Sept. 3, 2025

(music) Tidying Up | LMBYTS #1427 | Jason Newland | 3rd September 2025

(music) Tidying Up | LMBYTS #1427 | Jason Newland | 3rd September 2025
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Hello and welcome to Jasondewland dot com. My name's Jason Newland. This.

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What's he doing? This is let me boy to sleep.

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Before I started this recording, then he was cuddled up

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to me on the sofa, just chilling out. As soon

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as I start talking, literally, I'm getting a thing set up,

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getting a microphone put there in front of me and

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all that stuff. The second I start talking. As soon

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as I say hello and welcome to Jasonnewland dot com,

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he jumps off and goes and finds something to chew on.

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It is the same as when he's like down, because

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you'll probably end up at the end of this recording

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back here lying down next to me. And as soon

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as I say, well, thank you for listening, Remember to

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be kind to yourself, blah blah blah, lots of love bye,

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he jumps up. So I don't know why. I think

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it might be because you're a dog. I don't know.

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I don't know. So it's Wednesday. I don't know what

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day of the month. What month is September? Yes, definitely September, Thursday,

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the third of September, two thoy and twenty five. It's

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currently eleven minutes to nine pm, hm, I haven't. I

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haven't made a recording since Saturday. Not really felt particularly well,

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not not really yeah, not not yeah, just not not

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felt great. So I'm still not feeling particularly great. But

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I thought, because the statistics are so ridiculously bad on

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my podcast statistics, I thought I'd better make a recording

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because literally, honest today, according to the stats right now,

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so far today, bearing in mind, there's only three hours

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or four hours left, because I think it starts at

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one in the morning, but let's say it's just over

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three hours left of the day. One hundred and seventy

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four downloads, So my podcasts have been listened by maximum

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one hundred and seventy four people in a whole day. Now,

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I'm not bragging, obviously that's really low. That's like, now,

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I'd be pleased with that. Probably the first few months,

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maybe even the first year or two of making recordings,

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I wouldn't. But you know, I'm just saying it's like,

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potentially it's one hundred and seventy four people. That's quite

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a lot of people. But I always thought that maybe

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some of my older stuff might be listen to if

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I don't make a new recording every day. But doesn't

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seem to be the case, which you know, it's fair

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enough whatever, because you know, we want what we want,

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don't we We like what we like. And I suppose

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it would be kind of weird in some ways listening

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to a recording from two thoy and nineteen, for example,

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because I'm talking about things, very different things to what

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I would talk about now, and there'd be a different

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animal running around making noise. I remember this one time,

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I was sitting over there. I'm pointing. It's not useful,

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it really is it when you can't see what I'm doing,

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but see the other side of the room, and I'm

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at my table and Andre, my little ferret, has got

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strategically placed. I think about five different carrier bags dotted

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around the room, and he's literally running from one to

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the other, rolling around in it, making as much noise

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as possible, and then running over to the next one

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and making as much noise. Like the really crinkly carrier bags,

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ones that perhaps you get from a petrol station, you know,

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the white, white white. They might not be white, but

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they're particularly crinkly, or maybe you get your takeaway in them,

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if you get a takeaway meal or something just you know,

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they'd like the really cheap, flimsy ones that basically you

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can't hold much in them. You wouldn't use it to

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go on holiday with, you know, to packing all your

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gear and all your stuff in. I mean generally you

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shouldn't be taking gear on holiday. Depend depends how you

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use that word. I suppose you could get arrested. Rah.

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So yeah, I that might be weird to listen back

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to those recordings. It might even be weird for me

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because I have started when I've started as and I've

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never done it. But over the last few months, I've

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been listening to my recordings a bit more often, just

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to get a sense of what it's like to listen

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to me me me, and I do send myself to sleep,

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and I've noticed that, even if it's just for a nap,

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I kind of feel better afterwards. So it's kind of yeah,

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I mean it's not the best. Is it a litmus test?

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What do I call it? But you know, doing it

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on myself. But there's side of the garden showing that drummy.

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I don't know who that is. I don't know what

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drummy is with.

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Yeah, weird.

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Drummy. What's drummy, maybe it's a cat. Oh, we're On's

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in London. Well here she goes again. Really weird because

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the window is open. Oh, Vinnie's just noticed it. He

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didn't even notice it, but normally that gets embarking. He

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hears someone in the garden and showering. We're not showing

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but calling rather. Maybe Vinie was just like slightly looking around,

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thinking who's making more noise than me? How dare they?

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He's loving that? Wow? Was there a nap a little

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while ago, about an hour ago half seven, and he

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woke me up and he just stared at me, started

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licking my face and basically pushing me because he wanted

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me to get up. So in the end I said okay,

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and I'd go to take the covers off, and he's

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pushing the covers on me, so I can't get the

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covers off. But make your mind up. You want me

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to get up or you don't want me to get up.

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But I think what he wanted was like a little fight,

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you know, a little playtime. So we had a little

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play He does this thing where he just stares. It's

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really weird waking up to that stare. It's like just

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you know, and then he turns his head from side

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to side. Sometimes it goes all the way around and

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it's just like.

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Just stairs.

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And I'm like, what do you want? And then other

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times he completely ignores me. You know. I try and

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give him something, a little bit of food or something

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which I know he normally likes, it'll turn his head away.

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I don't think I'm never going to figure it ab out.

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What was I going to say? What else? I don't know. Oh, yeah,

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I've been tidying up the last few days. Well I've

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been tidying up for about a month, okay, three years,

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but being focused on it for about a month, and

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they're not they're not focusing on it. It kind of

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all started when I decided to ask my neighbors downstairs

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if they'd helped me to put my TV onto the wall.

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I already had a bracket, bought a bracket like two

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three years ago whatever when I got the TV four

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years ago, I think, so they came up the bracket

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was too small, so and I'm thinking, oh, because I

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had this it was originally well, I had the TV

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on top of a wardrobe, but it was like I

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had the wardrobe on inside and it was just the

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right size to hold this TV because it's quite a

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big TV, but also down I took the door off

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the wardrobe and it left me with that big bit

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in you know, the space. And Andre used to use

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that space for his play area, so all his toys

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was in there, his water and his food. I also

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used it for Vinnie for his water and food as well,

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and it was just a good place to have stuff that,

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you know, could be his stuff. And I kind of

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kept it. So I had it like that for years,

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even though I had the bracket. I kind of liked

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it as it was because it suited the situation, you know.

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And then more recently I decided I didn't want that

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thing here anymore. I wanted it gone, and I wanted

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to it just seemed a little bit cluttered in here

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in this room, in the living room, a little bit,

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a little bit too too much stuff. It's not really bad,

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I two. What I mean is I don't like stuff.

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I don't like obstacles in a room. If possible for me,

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this is my personal preference. I like things to be

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on the near the wall, so the area between the

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walls is kind of clear clear. I'm not talking about

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empty but clearish, so I can get out from here

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and walk over to the door and not have any

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obstacles and not have to walk around anything. In the

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same way, I wouldn't have a table in front of

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my chair. And I've got recliner chair. And before you're thinking, wow,

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he's doing well for himself, he's got a big reclining sofa.

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This is probably about nine hundred years old. It's not

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even it's like probably fifth hand, not secondhand. It's been

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through I don't even want to know where to be

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in the past, and its falling apart. It's broken in fact,

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but it's relatively comfortable, so I'm going to keep a

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bit for a while longer. I've only had it, probably

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only had it only for a few years. Well, I

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probably have had it for about five years. It's ridiculous

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and it only seems like a couple of years, but

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maybe five or six years. I had this because I

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used to have a reclining chair, which was I can

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tell exactly. It's about one hundred and forty nine pounds.

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It was.

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I liked that chair, but I broke it on the

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very first day. Before you shout out, what what did

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you do? Sit in it your big fat bum like

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OI would be rude to me pretty much, it really Yeah,

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And there was one time where I sat I was

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sitting in it and I leant back and the thing

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did break and I got trapped whilst I was doing

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a recording. It was on camera, but I literally got

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trapped backwards against the wall. In fact, I'm still there

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now help. A similar thing happened in a shop. Where

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was that shop? Wow? Where was it? Because I went

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into this shop and they had these chairs way out

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of my price range, but they were really really nice

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chairs and also kind of mechanical. I think some of

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them had like massage and things like that, you know,

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and electrical reclining. I think that basically for very elderly people.

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I think that's maybe people with physical I don't want

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the right word, is the correct word, that need a

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bit of help physically to kind of to recline and

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stuff like that. Because my Nan had a chair because

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she was disabled. I don't want to use the word disabled.

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But it's nothing. It's not a swear word, is it.

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I'm disabled just mentally, I'm not not physically. My Nan

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was disabled because she broke a hip and she had

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this chair which used to not only did it recline,

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it unclined, not sure if that's the right word. She

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could she could sit down. Sitting down wasn't really difficult

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for her. Getting up was so he used to help

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her get up, used to push her out. Coulor hands.

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Culor hands would just like appear from behind and push

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her out of the chair. No, it would kind of

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mechanically straighten up, which would help her to get out

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of the chair, which is amazing. I'm not sure what

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they're called. It's a very expensive chair, but it was

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really good and she didn't like it. She didn't I

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think when she first got it, because she had two

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chairs and a little table in between, and there was

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a sofa the other side of the room. This is

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when she had the sheltered accommodation. So I should explain

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what sheltered accommodation is for people that don't live in

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the UK. It might be the same term wherever you are,

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but it was basically what happened is she broke a

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hip in two thousand and two thousand, No, in yeah,

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two thousand and one summer, and she was still she

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was living in the house where she lived with my

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granddad for many years, but there were stairs, and she

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went back to the house, continued to live her life. Finny,

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can you make a bit more noise please? Thanks? He

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always does as well, whenever say that, it always makes

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bore noise. Very clever. She Yeah, she went back to

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living there because she she loved that house. That was

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her at my granddad's house. It was a family house

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because we lived there before they did, so there's always

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had always been in the family and that was her

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home and she would have had it to be her

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home forever, you know, for the rest of her life.

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But then she was struggling with the stairs, and then

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she unfortunately broke a hip again and the other think

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was the other hip, and then I might not have

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the timeline correct, but I think then she kind of

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had to move somewhere where there was no stairs and

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where there was at least someone that could look out

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for her, somewhere where there was someone on call, you know,

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someone was there most of the time. But she still

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had her own independence. So this flat she had, well

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I'm sure there was some upstairs flats as well, so

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it wasn't just for people that were needed ground floor,

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but she had it's mainly ground floor she had I

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think they even had couples living there. But she had

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this flat, one bedroom flat, and there was a bedroom

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which is quite small, and it was big enough for

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the bed, a wardrobe, built in wardrobe, and that's about it.

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So there wasn't, you know, not ideal if for someone

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that was stuck in bed, or someone that was in

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bed a lot of the time, that would not be

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an ideal flat. But I suppose technically you could just

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put the bed into the living room so there would

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be a lot more room. So you know, it depends.

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You've just got to kind of figure away around it,

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I suppose. So she just did what I did in

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my bedroom. Not okay, that sounded weird, but I mean

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as far as she just slept in there and then

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wasn't in there the rest of the day. She was

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out in the living room. And I'm the same. I

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don't spend any time in my bedroom other than when

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I'm in bed. Now, some people listen to this might

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think yeah, and everyone else as well, everyone does that, well,

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not necessarily, because in the past I lived in many, many,

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many many rooms where all it was was just a bed,

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sometimes a table and a chair, so I would watch TV.

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I would live in a room. You know, I'd be

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going out to work, then i'd get home and I'd

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be in that room. Another weekend, I'd be in that

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room the whole time unless I went out. And yeah,

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I'm just just I guess trying to explain it. It's

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like I got used to living like that. I lived

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like that for a long long time, pretty much most

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of my adult life until I was forty five, So

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you know, for nearly thirty years I lived like that.

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There's been times when I didn't, but most of the time,

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you know, I I've had a couple of studio apartments.

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Never had a flat before like this, not like this,

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like a council flat. I've lived in I've lived in flats,

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I've lived in different places, but most of where I've

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lived has been in one room in a house like shared.

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What do they call it? Multiple occupancy MBOBOM, multiple occupancy

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property MOP MOP. I don't know there's a certain term

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for it. It didn't used to be. It just used

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to be somewhere to live. How they've got terms multiple

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occupancy property MOP. It's a MOP a game, multiple occupancy

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of mom, occupancy of multiple om M, I don't know.

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So that's kind of how I lived my life for

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nearly thirty years old and off, so I was used

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to it. And when I moved in here, cause that's

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how I was. I mean, yes, that's how I was

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living before. Before I moved in here, I was just

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in one room and a and before that, I was

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in one room. And before that, I was in one room.

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And before that, I was in one room. Although I

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did that, I did have access to a living room downstairs.

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And before that, I was in one room. And before that,

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I was in a studio apartment, so it's still one room. Uh.

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Before that, I was in one room. Before that, I

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was in one room. Before that, I was in one room.

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Before that, I was in one room. BlimE me. Before

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that I was in one room. No, I was sharing

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a flat, so it was a living room and I

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had a bedroom, so I was sharing a flat of

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a friend. Before that, I was in one room. Before that,

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I was in a blame me, I was sharing a

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room with someone. Before that I was, I was in

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one room. There was a living room, but I didn't

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use it. I basically just used to sort of spend

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all my time on my own in the room. So yeah,

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I lived in one room. Before that, I lived like

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shared a house. I was just renting a room in

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the house. But I was friends of a person, so

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you know, wasn't so much just living in one room.

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Before that, I was living in one room for four years.

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And then before that, I was living in one room.

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There's quite a few rooms. Yeah, before I was living

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in one room. Before that, I had a studio, a

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little studio thing, so it was one room. So yeah.

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And before that, I was in a room, but I

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could use living room. So I was staying at my

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dad's and before that it was his previous house as well.

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So again I had a bedroom and it was only

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for a few couple of months, about three months, and

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I stayed there, but I could use the living room.

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So I kind of wasn't really stuck to one room.

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But I did used to do that because I've watched

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TV and stuff so when I was working. So yeah,

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before that, I'm doing quite well. I'm going back to

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all different rooms. So before that I was living oh

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oh yeah, I was in London, so again, so I

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was in one room. Before that, I was just staying

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with someone temporarily on the couch. Before that, I was living.

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It was a weird setup because me and a friend

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rented two rooms. I had one room, he had the

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other room. And this was in a house, and I

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had the bedroom and he had the living room, or

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we used his bedroom as a living room. I don't know.

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It's kind of a strange setup. But previously that I

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was living, I was living in a room with him.

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There was two beds, so I was sharing a room,

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sharing a room. I'll be honest with you, I don't

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know how many should do it, but yeah I did.

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I shared a room for it wasn't long, it was

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I don't think it was more much more than a

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month or so. Before that, I had a room, one room,

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but that room that we shared up just one room.

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So yeah, and before that I was in just one room.

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And before that I was just in Well, I'm just

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gonna figure this one out. I moved from there? Where

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do they moved her there from? Oh? Do lu do?

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Do? L do?

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I can't remember? Oh? Okay, Yeah, I was sharing. I

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was living in someone's flat. I was sleeping on the

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floor while a little basically cushions made from the sofa

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from the sofa cushions, so it wasn't really a home

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as such. And before that, I was living in a room.

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And before that, this is very repetitive, isn't it. Before that,

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now this isn't This isn't the same, This isn't organized correctly.

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Wait a minute, before that? Before that? Before? Where was

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I before that? I'm losing track of where I am now?

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L okay on s Yeah, yeah, that's weird. Well fair enough.

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So before that I was in a room and then

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cause yeah, I went to Spain for the day and

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then got kicked out there. So before yeah, so before

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that place, I was living at my dad's for a

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little while for a couple of months. And before that

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I was living in a room. Before that, I was

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living in a room. And before that, I was living

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in a flat above the co op supermarket. That was

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what nineteen eighty eight, and I had a room, I

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mean there was I s I've always I spent most

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of the time in my room, but there was a

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l there was a living room there as well, sort

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of a TV and stuff. But I've always kind of

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preferred to just be on me own anyway, So that

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would be I thought I quite liked living there. Well.

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It was handy cause it was downstairs the walk. In fact,

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I think I was later. I was getting getting to

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work later than I was before. Yeah, And then going

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back I was Yeah. Then before that, I was living

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at my dad's again for a little while. Then I'm

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going backwards and I wow. Then before that I was

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living at the chip shop, so I had my own flat.

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I'm gonna have missed. I've missed some of the things

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out but it's fine. And then before that, I can't

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remember every single place I've moved around so many. Oh,

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I've missed the whole I've missed the chunk out. There

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was another place I live. I lived in a council flat.

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This was a few years back, and I had a room.

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It was weird. It was quite a sad story. But

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I want to tell you the whole story. But it

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was Jim, my friend Jim who I worked with, and

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he just said, you want to move in. Lovely man,

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really lovely, really got on well with him, and I

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worked with him for a little while and then I

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didn't see him for Yeah, I didn't see him, probably

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just a couple of weeks. I didn't see him because

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of something that happened at work. And then I see

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him outside of work and he's like saying, well, things

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aren't going so well and he's wants to try and

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rent his room out. So I thought, well, I'll help

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him out. He's helping me out as well. And yes,

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I moved into his council flat. Spent most of my

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time in the room when I wasn't working. But I

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didn't have to. You know, I could have gone, well

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I did. I always went and said low to him.

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I didn't. The thing is he was he liked to drink,

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but he was he was. He was a nice person,

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whether sober or drunk. He was just just a really

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nice person. And but I didn't back then, I never

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drunk alcohol. Yeah, cause I was what was I um

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bum ba bum bum bum. I was nineteen. Yeah, I

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was nineteen at the time. I didn't didn't never was

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still a teenager. I didn't just drink, just didn't drink.

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It wasn't wasn't something I did. And then yeah, so

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going back even further to the chip shop, I lived

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above the chip shop, so I did have my own

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living room. So I had a bedroom, living room, kitchen,

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and bathroom. Had to share the bathroom with the public,

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the customers from downstairs, which wasn't ideal. And eventually I

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moved pretty much everything into the living room and I

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just it's weird. So I ended up just sleeping on

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the floor. I sold everything I do it. It's one

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of those things. I ended up with nothing but a

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few tapes to listen to, Michael Jackson tapes and a

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few little bit of clothing and that was it. And

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then before that, I was sleeping on the floor. Well

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it was a little camper bed in another council flat

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where I yeah, that was when I was fifteen, and

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then I turned sixteen, so I was there from what

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kind of I don't know, early summertime and March the

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next year, so nineteen eighty seven, and I just basically

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slept in the living room. So I mean, technically, you know,

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I did have a TV in my room, but unfortunately

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when I turned it on, my step mother's or my

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step grandmother, my step mother's mother would come in and

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turn it off, which wasn't ideal because you know, I'd

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bear in my mind, I was what fifteen years old,

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sixteen years old, and I just got back from work,

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didn't finish work with nine. I'll get back from work

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and then well, going to bed and I want to

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watch some TV. So I mean, maybe I had the

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TV on too loud. Well I'll keep getting told I did.

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But she would just walking and just turn it off.

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It was like, really, wow, it was Yeah, it's not easy,

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but then it wouldn't have been easy for her. She

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was used to living on her own, so well, yeah,

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she was used to living on her own, so it

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must have been weird having me there. And then before that,

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I was living in a room, but I was living

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in a room at the top of this right at

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the top of the house. This is the family house,

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the new Land family house, and we were there from

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nineteen seventy nine till nineteen eighty six, so they're seven

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years and so I was in the room at the

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top of the bit of the top of the building.

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I had a TV for the last year I've lived there,

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probably about a year.

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Oh.

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I fell in love with that TV. It was so

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obviously it changed my change my life just being able

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to watch for the first time, not the first time,

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because I could watch what I wanted on TV provide

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there was no one else in the house. You know,

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and that was rare. The only programs I got to

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watch that I wanted to watch on the main television

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in the living room was generally the kids programs because

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both my brothers were older than me and they didn't

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watch that stuff anymore. So I was able to watch that.

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And then my little brother was old enough and he

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wanted to watch the same stuff, and I'd end up

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watching it with him, things like Musket Hounds and I

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don't know, I can't remember different Muppet Babies, things like that,

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and then yeah, what was it? Terror Hawks? Wasn't that

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one as well? Terror Hawks? He Man? Danger Mouse? Mini Mouse?

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Was that Mini Mouse? Danger Mouse? Anyway? Remember that Danger Mouse?

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Great show? Mister, what's the one? And he had lots

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of different gadget Gadget Man? Wasn't it Gadget It Man?

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That used to be good Pink Panther. So there used

471
00:43:05.760 --> 00:43:07.760
to be lots of things. I'd watch them with my

472
00:43:07.800 --> 00:43:11.320
little brother, A couple of my favorite things on a

473
00:43:11.360 --> 00:43:15.519
Saturday morning. We'd watch these and then continue to watch

474
00:43:15.559 --> 00:43:18.599
these when we moved again out of that house for

475
00:43:19.320 --> 00:43:24.599
you know, a few months. Saturday Morning Muppet Babies. But

476
00:43:24.679 --> 00:43:28.239
there was the Wide Away Club that would beyond during

477
00:43:28.239 --> 00:43:32.920
the holidays and on weekends. I'm not sure about Sundays,

478
00:43:32.920 --> 00:43:40.159
but definitely on our Saturday morning, and I would get

479
00:43:40.199 --> 00:43:44.639
my brother to wake me up. I just say to it, look,

480
00:43:44.679 --> 00:43:51.320
wake me up. Wait, wait, because you know, I didn't

481
00:43:51.360 --> 00:43:55.840
necessarily want to be woken up on a day, you know,

482
00:43:56.199 --> 00:43:59.719
like normal weekday, but on a Saturday morning. It was

483
00:43:59.719 --> 00:44:01.840
a good started a day because I always worked on

484
00:44:01.840 --> 00:44:08.199
a Saturday. But I liked I liked being woken up

485
00:44:08.239 --> 00:44:11.679
at seven o'clock or six point thirty or something like

486
00:44:11.719 --> 00:44:16.519
that because I could just watch the cartoons with my

487
00:44:16.519 --> 00:44:22.880
little brother. And I kind of knew that that time

488
00:44:23.039 --> 00:44:28.480
was coming near to an end because he was, you know,

489
00:44:31.480 --> 00:44:33.639
he was heading off to a different part of the

490
00:44:33.639 --> 00:44:38.800
country with her and I kind of that little period

491
00:44:38.800 --> 00:44:42.000
of time of us sort of sitting there watching cartoons

492
00:44:43.000 --> 00:44:51.039
was a valuable time for me, I guess. And yeah,

493
00:44:51.079 --> 00:44:54.960
it was like what was it the Fragle Rock, Fragle Rock,

494
00:44:55.119 --> 00:45:00.440
Muppet Babies. And then of course you at the wide

495
00:45:00.440 --> 00:45:04.480
Away Club, we're wide a quick. It's good to know

496
00:45:04.639 --> 00:45:07.159
you're a ready and we're wad of a week the

497
00:45:07.360 --> 00:45:13.199
do do let's get see go. That's fairly by the

498
00:45:13.199 --> 00:45:17.880
way that noise in the back ground.

499
00:45:20.440 --> 00:45:20.719
Oho.

500
00:45:26.480 --> 00:45:30.719
Before that, I was downstairs in a different room, which

501
00:45:30.760 --> 00:45:34.239
was a much bigger room, which ended up being my

502
00:45:34.239 --> 00:45:41.079
little brother's room. So we kind of moved around around

503
00:45:41.159 --> 00:45:45.239
him really as he got older, because to start with,

504
00:45:45.320 --> 00:45:48.159
when he moved when we moved there, he had which

505
00:45:48.199 --> 00:45:51.519
you would probably classes like the box room if it

506
00:45:51.599 --> 00:45:53.679
had big enough for a bed. It was a small room,

507
00:45:53.679 --> 00:45:55.960
but it was big enough for a bed and toys

508
00:45:56.000 --> 00:45:58.960
and stuff. But he was tiny, you know, It's just

509
00:45:59.119 --> 00:46:02.840
it was like a year old. So he had that area.

510
00:46:03.000 --> 00:46:07.519
And then when he got to about oh, I don't

511
00:46:07.519 --> 00:46:12.239
know what year it was, I would argue and I

512
00:46:12.280 --> 00:46:23.719
wouldn't argue, but I would say probably probably the last

513
00:46:23.800 --> 00:46:29.480
two years of my schooling I was upstairs. Bearing in

514
00:46:29.519 --> 00:46:33.719
mind that a year last a heck of a long time,

515
00:46:37.039 --> 00:46:41.360
you know, at the age of fourteen, a year is

516
00:46:41.519 --> 00:46:45.800
It's not a quick period, is it, unfortunately or fortunately,

517
00:46:45.840 --> 00:46:51.000
depending on which way you look at it. So it

518
00:46:51.079 --> 00:46:53.840
might have been two years, but it might have been less,

519
00:46:56.039 --> 00:47:03.599
because I'm thinking seventy nine, eighty eighty one, eighty three, Yes,

520
00:47:03.719 --> 00:47:08.559
I'm thinking probably about nineteen eighty three, maybe nineteen eighty two,

521
00:47:09.519 --> 00:47:14.119
but I'm thinking nineteen eighty three was when I went

522
00:47:14.199 --> 00:47:19.239
upstairs to the other room, which means I was only

523
00:47:19.280 --> 00:47:22.880
there for two years. I got more memories of being

524
00:47:22.960 --> 00:47:25.760
up there than I ever being down in the other room,

525
00:47:26.039 --> 00:47:34.519
which I was probably there for longer, BlimE me. So yeah,

526
00:47:34.679 --> 00:47:38.199
I think the only reason he really moved into the

527
00:47:38.199 --> 00:47:41.239
bigger room probably because he had his toys were getting

528
00:47:41.840 --> 00:47:44.639
He was getting more and more toys, so we needed

529
00:47:44.679 --> 00:47:51.119
more space, and also because I think my stepmum wanted

530
00:47:51.159 --> 00:48:01.280
a solarium or sunbed in that room, and so yeah,

531
00:48:01.360 --> 00:48:03.239
I think that's that's what the cover. Every thing kind

532
00:48:03.239 --> 00:48:07.000
of changed around a bit. So what happened is our

533
00:48:07.119 --> 00:48:12.079
games room upstairs where we had a snooker table or

534
00:48:12.159 --> 00:48:15.760
pool table was it, Paul, I don't know, But also

535
00:48:15.800 --> 00:48:20.760
a tennis table went over it, and I think my

536
00:48:21.039 --> 00:48:27.880
granddad made that, and then we had music player and

537
00:48:28.119 --> 00:48:31.440
sort of sofa, so we'd kind of hang out up there,

538
00:48:31.719 --> 00:48:35.400
take friends a dance board as well, have friends up

539
00:48:35.440 --> 00:48:42.519
there that got taken away or got taken away, but

540
00:48:42.599 --> 00:48:46.039
that that kind of got emptied. So my oldest brother,

541
00:48:46.119 --> 00:48:48.320
who was living in the room, I ended up in

542
00:48:48.920 --> 00:48:56.079
moved and I moved into his room, and then my

543
00:48:56.119 --> 00:48:58.840
little brother moved into my room that I was in before,

544
00:48:59.639 --> 00:49:05.079
which was arguably the best room in the house, the

545
00:49:05.079 --> 00:49:08.800
best bedroom out of all of ours. And the reason

546
00:49:08.800 --> 00:49:11.199
I say that just because of the light and a

547
00:49:11.239 --> 00:49:15.599
lot of light coming in, and it was bigger than

548
00:49:16.719 --> 00:49:21.519
the other my other two brothers rooms, because the one

549
00:49:21.559 --> 00:49:26.440
I ended up in was a lot smaller, although I

550
00:49:26.480 --> 00:49:29.679
actually liked it. I liked that room. And then my

551
00:49:29.719 --> 00:49:34.480
other brother's room was kind of probably I'm not sure,

552
00:49:34.559 --> 00:49:37.079
maybe even smaller than mine, maybe the same size. I

553
00:49:37.119 --> 00:49:43.760
can't remember. I liked the room upstairs. I think I

554
00:49:43.920 --> 00:49:45.920
liked because it was upstairs. It was a bit out

555
00:49:45.920 --> 00:49:53.000
of the way no longer, I don't know. It was

556
00:49:53.119 --> 00:49:55.000
nice to it's sort of like a little bit of

557
00:49:55.000 --> 00:50:02.519
privacy kind of. Yes, I'd probably in that room for

558
00:50:02.519 --> 00:50:12.639
about two years. So anyway, So before that, I was

559
00:50:12.920 --> 00:50:20.599
in the little room in my NaN's house where we

560
00:50:20.800 --> 00:50:24.039
moved to as a family first time as a family

561
00:50:24.079 --> 00:50:30.960
in nineteen seventy eight, I think it was or nineteen No,

562
00:50:31.000 --> 00:50:36.519
it's about nineteen seventy eight, So you moved there. I

563
00:50:36.639 --> 00:50:39.199
had my own bedroom for the very first time in

564
00:50:39.239 --> 00:50:46.119
my life. It was amazing, and my other two brothers

565
00:50:46.199 --> 00:50:49.360
had bunk beds because I had a much bigger room.

566
00:50:49.760 --> 00:50:52.880
My room was again kind of like a box room,

567
00:50:53.360 --> 00:50:57.280
and that's where my little brother would have ended up

568
00:50:58.800 --> 00:51:00.760
if we had more rooms, but we didn't, so we

569
00:51:00.840 --> 00:51:03.000
had to kind of move out. Because my little brother

570
00:51:03.119 --> 00:51:06.440
was living in me or when he was born in

571
00:51:06.480 --> 00:51:10.920
the August of seventy eight, he's he was in the

572
00:51:10.920 --> 00:51:17.760
bedroom with my with the parents. And it's weird because

573
00:51:19.119 --> 00:51:21.559
We're nice to visit my nan sometimes I'd stay over

574
00:51:21.599 --> 00:51:26.800
and sleep in her house and I'd sleep in that

575
00:51:26.800 --> 00:51:36.039
that bedroom and to this day, it's still the best

576
00:51:36.079 --> 00:51:47.199
bedroom I think I ever slept in. And being in

577
00:51:47.239 --> 00:51:54.039
there next to my nan is and when I was

578
00:51:54.079 --> 00:51:56.519
in there before, I was next to my dad. You know,

579
00:51:56.559 --> 00:51:59.599
my parents were next to it when I was. They

580
00:51:59.599 --> 00:52:03.159
were they kind of my new parents, really, but there

581
00:52:03.199 --> 00:52:08.360
was that safety safety not issue, but safety factor. There

582
00:52:08.400 --> 00:52:13.000
was that kind of feeling more safe, and I always

583
00:52:13.039 --> 00:52:14.960
had that as well. With my nan. I felt safe

584
00:52:14.960 --> 00:52:20.599
when I was in her company and sleeping in that

585
00:52:20.679 --> 00:52:26.199
bed in that little room, my original first bedroom. Even

586
00:52:26.239 --> 00:52:30.960
at the age of thirty nine or whatever, I was.

587
00:52:32.079 --> 00:52:39.039
I can't remember how when my nan moved into the place,

588
00:52:39.840 --> 00:52:45.920
but I was in my late thirties. No, I think

589
00:52:45.960 --> 00:52:48.639
the last time I remember sleeping in that place, and

590
00:52:48.679 --> 00:52:50.840
it might not be the last time, but the last

591
00:52:50.840 --> 00:52:54.000
time I remember, which was at Christmas, which was two

592
00:52:54.039 --> 00:52:58.559
thousand and four, when I was thirty four years old.

593
00:53:00.239 --> 00:53:12.719
So so that's twenty six years. The twenty six year

594
00:53:12.880 --> 00:53:17.800
kind of period of sleeping in that room kind of,

595
00:53:18.480 --> 00:53:21.840
but you know, it wasn't that often. I mean sometimes

596
00:53:22.119 --> 00:53:27.440
I would sleep in the big bed. I once spent

597
00:53:27.480 --> 00:53:31.480
a whole week with them when myn and Grandad were

598
00:53:31.480 --> 00:53:34.880
both my grandad were still around, and I slept in

599
00:53:34.880 --> 00:53:38.239
a big bed, and I think they at that time

600
00:53:38.280 --> 00:53:41.079
they were using the small room. I'm not quite sure

601
00:53:41.119 --> 00:53:44.800
what for I think, And this is a weird memory.

602
00:53:44.880 --> 00:53:48.039
I think MYNN had like a sewing machine in there.

603
00:53:50.679 --> 00:53:58.239
What weird memory. And then before that, so before that

604
00:54:01.079 --> 00:54:06.599
living in that house when I was like so, I

605
00:54:06.639 --> 00:54:10.159
had actually I didn't have my own TV, and I

606
00:54:10.199 --> 00:54:12.360
didn't spend time in that room other than when I

607
00:54:12.440 --> 00:54:14.239
was playing or when I was in bed, you know,

608
00:54:14.920 --> 00:54:20.639
so I'd be downstairs watching TV. I still have the

609
00:54:20.800 --> 00:54:26.360
memory of when we were packing up and getting ready

610
00:54:26.400 --> 00:54:32.639
to move to the new house, and everything was moved

611
00:54:32.760 --> 00:54:38.159
pretty much apart from the beds. In fact, I think

612
00:54:38.199 --> 00:54:42.159
we might have even been in sleeping bags. Literally everything

613
00:54:42.239 --> 00:54:47.639
was packed away to be moved. There was in all

614
00:54:47.719 --> 00:54:54.480
the rooms were pretty much empty and just sitting on

615
00:54:54.760 --> 00:55:01.000
or standing at the window sill in my brother's that room.

616
00:55:01.159 --> 00:55:03.960
My two brothers had bunk bits in there and just

617
00:55:04.079 --> 00:55:07.960
looking out at the motorway because we had a motorway

618
00:55:08.360 --> 00:55:12.320
in the back, and just looking at the guard and

619
00:55:12.400 --> 00:55:17.960
then kind of it felt weird when I was eight

620
00:55:18.079 --> 00:55:21.119
years old, but I kind of I feel it was quite.

621
00:55:24.639 --> 00:55:25.360
What I was.

622
00:55:25.360 --> 00:55:29.599
A thinker. A thinker, I don't know. I think I

623
00:55:29.880 --> 00:55:33.079
used to think about things. I mean, I'm sure everyone

624
00:55:33.079 --> 00:55:36.719
thinks about things, but I used to just really contemplate,

625
00:55:38.199 --> 00:55:44.519
like what does this mean? I used to do that

626
00:55:44.679 --> 00:55:48.039
sometimes when you know, when I was around my family,

627
00:55:48.119 --> 00:55:51.199
like what does this mean? What we're doing now? What

628
00:55:51.239 --> 00:55:52.000
does this mean?

629
00:55:52.360 --> 00:55:52.519
Was?

630
00:55:53.320 --> 00:55:56.679
What's the mean of this? And sometimes I just hear

631
00:55:56.719 --> 00:55:59.960
it always saying like, especially if I verbalized it, said,

632
00:56:01.320 --> 00:56:04.800
it's just a piece of lettuce, Jason, It's just it's

633
00:56:04.840 --> 00:56:07.440
on your plate. It's part of the sellers. You can

634
00:56:07.480 --> 00:56:09.280
eat it or not, it's up to you. You don't have

635
00:56:09.320 --> 00:56:11.559
to eat it. There's plenty of other bits, you know.

636
00:56:11.559 --> 00:56:17.079
There's tomatoes, there's cucumber, there's other things on there. There's

637
00:56:17.119 --> 00:56:21.639
some cheese. You don't have to eat the lettuce. I

638
00:56:21.719 --> 00:56:25.719
was like, okay, wow, you know you have to go

639
00:56:25.880 --> 00:56:30.599
to put a spotlight on Meda And she'd say, sorry

640
00:56:30.599 --> 00:56:35.760
about that, and she turned the light off. But that

641
00:56:35.880 --> 00:56:46.760
was weird. So I'm trying to think, what did I do?

642
00:56:48.119 --> 00:56:49.480
Did did do?

643
00:56:50.559 --> 00:56:51.159
What?

644
00:56:51.159 --> 00:56:52.440
What? What? What? What?

645
00:56:56.559 --> 00:56:56.679
Oh?

646
00:56:56.719 --> 00:57:02.639
Yes, So before that, I can't even remember. I know

647
00:57:02.679 --> 00:57:12.079
where he was, were in a house with the new parents.

648
00:57:14.559 --> 00:57:19.119
The two kids were two brothers, rather older brothers, and

649
00:57:19.159 --> 00:57:24.159
the step mom the step grandparent rather sorry. So there

650
00:57:24.239 --> 00:57:28.639
was one, two, three, four, five, six of us in

651
00:57:28.679 --> 00:57:33.639
this house. I don't remember anywhere that I slept. I

652
00:57:33.719 --> 00:57:38.599
can't remember exactly where it was, but we weren't there

653
00:57:38.639 --> 00:57:45.119
for long. And then before that, so I probably shared

654
00:57:45.119 --> 00:57:50.000
a room with my brothers possibly, So before that I

655
00:57:50.159 --> 00:57:57.559
lived in a dormitory with quite a few other kids.

656
00:57:59.800 --> 00:58:07.079
And before that I lived in the dormitory with other kids.

657
00:58:08.679 --> 00:58:14.440
Before that, I lived in my memory is I lived

658
00:58:14.480 --> 00:58:21.639
in a flat council flat in Newcastle. Now I don't

659
00:58:21.719 --> 00:58:29.840
remember and the sleeping arrangements, although I've got kind of

660
00:58:29.840 --> 00:58:34.920
a little outline on outlay of the flat in my head,

661
00:58:36.039 --> 00:58:38.920
which is kind of weird. But then I might have

662
00:58:38.920 --> 00:58:40.679
lived in more than one flats. It might be a

663
00:58:40.760 --> 00:58:47.719
mixture different flats. But I definitely didn't have me on TV.

664
00:58:48.039 --> 00:58:55.199
I know that for a fact. And in the children's

665
00:58:55.199 --> 00:59:01.440
homes we had a room for TV, so there would be,

666
00:59:01.880 --> 00:59:08.079
you know, a TV room or a lounge or something,

667
00:59:09.519 --> 00:59:15.639
so that would be there. I'm just trying to think

668
00:59:15.800 --> 00:59:21.880
maybe the girl that made me the or the lady

669
00:59:21.920 --> 00:59:27.840
that tickled me during the Planet of the Apes movie

670
00:59:28.480 --> 00:59:34.559
that might have been a Newcastle because for some reason,

671
00:59:34.599 --> 00:59:39.880
I've got more of a kind of there's more color

672
00:59:39.920 --> 00:59:43.880
in that memory than there is in the South End

673
00:59:43.920 --> 00:59:50.039
one for me, that's just very kind of very gray ish.

674
00:59:50.480 --> 00:59:56.960
And my memory of watching TV there was it'd really

675
00:59:57.000 --> 01:00:00.559
be whatever the nuns wanted to watch, and they would

676
01:00:00.599 --> 01:00:09.039
sit around watching Crossroads or Emmerdale, I think, and it'd

677
01:00:09.039 --> 01:00:11.559
be on and then it'd be time for bed, not

678
01:00:11.559 --> 01:00:15.000
not for them but for us, and that would be

679
01:00:15.239 --> 01:00:22.920
like six o'clock six point thirty something like that, maybe seven,

680
01:00:23.000 --> 01:00:24.760
I don't, I don't know, but it was very early,

681
01:00:25.719 --> 01:00:29.920
bearing in mind I was twenty five, Yes, it's very early.

682
01:00:30.679 --> 01:00:37.320
And then before that, and so before that going backwards

683
01:00:37.320 --> 01:00:45.960
from new Castle, yeah, so in the Council flat. And

684
01:00:46.000 --> 01:00:53.239
then before that I remember, yes, I didn't would have

685
01:00:53.239 --> 01:00:58.559
had a TV then, so well, just shared rooms with

686
01:00:58.639 --> 01:01:03.679
my brothers. Before that, I can't remember. There was a house.

687
01:01:03.719 --> 01:01:07.159
I remember this house. It was a terroracet house is

688
01:01:07.199 --> 01:01:10.039
a terrorist house for or just one one connected to

689
01:01:10.079 --> 01:01:16.119
another for as long as the eyes can see. And

690
01:01:16.159 --> 01:01:18.039
I was in a place like that. I don't know

691
01:01:18.119 --> 01:01:21.719
where it was, whether it was in London, whether it

692
01:01:21.800 --> 01:01:27.159
was in Newcastle. Apparently my oldest brother he was not apparently,

693
01:01:27.159 --> 01:01:29.760
but he told me that we were in Scotland for

694
01:01:29.800 --> 01:01:33.280
a while, so he remembers it a lot more than

695
01:01:33.320 --> 01:01:37.920
I do, because he's four years older than me. Not

696
01:01:38.000 --> 01:01:41.199
that I've conversed with him about it, not for a

697
01:01:41.280 --> 01:01:46.800
long time. He kind of filled me in twenty odd

698
01:01:46.880 --> 01:01:49.199
years ago, kind of got together and he told me

699
01:01:49.360 --> 01:01:57.760
some stuff. And before that, I don't know, moved around

700
01:01:57.800 --> 01:02:03.400
a bit, so I didn't have I lived in one

701
01:02:03.519 --> 01:02:10.800
room most of the time as an adult. As a kid,

702
01:02:10.960 --> 01:02:13.519
I suppose, you know, it's just standard living in a room,

703
01:02:13.880 --> 01:02:17.079
either with my brothers or sharing a room with other kids.

704
01:02:18.840 --> 01:02:20.400
But I didn't have my own room until I was

705
01:02:20.880 --> 01:02:31.840
seven eight sorry, no seven, Yeah it was I was four.

706
01:02:31.880 --> 01:02:34.559
I was just four. I was eight. So yeah, that's

707
01:02:34.559 --> 01:02:39.039
when I got my first room. Yeah, my first room.

708
01:02:40.400 --> 01:02:44.199
I loved it. I love, love, love loved it. I

709
01:02:44.239 --> 01:02:51.880
so loved it. I loved that house. I did just

710
01:02:52.000 --> 01:02:57.840
everything about it. It was just great. It was brand new.

711
01:02:58.280 --> 01:03:02.000
There was nothing to do, you know. I mean when

712
01:03:02.039 --> 01:03:05.840
we moved to the next house, which was this big, old,

713
01:03:06.280 --> 01:03:13.760
derelict pile of pass and it was a dure upper

714
01:03:13.920 --> 01:03:17.199
as it were, and that was horrible. Like I didn't

715
01:03:17.239 --> 01:03:22.760
it's like it was permanently in as like being rebuilt,

716
01:03:24.559 --> 01:03:27.360
Like there was always at least one room that was

717
01:03:28.840 --> 01:03:37.039
being redecorated, it seemed, and yeah, all the garden, and

718
01:03:37.079 --> 01:03:40.239
it's okay, because that's something my dad used to enjoy doing,

719
01:03:41.039 --> 01:03:46.400
but none of us did. It's you know, it's just

720
01:03:46.440 --> 01:03:50.480
everyone's got their own hobbies and their own likes, and

721
01:03:50.559 --> 01:03:53.920
I guess it was frustrating for him being in this

722
01:03:54.920 --> 01:03:58.000
new build this little place of like a little garden,

723
01:03:58.719 --> 01:04:02.239
which for me was nice sized garden. But he he

724
01:04:02.320 --> 01:04:04.679
wanted to be doing things, and he wanted to probably

725
01:04:05.000 --> 01:04:07.679
want to be knocking through doors, and he wanted to

726
01:04:07.719 --> 01:04:13.880
be redoing stuff. And that's not something that I really

727
01:04:14.079 --> 01:04:18.679
was interested in doing. I still haven't painted this place,

728
01:04:18.719 --> 01:04:24.480
and I've been here for ten years. H about how

729
01:04:24.519 --> 01:04:28.079
I put a carpet down. Now, I've got a carpets

730
01:04:28.119 --> 01:04:35.079
worn out now between Andre and Little Vinnie. This carpet

731
01:04:35.199 --> 01:04:44.480
is well and truly worn. Need a new one. I

732
01:04:44.480 --> 01:04:49.079
don't know how I got talking about rooms.

733
01:04:48.159 --> 01:04:48.320
But.

734
01:04:52.599 --> 01:04:54.239
I don't know how I got talk about rooms. I

735
01:04:54.280 --> 01:04:57.039
really don't, but yeah, when I moved in here, I

736
01:04:57.119 --> 01:04:59.960
decided that's what I was talking about. When I moved

737
01:05:00.079 --> 01:05:02.760
in here, I decided I'm no longer going to just

738
01:05:02.800 --> 01:05:06.880
be in one room because I don't need to. So

739
01:05:07.000 --> 01:05:11.320
I purposefully didn't have a TV in my bedroom and

740
01:05:11.440 --> 01:05:15.639
never have the whole time I've lived there. Sometimes I

741
01:05:15.639 --> 01:05:22.800
wish I did have one, because it'd be nice, but

742
01:05:22.840 --> 01:05:27.880
it also makes me really lazy, I think at times.

743
01:05:29.800 --> 01:05:31.960
But it's not like a long distance it's not like

744
01:05:32.000 --> 01:05:34.280
I have to book a train to get to the

745
01:05:34.280 --> 01:05:41.119
living room, is it. It's not far so yeah, I've

746
01:05:41.199 --> 01:05:45.000
kind of stuck to that one TV in one room.

747
01:05:45.559 --> 01:05:50.519
The bedroom's for sleeping. Unfortunately, that's all it's for.

748
01:05:51.000 --> 01:06:02.559
But yeah, that's okay, that's okay.

749
01:06:03.400 --> 01:06:08.559
Sorry, Vinnie. I know it's our bedroom, it's his bedroom,

750
01:06:08.639 --> 01:06:10.880
and he allows me to sleep in the bed with

751
01:06:10.960 --> 01:06:16.719
him if I'm a good boy. Basically, he this is

752
01:06:16.760 --> 01:06:25.960
his flat. Now I just I'm his lodger. So yeah,

753
01:06:26.239 --> 01:06:27.559
I do believe.

754
01:06:29.079 --> 01:06:30.079
That is.

755
01:06:32.679 --> 01:06:41.119
That. I don't know how I'm going to edit this

756
01:06:41.199 --> 01:06:46.199
because everything's all messy everywhere. You know, my little set

757
01:06:46.280 --> 01:06:49.559
up I had before, because the TV was on the table,

758
01:06:49.599 --> 01:06:52.679
it was two tables to two desks together, the computer

759
01:06:52.760 --> 01:06:56.280
was up. Everything was set up. And now I think

760
01:06:56.280 --> 01:06:59.320
that's what I can say. I got my neighbor downstairs

761
01:06:59.320 --> 01:07:02.199
to help me to put the TV on a rack

762
01:07:02.639 --> 01:07:05.599
on the wall. So I got a new rack was

763
01:07:05.639 --> 01:07:16.079
big enough, put it on the wall. And this was Sunday, Friday, Monday,

764
01:07:16.159 --> 01:07:19.599
I don't know, it was a few days ago. And

765
01:07:21.639 --> 01:07:27.280
it's yeah, it's freed all that space in front of it.

766
01:07:27.920 --> 01:07:34.920
So I moved the tables away or the desks and

767
01:07:35.000 --> 01:07:37.360
in the process started to get rid of some stuff

768
01:07:37.400 --> 01:07:44.360
and move things around, and yeah, it seems to have

769
01:07:44.400 --> 01:07:53.920
called more mess than before. Well though technically I probably could. Tomorrow. Yeah,

770
01:07:54.000 --> 01:08:04.039
tomorrow I'm going to start organizing the desks. Got two tables,

771
01:08:04.159 --> 01:08:12.320
two desks, and one chair, so I'm thinking it's going

772
01:08:12.400 --> 01:08:15.239
to be the other side of the room. Figure out

773
01:08:15.280 --> 01:08:24.239
how I want them to be. Yeah, that'd be fine.

774
01:08:24.600 --> 01:08:26.359
I kind of know what I wanted, how I want

775
01:08:26.399 --> 01:08:29.359
it to be, so it'll be okay. Just gotta figure

776
01:08:29.359 --> 01:08:34.079
it out tomorrow, the logistics of it, and then i'll

777
01:08:34.119 --> 01:08:36.239
be able to edit this because I won't be able

778
01:08:36.239 --> 01:08:42.880
to edit this until unless my iPad is charged, because

779
01:08:42.880 --> 01:08:46.399
it hasn't been plugged in for quite a few days,

780
01:08:46.880 --> 01:08:51.319
so it might have uncharged itself. If it's still charged,

781
01:08:51.560 --> 01:08:55.319
you know, if it hasn't worn down, then I can

782
01:08:55.439 --> 01:09:03.640
upload this and do some editing and release it like

783
01:09:03.760 --> 01:09:10.119
the precious gem that it is. Ooh, or a little dove.

784
01:09:10.479 --> 01:09:18.239
Release the dove. So I'm going to go. Thank you

785
01:09:18.279 --> 01:09:22.039
for listening. Remember to be kind to yourself because you

786
01:09:22.159 --> 01:09:25.359
do deserve to be happy and be gentle with yourself.

787
01:09:25.720 --> 01:09:31.439
You deserve to feel safe. Don't forget Q and A Friday.

788
01:09:31.960 --> 01:09:34.479
If you've got any questions, please go to my Facebook

789
01:09:34.479 --> 01:09:40.840
group Lots of Love. Bye,