June 25, 2025

(music) And he was Yellow | LMBYTS #1381 | Jason Newland | 24th June 2025

(music) And he was Yellow | LMBYTS #1381 | Jason Newland | 24th June 2025
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Hello, and welcome to jasondewland dot com. My name is

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Jason Newland. I hope you are well. Hi, so oh God,

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no idea what today's and it's Tuesday. I don't know

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what the day is. Is it a twenty second or

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something like that of June twenty twenty five, I'm not

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really sure. Please only listen when you can safely close

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your eyes. This is let me bore you to sleep.

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My name is Jason Newland. Got itchy Lake. I think

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I might have been bitten by a gnat. Okay, it's flease, Okay,

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who I've been?

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It's probably been the busiest five days I've had for

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a very very very long time, as far as.

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I suppose you could call it outside activities. You know,

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I'm busy sometimes making recordings, but not this week. I

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haven't been, so I'm gonna I'm gonna tell you about it.

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First of all, my website's back, so apologies to anyone

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that were annoyed for the website going, but it's now

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back as it was. I'm just gonna have to do

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a little feudal checks to make sure as exactly how

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it was, but it is back online. Jason Nuland dot

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com and the yeah, that's done. I haven't made a

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recording according to my web I don't know. I'm losing track.

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To be fair, I did let me boy a Q

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and A Friday and Friday, and I think I did

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a deep sleep whisper recording afterwards later on in the day,

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I think, and then no, I don't think i'd have

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done this Saturday. So basically, here's what's happened. I'm going

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to talk about a medical situation, but I'm not going

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to go into information about the medical condition. Okay, so

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this is going to involve hospitals and stuff, so if

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that's might not be the most relaxing, most relaxing thing

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to tell you to talk about, but you know, I

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like to tell you what's going on in my life

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as well. But at the same time, I'm not going

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to I'm not going to go all deep and serious

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with this, although it has been a very very serious situation.

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So you know, it involves medical and I'm going to

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talk about a little bit about medical stuff, but not

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really if you know what I mean. But I will

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be talking about hospitals because that's where I've been every

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day for the last five days, not for me, but

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for someone else. So it all started in nineteen seventy

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when I was born. Now it's so my neighbor. He's

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having his new bathroom done. And I didn't see him

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last week pretty much all week because he's having his

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bathroom done and he's used to having his own space.

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So really the fact that he had people coming and

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going all week, didn't really see him, and I didn't

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bother him, you know, I didn't really knock on his

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door because I could see on the camera that he

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was in and out and he was fine, and they

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were all in and out on the forgot door camera,

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in and out doing the building work. So on Friday evening,

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when all the builders had finished, I knocked on his

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door to see how he's getting on. I mean, I

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say evening. It's still light outside, so probably prett o'clock seven,

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eight seven ish, you know, six seven, and this is Friday.

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It's now Tuesday evening, and he opened the door. I

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just got in from the sun. I mean, I've just

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been outside and it was still sunny or bright anyway,

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maybe not Sunday, it was still still very bright outside.

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So everything looks a bit weird when when I get

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inside after being outside, especially with these glasses because they're

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tinted glasses, so it makes everything a little bit of

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a weird kind of visual for a short while. Plus

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my eyesight's it's not as good as it used to be. Well,

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my friend, my neighbor. He's my friend as well, but

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just use the word neighbor. I guess it's probably classes

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of more as a friend now. But he opened the door,

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so I just explained my relationship with him. It's friends

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who benefits. No, now it's neighbors with benefits. No, it's

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a he's quite elderly, he's nearly seventy eight. I help

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him out with some stuff, so paying bills, when he

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gets letters, making phone calls, I help him with that stuff,

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just stuff because he's hearing's not great, so I help

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him out with stuff where he you know, just general.

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I'm not his career, but I just try to help

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him when he needs help. And he hard never ask

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for help or for the first nine years, but over

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the last year he's been a bit more. I mean

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he's asked. He asked me for help in the past,

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but only for little bits and bobs, and normally locks

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himself out or he's lost his debit card, things like that,

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or if he looked. Yeah, he's had my telephone number

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for a long time, so he's locked himself in a

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couple of times where he couldn't open the lock. So

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you know, I was talking to him through the letter

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box even though he both were on the phone as well,

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which is weird. And that was I've actually did a

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podcast about that episode. And that was strange because the

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council who I phoned would not talk to me because

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I'm not him. Okay, So I phoned up saying, my

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elderly neighbor is a locked inside his flat. He needs

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to leave his home, but he can't open the door

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because the door is jammed. The lock was jammed, so

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it needed a locksmith. And they said, well who is he?

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I said who he was? And he said who are

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you to him? I said, I'm his neighbor. And then

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they said, well, we can't talk to you. I said,

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you are talking to me. Nope, we can't talk to you.

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We have to talk to him. So I literally had

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I said, well, she said we'll phone him up. I said,

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but you can phone him up. So they did phone

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him up. He couldn't hear him so they phoned me

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up and they said, can you please put me can

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you put the phone through the letter box so he

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can talk to us? So it was weird anyway. That

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so a few little things like that. I ended up

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putting his fish and chips through the letterbox because he

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couldn't get out to get any food. That's a weird one.

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It's a shared memory though, So Friday evening he opens

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a door. Now he's got very fra lately, but he's again,

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he's seventy eight. He's not a big eater. He doesn't drink,

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doesn't smoke, doesn't He's probably one of the most enthusiastic

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people I've ever met regarding sport, regarding anything, and I've

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ever met anyone possibly of any age, that was so

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enthusiastic about what they love. And he loves sport, I

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mean all sport. Boxing is not too bothered about. That's

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the one I love. But he knows about boxing, but

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not a huge amount. But when it comes to football, rugby, cricket,

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absolutely knows. There don't seem to be anything he don't know,

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and he follows all of it. He'll actually he'll listen

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to one spot on the radio He'll watch one spot

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on the TV and he'll have another one playing on

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his tablet, like three different sports at the same time.

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It's just like, I don't know how he does it.

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It's not something that I could do. But he loves it.

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And that's what's so sad about the situation, because he

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loves being alive. Right, Okay, again, I'm not going to

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go I don't want to go into deep stuff. But

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he loves he's got energy, he's got is enthusiastic about life,

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constantly looking forward to the next day because the rugby's on,

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or the crickets on, or the football match. He's looking

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forward to that. He's looking forward to the weekend every

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week because that's when a lot of sport is on television.

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So you know, I'm just I'm trying to get across that.

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He's really nice, very chatty, very chatty, but he's a

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really nice person. It's a kind and gentle person. But

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as probably I am me sitting his ways like a

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lot of people are. I guess I am as well

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in a lot of ways, probably in maybe more ways

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than he is. To be fair, and he's independent, and

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he does not like being does not like people interfering

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with his business, and who does. To be honest, I

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don't think anyone does really do it. However, I'm laughing

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just because it put me in a very difficult situation.

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It's nothing funny at all about this situation. There's zero humor,

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but I'll probably get some out of it. But just

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remember I'm not mocking him or his situation at all.

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I wouldn't know. That's not what I'm doing, but I

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will perhaps laugh at some of the things that happened.

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So open a door, and literally I couldn't keep my

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eyes open because it was so bright. I thought he

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had some kind of light shining out out of his flat,

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and I thought my glasses were turning brown again, like

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the lenses, and I know what's going on. So I

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took my glasses off, and it wasn't coming from there,

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it was coming from him. He was yellow. And I've

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seen that once before, many many years ago. I had

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two fouls and two thousand and two thousand and four,

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that's when I last saw that, the only time I've

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ever seen it, and that person was a severe alcohol drinker,

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alcohol drinker, and he survived, but he was in hospital,

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but it gained another really nice person. I lived in

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that house. That's when I lived in Ipswich. I lived

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in the house that was every single person in there,

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apart from the person at the bottom, was an alcoholic

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except me, and I didn't drink that whole year. It

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was just, really I think that's pretty irony. I stopped

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drinking because I a little bit of a drink issue previous.

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I was just drinking excessively for three years, like every

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night for three years, pretty much. So I stopped drinking

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for a whole year. Two thousand and four, I moved

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into this place. The bloat next to me was a

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full on alcoholic. I'm talking like proper not didn't go

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to work. He's just drunk all the time. The man downstairs,

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and I got him really well with him. I helped him

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get a council flat when he got evicted, so I

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kind of helped him during that period. I wasn't living

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there anymore, but I just couldn't leave him. I wanted

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to help him to well, if you're friends of sudden,

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you've got to help him. And the bloke downstairs was

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a full on, like really almost like a functioning alcoholic.

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The one next to me wasn't functioning. The one downstairs

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was functioning, and I got him really well with him,

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so again really quite good friends with him. The man

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next to him was also an alcoholic, but I didn't

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He wouldn't talk to me. He just didn't like me.

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So he lived directly below me, and he moaned that

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my I was making too much noise because when I

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moved in, I had this bed what they called the

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beds that are on the floor footons. I had a

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foot on the most uncomfortable bed in my life. That

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was so every time I moved he oh, I guess

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I was moving the floorboards or whatever, and he could

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hear me. I think I'd be listening to the radio

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or something, and he just moaned. So he didn't like me,

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which is fine. Then downstairs at the bottom, so that's

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one two three people, two at the top with me

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and someone two at the bottom, two below me, and

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then two right at the bottom. The one right at

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the bottom, that's the one it ended up possible. He

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was again another functioning alcoholic, and I think he was retired,

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like the two functioning ones were retired. Next to him,

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there was a crackhouse. Well I'm not joking that got

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closed down by the police. So he didn't drink, but

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he did other stuff. But he also was really nice.

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It's just a weird situation. He was lovely. Yeah, everyone

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in the house was nice. I didn't get on with

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one and he might be nice as well, but everyone

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else was really nice. And it was really strange because

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that was my year of abstinence, almost like I'm not

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doing anything this year, and I'm surrounded by all this alcohol.

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It was ridiculous. It was yeah, I don't know, almost

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like it was a test anyway. So I've seen that before.

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So my friend neighbor opposite yellow, yellow skirt and skin,

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and I thought, I'm seeing things here. I had Vinning

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with me on his lead. So I said, look, do

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you want to show me a bathroom? Said yeah, come in.

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He's exactly the same. It's the same as what he

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ever is. He's like, you know, he was quite bubbly

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as he normally is. He's genuinely quite pleased to see me.

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He doesn't let anyone else in his flat other than

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the builders. He's got no choice about that. But he

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doesn't invite anyone into his home. But he does me. Now.

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He didn't for the first nine years or eight years.

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So I went in there, went to the bathroom. It's

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a really good job they've done. So he's had his

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kitchen done and now he's got his bathroom. It's nearly finished.

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I've been letting them in this week because he's impossible.

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Such a really nice bathroom. But it's very bright as well,

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because there's a new light in there. It's really because

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it's really bright at the moment. And I look at him,

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I thinking, at this point, my glasses have gone back

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to normal, and like I said to him, you are

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you okay? He said? He said, what are you talking about?

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What are you? Are you okay? Said yeah, you feel okay?

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Said yeah. He said why, I said, oh, you're yellow?

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And he said what Now he doesn't have a mirror

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in his home, and I don't know how he shaves.

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He does shave, so he must just do it by

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He must just guess. He's done it for years. But

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mind you, I've shaved at the sink without looking in

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the mirror. It's possible to do it like I've done

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it with a wet shave, a wet razor. We have

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had a sink that was nowhere near mirror because I

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couldn't be bothered to like walk two steps to the

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mirror to do it. But hey, it's this laziness. It's

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a challenge as well, isn't it to do it by touch?

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And it is possible. I mean, millions of people around

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the world, I have no choice but to do it

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by touch, do they? I guess if they're unable to see.

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So yeah, it is, of course it's possible. He he

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didn't know that he was shallow, but it wasn't just

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his skin, it was his eyes as well, you know,

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the whites of his eyes. And I said, are you sure?

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He said, yeah, We're fine, and then we just have

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a normal conversation and I said, well, I'm just going

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to head off, and he was joking, saying, I said,

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if you've got the builders coming at the weekend, he said, nope,

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they're not coming in. If they are, even if they're not,

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they're not coming in because it's Rugby tomorrow. And I laughed,

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I know he would not answer the door at the weekend.

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That's his time. I said, okay, cool, I'll see it

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like I see it, So I see you on Monday,

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because you know, I leave him alone at the weekend

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in Then then I get in here because I live opposite,

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I get in here and I'm thinking that ain't right.

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It's just not right. It's like, I can't how can

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I ignore that? It's I understand. I mean, there's people

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coming and going not said a thing to him about

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it all week. They must have seen him. They have

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to se him because he's letting him in and he's

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a he's a right chatter box. He's probably been talking

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to them the whole week, so they've seen him and

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no one's mentioned it. But then maybe the fact that

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they haven't seen him before they might think that's just

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how he looks all the time. It's a weird one,

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isn't it. It's difficult. It's see if I see if

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you see someone you know really well and they're limping,

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you're going to mention it and say you're okay, you're limping.

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But if you see someone for the first time you know,

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you're a builder, you're knock on the door and they're limping,

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you're not going to question it. Yeah, it's I guess

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it's the same kind of thing. I suppose, I don't know.

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I imagine if you're going into people's houses. You see

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so many different things that you maybe they don't even

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notice it, you know, I'm not sure. Anyway, I'm sitting

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in here and I'm starting to get upset because I

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don't know what to do, like really starting to get old.

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This is very awkward situation because I know what it's

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like and I know that he he wouldn't want me interfering.

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I was correct as well. So what I did is,

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which is something I don't normally do. I left Finny

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here and I went out around the corner to a

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neighbor that I know, and she's she's a bit older

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than me. She's someone that I can like. I felt

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I needed to talk to someone a bit older than me.

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I don't know why there's not many people older than

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me these days, but I thought, I just get her perspective.

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And I said, I don't know what to do, And

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I said, what I need is really a second opinion,

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because I might be I might not be seeing things correctly.

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I'm seeing yellow, but maybe he's not. He's not tan

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because he doesn't go out in the daytime. Really, he

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goes out at night. And you know, there was always

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that Maybe that's why maybe there's some kind of vitamin deficiency.

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I don't know. I'm not a doctor. I didn't finish

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the entire course. I didn't start. I didn't start the

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course either. But you know, by saying I didn't finish

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my doctorate, it's correct, isn't it. I didn't. I didn't complete,

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I didn't get my doctorate. I didn't start a doctorate,

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but I didn't get the doctorate. I never became a doctor.

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It's true. Doesn't mean I don't you know, I also

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don't have any medical training either, So that's irrelevant, isn't it. Really.

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I'm almost in disbelief about what's happened over the last

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five days. Just so I'm used to not going out

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other than three times a day with this little one here,

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this little fur ball in the park. I don't even

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I don't even cross the road, like to go to

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the petro station or the pet shop anymore. Everything I

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buy is online. I don't. It's almost start. There's an

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invisible barrier that I've struggled to cross. I don't get

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my my prescriptions get delivered or I try and get

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someone to pick them up for me. I don't even

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travel there anymore. And it's been like that for probably

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since my friend downstairs passed away, pretty much, I haven't

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really got out. I haven't been that much at all.

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In fact, the last time I went out, last time

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I left this area, like literally kind of left this

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area I think was probably my friend's funeral, which was

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a year and a half ago something like that. Yeah,

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over a even and a half ago. So yeah, it

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was kind of strange. So anyway, I'm saying that because

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I've ended up having to go out so Friday, so

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around my friend the neighbor's house, and they said, oh,

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you know, you know, I'm not being rude to them,

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because natural human thing, isn't it. We start we start

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diagnosing as soon as you say someone's turned yellow, Well

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it's this, it's that. It's that, you know, And my

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personal the way I kind of look at it is,

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I don't know what it is, but I know he's

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not supposed to be yellow. That's all I can say.

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And I know that that can be a sign of

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something very serious. And I went online. I did research

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it as well before as soon as I came back

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just online to sort of all, okay, no description of

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turning yellow came up as being a positive that's all

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I'm saying. So I thought, oh, what do I do next?

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So I went around my neighbors. They basically diagnosed him,

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and we're about to write him a prescription. I said, no, no,

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wait a minute. First of all, you're not a doctor. Secondly,

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can one of you come around with me? And he

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knows the daughter because he's met loads of times. She's

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a little bit younger than me, and so I said,

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if you come round and I knock on his door

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because they asked me. Actually, the neighbor they'll visited asked

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me if I had a toilet roll they could borrow.

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So I thought, okay, I'll use that as an excuse.

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I knock on my neighbor's door the opposite me, asking

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me if he's got a spare toilet role because I've

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only got one left. So it gave me an opportunity

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to get him to open the door, because he does

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as he did answer the door to me and the

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other neighbor around the corner. She was with me, and

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as soon as the door opened she just went wow

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like she I mean, she was even shocked, even considered

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already told her what was happening. I don't know, actually,

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didn't believe me or whatever or didn't think it was

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quite as you know, significant, and he kind of says

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he got rid of us quite quickly, and so I

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gave him a toilet role because I didn't need a

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toilet roll, but I gave him my one. Came back

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in there. I've I didn't know what to do next.

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I really struggled. Really, it's weird, I did. I think

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with my friend downstairs it was just me the whole time,

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well not just me, but generally it was very often

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only me that was dealing with him with his issues.

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So I kind of got used to it over years.

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In years of it, it was just progressive, you know,

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in a sense of more of the same. This was

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completely new. This is something I'd never dealt with with

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him before, or with anyone, not really in this sense,

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like being the person he needed to do something. So

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I called one one one, which is in the UK.

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That is, it's like a medical helpline. It's not nine

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to nine nine like in some countries it's nine one one,

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isn't it or whatever, different different numbers that would be emergency.

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One one one is a place where you can phone up.

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They ask you some questions. You can ask questions on

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behalf of someone else, technically, I mean you can't. Personally.

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You can if you've got a loved one that's got

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conditions or got some kind of symptoms, you can ask

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for advice. Well, I did this, and the person on

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the one one one they were very limited because I

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wasn't with him, and they kept asking me questions that

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I couldn't answer. Well, they asked, how does he feeling?

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I said, he's feeling fine. Is he there with you now?

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I said no, it's not with me. Now, well, can

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you go and get him? I said not really, because

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he told me to leave him alone, basically in so

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many words, stop fussing. I think might have been one

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of his sentences. And they said, okay, what's his day

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of birth? So I don't know his date of birth,

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but I know he's nearly seventy eight. Okay, but I

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do know his name. I've got his address and all

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that stuff. I've got his telephone number. I said to

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him and said, okay, all right. So he said, well,

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based on what you said, he needs to call. We

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need to speak to him. I said, okay. So he said,

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They said, we can't deal with you, we're going to

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need to deal with him because he's the one that

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is got the condition. And I thought, Okay, this is

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going to be awkward, but they said it's important because

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not really because of his age or anything, just basically

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because of the from what you said, it's an important thing.

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It's a condition that will need medical attention. And we

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want to get some information from him regarding medical background,

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which I don't have. I don't know anything. It turns

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out he's never ever been, never had anything wrong with

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him every in his life. Never. I'm not going to

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give his information away or say who it is. He

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could be anyone, so you're not going to know that.

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But he's he's completely never been ill other than just

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the general things that all people have of you now

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and then doesn't even have a doctor. He's not even

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registered with a doctor. And that's how healthy he's been

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his whole life. And I did tell them that I knew.

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I didn't know about the doctor, but I knew that

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he told me for he's all told me never been

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on medication, because when he heard that I was medication,

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he was kind of surprised that I was on because

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he's on nothing and I'm on what four different medications

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and they're like, really, you're on all them? I said, yeah,

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shut up, and he and he was interested in the bipolar.

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He was interested in me telling him about that stuff.

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So every now and then he asks me a question

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about it. But it's like gradually, you know. Anyway, So

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I'm here, I don't know what to do. I've phoned

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downstairs to my other neighbors and I said, I don't

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know what to do. I really don't know what to do.

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And this is there's a lady that lives downstairs that

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I'm like, I'm really well with. She's just directly blow

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me me and she's twenty years old, but she's probably

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way more mature than I am. It's weird. It's not

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really weird, but I'm just not I didn't know what

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to do. I really didn't know what to do, and

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I needed some support. And maybe the fact that I

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asked for support is because I've never had any support

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with my other friend and I realized that I needed

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it back then, but I didn't have any I had

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no one to ask for help this situation. I just

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decided I'm going to ask, which is why I did

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ask the neighbor around the corner, the neighbor downstairs. And

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she said, well, I'll tell you what I'll do. I'll

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come up and we'll tell him together, because I didn't

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know if he was going to get angry with me,

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because he already told me pretty much know twice. The

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second time it was a little bit like, go away.

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Did he cut close the door a little bit, you know,

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quite quickly? So I knock on his door for a

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third time. This time is someone else standing there? So

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that's this is really annoying him, which is understandable. He

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would annoy me as well, especially as he doesn't he

465
00:34:24.039 --> 00:34:25.960
knows them, but he doesn't know them the way he

466
00:34:26.000 --> 00:34:30.000
knows me. So these are people that he've seen, but

467
00:34:30.079 --> 00:34:33.679
he hasn't doesn't really have like regular contact with them.

468
00:34:34.079 --> 00:34:35.719
And I said, I'm the only one he lets in

469
00:34:35.760 --> 00:34:38.199
his house. No one else, no one else is allowed

470
00:34:38.199 --> 00:34:46.400
in there. So I've got her. Her boyfriend's there as well.

471
00:34:46.760 --> 00:34:49.239
He's standing on the stairs, but he's tall enough to

472
00:34:49.280 --> 00:34:54.880
see over the banister and he opens the door and

473
00:34:54.960 --> 00:34:57.960
I say to him, oh, you know, you know her downstairs.

474
00:35:01.159 --> 00:35:03.360
I don't know what excuse I made for her being there,

475
00:35:03.920 --> 00:35:10.400
but I said, I've called one one one about your

476
00:35:10.639 --> 00:35:13.159
about your situation, and he said, what did you do

477
00:35:13.239 --> 00:35:21.119
that for? I said, well, I said it just he

478
00:35:21.199 --> 00:35:22.920
seemed like you were looking forward to the weekend. I

479
00:35:22.960 --> 00:35:26.360
just wanted to ruin all the rugby for you. So no,

480
00:35:26.360 --> 00:35:30.119
I didn't say that. That's like, what other option did

481
00:35:30.159 --> 00:35:33.840
I have? He said, why? I said, because I care.

482
00:35:36.519 --> 00:35:39.519
That's why. That's why I called. Because I care. I said,

483
00:35:39.519 --> 00:35:41.679
if that's I was getting a little bit defensive to

484
00:35:41.679 --> 00:35:43.800
be honest, that that's a problem for you. That's your

485
00:35:43.920 --> 00:35:47.880
that's your problem. But I'm sorry. You know, I've gone

486
00:35:47.880 --> 00:35:50.199
through life with a lot of people not caring and

487
00:35:50.320 --> 00:35:52.880
no one it's like, and he's used to not being

488
00:35:52.880 --> 00:35:55.920
on his own, and I see him as a future

489
00:35:56.000 --> 00:35:59.519
version of me in some ways, because we're both very

490
00:36:00.119 --> 00:36:06.239
on her own, doing her own thing, very independent, don't

491
00:36:06.599 --> 00:36:13.159
really like being bothered, and don't generally ask anyone for

492
00:36:13.239 --> 00:36:19.920
anything for all possible. And I was really I was

493
00:36:20.000 --> 00:36:23.199
really getting in a way of that. I was, I

494
00:36:23.239 --> 00:36:31.639
mean knocking on his door three one two, three, three times,

495
00:36:32.679 --> 00:36:36.079
and the first time was fine anyway, because that was

496
00:36:36.119 --> 00:36:38.280
just a standard let's say, a look at your bathroom

497
00:36:39.599 --> 00:36:43.159
but the other two times and having different people standing

498
00:36:43.159 --> 00:36:46.880
there with me, he was very anyway, the third time

499
00:36:46.920 --> 00:36:50.039
he got angry with me, and I understand it, I do,

500
00:36:50.760 --> 00:36:54.159
But at the same time I also needed a third opinion.

501
00:36:54.840 --> 00:36:57.760
I just I needed to be one hundred percent sure

502
00:36:58.239 --> 00:37:00.000
because I knew I was about to ruin his week

503
00:37:00.159 --> 00:37:03.880
end at the very least, because he's looking forward to

504
00:37:03.920 --> 00:37:08.440
watching the rugby. And I also thought there's a chance

505
00:37:08.440 --> 00:37:12.599
he won't talk to me again. But then I've got this.

506
00:37:12.960 --> 00:37:17.280
There's this. I told my friend downstairs, the one Luke.

507
00:37:17.960 --> 00:37:22.480
I said to him at least once when because I'd

508
00:37:22.480 --> 00:37:26.800
call an ambulance for him multiple times and he hated it.

509
00:37:26.800 --> 00:37:31.440
It would never go tospital. Never under any circumstances would

510
00:37:31.440 --> 00:37:34.639
he be taken Tosspital in an ambulance, and they always

511
00:37:34.639 --> 00:37:37.880
wanted to take him, but he never went. And I

512
00:37:37.920 --> 00:37:39.880
said to him once, I might have said it more

513
00:37:39.920 --> 00:37:44.039
than once. I said, listen, mate, I'd drither you hate

514
00:37:44.079 --> 00:37:46.559
me and be alive, that love me and be dead?

515
00:37:47.440 --> 00:37:49.320
You know, I noticed, this is pretty a silly sentence

516
00:37:49.360 --> 00:37:53.639
to say. But and when I said it, I was

517
00:37:53.719 --> 00:37:58.199
quite not aggressive, but like I wasn't being all gentle

518
00:37:58.239 --> 00:38:01.639
with it. It was like, that's how it is. You

519
00:38:01.760 --> 00:38:03.280
got a problem with it, You're going to have to

520
00:38:03.280 --> 00:38:07.280
deal with it, because I'm not going to stand and watch.

521
00:38:07.719 --> 00:38:12.760
I'm not just going to ignore someone who's in trouble.

522
00:38:12.920 --> 00:38:14.880
I can't. I can't do that. I just don't have

523
00:38:14.920 --> 00:38:20.159
it in me to do that. So I said the

524
00:38:20.199 --> 00:38:24.880
same thing to Alex. It's I got that little line rehearsed.

525
00:38:25.639 --> 00:38:27.599
I feel. Do you ever get a feeling, you know

526
00:38:27.639 --> 00:38:32.599
when you see Clint Eastwood or those movies and they

527
00:38:32.639 --> 00:38:36.679
say the things like go on make my day, like

528
00:38:36.760 --> 00:38:38.880
he's got it rehearsed. I know he got rehearsed, as

529
00:38:38.920 --> 00:38:43.480
in it was in the movie. It was a script.

530
00:38:44.119 --> 00:38:49.800
But it's like, it's a really good line, but I'll

531
00:38:49.840 --> 00:38:52.519
just keep it there for the good the right moment.

532
00:38:53.199 --> 00:38:56.360
So I said that to him on the third time

533
00:38:56.400 --> 00:38:59.159
we were together. No not no. One wasn't the third

534
00:38:59.159 --> 00:39:02.039
time together. It was okay. The third time I was

535
00:39:02.119 --> 00:39:06.480
knock on his door. I told him that I'd called

536
00:39:06.480 --> 00:39:15.199
one one one and he said, you shouldn't have done that.

537
00:39:16.719 --> 00:39:20.159
I said, well I did, so you shouldn't have done

538
00:39:20.519 --> 00:39:24.440
but I did. And he was very angry. He shut

539
00:39:24.480 --> 00:39:26.239
the door in my face, standed the door in my face.

540
00:39:26.960 --> 00:39:29.239
Apparently he says something rude to me as well, but

541
00:39:29.280 --> 00:39:32.639
I didn't realize that my neighbor heard, well, both of

542
00:39:32.679 --> 00:39:34.960
them heard him. For some reason, I didn't hear it,

543
00:39:36.119 --> 00:39:43.239
so that was awkward. Now at this point, my other

544
00:39:43.280 --> 00:39:48.760
neighbors from downstairs, they come into my flat and they're like, wow,

545
00:39:50.840 --> 00:39:53.119
probably surprised at how he was acting to me, because

546
00:39:53.119 --> 00:39:55.599
I know that me and him are being quite close

547
00:39:55.679 --> 00:40:02.960
for the last year or so. So it's kind of

548
00:40:03.119 --> 00:40:06.559
that she was surprised at that because she's the whole

549
00:40:06.599 --> 00:40:09.199
time she's lived at me and him have been. We

550
00:40:09.280 --> 00:40:11.920
we get on, really, you know, she sees us. I

551
00:40:11.960 --> 00:40:18.239
don't know it, just we just Yeah. She was just

552
00:40:18.280 --> 00:40:21.719
surprised at how he was acting. So she came in

553
00:40:21.760 --> 00:40:28.880
there and she said, well, I don't know what to do.

554
00:40:31.159 --> 00:40:34.480
So what she did is she called one more one

555
00:40:36.239 --> 00:40:41.000
and reported it and said, look, the neighbor he won't

556
00:40:41.440 --> 00:40:44.760
he won't listen to us, he won't allow anyone to

557
00:40:44.760 --> 00:40:53.199
come in and you know, medical anything like that, blah blah.

558
00:40:53.239 --> 00:40:55.719
So one more one they had already told me because

559
00:40:55.719 --> 00:40:58.920
I called them back again as well, and they kept

560
00:40:58.920 --> 00:41:02.159
asking the same question, is he with you? Can you

561
00:41:02.239 --> 00:41:06.719
check what's his condition? Now? I said, I I'd literally

562
00:41:06.920 --> 00:41:10.239
to the same person. I said, probably six seven times,

563
00:41:10.280 --> 00:41:12.599
I'm not with him because he won't let me in

564
00:41:12.599 --> 00:41:14.519
the flat, shut the door in my face. We slammed

565
00:41:14.519 --> 00:41:16.559
the door in my face. He won't let me in.

566
00:41:17.519 --> 00:41:21.280
I can't talk to him, and every other probably three

567
00:41:21.320 --> 00:41:26.440
minutes later. So can I talk to him? Like he's

568
00:41:26.440 --> 00:41:29.320
not with me? So is he still yellow? Like? It

569
00:41:29.440 --> 00:41:31.920
was weird? It was kind of I realized they've got

570
00:41:31.960 --> 00:41:34.880
their script and they're trying to get to the bottom

571
00:41:34.880 --> 00:41:38.000
of it. So I'm not in no way being horrible.

572
00:41:38.039 --> 00:41:47.679
I'm just it was. It was difficult, and she said, well,

573
00:41:47.760 --> 00:41:50.920
we'll get back to you. I'll get her. They were

574
00:41:50.960 --> 00:41:53.320
all nice. Everyone I spoke to is nice. We'll get

575
00:41:53.440 --> 00:41:58.199
someone back to you. She already spoke to a manager.

576
00:41:58.280 --> 00:42:00.599
And then they said we'll get back to you. And

577
00:42:00.719 --> 00:42:02.760
then they said that also to my other neighbor. They

578
00:42:02.760 --> 00:42:06.119
didn't get back to my other neighbor, and I thought

579
00:42:06.159 --> 00:42:13.760
that was it, but I gave them his number and

580
00:42:13.800 --> 00:42:16.800
I said, unlikely he's going to answer the phone if

581
00:42:16.800 --> 00:42:19.440
he hasn't even turned it off. He's locked the door

582
00:42:19.519 --> 00:42:22.280
so you can't get in, and unlikely he's going to

583
00:42:22.320 --> 00:42:25.159
answer the door. I was wrong on all that. Actually

584
00:42:25.239 --> 00:42:28.519
I was wrong. He had locked it, but he actually

585
00:42:28.639 --> 00:42:34.760
was very compliant with them, not with me. So I

586
00:42:34.800 --> 00:42:38.920
got I can't haven't got access to my phone. So

587
00:42:40.480 --> 00:42:44.440
probably about half an hour later, maybe the phone went.

588
00:42:44.559 --> 00:42:47.639
Maybe an hour later the phone went and it was

589
00:42:48.519 --> 00:42:51.440
one more one again, I think this time it was

590
00:42:51.480 --> 00:42:58.679
a nurse and she said, are you with him? I said, no,

591
00:42:58.760 --> 00:43:02.559
I'm not with him. He's in a different flat. The

592
00:43:02.599 --> 00:43:05.800
door was locked. He hates me now. She said, I

593
00:43:06.119 --> 00:43:19.920
understand that. Well, we've got his telephone number and he's yeah,

594
00:43:20.039 --> 00:43:25.840
I will try and call him and we're gonna basically

595
00:43:25.960 --> 00:43:30.119
send a paramedic around. She said, can you knock on

596
00:43:30.119 --> 00:43:33.559
his door let him know? I said no, I really can't.

597
00:43:34.320 --> 00:43:36.360
I said, well I can, but you won't answer the door.

598
00:43:36.440 --> 00:43:40.360
That's a guarantee for dot to me anyway, and that's

599
00:43:40.400 --> 00:43:43.800
just going to upset him even more. I really didn't

600
00:43:43.840 --> 00:43:47.280
expect him to answer the phone to them. But she

601
00:43:47.400 --> 00:43:51.159
phoned back about fifteen minutes later and said they've spoken

602
00:43:51.199 --> 00:43:54.840
to him. He was nicest pie on the phone. He

603
00:43:54.880 --> 00:43:57.800
agreed to have the paramedics come around. He was going

604
00:43:57.840 --> 00:44:04.639
to let them in, and it was absolutely lovely, and

605
00:44:04.719 --> 00:44:12.920
I thought, really, so, I think it's at this point

606
00:44:13.679 --> 00:44:17.159
I went to bed. I didn't really go to bed,

607
00:44:17.199 --> 00:44:20.880
but I went for a lie down because I didn't

608
00:44:20.920 --> 00:44:24.679
feel any longer that I could be involved, because the

609
00:44:24.719 --> 00:44:28.400
way he'd treated me and the way that he'd spoken

610
00:44:28.480 --> 00:44:32.360
to me, and I didn't think that he'd want me involved.

611
00:44:32.599 --> 00:44:36.599
But at the same time, he was getting medical assistance

612
00:44:37.320 --> 00:44:40.800
and that was the most important thing. Having me around

613
00:44:40.920 --> 00:44:45.880
wasn't important. That's what I thought anyway, but him getting

614
00:44:45.960 --> 00:44:52.079
help was important. And so they went in there. I

615
00:44:52.239 --> 00:44:55.199
was just laying down, like quarter past ten or something.

616
00:44:56.280 --> 00:44:59.519
They weren't in there long. There was no big long thing.

617
00:44:59.599 --> 00:45:04.119
It was like, right, yep, we're taking his hospital. They

618
00:45:04.119 --> 00:45:08.159
were in there for fifteen minutes at half past ten,

619
00:45:09.320 --> 00:45:11.199
with in his barking, so you can hear the door go.

620
00:45:11.840 --> 00:45:13.519
I left my door open, which is not what I

621
00:45:13.599 --> 00:45:17.039
normally do when I'm in bed at that time, but

622
00:45:18.280 --> 00:45:20.039
I looked at the camera. I saw that they were

623
00:45:20.079 --> 00:45:22.440
coming out and he was locking the door. So I

624
00:45:22.480 --> 00:45:32.800
came out and I said, you're right it's very awkward.

625
00:45:33.920 --> 00:45:37.119
And the paramedics they knew who I was. I guess

626
00:45:37.119 --> 00:45:39.320
they knew because I didn't want to called. Not knew

627
00:45:39.360 --> 00:45:43.760
me personally, but I think I probably told him I'm

628
00:45:43.800 --> 00:45:56.440
the one at CARDI. In fact, wait a minute, wait

629
00:45:56.480 --> 00:46:03.440
a minute, I'm no, I've got this wrong. I'm doing

630
00:46:03.480 --> 00:46:07.280
this in the wrong order. Right. Here's what happened. I

631
00:46:07.800 --> 00:46:14.320
took Vinnie out for his last little wi that's it,

632
00:46:15.119 --> 00:46:23.480
and I'm coming back and the ambulance is there. Or yeah,

633
00:46:23.599 --> 00:46:27.639
I'm coming back and the ambulance was there. So I

634
00:46:27.760 --> 00:46:30.519
go up to them and say hi. They said hi.

635
00:46:31.519 --> 00:46:35.880
I said, I'm the one that called you. They said, oh, okay, hi,

636
00:46:36.920 --> 00:46:38.960
and I said and I had just explained the situation,

637
00:46:40.400 --> 00:46:47.039
and they went upstairs and I just waited, oh, yeah,

638
00:46:47.199 --> 00:46:50.880
oh that's what. That's it. I saw the ambulance outside.

639
00:46:52.599 --> 00:46:54.880
I came down to take him into the garden, but

640
00:46:55.039 --> 00:46:59.440
for I go out the front and I turned right

641
00:46:59.480 --> 00:47:02.599
for somebody, and then I turned left the game. It's

642
00:47:02.639 --> 00:47:04.840
weird anyway, And I went out and told him who

643
00:47:04.920 --> 00:47:08.239
I was and that I want I'm the one that

644
00:47:08.360 --> 00:47:15.480
called originally and explained my perspective of what's kind of

645
00:47:15.480 --> 00:47:19.119
going on with him, just because he's coloring really, but

646
00:47:19.159 --> 00:47:22.440
he physically feels fine and everything. And they said okay,

647
00:47:22.440 --> 00:47:29.440
so they went upstairs. I took Vinnie in the garden.

648
00:47:30.440 --> 00:47:32.199
So they were knocking for a little while before your

649
00:47:32.199 --> 00:47:35.599
answered to be fair and then but they didn't give up,

650
00:47:37.199 --> 00:47:40.760
and I just waited. I waited and listened until he'd

651
00:47:40.840 --> 00:47:43.800
let them in and they closed the door, and then

652
00:47:43.840 --> 00:47:47.280
I went upstairs and I went and lied down, but

653
00:47:47.320 --> 00:47:49.400
they weren't there for long, and then they brought him out.

654
00:47:49.440 --> 00:47:53.239
So I go outside, say you're right, and she said

655
00:47:53.599 --> 00:47:58.760
there was two paramedics. So we're taking to the hospital.

656
00:47:59.840 --> 00:48:02.519
I said, as I speak to Alex, I said, how

657
00:48:02.599 --> 00:48:05.440
you doing? He said, I think he apologized to me.

658
00:48:07.360 --> 00:48:11.880
And I said to him, brought me to come with you?

659
00:48:13.800 --> 00:48:19.000
He said yes, So I went with him. This was

660
00:48:19.079 --> 00:48:22.639
like half ten, got an ambulance with him. He's lying

661
00:48:22.639 --> 00:48:26.239
down on a bed thing and I'm sitting in a chair.

662
00:48:26.280 --> 00:48:29.880
I didn't even know they had chairs and ambulances. Never

663
00:48:29.960 --> 00:48:35.280
been for an ambulance ride as in my memory. Maybe

664
00:48:35.320 --> 00:48:37.840
when I was a kid, but not in my adult memory.

665
00:48:37.880 --> 00:48:42.159
I don't remember ever ever being traveling in an ambulance,

666
00:48:44.440 --> 00:48:48.400
and it was a very strange, very strange experience because

667
00:48:48.400 --> 00:48:51.119
there was no windows. Well there's windows, but all black

668
00:48:51.280 --> 00:48:56.880
blackened out. So it's almost like traveling on the tube,

669
00:48:57.000 --> 00:49:03.239
like underground, the underground railway, but no stops. You got

670
00:49:03.559 --> 00:49:08.760
not no railway stations or anything going through. And I

671
00:49:08.800 --> 00:49:10.800
had no idea where I was. I knew I was

672
00:49:10.800 --> 00:49:14.719
in an ambulance, but I had no idea where I was,

673
00:49:16.159 --> 00:49:20.719
like within the distance of traveling to the hospital. He

674
00:49:20.920 --> 00:49:25.280
was fine, he was joking, and they've got a cup

675
00:49:25.280 --> 00:49:30.679
of coffee from Costas on the way. It was yeah.

676
00:49:30.800 --> 00:49:37.199
And then so I was with him till three o'clock

677
00:49:37.320 --> 00:49:41.239
or three thirty in the morning. That's when I took

678
00:49:41.280 --> 00:49:45.079
that I took that video of that fox outside the

679
00:49:45.079 --> 00:49:49.320
hospital because I was waiting for taxi. It was bright outside,

680
00:49:49.400 --> 00:49:50.920
but there's got a lot of lights at day in

681
00:49:50.920 --> 00:49:54.679
the hospital. But it was just like wow, almost like daytime,

682
00:49:56.199 --> 00:50:00.440
but very quiet. See, Friday night was going to be

683
00:50:00.480 --> 00:50:05.960
really busy, but it wasn't. And the busiest days, which

684
00:50:05.960 --> 00:50:10.719
I found very interesting, just kind of threw me off

685
00:50:10.719 --> 00:50:12.880
a bit. But apparently the busiest times of the hospital

686
00:50:13.039 --> 00:50:18.719
are Sunday, Monday, and Tuesday at that hospital anyway, I

687
00:50:18.760 --> 00:50:22.719
mean A and E. Of course it gets I suppose

688
00:50:23.519 --> 00:50:27.000
it's busy pretty much the whole time, but it's you know,

689
00:50:27.320 --> 00:50:29.079
it seems to be that the hospital as a whole,

690
00:50:29.519 --> 00:50:31.840
because they've got less staff on ont of the weekend.

691
00:50:33.360 --> 00:50:38.960
So I've been here every day since Friday, and I've

692
00:50:39.000 --> 00:50:42.800
seen it get busier and busier and busier, like every day.

693
00:50:42.840 --> 00:50:46.800
It's almost like a twenty five percent of the people

694
00:50:46.880 --> 00:50:52.000
added on. It's weird, including staff as well, so where

695
00:50:52.039 --> 00:50:54.960
there was like maybe two or three staff nowadays ten.

696
00:50:56.920 --> 00:51:07.760
It's yeah, it's really busy anyway. So they didn't put

697
00:51:07.800 --> 00:51:11.599
him into A and E. They didn't have him sitting

698
00:51:11.679 --> 00:51:16.920
down waiting to be seen for hours and hours. They

699
00:51:16.920 --> 00:51:21.880
took him straight into an emergency observation place, so he

700
00:51:21.920 --> 00:51:24.119
was still he was in A and E, but he

701
00:51:24.239 --> 00:51:28.159
was on a bed in A and E. And they

702
00:51:28.199 --> 00:51:30.719
took his bloods and they did all that really quickly,

703
00:51:31.360 --> 00:51:36.800
and he had a cat scan within an hour of

704
00:51:36.840 --> 00:51:45.280
being there, I'd say maybe two hours, so I was

705
00:51:45.360 --> 00:51:47.079
kind of with him. I didn't go into the X

706
00:51:47.159 --> 00:51:55.440
ray place, but I was outside and everyone was so nice.

707
00:51:56.039 --> 00:52:00.800
Bearing in mind they're just super busy. You know, it's

708
00:52:00.840 --> 00:52:04.880
really weird. I think that some people let the whole

709
00:52:04.960 --> 00:52:09.639
they're just sitting around doing nothing, but they're not. You know,

710
00:52:09.840 --> 00:52:13.440
it's like, okay, maybe they're chatting. They need to have

711
00:52:13.639 --> 00:52:18.159
that moments, a couple of moments of just having a chat,

712
00:52:18.280 --> 00:52:21.199
you know, with their friends, talking about and as part

713
00:52:21.199 --> 00:52:23.159
of the learning process is what, isn't it? Because you've

714
00:52:23.159 --> 00:52:27.840
got a lot of young student students working there, student nurses,

715
00:52:28.320 --> 00:52:32.239
student doctors, and they learn from each other's experiences as well,

716
00:52:32.320 --> 00:52:36.079
don't they. So if someone's just had a situation as

717
00:52:36.119 --> 00:52:41.039
a nurse with a patient, they tell their colleague or

718
00:52:41.039 --> 00:52:44.239
their friend who's also a student nurse, and they can

719
00:52:44.320 --> 00:52:46.639
kind of learn from that experience. I just thought that

720
00:52:46.719 --> 00:52:51.079
out loud, and I really pleased myself. Yeah, so chattings

721
00:52:51.280 --> 00:52:55.760
may be useful sometimes could be helpful for future patients.

722
00:52:57.880 --> 00:53:00.880
And are always doing paperwork. I noticed that as well.

723
00:53:00.920 --> 00:53:09.880
It's constant because I kept interrupting people. But it was

724
00:53:10.119 --> 00:53:13.280
it got to three o'clock or just after maybe half

725
00:53:13.559 --> 00:53:17.320
three to half three, I can't remember exactly, And the

726
00:53:17.440 --> 00:53:19.800
nurse said to me because I said, is a doctor

727
00:53:19.840 --> 00:53:22.960
coming around? Because I told her hours earlier that the

728
00:53:23.039 --> 00:53:25.440
doctor was going to come around because he had his

729
00:53:25.480 --> 00:53:30.760
blood test. Is that his cat scan done? So I

730
00:53:30.760 --> 00:53:32.800
guess we were waiting for the doctor to tell him

731
00:53:32.800 --> 00:53:36.599
the results of the cat scan. Maybe not the blood test,

732
00:53:36.679 --> 00:53:41.880
but the cat scan. And she said, no, he won't

733
00:53:41.920 --> 00:53:46.920
be seeing a doctor tomorrow properly, because I thought I

734
00:53:46.960 --> 00:53:48.559
was going to wait for him to see a doctor,

735
00:53:50.639 --> 00:53:54.360
either privately or with me there, whatever he wanted, and

736
00:53:54.400 --> 00:53:57.960
then be with him until he got into the ward,

737
00:53:58.159 --> 00:54:00.960
whatever ward he was going to be in, because it

738
00:54:01.039 --> 00:54:03.519
looked like they already said that he's going into a ward,

739
00:54:03.599 --> 00:54:12.480
he was not being sent home, and I, Oh, that's

740
00:54:12.519 --> 00:54:14.599
what I was going to do. I was so tired.

741
00:54:15.199 --> 00:54:19.280
I wasn't delusional, delusional, whatever you want to call it.

742
00:54:19.320 --> 00:54:24.800
I wasn't like tripping or anything, but that particular I

743
00:54:24.840 --> 00:54:27.559
know it's weird, but that particular morning, I woke up

744
00:54:27.639 --> 00:54:31.360
at three thirty in the morning. It's a really early morning.

745
00:54:31.400 --> 00:54:35.000
I don't normally wake up that early, but I got

746
00:54:35.039 --> 00:54:37.599
out of bed. I had had a nap during the day,

747
00:54:41.199 --> 00:54:43.960
but I'm normally in bed by ten, so to be

748
00:54:44.079 --> 00:54:49.199
awake at three thirty I was I felt like I

749
00:54:49.280 --> 00:54:54.880
was almost on another planet. You know. It was really strange.

750
00:54:55.039 --> 00:55:01.119
I felt very weird, and he wasn't tired, But then

751
00:55:01.880 --> 00:55:03.360
I wouldn't have been tired if I was in this

752
00:55:03.440 --> 00:55:11.119
situation either, So I was. But I was stimulated as

753
00:55:11.119 --> 00:55:14.800
well because I'm not used to being around people, not

754
00:55:14.920 --> 00:55:19.400
that many people whatever. Really, you know, just in my life,

755
00:55:19.840 --> 00:55:23.199
I saw more people on Friday night than I've probably

756
00:55:23.280 --> 00:55:30.559
seen the last two years, as like amount of people.

757
00:55:31.840 --> 00:55:34.039
And that was just in the evening. It's just a

758
00:55:34.159 --> 00:55:37.679
huge amounts of the people in the hospital, even when

759
00:55:37.679 --> 00:55:43.519
it's quiet. So the nurse said to me, you might

760
00:55:43.519 --> 00:55:46.280
as well go home. He's not going to be seen

761
00:55:46.320 --> 00:55:50.760
by a doctor tonight, very unlikely. It's free in the morning,

762
00:55:50.800 --> 00:55:53.360
but he probably won't be seen until Saturday during the day.

763
00:55:54.519 --> 00:56:00.159
And he very unlikely he's going to be put to

764
00:56:00.199 --> 00:56:03.679
a ward until tomorrow. That she was saying tomorrow, but

765
00:56:03.760 --> 00:56:07.000
you know Saturday. It was already Saturday, I guess early hours.

766
00:56:08.480 --> 00:56:10.559
So I told my friend, I said I'm going to go,

767
00:56:12.920 --> 00:56:14.840
and he said, okay. It said to me a few

768
00:56:14.840 --> 00:56:18.119
times ago, if you want, because I was yawning and

769
00:56:18.159 --> 00:56:21.400
like I was struggling to keep my eyes open. By

770
00:56:21.519 --> 00:56:31.239
physically struggling a bit like now. Oh. So I left,

771
00:56:31.480 --> 00:56:42.400
got a taxi home, and I called him in the

772
00:56:42.480 --> 00:56:48.159
morning about ten o'clock Saturday. So I went to sleep.

773
00:56:48.599 --> 00:56:54.480
Was it ten o'clock? It probably was, because I went

774
00:56:54.519 --> 00:56:57.039
to sleep and I awoke. I couldn't go straight to

775
00:56:57.079 --> 00:57:00.000
sleep either, which is weird. Even though I was tired,

776
00:57:00.920 --> 00:57:07.400
I hadn't eaten anything for eight hours, nine hours, so

777
00:57:07.679 --> 00:57:09.800
I just needed to get some food in me, so

778
00:57:09.840 --> 00:57:14.440
I said some breakfast cereal. Waited for a half hour,

779
00:57:14.599 --> 00:57:17.039
forty minutes or whatever. Then I went to sleep. In fact,

780
00:57:17.079 --> 00:57:18.880
I didn't go to bed. I fell asleep on this

781
00:57:19.039 --> 00:57:21.920
chair here. I don't know if I was watching Telly,

782
00:57:21.960 --> 00:57:26.039
but I fell asleep and I woke up probably about

783
00:57:26.719 --> 00:57:28.920
eight or nine in the morning, so I probably made

784
00:57:29.079 --> 00:57:33.079
three hours four hours sleep. I called him up about

785
00:57:33.159 --> 00:57:36.280
ten and he told me he'd been moved and had

786
00:57:36.280 --> 00:57:41.599
been seen by a doctor already. I said, wow, okay,

787
00:57:41.639 --> 00:57:45.199
so he's moved into a different ward and I said

788
00:57:45.239 --> 00:57:47.079
what did the doctor say? He said, it's not good.

789
00:57:47.679 --> 00:57:49.119
I said, okay, do you want to tell me now?

790
00:57:49.280 --> 00:57:51.760
You want me to come and visit you and tell me?

791
00:57:51.800 --> 00:57:54.960
Then he said, oh, i'll tell you in person. So

792
00:57:57.400 --> 00:58:03.159
I said, give me. I don't know when I went

793
00:58:03.320 --> 00:58:06.079
what time. I think, yeah, I left it at mid days.

794
00:58:06.159 --> 00:58:09.159
I said, give me, give me a couple of hours

795
00:58:09.199 --> 00:58:13.079
because I need to get ready, but head off. So

796
00:58:13.079 --> 00:58:17.920
I got a taxi there at midday and got there

797
00:58:18.599 --> 00:58:21.719
just before one o'clock I don't know, twenty to one

798
00:58:21.840 --> 00:58:31.719
or something. And so it was a new ward. Who's

799
00:58:32.000 --> 00:58:36.960
on the left hand side, Yeah, and he had someone opposite. Oh, yeah,

800
00:58:36.960 --> 00:58:40.400
there was a bloke. I got chatting to one of

801
00:58:40.400 --> 00:58:43.519
the blokes that was the other side. There was two

802
00:58:43.559 --> 00:58:48.519
people waiting to go home basically, and he was in.

803
00:58:50.000 --> 00:58:56.320
He was just sitting there again, felt fine physically, and

804
00:58:57.360 --> 00:58:59.880
so told me what a doctor said. So I'm like, okay.

805
00:59:00.559 --> 00:59:03.679
So we started having some quite serious conversations and that,

806
00:59:05.239 --> 00:59:13.960
and so I'm there. I got home. I couldn't even

807
00:59:13.960 --> 00:59:16.559
tell you what time. I got home about seven o'clock

808
00:59:16.559 --> 00:59:26.519
in the evening. And there was there again Sunday. So

809
00:59:26.559 --> 00:59:32.960
I was leaving here probably I think probably midday again

810
00:59:33.039 --> 00:59:42.159
on Sunday, get home about six or seven Monday. I

811
00:59:42.280 --> 00:59:47.639
left at about twenty to ten quarter ten in the morning,

812
00:59:48.400 --> 00:59:55.920
got home about half six in the evening that was Monday. Today,

813
00:59:57.440 --> 00:59:59.320
I tried to get a little bit earlier, so I

814
00:59:59.400 --> 01:00:03.719
left here about ten past nine. But I missed the bus.

815
01:00:04.519 --> 01:00:06.519
This because all the rest of the time I've been

816
01:00:06.519 --> 01:00:10.639
paying taxis and it's twenty pound per visit, twenty pound

817
01:00:10.679 --> 01:00:13.000
per trip, and I've been doing two trips a day,

818
01:00:13.760 --> 01:00:17.639
so one trip on Friday, two on Sunday. No one

819
01:00:17.679 --> 01:00:20.679
on Friday, two on Saturday, two on Sunday, and two

820
01:00:20.679 --> 01:00:26.320
on Monday. So today I had to get the bus.

821
01:00:26.480 --> 01:00:31.320
I really didn't have any choice. And it's a journey.

822
01:00:31.360 --> 01:00:37.079
It's sort of real journey because two buses and I

823
01:00:37.239 --> 01:00:44.719
missed the bus. No. Yesterday I got the bus back. No,

824
01:00:44.800 --> 01:00:46.719
I didn't get I didn't use a taxi. I got

825
01:00:46.760 --> 01:00:52.119
a bus back, and it took me two hours from

826
01:00:52.159 --> 01:00:54.800
the hospital to my home. It takes two hours with

827
01:00:54.920 --> 01:00:59.639
two buses waiting and walking. It's two hours, which is

828
01:01:00.679 --> 01:01:04.320
kind of strange really, And so I got the bus

829
01:01:04.360 --> 01:01:07.639
again today, missed the first bus, and then I missed

830
01:01:07.679 --> 01:01:11.599
the connection coming back. In fact, I didn't miss the connection.

831
01:01:11.760 --> 01:01:13.960
What happened is I got the bus back from the

832
01:01:13.960 --> 01:01:18.480
hospital to the track to the bus station, that bus

833
01:01:18.559 --> 01:01:21.360
station road was closed off, so the bus has had

834
01:01:21.360 --> 01:01:24.719
to do a detour. I was waiting for a specific

835
01:01:24.760 --> 01:01:31.519
bus there was. It didn't stop at the correct bus

836
01:01:31.599 --> 01:01:36.000
stop because there was I don't know why it didn't

837
01:01:36.000 --> 01:01:38.639
stop there. It went over and there's all these other

838
01:01:38.679 --> 01:01:40.360
buses in a way, so I'm following it to see

839
01:01:40.360 --> 01:01:43.480
where it's going to park. It parked further down the road,

840
01:01:44.360 --> 01:01:46.480
so I'm walking towards it, thinking it's going to open

841
01:01:46.480 --> 01:01:48.400
the doors and let people out, so people are going

842
01:01:48.480 --> 01:01:52.320
to wait to get in. No, it just drives off again,

843
01:01:53.239 --> 01:01:59.280
so I missed that bus. Then there's another bus which

844
01:01:59.639 --> 01:02:03.039
is going to the airport, but it does go past

845
01:02:03.320 --> 01:02:09.840
where I live, go past the estate chop a chopper

846
01:02:10.079 --> 01:02:14.360
chopper full proper full of people all on their way

847
01:02:14.400 --> 01:02:19.400
to holiday. I guess, so suitcases and everything everywhere. And

848
01:02:19.559 --> 01:02:21.960
I managed to get on and did get a seat,

849
01:02:22.000 --> 01:02:27.880
which is okay, but it's very noisy. And now I

850
01:02:27.880 --> 01:02:33.760
guess people would excited they're on holiday, they just enjoy themselves.

851
01:02:35.719 --> 01:02:40.400
But it's yeah, it was anyway, I got home. That's

852
01:02:40.440 --> 01:02:45.480
the bottom line. I got home. I didn't. I didn't

853
01:02:45.519 --> 01:02:49.760
do a late one though, because I left to get

854
01:02:49.800 --> 01:02:53.679
there for ten and I told him that I can't

855
01:02:53.760 --> 01:02:58.119
leave video on his own for you know, seven eight

856
01:02:58.119 --> 01:03:00.599
hours a day. I can't. I can't keep doing that.

857
01:03:01.119 --> 01:03:03.800
It's just not fair on him because he's been unhappy.

858
01:03:04.519 --> 01:03:08.639
He's he's stopped eating his food. I literally I give

859
01:03:08.679 --> 01:03:12.360
him his food and his water, and he's got everything

860
01:03:12.360 --> 01:03:15.519
he needs. But he's in one room, like the living room.

861
01:03:15.519 --> 01:03:18.119
It's not it's not a tiny room or anything, but

862
01:03:18.159 --> 01:03:20.639
the windows are open, so he's got air ventilation. You

863
01:03:20.679 --> 01:03:25.199
can't get out, you can't get to the windows, TVs

864
01:03:25.239 --> 01:03:31.280
on or something. But it's too long for him, and

865
01:03:31.480 --> 01:03:34.679
he's now like rested. He's cuddled up to me and

866
01:03:35.039 --> 01:03:39.280
chilled out now because I got home a bit earlier,

867
01:03:39.320 --> 01:03:41.599
and I think it makes a difference. So I took

868
01:03:41.679 --> 01:03:43.239
him for a walk before I took him out. Today

869
01:03:45.239 --> 01:03:48.280
he's had three w a l k's. I just realized

870
01:03:48.599 --> 01:03:52.079
said the word. He said three today. He said A

871
01:03:52.159 --> 01:03:55.119
one normal one and one really short one. He said

872
01:03:55.159 --> 01:04:01.039
three normal length ones, so he one before I went out.

873
01:04:02.800 --> 01:04:12.599
I was back by corter past two, maybe half past two.

874
01:04:13.840 --> 01:04:17.400
So it worked. Even though I missed the bus and everything,

875
01:04:17.440 --> 01:04:19.400
I still managed to get back by half past two

876
01:04:20.960 --> 01:04:25.760
and he didn't seem quite as stressed out as he

877
01:04:25.920 --> 01:04:30.679
was the last few days. So that taking off that

878
01:04:30.880 --> 01:04:34.599
four four odd hours more really seems to many difference.

879
01:04:35.519 --> 01:04:37.880
And I gave him some food and he's eating it.

880
01:04:40.239 --> 01:04:42.480
I gave him food yesterday, he wouldn't eat it. He

881
01:04:42.519 --> 01:04:44.280
didn't eat the food all day long. And the food

882
01:04:44.320 --> 01:04:49.639
I gave me, it wouldn't eat either. I mean on

883
01:04:50.000 --> 01:04:53.239
Saturday or Sunday, Sunday I think it was, or maybe Monday.

884
01:04:53.519 --> 01:04:56.360
I gave him his food and its water, and I

885
01:04:56.400 --> 01:04:58.840
gave him a t R E E E E T

886
01:05:00.159 --> 01:05:02.440
one of his favorite ones, and I put it down.

887
01:05:02.960 --> 01:05:04.639
He grabbed it and brought it in the hat into

888
01:05:04.679 --> 01:05:08.119
the room and then I close the door, and he's

889
01:05:08.679 --> 01:05:11.920
just going bananas because he doesn't want me to leave.

890
01:05:12.079 --> 01:05:15.719
I come home, you know, eight nine hours later or whatever.

891
01:05:17.400 --> 01:05:20.039
The food's untouched, the tree's still on the floor, has

892
01:05:20.079 --> 01:05:24.679
not even touched the tree. So yeah, he's been a

893
01:05:24.679 --> 01:05:28.960
little bit affected. I mean, the problem is I've never

894
01:05:29.039 --> 01:05:31.599
left him on his own, hardly at or the whole

895
01:05:31.599 --> 01:05:34.559
time had him. It's been twenty four hours a day

896
01:05:34.679 --> 01:05:40.199
pretty much together. And it's been a couple of occasions

897
01:05:40.239 --> 01:05:42.639
where I've had to leave him for a few hours,

898
01:05:43.039 --> 01:05:46.840
but never more than a few hours. I think maybe

899
01:05:46.960 --> 01:05:51.480
four four hours, five hours at the most. It's you know,

900
01:05:51.480 --> 01:05:54.440
it's very it's rare. And this has been every day

901
01:05:54.480 --> 01:05:59.840
for or four days, five days. But he seems to

902
01:05:59.880 --> 01:06:02.360
be a bit more chilled out today because I took

903
01:06:02.400 --> 01:06:05.440
him out. I had to sit down first because I

904
01:06:05.480 --> 01:06:08.719
was naked, and I took him out about quarter three,

905
01:06:09.920 --> 01:06:14.320
and then I took him out again about seven. So

906
01:06:14.360 --> 01:06:17.880
he's had he's been out, and he's he's done all

907
01:06:17.880 --> 01:06:20.119
he needs to do out there. It's now dark, so

908
01:06:20.119 --> 01:06:23.199
it's probably about ten o'clock at night, and I don't

909
01:06:23.199 --> 01:06:25.960
feel so tired as well, because I had a nap

910
01:06:26.079 --> 01:06:27.920
when I got back here. I took him out. Then

911
01:06:27.960 --> 01:06:29.960
I had a nap for about an hour hour and

912
01:06:30.000 --> 01:06:34.880
a half, and I think I work up with I

913
01:06:34.920 --> 01:06:37.519
think maybe I went to bed about four, work up

914
01:06:37.559 --> 01:06:42.119
about six. I needed I needed to sleep because it

915
01:06:42.159 --> 01:06:47.320
was I was so tired, and I'm still tired enough

916
01:06:47.360 --> 01:06:51.119
to go to bed now, you know, because it's what

917
01:06:51.280 --> 01:06:52.760
it might be gone ten. I don't know how long

918
01:06:52.800 --> 01:06:55.760
I've been talking for. I started this about nine o'clock,

919
01:07:00.239 --> 01:07:08.960
very dark, so knackering. And what's really strange is my

920
01:07:09.079 --> 01:07:14.039
neighbor has started to talk about his life, which he

921
01:07:14.119 --> 01:07:19.199
never used to do. It's away about sport generally, and

922
01:07:19.360 --> 01:07:22.239
now he's we've been going out because he doesn't have

923
01:07:22.280 --> 01:07:27.119
to stay in the ward all the time. I mean,

924
01:07:27.400 --> 01:07:30.000
I mean legally he can do whatever he wants. He

925
01:07:30.039 --> 01:07:32.440
doesn't have to stay in the ward ever. You know,

926
01:07:32.719 --> 01:07:34.400
he can come and go and do what he wants.

927
01:07:34.440 --> 01:07:37.280
But you know, as far as from a medical perspective,

928
01:07:37.639 --> 01:07:41.000
as long as he lets them know, and if he's

929
01:07:41.039 --> 01:07:43.440
got a doctor on the way, then he stays. You know,

930
01:07:43.480 --> 01:07:45.800
they say, well can you wait until the doctors seen you?

931
01:07:47.320 --> 01:07:48.920
And he needs to be there when they're doing the

932
01:07:48.960 --> 01:07:51.199
meals as well, because otherwise it messes it up with

933
01:07:51.280 --> 01:07:56.239
other people. So outside of that, for the last three

934
01:07:56.320 --> 01:07:59.840
days or I think Sunday Monday tu yet the last

935
01:08:00.000 --> 01:08:03.239
three days maybe Saturday as well, we've been going out

936
01:08:03.280 --> 01:08:05.800
for a walk and we've been gone outside and sat

937
01:08:05.840 --> 01:08:10.440
down and yes, Saturday, Sunday, Money and all four days.

938
01:08:14.639 --> 01:08:18.000
Which is weird because yesterday we were sitting at this

939
01:08:18.119 --> 01:08:24.279
bench and a duck started pecking at my grain and

940
01:08:24.359 --> 01:08:27.720
for a second I thought it was Vinny. It's because

941
01:08:27.720 --> 01:08:29.560
I'm so used to having him with me. I'm not

942
01:08:29.600 --> 01:08:33.000
saying that Vinnie pecks at my grain, but just if

943
01:08:33.000 --> 01:08:41.720
there's movement in my pants, this sounds wrong. This movement

944
01:08:41.720 --> 01:08:46.000
in my pants, I assume it's Vinnie. No, if you

945
01:08:46.039 --> 01:08:52.039
know I'm used to him like rubbing up against me again,

946
01:08:52.119 --> 01:08:54.399
that sounds wrong. You know the things like lick it. No,

947
01:08:54.600 --> 01:08:58.079
that sounds wrong as well. Just you know, him doing

948
01:08:57.760 --> 01:09:03.319
his thing like jumping on me, or laying down and

949
01:09:03.359 --> 01:09:06.920
cuddling up to my feet or this thing, or walking

950
01:09:06.960 --> 01:09:11.000
on my feet, stuff like that, or you know. So

951
01:09:11.960 --> 01:09:14.119
it was weird because I nearly said, of any what

952
01:09:14.159 --> 01:09:16.479
are you doing? I looked down. It was this duck

953
01:09:16.520 --> 01:09:21.800
looking up at me and he's pecking at me pits gently,

954
01:09:24.760 --> 01:09:27.760
very gentle lover. Well, to be honest, very I'm glad

955
01:09:27.760 --> 01:09:30.640
because they've got those big old bags. They could imagine

956
01:09:30.680 --> 01:09:35.039
they could cause problems, but he didn't. It was very lovely.

957
01:09:36.720 --> 01:09:39.840
His name is Cyril. We got on quite well. We

958
01:09:39.920 --> 01:09:44.479
swapped numbers. You know, we're going to see how it goes.

959
01:09:45.880 --> 01:09:52.880
So I he's been talking, he's been opening up, and

960
01:09:52.920 --> 01:09:55.960
he's been asking me about me. Which he never normally does,

961
01:09:56.600 --> 01:10:00.119
asking me about my childhood, talking about his own childhood.

962
01:10:01.680 --> 01:10:06.319
And I'm not sure if he ever saw me as

963
01:10:06.319 --> 01:10:09.840
a human before. I don't know if you ever saw

964
01:10:09.880 --> 01:10:13.840
me as a person just a neighbor, I don't think.

965
01:10:13.880 --> 01:10:17.560
I'm not sure if he saw me as a I

966
01:10:17.600 --> 01:10:21.000
don't know, as a person with feelings and or had

967
01:10:21.039 --> 01:10:24.479
any interest. But I understand that because I'm a bit

968
01:10:24.560 --> 01:10:30.039
like that myself. But then, you know, he's never really

969
01:10:30.079 --> 01:10:32.760
talks about his life normally. It's just all about sport,

970
01:10:33.159 --> 01:10:35.800
and I get bored. I tell him, I don't pretend.

971
01:10:35.960 --> 01:10:39.119
I tell him I'm not interested in hearing about football.

972
01:10:40.279 --> 01:10:42.760
I says boring to me. It's not boring to you.

973
01:10:42.840 --> 01:10:45.479
It's not boring to most people, but to me, I

974
01:10:45.640 --> 01:10:51.359
switch off if you. I like talking about boxing, but

975
01:10:51.560 --> 01:10:53.800
generally I only like talking about boxing to people that

976
01:10:53.880 --> 01:10:59.840
know about boxing, because I would probably say that I'm

977
01:10:59.880 --> 01:11:04.199
more more than a casual fan of boxing, you know,

978
01:11:04.239 --> 01:11:10.319
it's something that I really have loved for decades. I

979
01:11:10.439 --> 01:11:13.800
sound probably more than just a I don't just watch

980
01:11:16.680 --> 01:11:19.439
the big fights, although they are the best fights quite often,

981
01:11:19.880 --> 01:11:27.880
but not always actually anyway, so that's not really about boxing.

982
01:11:28.000 --> 01:11:34.279
Is that this recorded and I've done I've made a

983
01:11:34.319 --> 01:11:39.680
few faux pas along the way. So I was taken

984
01:11:39.760 --> 01:11:42.239
my going to take my friend outside, and I said

985
01:11:42.239 --> 01:11:46.239
to his neighbor, oh, yeah, he got moved to another

986
01:11:46.239 --> 01:11:54.920
award on Monday morning, I think or Sunday morning, Monday,

987
01:11:55.000 --> 01:11:56.960
I lose in track of the days, to be honest,

988
01:11:57.600 --> 01:11:59.560
I think it might have been Sunday morning and he

989
01:11:59.640 --> 01:12:05.399
got moved because there was someone's starting and may being

990
01:12:05.520 --> 01:12:09.319
problematic with him. I don't know really what that was about.

991
01:12:10.600 --> 01:12:21.279
And so we it's quite funny. I said, you want

992
01:12:21.319 --> 01:12:22.600
me to go and visit him and going in the

993
01:12:22.640 --> 01:12:26.199
world because it because they basically moved my neighbor, not

994
01:12:26.279 --> 01:12:29.960
the bloke, And he said no, you laughed. But then

995
01:12:30.000 --> 01:12:31.600
we were out for a walk he said, are we

996
01:12:31.680 --> 01:12:35.159
going to go and see that bloke? I was like, no,

997
01:12:35.520 --> 01:12:40.720
I didn't mean it. I said, look, I think it's

998
01:12:40.800 --> 01:12:48.720
really worth remembering that not people react differently to being unwell,

999
01:12:49.039 --> 01:12:53.079
you know, and some people are very patient, some people

1000
01:12:53.800 --> 01:12:57.680
are not, some people have you know, It's it's just

1001
01:12:58.760 --> 01:13:01.319
it's no way of different. We all react different and

1002
01:13:02.319 --> 01:13:06.239
and I try just like say to everyone in the beds,

1003
01:13:06.840 --> 01:13:14.920
every bed apart from maybe well most beds. I mean,

1004
01:13:15.039 --> 01:13:20.960
I'm sure places like the baby maternal maternity ward there's

1005
01:13:21.000 --> 01:13:23.880
a lot of pretty a lot of very happy people

1006
01:13:24.840 --> 01:13:29.000
in those beds. I'm guessing after giving birth. I don't know,

1007
01:13:29.039 --> 01:13:33.560
I've never I've never had a baby. But outside of that,

1008
01:13:38.960 --> 01:13:43.039
saying to him like, no one's here because I want

1009
01:13:43.039 --> 01:13:47.760
to be here, and that everyone is in those beds

1010
01:13:47.880 --> 01:13:52.079
are unwell. So it's got to just need to just

1011
01:13:52.159 --> 01:13:56.239
try and give everyone a break if you can. Don't

1012
01:13:56.279 --> 01:14:00.640
take it too personally. I think I've been quite lucky

1013
01:14:00.680 --> 01:14:04.680
in life in a sense of I've done some jobs

1014
01:14:04.720 --> 01:14:09.960
which have involved a lot of rejection. That's sales. Sales

1015
01:14:10.039 --> 01:14:12.560
is one job where it doesn't matter how good you are,

1016
01:14:13.319 --> 01:14:19.399
rejections the majority. You know, it's people saying no most

1017
01:14:19.479 --> 01:14:24.640
of the time. And I kind of got used to that,

1018
01:14:25.000 --> 01:14:28.479
and also being in a working call center, I got

1019
01:14:28.560 --> 01:14:31.239
used to a lot of very rude people as well,

1020
01:14:33.119 --> 01:14:36.760
and I kind of become accustomed to it. And then

1021
01:14:36.760 --> 01:14:39.640
when I became a counselor, I've got to find out

1022
01:14:39.880 --> 01:14:43.000
a lot of what people are going through behind the

1023
01:14:43.039 --> 01:14:49.039
scenes as humans that is not you know, because I've

1024
01:14:49.079 --> 01:14:50.960
kind of got my own experiences and I've got that

1025
01:14:51.159 --> 01:14:57.279
to work with. But then hearing in depth hundreds of

1026
01:14:57.319 --> 01:15:01.520
other people's experiences over i know, five years or whatever

1027
01:15:01.560 --> 01:15:05.920
I was a counselor that was like, wow, it was

1028
01:15:06.520 --> 01:15:12.880
very educational, I guess. So I think with those experiences

1029
01:15:13.319 --> 01:15:20.039
mixed together, I'm kind of able to look at situations

1030
01:15:20.439 --> 01:15:23.560
from different angles. And I'm not saying I do it

1031
01:15:23.600 --> 01:15:32.399
well because sometimes I really don't. Yeah, I'm not always perfect.

1032
01:15:33.600 --> 01:15:36.960
I'm never perfect. I don't even I don't even want

1033
01:15:37.000 --> 01:15:43.560
to be perfect, never really. I think being decent. I

1034
01:15:43.720 --> 01:15:50.439
like to be known as kind, and that's but naturally kind,

1035
01:15:50.560 --> 01:15:54.359
not doing it for any other reason, not doing it

1036
01:15:54.359 --> 01:15:57.640
because I want attention or because I want people to think,

1037
01:15:57.800 --> 01:16:04.039
oh he is so kind, not not that, not not

1038
01:16:04.239 --> 01:16:11.840
like that, but just genuine like a decent person. But

1039
01:16:12.000 --> 01:16:19.199
not perfect because it's easy. It's only one way to go.

1040
01:16:19.279 --> 01:16:21.560
Once you're perfect, you can't go any higher up ken you.

1041
01:16:22.439 --> 01:16:34.680
So I'd rather just I'd rather kind of surf surf

1042
01:16:34.760 --> 01:16:42.680
in the middle somewhere possibly. And yeah, anyway, I said

1043
01:16:42.720 --> 01:16:47.000
to this, his his neighbor who's in the ward. So

1044
01:16:47.000 --> 01:16:51.039
I've got to talking to two of the people because

1045
01:16:51.079 --> 01:16:54.079
he's now an award with four people. One of the

1046
01:16:54.079 --> 01:16:58.279
people doesn't talk to me, but admit that he can't anyway,

1047
01:16:58.399 --> 01:17:07.920
so he's he's very not very unwell, so but he

1048
01:17:07.960 --> 01:17:09.800
does talk to the other day. They've all got to

1049
01:17:09.840 --> 01:17:11.279
know the little bit because they're in the same room

1050
01:17:11.279 --> 01:17:14.079
with him twenty four hours a day. But he's' his

1051
01:17:14.079 --> 01:17:17.560
why usually there when I go there, So I say

1052
01:17:17.600 --> 01:17:21.239
lo to her, But the two other blokes in there

1053
01:17:22.119 --> 01:17:24.319
got chatting to him. They know my name and everything,

1054
01:17:25.520 --> 01:17:30.640
and so I've been starting to go and get coffees

1055
01:17:30.680 --> 01:17:32.479
for them and sort of saying do you need anything?

1056
01:17:32.560 --> 01:17:37.479
And it turns out neither of them are allowed to

1057
01:17:37.560 --> 01:17:46.560
leave the ward, but my neighbor can. So it's like

1058
01:17:46.800 --> 01:17:54.359
for medical reasons. And I really put my foot in it.

1059
01:17:54.880 --> 01:17:58.000
So I said to the blokes in the bed next

1060
01:17:58.000 --> 01:18:00.960
to my neighbor, I said, well, if you fancy it,

1061
01:18:03.479 --> 01:18:05.560
you come in comfort walk with us if you want.

1062
01:18:05.640 --> 01:18:07.800
If you want to get out, because he hadn't ed

1063
01:18:07.840 --> 01:18:11.880
any visitors for a day or so, and he said no,

1064
01:18:12.000 --> 01:18:14.760
I can't. I said, what's up to you? If you

1065
01:18:15.079 --> 01:18:16.880
be up to you if you don't want to he said, no,

1066
01:18:17.000 --> 01:18:23.239
I can't walk. I'm so sorry, he laughed. He said, no,

1067
01:18:23.399 --> 01:18:26.439
you didn't know digit because I've only seen him in

1068
01:18:26.479 --> 01:18:29.079
the bed. I had no idea that he wasn't able

1069
01:18:29.079 --> 01:18:34.119
to walk. And I said, well, if you want to

1070
01:18:34.159 --> 01:18:37.439
get a chair, I'm happy to push you down, you know,

1071
01:18:38.079 --> 01:18:42.239
And he said, I'm not allowed out. Okay. I think

1072
01:18:42.279 --> 01:18:44.800
there's a bit of rejection. I think he just I'm

1073
01:18:44.800 --> 01:18:48.279
not saying he's pretending, but he might be pretending he's

1074
01:18:48.319 --> 01:18:50.159
not allowed to leave. I mean, that's what I mean.

1075
01:18:50.920 --> 01:18:58.039
He's perhaps I'm boring him, but he's a nice bloke

1076
01:18:58.319 --> 01:19:01.079
and you're one not position asked me can you take

1077
01:19:01.119 --> 01:19:06.880
me out? And I said, well, when you release from hospital,

1078
01:19:06.920 --> 01:19:09.880
we can perhaps go for a drink. He said no, no,

1079
01:19:10.039 --> 01:19:13.039
I want Can you just help me go outside? I said, okay, sorry,

1080
01:19:13.560 --> 01:19:19.079
I was embarrassing. And he said to me, why do

1081
01:19:19.119 --> 01:19:21.359
you do that? I said, what do you mean? He said,

1082
01:19:21.520 --> 01:19:24.800
why do you like going about, like all, having dates

1083
01:19:24.800 --> 01:19:30.920
with men when you like women? I said so He said,

1084
01:19:31.840 --> 01:19:36.119
it just seems a weird thing to do. I said why,

1085
01:19:36.439 --> 01:19:40.439
He said, just I don't know. Just a lot of

1086
01:19:40.479 --> 01:19:44.560
straight people don't say things like that, you know. I said, well,

1087
01:19:44.720 --> 01:19:47.720
I'm not a lot of straight people. But he said

1088
01:19:47.760 --> 01:19:51.199
that doesn't make sense. I said, I know, nothing does.

1089
01:19:53.239 --> 01:19:55.760
And then we all just like looked at each other

1090
01:19:58.239 --> 01:20:00.359
and like that moment, you know that my where you

1091
01:20:00.439 --> 01:20:05.399
all realize that's true. Nothing really does make sense, does it.

1092
01:20:05.880 --> 01:20:10.640
If you really like delve into it, it's like okay, wow.

1093
01:20:11.920 --> 01:20:17.199
So anyway, and then I just I did a little dance. Again.

1094
01:20:18.880 --> 01:20:22.119
I thought that shouldn't have done that the last if

1095
01:20:22.119 --> 01:20:24.239
someone tells you they can't walk, you don't start dancing

1096
01:20:24.279 --> 01:20:27.960
in front of them as kind of just I wasn't

1097
01:20:28.000 --> 01:20:30.800
doing it for that reason. I was just I just

1098
01:20:30.880 --> 01:20:34.640
had a bit of nervous energy. You know. It was strange.

1099
01:20:34.680 --> 01:20:37.760
But he forgave me anyway. So I was kind of like,

1100
01:20:38.000 --> 01:20:40.119
I can't believe. I just said, do you want to

1101
01:20:40.159 --> 01:20:42.840
go for a walk? And he said, yeah, I'm not

1102
01:20:42.840 --> 01:20:45.159
a dog as well. Just don't don't don't put it

1103
01:20:45.159 --> 01:20:46.600
in that word. Do you want to go for a walk?

1104
01:20:46.640 --> 01:20:49.359
Can I take you for a walk? I said, I

1105
01:20:49.359 --> 01:20:52.039
didn't say that today. He said, yeah, you did. He

1106
01:20:52.039 --> 01:20:54.159
said another thing. I said, what was that? He said,

1107
01:20:54.159 --> 01:20:56.279
when you do that, don't hold a dog lead in

1108
01:20:56.319 --> 01:20:59.720
your hand and don't say good boy, good but can

1109
01:20:59.760 --> 01:21:04.119
I go good boy? And don't call me Vinnie? I

1110
01:21:04.159 --> 01:21:09.279
was like, okay, sorry, I miss him. The other bloke,

1111
01:21:10.159 --> 01:21:15.399
he said, they're not taking me outside. I said okay,

1112
01:21:15.439 --> 01:21:19.840
and been here since. I don't know. He's been there

1113
01:21:19.880 --> 01:21:24.680
for five days, six days, five days and he's not

1114
01:21:24.720 --> 01:21:27.920
been outside since he's been there. And I went to

1115
01:21:27.960 --> 01:21:31.359
the reception. I said, can I take what's his name? Out?

1116
01:21:31.840 --> 01:21:35.119
He's asked me and she said no. I said, I'll

1117
01:21:35.159 --> 01:21:39.279
go on. She said no. I said please. She said no.

1118
01:21:39.640 --> 01:21:41.399
I said, is that all you can say? Just no?

1119
01:21:41.960 --> 01:21:45.560
She said no. That's when I realized that she could

1120
01:21:45.560 --> 01:21:47.800
say other things, and I thought maybe she might. I

1121
01:21:47.960 --> 01:21:51.600
just figured she'd won the argument. Really, And she said

1122
01:21:51.600 --> 01:21:54.279
the reason that he can't go out is because he

1123
01:21:54.359 --> 01:21:57.880
needs a medically trained person with him. Are you medically trained?

1124
01:21:58.000 --> 01:22:01.039
And I said yes. If she said are you really,

1125
01:22:01.119 --> 01:22:03.720
I said no, I'm not. She said why did you

1126
01:22:03.760 --> 01:22:08.279
say yes? Because I thought maybe you believe me. I said,

1127
01:22:08.279 --> 01:22:10.800
why don't you just stick to your stick to your guns?

1128
01:22:10.800 --> 01:22:13.800
And if you say yes, why did you say yes twice?

1129
01:22:13.920 --> 01:22:20.239
I said, because I didn't think you believe me. Ah,

1130
01:22:20.800 --> 01:22:25.520
it was weird, so she said no, But I did

1131
01:22:25.600 --> 01:22:27.920
say to her, if you need someone to take him out,

1132
01:22:27.920 --> 01:22:30.239
I'm happy to take him out or any of the

1133
01:22:30.279 --> 01:22:35.199
other people, either with my neighbor or separately. I don't care.

1134
01:22:36.119 --> 01:22:38.399
I'm you while I'm here. I'm happy to be useful,

1135
01:22:40.279 --> 01:22:44.359
which is a weird, weird thing. I'd rather do something

1136
01:22:44.399 --> 01:22:48.479
than just not do anything, not in life, but just

1137
01:22:48.720 --> 01:22:51.600
in a hospital setting, because I see this so much,

1138
01:22:53.199 --> 01:22:58.359
so many people working so hard, and I kind of like,

1139
01:22:58.439 --> 01:23:03.439
for example, the man next to my neighbor, he asked

1140
01:23:03.479 --> 01:23:07.239
one of the nurses or I don't think the nurse

1141
01:23:07.399 --> 01:23:12.039
or care I don't know the different workers and they

1142
01:23:12.119 --> 01:23:15.159
in hospital if he could get a bag. She had

1143
01:23:15.199 --> 01:23:17.520
a lot of rubbish on has been on his table,

1144
01:23:18.279 --> 01:23:19.720
and I said, I can get rid of that for you,

1145
01:23:20.399 --> 01:23:23.279
just some only binzos over there. I'll just take it

1146
01:23:23.319 --> 01:23:28.159
bit by bit. So I emptied his table, and he

1147
01:23:28.439 --> 01:23:32.520
seemed surprised I did that. It makes no difference to me.

1148
01:23:35.000 --> 01:23:44.119
And yeah, just she was is a HEO if you

1149
01:23:44.239 --> 01:23:47.600
look inside your pants. It's I don't know why I

1150
01:23:47.680 --> 01:23:50.680
say that. I'm not saying this so like, oh, how

1151
01:23:50.720 --> 01:23:53.920
good I am? I emptied someone's table. It's not I

1152
01:23:53.920 --> 01:23:58.000
don't think that's going to be my epitaph, is it.

1153
01:23:58.000 --> 01:24:00.600
It was a bit annoying, but he did empty people's tables.

1154
01:24:02.079 --> 01:24:04.520
They didn't want him to. This is to walk randomly

1155
01:24:04.560 --> 01:24:08.439
around hospitals and put people's stuff in the bin. It

1156
01:24:08.560 --> 01:24:16.720
was very annoying. And yeah, so I'm trying to think

1157
01:24:16.760 --> 01:24:20.720
of any other weird things that have happened since I

1158
01:24:20.880 --> 01:24:26.640
was one. Weird occasion is older than taxi. No, this

1159
01:24:26.720 --> 01:24:31.880
is this is weird. Yeah, order a taxi and I

1160
01:24:31.920 --> 01:24:36.760
did it. It's got like this automatic auto system. And

1161
01:24:36.840 --> 01:24:39.680
at the end of it, they couldn't even understand what

1162
01:24:39.720 --> 01:24:41.800
I was saying. But at the end of it, they said,

1163
01:24:42.159 --> 01:24:46.600
so picking you up from your address and delivering you

1164
01:24:46.680 --> 01:24:50.920
back to your address my home address, and I wanted

1165
01:24:50.960 --> 01:24:54.359
to pick me up the hospital and take me to

1166
01:24:54.439 --> 01:24:56.560
my address. So they were going to pick me up

1167
01:24:56.600 --> 01:25:00.439
and drop me off at the same place. Think that

1168
01:25:00.760 --> 01:25:04.119
like caused some kind of an error in the system,

1169
01:25:04.119 --> 01:25:10.000
wouldn't you. But n So I phoned them up again,

1170
01:25:11.199 --> 01:25:13.159
and as I phoned them up, they phoned me up.

1171
01:25:13.520 --> 01:25:15.720
So I hung up, answered the phone that they were

1172
01:25:15.760 --> 01:25:20.079
calling me, and I said she said, oh, is that whatever.

1173
01:25:20.119 --> 01:25:22.840
I said, yeah, you made a book and I said yeah,

1174
01:25:22.880 --> 01:25:26.239
and I was about to explain, and she said, oh,

1175
01:25:26.239 --> 01:25:30.560
wait it was. She didn't say I'm talking, but it

1176
01:25:30.680 --> 01:25:33.239
was kind of that attitude like wait a minute, let

1177
01:25:33.279 --> 01:25:37.560
me finish. So she went on and on and said.

1178
01:25:37.880 --> 01:25:40.199
She said, see, you don't want to be picked up

1179
01:25:40.199 --> 01:25:42.439
from that address and I said no. She said, okay,

1180
01:25:42.479 --> 01:25:47.439
I'll cancel it them. And I don't explained to her.

1181
01:25:47.439 --> 01:25:48.800
I was at the hospital and I wanted to go

1182
01:25:48.840 --> 01:25:53.399
there from the hospital. I assumed that by telling her

1183
01:25:53.479 --> 01:25:57.319
that that she would send me a taxi. No, she

1184
01:25:58.119 --> 01:26:05.880
canceled the taxi all together. So I'm waiting for half

1185
01:26:05.880 --> 01:26:09.039
an hour. Nothing comes. I phone up the taxi office again,

1186
01:26:09.680 --> 01:26:13.079
this time I speak to somewhat different and they say, oh,

1187
01:26:13.079 --> 01:26:21.000
you know, it's canceled. I said okay, And he was

1188
01:26:21.079 --> 01:26:23.600
surprised that it was canceled and they didn't send me

1189
01:26:24.159 --> 01:26:27.039
a taxi, and so he said, I'll get someone with

1190
01:26:27.079 --> 01:26:30.800
you now. So probably about another fifteen to twenty minutes

1191
01:26:30.840 --> 01:26:34.560
and I've got a taxi turn up. And I might

1192
01:26:34.600 --> 01:26:38.720
be exaggerating the timescale here for effect. I don't know

1193
01:26:38.760 --> 01:26:42.199
what type of effect, to be honest, a boring effect.

1194
01:26:46.319 --> 01:26:50.399
So he pulls up and I don't know, he doesn't

1195
01:26:50.479 --> 01:26:53.439
like look the way. He didn't know me anyway, but

1196
01:26:54.039 --> 01:26:57.000
he parked up and he didn't seem to be indicate

1197
01:26:57.079 --> 01:27:01.399
who's for because there was always people waiting for taxis.

1198
01:27:04.079 --> 01:27:07.239
So I went to where his stories, you know, where

1199
01:27:07.319 --> 01:27:11.800
he was sitting in the car. It was definitely from

1200
01:27:11.800 --> 01:27:14.720
the company i'd ordered, but it could have been for anyone.

1201
01:27:15.600 --> 01:27:21.800
And I said, are you here for Jason? He said yeah,

1202
01:27:22.319 --> 01:27:24.319
but he had a weird look on his face. I said,

1203
01:27:24.720 --> 01:27:27.800
you are right. He said no, I can't go anywhere

1204
01:27:27.840 --> 01:27:31.119
at the moment. I said why not? And he pointed

1205
01:27:31.159 --> 01:27:37.399
to the screen, which was the payment thing, and they said,

1206
01:27:37.520 --> 01:27:39.640
they're telling me the journey is going to be seven pound.

1207
01:27:41.319 --> 01:27:44.640
I'm not taking you all away there for seven pound,

1208
01:27:46.199 --> 01:27:49.199
and it's actually seventeen pound. I'll give a three pound tip.

1209
01:27:49.960 --> 01:27:53.279
But so they'd missed out the ten pound. So what

1210
01:27:53.319 --> 01:27:57.319
they've done is they'd put on the same thing where

1211
01:27:58.039 --> 01:28:00.720
it was the same price as the original journey. So

1212
01:28:00.880 --> 01:28:04.239
what they had charged me to pick me up and

1213
01:28:04.319 --> 01:28:07.760
drop me off at the same address was seven pounds.

1214
01:28:09.800 --> 01:28:11.560
Why would you want to be picked up and dropped,

1215
01:28:11.600 --> 01:28:15.399
I mean literally picked up. So you get in a car,

1216
01:28:16.159 --> 01:28:18.199
give them seven pounds and then you get out in

1217
01:28:18.199 --> 01:28:21.319
the car again out of the taxi. I mean, why

1218
01:28:22.000 --> 01:28:25.960
unless you're the only time I've seen anyone get into

1219
01:28:25.960 --> 01:28:28.199
a car and didn't get straight out again. And I

1220
01:28:28.239 --> 01:28:32.800
think this was a taxi. It was Superman movie like

1221
01:28:33.439 --> 01:28:37.039
in the late seventies. He gets in the taxi and

1222
01:28:37.079 --> 01:28:39.279
gets out the other side and he's Superman goes in

1223
01:28:39.319 --> 01:28:42.720
Clark Kent, and I think there's a taxi or was

1224
01:28:42.760 --> 01:28:46.720
at police that might be in a police car. That

1225
01:28:46.840 --> 01:28:49.079
was a bit a bit rude though if it was

1226
01:28:49.079 --> 01:28:54.000
a police car, A bit rude any car really, isn't it.

1227
01:28:57.319 --> 01:29:01.000
And he said, we're not going anywhere. I'm not taking

1228
01:29:01.039 --> 01:29:04.239
anyone anywhere until I get the proper price. And I

1229
01:29:04.279 --> 01:29:07.760
said to him, look, it's seventeen pound. I'm paying you

1230
01:29:07.840 --> 01:29:10.600
twenty pound anyway, and he said, oh, I'll get in there.

1231
01:29:11.720 --> 01:29:14.039
I said, you know, there's no argument on my side.

1232
01:29:14.039 --> 01:29:17.159
I'm too tired to argue, and I know that it's

1233
01:29:17.199 --> 01:29:20.600
not seven pound. I've done the journey since well, I've

1234
01:29:20.640 --> 01:29:24.920
done it. I think I've done it four times at

1235
01:29:24.920 --> 01:29:34.600
that point and he just halfway through the journey, the

1236
01:29:35.119 --> 01:29:40.000
office called him up and he explained the situation and

1237
01:29:40.039 --> 01:29:42.319
they said, oh, they didn't know what was going on,

1238
01:29:42.359 --> 01:29:50.840
and eventually they they changed it. They changed it to

1239
01:29:51.159 --> 01:29:57.319
it came up properly at seventeen. But it's like I

1240
01:29:57.319 --> 01:30:00.279
couldn't wait around. I was like, I want to really

1241
01:30:00.560 --> 01:30:04.399
because when he charge me waiting time, that's what I

1242
01:30:04.479 --> 01:30:06.600
was thinking, is he can he charge me waiting time

1243
01:30:07.159 --> 01:30:14.199
because he's waiting on the proper price. I don't know,

1244
01:30:14.279 --> 01:30:16.159
but it was. It was a cool bloke, so that

1245
01:30:16.279 --> 01:30:21.560
was that was an easy situation to to change or

1246
01:30:21.560 --> 01:30:29.439
to a remedy. And so basically, you know, my friend's

1247
01:30:29.479 --> 01:30:36.640
under observation. It's got things you know, going to be observed,

1248
01:30:37.119 --> 01:30:45.640
et cetera. But going back and forward is really really

1249
01:30:45.880 --> 01:30:51.560
connected me really in a way that I'm surprised at.

1250
01:30:54.319 --> 01:30:57.640
I kind of just didn't expect it, to be honest.

1251
01:31:01.000 --> 01:31:05.600
I managed to get my prescription, which is good. On

1252
01:31:05.680 --> 01:31:13.800
the way, and I had a weird experience today. I

1253
01:31:13.840 --> 01:31:18.199
went into because they've got a w A Smiths, They've

1254
01:31:18.239 --> 01:31:26.800
got a Costa Coffee in the hospital, there's a a supermarket,

1255
01:31:26.840 --> 01:31:32.640
Marks and Spencer's. I think, yeah, there's two Costa coffees,

1256
01:31:32.640 --> 01:31:36.479
actually one small one and one larger one where you

1257
01:31:36.520 --> 01:31:40.359
can eat like you can sit down. So I go

1258
01:31:40.479 --> 01:31:43.239
into W A. Smith as well. So I go into

1259
01:31:44.119 --> 01:31:47.439
Marks and Spencer's. I get some milk because I've got

1260
01:31:47.520 --> 01:31:54.000
no milk at home for my breakfast in morning, and

1261
01:31:54.039 --> 01:32:00.359
I realized I've got very little breakfast sereal. Ever, I'm

1262
01:32:00.359 --> 01:32:03.000
looking for the breakfast cereal and what I've noticed in

1263
01:32:03.319 --> 01:32:08.119
this Marks and Spenser's it's just maybe it's the same.

1264
01:32:09.760 --> 01:32:11.720
Maybe it's always the same. I haven't been in Marx

1265
01:32:11.720 --> 01:32:16.960
Suspenser's for years, but everything's home brand. There's no like

1266
01:32:17.119 --> 01:32:21.520
norm branded stuff. It's just Mark Suspenser stuff. Perhaps that's

1267
01:32:21.560 --> 01:32:28.359
the norm because you know things like Sainsbury's they have

1268
01:32:28.479 --> 01:32:32.439
their own brand, but they also sell popular brands as well.

1269
01:32:33.680 --> 01:32:37.079
Maybe Mark sus Spencer's don't do that, but I thought

1270
01:32:37.079 --> 01:32:43.800
they did. I thought they sold both. Hmm. I'm not sure. Anyway,

1271
01:32:43.960 --> 01:32:47.880
this one doesn't seem to. So I'm looking for maybe

1272
01:32:48.079 --> 01:32:53.119
just some some corn flakes or something like that, and

1273
01:32:53.159 --> 01:32:56.359
I end up in this corner where they've got Marks

1274
01:32:56.439 --> 01:33:03.000
and Spencer's home brand. This gets like weird Bix and

1275
01:33:03.079 --> 01:33:06.199
I think another one is like Mooseley something like that.

1276
01:33:07.520 --> 01:33:12.319
But there's this smell. It's not on it's not it's

1277
01:33:12.359 --> 01:33:15.640
not a horrible smell or anything, but it's like a

1278
01:33:15.760 --> 01:33:26.880
foody kind of smell. It felt very familiar, but from

1279
01:33:26.960 --> 01:33:31.920
the past. It's very strange. I had a very unusual

1280
01:33:31.960 --> 01:33:38.640
feeling like I smelled that before, but it's a long, long,

1281
01:33:38.880 --> 01:33:43.159
long time ago. And I just stood there for a

1282
01:33:43.199 --> 01:33:54.520
second just thinking, hm hmm, how strange. In fact, when

1283
01:33:54.520 --> 01:33:56.199
I visit next time, I might go in there and

1284
01:33:56.279 --> 01:34:01.239
just have a little sniff again. It felt a little like, hmm,

1285
01:34:02.960 --> 01:34:05.359
because it's going to bug me. I kind of want

1286
01:34:05.399 --> 01:34:11.239
to know what that reminds me of, because it was

1287
01:34:11.239 --> 01:34:18.039
emotions connect to it, emotions connect to it, emotions connected

1288
01:34:18.239 --> 01:34:21.199
to it. I'm not sure if I've been talking correctly anymore.

1289
01:34:22.920 --> 01:34:35.319
Oh so tired. So that's it, really, that's the updated

1290
01:34:35.479 --> 01:34:38.159
version of where I've been and why I have not

1291
01:34:38.279 --> 01:34:44.439
made any recordings this week since Friday, I think, so

1292
01:34:44.479 --> 01:34:52.439
I didn't do anything Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Today's Tuesday. Yeah,

1293
01:34:53.000 --> 01:34:58.159
I don't know. I can't even really predict if I'm

1294
01:34:58.199 --> 01:35:02.560
going to make any more recordings this week. It's just

1295
01:35:02.720 --> 01:35:06.640
hard to know, So probably no Q and a Friday

1296
01:35:08.399 --> 01:35:13.960
and hopefully fingers crossed and get back to be doing

1297
01:35:14.000 --> 01:35:18.000
a normal week next week. But I don't know. It's

1298
01:35:20.479 --> 01:35:22.479
I'm kind of surprised that I was able to do

1299
01:35:22.520 --> 01:35:29.439
a recording today, but up till now, I just haven't

1300
01:35:29.439 --> 01:35:31.960
been able to. I just it's been around so many

1301
01:35:32.000 --> 01:35:38.000
people's I just find it very draining. I just do

1302
01:35:39.359 --> 01:35:44.560
I always have done, and it's I can thrive off

1303
01:35:44.600 --> 01:35:51.920
it for a while, but then after, you know, after

1304
01:35:51.920 --> 01:35:53.960
a couple of hours or an hour or two, I

1305
01:35:54.000 --> 01:35:58.199
was like, oh, and then after four or five hours

1306
01:35:58.199 --> 01:36:02.079
of being out, you know, I'm nearly fallen asleep on

1307
01:36:02.119 --> 01:36:09.880
the bus back today or in a taxi back. And technically,

1308
01:36:09.920 --> 01:36:12.720
you know, I've not really I've not done anything physical.

1309
01:36:14.199 --> 01:36:16.720
I've not technical mean literally, I've not done anything physical

1310
01:36:16.760 --> 01:36:21.680
other than just a little pretty a bit more walk

1311
01:36:21.720 --> 01:36:24.920
in the normal because just walking around as hospitals is

1312
01:36:24.960 --> 01:36:27.159
probably more than I do when I take in for

1313
01:36:27.239 --> 01:36:36.359
a walk. Big old places, an't they And that's it. Really,

1314
01:36:36.640 --> 01:36:41.159
that's pretty much the update. There's there's I'm sure there's

1315
01:36:41.239 --> 01:36:45.039
other stuff that's happened that I've not thought about or

1316
01:36:45.079 --> 01:36:50.399
that I was thinking about, and I haven't remembered I

1317
01:36:50.479 --> 01:36:53.000
as one as one thing. As these two nurses came

1318
01:36:53.079 --> 01:36:55.640
in and asked one of the other patients if they

1319
01:36:55.680 --> 01:37:01.000
could borrow her this his skin cream because she had sunburn.

1320
01:37:01.920 --> 01:37:03.600
And I said, you're a sunburn She said, oh yeah,

1321
01:37:03.640 --> 01:37:09.000
look at this, because she had a costume, a uniform one,

1322
01:37:09.159 --> 01:37:11.960
and she showed me a picture and it was like

1323
01:37:13.199 --> 01:37:16.039
her back and showed her where it was like sunburn

1324
01:37:16.039 --> 01:37:23.680
on her back and I said, oh, okay, and she's

1325
01:37:23.680 --> 01:37:26.960
holding it. She looked at me and said next picture, please,

1326
01:37:27.960 --> 01:37:31.960
and they laughed. Thankfully, they didn't show me another picture.

1327
01:37:32.000 --> 01:37:36.560
But it was just I thought, at least I can

1328
01:37:36.640 --> 01:37:38.920
get away with it still, because that's this kind of

1329
01:37:38.960 --> 01:37:41.039
stuff I used to say when I was younger. Maybe

1330
01:37:41.039 --> 01:37:43.159
I get away with it now because I'm so old

1331
01:37:43.199 --> 01:37:45.520
and they're just looking at me like a grand like

1332
01:37:45.600 --> 01:37:51.840
a grandfather or something. But it was nice. It was

1333
01:37:51.880 --> 01:37:55.680
just it was I'm not saying, look at the picture.

1334
01:37:55.800 --> 01:38:01.680
Was nice. It's just nice to have that friendliness. And

1335
01:38:02.039 --> 01:38:05.800
they've all been friendly. Everyone I've met at the hospital

1336
01:38:05.840 --> 01:38:15.600
has been very friendly. And it says cool and that

1337
01:38:15.840 --> 01:38:20.560
is the end of this or a recording, so as a summary,

1338
01:38:20.800 --> 01:38:25.800
the website is back up and running. I will edit

1339
01:38:25.880 --> 01:38:31.239
this tomorrow. I'll try and do it when I wake up.

1340
01:38:31.760 --> 01:38:37.960
I don't know when I'm going to wake up. It

1341
01:38:38.000 --> 01:38:41.079
won't be early early, because it may be getting on

1342
01:38:41.119 --> 01:38:43.960
to eleven o'clock now, I don't know how long i've

1343
01:38:43.960 --> 01:38:46.680
been talking for. If that'll, let me have a look,

1344
01:38:46.760 --> 01:38:52.039
if I can do it without It's twenty past eleven

1345
01:38:53.640 --> 01:38:57.680
and I've been talking for ninety nine. I've been talking

1346
01:38:57.720 --> 01:39:04.760
for one hundred minutes. What's that hour and forty minutes?

1347
01:39:06.319 --> 01:39:09.800
So yeah, I've thought I started at ten. I've thought

1348
01:39:09.800 --> 01:39:13.720
I started at nine. Couldn't have done one hundred minutes,

1349
01:39:14.079 --> 01:39:19.359
so sixty seventy eighty nineteen hundred an hour and forty Okay,

1350
01:39:20.800 --> 01:39:27.239
So that's it. Thank you for listening, and remember to

1351
01:39:27.279 --> 01:39:29.600
be kind to yourself because you do deserve to be

1352
01:39:29.640 --> 01:39:34.640
happy and be gentle with yourself. You deserve to feel safe.

1353
01:39:36.680 --> 01:39:40.319
Lots of love. Bye,