Aug. 3, 2025

(music) Uncle Sausages is in Sausage Heaven | Whisper Sunday | LMBYTS #1403 | Jason Newland | 3rd August 2025

(music) Uncle Sausages is in Sausage Heaven | Whisper Sunday | LMBYTS #1403 | Jason Newland | 3rd August 2025
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Hello, and welcome to Jasonnewland dot com. My name is

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Jason Newland. Please only listen when you can saintly goosise.

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This is Whisper Sunday. This is Sunday is Sunday. Yeah,

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So I'm going to talk about some stuff todays. This

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might not be the correct thing to listen to go

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to sleep, because I'm just gonna talk about how I'm

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feeling a start off with uh kind of I'll just

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say it that night, will just say instead of being

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around the bush uncurse sausages passed away on during the

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night last night. Not it was actually after I found

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out after I made the recording yesterday, so stewing Friday night.

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He passed away peacefully. And it's really weird. It's just

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I can't I can't grasp but my mind around what's happened.

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It doesn't make sense to me. Logically, I can get it.

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He was ill and he died, you know, he had

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a serious illness and he's organs shut down and he

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passed away. It's a symbol really, but at the same time,

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six weeks ago he was fine, but he wasn't.

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But he he felt fine.

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It's just weird. Just in such a short time, especially

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the last week. I can't. I feel guilty because of

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the COVID, I wasn't able to visit him for a week.

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I saw him twice before he left, so I saw

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him on Thursday and Friday, and I knew that he

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was near the end. The nurses said that, you know,

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he had hours, if not days left, so I knew that.

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So it's not a shock in a sense, but it's

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an overall shock to my life. Yeah, I just I'm

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just confused. I'm not very confused. Yes, I can't. Yeah,

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I'm trying to make sense of it in a positive way.

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You know. I'm not sitting here feeling sorry for myself

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or being overly dramatic or I don't think. But why

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I have noticed. Wow, if I noticed is yesterday I

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was very irritable, to the point of wanting to shout

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out the window for the neighbors to shut the fuck up.

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So I said, I was really if I did shout,

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but not out of the window, cause I'm making so

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much noise and it was bugging me. And it bugs

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me anyway, but this is like on a it was

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bugging me on a different level of intensity and I

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wanted to do something. I wanted to physically do something,

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which is I used to be when I was younger,

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and i'm, you know, a bit more chilled with age

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and just not just age, but with practice and purposely

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it's trying to calm myself now. And I had a

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little retaste of that feelings, and yeah, I didn't like it. Anger,

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I guess just had a bit of anger in me.

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I am angry about him that this is sad because

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it's not okay, this is not necessarily logical or nice.

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But I know some horrible people. I know some people

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that are just they've got no redeeming qualities. Maybe they

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have both hidden from me, and they've done horrible things

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to people, and they continue to do it. And then

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you've got Uncle Sausages who didn't cause problems for anyone. Really,

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you just kept to himself as a nice man, loved them,

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very passionate about sport, excited every day about the next

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day coming up. Now, I'm not saying I think other

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people should suffer instead of him. That's not what I'm saying.

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I just don't think he should have suffered. If we

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push it even further, really, he deserves to be alive

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more than me because he's nicer. He's a nicer person

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than me. It's really he appreciated being alive more than

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I ever have. You know, I'm miserable out kid. A

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lot of the time he was happy. He was a

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happy man, and that just makes me feel a bit

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of a fraud or unappreciateive towards what I do. They have,

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which at the moment is I guess I've got a

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degree of health. I don't know what my health is like,

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but I'm here. I don't feel healthy, to be honest,

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but I feel I'm here. I feel better than I

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did last week, as for sure, But or do I

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I don't know what days it's Sunday, Monday, you know

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where when I had COVID. I mean, I didn't feel

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great then. But maybe I am just feeling sorry for myself.

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But I don't think I am. I'm just upset. And

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then there's the whole I mean, I feel bad that

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I didn't get to see him for that week because

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he was upset with me. I was trying to explain

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to him I was ill. Can you just come and

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bring me some drinks? And I said, no, I'm ill.

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You don't don't get it. I'm ready, and it's very

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hard to tell someone that's terminally ill that you're ill

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was a cold and expect them to have some kind

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of sympathy. Now I didn't know it's COVID, but I mean,

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COVID is a cold, isn't it's a flu. It's the

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people have at different levels. Mine wasn't bad. I was

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just ill, and then I was then I was recovered.

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My uncle had and he didn't recover back into Fairy twenty.

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So that's the reason why I didn't go into hospital,

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well apart from the fact that's against the law. But

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once I found out was COVID, now I know some

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people would just say, Okay, well, I'm gonna go and

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visit my friend. I'm gonna carry on what I'm doing.

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The rules don't apply to me now I know, and

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maybe in the park. I don't know if i'd have

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been like that in the past, but I'd like to

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think I wouldn't because I think my uncle was ill,

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so he was very poorly and COVID got him, so

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COVID finished him off. I didn't want to do that

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to other people because you know, Uncle's sausages his was peaceful.

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If I'd have got in there with COVID, his last

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week might have been atrocious. So I don't yet. I

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know I've already talked about that. The idea of like

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spreading COVID to people, It's not really my thing, even colds,

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because I know some people tell I did get a

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message about this and thinking you know you are, but

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about you know, having like a low immune system and

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stuff and doing the right thing sometimes is the good idea.

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Last year, I went to see a nurse to had

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my annual check up. Thing. My stomach's gurgling, so like

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my anal chatter, my anal chatter, my anal check up

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is cause of the bipolar and on my medications. So

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they checked my left on my kidneys and my I

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suppose my heart, my blood and you know, they tore

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that jacket to make sure that I'm okay, which is

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a positive thing. Mean last time, they found out that

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my blood sugar level was very low. Yeah, I wonder

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they're gonna give me my next medical So I stopped

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awning sugar and cut down. I've not cut down and

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played LEVI and I did lose weight. I'm under I'm

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under fifteen stone. Now I was sixteen stone, so I'm offering.

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I'm moving between fourteen and a half and fifteen. That's

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kind of my offering stage now. And I am slimmer,

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which is good. Oh yeah, the nurse was wearing a mask.

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This isn't my doctor's practice, the GP practice. So I said,

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you taught me to wear a mask. She said no,

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it's okay. I said, we can share if you like,

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which is a weird thing to say. And she's explained

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to me that she was immune deficient, so she had

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a condition where her immune system was practically zero, so

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she wore a mask. And you know what, again, no,

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I think I did wear a mask. Yeah, I did

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wear a mask. And again I was like that somebody

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can mention she's chosen to do a job where she's

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putting her own life at risk every day. She could

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be sitting at home, keeping away from people, but no,

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she goes to work and she helps people in an environment.

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So she's a nurse. She's around all kinds of you know,

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illnesses and stuff. Just every time she steps inside the

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doctor surgery, she's surrounded by people that are unwell. She

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chooses to do that to help people That's amazing, isn't it. Really?

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I think about it. What a phenomenal person. That's dedication.

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If you wanna be a record breaker, Yes, and that's

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that's it. Really, it's four o'clock. That's the gold class.

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Four in the morning. Went to about at eight o'clock

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last night. Okay, I'll be honest, I'd just been restless.

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I was restless during the night. I was restless to

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night before. There's something I just a little bit disturbed

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about the whole thing. I'm now wondering if the some

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of the neighbors are planning to break into his flat

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to try and see if there's anything worth stealing so

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I can buy themselves crack. And that's not even exaggeration.

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That's what they're like around him, some of them.

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It's weird. So I can have a new two new

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Dennants or living in his place in the next few months.

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I wonder what it's gonna be. Will there be decent people,

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will be more of the same, more chaos, and it

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tends to be what happens now. I was just thinking

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about over the fence, so we had the amount of

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chaotic people we had living over there over the years.

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Seriously it's just there's one flag and there's been three

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tenants that have all been absolute. I'll just I was

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supposed to find my boss, the right word, but the

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degree of chaos. There was a couple living there. There's

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been a few people lived there since I've lived there,

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but his a couple and they always argue it and

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the pluck in there. He would, yeah, he would order

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palettes and he would break up the palettes during the

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day and burn them at night. They did this for

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like a whole summer, and then one night he set

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fire to the lawn. So I just wake up and

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I noticed that the garden's very bright out there over

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the fence. So I go outside and the lawn it

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basically he was using a dust bin to light the

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you know, to have the fire in, and the dustbin

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had fallen over, so it had spread all over the

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grass and the grass was on fire. And I came

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outside just to sort of check it out cause I

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wanted to, you know, make sure it didn't spread. And

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the bloke was upset that I was outside and we

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doing okay, So that was weird. Another time, his girlfriend

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was over here. She was lying in the road outside.

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She wasn't injured. She's just lying in the road and

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her boyfriend was smashing up the furniture in the flat,

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and it was like weird. They moved out, They probably

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got kicked out. And then another lady moved in the

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sac flat and she used to scream at herself. She'd

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have arguments with herself and went on for hours, like

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you know, daily, And then she left, and then we

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got another one moving really loud, just loud, and it's

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hard for me. I grew up in chaos, being around

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crazy people, shouting and aggressive and swearing and doing stupid

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things and saying horrible things, and so I grew up

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in that. I spent years living that lifestyle when I

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was very young. I didn't like it then, I don't

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like it now now I have my moments. I'll be honest,

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like my moments when I'm a little bit like that myself,

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but I don't. I don't involve other people. I keep

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it to myself. I know we're all different, but I

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don't live a chaotic lifestyle, and I won't. I can't

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do that. I mean, it's part of the reason why

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I didn't reproduce. It's a part of the reason why

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I'm not in a relationship with someone these gonna be

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I don't know. I just don't want that kind of

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lifestyle shouting and arguing. Just now, my stomach's gurgling, really

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had it's a proper gurglar. Yeah I'm not. I didn't.

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I mean, I know this is a counsel of state,

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but it's like it's only a few people, honestly, Like

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in my blog, everyone's fine. Now, okay, there's a there's

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a I help with everyone, but there's you know, there's

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always going to be problematic people. But it don't really

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cause me problems. It's just they're living a lifestyle that

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I don't. I'm not into. And most of the time

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the people on this state are pretty cool, which just

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takes a few who wanted.

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To rely read loud, obnoxious individuals. And there's one that.

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Just spends this things of being in the garden all

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the time shouting, and then another neighbor always manages to

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be friend wherever new people move in. There's a family

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that loved this estate, but don't they live They don't

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live in the council bar, but their family have been

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there forever and they just love to be friends with

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the people on this little council probably they've been doing

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it probably for forty to fifty years. So when someone

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knew moves in, they'll find a way in so they

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can go into their home and they can spend time

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here and make lots of noise. And I don't really

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get it, to be honest. I mean, I was curious

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about what Luke's old flat would look like once he

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moved out and a new person moved in. So I

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was curious about that. And I have been in there

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because the neighbor fired me in and it was like

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a different flat enough, is weird? The same, same rooms,

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completely different. And I have been in every flat apart

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from one, So I've seen all the different flats in

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this building. But m h, and they've all been in

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my flat as well, including the one that I've not

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been in. He's only been in there a couple of times.

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Yeah, yeah, lah bah.

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Ba, I'm just talking for the sake of talking now

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one night. So that really that sort of is his

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uncle sausages passed away. See why I didn't realize. I

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guess I didn't realize how ill he was. I said,

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he to say that now, isn't he now? He's dead.

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It's like, obviously he was ill, but he was I

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mean to say that he was really ill. He's also

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just an obvious statement, but there was there was a

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question mark that he had and I had. We had questions. So, okay,

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so he's got this thing. Why can't they do anything

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about it? Why can't they remove it? Give him surgery,

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give him some hope, something, And they said there's nothing

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they could do. And his question I kind of felt.

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We had this conversation outside a few weeks ago in

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the sun, and I kind of understood where he was

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coming from because I felt the same way. So why

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can't they do something? And I said to the nurse

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at the time, why can't you just give him an

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operation and try and do something. She said, he wouldn't

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survive an operation. I said, that's not a bad thing,

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giveing his condition and whatever. I'm not saying it's a

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good thing. He doesn't survive, but give him that option

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to go peacefully and he won't know anything about it'll

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be on her prey at the table and if it

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helps him, it helps him if and if if that's it,

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then that's it. And she said, no, it doesn't work

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like that operations are expensive and they don't do them

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unless there's a chance that's can help. I don't know.

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There's also a part of me thinking about him places

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and what use is it in situations like this. Yeah,

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I just wonder. On Thursday, he was very restless old

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Uncle sausages and I started to talk to him, and

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I did do some hypnosis with him, trying to again

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to just calm down, to relax his body. And I

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didn't really get a chance to do it properly, but

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I told him that because he kept moving around, he

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was unconscious, but he was moving around arms, raising his

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arms up and his legs is very uncomfortable. He was

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clearly cause he was moving around. But at the same

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time he may have been dreaming. I don't know, but

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I told him that his arms were heavy, and when

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I said that to him, he stopped moving his arms around.

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And I probably talked to him for maybe ten minutes,

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maybe longer, just telling him, but it's okay to relax,

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it's okay to let go. And I sat down on

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Friday as well. That's telling him it's okay toct to

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let go. Doesn't have to struggle anymore, doesn't have to

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hold on, it's okay to let go. But on Friday

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he was completely relaxed. He was on a morphine thing,

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morphine drip or drive or wherever it's called. And then

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he's just lying there. I think. I mean, it's natural

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to be thinking about my own life. I suppose in

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situations like this, what have I done? What have I accomplished?

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Has there been any purpose to my existence? It's kind

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of the questions I've got. Maybe another nicer way is

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what is my legacy? Well, I'll just be forgotten. Maybe

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that's it, just be forgotten. But then there's some people

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that I think do get to live on in memories,

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different kinds of memories. So you've got famous writers, musicians

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from hundreds and hundreds and hundreds of years ago, something

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thousands of years ago, but we don't necessarily know what

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they were like as people. I think you can probably

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get kind of an idea what I'm like, kind of phaps.

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Some of my recordings not necessarily a good thing. Thousands

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of hours of me talking thousands Is that my legacy?

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Just to leave my ramblings? I don't know. There's no

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boxing on last night this month, I think, apart from

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one fight on the sixteenth August. There ain't much going on,

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which is a shame. And in September finished a couple

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of big fights. There's a big year November. I think

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there's a big one as well, David Benevitez against Calamu Smith.

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David Benevitez is going to win that. Davy Bevas So

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he's now the world champion light heavyweight. He was one

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one three times super lightweight, a super middleweight champion. He

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won it. Wait a minute, he was the interims of

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twice and then he was interim I think anyway, he's

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really great. David benefit is he's pretty much my favorite boxer,

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but he hasn't been fighting hugely regularly the last few

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years because he was just drawling water waiting to fight Canelo,

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and Canelo wouldn't fight him. So in the end he

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went up to light everyway and then that was wherever

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he went, it was blocked. Canelo held all the titles,

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and then he went up to light everyway and all

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the titles were all clogged up there as well. And

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kindly Bivel has to well he did have to be

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gave up one of the titles because he's choosing to

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have another fight with what's his name? Previous champion, better

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be so before and him. I think they're having a

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third fight. The first fight better be everyone. What was

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it a draw? I can't remember. I think it might

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have been a draw, blimey. The second one, befol one,

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the third one. I don't know. I'll always give it

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to Befol because he's so good to me. He's gonna

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put him down. It's pound personally pound for pound number one,

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maybe not, I don't know. I think it's sick deserves

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to be number one pound for pound. Maybe it's hard

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when you got different weight boxes to really to compare

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someone like inery who is he has to wear heavy birds.

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He doesn't float off. He's so light, and you've got

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boosics heavy heavyweight. I don't know how much he weighs,

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doesn't weigh a lot. Actually fifteen half sixteen stones. It's

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not heavy. He's heavy, but it's not like heavy heavy.

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Everyone he finds it's a lot heavier than it. Yeah,

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so I suppose I should just come into my breakfast

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now watch a bad TV. My brain's an been fake

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at the moment. Just I don't don't show what to

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do with myself. I won't thank you for listening. Remember

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to be kind to yourself because you do deserve to

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be happy. Be gentle with yourself. You deserve to feel safe.

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Lots of love, bye,