840 --> 01:27:03.279
that that was my second night shift job. My third

1035
01:27:03.399 --> 01:27:10.680
night shift job would be working in security in nineteen

1036
01:27:10.760 --> 01:27:24.039
ninety six, and I had one, two, three, four.

1037
01:27:29.399 --> 01:27:29.720
Five.

1038
01:27:37.039 --> 01:27:39.880
I'm just trying to think at least five different places

1039
01:27:39.920 --> 01:27:43.800
that I did night shift on. I did day shift

1040
01:27:43.800 --> 01:27:54.039
on a few places, but predominantly night shift. I don't

1041
01:27:54.079 --> 01:27:56.479
think I did night shift again after that. I think

1042
01:27:56.479 --> 01:27:58.680
that was it. That was the last time I did

1043
01:27:58.760 --> 01:28:06.199
night shift. But I did that for a while. It

1044
01:28:06.319 --> 01:28:11.039
was okay if there was people around, If I was

1045
01:28:11.039 --> 01:28:14.039
on my own the whole time, I'd end up having

1046
01:28:14.039 --> 01:28:17.680
to go to sleep even though I was sleeping during

1047
01:28:17.720 --> 01:28:20.640
the day. Now, the problem is, back then there was

1048
01:28:20.680 --> 01:28:24.439
no internet, nothing that was reading, but I struggled to

1049
01:28:24.520 --> 01:28:28.119
read when I was tired at night. But I could

1050
01:28:28.119 --> 01:28:30.840
have built websites and stuff. And you know, if it

1051
01:28:30.880 --> 01:28:34.439
had been ten years later, I could have really made

1052
01:28:34.520 --> 01:28:44.640
use of that time. Let me just have a look

1053
01:28:44.720 --> 01:28:51.520
and see what the I was supposed to be talking

1054
01:28:51.520 --> 01:28:55.439
about longest days and shortest days, And I'll be honest,

1055
01:28:56.319 --> 01:29:01.840
I've lost interest in that. Never mind, So thank you

1056
01:29:01.880 --> 01:29:04.920
for listening. Remember to be kind to yourself, because you

1057
01:29:05.000 --> 01:29:08.319
do deserve to be happy and be gentle with yourself.

1058
01:29:08.960 --> 01:29:21.800
You deserve to feel safe, lots of love. Bye. Relax

1059
01:29:25.399 --> 01:29:35.960
in a more deep and meaningful way, maybe in a

1060
01:29:36.039 --> 01:29:43.560
way that can not just allow you to feel calmer

1061
01:29:44.760 --> 01:29:54.159
now and throughout the time we've spend together here, not

1062
01:29:54.680 --> 01:30:00.119
just relaxed at the end of the recording when it's

1063
01:30:00.159 --> 01:30:07.279
finished and you can enjoy that sense of comfort and peace.

1064
01:30:12.000 --> 01:30:24.800
But also I think it would be nice to have

1065
01:30:25.319 --> 01:30:42.319
those feelings of relaxation continue for longer after the recording

1066
01:30:42.359 --> 01:30:55.840
has ended, so that you can still benefit from listening

1067
01:30:56.760 --> 01:31:05.680
to my voice. Maybe in a few hours time, perhaps tomorrow,

1068
01:31:11.680 --> 01:31:19.560
and then by listening regularly, especially if you find like

1069
01:31:19.680 --> 01:31:23.119
some people do and myself as well. I sometimes I

1070
01:31:23.279 --> 01:31:33.840
find one particular recording that really resonates with me, and

1071
01:31:33.920 --> 01:31:39.119
I just listen to it over and over again every morning,

1072
01:31:39.279 --> 01:31:51.880
every evening. There was this recording from We're going back

1073
01:31:51.880 --> 01:31:57.399
to about nineteen ninety nine. It wasn't hypnosis, but it

1074
01:31:57.479 --> 01:32:02.560
was a guided visualizations. It kind of was hypnosis, really,

1075
01:32:05.039 --> 01:32:10.199
and I managed to find it again and it still

1076
01:32:10.279 --> 01:32:15.880
has the same effect on me. And part of it

1077
01:32:16.039 --> 01:32:30.720
was the person's voice relaxed me just felt so peaceful,

1078
01:32:32.880 --> 01:32:39.439
and I'd look forward to listening to her in the

1079
01:32:39.479 --> 01:32:50.159
morning and in the evening. And I knew before even

1080
01:32:50.920 --> 01:32:59.399
pressing the play button that since I've done that, pressed

1081
01:32:59.399 --> 01:33:02.520
the play button, and this was in the days of

1082
01:33:07.600 --> 01:33:16.760
CD players press the play button. In fact, it might

1083
01:33:16.760 --> 01:33:21.239
have even been a tape recorder. I'd lie down on

1084
01:33:21.279 --> 01:33:34.119
the bed and then even without necessarily listening to her

1085
01:33:34.319 --> 01:33:47.239
words because I had them memorized. Really, it was as

1086
01:33:47.279 --> 01:33:58.000
if my body knew exactly what to do, and the

1087
01:33:58.159 --> 01:34:20.199
muscles just almost went into automatic relaxation, and I remember

1088
01:34:20.279 --> 01:34:34.359
my mind would slow down. Now now I was listening

1089
01:34:34.399 --> 01:34:41.159
to this recording in the early days of learning hypnosis,

1090
01:34:43.720 --> 01:34:51.560
and long before I ever made any videos or audio

1091
01:34:51.600 --> 01:34:56.359
recordings myself, because I didn't start doing that till two

1092
01:34:56.399 --> 01:35:15.680
thousand and six, I knew, I knew how helpful I

1093
01:35:15.800 --> 01:35:26.239
found being able to just let go, to have that

1094
01:35:26.439 --> 01:35:39.079
trust in the person that I'm listening to, knowing that

1095
01:35:39.159 --> 01:35:47.479
it's going to be just as relaxing, if not more so.

1096
01:35:50.119 --> 01:35:57.119
Each time you hear my voice, you may feel the same.

1097
01:36:03.479 --> 01:36:18.079
Some people have been listening to me for over a decade,

1098
01:36:18.920 --> 01:36:22.920
maybe not solidly, obviously not twenty four hours a day,

1099
01:36:24.680 --> 01:36:31.760
but maybe people come back. Some people maybe listen every day.

1100
01:36:42.960 --> 01:36:50.960
That's something that I do which you may not realize

1101
01:36:51.319 --> 01:36:56.199
by listening.

1102
01:36:56.680 --> 01:36:56.920
Is.

1103
01:37:00.880 --> 01:37:15.199
When I record these recordings. Now, for example, I also

1104
01:37:16.680 --> 01:37:27.960
am affected by the words that I say. So if

1105
01:37:27.960 --> 01:37:38.359
I set you focus on your feet, notice your feet relaxing,

1106
01:37:41.840 --> 01:37:49.720
I will be focusing on my feet. I will be

1107
01:37:49.840 --> 01:38:07.920
noticing my feet relaxing. If I said, focus on your hands,

1108
01:38:10.720 --> 01:38:20.239
and maybe notice the difference between each hand, Perhaps notice

1109
01:38:20.359 --> 01:38:26.439
the the air in the room, the temperature of the room.

1110
01:38:28.319 --> 01:38:38.720
On the backs of your hands. You may start to

1111
01:38:39.279 --> 01:38:47.359
notice what almost feels like a very light breeze, even

1112
01:38:47.399 --> 01:38:51.640
though there may not be any type of breeze at

1113
01:38:51.680 --> 01:39:04.680
all where you are right now. And as you become

1114
01:39:05.279 --> 01:39:19.680
aware of your hands, I'm also aware of how relaxed

1115
01:39:19.960 --> 01:39:26.000
my hands our feeling.

1116
01:39:27.359 --> 01:39:43.000
Now and when.

1117
01:39:42.840 --> 01:39:49.800
It comes to potentially drifting off to sleep, which may

1118
01:39:49.840 --> 01:40:06.199
be the reason you're listening, I also feel drowsy when

1119
01:40:06.239 --> 01:40:19.479
I make these recordings. I also notice my mind drifting.

1120
01:40:27.359 --> 01:40:39.960
In fact, at times I've actually fallen asleep without even noticing,

1121
01:40:44.840 --> 01:40:55.880
and then I carry on talking. It's only where I

1122
01:40:55.960 --> 01:41:05.359
listen back to do the editing, I hear snoring, and

1123
01:41:05.439 --> 01:41:15.279
I think, I don't remember snoring. I remember talking. It

1124
01:41:15.359 --> 01:41:22.560
was this snoring was a pick turned up. That's why

1125
01:41:22.560 --> 01:41:30.279
I sound like when I snare and I get really

1126
01:41:30.439 --> 01:41:43.880
into the whole experience. I don't know how you feel,

1127
01:41:50.079 --> 01:42:01.239
how relaxed you're feeling your feet, how relaxed you feel

1128
01:42:01.399 --> 01:42:28.000
in your hands. I have noticed more and more that

1129
01:42:28.199 --> 01:42:44.399
the more relaxed, deeper level of comfort you feel, the

1130
01:42:44.600 --> 01:43:05.159
easier your breathing becomes. It's almost like that muscle relaxation.

1131
01:43:09.520 --> 01:43:30.520
So this allows you the bree easier without necessarily focusing

1132
01:43:32.720 --> 01:43:58.359
on your breath. However, being able to notice the ease

1133
01:44:01.720 --> 01:44:28.319
in which you breathe so naturally, You breathe so very

1134
01:44:28.600 --> 01:45:17.279
easily and smoothly. Whenever I imagine my breathing improving, when

1135
01:45:17.319 --> 01:45:32.640
I've got my eyes closed, I tend to visualize a

1136
01:45:32.760 --> 01:45:49.359
beautiful field with trees and flowers producing all that life

1137
01:45:49.439 --> 01:46:25.079
giving oxygen. It feels nice to, if nothing else, just

1138
01:46:25.520 --> 01:46:59.560
taking some time away from everything, enjoying that feeling of

1139
01:47:03.479 --> 01:47:50.359
peace serenity with a joyful heart. Time seems to just

1140
01:47:52.199 --> 01:48:36.239
drip by, so varies slowly, relaxed, so deeply peaceful, completely

1141
01:48:42.119 --> 01:49:18.119
unattached to any thoughts whatsoever in this moment, completely free,

1142
01:49:44.560 --> 01:50:35.960
notice that your mind has slowed down, slowed down because

1143
01:50:36.119 --> 01:51:04.720
nothing really requires your attention. You can enjoy the physical

1144
01:51:05.039 --> 01:51:16.720
sensations of allowing the stress drip out of your body,

1145
01:51:23.159 --> 01:51:46.199
to appear out of every part of your body, and

1146
01:51:46.520 --> 01:52:26.039
being released from your brain and her mind slowly but surely.

1147
01:52:32.880 --> 01:53:27.039
The muscles singles, relax res so very deeply, res so deeply,

1148
01:53:44.840 --> 01:54:12.840
and the feelings, the pleasant feelings in your arms and shoulders,

1149
01:54:12.880 --> 01:54:37.399
deepening each part of your body further and deeper and deeper,

1150
01:54:51.960 --> 01:55:22.359
Noticing the feelings in the back of your neck, feelings

1151
01:55:22.520 --> 01:56:36.760
in your wrists, muscles, into your body. I also feeling peaceful, deeply,

1152
01:56:53.760 --> 01:57:04.039
there's a sense of peace m breads through your very core.

1153
01:57:34.560 --> 01:57:54.479
Even when you focus on your mind, your mind becomes

1154
01:58:01.800 --> 01:59:24.680
be and slower, deep relaxing, so very slow. His stomach,

1155
01:59:38.760 --> 02:00:26.479
it's fallin's stomach. You're back. Notice Notice how relaxed you'd

1156
02:00:26.680 --> 02:01:05.000
now fear in the hole of your back. In spy

1157
02:01:09.079 --> 02:01:13.840
from your brain all the way down the middle of

1158
02:01:13.880 --> 02:01:38.119
your back, sending and receiving millions of messages every day, deepcomfort,

1159
02:01:41.079 --> 02:02:57.920
increasing deeply relaxed, your knees, spreading those signals down a

1160
02:02:58.159 --> 02:03:20.800
spine or cord into air, every part of your body,

1161
02:03:21.520 --> 02:04:09.760
your shins and your calf muscles. We're outbursts feelings of

1162
02:04:09.960 --> 02:04:27.079
peace and tranquility spreading through your body, tips of your toes,

1163
02:04:31.479 --> 02:04:43.000
to your eyes, your fingers, all the way to your

1164
02:04:43.039 --> 02:06:00.840
lower back. Lettinger reatiner, peace, drifting mind just wounding away,

1165
02:06:08.079 --> 02:06:49.800
happy to let go, let go completely, let go, so tranquil,

1166
02:07:13.920 --> 02:07:46.319
the whole body, enjoying a censor. Lett him go.

1167
02:07:49.800 --> 02:08:51.399
He even more.

1168
02:08:00.279 --> 02:09:01.399
Attatatas he's fall.

1169
02:09:35.000 --> 02:09:49.840
Enjoy the space, this space of peace.

1170
02:09:53.000 --> 02:10:09.399
And safety.

1171
02:10:16.880 --> 02:12:16.000
So firy f relx lessing God. Maybe we can just

1172
02:12:18.880 --> 02:12:27.760
focus on the different parts of your body, just to

1173
02:12:28.000 --> 02:13:56.960
notice your forehead and your eyes. Utu solus. Notice in

1174
02:13:57.039 --> 02:15:29.399
the sense of complete freedom, absolute freedom, Ri dria hee's

1175
02:15:29.800 --> 02:17:17.360
for energy peace. To breathe easier. Lest you may have

1176
02:17:20.840 --> 02:18:20.840
I may not have noticed your mind drifting peaceful, move

1177
02:18:21.680 --> 02:18:41.840
even more deeply in the direction of total blissful pace,

1178
02:18:46.079 --> 02:20:49.879
blissful pace, total peace. Come so calm, lett him go

1179
02:21:14.760 --> 02:21:51.440
peace with mind relaxed forty so relax.

1180
02:22:00.319 --> 02:22:01.079
Relaxed.

1181
02:22:25.559 --> 02:22:52.399
Your body feels almost invisible, so very relaxed. I'm peaceful,

1182
02:22:58.760 --> 02:23:23.520
so peaceful, real.

1183
02:23:30.520 --> 02:23:58.879
Liquor, so peaceful, son of fairy.

1184
02:24:06.479 --> 02:24:12.680
And you could start to notice that you are feeling

1185
02:24:13.120 --> 02:24:24.319
more relaxed, even though I've not purposely focused your mind

1186
02:24:25.280 --> 02:24:32.840
upon that sense of physical comfort that is growing within

1187
02:24:32.959 --> 02:24:42.079
you throughout your body, and your mind starts to slow down,

1188
02:24:47.040 --> 02:24:54.200
And that could be almost in recognition of I guess

1189
02:24:54.639 --> 02:25:07.079
my speech not being particularly fast, and things just generally

1190
02:25:08.799 --> 02:25:19.840
feel calmer. Just by listening to my voice, you give

1191
02:25:19.879 --> 02:25:26.799
yourself an opportunity to take a break from the day,

1192
02:25:28.959 --> 02:25:36.440
take a break from your life as it is, and

1193
02:25:36.600 --> 02:25:44.319
to give yourself a rest, giving yourself permission to take

1194
02:25:44.440 --> 02:25:49.959
some time off and to allow your body to relax

1195
02:25:51.680 --> 02:25:59.600
and allow your mind to slow down, which in turn

1196
02:26:02.239 --> 02:26:07.840
releases the tension any stresses that you had in your body.

1197
02:26:13.840 --> 02:26:17.719
It's almost as if the parts of your body just

1198
02:26:18.000 --> 02:26:29.680
open up, allowing the negativity out and at the same

1199
02:26:29.840 --> 02:26:41.120
time replacing that negativity with positive heathing energy, which then

1200
02:26:41.319 --> 02:26:50.440
fills your body up and your mind to also starts

1201
02:26:50.600 --> 02:27:07.239
to appreciate those feelings of increasing confidence and almost uplifting

1202
02:27:07.639 --> 02:27:23.040
feeling positive healing, an energy that spreads through your body

1203
02:27:24.120 --> 02:27:34.159
like a wave of comfort. And all this comes from

1204
02:27:34.479 --> 02:27:46.040
just allowing yourself a few minutes, maybe half an hour,

1205
02:27:46.520 --> 02:27:51.239
however long you want it to be, to just rest

1206
02:27:56.680 --> 02:28:05.479
and allow your mind and your body to almost reset

1207
02:28:06.200 --> 02:28:24.840
itself to the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness, which

1208
02:28:24.920 --> 02:28:38.040
allows more room for feelings of pleasure and happiness to

1209
02:28:38.360 --> 02:28:47.760
move around your body and into your mind, almost as

1210
02:28:47.799 --> 02:28:56.920
if your mind and your body are sinking together, almost

1211
02:28:57.280 --> 02:29:11.280
mirroring each other with that growing positivity and calmness, and

1212
02:29:11.399 --> 02:29:18.719
it feels nice. It really does feel nice to know

1213
02:29:18.959 --> 02:29:27.840
that you are the one that has allowed yourself to

1214
02:29:28.120 --> 02:29:42.079
feel more comfort and to experience more of this deep

1215
02:29:42.559 --> 02:29:58.600
relaxation spreading throughout your body. And as I focus on

1216
02:29:58.879 --> 02:30:04.559
each part of your body, you can notice that that

1217
02:30:04.920 --> 02:30:19.040
part becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on it.

1218
02:30:21.600 --> 02:30:31.239
It becomes even more calm and comfortable, just by focusing.

1219
02:30:35.319 --> 02:30:41.040
And as I move down your body, starting at your head,

1220
02:30:43.760 --> 02:30:50.479
the parts that you've already focused on will continue to

1221
02:30:50.639 --> 02:30:58.280
relax deeply, and those parts that we've not yet focused

1222
02:30:58.360 --> 02:31:11.680
on or just automatically release any remain intention in anticipation

1223
02:31:12.120 --> 02:31:25.120
of even more comfort about to come. Now, I'm going

1224
02:31:25.200 --> 02:31:32.079
to start by focusing on your forehead. Just being aware

1225
02:31:32.440 --> 02:31:41.040
of the feelings of your forehead and any background sounds

1226
02:31:42.799 --> 02:31:47.639
like mister Herbert the pigeon can just allow you to

1227
02:31:47.840 --> 02:31:55.079
feel even more relaxed. Just means you're in the moment.

1228
02:31:58.239 --> 02:32:02.879
This isn't this isn't a their ile environments. This is

1229
02:32:03.000 --> 02:32:11.040
the world. I live in the countryside, so there's lots

1230
02:32:11.079 --> 02:32:22.000
of nature sounds around. So as you focus on your forehead,

1231
02:32:24.040 --> 02:32:29.479
just notice how it becomes even more relaxed as you

1232
02:32:31.639 --> 02:32:38.920
focus only on my voice and that part of your body.

1233
02:32:44.079 --> 02:32:52.360
Moving down to your eyes, focusing on your eyes, noticing

1234
02:32:54.840 --> 02:33:04.559
how your eyelids feel so heavy yet so light at

1235
02:33:04.600 --> 02:33:11.040
the same time, and all the muscles around your eyes

1236
02:33:11.319 --> 02:33:25.719
relaxing completely. Moving your focus down to your mouth, your lips,

1237
02:33:26.200 --> 02:33:32.840
your tongue, your teeth, and your gums, the whole of

1238
02:33:33.000 --> 02:33:47.760
your mouth relaxing, calm and loose, as you focus now

1239
02:33:48.600 --> 02:33:55.440
on your jaw, not just the part of your jaw

1240
02:33:55.559 --> 02:33:59.920
near your mouth and your chin, but all the way

1241
02:34:00.200 --> 02:34:06.479
up the size of your face to your ears, the

1242
02:34:06.760 --> 02:34:31.200
hole of your jaw, feeding more relaxed and calm. Focusing

1243
02:34:34.719 --> 02:34:39.840
on your neck, the front of your neck, and your

1244
02:34:40.000 --> 02:34:53.319
throat relaxing and loose and calm. The sides of your neck,

1245
02:34:55.399 --> 02:35:01.760
the right and the left side of your neck, relax

1246
02:35:02.280 --> 02:35:17.479
and loose and calm. And now the back of your neck,

1247
02:35:20.799 --> 02:35:30.799
focusing on the back of your neck, letting go of

1248
02:35:31.000 --> 02:35:37.879
any tension that may have been there before, and enjoying

1249
02:35:38.239 --> 02:35:51.159
that sense of increasing comfort and release that you can

1250
02:35:51.319 --> 02:36:02.440
experience in the back of your neck. Moving down your

1251
02:36:02.559 --> 02:36:09.879
back and moving either side of your spine right from

1252
02:36:09.920 --> 02:36:15.280
the top of your back all the way down to

1253
02:36:15.399 --> 02:36:27.639
the bottom of your back, down to your lower back.

1254
02:36:32.719 --> 02:36:39.760
And as you move up and down your spine, you

1255
02:36:39.879 --> 02:36:47.000
can feel the muscles either side of your spine relaxing

1256
02:36:47.680 --> 02:37:01.079
even more. And as those muscles relax, that sense of

1257
02:37:01.360 --> 02:37:12.000
comfort starts to spread outwards from your spine into both

1258
02:37:12.200 --> 02:37:19.799
sides of your back, the top of your back, the middle,

1259
02:37:19.920 --> 02:37:28.360
and your lower back. And as you scan gently and

1260
02:37:28.959 --> 02:37:35.920
slowly up and down your back, there's the muscles in

1261
02:37:36.040 --> 02:37:45.360
the top of your back relax and become looser. The

1262
02:37:45.479 --> 02:37:51.479
muscles in the middle of your back also seem to

1263
02:37:51.760 --> 02:38:00.920
just almost divide from each other, separate in and almost melting,

1264
02:38:06.719 --> 02:38:12.680
and in your lower back it seems to be an

1265
02:38:12.760 --> 02:38:26.959
extra special feeling of comfort that spreads into your hips.

1266
02:38:29.239 --> 02:38:37.079
Sit down your lower back, into your hips, into the

1267
02:38:37.280 --> 02:38:46.040
area where your cosicks are, and into your buttocks, and

1268
02:38:46.120 --> 02:38:55.319
all those muscles that spread from your lower back into

1269
02:38:55.399 --> 02:39:08.840
your hip area start to melt, start to really let go.

1270
02:39:15.559 --> 02:39:22.319
Don't even nowhere about to focus on your shoulders. Your

1271
02:39:22.520 --> 02:39:33.159
back and your spine will continue to let go, continue

1272
02:39:34.000 --> 02:39:48.879
to relax so calmly, and as you focus on your shoulders,

1273
02:39:50.639 --> 02:40:05.920
you may notice that they're already feeling really loose, They're

1274
02:40:06.000 --> 02:40:32.120
already feeding calm and the feeling those muscles then move

1275
02:40:32.520 --> 02:40:48.360
from your neck into your shoulders feel so soft and gentle,

1276
02:40:52.479 --> 02:41:14.040
so smooth, and calm, and the feeling in your shoulders

1277
02:41:21.399 --> 02:41:29.879
seems to spread deep into your shoulders, that sense of relaxation,

1278
02:41:31.120 --> 02:41:42.600
not just traveling deeply into your muscles, but also relaxing

1279
02:41:45.479 --> 02:41:55.360
the bones and moving all away to underneath your arms,

1280
02:41:58.159 --> 02:42:04.120
relaxing a whole area between the tops of your shoulders

1281
02:42:05.440 --> 02:42:23.200
and underneath your arms healing. You feel so relaxed and

1282
02:42:23.479 --> 02:42:39.040
comfortable in your shoulders. Who sends that deep healing message

1283
02:42:44.399 --> 02:42:56.040
into your arms? And you may feel almost as if

1284
02:42:56.120 --> 02:43:00.319
your arms are not even there they could. Is this

1285
02:43:00.959 --> 02:43:43.680
so relaxed, so deeply relaxed, so so calm, so po

1286
02:43:51.280 --> 02:44:02.440
not feeling spreading all the way down your arms, two elbows,

1287
02:44:06.239 --> 02:44:34.360
including your elbows circumforts spreads or away into wrists, your

1288
02:44:34.680 --> 02:44:51.760
forearments and your wrists so heavy. Yet at this same time,

1289
02:44:59.360 --> 02:45:37.200
so I and gentle frey, you see now on your hands,

1290
02:45:58.959 --> 02:46:29.920
I am, yes, so peaceful in your hands. There's a

1291
02:46:30.120 --> 02:46:55.559
sense of real peace. It just seems to feel so

1292
02:46:55.959 --> 02:48:04.399
familiar when your hands relax deeply. Yes, your things, a

1293
02:48:04.799 --> 02:49:09.280
thing is sold less. You think it's tips. Moving your

1294
02:49:09.360 --> 02:49:38.920
attention to the front of your body, so comfortable, Moving

1295
02:49:39.239 --> 02:51:06.280
your focus to your legs, lot muscles in your thighs,

1296
02:51:23.079 --> 02:52:00.520
your knees, so relaxed, you carved muscles and just chance,

1297
02:52:04.200 --> 02:54:16.399
how puzy they and the feathing in your feet, so peaceful,

1298
02:54:18.520 --> 02:55:10.319
so calm, so peaceful, so calm, so peaceful, so calm,

1299
02:55:14.600 --> 02:55:28.440
so peace fall RelA sin.

1300
02:55:33.559 --> 02:55:48.280
Peace fall, so calm, loving that.

1301
02:55:48.680 --> 02:55:59.120
Deep relaxation, to spread your chest in your stumm so

1302
02:56:08.440 --> 02:56:27.200
letting go of everything. So I'm gonna start counting down

1303
02:56:27.319 --> 02:56:38.760
now from twenty down to one. You can imagine in

1304
02:56:38.840 --> 02:56:44.440
a way it's like just walking down some steps, and

1305
02:56:44.559 --> 02:56:50.040
each step or twenty steps, and each step represents a

1306
02:56:50.280 --> 02:57:03.879
level of comfort, each step represents a deepening of that comfort,

1307
02:57:10.520 --> 02:57:15.559
and the fervies you walk down those steps that the

1308
02:57:15.799 --> 02:57:26.920
deeper and more relaxed you feel. So starting with number

1309
02:57:27.040 --> 03:00:00.280
twenty twenty nineteen, A same seventeen sixty h.

1310
03:00:18.959 --> 03:00:43.559
H h.

1311
03:01:14.959 --> 03:10:24.280
Fifteen fourteen four see too well five two nine hey seven.

1312
03:10:01.680 --> 03:12:17.760
Four five.

1313
03:13:36.559 --> 03:14:54.600
Four two.

1314
03:16:04.079 --> 03:17:15.079
One.

1315
03:18:04.639 --> 03:18:21.639
And now as you focus on your eyes, we're gonna

1316
03:18:21.719 --> 03:18:33.959
come down from ten dout one, focusing just on your eyes,

1317
03:18:37.680 --> 03:18:46.159
your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your eye walls themselves,

1318
03:18:47.719 --> 03:19:04.719
our whole area that makes up your eye. And as

1319
03:19:04.799 --> 03:19:13.159
we count down from ten down to one. Whilst focus

1320
03:19:13.319 --> 03:19:28.319
in on your eyes, you'll become twice is relaxed with

1321
03:19:28.719 --> 03:19:41.680
each number counting down that you may find the all

1322
03:19:41.840 --> 03:19:47.959
you want to do is just drift off to sleep.

1323
03:19:50.959 --> 03:19:57.559
And if that's what you want, then just allow yourself

1324
03:19:57.680 --> 03:20:12.319
to do that. Now, focusing on your eyes, I'm going

1325
03:20:12.440 --> 03:20:22.399
to begin counting down from ten down to one right now,

1326
03:20:30.959 --> 03:25:41.440
ten nine eight seven s five four.

1327
03:26:54.520 --> 03:28:36.719
Three two.

1328
03:29:28.719 --> 03:29:50.040
One. So counted down from ten to one ten nine

1329
03:29:51.719 --> 03:30:19.399
eight seven six five four three two one. And maybe

1330
03:30:19.559 --> 03:30:22.479
that was a bit too quick in order to relax.

1331
03:30:23.680 --> 03:30:27.920
Maybe it's a bit too fast for you to notice

1332
03:30:28.200 --> 03:30:36.280
the calming of your body, maybe even a little bit

1333
03:30:36.319 --> 03:30:40.440
of pressure there, like you're counting down from ten to one.

1334
03:30:40.559 --> 03:30:43.959
Would you expect me to do? Man, expect me just

1335
03:30:44.079 --> 03:30:53.559
to go with floppy just because you're counting down. We

1336
03:30:53.639 --> 03:30:57.040
could try it again, but this time I go this

1337
03:30:57.239 --> 03:31:04.520
slower this time, as you focus on the whole of

1338
03:31:04.600 --> 03:31:11.360
your body before we focus on your legs. Just notice

1339
03:31:12.959 --> 03:31:25.760
how your body does start to feel more relaxed with

1340
03:31:27.040 --> 03:31:51.040
every number that I count down ten nine eight seven

1341
03:32:00.239 --> 03:33:15.360
six five four three two one. And just notice how

1342
03:33:17.799 --> 03:33:27.239
how you feel generally, how your body feels it's not

1343
03:33:27.399 --> 03:33:38.399
necessarily even about counting down from ten to one. It's

1344
03:33:38.520 --> 03:33:55.680
that space that you have, that space between being active

1345
03:33:58.040 --> 03:34:07.520
physically or mentally to just sitting or lying down, just

1346
03:34:07.799 --> 03:34:13.680
being there, not doing anything, not saying anything, not needing

1347
03:34:13.920 --> 03:34:19.399
to think about anything. So it opens up a space,

1348
03:34:20.399 --> 03:34:22.159
you know, a bit of a space.

1349
03:34:22.760 --> 03:34:23.200
A gap.

1350
03:34:29.479 --> 03:34:33.000
And the more I came down from ten to one,

1351
03:34:34.159 --> 03:34:42.280
the bigger that gap becomes. So there's that gap of calmness,

1352
03:34:43.680 --> 03:34:59.319
of comfort, relaxation. It's a nice feeling, and it moves

1353
03:35:00.920 --> 03:35:10.799
those stresses or discomforts physically or emotionally, moves them away.

1354
03:35:17.600 --> 03:35:18.559
Allows you.

1355
03:35:21.280 --> 03:35:21.799
To just.

1356
03:35:24.760 --> 03:35:31.520
Slow down. Someone to count again from ten down to one,

1357
03:35:31.920 --> 03:35:42.159
and notice that gap widening, the gap. And as it widens,

1358
03:35:42.239 --> 03:35:48.600
it's almost like the stress and attention falls into the gap,

1359
03:36:02.239 --> 03:36:58.079
gives you that distance and space. Now ten nine, eight, seven, six, five,

1360
03:37:09.239 --> 03:37:44.840
four three two.

1361
03:38:03.120 --> 03:38:03.319
One.

1362
03:38:15.239 --> 03:38:19.280
How does your body feel.

1363
03:38:21.239 --> 03:38:21.399
Now?

1364
03:38:34.120 --> 03:38:50.399
Can you notice that the feeling calmer, the feeling more relaxed.

1365
03:39:12.879 --> 03:39:17.239
As we now focus on your legs, just your legs.

1366
03:39:33.200 --> 03:39:53.360
We're just gonna start with focusing on your thighs. Of course,

1367
03:39:53.479 --> 03:39:58.360
it's not the most exciting thing to be doing because

1368
03:40:01.799 --> 03:40:04.479
I'm sure like most of your body. Is not a

1369
03:40:04.600 --> 03:40:17.000
lot going on right now, Just focusing on the whole

1370
03:40:17.120 --> 03:40:23.520
of your thighs, the tops of your thighs, the sides

1371
03:40:23.680 --> 03:40:30.639
of your thighs, the bottoms of your thighs, your outer thighs,

1372
03:40:30.760 --> 03:40:35.680
and your inner thighs. Basically the whole of your thigh

1373
03:40:35.799 --> 03:40:44.559
that leads into your hip and it goes down to

1374
03:40:44.760 --> 03:40:58.799
your knee joints. Now, this is a big area. It's

1375
03:40:58.840 --> 03:41:03.600
a very heavy area. Yeah, it's very strong, probably the

1376
03:41:03.719 --> 03:41:18.399
strongest muscles in your body or in your thighs. But

1377
03:41:18.440 --> 03:41:26.879
I don't think we perhaps give enough attention to our thighs.

1378
03:41:32.799 --> 03:41:43.559
Perhaps we don't acknowledge how important our thighs are to

1379
03:41:43.760 --> 03:42:04.360
our lives, how much they actually do for us all

1380
03:42:04.479 --> 03:42:14.920
through our lives. And it may seem to sound really weird,

1381
03:42:15.000 --> 03:42:23.399
but I think that all of our body parts, especially

1382
03:42:23.520 --> 03:42:31.159
our thighs, need some TLC, a bit of love shown,

1383
03:42:32.159 --> 03:42:50.360
a bit of acknowledgement, thank you, gratitude for what our

1384
03:42:50.520 --> 03:42:59.799
thighs do for us. And I know this may sound

1385
03:43:00.200 --> 03:43:06.360
is strange. Maybe you think, why am I, Surely I

1386
03:43:06.440 --> 03:43:11.600
should be out in the garden hugging a tree or something. Well,

1387
03:43:15.760 --> 03:43:18.000
it's hard to set a microphone up on a tree.

1388
03:43:19.079 --> 03:43:21.280
That's why I'm doing this indoors. Otherwise I would be

1389
03:43:21.360 --> 03:43:25.079
outside hugging a tree. Now I can't see the television

1390
03:43:25.120 --> 03:43:33.719
from the tree. If you move down to your knees

1391
03:43:35.639 --> 03:43:43.559
getting such an important part, and I think we don't

1392
03:43:43.639 --> 03:43:51.479
necessarily I'll speak for myself here, I don't necessarily appreciate

1393
03:43:53.280 --> 03:43:58.360
all that my knees do for me until I have

1394
03:43:58.479 --> 03:44:01.879
a problem with my knee. It's occasionally, if I ever

1395
03:44:03.479 --> 03:44:07.440
maybe i'll bash it, or it's aching for some reason.

1396
03:44:09.159 --> 03:44:15.360
It's then that I realize how much it does. You know,

1397
03:44:15.440 --> 03:44:21.399
the benefit of being able to use my legs without

1398
03:44:23.159 --> 03:44:30.399
any kind of physical discomfort is a beautiful thing that's

1399
03:44:30.639 --> 03:44:39.000
possibly not appreciated until it's temporarily removed. You know that's comfort.

1400
03:44:43.120 --> 03:44:47.760
But as you focus on your knees, regardless of how

1401
03:44:47.799 --> 03:44:55.319
your knees feel, you can have that sense of gratitude

1402
03:44:56.840 --> 03:44:59.440
and love to your knees for all that they do

1403
03:44:59.639 --> 03:45:12.639
for you. And you can still have that attention on

1404
03:45:12.760 --> 03:45:18.959
your thighs and maybe notice how your thighs feel. Maybe

1405
03:45:19.239 --> 03:45:36.680
you've noticed that they are relaxing more deeply. As you

1406
03:45:36.840 --> 03:45:42.040
focus now on the bottoms of your legs, your shins,

1407
03:45:42.920 --> 03:45:48.479
and your calf muscles, and the bones between your knees

1408
03:45:49.360 --> 03:45:57.079
and your feet incorporate, and of course your ankles so important.

1409
03:46:02.600 --> 03:46:07.200
You know, anyone that's had even like the slightest sprain

1410
03:46:07.319 --> 03:46:14.280
of an ankle knows how how much we take our

1411
03:46:14.520 --> 03:46:23.079
ankles for granted. And it's kind of strange in a

1412
03:46:23.120 --> 03:46:28.680
way when you think that. You know, logically, our wrists

1413
03:46:28.879 --> 03:46:31.719
are a lot thinner than the rest of our arms,

1414
03:46:32.840 --> 03:46:36.399
which is okay, it doesn't can't see any problem with

1415
03:46:36.479 --> 03:46:41.920
that because we're just picking stuff up. But our ankles

1416
03:46:43.719 --> 03:46:53.639
so much thinner than the rest of our legs, and

1417
03:46:53.799 --> 03:46:58.280
from a physics perspective or logical even it doesn't really

1418
03:46:58.399 --> 03:47:05.639
make sense that all this weight would ultimately be resting

1419
03:47:06.639 --> 03:47:16.639
on your ankles then leading to your feet that thin area,

1420
03:47:18.120 --> 03:47:27.760
thin bone. Yeah, it does so much great work. Supports us,

1421
03:47:27.840 --> 03:47:37.799
supports our body for a lifetime, helps us to balance,

1422
03:47:40.159 --> 03:47:53.120
helps you to get around and be mobile. Then there's

1423
03:47:53.159 --> 03:48:01.639
the calf muscles. Of course, I'm showinger. I couldn't see

1424
03:48:01.680 --> 03:48:06.840
the point in calf muscles. It didn't seem to do anything. Okay,

1425
03:48:07.959 --> 03:48:11.520
if I walked around on tiptoes, then my calf muscles

1426
03:48:11.559 --> 03:48:15.079
get some work, but of course that's not true. The

1427
03:48:15.200 --> 03:48:19.600
calf muscles are being used whenever we use her legs

1428
03:48:25.200 --> 03:48:37.799
and your shins there to protect your lower legs, shaped

1429
03:48:37.840 --> 03:48:42.559
in a way almost as a protector for the bone,

1430
03:48:50.159 --> 03:49:02.040
leading of course to your ankles and your feet. But

1431
03:49:02.120 --> 03:49:04.040
we're not going to focus on your feet. We're just

1432
03:49:04.120 --> 03:49:10.559
going to focus on the legs. I realize that now

1433
03:49:10.639 --> 03:49:14.159
that I've mentioned your feet, it got to be focusing

1434
03:49:14.399 --> 03:49:17.479
on them anyway, So maybe I should focus on your

1435
03:49:17.520 --> 03:49:23.360
feet a little bit. You can have them in your

1436
03:49:23.399 --> 03:49:29.799
awareness the same as you have your thighs in your awareness.

1437
03:49:30.639 --> 03:49:34.559
Even though we haven't been focusing on your thighs a

1438
03:49:34.680 --> 03:49:45.760
few minutes, let me focusing on your ankles. There's still

1439
03:49:45.840 --> 03:50:00.920
that sensation of comfort in your thighs in this that

1440
03:50:01.360 --> 03:50:11.399
movement of energy because the thighs hold lots of different sensations.

1441
03:50:12.879 --> 03:50:17.719
Of course, there's the muscles, the big straw muscles that

1442
03:50:17.840 --> 03:50:30.680
we have in our thighs, but the skin on the

1443
03:50:30.840 --> 03:50:36.319
outside of the thighs, as in the outside of all

1444
03:50:36.399 --> 03:50:45.239
of our body, can be very sensitive, sensitive to the touch,

1445
03:50:48.000 --> 03:51:01.360
sensitive to temperature, and inside your thighs the bones there's

1446
03:51:02.399 --> 03:51:07.200
the muscle. There's the blood, vessels, the ar trees, it's

1447
03:51:07.360 --> 03:51:15.319
all this stuff that's inside your thighs. And I guess

1448
03:51:15.440 --> 03:51:18.760
sometimes it'd be nice if you could actually put your

1449
03:51:18.879 --> 03:51:26.159
fingers inside your thighs and a message, so you can

1450
03:51:26.239 --> 03:51:29.760
message on the outside, of course, but to be able

1451
03:51:29.799 --> 03:51:33.000
to get deep into the muscles, and to be able

1452
03:51:33.000 --> 03:51:38.520
to just message inside your thighs, message in the bones

1453
03:51:39.479 --> 03:51:47.000
of your leg massage in all the veins and just

1454
03:51:47.280 --> 03:51:59.920
gently healing your thighs, and you could move down message

1455
03:52:00.079 --> 03:52:05.760
and inside your knees, just messaging those bones, but with

1456
03:52:06.120 --> 03:52:13.319
healing fingertips spreading that healing energy deep into the joints

1457
03:52:14.680 --> 03:52:22.680
of your knees. Of course, there's the back of your

1458
03:52:23.840 --> 03:52:28.520
your knee, you know, the inside crease where your knee is.

1459
03:52:30.200 --> 03:52:35.680
It's a very sensitive area. Very it feels very nice

1460
03:52:35.760 --> 03:52:40.360
when you stroke it. That might be because it's an

1461
03:52:40.399 --> 03:52:45.680
area that's not really touched very often. It's almost like

1462
03:52:45.760 --> 03:52:52.360
a hidden part, that crease in your legs. It's almost

1463
03:52:54.719 --> 03:52:59.280
like a part that has a sensitivity, which is a

1464
03:52:59.319 --> 03:53:10.239
little bit differ from of course, it's protected by your legs,

1465
03:53:17.600 --> 03:53:21.879
so you can imagine putting your fingers into that crease

1466
03:53:22.719 --> 03:53:31.639
in your legs that fold in between your legs. You

1467
03:53:31.719 --> 03:53:37.440
can just message with your fingertips. Imagine your fingertips going inside,

1468
03:53:39.159 --> 03:53:47.639
massage in the muscle tissue. You can of course feel

1469
03:53:47.760 --> 03:54:01.479
the bones of your knees heading through your fingertips. And

1470
03:54:01.559 --> 03:54:07.239
then as you go down to your calf muscles. Now

1471
03:54:07.319 --> 03:54:10.000
that's the part I'd like to be able to really

1472
03:54:10.840 --> 03:54:17.159
put my fingertips deep inside my calf muscles, massage in

1473
03:54:17.600 --> 03:54:23.159
every single tissue of that muscle.

1474
03:54:24.360 --> 03:54:26.200
Healing every part.

1475
03:54:32.159 --> 03:54:38.239
And then doing the same for my shins, massage in

1476
03:54:38.399 --> 03:54:45.959
and gently stroking the bones, gently stroking them, healing in

1477
03:54:46.040 --> 03:54:53.200
a loving way, because they deserve to be treated as

1478
03:54:53.319 --> 03:54:57.319
the precious bones that they are, Because our legs are

1479
03:54:57.399 --> 03:55:01.159
so precious as in all the other hearts of our body,

1480
03:55:03.680 --> 03:55:17.559
the more precious of any jual on the planet. When

1481
03:55:17.600 --> 03:55:25.399
you start to think about your legs in this way,

1482
03:55:30.000 --> 03:55:36.639
it can change your perspective. It might sound a bit

1483
03:55:39.719 --> 03:55:44.000
a bit silly to start with the idea of having

1484
03:55:44.879 --> 03:55:54.879
love for your legs, showing appreciation for your thighs, wanting

1485
03:55:55.000 --> 03:55:58.920
to be able to put your hands in your thighs

1486
03:56:00.879 --> 03:56:07.360
and massage the muscles and the bones and to get

1487
03:56:07.399 --> 03:56:15.639
your fingers deep in there, releasing all tension, just to

1488
03:56:15.840 --> 03:56:25.280
show how much you care about your legs, how much

1489
03:56:25.360 --> 03:56:31.040
you care for what your legs do for you regularly,

1490
03:56:33.440 --> 03:56:42.920
your knees, your calves, your ankles, the strength of your

1491
03:56:43.040 --> 03:56:51.159
ankles considering how thin they are compared to the rest

1492
03:56:51.200 --> 03:56:58.600
of your legs, especially your thighs. Yeah, they're so strong,

1493
03:57:00.200 --> 03:57:14.600
so flexible, absolutely amazing things. Your ankles are truly a

1494
03:57:14.760 --> 03:57:25.600
gift because of what they do for you, supporting all

1495
03:57:25.799 --> 03:57:32.639
that weight, regardless of how what weight you are, even

1496
03:57:32.680 --> 03:57:37.319
if you're only eight stone, there's still a lot of

1497
03:57:37.479 --> 03:57:44.520
weight for these little ankles. Now I'm a lot heavier

1498
03:57:44.559 --> 03:57:54.239
than eight stone, double better, Yet my ankles support my

1499
03:57:54.360 --> 03:58:02.040
body all the time. They do give off a sigh

1500
03:58:02.040 --> 03:58:07.920
of relief when I sit down, as my whole legs do.

1501
03:58:11.600 --> 03:58:18.959
My feet feet also go, my toes clap. We're so happy.

1502
03:58:38.760 --> 03:58:47.920
Your legs really are amazing. And I know that talking

1503
03:58:48.000 --> 03:58:54.399
about talking about your legs is probably possibly among the

1504
03:58:54.479 --> 03:58:59.959
most most boring things you've ever heard anyone say. Possibly

1505
03:59:02.959 --> 03:59:09.639
you're boring or not. Everything I said is true. Your

1506
03:59:09.799 --> 03:59:30.319
legs are amazing. Your legs deserve not just respect, They

1507
03:59:30.440 --> 03:59:43.000
deserve to relax deeply. They deserve to take some time

1508
03:59:43.120 --> 04:00:06.760
out of the day to just let go completely. The

1509
04:00:06.959 --> 04:00:24.760
legs really can relax. And because the legs are so

1510
04:00:25.799 --> 04:00:30.600
such a most, you know, very important part of your body.

1511
04:00:31.879 --> 04:00:34.479
When you relax your legs, the rest of your body

1512
04:00:35.159 --> 04:00:53.920
also naturally follows in that journey of comfort. I can

1513
04:00:54.040 --> 04:00:58.959
feel it in my hips. My hips feel really loose,

1514
04:01:02.239 --> 04:01:06.840
and also my lwer back as well. My lower back

1515
04:01:07.079 --> 04:01:12.600
really feels it feels stretched, even though I'm just sitting

1516
04:01:12.680 --> 04:01:18.680
in a chair and there's no stretching as far as

1517
04:01:18.719 --> 04:01:21.680
I'm aware that I'm doing, but it's almost as if

1518
04:01:21.760 --> 04:01:25.639
the muscles are just relaxed so much that there is

1519
04:01:25.799 --> 04:01:34.280
a natural stretch as the tension has reduced a lot.

1520
04:01:50.639 --> 04:01:53.719
And I'm now going to count down from ten down

1521
04:01:53.799 --> 04:02:05.120
to one, and you can continue to fill wonderfully relaxed.

1522
04:02:08.920 --> 04:02:52.040
Ten nine, eight, seven, six, five, four three two one relax.

1523
04:03:00.040 --> 04:03:04.200
I'm just going to count down from five down to one.

1524
04:03:04.959 --> 04:03:09.520
And as a countdown, if you just focus on the numbers,

1525
04:03:11.200 --> 04:03:19.239
just the numbers counting down, and notice how you feel

1526
04:03:21.879 --> 04:03:26.479
in this moment as you hear the numbers counting down,

1527
04:03:27.520 --> 04:03:40.040
knowing that those numbers counting down represent you feeling calmer,

1528
04:03:41.399 --> 04:03:46.840
not just in your body, but also relaxing your mind.

1529
04:03:49.879 --> 04:03:55.200
Just notice how you feel. There's nothing to do, there's

1530
04:03:55.319 --> 04:04:03.200
nothing to say, there's nothing to think about. Starting with

1531
04:04:04.719 --> 04:04:55.799
number five, four, three two one. As you notice the

1532
04:04:56.040 --> 04:05:07.799
gradual letting go the tension in your body, you may

1533
04:05:07.920 --> 04:05:13.760
also begin to notice and be aware of how your

1534
04:05:13.959 --> 04:05:22.680
mind is starting to slow down. This is just a

1535
04:05:22.879 --> 04:05:30.600
natural thing that happens. It's not really a special procedure.

1536
04:05:31.920 --> 04:05:37.040
It's just natural because as your body relaxes, your mind

1537
04:05:37.200 --> 04:05:42.959
also starts to relax, and the more your mind relaxes,

1538
04:05:43.079 --> 04:05:47.680
the more your body relaxes. It's just a continuous circle

1539
04:05:47.799 --> 04:06:01.479
of relaxation. And is that calmness that comes from relative quietness.

1540
04:06:03.079 --> 04:06:09.000
You know, even even if there's background sounds either your side, online,

1541
04:06:10.719 --> 04:06:16.639
it's still going to be quite calm. You know, you

1542
04:06:16.719 --> 04:06:21.360
haven't got the television on, there's no music in the

1543
04:06:21.440 --> 04:06:24.680
background unless you're listening to the recording with music. Of course,

1544
04:06:29.559 --> 04:06:31.680
you're very likely not going to be sitting in a

1545
04:06:31.799 --> 04:06:34.920
room with other people. Of course you might be, but

1546
04:06:36.239 --> 04:06:39.479
generally it's more ideal if you can do this on

1547
04:06:39.600 --> 04:06:50.920
your own. So no distractions, and when you stop thinking

1548
04:06:51.000 --> 04:07:08.159
about stuff, relaxation automatically rises, a sense of comfort starts

1549
04:07:08.239 --> 04:07:16.959
to grow, and without trying to build it up into

1550
04:07:17.079 --> 04:07:29.200
something fantastical or something magical, this is just a natural process,

1551
04:07:31.559 --> 04:07:42.399
something that's easy to accomplish. In fact, it's almost the

1552
04:07:42.760 --> 04:07:49.440
sense of relaxing completely happens really when you put no

1553
04:07:49.639 --> 04:07:54.200
effort into it. It's not something that you can really force.

1554
04:07:56.840 --> 04:08:06.200
It's something that happens naturally. And part of the process

1555
04:08:06.600 --> 04:08:17.799
of this recording and others is simply two allow you

1556
04:08:20.200 --> 04:08:31.040
to take advantage of this space, this time, to just

1557
04:08:35.239 --> 04:08:42.799
let go, to just be here, to be in tune

1558
04:08:46.479 --> 04:08:58.559
with how you feel, yet with the intention of wanting

1559
04:08:58.879 --> 04:09:10.959
to relaxed deeply and maybe even to fall asleep, depending

1560
04:09:11.200 --> 04:09:17.399
on what it is that you wish for yourself in

1561
04:09:17.559 --> 04:09:33.719
this moment. As we know, relaxing is the majority of

1562
04:09:33.840 --> 04:09:38.399
the process of falling asleep. The actual falling asleep part

1563
04:09:38.680 --> 04:09:46.879
is a tiny bit at the end. The deeper relaxed

1564
04:09:47.239 --> 04:10:08.959
you become, the easier you find yourself drifting. You can

1565
04:10:09.040 --> 04:10:17.680
also if you choose stay focused on my voice and

1566
04:10:19.239 --> 04:10:49.360
really enjoy the process gradually relaxing each muscle in your

1567
04:10:49.440 --> 04:11:24.000
body effortlessly and just observing the sensation of letting go completely.

1568
04:11:30.000 --> 04:11:34.040
This time, I'm going to count from six down to one,

1569
04:11:38.920 --> 04:11:48.040
and you can notice your mind calming down more with

1570
04:11:48.479 --> 04:12:02.120
each number that you hear me say naturally, feeling calm,

1571
04:12:02.959 --> 04:15:02.239
slow and peaceful, six, five, four, three, two, one, being

1572
04:15:02.639 --> 04:15:15.280
aware of how your mind has slowed right down, sinking

1573
04:15:17.879 --> 04:15:38.200
deeply into relaxation. And as you focus on your mind,

1574
04:15:38.479 --> 04:15:48.440
you may notice that there are some thoughts still there,

1575
04:15:51.040 --> 04:16:01.239
maybe some stubborn thoughts that for some reason need your attention.

1576
04:16:08.200 --> 04:16:17.040
That's what you can do is send love to those thoughts.

1577
04:16:20.319 --> 04:16:31.200
Sprinkle those thoughts with love like all petals from a flower.

1578
04:16:32.239 --> 04:16:39.120
Just sprinkle it over them, petals filled with love towards

1579
04:16:39.280 --> 04:16:45.840
those thoughts, to let those thoughts know that you're not

1580
04:16:45.959 --> 04:16:52.079
abandoned in them. You just need them. You require them

1581
04:16:54.879 --> 04:17:07.040
to just calm down, slow down, quiet down for now.

1582
04:17:14.920 --> 04:17:19.920
So as you focus on those remaining thoughts as we

1583
04:17:20.120 --> 04:17:25.319
count down this time from seven down to one with

1584
04:17:25.479 --> 04:17:39.399
each number, just imagine sprinkling those flower petals of love, kindness,

1585
04:17:40.959 --> 04:17:52.840
gratitude over those thoughts, which will allow them to just

1586
04:17:54.280 --> 04:18:09.239
melt away and relax deeply with every number they thoughts

1587
04:18:09.399 --> 04:19:18.040
would become more and more relaxed, starting with number seven, six, five, four,

1588
04:19:44.000 --> 04:21:05.319
three two one and needing. Now, notice how relaxed you're

1589
04:21:05.520 --> 04:21:25.239
feeling in your body. We're going to focus on your hands,

1590
04:21:31.079 --> 04:21:37.399
because the more relaxed your hands are, the more relaxed

1591
04:21:37.600 --> 04:21:58.280
your body and mind are. And this you focus on

1592
04:21:58.440 --> 04:22:09.000
your hands and your fingers. There's nothing needed to be done.

1593
04:22:09.959 --> 04:22:15.200
There's no clenching of fists or dancing the fingers or

1594
04:22:15.239 --> 04:22:29.680
anything like that. It's just noticing and focusing on your hands,

1595
04:22:36.680 --> 04:22:58.879
noticing how they feel. Because the more relaxed your hands feel,

1596
04:23:02.399 --> 04:23:11.559
the calmer your mind feels, and the more comfort you

1597
04:23:11.799 --> 04:23:39.559
feel throughout your body. You may have already noticed your

1598
04:23:43.959 --> 04:24:15.360
mind is starting to dressed fain just on your hands

1599
04:24:16.600 --> 04:24:34.520
and fingers, allowing them to experience a real deepening of

1600
04:24:34.719 --> 04:24:50.600
that relaxation in your hands and fingers, more and more relaxed.

1601
04:24:55.719 --> 04:25:14.120
With each number from eight down to one, you can

1602
04:25:14.159 --> 04:25:25.399
almost feel that healing and relaxing energy spreading into your

1603
04:25:25.600 --> 04:25:32.479
hands and fingers, becoming.

1604
04:25:36.360 --> 04:25:38.040
Year more.

1605
04:25:39.879 --> 04:25:48.520
Relaxing with each number you hear.

1606
04:25:52.360 --> 04:25:53.479
Going down.

1607
04:25:54.719 --> 04:26:13.479
From eight down to one, drifting, drifting again, starting with

1608
04:26:18.079 --> 04:28:53.600
number eight, seven, six, five, four, three.

1609
04:29:23.879 --> 04:29:24.000
Two.

1610
04:30:13.159 --> 04:30:22.479
Just being here now, nothing to think about, nothing to do,

1611
04:30:24.079 --> 04:30:38.000
nothing to say, and everything just feels calmer. And this

1612
04:30:38.319 --> 04:30:45.879
is your natural state of being. This is how you

1613
04:30:46.200 --> 04:30:53.120
just normally feel when you take away all that other

1614
04:30:53.479 --> 04:31:00.440
stuff that we add, you know, things like ress and

1615
04:31:00.680 --> 04:31:16.840
worrying and overthinking and anxiety, tension, just generally thinking about stuff.

1616
04:31:18.840 --> 04:31:22.159
And you take that away, which is what we do.

1617
04:31:22.920 --> 04:31:34.799
What we do now you're left with a real sense

1618
04:31:35.440 --> 04:31:47.959
of peacefulness which comes to you very quickly because ultimately

1619
04:31:48.600 --> 04:32:02.479
it's just a feeling, a feeling of comfort, almost as

1620
04:32:02.520 --> 04:32:06.639
if you've gone inside yourself and you've found a special

1621
04:32:06.760 --> 04:32:20.399
place where everything is peaceful, a place where you can

1622
04:32:20.559 --> 04:32:31.200
feel relaxed and your natural sense of comfort, a place

1623
04:32:31.239 --> 04:32:40.040
where you can be you, where you can accept yourself

1624
04:32:41.079 --> 04:32:46.120
for who you are, a place where you're not trying

1625
04:32:46.239 --> 04:32:56.559
to please anybody else ever, a place where you can

1626
04:32:58.280 --> 04:33:07.040
actually not just love yourself, but in some ways more importantly,

1627
04:33:07.639 --> 04:33:24.720
you can like yourself appreciate who you are. That sense

1628
04:33:24.840 --> 04:33:38.520
of gratitude is in the air all around you. That's

1629
04:33:38.599 --> 04:33:46.919
also a place where you can actually feel the healing

1630
04:33:47.520 --> 04:34:02.000
energy soaking into your body. Healing energy so into your

1631
04:34:02.080 --> 04:34:16.080
body and that healing energy spreads through your veins, traveling

1632
04:34:16.240 --> 04:34:28.400
to each and every single part of your body, and

1633
04:34:28.599 --> 04:34:35.639
you start to realize that actually, that healing energy, it's

1634
04:34:35.720 --> 04:34:42.439
not just entered into your brain, it's become part of

1635
04:34:42.919 --> 04:34:53.840
your brain, and that spinal fluid is now mixed with

1636
04:34:54.159 --> 04:35:05.360
healing energy, not just allowing you to feel so much

1637
04:35:05.639 --> 04:35:20.040
more relaxed and healthy in this moment, but also you

1638
04:35:20.200 --> 04:35:28.520
start to realize to actually, what's happening now with that healing,

1639
04:35:29.560 --> 04:35:39.200
relaxing energy spreading through your body, It's actually changing your life.

1640
04:35:44.360 --> 04:35:49.479
It's actually changing the way you're going to feel not

1641
04:35:49.759 --> 04:35:57.119
just now, but tomorrow and the next day. As your

1642
04:35:57.279 --> 04:36:05.319
health improves, not just your physical health, but your mental health.

1643
04:36:09.279 --> 04:36:14.439
Things that used to bother you in the past, for

1644
04:36:14.639 --> 04:36:20.680
some reason, no longer have the effect that they used

1645
04:36:20.720 --> 04:36:34.959
to because something has changed deep within you. Maybe things

1646
04:36:35.279 --> 04:36:44.959
that used to cause you to feel anger no longer

1647
04:36:45.319 --> 04:36:54.959
have that power to control you the way they seem

1648
04:36:55.119 --> 04:37:03.959
to be able to before. As you realize that you're

1649
04:37:04.119 --> 04:37:16.759
the one who decides what affects you, you're the one

1650
04:37:17.400 --> 04:37:27.840
who decides to feel relaxed and calm when you choose

1651
04:37:31.400 --> 04:37:45.919
to enjoy noticing these natural developments of healing, continuing to

1652
04:37:46.080 --> 04:38:00.520
grow and improve your life day by day, including a course,

1653
04:38:00.560 --> 04:38:13.360
your ability to relax so much easier and sleep in

1654
04:38:17.919 --> 04:38:23.599
it's the most natural thing in the world to you,

1655
04:38:28.119 --> 04:38:35.279
because falling asleep is something that you've done so many

1656
04:38:35.479 --> 04:38:43.279
times in your life, and you know that you were born,

1657
04:38:44.799 --> 04:38:51.400
as we all were, with the ability to fall asleep naturally.

1658
04:38:55.639 --> 04:39:06.319
We were born with that ability the just drift off

1659
04:39:07.080 --> 04:39:20.200
into a deep, healing sleep. Even when we're kids, sometimes

1660
04:39:20.279 --> 04:39:24.720
we'll fall asleep when we don't even want to try

1661
04:39:24.799 --> 04:39:29.040
to take us stay awake. Maybe it's a birthday in

1662
04:39:29.119 --> 04:39:33.279
the morning, or it's Christmas or holiday or something we

1663
04:39:33.400 --> 04:39:35.840
look forward to. We don't want to go to sleep.

1664
04:39:38.119 --> 04:39:43.080
But the more we want to stay awake, the more

1665
04:39:43.319 --> 04:39:51.639
we just start to drift. And the more you fight drifting,

1666
04:39:52.319 --> 04:39:54.680
the more you try to stop yourself and drift in

1667
04:39:54.759 --> 04:40:07.759
a shape, the deeper and stronger that drifting comes. Because

1668
04:40:07.799 --> 04:40:13.240
we're born not just with the need to relax deeply

1669
04:40:14.959 --> 04:40:24.799
and to naturally fall asleep, but it's our birthright, it's

1670
04:40:24.919 --> 04:40:35.400
part of our DNA. And sometimes as we get older

1671
04:40:35.520 --> 04:40:46.919
in life, perhaps at times we have forgotten that relaxing

1672
04:40:48.200 --> 04:41:02.680
completely is not only a wonderfully pleasant experience, it's also

1673
04:41:03.040 --> 04:41:22.520
really easy. It's very very easy to let go, because

1674
04:41:22.560 --> 04:41:31.799
that's all it is. It's just deciding to let go.

1675
04:41:37.000 --> 04:41:43.000
And when you press the play button on my recordings,

1676
04:41:44.840 --> 04:41:52.200
you have given permission for my voice to relax you.

1677
04:41:55.880 --> 04:41:59.400
When you press that play button, you have given me

1678
04:41:59.520 --> 04:42:11.319
permission for my words to affect you in a positive,

1679
04:42:14.720 --> 04:42:33.439
only a positive way, opening up your mind two useful

1680
04:42:35.040 --> 04:42:51.479
and healing suggestions that can have such an amazing effect

1681
04:42:54.319 --> 04:43:05.680
on how you feel right now, as well as those

1682
04:43:06.080 --> 04:43:15.599
changes that continue long after the recording ends, Those changes

1683
04:43:16.439 --> 04:43:30.159
within you to continue to flourish and grow, transforming your

1684
04:43:30.279 --> 04:43:43.159
life in a positive, beautiful way, allowing you to move

1685
04:43:44.479 --> 04:43:49.759
forward in your life in the direction that you choose

1686
04:43:51.319 --> 04:44:07.439
for yourself. And this feeling, this feeling that you can

1687
04:44:07.639 --> 04:44:32.000
experience of safety, comfort, calmness, This feels so nice. It's

1688
04:44:32.200 --> 04:44:46.360
such a healthy place to be, and that positivity grows

1689
04:44:47.639 --> 04:45:04.959
within you each and every day move looking forward, you're

1690
04:45:05.040 --> 04:45:15.880
going to find that you're more relaxed physically and in

1691
04:45:16.000 --> 04:45:24.799
your mind is more relaxed. And it's not that you're

1692
04:45:24.959 --> 04:45:30.680
thinking slower, it's just that your mind will be less

1693
04:45:31.439 --> 04:45:43.040
clogged up with unnecessary negativity, because from now on, your

1694
04:45:43.240 --> 04:45:52.959
mind rejects negativity. From now on, you're going to start

1695
04:45:53.240 --> 04:46:09.560
noticing when negativity arises, and you can just say stop, stop,

1696
04:46:12.400 --> 04:46:19.159
and that negativity will turn around and leave you alone.

1697
04:46:27.159 --> 04:46:46.479
Stop and that negativity will disappear. And as you notice

1698
04:46:46.759 --> 04:46:55.080
that you feel way more relaxed than you probably expected,

1699
04:47:01.240 --> 04:47:10.799
you can now congratulate yourself because you're the person that

1700
04:47:10.959 --> 04:47:17.080
has done this. You are the one that has opened

1701
04:47:17.279 --> 04:47:25.000
your mind up to the simple facts that you can

1702
04:47:25.439 --> 04:47:30.040
feel more relaxed in your body and in your mind.

1703
04:47:36.279 --> 04:47:42.159
You've opened your mind up to the birthright of being

1704
04:47:42.200 --> 04:47:59.080
able to just fall asleep easily when you choose. And

1705
04:47:59.200 --> 04:48:06.159
that's a nice feeling. Don't you think it feels nice?

1706
04:48:06.279 --> 04:48:15.639
Doesn't it? To feel calm? All that healing energy is

1707
04:48:15.759 --> 04:48:26.599
spreading through your body and your mind to spend time

1708
04:48:26.840 --> 04:48:37.639
in a special place where negativity can no longer enter.

1709
04:48:44.080 --> 04:48:53.319
Negativity is banned. It's bad, it's not allowed. Intrigue doesn't,

1710
04:48:53.599 --> 04:48:57.040
it doesn't. This doesn't deserve to be here, It doesn't

1711
04:48:57.240 --> 04:49:15.919
belong here. Negativity has no place in your life, which

1712
04:49:16.080 --> 04:49:30.840
makes room feel more comfort, more heathing, more relaxation, more peace.

1713
04:49:47.799 --> 04:49:59.560
It feels nice, doesn't it. Just let go with everything.

1714
04:50:13.240 --> 04:50:17.560
I'm gonna count down now from twenty down to one.

1715
04:50:21.000 --> 04:50:27.520
You can continue to relax. If you choose, you can

1716
04:50:30.720 --> 04:50:41.159
drift to sleep. With every number you hear me say,

1717
04:50:45.520 --> 04:50:52.840
you can fill twice as relaxed, or if you choose,

1718
04:50:53.040 --> 04:51:44.639
you can fell twice to sleeping now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen,

1719
04:51:52.000 --> 04:53:17.439
fifteen four, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five.

1720
04:53:24.040 --> 04:53:24.319
Four.

1721
04:53:57.720 --> 04:54:07.520
This is your time to just take a break, your

1722
04:54:07.720 --> 04:54:18.400
time to relax, to allow your mind to slow down,

1723
04:54:27.080 --> 04:54:41.159
to give yourself permission to take a break from everything.

1724
04:54:45.880 --> 04:54:50.360
And you're the only person that can make that decision.

1725
04:54:53.240 --> 04:54:55.959
You're the only person that can actually tell your mind

1726
04:55:00.759 --> 04:55:25.000
to just relax, to just take some time off so

1727
04:55:25.200 --> 04:55:30.000
that you can focus on your body, getting in touch

1728
04:55:30.319 --> 04:55:45.000
with how you feel physically, and in the process of

1729
04:55:47.799 --> 04:55:52.560
this body scan where you focus on different parts of

1730
04:55:52.639 --> 04:56:03.439
your body, those parts that you focus on and observe.

1731
04:56:06.400 --> 04:56:14.720
Even though you're not purposely requesting for those parts of

1732
04:56:14.799 --> 04:56:22.319
your body to relax, it's kind of expected. You expect

1733
04:56:23.680 --> 04:56:31.360
when you listen to my voice to feel more relaxed naturally,

1734
04:56:36.880 --> 04:56:45.279
because when you're listening to me, your attention is focused

1735
04:56:47.040 --> 04:56:58.240
on my words, and as my words guide you to

1736
04:56:58.400 --> 04:57:10.759
focus on those parts of your body, your focus increases,

1737
04:57:17.880 --> 04:57:34.240
which actually calms your mind. And when your mind calms down,

1738
04:57:39.119 --> 04:58:01.200
your body relaxes. And when your body calms down, your

1739
04:58:01.360 --> 04:58:18.200
mind relaxes. And even though we've not really started the

1740
04:58:18.360 --> 04:58:31.040
focus on your body, you can already feel that healing

1741
04:58:31.279 --> 04:58:45.759
energy spreading through your body, pushing out stress and tension,

1742
04:58:49.919 --> 04:58:57.200
healing all the parts of your body, including your skin,

1743
04:58:58.360 --> 04:59:05.240
your bones, your blood, all of your organs inside your body,

1744
04:59:06.680 --> 04:59:13.439
all of the muscles, all of the fat, all of everything,

1745
04:59:15.279 --> 04:59:21.479
every hair on your body is filled with that healing energy.

1746
04:59:29.479 --> 04:59:37.200
And when your brain it fills with that healing energy,

1747
04:59:45.200 --> 05:00:09.680
the feeling of comfort and relaxation increases, deeply increases in

1748
05:00:09.840 --> 05:00:23.360
a way that in your mind starts to feel perhaps

1749
05:00:23.599 --> 05:00:36.680
bit drowsy because it's not needed. Then it may start

1750
05:00:40.040 --> 05:00:55.599
to drift if that's what's needed. So if you're listening

1751
05:00:55.840 --> 05:01:01.840
to this and what you need is deep relaxation, that's

1752
05:01:01.880 --> 05:01:02.439
what you get.

1753
05:01:04.639 --> 05:01:06.159
If what you need is.

1754
05:01:07.799 --> 05:01:14.759
To fall asleep naturally and easily as your mind drifts,

1755
05:01:17.319 --> 05:01:31.080
that's also what will happened because by pressing that play

1756
05:01:31.200 --> 05:01:36.599
button on the podcast and listening to me, you give

1757
05:01:36.880 --> 05:01:49.599
permission for your body and your mind. In fact, you

1758
05:01:49.759 --> 05:01:54.240
give the command to your body and your mind to

1759
05:01:54.400 --> 05:02:07.080
relax deeply and to drift off to sleep if that's

1760
05:02:07.439 --> 05:02:09.319
what you want.

1761
05:02:12.479 --> 05:02:12.919
Or need.

1762
05:02:20.639 --> 05:02:26.279
And as I focus on the different parts of your body,

1763
05:02:31.240 --> 05:02:40.040
you may start to just drift. And then you come

1764
05:02:40.159 --> 05:02:45.439
back again and you hear me talking, and I'm focusing

1765
05:02:45.599 --> 05:02:56.400
on a different parts of your body, you may find

1766
05:02:56.560 --> 05:03:05.119
yourself drifting. Be don't you realize you're drifting until you

1767
05:03:05.319 --> 05:03:13.680
stop drifting and you're alert again to my voice focusing

1768
05:03:14.840 --> 05:03:19.599
on a different part of your body starts to relax

1769
05:03:19.840 --> 05:03:32.319
even deeper, because that drifting is basically you already in

1770
05:03:32.439 --> 05:03:42.799
the sleep sign. And the more you drift, the longer

1771
05:03:42.880 --> 05:03:52.680
you drift, and the longer you drift, eventually that drifting

1772
05:03:52.919 --> 05:04:04.759
continues into sleep, and that's the last you remember until

1773
05:04:04.799 --> 05:04:13.799
you wake up in your own time. When you experience

1774
05:04:14.080 --> 05:04:21.720
the right amount of sleep. Fear because when you do

1775
05:04:23.599 --> 05:04:34.599
and if you do fall asleep, it's extremely pleasant, so relaxing,

1776
05:04:37.680 --> 05:04:57.840
so deep, healing sleep. It feels so nice to relax

1777
05:04:58.119 --> 05:05:07.639
into your own body and mind as you feel that

1778
05:05:08.959 --> 05:05:16.000
heating energy is spreading through you, relaxing news so deeply,

1779
05:05:21.599 --> 05:05:39.560
relaxing news, so so deeply. We start to focus on

1780
05:05:39.759 --> 05:06:02.400
your eyes, moving down to your jaw, down to your neck,

1781
05:06:09.919 --> 05:06:58.200
your shoulders, arms, hands, fingers, your chest, the stomach, your back,

1782
05:07:04.720 --> 05:07:41.880
your spine, your hips, your legs, your feet, your chos

1783
05:08:00.240 --> 05:08:13.400
feeding eatings, spreading and growing inside your body, feeling you up.

1784
05:08:16.240 --> 05:08:29.759
Now let's focus again on parts of your body, focusing

1785
05:08:29.919 --> 05:08:40.919
this time on your forehead. Now on your mouth, your lips,

1786
05:08:42.919 --> 05:09:00.680
your tongue, the whole of your mouth. M focus then

1787
05:09:02.000 --> 05:09:11.919
on your fingers. Maybe you could move your fingers a

1788
05:09:11.959 --> 05:09:23.479
little bit. You can focus on each one individually, both

1789
05:09:23.599 --> 05:09:30.520
hands and even though as you focus on both of

1790
05:09:30.599 --> 05:09:36.319
your hands now they almost seem to just mount into

1791
05:09:36.439 --> 05:09:44.240
one where there is your right hand start in your

1792
05:09:45.080 --> 05:10:00.200
left hand end, almost as if just mix together. Now

1793
05:10:00.360 --> 05:10:11.319
focusing on your knees, just noticing how your knees feel.

1794
05:10:28.040 --> 05:10:35.680
Now focusing on your elbows, focusing on both of your elbows,

1795
05:10:41.959 --> 05:11:17.520
just observing the feeling of your elbows. Now focusing obsurving

1796
05:11:19.479 --> 05:11:35.040
back of your neck, feeding the energy on the back

1797
05:11:35.159 --> 05:12:25.639
of your neck, observing your ankles being aware of physical

1798
05:12:26.080 --> 05:13:40.560
sensations in your ankles, noticin now you toes on both

1799
05:13:40.639 --> 05:14:00.919
of your feet, being aware now you TOAs fear right

1800
05:14:01.639 --> 05:14:59.159
now not justice thin high you entire body fails, noticing

1801
05:15:06.400 --> 05:15:58.680
your mind feels now letting go, letting go, letting go everything,

1802
05:16:06.959 --> 05:16:48.680
letting go, letting go, letting go everything, everything. I'm going

1803
05:16:48.720 --> 05:16:52.439
to start now, and I would like you just, first

1804
05:16:52.439 --> 05:16:58.000
of all, just to see yourself lying down on that

1805
05:16:58.159 --> 05:17:04.119
message table, lying on your front. Your head is supported,

1806
05:17:04.520 --> 05:17:13.279
your arms are supported, and you feel comfortable, and breathing

1807
05:17:13.479 --> 05:17:22.880
is really easy, and you feel you feel confident in

1808
05:17:23.000 --> 05:17:25.200
how you look as well. So there's none of that

1809
05:17:25.360 --> 05:17:32.119
issue of body problems or shyness because I'm a professional

1810
05:17:33.279 --> 05:17:39.680
and this is a therapy session, so none of that

1811
05:17:39.799 --> 05:17:50.040
stuff matters whatsoever. This is about you. This is about

1812
05:17:50.439 --> 05:17:58.560
how you feel and how you can enjoy that sense

1813
05:17:58.639 --> 05:18:03.959
of comfort and real life vexation that comes from letting

1814
05:18:04.080 --> 05:18:09.799
go and allowing my hands, that my fingers to relax

1815
05:18:09.919 --> 05:18:20.959
you by a message your body. So I want to

1816
05:18:21.000 --> 05:18:26.119
start off just by placing my hands on the back

1817
05:18:26.159 --> 05:18:30.840
of your head, just gently, just so you can feel

1818
05:18:30.959 --> 05:18:39.400
what my hands feel like really on you. So you

1819
05:18:39.520 --> 05:18:41.720
can maybe feel the warmth of my hands on the

1820
05:18:41.799 --> 05:18:47.560
back of your head. With my hands to the side

1821
05:18:47.599 --> 05:18:52.159
of your head, not pressing, but just holding there very gently,

1822
05:18:55.159 --> 05:18:58.159
maybe over your ears, and a little bit on your face,

1823
05:18:59.400 --> 05:19:04.639
just so you can feel my hands so you can

1824
05:19:04.720 --> 05:19:17.919
become accustomed to them. And now put my hands on

1825
05:19:18.000 --> 05:19:22.240
the back of your head again and gently let them

1826
05:19:22.400 --> 05:19:34.720
slide down onto the back of your neck. You can

1827
05:19:34.799 --> 05:19:44.599
feel my hands gently stroke in the back of your

1828
05:19:44.680 --> 05:19:51.439
neck to start with, just so you can get used

1829
05:19:51.520 --> 05:19:56.439
to the feeling with my hands on your skin, get

1830
05:19:56.479 --> 05:20:04.799
accustomed to it, realize that you're safe and it's all good,

1831
05:20:05.159 --> 05:20:14.680
it's all fine, And I'm going to start gently massaging

1832
05:20:15.479 --> 05:20:32.319
the muscles in the back of your neck with both hands. Now,

1833
05:20:32.400 --> 05:20:38.680
this is a very trusting situation, really, because our necks

1834
05:20:38.720 --> 05:20:43.040
are so fragile and to have someone have their hands

1835
05:20:43.720 --> 05:20:48.720
around your neck in that way can sometimes be problematic

1836
05:20:48.840 --> 05:20:54.400
for people, which is why massages are quite good, because

1837
05:20:54.439 --> 05:21:03.000
it allows you to relax and to get in touch

1838
05:21:03.240 --> 05:21:20.119
with trust, to feel peaceful and calm. And there's a

1839
05:21:20.240 --> 05:21:28.959
massage the sides of your neck, gently moving from the

1840
05:21:29.040 --> 05:21:32.880
bottom of your neck. It would be sort of near

1841
05:21:32.919 --> 05:21:36.200
where your shoulders start, I guess all the way up

1842
05:21:38.279 --> 05:21:43.720
to your jaw, your ears, kind of area that side

1843
05:21:43.759 --> 05:21:48.799
of your neck. Of course it's a lot longer than

1844
05:21:49.159 --> 05:22:05.159
the front of your neck. The message in the back

1845
05:22:05.240 --> 05:22:13.840
of your neck, especially that area where perhaps we hold tension,

1846
05:22:18.119 --> 05:22:22.639
and as that area's message, you can actually feel a

1847
05:22:22.799 --> 05:22:30.759
sense of release in the back of your neck and

1848
05:22:30.919 --> 05:22:36.200
maybe you can breathe it out as well. Notice how

1849
05:22:36.279 --> 05:22:49.520
it feels. Notice how you feel. Then moving down to

1850
05:22:49.680 --> 05:22:55.240
that area between your neck and your shoulders, that muscle area,

1851
05:22:57.959 --> 05:23:05.439
starting to message that area on both sides. I mean,

1852
05:23:05.479 --> 05:23:07.759
this would be the area that a lot of people

1853
05:23:07.799 --> 05:23:10.680
would message if they were going to give you like

1854
05:23:10.799 --> 05:23:16.680
a shoulder message. Even that's not technically the shoulders, but

1855
05:23:16.840 --> 05:23:21.119
it's all the muscles that lead to the shoulders from

1856
05:23:21.159 --> 05:23:27.520
the neck and the game that can hold tension and stress.

1857
05:23:28.759 --> 05:23:33.759
And when massaged sometimes a nice deep message is useful,

1858
05:23:36.880 --> 05:23:52.279
and you decide how deep that message is, and just

1859
05:23:52.479 --> 05:23:59.400
allow my knuckles just to dig in to get to

1860
05:23:59.520 --> 05:24:08.959
those mind muscles and to reading relaxed all the time,

1861
05:24:09.319 --> 05:24:27.159
being firm yet gentle with you, and just stroking down

1862
05:24:27.279 --> 05:24:35.959
the area to your actual shoulders. Moving to the muscles

1863
05:24:36.000 --> 05:24:46.680
of your shoulders and maybe initially just pulling up the

1864
05:24:46.759 --> 05:24:50.520
shoulders a little bit off the table, just to give

1865
05:24:50.560 --> 05:24:54.639
you a little bit of a stretch, but very gently.

1866
05:25:01.080 --> 05:25:03.119
And you've got the muscles at the front of your

1867
05:25:03.200 --> 05:25:15.119
shoulders the sides of the back. Again, this is a

1868
05:25:15.240 --> 05:25:19.360
part that can really take quite a bit of pressure,

1869
05:25:20.799 --> 05:25:28.560
quite a bit of needing if if you wish to

1870
05:25:28.799 --> 05:25:36.279
really release the tension to really get into those muscles,

1871
05:25:36.400 --> 05:25:42.880
and you can let your fingers in there. They can

1872
05:25:42.959 --> 05:25:50.119
feel really nice sometimes just being stroked gently or being

1873
05:25:50.799 --> 05:26:00.680
massaged quite strongly. It can all be beneficial to the

1874
05:26:00.759 --> 05:26:19.400
reorxation with the muscles in your shoulders. Now you move

1875
05:26:19.560 --> 05:26:28.880
down your arms. We do one arm at a time,

1876
05:26:29.799 --> 05:26:40.799
starting with your right arm. Well ideas, I just lift

1877
05:26:40.919 --> 05:26:43.799
your arm up, just hold it to the side of

1878
05:26:43.919 --> 05:26:51.080
it by way it still be attached, and I just

1879
05:26:51.479 --> 05:27:06.000
message the tops of your arms all the way down

1880
05:27:06.200 --> 05:27:30.680
to your forearms into your wrists, gently massaging that parts,

1881
05:27:33.200 --> 05:27:36.840
the softer part which is the underpart of the arm,

1882
05:27:39.959 --> 05:27:43.680
which leads to the crease in your elbow. The inside.

1883
05:27:45.119 --> 05:27:59.439
It's much more sensitive skin sometimes just having that stroked

1884
05:28:02.599 --> 05:28:17.840
and I feel really nice, pleasurable and relaxing. Now moving

1885
05:28:17.959 --> 05:28:31.560
down to your right hand, just holding your hand in

1886
05:28:31.759 --> 05:28:41.560
both of my hands, just pressing gently on the back

1887
05:28:41.639 --> 05:28:49.200
of your hand and stretching your fingers ever so lightly

1888
05:28:52.479 --> 05:28:59.439
at the same time, pressing down and messaging each finger,

1889
05:29:07.439 --> 05:29:11.479
and then starting to massage the palms of the hand.

1890
05:29:18.200 --> 05:29:29.200
Just turning the hand gently, stretching it gently, and actually

1891
05:29:29.319 --> 05:29:35.759
having your hand held can really be an emotional experience

1892
05:29:36.200 --> 05:29:42.200
sometimes even if it is a stranger. So when you

1893
05:29:42.319 --> 05:29:47.840
don't know very well, like a massage person or a therapist,

1894
05:29:48.000 --> 05:30:02.919
maybe because it's intimate and you can feel not you

1895
05:30:03.000 --> 05:30:13.639
can feel safe. And as I put that right arm

1896
05:30:13.840 --> 05:30:21.799
back down where it was, we're gonna do the same

1897
05:30:21.959 --> 05:30:33.520
with your left arm, exactly the same. Massage in the

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05:30:33.680 --> 05:30:39.159
muscles in your arm all the way down, do your rest,

1899
05:30:43.319 --> 05:30:53.119
stroking the inside of your arm, just being gentle or

1900
05:30:53.200 --> 05:31:07.119
as firm as you require, and then massaging your left hand,

1901
05:31:13.680 --> 05:31:23.720
stretching the fingers gently, massaging the palm of your left hand.

1902
05:31:35.799 --> 05:32:04.439
You feel so so relaxing, so comforting, and just rest

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05:32:04.599 --> 05:32:17.000
your left down, back down, start to massage your back,

1904
05:32:18.759 --> 05:32:26.759
the biggest part of your body, starting at the top,

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05:32:30.000 --> 05:32:33.959
starting again where we already be dean, the area at

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05:32:34.000 --> 05:32:40.439
the top in between your shoulders, near your neck, going

1907
05:32:40.560 --> 05:32:45.200
back a message in that area again, but this time

1908
05:32:45.599 --> 05:32:58.599
moving downwards, taking a downward stroke to the middle of

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05:32:58.680 --> 05:33:07.040
your back, working from the outside inwards. Massage in the

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05:33:09.360 --> 05:33:18.959
your back, but the outsides of your back, the parts

1911
05:33:21.639 --> 05:33:34.479
where your arms would maybe rest against, almost the part

1912
05:33:34.599 --> 05:33:47.959
that connects your front to your back. Just massaging down

1913
05:33:50.200 --> 05:33:59.479
firmly but gently, as firm as you want. Moving down,

1914
05:33:59.639 --> 05:34:03.080
and we're going to cross a little bed and moving

1915
05:34:03.119 --> 05:34:09.159
all the way down again, being very gentle yet firm

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05:34:09.400 --> 05:34:21.000
as you choose. Eventually you get to the spine. We

1917
05:34:21.119 --> 05:34:25.200
can message the muscles and either side of your spine

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05:34:26.080 --> 05:34:29.080
from the top of your neck all the way down

1919
05:34:31.919 --> 05:34:40.840
to your lower back. We can do that a few times.

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Sometimes people use the knuckle or the you know, two

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05:34:51.439 --> 05:34:57.279
fingers and just go your side of the spine. Almost

1922
05:34:57.680 --> 05:35:01.080
just push down, go all way down to the bottom

1923
05:35:01.119 --> 05:35:09.599
of the spine, each time releasing tension and opening up

1924
05:35:10.240 --> 05:35:19.479
the body, stretching your body so that you feel more

1925
05:35:19.599 --> 05:35:36.959
relaxed but at the same time rejuvenated. And now I'm

1926
05:35:37.000 --> 05:35:40.639
going to move to one side, to your right side,

1927
05:35:45.479 --> 05:35:50.040
and from the bottom of your ribs to your pelvis.

1928
05:35:51.080 --> 05:35:57.319
I'm going to message that area of your back. I'll

1929
05:35:57.360 --> 05:36:00.479
just stretch over the other side and I'll pull the

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05:36:00.599 --> 05:36:07.400
muscles gently and massage and push from one end that

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05:36:07.639 --> 05:36:12.040
side or way to my side to the middle of

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05:36:12.159 --> 05:36:17.799
fact to where your spine is. Massaging that side of

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05:36:17.880 --> 05:36:24.680
your spine the opposite side to where I'm standing. It's

1934
05:36:24.720 --> 05:36:30.639
almost like kneading bread. There's that big area which is

1935
05:36:32.200 --> 05:36:42.439
firm yet lots there to message. Potentially one of the

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05:36:42.520 --> 05:36:49.159
most important places to actually have a message because you

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05:36:49.520 --> 05:36:55.680
really feel it, really feel the release and the pleasure

1938
05:36:57.000 --> 05:37:04.240
of having your lower back massaged. It releases so much

1939
05:37:04.759 --> 05:37:13.159
from your body that's not useful, starting a healing process

1940
05:37:14.799 --> 05:37:27.560
which will continue long after this recording is over. A

1941
05:37:27.759 --> 05:37:30.840
message in this part of your body not only feels

1942
05:37:31.000 --> 05:37:37.040
really good for you, it's actually fun to do because

1943
05:37:37.080 --> 05:37:42.479
it is, as I said, like kneading bread. It's a

1944
05:37:42.599 --> 05:37:46.759
part that you can really get hold of and really

1945
05:37:46.959 --> 05:38:00.680
message deeply. If that's your choice, then and move over

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05:38:00.799 --> 05:38:03.080
to the other side of your body and do the

1947
05:38:03.240 --> 05:38:15.040
same with the opposite part of your lawer back. Kneading

1948
05:38:15.279 --> 05:38:23.759
and messaging from your sides or way to the middle

1949
05:38:23.799 --> 05:38:32.159
of your back where your spine is pressing and kneading,

1950
05:38:37.400 --> 05:38:42.799
firm and gentle at the same time. It feels so

1951
05:38:43.560 --> 05:38:56.720
releasing this mixture of pleasure, comfort, release, calmness, relaxation or

1952
05:38:56.880 --> 05:39:07.240
mixed together. Plus there's that feeling from your stomach as

1953
05:39:07.279 --> 05:39:12.080
it's being stretched. Even though you're in your stomach now,

1954
05:39:12.680 --> 05:39:16.479
you can feel it being stretched because that whole area

1955
05:39:16.639 --> 05:39:27.680
is connected to your stomach. Now we're going to move

1956
05:39:28.000 --> 05:39:32.759
or move further up to your top of your body,

1957
05:39:33.400 --> 05:39:39.959
and I we did the same this time, starting with

1958
05:39:41.119 --> 05:39:46.720
your upper back. Put my hands forward over and massive

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05:39:46.840 --> 05:39:53.840
massage in that area up to your spine, from the

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05:39:54.000 --> 05:39:58.159
side of your body up to your spine. So some

1961
05:39:58.319 --> 05:40:05.000
of that message area, the muscle tissue or whatever fatty

1962
05:40:05.080 --> 05:40:10.520
tissue even will be possibly from your chest because all

1963
05:40:10.599 --> 05:40:17.560
connected the chest and the back connect together. I'm going

1964
05:40:17.599 --> 05:40:21.200
to be massaging and just pulling some of that skin

1965
05:40:22.479 --> 05:40:31.840
from your side up and massaging that area of your

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05:40:31.919 --> 05:40:40.400
upper back all the way to your spine. And then

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I'll move down a bit and I'll continue with the

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05:40:43.279 --> 05:40:50.040
middle of your back doing exactly the same thing as

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05:40:50.240 --> 05:41:03.680
gentle or as deep as you choose. Now I'll move

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05:41:03.840 --> 05:41:08.000
or the other side again and do the exact same

1971
05:41:08.200 --> 05:41:12.159
thing with the top of your back on the other side,

1972
05:41:13.240 --> 05:41:27.279
from pretty much underneath your arm area really to your spine,

1973
05:41:32.439 --> 05:41:39.000
and then continue in that all the way down, including

1974
05:41:39.159 --> 05:41:56.159
the lower your middle of your back. I'm gonna go

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05:41:56.599 --> 05:42:02.680
to your thighs, the backs of your thigh, yes, and

1976
05:42:02.799 --> 05:42:10.040
the sides of your thighs, starting with your right leg.

1977
05:42:12.360 --> 05:42:19.720
Massage in the back and the sides of your thighs

1978
05:42:22.200 --> 05:42:28.599
gently and firmly. There's a lot of muscles there. It's

1979
05:42:28.639 --> 05:42:31.919
an area that can be very tense at times and

1980
05:42:32.119 --> 05:42:35.479
maybe needs a little bit more pressure than the rest

1981
05:42:35.520 --> 05:42:43.680
of the body that's up to you. You can gently

1982
05:42:43.840 --> 05:42:51.119
stroke the back of your legs where you know, opposite

1983
05:42:51.200 --> 05:42:56.720
your knee joint or underneath your knee joint, very sensitive,

1984
05:42:57.000 --> 05:43:09.599
gentle area. And then working down to your calf muscles.

1985
05:43:12.520 --> 05:43:18.880
Massage in your calf muscles thoroughly and deeply, if you choose,

1986
05:43:22.400 --> 05:43:39.279
using both hands and fingers, digging deep to your ankles,

1987
05:43:41.560 --> 05:43:47.200
in the back of your back of your ankles, just

1988
05:43:47.520 --> 05:43:59.119
gently massage in that area, maybe lifting the leg and

1989
05:44:00.040 --> 05:44:14.479
stretching in a little bit. Moving to the right foot,

1990
05:44:22.479 --> 05:44:32.200
massage in the bottom of your feet and the size

1991
05:44:32.319 --> 05:44:43.720
of your feet, gently but firm enough so they don't tickle,

1992
05:44:49.279 --> 05:44:54.720
and just allow the pleasure that you get from having

1993
05:44:54.799 --> 05:45:04.200
your feet message to just overtake you. As I continue

1994
05:45:04.319 --> 05:45:10.919
to message your feet, the bottoms of your feet, the sides,

1995
05:45:13.560 --> 05:45:19.279
your arches, your heel. You can put a lot of

1996
05:45:19.360 --> 05:45:25.200
pressure into your heel and it feels amazing, Yet the

1997
05:45:25.439 --> 05:45:33.520
arches need to be a bit more gentle. Stretching your

1998
05:45:33.639 --> 05:45:40.080
toes gently the message in the bottoms of your toes

1999
05:45:40.840 --> 05:45:56.119
with my fingers, each one individually. Moving over to the

2000
05:45:56.279 --> 05:46:05.680
left leg to do exactly the same thing, starting at

2001
05:46:05.720 --> 05:46:10.159
the top of the thighs, work in the back of

2002
05:46:10.240 --> 05:46:17.799
the thighs and the sides, massaging deeply and gently the

2003
05:46:17.959 --> 05:46:32.000
whole area, working all the way down. And this is

2004
05:46:32.080 --> 05:46:38.200
an area that maybe you could like to spend more

2005
05:46:38.319 --> 05:46:46.959
time relaxing and messaging. So perhaps if you wanted like

2006
05:46:47.040 --> 05:46:52.319
a bigger future recording, want's spend more time on one

2007
05:46:52.439 --> 05:47:04.319
particular area. As you moved down to your calf muscles,

2008
05:47:10.279 --> 05:47:23.680
Massage in your calf muscles firmly and gently, move down

2009
05:47:26.000 --> 05:47:32.240
your ain, cool into your feet, Massage in the backs

2010
05:47:32.319 --> 05:47:42.880
of your feet, bottoms of your feet, stretching your toes

2011
05:47:43.240 --> 05:47:49.520
and massage in each tone individually. And the feeling of

2012
05:47:49.720 --> 05:47:55.599
pleasure and release that you experience when you're having your

2013
05:47:55.720 --> 05:48:16.919
feet massaged feels really any good. Now, just turn over

2014
05:48:17.159 --> 05:48:28.200
in your mind, laying on your back, I'm just gonna

2015
05:48:28.200 --> 05:48:45.279
start again for your neck area, in your shoulders, just

2016
05:48:45.439 --> 05:48:55.959
to get back in touch with that area and lets

2017
05:48:56.000 --> 05:49:07.639
you move up. I can clean my hands, make them

2018
05:49:07.680 --> 05:49:13.319
more fresh, because now I'm gonna message your face gently,

2019
05:49:17.720 --> 05:49:27.799
starting off with your forehead. Your eyes are closed and

2020
05:49:28.919 --> 05:49:34.720
I can just stretch your eyes a little bit, pushing

2021
05:49:34.880 --> 05:49:51.720
up on your eyebrows, just massaging around, just scalp, massaging

2022
05:49:51.959 --> 05:50:07.200
down your cheeks, around your ears, your jaw gently, the

2023
05:50:07.400 --> 05:50:25.119
side of your neck chin mm hmm. Then just moving

2024
05:50:25.319 --> 05:50:36.479
down shall your neck down to your chest, starting by

2025
05:50:36.639 --> 05:50:43.759
massage in the very top of your chest where the

2026
05:50:43.880 --> 05:50:57.720
collar bone is, either side of the collarbone. Then just

2027
05:50:58.119 --> 05:51:11.119
message in the hole of the chest, moving the chest around,

2028
05:51:19.919 --> 05:51:24.680
because it's quite a large area. You can move from

2029
05:51:24.720 --> 05:51:35.840
one side to the next, moving my hands underneath pretty

2030
05:51:35.919 --> 05:51:45.479
much where your arms are stretching up, stretching some of

2031
05:51:45.560 --> 05:51:53.560
the muscles of your back in the process, moving up

2032
05:51:54.720 --> 05:52:14.479
over your chest and they're moving down again, and then

2033
05:52:14.560 --> 05:52:20.439
allowing my hands to just massage gently and slide down

2034
05:52:21.720 --> 05:52:26.639
towards your stomach, starting in the middle of your chest,

2035
05:52:30.080 --> 05:52:36.759
and then gradually my hands moving apart and massage in

2036
05:52:36.919 --> 05:52:46.000
and slide in at the same time, moving down to

2037
05:52:46.200 --> 05:53:01.880
just below your rib cage, moving down the messaging up again,

2038
05:53:04.680 --> 05:53:12.560
giving your chest all the attention that it needs to

2039
05:53:12.759 --> 05:53:25.000
feel completely relaxed, remembering them. I'm also going to be

2040
05:53:25.080 --> 05:53:31.119
focusing on your sides as well, an area that really

2041
05:53:31.400 --> 05:53:38.959
doesn't get much attention but feels really good when it's massaged,

2042
05:53:43.880 --> 05:53:47.880
just stroking my hands down the sides of your body,

2043
05:53:51.680 --> 05:53:55.119
just below your arms, all the way down to your hips.

2044
05:54:04.759 --> 05:54:10.599
Now move into your stomach area. We're going to stand

2045
05:54:10.759 --> 05:54:13.400
one side of you. Like I did when I did

2046
05:54:13.479 --> 05:54:18.680
your lower back. We need to do a similar process

2047
05:54:19.720 --> 05:54:30.400
of just stretching the muscles from the side, gently massaging

2048
05:54:34.599 --> 05:54:38.919
from one side to the next, move in.

2049
05:54:41.479 --> 05:54:45.680
A whole area from below your ribs all the way

2050
05:54:45.759 --> 05:54:56.639
down to below your belly button, and then move around

2051
05:54:56.720 --> 05:54:59.360
to the other side of you and repeat that.

2052
05:55:05.959 --> 05:55:19.520
Process of relaxing deeply, calmly. You feel loose, You feel

2053
05:55:19.680 --> 05:55:26.639
free and It's something about having your stomach massage that's

2054
05:55:26.720 --> 05:55:33.360
different from any other part because we do have a

2055
05:55:33.479 --> 05:55:37.959
tendency of holding a different kind of stress in our

2056
05:55:38.000 --> 05:55:47.439
stomach that we may not be aware of. As I

2057
05:55:47.560 --> 05:55:55.159
now massage your stomach in front of your stomach, making

2058
05:55:55.479 --> 05:56:06.080
circles around your belly button, and then going the other

2059
05:56:06.200 --> 05:56:16.360
way around, there's a gentleness and a freedom that comes

2060
05:56:18.240 --> 05:56:28.119
from feeling how you're feeling. As I now move down

2061
05:56:29.520 --> 05:56:36.520
the tops of your thighs, the muscles massaging them, and

2062
05:56:36.639 --> 05:56:39.880
I can do this two legs at the same time,

2063
05:56:42.080 --> 05:56:51.400
pressing down, massaging deeply those muscles in your thighs, the

2064
05:56:51.560 --> 05:57:00.000
front of your thighs, and moving down to your knee,

2065
05:57:01.200 --> 05:57:13.880
gently massaging your knees, Sliding down your shins, putting pressure

2066
05:57:13.919 --> 05:57:21.680
on either side of your shin gently softly but firmly,

2067
05:57:25.840 --> 05:57:35.520
moving down to your ankles, stroking the tops of your feet,

2068
05:57:41.720 --> 05:57:47.119
and then with each foot in each hand, just gently

2069
05:57:47.319 --> 05:57:55.639
messaging the whole of the foot, the top, the bottom,

2070
05:57:56.439 --> 05:58:04.439
your heel, your ankle, your toes, message in every part

2071
05:58:04.680 --> 05:58:14.599
of your feet. Feels so good. Just let go and

2072
05:58:14.840 --> 05:58:38.919
enjoy the process. Enjoy feeling so deeply relaxed, so much

2073
05:58:39.119 --> 05:58:46.159
comfort and so many feelings that come just from touching

2074
05:58:46.319 --> 05:59:03.200
your skin. And you can just lie there as long

2075
05:59:03.400 --> 05:59:15.799
as you choose enjoying the feeling of deep comfort and

2076
05:59:16.000 --> 05:59:47.959
being massaged by me. Enjoy feeling deeply light. And all

2077
05:59:47.959 --> 05:59:57.319
we're gonna do is blow out some candles. In your mind,

2078
06:00:08.919 --> 06:00:19.200
there are going to be a hundred candles, and you're

2079
06:00:19.200 --> 06:00:25.520
going to blow each one out individually, one by one,

2080
06:00:28.159 --> 06:00:37.840
starting at one hundred. As I count down all the

2081
06:00:37.880 --> 06:00:45.720
way down to one, and each time I say a number,

2082
06:00:51.200 --> 06:00:58.040
you can imagine that candle in front of you, and

2083
06:00:58.080 --> 06:01:11.040
I'd like you to actually visit gently blow that candle out, yeah,

2084
06:01:14.200 --> 06:01:22.759
just so it's not big blows, just a gentle m

2085
06:01:26.319 --> 06:01:35.759
and that candle will extinguish. And then I'll say the

2086
06:01:35.919 --> 06:01:43.040
next number as we move down, and you can just

2087
06:01:44.680 --> 06:01:55.319
h blow that one out as well. And as we

2088
06:01:55.560 --> 06:02:05.880
move down the numbers, you'll find yourself feeling more and

2089
06:02:06.119 --> 06:02:15.000
more relaxed. If you need to sleep, you also find

2090
06:02:15.080 --> 06:02:26.639
yourself becoming incredibly tired and sleepy. In fact, you may

2091
06:02:28.319 --> 06:02:37.439
struggle to blow out all one hundred of these candles.

2092
06:02:44.439 --> 06:03:02.840
As you feel more and more deeply relaxed, more more

2093
06:03:06.919 --> 06:03:22.680
deep tired, and the further you go down, the more

2094
06:03:24.360 --> 06:03:36.560
your mind starts to drift. You may find that you

2095
06:03:37.880 --> 06:03:51.360
stop listening to me after a while. And even though

2096
06:03:51.479 --> 06:04:00.680
there maybe background sounds where you are, be aware of

2097
06:04:00.799 --> 06:04:16.319
those sounds at the moment, be may start to just

2098
06:04:19.959 --> 06:04:39.319
not even notice them at all, because they're unimportant. Where

2099
06:04:39.439 --> 06:04:47.000
I am, I've got the sounds of the birds. There's horrors,

2100
06:04:47.159 --> 06:04:55.200
the pigeon who likes to say hello. Sometimes there's the

2101
06:04:55.240 --> 06:05:06.639
odd plane that goes by, traffic and trains in the distance,

2102
06:05:12.919 --> 06:05:24.959
but none of that seems important whatsoever. More candles you

2103
06:05:25.119 --> 06:05:40.240
blow out less important. Anything is. More candles you blow out,

2104
06:05:44.439 --> 06:05:57.680
the further you seem to move away from sounds and

2105
06:06:00.240 --> 06:06:12.599
from general date days, stuff seems to just move away

2106
06:06:15.159 --> 06:06:31.279
on its own. You feel more calmer with every candle

2107
06:06:31.479 --> 06:06:50.880
you blow out, h guiding you the next number, do

2108
06:06:51.080 --> 06:07:00.400
you hear me say? And then you blow bload that

2109
06:07:00.720 --> 06:07:28.159
candle out to so easy, so simple. We're gonna start

2110
06:07:28.680 --> 06:07:47.560
by introducing the first candle, which is a hundred. First candle,

2111
06:07:51.040 --> 06:08:00.919
this is one hundred. When you blow that candle out,

2112
06:08:07.720 --> 06:08:20.400
you'll find immediately a slight change in how you feel,

2113
06:08:25.560 --> 06:08:33.799
as well as a real sense of positivity growing within you,

2114
06:08:39.880 --> 06:09:09.919
relaxation and sleepiness expanding. Starting with one hundred flow out

2115
06:09:10.040 --> 06:10:20.479
that candle now ninety nine, candle ninety eight, can ninety seven,

2116
06:10:42.959 --> 06:11:50.599
cam with ninety six, ten, ninety five and ninety four,

2117
06:12:15.400 --> 06:13:43.200
candle ninety three, hand ninety two and ninety one, ten

2118
06:13:43.400 --> 06:15:16.680
to ninety, eighty nine and fifty eight and.

2119
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Eighties can do eighty eight, five.

2120
06:17:45.720 --> 06:21:27.119
Two four, fenn eighty two and two one can seventy nine,

2121
06:21:40.240 --> 06:22:19.520
can do seventy eight, can do seventy seven, candle seventy six,

2122
06:22:33.439 --> 06:23:32.959
candle seventy five, candle seventy four, candle seventy three, candle

2123
06:23:38.159 --> 06:24:35.400
seventy two, candle seventy one can do seventy one and

2124
06:24:39.639 --> 06:25:34.080
seventy and sixty nine candle sixty eight, candle sixty seven,

2125
06:25:47.799 --> 06:26:52.560
candle sixty five, candle sixty four, candle sixty four, candle

2126
06:26:53.200 --> 06:28:25.639
sixty three, candle sixty and sixty one, candle sixty and

2127
06:28:32.880 --> 06:29:44.000
fifty nine and fifty eight candle fifty seven, candle fifty six,

2128
06:30:12.720 --> 06:31:28.360
candle fifty five, candle fifty four, handle fifty three, hando

2129
06:31:31.400 --> 06:33:12.759
fifty two, cando fifty two two ft, candle fifty one

2130
06:33:32.919 --> 06:35:27.159
candle fifty candle, foty nine candle forty eight, candle forty seven,

2131
06:35:56.479 --> 06:37:48.200
candle forty six, candle forty five, handle forty two candle

2132
06:37:52.639 --> 06:39:51.720
for you one candle fourty candle thirty nine, can do

2133
06:39:55.240 --> 06:42:00.279
thirty eight ten two thirty seven, Canto thirty five, two

2134
06:42:05.159 --> 06:44:10.919
thirty four, pando thirty three, hand thirty one, candle thirty

2135
06:45:27.119 --> 06:47:15.400
and twoin teen nine and twenty paints and twenty seven

2136
06:47:48.400 --> 06:49:30.319
candle twenty six, can twenty five and ten ti f

2137
06:50:04.639 --> 06:51:28.919
endle twenty three and twenty two too it to want

2138
06:52:03.680 --> 06:55:59.599
and to wity m and ninety candle seventeen, candle xtet, chancel, foote.

2139
06:57:15.599 --> 06:57:21.319
And well.

2140
06:58:18.159 --> 07:02:50.439
Ten eleven tends, shame nineham to eight, shamdo six M

2141
07:03:41.400 --> 07:05:35.400
four and doy two two.

2142
07:06:25.959 --> 07:06:26.319
Canned.

2143
07:06:33.479 --> 07:06:46.040
Or let go of all of those thoughts, worries, concerns

2144
07:06:46.279 --> 07:06:53.040
about the past, thoughts about the future, and even things

2145
07:06:53.080 --> 07:06:57.240
you've been thinking about today. Just let it all go

2146
07:07:00.720 --> 07:07:08.360
because none of it is useful in this moment. This

2147
07:07:08.639 --> 07:07:28.520
is your opportunity to just focus on feeling relaxed, allowing

2148
07:07:28.599 --> 07:07:36.560
yourself to get in touch with that natural sense of

2149
07:07:36.799 --> 07:07:45.400
peace that we all have within us. It's available for everyone.

2150
07:07:46.560 --> 07:07:51.479
It just sometimes takes a little bit of effort to

2151
07:07:51.639 --> 07:07:57.680
set up the right time and place in order for

2152
07:07:57.799 --> 07:08:04.720
you to just let go. Because when you do decide

2153
07:08:07.119 --> 07:08:12.439
to let go and relax, that's what your body starts

2154
07:08:12.520 --> 07:08:22.759
to do because you've chosen, You've chosen to just allow

2155
07:08:22.919 --> 07:08:28.759
your body to unwind and your mind starts to slow down.

2156
07:08:32.080 --> 07:08:36.520
And it's a nice feeling. It's a nice feeling at

2157
07:08:36.520 --> 07:08:42.439
the beginning, just to know that you have chosen to

2158
07:08:42.599 --> 07:08:51.680
decide to relax deeply, and because you've made that decision,

2159
07:08:53.479 --> 07:09:00.520
your body will just follow suit. Because sometimes all the

2160
07:09:00.680 --> 07:09:05.400
muscles in your body need is just permission from you

2161
07:09:06.479 --> 07:09:14.919
to relax. Because so often we're busy, we're going from

2162
07:09:15.040 --> 07:09:19.000
here to there, we're walking around and we're doing stuff,

2163
07:09:21.319 --> 07:09:27.680
and the body doesn't have any time or space to

2164
07:09:27.880 --> 07:09:34.840
really relax deeply. So it kind of waits for you

2165
07:09:35.159 --> 07:09:44.279
to lead the way, waits for your permission. And when

2166
07:09:44.360 --> 07:09:50.919
you do give your permission, when you give the say

2167
07:09:51.040 --> 07:09:57.400
so we need, say okay, it's time for your body

2168
07:09:59.080 --> 07:10:06.919
to let go, come completely and relax totally, your body

2169
07:10:07.119 --> 07:10:16.119
just follows. It's like a breath of relief. Ah, good,

2170
07:10:16.200 --> 07:10:23.119
I can now relax. That feeling at the end of

2171
07:10:23.200 --> 07:10:26.439
a day, of a very physical day that you may

2172
07:10:26.520 --> 07:10:30.360
experience in the past, but you get home and you

2173
07:10:30.560 --> 07:10:34.279
just sit down on a chair, maybe you kick your

2174
07:10:34.400 --> 07:10:40.520
shoes off and not ah, feels so nice knowing that

2175
07:10:40.599 --> 07:10:44.639
you don't have to get up again for a little

2176
07:10:44.680 --> 07:10:48.319
while at least if you choose, you can just sit

2177
07:10:48.479 --> 07:11:01.000
there for maybe an hour to It feels blissful. And

2178
07:11:01.319 --> 07:11:06.279
just by sitting down like that, your body knows that

2179
07:11:06.400 --> 07:11:11.840
it's time to relax. Your body has been given permission

2180
07:11:12.080 --> 07:11:21.759
from you. Because it's a mindset in your mind. You're

2181
07:11:21.840 --> 07:11:33.599
prepared to let go of everything and just completely allow

2182
07:11:34.000 --> 07:11:42.959
all the stress of your body to evaporate, and intentions

2183
07:11:43.279 --> 07:12:02.119
can just gradually vanish. It's almost like magic, really, because

2184
07:12:02.520 --> 07:12:09.000
that sense of relaxation in your body is a very

2185
07:12:09.159 --> 07:12:15.959
natural state. It's not something unusual. It may feel unusual

2186
07:12:16.279 --> 07:12:19.159
when you first start to relax with you, if you

2187
07:12:19.240 --> 07:12:24.479
haven't really spent a lot of time focusing and giving

2188
07:12:24.560 --> 07:12:29.799
yourself this space to let go completely and relax. They

2189
07:12:29.959 --> 07:12:37.720
seem are most alien, but it isn't. It's actually the

2190
07:12:37.880 --> 07:12:42.840
most natural thing in the world to let go completely,

2191
07:12:44.560 --> 07:12:52.360
to relax totally, the most natural thing in the world

2192
07:12:55.000 --> 07:13:05.080
to allow yourself to feel really calm in your mind,

2193
07:13:07.680 --> 07:13:15.360
and it is almost like a literal unwinding. It's like

2194
07:13:15.520 --> 07:13:23.080
you press a button and all the tension just releases,

2195
07:13:24.479 --> 07:13:27.880
and it's like a wheel, like a cog, like the

2196
07:13:27.959 --> 07:13:31.880
inside of a clock, just unwinding. And he's almost like

2197
07:13:32.040 --> 07:13:37.119
you could see the little wind up knob that's used

2198
07:13:38.040 --> 07:13:42.040
just going the opposite way that you choose to wind

2199
07:13:42.119 --> 07:13:50.639
it up, and the energy that fremetic stress for energy

2200
07:13:52.159 --> 07:14:02.439
gradually winding down, losing its power, losing its strength as

2201
07:14:02.520 --> 07:14:11.919
a sense of relaxation becomes stronger and deeper, and you

2202
07:14:12.119 --> 07:14:20.240
may find a the more relaxed you feel, that your

2203
07:14:20.439 --> 07:14:30.400
mind starts to wonder, maybe just seem to stop listening

2204
07:14:30.479 --> 07:14:35.080
to me for a while, and your mind goes somewhere else,

2205
07:14:36.520 --> 07:14:42.360
and then you realize you're listening to me again, and

2206
07:14:42.479 --> 07:14:49.119
that is just your mind drifting to sleep, which is

2207
07:14:49.279 --> 07:15:00.439
quite natural, because sometimes when we're stressed and tense, we're

2208
07:15:00.520 --> 07:15:04.119
not may not actually be aware of what we need,

2209
07:15:05.279 --> 07:15:13.720
what we physically or emotionally need in this moment. But

2210
07:15:13.880 --> 07:15:20.119
when you allow your body and mind to relax completely

2211
07:15:21.880 --> 07:15:29.080
and you let go of all thoughts, concerns, worries, ideas,

2212
07:15:30.599 --> 07:15:35.119
all letting them go, allowing them to drop onto the floor.

2213
07:15:40.639 --> 07:15:46.599
You start to get in touch with the feelings of

2214
07:15:48.479 --> 07:15:58.880
such relaxation. This feels so nice to be in touch

2215
07:15:59.279 --> 07:16:05.560
with the calmness of the different body parts as they

2216
07:16:08.360 --> 07:16:21.799
become looser and looser. Even your breathing seems easier and

2217
07:16:22.000 --> 07:16:31.119
more natural effortless, as that cool there enters through your

2218
07:16:31.279 --> 07:16:41.639
mouth or nose into your lungs, breathing in comforts and relaxation,

2219
07:16:44.240 --> 07:16:50.159
and then just breathing out any excess remain intention or

2220
07:16:50.360 --> 07:17:00.840
stress from every part of your body and might. And

2221
07:17:00.959 --> 07:17:05.959
as you start to focus on your mind, maybe you

2222
07:17:06.279 --> 07:17:14.360
notice that things come to a standstill or maybe just

2223
07:17:15.080 --> 07:17:23.119
much much lower than before, because your mind is not

2224
07:17:23.520 --> 07:17:34.159
really needed when listening to my voice, which allows your

2225
07:17:34.279 --> 07:17:42.720
mind to relax just as deeply as your body. And

2226
07:17:42.880 --> 07:17:55.680
that's synchronicity between the relaxation of your body relaxation of

2227
07:17:55.880 --> 07:17:56.439
your mind.

2228
07:17:58.799 --> 07:18:00.159
Let you know that.

2229
07:18:02.200 --> 07:18:14.639
Feeling completely calm, loose, and relaxed really is a great

2230
07:18:15.599 --> 07:18:19.759
healing experience fear.

2231
07:18:22.000 --> 07:18:22.720
And has.

2232
07:18:27.040 --> 07:18:35.479
So many positive benefits for your body, mind, and your life.

2233
07:18:38.119 --> 07:18:44.720
To be able to let go everything and to relax

2234
07:18:46.000 --> 07:18:56.919
completely in all parts of your body and mind. Even

2235
07:18:57.040 --> 07:19:12.360
your bones has araxed, All your muscles are rix, even

2236
07:19:12.639 --> 07:19:26.159
the skin that covers your body is relaxed. Every hair

2237
07:19:29.279 --> 07:19:43.599
that you have is also deeply relaxed, and your brain

2238
07:19:47.439 --> 07:19:56.720
really starts to feel the benefits but this healing relaxation.

2239
07:20:01.959 --> 07:20:07.360
And then as you focus on the inside of your

2240
07:20:07.479 --> 07:20:13.880
scalp where your brain is, you can start to realize

2241
07:20:14.200 --> 07:20:27.319
and notice the benefits of your brain relaxing deeply. Then,

2242
07:20:27.400 --> 07:20:38.840
as your brain continues to relax sends those messages to

2243
07:20:39.639 --> 07:20:46.959
the rest of your body and your mind to re

2244
07:20:48.000 --> 07:21:09.360
wax e more deeply, relax in the more completely, letting

2245
07:21:09.560 --> 07:21:21.319
go of any remaining thoughts or concerns, allow them just

2246
07:21:21.560 --> 07:21:28.080
to drop onto the floor because they're no longer necessary

2247
07:21:29.360 --> 07:21:41.200
in this moment, In this moment of deep relaxation and calmness,

2248
07:21:43.520 --> 07:22:10.159
filling your brain with deep, concentrated healing, calming, relaxing, every

2249
07:22:10.840 --> 07:22:28.000
part of your brain feeling so loose and comfortable, so

2250
07:22:29.240 --> 07:22:44.639
relaxed and peaceful. Your brain feels so light, that's so healthy.

2251
07:22:47.680 --> 07:22:57.720
In that sense of deep deep comfort really does allow

2252
07:22:58.000 --> 07:23:13.240
you to enjoy those ever increasing sensations of comfort that

2253
07:23:13.400 --> 07:23:26.759
are spreading throughout your body, relaxing each and every muscle

2254
07:23:26.919 --> 07:23:28.080
of your body.

2255
07:23:30.159 --> 07:23:30.720
Eat.

2256
07:23:32.279 --> 07:23:51.520
Deeper and deeper, much more deeper than before, much more

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07:23:53.560 --> 07:24:11.520
comfort spreading through your body, your mind be so peaceful, calm,

2258
07:24:14.360 --> 07:24:28.840
so very fairy, peaceful in avery part of your body.

2259
07:24:30.520 --> 07:24:46.560
Letting go. M h A everything as everything, so peaceful, calm,

2260
07:24:49.959 --> 07:25:11.040
so relax A very second the passes you feel deeper, deeper,

2261
07:25:13.200 --> 07:25:38.520
relax deeper and deeper, relax come so calm, peace for

2262
07:25:41.360 --> 07:25:50.639
so very peace, from your head down to your ties.

2263
07:25:53.759 --> 07:26:06.159
Such peace and comfort through in all the time, Such

2264
07:26:06.880 --> 07:26:21.840
peace and comfort spreading through your body and mind deeper deeper,

2265
07:26:24.759 --> 07:26:38.880
Such comfort spreading and sinking deeper into a muscle your body,

2266
07:26:42.520 --> 07:27:07.520
so that you feel amazing, so relaxed, so peaceful, so peaceful,

2267
07:27:10.720 --> 07:27:25.000
letting go. You're going to do a body scan, focusing

2268
07:27:25.599 --> 07:27:31.279
on firstly how you feel in your body, not trying

2269
07:27:31.319 --> 07:27:37.680
to change how you feel, not trying to relax, not

2270
07:27:37.880 --> 07:27:43.479
trying to move away from any discomfort or stress or tension.

2271
07:27:44.759 --> 07:27:51.439
Just accepting, observing and accepting how you feel in the

2272
07:27:51.520 --> 07:27:57.840
different parts of your body, Just allowing yourself to be

2273
07:27:58.119 --> 07:28:05.639
exactly as you are, to notice to get in touch

2274
07:28:10.200 --> 07:28:17.479
with how you actually feel in this moment, I'm going

2275
07:28:17.560 --> 07:28:28.560
to start off by focusing on your hands. Just be

2276
07:28:28.680 --> 07:28:36.680
aware of your hands. I'd like you to move your

2277
07:28:36.759 --> 07:28:41.479
hands around. Just maybe move your fingers.

2278
07:28:41.159 --> 07:28:41.720
A little bit.

2279
07:28:44.200 --> 07:28:49.880
I've been and closing your hands very gently, just so

2280
07:28:50.319 --> 07:28:55.880
that you can get in touch with how your hands

2281
07:28:58.360 --> 07:29:18.639
and your fingers fail, very very slow movements. Focusing now

2282
07:29:19.520 --> 07:29:26.759
on your feet, and if you can just do kind

2283
07:29:26.759 --> 07:29:29.479
of an equivalent with your feet.

2284
07:29:29.400 --> 07:29:36.159
Is you've just done with your hands, Maybe turn in

2285
07:29:36.279 --> 07:29:44.319
your ankles, moving your feet around, moving your toes gently,

2286
07:29:47.159 --> 07:29:49.040
only very.

2287
07:29:50.880 --> 07:30:02.599
Gently and very slowly, noticing how your feet feel in

2288
07:30:02.759 --> 07:30:16.040
this moment. Focusing now and your eyes. I like you

2289
07:30:16.279 --> 07:30:23.479
to just focus on your eyelids. Maybe you can open

2290
07:30:23.560 --> 07:30:27.880
and close your eyes a couple of times to really

2291
07:30:28.040 --> 07:30:31.520
get in touch with how you feel when you do

2292
07:30:31.799 --> 07:30:40.119
close your eyes. The muscle changes in your eyes when

2293
07:30:40.159 --> 07:30:48.759
you do close them, maybe raising your eyebrows. It stretches

2294
07:30:49.159 --> 07:30:59.880
the tops of your eyes, perhaps squinting your eyes, scrunching

2295
07:31:00.119 --> 07:31:04.720
up your eyes just so you can hear it again.

2296
07:31:04.959 --> 07:31:15.240
Touch with all aspects of how your eyes feel.

2297
07:31:18.000 --> 07:31:18.599
Right now.

2298
07:31:27.840 --> 07:31:33.840
Now, focusing on your thighs, and you know it just

2299
07:31:33.880 --> 07:31:42.240
starts you to gently tense your thighs, just very very gently,

2300
07:31:44.560 --> 07:31:55.200
just enough so you can become more attuned to the

2301
07:31:56.520 --> 07:32:05.000
physical sensation of your upper legs, the front of your thighs,

2302
07:32:05.279 --> 07:32:16.279
and the backs of your thigh. Noticing and observing how

2303
07:32:18.639 --> 07:32:33.680
your thighs feel. Right now, moving your focus to the

2304
07:32:33.799 --> 07:32:40.680
back of your neck, just noticing the back of your neck,

2305
07:32:42.159 --> 07:32:47.400
the muscles, and of course they lead to the side

2306
07:32:47.479 --> 07:32:51.639
of your neck. They also lead to the top of

2307
07:32:51.720 --> 07:32:58.080
your back, which leads to your shoulders. So there's your

2308
07:32:58.439 --> 07:33:03.799
focus on in the back of your neck. Maybe you

2309
07:33:03.959 --> 07:33:10.599
can move your head gently upwards as if you're looking up.

2310
07:33:12.560 --> 07:33:18.159
Maybe moving your head down as if you were looking down.

2311
07:33:21.319 --> 07:33:26.159
Perhaps moving your head side to side, right to left,

2312
07:33:28.240 --> 07:33:39.360
only very slowly and very gently. I'm not trying to

2313
07:33:39.799 --> 07:33:50.639
force anything. It has to be very very gentle, just

2314
07:33:51.319 --> 07:33:52.639
so you can.

2315
07:33:54.159 --> 07:33:55.759
Be more.

2316
07:33:57.400 --> 07:34:06.799
In touch with the feelings, with the sensations, the physical

2317
07:34:08.200 --> 07:34:17.479
sensations of hound back of your neck fields. Right now,

2318
07:34:25.040 --> 07:34:33.000
as we now focus on the tops of your arms,

2319
07:34:35.360 --> 07:34:40.200
the parts where your biceps and your triceps are between

2320
07:34:40.279 --> 07:34:47.959
your elbow and your shoulders. Should focus on those parts,

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07:34:49.000 --> 07:34:54.680
the tops of your arms. You may like to just

2322
07:34:55.439 --> 07:35:06.759
tense them, but very very gently and slowly, so you're

2323
07:35:06.799 --> 07:35:16.279
not straining or putting any pressure whatsoever on your arms.

2324
07:35:18.959 --> 07:35:25.599
It's just so that you can gain more of a

2325
07:35:25.959 --> 07:35:37.040
sense of how your upper arms are feeling in this moment,

2326
07:35:40.040 --> 07:35:50.799
and just noticing as you gently, very gently and slowly

2327
07:35:52.599 --> 07:36:03.520
tighten the muscles and then let go. Notice how the

2328
07:36:03.720 --> 07:36:18.520
tops of your arms feel right now, as in now

2329
07:36:19.200 --> 07:36:29.400
focus on your stomach, the area the lower abdomen area

2330
07:36:30.080 --> 07:36:38.479
below your belly button, moving all the way down to

2331
07:36:38.599 --> 07:36:49.200
your hips, just above your grind. Maybe you're able to

2332
07:36:50.639 --> 07:37:03.560
tense these muscles in the area very very gently and slowly,

2333
07:37:09.240 --> 07:37:13.400
if that's a difficult thing to do, and maybe you

2334
07:37:13.520 --> 07:37:23.599
can just move your body pushing your stomach up and

2335
07:37:23.759 --> 07:37:27.560
maybe move a little bit to the side using your hips,

2336
07:37:29.759 --> 07:37:37.919
just so you can get more in tune with how

2337
07:37:38.119 --> 07:37:57.080
you're lower apptomen area is feeling in this moment. Just

2338
07:37:57.520 --> 07:38:19.680
noticing the physical sensations or your lower abdomen as you

2339
07:38:20.000 --> 07:38:35.240
move your attention to your mouth, noticing your lips and

2340
07:38:35.479 --> 07:38:53.360
inside your mouth, the teeth, your guns, your tongue, Just

2341
07:38:53.680 --> 07:39:02.279
noticing how your tongue in your mouth feels. It may

2342
07:39:02.520 --> 07:39:11.200
help by moving your tongue around your mouth, moving it

2343
07:39:11.759 --> 07:39:19.200
to your left, maybe pressing it gently against the side

2344
07:39:19.360 --> 07:39:25.560
of your mouth, and then to the right, gently to

2345
07:39:25.759 --> 07:39:32.360
the side of your mouth, perhaps pressing up against the

2346
07:39:33.680 --> 07:39:40.479
top of your mouth, and then down gently against the

2347
07:39:40.599 --> 07:39:51.720
bottom of your mouth, always very slowly, in a very

2348
07:39:54.360 --> 07:40:11.360
very gentle so that you can be aware of how

2349
07:40:11.639 --> 07:40:34.240
you feel in your mouth area now and to focus

2350
07:40:36.560 --> 07:40:50.360
on your wrists. And I'm gonna ask you to maybe

2351
07:40:51.200 --> 07:41:00.919
just routine your wrists by moving your hands the circular

2352
07:41:01.279 --> 07:41:20.159
motion very gently and slowly, just so you can feel

2353
07:41:26.159 --> 07:41:38.880
the sensations that you are currently experiencing in your wrists.

2354
07:41:42.959 --> 07:41:53.000
Perhaps move in your hands up and down again very

2355
07:41:55.599 --> 07:42:32.200
very gently and slowly, very gentle and slow. As we

2356
07:42:32.479 --> 07:42:49.520
now start to observe in lower back, the bad part

2357
07:42:49.799 --> 07:42:59.639
is just above of your hips where your cocksix are

2358
07:43:07.159 --> 07:43:13.279
a whole area which also really does include the side

2359
07:43:14.240 --> 07:43:19.759
of your body because those muscles are very much connected

2360
07:43:25.040 --> 07:43:32.040
as those muscles also move into your hip area connecting

2361
07:43:32.279 --> 07:43:47.159
to your buttocks the sides of your hips, And if

2362
07:43:47.279 --> 07:43:56.639
you're physically able to do so, maybe E can very

2363
07:43:57.000 --> 07:44:09.080
gently just move your body ever so slightly, very slowly

2364
07:44:12.159 --> 07:44:29.959
some side to side just enough ye s gauge how

2365
07:44:30.119 --> 07:44:43.520
you feel in your lower back. Perhaps you cat even

2366
07:44:47.200 --> 07:44:58.479
move your hips gently up and down, gently and slowly

2367
07:45:01.720 --> 07:45:14.240
in order to be in touch with the physical sensations

2368
07:45:15.919 --> 07:45:41.080
of your law back. As we now, move your attention

2369
07:45:45.119 --> 07:45:52.840
to your joel an area for your chin, all the

2370
07:45:52.919 --> 07:46:00.360
way up to near where your ears are, oh, all

2371
07:46:00.680 --> 07:46:15.360
of your jaw, and you can, just if it's okay

2372
07:46:15.560 --> 07:46:26.439
to do so, gently open your mouth, not wide, no stretching,

2373
07:46:27.720 --> 07:46:41.599
just very gently and slowly opening your mouthing, closing your

2374
07:46:41.680 --> 07:46:59.360
mouth very gently and slowly, so you can.

2375
07:47:02.319 --> 07:47:03.560
Be in touch.

2376
07:47:10.000 --> 07:47:43.840
With how your jaw feels. Now. I to sit now

2377
07:47:46.720 --> 07:48:01.599
the chest area. You don't need to do anything to

2378
07:48:01.799 --> 07:48:08.360
move your chest because it moves every time you breathe.

2379
07:48:13.720 --> 07:48:27.599
It moves very gently and slowly, automatically with each bread

2380
07:48:28.000 --> 07:48:47.919
you take. As you focus on how your chest feels

2381
07:48:53.240 --> 07:49:28.279
when you breath, move in your focus to your forearms,

2382
07:49:30.799 --> 07:49:46.919
your elbows. Maybe you're able to very gently and slowly

2383
07:49:49.360 --> 07:49:57.919
tense the muscles in your forearms, and when you do that,

2384
07:49:58.439 --> 07:50:21.959
you can feel your elbows as well, very gently and slowly,

2385
07:50:30.439 --> 07:51:01.720
gently and softly. I'm sad your forearms and dilpours. No

2386
07:51:10.720 --> 07:51:29.319
focus the rest of your back, your upper back and

2387
07:51:29.720 --> 07:51:47.680
the middle the middle of your back again, this part

2388
07:51:47.919 --> 07:52:02.520
of your body. News. Also every time you pray, you

2389
07:52:02.799 --> 07:52:16.560
may not notice that. Usually less you observe your upper

2390
07:52:16.759 --> 07:52:24.080
back in the middle of your back, you can really

2391
07:52:24.720 --> 07:53:19.959
feel that gentle and it's slow moment. Moving your focus

2392
07:53:21.919 --> 07:53:35.880
into your area of buttees the gray, those muscles and

2393
07:53:36.040 --> 07:54:16.479
those bones in your midsection. Just noticing how your hips feel.

2394
07:54:19.639 --> 07:54:37.479
Right now you can very very gently move your hips,

2395
07:54:42.439 --> 07:54:47.880
maybe side to side, very gently and.

2396
07:54:50.919 --> 07:55:21.880
Sl yeah, softly.

2397
07:55:36.439 --> 07:55:53.200
Everything starts to slow down, including the thoughts in your

2398
07:55:53.319 --> 07:56:05.119
mind and your mind itself just starts to gradually. It

2399
07:56:05.200 --> 07:56:11.639
doesn't have to be instant, but just gradually starting too.

2400
07:56:12.959 --> 07:56:21.759
It's almost like time is streight Chin. It's a slower

2401
07:56:21.880 --> 07:56:29.759
pace to maybe what you're used to in your day

2402
07:56:29.840 --> 07:56:51.840
to day life. It's a slower movement of energy, very

2403
07:56:56.240 --> 07:57:04.680
small movements which make up the larger movements, which is

2404
07:57:04.720 --> 07:57:12.479
always the case. Now, when you move your hand, it

2405
07:57:12.639 --> 07:57:15.360
might seem like it's one movement, but it's lots of

2406
07:57:16.159 --> 07:57:23.599
minute different muscles moving in accordance with each other. And

2407
07:57:28.560 --> 07:57:40.880
what happens in this space that we're sharing is we

2408
07:57:41.119 --> 07:58:02.040
move from that big movement into those smaller movements, starting

2409
07:58:02.159 --> 07:58:13.000
to focus on how your body feels, not just as

2410
07:58:13.040 --> 07:58:17.360
a whole, not just oh, i'm feel in this way.

2411
07:58:17.439 --> 07:58:23.520
I'm feeling stressed or tense, or I'm feeling relaxed and calm.

2412
07:58:24.840 --> 07:58:31.439
I'm feeling this way, I'm feeling that way. Starting to

2413
07:58:31.680 --> 07:58:42.880
notice that your body begins to present to you small

2414
07:58:44.000 --> 07:59:03.400
feelings around your body, small physical sensations in x, whether

2415
07:59:03.799 --> 07:59:16.599
pleasurable or not. Maybe resisting the temptation to label them

2416
07:59:19.520 --> 07:59:27.119
or to judge them those feelings, just thinking them, thinking

2417
07:59:27.159 --> 07:59:40.360
about them is just being neutral, just feelings, not being

2418
07:59:41.400 --> 07:59:51.720
particularly concerned, but just noticing what your body is telling you.

2419
07:59:59.639 --> 08:00:06.000
Feel in your arms instead of feeling the whole of

2420
08:00:06.119 --> 08:00:16.119
the arm, Maybe notice those individual feelings, all those different

2421
08:00:16.319 --> 08:00:29.680
muscles and the skin, the hairs of your arms, all

2422
08:00:29.759 --> 08:00:43.520
the internal parts of your arms, the veins, the bones,

2423
08:00:46.439 --> 08:00:52.439
just being aware of maybe your elbow on your right

2424
08:00:52.639 --> 08:01:03.240
arm has a certain feeling. Maybe you're left wrist also

2425
08:01:03.560 --> 08:01:26.560
has its own individual physical sensation. What about your forearm

2426
08:01:27.639 --> 08:01:39.799
when your right arm, you're right forearm, there may not

2427
08:01:39.959 --> 08:01:47.759
be any particular feeling that you could even give a

2428
08:01:47.840 --> 08:01:55.040
name to, may not feel like anything other than just

2429
08:01:55.639 --> 08:02:06.040
a feeling. You know it's there. The feelings in your shoulders,

2430
08:02:08.880 --> 08:02:12.639
perhaps your shoulders when you think about them, kind of

2431
08:02:12.680 --> 08:02:17.720
almost like they're the same, you know, the same feeling,

2432
08:02:19.599 --> 08:02:22.880
almost like you both of your shoulders are just one thing.

2433
08:02:24.720 --> 08:02:35.799
Of course they're not. And when you focus on your

2434
08:02:35.880 --> 08:02:44.080
left shoulder and then on your right shoulder, maybe find

2435
08:02:44.279 --> 08:02:49.680
that you move the muscles a little bit, maybe tense

2436
08:02:49.759 --> 08:03:04.279
the muscles gently, noticing the difference in each shoulder.

2437
08:03:15.080 --> 08:03:30.680
And your lower back, the left side of your lower

2438
08:03:30.799 --> 08:03:33.759
back and the right side of your.

2439
08:03:33.680 --> 08:03:45.880
Lower back of course that connection to your buttocks and

2440
08:03:46.040 --> 08:03:57.959
to your hips, and also moving up into the middle

2441
08:03:58.000 --> 08:04:11.880
of your back. And sometimes like right now, actually when

2442
08:04:11.959 --> 08:04:15.560
I focus on their part, when I focused on my

2443
08:04:15.639 --> 08:04:21.799
buttocks and then I focused on the middle of my back,

2444
08:04:22.200 --> 08:04:24.959
I almost felt like the muscles in my lower back

2445
08:04:25.040 --> 08:04:34.880
were being stretched very gently, just stretched a little bit.

2446
08:04:36.840 --> 08:04:43.560
Even though I wasn't doing anything to try to stretch

2447
08:04:45.599 --> 08:04:49.919
your lower back, it just seemed to happen. The feeling

2448
08:04:50.599 --> 08:05:06.840
of very gently stretching your lower back m comes along.

2449
08:05:10.520 --> 08:05:33.840
I have feeling in your chest, just noticing what sensations

2450
08:05:35.479 --> 08:05:53.119
you are experiencing in your chest right now, and there's

2451
08:05:53.200 --> 08:05:57.360
so much of the chest. Obviously, there's the collar bone

2452
08:05:57.520 --> 08:06:04.319
leading to the chest. You've got the chest bone, You've

2453
08:06:04.319 --> 08:06:12.639
got the muscles in your chest. Of course, if you're female,

2454
08:06:13.319 --> 08:06:23.720
there's possibly the breasts. Your male you've got the different

2455
08:06:24.880 --> 08:06:29.119
well why not that different these days. But there may

2456
08:06:29.159 --> 08:06:37.599
be more muscles at the top of the chest, but

2457
08:06:37.759 --> 08:06:42.799
at the side underneath, it's pretty much the same. Whether

2458
08:06:42.799 --> 08:06:47.439
you're a man or a woman. There's muscles there, muscles

2459
08:06:47.479 --> 08:06:52.520
that stretch out to your back as well as breast

2460
08:06:52.560 --> 08:07:01.159
tissue stretches and moves into your back. To just being

2461
08:07:01.240 --> 08:07:20.680
aware of your chest, being with whatever feeling there is

2462
08:07:22.159 --> 08:07:40.880
in your chest. Well, I noticed that I focus on

2463
08:07:41.000 --> 08:07:48.639
my chest. I feel it in my back and my

2464
08:07:48.840 --> 08:07:52.959
upper back. I mean, I guess the obvious reason would

2465
08:07:52.959 --> 08:08:02.959
be because you know, I'll breathe in it and it

2466
08:08:03.119 --> 08:08:06.479
stretches my chest and my back at the same time.

2467
08:08:14.439 --> 08:08:29.639
It feels it feels okay, it doesn't feel I got

2468
08:08:29.680 --> 08:08:35.919
a little bit of pain in my right chest, a

2469
08:08:36.000 --> 08:08:42.080
little bit not pain, but a little discomfort, maybe stiffness possibly,

2470
08:08:42.639 --> 08:08:51.759
I don't know. I notice my shoulders also wanting to

2471
08:08:54.119 --> 08:08:58.799
flex for some reason. I think that's probably part of

2472
08:08:58.959 --> 08:09:07.919
my upper back, that connection between my shoulders Martha back.

2473
08:09:09.759 --> 08:09:13.799
Because I can move my shoulders and stretch the muscles

2474
08:09:14.560 --> 08:09:22.759
in my back, moving the shoulders backwards or up, which

2475
08:09:22.880 --> 08:09:28.919
then moves I think it's the scapulous in your back.

2476
08:09:38.959 --> 08:09:46.639
It feels quite nice. Actually, a good thing about this

2477
08:09:46.919 --> 08:09:51.720
is you can, if you want to, you can just

2478
08:09:55.279 --> 08:10:06.959
flex or stimulate the various muscles in your body gently

2479
08:10:08.400 --> 08:10:11.880
in order to get more of a sense of how

2480
08:10:11.959 --> 08:10:26.840
they feel. And when you're relaxing and you do tense

2481
08:10:26.959 --> 08:10:30.880
and muscle and you let it go and you let

2482
08:10:30.919 --> 08:10:39.919
it relax, it relaxes way more than it would normally.

2483
08:10:44.840 --> 08:10:50.119
But you have to feel that you're able to do that.

2484
08:10:51.759 --> 08:10:55.520
There's no point in doing it if there's an issue

2485
08:10:57.439 --> 08:11:02.919
with the per part of your body. You need to

2486
08:11:03.040 --> 08:11:13.439
be gentle with yourself at all times when relaxing deeply.

2487
08:11:16.439 --> 08:11:31.680
It's important to be kind to yourself. As you notice

2488
08:11:31.880 --> 08:11:42.959
your mind. How much has your mind slowed down since

2489
08:11:43.040 --> 08:12:09.439
we started this recording? How came and peaceful is your

2490
08:12:09.560 --> 08:12:21.680
mind right now? We have nothing to think about and

2491
08:12:21.959 --> 08:12:29.360
just my voice to listen to, Because you know, the

2492
08:12:29.560 --> 08:12:40.279
intention behind this recording is relaxation at the very least

2493
08:12:41.840 --> 08:12:46.400
for you to feel more relaxed at the end of

2494
08:12:46.439 --> 08:12:54.680
the recording than you did at the beginning, At the

2495
08:12:54.840 --> 08:13:08.599
very least, mind to slow down because your body continues

2496
08:13:10.639 --> 08:13:27.240
to relax, because that's what you want to happen. That's

2497
08:13:27.360 --> 08:13:48.520
what you expect to happen, for relaxation, to fill your body,

2498
08:13:56.759 --> 08:14:01.880
maybe calm in your mind to the point of boredom.

2499
08:14:05.439 --> 08:14:49.240
When you start maybe to drift away, drifting, it's almost

2500
08:14:49.520 --> 08:14:58.680
as if you're moving further away from your body in

2501
08:14:58.840 --> 08:15:12.279
your mind, just leaving that there, kind of liking it.

2502
08:15:12.720 --> 08:15:18.639
An escape pod in the spaceship a movie, a space movie,

2503
08:15:18.720 --> 08:15:20.680
you know, I mean against a little part in it

2504
08:15:22.560 --> 08:15:38.639
sends the man far away from the spaceship, safe to

2505
08:15:38.799 --> 08:16:49.040
dream and continue to relax. Drifting so slow and be

2506
08:16:49.560 --> 08:17:52.439
so and peaceful and focusing on the feeding of those

2507
08:17:53.880 --> 08:18:05.000
individual parts your body. That's a relaxing One by one,

2508
08:18:12.680 --> 08:18:25.080
you may find that every now and then you realize

2509
08:18:25.200 --> 08:18:36.080
that you weren't listening to my voice because your mind

2510
08:18:36.639 --> 08:18:51.400
started to imagine something different, maybe started to almost move

2511
08:18:51.599 --> 08:19:00.680
into some kind of a dreamy state. And then you

2512
08:19:00.840 --> 08:19:07.599
become aware of my voice again. And even though you

2513
08:19:08.599 --> 08:19:14.799
may want to focus on my voice. You may also

2514
08:19:15.520 --> 08:19:29.360
wish to allow your mind to just drift naturally into

2515
08:19:29.479 --> 08:19:50.880
that space of comfort and safety. As you feel more

2516
08:19:51.520 --> 08:20:00.360
comfort spreading through your body like a warm blad get

2517
08:20:04.360 --> 08:20:18.959
covering you gently, keeping your body at just the perfect temperature.

2518
08:20:29.360 --> 08:20:39.720
And even if you can hear background sounds, they just

2519
08:20:41.159 --> 08:20:58.119
don't seem to matter anymore. There's that sense peace spreads

2520
08:20:58.680 --> 08:21:12.360
through your mind like a gentle breeze, yet strong enough

2521
08:21:12.599 --> 08:21:23.919
to blow away all negativity, strong.

2522
08:21:23.680 --> 08:21:24.119
Enough to.

2523
08:21:27.560 --> 08:21:37.680
Remove from your mind any anxiety or stress that was

2524
08:21:37.880 --> 08:21:52.959
there before, and blow away any other thoughts or feelings

2525
08:21:53.360 --> 08:22:18.759
that just don't fit with the sense relaxation that is

2526
08:22:19.040 --> 08:22:44.119
feeling your body and your mind. And as you focus

2527
08:22:44.360 --> 08:22:50.959
on your mind, we count down from ten down to one,

2528
08:22:52.360 --> 08:23:02.720
and with each number you hear, your mind will become

2529
08:23:08.799 --> 08:23:29.080
slightly more relaxed, just just slightly, from ten down to nine,

2530
08:23:29.919 --> 08:23:36.840
just a slight movement, from nine down to eight, just

2531
08:23:36.959 --> 08:23:54.040
another small change in how you feel. Eight down to seven.

2532
08:23:56.840 --> 08:24:02.240
That feeling is a gap, almost like a gap that

2533
08:24:02.599 --> 08:24:10.520
starts to get the wider, the gap between those feelings

2534
08:24:12.200 --> 08:24:19.159
that you used to have in your mind compared to

2535
08:24:19.319 --> 08:24:26.680
the feelings you have the growing now feelings of comfort

2536
08:24:27.000 --> 08:24:38.639
and security and confidence, and the gap becomes wider eight

2537
08:24:38.759 --> 08:24:45.720
down to seven, seven, down to six, and when you

2538
08:24:45.799 --> 08:24:52.159
get to five, the mind will start to have a

2539
08:24:52.599 --> 08:25:05.759
certain physical sensation, most like there's a magnet outside of

2540
08:25:05.880 --> 08:25:12.080
your head sucking the tension and the stress and any

2541
08:25:12.200 --> 08:25:19.720
remaining feelings that you don't want, sucking them out through

2542
08:25:19.840 --> 08:25:20.400
your skull.

2543
08:25:26.200 --> 08:25:27.759
And in down to four.

2544
08:25:29.479 --> 08:25:36.279
You can start to really experience that sense of not

2545
08:25:36.599 --> 08:25:51.680
just emptiness, but space, place full of fresh air, the

2546
08:25:51.799 --> 08:25:58.599
place where you can stretch. It's almost as if as

2547
08:25:58.639 --> 08:26:03.799
you go down to four and three, your mind is expanding,

2548
08:26:04.439 --> 08:26:17.479
with this sense of peace and tranquility growing as it

2549
08:26:17.639 --> 08:26:25.439
moves down to When you get to one, your mind

2550
08:26:28.759 --> 08:26:41.840
just feels exactly how you want to feel, almost perfect feeling,

2551
08:26:47.680 --> 08:26:52.520
maybe a sensation that.

2552
08:26:54.159 --> 08:26:55.520
You'd like to keep.

2553
08:26:58.599 --> 08:27:09.400
A place that's faith where nothing can affect you at all,

2554
08:27:21.119 --> 08:27:25.840
and you can stay in that that space of comfort

2555
08:27:25.919 --> 08:27:35.639
and confidence, confident in your own ability to create this

2556
08:27:36.560 --> 08:27:42.560
space and this feeling of comfort within your own mind

2557
08:27:44.119 --> 08:27:54.040
just by counting ten down to one. And this is

2558
08:27:54.200 --> 08:27:58.880
something that you can do yourself when you're on your own,

2559
08:28:03.759 --> 08:28:07.680
the time when you can maybe sit down, maybe just

2560
08:28:07.759 --> 08:28:19.840
for a few minutes, close your eyes, just counts slowly

2561
08:28:20.479 --> 08:28:33.639
from ten down to one and re experience these feelings

2562
08:28:35.279 --> 08:28:43.599
in your mind. And when you feel that way in

2563
08:28:43.720 --> 08:28:59.560
your mind, your body copies your mind, and that feelings

2564
08:29:00.080 --> 08:29:07.080
break through your spine and your nervous system into every

2565
08:29:07.520 --> 08:29:19.880
part of your body, travels through your bloodstream, heathing and

2566
08:29:20.080 --> 08:29:40.720
relaxing every particle of your existence. Now we can we

2567
08:29:40.840 --> 08:29:48.759
can practice this a few times before the end of

2568
08:29:48.799 --> 08:29:53.560
the recording, and then you can practice on your own.

2569
08:29:55.680 --> 08:30:00.680
And each time you count for ten out to one,

2570
08:30:05.360 --> 08:30:17.520
the feelings of comfort, calmness, and deep deep relaxation becomes stronger,

2571
08:30:19.759 --> 08:30:36.040
deeper feeling your mind and your brain. With these positive chemicals,

2572
08:30:37.840 --> 08:30:47.959
the spread throughout your body, relaxing you so quickly, relaxing

2573
08:30:48.119 --> 08:30:59.720
your whole body and mind so very, very easily just

2574
08:31:00.159 --> 08:31:03.400
by counting from ten.

2575
08:31:06.080 --> 08:31:13.240
Down to one. So we're gonna do now.

2576
08:31:14.119 --> 08:31:18.040
I'm going to count from ten down to one. I'd

2577
08:31:18.240 --> 08:31:22.560
like you to repeat the number after me. So when

2578
08:31:22.639 --> 08:31:31.159
I say ten, you can just repeat to yourself ten.

2579
08:31:36.799 --> 08:31:46.159
Just notice, be aware of how you feel in your

2580
08:31:46.319 --> 08:31:55.840
mind and your body. Then when I say nine, you

2581
08:31:55.919 --> 08:32:11.759
can repeat to yourself. Nine became noticing the increase in

2582
08:32:11.959 --> 08:32:19.919
comfort and calmness in your mind and in your body

2583
08:32:25.919 --> 08:32:35.360
the same. Wanna say eight, when I say seven, six,

2584
08:32:37.880 --> 08:32:52.200
when I say five, four, when I say three, two,

2585
08:32:56.560 --> 08:33:01.880
and lastly want to say one. You can repeat that

2586
08:33:02.439 --> 08:33:13.919
number now. Of course, when you do this on your

2587
08:33:14.000 --> 08:33:20.439
own without listening to me, you can say the numbers

2588
08:33:20.680 --> 08:33:29.240
or whatever speed that you feel is necessary for you,

2589
08:33:31.000 --> 08:33:35.959
so you can adapt. So if you feel you want

2590
08:33:36.000 --> 08:33:42.840
to say the numbers ten down to one faster than

2591
08:33:42.919 --> 08:33:47.159
I do, then you go ahead and do that. Or

2592
08:33:47.240 --> 08:33:51.159
if you feel when you do it yourself, then you'd

2593
08:33:51.400 --> 08:33:59.759
like to have more more space between the numbers, maybe

2594
08:34:00.000 --> 08:34:06.799
a lot longer to get from ten all the way

2595
08:34:06.959 --> 08:34:24.560
down to one, that's your choice also to do. So

2596
08:34:24.639 --> 08:34:33.000
I'm going to count from ten down to one, and

2597
08:34:33.159 --> 08:34:36.400
when I get to one, that will be the end

2598
08:34:37.040 --> 08:34:42.680
of this recording. The less of course, you're listening with music,

2599
08:34:43.959 --> 08:39:56.200
and the music will continue. Ten nine, eight, yes, twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen,

2600
08:40:00.200 --> 08:40:46.159
thirty twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four,

2601
08:40:50.479 --> 08:41:18.720
three two one. Now open your eyes, noticing how you

2602
08:41:18.840 --> 08:41:27.200
physically feel having counted down from twenty to one allowing

2603
08:41:28.000 --> 08:41:32.439
stress and tension to leave through your fingertips and your toast.

2604
08:41:34.000 --> 08:41:38.680
And as you focus on your fingertips maybe they feel

2605
08:41:38.720 --> 08:41:45.479
a little bit tingly, which is I suppose quite understanding,

2606
08:41:45.639 --> 08:41:50.720
considering the tension has been exiting your body through your fingertips.

2607
08:41:57.200 --> 08:41:59.200
So now I'm going to count from twenty down to

2608
08:41:59.279 --> 08:42:07.080
one again. This time you can feel relief of tension

2609
08:42:08.720 --> 08:42:11.880
and stress and the anxiety that.

2610
08:42:11.959 --> 08:42:12.400
You may have.

2611
08:42:17.040 --> 08:42:25.439
Leaving through your stomach, just leaving through your stomach, almost

2612
08:42:25.479 --> 08:42:31.240
as if it's just releasing the whole of your stomach,

2613
08:42:32.400 --> 08:42:36.919
enable to just above your chest or below your chest,

2614
08:42:37.040 --> 08:42:41.599
rather so surrounding your belly by an area, the whole area.

2615
08:42:43.720 --> 08:42:48.319
You can feel the tension of your body, whatever's left

2616
08:42:48.599 --> 08:42:53.880
just releasing from the area, and you may notice that

2617
08:42:54.040 --> 08:42:55.000
your stomach.

2618
08:42:54.680 --> 08:42:56.279
Will become very relaxed.

2619
08:42:57.799 --> 08:43:17.279
As I countdown twenty dance one now twenty nineteen, eighteen

2620
08:43:22.240 --> 08:44:02.680
m seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine

2621
08:44:07.439 --> 08:44:29.000
eight seven six wy ooh three.

2622
08:44:33.319 --> 08:44:38.919
Two what.

2623
08:44:43.799 --> 08:44:46.000
And you can open your eyes again if you choose,

2624
08:44:46.479 --> 08:44:49.599
but you can just keep them closed because it feels

2625
08:44:49.680 --> 08:44:57.639
relaxing just noticing your stomach fills notice there's your focus.

2626
08:44:57.919 --> 08:45:03.119
Just do a little scan if you body. Just notice

2627
08:45:03.200 --> 08:45:16.240
how your body does focusing on up a body, back, chest, stomach, legs, arms, hands, feet,

2628
08:45:19.279 --> 08:45:26.200
Just noticing, and you know, you may start to feel

2629
08:45:28.720 --> 08:45:32.479
more of a sense of tiredness, which may be the

2630
08:45:32.599 --> 08:45:38.680
reason you're listening to this according because you would like

2631
08:45:38.919 --> 08:45:48.360
to let go completely of everything and dread all into

2632
08:45:48.479 --> 08:46:03.439
a nice, natural, calm, relaxing sleep. So now we're going

2633
08:46:03.520 --> 08:46:12.959
to focus on your forehead, and if you choose, you

2634
08:46:13.080 --> 08:46:18.119
can incorporate your eyes in this focus as well. Your

2635
08:46:18.200 --> 08:46:24.759
forehead and your eyes, it's that whole area basically almost

2636
08:46:24.840 --> 08:46:27.599
as if you were wearing a mask, you know, like

2637
08:46:27.720 --> 08:46:31.520
a I don't know, a Batman mask.

2638
08:46:31.439 --> 08:46:32.919
Or something, or.

2639
08:46:34.959 --> 08:46:37.919
I'm trying to zorro or something, you know, the kind

2640
08:46:37.959 --> 08:46:41.119
of mask that covers your eyes but also covers quite

2641
08:46:41.119 --> 08:46:47.200
a lot of the forehead. They're focusing on that area

2642
08:46:47.720 --> 08:46:49.959
because that's the area that we're now going to release

2643
08:46:50.880 --> 08:46:56.439
tension and stress from your mind and your brain, from

2644
08:46:56.479 --> 08:47:00.680
your mind, and any tension that you may have remaining

2645
08:47:00.720 --> 08:47:06.119
in your face, in your neck and your jawl, your eyes,

2646
08:47:07.040 --> 08:47:13.720
your forehead, or your scalp. So basically any tension within

2647
08:47:13.799 --> 08:47:17.119
your head area, including your mind.

2648
08:47:17.560 --> 08:47:18.560
And your brain.

2649
08:47:22.240 --> 08:47:26.759
That's going to be released through your forehead and your eyes.

2650
08:47:30.720 --> 08:47:34.479
As I count down again from twenty down to one

2651
08:47:36.919 --> 08:48:48.200
now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven,

2652
08:48:52.840 --> 08:49:07.880
six five war three.

2653
08:49:13.319 --> 08:49:17.439
Yeah, what.

2654
08:49:25.919 --> 08:49:34.000
Noticing? And you scan your face with jaw, your eyes,

2655
08:49:35.360 --> 08:49:44.119
the cheap bones, your ears, avoihead, your scalp, your.

2656
08:49:44.119 --> 08:49:47.639
Neck, the back of your neck, in the front of

2657
08:49:47.720 --> 08:49:49.200
your neck, the.

2658
08:49:49.400 --> 08:49:51.439
Science of your neck, and the throat.

2659
08:49:52.959 --> 08:49:54.479
Hm m hmm.

2660
08:49:57.720 --> 08:50:10.959
Leticing being where the comfort increased in the relaxation, not

2661
08:50:11.400 --> 08:50:16.360
just in your head and neck and mind, also the

2662
08:50:16.479 --> 08:50:17.360
rest of your body.

2663
08:50:22.720 --> 08:50:24.479
So it is how loose.

2664
08:50:25.720 --> 08:50:29.799
And calm you are, and how easily.

2665
08:50:31.479 --> 08:50:33.040
It is to just let go.

2666
08:50:35.880 --> 08:51:02.159
Completely, let go completely, how easily so do vows? I

2667
08:51:02.240 --> 08:51:09.919
want to focus on the top of your head, and

2668
08:51:10.040 --> 08:51:19.000
we're gonna allow every last piece of tension or stress

2669
08:51:19.200 --> 08:51:25.000
that might be lingering or hiding in your body or

2670
08:51:25.119 --> 08:51:33.000
mind my head to just be sucked out the top

2671
08:51:33.080 --> 08:51:33.840
of your head.

2672
08:51:36.240 --> 08:51:44.040
At least. Yeah, I want to suck down into.

2673
08:51:43.799 --> 08:51:49.479
The clouds imagine to be cloud of God your head.

2674
08:51:51.680 --> 08:51:55.360
It's like a whirlpool, and is gonna suck that.

2675
08:51:55.520 --> 08:52:01.959
Attention out of the top of your head and just

2676
08:52:02.080 --> 08:52:03.119
take it away.

2677
08:52:04.919 --> 08:52:11.880
Good to focus. Imagine an opening on the top of

2678
08:52:11.959 --> 08:52:18.720
your head with a tension, stress and in remaining issues,

2679
08:52:18.919 --> 08:52:21.279
maybe worries of concerns that.

2680
08:52:21.439 --> 08:52:25.799
Have no use to you now can all be sucked

2681
08:52:25.840 --> 08:52:27.279
down at the top of your head.

2682
08:52:28.959 --> 08:52:34.919
I've taken away as I count down again from twenty

2683
08:52:35.360 --> 08:54:09.200
down to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixty, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, even, ten, nine, eight, seven.

2684
08:54:13.360 --> 08:54:49.560
Six, five, four three one, bree.

2685
08:54:54.439 --> 08:55:07.919
Noticing how you feel, how relaxed and calm you physically

2686
08:55:08.919 --> 08:55:22.759
and mentally feel right now, how peace or your mind feels.

2687
08:55:25.439 --> 08:55:30.599
It feels so nice to just let go, to give

2688
08:55:30.639 --> 08:55:44.439
yourself some space to breathe easily, to think calmly, and

2689
08:55:44.680 --> 08:55:49.799
just to take a break from all that pointless worry

2690
08:55:50.040 --> 08:55:55.240
and concerns about things that you don't need to think

2691
08:55:55.319 --> 08:56:06.159
about right now, because this is your time to let go.

2692
08:56:07.560 --> 08:56:17.319
This is your space to enjoy feeling deeply relaxed, peaceful

2693
08:56:17.439 --> 08:56:24.720
in your mind, relaxed in your body. They can feel

2694
08:56:25.279 --> 08:56:33.880
so good, so nice to just not have to do

2695
08:56:34.599 --> 08:56:45.759
anything to be able to really enjoy that serenity that

2696
08:56:45.959 --> 08:56:54.000
comes of letting go completely, that peacefulness that comes with.

2697
08:57:00.680 --> 08:57:02.080
Being in this.

2698
08:57:03.880 --> 08:57:13.959
Peaceful space. And you can keep this sense of calmness

2699
08:57:14.799 --> 08:57:15.799
for as long.

2700
08:57:15.680 --> 08:57:16.680
As you choose.

2701
08:57:24.720 --> 08:57:31.840
If you choose to drift off into deep, healing, natural sleep,

2702
08:57:33.159 --> 08:57:39.840
then you can do that. It's completely up to you,

2703
08:57:44.680 --> 08:57:49.400
and you can keep this feeling of calmness physically, mean,

2704
08:57:49.479 --> 08:57:55.400
in your mind, as long as you choose to feel

2705
08:57:55.639 --> 08:58:11.159
completely relaxed, completely relax. And I'd like you to make

2706
08:58:11.319 --> 08:58:25.159
up your mind that you're going to relax. I want

2707
08:58:25.159 --> 08:58:28.639
to explore that with you. What it feels like when

2708
08:58:28.680 --> 08:58:37.959
you actually decide that you're going to relax, not forcing yourself,

2709
08:58:38.080 --> 08:58:44.240
but giving yourself that. Yes, it is a command, really,

2710
08:58:44.319 --> 08:58:51.240
isn't it. When you're telling yourself relax in a gentle

2711
08:58:51.360 --> 08:58:58.400
but firm way that only you can really tell yourself

2712
08:58:58.840 --> 08:59:01.680
in that way. You can't really have someone else saying

2713
08:59:01.720 --> 08:59:08.119
to you, now it relax, relax. You know it needs

2714
08:59:08.159 --> 08:59:10.599
to be gentle, but you can't. Someone else can't really

2715
08:59:11.479 --> 08:59:20.119
have the same the same kind of influence or power

2716
08:59:20.720 --> 08:59:28.680
that you have over your own physicality over how you feel,

2717
08:59:34.560 --> 08:59:39.439
because when you say it to yourself. It means more

2718
08:59:40.599 --> 08:59:47.040
it's personal, and your brain and your unconscious mind and

2719
08:59:47.159 --> 08:59:53.720
your body listens to what you say. So for example,

2720
08:59:54.319 --> 08:59:56.959
we'll test it out and do a little test, a

2721
08:59:57.000 --> 09:00:00.799
few little tests along the way, and you can get

2722
09:00:00.959 --> 09:00:07.439
more of an idea of the force, a positive force

2723
09:00:07.560 --> 09:00:14.319
that you can have in creating a sense of comfort

2724
09:00:14.520 --> 09:00:19.319
and relaxation in your body and your mind quite quickly

2725
09:00:21.119 --> 09:00:31.759
just by you telling yourself to relax. So I'm going

2726
09:00:31.880 --> 09:00:38.959
to start by it's focus on your hands. Focus on

2727
09:00:39.000 --> 09:00:42.599
your hands, and just tell your hands to relax, and

2728
09:00:42.840 --> 09:00:49.759
just say relax. As you focus on your hands, you

2729
09:00:49.919 --> 09:00:54.360
could say my hands are relaxed, or I want my

2730
09:00:54.520 --> 09:00:58.759
hands to relax. I think if you actually do it

2731
09:00:58.959 --> 09:01:07.200
directly by focusing and imagining that your hands can hear

2732
09:01:07.319 --> 09:01:09.639
what you're saying. You know that they've got little ears.

2733
09:01:10.400 --> 09:01:11.319
This is a little weird.

2734
09:01:13.919 --> 09:01:24.759
So talking to your hands and just say relax. Noticing

2735
09:01:30.919 --> 09:01:46.040
now your hands start to relax. Now focus on your

2736
09:01:46.119 --> 09:01:50.240
eyes and tell your eyes to relax. You're just saying

2737
09:01:50.279 --> 09:01:57.439
the same word relax, and find the right tone for you.

2738
09:02:00.080 --> 09:02:01.159
Know, I might say.

2739
09:02:01.599 --> 09:02:10.840
Relax, but you you might say relax or relax. You know,

2740
09:02:11.159 --> 09:02:16.799
you might say it differently to yourself, and that's important

2741
09:02:17.680 --> 09:02:23.759
for you to gauge what feels right for you. To

2742
09:02:24.000 --> 09:02:29.159
just tell your eyes to relax whilst focusing on your eyes,

2743
09:02:29.680 --> 09:02:34.400
your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your eyebrows, and

2744
09:02:34.639 --> 09:02:40.840
just tell your eyes directly relax.

2745
09:02:42.759 --> 09:02:42.959
Yeah.

2746
09:03:09.720 --> 09:03:19.880
Now, I just did that myself. And sometimes you may

2747
09:03:20.000 --> 09:03:24.680
feel that you need a bit more time for the

2748
09:03:24.759 --> 09:03:28.439
different parts to relax, you know, because I start talking

2749
09:03:28.520 --> 09:03:33.799
again and maybe that part hasn't relaxed fully. But what

2750
09:03:33.880 --> 09:03:36.639
will happen is that we'll just continue to relax.

2751
09:03:36.400 --> 09:03:37.360
Even though I'm talking.

2752
09:03:38.959 --> 09:03:44.759
And that's happening with my eyes. Something else I noticed

2753
09:03:44.880 --> 09:03:49.520
is when I started focusing on my eyes, that actually

2754
09:03:50.279 --> 09:03:53.119
almost became they got worse before they got better in

2755
09:03:53.200 --> 09:03:57.040
a way. So I felt a degree of tension growing

2756
09:03:57.119 --> 09:04:02.639
in my eyes and then this pearing. So I think

2757
09:04:02.759 --> 09:04:05.319
what that was really it was just me becoming more

2758
09:04:05.439 --> 09:04:12.080
aware of the tension that was already there that I wasn't.

2759
09:04:13.080 --> 09:04:18.439
I wasn't focused on it before, I wasn't really acknowledging

2760
09:04:18.560 --> 09:04:35.560
it or really conscious to those feelings. Yeah, my eyes

2761
09:04:35.639 --> 09:04:39.439
is still continuing to relax, as well as my hands. Actually,

2762
09:04:42.880 --> 09:04:48.279
my hands have got a certain kind of energy. I

2763
09:04:48.360 --> 09:04:53.279
can not buzz in, but I can kind of funeral

2764
09:04:53.279 --> 09:04:59.040
a degree of energy in my hands. Maybe that's where

2765
09:04:59.119 --> 09:05:11.159
the tensions be released. Yeah, that's supports, and that the

2766
09:05:11.240 --> 09:05:13.520
next part I think we should focus on the back

2767
09:05:13.599 --> 09:05:16.119
of the neck. That's a part of which quite often,

2768
09:05:18.159 --> 09:05:20.599
well for me, holds at tension. I don't know about

2769
09:05:20.680 --> 09:05:25.319
for yourself, but I think it's quite a standard place

2770
09:05:25.439 --> 09:05:32.799
where tension is sometimes held. So, and I'm doing exactly

2771
09:05:32.880 --> 09:05:35.200
what you're doing as you do it as well, so

2772
09:05:35.400 --> 09:05:38.200
I'm telling my body parts.

2773
09:05:38.080 --> 09:05:40.959
To relax as well. So if you tell your neck

2774
09:05:41.080 --> 09:05:41.279
at the.

2775
09:05:41.360 --> 09:05:44.159
Back of your neck, focus on the back of your neck,

2776
09:05:44.279 --> 09:05:51.279
and just say relax in your own words, in your

2777
09:05:51.319 --> 09:05:54.919
own tone, in your own voice. You can say out loud,

2778
09:05:55.080 --> 09:05:59.240
or you can just say it to yourself internally. But

2779
09:05:59.400 --> 09:06:02.840
your focus saying and you're saying it literally to.

2780
09:06:03.680 --> 09:06:06.159
The back of your nick is this The vack in

2781
09:06:06.400 --> 09:06:12.839
your left can actually year what are you're saying? So

2782
09:06:13.040 --> 09:06:13.279
did that?

2783
09:06:13.440 --> 09:06:13.599
Now?

2784
09:06:13.760 --> 09:06:18.879
Just say lass the back unique and I'll do the same.

2785
09:06:57.720 --> 09:07:03.000
And what I noticed in you had similar thing is

2786
09:07:03.760 --> 09:07:06.360
even though I was focusing on the back of my neck,

2787
09:07:11.360 --> 09:07:18.000
other parts started to I don't know, showed themselves to

2788
09:07:18.160 --> 09:07:21.480
me or maybe because they want to be relaxed as well.

2789
09:07:21.599 --> 09:07:26.440
But I started noticing the feelings in my shoulders, attension

2790
09:07:26.519 --> 09:07:32.040
in my shoulders and in my other back. Whether that

2791
09:07:32.279 --> 09:07:37.639
was because my back of my neck was saying, well,

2792
09:07:37.639 --> 09:07:42.639
I'm pretty much okay. It's the other parts that need attention,

2793
09:07:49.040 --> 09:07:52.040
but my lobe, my back of my neck is still relaxing.

2794
09:07:53.519 --> 09:07:56.000
But I just became more aware of other parts that

2795
09:07:56.239 --> 09:08:04.879
needed attention. Now, this might happen and it's not. It

2796
09:08:04.959 --> 09:08:06.680
doesn't mean that it's going any wrong.

2797
09:08:06.800 --> 09:08:08.559
It just means you're.

2798
09:08:08.519 --> 09:08:15.160
Being notified of more places that also want to feel relaxed.

2799
09:08:18.400 --> 09:08:21.400
So I'm going to focus on my upper back.

2800
09:08:22.720 --> 09:08:26.639
So you can do the same, even if you don't have.

2801
09:08:26.760 --> 09:08:32.120
Any feelings of tension that are obvious in your upper back.

2802
09:08:34.040 --> 09:08:38.919
You just focus on your back and the whole area

2803
09:08:39.120 --> 09:08:43.559
and the shoulder blades down to the middle of your

2804
09:08:43.639 --> 09:08:47.879
back there the spine, and with me, it's more the

2805
09:08:48.000 --> 09:08:49.199
shoulder blades than.

2806
09:08:54.360 --> 09:08:59.760
Yeah, that's the parts that I really sort of giving me.

2807
09:09:01.519 --> 09:09:01.839
Did not.

2808
09:09:03.760 --> 09:09:06.040
That it needs to relax in the Soun's gonna ask

2809
09:09:06.160 --> 09:09:09.599
that part to relax and you can do the same.

2810
09:09:09.519 --> 09:09:36.279
Now relapsing up the back. There's something strange happened now,

2811
09:09:36.760 --> 09:09:39.440
And this often happens.

2812
09:09:39.480 --> 09:09:40.400
I've been doing this for.

2813
09:09:43.279 --> 09:09:51.239
Sixteen years or something, and often one surprised that amazed,

2814
09:09:51.319 --> 09:09:57.199
really bad. There can be a feeling. So when I

2815
09:09:57.400 --> 09:10:00.839
was focusing on the back of my neck, my upper

2816
09:10:00.919 --> 09:10:05.800
back was starting to feel quite stressed and in need

2817
09:10:05.959 --> 09:10:11.279
of attention. As soon as I started talking to you

2818
09:10:11.559 --> 09:10:16.720
about my upper back and talking about, you know, getting

2819
09:10:16.760 --> 09:10:21.519
ready to ask the upper back to relax, why the

2820
09:10:21.599 --> 09:10:27.239
back already started to relax. It's almost as if it

2821
09:10:27.360 --> 09:10:37.639
doesn't need to hear the words, just needs attention, just

2822
09:10:37.839 --> 09:10:50.279
needs to be noticed. That is something that often happens

2823
09:10:50.720 --> 09:10:57.919
in this type of situation is when you start to

2824
09:10:58.080 --> 09:11:03.120
relax a couple of parts of your body, as we've

2825
09:11:03.199 --> 09:11:09.800
done with our hands and eyes and eyelids, and now

2826
09:11:11.040 --> 09:11:11.400
back of.

2827
09:11:11.440 --> 09:11:16.519
The neck, top of the bag.

2828
09:11:18.160 --> 09:11:21.519
At the back, the rest of the body seems to

2829
09:11:21.760 --> 09:11:30.440
just take notice and decide in its own way to

2830
09:11:30.639 --> 09:11:37.720
start relaxing. Other parts of your body start to just

2831
09:11:39.480 --> 09:11:46.839
become looser. I suppose it's kind of like a bit

2832
09:11:46.879 --> 09:11:51.400
of an avalanche, you know, the little balls starts rolling

2833
09:11:51.599 --> 09:11:54.480
and before you know, the whole of your body is

2834
09:11:54.639 --> 09:12:07.199
completely relaxed and can't And if you focus on your face,

2835
09:12:12.400 --> 09:12:19.080
if you focus on your eyes, the eyelids, your eyebrowns,

2836
09:12:19.279 --> 09:12:28.160
and the muscles around your eyes, and then you start

2837
09:12:28.239 --> 09:12:33.319
to notice that your forehead is more relaxed than it was.

2838
09:12:35.400 --> 09:12:40.760
Maybe your face is more relaxed. I would say my

2839
09:12:41.080 --> 09:12:44.959
entire face is a lot more relaxed than the words.

2840
09:12:56.239 --> 09:13:02.040
So we're going to focus now on your shoulders again,

2841
09:13:02.279 --> 09:13:07.040
just like before. Just tell your shoulders. I mean, you

2842
09:13:07.120 --> 09:13:08.400
can't do them in the digital.

2843
09:13:08.559 --> 09:13:09.519
You can do the right.

2844
09:13:09.519 --> 09:13:10.680
Shoulder and their shoulder.

2845
09:13:12.239 --> 09:13:14.360
I just can't do both at the same time.

2846
09:13:16.440 --> 09:13:19.680
Just tell your shoulders as you focus on them in

2847
09:13:19.760 --> 09:13:22.680
your mind, focus on them and.

2848
09:13:22.720 --> 09:13:28.239
You feel maybe you can see them in your mind's eye.

2849
09:13:31.800 --> 09:13:33.480
Just tell your shoulders.

2850
09:13:36.760 --> 09:14:28.199
To relax as nice as they relax. But I do notice,

2851
09:14:29.879 --> 09:14:36.639
I mean, especially with my bank, is the connection between

2852
09:14:36.839 --> 09:14:47.480
the different parts the bank, the shoulders, the neck being

2853
09:14:47.519 --> 09:14:52.239
all connected and being such a large part of your body,

2854
09:14:55.239 --> 09:15:03.800
it's almost hard to separate them from each other. My

2855
09:15:03.959 --> 09:15:06.160
luller back is starting to relax.

2856
09:15:05.800 --> 09:15:06.559
On the same.

2857
09:15:12.559 --> 09:15:17.279
Maybe you're going too slow and that could be an

2858
09:15:17.319 --> 09:15:24.760
issue because we all go at different speeds. And the

2859
09:15:24.919 --> 09:15:27.800
idea at the beginning of this recording was for you

2860
09:15:28.000 --> 09:15:42.839
to be able to just say to yourself, relax without

2861
09:15:43.040 --> 09:15:49.319
focusing on any particular part of your body. Because when

2862
09:15:49.360 --> 09:15:59.199
you know that tenning your hands to relax, in your

2863
09:15:59.400 --> 09:16:08.080
hands relax, you tell your eyelids and your eyes, the

2864
09:16:08.239 --> 09:16:18.400
muscles around your eyes and your eyebrows to relax and

2865
09:16:18.559 --> 09:16:31.400
they relax. Until the back of your neck to relax

2866
09:16:36.120 --> 09:16:37.519
and it relaxes.

2867
09:16:45.519 --> 09:16:46.959
You tell your upper back.

2868
09:16:53.440 --> 09:17:27.480
To relax and did relaxes. Thetoria's shoulders to relax, and

2869
09:17:27.680 --> 09:17:55.400
they relaxed. When you told your hands to relax, they relaxed,

2870
09:17:55.919 --> 09:18:06.839
and they continued to relax. H And you told your eyelids,

2871
09:18:09.199 --> 09:18:16.839
the muscles around your eyes, your eyebrows to relax, they relaxed.

2872
09:18:20.400 --> 09:18:31.440
They continue to relac And you told the back of

2873
09:18:31.519 --> 09:18:34.919
your neck go give on the back of your neck.

2874
09:18:38.400 --> 09:18:45.440
And told you to relax. They relaxed.

2875
09:18:47.279 --> 09:18:50.319
And continued to relax.

2876
09:18:58.519 --> 09:19:06.839
And you told you a half back to relax, be

2877
09:19:07.000 --> 09:19:24.559
relaxed and continued to relax. That's with your shoulders, told

2878
09:19:24.599 --> 09:19:32.919
your shoulders to relax. In your shoulders relaxed and continued

2879
09:19:38.040 --> 09:19:38.760
to relax.

2880
09:19:44.400 --> 09:19:49.360
And it's not just that, it's.

2881
09:19:52.040 --> 09:19:56.480
With the rest of your body has also been listening

2882
09:19:58.120 --> 09:20:04.279
and their relaxation. It's been spreading. So from your eyes,

2883
09:20:04.599 --> 09:20:11.720
the relaxation spread to your forehead, around your face.

2884
09:20:11.760 --> 09:20:15.160
Into your skin, into your jaw.

2885
09:20:24.279 --> 09:20:28.440
Into the front and sides of the neck, all the

2886
09:20:28.519 --> 09:20:42.319
way down your chest and stuff. Relaxed hands and shoulders, met.

2887
09:20:42.239 --> 09:20:50.680
Up through your arms, resing the full arms, your out.

2888
09:20:50.800 --> 09:20:57.599
Arms, elbows or wrists, letting know.

2889
09:21:05.160 --> 09:21:06.000
The lower bag.

2890
09:21:09.680 --> 09:21:13.800
It's staticspline.

2891
09:21:13.720 --> 09:21:16.919
And just start to relax and take.

2892
09:21:20.279 --> 09:21:20.720
Comfort.

2893
09:21:22.360 --> 09:21:24.160
Spreading through your legs.

2894
09:21:29.080 --> 09:21:31.279
All the way down your.

2895
09:21:31.199 --> 09:21:42.879
Ankles, WAPs your feet, the side of your feet, and

2896
09:21:43.040 --> 09:21:53.319
the bottoms of your feet relaxing into your.

2897
09:21:53.319 --> 09:22:00.000
Toes in tone, relaxing.

2898
09:22:07.199 --> 09:22:20.480
Place and its.

2899
09:22:20.279 --> 09:22:45.639
Your body relaxes, warmth. Your mind becomes slow, peaceful, to the.

2900
09:22:45.760 --> 09:22:59.080
Point where if he choose to all asleep, he can

2901
09:23:00.120 --> 09:23:16.519
easily do that. Easy to do it because there's nothing

2902
09:23:16.639 --> 09:23:18.080
go on in your mind.

2903
09:23:21.480 --> 09:23:22.080
To praise.

2904
09:23:22.519 --> 09:23:23.400
It's peaceful.

2905
09:23:31.760 --> 09:24:06.919
Important teams right with that connection between your body. Relacs

2906
09:24:07.040 --> 09:24:11.400
in the word you say to yourself.

2907
09:24:13.839 --> 09:24:24.959
Relates means that you don't need to focus on just

2908
09:24:25.279 --> 09:24:32.839
one part. You can just focus on your entire body,

2909
09:24:39.360 --> 09:24:57.120
saying about a word relates and it's uh.

2910
09:24:58.720 --> 09:25:01.720
Th tell me there.

2911
09:25:03.120 --> 09:25:19.080
Sensations of comforts spreading throughout your body, the same calming

2912
09:25:21.519 --> 09:25:32.400
and easing, every power to your body, feeding.

2913
09:25:34.040 --> 09:25:37.720
More writs.

2914
09:25:53.080 --> 09:25:56.319
All you need to do now is just.

2915
09:25:58.160 --> 09:25:59.400
Tell yourself.

2916
09:26:14.599 --> 09:26:57.160
Eight now, starting now, number twenty nineteen eighteen.

2917
09:27:00.199 --> 09:27:22.160
Six six.

2918
09:27:37.559 --> 09:29:08.199
Six four, you will.

2919
09:29:14.000 --> 09:29:53.279
Assassatatatatatatatatatata yes.

2920
09:30:00.279 --> 09:36:26.040
Attatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatata attatatatatata.

2921
09:37:38.160 --> 09:40:27.440
What one.

2922
09:40:33.519 --> 09:40:43.879
Seven camps down from ten to one.

2923
09:40:45.760 --> 09:41:01.000
Ten nine, eight, seven, six five four.

2924
09:41:03.800 --> 09:41:07.319
Three two.

2925
09:41:09.760 --> 09:41:19.599
One, And maybe that was a bit too quick in

2926
09:41:19.760 --> 09:41:24.319
order to relax. Maybe it's too fast for you to

2927
09:41:25.680 --> 09:41:34.319
notice the calming of your body, maybe even a little

2928
09:41:34.319 --> 09:41:37.839
bit of pressure there life And you'll count it down.

2929
09:41:37.680 --> 09:41:38.599
From ten to one.

2930
09:41:38.720 --> 09:41:42.120
Would you expect me to do? Man, expect me to

2931
09:41:42.160 --> 09:41:46.360
stick all with flopy just because you're counting down.

2932
09:41:51.839 --> 09:41:55.800
And try it again, but this time I'll go this slower.

2933
09:41:58.040 --> 09:42:05.199
This time, you focus on the hold of your body before.

2934
09:42:04.959 --> 09:42:06.360
You gopus on your legs.

2935
09:42:08.800 --> 09:42:09.959
Just notice.

2936
09:42:11.120 --> 09:42:12.440
How your body does.

2937
09:42:14.000 --> 09:42:19.040
Start to feel more relaxed.

2938
09:42:25.199 --> 09:42:28.040
Every number that I count down.

2939
09:42:31.279 --> 09:43:07.559
Ten nine at eight, seven, six, one.

2940
09:43:17.879 --> 09:43:25.839
Four three.

2941
09:44:00.440 --> 09:44:17.599
What I just notice how how you feel generally, how

2942
09:44:17.639 --> 09:44:27.160
your body feels. It's not necessarily even about.

2943
09:44:28.559 --> 09:44:33.480
Yeah, counting down from ten to one.

2944
09:44:36.440 --> 09:44:49.839
It's that space that you have, that space between being

2945
09:44:53.400 --> 09:44:57.440
active physically or mentally.

2946
09:44:58.279 --> 09:44:58.839
It's just.

2947
09:45:03.559 --> 09:45:08.720
Sitting or lying down, just being there, not doing anything,

2948
09:45:08.919 --> 09:45:12.040
not saying anything or indeed.

2949
09:45:11.760 --> 09:45:17.000
And to think about anything. So those the other things up.

2950
09:45:16.959 --> 09:45:21.400
The space, you know, a bit of a space, the gap.

2951
09:45:27.639 --> 09:45:31.279
And the more I came down for tens of monns,

2952
09:45:32.360 --> 09:45:40.400
the bigger that gap becomes. So there's that gap of calmness,

2953
09:45:41.839 --> 09:45:56.839
of comfort and relaxation. It's a nice feeling, and it

2954
09:45:57.120 --> 09:46:07.120
moves those stresses or discomforts physically or emotionally, moves them.

2955
09:46:08.599 --> 09:46:09.199
A way.

2956
09:46:15.800 --> 09:46:16.800
Allows you.

2957
09:46:19.440 --> 09:46:19.959
To just.

2958
09:46:22.959 --> 09:46:23.599
Slow down.

2959
09:46:27.239 --> 09:46:29.680
So I'm going to count again from ten down to one,

2960
09:46:30.120 --> 09:46:40.279
and notice that gap widening, the gap, and this it widens.

2961
09:46:40.400 --> 09:46:46.120
It's almost like the stress and attention falls.

2962
09:46:46.000 --> 09:47:06.959
Into the gap gives you that distance, that space. Now

2963
09:47:11.680 --> 09:47:26.040
ten nine, eight.

2964
09:47:31.440 --> 09:48:14.760
Seven six by fours.

2965
09:48:12.800 --> 09:48:26.559
Assassa three.

2966
09:49:01.319 --> 09:49:16.959
What how did you? What did you do?

2967
09:49:19.400 --> 09:49:19.599
Now?

2968
09:49:33.040 --> 09:50:14.879
Just say you didn't come seas focus on let's go.

2969
09:50:31.599 --> 09:50:51.680
It's gonna start focusing on the die, the course of

2970
09:50:51.839 --> 09:51:01.720
a Christ, exciting things agin should like most of your body.

2971
09:51:02.480 --> 09:51:16.040
One not going wrong, just fokes hold of the files,

2972
09:51:18.839 --> 09:51:25.480
the tops of the files, the size of the bottoms

2973
09:51:25.559 --> 09:51:32.239
of the fires, A count of thumbs or dies, and

2974
09:51:32.839 --> 09:51:42.720
the older five leads into my guns down.

2975
09:51:45.080 --> 09:51:45.319
M h.

2976
09:51:51.040 --> 09:52:02.480
And it is a begay yeah h it extinguished.

2977
09:52:03.440 --> 09:52:24.519
What do you like to thinks? H?

2978
09:52:34.040 --> 09:53:12.279
No, don't do books.

2979
09:53:16.279 --> 09:53:16.400
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