April 24, 2025

(music) Pain Reprocessing Therapy (RPT) | Let me bore your pain away #27 | Jason Newland | 24th April 2025

(music) Pain Reprocessing Therapy (RPT) | Let me bore your pain away #27 | Jason Newland | 24th April 2025
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Hello, Hello, Hello, Hello, Hello, Welcome to Jasonnewland dot com.

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My name's Jason Newland and this is let me bore

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your pain away. Please only listen when you can safety

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close your eyes, and also when you know the cause

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of the chronic pain, and with the permission from your doctor.

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This is not a replacement for any kind of medical

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or therapeutic advice or help, right bird bum. I have

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a Facebook group called Jason Newland's Boring Group. If you'd

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like to join, there's a link on my website. All

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my recordings are on my website so you can sing them,

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download them, as well as being on Apple Podcasts and

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all the other podcast hosts, as well as also being

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on YouTube at Jason Newland. So now YouTube is pretty

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much a podcast for me. I upload all the latest

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recordings I do and you can just stream them stream

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the audio on YouTube. It's just another option. I hope

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you're well. I thought i'd I thought i'd have a look.

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I'm always looking, always looking, I'm always looking for different

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things to talk about in these particular recordings. Technically it's

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not really about talking about my pain relief techniques, but

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that is what I'm interested in, and I would imagine

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if you're listening to this recording, bearing in mind the title,

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you'd also be interested in that as well. So I'm

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just looking through different things that we can talk about,

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always looking at just improve in my education and giving

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me more ideas for future recordings based on scientific research

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as well as my imagination and my incredible creativity. Just

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had some chocolates on I'm like a little kid that's

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just had its first first sip of coke on buzzing. Man, Oh,

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I'm just looking. I'm just I used chat GPT. I

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asked it. This is what I asked it. Please find

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me ten most I didn't do it very grammatically. Ten

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of the most unusual chronic pay re leaf techniques for

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a person or a person pond. So I didn't spell

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that right. Can do themselves to relieve their pain. I

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must be done by the way they think. BlimE me.

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I think it's the Internet that's made me. I'm just

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not great at typing anymore. I do a lot of

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talking writing. I can't even read my own writing anymore,

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and typing is I think the worst thing. It's good

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and it's bad. Chat EPT understands what I'm saying, even

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if I don't give the right words. But it makes

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it a little bit harder because if you do it

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anywhere else, you do it on Google, or if you

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do it on Audible. Looking for a book and I

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put in rain relief instead of pain relief, it's going

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to come up with books about rain. Water ports instead

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of water sports is going to come up. Or if

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I'm putting water ports, I want I want to know

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about ports and I put in water sports. Yeah, anyway,

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you know you've come up with a different thing. I

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don't search for water sports or Audible. I don't. I'm

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not into surfing. I tried to water ski once. It's

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nineteen eighty seven, or is it early nineteen eighty eight?

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Who is it early nineteen eighty eight? Yeah, I think

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it was. My boss took me water skiing in the evening.

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It was dark, so it's in the win It must

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have been, because it wasn't late at night. It was

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about six seven. Took me to this place. I don't

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know if he was trying to harm me. I really

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don't know, but it's just like it was weird and

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he puts me in. I get this water, this life

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jacket thing, and it drags me under the waterhead first.

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It's like, that's not how it's supposed to work, is it?

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You got it on backwards, like got it on upside down?

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Perhaps if you go in the waterhead, you know, feet first,

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rather than the head first. Well perhaps if you didn't

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push me anyway, that wasn't for me. So I just

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got out and was very cold. That's the one and

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only time I ever really got involved in water skiing.

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And I also do not know why I'm talking about

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water skins, So don't worry. That's how these recordings go.

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So you've got PRT pain reprocessing therapy. See, I know

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pretty much all of these things, but I can't necessarily

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always describe them or explain them in a scientific way succinctly.

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So I might take an hour to describe this, which

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is kind of part of what I do. This is

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the boring part, but it's very short and piffy. So

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PRT teaches individuals to reinterpret pain signals as non threatening,

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helping the brain unlearn chronic pain patterns. By reframing pain

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as a false alarm, patients can reduce its intensity. Clinical

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trials have showed significant pain reductions using this approach. So

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I was listening to this book the other day audio audiobook.

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Can you imagine saying that thirty years ago, I was

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listening to this book last night. Oh no, he's do

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well again. No audible I like listen. I listened to books.

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I listened to audiobooks every single day. And this is

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where I show off about something that isn't impressive at all,

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and my voice has gone croaky. It's gone. Really when

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it does this, I have to always do the same thing.

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I was born and one and star. I'd like to

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see how low I can go. Hi, it's better. It's

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better now is it listening time? So let's have a look.

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So today I've already listened to three and nine minutes,

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and it's two o'clock daily. Yesterday I listened to six

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hours and three minutes day before, three hours twenty two minutes,

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two hours, thirty one minutes a day before that, forty

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six minutes, forty five seconds a day before that. So

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that's Friday, the nineteenth. So far this month April eighty

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four hours and twenty three minutes. February I listened to

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one hundred and forty hours and twelve minutes of audio books.

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So yeah, I'm quite an avid listener of audiobooks. I

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would say I like to read, but I also like

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to be read too. And what I will do, because

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reading is different from listening to someone reading it. To me,

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it feels different. I will listen to a book a

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couple of times, maybe three times, so I can kind

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of absorb what I've read. Yeah, anyway, So I was

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listening to this book. It was I'll tell you what

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it was so I can actually quote. I'm not going

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to quote the book because it's not writing, is it.

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But it's called The Pain Habit by Drew. It's called

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The Pain Habit by Drew Coverdale Discover the Truth About

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Your Pain. Okay, So I did do a recording called

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the False Alarm or something, what's it called. I did

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this a few weeks back, and it's talking about the

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same thing as what I've already talked about. You know,

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in my mind, I like to think that it was

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my idea, but I don't take I don't take credit

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for any any ideas because I don't know what I've

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been influenced by. That's the thing. You listen. You read

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enough books, listen to enough lectures on YouTube experts, whether

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it's psychology, whether it's chronic pain, hypnosis, you know, whatever,

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whatever it might be. It's kind of hard to know

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what's mine and what's not mine. And I'm not that bothered. Really,

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I doesn't. I don't need any kind of accolades. I mean,

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I might have come up with something that's original. It's possible.

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I think I present it in an original way. I

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don't think there's anyone else that presents chronic pain relief

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recordings like this. However, I don't think that's necessarily a

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good thing. Okay, it's okay. The one I did is

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a long time ago, so I'm going to look back.

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It'll be in my chronic pain library. So there's two

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hundred and sixty seven episodes, but this goes back years

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and years and years and years and years years. Yeah,

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I'm talking. I don't have any of the years on them,

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but I were talking well over a decade. So I

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saw one that was two thousand and eleven, so in

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Seeds of Pain Relief, that's two thousand and ten, probably

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Free Pain Relief that. Yeah, so we're talking ten fifteen

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years ago some of these. So let's have look, there's

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one did you do? I'm sure with something that's like

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a faulty car, alarm pain relief. Some of the recordings

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I've got back pain, chronic pain, and hypnosis free pain relief,

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Change your pain. Some of the quality of these recordings

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audio wise is awful compared to now. So the free

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pain relief was fifty one minutes. Leave the chronic pain

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in the other body, magic creame cream, magic creame, magic

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cream for pain relief, Focus on your pain for relief,

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give me your pain feet licking dog reduces your pain.

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That was surprisingly quite popular. It's a short one hypnosis

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for chronic leg pain, pain relief, for chronic back pain,

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pain an esthetic splinter, ten minute pain relief, hypnosis Relax

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chronic pain, Relax chronic back pain. So these are a

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little bit longer. I observe the pain or that pain.

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That's thirty one minutes. Pain relief hypnosis for you chronic

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pain is not your master. That's twenty three minutes. So

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hypnosis of chronic foot pain, pain relief, easy and simple,

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wave goodbye to your pain with hypnosis. I think that

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was probably in the WOW. That might have even been

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the late two thousands, like two thousand and nine. Possibly

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Hypnosis for arm pain daily pain relief, lower back pain reduction,

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sowing seeds of pain relief, observe, observe your chronic pain,

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short hypnosis for eye pain, random chat about chronic pain.

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It's like a little seed for what I do now.

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But that's, you know, a long, long time ago, probably fifteen,

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sixteen years ago. Hypnosis for hand pain, waves of pain relief,

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natural pain relief for lower back, that was all. That's

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not that long ago. Fifth of February twenty nineteen, so

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six years ago, well less, yeah, over just over six

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years ago. I normally try and have the dates on these,

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but I los track back pain relief, easy and simple,

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ten minute pain relief, long hypnosis for lower pain that

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was probably. Yeah. Wow, it's a long time ago. Pain

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relief for chronic stomach pain, stop headache, pain with hypnosis. Wow.

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I'm just going to skip through a few of them.

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Change your pain, reduce pain medication with hypnosis, pain relief

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for shoulder pain, finger pain, draw pain, headache pain, jaw pain,

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another one for headache pain, chest pain. There I've done

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some short hypnosis pain relief courses, wave of pain relief.

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Then there's stomach pain, neck pain, eye pain, chronic head pain,

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neck pain, stomach, middle back, headache, and shoulder, daily pain relief.

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Chronic pain is not your master, or here we go.

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Chronic pain is like a dodgy carolon. I'm interested to

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find how long ago I did this recording just out

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of interest, just because I'm interested. That's why chronic pain

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is like a dodgy car alarm. So let's have a

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look at this. I found this on my I wonder

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if it's going to have the original information about when

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it was first recorded according to this nineteenth of May

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twenty eighteen. So this is something that I So it's

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still the same there. Yeah, twenty eighteen is the earliest one,

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because sometimes they change depending. Yeah, so twenty eighteen seven

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nearly seven years ago. So I talked about this long

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before I saw it, only read or heard about it yesterday.

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On this The Pain Habit and this book, I don't

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know unless I've read this book before, or it's possible

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when was it produced? When was it written? The Pain Habits,

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The Pain Habits. Let's have a look. Let's see what

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year it was. Oh, I don't think it says, we

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might say it. I said, a look, when was it?

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When was it? When? When? When twenty twenty. Ah, okay,

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so ooh we copied me. No, obviously not. I might

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have just heard it in the past, so what it is.

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I could have just told you what it is rather

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than go on and blow my own trumpet. But if

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I get a chance to blow me on, I'm going

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to take it. Sorry, no one else is going to

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blow it, so I will blow it for myself. I

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quite liked that idea of the chronic pain is like

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a dodgy car alon because it's it's like oversensitivity, which

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is kind of the point of it. Over sensitivity had

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an example of this downstairs. So in a flat downstairs,

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someone broke into her flat. It's the same flat that

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my friend used to have before he left, so now

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there's a different person got it. Someone broke into it

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about two months ago, I suppose. So what she did

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is got an alarm system so that if anyone tried

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to push a window in or ever, it would set

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it off. Unfortunately, a butterfly just had farting in the

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next road sets it off. So she's had to kind

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of recalibrate the thing because it was going off all

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the time and she's not here, or she wasn't here

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at that time when it was going off. So it

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was like she called me, I think she called me

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once said is my alarm going? I said, I don't know.

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Can you go and check? So I went down, and yeah,

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it sounds like something's going off, but I don't want

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to say much notice of it. It wasn't like really

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loud and loud it downstairs, but I couldn't hear it

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so much up here. Wasn't as loud as the smoke

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alarm that's loud. Oh, by the way, just in case

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you're wondering why I'm just wabbling on about stuff, that's

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what this is. I will talk about specific techniques and

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maybe look at ways of doing it. May be, you know,

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a little bit different because it's going to be looking

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through my eyes instead of someone else's eyes. I imagine we

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all interpret things in our own way, and that'd be

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quite good actually thinking about it, because I found that

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with learning the subject, I've read so many books on

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a subject. Let's say, for example, what counseling. When I

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was beingcoming a counselor, or years before I even studied

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as counseling, so I started getting interested in and reading

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counseling books back in nineteen ninety eight, and then I

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started training as a counselor in nineteen two thousand and seven.

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So yeah, I was like nine years studying counseling just

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as a as a subject because I was interested, and

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I think, you know, things like person centered counseling, there's

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so many different ways, there's so many people's different opinions

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and person centered, client centered, whatever you want to call it.

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And people talking about Carl Rogers and what Car Rodgers

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was like and what Car Rodgers meant by what he

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wrote about, which is useful. It's really useful to have

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different perspectives. So read, you know, lots of different books

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about Car Rogers, but also to read the books that

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Carl Rodgers wrote himself to get more of an idea.

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And you know, I will not I'm not embarrassed to

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say that I don't understand everything I read. I don't.

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Sometimes it takes me a little while to kind of

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figure out what they're talking about or to put it

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into context. Well, sometimes I'm just I just zone out

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and drift away. So I'm looking at the words on

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the page and I'm thinking about the last time I

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got to hold hands with someone, or other things that

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happened twenty five years ago, so and I kind of think, oh,

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and reread it. But then sometimes I'll read a book

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about something that's complicated, and then I read another book

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and it doesn't say much about it doesn't goes in depth,

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but it makes everything I've read previously makes sense. Ah,

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it's like a missing bit then the little missing connection

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from my brain. But then it's I think that's sometimes

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all you need, isn't it? You know? And something's just

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really difficult. BlimE me. I'm talking about blowing trumpet and

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it sounds like someone's literally blowing a trumpet in the distance.

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I mean seriously, like a proper trumpet or a bugle

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or something like that. It's more trumpet, you sound more lower.

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Bugle is a bit high, isn't it? Er trumpets? That

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was my trumpet impression. So I was wondering, Yeah, it's

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I don't even know what my point is. But I

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like to see things with different angles and from different perspectives.

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And I also like to see things from my perspective

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because sometimes I sometimes I don't understand something, sometimes I

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do understand something, and sometimes I understand more things than

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I realized I didn't understand, and sometimes I knew very

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little about something that I was quite positive that I

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did know about. So it's you know, constant learning, relearning changing,

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and also things change anyway, don't they. I mean, I

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remember I used to have I had an injury in

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my shoulder, and it was awful for a long time.

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And a weird thing about it is how ridiculous it was,

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because all it was, you know, it was what two

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thousand and five, sitting at a table. There's a shelf

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to the right of me sticking out with a nice

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sharp edge. Lovely wouldn't I've just moved in there, so

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I'm not really into the whole dynamics where the seats are,

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and you know, to avoid it, I stand up smash

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my shoulder into the corner of this wooden thing, its

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wooden shelf, which is was pretty much shoulder length, shoulder heighth.

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I suppose. I could not believe how much pain was

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in my shoulder. And that was two thousand and five.

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I was getting steroid injections. I had two steroid injections.

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I think the last one was about two thousand and eleven.

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So I went for years with it and just tried

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physiotherapy all kinds of stuff, like it was ridiculous. I mean,

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it was healed, it must have healed, but it was

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causing me a lot of problems there. Oh, the steroid

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injection is magic. Painful to start with, but then it's

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just magic, like within such a short time nothing, so

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it's like, wow, kind of just have kind of just

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have these every time they wear off. No, you're only

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allowed to what you're only allowed to. Okay, now it's weird.

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But what I noticed after a while, I stopped thinking

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about it, and by not thinking about it, I wasn't

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I wasn't worried about it coming back. I wasn't concerned about,

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you know, being having discomfort in my shoulder. It got

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to the point where I'd almost forgotten about it. And

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you know it, eventually, after this first injection, it did

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start to become agitated. But I was doing a lot

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of exercise, so I'm not being Obviously exercise is important,

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but I think I was possibly pushing my shoulder too

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much because I was going to boxing twice a week

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and also exercising in the evenings and on a punch

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bag in the garden, and you know, it's a lot

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of shoulder a lot of shoulder activity, which I hadn't

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really had for quite a while. Actually, yeah, I was

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the first like intense exercise i'd done for probably since

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two thousand and four, so this would be two thousand

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and nine, I think it was, or yeah, two thousand

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and nine, two thousand and eight, two thousand nine, I

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was doing a boxing So I've been about four or

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five years since I've really had any intense activity physical.

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But before that I'd almost forgotten about it. Isn't it weird?

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You know when you forget something just like and then

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you remember because guaranteed you know I've got I got

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our rights on my lower back. And I mentioned that

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it's not like all that I understand chronic pain because

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I have it in my lower back. I'm not saying

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it in that way, although that is part of the

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reason why I told you. It's it's like an ongoing, manageable,

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manageable thing, you know. But there was a time when

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I was expecting it to be uncomfortable. It was all

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that and that, you know, if it's a whole thing

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with psychology and especially with hypnosis, expectation is everything really

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is so important. If someone expects to feel more relaxed.

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If you expect to feel calmer, you expect your mind

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to slow down, you expect your body to relax. It's

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more I found, so it's more likely to happen. And

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the literature says the same thing. It's expectation is powerful,

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what we expect. It's an old joke, isn't It's a

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really old joke, and it's about expectations. It's what was it? Oh? Yeah,

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so this lady she said, oh the late Yeah, ladies.

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She wanted to borrow her friends vibrating machine. It was

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like one of those massage vibrators, quite quite long, and

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it's good you can vibrate. I mean, I think I

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could use it on my lower back, and that's what

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they use it for. My girlfriend used to have one

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of them. She didn't didn't have any chronic pain though

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I don't know anyway, So she was going to go

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to a next door neighbor. Her name was Doris and

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everyone names was pat. Names aren't that relevant, but they

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are a few if you're friends with someone, especially if

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you want to gossip about them. Can't gossip about someone

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if you don't know their name. Oh, anyway, this isn't

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a bad gossiping. So Doris went around to Pat's house.

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She's walking around and this is an old joke. It's

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not my joke, it's an old joke, but it's basically

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about this subject. And she's thinking, I wonder if she'd

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let me borrow her vibrating muscle relaxer machine. I wonder

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if she will, mind you, she didn't. Yeah, she didn't

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return my that lubricant that she borrowed to lubricate the

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wheels on her wheelbarrow. No she didn't, did she? She didn't

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return that to me? So maybe she won't return this

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to me? Mind you, I'm borrowing, I'm borrowing off hers.

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It wouldn't really matter because I'm the one returning. But

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maybe she's I don't know, maybe she's got the aump

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with me, and then she's thing, yeah, but if I

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borrow that was she what? She accuses me of using

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it for something other than just message massaging my muscles

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in my back or my thigh or in my shoulder,

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while she accused me of doing something weird with it,

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like mixing bread better, or you know, sort of making

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pancakes and mixing a better, or sword fighting with with

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my husband or whatever, and you know, because he's he's

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got a message as well for his feet. And she's like, oh,

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I don't like the idea of being accused of stuff

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like that, and she starts thinking more things and what

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she what she says, No, what she says, No, what

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she says. I want to lend it to you. I

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want you to have my my therapeutic muscle relaxing vibrating

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machine because I need it because because her husband's away

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for the weekend, and I don't know why she would

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need it for that. Maybe maybe she gets she needs

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more relaxation and I don't know. And she also has

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occur in straw when he's away. It's weird anyway. I yeah,

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maybe she won't want me to have it, and I

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just feel bad because I've lent her loads of stuff.

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I never asked for that. Remember I learn her that

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egg she came around, she did she needed an egg.

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And that time when she asked she needed some tea bag,

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and I gave her three tea bags. I never asked

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for them back. That toilet roll when I gave her

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some toilet roll, one role, I never I never ever

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got that one back. I didn't want that one back.

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But you know, I never got a replacement back. So

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she's walking out to her friend's a neighbor's door. It's

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all angry now, thinking all these things. A neighbor answer

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the door, and she says, and Doris says to Pat

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who answered door, I'll keep your therapeutic vibrating therapeutic machine

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massager for your muscles and walks off. That was a

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version of one. I think the actually original one is

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about a wheelbarrow or about a lord mower, but I

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thought this would be a bit more memorable. It's weird, though,

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because you know, when you think you're doing a good thing,

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you're doing a nice thing. And I actually got one

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of those. I got one of those massage things for

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my auntie and she was like everyone was laughing because

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she was with us at Christmas, Like everyone was laughing,

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like it's a nice present. It's like just because I'm

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into sort of healing and alternative therapies and things like that.

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Everyone else is like, ha ha ha, look what you've got, Auntie,

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ha ha ha. And she seemed embarrassed. I said look,

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and she said, well, I can't believe you bought that,

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and I can't believe you gave that to me in

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front of everyone. I said, well, i'll take you back

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of you that one it. She said, no, no, that's okay,

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I'll keep it so good. Well, perhaps I can. I

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can use it with you. I can help you use it,

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and she ran off. I haven't seen her since. I mean,

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I was just like, you're trying to help someone out.

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Because I knew that she had some problems with her back.

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I thought if I could get some of those knots

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out of her back. Because at the time, I was

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studying message and they did use some machines for the message,

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and it's a little bit more advanced now though some

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of the stuff I see on YouTube is the rule

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it leaves their back red. But you know, because I did,

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I used to practice message on quite a few civilians

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as well. It's like my other people was at college

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with this is two thousand and three and one bloke.

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I did it with both him and his girlfriend separately,

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and he was a bodybuilder, so he's huge. His back

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was massive, and nothing I did. I mean, that's why

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I probably wouldn't need needed some kind of vibrating therapeutic

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muscle long muscle thing to get into those crevices because

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nothing I did really, I mean, he said he liked it,

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but he was saying harder stick it in me, and

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like what he said, no, just harder put usher elbow.

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He said, Okay, if you're going to put it there,

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that's fine. Like nothing I did was enough. Honestly, I

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think I could have walked up and down his back

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and it still wouldn't have been enough, which is weird

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when you consider how heavy I am. But there you go.

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I didn't try, and well I didn't try and walk

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up and down his back. That's something that would be weird,

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although I did have someone do that to me once

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I had. It's kind of like a first date went

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really well. I watched boxing and she watched it with

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me here, and then we went to bed, so I

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was like, wow, this is the best day ever. And

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then in the morning, or like probably late morning, I

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was having to lay down getting some sleep, getting a

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bit of rest, and she started walking up and down

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my back. I've said, what do you do? I was

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just trying to relax. You. I said, a cup of

465
00:38:54.039 --> 00:38:56.960
tea and some biscuits would have been enough, and I

466
00:38:57.159 --> 00:38:59.480
need to walk up and down my back very strange.

467
00:39:00.960 --> 00:39:11.440
It's weird because they're not standing up dance Anne seeding clinicals.

468
00:39:11.559 --> 00:39:19.519
Try it okay, So this idea of the false alarm,

469
00:39:19.760 --> 00:39:22.760
I liked that idea. I'm just I'd totally forgotten about

470
00:39:22.800 --> 00:39:27.079
my neighbor downstairs. Thing also had a there was a

471
00:39:27.159 --> 00:39:30.679
car over in the garage or the parking bit over

472
00:39:30.719 --> 00:39:39.599
the back constantly going off just the slightest bit of wind.

473
00:39:39.440 --> 00:39:52.000
Do do do like? Really? So isn't it weird? Because

474
00:39:52.039 --> 00:39:55.960
I can't like that whether you put a leaf, dropped

475
00:39:55.960 --> 00:40:00.880
a leaf on its bonnet or you hit the back

476
00:40:00.880 --> 00:40:04.559
window with a baseball bat, same sound. Do do do

477
00:40:04.559 --> 00:40:08.079
do do do do do do do do? It's crazy,

478
00:40:10.000 --> 00:40:14.079
But they got it sorted anyway in the end. So

479
00:40:14.159 --> 00:40:20.840
you've got other things so reinterpreting, realizing, and I mean

480
00:40:20.840 --> 00:40:32.519
I talked about this before. I very much class what

481
00:40:32.639 --> 00:40:40.119
a technique, a a thing, a thought, pattern of thinking,

482
00:40:40.159 --> 00:40:44.920
and exercise whatever you want to call it. To reduce

483
00:40:45.440 --> 00:40:53.840
physical discomfort can also reduce stress and anxiety because they

484
00:40:53.880 --> 00:41:00.320
both are connected. Like you know, when someone when you

485
00:41:00.360 --> 00:41:04.440
become relaxed, When you feel more relaxed, you feel more comfort.

486
00:41:05.559 --> 00:41:08.320
It's just one of those things it's not an opinion,

487
00:41:08.360 --> 00:41:12.360
it's just a fact. You feel more relaxed, you feel

488
00:41:12.360 --> 00:41:15.199
more comfortable, And because you feel the more comfortable, you

489
00:41:15.239 --> 00:41:19.679
feel the more relaxed. And it's like your body relaxes,

490
00:41:19.960 --> 00:41:24.639
your mind slowed down, and because your mind slowed down,

491
00:41:24.960 --> 00:41:32.360
your body relaxes. It's like a continuous wave of comfort.

492
00:41:35.079 --> 00:41:42.159
And I had this weird event when I was going

493
00:41:42.199 --> 00:41:48.079
through a lot of anxiety back in two thousand and two, three, four, five, six, whatever.

494
00:41:48.599 --> 00:41:52.880
But two thousand and four this happened, and I was

495
00:41:53.199 --> 00:41:58.159
so oversensitive to my body. I mean, every single feeling

496
00:41:58.800 --> 00:42:04.039
could trigger me to what's that? Was that? And my alarm,

497
00:42:04.159 --> 00:42:09.000
my basically my phone and off. But it vibrated. Yeah,

498
00:42:09.119 --> 00:42:13.880
a lot of vibration in this this recording, isn't it.

499
00:42:14.000 --> 00:42:19.519
So I removed it from my pocket, so I had

500
00:42:19.800 --> 00:42:22.519
it was on vibrating, not ring. But at the start

501
00:42:22.559 --> 00:42:24.800
with I didn't know. I just thought, Oh, got this

502
00:42:25.000 --> 00:42:29.559
weird feeling in my bum what's going on? And I

503
00:42:29.639 --> 00:42:34.199
went into panic attack, like really full on instantly, and

504
00:42:34.239 --> 00:42:37.159
I realized it was my phone. So I took my

505
00:42:37.199 --> 00:42:47.480
phone out and straight away I felt calm. He was

506
00:42:47.480 --> 00:42:49.599
in my back pocket by the way just in case. Yeah,

507
00:42:50.079 --> 00:42:57.559
he had a weird visual. I felt calm straight away,

508
00:42:59.360 --> 00:43:04.360
and that was because it made me realize that that's

509
00:43:04.400 --> 00:43:07.559
where the false alarm kind of comes in, because I've

510
00:43:07.639 --> 00:43:16.360
experienced it in a big way. Another one is it's

511
00:43:16.400 --> 00:43:21.800
not my story, but there was a man. I've heard

512
00:43:21.880 --> 00:43:26.159
different I've heard different versions of this story, lots of

513
00:43:26.199 --> 00:43:29.400
different versions. But one version is this. He was on

514
00:43:29.440 --> 00:43:35.719
a building site a long time ago, well maybe I

515
00:43:35.760 --> 00:43:40.119
don't know how long ago, and he had his boots on,

516
00:43:40.360 --> 00:43:42.960
you know, all the stuff that builders have, and he

517
00:43:43.159 --> 00:43:50.159
stepped on a big now really sharp long now went

518
00:43:50.320 --> 00:43:55.840
through his boot from the bottom all the way up

519
00:43:55.880 --> 00:44:05.000
to the top. He's screaming, screaming in agony. They have

520
00:44:05.079 --> 00:44:09.119
to cut so paramedics accord because he's stuck. He's stuck

521
00:44:09.199 --> 00:44:12.960
to this board. So they have to remove the board,

522
00:44:13.679 --> 00:44:15.599
cut parts of the board off so they can take

523
00:44:15.679 --> 00:44:20.880
him into hospital. And they have to cut the boot off.

524
00:44:24.000 --> 00:44:30.280
And they've given him medication. Nothing's helping. He's for you

525
00:44:30.320 --> 00:44:34.199
can imagine, it's like so much, so much pain, and none,

526
00:44:34.599 --> 00:44:38.320
none of the medication is taking the edge off of it. Screaming,

527
00:44:38.519 --> 00:44:43.880
screaming the place down. I mean, there's even there are

528
00:44:43.920 --> 00:44:47.559
other parts of the hospital where women giving birth we showering.

529
00:44:47.679 --> 00:44:52.320
Shut up, shut this is our moment. We want to scream,

530
00:44:52.400 --> 00:44:55.280
not you what you're screaming for, which is a little

531
00:44:55.280 --> 00:44:57.440
bit rude. I mean, I think there's enough room for

532
00:44:57.480 --> 00:45:04.320
everyone to scream. And so they had to remove the

533
00:45:04.480 --> 00:45:06.559
shoe because of the way and now was in it.

534
00:45:07.920 --> 00:45:11.480
They had to remove the boot. I cut the boot

535
00:45:11.519 --> 00:45:16.599
off and then hards It's like really quite difficult to

536
00:45:16.599 --> 00:45:18.079
do it. I don't know if they've got the fire

537
00:45:18.159 --> 00:45:23.440
service to help do that or whatever. When they managed

538
00:45:23.480 --> 00:45:26.320
to get the shoe off and say, the foot off.

539
00:45:26.320 --> 00:45:28.000
When they managed to get the shoe off the foot,

540
00:45:28.519 --> 00:45:30.480
it turned out the nill has just gone between the toes,

541
00:45:32.079 --> 00:45:37.159
no injury at all. Nothing had gone between the big

542
00:45:37.199 --> 00:45:41.400
toe and the first toe and kind of bent so

543
00:45:41.480 --> 00:45:47.440
it looked like it had gone through the foot instantly,

544
00:45:48.320 --> 00:45:54.239
no pain goneh because there was no injury. It was

545
00:45:54.239 --> 00:45:59.519
a danger signal was sent to his brain and he

546
00:45:59.559 --> 00:46:03.199
looked at it it and he backed the signal up, said, Yep,

547
00:46:03.239 --> 00:46:05.960
it's definitely a danger signal because I can see it.

548
00:46:09.239 --> 00:46:13.119
But as soon as the foot is taking the shoes

549
00:46:13.159 --> 00:46:16.400
taken off other the boot and he's sword that there's

550
00:46:16.440 --> 00:46:30.000
no injury, not even a scratch gone completely gone. So

551
00:46:30.199 --> 00:46:33.880
it shows that I think in a way the pain

552
00:46:34.000 --> 00:46:38.719
reprocessing therapy which I could, I might go in a

553
00:46:38.760 --> 00:46:41.960
little bit more into this, just have a look, tell

554
00:46:42.280 --> 00:46:58.320
me more about one with some exercises can do. So

555
00:46:58.360 --> 00:47:01.079
I'm just going to just tell me more about one

556
00:47:01.280 --> 00:47:04.320
with some excersies as my listeners can do, because I

557
00:47:04.320 --> 00:47:05.920
do know about this a little bit, but I'm not

558
00:47:06.079 --> 00:47:12.639
I know expet on anything. So Pain reprocessing therapy RPT

559
00:47:13.039 --> 00:47:19.760
is an innoative, innovative, evidence based approach that helps individuals

560
00:47:20.480 --> 00:47:23.760
retrain their brains to interpret pain signals as non threatening,

561
00:47:24.280 --> 00:47:30.639
thereby reducing or eliminating chronic pain. Central to PRT is

562
00:47:30.679 --> 00:47:34.039
the concept that chronic pain often results from the brain

563
00:47:34.280 --> 00:47:40.519
misinterpreting safe signals from the body as dangerous. So by

564
00:47:40.599 --> 00:47:44.039
altering these perceptions, PRT aims to break the cycle of

565
00:47:44.119 --> 00:47:49.639
chronic pain. A key technique of MPRT is semitic tracking.

566
00:47:50.119 --> 00:47:54.599
So I have done a recording on semitic tracking. I've

567
00:47:54.639 --> 00:47:58.280
done a lot of these recordings over the years, so

568
00:47:58.400 --> 00:48:05.039
I look whereas it semitic somatic somitic. Yes, it is

569
00:48:05.800 --> 00:48:10.679
Stress and Pain Relief Number thirty eight thirty eight minutes

570
00:48:11.239 --> 00:48:20.800
and twenty eight seconds long. Semitic Tracking exercise. Ah, when

571
00:48:20.800 --> 00:48:25.880
did I do that? Then? Anyone? Anyone know? I don't know.

572
00:48:27.400 --> 00:48:31.239
I want to find out though, When did I do

573
00:48:31.400 --> 00:48:37.519
the track in Semitic Tracking exercise Semitic Tracking Exercise SUTH

574
00:48:37.639 --> 00:48:46.920
Look and Properties nineteenth of August twenty twenty two. According

575
00:48:46.960 --> 00:48:50.880
to no, I've actually got the exact date because I've

576
00:48:50.880 --> 00:48:52.880
got the date next to it, twenty fourth of September

577
00:48:52.920 --> 00:48:59.440
twenty twenty one, twenty one. So that's that four years ago.

578
00:48:59.519 --> 00:49:03.840
Nearly BlimE me. So yeah, so I did that. I

579
00:49:03.920 --> 00:49:06.960
couldn't tell you what's on it with about semitic tracking,

580
00:49:07.079 --> 00:49:13.800
but it's an exercise. It's basically just tracking how you feel,

581
00:49:14.079 --> 00:49:19.320
noticing how you feel, and like a lot of things

582
00:49:19.360 --> 00:49:26.639
like the acceptance therapy, like actually accepting how you feel.

583
00:49:28.360 --> 00:49:30.800
A lot in our meditation can be like that as well,

584
00:49:31.360 --> 00:49:36.760
mindfulness accepting how you feel, but not trying to push

585
00:49:36.800 --> 00:49:41.679
it away, not trying to hold onto it, just letting

586
00:49:41.719 --> 00:49:47.559
it be, letting it flow. And there's a lot to

587
00:49:47.599 --> 00:49:51.199
be said for you know, lots of different ways. I mean,

588
00:49:51.280 --> 00:49:56.480
Semitic tracking could be called lots of different things, but

589
00:49:56.559 --> 00:49:59.679
in this case it's called this one's called guided semitic

590
00:49:59.719 --> 00:50:07.639
tracking exercise. So get yourself comfortable, focus on the sensation.

591
00:50:09.519 --> 00:50:13.639
So the place where you were, I mean to be fair,

592
00:50:13.760 --> 00:50:17.480
after listening to me boggling on about blah blah blah

593
00:50:17.519 --> 00:50:23.679
blah blah for the last seventeen hours, maybe you've just

594
00:50:25.559 --> 00:50:28.639
let go a little bit and and you might have

595
00:50:28.719 --> 00:50:33.400
even fallen asleep. That is possible. I don't understand it

596
00:50:33.440 --> 00:50:38.639
because I think I'm particularly very exciting and invigorating speaker,

597
00:50:38.760 --> 00:50:44.480
but not everybody seems to agree. So then what you

598
00:50:44.519 --> 00:50:47.079
do is you describe what the sensations are like. Is

599
00:50:47.119 --> 00:50:51.360
it sharp, doll robin? Is it constant or does it fluctuate?

600
00:50:51.480 --> 00:50:55.480
Does it have a shape, size or color? And then

601
00:50:55.519 --> 00:51:02.440
what you do is you remind yourself that's according to PRT,

602
00:51:03.280 --> 00:51:08.599
which is what is it called again PRT PRT Pain

603
00:51:08.679 --> 00:51:17.280
reprocessing therapy. It's according to PRT, this physical sensation is

604
00:51:17.320 --> 00:51:23.559
a result of the brain's misinterpretation, and you can internally

605
00:51:23.599 --> 00:51:29.800
affirm that the sensation is not harmful. Look, it's chronic pain.

606
00:51:30.880 --> 00:51:33.960
It's not necessary you don't need it. Acute pain is

607
00:51:33.960 --> 00:51:39.679
a different thing, but me having the arthrights in my

608
00:51:39.719 --> 00:51:44.639
lower back, it's not necessary to have it be bad

609
00:51:44.760 --> 00:51:49.639
or anything. Just get a few twinges. But I don't,

610
00:51:51.679 --> 00:51:54.360
you know, in the past it's been pretty awful. A

611
00:51:54.400 --> 00:51:59.280
few years ago, it's really really pretty awful. But now

612
00:52:00.039 --> 00:52:02.880
as I gave it a bit of my attention, maybe

613
00:52:02.960 --> 00:52:05.679
gave it less of my attention in some ways as well,

614
00:52:07.719 --> 00:52:12.159
and realizing the sensation is not harmful. I think it

615
00:52:12.199 --> 00:52:15.400
also helped to have the diagnosis as well, knowing that

616
00:52:16.800 --> 00:52:21.639
it's just the arthritis. You know, I'm not the only

617
00:52:22.079 --> 00:52:24.679
person in their fifties with a bit of arthritis. There's

618
00:52:24.760 --> 00:52:30.320
quite a few of us. Also remembering that your body

619
00:52:30.400 --> 00:52:37.599
is safe and it's just a misfire and a signals.

620
00:52:40.199 --> 00:52:43.159
But you don't need to be reminded of something every

621
00:52:43.199 --> 00:52:47.679
two minutes, you know. I don't need to be reminded

622
00:52:47.719 --> 00:52:51.000
that I've got arthritis and my lower back. Why do

623
00:52:51.039 --> 00:52:55.199
I need to be reminded. I know it's there. I

624
00:52:55.239 --> 00:52:58.360
don't need, you know. It reminds me a little bit

625
00:52:58.400 --> 00:53:02.760
when I was on the way to Bulgaria. Yeah, my

626
00:53:03.320 --> 00:53:09.159
one of my traveling companions thought it was hilarious to

627
00:53:09.199 --> 00:53:12.440
wake me up every time I fell asleep on the plane,

628
00:53:12.440 --> 00:53:14.039
to wake me up and tell me that we weren't

629
00:53:14.079 --> 00:53:19.639
there yet. So I got my own back when we

630
00:53:19.679 --> 00:53:24.360
got to the well. It was this skiing holiday, so

631
00:53:24.360 --> 00:53:26.719
I was to push him down the mountain and he

632
00:53:26.760 --> 00:53:29.800
got eaten by beers, so I think it was fair.

633
00:53:31.760 --> 00:53:37.360
He didn't BlimE me, just scratched a bit. He managed

634
00:53:37.400 --> 00:53:43.719
to get help introduce positive imagery. Visualize the pain sensation

635
00:53:43.840 --> 00:53:50.119
as something benign or even pleasant. For instance, imagine it

636
00:53:50.320 --> 00:53:58.599
as a warm, glowing light or a gentle wave. That

637
00:53:58.719 --> 00:54:02.199
this can help reduce the threat perception associated with that

638
00:54:02.239 --> 00:54:07.840
physical sensation, because it's very difficult to be I'd say

639
00:54:07.840 --> 00:54:12.079
almost impossible to be positive and negative at the same

640
00:54:12.159 --> 00:54:18.280
time about the same thing either. And that's where I

641
00:54:18.320 --> 00:54:22.639
suppose black and white thinking it's kind of useful. I

642
00:54:22.679 --> 00:54:24.440
don't know why my voice went up so high when

643
00:54:24.480 --> 00:54:31.199
I said that it's kinde of useful. It is. It's

644
00:54:31.199 --> 00:54:36.639
either relaxed or it's not relaxed. It's either safe or

645
00:54:36.679 --> 00:54:40.039
it's not safe. It could be neutral, but then if

646
00:54:40.079 --> 00:54:45.079
it's neutral, it's not a physical issue, like it's not

647
00:54:45.440 --> 00:54:49.440
causing you problems. It's not going to be discomfort because

648
00:54:49.519 --> 00:54:53.519
if it's neutral, you're going to feel okay. If you

649
00:54:53.559 --> 00:54:57.159
feel fine, you're going to feel okay. If you feel relaxed,

650
00:54:57.199 --> 00:55:01.239
you're going to feel okay. Even if you're wondering to yourself,

651
00:55:01.360 --> 00:55:04.320
what am I doing listen to this weird man from England?

652
00:55:04.880 --> 00:55:08.599
You're going to be okay, you know at the end

653
00:55:08.599 --> 00:55:11.719
of this record, and you might think, like, okay, so

654
00:55:11.760 --> 00:55:17.599
fair enough to physical sensation has reduced. I don't know

655
00:55:17.639 --> 00:55:22.920
why that is. It's nice, it's nice that it's reduced

656
00:55:23.760 --> 00:55:25.880
a little bit unsure why that is. It doesn't make

657
00:55:25.920 --> 00:55:34.360
sense considering what I've just listened to. I'm never going

658
00:55:34.400 --> 00:55:36.719
to get that time back. I've listened to that man

659
00:55:37.280 --> 00:55:40.840
for seventy three hours now, I don't know how long

660
00:55:40.840 --> 00:55:49.480
the recording's gone on for. And some may argue, some

661
00:55:49.679 --> 00:55:58.199
may say that I don't always make sense. I would

662
00:56:00.880 --> 00:56:05.719
half disagree half disagree with you on that, but I

663
00:56:05.719 --> 00:56:15.320
don't know. It's it's about changing your perception, changing how

664
00:56:15.360 --> 00:56:18.320
you feel, and there's lots of different ways to change

665
00:56:18.360 --> 00:56:21.920
how you feel. You can change how you feel just

666
00:56:21.920 --> 00:56:26.679
by moving your body, just by looking at something different.

667
00:56:27.800 --> 00:56:31.480
By remembering a joke, by thinking of someone that you

668
00:56:31.599 --> 00:56:39.559
care about. There's so many different things. Changing your physiology

669
00:56:40.559 --> 00:56:47.800
is easy. It's instant, and you can change how you

670
00:56:47.880 --> 00:56:53.000
think about something. And sometimes the idea of you know,

671
00:56:53.079 --> 00:56:59.159
like I said, the culty, the faulty car alarm, the

672
00:56:59.199 --> 00:57:11.360
misinterpret in signals. Even if it doesn't resonate straight away,

673
00:57:12.119 --> 00:57:16.039
it might be one of those slow burners. But you

674
00:57:16.079 --> 00:57:19.280
start to think about it a bit more and you realize,

675
00:57:19.840 --> 00:57:33.239
ah m, I mean there's there's a this is weird,

676
00:57:33.639 --> 00:57:39.159
there's actually a thing in So I do study pain science,

677
00:57:39.280 --> 00:57:43.559
like chronic pain science in a sense of listening to lectures,

678
00:57:43.599 --> 00:57:47.880
reading books. I'm not a qualified and I'm not an

679
00:57:47.880 --> 00:57:54.199
expert on anything apart from growing toenails a bit too long.

680
00:57:54.800 --> 00:57:59.000
I'm pretty good at that. I need to cut them.

681
00:57:59.599 --> 00:58:01.800
I even need to cut my show, and that show

682
00:58:01.880 --> 00:58:05.719
nows if you need to cut my toenails or get

683
00:58:05.800 --> 00:58:09.480
larger shoes. One of them on the other be walking

684
00:58:09.519 --> 00:58:16.679
around in clown shoes soon. So I was thinking, as

685
00:58:16.679 --> 00:58:18.679
I try and remember what I was talking about before

686
00:58:18.679 --> 00:58:25.599
I decided to talk about toenails for some reason. Yeah,

687
00:58:25.760 --> 00:58:38.199
So people that sometimes get a back x ray and

688
00:58:38.320 --> 00:58:44.079
find out that there there's back issues. Quite often ended

689
00:58:44.159 --> 00:58:52.800
up with more physical pain than they had before. And

690
00:58:52.920 --> 00:58:56.039
sometimes I had no physical pain before. Maybe the back

691
00:58:56.199 --> 00:58:59.880
X ray was due to slouch in or do to

692
00:59:00.000 --> 00:59:07.679
do something else, some other reason. Maybe they were just

693
00:59:07.719 --> 00:59:10.320
getting their lower back looked at, and then it's noticed, well,

694
00:59:10.320 --> 00:59:16.559
your upper back is whatever, you know. And there was

695
00:59:16.599 --> 00:59:20.119
studies done years ago where they did thousands of back

696
00:59:20.239 --> 00:59:22.519
X rays. They looked at back X rays on people,

697
00:59:23.559 --> 00:59:29.760
and they realized that everybody has wear and telling their back.

698
00:59:31.320 --> 00:59:36.480
It's natural, even age twenty. So I'm like thirty three

699
00:59:36.519 --> 00:59:39.159
percent of the population of in the eighteen their twenties

700
00:59:39.440 --> 00:59:46.719
will have back back injuries or back wearage, let's say,

701
00:59:47.800 --> 00:59:52.280
but be fine, be absolutely fine, And it increases as

702
00:59:52.280 --> 00:59:54.639
you get older, but it's still the person will still

703
00:59:54.639 --> 00:59:57.639
be absolutely fine. By the way, that statistic might not

704
00:59:57.679 --> 01:00:00.440
be right, it might be five percent, but I'm just

705
01:00:00.480 --> 01:00:08.599
saying as an example, but they're absolutely fine. And they

706
01:00:08.599 --> 01:00:10.519
did a study where they did, like they just basically

707
01:00:10.800 --> 01:00:12.840
looked at all these different X rays of people's backs

708
01:00:15.199 --> 01:00:17.159
and they looked at what the wear and tear was

709
01:00:17.199 --> 01:00:20.039
and what the you know, the state of their back is,

710
01:00:20.320 --> 01:00:25.360
you know, with the spine and stuff, And there was

711
01:00:25.400 --> 01:00:30.880
more people with spinal injury that had no pain than

712
01:00:30.960 --> 01:00:36.519
had pain. And there was a lot of people that

713
01:00:36.679 --> 01:00:40.599
had no no physical injury in their back at all,

714
01:00:42.519 --> 01:00:46.719
that had problems with their back, but there was no

715
01:00:46.760 --> 01:00:54.360
physical injury, no physical problems at all. So it's one

716
01:00:54.360 --> 01:00:58.800
of those things, isn't it. It's like it's not saying

717
01:00:59.119 --> 01:01:02.079
it's all in your brea. I mean, technically it is.

718
01:01:02.679 --> 01:01:04.199
It's not all in your mind, but it is all

719
01:01:04.199 --> 01:01:07.719
in your brain because that's where all the feelings, all

720
01:01:07.719 --> 01:01:12.119
the sensations come from, even though ironically there are no

721
01:01:13.840 --> 01:01:20.559
sensations in the brain itself. Did you know that? That

722
01:01:20.599 --> 01:01:22.760
blows my mind? Every time I think about it, it just

723
01:01:22.800 --> 01:01:25.400
blows my mind. It's one of those things that just

724
01:01:25.480 --> 01:01:32.039
doesn't make sense. So the brain is responsible for physical sensations, pleasure,

725
01:01:32.559 --> 01:01:37.280
when you feel, touch everything, any kind of physical sensation

726
01:01:38.039 --> 01:01:48.199
is produced by the brain. That surgeons, neurosurgeons can open brain.

727
01:01:48.280 --> 01:01:53.920
Surgeons can you know, open up their head look inside

728
01:01:54.039 --> 01:01:56.840
and they can play around the brain while the person's awake,

729
01:01:57.639 --> 01:02:05.519
and they have no they can't feel it. There's no

730
01:02:05.679 --> 01:02:12.880
physical sensors inside the brain. They have a local anesthetic

731
01:02:12.920 --> 01:02:15.880
for the for the top of the head before they

732
01:02:15.920 --> 01:02:19.199
unscrew it. I don't know if there's some kind of

733
01:02:19.280 --> 01:02:23.840
safety safety valve or whatever, I don't know. But there's

734
01:02:23.880 --> 01:02:28.960
no physical sensations inside the brain. Yet the brain is

735
01:02:29.000 --> 01:02:33.480
responsible for physical feelings. What it's responsible for everything, isn't it?

736
01:02:34.480 --> 01:02:39.360
Everything we feel, everything we do, every automatic function in

737
01:02:39.400 --> 01:02:44.880
the body is all controlled by the brain. Amazing stuff,

738
01:02:44.920 --> 01:02:49.840
really absolutely amazing. So the next thing you do is

739
01:02:52.079 --> 01:02:56.920
I mean, you say, this sensation it's not harmful. I mean,

740
01:02:56.920 --> 01:02:59.960
you can ask yourself to start with it. Is it harmful?

741
01:03:00.679 --> 01:03:03.639
Just ask yourself the question. So I say, is the

742
01:03:04.119 --> 01:03:07.559
lower back stuff in my lower back? Is it harmful?

743
01:03:10.880 --> 01:03:13.079
Is what's going on my lower back harmful? It's not.

744
01:03:15.199 --> 01:03:19.599
So I don't need to be reminded. I mean, I

745
01:03:19.679 --> 01:03:21.400
know it sounds weird, but it's no one breaking into

746
01:03:21.480 --> 01:03:24.360
my back. There's not you know, it's not like like

747
01:03:24.400 --> 01:03:28.719
if it was a car or a flat downstairs, there's

748
01:03:28.760 --> 01:03:32.400
no one breaking in the alarm's gone off because a

749
01:03:32.440 --> 01:03:39.119
caterpillar blue on it, blue on the building or whatever.

750
01:03:39.239 --> 01:03:45.239
You know. It's just that's it. I was going to say,

751
01:03:45.320 --> 01:03:52.199
caterpillar clapped his hands, but can cap They've got a

752
01:03:52.239 --> 01:03:55.519
lot of hands, isn't they capillars? So that potentially could

753
01:03:55.639 --> 01:03:58.519
just set off a car alarm or an alarm in

754
01:03:58.519 --> 01:04:03.920
the building. Maybe it reminds me when I was a

755
01:04:03.960 --> 01:04:10.480
security guard nineteen ninety seven. This was and this is

756
01:04:10.519 --> 01:04:14.199
long before I had any kind of anxiety issues, and

757
01:04:16.159 --> 01:04:17.679
I didn't know what it was back then. But yes,

758
01:04:17.679 --> 01:04:21.760
it's a long time before that really. And I was

759
01:04:21.800 --> 01:04:26.119
there all night. I'm talking about danger signals, right, Okay,

760
01:04:26.840 --> 01:04:28.679
I was there all night on my own. And it

761
01:04:28.760 --> 01:04:32.000
was a printing firm, but not they didn't do the printing,

762
01:04:32.079 --> 01:04:36.320
but they it was where all edited the magazines. And

763
01:04:36.800 --> 01:04:40.719
it was basically a publishers so they did the printing.

764
01:04:41.039 --> 01:04:45.519
The company was something printers, but you know, it's where

765
01:04:45.559 --> 01:04:51.119
they edited. They did was it Kerrang and some other

766
01:04:51.760 --> 01:04:59.000
like magazines and stuff. So there's probably three maybe four

767
01:04:59.119 --> 01:05:02.119
stories in that building. There was a basement as well,

768
01:05:02.639 --> 01:05:05.679
maybe three stories in a basement. So I was on

769
01:05:05.719 --> 01:05:12.800
my own. I'd start working about three point thirty till

770
01:05:12.920 --> 01:05:16.400
or three till about seven or four till about seven

771
01:05:16.440 --> 01:05:18.719
the next day, so four in the afternoon until seven

772
01:05:18.719 --> 01:05:22.239
the next morning, or eight the next morning, whatever, it's

773
01:05:22.320 --> 01:05:29.639
quite long hours. Everyone would generally be gone by about

774
01:05:29.679 --> 01:05:32.039
eight or nine in the evening. I mean most of

775
01:05:32.039 --> 01:05:34.559
the stuff would be gone by six, but some of

776
01:05:34.639 --> 01:05:37.159
the I don't know. I guess they had freelances and

777
01:05:38.000 --> 01:05:40.480
you know, they'd got deadlines to hit, so they'd be

778
01:05:40.519 --> 01:05:44.760
around till maybe eight or nine. But by ten gone,

779
01:05:44.800 --> 01:05:50.679
everyone's gone and no one came back to about six.

780
01:05:51.199 --> 01:05:55.480
That's when the cleaners came to do their job. Now

781
01:05:55.519 --> 01:05:58.719
they accused me of blocking on it. This is true.

782
01:05:58.760 --> 01:06:00.440
It's not really relevant to the store, or if I'm

783
01:06:00.440 --> 01:06:03.239
still annoyed about it. They accused me of blocking one

784
01:06:03.239 --> 01:06:09.840
of the toilets. Seriously, it was not me. It wasn't me.

785
01:06:10.440 --> 01:06:14.400
It wasn't I mean, I actually got sacked for that.

786
01:06:17.480 --> 01:06:24.199
It wasn't me. So they they must have gone in

787
01:06:25.800 --> 01:06:32.079
because it flooded. See, that's what happened. So they sometimes

788
01:06:32.320 --> 01:06:34.679
the staff they didn't always get around to do in

789
01:06:34.679 --> 01:06:37.960
the bathroom, but the toilet downstairs. They'd start at the

790
01:06:37.960 --> 01:06:41.000
top of the building, so in the meantime staff would

791
01:06:41.000 --> 01:06:44.119
be coming in. They'd be working from six to eight

792
01:06:44.840 --> 01:06:48.679
doing the cleaning. So they probably came down about half seven,

793
01:06:50.280 --> 01:06:58.599
maybe eight whatever, to do the toilet downstairs. Now it

794
01:06:58.639 --> 01:07:04.199
was flooded, but other people, members of staff, were coming

795
01:07:04.280 --> 01:07:07.400
up from downstairs using a toilet. I didn't taken notice

796
01:07:07.440 --> 01:07:10.599
of them. I was busy because the front door was open,

797
01:07:10.719 --> 01:07:12.440
so I had to keep a nigh on the door,

798
01:07:12.480 --> 01:07:18.960
and I didn't leave the desk From six onwards. I

799
01:07:19.000 --> 01:07:21.719
went to sleep through the night, of course if I could.

800
01:07:24.960 --> 01:07:28.039
And so someone must have done and he chucked a big,

801
01:07:28.119 --> 01:07:31.639
huge log down the toilet, and I got the blame

802
01:07:31.880 --> 01:07:34.679
or that maybe they stuck my name, put a label

803
01:07:34.679 --> 01:07:38.199
with my name on it or something. We're on the wall.

804
01:07:38.360 --> 01:07:44.239
Jason was here, he did this. The security guard did this,

805
01:07:44.480 --> 01:07:51.960
I don't know, put my phone number, call me no weird.

806
01:07:52.800 --> 01:07:57.599
So I was there one night on my own, as

807
01:07:57.639 --> 01:08:03.480
I always was. Really, the whole place was completely alarmed up.

808
01:08:05.719 --> 01:08:08.320
I used to turn the alarm off when I went upstairs,

809
01:08:08.360 --> 01:08:11.440
so if I did a patrol of one of the floors,

810
01:08:11.440 --> 01:08:14.119
I would turn the alarm off for the floor. I'd

811
01:08:14.159 --> 01:08:17.199
new the code, so i'd do that, and then I

812
01:08:17.359 --> 01:08:20.039
just checked the windows and checked the fire escape and

813
01:08:20.079 --> 01:08:24.880
all that stuff were the one night the alarm went off.

814
01:08:27.880 --> 01:08:36.479
I had cameras downstairs that showed me upstairs, like it

815
01:08:36.560 --> 01:08:38.760
showed me the floor, so I could see the cameras

816
01:08:38.840 --> 01:08:43.039
on the screen. And it was quite a high tech really,

817
01:08:43.960 --> 01:08:45.560
but this was in the city, so I guess they

818
01:08:45.600 --> 01:08:56.479
were quite advanced and freaked me out, really did. And

819
01:08:58.640 --> 01:09:01.560
all I had was my little vibe machine thing that

820
01:09:01.600 --> 01:09:04.760
I used to do because I used to my back

821
01:09:04.800 --> 01:09:08.680
of my neck used to really need to be relaxed,

822
01:09:08.720 --> 01:09:11.840
so I used to just message my back and NIKELS

823
01:09:11.960 --> 01:09:19.560
vibrator machine therapeutic one. That's all I had to defend myself,

824
01:09:19.880 --> 01:09:22.199
like for well, it's not a truncheon, but it's you know,

825
01:09:23.399 --> 01:09:27.680
and it's so weird because that was my job. But

826
01:09:27.720 --> 01:09:29.760
I didn't know what to do. I had no preparation

827
01:09:30.640 --> 01:09:36.199
for that eventuality. So I'm creeping around. I'm turning the

828
01:09:36.239 --> 01:09:38.880
alarm off, and I'm thinking, well, if I turn the

829
01:09:38.920 --> 01:09:41.680
alarm off, they're going to know I'm here. Whoever it is.

830
01:09:43.000 --> 01:09:47.520
I'm listening, can't hear nothing, so I'm kind of creeping around.

831
01:09:47.960 --> 01:09:50.479
I can't see nothing. Come back downstairs. The alarm goes

832
01:09:50.520 --> 01:09:55.000
off again. I'm looking. Alarm goes off like what's going on.

833
01:09:56.720 --> 01:09:59.479
I'm looking at the cam thinking I'm going to stare

834
01:09:59.520 --> 01:10:04.800
at his cam. I will see anything. I've got to

835
01:10:04.840 --> 01:10:06.680
see it because there's someone up there. I'm going to

836
01:10:06.680 --> 01:10:11.680
see it. Because I was looking everyone looking in the toilets. Well,

837
01:10:11.720 --> 01:10:13.239
actually I had a little look on the floor. Then

838
01:10:13.239 --> 01:10:15.760
I ran off, but you know, I was technically supposed

839
01:10:15.760 --> 01:10:22.600
to look around. It turned out it was a false alarm. Basically,

840
01:10:22.640 --> 01:10:26.039
the air conditioner was coming on and they had a

841
01:10:26.079 --> 01:10:29.239
celebration of birthday party and there was balloons in there,

842
01:10:29.840 --> 01:10:32.239
so the air condition was coming on. The balloon was

843
01:10:32.279 --> 01:10:35.720
moving around. It was like a big blow up human.

844
01:10:36.520 --> 01:10:38.439
I think it was a stag night or something. It's

845
01:10:38.600 --> 01:10:41.199
like a stag party that they'd gone to, so it's

846
01:10:41.199 --> 01:10:46.520
a blow up human. So it was quite nice, and

847
01:10:49.239 --> 01:10:53.439
it was moving around like waving to me. I thought

848
01:10:53.479 --> 01:10:54.920
was actually a person, to be fair, because it was

849
01:10:54.920 --> 01:10:57.359
all dressed up. So when I got up there, I

850
01:10:57.359 --> 01:11:01.159
took all the clothes off as I thought, no, I'm

851
01:11:01.199 --> 01:11:03.960
not going to be my head sounds wrong. I'm not

852
01:11:03.960 --> 01:11:06.000
going to be fooled by that. Because it was dressed

853
01:11:06.039 --> 01:11:08.279
I thought it was actually a person up there, had

854
01:11:08.319 --> 01:11:12.520
a hat on, and a basque. It was very strong. No,

855
01:11:12.560 --> 01:11:15.159
I left the basket one actually, but it was dressed

856
01:11:15.239 --> 01:11:17.359
up like a winner, like a wedding dress. It's up

857
01:11:17.560 --> 01:11:23.600
very strange, and I just thought, okay, no, the thing

858
01:11:23.680 --> 01:11:25.520
is I think it was stuck to the ceiling or

859
01:11:25.560 --> 01:11:28.079
it was like underneath a desk, and then it kind

860
01:11:28.079 --> 01:11:35.880
of made itself free somehow, and the it escaped and

861
01:11:36.119 --> 01:11:39.760
the air conditioning that blew it across the room and

862
01:11:39.840 --> 01:11:43.600
suddenly I was seeing this thing waving at me and smiling.

863
01:11:48.720 --> 01:11:52.800
I had to call up my security did the office

864
01:11:52.920 --> 01:11:56.880
and tell him it was a false alarm, and they said, well,

865
01:11:56.920 --> 01:11:58.319
call the police as well. We'll tell them as well.

866
01:11:58.359 --> 01:12:02.920
I said, okay, well I was scared, but that was

867
01:12:02.960 --> 01:12:06.039
a false alarm. As soon as I realized it was

868
01:12:06.159 --> 01:12:15.279
just a lovely friendly doll. And as soon as I

869
01:12:15.279 --> 01:12:17.399
took the clothes off, just because so it no longer

870
01:12:17.399 --> 01:12:22.479
looked like a human on a camera, I felt better

871
01:12:22.520 --> 01:12:24.159
just take it downstairs on me, and I put it

872
01:12:24.159 --> 01:12:28.479
in a toilet and that and just oh, maybe that's

873
01:12:28.479 --> 01:12:36.159
what blocked the toilet. Anyway, I was relaxed again, like instantly,

874
01:12:36.680 --> 01:12:44.119
It's weird, isn't it? So you can introduce positive imagery

875
01:12:45.079 --> 01:12:49.159
once you realize that it's just you your brain. Your

876
01:12:49.159 --> 01:12:54.920
brain's just firing signals that aren't necessarily necessary, aren't necessarily necessary.

877
01:12:55.640 --> 01:13:02.199
That works, so you can visualize those physical sensations as

878
01:13:02.239 --> 01:13:16.439
something almost yeah like that, you know, just yeah yeah,

879
01:13:17.159 --> 01:13:23.199
or even pleasant. Ah, it could be that's the pleasant sound,

880
01:13:25.039 --> 01:13:31.239
for instance, imagining being Some people like to imagine warm

881
01:13:31.319 --> 01:13:35.720
things or cold things, a glowing light, gentle wave, or

882
01:13:35.720 --> 01:13:44.840
maybe snow falling on you, and it helps in reducing

883
01:13:45.079 --> 01:13:52.079
the false threat perception in your brain that was associated

884
01:13:52.119 --> 01:13:59.760
with that physical sensation. It just reduces it. Another thing

885
01:14:00.079 --> 01:14:07.720
it says here is engage with your curiosity. But isn't

886
01:14:07.720 --> 01:14:10.720
that something we would do anyway at the start? You know,

887
01:14:10.760 --> 01:14:14.159
if you have a feeling that maybe you've not had before,

888
01:14:14.439 --> 01:14:16.840
or maybe you've not had it for a while, it's

889
01:14:16.960 --> 01:14:23.560
like curious, like, oh, I wonder what that is. Oh,

890
01:14:24.000 --> 01:14:32.960
that's an unusual feeling. I mean, I had to I

891
01:14:32.960 --> 01:14:34.760
had a burger the other day, which i haven't had

892
01:14:34.800 --> 01:14:37.359
for a while, and the next day I've got this

893
01:14:37.479 --> 01:14:46.000
feeling tummy and it just didn't feel familiar to me.

894
01:14:46.640 --> 01:14:50.840
It's a real weird sort of feeling, and I realized

895
01:14:50.840 --> 01:14:56.520
that I needed a burgerpoo. It's like a real meaty

896
01:14:56.840 --> 01:14:59.079
like that, the meat, because I don't eat much meat

897
01:14:59.159 --> 01:15:06.239
hardly ever. And I'm like, wow, And I actually did

898
01:15:06.279 --> 01:15:09.239
block the toilet, but it's not really about that. I mean,

899
01:15:09.279 --> 01:15:11.319
it's the first time. It's not the first time I've

900
01:15:11.479 --> 01:15:14.680
done that, But I didn't block the toilet at that job.

901
01:15:16.079 --> 01:15:21.560
I didn't do a jobby at that job. So you

902
01:15:21.600 --> 01:15:24.880
can think of it curious in a sense of an

903
01:15:24.920 --> 01:15:31.680
interesting experience your body is presenting and not something to

904
01:15:31.960 --> 01:15:35.159
have any kind of negativity about. It's just a feeling.

905
01:15:36.880 --> 01:15:41.479
And when you know that that feeling, you don't need

906
01:15:41.520 --> 01:15:47.920
to have any kind of specific sensations in connection with

907
01:15:47.960 --> 01:15:56.439
that part of your body, not really, And it's something

908
01:15:56.479 --> 01:15:59.199
you can do. You can do this in a kind

909
01:15:59.199 --> 01:16:02.800
of a meditation norway. I mean, there is that recording

910
01:16:02.880 --> 01:16:08.399
if you search for it, it's number thirty eight Semitic

911
01:16:08.479 --> 01:16:13.880
Track and Exercise Stress and Pain Relief Jason Land. Is

912
01:16:13.920 --> 01:16:16.119
it on I wonder if it's on YouTube. It might

913
01:16:16.159 --> 01:16:21.520
be you never know, Semitic. Yes, it is. It's also

914
01:16:21.520 --> 01:16:24.359
on my YouTube channel as well. So thirty eight minutes

915
01:16:24.399 --> 01:16:28.720
thirty seconds long, and there's no waffling on like I

916
01:16:28.760 --> 01:16:39.199
do here. It's a very serious, very very serious. So yeah,

917
01:16:39.680 --> 01:16:48.319
it's I guess, changing how you feel, but allowing that

918
01:16:48.479 --> 01:16:53.640
change to happen to occur naturally in its own time,

919
01:16:54.479 --> 01:16:59.399
without trying to force it, without anything, really, just allowing

920
01:16:59.439 --> 01:17:10.920
yourself to experience because you remember. I mean, it's worth remembering.

921
01:17:11.279 --> 01:17:14.359
It's true as well, we're always feeling different. The way

922
01:17:14.399 --> 01:17:18.479
we feel changes all the time. It may not be obvious,

923
01:17:19.000 --> 01:17:24.319
it may be very gradual and maybe very very minute changes.

924
01:17:26.399 --> 01:17:31.159
But you know, the way I'm feeling now compared to

925
01:17:31.199 --> 01:17:33.800
the way i'd feel if I heard someone shout my

926
01:17:33.840 --> 01:17:39.039
name in the garden, I'd feel different. I don't know.

927
01:17:39.079 --> 01:17:42.279
I might feel excited, probably not, but there'd be a

928
01:17:42.279 --> 01:17:47.319
different feeling. My mind would be distracted from doing this

929
01:17:48.680 --> 01:17:52.560
for an instant, or maybe it might be a few minutes.

930
01:17:53.079 --> 01:17:57.079
I'd forget all about this while I was sticking my

931
01:17:57.119 --> 01:18:00.720
head out the window shouting, what do you want? I'm busy,

932
01:18:02.199 --> 01:18:05.800
Come down. I want to come down. You come up?

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What I want to come up? You come down? And

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you have that kind of conversation, an interesting kind of conversation,

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that I like to have, and it would be you know,

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I don't want to I don't want to come down.

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I've got chocolate. Okay, I'm coming down. So it's worth

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remembering that the way we feel changes all the time.

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This is quite a good thing, I think. So that's

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the end of this recording. Thank you for listening. Remember

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to be kind to yourself because you do deserve to

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be happy. Be gentle with yourself. You deserve to feel safe.

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Lots of love. Bye,