April 11, 2025

(music) Let me bore your pain away #19 | Jason Newland | 11th March 2025

(music) Let me bore your pain away #19 | Jason Newland | 11th March 2025
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Hello, and welcome to.

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A very sunny day outside. The window's open because it

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kind of needs to be, really, but there's a lot

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of lawnmow inaction going on and people in the gardens

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coffee and stuff, So just let you know. There's a

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bit of background sound. But this is not a sleep recording.

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This is let Me Boil Your Chronic Pain Away number nineteen.

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I do believe.

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So my name is Jason new Land. I'm sure it

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sounds like do Land when I new Land. My website

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is Jasonnewland dot com. Please only listen when you can

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safety closer eye. Only listen to this or so when

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you know the cause of the chronic pain, and only

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with the permission from your doctor. Okay, so let me

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boil your pain away. It's very similar to the let

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Me Buy You to sleep recordings. I do accept. It's

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a little bit more focused, slightly more focused, and all.

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I ask is really one question, is it useful? That's all.

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Only listen to these recordings.

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If they're useful.

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So really, what I would say is, first of all,

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I'm going to ask you to focus on one part

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of your body that has been causing you physical discomfort

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and gauge where it is on a scale of zero

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to ten, from being zero to being ten, which would

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be a big ouch, big yelly ouch. And then you

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can notice how it feels at the very end of

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the recording, which may be twenty minutes, maybe half an hour,

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maybe an hour. I really don't know at this point.

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And I'm just going to talk to you about some

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ideas that you could use two change how you feel.

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And I've become very interested in quantum theory lately, and

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just the idea that you know, when you really go down,

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when you with a microscope and you really go further

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and further and further and further, and magnification to the

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point of atoms and all that stuff. It's it's all

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invisible to us. But that's what makes our existence. That's

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what makes us. Then he stopped whining. Please mate, you've

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got your food, Then you've got your water. Well, he's

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just jumped on the settee. He's going to go to sleep.

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I think.

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He's been to sleep all morning in the bedroom. I

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think he probably wants to go for it.

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W A L K.

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L l K. So's we will. We'll do that in

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a minute. Any when we finished this, we'll do that

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thing you like. So when you think that actually this

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because you know, if you look at your hand, for example,

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like you can look at it as always a hand.

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I mean, what else are you going to say? It's

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going to be a hand, isn't it?

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But when you break it down into particles, it's not

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solid at all in reality from a minute perspective, and

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it's just a bunch of particles.

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And that.

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Gap between you, know, where you are and the wall

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or the tree or wherever you're looking where it's empty,

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it's not empty.

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It's just as full of particles as we are.

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It's a strange concept. Really, I've tried to get my

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head around it. I mean, this isn't new stuff, but

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I've not really given it a lot of thought in

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the past. But I'm interested in some of the things

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that may be useful in a sense of helping to

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change your physical sensations and mine as well, to be fair,

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And that seems like a good use of this information.

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So when you consider each body part it is a

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bunch of particles, then that physical sensation that you're not

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particularly wanting to experience anymore is also just a bunch

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of particles. Spinning chaotically. Now you can just imagine as

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you zero in on that physical cool sensation and something

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weird happens. I noticed this about twenty five, no, twenty

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two years ago. I think it was twenty one years ago.

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It's not really that important how long ago it was.

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But there was two thousand and four, I was meditating

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and my knee was really hurting, really hurting, and it

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was basically just due to the meditation. I was still

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trying to meditate on a cushion and didn't really have

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the knees or the flexibility to do that. But I

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kept at it for about two years, three years in fact,

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until I just decided I was going to sit on

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a chair. But what I did is I think I

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was on my lunch break because I was working in

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a shop downstairs. The Buddhist Center was upstairs. It was

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a Buddhist run shop to charity. It's a gift shop

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called Evolution. So I got upstairs for my lunch break.

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I've already had my sandwiches during the day anyway, so

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I didn't need to take that time to eat, and

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I'm in the shrine room meditating.

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At the time.

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I was going for a lot of anxiety and panic

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attacks and stuff, which is why I got involved in

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the meditation to start with back in November two thousand

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and two. So I was really there for that reason.

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But what I noticed is I had this.

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Pain in.

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I'm not going to say my left knee. It could

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have been my right knee, but one of my knees.

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It was just you know, it wasn't like at the

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top of the scale. It wasn't like a super ouch,

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but it was definitely ah, yeah, it was like maybe

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four or five. It's like this is yeah, this is

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very uncomfortable. So what I did is I thought, I'm

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going to focus on it. As I'm there with my eyes.

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Closed, I might as well.

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It's a good kind of environment to be focusing on things.

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And I was probably doing the mindfulness of breathing meditation,

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where you just count the breaths. So what I did

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is I just you know, I mean, you've got their

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mindfulness of breathing and you've got the body scan, and

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I decided to go back to the body scan and

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just focus on the knee. What I noticed, and this

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is a bit weird, is while I was focusing on

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the knee, my anxiety just wasn't there. Now, if I

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didn't know, if I didn't know what was causing the

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knee to be giving me discomfort, I imagine just knowing

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how I was, my anxiety would have really gone up.

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But I knew simply just because I was crossing my

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legs and that's why.

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I was hurting. So I felt quite relaxed. But at

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the same time.

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I had two options, you know, really sit through it.

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Well three options, sit through it, go and sit on

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a chair, or just get up and do something else. Well,

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actually there's loads of options. I could have laid down,

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or I could have just started got up and started juggling.

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But you know, there's lots of different things I could

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have done, gone for a run. But I decided just

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to sit there and focus on that part of your

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body that's causing the problem.

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So I focused on that.

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And I've never done this before because it seemed the

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opposite to what is normal to do.

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You know, I was very much.

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Of the mind of distraction that I think that was

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my my more. Yeah, that's the way my mind went

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back then, very much do something else to distract from

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that discomfort. I'm usually at the time, I was really

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more dealing with emotional discomfort than physical discomfort. So I'd

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be distracted myself with things and doing stuff in order

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to distract myself from my thoughts and my emotions. Now

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I'm not saying I don't do that anymore, but i'd

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do it less than I used to, So distraction was

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my I guess relaxation and distraction were the two things

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that I would use in order to try and calm down.

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But on this occasion, I thought, I'm just gonna prad

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praud it with my mind in a way. I'm just

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going to explore it because I knew it wasn't anything serious.

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I knew it was just for me.

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I've had issues with my knees ever since I was

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a kid because I should do karate, and I think

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I kind of damaged my knees and my toes a

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little bit during that period, and I also used to

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It's ridiculous.

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I can't believe I'm telling you this.

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When I was eight, I was really into Shaken Stevens.

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He was a singer.

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Now you might not know who he is, but he

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was the most successful recording artist in the eighties in

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the UK. Like above everyone, he was the number one record.

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It's like single recording artist, not the biggest band, but

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the recording artist. And Shaken Stevens throughout the whole of

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the eighties, and I loved him. He was around in

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the like, you know, in the seventies as well. I

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fell in love with him probably in the seventies, and

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so when I was eight or nine or whatever, I

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used to have posters of him, and he was already

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famous for that point, but he became even more famous

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in the early eighties. So I used to do his

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dance and he was kind of like a our version

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of Elvis in a way. Just it was where, what's nice?

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Nice of the helicopter to go past just as we're.

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Doing this? Thanks. He used still wear.

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Denim a bit like I suppose Elvis in Jowhouse rock,

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that kind of get up. I'd have a denim jacket,

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tight Jenny Dennim jeans. I'm not sure if he had

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blue Swede shoes, but he had those kinds of you know,

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that that kind of stuff, and probably a white T shirt.

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And he had his hair and a quiff like Elvis

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did in his early days, and he was brilliant.

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Loved him. I wasn't the only one.

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Millions of people loved him.

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And still do that.

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Love does not end just because he's now ninety or whatever.

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And I'm eighty and I still still love him. Lord,

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And there's only one. There's only one sacand Stevens. And

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even though I'm slightly older than I was back then,

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you know, I still got a place in my heart

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just like all the other bands and musicians and TV

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shows from when I was a kid. So he did

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this thing where he would This is the boring part,

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by the way, you know, in case you're wondering what

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you were mildly interested them in it goo and now

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you're talking about shaking Stephens dancing. Oh yes, there's more

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to come.

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I said this.

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This is part of the boring. Your look, the bottom

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line is how do you feel? How do you feel different?

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And how do you feel at the end. That's what

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this is about. I'm going to talk about techniques, but

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I'm not expecting anyone to do anything, but something changes,

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and that's what this is about. And that's why people

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listen to them, I guess. Because people do listen to

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these recordings who go figure out.

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I don't know why, but they do.

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So I what was I said, ah, yeah, I was

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at this. I couldn't even tell you what kind of

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party it was. I think it was a wedding disco.

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So we didn't go to the wedding, I don't think,

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but me and my family, so I had my two brothers,

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maybe my little brother, but it was tiny who went

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to this wedding and I was dancing. I don't think

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they played any shaking Stephens, but that didn't matter because

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I danced like shaking Stephens regardless of who was playing.

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I even I'm pretty sure the bride and groom when

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they got home and maybe went on their honeymoon. As

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I sound so romantic, yes, so romantic, And I'm so

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glad I married you, the most beautiful man, you're the

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most beautiful woman, you know, the most beautiful whatever. So

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so glad we got married. And what's the most romantic

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part for you? I think just seeing you walk down

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the aisle. That was just nice. It's just yeah, just

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I just knew. I realized that I fall in love

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with you every time I see you, soppy, soppy, soppy.

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And what's your most enjoyable part, what's the most romantic part? Well,

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I think it's when we had the first dance, and

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I had you in my arms, and I looked into

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your eyes and I looked down and I saw this

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kid doing a Shaken Stevens dance, and.

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Yeah, so I'm probably in there in.

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A few photographs on some's wedding album. I wasn't wearing Ordnum,

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but I see I like to go a little bit further.

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I was in content with Shaking Stephens dance.

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I needed to push it.

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So he used to go down, but he'd go quite

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low down with his knees and then he'd like spring

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back up and he'd be thrusting his hips and moving

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his knees around. You know, it's very like you know,

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JADUs rock kind of thing, but a bit more possibly

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a bit more movement. I went further and I dropped

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to the floor on my knees, like smashed my knees

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on the floor, and then jumped up and spun around

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and then looked around.

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Two fan woman was watching.

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There's always occasional person a bit concerned about whether I

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needed an ambulance, but generally it hurt. But I was

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a little kid and I didn't care. I thought, well,

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I'm going to suffer from my art. I might not

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have actually thought those exact words when I was nine,

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but did I say nine or nineteen? Anyway, it went

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off for a while, not the wedding. The wedding party

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didn't go on for ten years. That would be weird.

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So I I think I kind of ruined my knees.

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And I did that for a few years, constantly dancing

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and dropping to my knees and smashing them on the floor,

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and then yeah.

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Yeah, it's not good.

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Another time I went, I would have had an axe.

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This is true as well.

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I don't might sound like I'm making it up. A

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tree at the bottom of the garden. This is probably

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when I was about eleven twelve, and my dad had

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us in the garden cutting down.

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Trees and stuff.

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And doing whatever, and so he gave me an ax

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to cut down that tree. So the thing is, it

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wasn't like a sharp axe. It wasn't sharp enough, and

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it slid off the tree and landed on my knee.

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That wasn't sharp enough to cut my knee, but it

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smashed into my knee and it was a heavy, heavy thing.

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So I mean it's good that it wasn't super sharp.

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Although I did have trousers on or like jeans on. No,

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I didn't din I had shorts on. So I went

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right in my knee, but it didn't didn't cut it,

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but it really bruised it, so that might not have helped.

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And then there was a time when I fell out

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of a helicopter. I'm just just joking, making it up.

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So but all the other stuff's true, not relevant, but true.

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So I kind of knew that it's like just it's anything,

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it's not ah. So I'm sitting there in my attempted

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cross legged position and I've got one, two, three, four,

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five different cushions trying to just get comfortable. I had

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another friend who was about six foot six, and he

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would do the same thing, but he needed the cushions

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because he was so big, his legs were so long.

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And we was in a I remember we was in

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a meditation group and they're probably about thirty people. He

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fell asleep and he fell off his cushions. It called

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a domino effect, and like the half the people fell over,

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they knocked each other down. It was very funny.

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And so.

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Knowing what it is, like it's just just my knee,

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there's there's nothing to be concerned about, which.

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In a way.

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You know, if you know what it is, you know

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what the cause is, and you know that it's you

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don't need that danger signal from your brain, then it

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almost you could say half the physical discomfort straight away,

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half is the energy that it's not needed.

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So that that was quite nice.

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So my knee just it did reduce to the point where,

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like I still would probably want it to go away,

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but I was more intrigued, not the knee, but the physical.

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Feeling.

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I was intrigued, and I thought, Okay, I can enjoy

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the pigeons. It's all part of the new therapeutic technique

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I'm using. Some people use really beautiful, you know, background music,

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and I use pigeons. How well, No, I do have

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music as well in some of the recordings. So I've

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got I'm focusing on my knee, and I'm thinking, okay,

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where is it?

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Where is that I searched for it?

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That fee then and there, you know, there's the obvious,

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the voice in my head saying.

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Was in a knee?

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In it like sarcastically, okay, yeah, but where is it?

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There's an old saying I don't know where it came from,

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but it's a feeling. But can you hold in your hands.

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Can you hold a feeling in your hands? You may argue, well,

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if if it's in my hands, I can. But I

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couldn't hold the feeling that was in my knees in

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my hands. It wasn't like a physical thing that I

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could actually hold, like water or dust or a pizza.

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It could be an action man figure, there's lots of

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different a bit of coal, headphones in whatever, could be

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any object.

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But it was just a feeling. So I thought, hmm.

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Hmm, I'm just gonna observe it and just see if

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I can find it. Because then again the brain, my

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brain winning of course you can find it.

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You know where it is. It's there. I said, okay,

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let's go look for it.

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Then this is where it went weird, because the more

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I looked for it, I noticed it. It was almost

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like it started to hide from me, like it was

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a game of hide and seek or hide and go seek,

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whatever you call it.

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I never realized it.

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Two years before I realized that my brother's never looked

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for me when we did played hide and seek. Whenever

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I hid, I thought I was doing really well because

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I never got found. They weren't looking honestly, they just

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leave me for ages. Once I missed the whole Christmas.

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So I'm looking for this feeling, realizing it's not an

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actual thing. It's not a physical thing. I don't mean

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the knee, but the feeling isn't an actual physical thing.

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It's just a feeling, just a sensation. And I'm thinking, well,

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why can't I find it? Because every time I sort

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of looked, it seemed to move or it transformed a bit.

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So I decided to go inside the knee with my mind.

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Obviously I don't know, I wasn't doing surgery on myself,

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so I just just looking inside with my mind, going

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inside the feeling, and the feeling kept moving. So I'd

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chase the feeling and had follow it, and every time

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I followed it, that feeling reduced, and eventually I was

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able to actually go inside the feeling, right inside it.

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And you know what, I found nothing.

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There was nothing there, no physical sensations whatsoever. It was

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just absent of anything. And the more I looked, the

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less I found. Maybe that that physical sensation is a

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bit like me as a kid. The longer I stay,

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longer I stayed hid. The longer I stayed hid, the

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less chance of me getting found. I mean, maybe maybe

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my brothers did look for me for a minute and

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then got bored. So either that feeling is so well

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hid that we just can't find it anymore, or when

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you go inside it you realize that there's nothing there.

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And it was a really weird situation to realize that

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actually by I guess in my mind going into the molecules,

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going into that actual physical feeling. I'm not sure if

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there was a pigion in the background singing to me

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at the time, but it changed, genuinely changed, transformed into

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something else. But what it transformed into was almost like

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nothing like.

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It was just very weird. It struck me as.

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Being a bit strange.

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So for the next couple.

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Of years, probably a few years, I used to play

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around with this idea, with this technique, and whenever I

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got a bit of an ache or pain caused by

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maybe working out or caused by something that just I mean,

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especially because I've got an injury in my right shoulder,

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used to use it in there and it would disappear

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because you get to a point where it's not there anymore,

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because what you're looking for when you go inside, it's

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not inside looking for something you can't actually hold in

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your hands, like varuka powder. I'm just trying to think

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of an object you can hold in your hands. A

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bottle of aruga powder is probably a bit weird. Yeah,

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turbal feed, pack of six cello tapes. I don't know,

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but you know, I'm just saying something you can hold

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in your hand, and then you got it just went.

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It's like that wasn't there. It's not like it just

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like it's some dramatic mw. There was no music, did

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di di di, and it vanished like a magic trick.

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It just just wasn't there.

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It's a bit like.

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The other day I was searching all around the flat

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for my dignity, could not find it. It's long gone

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any kind of dignity I used to have. So but seriously,

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this this is kind of I found it interesting. So

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I used to play around with it and whether it's

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the focus because it's the opposite to what's expected. Because

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sometimes you can say, well, yeah, the reason it's causing

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so much discomfort because you keep thinking about it. Yeah,

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but it's a different type of thinking, isn't it. It's

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thinking about it but not wanting it. Once you welcome it,

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once you actually focus on it in a sense of Okay,

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I'm coming in to visit.

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It changes.

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I found that kind of fascinating, and I suppose that

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sort of fits in with the whole quantum energy sort

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of thing, because you know, there's the idea of physical

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sensations as quantum particles spinning chaotically, and then maybe by

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focusing on it, they start to just spin harmoniously, a

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lining into a soothing and balanced rhythm that radiates comfort

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and relaxation. So it can change how you feel, just

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with not just a focus, but a certain type of focus,

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maybe a focus of intrigue interest. Just I mean, sometimes

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that can be the difference that makes a difference when

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you go into a situation you're about to observe something,

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instead of already having an agenda and already having an opinion,

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to go on with an open mind and to be

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interested in how that part of your body is going

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to feel different, and to do something maybe you've never

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done before is to almost welcome it. And it's something

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to be said for thanking that part of your body

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when maybe up till now you may have been cursing it.

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Maybe thanking it for looking after you the caring for you,

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thanking it for all it's done, your whole life for you.

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And these are just little ideas that may be useful

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or may just be boring, maybe a little bit of both,

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a little bit of each. But when we look at

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something almost like a microscope, the most powerful microscope on

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the planet, inside your mind, realizing that the fact is

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we're just molecules particles, and there's a gap between all

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of us, all the different molecules and particles. There's a

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gap between them, and you go into that and there's

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a gap between them, and it just goes on and

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on and on. Something's moving quickly, something's moving slowly. So

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I'm going to test this on myself now on my

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lower back. Although, to be honest, my lower backs feeling,

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you know, relatively okay. It's sitting down seems to not

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always do it the best for me when I'm sitting

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at a desk. It might be my posture, I don't know.

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So I focus on my lower back and it seems

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to be a bit of like an attitude thing, but

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I actually focusing on my lower back with an open mind,

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with a degree of friendliness towards that part of my body.

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It seems to be a warm A warm feeling arises,

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like a warm greeting maybe, And what I'm going to

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do is focus on my lower back and start straight

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away with the part that has the most physical sensation.

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You know, maybe it's a pulse, maybe it's a throb

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maybe it's just like a sharp feeling for yourself that.

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Is, but with me, it's.

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It's kind of I can I almost feel that it

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goes inward.

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The feeling.

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I'm going to go in myself. I'm just going to

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focus on that one spot in my mind and also physically,

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so physically focusing on that spot in my lower back.

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I was going to call this fine focused therapy back

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in two thousand and four.

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Straight away, it's.

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It's reduced, it's I don't know if it's a moving

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What I do notice this is a weird thing that

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I've noticed happens. I mean, normally I would do this

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without talking, so a bit quicker for me, But I

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notice sometimes when I focus on it and it's really

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really relaxed, sometimes feels a bit itchy, like inside the skin,

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like the feeling has been replaced with a non itch

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that necessarily needs to be scratched. Just a feeling like

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a slight itch, but not irritating, just a comfortable I suppose,

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And after scratchy itch, like once she scratched it, it's like, okay,

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once it's been rewarded. So I'm trying to get the

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feeling back, but it's not coming back. I'm searching for it.

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It's almost like it's become like me as a kid hiding.

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It's a very good hider. Well, I found a lesser feeling.

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So I'm going to go inside of that lesser feeling

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and follow see where that leads me. I'm just going

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inside that feeling. That's just relaxed my back even more.

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I'm so relaxed. I feel like I can just hear

484
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like a plane going past. Oh oh, it is a plane,

485
00:41:37.199 --> 00:41:38.960
and my don't always hear a plane every time I

486
00:41:38.960 --> 00:41:46.280
feel relaxed. I mean, that would be weird, unless, of course,

487
00:41:46.320 --> 00:42:00.840
a lift like never a plane station. Oh that that's

488
00:42:00.960 --> 00:42:03.480
quite so.

489
00:42:03.599 --> 00:42:08.599
Now what I've noticed is the physical.

490
00:42:10.119 --> 00:42:14.760
Thing that I had, it's now some of it is tense,

491
00:42:16.800 --> 00:42:19.559
not the bits of relaxed, the bits of relaxes to relax,

492
00:42:20.119 --> 00:42:23.920
but some of the other stuff is just it's transformed

493
00:42:25.719 --> 00:42:30.280
from being discomfort to just being a little bit, a

494
00:42:30.280 --> 00:42:34.440
little bit tense. So I'm going to focus on that tenseness,

495
00:42:36.519 --> 00:42:43.719
on the muscles, the fibers, and just focus on that

496
00:42:43.840 --> 00:42:56.480
for a few seconds. I mean, you can ask just like,

497
00:42:56.639 --> 00:43:03.000
please relax as you focus on that part of you,

498
00:43:03.079 --> 00:43:06.760
please relax, or you can just focus on it because

499
00:43:06.760 --> 00:43:23.400
it will just automatically relax, become loose. I suppose I

500
00:43:23.400 --> 00:43:26.880
could thank my lower back, thank you for what you do,

501
00:43:30.079 --> 00:43:33.800
thank you for all that you've done over my life.

502
00:43:35.880 --> 00:43:46.320
Always been there for me, and I appreciate you. Inside

503
00:43:46.360 --> 00:43:53.639
of the pigeons, that's weird. My lower backs are really

504
00:43:53.679 --> 00:43:57.719
relaxed now. I don't know if it was the pigeons

505
00:43:57.719 --> 00:44:03.039
that did it. Maybe the pigeons need to have their

506
00:44:03.079 --> 00:44:12.480
own podcast Relaxed with Herbert. He's the main pigeon. He's

507
00:44:12.519 --> 00:44:16.719
got his family. There's Gertrude, his wife, and he's got

508
00:44:16.719 --> 00:44:24.880
three kids, Paul, Stephen, and Arnold. But I only really

509
00:44:25.000 --> 00:44:33.360
know the father, really don't may know the others. Gertrude

510
00:44:33.400 --> 00:44:34.760
won't talk to me anymore.

511
00:44:34.400 --> 00:44:37.400
Because that's ridiculous.

512
00:44:41.320 --> 00:44:43.960
I borrowed a frying pan and I didn't I didn't really,

513
00:44:44.440 --> 00:44:47.559
I didn't return it in the exact same condition as

514
00:44:47.559 --> 00:44:52.440
she lind it to me. Pigeons and their frying pans.

515
00:44:55.679 --> 00:44:59.320
I said to her, Look, you're not supposed to wash

516
00:44:59.400 --> 00:45:02.360
up frying pans all the time, put salt in them.

517
00:45:02.360 --> 00:45:07.679
If go into any professional kitchen and they put salt

518
00:45:07.719 --> 00:45:11.800
in the frying pan, and you know, don't keep washing

519
00:45:11.880 --> 00:45:14.559
up or walking on water and washing up liquid.

520
00:45:20.960 --> 00:45:25.079
Say she knows I'm talking about all right.

521
00:45:28.440 --> 00:45:32.039
She was saying, Yeah, it's my washing pan, my frying pan.

522
00:45:32.679 --> 00:45:34.960
If I wanted to wash it up with washing up liquid,

523
00:45:35.000 --> 00:45:38.440
I can. It's up to me if I want to

524
00:45:38.559 --> 00:45:40.639
wash if I want to use stinging that as I will,

525
00:45:40.960 --> 00:45:44.280
it's up to me. It's my frying pan, not yours.

526
00:45:44.840 --> 00:45:48.440
I lent it to you with good intention. She's still

527
00:45:48.480 --> 00:46:00.159
going on, well, okay, however, she's willing to forgive me

528
00:46:02.280 --> 00:46:10.039
if if what I didn't get that last part. Oh well,

529
00:46:11.480 --> 00:46:15.360
the one time I actually want the pigeons to start

530
00:46:15.400 --> 00:46:16.000
talking to me.

531
00:46:16.960 --> 00:46:17.320
Nothing.

532
00:46:20.559 --> 00:46:25.400
I guess you'll get back to me later. I hope

533
00:46:25.519 --> 00:46:32.239
she doesn't write me another letter. You ever, try to

534
00:46:32.280 --> 00:46:45.599
read pigeon really hard? So I think there's something to

535
00:46:45.599 --> 00:46:49.480
be said for distraction is a good thing? Can be

536
00:46:49.559 --> 00:46:53.079
a really good thing. A distraction technique. Sometimes I think

537
00:46:53.119 --> 00:46:56.480
people listen to me because I'm distracting. You listen to

538
00:46:56.480 --> 00:47:01.159
me talking about whatever nonsense and it comes out of my mouth,

539
00:47:02.719 --> 00:47:06.480
and it can be a distraction. A little bit of

540
00:47:06.519 --> 00:47:11.960
a rest, a little bit of a break, a slight holiday.

541
00:47:13.880 --> 00:47:15.960
I've run out of a vacation. I've been trying to

542
00:47:15.960 --> 00:47:20.960
think of other words that mean the same thing. So

543
00:47:24.719 --> 00:47:27.199
that was on a big old bang outside in the garden.

544
00:47:28.079 --> 00:47:32.480
I wonder what that was. So just notice how you

545
00:47:32.519 --> 00:47:40.360
feel now, zero to ten on the old scale. Where

546
00:47:40.360 --> 00:47:43.000
do you feel with that part of your body now?

547
00:47:47.039 --> 00:47:49.679
And I'm going to leave this recording, so thank you

548
00:47:49.679 --> 00:47:53.320
for listening. Remember to be kind to yourself. And if

549
00:47:53.320 --> 00:47:54.880
it was useful, please let me know.

550
00:47:56.840 --> 00:48:00.280
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