June 20, 2025

(music) Q&A Friday | LMBYTS #1380 | Jason Newland | 20th June 2025

(music) Q&A Friday | LMBYTS #1380 | Jason Newland | 20th June 2025
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Hello and welcome to Q and A Friday on this lovely, sunny,

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warm Friday, the twentieth of Dewane, two thousand and twenty five. Hello,

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or please only listen when you can safely close your

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eyes and this is let me bore you to sleep

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or lmb y yes, then no, So I just want

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to say a big welcome to the Jason Newlands boring

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Group two two Kerry and Julie. Ironically there's two Julie's

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exactly the same name, different joined at different times. But

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just yeah, what I got. So Mike posted a comment.

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He asked me, you mentioned recently that the heat was

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getting to you. How hot has it been there recently?

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It was pretty pretty hot. It's I really felt it

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just now because I've just been out with Vinnie and

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what is it. It's three thirty five. So I got

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home about a half hour ago, maybe a little bit longer.

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It didn't feel particularly hot out more, but I didn't,

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you know. But then I sat down, I was like,

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but I think that's because I have more clothes on

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now than I had when I went out. Let me explain.

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I actually was shorts. I know, I know, but I

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did wash shorts not something that I normally do pretty

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much ever, but I did a war shorts and it's

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so much nicer than these blue tracksuit bottoms that have

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got holes in them. It's yeah, I have to have

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to make a change to the older tracksuit bottoms, but

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that will come entire my mama, Mama. Next week, I'm

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going to buy some new ones, a new pair. And yeah,

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so what's happened near I had a shower. I didn't

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have a shave because I am charging my razor up

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because I didn't have a shave or trim. I've been

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trying to keep everything trim, and when I say everything,

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I'm talking about my face and trying to keep my

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like my beard the same length as my hair on

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my head kind of all kind of the same, very

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short but the same length. But I've let it go

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probably over a week now. So I was trimming it

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every at least twice a week, but I've let it

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grow a little bit. So I'm gonna when my rais

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is charged, I'm gonna have a little go have a

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little play with it and see if i can get

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it sorted out. So, yeah, it's been hot all over

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the place. Apparently that heat does bring out the yawns

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in me. It really does. Apparently yawning is very therapeutic

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from a psychological perspective. It does. It produces certain I'm

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gonna say hemorrhoids, then not hemorrhoids. I don't know, hormonies

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or whatever that make you feel relaxed. Hemorrhoids. I wrote

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hemorrhoids on the brain. I haven't BlimE me, just let

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you understand where my brain's kept.

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So no, no, no, don't.

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Just been watching the the Parliament channel. Well, I actually

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haven't been watching the main news. Are big things just happened?

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A big new laws has come through in the UK,

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which some people will be happy about. Some people I

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guess it won't be. There's always you know, there's going

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to be different people believing different things. But I'm not

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going to go into it. But I wish I had

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been around for my friend back in the late nineties.

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But they go there is a bit of background sound,

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but background music down stairs, so I don't know if

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you can hear it a lot. Nothing I can do

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about it. And I can sit here and not make

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a recording, or I can sit here and make a recording.

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I'd rather sit here and make a recording because otherwise

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I'm sitting here just listening to that music and it's loud.

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To me.

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It's not that loud, really, but it's if I had

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a TV and I could probably cover it up.

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But I'm not really, not really in a mood to

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watch TV really, ill kind of. I'm dedicated to see

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I'm dedicated to making the Q and A Fridays every Friday,

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which I've been doing for over a year now, BlimE me,

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over a.

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Year, you believe it, over a year. I'm just gonna

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have a look. How many Let Me Boy the sleeps

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have I done? Last one I did was last let

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Me Boy I did. It was yesterday, number one thousand,

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three hundred and seventy nine. That's quite a lot in it.

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Quite a lot.

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I actually have all already done. Two recordings today. One

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was a sleep Deep Sleep Whisper one and another one

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with a relaxation hypnosis for stress number two hundred and

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forty three, The Deep Sleep Whisper Hypnosis five hundred and

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thirty eight. There's a lot of recordings. I'm not sure

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if my mouth is too far away from the microphone,

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but I hope it's all right. I kind of think

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it gets it's a little bit, a little bit more

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of an echo, not an echo, but a bit more.

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My voice is a bit more high pitched when it's

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the microphone's and I'm not the other side of the

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room from the microphone. Should I just show you what

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it sounds like if I move it a bit closer.

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That was too close. I think that's about it. That's right, Okay,

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moved it a bit. Could you understand what I said?

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I said, I want some pizza? Right, I'm trying to think.

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I can't think of any other things to really update

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you on, really, so I just suppose I just get

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on all the questions. Oh, oh my goodness. So I've

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got four questions. So it's not many, but it's more

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than last week. Oops, just banged the microphone. Sorry. So

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I've got questions from Hope, Tammy Ing and Allie. So

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what's the first question? What did I do yesterday? I'm

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sure did something that I've or did something today. I

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don't know if you can hear all the scream in

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the garden. It's summer, the windows are open, people are

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out enjoying the summer. I can't. I'm not going to

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complain about it. I'm not really. I mean I can't

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really can I insist like people can have fun and

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stuff just because I'm.

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A I'm a miserable old man, miserable old get sitting

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in my flat making podcasts instead of running around on

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the grass screaming.

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You know, it's each to their own in it. So

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Hope says, what is your favorite animal? What asks what

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is your favorite animal? And why? I would probably so

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I'd break that up into three categories, because there's my

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favorite animals. See, I know birds are animals, but I

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kind of I like birds. I just really like birds,

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even small birds all the way out to you know,

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golden eagles and falcons and especially birds of prey. I

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love watching them flying around. We have falcons, and we

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have buzzards and stuff we don't have. As far as

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I know, there's no golden eagles in this country. But

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there's no there are no barriers to stop birds from

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all over the world coming here. You know, there's no

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there's no borders, there's you know, they can just fly

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where they want cont they So, if if a golden

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egger wanted to for whatever reason, come and fly and

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spend time in my town, then it could if it

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wanted to, But we don't get flamingos. I think some

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birds is a limit to how far they're willing to

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fly or can fly. But at the same time, I

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don't know if that's true. I made it up because

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flamingos might actually fly for thousands and thousands of miles,

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maybe twenty thousand miles. And and there's flamingos in America

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and America, what is it eight thousand miles away from here?

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It's not that far away. Maybe it's is it eight

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thousand maybe less four thousand and five thousand miles away?

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So maybe flamingos can come here choose not to because

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it's not really their scene. They get seagulls everywhere all

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over the world, don't you, So they clearly they don't

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need that. They've clearly traveled around, but they don't need to.

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I sometimes think maybe they just travel. They just like

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all this because they can hitch lifts, can't They on

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boats and stuff. So a seagull doesn't even have to

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fly across the ocean. You can just sit on one

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of the sails. Because we all still use sales on ships,

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don't We like the eighteen hundreds. I don't know what

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I'm talking about. Like the pirate days, why is it

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the pirates? Pirates they're just not as not as cuddly

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as they used to be, are they remember the pirates

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of the old days have been like Kirk Douglas and

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maybe have a patch and her eye, but they'd be

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they might have a hook on their hand, but they'd

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be kind of they'd be gritty, they'd be tough, but

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they'd still be quite gentle at times. You could, I

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don't know. I just i'd look at Captain Hooks sometimes,

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you know in peter Pan or never Land or whatever

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you want to call it. I just look and I thought, yeah,

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he's a tough man. He's clearly he's had a difficult

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life and scavenging, and you know he's had to keep

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all of his people in his crew in touch and

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make sure that everyone does what they're supposed to do,

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and running the ship's not easy. So he comes across

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as a very tough man. But underneath that big beard

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and the hat and the eye patch and the old

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parrot on his shoulder and the hook for a hand,

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I could kind of get a sense that he is

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a considerate lover. You know, I just kind of got

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that he was a gentle gentle very. It's like you'd think, well,

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what could he do if he wasn't a pirate? And

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I would say, possibly be a carer. But someone laughs,

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say no, Captain Cook, that can be a care But

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I just I got that sense when I looked at him.

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I thought this and compassion there because people who have

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been through a lot know what it's like, so they

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kind of they they know that. I think it's that

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part that wants to help others. That's what I got

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from Captain Captain Cook. Now, the modern day pirates don't

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don't seem to be his cud leaps, not as not

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as lovable as the old ones. I don't know why.

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What's your favorite animal? And why talking about pirates? I

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don't get it. You're vinced, like vinced hermy cuddles, that's it,

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That's all right. I guess good boy, good boy. He

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just just lay there and good boy. I think he's

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a little bit flustered with his heat. He's got water.

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It's not like he knows I'm talking about him. Don't

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you know that? Don't you? The things I bought these

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t R E e e e E t s earlier, Yes,

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the day. Yeah, and he's eating the lord of them already,

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and they're like nearly four pound. I mean, he could

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get through a pack of Day. It's ridiculous he can't

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because I'm not I'm not buying a pack of Day.

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But it just seems a shame that is because they're

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like these chicken stick things that he loves them, really

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loves them, but he gets through them so quickly, so

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so so quickly. And I want to say a big

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high to Ben as well again and I always mentioned this,

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but I just want to say thank you to Ben

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for the other day, for your kind words. And there

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was another post here where is it? There was another

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post that I've not read out. I don't know where

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it is. Let me have a look, let me have

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a look, and maybe it's oh, maybe it's there. Sorry,

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I'm sorry. Uh nope, do you ever? Oh what I'm

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I'm pretty sure that was weird. I just I got

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feedback in my own ear. Then I kind of got

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like fuzzy feed back in my left ear. How weird?

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H Where is it? I had a lovely comment, Hope

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says lol, loved the pic. Thank you? That was for

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Yesterday's a busy day. That was a good pick. It's

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a picture of me and Vinnie. Vinnie's got a hat

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on his sunglasses. I've got sunglasses and for some reason,

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I've got less hair than I actually have at the front.

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I don't know what's going on there. And Oh, can't

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find it. There was a comment. There was a lovely comment,

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and I can't find it. This is one of the

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problems that I have. Oh Hope wrote I love it

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when you yawn. I get sympathetic yawns and it helps

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me feel sleepy. Thank you. There was a particular maybe

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it was a message. I'm sure it was a comment though,

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and it wouldn't been probably on any other of the

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I think, Ah, that's gonna that's gonna wind me up now,

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not being able to find that. If you posted a

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comment on my Facebook page and I haven't responded, I

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apologize because I think because basically, I've been posting so

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much stuff lately. I've been making a lot of recordings

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the last hm hmmm, a few days. But I yeah,

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I basically I can't find it. It was about Spotify.

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I can't it was about Spotify. I can't find it anyway,

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I do apologize because there were Natasha. Oh Natasha, it

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was Natasha's message. Hi Natasha, so sorry, I've only just

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seen this. I'll be listening on Spotify and Jason. You

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have been a godsend. You helped me massively with my sleep.

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Thank you, Natasha. It's very kind of you. Oh that

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was welcoming Natasha to the group. That was like from

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the fifteenth of June. So that's all right, Natasha. Is

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The thing is, because I've got tendency of keep post stuff,

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I lose track of my own recordings. I generally do

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do do do do do do ooh ooh ooh ooh, whoops, right,

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let me go back, let me go back, let me

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go back. So I just just lost my place. Right

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coming back, I am. I'm going to do the Do

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you have any questions? Here we go questions? What is

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your favorite animal and why? If you'd have asked me

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that three years ago, I would have said my My

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instant answer would have been a ferrit. It's very hard

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for me, having this little doggie next to me, to

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be giving favor over, you know, to something, to a

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different animal over him. So I feel I need to

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say for me, it's not. If I was going to

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like a particular animal, then it's Vinnie and Andre, although

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Andre is not with me anymore, but you know Vinny,

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he's the one that, you know, my favorite animal that

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actually I think what you're asking, hope is what is

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my favorite not who is my favorite animal? What is

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my favorite animal? What type of animal? I wonder if

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I can send this to the television? This is exciting?

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Can I can? I can? I can? I can? I

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Can I send this to the television? How do I

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display settings? And no, doesn't seem to do it. I

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can do it on my iPad and my phone, but

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I don't know if I can do on the laptop. Right,

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It's a favorite animal.

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I've always had, well not always, but I really like

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penguins because I did a spiritual not spiritual what is

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it called.

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A dream thing? A dream to find my dream or

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my spiritual animal, and a penguin was it. And it

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was something to do with the tenacity, the never giving up.

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Some would argue that I'm always giving up, but actually

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I never give up. I just dropped certain things, but

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I never give up. You know. It's a weird one,

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hard to explain, really, yeah, but I don't. Yeah, I don't.

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I mean, I've given up a lot of things, but

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I never give up the most important things, which is

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this to me. I mean, to me, this is the

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most important thing. And I would never give up on

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this little boy here, so and I hope I'd never

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give up on myself either. But other things along the road.

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You know, I used to be quite attached to my hair.

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I've given up on that now. It's kind of okay,

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fair enough. I'm pollically challenged now, and the fact I

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keep mentioning it means that I'm not okay with it.

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But there's certain things you can do. I could have

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a My hair is not that bad that i'd need

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a hair transplant necessarily, but I could go down that road.

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I'm not going to. I would never do that. It's

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not really, it's not me. I understand why some people do,

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especially maybe some really young people. You know, someone's in

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their twenties. They might want to go down that road.

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I'm in my mid fifties. There's I don't know. I

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don't think anyone even looks at me anyway, so no

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one's going to notice if I'm bored or not bored.

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I could walk around with I just covered my head

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with peanut butter and walk around and no one will

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probably notice, maybe because that's how a normally walk around.

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Did it did No, people don't look at me anymore so,

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but I'm not sure if they ever did. But fifty

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five pretty much invisible. But I learned being invisible. Being

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invisible does not mean that you can walk through walls. Yeah,

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I don't know why why I thought that. I hurt myself.

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Uh.

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Not a big fan of seagulls. I do like birds,

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but seagulls are the ones that I just I just

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find them a little bit, a little bit too much,

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a little bit just a little bit like I don't

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know what it is. I think they're nice on the beach,

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you know, the sound of seagulls and the waves and

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the sea and that's a nice sound. But you know,

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I do like the sounds of the birds in the trees,

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the tree outside here, and that's one of the best

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things about living here really for me. Auditarily. I like

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the you know, I like the sounds of the birds.

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I don't ever really get bored with birds, you know,

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they don't it don't keep me awake, It don't it

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don't disturb me. I find it very relaxing. Even if

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it's pigeons, not so much, you know, but one of

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my best friends as a pigeon, Horace, so I can't.

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I'm not gonna be prejudiced against pigeons, but they can

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be a little bit, a little bit demanding. Sometimes they're

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a little bit like you ever have a friend that

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will phone you and then just keep phoning you until

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you answer. They won't take the hint. You know, You

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change your number and they still find out your number

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and phone you. You move to a different country and

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they still find out where you're live in. You know.

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Just that's what pigeons are like. I mean, Horace has

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been following me around for about thirty five years, so

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I used to he used to be in Strafford with me. Serious.

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He did look a lot different back then, though half

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the size. So favorite animal probably ferret, you know, if

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we're going to move Vinnie out of this Dogs are okay.

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I'm not really a dog person, as good as maybe

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as it sounds weird considering I've got a dog, but

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not really. I love dog loved dogs are nice, but

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I'm not like I like little dogs, and I've got

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a little dog, but I would never want a big dog.

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It's just not I had a big dog when I

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was a kid that I had one of the biggest

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dogs you could have, a Saint Bernard when for the

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last year and a half or whatever of being at home,

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as when I was at school, so that was yeah.

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I just I don't know. I just everyone's got their preference.

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And I like little dogs, even like two hours or

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poodles stuff like that. They're the ones. And I know

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some people wouldn't want to walk around the street with

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a pink poodle, like some men wouldn't want to do that,

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but I don't care like it. It's there's nothing I

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don't I don't find masculinities got anything to do with

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whether or not i'd die my poodle pink and put

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bows in their ears and we're matching outfits with her.

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I wi also wear a collar and walk onlor fours.

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I don't think that determines what kind of a person

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I am, or maybe it does. Oh dear, what am

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I talking about? What's my favorite animal? M always like

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monkeys when I was little, loved monkeys. See, I grew

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up in an age in an age back in the

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day in it used to be a lot of monkeys

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about on television, so we had things like PG tips.

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There was monkeys on there. There was Clyde, the Orangutang

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that was on. It's on a few few movies actually

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every which way but loose every which way you can,

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which was Clint Eastwood loved them movies and also he

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was in i think one of the cannon Ball Run movies,

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maybe both of them, and very likely at other things

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as well. I think he was always called I think

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he was always called Clyde. See what those cannon Ball

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Run films did. If anyone who doesn't know what a

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cannon Ball Run movie is, I think there was two.

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Both had do you believe? Both had Burt Reynolds in them,

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and he got paid huge amounts of money to make them.

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I was a big fan of Burt Reynolds. I just

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think he had the charisma he had on screen was just,

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I don't know something about him. It wasn't that he

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was kind of oscary kind of material. I'm sure he

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could have. I don't know, he might want an oscar,

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but he just had a really really nice personality on screen.

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And my favorites were the Cannonball Run movies that he did,

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but he also did Oh Smoking the Bandit as well,

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didn't he so, And that was basically Smoking the Band

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It was almost the same as the Cannonball Run movies.

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But what the Cannonball Run movies did is they got

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all the stars of the day all together, or some

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of the stars of yesterday, you know, all these Really

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everyone in it was famous pretty much. There was a

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couple of newer people. For example, Jackie Chan was in it.

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And I don't think anyone really outside of the martial

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arts world knew who Jackie Chan was at that time

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because it was the early eighties. He was a big

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star in the Oriental world, but in you know, in

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America and in the English speaking world, it was only

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really people that watched Kung Kung fu movies that really

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wouldn't know who he was. And then he had he

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had Jaws, Richard Keel he was in it. He had

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Clyde Dean Martin I think was in it. So many

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famous people in those movies, I'm surprised if they made

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any money at all. Actually, the budget must have been huge,

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and they were funny as well. It was just slapstick comedy,

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and it was just a big race, all lots of

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different people in cars, just racing. And there was was

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it Charlie's Angels. A couple of Charlie's Angels was in

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it as well, I think, and I'm trying to think

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who else? Yeah, there was loads. I can't think. I

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don't I was going to say, I don't have the

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I do have the information in front of me.

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What am I doing?

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I can look it up? Can I? What did I

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call it? Cannon Ball run canon bore run cast? So

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Cannonball run cast, Burt Reynolds, Roger bare Far, aforce it,

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dom de Lu's Okay, So I'm just gonna read out

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the ones that I've heard of. I probably do know him,

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but I just don't re recognize the name. Dean Martin,

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Sammy Davis Jr. Jackie Chan, Peter Fonder, Bianca Jagger. Okay,

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I'm just skipping through. There's quite a few that I

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recognize the faces, but I don't recognize the names. Robert Tesla,

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he was the do you remember Charles Bronson, the street Fighter?

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He was the bloke that fought Charles Bronson. Okay, right,

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so I'm going to go back if I go to

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Cannibalal Run two. Okay, let me go Cannonball Run two. Cast.

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Let's have a look. See who's in this one. But

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Reynolds again, Dom deLuce, Dean Martin's. I'm just why is

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that this is the Kennon Ball Run two? Mm hmm,

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all about Kennon Bourrun, Sid Caesar. It's very famous comedian

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Sid Caesar, Tony Danzer, Richard Keel, Jaws, Wow, Frank Sinatra,

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Henry Silver, Doug McClure. I'm saying it like I know

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who he is. I'm not sure. I think I do.

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And you've got the rest of the cast. Okay, what

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about cannon cannon Ball Run one? Then Kennon Bor Run

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so but maybe the same period, I said, this is

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Burt Reynolds again, Roger Moore, thorough force it, Dean Martin's.

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A lot of the same people then according to this.

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Hmm okay, Jackie Chan, I don't know if they're just

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repeating it. I'm not sure if it is the same people.

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I'm sure it's different people in different ones. Hmm me me,

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me me. But anyway, there was a lot of famous names,

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a lot of famous faces from that period. I'm surprised

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that night Rider wasn't in it, and the Incredible Hulk

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and Wonder Woman like Lindsay Carter and members of the

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A team. Mike. Yeah, I'm surprised about that because they

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would have all been unless the eighteen was a little

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bit later on. That might have been a little bit later.

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But they're a great movie. It's just so funny, a

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lot of fun. And Clyde was in there, and he

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was in Oranger Tang So Yeah, I like monkeys, I

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used to. I quite liked dolphins. I think it's remember

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Flipper the TV show was Australian or American. I think

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it might have been Australian. It's like they called him

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Flipper Flipper do nothing we see me? They called him

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Flipper Flipper. No do do do do do do do

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do do do? Must go hands, I've always real do

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they did it? Must get hands? Always ready ready for somebody?

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Musco House on more for one. I don't hear the story. Yeah,

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I think I got them tunes muddled up. I think

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after living with a ferret for six and a half

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years and I just love ferrets, I do. I can't

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help it. Just and yeah, I do I've never I've

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never met a puppy or kitten. I didn't want to

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just hug. They're always cute and they imagine even like

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a baby lion, it's probably cute. And some would probably say, yeah,

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they're cute when they're big. Okay, go and give it

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a hugged in if you think it's it's very cute

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and caddly. God give give a big no, and yeah,

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I like her. I like animals generally. Yeah, I think

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penguins are like penguins. Favorite animals probably going to go

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with a ferret overall. But my favorite animal is of

466
00:40:38.960 --> 00:40:42.039
course it's Vinny. But I don't really classroom as an animal.

467
00:40:42.119 --> 00:40:45.039
He's my son, and Andrea was my son. I did

468
00:40:45.079 --> 00:40:54.880
in classicism as a ferret A favorite animal. Yeah, I've

469
00:40:54.880 --> 00:41:05.320
never had a horse. I think elephants are cool, but

470
00:41:05.320 --> 00:41:10.960
I don't know a bit demanding hard work. You're limited

471
00:41:10.960 --> 00:41:16.159
to what you can do with an elephant. You're limited

472
00:41:16.199 --> 00:41:32.159
to where you can go. Yeah. I like dinosaurs. Before

473
00:41:32.159 --> 00:41:38.480
anyone says they don't exist anymore, they don't thought don't exist. Okay, well,

474
00:41:38.519 --> 00:41:42.000
what's the crocodile, what's the rhinosisaurus?

475
00:41:42.119 --> 00:41:42.159
Is?

476
00:41:43.800 --> 00:41:48.400
What's an elephant. They are dinosaurs. They are the dinosaurs.

477
00:41:50.400 --> 00:41:54.599
If a crocodile isn't a dinosaur, what is it? Those

478
00:41:54.639 --> 00:41:58.480
things have been around for millions of years. They are dinosaurs,

479
00:41:59.400 --> 00:42:04.039
so they're how I don't argue on that one. To me,

480
00:42:04.360 --> 00:42:10.719
it's factual, but it might be wrong. I don't know.

481
00:42:10.760 --> 00:42:14.440
I just I feel all animals have kind of got something. Nice.

482
00:42:17.320 --> 00:42:24.519
Deers are nice little bambies raindeers, I mean, because obviously

483
00:42:24.519 --> 00:42:29.360
they help get presents to everyone around the world in

484
00:42:29.360 --> 00:42:37.559
one night. The thing is, yeah, that one hard night's work.

485
00:42:37.679 --> 00:42:39.400
But they get to sleep the rest of the year,

486
00:42:39.440 --> 00:42:49.679
don't they. Tammy asks what is a good way to

487
00:42:49.760 --> 00:42:59.199
destress in conjunction with your beautiful with your beautifuls as

488
00:42:59.360 --> 00:43:05.679
an addition and at night? Mm hmm. I'm not sure

489
00:43:06.199 --> 00:43:18.400
where to go with that one. I suppose I think,

490
00:43:21.800 --> 00:43:27.880
man if I think it's important to there's a few

491
00:43:27.880 --> 00:43:34.599
things you could do to improve the potentially the experience

492
00:43:34.800 --> 00:43:41.760
of comfort. Make sure you've got a comfortable bed, make

493
00:43:41.840 --> 00:43:45.119
sure that you're wearing something comfortable. And I know some

494
00:43:45.159 --> 00:43:48.079
people don't wear clothes in bed, don't wear anything in bed,

495
00:43:48.400 --> 00:43:51.320
but what Just make sure that you haven't got anything

496
00:43:51.800 --> 00:43:58.360
constricting on. It's make sure you're you're nice and you know, basically,

497
00:44:00.639 --> 00:44:07.360
you need to feel comfortable anyway, like physically so you

498
00:44:07.400 --> 00:44:13.039
can so when you lay down in bed, the very

499
00:44:13.119 --> 00:44:21.880
least I expect is to just lie down and be supported.

500
00:44:22.599 --> 00:44:26.119
But I don't. I don't mean like crowd of people clapping.

501
00:44:26.440 --> 00:44:29.119
I mean just you feel physically supported by the bed,

502
00:44:31.400 --> 00:44:41.920
but enjoy that moment where I lay down and feel

503
00:44:41.960 --> 00:44:44.119
that I can move. So if I want to move

504
00:44:44.159 --> 00:44:48.519
to one side or move over the other side, you know,

505
00:44:48.800 --> 00:44:52.199
I don't wear a tight top because sometimes I don't

506
00:44:52.280 --> 00:44:55.760
want that constriction. I like to be able to just

507
00:44:55.960 --> 00:45:05.440
move freely, So wearing something baggy in bed I think

508
00:45:05.480 --> 00:45:14.079
can help. Having a decent temperature in the room as well,

509
00:45:15.000 --> 00:45:19.719
because depends where you live in the world. At the moment,

510
00:45:19.840 --> 00:45:23.320
here it's quite warm at night, a little bit warmer

511
00:45:23.360 --> 00:45:29.440
than normal anyway. But I don't think there's anything to

512
00:45:29.559 --> 00:45:34.199
be gained from sleeping in a really cold room in

513
00:45:34.239 --> 00:45:39.800
the winter and be under your cover shivering. That's just

514
00:45:39.840 --> 00:45:45.719
not very relaxing, I don't think personally. Another thing is

515
00:45:45.840 --> 00:45:50.159
not to go to bed when you're hungry. I've noticed

516
00:45:50.199 --> 00:45:53.119
that myself I did that the other day, and I

517
00:45:53.159 --> 00:45:56.320
went to bed and I was hungry. This is going

518
00:45:56.360 --> 00:45:58.599
to be really boring story because I've literally already told

519
00:45:58.599 --> 00:46:01.880
you what I'm going to tell you night. I went

520
00:46:01.920 --> 00:46:07.519
to bed hungry. But I noticed and I thought, well, no,

521
00:46:07.679 --> 00:46:09.880
I had something to eat a few hours ago. I

522
00:46:09.920 --> 00:46:13.199
don't need to eat anything now, I'll be fine. And

523
00:46:13.239 --> 00:46:18.800
I'm laying there and my stomach gurgling, and I'm thinking

524
00:46:19.800 --> 00:46:24.480
I'm hungry. I did want like a meal, I really didn't.

525
00:46:25.159 --> 00:46:27.480
All I needed was just a couple of milethfuls of

526
00:46:27.519 --> 00:46:30.840
breakfast cereal, just to put some food in me. I

527
00:46:30.920 --> 00:46:35.320
just needed to a little bit of food, not much,

528
00:46:36.800 --> 00:46:38.679
you know, a slice of toast would have done it.

529
00:46:44.079 --> 00:46:50.239
But to going to bed, anything that causes discomfort physically,

530
00:46:50.840 --> 00:46:52.880
I find. I know, I'm kind of going the other

531
00:46:52.920 --> 00:46:55.440
way because you're asking me what is a good way,

532
00:46:56.599 --> 00:47:01.639
But I'm kind of saying to avoid those things, to

533
00:47:01.679 --> 00:47:11.119
prepare so you don't have physical discomfort, and maybe another

534
00:47:11.159 --> 00:47:15.400
way to help yourself relax before going to bed, before

535
00:47:15.480 --> 00:47:21.719
going to sleep, maybe a bar or a shower, but slow,

536
00:47:23.400 --> 00:47:30.239
you know Russian about and there's you know, if you

537
00:47:30.320 --> 00:47:34.840
look online, there's a lot of articles saying that maybe

538
00:47:35.039 --> 00:47:37.599
keep away from blue screens, which would be like a

539
00:47:37.679 --> 00:47:44.760
laptop or a mobile phone or iPad for maybe an

540
00:47:44.800 --> 00:47:48.320
hour before you go to sleep because it stimulates part

541
00:47:48.360 --> 00:47:51.679
of your brain that maybe you don't want to be stimulated.

542
00:47:52.880 --> 00:47:57.360
But I don't think that wild. I mean, it's going

543
00:47:57.400 --> 00:48:01.639
to affect different people different ways. I've looked at computer

544
00:48:01.679 --> 00:48:04.920
screen gone to sleep straight away, so it doesn't really

545
00:48:05.239 --> 00:48:08.559
necessarily affect me in that way. I do get eyes strained,

546
00:48:08.559 --> 00:48:20.719
but that's just a separate thing. Sometimes if other things

547
00:48:20.719 --> 00:48:23.000
you could do. So if this something on your mind,

548
00:48:25.360 --> 00:48:28.400
maybe it's something you need to do tomorrow, and you

549
00:48:28.519 --> 00:48:33.000
lie down in bed and you're thinking, oh, I've got

550
00:48:33.000 --> 00:48:37.440
to do that thing, and you start thinking, oh, am

551
00:48:37.480 --> 00:48:41.599
I going to remember it, then it's worth just getting

552
00:48:41.679 --> 00:48:47.000
up and writing it down. Maybe have a little ped

553
00:48:47.039 --> 00:48:53.079
and pan, pen and pad or pencil and pad or

554
00:48:53.079 --> 00:48:58.239
something you could just write it down. Just remember to

555
00:48:59.320 --> 00:49:01.079
have a sex to me or whatever it was that

556
00:49:01.119 --> 00:49:04.280
you were trying to remember, and just stick that on

557
00:49:04.320 --> 00:49:06.719
a piece of paper so that when you wake up

558
00:49:06.760 --> 00:49:08.280
in the morning you can look at it and think,

559
00:49:08.360 --> 00:49:12.920
oh great, and then you haven't got to think about

560
00:49:12.920 --> 00:49:26.199
it other things. I suppose if there's something.

561
00:49:26.119 --> 00:49:29.760
Really really really really really important that you need to do,

562
00:49:31.119 --> 00:49:36.199
and you kind of know or you feel that if

563
00:49:36.199 --> 00:49:40.079
you don't get that accomplished, you're.

564
00:49:39.920 --> 00:49:44.480
Going to struggle. You might struggle to just fall asleep

565
00:49:44.559 --> 00:49:48.199
easily because you'll be concerned because you don't have to

566
00:49:48.199 --> 00:49:51.840
do it tomorrow and stuff. So maybe think ahead of

567
00:49:51.840 --> 00:49:55.599
time and get that done. Perhaps it's a phone call

568
00:49:56.639 --> 00:49:59.760
that you need to make before six pm. You can't

569
00:49:59.760 --> 00:50:02.880
do it after six you know, maybe it's a bill

570
00:50:03.000 --> 00:50:07.039
or something. You know, maybe sort of prioritize that thing,

571
00:50:09.039 --> 00:50:18.519
so that's one less item to be concerned about. Ultimately,

572
00:50:18.760 --> 00:50:23.880
I would say that I was talking to someone. I

573
00:50:23.920 --> 00:50:27.679
was talking to dog Walker the other day about what

574
00:50:27.840 --> 00:50:35.199
I try and try and get across in these podcasts.

575
00:50:35.400 --> 00:50:38.320
I don't know if I'm successful at all in doing it.

576
00:50:39.280 --> 00:50:46.320
And I try and get across the idea of getting

577
00:50:46.360 --> 00:50:49.119
yourself in that state of mind where you don't care

578
00:50:49.239 --> 00:50:55.360
about anything, and I understand, I really do understand that

579
00:50:55.360 --> 00:50:58.920
that's a state that some people, just some people will

580
00:50:59.000 --> 00:51:02.800
refuse to get into, some people just because it is

581
00:51:02.880 --> 00:51:07.559
like no, because but I do care, Like it's not

582
00:51:07.599 --> 00:51:11.760
about not caring. It's about not caring for the period

583
00:51:11.840 --> 00:51:22.960
of time that you're relaxing. And you know, there's arguments.

584
00:51:23.079 --> 00:51:25.519
I can kind of see different sides of it, like

585
00:51:25.639 --> 00:51:30.199
are easier said than done, and but that's kind of

586
00:51:30.199 --> 00:51:36.840
the goal. The goal, if you can, is to lie down.

587
00:51:40.920 --> 00:51:48.079
When your head touches the pillow, your body starts to relax.

588
00:51:48.760 --> 00:51:53.480
You notice how comfortable it feels to just I mean,

589
00:51:53.840 --> 00:51:57.400
you might have literally just taken your clothes off. You

590
00:51:57.519 --> 00:51:59.559
might take your socks off, and you've had socks on

591
00:51:59.639 --> 00:52:03.079
all day, and it's it's nice to let the When

592
00:52:03.119 --> 00:52:05.960
the air touches the skin of your feet, it can

593
00:52:06.000 --> 00:52:13.920
feel quite nice, quite pleasant actually, and my socks love

594
00:52:14.000 --> 00:52:15.760
Usually it's the socks that are happy when they get

595
00:52:15.800 --> 00:52:19.199
off my feet. They're like relieved to be away from

596
00:52:19.239 --> 00:52:27.320
my smelly feet. But when you lie down for me also,

597
00:52:29.960 --> 00:52:35.519
the idea is when you lie down at nighttime or

598
00:52:35.559 --> 00:52:39.440
whenever you go to sleep, whatever time is to not

599
00:52:39.519 --> 00:52:45.400
think about sleeping, to not be concerned about whether or

600
00:52:45.440 --> 00:52:48.119
not you go to sleep, or how quickly you go

601
00:52:48.239 --> 00:52:51.760
to sleep or anything like that. When how long how

602
00:52:51.840 --> 00:52:54.719
much sleep did you get yesterday, and how much sleep

603
00:52:54.800 --> 00:53:02.039
did you do you need tomorrow? And it's about noticing

604
00:53:02.119 --> 00:53:07.280
how relaxed you are. It's almost like a separate thing.

605
00:53:09.280 --> 00:53:12.239
Like you can enjoy watching television, you can enjoy eating

606
00:53:12.239 --> 00:53:16.239
your breakfast, you can enjoy different parts of the day

607
00:53:16.679 --> 00:53:21.880
when you can enjoy maybe even look forward to doing so.

608
00:53:21.960 --> 00:53:25.400
I look forward to having my breakfast. But even now

609
00:53:26.280 --> 00:53:32.679
it's only half past four, and I think about tomorrow

610
00:53:32.719 --> 00:53:35.639
morning at four o'clock or five o'clock, whatever time I

611
00:53:35.719 --> 00:53:40.360
wake up, sitting here having my ready break cup of tea,

612
00:53:41.400 --> 00:53:44.920
watching the TV or whatever's on, you know, maybe watching

613
00:53:45.159 --> 00:53:50.440
YouTube or watching a TV show, and I like that.

614
00:53:52.199 --> 00:53:55.400
I look forward to it. It's a nice moment. Yeah, last

615
00:53:55.440 --> 00:53:58.800
about an hour, hour and a half. Maybe it's my

616
00:53:58.880 --> 00:54:02.000
little time finished me still in bed. It's my little

617
00:54:02.039 --> 00:54:05.159
time on my own where I can just I got

618
00:54:05.199 --> 00:54:08.199
the TV down really low so no one else hopefully

619
00:54:08.320 --> 00:54:16.280
Vinnie can't hear it. He probably can. But and that

620
00:54:16.440 --> 00:54:20.079
period of time, it's nice. It's something I look forward to.

621
00:54:20.119 --> 00:54:31.480
It's very relaxing, and I don't feel pressured to do anything. No,

622
00:54:31.639 --> 00:54:33.559
I don't have to talk to anyone and don't have

623
00:54:33.639 --> 00:54:37.639
to do anything. I don't have to watch television. You know,

624
00:54:38.199 --> 00:54:40.599
I don't have to eat the breakfast. I choose to

625
00:54:40.639 --> 00:54:46.000
eat the breakfast. So everything's just a choice. But it's

626
00:54:46.079 --> 00:54:49.159
very relaxing and I quite look forward to it. I mean,

627
00:54:49.159 --> 00:54:50.880
I'm not like thinking, I'm not on the edge of

628
00:54:50.880 --> 00:54:53.599
my seat thinking, oh, I wish I could get this

629
00:54:53.639 --> 00:54:55.440
recording done and go to bed early so I can

630
00:54:55.480 --> 00:54:58.920
wake up. It's not like it's Christmas morning every morning,

631
00:54:59.360 --> 00:55:03.360
not quite that ridiculous. But you know, I'm not jumping

632
00:55:03.400 --> 00:55:14.960
out jumping out of bed like American guy. American American

633
00:55:15.000 --> 00:55:18.119
guy is an American dad. You know, he jumps out

634
00:55:19.280 --> 00:55:24.039
a low good morning. You know, no cartwheels, no sparkles.

635
00:55:25.280 --> 00:55:31.119
I just get out of bed. So that's like a

636
00:55:31.280 --> 00:55:34.679
separate thing. And to me, going to bed is almost

637
00:55:35.440 --> 00:55:40.280
and also a separate thing. I lie down on the bed,

638
00:55:40.960 --> 00:55:43.360
put you know, let my head breast on a pillow.

639
00:55:46.159 --> 00:55:48.639
Initially I lie on my back. I don't go to

640
00:55:48.679 --> 00:55:51.239
sleep on my back because I have a sleep on

641
00:55:51.280 --> 00:55:53.760
my side, but I lie on my back to start with.

642
00:55:55.199 --> 00:55:59.559
And just notice how relaxed my body feels, especially in

643
00:55:59.599 --> 00:56:06.360
my back, my lower back. Just notice how my legs relax,

644
00:56:06.840 --> 00:56:12.840
my buttocks, my shoulders, my neck as my head's resting

645
00:56:12.920 --> 00:56:23.280
on a pillow, and I'm not concerned about falling asleep.

646
00:56:25.800 --> 00:56:33.920
I couldn't care at all about falling asleep because even

647
00:56:34.000 --> 00:56:37.880
though technically that's why I've gone to bed for me,

648
00:56:38.239 --> 00:56:43.480
I've gone to bed to relax. I guess it's a

649
00:56:43.519 --> 00:56:50.519
different mindset. I've not gone to bed expecting anything other

650
00:56:50.599 --> 00:56:56.960
than to relax. I'm not I expect to fall asleep

651
00:56:56.960 --> 00:57:00.880
because I do every single every much every night of

652
00:57:00.920 --> 00:57:03.239
my life, I guess, apart from when I slept during

653
00:57:03.280 --> 00:57:11.000
the day. But it's not something I am concerned with.

654
00:57:13.119 --> 00:57:17.480
It's not something I care about. And that brings you

655
00:57:17.559 --> 00:57:22.039
back to the whole idea of not caring. Is this

656
00:57:22.159 --> 00:57:24.440
is way too more city, this is weird, this is

657
00:57:24.480 --> 00:57:27.239
too serious for my Q and A Friday and I

658
00:57:27.280 --> 00:57:33.159
start talking about penguins again in a minute. But to

659
00:57:33.199 --> 00:57:36.079
get to that mindset of not caring about anything, not

660
00:57:36.199 --> 00:57:40.639
in a selfish way, you know, is it completely different

661
00:57:40.679 --> 00:57:44.320
from being selfish because you don't even care about yourself.

662
00:57:45.079 --> 00:57:48.119
You literally don't care about anything. You let it all

663
00:57:48.199 --> 00:57:52.159
fall on the floor. It's almost like you just step

664
00:57:52.199 --> 00:57:55.159
out of your own skin, leave it on the floor,

665
00:57:55.239 --> 00:57:58.599
leave it in the other room, you go to bed.

666
00:58:00.440 --> 00:58:05.159
It's your little place, your little pod, your little safe space,

667
00:58:05.719 --> 00:58:11.440
is safe bubble, whatever you want to call it, where

668
00:58:11.480 --> 00:58:20.920
you can just relax, enjoy feeling relaxed. And if you've

669
00:58:20.920 --> 00:58:23.960
got your eyes closed, which unless you enjoy looking at

670
00:58:23.960 --> 00:58:29.320
the ceiling, which I mean sometimes I do. I've got

671
00:58:29.400 --> 00:58:33.280
quite a thing about ceilings, but generally I don't look

672
00:58:33.280 --> 00:58:35.480
at the ceiling, especially if it's dark you can't see

673
00:58:35.480 --> 00:58:46.679
the ceiling. I've got itchy bomb. Okay, butter Grubb, you

674
00:58:46.719 --> 00:58:57.320
can just enjoy feeling relaxed, and that's it. There's nothing

675
00:58:58.440 --> 00:59:05.159
that you need to do. And when you don't care

676
00:59:05.199 --> 00:59:09.719
about anything for that period of time, you just let

677
00:59:09.760 --> 00:59:14.079
it go. And I do. I can see different perspectives

678
00:59:14.079 --> 00:59:18.039
and I can almost hear in my brain someone saying, yeah,

679
00:59:18.039 --> 00:59:22.199
but this person's unwell, of course I care. I'm thinking

680
00:59:22.199 --> 00:59:26.920
about them. And that's the thing. You have to stop

681
00:59:26.960 --> 00:59:33.559
caring about everything. Doesn't mean you don't care. Okay, I

682
00:59:33.559 --> 00:59:38.199
don't know if this concept is even comprehensible to me.

683
00:59:38.400 --> 00:59:43.599
I don't know. But you take a break from caring

684
00:59:44.719 --> 00:59:47.760
doesn't mean you don't care. Of course, you don't stop

685
00:59:47.840 --> 00:59:53.360
loving the people you love, but you take a break

686
00:59:54.280 --> 00:59:58.880
from thinking about them, you take a break from even

687
01:00:00.039 --> 01:00:04.679
almost like they don't exist. Nothing exists. Everything stops for

688
01:00:04.719 --> 01:00:11.559
a while, just for that short period that you're relaxing,

689
01:00:20.199 --> 01:00:26.599
and then you fall asleep and you don't have control

690
01:00:27.039 --> 01:00:30.639
over what you think about when you're asleep. I'm not

691
01:00:30.719 --> 01:00:33.079
saying that you're controlling what you think about when you're

692
01:00:33.119 --> 01:00:36.599
lying in bed, but you're kind of taking a bit

693
01:00:36.639 --> 01:00:42.159
of control in the sense of letting go. And that

694
01:00:42.280 --> 01:00:44.960
is what I mean when I say let go, like

695
01:00:45.239 --> 01:00:53.360
literally drop everything. And I have literally done that in

696
01:00:53.400 --> 01:00:56.960
the past myself in the you know, where I've walked

697
01:00:56.960 --> 01:01:00.719
away from every single thing, every aspect of my life,

698
01:01:01.360 --> 01:01:06.679
where I lived, where I worked, friends, everything. I'm not

699
01:01:06.719 --> 01:01:09.440
recommending it, but you know, there's been times when I've

700
01:01:09.440 --> 01:01:15.920
had to do that and there is a relief. The

701
01:01:16.000 --> 01:01:19.119
problem with doing that is it's hard to come back to,

702
01:01:19.199 --> 01:01:21.440
you know, from that. If you do that in life,

703
01:01:21.480 --> 01:01:26.920
you drop every single thing in life. But when you're

704
01:01:26.960 --> 01:01:33.800
in bed, you can do it for a period of time. Now,

705
01:01:33.800 --> 01:01:36.000
I understand some people might have to have the phone

706
01:01:36.039 --> 01:01:42.039
on because I loved one might need their help or whatever.

707
01:01:46.679 --> 01:01:52.960
But that's dealt with when it happens. You're not planning ahead,

708
01:01:53.239 --> 01:01:59.280
not even one minute, not even five seconds ahead. There's

709
01:01:59.320 --> 01:02:06.079
no planning. There's no yesterday, no tomorrow, not even any

710
01:02:06.280 --> 01:02:15.320
it's not even a now. It's just almost nothing. The peace, calmness.

711
01:02:22.840 --> 01:02:32.920
H And when you feel it, that that slowness in

712
01:02:33.000 --> 01:02:41.679
your mind where there's just nothing going on, there's nothing happening,

713
01:02:44.880 --> 01:02:52.280
there's there's no need for any kind of stimulation or

714
01:02:52.320 --> 01:03:04.599
any type of dialogue to be occurring. Hmm, because you've

715
01:03:04.639 --> 01:03:11.760
given yourself permission to just let go and not care

716
01:03:11.840 --> 01:03:24.719
for a while. I guess some would say it's kind

717
01:03:24.760 --> 01:03:33.719
of like a like an emptiness, a peacefulness, calmness, potentially healing.

718
01:03:36.159 --> 01:03:43.599
Your body relaxes even more, your mind not only slows down,

719
01:03:43.639 --> 01:03:49.880
but maybe also maybe it comes to a practical standstill.

720
01:03:56.400 --> 01:03:58.920
I kind of think I should have done this question

721
01:03:58.960 --> 01:04:01.199
at the end, because I'm going to go back to

722
01:04:01.239 --> 01:04:07.000
being silly again. Sorry, but yeah, that's what I'm thinking.

723
01:04:07.880 --> 01:04:10.199
And thank you for saying I've got a beautiful voice.

724
01:04:10.360 --> 01:04:12.800
It's quite weird because when I was reading it out,

725
01:04:13.599 --> 01:04:19.039
I was noticing my voice particularly croaky today, particularly croaky.

726
01:04:23.079 --> 01:04:25.280
What is a good way to do stress in conjunction.

727
01:04:26.360 --> 01:04:32.880
And I could have gone silly with the answer for

728
01:04:32.920 --> 01:04:35.960
that question, but I thought i'd be give a serious

729
01:04:36.000 --> 01:04:41.679
answer because ultimately, that is what I'm trying to do.

730
01:04:42.840 --> 01:04:46.599
I am trying to I know, I'm mess about and

731
01:04:47.559 --> 01:04:53.199
hopefully it's entertaining and it's I can be company, maybe

732
01:04:53.840 --> 01:05:03.880
to you, like a a familiar voice, perhaps even you know,

733
01:05:04.800 --> 01:05:13.199
but I am also aiming to help. I mean that

734
01:05:13.199 --> 01:05:17.119
that in itself can be helpful, but I am aiming

735
01:05:17.199 --> 01:05:26.840
to that the recordings are useful, you know. So yeah,

736
01:05:26.960 --> 01:05:31.599
so thanks, thanks Hope and Temmy for those two questions,

737
01:05:33.880 --> 01:05:39.519
and thanks for saying it. I've got a beautiful voice.

738
01:05:40.559 --> 01:05:44.719
Ing asks me, how do you met? Oh yeah, by

739
01:05:44.719 --> 01:05:47.280
the way, the dog walker I was talking to just

740
01:05:47.320 --> 01:05:50.679
looked at me blankly. What Because I was talking about

741
01:05:51.119 --> 01:05:54.599
how I'm just trying to help people, to try to

742
01:05:54.639 --> 01:05:58.480
explain to just let go and to not care about anything,

743
01:05:58.519 --> 01:06:02.800
and she said, oh, I only ask you if you

744
01:06:02.840 --> 01:06:06.519
think it's going to rain. So I think it flumes

745
01:06:06.599 --> 01:06:11.079
her a little bit every time I see it. Now

746
01:06:11.119 --> 01:06:17.800
she runs the opposite direction, but that's nothing new. Ing

747
01:06:18.559 --> 01:06:22.639
asks me, how do you manage to put a podcast

748
01:06:22.800 --> 01:06:30.159
episode online every day? Does this sometimes stress you out?

749
01:06:31.280 --> 01:06:34.480
Do you ever? Wow, very croaky. I think it's the heat.

750
01:06:34.880 --> 01:06:48.800
It's croaking me. It's have a little bit of water, hm, nice,

751
01:06:49.280 --> 01:06:55.840
A nice little sip of warm water from my plastic bottle.

752
01:06:58.320 --> 01:07:01.639
Does this sometimes stress you out? Do you ever find

753
01:07:01.639 --> 01:07:12.000
it difficult to motivate yourself? Yeah? If I'm not motivated,

754
01:07:12.039 --> 01:07:19.920
I just don't do one. Generally, I've realized over the

755
01:07:20.039 --> 01:07:25.280
years that there's no point trying to force it, because

756
01:07:25.599 --> 01:07:30.119
if I'm in the wrong mood, then there's I might

757
01:07:30.159 --> 01:07:33.360
as well just not make a recording, because I've on

758
01:07:33.440 --> 01:07:36.159
a few, not many times, but a few occasions, I've

759
01:07:36.159 --> 01:07:40.360
made recordings and I've had to abandon them halfway through

760
01:07:40.719 --> 01:07:47.440
or just delete them because I've not been in the

761
01:07:47.920 --> 01:07:57.280
correct space, you know, mindset. I don't I mean really

762
01:07:58.400 --> 01:08:06.079
as far as it doesn't stress me out making recordings

763
01:08:06.079 --> 01:08:10.079
because I know I don't have to. You know, I

764
01:08:10.119 --> 01:08:12.800
don't have to do this that no one's I'm not

765
01:08:12.880 --> 01:08:15.079
being forced and not being paid to do it. I

766
01:08:15.079 --> 01:08:22.560
don't have to. There's no I don't feel really under pressure,

767
01:08:24.000 --> 01:08:27.479
not really. I mean, the only pressure I'm ever under

768
01:08:27.680 --> 01:08:35.239
is the pressure I put myself and I probably made

769
01:08:35.279 --> 01:08:38.479
more recordings this year than I have in any other year.

770
01:08:40.640 --> 01:08:42.840
I mean at this point in the year. I mean,

771
01:08:44.039 --> 01:08:46.640
so what we six months in? Nearly seven months in?

772
01:08:47.600 --> 01:08:53.159
This was it a twentieth of June? No, six months in? Sorry,

773
01:08:53.239 --> 01:08:54.239
six months into the.

774
01:08:54.279 --> 01:08:55.159
Year, nearly.

775
01:08:56.760 --> 01:09:04.399
Another ten days. And I don't think I've ever done

776
01:09:04.439 --> 01:09:10.239
as many recordings as this in six months before. What

777
01:09:10.319 --> 01:09:12.800
you want me to count? How many have done? Really?

778
01:09:15.319 --> 01:09:20.159
I could just hear. I could hear the people screaming, no, no,

779
01:09:20.199 --> 01:09:26.960
we don't need you to count them. No, I don't mean

780
01:09:26.960 --> 01:09:30.600
have my look, I've done quite I'm sure I didn't.

781
01:09:30.640 --> 01:09:34.239
I count them the other day? Didn't I count how

782
01:09:34.279 --> 01:09:37.520
many have done it? It won't take long, don't I Because

783
01:09:37.720 --> 01:09:40.640
although it's a fair amount, it's still not going to

784
01:09:40.680 --> 01:09:44.279
be a huge amount. Probably twenty or thirty, I don't know,

785
01:09:45.880 --> 01:09:53.319
maybe more. There must be an easier way of doing

786
01:09:53.359 --> 01:09:58.119
it than this. I'm just scrolling down, still in April,

787
01:09:58.680 --> 01:10:06.840
in March, now, still in March. So I don't really

788
01:10:06.880 --> 01:10:14.800
feel stressed to make new recordings. I think, if anything,

789
01:10:14.880 --> 01:10:23.680
it's beneficial for me to do it, because without being dramatic,

790
01:10:23.720 --> 01:10:26.520
I don't have anything else. This is all I have.

791
01:10:27.880 --> 01:10:31.960
This is other than taking Vinny for I want to

792
01:10:32.000 --> 01:10:36.239
say the word, but taking him out because I have to.

793
01:10:38.079 --> 01:10:44.039
There is nothing else that I really am kind of

794
01:10:45.239 --> 01:10:48.680
having to do. Part of the basic stuff, like you know,

795
01:10:48.760 --> 01:10:54.079
buying food and paying bills, all right, since the first

796
01:10:54.079 --> 01:10:59.840
of January one, two three, I mean, actually we'll start

797
01:11:00.600 --> 01:11:04.279
the first of January. So this is to let me

798
01:11:04.359 --> 01:11:12.520
boil you to sleep one thousand, two hundred and sixty one,

799
01:11:13.199 --> 01:11:24.640
so one thousand, two hundred and sixty one, and this

800
01:11:24.680 --> 01:11:29.199
one is one thousand, three hundred and eighty, so one

801
01:11:29.279 --> 01:11:37.119
hundred one thousand. What one thousand, two hundred and sixty one,

802
01:11:38.680 --> 01:11:46.359
one thousand, three hundred and sixty one, so it's one

803
01:11:46.439 --> 01:11:52.359
hundred and nineteen including this one, so down one hundred

804
01:11:52.399 --> 01:11:58.359
and nineteen. Let me boil you to sleep in well

805
01:11:58.479 --> 01:12:03.600
nearly six months, so it's three six, nine twenty, so

806
01:12:03.600 --> 01:12:06.039
it's pretty much every day for four months and then

807
01:12:06.479 --> 01:12:10.520
two months or none kind of it's I suppose it's

808
01:12:11.960 --> 01:12:20.920
two two, four, six, eight, ten twelve. Yes, I suppose

809
01:12:20.960 --> 01:12:27.960
it's it's five ten fifteen, so twenty a week, twenty

810
01:12:28.000 --> 01:12:31.399
a month roughly for the let me boy to sleep,

811
01:12:32.720 --> 01:12:35.560
which is I've got a Monday to Friday every week

812
01:12:35.600 --> 01:12:40.640
of the year so far, kind of, so let's have

813
01:12:40.680 --> 01:12:43.279
a look at all the others. So it was one,

814
01:12:44.079 --> 01:12:45.840
but this is all this other stuff that let me

815
01:12:45.880 --> 01:13:07.640
boy your paying away and blah blah one, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, ten, eleven, twelve, thirteen, fourteen, fifteen, sixteen, seventeen, eighteen, nineteen, twenty,

816
01:13:08.079 --> 01:13:12.199
twenty one, twenty two, twenty three, twenty four, twenty five,

817
01:13:12.720 --> 01:13:17.920
twenty fifth, twenty seven, twenty eight, twenty nine, thirty, thirty one,

818
01:13:18.039 --> 01:13:22.039
thirty two, thirty three, thirty four, thirty five, thirty six,

819
01:13:22.439 --> 01:13:27.760
thirty seven, thirty eight, thirty nine, forty, forty one, forty two,

820
01:13:28.000 --> 01:13:32.800
forty three, forty four, forty five, forty six, forty seven,

821
01:13:33.159 --> 01:13:39.560
forty eight, forty nine, fifty fifty one, fifty two, fifty three.

822
01:13:39.760 --> 01:13:41.359
This is roughly, by the way I think I might

823
01:13:41.439 --> 01:13:47.279
skim the couple fifty four, fifty five, fifty six, fifty seven,

824
01:13:47.399 --> 01:13:53.079
fifty eight, fifty nine, sixty sixty one, sixty two, sixty three,

825
01:13:53.319 --> 01:13:58.079
sixty four, sixty five, sixty six, sixty seven, sixty eight,

826
01:13:59.000 --> 01:14:03.159
sixty nine seven, twenty seventy one, seventy two up to

827
01:14:03.199 --> 01:14:08.039
March now, seventy three, seventy four, seventy five, seventy six,

828
01:14:08.159 --> 01:14:13.680
seventy seven, seventy eight, seventy nine, eighty eighty one, eighty two,

829
01:14:13.880 --> 01:14:20.079
eighty three, eighty four, eighty five, eighty six, eighty seven,

830
01:14:20.119 --> 01:14:45.520
eighty eight, eighty nine, one hundred, one, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, ten, eleven, twelve, thirteen, fourteen, fifteen, sixteen, fifteen, sorry, sixteen, seventeen, eighteen, nineteen, twenty,

831
01:14:46.159 --> 01:14:50.319
twenty one, twenty two, twenty three, twenty four, twenty five,

832
01:14:50.520 --> 01:14:56.000
twenty six, twenty seven, twenty eight, twenty nine, thirty, thirty one,

833
01:14:56.760 --> 01:15:04.359
thirty two, thirty three, thirty four, thirty five, thirty six,

834
01:15:04.680 --> 01:15:09.920
thirty seven, thirty eight, thirty nine, forty, forty one, forty two,

835
01:15:10.720 --> 01:15:14.399
forty three, forty four, forty five, forty six, forty seven,

836
01:15:14.520 --> 01:15:20.159
forty eight, forty nine, fifty fifty one, fifty two, fifty three,

837
01:15:20.439 --> 01:15:29.319
fifty four, fifty five, fifty six, fifty seven, fifty eight,

838
01:15:30.920 --> 01:15:36.640
fifty nine, sixty sixty one, sixty two, sixty three, sixty four,

839
01:15:36.800 --> 01:15:42.600
sixty five, sixty six, sixty seven, sixty eight, sixty nine, seventy,

840
01:15:43.600 --> 01:15:48.479
seventy one, seventy two, seventy three, seventy four, seventy five,

841
01:15:48.640 --> 01:15:55.039
seventy six, seventy seven, seventy eight, seventy nine, eighty eighty one,

842
01:15:55.279 --> 01:16:00.279
eighty two, eighty three, eighty four, eighty five, eighty six,

843
01:16:00.439 --> 01:16:06.680
eighty seven, eighty eight, eighty nine, ninety, ninety one, ninety two,

844
01:16:06.920 --> 01:16:12.920
ninety three, ninety four, ninety five, ninety six, ninety seven,

845
01:16:13.039 --> 01:16:19.079
ninety eight, ninety nine, two hundred, two hundred and one,

846
01:16:19.479 --> 01:16:23.159
two hundred and two, two hundred three, two hundred four,

847
01:16:23.399 --> 01:16:26.520
two hundred and five, two hundred and six, two hundred seven,

848
01:16:26.520 --> 01:16:31.359
two hundred eight, two hundred and nine, two hundred and ten.

849
01:16:32.199 --> 01:16:36.600
So this is roughly. I might have got it wrong,

850
01:16:37.720 --> 01:16:39.439
I might have missed a couple and might have valued

851
01:16:39.479 --> 01:16:42.439
a couple by accident, because the lot so roughly about

852
01:16:42.479 --> 01:16:49.000
two hundred and ten recordings so far this year, which

853
01:16:49.079 --> 01:16:57.199
is yeah. I mean, if I do the same four

854
01:16:57.319 --> 01:17:00.279
hundred and fifty I've never done. I've never made four

855
01:17:00.319 --> 01:17:03.319
hundred and fifty recordings in a year before, and I

856
01:17:03.319 --> 01:17:05.239
don't know if I've ever made two hundred and ten

857
01:17:05.800 --> 01:17:11.840
in less than six months. What's my point? I don't know.

858
01:17:13.319 --> 01:17:18.359
I really don't know. I'm not sure. I thought I

859
01:17:18.439 --> 01:17:23.760
knew what it was, but I don't know now. Oh

860
01:17:24.399 --> 01:17:32.279
BlimE me. I've had so many messages, what's going on here?

861
01:17:33.920 --> 01:17:37.640
Junk mail? I get so much junk mail, it's ridiculous.

862
01:17:39.199 --> 01:17:45.680
Oh well, So, yeah, how do I manage to put

863
01:17:45.680 --> 01:17:55.039
a podcast episode online every day? I don't know, really,

864
01:17:55.119 --> 01:17:59.199
I just because I don't That's the thing I have

865
01:17:59.319 --> 01:18:07.520
been lately. However, I do have periods when I don't

866
01:18:08.359 --> 01:18:12.159
make any recordings. There have been times when I've not

867
01:18:12.199 --> 01:18:18.199
made recordings for weeks in the past, even months. I've

868
01:18:18.239 --> 01:18:24.399
not gone months for a long time. In fact, I

869
01:18:24.399 --> 01:18:28.760
would say I probably haven't gone months probably in the

870
01:18:28.800 --> 01:18:35.960
last eight years. I can't remember the last time I

871
01:18:35.960 --> 01:18:40.039
went a few weeks without making a recording. It's got

872
01:18:40.079 --> 01:18:43.840
to be a long time ago. I can't even remember

873
01:18:43.840 --> 01:18:47.640
the last time when a whole week I might have done.

874
01:18:48.039 --> 01:18:52.760
I think I did when I lost Andre, I had

875
01:18:53.600 --> 01:18:56.680
a week or two where I didn't make any recordings.

876
01:18:57.199 --> 01:19:01.720
But also when I lost Luke as well, my friend Luke,

877
01:19:01.840 --> 01:19:06.079
so I probably had. I had a time when I

878
01:19:06.079 --> 01:19:17.760
couldn't make recordings then as well. Yeah, so the thing

879
01:19:17.840 --> 01:19:22.159
is in the past. If we go back, like before

880
01:19:22.159 --> 01:19:25.880
I moved here ten years ago, even though I'd been

881
01:19:25.920 --> 01:19:33.680
doing it for nine years, I wasn't doing recordings every day.

882
01:19:34.119 --> 01:19:38.600
I mean, it was times when I was, but it

883
01:19:38.680 --> 01:19:41.720
was more kind of whenever I felt like it and

884
01:19:42.039 --> 01:19:44.640
I was working, so I didn't have always have the

885
01:19:44.760 --> 01:19:47.560
energy to do it all the time. Or where I

886
01:19:47.600 --> 01:19:51.000
was living was too noisy, you know, So I wasn't

887
01:19:51.079 --> 01:19:57.640
as regular as I have been. In the last.

888
01:20:00.319 --> 01:20:11.640
Ice Cream Van, I don't.

889
01:20:11.520 --> 01:20:13.319
Know if you can hear the background sound, I'm sure

890
01:20:13.319 --> 01:20:21.199
the music is getting allouder ice Cream Van, and how

891
01:20:21.199 --> 01:20:24.920
do I'm yeah, I've been. I'm quite pleased with how

892
01:20:24.960 --> 01:20:28.319
I've been able to post a recording every day, nearly

893
01:20:28.359 --> 01:20:31.119
every day, and well more than more than one a

894
01:20:31.199 --> 01:20:41.439
day recently. But this is I've never sustained making multiple

895
01:20:41.479 --> 01:20:47.880
recordings per day for any amount length of time. I mean,

896
01:20:47.920 --> 01:20:50.800
this is okay, this is the third recording today. I

897
01:20:50.800 --> 01:20:57.880
did four yesterday. There's a chance I might make another

898
01:20:57.920 --> 01:21:01.760
one later on before I go to bed, but probably not.

899
01:21:01.880 --> 01:21:07.920
I don't know, it depends. I might do sometimes it's

900
01:21:07.960 --> 01:21:11.159
a case of I get a little bit of inspiration

901
01:21:13.520 --> 01:21:18.680
for with the podcast Let's look what I caught it

902
01:21:18.720 --> 01:21:22.159
called I should know the name of my podcast? Should

903
01:21:22.239 --> 01:21:31.600
I really? Relaxation for Stress and Panic Attacks that podcast,

904
01:21:32.439 --> 01:21:38.159
and I've got how many different episodes, two hundred and

905
01:21:38.199 --> 01:21:44.119
forty three different episodes. That one is some of the

906
01:21:44.159 --> 01:21:48.119
recordings are short, But it's just an idea I've had,

907
01:21:48.319 --> 01:21:50.880
Like I had an idea of using a flamethrower on

908
01:21:51.000 --> 01:21:57.840
a an ice sculpture of the words stress and melting

909
01:21:57.920 --> 01:22:05.520
it and then that turn into a biscuit shaped stress

910
01:22:05.600 --> 01:22:09.520
and a dog eating it and then the stress being

911
01:22:10.119 --> 01:22:13.680
pooed out. I don't know why I always seem to

912
01:22:13.680 --> 01:22:16.760
go that direction. But I had another one called today

913
01:22:16.840 --> 01:22:21.600
called blowing bubbles, and that's based upon the whole idea

914
01:22:21.720 --> 01:22:29.000
of especially for kids really, to be honest, but by

915
01:22:29.079 --> 01:22:31.640
blowing out, you know, if you blow through a tube,

916
01:22:32.359 --> 01:22:36.720
blowing the bubble, that is a way to calm the

917
01:22:36.760 --> 01:22:42.560
breathing without focusing on the breathing. And it's fun, especially

918
01:22:42.560 --> 01:22:45.119
for a kid. It's fun for I think I would

919
01:22:45.239 --> 01:22:49.199
argue that blowing bubbles can potentially be fun for anyone.

920
01:22:51.640 --> 01:23:00.640
And I talked about my own experiences and how even

921
01:23:00.680 --> 01:23:06.760
though controlling breathing is almost If you look at any

922
01:23:08.079 --> 01:23:16.600
any book, whether it's stress relief or anxiety any or recordings,

923
01:23:18.039 --> 01:23:21.560
most of them seem to focus on breathing techniques. Even

924
01:23:21.640 --> 01:23:29.319
hypnosis recordings focusing on breathing techniques to start with. I

925
01:23:29.439 --> 01:23:40.680
don't do that generally because for me, it's about relaxing

926
01:23:45.840 --> 01:23:49.119
but kind of going slow with it. And what I

927
01:23:49.279 --> 01:23:54.600
noticed is when the more you relax, the slower you're

928
01:23:54.640 --> 01:24:01.079
breathing becomes naturally and becomes deeper as well. It's just

929
01:24:01.079 --> 01:24:08.079
a natural process. And I also realized in my own

930
01:24:08.119 --> 01:24:12.039
experience with anxiety and panic attacks and stuff like that,

931
01:24:13.079 --> 01:24:14.960
the last thing in the world I wanted to do

932
01:24:15.159 --> 01:24:19.319
was focus on my breathing. I was too self conscious

933
01:24:19.399 --> 01:24:24.359
of it at that time. Anyway, I needed a distraction

934
01:24:24.479 --> 01:24:31.640
from that. So, you know, breathing out maybe due to hyperventilation.

935
01:24:32.119 --> 01:24:34.640
Breathing out is obviously it's a good thing, isn't it,

936
01:24:34.640 --> 01:24:38.560
Because you're breathing in too much. If you start blowing

937
01:24:38.600 --> 01:24:42.680
bubbles breathing, or you could technically blow up some balloons,

938
01:24:42.760 --> 01:24:46.760
that's another thing you could do, I guess, but I

939
01:24:46.840 --> 01:24:50.279
probably choose to blow bubbles and blow out balloons. It's

940
01:24:50.399 --> 01:24:53.479
more fun. I mean, technically you've got the balloons at

941
01:24:53.479 --> 01:24:55.039
the end of it, so you've got somebody to show

942
01:24:55.600 --> 01:24:59.159
for it. Because with the bubbles, they do pop, don't they.

943
01:25:00.840 --> 01:25:06.439
But it's just some more natural especially probably for children,

944
01:25:06.840 --> 01:25:09.800
it's a more natural way of getting them to breathe

945
01:25:09.800 --> 01:25:14.920
out more than they're breathing in. That then evens out

946
01:25:14.960 --> 01:25:17.720
the breathing. And this is based in science as well,

947
01:25:17.760 --> 01:25:19.479
because I did a little bit of research for this,

948
01:25:20.279 --> 01:25:23.039
So this isn't just like something that I just thought

949
01:25:23.119 --> 01:25:27.439
up and thought to myself. But it gave me an

950
01:25:27.479 --> 01:25:32.159
idea to do a recording on it. And it's those

951
01:25:32.279 --> 01:25:39.800
kind of moments that I really enjoy when I I

952
01:25:39.960 --> 01:25:46.199
just have an idea and I think, oh, either ice kettle,

953
01:25:46.319 --> 01:25:55.680
anger release or ways to disrupt worrying. And I mean

954
01:25:55.680 --> 01:26:04.159
I started doing these years ago. I'm just looking through it,

955
01:26:05.000 --> 01:26:07.800
and I was doing it for a while. I was

956
01:26:07.880 --> 01:26:11.880
doing them every day, So I don't even have the

957
01:26:11.960 --> 01:26:15.840
date when I first started, but it was I didn't

958
01:26:15.880 --> 01:26:19.399
give the names for the first thirty five I think

959
01:26:19.600 --> 01:26:31.239
thirty six forty okay, no, fifty nine seventy. I didn't it.

960
01:26:31.479 --> 01:26:33.399
I didn't have I didn't have any kind of tie

961
01:26:33.439 --> 01:26:40.279
to all. Yeah, I did started. I started doing it, okay,

962
01:26:40.479 --> 01:26:51.560
number seventy safe space model plane sounds. So there's different ones.

963
01:26:51.600 --> 01:26:58.039
I had Smiley Mirror Meaning and Purpose, web page ball

964
01:26:58.119 --> 01:27:03.199
or sock silly song that was a good one. To

965
01:27:03.359 --> 01:27:08.840
check that one out. It's very silly. Bath Floater that's

966
01:27:08.840 --> 01:27:11.079
another good one. I think. I think it was quite funny.

967
01:27:11.680 --> 01:27:15.199
So it's just and these are short. They'd like fifteen

968
01:27:15.239 --> 01:27:17.119
minutes long some of them. Some of them are like

969
01:27:17.880 --> 01:27:24.640
an hour. But usually, well, I'll tell you a secret.

970
01:27:24.760 --> 01:27:31.399
Sometimes I have a tendency to talk a lot. But

971
01:27:31.479 --> 01:27:35.439
some of these titles are pretty good. Question automatic thinking

972
01:27:36.479 --> 01:27:45.239
evicts self prejudice, brain plasticity. So that was twenty first

973
01:27:45.239 --> 01:27:49.439
of February twenty twenty. That's when I started putting dates

974
01:27:49.479 --> 01:27:59.479
on them. So in twenty twenty February or January actually January, okay, right,

975
01:27:59.640 --> 01:28:06.039
so number fifty three eight for September twenty nineteen. So

976
01:28:07.000 --> 01:28:10.920
I started doing these relaxation hypnosis for stress, anxiety and

977
01:28:10.960 --> 01:28:22.159
panic attacks in probably two thousand and fifteen, probably it

978
01:28:22.239 --> 01:28:26.119
was one of the first, probably maybe two thousand and sixteen.

979
01:28:26.399 --> 01:28:28.640
It's one of the first ones I did when I

980
01:28:28.680 --> 01:28:31.399
moved in here, because I remember I did it. I

981
01:28:31.399 --> 01:28:36.479
actually made some videos. I think I did thirty two videos,

982
01:28:38.319 --> 01:28:40.840
and I had them on YouTube, and I made podcasts

983
01:28:40.920 --> 01:28:43.760
and I had proper microphones and stuff. It was the

984
01:28:43.760 --> 01:28:49.319
first time i'd really tried that out. Vicecript no mass,

985
01:28:49.520 --> 01:28:52.319
that's another one. I was good. It's nearly an hour long.

986
01:28:54.479 --> 01:28:57.479
See some of these these are the sum many recordings

987
01:28:57.520 --> 01:29:03.039
that I felt were really good, not like good like

988
01:29:03.159 --> 01:29:09.079
ooh but oh whatever that means, but just like, yeah,

989
01:29:10.199 --> 01:29:17.279
quite creative. And because I used to I used to

990
01:29:17.319 --> 01:29:20.359
do it with this little microphone that was attached like

991
01:29:20.359 --> 01:29:23.720
a lapel microphone. The quality of the sound isn't perfect,

992
01:29:24.039 --> 01:29:26.359
to be honest. I mean, it's probably never going to

993
01:29:26.439 --> 01:29:31.039
be perfect, but it was it was okay for what

994
01:29:31.079 --> 01:29:34.560
I was doing because I was standing up talking. And

995
01:29:34.760 --> 01:29:39.800
if you remember, this was during two thousand and twenty,

996
01:29:40.000 --> 01:29:43.720
you know, and I was doing a lot in January, February, March,

997
01:29:43.840 --> 01:29:47.159
April twenty twenty, so there was a lot going on

998
01:29:47.800 --> 01:29:52.159
in that time of you know, in the world back then.

999
01:29:52.680 --> 01:29:57.119
So I guess I was just trying to put out

1000
01:29:57.159 --> 01:30:01.760
a little bit of maybe a little bit of relaxation

1001
01:30:01.880 --> 01:30:07.279
a bit of healing, and yeah, so I did these

1002
01:30:07.640 --> 01:30:15.760
very very regularly. Nineteenth for June seventeenth, for June twenty first,

1003
01:30:16.119 --> 01:30:19.760
twenty second of June, twenty third of June, twenty fourth,

1004
01:30:19.960 --> 01:30:24.880
twenty fifth, twenty ninth, second of July, two, on the

1005
01:30:24.880 --> 01:30:27.880
second of July, third of July, fifth, seventh of July,

1006
01:30:28.600 --> 01:30:33.319
thirteenth of July five years ago, sixteenth two on the

1007
01:30:33.359 --> 01:30:35.960
same date. See what I mean? It was like there

1008
01:30:36.039 --> 01:30:39.960
was dates. It wasn't every day, but sometimes it was

1009
01:30:40.000 --> 01:30:47.520
a few days in a row, and I ended up

1010
01:30:47.680 --> 01:30:52.119
doing so far got up to what's going on there?

1011
01:30:52.560 --> 01:30:58.439
That's weird? Go away, stop it. Two hundred and forty three,

1012
01:31:01.560 --> 01:31:06.439
nine years I suppose. Really there's quite a different. There's

1013
01:31:06.479 --> 01:31:08.560
a bit of a gap between when I started doing

1014
01:31:08.600 --> 01:31:15.520
them and I finished doing them. Did I answer the question?

1015
01:31:15.680 --> 01:31:17.760
I don't know what was the question? Now? Was what

1016
01:31:17.800 --> 01:31:18.399
was the question?

1017
01:31:20.000 --> 01:31:20.199
Oh?

1018
01:31:20.319 --> 01:31:25.359
Okay, I think I have so Yeah, thanks ing Ali

1019
01:31:25.600 --> 01:31:30.520
asks do you ever mis washing your hair? How rude?

1020
01:31:31.960 --> 01:31:36.920
Also curious about your take on poetry, both reading and writing. Well,

1021
01:31:37.199 --> 01:31:41.159
I do. I do still wash my hair even though

1022
01:31:42.159 --> 01:31:47.520
it's receding, and I do shave it, but I don't

1023
01:31:47.520 --> 01:31:51.079
shave it to the bone. I kind of trim it,

1024
01:31:51.119 --> 01:31:53.840
if you know what I mean. So I do still

1025
01:31:53.920 --> 01:31:56.159
wash because I've still got hair follicles, and I still wash.

1026
01:31:56.239 --> 01:31:58.000
I do still wash my hair when I'm in a shower.

1027
01:31:59.439 --> 01:32:03.479
And even it's going to sound weird. Even when I

1028
01:32:03.560 --> 01:32:05.800
used to shave my head all the way to the bone,

1029
01:32:05.960 --> 01:32:09.039
like completely, you know, to the scalp, I still used

1030
01:32:09.039 --> 01:32:13.199
to wash my scalp. It's just I don't know, it

1031
01:32:14.640 --> 01:32:16.760
just felt like I should, There's something I should do,

1032
01:32:18.119 --> 01:32:20.520
and so yeah, I do still wash. So even if

1033
01:32:20.520 --> 01:32:22.359
I was bored, i'd still wash my hair, even if

1034
01:32:22.359 --> 01:32:26.119
I was completely bald. However weird that might sound, I

1035
01:32:26.119 --> 01:32:35.760
probably would still wash my head. Yeah it might. Maybe

1036
01:32:35.800 --> 01:32:41.279
it's a weird thing to do. I'm not sure. Curious

1037
01:32:41.319 --> 01:32:47.640
about your take on poetry, both reading and writing. I

1038
01:32:47.800 --> 01:32:53.079
used to write poetry when I was a kid. I

1039
01:32:53.119 --> 01:32:57.159
suppose that was mointed songs. But I wrote poetry at

1040
01:32:57.239 --> 01:33:04.000
various times all the way through my twenties, and then

1041
01:33:04.079 --> 01:33:12.039
I kind of stopped. Yeah, I used to be quite

1042
01:33:12.039 --> 01:33:19.800
into poetry, but not probably not traditional poetry. I quite liked.

1043
01:33:19.840 --> 01:33:26.479
I was very into beat poetry, which was also I

1044
01:33:26.520 --> 01:33:30.800
was quite into Buddhist poetry as well. But this was

1045
01:33:30.840 --> 01:33:35.359
like the early nineties. I became very interested in the

1046
01:33:35.359 --> 01:33:39.319
Beat generation. Anna in Ginsburg. He did a book. It

1047
01:33:39.399 --> 01:33:44.800
was basically a poem called how and in it. I

1048
01:33:44.840 --> 01:33:46.920
can't say I enjoyed the book, to be honest, but

1049
01:33:47.159 --> 01:33:50.880
he was a big name in the They were all

1050
01:33:50.920 --> 01:33:55.479
on drugs, basically write in and doing all kinds of stuff.

1051
01:33:56.640 --> 01:34:02.159
But some of it really I liked. My favorite poets

1052
01:34:02.359 --> 01:34:07.439
and also he was a writer was Charles Berkowski, and

1053
01:34:07.800 --> 01:34:12.640
there's something about the realism. I liked, the the non

1054
01:34:12.840 --> 01:34:19.199
floweriness of him. He yeah, I'm not quite sure how

1055
01:34:19.239 --> 01:34:24.560
to explain it. And he didn't care about rhyming. And

1056
01:34:24.600 --> 01:34:28.600
that was the first time really that I think that

1057
01:34:28.760 --> 01:34:35.920
was the first time that when I discovered the Beat generation,

1058
01:34:37.000 --> 01:34:44.479
that I realized that not all poems rhyme, all rhymes rhyme,

1059
01:34:44.720 --> 01:34:50.560
were not all poems rhyme, not all ryme's poem. And

1060
01:34:52.880 --> 01:34:55.439
it threw me off a little bit because I was

1061
01:34:55.479 --> 01:35:04.600
always I was always a rhymer, generally, always rhymed and realizing.

1062
01:35:04.800 --> 01:35:10.439
And I think that was more to do with I

1063
01:35:10.439 --> 01:35:13.359
guess I was, you know, when I was probably from

1064
01:35:13.359 --> 01:35:16.880
the age of eight, I used to write lyrics songs

1065
01:35:18.359 --> 01:35:21.920
and song lyrics, so they kind of had to rhyme really.

1066
01:35:26.840 --> 01:35:29.439
But in the early nineties I thought, like ninety two,

1067
01:35:29.640 --> 01:35:36.039
ninety three, ninety four, I yeah, I got really into

1068
01:35:36.359 --> 01:35:39.399
the Beat generation poets. Not just them, I did read

1069
01:35:39.439 --> 01:35:49.439
other poetry as well. No, I wouldn't sound particularly a

1070
01:35:49.479 --> 01:35:57.039
fan of poetry. It's I think, because I'm able to

1071
01:35:57.079 --> 01:36:05.960
express myself, I don't really feel I need someone else

1072
01:36:06.000 --> 01:36:10.680
to express how I feel, if that makes any kind

1073
01:36:10.720 --> 01:36:17.079
of weird sense. And I think with poetry just as

1074
01:36:17.079 --> 01:36:19.720
in books, and you see it on Facebook posts, people

1075
01:36:20.119 --> 01:36:23.439
posting something that someone else has written, like this is

1076
01:36:23.479 --> 01:36:26.159
how I feel, Like, well, just tell me how you feel,

1077
01:36:26.199 --> 01:36:30.560
write down how you feel instead of just posting what

1078
01:36:30.680 --> 01:36:35.800
someone else has written. And I'm kind of that way,

1079
01:36:35.920 --> 01:36:40.279
I kind of if I'm gonna maybe I haven't always

1080
01:36:40.279 --> 01:36:41.920
been able to to do that, and maybe I don't

1081
01:36:41.920 --> 01:36:46.640
do it very well also, but I value the idea

1082
01:36:46.720 --> 01:36:58.159
of being able to just express myself with yeah done.

1083
01:36:58.239 --> 01:37:01.079
I'm not sure if this is making any sense. I'm

1084
01:37:01.079 --> 01:37:04.199
not putting down poetry at all because it's something that

1085
01:37:04.239 --> 01:37:09.439
I was never particularly any good at, but I think

1086
01:37:09.479 --> 01:37:11.840
that's a good thing about poetry is once I discovered

1087
01:37:11.880 --> 01:37:16.159
that it doesn't have to rhyme, I also discovered that

1088
01:37:16.239 --> 01:37:21.119
it doesn't have to be good. And then I discovered

1089
01:37:21.159 --> 01:37:24.760
that actually what's good for one person is not necessarily

1090
01:37:24.840 --> 01:37:27.680
good for another person. You know, because I was growing up,

1091
01:37:27.720 --> 01:37:30.800
I was still early twenties. It took a lot of

1092
01:37:30.880 --> 01:37:39.840
learning to realize that different people felt differently about different things.

1093
01:37:39.880 --> 01:37:42.199
And I kind of knew, but you know, it's still

1094
01:37:42.880 --> 01:37:53.800
an education. I'm still amazed, really how polarized people's opinions

1095
01:37:53.840 --> 01:38:01.039
can be sometimes like so different about the same subject.

1096
01:38:01.239 --> 01:38:06.800
It's almost like I just I see it on boxing

1097
01:38:06.960 --> 01:38:13.720
forums on Facebook, and someone will post something nice and

1098
01:38:13.760 --> 01:38:18.119
then someone to post something that really just goes completely

1099
01:38:18.159 --> 01:38:25.119
the other way, and I'm like, what why what what? What? What?

1100
01:38:25.119 --> 01:38:25.279
Who?

1101
01:38:27.159 --> 01:38:32.119
Don't way? I'm not going to talk about boxing. So

1102
01:38:37.000 --> 01:38:40.319
I would have been I would have liked to have

1103
01:38:40.359 --> 01:38:44.800
been good with I think. I think with writing, I'm

1104
01:38:44.840 --> 01:38:54.359
a reader rather than a writer with poetry and possibly

1105
01:38:54.399 --> 01:39:01.159
a bit of both. I don't do at the moment.

1106
01:39:02.760 --> 01:39:05.319
I used to write, but I used to like write journals.

1107
01:39:10.079 --> 01:39:19.279
I've discovered in more recent years that my writing is verbal.

1108
01:39:22.000 --> 01:39:26.439
My creativity is verbal. It's not writing down on a

1109
01:39:26.479 --> 01:39:31.479
piece of paper or typing on a screen, you know,

1110
01:39:31.560 --> 01:39:37.279
typing on a laptop or whatever. It's just me talking,

1111
01:39:39.319 --> 01:39:43.720
whether it's whether it's a good thing or not. This

1112
01:39:43.920 --> 01:39:49.000
is my this isn't my way of expressing myself. And

1113
01:39:54.159 --> 01:39:59.319
I think something that happened oh years ago, is it?

1114
01:39:59.399 --> 01:40:03.119
Probably is first I started happening. Probably it happened when

1115
01:40:03.119 --> 01:40:07.319
I was a kid, but it was harder back then.

1116
01:40:07.520 --> 01:40:13.680
But then, when I was probably late teens, I started

1117
01:40:13.680 --> 01:40:24.840
to realize that gradually, how I felt my thoughts were

1118
01:40:24.960 --> 01:40:29.520
just as valid as other people's thoughts. What I had

1119
01:40:29.520 --> 01:40:32.840
to say was just as valid as theirs. It didn't

1120
01:40:32.880 --> 01:40:37.319
mean that I was right or that they were right,

1121
01:40:37.439 --> 01:40:39.119
or that they were wrong, or that I was wrong,

1122
01:40:41.000 --> 01:40:45.359
but it's equal. However, it was difficult back then because

1123
01:40:45.359 --> 01:40:48.000
I was around a lot of older people, and I

1124
01:40:48.079 --> 01:40:51.680
found that a lot of them were true to me,

1125
01:40:51.920 --> 01:40:57.439
like a young person talking down to me, almost telling

1126
01:40:57.479 --> 01:41:06.119
me how things should be. But over time, I guess

1127
01:41:06.159 --> 01:41:11.840
once I got to my twenties, I was reading a

1128
01:41:11.840 --> 01:41:17.159
lot more and I was kind of educating myself, and

1129
01:41:17.239 --> 01:41:22.600
I was starting to realize getting to getting to know myself.

1130
01:41:22.640 --> 01:41:26.920
I suppose it's taken decades to even get to where

1131
01:41:26.960 --> 01:41:28.479
I am now, and I'm not sure where I am.

1132
01:41:29.039 --> 01:41:31.319
I know where I am, but you know, I'm not

1133
01:41:31.359 --> 01:41:36.920
sure what kind of progression I've made. And it's just

1134
01:41:36.960 --> 01:41:49.880
the most serious Q and a Friday. Ever, I do apologize, yeah,

1135
01:41:50.399 --> 01:41:52.720
that point, and this is something that I've thought about

1136
01:41:52.800 --> 01:41:59.079
back then, is like without getting into an argument with someone,

1137
01:41:59.720 --> 01:42:05.399
you know, and I know sometimes it is just opinions,

1138
01:42:05.399 --> 01:42:08.760
but my opinions is my opinion is as valid as

1139
01:42:08.800 --> 01:42:14.600
anyone else's, regardless of how ridiculous it might be at times.

1140
01:42:17.000 --> 01:42:19.479
But I also realized as I got older that I

1141
01:42:19.520 --> 01:42:27.840
would never I don't hold opinions that highly. And I

1142
01:42:27.960 --> 01:42:40.920
realized that over time that having restrictive, unmovable beliefs in

1143
01:42:41.000 --> 01:42:44.399
some ways can be really helpful, but in other ways

1144
01:42:44.640 --> 01:42:50.800
maybe not so much. So I think I spent the

1145
01:42:50.880 --> 01:43:01.279
last probably twenty years slowly and you know, I'm trying

1146
01:43:01.359 --> 01:43:11.640
to reduce my beliefs, reduce my limited thinking. And there

1147
01:43:11.720 --> 01:43:13.520
is a lot of limited I don't have a lot

1148
01:43:13.520 --> 01:43:23.359
of limited thinking. My brain, for you know, my brain

1149
01:43:23.439 --> 01:43:29.199
is definitely not not wired correctly, which is fine, but

1150
01:43:30.199 --> 01:43:44.439
it's made life difficult. Wow, my stomach's been gurgling for

1151
01:43:44.520 --> 01:43:48.720
two days now when I'm hungry. Maybe used to go Well,

1152
01:43:48.840 --> 01:43:51.239
maybe it's always gurgled. I just not noticed it before,

1153
01:43:55.920 --> 01:43:59.800
but I've tried to because I think what's helped is

1154
01:44:00.039 --> 01:44:04.800
being around people that have different belief systems to me,

1155
01:44:05.560 --> 01:44:11.279
like completely different. And I know some people I've seen

1156
01:44:11.640 --> 01:44:15.880
on Facebook if you support that politician, then we're not

1157
01:44:16.000 --> 01:44:19.880
friends that kind of stuff, Like, Okay, I don't get that.

1158
01:44:20.319 --> 01:44:26.760
I really don't, because I just don't. And if I

1159
01:44:26.840 --> 01:44:29.159
wasn't friends with people that had different opinions to me,

1160
01:44:32.079 --> 01:44:36.720
I literally would not have any friends because I don't

1161
01:44:36.800 --> 01:44:43.279
know anyone that has the same viewpoints as myself generally,

1162
01:44:50.359 --> 01:44:54.439
maybe some, but not, like you know, there's always I mean,

1163
01:44:54.520 --> 01:44:56.760
I was speaking to someone the other day and it's amazing.

1164
01:44:56.840 --> 01:45:04.479
They came out with something that was outrageous, like outrageous

1165
01:45:06.600 --> 01:45:11.640
that they weren't joking, that's the thing, And I was like, wow, okay,

1166
01:45:12.439 --> 01:45:17.640
but I didn't care. Thirty years ago I might have

1167
01:45:17.720 --> 01:45:22.079
had something to say, but like that, it doesn't matter.

1168
01:45:22.119 --> 01:45:26.520
Has laughed because everyone can believe what they want to believe.

1169
01:45:27.760 --> 01:45:33.960
I can't control what other people think, and there's a

1170
01:45:34.079 --> 01:45:36.760
kind of peacefulness in that, I think, kind of a

1171
01:45:38.680 --> 01:45:48.039
sense of relaxation and again letting go, realizing that I'm

1172
01:45:48.039 --> 01:45:57.000
only really responsible for what I think. Yeah, man, wow,

1173
01:45:57.119 --> 01:46:02.439
this has got deep. I'll give you that. For those

1174
01:46:02.479 --> 01:46:05.920
that don't know, I used to write songs, okay, when

1175
01:46:05.920 --> 01:46:08.520
I was eight, nine, ten, eleven, all the way up

1176
01:46:08.600 --> 01:46:11.239
to fifteen. All in fact, all the way up to

1177
01:46:14.680 --> 01:46:16.760
the last one I did. I was think I was thirty.

1178
01:46:18.279 --> 01:46:21.520
So I've written a few songs, even recorded a few songs,

1179
01:46:22.279 --> 01:46:26.920
not professionally, but with a professional musician, you know, but

1180
01:46:27.000 --> 01:46:31.680
not in an actual studio studio, you know. But the

1181
01:46:31.840 --> 01:46:35.479
lyrics of my first song was called Mandy and I

1182
01:46:35.560 --> 01:46:40.600
recorded that when I was eight or nine. Mandy Baby

1183
01:46:41.600 --> 01:46:44.840
is basically as a girl I met at caravan Park

1184
01:46:46.039 --> 01:46:49.680
and I fell in love with her. We spent one

1185
01:46:49.760 --> 01:46:53.399
day together, I think, each run around pulling each other

1186
01:46:53.479 --> 01:46:57.960
it's hair and running off again and checking sad at

1187
01:46:57.960 --> 01:47:00.199
each other, you know, things like that. And then she

1188
01:47:00.319 --> 01:47:03.119
left and so I realized I was I loved her forever.

1189
01:47:04.399 --> 01:47:08.720
So I wrote a song Mandy. It's called Mandy Baby.

1190
01:47:08.920 --> 01:47:12.039
Listen to me Mandy Baby, I want you to see

1191
01:47:12.560 --> 01:47:15.359
Mandy Deer, I want you to hear. I don't want

1192
01:47:15.520 --> 01:47:18.760
a single tear. I love you, baby, Mandy I do.

1193
01:47:19.279 --> 01:47:21.079
I just want to know if you love me too.

1194
01:47:21.760 --> 01:47:25.279
Just say something. I want to know, Just say something

1195
01:47:25.520 --> 01:47:30.520
like hello, oh Mandy, I love you. That's a lot

1196
01:47:30.600 --> 01:47:33.640
more enthusiastic when I sing it, or when I used

1197
01:47:33.640 --> 01:47:37.880
to sing it like, man, be bit, listen to me. Okay,

1198
01:47:38.119 --> 01:47:41.039
well I'm not going to sing it now. I did

1199
01:47:41.079 --> 01:47:44.640
another one. It was like, do you really have to

1200
01:47:44.680 --> 01:47:47.680
go and leave me in great sorrow? Do you really

1201
01:47:47.720 --> 01:47:50.319
have to leave and say goodbye to me without affection?

1202
01:47:51.159 --> 01:47:56.600
I will definitely miss your tender, loving kiss. I don't

1203
01:47:56.600 --> 01:47:59.239
feel they've even kissed the girl at that point. So

1204
01:47:59.279 --> 01:48:01.279
that was another song. I can't remember that. There was

1205
01:48:01.319 --> 01:48:04.840
another one called called Sarah. It's a bad Girl I

1206
01:48:04.880 --> 01:48:10.159
was in love with when I was about fourteen. Sarah Baby,

1207
01:48:10.239 --> 01:48:13.079
listen to me, Sarah Baby, I want you to see. No,

1208
01:48:13.600 --> 01:48:17.399
it's a different song. So, dear Sarah, how do you

1209
01:48:17.479 --> 01:48:20.960
do hope you're missing me the way I'm missing you.

1210
01:48:21.720 --> 01:48:24.359
She didn't even like me. I don't know what like.

1211
01:48:24.640 --> 01:48:27.399
She didn't miss me. She wasn't interested in me. She

1212
01:48:27.439 --> 01:48:31.760
told me to go away. But hey, anyway, dear Sarah,

1213
01:48:31.840 --> 01:48:34.840
how do you do hope you're missing me the way

1214
01:48:35.000 --> 01:48:38.720
I'm missing you? Do you think about me in your dreams?

1215
01:48:39.159 --> 01:48:44.920
If you do, think about out out what it seems. Okay,

1216
01:48:45.880 --> 01:48:49.359
it's bad, you know, so think about what it's, what

1217
01:48:49.399 --> 01:48:53.680
it means. Feelings are not always shown during the day,

1218
01:48:54.000 --> 01:48:58.239
but when you go to sleep, or your worries or

1219
01:48:58.279 --> 01:49:03.239
your problems drift away, or or your worries drift away,

1220
01:49:03.720 --> 01:49:07.840
then your feelings start to arise. Your feelings start to rise,

1221
01:49:08.439 --> 01:49:14.039
showing something that you didn't realize. It's quite deep actually,

1222
01:49:14.079 --> 01:49:17.880
for my age. Really, feelings are not always shown during

1223
01:49:17.920 --> 01:49:20.359
the day, but when you go to sleep or your

1224
01:49:20.399 --> 01:49:26.439
worries drift away, then your feelings start to arise, showing

1225
01:49:26.479 --> 01:49:34.319
something that you didn't realize. I love you, Sarah. I

1226
01:49:34.479 --> 01:49:38.920
love you, I really do. There's nothing I can do

1227
01:49:42.119 --> 01:49:46.439
something else like, oh, Sarah, I love you. So that

1228
01:49:46.560 --> 01:49:47.840
was what I did when I was a kid. And

1229
01:49:47.840 --> 01:49:50.000
then when I was about twenty six, I did a

1230
01:49:50.000 --> 01:49:56.880
song called I miss You. I can remember the words

1231
01:49:56.880 --> 01:50:04.439
of this one. I missed the way that the chorus

1232
01:50:04.560 --> 01:50:08.399
was I wish you'd come back to me. I wish

1233
01:50:08.479 --> 01:50:11.520
you'd come back to me. I wish you'd be part

1234
01:50:11.680 --> 01:50:16.920
of my world. I miss you endlessly. Once you, please

1235
01:50:17.000 --> 01:50:20.720
be my girl, I'll be the best that I can be.

1236
01:50:22.479 --> 01:50:26.960
I'll be the best UH can be, letting you know

1237
01:50:27.119 --> 01:50:32.600
just how I feel, and letting you know that my

1238
01:50:32.680 --> 01:50:35.279
love is real. Something like that. But it was like

1239
01:50:35.399 --> 01:50:39.640
I miss you, I missed the miss the way I'll

1240
01:50:39.720 --> 01:50:43.199
touch your fingertips with my lips or something like that.

1241
01:50:43.840 --> 01:50:46.079
So there was that one, and I did the the

1242
01:50:46.199 --> 01:50:51.560
Tuesday song, which was I I I wonder, I wonder,

1243
01:50:51.680 --> 01:51:02.960
I wonder why do you? Was it? I wish you'd

1244
01:51:02.960 --> 01:51:06.800
come back to me. I wish you'd be part of

1245
01:51:07.079 --> 01:51:12.720
my world. I'll kiss you endlessly and show you they'll

1246
01:51:12.800 --> 01:51:17.199
let me be your girl. I do do do do

1247
01:51:17.000 --> 01:51:21.119
do do, show you just how much for you? Whatever?

1248
01:51:21.199 --> 01:51:28.640
That was that one? What was it? I I I wonder,

1249
01:51:29.359 --> 01:51:34.239
I wonder, wonder why why you had to leave and

1250
01:51:34.319 --> 01:51:45.800
take my heart away from me? I wonder wonder you.

1251
01:51:45.680 --> 01:51:49.479
Had to leave and take my heart away from me?

1252
01:51:50.399 --> 01:51:59.239
Why did you lie to me? And then a's of course,

1253
01:51:59.760 --> 01:52:06.960
don't you worthy? You never do because someday I'll get

1254
01:52:06.800 --> 01:52:10.479
it all with you or something like that, and then

1255
01:52:10.520 --> 01:52:12.439
there's another bit that's like the bridge. Then there's a

1256
01:52:12.479 --> 01:52:19.199
chorus do do Do Do Do Do Do Do Do

1257
01:52:19.039 --> 01:52:27.239
Do Do Do do do do well. Yeah. I can't

1258
01:52:27.239 --> 01:52:30.279
remember what the Tuesday Song was. It was a twenty

1259
01:52:30.920 --> 01:52:34.279
it was a I think it was the eight Hour

1260
01:52:34.399 --> 01:52:39.079
Tuesday Song or eight hour Epic song, because I spent

1261
01:52:39.159 --> 01:52:42.640
eight hours recording it. Because what I used to do

1262
01:52:42.760 --> 01:52:47.159
is go around my cousins and my cousin's dad kind

1263
01:52:47.199 --> 01:52:50.479
of my uncle. He was a professional musician in a

1264
01:52:50.520 --> 01:52:53.640
band and he played the guitar and he'd been doing

1265
01:52:53.640 --> 01:52:59.720
it for decades. He had recording equipment and everything musical

1266
01:52:59.720 --> 01:53:05.600
and when it's keyboards, computers, eight track or whatever, you know,

1267
01:53:05.680 --> 01:53:11.960
to record stuff. So we recorded did ticket to write

1268
01:53:12.800 --> 01:53:14.720
That was one of the first things we ever did,

1269
01:53:15.319 --> 01:53:20.159
which was the Beatles song, And did the UB forty

1270
01:53:20.640 --> 01:53:24.159
if you don't know Me by now, If you don't

1271
01:53:24.199 --> 01:53:29.079
know me by now, and that came out quite nice.

1272
01:53:29.439 --> 01:53:33.960
And then I did the I Miss You went around

1273
01:53:33.960 --> 01:53:37.159
there because I split up with my girlfriend and I

1274
01:53:37.199 --> 01:53:39.359
wanted to get back together with her for some reason,

1275
01:53:39.880 --> 01:53:43.840
so I wrote that song. Oh. The next one was

1276
01:53:43.880 --> 01:53:47.720
called I wrote your song. Okay, so I wrote the

1277
01:53:47.760 --> 01:53:50.239
song I miss you, and then I wrote a song

1278
01:53:50.359 --> 01:53:55.039
about having written the song, which is called I wrote

1279
01:53:55.039 --> 01:53:59.159
your song. And it was like I wrote you a song.

1280
01:54:00.199 --> 01:54:04.840
It took quite a long time. I pleaded to you,

1281
01:54:06.119 --> 01:54:09.000
this is not it was some better than this way,

1282
01:54:09.159 --> 01:54:11.920
and all you did was look out of the window

1283
01:54:12.039 --> 01:54:16.880
and side. It took a long time to write the

1284
01:54:17.359 --> 01:54:21.479
e f in thing, but you didn't. You just didn't

1285
01:54:22.079 --> 01:54:25.680
care it all. And then this is the chorus. Why

1286
01:54:25.720 --> 01:54:30.399
did I bother? Why did I try? Why did I

1287
01:54:30.600 --> 01:54:36.600
even take the ta ha hahim? Why did I bother?

1288
01:54:37.920 --> 01:54:42.640
Why did I try to write this song for you?

1289
01:54:42.880 --> 01:54:47.920
Because it didn't even play on your mind or something

1290
01:54:47.960 --> 01:54:55.119
like that. And and then I didn't have one.

1291
01:54:55.560 --> 01:55:03.159
I wonder, I wonder, wonder why you had to leave

1292
01:55:04.159 --> 01:55:08.439
and take my heart away from me? But don't you worry.

1293
01:55:08.760 --> 01:55:13.039
You never did because somewhere out you never do somewhere

1294
01:55:13.600 --> 01:55:18.039
in and our review, yeah mind me.

1295
01:55:18.600 --> 01:55:20.479
And there was another one as well. I can't remember,

1296
01:55:21.920 --> 01:55:27.279
So I think I did four songs with music and

1297
01:55:29.880 --> 01:55:34.159
you know, proper microphones and stuff. And my cousin was

1298
01:55:34.199 --> 01:55:38.319
embarrassed by them. So I actually posted them on Facebook,

1299
01:55:38.720 --> 01:55:41.760
probably about ten years ago, and he said please take

1300
01:55:41.800 --> 01:55:45.920
them off because he helped also produce them because he

1301
01:55:46.000 --> 01:55:50.359
was on the keyboard and stuff. And I thought they

1302
01:55:50.359 --> 01:55:53.439
were good. I know that the quality was terrible because

1303
01:55:53.439 --> 01:55:56.760
they were old, you know, ninety six ninety seven, some

1304
01:55:56.920 --> 01:56:06.039
long time ago, fuzzy, that they were saved on a tape,

1305
01:56:06.399 --> 01:56:09.279
you know, like a normal tape, not digital or anything.

1306
01:56:13.760 --> 01:56:16.239
I just I guess I just meant a lot to me.

1307
01:56:21.560 --> 01:56:23.960
But I guess that was my poetry. That was me

1308
01:56:24.279 --> 01:56:28.359
trying to do poetry. And I loved singing. I loved

1309
01:56:28.920 --> 01:56:31.199
I wanted to be a singer. It's probably the thing

1310
01:56:31.199 --> 01:56:34.840
I wanted most of all of anything I've ever wanted

1311
01:56:34.840 --> 01:56:41.800
to do, probably was to be a singer. It's not

1312
01:56:41.840 --> 01:56:46.000
going to happen because I can't really sing anymore, but

1313
01:56:46.079 --> 01:56:49.359
I used to be able to sing quite well, and

1314
01:56:51.640 --> 01:56:53.640
I kind of wish I pursued it a little bit.

1315
01:56:57.399 --> 01:57:00.640
I mean, you know, I entered talent content. I never

1316
01:57:00.680 --> 01:57:05.319
wanted talent contest singing contest. But at the same time,

1317
01:57:05.359 --> 01:57:09.039
I never got kicked off, I never got booed. I

1318
01:57:09.079 --> 01:57:12.199
guess I was maybe I was mediocre. I was I

1319
01:57:12.199 --> 01:57:18.800
could hold a note and I was okay. You know,

1320
01:57:20.079 --> 01:57:24.880
I think I was better with songs that I wrote

1321
01:57:25.760 --> 01:57:31.960
because technically they can't be out of key, really, if

1322
01:57:31.960 --> 01:57:35.079
it's your own song. If you listen to some Beatles songs,

1323
01:57:35.640 --> 01:57:37.479
there's a few that are a little bit off key.

1324
01:57:38.720 --> 01:57:40.720
That a bit of John Lennon singing and it's kind

1325
01:57:40.720 --> 01:57:44.560
of off a little bit, but it doesn't matter because

1326
01:57:45.840 --> 01:57:50.720
that's what makes me so good. I'm not saying he

1327
01:57:50.760 --> 01:57:52.359
was singing out a key, but it was kind of.

1328
01:57:53.319 --> 01:57:59.119
I just didn't your Dodge will mess with a John Lennon. No,

1329
01:57:59.239 --> 01:57:59.680
it's someding.

1330
01:57:59.760 --> 01:57:59.920
You know.

1331
01:58:00.119 --> 01:58:00.359
It was.

1332
01:58:02.119 --> 01:58:06.920
Recorded, and some of the earlier stuff was recorded quickly.

1333
01:58:07.039 --> 01:58:11.840
You can hear, it's almost live. It's recorded, and then

1334
01:58:11.279 --> 01:58:14.399
they rushed it out and sold it and you can hear.

1335
01:58:14.600 --> 01:58:18.239
And that's why it's so good because it was not polished.

1336
01:58:18.359 --> 01:58:22.359
The early stuff wasn't polished like the later stuff. You know,

1337
01:58:22.439 --> 01:58:27.239
if you go to the later stuff, it was other

1338
01:58:27.319 --> 01:58:34.720
than Probably at the time, there wasn't many albums, many

1339
01:58:34.760 --> 01:58:40.439
groups putting that much effort into production quality as they

1340
01:58:40.439 --> 01:58:44.239
did with Sergeant Pepper or the last album they did

1341
01:58:47.119 --> 01:58:57.720
how do they get talking about a Beatles? I don't know. So, yeah,

1342
01:58:58.359 --> 01:59:00.840
I did quite like the idea of right poems I

1343
01:59:00.880 --> 01:59:03.640
did write really well. I thought was a really good

1344
01:59:03.680 --> 01:59:15.079
poem once about my childhood, and I wrote it probably

1345
01:59:18.319 --> 01:59:22.359
early nineties. I got back into writing poetry ninety five.

1346
01:59:23.760 --> 01:59:29.279
That kind of helped me get through some stuff. M

1347
01:59:31.119 --> 01:59:34.039
But what I used to find is I'd always end

1348
01:59:34.119 --> 01:59:38.840
up going a little bit silly with it and almost

1349
01:59:38.880 --> 01:59:43.640
finding like a funny line here and there. So I

1350
01:59:43.640 --> 01:59:46.520
guess that's just part of me. And I wasn't setting

1351
01:59:46.560 --> 01:59:50.439
out to say a funny do a funny poem, so

1352
01:59:50.479 --> 01:59:54.279
it'd be kind of serious and then it'd be silly,

1353
01:59:54.520 --> 01:59:56.600
a little silly bit at the end or maybe in

1354
01:59:56.640 --> 02:00:01.760
the middle. And yeah, yeah, I quite like them. I

1355
02:00:01.800 --> 02:00:05.399
wish i'd kept them. If I had kept all my

1356
02:00:05.479 --> 02:00:10.359
poems i'd ever written, they might not be a lot.

1357
02:00:10.359 --> 02:00:14.520
But it's probably about fifty maybe one hundred, maybe more,

1358
02:00:14.600 --> 02:00:18.479
maybe much more than that, but you know, over the years,

1359
02:00:21.399 --> 02:00:31.720
oh well, oh well, never mind. Day. Yeah, I think

1360
02:00:31.800 --> 02:00:33.880
that's the end of the recording. I don't know how

1361
02:00:33.880 --> 02:00:40.239
long I've been talking for It still light outside, not

1362
02:00:40.359 --> 02:00:42.279
that that really means too much because it's light till

1363
02:00:42.279 --> 02:00:46.880
about ten o'clock. I think it's half part. It's five

1364
02:00:46.920 --> 02:00:57.239
point thirty five pm, so this does bring me to

1365
02:00:57.359 --> 02:01:06.520
the end of this recording. So thank you for listening.

1366
02:01:07.600 --> 02:01:13.880
Thank you, Hope, temmy Ng and Ali for your questions.

1367
02:01:14.079 --> 02:01:19.439
I hope I've answered them. I'm not sure if I have.

1368
02:01:21.000 --> 02:01:25.640
I might have slightly gone off track. It's possible it

1369
02:01:25.720 --> 02:01:29.520
may have happened once or twice before. So thank you

1370
02:01:29.560 --> 02:01:33.039
for listening. Remember to be kind to yourself because you

1371
02:01:33.119 --> 02:01:36.159
do deserve to be happy and be gentle with yourself.

1372
02:01:37.439 --> 02:01:45.800
You deserve to feel safe. Lots of love. Bye,