June 25, 2025

(music) Thank You | LMBYTS #1382 | Jason Newland | 25th June 2025

(music) Thank You | LMBYTS #1382 | Jason Newland | 25th June 2025
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Hello, and welcome to Jasonnewland dot com. My name is

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Jason Newland and hello, Hello, how are you good? It's

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hot so hot in here. Today is the twenty fifth

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of June two thousand and twenty five, and it is

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six thirty four pum. So please only listen when you

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can safely closerize.

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Oh tired, very tired.

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Oh so someone on there, Why is that not giving

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me analytics? That's strange. It's very strange. It's going on podcasts,

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so I've got multiple podcasts. Why is it not give

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me analytics? So I'm just looking at the analytics, get

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insights by your website, visiting our stats. Okay, it's not

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given me any of the moment. It doesn't matter. It

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doesn't matter when I got my website back. The person

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who runs the podcast or I don't know, telling me off.

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You can't keep stopping, you can't keep you deleting it

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because otherwise you know, I can't keep There's a lot

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of work to get it back. It's okay, you need

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to joining annual. So I can't afford anal. I said,

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well you need to. You have to pay for anal

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because it's basically we need to know that you can

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stay for the full year, and I said, well, I

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can't afford. I can't do that. I can do monthly.

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And in the end he said, okay, then monthly is

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So that was all right. I'm going to go on

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to Facebook because I had a few comments. I'm going

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to read out some of the messages that I've had

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on Facebook. My back is hurting. I think with all

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the car journeys and the bus journeys, there's a lot

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of jolting around on the roads. They're not very smooth,

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a lot of them. I've noticed that's kind of jolted

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my back quite a lot, and I'm not used to it.

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So I'm not sure what else whatever reasons, reasons, I

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don't know what they are from my back is so. So, look,

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I did do a recording. Actually I did a recording.

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According to this, I did a recording on Saturday as well,

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which I don't remember doing. And it was a deep

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sleep whisper hypnosis recording which I did on the twenty

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second of June, which was indeed Sunday. Twenty second of

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June was Sunday, all right, so I did it. I

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don't remember doing recording on Sunday. How did I manage

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to do that? Weird? Strange? So technically, so this is

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the third one of the week because I did do

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one Sunday, did one Monday. No, I didn't do one Monday.

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I did one yesterday, which was Tuesday. And it's kind

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of strange. It's all being a bit weird. It's just

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been weird. It's been a weird week. Weird, weird, weird, weird.

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If you want to know more about that, then I

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suggest you listened to yesterday's recording to save me go

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through it again and boring those that already have ingested

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the boringness of yesterday's a recording just to say that

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I've been visiting a neighbor in hospital and that would

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be yeah, that's kind of been the whole week so far.

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So Friday night and then Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday,

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so six days in a row. I've been going up

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and back and forward to the hospital. Six So it's

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what twelve journeys or thirteen fourteen fifteen maybe if you

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include the buses, sixteen seventeen eighteen journeys, because the buses,

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it's two journeys to get here. But I genuinely cannot

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remember which days I've got a taxi, which days I

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got a bus, Which days I got a lift from

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a neighbor, paid them ten pounds to take me. It's

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a bit of a blur, a bit of a blur.

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Today I got a taxi there and back because it

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took me two hours to get home last night or

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yesterday afternoon on the bus or two different buses. With

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the walk in the waiting and the journeys, it's a

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two hour journey. And I just I just think of

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a little Vinnie waiting here for me because it doesn't

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eat his dinner, doesn't It's like lazier pining for me.

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I imagine he doesn't doesn't like it when to go out,

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really doesn't like it when I go out, really really

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doesn't like it. And I found there that's weird. A

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breakfast cereal in the middle of the settee buttocks, you know,

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been between the two buttocks of the city increase. Yeah,

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I'm just going to try to remember what happened today,

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what happened today. Last night was weird. Okay, this is

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very strange, Vinnie. So I had a sleep in the afternoon,

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like I just did, just now as well, So I

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had to putt about an hour an hour and a

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half sleep and then he started barking summon in the garden.

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So what I did is I went to bed. It

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wasn't an early night last night, funny enough, probably about eleven,

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maybe half eleven, even because I did the recording, which

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was nearly was an hour and forty minutes before going

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to bed. And yeah, it's just just the way it went,

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I guess because my sleeping is a little bit out

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because really ever since Friday, because normally I'm up on

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I go to bed about ten o'clock, sometimes eleven, sometimes nine,

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you know, on a weekend, if it's boxing on, i'd

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go to bed after the box of finishes, and sometimes

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that can be about half eleven twelve, but generally, and

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it's not because I have to. I don't go to

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bed at ten because that's my bedtime, and I get

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in trouble if I don't. I don't have anyone coming

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in checking that my eyes are closed. It's nothing that

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would be really weird, wouldn't it, especially as I live alone.

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So I choose to do that, and that's kind of

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been my routine for the last couple of years. Really, Friday,

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I was up till I was at the hospital to

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about half three in the morning. I'd already gone to

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bed at ten and kind of, yeah, that didn't work out.

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So I ended up in the hospital with my neighbor,

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and then I got home probably just after four. It

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was quite a quick journey because there was no traffic

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on the roads, really, but I was too or I

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was tired. I was too awake to go to sleep,

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and I was also really hungry because I hadn't eaten

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since probably six o'clock in the evening, so I needed

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I had some breakfast seal, which is all I needed really,

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just something, just a little bit of food. So I

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didn't go to bed hungry, and I eventually went to sleep.

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I fell asleep in a chair here, woke up about

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eight nine, about eight o'clock year and then I went

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a Saturday, I just started again. I think I left

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at eleven or midday Saturday to go to the hospital,

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and I've been back and forth every day. But I

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don't seem to have caught up my sleep, which is

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probably a bit weird, but I kind of don't, yeah,

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kind of bit, and there isn't it that whole theory

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that you can never catch up on your sleep. I

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don't know. Last night I went to bed a bit

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later than I normally do, which is fine because I'd

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had a sleep in the afternoon. It's usually this is

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going to sound weird. I quite often have an afternoon

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nap in my normal day to day, but I haven't

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had that, you know, for the last week. I'm not

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sure if it's a good thing or about all a

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neutral thing. I don't know, just it just hasn't happened.

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So I'd like a late or early evening nap instead.

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Last night Vinnie would and we would not get on

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the bed with me. He refused to get on the bed,

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and I didn't really understand why. It just wouldn't like

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he refused to point blank to get on the bed

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with me. So I took him, I think, and then

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he did get on eventually eventually did but he was

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being really weird about it. And then at two o'clock

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this morning, he was on the floor looking up at

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me from the floor, you know. And I don't know.

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I guess he must have been making some noise or

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scratching at the bed or something to wake me up,

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and I said, what is it? Lassie? And nothing? So,

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I mean, Lassie is such a ridiculous TV show. If

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anyone ever watched it, dogs communicating and letting you know,

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if Lassie was a Jack Russell like Minnie, that show

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would last for five minutes and the end, in the end,

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that just that'd be it. It'd just be like, what is it?

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What is it? Oh? You want to you want to

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treat Okay, that's it. And he just jumped up when

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I said that. So about two o'clock, I don't know

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what's going on, so I give him some food. I

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thought maybe he's hungry. He eats the food and I

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go and lay down again, and he's still standing there

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or sitting down staring at me. Now, I don't have

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any treats. Run out of treats for him. I still

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got these little bony things that he can have chew on,

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but I've got no treats. He's got through them. I

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haven't been able to do any shopping this week yet.

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Got some milk from the hospitals. That's kind of all

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I've got. I've got been trying to eat when I've

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been out, and I have crumpets for my dinner. Tonight,

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so that's good. I got them from the hospital as well.

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And I can't believe the restaurant's closed. I was going

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to have a meal because when my neighbor's having his meal,

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I go and go and get something to eat. And

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so far as just being costers like a toasted sandwich thing,

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a toasty or whatever they call them. But I thought, oh,

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I'll try out the restaurant because it was closed at

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the weekend, I'll try that out. And I went along

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and turns out it's being refurbished, so it's just not

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open for anyone, including stuff. I think the stuff are

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taking sandwiches in. Well. Actually, I did see a lot

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of the nurses and doctors in costers, so I imagine

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they're getting quite good a good amount of money coming in.

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I hope that they get a discount. I really do.

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And in fact, without getting political political, nurses, doctors, they

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shouldn't pay a damn thing. Anyone who works in the

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hospital should get free food, or school kids or school

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kids and teachers should get free food. I'm going further,

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everyone should get free food. Okay, I'm now back, so

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I I've got some messages to read out. Okay, So

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I'm going to do that in a minute. The I

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just didn't know what to do. I did, what what what?

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What is it? What is it? Vinny? What is it?

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I didn't I can really figure it out. It was

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bugging me. But he wasn't being obvious of what he wanted.

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He wasn't running towards the front door. He wasn't looking

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at the kitchen door. He wasn't, you know, he wasn't

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doing anything particular. So in the end, I thought, maybe

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he needs a wee wi or something else, you know,

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so I'll take him outside into the garden. For some reason,

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it wasn't really that dark out there. It means normally

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dark at two clock in the morning, but it was

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relatively light, so I went out there. He does go

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for a week, but that's not what he wanted. And

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he kept looking at the doorway of the other building.

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And I don't really know why. I'm just like, why

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two o'clock in the morning. And then he I dropped

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the hand you know, the handle for the lead, because

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I have to have my lead on his inner garden

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otherwise he will just run off. I dropped the lead on

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the floor and it made a big old bang like bang.

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Actually it was less of a bang, more of a

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splat or clap, you know, plasticumn concrete, and a bit

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like I imagine Pamela Anderson doing some break dancing anyway. So

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that's quite a really old reference, isn't it. Really, that's

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like a nineties reference. I mean both of them are

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kind of nineteen I mean breakdancing more nineteen eighties, isn't it.

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I love breakdancing the movie Breakdancing or is it Breakdancing

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A Breakdancer? It was one of the best movies ever

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at the time. And when do you see it ever played?

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Not in this country. I've don't think I've ever seen

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it on TV. It's like a forgotten movie. And it

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was absolutely brilliant. It was uplifting, it was and the

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dance techniques were phenomenal. It was new, you know, and

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that wasn't new new. I suppose anything that goes into

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a cinema would have probably been around for years. I've

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seen footage of Michael Jackson doing the robot walk in

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the seventies, like in seventy five, seventy six, So it

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wasn't a new a new new thing, but it was amazing,

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and there's a couple of those movies that are really good. Now,

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I've realized a few things over the years. Over the years,

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I've learned a few things. First of all, I can't

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listen to someone like me. My neighbor is kind of

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a little bit like me. But when it comes to sport,

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he will talk about sport, sport or politics. That's his thing,

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and he can talk about it. I think he could

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do twelve hours straight and you just keep talking. And

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he's very passionate. It's very Yeah, he's excited, he gets excited,

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and he's just loves loves talking about stuff. And I struggle.

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I struggles because I'm not interested. If it's a subject

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i'm not interested in, my eyes do glaze over and

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I can't. I can't listen. Now, it took me many

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years to realize that people's eyes were glazing over when

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I was talking because I so much Now, you know,

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I suppose ever since I learned to be a counselor,

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I kind of learned a bit more communication skills, human

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communication skills. And also when I was a excuse me,

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when I was a salesperson on the phones, working in

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a call center. So it's a you know, it's a conversation.

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So I had twenty years of learning to do that stuff.

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Twenty five years of learning to do that stuff, I guess, no,

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twenty years, ten years, I don't know, however many years.

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But my favorite is probably just the monologu where I

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just talk at people, but I know I can't do

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that apart from when I do these recordings, and I

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learned years ago, Like I remember seeing people's eyes glaze over.

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I didn't I was doing it, and I didn't notice

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the glaze, the glazing of their eyes until I started

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learning about hypnosis, and I started at that time, I

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started playing around with it because I'd move from what

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I was talking about out to something completely different and

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they didn't even notice. That's when I realized that I

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was naturally a hypnotist, like my natural Like I was

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hypnotizing people without even realizing what came, not maybe not hypnotizing,

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putting them into a chance without realizing. I was doing

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it and making a focus and then almost drift, you know,

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not really be there, be there, but not be there.

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It's kind of a weird, weird one. And so what

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I started doing is playing with it. Sometimes I have

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to have a drink sometimes and this is in the

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late nineties. Okay, when I was in full hypnotic mode,

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I would start talking to someone and then I would

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just lead and I just keep talking, and they just

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look at me, and I just keep talking and they

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just keep talking, and see how long I could talk

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a complete nonsense before they realized I was just talking

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complete nonsense. And sometimes I could go on for like

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ten minutes and I'd ask them a question and be like,

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h and they had gone, They'd been somewhere else. They's like, really, well,

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they weren't there. And I used to play with that

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just because for fun. I wasn't doing it in a

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harmful way. I wasn't giving them suggestions or anything. I

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was just distracted them and then started talking about lawn

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mowers and gremlins and pizza and you know, I just

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think things that had nothing to do with why we

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were actually having a conversation. I was like, wow, I mean, technically,

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I could have started these podcasts in the late nineties.

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I could have started to Let Me Bore You to

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Sleep in nineteen ninety nine, ninety eight, ninety nine, which

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would make me one of the longest podcasts of all time.

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But I didn't. I mean podcasts. I don't think we

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even really around them. But you know, I could have

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made audios. There were ways of listening to audio online

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back then. So yeah, it's too late now. But it's

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too late now. I can't go back and start it earlier.

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I mean, it's the old saying, isn't it. When's the

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best time to start something? Now? There's never a good time.

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The best time is now. I thought, don't ever wait,

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you can wait and wait and wait. I still know

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something like that. It was always, oh, I'm going to

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do this when this happens, and then you end up like,

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still haven't done it thirty years later. And I've been

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like that many times over the years, and I probably

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still will be. I'm a bit like that with vacuuming

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the carpet. I'll do it. I was gonna say, I'm

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going to do it next week. I'm going to do

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it in the next two weeks. They started off I'm

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going to do it this afternoon. Then no, I'm going

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to do it tomorrow. I'll do it before Saturday. I'll

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do it next week. I'll do it over the weekend.

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I'll do it next week. And now I'm kind of

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like I'm gonna I'm going to vacuum before I'm sixty,

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you know, kind of the deadlines kind of extended somewhat.

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Now I'm going to read these messages out because there

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was a point to what I was saying, and I've

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forgotten what it is. Here's one message from yesterday. Sebastian

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believe it or not, left another weird message. So let's

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have a look. What did Sebastian right? Stop producing when

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you're feeling unwell? You own me sex, but not daily recordings.

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No need to risk a blip. You did well with

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helping your neighbor. I'll just put question marks to the

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answer that one. The thing is, it's I'd rather make

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a recording. I still talk boringly. Think about it. How

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often do I actually if you can hear that dog

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in the background, how often do I actually do anything?

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I rarely leave the flat. I don't really go out

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and do much. So this has given me stuff to

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talk about. So it's kind of, you know, from that sense.

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I know it's kind of a weird subject. Hospitals and stuff,

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and he wants to hear about hospitals, but I'm not

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going to go into detail about anything. About hospital. It's

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just somewhere that I'm actually visiting at the moment. And so,

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you know, I understand kind of where seb asked Sebastian

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is coming from. But yeah, so part of that was nice.

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But yeah, like I owe him what soo he writes

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what to Sebastian and to me, are these additional services

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now being offered to you? They are? But not to him,

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says Thoe, yes, but Sebastian, no, definitely not. And then

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Sebastia decided that the picture looked like Harvey Kai tell

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on my image, and Christine says it was really interesting

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and could understand your situation and now I know what

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to do if I was in your position. You are

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an amazing neighbor and friend, a good person. We could

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do with more kind, caring people like you. You'll be

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exhausted after all that. Thank you for sharing his story

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and I wish you your friend well. Thank you, Christine. Yeah,

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it has been exhausting. I think weird today. He was

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being awkward today. He was being a little bit aggressive

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verbally not I don't know, it's hard to explain, but

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he was getting a little bit and ANTSI is that

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word antsy? A little bit argumentative. So I don't really

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know what was going on with him. Well, I can guess,

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you know what's going on. I know what's going on

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with him, but I can guess that he just may

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I don't know. It was a weird one because he's

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he seems to be a little bit different each day.

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He's very calm, very softly spoken, but then when he

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gets going, he's he kind of started getting a bit angry,

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like expressive expressive. Yeah, maybe not towards me, a little

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bit towards me, but towards what he was talking about

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and like complaining about something. It was like, okay, it's

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like a maybe a different side to him that I've

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not really seen much of. Perhaps, So yeah, it was

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a bit weird. I mean I kind of at one point,

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you're saying, well, you go and get back to Vinnie.

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I think he was almost trying to kick me out.

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It's I think I'd annoyed him at some point. I

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said something that must have annoyed him, So I think

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he might be thinking that I'm the one that was

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being annoying, and I'm thinking that he was the one

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being not annoying. I don't know. There was one point

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where we walked through the hospital because I take him

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out every day and I don't think he I'm not

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sure if he really appreciates going out, but all the

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other people in his ward are not allowed out. He's

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allowed out because he's got he's got his mobility and

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he's got me and I kind of take him and

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he's not walk. It's weird, but he's not walking away.

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He used to walk. He's very he's getting on a bit,

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but he's he's been walking to the petro station every

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day since I've known him, and now said, he's walking

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like one foot in front of the other, very slowly

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and almost holding on to me at times. But he's

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physically fine, he said, So I'm kind of a little

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bit confused, but so we're walking really slowly through the hospital.

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It reminded me a little bit about when my nan

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had doesn't say when she had her hip, but she

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always she always had two hips, but when she'd like

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her that damaged her hip. And he tripped up on

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some lino that was sticking up, which was in the

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middle of a doorway it which is quite close to

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the exit and the entrance, and some people on the

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left hand side I don't know what they were doing,

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but they laughed. He didn't fall over, so I grabbed him,

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but he didn't fall over anyway because he you know,

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he kind of got his foot in and I the

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thing is, the people that laughed might have just been

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laughing anyway. They might have just been in the middle

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of a conversation. So I just I had to blank

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that out. My natural reaction is to possibly say something no, no, no, no,

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So I turned to the reception because there's literally a

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help desk right next to where he tripped, and I

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said to him that he's literally has a bit of

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lino sticking up off the floor and he tripped, luckily

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didn't fall over, but that's an accident waiting to happen,

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and a lady beyond account. I said, okay, I'll get

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the whatever to fix it. Still wasn't fixed when I left.

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I mean it was only like an hour or two

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hours later, or an hour and a half that I

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left later. But it's like, that's a health and safety issue.

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It needs to be done quickly because thousands of people

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are walking through there every day, thousands and thousands. But

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it was it was weird because even though he's only.

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I mean, he's very light, I imagine compared to me,

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he can't wait very much. Even then it's it's someone falls,

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it's hard to stop them from fording, isn't it. I'll

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stop him, you know, if it means he lands on me,

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I will stop him from falling. But at the same time,

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I don't want him to get hurt. And it was

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weird because putting his arm out to just generally as

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we're walking, sort of almost like to keep his balance.

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I'm kind of I'm just a little bit confused with

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the whole thing because I've never seen him do that before.

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So we're outside and he's we've been out every day.

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I took him outside, and a lot of people don't

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get to go out in the sun, you know, they're

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kind of stuck inside the ward. And all the people

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in his ward are just they haven't been able to

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leave for days, some of them. One's waiting to go home,

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I think soon. And he spent six days without going

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outside until his daughter came and took him out. So

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I think it's good to take him out. But then

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he he kind of doesn't want to go out. It's

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almost like, let's go, let's go for a little walk,

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go into the because there's see it's lots of seating outside,

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and its lovely day. It has been nice every day

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this week. Even when it was windy and cloudy, it

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was still nice. You know, it's still a nice temperature.

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But he's got like, okay, just just wait, it's fine.

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So I don't know. I don't know if he's struggling

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with the with the walking and just not mentioning. I

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don't know, really, I don't know. I am turning into

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a fuss pot. Now. I was a fuss pot with

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Luke and he got annoyed with me. But I haven't

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needed to be a fusspot since that time. And over

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the last six months I've turned into a bit of

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a fuss spot with my neighbor that's in hospital, just

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with helping him with his bills, helping him with his

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just finding out stuff that he's ignored, trying to help

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him to get it sorted. But over the last month

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I haven't needed to really do anything, or maybe the

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last two months even because he's just been happily doing

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his thing. I see him when I see him, usually

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see him a couple of times a week, maybe three

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times a week, he asked me if he needs me

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to do something, I'll do it. And really the only

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reason he contacted me not contacting I see him fairly regularly,

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but he contacted me to because he phones me like

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once twice a week, even though I'm just opposite, like

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if he wants to just talk about sport or something,

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and that's when I don't answer the phone. That's terrible.

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But he needed my help with some stuff regarding the

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bathroom being done, so I said I was going to

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help him, just that he wanted to get the flat

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prepared before they builders came in and stuff like that,

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and we were going to try and talk to electrician

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to try and disconnect his cooker and maybe also see

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if we can get someone the plumber to connect his

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washing machine. Neither of those things have happened to be

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fair because it's other things have come up. But now

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the last week I seemed to be I'm not, I'm not,

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I'm okay, I'm not seeming to be a fussy a

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fuss pot. I have been a fusspot, and I know it,

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and I know it's annoying because I wouldn't like someone

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doing it to me. I don't know why why I

467
00:35:58.599 --> 00:36:05.719
am like that. It's almost like I'm concerned, and I

468
00:36:05.760 --> 00:36:11.519
can't hide being concerned, and I can't hide caring and

469
00:36:11.599 --> 00:36:14.840
wanting him to be okay and making sure that he's okay,

470
00:36:15.960 --> 00:36:18.719
knowing that he wouldn't tell me if he wasn't. That's

471
00:36:18.760 --> 00:36:27.639
the thing. And I think in the process of annoying, annoying,

472
00:36:28.360 --> 00:36:34.000
annoying him, I did the same with my friend Luke downstairs.

473
00:36:34.000 --> 00:36:35.920
I used to annoy the hell out of him sometimes.

474
00:36:39.880 --> 00:36:43.280
Is so yeah, it's one of those things. I mean

475
00:36:43.280 --> 00:36:45.800
when I left today, I left it too, and I

476
00:36:47.239 --> 00:36:50.480
didn't want to go back, like ever again. I was

477
00:36:50.519 --> 00:36:52.400
going to go back, but I was I told him

478
00:36:52.480 --> 00:36:55.920
not coming back tomorrow. So I haven't been able to

479
00:36:56.000 --> 00:36:57.880
do my shopping. I haven't really been able to do

480
00:36:58.000 --> 00:37:01.000
much here. I need to get bit of I mane

481
00:37:01.079 --> 00:37:04.719
to do some washing the other day and some laundry.

482
00:37:06.239 --> 00:37:14.360
But yeah, I thought tomorrow's Thursday, and I can get

483
00:37:14.400 --> 00:37:19.519
some get a few bits done here and get my

484
00:37:20.079 --> 00:37:22.239
just have a day off to be fair, just have

485
00:37:22.320 --> 00:37:27.079
a lie in, not have to do anything. And then

486
00:37:27.199 --> 00:37:32.039
my neighbor called. A different neighbor called up about an

487
00:37:32.079 --> 00:37:35.519
hour ago saying do I want to lift tomorrow. So

488
00:37:35.559 --> 00:37:37.960
I asked her, I give her ten pounds to take

489
00:37:38.000 --> 00:37:42.199
me when she can. She should take me once. And

490
00:37:42.239 --> 00:37:47.400
it's really she she'll offer when she's going out herself,

491
00:37:48.079 --> 00:37:50.400
so she's not going there specifically for me, but she's

492
00:37:50.400 --> 00:37:53.119
going anywhere near there. She'll to the hospital. She'll give

493
00:37:53.119 --> 00:37:57.639
me a lift. And she called me up and said,

494
00:37:57.679 --> 00:38:00.639
I can take you tomorrow morning. So I thought, well, okay,

495
00:38:01.719 --> 00:38:05.440
I'll do that. And I called up my neighbor the

496
00:38:06.199 --> 00:38:08.199
I'm trying not to say his name, my neighbor opposite

497
00:38:08.280 --> 00:38:11.880
me who's in hospital. I called him up just to

498
00:38:11.920 --> 00:38:16.559
see have you had any other you know, just like

499
00:38:16.800 --> 00:38:20.159
I'll buy the one coming tomorrow, he said, really, So

500
00:38:20.320 --> 00:38:23.239
he seemed like he was quite pleased that I was coming,

501
00:38:24.280 --> 00:38:26.639
which is weird because he seemed really pleased that I

502
00:38:26.719 --> 00:38:32.840
was leaving today earlier. It's just weird. I think I

503
00:38:32.960 --> 00:38:38.360
just annoying him, I think. And so he's still got

504
00:38:38.360 --> 00:38:40.880
a bit of resentment, I think towards me, because he

505
00:38:40.920 --> 00:38:46.199
wouldn't be in there if it wasn't for me, and

506
00:38:46.480 --> 00:38:50.400
even though he needs to be in there, and some

507
00:38:50.440 --> 00:38:54.239
people would argue the other way, but you know, generally

508
00:38:55.199 --> 00:38:58.199
if he hadn't he had joined this. You know, he

509
00:38:58.280 --> 00:39:01.360
needed to be in hospital. He needed treatment for jaundice.

510
00:39:01.599 --> 00:39:03.480
He wouldn't have got any if he hadn't, if I

511
00:39:03.519 --> 00:39:08.119
hadn't called the paramedics, even if he could get treated

512
00:39:08.159 --> 00:39:13.800
at home. You know, he I'm not sure if Jordice

513
00:39:13.800 --> 00:39:15.760
goes away on his own. To be fair, I don't

514
00:39:15.800 --> 00:39:18.920
know enough about it, but I do know that it's

515
00:39:19.480 --> 00:39:29.679
basically it's serious. So I think he holds that resentment

516
00:39:29.719 --> 00:39:32.960
because I've this whole thing is to turn his life

517
00:39:33.039 --> 00:39:39.760
upside down, not just temporarily, so he's got that. Yeah,

518
00:39:39.800 --> 00:39:41.679
I think I think he'd quite like to punch me.

519
00:39:43.800 --> 00:39:46.679
I think I think is that I think he's kind

520
00:39:46.719 --> 00:39:53.440
of he's he's probably happy that I'm there and he's

521
00:39:53.480 --> 00:39:56.440
got a neighbor that cares and whatever. I guess partly

522
00:39:56.679 --> 00:39:58.960
I'm sure that I'm guessing that might be in his mind,

523
00:39:59.559 --> 00:40:01.719
but there also I saw that like part of him thinking,

524
00:40:03.800 --> 00:40:07.760
you know, I'm not sure if he makes that sound

525
00:40:07.840 --> 00:40:10.400
in his brain, but that as part of him. I

526
00:40:10.400 --> 00:40:14.320
think that just I actually, actually I've asked him it.

527
00:40:14.360 --> 00:40:17.519
I'm quite blatant. I do ask people stuff. I said,

528
00:40:19.199 --> 00:40:21.320
like today, I said, you're angry today. You're angry with me,

529
00:40:21.360 --> 00:40:26.159
aren't you? And he was just because he started talking

530
00:40:26.159 --> 00:40:33.760
about politics, and I said, and he was really stuck

531
00:40:33.800 --> 00:40:36.920
on this particular story. And he carried it on all

532
00:40:36.920 --> 00:40:39.760
the way from when we was outside to when we

533
00:40:39.840 --> 00:40:44.159
got back inside and he was eating his dinner, and

534
00:40:44.199 --> 00:40:46.400
then after he's eating his dinner, he's still talking about

535
00:40:46.400 --> 00:40:51.199
it to the neighbor, his neighbor and the bed next

536
00:40:51.199 --> 00:40:55.000
to him. And I'm not sure if the neighbor next

537
00:40:55.079 --> 00:40:57.719
to him even knew what he was talking about, because

538
00:40:58.679 --> 00:41:02.920
he doesn't produce a subject again like me. This is

539
00:41:03.000 --> 00:41:09.559
kind of if I started talking about working in the

540
00:41:09.760 --> 00:41:13.960
meter factory where we used to make meters. It's a

541
00:41:14.000 --> 00:41:16.840
bit like that. It's like I'm talking about a hospital

542
00:41:16.880 --> 00:41:21.519
and now I'm talking about making the boxes, and you're

543
00:41:21.559 --> 00:41:24.400
going to think, well, am I still talking about a hospital?

544
00:41:24.920 --> 00:41:31.679
Because what boxes would you make in the hospital? And

545
00:41:32.119 --> 00:41:35.679
it's hard to follow sometimes, But I don't just sit

546
00:41:35.760 --> 00:41:39.159
there passively and listen because it is a conversation because

547
00:41:39.199 --> 00:41:42.360
if the person's there with me and I question, like

548
00:41:42.440 --> 00:41:45.360
what you, perhaps I shouldn't be, Perhaps I should be

549
00:41:45.920 --> 00:41:49.199
I don't know. I just say what you're talking about? Like,

550
00:41:49.559 --> 00:41:53.280
not in a horrible way, but like what. I don't say,

551
00:41:53.480 --> 00:41:56.840
what are you talking about? Now? What on earth are

552
00:41:56.840 --> 00:41:57.800
you going on about?

553
00:41:58.360 --> 00:41:58.920
Now?

554
00:41:59.440 --> 00:42:05.119
I don't do that, but I do say, uh, wha,

555
00:42:05.639 --> 00:42:16.079
where you want? What? What? Where you want? And at

556
00:42:16.119 --> 00:42:20.559
one point he said, because I asked him something. I

557
00:42:20.599 --> 00:42:22.239
don't know if I was talking about the lunch that

558
00:42:22.280 --> 00:42:26.199
he just had, and he said, or some question or whatever,

559
00:42:26.239 --> 00:42:29.119
and he said, you're trying to distract me from what

560
00:42:29.199 --> 00:42:34.920
I'm talking about. Because I've been doing that lately. I'm

561
00:42:34.960 --> 00:42:37.920
quite good at distracting people to bring them back to

562
00:42:38.280 --> 00:42:42.320
a different subject. Not I suppose it is. Maybe it's

563
00:42:42.360 --> 00:42:44.079
a little bit controlling. I don't mean it in a

564
00:42:44.079 --> 00:42:49.840
controlling way, but it's a way. There's a certain skill

565
00:42:49.880 --> 00:42:53.320
that I learned as a counselor and in hypnosis sort

566
00:42:53.360 --> 00:43:01.079
of therapeutic manner is when someone goes off track, and

567
00:43:01.119 --> 00:43:04.199
sometimes that can be really useful, other times not so

568
00:43:04.320 --> 00:43:08.719
much so bringing it back to the reason they're there.

569
00:43:11.119 --> 00:43:15.280
So if someone's coming because let's say someone's coming because

570
00:43:15.639 --> 00:43:24.280
of uh yeah, maybe exam, you know, when I was

571
00:43:24.960 --> 00:43:28.519
exam anxiety or something like that, and they'll be coming

572
00:43:28.559 --> 00:43:31.199
for counseling because they were just struggling with that stuff

573
00:43:34.239 --> 00:43:36.320
or something similar, I don't know. And then let's start

574
00:43:36.559 --> 00:43:46.039
talking and be talking about spaceships, and you know, these

575
00:43:46.039 --> 00:43:49.480
were like I'm talking about adult people, not like little kids,

576
00:43:50.159 --> 00:43:52.679
although I did used to see I used to counsel

577
00:43:52.800 --> 00:43:55.760
kids as well. But sometimes you have to kind of

578
00:43:55.800 --> 00:43:59.639
bring it back to what the focus is because in

579
00:43:59.719 --> 00:44:04.559
Connsolin there is I don't know what the correct term is,

580
00:44:05.199 --> 00:44:15.519
where people maybe not purposely, maybe not like consciously move

581
00:44:15.760 --> 00:44:19.760
to a different subject to avoid I guess it's avoidance,

582
00:44:19.800 --> 00:44:22.039
isn't I suppose that's probably the word, isn't it. What

583
00:44:22.079 --> 00:44:25.599
do they what's it called when they avoid things? Oh? Avoidance?

584
00:44:26.360 --> 00:44:32.320
So it is something. It's kind of something. As a therapist,

585
00:44:32.400 --> 00:44:34.719
I think it might can be useful to kind of

586
00:44:34.719 --> 00:44:39.360
bring them back to notice that, maybe to even mention

587
00:44:39.440 --> 00:44:43.880
it as well. I noticed you've come here because you

588
00:44:44.039 --> 00:44:49.119
had an issue with you know, when you had that

589
00:44:49.199 --> 00:44:54.280
holiday and things didn't go quite well. But I'm wondering

590
00:44:54.320 --> 00:44:56.840
what that's got to do with that lego set that

591
00:44:56.880 --> 00:45:00.320
you had when you were nine. It might have something

592
00:45:00.800 --> 00:45:05.159
to do with it. It may well do. It might

593
00:45:05.199 --> 00:45:12.320
be an analogy for their experience, so you know, it's

594
00:45:12.440 --> 00:45:16.960
it's I used to really, I used to Here's what

595
00:45:17.000 --> 00:45:19.920
I used to do when I was a counselor. I

596
00:45:20.000 --> 00:45:27.719
used to be real. I don't understand people. I don't

597
00:45:27.719 --> 00:45:33.000
pretend that I understand people, so I ask. So the

598
00:45:33.039 --> 00:45:36.119
only way I can understand someone is by asking them questions,

599
00:45:36.800 --> 00:45:43.360
spending time with them, and genuinely asking them what's going

600
00:45:43.400 --> 00:45:46.760
on in your mind. I can't mind read. I don't

601
00:45:46.760 --> 00:45:51.480
pretend to be able to mind read. I don't know

602
00:45:51.519 --> 00:45:55.000
what someone's thinking by their facial expressions. I can kind

603
00:45:55.079 --> 00:46:01.639
of guess, but I will ask, but even then I

604
00:46:01.639 --> 00:46:04.960
still don't know if it's true, because people sometimes people

605
00:46:05.000 --> 00:46:07.079
don't even seem to know themselves what they're thinking or

606
00:46:07.119 --> 00:46:10.800
what they're feeling. So that was the way I kind

607
00:46:10.840 --> 00:46:15.480
of approached counseling. I didn't go I had the knowledge.

608
00:46:15.960 --> 00:46:18.639
You know, I studied, I had a degree, and you know,

609
00:46:19.199 --> 00:46:22.840
I had a lot of background in studying for fun

610
00:46:23.159 --> 00:46:27.000
psychology and stuff like that, and also the hypnosis background,

611
00:46:28.079 --> 00:46:33.360
and a lot of that is based in psychology and therapy.

612
00:46:34.400 --> 00:46:42.760
But I didn't go into the session thinking, oh, I

613
00:46:42.800 --> 00:46:48.880
was an expert on the human condition. I never had that.

614
00:46:48.920 --> 00:46:53.760
I didn't even for me. It wasn't about other people.

615
00:46:53.800 --> 00:46:58.599
It was just about that one person. It wasn't about

616
00:47:00.519 --> 00:47:03.400
were would the way that they were acting, was it

617
00:47:03.480 --> 00:47:09.280
fitting in with a specific behavioral criteria you know? That

618
00:47:09.400 --> 00:47:14.239
fits in that that's kind of explains the actions, like, Okay,

619
00:47:14.239 --> 00:47:16.400
they're doing this, doing that, doing that, Therefore they are

620
00:47:16.440 --> 00:47:19.559
this because other people that do that, that that that

621
00:47:19.599 --> 00:47:23.920
are this. I just take them as they were. I

622
00:47:23.960 --> 00:47:29.119
wasn't there to diagnose. I'm not a doctor, not yet anyway.

623
00:47:29.119 --> 00:47:35.400
Oh anyway, but my how was a distraction itself was

624
00:47:35.480 --> 00:47:41.760
that I'm talking about distractions and then I avoidance. I

625
00:47:44.679 --> 00:47:47.440
so my neighbor in the hospital, he said, are you

626
00:47:47.559 --> 00:47:51.960
trying to distract me from talking about that thing? But

627
00:47:52.000 --> 00:47:54.320
it already he told a story three times so at

628
00:47:54.320 --> 00:48:00.880
this point kind of to three different people, and I'll say, no,

629
00:48:02.039 --> 00:48:05.960
I'm just trying to get you to focus on now

630
00:48:09.320 --> 00:48:14.239
and how you are, which is the reason I'm visiting you.

631
00:48:16.599 --> 00:48:18.960
And that didn't go down very well. I mean, perhaps

632
00:48:19.519 --> 00:48:23.119
that wasn't I didn't mean it harshly. I just it's

633
00:48:23.119 --> 00:48:25.920
the truth. I'm visited him. I'm visited him because of

634
00:48:27.599 --> 00:48:29.239
I want to know how he is. I want to

635
00:48:29.280 --> 00:48:34.039
know what he's feeling, and technically it's none of my

636
00:48:34.119 --> 00:48:36.400
business how he is or how he's feeling, so I

637
00:48:36.400 --> 00:48:39.960
can see that side as well. But earlier in the

638
00:48:39.960 --> 00:48:43.920
week he was opening up and he's sort of closed

639
00:48:43.920 --> 00:48:48.760
down again. This is weird. I don't know. I just

640
00:48:51.519 --> 00:48:57.960
I mean, my counseling skills are probably pretty much disappeared

641
00:48:57.960 --> 00:48:59.960
because I haven't been a counselor for a long time.

642
00:49:03.880 --> 00:49:10.000
But I can listen if someone is talking about something real.

643
00:49:11.920 --> 00:49:15.719
I really I find it. See I don't get bored

644
00:49:15.760 --> 00:49:24.519
with real stuff, like a real conversation about real things,

645
00:49:24.559 --> 00:49:26.519
you know, feelings and how do I feel about this?

646
00:49:26.679 --> 00:49:34.280
And opinions? Less interested in that because he did say

647
00:49:34.320 --> 00:49:37.679
something about, oh do you do you feel educated now?

648
00:49:37.679 --> 00:49:39.360
Because he was talking about politics, I said, what do

649
00:49:39.400 --> 00:49:41.800
you mean? He so, look, you learned something new, haven't you.

650
00:49:41.920 --> 00:49:45.840
I said, well, I've learned what your opinion is on

651
00:49:45.880 --> 00:49:51.400
that subject. That's probably stuffing that annoyed him. Actually, I said,

652
00:49:51.400 --> 00:49:55.559
it's just opinions. It's not a fact. These aren't facts,

653
00:49:55.599 --> 00:49:59.119
it's just what you believe. You you're on one side

654
00:49:59.119 --> 00:50:02.840
of the fence. You believe this about your political party,

655
00:50:02.920 --> 00:50:13.239
and and it's really just that's an opinion. And it

656
00:50:13.360 --> 00:50:15.599
was because he's got a degree in politics. He's like, no,

657
00:50:15.639 --> 00:50:17.840
it's not an agreement, it's not just an opinion, it's thrue.

658
00:50:19.679 --> 00:50:21.599
And he's saying, I can teach you, I can teach

659
00:50:21.639 --> 00:50:26.880
you about politics. I said, well, I got my own interests. Besides,

660
00:50:26.920 --> 00:50:29.679
I do know a little bit about politics. I do

661
00:50:29.880 --> 00:50:34.000
you know, I've not been I'm not completely oblivious to

662
00:50:34.519 --> 00:50:38.400
what's going on in politics. I go through periods when

663
00:50:38.440 --> 00:50:42.719
I'm really interested in it and then I'm not. But

664
00:50:45.920 --> 00:50:52.639
he we were talking about how one one political party

665
00:50:52.760 --> 00:50:57.079
always goes on about the other political party and what

666
00:50:57.119 --> 00:50:59.840
they did last time there was in power, and however

667
00:51:00.079 --> 00:51:03.119
it's their fault that the place is like it is now.

668
00:51:03.199 --> 00:51:08.239
And I just said to him, that's human that the

669
00:51:08.360 --> 00:51:13.360
tapping into the human nature. It's human nature to blame others,

670
00:51:14.280 --> 00:51:18.239
to want to blame other people. It's just a natural

671
00:51:18.320 --> 00:51:22.360
human instinct. So the politicians are just tapping into that.

672
00:51:25.840 --> 00:51:28.039
It's I mean, I don't know if it's a natural

673
00:51:28.119 --> 00:51:32.960
human instinct all around the world, but I'm pretty safe

674
00:51:33.000 --> 00:51:35.159
to say I feel safe to say it's a national

675
00:51:35.360 --> 00:51:40.000
and it's a national pastime. It seems to be a

676
00:51:40.079 --> 00:51:43.960
natural instinct in this country too. I'm not saying everyone

677
00:51:44.039 --> 00:51:46.199
does it and everyone does it all the time, but

678
00:51:47.719 --> 00:51:50.760
in a kind of majority way, it seems to be.

679
00:51:51.079 --> 00:51:53.599
I love blaming other people. I try not to, but

680
00:51:53.719 --> 00:52:00.719
it's just or blaming the weather, or blaming the blaming

681
00:52:00.960 --> 00:52:07.440
as she seems to be almost like inherited where you're

682
00:52:07.440 --> 00:52:12.039
born in this country. I mean, it might be. I'm

683
00:52:12.079 --> 00:52:14.400
guessing it's not an English thing. I'm pretty sure it's

684
00:52:15.079 --> 00:52:20.599
a worldwide thing. Anyway, I annoyed him, That's what I

685
00:52:20.639 --> 00:52:27.119
was just trying to say, and Zoe called me. So

686
00:52:31.400 --> 00:52:33.679
I got no idea what I was really saying there,

687
00:52:33.719 --> 00:52:34.599
to be honest.

688
00:52:43.239 --> 00:52:45.880
Oh yeah, oh yeah.

689
00:52:46.519 --> 00:52:49.639
So I saw just now before I started doing this,

690
00:52:49.800 --> 00:52:52.599
I had to go around. I saw my neighbor to

691
00:52:52.719 --> 00:52:56.159
discuss her give me a lift, And then I saw

692
00:52:56.320 --> 00:53:04.559
Archie's mum and I haven't seen her all week. I

693
00:53:04.599 --> 00:53:07.880
told her about the situation and she offered four Vinnie

694
00:53:07.960 --> 00:53:11.360
to stay there tomorrow because she's got a day off.

695
00:53:11.960 --> 00:53:15.880
So she said they could Archie could be where because

696
00:53:15.920 --> 00:53:19.360
there's two dogs. There's Archie and another dog that's there

697
00:53:21.320 --> 00:53:24.559
and Vinnie. He likes both of them. He loves Archie.

698
00:53:24.880 --> 00:53:27.800
But they've got a garden, or she's got garden. So

699
00:53:27.840 --> 00:53:30.039
she said that you can figure him around and he

700
00:53:30.079 --> 00:53:33.440
can stay there. So what I did is I said, well, oh,

701
00:53:34.519 --> 00:53:37.599
like brilliant, so instead of him being on his own,

702
00:53:38.679 --> 00:53:40.840
so I'm going to take him around at ten o'clock

703
00:53:40.920 --> 00:53:45.599
tomorrow and she lives up the opposite the person that's

704
00:53:45.639 --> 00:53:49.599
going to give me a lift, and then I'll try

705
00:53:49.639 --> 00:53:51.880
and get back, I think, and get back by two,

706
00:53:52.880 --> 00:53:54.519
so I won't be able to spend a huge amount

707
00:53:54.519 --> 00:53:59.000
of time at the hospital because hopefully i'll get there

708
00:53:59.039 --> 00:54:01.800
by eleven and I might have to leave at one.

709
00:54:02.320 --> 00:54:04.679
But it's still two hours better than no hours, isn't it.

710
00:54:08.960 --> 00:54:13.159
But it's still has like four hours of the neighbor

711
00:54:13.239 --> 00:54:17.079
looking after him after looking after Vinnie, and he's never

712
00:54:17.119 --> 00:54:19.880
been to her house. So what I'm going to do,

713
00:54:19.960 --> 00:54:22.440
I'm going to give her my key to my flat

714
00:54:23.800 --> 00:54:26.199
and she knows where I live, so I'll just say

715
00:54:26.199 --> 00:54:31.920
that if he's being an absolute I don't know, if

716
00:54:31.960 --> 00:54:36.039
he's been really really naughty, then you're welcome just to

717
00:54:36.079 --> 00:54:37.840
bring him back and just stick him in the flat.

718
00:54:40.199 --> 00:54:46.800
You know that's fine, because who knows he's He's never ever, never, ever,

719
00:54:46.880 --> 00:54:52.199
ever ever ever since I've had him, since I've had him,

720
00:54:52.679 --> 00:54:58.079
he's never stayed around a stranger's house before. I mean,

721
00:54:58.119 --> 00:55:01.840
this person's not a stranger and it's so I've seen

722
00:55:01.840 --> 00:55:04.679
her for the last two two and a half years

723
00:55:05.199 --> 00:55:11.480
walking Vinnie. So but he's never he's never been. There's

724
00:55:11.480 --> 00:55:15.159
a video of him and Archie on YouTube, but they've

725
00:55:15.199 --> 00:55:21.760
never Actually, he's never stayed over and he's never really

726
00:55:21.800 --> 00:55:26.559
he's never stayed with anyone other than his former mum

727
00:55:26.760 --> 00:55:28.719
like that he used to live with. He stayed with

728
00:55:28.760 --> 00:55:33.599
her a few times. So this is different. So I

729
00:55:33.639 --> 00:55:35.760
don't know how. I don't know if he's going to behave,

730
00:55:36.679 --> 00:55:38.519
if he's going to be a good boy. I hope

731
00:55:38.519 --> 00:55:42.920
he will be. I think he'll love it personally. I

732
00:55:43.000 --> 00:55:47.480
think he'll absolutely love it. Because but then there's one

733
00:55:47.519 --> 00:55:51.679
thing walking and playing around and stuff with Archie. But

734
00:55:51.719 --> 00:55:56.119
there's another thing. Will he try and take control of

735
00:55:56.199 --> 00:55:58.079
being in the garden? Will he be naughty? Will he

736
00:55:58.159 --> 00:56:01.199
try and escape from the garden. That's the thing, And

737
00:56:01.280 --> 00:56:03.440
if he does, I'm not going to be around to

738
00:56:03.519 --> 00:56:08.199
look for him. I just I hope, I hope, hope,

739
00:56:08.239 --> 00:56:14.360
hope that he behaves. But you know what this is more,

740
00:56:15.000 --> 00:56:18.360
this is going to be good for him because he

741
00:56:18.400 --> 00:56:22.280
hasn't had a chance to run around with any dogs

742
00:56:22.320 --> 00:56:30.239
off the lead for or since September really and now June.

743
00:56:30.719 --> 00:56:35.119
So and they've got a big garden so for him

744
00:56:35.119 --> 00:56:37.920
to run around. Actually that's not true. He did run

745
00:56:37.920 --> 00:56:41.440
around another neighbor's house who's got a dog, but that

746
00:56:41.559 --> 00:56:44.760
was a few sundays ago. That was very brief though,

747
00:56:45.719 --> 00:56:48.639
and he did run out of the front door, so

748
00:56:48.760 --> 00:56:52.000
that wasn't so good. So I'll make sure I just

749
00:56:52.079 --> 00:56:53.800
let him know don't open the front door because he

750
00:56:53.840 --> 00:57:00.760
will try and escape. He's so naughty, and because he

751
00:57:00.880 --> 00:57:02.840
knows where we are, he might try and run home

752
00:57:03.559 --> 00:57:07.159
thinking I'm there. Well though I don't think he really,

753
00:57:07.320 --> 00:57:12.280
I don't think he would. But I kind of think

754
00:57:12.320 --> 00:57:16.360
of it the if you toss it up in a

755
00:57:16.480 --> 00:57:21.960
sense of if I take him to the guard, I've

756
00:57:22.000 --> 00:57:27.480
take him the neighbors to play in the garden. It's

757
00:57:27.519 --> 00:57:32.159
like a ninety nine percent positive thing, possibly one hundred

758
00:57:32.159 --> 00:57:35.199
percent positive thing, because he's getting to do what he

759
00:57:35.239 --> 00:57:37.320
wants to do, which is run around with his friend,

760
00:57:38.079 --> 00:57:42.920
his best friend, Archie and Noodles. They're his two best friends,

761
00:57:44.079 --> 00:57:46.119
and he can't run around with either of them anymore.

762
00:57:47.599 --> 00:57:50.960
Off the lead. Noodles is the dog that he got

763
00:57:50.960 --> 00:57:54.639
into trouble with at the same time, and they're very

764
00:57:54.719 --> 00:57:57.039
naughty when they get together. They kind of lead each

765
00:57:57.079 --> 00:58:05.320
other astray a little bit, Archie less so. But still

766
00:58:05.679 --> 00:58:09.360
I've seen there's been a few dogs that if they

767
00:58:09.519 --> 00:58:12.000
run out of the out of the park venue, will

768
00:58:12.079 --> 00:58:17.440
just follow. So there's that thing, you know, that's happened

769
00:58:17.480 --> 00:58:19.920
a few times over the years. I should have learned

770
00:58:19.920 --> 00:58:25.039
from it, really, but I just I so wanted him

771
00:58:25.079 --> 00:58:30.119
to be able to have that freedom. And he's so happy.

772
00:58:30.360 --> 00:58:33.960
I can see how happy he is when he's running

773
00:58:34.000 --> 00:58:37.800
around with his doggie friends. And he's got a few

774
00:58:37.800 --> 00:58:41.480
dog friends that he really likes. But I think Archie

775
00:58:41.800 --> 00:58:43.880
and Noodles there like at the top of the pack

776
00:58:44.679 --> 00:58:50.039
of because they're both little, and they're both kind of

777
00:58:50.199 --> 00:58:54.039
all both got the same kind of energy as him,

778
00:58:54.079 --> 00:58:57.639
and about the same same age really as well, so yeah,

779
00:58:57.679 --> 00:59:01.239
they kind of yeah, they've got a definite body like

780
00:59:01.440 --> 00:59:05.199
instant bond they had and they've known each other for

781
00:59:05.400 --> 00:59:09.880
what a couple of years. I don't know how Yeah,

782
00:59:09.920 --> 00:59:12.920
probably a couple of years. Both of them actually noodles

783
00:59:12.960 --> 00:59:16.480
an Archie. I think Archie was first. I tell you

784
00:59:16.599 --> 00:59:20.920
something about Archie. This is weird. Archie's a proper fascist. No,

785
00:59:20.960 --> 00:59:26.360
he's not Archie. He's got questionable political No, I don't

786
00:59:26.360 --> 00:59:33.039
want I'm saying that. It doesn't click stamps either. Archie.

787
00:59:35.639 --> 00:59:38.400
I used to see so I'd see Archie in the evening,

788
00:59:39.320 --> 00:59:42.360
like six I don't wait a time that his mom

789
00:59:42.360 --> 00:59:46.360
would be walking in with her two dogs. And once

790
00:59:47.519 --> 00:59:49.679
I said to this lady, the one the neighbor, said,

791
00:59:49.719 --> 00:59:53.360
you know what, he's got another friend. It looks just

792
00:59:53.440 --> 01:00:00.239
like Archie. And they they don't run around, but because

793
01:00:00.239 --> 01:00:02.599
he was always on the lead, but we see him

794
01:00:02.639 --> 01:00:06.639
during the day. This is this. This is from about

795
01:00:06.639 --> 01:00:08.800
a year. And I was saying to her, and he's

796
01:00:08.800 --> 01:00:14.519
got another friend. And after I don't know if it's

797
01:00:14.559 --> 01:00:17.360
a year, maybe nearly a year, it turned out as

798
01:00:17.360 --> 01:00:25.639
the same dog. And it was different because it was

799
01:00:25.679 --> 01:00:29.039
her mum was taking the dog out or taking Archie

800
01:00:29.039 --> 01:00:31.920
out during the day and I said to her, and

801
01:00:32.159 --> 01:00:34.519
we were talking, I said, you know what, he's got

802
01:00:34.519 --> 01:00:37.960
a friend just like that one. Because I didn't see

803
01:00:38.000 --> 01:00:39.760
her that often. I saw the other one in the

804
01:00:39.760 --> 01:00:42.519
evenings fairly regular. The one during the day I didn't

805
01:00:42.559 --> 01:00:49.960
see very often. And she said, this is Archie. I said,

806
01:00:50.599 --> 01:00:53.199
I can't believe you've got two dogs with the same name,

807
01:00:53.599 --> 01:01:02.599
the same kind of dogs. And she said, oh okay,

808
01:01:03.559 --> 01:01:05.880
and then I said goodbye to her. Then I said

809
01:01:05.880 --> 01:01:08.760
the same thing to the lady in the evening. I said,

810
01:01:09.239 --> 01:01:10.960
there's another woman. You know. I told you that a

811
01:01:11.039 --> 01:01:14.719
woman has got a dog that's just like Archie. His

812
01:01:14.800 --> 01:01:20.039
name's also Archie. And she looked at me like, I

813
01:01:20.039 --> 01:01:25.239
think she must have thought I was a bit dim

814
01:01:25.480 --> 01:01:31.639
or I was like joking around or something. She said, really,

815
01:01:31.760 --> 01:01:35.719
I said, yeah, it's the same. She still mentions it now, like,

816
01:01:36.000 --> 01:01:37.559
how can you not know that there was the same

817
01:01:37.639 --> 01:01:40.480
dog for a year. Vinnie was playing the same dog,

818
01:01:41.800 --> 01:01:44.800
the same name for a year. Two different dogs, but

819
01:01:44.840 --> 01:01:49.519
it's one dog. I don't know. There's so many names,

820
01:01:49.679 --> 01:01:54.320
I don't keep track, but it's only Archie in the

821
01:01:54.440 --> 01:01:57.320
arch the evening Archie. I know both of them were Archie,

822
01:01:57.320 --> 01:02:00.159
but the afternoon Archie never used to run around with

823
01:02:00.280 --> 01:02:03.519
any it's always on the lead. But even in Archie

824
01:02:03.880 --> 01:02:08.079
is to run around, so I kind of learned his

825
01:02:08.199 --> 01:02:24.360
name a bit. It's weird, right, Yeah. I am going

826
01:02:24.440 --> 01:02:28.199
to do a Q and A Friday this week. Now,

827
01:02:28.239 --> 01:02:33.079
whether I do a Friday or I do a Saturday, oh,

828
01:02:33.639 --> 01:02:38.440
I know, I'm definitely not going to. I'm not going to.

829
01:02:38.719 --> 01:02:42.119
I'm not going to the hospital on Sunday because the

830
01:02:42.119 --> 01:02:46.360
buses are just ridiculous. They're like every two hours if

831
01:02:46.400 --> 01:02:49.960
at all, So I'm not I'm not traveling on Sunday,

832
01:02:50.639 --> 01:02:54.519
So I won't be going there on a Sunday. I'm

833
01:02:54.559 --> 01:02:59.840
there tomorrow. What I might do is maybe take Friday

834
01:02:59.920 --> 01:03:02.920
or off, or go Friday and have the weekend off.

835
01:03:04.480 --> 01:03:07.639
And if his other friend, because he's got someone else

836
01:03:07.760 --> 01:03:11.199
visiting him now, is going to go and see him

837
01:03:11.199 --> 01:03:13.079
at the weekend, and that can kind of do that.

838
01:03:13.440 --> 01:03:17.840
I do really don't know. I'll play it by I'll

839
01:03:17.840 --> 01:03:19.920
play it by ear or by eye or buy foot

840
01:03:19.960 --> 01:03:24.679
or whatever. I'll just see what happens, you know. But

841
01:03:24.760 --> 01:03:26.760
I'm going to do a Q and A Friday this week.

842
01:03:32.199 --> 01:03:34.920
Oh wow, So I.

843
01:03:34.880 --> 01:03:39.599
Did post a recording two days ago. Hi, or I

844
01:03:39.679 --> 01:03:41.199
might not be able to make a recording this week

845
01:03:41.239 --> 01:03:43.880
because I'm back and forward to a hospital. So I

846
01:03:43.960 --> 01:03:47.159
posted that I have had some comments, but I didn't

847
01:03:47.199 --> 01:03:49.960
have time to really reply to them. So I'm going

848
01:03:50.039 --> 01:03:51.960
to reply to them now. I'm going to read them

849
01:03:52.000 --> 01:03:56.039
out and I'm going to reply to them now. Unfortunately,

850
01:03:56.079 --> 01:03:57.960
some people listen to this and might have just fallen

851
01:03:57.960 --> 01:04:00.239
asleep through boredom, which is a bit of a food

852
01:04:01.280 --> 01:04:05.519
But hey, Christine writes, I hope you and your neighbor

853
01:04:05.599 --> 01:04:08.440
feel a bit better soon. We'll all be here when

854
01:04:08.519 --> 01:04:11.480
you feel well enough. Take care and thank you for

855
01:04:11.519 --> 01:04:16.400
taking the time to let us know. So thank you, Christine.

856
01:04:15.280 --> 01:04:25.199
And I didn't after the Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday. By

857
01:04:25.199 --> 01:04:28.679
the end of Monday, I really just I didn't think

858
01:04:28.719 --> 01:04:33.159
I could be making any recordings. But then yesterday, for

859
01:04:33.199 --> 01:04:38.880
some reason, I just felt okay to do one. So

860
01:04:38.920 --> 01:04:44.960
I'm just gonna Oh, it really is time to go

861
01:04:45.000 --> 01:04:49.199
to sleep soon. I don't know what time is, it's

862
01:04:49.239 --> 01:04:56.920
probably about seven o'clock, Okay, it's twenty to eight, Hope wrote,

863
01:04:57.000 --> 01:05:00.639
take care of you. I hope your neighbor get better soon.

864
01:05:00.760 --> 01:05:03.599
Thank you, Thank you, Hope. So I put a love

865
01:05:03.599 --> 01:05:07.480
heart there as well. Just so, why does it not

866
01:05:07.519 --> 01:05:11.400
allow me to look up the that's weird? There it's go.

867
01:05:13.000 --> 01:05:19.159
Maria writes, take care of yourself, Jason, I hope your

868
01:05:19.239 --> 01:05:22.119
neighbor makes a full recovery, saying thanks for letting us know.

869
01:05:22.760 --> 01:05:30.599
Thank you, Maria. Why is this not working? Okay? There

870
01:05:30.639 --> 01:05:34.239
we go? I just wanted to know that I have

871
01:05:34.480 --> 01:05:40.000
rigid messages. I just haven't. I was reading them in

872
01:05:40.039 --> 01:05:46.800
the hospital. Actually. Tammy writes, we so well for me?

873
01:05:52.960 --> 01:05:56.639
What does that say? We so well for me? Email?

874
01:05:56.840 --> 01:06:09.239
Going out for health and safety? Okay, I'm not sure

875
01:06:09.239 --> 01:06:11.800
what that means. I'm I think my brain's going a

876
01:06:11.800 --> 01:06:15.400
little bit slow today. Sorry, but thanks your message. I'm

877
01:06:15.400 --> 01:06:23.639
not Nie knee mail going out for health and safety.

878
01:06:24.880 --> 01:06:27.960
That probably makes sense, but it's not my brain. Honestly.

879
01:06:28.039 --> 01:06:38.360
I'm just I'm not on full full capacity at the moment. Ah.

880
01:06:38.480 --> 01:06:40.480
But saying that, I'm not sure if I've ever been

881
01:06:40.480 --> 01:06:46.639
on full capacity. Jackie writes, yeah, I can imagine neckering indeed,

882
01:06:47.199 --> 01:06:51.440
But you know something you have to do. Good on

883
01:06:51.519 --> 01:06:54.440
your mate, don't stress in your own time. Best wishes

884
01:06:54.440 --> 01:07:05.639
to your neighbor. Thank you, Jackie. Yeah, yeah, it's been

885
01:07:05.639 --> 01:07:08.079
an accurate it. I think part of it is because

886
01:07:08.079 --> 01:07:13.079
I'm just not used to being around people, and I'm

887
01:07:13.159 --> 01:07:16.480
seeing more people in a day now than I would

888
01:07:16.480 --> 01:07:25.280
do for a whole year, way more. Yeah, yeah, more

889
01:07:25.320 --> 01:07:28.079
than I would do in a whole year, because there's

890
01:07:28.079 --> 01:07:32.280
literally thousands upon thousands upon thousands upon thousands of people

891
01:07:33.079 --> 01:07:37.480
that I'm seeing outside the hospital, inside the hospital, walking

892
01:07:37.519 --> 01:07:41.800
through the wards. It's just thousands of people. So it's

893
01:07:41.840 --> 01:07:47.159
a little bit overload, I think, which is okay, I

894
01:07:47.199 --> 01:07:50.159
know what it is. Yeah, it's all right, It's just

895
01:07:50.760 --> 01:07:54.920
it is what it is. In say specially is switches

896
01:07:54.960 --> 01:07:56.920
to your neighbor, take care of yourself and take a

897
01:07:56.960 --> 01:08:00.000
break for as long as you need to. Thank you.

898
01:08:03.199 --> 01:08:06.559
It's one of those situations I'm going to while he's

899
01:08:06.599 --> 01:08:09.199
in there. I can't. I'm going to make recordings when

900
01:08:09.239 --> 01:08:12.719
I can, and I'm not going to push myself to

901
01:08:12.719 --> 01:08:15.360
do anything really, but it's just going to I do

902
01:08:15.400 --> 01:08:18.880
them when I feel up to it. And it's just tiredness,

903
01:08:18.880 --> 01:08:23.680
that's all it is. Really. It's not anything else. Maybe

904
01:08:23.680 --> 01:08:27.199
a little bit more, but you know, it's just mainly tiredness.

905
01:08:27.239 --> 01:08:38.760
So I it's just it's disrupted my routine, but you

906
01:08:38.800 --> 01:08:47.920
know what, it's disrupted his routine as well, and so

907
01:08:48.119 --> 01:08:51.079
my routine is not really that important right now. So

908
01:08:51.159 --> 01:08:55.279
it's okay as long as I don't want to go

909
01:08:55.399 --> 01:08:58.359
like long periods of time without making a recording, because

910
01:09:00.600 --> 01:09:03.680
as it is, if I go, well, i'll tell you actually,

911
01:09:04.159 --> 01:09:08.680
I'll come back to this in a minute. Here's here's

912
01:09:08.680 --> 01:09:11.880
how the stats go. Okay, So what is it now?

913
01:09:11.920 --> 01:09:22.399
It's Wednesday, Tuesday, Monday, Sunday, Saturday, Friday. Okay, So Thursday

914
01:09:23.319 --> 01:09:28.439
two one hundred and thirty six two, one hundred and

915
01:09:28.479 --> 01:09:36.640
fifty three downloads, Saturday Friday one thousand, seven hundred and

916
01:09:36.680 --> 01:09:47.560
ninety five downloads, Friday seven hundred and four downloads, Saturday

917
01:09:47.800 --> 01:09:51.239
five hundred and forty, five hundred and forty one downloads,

918
01:09:52.199 --> 01:09:58.840
Sunday three hundred and fifty downloads. That's not right, Wednesday.

919
01:09:59.479 --> 01:10:02.079
So I've got five hundred and fifty today so far,

920
01:10:03.199 --> 01:10:06.920
but two hundred and twenty seven yesterday, two hundred and

921
01:10:06.960 --> 01:10:13.000
twenty seven is the amount I'll be getting. I mean,

922
01:10:13.199 --> 01:10:17.159
that would be bad. Ten years ago. In a day,

923
01:10:17.239 --> 01:10:18.880
two hundred and two asks like one of the worst

924
01:10:18.960 --> 01:10:22.279
days I could ever have, because I've not been making

925
01:10:22.359 --> 01:10:31.279
new recordings. So Tuesday Monday three hundred and fifty listens.

926
01:10:31.319 --> 01:10:35.560
These downloads are listens, so three hundred is ridiculously low,

927
01:10:36.000 --> 01:10:43.119
really low. So Wednesday, Tuesday, Monday, Sunday five hundred and

928
01:10:43.119 --> 01:10:51.720
forty one, Saturday seven hundred and four. It's just gone down.

929
01:10:52.319 --> 01:10:54.680
I mean today, I did do a recording this morning

930
01:10:54.880 --> 01:11:00.000
or last night. I uploaded it this morning, so it's

931
01:11:00.079 --> 01:11:06.159
a rise, but it's still a small amount, which is

932
01:11:06.279 --> 01:11:10.439
kind of weird how I mean, yeah, I was making

933
01:11:10.800 --> 01:11:15.720
like two plus recordings a day last week or the

934
01:11:15.720 --> 01:11:21.039
week before, I can't remember. But the weird thing about

935
01:11:21.039 --> 01:11:28.560
it is, I it's a little bit like sales you

936
01:11:28.640 --> 01:11:32.960
run as good as your last sale, or in sports,

937
01:11:32.960 --> 01:11:35.239
you run as good as your last football game, or

938
01:11:35.279 --> 01:11:37.680
you are you know, it's only only as good as

939
01:11:37.680 --> 01:11:42.640
your last performance, which is come on, which is seems

940
01:11:42.640 --> 01:11:52.119
a bit harsh, But it seems that we're podcasting. As

941
01:11:52.159 --> 01:11:56.439
soon as I stopped making recordings, people stopped listening. Not

942
01:11:56.439 --> 01:12:02.920
not completely, but I don't like seeing, you know, like

943
01:12:03.039 --> 01:12:09.760
yesterday two hundred and twenty seven downloads, So that's two

944
01:12:09.840 --> 01:12:14.640
hundred and twenty seven plays. Admittedly a lot of those

945
01:12:14.680 --> 01:12:17.680
would be ten hour recordings. So that's just one person.

946
01:12:18.159 --> 01:12:23.800
They're not like listening to multiple recordings, and hopefully a

947
01:12:23.840 --> 01:12:28.479
couple of people have found it useful. But to go

948
01:12:28.560 --> 01:12:33.399
from two thousand plus down to two hundred and twenty seven,

949
01:12:33.439 --> 01:12:37.800
it's a bit of a I mean, if the weird

950
01:12:37.800 --> 01:12:40.039
thing is I've only just looked at the stats. Now,

951
01:12:40.439 --> 01:12:42.000
I didn't look at this. I've not looked at the

952
01:12:42.039 --> 01:12:49.479
stats for probably a few days. I've not really taken

953
01:12:49.520 --> 01:12:51.279
much notice of the stats because I knew it was

954
01:12:51.279 --> 01:12:55.039
going to go down because it always does. It's weird though,

955
01:12:55.039 --> 01:12:58.720
because sometimes then it just shoots up and I get

956
01:12:58.800 --> 01:13:04.239
like three four thousand in a day. Is strange the

957
01:13:04.239 --> 01:13:09.039
way it goes. But I know this. That's part of

958
01:13:09.039 --> 01:13:11.680
the reason why I don't go too many days without

959
01:13:11.720 --> 01:13:16.680
making a recording, because it's almost like people just forget

960
01:13:16.680 --> 01:13:27.439
about me or forget about the podcast rather start crying.

961
01:13:28.680 --> 01:13:34.199
Don't make me cry. You wouldn't like me want to cry. Yeah, So,

962
01:13:37.640 --> 01:13:39.439
I mean it's still well, it's near the end of

963
01:13:39.479 --> 01:13:43.359
the day, really, isn't it's ten to eight, nine, ten eleven, twelve. Well,

964
01:13:43.439 --> 01:13:46.640
it's it's five hours left of the stats. Because it

965
01:13:46.680 --> 01:13:49.640
goes to one o'clock in the morning for some reason.

966
01:13:50.399 --> 01:13:53.479
So you know, I'll probably end up with maybe seven

967
01:13:53.600 --> 01:13:59.640
hundred eight hundred. It's still just such a small amount

968
01:14:00.720 --> 01:14:04.800
when you think about it, when you think compared comparisons,

969
01:14:04.800 --> 01:14:10.319
aren't always do so? Are they? In two thousand and

970
01:14:10.399 --> 01:14:24.079
twenty one, twenty twenty one, twenty twenty two, twenty twenty one. Yeah,

971
01:14:24.119 --> 01:14:30.199
it was twenty twenty one. I think I had one month, well,

972
01:14:30.199 --> 01:14:33.319
it might have been twenty twenty. Maybe it was December.

973
01:14:34.520 --> 01:14:40.560
I had over nine hundred thousand views in one month,

974
01:14:44.000 --> 01:14:47.239
just under Yeah, it's just under a million. Let me

975
01:14:47.279 --> 01:14:50.840
see if I can find it. Seriously, you think I'm lying.

976
01:14:50.920 --> 01:14:54.039
I'm not lying. I'm not. I'm not. I can find

977
01:14:54.039 --> 01:14:57.079
it for you. Let me have a look. So let's

978
01:14:57.079 --> 01:15:00.359
go for the dates. It was five year years ago,

979
01:15:00.439 --> 01:15:04.920
isn't it. I know it won't allow it. It will

980
01:15:04.960 --> 01:15:13.359
not allow it. It won't allow it. Why won't allow it? Damn? Okay,

981
01:15:15.840 --> 01:15:17.920
let me see if I can find it a different way.

982
01:15:18.960 --> 01:15:29.399
There's all these different ways of finding stuff. No, how

983
01:15:29.439 --> 01:15:39.039
annoying you're annoying. I wonder if there's stat's for that.

984
01:15:40.760 --> 01:15:46.000
If I go back. Okay, there's another way of doing it.

985
01:15:46.119 --> 01:15:54.399
Let me have a look. December twenty twenty, do do do?

986
01:15:54.680 --> 01:16:00.119
Do do do? December two thousand, Oh no, wait a minute,

987
01:16:00.840 --> 01:16:12.520
December twenty twenty to December twenty twenty. Right, this doesn't

988
01:16:12.560 --> 01:16:16.319
seem to be working very well December. So of go

989
01:16:16.479 --> 01:16:17.079
that there.

990
01:16:18.520 --> 01:16:35.000
December twoy twenty Okay, December twenty twenty. So, no, that

991
01:16:35.159 --> 01:16:40.800
was not the month. But it was a very very

992
01:16:40.840 --> 01:16:44.039
busy month, it really was. But it was not the

993
01:16:44.079 --> 01:16:49.479
month at all that I'm thinking about. So maybe it's

994
01:16:49.560 --> 01:16:51.119
January twenty twenty one.

995
01:16:52.199 --> 01:16:59.800
Might have been January twenty twenty one. No, maybe it's

996
01:16:59.800 --> 01:17:06.359
twoy twenty two. Maybe it's December twenty twenty two. Maybe

997
01:17:06.399 --> 01:17:11.079
I'm just completely getting it all wrong. Maybe it's two

998
01:17:11.199 --> 01:17:14.880
did I say to Maybe it's two thousand and twenty

999
01:17:14.920 --> 01:17:20.880
one December? Yeah, that must be the one that makes

1000
01:17:20.920 --> 01:17:26.880
more sense. Actually, for some reason, that's the one. Wow,

1001
01:17:27.560 --> 01:17:31.840
that was the biggest month I ever had, and I

1002
01:17:32.000 --> 01:17:39.239
had just under I've not got the exact number because

1003
01:17:39.239 --> 01:17:46.680
it won't give it to me. Twelfth of December was

1004
01:17:46.840 --> 01:17:54.199
the biggest day I had. I had something like seventy

1005
01:17:54.600 --> 01:18:01.079
over seventy thousand listens or downloads on that day, and

1006
01:18:01.239 --> 01:18:05.720
overall I had nearly a million downloads for the whole

1007
01:18:06.560 --> 01:18:18.640
month of December twoenty twenty one, and then it changed.

1008
01:18:20.279 --> 01:18:23.439
It went a little bit, yeah, kind of it's not

1009
01:18:23.479 --> 01:18:31.439
that the bubble, the bubble didn't burst, but the downloads

1010
01:18:32.640 --> 01:18:35.359
pretty much half. I think the most I got was

1011
01:18:35.399 --> 01:18:40.319
about thirty maybe thirty five thousand in one day, and

1012
01:18:40.359 --> 01:18:43.640
again that was was that on the twelfth, that was

1013
01:18:43.680 --> 01:18:47.239
the tenth, don't know what it is about the tenth

1014
01:18:47.279 --> 01:18:51.199
and the twelfth, so that went down to like half,

1015
01:18:54.720 --> 01:19:02.760
and then the February twenty twenty two, again it's starting

1016
01:19:02.760 --> 01:19:06.439
to go down. I had a couple of days that

1017
01:19:06.479 --> 01:19:11.199
were above about forty thousand, but it's a lot less.

1018
01:19:11.479 --> 01:19:17.199
It was looking roughly about six hundred thousand on that month,

1019
01:19:21.239 --> 01:19:29.399
and then March it's going down, so looking at like

1020
01:19:29.600 --> 01:19:39.560
twenty seven thousand a day, twenty thousand, seventeen thousand, things

1021
01:19:39.640 --> 01:19:45.319
like that. So I ended up probably getting probably about

1022
01:19:46.359 --> 01:19:49.840
it's hard to work out, maybe four hundred thousand for

1023
01:19:49.920 --> 01:20:02.800
the month. And then April twenty twenty two, it was, yeah,

1024
01:20:02.800 --> 01:20:06.279
it went down even further then, so I was roughly

1025
01:20:06.319 --> 01:20:10.079
probably getting about fifteen thousand a month a day rather

1026
01:20:10.960 --> 01:20:17.720
fourteen thousand, eleven twelve, you know, varying, so looking probably

1027
01:20:17.720 --> 01:20:21.279
about three hundred between two hundred and fifteen three hundred

1028
01:20:21.279 --> 01:20:27.399
thousand for the month. Then May twenty twenty two, it

1029
01:20:27.520 --> 01:20:30.880
just shows you how different it is now, you know,

1030
01:20:31.039 --> 01:20:36.920
it's and it goes down again. I'm getting Yeah, it's

1031
01:20:36.960 --> 01:20:42.760
not too bad, so roughly eleven twelve A few days

1032
01:20:42.800 --> 01:20:46.720
which were so probably about twelve thousand, ten to twelve

1033
01:20:46.800 --> 01:20:51.680
thousand a month a day rather, so for a while,

1034
01:20:51.760 --> 01:20:55.239
ten thousand was kind of the optimum amount that I

1035
01:20:55.239 --> 01:20:58.279
would get in a day. I kind of got used

1036
01:20:58.279 --> 01:21:01.159
to it. This is before I lost my podcast, by

1037
01:21:01.199 --> 01:21:04.479
the way, because they had music and they took them off.

1038
01:21:06.520 --> 01:21:08.840
I actually lost the podcast. I had to start again.

1039
01:21:10.359 --> 01:21:19.079
And then we've got June twenty twenty two. It's a

1040
01:21:19.079 --> 01:21:22.399
lot less, about about two hundred thousand, maybe a lot

1041
01:21:22.479 --> 01:21:25.640
less than that. So I'm getting probably roughly about seven

1042
01:21:26.600 --> 01:21:32.800
seven thousand a day, sometimes a little bit more, but

1043
01:21:32.840 --> 01:21:38.720
it's still, you know, still a nice amount. And then

1044
01:21:38.800 --> 01:21:44.239
July twenty twenty four, for some reason, the summer is

1045
01:21:44.399 --> 01:21:50.439
quieter than the winter with podcasting for me anyway, and

1046
01:21:50.439 --> 01:21:53.239
probably because there's more to do. You know, it's lighter,

1047
01:21:53.319 --> 01:21:57.880
it's more more daylight, more things to do than when

1048
01:21:57.920 --> 01:22:03.560
it's this rain. And you know, maybe maybe I don't know,

1049
01:22:04.640 --> 01:22:07.239
I had some This was an okay man. So I

1050
01:22:07.279 --> 01:22:14.239
probably had about two hundred thousand possibly and a few

1051
01:22:14.479 --> 01:22:18.319
really good days where I had like maybe thirteen to

1052
01:22:18.319 --> 01:22:22.600
fifteen thousand a day, but a few other days where

1053
01:22:22.640 --> 01:22:26.119
I was getting maybe four thousand. So back then four

1054
01:22:26.159 --> 01:22:29.960
thousands and four thousand was a really bad day. It

1055
01:22:30.000 --> 01:22:35.159
was a really low day. Anything pretty much below three

1056
01:22:35.279 --> 01:22:39.560
thousand was really I suppose really anything below five thousand

1057
01:22:39.800 --> 01:22:45.760
was classed as quite a bad day. Really back then

1058
01:22:47.239 --> 01:22:52.159
then you got August twenty twenty two that was starting

1059
01:22:52.199 --> 01:22:56.840
to get busier again, which is weird. So we're looking

1060
01:22:56.880 --> 01:23:01.239
probably about three hundred thousand a few days when it

1061
01:23:01.359 --> 01:23:07.600
was less than four thousand, but yeah, it's hard to

1062
01:23:07.880 --> 01:23:11.920
it might it might be less than three hundred thousand. Again,

1063
01:23:12.039 --> 01:23:14.920
I'm just guessing. I'm looking at the stats, but it's

1064
01:23:15.000 --> 01:23:18.720
it's quite difficult from what I'm looking at, but it's

1065
01:23:18.920 --> 01:23:24.960
it's like a guess, really an educated guess. Then the

1066
01:23:25.000 --> 01:23:27.479
next month I can just see like from a pie chart,

1067
01:23:27.479 --> 01:23:30.640
if that makes sense. So it's a lot less again

1068
01:23:31.840 --> 01:23:39.640
in September twenty twenty two, and yeah, so it builds

1069
01:23:39.720 --> 01:23:42.760
up near the end of the month and then at

1070
01:23:42.800 --> 01:23:49.960
some point I don't think it's October, things go poo pool.

1071
01:23:53.159 --> 01:23:58.359
Not yet, so October it's still okay, but all no,

1072
01:23:59.000 --> 01:24:01.520
So October that's when it went. Yeah, when it went

1073
01:24:01.640 --> 01:24:05.800
kind of wrong. I had to start, I think over again.

1074
01:24:07.560 --> 01:24:10.119
And because I was uploading so much stuff, I was

1075
01:24:10.119 --> 01:24:13.279
getting a lot of downloads, because I was uploading the

1076
01:24:13.319 --> 01:24:22.039
whole lot again. But yeah, it wasn't I was probably

1077
01:24:22.079 --> 01:24:27.800
getting one hundred thousand probably in that month. And then

1078
01:24:27.920 --> 01:24:34.880
November twoenty twenty two, so it grew a little bit more. So.

1079
01:24:35.039 --> 01:24:38.920
The winter is always a bit busier. I mean, even

1080
01:24:39.159 --> 01:24:46.680
if I look at this stats from last year, the

1081
01:24:47.840 --> 01:24:53.399
I'm pretty sure like December November, December kind of time

1082
01:24:53.560 --> 01:24:57.840
is generally a lot busier. So if I go November

1083
01:24:57.960 --> 01:25:09.000
last year November last year, no, not particularly. But actually

1084
01:25:09.000 --> 01:25:11.479
the reason for that is because I was using SoundCloud

1085
01:25:11.720 --> 01:25:15.359
for half the month. But the days when I was

1086
01:25:15.439 --> 01:25:30.239
on using Speaker, I was getting pretty good days December December, right,

1087
01:25:31.000 --> 01:25:36.000
I only one two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, ten, eleven, twelve.

1088
01:25:36.640 --> 01:25:39.920
Only twelve days of December did I have my podcast

1089
01:25:40.039 --> 01:25:43.000
on here. But at the same time, the rest of

1090
01:25:43.000 --> 01:25:46.159
the month I had on SoundCloud. So that's not a

1091
01:25:46.159 --> 01:25:49.000
good example of a day. I wonder why that was.

1092
01:25:50.199 --> 01:25:52.039
Is that when they said we could have music again.

1093
01:25:52.199 --> 01:25:58.319
Was that another one of those situations, because yeah, I've

1094
01:25:58.319 --> 01:26:06.399
had a few problems with that jarnyery this year. Yeah,

1095
01:26:06.399 --> 01:26:09.720
that was a bit better. It's really up and down,

1096
01:26:09.760 --> 01:26:12.640
to be fair, it's up and down. I think the

1097
01:26:13.640 --> 01:26:19.279
inconsistency when it came to losing the podcasts and maybe

1098
01:26:19.319 --> 01:26:21.000
some of the things that I do, you know, putting

1099
01:26:21.000 --> 01:26:25.319
it onto SoundCloud. Then it's back onto speaker. Although it

1100
01:26:25.359 --> 01:26:29.800
doesn't really make a huge difference to the podcast because

1101
01:26:29.800 --> 01:26:34.840
it's still available on the same places. It's probably a

1102
01:26:34.920 --> 01:26:43.680
little bit yeah, you know, maybe it doesn't. It's not good. Hope, right,

1103
01:26:44.119 --> 01:26:47.319
I hope your neighbors. How is your neighbor doing? So

1104
01:26:47.359 --> 01:26:50.039
I'm just going to put love because I've talked about

1105
01:26:50.079 --> 01:26:54.279
it in this podcast. So Rick says, sending love and

1106
01:26:54.319 --> 01:26:57.279
good vibes to your neighbor. How nice of you to

1107
01:26:57.319 --> 01:27:01.720
support her? Just leat it it's a man. I've not

1108
01:27:01.800 --> 01:27:04.560
mentioned who it is. It's a man. It doesn't make

1109
01:27:04.600 --> 01:27:07.920
any difference, a man or woman. I call him her

1110
01:27:08.399 --> 01:27:13.239
he It makes no difference to me. And just let

1111
01:27:13.279 --> 01:27:19.520
you know. So it's he's a seventy eight in about

1112
01:27:22.960 --> 01:27:32.359
what's it now? He's seventy eight years old. Wednesday? So

1113
01:27:32.479 --> 01:27:35.960
not next Wednesday, next Friday, he will be seventy eight

1114
01:27:36.039 --> 01:27:44.840
years old. Not this Friday. Coming. Wow, can you believe right?

1115
01:27:45.680 --> 01:27:48.800
It's near the end of June. It's near the end

1116
01:27:48.840 --> 01:27:52.720
of June. It's nearly the end of June. It's weird.

1117
01:27:54.159 --> 01:28:02.159
I mean, the first of July is on Tuesday. I

1118
01:28:02.279 --> 01:28:05.520
just I don't know. I don't know why. Why am

1119
01:28:05.560 --> 01:28:12.199
I surprised? Is just normal, isn't it? So? I think

1120
01:28:12.239 --> 01:28:22.520
I've answered. I've read out these questions these things, so

1121
01:28:22.600 --> 01:28:25.600
thank you very much. If I haven't read them all out,

1122
01:28:25.640 --> 01:28:36.279
I'm sorry. I'm just scrolling through. So my website is back. However, however,

1123
01:28:37.279 --> 01:28:40.039
there's a bit of an issue because they've because I

1124
01:28:40.079 --> 01:28:42.920
did delete it, they're allowed for it to come back.

1125
01:28:44.560 --> 01:28:48.239
But some of it is not how it should be.

1126
01:28:49.199 --> 01:28:52.000
I haven't got time to work on it at the moment.

1127
01:28:52.640 --> 01:28:57.840
But I will get it sorted. I promise I will.

1128
01:28:58.720 --> 01:29:01.560
It's just going to take a little while. Well, I

1129
01:29:01.640 --> 01:29:04.159
don't have the time at the moment to work on

1130
01:29:04.199 --> 01:29:08.279
the website, but as soon as I've got the time,

1131
01:29:08.439 --> 01:29:11.359
I will make those fixes. I mean, at the moment,

1132
01:29:11.560 --> 01:29:15.760
at the moment, it's working fine. Generally. It's all the

1133
01:29:15.800 --> 01:29:19.840
only playlists I've got without music. I sorted that out

1134
01:29:19.960 --> 01:29:26.399
so that it was obvious to see, but it's put

1135
01:29:26.439 --> 01:29:29.479
it back to how it was before. So I'm not sure.

1136
01:29:29.800 --> 01:29:33.680
I've not even had time to really properly examine the

1137
01:29:33.720 --> 01:29:37.880
website to make sure that everything works, all the pages work,

1138
01:29:37.960 --> 01:29:39.680
or the links work. I've not done any of that,

1139
01:29:40.520 --> 01:29:45.359
and I hope it does. However, if you do go

1140
01:29:45.399 --> 01:29:50.359
to the website, there are let me have a look

1141
01:29:58.920 --> 01:30:03.239
right on my website. From all the different podcasts that

1142
01:30:03.279 --> 01:30:10.960
are on there, there's six thousand, six hundred episodes. Okay,

1143
01:30:11.079 --> 01:30:21.079
so there's twenty. There's sixty four podcasts, one video channel,

1144
01:30:21.520 --> 01:30:24.760
three blog posts. I don't know what that is. I

1145
01:30:24.800 --> 01:30:26.720
know what blog post is, but I don't know what

1146
01:30:26.760 --> 01:30:30.560
I've done. It's a six thousand, six hundred and four

1147
01:30:31.239 --> 01:30:33.880
always let me look click on that I wonder what's

1148
01:30:33.880 --> 01:30:47.000
going to show me. Right, that's different podcasts on the Sumelk.

1149
01:30:47.920 --> 01:30:55.840
I don't know how many there are. Well, okay, so

1150
01:30:55.840 --> 01:31:07.199
there's one hundred, one hundred times by thirteen, so one

1151
01:31:07.279 --> 01:31:13.039
thousand and three hundred episodes. This does include the different

1152
01:31:13.680 --> 01:31:17.000
you know, the ones with music, ones without music, ten hours,

1153
01:31:17.039 --> 01:31:22.359
five hours, but there's one three hundred recordings that you

1154
01:31:22.439 --> 01:31:26.520
can actually scroll through on the very first page of

1155
01:31:26.520 --> 01:31:33.800
the website if you're willing to kind of go through

1156
01:31:33.920 --> 01:31:37.239
all that is because it's it takes a while, but

1157
01:31:37.279 --> 01:31:45.520
you can also search for stuff. So basically, if you

1158
01:31:45.640 --> 01:31:49.720
go into the website, you've got one, two, three, four

1159
01:31:49.720 --> 01:31:54.600
different boxes at the top podcasts, playlists, podcast apps, and contact.

1160
01:31:55.760 --> 01:32:00.479
Then you've got two boxes below that, ones for PayPal,

1161
01:32:00.560 --> 01:32:04.520
the other one's join the boy in Jason Newland's boring

1162
01:32:04.560 --> 01:32:09.720
group on Facebook. And then below that is the latest recordings.

1163
01:32:09.760 --> 01:32:20.800
So there's six versions of most recordings. If for some reason, yes,

1164
01:32:20.840 --> 01:32:23.960
sometimes I'll only do two recordings. So I did a

1165
01:32:24.000 --> 01:32:26.880
deep sleep whisper, and maybe it's because it was a

1166
01:32:26.920 --> 01:32:29.760
Sunday and I was busy, but I just did two versions,

1167
01:32:29.840 --> 01:32:33.720
one with music, one without. I think partly is because

1168
01:32:33.760 --> 01:32:39.039
it was so such a low volume that I just

1169
01:32:41.000 --> 01:32:43.000
it was just easier just to do one with music

1170
01:32:43.039 --> 01:32:46.800
one without rather than editing it five and ten hours,

1171
01:32:47.079 --> 01:32:48.720
because I think it would have taken a while and

1172
01:32:48.720 --> 01:32:53.359
I didn't really have the time to do it. But

1173
01:32:53.520 --> 01:32:58.159
most of the recordings I do there'll still be six versions.

1174
01:33:00.359 --> 01:33:04.560
So there's quite a few recordings I don't know. In fact,

1175
01:33:04.560 --> 01:33:06.399
I don't know now, but I can tell you how

1176
01:33:06.439 --> 01:33:10.880
far it goes back because it's the pot the recorded.

1177
01:33:10.920 --> 01:33:20.640
All the podcasts on the first page are basically yeah, wow,

1178
01:33:21.520 --> 01:33:24.079
according to this, I've got one five hundred and ninety

1179
01:33:24.079 --> 01:33:29.720
two episodes on this podcast, which means I see if

1180
01:33:29.760 --> 01:33:31.279
I can skip down to the end and tell you

1181
01:33:31.319 --> 01:33:37.119
when the first one was, because it's not that far ago,

1182
01:33:37.279 --> 01:33:41.880
it's not it's not a long long time ago, long

1183
01:33:42.159 --> 01:33:47.560
long time ago. I can still remember when the music

1184
01:33:47.720 --> 01:33:55.039
used to make me smile bitter beer, right or April.

1185
01:33:58.319 --> 01:34:03.000
I do appreciate the nice comments you've left. This is

1186
01:34:03.239 --> 01:34:15.880
very very extremely pleasant of you. And what other things,

1187
01:34:22.039 --> 01:34:24.439
I'm not sure if I'm up to date with SoundCloud.

1188
01:34:25.840 --> 01:34:29.239
I might be a little bit behind on that one.

1189
01:34:30.119 --> 01:34:38.199
So now in February. I wonder how far back it goes.

1190
01:34:42.399 --> 01:34:45.359
It's going to be last year. And when did I

1191
01:34:45.399 --> 01:34:48.000
get this for this website? When did I start building

1192
01:34:48.039 --> 01:34:53.840
this version? Was it last year? Oh? Yeah, I'm in

1193
01:34:53.880 --> 01:35:02.680
December now, last year December? Oh man, it might be

1194
01:35:02.720 --> 01:35:06.239
two years worth. Maybe, I don't know. I'm not sure.

1195
01:35:07.600 --> 01:35:16.000
Probably not because this when I yeah, because I had

1196
01:35:16.039 --> 01:35:18.399
to start the podcast again. I think they got taken

1197
01:35:18.439 --> 01:35:21.439
off because of the music and then they got brought

1198
01:35:21.479 --> 01:35:26.439
back on again, or I deleted the podcast and I

1199
01:35:26.479 --> 01:35:30.479
had to restart it something like that. I can't really

1200
01:35:30.600 --> 01:35:37.319
remember exactly at the moment. So the very first recording

1201
01:35:37.600 --> 01:35:39.720
that I did on this podcast, which is my main

1202
01:35:39.760 --> 01:35:43.399
podcast now other than they Let Me Boy to Sleep,

1203
01:35:44.520 --> 01:35:53.840
was Ah, so it's October eighth, twenty twenty four, that's

1204
01:35:53.880 --> 01:35:59.560
when this podcast was created. But I've got recordings going

1205
01:35:59.600 --> 01:36:05.279
back to twenty ninth of July twenty twenty four. I

1206
01:36:05.319 --> 01:36:11.479
can't even remember October last year. So I don't know

1207
01:36:11.560 --> 01:36:16.399
how I ended up starting this new podcast or what

1208
01:36:16.479 --> 01:36:23.319
happened to the old one. I really don't know. Oh well,

1209
01:36:24.880 --> 01:36:34.239
so there's a few recordings there. I got another message. Okay,

1210
01:36:34.399 --> 01:36:37.319
there's a few messages coming for the Q and A Friday.

1211
01:36:37.880 --> 01:36:47.560
There's two do do do Do Do Do Do Do

1212
01:36:47.560 --> 01:36:49.479
Do Do Do Do Do Do Do do do do

1213
01:36:49.600 --> 01:36:59.520
do do do. Uh, all right, I need to look

1214
01:36:59.600 --> 01:37:12.680
up at something here. Hmm. That's weird. That shouldn't happen now,

1215
01:37:12.720 --> 01:37:36.039
I'm just looking at something. I've just been m optimized, right.

1216
01:37:36.960 --> 01:37:40.600
I think I've just saw it in an issue that

1217
01:37:41.319 --> 01:37:45.680
I didn't know there was there. So there's been a message.

1218
01:37:46.239 --> 01:37:49.680
It's basically I'll read the message out again at the time.

1219
01:37:50.359 --> 01:37:55.239
But there was a message about the podcast and adverts

1220
01:37:55.479 --> 01:37:57.960
being played in the middle. And there shouldn't be any

1221
01:37:58.199 --> 01:38:00.520
adverts being played in the middle of any pot casts

1222
01:38:00.560 --> 01:38:07.760
ever in my opinion, but especially not mine, but apparently

1223
01:38:07.800 --> 01:38:10.119
there were, and I've just sort I've just seen the

1224
01:38:10.159 --> 01:38:14.359
problem and I'm going to sort out that problem. I

1225
01:38:14.399 --> 01:38:17.960
can see what it is. So I don't know why

1226
01:38:18.039 --> 01:38:22.760
I think it just because I've started these new podcasts

1227
01:38:22.800 --> 01:38:28.319
for like playlists like one to fifty and one hundred

1228
01:38:28.319 --> 01:38:32.600
and one to one hundred and fifty for four different podcasts.

1229
01:38:34.479 --> 01:38:43.119
The there's a standard it automatically sets it to play

1230
01:38:43.159 --> 01:38:45.960
adverts in the middle, and I did not set it

1231
01:38:46.000 --> 01:38:49.640
for that. It's basically auto optimized ads on this podcast,

1232
01:38:50.359 --> 01:38:59.039
so get rid of it. That's weird. So there shouldn't

1233
01:38:59.199 --> 01:39:02.880
ever be adverts. If there's everyone had a lot on YouTube.

1234
01:39:03.000 --> 01:39:05.159
Is there any I don't even have adverts on YouTube,

1235
01:39:05.439 --> 01:39:11.640
But if there is, it's YouTube. It's not me. It's

1236
01:39:11.800 --> 01:39:19.560
YouTube because they banned me and banned me from playing

1237
01:39:19.640 --> 01:39:25.880
adverts because I think I annoyed them. I don't know

1238
01:39:25.920 --> 01:39:32.439
who I'm guessing. I'm not quite sure what it was,

1239
01:39:32.479 --> 01:39:37.239
but they said no, you can't have adverts, so oh well,

1240
01:39:37.600 --> 01:39:46.680
never mind. So I will sort that out gradually over

1241
01:39:46.720 --> 01:39:50.600
the next few days. But my plan, here's my plan,

1242
01:39:51.840 --> 01:40:00.960
is to if I go to back to my website,

1243
01:40:01.760 --> 01:40:09.880
I will with the playlists. Currently there's let Me Boys Sleep, ASMR,

1244
01:40:09.960 --> 01:40:16.079
Deep Sleep, Whisper Hypnosis, Relaxless Sleep, hypnosis daily, and Relaxation

1245
01:40:16.239 --> 01:40:20.960
for stress and panic attacks. So the let Me Boy

1246
01:40:21.000 --> 01:40:27.840
to Sleep is broken into without music, without music, with music,

1247
01:40:28.520 --> 01:40:32.319
five hours without music, five hours with music, ten hours

1248
01:40:32.319 --> 01:40:36.399
without music, ten hours with music. The only link that works,

1249
01:40:36.800 --> 01:40:39.920
the image that works is one without music. And then

1250
01:40:39.960 --> 01:40:43.680
I've got broken up into fifty categories of fifty one

1251
01:40:43.720 --> 01:40:47.199
to fifty fifty on hundred, one hundred, one hundred and

1252
01:40:47.199 --> 01:40:49.680
one hundred and fifty, et cetera, all the way down

1253
01:40:49.960 --> 01:40:56.560
two one thousand, three hundred and fifty one to fourteen hundred.

1254
01:40:57.520 --> 01:41:01.159
But it goes down there all with music. It goes

1255
01:41:02.439 --> 01:41:05.960
the one that works. Yeah, the latest one that actually

1256
01:41:05.960 --> 01:41:08.920
clicks on is to two hundred and fifty one to

1257
01:41:09.199 --> 01:41:13.640
one thy three hundred. Still working on that one. So

1258
01:41:13.800 --> 01:41:22.920
my plan over time is to have with music five

1259
01:41:22.960 --> 01:41:26.319
hours ten hours and have all of those available, but

1260
01:41:26.439 --> 01:41:29.159
only the ones that I've already done, not going back

1261
01:41:29.199 --> 01:41:31.800
and adding music to ones that I've done in the past.

1262
01:41:31.880 --> 01:41:36.880
I didn't have music on. So this will be pretty

1263
01:41:36.960 --> 01:41:47.520
much for the last. Yeah, it can only be ones

1264
01:41:47.760 --> 01:41:51.720
where Spreaker as a loud music, but it's their music,

1265
01:41:51.800 --> 01:41:53.439
so it won't be any of the old ones that

1266
01:41:53.560 --> 01:41:56.439
had ad music that I used to use. The Kevin

1267
01:41:56.520 --> 01:42:02.039
McLeod music can't use them, so Speaker wond allow it.

1268
01:42:02.199 --> 01:42:08.399
So I I will try and update all the ones

1269
01:42:08.439 --> 01:42:14.520
with music that I have, and then going forward all

1270
01:42:14.560 --> 01:42:16.960
the recordings apart from the one, so I just do

1271
01:42:18.119 --> 01:42:21.720
one with our music, one with music. They'll all have

1272
01:42:21.800 --> 01:42:24.680
the five one, the five different, six different versions. Rather,

1273
01:42:26.119 --> 01:42:32.119
I was sending myself to sleep. It's incredible. Let's see

1274
01:42:32.119 --> 01:42:38.359
if I've had any Oh, my sister's birthday is coming

1275
01:42:38.439 --> 01:42:39.079
up in July.

1276
01:42:39.239 --> 01:42:52.159
Okay, oh, I want to get rid of some of this.

1277
01:42:55.119 --> 01:42:55.399
Junk.

1278
01:42:55.520 --> 01:43:07.319
Maw ba ooh ooh, right, that's done, b.

1279
01:43:10.159 --> 01:43:13.880
B big oh yes, Sphinny's waking me up. Two thirty

1280
01:43:13.960 --> 01:43:18.399
this morning, we go outside. I dropped down the lead

1281
01:43:18.600 --> 01:43:22.439
on a floor. Pick it up. It's like Pamela Anderson breakdancing.

1282
01:43:22.920 --> 01:43:29.760
I got distracted after that point, and out of the

1283
01:43:29.760 --> 01:43:33.199
doorway comes this big figure, which was a little bit

1284
01:43:33.199 --> 01:43:35.000
of a shock because I didn't expect anyone to come

1285
01:43:35.039 --> 01:43:37.479
through the doorway. And it was the lad who lives

1286
01:43:37.520 --> 01:43:41.560
over there over the over the road. So I've lived

1287
01:43:41.600 --> 01:43:45.079
here ten years is now, I know, twenty one or whatever.

1288
01:43:45.159 --> 01:43:46.680
So he was a kid, a little kid when I

1289
01:43:46.720 --> 01:43:50.479
first moved in, and he's he's a man, he's a grown,

1290
01:43:50.560 --> 01:43:54.199
grown man now. But he locked and he didn't lock

1291
01:43:54.279 --> 01:43:57.279
himself out. I think he lost the key and his

1292
01:43:57.359 --> 01:44:02.359
mum was away, so I tried to help him. I said, well,

1293
01:44:03.840 --> 01:44:06.359
what can you what's your options? Because he was literally

1294
01:44:06.399 --> 01:44:10.600
just waiting around he didn't know what to do, and

1295
01:44:10.640 --> 01:44:12.479
I said, what are your options. I said, well, he's

1296
01:44:12.600 --> 01:44:17.000
said I can knock on the neighbor opposite. He's got

1297
01:44:17.000 --> 01:44:21.279
a key, but he's he'll be asleep. I said, well

1298
01:44:21.479 --> 01:44:24.159
to wake him up. Then he didn't want to wake

1299
01:44:24.239 --> 01:44:25.760
him up, and I said, look, that's the whole point

1300
01:44:25.760 --> 01:44:30.600
of having a key. It's for emergencies. It's if you

1301
01:44:30.640 --> 01:44:35.680
locked yourself out at two in the morning, that's an emergency.

1302
01:44:36.319 --> 01:44:39.840
And that's the whole point. Really, that's you know, that's

1303
01:44:39.960 --> 01:44:44.039
that's my it's an opinion, but you know, that's how

1304
01:44:44.119 --> 01:44:49.399
I kind of see it. And so he knocked on

1305
01:44:49.479 --> 01:44:52.720
the door. I knocked on the door. There's no answer,

1306
01:44:53.640 --> 01:44:57.119
and we weren't going to not make a huge amount

1307
01:44:57.119 --> 01:44:59.560
of noise because he don't want to startle the person,

1308
01:44:59.600 --> 01:45:02.119
you know, so it's kind of okay, let's leave it.

1309
01:45:02.640 --> 01:45:06.439
I took him upstairs, brought him upstairs here, and I said, well,

1310
01:45:06.640 --> 01:45:13.520
I'll call a council to get the key, get the

1311
01:45:13.560 --> 01:45:17.239
locksmith in, and then it turned out that it's not

1312
01:45:17.279 --> 01:45:21.880
with the council, so they couldn't do that. And I said, well,

1313
01:45:21.920 --> 01:45:23.840
you can stay here if you want, you can sit

1314
01:45:23.920 --> 01:45:28.079
down and wait until a good time to knock on

1315
01:45:28.119 --> 01:45:30.880
your neighbor's door when he's awake. So I think he's

1316
01:45:30.960 --> 01:45:34.399
quite early. He gets up fairly early, and he didn't

1317
01:45:34.399 --> 01:45:37.439
want to do that, I understand, to be fair, because

1318
01:45:37.520 --> 01:45:40.640
he doesn't really know me very well. But I just

1319
01:45:41.319 --> 01:45:47.680
the idea of leaving someone outside in the garden. And

1320
01:45:47.720 --> 01:45:53.119
it's admittedly it wasn't cold out there, even at two

1321
01:45:53.119 --> 01:45:56.039
point thirty or whatever time it was, it wasn't cold,

1322
01:45:56.199 --> 01:46:00.399
but there's going to come a time when it isn't

1323
01:46:00.439 --> 01:46:03.520
warm that when it gets you know, by like maybe

1324
01:46:03.680 --> 01:46:07.079
four three four, there's a there's a certain time at

1325
01:46:07.199 --> 01:46:13.800
night that it really can get chilly, especially July August,

1326
01:46:14.319 --> 01:46:20.720
but June, you know, anytime really. But it just happened

1327
01:46:20.720 --> 01:46:24.239
to be a really really light evening that evening last night,

1328
01:46:26.319 --> 01:46:28.479
so he just went back downstairs and went and sat

1329
01:46:28.520 --> 01:46:32.399
in the garden and waited. So and his mum was

1330
01:46:32.439 --> 01:46:36.399
away or whatever, so he couldn't couldn't get hold of her.

1331
01:46:37.039 --> 01:46:39.359
So I've not seen him to ask him if he's okay.

1332
01:46:39.399 --> 01:46:44.159
But I think that's why Vinnie was basically trying to

1333
01:46:44.199 --> 01:46:46.520
get me, get my attention, because he could he could

1334
01:46:46.520 --> 01:46:52.000
probably hear hear him down there, but he didn't bark

1335
01:46:52.079 --> 01:46:58.399
or anything. I'm not talking about the neighbor. I'm talking

1336
01:46:58.399 --> 01:47:01.600
about him. He didn't. He didn't bark. He just like

1337
01:47:02.000 --> 01:47:07.720
wanted my attention. But then I'm thinking the fact that

1338
01:47:07.720 --> 01:47:09.399
he's been left it on his own for most of

1339
01:47:09.439 --> 01:47:15.600
the day, and then when I am here, he's going out.

1340
01:47:15.680 --> 01:47:18.439
He's still getting out. I'm still taking him out three

1341
01:47:18.479 --> 01:47:23.600
times a day for his w alk. So he goes

1342
01:47:23.600 --> 01:47:25.399
for one in the morning, then he goes for one

1343
01:47:25.520 --> 01:47:27.680
to get back, then he goes for another one later on,

1344
01:47:28.640 --> 01:47:35.279
so he's had three today already. It probably I might

1345
01:47:35.359 --> 01:47:38.800
just just take him in the garden for five minutes

1346
01:47:38.800 --> 01:47:41.399
before I go to bed tonight, because it's half past

1347
01:47:41.600 --> 01:47:47.840
eight now I do need to eat something, and then yeah,

1348
01:47:47.880 --> 01:47:52.319
I'll be in bed by ten hopefully, So I'll take

1349
01:47:52.399 --> 01:47:57.840
him out for go for doo weewiez in the garden. Yeah,

1350
01:47:57.920 --> 01:48:02.039
I'll do, and then I'll get up. I'll wake up

1351
01:48:02.039 --> 01:48:07.760
whatever time I'll wake up in the border I've got

1352
01:48:09.279 --> 01:48:11.359
I've got enough milk for my ready break in the

1353
01:48:11.399 --> 01:48:18.079
morning and then that's it. So what I need to

1354
01:48:18.119 --> 01:48:22.399
do when I get home is order some food, get

1355
01:48:22.399 --> 01:48:29.479
a delivery that tomorrow and then just basics milk, breakfast, cereal,

1356
01:48:29.560 --> 01:48:34.560
a few bits and bobs. Yeah, that would be I

1357
01:48:34.600 --> 01:48:42.039
need to do that. Yeah, so tomorrow's kind of booked.

1358
01:48:42.199 --> 01:48:50.279
Torow Tomorrow's planned, and Friday, I just don't know, to

1359
01:48:50.359 --> 01:48:55.039
be honest, I just don't know. I don't know. I

1360
01:48:55.119 --> 01:48:56.880
really don't know. I'm going to do a Q and

1361
01:48:56.920 --> 01:49:01.920
a Friday, but other than that, I'm just gonna see

1362
01:49:02.039 --> 01:49:05.880
how things are tomorrow because there has been a little

1363
01:49:05.920 --> 01:49:09.079
bit of a progression today since I left. He's been

1364
01:49:09.760 --> 01:49:15.399
visited and he's had some conversations with people about his situation.

1365
01:49:15.640 --> 01:49:21.760
So I'll catch up with him tomorrow and then just

1366
01:49:21.840 --> 01:49:26.640
see see what what what I was gonna say, what

1367
01:49:26.640 --> 01:49:31.319
what perspires? I don't know whatever the word is. So

1368
01:49:31.520 --> 01:49:37.119
right now I'm gonna go. I'm gonna have myself some crumpets,

1369
01:49:38.279 --> 01:49:44.079
some toasted crumpets with a margarine and a cup of

1370
01:49:44.159 --> 01:49:51.920
tea or a nass cup of tea, and that's it. Really.

1371
01:49:52.800 --> 01:49:59.600
I might treat myself to a cornetto oh yeah, ice

1372
01:49:59.680 --> 01:50:08.079
cream ice cream. So thank you for listening. Remember to

1373
01:50:08.079 --> 01:50:10.399
be kind to yourself because you do deserve to be

1374
01:50:10.439 --> 01:50:14.880
happy and be gentle with yourself. You deserve to feel safe.

1375
01:50:16.279 --> 01:50:18.960
Lots of love, Bye,