June 28, 2025

(music) Q&A Friday | LMBYTS #1383 | Jason Newland | 27th June 2025

(music) Q&A Friday | LMBYTS #1383 | Jason Newland | 27th June 2025
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Hello, and welcome to Jasonnewland dot com. My name is.

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It's kind a smell of perfume for some reason. That's weird.

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It's got this picture. Wow, it's almost like Vinnie's just farted.

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But it's a nice smell, so it couldn't have been

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one of these farts. It couldn't have been. How strange.

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So yeah, welcome to me me. I'm Jason new Land.

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This is Q and A Friday. Please only listen when

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you can safely close your eyes. And it is the

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twenty seventh of June twenty twenty five.

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Ooh ooh, that's nice.

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Oh dear, So I've got many questions. I'll be honest

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with you. I'm recording this on Saturday morning. I am,

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I really am. Yes, it was dom dum dumn. So yeah,

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I'm doing this Saturday morning. It's nine forty seven am.

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I couldn't do it yesterday. I was so tired, so tired.

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I got home. What time did I get home? About

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two o'clock ish in the afternoon, and oh, I just yeah,

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I sat for a little while and then I went

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to bed when they lie down. Wow, I'm just on

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Facebook now and there's the politicians in America and not

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particularly loved. It seems not all of them are particularly cherished.

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Wow.

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Oh so anyway, let me have a look. Not particularly

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It makes me I'll tell you what makes me laugh,

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okay is people. You know, when people say, oh, we

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want our free speech, or they say something like in

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this country, the prime minister is taking away our free

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speech and he's a Nobed or something like that, and

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it just makes me laugh because or they say, always

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this person is a dictator. He's a dictator. If the

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person in charge of your country was a dictator, you

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would not be standing there with a big placard calling

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that person names. You would be in a prison. You

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would not be allowed to do that. It makes us like,

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go do that in Russia or China. Go on, give

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it a go baby, go on. Ah, we don't have

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any free speech. No, I think I think you do.

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I think you do. It's a dictatorship. Okay. Well, the

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fact that you can say that online and you can

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walk around just freely saying that stuff means you're not

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living under the dictatorship means you don't understand what dictatorship means.

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I'll stop now, I'm moving back to Q and a Friday.

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I just find it funny you don't understand so Q

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and a Frida. I have six comments, but they're not

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all questions. I got one, two, three questions, a fourth

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one but wasn't really a question. But I have sorted

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out the issue, so I addressed that one first. Michelle

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asks me, not really a question. But when I listen

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to the playlists on your website, I'll get ads during

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the podcast anyway to avoid this? Thanks? And Jonathan writes

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in reply, no ads on Apple podcasts, and Michelle writes,

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I'm trying to listen to old podcasts from twenty twenty,

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not current ones, current ones, current ones, current ones. And basically,

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for anyone who doesn't know on my website, let's over

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look my beautiful website, which is now back. There is

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the first but basically on the very first page you've

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got all the latest recordings, and then at the top

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of the page you've got four boxes that you can

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click on podcasts, playlists, podcast apps, and contact, and then

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below that you've got the PayPal link and boring join

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the Facebook group link. If you click on playlists. At

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the moment, there's only four playlists, four different podcasts that

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I've got playlists for so clicking on let me boy

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you to sleep, for example. And I'm still in the

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process of building this, okay, so it's gonna take a while,

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but I'm still in the process. So the only one

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that works at the moment is without music. There currently

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isn't any playlists old playlists with music at all, but

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there will be with music, without music, with music, five

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hours without music, five hours with music, ten hours without music,

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ten hours, or with music. But at the moment, just

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the without music ones. And I've got them in groups

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of fifty, so one to fifty, fifty one to one hundred.

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The last one I've got is one thousand, three hundred

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and fifty one to one thousand, four hundred, so I

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have Yeah, So I've updated all of that, so they

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were all now on there. So that's which wasn't before

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I did that yesterday, so I managed to make sure

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it's all updated. Now. What I didn't know is that

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the all right, I don't know what I'm hearing. Someone's

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playing some a movie or something very loud in the garden.

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So I there was adverts in the middle of the podcast,

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which I would never have never, I would never do that,

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but the podcasts, because all of the new podcasts I've done,

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the ones like one hundred and one to one point

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fifty and all those, I'd set those up separate, and

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I didn't click the right box. I didn't cancel the adverts,

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so adverts were playing. I've now gone through every single

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podcast from the playlist days because it wasn't happening on

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the other podcast the normal podcasts, because as I said,

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I would never allow that to happen if I knew

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about it. I just didn't know about it, and I

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didn't even realize that the podcasts did that automatically had

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it that it's kind of a setting that you have

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to undo manually, and I didn't realize it did it.

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It's been quite a while. I don't know why it

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did it. Anyway, that has been reversed, so none of

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the playlists will have that anymore. So, just apologies to

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anyone that was affected by that. I've let Michelle know,

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but just letting everyone know as well. Now, so I've

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now got it changed anything else about my website, and

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so look, I will look at I think what I'm

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going to do is I'm going to have to do

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probably a little bit of reverse engineering with this one,

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because I can't go too far back with the podcasts

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because I'm only allowed to have the ones with music

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that have got the Spreaker music on them. The ones

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that because that's the only one that the podcast allows

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I put any other different music on there, they will

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just they might end up closing the podcast again, which

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I don't want to go through that game. So, you know,

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it might just be for the Let Me Boy to Sleep.

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It might only be the last one hundred, one hundred

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and fifty recordings maybe that has the music, and so

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I can't do that right now because I'm doing this,

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but I will look into that so that you can

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click on the you know, have the versions that are

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five hours of our music, five hours with music. Technically

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I should be able to do five and ten hours

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without music for every single one. But when I first

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started doing then Let Me Boy to Sleep, I didn't

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do more than just the initial recording. I didn't do

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different versions, didn't do longer versions, didn't do versions with

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music at all. So what I might do instead of

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going back and re making new, more and more recordings,

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I'm just going to leave the ones from the past

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as they were, but make sure that all future recordings

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are added and all more recent ones are as well.

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That made sense to me when I said it, but

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I'm not sure if it made sense after I said it.

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I'm not even sure if that sentence made sense. Did

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it make sense? I don't know. I'm not sure. I'm

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going to be sleeping a lot today. I am. I

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can feel that, I can feel when I've done this.

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I'm going to go and lie down very warm.

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Last night, very warm. Indeed, I got no chocolate. I

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got some groceries yesterday, and all that money I spent

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on groceries, and it's like, I don't know, there's like

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there's nothing to show for it.

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It's like what what what? What? What? Where? Where's all

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the stuff? Well? Here is everything. It's like this, there's

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hardly any fan theirs of breakfast, cereal.

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And some milk, some bread rolls.

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Yeah, there's not a lot of stuff there. I'm not

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quite sure how it came to be one hundred and

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twenty two pounds. I don't know, one hundred and twenty

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two pounds. I'd spend less than that in a month

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back in nineteen ninety. That was quite a long time ago.

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To be fair. But yeah, I remember when thirty pound

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was quite a big shop. It was a good like

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two three bagfuls of food for thirty pound, and you know,

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one hundred pound that would be an overloaded trolley full

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of stuff. Yeah, I need to look into that. I

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need to mix some changes. I think because I ordered

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my food on uber Eats, I get it delivered the groceries.

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I'm beginning to think that they just add on a

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lot more to the price because the delivery is two pound,

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and maybe they I can't remember if they charge any

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for the there's another charge, isn't there. I'm not sure. No,

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not a delivery. I think the delivery was No, Yeah,

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maybe the delivery was four pound. I always leave a

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tip of two pound, which is not a lot, but

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it does add up over the weeks. But then I

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also carried all the stuff up. Oh yeah, because I

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got quite a few bottles of water, so that's like

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four cred of packs. I got four packs of water.

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But I ended up helping because when I first got

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stuff for muber eats a whole one of the main

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points of getting deliveries is so that I don't have

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to carry the stuff. It kind of seems to defeat

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the object of getting a delivery if I'm carrying it.

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I don't know. It just seems a bit of a

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weird concept really, and I the more time's gone by,

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the more often I end up helping them with the

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with the delivery. And part of the reason I don't

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want to sort of carry it is because of my back.

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So I was trying to avoid, you know, doing all

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the bending over and stuff if all possible. I don't know. Yeah,

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I seem to have I mean I did delivery. This

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is a few weeks ago. It was a takeaway delivery.

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I think it was pizza. Rub me up to come

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down and collect it. It's like, no, do you come

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in and you knock on my door. That's that's how

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it works, since the winter delivery driver is not even

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knock on your door anymore. Did you this is I'm

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just moaning today. Did you know in England? Well, where

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I used to live, and probably the same in other places,

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maybe not London, but the same you know in like

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towns and stuff. In the eighties, the early eighties, maybe

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the middle eighties, even in the nineties, I think, but

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definitely in the eighties you'd order a taxi, they would

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knock on your door, don't actually knock on your door

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to come and collect, to let you know the tax

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is there. And then someone discovered the horn, and I

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think one of them must have seen the other one

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do it. I guess it's a bit like in an

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animal kingdom, isn't it. You see a monkey breaks a

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nut with a rock, like oh, and they all start

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doing it. It's a little bit like that, I think.

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And one taxi driver saw another taxi driver not getting

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out of the cab, not getting out of the car,

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and just bibbing his horn relentlessly until the person came out.

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Bear in mind this is before mobile phone, so the

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taxi couldn't phone, couldn't phone, you know, the person in

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the house. And then it just became that. That's how

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it became like everyone just bibbed their horn. And now

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they don't bid their horn. It's just they just sit

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there and maybe the phone you or there's you know,

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got apps now, and they said, you're a text, you're

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cars here, this is the registration of your car. The

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driver's name is unpronounceable. Potentially I try and pronounce the

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delivery driver's names. I do and they seem to like it.

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I think they appreciate the fact they've given it a go.

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But I get it wrong so often so hi abjubalandon

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bum bum dumb, and they they laugh. I remember one

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says that he said, na, it's my name is Jamie. Okay, sorry,

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I get it wrong, but I give it a go.

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I give it go, do I do? Because I don't

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know why. I just get bored. I guess.

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Babad bah boom b b b b.

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I don't know about oper I'd kind of like to

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stop using them, really because it's expensive. But it's getting

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to the point. You know, McDonald's won't even deliver here now.

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They've delivered here before. They delivered either if you went

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on their website or downloaded their app, or if I

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was to go through Uber Eats or one of the

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other ones delivery or whatever, and they would deliver. McDonald's

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not anymore. They decided it's too far away, which is

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kind of ironic because it's one of the closest places

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there is. I get deliveries from places way further away

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than that. The McDonald's here, well, the closest McDonald's probably

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about five minutes in the car from from my way.

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I live just one straight road. It's really it's not

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far at all. I wonder why that is. Maybe I

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don't know. I don't know, mind you. The McDonald's always

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seemed to be cold when it got to me. No, not,

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I've not ordered it many times, but I've done a

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bit of market research, and other neighbors that have got

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McDonald's they say the same thing, and the chips are cold,

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or the fryers are cold, and the burgers are kind

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of lukewarm. I've not used that term for years. Lukewarm

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where it came from. Lukewarm For those who don't know

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what it means, it just means slightly warm. It's a

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bit like when you fill your bath up and it's

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really way too hot, so you put some warm you

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put some cold water in, but then you put in

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too much cold water in and it goes from being

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too hot to too cold, too cool for a bath.

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It's not cold, but it's just lukewarm. And it's amazing

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how it's almost like three seconds too much to three

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seconds too much of cold water can turn it from

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being a nice bath to a cold bath. And then

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you need to put some more hot water in, but

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you have to unplug, you have to let some water

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out because it takes ages to get it hot again

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or warm. Strange and that it's one of those. It's

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an anomaly that needs to be sorted out. Forget space travel.

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We need to sort that one out. We need to

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figure out what going on there anyway, Tammy is the

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first question. Oh, by the way, my neighbor is he's

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doing all right. He's for those that want to know,

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still in the hospital. He's had a scan, like a

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full proper body scan, not like the ones I do

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with the recordings, but inside this big tube. And apparently

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the moment that because he kept moving around, I said,

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there wasn't the right time to start dancing.

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Was it?

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Really? We laughed. I mean, I think it's because you

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can't stop talking. He literally cannot stop talking. Is I

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was trying to figure what is it? What is it

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that creates someone that cannot stop talking? I can be

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a little bit like that myself. Is it disliking silences

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or pauses? But it's kind of talking without listening as well?

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So I do have a tendency of talking, but I

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can also listen, and it's it's not a monologue, not

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not like here when I do this, This is a monologue,

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isn't it? I guess, isn't it? It's a monologue monologu

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But in person it's a two way street. But it

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depends on what the conversation or topic is. So if

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you start talking about boxing, providing your boxing fan and

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you know something about boxing, it's going to be a

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two way conversation like equally, But I'm going to be

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excited about what I'm going to say next, So I

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will be just waiting for you to stop talking so

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I can talk, but I will also be listening to

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what you're saying, and i'll readjust what I'm going to

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say depending on what you just said. It's almost like

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as a big cure things that I want to say,

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and they're just waiting impatiently to get on the ride

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the next roller coaster, which is my verbal diarrhea. It's

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about to pop out my mouth when I talk next.

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It's a little bit like that. But I noticed that

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I can't listen to someone that's talking about something I'm

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not interested in unless it's kind of in a scenario

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like this, you know, it's you know, never got my

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eyes closed and it's just relaxing. It's a kind of

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different thing. But in a real life situation, when there's

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a person just talking at me constantly for hours and hours,

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it's I find it hard. I just I don't. I

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don't not very good with that stuff. I've known a

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couple of people like that in my past, both really

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lovely people, genuinely really nice people, but they once they

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start talking, I'd struggle to follow where they were going. One. Yeah,

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it's I think there's a there's a common thread, and

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I think I've kind of in some ways absorbed part

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of that kind of personality in order to produce these

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recordings in a way, because that's kind of how I

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started off. When with the let Me Boy to Sleep,

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it was I mean, it was just another version of

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something I'm previously done before anyway, which was speaking out

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quietly I think, or thinking out quietly, something like that.

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And there was another one, I forget the name of it,

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but it was where I was just I guess, stream

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of consciousness, just talking non stop, and I realized I

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could do it. I could do it really easily. It

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was there was no no effort, nothing, it took, yeah,

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no energy, it was just the easiest thing in the

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world to just talk. I'm sure it could be with

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anyone else as well. I'm not I'm not saying I'm special,

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although all my teachers told me I was special. And

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but in a real life situation, you know, because if

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it's so, if you met me in real life, and

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of course as soon as you saw me, you'd want

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to rip my clothes off, not because I'm sexiest, because

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I'm wearing really horrible clothes. And it's unless you were,

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I mean to be fair, if you've if you're used

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to hearing me, listening to me just waffling on like

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I do, and you're used to just feeling relaxed, just

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maybe just the idea of listening to me. When you

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think of me, maybe you feel quite relaxed inside, and

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perhaps my voice does send you to sleep. So if

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you saw me in person, met me in real life,

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it might be weird, and mean, it'd be weird, obviously,

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you know. I think if you've got together with all

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the people who have met me, they'll always say the

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same thing. Weird, not in a bad way necessarily, but weird.

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But I can't quite put my finger on it is

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something not the same as other people, but not in

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a good way. You know, there's it's one good you know,

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you could feel sort of so proud of yourself. I'm

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not like other people, but with me, it's always been

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like I wish I was. And then you say other people,

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what's other people?

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What?

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Everyone is the same except you are? They obviously not.

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But I do have an abnormal brain, so I don't

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I'm on the spectrum of something. But I just don't think.

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I don't think it's I don't think it's been discovered yet.

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Whatever spectrum I'm on, it's an unknown quantity. Wow, I

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would like my friend has just had this. I've only

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started the podcast ever yet. Sorry, Sorry Tammy and Jonathan

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and Tina, who've got questions. I am going to answer

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the questions, I promise, but at the same time, I

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can't stop talking. It's I forgot what I was going

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to say. Now now that I've just I've interrupted, did

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myself rudely and completely forgot what I was going to

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say something about being on a spectrum and notes gone.

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It's gone out? Me ed? What was I going to

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say something about it? Should I get tested? Oh? So

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my neighbor he had a full scan. So I basically

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he had a scan to first of all, which was

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a cat scan, which scans the bones and the skeletal system.

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I do believe it scans other things as well, but this,

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this full body scan was it goes in depth, so

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scans your brain just you know it basically your entire body.

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And i'd like to I don't know if I particularly

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want to have a body scan, because who knows what's

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going on in there, and I think I perhaps rather

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not know in some ways, but I would like to

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have a brain scan because there's something not right with

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my brain. Then yeah, it's just and it's not it's

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just it's a fact there's something that never has My

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brain's never been correct, and so I've always been something off,

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a bit weird. So I'd love to get a brain

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scan and just for them to say, ah, because I

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might have only half a brain or something. You know,

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it might be one of those that that it's like

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which would make make sense, but it might be just like,

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just have a what's that thing the brain? The brain stem.

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There might be a brain stem and just a little

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bit of jelly on the side. That might all. It

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might be maybe some peanut butter on the other side,

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a little bit of bread at the bottom. I don't

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know that, you know, there might not be anything in there,

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and it'd be nice to just find out, because that

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sort of bugs me. Doesn't bug me, but I just

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don't really understand it. Things like mental illness issues, mental

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health issues, conditions, you know, it's like bipolar schizophrenia. There's

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so many, isn't it so? And they're classed as brain conditions.

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So things like anxiety could be a brain condition, but

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quite often maybe is due to something that's happened in

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the past, due to a phobia, due to you know,

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social stuff, not necessarily also got autism as well. It's

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a brain thing, isn't it. So these are brain things.

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Then there's environmentally things that have changed someone environmentally behaviorally,

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which can technically be fixed with time, with therapy, with understanding.

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I guess that, you know, can hopefully be changed at least.

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So I wonder why, bearing in mind that there's millions

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of people with these brain conditions, let's just stay those

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three bipolar, schizophrenia and autism, and they're different things. I'm

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not saying autism is saying as bipolar schizophrenia. I'm just

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saying it's a it's a brain condition, isn't it. It's

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a brain thing, let's say call it. So why why

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are they're not just scan in every single person with

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everyone was bipolar. Just scan their brain, maybe every adult,

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not the kids. Maybe it's every adult with bipolar. Scan

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their brain once and then look and compare, do comparisons,

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and do the same with people with schizophrenia or there's

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lots of different conditions in between that, and you know,

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but then do the same with people with autism. Just

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scan the brains and look at it, look at them

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because at the moment, all they do the experts in

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this country anyway, I don't know. Maybe other countries they

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do more. But unless it's a brain injury, they don't

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tend to scan the brain all. So it's just guesswork

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based on how you feel and how you behave and

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previous history, previous medical history, you know, stuff like that.

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So just scan it. You know, if you get a

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broken bone, they scan the bone so they can see

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if it's broken or not. They can't tell if it's

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broken unless they scan it. I mean they probably can,

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but it probably it hurt a hell of a lot,

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becauld they have to really manipulate, you wouldn't they to

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sort of to feel where it's broken. But generally they

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do a scan so they can see if it's broken

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in one place, it's broken in two places, if everything's okay,

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you know, it's just as they're clean break And it's simple,

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simple process which is done probably millions of times a

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day around the world. So why can't they just do

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that with brains. And it's not about having lots of

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different scans, just one scan per person just to start with,

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because I know it's it's not safe to keep having

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keep having lots and lots and lots and lots of

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X ray scans and stuff. But just one per person

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and then they can get an idea what's really happening,

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because they do they do do brain scans on people,

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you know, when they do studies, but just do it

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on everyone. That's why, that's what I think, But only

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adults to start with. Leave the kids alone, you know,

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just to work on the adults first and then then

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perhaps move to the kids and work with that as well,

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because it's like it's a very different situation for kids

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to and for adults. So I don't know any ideas

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I suppose that any questions, but it could be, well, yeah,

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are you going to answer the questions that are for

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Q and A Friday, because that's why we're here. Weren't

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here to just be lectured about two about having brain scans.

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I don't know. I'm kind of quite passionate about that.

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I didn't realize I wasn't until just now quite passionate

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about possibly. It just makes sense to me. You know,

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I understand why they don't do full body scans for everyone.

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You know. It's simply because it's too expensive, apparently, and

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also they'd have to start treating people, you know, because

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you know, you know, you know, you know I'm saying,

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you know a lot. I know you know it would Yeah,

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it would open up a big old box of frogs.

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I don't think that's the correct terminology, because generally people

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only get a body scan when they're not when it's

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too late, but you know, when there's an issue. And

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if my friend hadn't turned yellow, he'd still be in

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this for that, unaware that he was unwell, because he

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feels fine, and he'd be enjoying the football or the rugby,

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or the cricket or the tennis. I don't know what

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other sports he but you know, that's what he lives for,

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that's his passion in life. So he'd be having the

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time of He just enjoys his life, so he'd be

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doing that all weekend and be happy. Instead, he's stuck

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in a hospital ward and he feels fine physically, feels

469
00:40:22.559 --> 00:40:29.679
absolutely fine. It's strange. I've never known anything like this before.

470
00:40:30.239 --> 00:40:34.719
It just kind of doesn't make sense to me because

471
00:40:34.760 --> 00:40:39.239
he's not around. Everyone's around does not feel fine. He's

472
00:40:39.280 --> 00:40:42.960
the only one. I'm not saying, he's the only one

473
00:40:43.000 --> 00:40:46.480
in the hospital that's sitting in the hospital bed feeling

474
00:40:46.519 --> 00:40:51.000
absolutely fine and kind of wondering why they're there. You know,

475
00:40:51.400 --> 00:40:53.199
there's no way I can say that, because it's no

476
00:40:53.320 --> 00:40:57.199
way I've known. But I'm pretty sure there's not many

477
00:40:59.199 --> 00:41:04.440
that are just he feels perfect, or he feels exactly

478
00:41:04.480 --> 00:41:09.119
how he always has. You know, he's slowed down. He's

479
00:41:09.159 --> 00:41:14.679
nearly eighty's. He walks a lot slower than he would

480
00:41:14.719 --> 00:41:17.320
do that he did, you know, a year ago even,

481
00:41:17.880 --> 00:41:21.599
but he just he's aging a bit and he's careful

482
00:41:21.639 --> 00:41:23.440
when he walks up and down the stairs. But so

483
00:41:23.559 --> 00:41:26.880
am I. Ever since I fell down them stairs a

484
00:41:26.960 --> 00:41:33.000
couple of years ago. I'm full on both handles, I'm

485
00:41:33.039 --> 00:41:38.280
holding onto both banisters. I've got like five coats in

486
00:41:38.440 --> 00:41:41.199
case I fall. You know, there's a trampoline at the

487
00:41:41.199 --> 00:41:46.599
bottom of the stairs. That would be the worst thing

488
00:41:46.639 --> 00:41:48.159
to fall on, wouldn't it because you just end up

489
00:41:48.199 --> 00:41:53.119
banging into the ceiling. That would be such a really yeah,

490
00:41:54.480 --> 00:41:56.480
you know someone fell off of you know, if you

491
00:41:56.519 --> 00:41:58.440
were going to catch someone that has falling off a

492
00:41:58.519 --> 00:42:01.480
building or something, you know, and you're trying to save them,

493
00:42:02.119 --> 00:42:04.760
a trampoline wouldn't be the right thing to use. It

494
00:42:06.440 --> 00:42:09.679
end up back on the building or maybe onto another building.

495
00:42:15.039 --> 00:42:17.480
I wonder how much it would cost to have a

496
00:42:17.599 --> 00:42:21.800
brain scan. I'm going to look that up now. How

497
00:42:21.960 --> 00:42:32.519
much is it to have a brain scan? How much

498
00:42:32.599 --> 00:42:35.800
the brain scan cost? So I'm going to put in

499
00:42:36.000 --> 00:42:39.960
UK because it's coming up the US. It's a little

500
00:42:40.000 --> 00:42:49.199
bit different, I think in the UK because after your

501
00:42:49.280 --> 00:43:04.800
brain scan, three hundred and thirty five pound Oh oh okay,

502
00:43:04.880 --> 00:43:08.039
so that's the brain scans. So if you have this

503
00:43:08.280 --> 00:43:13.400
is private MRI scans. Let's have a look. I'm braining

504
00:43:13.519 --> 00:43:18.039
head scans. Oh m r R MRI plus brain and

505
00:43:18.159 --> 00:43:25.679
head scans from one ninety nine. Hummm, No Field Health.

506
00:43:26.639 --> 00:43:30.760
I think i'd probably want to use if I put

507
00:43:30.800 --> 00:43:34.000
in my town one. So see if anything comes up,

508
00:43:34.400 --> 00:43:36.199
because I want to I'd want to go somewhere that

509
00:43:36.239 --> 00:43:41.159
I knew, you know, not some I mean there's one

510
00:43:41.199 --> 00:43:44.320
here called scan dot com. I mean, it might as

511
00:43:44.360 --> 00:43:46.719
well just call uselves scam. I'm just I don't know.

512
00:43:46.840 --> 00:43:54.519
I'd be scared top MRI dot com. So no Field Health.

513
00:43:54.920 --> 00:43:58.880
That's a hospital. I do believe I'd want to go

514
00:43:59.039 --> 00:44:08.079
somewhere that was like well known or well regarded. You know.

515
00:44:08.239 --> 00:44:13.360
I wouldn't want to just go to random places. You

516
00:44:13.480 --> 00:44:19.800
have to save up for that. That's for pets. HCA,

517
00:44:20.800 --> 00:44:24.400
all right, so HCA, that's an actual healthcare. So that's

518
00:44:24.760 --> 00:44:29.559
a place private. CT scan that's a cat scan, though,

519
00:44:29.559 --> 00:44:35.559
isn't it. I don't want a cat scan. I'm talking

520
00:44:35.639 --> 00:44:46.320
about brains, brains departments, tests and scans, all tests and scanst's.

521
00:44:46.360 --> 00:44:59.760
Have a look coloscopopy HPV screaming there's loads, there's loads,

522
00:45:00.039 --> 00:45:17.519
it's bone density all BlimE me. Okay, yeah, see this

523
00:45:17.679 --> 00:45:22.039
is all I wonder if you can just I don't

524
00:45:22.079 --> 00:45:28.760
know how much it costs. It's not saying, oh, we'll

525
00:45:28.840 --> 00:45:31.760
come out of that. I think that's like an insurance

526
00:45:31.880 --> 00:45:43.639
thing that you need to be part of a house.

527
00:45:44.559 --> 00:45:52.760
This is weird alliance medical. I just if I was, oh,

528
00:45:52.920 --> 00:46:00.320
this is this soul look self pay? Am all right?

529
00:46:03.159 --> 00:46:09.480
Have a referral? Do not have a referral? Okay? Our locations?

530
00:46:12.519 --> 00:46:15.119
Why is it put? Oh there is this one. It's

531
00:46:15.159 --> 00:46:19.840
actually in the hospital. It's actually in the hospital area.

532
00:46:20.840 --> 00:46:25.320
How weird? I didn't. Wow, it's next to the hospital.

533
00:46:27.079 --> 00:46:29.679
Does it say how much four hundred and forty pound

534
00:46:34.320 --> 00:46:37.760
I might do that? Actually? Is that the whole body scan?

535
00:46:38.000 --> 00:46:43.760
Is that whole everything? Or no, it's four pound. It's

536
00:46:43.880 --> 00:46:49.159
four hundred and forty pound for one body part. Blimey.

537
00:46:51.000 --> 00:47:00.239
So let's see what body parts are they offering. They're

538
00:47:00.280 --> 00:47:03.599
not even offer the brain unless it's head brain head, Yeah,

539
00:47:04.320 --> 00:47:10.440
brain head, four hundred and forty check prices, four hundred

540
00:47:10.440 --> 00:47:19.159
and forty pound. So they're not offering it for the

541
00:47:19.239 --> 00:47:31.400
whole body. Wow. Left thumb check prices? You're joking. They're

542
00:47:31.480 --> 00:47:34.480
left thumb. They're going to charge four hundred and forty

543
00:47:34.599 --> 00:47:41.599
pounds for a thumb. A thumb all together? Now, a thumb.

544
00:47:44.440 --> 00:47:48.199
I mean, not even both funds. Four hundred and forty

545
00:47:48.239 --> 00:47:53.800
pounds for one thumb. That's I don't know. I can't.

546
00:47:54.320 --> 00:48:04.519
That's but if you have your spine done four hundred

547
00:48:04.559 --> 00:48:08.639
and forty how can a spine be the same price

548
00:48:08.840 --> 00:48:11.159
or a brain the brain in the head be the

549
00:48:11.239 --> 00:48:18.440
same price as a thumb. It's just all about little finger.

550
00:48:29.039 --> 00:48:32.760
I don't know. I was going to say I could

551
00:48:33.239 --> 00:48:36.760
it says groin right and left. They can't. Not even

552
00:48:36.760 --> 00:48:39.920
going to offer the whole of the groin. I would

553
00:48:40.000 --> 00:48:42.599
like to get scanned to see if there's still anything

554
00:48:42.679 --> 00:48:45.920
down there. I'm not sure. I haven't seen anything for years.

555
00:48:46.719 --> 00:48:57.840
Right and left thumb, Oh toenails. I'll come back to

556
00:48:57.920 --> 00:49:02.519
that another time. That's quite interesting. I might do that.

557
00:49:03.559 --> 00:49:08.199
So Tammy asks, how are you doing with the week

558
00:49:08.400 --> 00:49:11.239
of chaos around the house? Is your friend up and

559
00:49:11.320 --> 00:49:17.360
about now? It's been a very, very weird week. I'll

560
00:49:17.400 --> 00:49:22.400
be it up, up and back for the hospital. They're

561
00:49:22.440 --> 00:49:33.360
and back every day since Friday last week. So it's Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday,

562
00:49:34.320 --> 00:49:37.559
so that's eight days in a row. I'm not going

563
00:49:37.639 --> 00:49:43.199
up today he's got another visitor come in later afternoon,

564
00:49:43.920 --> 00:49:46.280
and I can't go up Sunday because there's no buses.

565
00:49:47.239 --> 00:49:50.760
Or there is, but the buses are just really random

566
00:49:51.280 --> 00:49:53.039
every two hours, and I'm not going to do that.

567
00:49:54.480 --> 00:49:56.400
As it is, it takes two hours if I get

568
00:49:56.400 --> 00:49:59.440
a bus, it takes two hours there, two hours back

569
00:50:00.039 --> 00:50:02.719
because of the waiting around, and there's two buses to

570
00:50:02.880 --> 00:50:07.119
catch and a bit of walking. So yeah, I'm not

571
00:50:08.119 --> 00:50:12.119
I'm having two days off and Vinnie, little Vinceta here

572
00:50:14.119 --> 00:50:16.159
seems to be quite happy that I'm here with him

573
00:50:17.000 --> 00:50:22.199
because yesterday he didn't even bark when I left. He

574
00:50:22.360 --> 00:50:24.000
just sat on the sofa and just looked at me,

575
00:50:24.199 --> 00:50:32.320
and I left and nothing. That's never happened before. You know,

576
00:50:32.440 --> 00:50:37.800
even if I just go out and pop around a corner,

577
00:50:39.840 --> 00:50:46.320
he would bark, but this time nothing. What's what's been

578
00:50:46.519 --> 00:50:51.639
weird is Vinnie's behavior the last week now. He's been

579
00:50:51.719 --> 00:50:55.480
off his food. I think that's partly because of the heat,

580
00:50:57.239 --> 00:50:59.320
but I know it's not just because of that, because

581
00:51:00.159 --> 00:51:02.960
I left some food out and I gave him a

582
00:51:03.000 --> 00:51:05.719
treat which you'd normally just gobble down, and he'd be

583
00:51:05.840 --> 00:51:10.599
like chewing on it. The tree was still on the

584
00:51:10.679 --> 00:51:17.079
settee when I got back six hours later, and then

585
00:51:17.119 --> 00:51:25.000
he ate it. So he's sulking, basically. I think it's

586
00:51:25.079 --> 00:51:33.199
been sulking the last few days. He refused to get

587
00:51:33.239 --> 00:51:37.559
on my bed. I didn't want to sleep with me,

588
00:51:38.960 --> 00:51:42.079
which is a little bit upset and actually because for

589
00:51:44.360 --> 00:51:47.159
however long I've had him, two and a half years,

590
00:51:47.320 --> 00:51:50.800
he slept in my bed. We sleep together. You know,

591
00:51:50.920 --> 00:51:55.079
that's our thing. And that sounds weird, doesn't it. That's

592
00:51:55.159 --> 00:52:03.239
our thing, that is, and I don't care who knows it. Yeah,

593
00:52:03.360 --> 00:52:07.159
so he's but it's not just that he's been sort

594
00:52:07.159 --> 00:52:09.400
of sitting there just staring at me from the floor,

595
00:52:13.159 --> 00:52:19.119
making the odd doll m So I don't know. But

596
00:52:19.719 --> 00:52:23.280
last night he got in the bed with me, which

597
00:52:23.360 --> 00:52:27.480
is nice. So that was that was quite a pleasant

598
00:52:27.519 --> 00:52:32.679
experience again, But then I woke up and he wasn't

599
00:52:32.719 --> 00:52:36.159
in the bed. He wasn't in the bedroom, he wasn't

600
00:52:36.199 --> 00:52:41.639
in the living room. I thought, where's finnegon? He was

601
00:52:41.760 --> 00:52:46.920
lying down in front of the front door, leaning against

602
00:52:46.960 --> 00:52:49.440
the front door. Now there's a chance that was just

603
00:52:49.760 --> 00:52:52.239
the coolest place for him to be. I hope that's

604
00:52:52.280 --> 00:52:59.800
the reason. But I think he is pining for his

605
00:53:00.079 --> 00:53:05.239
uncle who's in hospital, because he's used to hearing him

606
00:53:05.280 --> 00:53:11.119
coming and going. He knows everyone in this building. He

607
00:53:11.320 --> 00:53:14.480
knows where everyone is and who they are, and because

608
00:53:14.480 --> 00:53:16.760
he can smell and hear them, can't I guess, And

609
00:53:18.079 --> 00:53:22.760
I suppose to him this building's his his home, even

610
00:53:22.800 --> 00:53:26.639
though we live in one of the flats. He gets

611
00:53:26.719 --> 00:53:28.920
excited to say lo to all of them. He knows

612
00:53:28.960 --> 00:53:35.079
everyone here, and his uncle opposite me is one of

613
00:53:35.159 --> 00:53:43.559
his favorite people. So I think he's getting a little

614
00:53:43.599 --> 00:53:49.559
bit sad missing him, just missing because sometimes you know,

615
00:53:49.920 --> 00:53:52.119
I'll be in here and Vinie will be out of

616
00:53:52.159 --> 00:53:56.599
the front door and my neighbor be talking to Vinnie

617
00:53:56.639 --> 00:53:59.199
through the door, just saying hell lo to. They'll be

618
00:53:59.239 --> 00:54:07.360
having this big, full on conversations leaving to it. So

619
00:54:07.480 --> 00:54:09.280
it's been a bit strange. I managed to do a

620
00:54:09.320 --> 00:54:13.360
few little bits. I did some washing, some laundry, and

621
00:54:14.719 --> 00:54:16.480
kind of ran out of food. But I managed to

622
00:54:16.480 --> 00:54:21.199
get some food yesterday afternoon or like early evening, got

623
00:54:21.239 --> 00:54:33.400
a delivery and what else. Oh, the other day, Vinnie

624
00:54:33.679 --> 00:54:41.199
stayed with a friend. This was Thursday morning. He stayed

625
00:54:41.239 --> 00:54:46.320
with Archie, So that was a neighbor around the corner,

626
00:54:47.320 --> 00:54:51.599
and he's never he's never had a playdate before with

627
00:54:51.760 --> 00:54:56.679
another dog. Ever, it's the first time where he's been,

628
00:54:57.360 --> 00:54:59.679
you know, like a dog he knows really well and

629
00:55:00.119 --> 00:55:06.239
gone around because it's not an Archie for years. They're

630
00:55:06.320 --> 00:55:09.360
best friends. But they see each other not all the time,

631
00:55:09.440 --> 00:55:13.039
but usually a few times a week, depending on, you know,

632
00:55:15.000 --> 00:55:18.960
if we managed to bump into them. But they just

633
00:55:19.159 --> 00:55:21.599
get on so well. And they had a really good

634
00:55:21.679 --> 00:55:25.360
time together playing in the garden. Apparently they were jumping

635
00:55:25.400 --> 00:55:28.840
all over her, the mother, I give the dogs jumping

636
00:55:28.880 --> 00:55:30.760
all over her like while she was trying to use

637
00:55:30.800 --> 00:55:35.360
her phone or whatever and probably fighting over attention, to

638
00:55:35.440 --> 00:55:41.480
be honest. So they had a really good time. And

639
00:55:43.280 --> 00:55:46.320
I think Vinnie is trying to go back there now

640
00:55:46.360 --> 00:55:48.840
because he wants to go back and play because he

641
00:55:48.920 --> 00:55:52.480
had a good time. But I can't really invite myself.

642
00:55:52.559 --> 00:55:55.480
Can I kind of knock on the door? Can Vinnie

643
00:55:55.519 --> 00:55:59.559
come to play? Please? Can Archie come out to play? Please?

644
00:56:00.800 --> 00:56:12.199
Can't really do that? Call me really? Not really not really.

645
00:56:15.960 --> 00:56:18.079
So he's a bit grumpy, but I think he's enjoying

646
00:56:18.119 --> 00:56:21.159
me being here. So he's lying down next to me

647
00:56:21.280 --> 00:56:26.280
he's on his side, his feet and his hands both

648
00:56:26.360 --> 00:56:32.000
all touching me. So he's I think he's a little

649
00:56:32.000 --> 00:56:41.719
bit more. He looks relaxed. He looks very relaxed. As

650
00:56:41.800 --> 00:56:49.199
far as my neighbor goes, he's it's the same. He's

651
00:56:49.320 --> 00:56:59.000
still in the hospital. He's chatting. He's bored, like everyone

652
00:56:59.119 --> 00:57:01.639
in there, he's bored being there. He doesn't want to

653
00:57:01.679 --> 00:57:04.639
be there. No one does that. They really, let's face it,

654
00:57:04.880 --> 00:57:10.880
who wants to be in a hospital. So, yeah, but

655
00:57:11.079 --> 00:57:14.559
he's physically fine. It physically feels fine. I mean he's

656
00:57:14.599 --> 00:57:19.199
not physically fine, but he's he feels okay. He's actually

657
00:57:19.320 --> 00:57:25.039
very unwell. So it's just he hasn't got any symptoms

658
00:57:25.079 --> 00:57:33.079
other than the jaundice yees, So it's kind of I

659
00:57:33.159 --> 00:57:35.639
don't know. I think this is a very confusing for him,

660
00:57:37.079 --> 00:57:42.840
understandably so, and he's just waiting to go home. But

661
00:57:44.199 --> 00:57:47.519
there are some benefits, I don't mean, Yeah, there's there's

662
00:57:47.559 --> 00:57:49.880
the thing he's getting there that he doesn't get at home.

663
00:57:51.599 --> 00:57:56.159
One is being fed three times a day. He doesn't

664
00:57:56.199 --> 00:58:01.719
eat three times a day at home. So I think

665
00:58:01.760 --> 00:58:06.079
he's quite enjoying getting food, like I havn't cooked food.

666
00:58:07.039 --> 00:58:09.360
I think he has a breakfast cereal in the morning,

667
00:58:10.960 --> 00:58:19.320
but he's having two cooked meals a day. He's he's

668
00:58:19.519 --> 00:58:22.760
made friends with the person sitting oppositely next to him,

669
00:58:24.400 --> 00:58:26.960
so he's he's got a captive audience to talk to,

670
00:58:29.800 --> 00:58:32.400
and he doesn't have that normally because he lives on

671
00:58:32.480 --> 00:58:35.079
his own. I mean, you know, I speak to him

672
00:58:35.119 --> 00:58:37.760
and I see him and stuff, but like me, I

673
00:58:38.679 --> 00:58:41.239
live on my own, so I used to being on

674
00:58:41.400 --> 00:58:45.079
my own. I think the difference between this is I

675
00:58:45.280 --> 00:58:52.039
enjoy I enjoy the silence, the quiet, but if you

676
00:58:52.159 --> 00:58:56.880
brought someone in here, the chances are I wouldn't stop talking,

677
00:59:00.880 --> 00:59:05.599
you know. So there's some similarities between us in a sense.

678
00:59:06.679 --> 00:59:12.159
Because that's why I tried to explain this to a

679
00:59:12.239 --> 00:59:15.559
few people over the years, why I don't want anyone

680
00:59:15.639 --> 00:59:18.800
in here when I'm watching boxing. You know. I had

681
00:59:18.840 --> 00:59:20.480
a couple of friends and say I'll come around and

682
00:59:20.559 --> 00:59:23.679
watch the A J fight, or we watched the Tyson

683
00:59:23.760 --> 00:59:27.400
Fury fight, and I said, no, I don't want you. Okay,

684
00:59:27.440 --> 00:59:29.039
I don't don't say I don't want you here, but

685
00:59:29.559 --> 00:59:31.760
now I don't don't like people being here when I'm

686
00:59:31.760 --> 00:59:39.519
watching the boxing. For two reasons, three reasons, actually four reasons.

687
00:59:40.599 --> 00:59:47.800
There's a few reasons there's I'll go through them. The

688
00:59:47.960 --> 00:59:51.400
first one is I can't relax if someone else is here.

689
00:59:51.440 --> 00:59:55.360
I don't relax. There's there's not Yeah, it's not relaxing

690
00:59:55.440 --> 00:59:58.559
for me to have. I'm relaxed when I've got Vinny

691
00:59:58.639 --> 01:00:05.159
here and that's it. No one else I don't have.

692
01:00:05.280 --> 01:00:08.079
I don't feel relaxed with anyone else. I'm not saying

693
01:00:08.079 --> 01:00:11.440
I won't ever feel, but at the moment and there's

694
01:00:11.519 --> 01:00:15.960
no one I feel relaxed around. But it doesn't mean

695
01:00:16.039 --> 01:00:18.599
that I don't you know, I don't mean I dislike

696
01:00:18.679 --> 01:00:22.360
the person if I don't feel relaxed around them. I

697
01:00:22.599 --> 01:00:26.920
just feel if there's someone else in my home, it

698
01:00:27.039 --> 01:00:30.920
puts me on edge a little bit a lot sometimes.

699
01:00:33.480 --> 01:00:35.400
And the other thing is they might want to sit

700
01:00:35.519 --> 01:00:37.440
next to me on the sofa. I don't like that.

701
01:00:39.320 --> 01:00:41.159
The only one that sits next to me is Vinnie.

702
01:00:42.719 --> 01:00:45.639
I don't That other side of the sofa is for rubbish,

703
01:00:45.960 --> 01:00:52.679
well not rubbish, but just stuff, just bits and bobs.

704
01:00:53.119 --> 01:00:56.480
Is just messy, but that's what that's that's what that

705
01:00:56.639 --> 01:01:02.000
chair is for. This side is for me and then

706
01:01:02.159 --> 01:01:05.519
if I'm not sitting in it, and then he can

707
01:01:05.639 --> 01:01:08.079
sit to the side, so he takes up a little

708
01:01:08.119 --> 01:01:09.800
bit at the other seat and a little bit of

709
01:01:09.880 --> 01:01:20.199
this seat, and that's his area. So that's two reasons.

710
01:01:20.559 --> 01:01:29.719
The third reason would be it'd be distracting having someone

711
01:01:29.840 --> 01:01:33.960
here is a distraction, which I don't want when I'm

712
01:01:34.000 --> 01:01:41.440
watching boxing, or which is what I don't want ever,

713
01:01:42.400 --> 01:01:51.119
maybe not when I'm at home. Don't need that distraction. Generally,

714
01:01:51.320 --> 01:01:54.400
It's probably not true all the times, but generally, you know,

715
01:01:54.880 --> 01:01:59.880
if it's if I'm going to watch the boxing, I

716
01:02:00.079 --> 01:02:02.639
want to be able to concentrate on that. Even if

717
01:02:02.679 --> 01:02:04.880
I don't want to concentrate on it, I don't want

718
01:02:04.880 --> 01:02:07.320
to have to concentrate on what someone else is saying.

719
01:02:12.280 --> 01:02:17.400
Another reason is there's a chance they're going to talk constantly,

720
01:02:21.679 --> 01:02:24.880
which will annoy me, it distract me. It will be

721
01:02:25.159 --> 01:02:29.400
I lose, I lose my for me to focus, I

722
01:02:29.480 --> 01:02:34.440
can do one thing at the time. That's it. And

723
01:02:34.519 --> 01:02:37.079
the other reason is because I will talk. I will

724
01:02:37.199 --> 01:02:50.239
definitely talk constantly, and that will distract me because I

725
01:02:51.559 --> 01:02:56.280
might end up talking about something completely irrelevant and I'll

726
01:02:56.360 --> 01:03:00.599
miss an important thing in what I'm watching, whether it's

727
01:03:00.639 --> 01:03:04.320
a movie, whether it's a TV series, or whether it's

728
01:03:04.360 --> 01:03:09.840
the boxing. If I miss something when I'm on my own,

729
01:03:11.719 --> 01:03:16.719
I can rewind, but you know, ultimately it's because I

730
01:03:16.880 --> 01:03:23.039
haven't focused. But if I miss something, an important bit

731
01:03:23.079 --> 01:03:26.159
of information, because someone else is talking to me or

732
01:03:26.239 --> 01:03:30.159
I'm talking to them, that's just yeah, I can't really

733
01:03:30.239 --> 01:03:40.639
do that. I'm trying to think of any other reasons,

734
01:03:40.679 --> 01:03:46.360
but I think that's enough reasons. It's I hope that

735
01:03:46.800 --> 01:03:49.800
I could meet someone one day that I don't feel

736
01:03:49.840 --> 01:03:55.559
that way with, you know, without getting all romantic. I

737
01:03:55.599 --> 01:03:57.960
think it'd be quite nice one day I had someone

738
01:03:58.039 --> 01:04:01.960
I could just, I don't know, maybe hold hands with

739
01:04:06.400 --> 01:04:11.360
or cuddle, you know, maybe and watch boxing and maybe

740
01:04:11.400 --> 01:04:14.199
they'd be into boxing or they're just I don't, I

741
01:04:14.199 --> 01:04:20.000
don't know. The thing is they'd have to sit on

742
01:04:20.079 --> 01:04:22.920
top of Vinny, wouldn't they, because he's that's where he sits,

743
01:04:24.360 --> 01:04:28.119
so be quite hard. But knowing him, because he's got

744
01:04:28.159 --> 01:04:32.760
a real thing for women. He's really got I mean,

745
01:04:33.039 --> 01:04:36.480
he gets so much attention from women. He knows it.

746
01:04:37.320 --> 01:04:40.519
He's a little bit of a little stud, nothing thin ears,

747
01:04:41.920 --> 01:04:46.079
so he'd be all over equally, if I had a

748
01:04:46.280 --> 01:04:55.639
female friend romantically, he would probably not want me going

749
01:04:55.639 --> 01:05:02.360
anywhere near. It'd be should be his friend basically in

750
01:05:02.519 --> 01:05:05.559
his mind, so he'd be hogging her. He'd be all

751
01:05:05.599 --> 01:05:09.800
over sitting on a lap and probably wouldn't He probably

752
01:05:09.800 --> 01:05:14.719
wouldn't even want me and her even sitting next to

753
01:05:14.800 --> 01:05:21.000
each other. The other thing is when you got visits here,

754
01:05:21.039 --> 01:05:23.679
there always breathing, and they always breathing make a great

755
01:05:23.800 --> 01:05:37.480
noise breathing. I don't know. I just i'd love to wish.

756
01:05:37.559 --> 01:05:39.320
I'd love to be the kind of person that just

757
01:05:40.239 --> 01:05:44.400
enjoyed being around lots of people. I can be around

758
01:05:44.400 --> 01:05:47.199
one person. I can have a conversation that was lad,

759
01:05:47.280 --> 01:05:49.519
wasn't it? I can have a conversation one on one.

760
01:05:51.280 --> 01:05:54.079
I cannot have a conversation with more than one person

761
01:05:54.119 --> 01:06:05.000
at a time without feeling I feel unwell when it happens,

762
01:06:05.079 --> 01:06:09.079
I'll be honest, I do. And there's certain situations I

763
01:06:09.199 --> 01:06:14.800
can't I cannot avoid. So if I see my dad

764
01:06:17.039 --> 01:06:18.960
is if he speaks to me on the phone, there's

765
01:06:18.960 --> 01:06:21.840
always both of them, him and his wife. Now I

766
01:06:21.920 --> 01:06:24.880
can talk to either of them on their own, talking

767
01:06:24.920 --> 01:06:28.960
to both of them is hard because I can't, especially

768
01:06:29.000 --> 01:06:32.639
on the phone, I cannot gauge what their emotions are,

769
01:06:36.119 --> 01:06:38.079
or even in person, I can't really gauge what their

770
01:06:38.119 --> 01:06:41.800
emotions are. But because there's too I can can't. I

771
01:06:41.880 --> 01:06:46.840
can like probe one that's wrong, isn't it, but kind

772
01:06:46.880 --> 01:06:50.599
of ask questions of one person to find out what

773
01:06:50.760 --> 01:06:56.320
they mean. When you've got two people talking, and then

774
01:06:56.320 --> 01:07:02.360
they're talking, they're kind of maybe I don't want to say,

775
01:07:02.440 --> 01:07:06.880
contradicting each other, maybe saying different things, but maybe talking

776
01:07:06.880 --> 01:07:12.719
about different things as well. I find it confusing. And

777
01:07:15.480 --> 01:07:18.440
you know when a few years ago, I used to

778
01:07:18.519 --> 01:07:23.239
say to my if my dad phoned a say, could

779
01:07:23.280 --> 01:07:27.159
take my speaker phone please, so I could just have

780
01:07:27.519 --> 01:07:33.800
one on one conversation. Be refused. And it's just because

781
01:07:35.760 --> 01:07:42.760
I really really struggle to communicate with more than one person.

782
01:07:43.239 --> 01:07:46.400
And this is nothing bad about my dad's wife, because

783
01:07:46.400 --> 01:07:51.360
she's brilliant. You know, I love talking to her one

784
01:07:51.440 --> 01:07:53.760
on one, the two of them together, I just struggle

785
01:07:54.760 --> 01:07:58.559
with anyone two people, and when they're together, even in

786
01:07:58.599 --> 01:08:03.800
front of me, it's like, is those silences that do me?

787
01:08:05.360 --> 01:08:12.199
Where I say something and there's just nothing. Now in person,

788
01:08:12.320 --> 01:08:15.519
you can see a facial expression. It doesn't mean I

789
01:08:15.639 --> 01:08:21.720
understand what it means, but it's something there's and I

790
01:08:21.800 --> 01:08:25.039
can question it. But on the phone it's just silent.

791
01:08:25.119 --> 01:08:28.439
I can't I say hello, Well, I do he's still there.

792
01:08:31.840 --> 01:08:36.600
What you're feeling. What's your internal response to what I

793
01:08:36.760 --> 01:08:41.840
just said? It's I can't really do that. I mean

794
01:08:41.880 --> 01:08:45.760
I suppose I could, but it would be weird. You know,

795
01:08:47.880 --> 01:08:51.880
how are you both feeling specifically about the last paragraph?

796
01:08:53.399 --> 01:08:55.840
Is there an emotional response from what I just said.

797
01:08:56.760 --> 01:08:59.399
Please explain it to me in a way that I'll

798
01:08:59.439 --> 01:09:05.840
be able to want stand. I don't know, so I

799
01:09:09.720 --> 01:09:12.520
I've really it's weird. To tell you, what's weird. My

800
01:09:12.680 --> 01:09:20.920
neighbor on the phone, he can have a conversation backward

801
01:09:20.960 --> 01:09:28.359
and forward in person, not so much. He can, but

802
01:09:28.640 --> 01:09:32.520
it doesn't happen so much. It's really weird. Like he

803
01:09:32.640 --> 01:09:36.319
was talking about some stuff, talk about cricket or some spot.

804
01:09:36.760 --> 01:09:40.720
I've told him before when you talk about sports, I

805
01:09:40.840 --> 01:09:45.039
switch off. I stopped listening. I've told him many times

806
01:09:45.079 --> 01:09:48.800
about that. But I can't say that to him at

807
01:09:48.840 --> 01:09:53.640
the moment because it's rude. I mean, you could argue

808
01:09:53.640 --> 01:09:57.920
it's rude before but it was truthful. And in the

809
01:09:58.000 --> 01:10:00.439
past we've been talking and he will remind me of

810
01:10:00.560 --> 01:10:02.319
something he said to me. I said, oh, I'll probably

811
01:10:02.399 --> 01:10:09.239
just stop listening, which is true. Again, may be rude,

812
01:10:09.319 --> 01:10:13.119
but he laughed because I've told him if you if

813
01:10:13.159 --> 01:10:15.680
you talk too much at me, I'm not going to

814
01:10:15.760 --> 01:10:17.680
hear it. I'm going to switch off. And it's not

815
01:10:17.760 --> 01:10:22.800
because I'm not purposely switching off. It's just I'm so

816
01:10:23.079 --> 01:10:27.880
bored with what you're saying. Again, that sounds rude, doesn't it.

817
01:10:30.560 --> 01:10:32.840
It's not in a not in a rude way. It's

818
01:10:32.960 --> 01:10:38.279
just a factual thing. If you if it's interesting, you've

819
01:10:38.319 --> 01:10:41.439
got my attention, or if it's interesting to me, I mean,

820
01:10:41.960 --> 01:10:48.359
if I'm enthralled. So sometimes that's a weird thing. The

821
01:10:48.439 --> 01:10:50.439
amount of people I said this to, and I don't

822
01:10:50.520 --> 01:10:55.319
mean to so someone maybe I see regularly, a dog walker,

823
01:10:56.520 --> 01:10:59.319
maybe even a friend, someone that I speak to, you know,

824
01:10:59.439 --> 01:11:01.560
say a load to maybe someone I've known for years,

825
01:11:02.479 --> 01:11:06.560
and I say something I was like, zing, it's like, wow, Okay,

826
01:11:08.000 --> 01:11:11.600
this is the first time you've got my interest since

827
01:11:11.640 --> 01:11:15.239
I've known you. And I shouldn't say stuff like that,

828
01:11:17.319 --> 01:11:20.720
But it's kind of true. Because I'm all in. I'm

829
01:11:20.840 --> 01:11:24.840
completely focused on what they're saying, and there's nothing more

830
01:11:24.840 --> 01:11:28.239
important to me in that moment than what they're going

831
01:11:28.319 --> 01:11:38.279
to say next. It's like super charged, super excited, majorly

832
01:11:38.399 --> 01:11:45.600
interested because I can't pretend. I can't fake interest. I can't.

833
01:11:46.359 --> 01:11:49.239
I can't do it. I tried to do it when

834
01:11:49.279 --> 01:11:52.960
I was a counselor, and I realized I can't. But

835
01:11:53.039 --> 01:11:55.079
then I also realized I didn't need to, because when

836
01:11:55.119 --> 01:11:59.640
I was a counselor, I was interested in nearly every

837
01:11:59.680 --> 01:12:07.000
situation there was there was there was one person that

838
01:12:07.279 --> 01:12:09.960
just would not talk about anything while they were there,

839
01:12:12.399 --> 01:12:14.560
and I managed to get them to open up in

840
01:12:14.600 --> 01:12:19.239
the end. But that was difficult. But this, you know,

841
01:12:20.279 --> 01:12:23.439
I wasn't going to be rude, because that's I don't

842
01:12:23.479 --> 01:12:25.520
want to be rude. I don't mean to be rude anyway. Ever,

843
01:12:26.239 --> 01:12:30.880
it's not my thing. But almost telling someone that's the

844
01:12:30.960 --> 01:12:35.039
most that's the first time you've piqued my interest. Well,

845
01:12:35.079 --> 01:12:36.920
it's the most interesting thing you've ever said to me.

846
01:12:38.199 --> 01:12:40.359
That's almost like an insult, And it wasn't meant to

847
01:12:40.399 --> 01:12:44.520
be an insult. It's I guess it wasn't even supposed

848
01:12:44.520 --> 01:12:46.439
to be a compliment. It was just me being honest.

849
01:12:48.640 --> 01:12:51.600
Yet I have to stop myself saying stuff like that

850
01:12:52.560 --> 01:12:55.800
because I don't want to. I don't want to annoy people.

851
01:12:56.520 --> 01:12:58.119
I just want to let them to know that, let

852
01:12:58.199 --> 01:13:03.000
them know that I actually am rested and I'm seriously

853
01:13:03.960 --> 01:13:06.880
focused on what they're saying. And it could be the

854
01:13:06.960 --> 01:13:12.000
most pointless thing as well. You know, it could be

855
01:13:12.079 --> 01:13:17.720
talking about the zebra crossing, and for some reason, I'm

856
01:13:17.800 --> 01:13:22.119
interested in what they're saying. For some reason, in that moment,

857
01:13:22.920 --> 01:13:26.800
I'm suddenly really excited about talking about zebra crossings. And

858
01:13:26.880 --> 01:13:33.600
I don't know why. It's I don't know. It's a way.

859
01:13:33.640 --> 01:13:37.520
It's a weird one. Okay, I've never been excited about

860
01:13:37.560 --> 01:13:48.560
talking about zebra crossings, but it's yeah, mind you the

861
01:13:48.600 --> 01:13:51.000
other way, it goes the other way because I used

862
01:13:51.000 --> 01:13:55.199
to have a friend who would ask me to explain

863
01:13:55.399 --> 01:13:58.840
stuff to him. Okay, explain hypnosis to me. They just

864
01:13:58.920 --> 01:14:01.560
sit there and stare at me. Said, no, who want

865
01:14:01.560 --> 01:14:06.000
to know about hypnosis? Read a book? That was my attitude,

866
01:14:06.479 --> 01:14:09.560
and it was just because I'm not going to I

867
01:14:09.600 --> 01:14:14.520
don't know. I think if someone wants me to sit

868
01:14:14.640 --> 01:14:16.359
there and talk at them. I don't want to do it.

869
01:14:17.520 --> 01:14:21.319
I kind of clamber up. It's when they don't want

870
01:14:21.359 --> 01:14:24.039
me to do it, I just want to enjoy it more. No,

871
01:14:24.199 --> 01:14:27.880
that's not that's not true. It's just that whole because

872
01:14:27.920 --> 01:14:34.079
I feel I think in that situation like that almost

873
01:14:34.880 --> 01:14:39.199
it was. I feel like I'm put on the spot

874
01:14:39.239 --> 01:14:45.439
a bit, and it's like, yeah, I think it's a

875
01:14:45.520 --> 01:14:50.039
bit like when someone says, oh, so you've so you

876
01:14:50.199 --> 01:14:53.279
know about if you ever ever heard about this thing,

877
01:14:53.279 --> 01:14:55.640
and say, yeah, we'll explain it to me. Then no,

878
01:14:58.479 --> 01:15:01.880
you said you heard about it, Yeah, explain it. No

879
01:15:03.000 --> 01:15:05.239
that that that's not what I do. I don't explain

880
01:15:05.359 --> 01:15:08.359
anything to anyone. I do, you know, do the Q

881
01:15:08.479 --> 01:15:12.800
and A Fridays. But that's I invite these questions.

882
01:15:14.119 --> 01:15:14.199
But.

883
01:15:17.560 --> 01:15:21.399
I'm not even sure what I'm trying to explain. You

884
01:15:21.520 --> 01:15:24.119
imagine being with someone in a room with someone and

885
01:15:24.199 --> 01:15:28.359
then just saying it's just something you're interested in. But

886
01:15:28.520 --> 01:15:33.119
then it's deciding that they want you to explain that

887
01:15:33.720 --> 01:15:36.680
to them in a way that they're going to understand it,

888
01:15:37.800 --> 01:15:43.039
and there's going to be follow up questions. It almost

889
01:15:44.199 --> 01:15:49.880
it sort of turns into some kind of oral exam. Again.

890
01:15:50.000 --> 01:15:52.840
That sounds wrong, but you know what I mean, It's like,

891
01:15:53.119 --> 01:16:01.159
just no, I'm not I don't want to be tested. No,

892
01:16:04.239 --> 01:16:09.560
but I do like talking to people. This is not

893
01:16:09.680 --> 01:16:13.520
answering your questions, Tammy, is it? Sorry? How are you

894
01:16:13.640 --> 01:16:16.279
doing with the week of chaos around the house? Is

895
01:16:16.359 --> 01:16:18.600
your friend? And up? Okay? So I have answered the questions.

896
01:16:18.640 --> 01:16:24.600
I'm just I felt like my brain was fried yesterday

897
01:16:25.239 --> 01:16:31.680
the last three days. Really, but I got home yesterday

898
01:16:31.920 --> 01:16:36.359
and I just I was struggling to even put a

899
01:16:36.479 --> 01:16:46.119
sentence together. I was so tired and just it was overloaded.

900
01:16:46.399 --> 01:16:50.119
I was is that the right word? You know? It

901
01:16:50.239 --> 01:16:56.680
was too much, way, too much of everything, seeing too

902
01:16:56.760 --> 01:17:06.000
many people, spoken to too many people, and overload. Did

903
01:17:06.039 --> 01:17:10.720
I say it's overload? Probably for my senses were overloaded,

904
01:17:12.039 --> 01:17:19.079
my ears, my hears my hearing, my ears, my eyes physically, emotionally,

905
01:17:19.479 --> 01:17:24.079
probably smells, tastes. Maybe I don't know. Everything was just

906
01:17:24.399 --> 01:17:32.000
too much for me, And yeah, I don't ever want

907
01:17:32.039 --> 01:17:33.880
to go back there, but I kind of got to

908
01:17:34.079 --> 01:17:36.880
go back on Monday because I promised, plus he asked

909
01:17:36.880 --> 01:17:45.520
me to. But yes, it's too much for me. Really,

910
01:17:45.720 --> 01:17:54.399
I don't not when also I was thinking, how often

911
01:17:54.439 --> 01:17:58.279
have I actually left my flat and left this area,

912
01:17:59.520 --> 01:18:01.680
you know, this this little area that I live. How

913
01:18:01.760 --> 01:18:06.119
often have I left there to wander as far as

914
01:18:06.199 --> 01:18:18.399
town where we're on a bus a taxi. And really

915
01:18:18.680 --> 01:18:22.720
in the last two years, I can only think of

916
01:18:23.560 --> 01:18:33.000
three occasions, maybe four occasions, actually maybe five are come

917
01:18:33.159 --> 01:18:38.199
just found five, four or five. So yeah, in the

918
01:18:38.319 --> 01:18:42.119
last couple of years, I've left this little area maybe

919
01:18:42.199 --> 01:18:47.680
five times. Once it was to a funeral, another one

920
01:18:47.960 --> 01:18:53.119
was to the supermarket twice I think, another one was

921
01:18:53.199 --> 01:18:57.199
to the doctors, another one was to the dentist. So

922
01:18:57.680 --> 01:19:02.960
that's five times in probably two years that I've left

923
01:19:03.520 --> 01:19:10.119
my little village. And this week I've done eight different

924
01:19:10.199 --> 01:19:14.159
days in a row. So yeah, it was a bit.

925
01:19:18.600 --> 01:19:23.680
There's a lot. It's a lot. Man. Jonathan asks what

926
01:19:23.960 --> 01:19:27.279
your normal dinner consists of? Ever go out to eat?

927
01:19:27.399 --> 01:19:30.880
And if so, what variety of cuisine? The answer to

928
01:19:30.920 --> 01:19:34.359
the next one, the last question, is no, I don't

929
01:19:34.399 --> 01:19:37.079
go out to eat. If I did go out to eat,

930
01:19:38.840 --> 01:19:42.640
I'm quite open minded. But the last time I went

931
01:19:42.720 --> 01:19:48.840
out to eat, I know I did go out. No,

932
01:19:49.079 --> 01:19:51.960
I did. I went out just before Christmas. I forgot

933
01:19:51.960 --> 01:19:54.439
about that. So it's just up the road for me,

934
01:19:54.680 --> 01:19:58.600
it's not far. And it was a pub I went

935
01:19:58.680 --> 01:20:04.479
to just before Christmas. Went there with some family members

936
01:20:05.079 --> 01:20:12.399
to celebrate Christmas before Christmas, and so that was a

937
01:20:12.720 --> 01:20:16.840
roast dinner or Christmas dinner. It was weird because I

938
01:20:16.880 --> 01:20:19.680
thought the whole place was going to be busy and

939
01:20:19.800 --> 01:20:23.000
it wasn't. We were the only Christmas dinner there and

940
01:20:23.079 --> 01:20:27.000
everyone else is just in a pub but normal. I

941
01:20:27.079 --> 01:20:31.319
felt very a bit silly. I just figured the whole

942
01:20:31.680 --> 01:20:34.279
I really did. I thought the whole place would be busy,

943
01:20:34.840 --> 01:20:44.800
so it'd be kind of quite anonymous. Sitting there with

944
01:20:45.159 --> 01:20:49.760
Christmas hats on is not something I would normally do

945
01:20:49.840 --> 01:20:53.359
in a pub. I just know if everyone else is

946
01:20:53.399 --> 01:20:57.640
doing it, maybe but not. No, not the only table

947
01:20:59.560 --> 01:21:02.079
and were just sitting there. It's almost like we were

948
01:21:02.119 --> 01:21:04.520
celebrating Christmas in the summer. That's what it felt like

949
01:21:04.600 --> 01:21:12.239
a bit. So that was a Christmas dinner. Other than that,

950
01:21:12.479 --> 01:21:21.239
the last time I went out, Oh, the last time

951
01:21:21.439 --> 01:21:25.239
I went out, I did go to the Chilt, not

952
01:21:25.359 --> 01:21:32.119
to the Indian restaurant locally. I think that was ten

953
01:21:32.279 --> 01:21:35.239
years ago, ten years something like that. I did go

954
01:21:35.359 --> 01:21:39.479
to a pizza place, a pizza hut in town. I

955
01:21:39.560 --> 01:21:48.119
think that was also probably nine years ago, ten nine,

956
01:21:48.479 --> 01:21:53.399
ten years ago. I used to go to the Wimpye

957
01:21:53.439 --> 01:21:55.880
in town because there was a time when i'd go.

958
01:21:56.199 --> 01:22:00.279
I'd go out quite regularly, and that kind of used

959
01:22:00.359 --> 01:22:05.000
over the years. And I do I did go to

960
01:22:05.119 --> 01:22:11.239
McDonald's yesterday. No, I didn't eat in but I think

961
01:22:11.319 --> 01:22:14.600
it was even Monday or Tuesday. I went into McDonald's

962
01:22:15.159 --> 01:22:18.199
and had a meal in there, which is the first

963
01:22:18.239 --> 01:22:27.680
time I've done that in quite some time. Yeah, I

964
01:22:27.760 --> 01:22:29.439
think the last time I went there was when I

965
01:22:29.520 --> 01:22:32.800
went to have my I went to the doctors, and

966
01:22:32.880 --> 01:22:34.840
the doctors is like a little bit out the road,

967
01:22:35.800 --> 01:22:37.840
so I think I went to McDonald's after going to

968
01:22:37.920 --> 01:22:46.479
the doctors to have a check up. Yeah. So other

969
01:22:46.600 --> 01:22:51.640
than that, No, I don't. I don't go out. I

970
01:22:51.680 --> 01:22:56.560
don't really have any kind of fancy cuisine like French

971
01:22:56.800 --> 01:23:03.000
or Spanish, or Italian or Jamaica or Somalian or Thaie

972
01:23:04.520 --> 01:23:11.119
or German or I don't know what kind of Greek,

973
01:23:11.479 --> 01:23:14.159
you know. I don't. I've not really gone to many places,

974
01:23:15.319 --> 01:23:17.680
and I have been to places when I was living

975
01:23:17.720 --> 01:23:23.800
in London, I've been to. There's a Takeaspa, which wasn't

976
01:23:23.840 --> 01:23:30.199
act Spanish. I loved it, just so many different things

977
01:23:30.279 --> 01:23:34.159
to choose from. It's that perfect for me. I used

978
01:23:34.199 --> 01:23:35.920
to go there with my cousin. It's just up the

979
01:23:36.039 --> 01:23:44.760
road from where I lived. Outside of that, I'm trying

980
01:23:44.800 --> 01:23:46.640
to think I went to a pizza place, but that

981
01:23:46.800 --> 01:23:49.479
was that's a long time ago. I think I went

982
01:23:49.560 --> 01:23:55.439
to the me what was it? Not the pizza the

983
01:23:55.479 --> 01:23:59.640
Pizza Hut. It might have been the Pizza Hut, and

984
01:24:00.640 --> 01:24:09.119
it was back in two thousand and twelve December, not

985
01:24:09.239 --> 01:24:19.000
twenty twelve. Wow, Yeah, No, twenty thirteen December, I think

986
01:24:24.520 --> 01:24:28.840
I don't even know. No, twenty twelve December. I think

987
01:24:28.880 --> 01:24:34.800
it was really wow. What whoa, whoa, whoa. It's just

988
01:24:34.840 --> 01:24:37.880
a little while ago. That's the last time I had

989
01:24:37.880 --> 01:24:42.000
a pizza, I think in a restaurant. No, it's not.

990
01:24:42.239 --> 01:24:48.359
I had one with my ex girlfriend in I think

991
01:24:48.399 --> 01:24:52.079
i'd moved here and I've been in maybe a year,

992
01:24:52.560 --> 01:24:57.159
so thatut what he would have been around two thousand

993
01:24:57.239 --> 01:25:03.479
and sixteen, I guess because I moved here twenty fifteen.

994
01:25:08.880 --> 01:25:11.439
My normal dinner at the moment, I ate a fair

995
01:25:11.479 --> 01:25:18.279
amount of breakfast cereal and then sandwiches or something I

996
01:25:18.359 --> 01:25:23.840
can just stick in the air fier. It's just for me.

997
01:25:24.119 --> 01:25:26.920
Preparing food is a bit of a chore. I don't

998
01:25:26.960 --> 01:25:29.760
really want to be bothered with it, but I do it.

999
01:25:30.560 --> 01:25:34.279
But it's just bits and bobs. Really. I don't really

1000
01:25:35.560 --> 01:25:38.920
cook myself much as in like a full meal and

1001
01:25:39.039 --> 01:25:42.800
stuff like I used to when I was younger. All

1002
01:25:42.880 --> 01:25:44.479
I'm going to try and get back to that.

1003
01:25:44.600 --> 01:25:44.960
It's just.

1004
01:25:47.680 --> 01:25:49.560
Just don't feel like it a lot of the time.

1005
01:25:55.680 --> 01:26:00.479
Tina asks if there was a movey about you and Vinnie,

1006
01:26:01.319 --> 01:26:05.279
what song would be? What songs would be on your soundtrack?

1007
01:26:06.840 --> 01:26:09.199
I'd like dire straits. Why I worry to be one

1008
01:26:09.239 --> 01:26:23.399
on mine? O, Katina, I don't know. Wow, that's one

1009
01:26:23.439 --> 01:26:25.600
of the hardest questions I think I've ever been asked.

1010
01:26:27.000 --> 01:26:38.199
What songs there is? There are some songs that I

1011
01:26:38.239 --> 01:26:44.119
would have in my if it was a movie about me.

1012
01:26:45.199 --> 01:26:47.600
I can't think about him. I'm not sure what he

1013
01:26:47.640 --> 01:26:51.840
would like. But if I you for going back in

1014
01:26:51.960 --> 01:27:00.560
the past about me, I would mix together an ario

1015
01:27:01.640 --> 01:27:08.840
that happened on occurrence with a song of that particular period. So,

1016
01:27:09.239 --> 01:27:12.720
for example, when I was in the hospital having my

1017
01:27:12.760 --> 01:27:16.239
appendix out. There was two songs that were in the

1018
01:27:16.399 --> 01:27:19.439
charts or that I were two songs that I really

1019
01:27:19.640 --> 01:27:23.399
liked because I asked for them to be played on

1020
01:27:23.560 --> 01:27:29.439
the hospital radio. So one was totally Clips of the

1021
01:27:29.520 --> 01:27:35.399
Heart by Bonnoy Tyler and the everyone was down Under

1022
01:27:35.720 --> 01:27:40.399
by men at work? Do you come from a down up?

1023
01:27:40.560 --> 01:27:44.600
Do you come from? Do you come from a do

1024
01:27:44.680 --> 01:27:47.800
you what? Do you come from? A man? Down under? Well?

1025
01:27:47.840 --> 01:27:51.039
We mingle and then thunder can you hear? Can you

1026
01:27:51.119 --> 01:27:56.239
hear it? And tutor the clips of the hard turn

1027
01:27:56.520 --> 01:27:59.800
around even now, and then I get a little bit,

1028
01:28:00.239 --> 01:28:07.920
I mean they turn around? What other songs? And then

1029
01:28:09.119 --> 01:28:17.560
when I was about sixteen fifteen, sixteen fifteen, yeah, fifteen,

1030
01:28:18.880 --> 01:28:27.319
living in my step mother's my step grandmother's flat, Papa

1031
01:28:27.399 --> 01:28:32.279
Don't Preach from Madonna that was on. I watched that

1032
01:28:32.520 --> 01:28:37.920
video a few thousand times. I had actually had it

1033
01:28:38.000 --> 01:28:42.520
on video, and I was just I used to freeze

1034
01:28:42.600 --> 01:28:46.840
and stop it at certain points. I just used to

1035
01:28:46.920 --> 01:28:49.039
enjoy watching the dance Madonna.

1036
01:28:49.239 --> 01:28:49.479
I was.

1037
01:28:49.920 --> 01:28:52.039
I was kind of really in love with Madonna at

1038
01:28:52.079 --> 01:28:59.880
that time, I think. And then there was another period.

1039
01:29:00.399 --> 01:29:02.119
I know, I'm not including Vinie, and this said, I

1040
01:29:02.199 --> 01:29:04.439
am sorry, as kind of it seems to be like

1041
01:29:04.479 --> 01:29:08.960
a question i'd need to ask him, however strange that

1042
01:29:09.119 --> 01:29:15.800
might sound, I'm not really sure what it'd say. There

1043
01:29:15.920 --> 01:29:19.000
was a period that I got really stuck into this

1044
01:29:19.159 --> 01:29:23.159
particular song, which was blamed on the Boogie by the

1045
01:29:23.239 --> 01:29:29.479
Old Jackson's. And I don't know why I kept thinking

1046
01:29:29.520 --> 01:29:35.680
about this song, but it was nineteen eighty nine and

1047
01:29:36.159 --> 01:29:40.000
I'd lost my previous job working in a pub. I'd

1048
01:29:40.079 --> 01:29:47.920
walked out of that, and then I needed a new job,

1049
01:29:49.800 --> 01:29:52.319
and then I had some problems with the person I

1050
01:29:52.439 --> 01:29:54.359
was living with that was living in the house that

1051
01:29:54.399 --> 01:29:56.560
I was in, so I needed to get out of there.

1052
01:30:00.159 --> 01:30:02.800
Was kind of went a bit weird, and I remember

1053
01:30:03.239 --> 01:30:07.399
walking on to the pier just to get away from everything,

1054
01:30:07.439 --> 01:30:09.600
and it's a windy and it's just like the beginning

1055
01:30:09.680 --> 01:30:12.920
of the year, very windy and cold, and I just

1056
01:30:13.640 --> 01:30:15.159
just kept singing the.

1057
01:30:15.239 --> 01:30:18.880
Babies there was dancing when you see them. I don't

1058
01:30:18.920 --> 01:30:22.760
get no loving. That's no way believing on a certain shine,

1059
01:30:23.399 --> 01:30:26.840
believing in the moonlight, believing on a good time, believing

1060
01:30:26.920 --> 01:30:27.359
on a boy.

1061
01:30:28.159 --> 01:30:29.800
I don't know why, but I just kept singing it

1062
01:30:31.199 --> 01:30:37.159
and it's weird just at that moment. And then when

1063
01:30:37.199 --> 01:30:44.479
I went to France, picked up a hitchhiker on the

1064
01:30:44.560 --> 01:30:53.359
way to Kent. I was gonna stay in a tent

1065
01:30:53.720 --> 01:30:59.840
for a couple of weeks or a week, and because

1066
01:31:00.079 --> 01:31:03.239
a land lady and landlord were going away for some reason,

1067
01:31:03.279 --> 01:31:04.680
they didn't want to leave me in the flat on

1068
01:31:04.760 --> 01:31:10.880
my own, which I don't really understand what that was about,

1069
01:31:10.960 --> 01:31:15.840
but they didn't so they because I was looking after

1070
01:31:15.960 --> 01:31:22.319
their kid. But it was now summer holidays and the

1071
01:31:22.439 --> 01:31:26.359
kid had gone to be with the dad for I

1072
01:31:26.479 --> 01:31:31.960
think the holiday season, summer season, and they wanted to

1073
01:31:32.079 --> 01:31:34.159
go and they didn't want to they'd want me there,

1074
01:31:34.760 --> 01:31:37.000
so they kicked me out for a week. So I

1075
01:31:37.119 --> 01:31:40.000
went to Dover. They gave me a left because I

1076
01:31:40.039 --> 01:31:43.800
were going that way anyway, and picked up They picked

1077
01:31:43.840 --> 01:31:46.600
up a hitchhiker and away, which was annoying. She kept

1078
01:31:46.640 --> 01:31:54.880
talking to me, trying to make friends and stuff, and

1079
01:31:55.520 --> 01:31:59.079
so we both got got off at Dover. That's it.

1080
01:31:59.239 --> 01:32:02.159
Got off at Dover. He was going over to France

1081
01:32:02.279 --> 01:32:07.439
to see a friend. I ended up going to France

1082
01:32:07.479 --> 01:32:12.479
with him, so he went to France, spent I don't

1083
01:32:12.479 --> 01:32:14.760
know how many days. It was a week or so,

1084
01:32:15.399 --> 01:32:25.600
just traveling around France, going through the Alps, hitchhiking, walking trains.

1085
01:32:25.840 --> 01:32:28.600
It is a bit of everything, you know. So we

1086
01:32:28.760 --> 01:32:39.600
traveled across France. I think, BlimE me, Oh yeah, his

1087
01:32:39.800 --> 01:32:42.880
friend was teaching a rock climbing. That's it.

1088
01:32:45.039 --> 01:32:45.680
And then.

1089
01:32:47.159 --> 01:32:52.880
We came back, went to Paris and went back that way.

1090
01:32:53.239 --> 01:32:59.000
But I just that period. I remember being in the

1091
01:33:03.960 --> 01:33:05.920
I don't know if it was in Dover or if

1092
01:33:05.960 --> 01:33:08.319
it was in Calais, but I was in one place

1093
01:33:08.439 --> 01:33:13.119
where on the monitor, the TV screen, they were playing

1094
01:33:14.840 --> 01:33:21.640
like a prayer. It's Madonna's main song from the album,

1095
01:33:22.359 --> 01:33:26.319
after the one that she was singing Papa Don't Preach,

1096
01:33:26.399 --> 01:33:31.239
which was True Blue. So yeah, that'd be a song

1097
01:33:31.319 --> 01:33:48.560
for that period. I don't know. I guess it's just

1098
01:33:48.680 --> 01:33:53.760
different songs at different times of my life with Vinnie.

1099
01:33:53.920 --> 01:34:06.199
I don't know what song knew. I mean, there was

1100
01:34:06.239 --> 01:34:09.359
one song I remember the Smiths. There's a song called

1101
01:34:09.479 --> 01:34:13.680
last Night I Dreamt Somebody Loved Me and such a

1102
01:34:13.720 --> 01:34:18.760
good song. I really like it, and that would be

1103
01:34:18.920 --> 01:34:24.000
quite representative of certain parts of my life in the past.

1104
01:34:32.760 --> 01:34:35.439
There was another song when I was trying to do

1105
01:34:35.640 --> 01:34:42.119
my dissertation for my degree. There was I was really

1106
01:34:42.279 --> 01:34:46.359
struggling to do it. I mean, in reality it almost loud,

1107
01:34:46.399 --> 01:34:51.640
wasn't it. Again, in reality, it wasn't difficult. I just

1108
01:34:51.760 --> 01:34:55.600
wasn't interested in what I was doing. I wasn't interested

1109
01:34:55.760 --> 01:35:02.159
in the subject. I was interested in counseling. But the

1110
01:35:02.399 --> 01:35:05.840
specific dissertation I had to do, which is I think

1111
01:35:05.880 --> 01:35:09.319
it was? Was it fifty thousand words? I can't remember.

1112
01:35:12.720 --> 01:35:15.079
I just could. I did it, but I just it

1113
01:35:15.359 --> 01:35:19.800
took everything. But what I did. I started listening to

1114
01:35:19.960 --> 01:35:23.640
this song that really perked me up, and it was

1115
01:35:25.920 --> 01:35:30.399
I think it was not R Kelly. What's his name?

1116
01:35:32.840 --> 01:35:40.560
I forget his name, big Star, but I forget his name.

1117
01:35:40.880 --> 01:35:42.520
I think it was Will i Am was on the

1118
01:35:42.600 --> 01:35:49.800
thing boom boom, let me hear you go ooh ooh,

1119
01:35:50.880 --> 01:35:54.920
let me hear you go oh, let me hear go ooh.

1120
01:35:58.760 --> 01:36:05.760
That wasn't a good impression of the song. Yeah, it wasn't.

1121
01:36:05.800 --> 01:36:16.279
Actually whoops lemerhugel bang bang No. I think I think

1122
01:36:16.319 --> 01:36:33.680
in the two different songs, Yeah, I don't really know

1123
01:36:33.840 --> 01:36:42.039
what song I would represent Vinnie other than he's just

1124
01:36:42.159 --> 01:36:48.039
a naughty Boy, sometimes Sleeping Beauty. If there's a song there,

1125
01:36:53.119 --> 01:36:58.680
mm hmm, I mean if I was too, Yeah, if

1126
01:36:59.239 --> 01:37:03.600
if it was a sound track to my life, there

1127
01:37:03.640 --> 01:37:10.359
would be. See even I think it's not even so

1128
01:37:10.479 --> 01:37:13.479
much a soundtrack about what's going on for me, more

1129
01:37:13.720 --> 01:37:18.239
just what I was listening to at that time. So

1130
01:37:18.720 --> 01:37:24.319
when I was very very young, I remember sitting laying

1131
01:37:24.439 --> 01:37:27.720
down in a bed or something, and I could see

1132
01:37:27.760 --> 01:37:31.840
the radio, and the radio was playing Gary Glitter I

1133
01:37:32.000 --> 01:37:36.399
Love You Love like I Love you, Love you Love

1134
01:37:36.479 --> 01:37:40.640
me to love, I love you love me Love Ooh,

1135
01:37:41.520 --> 01:37:44.640
I love you Loving it And it was such a

1136
01:37:44.720 --> 01:37:49.000
good song. I really liked it. But I'm not even

1137
01:37:49.039 --> 01:37:51.000
sure if I could talk at that point, but I

1138
01:37:51.199 --> 01:37:54.279
liked listening to that song. That's really what year was

1139
01:37:54.319 --> 01:37:59.199
that I Love You Love? It was in the seventies.

1140
01:38:05.479 --> 01:38:13.119
I Love you isn't it weird? It's not coming up? Okay?

1141
01:38:13.439 --> 01:38:20.159
Got it now? Nineteen seventy three, so yeah, I was.

1142
01:38:24.520 --> 01:38:31.479
It was another number one in nineteen seventy three, so yeah,

1143
01:38:31.520 --> 01:38:36.319
i'd have been two two and a half. I don't

1144
01:38:36.359 --> 01:38:38.279
know exactly when it came out. Let's have a look,

1145
01:38:39.119 --> 01:38:43.119
what what month did it come out in? The UK

1146
01:38:44.079 --> 01:38:47.199
because they were playing it all November nineteen seventy three,

1147
01:38:47.279 --> 01:38:51.279
so I would have been three. It spent four weeks

1148
01:38:51.319 --> 01:38:59.680
at the top of the charts. Okay, yeah, so it was.

1149
01:39:00.000 --> 01:39:02.439
It was a really good, good song. So I remember

1150
01:39:02.600 --> 01:39:05.319
hearing that and lying down in my maybe it was

1151
01:39:05.439 --> 01:39:08.920
my cot It's weird I've got that memory though, at

1152
01:39:08.960 --> 01:39:13.560
being so young. I just remember the song because it

1153
01:39:13.680 --> 01:39:16.479
was like like the radio used to be, they'd be

1154
01:39:16.600 --> 01:39:23.079
playing the same songs very irregularly. I've got another memory

1155
01:39:23.239 --> 01:39:27.000
of in the children's home in South End on the

1156
01:39:27.119 --> 01:39:31.119
radio then playing Rock around the Clock like but quite

1157
01:39:31.199 --> 01:39:34.880
often one to three o'clock, four o'clock Rock, four o'clock,

1158
01:39:34.920 --> 01:39:37.920
five o'clock, nine o'clock Rock, seven o'clock, two o'clock, five

1159
01:39:37.920 --> 01:39:43.079
o'clock Rock, Gone a Rock six round the clock, And

1160
01:39:44.079 --> 01:39:47.279
and I thought, I remember looking that up, Rock around

1161
01:39:48.880 --> 01:39:55.199
the Clock, Rock around the Clock. So of course it

1162
01:39:55.319 --> 01:40:00.399
was a huge hit in the fifties, but also charted

1163
01:40:00.600 --> 01:40:04.520
in the sixties and the seventies in the UK. So

1164
01:40:04.640 --> 01:40:16.840
let's seven, look, suver, look, let's sever look, let's sever

1165
01:40:16.960 --> 01:40:24.560
look so charts nineteen fifty six. Oh okay, so we

1166
01:40:24.720 --> 01:40:30.439
charted in nineteen fifty five fifty six, it was, yeah,

1167
01:40:30.479 --> 01:40:41.439
a huge hit in in Oh. I don't know, we're

1168
01:40:41.479 --> 01:40:46.039
definitely in America, I don't know, doesn't oh UK singles. Yeah,

1169
01:40:46.039 --> 01:40:49.760
it was number one here as well, and then it

1170
01:40:49.920 --> 01:40:55.119
was also number forty one in nineteen sixty six, then

1171
01:40:55.239 --> 01:41:01.239
nineteen sixty eight. It was released again in nineteen seventy four.

1172
01:41:04.439 --> 01:41:08.279
See that doesn't make sense to me. Nineteen seventy four,

1173
01:41:10.720 --> 01:41:14.600
which makes you wonder how long was I that in

1174
01:41:14.720 --> 01:41:17.720
that children's home. But then just the fact that they

1175
01:41:17.760 --> 01:41:19.560
were playing it on the radio doesn't mean that's just

1176
01:41:19.680 --> 01:41:23.279
been released. But it was number twelve in the UK singles,

1177
01:41:26.640 --> 01:41:29.880
so I just remember them playing it. One, two, three o'clock,

1178
01:41:29.960 --> 01:41:33.439
four o'clock Rock, five, six, seven o'clock, eared o'clock rock.

1179
01:41:35.439 --> 01:41:38.319
I'll tell you something strange about that song. For me,

1180
01:41:39.119 --> 01:41:44.000
it's got an atmosphere there's Maybe it's because I used

1181
01:41:44.039 --> 01:41:47.720
to hear it in weird periods of my life, maybe,

1182
01:41:49.279 --> 01:41:51.680
but there's a feeling connected to that song. For me.

1183
01:41:53.159 --> 01:41:56.720
It's a strange feeling. It's not a horrible feeling. It's

1184
01:41:56.760 --> 01:42:03.399
just a certain emotion and connected to it and the

1185
01:42:03.600 --> 01:42:10.239
sound of it. It's unlike any other song. To me,

1186
01:42:10.800 --> 01:42:14.239
it's just that one, two, three, club four o'clock. But

1187
01:42:14.880 --> 01:42:19.840
verse six, I don't know, something unique. I mean all

1188
01:42:19.840 --> 01:42:23.720
I know all songs are probably uniquey in some way,

1189
01:42:23.800 --> 01:42:27.800
but this was just and then he had it. I

1190
01:42:27.880 --> 01:42:30.640
want to shake rail and roll. I want to shake

1191
01:42:30.840 --> 01:42:34.560
roll and roll, So that one as well, And I

1192
01:42:34.680 --> 01:42:37.880
imagine that's probably got re released this quite often as well,

1193
01:42:39.000 --> 01:42:52.000
quite often. Ah is interesting Bill Haley and the comics,

1194
01:42:52.680 --> 01:43:09.640
Is that right? Bill Haley and the comics. Let's have

1195
01:43:09.760 --> 01:43:16.399
a look. I want to check. The thing is they

1196
01:43:16.479 --> 01:43:21.640
all looked really old for some reason. They looked quite

1197
01:43:21.760 --> 01:43:30.239
old in the like in the videos. I mean, you know,

1198
01:43:30.359 --> 01:43:34.319
from the fifties and stuff. They looked quite old there

1199
01:43:35.399 --> 01:43:41.600
what Bill Haley did. But in reality he probably wasn't

1200
01:43:41.680 --> 01:43:44.439
he just because it was all in black and white.

1201
01:43:44.600 --> 01:43:48.640
It was born nineteen twenty five, thirty five, forty five,

1202
01:43:48.840 --> 01:43:52.880
fifty five, so yeah, it was like twenty eight probably

1203
01:43:52.920 --> 01:43:59.520
at the time, twenty two, twenty twenty eight, twenty twenty six.

1204
01:44:00.439 --> 01:44:05.359
They're not exactly old as it. He just had his face.

1205
01:44:06.119 --> 01:44:07.760
It's weird though, because if you look at him, he's

1206
01:44:07.800 --> 01:44:10.119
got that that what that that crooked smile a bit

1207
01:44:10.199 --> 01:44:14.800
like Elvis, and he had his and he was a

1208
01:44:14.840 --> 01:44:22.439
round before Elvis, wasn't he? I think nineteen fifty two?

1209
01:44:23.039 --> 01:44:27.680
When did Elvis decide to pop up? Was it nineteen

1210
01:44:27.720 --> 01:44:35.039
fifty four or was it nineteen fifty six? I'm not sure.

1211
01:44:39.159 --> 01:44:43.000
I want chic around and roll. I want chic around

1212
01:44:43.039 --> 01:44:46.119
and roll. Do do do Do Do Do do do

1213
01:44:46.319 --> 01:45:17.720
do hm? Okay, all right, yeah, I'm just wondering how

1214
01:45:17.760 --> 01:45:22.399
many hits he had. How many hits did Shake Rout

1215
01:45:22.479 --> 01:45:33.680
and roll Man have. Billy Bill Hayley nineteen fifty six

1216
01:45:36.640 --> 01:45:41.239
studio albums, Okay, no singles. I want to know about

1217
01:45:41.279 --> 01:45:46.520
the singles. Fifty two, nineteen fifty two. Stop beating around

1218
01:45:46.600 --> 01:45:54.439
the mulberry bush? Okay, I will stop. Crazy Man Crazy,

1219
01:45:54.840 --> 01:46:00.439
Patty Cake? Why does that sound for me? You are

1220
01:46:02.479 --> 01:46:07.720
fifty three? Live it up, Live it up, Leave it up?

1221
01:46:11.399 --> 01:46:15.079
So the US in America number twelve, and these were

1222
01:46:15.079 --> 01:46:18.359
all in the top thirty. So that's a hit, isn't

1223
01:46:18.359 --> 01:46:24.359
that really? Crazy Man Crazy was number twelve? And then

1224
01:46:25.600 --> 01:46:32.359
Live it Up? Why does that sound familiar? Chattanooga Chu Chu?

1225
01:46:34.119 --> 01:46:39.199
I wonder why that didn't hit? Yes, Indeed, the nineteen

1226
01:46:39.199 --> 01:46:44.800
fifty four Rock around the Clock and then Shake rout

1227
01:46:44.920 --> 01:46:49.399
and Roll. That wasn't as successful, but it's still a hit.

1228
01:46:52.479 --> 01:47:01.239
Birth of the Boogie wasn't so much razzle dazzle, burn

1229
01:47:01.359 --> 01:47:05.600
that candle, rock a beat boogie, See you Later, Alligator,

1230
01:47:06.399 --> 01:47:10.840
see you Later, Alligator, in a While, Crocodile, see you Later,

1231
01:47:10.840 --> 01:47:20.840
Age in a While, Crocodile, and in the minute Rock

1232
01:47:21.000 --> 01:47:27.199
the Saints, see you Later. I think that would be

1233
01:47:27.239 --> 01:47:31.680
the same kind of sounders Rock around the Clock as well,

1234
01:47:36.640 --> 01:47:44.880
Lean Jean Rock around the Clock re release ah nineteen

1235
01:47:44.960 --> 01:47:48.800
seventy four, Shake Rattling and rolls on the back, and

1236
01:47:48.920 --> 01:47:52.520
then again later on they released see You Later Alligator.

1237
01:47:53.399 --> 01:47:56.319
Now I'm looking at this, I'm thinking, yeah, that's why

1238
01:47:57.560 --> 01:48:00.920
they didn't re release see You Later Adigator in any

1239
01:48:00.960 --> 01:48:05.920
other country according to this, except England or the UK.

1240
01:48:06.880 --> 01:48:09.920
So Rock around o'clock went to number twelve in the UK,

1241
01:48:11.159 --> 01:48:15.239
and See You Late, Radygaya went to number fifty two

1242
01:48:17.760 --> 01:48:27.880
nineteen seventy four. I'm sure that's that said nineteen seventy three,

1243
01:48:27.960 --> 01:48:36.359
though earlier. See this is Wikipedia not always correct, not

1244
01:48:36.760 --> 01:48:46.960
always correct. Me me, me, me, me, Oh, what have

1245
01:48:47.039 --> 01:48:48.039
I got any emails?

1246
01:48:51.760 --> 01:48:51.800
No?

1247
01:48:52.399 --> 01:49:04.079
No, no, no, no junk mail, just yeah, nothing. I

1248
01:49:04.159 --> 01:49:06.479
think I might have answered all the questions. I'm sorry

1249
01:49:06.520 --> 01:49:08.600
they're not very good. I'm not done a very good

1250
01:49:08.680 --> 01:49:16.199
job today. I think Tina with the if I was

1251
01:49:16.279 --> 01:49:19.560
going to do a new movie in my life, there's

1252
01:49:19.840 --> 01:49:22.319
I think I just want all the best, all the

1253
01:49:22.439 --> 01:49:24.680
songs that I like the best or that I really

1254
01:49:24.800 --> 01:49:37.279
love to be played throughout. But there's quite a few.

1255
01:49:39.199 --> 01:49:54.880
There's quite a few songs. Yeah, that's a lot of songs.

1256
01:49:56.760 --> 01:49:59.239
So I'm finding myself falling asleep. So I'm going to

1257
01:49:59.319 --> 01:50:03.520
go thank you. If you hear any pauses, it's just

1258
01:50:03.680 --> 01:50:07.399
me the drifting off, So thank you for listening. Remember

1259
01:50:07.479 --> 01:50:10.359
to be kind to yourself because you do deserve to

1260
01:50:10.399 --> 01:50:13.479
be happy, and be gentle of yourself because you deserve

1261
01:50:13.560 --> 01:50:18.720
to feel safe. Lots of love. Bye,