Aug. 18, 2025

(music) Mental Health Review | LMBYTS #1414 | Jason Newland | 19th August 2025

(music) Mental Health Review | LMBYTS #1414 | Jason Newland | 19th August 2025
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Oh, hello, and welcome to Jason Newland dot com com

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com Ado. How are you? Are you well? So this

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is let me boy you to sleep. Please only listen

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when you can safely close your eyes. My name's Jason Newland. Yes,

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and today is Tuesday, the nineteenth of August. Wow. And

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then he said April April. But to be fair, I've

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just woken up. I want to say, just woken up,

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I would say within the last six minutes. Yeah, I

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don't know. How long does it take to a we

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We even take a tablet and walk back in, walk

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into the living room and then yeah, then then get

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back out and different light on, turn the main light off,

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and turn a smaller light on in the living room.

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So I walk up there thinking, oh, I haven't got

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any shoes on, my slippers or my crocs. I hope

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there's nothing on the floor that hurts my foot. And

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then on the way back to my chair, I'm thinking

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and remembering my dad once kneeled on a knelt on

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a nail in a loft because he was an electrician,

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and thinking, oh, I must have been painful. And I

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sat down on a chair and I was thinking, yeah,

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that's really a nice painful thing he ever went through.

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Then I thought, but he's he was in the other

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things once. But then maybe you know, the adrenaline and

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stuff that would have kicked in. And then I thought, well,

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I think about this. It's a weird thing to thing about.

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And uh and then is this even registering? And then

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I thought, I'm just gonna got this this thing set up,

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and here we are. And then then he walked in

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just as I was getting the recording ready, and yeah,

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he came in, plodded in. I don't think he was

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even awake, to be fair half awake maybe, And he

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jumped onto the chair to go to sleep next to

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me and covered up next to me. And here he is.

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He's asleep. It's fast asleep, not even a little bit

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of sleep, but a lot of sleep. But in reality,

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I can't really know, can I. I can't know that

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he might be sitting there, wide awake, thinking of all

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the naughty things he's going to do in the coming day.

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I don't know. I'm thinking, oh, wow, how can I

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wind up Daddy today?

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Oh?

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I know what? I glue his ears together? I don't

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know what. You don't idea what's going on in his little mind.

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This is the sausage. That's what he used to be called.

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That's what Uncle Sausages called him. He called he called Vinie.

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He started calling Viny's sausages sausages sausages. And he started saying,

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how sausages today? Is he good? How? He didn't say

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is he good? That's something that's a term he never

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really used. Is he good? No? But I mean you

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didn't know that. I didn't need to tell you that.

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It's not relevant, really, is it? What kind of phrases

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he used in his day to day bit the better

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of language? All I know is I use a lot

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more words than I do. Yeah, he's definitely two. Is weird?

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Right?

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Uncle Sausages said to me, right, and he was in wow. Yeah.

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This was one of the last times I actually had

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a conversation with him, possibly the last time. That's my stomach.

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You're going to get that a lot. I think that's

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going to be the background sounds for this recording. Good,

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my dummy. I want some food. Oh is it just attention? No,

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it's food. I want food. I don't want attention. I

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want food.

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Okay, give me some food.

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What would you like.

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I'd like you to give me some ready break.

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Is there anything else?

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Yes, stop asking questions, just get me the ready break.

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So yeah, yeah, I've got sausages or shusages. He said, right,

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why don't we make a podcast? And then he said,

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why don't you make a podcast and make it funny?

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I said okay, and he said I didn't really know

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what he wanted. He said, yeah, we should do a podcast,

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and he wanted me to write it. He wanted me

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to think up a funny script for me and him

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to say. And as you will well be aware if

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you regular listening on to this webinar, you know that

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I don't write no script for this. Although I don't

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write no script ever, if ever, and I ain't never

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gonna no, I ain't never gonna do it. BlimE me.

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If this, if there was a script, then I need

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to get I need to sack the script writer and

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get me in some proper professional writers. And I didn't

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really know what you wanted. I said, Oh, I can't

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let me really write scripts. He said, go on, you

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can use your brain. It's not but don't. Why do

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you issume I can use my brain. Don't don't overestimate

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my powers to use my brain? Come on, Anyway, the

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irony of that was I said to Uncle's Sausages years ago,

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and I'm talking when i've properly first met him, that

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he should do a podcast because he was so into sport.

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He could have done a podcast on sport. It's a

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little bit of a gap. There wasn't there a little

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bit of a pause? Even I noticed it. There's another one.

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I said to him, should do a podcast. What's that? Well,

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it's like a radio show, really, except it's not a

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live audience. It's just you posted it afterwards. It can

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be like a radio show. And he said, okay, wasn't interested.

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And I told said, I must have mentioned it to

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loads of times over the years. I even said to him,

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I've got equipment you can use if you do it

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with me. I said, no, do it with no. I

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don't think e'ven asked that. But I didn't really want

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to do it with him because I don't know the

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very first thing about sport apart from boxing. And I

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make that. I make that up as well. Boxing. I

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can't even spell it bo x I n g oh, yes,

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I can. Wow. I'm a cleveras and I thought it

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I was, I is so yesterday used to do. I

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had to go to the doctors. So I after nearly

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fifty five five years, I'm starting to get used to myself.

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I'm starting to be able to kind of predict how

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I'm going to be. And for that reason, I ordered

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a taxi. I called up a taxi service Sunday, but

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late afternoon and ordered a taxi for one. Might be

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in the evening, maybe at six o'clock, something at six

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point thirty. It's not that relevant, is it. Do you

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need the precise time? Do you need to know what

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I was wearing when I made the phone call? Yeah,

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I was wearing a basque. Do you even know what

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I was eating? I can tell you what I was eating.

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I well, I wasn't. I was just sucking on a lollipop.

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It was banana flavor, which is weird. You might think

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this is the whole You might think it's weird. The

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weirdest thing about it is it was a red lollipop,

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but it tasted banana. You might think being dressed as

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a in a basque and with like a fish tail,

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like a mermaid in a bask basically that's what I

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was dressed like. You know, I think that's the weirdest thing.

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But I personally think the weirdest thing is a red

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lollipop tastes a banana. That that's mind bobbling lean It

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is just it can't get me hit around it. A

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red lollipop that tastes of banana. Now, when I say

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it tastes of banana, it tastes of banana flavor. It's

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like strawberry tastes of strawberry flavor. They don't taste nothing

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like strawberries today, and banana flavor stuff don't taste nothing

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like banana. It tastes like banana flavor. And I'm just

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used to what banana flavor is, like the banana flavor

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milkshakes or the banana flavor you know, sweets. Doesn't taste

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an even like banana, nothing like it. It's a pack

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of lies. I'll never be so angry. So I ordered

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the taxi for one o'clock on Monday, which was yesterday,

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so Sunday evening about half six. I thought the appointment

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was eleven o'clock, but it was two. So I ordered

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a taxi for one, knowing this is if I've ordered

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a taxi. As I get closer to the time, I

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can't cancel it. Well, I can't cancel it. I suppose

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technically I could phone up say yeah, I'd like to

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cancel the taxi. Okay, by then I know I could

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do that, But then that's two phone calls because I'd

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also have to phone up with doctors and cancel that.

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And they said in the letter, if you don't turn

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up for this mental health review, we're gonna we might

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cut down your medication so that you can only collect

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it once a week instead of once a month, which

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means going to the pharmacy every single week. And I thought, no, no, no, no,

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I don't want that for myself, you know, So it

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was relatively important to go along to this review. I'm

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glad I did that. The lady was very nice and

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I kind of understand what I have the now. So

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I I get up, I go to bed Sunday, get

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up in the morning Monday, I.

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Think, I think, I don't know, did I did I

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wake Oh I don't know.

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I'm not sure what time I woke up, but I

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did wake up at some point. In fact, I think

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I woke up quite early in the morning. And then

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because I went to bed early and then I went

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back to bed for a number nap and I made

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a recording. Yeah, I did yesterday's recording. Now I was

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going to do to recordings yesterday. This technically is the

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second part of that recording. But I was so tired

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in the evening I.

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Just couldn't do it. The day necked me out of it.

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I think it's just a deal that the people dealing

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with people being around and you know. So I went

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to a few different places and by the time I

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got home, so I left here at one tactually got

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it at one. I got home, but I got the

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pretty about a quarter past for bus back, which probably

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took about which took people about another half hour, including

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a bus ride half hour roughly to get home maybe.

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So I was back home by about ten to five,

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maybe five to five, ten to five, bearing in mind

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I quite a slow walker, so the bus took me

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part of the way, you know, and then numb walked

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the rest of their So yeah, I was was home

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before five, which meant i'd been out for four hours.

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I had something to eat, and then it was like

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six o'clock and I'd lie down for about an hour

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just open I got up. I took took Smelly Billy

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out for a wonder.

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And then.

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You know, think the evening was kind of done really

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and I was tired, and I ended up going to

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bed about half at twenty twenty three minutes past ten.

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I think it was. It's very precise, isn't it very precise?

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And yeah, so I leave here at one o'clock. Finny

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was that he did not want me to leave, really

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did not want me to leave, but you know, I

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couldn't take him with me. So I got up yesterday

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morning I did I took I took him out in

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the morning, and then I came home. I did the recording,

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I said, I did the recording. I didn't upload it

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until I got home, or edit and upload it till

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I got home. So I did the recording, and then

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I had a shower, got dressed. I think I jumped

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in a shower about twelve thirty a pm. So I

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didn't leave myself a lot of time to prepare myself,

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to prepare myself what for to you know, get myself ready.

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And when I got out of shower, the taxi was

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downstairs already, but it was early, so you know, I

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ordered it for one o'clock. If forgets ten to one

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that's not my issue. Although I think I might pay

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for him to wait, I don't know. So it's weird, right.

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I get into a taxi and I say, though, all right, okay.

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I think my attitude didn't help because just as I was,

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I was getting ready getting my water bottle, getting my

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gotta have my bottle. Me but but some water bottle,

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make me back. I was looking for my wallet because

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you know, the plan was to get a bus back.

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My bus passes in my wallet and also money. So

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to do what I needed to do, I needed to

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have the money in the wallet. But could I find

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my wallet? And no, I can And I had minutes

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to find my wallet and I couldn't find it, and

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I was, I'll be honest with you, I didn't feel

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at all christmasy. It really didn't feel good about it,

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Like this is annoying me. Where's my wallet? There must

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be some kind of gadget to put in the wallet,

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you know, like when if you lose your phone, you know,

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so use if you lose your phone somewhere in the house,

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and so why don't you just call it? I can't

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call it because I haven't got the phone. Ever, I

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people said that why I just phone it. I need

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my phone to phone it, don't I if I knew

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where my phone was, then I could phone myself. Yeah,

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but maybe something like that where you can press a button.

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And you're like, peep, peep, peep, I'm over here, daddy,

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movie here, save me if you can wooh.

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That could be what the wallet does. I don't know

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why you'd have it say stuff like that, same HEDI

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you're you're warmer, you're.

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Warmer more cold, is getting cold?

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Omer warmer, warmer hot, hot hot.

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I'm joking nowhere near me.

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Which would be probably even more annoying. Actually, so I

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couldn't from the wallet. And I'm thinking to myself for

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the couple of weeks ago or last week whenever it was,

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when I was started tidying this place up and checking

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stuff out, did I chuck my wallet out now or

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did someone steal it? I knew no one has stolen it,

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and I also knew that even if I had left

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it on the bus, I said, when did I last

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use my wallet? Or when did I last uesday? Because

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I haven't. I have not even, you know, used my

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wallet for ages. I haven't needed to because I get

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everything online. So I just used my phone and all

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this stuff, and I thought, when's the last time I

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used my bus pass? And it was the first of August,

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So the first of August is the last time I

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left this area, And yesterday was the eighteenth, So seventeen days.

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It just goes to show how really I go anywhere.

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And it just seemed weird because seventeen days it's been

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since what's his name kind of left and it's like, wow,

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I had a dreamed last night, just remembered it. It

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was really weird. It was. It was a bit of

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a dodgy dream actually involving some dodgy people from the past,

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but they were using my property, bearing in mind it

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wasn't here. It was in a house or something to

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have a rave party.

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Yeah, but there was.

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A lady that came in and she liked me. And

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you'd think that in my dreams, if I met a woman,

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she'd like me because a dream he even in my dreams,

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I get rejected. That's ridiculous. But on this occasion I didn't.

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She's nice, So there was an element of romanticness. Very

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weird dream, very strange. I can't remember what else happened,

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so I give up on the whole finding the wallet scenario.

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I go downstairs again. A taxi. Oh, as I am.

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So I'm opening my door, my front door, closing it,

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and the phone rings as a tax driver. So I

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look outside to wave to him, but no, he's parked

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right in a situation where the front of the car

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is obscured by the bushes, so he couldn't see me.

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And I'm thinking, do I really need to answer the phone.

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I'm literally going to be down there in less than

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a minute. Then, so I'm trying to lock the door,

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and then I'm thinking, ah, but he might drive off.

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What if he drives off or you know it? Then

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I think it might be just rude if I don't

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answer the phone. So I answered the phone. They said,

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yes taxi. I said, yeah, I know. He said, how

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do you know? I said, I can see you outside.

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He said, well, why didn't you come down? I said,

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because I'm literally closing my door. I'm looking at He said, okay,

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but how did you know it's a taxi? I said,

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He says, taxi? You on the side. He said, ah,

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I said, I'm coming down anyway, bye, And I just

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put the phone down. But I didn't. I can't say,

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put the phone down anymore? Can we because mobile phones

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you don't. I mean, technically we might put them down,

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but the action I put them and putting a phone

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down doesn't disconnect the mobile phone from the phone call.

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I think we need to do that. You need to

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get some kind of putting the phone down because it

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has to be a Okay, I know it's a little

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bit drama ish, a little bit of drama, but hanging

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up the phone in a little argument on the phone,

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in a conversation, hanging a phone up could have a

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degree of satisfaction. At least. That's what my girlfriends used

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to tell me whenever I annoyed them. So what's what's

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the best part of our relationship? You know, I'd ask

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ex girlfriends, Oh, me, putting a phone down on you

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was the best part of our relationships. So the ending,

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oh thanks and so yeah. So I answered the phone

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and say yeah, yeah, yeah, I'm upstairs. He said, well

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don't you come down please, and said I'm coming wow,

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just locking my door up. So I go downstairs. I

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waved not any response there, So okay, I get in.

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He's it's from another country, which I ain't on an

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issue with why did you mention it then, JG. I

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kind of fits in with the story, I think, so

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he seems to have a bit of an attitude. I'm

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annoyed because I think I've lost my wallet, but I

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do not have the time right now to deal with it.

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But at the same time, I don't want to cancel

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my debit card in case. Well, basically, you know, it's

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a hassle. I'd have to get a new I think

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it costs. I don't know how much it costs, but

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there's money to get a bus pass replacement, so I

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think it's thirty twenty grid thirty QoD. It wouldn't be

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one hundred quid because no one would ever do it,

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so it must be like relatively small amount. As I

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get into the car, as I back in, I financy

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just wait to get in already going forward? Can you

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unless you're little as a kid, you're going to jump in.

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Can't imagine imagine back in them days when being able

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to move fast, to just jump into a car and

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not be concerned about hips or knees or yeah, it's

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going weird. It must be so strange, you know. I

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remember when I was like nine ten and we'd be

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going to Wales and I'd like or maybe going out

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for the day. I jump in the car, usually in

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the back, and I had no concern when I jumped

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in the car, thinking I'll ver be careful I get

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in a car because I don't want to hurt my

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knees on my back, you know, because I would just

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mess up the rest of the day. And no, I

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was like jumping the car. I used to get Oh,

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I have to sit in the middle. There were two horrible,

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smelly brothers. I didn't like being in the middle. There

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was no choice. I mean they were both like even

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my two year old. My two year older brother was

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twice my size and the other one was it was

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bigger than my dad, taller anyway, so I think, yeah,

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I think my brother was pretty much as tall as

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my dad when he was twelve. Anyway, So I get

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in the car. As I back in, I mean, that

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might have been not a good It might not be

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a good introduction because basically I was saying load to him.

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All he could to it was me bum, So that

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might not be a Sticking my bum in his face

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probably wasn't the best introduction, possibly especially if if I

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was the first call that he had for the day.

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He might have just come on starts in the afternoon,

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working to the evening, and he's sitting there thinking, Okay,

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this is the first one of the day. At least

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I've got a job. It's you know, it's a little

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bit of money, and you know, could be worse. At

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least no one's sticking and bumming my face. And then

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suddenly I walk up to him and he's like, I'm

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waving to him, and he's thinking, oh, why are you

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waving to me? This is weird. I don't even know you.

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And I turned around and you know, like and he

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just sees my big massive bump blocking the sun, just

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edging towards him. I mean, all I'm trying to do

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is just sit down, you know. I'm not actually, I'm

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not trying to ruin his day. And it is the

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gadget thing where it pulls the seat back, so he

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cularly thought that I needed, you know, half the car

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just for each buttock, which was rude. It's weird, though,

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it's not really rude, is it, because this is just

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me thinking about what you might be thinking. You're rude?

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You are why because of what you were thinking? How

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do you know what I was thinking. No one knows

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what other people are thinking. It's just all guesswork, isn't it. Anyway.

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I so I'm getting in. I said hello, He said,

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so we go. He said, you're going to the hospital

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and this is the journey, this is the very first

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part of the journey. And I said, yeah, I need

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you to if we can stop off at the pharmacy

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not the hospital. BlimE me. So I used to say

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in hospital to the doctor surgery, I said, if we

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can stop off at the pharmacy first, please, And he

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said to me, so you're going to the doctor surgery.

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I said, yeah, it's like we've already had this conversation,

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so if you can please stop off at the pharmacy

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on the way and he said nothing. I said, is

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that okay? Is that yeah? He said yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.

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So he just was it's like he was ignoring me,

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but he was listening, but he just wasn't responding to

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what I was saying. And you know, I thought, well,

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this is going to be an awkward journey because I

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had a whole conversation planned. I thought I'd talk about

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the space, the moon landing. I thought this would be

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an opportunity to have a conversation about that, but that

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didn't didn't happen, So he doesn't stop outside the pharmacy.

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He stops near the pharmacy, which meant I had to walk,

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which put my waiting distance up because he was getting

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paid to wait. I thought, why didn't you past a

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little bit closer at this part? At this point, I'm

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thinking to myself, we're not going to be lifelong pals.

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This relationship doesn't seem to be going very well, and

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possibly won't be seeing him again. I mean, I realized

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it wasn't a date, but still I generally get on

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quite well the taxi drivers. So he's still there when

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I get out. Of course he's still there because he's

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waiting for me to pay him. I go and get

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my prescription, just to order it. The lady in a prescription,

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I mean, she's in a pharmacy. It's a nice lady.

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It's almost I felt a little bit like i'd do

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you know, when you're friends with someone and you know,

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you go around their house for the first time, and

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then you see them again and they're still, you know, friendly,

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but it's kind of changed. There seemed to be some

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unsaid stuff there, like they don't like there's something changed

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about the dynamics. Almost I felt, here's okay. Here's how

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I felt the way that she was talking to me,

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because she's been friendly to me before, but that's when

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I've got Vinni with me. So maybe she didn't recognize me,

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and she kind of looked at me in a way

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that as if i'd visited her house for the first time.

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I asked her use a toilet, thinking I was going

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to do a wee wee, but then I walked out

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sort of you know, going, oh, that was a lovely poo,

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and maybe that didn't she wasn't happy with that. She

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was okay for liquid but not solids in a toilet

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front visitors, and or it could have been just the

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blocked toilet I left. I don't know, but yeah, that's

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kind of how what the kind of viub I got.

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But anyway, I got my stuff, walked back to the

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taxi and got inside again, and well, you know, back

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into the taxi this time. I tried to get in

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sideways because I thought he's been true enough today already,

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you know, so I tried to get in sideways and

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I did kind of, Yeah, I managed to do it.

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Yeah I did. Yeah, that's fine and all worked out okay,

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and we're coming back again. I mean, so far silence

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on the journey, you know. Once we yeah, it's like

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there was not a lot going on. And then right

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as we pulled up to yeah, we're getting closer to

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the doctor's surgery. I said to the tax driver, I'll

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do as a favor, just uh, not really a favor.

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Is paying not really a favor, is it if you're

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paying someone? No, a favor is not really not the

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right word. But I said, can you yeah, I mean

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if you're having your house built and miss and he said,

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I'll do this a favor, please, miss the builder. Missus builder,

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can you put the bathroom at the front of the

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house instead of the back of the house so more

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people could look through the window, get more traffic. It's

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not really a favor, is it, because you're paying the

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builders to do it? Like, well, I don't know. I

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think it's just a terminology, isn't it. It's just a

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do us a favor, but not really favor. It's anyway,

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So I said to a taxi driver, do us a favor?

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Power me ol mate meal Mucker can you drop me

470
00:43:16.880 --> 00:43:23.559
off at the shopping center. There's this like shopping center

471
00:43:23.639 --> 00:43:27.760
thing place I don't know in the state, shopping retail

472
00:43:28.000 --> 00:43:32.559
outlet whatever. He said, before you're going to the doctors.

473
00:43:32.599 --> 00:43:37.039
I said, I am going to a doctors, but it's early,

474
00:43:37.840 --> 00:43:42.880
I like forty five minutes to mess around with. And

475
00:43:42.920 --> 00:43:49.239
he said, oh, I said. He said, okay. He didn't

476
00:43:49.239 --> 00:43:51.480
seem too bothered about doing this, but it's like, I

477
00:43:51.480 --> 00:43:55.079
think he threw him off a little bit. I got

478
00:43:55.079 --> 00:43:57.760
the impression that he was determined to go to the doctors,

479
00:43:57.800 --> 00:44:00.960
and he was almost not looking forward to it. But

480
00:44:01.400 --> 00:44:04.880
he decided in his mind he was going to end

481
00:44:04.960 --> 00:44:08.320
up dropping him off of the doctors. And now I

482
00:44:08.480 --> 00:44:18.199
changed my plans. I don't know. It seemed mildly annoyed,

483
00:44:19.639 --> 00:44:24.320
but this is where it changed. I said to him. Yeah,

484
00:44:24.639 --> 00:44:27.440
the reason I ordered, I said, I got my appointments

485
00:44:27.480 --> 00:44:30.760
not till two o'clock, you see, and I ordered to

486
00:44:30.800 --> 00:44:34.159
tax it one because of traffic. No way, I've known

487
00:44:34.159 --> 00:44:39.400
what the traffic's going to be like straight away. He

488
00:44:39.599 --> 00:44:44.760
was like, yeah, the traffic's terrible, just like never known.

489
00:44:45.760 --> 00:44:50.960
We bonded just in that last minute of the journey.

490
00:44:51.480 --> 00:44:54.960
We bonded. Now, we didn't make a date. We didn't

491
00:44:55.159 --> 00:45:01.079
kiss and cuddle, we didn't swap photographs, you know, nothing

492
00:45:01.159 --> 00:45:03.519
like that. We didn't get out of the car and

493
00:45:03.559 --> 00:45:09.760
have a little dance. Nothing is There was no poetry exchange.

494
00:45:10.400 --> 00:45:22.960
It was it was, you know, it was a normal conversation,

495
00:45:24.199 --> 00:45:28.960
moaning about the traffic. He was moaning about the traffic.

496
00:45:29.239 --> 00:45:33.199
And I know what the traffics like around there. You know,

497
00:45:33.599 --> 00:45:40.639
it's like one one thing and then everything's blocked. And

498
00:45:40.639 --> 00:45:54.920
and we bonded and a little bit like you know,

499
00:45:54.960 --> 00:45:59.320
if you if you remember, I met someone who worked

500
00:45:59.360 --> 00:46:05.960
in the jam jar factory, like a jam factory, no jar,

501
00:46:06.159 --> 00:46:09.760
jam jar factory, and we just couldn't get onld of

502
00:46:09.760 --> 00:46:13.880
each other. He was I think it was my girlfriend's boyfriend.

503
00:46:13.960 --> 00:46:17.000
My girlfriend's boyfriend blown out with me when he was

504
00:46:17.000 --> 00:46:21.400
my sister's boyfriend. And we didn't get on, just didn't click,

505
00:46:21.840 --> 00:46:23.920
didn't like, not get on in a bad way, just

506
00:46:23.960 --> 00:46:31.639
didn't click. And I knew he worked in a jam

507
00:46:31.760 --> 00:46:38.800
jar factory, making jam jars. I think maybe even putting

508
00:46:38.840 --> 00:46:41.320
the jam in as well. I can't remember. It's a

509
00:46:41.360 --> 00:46:49.519
long time ago, and I was a security guard at

510
00:46:49.519 --> 00:46:52.079
the time, I think. So. We didn't have a lot

511
00:46:52.119 --> 00:47:01.159
in common, very different jobs, and I was thinking, you know,

512
00:47:01.519 --> 00:47:05.039
it'd be nice for me to get on with this

513
00:47:05.079 --> 00:47:14.400
bloke just for the sake of my sister. I couldn't

514
00:47:14.440 --> 00:47:18.920
find a way in. I was like saying, I'm saying

515
00:47:18.960 --> 00:47:20.920
I thought. I just asked him a question and see

516
00:47:20.920 --> 00:47:26.960
what he likes to talk about. I said, what do

517
00:47:27.079 --> 00:47:30.760
you think about the moon landing? Would you like Actually

518
00:47:30.760 --> 00:47:32.519
I didn't say it like that. I just said, would

519
00:47:32.559 --> 00:47:36.039
you like to talk about the moon landing for about

520
00:47:36.320 --> 00:47:40.360
twelve minutes? And he looked at me, like, what what

521
00:47:40.440 --> 00:47:43.159
do you mean? I said, I was wondering if you'd

522
00:47:43.159 --> 00:47:45.639
like to talk about the moon landing for twelve minutes.

523
00:47:47.320 --> 00:47:51.480
He said, why twelve minutes? I said, well, we can

524
00:47:51.559 --> 00:47:54.039
do it for more if you like, But that's the

525
00:47:54.079 --> 00:47:58.599
most amount of time anyone's been able to really put

526
00:47:58.639 --> 00:48:02.920
up with me talking about the moon landing. And he said,

527
00:48:02.960 --> 00:48:06.159
so people don't generally like talking about the moon land

528
00:48:06.239 --> 00:48:10.519
with you, And I said, that's correct, not for more

529
00:48:10.519 --> 00:48:14.920
than twelve minutes, anyway. Some people are okay for the

530
00:48:14.960 --> 00:48:19.679
first three and a half minutes. And he said, why

531
00:48:19.719 --> 00:48:23.199
do you talk about the moon landing, then why don't

532
00:48:23.199 --> 00:48:30.480
you talk about something different? And that really made me think.

533
00:48:33.239 --> 00:48:40.320
They got my mind whirling around. It's like, you know what, maybe,

534
00:48:41.239 --> 00:48:48.719
just maybe there's more than one conversation available, more than

535
00:48:48.760 --> 00:48:55.239
one topic that I can choose from, And this blew

536
00:48:55.280 --> 00:49:02.159
my mind. Maybe, just maybe I don't always have to

537
00:49:02.199 --> 00:49:08.079
be the one that picks the topic. It's a two

538
00:49:08.119 --> 00:49:13.079
way interaction. No, that's too far from me. Sorry, it's

539
00:49:13.159 --> 00:49:18.760
me talking at them. That's all I can offer. Anyway,

540
00:49:19.559 --> 00:49:25.840
I didn't know how to sort of really connect with him,

541
00:49:26.079 --> 00:49:29.360
and it wasn't that interested in connecting with him. It's

542
00:49:29.360 --> 00:49:34.320
not like, you know, I'd see him a couple of times,

543
00:49:34.639 --> 00:49:37.159
three or four times a year maybe at the time,

544
00:49:38.599 --> 00:49:40.960
and it's not like I was spending the rest of

545
00:49:41.000 --> 00:49:45.880
the time between visits seeing him, you know, trying to

546
00:49:45.880 --> 00:49:51.360
put together some kind of big mastermind plan on how

547
00:49:51.400 --> 00:49:57.079
to connect with him in some type of I don't know,

548
00:49:58.280 --> 00:50:05.960
friendly manner. Yes, it wasn't that important, but it was

549
00:50:07.320 --> 00:50:14.159
it seemed useful to just, you know, maybe make the effort. Anyway,

550
00:50:16.000 --> 00:50:24.119
I ended up, I was in the kitchen and I'm

551
00:50:24.159 --> 00:50:31.119
there with my step on and we're just talking and

552
00:50:31.199 --> 00:50:36.440
she says I do as a favor, Juicy, can you

553
00:50:36.920 --> 00:50:42.679
open this this jar? Because we've got this figure in

554
00:50:42.719 --> 00:50:50.119
this country where the jars was limp, whether it's honey, whatever,

555
00:50:50.960 --> 00:50:59.360
the lids are so tight it gives. Honestly, sometimes they're

556
00:50:59.440 --> 00:51:03.039
just too tight. That's another thing, Uncle sausages. He used

557
00:51:03.079 --> 00:51:05.840
to get me to open his tins. Not his tins,

558
00:51:06.039 --> 00:51:15.719
is jars of stuff and his drinks. So I think

559
00:51:15.760 --> 00:51:20.760
it's it kind of lost his strength. He couldn't do it.

560
00:51:21.519 --> 00:51:22.840
So he used to knock on my door and I

561
00:51:22.960 --> 00:51:27.840
do it. I quite liked it, and it didn't like

562
00:51:27.880 --> 00:51:31.480
the fact that he couldn't do himself. But I quite

563
00:51:31.599 --> 00:51:37.440
like being useful, you know. It's quite nice. So whenever

564
00:51:37.480 --> 00:51:41.320
he got new stuff, I'd listen it for him and

565
00:51:41.440 --> 00:51:43.000
just put it back a little bit so he could

566
00:51:43.039 --> 00:51:46.199
get in and out of it, not in and out

567
00:51:46.199 --> 00:51:47.639
of it. And he didn't get in and out of

568
00:51:47.679 --> 00:51:56.360
the the jar of marmalade because he wouldn't fit. That

569
00:51:56.400 --> 00:52:02.679
would be strange. Anyway, my step mummy, I just said

570
00:52:02.679 --> 00:52:05.280
to you, what is it, step mummy, and she said,

571
00:52:05.280 --> 00:52:09.360
can you open this jar? Please? Geecie? How many more

572
00:52:09.360 --> 00:52:12.880
times am I going to ask you? I was like, wow,

573
00:52:15.239 --> 00:52:19.880
be rude, said you're rude, and I said I can

574
00:52:19.960 --> 00:52:27.519
do that, but I couldn't. I said, so I can't

575
00:52:27.519 --> 00:52:32.119
do it. She said, okay, I'm sorry. I didn't mean

576
00:52:32.119 --> 00:52:34.400
to have a go. You can. He said, no, I

577
00:52:34.440 --> 00:52:37.199
can't do it. He said, I don't be like that.

578
00:52:38.199 --> 00:52:41.760
I mean, i've known you since she was seventeen, can't

579
00:52:41.760 --> 00:52:44.880
you You're twenty six now, can't you just open that

580
00:52:45.000 --> 00:52:47.280
for me? I said no, no, What I mean is

581
00:52:47.320 --> 00:52:50.840
I can't physically do it. I'm not being awkward. I

582
00:52:50.840 --> 00:52:53.320
would do it for you. I just can't physically do it.

583
00:52:54.400 --> 00:52:59.039
She said, you can't even open the lid of a

584
00:52:59.280 --> 00:53:10.199
jar of marmalade. And then suddenly my sister's boyfriend pops up.

585
00:53:10.800 --> 00:53:14.239
His head pops up out of there. That's just weird enough.

586
00:53:14.280 --> 00:53:16.519
He was hiding in the bin. I don't know why.

587
00:53:17.519 --> 00:53:22.800
And he said I can help with that. I'm good

588
00:53:22.840 --> 00:53:30.559
with jars. I work in a jar factory, so okay,

589
00:53:30.639 --> 00:53:38.519
And honestly, he got that lid off so quickly it

590
00:53:38.599 --> 00:53:44.199
was like he just uses his thumb. I'm exacta ad okay,

591
00:53:44.320 --> 00:53:47.320
that bit, I'm made up. The rest it's completely true.

592
00:53:48.599 --> 00:53:52.440
But he did get into it quite quickly. It was

593
00:53:52.519 --> 00:54:00.320
like a safe cracker for jars, a jar cracker.

594
00:54:00.679 --> 00:54:02.559
Yeah.

595
00:54:03.000 --> 00:54:05.400
But anyway, on the way to the taxi, well, on

596
00:54:05.480 --> 00:54:07.679
the way to this is the very last bit of

597
00:54:07.800 --> 00:54:10.519
the journey, we had to go around and round about

598
00:54:10.599 --> 00:54:15.960
and around a little lane. We had this big conversation

599
00:54:16.119 --> 00:54:19.599
about you know, well it was a very short conversation,

600
00:54:19.760 --> 00:54:23.960
but it was very animated, and I just thought it

601
00:54:23.960 --> 00:54:27.320
was so nice. It just took a little bit of

602
00:54:27.360 --> 00:54:29.880
time to kind of find a way in, you know.

603
00:54:32.480 --> 00:54:36.199
So I get out of the taxi. It's too early

604
00:54:36.360 --> 00:54:40.559
to go to the doctors. So what I do is

605
00:54:40.800 --> 00:54:47.559
I go into a close place. It's like a sports

606
00:54:47.719 --> 00:54:53.719
is it sports Direct? Something like that. Hannah's looking around.

607
00:54:55.440 --> 00:55:02.639
I need clothes. I need some pence. I've got seven

608
00:55:02.760 --> 00:55:09.559
pairs of jogging tracksuit bottombs that have fallen a past.

609
00:55:09.679 --> 00:55:14.239
I need some new ones. The problem is, it's been

610
00:55:14.320 --> 00:55:18.199
such a long time since I've bought anything in a

611
00:55:18.320 --> 00:55:24.519
shop like clothes. Apart from a jacket. I bought a

612
00:55:24.599 --> 00:55:30.440
couple of a couple of years ago, I bought some Yeah,

613
00:55:30.679 --> 00:55:37.199
or three years ago, I bought some winter coats which

614
00:55:37.320 --> 00:55:41.480
was called Northern was it northern face or northern whatever.

615
00:55:42.239 --> 00:55:46.760
So I did that. But that's easy because I can

616
00:55:46.880 --> 00:55:51.960
try them on. But the tracksuit bombs. I can't really

617
00:55:52.000 --> 00:55:55.360
try them on. And I said oi, He said, who

618
00:55:55.440 --> 00:55:59.480
you are? I didn't. I said, excuse me, sir, I

619
00:55:59.719 --> 00:56:03.480
want you if you could be an assistance to MOI

620
00:56:04.920 --> 00:56:07.280
see I know some French id just hold on to

621
00:56:07.400 --> 00:56:13.239
it for the important moments. Did I ever tell you

622
00:56:13.320 --> 00:56:18.039
about I had a friend and we went to a

623
00:56:18.159 --> 00:56:22.679
Spanish restaurant. This is a college. We all went to

624
00:56:22.719 --> 00:56:25.880
a Spanish restaurant and it had been planned for a

625
00:56:25.960 --> 00:56:30.639
week and she was looking forward to going because she

626
00:56:30.800 --> 00:56:36.320
was going to speak Spanish. She's been practicing a Spanish

627
00:56:36.320 --> 00:56:40.159
all week long. And we get there and the blanks

628
00:56:40.159 --> 00:56:45.880
from Bosnia there was no one Spanish in the Spanish restaurant.

629
00:56:46.639 --> 00:56:50.960
She was so disappointed. Didn't stop her from speaking Spanish

630
00:56:51.000 --> 00:56:53.320
to him, though he still didn't know what she was

631
00:56:53.360 --> 00:57:01.119
talking about. And so I go. I asked the person

632
00:57:01.239 --> 00:57:06.280
in the shop, just help me out, please. I don't

633
00:57:06.320 --> 00:57:08.760
know what to do. I don't know what ones to buy.

634
00:57:09.639 --> 00:57:14.119
He said, yeah, but you're because we're, you know, both

635
00:57:14.119 --> 00:57:16.519
about the same kind of height. He said, well, because

636
00:57:16.559 --> 00:57:20.079
you're not very tall, and I said, no, it's basically

637
00:57:20.159 --> 00:57:26.679
my upper body's extra large upper body. But he said,

638
00:57:26.679 --> 00:57:34.519
you're probably medium, you know, for your bottoms, you know,

639
00:57:35.280 --> 00:57:41.039
the tracks it bottoms. The problem is it's the length.

640
00:57:42.800 --> 00:57:45.440
They have elastics on the waist, so that's not really

641
00:57:45.480 --> 00:57:56.199
an issue. The length is, you know, but we if

642
00:57:56.239 --> 00:57:58.599
they're loose at the bottom, they can drag on the floor,

643
00:57:58.960 --> 00:58:01.360
but these ones aren't. They've got a lass stick at

644
00:58:01.400 --> 00:58:06.679
the bottom, so it wouldn't make any difference. So I

645
00:58:06.800 --> 00:58:11.119
got two pairs, both in a special offer. One was black,

646
00:58:11.280 --> 00:58:16.880
one was wow gray or whitey gray. And then I

647
00:58:17.000 --> 00:58:26.199
go up pay for it, and I get do you

648
00:58:26.239 --> 00:58:31.079
know when someone looks at you and you think, I'm

649
00:58:31.119 --> 00:58:34.639
not sure why they're looking at me like that? It

650
00:58:34.760 --> 00:58:37.000
was a nice way, not horrible way, and I'm not

651
00:58:37.119 --> 00:58:40.960
used to that. And I was like she was looking

652
00:58:40.960 --> 00:58:49.519
at me, and even at the end of it, when

653
00:58:49.519 --> 00:58:53.760
we finished, she was still looking at me like I

654
00:58:53.760 --> 00:58:56.079
don't know, I just I can't explain it. It's very

655
00:58:58.400 --> 00:59:06.800
very uh, I don't know, I don't know. And I

656
00:59:06.840 --> 00:59:10.880
was thinking, did she think I was being grumpy? Because

657
00:59:11.920 --> 00:59:17.400
you know, I'm quite softly spoken and I don't always

658
00:59:17.559 --> 00:59:26.519
have a huge amount of inflection in my voice sometimes

659
00:59:26.800 --> 00:59:32.679
when I talk, and I don't know, maybe that's what

660
00:59:32.760 --> 00:59:37.320
was going on that I'm really not sure. So I

661
00:59:37.400 --> 00:59:41.920
made my way to the doctors. At this point, I'm hungry.

662
00:59:42.800 --> 00:59:44.760
You might think, oh, why are you telling me that.

663
00:59:46.079 --> 00:59:50.880
I'm telling you that because I was hungry. It's just

664
00:59:51.000 --> 00:59:55.360
it's just part of story, and as part of the

665
00:59:55.360 --> 00:59:59.079
story afterwards, as well as part of now, because I'm

666
00:59:59.159 --> 01:00:09.320
hungry now. Yes, yes, yes, So I went to the doctors,

667
01:00:10.360 --> 01:00:15.960
get there me eight minutes to the machine that logs

668
01:00:16.000 --> 01:00:21.440
you in wasn't working, so I went to the counter.

669
01:00:22.840 --> 01:00:26.159
They locked me in, you know, for my nurse appointment.

670
01:00:28.719 --> 01:00:34.840
It's twenty past two before I get called by the nurse,

671
01:00:39.599 --> 01:00:41.920
and I'm thinking, I don't know why it took so long.

672
01:00:42.000 --> 01:00:45.679
Why is you know? But the lady is lovely. She

673
01:00:45.800 --> 01:00:52.440
was lovely and she didn't rush me, which is pretty

674
01:00:52.519 --> 01:00:56.280
much why my appointment was late. My appointment was late

675
01:00:56.320 --> 01:01:01.440
because she gave time to the previous person and the

676
01:01:01.519 --> 01:01:06.679
person after me their appointment was late because the nurse

677
01:01:06.800 --> 01:01:13.960
gave time to me to talk. So it was hard

678
01:01:14.239 --> 01:01:21.119
to really be too grumpy about being waiting and waiting

679
01:01:21.119 --> 01:01:29.679
around for twenty five minutes, but that seemed to go

680
01:01:29.800 --> 01:01:38.800
quite well. Had a blood test, were weight done, pulse

681
01:01:38.960 --> 01:01:44.800
read blood pressure, so my blood pressure and my pulse

682
01:01:44.880 --> 01:01:51.239
were good. My weight was less than last time, marginally,

683
01:01:52.639 --> 01:01:58.559
but I'm about eighteen nine kilos now, roughly about eighteen

684
01:01:58.679 --> 01:02:04.639
nine kilos or eighty eight and a half kilos instead

685
01:02:04.639 --> 01:02:11.199
of being one hundred kilos, which I was just a

686
01:02:11.280 --> 01:02:15.880
year and a half ago. But last time i'd lost

687
01:02:15.960 --> 01:02:23.199
I think I lost about one maybe two kilos since

688
01:02:23.320 --> 01:02:33.199
last year. So I left. That was all done. I left.

689
01:02:33.480 --> 01:02:43.559
I went into Sainsbury's. I walked around Sainsbury's because I

690
01:02:43.599 --> 01:02:47.480
was hungry. I first started walking around to the other estate,

691
01:02:47.599 --> 01:02:54.199
the other in groceries section, but the road was so busier,

692
01:02:54.360 --> 01:02:56.440
thought and I'm not going to get across here. So

693
01:02:56.480 --> 01:02:59.719
I walked back to Sainsbury's, went up the escalator to

694
01:02:59.760 --> 01:03:07.119
the restaurant. The restaurant's now closed, no restaurant anymore gone.

695
01:03:09.079 --> 01:03:17.920
So I'm thinking I'm hungry. I need to eat some food,

696
01:03:19.039 --> 01:03:25.519
so I go searching in Sainsbury's for something to eat,

697
01:03:26.559 --> 01:03:29.639
something I can just stuff in my mouth. So I

698
01:03:29.719 --> 01:03:38.360
ended up getting like a sausage roll, pasty thing and

699
01:03:38.440 --> 01:03:42.400
a few cakes orders I pay for them. I'm in

700
01:03:42.480 --> 01:03:46.440
a queue behind people with trolleys because I don't want

701
01:03:46.440 --> 01:03:55.280
to use a self service, and I do get a

702
01:03:55.480 --> 01:04:01.159
funny few looks, funny few looks, a few funny looks.

703
01:04:00.159 --> 01:04:02.840
Kh why is he? Why is he waiting here? And

704
01:04:02.960 --> 01:04:08.400
he's got his like five five objects and he's in

705
01:04:08.480 --> 01:04:16.079
between two people with trolley's full of stuff. I don't care.

706
01:04:16.199 --> 01:04:20.599
I just I don't like the self service, simple as

707
01:04:20.639 --> 01:04:37.239
that never had done. Really, yeah, what else happened? So

708
01:04:37.280 --> 01:04:41.639
I come out? Oh yeah. When I was Insane's plice,

709
01:04:42.519 --> 01:04:51.400
this female walked up to me. My fund's moving on

710
01:04:51.440 --> 01:05:02.920
its own. How weird. So when I was in Sainsbury's

711
01:05:03.000 --> 01:05:06.679
and I'm just wandering around looking for the something to eat,

712
01:05:06.920 --> 01:05:10.000
I didn't really know what I always wear or what,

713
01:05:11.320 --> 01:05:13.920
so I haven't been in there for a long time,

714
01:05:16.440 --> 01:05:20.119
and this female walks up to me. She says hello.

715
01:05:20.239 --> 01:05:24.440
I said hello. I thought she was going to try

716
01:05:24.480 --> 01:05:30.599
and sell me something, you know, kind of I don't know,

717
01:05:33.079 --> 01:05:37.559
or get me to sample a bit of cheese something

718
01:05:37.599 --> 01:05:42.760
like that, and she said oh, I said, oh okay,

719
01:05:43.480 --> 01:05:49.119
he oh hello, She said hi. I said hi. She said,

720
01:05:49.599 --> 01:05:52.280
I hope I'm stopping you and I'm thinking, ever goes

721
01:05:52.480 --> 01:05:54.480
what we're going to do. She said, I just want

722
01:05:54.519 --> 01:05:58.639
to let you know I like your shirt. I said

723
01:05:58.840 --> 01:06:04.239
what she said, I like your shirt? I said, thank you,

724
01:06:04.400 --> 01:06:09.920
I said. She said it's very colorful. I said thanks.

725
01:06:10.800 --> 01:06:13.440
I said I like your shirt as well, shared the

726
01:06:13.559 --> 01:06:18.519
sort of not saying shirt as me, but just for ye.

727
01:06:21.239 --> 01:06:23.320
And then she walked away and I was just like,

728
01:06:24.679 --> 01:06:26.519
I don't know what. I really don't know what that

729
01:06:26.559 --> 01:06:30.000
conversation was about, but it was nice. I don't know

730
01:06:30.000 --> 01:06:33.639
if I've ever in my entire life had someone walk

731
01:06:33.760 --> 01:06:35.719
up to me in public and tell me that they

732
01:06:35.920 --> 01:06:41.199
liked an item of my clothing. Honestly, never happened ever,

733
01:06:42.159 --> 01:06:44.639
So that was a very that was a first for me.

734
01:06:48.840 --> 01:06:56.960
And then yeah, I saw a few things as I

735
01:06:57.000 --> 01:07:06.679
was walking through the supermarket, and I'm waiting when I

736
01:07:06.719 --> 01:07:09.400
get out of there, so I have to eat, have

737
01:07:09.480 --> 01:07:12.000
something to eat. So I'm really getting hungry at this point,

738
01:07:12.880 --> 01:07:15.440
so I sit down outside the super market, has something

739
01:07:15.480 --> 01:07:26.079
to eat, and then I go and wait for the bus. Yeah,

740
01:07:26.239 --> 01:07:29.199
I mean it was. They said it was core pasted

741
01:07:30.519 --> 01:07:32.800
put the call past four before the bus got there.

742
01:07:35.960 --> 01:07:43.360
When I get home, Yeah, and I've already I kind

743
01:07:43.400 --> 01:07:45.760
of already told you about last night. I just got

744
01:07:46.159 --> 01:07:51.760
a bit tired. I went to bed, and when I

745
01:07:51.800 --> 01:07:55.159
do get up again and set some breakfast cereal, watched

746
01:07:55.239 --> 01:07:57.559
a bit of TV and just went back to bed.

747
01:08:04.760 --> 01:08:08.599
So you know, I got a fair bit done technically.

748
01:08:08.719 --> 01:08:11.760
You know, I made a recording, went to the doctor's,

749
01:08:12.840 --> 01:08:27.119
got myself a couple of pairs of Trackies traxiit bonds. Yeah,

750
01:08:27.119 --> 01:08:30.800
I can't think of anything else that I did. It's

751
01:08:30.880 --> 01:08:32.680
not a huge amount, really, is there when you think

752
01:08:32.680 --> 01:08:43.560
about it. But yeah, I'm okay. It's still a lot

753
01:08:43.640 --> 01:08:50.159
more than my normal money do. But right now I'm

754
01:08:50.199 --> 01:08:53.800
going to have my breakfast because my tummy tells me

755
01:08:54.039 --> 01:09:04.439
it's time to have my ready break Really. Oh yeah,

756
01:09:04.920 --> 01:09:13.000
I wish i'd made this rhyme that partly rhymed. So

757
01:09:13.079 --> 01:09:13.600
I'm going to go.

758
01:09:14.319 --> 01:09:14.520
I do.

759
01:09:14.960 --> 01:09:21.119
I haven't done Monday's broughting objects I completely forgot whoops.

760
01:09:22.600 --> 01:09:27.760
But I do intend to do Tuesday's trivia trivia Tuesday

761
01:09:27.800 --> 01:09:31.279
to day. And I've already got a subject because someone

762
01:09:33.119 --> 01:09:36.479
posted me a subject I think, or sent me a

763
01:09:36.680 --> 01:09:40.720
form on my website, so I'd do that later today.

764
01:09:42.600 --> 01:09:45.119
I might also do it Monday's broughting objects as well.

765
01:09:45.239 --> 01:09:50.479
For yesterday, just a belated one. I genuinely forgot to

766
01:09:50.560 --> 01:09:53.640
do it. I forgot it was Monday. I was focused

767
01:09:53.680 --> 01:09:57.720
this focusing in focusing so much on going to the

768
01:09:57.760 --> 01:10:01.119
doctor's surgery that i'd gone what day it was?

769
01:10:03.880 --> 01:10:04.119
Hmm.

770
01:10:04.680 --> 01:10:09.680
So that's me for the differ now anyway today to

771
01:10:09.800 --> 01:10:16.439
do so, thank you for listening. Remember to be kind

772
01:10:16.479 --> 01:10:21.199
to yourself because you do deserve to be happy and

773
01:10:21.359 --> 01:10:35.000
be gentle of yourself. You deserve to feel safe. Lots

774
01:10:35.079 --> 01:11:02.960
of love, Bye h