April 10, 2025

(music) Let me bore your pain away #18 | Jason Newland | 10th March 2025

(music) Let me bore your pain away #18 | Jason Newland | 10th March 2025
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Hello, and welcome to Jasonnewland dot com. My name's Jason Newland.

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Please only listen to this groovy recording when you can

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safely close your eyes. Now, I'm going to focus on

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reducing chronic pain. That's what this record is about, and

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only find out. Only listen to this when you found

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out the cause of the discomfort and with permission from

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your doctor. Okay, So this is let me bore your

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pain away. Done few of these. I think this is

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number eighteen. I'm not going to focus on any particular

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part of the body with this one. The last one

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I did I focused on shoulder, frozen shoulder. This is

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just going to be it's not going to be vague,

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but it's you can use Listen to this recording and

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Vinny in the background chomping on his bone. It's not euphemism.

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And the main really how it works is this, I

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just chat and you notice how the part of your

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body feels like now as we're starting the recording, So

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maybe give it a judgment zero out of ten, zero

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being nothing, ten being a big old ouch. And then

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at the end of the recording we can revisit that

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scale and see how much it's changed. I may discuss

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certain techniques that you may be able to play around with,

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but ultimately I'm just going to talk and it will

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be a case of boring that part of your body

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so that you feel more relaxed. I mean generally you'll

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feel more relaxed all over. Your mind will slow down,

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and that's kind of just what naturally happens. You may

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even fall asleep. So that's why I say at the beginning,

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only listen when you can safely close your eyes. So

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if you're if you're parlor on an airline, please don't

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listen to this doory you get home orntil you get

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into the airport. Well maybe not in the airport either,

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I mean you wait till you're landed, so there's not

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really anything for you to do. And because I don't know,

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I feel like I have to do like an introduction

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every time I do these recordings, but really that is

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the introduction. So I'm just going to get on with

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the conversation. Whatever the conversation is. Now, what I do

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is I look through I look, you know, do some research.

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I've got quite a few books and I'm always on

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the lookout for some kind of new or maybe not

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new but you know, a pain relief or chronic pain

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relief technique that either I haven't done before, because I've

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done lots over the years since two thousand and six,

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but just you know, like to test things out. Sometimes

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it's nice to go back to an old thing that

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I used to do in person with people, which I

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did the other day I did with this frozen shoulder.

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The thing is, you can, you know, sometimes with a

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long recording, if I was going to do a hypnosis recording,

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and specifically hypnosis, I would voe focus probably not necessarily

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on one part of body, but there would be just

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one technique, one thing that I would focus on doing.

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So if I was going to go through like a

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guided imagery of your shoulders mobility or your legs mobility,

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or you know, something like that, and so I would

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be very very focused, possibly on a particular part of

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the body, and also on the actual technique itself. With

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these recordings, it's more a case of just delving, dabbling.

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I like to think of it like a buffet. You know,

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you just use what works. You know, you go through,

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choose what's right for you. Maybe you're vegetarian, be you

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don't like cheese, a little bit buggered. Really. You know,

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if you don't like cheese, if you're vegan, we'll need cheese.

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So or if you're a non vegetarian but you don't

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like beef, mind you sumps all, don't eat pork. It's

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a dirty animal. Name a clean animal? No, no, McLean.

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Even humans aren't clean. Okay, don't get me started. So

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what we do is we focus would sometimes focus on

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a particular technique. In this recording, you've got everything. So

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if you're vegan, vegetarian, meat eater, fish, eat someone that

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only eats raw food, some people do. I've known people

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that eat like literally they only eat vegetables that are raw.

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And he was very tall. I don't know if that

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was the reason. He was about six foot five six

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foot six, but I think he started eating raw vegetables

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after he'd fully grown, so I don't think that was

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the reason. I can say otherwise I would study in

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raw vegetables because I could definitely do with a bit

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of a boost of me height. So if you think

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of it like a buffet, I just go through some stuff,

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discuss it. One of the things that I'm really really

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fascinated with is is time distortion. For pain perception. Now,

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this is something that I first discovered. It was Milton

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Ericson or Milton h Ericson or Milton h Ericson, depends

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how you want to pronounce it. He actually wrote a

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book called time distortion. I don't know I've got it.

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I've read it, I had it in the past. I'm

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not sure I've got it now. One of his techniques

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for people with chronic pain is or actually people with

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end of life pain. Actually sometimes people with like serious

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conditions that he would get them to basically have did

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time distortion, so when when that physical discomfort came on,

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time would speed up so that it would be over

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and done with in an instant. It's almost like the

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person going to a transfer, however long was necessary, and

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even may not even be aware that they've done so,

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which I find fascinating. I have dabbled with this before

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in a recording, but I just liked the idea. Can

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you imagine just whenever it's whenever it's like coming on,

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whether it's chronic pain. Of course I can't really address

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acute pain. But then there's that fine line with acute pain,

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because if someone's got uh, let's say, either got an illness,

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a disease, which is, you know, it's hard to like

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chronic pain. Technically, if it goes over a certain period

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of time and you've still got pain, then it's cast

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as chronic pain, or if it's caused by something, which

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is the pain is not actually helpful because pain, you know,

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chronic pain is a danger signal. It's a signal to

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your brain to let you know. What's the signal from

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your brain to let you know it's danger. You have

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to be careful. Now if you let your brain know that,

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that's not necessary because it's you know, arthritis. Providing you're

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careful is not an issue. Doesn't have to be an

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issue as far as I'm talking about general arthritis like

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what I've got, like what I've got, So I've got

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arthritis in my lower back, I have to be a

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little bit careful. Yeah, I know that. So I don't

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need the warnings from the arthritis, and I definitely need.

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I do not need my arthritis to tell me when

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it's raining outside, you know, like oh it's a damp day.

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Is that I could look out the window, mate. I

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don't need my body to have pain in that situation.

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And I thought it was an old wife's tale. But generally,

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like when it's cold, when it's wet, it seems to

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be a little bit more agitated. But then we're going

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to be affected by water, aren't we. When you consider

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how much of us is actual water, our bodies and

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many oceans are affected by the moon, do it only

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makes sense that we're going to be affected by things.

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That's as much as I know about that. But see

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own an old analogy. If you've got a broken leg,

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you don't need the pain if you know to keep

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off it, and after us, it doesn't take long before

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the leg starts to just be If anything is to

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be itchy from the cast, maybe, but if you put

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weight on it, it lets you know like no, no, no, no, no, no,

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what you're doing. Don't put weight on it. But then

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if that turns into chronic pain, because that's a cute pain,

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that turned into chronic pain because the legs healed, Ah,

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but there's still discomfort there that there's no necessary. If

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you've been to a doctor checked it out, there's nothing wrong,

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then you don't need that. So it's no longer a

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danger signal. And sometimes the brain thinks it's a danger

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signal and it's not. Once you let the brain know

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that it's not a danger signal and it's not necessary.

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I don't need it. You can just let it go.

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Might take a bit of reminding. So if you've got

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chronic pain and you've had it diagnosed, that it's fine.

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There's no reason to have it, or it's due to

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a condition, but you know about the condition and that

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physical discomfort is not necessary because you're going to be careful. Now,

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if someone's got like dodgy nee might need to knee replacement,

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so you know the danger is real, isn't it? Like

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you it's you're basically your your body and your brain saying,

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don't be putting weight on me because this part of

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my body is damaged. But if you know that it's damaged,

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and if you accept that, you need to be careful

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and you know what it is, you know, maybe you're

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waiting to have a replacement operation. My stomach's gurgling. Now,

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that's weird. You don't need that discomfort anymore. You don't

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need to. It's almost like it's pointless because it's not

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a dangerous situation anymore. It is if you ignore it.

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But once you acknowledge it and say, okay, you're going

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to be careful. You definitely don't need it when you're

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sitting down or lying down or watching TV, and providing

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you don't put any weight on it, you don't need it,

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doesn't need to give you a warning. So there's no

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danger warning signals necessary for a situation like that, just

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like you know if you break your finger, of course

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it's going to hurt because it's supposed to do. It's

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a day. It's like to protect you to first of

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all get medical attention, to get it, to acknowledge it,

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because if we didn't have pain. There's actually a movie

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out now called An Overcaine, and I've been fascinated with

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this subject for decades. Some people are born without the

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ability to feel pain. They can't just don't feel it.

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And imagine what that would be like in that part

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of your body that you'd like to feel different in

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where just whenever the feeling comes on, it just it's

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almost like it switches off for that pieced wow. So

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but this is a good movie. It's a bloke that's

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in The Boys TV show and so he's a good

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actor and he's I mean, they've gone down the direction

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of being drama and action and all that stuff, and

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I'm enjoying it's good. I've watched about half an hour

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of it last night. But the with a finger, even

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just a finger, I mean, it's the old things that

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people used to get gangreen in the olden days when

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they had a break but it wasn't set back properly,

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and they're get infectious to get infections, and it's all

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kinds of stuff. If we ignore things and don't get

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it seen to, sometimes things can go a bit wrong.

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But if you've been to the doctor, I got a

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hospital and you've you've had an xtray and you've got

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it fixed so that it's in a sling or in

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a brace or wrapped up, whether it's a break or

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a cut, or maybe you've been told what it is

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and you just on a waiting list to get an

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operation to get it fixed. But there's nothing to worry

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about because it's just you need to be careful. Then,

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doesn't I mean, is this this is a question really

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in that situation, isn't there an emotional release, like almost

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like a bit of relief of like, oh that's what

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it is. So I mean, no one probably wants to

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go to hospital and have an operation. But things like

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knee replacements and stuff. Is there're you know, thousands and

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thousands and thousands of those that have done every single day,

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probably just in my country, and I know at least

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three people that had them, and it's amazing, like amazing

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what they can do. Just wow. I don't think that

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was even a thing when I was a kid. It

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might have been, but we didn't really discuss needs very often. Yeah,

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I don't think. I don't know. I'm actually interested. Now.

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When was the first knee replacement? Okay, eighteen sixty eight,

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I'm not that old. Okay, okay, okay, here we go.

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The first was a right, the first time it was

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done properly in this country. It's fifty years ago, where

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like the way that's being done now. Fifty years of

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total knee athroplastic bone en joined. So that was since

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nineteen eighty, nineteen eighty. Yeah, it was developed in nineteen eighty,

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so I guess this was like fifty five years now, No,

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fifty years, nineteen eighty, fifty years ago, it's nineteen is it. No?

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Wait a minute, I'm fifty five and it's twenty twenty five.

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I was born in seventy, so that's forty five years ago. Anyway,

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it wasn't around the people, it wasn't being done when

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I was little, so I was right, although the first

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one had been done a little bit before I was born,

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ninety years before I was born. So do we need this?

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Do we need the discomfort? Is it useful? And that's

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one of those stupid questions in a way, like, course

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it's not useful, but actually it is useful in certain circumstances,

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especially things like appendix bursting and things like that. Of

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course it's useful. It's life saving. So you know, you know,

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if someone had the appendix burst and they couldn't feel it,

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then unless they have medical attention, they're very likely not

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going to survive that. So yeah, like I can't feel pain,

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but no, no, sometimes we need to, so that's obvious.

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I had my appendix out. I partly kind of pretended

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to have appendicities to get tired off school. Didn't realize

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they're going to operate on me. Oh so that's something

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you can decide. That's kind of what I'm thinking about here.

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It's a bit vague, it's a bit up and down,

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it's a bit around the around the ours is this recording.

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But is the discomfort useful? Is a question? Is is

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there any point to it? Maybe if you do have

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a dodgy n which needs maybe it doesn't need an operation.

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Maybe it's just a dodging ne you know. Sometimes I

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have a dodgy knee. I tried to kneel over the

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other day. Well, my kneeling days are over done with.

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And before you say, oh, does that mean you have

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to get a new job, no, rude. So I'm basically

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it's fine. However, I've got a dodgy knee. Sometimes I

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got an injured shoulder from like two thousand and five,

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so it's what twenty years I've ed an injured shoulder

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and it plays up sometimes, but I know what it is.

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I'm bothered my athris in my lower back. It plays up.

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I'm not bothered. I'm not emotionally bothered by it. Usually

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sometimes it can get a little bitter, but most of

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the times, like, I know what it is, so what

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it's you know, it's not I'm not If I sat

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here all day long focusing on it and going, oh,

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just moaning and feeling sorry for myself, then yeah, it

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would be really way worse than it is. It would

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feel made way worse than it needs to. And I

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did go for a little period of that few years

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back where it was just getting a little bit too much.

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But then I've made a change, you know, sort of.

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It's one of those things. It's okay making recordings for

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other people, but what about me? You know what am

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I doing? I'm making recordings to help people to relax,

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So am I relaxing? I've got to take on some

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of that as well. I mean, I've had a lot

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of broken bones over the years, and it hasn't really

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bothered me. It's it can be annoying. And I broke

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my hand twice. I mean, that's definitely annoying. It's two

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things I can't really do anymore with and it's just like, okay,

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I have to kind of read three things actually because

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it's a shower because I'm right handed to the four

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can't write. It's a lot of things I can't what

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wasn't able to do for about five six weeks until

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the they were healed. But that's all right, just get

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used to it. I likely to go again. Although funny enough,

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the I've so you got two bones the years ago

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two thousand and four is when I broke it the

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first time, my right hand and the knuckles compressed into

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the basically into the hand. And I had a friend

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who was a surgeon, and she said, well, she explained

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what it was because I said, She said, you got

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no knuckle. I said, no, it's only one. Well now

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it's two because I broke the other one. And she said, well,

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if you ever break your hand again, that big one

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in the middle, go But it didn't. She was wrong.

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So yeah, my right hand is a bit deformed. It's

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been broken twice, but it's all right. It might be

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arthritic in the future. I don't know, but I'm not bothered.

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Not you know, I don't want it to be like that,

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but I'm not not concerned because just deal with whatever happens,

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as long as it's not serious something I need to

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go and start to have treatment for. You know, it

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doesn't worry me. I remember that I tell you I

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had this real It was a very big awakening. I

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don't mean like spiritually, but it was two thousand and

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not did I say two thousand and four, nineteen ninety

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fours When I broke my hand the first time. The

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second time was about two thousand and eighteen. I think

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something like that. When I moved in it, I fell

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out the bath. I broke my left wrist. I mean

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I've been in there for about two weeks a week

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two weeks slipped out the bath. Who does that? It's ridiculous.

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And well, I broke my I broke my rib, broke

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my rib twice two different times. I broke my foot twice.

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And I fractured my back in two places a couple

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of years ago. I think that's it. Yeah, there's not

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that many, but yeah, I think that's about it. And

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I broke toes. I broke by blindly. Yeah. I broke

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my toes about four times, different toes. So yeah, and

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I brought I broke my foot twice. It's like the

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front of the top foot. And that the heel, oh,

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it takes that takes even longer. That seem to take longer.

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To hell, the heel takes longer to heel, just because

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I guess I was using it. But anyway, I was

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sitting in the office of this little shop that I

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was working in called Evolution, and so two thousand and four,

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I was going through huge amounts of anxiety. Back then,

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I had to leave my job because of it, and

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it was basically ruling my life for a while, and

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I had to work, work really hard to sort of

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get out under control. At this point I was it

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was semi under control, semi, yeah, I can't. I was

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over the worst of it. So this would be in

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the summer two thousand and four, and it really started.

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It started quite badly in two thousand and two November,

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so I had over a year of it. Like for

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lo on, So I'm in this office, I'm at the computer.

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I might have been cashing up something like that for

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the shop. And I was so aware of all my

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physical like my physicality, the parts of my body and stuff,

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because it's like almost always expecting to have a feeling.

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And I had a feeling in my grin and it's

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a weird feeling, and I went into like a vibration.

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I went into full on panic mode, like full on anxiety.

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And I stood up ready to walk outside to try

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and get my breath, and you know, realize, oh, this

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is going to be another half an hour an hour

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of me like not being able to function. I realized

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it was my phone, It's on vibrate, and that confused

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me because it's something There was no logic that it

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was such a ridiculous situation that a vibrating phone. And

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this is quite early days of vibration vibrating phone as well,

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fairly early, but I did It's like, wait a minute,

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and instantly I'm no longer in panic mode. So not

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only did I realize that something external I was allowing

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something external to affect my physical and mental well being,

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but also I had the ability to switch off a

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panic attack instantly. So this I didn't realize that. It's

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almost like I'd given power away. When a mobile phone

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is able to instigate or create or start an unwanted

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feeling in the body, I kind of given that power away.

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And as soon as I realized it was a mobile phone,

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I had nothing against the phone. You know, I like

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the phone. It was one of those flip ones. I

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just I love it, potending I was on a Star

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Trek beat me up. I never said it. There's no

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one else around, but I liked it. It was a

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little bit you know that this could do one finger.

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That's nice. So I wasn't. I didn't have an issue

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with the phone, and it was one of those really

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tiny ones as well. That's why I didn't realize it

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is in my pocket, but knowing that I could, and

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I didn't stop the panic attack. I didn't stop those

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feelings in my body instantly by thinking about it, by

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having to think about it, by having to do anything,

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just by realizing that it was the phone. It finished,

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It ended straight away. And that was a big, big,

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big turning point. And I realized this recording isn't about

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anxiety attacks and stuff, but it's still unwanted feelings, realizing

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that maybe you don't need them, they might not be necessary,

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because you know, if I sat down on a now

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and I had a feeling, I'd want to feel it. Man,

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I want to feel the thing. I want to sit

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on and now. I don't want to have that pain,

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but I would want to know that it's happened, so

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I can scream and get help and you know, get

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it sorted. I don't want to be sitting there completely

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oblivious to it and then get up and you know,

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go back into the shop talking to the customers with

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blood dripping everywhere. That you know, that just be grim

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and dangerous for my health and slippery for the customers

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as well. Probably, so it got me wondering how much

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can our the way we think, how much can it

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affect the physical sensation that you experience just by expectation,

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because I was at that time constantly expecting the next

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horrible feeling that I'll be honest, that's what I was expecting,

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and that's what I was getting. But you flip that

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on its head and spin it around a little bit,

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not too fast, otherwise you have to wait. And that's

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another thing you can do. You can put a gap

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between the gap between stimulus and the effect or the feeling,

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a bit like you know on the tubes. We've got

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is it bank one of the tubes in London? They're

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like the underground, like the metro or the subway or

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whatever you names for it in other countries. So and

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there's a gap, so you can't And if someone says,

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mind the gap, mine the gap, I'm not sure if

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it's the same voice as thirty years ago, but it

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used to be mine the gap. We are? Was it?

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We are? You are approaching Bank station? Mind the gap?

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So I guess some people if they don't understand, if

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they don't know English, then they're at a disadvantage. However,

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the gap is quite large. So mean, I don't know

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how often people fall down there, but you know you

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could definitely, like I don't think i'd be able to

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fit down, but I've never tried, but my body's a

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bit bigger than it used to be. But knowing that that,

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like that message mind the gap, it's kind of what

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I noticed is stayed with me no matter what tube

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station I was at, whether I was at Tottenham Court

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Road or at my land in Twickenham, if I was

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at Stratford, Houston, Houston, Houston, notting Hill, Romford where it's

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like I would mind the gap. Did I say Romford?

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Is there a tube station in Romford? I'm not sure.

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I know there's an overground, but I would always mind

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the gap even though they wouldn't say mind the gap

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in most of those stations. And sometimes having that gap

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between something happening and then the feeling just having a

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little gap, maybe eventually you could perhaps increase that gap.

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So in the sense of ooops, there's this metal thing

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sticking at my desk, I need to get rid of it.

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It's like a not a cup holder, I guess, like

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a microphone, a mic headphones holder or something, but it's

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very annoying. I mean to get rid of it for ages,

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but it's just, oh, so you got this thing. Instead

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of mind the gap, probably remember the gap. Remember the gap.

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Remember to have a gap there, so you remember, oh,

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the knees, the knee, and instead of instantly going to

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physical discomfort, you have a gap, and you remember when

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you think, wow, I don't need physical anything but physical

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comfort there because I know to be careful with it.

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It's my knee. I love my knee, on my elbow

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or any part of your body. And that's another thing,

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maybe like really start to cherish your body because let's

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face it's the only one we've got. I mean, you

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could argue that, so yeah, okay, so the easier one

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I got, Well about when I get a new one,

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all right, the only one you've got at the moment, okay.

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And in the future will be transplanting everything in the feuse,

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not me personally, but in the future everything. You know,

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technology is going to be phenomenal, even more phenomenal than

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it already is. But right this minute, this is our bodies.

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This is what we've got. So when you focus on

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that part of the body that was causing new problems

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in the past and like you just okay, remember the gap.

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What's required here? What's necessary here? Do I have to

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be careful with this part of the body. Do you

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need to just be gentle with this part of the body.

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Or is the fact that that part of your body

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is absolutely fine. It's just faulty signals and you don't

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need to feel anything but comfort there. It's of no

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benefit to you. It's not protecting you against anything. So

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therefore you comforts all you need. And it's weird, it's

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a little bit you ever get the like a sand castle?

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Do you when your kid? I don't know if some

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adults might do it, but I used to build sand castles,

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and there is like I mean, if I was lucky

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enough for one of brothers not to like smash it down,

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but I'd build a sand castle, I'd like to build

468
00:44:07.280 --> 00:44:10.000
it near the sea and watch the sea come in

469
00:44:10.960 --> 00:44:20.639
and just basically wash it away to nothing. And sometimes

470
00:44:20.639 --> 00:44:23.320
it feels a little bit like that with because you

471
00:44:23.320 --> 00:44:27.840
think about it, that part of your body that's been

472
00:44:27.880 --> 00:44:30.800
causing problems in the past. It's like a sand castle,

473
00:44:32.760 --> 00:44:38.280
but it's it's like it's on some kind of little

474
00:44:38.320 --> 00:44:43.360
island a little bit and this basically it's in the

475
00:44:43.400 --> 00:44:48.000
middle of two different oceans. So it's on a beach

476
00:44:48.079 --> 00:44:52.079
that's shared with two different oceans, or maybe four for

477
00:44:52.119 --> 00:44:55.199
all angles. And that's the other parts of your body

478
00:44:55.239 --> 00:44:59.960
that feel fine. So for example, with my lower back,

479
00:45:01.000 --> 00:45:05.679
my hips feel fine, my upper back feels fine, the

480
00:45:05.719 --> 00:45:09.239
other side of my lower back feels fine, my legs

481
00:45:09.239 --> 00:45:15.559
feel fine, my hands feel fine, my bottom feels fine.

482
00:45:17.079 --> 00:45:20.280
It's a weird, weird it's weird to say that out loud,

483
00:45:20.320 --> 00:45:24.400
but you know what I mean. So the one bit

484
00:45:24.760 --> 00:45:30.400
which has been problematic that in the past was the

485
00:45:30.440 --> 00:45:34.960
lower back on the left hand side. And that's kind

486
00:45:34.960 --> 00:45:38.679
of like a castle that I've been almost trying to

487
00:45:38.760 --> 00:45:43.320
protect for some reason, while protecting because I want it

488
00:45:43.360 --> 00:45:49.039
to be safe, but if you realize it is already

489
00:45:49.280 --> 00:46:00.440
safe and you don't actually have to do anything, then

490
00:46:00.480 --> 00:46:07.800
the sea will come in and just spread over that castle,

491
00:46:08.800 --> 00:46:12.599
and the feelings from the other parts of your body

492
00:46:13.239 --> 00:46:18.920
will just flow over it, almost to get that part

493
00:46:19.039 --> 00:46:24.800
feeling the same as the rest of your body. I

494
00:46:24.880 --> 00:46:31.280
quite like that idea, quite like that idea that in

495
00:46:31.320 --> 00:46:42.079
a sense, you remove that separation. And when I think

496
00:46:42.119 --> 00:46:47.039
about getting up from this chair. You know. I know

497
00:46:47.119 --> 00:46:51.440
that sometimes, you know, I might think watch out for

498
00:46:51.519 --> 00:46:55.880
me back. So that's when the gap comes in. It's like,

499
00:46:56.599 --> 00:47:03.960
wait a minute, well that's fine. My back's all right.

500
00:47:04.039 --> 00:47:07.320
I can I can stand up, I can sit down,

501
00:47:07.400 --> 00:47:10.800
I can stand up. It's not there's no reason for

502
00:47:11.039 --> 00:47:14.360
me not to be able to just move around and

503
00:47:14.400 --> 00:47:19.360
do what I know would normally do. I don't think

504
00:47:19.360 --> 00:47:22.159
I'm going to be a rock climber anytime soon. And

505
00:47:22.320 --> 00:47:25.440
kicking's pretty much out, and there's certain things I can't do.

506
00:47:25.519 --> 00:47:29.639
But I know that, and it's okay. My stomach knows

507
00:47:29.639 --> 00:47:36.239
that as well. My stomach I feed me, BlimE me.

508
00:47:37.800 --> 00:47:41.519
If it isn't Vinny disturbing me, it's my own gut.

509
00:47:41.760 --> 00:47:52.159
It's ridiculous. So having that realization and it can be

510
00:47:52.360 --> 00:47:55.960
some would say it's a choice. Just be a choice,

511
00:47:56.159 --> 00:48:06.119
like you know what, choose to feel relaxed and no

512
00:48:06.239 --> 00:48:11.679
longer give away that control to something else. I'd given

513
00:48:11.679 --> 00:48:14.920
my control over to a mobile phone vibrating in my

514
00:48:15.039 --> 00:48:19.320
pocket to stimulate a panic attack. I mean, come on,

515
00:48:20.360 --> 00:48:26.599
that that was just and I laughed afterwards, but it

516
00:48:26.639 --> 00:48:31.880
woke me up to the fact that actually, how real

517
00:48:32.440 --> 00:48:38.519
is a panic attack. I'm not saying they're fake or anything,

518
00:48:38.559 --> 00:48:43.719
because it absolutely crumbled my life for a little while

519
00:48:43.960 --> 00:48:50.639
while for over a year. But if something can come

520
00:48:50.679 --> 00:48:59.239
on and then vanish so very quickly, what else can

521
00:48:59.320 --> 00:49:07.239
also vanish very very quickly. What else that isn't needed

522
00:49:08.000 --> 00:49:15.039
can just disappear if it's not needed. You know, sometimes

523
00:49:15.039 --> 00:49:18.880
it might feel like, well, make a will, make a

524
00:49:18.880 --> 00:49:31.239
make a deal. If I need you, I'll ask, or

525
00:49:31.800 --> 00:49:34.440
if I do something, you know, you make a deal

526
00:49:34.480 --> 00:49:36.920
with that part of your body. If you do something

527
00:49:37.320 --> 00:49:42.559
that's harmful towards that part of your body, then please

528
00:49:42.599 --> 00:49:53.719
return that physical discomfort outside of that. Just feel relaxed

529
00:49:55.079 --> 00:50:00.159
in that part of your body, feel calm and lose

530
00:50:01.039 --> 00:50:07.639
in that part of your body. You could also always

531
00:50:07.639 --> 00:50:10.159
you can mean, you can imagine yourself right in a

532
00:50:10.239 --> 00:50:13.920
contract or signing a contract that that is it. From

533
00:50:13.920 --> 00:50:18.719
now on, from this moment onwards, You're going to stick

534
00:50:18.760 --> 00:50:21.320
to your side of the bargain. You're going to be careful.

535
00:50:22.159 --> 00:50:26.239
So for example, I cannot kick. I would I could

536
00:50:26.239 --> 00:50:28.960
if an emergency I would be able to, but I can't.

537
00:50:28.960 --> 00:50:30.960
You know, I had to give up doing taekwondo because

538
00:50:30.960 --> 00:50:33.440
of my back and I couldn't go back to that.

539
00:50:33.800 --> 00:50:36.880
It's as simple as that. It's just it's it's a

540
00:50:37.000 --> 00:50:41.400
it's a physical movement continuous that it's this I can't

541
00:50:41.519 --> 00:50:45.360
uphold with my with my left or it is a

542
00:50:45.440 --> 00:50:48.039
left leg thing really rather than right right leg thing.

543
00:50:48.840 --> 00:50:53.280
Mind you both both kicking both legs affects the user's back.

544
00:50:54.199 --> 00:51:04.800
But if I'm careful, it's fine. And that's all it is.

545
00:51:04.800 --> 00:51:07.360
I do exercises every day to stretch it and to

546
00:51:07.480 --> 00:51:16.280
strengthen and keep my lower back strengthened. But you know,

547
00:51:16.320 --> 00:51:19.440
it's kind of like I've got they really think about

548
00:51:19.440 --> 00:51:22.480
it like this before it's I got of an unsaid

549
00:51:22.599 --> 00:51:26.360
contract and unwritten contract. So maybe you could have the

550
00:51:26.400 --> 00:51:31.480
same kind of thing yourself where you make peace. I

551
00:51:31.480 --> 00:51:34.079
think sometimes you need to make peace with that part

552
00:51:34.079 --> 00:51:38.519
of your body so instead of because sometimes it's like,

553
00:51:38.719 --> 00:51:42.960
you know, if you're trying to stop something from happening.

554
00:51:43.840 --> 00:51:45.679
So let's say you've got you've got something the other

555
00:51:45.679 --> 00:51:48.719
side of the door, and you're pushing the door, and

556
00:51:48.760 --> 00:51:52.559
the harder they push, the harder you push, and it

557
00:51:52.760 --> 00:51:56.679
just gets well, there's no winners, it can It's kind

558
00:51:56.679 --> 00:51:59.480
of like, you know, you're both struggling or what is

559
00:51:59.519 --> 00:52:04.360
it rope rope fight? You know, when you got what

560
00:52:04.400 --> 00:52:06.880
do they call it a rope fight? Tug a war

561
00:52:07.719 --> 00:52:11.679
where you kind of just it's going nowhere, or someone

562
00:52:11.719 --> 00:52:16.920
with equal strength doing an arm wrestle. Eventually they've just

563
00:52:16.960 --> 00:52:23.880
got to say, okay, we'll just call this a day perhaus.

564
00:52:23.880 --> 00:52:29.559
We don't need this anymore. There's an old thing. It's

565
00:52:29.679 --> 00:52:33.440
it's I saw this set of workshop once they said

566
00:52:33.440 --> 00:52:40.039
put your hands together, now, push with your right hand,

567
00:52:40.800 --> 00:52:46.119
and every single person, including myself at the time, pushed

568
00:52:46.599 --> 00:52:49.119
with the right hand, but also pushed with a left hand,

569
00:52:49.559 --> 00:52:54.840
stopping the right hand from moving. Well, actually, push your

570
00:52:54.920 --> 00:52:58.800
right hand means you just don't do anything with your

571
00:52:58.880 --> 00:53:06.639
left hand. So there's a seems to be a tendency

572
00:53:06.880 --> 00:53:10.360
of humans to do that, almost to push against ourselves

573
00:53:11.320 --> 00:53:26.440
instead of with so that restriction. You know, if it's

574
00:53:26.480 --> 00:53:29.199
like a constant restriction, I don't want to feel that way,

575
00:53:29.199 --> 00:53:31.320
and I want to feel that way that body feels this.

576
00:53:31.400 --> 00:53:33.920
I don't want it to be like that. And then

577
00:53:33.920 --> 00:53:37.480
that part of the body's thinking, well, you're not listening

578
00:53:37.480 --> 00:53:39.360
to me, are you. So I've got to keep doing

579
00:53:39.360 --> 00:53:42.400
it until you listen. I've got to keep giving you

580
00:53:42.440 --> 00:53:46.360
this physical discomfort until you listen to me and do

581
00:53:46.440 --> 00:53:52.280
what you're supposed to do. Take me seriously. But when

582
00:53:52.320 --> 00:53:58.159
you do listen, take it seriously, realize that maybe there's

583
00:53:58.199 --> 00:54:01.360
some things that you need to change. Maybe there isn't.

584
00:54:02.480 --> 00:54:04.880
You can take it seriously. If it's being checked out,

585
00:54:04.960 --> 00:54:12.599
you've taken it seriously. If there's nothing physically necessarily going on,

586
00:54:13.440 --> 00:54:17.320
is where you don't need it anymore. Maybe it's something

587
00:54:17.320 --> 00:54:21.679
that had you had before and now it's healed and

588
00:54:23.440 --> 00:54:27.199
you don't need it. Or if you know the cause

589
00:54:27.239 --> 00:54:30.960
of it and it's unnecessary, you know that you're going

590
00:54:31.000 --> 00:54:40.360
to be careful. So all it's necessary is physical comfort,

591
00:54:40.800 --> 00:54:43.039
and the rest of your body surround in the area

592
00:54:43.159 --> 00:54:46.840
can just like with a sand cast or just wash

593
00:54:46.880 --> 00:54:51.559
over and also sort of spread that feeling overwards. So

594
00:54:51.559 --> 00:54:54.960
it's just it's almost like it's joining the body again

595
00:54:59.239 --> 00:55:01.159
and then the rest of the body looks out for it.

596
00:55:08.119 --> 00:55:11.400
So for me, I feel like I've done that with

597
00:55:11.400 --> 00:55:16.760
my lower back and instead of being isolated, it's no

598
00:55:16.840 --> 00:55:22.639
longer isolated. So the other parts of my back look

599
00:55:22.679 --> 00:55:26.960
out for my lower back, my hips look out for

600
00:55:27.079 --> 00:55:30.280
my lower back. The other side of my lower back

601
00:55:30.400 --> 00:55:40.599
looks out for it. But everything's kind of just, I

602
00:55:40.639 --> 00:55:45.239
guess loving in a way. It might be sounding a

603
00:55:45.239 --> 00:55:52.400
bit soppy, but the body's loving each part. Your knees,

604
00:55:52.480 --> 00:55:58.000
loving your hands, your feet are loving your ankles. You

605
00:55:58.039 --> 00:56:01.039
know they're connected. The whole thing is connected. It's one thing.

606
00:56:02.360 --> 00:56:06.800
We call things different things, it's one. It's literally one thing.

607
00:56:09.719 --> 00:56:16.159
And I think it's quite nice when you think about that.

608
00:56:16.199 --> 00:56:23.039
The because there's a time when you know, you get

609
00:56:23.039 --> 00:56:27.320
a puppy, your kitten, you no longer hold it in

610
00:56:27.360 --> 00:56:30.000
your hands. You have to let it down. You have

611
00:56:30.039 --> 00:56:32.440
to let it go. I don't mean let it go go,

612
00:56:32.519 --> 00:56:34.480
but you have to. You have to put it down.

613
00:56:34.559 --> 00:56:38.039
You can't you take a puppy home with you or kitten.

614
00:56:39.119 --> 00:56:42.360
You can't hold it in your hands forever, no matter

615
00:56:42.360 --> 00:56:45.519
how much you want to. You know you want to

616
00:56:45.599 --> 00:56:48.239
keep it safe, you want to cuddle it. And let's

617
00:56:48.280 --> 00:56:52.159
face it, a little kitten. It's like, what's what's cute

618
00:56:52.239 --> 00:56:56.920
than a little kitten or a little puppy. There's so cute.

619
00:56:58.199 --> 00:57:02.880
It's so cute. I suppose some people with a baby,

620
00:57:03.679 --> 00:57:07.480
a baby, you know, but you don't spend. You don't

621
00:57:07.519 --> 00:57:10.320
carry them around twenty four hours a day. You put

622
00:57:10.360 --> 00:57:12.639
them down, You put them into a bear? Do you

623
00:57:12.679 --> 00:57:19.800
put you know otherwise that you need to have that

624
00:57:19.960 --> 00:57:23.480
little bit of distance and allow it to just be

625
00:57:23.639 --> 00:57:31.320
itself and allow it, that part of your body to

626
00:57:31.480 --> 00:57:40.679
realize that it is supported by its surroundings. Allow that

627
00:57:40.760 --> 00:57:46.639
part of your body to know that it's safe. It

628
00:57:46.679 --> 00:57:52.880
doesn't have to do anything, just be, just be there

629
00:57:56.000 --> 00:58:01.199
and put it to know that you appreciate it. Maybe

630
00:58:01.320 --> 00:58:05.719
your body appreciates you because now you're looking after it,

631
00:58:06.880 --> 00:58:11.400
and all that discomfort you used to have was you

632
00:58:11.559 --> 00:58:23.079
looking after your that body part. But it's not necessary

633
00:58:24.159 --> 00:58:36.679
because that contract that you signed in your mind the

634
00:58:36.800 --> 00:58:49.480
comforts all you need and providing you treat your body safely,

635
00:58:53.199 --> 00:59:02.960
with love, with care, you can feel comfortable and relaxed

636
00:59:05.039 --> 00:59:19.480
and loose and peaceful. Now I've rabbited on for a bit,

637
00:59:20.360 --> 00:59:23.440
which is what I do. I don't know if any

638
00:59:23.480 --> 00:59:29.320
of this was useful. So where are you now? If

639
00:59:29.320 --> 00:59:37.280
you focus on that part of body? We did the

640
00:59:37.679 --> 00:59:41.199
zero to ten scale earlier at the beginning. Where is

641
00:59:41.239 --> 00:59:46.320
it now? And how much has it changed? How much

642
00:59:46.360 --> 00:59:51.239
had it calmed down? How pleased do you? How relaxed

643
00:59:51.239 --> 00:59:56.639
are you? Please let me know how you go on.

644
01:00:00.480 --> 01:00:03.679
So I'm going to bring this record into an end.

645
01:00:05.920 --> 01:00:08.880
Remember to be kind to yourself because you do deserve

646
01:00:08.960 --> 01:00:16.639
to be happy. Be gentle with yourself. You deserve to

647
01:00:16.760 --> 01:00:29.559
feel safe. Lots of love, bye,