May 30, 2025

(music) Q&A Friday | LMBYTS #1362 | 30th May 2025

(music) Q&A Friday | LMBYTS #1362 | 30th May 2025
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Hello, Welcome to Benny making noise in the background. Welcome

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to Jason new Land dot com. My name is Jason Newland.

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This is let me boy to sleep Q and a

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fridayf and I've got a little bit of a different

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setup or to start with, I'm filming it for some reason.

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Don't ask me why. I don't know why. I never

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know why. I never know why. I do a lot

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of things. Really, there's some background stuff and I was

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hoping to have the cause I've basically got the camera.

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I've got the window in front of me, so I've

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got natural light. Now. It just means the backgrounds a

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little bit mm hmm, messy a bit, and I'm warm.

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I ain't got any any lights on nothing. Having a

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sunshine on my face probably does it, doesn't it. So

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what I'm going to do is or did I say,

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only listen and you can safely close or eyes, hopefully

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I did. I'm looking down here because that's where my

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laptop is, and this is where all the Christians are

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in case you wondered, So I hope you will, just

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to let you know. I mean you probably already may

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be a member, but I've got a Jason Newlands boring

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group on Facebook, and also got a YouTube channel at

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Jason new Land. That's it, really, I'm sure that takes

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longer normally, I do. I mean I do. Also also

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also also have the website, so I had a few

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stuff going on with the website, changed things around, and

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what I've done is it's all been up, it's all back.

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I did the recording yesterday, but I decided not to

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upload it because it he you know, wasn't wasn't quite

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what I wanted it to be. And you may query

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that thinking, well, you mean the ones that you actually

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upload are to your satisfaction. Oh. I took Finnie out

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for a walk for an hour, out for an hour,

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nice lovely. Went out early about about half seven, got

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back about half eight. It is now eighteen minutes past ten.

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Oh gas lovely. So all the changes I did has

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all gone back to how it was. So the podcasts

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are back how they were, the website's back how it was,

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Everything's back to exactly how it was at the beginning

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of the week. Yeah, So that's it really. So if

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you haven't watched or listened or had any you know,

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had any contact since the beginning of the week, then

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there'd be no change, no change. So what I'm going

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to do, I'm going to go through the recordings of

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the questions in my visual air. So today's Friday, the thirtieth,

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thirtieth of May. How many days is there in this month?

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Thirty one? Right, So next week Tuesday? Okay, all right,

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so thirty one. So it's the first on Sunday, twenty

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twenty five. So the first question I got is from

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Hope and it is what got you interested in? No,

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wait a minute, I'm doing it from the wrong. I

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want to do the first ones first. So I want

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to go to Hillary first, because Hillary asked the first question.

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I'd just like to do things in a certain order Hillary. Also,

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I want to say thank you for the PayPal gift

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that I received, but I didn't. I don't know who

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sent it. I do, but I don't if that makes sense.

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There is no email address to reply. And also I

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was looking through my emails to see because I would

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have responded, and I think I'm perably going to have

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to go through Facebook. It just gets like confusing. So

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if you can contact me, please so I can say

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thank you. And I think it's just I get confused sometimes,

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especially when I look in the mirror, Hillary asks, really

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sad that you're not using a word BlimE me anymore. Also,

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what would you do if you won the lottery? Oh? Wow,

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I've had fantasies about this, and I'm sure I'll not

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the only one, so blimey. I. I mean it depends

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on how much a one, So I guess it's a

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fantasy or win like huge amounts. I mean, you know,

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one hundred grand would be a huge amount to me.

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A million would be a huge amount. But you know,

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I'm thinking, like in order to do what I want

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to do, in order to share it. So the very

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first thing I would do is I probably just maybe

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give my dad a few quid, maybe like get together. No,

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I thought, and this is something that I should have. Yeah,

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it's kind of two beginnings to this. The first one

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is where I say, right, the money never had money before,

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So that money's going to see I read my faces,

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it's going outside. It's just to catch the sun I

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burn in the winter. Seriously, that's kind of skin I got.

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So I like the idea. Wow, I see how dusty

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this is. BlimE me. I didn't realize is it dusty?

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Is it just the light shining on it. I think

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it might just be the light shining on it. Yes,

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I think it's a bit of both. I think it's

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the light. Actually it probably is dusty as well. So

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I'm talking about the microphone grip thing at the top.

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For those listening on the podcast. My fantasy is first

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of all, to get either get everyone together in one place,

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invite everyone to party, get them picked up wherever they

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are in the country, picked up by chauffeur and brought

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to this place, and then hand out money to everyone.

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That's like a little fantasy. But there's the I suppose

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there's another part of he thinks, well my best my

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best move would be too. I think if if I

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was to win a lot of money, you need to

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splash out a little bit. You need to have a

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good time initially to celebrate even you know that. I

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don't mean spend lots of money, but just need to

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do something, go on holiday, or you know, buy myself

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a really good camera or you know for video in

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I don't know, something like that. Maybe by this place

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here's something that would be like an initial thing. So

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that would mean that because that would give me security

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in the future. So if I do was to blow

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through it, or at least i'd have a home. But

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I quite like the idea of just stepping back, going away,

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and I don't necessarily mean a holiday. I always used

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to think, maybe some kind of health club for six

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months or three months, go away from everything. It probably

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wouldn't be able to do that with Vinnie, so i'd

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have to get rid of him. Yeah, this is what

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I thought about before I had Vinnie and Andre. So

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this is something I thought about a lot over the years.

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It's a little fantasy. I like to just go to

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sleep too sometimes just thinking about all the good things

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I could do, you know. But I thought maybe have

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a step back instead of Because you know, a million

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pounds is a phenomenal amount of money, but at the

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same time, if you break it down, it's three thousand

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pounds a day for a year, or three thousand, three

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hundred whatever, it's not that much. Just it's be easy

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to spend three thousand pounds a day just going to

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really expensive restaurants and stuff like. You know. I mean,

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if you are buying a really expensive coat an item

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of clothing, go and buy a watch that would cost

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like one hundred grand or fifty grand you said what

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I mean, so you could get through it in a

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year if if I wasn't careful, So I'd have to

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be careful. And I think people are used to having

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money are better with money. There's an old saying, an

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old saying that if you took because you know, there's

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this whole thing, why why is I need two percent

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of the world got two percent of the world have

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got something like ninety five percent of the of the

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of the wealth or ninety percent of the wealth. But

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some economic experts have kind of got their heads together

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and said, well, if you spread all that money out

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between everybody in the world, that money would still end

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up back into that percentage. And I can kind of

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understand that because to never have had money it would

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be I mean even to have so if I like

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a five thousand pound would be like winning the lottery

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in a way, you know, So to step back, and

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I think this would be a time when I would

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actually go and listen to my dad. I go to

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my dad and I get his advice because he's always

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been really good with money. So I think I would

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I would sweat like I am today. I think the

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heating is on. Why is the heating on. It's it's

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gone off, but it's not. It's been on. That's why

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it's hot. BlimE me. See, I'm going to try and

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say it throughout this recording. BlimE me, BlimE me, BlimE me.

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I think I quite like the idea of going away.

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So maybe I couldn't go and leave Vinnie on his

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own for any length of time because it's not fair

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on him. But I definitely do a couple of weeks away,

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and I'd need a holiday, so I'd go away for

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a couple of weeks, pay someone to look after him

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here to stay in my flat for that period of time.

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I don't know who, but someone that I trusted again

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asking it, I don't know who I could trust to

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do that, but I'd find someone and then go away

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for a couple of weeks just to think things over,

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just to figure out what I'm going to do next,

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to plan it, you know. Then I would go. I

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suppose the first people would go and see would be

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my dad. I would try and get my dad to

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get everyone together like immediate family, and then I would

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I'd speak to my dad first about the money, and

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I would give him so if I if I won

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lots and lots. Then I would give him a big amount,

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and I would the people I would give money to

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at the very beginning would be my brother. In fact,

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I would track down the other two brothers and give

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money to them as well, and so i'd give I'll

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give money to all three brothers, and then my step

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brother and stepsister give them money, So that would be

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six people to give money to my dad. I mean

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that would be shared with his wife anyway, with my

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step mom, so that's for the two of them, so

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six loads of money would be gone. I'd probably then

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also give money to my first step mom via my

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little brother, so give him the money to give to her.

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And I would also give money to my step uncle

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or I haven't seen since I was a teenager, but

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he was so lovely, so I would give him money

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because I think he's according to my brother, he's not

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doing so great, so I would help him out. And

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then I would go and give money to both my

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aunties and my uncle. So I kind of work my

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way down knock down, but like go for the obvious people,

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even though I don't really have much contact with any

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of them, but still my relatives, so I give them

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money then, and I'm thinking it'd be cool if I

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had like millions and millions and millions, so give them

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like fifty grand each, because that's a substantial amount to

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actually potentially make a difference to their life. It might not,

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but I'm thinking it might in the sense of they

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can at least go on holiday, going toward the world,

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travel the world, go on a few holidays with that,

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I imagine. I don't know how much holiday would be

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for a couple to go on holiday. I don't know.

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I've never gone on holiday as a couple. I've never

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done a cruise, like my dad likes cruises. My dad

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likes to cruise, so I don't know. They can be

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quite expensive. I know I do all So, I mean,

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I would like to travel the world on a cruise,

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but there's no way in the world I'm leaving Vinnie Vinnie's.

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That won't happen while I've got Vinnie, because that would

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be like a six month, six month thing, you know.

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I mean, I could go off for the odd week

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and stuff, which I probably would do, but I'm not

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gonna leave the little penguin. I'm just trying to think

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what's in the background. There's a lot of rubbish in

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the background here, I might try and edit it so

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that the background is blank or blue or green or something.

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I might try and do that on a video. I

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don't know how easy it is to do that. So

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then what I'd do is I would then move to

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probably aim at cousins, send money to the cousins I've

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had contact with, maybe even give money to cousins that

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I haven't seen since I was a kid, just because

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they're family, you know, just like just give them some money.

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So I've got probably one, two, three, four, five, six, seven,

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eight nine, probably about ten cousins I have contact with one,

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but yeah, there's a couple that I haven't seen for years,

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but I was very very close to them, so I'd

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give them money. I'd also give their mum money as well.

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So I lived with her for four years and she

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did help me out. I annoyed the hell out of

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me and I annoyed her, but she did help me out,

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So I do you know, now I appreciate it. Maybe

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at the time I did as well, but we just

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used to annoy each other. So I'd give her money,

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give her kids money. I give the dad money as well,

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because I've gotten very well with him as well, So

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I give all of them money to do what they

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want it. So i'd like to, you know, if it

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was ten grand even, you know, I give something so

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that could I'm literally dripping. The radios aren't on. They're warm,

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but they're not on, if you know what I mean.

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I can't if I got got up and turned it off,

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it wouldn't click because it is turned off. But why

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did they come on? Yes, So I that's one way

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of doing it. And then I would give money to friends.

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So I'd start with family first. Technically friends, I would

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say possibly is the beginning, because anyone that I see

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on a regular basis is in some ways closer than

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family in a way. I mean, I have more conversation

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with dog walkers and i'd do with my own family,

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but more meaningful conversations as well sometimes, but that's just

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because they don't. No one lives near me, and you know,

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I don't go out, I don't go very don't travel

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very far. I'll get myself a chauffeur and I'll buy

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myself a very expensive car. I don't know I would need.

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I think I quite like the idea of having a

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taxi driver. So if there was someone that I knew

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that I liked to be my taxi driver and just

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drive me around if I needed to drive around, and

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I would. This is going to take the whole record

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and just talking about my fantasies, isn't it. I Yeah,

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I think taking a step back would be very very useful,

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taking a step back and like, okay, go away for

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a couple of weeks. I'd have to tell someone. Who

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would I tell if I won the lottery? Who would

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I tell? Probably everybody? To be fair, I'll tell you first.

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I would. You're the first person i'd tell, and obviously

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have to let the other certain people know. The thing is,

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I think I'd keep a little bit quiet because as

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soon as not not publicly, but family wise or friends.

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I think if I told anyone that I'd won the

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lottery and it was a big amount of money, wouldn't

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they expect something from me? I mean they would be

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getting something from him because I could not. You know,

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it's how good you're not, it's not I had a

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friend won five grand five grand on a lottery ticket

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once and it didn't even buy a meal or nothing,

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Just like I couldn't have done that. I'd have just

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at least got a Chinese takeaway for everyone. I took

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everyone out for a meal. This is where I lived.

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There was only like four of us living there, so

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I can't take us all out. That's going to cost

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what one hundred quid back then? This was nineteen sixty three.

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I'm trying to think, Yeah, so that I would. I

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don't have any big purchases that I would want. I

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wouldn't want a boat, not really into this two I like.

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I like ferries or to be on a cruise ship,

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love all that stuff. I wouldn't want to be on

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a boat. So that's a purchase I wouldn't make. I

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wouldn't buy a plane. If I had a substantial amount

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of money, then I would start flying first class. I've

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never I've never flown comfortably before, so that would be

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definitely something that I would do. What else I probably

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i'd want to move away from here. I think I

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would buy this place and then I just have it

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as my It might seem sound bad, have it like

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as a storage or have it as a I don't know.

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Maybe I wouldn't. Maybe I'd just move on, get myself

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a place, or maybe buy this and just let someone

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live here for free. I don't know, because that kind

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of goes against my ethos. Try not to bang the

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the microphone. Thanks Viinn, he's on the ground. I would.

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With a counsel property, it seems kind of wrong for

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the government or for the councils to sell them because

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it doesn't take into consideration future people that are going

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to need council properties. And you know, in my mind,

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they shouldn't have ever really been sold off because council

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properties were for everyone. They weren't. Now they seemed to

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be aimed at people like me, but they used to

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be aimed at people that worked. It was for people

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like my granddad and my dad had families and they

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had a council house and social housing and it was

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just that's how it was. And in the eighties or whatever,

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and they kind of started selling them properties off, but

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they didn't build new places to replace the council houses

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and the council flats that we're gone. I'm not getting

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into politics, it's just I don't It just seems seems

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kind of wrong to buy it because that's one person

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less that won't be able to live here. But then

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it would be seen. It seemed kind of wrong to

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stay here, which I would be allowed. I don't have to.

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There's no law to say that someone with money isn't

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allowed to have a council flat as long as you

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paid the rent, you know so, but that seems kind

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of wrong as well. If I had, you know, a

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substantial amount of money to still be living in a

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council property social housing, I don't know. I definitely wouldn't

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move out straight away. I left to see how long

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the money lasted, you know. So I think from a

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strategic so I've got to be strategic, but at the

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same time realistic because I'm not in the thirties, am I.

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You know, it's okay. I could put my money, put

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half of it or three quarters of it into some

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kind of bank account that's going to give me high interest,

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but it might have to stay in there for ten

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years or something silly like that. I'll be sixty five

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when I can get that money out. You know. There's

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no guarantees, is there. So I don't know if I

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would want to necessarily do that. I think Hillary, you

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was more interested in what silly things I would do,

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aren't you? I think possibly what silly things would I do.

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I would definitely not have the heating on in the summer.

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It's nearly June. Why is the heating come on? Mind you,

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it has been cold, it's been cold at night, and

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then it's just the temperatures change it. For anyone that's

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never been to this country, we have seasons, but we

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have multiple seasons in one day sometimes, and it might

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sound silly, but asking anyone who lives here, and they

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will tell you the same thing. You know, it can

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feel like winter, summer, autumn all in one day. It's

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like changes. The day can start off frosty and ice

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on the cars, and then by one o'clock in the

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afternoon it could be steaming the sun and people are

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walking around and there's shorts and little nipple tassels and stuff.

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And then in the evening it can be kind of

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like really windy and blowing winds off Autumn not fall autumn.

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I don't know where it comes from, which came first

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autumn or fall. I wonder whether faur is just invented

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in order to make that rhyme rhyme, you know, for

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people to remember what's what for when the clocks go forward.

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Do you know that what I'm talking about, No spring back,

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no fall back, fall back, spring forward. So you put

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the clocks forward in spring, and the clock's going out

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back in four But it makes no sense in this

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country because we don't use the term fall. We use autumn.

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My friend I used to love, and I whant to

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say how many days in this year? How many days

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in this month? Bearing in mind it's the thirtieth today,

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So is all I'm asking? Is this the last day

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of the month or is it one more day? You

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know what? He wouldn't just say, oh there's one more day. No,

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No April, May and June, November forty days, thirty days

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in September, whatever that that stupid rhyme is? I said,

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so how many days in this month? I just told

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you again you're fit to be moved in November. I'm

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not listening to you. Could you tell me what the

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how many days are? And in the end, I just

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have to go on my phone and look, it's like

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I wasn't at school on that day. It's not in

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my head. I'm sorry. It's like, when did you get

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someone that you're talking to? Someone like? And he said, oh,

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what's what's the name? I forget their name, and they

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said it's Ian. The person's name is Ian. I don't

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why you telling me that. You're telling me like I'm

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supposed to remember If I didn't know by now, why

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am I going to remember? Because you've said it like,

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I don't care what the name is. I don't know

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what the name is. When I say I don't know,

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I'm not asking what it is. I don't know, and

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I still don't know. But I've told you it's Ian.

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I still don't know. I mean, I know now, but

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I won't know after this conversation's gone. Actually, after that conversation,

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I probably did remember it because I just said Ian

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because it was annoying conversation. Yeah, there's some method in

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that one, isn't there. I suppose this that makes sense.

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So if I won the lottery plastic surgery, probably I

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don't know. I definitely I wouldn't. I think I try

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and get myself a bit fitter and maybe get some

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professional help with that. I get some professional therapy as well,

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because you know, I'm not sure. I'm not sure how

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how I would deal with being wealthy, but ultimately I

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want to continue doing this, So this is the only

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thing that has any meaning to me, which is weird

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because some would argue this is a completely meaningless thing

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that I do. But for me, it's the only thing

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that gets me out and gives me any kind of

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enthusiasm or interest, you know, like continuously, you know this

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when boxing's on is a big fight, I'm interested in that,

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When there's a chocolate bar in front of me about

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to go in my mouth, that I'm interested in that,

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you know. But I mean like continuous since two thousand

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and six, making videos, making recordings, and going all the

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way back to nineteen ninety seven or ninety eight when

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I first got involved in this whole thing. So I

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don't know, it's there's so many different things. I'd like

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to help as many people as I can ultimately, and

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that might involve getting some professionals involved with this thing

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that I do, getting a proper quality set up, you know,

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recording studio, TV studio, whatever to make the videos, make

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the audio, have professionals doing the editing and all that stuff,

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and maybe reach a larger audience and perhaps help more

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people be bored. Maybe. Yeah, I mean, I quite like

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the idea of when I right at the beginning, when

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I said get a party, have a party, get everyone together,

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get everyone that I've known, and this includes people that

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I'm not even friends with anymore. So I've got a

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friend in Nottingham who doesn't like me anymore, but I

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do appreciate the friendship we had, you know, twenty thirty

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years ago, so and he did help me out back then,

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so I would give him money. I would probably even

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try and contact a couple of ex girlfriends and give

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them money. I think anyone that's anyone that's been a

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girlfriend with one of my girlfriends deserves deserves a bit

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of my lot of rewind to be fair, have putting

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up with me for that time. My two goddaughters who

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I don't really see anymore, not official god daughters, but

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because I'm a Buddhist, so the mother wouldn't do it,

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she wouldn't go, she wouldn't allow me to officially be

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a godfather. But I was kind of in that same

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way I was for a while, So I would give

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them some money, help them out, and try and find

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people from the past and also help them out. So

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even like my best friend from school that I haven't

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seen since I was eighteen nineteen, give him money. In fact,

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there's a few that I would give money to even

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if it was I don't have to see them. I

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just send them money. I get some kind of an

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accountancy to go and give them the cash and get

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them to sign for it and stuff and film it.

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I don't necessarily want to be there when it's done.

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And I would also get a private investigator, pay a

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private investigator, like a top top top one to just

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do some research and look into my family history on

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my mother's side and start to see and I've got

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any We've ever got any brothers or sisters or anything

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like that, any family that's surround you know, because that's

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half of my gene pool, isn't it. So be Yeah,

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that'd be interesting. I'd like to also get that person

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to find any social social services information about me when

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I was in care. I'd like to see those notes.

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I'd like to see their records. If they kept them

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is the seventies, so I don't know if they'd still

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have them now. But I did get an freedom of

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information thing with my because i'd seen a psychiatrist back

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in two thousand and thirteen, twenty thirteen, and twenty fourteen,

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stuff like that, and the i'd had a lot of

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problems with the colors. So psychiatrists are very rude to me,

471
00:38:43.119 --> 00:38:47.480
very dismissive, and almost one even like was looked in

472
00:38:47.599 --> 00:38:53.719
disgust that something I'd said was like, yeah, so I

473
00:38:53.840 --> 00:38:59.079
thought I would ask for all the notes that are

474
00:38:59.119 --> 00:39:03.639
being written about me, and it was quite an eye

475
00:39:03.679 --> 00:39:10.239
opening stuff as also it was rude some of the

476
00:39:10.280 --> 00:39:17.039
stuff that they wrote down. So I'm wondering if I

477
00:39:17.079 --> 00:39:20.440
could quite try and do that with notes from a

478
00:39:20.639 --> 00:39:24.719
long time ago. So I'd need professional help with that.

479
00:39:26.199 --> 00:39:28.199
A lot of people say that I need professional help.

480
00:39:30.880 --> 00:39:33.320
So that's that I could go on and no, no, on, no,

481
00:39:33.480 --> 00:39:36.320
because there's lots of different things that I would like

482
00:39:36.480 --> 00:39:41.920
to do, but I still like to continue what I'm doing, really,

483
00:39:43.000 --> 00:39:47.159
but just have a nice life, do some nice things,

484
00:39:48.320 --> 00:39:57.760
you know, have some nice clothes and I don't know,

485
00:40:01.000 --> 00:40:07.920
hair transplant maybe I don't know, something like that. Michelle

486
00:40:08.079 --> 00:40:12.159
asks when you aren't recording, do you have conversations with

487
00:40:12.360 --> 00:40:15.960
Vinnie or just quiet? Yeah. I talked to him all

488
00:40:16.000 --> 00:40:23.800
the time, and it's quieter than when I am doing

489
00:40:23.880 --> 00:40:28.320
a recording. I mean, that's true, it's there's not a

490
00:40:28.440 --> 00:40:34.199
lot of he does sleep quite a lot, but we

491
00:40:34.320 --> 00:40:36.800
do chat. I do talk to him as if he

492
00:40:36.880 --> 00:40:40.559
can understand. I don't know. I mean, he's asleep now

493
00:40:41.039 --> 00:40:43.960
right to the left of me, fast asleep on the floor,

494
00:40:44.760 --> 00:40:46.840
which is weird that he chooses to sleep right next

495
00:40:46.880 --> 00:40:49.880
to me because there's this comfy sofa over there, and

496
00:40:49.960 --> 00:40:52.440
if you see on the just down there, there's a

497
00:40:52.639 --> 00:40:57.599
yellow it was originally the throw for the settee so

498
00:40:57.679 --> 00:40:59.719
that he could sit on that while I did a video.

499
00:41:00.639 --> 00:41:04.400
But it's really comfortable. It's on the floor. I can't

500
00:41:04.400 --> 00:41:09.360
believe how red I look. I can't even see my face.

501
00:41:09.480 --> 00:41:14.280
The light is no I can see my face, but

502
00:41:14.360 --> 00:41:21.440
it just looks one big like a tomato. Yeah, I

503
00:41:21.519 --> 00:41:25.199
do you talk to him? I quite like it when

504
00:41:25.239 --> 00:41:29.960
he turns his head like that, you know, That's that's

505
00:41:30.000 --> 00:41:32.920
when I know I've got his full attention. And another

506
00:41:33.000 --> 00:41:36.280
thing he does do is when I'm watching TV, he

507
00:41:36.400 --> 00:41:38.519
will sit up on his barm and look at me

508
00:41:38.639 --> 00:41:42.360
because he wants something, whether he wants a t R

509
00:41:42.599 --> 00:41:46.159
E E E E T or a W A n

510
00:41:46.880 --> 00:41:52.880
W A l K. But what he does is he

511
00:41:53.039 --> 00:41:56.480
stands that he sits there stares at me, and I

512
00:41:56.599 --> 00:41:59.800
kind of try and move my feet or my my male,

513
00:42:00.880 --> 00:42:04.280
my leg, elbow, my knee up to it blocks him

514
00:42:04.320 --> 00:42:06.280
and he walks around the other way to stare at me.

515
00:42:08.320 --> 00:42:11.440
Doesn't make a sound, he just stares at me. And

516
00:42:11.559 --> 00:42:14.760
he can do it for hours. Seriously, he doesn't give up,

517
00:42:16.639 --> 00:42:25.280
just dares. It's very weird. That's when I sort of say,

518
00:42:25.320 --> 00:42:27.639
what was it you want? What is it you want? Dylan?

519
00:42:29.000 --> 00:42:31.320
What is he want? And I go through different things

520
00:42:31.400 --> 00:42:36.719
and he's like nodding his head from side to side

521
00:42:36.840 --> 00:42:44.559
like one ear flapping. So yeah, I do talk to him.

522
00:42:46.679 --> 00:42:48.360
I don't know if he I don't know if he

523
00:42:48.639 --> 00:42:51.840
likes to me talking to him, I don't know. But

524
00:42:54.079 --> 00:42:57.000
he doesn't like me leaving him. Doesn't like me leaving

525
00:42:57.079 --> 00:43:01.960
him on his own, that's for sure. The other day,

526
00:43:02.039 --> 00:43:04.679
I think it was yesterday, I had an Amazon package

527
00:43:05.440 --> 00:43:07.320
and all I did was go to the front door.

528
00:43:07.440 --> 00:43:10.360
So I closed the living room door, went to the

529
00:43:10.440 --> 00:43:16.559
front door, opened the front door, got the package, brought

530
00:43:16.599 --> 00:43:20.239
it in. It was just some toothpaste, some some deodorant.

531
00:43:24.159 --> 00:43:25.960
I can't remember what I'll he has some dog food

532
00:43:26.000 --> 00:43:28.840
as well, so I put that just two boxes. I

533
00:43:28.920 --> 00:43:32.599
put them on the floor, closed the front door, locked

534
00:43:32.639 --> 00:43:36.719
it and went into the bathroom. He's and I need

535
00:43:36.800 --> 00:43:42.880
to go to a toilet and he starts like that, Vinny,

536
00:43:43.000 --> 00:43:48.519
I'm here, Vinny, I'm actually here. I'm in the bathroom.

537
00:43:50.880 --> 00:43:54.960
It's like it's like almost like his ears had switched

538
00:43:55.000 --> 00:43:58.719
off and he just decided that i'd left him, which

539
00:43:58.760 --> 00:44:05.159
I hadn't. Sometimes right, and this is really that's a

540
00:44:05.239 --> 00:44:09.840
bit silly. Really, Well, I've got to take the rubbish downstairs.

541
00:44:14.800 --> 00:44:18.239
He'll start. And what I do is I talk to

542
00:44:18.320 --> 00:44:21.920
him all the way while I'm going downstairs. Vinie, I'm

543
00:44:21.920 --> 00:44:26.519
still here, and he's quiet listening. Vinnie, I'm still here.

544
00:44:27.360 --> 00:44:30.159
It's like I shouldn't have to do that. He is

545
00:44:30.400 --> 00:44:32.280
he's a baby. I guess he's still a little baby.

546
00:44:32.440 --> 00:44:35.000
Still a little he's all he'll always be a baby

547
00:44:35.039 --> 00:44:41.480
when he always be my baby? Uh, Carina, have you

548
00:44:41.639 --> 00:44:46.800
ever been to Ireland? And if so, did you like it? Yes?

549
00:44:46.960 --> 00:44:51.159
And no? No? Yeah, I have been to Ireland twice

550
00:44:52.400 --> 00:44:56.320
and I'm forty eight percent Irish. You know, I am

551
00:44:56.440 --> 00:45:03.039
forty percent Irish officially, and I had my DNA test done.

552
00:45:04.239 --> 00:45:13.440
We may be related. I I went to Ireland basically

553
00:45:13.519 --> 00:45:15.480
I went to live but it didn't really work out,

554
00:45:15.519 --> 00:45:18.880
so I came back after about five weeks. But I

555
00:45:19.039 --> 00:45:25.679
moved to Ireland in probably September nineteen eighty no nineteen

556
00:45:25.800 --> 00:45:33.559
ninety four, a long time ago. And what happened is

557
00:45:34.039 --> 00:45:38.360
my best friend Andrea, who Andrea was named after. My

558
00:45:38.440 --> 00:45:43.639
little ferret was named after him. He was Irish, lived

559
00:45:43.679 --> 00:45:49.840
in Carlo, County Carlo, that's where his family came from. Now,

560
00:45:52.360 --> 00:45:58.840
his sister was living with another friend of mine, and

561
00:45:58.960 --> 00:46:05.440
Andrea was living with to Then this someone came onto

562
00:46:05.480 --> 00:46:10.280
the scene and really kind of shook things up and

563
00:46:11.360 --> 00:46:15.679
Andre ended up getting sacked for something that he was

564
00:46:15.760 --> 00:46:17.360
kind of egged on to do. It was like a

565
00:46:17.400 --> 00:46:20.679
bit it's a silly situation. It was a health and

566
00:46:20.760 --> 00:46:23.199
safety issue, so they kind of probably had no choice.

567
00:46:24.360 --> 00:46:26.800
But he went downhill from there and he moved in

568
00:46:26.960 --> 00:46:31.599
with this bloke that we lived, that we worked with,

569
00:46:31.840 --> 00:46:34.920
and he was just drinking or time and it was

570
00:46:35.079 --> 00:46:38.599
just the kind of went off the rails. His mum

571
00:46:38.719 --> 00:46:42.079
came to visit, stayed with his sister and when she

572
00:46:42.320 --> 00:46:46.199
saw him, her little boy, I mean he was twenty

573
00:46:46.280 --> 00:46:48.400
four at the time, but when she saw what a

574
00:46:48.519 --> 00:46:54.159
messy was, she said you're coming home with me, but

575
00:46:54.400 --> 00:46:58.440
no choice. She said, that's it, You're coming home. You're

576
00:46:58.480 --> 00:47:02.000
not living like this, because he was. He was sleeping

577
00:47:02.079 --> 00:47:06.199
in a set, yeah, in this was it sofa bed

578
00:47:06.639 --> 00:47:11.599
downstairs and yeah. She said, you're not living like this

579
00:47:11.840 --> 00:47:16.079
or you're doing is drinking And so they were here

580
00:47:16.159 --> 00:47:20.840
for about two weeks. I mean, she didn't she wasn't

581
00:47:20.880 --> 00:47:24.719
holding his ear or anything but carrying you. But he

582
00:47:24.880 --> 00:47:28.559
just did what she said, and he didn't want to

583
00:47:28.639 --> 00:47:35.280
leave me. Really, however sad or weird that might sound,

584
00:47:35.519 --> 00:47:39.280
but she his mum, invited me to go and stay

585
00:47:39.360 --> 00:47:46.159
there in Ireland. I didn't go at the same time

586
00:47:46.199 --> 00:47:55.760
as them because I don't know why. I can't remember

587
00:47:56.079 --> 00:47:59.719
exactly why, but I think I needed to sort a

588
00:47:59.760 --> 00:48:09.840
few things out first. I was in a relationship as well. Yeah,

589
00:48:09.880 --> 00:48:12.519
I think I went to tell her. Yeah, I think

590
00:48:12.519 --> 00:48:13.880
I had to go and tell her that I was

591
00:48:13.960 --> 00:48:17.320
moving to Ireland. I was going to keep the relation.

592
00:48:17.360 --> 00:48:21.440
I did keep the relationship going, but there was absolutely

593
00:48:21.480 --> 00:48:24.679
no contact between us, so it wasn't really a relationship,

594
00:48:24.679 --> 00:48:33.280
I suppose, and it kind of sizzled out to nothing anyway,

595
00:48:33.280 --> 00:48:36.119
because we weren't anywhere near each other so that, but

596
00:48:36.239 --> 00:48:38.199
that she did call me while I was in Ireland

597
00:48:38.239 --> 00:48:42.320
to tell me she'd met someone else, and you know,

598
00:48:42.400 --> 00:48:44.760
I was kind of like, who is this? Who is this?

599
00:48:46.079 --> 00:48:48.280
She said, I mean your girlfriend was like, oh yeah,

600
00:48:49.159 --> 00:48:52.320
I forgot we were dating, So it wasn't really a

601
00:48:52.360 --> 00:48:54.960
big deal. When I did move back, I visited and

602
00:48:55.239 --> 00:48:58.159
met him and he was cool, got on really well

603
00:48:58.199 --> 00:49:01.119
with and I'd still it was. It was one of

604
00:49:01.199 --> 00:49:07.760
those things. It'd run its course, I guess, but I went.

605
00:49:08.239 --> 00:49:10.199
So I went to Ireland. I got the ferry there,

606
00:49:12.039 --> 00:49:14.199
got a lift back in a van, in the back

607
00:49:14.239 --> 00:49:18.559
of a van, but it was it was one of

608
00:49:18.599 --> 00:49:21.559
those vans with no windows in the back, so I

609
00:49:21.639 --> 00:49:23.719
didn't see anything. I didn't know where I was going.

610
00:49:25.199 --> 00:49:33.280
I don't know why they blindfolded me. And to start with,

611
00:49:33.519 --> 00:49:36.039
we was in Carlo, but we weren't at his parents.

612
00:49:36.840 --> 00:49:42.239
We was his other sisters and her husband, so we

613
00:49:42.400 --> 00:49:48.840
both stayed there for that night. Then we went and

614
00:49:49.960 --> 00:49:54.039
I went to his mum's house or she might come

615
00:49:54.119 --> 00:49:56.960
and picked us up. So I met his dad and

616
00:49:57.119 --> 00:50:00.719
his mum for the first time, though his mum might

617
00:50:00.760 --> 00:50:04.800
have been there. No, I don't can't remember. I can't remember,

618
00:50:05.480 --> 00:50:07.400
but I think I met his dad for the first time.

619
00:50:07.920 --> 00:50:12.199
His dad. It was weird because his dad was very,

620
00:50:14.000 --> 00:50:17.719
very tough man, that they were kind of the tough

621
00:50:17.960 --> 00:50:22.760
family of the town, the Doolies at the time. And

622
00:50:26.239 --> 00:50:29.559
the weird thing about it is his dad's I think

623
00:50:29.559 --> 00:50:31.440
his dad found out I thought I was quite funny,

624
00:50:33.400 --> 00:50:36.800
and also because I wasn't intimidated by him. I'm just

625
00:50:36.920 --> 00:50:41.920
a huge strong man and I probably weighed about what

626
00:50:42.719 --> 00:50:45.079
nine and a half stone probably at the time, maybe

627
00:50:45.159 --> 00:50:50.760
ten stone if that. It was a huge, honestly big

628
00:50:51.079 --> 00:50:56.400
strong man and tough guy in that and he used

629
00:50:56.400 --> 00:51:00.239
to say things to me, probably expected me to, I

630
00:51:00.280 --> 00:51:03.679
don't know, maybe be intimidated or whatever, and I just

631
00:51:03.800 --> 00:51:06.840
laughed at him. And because he I think he just

632
00:51:07.039 --> 00:51:10.400
found that funny that I didn't care. I wasn't bothered,

633
00:51:10.480 --> 00:51:15.760
you know, and which I wasn't. Just I don't really

634
00:51:15.800 --> 00:51:21.960
get intimidated generally. Perhaps I should, but I got on

635
00:51:22.159 --> 00:51:27.800
quite well with him. We even went to the dogs

636
00:51:27.880 --> 00:51:31.199
because he was he used to train greyhounds and we

637
00:51:31.320 --> 00:51:33.679
went to the dogs together. It took me. It was

638
00:51:33.679 --> 00:51:36.000
a nice I've never been to anything like that before,

639
00:51:36.119 --> 00:51:39.920
and bearing in mind I couldn't understand, like, only every

640
00:51:40.440 --> 00:51:45.079
fourth word he said because he was speaking so fast.

641
00:51:45.159 --> 00:51:47.159
But I still managed to do it. I still managed

642
00:51:47.199 --> 00:51:55.159
to I don't know adapt my ears. I guess so

643
00:51:55.400 --> 00:51:58.280
we Yeah, we got on all right. I mean he

644
00:51:58.360 --> 00:52:02.199
might have just been verbally abused me the whole time.

645
00:52:02.239 --> 00:52:06.039
I just didn't realize it because I couldn't understand what

646
00:52:06.119 --> 00:52:08.760
he was saying. So is me just laughing and he's

647
00:52:08.840 --> 00:52:14.639
thinking he crazy? What? Hell? Yeah, he's not scared of me. Why.

648
00:52:15.679 --> 00:52:20.760
I don't know. But his mum was nice. He's dead.

649
00:52:20.920 --> 00:52:23.559
I've got on all his he was dead. He's dre

650
00:52:24.760 --> 00:52:31.320
and it's weird. I remember that house because it was

651
00:52:33.199 --> 00:52:37.199
was it a bungalow? I think it was a bungalow.

652
00:52:37.320 --> 00:52:43.920
Either it was a bungalow or it wasn't. I only

653
00:52:44.039 --> 00:52:49.599
remember three rooms in the house. I don't remember the bathroom.

654
00:52:52.719 --> 00:52:54.559
I was there for five weeks. I must have gone

655
00:52:54.559 --> 00:52:58.840
to the toilet at some point. But I remember my

656
00:52:59.079 --> 00:53:04.880
room and it was you know, by I just picked

657
00:53:04.920 --> 00:53:07.639
my ear the end of night in camera. I wonder

658
00:53:07.679 --> 00:53:09.719
what else I've done. I I've picked my nose probably

659
00:53:09.760 --> 00:53:22.679
as well. Sorry how and I I remember it was cold.

660
00:53:24.000 --> 00:53:28.159
I mean it was September, but September is not normally

661
00:53:30.039 --> 00:53:36.639
cold really, but over there it was cold and lots

662
00:53:36.679 --> 00:53:42.639
of blankets, but very quiet. Where they lived is literally

663
00:53:42.719 --> 00:53:46.840
in the countryside. I mean I live in the countryside now,

664
00:53:47.920 --> 00:53:51.119
but they lived in the countryside. I mean it's like

665
00:53:51.920 --> 00:53:56.119
as countryside as you can get across the road. Country

666
00:53:58.159 --> 00:54:06.880
just trees, trees everywhere, so you could hear frogs farting,

667
00:54:07.280 --> 00:54:11.840
you know. It was that kind of thing and so quiet,

668
00:54:12.280 --> 00:54:16.000
and having lived in London for quite a long time

669
00:54:16.719 --> 00:54:20.280
at that point, it was the first time really that

670
00:54:20.440 --> 00:54:24.400
I'd ever been that I'd ever had a quiet night,

671
00:54:28.360 --> 00:54:32.199
a bit like now. It's not normally this quiet, but

672
00:54:32.280 --> 00:54:36.039
it's quiet today for some reason, and I'm making the

673
00:54:36.159 --> 00:54:45.280
best of that opportunity to do a recording. I remember

674
00:54:45.360 --> 00:54:47.679
the kitchen because quite a big kitchen, and there was

675
00:54:47.719 --> 00:54:54.480
a table, and they would eat a breakfast I think

676
00:54:54.480 --> 00:54:58.239
it was a cook breakfast. Then they'd have lunch, then

677
00:54:58.280 --> 00:55:01.039
they'd have dinner, but evening meal, then they'd have supper.

678
00:55:02.159 --> 00:55:04.800
I think the lunchtime I'd get my own stuff because

679
00:55:04.800 --> 00:55:06.880
I'd be gone, i'd be out of the house, but

680
00:55:06.960 --> 00:55:09.599
there'd be supper before going to bed, like an hour

681
00:55:09.679 --> 00:55:13.119
or so before going to bed. I've never done that before.

682
00:55:14.119 --> 00:55:16.159
I might have a packet of crisps or some biscuits,

683
00:55:16.559 --> 00:55:20.800
but I'd never have food, and I'd probably put on

684
00:55:20.840 --> 00:55:22.320
a little bit of weight when I was out there.

685
00:55:24.840 --> 00:55:31.639
And then I remember the living room because they had

686
00:55:31.639 --> 00:55:35.400
a nice, nice living room. They had a TV. They

687
00:55:35.440 --> 00:55:40.239
had Sky it's a sky, you know, satellite stuff, and

688
00:55:40.840 --> 00:55:46.760
me and Andre would sit and watch Simpsons, would also

689
00:55:46.920 --> 00:55:52.320
watch Star Trek the Next Generation, and at some points

690
00:55:52.360 --> 00:55:59.000
would also watch Wonder Woman with the volume down, but

691
00:55:59.119 --> 00:56:05.920
you know, we would watch it. And I remember when

692
00:56:05.960 --> 00:56:10.760
I when I first got there, and I think Andre,

693
00:56:11.360 --> 00:56:14.440
I think she his mum, said something like, what do

694
00:56:14.559 --> 00:56:18.159
you What do you like to do? And Andre said

695
00:56:18.159 --> 00:56:20.679
he likes to read. And she said, you're one of

696
00:56:20.760 --> 00:56:26.599
them readers? Are you the one of them readers? And

697
00:56:26.719 --> 00:56:29.480
I said, yeah, yeah, I do. I do you know.

698
00:56:29.679 --> 00:56:33.400
I mean at that point I had no books anymore,

699
00:56:33.679 --> 00:56:37.679
but previously that I'd had a large book collection. I've

700
00:56:37.679 --> 00:56:41.440
had lots of large book collections over the years. If

701
00:56:41.480 --> 00:56:44.360
I had all my books now right from a kid

702
00:56:44.599 --> 00:56:47.800
right till now that I've ever bought, I probably have

703
00:56:51.280 --> 00:56:57.039
probably about five thousand books. I'd say probably maybe not

704
00:56:57.119 --> 00:57:02.719
that many, but a good few thousand. It would fill

705
00:57:02.800 --> 00:57:06.360
this room and the room next to me, and the hallway,

706
00:57:06.400 --> 00:57:09.840
but fill the entire flat with books. There's a lot

707
00:57:09.880 --> 00:57:17.719
of books. He's moved then, he's moved over in front

708
00:57:17.719 --> 00:57:19.400
of me, to the left, so I can see him.

709
00:57:23.840 --> 00:57:25.800
Seems to be high me before, but now I can

710
00:57:25.920 --> 00:57:28.880
see him, and he's listening. He's got his eyes open

711
00:57:31.239 --> 00:57:36.199
and he's listening to me. Aren't you you're listening to me?

712
00:57:36.360 --> 00:57:43.079
I think you're listening. He's even moving his head like

713
00:57:43.400 --> 00:57:46.920
pretending not to listen, pretending to be asleep. But I

714
00:57:46.960 --> 00:57:52.440
can see he's got his eyes open. I know what

715
00:57:52.559 --> 00:57:55.599
he wants. But I'll get something through him when I

716
00:57:55.679 --> 00:58:01.679
finish this. Yes, I lived there for Oh yes. His

717
00:58:01.800 --> 00:58:05.119
mum said, oh you like you like books? And do yeah?

718
00:58:05.519 --> 00:58:10.400
I said, you're one of them there, book readers. I said, okay, yeah.

719
00:58:10.480 --> 00:58:12.719
I said, well I've got I've got books if you

720
00:58:12.800 --> 00:58:15.599
want to read anything. And they had a bookcase full

721
00:58:15.639 --> 00:58:18.559
of books. I said, it's not really how it works.

722
00:58:19.360 --> 00:58:21.320
She said, what do you mean. I said, well, I

723
00:58:21.400 --> 00:58:24.559
don't just read anything, and I read books I'm interested in.

724
00:58:24.639 --> 00:58:29.199
I just read anything for the sake of it. The

725
00:58:29.320 --> 00:58:32.559
thing is, they had a really good book collection, and

726
00:58:32.639 --> 00:58:38.719
it's full of stories and really good stories like shirwlock

727
00:58:38.800 --> 00:58:43.840
Homes and stuff like and just like really good. It's

728
00:58:43.960 --> 00:58:46.760
like these were good books. So I felt a bit

729
00:58:46.800 --> 00:58:49.199
of a bit of a nob having said that, but

730
00:58:53.280 --> 00:58:56.360
we started looking for me and Andre started looking for

731
00:58:56.400 --> 00:59:05.400
somewhere to live, and a couple of things happened. I

732
00:59:07.519 --> 00:59:09.039
a couple of things that kind of put me off

733
00:59:09.119 --> 00:59:16.519
being there, to be honest, One thing was whenever I

734
00:59:16.559 --> 00:59:20.880
went out, I seemed to get blokes try and kind

735
00:59:20.920 --> 00:59:23.239
of start trouble with me because I was from England.

736
00:59:24.719 --> 00:59:26.360
You know. I remember I was at the qubicle and

737
00:59:26.440 --> 00:59:29.679
there's two lads either side of me saying, oh, here

738
00:59:29.679 --> 00:59:32.159
are You're from England? But first of all, how do

739
00:59:32.239 --> 00:59:37.960
you know? And I said, yeah, Oh, England's crap. I said, yeah,

740
00:59:37.960 --> 00:59:39.320
I know. That's why I moved out of there. That's

741
00:59:39.320 --> 00:59:41.679
why I moved away. They didn't know what to say

742
00:59:41.719 --> 00:59:45.719
because I agreed with them, but I just, I don't know,

743
00:59:45.960 --> 00:59:50.760
didn't really sit very well with me. And there was

744
00:59:50.840 --> 00:59:57.159
one time when there was there was literally a street

745
00:59:57.280 --> 01:00:04.639
fight with everybody fighting over nothing, and I'm just standing

746
01:00:04.679 --> 01:00:07.039
there looking and no one's touching me, no one's coming

747
01:00:07.119 --> 01:00:12.119
near me. They're just it's so weird. Everyone's so nice

748
01:00:12.360 --> 01:00:17.159
during the day in that town, Soul Soul, like so

749
01:00:17.360 --> 01:00:21.400
what so like that's just our way saying hello, okay, okay,

750
01:00:22.119 --> 01:00:27.440
so so everyone nice and then it go this, this

751
01:00:27.599 --> 01:00:29.559
is what it was. It seemed like at the time.

752
01:00:29.599 --> 01:00:31.960
I'm not so it's not everywhere it's the same, and

753
01:00:32.000 --> 01:00:35.000
it's maybe not the same now. But then they go

754
01:00:35.119 --> 01:00:39.519
out on a Saturday night and kind of eir their grievances,

755
01:00:39.760 --> 01:00:43.039
kind of you know, sought it out. It seemed to

756
01:00:43.119 --> 01:00:45.280
be that's what happened, and it's it's seemed to be

757
01:00:45.360 --> 01:00:48.599
quite a regular thing in that place at that time.

758
01:00:51.440 --> 01:00:55.679
And then the next day everyone was fine again, soul,

759
01:00:56.320 --> 01:00:58.280
but few of them with the black eyes and stuff

760
01:00:58.360 --> 01:01:02.000
saying so to each other. So I don't know, it was.

761
01:01:02.159 --> 01:01:06.119
I found that a bit strange. It's not what I

762
01:01:06.360 --> 01:01:08.400
was used to, not what i'd sort of really elix.

763
01:01:09.280 --> 01:01:15.320
I'd not experienced that before. And another thing is I

764
01:01:15.519 --> 01:01:22.840
kind of fell for Andre's cousin, not Jason, but Michelle.

765
01:01:23.119 --> 01:01:30.000
Was it Michelle, Oh, my goodness, blimey. I don't know.

766
01:01:30.599 --> 01:01:33.119
I know he had a cousin called Jason, because he

767
01:01:33.320 --> 01:01:36.719
was the size of a house. He was only young.

768
01:01:36.800 --> 01:01:39.840
I think he was like nineteen, and well I was

769
01:01:39.880 --> 01:01:44.599
young as well when I and he maybe was seventeen eighteen.

770
01:01:45.719 --> 01:01:49.079
So I'm in his coffee shop in town, and I

771
01:01:49.159 --> 01:01:54.039
mean literally the sun went out. The sun was because

772
01:01:54.079 --> 01:01:56.719
the sun was shining in through the doorway, and I

773
01:01:56.800 --> 01:01:58.719
looked back and he was there, and he took up

774
01:01:58.800 --> 01:02:03.079
the entire doorway. He was that big, and he was tall,

775
01:02:03.280 --> 01:02:08.320
and I mean he was just huge man. Slim as well,

776
01:02:08.480 --> 01:02:15.920
but just big, you know. And his sister kind of

777
01:02:15.960 --> 01:02:17.559
got to know because we hung around with him a

778
01:02:17.559 --> 01:02:20.039
little bit, and he had a couple of other cousins

779
01:02:20.039 --> 01:02:26.079
as well that we would hang around with, and because

780
01:02:26.079 --> 01:02:28.119
he grew up with them all and then he went

781
01:02:28.159 --> 01:02:33.320
to England and didn't see them for a while. I

782
01:02:33.599 --> 01:02:38.000
liked his sister, his cousin, my friend's cousin. I liked

783
01:02:38.039 --> 01:02:41.599
his cousin and we kind of used to spend some

784
01:02:41.760 --> 01:02:44.719
time together when we were out drinking it. She'd be

785
01:02:44.880 --> 01:02:47.639
talking to me, sitting next to me and stuff. But

786
01:02:47.679 --> 01:02:49.840
I never had the courage to kind of ask her out.

787
01:02:51.159 --> 01:02:53.400
I didn't know she would or not, And I don't

788
01:02:53.400 --> 01:02:59.719
know anyway that I think that same night as the

789
01:02:59.800 --> 01:03:03.320
big thing that happened, the big punch up whatever, I

790
01:03:03.440 --> 01:03:08.320
saw her in the street kissing some bloke and that

791
01:03:08.559 --> 01:03:11.239
was kind of my That was it, I thought, Now

792
01:03:11.280 --> 01:03:15.800
I'm getting out of here, just just yeah. I don't know,

793
01:03:15.920 --> 01:03:18.440
it was my. It was my tipping point for leaving.

794
01:03:19.239 --> 01:03:21.800
A couple of things happened previous to that. I was

795
01:03:21.880 --> 01:03:24.679
looking for a job. First of all, I heard I

796
01:03:24.880 --> 01:03:29.079
overheard his mum talking on the phone to his sister,

797
01:03:29.599 --> 01:03:33.280
the one in England. This is this is pretty much

798
01:03:33.360 --> 01:03:36.039
what I heard her say. He seems to think he

799
01:03:36.119 --> 01:03:41.440
can live here forever. In a different accent. He seems

800
01:03:41.440 --> 01:03:43.960
to think he can live here forever. Now I know

801
01:03:44.079 --> 01:03:45.880
he wasn't talking about it. She wasn't talking about Andre,

802
01:03:46.280 --> 01:03:49.719
because she'd have had Andre living there forever. She definitely

803
01:03:49.760 --> 01:03:54.199
would learn little boy. So she wasn't talking about her

804
01:03:54.280 --> 01:03:57.320
husband either, And it wasn't about any of the Greyhounds.

805
01:03:57.400 --> 01:03:59.559
So I'm pretty sure it was me. Could have been

806
01:03:59.559 --> 01:04:04.079
about the g the chance, but probably about me. And

807
01:04:06.800 --> 01:04:09.519
there's an old sayings and don't ever eavesdrop because you

808
01:04:09.639 --> 01:04:13.360
never hear anything nice about yourself. So yeah, maybe that

809
01:04:13.559 --> 01:04:16.119
was there's some truth in that one on that occasion.

810
01:04:18.840 --> 01:04:22.519
So that happened as well, just prior to me, you know,

811
01:04:22.760 --> 01:04:26.559
seeing my friend's cousin kissing, and I think a couple

812
01:04:26.599 --> 01:04:29.559
of days before that, i'd gone to look to get

813
01:04:29.599 --> 01:04:34.719
a job, and because I'd worked in a meat storage place,

814
01:04:35.840 --> 01:04:38.599
his mum said, oh, try this place, so I went along,

815
01:04:38.760 --> 01:04:47.760
got an interview. It was an abatoir. I'm that that's

816
01:04:47.960 --> 01:04:57.159
not a suitable job for me. Just no, and you know,

817
01:04:57.239 --> 01:04:59.880
it took me around and what I need to do

818
01:05:00.079 --> 01:05:03.320
and I don't know. I said, I was putting labels

819
01:05:03.360 --> 01:05:07.599
on boxes. That's what I did, boxes of frozen meat.

820
01:05:07.719 --> 01:05:12.039
I wasn't. I just I couldn't. That wasn't you know.

821
01:05:17.239 --> 01:05:21.559
I know people do it, and it just I just wasn't. No,

822
01:05:22.000 --> 01:05:29.039
it was not my thing. So it's getting a little

823
01:05:29.079 --> 01:05:32.039
bit harder, Like what, it's not a lot of opportunities.

824
01:05:32.159 --> 01:05:38.000
The other place was dry cleaners, big dry cleaners, and

825
01:05:38.119 --> 01:05:43.239
that didn't seem I just saw this bird like it

826
01:05:43.360 --> 01:05:47.400
looks like a peregrine falcon or something and to this

827
01:05:47.599 --> 01:05:50.679
dry Cleaners was not ideal either. It didn't seem to

828
01:05:50.719 --> 01:05:56.280
be anything that was really suitable for me at the time.

829
01:05:58.719 --> 01:06:05.159
And then I went and had a look at a

830
01:06:05.199 --> 01:06:08.079
place that I was going to move into with Andre,

831
01:06:08.880 --> 01:06:14.360
because we were looking, not actively looking around. But that

832
01:06:14.519 --> 01:06:17.840
was before I heard him. I didn't realize his mum

833
01:06:17.960 --> 01:06:21.679
wanted me out of there. And that's when I thought, Okay,

834
01:06:22.559 --> 01:06:25.320
you want me out, I'll get out. And I left

835
01:06:25.519 --> 01:06:33.679
that day. I phoned up, got a ferry booked, and

836
01:06:33.800 --> 01:06:36.320
I said, right, I'm going and see her. Andre was

837
01:06:36.440 --> 01:06:39.559
very upset. Everyone else was cheering. I think the whole

838
01:06:39.599 --> 01:06:43.960
town was like celebrating, but Andre was upset and he

839
01:06:44.320 --> 01:06:48.639
didn't really forgive me for leaving, to be honest. So

840
01:06:48.760 --> 01:06:52.639
I came back. I also got food poisoning. I got,

841
01:06:52.679 --> 01:06:57.559
I had a bad beer, and I was ill, and yeah,

842
01:06:57.679 --> 01:06:59.800
whatever it was, or was ill for quite a while

843
01:07:01.000 --> 01:07:07.719
and the I came back, I regretted. I regretted it,

844
01:07:08.079 --> 01:07:10.920
regretted sort of leaving not giving it a more of

845
01:07:11.000 --> 01:07:17.639
a go. And then I went and visited again, probably

846
01:07:17.679 --> 01:07:24.320
about March time, maybe April the next year, maybe May April.

847
01:07:24.719 --> 01:07:28.960
It was just before the Eurovision Song Contest and that

848
01:07:29.159 --> 01:07:32.280
was recently so it's now the end of May, so

849
01:07:32.519 --> 01:07:36.119
maybe it was in May when when and visited. Did

850
01:07:37.000 --> 01:07:43.239
stayed with At this point my other friend was living there,

851
01:07:46.039 --> 01:07:50.639
so I stayed with him and Andre. They were all

852
01:07:50.679 --> 01:07:54.360
living together, so I stayed with him, so Andrea's sister

853
01:07:54.599 --> 01:08:01.800
and my other friend. At this point, Andre was just

854
01:08:05.519 --> 01:08:07.840
if he was off the rolls when he was in London.

855
01:08:07.920 --> 01:08:10.760
This is nothing compared to by the time I'd left.

856
01:08:11.519 --> 01:08:17.560
He he was just drinking a lot. But at one

857
01:08:17.600 --> 01:08:21.640
point it's quite weird because we were all out, he

858
01:08:21.720 --> 01:08:25.039
got a little bit handsy with me and he pushed

859
01:08:25.079 --> 01:08:28.000
me against the wall. It's sort of sad. You were

860
01:08:28.079 --> 01:08:33.000
my best friend, all right, and a people trying to

861
01:08:33.119 --> 01:08:35.560
get intervene and I said, no, no, leave it. Then

862
01:08:35.560 --> 01:08:42.520
that's fine and we just had a little chat. So

863
01:08:42.640 --> 01:08:47.439
he hadn't really forgiven me for leaving him. But it

864
01:08:47.600 --> 01:08:51.079
wasn't you know. It didn't didn't turn nasty or anything,

865
01:08:51.119 --> 01:08:53.600
and he still said goodbye to me when I left

866
01:08:53.680 --> 01:09:00.640
and hugged me in that. But yeah, it was Yeah,

867
01:09:00.880 --> 01:09:04.920
I don't know, so I don't know would it have

868
01:09:05.039 --> 01:09:12.279
been right to stay there? Hard to tell. I mean,

869
01:09:12.319 --> 01:09:17.720
it's a beautiful country. It's just I don't know just

870
01:09:17.880 --> 01:09:21.880
at the time I would have been if I'd had

871
01:09:21.920 --> 01:09:24.800
a bit of money, had my own place, had a

872
01:09:24.880 --> 01:09:29.640
bit of space, bit of time to figure out what

873
01:09:29.800 --> 01:09:34.039
I was going to be able to do, it might

874
01:09:34.079 --> 01:09:36.279
have been, you know, I mean, I possibly would have

875
01:09:36.399 --> 01:09:40.680
ended up getting married, having kids, have like a normal life,

876
01:09:41.520 --> 01:09:45.439
much more normal than I've had. Maybe, or I might

877
01:09:45.479 --> 01:09:52.399
have gone down a different route, so you know, down

878
01:09:52.479 --> 01:09:55.720
the drinking route. And you know, I kind of did

879
01:09:55.800 --> 01:10:00.039
a bit anyway in my thirties, but that was I

880
01:10:00.199 --> 01:10:08.439
wasn't socially. I was in private private. So yeah, I

881
01:10:08.600 --> 01:10:14.239
think Ireland is a beautiful country and I'd like to

882
01:10:14.319 --> 01:10:17.039
go back back. I do have two friends that live

883
01:10:17.079 --> 01:10:27.600
in Ireland. I would like to visit. Yeah, I would,

884
01:10:28.279 --> 01:10:36.760
but we'll see one day, Kate asks me. So that

885
01:10:36.880 --> 01:10:42.640
was Karina. Kate's you do you anythingy ever? Visit Logi? No,

886
01:10:43.720 --> 01:10:49.159
I haven't seen Logi since he left. It's like a

887
01:10:49.319 --> 01:10:54.520
buzzard or something right above the tree keeps coming into

888
01:10:54.600 --> 01:10:58.800
the little area of sky that I could see. But

889
01:10:58.840 --> 01:11:01.239
I think it's I think it's a buzzard or it's

890
01:11:01.319 --> 01:11:08.199
a pedigree falcon or. It's not a golden eagle, but

891
01:11:08.319 --> 01:11:12.039
it's something right up there, and it's kind of this hovering,

892
01:11:12.720 --> 01:11:18.039
very beautiful. No, I don't see Logi, then he hasn't.

893
01:11:18.359 --> 01:11:24.600
Neither of us have seen Logi since he left. But

894
01:11:24.720 --> 01:11:28.199
he's doing well. I've heard heard things and it seems

895
01:11:28.239 --> 01:11:30.960
to be fine. He's living in a family. He escaped

896
01:11:30.960 --> 01:11:34.039
from where I was living. He was an escape artist

897
01:11:34.960 --> 01:11:37.960
and he ended up back in the hostel. But he's

898
01:11:38.119 --> 01:11:45.840
managed to got some new a new family, and they, yeah,

899
01:11:46.000 --> 01:11:49.159
he's I'm sure he's very happy. He loves being around

900
01:11:49.239 --> 01:11:54.800
people and yeah, so it's all kind of ended up.

901
01:11:57.560 --> 01:11:59.960
He just wanted to I think he wanted a peaceful life.

902
01:12:00.439 --> 01:12:04.319
He loves a cuddle, loves being around people. He just

903
01:12:04.399 --> 01:12:07.760
wants peaceful life. That's you know, go for a walk,

904
01:12:08.079 --> 01:12:12.279
one walk a day, just to get out, you know,

905
01:12:12.600 --> 01:12:17.399
have have food, have water, just chill out. That was

906
01:12:17.880 --> 01:12:26.199
Logi and Jonathan asks, how tall are you? Six foot four?

907
01:12:28.039 --> 01:12:31.239
I know it might not look like that, but what

908
01:12:31.439 --> 01:12:33.840
that means is that everyone else around me is much

909
01:12:33.880 --> 01:12:38.520
taller than they realize. They're taller than they think. In fact,

910
01:12:38.600 --> 01:12:43.520
some of them are like seven foot three. I don't know.

911
01:12:43.680 --> 01:12:50.439
I'm kind of my whole life well, since the age

912
01:12:50.479 --> 01:12:56.279
of sixteen, I suppose I've been five for eight. And

913
01:12:56.520 --> 01:13:01.600
then I got measure a year or so ago and

914
01:13:01.680 --> 01:13:04.439
they said five to nine. You got you. They said,

915
01:13:04.560 --> 01:13:07.800
you've got five nine on your thing. I said, but

916
01:13:07.880 --> 01:13:10.880
I thought it was five eight, and she said, we

917
01:13:10.960 --> 01:13:13.399
can missu you again. I said, no, that's fine, I'll

918
01:13:13.439 --> 01:13:20.760
take five nine. So according to my official documents, my

919
01:13:20.880 --> 01:13:25.119
medical record, i'm five nine. But if they went back,

920
01:13:25.199 --> 01:13:27.720
they'd see that I was five eight every other time,

921
01:13:28.079 --> 01:13:37.439
So I don't know. It's a bit weird. I thought

922
01:13:37.479 --> 01:13:42.720
he's supposed to shrink with age, not get taller. And

923
01:13:46.680 --> 01:13:51.359
what else? Ali asks me, do you have any recommendations

924
01:13:54.039 --> 01:13:57.239
or advice as someone who's wanting to start their own podcast?

925
01:13:58.479 --> 01:14:05.359
Don't do it? No? Oh, Also, I see you have

926
01:14:05.399 --> 01:14:08.560
a lot of questions already, totally don't mind you skipping

927
01:14:08.640 --> 01:14:11.960
this one. Oh no, it's fine, I'll answer this one, Elie.

928
01:14:13.640 --> 01:14:22.800
I've got practical, practical recommendations or whatever I mean you have,

929
01:14:23.119 --> 01:14:33.920
I guess you. I would say, sign up with a

930
01:14:34.039 --> 01:14:43.720
podcast host and you can use free stuff, but it's

931
01:14:43.800 --> 01:14:46.920
worth paying even like a like a ten pound a

932
01:14:47.000 --> 01:14:51.960
month podcast fee to have one, and there's a few

933
01:14:52.039 --> 01:14:56.159
that you can use. It depends how many podcasts you're

934
01:14:56.199 --> 01:14:59.479
going to be doing a week or a month, or

935
01:14:59.680 --> 01:15:01.920
you know, if you're going to be doing a lot

936
01:15:01.960 --> 01:15:08.239
of podcasts, then there's some podcast posts that aren't going

937
01:15:08.319 --> 01:15:11.560
to be suitable because they're limited. They might be limited

938
01:15:11.640 --> 01:15:14.960
to how many podcasts you can upload, they might be

939
01:15:15.039 --> 01:15:19.439
limited to how many people can listen. You know. Spreaker's

940
01:15:19.479 --> 01:15:23.359
got no limitations, although they do increase. The prices depend

941
01:15:23.439 --> 01:15:29.600
on how many podcasts you've got. And SoundCloud is I

942
01:15:29.680 --> 01:15:32.000
mean they've got a free account on SoundCloud. I think

943
01:15:32.039 --> 01:15:35.319
they've got a free one on spreaker, but you'll get

944
01:15:36.159 --> 01:15:43.600
a very minimum amount of space. Spreaker is quite good

945
01:15:43.720 --> 01:15:55.359
to share, especially with Spotify and stuff like that. Have

946
01:15:55.520 --> 01:16:01.039
a subject, have something you're interested in. Do in something

947
01:16:01.119 --> 01:16:03.239
that you're not going to get bored of, which is

948
01:16:03.319 --> 01:16:09.640
weird considering I'm my podcasts are boring, but I don't

949
01:16:09.640 --> 01:16:12.520
get bored of being boring because to me, I'm not boring.

950
01:16:14.359 --> 01:16:24.119
There's a poem there somewhere, isn't there. Do Do something

951
01:16:24.199 --> 01:16:26.119
that you want to that you're going to be doing

952
01:16:26.199 --> 01:16:31.560
for fun in the sense of so you'll enjoy it,

953
01:16:32.960 --> 01:16:35.479
you know. I mean I do. I like doing the

954
01:16:36.119 --> 01:16:39.640
let me bow your Pain away now. Chronic pain, some

955
01:16:39.800 --> 01:16:44.319
would say is not a fun topic. But it's something

956
01:16:44.359 --> 01:16:47.279
that I'm interested in and so I have fun making them.

957
01:16:48.319 --> 01:16:50.159
So I haven't made one for a couple of weeks.

958
01:16:50.199 --> 01:16:53.359
I don't think I have to be in a proper mood,

959
01:16:53.479 --> 01:16:58.359
you know, So do something that you're going to enjoy.

960
01:16:59.000 --> 01:17:01.680
That would be my my advice. I don't know. If

961
01:17:01.720 --> 01:17:09.199
you're looking for practical suggestions, find a decent podcast host.

962
01:17:13.159 --> 01:17:16.600
You can. There's lots of ways of making images as well.

963
01:17:23.560 --> 01:17:25.880
Just do it. I mean, if you want for equipment,

964
01:17:27.600 --> 01:17:29.680
there's a lot of equipment out there now which you

965
01:17:29.760 --> 01:17:35.000
can use, which is quite easy. You can have stuff

966
01:17:35.079 --> 01:17:40.000
connected to your phone. You can have or you can

967
01:17:40.079 --> 01:17:42.359
get like it's lots of different ways to you know,

968
01:17:45.000 --> 01:17:47.000
to do the audio and make If you want to

969
01:17:47.039 --> 01:17:51.079
make a video as well, I'd say just go for

970
01:17:51.199 --> 01:17:57.479
it and see see if you like it. It might

971
01:17:57.720 --> 01:18:02.039
it might change your life, you know, it might be

972
01:18:02.279 --> 01:18:08.640
something that you really loved doing. It might help you

973
01:18:08.800 --> 01:18:15.479
in some ways, you know, emotionally, it depends what you're doing. Yeah,

974
01:18:17.840 --> 01:18:25.439
I don't know, just thinking advice. If someone wanted to

975
01:18:25.520 --> 01:18:30.800
start their own podcast, it's weird. I can't remember what

976
01:18:30.960 --> 01:18:33.720
it was like because for me, I didn't start a

977
01:18:33.800 --> 01:18:38.479
podcast because podcasting wasn't really a thing when I started.

978
01:18:39.920 --> 01:18:47.000
It was for me because I was uploading audio recordings

979
01:18:47.199 --> 01:18:55.680
and videos onto MySpace, so I wasn't doing podcasting. YouTube

980
01:18:55.800 --> 01:19:02.720
wasn't a thing at that time. Facebook book wasn't a thing,

981
01:19:02.880 --> 01:19:05.760
well at least it wasn't popular at that time because

982
01:19:05.800 --> 01:19:10.000
Facebook basically closed my Space down really, but I was

983
01:19:10.079 --> 01:19:13.680
with my Space, so I was uploading audios, hypnosis audios

984
01:19:13.920 --> 01:19:20.520
and hypnosis videos. And then YouTube came along and I

985
01:19:20.560 --> 01:19:23.359
started putting my videos on YouTube as well as my

986
01:19:23.479 --> 01:19:27.760
Space because with my Space, with you know, you could

987
01:19:27.880 --> 01:19:34.960
upload the stuff, so they stored it. And then I

988
01:19:35.119 --> 01:19:40.680
started using a free podcast host or whatever. I think

989
01:19:40.720 --> 01:19:48.960
it was called free podcast host in probably two thousand

990
01:19:49.199 --> 01:19:56.439
and seven, maybe maybe two thousand and six, maybe it was.

991
01:19:56.640 --> 01:19:59.680
But so I started using a podcasts and I started

992
01:19:59.760 --> 01:20:01.960
using lots of different podcasts, but that was the main

993
01:20:02.039 --> 01:20:08.680
one I used, and so I guess I didn't start

994
01:20:08.760 --> 01:20:12.800
out as a podcast all I did is just podcasts

995
01:20:12.840 --> 01:20:16.600
were just another way for me to present the audio,

996
01:20:19.800 --> 01:20:23.039
If that makes sense. It's kind of I wasn't. I

997
01:20:23.199 --> 01:20:26.039
used it as a like. I was already making videos

998
01:20:26.079 --> 01:20:29.720
before YouTube came out, before YouTube was a thing. I

999
01:20:29.840 --> 01:20:34.760
was making videos already, so I was already making It's

1000
01:20:34.800 --> 01:20:38.239
weird because when I uploaded my videos to YouTube, I

1001
01:20:38.319 --> 01:20:41.359
didn't know that anybody else made videos on YouTube. But

1002
01:20:41.479 --> 01:20:44.119
there were other people. I wasn't the only one. So

1003
01:20:44.279 --> 01:20:48.600
I started YouTube two thousand and seven, and there was

1004
01:20:48.640 --> 01:20:51.239
some other people doing it. So it's weird that like

1005
01:20:51.359 --> 01:20:53.720
people had the same kind of idea at the same time.

1006
01:20:54.560 --> 01:20:57.760
But it's only a handful of us. Really, it was

1007
01:20:57.880 --> 01:21:02.399
only a real, real small amount. And anyone listening or

1008
01:21:02.439 --> 01:21:07.560
watching this from that time who used to follow my videos,

1009
01:21:09.159 --> 01:21:13.079
You'll know what I'm saying is true. You'll know. You

1010
01:21:13.239 --> 01:21:17.319
will know. I don't know why I'm doing that for

1011
01:21:18.399 --> 01:21:23.399
so just go through it and have fun, That's what

1012
01:21:23.479 --> 01:21:31.119
I would say. Hope asks what got you interested in hypnosis?

1013
01:21:37.319 --> 01:21:39.840
It was there was a couple of things to start with.

1014
01:21:45.880 --> 01:21:47.760
I don't know why, but I was going through this

1015
01:21:48.039 --> 01:21:50.359
little period at the end of two thousand and at

1016
01:21:50.439 --> 01:21:56.920
the end of nineteen ninety seven and just had a

1017
01:21:56.960 --> 01:22:06.880
bit of a very very problematic period in my life.

1018
01:22:08.359 --> 01:22:12.279
You know, lost my job, lost my girlfriend, pretty much

1019
01:22:12.399 --> 01:22:16.880
had to move, had no you know, everything kind of went.

1020
01:22:16.960 --> 01:22:19.560
And then there was a family thing, really big family

1021
01:22:19.640 --> 01:22:28.079
thing happened, and I I was lost, so lost at

1022
01:22:28.079 --> 01:22:36.439
that time, and the only thing I had I was writing.

1023
01:22:36.560 --> 01:22:39.439
So I was writing down how I felt and stuff,

1024
01:22:40.279 --> 01:22:45.279
so that kind of helped. And then I started listening

1025
01:22:45.359 --> 01:22:49.720
to audio books, self help audio books, reading reading self

1026
01:22:49.760 --> 01:22:53.479
help books to try and help me get through that period.

1027
01:22:56.000 --> 01:22:58.680
So when I was going and buying these audio books

1028
01:22:58.800 --> 01:23:02.560
and looking at these off help books, I started noticing

1029
01:23:03.279 --> 01:23:06.960
hypnosis books. And for me, it was kind of like

1030
01:23:09.680 --> 01:23:14.560
very spelly, very kind of magic y, you know, like

1031
01:23:14.680 --> 01:23:17.680
a script almost seemed a little bit like a magic spell.

1032
01:23:18.720 --> 01:23:21.880
And so I was looking at these books thinking, hmm,

1033
01:23:22.600 --> 01:23:25.399
I didn't know you could learn this. I don't know

1034
01:23:25.479 --> 01:23:30.960
how I thought hypnotists became hypnotists if they didn't learn.

1035
01:23:32.640 --> 01:23:36.239
But I just just fought. Oh, I just grabbed my

1036
01:23:37.199 --> 01:23:40.680
slight interest. And I'd never ever had an interest before

1037
01:23:41.439 --> 01:23:44.680
outside of just watching on TV. In the early nineties,

1038
01:23:48.600 --> 01:23:53.520
I thought, I don't know why. And there was these

1039
01:23:53.600 --> 01:23:56.000
two particular books, and I used to look at them.

1040
01:23:57.159 --> 01:24:02.720
One was an introduction to hypnosis. Another one was Hypnosis

1041
01:24:03.279 --> 01:24:06.199
for Beginnings or something, so it's too one was green,

1042
01:24:06.279 --> 01:24:10.560
one was I think it was orange. I kept putting

1043
01:24:10.560 --> 01:24:13.319
them back in the same bookshop, and I'd go to

1044
01:24:13.359 --> 01:24:16.920
it every week, and I kept putting them back. I'd

1045
01:24:17.000 --> 01:24:18.760
read a little bit more, and I kept putting them back.

1046
01:24:20.319 --> 01:24:23.039
And this went on for months, and I'd go and

1047
01:24:23.119 --> 01:24:25.319
buy other stuff. And you know, as said, I was

1048
01:24:25.359 --> 01:24:27.840
really into the audio books because I could I could

1049
01:24:27.880 --> 01:24:29.880
listen to her while I walked around and stuff, so

1050
01:24:29.960 --> 01:24:33.119
that kind of suited me. And you know, feel the

1051
01:24:33.199 --> 01:24:38.159
fear and do it anyway, and Anthony Robbins and all

1052
01:24:38.239 --> 01:24:48.119
that stuff. Zig Ziggler and then then he just barked.

1053
01:24:48.159 --> 01:24:55.319
Then and then after months of just thinking about these books,

1054
01:24:58.079 --> 01:25:08.000
calm down, Vin, I just thought, so, it's January nineteen

1055
01:25:08.159 --> 01:25:13.520
ninety eight. I bought them. I'm now worn out by

1056
01:25:13.560 --> 01:25:16.520
the time I must have read them, probably by the

1057
01:25:16.600 --> 01:25:21.359
time I bought them. But I thought, okay, because I

1058
01:25:21.439 --> 01:25:23.600
had these like fantasies of buying them, and I was like,

1059
01:25:23.720 --> 01:25:26.880
why don't want to buy these two books. I'm not

1060
01:25:27.079 --> 01:25:30.920
interested in hypnosis. I don't know anything about hypnosis. Vinnie,

1061
01:25:31.399 --> 01:25:34.640
don't bark, please please, he's like that on his back.

1062
01:25:35.199 --> 01:25:41.159
I'm sorry, I'm sorry anyone think that. It's like, do

1063
01:25:41.239 --> 01:25:43.079
you want to do anything? Am I? I'm just asking

1064
01:25:43.119 --> 01:25:46.560
you to be quiet. BlimE, me said it. Blame me

1065
01:25:47.560 --> 01:25:53.439
and I I don't know why. I just felt I

1066
01:25:53.520 --> 01:25:57.920
needed to buy these books, bought them, read them, didn't

1067
01:25:57.960 --> 01:26:02.199
read them straight away. I can't really express how much

1068
01:26:02.239 --> 01:26:07.239
I love books. I still love books. I mean similar

1069
01:26:07.319 --> 01:26:09.520
I've got I've only got a small book collection now,

1070
01:26:09.960 --> 01:26:14.359
but most of those books are hypnosis books. I love books.

1071
01:26:14.520 --> 01:26:16.520
I don't know what it is. I don't know why

1072
01:26:18.760 --> 01:26:26.239
I love them. I think my favor, my probably ideal

1073
01:26:26.399 --> 01:26:30.319
job would have been working in a bookshop. That's probably

1074
01:26:30.399 --> 01:26:35.600
what I should have done as a younger man. That

1075
01:26:35.840 --> 01:26:39.000
that probably I should you know, I should have would

1076
01:26:39.039 --> 01:26:42.680
have ideally, And I don't know why I didn't even

1077
01:26:42.720 --> 01:26:45.720
think about it, bearing in mind how much I've always

1078
01:26:45.760 --> 01:26:49.239
loved books since being a small child, since I kind

1079
01:26:49.279 --> 01:26:55.359
of taught myself to read, well, I mean I taught myself,

1080
01:26:56.279 --> 01:26:59.800
I kind of. I did also go to school, but

1081
01:27:00.920 --> 01:27:03.119
I had this one book. I still can't find it.

1082
01:27:03.159 --> 01:27:06.119
It's on there somewhere. It's a Jack and Norry book.

1083
01:27:08.079 --> 01:27:09.960
And I read it over and over and over and

1084
01:27:10.079 --> 01:27:12.720
over and over again. And it's the only thing that

1085
01:27:12.960 --> 01:27:17.239
was ever. I'm not saying any good at but competent

1086
01:27:17.680 --> 01:27:21.279
act that I could do, that I could actually say, Yeah,

1087
01:27:21.359 --> 01:27:25.680
I can read. I don't understand all the words I read.

1088
01:27:25.720 --> 01:27:28.600
I still don't understand all the words I read, but

1089
01:27:28.680 --> 01:27:31.079
I do check what they are, and you can tell

1090
01:27:31.239 --> 01:27:35.119
from the meaning, from the structure of the sentence or

1091
01:27:35.159 --> 01:27:39.720
the paragraph, what the word means. Providing the person that's

1092
01:27:39.760 --> 01:27:43.560
writing that paragraph knows what the word means, you know,

1093
01:27:43.680 --> 01:27:49.600
they might put a wrong word in. But yeah, So

1094
01:27:49.640 --> 01:27:57.239
I've got these books home. I didn't touch them to

1095
01:27:57.319 --> 01:28:00.039
start with. I just like looked at them again. I

1096
01:28:00.039 --> 01:28:03.800
don't know why I had them. And then I started

1097
01:28:03.840 --> 01:28:16.720
reading them and something something happened to me. So I

1098
01:28:16.760 --> 01:28:23.479
don't know what it was, just maybe it's I kind

1099
01:28:23.520 --> 01:28:29.000
of felt, well, the way I talk kind of matches

1100
01:28:31.600 --> 01:28:41.479
what I would. I don't know. I noticed sometimes people

1101
01:28:41.520 --> 01:28:43.680
would kind of glaze over when I talk to them,

1102
01:28:48.520 --> 01:28:53.479
and I noticed this, and I didn't realize that I

1103
01:28:53.720 --> 01:28:56.439
was sort of putting him into a trance. This is

1104
01:28:56.479 --> 01:28:59.439
before I even read a hypnosis book. Happened to a counselor.

1105
01:28:59.560 --> 01:29:04.279
Counselor fell asleep when I was talking. It's true. I'm

1106
01:29:04.279 --> 01:29:07.720
not even like it's a Saturday morning. I was having counseling,

1107
01:29:07.840 --> 01:29:11.960
trauma counseling, can you believe? And she was a student

1108
01:29:12.720 --> 01:29:17.600
and she fell asleep, her eyes like started glazing, and

1109
01:29:17.680 --> 01:29:21.760
her eyes, I live closed. And this was before I

1110
01:29:21.840 --> 01:29:24.479
even knew what hypnosis was. I'd not even read a

1111
01:29:24.560 --> 01:29:27.079
book and didn't know the first thing about it. This

1112
01:29:27.319 --> 01:29:33.039
was like the summer ninety seven, I think, or like

1113
01:29:33.359 --> 01:29:43.720
late summer. So yeah, that was weird, very strange. And

1114
01:29:43.800 --> 01:29:47.720
I noticed that other people were having that, and also

1115
01:29:47.880 --> 01:29:50.800
noticed that sometimes I talked to someone and I just

1116
01:29:51.399 --> 01:29:56.680
keep talking and just keep talking, not fast, but just

1117
01:29:56.840 --> 01:30:02.199
keep talking and make the sentence keep lasting in a

1118
01:30:02.279 --> 01:30:07.239
way that kind of never ends. The sentence never ends,

1119
01:30:07.359 --> 01:30:14.760
and which means the person can't sort of talk say

1120
01:30:14.880 --> 01:30:19.159
something themselves. And it's I don't know, it's a bit

1121
01:30:19.279 --> 01:30:21.880
weird the reaction I was getting. And I started playing

1122
01:30:21.960 --> 01:30:28.600
with it, started to testing it out with people. Then

1123
01:30:28.760 --> 01:30:31.760
he please why are you banging? You see the camera?

1124
01:30:31.800 --> 01:30:36.000
He's banging the cameras to at the stand. He knows

1125
01:30:36.079 --> 01:30:38.520
he's doing it. I'm pretty sure he's doing it on purpose.

1126
01:30:39.479 --> 01:30:42.520
He's purposely moved himself over there to bang the camera

1127
01:30:43.640 --> 01:30:50.920
so it wobbles. I'm pretty sure he is. He's a

1128
01:30:51.079 --> 01:31:02.600
very naughty boy. It's very cheeky. But yeah, that's kind

1129
01:31:02.640 --> 01:31:04.880
of how I got into it. Just I found it

1130
01:31:04.960 --> 01:31:08.319
interesting and the most thing that I found most interesting

1131
01:31:08.399 --> 01:31:13.000
of all was the pain relief out of anything, that

1132
01:31:13.199 --> 01:31:17.800
was the thing. Nothing else really grabbed me the way

1133
01:31:17.880 --> 01:31:21.159
that that did. The idea to be able to take

1134
01:31:21.199 --> 01:31:30.119
away someone's pain, I mean, wow, what could be better

1135
01:31:30.199 --> 01:31:39.319
than that? And finish just done the biggest part? I

1136
01:31:39.359 --> 01:31:41.520
think it's him, Did you do finish? Did you just

1137
01:31:41.640 --> 01:31:45.600
do the biggest fart? You always aims his bum at

1138
01:31:45.680 --> 01:31:49.279
me whenever he lays down, everyone's in the bed, never

1139
01:31:49.359 --> 01:31:51.640
had his face in him, He's always his bum faced

1140
01:31:51.680 --> 01:31:54.159
at me ready for so when he lets it off,

1141
01:31:54.560 --> 01:31:58.880
I get to smell it, and he doesn't. He's got

1142
01:31:58.920 --> 01:32:08.800
his eyes why don't haven't you? Hey? So yeah, that's

1143
01:32:08.840 --> 01:32:14.520
how I kind of got into hypnosis. And then I

1144
01:32:14.920 --> 01:32:25.279
started buying books. Then I started, Yeah, then I got

1145
01:32:25.399 --> 01:32:28.079
some and I kind of moved and started finding out

1146
01:32:28.119 --> 01:32:32.760
about NLP, got books on NLP. Then I did training

1147
01:32:32.840 --> 01:32:38.479
in NLP. Then I did training in the hypnosis and

1148
01:32:40.640 --> 01:32:49.399
continued the purchasing and getting hypnosis books right the way

1149
01:32:49.479 --> 01:32:55.880
up to about two thousand and thirteen. So from nineteen

1150
01:32:56.039 --> 01:33:04.800
ninety eight to two thy thirty, I was purchasing hypnosis books,

1151
01:33:05.439 --> 01:33:09.039
had a very very good collection. I lost all of

1152
01:33:09.119 --> 01:33:12.680
those books, but I did have a really good collection

1153
01:33:13.159 --> 01:33:18.119
or I also had training videos, training DVDs, training audios,

1154
01:33:19.600 --> 01:33:23.079
really out of print books as well, some of the

1155
01:33:23.159 --> 01:33:28.159
ones that I bought in ninety nine two thousand that

1156
01:33:28.279 --> 01:33:32.239
weren't in print anymore, you couldn't get them. In fact,

1157
01:33:32.279 --> 01:33:34.479
you could get them, but they were expensive on Amazon

1158
01:33:35.159 --> 01:33:43.199
or eBay. But I think for me, I liked just

1159
01:33:43.319 --> 01:33:46.720
studying it. I liked the idea of being good at

1160
01:33:46.720 --> 01:33:55.880
it but without testing. So during ninety nine, two thousand,

1161
01:33:56.119 --> 01:33:59.520
two thousand and one, two thousand and two, two thousand

1162
01:33:59.520 --> 01:34:02.680
and three, two thousand and four, two thousand and five,

1163
01:34:04.359 --> 01:34:11.000
training doing trainings, I was buying and reading lots of books,

1164
01:34:12.680 --> 01:34:19.279
even making recordings for myself. I did a little bit

1165
01:34:19.359 --> 01:34:23.199
of relaxation stuff for some friends, some pain relief for

1166
01:34:23.279 --> 01:34:26.920
my nan, But outside of that, I didn't ever test

1167
01:34:27.039 --> 01:34:33.920
it with the public. And it's only two thousand and six.

1168
01:34:34.039 --> 01:34:36.680
When I started doing that, I was kind of pushed

1169
01:34:36.720 --> 01:34:41.319
into it by a friend who called my bluff. I've

1170
01:34:41.359 --> 01:34:43.119
talked about that in the past, and it was just

1171
01:34:45.039 --> 01:34:47.640
I didn't want to do it. I was quite happy

1172
01:34:47.800 --> 01:34:53.079
just to read the books and kind of fantasize that

1173
01:34:53.319 --> 01:34:57.319
maybe I could be good at it rather than actually

1174
01:34:59.000 --> 01:35:08.359
do anything. And then you know, in two thousand and six,

1175
01:35:08.439 --> 01:35:12.279
I also started making audios and videos. The reason I

1176
01:35:12.359 --> 01:35:15.079
started making audios is because I was doing I was

1177
01:35:15.399 --> 01:35:24.800
volunteering at a alcohol charity and I was doing these

1178
01:35:24.840 --> 01:35:27.119
group sessions two a week or one on a Friday,

1179
01:35:27.159 --> 01:35:29.479
I think one a week at the time on a Friday,

1180
01:35:30.039 --> 01:35:35.960
and someone said, can you not You know, it's not

1181
01:35:36.159 --> 01:35:38.279
enough once a week isn't enough. Isn't there any way

1182
01:35:38.319 --> 01:35:42.800
of getting a recording of this? So the charity and

1183
01:35:43.000 --> 01:35:47.359
me got together and made some CDs. They went so quickly,

1184
01:35:47.920 --> 01:35:51.000
and the charity can really afford to keep making new CDs.

1185
01:35:52.520 --> 01:35:55.439
What I did is I taped a recording me and

1186
01:35:55.560 --> 01:35:59.520
we printed it onto a CD. So I thought, Okay,

1187
01:35:59.680 --> 01:36:06.239
what's solution for this. I had my website and I

1188
01:36:06.600 --> 01:36:10.239
put the recording. I started putting my recordings on my

1189
01:36:10.319 --> 01:36:14.000
website where you could download them or stream. I can't

1190
01:36:14.039 --> 01:36:16.199
remember you could stream at the time or download them.

1191
01:36:17.920 --> 01:36:27.840
And then I discovered MySpace, so I started uploading the

1192
01:36:27.920 --> 01:36:30.880
audios to MySpace from the live sessions. So I started

1193
01:36:30.880 --> 01:36:34.960
recording the live sessions every time I did one these

1194
01:36:35.079 --> 01:36:37.520
live group sessions. And I was doing it also at

1195
01:36:37.600 --> 01:36:44.000
drug rehab center as well. A few months later, until

1196
01:36:44.239 --> 01:36:47.600
the end of two thousand, until the end of two

1197
01:36:47.640 --> 01:36:57.800
thousand and seven, Yes, and I started making videos. So far, well,

1198
01:36:57.840 --> 01:37:01.600
I'm doing the audios to MySpace. I can do videos,

1199
01:37:01.680 --> 01:37:04.159
so let me try. I try that, use the webcam

1200
01:37:04.439 --> 01:37:09.560
from the laptop. Terrible picture and not that this one's

1201
01:37:09.640 --> 01:37:11.760
much better. But I look at me, look at my eyes.

1202
01:37:11.800 --> 01:37:14.680
I look so blue next to the red my face.

1203
01:37:16.039 --> 01:37:27.760
The yeah, the I think the videos. I had one

1204
01:37:27.880 --> 01:37:31.159
video that reached about ten thousand views. I think that

1205
01:37:31.279 --> 01:37:36.399
was the Chronic Pain one. It's like wow. And the

1206
01:37:36.479 --> 01:37:39.880
thing about MySpace is I never I think I'm not

1207
01:37:39.920 --> 01:37:43.439
sure if I ever had one negative review people so

1208
01:37:45.000 --> 01:37:49.680
supportive on MySpace. It's a shame that that place just

1209
01:37:50.359 --> 01:37:56.039
didn't continue because it was a really nice space, really

1210
01:37:56.279 --> 01:38:01.159
was well it's kind of like MySpace really that it

1211
01:38:01.319 --> 01:38:08.199
was a nice place. And then Facebook came along, YouTube

1212
01:38:08.279 --> 01:38:12.359
came along, so YouTube tubetube took all the videos. YouTube

1213
01:38:12.720 --> 01:38:16.159
YouTube was a place for the videos to be. My

1214
01:38:16.359 --> 01:38:22.199
Space started to just dwindle down when Facebook came along again.

1215
01:38:22.560 --> 01:38:25.760
So you had somewhere to post to YouTube videos, or

1216
01:38:25.840 --> 01:38:29.279
you had someone to post videos and in somewhere that

1217
01:38:29.399 --> 01:38:34.880
you could have social interactions with people, and Facebook was

1218
01:38:35.479 --> 01:38:37.399
the new place for that, and everyone kind of just

1219
01:38:37.640 --> 01:38:41.399
went over there. And then, as I said earlier, I

1220
01:38:41.439 --> 01:38:46.520
started using a podcast for the audio, so I really

1221
01:38:46.680 --> 01:38:51.000
didn't use my Space at all after a little while,

1222
01:38:52.359 --> 01:38:57.079
which is the same, but that's kind of how this progressed.

1223
01:38:58.720 --> 01:39:02.199
I focused mainly on the YouTube videos for up to

1224
01:39:02.279 --> 01:39:07.600
a out twenty thirteen in two thousand and seven, but

1225
01:39:07.640 --> 01:39:10.840
I did also have podcasts, but they were kind of

1226
01:39:11.880 --> 01:39:16.000
not secondary. But it was I'd make the video and

1227
01:39:16.079 --> 01:39:19.640
then I'd extract the audio and put that on the podcast.

1228
01:39:20.199 --> 01:39:22.880
Sometimes i'd do a video audio just on its own,

1229
01:39:22.960 --> 01:39:25.199
but quite often it would just be the video, and

1230
01:39:25.279 --> 01:39:28.239
then then i'd extract that, so I'd be focusing more

1231
01:39:28.279 --> 01:39:35.000
on the video aspect, you know, things on YouTube. And

1232
01:39:35.239 --> 01:39:44.439
then probably I moved here twenty fifteen, started doing more recordings, audios,

1233
01:39:44.600 --> 01:39:47.640
did some videos and stuff. Hadn't done many videos for

1234
01:39:47.680 --> 01:39:52.880
a while for a couple of years, and I haven't

1235
01:39:52.920 --> 01:39:55.720
been steady with videos really. I've got through little periods

1236
01:39:57.680 --> 01:40:01.079
the audios. I think two thousand and eight really kicked in.

1237
01:40:01.239 --> 01:40:05.720
I started putting more effort and doing them a lot

1238
01:40:05.800 --> 01:40:10.319
more regular in twenty eighteen, once I started doing and

1239
01:40:10.439 --> 01:40:14.399
let Me Boy to Sleep, And since then I've done

1240
01:40:14.439 --> 01:40:22.560
thousands of recordings and it is, Yeah, it's sort of grown,

1241
01:40:22.640 --> 01:40:26.520
I guess from there. But I like to think in

1242
01:40:26.640 --> 01:40:31.760
a way, even though I'm not really don't really do

1243
01:40:31.960 --> 01:40:35.399
hypnosis anymore, not really, I kind of do it, I don't.

1244
01:40:35.840 --> 01:40:41.640
I like to think that I incorporate what I learn.

1245
01:40:42.239 --> 01:40:45.680
So when I when I do the let Me Boil

1246
01:40:45.720 --> 01:40:54.680
Your Pain Away, I'm still using techniques and I don't

1247
01:40:54.680 --> 01:40:58.199
know how to explain it. But I think it's about

1248
01:40:58.359 --> 01:41:04.720
trying to instead of of adapting myself, because what I

1249
01:41:04.840 --> 01:41:10.119
was trying to do before is adapting myself to the hypnosis.

1250
01:41:14.600 --> 01:41:19.960
Now I just adapt the hypnosis to myself. So I

1251
01:41:22.119 --> 01:41:25.199
try and use whatever has been absorbed into my brain

1252
01:41:28.319 --> 01:41:32.079
and hope for the best. I suppose I don't know,

1253
01:41:33.279 --> 01:41:41.680
but yeah, I hope that answered your question. So I

1254
01:41:41.800 --> 01:41:46.640
have answered every question. There was nine nine questions, So

1255
01:41:46.840 --> 01:41:50.800
thank you very much everyone. So I was going to

1256
01:41:50.840 --> 01:41:55.800
say thank you to everyone all that's answered to ask.

1257
01:41:55.960 --> 01:42:07.439
So Hillary, Sandy, Michelle, Corina or coroner, sure it's Corina, Kate, Jonathan, Ali,

1258
01:42:07.760 --> 01:42:12.319
and Hope. Thank you very much and I'm going to

1259
01:42:12.399 --> 01:42:14.640
go now. So thank you for listening. Remember to be

1260
01:42:14.800 --> 01:42:19.000
kind to yourself because you do deserve to be happy.

1261
01:42:20.640 --> 01:42:23.439
Lots of love, Bye,