June 29, 2025

(music) Sunday Summary | LMBYTS #1384 | Jason Newland | 29th June 2025

(music) Sunday Summary | LMBYTS #1384 | Jason Newland | 29th June 2025
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Hello, oh, welcome to Sweaty Heatwave. My name's Sweaty Heatwave.

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My website is Sweatyheatwave dot com. Bla blur. It's hot.

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It's hot, hot, hot, hot, hot hot hot. I can't

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take video out until it gets cooler down because it'll

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be too hot for him out there, so he's stuck

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inside with me me. So yeah, Jasonnewland dot com is

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my website. My name is Jason Newland. Please I'm listen

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when you can safely close your eyes. And Vinnie has

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spotted a fly? Is it a same fly from last year?

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Vin same fly has been visited ten years now, it's

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been visiting us ten years on Brie to chase the

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same fly as hot. I'm gonna scrunch my T shirt

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T shirt, T shirt up so my bellies feeling the

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cool breeze. There's a little bit of a cool breeze

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coming in through the window a little bit. Well, it's

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a breeze. I don't know if it's cool, but it's breezy.

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I'm just gonna imagine it's cool. I mean, technically, I

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don't have to take all my clothes off because once

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I kind of expose my belly area. That's about ninety

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five percent of my body, isn't it so oh lovely?

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By the way, I there's any single women out there

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that are looking for a new boyfriend or come and

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let me know me and my big wobbly belly. War Okay,

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I'll stop now. Whoops. I want to say thank you

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to Tammy for your PayPal gift. Thank you very much.

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And it's Sunday, the uh. I don't know what the

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date is. I think it's a twenty ninth of or

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the thirtieth. It's either the twenty ninth the thirtieth of

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June twenty twenty five, because the first of July is Tuesday,

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and it's Sunday today. So if there's thirty one days

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in June, then this is the thirtieth today. If there's

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thirty days in June, th in today's or twenty ninth.

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Were you the April, May, June, this September thirty days

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in fourth for the bed nomber? I don't. I can't

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remember the rhyme. I can't remember the rhyme. I don't.

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I don't remember it. But I've told you a thousand times. Yeah, Unfortunately,

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when you start telling me something that I'm not interested

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in my brain shuts down. Sorry, I can't help it. Oh,

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my friend's still in hospital. I haven't been there this

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week end. Today, I think you're going to hear me

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shuffling about a bit because he's hunting the fly today.

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Sunday is very, very difficult to travel anywhere unless you

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have a car of your own, and I was not

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going to ask neighbors for help today because it's Sunday,

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you know. So this is going to be like my

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summary of the week. That's what I'm going to talk about.

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Although I kind of went quite in depth, but there's

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probably stuff I've forgotten that I didn't mention. So the

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buses and the trains are not very regular on a

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Sunday Saturday. I needed. I needed to not go in yesterday.

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I needed a break. I just needed a little bit

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of time with my little baby boy over here. And

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I think he needed that because he's been acting strange

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towards me, especially the last few days before, you know,

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I had some time until I was back. For example,

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it's not really eating much at the moment, but that's

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I'm guessing that's down to the heat. A lot of

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that however, however, However, however, he stopped sleeping in bed

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with me again. It could be partially to do the heat,

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but he was just sitting down on the floor staring

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at me. There was he had definitely had an issue

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with me, really like he didn't he was angry or whatever.

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So I managed to get him back in the bedroom

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me and he's fine again, but for a few days.

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I mean, I woke up the other day he wasn't

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even in the same room because in the living room.

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He does do that occasionally, but it's rare, it's very rare,

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and I was starting to think, I wonder if I

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kicked him out of bed in my sleep one night

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and it upset him. Obviously, if it's in my sleep,

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I didn't. I'm not responsible for what I do when

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I was sleep. I might have been a bit having

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a dream or something, dreaming I was a dad daddy

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leg long lick leg long a long leg, daddy long

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leg juggling or something. I don't know, and so I

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might have just acted. Then he kicked him out of

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the bed, and he might have he might have been

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a shock to him, because if he was asleep, and

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you know, he's got every right to be annoyed with

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me for that, But at the same time, I would

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never do that. If I might do no, I wouldn't.

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I would never do that if I was awake, not

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necessarily really annoyed me. No, I would never do that.

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It's a little boy, it's only a little linnie. It's

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only little baby. It's my little baby, my little baby,

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my little baby. Vinny, Vinnie, Vinnie, Vinny. He's a big

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grumpy as well. I think the heat's got him a

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little bit. I don't care too much about the heat. Yeah,

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it's just heating it. I've been warmer, That's how I

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see it. It's like, you know what, I've been way

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hotter than this on numerous occasions. It's just you just

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have to adapt. It's not all. It's not forever. It's

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just for I don't know, a few days if that,

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and then everyone's going to start complaining, oh it's so cold.

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Guarantee you guarantee in October time. Guarantee people will be

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walking around saying, didn't you never summer? What happened to

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the summers? Almost it didn't exist completely. Forgetting the fact

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that they couldn't leave the house because it was so hot.

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You could fry an egg on your head, especially baldies

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like me. It's like short term memory in it. That's

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what it is. So you know I've been to Thailand.

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This is cool in Thailand. This is not a hot

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day in time. And also I worked in a bakery,

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like a proper big industrial bakery when I was in

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my twenties that was hot all the time, like hot

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with all in Movens, ridiculously hot. So yeah, this this

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isn't really I'm not saying it's comfortable. I'm not hugely

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uncomfortable though, really, because I'm indoors, got the windows open,

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sitting down, just chatting with you, got me a little

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a little monkey lying by my feet, huge jelly belly.

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It wabbles even when I sit still. M hmm. If

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you haven't met me, you probably think, wow, what I

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thought you said he was massively fat? Well, it's all

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I mean. You know, if you met me, you wouldn't think, oh,

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I didn't realize he was slim, because I'm not slim.

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I had been doing some stomach x Okay, I had

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been doing some stomach exercises until last Friday, when any

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kind of routine I had went up in pooh basically,

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although it's kind of strange because it's all it's like

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I've started a new routine, but I don't want I

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don't want this new routine really because it's involving going

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to a hospital every day, and that's not what, let's

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face it, unless you work in the hospital, it's not

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what anyone wants to do is go to hospital every day.

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I mean, blow me, no, thank you, no, it's lovely,

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but I've had enough now.

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Thanks, bye bye bye bye. Yeah.

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Not.

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I'm not even sure if I would make a very

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good patient, because that's pretty much where the word patients

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come from, isn't it. It's like he's a patient person.

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Any idea is to be because you have to wait

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around a lot, don't you, if you're a patient and

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back in the old days. Is a little bit similar

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to how my neighbor is because he's been in there

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since Friday, so it's that Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday,

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Saturday Sunday, nine days he's been in there, and it's

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rare to be in hospital that long because there's a

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there's a term in this country, which is really there

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might be another countries. So I'm not saying that we're special,

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but we are. And it's a term which is being

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used by I don't know if it was created by

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the NHS, but it's definitely on the news about the

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NHS and people that were in beds, So the lack

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of hospital bed availability to new patients, that's basically what

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the subject was. So people that were in beds were

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called bed blockers, which it's such a horrible term, you know,

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for someone that's unwell, Because someone a bed blocker, it's

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that's just like calling someone a coffin dodger, isn't it.

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It's you know, it's it's this in the kind of

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it's in that ballpark. So he actually said to me

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in my neighbor, oh, I don't want to be in

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there because I'm just blocking the bed. And I said,

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if you were my size, you would be blocking the bed.

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You'd probably be breaking the bed, but you're not blocking anything. Yeah,

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but I should. This bed could be used for someone

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that needs it more. So, I'm like, okay, first of all,

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you're seventy eight years old, nearly you're nearly eighty years old.

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And I said, trust me, I'm not an expert on

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the NHS or anything, well anything. I'm not an expert

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on anything. However, I do know one thing about the

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NHS is they would not keep someone in the bed

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unless they had to, unless it was important. They get

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people out quickly as possible. I mean, there was a

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time when if I hope it's okay, need to say woman,

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but when a woman gives birth, I hope that's not

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offended anyone back in I'm going to I mean, the

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last time I really had any contact with births was

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nineteen eighty when my little brother was born and she

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was in hospital for a few days, and it was

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just a standard birth. I don't think it was any

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not that I know of any complications. I think she

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was a bit sore, like most people are, I guess,

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but when she pooed him out, she wasn't. There was

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nothing extra happening. But she was in hospital for probably

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three or four days probably, and then came out. And

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you know, nowadays, they're just like, as soon as you've

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had the baby, they wheel you out, it's okay, well,

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thanks by, and you're like, if they can ideal, if

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they will actually if you give birth in the ambulance,

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they just turn around and say you're home again. Seriously,

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I'm making it up, seriously. I mean, I had my

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appendix out when I was twelve, eleven, twelve, but I

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lose track, to be honest with you, I think about

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twelve ish and I was in hospital probably five or

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six days, maybe a whole week. Best time in my childhood.

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That was happiest moment, the happiest period of my life

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as a child. When I was in hospital strange and

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I literally I did have the time of my life.

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It was great. I mean there was parts that didn't enjoy,

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you know, like the pain being prodded around in that,

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but generally, you know, outside of the actual operation and

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the anesthetic, I had a jolly good time, jolly, jolly,

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jolly good time. I'm pretty sure that anyone had a

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kid having an operation now, providing everything goes to plan,

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they'll be out very fairly quickly. I've known people to

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have heart surgery and be out the next day. It's

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like what that used to be. Something you'd stay in

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hospital for weeks with, maybe even longer. It's changed, everything's

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changed so much. At this point, my neighbor said, you

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ain't half going on. I just said that I feel

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that I'm blocking the bed. I mean, you give me

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a lecture And I said, yeah, I know. How does

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it feel? How does it feel? Hey, how does it feel?

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You do it to me? Now I'm doing it to you.

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How do you feel being on the receiving end? And

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he bunched me, But I said, like, look, they wouldn't

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keep you in here unless they need to. It's I

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think it's fair, it's safe to say that. I think

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they don't keep people in hospital beds unless it's necessary.

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And I think what happened is the news bulletins. This

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is a few years back. I mean it might even

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be going twenty years fifteen ten, fifteen, twenty years ago,

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but there was a big focus on it and a

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massive guilt trip on people to the whole almost for

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being ill. People shouldn't feel guilty for being ill. It's ridiculous.

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And they haven't got to the point where they're saying, well,

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just don't go to the A and E unless you're

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really ill. Are you sure you need to go that

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this is the accident emergency? Are you sure you really

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need to go to the A and E? Don't block

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the A and E. Up, it's there for emergencies, and

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then they start giving examples of some people that would

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go in there because I don't know, I'm trying to

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think of something really silly. But they'd always give the

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most extreme example as saying that's someone went in there

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because they wanted to order a taxi or something, you know,

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something said like that, or to they wanted to get

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a kebab. It's like, okay, there's going to be a kebab.

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There are going to be situations where someone walks into

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an emergency ward of a hospital and ask some how

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much for the suitcases or something like that, or I

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ordered where I need to get my dry cleaning done.

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It's going to happen occasionally, isn't it. But I wouldn't.

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I imagine It's not the norm. It's not the normal situation.

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But these news bulletins and even adverts they put on TV,

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you know, don't waste The NHA says time, don't go

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into the an unless it's an emergency. The thing is,

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most people, I'm guessing, you know, just from I think

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it's a fair guess, but most people, I imagine are not

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medically trained. You know, the vast majority of people are

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not medically trained, or at least not enough to know

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whether something is an emergency. Now, my friends in hospital,

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he feels absolutely fine now if it hadn't been for me,

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And I don't mean that as as she would just

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say it. Now, do it now, there's a he you

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will if you look inside your pants, right, we'll do

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that now, get that over and done with. If it

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hadn't been for me, and this is this is truth.

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I'm not saying it's nothing good about it. But he

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would still be in his home, having fun, watching a sport.

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He'd know nothing about this. He'd know nothing if he

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doesn't look. He didn't have a mirror, He didn't know

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who's yellow, And he would have had hadn't spent the

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last nine year, nine days in what he thinks his prison,

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but it's honestly, he feels like he's locked up. But

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he wouldn't have been in hospital for the last nine days.

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But he also wouldn't have been having medication to help

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with his blood, which is full of ammonia, which has

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caused him to be yellow. So who knows where he

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would be in nine You know, after nine days of

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no medication to help to clear that out of his blood,

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you know, he sort of goes different ways, doesn't it.

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Paramedics said it was the right thing to do. Everyone

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said it's everyone medical said it's the right thing to

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do to get him into the hospital, And the fact

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that he's still in there is kind of backing that up.

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I would say, but he had no physical symptoms, so

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that was an emergency situation and he didn't even know it. Now,

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I didn't call for an ambulance because I've still got

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that stuck in my head. Don't call for an ambulance

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unless it's an emergency. How are we supposed to know

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if something's an emergency. I was told that if someone

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turns yellow, that's a very serious situation. It's pretty much

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in most cases. I'm sure there are times when it's not,

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but you know, it's the liver. It's an organ malfunction.

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And I didn't realize that the pancreas, the gall bladder,

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and the liver were all connected and any of those

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organs could cause someone to go yellow. I didn't know.

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I've done a bit of research since since this all happened.

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Apparently we've only got one liver. I thought we had three.

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Just shows you what I know. So I think I

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didn't you know, I ended up calling one one one,

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which is what they brought into play to stop people

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from wasting the emergency accident emergency time, or the ambulances time.

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And there are time wasters out there, of course, there

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are that always will be. I mean I went to

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I knew someone that worked or was volunteered at the Samaritans.

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I've known a few people actually that have volunteered at Samaritans,

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especially people that were counselors when I was training and stuff,

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and I applied myself once that they turned me down,

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apparently something to do with not wearing any pants. But hey,

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I didn't know. I didn't think it was a normal interview.

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It's not always acceptable to take a pack lunch to

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a job interview. Where's the rules? Where's the rule book?

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No flasks of coffee? Apparently they get quite a few

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time wasters at the Samaritans. And again they don't promote this.

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The reason I don't promote it is because they don't

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want people to stop phoning up. By the way, the Samaritans.

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If you don't know what it is, it there might

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be a version in every country. I don't know. It's

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basically a helpline. It's a phone. It's some way that

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you can phone up and talk to someone about anything.

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You're not really phoning up to get help as such.

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You know, if you need an ambulance, you need to call

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for an ambulance. If you need a police, you need

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to call for the police. The Samaritans, I think they

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can signpost you to different places, but they're really just

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an ear for you. You can talk about whatever's going on.

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And I think it's proven its usefulness millions of times

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over now. I didn't know. I've never I think I

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might have called the Samaritans once. Actually, oh yeah, they

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were engaged. That's it. That's why I phoned phone the

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once and they were engaged, which was just is a

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weird and it the one time. But it's an amazing

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it's an amazing service. I didn't realize that some people

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phoned up. There's there's two I think probably two times.

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You could say three times, three types of time wasters.

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But the Samaritans don't class it as time wasters because

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if they start putting adverts on TV saying only call

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if it's serious, only called, don't wait, you know, it

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would be so negative that a lot of people wouldn't

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phone up thinking that they didn't need to, and that

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phone call could be it could be life saving for

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that person. They might not even realize how much they

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needed to talk to someone, because some people have the

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need to have a conversation with a human being so

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or to feel that kind of communication, that connection, I guess,

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and I suppose also if you're living, it's someone's living

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on their own, and things become normalized, don't they. So

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to have I've had that a little bit in the

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past where someone's found out what I'm doing and they're like, no,

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that's not normal. You know, that's not normal behavior. And

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I didn't realize. Now you're probably wondering what I'm talking

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about right now. It's nothing horrible, it's just I'm not

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going to tell you what it was. But the psychiatrist said, no,

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that's that's weird. I said, okay, okay. Apparently sticking if

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you put if you kneel down and put shoes on

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your knees to pretend to be really short and walk around,

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there's a thing you do that, but apparently it's weird

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if you do it around your house on your own,

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there's no one else around it's and like just do

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that all the time. Apparently it's a strange thing to do. Yeah, okay,

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So there's three types of people that perhaps don't use

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the Samaritans in the best way potentially, But again I've

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always got a caveat for these. I've always got like

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a a defense for the people doing it sometimes. So

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one is they phone up to they use it as

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some kind of horny chat line. I think that's a

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that's a nice way of saying it, you know, one

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of those premium number chat lines. Some people use it

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like that. I know it's I was quite surprised at that,

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and I didn't think they could hear what I was doing.

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And then there's people that I guess are just sort

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of wind up, you know, they just sort of wind up.

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They just like they think it's funny just to mess

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around with people. There's always going to be those types around.

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And then there's the I suppose that they said they

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get some people that phone every single day and maybe

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they feel this, I don't know, they don't necessarily feel

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they're helping that person, but they don't know they might

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really be helping them. Yeah, they get on first name

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turns with some people that literally call up every single

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day and if that's what they need, then do it,

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because that's what they're there for. They're there, it's a

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free service. And the way I say, I'm going from

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a different perspective. If I remember someone saying when I

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was doing the counseling training, someone said, there's this whole

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theory about well, if someone comes in and just talks

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about it, talks absolutely rubbish for fifty minutes, a little

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bit like me now, really, but they come in and

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you know that you know why they're come in. You've

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already they've already had a phone conversation with the counseling

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service to find out what's going on with them and

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the reason why they have applied for counseling or the

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reason they're being sent by the doctor the counseling. We're

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not going to have a full information, but it's going

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to have at least an idea. So let's say they're

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in there because I don't know for whatever thing, but

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maybe it's yeah, I can't think of anything that isn't problematic.

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But but then they come in and they end up

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talking about basketball or football, or they talk about UFOs,

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or they talk about dinosaurs for fifty minutes, or they

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come in and they just make stuff up, blatantly, just

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make stuff up. Now, this seemed to frustrate some of

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the other counselors, and I've read books and stuff as

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well on it, and some people get upset with it

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and say, you know, some counseling books will say, well,

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you've got to bring them back to why they're there,

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You've got to get them focused on all that stuff,

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which I do understand. But I kind of figured out

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that actually, sometimes people need to use I suppose they

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can still be gaining benefit from talking to someone, even

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if it is it's got nothing to do with why

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they're there, maybe just that human human interaction, maybe sitting

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in a room with someone that is listening. And what

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I've noticed that, in most cases, I mean it's going

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back a while now, they'd start talking about why they're there.

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Not always, but you know, something quite often. And I

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found that interesting that actually, I suppose you could some

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people use metaphors stories. So maybe the given example, it's

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a little bit like say I need advice for a friend,

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and you pretty much always know that the person is

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talking about themselves, don't you, So you know if someone

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comes up to you, if it's someone you know that

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or I need some advice for a friend. And he's

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thinking about getting an enlargement procedure, but he's not sure

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because he's seeing it on TV and he doesn't know everyone.

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Or it'd be safe if we're about getting a pump.

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But he didn't get it in the end, and he

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hasn't got a lot of money because you know, he's

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on benefits at the moment, and he's he's it's quite expensive,

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especially looking after his little dog Vinnie. You know, if

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you make a mistaken if you give too much information away.

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But I think sometimes that's useful for counselors or for

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clients or other patients to do it in their own way.

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And I think, I guess that's what I'm saying with Samaritans.

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Sometimes if someone's just they're not even talking about their

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own life, it might help them sort out certain blockages

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in their mind or in their energies for whatever. I

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don't know blockages in their energies what you're talking about, Jay,

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I'm not one hundred percent sure. Yeah, I'll make it.

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I'll make most of what I say up. The video

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is about twelve inches away from the fly He's staring

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at it. He wants it badly, so he's rested his

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He was rested his chin on my left leg, and

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the flyer was on my right leg, and he was

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I guess he was thinking, do dogs think? I don't know.

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I found a new technique by the way to stop

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internal dialogue, to turn it off. It's not really a

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new way, but it's a new way for me focus

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on the wind or the breeze. Because I noticed always

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noticing new things about myself, and then sometimes I forget

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about the thing I've noticed, and then I noticed it

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again a few years later, and then I forget about

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it again, and then I noticed it again. Something that

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I've got a habit of doing is so if something happened.

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If something happens, it can be just the most simple thing,

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an interaction or a non interaction. Or if someone with

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a dog they say something rude, which happens occasionally, Villy

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barks and maybe they don't like the fact that he's

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barking at their dog. And then I start thinking of

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all the different conversations I could have had with that person,

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how it could have gone. And I can go on

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for ages and then maybe I'll see them again, and

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I'll kind of keep my distance, and I start imaging

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all the different scenarios and conversations I might have with

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them if I did see them, And it's weird, and

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I thought, you know what, I'll focus on the wind,

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the wind outside my pants, you know, in the air.

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It switches it off ins to me. Sometimes I feel

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that I'm rehearsing, practicing, rehearsing what I'm going to say,

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you know, And I'm going to go out with Vin

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in a few hours and I kind of know roughly

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who I'm going to see, what dogs are going to

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be there. And I realized sometimes I kind of rehearse

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things that I'm going to say to these people. And

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it's weird because I don't rehearse anything I'm going to

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say here. I don't really think about what I'm going

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to say until I start doing a recording, unless it's

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like a specific recording where I might have a little

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bit of information in front of me and stuff, but

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not to let me put you to sleeps. But when

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I'm dealing with a human, I kind of it's almost like, actually,

465
00:38:10.639 --> 00:38:12.760
I think sometimes I just say the same thing to

466
00:38:12.800 --> 00:38:19.119
everyone or it's hot today in it when there's one

467
00:38:19.400 --> 00:38:23.599
I was thing saying. I was walking around after him

468
00:38:24.119 --> 00:38:28.079
after Finny, and I had the Pooh bag on my hand.

469
00:38:30.079 --> 00:38:32.039
I was walking around and he literally took me on

470
00:38:32.119 --> 00:38:36.719
a It took me on a very long walk. So

471
00:38:36.719 --> 00:38:40.639
I saw about three different dog walkers during that journey

472
00:38:40.639 --> 00:38:44.199
of me just following him around the field finding somewhere

473
00:38:44.239 --> 00:38:48.239
to do a nice, big smelly one so I could

474
00:38:48.239 --> 00:38:52.199
pick it up. So I'm walking with him, walking behind him,

475
00:38:52.599 --> 00:38:55.679
with this Pooh bag on my hand ready to use.

476
00:39:00.039 --> 00:39:03.159
And I thought to myself, I must look like the

477
00:39:03.159 --> 00:39:08.880
world's worst ventoloquist. You know, it's just because Pooh bag

478
00:39:08.880 --> 00:39:12.800
on my head. So the next person I see, I

479
00:39:12.800 --> 00:39:15.840
say it to them, and then I say it to

480
00:39:15.880 --> 00:39:18.320
the next person. I say it three different people. I said,

481
00:39:18.360 --> 00:39:23.000
I must look like the worst world's worst vaniloquist. I

482
00:39:23.159 --> 00:39:26.360
just like I thought it's funny. So I think they

483
00:39:26.360 --> 00:39:30.400
did laugh. I'm not sure. I can't remember. I really

484
00:39:30.440 --> 00:39:36.079
don't want to be one of them people that that

485
00:39:36.239 --> 00:39:39.719
is out of touch with reality. That worries me a

486
00:39:39.760 --> 00:39:42.079
little bit. I'm not saying I'm in touch with reality,

487
00:39:42.159 --> 00:39:47.679
but I don't want to. I don't want to be

488
00:39:47.760 --> 00:39:52.039
talking at people and not realizing that they don't want

489
00:39:52.079 --> 00:39:58.360
me to be because I have been that person, and

490
00:39:58.440 --> 00:40:00.400
I have to be very careful. I don't do that,

491
00:40:02.079 --> 00:40:14.400
because you know, conversation has to be two ways. But

492
00:40:14.440 --> 00:40:19.880
I've got my little special in my little interests. So

493
00:40:19.920 --> 00:40:26.280
I've got a tendency of h of making weird noises

494
00:40:27.079 --> 00:40:28.880
with my throat, which I want to just add some

495
00:40:29.000 --> 00:40:35.559
water I've got of the I don't know. I just

496
00:40:39.760 --> 00:40:42.599
I think sometimes I'm just a bit too self aware.

497
00:40:45.159 --> 00:40:49.599
It's almost like, oh, I just found something in my

498
00:40:49.639 --> 00:41:00.599
belly bun. What is that? Ah, Oh, that's a bit

499
00:41:00.599 --> 00:41:04.920
of chocolate. It's not, it's not really, it's a Mars bar. No,

500
00:41:05.039 --> 00:41:13.320
it's not. I'm constantly studying myself and I don't really

501
00:41:13.440 --> 00:41:21.519
know how useful that is. To be honest, I seem

502
00:41:21.599 --> 00:41:27.039
to be observing what I'm doing, what I'm thinking, how

503
00:41:27.079 --> 00:41:35.079
I'm talking, my behavior, the things that I want to

504
00:41:35.119 --> 00:41:37.719
say and don't say, the things that I do say

505
00:41:37.760 --> 00:41:45.360
and don't want to say. Yeah, it's weird. It's kind

506
00:41:45.360 --> 00:41:51.320
of weird. Perhaps a little bit too self conscious, perhaps

507
00:41:54.559 --> 00:42:05.920
hm hmm, Perhaps just a really big egotist. But it's not.

508
00:42:06.159 --> 00:42:10.119
I don't think it's really in that way, because I

509
00:42:10.280 --> 00:42:13.639
like to be in control of me, but I don't

510
00:42:13.679 --> 00:42:17.119
want to be in control of other people. So that's

511
00:42:17.199 --> 00:42:20.599
that's a big difference. I think I do like to

512
00:42:20.639 --> 00:42:24.760
have control over my environment, but I know that I

513
00:42:24.800 --> 00:42:27.559
can only do that in my environment, which is in

514
00:42:27.599 --> 00:42:32.119
this home, this flat, and even then there's limitations because

515
00:42:32.800 --> 00:42:37.480
I've got a very stubborn little doggie here, and I've

516
00:42:37.480 --> 00:42:43.679
also got people around here that are antisocial, that live

517
00:42:43.760 --> 00:42:45.960
outside and live in the other places, so I can't

518
00:42:45.960 --> 00:42:51.039
control them. I can't control him, but I've got, you know,

519
00:42:51.480 --> 00:42:58.679
a general control of the environment to a degree. When

520
00:42:58.679 --> 00:43:05.119
I go out that changes a little bit. I've noticed

521
00:43:05.159 --> 00:43:08.760
that the last week, getting on buses, getting in taxis,

522
00:43:11.800 --> 00:43:18.480
asking people for lifts. It's been, Yeah, it's been challenging.

523
00:43:20.000 --> 00:43:21.719
And there was someone on the bus the other day

524
00:43:21.760 --> 00:43:24.480
that was listening to I think he was watching a

525
00:43:24.480 --> 00:43:29.880
YouTube video on his phone. It was very loud, and

526
00:43:32.159 --> 00:43:34.599
again I might have been reading the signals wrong, but

527
00:43:34.639 --> 00:43:36.679
it looked to me like he was doing it because

528
00:43:36.679 --> 00:43:40.079
he wanted someone to say something. You know, he was

529
00:43:40.079 --> 00:43:46.360
being antisocial and he was just almost egging, egging the

530
00:43:46.719 --> 00:43:52.599
passion passengers to say something so that he could I

531
00:43:52.639 --> 00:43:56.119
don't know what do what. I don't know. It wouldn't

532
00:43:56.119 --> 00:43:58.519
have ended well for him, but it was I don't

533
00:43:58.519 --> 00:44:01.360
know what he wanted out of it. In the end,

534
00:44:01.400 --> 00:44:04.000
the bus driver just showered at him. You turn it down.

535
00:44:04.960 --> 00:44:08.800
He did. He still had on a little bit, but

536
00:44:08.800 --> 00:44:13.360
he was really like he was looking for trouble, and

537
00:44:13.400 --> 00:44:19.320
you're looking for trouble, you're in a blush. I cannot

538
00:44:19.320 --> 00:44:21.719
I can relate to that. I was a little bit

539
00:44:21.800 --> 00:44:26.159
like that in my early twenties, but this bloke was

540
00:44:26.159 --> 00:44:30.000
in his at least in his thirties, maybe forties, so

541
00:44:30.119 --> 00:44:34.039
it was a little bit like yeah, and it was

542
00:44:34.400 --> 00:44:36.280
it's not good to be like that at any age.

543
00:44:36.320 --> 00:44:41.280
But I suppose there's always a little phase, because he's

544
00:44:41.320 --> 00:44:47.440
going through a little phase. Nice little phase. Oh oh, he's.

545
00:44:47.239 --> 00:44:48.119
Going through phase.

546
00:44:49.000 --> 00:44:52.480
He's got his he's got his ra his radio thing.

547
00:44:53.320 --> 00:44:56.239
He's a it's a phone, his phone. He's got his

548
00:44:56.320 --> 00:45:00.599
phone on readly loud. He's watching one of those movies things.

549
00:45:00.679 --> 00:45:04.800
It's YouTube. He's watching a YouTube movie. It's a video.

550
00:45:05.119 --> 00:45:09.280
He's watching a YouTube video on his radio, his phone,

551
00:45:09.800 --> 00:45:14.679
on his phone. Oh, and it's really loud. He's going

552
00:45:14.719 --> 00:45:19.639
through a phase. It's a phase. Oh everyone, come on,

553
00:45:19.719 --> 00:45:22.840
let's give him a heart and pushing him off the bus.

554
00:45:23.760 --> 00:45:31.719
So yeah, bless him. A weird thing happened to A

555
00:45:31.800 --> 00:45:39.119
weird thing happened my neighbor. Actually, it got into kind

556
00:45:39.119 --> 00:45:41.119
of an argument with someone on one of the wards

557
00:45:41.119 --> 00:45:43.760
he was on, because he's now on a third ward

558
00:45:44.119 --> 00:45:49.000
since he's been there, and the second ward he was on,

559
00:45:51.039 --> 00:45:55.320
they some bloke was complaining about him being too noisy,

560
00:45:56.480 --> 00:46:03.000
and yeah, he's being a bit aggressive and stuff, and

561
00:46:04.360 --> 00:46:10.159
they ended up moving my neighbor, keeping that bloke there,

562
00:46:10.199 --> 00:46:14.320
but moving my neighbor. So I've only got one side

563
00:46:14.320 --> 00:46:16.760
of the story. There's there's the old sailor. Isn't that

564
00:46:16.880 --> 00:46:19.519
you know? There's three sides to a story, the two

565
00:46:19.599 --> 00:46:23.159
sides and then the truth both sides, then the truth.

566
00:46:23.840 --> 00:46:30.960
So who knows what exactly occurred. But I did say

567
00:46:31.000 --> 00:46:33.519
to my neighbor and I thought this was funny, Actually,

568
00:46:34.079 --> 00:46:35.920
I said to him because he told me on the phone.

569
00:46:36.000 --> 00:46:38.760
I said, well, because he'd been moved to a new

570
00:46:39.239 --> 00:46:42.360
warnt to try and find out where it was. I said, well,

571
00:46:42.440 --> 00:46:44.840
you know, when we go out for a walk because

572
00:46:44.840 --> 00:46:48.719
I take him out for a sit down in the

573
00:46:50.480 --> 00:46:54.920
because in front of the hospital there's all these chairs

574
00:46:55.000 --> 00:46:57.800
and stuff like that. You can sit down as a

575
00:46:57.880 --> 00:47:01.440
duck pond. It's very nice, that's that, you know, especially

576
00:47:01.480 --> 00:47:05.960
in this weather. And I said to him, when we

577
00:47:06.000 --> 00:47:08.480
go out, perhaps we'll make a little visit to that bloke,

578
00:47:08.679 --> 00:47:10.960
go back and over it all, make a little visit.

579
00:47:11.480 --> 00:47:17.639
Perhaps punch him or something. I was joking, okay, so

580
00:47:17.719 --> 00:47:19.360
I was go and see him. We go out for

581
00:47:19.360 --> 00:47:21.159
a walk that day and he said, on the way back,

582
00:47:21.199 --> 00:47:22.559
said a we're going to go and visit that bloke.

583
00:47:22.599 --> 00:47:30.239
Then I said, I said no, every I said, like, look,

584
00:47:30.320 --> 00:47:33.440
every everyone's in here because they're run well. No one's

585
00:47:33.440 --> 00:47:35.840
in there for a jolly. They're not in there for fun.

586
00:47:36.440 --> 00:47:39.039
Apart from well even that, even the nurses and doctors

587
00:47:39.079 --> 00:47:45.360
are not in there for fun, are they. But different

588
00:47:45.400 --> 00:47:49.320
people deal with with being unwell differently, And perhaps his

589
00:47:49.480 --> 00:47:55.320
way of dealing with it is by being annoyed by you, well,

590
00:47:55.360 --> 00:48:01.000
you know, buying what's going on. And he was he

591
00:48:01.119 --> 00:48:03.199
was cool. I don't I'm not sure if he really

592
00:48:03.440 --> 00:48:05.079
I don't know if he was just joking or not.

593
00:48:05.400 --> 00:48:07.360
When he said that to me, should we go and

594
00:48:07.400 --> 00:48:12.320
see him now? But I think twenty years ago, I

595
00:48:12.360 --> 00:48:15.239
think he would have well that that would have had

596
00:48:15.239 --> 00:48:18.880
a different outcome, because a bit fiery. But he's you know,

597
00:48:19.199 --> 00:48:27.360
he's pretty old now, maybe thirty years ago, so whin

598
00:48:27.480 --> 00:48:29.920
that bloke would probably be a baby now, or he'd

599
00:48:29.960 --> 00:48:33.039
be he'd only be about ten so the other block,

600
00:48:33.199 --> 00:48:37.519
so that probably wouldn't have been so good. I don't

601
00:48:37.559 --> 00:48:43.679
know who he was, my forties, fifties, I don't know. Anyway,

602
00:48:44.239 --> 00:48:46.119
I find my dad up just to sort of see

603
00:48:46.119 --> 00:48:48.920
how he's getting on with his treatments. He's in treatment now,

604
00:48:50.320 --> 00:48:52.559
started last week for four weeks, it's going to be

605
00:48:53.559 --> 00:48:58.000
And I told him I've thought it was a funny

606
00:48:58.079 --> 00:49:01.400
story that you know my neighbor, you know, the fact

607
00:49:01.440 --> 00:49:03.400
that he said or she would go and see him.

608
00:49:03.719 --> 00:49:06.679
I thought that was quite quite amusing. Told my dad,

609
00:49:06.719 --> 00:49:10.519
and he was like, we can't do that. Get kicked

610
00:49:10.519 --> 00:49:13.000
out of the ward, do you get arrested around? Like

611
00:49:14.840 --> 00:49:16.599
My reaction was, well, I do what I want to

612
00:49:16.599 --> 00:49:20.000
do firstly, and tell me what I can do, but

613
00:49:20.119 --> 00:49:23.000
of course I'm not going to do it. Like it

614
00:49:23.119 --> 00:49:27.880
was so ridiculous. I just it was. I don't know it.

615
00:49:28.920 --> 00:49:32.880
It turned a nice conversation into just awkwardness for no

616
00:49:33.000 --> 00:49:36.719
reason on the phone with my dad, like why and

617
00:49:36.760 --> 00:49:39.360
his wife was there saying the same things, all but

618
00:49:39.440 --> 00:49:41.760
you're get in trouble, you won't be allowed back in

619
00:49:41.760 --> 00:49:44.400
the hospital. Like I didn't say I was going to

620
00:49:44.440 --> 00:49:47.400
actually do it. He really felt I'm going to walk

621
00:49:47.440 --> 00:49:50.559
up to side in the hospital bed and start, you know,

622
00:49:51.039 --> 00:49:56.639
being naughty, aggressive, and of course I'm not. I don't

623
00:49:56.639 --> 00:50:05.960
know what they think of me. Honestly, it's I've got

624
00:50:05.960 --> 00:50:08.360
that off my chest now I can't move on. How

625
00:50:08.440 --> 00:50:09.480
does it really annoyed me?

626
00:50:10.679 --> 00:50:10.880
Ah?

627
00:50:12.800 --> 00:50:15.719
It's weird though, because my dad started treatment on Wednesday.

628
00:50:16.559 --> 00:50:21.880
I spoke to him on the Tuesday. I didn't know

629
00:50:21.880 --> 00:50:23.719
who was having it. He had just been on holiday,

630
00:50:24.079 --> 00:50:25.760
just to see how his holiday was and when the

631
00:50:25.960 --> 00:50:30.159
treatments starts. Oh, it starts tomorrow. I said, Well, I

632
00:50:30.199 --> 00:50:32.239
was going to say to you, which I thought about

633
00:50:32.280 --> 00:50:36.119
for quite a while, is going up to the hospital

634
00:50:36.159 --> 00:50:40.000
with him on the first day of his treatment, just

635
00:50:40.039 --> 00:50:42.639
to be a bit of emotional support. I know his

636
00:50:42.679 --> 00:50:44.280
wife's going to be there, but it thought it'd just

637
00:50:44.280 --> 00:50:47.880
be a nice thing. And he said no. I said,

638
00:50:47.880 --> 00:50:49.360
for he'd just have a cup of coffee. I'm not

639
00:50:49.360 --> 00:50:57.719
gonnaed to drink coffee. It's really negative towards me, Like, okay,

640
00:50:58.599 --> 00:51:01.159
I just thought maybe it'd be no. And it just

641
00:51:01.199 --> 00:51:06.719
seemed weird that my neighbor wants me to visit. He

642
00:51:06.760 --> 00:51:09.679
wants me to be there with him, but my own

643
00:51:09.760 --> 00:51:12.920
dad doesn't. I know. It was only it was a

644
00:51:12.960 --> 00:51:17.039
hospital visit and it was to have treatment. But I

645
00:51:17.079 --> 00:51:19.079
just thought it'd be a nice thing to do, just

646
00:51:19.079 --> 00:51:24.159
to be there for him in a time of need,

647
00:51:24.239 --> 00:51:30.559
maybe rather than just just I don't know, I don't

648
00:51:30.599 --> 00:51:34.719
know what I was thinking. Really, I thought maybe it'd

649
00:51:34.719 --> 00:51:44.239
be a nice thing. But it's strange, very strange. But yeah,

650
00:51:44.239 --> 00:51:47.400
he definitely didn't want me visiting. He said he didn't

651
00:51:47.440 --> 00:51:49.960
want me visiting or not visiting. He didn't want me

652
00:51:50.039 --> 00:51:54.239
to go there. I said, well, I could just see you,

653
00:51:54.320 --> 00:51:56.280
give you a hub before you go in or no,

654
00:51:56.400 --> 00:52:02.159
it's all right. Just didn't don't want me yet. Some

655
00:52:02.280 --> 00:52:04.960
bloke that i've a neighbor I've known for ten years

656
00:52:06.519 --> 00:52:10.519
is asking me when I'm going to go up next,

657
00:52:11.159 --> 00:52:14.760
phone me up, you know, as well as being seeing

658
00:52:14.800 --> 00:52:16.400
them every day, I'm speaking to you on the phone,

659
00:52:16.440 --> 00:52:19.559
probably twice, one in the morning before I go in

660
00:52:19.559 --> 00:52:26.519
and one in the evening. It seems to be strange.

661
00:52:26.639 --> 00:52:29.639
I had this weird relationship with family. I seem to

662
00:52:29.719 --> 00:52:33.320
be more appreciated by strangers than by people that actually

663
00:52:33.400 --> 00:52:38.000
know me or think. I think I'm just known. I

664
00:52:38.039 --> 00:52:42.920
think I'm the real me is known better by people

665
00:52:42.960 --> 00:52:48.079
that don't know me. I don't know if that makes sense.

666
00:52:50.719 --> 00:52:53.119
Family don't know me, they don't know me the real me,

667
00:52:55.800 --> 00:53:02.000
and I think neighbors I've got to see the real

668
00:53:02.119 --> 00:53:09.239
me people that I've helped, And so I think if

669
00:53:09.280 --> 00:53:13.920
you help people for no reason, they get to see

670
00:53:14.400 --> 00:53:16.320
it's not the reason to do it for me, but

671
00:53:17.320 --> 00:53:23.840
they get to realize that. Oh, because I think for

672
00:53:24.000 --> 00:53:28.159
some people it's quite an unusual situation to give without

673
00:53:28.239 --> 00:53:32.280
expecting anything back. I mean, I've got help this week

674
00:53:32.280 --> 00:53:38.960
from people that want something back, then I've got you know, so,

675
00:53:39.000 --> 00:53:43.800
I've had lifts. I've had three lifts this week, two

676
00:53:43.800 --> 00:53:47.000
of them by someone that gets paid to take me.

677
00:53:48.599 --> 00:53:50.719
The other one was by someone They didn't want anything,

678
00:53:54.039 --> 00:53:57.320
so it's kind of I offered the money to both.

679
00:53:58.360 --> 00:54:05.519
One said no. The other person said yes, and one

680
00:54:05.599 --> 00:54:07.719
went out of their way to take me, and the

681
00:54:07.800 --> 00:54:10.800
other one and he took me because it was going

682
00:54:10.840 --> 00:54:17.880
where they were going anyway, So it is that's the

683
00:54:17.920 --> 00:54:19.559
person that went out of their way to take me.

684
00:54:19.599 --> 00:54:21.639
It was the one they didn't want any money. It's

685
00:54:21.719 --> 00:54:24.960
kind of just a weird if they're both helping, and

686
00:54:25.000 --> 00:54:28.440
I was grateful for both, but it's just a different,

687
00:54:30.480 --> 00:54:33.920
different way of thinking. And I quite like that because

688
00:54:33.960 --> 00:54:41.719
that's the way I think is. I don't know, that

689
00:54:41.920 --> 00:54:49.880
just feels right, you know, helping someone feels right, It

690
00:54:50.000 --> 00:54:54.679
just feels nice. So technically, I suppose it could just

691
00:54:54.719 --> 00:55:03.320
be unselfish. I'm just making myself feel nice by helping

692
00:55:03.360 --> 00:55:06.840
the neighbors and doing stuff. Maybe that's all it is.

693
00:55:06.880 --> 00:55:11.280
And to me, that's a win win because if I

694
00:55:11.360 --> 00:55:16.119
get to feel good and they feel the benefit as well,

695
00:55:16.559 --> 00:55:23.239
then that's a win win all around, I suppose. And

696
00:55:23.320 --> 00:55:26.599
I imagine my neighbor that gave me a lift, that

697
00:55:26.719 --> 00:55:33.360
didn't want anything, felt good for helping me, and he's

698
00:55:33.400 --> 00:55:35.960
only a young lad, he's only like twenty twenty one

699
00:55:36.079 --> 00:55:42.119
something like that, and I was lovely such a you know,

700
00:55:42.199 --> 00:55:47.159
he potentially hit the dogs in the back ground. He

701
00:55:47.239 --> 00:55:52.199
potentially made himself late for work. So I said to him, look,

702
00:55:53.000 --> 00:55:56.400
can you hear that? Dude? I just swear that didn't I.

703
00:55:56.400 --> 00:56:01.639
I just said a naughty word, bloody dog. I can't

704
00:56:01.719 --> 00:56:03.920
moan about dogs because he does the same this one,

705
00:56:04.880 --> 00:56:10.079
except him. He's like, he screeches. It's so high pitched

706
00:56:11.519 --> 00:56:23.880
it rattles the windows, rattles the windows of messle. So

707
00:56:23.920 --> 00:56:27.519
it's been a weird week. It's been a weird, weird week.

708
00:56:30.800 --> 00:56:40.559
It seems to have lasted. Really. The dog doesn't doesn't

709
00:56:40.559 --> 00:56:43.719
onnly bark quite so much. It's probably a cat in

710
00:56:43.760 --> 00:56:47.360
the garden or the kid. Maybe the kid out there

711
00:56:47.440 --> 00:56:52.119
just playing with it in his tail's going now, so

712
00:56:52.280 --> 00:56:58.679
he's hearing. He's hearing the dog. Did your tail disco? Benny?

713
00:56:58.880 --> 00:57:06.239
Are you excited about it with the doggie? He excited. Yeah.

714
00:57:10.360 --> 00:57:19.360
The week feels like it's lasted a long time. It

715
00:57:19.440 --> 00:57:22.440
doesn't really feel as if it's gone. It's gone quickly

716
00:57:22.840 --> 00:57:27.920
at all. That might be partly because I've got a

717
00:57:27.960 --> 00:57:34.199
lot done. I know, I haven't made loads of recordings,

718
00:57:34.239 --> 00:57:47.320
but I've done a few, and I've done a lot

719
00:57:47.360 --> 00:57:52.639
of traveling, a lot of traveling, and I worked it

720
00:57:52.679 --> 00:57:57.000
out the other day with yesterday that I think I've

721
00:57:57.039 --> 00:58:08.960
been out more in the last nine days, like probably

722
00:58:09.079 --> 00:58:14.960
than I have done the last two years, maybe three years,

723
00:58:17.280 --> 00:58:29.280
maybe two years. Actually leave in the area that I live. Yes,

724
00:58:30.239 --> 00:58:32.480
Oh wait, wait a minute, in January, didn't I did?

725
00:58:32.679 --> 00:58:35.880
Did I jiu jitsu didn't I? So I went there

726
00:58:35.880 --> 00:58:41.119
a few times or a couple of times. That's two

727
00:58:41.199 --> 00:58:52.960
journeys out. Hm hmm. That was in the winter. It

728
00:58:53.119 --> 00:59:01.119
was cold. It was cold. It's really I try not

729
00:59:01.239 --> 00:59:04.760
to moan too much about the weather. The only weather

730
00:59:04.800 --> 00:59:09.119
that annoys me, well, the only okay, the only weather

731
00:59:09.239 --> 00:59:16.519
that affects me really is rain, just because of this

732
00:59:16.599 --> 00:59:25.599
little one, and he just refuses if it's raining, he

733
00:59:25.679 --> 00:59:31.840
refuses to do his business quickly. It's almost like he

734
00:59:31.880 --> 00:59:35.559
wants to take his time. Now. In reality, he might

735
00:59:35.639 --> 00:59:40.400
just be doing exactly what he normally does. But I'm

736
00:59:40.400 --> 00:59:44.119
getting wet and I don't want to get wet or

737
00:59:44.159 --> 00:59:46.199
the rain when it's windy as well, so I can't

738
00:59:46.280 --> 00:59:52.480
use me bolli, so the umbrella can't be used. It's

739
00:59:52.880 --> 01:00:02.360
just okay, yeah, especially at night, so I can't see

740
01:00:02.400 --> 01:00:08.719
anything much. It's raining and it's windy, or even if

741
01:00:08.719 --> 01:00:13.360
it's raining, and then I've got so, I've got my torch.

742
01:00:13.440 --> 01:00:15.000
My torch is broken, so I have to get a

743
01:00:15.039 --> 01:00:21.360
new torch. As holding a torch, holding a brolley and

744
01:00:21.400 --> 01:00:26.840
trying to steer this little one and pick up his

745
01:00:26.920 --> 01:00:33.119
bits and bobs after he's sprinkled them onto the floor

746
01:00:33.719 --> 01:00:40.639
let them fall down like little anchors. Have a little boat.

747
01:00:43.760 --> 01:00:52.960
Phillers poos are very much like angers. Yeah, it's something

748
01:00:53.000 --> 01:00:56.119
I didn't realize. I was watching Words or Gummage earlier,

749
01:00:56.360 --> 01:00:59.039
and it was the original words are coming from the

750
01:00:59.159 --> 01:01:08.320
probably early eighties, late seventies, early eighties, and there was

751
01:01:08.360 --> 01:01:10.880
another character in it that I'd not seen before, or

752
01:01:10.880 --> 01:01:14.039
at least i'd forgotten about, and it was Barbara Windsor.

753
01:01:15.159 --> 01:01:21.119
She was like this porcelain statue and Barbara Windsor, I mean,

754
01:01:21.199 --> 01:01:29.440
she looked young there and she would have been I mean,

755
01:01:29.480 --> 01:01:31.119
she wasn't old, but she would have probably been in

756
01:01:31.159 --> 01:01:35.960
her forties at that point, but she just looked so young.

757
01:01:37.760 --> 01:01:40.159
And because she I wait a minute, no, she was

758
01:01:40.199 --> 01:01:45.920
in Was she in the carry On movies in the

759
01:01:46.000 --> 01:01:50.119
sixties or was the seventies that Barbara Windsor was in

760
01:01:50.119 --> 01:01:58.800
the carry On Movies. I'm not sure because yeah, she

761
01:01:58.880 --> 01:02:04.159
might have just been still in a thirties. She just

762
01:02:04.239 --> 01:02:06.880
looked so young. I had not seen her outside of

763
01:02:06.880 --> 01:02:10.480
the carry On movies. I'd not seen Barbara Windsor look

764
01:02:10.599 --> 01:02:16.000
young like that kind of you know, young, because when

765
01:02:16.000 --> 01:02:21.800
she was in EastEnders she was a lot older, and

766
01:02:21.840 --> 01:02:26.719
she was probably in her seventies, sixties and seventies or whatever. Fifties, sixties, seventies.

767
01:02:29.639 --> 01:02:34.519
I've forgotten, like what she looked like. I've never seen her.

768
01:02:34.559 --> 01:02:37.320
It was out of context. I've seen her in two

769
01:02:37.400 --> 01:02:41.360
different places, the carry On Movies and EastEnders, and there

770
01:02:41.440 --> 01:02:47.320
was many years between them. Never seen her in anything else.

771
01:02:48.719 --> 01:02:52.320
So this is the first time and I was like, wow, okay,

772
01:02:53.199 --> 01:02:56.119
that's the Barbara winds I remember from the carry On movies.

773
01:03:00.039 --> 01:03:02.119
This would mean nothing if you don't know who Barbara

774
01:03:02.199 --> 01:03:06.000
Windsor is, and if you don't know what to carry

775
01:03:06.000 --> 01:03:12.079
On movies are, And they are a I don't wanted

776
01:03:12.119 --> 01:03:23.079
to explain it. Really, they are a heritage from this country.

777
01:03:24.480 --> 01:03:30.599
They were they were comedy comedy movies, and I love them.

778
01:03:30.679 --> 01:03:34.760
I still love them. Not everyone's cup of tea, of course,

779
01:03:35.039 --> 01:03:37.760
never No one and no one. No one's ever going

780
01:03:37.840 --> 01:03:41.039
to love everything they By the way, I watched a

781
01:03:41.079 --> 01:03:51.159
movie called The Amateur, and it's really good. It's really good.

782
01:03:51.280 --> 01:03:57.679
It's got I can't remember his name. It's got quite

783
01:03:57.679 --> 01:04:00.400
a few famous people, quite yeah, quite a few big

784
01:04:00.480 --> 01:04:04.920
names in it. It's really good movie. Unfortunately, I think

785
01:04:04.960 --> 01:04:07.000
the problem with some of these movies that are coming

786
01:04:07.039 --> 01:04:11.920
out is the titles. The titles don't give away really.

787
01:04:12.199 --> 01:04:14.119
I mean it does, I guess if you think about it.

788
01:04:14.159 --> 01:04:17.880
But now seeing it, The Amateur makes kind of sense.

789
01:04:17.960 --> 01:04:24.440
But it's all like espionage, and that doesn't really interest

790
01:04:24.519 --> 01:04:35.199
me so much, you know. But it's really good, really good. Yeah,

791
01:04:35.320 --> 01:04:42.480
I liked it. And I find myself not watching movies

792
01:04:42.559 --> 01:04:47.920
because they just don't. They look a bit bland, like

793
01:04:48.000 --> 01:04:55.199
the cover. The descripture doesn't even sound interesting. Nice playing

794
01:04:55.320 --> 01:05:02.880
going past. I did watch a movie the other day called,

795
01:05:02.920 --> 01:05:08.360
I think it's called The Death of Stalin, very funny.

796
01:05:10.159 --> 01:05:13.840
Amando Nucci, I think is the person that wrote it.

797
01:05:15.840 --> 01:05:23.159
Amando Amando Anucci. I think that's his name. Is phenomenal.

798
01:05:23.719 --> 01:05:25.599
I think he wrote in the thick of It or

799
01:05:25.679 --> 01:05:30.280
the thick of It, it's very very funny, bloke, great

800
01:05:30.320 --> 01:05:36.840
writer and very different from anything. I think he's got

801
01:05:36.840 --> 01:05:41.119
a different way of looking at the world to any

802
01:05:41.159 --> 01:05:47.800
other writer or producer that I've seen. I don't know

803
01:05:47.840 --> 01:05:52.800
if he produced it, but he wrote it. It's really good.

804
01:05:52.840 --> 01:05:57.599
It's very funny. It's just and because they didn't do

805
01:05:57.639 --> 01:06:01.719
you know, when they do movies and they have they

806
01:06:01.760 --> 01:06:04.880
put on accents and stuff like that. They didn't bother

807
01:06:04.920 --> 01:06:09.320
with this. They didn't need it, and I don't think

808
01:06:09.360 --> 01:06:17.519
it's needed really. I know some some producers or directors

809
01:06:18.599 --> 01:06:24.920
are looking for some kind of authenticity, so they'll, you know,

810
01:06:25.760 --> 01:06:31.719
they'll have try and put on foreign accents. And this

811
01:06:31.840 --> 01:06:35.920
didn't even bother, even Starling. Starling himself was a company,

812
01:06:36.880 --> 01:06:44.760
like a Londoner. And it was funny. It's just it's great.

813
01:06:45.280 --> 01:06:49.159
It's a really, really, really good movie. I started to

814
01:06:49.199 --> 01:06:52.239
watch it years ago because not a new one started

815
01:06:52.239 --> 01:06:55.239
to watch it years ago, but I didn't. I don't know.

816
01:06:55.639 --> 01:06:59.719
Sometimes I'm not in the mood and I just give

817
01:06:59.800 --> 01:07:03.199
up watching something because it doesn't it doesn't catch me,

818
01:07:03.320 --> 01:07:08.679
doesn't grab me. I'd tell you a couple of things

819
01:07:08.679 --> 01:07:12.920
were like that. One was you're gonna be surprised at

820
01:07:12.920 --> 01:07:20.360
this Sopranos. I thought it was a part of Poo

821
01:07:20.440 --> 01:07:24.239
poop when it first came out. Watch a little bit

822
01:07:24.280 --> 01:07:28.679
of it, and I thought, Nat, see you. I don't

823
01:07:28.719 --> 01:07:30.800
want anything to do with it. I thought, oh god,

824
01:07:30.840 --> 01:07:35.039
this is boring. It's just another one, another Robert de

825
01:07:35.119 --> 01:07:39.440
Niro Want to Be movie. You know, It's like, nah,

826
01:07:39.679 --> 01:07:43.760
it's being done to death. It ended up being one

827
01:07:43.760 --> 01:07:49.239
of my favorite TV shows probably ever, because it was

828
01:07:49.280 --> 01:07:53.559
a great show. I mean arguably by millions of people

829
01:07:53.599 --> 01:07:57.519
that loved it. I just at the start, I just thought,

830
01:07:59.639 --> 01:08:02.800
and it was really promoted. It was, you know, this

831
01:08:03.000 --> 01:08:06.199
big thing. I watched a new TV show, The Soprano's

832
01:08:06.480 --> 01:08:09.840
new HBO show. It's going to be on Channel four

833
01:08:09.880 --> 01:08:13.280
on Sunday nights, starting with a double episode.

834
01:08:16.239 --> 01:08:17.680
For Nyeah.

835
01:08:17.880 --> 01:08:21.560
Now you're right, And then I ended up watching it

836
01:08:21.600 --> 01:08:24.279
for what ten eleven years whatever it was on.

837
01:08:27.720 --> 01:08:28.000
Yeah.

838
01:08:28.319 --> 01:08:34.279
Wow. It started when I was in London, started when

839
01:08:34.279 --> 01:08:38.279
I was in London, and it finished when I was

840
01:08:38.680 --> 01:08:42.640
I think in the last the last year of university

841
01:08:43.199 --> 01:08:56.560
or the second year of university. That's crazy. It apologies

842
01:08:56.600 --> 01:09:04.560
for the squeaky sounds in the background to neighbors. I

843
01:09:04.560 --> 01:09:07.439
think it's quite a little echoy area down there. That's

844
01:09:07.479 --> 01:09:11.560
what it was. I don't think it's so much that

845
01:09:11.600 --> 01:09:14.600
people are talking really loudly. They are, but I don't

846
01:09:14.640 --> 01:09:17.359
think it's it's I don't think they're talking. I think

847
01:09:17.359 --> 01:09:19.760
they probably just talk at normal volume. No they're not.

848
01:09:20.520 --> 01:09:24.199
It's echoy. So it's like a little echo chamber. And

849
01:09:27.359 --> 01:09:30.159
we have a similar thing in this garden, but it

850
01:09:30.239 --> 01:09:34.720
seems to catch the wind sometimes, like the wind seems

851
01:09:34.760 --> 01:09:45.199
to move around the garden. M Another TV show was

852
01:09:46.039 --> 01:09:52.319
I tried to watch this multiple times. It was The

853
01:09:52.399 --> 01:09:56.079
Walking Dead. I tried to watch it and I only

854
01:09:56.119 --> 01:09:58.840
got as far as there's the beginning of heart. I'm

855
01:09:58.840 --> 01:10:00.920
not going to spoil it really, just tell you he

856
01:10:01.000 --> 01:10:04.520
wakes up in a hospital and he walked out of

857
01:10:04.520 --> 01:10:09.319
the hospital and then he sees her there were the

858
01:10:09.399 --> 01:10:13.279
first zombie or whatever, and I just turned it off.

859
01:10:14.159 --> 01:10:19.119
I just got off board. I tried to watch it

860
01:10:19.119 --> 01:10:22.760
probably about five six times, thinking to myself, well, this

861
01:10:22.840 --> 01:10:26.319
is a popular TV show, I should really give it

862
01:10:26.359 --> 01:10:31.800
another go. And at this point I think there's probably

863
01:10:31.800 --> 01:10:38.920
into season three at that time. Because I hadn't yeah,

864
01:10:38.960 --> 01:10:42.640
because I hadn't had any decent internet, that was even

865
01:10:42.960 --> 01:10:48.840
fast enough to stream Netflix at that time, and back

866
01:10:48.880 --> 01:10:52.279
then Netflix was pretty much the I think Amazon was

867
01:10:52.319 --> 01:10:56.600
around as well, but they were the two main ones,

868
01:10:56.720 --> 01:11:01.159
Amazon and Netflix. There was no Apple Teeth, there was

869
01:11:01.199 --> 01:11:05.760
no now TV I don't think which was Sky, and

870
01:11:05.800 --> 01:11:14.199
there was no Paramount streaming, and there would have been

871
01:11:14.319 --> 01:11:22.039
no Disney Plus streaming, so it's MGM streaming, so it's

872
01:11:22.119 --> 01:11:24.760
kind of a bit limited. Netflix was pretty much the

873
01:11:24.800 --> 01:11:30.119
main one, and apparently I only needed five megabytes a

874
01:11:30.279 --> 01:11:33.680
second to stream Netflix and I didn't. My internet didn't

875
01:11:33.680 --> 01:11:42.439
even cover that. It's like wow. So it wasn't really

876
01:11:42.960 --> 01:11:49.720
until I I think I moved in here that I

877
01:11:49.800 --> 01:11:59.359
started watching The Walking Dead. Unless I did, I might

878
01:11:59.720 --> 01:12:03.439
maybe downloaded it. I can't remember. I know I downloaded

879
01:12:04.159 --> 01:12:09.319
all of the episodes of Frasier. I think I downloaded

880
01:12:09.319 --> 01:12:15.079
all the episodes of Cheers and I watched them every day.

881
01:12:15.239 --> 01:12:18.399
This was during the period when I was I suppose

882
01:12:20.960 --> 01:12:27.279
probably waiting for this place, that year two year period

883
01:12:27.359 --> 01:12:32.319
when I was kind of in a bit of a

884
01:12:32.319 --> 01:12:43.119
limbo LIMBOI period. Yeah, I watched every single episode of Frasier.

885
01:12:44.079 --> 01:12:46.039
I think I probably watched a couple of episodes a

886
01:12:46.119 --> 01:12:48.840
day while I was having me breakfast.

887
01:12:49.319 --> 01:12:49.560
And.

888
01:12:53.079 --> 01:12:57.479
I don't think I even had a television at that time,

889
01:13:01.039 --> 01:13:06.840
which is weird. No, I must have had a television.

890
01:13:07.399 --> 01:13:10.000
How could I not have had a television. I think

891
01:13:10.039 --> 01:13:12.560
I did. Yeah, I did have a television.

892
01:13:16.720 --> 01:13:26.880
Yeah.

893
01:13:27.039 --> 01:13:43.159
Another one was, oh, what's his name? Hear the sounds?

894
01:13:43.159 --> 01:13:44.399
I don't know if you can hear them or not.

895
01:13:47.279 --> 01:13:49.000
I can hear them, so I imagine you can hear

896
01:13:49.039 --> 01:13:57.840
it will be less. Why they shouting? I sometimes think

897
01:13:57.880 --> 01:13:59.760
that the adults are just saying to the kids, shout

898
01:13:59.800 --> 01:14:05.680
now on he's making a podcast up there, shall because

899
01:14:05.680 --> 01:14:15.159
they're bored. But I'm probably just imagining that. Maybe there was.

900
01:14:16.760 --> 01:14:19.319
Remember when I first moved in there, there was a

901
01:14:19.319 --> 01:14:23.279
little bit of a neighborly dispute going on between this

902
01:14:23.399 --> 01:14:26.000
bloke that lived downstairs and the bloke that lived upstairs

903
01:14:27.399 --> 01:14:31.880
and the bloke lived downstairs. I had a few friends,

904
01:14:33.640 --> 01:14:37.319
like other neighbors, and they were literally standing outside. This

905
01:14:37.399 --> 01:14:44.000
is early in the morning, and you know those things

906
01:14:44.000 --> 01:14:48.119
that go bang, you know, like little gunpowder, a little

907
01:14:48.199 --> 01:14:51.279
gunpowder packages, and to chuck them on the floor and

908
01:14:51.319 --> 01:14:55.920
they go bang, but were really loud. They had them

909
01:14:55.960 --> 01:14:58.720
and they were chucking them up at his window, at

910
01:14:58.760 --> 01:15:06.520
his bedroom window. And that was quite early on when

911
01:15:06.520 --> 01:15:13.960
I first moved in. And that's when I realized what

912
01:15:14.039 --> 01:15:21.279
I've done, because that is the mentality of some of

913
01:15:21.279 --> 01:15:26.159
the people that have lived around it, because it's very

914
01:15:26.439 --> 01:15:32.760
that's not adult behavior, is it. And I thought, wow,

915
01:15:36.640 --> 01:15:39.960
that's very stray. I'll tell you one day, because I

916
01:15:40.000 --> 01:15:42.479
don't really tell I don't talk about what's happened around it.

917
01:15:42.920 --> 01:15:49.159
One day, I need to write a little book. I'll

918
01:15:49.159 --> 01:15:52.199
do it vaguely. I'm not going to just mention anyone's names.

919
01:15:52.239 --> 01:15:56.199
The fact I can't remember anyone's names anyway, because they're

920
01:15:56.239 --> 01:15:59.399
just people have come and gone. Some of the things

921
01:15:59.399 --> 01:16:05.239
I've seen, Wow, some of the things you would en't

922
01:16:05.279 --> 01:16:10.560
believe it. I saw a couple of neighbors getting him

923
01:16:10.560 --> 01:16:18.840
to punch up I and frozen sausages. Hm, it's true. Wow. Uh.

924
01:16:21.239 --> 01:16:25.079
I remember once my friend downstairs, he came home. He

925
01:16:25.199 --> 01:16:28.399
was with his cousin and his cousin's kid, but he

926
01:16:28.640 --> 01:16:32.600
was a little bit worse for where before he even

927
01:16:32.640 --> 01:16:36.800
went out, he got escorted back by the police. We

928
01:16:36.920 --> 01:16:45.880
got brought back by the police. And I think this

929
01:16:46.039 --> 01:16:50.000
is before I got Finny but yeah, I'm not sure

930
01:16:51.119 --> 01:16:52.640
I think it was yet. It would have probably been

931
01:16:52.680 --> 01:16:59.199
before that. So my friend was telling me he was

932
01:16:59.199 --> 01:17:01.359
a little bit bruised. So he said that he got

933
01:17:01.479 --> 01:17:09.439
started on by there was like six blokes and this

934
01:17:09.479 --> 01:17:12.039
is him outside. So he's outside the police car. He's

935
01:17:12.079 --> 01:17:14.159
not in trouble or anything. The police had brought him home.

936
01:17:14.960 --> 01:17:21.199
So I think he was struggling to really function, and

937
01:17:21.319 --> 01:17:23.079
I think he just went up to them and just

938
01:17:24.119 --> 01:17:27.359
they didn't like him approaching them or something. I don't know.

939
01:17:28.840 --> 01:17:34.720
And yeah, well we stopped a few because he could

940
01:17:34.880 --> 01:17:36.960
he was struggling to walk. It was because of what

941
01:17:37.039 --> 01:17:40.640
he had ingested, whether it was alcohol or whatever. So

942
01:17:40.680 --> 01:17:43.760
he was very worse aware, as I said, So we

943
01:17:43.760 --> 01:17:51.039
were stopping every few seconds, and he telled me this story.

944
01:17:51.680 --> 01:17:55.199
It'd tell it over again, and it'd changed every time.

945
01:17:55.600 --> 01:17:58.720
By the time we got inside his flat, there was

946
01:17:58.880 --> 01:18:04.720
thirty men that started on him in the park, three hundred.

947
01:18:05.560 --> 01:18:13.239
It just kept expanding, so, you know, I don't know,

948
01:18:13.279 --> 01:18:15.159
I didn't know what he was talking about an end.

949
01:18:15.920 --> 01:18:19.000
It was funny, you know, started off at six, ended

950
01:18:19.039 --> 01:18:23.880
up at thirty. And it started off there was six

951
01:18:24.399 --> 01:18:30.520
teenagers that were just being a bit obnoxious, and then

952
01:18:30.560 --> 01:18:35.800
it ended up being like thirty raw marines in tanks.

953
01:18:37.000 --> 01:18:42.640
It was like, what the heck's going on here? I

954
01:18:42.640 --> 01:18:47.199
remember the only time because he used to love to lie,

955
01:18:48.079 --> 01:18:53.039
but sometimes it was obvious. Sometimes it was less obvious,

956
01:18:53.119 --> 01:18:56.399
and we'd laugh at stuff, you know. But remember once

957
01:18:56.439 --> 01:18:59.479
he said something and I said, I'm calling bs on that,

958
01:19:00.880 --> 01:19:03.560
and he couldn't stop laughing because he wasn't used to

959
01:19:03.600 --> 01:19:05.359
people standing up to him to be out I think,

960
01:19:05.600 --> 01:19:08.359
like pulling or pulling him up on stuff like that.

961
01:19:08.880 --> 01:19:13.479
But it was so ridiculous what he said because I knew,

962
01:19:14.319 --> 01:19:17.359
I literally knew the truth. I knew what was what.

963
01:19:19.920 --> 01:19:22.800
I wasn't in the mood to for just going along

964
01:19:22.840 --> 01:19:24.520
with it. You know, sometimes I just go along with

965
01:19:24.520 --> 01:19:26.640
it just for the sake of it. It was easier

966
01:19:27.279 --> 01:19:29.399
if it depended on how he was, what his mood

967
01:19:29.439 --> 01:19:32.399
was like, or what my mood was like. But on

968
01:19:32.439 --> 01:19:36.000
that occasion, my mood wasn't prepared to put up with it.

969
01:19:36.399 --> 01:19:40.680
And I said, I'm calling BS on that. That might

970
01:19:40.800 --> 01:19:42.359
not be in the words I used, but you know,

971
01:19:44.680 --> 01:19:48.119
and he just stopped and looked at me, and literally

972
01:19:48.159 --> 01:19:53.279
he couldn't stop laughing. It was just because he said,

973
01:19:53.359 --> 01:19:55.159
you don't normally say stuff like that to me. I said,

974
01:19:55.159 --> 01:19:58.039
I know, but come on, I cain't bothered. He's just

975
01:19:58.079 --> 01:20:02.800
talking rubbish, absolutely rubbish, and he just let I know,

976
01:20:03.000 --> 01:20:07.439
but he just I don't know. It's a very funny moment,

977
01:20:07.680 --> 01:20:12.119
a very funny moment. There was another time with him,

978
01:20:12.520 --> 01:20:15.760
So we had another friend who I'm still friends with,

979
01:20:16.479 --> 01:20:20.800
who came in here and he I think we was

980
01:20:20.840 --> 01:20:27.039
watching boxing. Very likely it was boxing, because that was

981
01:20:27.079 --> 01:20:30.840
often the only time that Saturday evening where my friend

982
01:20:30.880 --> 01:20:35.640
would be upstairs with me because normally, well normally on

983
01:20:35.640 --> 01:20:39.000
a Saturday night, I watched boxing or I'm left alone.

984
01:20:39.359 --> 01:20:41.319
So if he's up here, it's usually because boxing's on.

985
01:20:43.600 --> 01:20:48.840
He when he was around is so my other friend

986
01:20:48.880 --> 01:20:51.840
comes up, well, it's more he was like mutual friend

987
01:20:51.840 --> 01:20:53.760
of both of us and other neighbors. So he came in.

988
01:20:54.000 --> 01:20:56.439
He was just sitting next to me and he said,

989
01:20:57.000 --> 01:20:59.760
I was sitting at my table. He was sitting on

990
01:20:59.840 --> 01:21:05.479
him here, and my other friend, my friend downstairs, was

991
01:21:05.520 --> 01:21:12.279
sitting on a chair over there. So the new friend

992
01:21:12.359 --> 01:21:14.560
that just come in, he said, oh you o k

993
01:21:14.760 --> 01:21:22.239
if I if I light up a A j O,

994
01:21:22.560 --> 01:21:34.600
I n t. It rhymes with point point point shoint

995
01:21:35.079 --> 01:21:38.439
looint point. I can't think of a word that is

996
01:21:38.439 --> 01:21:46.399
a proper word that rhymes like that. Point hmmm, point

997
01:21:46.640 --> 01:21:51.279
point that's it rhymes a point anyway, I said, yeah,

998
01:21:51.319 --> 01:21:57.159
I suppose, I don't care. I think he was just

999
01:21:57.199 --> 01:21:59.039
sitting there having a beer and I was sitting there,

1000
01:21:59.039 --> 01:22:06.600
probably drinking cocaine cola. And this stuff was so pungent

1001
01:22:06.920 --> 01:22:09.600
because I don't I don't touch that stuff, and he's

1002
01:22:09.640 --> 01:22:15.199
like so pungent, and I was, I was coughing a

1003
01:22:15.279 --> 01:22:22.600
little bit. He he my friend downstairs alway was like

1004
01:22:23.079 --> 01:22:28.880
looking at me like, oh, it's awful smell. So my

1005
01:22:28.960 --> 01:22:33.920
friend with the with thing the rhymes with point, he said,

1006
01:22:34.000 --> 01:22:36.319
kind of borrow the toilet. I said, as long as

1007
01:22:36.319 --> 01:22:39.640
you give it back. We all laughed and he said okay,

1008
01:22:39.920 --> 01:22:44.119
So he went to a toilet. Luke, my mother friend

1009
01:22:44.159 --> 01:22:47.199
from downstairs, he said to me, you got please ask

1010
01:22:47.319 --> 01:22:50.039
him just to put that out. It's making me choke.

1011
01:22:50.960 --> 01:22:54.279
Because Luke did have really bad lungs anyway, he had

1012
01:22:55.720 --> 01:23:01.520
I don't know asthma, and I see per COPD whatever.

1013
01:23:02.239 --> 01:23:05.039
So he said, can you ask him to put it

1014
01:23:05.079 --> 01:23:10.000
out because I just can't struggling to breathe with that

1015
01:23:10.079 --> 01:23:12.239
thing on there, and I want to watch the boxing.

1016
01:23:12.479 --> 01:23:14.159
We had the windows open and everything, but it was

1017
01:23:14.199 --> 01:23:18.199
just too much. So I said, all right, I'll ask him.

1018
01:23:18.399 --> 01:23:21.319
So he comes out of the toilet and he sits

1019
01:23:21.359 --> 01:23:24.159
down and says, I don't mean to be rude or anything,

1020
01:23:24.159 --> 01:23:27.359
but are you okay to maybe smoke down in the

1021
01:23:27.479 --> 01:23:30.159
kitchen or put it out or maybe go in the

1022
01:23:30.159 --> 01:23:33.760
garden because it's a bit too pungent, too a bit

1023
01:23:33.800 --> 01:23:39.039
too smoky. So he was fine with it. He said,

1024
01:23:39.039 --> 01:23:44.840
that's that's okay, that's fine, Luke. Luke pipes up. He says, oh, really,

1025
01:23:45.000 --> 01:23:46.680
I'm fine with it. It's okay with me. It's not

1026
01:23:46.720 --> 01:23:54.239
bothering me. And he looks at me and smiles. It's

1027
01:23:54.279 --> 01:23:57.600
almost like he did it purposely, just to make me

1028
01:23:57.720 --> 01:24:03.960
look silly. I didn't, I didn't say anything. I was like,

1029
01:24:04.479 --> 01:24:09.680
just shook my head. I can't believe. And then we

1030
01:24:09.720 --> 01:24:12.079
watched the box and he kept looking over and smiling

1031
01:24:12.079 --> 01:24:15.439
at me because he was so pleased with himself. And

1032
01:24:15.479 --> 01:24:21.079
when the other neighbor left. The other neighbor left, Luke

1033
01:24:21.159 --> 01:24:24.279
started laughing because he was holding the laughter in right away.

1034
01:24:24.359 --> 01:24:28.199
He's like giggling to himself, and they started laughing as

1035
01:24:28.239 --> 01:24:32.119
soon as my other neighbor left because he could have

1036
01:24:32.279 --> 01:24:34.439
a boxing finished or he had to go and do something.

1037
01:24:36.600 --> 01:24:41.359
And I've told that neighbor since, because since Luke passed

1038
01:24:41.560 --> 01:24:44.880
or when he'd left, I told the other that neighbor

1039
01:24:44.920 --> 01:24:50.359
about the story. He found it funny because it's just

1040
01:24:50.720 --> 01:24:53.279
it's how how Luke was. He's just had that his

1041
01:24:53.399 --> 01:24:58.399
sense of humor was. It was just it was a

1042
01:24:58.439 --> 01:25:02.840
funny moment. That's one of my one of my fond memories. Actually,

1043
01:25:03.760 --> 01:25:07.880
another one was when the same neighbor actually he spent

1044
01:25:07.960 --> 01:25:12.439
the summer living in Luke's flat because he had some problems.

1045
01:25:12.520 --> 01:25:15.800
He had his own flat, but he he Luke was

1046
01:25:15.880 --> 01:25:18.800
kind of looking after him really, sort of emotionally, and

1047
01:25:18.800 --> 01:25:25.600
then spending time with him and another neighbor opposite in

1048
01:25:25.640 --> 01:25:34.039
the building. Opposite was mowing the lawn, and apparently this

1049
01:25:34.079 --> 01:25:36.600
is what happened. Luke puts his head out out of

1050
01:25:36.640 --> 01:25:39.960
the window. He says, excuse me, mate, I suppose you

1051
01:25:39.960 --> 01:25:42.680
could just hold off doing that for a little while,

1052
01:25:42.800 --> 01:25:45.520
because I've only just got into sleep. So the neighbor

1053
01:25:45.560 --> 01:25:47.720
came over, thinking it was a baby. He looked for

1054
01:25:47.960 --> 01:25:50.319
through the window and there's a fully grown man on

1055
01:25:50.359 --> 01:25:56.439
the sofa asleep. And they both started laughing. The neighbors

1056
01:25:56.439 --> 01:26:03.840
started laughing. And it's when I was down there when

1057
01:26:03.840 --> 01:26:07.319
this happened, and when when Luke told me. Honestly, it

1058
01:26:07.359 --> 01:26:09.039
was one of the funniest things I heard for a

1059
01:26:09.079 --> 01:26:13.119
long time, because it was so ridiculous, like, oh, can

1060
01:26:13.159 --> 01:26:15.000
you keep it quiet. I've just got him off to sleep,

1061
01:26:15.840 --> 01:26:18.039
Like you don't think that's going to be a grown man,

1062
01:26:18.840 --> 01:26:22.920
a grown adult asleep on the sofa when you say that,

1063
01:26:24.039 --> 01:26:26.800
And I've just got him off to sleep, like it'd

1064
01:26:26.800 --> 01:26:31.119
be like cradling him and singing of bedtime stories to

1065
01:26:31.239 --> 01:26:38.159
him or something, lullabies. I'll tell one. Maiahbe that as well.

1066
01:26:38.159 --> 01:26:42.720
He found it funny. So it's weird because those two

1067
01:26:43.000 --> 01:26:47.600
stories were kind of a connection with that other neighbor.

1068
01:26:48.079 --> 01:26:51.800
There's always going to be there, however strange that might be.

1069
01:26:53.279 --> 01:26:59.159
It's there's that connection because we were both friends with Luke,

1070
01:27:00.479 --> 01:27:06.000
and yeah, Luke was kind of just looking out for

1071
01:27:06.159 --> 01:27:16.119
him for that summer. Yeah, wow, I don't know what

1072
01:27:16.239 --> 01:27:25.960
I'm talking about. Him mister Lukey, Baby, I got a

1073
01:27:28.640 --> 01:27:34.560
thing in the winter, like before Christmas, and it was

1074
01:27:34.600 --> 01:27:38.359
going to be dangling on the tree outside because Luke

1075
01:27:38.479 --> 01:27:42.000
planted the Christmas tree that's in the front garden. It's

1076
01:27:42.039 --> 01:27:44.159
now as big as the building. But it was a

1077
01:27:44.159 --> 01:27:48.000
little sapling when he planted it, and it's grown to

1078
01:27:48.079 --> 01:27:58.119
be massive, so he's as funny as it grew. Once

1079
01:27:58.159 --> 01:28:04.680
he got above the length of the surrounding bushes that

1080
01:28:04.760 --> 01:28:11.079
are trimmed, the council kept coming out and starting to

1081
01:28:11.119 --> 01:28:13.800
trim the tree. So every time the trimmers were out,

1082
01:28:14.079 --> 01:28:15.960
Luke could run out and say, don't touch the tree.

1083
01:28:16.960 --> 01:28:20.359
Don't touch the tree. And he did that for years,

1084
01:28:20.520 --> 01:28:22.720
don't touch the tree. And then the tree got too

1085
01:28:22.720 --> 01:28:24.760
big and everyone left the tree alone and they kind

1086
01:28:24.760 --> 01:28:28.079
of got to know. And now it is nearly as

1087
01:28:28.119 --> 01:28:31.119
tall as the building. So I kind of look at

1088
01:28:31.119 --> 01:28:33.560
that tree and I think of him because I know

1089
01:28:33.640 --> 01:28:37.399
that he planted it, and I was. I mean, he

1090
01:28:37.439 --> 01:28:40.800
planted it before I was even here, because he'd lived

1091
01:28:40.840 --> 01:28:44.520
there a couple of years before me, maybe three years

1092
01:28:44.560 --> 01:28:51.479
before me, so he'd already planted that. Yeah, he must

1093
01:28:51.479 --> 01:29:01.239
have been because he'd lived there for twelve years. Wow,

1094
01:29:01.399 --> 01:29:04.680
So yeah, maybe more than maybe more than two years

1095
01:29:04.680 --> 01:29:09.840
before me. I think you might have lived here for

1096
01:29:09.880 --> 01:29:17.079
four or five years before I got here. Yeah, maybe

1097
01:29:17.520 --> 01:29:20.960
it's I can't I could find out, but I don't

1098
01:29:21.000 --> 01:29:26.119
know exactly. It's not really important. As I suppose my

1099
01:29:26.239 --> 01:29:29.560
neighbor that's in hospital, he's been here since about nineteen

1100
01:29:29.680 --> 01:29:33.880
ninety nine, which if I do remember, it's about the

1101
01:29:33.920 --> 01:29:45.720
same time as a soprano starting roughly roughly, that's a

1102
01:29:45.760 --> 01:29:49.439
long time. It's a lot. It doesn't seem like a

1103
01:29:49.479 --> 01:29:51.960
long time, but it does as well. At the same time,

1104
01:29:53.439 --> 01:29:57.520
how many times can I say in the sentence times, time, time, time,

1105
01:30:00.399 --> 01:30:11.560
A lot's happened. But then what is it now? Twenty nine,

1106
01:30:11.680 --> 01:30:18.239
thirty nine, forty nine fifty nine, So it's twenty twenty

1107
01:30:18.319 --> 01:30:26.279
six years. Because that period was potentially the highlight of

1108
01:30:26.319 --> 01:30:30.000
my life, of my adult life kind of. It was

1109
01:30:31.079 --> 01:30:35.079
one of the best periods of my life between the

1110
01:30:35.119 --> 01:30:43.960
ages of I'd say probably January nineteen ninety eight and

1111
01:30:48.560 --> 01:30:53.439
two thousand and one. Once it got to two thousand

1112
01:30:53.479 --> 01:30:58.479
and one, things when a little bit eerie, not eerie,

1113
01:30:58.640 --> 01:31:09.079
bit bit not so great, but eighty eight, eighty nine,

1114
01:31:09.920 --> 01:31:19.159
ninety nine two thousand, eighty ninety seven, ninety eight, ninety nine,

1115
01:31:19.239 --> 01:31:21.960
two thousand, two thousand and one. So yeah, I had

1116
01:31:22.159 --> 01:31:28.239
three three years which things were going fairly well in

1117
01:31:28.319 --> 01:31:37.640
some ways, and because I just started my interest in

1118
01:31:37.840 --> 01:31:43.199
hypnosis NLP, and then in two thousand I became super

1119
01:31:43.319 --> 01:31:51.199
interested in the Internet and building websites. So during two thousand,

1120
01:31:53.800 --> 01:31:59.159
the whole year I devoted to building websites, to learning

1121
01:31:59.199 --> 01:32:01.600
how to build up sites, and it was the most

1122
01:32:01.640 --> 01:32:04.800
exciting thing I'd ever done in my life. For some reason,

1123
01:32:05.319 --> 01:32:12.359
I became obsessed with it, absolutely obsessed, and I missed

1124
01:32:12.359 --> 01:32:18.600
that feeling. And I kind of realize now that I

1125
01:32:18.800 --> 01:32:24.399
was probably for some of that period going through a

1126
01:32:24.560 --> 01:32:33.319
very big manic stage. But I didn't know. All I

1127
01:32:33.359 --> 01:32:39.640
knew I was enjoying myself and i'd be awake. I

1128
01:32:39.720 --> 01:32:42.600
was getting like four hours sleep at night if that,

1129
01:32:43.640 --> 01:32:47.199
I didn't need to eat really, just like I'd forget

1130
01:32:47.239 --> 01:32:49.920
to eat because I was so busy focusing on the

1131
01:32:49.920 --> 01:32:52.720
web pages and how to build them. Had all these

1132
01:32:52.840 --> 01:32:57.560
big pile of books, HTML code, how to. Yeah, I

1133
01:32:57.600 --> 01:33:02.039
just loved it, loved everything about it. It's like a

1134
01:33:03.479 --> 01:33:08.640
code I was trying to crack. I had had the books,

1135
01:33:08.680 --> 01:33:10.359
but I was trying to crack it on my own,

1136
01:33:10.880 --> 01:33:14.800
trying to figure it out on my own, and I

1137
01:33:14.840 --> 01:33:18.439
once spent there's a thing, you know, with on the internet,

1138
01:33:18.800 --> 01:33:21.920
or you know on the phone, you press a link,

1139
01:33:22.520 --> 01:33:25.119
click a link, and it takes you somewhere else. Another

1140
01:33:25.199 --> 01:33:29.199
website opens up, another page on the website takes you

1141
01:33:29.279 --> 01:33:38.479
to an app or whatever. They're called hyperlinks. So I

1142
01:33:38.520 --> 01:33:43.479
wanted to figure out how to build a hyperlink on

1143
01:33:43.479 --> 01:33:47.199
a website, a web page, rather to take it to

1144
01:33:47.279 --> 01:33:49.319
other pages. You could also do it so it took

1145
01:33:49.359 --> 01:33:51.319
you to another part of the page as well, but

1146
01:33:51.399 --> 01:33:54.680
I wanted just to figure out how to do it. Now,

1147
01:33:55.720 --> 01:33:58.359
it's very easy to do if you just look into

1148
01:33:58.359 --> 01:34:05.800
a book, but I refused to do that. I wanted

1149
01:34:05.840 --> 01:34:13.039
to work out how to build a hyperlink by dissecting

1150
01:34:13.560 --> 01:34:19.439
a page. And I spent days doing this, just dissecting

1151
01:34:19.439 --> 01:34:23.520
a page, taking a little bit of code off, and

1152
01:34:23.560 --> 01:34:26.800
then seeing if that page works with the link, and

1153
01:34:26.840 --> 01:34:28.720
if it didn't work, I put it back to what

1154
01:34:28.760 --> 01:34:32.600
it was before and taken a bit more off. So

1155
01:34:33.079 --> 01:34:38.199
I stripped down the page as bare as possible to

1156
01:34:38.279 --> 01:34:41.279
the point. And this was a big page from the Internet.

1157
01:34:41.279 --> 01:34:46.159
It's like an Internet page that I had copied. I

1158
01:34:46.199 --> 01:34:50.560
stripped it down to the bare minimum, to the point

1159
01:34:50.600 --> 01:34:55.439
where it pretty much was just the code for the link.

1160
01:34:55.760 --> 01:34:58.840
There was a little bit I suppose body whatever, just

1161
01:34:59.279 --> 01:35:02.800
so it had so it worked. But I broke it

1162
01:35:02.840 --> 01:35:07.760
down to its bare, bare minimum. And it took me

1163
01:35:07.960 --> 01:35:11.840
probably three three days, maybe four days even doing that,

1164
01:35:14.039 --> 01:35:20.439
eighteen hours a day, solidly focused on that one page,

1165
01:35:20.600 --> 01:35:24.199
and I loved every second of it. It was probably

1166
01:35:24.199 --> 01:35:27.600
a bit of frustration as well, because it didn't work

1167
01:35:27.640 --> 01:35:34.720
most of the time until it did, But it was

1168
01:35:35.039 --> 01:35:41.680
so satisfying when I figured out how to do it. Yeah,

1169
01:35:41.720 --> 01:35:43.560
I could have just looked in a book. I mean

1170
01:35:43.600 --> 01:35:47.640
I had probably five six books. Any of those books

1171
01:35:47.680 --> 01:35:55.640
would have told me how to build it, And it

1172
01:35:55.680 --> 01:36:01.800
was just I was determined to figure it out myself

1173
01:36:01.880 --> 01:36:06.000
by I guess reverse engineering it would be called now,

1174
01:36:10.039 --> 01:36:11.279
by unbuilding the.

1175
01:36:11.239 --> 01:36:20.960
Page, starting from yeah, starting working my way back to

1176
01:36:21.119 --> 01:36:22.880
the beginning of the page being built.

1177
01:36:22.960 --> 01:36:28.119
You know, I did a similar thing for how to

1178
01:36:28.199 --> 01:36:32.840
make something, how to make text a different color, how

1179
01:36:32.880 --> 01:36:35.640
to make it a different size, how to make it bold,

1180
01:36:36.319 --> 01:36:42.920
how to yeah, all different things. It took yeah, So

1181
01:36:43.000 --> 01:36:47.039
I devoted a whole year to that. I loved it,

1182
01:36:47.159 --> 01:36:52.279
I really did. I remember I've told this story before,

1183
01:36:52.359 --> 01:36:59.199
but not for ages. When I started at Churchill Insurance,

1184
01:37:01.039 --> 01:37:07.399
we had information on a They called it the intranet,

1185
01:37:08.199 --> 01:37:12.000
so basically you could put stuff, you could read stuff

1186
01:37:12.000 --> 01:37:15.520
off the server. So it wasn't the Internet. You couldn't

1187
01:37:15.560 --> 01:37:22.039
access the Internet, but you can access bits of information. Now.

1188
01:37:22.079 --> 01:37:25.880
I decided that it's okay to have all that information,

1189
01:37:25.960 --> 01:37:32.760
but it's very much scattered and it would be easy

1190
01:37:32.800 --> 01:37:35.840
if it was all in one place. So I built

1191
01:37:35.840 --> 01:37:44.680
a website in between calls, and I linked all the

1192
01:37:44.720 --> 01:37:47.279
stuff that was on the computer system on the Internet,

1193
01:37:47.760 --> 01:37:53.520
so script to read out information about no claims, bonus,

1194
01:37:53.960 --> 01:38:01.119
information about each company, answers to common questions. A converter

1195
01:38:02.640 --> 01:38:09.199
A converter like a calculator, but it was specifically for

1196
01:38:09.359 --> 01:38:14.199
converting sales, to see what conversion you are and stuff.

1197
01:38:15.720 --> 01:38:18.399
But someone else built that. I added that to it

1198
01:38:24.319 --> 01:38:26.760
and I started using it myself. I didn't and then

1199
01:38:26.840 --> 01:38:29.760
someone on my team said, oh, can you can you

1200
01:38:29.840 --> 01:38:34.039
email that to me? So I did, and eventually quite

1201
01:38:34.079 --> 01:38:37.359
a few people around the saleslaw was using it. Because

1202
01:38:37.359 --> 01:38:40.119
it's useful because everything's in one place. You's clicked on it,

1203
01:38:40.840 --> 01:38:43.319
and it just gave your list of things to get

1204
01:38:43.359 --> 01:38:46.439
click on and it's it's very simple, but it was useful.

1205
01:38:48.680 --> 01:38:52.520
It was weird because on one day, I'm on a

1206
01:38:52.560 --> 01:38:59.399
phone call and my manager on myself, my team leader,

1207
01:39:00.000 --> 01:39:01.880
said when you finish that call, can you come off?

1208
01:39:01.920 --> 01:39:05.039
Can you can you log out? It said okay, And

1209
01:39:05.079 --> 01:39:07.199
I was coming to the end of the car and

1210
01:39:07.239 --> 01:39:11.640
I locked out and there was two blokes standing there

1211
01:39:11.880 --> 01:39:14.800
with him and he said, can you come with us?

1212
01:39:17.000 --> 01:39:21.680
I thought, oh, this is not looking good. Really did

1213
01:39:21.720 --> 01:39:24.039
not know what's going on. I thought I'd messed up

1214
01:39:24.119 --> 01:39:29.520
big time, you know, sold sold Lori insurance or Haulig

1215
01:39:29.640 --> 01:39:32.720
insurance of someone with a mini. You know, I just

1216
01:39:32.800 --> 01:39:38.479
made a mistake like that that has happened. But yeah,

1217
01:39:39.359 --> 01:39:41.960
and but it wasn't. It wasn't anything like that. So

1218
01:39:42.199 --> 01:39:46.279
they took me up into the IT department and there

1219
01:39:46.279 --> 01:39:48.319
was another person in there and they all sat me

1220
01:39:48.359 --> 01:39:51.359
down and they said, did you is it is it

1221
01:39:51.399 --> 01:39:57.159
true that you built that website on the intranet? I said, yeah,

1222
01:39:57.279 --> 01:40:04.039
how did you do it? See? They thought I'd somehow

1223
01:40:04.720 --> 01:40:11.640
infiltrated the intranet and brought in software and maybe put

1224
01:40:12.000 --> 01:40:16.479
some kind of virus onto the system by using discs

1225
01:40:16.560 --> 01:40:19.359
and stuff like that, which I hadn't there's no access

1226
01:40:19.399 --> 01:40:22.800
to do that. And I said, have you done it?

1227
01:40:22.800 --> 01:40:23.000
Then?

1228
01:40:23.560 --> 01:40:27.079
I said, I said, well, if you brought a disk in,

1229
01:40:27.159 --> 01:40:30.359
if you've managed to, how have you got it onto

1230
01:40:30.439 --> 01:40:34.800
the Internet? I said, I built it it, So what

1231
01:40:34.880 --> 01:40:36.960
do you mean you built it? You built the website out?

1232
01:40:37.800 --> 01:40:40.279
I said, what do you mean how? I just built it?

1233
01:40:40.520 --> 01:40:46.640
Just I know how to build websites. It's very basic,

1234
01:40:46.920 --> 01:40:50.720
you know, it's nothing special here. Probably couldn't do it now,

1235
01:40:50.800 --> 01:40:54.279
but I could then because I'd spent a year and

1236
01:40:54.319 --> 01:40:57.039
a half doing it, because I spent you know, half

1237
01:40:57.079 --> 01:41:00.760
of two thousand and one also doing it. And he said,

1238
01:41:00.960 --> 01:41:04.479
and they said they couldn't understand. How did I build

1239
01:41:04.479 --> 01:41:10.119
a website in between phone calls without bringing in discs

1240
01:41:10.199 --> 01:41:16.479
and code and without infiltrating the their servers. I said, no,

1241
01:41:16.600 --> 01:41:19.359
I just built a website on the server from my computer,

1242
01:41:19.880 --> 01:41:23.880
and then people wanted it, so I shared it. It

1243
01:41:23.920 --> 01:41:29.119
was just on It wasn't on the internet, but it

1244
01:41:29.199 --> 01:41:32.279
had a link to the internet. So the website was

1245
01:41:32.359 --> 01:41:40.760
just a website page. It was on my desktop. I

1246
01:41:40.880 --> 01:41:44.800
shared it out all the hyperlinks to the pages on

1247
01:41:44.880 --> 01:41:48.239
the internet. That's all it was. So it's just one page.

1248
01:41:48.640 --> 01:41:51.039
Opened it up and it was a website with the

1249
01:41:51.079 --> 01:41:53.239
links to all the other stuff. So all the other

1250
01:41:53.279 --> 01:41:57.039
stuff was already on there. And they're like, how did

1251
01:41:57.039 --> 01:42:00.079
you do that? I said, I just did it, know

1252
01:42:00.199 --> 01:42:02.560
how to do it. And they couldn't believe. They didn't

1253
01:42:02.560 --> 01:42:05.000
believe me that I'd die off of my own head.

1254
01:42:07.319 --> 01:42:11.960
I said yeah, And they were annoyed because they said

1255
01:42:11.960 --> 01:42:15.399
that they'd spent the last year trying to put together

1256
01:42:15.720 --> 01:42:20.439
some kind of website service which would do exactly what

1257
01:42:20.479 --> 01:42:24.479
I'd done. This would have been more complicated and more

1258
01:42:25.119 --> 01:42:30.279
precise and much better version. But they were re peeved

1259
01:42:30.520 --> 01:42:33.680
because this bloke said that he was taken on. He'd

1260
01:42:33.680 --> 01:42:36.600
been there for nearly a year and they'd been planning

1261
01:42:36.640 --> 01:42:42.159
to do this. He was the IT boss or part

1262
01:42:42.159 --> 01:42:44.399
of the IT team, and now it's one of his

1263
01:42:44.520 --> 01:42:47.760
jobs is to put together at the website on the

1264
01:42:47.800 --> 01:42:54.199
intranet for all of the workers in this because there

1265
01:42:54.239 --> 01:42:58.600
was like hundreds of people working there, and then they

1266
01:42:58.600 --> 01:43:02.079
could update a new script to read out, or there

1267
01:43:02.159 --> 01:43:05.800
was a new raw, there's new you know, always changing stuff,

1268
01:43:05.840 --> 01:43:11.079
so it'd be quite handy to have that information, just

1269
01:43:11.119 --> 01:43:18.880
stuff like the the new people, the the phonetic alphabet.

1270
01:43:20.720 --> 01:43:23.079
It's handy to have that because I was learning that.

1271
01:43:23.720 --> 01:43:27.560
I didn't know the phonetic phonetic alphabet properly until I

1272
01:43:27.640 --> 01:43:33.359
moved into until I started working in that job. So

1273
01:43:33.520 --> 01:43:35.199
someone knew they could just have it on the screen,

1274
01:43:35.439 --> 01:43:38.000
just click a quick click and it's there and they

1275
01:43:38.000 --> 01:43:40.000
can just read it, read it out, just get to

1276
01:43:40.039 --> 01:43:43.680
know it, and have it on a little have it

1277
01:43:43.720 --> 01:43:47.079
on a little page below what they're doing. So it's

1278
01:43:47.119 --> 01:43:50.159
just always there. So it's just simple things like that.

1279
01:43:50.960 --> 01:43:52.399
And he said, well, we're going to have to take

1280
01:43:52.439 --> 01:43:57.439
it off because it's I can't have it on the internet.

1281
01:43:57.479 --> 01:44:01.199
I said, it's not on the internet, is what you mean.

1282
01:44:01.399 --> 01:44:05.760
I said, it's it's just on people's desktops, individual desktops.

1283
01:44:06.840 --> 01:44:09.600
You can just ask people to take it off their desktops.

1284
01:44:11.039 --> 01:44:15.039
It links to the internet, but it's not on the internet.

1285
01:44:15.840 --> 01:44:18.880
So they basically they had no control over it. And

1286
01:44:18.920 --> 01:44:21.960
I think that's what annoyed them, because this thing was

1287
01:44:22.000 --> 01:44:24.920
not on their own Internet, which is what an internet

1288
01:44:25.039 --> 01:44:29.119
is is basically, it's a it's the company Internet, which

1289
01:44:29.119 --> 01:44:32.640
they have complete control over. But if you have a

1290
01:44:32.680 --> 01:44:36.920
link to that Internet and your part that you're in

1291
01:44:36.920 --> 01:44:42.039
that system, then it just logs into it. I don't

1292
01:44:42.039 --> 01:44:44.479
think they knew that was possible. Maybe they didn't realize

1293
01:44:44.560 --> 01:44:49.000
you could do that, so I didn't know. It wasn't

1294
01:44:49.000 --> 01:44:51.640
supposed to be done. I didn't know that it shouldn't

1295
01:44:51.640 --> 01:44:54.520
be able to be done because it's the Internet's supposed

1296
01:44:54.520 --> 01:44:58.279
to be very private and secure, which makes you wonder

1297
01:44:58.479 --> 01:45:01.079
maybe that link on the normal into the Internet might

1298
01:45:01.119 --> 01:45:04.039
have taken there as well. I don't know. I doubt it, though.

1299
01:45:06.319 --> 01:45:09.239
So they told me you can't use it, can't use

1300
01:45:09.279 --> 01:45:11.079
it anymore because we're going to They were going to

1301
01:45:11.079 --> 01:45:13.720
build their own and they're in the middle of doing it.

1302
01:45:14.119 --> 01:45:17.560
And I had a little hope then, a little hope

1303
01:45:17.560 --> 01:45:22.159
in my chest, a little bit of a little bit

1304
01:45:22.199 --> 01:45:25.439
of ooh, maybe they're going to ask me to help

1305
01:45:25.479 --> 01:45:32.279
build it. But they didn't. They didn't at all, And

1306
01:45:32.279 --> 01:45:35.520
I was like, oh, okay, because I could have built

1307
01:45:35.560 --> 01:45:39.560
it so easily what I already had, but I could

1308
01:45:39.600 --> 01:45:42.600
have made it much better, and maybe looked into you know,

1309
01:45:42.720 --> 01:45:44.560
with the right software and stuff, I could have made

1310
01:45:44.560 --> 01:45:47.720
it quite nice. It's not that I was I didn't

1311
01:45:47.760 --> 01:45:52.600
have any qualifications or experience. I just had a year

1312
01:45:52.640 --> 01:45:58.439
and a half of phaneticism for building websites. That was

1313
01:45:58.520 --> 01:46:05.119
my obsession. I was obsessed with it. That's all I

1314
01:46:05.159 --> 01:46:09.680
did with my time. Loved it, loved every second of it.

1315
01:46:09.680 --> 01:46:17.000
It's weird. I just absolutely loved it. And they never

1316
01:46:17.000 --> 01:46:23.920
built the Internet the Internet website while I was there anyway,

1317
01:46:24.800 --> 01:46:27.600
but they did tell people to take it off. I

1318
01:46:27.640 --> 01:46:30.560
didn't take it off mine, and other people didn't take

1319
01:46:30.560 --> 01:46:33.119
it off theirs either, so people were still using it.

1320
01:46:35.399 --> 01:46:38.279
So they just, you know, they were still putting stuff

1321
01:46:38.279 --> 01:46:40.680
on the internet like individual where they didn't put it

1322
01:46:40.760 --> 01:46:42.640
in a way that you could just find it easily

1323
01:46:42.680 --> 01:46:48.319
and quickly. So I just continued using mine and updating

1324
01:46:48.319 --> 01:46:52.479
it as I needed it. And a year later they

1325
01:46:52.520 --> 01:46:56.560
still hadn't I think the bloke left, they still hadn't

1326
01:46:56.920 --> 01:47:00.479
put it together. I'm sure they have now twenty odd

1327
01:47:00.520 --> 01:47:04.760
years later, but it was it was like a little

1328
01:47:07.399 --> 01:47:10.840
quite a nice little moment for me, really, Although to

1329
01:47:10.880 --> 01:47:13.000
start with I was a little bit concerned. I've been

1330
01:47:13.039 --> 01:47:19.079
taken in the room with four men thinking all what

1331
01:47:19.119 --> 01:47:22.920
I've had done? But yeah, it was it was quite cool.

1332
01:47:23.000 --> 01:47:26.359
They just couldn't believe it, like how could you do

1333
01:47:26.399 --> 01:47:29.720
that on your own? The thing is it was quite

1334
01:47:29.760 --> 01:47:36.680
basic code HTML. It's once you see that even now,

1335
01:47:36.760 --> 01:47:41.760
actually even now I can because I use code for

1336
01:47:41.880 --> 01:47:44.279
my website. It's code is already there, but I add

1337
01:47:44.319 --> 01:47:48.840
my own code and I can get chet GPT to

1338
01:47:48.920 --> 01:47:51.319
make the code. But I can change the code. I

1339
01:47:51.359 --> 01:47:56.039
still know now it's very basic. Just by changing the

1340
01:47:56.159 --> 01:47:59.960
size of things, the color of things. I can change

1341
01:48:00.239 --> 01:48:04.199
the links, so I can play around with the code.

1342
01:48:04.239 --> 01:48:09.800
Even now, even after all those years, is quite it's

1343
01:48:09.880 --> 01:48:13.760
quite handy. I can read through the code and kind

1344
01:48:13.760 --> 01:48:20.439
of find some stuff, you know, even after all those years.

1345
01:48:21.399 --> 01:48:25.720
So a year and a half of obsession, some of

1346
01:48:25.760 --> 01:48:32.640
it did stick. But then again in two thousand and four,

1347
01:48:32.720 --> 01:48:35.960
I was building my own websites as well, so I

1348
01:48:36.000 --> 01:48:38.640
took a break from building websites.

1349
01:48:39.119 --> 01:48:48.439
For two years, So two thousand and two, two thousand, no,

1350
01:48:48.520 --> 01:48:49.880
about a year and a half, two.

1351
01:48:49.760 --> 01:48:54.800
Years, and then I started again. So in September two

1352
01:48:54.840 --> 01:48:57.640
thousand and one, or no, this is summer two thousand

1353
01:48:57.640 --> 01:49:00.479
and one I was no longer building website. It's because

1354
01:49:00.520 --> 01:49:05.399
I was evicted. And then I moved to a new

1355
01:49:05.439 --> 01:49:10.159
place and I lived there two thousand and one, two

1356
01:49:10.199 --> 01:49:18.640
thousand and two, and probably yeah, two thousand and three

1357
01:49:20.199 --> 01:49:23.319
I got a computer and I started building websites again.

1358
01:49:23.640 --> 01:49:27.279
And then two thousand and four I built a website

1359
01:49:27.960 --> 01:49:32.079
which was helped with pain. And then two thousand and

1360
01:49:32.119 --> 01:49:37.600
six I built my website free Pain Relief dot code

1361
01:49:37.600 --> 01:49:45.239
at UK, so I built that with code, and then

1362
01:49:45.600 --> 01:49:52.520
eventually I started using website builders because it was just easier.

1363
01:49:52.920 --> 01:49:56.680
It was a lot quicker, so I stopped using code.

1364
01:49:56.680 --> 01:50:00.600
I stopped building them from code, which was probably in

1365
01:50:00.680 --> 01:50:04.560
some ways a mistake because that was a skill that

1366
01:50:04.600 --> 01:50:11.560
I could have built upon. And I'm not saying that

1367
01:50:11.640 --> 01:50:14.760
I was skillful, but it was definitely some knowledge I

1368
01:50:14.840 --> 01:50:20.800
had which everyone was doing something that I really enjoyed

1369
01:50:20.800 --> 01:50:23.800
doing as well. So there's a lot of shouting in

1370
01:50:23.800 --> 01:50:27.079
the garden, so I'm going to go, so thank you

1371
01:50:27.119 --> 01:50:29.640
for listening. Remember to be kind to yourself, because you

1372
01:50:29.720 --> 01:50:33.880
do deserve to be happy. Be gentle with yourself. You

1373
01:50:33.960 --> 01:50:39.359
do you deserve to feel safe. Lots of love. Bye,