May 18, 2025

(music) Q&A Friday | LMBYTS #1354 | 16th May 2025

(music) Q&A Friday | LMBYTS #1354 | 16th May 2025
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Hello, and welcome to jasonnew Land dot com. My name

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is you all need rub hands together, that's my nickname.

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My name is Jason new Land. Please only listen when

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you can safely close short eyes. And this is let

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me boy to sleep. And today it is Q and

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A Friday. Yes it's a little bit late, a little

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bit late, but I'll be busy day busy. So before

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I go on, I'll just give you a little update

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on what's been going on this week. Wow, I think

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the Actually I did go to do a recording on Wednesday,

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but I just gave up because I didn't I wasn't

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in the mood. So I kind of did about twenty

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minutes and I just turned it off. I did one

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on Tuesday, didn't do one Thursday. So yeah, done a

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little bit less than normal this week. But I have

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been very busy with my website. I've been working on

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my websites, not just the website as far as what

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it looks like on a laptop or a tablet, but

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also adapting it for mobile phones to make sure it

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works correctly. So I've changed a few things. If you've

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been on there recently, you know, if you with a

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couple of weeks ago. I think you'll if you go back,

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you'll see it's very different. It's just nicer. It looks nicer.

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So I've got the podcasts which is in the index,

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and they're all listed, but there's images of the podcast

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and you just click on the podcast and that takes

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you to the all the latest recordings. Or if you

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want to find out where my podcasts are on the

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various different apps, just click on podcast apps. I've got

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Audible boring myself already, that's quick. There's Apple Podcasts, Audible, Apple,

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Amazon Music podcast App, cast Box, Deser, Luminary Podcast, Republic Player,

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FM Podcast, Addict, Podcast Index, pod Chaser, pod Friend, pod, verst, Podbean, Spreaker, Spotify,

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and SoundCloud. Basically alphabetical order really from top top to bottom.

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Apart from it's not all actually it's just the Asia

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at the top and the s's are at the bottom.

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But other than that, it's yeah, it's kind of alphabetical.

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And again they're all got images. So before it was

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just text that you clicked on. This is images now.

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So if you click on Apple Podcasts, for example, and

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then it gives you a list of all the different

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podcasts and then you can click on, let's say, for example,

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let me Boil your pain Away, and that takes you

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to let Me boy Pain Away on Apple podcasts. It's

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just a different way of doing it. It might be

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a useful thing. So if you if you're on cast

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Box and you don't know where my let Me Boy

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to Sleep podcast is, you just click on podcast apps,

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go down, click on cast Box, click on let Me

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Boy to Sleep, and it brings you to the let

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Me Boy to Sleep podcast on cast Box. So it's yeah,

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it's kind of I think it's easy to use other

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than net. I'm in the middle of redoing the playlists.

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So at the moment, I've got four, four different podcasts

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that I've been working on said let me Boy to Sleep. Okay,

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it's a few changes. Okay, so let Me Boy to Sleep.

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The infrastrate is built for these, but they're not all

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updated yet. Let Me Boy to Sleep, Deep Sleep, whisper Hypnosis,

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relax as Sleep hypnosis Daily and Relaxation of stress and

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panic attacks. So with these, so let's say, for example,

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you click on playlists and then you click on let

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Me Boy to Sleep. It gives you six different options

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without music, with music five hours without music, five hours

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with music, ten hours without music, ten hours with music.

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At the moment, I'm working on the ones without music,

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because I think the first thousand of the let Me

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Boy You to Sleep ones are without music, although I

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might remedy that. So if you click on let me

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boardy Sleep, you click on without music, and then you've

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got all the way up from one to fifty. Again

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is it images, So it's not just text anymore. Just

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makes it a little bit easier visually to you know,

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manipulate and to maneuver to I don't know what's another

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word for that, navigate, And it goes down to the

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last one is thirteen hundred and fifty one to fourteen hundred.

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Only one the one to fifty is on there at

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the moment, and you click on that and that'll take

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you to the podcast. And it's exactly the same as

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when you go onto the homepage. You can download, you

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can stream, you can save it for yourself. It tells

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you how big the file is, tells you how long

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the recording is. So yeah, and there's all fifty on there.

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That's it. So I'm quite pleased with that. It's taken

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a lot of hours to put this together. It may

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not seem like much, but it's taken a long time

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because I've been to get it so it works fine

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on the phone for the images and everything to be

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together and to be the same size, and it's taken

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a bit of code code work, as it were. So

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I'm going to have a break from the website today,

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do this recording now, and I'm probably not gonna bother

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with the website. I probably will, actually, but I'm probably, yeah,

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I'm gonna not get The problem is if I could

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finish a sentence. That's one of the things I've got

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problems with. The problem is I struggled to to stop

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doing something once I start, especially move that metal thing,

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keep banging it on my desk. Once I start doing

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these things, for example, working on the podcast apps, there's

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so much to do. There's a lot of it's quite

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intricate in a sense of you know, I don't some

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of it is just copy paste, but it's remembering where

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to paste and what to change, and changing sizes of

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images and pasting in the link to the podcast, you know,

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and making it all kind of a line with each other.

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So it's quite a lot involved in it. I'm pretty

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pleased with how it's working out so far. I've got

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a few other ideas what I want to do as well,

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to make it a little bit easier to a gate

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around the website. In some ways, you could say I've

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turned my website into an app kind of in a

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way now kind of because you know, you've got the homepage.

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It's just the website basically the podcast. But if you

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click on podcasts, then it gives you all the different podcasts.

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Then you can choose one you want to say, for example, relax,

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let's say stop smoking. Click on that. Okay, that's not

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a good example because that link's not done yet. That's

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not a good example either, So I'll ask podcasts. Yeah, okay,

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so you can go directly to the podcast BlimE me.

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Or if you want to go to the playlists, you know,

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the all the different types. Agame you click on there,

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let me boidy sleep with music about music whatever. So yeah,

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it seems happy if that's such a word. So I'll

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get on the recording. Not a lot going on. I've

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just been working on this. Got a letter, I got

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a letter, let me. I like to read you about

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my letters to sever look, oh, read you my latest letters.

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What's this way? Your Income Related Employment and Support Allowance

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ESA payments will end, So it ends on the first

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of the fifth, twenty twenty five will end. They sent

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me this on the second of May. I didn't get

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it till about three days ago. How it takes so

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long to get here, I'll never know it's coming all

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the way from Wolverhampton. So unless they sent it on

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the back of a donkey, and we've received your Universal

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credit you see claim and we sent a plane to

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drop off any planes, your final payment of the essay

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covers the period first of the fifth to the fourteenth

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of the fifth. So m I I honestly I think

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I've had my last payment, which means I've got wow,

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two weeks, two weeks. But then I've got another letter.

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This is from the Council, the council, City Council. This letter,

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it doesn't have a dice. Six of May. This letter

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is important, Dearness the New Land. This letter is important.

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You must read all of it carefully, and you must

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inform this office immediately if your circumstances change. Go to

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blah blah blah blah blah dot blah blah blah. The

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Department for Work and Pensions had advis us here's something

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all right, Okay, this is the first year I noticed,

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because always look for month, just like if there's any

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kind of financial thing on there, as in with pound signs,

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because it's just gives just it's the first thing I

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notice really of the additional award mentioned above. So the

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Department oh okay, the Department of for Work and Pensions

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has advised us that you have started claiming Universal Credit

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and that you qualify for an additional two weeks extension

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of your housing benefit known as Transition to Uce Housing

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payment of the additional award mentioned above, one hundred and

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sixty eight pound ninety has been recovered against previously notified

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overpayment over payment. How how is it own over payment?

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Then it says if you are worried about paying your

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rent bills or living expenses, where you can help. If

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you are struggling to find your to pay your bills

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for any reason, speak to the Financial Equality and Well

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Being Teams today. Okay, So you know, suddenly you owe

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this money and then it's been recovered. So I was

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like confused about that, like what's going on? So then

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it says another one another letter dear mister Newland, this

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letter is also important. You must also read all of

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this carefully and you must inform blah blah blah blah

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so you claim. For you to claim for benefit has

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been looked at because managing managed migration to Universal credits

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successfully and your benefit has been stopped from the first

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of May twenty twenty five. So pretty much I think.

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Oh no, I think it's the eighth of June before

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I get paid. Oh, I'm confused. The housing costs will

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now be paid within your Universal Credit award. Please contact

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your work coach if you have any changes or the

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costs are incorrect. If you are ad vont lah blah

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blah blah blah blah. As your incitement has ended, any

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overpayments which were previously overpaid or recovered or blah blah

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blah via deductions from the housing benefit payment will now

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end as such. If you have any outstanding over there's

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like too much information and then it says here you

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have been overpaid one hundred and sixty eight pound ninety housand.

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Benefit of this overpayment one hundred and sixty eight pound

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ninety is non recoverable and therefore only the balance of

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zero will be recovered. Does anyone understand what that means?

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Any ideas anyone? I really don't. You have been overpaid

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one hundred and sixty eight pound ninety. Housing benefit of

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this overpayment on hundred and sixty eight pound ninety is

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non recoverable, and therefore only the balance of zero will

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be recovered. I get from that that there's nothing to pay.

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They've written it off. But have they written it off?

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Because worded very strangely, the reason for the overpayment is

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managed migration, which has been calculated as follows, from the

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first of the fifth, twenty twenty five to the twelve

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of the fifth, twenty twenty five one week and four

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days old award one hundred and seven pounds forty eight

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new awards zero weekly amount overpaid one hundred and seven

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pound forty eight. Total amount overpaid one hundred and sixty

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eight pound ninety. It doesn't make sense. I don't understand it.

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I know one hundred and seven pounds that's the rent

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for a week. Your repayment will be accepted without prejudice

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to any further action if you are. It doesn't make

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the way they've worded it is. So I'm gonna say

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of twos because I don't know what that means, but

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I heard someone say it once on a video in

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about nineteen eighty two. I think it was this Steve

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Martin movie. Ah, So I don't know. Confusing, very confusing, right,

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t WDDD. They've also they have agreed to pay my

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rent directly to the housing benefit and they've also agreed

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to pay me every two weeks from the eighth of

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I think it's the eighth of June, and they'll let

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me know on the fourth of June what I'm getting.

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So is going to be an interesting period the next

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couple of weeks. So I'll find out Wednesday, on the

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twenty first, whether or not. Wow, that's fine. I'm just

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going to go around. I'm gonna have to start collecting

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the money people lone me and I go around. Oh

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you know all that money that I'll be lending you

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over the last ten years, and you thought that you

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didn't have to pay it back. You see this baseball

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back in my hand. You do have to pay it back. Okay,

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right back to seriousness. Any questions for this Friday? So

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let's have a look. Oh, today Vinie started barking like

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proper man and it sounds like someone was at my door,

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and I went nothing, there he's barking again. It really

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sounds like someone was pushing on the door, the front door.

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So I just went out as I do, just just

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like I wonder what's going on. There's a pigeon. Someone's

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left the back door open downstairs. It's come up, flying

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basically bashing into each window trying to get out. Poor

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little thing. So I got a hammer, I got my boastball.

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I just I thought, what am I going to do?

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So this has happened before, it's not the first time.

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So I didn't have a towel, but I did have

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like a T shirt. So I've got a T shirt,

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not the one I was wearing. It's a different T shirt.

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And I was trying to check it over the pigeon.

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It wasn't like a big pigeon, more like a dove

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sized pigeon. In fact, it might be a dove, and

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I was trying to check it over it but it

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wasn't going over. The pigeon was just moving its head

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and just knocking it off and just looking at me.

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And then when I went down, it flew off again

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and smashed against the window. In the end, it just

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it let it, let me pick it up, and actually

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wrapped his or her I think it's a girl, actually

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wrapped her hands, rap fingers around my fingers, and I

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was stroking her and just carrying it, carried it downstairs,

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and for a little while she was just standing on

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my hand, just looking around, and I was just talking

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to her, and then I started telling her a story.

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I thought i'd tell her about the chip shop that

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used to work in. Then she was off, but yeah,

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just went into the tree. I think it's probably a

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relative of Horrace, maybe his girlfriend. I'm going to say

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probably his daughter to be fair, because she's quite young.

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He's been around for ten years since I moved in, right,

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So other than that, anything else that's happened, I can't

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think of anything even mildly interesting. Well, it's never going

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to be anything interested, but it's not a lot gone on.

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Uh Ah. A neighbor just phoned me up while I

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was doing this recording, asking me if I had any

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antidepressants family's like cell Solita, Prahm or whatever they are,

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and I said, no, don't have those that medication. I said,

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I've got a few spare on my own. But you

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won't want to take my medication. It's a different medication

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and it's you know, shouldn't mix that stuff. Plus it

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takes it takes quite a few weeks to kick in

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the older floors a team. So Maria, first question, Hi Jason,

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how long ago did you last visit Thailand? How long

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did you stay and did you enjoy the food there?

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I don't think I ate any of the food there,

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to be honest, I just ate normal food, human food.

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I didn't. I mean, for one, I was not going

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to eat the street food. And it's smelled amazing, but

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I was not going to eat the street food just

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through is. I wouldn't eat street food in this country,

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so I'm definitely not going to eat street food abroad. Yeah,

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when I went, it was kind of during the COVID.

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Between the COVID, I just said the words sorry. That

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period like twenty twenty one, I think it was so

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they even though we were pretty much we were in

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lockdown here, they were in lockdown there, not not to

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the point of banning anyone visiting, but you had to

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wear masks in every shop, had to. I mean people

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were wearing masks in the street. It was you know,

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it was pretty full on. Had to had to have

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your blood, your temperature done before entering any any places,

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any establishments, had to do that and as hand washed everywhere.

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So it was it was a very step it was.

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It was. Yeah, it was a bit of a weird

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time and a lot of the restaurants were closed. A

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lot of everything was closed when I went there actually,

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so I stayed in a like a hotel place. Luckily

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when I stayed, I stayed in this place, which was

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a sports bar. Loads of TVs all around the place,

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including two outside. Remember I watched the boxing. That was cool.

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And they had food there, so I ate every day

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there and it was really burgers and stuff like that.

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To be honest with you, you know, I wasn't very

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I wasn't very creative with my food choices. But they

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were catering for Westerners, well Westerners and Australians, mainly Australians.

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It was an Australian bar run by Australian people, and

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other than me, I think everyone in all the customers

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were Australian that were like staying living there and would

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visit as well. So it's a very I mean, there

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was a few people that weren't Australian. All the staff

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other than the owners. The staff weren't Australian. But there's

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the they wouldn't be allowed to work there. In Thailand,

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you have to be tied to work in most jobs,

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actually most. I've done a little bit of research into that,

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and you can if you've got a share in a place,

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you can work, but you can't take a tied job.

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So technically, if you've got forty you know, forty nine

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percent share in a restaurant, you're working a restaurant. You're

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not You're not taking someone else's job because it's your business,

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isn't it always fifty business? So that's when I visited.

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It's quite a long time ago. It wasn't long i'd

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I had I had a chest infection, so it's just

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I can't remember. It was over two weeks, two and

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a bit weeks, and I came back. I was there

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for two days. I think it's getting vague, to be honest,

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it was a bit of a non event. Really it wasn't.

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It wasn't. Really. What I didn't realize is that's it.

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He made it more nice, please, brilliant. Thanks. I think

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that's a weird one. He has absolutely destroyed this bag

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which had his treating chewy chicken twists. Right, he's destroyed it.

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It's empty and he's destroyed it. I gave him that

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bag when it had one left in it, and he

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just looked at it for about an hour and a half.

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So you would destroy it and rip it open when

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there's nothing in it, but when it's something in it,

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you won't even attempt to open it. What's weird, and

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that's strange behavior. Yeah, it wasn't wasn't the right time.

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It wasn't really the right time for me to go. Really.

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I just I just got like a rebate, a benefit

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rebate actually from from previous year is something that I

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should have got paid and I wasn't, and I decided

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just to I had to get away from it. Things

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just difficult living here for you know, and I basically

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turned into a care in some ways. I My friend

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always said to me, I'm his care, and I said, no,

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I'm not your care. But it did, I think emotionally

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I was, you know, I just constantly worried about him

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just for years, for years and years. So I needed

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to get away, and you know, I gave him a

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little bit of money as well. When I got that money,

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paid off my debts and went away, I did the

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older gave a load of food out to people that

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were home welld that were hungry. So that was that

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was the highlight for me. That was you could say,

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almost the highlight of my life. He is handing out

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hundreds of meals and that's whatever it was. I can't

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remember how many it was, but I did it two

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days in a row, and it was kind of the

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best thing I've ever done or feeling why, just felt amazing.

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So it's worth it for that, And I know I

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could have I could have done the same thing here.

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It's you know, I don't know. Just for some reason,

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I wanted to go to a Buddhist country, wanted to

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see how what Buddhist people like are people that were

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born into Buddhism, not just but in this country. You know,

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it's something that there are people born into it in

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this country, but there if they're Westerners, then the people

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their parents probably weren't born into it, and they they've

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just raised their kids in that kind of way. But

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to be bit to live in a country where everybody

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going back many many, many many years, you know, all

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born as Buddhists, all raised as Buddhists. I just found

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that an interesting thing to be around. And I could

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see the difference, could see the difference in the mentality.

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There might not have been anything to do with the religion,

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but and most of them didn't practice the religion anyway,

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but you know, they it was the foundation of their

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belief system, was the foundation of their culture, which I

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just found it interesting. So enjoy the food. Probably the

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best food I had when I was there was apple

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pie and ice cream. Yeah, that was nice. So the

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cook in the that bar, it was a bar, but

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it was also like hotel as well, the sports bar.

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The cook in now, I got ridly well with her,

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and she would she made sure she got lots of

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pies in for me so I could have an apple

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pie and ice cream after my meals. And I had

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a cook breakfast every morning. And also so I basically ate.

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I'd eat twice a day there, so eat breakfast, cook breakfast.

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Then i'd have when I was out, i'd probably see

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if I could get something, maybe in McDonald's or I'm

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trying to think. Just I would look around see if

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there were places some places I went I went in

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one place, which was it was terrible. It was really bad.

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It was I think it's called the Nag's Head, and

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apparently it used to be owned by Kevin Keegan. That's

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what they said because pictures of him on the wall.

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That was Kevin Keegan was like a superstar footballer in

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the early eighties in the UK, well worldwide as well,

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I think, and he had curly hair. I'd say it's

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not relevant, but it was because it was the fashion

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back then. The amount of people, the amount of boys

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that were getting their hair curled permed to look like

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Kevin Keegan because he was a superstar footballer. So I

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went in there and I think that it was a

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it was a cooked breakfast and I think it was

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some beans, an egg which I'm not sure what kind

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of egg. It was some bacon that did not look

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like bacon, and some sausages the type that I give

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Vinny like, they're not sausages, they're those bendy rubbery ones.

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I just, I mean, I'm pretty sure they just didn't

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have any food in possibly was the only customer they'd

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had for a while, so I just I said thanks,

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and I yeah, left. Well, I ate it first but

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I ate some of it wasn't wasn't great. I did

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go to a Thai restaurant a pizza, so yeah, I

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don't think I had even one bit of typhood the

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whole time I was there. Yeah, I have had typhood.

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I've had it in this country, but I didn't have

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anyone kind of because you know, back when I was

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in London, I'd go on dates and the some of

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the people that I'd go on dates with there'd be

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much more open culturally to new things. And because you

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can pretty much eat any food from anywhere in the

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world in London, like any type of food. So you know,

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I've been in Vietnam, are Vietnamese, I've been Entai, I've

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been in Spanish, Italian, French, whatever, lots of different places,

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and there's always I always felt that pressure to kind

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of be involved. You know, two show that I'm open

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minded and I ordered something without knowing what it is.

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Sometimes I deeply regret it, and as I got older,

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I just thought, you know what, no, if I go

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into a Chinese restaurant, I probably am going to order

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an omelet and chips, or an omelet and fried rice,

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egg fried rice. You know, I know what I like,

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and that's what I like. I like omelets, and yeah,

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I'm sure that sure, the typhood's amazing. I mean people,

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I mean, some people go to Thailand for the taihood.

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It's the thing they look forward to most because I

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guess it's the most authentic typhood you're going to get.

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It's like the most authentic any food you're going to

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get is in the country of origin, I imagine. I'm

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sure if you want to the best burger, then you

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have to go to where the first I don't even know, America,

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is that where the burgers come from. Or if you

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want the first mushy pea, you want the best mushy peas,

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you've got to go up north. Or if you want

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the best fried mars bar, you've got to go up north.

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Or if you want the best fish and chips, probably

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gotta go up north or maybe Scotland or or I

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don't know, but you Uk. I imagine for fish and chips,

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probably the best fish and chips you'll get in the

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world will probably be in this country. It might I

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might be wrong. It's just because it's our heritage, it's

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our you know, goes back centuries. I don't know if

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that's true or not right, Kathleen asks me, I've got

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a lot of questions to get through. Just let you

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know that it's loads. I'm kind of surprised at how

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is that?

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One?

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Two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight nine. There's nine,

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but there's thirteen comments, so I'm not quite sure. Okay,

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one's got one with one's got three replies, so there's

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nine questions. The next one is from Kathleen, A couple

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of questions, JJ or love in his flop it? There

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is he able to straighten it? Always floppy? He can?

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He can straighten it sometimes if he's I'm trying to think, Oh,

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I'm just doing the straightening my hands to show you

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the ears not being floppy. But you can't see that,

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can you? When there's a sound got his attention, his

469
00:38:39.960 --> 00:38:43.400
ears do stick up, both of them. But I saw

470
00:38:43.440 --> 00:38:48.039
a picture of his mummy, and his mummy also had

471
00:38:48.039 --> 00:38:51.719
a floppy ear. I said, look, I've got it on here.

472
00:38:52.000 --> 00:39:00.280
I think I've got it on here unless I haven't. Sometimes, Yeah,

473
00:39:03.679 --> 00:39:10.440
if I've got any pictures of Vinnie, right, Okay, that's

474
00:39:11.599 --> 00:39:13.440
I've got a picture of Vinnie when he was a

475
00:39:13.480 --> 00:39:17.159
baby on here. I'm pretty sure it's a picture of

476
00:39:17.199 --> 00:39:22.320
him with his mummy, like his you know, birth mummy.

477
00:39:24.400 --> 00:39:41.599
Uh so cute when he was a baby.

478
00:39:44.480 --> 00:39:49.559
I do. That's something that I kind of wish that i'd, oh,

479
00:39:49.599 --> 00:39:52.840
there's a little cute. He's in a cage. I never

480
00:39:53.000 --> 00:39:55.400
liked the idea of put them dogs in cages. Never

481
00:39:55.519 --> 00:40:00.519
been something i've I don't know the it's something about

482
00:40:00.559 --> 00:40:05.840
being in a cage. I guess that he's I mean,

483
00:40:05.840 --> 00:40:07.840
it can be for their own safety anyway. I can't out.

484
00:40:07.840 --> 00:40:11.880
But he's in this cage, which is probably I guess

485
00:40:12.000 --> 00:40:17.119
was there prepared for multiple puppies, and he was the

486
00:40:17.159 --> 00:40:22.000
only puppy. And he's laying on his back, he's got

487
00:40:22.000 --> 00:40:26.400
his little hands in the air, and he's tiny, you know,

488
00:40:26.599 --> 00:40:32.519
absolutely tiny, and doesn't I don't have a date on this.

489
00:40:35.559 --> 00:40:37.519
I got a date when it was sent fortieth of

490
00:40:37.639 --> 00:40:45.039
January twenty twenty three. January twenty twenty.

491
00:40:44.800 --> 00:41:02.719
Three, really, no, two thousand January two, fairy No, I

492
00:41:02.719 --> 00:41:07.199
wouldn't have sent it to me in twenty twenty three.

493
00:41:08.119 --> 00:41:16.800
That's her date, isn't it? What's my date? Wasn't January

494
00:41:16.800 --> 00:41:20.760
twenty twenty three? I didn't even know jury January twenty

495
00:41:20.800 --> 00:41:34.239
twenty three. I didn't get him till I'm losing track

496
00:41:34.280 --> 00:41:42.320
of time twoenty twenty three. But I thought I got

497
00:41:42.400 --> 00:41:47.519
him in November twenty twenty three, but I didn't do that.

498
00:41:47.559 --> 00:41:56.199
I got him. I got him in twenty twenty two,

499
00:41:57.280 --> 00:42:11.880
November twenty twenty two, twenty twenty two, stop at me,

500
00:42:12.480 --> 00:42:19.880
don't be bucking twenty twenty two, twenty twenty two. So

501
00:42:20.320 --> 00:42:25.400
November twenty twenty two, November twenty twenty three, November twenty

502
00:42:25.559 --> 00:42:32.519
twenty four. It was December, wasn't it. Twoenty twenty three,

503
00:42:33.559 --> 00:42:38.880
twenty four, two years and like five months, four months,

504
00:42:39.000 --> 00:42:43.360
five months. So yeah, so I got him in December

505
00:42:43.400 --> 00:42:48.880
twenty twenty three and twenty twenty two, so she must

506
00:42:48.880 --> 00:42:54.159
have sent me those pictures yet in the January. Okay, yeah,

507
00:42:54.360 --> 00:42:56.320
Oh that just threw me off for a second. Then

508
00:42:57.599 --> 00:43:00.199
there's a picture of him with his mummy somewhere. Yeah,

509
00:43:02.239 --> 00:43:08.840
I just can't find it unless it's on my laptop,

510
00:43:08.960 --> 00:43:12.079
which it could be. Let's have a look to look,

511
00:43:13.519 --> 00:43:19.639
so look at my lap torp lap trp. Oh, Vinnie's

512
00:43:19.639 --> 00:43:28.599
found another fly. Vinnie Vinnie Vinny Vin Vin Vin Vin Vinnie. Oh,

513
00:43:28.639 --> 00:43:32.000
I don't know where Vinie Vini, Venni, ven I, Annie

514
00:43:33.159 --> 00:43:39.639
Vinnie an if any any Vinny, somebab in Vinnie. My

515
00:43:39.920 --> 00:43:48.000
new set up with Vinnie. Vinnie at mummy's Nope, knows

516
00:43:48.039 --> 00:43:58.719
that he's baby Vinnie. No, I can't fight it. It's here, somewhere,

517
00:44:00.159 --> 00:44:04.159
It's here somewhere. I've got a picture of Logi, Logi

518
00:44:04.199 --> 00:44:13.079
and Vinny last stayed together. Oh got the limage, Lougie.

519
00:44:13.159 --> 00:44:16.800
Don't care, he's just there, Just chill down. Then he's

520
00:44:16.880 --> 00:44:22.679
looking at me. He was looking at his watch. How

521
00:44:22.760 --> 00:44:25.199
much longer we got before we get rid of him?

522
00:44:27.280 --> 00:44:29.880
I said, you're missing. When he's when he's moved out,

523
00:44:29.920 --> 00:44:32.400
you're missing. I won't. I want my house back. I

524
00:44:32.440 --> 00:44:36.079
want my bed back. I said, it's my bed, Vinnie.

525
00:44:36.119 --> 00:44:40.039
It's not your bed, it's my bed. Okay, I want

526
00:44:40.119 --> 00:44:50.760
our bed back. He's got a proper attitude on him. So, yes,

527
00:44:50.920 --> 00:44:55.800
he's always had the floppy ear, but his mummy is biological.

528
00:44:55.920 --> 00:45:00.679
Mum had to floppy here as well. Don't about his dad,

529
00:45:02.800 --> 00:45:11.800
oh itchy bump. The both his parents had were red,

530
00:45:14.000 --> 00:45:16.239
but he was the only one that was red all over.

531
00:45:16.320 --> 00:45:17.599
I mean he's got a little bit of white on

532
00:45:17.679 --> 00:45:20.599
his belly and a little bit on his neck, but

533
00:45:20.719 --> 00:45:22.679
he's pretty much and he's on his He's got a

534
00:45:22.719 --> 00:45:28.159
little couple of little little socks, little white socks on

535
00:45:28.920 --> 00:45:31.519
other than that, and gloves, but he's pretty much red

536
00:45:31.559 --> 00:45:32.079
all over.

537
00:45:37.000 --> 00:45:37.159
Here.

538
00:45:37.280 --> 00:45:42.239
You he knows I'm talking about him, probably because I

539
00:45:42.360 --> 00:45:48.679
just keep saying his name. Phinnie, Vinnie, Minnie. Will you

540
00:45:48.880 --> 00:45:55.079
be getting a new bathroom like your neighbors? Cheers Kathleen.

541
00:45:57.280 --> 00:46:05.440
M It looks like no, so my neighbor's downstairs. To

542
00:46:05.559 --> 00:46:13.480
be fair, there was a a There was a reason

543
00:46:13.719 --> 00:46:16.840
why she got a new bathroom because she needed it.

544
00:46:17.000 --> 00:46:20.920
Wasn't because she needed a new bathroom as in the

545
00:46:21.000 --> 00:46:27.119
old one was too old. It was it was I

546
00:46:27.159 --> 00:46:29.480
don't know how to word it, but it was something

547
00:46:29.559 --> 00:46:32.840
that was required, if you know what I mean. So

548
00:46:32.920 --> 00:46:35.840
it wasn't something that they just got round to doing

549
00:46:35.920 --> 00:46:38.800
because it was time, it was needed to be done.

550
00:46:39.840 --> 00:46:42.280
She and my neighbor down stays to get a kitchen,

551
00:46:43.159 --> 00:46:46.280
and that was basically due to time. It was time

552
00:46:46.360 --> 00:46:51.599
to redo them. My neighbor opposite has had his kitchen done,

553
00:46:52.400 --> 00:46:55.239
he's having his bathroom done, and he's having his windows done,

554
00:46:56.360 --> 00:46:59.480
and when they came round to he knew. He's known

555
00:46:59.519 --> 00:47:02.719
about the wind for a few months. He's just waiting

556
00:47:02.800 --> 00:47:04.199
to sort of find out when they're going to come

557
00:47:04.239 --> 00:47:06.400
and do them. But he didn't know about the bathroom

558
00:47:06.440 --> 00:47:08.119
until the other day when they came to measure up.

559
00:47:10.119 --> 00:47:14.719
So but he's he's lived there for thirty odd years

560
00:47:15.400 --> 00:47:18.119
and he's never had anything new at all the whole

561
00:47:18.119 --> 00:47:23.599
time he's been there. So you know it is, I

562
00:47:23.760 --> 00:47:28.239
really don't know. I don't doesn't I asked the council.

563
00:47:28.800 --> 00:47:31.840
I saw the counsel lady, the late a lady from

564
00:47:31.880 --> 00:47:35.920
the council on Wednesday. They came round to check the

565
00:47:36.159 --> 00:47:40.559
bathroom downstairs to make sure it was all all okay

566
00:47:40.679 --> 00:47:45.800
and sign it off, and a little word with the

567
00:47:46.320 --> 00:47:50.760
lady and said, when am I going to have one?

568
00:47:51.119 --> 00:47:53.159
I cut a few onions first before I went down there,

569
00:47:54.119 --> 00:47:58.880
and just to so I can cry and see him upset.

570
00:48:01.159 --> 00:48:02.920
Here's a little clue though, if you're going to do

571
00:48:03.079 --> 00:48:09.559
that before going up to someone, and you know, cut

572
00:48:09.679 --> 00:48:13.239
up onions in order to cry to in order to

573
00:48:13.599 --> 00:48:20.159
get the older emotions going with the other person, if

574
00:48:20.159 --> 00:48:22.599
you're going to shake their hand, put the onions down first.

575
00:48:24.440 --> 00:48:32.440
That's all I'm want to say. And Tammy asks, can

576
00:48:32.599 --> 00:48:36.320
hypnosis be in affected to all in reshaping our subconscious patterns?

577
00:48:36.719 --> 00:48:41.199
Don't know? Next, I don't know. That's a that's a

578
00:48:41.239 --> 00:48:51.719
hard question. And I'll tell you what I tell you.

579
00:48:51.760 --> 00:48:59.280
The biggest thing, just based on my studies, the biggest

580
00:48:59.320 --> 00:49:03.559
thing that affect excess, let's say unconscious, I call it

581
00:49:03.639 --> 00:49:11.519
unconscious with subconscious unconscious patterning is our conscious mind. What

582
00:49:11.679 --> 00:49:18.760
we do, what we listen to, what we think, our experiences,

583
00:49:20.559 --> 00:49:26.159
stuff like that is what shapes us. Reshaping doing something different,

584
00:49:26.320 --> 00:49:34.320
thinking differently, on purpose, purposefully, and so for example, if

585
00:49:34.599 --> 00:49:40.480
someone was constantly thinking about their illness, start thinking about

586
00:49:40.559 --> 00:49:47.400
something different, because we get what we think about, you know,

587
00:49:47.639 --> 00:49:55.039
we become what we think about because we're basically it's

588
00:49:55.119 --> 00:49:58.559
kind of weird. I've seen all these different angles, all

589
00:49:58.599 --> 00:50:01.400
these different things, and it all kind of points to

590
00:50:01.519 --> 00:50:06.800
the same thing, to the same conclusion, and that is

591
00:50:07.639 --> 00:50:16.280
that our thoughts are so powerful on ourselves. It's almost

592
00:50:16.440 --> 00:50:24.360
like what we consciously think, what you purposefully think, not

593
00:50:24.480 --> 00:50:31.480
what you think automatically. What you purposely think affects your brain,

594
00:50:32.199 --> 00:50:38.280
affects your body, affects your let's say, unconscious mind affects

595
00:50:38.360 --> 00:50:47.000
those automatic thinking processes. Now none of that might have

596
00:50:47.079 --> 00:50:54.960
made any sense, not even to me, but I kind

597
00:50:55.000 --> 00:50:59.280
of I'm starting to look at hypnosis in a different

598
00:50:59.320 --> 00:51:02.079
way to help I used to look at it, and

599
00:51:07.360 --> 00:51:20.679
belief expectations is almost is so important. Just generally, what

600
00:51:20.880 --> 00:51:25.960
we expect to happen has a huge effect on what

601
00:51:26.119 --> 00:51:33.760
does happen. How we expect to feel. You know, someone

602
00:51:33.840 --> 00:51:41.880
that it's just proven so many times in experiments. It's

603
00:51:42.039 --> 00:51:46.039
just like when I was seventeen, I mentioned this a

604
00:51:46.119 --> 00:51:49.039
few a couple of weeks ago, went to a party.

605
00:51:49.119 --> 00:51:51.599
It was held it's at the chip shop, but we

606
00:51:51.719 --> 00:51:57.719
went to my boss's house and we were drinking. They

607
00:51:57.840 --> 00:52:00.559
gave me They all were in on it. They gave

608
00:52:00.679 --> 00:52:04.840
me non alcoholic lager. So every time I went to

609
00:52:04.880 --> 00:52:06.599
get a can that no, no, I'll get it for you.

610
00:52:07.360 --> 00:52:10.920
I thought they would just be nice. But they were

611
00:52:10.920 --> 00:52:14.440
all in on it, and they were laughing when I

612
00:52:14.519 --> 00:52:16.280
was talking, so I thought I was also being funny.

613
00:52:17.320 --> 00:52:27.360
So you know, I got drunk and there was no difference.

614
00:52:27.440 --> 00:52:32.599
But not being drunk before there was no difference. There

615
00:52:32.679 --> 00:52:38.519
really wasn't any difference between drinking alcohol and not drinking alcohol.

616
00:52:39.519 --> 00:52:43.159
Because I thought I was drinking alcohol and all those

617
00:52:43.480 --> 00:52:47.440
chemicals in my brain kicked off. They just did their thing,

618
00:52:49.599 --> 00:52:51.679
and I was expecting to feel a certain way, and

619
00:52:51.800 --> 00:52:56.960
I felt that way. Now, good chance is if they

620
00:52:57.000 --> 00:53:00.639
hadn't told me, I me, I may well gone home.

621
00:53:01.480 --> 00:53:03.440
I may well have been ill. I may well have

622
00:53:03.480 --> 00:53:08.280
woken up with her with her hangover. That's how powerful

623
00:53:09.280 --> 00:53:13.280
belief is. When you believe that something's you know, you

624
00:53:13.400 --> 00:53:19.679
believe that non alcoholic lager is alcoholic lager. You know,

625
00:53:20.159 --> 00:53:24.280
it's just I mean, that was quite a good thing

626
00:53:24.360 --> 00:53:28.320
to happen. In one way, it was horrible, horribly embarrassing

627
00:53:28.559 --> 00:53:34.280
and quite I think it's a very cruel thing to

628
00:53:34.360 --> 00:53:41.159
do actually, to be honest. But hey, but it was

629
00:53:41.599 --> 00:53:49.000
a learning experience. And when you think that was forty

630
00:53:49.119 --> 00:53:56.760
years ago, thirty eight years ago, I mean, it's kind

631
00:53:56.800 --> 00:54:00.800
of crazy in it. Thirty eight years on. All different

632
00:54:00.840 --> 00:54:05.440
things I've learned since then. Comes back to that is belief.

633
00:54:07.280 --> 00:54:10.679
And with all the religious stuff that I've kind of studied,

634
00:54:10.760 --> 00:54:15.960
and I've been interested in religion, different religions since I

635
00:54:16.079 --> 00:54:20.199
was a kid. I don't know why, just It wasn't

636
00:54:20.239 --> 00:54:28.280
so much interested in the specifics of the religion or

637
00:54:29.000 --> 00:54:35.360
the rules. I was fascinated by why people did it.

638
00:54:36.480 --> 00:54:41.000
I was fascinated and I still am't really I understand

639
00:54:41.039 --> 00:54:43.079
it a little bit more now than I used to,

640
00:54:43.320 --> 00:54:50.719
I think, but just fascinated how why. Well, I kind

641
00:54:50.760 --> 00:54:58.920
of understand why people need religion, but I can there's

642
00:54:59.039 --> 00:55:03.639
like two sides to it because I've seen the damage,

643
00:55:04.199 --> 00:55:06.280
like from a I don't want to say damage, but

644
00:55:06.400 --> 00:55:08.960
how someone can turn it to be in a negative.

645
00:55:10.400 --> 00:55:16.039
So I knew someone that was they lost someone close

646
00:55:16.119 --> 00:55:22.679
to them. That person's gone to heaven. Good good thing.

647
00:55:23.000 --> 00:55:26.239
You know. That's a kind of a positive way to

648
00:55:26.360 --> 00:55:28.840
deal with it. They're gone to heaven. They're happy now,

649
00:55:29.239 --> 00:55:34.480
they're now, they're not suffering anymore. That kind of I

650
00:55:34.559 --> 00:55:38.239
know it's cliche stuff, but it was. It's got to

651
00:55:38.320 --> 00:55:43.000
be helpful. It can't not be really can It's like, so, Okay,

652
00:55:45.920 --> 00:55:50.119
I'm going to see them again soon. That's nice, so

653
00:55:50.199 --> 00:55:51.840
it's not the last time you ever see them. So

654
00:55:51.920 --> 00:55:57.280
there's that belief it can be comforting. But then that

655
00:55:57.400 --> 00:56:00.920
belief turned for this one person I'm thinking about, turned

656
00:56:00.960 --> 00:56:08.000
into I want to be with them now and it's

657
00:56:08.079 --> 00:56:15.639
like no, and they tried to be with them now

658
00:56:15.880 --> 00:56:19.400
as it were, this is a few years ago, and

659
00:56:19.519 --> 00:56:24.360
I well, it's really hard. So what do you do

660
00:56:24.480 --> 00:56:27.679
with that? It's like, okay, well, if you didn't believe

661
00:56:28.119 --> 00:56:32.199
in that belief system, that religious belief system, then you

662
00:56:32.239 --> 00:56:34.679
wouldn't be doing that because you wouldn't be trying to

663
00:56:34.719 --> 00:56:36.199
be with them, If you didn't believe you could be

664
00:56:36.280 --> 00:56:41.079
with them, you'd perhaps just have to find a way

665
00:56:41.159 --> 00:56:48.239
to move on with your life. So yeah, it's a

666
00:56:48.320 --> 00:56:50.599
complicated thing. But I've just seen some of the things

667
00:56:50.639 --> 00:56:53.280
that people do. A lot of it's been on the news,

668
00:56:53.360 --> 00:57:01.960
to be fair, but based on belief, based on their

669
00:57:02.079 --> 00:57:07.559
expectations of what's going to happen to them or if

670
00:57:07.559 --> 00:57:12.280
they're going to be rewarded, even if it's doing a

671
00:57:12.480 --> 00:57:21.960
non good thing. I'm keeping this very vague. So it's

672
00:57:23.840 --> 00:57:30.920
really powerful if you take anyone you having the chance

673
00:57:31.079 --> 00:57:35.239
to raise a child is a chance to raise your

674
00:57:35.280 --> 00:57:38.400
own little angel, or your own little monster, or your

675
00:57:38.440 --> 00:57:42.239
own little confused creature that doesn't know what I mean.

676
00:57:45.639 --> 00:57:50.920
I just don't think individuals human beings necessarily always I

677
00:57:51.039 --> 00:57:54.880
know I wouldn't I wouldn't have the capacity to raise

678
00:57:54.920 --> 00:57:57.840
a child in a way that they needed to be raised.

679
00:57:59.639 --> 00:58:01.760
I don't think. I mean, some people do have that,

680
00:58:02.000 --> 00:58:05.599
some people like me probably don't. I don't think I'm

681
00:58:05.639 --> 00:58:15.320
patient enough. But it's really weird to just think how

682
00:58:15.440 --> 00:58:23.360
much you can forge a child's brain and their mind

683
00:58:24.519 --> 00:58:26.920
by the stuff you say, by what they see you do,

684
00:58:27.079 --> 00:58:31.679
what they hear you say, the behavior, your belief structure,

685
00:58:32.400 --> 00:58:36.159
what you tell them things like as fact when it's

686
00:58:36.239 --> 00:58:39.400
just an opinion, and they believe it and they will

687
00:58:39.480 --> 00:58:43.039
literally do anything to back up because you've said it,

688
00:58:43.559 --> 00:58:47.360
so therefore it's true. And I've seen that in action.

689
00:58:48.159 --> 00:58:54.320
And I had a friend that and I told his

690
00:58:54.440 --> 00:58:57.519
mum this, I said, you know what, I'm my friend

691
00:58:57.559 --> 00:59:02.599
who passed away his funeral. I told his mum, do

692
00:59:02.679 --> 00:59:05.840
you realize that he believed every single thing you said

693
00:59:05.880 --> 00:59:10.519
to him? And she laughed, and I said, serious. If

694
00:59:10.559 --> 00:59:13.880
you came in here now and told everyone, okay, if

695
00:59:13.920 --> 00:59:19.199
you okay, not now, But if you told him on

696
00:59:19.320 --> 00:59:26.159
a Tuesday that was a Thursday, he would stick to that.

697
00:59:26.360 --> 00:59:29.639
He says, a Thursday. My mom said it's a Thursday,

698
00:59:29.679 --> 00:59:33.159
so it's a Thursday. Even if everyone's walking around with

699
00:59:33.360 --> 00:59:39.199
T shirts on saying it's Tuesday, and the TV comes

700
00:59:39.239 --> 00:59:43.039
on and saying we're celebrating Tuesday Day today. He would

701
00:59:43.079 --> 00:59:49.239
just completely ignore that factual information because his mom said

702
00:59:49.280 --> 00:59:53.639
it was Thursday, and he wouldn't back down, not for anything.

703
00:59:58.480 --> 01:00:02.679
I've never had that connection with anyone to believe what

704
01:00:02.840 --> 01:00:09.559
they say. So I've heard so much bs ever since

705
01:00:09.599 --> 01:00:13.000
I was born, so much just silly stuff that I

706
01:00:13.159 --> 01:00:20.320
realized that nobody is going to be telling the truth

707
01:00:20.360 --> 01:00:24.039
the whole time, because a lot of it is just

708
01:00:24.159 --> 01:00:26.920
made up. A lot of it is It might be

709
01:00:27.199 --> 01:00:29.920
truthful to them, but it might be someone else's lie

710
01:00:32.159 --> 01:00:36.719
and opinions and all that stuff. So I think I've

711
01:00:36.760 --> 01:00:39.159
benefited in a way from not being in that sort

712
01:00:39.199 --> 01:00:45.000
of stuck structure of I believe this, and I'm never

713
01:00:45.079 --> 01:00:48.079
going to change how I think I believe this, or

714
01:00:50.039 --> 01:00:53.400
I kind of don't have that. I think life would

715
01:00:53.400 --> 01:00:55.320
be a lot easier if I did. To be fair.

716
01:00:56.159 --> 01:00:59.119
I've said to be fair three times now, to be honest,

717
01:01:00.599 --> 01:01:04.480
I don't like to be honest, and I've kind of

718
01:01:04.519 --> 01:01:08.320
moved away probably from what you were asking. So what's

719
01:01:08.360 --> 01:01:13.800
my favorite ice cream? Okay? It is I like, no,

720
01:01:16.440 --> 01:01:20.840
everything we do, this is my little belief Everything we

721
01:01:21.079 --> 01:01:32.639
do affects us, whether it's our belief system, whether it's

722
01:01:34.280 --> 01:01:39.519
and our beliefs. I mean, some people's it's hard for

723
01:01:39.639 --> 01:01:42.920
their belief system to change, but I've seen my belief

724
01:01:43.000 --> 01:01:51.079
systems changeing like an instant. One example is, OK, I

725
01:01:52.039 --> 01:01:57.159
have a real issue with motorbikes. Just this is the

726
01:01:57.280 --> 01:01:59.840
sound of them. That's all it is. I don't like

727
01:02:00.079 --> 01:02:05.719
loud sounds, never have done, probably never will do. Maybe

728
01:02:07.639 --> 01:02:09.760
I've got a theory what that is, but it's it's

729
01:02:11.440 --> 01:02:13.480
it's just part of my brain. I can't. I can't

730
01:02:13.639 --> 01:02:16.639
deal with loud, really loud sounds. I don't even have

731
01:02:16.800 --> 01:02:20.800
loud music on, you know. I have it on loud

732
01:02:20.880 --> 01:02:23.519
enough so I can hear what I'm listening to, don't.

733
01:02:23.639 --> 01:02:25.559
I don't even like to put it on louder. If

734
01:02:25.599 --> 01:02:28.320
I have to cover up noise in the garden because

735
01:02:28.320 --> 01:02:34.519
it's too loud for me, then so, because I got

736
01:02:34.559 --> 01:02:38.119
an issue. If I see a motorbike revin I go

737
01:02:38.239 --> 01:02:45.760
into that little angry mode. My little angry smurf pops up.

738
01:02:48.239 --> 01:02:50.840
It's like, how could you be so inconsiderate to me?

739
01:02:52.079 --> 01:02:53.960
Even when they don't even know I exist, you know,

740
01:02:54.199 --> 01:02:56.000
not the smurf. I'm talking about the person on the bike.

741
01:02:57.599 --> 01:03:03.159
So I'm thinking, and I'm walking past, I'm just like,

742
01:03:04.840 --> 01:03:09.079
and then I hear we coming from that direction. I

743
01:03:09.119 --> 01:03:12.119
look over, puts his visor up, and it's someone that

744
01:03:12.199 --> 01:03:19.559
I see regularly who walks his dog. Instantly, that belief, Okay,

745
01:03:19.679 --> 01:03:22.079
not the whole belief about bikes and noise hasn't changed,

746
01:03:22.119 --> 01:03:24.159
because I still have an issue with noise, but the

747
01:03:24.239 --> 01:03:31.320
emotions connected to motorbikes seem to have eased, definitely eased

748
01:03:31.360 --> 01:03:37.639
in that moment anyway, which showed that the if it

749
01:03:37.840 --> 01:03:45.400
can bend, if a belief system can bend quite easily

750
01:03:45.559 --> 01:03:50.960
and be molded and sort of curved around quite easily,

751
01:03:52.360 --> 01:03:57.800
be manipulated and maneuvered, I'm trying to think of clever words,

752
01:03:58.599 --> 01:04:06.039
then it's not really it's yeah, if it can be.

753
01:04:07.719 --> 01:04:12.519
If it's not that tightly structured so that it can

754
01:04:12.599 --> 01:04:19.920
be moved and changed so easily, says Vinny's Flappy Years,

755
01:04:22.400 --> 01:04:24.719
then it's not very strong, is it that belief? That

756
01:04:25.000 --> 01:04:30.480
belief is not a very strong belief if it can

757
01:04:34.519 --> 01:04:41.800
almost transform instantly. It was never a strong belief there

758
01:04:41.920 --> 01:04:46.760
was never a really however strong the emotions were at times,

759
01:04:48.679 --> 01:04:57.360
wasn't connected to a particularly strong foundation. M M yes,

760
01:05:00.880 --> 01:05:04.239
so yeah, I probably can't. I can't answer your question

761
01:05:04.480 --> 01:05:07.480
in a way that I may maybe you'd like to

762
01:05:07.599 --> 01:05:10.719
hear me answer it again. I can only assume on

763
01:05:10.800 --> 01:05:13.199
that one. I don't know, but I can't answer it

764
01:05:13.280 --> 01:05:16.599
in a way that you would get in a textbook

765
01:05:18.079 --> 01:05:22.000
or in a way that makes any cognitive sense. Probably,

766
01:05:24.000 --> 01:05:29.800
I'm just trying to explain from my perspective kind of

767
01:05:29.920 --> 01:05:34.320
how I map it out in front of me, going

768
01:05:34.480 --> 01:05:39.519
to like rituals. You got rituals, so you've got things

769
01:05:39.599 --> 01:05:45.159
like I know, you go go far back. Okay, take

770
01:05:45.199 --> 01:05:45.599
a breath.

771
01:05:46.079 --> 01:05:46.320
I go.

772
01:05:48.159 --> 01:05:51.559
From a religious point of view this country. Things like

773
01:05:51.719 --> 01:05:58.079
Christianity aren't from this country, you know, They're not from Africa,

774
01:05:58.599 --> 01:06:05.840
They're not from America. Christianity, Islam, Hinduism, Buddhism, none of

775
01:06:05.880 --> 01:06:13.920
these religions are from the countries you know are probably

776
01:06:14.000 --> 01:06:19.679
most of the people listening. So if you go back

777
01:06:19.760 --> 01:06:25.480
to your original country belief systems, if you're in Australia,

778
01:06:26.199 --> 01:06:30.039
or if you're in Canada, if you're in America, if

779
01:06:30.079 --> 01:06:37.960
you're in England, in Scotland, in Wales, it's different. It's

780
01:06:38.000 --> 01:06:43.920
a completely different belief structure that we came from originally.

781
01:06:44.559 --> 01:06:46.960
Although I'm forty eight percent Irish. I don't know if

782
01:06:46.960 --> 01:06:51.719
I've mentioned that. So my ancestors, my ancestors were like

783
01:06:51.760 --> 01:06:57.800
pretty much Irish, so that would be Celtic. And there

784
01:06:57.920 --> 01:07:00.360
was a lot of ritual and it goes back to

785
01:07:00.480 --> 01:07:06.360
almost worshiping the sun and the wind and the trees.

786
01:07:06.599 --> 01:07:09.639
And I don't know, I'll make part of that up,

787
01:07:13.920 --> 01:07:20.280
but there's that belief system. You know, people I guess

788
01:07:20.400 --> 01:07:25.280
like carrying a rabbit's foot or believe in something's good

789
01:07:25.400 --> 01:07:33.800
luck because it is for them, no matter how ridiculous

790
01:07:33.840 --> 01:07:40.320
it seems to everyone else. I've seen people that are superstitious,

791
01:07:41.239 --> 01:07:45.159
and I think nearly everyone i've seen it's superstitious in

792
01:07:45.239 --> 01:07:51.400
a working environment as successful. I've seen that a few times,

793
01:07:52.119 --> 01:07:55.800
and they've been successful. They're actually good. And you mess

794
01:07:55.880 --> 01:08:00.840
with their superstitious thing, whether it's they might have a

795
01:08:00.920 --> 01:08:07.199
picture of their their daughter on the thing, so if

796
01:08:07.199 --> 01:08:11.039
you draw a mustache on their daughter photograph, this is

797
01:08:11.119 --> 01:08:17.600
their day up. Whether they're superstitious or not, I suppose,

798
01:08:19.039 --> 01:08:25.720
But if they lose the the the thing that they

799
01:08:26.000 --> 01:08:29.119
have as a I guess kind of like a talisman

800
01:08:29.239 --> 01:08:42.439
or whatever. So you know, it's it's belief, and I

801
01:08:42.520 --> 01:08:48.119
think next to that belief expectations. When you believe something,

802
01:08:48.239 --> 01:08:51.560
then you expect something. I think you kind of need both.

803
01:08:53.119 --> 01:08:55.720
When you got both together, it makes a very strong,

804
01:08:56.680 --> 01:09:03.279
super strong. So, for example, Paul, there was a time

805
01:09:03.359 --> 01:09:08.680
when I was confident going out, confident that I would

806
01:09:08.680 --> 01:09:12.920
be able to talk confidently to ladies. Yes, it is

807
01:09:13.680 --> 01:09:18.119
twenty twenty five years ago, so it's a while back.

808
01:09:20.720 --> 01:09:23.880
But I felt confident and I had that belief, but

809
01:09:24.000 --> 01:09:27.800
it wasn't just it was belief. So the expectations were

810
01:09:27.840 --> 01:09:30.960
based on my belief, but also that belief was based

811
01:09:31.119 --> 01:09:36.039
on previous experience. So all the previous experience and all

812
01:09:36.119 --> 01:09:42.880
the new experience was kind of backing up that belief,

813
01:09:45.079 --> 01:09:52.119
confirming it, new evidence, more evidence to confirm it. But

814
01:09:52.199 --> 01:10:00.399
I was ignoring the evidence that was confirming otherwise because

815
01:10:00.399 --> 01:10:03.920
that's what I focused on. So I was you know,

816
01:10:04.560 --> 01:10:06.399
that wasn't all I was doing. I'm just saying I've

817
01:10:06.479 --> 01:10:11.359
just had a period when I was fairly confident. Didn't

818
01:10:11.439 --> 01:10:20.159
last long. Three hours, Yeah, so I don't know, I

819
01:10:20.279 --> 01:10:34.880
probably haven't answered your question. Our subconscious patterns, we can

820
01:10:35.079 --> 01:10:43.840
change what we think about by just thinking on purpose.

821
01:10:46.000 --> 01:10:50.039
Sometimes it is that instead of just allowing I mean,

822
01:10:50.079 --> 01:10:52.319
it's something to be said for allowing thoughts to come

823
01:10:52.359 --> 01:10:55.119
and go, and that's a kind of meditation in itself.

824
01:10:56.479 --> 01:10:59.159
But when you're doing that, you're not holding onto them,

825
01:11:00.239 --> 01:11:06.319
following the thoughts. So in a meditation, if, for example,

826
01:11:06.399 --> 01:11:13.359
you just sit and just breathe always made me laugh

827
01:11:13.439 --> 01:11:18.159
every time the meditation leader would say, don't forget to breathe.

828
01:11:18.560 --> 01:11:26.479
I've never once forgotten to breathe. It's like, you know, swimming,

829
01:11:27.600 --> 01:11:33.680
people are going swimming. Don't forget to swim. Really, don't

830
01:11:33.720 --> 01:11:42.560
forget to keep above the water. Okay, Oh, don't forget

831
01:11:42.600 --> 01:11:50.039
to eat. I've never forgotten to eat anyway, So on

832
01:11:50.159 --> 01:11:53.279
a recent show, So there's there's I could go on

833
01:11:53.359 --> 01:11:55.159
and on about that all day long, and it probably

834
01:11:55.199 --> 01:12:08.760
wouldn't make any more sense. Possibly, but there's something to

835
01:12:08.800 --> 01:12:14.000
be said for just sitting down allowing your thoughts to

836
01:12:14.119 --> 01:12:17.439
just come, but don't follow the thoughts. You will follow them,

837
01:12:17.760 --> 01:12:20.439
but once you once you notice you're kind of focusing

838
01:12:20.520 --> 01:12:30.560
on something, let it go and then just just allow

839
01:12:30.640 --> 01:12:33.640
the thoughts to come and go, and then when you

840
01:12:33.760 --> 01:12:41.479
notice yourself focusing on something, let it go again. And

841
01:12:41.600 --> 01:12:45.159
it's kind of a good way to it. It's a

842
01:12:45.359 --> 01:12:47.920
similar thing if you want to find out if you're

843
01:12:47.960 --> 01:12:51.880
going to buy take over a restaurant or let's say

844
01:12:51.880 --> 01:12:58.319
it's a fast food place or a chip shop. Yeah

845
01:12:58.399 --> 01:13:01.239
it's a chip shop, and you want to find out

846
01:13:01.920 --> 01:13:04.479
the kind of customers you're going to get. You want

847
01:13:04.479 --> 01:13:06.119
to find out what it's going to be like, what

848
01:13:06.319 --> 01:13:12.640
kind of foot traffic you're going to get. Then you

849
01:13:12.800 --> 01:13:14.680
sit in the window and look out. You're sitting there

850
01:13:14.720 --> 01:13:22.720
and watch, and the longer you sit, the more of

851
01:13:22.760 --> 01:13:24.600
an idea you're going to get of what's going on.

852
01:13:24.720 --> 01:13:29.800
And you start seeing patterns. Oh, that bloke's coming, he

853
01:13:29.880 --> 01:13:38.600
comes in every Tuesday and every Thursday. Oh he's always

854
01:13:38.640 --> 01:13:41.560
got yogurt on his head. You know, just things like that,

855
01:13:42.279 --> 01:13:47.479
and it can be it could be quite interesting to

856
01:13:47.600 --> 01:13:55.359
see the to see to notice what you're thinking without

857
01:13:55.439 --> 01:14:02.199
adding anything, without getting into an internal dialogue or being imaginative,

858
01:14:03.640 --> 01:14:09.000
which can also be fun. I suppose I don't know

859
01:14:09.039 --> 01:14:13.039
if I've answered that. Jonathan on a recent show, you

860
01:14:13.199 --> 01:14:15.920
mentioned a disability of yours but didn't refer to what

861
01:14:16.039 --> 01:14:19.720
it was, and also implied that you maybe don't drive.

862
01:14:20.000 --> 01:14:27.439
But curious about both of these. Well, that's the thing

863
01:14:27.520 --> 01:14:30.960
with these recordings. I've mentioned it a few times, but

864
01:14:31.079 --> 01:14:34.600
I know that sometimes if people fall asleep or whatever,

865
01:14:34.680 --> 01:14:37.039
they just you're not going to hear what I've talked about.

866
01:14:37.479 --> 01:14:40.359
But I don't know if I'll mentioned it too much.

867
01:14:40.399 --> 01:14:46.880
But yeah, I have a I've got bipolar effective disorder

868
01:14:47.039 --> 01:14:54.600
and which is classed as a disability with me and

869
01:14:59.520 --> 01:15:04.840
eu PDS an emotionally unstable personality disorder. So they are

870
01:15:04.880 --> 01:15:10.399
the two things. It's not mental mental stuff that's my disability.

871
01:15:11.399 --> 01:15:17.560
I haven't got any physical disabilities. But I do have

872
01:15:17.720 --> 01:15:22.399
a disability bus pass. I do come like an old

873
01:15:22.560 --> 01:15:30.279
pension and now I do not allowed to drive because

874
01:15:30.319 --> 01:15:35.560
of the medication I'm on because it causes drowsiness and

875
01:15:39.760 --> 01:15:42.399
the d d w what is it called, the d

876
01:15:42.560 --> 01:15:49.399
LP pl DAL whatever d w L the driving people driving,

877
01:15:51.560 --> 01:15:55.800
I forget the name of the company the driving place. Yeah,

878
01:15:55.840 --> 01:16:00.399
they didn't ban me like in a way of like

879
01:16:00.560 --> 01:16:04.119
banning me for drink driving or whatever or speeding. They

880
01:16:04.239 --> 01:16:06.079
just banned me from driving. They said, you're not allowed

881
01:16:06.079 --> 01:16:10.840
to drive. This was quite a few years ago. However,

882
01:16:11.800 --> 01:16:18.800
I don't drive. I can't drive, so it's one of

883
01:16:18.800 --> 01:16:25.399
those weird things. When I first got my bus pass,

884
01:16:25.520 --> 01:16:31.159
I had to go to the driving place and get

885
01:16:31.279 --> 01:16:34.840
proof about me not being able to drive. That's the

886
01:16:34.960 --> 01:16:38.159
only reason they would give me a bus pass. So

887
01:16:38.279 --> 01:16:40.720
I just went Scott left from the doctor just to

888
01:16:40.800 --> 01:16:44.199
tell them what I was my situation and they banned me.

889
01:16:44.760 --> 01:16:50.119
Was like, wow, but yeah, I don't know quite it

890
01:16:50.239 --> 01:16:53.079
causes drowsiness to medications. I think it's probably more to

891
01:16:53.159 --> 01:16:59.239
do with that than my my road rage potential. I

892
01:16:59.319 --> 01:17:02.079
don't know. Yeah, I don't know what kind of driver

893
01:17:02.159 --> 01:17:04.720
I would be, but yeah, I don't drive. Never driven.

894
01:17:05.479 --> 01:17:09.640
I've had two sets of driving lessons, one in London

895
01:17:09.880 --> 01:17:16.079
and one in Ipswich. Period in London nineteen ninety one,

896
01:17:17.359 --> 01:17:20.800
what's the point. I was walking fast and the traffic

897
01:17:20.960 --> 01:17:25.359
was driving. I didn't really see the bigger picture, really

898
01:17:25.600 --> 01:17:29.680
like earth driving outside of London. But inside of London

899
01:17:29.760 --> 01:17:33.640
it didn't seem any point. It's not. Everything was moving

900
01:17:33.720 --> 01:17:37.600
so slowly and you've got cars you have you can't

901
01:17:37.640 --> 01:17:39.720
even drive. You can't. You've got stopped like every two

902
01:17:39.800 --> 01:17:43.920
seconds to let cars through because people are parked both

903
01:17:44.000 --> 01:17:47.239
sides of the road, because you're not allowed to park

904
01:17:47.279 --> 01:17:51.920
on the pavement in London, which is I'm glad. That's

905
01:17:51.960 --> 01:17:55.560
one of my big pet peeves, people parking on the pavement.

906
01:17:56.239 --> 01:17:58.640
I don't know what it is. We've got Star locally

907
01:18:00.159 --> 01:18:05.159
it's an ambulance. They park on the pavement. Anyway, Yeah,

908
01:18:05.199 --> 01:18:07.640
I just got my little pet peeve, people parking on

909
01:18:07.720 --> 01:18:10.960
the pavement. You're not allowed to do that in London.

910
01:18:11.840 --> 01:18:14.039
You're not allowed to do it anywhere in this country,

911
01:18:14.279 --> 01:18:19.239
but it's not enforced, but in London it's enforced. So

912
01:18:19.600 --> 01:18:22.920
you literally got to stop and if there's another car company,

913
01:18:22.920 --> 01:18:24.720
you've got to let them through or they'll let you through.

914
01:18:27.479 --> 01:18:34.520
And yeah, so I just didn't see the point in driving. Plus,

915
01:18:34.640 --> 01:18:36.760
I was working whenever I had the money to pay

916
01:18:36.840 --> 01:18:41.000
for driving lessons. I was working too many hours to

917
01:18:41.560 --> 01:18:50.720
have any time to take driving lessons. So that's that,

918
01:18:53.800 --> 01:18:58.000
Joe Anne, not a question. But if you are thinking

919
01:18:58.000 --> 01:19:01.640
about selling merch, I would definitely wear a T shirt

920
01:19:01.760 --> 01:19:08.399
that said I sleep with Jason every night. By Temmy

921
01:19:08.479 --> 01:19:11.199
says that shirt, I definitely could not wear to work,

922
01:19:12.520 --> 01:19:17.960
and I'm thinking why and then tell me put someone

923
01:19:18.079 --> 01:19:21.520
by the same name in my office so I don't

924
01:19:21.560 --> 01:19:25.720
want to give them ideas. Yeah, that could get awkward.

925
01:19:28.159 --> 01:19:29.640
By the way, I shouldn't be reading you about what

926
01:19:29.680 --> 01:19:32.880
other people have written, because you need to join the

927
01:19:32.960 --> 01:19:35.960
boarding group Jason Newland's Bording group. If you want to

928
01:19:36.039 --> 01:19:38.319
see what people are written, you need to join. Man.

929
01:19:40.399 --> 01:19:42.800
So the next one, Oh, yeah, I've got to answer

930
01:19:42.840 --> 01:19:47.760
that question, am I sorry? I was thinking about that.

931
01:19:47.960 --> 01:19:52.039
I mean, you know, merch merchandise isn't going to happen

932
01:19:52.039 --> 01:19:56.600
anywhere anytime soon, maybe in the future, unless you want

933
01:19:56.640 --> 01:20:02.319
to just make some yourself. That would be cool. Maybe

934
01:20:02.399 --> 01:20:05.880
put my website at the bottom, my website address, just

935
01:20:06.000 --> 01:20:12.359
otherwise they won't know who you're talking about. Man. But yeah,

936
01:20:12.640 --> 01:20:15.199
I used to have a T shirt with let Me

937
01:20:15.279 --> 01:20:21.359
Boy to Sleep on it and my website address. People

938
01:20:21.479 --> 01:20:24.479
did actually look they used to look at it. It

939
01:20:24.560 --> 01:20:30.399
was quite a bright picture an image, and I'm not

940
01:20:30.479 --> 01:20:32.039
sure if I had Andrea on there. I might've had

941
01:20:32.239 --> 01:20:36.000
a picture of Andrea on there as well. See, that's

942
01:20:36.039 --> 01:20:38.760
the weird thing. I don't think about the future like

943
01:20:40.520 --> 01:20:41.960
that's the kind of thing that I should have gotten

944
01:20:42.640 --> 01:20:45.239
and just kept one, isn't it because I got it

945
01:20:45.319 --> 01:20:48.960
printed for me, I should have kept one and just

946
01:20:49.039 --> 01:20:54.600
kept it somewhere safe as a kind of keepsake. I

947
01:20:54.760 --> 01:20:59.720
had a T shirt with chronic pain relief on it

948
01:21:00.039 --> 01:21:01.960
of a website. I had another one with free pain

949
01:21:02.079 --> 01:21:05.760
relief back in two thousand and six T shirt. I

950
01:21:05.800 --> 01:21:11.279
remember collecting that and again I just wore it until

951
01:21:11.319 --> 01:21:16.720
it wore out. See what I had? I had a

952
01:21:16.760 --> 01:21:20.079
T shirt in nineteen ninety one and it was a

953
01:21:20.119 --> 01:21:24.840
picture of me. It was in the West End, and

954
01:21:25.199 --> 01:21:30.479
there's this bloke taking photographs, and I mentioned a lot

955
01:21:30.479 --> 01:21:32.840
of people would take a photograph of their loved one,

956
01:21:33.439 --> 01:21:36.359
maybe of their kids, and then having it printed on

957
01:21:36.439 --> 01:21:40.800
a T shirt for them to wear. But I had

958
01:21:40.800 --> 01:21:44.399
a picture of me and I had put it onto

959
01:21:44.439 --> 01:21:46.680
a T shirt and I wore that T shirt of myself.

960
01:21:48.840 --> 01:21:51.119
No one ever mentioned it, no one ever said anything.

961
01:21:55.800 --> 01:21:56.960
Maybe it was a baseball bat.

962
01:21:58.720 --> 01:21:59.000
Sean.

963
01:22:00.560 --> 01:22:05.279
This is a question, Sean asks me, how are you

964
01:22:05.439 --> 01:22:10.279
able to recall dates so accurately? I have often been

965
01:22:10.479 --> 01:22:14.760
drifted in off and you'll be talking about something you've

966
01:22:14.880 --> 01:22:18.560
seen or that happened to you in the past, and

967
01:22:18.720 --> 01:22:23.479
you seem to be very accurately recall the specific year

968
01:22:23.560 --> 01:22:28.520
it happened. It's quite impressive. Thank you very much. This

969
01:22:28.880 --> 01:22:34.119
question finally being asked after you list the Lion documentary

970
01:22:34.239 --> 01:22:38.720
release years in the Disney Triviury episode. You're able to

971
01:22:38.840 --> 01:22:44.159
do it with your stories. So start this question again,

972
01:22:44.439 --> 01:22:52.359
because I've just been rudely interrupted by three different dogs

973
01:23:09.840 --> 01:23:15.319
and someone downstairs shouting as well. Now brilliant, right here

974
01:23:15.359 --> 01:23:18.239
we go, Sean says, how are you able to record

975
01:23:18.319 --> 01:23:21.319
date so accurately? I've often been drifted off and you'll

976
01:23:21.359 --> 01:23:24.640
be talking about something you've seen or that happened to

977
01:23:24.720 --> 01:23:27.239
you in the past, and you seem to be very

978
01:23:27.359 --> 01:23:32.720
accurately recalling the specific year it happened. It's quite impressive.

979
01:23:33.399 --> 01:23:34.800
I agree, Thank you very much.

980
01:23:35.800 --> 01:23:36.159
And this.

981
01:23:37.960 --> 01:23:42.439
Question finally being asked after you list the Lion documentary

982
01:23:42.960 --> 01:23:49.239
release years in the Disney Trivia episode. You're also able

983
01:23:49.319 --> 01:23:52.239
to do it with your stories too, in X year

984
01:23:52.359 --> 01:23:56.279
this happened, etc. I'm always amazed by your memory. Well,

985
01:23:56.359 --> 01:23:59.680
thank you well. I mean to be fair, sometimes I

986
01:23:59.800 --> 01:24:01.319
do it the laptop in front of me, so if

987
01:24:01.359 --> 01:24:07.520
I'm looking up stuff, So I don't always remember every

988
01:24:07.600 --> 01:24:13.199
single year, but when it's when it's to do with

989
01:24:13.319 --> 01:24:16.640
my life, not to do with my life. I mean

990
01:24:17.479 --> 01:24:27.000
technically Madonna releasing The Like a Prayer album in nineteen

991
01:24:27.039 --> 01:24:31.199
eighty nine wasn't to do with my life, but it was.

992
01:24:31.560 --> 01:24:37.079
It signified a particular time. Remember listening to it in

993
01:24:37.399 --> 01:24:43.920
France in the France very poor. It might have been Dover,

994
01:24:44.399 --> 01:24:46.520
even Dover or France, but I think it was France,

995
01:24:47.359 --> 01:24:52.039
and it was Cala I suppose, wasn't it, and the video,

996
01:24:52.239 --> 01:24:57.239
The Like a Prayer video was on. But there's a

997
01:24:57.279 --> 01:24:59.640
few ways I do it. I don't do it on purpose.

998
01:25:00.399 --> 01:25:02.159
And I had a friend that used to keep that

999
01:25:02.319 --> 01:25:05.079
used to mock me for it when I'd sort of

1000
01:25:05.119 --> 01:25:09.000
say the year or sometimes the month as well, and

1001
01:25:09.119 --> 01:25:10.800
they'd picked me up on it to the point where

1002
01:25:10.800 --> 01:25:14.520
I felt a little bit self conscious. And I don't

1003
01:25:14.600 --> 01:25:17.279
like feeling I don't think anyone likes feeling self conscious today,

1004
01:25:18.479 --> 01:25:23.359
so I kind of felt, oh, and like I had

1005
01:25:23.399 --> 01:25:28.399
to stop doing it. This is with someone like in person,

1006
01:25:28.479 --> 01:25:30.680
you know, and they'd like start laughing every time I

1007
01:25:30.840 --> 01:25:34.720
mentioned a year. I don't know why I do it.

1008
01:25:34.800 --> 01:25:39.119
I think it's just I don't know how I do it. Rather,

1009
01:25:41.479 --> 01:25:44.600
I think the reason I do it is to I'd

1010
01:25:44.680 --> 01:25:48.039
like to treat it, try and be a little bit factual.

1011
01:25:49.199 --> 01:25:54.399
But also it's just me kind of talking out loud

1012
01:25:55.039 --> 01:26:00.760
the process, the brain process that's going on. I've got

1013
01:26:00.840 --> 01:26:06.359
my life broken into different parts in my memory. Then

1014
01:26:06.399 --> 01:26:08.720
there's a lot of things I don't remember. I mean,

1015
01:26:08.760 --> 01:26:13.439
I generally don't remember much about Thailand. I don't remember

1016
01:26:13.520 --> 01:26:16.560
much about the last few years, last couple of years,

1017
01:26:21.560 --> 01:26:28.640
or the last week or so. There's and that's partly

1018
01:26:28.720 --> 01:26:34.199
because nothing's going on. Because even though I've generally had

1019
01:26:34.319 --> 01:26:38.920
quite a boring life, but at the same time, it

1020
01:26:39.159 --> 01:26:41.479
wasn't boring, if you know what I mean. It was

1021
01:26:46.520 --> 01:26:49.880
it's constantly on the move, constantly moving from place to place,

1022
01:26:50.600 --> 01:26:52.720
even if it was in the same part of town

1023
01:26:52.920 --> 01:26:55.720
or the same part of the country. I'd you know,

1024
01:26:56.640 --> 01:26:59.960
I'd been moving every couple of years, every year, sometimes

1025
01:27:00.359 --> 01:27:04.960
twice three times a year, and I'd be having different jobs,

1026
01:27:06.680 --> 01:27:09.960
and I'd be having different girlfriends, and i'd be different

1027
01:27:10.000 --> 01:27:15.279
lots of different things happening, and I've got those things

1028
01:27:15.439 --> 01:27:22.600
kind of broken up. So I could list, Yeah, I

1029
01:27:22.640 --> 01:27:28.279
could go by jobs, or I could go by where

1030
01:27:28.319 --> 01:27:33.720
I've lived. I can pretty much. I can't remember the addresses,

1031
01:27:35.359 --> 01:27:39.359
but I can pretty much remember all the moves, and

1032
01:27:39.760 --> 01:27:42.279
a lot of them by date, not day date, but

1033
01:27:42.399 --> 01:27:45.680
by year, and sometimes even by roughly what part of

1034
01:27:45.720 --> 01:27:54.960
the year it was. And then there's jobs. So you know,

1035
01:27:55.039 --> 01:27:59.880
I started working nineteen eighty six in a chip shop,

1036
01:28:00.720 --> 01:28:02.880
so that's kind of the start. But if we go

1037
01:28:03.039 --> 01:28:05.640
all the way back to the very start of working,

1038
01:28:07.199 --> 01:28:14.119
and I had a paper round, and I worked in

1039
01:28:14.199 --> 01:28:17.560
the bakehouse, which was a restaurant. I worked in a

1040
01:28:17.680 --> 01:28:22.920
bakery of the restaurant at the weekend Saturday and Sunday,

1041
01:28:22.960 --> 01:28:29.079
I think it was it was either five o'clock on

1042
01:28:29.119 --> 01:28:32.239
a Saturday or five o'clock on a Sunday and six

1043
01:28:32.279 --> 01:28:37.319
o'clock the other day. I forget which was which, And

1044
01:28:38.000 --> 01:28:40.479
I think it might have been six o'clock Friday, at

1045
01:28:40.520 --> 01:28:45.119
six o'clock Saturday, five o'clock Sunday, because maybe Sunday was

1046
01:28:45.239 --> 01:28:47.720
busier day because then they've got a little coaches and

1047
01:28:47.800 --> 01:28:51.800
stuff come to you know, they would come to visit.

1048
01:28:54.399 --> 01:28:56.960
They wouldn't drive into the outu restaurant, did park and

1049
01:28:57.399 --> 01:29:03.159
let all the people off. You know, how coaches work,

1050
01:29:04.000 --> 01:29:12.520
so I I remember that. But then when I've got

1051
01:29:12.560 --> 01:29:17.560
like memories connected to each job, so I remember some

1052
01:29:17.720 --> 01:29:21.680
of the things I did. So if I if I

1053
01:29:22.000 --> 01:29:27.359
zoom in on a job, and maybe it's because I've

1054
01:29:27.520 --> 01:29:31.960
been I focused on myself pretty much the whole time.

1055
01:29:32.800 --> 01:29:38.159
It means some would say it's someone would argue it's

1056
01:29:38.279 --> 01:29:45.359
just me being selfish, or me put myself first or whatever.

1057
01:29:46.359 --> 01:29:51.560
But in some ways I kind of had to. There

1058
01:29:51.640 --> 01:29:57.800
hasn't been a safety net really, so I've kind of

1059
01:29:58.079 --> 01:30:00.720
not that. Probably many people have safety in it, but

1060
01:30:01.560 --> 01:30:05.439
I didn't have. I kind of I never really knew

1061
01:30:07.119 --> 01:30:09.600
what was going to happen next, or where I was

1062
01:30:09.640 --> 01:30:11.319
going to end up next, where I was going to

1063
01:30:11.399 --> 01:30:14.760
work next, where I was going to live next. You know.

1064
01:30:15.159 --> 01:30:18.319
It was there's always that kind of quite uncertainty in

1065
01:30:18.479 --> 01:30:27.039
my life. Instability. Definitely. I was unstable in lots of

1066
01:30:27.039 --> 01:30:29.680
different ways. I'm not I'm not being a victim. I'm

1067
01:30:29.720 --> 01:30:33.000
just saying that's just how it was, and I didn't

1068
01:30:33.119 --> 01:30:35.119
seem to know how to get out of that. It's

1069
01:30:35.119 --> 01:30:44.399
almost that that was in built. And I guess a

1070
01:30:44.439 --> 01:30:46.079
lot of that would have been because of when I

1071
01:30:46.239 --> 01:30:48.960
was a little, very little, we moved around a lot.

1072
01:30:50.760 --> 01:30:54.119
I had stability at the age of seven to the

1073
01:30:54.199 --> 01:31:01.119
age of fifteen. I mean we still moved so the

1074
01:31:01.159 --> 01:31:06.600
ASA one, two, three, three times four times, so I

1075
01:31:06.680 --> 01:31:09.079
still moved four times in those years. But there was

1076
01:31:09.119 --> 01:31:15.880
a period between nine and fifteen for six years where

1077
01:31:15.920 --> 01:31:19.600
I stayed in the same place, and until I moved here,

1078
01:31:21.239 --> 01:31:25.359
that was the longest time I ever lived anywhere six years.

1079
01:31:27.760 --> 01:31:31.720
I've lived in places for four years, three years, two years,

1080
01:31:31.920 --> 01:31:36.079
a year, a few months, and so yeah, I've got

1081
01:31:37.399 --> 01:31:41.359
Sometimes when I was younger, and maybe I was my

1082
01:31:41.479 --> 01:31:45.439
brain was a little bit too active to fall asleep,

1083
01:31:47.800 --> 01:31:56.000
I would recall all the different places I lived by year,

1084
01:31:56.319 --> 01:31:59.319
So I mean, that's possibly why I remember. I'd recall

1085
01:31:59.439 --> 01:32:10.159
all the different places in order that I worked, and

1086
01:32:10.279 --> 01:32:13.039
that used to send me to sleep sometimes, so and

1087
01:32:13.199 --> 01:32:18.439
I do this in my twenties and my thirties. I

1088
01:32:18.520 --> 01:32:20.319
don't know how many times I moved around when I

1089
01:32:20.439 --> 01:32:24.479
was very young. A lot is going to be the

1090
01:32:24.560 --> 01:32:27.239
answer to that, but I don't know how many. So

1091
01:32:27.319 --> 01:32:33.640
there's no stability, really like proper stability until I was seven,

1092
01:32:35.000 --> 01:32:37.800
and then the stability was there because even though we

1093
01:32:37.920 --> 01:32:40.600
moved a couple of times, it was all of us together,

1094
01:32:40.880 --> 01:32:46.479
so it was it wasn't unstable from that perspective. Yeah,

1095
01:32:49.319 --> 01:32:53.279
I think the only stable thing I had up to

1096
01:32:53.359 --> 01:33:00.960
the age of fourteen whatever was my older brother, the

1097
01:33:01.039 --> 01:33:03.119
one just a bit older than me, because I was

1098
01:33:03.199 --> 01:33:07.680
with him the whole time. We we was in foster

1099
01:33:07.800 --> 01:33:10.479
care together for a year and a half or whatever

1100
01:33:11.039 --> 01:33:14.680
when I was six months old till about two, so

1101
01:33:14.880 --> 01:33:19.960
we lived together before that. Then we lived together just

1102
01:33:20.079 --> 01:33:22.439
you know, my older brother always stayed with my nano granddad,

1103
01:33:23.159 --> 01:33:27.600
and then we moved away. We got took away to Newcastle,

1104
01:33:28.159 --> 01:33:30.119
then we lived in the colored children's homes, and then

1105
01:33:30.159 --> 01:33:32.319
we came back and ended up living with my dad.

1106
01:33:32.439 --> 01:33:37.399
And so he was the only real consistent other than

1107
01:33:37.479 --> 01:33:41.119
my older brother who became consistent in my life from

1108
01:33:41.199 --> 01:33:45.079
the age of and he was there for the first

1109
01:33:45.119 --> 01:33:46.920
six months, but I didn't know anyone did like at

1110
01:33:46.960 --> 01:33:51.479
that point from their I'm sure there was a bond

1111
01:33:52.399 --> 01:33:54.680
six months. I probably would have bonded with him as

1112
01:33:54.760 --> 01:33:58.359
in emotionally known who he was because I see him

1113
01:33:58.359 --> 01:34:02.760
every day, I suppose. But from the age of two onwards,

1114
01:34:04.039 --> 01:34:09.920
so for five years of an age two to fifteen,

1115
01:34:11.159 --> 01:34:20.119
so it's that thirteen years, so thirteen years and fifteen years,

1116
01:34:20.159 --> 01:34:22.439
so thirteen years of my oldest brother, fifteen years my

1117
01:34:22.560 --> 01:34:25.399
younger brother got my other older brother, but not the oldest.

1118
01:34:29.239 --> 01:34:33.319
Other than my dad and my nan, they were the

1119
01:34:33.399 --> 01:34:36.279
only two people. But it's differently because I lived with them.

1120
01:34:37.560 --> 01:34:43.399
I lived with my dad for seven to fifteen, and

1121
01:34:43.560 --> 01:34:45.880
I did live with him a few times after that

1122
01:34:46.600 --> 01:34:52.279
for a short period. I never lived with my nan.

1123
01:34:53.319 --> 01:34:55.640
I just stay over sometimes, but I'd never lived with her,

1124
01:34:56.640 --> 01:35:04.520
but I'd see her regularly, so I just I remember, Yeah,

1125
01:35:04.560 --> 01:35:06.880
I just got these little memories. Sometimes I do get

1126
01:35:06.960 --> 01:35:12.159
modeled up. I do think like, oh, wait a minute,

1127
01:35:12.199 --> 01:35:18.239
that that was a different year, and like thinking about

1128
01:35:18.319 --> 01:35:22.640
something that happened over Christmas, and I'm thinking that wasn't me,

1129
01:35:24.119 --> 01:35:29.239
that's someone else's memory. I don't remember doing it. I've

1130
01:35:29.319 --> 01:35:36.279
never flown the plane weird, so I have there's also

1131
01:35:36.479 --> 01:35:40.319
jobs looking at that, looking at the music, so there's

1132
01:35:40.359 --> 01:35:43.159
connection with the music and the years. I don't have

1133
01:35:43.279 --> 01:35:47.920
that anymore because I have lost track of the music

1134
01:35:48.079 --> 01:35:53.520
today I have. I feel a little bit sad about that,

1135
01:35:53.760 --> 01:35:59.319
but you know, I just there's so many albums that

1136
01:35:59.359 --> 01:36:01.560
I do listen to, so many songs from the past,

1137
01:36:05.159 --> 01:36:08.760
you know, my favorite song collection. There's so many that

1138
01:36:08.920 --> 01:36:13.399
would take I reckon. If I added continuously added songs

1139
01:36:13.399 --> 01:36:18.720
that I really like, I could sit for possibly twenty

1140
01:36:18.760 --> 01:36:23.039
four hours, if not more, listening to different songs, all

1141
01:36:23.119 --> 01:36:29.960
of them that I love. Possibly, I don't know, I'm

1142
01:36:30.039 --> 01:36:33.880
kind of making it up. But during that period there

1143
01:36:34.000 --> 01:36:38.199
was a lot of music connected so to the times.

1144
01:36:38.479 --> 01:36:40.399
So I remember when I was in the chip shop.

1145
01:36:41.520 --> 01:36:46.279
I used to go in in the afternoon, going a

1146
01:36:46.359 --> 01:36:52.800
bit early because I used to enjoy being in there

1147
01:36:52.880 --> 01:36:56.640
on my own, and I'll be preparing the kitchen. Maybe

1148
01:36:58.920 --> 01:37:02.399
doing this is an early afternoon, So I go in

1149
01:37:02.399 --> 01:37:05.560
a little bit early in the afternoon and just take

1150
01:37:05.680 --> 01:37:08.920
my time. And I don't know what it was I

1151
01:37:09.039 --> 01:37:12.000
was doing, but I was probably just getting getting the

1152
01:37:12.800 --> 01:37:16.439
fryers on, you know, setting up for the evening, the

1153
01:37:16.560 --> 01:37:20.840
evening shift. And I'd listened to I had a tape

1154
01:37:20.840 --> 01:37:24.760
recorder downstairs, and I had two tapes, and they were

1155
01:37:24.840 --> 01:37:32.880
both the first two albums from Madonna. I loved Papa

1156
01:37:32.960 --> 01:37:37.199
Don't Preach True Blue Sorry, the album True Blue and

1157
01:37:38.680 --> 01:37:43.760
my two favorite albums Versus True Blue and Like a Prayer.

1158
01:37:44.479 --> 01:37:48.279
They are my two favorite Madonna albums. But during that

1159
01:37:48.359 --> 01:37:50.600
period I quite liked the first two albums that she

1160
01:37:50.680 --> 01:37:55.760
did as well. Haliday. You can so rag that one

1161
01:37:55.840 --> 01:37:57.880
subjectly like dancing a little bit on my own. And

1162
01:37:58.880 --> 01:38:00.640
so I remember that and the other things, like when

1163
01:38:00.680 --> 01:38:04.159
I first moved above the chip shop, I was playing

1164
01:38:05.960 --> 01:38:10.199
George Michael's first album Faith was his album Faith, I

1165
01:38:10.239 --> 01:38:13.119
think it wasn't it? So I was playing that album

1166
01:38:13.560 --> 01:38:22.960
over and over again in my kitchen, just little bits,

1167
01:38:23.279 --> 01:38:34.520
little bits and bobs connected to music. The Yeah, I'm

1168
01:38:34.520 --> 01:38:36.279
trying to give an example. Now, I can't think of

1169
01:38:36.319 --> 01:38:44.199
any examples. Yeah, but there's there are examples. It is.

1170
01:38:45.560 --> 01:38:47.840
It's not necessarily going to pop up when I wanted to.

1171
01:38:49.560 --> 01:38:55.720
But if I was, for example, I don't know if

1172
01:38:56.079 --> 01:38:58.000
he was, Like, let's focus on the year two thousand

1173
01:38:58.000 --> 01:39:04.920
and five, straight way, Michael Jackson's album History came out,

1174
01:39:06.840 --> 01:39:10.720
so I would talk about that. Was it two thousand

1175
01:39:10.720 --> 01:39:12.159
and five or two thousand and four? I think it

1176
01:39:12.239 --> 01:39:15.680
was two thousand and five. I was definitely listening to

1177
01:39:15.760 --> 01:39:18.560
it in two thousand and five anyway, And then we

1178
01:39:18.600 --> 01:39:20.880
could say well that was the year. Yeah, it was

1179
01:39:20.920 --> 01:39:24.800
two thousand and five, And then I could say, okay,

1180
01:39:24.840 --> 01:39:31.920
well I had I had two girlfriends that year. I

1181
01:39:32.039 --> 01:39:37.840
also went and worked at Butlan's. And just going back

1182
01:39:37.960 --> 01:39:41.640
through that year, I can remember certain things that happened.

1183
01:39:42.600 --> 01:39:46.640
I know remember where I was living because I was

1184
01:39:46.680 --> 01:39:49.479
living in one place. Then I went to Butlan's. Then

1185
01:39:49.520 --> 01:39:51.880
I come back and I was homeless, didn't have anywhere

1186
01:39:51.920 --> 01:39:56.000
to stay. But that was pretty much the beginning of

1187
01:39:56.079 --> 01:40:02.119
two thousand and six. So and the only reason I

1188
01:40:02.159 --> 01:40:05.560
went to Buttling's is because we were being evicted. So

1189
01:40:05.640 --> 01:40:07.880
I was evicted from the house. It was a council

1190
01:40:07.960 --> 01:40:10.760
house that my friend was living in or council flat

1191
01:40:10.840 --> 01:40:13.680
wherever it was, and he was being evicted. Was it

1192
01:40:13.760 --> 01:40:18.640
a council I can't remember. He had a flat and

1193
01:40:18.760 --> 01:40:22.840
a house. Anyway, I I had to get out of there,

1194
01:40:23.000 --> 01:40:26.079
so I went and moved. But I just went in

1195
01:40:26.079 --> 01:40:29.239
to the job center, like what am I going to do?

1196
01:40:29.359 --> 01:40:33.239
Because I had no job? What am I going to do?

1197
01:40:33.560 --> 01:40:35.880
It was like literally he told me. I think he

1198
01:40:35.920 --> 01:40:39.960
gave me about a week's notice or five days. So

1199
01:40:40.199 --> 01:40:41.840
we moved. Yeah, you have we have to be out

1200
01:40:41.880 --> 01:40:46.800
in five days. He knew about it. He'd had the

1201
01:40:47.000 --> 01:40:52.640
viction notice for about a month. So I saw, So

1202
01:40:52.760 --> 01:40:55.319
I went and I managed to I went into a

1203
01:40:55.359 --> 01:40:58.880
job center and that is big signs. Do you want

1204
01:40:58.880 --> 01:41:06.600
to work at Buttling's? I laughed, but yeah, sure, And

1205
01:41:06.720 --> 01:41:09.880
then I thought I looked around as another jobs. So

1206
01:41:09.960 --> 01:41:14.840
I just well, there's other jobs, but nothing that offered accommodation.

1207
01:41:16.319 --> 01:41:18.800
Because that was the problem. It's like, I need somewhere

1208
01:41:18.840 --> 01:41:26.600
to live. And I said to I said, well, what's

1209
01:41:26.640 --> 01:41:31.039
going on with this Buttling's thing? They said, well, it's

1210
01:41:31.079 --> 01:41:32.840
a holiday camp. I said, no, I know what it is.

1211
01:41:33.960 --> 01:41:37.560
They said that, you know, there's music, they have families

1212
01:41:37.640 --> 01:41:39.760
go and have a holiday there. I said that I

1213
01:41:39.840 --> 01:41:45.399
already I'm not asking about the actual camp. So what

1214
01:41:45.720 --> 01:41:48.880
is it your What is it you're offering? It said,

1215
01:41:48.920 --> 01:41:53.560
we offer entertainment variety. There's pubs, there's restaurants, there's a

1216
01:41:53.720 --> 01:41:57.359
swim pool. WAS like, no, it's like it was trying

1217
01:41:57.399 --> 01:42:00.279
to sell me a tickets to go going, is it?

1218
01:42:00.960 --> 01:42:01.000
No?

1219
01:42:01.159 --> 01:42:04.039
No, wait a minute, what what are you here for?

1220
01:42:04.760 --> 01:42:09.800
He said, I'm getting paid. I work for Buttling's. I said, okay,

1221
01:42:11.319 --> 01:42:13.680
how can I structure this question in a way that

1222
01:42:13.720 --> 01:42:18.079
you're going to understand it. I said, what what's the

1223
01:42:18.119 --> 01:42:21.399
big signs for? He said, that's so that people know

1224
01:42:21.560 --> 01:42:26.720
that we're here, that a bit further away. He didn't

1225
01:42:26.760 --> 01:42:29.439
say that. That is just funny. Why the big signs?

1226
01:42:29.479 --> 01:42:31.279
Asked for people that are further away can see it.

1227
01:42:32.239 --> 01:42:36.359
And he said there's jobs. Do you want a job?

1228
01:42:36.600 --> 01:42:39.359
Do you want a job? And I said, I don't know.

1229
01:42:40.199 --> 01:42:43.000
I mean the problem I've got is got nowhere to

1230
01:42:43.079 --> 01:42:46.279
live in five days, and if I do get a job,

1231
01:42:46.560 --> 01:42:48.079
I have to work for a month before I get

1232
01:42:48.079 --> 01:42:51.319
any money. And he said, oh, but this is this

1233
01:42:51.680 --> 01:42:54.479
is a good situation. I said why. He said, you

1234
01:42:54.520 --> 01:42:58.039
don't have to sign off because I was temporarily unemployed.

1235
01:42:58.079 --> 01:42:59.960
Then he said you don't have to sign off to

1236
01:43:00.119 --> 01:43:04.159
do this. This is part of the unemployment program. I

1237
01:43:04.239 --> 01:43:08.119
said really, He said yeah. So you go to Buttling's

1238
01:43:08.800 --> 01:43:14.000
in Bogna, Regis. You can work, You still get your unemployment,

1239
01:43:14.279 --> 01:43:18.920
you get extra twenty quid on top, you get fed.

1240
01:43:19.560 --> 01:43:22.479
There's a restaurant which you get fed or canteen, get

1241
01:43:22.560 --> 01:43:26.560
fed three times a day. You get a big discount

1242
01:43:26.640 --> 01:43:32.399
on drinks, and you don't have to pay for any

1243
01:43:32.399 --> 01:43:35.960
accommodation you get accommodation, have to share a bed or

1244
01:43:36.119 --> 01:43:40.600
bedroom rather sorry with someone else. So there's two people

1245
01:43:40.680 --> 01:43:44.640
in a not a very particularly big room, in fact,

1246
01:43:45.279 --> 01:43:49.199
probably about the size of this room, maybe a little

1247
01:43:49.199 --> 01:43:53.359
bit smaller than this room actually, And I said, I

1248
01:43:53.439 --> 01:43:59.720
didn't have a lot of options at that point. So yeah,

1249
01:44:00.199 --> 01:44:01.840
so I had to fill a form in, but I

1250
01:44:01.920 --> 01:44:04.760
had to do a questionnaire and like to test my intelligence.

1251
01:44:06.399 --> 01:44:09.359
And I remember when I handed it in and fireworks

1252
01:44:09.439 --> 01:44:12.800
went off. I said, Wow, you're the most intelligent person

1253
01:44:12.880 --> 01:44:16.439
we've ever seen it. Ever, how come you're not teaching

1254
01:44:16.479 --> 01:44:26.439
in a university? And that didn't happen. So I just thought,

1255
01:44:27.279 --> 01:44:28.720
he said, well, what kind of work can you do?

1256
01:44:29.800 --> 01:44:34.039
I said what's available? And it kind of broke down

1257
01:44:34.800 --> 01:44:37.479
what I should what I would have done. If I

1258
01:44:37.560 --> 01:44:41.600
had looked at longer, further picture, the bigger picture, the

1259
01:44:41.720 --> 01:44:47.079
more advanced picture, the future, I would have chosen something

1260
01:44:47.159 --> 01:44:51.760
that I wouldn't have disliked doing. But I had experience

1261
01:44:51.840 --> 01:44:55.600
working in the bar, and they saw it. As soon

1262
01:44:55.640 --> 01:44:57.159
as they saw that acts I had to film a

1263
01:44:57.239 --> 01:44:59.800
CV in and that they said, okay, well you can

1264
01:44:59.840 --> 01:45:02.920
work in a bar. Then I didn't realize it was

1265
01:45:02.960 --> 01:45:08.560
going to be the world's busiest bar. And I've never

1266
01:45:08.840 --> 01:45:10.920
I don't think I could ever work anywhere with a

1267
01:45:11.000 --> 01:45:15.119
bar that busy. And I've been in bars. These these

1268
01:45:15.159 --> 01:45:21.960
were like thousands of people, you know, in this massive,

1269
01:45:22.520 --> 01:45:31.039
massive hall venue. There was like three bars and the

1270
01:45:31.159 --> 01:45:35.039
show it was a show on and there was hundreds

1271
01:45:35.079 --> 01:45:38.600
of tables, and there's people, families, and there was literally

1272
01:45:38.760 --> 01:45:42.520
it was non stop from the beginning of the evening

1273
01:45:43.000 --> 01:45:46.000
to the end. There was never The only breaks we

1274
01:45:46.079 --> 01:45:47.359
got is when we were allowed to have a break.

1275
01:45:47.880 --> 01:45:51.399
There was no standing around, no waiting. It was constant.

1276
01:45:52.359 --> 01:45:54.000
I mean, the amount of money that would have taken

1277
01:45:54.079 --> 01:46:02.560
would have been huge. So I I said, okay, I

1278
01:46:04.159 --> 01:46:06.560
really I probably should have been better off going and

1279
01:46:06.960 --> 01:46:11.720
doing a cleaning becoming like cleaning the chalets. But I

1280
01:46:11.880 --> 01:46:17.279
had a little no had I wait a minute, this

1281
01:46:17.399 --> 01:46:20.119
is two thousand and five. Yes, I had. I'd had

1282
01:46:20.159 --> 01:46:25.600
a little test of doing that in nineteen eighty nine

1283
01:46:27.039 --> 01:46:30.640
I cleaned caravans for a little while and it was

1284
01:46:30.760 --> 01:46:32.680
kind of the same process. You know, you've got to

1285
01:46:32.760 --> 01:46:35.439
limits the time to do it, and you've got to

1286
01:46:35.960 --> 01:46:40.479
it's got to be kind of perfect and it's very

1287
01:46:40.560 --> 01:46:43.560
hard work. You know, if you ever go anywhere that

1288
01:46:43.600 --> 01:46:50.239
has a chalet or a caravan. I don't know what

1289
01:46:50.319 --> 01:46:52.000
I was I was going to sort of say, just

1290
01:46:52.079 --> 01:46:55.159
think about the people that have to clean it. I'm

1291
01:46:55.199 --> 01:46:58.119
not sure where I'm going with that, but it's hard.

1292
01:46:58.199 --> 01:47:01.920
It's really hard. It's not an easy to very difficult job.

1293
01:47:02.880 --> 01:47:08.760
It kind of put me off. Ah, I just had

1294
01:47:08.800 --> 01:47:12.079
an interruption there. There's bark dogs barking, so it sounded

1295
01:47:12.119 --> 01:47:14.479
like someone was knocking on the door, but they wasn't.

1296
01:47:16.079 --> 01:47:19.119
And I can't remember what I was talking about, but yeah,

1297
01:47:20.720 --> 01:47:24.239
that's kind of how I was saying about buttlings and

1298
01:47:24.439 --> 01:47:32.680
caravans or something. I It's almost like I've got things

1299
01:47:32.800 --> 01:47:48.720
mapped in my brain. And yeah, because things would changing

1300
01:47:48.840 --> 01:47:54.039
so often back then, I've kind of compartmentalized them into

1301
01:47:54.680 --> 01:47:58.800
little little flags or little arrows to different bits, you know.

1302
01:48:00.399 --> 01:48:04.279
Since I've been living here, this is probably the most

1303
01:48:05.600 --> 01:48:10.479
the most stable. Maybe not emotionally, but it's the most

1304
01:48:11.560 --> 01:48:14.439
It's the first place I've ever lived for ten years,

1305
01:48:15.079 --> 01:48:20.000
never lived in the same building or the same premises

1306
01:48:20.039 --> 01:48:23.439
for ten years ever in my life. So this is

1307
01:48:24.560 --> 01:48:28.880
the first which means some of the stuff the last

1308
01:48:28.960 --> 01:48:32.960
ten years has become very muddled, a little bit, a

1309
01:48:33.000 --> 01:48:39.039
bit mixed together. So I haven't had that separation that,

1310
01:48:39.840 --> 01:48:46.319
you know, because I remember, like two thousand and fifteen

1311
01:48:46.520 --> 01:48:52.199
when I moved in it. I remember that period, and

1312
01:48:52.399 --> 01:48:54.079
I remember I broke my wrist falling out of the

1313
01:48:54.159 --> 01:48:56.800
bath and there was a few you know. I remember

1314
01:48:56.840 --> 01:49:00.199
the first night I slept in the bedroom. All I

1315
01:49:00.279 --> 01:49:05.119
had was a bed. I had no All I had

1316
01:49:06.000 --> 01:49:11.960
when I moved here was a bed and a bag

1317
01:49:12.039 --> 01:49:16.439
of clothes and a chair. That was it. That was

1318
01:49:16.520 --> 01:49:25.439
pretty much my entire belongings really, which was a bit

1319
01:49:25.479 --> 01:49:29.520
weird at age forty five. Well I was forty four

1320
01:49:29.560 --> 01:49:33.359
at the time, forty four, so like it's not a

1321
01:49:33.439 --> 01:49:38.520
lot of belonging, did it. But I had to check

1322
01:49:38.560 --> 01:49:42.600
a lot of stuff out from the place, including clothes

1323
01:49:42.640 --> 01:49:46.000
because it was moldy, so I had it was just

1324
01:49:46.279 --> 01:49:49.159
horrible when the place I lived before this A lot

1325
01:49:49.159 --> 01:49:52.159
of stuff I'd had to check out and other stuff

1326
01:49:52.199 --> 01:49:53.720
I just didn't want to bring with me. I wanted

1327
01:49:53.760 --> 01:50:00.560
to like a fresh start. I brought a goldfish. Definitely

1328
01:50:00.600 --> 01:50:07.119
put the goldfish. Unfortunately, they yeah, they didn't, so they

1329
01:50:07.159 --> 01:50:09.560
didn't survive the journey. They did survive the journey, but

1330
01:50:09.640 --> 01:50:15.439
they yeah, that's just sad. I promised them to get

1331
01:50:15.479 --> 01:50:19.319
them a big, big bowl, like a proper big tank.

1332
01:50:19.960 --> 01:50:27.640
I didn't stick to that promise, and they needed they

1333
01:50:27.880 --> 01:50:33.640
needed a tank because those gold those goldfish bowls, you know,

1334
01:50:33.680 --> 01:50:38.279
the plastic ones. They're okay, but not enough room for

1335
01:50:38.359 --> 01:50:44.680
fifty goldfish. I didn't really have fifty goldfish. Come on.

1336
01:50:46.079 --> 01:50:49.279
So yeah, I just remember certain things. I remember certain years,

1337
01:50:50.000 --> 01:50:52.640
like when I fractured my back. I remember when that happened.

1338
01:50:53.520 --> 01:51:00.079
That was the literally a week after got Vinnie. I

1339
01:51:00.199 --> 01:51:04.640
remember the month that, you know. I remember certain things,

1340
01:51:04.760 --> 01:51:08.920
certain times where big things happen, which I'm sure most

1341
01:51:08.960 --> 01:51:18.279
people do also, I suppose because I've got dates on

1342
01:51:18.399 --> 01:51:23.439
my podcasts, I can sometimes go back and some of

1343
01:51:23.479 --> 01:51:27.159
the images and some are like just to remind myself, Oh,

1344
01:51:30.199 --> 01:51:32.760
you know, if what's the first date I did, the

1345
01:51:32.840 --> 01:51:34.520
first time I did and let me boy to sleep,

1346
01:51:34.560 --> 01:51:36.439
What was the very first date? And I can go

1347
01:51:36.560 --> 01:51:38.880
back and find that date. It was I think March

1348
01:51:39.039 --> 01:51:45.239
twenty eighteen, so it was like, okay, which it is crazy,

1349
01:51:45.319 --> 01:51:50.199
really three years I'll be ten years doing to let

1350
01:51:50.279 --> 01:51:54.279
me boy to sleep. Next year, it'll be twenty years

1351
01:51:54.319 --> 01:52:01.880
of making podcasts and videos online. Twenty years. You think

1352
01:52:01.920 --> 01:52:05.239
i'd have an audience by now, wudn't you by keep

1353
01:52:05.359 --> 01:52:10.279
going or keep at it? So anyway, thanks Sean. I

1354
01:52:10.399 --> 01:52:13.920
hope I've answered these questions. It's been two hours so far,

1355
01:52:14.800 --> 01:52:20.960
so Jackie says, Tammy, I agree. I love that Jason

1356
01:52:21.079 --> 01:52:23.680
is so candid with his thoughts, and I love his awareness,

1357
01:52:24.199 --> 01:52:29.119
his inherent kindness. Oh, thank you. Let's not got too crazy.

1358
01:52:29.239 --> 01:52:32.000
This is not a cult. O carry on. You can

1359
01:52:32.079 --> 01:52:34.920
say nice things, it's never a trust me. I never

1360
01:52:34.960 --> 01:52:37.760
get bored of hearing nice things said about me. That's

1361
01:52:37.800 --> 01:52:39.760
the one thing I will never get bored of that

1362
01:52:41.159 --> 01:52:43.880
if you send me nice words saying how I'm helping you,

1363
01:52:44.319 --> 01:52:47.399
and not once have I ever seen a message and

1364
01:52:47.560 --> 01:52:52.279
thought I'll shut up, I'll not you against being nice. No,

1365
01:52:53.640 --> 01:52:57.880
I can't get enough of that. Honestly. It probably says

1366
01:52:57.920 --> 01:53:03.920
something about my need for acceptance. Possibly, but yeah, it's not.

1367
01:53:04.319 --> 01:53:10.760
It's nice to feel appreciated. I think I don't feel

1368
01:53:10.760 --> 01:53:16.720
appreciated in real life, so it's nice that. I mean,

1369
01:53:16.760 --> 01:53:19.960
I know this is real life, but technically it's kind

1370
01:53:20.000 --> 01:53:28.560
of I suppose it'd be a little bit like beyond

1371
01:53:28.560 --> 01:53:33.560
a radio, wouldn't it like being a radio presenter, which

1372
01:53:33.640 --> 01:53:36.640
is possibly what I should have done. Maybe that was

1373
01:53:36.760 --> 01:53:42.680
my calling to be a radio presenter, just chatting over

1374
01:53:42.920 --> 01:53:47.000
these years. I could have done that, and maybe maybe

1375
01:53:47.399 --> 01:53:51.279
I still could. I don't know. I don't know. It

1376
01:53:51.399 --> 01:53:54.000
might not be it might be too late. Maybe this

1377
01:53:54.159 --> 01:53:57.119
is kind of my version. This is the this today's

1378
01:53:57.199 --> 01:54:02.399
version of a radio show. Maybe don't know about you,

1379
01:54:02.520 --> 01:54:04.439
but if he's not discussing himself or his day to

1380
01:54:04.520 --> 01:54:09.840
day impressions, I get bored, oh so bored, and being

1381
01:54:09.920 --> 01:54:13.239
that bored is not conducive to sleeping. What do you

1382
01:54:13.319 --> 01:54:17.159
think about that? What do you think about that? Then?

1383
01:54:17.439 --> 01:54:21.600
What do you think about that? Hey? Hey, JJ, if

1384
01:54:21.680 --> 01:54:24.800
you see this, why do you think this is? Yep?

1385
01:54:24.880 --> 01:54:26.720
I'm going to have to post this in your next

1386
01:54:26.880 --> 01:54:31.359
Q and A. I hope I can keep up. Actually

1387
01:54:32.520 --> 01:54:37.000
I posted it. I posted that. I realized I posted

1388
01:54:37.039 --> 01:54:41.880
that into the Q and A. Any questions for this

1389
01:54:42.000 --> 01:54:44.439
Friday I do. I will do that. If I see

1390
01:54:44.600 --> 01:54:46.920
a thing that's kind of asking a question somewhere else,

1391
01:54:47.560 --> 01:54:50.880
I'll post it. Otherwise, I forget if it's sort of

1392
01:54:51.000 --> 01:55:00.520
somewhere else. Well, I don't know. It's we're all different,

1393
01:55:00.520 --> 01:55:03.439
we're all like different things. I mean, some people would

1394
01:55:05.359 --> 01:55:08.039
find it really good just to hear me counting down.

1395
01:55:08.840 --> 01:55:13.359
So it's like count down for one thousand, like thousand,

1396
01:55:17.199 --> 01:55:23.439
nine hundred and ninety nine, nine hundred and ninety eight.

1397
01:55:27.159 --> 01:55:31.000
I think there's a few of you thinking, well, not now,

1398
01:55:31.119 --> 01:55:34.880
but like, is he going to continue? How long is

1399
01:55:34.920 --> 01:55:37.840
he going to continue for? Is he just going to

1400
01:55:37.920 --> 01:55:44.359
go down to maybe nine hundred and ninety or to

1401
01:55:44.479 --> 01:55:48.720
keep going, keep pushing it and go all the way down,

1402
01:55:48.800 --> 01:55:51.840
all the way down to one, which will take probably

1403
01:55:51.920 --> 01:55:55.479
two hours. But no, I'm not going to do that.

1404
01:55:55.560 --> 01:55:58.520
But some people would like that. Some people would find

1405
01:55:58.560 --> 01:56:04.920
that useful, and different people like different things. I do

1406
01:56:05.199 --> 01:56:12.600
realize that the problem we've talked about myself is well,

1407
01:56:12.640 --> 01:56:14.960
I have no problem talk about myself. I love it.

1408
01:56:15.079 --> 01:56:21.079
But when it's about my day to day life, it's

1409
01:56:21.079 --> 01:56:24.279
not always easy to do because there's nothing going on

1410
01:56:25.119 --> 01:56:30.800
a lot of time. So like with the Q and

1411
01:56:30.840 --> 01:56:32.760
a Friday, it makes it a little bit easier because

1412
01:56:32.760 --> 01:56:38.680
I've got something to talk about and I'll still manage

1413
01:56:38.720 --> 01:56:40.680
to talk about my day to day life as well

1414
01:56:41.159 --> 01:56:45.640
during this, but there's not a huge amount going on

1415
01:56:46.119 --> 01:56:52.840
at the moment, and I do try and keep things positive.

1416
01:56:53.039 --> 01:56:57.439
So if this things, I mean it's there's things that

1417
01:56:57.520 --> 01:57:00.680
aren't so great going on. I don't like to really

1418
01:57:00.760 --> 01:57:03.840
talk about that stuff because I like to think that

1419
01:57:03.920 --> 01:57:10.800
this is a fairly I don't know, just a nice

1420
01:57:11.840 --> 01:57:14.960
a nice space. I mean, not everything I say is

1421
01:57:15.039 --> 01:57:17.399
going to be like super positive, but I try to

1422
01:57:18.039 --> 01:57:30.319
keep it light. Being bored, yeah, I think I don't

1423
01:57:30.359 --> 01:57:33.960
know why that is, why being bored doesn't send you

1424
01:57:34.039 --> 01:57:39.079
to sleep. I'm not sure well that that type of boring.

1425
01:57:42.520 --> 01:57:44.680
We're all different. I think that's just what it is.

1426
01:57:46.479 --> 01:57:51.000
There's going to be some people who've listened to my

1427
01:57:51.119 --> 01:57:58.439
recordings and think like we're just just talking. What's the

1428
01:57:58.560 --> 01:58:03.840
point in this? Yet they may like the sleep hypnosis

1429
01:58:03.920 --> 01:58:10.680
recordings I do. And some people absolutely can't stand the

1430
01:58:10.760 --> 01:58:16.880
Whisper stuff, and other people prefer the Whisper stuff. Some people,

1431
01:58:17.399 --> 01:58:21.359
really there's a few people that really like the the boring,

1432
01:58:22.039 --> 01:58:31.119
the was it bedtime, storytime things that I've done. It's

1433
01:58:31.279 --> 01:58:35.439
just everyone's different than they. Some people like the I've

1434
01:58:35.520 --> 01:58:39.159
had quite a bit of positive a lot, and I

1435
01:58:40.119 --> 01:58:43.199
a fair amount of positive feedback for the let Me

1436
01:58:43.279 --> 01:58:48.720
Bore Your Pain Away that was kind of a bit

1437
01:58:48.760 --> 01:58:51.560
of a passion project. To be fair, I haven't done

1438
01:58:51.600 --> 01:58:56.399
any this week. I haven't felt it. I just haven't,

1439
01:58:57.039 --> 01:59:01.000
haven't it. I mean, when to do a recording? I

1440
01:59:01.079 --> 01:59:06.359
said on Wednesday and I'm just looking just there's no words.

1441
01:59:07.239 --> 01:59:09.479
There was words, but they weren't words I wanted to say.

1442
01:59:10.560 --> 01:59:16.439
I just wasn't in the mood. So when I'm like that,

1443
01:59:16.720 --> 01:59:20.119
there's no point me making a recording because I'm never

1444
01:59:20.199 --> 01:59:22.600
going to force myself to do it because otherwise, if

1445
01:59:22.640 --> 01:59:26.800
I'm not enjoying it, or if I'm not relaxed, I

1446
01:59:26.880 --> 01:59:32.600
think that's going to come across. I think, I don't know,

1447
01:59:32.800 --> 01:59:41.279
maybe not so you won't have to post this to

1448
01:59:41.319 --> 01:59:45.399
the next Q and A because you we've done it today.

1449
01:59:46.520 --> 01:59:49.000
So I don't really know what the answer is. We're

1450
01:59:49.000 --> 01:59:53.000
all different, we all just like different things. I did

1451
01:59:53.119 --> 01:59:57.119
do a survey ages ago, like a little questionnaire what

1452
01:59:57.319 --> 02:00:01.560
do you prefer? And it was different but different people,

1453
02:00:02.680 --> 02:00:07.760
no one, there was no real I suppose to let

1454
02:00:07.800 --> 02:00:12.000
me Boy to Sleep was the unanimous one, because I

1455
02:00:12.399 --> 02:00:16.760
think that I think that the majority of people that

1456
02:00:16.960 --> 02:00:20.359
come to this group like have come through the let

1457
02:00:20.439 --> 02:00:24.119
me boy to sleep, not necessarily through the chronic pain

1458
02:00:24.319 --> 02:00:27.920
or this, or through the stress and pain relief, or

1459
02:00:28.039 --> 02:00:31.680
through the stop smoking or whatever other ones I've done.

1460
02:00:31.680 --> 02:00:37.119
Because I've done lots of different podcasts, thousands of recordings.

1461
02:00:37.159 --> 02:00:47.760
I've done thousands. It's ridiculous really, So you yeah, I'd

1462
02:00:47.960 --> 02:00:52.600
like to get that feedback. I'd like to just it'd

1463
02:00:52.640 --> 02:00:56.199
be nice if if there was a way of just

1464
02:00:58.199 --> 02:01:03.600
finding out what everyone likes. But then the problem with

1465
02:01:03.720 --> 02:01:10.600
that is if I start to try and change what

1466
02:01:10.680 --> 02:01:15.880
I'm doing to suit every individual request or need, I

1467
02:01:15.960 --> 02:01:21.399
will be then micromanaging myself, and then I wouldn't want

1468
02:01:21.399 --> 02:01:25.840
to do it anymore. I've been micromanaged before, and it's horrible.

1469
02:01:26.479 --> 02:01:31.560
It's like just constantly like no, do like that, do it?

1470
02:01:33.560 --> 02:01:37.000
You're doing this, You're doing it. It's like no, there

1471
02:01:37.039 --> 02:01:44.199
needs to be freedom there, and I don't want to

1472
02:01:44.239 --> 02:01:51.239
do something that I don't like doing. So you know,

1473
02:01:51.359 --> 02:01:56.399
there was a podcast that I did in I think

1474
02:01:56.439 --> 02:02:03.239
it was during kind of lockdown period, okay, and it

1475
02:02:03.560 --> 02:02:09.239
was what was it called Relaxation for Stress and Panic

1476
02:02:09.319 --> 02:02:14.000
Attacks I did a lot of recordings. I lived every

1477
02:02:14.079 --> 02:02:16.960
day I was doing them, and I ended up doing

1478
02:02:18.600 --> 02:02:23.000
I've now got two hundred and thirty nine, and there's

1479
02:02:23.039 --> 02:02:26.439
a few recent years at most of them, like two

1480
02:02:26.560 --> 02:02:30.720
hundred and twenty three, two hundred and twenty nine, two

1481
02:02:30.800 --> 02:02:34.479
hundred and thirty, two hundred. Okay, So two hundred and

1482
02:02:34.520 --> 02:02:40.680
thirty was seventh of May twenty twenty one. Okay, let's

1483
02:02:40.720 --> 02:02:43.760
have a look at where number one was. So May

1484
02:02:43.920 --> 02:02:52.880
twenty twenty one, so I started, okay, right, I started

1485
02:02:52.880 --> 02:02:53.880
it a long time before that.

1486
02:02:54.840 --> 02:02:54.920
So.

1487
02:02:56.880 --> 02:03:05.039
Yeah, probably about two two thousand and fifteen, but but

1488
02:03:06.199 --> 02:03:09.319
I didn't really start getting into it until about twenty nineteen.

1489
02:03:10.560 --> 02:03:14.199
So I did number fifty six, fifty four, fifty three

1490
02:03:14.720 --> 02:03:18.520
in twenty nineteen, all the way up to I'm reading

1491
02:03:18.560 --> 02:03:20.319
this off the scream just in case you think that

1492
02:03:20.359 --> 02:03:26.520
I'm remembering it all. And but that was October September,

1493
02:03:26.520 --> 02:03:31.199
October December. But then number seventy in twenty twenty, so

1494
02:03:31.359 --> 02:03:39.159
seventy and we know, you know what happened in twenty twenty,

1495
02:03:40.279 --> 02:03:47.800
so number seventy all the way up to I mean, honestly,

1496
02:03:47.960 --> 02:03:59.319
BlimE me a lot. I did a lot so twoenty twenty,

1497
02:04:01.239 --> 02:04:08.039
two thousand, right twenty ninth of December twenty twenty from

1498
02:04:08.159 --> 02:04:11.760
number seventy to two hundred and eighteen seventy to two

1499
02:04:11.880 --> 02:04:17.520
hundred and eighteen. And it was so regular as well.

1500
02:04:17.560 --> 02:04:23.399
It was quite regular, and I was doing just I

1501
02:04:23.439 --> 02:04:26.960
had this little microphone, lapel microphone, and I was making

1502
02:04:27.039 --> 02:04:30.159
recordings while I was pacing, not pacing in it like

1503
02:04:30.479 --> 02:04:33.159
a weird way, but just walking around. And I was

1504
02:04:33.680 --> 02:04:36.880
I was quite energetic. I was getting quite passionate about

1505
02:04:36.920 --> 02:04:40.239
what I was talking about. So there's a ninth of January,

1506
02:04:40.359 --> 02:04:47.159
twelfth of January, thirteenth, fourteenth, fifteenth, seventeenth, eighteenth, nineteenth, twenty fourth,

1507
02:04:47.359 --> 02:04:51.399
twenty fifth, twenty sixth twenty seven, twenty eight, twenty nine,

1508
02:04:51.880 --> 02:04:57.600
thirty thirty, first of January, like nearly, it's like wow.

1509
02:04:58.159 --> 02:05:10.640
And in February the first, second, third, fourth, fifth, six, seven, eight, nine, twelve, thirteen, fifteen, sixteen, eighteen, nineteen,

1510
02:05:10.800 --> 02:05:17.560
twenty one, twenty four, twenty six, twenty seventh February. So

1511
02:05:18.159 --> 02:05:25.439
you know, I'm quite regularly doing his recordings. And after

1512
02:05:25.479 --> 02:05:29.439
a certain time I started giving them names instead of

1513
02:05:29.600 --> 02:05:36.119
just a number, I started giving them. Yeah, the first

1514
02:05:36.199 --> 02:05:39.800
one number eighty. I gave it a name to Smiley

1515
02:05:39.920 --> 02:05:47.439
Mirror twenty sixth of January twenty twenty, and then meaning

1516
02:05:47.640 --> 02:05:55.680
purpose was the next one. Web page ball or sock

1517
02:05:56.640 --> 02:06:00.880
Silly song that was a good one, actually silly song

1518
02:06:01.279 --> 02:06:06.439
thirty for January twenty twenty. I don't know. I thought

1519
02:06:06.479 --> 02:06:09.920
it was funny self worth and not me saying it,

1520
02:06:10.000 --> 02:06:12.079
but I think the actual podcast, do you the recording

1521
02:06:12.159 --> 02:06:17.960
is quite a good recording. If I remember rightly, it

1522
02:06:18.159 --> 02:06:22.960
is over five years ago. Then you got self worth, Gratitude,

1523
02:06:23.119 --> 02:06:30.720
drip focusing, bath floater. Oh, I like some of these titles.

1524
02:06:31.880 --> 02:06:37.199
I'm not sure if I yeah, it's anyone's guess what

1525
02:06:37.319 --> 02:06:42.680
I was talking about. Magic, relaxation, mirror, hopelessness, Is it

1526
02:06:42.840 --> 02:06:56.600
true You're not broken? Relaxation sessions, reassuring letter, self sabotage, relapse, noise, sensitivity, question,

1527
02:06:56.760 --> 02:07:05.279
automatic thinking, evict self, prejude, just blimey, hash, be kind free, anxiety,

1528
02:07:06.479 --> 02:07:13.039
brain plasticity. That was January February twenty twenty, Send Healing,

1529
02:07:13.520 --> 02:07:16.760
don't feel guilty for be and ill give attention to

1530
02:07:16.840 --> 02:07:22.760
mini me. Stress and anxiety are natural germs. That's one

1531
02:07:22.800 --> 02:07:26.359
about germs. That was twenty twenty March. I wonder what

1532
02:07:26.479 --> 02:07:35.000
made me think about that? M I wonder so this.

1533
02:07:35.239 --> 02:07:37.279
I was doing this at the beginning of the year.

1534
02:07:41.800 --> 02:07:44.000
Just something kicked in and I was like nearly every

1535
02:07:44.079 --> 02:07:46.479
day making a new one. And they would lasted for

1536
02:07:46.600 --> 02:07:49.039
like forty fifty minutes, some of them, some of them

1537
02:07:49.199 --> 02:07:59.439
like twenty minutes. But yeah, never give up. Remember this

1538
02:07:59.600 --> 02:08:03.760
is ten Prairie. It's been emotional. That's an hour and

1539
02:08:03.840 --> 02:08:10.319
six minutes. A safe, positive, healing relaxation. How are you today?

1540
02:08:11.000 --> 02:08:17.079
Relaxed hands equals relaxed brain, feel safe, feel comfort, feel relaxed,

1541
02:08:19.359 --> 02:08:28.800
and reduce anxiety level. Compassion reduces stress. Funny memory, Intrusive

1542
02:08:28.880 --> 02:08:35.359
thoughts are just thoughts. We are born positive blind me

1543
02:08:35.920 --> 02:08:42.439
taping fingertips no mass. I like that one, but I'm

1544
02:08:42.520 --> 02:08:45.640
kind of talking about boxing, but it's still relevant. See

1545
02:08:45.720 --> 02:08:53.319
these are amongst my favorite recordings I've ever made. Chained Elephant, Vice,

1546
02:08:53.479 --> 02:08:59.479
gript positive Butterflies. You can choose what you think about,

1547
02:09:01.039 --> 02:09:11.920
bubble fark confidence. I can't no idea Ringo tension release Okay,

1548
02:09:11.920 --> 02:09:15.079
I got no of that. Groovy relax or sleep session

1549
02:09:16.119 --> 02:09:24.319
TV remote amazing loved and deeply relaxed. Stress licking ferret.

1550
02:09:25.800 --> 02:09:33.640
That's about andre so stress versus love. Focus on feeling relaxed,

1551
02:09:35.319 --> 02:09:42.720
relax sleep neurons, lighting up okay, buckets of healing relaxing

1552
02:09:43.680 --> 02:09:51.520
No bucket of relaxing healing you in the mirror, stress

1553
02:09:51.880 --> 02:09:55.560
sucking helmet. Some of these names are a bit weird.

1554
02:09:58.359 --> 02:10:05.880
Letting stress know it's not a prisoner, dissolving the rust

1555
02:10:05.960 --> 02:10:11.840
of anxiety. I don't know what was going on in

1556
02:10:11.920 --> 02:10:13.520
my brain at the time, but it seems to be

1557
02:10:14.119 --> 02:10:24.560
quite active. Removing stress batteries, hand squeeze, stress relief technique,

1558
02:10:27.880 --> 02:10:33.159
blind sports, recording yourself. I've got no idea what that was.

1559
02:10:43.600 --> 02:10:48.920
You are going to be okay, Reduce stress when thinking

1560
02:10:48.960 --> 02:10:54.159
of someone you dislike. You've got a balloon anxiety reduction technique,

1561
02:10:55.720 --> 02:11:02.880
Overcoming hurdle too big to swallow. Choose relaxation bubble or

1562
02:11:03.000 --> 02:11:13.079
sleep bubble. Say nice things to yourself whilst walking ah

1563
02:11:15.520 --> 02:11:21.880
negativity fumigation, questioning your worries. There's some I quite like

1564
02:11:22.079 --> 02:11:27.760
these these titles from five years ago. What this is

1565
02:11:27.880 --> 02:11:30.239
now like four and a half years ago. It's near

1566
02:11:30.319 --> 02:11:38.359
the end of twenty twenty. Natural born positivity, burping your

1567
02:11:38.479 --> 02:11:44.560
anxiety war not taking yourself too. Seriously, when you're feeling

1568
02:11:44.720 --> 02:11:52.600
agitated positivity trigger. You were born able to relax and

1569
02:11:52.680 --> 02:12:00.399
sup naturally, which is true. Put trust in your brain

1570
02:12:00.479 --> 02:12:07.960
to relax or sleep during noise, support networks and asking

1571
02:12:08.039 --> 02:12:23.760
for help, making friends with yourself, victim mentality, emotional abuse,

1572
02:12:24.079 --> 02:12:31.840
never again, and caring for carers. Okay, that was a

1573
02:12:31.920 --> 02:12:34.319
really long one. So I've got no idea what I

1574
02:12:34.439 --> 02:12:37.159
kind of That sounds like a quite a heavy one.

1575
02:12:40.720 --> 02:12:46.840
The power of breathing. Okay, so I'm talking about bereave.

1576
02:12:47.159 --> 02:12:47.800
I don't know why.

1577
02:12:49.199 --> 02:12:53.399
Make friends with your stress hot water bottles, stress relief technique,

1578
02:12:55.880 --> 02:13:02.119
Pouring healing, relaxation and safety into your brain, tapping scalp

1579
02:13:02.239 --> 02:13:18.479
to relax, brain rehearsing feeling Okay, ah, listen to my

1580
02:13:18.640 --> 02:13:30.840
boring voice Superman re energizing. Right, there's quite a few,

1581
02:13:30.880 --> 02:13:38.439
isn't it. Kettle Anger release. I quite like that one,

1582
02:13:38.520 --> 02:13:40.199
and so it's only a short one, but it's quite

1583
02:13:40.239 --> 02:13:46.159
good holding safe hands and there's a quantum memory shift.

1584
02:13:47.039 --> 02:13:50.439
It's another one that's a bit more. That's me trying

1585
02:13:50.479 --> 02:13:55.000
to be advanced. It didn't work, Maybe it did, I

1586
02:13:55.039 --> 02:13:59.520
don't know. Hi. Jason from Cindy you recently shared a

1587
02:13:59.520 --> 02:14:02.479
story about your grandfather has told you by your Nan.

1588
02:14:03.039 --> 02:14:18.560
Are there any other NaN's stories you can share. I'm

1589
02:14:18.600 --> 02:14:26.720
trying to think. I mean we used to talk about

1590
02:14:27.000 --> 02:14:31.239
I mean, this story is about her. She was really

1591
02:14:31.319 --> 02:14:36.359
good swimmer. But I feel like NaN's stories that she

1592
02:14:36.560 --> 02:14:40.760
told me she told me about in our family. She

1593
02:14:40.920 --> 02:14:47.640
told me about her parents. She told me. I got

1594
02:14:47.680 --> 02:14:51.199
a lot of information about my very very young childhood

1595
02:14:51.239 --> 02:14:54.560
from her because no one else would talk about it,

1596
02:14:54.720 --> 02:14:58.119
but she would. So she told me she had pictures

1597
02:14:58.159 --> 02:15:05.279
of me when I was a baby, and there was

1598
02:15:09.079 --> 02:15:19.760
I think I had blonde hair back then. Yeah, I'm

1599
02:15:19.800 --> 02:15:28.319
just trying to think it was. I'll get back to

1600
02:15:28.359 --> 02:15:30.680
you on that one. I might. I'm just trying to think,

1601
02:15:31.279 --> 02:15:35.920
off the top of my head any particular stories that

1602
02:15:36.079 --> 02:15:44.000
she told me. I can't believe it's been over ten

1603
02:15:44.119 --> 02:15:53.560
years since I last spoke to her. She used to Yeah,

1604
02:15:53.640 --> 02:15:58.479
she'd talk about stuff, but a lot of things that

1605
02:15:58.520 --> 02:16:00.680
would talk about would be about what going on now.

1606
02:16:01.960 --> 02:16:06.479
We didn't really focus too much on the past, but

1607
02:16:06.600 --> 02:16:10.439
when she did, she talk about like how she she

1608
02:16:10.600 --> 02:16:13.479
remembered some of the stuff that happened. I mean, there

1609
02:16:13.600 --> 02:16:18.920
was one she said that my dad, my biological mother,

1610
02:16:20.920 --> 02:16:24.319
had moved out of her house and betied. In mind,

1611
02:16:24.359 --> 02:16:28.439
both my dad and her were very young, and it

1612
02:16:28.520 --> 02:16:30.439
was before they got married, and they got married in

1613
02:16:30.640 --> 02:16:35.479
what sixty five I think, which was five years before

1614
02:16:35.479 --> 02:16:38.159
I got where I was born, and my dad was

1615
02:16:38.280 --> 02:16:41.639
twenty six when I was born, so he would have

1616
02:16:41.680 --> 02:16:46.479
got married at twenty one. They were dating before that,

1617
02:16:46.680 --> 02:16:55.639
and he was living at home and my dad was

1618
02:16:55.680 --> 02:16:57.840
at work. I think he was an apprentice at the time,

1619
02:16:58.799 --> 02:17:05.760
see less school than when an apprenticeship. And it's not

1620
02:17:05.879 --> 02:17:11.159
funny really, but my other biological grandfather, the one that

1621
02:17:11.200 --> 02:17:16.319
I never met because he passed away quite early before

1622
02:17:16.360 --> 02:17:22.639
I was born, I think so basically, and apparently he

1623
02:17:22.799 --> 02:17:28.040
was just a huge man. Huge. My granddad wasn't huge,

1624
02:17:28.079 --> 02:17:30.959
but it was. It wasn't he just what he was

1625
02:17:31.120 --> 02:17:34.000
very slim, and but this bloke was just, you know,

1626
02:17:34.159 --> 02:17:38.120
apparently according to my name, he was massive and he

1627
02:17:38.319 --> 02:17:43.040
just shadowed my grand he'd like, really just my name,

1628
02:17:43.159 --> 02:17:46.440
was worried for my granddad, my other granddad that her

1629
02:17:46.520 --> 02:17:51.840
husband or other. Well, what happened next is so he

1630
02:17:51.920 --> 02:17:58.680
knocks on the door, words my door, So I don't

1631
02:17:58.680 --> 02:18:01.399
know so they didn't know she was in the house.

1632
02:18:02.319 --> 02:18:07.239
So she was in the bedroom upstairs. What they didn't know,

1633
02:18:08.399 --> 02:18:11.440
both my nan and my granddad because my granddad was

1634
02:18:11.479 --> 02:18:16.799
retired at this point. Was he retired, I don't know, Yeah,

1635
02:18:16.799 --> 02:18:21.239
he was retired. He was retired at this point. He

1636
02:18:21.440 --> 02:18:29.040
didn't know that she was upstairs. Not only was she upstairs,

1637
02:18:29.120 --> 02:18:34.399
she'd moved out of her family home. She took us

1638
02:18:34.399 --> 02:18:37.680
stuff and moved out into my nan and granddad's. They

1639
02:18:37.719 --> 02:18:41.600
didn't even know. So he's knocking on the doorstairs walk

1640
02:18:41.680 --> 02:18:44.639
my daughter. I want to bring her back, so they

1641
02:18:45.280 --> 02:18:47.520
my name because she was always around the house because

1642
02:18:47.520 --> 02:18:51.399
she was my dad's girlfriend or fiance. However, so I

1643
02:18:51.440 --> 02:18:55.920
don't know. But so my nan did say that she

1644
02:18:56.079 --> 02:18:59.840
was worried for my granddad, like her I keep saying,

1645
02:19:00.079 --> 02:19:02.319
because they were both my granddads. But she was worried

1646
02:19:02.399 --> 02:19:07.120
for her husband, my granddad Newland. She was worried for

1647
02:19:07.239 --> 02:19:10.280
him because he was tiny compared to this bloke, the

1648
02:19:10.360 --> 02:19:17.879
other granddad. So but I think, well, I came on.

1649
02:19:18.040 --> 02:19:23.799
Grandad would have been sixty then, so this this would

1650
02:19:23.799 --> 02:19:27.680
have been no, he'd have been fifty. He would have

1651
02:19:27.719 --> 02:19:29.680
still been at work, so it'd have been about fifty five.

1652
02:19:31.639 --> 02:19:35.520
Even think he retired in nineteen seventy when he was sixty,

1653
02:19:36.159 --> 02:19:38.079
so I think he could retire at sixty back then

1654
02:19:39.280 --> 02:19:47.360
and then he I think, so, I'm not one hundred

1655
02:19:47.360 --> 02:19:52.799
percent sure, but anyway, and I don't know. I think

1656
02:19:53.000 --> 02:19:56.639
my granddad was a boxer in the army. But he

1657
02:19:56.760 --> 02:19:59.959
was a boxer, he was, and at fifty five, which

1658
02:20:00.000 --> 02:20:02.639
she is nearly as old as I am, he would

1659
02:20:02.639 --> 02:20:04.719
have been a lot probably more, much more fitter than

1660
02:20:04.760 --> 02:20:10.639
I am, and he would have been well able to

1661
02:20:10.680 --> 02:20:12.959
take care of himself because not only was he a boxer,

1662
02:20:13.000 --> 02:20:15.479
but he's also had been in the army. You know,

1663
02:20:15.840 --> 02:20:19.280
he'd served time in the army for I think twelve

1664
02:20:19.440 --> 02:20:23.520
years as a career, and then he was in the

1665
02:20:23.600 --> 02:20:27.639
army game during the war for for six years. So

1666
02:20:27.879 --> 02:20:30.399
it's you know, done over twenty years in the army

1667
02:20:31.920 --> 02:20:38.520
pretty much nearly so I don't know, but apparently, but

1668
02:20:38.879 --> 02:20:40.760
they didn't come to blows. But my name said that

1669
02:20:40.840 --> 02:20:43.479
she was really worried that he was gonna he was

1670
02:20:44.760 --> 02:20:50.840
just like beat up my other granddad. But they didn't.

1671
02:20:51.399 --> 02:20:53.719
Now I don't know how well they got on. I

1672
02:20:53.799 --> 02:20:55.879
think she was I think he was gone before they

1673
02:20:55.920 --> 02:20:57.879
even got married, before my dad got married to her.

1674
02:21:00.840 --> 02:21:03.159
But she did tell me stuff about my mom, about

1675
02:21:03.200 --> 02:21:07.879
my biological mum, and what she did say though, she

1676
02:21:08.000 --> 02:21:13.920
said she was even though she was a problem and

1677
02:21:15.959 --> 02:21:19.479
just always causing, just causing problems, causing. She had a

1678
02:21:19.559 --> 02:21:22.840
chaotic life back then. She might I don't know which

1679
02:21:22.879 --> 02:21:26.280
she might have a really good life now. But she

1680
02:21:26.360 --> 02:21:29.600
said for all her faults, the one thing she had

1681
02:21:29.680 --> 02:21:33.639
to say is she was funny. She made a laugh.

1682
02:21:36.360 --> 02:21:40.719
She made my men laugh. And that's the one thing

1683
02:21:40.840 --> 02:21:44.840
that I kind of think, Okay, cool, that means something

1684
02:21:44.920 --> 02:21:51.120
to me, like that's good because she yeah, she'd lived

1685
02:21:51.159 --> 02:21:54.959
a chaotic life, but that's probably because of where her

1686
02:21:55.040 --> 02:21:59.280
background came from. She'd you know, she'd sort of learned

1687
02:21:59.319 --> 02:22:03.239
that and she was whatever, you know, wasn't just her

1688
02:22:03.280 --> 02:22:07.799
own decision to be like that. And she also had

1689
02:22:09.280 --> 02:22:14.879
a called to my nan. She was like bipolar or what.

1690
02:22:15.200 --> 02:22:20.840
She had mental health stuff. But she was best friends

1691
02:22:20.879 --> 02:22:25.280
with my auntie. I think my auntie and her went

1692
02:22:25.360 --> 02:22:29.120
to school together. My auntie was probably a couple of

1693
02:22:29.200 --> 02:22:33.200
years younger than my dad, and it's probably how they met,

1694
02:22:33.440 --> 02:22:38.239
Probably how him and my mum met because she'd be around,

1695
02:22:38.360 --> 02:22:42.479
probably with her sister, and I don't know, they just

1696
02:22:42.719 --> 02:22:53.280
got together, so, you know, even though she left when

1697
02:22:53.360 --> 02:22:59.280
I was six months old, so it was like nineteen

1698
02:22:59.440 --> 02:23:04.200
seventy one, the fact is they've been together quite a while.

1699
02:23:05.000 --> 02:23:08.200
They got married sixty five, so six years, and they

1700
02:23:08.239 --> 02:23:11.159
were probably together a year or two before that, so

1701
02:23:11.479 --> 02:23:14.200
you know, it was it wasn't like a short term

1702
02:23:14.760 --> 02:23:18.399
and they had three kids, so it must have been.

1703
02:23:18.479 --> 02:23:22.120
It must have had a good time at some point.

1704
02:23:23.440 --> 02:23:27.479
I don't know she's told Why did she tell me?

1705
02:23:27.639 --> 02:23:36.319
She that's just one of the things she's basically she

1706
02:23:36.479 --> 02:23:41.239
said that when my mum took off, Yeah, she used to.

1707
02:23:41.600 --> 02:23:43.959
She used to go into the butchers and the bakers,

1708
02:23:44.159 --> 02:23:49.079
and they'd all be asking her about the money that

1709
02:23:49.319 --> 02:23:52.760
my mum owed them. So apparently she just owed money

1710
02:23:52.840 --> 02:23:56.559
to everyone. That's what my name said. Again, It's like,

1711
02:23:56.920 --> 02:23:59.920
you know, I'm not here to say horrible things about anyone,

1712
02:24:00.079 --> 02:24:03.280
but that's what my name she's she said, like, just

1713
02:24:05.239 --> 02:24:08.520
she'sd just be borrowing money off everyone, but she'd make

1714
02:24:08.559 --> 02:24:12.879
people laugh that if she was like just funny, funny person.

1715
02:24:17.399 --> 02:24:29.440
So yeah, I think maybe it's the Maybe that's why

1716
02:24:29.479 --> 02:24:33.559
I've got bipolar maybe, and that's where my my brain

1717
02:24:33.639 --> 02:24:43.600
comes from. I mean, yeah, inherited, well, he inherited this brain.

1718
02:24:45.280 --> 02:24:47.440
But that's it. There's probably have this loadure of stuff.

1719
02:24:47.479 --> 02:24:51.000
But that's one off the top of my head. I

1720
02:24:51.159 --> 02:24:54.760
realized the time's going it's now line is six o'clock.

1721
02:24:56.479 --> 02:24:59.799
Dev asks Hello, Jason, Hello all. I'm a nubie at this,

1722
02:25:00.520 --> 02:25:03.159
a chronic pain sufferer, but also interested in learning about

1723
02:25:03.239 --> 02:25:06.920
hypnosis in general as well as applying it to creative writing.

1724
02:25:07.760 --> 02:25:11.719
I find Jason's podcast very effective, actually, but both for

1725
02:25:11.840 --> 02:25:15.600
pain relief and sleep. I'd also like to learn how

1726
02:25:15.639 --> 02:25:18.520
a writer can place itself into a sort of fictional

1727
02:25:18.680 --> 02:25:23.360
environment and develop a story. Equally, I would like to

1728
02:25:23.479 --> 02:25:27.319
learn about immersing a reader into the story. I'm currently

1729
02:25:27.360 --> 02:25:31.319
struggling with writing a sort of ghost story. Thanks and advance.

1730
02:25:34.840 --> 02:25:44.639
I don't know, so I'm not a writer. I suppose

1731
02:25:44.840 --> 02:25:58.920
to immerse someone into a story would be keeping it flowing. Well,

1732
02:25:58.959 --> 02:26:01.079
then let's be teaching how to write. I don't. I

1733
02:26:01.159 --> 02:26:03.399
don't know how to write, but it's my understanding of

1734
02:26:04.040 --> 02:26:09.239
like writing with creative writing is one of the things

1735
02:26:09.479 --> 02:26:12.040
I've done a little bit of red books on it

1736
02:26:12.120 --> 02:26:17.479
and played around of it. What I liked about it

1737
02:26:17.559 --> 02:26:21.520
is there's no right or wrong. You know, it's art creativity,

1738
02:26:22.319 --> 02:26:26.120
there's no there is no right or wrong. You just

1739
02:26:26.959 --> 02:26:30.079
see what comes up and maybe something really cool or

1740
02:26:30.120 --> 02:26:39.959
come up a fictional environment developer story. I tell you

1741
02:26:40.000 --> 02:26:45.239
what you could do. You could tell the story. You

1742
02:26:45.319 --> 02:26:48.200
could verbally tell the story and see what comes up.

1743
02:26:49.920 --> 02:26:56.159
Transcribe it. There's loads of transcribing places you can get

1744
02:26:56.239 --> 02:27:00.360
stuff transcribed. Just record it on your on your phone hm,

1745
02:27:01.000 --> 02:27:04.399
and then just look back at it and maybe start

1746
02:27:04.520 --> 02:27:09.399
to you could like map it out. It's like, okay, well,

1747
02:27:09.440 --> 02:27:12.559
as that's that, there's that character, where would they go?

1748
02:27:12.719 --> 02:27:14.559
What would they do? And you know, I don't know.

1749
02:27:14.600 --> 02:27:16.040
I mean, it's not something that I'm ever going to

1750
02:27:16.120 --> 02:27:21.559
be doing. Well, if I ever wrote a book, it

1751
02:27:21.600 --> 02:27:26.159
would be kind of it'd have to be factual pretty much.

1752
02:27:26.760 --> 02:27:37.719
It made up but about me maybe or I'm trying

1753
02:27:37.760 --> 02:27:45.399
to think there's something else I was thought about doing. Yeah,

1754
02:27:45.639 --> 02:27:49.239
just it'd have to be that's the way you could

1755
02:27:49.319 --> 02:27:55.319
do it maybe. But as far as hypnosis, I'm not

1756
02:27:55.399 --> 02:28:01.200
really sure. It's something I don't really know about. When

1757
02:28:01.239 --> 02:28:04.360
it comes to writing. I used to write diaries and journals,

1758
02:28:04.440 --> 02:28:09.840
but it was more for me. It's like shouting, isn't

1759
02:28:09.879 --> 02:28:13.559
he hear that in the background. It's not a very

1760
02:28:13.600 --> 02:28:16.719
good answer. Let me think about it a bit more.

1761
02:28:16.760 --> 02:28:18.440
If I come up with I think of anything else,

1762
02:28:18.840 --> 02:28:22.600
I'll mention it in the next recording. I might do

1763
02:28:22.600 --> 02:28:27.120
a little bit of research. So thanks everybody, Thank you.

1764
02:28:28.360 --> 02:28:40.280
Going down the list, Maria, Kathleen, Tammy, Jonathan, Joanne, Sean, Jackie,

1765
02:28:40.840 --> 02:28:46.920
Cindy and dev a marathon, wasn't it. There's a lot

1766
02:28:47.000 --> 02:28:50.120
of I don't know how long I've been talking for.

1767
02:28:50.200 --> 02:28:51.840
It's got to be nearly two and a half hours,

1768
02:28:53.680 --> 02:28:56.280
which means I'm not sure when this is going to

1769
02:28:56.319 --> 02:29:02.239
get edited. I'm literally this on a Saturday afternoon. I

1770
02:29:02.360 --> 02:29:06.079
know it's Friday Q and a Friday, but I was

1771
02:29:06.159 --> 02:29:11.319
got so caught up in building a website. But I

1772
02:29:11.440 --> 02:29:17.280
did start this. I thought I started it at three.

1773
02:29:19.799 --> 02:29:24.159
I definitely started it before four o'clock because I was

1774
02:29:24.159 --> 02:29:26.360
already at two hours. Last time I went to a toilet,

1775
02:29:26.479 --> 02:29:32.799
so I had a break. Blimey's now seven minutes past

1776
02:29:33.280 --> 02:29:38.000
six and there's boxing on at seven, so this might

1777
02:29:38.079 --> 02:29:39.959
be one of those Q and A Fridays that come

1778
02:29:40.000 --> 02:29:46.000
out on Sunday morning. I apologize kind of. I'll do

1779
02:29:46.040 --> 02:29:49.879
a little bit, just a little bit, so thank you.

1780
02:29:50.719 --> 02:29:52.920
I just didn't expect to get this many questions. I'm

1781
02:29:52.959 --> 02:29:56.200
not pleased. Thanks, but there's been times when I get

1782
02:29:56.280 --> 02:29:59.600
like two questions and I still managed to last that

1783
02:30:00.000 --> 02:30:06.239
an hour or so. So that's it. That is the

1784
02:30:06.479 --> 02:30:11.600
end of this recording, So thank you for listening. Remember

1785
02:30:11.680 --> 02:30:13.920
to be kind to yourself because you do deserve to

1786
02:30:13.959 --> 02:30:19.200
be happy and be gentle with yourself. You deserve to

1787
02:30:19.280 --> 02:30:26.799
feel safe. Lots of love. Bye,