April 25, 2025

(music) Plaster of Calm | Let me bore your pain away #28 | Jason Newland | 25th April 2025

(music) Plaster of Calm | Let me bore your pain away #28 | Jason Newland | 25th April 2025
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Hello, and welcome to Jasonnewland dot com. That's my website.

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My name is Jason Newland. Please only listen when you

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can safely close your eyes and welcome to Let Me

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Bore Your Pain Away. Now. This is specifically to help

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people with chronic pain, so you need to know the

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cause of the chronic pain and also have permission from

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your doctor before listening to this. This is not a

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replacement for any kind of medical attention, medical advice, or

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any kind of therapy therapy. Right that being said, It's

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just me, It's what I do. I just talk. These

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let Me Boil Your Pain Away recordings very similar to

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the let Me Boil You to Sleep. I just chat.

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Sometimes I go off the subject, sometimes I come back

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to the subject. Sometimes I focus occasionally. But the main

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objectiontive and instead of objection, the main objective is that

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how you feel now changes and you feel better at

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the end of it. You feel more relaxed, and you know,

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if you use to gauge the level of discomfort physical

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discomfort from zero to ten, it may be higher than ten,

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maybe loading zero. If it's loading zero, you don't really

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need to be listening to this unless you just want

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to listen to relax more, but just gauge where it

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is now, that physical feeling, and then at the end

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of it we can do it again. You can just

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like see how you feel. And really the bottom line

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is is it useful. If it's useful, good And just

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let you know. I've got a little Jack Russell in

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the background chasing a fly. So you're gonna hear a

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little bit of scuffling about because it's amazing. If only

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I knew all the toys he's got, all the different

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things he's had. Nearly said that said the word t

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r e e E E t S. Luckily I didn't

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because he'd have been staring at me right now. All

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wanted to do is just get him a fly. He'd

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been happy. So yeah, he's just chasedn't it. So this

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isn't sleep. It's not a sleep recording. You may just

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find yourself getting bored and go to sleep just out

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of complete boredom, but it's possible. But it's not. It's

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not a sleep recording. It's just it's relaxing. Hopefully gentle

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calm in and you can listen to my squeaky voice

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and let your it's not even about letting your mind

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slow down, or letting your body relax. It's kind of

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your body just does that anyway, and your mind generally

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just slows down when listening to me, because even though

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I personally think I've got a super exciting voice, not

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everyone agrees. I think i'd be quite good at commentating

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on a racing, you know, like a horse racing and stuff. Yeah,

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I feel me quite good. Yeah, Chepstow's running, and Horsey

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de Parke's next to it running, and Tony is a

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little bit ahead, and one of them is going to

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win probably, Yeah, one of them's won. How is that

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not exciting? So I try and have a particular idea

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to wrap your mind around in these recordings. Sometimes it's

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just vague and I just rab it on about my

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toenails or I don't know, something exciting like that, something relevant.

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But today I'm going to talk about pain being a protector,

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not a damage meter. Okay, so that's what I'm going

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to talk about. I had the inspiration. I was listening

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to a book earlier, and it reminded me of something

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that I've talked about before in probably one of my

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older recordings, maybe one of my most recent recordings because

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I don't know. I don't really listen back to most

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of them, but I may have the tender see to

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repeat myself. I don't listen to, you know, all my

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recordings by I think sometimes I do have the tendency to,

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so I won't. I'm just being silly. So the core

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message of this recording is chronic pain is a protector.

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It's not a damage meter. So pain itself is there

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to protect you. It's there to let you know that

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you need to do something. Basically, and I'm talking from

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a lay person's perspective. I'm not an expert on anything.

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I think picking my nose is probably the only thing

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that I'm actually an expert out. But apparently you can't

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get a degree in that. It's not fair. I used

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to be quite good at cutting my toe. Now, don't

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get me started in tone now this is my favorite subject,

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but I just can't reach anymore. I just have to

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drop some dog food on my feet and home with Vinnie.

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Vinnie choosing naws off. That's weird. What a weird visual. Okay,

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let's move on from that. That didn't happen. And so also,

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let you know, I do have a Facebook group called

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Jason Newlands Boring Group. It was two hundred and seventeen members.

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Now it's two hundred and sixteen. Someone's left, We're gone

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and we I've got a YouTube channel which is at

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Jason Newland, which is also my podcast, so I upload

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all my latest recordings on there. Now since I've been

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uploading all the podcast episodes, I'm getting less less views

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because I guess there's just so many. So I do

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six versions of each recording, and sometimes I do two recordings,

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sometimes even three a day, you know, at least one

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a day normally, although there are times when I don't

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do anything for a while. It depends on how I'm feeling.

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So I do six different versions, one without music, one

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with music, five and ten hours, both with and without music.

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Just gives you a choice, a choice. I try to

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stop doing so many a while back, but every time

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I cut back, someone said, I prefer the ones, prefer

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the one to five hour ones with music, or I

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prefer the ten hour ones without music or the ones

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without music. That you know, just like, different people like

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different things. So hopefully I've tried to cover as many

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basis as possible. Also, I do have a Q and

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a Friday that I do every Friday, which is basically

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I answer any questions that you have. You can go

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to my website Jason Newland dot com and there's actually

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a form you can fill in them there. It's just

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a question anything you want me to talk about anything

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at all. If it's Southern, I can't answer, then I

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just won't answer it. But you know, I do try

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and cater to questions. Now I'm wondering who's left the group.

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It might be someone who's just come off of Facebook.

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That happens sometimes. Yeah, I don't know. Honest, there's people.

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There's someone that joined invited seventeen hours ago. I've not

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invited anybody, but they're not in the They can view

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the group, but they're not actually a member of the group.

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So oh well, right, here's my premise for this recording.

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When the brain believes the threat is gone or at

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least safely controlled or contained, it just turns the alarm down.

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That alarm that that like meb beep, beep, beep. I

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don't know why I did a sound of an alarm

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because you probably know what the sound of an alarm is.

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I mean, they can have lots of different sounds. Can't

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they rare? Rare? I suppose if I was to have

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an alarm after me, it would be, I don't know,

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a bit, a not very enthusiastic alarm. Oh someone's broken

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into the car. Oh, so Vinnie's flapping is he likes

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to be known. He likes to be everyone who's listening

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to recording. I think he likes to be part of

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the recording. Sometimes he whins, sometimes he hussles me. Sometimes

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he jumps around trying to get to a fly, which

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is what he's doing now, whether it looks like he's

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trying to get out of the front door or out

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of the living room door for some reason, but he's

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very focused on the fly still, So you'll hear that anyway.

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I we need to get on done. I really nearly

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the end of the recording already, and I haven't actually

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spoken about anything. So it's basically a very basic, single

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idea about when the threat isn't there, when you know

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that there's no threat, which is something you have with

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chronic pain, you know there's no threat. Acute pain is

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a different thing. You know, it's letting you know there's

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something and it's happening now, and it's something you need

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to do with Chronic pain is something that's it's a

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part of your body that's healed or as far as damage,

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you know, if you add an injury and something like arthritis,

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it's chronic pain, but is kind of somewhere in the

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middle really in a sense of maybe you need to

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be careful that part of body. But at the same time,

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what use is that physical distress? What use is it

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to you if you're careful, you know, like it kind

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of comes to a point, so someone if you've got

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I've got arthrightis on my lower back. And I think

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the whole world's going to know about this at the

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end of these recordings because I keep talking about it.

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But that's it, Finny, make a little bit more noise,

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thanks mate, when you know the cause and when you

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know you're actually okay and that it's just one of

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those things can't necessarily be changed. You can do exercise.

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I do exercise for my lower back. You may be

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able to make changes with diet. For example, I lost

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some weight because the weight was putting pressure on my back.

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That helped. So there's some practical things that your doctor

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or your therapist can tell you about that I can't

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tell you about I can't give advice on anything like that.

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I don't give advice on anything. Isn't it weird? I

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just had the urge. I heard this screech outside, and

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I just had the urge for ice cream. Stranger the

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brain works, isn't it. So I'm going to start off

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focus in on a broken bone for example. Thingy, calm down, mate,

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catch it. If only he could fly. I think he's

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the only dog in the world that wishes he could fly.

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The fly literally has I think you might wish he

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was a fly. It's got such advantage over him. But

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I don't want it in the living room, though I

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don't mind if it's in the kitchen. I don't leave

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food out or anything. I'd rather not be in the

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flat at all. I don't want it in the bedroom,

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but I don't think it likes to go into the

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bedroom because it smells too bad. That's wrong. I shouldn't

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say stuff like that. It's very lovely in the bedroom,

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but you know you've got me in a that anyway.

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It doesn't seem to want to go in the bedroom

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for some reason. Sometimes it follows me into the bathroom

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and depends on what I'm doing. Sometimes it just leaves

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really quickly. I mean, I remember I was I closed

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the tour at the door. I was on the toilet

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and I could literally see the fly smashing against the

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window trying to get out, and I thought, why was

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it making so much noise? And I realized had this

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little hammer he was trying to smash you the window.

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Help help? It sticks like rude. So in the in

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the living room, I don't like him being in there

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because this is you know, if I've got a cup

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of tea, they've got a habit like just walking along

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the rim like I don't. I don't want to fly

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on my rim. Nah, I don't want that. So basically

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I like to keep the rim clean because this is

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my mouth's going on, isn't it. So I don't want

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a fly going where my mouth goes. And I'm pretty

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sure the fly doesn't want to go where my mouth's

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been either, which is rude. Again. So the idea of

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a broken arm, you break a bone. So I broke

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my wrist a few years back, fell out the bath.

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I'm not supposed to be funny, but I suppose it

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is by a funny scenario, and wow, it hurts, so

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I go to the doctor's I go to the hospital, sorry,

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and have to have an X ray. I'm in there

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to be fair. Back then, because it was a few

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years back, about nine nine years ago, I didn't have

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to wait as long as the queues now. I mean

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when I fractured my back a couple of years ago,

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I was probably twelve thirteen hours in the A and E.

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But this time I was zip about six six seven hours,

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so I got seen fairly quickly and it was it

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was broken. It's just simple as that, Yeah, it's broken.

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It's okay. So I went up to see the nurse

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or a specialist or whatever in the bone category, the

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bone department, the broken wrist department, I don't know wherever

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it was. And they said you had two choices. I thought, brilliant.

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I actually thought he was going to offer me some biscuits,

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but nothing like that. I thought it was going to

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be a buffet. Will you stop jumping around, Finney? And

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I said to he said, well you can have it's broken.

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I said, yeah, I know any biscuits and he said no.

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I said a bit. You have got some biscuits, though,

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haven't you. He said, what do you mean. I said, well,

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you're sitting there beyond a desk, and you've got I

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know you've got a cupboard, at least one cupboard behind there,

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and I know that you've got a couple of drawers.

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There's a big desk, a couple of big drawers. You're

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telling me there's no biscuits, no kit kats, no chocolate, nothing.

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He said, why are you asking that? I said, I

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don't know. I just for some reason. Well, I haven't

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eaten for ages because i've been you know, I've been

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waiting to have me on looked at. He said, well,

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you do have vending machines, you know. I said, I know.

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But if I go to the vending machine, I'll lose

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my seat. He said, why don't you get the person

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it's with you to save the seat. I said, I

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don't have anyone with me. He said, oh, haven't you

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got any friends? I said this, you can't say that

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to me. Have I got any friends, unless, of course,

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you're offering to be my friend? He said, no, I'm not.

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I said, well it's rude. Then you shouldn't say have

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you got an I've got any friends? He said, I'm

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just asking. I said why He said, because just now

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you know what it feels like. I said, Doc, what

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do you mean?

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Now?

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I know what? What if? What feels like? Now you

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know what it feels like to be asked personal questions?

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What are you talking about? Would you ask me about

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my biscuit collection? You asked me about my chocolate? How

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many kit kats? How many packets of Jaffa cakes? And

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how many? I mean even the Easter egg from three

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months ago? There's not been open yet that I've been

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saving for that, you know, Friday afternoon when everything's a bit,

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when I've had just the most annoying customer coming. I

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think they're called peace, not customers, customers, patience clients. Annoying

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people is that's all they are. You can't talk. You're

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a doctor. You're not supposed to talk like that to

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customer patients. You nearly said customers. I know it's because

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you said it. Ha ha ha. That wasn't even a real laugh,

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was it. Yeah, it was a real laugh. Listen, Doc.

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By the way, why do you keep saying, Doc? Oh,

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I know what you keep saying, Doc. Why go and

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enlighten me if you think you know why? Yeah, the

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reason you keep saying, Doc, is so that people listening

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to this podcast know which person speaking. M Yeah, exactly,

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because you instead of putting on different voices for each person.

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How it's hard to follow what it's the same voice.

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It's like just one voice talking to the same that

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voice right now, some people might be wondering who's talking now?

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Is it a doctor or is it you? I said,

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we're talking about podcasts. Said you're doing let me Boil

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your Pain Away. I said, no, I've not even started

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doing it. Let me boil your pain Away. I don't

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even know what let me Bore your Pain Away is.

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There's a branch off of Letting Boy to Sleep. I said,

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what's what do you mean let Me Boy to Sleep?

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What's that? Is this your past? Your podcast? You've got

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like fourteen hundred episodes. We've been doing it for eight

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years or seven eight years? I haven't Oh, I know

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what you've done, doc, what you've forgotten, what you are in? Huh,

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Well this is twenty fifteen, isn't it? Or so or

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two thousand and six. Thing. I didn't start doing the

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Let Me Boy to Sleep until twenty eighteen, in probably

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February or March, so it hasn't happened yet, and I

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didn't start doing that. Let me bore your pain away

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till probably good five years after that. And this recording

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I'm doing now where you're talking about your hidden stash

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of biscuits even though we're supposed to really be talking

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about plaster and you know how the body protects itself

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and you don't need to you can feel relaxed and

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calm and everything like that. You don't realize that the

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day that I'm doing this is in April, near the

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end of April twenty twenty five. It's nine years away,

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maybe even, but not ten, maybe nine and a half

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years away. Are you sure it's nine and a half years. Yeah,

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I think I am, said Jason said me. I think

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I am, because when I fell out the bath, I

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I hadn't had the carpet hadn't been put down yet,

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and that happened within a month of me moving in,

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and I moved in April, so May. So yeah, it's

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probably around May time that I fell out of the bath,

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nearly ten years ago. Wow, So it wouldn't really make

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sense with it. What do you mean, well, mister Newland,

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it wouldn't make sense that we would be talking about

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your podcast when you weren't making recordings back then? We weren't,

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you know, No, no, no, no, no, I was. Will

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you make your mind up? You just said twenty fourteen,

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twenty fifteen, whatever, You won't making let Me Boy to

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Sleep podcasts? Well, no, I wasn't, but I was doing recordings.

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I just was doing different things like what, I don't

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know what do you mean? You don't know what were

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you What were they called? What were the podcasts called? Well,

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they were just hypnosis stuff, you know, pay relief, relaxation recordings,

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sleep recordings, things like that. I was, so, how long

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are you doing that for half nine years earlier? Well

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you've been doing this from two thousand and six, yeah,

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two thousand and six, And you don't remember what you

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were doing for the for that nine years before you

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started doing No, nine years two thousand and six, two

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thousand and seven, eight nine, ten eleven til thirty four, fifteen, sixteen, seventeen,

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So sixteen years, sixteen, eighteen, ninety twenty, that doesn't make sense.

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Next year will be twenty years. When did I start

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doing to Let Me Boy? You decease the two thousand

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and six, seven, eight, nine, ten eleven toil thirteen forty fifteen,

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sixteen seventeen, so eleven years. So I was doing eleven

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doing recordings for eleven years before I started doing to

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Let Me Boy You to Sleep. Well, that was a

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long sentence, missed new Land. Perhaps we should focus on

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your wrist or is it healed up now? Because it's

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been so long this conversation. Oh doctor, over there, that's

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beyond a desk with the white coat on. I don't

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I can't remember what we were talking about. You're talking

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about my biscuits supply. Oh no, I can't believe I

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mentioned it. Yeah, you're going to share them? Nope, why not?

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Because they're mine? But why can't you share them? Don't

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want to? Can't make me no, But it seems like

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it could be a nice thing to do. Isn't it enough?

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Isn't it enough that I'm talking to you, that I'm

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giving you the time of day? Rude that Yeah, even

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I knew that was rude and I said it. But

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it's you know, I'm not here to give biscuits out.

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You can get that in the shop downstairs. Fair enough, Okay,

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fair enough? By the way, Why this is a little

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bit of gap sometimes between when you talk and I talk. Yeah. Yeah,

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but if I've noticed it, maybe some of the other

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people notice it, which means it's not flowing quite so

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well as it could do it, You know what I mean?

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Oh yeah, but I don't know what I'm going to

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say next door. I don't know what I'm going to

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say when it's just me talking, But when it's two

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people talking, I haven't got a clue. M fair enough,

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All right, you're happy now? Yet not really? Why? Well,

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the washing machine broke this morning. You have to get

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a new washing machine. I don't want to buy a

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new washing machine. I really did believe that washing machine

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was going to last me a long time, but it

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just didn't. And that's all I've been thinking about lately.

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I said, you want to talk about it? He said, yeah,

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that would be nice. I said, well, find someone else.

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It's not what I'm here for. You want to share

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all your stories about your washing machine, but you won't

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give me any biscuits, won't give me a kit kat

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kit cat anyway. He offered me a brace. He said,

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you got two choices. You can have plaster of Paris,

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which I kind of wish I had now, wish i'd

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gone for that, but oh well, or you can have

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it's the same thing, but you can take it off.

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So it's got metal. Got like the metal or rodded it,

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and you can put it on your wrist. It goes

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over your hand and your arm. Wear it during the day.

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You can take it off when you're resting. You know,

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you don't have to have it on all the time,

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but it protects your hand. It protects your wrist rather

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and your arm. I thought cool, and that's why I had.

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I realized I went for that because it was kind

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of quite nice weather at this point. You know, it's May.

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It wasn't, I guess, so it's quite nice weather. Oops,

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there's a metal thing here. I don't know it's four,

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but I mean meaning to remove it for ages. I

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don't know why I don't. Every now and then I'll

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bang on it. I'll bang it and it's just like, oh,

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it doesn't hurt. It's not like I'm like, but it's

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this annoying, a little bit annoying. So I chose that

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because the doctor said, other than that you wouldn't give

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me any biscuits. He said that it's easier that I'd

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appreciate it more if I had the one that I

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could take off, because then I wouldn't have to worry

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about having an itchy arm, because after like a few

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weeks or I don't know however long, the arm starts

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to get a little bit itchy. If you've got plaster

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of Paris, is it plastra Paris was a plaster of Amsterdam.

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I don't know. It's plaster, isn't it? Anyway? It's not

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the same stuff you have on the wall, though, is it.

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I don't know what it is. Is it like bandages

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with glue? Isn't it kind of like that, just bandages,

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but with glue stuck on, sticking them all together kind

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of and pain did white? I mean, I didn't always

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want to have a plaster on my arm. It's not

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like a dream. But I thought if I ever was

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in that position, it'd be quite cool to have one.

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But then I realized I'm not a school anymore, because

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at school people would want to write on it. I

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wouldn't necessarily see what they were writing until it was

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too late. But I realized that actually, at the age

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I was when I broke my wrist, there was no

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one that would want to write on it, and I

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didn't really know anybody. When I first moved around here,

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I was still going into town and meeting up with

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a couple of friends, but eventually that kind of fizzled

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out a bit. And if I want to see Peo people,

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I closed my eyes and imagine them now I don't

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turn the TV on. But I didn't realize bad things

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I thought the cast was. It was almost like I

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needed the cast to set the wrist. And I'm sure

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there are you know, seriously, there are serious injuries which

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do need a cast. Literally, you know, it wasn't a

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serious break. It was a serious break that I might

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have needed a cast, but in this situation, it wasn't. Okay,

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it was just a broken wrist, So you know, I

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know that maybe some casts are required so that the

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arm doesn't move, and it was just like, you know,

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it's just the wrist. But being able to take it off,

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I realized that the main thing it was doing it

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was supporting my wrist. It was supporting me and didn't

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really hurt much when I had it on, and it

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could get bashed and it didn't hurt because it was metal,

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and even the side that wasn't metal was hard like

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padded and I'd be going to town getting some sharp

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and I'll be bashing my wrists. It's amazing. I didn't

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realize I used to bash my wrist so often, but

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I was constantly bashing it on like the the chairs

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of the bus and stuff like that. And when I

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say that, I mean I wasn't walking up and down

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the aisle of the bus just banging my wrist on

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the chares, because that would be weird. But I didn't

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realize how quite how clumsy I was. And I remember

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saying that to a neighbor, and I said, you fell

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out of the bath. That should be a clue that

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you're a bit clumsy. It's kind of true. I mean

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in the past, since I think in the last few years,

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I have broke my wrist. I broke my toes twice

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on once on my weights, another one on my weight bench.

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And I broke my foot and my toes and my

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foot another time when I kicked the wall in my sleep.

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That's not really that's not carelessness, is it. And then

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I broke my rib and twice I broke my rib

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but not only once recently, and broke my hand, and

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I also fracturing my back twice in two different places

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when I fell down the stairs. This is about just

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over two years ago, so it is. Yeah, I suppose

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I've had a few little accidents along the way, and

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that's about all the other things, the slips and the yeah,

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kind of weird. I don't know what it is. So

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with the wrist, With my wrist, the one thing I

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noticed with broken bones is the difference between a broken bone,

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and this is just in my experience. The initial pain subsides.

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When it's not broken, it kind of, you know, that

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initial a kind of subsides when it's broken, that initial pain.

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It might go down a little bit, but it kind

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of stays at a high level. I was like, oh, okay,

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And I realized that when I first broke my hand

466
00:37:06.440 --> 00:37:08.320
when I was a kid, well my kid, when I

467
00:37:08.360 --> 00:37:13.360
was at twenty four, and subsequent breaks, that's always the

468
00:37:13.440 --> 00:37:18.440
same kind of things, like it stays until it's looked at,

469
00:37:18.519 --> 00:37:22.880
until it's sorted. And so having that brace on my

470
00:37:23.159 --> 00:37:29.639
wrist really gave me a sense of safety. I want

471
00:37:29.639 --> 00:37:31.840
to say brace. I don't know what the right world

472
00:37:31.880 --> 00:37:34.239
would be, but like a brace thing with a metal

473
00:37:34.320 --> 00:37:40.920
bar in the middle of it, a sense of safety

474
00:37:41.079 --> 00:37:48.559
which was quite nice. If anything, I was more protected

475
00:37:48.639 --> 00:37:52.320
than I was with my right wrist, because if I

476
00:37:52.400 --> 00:37:55.320
banged my right wrist on the metal railings above the

477
00:37:55.400 --> 00:38:00.840
seats on the bus, it'd hurt it. At my left wrist,

478
00:38:00.920 --> 00:38:07.559
it wasn't hurting because I had protection. I thought that

479
00:38:07.760 --> 00:38:12.000
going back to the the biscuit doctor and seeing if

480
00:38:12.039 --> 00:38:15.719
I get one with my right wrist. But he said no.

481
00:38:17.679 --> 00:38:19.280
He didn't say no, but I'm sure he would have

482
00:38:19.280 --> 00:38:23.760
said no. Probably would have thought I was just after

483
00:38:23.840 --> 00:38:34.880
some biscuits and would have hid. So this sense of safety,

484
00:38:35.039 --> 00:38:41.559
this sense of comfort, this it took away the feeling,

485
00:38:43.199 --> 00:38:48.519
the concerned feeling that I had. The worry went like

486
00:38:48.639 --> 00:38:53.760
I wasn't worried anymore, kind of didn't even care. I

487
00:38:53.880 --> 00:38:57.280
find it. I found it mildly amusing that I had

488
00:38:57.320 --> 00:39:01.039
fallen out of the bath, and not at the time

489
00:39:01.079 --> 00:39:07.440
I didn't, but like afterwards, like telling people, and yeah,

490
00:39:07.599 --> 00:39:11.599
not one person seemed concerned. Everyone seemed to find it

491
00:39:11.679 --> 00:39:16.880
funny you fell out of the bath. Oh, well done, Vinnie.

492
00:39:17.480 --> 00:39:19.239
That's a little bit loud, though perhaps you could do

493
00:39:19.280 --> 00:39:25.719
it about making so much noise. And he's waiting for

494
00:39:25.920 --> 00:39:29.000
his he's got a delivery coming. I won't say the

495
00:39:29.000 --> 00:39:39.320
word out loud, but it rise with drones. B O w.

496
00:39:40.960 --> 00:39:56.280
N yes, oh, okay, okay, Vinnie were done.

497
00:39:58.320 --> 00:40:14.119
So I I kind of got that realizing, realizing that

498
00:40:14.559 --> 00:40:23.039
I could once having that sense of comfort, having that

499
00:40:23.159 --> 00:40:27.880
sense of it was almost like I didn't care, which

500
00:40:27.920 --> 00:40:31.840
is a weird feeling. But I didn't care because I

501
00:40:31.920 --> 00:40:38.400
wasn't worried. It was just a thing. I mean, it

502
00:40:38.400 --> 00:40:39.960
would have bugged me more of it with my right

503
00:40:39.960 --> 00:40:43.039
hand or my right wrist, because I'd have been more

504
00:40:43.159 --> 00:40:46.920
limited to things I could do. And that's not going

505
00:40:46.960 --> 00:40:49.239
in a weird direction. I'm just generally I'm right handed,

506
00:40:49.320 --> 00:40:55.519
so you know it's I do use my left hand. Again,

507
00:40:55.559 --> 00:40:57.880
it's not going in a weird direction. I mean I

508
00:40:57.960 --> 00:41:01.039
used my left hand for carrying things. I use my

509
00:41:01.159 --> 00:41:05.079
left hand for using a remote control. I don't know why.

510
00:41:07.159 --> 00:41:08.760
It's just the way it works out. It's just the

511
00:41:08.800 --> 00:41:11.559
way it is. Maybe I always have done. I use

512
00:41:11.599 --> 00:41:13.639
my right my left hand when I'm on the phone.

513
00:41:14.039 --> 00:41:16.960
If I'm typing something into the phone, I use my

514
00:41:17.079 --> 00:41:21.000
left hand, or if I'm on the phone, use my

515
00:41:21.039 --> 00:41:27.440
left ear. But I'm right handed, so I'm not ambid indidistrous,

516
00:41:27.800 --> 00:41:32.639
ambidixtrousus in a sense of I can't write with my

517
00:41:32.719 --> 00:41:37.320
left hand. I can, but it's awful writing. Mind doing

518
00:41:37.320 --> 00:41:40.320
my right hand's not very good writing either. There's some

519
00:41:40.360 --> 00:41:42.519
of the things that I do predominantly with my right

520
00:41:42.519 --> 00:41:47.280
hand I don't do with my left hand. Yeah, I

521
00:41:47.360 --> 00:41:50.079
don't know. It's weird. It might not be weird. It

522
00:41:50.159 --> 00:41:57.000
might just be absolutely normal. So there's something quite nice

523
00:41:57.039 --> 00:41:59.719
about having that protection. I suppose it's a little bit

524
00:41:59.800 --> 00:42:04.199
like having a scab. Weird word that in its scab.

525
00:42:05.119 --> 00:42:08.880
It's not a pleasant word, is its scab? But having

526
00:42:08.920 --> 00:42:15.199
that protection over a an injury, and it's weird that

527
00:42:15.360 --> 00:42:21.960
like you know, you can back. Let's say you fall over,

528
00:42:22.840 --> 00:42:25.960
have a like a dent in your hand, and it's

529
00:42:26.039 --> 00:42:33.000
so all stingy. But at the same time, yeah, it's

530
00:42:33.039 --> 00:42:35.840
not really. It's like it initially like it hurts, and

531
00:42:35.840 --> 00:42:41.519
then like it's not something you're going to worry about,

532
00:42:41.599 --> 00:42:44.800
is it. Maybe clean it off, make sure the gravel's

533
00:42:44.840 --> 00:42:48.920
out if there's gravel, I mean not everywhere has gravel,

534
00:42:48.960 --> 00:42:55.280
but you know, clean it and then it just stings

535
00:42:55.280 --> 00:42:59.320
a little bit. But if you leave it alone, you know,

536
00:42:59.480 --> 00:43:04.079
it doesn't nothing really happening, but then it goes from

537
00:43:04.079 --> 00:43:06.719
being But if you do poke, it's sensitive. Why would

538
00:43:06.719 --> 00:43:11.480
you poke it? But you know if you did, and

539
00:43:11.519 --> 00:43:14.440
then a day or two days later, it's got a

540
00:43:14.480 --> 00:43:20.599
scab on it, a crust and you can literally just

541
00:43:20.679 --> 00:43:25.159
poke it nothing. You can flick it and nothing. You

542
00:43:25.199 --> 00:43:28.840
could get a pen and dig it in gently. I

543
00:43:28.840 --> 00:43:31.239
don't obviously don't want to put the pen you for

544
00:43:31.320 --> 00:43:34.400
your hand, but you can like and nothing, no feeling

545
00:43:34.440 --> 00:43:38.039
at all other than just a little bit like when

546
00:43:38.039 --> 00:43:43.079
you've had anesthetic local anesthetic and you can feel the pressure,

547
00:43:43.159 --> 00:43:45.880
but that's all the pressure is just that's it, and

548
00:43:46.000 --> 00:43:49.599
pressure anging above you. It's just a sensation of being touched,

549
00:43:49.679 --> 00:43:53.760
that's it. But there's no feeling, there's no there's nothing

550
00:43:53.880 --> 00:44:00.719
but comfort there. Scabs are weird. I like your words,

551
00:44:00.760 --> 00:44:07.320
but you know it's just a strange sound. Scab But useful,

552
00:44:07.360 --> 00:44:12.159
isn't it. You imagine having that on your nerves, just

553
00:44:12.239 --> 00:44:16.440
the nerve endings for where the physical discomfort was, and

554
00:44:16.559 --> 00:44:20.280
kind of just having like a scab just growing over

555
00:44:20.360 --> 00:44:23.840
those nerves or over that part of your body, like

556
00:44:23.880 --> 00:44:27.480
an invisible scab. Really like a bit of skin that

557
00:44:27.599 --> 00:44:31.760
just grows over the top layer of the skin. You

558
00:44:31.840 --> 00:44:35.440
can't see it, but it just makes that part of

559
00:44:35.480 --> 00:44:43.280
your body. So it just feels fine. You can feel

560
00:44:43.320 --> 00:44:48.320
pressure if you poke it, but there's nothing else happening.

561
00:44:49.159 --> 00:44:54.239
And unless you do poke it, there's not really any

562
00:44:54.280 --> 00:44:57.119
feeling at all. It's just just there, like the rest

563
00:44:57.159 --> 00:45:03.880
of your body. Because how much of our body are

564
00:45:03.880 --> 00:45:08.599
we actually focused on from day to day? You know,

565
00:45:08.639 --> 00:45:14.800
it's like it's just there, isn't it unless you do

566
00:45:14.920 --> 00:45:20.519
like mindfulness or it's a weird thing about it. Sometimes

567
00:45:20.760 --> 00:45:25.159
it does seem strange that in the past there's been

568
00:45:25.199 --> 00:45:28.000
times when the only time I've really focused on a

569
00:45:28.000 --> 00:45:32.599
part of my body is when I'm using it, or

570
00:45:32.639 --> 00:45:36.320
maybe when it's injured. See I don't really notice my

571
00:45:36.400 --> 00:45:41.280
feet or my ankles, but you know, the tops of

572
00:45:41.320 --> 00:45:43.920
my feet, I don't take any notice of them. But

573
00:45:44.000 --> 00:45:50.440
I broke my foot. This is wow, fifteen years ago whatever,

574
00:45:51.239 --> 00:45:54.239
And so I broke the top of my foot really

575
00:45:54.440 --> 00:46:00.119
quite Oh God, that was hard work, that was. But

576
00:46:00.159 --> 00:46:03.239
it's like I didn't even notice that it was there.

577
00:46:03.519 --> 00:46:06.039
I knew, I knew I had a foot. It's not

578
00:46:06.079 --> 00:46:07.639
like I didn't know the foot was there, but I

579
00:46:07.719 --> 00:46:11.440
just didn't pay any attention to it. And a bit

580
00:46:11.519 --> 00:46:15.119
like a hang now, you know, something so little like ow,

581
00:46:15.760 --> 00:46:19.199
there's a hang now, but then it's gone and it's done,

582
00:46:19.280 --> 00:46:22.840
and it's like a day later, it's kind of just

583
00:46:22.880 --> 00:46:30.440
how it was before. It's kind of strange. The body

584
00:46:31.159 --> 00:46:36.119
is sometimes when we over focus on one part, we

585
00:46:38.320 --> 00:46:40.320
potentially you can ignore the rest of the fit of

586
00:46:40.440 --> 00:46:42.639
the body. But the other the rest of the body

587
00:46:42.639 --> 00:46:46.000
has also got feelings. It might be nice feelings, it

588
00:46:46.079 --> 00:46:51.119
might be just neutral feelings, it might be really pleasant feelings,

589
00:46:52.400 --> 00:46:58.719
might be a sense of comfort, relaxation, tiredness maybe, and

590
00:47:01.199 --> 00:47:06.800
h if we it's making me jump with all he's

591
00:47:06.840 --> 00:47:09.679
jumping around. I don't want to put him in the

592
00:47:09.679 --> 00:47:11.840
bedroom on his own because by first of all, he

593
00:47:12.480 --> 00:47:16.599
you'll probably bark, and he doesn't. He doesn't like to

594
00:47:16.679 --> 00:47:18.199
be away from me. I mean, can you imagine that?

595
00:47:18.239 --> 00:47:21.719
Can't you? Because I'm I'm super exciting to be around.

596
00:47:25.440 --> 00:47:29.519
But sometimes feels like there's there's a there's a certain

597
00:47:29.559 --> 00:47:35.440
amount of feeling for the body, and when that energy

598
00:47:35.559 --> 00:47:38.440
is taken, I'm not not understand. It's like said, there's

599
00:47:38.440 --> 00:47:40.920
a probably infinite amount, but you know, in a day

600
00:47:40.960 --> 00:47:45.039
to day setting, in a day to day moment, you've

601
00:47:45.039 --> 00:47:47.400
got a feeling that you can have in your feet

602
00:47:47.599 --> 00:47:53.920
and your legs, your shoulders, your arms, your fingers, your hands,

603
00:47:54.280 --> 00:47:59.960
your your bum, your back, your stomach, chest, your face,

604
00:48:00.239 --> 00:48:05.239
your eyes, your jaw, all those different places on your body.

605
00:48:06.320 --> 00:48:10.679
There are different places that you may have. It seems

606
00:48:10.719 --> 00:48:14.679
a little bit of a shame to give all the

607
00:48:14.840 --> 00:48:20.400
energy to just one part, you know what I mean.

608
00:48:22.199 --> 00:48:24.320
I mean, there are times when giving all that energy

609
00:48:24.360 --> 00:48:30.920
and focus to one part is very pleasant. And I'm

610
00:48:30.960 --> 00:48:33.239
talking about eating really, but there are other things. I

611
00:48:33.239 --> 00:48:35.760
suppose it's been such a long time. I can't remember

612
00:48:35.840 --> 00:48:41.159
any other pleasures, but you know, having a nice meal,

613
00:48:41.360 --> 00:48:44.679
or for me, it would be something sweet like a dessert,

614
00:48:45.559 --> 00:48:54.679
chocolate clare, something like that. There's just the pleasure, absolute pleasure.

615
00:48:55.119 --> 00:48:56.719
But the rest of my body is not doing anything.

616
00:48:56.760 --> 00:49:01.400
I'm just sitting there with my eyes closed, rubling. Okay,

617
00:49:01.400 --> 00:49:03.880
don't truly I do spill it all over myself, though

618
00:49:05.679 --> 00:49:12.599
not completely accidentally. I find. Really, if you get neighbors

619
00:49:12.639 --> 00:49:16.000
knock on your door, they's stop knocking eventually. If you

620
00:49:16.119 --> 00:49:19.679
keep answering a door covered in food eventually they just

621
00:49:19.719 --> 00:49:22.480
don't knock. So that's what I do. I like to

622
00:49:22.920 --> 00:49:24.800
I've got a certain T shirt that I put on

623
00:49:24.800 --> 00:49:27.039
when I eat, and I just have it hanging up

624
00:49:27.039 --> 00:49:32.119
on her Basically, it's on a it's in the window

625
00:49:33.719 --> 00:49:36.840
in my kitchen window, and it's just hanging up above

626
00:49:36.880 --> 00:49:40.920
the window. It's like a scarecrow, really, And whenever I

627
00:49:40.920 --> 00:49:42.719
get a visitor, I put it on and I answer

628
00:49:42.760 --> 00:49:46.400
the door like that. And no one ever wants to stay.

629
00:49:46.760 --> 00:49:51.000
Most people don't want to winter. So that's good. None,

630
00:49:51.119 --> 00:49:53.280
that's true, But it sounds like it could work.

631
00:49:54.679 --> 00:50:05.159
Wow, is the man with a smelly, dirty food covered shirt, Like, Yeah, all.

632
00:50:05.039 --> 00:50:11.079
My other clothes are clean, tidy, but I just you know, maybe,

633
00:50:12.000 --> 00:50:20.760
so yeah, do we need do we need anything but comfort?

634
00:50:22.039 --> 00:50:24.559
If you know something's protected, you know that a part

635
00:50:24.599 --> 00:50:30.840
of that part of your body is safe. Emphasizing you know,

636
00:50:32.000 --> 00:50:36.159
the fact is that part of your body's now has

637
00:50:36.199 --> 00:50:50.000
its own cocoon. Any dangers soothed, all signals are dimmed. Yeah,

638
00:50:50.719 --> 00:50:53.639
and although you know, in the case of a broken bone,

639
00:50:53.880 --> 00:51:00.679
it may not have healed yet, but the hurt as

640
00:51:00.719 --> 00:51:08.800
already eased because you're protected. You know you're protected and

641
00:51:08.880 --> 00:51:14.880
that outranks that raw sensory data that you had before

642
00:51:15.159 --> 00:51:17.159
when you were looking at something and you're sending that

643
00:51:17.239 --> 00:51:23.440
signal of oh, and that that was the signal of danger.

644
00:51:23.440 --> 00:51:26.199
That was my sound for it. But it's not danger,

645
00:51:26.280 --> 00:51:31.000
is it? Danger is not necessary. You know, if you

646
00:51:31.039 --> 00:51:34.559
saw someone, if you saw a small child running up

647
00:51:34.599 --> 00:51:39.280
to you with a sword, Okay, there's a big difference

648
00:51:39.280 --> 00:51:41.840
between the way that you would react if it was

649
00:51:41.880 --> 00:51:46.360
an actual metal sharp sword or a plastic sword that

650
00:51:46.440 --> 00:51:48.079
little kids should be you know, if they were going

651
00:51:48.119 --> 00:51:50.960
to be having a sword, you're going to react differently

652
00:51:53.480 --> 00:51:56.239
to the two different scenarios. If it's a plastic sword,

653
00:51:56.960 --> 00:51:59.519
you're just going to giggle and laugh and like run around,

654
00:51:59.559 --> 00:52:02.840
Oh get me, don't get me. If it's a real

655
00:52:02.880 --> 00:52:06.920
sort do you have to get your gun out, don't you? So, no,

656
00:52:07.039 --> 00:52:14.679
you don't. Don't. Don't shoot kids, please, So that did

657
00:52:14.719 --> 00:52:21.039
go in a different direction. So this is just I'm

658
00:52:21.119 --> 00:52:31.119
just shooting the breeze, just shooting the breeze. So with

659
00:52:31.280 --> 00:52:36.519
things like with chronic pain, the tissue may be fine,

660
00:52:36.599 --> 00:52:41.239
but the alarm system over sensitive doesn't need to be

661
00:52:42.000 --> 00:52:48.079
reduce that sensitivity because you know it's fine, because you've

662
00:52:48.079 --> 00:52:53.679
done what you need to to keep it safe. You know,

663
00:52:54.119 --> 00:52:57.480
if you've got let's say, if I had arth rice

664
00:52:57.719 --> 00:53:03.840
in my foot and I decided to go and kick

665
00:53:03.880 --> 00:53:09.599
a ball around, I'm probably not going to enjoy it.

666
00:53:10.800 --> 00:53:14.079
My foot's not going to enjoy it because that's not

667
00:53:14.119 --> 00:53:17.360
what my foot is for anymore. You know. It's like

668
00:53:17.599 --> 00:53:21.519
those days. Sometimes it's about just accepting, I think person

669
00:53:21.639 --> 00:53:24.920
for my own self. Personally, I've had to give up

670
00:53:24.960 --> 00:53:28.320
some stuff because of my lower back. I used to

671
00:53:28.440 --> 00:53:31.760
do martial arts in the past. It's never any good

672
00:53:31.760 --> 00:53:34.840
at it, but I used to like doing it. But

673
00:53:34.920 --> 00:53:38.039
I can't do that stuff anymore because of my limited

674
00:53:39.199 --> 00:53:44.119
there's a limit to my flexibility and when it comes

675
00:53:44.119 --> 00:53:51.599
to bending over and stuff like that, and it's really difficult.

676
00:53:53.360 --> 00:53:55.599
And if I ignore it, and if I go ahead

677
00:53:55.639 --> 00:54:00.960
and do it anyway, I yeah, it's not good. Although

678
00:54:01.000 --> 00:54:05.239
I can lift weights in order to certain weight training

679
00:54:05.360 --> 00:54:08.639
can help strengthen it, and I do some stretches, do

680
00:54:08.800 --> 00:54:13.440
squats which the physiotherapist told me to do, but there's

681
00:54:13.480 --> 00:54:17.800
certain things I can't do. I can't run because it

682
00:54:17.920 --> 00:54:21.440
jolts my back, So there's certain things I can't do

683
00:54:21.599 --> 00:54:26.960
anymore like that. I can walk, but you know, there's

684
00:54:27.000 --> 00:54:30.559
just certain things I can't do, and I can accept

685
00:54:30.599 --> 00:54:37.599
it or not accept it for me. And I can't

686
00:54:38.079 --> 00:54:42.039
remember any time in the last thirty years when I

687
00:54:42.159 --> 00:54:46.440
thought I've woken up in bed and I've jumped out

688
00:54:46.440 --> 00:54:48.639
of bed and thought, you know what, when I go

689
00:54:48.719 --> 00:54:52.519
for a run, that hasn't happened for a long time,

690
00:54:52.599 --> 00:54:55.119
So I'm not really missing out on anything. And when

691
00:54:55.119 --> 00:54:57.559
I could do with probably a bit more blood circulation,

692
00:54:59.119 --> 00:55:00.559
but I get a little bit that when I walk

693
00:55:00.639 --> 00:55:06.719
up the stairs. But these are quite like these. A

694
00:55:06.719 --> 00:55:10.039
couple of phrases are quite like when the danger feels distant,

695
00:55:10.239 --> 00:55:14.360
the sirens powers down. The siren powers down when the

696
00:55:14.440 --> 00:55:19.599
danger feels distant. It's a little bit like because there's

697
00:55:19.639 --> 00:55:21.800
a lot of weird things happen around here where I live,

698
00:55:22.960 --> 00:55:25.760
and if I hear an ambulance coming, I think, oh no.

699
00:55:27.920 --> 00:55:30.000
And I used to, especially with my friend downstairs, I

700
00:55:30.039 --> 00:55:32.239
was like, oh no, because we'd have the ambulance come

701
00:55:32.440 --> 00:55:37.639
quite regularly and I'd get worried. Oh no. So I'd

702
00:55:37.679 --> 00:55:40.679
hear it in the distance getting louder. But because I

703
00:55:40.880 --> 00:55:44.559
go there's a main road that goes past where I live,

704
00:55:44.679 --> 00:55:47.760
the estate where I live, So it got louder and louder.

705
00:55:47.800 --> 00:55:51.119
And then I knew if it's come onto this state,

706
00:55:51.159 --> 00:55:54.119
because it would get louder. But then they would kind

707
00:55:54.119 --> 00:55:56.440
of shut it down a bit. But you could hear

708
00:55:56.480 --> 00:56:02.320
it getting closer. But when it goes past the estate

709
00:56:02.719 --> 00:56:05.639
gets loud, and this starts to go down again and

710
00:56:05.679 --> 00:56:10.800
go lower as it gets further away, and the danger

711
00:56:11.119 --> 00:56:14.119
signals gone, that danger in my brain like, oh, hope

712
00:56:14.159 --> 00:56:17.519
my friend's okay. Or maybe it's another friend, you know

713
00:56:17.599 --> 00:56:21.199
that lives a lot close by. Hope they're okay. Another neighbor.

714
00:56:22.480 --> 00:56:26.320
Maybe it's someone that I see when I'm walking Vinnie,

715
00:56:26.880 --> 00:56:28.880
you know, because quite a few elderly people around here

716
00:56:28.920 --> 00:56:32.840
as well. It's like and it kind of oh that's nice,

717
00:56:32.840 --> 00:56:39.159
it's good. And if I hear a police siren and

718
00:56:39.320 --> 00:56:43.920
like it gets loud, off it o'h no, oh no oh,

719
00:56:43.920 --> 00:56:45.719
where I need to hide all the money. Where's it

720
00:56:45.760 --> 00:56:47.159
going to go? I need to hide the money from

721
00:56:47.159 --> 00:56:51.679
the bank job. But then I hear it go down, like, oh,

722
00:56:51.800 --> 00:56:55.039
that's good. Because I like to use the big stack

723
00:56:55.119 --> 00:56:58.239
of two or three million just as a table it's

724
00:56:58.320 --> 00:57:05.719
quite nice. Nice tot will take you. And you know,

725
00:57:05.719 --> 00:57:09.280
I think like when it comes to knowledge is kind

726
00:57:09.280 --> 00:57:13.760
of neural first daid. I quite I like that that idea,

727
00:57:14.840 --> 00:57:18.239
because there's no way am I saying oh sor just

728
00:57:18.280 --> 00:57:21.480
in your red or just in yourd No, I don't

729
00:57:21.559 --> 00:57:23.239
all that stuff or it's just in your brains or

730
00:57:23.280 --> 00:57:25.960
is just in your red. You know. We feel what

731
00:57:26.000 --> 00:57:30.119
we feel, that's the bottom nine. But maybe we can

732
00:57:30.199 --> 00:57:32.960
change how we feel, and then you still feel what

733
00:57:33.000 --> 00:57:34.920
you feel, but you feel different to the way you

734
00:57:34.960 --> 00:57:39.199
felt before. So I don't think it's ever helpful to

735
00:57:39.239 --> 00:57:48.400
dismiss anybody's personal experience, whether it's physical, whether it's emotional, therapeutic.

736
00:57:49.039 --> 00:57:51.880
You know, just like no, we feel what we feel,

737
00:57:52.440 --> 00:57:55.719
but what we feel what we feel can change, and

738
00:57:56.480 --> 00:58:02.679
sometimes new knowledge can be a new first aid or

739
00:58:02.719 --> 00:58:07.199
a physical first aid. An emotional first aid could change

740
00:58:07.199 --> 00:58:10.760
the way you feel about something when you change the

741
00:58:10.800 --> 00:58:23.199
way you think about that thing. Another thing is I

742
00:58:23.199 --> 00:58:25.000
don't know if you can remember when you was a kid.

743
00:58:25.039 --> 00:58:28.239
I remember when I was a kid, and it's a

744
00:58:28.239 --> 00:58:32.079
long time ago. I've got a few memories. It's about

745
00:58:32.079 --> 00:58:39.880
one hundred years ago. Now, there was a safety safety

746
00:58:40.239 --> 00:58:50.559
in just getting some attention. You know, I'd fall over

747
00:58:51.320 --> 00:58:56.079
my mum alot Stepmum would like come over and maybe

748
00:58:56.199 --> 00:58:59.480
just rub it or kiss it, kiss my knee or whatever.

749
00:59:01.119 --> 00:59:07.920
I'd feel. I feel brilliant. I mean, you know, once

750
00:59:08.000 --> 00:59:10.119
it was a bit weird. I did need medical attention

751
00:59:10.719 --> 00:59:12.800
when it's blood squirting. It went all over her face.

752
00:59:12.880 --> 00:59:19.639
It was wasn't good. But you know, I can't say that,

753
00:59:20.840 --> 00:59:28.840
oh I good. I can't say that, oh so, yeah

754
00:59:29.000 --> 00:59:37.719
it was. Sometimes feeling safe is enough. Feeling safe is enough,

755
00:59:38.000 --> 00:59:43.119
knowing you're safe. I mean I talked about in the

756
00:59:43.199 --> 00:59:47.360
past about car alarms. A leaf hits a bonnet and

757
00:59:47.480 --> 00:59:53.559
the car alarm goes off because it's too sensitive. So

758
00:59:53.960 --> 00:59:58.880
you know, lower the car alarms sensitivity tonight, you still

759
00:59:58.920 --> 01:00:01.239
want it to be there. It still has to be there.

760
01:00:01.320 --> 01:00:05.400
In fact, you can't get rid of the car alarms.

761
01:00:05.599 --> 01:00:10.000
You know, in the analogy we have we have those

762
01:00:10.079 --> 01:00:15.480
feelings for a reason, but it can be lowered. The

763
01:00:15.599 --> 01:00:20.280
sensitivity can be lowered, or you've got like the smoke

764
01:00:20.320 --> 01:00:25.039
alarm overreacting to burnt toast. You know, the house is

765
01:00:25.079 --> 01:00:27.440
not fire, it's just burnt toast. If that is not

766
01:00:27.519 --> 01:00:34.360
even it's not a lie, it's just burnt. The alarm

767
01:00:34.440 --> 01:00:40.039
goes off, I would run into the kitchen, or would walk.

768
01:00:40.199 --> 01:00:43.199
I don't really run anymore, but I don't live. It's

769
01:00:43.239 --> 01:00:44.880
not a big place that I live, so I can.

770
01:00:45.599 --> 01:00:47.360
I can run into the kitchen, but I'm not going

771
01:00:47.400 --> 01:00:49.920
to get there much quicker than if I just walk,

772
01:00:50.960 --> 01:00:57.519
so mountsteps. So I'm not against running. I'm just you know,

773
01:00:57.679 --> 01:01:00.239
there's no point running. And also I've got a little dog.

774
01:01:00.360 --> 01:01:03.519
You know, he's always looking for a way to trip

775
01:01:03.599 --> 01:01:07.639
me up. I know he is. He puts booby traps

776
01:01:07.719 --> 01:01:11.119
all over the place, like bits of string between doors,

777
01:01:13.480 --> 01:01:18.199
bear trap, just all kinds of stuff. But you get in,

778
01:01:18.280 --> 01:01:21.320
you looks like it's just smoke, just smoke from the toaster.

779
01:01:23.800 --> 01:01:28.840
Turn the smoke alarm off. Done, there's no the alarm's

780
01:01:28.840 --> 01:01:35.119
gone off. It's being dealt with and that's it. Smell

781
01:01:35.239 --> 01:01:38.840
the toast, thank the alarm, then quiet, turn it off.

782
01:01:41.920 --> 01:01:48.960
Even think of like a security guard with binoculars or

783
01:01:50.000 --> 01:01:54.719
I think sometimes I see this with people that do.

784
01:01:55.280 --> 01:01:59.679
If you live in a certain way, you start to

785
01:01:59.760 --> 01:02:06.199
see things in a certain way, and you know, like

786
01:02:06.239 --> 01:02:10.320
a security guard monoculars he once saw danger now as

787
01:02:10.360 --> 01:02:13.480
he sees it everywhere, you know, but then asked to

788
01:02:13.639 --> 01:02:19.960
train himself to tell a difference between shadows and intruders.

789
01:02:20.280 --> 01:02:23.079
So maybe you know, someone did try and break into

790
01:02:23.119 --> 01:02:27.639
the building he was protecting, he was securing, which is

791
01:02:27.679 --> 01:02:31.519
something that might never happen in someone's thirty year career

792
01:02:31.559 --> 01:02:35.760
as a security guard. Might never happen, might happen once,

793
01:02:36.400 --> 01:02:40.039
unlikely to happen anytime, but if it did happen, it's

794
01:02:40.119 --> 01:02:43.079
very unlikely to happen again. So it's again kind of

795
01:02:43.159 --> 01:02:46.960
trying to get himself to realize that that's one of

796
01:02:47.039 --> 01:02:51.920
those just anomalies and it's probably not going to happen again.

797
01:02:52.880 --> 01:02:56.000
So you can tell a difference as a shadow, you

798
01:02:56.079 --> 01:03:00.519
can just like calm down. I talked yesterday about balloon,

799
01:03:03.800 --> 01:03:06.119
like a blow up thing that was like moving around,

800
01:03:07.280 --> 01:03:14.000
being blown around by the air thing what they call it,

801
01:03:14.639 --> 01:03:18.599
not air conditioning, air conditioning, and it set the alarm off.

802
01:03:20.400 --> 01:03:24.679
And his thing was dressed up as a person, and

803
01:03:24.800 --> 01:03:29.079
it freaked me out, but in the end to realize

804
01:03:29.159 --> 01:03:34.760
it was just a blown up human, it was like

805
01:03:34.960 --> 01:03:43.079
a doll, and it didn't bother me anymore. Still got

806
01:03:43.159 --> 01:03:47.159
in a cupboard, so you've got other things. Thermostat stuck

807
01:03:47.239 --> 01:03:51.960
too high. This happened with my with my neighbor opposite me,

808
01:03:52.599 --> 01:03:57.360
the thermostat broke, so is heating all through the winter.

809
01:03:57.559 --> 01:04:02.599
He had no heating. He didn't tell anyone. He told

810
01:04:02.760 --> 01:04:06.800
me in I say, all through winter. But I found

811
01:04:06.840 --> 01:04:13.360
out probably January, and I got onto the council, got

812
01:04:13.440 --> 01:04:17.639
someone out and they fixed it. It might have been February,

813
01:04:17.719 --> 01:04:19.960
but they fixed it. But he'd gone all the way through,

814
01:04:20.880 --> 01:04:26.320
and it'd been like that for I don't know, maybe

815
01:04:26.360 --> 01:04:30.320
a year, six months. It would come on, but it'd

816
01:04:30.360 --> 01:04:32.519
come on for like an hour in the evening and

817
01:04:32.599 --> 01:04:35.960
then it go off and maybe an hour in the morning.

818
01:04:36.639 --> 01:04:38.679
So it wasn't like an eye spot when it was

819
01:04:38.760 --> 01:04:41.280
an ice box. To be fair, it's really cold in there.

820
01:04:41.519 --> 01:04:44.519
So he did have some hot water. Actually no, he's

821
01:04:44.519 --> 01:04:47.280
had hot water. Didn't affect the hot water, but it

822
01:04:47.360 --> 01:04:50.159
did affect the heating. So the heating at this point

823
01:04:50.239 --> 01:04:52.719
it was coming on just once in the evening for

824
01:04:52.800 --> 01:04:56.440
about an hour between like seven and eight or six

825
01:04:56.559 --> 01:04:59.559
and seven. And the place he had a hat on

826
01:05:00.039 --> 01:05:07.840
loves pair of skis no parachute, but you know, generally

827
01:05:08.159 --> 01:05:11.280
he seemed like he was ready for the outdoors. And

828
01:05:11.400 --> 01:05:13.760
I went in there, like, this is too cold. Turn

829
01:05:13.800 --> 01:05:19.000
the heating on. I can't. It's broken, Finny. If you

830
01:05:19.159 --> 01:05:21.000
keep doing this, I'm going to get your toenails cut

831
01:05:21.039 --> 01:05:28.079
because it keeps scratching on the carpet. So we've got

832
01:05:28.119 --> 01:05:33.039
the firm stat fixed. Now that's fine. It's not stuck anymore.

833
01:05:33.719 --> 01:05:36.639
And sometimes that's something needs to be done like that.

834
01:05:39.599 --> 01:05:44.440
And the last one is an annoying dog, loyal but loud,

835
01:05:46.519 --> 01:05:49.679
and you know, a barking dog. What I do with

836
01:05:49.800 --> 01:05:54.199
him is try and calm him down by just stroking

837
01:05:54.280 --> 01:05:59.559
him and just being calm looking at him. If he

838
01:05:59.599 --> 01:06:02.320
looks at me, I say no, I point my finger

839
01:06:02.480 --> 01:06:08.719
like not at him, but like s and I stroke

840
01:06:08.840 --> 01:06:10.840
him and comfort him and he kind of calms down.

841
01:06:12.880 --> 01:06:18.199
Or sometimes it just ignores me. He just I said,

842
01:06:18.480 --> 01:06:21.719
calm down, and he says, no, you're not my real dad,

843
01:06:21.760 --> 01:06:24.639
and he runs off. But you know, quite often it well,

844
01:06:24.760 --> 01:06:35.199
sometimes it works. I've got some metaphors and metaphors, so

845
01:06:35.360 --> 01:06:40.599
things like is one plaster of calm, each breath adds

846
01:06:40.679 --> 01:06:44.119
another smooth layer. So you imagine every day that goes

847
01:06:44.280 --> 01:06:51.400
past another layer of kind of plaster, invisible plaster, or

848
01:06:51.599 --> 01:06:53.840
you could say a scab, even although it's just a

849
01:06:53.960 --> 01:07:02.400
weird word, covers that area, allowing you to breathe, allowing

850
01:07:02.480 --> 01:07:07.480
you to feel calm, and allowing you to feel more comfort.

851
01:07:12.039 --> 01:07:13.880
I don't think I quite like the idea of is

852
01:07:14.360 --> 01:07:17.920
it really comes from watching the Wizard of Oz. Do

853
01:07:17.960 --> 01:07:22.480
you know the the iron is it? The iron Man,

854
01:07:25.039 --> 01:07:30.719
the iron Man? The wood chopper is the iron Man,

855
01:07:30.840 --> 01:07:35.039
mittleman whatever he you know, when he's stuck and they

856
01:07:35.119 --> 01:07:38.320
put the oil into his joints and he can move again.

857
01:07:39.760 --> 01:07:41.599
I quite like the idea. I do that with my

858
01:07:41.679 --> 01:07:44.920
lower back. I just imagine that it's got some oil,

859
01:07:45.239 --> 01:07:48.519
some lubricant put in there, and it's just made it

860
01:07:48.920 --> 01:07:52.960
move a little bit more smoothly. And I do it

861
01:07:53.079 --> 01:07:56.880
on my right shoulder because I've got ah, I've got

862
01:07:57.000 --> 01:08:00.440
you know, had an injury like chronic shoe with my

863
01:08:01.000 --> 01:08:06.519
right shoulder for about BlimE me fifteen years, no what

864
01:08:06.840 --> 01:08:11.519
nearly twenty years actually, And just imagine, you know, when

865
01:08:11.559 --> 01:08:16.159
it gets a little bit stiff, just imagine it being

866
01:08:16.319 --> 01:08:22.960
oiled like melting butter, just like rubbed over the bones

867
01:08:23.000 --> 01:08:26.560
and in between the joints, and it feels nice, nice

868
01:08:26.600 --> 01:08:37.159
and warm and lubricated like a liquid cushion. There's lots

869
01:08:37.199 --> 01:08:42.279
of different things that you can remember. You can remember

870
01:08:42.359 --> 01:08:48.039
the physical feelings lives. All physical feelings live in a

871
01:08:48.119 --> 01:08:54.920
nervous system, not in muscles or bones. So when your

872
01:08:55.359 --> 01:08:59.520
nervous system and when your body moves towards safety, the

873
01:08:59.640 --> 01:09:06.720
muscle follow, the bones follow. Wherever your mind goes, your

874
01:09:06.800 --> 01:09:11.880
body also follows. So when you focus on feeling relaxed,

875
01:09:13.279 --> 01:09:25.720
your body also becomes more relaxed. I mean, it's just

876
01:09:25.840 --> 01:09:30.960
a standard remembering. This is something I like to do.

877
01:09:31.520 --> 01:09:35.720
It's more for I guess relaxation, but I like to

878
01:09:35.920 --> 01:09:39.159
just sit there and when there's nothing else going on,

879
01:09:39.359 --> 01:09:41.760
I can just focus on my breath. I don't try

880
01:09:41.800 --> 01:09:45.720
and control it. I just notice it. And when I

881
01:09:45.800 --> 01:09:51.000
breathe in, I breathe in comfort. And when I breathe out,

882
01:09:51.680 --> 01:09:56.159
I exhale any tension or stress from my body or

883
01:09:56.239 --> 01:10:03.840
any other physical discomforts, and I breathing comfort, maybe healing

884
01:10:04.520 --> 01:10:06.760
whatever I want it. It could be a color. Sometimes

885
01:10:06.880 --> 01:10:12.800
I healing energy entering into my body. There's things like

886
01:10:13.479 --> 01:10:20.119
going to the toilet. Imagine tension discomfort leaving my body

887
01:10:21.319 --> 01:10:27.560
when I go to the toilet. Sometimes when I'm in bed,

888
01:10:28.000 --> 01:10:31.079
I imagine the bed sending healing energy into my body,

889
01:10:32.199 --> 01:10:34.720
into my back, my lower back, into my whole body.

890
01:10:37.000 --> 01:10:39.640
Just have this image in my head that it's a

891
01:10:39.760 --> 01:10:42.960
healing bed. So when I lay down in it, my

892
01:10:43.039 --> 01:10:49.640
body all almost automatically relaxes, and that healing energy just

893
01:10:49.960 --> 01:10:57.920
moves through my body. Sometimes if it needs next to me,

894
01:10:58.279 --> 01:11:00.760
when I'm on the settee, put my hand on his

895
01:11:00.880 --> 01:11:06.000
back and I imagine that he's healing me, that he's

896
01:11:06.039 --> 01:11:11.760
sending relaxation to me, And sometimes I do it the

897
01:11:11.800 --> 01:11:15.399
other way, so we're sending relaxation and healing to each

898
01:11:15.439 --> 01:11:31.479
other and connecting in that way. So it's about safety,

899
01:11:31.560 --> 01:11:36.880
I guess, feeling safe and realizing that you are safe.

900
01:11:42.680 --> 01:11:47.159
And that is the end of this recording. So thank

901
01:11:47.239 --> 01:11:50.960
you for listening. Remember to be kind to yourself because

902
01:11:51.000 --> 01:11:55.680
you do deserve to be happy and be gentle with yourself.

903
01:11:57.319 --> 01:12:05.800
You deserves to feel safe. Lots enough Bye,