June 2, 2025

(music) Buddhism | Monday’s Boring Objects | LMBYTS #1363 | 2nd June 2025

(music) Buddhism | Monday’s Boring Objects | LMBYTS #1363 | 2nd June 2025
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Hello, Hello, Welcome to Jasonnewland dot com. My name is

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Jason Newland and this is let Me Buoy You to Sleep.

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Please only listen when you can safety close your eyes,

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and this is Monday's boring Objects.

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I hope you will.

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I actually started this recording to do a kind of

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a relaxation recording, and I realized that it's just not

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quite enough to do that.

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Here.

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Too much noise, too much background noise. Vinnie's like cleaning

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himself and it's weird. So yeah, I'm gonna do this

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instead because he is a part of the let Me

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boy You to Sleep or to let Me Boil Your

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Pain away recordings. And those that listen regularly know who

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Vinny is. You know that he's a little Jack Russell,

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little red Jack Russell who likes to be involved. He's

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kind of like my co host in a weird way.

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Very weird way, really, isn't it. So I've ordered some

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shopping and it's apparently it's on its way. It should

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be here in about twenty minutes. And then I've got

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a meeting a friend for coffee at this afternoon. So

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that's the first time I've been out anywhere in public since.

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Wow.

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December. Yeah, first time I've been out anywhere since December

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because that was when I went saw my dad at

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the pub just before Christmas. I mean, I go to

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the park and I have been to the pet shop

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probably since then. I'm into the garage a couple of times,

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but I don't like going to the garage anymore. I

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have been to the pharmacy probably a couple of times

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in that time. I mean last month I didn't go,

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but all the other months I did. This month I

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didn't go, but I've got a neighbor that I asked

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a neighbor to go and collect it for me, and

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they did, which is grew groovy. So probably January, February, March, January, February,

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March I got them. You know, I probably had to

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go and collect themselves. Maybe not January, but definitely February.

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Much But I haven't been in a public place, you know,

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sitting down with humans around me. So it's going to

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be a bit strange, but it's okay.

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It's a very old.

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Friend, someone I've known for a long time. I'm think,

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you know, I'm going to talk about Buddhism because as

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a Buddhist friend, I'm meeting, and I I don't want

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to really focus on him as the boring object. And

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also I don't think. I don't think that anything I

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talk about is boring. It's just yeah, that's the thing.

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I hope people don't think that if I was going

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to talk about let's say, train spotting or a subject

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that's some people would be absolutely engrossed and fascinating with

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absolutely love that I'm mocking it and corn it boring

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because I'm not. I mean, look at some of the

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subjects that I've covered in my Boring Objects. I say, look,

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I don't know what I had myself. I'm gonna have

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to go and look. I go and look, look, look, look, look,

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look look where is it? Okay, sleepy boring objects? Monday's

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Sleepy Boring Objects. So I've now done I've done a lot.

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There's a lot of a lot of episodes. But and

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when I first started doing them, I did the first

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song was rain. Okay, that's not something I particularly find interesting. Hair,

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that's the number one I don't particularly find interesting. Bricks,

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so you know, printers, cameras, plugs, so I was talking

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about really random just objects, and then swimming pools, ovens,

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hitch hiking books. Now, there's nothing boring about books to me.

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So that was something that I've had a big interest

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in over the years. And once I actually get my

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eyes tested and get some proper glasses, I will be

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getting back into reading the books once my eyes work. Microphones,

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that's not a boring subject. Well, mops now that probably is.

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So yeah, I don't know how manage you talk about

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mops for thirty five minutes. Wallpaper, I mean, that is

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the epiphany of boringness, isn't it really wallpaper or a

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painted wall?

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Train?

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Spotters, games, beds, as jobs, baths now the jobs only

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lasted thirty eight minutes fifty nine seconds when that was

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the eighteenth of October twenty twenty one. So yeah, I

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started doing these sleepy boarding objects on the ninth of

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August twenty twenty one, so I've been doing it for

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a while now. I yeah, I could have made that

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jobs one last for about ten hours. Really. I got baths,

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wooden benches. Belgium. Again, I loved Belgium. I got It's like,

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I don't have an issue with Belgium. I really really

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loved Belgium when I went there. Brilliant place, great especially

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it's Yeah, whatever I say now is going to probably

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come across as wrong, and it's just I like the

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fact that it's flat like this.

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I'm not a big hit.

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I'm not a lover of hills, really, I'm not. I'd

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like to be able to just walk and you can

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see ahead of yourself, can't you. You can see what's about,

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you can wherever you go, So basically, whenever you leave

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your house, no matter where you go, how far away

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you go, you can always see your house. It's great

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and tea bags cheese. Yes, I've done quite a few.

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The last one I did was dog walking, and I'm

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pretty sure that was super, super exciting for everyone. Oh God,

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I'm trying to manipulate, manipulate, maneuver the laptop, but it

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keeps missing schools. I did that the week before Monday's

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Boring Objects, but I didn't even talk. I didn't even

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give it a subject. And the one before that, I

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didn't give it a subject. That's weird. I don't know

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what that is about. Strange. And then I did Willy

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Wonka that was the twenty first of April, then another

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one before that, I didn't give it a subject. That's

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kind of the point of the thing, isn't it said,

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why am I not giving them subjects? Doc job? That's

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the one they first of March this year, twenty twenty

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five homes cleaning jobs, New Year's Eve, Monday's boring objects.

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So I did a recording on New Year's Eve last

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year and an hour and forty minutes. So maybe I

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was actually talking about New Year's Eves that I had

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spent over the years. And then the Monday before that

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it was Christmas. Well it was probably Christmas Eve, wasn't

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it New Year's EO Christmas Eve? So I talked about

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Christmas for one hour and eighteen minutes, blind me. Then

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before that I talked about friends, hair styles. Before that,

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counseling degree, girlfriend's girlfriends and girl they dare your girlfriend? Oh? Girlfriends?

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Lasted two hours and seven minutes. What the ex about?

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Online IQ tes tests? Two hours and fourteen minutes. So

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I actually did an online I did online IQ tests. Wow,

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I kind of vaguely remember that. That was in October

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last year. So today what did I say I was

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going to talk about? I can't remember.

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I have a.

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Not deliveries. Oh Buddhism, So I'm going to talk. I'm

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going to talk about Buddhism. I'm not going to talk

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about Buddhism itself. I'm not going to go into details,

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you know, about what Buddhism is and stuff. But I'm

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going to talk about my experiences with Buddhism from from

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an early age and then onwards. So just let you know.

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I do have a Facebook group called Jason Newland's Boring Group.

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The link is on my website. I also have a

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YouTube channel at Jason Newland. I'm just going to go

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back to doing I tried to make some videos the

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last few days and takes so long and my head

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looks my face looks like a tomato. I'm not Yeah,

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I'm just going to go back to doing audios. It's

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much more relaxed for me. I'm just talking to the microphone.

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I can look at the computer screen if I want to,

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I can close my eyes. I can just chill out

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and yeah, this suits me better.

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Better, and what else.

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So yeah, that's it. I'll probably just continue go back

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to uploading on YouTube. Six versions that are recording, you know,

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without music, and then with music five and ten hours. Yeah,

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Today's second of June two thousand and twenty five, I

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got my Universal Credit an email from them telling me

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to check some stuff and I didn't understand it. I

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genuinely didn't understand it. And then then I've got a

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letter through today, so apparently on my new style employment

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and support allowance on your interview on and there's a

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little gap, but you you had an interview, so they

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did call me last week with us to agree what

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you need to do to get new style essay. This

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is known as your claimant commitment. You agreed your claimant

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commitment on a twenty eighth of May two twenty five,

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which was Thursday, Wednesday, Wednesday, last Wednesday. What happens next?

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We're right to tell you if you can get newest

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new style of essay, and if so, how much you

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will get. So at this point I don't even know

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I'm getting if I'm getting it, I don't know when

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they're going to tell me. And then this is this

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is absolutely it's kind of it's funny, but it's not

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funny because it's very confusing. I've got a letter about

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another one about my employment and support allowance. Your contribution

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based employment and support allowance will change the new style

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employment and we will book an appointment, so I get this.

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They sent this in a twenty fifth bearing in mind

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it's so they sent this on well, it's dated the

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twenty fifth, which would be the Sunday before last, so

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it will have been sent out earliest on a Monday.

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So it's literally taken Yes, it's taken a whole week

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to get here, so I'm not sure.

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How that works.

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And now I've got a letter from the rent for

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the council iri rent reminder. It appears you have not

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received your rent. We have not received your rent payment

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on time, and you now owe one hundred and sixty

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eight pound ninety if you have paid within the last

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few days.

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Thank you.

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Please disregard this letter. And it's given me like a

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list of things that will happen over paym payment overdue

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that leads to legal action, core proceedings, then eviction a

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little bit heavy handed. I mean my rents ten years.

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My rent's always been paid and only reason it's not

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being paid yet is because the benefits are changed over

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they just so does that mean I owe one hundred

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and sixty eight pound ninety? I don't know. This is

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confusing me. I really think you know if you owe

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one hundred and sixty eight pound ninety. The word legal actions,

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core proceedings and evictions shouldn't not be on that letter.

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This is just a really it's weird. I'm not I'm

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not a big fan of that. If I have ina

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difficulty paying your rent, please contact us. If you normally

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pay your rent with housing benefit or have made a

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claim for Universal Credit, then it may have been suspended

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or stopped. Wow. The thing is, these letters are just generic,

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aren't they. No one's actually like thinking all that. Jason

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I want to get him now and typing it out.

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It's just I guess if you go, I mean one

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hundred and sixty eight pound ninety. The rents one hundred

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and what four pounds a week, so that's not even

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two weeks rent and they're sending a letter out, so

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I don't know, very strange, it's very very unusual behavior.

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I personally think, should I talk about a rent? I

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can't even remember that a lot of the rents are

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paid over the years. That might be more interesting or

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moor less interesting.

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More boring.

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I just he just said, Oh, you're all over the place.

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Why are you making so much noise? You've already ruined

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one recording today, Vinny, why don't try and ruin this

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one as well? Well, I'm doing it all on my own.

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He said that several rude. Stop being so rude. Don't

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flap your ears at me. You've got such an attitude

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now as you're getting older. Yes, you have, you're getting

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an attitude. You need to calm yourself down. No, don't

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look away, look at me. You need to calm He's

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so cute. He's wiggling his tail. It's both his ears

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are up and he's turning his head. He's so damn cute,

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and as you are. I finally found some food that

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he likes, that he really likes, and one was called

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I'll tell you though, it's like a whole food.

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Where is it?

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I got it from Amazon. I've got it. I bought

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it on Amazon. It's not, you know, an Amazon mute food?

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Where is it?

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Okay?

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He really likes it. And I've gone through probably ten

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different types of food trying to find him something that

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he would almost, I don't want to say, get excited

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to eat, but it seems sometimes he just reluctantly eats

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what I give him. It's like, okay, or eat it

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if he's hungry, but he doesn't seem to be particularly

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you know, excited. Let's have a look.

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Past three months.

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Oh, I got some Yeah, because I also got some soap,

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and some toothpaste, tough paste, and some deodorant. Sketches shoes

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on the thirteenth for me that my other shoes are

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falling apart, right, so I get these sketches. Men's go

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max athletic. The idea of me buying anything with the

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name athletic, and it is kind of funny to me.

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But they're supposed to be good for sort of slipping on.

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And the weird problem is, and they're supposed to be

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ten size ten, they're too loose. They're not.

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Too loose.

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They're not falling off me when I walk, but they're

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not I definitely couldn't run in them. Again, that's kind

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of tickles me a little bit because I've just said

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the little visual of me trying to run, I'm not

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going to be running in them. But that's not the

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point is I took Vinnie around the field the other day,

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around the actual field fields, and I ended up with

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a blister on the back of my foot. This is

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this is wearing socks, so how much did it cost?

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Fifty pounds fifty sixpences supposed to be tenpence, size ten

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and I desperately needed because the other ones. When I

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broke my foot, probably ah, BlimE me two years ago,

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two years, maybe a year, a year and a half.

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I can't it's a while, and I couldn't put socks on.

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Maybe it was when I break my toe. I can't remember,

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but I couldn't put socks on because my foot. It

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must have been my toe. Oh is it when I

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kicked the wall when I was asleep. I think I

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kicked the wall. Yees, So I broke my toe, my

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big toe, and it wasn't on purpose, by the way,

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So I was hobbling around for a while. I couldn't

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put my socks on. That was just a just no,

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it's a no no. So but luckily the shoes I

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had were comfortable enough, the former sketches ones. I had

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to not need shoe to not need socks, and I

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went through about a year where I didn't wear socks

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at all. Some would say that's gross, but it's it's

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not the worst thing I've done, so it's it Probably

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maybe it is, Maybe it is groom I don't know,

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but I went through the whole winter about wearing socks.

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I was outside, didn't need socks, just got used to it,

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and there was a degree of freedom I quite liked.

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I enjoyed that, I know, just a little bit of

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it was relaxing. It was I didn't feel so restricted.

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But then the shoes that I had started falling apart

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internally and also at the bottom. They're just worn out,

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basically because I do I suppose, I do quite a

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bit of walking through the week, taking him out and stuff.

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So I could no longer where I could no longer

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have them without socks. So I started wearing socks. But

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then they just became really uncomfortable because there's just it's

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like stick things sticking into my foot. So that's why

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I had to better go and buy some new shoes.

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And I did think maybe I could go back to

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not wearing any socks again, But it turns out I'm

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going to need to two pairs of socks really if

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I want them to fit tight no nicely. If I

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was going to walk around the field like I did before,

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I'd probably need two pairs of socks. But the question

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is why this is only my right heel blister, but

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my left heel didn't. I mean, I wasn't hopping. I'd

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used both feet, So why did only one blister and

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the other one did not. That just seems a bit strange. So, okay,

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we're talking about dog food. Dog food. I just had

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my delivery, by the way, I just I had a few,

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a few. I think that's why I'm kind of losing

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track of where I am with this recording a little bit,

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because I've had a few interruptions from Vinnie from the door,

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going from the door going to once is when the

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post got delivered and Vinie went absolutely.

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Rah rah rah.

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And then I got my delivery and Vinue went rah

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rah rah rah rah.

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And earlier we had someone in the garden.

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Talking a loudness or volume that's unnecessary, really, I think

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she did, did he or she? When they talk on

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their phone and have their phone on a loud speaker

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and they walk to the next road, so I think,

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what what they do? They leave their phone like the

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other side of the road or something, and then come

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back into the garden and talk. That's what it sounds like.

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So loud Lily's Kitchen Natural adult dog Food, Now it

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was lah a little bit six pound fifty six and

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it was six tins one hundred and fifty grams each.

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I give him half a tin per meal, basically because

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he had treats and he eats the dry food and

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stuff in between. So I did give him the whole packet.

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I give him the whole tin, and he couldn't eat

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it all too much, so I'm just give him half

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at a time.

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He loves it.

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I don't have to coax him to eat it, which

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I did before with the other stuff, and I really

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have I mean, you might think, oh, wait a minute,

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it was a one time purchase. So I paid seven

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pound twenty nine. Really seven pounded? Does it tell me

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how much I paid delivered twenty eighth of may buy

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it again? Okay, let's have a look. Buy again. Seven

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pound twenty nine. Yeah, that's how much I paid for

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six So I'm going to have another look to see

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what other what other foods? Visit the store. Lily's Kitchen

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calling all daring dogs shop dog food. Okay, that's what

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we want. I'm not I'm not happy now because they

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also serve, they help. I don't want to buy food

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that also makes food for cat for cats. It just

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it just feels feels unfair for any shop dry food. No, well,

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I suppose I could shop web food. Let's have a

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look see what different ones they've got. So they've got

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ones in big ten, which I don't want. Classic Dinners.

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That's the ones I got. Uh, Classic dinners multipack six

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times one point fifty gram all I can also by them.

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What's this thirteen pound forty nine thirteen amiens in that

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one and thirty is cottage pie pack of ten. It's oh,

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it's not thirteen pounds, it's twelve pounds fourteen, So it's

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a different it's a discount, but that's the same, the

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same one. I'd like the idea of maybe me, you know,

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having options, having different ones. I don't want to just

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get him like ten of the same, although there's quite

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a few different ones that they do they've got, So

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have a look. Beef goulash, cottage pie, lean machine, whatever

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that is great British breakfast, Sunday lunch, chicken and turkey,

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casse role lamb, hot pot lamb tag in to guinea

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fishy pie, fishy fish pie, fishy fish pie as opposed

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to what kind of other fish pie Coronation chicken. Okay,

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so that's all the ones I do. It's still good.

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Oh no, it's more beef supper, lamb supper, chicken supper,

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and you've got organic as well. So I don't know

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how many is in that one? One, two, three, four?

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Is it four for fourteen pound? That seems a little bit.

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Oh no, it's back of ten fourteen pound pack of

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ten okay, so.

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I'll go back. So there's quite a few.

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Let's have a look at some of these other ones.

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This is the pack of pack of one Lily's Kitchen

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six six weekend Favorites. Okay, so that's seven pound A

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note it is eight pound forty nine but as cheaper

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ways of getting it lowest price other sellers seven pound

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seventy five plus three delivery. So why is it costing

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more than the actual place that makes the stuff? That

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don't make so much sense. Where are they getting it from?

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Or they buying it in bulk and then dividing it

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into smaller packs, or you know, I knew what I

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meant when I said what I said. I could put

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it down on my Amazon list. If anyone's interested in

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buying Viny some food, let me know if you are,

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because honestly I have tried. Is what I bought him

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so far? Win a lot Meatia chunks, Win a lot

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of Sunday Dinners, Caesar's Country Stew Adult and Lily's Kitchen,

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so that's recent. The other one's pedigree Charm Adult wet food.

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Several of or other ones have I got him? Oh

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some of it might actually have been from Sainsbury's who

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won't be on here. But he's had lots of different

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old number pedigree chum different one Sultana cake and then

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that was for me. I do like a bit of cake.

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Hard to believe, but I do. I do is like

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to kick Oh Morrison's Chocolate Claires. I ordered that at

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some point in the past. I haven't ordered anything from Amazon,

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like the shopping groceries for ages. I use Uber Eats

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now because Amazon kept not delivering the stuff that I ordered,

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so they used Morrison's and had a few examples when

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they just didn't. The stuff wasn't in the bag. You

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get refund and stuff, but I just didn't. That wasn't

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quite what I was looking for, you know what I mean?

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Sketches Men's Go Max delivered Tuesday ten for June our

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three delivery Tuesda. I was going to say I didn't

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buy it in ten for June, I need a second

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of June. I did buy some FM London one two, three,

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four five eight pack. There was an eight pack of

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boxes or underwear and they were too small, just too

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They weren't too small, but they were just too tight.

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So I can't really wear them. I can wear them,

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but they're just a bit too tight, you know, a

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bit too Oh, look at this, just looking at something.

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I've bought.

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Most of the stuff I've bought on Amazon, it's just

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been food. Just looking at other dog food and must

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be I'll wag a complete dog food. So I've bought

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oh yeah, James well beloved adult dog food. And according

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to this, I bought socks. But I don't know where

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any of them are.

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Now.

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I'm not sure how many of those have been eating

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by Vinnie. Possibly a few, possibly, I mean genuinely, possibly

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a few have been eaten by him or hidden. He

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might have a stash somewhere. I don't know where he

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would have them. Oh wow, I there's a muzzle that

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I got for LOGI. So that's quite a while back

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in it it doesn't say what date it was, man, right,

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I can't find any others, So yeah, what was I

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talking about? What was eireking? I boot? This is going

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to be one of those recordings where I don't actually

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get to the point, and as we all know, that

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doesn't happen very often. Maybe she was stick with a Buddhist.

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So my first interesting Buddhism, I would say, probably came

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when I watched Kung Fu on TV, Kung Fu show

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Good Our Supper, I don't know if you remember, and

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there was one scene where he was locked in a

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I don't know what it was called, like a.

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A heated.

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Little shed thing, you know, like a coal bunker thing,

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and he was locked in there overnight or for two

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days or three days, and he when they opened the door,

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expecting him to be in a not very good space,

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he was calmly, meditating, smiling, if I if I remember correctly,

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they were so annoyed that they closed door again, but

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that might just be added, and I just added that myself.

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And that's when I started thinking and like, ah, because

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I've been I've been in a situation where I was

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locked in cupboards and locked in places, and like I

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didn't know how to deal with it. And I thought, oh,

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there is a way of dealing with that kind of

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stuff where you, you know, to.

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Calm yourself down.

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I didn't really understand because I was like eight nine

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years old, but.

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I liked it.

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I liked it a lot, I did. I liked it,

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and I thought, hmm, And then I remember seeing Incredible

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Hulk and he also used to try and work or

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you know, find ways to calm himself down so that

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he didn't get angry, because you wouldn't like him when

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you got angry. And this was the TV show from

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the seventies and I guess early eighties as well. And

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again I was kind of like, okay, because I had

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a few anger stuff issues. I guess back then I

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would explode. So I could see the similarity between me

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and the Incredible Hulk, except I just turned red and

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stayed the same size other than that, and didn't get

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any stronger, but just screamed like a Benchie. So I

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kind of like that seed was sown the idea of

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finding a way to calm down my mind or calm

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down me, and.

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I was.

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I guess I was a little bit of a stress

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head when I was a kid, and I didn't even

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know why I wasn't. I didn't understand why I was

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how I was. And I remember one particular time I

476
00:38:14.199 --> 00:38:17.440
went home from school and was still living in the

477
00:38:17.519 --> 00:38:19.519
house where mine and the grand had moved in, so

478
00:38:19.519 --> 00:38:22.639
I would have been about nine eight or nine. I

479
00:38:22.719 --> 00:38:26.039
went into kitchen and I and my stepmom said, but

480
00:38:26.079 --> 00:38:28.679
are you all right? I said, yeah, I fine. He said,

481
00:38:28.800 --> 00:38:31.000
come on, you don't and I started crying and I'm

482
00:38:31.079 --> 00:38:35.760
sort of just uncontrollably crying, and I didn't know why,

483
00:38:36.440 --> 00:38:39.199
and it was I just remember that, and it happened

484
00:38:39.199 --> 00:38:41.719
a few times. It still happens as an adult sometimes,

485
00:38:43.280 --> 00:38:45.800
but it was really just like built up and I

486
00:38:45.840 --> 00:38:50.159
didn't really I had no way of dealing with it.

487
00:38:50.760 --> 00:38:53.079
I guess I had nowhere of dealing what happened in

488
00:38:53.119 --> 00:38:56.519
the past. I didn't understand it. None of it really

489
00:38:56.559 --> 00:39:05.199
made sense. Buck it's see the benefit of some kind

490
00:39:05.239 --> 00:39:10.920
of I knew it was meditation, So I don't know

491
00:39:10.960 --> 00:39:13.760
how I knew it was meditation. Maybe someone told me

492
00:39:14.480 --> 00:39:19.239
that was that Kung Fu was doing in that like

493
00:39:19.559 --> 00:39:23.039
dungeony room thing that he was locked in like a

494
00:39:23.119 --> 00:39:29.960
hot room or something. But yeah, those seeds were planted

495
00:39:30.039 --> 00:39:36.599
of like, maybe there is a way to calm myself.

496
00:39:39.960 --> 00:39:45.400
And then I when my dad was ill, he had

497
00:39:45.400 --> 00:39:50.039
to have a serious operation when I was about twelve,

498
00:39:50.119 --> 00:39:58.000
i'd say, maybe eleven. So at that time I turned

499
00:39:58.000 --> 00:40:00.639
to the New Testament. It kind of co decided when

500
00:40:00.719 --> 00:40:05.119
the Gideon Society came around the school, and probably right

501
00:40:05.119 --> 00:40:07.039
at the beginning of the first year of high school,

502
00:40:07.079 --> 00:40:09.760
they handed these Gideon Bibles.

503
00:40:10.000 --> 00:40:11.480
I've got one on the shelf.

504
00:40:11.519 --> 00:40:15.360
Actually it's not the same one, but it's it is

505
00:40:15.400 --> 00:40:18.400
the same one. It's a red Gideon's Bible, and that

506
00:40:18.480 --> 00:40:22.639
they produced probably millions over the years, hundreds of millions probably,

507
00:40:25.320 --> 00:40:28.719
and I read it. I spent all my time reading it.

508
00:40:28.679 --> 00:40:29.320
Really.

509
00:40:31.199 --> 00:40:38.239
And there was a degree of meditation that came from

510
00:40:38.280 --> 00:40:46.199
that for me, by letting go and not clinging onto

511
00:40:46.280 --> 00:40:53.079
stuff and not not getting angry with people. But at

512
00:40:53.119 --> 00:40:54.880
the same time, I was letting people get away with

513
00:40:54.960 --> 00:40:58.639
stuff that I would not normally have done at school

514
00:40:58.639 --> 00:41:03.039
and that so, you know, it didn't last long, but

515
00:41:03.079 --> 00:41:06.800
it lasted till my dad had his operation and was better.

516
00:41:06.920 --> 00:41:14.079
So then I went back to my old ways. And

517
00:41:14.159 --> 00:41:20.239
then when I was then I started doing karate, and

518
00:41:20.280 --> 00:41:26.639
there was a degree of self control involved in that.

519
00:41:26.679 --> 00:41:32.519
There was definitely, I would say a degree of controlled

520
00:41:32.519 --> 00:41:37.599
in the anger because it's it's a very It's a discipline,

521
00:41:37.639 --> 00:41:41.280
isn't it. Like all sports, it's a discipline. So I

522
00:41:41.320 --> 00:41:44.639
was starting to learn a bit of discipline. I'd already

523
00:41:44.679 --> 00:41:46.559
been in the cecre det so I'd had to learn

524
00:41:46.599 --> 00:41:49.760
that kind of discipline as well being shouted at and

525
00:41:49.800 --> 00:42:06.400
not reacting, which yeah, wasn't easy. But they're on a

526
00:42:06.400 --> 00:42:14.880
a religious education trip school trip to London, visiting a

527
00:42:14.920 --> 00:42:20.880
few different religious places. So we went to a church

528
00:42:21.320 --> 00:42:30.360
I think we went to is was it what are

529
00:42:30.360 --> 00:42:37.079
they called, a Muslim place, a Jewish place, Catholic place,

530
00:42:37.400 --> 00:42:42.559
and a Buddhist place. We might have even gone to

531
00:42:42.599 --> 00:42:45.360
a Sekh place. So we went to quite a few

532
00:42:45.400 --> 00:42:49.480
different places and didn't spend a huge amount of time there,

533
00:42:49.519 --> 00:42:53.159
but because there was nothing there. There was just like

534
00:42:53.239 --> 00:42:56.360
empty buildings really, so we kind of had to look around.

535
00:42:56.599 --> 00:42:58.920
But when we got to the Buddhist center in London,

536
00:42:59.480 --> 00:43:04.519
there was people were there and we all sat around

537
00:43:04.599 --> 00:43:08.159
and they answered questions, because we didn't have that with

538
00:43:08.199 --> 00:43:13.320
any of the other places that we visited. So you know,

539
00:43:13.400 --> 00:43:16.960
it was probably a bit more enjoyable because there was interaction,

540
00:43:18.119 --> 00:43:20.519
and then they did they answered questions, and I kept

541
00:43:20.519 --> 00:43:24.840
asking questions about karate because they did karate there as well,

542
00:43:26.000 --> 00:43:28.639
so that kind of I think I annoyed everyone else

543
00:43:28.679 --> 00:43:32.039
in the in the group. And then I was also

544
00:43:32.079 --> 00:43:35.960
the first time I ever had a McDonald's milkshake. Oh

545
00:43:36.039 --> 00:43:41.440
my goodness, that was phenomenal. So two really lovely experiences

546
00:43:41.440 --> 00:43:46.000
in one day. So what they did at the London

547
00:43:46.039 --> 00:43:52.039
Budies Center, which is in bethnal Green, I think we

548
00:43:53.880 --> 00:43:58.599
did some meditation that probably lasted ten minutes, maybe fifteen minutes,

549
00:44:00.519 --> 00:44:04.920
and we all sat on mats. They had bells and

550
00:44:06.480 --> 00:44:12.159
incest was burning and it was like, really I liked

551
00:44:12.199 --> 00:44:17.599
it a lot, I mean really really liked it. In fact,

552
00:44:17.719 --> 00:44:21.760
I think if I'd have been closer, if there'd been

553
00:44:21.800 --> 00:44:27.360
one in my town, I possibly would have gone. I

554
00:44:27.360 --> 00:44:28.920
mean I might not have been allowed to go, but

555
00:44:29.039 --> 00:44:32.599
I would have probably asked to go and maybe sneaked

556
00:44:32.599 --> 00:44:35.800
in just for the meditation because I needed it. I

557
00:44:35.960 --> 00:44:44.880
so needed it a way to calm my mind. Makes

558
00:44:44.960 --> 00:44:47.039
you must have starting to think, why don't I go?

559
00:44:48.599 --> 00:44:54.039
I should go back? Hey, so that was that experience.

560
00:44:54.280 --> 00:45:00.800
And then I left school the next year and I

561
00:45:00.840 --> 00:45:04.760
didn't do anything other than just try and survive, really,

562
00:45:05.079 --> 00:45:08.599
so I gave up the karate. I didn't had no

563
00:45:08.760 --> 00:45:15.599
interests really, and then it was probably nineteen eighty nine

564
00:45:16.159 --> 00:45:22.280
I decided I became very interested in comedy. I started

565
00:45:22.280 --> 00:45:28.320
to write a journal. And then nineteen ninety after living

566
00:45:28.320 --> 00:45:31.119
in London for a while, I came back to the

567
00:45:31.159 --> 00:45:36.920
town I was used to living and I decided to

568
00:45:36.960 --> 00:45:41.679
become a comedian, a stand up So I planned and

569
00:45:41.719 --> 00:45:43.679
I was going to move back to London the next year,

570
00:45:43.679 --> 00:45:48.039
and I did so. I went back to London ninety one,

571
00:45:48.800 --> 00:45:55.960
and then probably about ninety two, maybe ninety three, but

572
00:45:56.000 --> 00:46:00.119
I'd say probably about ninety two, I started getting in

573
00:46:00.119 --> 00:46:07.079
trusted in Beat generation books like the Dama Bumbs, the

574
00:46:09.920 --> 00:46:12.320
I don't know, there's so many different ones, wasn't there

575
00:46:12.800 --> 00:46:17.159
on the Road and the Dama Bums both by Carriac

576
00:46:17.599 --> 00:46:25.920
Karaoke Jack Carrouac and then Alan Ginsburg and Cassidy or whatever,

577
00:46:26.159 --> 00:46:32.199
lots of different ones. And as I have a tendency

578
00:46:32.280 --> 00:46:35.440
to do in my life, I collected every single book

579
00:46:35.519 --> 00:46:40.480
I could on the subject, every single beat book, every

580
00:46:40.559 --> 00:46:44.519
poetry book and everything. I'm not saying I had all

581
00:46:44.519 --> 00:46:46.800
those books, but I collected all the ones I could

582
00:46:46.960 --> 00:46:50.480
afford to get, and I did that for put in

583
00:46:50.480 --> 00:46:53.280
the next three years up to one of the next

584
00:46:53.280 --> 00:46:59.519
couple of years, to two thousand and four, nineteen ninety four. Sorry,

585
00:46:59.519 --> 00:47:03.719
not too for nineteen ninety four. So I got very

586
00:47:03.800 --> 00:47:08.280
much into after that, though, I got into Buddhism. Well,

587
00:47:08.320 --> 00:47:14.920
actually probably more Taoism to start with, because the b

588
00:47:15.159 --> 00:47:18.519
generation a lot of what they're talking about was very Buddhist,

589
00:47:19.239 --> 00:47:22.800
very Dooist or Taoist, however you want to pronounce it,

590
00:47:24.320 --> 00:47:29.119
and that interested me. So I kind of from there

591
00:47:29.400 --> 00:47:34.920
got back into interested in Buddhism, interested in I mean,

592
00:47:34.960 --> 00:47:37.199
I remember I used to go to school, go to school,

593
00:47:37.239 --> 00:47:42.280
go to work, and I would be reading books like

594
00:47:42.400 --> 00:47:48.320
Confucious books or Zen books about Zen maybe the cones

595
00:47:48.519 --> 00:47:53.519
or not like ice cream cones but or is it

596
00:47:53.599 --> 00:47:59.679
co Aen's, And I'd have these I think the right

597
00:48:00.159 --> 00:48:03.840
pithy you know, like there a book of sayings, and

598
00:48:03.880 --> 00:48:08.400
I'd read those in my breaks at work. So I

599
00:48:08.440 --> 00:48:13.159
got very involved in Buddhism, but only in the sense

600
00:48:13.199 --> 00:48:23.519
of reading the books. And then two thousand and five

601
00:48:24.079 --> 00:48:27.599
or two thousand, yeah, between yeah, so between that time

602
00:48:27.639 --> 00:48:40.000
and two thousand and five September August, No, when was it.

603
00:48:40.079 --> 00:48:45.800
Probably I'm in November maybe two nineteen ninety five. I

604
00:48:45.880 --> 00:48:49.280
keep it's so long ago. I can't it's like nineteen

605
00:48:49.400 --> 00:48:53.679
ninety five. That was like that was a different century.

606
00:48:54.920 --> 00:49:00.000
So nineteen ninety five, I I sold all my book

607
00:49:00.000 --> 00:49:06.760
books or my Buddhist books, and I had a good collection,

608
00:49:07.079 --> 00:49:13.960
a large collection, but I sold them all because I

609
00:49:14.000 --> 00:49:18.280
was basically being evicted and I needed somewhere. I needed

610
00:49:18.320 --> 00:49:21.159
some cash, and then I went and worked at Butlin's,

611
00:49:21.400 --> 00:49:25.400
so you know, I didn't really work out where it

612
00:49:25.480 --> 00:49:26.079
worked out.

613
00:49:25.920 --> 00:49:31.440
In the end, but I.

614
00:49:31.400 --> 00:49:35.440
Loved that little collection and it's I had. Yeah, I

615
00:49:35.440 --> 00:49:39.400
had a good collection of books back then, probably a

616
00:49:39.480 --> 00:49:49.760
good couple of hundred books. Yeah, and then nothing, honestly

617
00:49:49.920 --> 00:49:54.559
up from ninety five then ninety six. I did read

618
00:49:54.599 --> 00:49:59.960
buy another book, which was it was a Buddhist book,

619
00:50:00.960 --> 00:50:07.079
the Tibetan. I've still it's not the same one, but

620
00:50:07.119 --> 00:50:09.079
it's the same one. So I basically had that book

621
00:50:09.119 --> 00:50:13.760
three times now and it's on my bookcase. It's at

622
00:50:13.800 --> 00:50:18.639
a red cover. I forget something Path of Good Fortune

623
00:50:19.519 --> 00:50:23.760
to make me want to read it again. Strange, isn't it?

624
00:50:23.800 --> 00:50:25.800
So I bought that, and I was reading that when

625
00:50:25.840 --> 00:50:30.360
I was doing a security job during ninety six ninety seven,

626
00:50:33.000 --> 00:50:40.079
and I think I also got I also had see

627
00:50:40.079 --> 00:50:40.679
this is weird.

628
00:50:40.840 --> 00:50:44.400
I've had this book. It is.

629
00:50:46.320 --> 00:50:51.079
Teachings of the Buddha, and I've had it since probably

630
00:50:51.760 --> 00:51:00.400
nineteen ninety three. I still got it. So I can't

631
00:51:00.440 --> 00:51:06.440
get it. What is that good?

632
00:51:24.639 --> 00:51:25.719
It's still.

633
00:51:31.320 --> 00:51:46.760
Kay couch watch. It's oposcle everywhere. I came back the

634
00:51:46.880 --> 00:51:50.159
cover and there's like a I guess it's a dust

635
00:51:50.239 --> 00:51:55.599
cover or whatever. It's very worn now. But it's called

636
00:51:55.719 --> 00:52:02.239
The Teachings of Buddha and it's one size English. Other

637
00:52:02.320 --> 00:52:08.840
side is I don't know Chinese, Mandarin. I'm not sure

638
00:52:08.840 --> 00:52:12.559
what the what the language is. It might be Japanese. Actually,

639
00:52:12.800 --> 00:52:18.000
I'm not sure teach instead of Buddha. What year was

640
00:52:18.039 --> 00:52:27.360
this printed? Oh it's Japan, Yes, so it's Japanese. So

641
00:52:27.480 --> 00:52:32.159
it's English and Japanese. Nineteen sixty six it was printed,

642
00:52:33.639 --> 00:52:39.639
and then again the revised edition Wow seven hundred and

643
00:52:39.840 --> 00:52:48.760
third Revised Edition seven hundred and three revisions of this

644
00:52:50.079 --> 00:52:52.480
nineteen ninety one. This was so this this was from

645
00:52:52.519 --> 00:52:55.119
nineteen ninety one, so I probably got it in about

646
00:52:55.199 --> 00:53:01.880
ninety two. It's the only item.

647
00:53:00.679 --> 00:53:03.480
That I have from that long ago.

648
00:53:04.039 --> 00:53:07.280
And then you know how much it cost me twenty

649
00:53:07.280 --> 00:53:11.039
five pound, still got the price tag on it on

650
00:53:11.079 --> 00:53:19.679
the inside. Twenty five pound. When you consider at the

651
00:53:19.800 --> 00:53:24.679
time my rent was forty pounds a week. I was

652
00:53:24.760 --> 00:53:29.119
earning one hundred pounds a week in my job, so

653
00:53:29.199 --> 00:53:34.119
I spent twenty five pounds on a book, which kind

654
00:53:34.119 --> 00:53:39.239
of shows how interesting I was in the subject because

655
00:53:43.119 --> 00:53:46.519
so it's English and Japanese and there is how many pages,

656
00:53:47.440 --> 00:53:50.480
over six hundred pages. But it's not a big book.

657
00:53:50.760 --> 00:53:54.519
It's you know, quite small. The writing is quite small.

658
00:53:58.480 --> 00:54:01.320
So yeah, it's good, but it's very in a way,

659
00:54:01.599 --> 00:54:04.480
it's kind of similar to the Gideon's Bible in the

660
00:54:04.599 --> 00:54:11.440
sense of you can look up things to to focus on. So,

661
00:54:11.639 --> 00:54:22.360
for example, if you're interested in I should be at

662
00:54:22.400 --> 00:54:30.000
the back. Actually, yes, at the back like a glossary. No,

663
00:54:30.119 --> 00:54:36.239
it isn't, h it's not at all. There is a

664
00:54:36.400 --> 00:54:44.000
there's a also, okay, so there is like it's an index.

665
00:54:45.360 --> 00:54:47.039
So if you want to look at truth, where you

666
00:54:47.079 --> 00:54:55.159
want to, Okay, do not forget where you are seeking.

667
00:55:01.199 --> 00:55:06.360
Do not let your mind be disturbed, even under unsatisfactory circumstances.

668
00:55:07.199 --> 00:55:09.119
So there's little things like that you can go into

669
00:55:09.199 --> 00:55:15.559
and it say, okay, it can help in a few

670
00:55:15.599 --> 00:55:20.960
you know, I suppose stuff when it's getting when things

671
00:55:20.960 --> 00:55:24.199
are maybe a little bit difficult, and the meaning of life,

672
00:55:25.280 --> 00:55:30.800
a prejudiced life, and the five things that no one

673
00:55:30.800 --> 00:55:34.320
can accomplish in this world, the four truths in this

674
00:55:34.440 --> 00:55:43.519
world is faith is a manifest manifestation, manifestation. I can't

675
00:55:43.559 --> 00:55:45.800
even say the word, but anyway that the reason not

676
00:55:45.840 --> 00:55:50.519
getting that out is because I just I forgot. I

677
00:55:51.079 --> 00:55:53.719
don't think I've got that book, but I forget that

678
00:55:53.719 --> 00:55:59.000
that book predates every other item or belonging that I

679
00:55:59.079 --> 00:56:03.679
have in world. I have nothing that's older in that book.

680
00:56:06.079 --> 00:56:10.760
I mean, even my internal organs have regenerated in that time,

681
00:56:11.519 --> 00:56:14.960
because it's every seven years. Our organs regenerate over time,

682
00:56:15.039 --> 00:56:22.079
So that book's older than me. Technically it was born

683
00:56:22.119 --> 00:56:26.159
when I was twenty one. That book, so in this sense,

684
00:56:26.280 --> 00:56:29.320
is like my son or my daughter. That book is,

685
00:56:31.519 --> 00:56:35.960
and it's the only thing. Even when I was destroying

686
00:56:36.079 --> 00:56:46.920
books back in twenty fourteen. I wouldn't go near that one.

687
00:56:48.400 --> 00:56:50.800
I mean, it's not that it's irreplaceable because it's probably

688
00:56:52.159 --> 00:56:57.360
probably now and it's nine thousandth edition reprint or whatever, but.

689
00:56:59.360 --> 00:57:03.280
It's yeah, it's.

690
00:57:03.280 --> 00:57:05.760
Traveled with me. You think about it, it's traveled for

691
00:57:09.360 --> 00:57:12.199
so it was in Stratford and it's traveled with me

692
00:57:12.280 --> 00:57:15.679
all the different places I've moved, So let's count those.

693
00:57:16.079 --> 00:57:21.159
So from Stratford ninety four to another place in light

694
00:57:21.159 --> 00:57:27.440
and so that's one, then again stayed with me there,

695
00:57:29.079 --> 00:57:33.960
then to Ireland, then back to London, so it's four places.

696
00:57:34.440 --> 00:57:40.800
Has been to Ireland, it's been, then to Bogner, Regis,

697
00:57:41.480 --> 00:57:46.159
then back to London, then to another place in London,

698
00:57:47.199 --> 00:57:56.400
another place in London, then another place in London, then Ipswich,

699
00:57:59.000 --> 00:58:03.639
another place in it's which number place in Nipswich, number

700
00:58:03.679 --> 00:58:10.880
place in Nipswich, number place in Nipswich. So that's fourteen

701
00:58:11.000 --> 00:58:18.320
so far. Then where I'm living now that's fifteen. No,

702
00:58:18.679 --> 00:58:28.440
where I moved, so that is rather then six, sixteen, seventeen, eighteen, nineteen,

703
00:58:30.920 --> 00:58:35.639
nineteen or twenty, So about nineteen or twenty different places

704
00:58:35.639 --> 00:58:40.639
I've lived since I've got this book. I think it's

705
00:58:40.679 --> 00:58:43.119
more than that I've moved, probably more than that. I'm

706
00:58:43.159 --> 00:58:46.719
just the old yeah, twenty one, twenty two, Yeah, maybe

707
00:58:46.760 --> 00:58:50.480
twenty three, twenty two, between twenty one and twenty three

708
00:58:50.519 --> 00:58:53.800
times I've moved since I've got this book, So it's

709
00:58:53.840 --> 00:58:57.599
moved around with me. Now, how I thought about it,

710
00:58:57.599 --> 00:59:01.119
I would have took it with me to when I

711
00:59:01.119 --> 00:59:03.199
went to Amsterdam, or when I went to the Isle

712
00:59:03.199 --> 00:59:10.320
of Man, or when I went to Bulgaria, or when

713
00:59:10.320 --> 00:59:12.840
I went to Thailand or whatever. I could have sort

714
00:59:12.840 --> 00:59:17.000
of taken it with me. Is my travel my travel companion,

715
00:59:17.599 --> 00:59:21.599
But I didn't didn't think about it. I got you know,

716
00:59:21.599 --> 00:59:25.920
I like to travel light, not in physical weight, but

717
00:59:26.039 --> 00:59:33.159
just generally light. So yeah, So that I've got that book.

718
00:59:33.199 --> 00:59:39.039
So that's that's been with me the whole time. I

719
00:59:39.039 --> 00:59:42.039
I generally, I don't really look at it. It's terrorist

720
00:59:42.239 --> 00:59:44.239
or I should have got that other book, shouldn't I

721
00:59:44.360 --> 00:59:47.480
the other book that I've got, Path of Great Fortune,

722
00:59:47.840 --> 00:59:52.760
Noble Path of Great Fortune or something that's called. So

723
00:59:58.159 --> 01:00:03.360
what year am I up to on this? So? Yeah,

724
01:00:03.440 --> 01:00:06.039
I think when I got involved in about two thousand,

725
01:00:06.760 --> 01:00:10.760
nineteen ninety seven blinding, I keep saying two thousand, nineteen

726
01:00:10.920 --> 01:00:20.199
ninety seven, I started getting into self development, and before

727
01:00:20.239 --> 01:00:23.199
that I was it's going to be strange because I

728
01:00:23.239 --> 01:00:29.000
never really did any sales in the nineties. I tried

729
01:00:29.039 --> 01:00:33.519
a few different sales jobs and failed every single one

730
01:00:33.519 --> 01:00:38.840
of them. And because they were always not always but

731
01:00:38.920 --> 01:00:46.760
one wasn't, but most of them were, you know, bonus

732
01:00:46.800 --> 01:00:54.039
only no actual pay unless your sell I couldn't keep

733
01:00:54.079 --> 01:00:56.760
it up because I always I had a tendency of

734
01:00:56.840 --> 01:01:01.920
starting those jobs. They're not hard to get because there's

735
01:01:01.960 --> 01:01:03.320
nothing for the people to lose.

736
01:01:03.400 --> 01:01:03.960
Is that really?

737
01:01:04.320 --> 01:01:06.599
The companies that take you on they don't pay you anything,

738
01:01:07.440 --> 01:01:10.480
and they give you a commission, so they'd have to

739
01:01:10.480 --> 01:01:13.039
pay you a commission. If you make money, it's a

740
01:01:13.079 --> 01:01:19.199
win win for them. So I didn't get you know,

741
01:01:19.719 --> 01:01:21.760
but I was interested in selling, and I had lots

742
01:01:21.760 --> 01:01:24.440
of selling books, lots of sales books, and I used

743
01:01:24.480 --> 01:01:28.440
to read those books for fun in the ninety five,

744
01:01:28.599 --> 01:01:34.760
ninety six, ninety seven, ninety eight, ninety nine. It's weird.

745
01:01:34.800 --> 01:01:39.360
I just in fact, earlier than that. I started reading

746
01:01:39.440 --> 01:01:45.679
sales books in nineteen eighty nine when I was doing canvassing,

747
01:01:46.679 --> 01:01:51.000
and I just liked the positivity of it. Anything that

748
01:01:51.039 --> 01:01:53.199
could help me to feel a little bit more positive

749
01:01:53.559 --> 01:01:58.480
was a good thing. But I did go after Rails

750
01:01:58.519 --> 01:02:06.960
a bit during the nineties, and then I started doing

751
01:02:07.079 --> 01:02:13.039
sales in two thousand and one as a job, like

752
01:02:13.320 --> 01:02:20.079
full time properly, so you know, I kind of began

753
01:02:20.199 --> 01:02:24.159
reading books again on sales and listening to audio tapes

754
01:02:24.199 --> 01:02:33.519
by zig Ziggler and people like that. I kind of, yeah,

755
01:02:33.599 --> 01:02:37.280
I'd lost contact with the Buddhis, the Buddhism stuff. I

756
01:02:37.320 --> 01:02:40.639
didn't have anything to do with that, although I didn't

757
01:02:40.719 --> 01:02:42.960
have my little book here, but I didn't look at it.

758
01:02:44.280 --> 01:02:48.719
And then probably about November two thousand and two or

759
01:02:48.920 --> 01:02:51.960
the end of two thousand and two, I was in.

760
01:02:53.679 --> 01:02:55.719
Much need to.

761
01:02:58.239 --> 01:03:05.280
For help as far as relaxing, as far as anxiety

762
01:03:05.360 --> 01:03:11.079
control and stuff like that. So what happened is I

763
01:03:11.159 --> 01:03:15.119
used to walk past this place every day, a Buddhist center.

764
01:03:16.559 --> 01:03:18.480
It was at a Buddhist shop, and then I realized

765
01:03:18.480 --> 01:03:22.159
there was a Buddhist center, and then I kind of

766
01:03:22.239 --> 01:03:25.639
started thinking about going in there, and I knew it

767
01:03:25.679 --> 01:03:28.440
was open, and I think at Wednesday or Tuesday evening,

768
01:03:28.519 --> 01:03:33.159
and I don't know, it kind of pulled me in

769
01:03:33.199 --> 01:03:36.000
a little bit, so I was going into the shop

770
01:03:36.639 --> 01:03:41.719
quite regularly and buying gifts. It's a gift shop called Evolution,

771
01:03:42.679 --> 01:03:45.599
So I'd buy gifts for my nan or buy gifts

772
01:03:45.599 --> 01:03:47.639
for family from there, because I liked it in there,

773
01:03:47.920 --> 01:03:53.039
and I liked the atmosphere. I liked the calmness of

774
01:03:53.119 --> 01:03:56.639
the people that were working there, who I ended up

775
01:03:56.639 --> 01:03:59.239
being friends with. I ended up actually working there myself,

776
01:04:00.320 --> 01:04:03.800
but at that time I wasn't going to the Buddhist center.

777
01:04:06.239 --> 01:04:08.679
And then I'm not quite sure how it worked, but

778
01:04:08.719 --> 01:04:14.639
I ended up going and from then on. In fact,

779
01:04:14.760 --> 01:04:17.639
that very first night, I met my friend who I'm

780
01:04:17.679 --> 01:04:22.920
going to see in a couple of hours, and he

781
01:04:23.840 --> 01:04:29.320
was there and we just got on really well. I mean,

782
01:04:29.360 --> 01:04:33.880
what's that two thousand and two, three four five, So

783
01:04:33.880 --> 01:04:40.280
that's what twenty twenty three years? Twenty three years. Yeah,

784
01:04:40.679 --> 01:04:43.239
so I've known him for twenty two twenty three years.

785
01:04:44.280 --> 01:04:45.840
Even we lived with him for a little while. I

786
01:04:45.920 --> 01:04:51.639
worked with him twice, so because he lived in a

787
01:04:51.639 --> 01:04:54.960
Buddhist community. When I moved in and then moved out,

788
01:04:57.320 --> 01:04:59.000
he moved out after a couple of weeks, but he

789
01:04:59.079 --> 01:05:01.599
was planning on moving now anyway. That's why they were

790
01:05:01.639 --> 01:05:07.039
looking for someone to move in, and I worked with

791
01:05:07.159 --> 01:05:10.559
him in the Evolution Shop in It's which he got

792
01:05:10.599 --> 01:05:15.000
me a job there because after going to the Buddhist

793
01:05:15.000 --> 01:05:18.880
Center for a while for about a year, Yeah, I

794
01:05:19.000 --> 01:05:22.559
kept I kept my job going for as long as

795
01:05:22.559 --> 01:05:24.679
I could. I didn't want to leave my job. I

796
01:05:24.679 --> 01:05:26.239
didn't want to lose it. Didn't want to leave it

797
01:05:26.639 --> 01:05:29.519
because I was good at it, and you know, I

798
01:05:29.559 --> 01:05:34.480
was doing quite well, but I wasn't well enough to

799
01:05:34.559 --> 01:05:36.760
keep going. And then in the end I had to leave.

800
01:05:37.039 --> 01:05:38.679
So it was another year. So it's the end of

801
01:05:38.719 --> 01:05:42.159
two thousand and three. Even though I'd gone part time,

802
01:05:42.840 --> 01:05:47.519
I just packed it in, couldn't do it anymore. And

803
01:05:47.880 --> 01:05:53.480
that Christmas, my friend offered me a job just over

804
01:05:53.519 --> 01:05:59.199
the Christmas period, working in the Evolution shop because that

805
01:05:59.320 --> 01:06:01.159
was their busy part of the whole year.

806
01:06:02.400 --> 01:06:02.960
So I did.

807
01:06:03.079 --> 01:06:05.880
I worked there, probably not every day, probably three days

808
01:06:05.880 --> 01:06:10.599
a week or you know, part time, but just you know,

809
01:06:12.880 --> 01:06:16.280
having somewhere because I needed to have an income. But

810
01:06:16.320 --> 01:06:19.480
at the same time, I couldn't work full time. I

811
01:06:19.519 --> 01:06:24.880
didn't fill up to that, so and I worked there

812
01:06:25.559 --> 01:06:36.079
part time until the following August, and I kind of

813
01:06:36.119 --> 01:06:39.119
lived on savings really and then again but I ended

814
01:06:39.199 --> 01:06:42.960
up living on credit cards and stuff, which wasn't probably

815
01:06:42.960 --> 01:06:50.679
the best idea. And then and then I left, but

816
01:06:50.719 --> 01:06:53.159
I didn't leave the Bullhet Center, but I left the shop,

817
01:06:53.920 --> 01:06:54.800
got a job.

818
01:06:56.840 --> 01:06:57.320
And.

819
01:06:59.199 --> 01:07:04.800
I continued going to the Buddhist Center. Four sous Is.

820
01:07:04.880 --> 01:07:12.360
Two thousand and four, I had my Mitra ceremony, which

821
01:07:12.400 --> 01:07:16.599
is kind of like I guess, like a christening, like

822
01:07:16.639 --> 01:07:21.400
a christening kind of thing. It's a ceremony. And so

823
01:07:21.440 --> 01:07:24.239
that was in August two thousand or August or September

824
01:07:24.280 --> 01:07:30.280
two thousand and four. And then in two thousand and

825
01:07:30.800 --> 01:07:36.360
five I moved into the Buddhist community because I was

826
01:07:36.719 --> 01:07:39.960
going very well with the people living there, well most

827
01:07:40.000 --> 01:07:42.400
of them. I didn't know everyone, but I knew like

828
01:07:42.639 --> 01:07:48.639
at least one, two three people before, in fact four

829
01:07:48.679 --> 01:07:51.639
people living there. There was another person I didn't know

830
01:07:51.719 --> 01:07:54.679
so well, but he moved out, and another person my

831
01:07:54.760 --> 01:08:00.000
friend who yeah, so and I lived there and continue

832
01:08:00.119 --> 01:08:04.480
you go to the Buddhist Center from up until.

833
01:08:04.400 --> 01:08:05.199
I left in.

834
01:08:08.119 --> 01:08:16.159
Two thousand and seven, around November time, when I had

835
01:08:16.159 --> 01:08:22.760
to find basically there was a squirmish, a squirmish, and

836
01:08:22.880 --> 01:08:26.880
so I had to move out, and I went and lived.

837
01:08:29.600 --> 01:08:32.520
I needed really to live closer to where the university was,

838
01:08:32.560 --> 01:08:36.920
which was in a different town, which is what I did.

839
01:08:37.359 --> 01:08:39.960
But then I started going to the Buddhist Center in

840
01:08:40.000 --> 01:08:44.479
that town, and then I ended up working in the

841
01:08:45.479 --> 01:08:49.119
because a couple of people knew me anyway, because it

842
01:08:48.359 --> 01:08:52.880
wasn't that far away. And then I started working in

843
01:08:52.920 --> 01:09:00.760
the Evolution shop in that town because my friend was

844
01:09:00.760 --> 01:09:04.399
working there, the one that got me a job at

845
01:09:04.439 --> 01:09:07.239
the Evolution in Ipswich, got me a job at the

846
01:09:07.279 --> 01:09:12.720
Evolution in this town as well. And it was it

847
01:09:12.800 --> 01:09:18.640
was just part time again during Christmas the busiest time,

848
01:09:19.079 --> 01:09:21.800
and it was handy because I was a student that

849
01:09:22.000 --> 01:09:27.119
actually a little bit of money was useful. So I

850
01:09:27.319 --> 01:09:31.359
did that on and off for a couple of years well,

851
01:09:31.680 --> 01:09:36.720
during a period of being at university, really just part

852
01:09:36.800 --> 01:09:41.880
time Saturdays, not every Saturday, it's just whenever. Really they

853
01:09:42.000 --> 01:09:50.199
need that be barking, please mate. And then I when

854
01:09:50.199 --> 01:09:55.520
I finished university, I moved literally around the corner from

855
01:09:55.520 --> 01:09:59.840
the Buddhist Center, so I was probably going a little

856
01:09:59.840 --> 01:10:03.279
bit more regular then because it's just up the road.

857
01:10:04.399 --> 01:10:06.319
And then I moved again a year later and it

858
01:10:06.399 --> 01:10:10.119
was also across across the stroad. It's just like the opposite,

859
01:10:10.199 --> 01:10:13.000
but it's still the same kind of distance, a little

860
01:10:13.000 --> 01:10:15.840
bit further away, but you know, ten minute walk, five

861
01:10:15.840 --> 01:10:20.760
minute walk, six minute walk, ten seven, eight nine, something

862
01:10:20.800 --> 01:10:25.920
like that, And so i'd go along. I used to

863
01:10:25.960 --> 01:10:28.239
go New Year's Eve and stuff like that as well.

864
01:10:31.279 --> 01:10:35.640
So I was involved in the Buddhist center then during

865
01:10:35.680 --> 01:10:39.600
this period sort of especially like during two thousand and

866
01:10:40.680 --> 01:10:46.079
three two thousand and four, I bought so many books

867
01:10:46.079 --> 01:10:50.760
on Buddhism. It's just it's one of those things that

868
01:10:50.800 --> 01:10:53.159
I have a tendency of doing. If I really get

869
01:10:53.159 --> 01:10:55.800
into a subject, I'll buy every book I can.

870
01:10:57.920 --> 01:10:59.319
What I find is.

871
01:11:01.520 --> 01:11:07.239
To study a subject, I like to if you, if

872
01:11:07.279 --> 01:11:10.239
you read enough books on a subject, you'll start to

873
01:11:10.279 --> 01:11:17.560
see repetition almost or yeah, you guarantee to see repetition.

874
01:11:17.840 --> 01:11:21.199
But that repetition is good because then it helps for me,

875
01:11:22.039 --> 01:11:26.279
it helps it to absorb it and also get to

876
01:11:26.319 --> 01:11:31.359
see things from a slightly different angle or different opinion

877
01:11:31.680 --> 01:11:41.880
or expressed in a slightly way, you know. So that

878
01:11:41.880 --> 01:11:44.279
that's what I did. Bought a lot of books. I

879
01:11:44.359 --> 01:11:50.600
ended up giving most of them to the Buddhist Center. Yeah,

880
01:11:51.359 --> 01:11:55.119
accept this one. The reason I know is because I

881
01:11:55.119 --> 01:11:59.079
didn't print. I didn't because I printed the Buddhist Center's

882
01:11:59.560 --> 01:12:02.680
print it. But I didn't give this one. And when

883
01:12:02.760 --> 01:12:05.960
I kept this one, this was never this will be

884
01:12:06.039 --> 01:12:09.960
with me, this will be me, this is this is

885
01:12:09.960 --> 01:12:13.359
with me forever, I guess now.

886
01:12:15.479 --> 01:12:21.840
And when I.

887
01:12:21.880 --> 01:12:25.560
Moved away to hear So there's a lot of things

888
01:12:25.600 --> 01:12:29.279
happened in the Buddhist world, you know, since I've been involved.

889
01:12:29.760 --> 01:12:33.439
I went to retreats and I went on a pain

890
01:12:33.520 --> 01:12:38.000
management retreat as well, back in two thousand and five

891
01:12:38.119 --> 01:12:43.079
I think, unless it was two thousand and six, and

892
01:12:44.880 --> 01:12:46.560
I think it might have been two thousand and six.

893
01:12:46.600 --> 01:12:50.000
And that was amazing because I was interested in pain

894
01:12:50.039 --> 01:12:54.520
relief as a practitioner, and this was like a breath

895
01:12:54.560 --> 01:13:01.319
works mindfulness pain relief and lasted for about a week

896
01:13:01.359 --> 01:13:04.159
I think two weeks a week. I think it's about

897
01:13:04.159 --> 01:13:08.640
a week. So as well as being a retreat, it

898
01:13:08.680 --> 01:13:20.439
was also training as well. Yeah, so I used to

899
01:13:20.479 --> 01:13:22.680
go out and meet up with Buddhists. I used to

900
01:13:22.720 --> 01:13:26.720
meet up with my friend that I'm seeing today when

901
01:13:26.760 --> 01:13:29.039
I was in the same town. You know, when I

902
01:13:29.079 --> 01:13:33.119
first started going to the Buddhist center. We used to

903
01:13:33.119 --> 01:13:37.199
meet up quite often, once a week, once every two weeks,

904
01:13:38.880 --> 01:13:42.640
and he almost kind of became like a counselor to me.

905
01:13:44.479 --> 01:13:47.119
It wasn't the idea, it wasn't the plan, and that

906
01:13:47.239 --> 01:13:50.279
wasn't his intention. But I used to just go and

907
01:13:50.520 --> 01:13:57.239
unload and he just sit down and listen, and you know,

908
01:13:57.399 --> 01:14:01.239
it was probably wasn't really fair on him, but he

909
01:14:01.359 --> 01:14:09.239
was so so gentle and so what the right word attentive?

910
01:14:10.159 --> 01:14:13.760
And I said to him, why don't you, why don't

911
01:14:13.800 --> 01:14:17.039
you become a counselor, and he said he didn't want to.

912
01:14:19.520 --> 01:14:25.199
But then once I'd finished my counseling course, he trained

913
01:14:25.279 --> 01:14:30.600
up to become a counselor. So he also is a counselor. Well,

914
01:14:30.640 --> 01:14:33.840
he's trained. I don't know if he's seeing clients or not.

915
01:14:33.920 --> 01:14:36.920
I don't know. I know why not. I haven't seen

916
01:14:36.960 --> 01:14:40.920
clients for over a decade now. I wouldn't even know

917
01:14:41.000 --> 01:14:51.800
how what what why? I'm sure I must have some skills.

918
01:14:52.039 --> 01:15:01.079
I don't know it, but yeah, it's so, I've seen

919
01:15:01.159 --> 01:15:03.199
him go through lots of different things. I mean, he's

920
01:15:03.239 --> 01:15:13.079
now got a kid that's probably thirteen twelve thirteen fourteen now,

921
01:15:14.760 --> 01:15:17.279
And I went to his wedding, which was in probably

922
01:15:17.319 --> 01:15:29.960
about two thousand and nine, which is yeah, two thousand

923
01:15:30.000 --> 01:15:40.640
and nine, twenty nineteen, so yeah, probably the next year

924
01:15:40.680 --> 01:15:42.800
they had a baby, so probably fifteen years old.

925
01:15:43.399 --> 01:15:43.880
He's boy.

926
01:15:43.920 --> 01:15:47.880
Now, wow, it's really weird.

927
01:15:47.920 --> 01:15:48.399
My niece.

928
01:15:49.199 --> 01:15:52.239
I got a message from my stepmom saying, I'll just

929
01:15:52.279 --> 01:15:56.479
letting you know that your niece is now it's her

930
01:15:56.640 --> 01:16:02.000
seventeenth birthday today. This is yesterday. I forgot to send

931
01:16:02.000 --> 01:16:14.199
a card. But hey, and seventeen, and I remember, it

932
01:16:14.239 --> 01:16:17.600
doesn't seem long ago. She was running around to all

933
01:16:17.640 --> 01:16:19.439
of us and just punching us all in the balls.

934
01:16:20.439 --> 01:16:23.479
You know what was last year? No, but you know

935
01:16:23.479 --> 01:16:25.600
when she was a little kid, you know, kid doing

936
01:16:25.640 --> 01:16:28.520
they just sort of they realized they found a place

937
01:16:28.560 --> 01:16:32.640
where they can hurt you. And I had a video

938
01:16:32.720 --> 01:16:38.159
camera and I filmed her when she was probably five

939
01:16:38.760 --> 01:16:43.680
four something like that, and she was at a dinner

940
01:16:43.720 --> 01:16:46.000
table if it was at Christmas, and I was filming

941
01:16:46.359 --> 01:16:51.079
and she was just being so funny and she's not

942
01:16:51.199 --> 01:16:55.960
making faces and doing all funny voices and stuff. But

943
01:16:56.039 --> 01:17:00.760
I lost it. I lost the film footage. I don't

944
01:17:00.760 --> 01:17:04.520
know what happened. And it's a little bit unlike me

945
01:17:04.600 --> 01:17:07.279
because I did. I kept a lot of film footage

946
01:17:07.279 --> 01:17:09.439
that well, most film footage that I took with that

947
01:17:09.520 --> 01:17:14.119
camera is actually on YouTube. Now that wouldn't be, of course,

948
01:17:14.159 --> 01:17:18.960
because that's of family and stuff. I wouldn't showed. I

949
01:17:18.960 --> 01:17:22.479
wouldn't have videos of kids and stuff on the YouTube channel.

950
01:17:23.600 --> 01:17:29.359
Even with my neighbor. I was filming Vinnie in their garden,

951
01:17:31.760 --> 01:17:34.000
and I made sure that the little girl wasn't in

952
01:17:34.000 --> 01:17:37.680
the camera. You could hear a voice. But I'm not filming.

953
01:17:38.840 --> 01:17:40.840
I just want to All I want is to film Vinnie.

954
01:17:40.800 --> 01:17:44.159
I don't want to film humans. I don't want humans

955
01:17:44.199 --> 01:17:44.920
on the camera.

956
01:17:47.800 --> 01:17:48.680
He's laying on the.

957
01:17:48.640 --> 01:17:52.359
Floor, the windows, the curtains are open and the sun

958
01:17:52.399 --> 01:17:56.239
shining in, and he's found the one little part where

959
01:17:56.239 --> 01:18:03.199
the sun's still shining on the carpet. Honestly, it's almost

960
01:18:03.520 --> 01:18:10.079
dog shaped size. He fits in it perfectly. It's a

961
01:18:10.239 --> 01:18:12.640
tiny little bit on the carpet.

962
01:18:12.279 --> 01:18:12.840
That's got some.

963
01:18:15.159 --> 01:18:16.279
It just makes me laugh.

964
01:18:16.359 --> 01:18:20.319
He's so funny.

965
01:18:20.960 --> 01:18:22.680
He's so cute. But I know if I went over

966
01:18:22.720 --> 01:18:26.600
and I touched him and growl at me. Doesn't like

967
01:18:26.680 --> 01:18:31.880
being disturbed. But it's okay for him to disturb me.

968
01:18:31.920 --> 01:18:37.720
It's fine, but me to disturb him. Mind you. I

969
01:18:37.760 --> 01:18:40.319
woke up this morning and he was just standing over me,

970
01:18:42.439 --> 01:18:46.399
and I thought he needed to get up and go,

971
01:18:46.520 --> 01:18:49.880
but he didn't. He didn't want to go out, didn't

972
01:18:49.880 --> 01:18:52.239
want anything. As soon as I got out of bed,

973
01:18:52.279 --> 01:18:54.239
he just went back and laid down to go to sleep.

974
01:18:56.039 --> 01:18:59.439
So I'm thinking he woke me up. So maybe but

975
01:18:59.520 --> 01:19:02.239
I was making some weird noises or something and he

976
01:19:02.319 --> 01:19:05.159
was concerned, so he he woke me up. Or he

977
01:19:05.199 --> 01:19:11.039
was protecting me, guarding me or something which we just

978
01:19:11.039 --> 01:19:11.520
watching me.

979
01:19:13.239 --> 01:19:13.920
Either he was.

980
01:19:15.399 --> 01:19:19.800
He was helping me, or he's just a weirdo, a

981
01:19:19.880 --> 01:19:27.319
bit of both. Tech staff is da da See if

982
01:19:27.319 --> 01:19:34.439
I've got any messages? Okay, right? PayPal? Yeah, that's that's

983
01:19:34.479 --> 01:19:38.239
just for the groceries I got delivered, which is.

984
01:19:40.119 --> 01:19:40.520
Fine.

985
01:19:42.319 --> 01:19:47.840
Okay, it's not coming up right?

986
01:19:47.920 --> 01:19:49.840
Another message? My my?

987
01:19:51.640 --> 01:19:56.880
What sit downstairs? Jason? Sorry, babe, do you have any

988
01:19:56.880 --> 01:19:59.560
fizzy drink as my sugar levels are really low? I

989
01:19:59.680 --> 01:20:10.880
don't nothing, I don't sorry, I'm not allowed to drink

990
01:20:10.920 --> 01:20:23.319
fizzy drinks, although saying that some times I have. Oh,

991
01:20:23.359 --> 01:20:27.800
I could give her an ice cream I got on Yeah,

992
01:20:27.840 --> 01:20:30.359
I could give her that. I would be I just

993
01:20:30.399 --> 01:20:33.079
got some cornetto's, could give her a cornetto I suppose

994
01:20:34.000 --> 01:20:38.039
every day she asks us something. The weird thing about

995
01:20:38.039 --> 01:20:40.520
it is she doesn't even talk to me, like has

996
01:20:40.560 --> 01:20:44.039
no conversation with me at all, but constantly asking stuff.

997
01:20:44.600 --> 01:20:48.159
So that's today, yesterday, hijason, do you have some juice please?

998
01:20:48.239 --> 01:20:50.680
As I literally only have one, only have tap water.

999
01:20:51.119 --> 01:21:00.520
That was yesterday? And last Tuesday? Do you have any

1000
01:21:00.520 --> 01:21:04.279
frozen meals? I could nick because I'm waiting on the

1001
01:21:04.319 --> 01:21:11.119
food bank. And the Thursday before that can you put

1002
01:21:12.960 --> 01:21:16.800
she wanted me have someone put money into my account.

1003
01:21:17.680 --> 01:21:20.640
And then the Monday before that, I've got some butter.

1004
01:21:20.720 --> 01:21:26.479
I can borrow to butter some rolls. And then the

1005
01:21:26.560 --> 01:21:30.520
Sunday before that is runy where you can order me

1006
01:21:30.600 --> 01:21:33.479
some white chest of drawers on a pay monthly for

1007
01:21:33.560 --> 01:21:36.119
the baby as I got so much baby clothes now

1008
01:21:36.880 --> 01:21:45.159
nowhere to put them, and I can pay you once

1009
01:21:45.199 --> 01:21:50.159
a month towards it. Like no, I can't get credit.

1010
01:21:51.520 --> 01:21:54.079
I literally cannot get credit. Even if I wanted to,

1011
01:21:54.119 --> 01:22:05.520
I couldn't. It's amazing, absolutely amazing, So length okay. The

1012
01:22:05.520 --> 01:22:07.600
the Sunday before that, have you got a lighter? Please?

1013
01:22:12.000 --> 01:22:15.159
Sunday before that? Can you keep my can you keep

1014
01:22:15.199 --> 01:22:26.560
an eye on my flat? It goes on. I told

1015
01:22:26.600 --> 01:22:29.319
I had a friend. I did this, It's okay. And

1016
01:22:29.399 --> 01:22:33.319
then the thirtieth of April, do you have any money

1017
01:22:33.319 --> 01:22:35.479
I could have because I need to go to London.

1018
01:22:35.479 --> 01:22:40.119
I need twenty pound which I didn't have any money.

1019
01:22:40.720 --> 01:22:45.720
So that's the twenty fifth of April. Fifth of April.

1020
01:22:46.159 --> 01:22:48.560
Don't suppose you've got fifteen pound I can have so

1021
01:22:48.600 --> 01:22:51.039
I can get a or if you can just order

1022
01:22:51.119 --> 01:22:54.199
me an egg, egg, fried rice, set a chicken and

1023
01:22:54.279 --> 01:22:59.359
chips from the Chinese. It was like, what did I

1024
01:22:59.359 --> 01:23:03.159
answer that? Nope, got no money, but you can have

1025
01:23:03.199 --> 01:23:07.159
a pasta pack just needs boiling. I left a bag

1026
01:23:07.199 --> 01:23:12.720
outside your door. I don't think she ate that. And

1027
01:23:12.800 --> 01:23:19.720
then the Thursday before that, oh no, and oh the

1028
01:23:19.760 --> 01:23:27.039
Wednesday before that, do you have any potatoes? Friday before

1029
01:23:27.079 --> 01:23:34.680
that do you have any chocolates? And Friday, twenty first

1030
01:23:34.680 --> 01:23:37.199
of March, I wonder if you haddy money I could

1031
01:23:37.199 --> 01:23:47.800
borrow for taxi okay, which I didn't. And then the Monday,

1032
01:23:48.520 --> 01:23:53.199
BlimE me, that's amazing. This is amazing. The Monday, seventeenth March,

1033
01:23:56.239 --> 01:24:00.119
I wonder if you could transfer me seventeen pound so

1034
01:24:00.119 --> 01:24:08.720
I can give you cash at midnight, or if you

1035
01:24:08.760 --> 01:24:10.560
can borrow me the money? Could you order me a

1036
01:24:10.600 --> 01:24:11.119
big Mac?

1037
01:24:14.039 --> 01:24:14.520
That was a no.

1038
01:24:19.479 --> 01:24:22.920
Twenty seventh of February. Is there any way you could

1039
01:24:22.920 --> 01:24:24.720
do me a big favor and try and get me

1040
01:24:24.760 --> 01:24:25.439
an iPhone?

1041
01:24:25.479 --> 01:24:25.840
Please?

1042
01:24:26.319 --> 01:24:30.159
Mine keeps turning off and he's smashed, and I'm having whatever.

1043
01:24:30.199 --> 01:24:31.960
I'm not going to be the whole thing out. I

1044
01:24:32.000 --> 01:24:45.199
can pay you next week when I'm paid. I said,

1045
01:24:45.199 --> 01:24:46.640
I have no money. Is the only way you could

1046
01:24:46.640 --> 01:24:52.000
get paid monthly? And I said I can't. I can't.

1047
01:24:52.840 --> 01:24:59.760
I can't borrow any money. Whatever.

1048
01:24:59.800 --> 01:25:06.479
Look nineteenth of February. Would I be able to ask? Can? I?

1049
01:25:06.640 --> 01:25:06.880
Can you?

1050
01:25:06.960 --> 01:25:07.119
Boy?

1051
01:25:07.520 --> 01:25:11.479
I bow sixty pound? I said, sorry, I've already learnt

1052
01:25:11.520 --> 01:25:13.439
some an eighty pounds and they didn't pay it back,

1053
01:25:14.039 --> 01:25:15.279
which left me with nothing?

1054
01:25:18.880 --> 01:25:19.600
What other one?

1055
01:25:19.680 --> 01:25:20.560
What's the next one?

1056
01:25:29.479 --> 01:25:29.600
Uh?

1057
01:25:39.319 --> 01:25:52.439
Just kind of can just going back all right? January? Oh? Yes,

1058
01:25:52.640 --> 01:26:00.000
certainly got any eggs? This was last January, third of January.

1059
01:26:00.000 --> 01:26:02.399
Do you have any Do you have ten pound? I

1060
01:26:02.439 --> 01:26:14.560
can borrow third of January. Any painkillers? Seventeenth December last year?

1061
01:26:14.600 --> 01:26:21.000
Any painkillers? Fifteenth of December, you've got a lighter please?

1062
01:26:30.039 --> 01:26:34.159
Twenty third of October? Do you have seventeen pound you

1063
01:26:34.199 --> 01:26:42.359
can put in my count? I don't have any money,

1064
01:26:42.359 --> 01:26:49.640
as I couldn't. Nineteenth of October? Can I have six

1065
01:26:49.680 --> 01:26:50.840
pounds or eight pounds to.

1066
01:26:50.800 --> 01:26:59.479
Borrow off you? And then a big whatever? Information? I said.

1067
01:27:01.119 --> 01:27:08.239
Zero cash? Sixteenth the day before? Wow, can I borrow

1068
01:27:08.239 --> 01:27:13.079
you ten or fifteen pounds? I got thirty seven pence

1069
01:27:13.079 --> 01:27:17.079
so I can do that. Fifteenth of October last year,

1070
01:27:18.359 --> 01:27:24.039
do you have any newspapers I can use? Sixteenth of

1071
01:27:24.079 --> 01:27:30.399
October you've got any milk? Okay?

1072
01:27:30.520 --> 01:27:32.199
What's the next one? Going back?

1073
01:27:39.880 --> 01:27:42.520
Seventh of October? See this is when this is at

1074
01:27:42.520 --> 01:27:45.079
a time when I was helping her. I had to

1075
01:27:45.079 --> 01:27:49.760
stop after this. My heating box is not working. I

1076
01:27:49.800 --> 01:27:53.640
was wondering if you know how to whatever? Just wondering.

1077
01:27:53.920 --> 01:27:56.319
This is seventh October, wondering if you have ten pounds

1078
01:27:56.319 --> 01:28:00.680
till Thursday, as I'm very not very well, so I

1079
01:28:00.760 --> 01:28:03.039
put ten pounds in a bank and I just texted

1080
01:28:03.079 --> 01:28:06.600
that time. Oh sorry, I'm at a garage and on

1081
01:28:06.600 --> 01:28:18.680
a six pounds short could you help me out? Yeah?

1082
01:28:18.720 --> 01:28:24.920
It just goes on and on and on. It's weird.

1083
01:28:25.840 --> 01:28:29.680
Seventeenth of August last year, do you have thirty pounds

1084
01:28:29.680 --> 01:28:48.159
lockingboard to get whatever? Where's you're going? Wow? Friday, nineteenth

1085
01:28:48.159 --> 01:28:54.000
of July, could you transfer me sixty nine pence? And

1086
01:28:54.039 --> 01:28:56.199
then a little while later, can you put twenty pounds

1087
01:28:56.199 --> 01:28:56.800
on my account?

1088
01:28:58.039 --> 01:29:00.279
And I give you cash?

1089
01:29:00.840 --> 01:29:04.960
I had no money in my accounsel I couldn't. Thirty

1090
01:29:05.039 --> 01:29:06.840
first of July, do you have a take measure?

1091
01:29:08.000 --> 01:29:21.439
I don't know what that was about. Random?

1092
01:29:21.640 --> 01:29:25.119
Oh, this is the word. Thirteenth July. Could I connect

1093
01:29:25.199 --> 01:29:29.920
my to your WiFi? Please? My day is low? No

1094
01:29:29.920 --> 01:29:30.760
no no.

1095
01:29:30.479 --> 01:29:31.479
No no no.

1096
01:29:31.520 --> 01:29:34.199
That it gives someone your password for your WiFi.

1097
01:29:34.359 --> 01:29:35.079
That's it forever.

1098
01:29:35.760 --> 01:29:38.439
Then you're never going to get them off. You can

1099
01:29:38.560 --> 01:29:41.600
block people and you can change the password, but blind me,

1100
01:29:42.479 --> 01:29:46.039
I can't in bother with that. Okay, So we're going

1101
01:29:46.079 --> 01:29:58.640
back to seventh of July. So wow, seventeenth seventh of July.

1102
01:30:03.039 --> 01:30:05.399
Oh yeah, I let my umbrella and I didn't get

1103
01:30:05.439 --> 01:30:06.399
my umbrella back.

1104
01:30:08.560 --> 01:30:08.760
Then.

1105
01:30:08.800 --> 01:30:10.319
I need you, really need your help. I'm in a

1106
01:30:10.359 --> 01:30:16.359
taxi and I only have three pound and I put

1107
01:30:16.399 --> 01:30:32.159
I have less than you, So what do I do? Wow,

1108
01:30:33.000 --> 01:30:39.720
it's weird just looking back at it, it's uh oh yeah,

1109
01:30:39.720 --> 01:30:40.239
what is this?

1110
01:30:40.479 --> 01:30:40.920
Back in.

1111
01:30:43.159 --> 01:30:48.359
God, this was like constant. This is a long This

1112
01:30:48.399 --> 01:30:56.760
is a twenty seventh, twenty seventh for June twenty seventh,

1113
01:30:56.760 --> 01:31:06.359
for June twenty sixth of June. I just want to

1114
01:31:06.399 --> 01:31:08.680
check your okay as there is an ambulance outside at

1115
01:31:08.720 --> 01:31:14.720
four m this morning. I'm okay and very low. I

1116
01:31:14.760 --> 01:31:20.199
don't have money for fizzy drink or chocolate. The ambulance

1117
01:31:20.279 --> 01:31:37.279
wasn't for her anyway, so I got I got some

1118
01:31:37.399 --> 01:31:41.199
coke less some coke outside your door. This is on

1119
01:31:41.239 --> 01:31:58.920
the twenty seventh. Can you Oh yeah, can you? So

1120
01:31:59.079 --> 01:32:09.760
you want to borrow fifty equid? Could you buy me

1121
01:32:09.840 --> 01:32:19.880
three for my prescription? And then later on another fourteen pound? Wow?

1122
01:32:20.000 --> 01:32:23.439
This is just silly, isn't it. Oh Well, I'll move

1123
01:32:23.479 --> 01:32:26.960
on from that because it's weird because she's only lived

1124
01:32:27.000 --> 01:32:29.600
here for three months. He's only moved in last week.

1125
01:32:31.199 --> 01:32:36.960
She's only been here three days. So I think one

1126
01:32:36.960 --> 01:32:41.680
of the downsides of the Buddhism, I guess was well,

1127
01:32:41.680 --> 01:32:44.199
not not a downside, but I tried to help people.

1128
01:32:46.520 --> 01:32:49.279
I guess one of the downsides of helping people is

1129
01:32:51.000 --> 01:32:54.079
more here than anywhere else. Not here, but like in

1130
01:32:54.119 --> 01:32:59.319
this area, people have sort of took advantage of it,

1131
01:33:00.079 --> 01:33:04.760
or took advantage and of the situation. And bit by

1132
01:33:04.840 --> 01:33:08.119
bit I've managed to stop it. I'm still getting asked

1133
01:33:08.119 --> 01:33:10.560
for stuff, but I just say no. I had another

1134
01:33:10.600 --> 01:33:12.600
neighbor downstairs knock on my door when I was in

1135
01:33:12.640 --> 01:33:16.920
bed on Friday about eleven o'clock, asking if I had

1136
01:33:17.199 --> 01:33:22.000
twenty pound. She said, oh, I need, I need some tobacco.

1137
01:33:23.079 --> 01:33:26.840
If you got twenty pound, Well, twenty pound doesn't buy tobacco,

1138
01:33:27.600 --> 01:33:30.800
it's like thirty six pounds or something, so twenty pounds

1139
01:33:30.840 --> 01:33:33.560
not going to get you anything. And I said, but

1140
01:33:33.640 --> 01:33:37.039
she did, you know? She just want And I said no,

1141
01:33:37.079 --> 01:33:39.720
she'sd okay bye, So she didn't hassle me for it.

1142
01:33:39.760 --> 01:33:42.920
But like I don't have any money, I don't have

1143
01:33:42.920 --> 01:33:47.560
any cash. I'm think of getting a big sign sticking

1144
01:33:47.600 --> 01:33:50.560
it on my door, my front door. You know those

1145
01:33:51.439 --> 01:33:53.720
what do those? You know when a shop is empty,

1146
01:33:54.279 --> 01:34:02.840
and they said, this property does not contain cash. Some

1147
01:34:02.920 --> 01:34:06.079
shops had that done it in the window when they're closed.

1148
01:34:07.560 --> 01:34:10.119
I remember when I worked in the chip shop, he

1149
01:34:10.239 --> 01:34:13.720
always left the till open and I said, why did

1150
01:34:13.720 --> 01:34:16.720
you do that? Then he said, because if someone does

1151
01:34:16.720 --> 01:34:23.520
break in it, they can just help themselves to because

1152
01:34:23.560 --> 01:34:26.760
there was always like a float, maybe twenty quid or something.

1153
01:34:26.960 --> 01:34:30.720
They can help themselves to that and leave. They haven't

1154
01:34:30.760 --> 01:34:33.680
got a take. They won't take the till with them,

1155
01:34:33.920 --> 01:34:35.920
and I think the till was quite expensive, probably a

1156
01:34:35.960 --> 01:34:39.800
few underquid, so they won't break the till because they

1157
01:34:40.039 --> 01:34:42.359
generally they'll smash the till up to get into it,

1158
01:34:43.159 --> 01:34:46.039
even though underneath the till was a little catch which

1159
01:34:46.039 --> 01:34:50.159
you could push and it would open it. I don't

1160
01:34:50.159 --> 01:34:53.479
know if they still have that end tills. They had

1161
01:34:53.479 --> 01:34:57.720
it in a Oh. When I was in the comedy club,

1162
01:34:57.760 --> 01:35:04.119
they had one which was really old. For some reason,

1163
01:35:04.560 --> 01:35:09.840
my boss liked it. It didn't work at all, but

1164
01:35:10.000 --> 01:35:14.640
it looked nice like wooden. But you could open it

1165
01:35:14.680 --> 01:35:16.520
from the bottom. So I think maybe a lot of

1166
01:35:16.560 --> 01:35:19.880
tills you can just open them from the bottom. A

1167
01:35:20.000 --> 01:35:23.199
press a button or a lever and they open, so

1168
01:35:23.279 --> 01:35:25.439
you haven't got smash them and break them or anything.

1169
01:35:26.199 --> 01:35:28.439
I mean, listen, I'm not giving advice to the thieves

1170
01:35:29.800 --> 01:35:35.680
if he was to break into a shop, here's my advice. No,

1171
01:35:35.920 --> 01:35:42.399
not really, but yeah, this was about Buddhism. It didn't

1172
01:35:42.439 --> 01:35:44.359
really end up being about Buddhism, did it.

1173
01:35:44.800 --> 01:35:45.479
Not really?

1174
01:35:46.800 --> 01:35:51.119
Not really, I replied to the neighbory downstairs or not?

1175
01:35:51.279 --> 01:36:00.439
I can't remember. Wow, that's a lot of I sorry,

1176
01:36:00.479 --> 01:36:01.239
I replied.

1177
01:36:01.319 --> 01:36:01.560
There.

1178
01:36:03.319 --> 01:36:05.479
The thing is, if I do take her anything down,

1179
01:36:05.560 --> 01:36:07.520
like the other day, I want to have a chat

1180
01:36:07.600 --> 01:36:09.800
with her, just to find out what's going on. So

1181
01:36:09.920 --> 01:36:13.680
can I come in and got no clothes on? I said,

1182
01:36:13.720 --> 01:36:22.159
that's fine, And doesn't talk to me, doesn't have any

1183
01:36:22.399 --> 01:36:27.840
any conversation with her or anything. Just it's almost like

1184
01:36:27.920 --> 01:36:32.319
she doesn't like me at all. Yeah, she lasks her stuff.

1185
01:36:32.359 --> 01:36:32.720
I don't.

1186
01:36:32.760 --> 01:36:37.399
I don't kind of understand that. It's weird. It just

1187
01:36:37.399 --> 01:36:44.279
seems a bit strange. I did buy her television. That's

1188
01:36:44.279 --> 01:36:48.600
a long, a long while ago. That was the second

1189
01:36:48.640 --> 01:37:02.000
of June last year, second of June. Oh yeah, she

1190
01:37:02.039 --> 01:37:04.159
wanted me to go. She asked me to go to television,

1191
01:37:04.560 --> 01:37:06.800
and she said I'd like one like yours or a

1192
01:37:06.840 --> 01:37:10.279
little smaller. And my answer was my TV is huge.

1193
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There's no way I can. So I got this on

1194
01:37:13.359 --> 01:37:15.439
a special offer and I paid for it over a

1195
01:37:15.439 --> 01:37:18.319
long time. But this was over I think a grand

1196
01:37:18.720 --> 01:37:23.720
or maybe just under one thousand pounds. It's like I think,

1197
01:37:24.640 --> 01:37:28.840
I don't know what size it is, seventy five eighty

1198
01:37:28.880 --> 01:37:31.680
five something like that, but she got I ended up

1199
01:37:31.680 --> 01:37:47.199
getting her a fifty five inch one wow. So yeah,

1200
01:37:47.279 --> 01:37:53.760
it's just not going to look when I got my

1201
01:37:53.880 --> 01:38:03.159
very first message on the very first message, eighteenth of

1202
01:38:03.239 --> 01:38:12.159
May last year, eighteenth of my very first message, so

1203
01:38:12.399 --> 01:38:14.920
soon and she got a message. This is probably the

1204
01:38:15.000 --> 01:38:22.800
day I gave her the telephone number. How are you?

1205
01:38:23.239 --> 01:38:27.239
This is at half six eighteenth, so you'd be a Saturday.

1206
01:38:27.279 --> 01:38:31.560
Probably cool? Thanks, just watching boxing? Okay, that's good. I'm

1207
01:38:31.600 --> 01:38:33.399
just waiting to see if my friend can borrow me

1208
01:38:33.439 --> 01:38:47.680
twenty pounds to get food. So I'm like, okay, so

1209
01:38:47.760 --> 01:38:50.840
I must have maybe a carder. So I ended up

1210
01:38:50.840 --> 01:39:21.800
giving her that money. M so yeah, oh dear, so yeah,

1211
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I said as the end of the recording. The end

1212
01:39:25.560 --> 01:39:28.840
of the recording, la la la la, la la la,

1213
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I'm feeling quite hungry.

1214
01:39:41.520 --> 01:39:42.119
Anyone else.

1215
01:39:43.319 --> 01:39:45.640
I can't be bothered to go out, though I might

1216
01:39:45.680 --> 01:39:48.079
have to cancel going out. I'm not really in the

1217
01:39:48.159 --> 01:39:52.840
mood I don't want to go out, or don't really don't,

1218
01:39:54.279 --> 01:40:07.039
but I don't know. I don't. Yeah, did it here

1219
01:40:07.119 --> 01:40:26.199
we go walking down the street. Mm hmmm, hm oh,

1220
01:40:28.720 --> 01:40:59.359
what's hired? Mm hmm how interesting? Deep dddd. So I'm

1221
01:40:59.399 --> 01:41:13.039
just looking at some online. So really.

1222
01:41:16.680 --> 01:41:18.760
That's pretty much the end of the record. And I

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01:41:18.880 --> 01:41:20.279
do believe.

1224
01:41:27.560 --> 01:41:29.680
Is it time to eat though? Because when did I eat?

1225
01:41:29.760 --> 01:41:30.319
Last nine?

1226
01:41:30.439 --> 01:41:30.640
Ten?

1227
01:41:30.800 --> 01:41:32.279
And yeah, maybe it is.

1228
01:41:33.600 --> 01:41:36.479
Yeah, I feel I'm going to cancel a meeting. I

1229
01:41:36.520 --> 01:41:37.560
don't want to go out.

1230
01:41:40.399 --> 01:41:42.239
After all these nice things I said about him. I

1231
01:41:42.399 --> 01:41:57.159
just coming board. It's not just that I just can't ya,

1232
01:41:58.600 --> 01:42:05.520
you know, not can't be bother that's not the right word.

1233
01:42:12.600 --> 01:42:14.920
Am hm.

1234
01:42:17.079 --> 01:42:21.800
Oh. I have suffed to eat and then I see

1235
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how I feel.

1236
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Afterwards. So yeah, thank you for listening. I feel like

1237
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I really wound down this recording to almost to stand still.

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It's real, So thank you for listening. Rememberer, be kind

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01:42:49.800 --> 01:42:54.439
to yourself because you do deserve to be happy. Remember

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01:42:54.439 --> 01:43:04.840
to be gentle with yourself. Deserve to feel safe. Lo

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of Love

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