May 1, 2025

(music) (5 hours) Universal Credit | LMBYTS #1343 | 1st May 2025

(music) (5 hours) Universal Credit | LMBYTS #1343 | 1st May 2025
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Hello, and welcome to jasonnew Land dot com. My name's

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Jason new Land. Welcome to Let me boy to sleep.

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Please only listen when you're you can safely close your eyes.

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Thank you for waiting. Your call is important to us.

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We love you very very much. Um yeah, let me

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boys sleep. Hello, Hello, Hello, Hi. I can't believe it's

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been fairly quiet and suddenly there's drilling going on again.

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Damn it, damn, damn, damn. It's eighteen pasts free. I'm

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just going to do the recording anyway. I've been waiting

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for some quiet moments, but it's a little It's not

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like it's not full on, but it's so random. Oh,

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this is a funny thing that happened yesterday. My neighbor

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called me. She said, if you've got some building work

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going on upstairs? And I thought, cheeky mare complaining about

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the noise I'm making after all the drilling. She's been drilling,

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not drilling, but you know, in the bathroom being done

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this week, all the drilling they do downstairs. And I

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said no. She said, what is some weird sound coming

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from upstairs? I said, well, I might have farted. She said, no, no,

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it wasn't that sound? I know that sound okay, fair enough.

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It makes me a little bit self conscious, and uh,

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I don't know. I started to think I should like

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to stick me by them out of the window or something.

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And so anyway, I went downstairs. I thought, well, I'll

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come down and listen because I can't hear anything up here.

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So I went down and I was listening and it

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was this really weird, weird sound, very POLTERGEISTI why don't

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just call poltageist polter ghost? It seems weird that they

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would use the word geist, what not ghost? It makes

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sense because it's kind of a ghost, isn't it? Anyway?

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Polter it was or it wasn't a poltergeist. Sorry, if

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I support the story, jumped ahead, it'll be there and

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I well, she couldn't figure out where it was coming from.

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It sounded like it was coming from the bathroom, but

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it also sounded like it was in the wall. It

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sounds like it might be coming from upstairs. It sounds

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like it might be coming from the storage room, which

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is next to the bathroom. So we're kind of searching.

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It was like a Scooby Do search, you know, but

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without well there's no animated characters. There's no dog talking dog,

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and there's no well, we didn't have anyone at the

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end to like pull off their face and say, ah,

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it was him all along, none of that stuff. That's

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my impression. Ving he does look Vinnie does look like

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a kangaroo when he's on all fours. So I mentioned

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he looked like a kangaroo because I did a picture

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and I said, oh, we do got a kangaroo. Therefore,

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it was like, it's not a kangaroo, it's just it

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was out of proportion size wise the image. But it

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was supposed to be Vinny based upon his picture anyway.

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So downstairs we're looking at it and we figure out

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it's definitely covered from the bathroom, which is in the

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process of being rebuilt. The only thing in the bathroom

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at the moment is just the toilet. There's nothing else

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in there, and they put a new toilet in yesterday. Now,

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apparently my neighbor didn't think they were going to be

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putting a new toilet in, like a whole new bathroom

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but no new toilet. Genuinely thought that, and I thought,

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I kind of like that seemed like a weird thing

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to do, because if I had a new bathroom and

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they were just going to leave the old toilet, I'll

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tell them not to bother. You imagine everything nice and new,

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and this is staying thing in the middle. It's like, no,

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I mean that toilet seemed better days. Well, I say

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better days. I mean it might argue this might be

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a good day because I haven't used it much. But

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what a job. I mean, it's literally the kind of

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what the worst, worst distant job outside of I don't know.

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I'll move on from that. I think we all know

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where I'm going with that one. So possibly okay. So

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so it's like it felt.

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To me.

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And I said to you, you sure it's not my toilet,

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because when I flushed my toilet, I had some problems

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and it wasn't flushing and it was weird. But the

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plumber came fixed by say plumber, someone from the council

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probably does everything, came along and fixed it, and then

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someone else came back the next day and fixed it again.

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And the water feels up really quick, and then it

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goes and it's kind of like once it finished flushing,

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it's almost like it's burping, like really like, oh that

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was lovely. It was that kind of sound, like I

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don't hear the words that's lovely, but it is. That's

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the kind of sound. Weird, weird sound. I figured out

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a way to stop it from doing that is by

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turning the the and then he said, the wet tap

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the cold tap on just a little bit so that

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it doesn't fill up quite so quickly. And and it's loud.

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And I don't because in the middle of the night,

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if I do we we I don't flush a toilet.

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But anything else I say, anything else is not that

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many options, as are if I decide to mix some pancakes.

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But if anything else I do flush, it's not I'm

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not a big fan of Yeah, I like to try

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and keep everything. I think. It's kind of like at

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the end of the relationship, isn't it you just want

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to move on. It's you know, it's like just let's

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just separate nicely and you know, you get on your life.

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I'll get on my life. And that's that's to me.

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It's very much like flushing a toilet. It's it's a

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nice clean break. See you, thanks everything did for me.

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And you know, if we meet again, they will try

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and be on good terms. But hopefully we won't meet again,

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which is generally what I normally used to think if

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I ended a relationship, or a relationship came to a

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natural end when they become bored with me, or they

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realized I really was like this. I actually had that once.

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Remember a girlfriend saying to me, I said, what's happened

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to you? That's all you mean? She said, when we met,

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you were so full of energy and funny, and now.

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You just.

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You know, like that, I said, because not one dimensional.

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I didn't know about the bipolar back then. I knew

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I had moods. I mean, but hey, this is what

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I was about twenty six. And she said, you're You're

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not like that anymore, And I'm thinking, yeah, that is

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a bit much to kind of keep. Can you hear?

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That sounds that someone's like knocking on the ceiling downstairs,

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almost like can you speak up? I can't hear. Can

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you talk a bit louder please? I? Yeah. I don't

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know why I remembered that I had one girl. One girlfriend.

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She left me telling me that my eyebrows were too low,

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but eyebrows are too close to my eyes, and I thought, okay.

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So ultimately she wanted someone that was permanently startled someone

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walking around It was had a permanent look of expression

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of surprise. I tried that, but it was ached a

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little bit. I thought about shaving my eyebrows off and

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then just painting someone or getting well, not not caterpillars,

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but you know what I mean, like I'm putting my

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halfway out my forehead. But then she didn't like that either,

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so it couldn't have been the eyebrows. I remember once

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I didn't ask him to talk about relationship break ups.

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I'm not going to look like I'm not going to

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talk about that. But I just remember once this is

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I had a little bit, I don't know, my brain worked,

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my brain kicked into action, and I got in touch

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with reality in that moment. So there was this I

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don't know when. It was a long time ago. Any

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female relationship was a long time ago for me. So

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I'm sitting there and my girlfriend is dumping me. She's

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already told me she's dumping me, and she set us

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down for the evening to tell me all the things

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wrong I did and all the reasons why she's dumping me,

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and all the things I need to change. And at

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one point she was crying and I woke up. I

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wasn't asleep, but it was boring, but I didn't fall asleep,

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and I just like it just kicked in my wait

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a minute, as my friend, like you used to like

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to say, what's wrong with this picture? He used to

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do that when I used to work for him. I

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used to clean clean the toilets, and he would like it,

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walked me into the into the toys, what's wrong with

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this picture? To start? If I if I said I

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don't know, he'd go like he'd get angry and stuff.

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So I had to kind of like have something up

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my sleeve to say so he walked me in there.

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So one day he's like, what's wrong with this picture?

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And I was really I said, is it a pool?

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And the ceiling? He is at the tambourne hanging hanging

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from the air conditioning. It's like, you know, I didn't

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notice that, but okay, yeah that as well. I don't

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know why I didn't sack me, so I yeah, So

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I'm sitting there getting lectured about everything that's wrong with me,

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and trust me, it takes a long time to get

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through those. And that was back then. Imagine now that's

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got a good month. I reckon if you like, talked

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consume continuously about all my faults. Oh bless, and I

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kind of got wait, wait a second. So I'm probably

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an hour into this, Okay, there was a lot more

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to go, you know, I kind of thinking I wish

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i'd brought a packed lunch. I knew it was going

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to go. You know, look little Flaska coffee so I

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could have a break. And I said, just just can

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I just confirmed something said what are we going to

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get back together again? Or is this the end? It's

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the end of relationship. So I said, okay, right, I

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just stood up. So I went to put my coat

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on puting trousers back on, and she said, where are

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you going? I said, I'm going home. She said, but

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I haven't finished talking. I said, I know, and you

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probably never will. It was just it just like almost

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like my brain grew up temporarily. I went back down

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to being immature again. But for that as you can tell,

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but for that instant, the mature part of my brain

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was activated and I was an adult and I could

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see things so clearly, like okay, yeah, I granted loads

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of faults, I mean, untold faults. Never you know, I'll

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hold my hands up to that. But I don't have

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to sit and listen to it. You know. It's like

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I don't have to listen to this character assassination. Send

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me a letter. This is for this is afore the internet.

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Send me a letter and we might know. I didn't

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even have a mobile phone back then, I don't think. So, Yeah,

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it was like, really, I think it's the first. It

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might be the only time that my the mature part

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of my brain was ignited. Thinking about it, I might

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have used up all those brain cells. Perhaps that's why

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I've never gone back to that. That's why I've stayed

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like immature. That's the problem that as I've got getting

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older and I start acting weird, I don't think in

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order to actually notice, Oh, it's just Jason, It's just

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JB and J you know, and yeah, m hmm, what's

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that got to do with the toilet downstairs? So I

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so I'm downstairs looking for this noise, which is weird

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to look for a noise. It's like listening for I'm

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listening for a color. You know. It's very kind of strange.

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But that's see in my ears are pretty good. I

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mean they should be the size of them, and I say,

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pretty good, they're not. It's not that I can hear well,

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but I've got a good sense of focus in my hearing.

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Give you an example, can't you turn them into a

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job interview? Isn't it really big? Giving myself up here?

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This is kind of what I've been going to be

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talking about in this recording. This is one of those

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real recordings, those real life ah like, this is one

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of those what's actually happening right now in my life.

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It's not not bad, it's but it's not I won't

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be writing any romantic poetry about it this way. So anyway,

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I I remember when I was in a job doing

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in a core center. I wonder if I could get

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another call center job. I go back to being the

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grumpy care center call center work. Maybe I could people,

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you'd employ yourself reliable call answer in twenty four to

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seven moneypenny wow. So if I put call center work

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in my local town, call center jobs, okay, new candidates

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urgently needed. There's a reason why I'm going, yeah, there's

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a reason for me talking about this. Just let you

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know seventeen call centered jobs. Wow, that loud. I've actually

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got two neighbors. Well, not to one neighbor and another

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lady who both worked from home, and they both work

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in call centers from home. The problem is with that

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for me is in some ways, I mean, maybe I

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could do it. I don't know. What do I do

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on a day when I can't get out of bed?

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You know, it's one of those weird things I can't.

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I don't know, but probably the only benefit the best

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for me, the best And I would actually probably say

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this the best and worst part of life in a

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way is the people you know or but in a workplace,

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the people are both the worst and the best part

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of the job. I gender get on with most people,

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but sometimes sometimes you know, it's weird that you can

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have ninety you can have a team of like twenty people,

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but he got one person, one difficult person. It can

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really dampen the atmosphere, and especially if that person's the

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team leader. H I mean, when I was training my

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last job, there was we were in this little training

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area for sales. I don't know if they used it

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for other departments as well, but right behind us, I

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think was the finance department, and this I guess he

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was the team leader. He was a supervisor was talking

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to this bloke behind me like he was. He was

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very being very disrespectful to him, talking down to him.

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And it's weird because I only just started working there

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and I was really on the edge of my seat

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about to turn around and just punched that bloke. Really,

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it was winding me up so much because he just

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wouldn't do what he was told. Why couldn't he listen

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to his manager? No, I really was on the edge,

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on the verge of turning around telling the bloke stop

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talking to him like that. Yeah, he's your you might

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be you might be his boss, but he's still a

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human being. You know, you're not his dad. Oh you

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are his dad? Okay, but yeah, you're in work.

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It's not like you don't own the company. Oh okay.

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Hr No, I don't know where that is.

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You want me to go there? Now, you'll escort me there? Okay?

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By everyone? Love you. A urology nurse. I wonder what

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those jobs are like. Do you know jobs like medical

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jobs where you're dealing with a part of the body

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that you just did it with one part of the body.

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I can understand the brain would be amiss. I just personally,

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I find the brain super fascinating and the whole body

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is phenomenal really, I mean all not just humans, but

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all bodies. Just the way the system works is bearing

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in mind it's just over millions of years or whatever,

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it's grown and progressed and you know whatever. I find

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the word whatever really helps with moven on from stuff

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I don't know about. So yeah, I some downstairs looking

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at this looking listening for this sound, and it's vibrating

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the wall. And I realized because I thought maybe it

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was a bird in the extractor fan. The extract fan

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has been taken off, but there was like a hole

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in the wall, surprisingly quite thick wall. I was a

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bit surprised about that thick old wall, and I did

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because I've had that in mind where he the a

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bird got into the extractor fan, and so I thought,

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maybe that's that's what it was, but looked through there,

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couldn't see anything. And then it happened again. It's like

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it's real buzzing, buzzing sound. And I said, maybe it's

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my electric toothbrush. She said, do you have an electric toothbrush?

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She said no, but I I'd like you to think

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that if you ever hear anything vibrating upstairs. It's my

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electric toothbrush. But do you have electric toothbrush? I said no.

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I just just want to let you know. If you

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ever hear anything vibrating, please just, you know, just assume

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it's my electric toothbrush. She said, I wouldn't have assumed anything.

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Why are you even bringing that up? Why are you

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mentioning an electric toothbrush? I said, I don't know. Just

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hearing that vibration just reminded me because when I hear

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things vibrating down here, I have to pretend that it's

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not an electric toothbrush. Why would you pretend it's not

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an electric toothbrush because it makes me giggle. I know

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you do have an electric through brush it and I'm

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just like a very very immature She said, oh, I

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know that. Can we just try and focus on finding

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out where this vibration is coming from. Here's a weird thing.

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My friend he was a security guard, right, and he

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got told off of being naughty, and I mean it

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was a middle aged man, but he got I don't

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know what he did, but he's he did something wrong

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and he got told off. And he said when the

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man showered at him, his bomb vibrated. He said, he's

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a bomb vibrated, and he said it was lovely. It

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was probably the weirdest conversation I'd ever had, and I

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never thought i'd actually share that conversation. And I don't

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know why today is the right day to do that. Yeah,

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I don't know. Just reminded me. I think you talking

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about vibrations. I'm just I think about that. I remember,

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you know, sitting on the washing machine with my nan

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talking to her while the washing machine was on its cycle.

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You get falling off, Yeah, the good old days. Because

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the thing is that we used to do this little thing.

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So we'd sit on there and the tumble dryer. I

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mean you had that vibration the whole time. Sometimes we'd

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do with the tumble dryer, so we'd wait until the

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washing machiners recycling. The tumble drive would also be going

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because she had quite a few washing things to do.

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I'd sit on one, she sat on the other. And

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what we'd do we'd put our tea, put the milk

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in the tea and would fit it right to the

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top and we'd hold it to see who could hold

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it the longest before it's spilt all everywhere. And I

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remember it when all down the brow, all down the

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blouse and down the dress, so she won had to

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get changed. So yeah, this is I missed those times.

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M So in the end, what happened is I realized

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the last time vibrated, or not the last time vibrated,

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but it's definitely coming down from down there. It's coming

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from down there. I'm pointing down but you that doesn't

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really make much difference to you and you're listening, does it?

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But it was kind of like a kind of skirting board.

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How can you hear that? It's a skirting board and

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kind of thing in the bathroom? But would I said,

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I can definitely tell you it's coming from down that area.

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So I put my finger on it, waiting for a vibration.

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I said, do you want to stick your finger on it?

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She said no, you're right, I said, okay. So I

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thought I was so hoping that that that would start

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to vibrate. I mean, there wasn't enough for him to

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sit on it, but I just put my finger on

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it because I was thinking this, this will be it

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and I'll be a hero. But it wasn't. What it

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was is we both because we were focusing on the area.

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We both heard it at the same time. It's a radio,

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like there was a Builders. I didn't even know Builders

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radios still existed, one of these big Builders radios that especially,

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I suppose you could drop out a window and not

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hurt and it was still turned on. But it was

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like like that. So it was just every now and

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then coming and then, you know, randomly. But it was

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right where I said, but it was it was in

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front of us. I didn't even notice a radio. I

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haven't seen one of them things. And I know what

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Builders radio looks like. My dad had one, he was electrician,

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but I haven't seen one of them for probably thirty years,

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forty years, thirty years. Anyway, picked it up and looked

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at it. I mean, it's a modern version of the

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one that my dad had. But just turned it off

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and that was it. I mean, that's the end of

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that story. That's a problem. You know. Sometimes the stories

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are so exciting, the build ups exciting, and it's like

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a I don't know, some kind of suspenseful crime thriller,

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and then the middle part is action packed, maybe a

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little bit of romance, maybe an opportunity for the characters

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to really take time to ponder upon life. Choices and

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ideally some kind of climatic exit to the movie. But

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this didn't have that. It just had that. I found

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the radio and they came upstairs, turned it off, came upstairs.

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It's a shame. It could have been a really good story.

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M hm.

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So Vinnie's just guffed. Oh, I'm talking un seriously. Either

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that or the spray in the fields. If that not

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only there's spray in the field. Either that or they've

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sprayed the entire garden outside because it's really bad smelling.

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I hope it's him. Oh I got the window open,

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so it could be coming from outside. But no, he's aimed.

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He always lays so his bums aimed at me. He's

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been acting a bit strange lately. I don't quite understand

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why he's well. I had a friend come around yesterday

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that I haven't seen him for a while, and Vinnie

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loves him, like, really really loves him. You know, he's

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one of the few people that he could be the

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other side of the field, or the other side of

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the park rather or even the field if he could

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see him the other side of the park. I can't

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see all the way to the other side of the field. Yeah,

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and I could let him off the lead and guarantee

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it wouldn't matter what else was around, he would run.

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He would keep running till he got to him. He's

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one of them people. There's a few like that that

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he's got that he just loves and he all that's

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what he focuses on, is that person, and he doesn't

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like it when they leave. So he was stuck around

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for only an hour hour and half. We were just

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talking and Vinnie was sulking. We went out for a

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walk so he could because he was going. So I

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took Vinnie out with us. Vinnie was like pulling me

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to because he wanted to go with him. And then

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when I got in here, I'm just in the living room,

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I don't know, watching some TV, scratching my knees I

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can't remember, I'm sure for he was shaving my toes

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something like that, And really, I thought, where's Vinnie. I'm

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looking for him. He's not in the bedroom. Is that

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I locked him in a kit not locked him in

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the kitchen. I I closed the kitchen door. So it

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happens occasionally he's sniffing around the kitchen. I close the

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door and I don't realize he's in there a lot,

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and I haven't got any locks on any of my doors,

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apart from the bathroom of course, and the front door

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blind me. Of course, Well I would, I'd come home

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every day to nothing there'd be there wouldn't even be

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any carpet if the doors were open. There's this this

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kind of area I live in. And I found him.

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He wasn't anywhere. I thought, is he hiding? I thought

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maybe he'd done it, like had an accident, and he

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was hiding because he was scared, even though I wouldn't

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care anyway, that's not what I really make too much

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difference to the carpet, probably brighten it up, if anything.

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But he was in the hallway in the dark because

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there's no lights. There's no light coming into the hallway,

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so I couldn't see him at first glance, and he

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was just laying or sitting. I think he might have

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been sitting in the dark near the front door. They

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didn't want to go out. He had already been out

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and gone to a toilet all that stuff. Okay, maybe

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he wanted to go he didn't need to go out.

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He was pining for his friend uncle eric Hey, pining

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for uncoleric, and I was like, come on, what are

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you doing? So, yeah, he was, And he's been weird today.

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He's weden reared the lot weird reared. He's been rerored,

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he's been stranger the last few days. When it comes

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to food, he's been really off his wet food. But

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he's not off food because I just came to the

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sausages earlier and he enjoyed them. So I don't really

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know what's going on. It might just be that time

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of year, it seems to be. I think it might

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be getting a little bit overheated. I don't know. I

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can't figure it out. I hope he's okay, I do.

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I'm yeah. I probably am a little bit of a worrier.

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Sometimes a squeaky chair, isn't it. So So that was yesterday.

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It was weird because Monday, I think it was Monday

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or it's Saturday. I did a recording Saturday. Then I

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was pretty busy. I didn't really get a lot done

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in the boxing was on, so I watched that Sunday.

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I was in bed most of the day. To be fair,

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I didn't have Yeah, let's call it my mojo. I've

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got different versions of my mojo. This is just I

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guess the energy one. So Sunday was like that. Monday,

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I really was in that mode of no, no, not

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not happening, and I couldn't really figure it out. And

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I suppose, I mean, you know, building work going on

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that probably wasn't ideal. Was it Monday or Tuesday the

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building work started? I can't remember. I think it was Monday.

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So what day was Monday, the twenty April? Monday the

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twenty eighth, So the twenty eighth I did do, I

467
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kind of so I did something on Saturday that let

468
00:38:24.920 --> 00:38:27.360
me boil your pain away. Twenty nine. I did a

469
00:38:27.440 --> 00:38:34.960
Q and a Friday the day before, and Monday I

470
00:38:34.960 --> 00:38:41.559
couldn't do anything, and then I had a bit of energy.

471
00:38:41.599 --> 00:38:43.599
I think I think it was Monday or Tuesday, and

472
00:38:43.679 --> 00:38:45.360
suddenly I had a bit of energy. So I ended

473
00:38:45.440 --> 00:38:51.719
up doing two recordings Monday's bording objects and then let

474
00:38:51.719 --> 00:38:55.639
me boil your pain away. Maybe it was Tuesday when

475
00:38:55.679 --> 00:38:59.199
I just didn't I couldn't focus, But I ended up

476
00:38:59.360 --> 00:39:15.840
doing what I did two on Tuesday as well, did

477
00:39:15.920 --> 00:39:27.320
I That's weird to be fair, Well, whatever happened it,

478
00:39:29.239 --> 00:39:35.280
you know, I went to bed during the day, I

479
00:39:35.320 --> 00:39:38.280
woke up and I kind of felt better, so I

480
00:39:38.320 --> 00:39:43.000
got up and did something. But there's been a hit

481
00:39:43.039 --> 00:39:46.480
and miss this week, although I blind I've done two

482
00:39:46.519 --> 00:39:51.039
on Monday, two on Tuesday, one Wednesday, and day which

483
00:39:51.119 --> 00:39:56.320
is Thursday. Though I haven't done a Okay, I did

484
00:39:56.920 --> 00:40:01.159
let Me Boy Pain Away Tuesday, and I also did

485
00:40:01.719 --> 00:40:07.239
let Me Buy Your Pain Away Monday as well and

486
00:40:07.280 --> 00:40:10.719
also Saturday, so I've not really I've done a few

487
00:40:10.719 --> 00:40:13.280
of them, so I can't. Yeah, I forget how many

488
00:40:13.320 --> 00:40:16.639
I do sometimes because once they've done, I forget about them,

489
00:40:18.400 --> 00:40:26.280
and as I think most people too. But yeah, okay,

490
00:40:26.400 --> 00:40:30.880
so that wasn't too bad. But I just I kind

491
00:40:30.880 --> 00:40:35.880
of lost lost it a little bit and managed to

492
00:40:35.880 --> 00:40:40.360
get it back, so that's good. But then something happened

493
00:40:40.400 --> 00:40:48.400
today which is thrown me a little bit. Yesterday it

494
00:40:48.480 --> 00:40:51.880
was weird. I had someone ask me for money. I

495
00:40:51.920 --> 00:40:55.800
had two people asked to borrow money yesterday, so that

496
00:40:56.000 --> 00:41:03.039
was that sets me back emotionally. It does, because that

497
00:41:03.199 --> 00:41:06.599
just takes me back to reminds me of the last

498
00:41:06.599 --> 00:41:12.840
ten years of being completely taken advantage of by so

499
00:41:12.960 --> 00:41:16.559
many different people people borrow money, not paying it back,

500
00:41:16.599 --> 00:41:19.000
and how upsetting that is, and it reminds me of

501
00:41:19.800 --> 00:41:22.119
then it reminds me of my friend and yeah, so

502
00:41:23.800 --> 00:41:25.559
I'm gonna get all heavy. But yeah, so that was

503
00:41:25.639 --> 00:41:29.920
quite upsetting, not at the time, but afterwards there's like

504
00:41:29.960 --> 00:41:38.960
a okay. And also I was looking through some of

505
00:41:39.000 --> 00:41:42.920
the messages I've got from a particular person that's been

506
00:41:42.960 --> 00:41:46.280
asking for money since the summer, and some of this,

507
00:41:46.599 --> 00:41:50.599
some of the I can't read it. One day. I

508
00:41:50.599 --> 00:41:56.320
will read them out. I can't now, but there's I

509
00:41:56.440 --> 00:42:01.239
might read them out one day. But it's is really

510
00:42:01.559 --> 00:42:09.280
strange how people can sometimes use manipulative tactics, you know,

511
00:42:09.320 --> 00:42:17.559
it's like really knowing how I don't know. I don't

512
00:42:17.559 --> 00:42:26.920
think it's weak or susceptible, gullible, I don't know. I'm

513
00:42:27.000 --> 00:42:29.440
kind of one of these people will explain how I

514
00:42:29.480 --> 00:42:32.320
am now and one of these people. This is what

515
00:42:32.440 --> 00:42:38.480
I'm like. I like to think that people are just

516
00:42:38.519 --> 00:42:43.199
telling me the truth. And I don't want to live

517
00:42:43.239 --> 00:42:46.440
a life where I'm just assuming that everyone's lying to me,

518
00:42:47.239 --> 00:42:50.320
because I don't think that's a nice it's a nice

519
00:42:50.800 --> 00:42:53.639
it's not a nice way to be experiencing the day.

520
00:42:53.679 --> 00:43:00.400
I don't think, you know, no in reality, not everyone's

521
00:43:00.440 --> 00:43:03.400
telling the truth. And I mean, in these recordings, I

522
00:43:03.440 --> 00:43:09.199
tell a lot of porkies, but I would assume most

523
00:43:09.239 --> 00:43:13.119
of it's obvious that I'm not telling the truth and

524
00:43:13.159 --> 00:43:17.239
I'm just making stuff up. But that's the more kind

525
00:43:17.280 --> 00:43:21.800
of weird stuff I've just come out of. I had

526
00:43:21.840 --> 00:43:24.679
that job on there, or just come out of the

527
00:43:24.880 --> 00:43:30.559
Oh the internet annoys me sometimes. I nearly booked an

528
00:43:30.559 --> 00:43:36.360
appointment with Specsavers yesterday, but luckily I didn't because okay,

529
00:43:36.400 --> 00:43:39.039
here's what happened. I've got a letter, got a letter

530
00:43:39.400 --> 00:43:41.679
and straight away it was in a brown envelope and

531
00:43:41.719 --> 00:43:46.280
I thought, oh no, no, no, no, no no, never

532
00:43:46.280 --> 00:43:50.679
a good sign, never a good sign. And it was

533
00:43:50.760 --> 00:44:03.400
from the DWP, which the Department of Something Welfare Pensions

534
00:44:03.519 --> 00:44:10.440
DW Working Pensions, Department of Working Pensions DWP, and that's

535
00:44:10.480 --> 00:44:16.960
the departments that get my benefits from. So they are

536
00:44:17.360 --> 00:44:20.800
from the I think July. I think it's something like

537
00:44:20.840 --> 00:44:24.159
the twenty first or the eleventh or something of July.

538
00:44:24.800 --> 00:44:30.000
My benefits stop and I have to apply for a

539
00:44:30.039 --> 00:44:34.719
different type of benefit, which is called universal credit, because

540
00:44:34.760 --> 00:44:43.039
I'm still on the old benefits. And technically I was

541
00:44:43.159 --> 00:44:46.519
told that I would have been changed over in twenty twenty,

542
00:44:47.199 --> 00:44:49.440
so it's a little bit late, so I've probably done

543
00:44:49.480 --> 00:44:55.039
all right, I guess, But I knew. I have got

544
00:44:56.199 --> 00:44:59.719
a local neighbor who's also about three or four weeks

545
00:44:59.760 --> 00:45:02.880
maybe a couple of months ago, she had hers come through,

546
00:45:03.559 --> 00:45:07.880
so I kind of was expecting it, but I thought

547
00:45:07.920 --> 00:45:12.079
maybe because I knew, I knew it was getting closer

548
00:45:12.119 --> 00:45:15.280
to the the deadline of when they were going to

549
00:45:15.599 --> 00:45:20.920
make everyone swap over. So the difference, I'll tell you

550
00:45:20.920 --> 00:45:29.840
the difference just in case you're interested. WD difference between

551
00:45:33.639 --> 00:45:42.320
you see and yes, okay.

552
00:45:40.320 --> 00:45:40.480
So.

553
00:45:42.400 --> 00:45:48.639
Different new style Employment Support Allowance twenty sixteen, that's the

554
00:45:48.679 --> 00:45:50.480
one I'm on now. It was a new back then.

555
00:45:52.519 --> 00:45:56.159
What universal credit is? This is from the Sisters Citizens

556
00:45:56.239 --> 00:46:04.679
and Advice Dot Org dot UK so to Cee CRE

557
00:46:04.719 --> 00:46:10.719
it's called CSA Citizens' Advice Bureau c A B used

558
00:46:10.719 --> 00:46:15.840
to be called non according to CA. Okay, unless this

559
00:46:15.880 --> 00:46:20.079
isn't the Citizens Advice Bureau, that might be a separate website.

560
00:46:21.480 --> 00:46:27.880
What is universal Credit? This advice applies to England, so

561
00:46:28.400 --> 00:46:32.920
universal Credit has replaced these benefits for most people Housing benefit,

562
00:46:34.199 --> 00:46:35.960
So this is what it's said in my letter as well.

563
00:46:36.400 --> 00:46:39.199
So my benefits that are going to get are going

564
00:46:39.239 --> 00:46:46.719
to cancel in July. Housing Benefit, income Related Employment Support

565
00:46:46.840 --> 00:46:53.039
Allowance e s A, income based job Seekers Allowance JSA,

566
00:46:53.719 --> 00:46:58.760
Child Tax Credit, Working text Credit, and income support. So

567
00:46:58.840 --> 00:47:05.199
I'm on e SA and Housing benefit. You might be

568
00:47:05.280 --> 00:47:08.519
able to get Universal Credit if you're not working or

569
00:47:08.599 --> 00:47:13.960
you're on a low in come. Universal Credit works differently

570
00:47:13.960 --> 00:47:16.280
from the old benefits, so important. It's important to know

571
00:47:16.360 --> 00:47:20.079
the differences to be fair. I don't know much about

572
00:47:20.079 --> 00:47:24.159
the differences, so let's have a look. The biggest differences

573
00:47:24.440 --> 00:47:29.000
are you can get Universal Credit if you're unemployed, but

574
00:47:29.079 --> 00:47:35.039
also if you're working. Okay, I'm guessing that's based on

575
00:47:35.119 --> 00:47:37.440
how much you work you're earning, So if you're on

576
00:47:37.480 --> 00:47:40.239
a low wage, would that mean if you're unemployed you

577
00:47:40.280 --> 00:47:44.800
can still get it. You'll usually get a single payment

578
00:47:45.079 --> 00:47:51.119
each month rather than weekly or fortnightly, so mine's fortnightly

579
00:47:51.800 --> 00:47:53.760
at the moment, so it's going to end up being

580
00:47:53.760 --> 00:47:58.079
once a month instead of getting a separate housing benefit.

581
00:47:59.000 --> 00:48:01.960
Your rent will usually be paid directly to you as

582
00:48:02.039 --> 00:48:08.559
part of your monthly Universal Credit repayment or payment that

583
00:48:08.800 --> 00:48:13.519
I don't like, I'll be honest with you. I've got

584
00:48:13.880 --> 00:48:16.360
got a few friends that have got well behind on

585
00:48:16.440 --> 00:48:22.079
their on their rent because when you get that in

586
00:48:22.119 --> 00:48:27.039
your money and the bank just takes stuff out because

587
00:48:27.039 --> 00:48:32.880
you've got debts or whatever. And the housing benefit are

588
00:48:32.880 --> 00:48:36.079
pretty good. The council are pretty good. They'll do they

589
00:48:36.280 --> 00:48:38.800
really go out their way to help you. They're not

590
00:48:39.039 --> 00:48:41.039
They're not in the habit of just kicking people out

591
00:48:41.239 --> 00:48:44.280
as soon as they can at the moment. Anyway, that

592
00:48:44.360 --> 00:48:49.599
might change in the future. I don't know. I'm an archio.

593
00:48:49.800 --> 00:48:51.760
Half expect to like walk out one day and I

594
00:48:51.840 --> 00:48:55.920
be a que people just waiting to move in, feeling

595
00:48:55.960 --> 00:49:07.719
if I'm break any rules rules, and so I'm going

596
00:49:08.199 --> 00:49:11.239
to request because I think you can if you're no

597
00:49:11.320 --> 00:49:14.440
good with money, and I've proved that I'm really not

598
00:49:14.639 --> 00:49:17.960
very good. I just I'm not great with money, to

599
00:49:18.000 --> 00:49:23.639
be honest, and I prefer the rent to go directly

600
00:49:23.800 --> 00:49:28.320
to the landlord rather than give me because my rent's

601
00:49:28.320 --> 00:49:31.079
one hundred and four pounds a week, which is very

602
00:49:31.119 --> 00:49:39.000
low for a flat, but that's four hundred I don't

603
00:49:39.000 --> 00:49:42.280
know how much that is a month, five hundred, four

604
00:49:42.360 --> 00:49:44.840
hundred and whatever a month four hundred and twenty.

605
00:49:46.000 --> 00:49:46.280
Is it.

606
00:49:47.719 --> 00:49:52.960
I don't know. So you usually get one one monthly

607
00:49:53.000 --> 00:49:58.639
payment to cover your living costs. If you claim Universal

608
00:49:58.719 --> 00:50:02.440
Credit as a couple, you and your partner will get

609
00:50:02.480 --> 00:50:07.559
one payment between the two of you. That doesn't seem fair,

610
00:50:11.119 --> 00:50:17.159
I can understand in a way. I mean the rents.

611
00:50:19.719 --> 00:50:21.960
The rent's going to be the same, like if you

612
00:50:22.039 --> 00:50:24.320
live in a one bedch and flat. If I had

613
00:50:24.519 --> 00:50:28.360
a girlfriend here living with me, the rent is going

614
00:50:28.440 --> 00:50:32.920
to be the same. The council tax will be higher

615
00:50:34.719 --> 00:50:37.519
because I get a twenty five percent discount or whatever

616
00:50:37.800 --> 00:50:47.320
because of being on being single person. I would then,

617
00:50:47.760 --> 00:50:49.840
But the bills are going to be higher, but probably

618
00:50:49.880 --> 00:50:53.119
not a huge amount to be fair. But because the

619
00:50:53.239 --> 00:50:56.639
heating won't be any higher, the water will be a

620
00:50:56.679 --> 00:50:58.880
little bit higher, but there won't be a lot in it.

621
00:50:58.920 --> 00:51:03.039
I don't think m food is going to be higher,

622
00:51:03.079 --> 00:51:07.000
I imagine, But maybe you can get get away with

623
00:51:07.039 --> 00:51:09.559
the same amount of money for two as for one.

624
00:51:09.719 --> 00:51:19.800
That doesn't really make sense to me. But yeah, but

625
00:51:19.840 --> 00:51:22.000
it doesn't, Yeah, it doesn't. That just kind of doesn't

626
00:51:22.039 --> 00:51:25.000
seem fair that someone should get less just because they're

627
00:51:25.000 --> 00:51:32.079
living with someone. Anyway, that doesn't apply to me because

628
00:51:34.679 --> 00:51:44.800
Eve got's a girlfriend, or you'll usually get one payment, okay.

629
00:51:45.960 --> 00:51:50.000
The payment is made up of a basic standard allowance

630
00:51:50.679 --> 00:51:56.239
and extra payments that might apply to you depending on

631
00:51:56.480 --> 00:52:03.480
the circumstances. You might be able to get extra payments

632
00:52:04.119 --> 00:52:08.239
if you look after one or more children, which I

633
00:52:08.280 --> 00:52:15.079
do not. I got Vinny work and pay for childcare. No,

634
00:52:16.639 --> 00:52:22.400
need help with housing costs? No, not other than the rent.

635
00:52:23.360 --> 00:52:28.119
Are disabled or have a health condition. I am class

636
00:52:28.119 --> 00:52:34.960
of disabled due to my mental disability. Are a care

637
00:52:35.639 --> 00:52:39.840
for a disabled person, or have a disabled child. No,

638
00:52:43.119 --> 00:52:49.400
if you get help with rent, if your Universal Credit

639
00:52:49.440 --> 00:52:54.480
payment includes help with rent, I suppose that depends if

640
00:52:54.480 --> 00:52:56.280
you're working or not. I guess if you're working, it

641
00:52:56.320 --> 00:53:00.679
wouldn't world, I suppose. I don't know. You'll usually need

642
00:53:00.719 --> 00:53:04.599
to pay your landlord each month from your Universal Credit payment,

643
00:53:05.559 --> 00:53:10.519
even if you live in social housing. See that. I

644
00:53:10.599 --> 00:53:15.400
don't know. It doesn't There might be a way around that.

645
00:53:15.480 --> 00:53:22.320
I don't know. I'm not sure you can ask a

646
00:53:22.440 --> 00:53:25.559
DWP to pay your rent directly to your landlord if

647
00:53:25.559 --> 00:53:28.920
you're in debt, have rentrees, or are struggling with money.

648
00:53:29.119 --> 00:53:34.159
So I will do that. I'll just say, look, nah,

649
00:53:34.480 --> 00:53:38.360
pay it to them. Don't be giving me one hundred

650
00:53:38.400 --> 00:53:41.199
and four pounds a week. I'll only go and spend

651
00:53:41.199 --> 00:53:45.639
it on chocolate. If you're working, you can work, so

652
00:53:45.920 --> 00:53:49.199
you can work and still get Universal credit. Your Universe

653
00:53:49.280 --> 00:53:53.920
credit will reduce gradually as you earn more. Your Universal

654
00:53:54.000 --> 00:53:56.960
Credit will go up if your job ends or you

655
00:53:57.159 --> 00:54:04.320
earn less. If your self employed, Your payment might also

656
00:54:04.519 --> 00:54:11.719
be affected by how much the DWP expects you to

657
00:54:11.800 --> 00:54:22.079
earn each month. This expected I've got h my Oh,

658
00:54:22.679 --> 00:54:25.159
unfortunately I can't see the screen. Now I can see

659
00:54:25.199 --> 00:54:29.760
the screen, just not the writing this expects. This expected

660
00:54:29.920 --> 00:54:35.960
amount is called your minimum income floor. Find out how

661
00:54:36.039 --> 00:54:40.400
the minimum income floor works and if it applies to

662
00:54:40.559 --> 00:54:48.519
you next claiming other benefits. If you get Universal crereds,

663
00:54:49.599 --> 00:54:55.599
you should apply for council tax reduction. If you get it,

664
00:54:55.599 --> 00:54:58.559
it won't reduce the amount of Universal Credit you get.

665
00:54:59.400 --> 00:55:02.199
So I'm on account of tax reduction? So will that

666
00:55:02.280 --> 00:55:07.360
not just continue? I have to make things so communicated.

667
00:55:09.519 --> 00:55:12.639
If you're disabled, you should check if you're eligible for

668
00:55:12.639 --> 00:55:18.840
a Personal Independence Payments PIP. If you're responsible for a

669
00:55:19.000 --> 00:55:22.880
disabled child, you should check if you can claim Disability

670
00:55:23.039 --> 00:55:28.440
Living Allowance DLA for your child. Getting PIP or DLA

671
00:55:28.840 --> 00:55:34.000
won't reduce the amount of Universal Credits you get, and

672
00:55:34.760 --> 00:55:38.400
they're trying to by the government are really trying to

673
00:55:39.039 --> 00:55:45.039
crack down on personal independence personal independent payments to reduce it,

674
00:55:46.440 --> 00:55:49.000
like really to get as many people off that as possible.

675
00:55:49.039 --> 00:55:52.920
As well, you can also claim other benefits if you

676
00:55:52.960 --> 00:55:59.159
have enough National Insurance contributions. For example, if you're unemployed,

677
00:55:59.639 --> 00:56:03.760
check it if you can claim contributions based job Seekers

678
00:56:03.760 --> 00:56:14.920
Allowance JSA also called New Style of JSA. No, if

679
00:56:14.960 --> 00:56:18.119
you can't work because of the illness of disability, check

680
00:56:18.280 --> 00:56:23.920
if you can claim contribution based Employment and Support allowance.

681
00:56:29.320 --> 00:56:35.039
But that's what I'm on, so that makes no sense

682
00:56:35.079 --> 00:56:41.199
to getting moving me away from that. This is claiming

683
00:56:41.199 --> 00:56:44.159
other benefits. If you get Universal Credit, check if you

684
00:56:44.199 --> 00:56:50.639
can claim contribution based Employment and Support Allowance ESA also

685
00:56:50.800 --> 00:56:54.960
called New style essay. If you get either of these benefits,

686
00:56:55.000 --> 00:56:59.159
your Universal Credit will be reduced, but there are reasons

687
00:56:59.320 --> 00:57:04.719
it's still claiming them. For example, Universal Credit is paid

688
00:57:04.760 --> 00:57:08.920
once a month, but JSA and ESA are paid every

689
00:57:08.960 --> 00:57:11.760
two weeks. This might make it easier to manage your

690
00:57:11.800 --> 00:57:17.239
money right there. See, they know it's easy to manage

691
00:57:17.239 --> 00:57:20.920
money if you get paid every two weeks. Yeah, they're

692
00:57:20.920 --> 00:57:25.880
paying every month. Horace has just come back. Horace, the

693
00:57:25.960 --> 00:57:29.960
pigh is gone. He hears his name as soon as

694
00:57:29.960 --> 00:57:38.639
he hears his name's gone, said Horace turned around. Flapdoory.

695
00:57:41.000 --> 00:57:45.280
Applying for new style ESSA check if you can claim

696
00:57:45.360 --> 00:57:51.440
contributing based so changes from SA rules from twoenty twenty eight.

697
00:57:52.760 --> 00:57:56.800
On the eighteenth of March two thousand and twenty five,

698
00:57:57.679 --> 00:58:02.920
the government announced changes to how some types of ESA

699
00:58:03.679 --> 00:58:08.599
are paid. These changes would not happen until two thousand

700
00:58:08.760 --> 00:58:13.320
and twenty eight. If you're thinking of applying for new

701
00:58:13.440 --> 00:58:18.159
style ESSAY, you should. You're more likely to get essay

702
00:58:18.480 --> 00:58:27.840
if you apply before the rules change. Okay, you can

703
00:58:27.880 --> 00:58:31.039
get essay at the same time as other benefits like PIP,

704
00:58:31.960 --> 00:58:34.599
but you can't usually get essay at the same time

705
00:58:34.679 --> 00:58:40.639
as job seekers allowance or income support. If you're employed

706
00:58:40.880 --> 00:58:44.800
but you can't work, you usually get statutory set SSP.

707
00:58:45.000 --> 00:58:52.880
Statutuary can't say that word. Stattutor stattuttery. I just started

708
00:58:52.880 --> 00:58:54.960
coughing in I realized, I think one of the reason

709
00:58:55.000 --> 00:59:01.280
I'm coughing is because Vinnie is he's peeling or whatever

710
00:59:01.280 --> 00:59:03.880
you want to call its hairs just coming off there everywhere,

711
00:59:04.719 --> 00:59:07.440
and I got them all over my desk. It's little hairs.

712
00:59:07.519 --> 00:59:11.840
I think they might be getting hello darling. And I'm

713
00:59:11.840 --> 00:59:13.280
not saying a lod to the hairs on top of

714
00:59:13.320 --> 00:59:25.039
Ta vinnie Ivan. Okay. Anyway, So if you're employed but

715
00:59:25.119 --> 00:59:32.559
you can't work, you usually get statuteter ary statute statutory

716
00:59:32.960 --> 00:59:38.199
statutory sick pay from your employee for twenty eight weeks.

717
00:59:38.360 --> 00:59:40.960
You can't get SSP and ESA at the same time

718
00:59:42.280 --> 00:59:44.639
that you can start your essay claim flight up to

719
00:59:44.679 --> 00:59:51.559
three months before you're SSP. Are border that if you've

720
00:59:51.559 --> 00:59:55.079
been told to claim Universe of credit by a certain date, yes,

721
00:59:55.119 --> 00:59:58.920
I have. The Department for Working Pensions are stopping some

722
00:59:59.000 --> 01:00:04.679
people's benefits telling them to claim Universal credit instead. Guilty,

723
01:00:05.400 --> 01:00:09.639
guilty me, and it's me. If you get a letter

724
01:00:09.719 --> 01:00:12.679
telling you to claim universe or credit by a certain deadline,

725
01:00:12.800 --> 01:00:16.960
this is a migration notice. It's weird that I would

726
01:00:17.000 --> 01:00:23.079
use a word like that. You should claim universal credit

727
01:00:23.159 --> 01:00:26.760
by the deadline. In the migration notice, your old benefits

728
01:00:26.800 --> 01:00:31.239
will stop after the deadline. You might miss out on

729
01:00:31.360 --> 01:00:36.239
some money if you apply it after the deadline. See

730
01:00:36.280 --> 01:00:41.000
this is weird. So they're saying, oh, the new essay

731
01:00:43.719 --> 01:00:46.719
now and the changes one hand to twenty twenty eight,

732
01:00:46.800 --> 01:00:50.679
but there's only twenty twenty five now. I think they're

733
01:00:50.679 --> 01:00:55.519
making apps to go along. Check what you should do

734
01:00:55.559 --> 01:00:58.000
if you get a migration notice. So this is what

735
01:00:58.079 --> 01:01:03.440
I got today, an immigration notice. They're called legacy benefits,

736
01:01:04.639 --> 01:01:07.960
and so university credit to replace an older benefits. I've

737
01:01:07.960 --> 01:01:13.039
already this is what I started on, isn't it If

738
01:01:13.079 --> 01:01:15.920
your letter doesn't have a deadline, it's not on migration notice.

739
01:01:16.119 --> 01:01:19.280
You don't have to claim universal credit unless you want to,

740
01:01:20.199 --> 01:01:22.679
even if the letter says you'll have to claim universal

741
01:01:22.719 --> 01:01:26.480
credit in the future. Why are you begging at forth?

742
01:01:26.519 --> 01:01:26.679
Then?

743
01:01:27.920 --> 01:01:29.679
You got your dinner down there? Why don't you eat that?

744
01:01:31.480 --> 01:01:35.800
So they're basically, yeah, I've got a deadline of mine.

745
01:01:37.840 --> 01:01:42.760
They've given me. What was it now, May June, so yeah,

746
01:01:43.280 --> 01:01:48.480
beginning of May, beginning Dune, beginning of July. Two months,

747
01:01:49.079 --> 01:02:00.320
two a little bit months. So I filled it in today. Ah,

748
01:02:01.719 --> 01:02:08.280
it's weird, So I got I don't know how long

749
01:02:08.320 --> 01:02:10.400
it takes for the money to come through, That's what

750
01:02:10.599 --> 01:02:13.679
That's what I'm thinking. How long have I got? Got

751
01:02:13.880 --> 01:02:18.440
got go because when I signed on before it took

752
01:02:19.239 --> 01:02:27.639
or it took it for about four or five weeks

753
01:02:27.679 --> 01:02:32.239
maybe before I got anything, and then I only got

754
01:02:32.440 --> 01:02:47.679
very very basic minimum and it wasn't until ooh yeah,

755
01:02:48.239 --> 01:02:53.679
it was quite a long time, quite a good few

756
01:02:53.920 --> 01:02:57.679
good quite a few months that I got paid. The

757
01:02:57.679 --> 01:03:01.519
back payment because of back payment was something like two

758
01:03:01.599 --> 01:03:04.960
and a half grand, maybe three thousand pounds. So it

759
01:03:05.119 --> 01:03:06.840
just shows you how long I was weighing. I think

760
01:03:06.880 --> 01:03:10.480
it was like maybe nine months, ten months, nine months,

761
01:03:10.599 --> 01:03:15.599
I don't know. So I got that and then I

762
01:03:15.639 --> 01:03:20.400
went on to its normal amount, so I don't know

763
01:03:21.079 --> 01:03:24.039
what quite, I don't know how it works from that perspective.

764
01:03:25.440 --> 01:03:32.400
So I filled the forward or line at the very end.

765
01:03:32.719 --> 01:03:37.920
This was very strange, very I just it threw me

766
01:03:38.000 --> 01:03:44.039
off a bit. Let me say, if I log into

767
01:03:44.079 --> 01:03:46.559
this nigal, i'll show I'll show it to you, but

768
01:03:46.639 --> 01:03:53.880
i'll read it out here because I was surprised at this.

769
01:03:54.840 --> 01:03:57.519
Create an account. I want to create an account. I

770
01:03:57.519 --> 01:04:03.599
want to log into my account. Kah create oh, sign

771
01:04:03.639 --> 01:04:06.639
into you? Why have they got to make things difficult?

772
01:04:09.840 --> 01:04:21.599
That's weird mm hmm. Okay, So use a name. What's

773
01:04:21.639 --> 01:04:37.199
my user name. I know it is, and please give

774
01:04:37.280 --> 01:04:48.760
me more money. Okay, now my that that was my noon.

775
01:04:48.960 --> 01:04:50.679
Oh unless it's.

776
01:04:56.400 --> 01:05:00.000
H m hm.

777
01:05:04.519 --> 01:05:11.119
Oh good save confirm it'sheared blindly, and I've got to go.

778
01:05:11.400 --> 01:05:13.519
I mean, it's good that they've got all this security stuff,

779
01:05:13.559 --> 01:05:26.559
but wow, okay, what's the code? Nine two three seven

780
01:05:26.679 --> 01:05:34.199
three five four seven nine six one. Here we go, right,

781
01:05:34.440 --> 01:05:41.920
we will call you next steps. So basically I've got

782
01:05:42.119 --> 01:05:46.599
they're not calling me now to do lists right journal

783
01:05:51.039 --> 01:05:57.480
confirm your identity. So this is the problem, confirm your identity.

784
01:05:58.679 --> 01:06:05.039
And I was like, okay, how there was no way

785
01:06:05.159 --> 01:06:08.800
I could confirm my identity simply because what they were

786
01:06:08.840 --> 01:06:12.320
asking for I do not have do not have a

787
01:06:12.400 --> 01:06:18.760
driving license. I do not have a up to date passport.

788
01:06:20.360 --> 01:06:23.239
Last time he was passort passport was over three years ago.

789
01:06:23.280 --> 01:06:29.599
Now I think I don't have any credit cards stuff.

790
01:06:29.679 --> 01:06:34.000
I haven't got no credit cards. I don't get any

791
01:06:35.599 --> 01:06:41.920
bills anymore. Everything's kind of on just online now. But

792
01:06:42.039 --> 01:06:44.880
didn't ask for any bills. It's like there's nothing, there's

793
01:06:44.920 --> 01:06:49.239
nothing for me to prove my ID. Yeah, I've got

794
01:06:49.239 --> 01:06:53.679
a council flat that I've had for ten years and

795
01:06:53.719 --> 01:06:55.679
they know who I am, and they're paying me. They've

796
01:06:55.679 --> 01:06:58.840
got our bank details. If that's not proof of ID

797
01:06:59.159 --> 01:07:01.280
giving you a bank deal tells and I don't know

798
01:07:01.320 --> 01:07:08.119
what is. Ironically, not one point during this whole thing

799
01:07:08.360 --> 01:07:15.559
have they asked my national insurance number. That I found

800
01:07:15.559 --> 01:07:21.559
interesting because that's a very personal thing. It's a little

801
01:07:21.559 --> 01:07:26.320
bit like what a prison number. You know, if you

802
01:07:26.400 --> 01:07:28.760
go in the prison, now you pretty much just keep

803
01:07:28.800 --> 01:07:32.400
the same number. Well if you however many times you

804
01:07:32.480 --> 01:07:35.119
go back in, it's the same number. So this is

805
01:07:35.239 --> 01:07:42.559
the national insurance number. Is the same number, always stays

806
01:07:42.599 --> 01:07:47.719
the same. Mine is s e x y j y

807
01:07:48.039 --> 01:07:55.079
jy hash hash hash groovy fella. So that's my national

808
01:07:55.119 --> 01:08:00.840
insurance number and sixty nine at the end, And I'd

809
01:08:00.960 --> 01:08:07.679
like they didn't ask for that. So I've got them down.

810
01:08:07.719 --> 01:08:10.119
They're going to call me, right, They're gonna call me.

811
01:08:10.840 --> 01:08:13.920
We will call you. Calls from US may show on

812
01:08:13.960 --> 01:08:21.560
your phone as eight hundred number, uncannone number are withheld number.

813
01:08:22.640 --> 01:08:24.800
If you're expecting a call from US, you should answer

814
01:08:24.840 --> 01:08:27.239
calls from these numbers. We will make sure that you

815
01:08:27.359 --> 01:08:32.880
know the call is genuine or genuine we cannot proceed

816
01:08:32.920 --> 01:08:37.199
with your claim. Until we have confirmed your identity, we

817
01:08:37.279 --> 01:08:40.159
will call you in the next two to three days

818
01:08:40.319 --> 01:08:45.920
to arrange an interview to verify your identity. Don't be

819
01:08:46.000 --> 01:08:50.119
asking me to go anywhere. I didn't go anywhere. You

820
01:08:50.239 --> 01:08:53.800
talked to them on the phone. Check information you gave us.

821
01:08:54.319 --> 01:08:55.760
If you do not want to wait for a call,

822
01:08:55.840 --> 01:08:58.720
you can confirm your identity online. So let's click that.

823
01:08:58.800 --> 01:09:00.960
What does it say? Come on, came on, come on.

824
01:09:02.039 --> 01:09:05.520
Confirming your identity checks that it's really you making a claim.

825
01:09:05.960 --> 01:09:08.279
We will help you choose the best ways to do this.

826
01:09:08.880 --> 01:09:13.680
You must confirm your If it's not me, right, they're

827
01:09:13.680 --> 01:09:16.199
going to put the money into my bank account. What

828
01:09:16.319 --> 01:09:19.800
use is it for someone else if it's going into

829
01:09:19.840 --> 01:09:24.880
my bank account, the same bank account. So here's here's

830
01:09:24.880 --> 01:09:33.000
what we've got here here right, here's the options pay slips.

831
01:09:34.880 --> 01:09:37.119
You will need at least two items from the list

832
01:09:37.159 --> 01:09:40.680
and this list to verify your identity online pay slips.

833
01:09:43.119 --> 01:09:48.479
I don't have a payslip P sixty. I don't even

834
01:09:48.640 --> 01:09:51.479
not sure what a P sixty is. It's something to

835
01:09:51.520 --> 01:09:57.199
do with work related UK passport a valid UK passport Nope,

836
01:09:59.199 --> 01:10:06.199
a UK drive license never driven self assessment you need

837
01:10:06.239 --> 01:10:10.079
your recent self assessment returns. I don't know what that is.

838
01:10:10.800 --> 01:10:14.800
Credit reference. I guess that's what's that's self employed or something,

839
01:10:15.439 --> 01:10:20.680
credit references or records, for example, information about credit cards

840
01:10:20.760 --> 01:10:32.359
or phone contracts. I don't I've just I don't have

841
01:10:32.520 --> 01:10:39.520
these things. I don't know what to say. I'm very flamixed.

842
01:10:41.720 --> 01:10:43.760
So yeah, that's just how it is now. So I'm

843
01:10:43.800 --> 01:10:47.520
gonna have to wait for them. How ironic would it be?

844
01:10:48.000 --> 01:10:48.079
Not?

845
01:10:48.359 --> 01:10:53.640
Probably? Irony is possibly not the correct word. Before I

846
01:10:53.640 --> 01:10:56.960
wasn't allowed. I wasn't allowed to have any any help

847
01:10:58.000 --> 01:11:04.760
because they couldn't prove you I was. How ridiculous is that?

848
01:11:08.079 --> 01:11:10.800
And I could just say, well, how about I take

849
01:11:10.800 --> 01:11:12.960
a photocopy of every letter that you sent me in

850
01:11:13.000 --> 01:11:16.640
the last ten years. I've got them all, I send

851
01:11:16.640 --> 01:11:18.680
them to you. That kind of proves that I am

852
01:11:18.720 --> 01:11:25.600
who I am? Does it not? Anyway? Other than that,

853
01:11:25.800 --> 01:11:33.479
everything's good, rookie. See if I've got any emails, any emails,

854
01:11:33.720 --> 01:11:49.000
and I'm gonna have myself a toilet and then a

855
01:11:49.039 --> 01:11:56.640
bowl of breakfast, a cereal, I think, and then yeah,

856
01:11:56.800 --> 01:12:00.199
B likes half past four. I've only eaten twice today.

857
01:12:00.800 --> 01:12:06.119
It's just good, isn't it? So I had I had

858
01:12:06.479 --> 01:12:17.479
six point thirty probably something about twelve or eleven eleven ish,

859
01:12:17.520 --> 01:12:23.319
and now now well probably it's four point thirty now,

860
01:12:23.920 --> 01:12:26.159
so it's probably going to be more core to fin

861
01:12:26.520 --> 01:12:37.119
if i'd say before I'm actually munching away, Oh, I

862
01:12:37.199 --> 01:12:44.520
need to exercise my hips. I feel like I could

863
01:12:44.920 --> 01:12:47.000
I so I could be really good. I'd like someone

864
01:12:47.039 --> 01:12:53.920
to do some frusting with well, maybe not thrusting, but

865
01:12:54.399 --> 01:12:56.960
do you know you ever see these videos on YouTube

866
01:12:56.960 --> 01:13:03.039
where someone's kind of pushing the person, like stretching them,

867
01:13:03.039 --> 01:13:05.880
but helping them stretch. That's what I kind of think.

868
01:13:05.920 --> 01:13:09.279
I need someone to hold my legs and just push

869
01:13:09.359 --> 01:13:14.960
back gently and maybe push back on my hips, help

870
01:13:15.039 --> 01:13:18.199
me to open up a bit. So maybe not thrusting,

871
01:13:18.319 --> 01:13:21.199
but maybe pushing forward and they can just push me

872
01:13:21.199 --> 01:13:25.439
a little bit more, just to open up the joints

873
01:13:25.479 --> 01:13:34.680
and stuff. I think that'd be quite cool, but everyone

874
01:13:34.720 --> 01:13:41.880
says no, let's getting to the point where it's becoming

875
01:13:41.920 --> 01:13:45.199
embarrassing and being on a bus. I'm just like asking people,

876
01:13:45.640 --> 01:13:48.079
you'd think a bus journey would be a good place

877
01:13:48.159 --> 01:13:50.760
to try and to meet someone that could help you

878
01:13:50.840 --> 01:13:59.279
with some stretching. No, maybe a gym. I just need

879
01:13:59.319 --> 01:14:08.199
to find a gym that allow me in. Here's a

880
01:14:08.239 --> 01:14:10.279
weird thing. I nearly did what I did, Actually I

881
01:14:10.319 --> 01:14:17.319
did do. Vinnie was on a chair near the bedroom window,

882
01:14:18.319 --> 01:14:20.600
and normally I've got the curtains drawn a little bit

883
01:14:20.680 --> 01:14:26.680
so you can get into the wind sill. I cooked

884
01:14:26.720 --> 01:14:30.079
some sausages. He wouldn't come in here. He was like

885
01:14:30.399 --> 01:14:31.960
in the other room. I don't know. He had a

886
01:14:31.960 --> 01:14:34.119
bit of a weird have been a bit of weird

887
01:14:34.159 --> 01:14:37.640
mood today. So what thought it'd be funny is if

888
01:14:37.680 --> 01:14:42.319
I held the sausage like it was part of my anatomy.

889
01:14:43.039 --> 01:14:45.800
So I jumped in the doorway and just wiggled in about.

890
01:14:47.760 --> 01:14:49.960
And I forgot that the curtains were drawn and there's

891
01:14:49.960 --> 01:14:52.960
no neck curtains, and the lady opposite was in her kitchen.

892
01:14:54.159 --> 01:15:02.600
It's like, oh, oh, dear, and I just jumped back

893
01:15:02.640 --> 01:15:05.479
and hid. Now, perhaps I shouldn't have done and probably

894
01:15:05.520 --> 01:15:09.399
made it worse, but it was. It literally was just

895
01:15:09.399 --> 01:15:12.680
a sausage, and I gave it to Vinnie. He wouldn't.

896
01:15:12.880 --> 01:15:16.439
I had did, like put it break it into little

897
01:15:16.439 --> 01:15:21.439
bits for him, because he's been very lazy but yeah,

898
01:15:21.520 --> 01:15:23.159
I was that was a bit of a weird a

899
01:15:23.239 --> 01:15:37.439
weird one. Not the weirdest thing that's ever happened, but yeah,

900
01:15:38.000 --> 01:15:39.920
I think probably the weirdest thing is when I was

901
01:15:40.279 --> 01:15:45.439
I had Andre in town and people coming up to me, Oh,

902
01:15:45.439 --> 01:15:48.880
he's so cute, and he was just you know, wheeling

903
01:15:48.920 --> 01:15:52.680
about and all that stuff, and I was holding him

904
01:15:52.680 --> 01:15:56.319
into I was kind of, this is a long time ago,

905
01:15:56.359 --> 01:15:59.640
it's like nine years ago, when and I was talking

906
01:15:59.680 --> 01:16:02.039
to this female and she seemed to be interested. And

907
01:16:02.079 --> 01:16:04.520
she's talking to me and getting on really well, and

908
01:16:05.399 --> 01:16:09.079
I'm kind of, i don't know, not shoving off, but

909
01:16:09.800 --> 01:16:15.039
trying to be trying to be interested maybe I don't

910
01:16:15.039 --> 01:16:18.239
know if it's possible, and thinking this is going quite well.

911
01:16:19.000 --> 01:16:21.239
And she starts laughing. She's laughing at my jokes, and

912
01:16:21.279 --> 01:16:25.399
she's laughing, really laughing at this point, and I'm thinking, Wow,

913
01:16:25.479 --> 01:16:28.600
this is going really well. And then other people start laughing,

914
01:16:28.640 --> 01:16:32.359
and I'm thinking, blind me, this is going really well.

915
01:16:33.359 --> 01:16:36.119
And I notice people behind me were laughing, and another

916
01:16:36.199 --> 01:16:38.479
people at the side of him, like, and I looked

917
01:16:38.560 --> 01:16:43.039
down because they were pointing. Vinnie had pooed all down

918
01:16:43.119 --> 01:16:46.760
my top and onto my trousers, not Vinnie Andre, sorry,

919
01:16:46.840 --> 01:16:50.880
not Vinny Andre pretty much and weed and everything like

920
01:16:51.439 --> 01:16:53.159
he wanted to go to a toilet, but I was

921
01:16:53.199 --> 01:16:57.720
holding onto him, didn't realize he needed a toilet, and

922
01:16:57.800 --> 01:17:04.960
he just let go all over me. And I was

923
01:17:04.960 --> 01:17:07.079
actually with someone, so I was with a woman as well.

924
01:17:07.199 --> 01:17:12.640
She thought it was hilarious also, but apparently she didn't

925
01:17:12.640 --> 01:17:23.439
want a second date. It was weird. I still can't

926
01:17:23.479 --> 01:17:26.840
find it funny even now. It was horrible. Really. It

927
01:17:26.880 --> 01:17:29.960
was in the middle of town. I had no change

928
01:17:29.960 --> 01:17:34.680
of clothes, and I did go into a public toilet

929
01:17:34.720 --> 01:17:39.439
to try and like wash myself off, but then it

930
01:17:39.520 --> 01:17:42.039
just went from It just looked like I wet myself

931
01:17:44.439 --> 01:17:46.800
and after that because everything was wet, so it looked

932
01:17:46.840 --> 01:17:54.640
like I just Yeah, it was a weird one, but

933
01:17:54.720 --> 01:17:59.439
it wasn't. It wasn't Andre's fault. It was me. I

934
01:17:59.479 --> 01:18:03.279
wasn't really didn't wasn't reading what he needed. But then

935
01:18:03.279 --> 01:18:05.920
he was wiggled about anyway, but he kept trying to

936
01:18:05.920 --> 01:18:09.880
get down. And in the end, because with the finger

937
01:18:09.880 --> 01:18:11.520
with ferrets is when they need to go, they need

938
01:18:11.560 --> 01:18:16.399
to go. They don't like Vinnio Spend ten fifteen twenty

939
01:18:16.399 --> 01:18:19.600
minutes looking for somewhere to go to the toilet. Andre,

940
01:18:21.199 --> 01:18:29.079
they get like a five second notice, maybe ten seconds

941
01:18:29.119 --> 01:18:32.840
sometimes sometimes even two seconds, to a really short notice

942
01:18:32.920 --> 01:18:41.079
like need to go go now, Andre Vinni is kind

943
01:18:41.119 --> 01:18:44.680
of like, yeah, he'll spend a good twenty minutes walking

944
01:18:44.760 --> 01:18:50.079
up and down the grass finding the correct place. Andre.

945
01:18:52.079 --> 01:18:53.960
He'd go in the right place if he could. But

946
01:18:54.159 --> 01:18:59.119
you know, if he couldn't always get to where the

947
01:18:59.159 --> 01:19:02.039
paper was, especially if it was on the roofs on

948
01:19:02.079 --> 01:19:07.880
the roof sunbathing, they just do it down the chimney.

949
01:19:07.880 --> 01:19:14.199
So it was all right. I was thinking about that,

950
01:19:14.239 --> 01:19:17.640
you know, like sending kids up chimneys. I was just

951
01:19:17.640 --> 01:19:21.119
thinking about that the other day because a lot of

952
01:19:21.199 --> 01:19:25.439
kids want to do what their parents do, don't They Oh,

953
01:19:25.479 --> 01:19:28.000
can I do it? Like, no, you can't, you're too young.

954
01:19:29.079 --> 01:19:35.840
So I'm guessing when parents were cleaning out the chimneys,

955
01:19:37.880 --> 01:19:39.880
the little kids are saying, how can I help? Can

956
01:19:39.920 --> 01:19:43.479
I help? Not realizing it was going to lead to

957
01:19:43.520 --> 01:19:48.159
a career, but like what can I help? Also probably

958
01:19:48.159 --> 01:19:50.760
not realizing that they were going to be sent up

959
01:19:50.800 --> 01:19:54.680
the chimney, because you know, when they say can I help,

960
01:19:54.720 --> 01:19:56.800
they probably thought can I just hold the big stick

961
01:19:57.720 --> 01:20:01.840
and get dirty. They didn't think they were going to

962
01:20:01.880 --> 01:20:04.319
be put on the end of a stick and shoved

963
01:20:04.359 --> 01:20:08.560
up the chimney. So yeah, I suppose it was wearing

964
01:20:08.560 --> 01:20:10.920
a little brush on a hat with a brush on.

965
01:20:14.359 --> 01:20:14.479
Uh.

966
01:20:19.000 --> 01:20:26.279
Now become up really really tall toilet brushes and they

967
01:20:26.840 --> 01:20:30.159
we've still got chimneys here. It's weird. There's a chimney

968
01:20:30.199 --> 01:20:34.680
over the road. Literally on that block over there, there's

969
01:20:34.680 --> 01:20:41.680
a chimney. Now, there's one hundred percent no fire place

970
01:20:41.840 --> 01:20:46.640
in there at all, So why is there a chimney.

971
01:20:46.680 --> 01:20:54.239
I got no idea unless I'm gonna look, this is

972
01:20:54.279 --> 01:21:06.640
going to bug you now for that. Look Okay, yeah,

973
01:21:06.640 --> 01:21:13.279
there's definitely a chimney. There's a chimney on a building.

974
01:21:13.399 --> 01:21:19.079
It's just studio flats there. I an't know. There's no

975
01:21:19.359 --> 01:21:24.439
open fires. Maybe I guess they used to be. But

976
01:21:24.479 --> 01:21:27.199
would there have been in nineteen seventy eight when these

977
01:21:27.199 --> 01:21:33.039
buildings were built. I don't imagine there had been open

978
01:21:33.119 --> 01:21:38.000
fires back then. It would have been more just central heating.

979
01:21:41.920 --> 01:21:49.239
I didn't he know, there's definitely a fire, like a

980
01:21:49.439 --> 01:21:53.520
chimney on top. I guess it's just blocked. I mean

981
01:21:53.600 --> 01:21:55.720
when I moved into the When we moved into the

982
01:21:55.760 --> 01:22:01.560
family house in about nineteen seventy nine, was.

983
01:22:01.520 --> 01:22:15.479
It there was a chimney in the living room.

984
01:22:13.720 --> 01:22:20.359
And the bedroom upstairs, which was their parents' bedroom, so

985
01:22:20.439 --> 01:22:22.279
there was a chimney. I think they blocked the one

986
01:22:22.319 --> 01:22:25.279
in the bedroom. There might have even been one in

987
01:22:25.359 --> 01:22:27.720
the other one, which would also be the room next

988
01:22:27.760 --> 01:22:32.079
to it as well, but we had the one. We

989
01:22:32.119 --> 01:22:35.640
had the chimney in the living room. The chimney. We

990
01:22:35.680 --> 01:22:45.000
had the fireplace, the open fireplace actually active in the

991
01:22:45.039 --> 01:22:49.000
winter and stuff. I still love it. I love the

992
01:22:49.039 --> 01:23:00.279
open fire. It was lovely, Yeah, I did. If we

993
01:23:00.279 --> 01:23:02.199
had one in the other room. I think it was

994
01:23:02.319 --> 01:23:05.960
just one room that was really nice. It was just

995
01:23:06.119 --> 01:23:21.840
really comfy, cozy, smoky, stuffy, but it was nice. I

996
01:23:21.880 --> 01:23:23.960
don't know if they got outlawed. I don't know if

997
01:23:24.000 --> 01:23:28.600
it was if we had to stop using them. Because

998
01:23:28.600 --> 01:23:31.640
when I used to go to Nottingham, I had this

999
01:23:31.760 --> 01:23:35.039
friend who lived there and he had everywhere because the

1000
01:23:35.199 --> 01:23:40.720
colon are like a mining village and everyone had these

1001
01:23:40.760 --> 01:23:47.119
wood burners in these places and well coal as well,

1002
01:23:47.119 --> 01:23:50.079
but they'd have these things that would beyond all day

1003
01:23:50.079 --> 01:23:57.119
long and like a, yeah, I think it was quite nice,

1004
01:23:59.239 --> 01:24:08.640
Like yeah, such a lovely house, Finny, I don't know

1005
01:24:08.640 --> 01:24:12.600
what you want, right, I'll bet it go. So yeah,

1006
01:24:12.640 --> 01:24:20.800
that's just basically what's happening. That's the update I had

1007
01:24:20.800 --> 01:24:23.560
this little thing I played with her for Okay, I

1008
01:24:23.560 --> 01:24:28.119
should reword that I had this idea. Maybe just come

1009
01:24:28.119 --> 01:24:38.399
off the benefits and just say I need to I

1010
01:24:38.439 --> 01:24:41.079
need to have enough money coming in to pay everything,

1011
01:24:44.560 --> 01:24:48.039
and just put it to the universe, just like put

1012
01:24:48.079 --> 01:24:50.199
it out there and say I need this is what

1013
01:24:50.239 --> 01:24:52.399
I need. I need to pay my rent, need to eat,

1014
01:24:52.920 --> 01:24:57.560
need to pay the bills, and in return I will

1015
01:24:58.640 --> 01:25:04.239
make regular recordings. But I don't know. I'm all sure

1016
01:25:04.319 --> 01:25:09.079
if the universe is listening all the time, I like

1017
01:25:09.159 --> 01:25:16.199
to think it is. That is one of the one

1018
01:25:16.239 --> 01:25:19.039
of the rules of the secret one of the rules

1019
01:25:19.079 --> 01:25:29.239
of the manifestation thing is or the think and grow rich,

1020
01:25:29.960 --> 01:25:32.079
which is where all that stuff kind of comes from.

1021
01:25:32.239 --> 01:25:42.640
Stop squeaking. The idea is you do something, you cut

1022
01:25:43.079 --> 01:25:46.840
all that. You basically cut the ties, not ties from people,

1023
01:25:46.840 --> 01:25:54.159
but you stop being able to go back. So it'd

1024
01:25:54.199 --> 01:26:00.880
be the same as you know, you go somewhere and

1025
01:26:01.520 --> 01:26:06.840
you can't return. You have to keep going regardless, and

1026
01:26:07.279 --> 01:26:09.840
stopping my benefits or not really knowing them, would be

1027
01:26:09.920 --> 01:26:18.239
like that, so sink or swim sort of situation. I

1028
01:26:18.279 --> 01:26:24.640
don't know. I had a thought about it. I definitely

1029
01:26:24.640 --> 01:26:27.800
feel a lot better about myself if I was, if

1030
01:26:27.800 --> 01:26:31.680
this was, if I was able to pay my own way,

1031
01:26:31.760 --> 01:26:36.039
and you know, do it, you know, by doing this.

1032
01:26:36.239 --> 01:26:41.479
But I don't know, I don't know. He's hassling me.

1033
01:26:42.720 --> 01:26:45.079
I'm pretty sure he didn't used to be like this.

1034
01:26:47.560 --> 01:26:50.760
He's now big. And are you hungry? Stick your tongue

1035
01:26:50.760 --> 01:26:55.640
ou if you're hungry? Jorgean food. He's turning his head

1036
01:26:55.800 --> 01:26:59.039
side his side is so cute, Jorge the food. Any

1037
01:26:59.319 --> 01:27:09.039
you're hungry? Are you hungry? Noodles? Archie? See the other

1038
01:27:09.119 --> 01:27:16.640
two were if I say archie, what about uncleric and cleric? Uncle?

1039
01:27:19.479 --> 01:27:25.960
Who else? Who pigmy? No, it wasn't interesting that one

1040
01:27:26.800 --> 01:27:35.800
Uncle Alex, uncle Eric Archie noodles. Yeah he does. He

1041
01:27:35.880 --> 01:27:42.119
turns his head a bit more for those, Oh, go away,

1042
01:27:43.119 --> 01:27:49.840
go with me, you are so cute, Vinny. Well those

1043
01:27:52.520 --> 01:27:55.520
he's a properly snorer than he is. Snores a lot,

1044
01:27:56.279 --> 01:28:01.199
don't you do you want to go in the guard

1045
01:28:01.239 --> 01:28:05.439
and do weies? We haven't been there, have we since? Okay,

1046
01:28:05.520 --> 01:28:08.600
let's do that. I well, thank you for listening. Remember

1047
01:28:08.680 --> 01:28:11.399
to be kind to yourself because you do deserve to

1048
01:28:11.439 --> 01:28:16.680
be happy, and be gentle with yourself because you deserve

1049
01:28:16.720 --> 01:28:24.479
to feel safe. Lots of love. Bye, should go in

1050
01:28:24.479 --> 01:28:27.880
the garden? Do we weies? Do you want to do

1051
01:28:27.880 --> 01:28:29.920
a wee as well? Come on, let's go and do

1052
01:28:29.920 --> 01:28:35.680
it with me. Come on, let's see and it can't be,

1053
01:28:37.319 --> 01:28:39.119
which means we'll have to see what we ever do

1054
01:28:39.159 --> 01:29:00.760
as well. Relax in a more deep and meaningful way,

1055
01:29:01.720 --> 01:29:06.800
maybe in a way that can not just allow you

1056
01:29:07.239 --> 01:29:17.279
to feel calmer now and throughout the time we spend

1057
01:29:17.359 --> 01:29:25.319
together here, not just relaxed at the end of the

1058
01:29:25.399 --> 01:29:30.760
recording when it's finished and you can enjoy that sense

1059
01:29:30.880 --> 01:29:47.520
of comfort and peace, but also I think it would

1060
01:29:47.520 --> 01:30:03.399
be nice to have those feelings of relaxation continue for

1061
01:30:03.560 --> 01:30:15.520
longer after the recording is ended, so that you can

1062
01:30:17.119 --> 01:30:27.760
still benefit from listening to my voice, maybe in a

1063
01:30:27.800 --> 01:30:40.319
few hours time, perhaps tomorrow, and then by listening regularly,

1064
01:30:43.399 --> 01:30:48.039
especially if you find, like some people do and myself

1065
01:30:48.079 --> 01:30:52.640
as well, I sometimes I find one particular recording that

1066
01:30:52.840 --> 01:31:01.560
really resonates with me, and I just listened to it

1067
01:31:01.600 --> 01:31:14.479
over and over again every morning, every evening. There was

1068
01:31:14.479 --> 01:31:21.640
this recording from We're going back to about nineteen ninety nine.

1069
01:31:21.920 --> 01:31:27.239
It was it wasn't hypnosis, but it was a guided visualizations.

1070
01:31:27.359 --> 01:31:34.359
It kind of was hypnosis, really, and I managed to

1071
01:31:34.439 --> 01:31:37.960
find it again and it still has the same effect

1072
01:31:38.439 --> 01:31:50.079
on me. And part of it was the person's voice

1073
01:31:50.479 --> 01:32:00.680
relaxed me, just felt so peaceful, and I'd look forward

1074
01:32:01.119 --> 01:32:07.800
to listening to her in the morning and in the evening,

1075
01:32:14.199 --> 01:32:23.239
and I knew before even pressing the play button that

1076
01:32:23.560 --> 01:32:27.960
since I've done that, pressed the play button. This was

1077
01:32:28.319 --> 01:32:39.319
in the days of CD players press the play button.

1078
01:32:42.720 --> 01:32:45.560
In fact, it might have even been a tape tape recorder.

1079
01:32:46.840 --> 01:32:55.199
I'd lie down on the bed and then even without

1080
01:32:55.760 --> 01:33:08.720
necessarily listening to her words because I had them memorized. Really,

1081
01:33:13.399 --> 01:33:19.399
it was as if my body knew exactly what to do,

1082
01:33:24.159 --> 01:33:46.039
and the muscles just almost went into automatic relaxation, and

1083
01:33:46.119 --> 01:33:59.960
I remember my mind would slow down. Now now I was.

1084
01:34:00.079 --> 01:34:06.319
I was listening to this recording in the early days

1085
01:34:06.319 --> 01:34:14.600
of learning hypnosis, and long before I ever made any

1086
01:34:16.479 --> 01:34:21.960
videos or audio recordings myself, because I didn't start doing

1087
01:34:21.960 --> 01:34:36.000
that till two thousand and six. I knew, I knew

1088
01:34:36.319 --> 01:34:49.079
how helpful I found being able to just let go,

1089
01:34:52.119 --> 01:34:57.520
to have that trust in the person that I'm listening to,

1090
01:35:05.159 --> 01:35:11.920
knowing that it's going to be just as relaxing, if

1091
01:35:13.319 --> 01:35:22.720
not more so. Each time you hear my voice, you

1092
01:35:22.800 --> 01:35:34.439
may feel the same. Some people have been listening to

1093
01:35:34.479 --> 01:35:48.399
me for over a decade, maybe not solidly, obviously not

1094
01:35:48.439 --> 01:35:54.760
twenty four hours a day, but maybe people come back.

1095
01:35:56.560 --> 01:36:10.279
Some people may be listen every day. That's something that

1096
01:36:10.359 --> 01:36:23.359
I do which you may not realize by listening, is

1097
01:36:27.439 --> 01:36:41.760
when I record these recordings. Now, for example, I also

1098
01:36:43.279 --> 01:36:54.520
am affected by the words that I say. So if

1099
01:36:54.520 --> 01:37:04.920
I set you focus on your feet, notice your feet relaxing,

1100
01:37:08.399 --> 01:37:16.319
I will be focusing on my feet. I will be

1101
01:37:16.399 --> 01:37:34.520
noticing my feet relaxing. If I said, focus on your hands,

1102
01:37:37.279 --> 01:37:46.800
and maybe notice the difference between each hand. Perhaps notice

1103
01:37:46.920 --> 01:37:54.840
the air in the room, the temperature of the room.

1104
01:37:54.880 --> 01:38:05.279
On the backs of your hands. You may start to

1105
01:38:05.840 --> 01:38:13.920
notice what almost feels like a very light breeze, even

1106
01:38:13.960 --> 01:38:18.199
though there may not be any type of breeze at

1107
01:38:18.239 --> 01:38:31.239
all where you are right now. And as you become

1108
01:38:31.880 --> 01:38:46.239
aware of your hands, I'm also aware of how relaxed

1109
01:38:46.520 --> 01:39:10.319
my hands are feeling now, and when it comes to

1110
01:39:11.840 --> 01:39:17.880
potentially drifting off to sleep, which may be the reason

1111
01:39:18.199 --> 01:39:34.520
you're listening, I also feel drowsy when I make these recordings.

1112
01:39:39.159 --> 01:39:55.560
I also notice my mind drifting. In fact, at times

1113
01:39:57.640 --> 01:40:11.800
I've actually fallen asleep without even noticing, and then I

1114
01:40:11.920 --> 01:40:23.239
carry on talking. And it's only when I listen back

1115
01:40:23.439 --> 01:40:32.439
to do the editing I hear snoring, and I think

1116
01:40:32.880 --> 01:40:42.640
I don't remember snoring. I remember talking. Is this snoring

1117
01:40:43.000 --> 01:40:49.720
was a pig turned up? That's why I sound like

1118
01:40:49.800 --> 01:41:00.880
when I snore, I get really into the holy experience.

1119
01:41:08.840 --> 01:41:17.880
I don't know how you feel. How relaxed do you

1120
01:41:17.960 --> 01:41:28.920
feel in your feet, how relaxed you feel in your hands.

1121
01:41:43.960 --> 01:41:56.199
I have noticed more and more that the more relaxed,

1122
01:41:57.960 --> 01:42:13.760
deeper level of comfort you feel, the easier your breathing becomes.

1123
01:42:20.399 --> 01:42:37.000
It's almost like that additional muscle relaxation. So this allows

1124
01:42:37.039 --> 01:43:08.119
you to breathe easier without necessarily focusing on your breath. Yeah, however,

1125
01:43:08.399 --> 01:43:37.159
being able to notice the ease in which you breathe

1126
01:43:37.359 --> 01:44:27.239
so naturally, you breathe so very easily and smoothly. Whenever

1127
01:44:27.319 --> 01:44:45.640
I imagine my breathing improving. When I've got my eyes closed,

1128
01:44:51.680 --> 01:45:04.560
I tend to visualize a beautiful field with trees and

1129
01:45:04.800 --> 01:45:38.319
flowers producing all that life giving oxygen. And it feels

1130
01:45:38.439 --> 01:45:59.880
nice too, if nothing else, just taking some time oh

1131
01:46:00.079 --> 01:46:48.119
way from everything, enjoying that feeling of peace, serenity with

1132
01:46:48.159 --> 01:47:24.680
a joyful heart. Time seems to just drip by, so

1133
01:47:25.840 --> 01:48:15.600
very slowly, relaxed, so deeply peaceful, completely unattached to any

1134
01:48:16.560 --> 01:49:20.039
thoughts whatsoever in this moment, completely free, noticing that your

1135
01:49:20.239 --> 01:50:07.439
mind has slowed down, slowed down because nothing really requires

1136
01:50:07.479 --> 01:50:37.840
your attention. You can enjoy the physical sensations of allowing

1137
01:50:38.079 --> 01:50:50.880
the stress to drip out of your body, dripping out

1138
01:50:50.920 --> 01:51:20.079
of every part of your body and being released from

1139
01:51:20.119 --> 01:51:59.920
your brain. Hunge your mind slowly but surely it must,

1140
01:52:00.119 --> 01:52:47.680
soothing your legs, relax rs res so very deeply, relas

1141
01:52:52.520 --> 01:53:17.920
so deeply, and the feelings, the pleasant feelings in your

1142
01:53:18.199 --> 01:53:46.039
arms and shoulders, deepening each part of your body further

1143
01:53:50.960 --> 01:54:24.319
and deeper and deeper madicine, the feelings in the back

1144
01:54:24.359 --> 01:55:26.119
of your neck, the feelings in your wrists, muscles, in

1145
01:55:26.399 --> 01:56:03.159
front of your body, I will say, feeling peaceful. Deep,

1146
01:56:20.319 --> 01:56:30.600
there's a sense of peace spreads through your very core.

1147
01:57:01.159 --> 01:57:21.079
Even when you focus on your mind. Her mind becomes

1148
01:57:28.399 --> 01:58:51.279
be and slower, even deeper, relaxing, so very slow, stomach

1149
01:59:05.399 --> 01:59:47.359
peace fall in your stomach. He'll back. Notice. Notice how

1150
01:59:47.600 --> 02:00:05.600
relaxed you now feel in the hole of your back.

1151
02:00:30.720 --> 02:00:38.399
In a spy from your brain, all the way down

1152
02:00:39.760 --> 02:00:49.600
the middle of your back, sending and receiving millions of

1153
02:00:49.840 --> 02:02:17.800
messages every day, deep comfort increasing deeply relaxed. Knees relax

1154
02:02:21.720 --> 02:02:30.920
spreading those signals down your spine or cord into air,

1155
02:02:31.239 --> 02:02:50.800
every part of your body, your shins and your calf, muscles,

1156
02:03:17.920 --> 02:03:47.399
your elbows, Feelings of peace and tranquility spreading through your body,

1157
02:03:52.399 --> 02:04:08.680
tips of your toes, to your eyes, your fingers. All

1158
02:04:08.800 --> 02:04:26.279
wait till you'll know about letting her read, letting her

1159
02:04:54.039 --> 02:05:36.680
pace drift in mind, just wandering away, happy to let go,

1160
02:05:40.119 --> 02:06:46.319
let go completely, let go, so tranquil, old body, enjoying

1161
02:06:46.479 --> 02:09:08.560
a sensor listening that hey more, Hey, enjoy the space,

1162
02:09:10.960 --> 02:09:53.359
this space of peace and safety, sur very, relaxed.

1163
02:10:15.000 --> 02:11:24.159
Ans because us using.

1164
02:11:22.560 --> 02:11:47.239
Letting go. Maybe we can just focus on the different

1165
02:11:47.600 --> 02:12:22.439
parts of your body, just to notice you foolhead, and

1166
02:12:22.720 --> 02:13:29.119
your eyes too so loose, noticing the sense of complete freedom,

1167
02:13:41.199 --> 02:13:43.600
absolute freedom.

1168
02:14:30.079 --> 02:14:43.439
D D day.

1169
02:14:55.680 --> 02:14:56.960
He's fall.

1170
02:14:58.319 --> 02:14:58.880
And it sh.

1171
02:15:31.760 --> 02:15:40.039
Paste to breeze so much ease, yeah.

1172
02:16:21.399 --> 02:16:21.680
Loose.

1173
02:16:43.000 --> 02:16:43.920
You may have.

1174
02:16:47.520 --> 02:17:47.440
Or may not have noticed your mind drifting peace move

1175
02:17:47.879 --> 02:18:08.399
any even more deeply in the direction of total blissful pace.

1176
02:18:12.639 --> 02:20:15.959
Blisphul pace rift to to to pace, so calm, let

1177
02:20:16.159 --> 02:20:43.799
him go peace with mind.

1178
02:20:53.159 --> 02:21:27.639
Body c rexed, cir relaxed.

1179
02:21:52.159 --> 02:22:19.000
A body feels almost invisible, so the very relaxed and paceful,

1180
02:22:25.360 --> 02:22:50.280
so pace RELI.

1181
02:22:57.079 --> 02:22:57.959
Like god.

1182
02:23:13.840 --> 02:23:38.639
So and you could start to notice that you are

1183
02:23:38.840 --> 02:23:50.360
feeling more relaxed, even though I've not purposely focused your

1184
02:23:50.559 --> 02:23:58.959
mind upon that sense of physical comfort that is growing

1185
02:23:59.079 --> 02:24:07.920
within you throughout your body, and your mind starts to

1186
02:24:08.040 --> 02:24:18.079
slow down. And that could be almost in recognition of

1187
02:24:20.360 --> 02:24:32.440
I guess my speech not being particularly fast, and things

1188
02:24:32.840 --> 02:24:42.920
just generally feel calmer. Just by listening to my voice,

1189
02:24:46.000 --> 02:24:52.959
you give yourself an opportunity to take a break from

1190
02:24:53.000 --> 02:24:59.520
the day, take a break from your life as it is,

1191
02:25:02.959 --> 02:25:10.559
and to give yourself a rest, giving yourself permission to

1192
02:25:10.680 --> 02:25:15.920
take some time off and to allow your body to

1193
02:25:16.079 --> 02:25:25.760
relax and allow your mind to slow down, which in

1194
02:25:25.920 --> 02:25:33.799
turn releases the tension any stresses that you had in

1195
02:25:33.920 --> 02:25:43.719
your body. It's almost as if the parts of your

1196
02:25:43.760 --> 02:25:55.799
body just open up, allowing the negativity out and at

1197
02:25:55.840 --> 02:26:04.079
the same time replacing that negativity with positive healing energy,

1198
02:26:07.200 --> 02:26:11.760
which then fills your body up and your mind to

1199
02:26:13.440 --> 02:26:31.559
also starts to appreciate those feelings of increasing confidence and

1200
02:26:31.760 --> 02:26:49.000
almost uplifting feeling positive healing an energy that spreads through

1201
02:26:49.079 --> 02:26:59.719
your body like a wave of comfort. And all this

1202
02:27:00.120 --> 02:27:12.120
comes from just allowing yourself a few minutes, maybe half

1203
02:27:12.200 --> 02:27:16.000
an hour, however long you want it to be, to

1204
02:27:16.360 --> 02:27:30.159
just rest and allow your mind and your body to

1205
02:27:30.319 --> 02:27:46.879
almost reset itself to the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness,

1206
02:27:51.200 --> 02:28:00.520
which allows more room for feelings of pleasure and happiness

1207
02:28:04.559 --> 02:28:13.399
to move around your body and into your mind, almost

1208
02:28:14.200 --> 02:28:18.760
as if your mind and your body are sinking together,

1209
02:28:23.040 --> 02:28:32.719
almost mirroring each other with that growing positivity and calmness.

1210
02:28:37.799 --> 02:28:45.280
And it feels nice, really does feel nice to know

1211
02:28:45.559 --> 02:28:54.399
that you are the one that has allowed yourself to

1212
02:28:54.680 --> 02:29:03.760
feel more comfort and to experience.

1213
02:29:05.479 --> 02:29:06.600
More of this.

1214
02:29:08.399 --> 02:29:23.559
Deep relaxation spreading throughout your body. And as I focus

1215
02:29:25.120 --> 02:29:30.879
on each part of your body. You can notice that

1216
02:29:31.120 --> 02:29:45.479
that part becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on

1217
02:29:45.559 --> 02:29:57.799
it becomes even more calm and comfortable. Just by focusing,

1218
02:30:01.840 --> 02:30:07.040
and as I move down on your body, starting at

1219
02:30:07.079 --> 02:30:13.120
your head, the parts that you have already focused on

1220
02:30:13.760 --> 02:30:22.719
will continue to relax deeply, and those parts that have

1221
02:30:23.520 --> 02:30:35.120
not yet focused on or just automatically release any remain

1222
02:30:35.239 --> 02:30:43.559
intention in anticipation of even more comfort about to come.

1223
02:30:48.840 --> 02:30:49.000
Now.

1224
02:30:51.559 --> 02:30:58.639
And start by focusing on your forehead, just being aware

1225
02:30:59.280 --> 02:31:06.840
the feeling and so your forehead and then your background

1226
02:31:07.120 --> 02:31:13.959
sounds like mister Herbert the opigeon, can just allow you

1227
02:31:14.159 --> 02:31:21.639
to feel even more relaxed. Just means you're in the moment.

1228
02:31:24.799 --> 02:31:30.120
This isn't this isn't a sterile environment. This is the world.

1229
02:31:33.600 --> 02:31:39.639
I live in the countryside, so there's lots of nature

1230
02:31:40.159 --> 02:31:50.639
sounds around. So as you focus on your forehead, just

1231
02:31:50.879 --> 02:31:55.360
notice how it becomes even more relaxed.

1232
02:31:55.879 --> 02:31:56.319
Is your.

1233
02:31:58.200 --> 02:32:05.479
Focus only on my voice and that part of your body.

1234
02:32:10.680 --> 02:32:18.959
Moving down to your eyes, focusing on your eyes, noticing

1235
02:32:21.399 --> 02:32:31.120
how your eyelids feel so heavy yet so light at

1236
02:32:31.159 --> 02:32:37.639
the same time, and all the muscles around your eyes

1237
02:32:37.879 --> 02:32:52.280
relaxing completely moving your focus down to your mouth, your lips,

1238
02:32:52.760 --> 02:32:59.399
your tongue, your teeth, and your gums, the whole of

1239
02:32:59.520 --> 02:33:14.319
your mouth relaxing, calm and lease. As you focus now

1240
02:33:15.159 --> 02:33:22.239
on your jaw, just the parts of your jaw ney,

1241
02:33:22.399 --> 02:33:26.799
your mouth, and your chin, but all the way up

1242
02:33:27.559 --> 02:33:30.159
the size of your face to.

1243
02:33:30.239 --> 02:33:38.440
Your ears, the hole of your jaw, feeding.

1244
02:33:42.239 --> 02:33:44.680
More relaxed.

1245
02:33:48.000 --> 02:33:48.879
And calm.

1246
02:33:57.079 --> 02:34:06.159
Focusing on your neck, the front of your neck and

1247
02:34:06.280 --> 02:34:19.280
your throat relaxing and loose and calm. The side of

1248
02:34:19.399 --> 02:34:28.319
your neck, the right left side of your neck, relax

1249
02:34:28.840 --> 02:34:44.079
and loose and calm. And now the back of your neck,

1250
02:34:47.360 --> 02:34:57.360
focusing on the back of your neck, letting go of

1251
02:34:57.559 --> 02:35:04.879
any tension that may be there before, and enjoying that

1252
02:35:07.559 --> 02:35:18.680
sense of increasing comfort and release. Then you can experience

1253
02:35:19.840 --> 02:35:29.360
in the back of your neck, moving down your back

1254
02:35:31.840 --> 02:35:36.520
and moving either side of your spine right from the

1255
02:35:36.680 --> 02:35:42.000
top of your back all the way down to the

1256
02:35:42.120 --> 02:35:59.799
bottom of your back down it's your lower back jim

1257
02:36:00.399 --> 02:36:08.079
up and down your spine. You can feel the muscles

1258
02:36:09.120 --> 02:36:22.840
either side of your spine relaxing even more, and as

1259
02:36:22.879 --> 02:36:30.040
those muscles relax that sense of comfort starts to spread

1260
02:36:31.639 --> 02:36:40.000
outwards from your spine into both sides of your back,

1261
02:36:43.760 --> 02:36:47.479
the top of your back, the middle end your lower back.

1262
02:36:51.000 --> 02:36:58.120
And as you scan gently and slowly up and down

1263
02:36:58.360 --> 02:37:03.360
your back, there's the muscles in the top of your

1264
02:37:03.520 --> 02:37:13.440
back relax and become looser. The muscles in the middle

1265
02:37:13.479 --> 02:37:20.799
of your back also seem to just almost divide from

1266
02:37:20.879 --> 02:37:34.280
each other, separating and almost melting. And in your lower

1267
02:37:34.360 --> 02:37:45.879
back there seems to be an extra special feeling of comfort.

1268
02:37:51.200 --> 02:37:57.319
The spreads into your hips. Sit down your lower back,

1269
02:37:57.639 --> 02:38:05.639
into your hips, into the area where your cosix are,

1270
02:38:09.200 --> 02:38:15.920
and into your buttocks and allise muscles that spread.

1271
02:38:18.120 --> 02:38:23.159
Bring your lower back into your hip area.

1272
02:38:25.920 --> 02:38:42.399
Start to melt, start to reading, let go, and you

1273
02:38:42.680 --> 02:38:49.360
know where about to focus on your shoulders. Your back

1274
02:38:49.680 --> 02:39:00.120
and your spine will continue to let go, continue you

1275
02:39:00.600 --> 02:39:15.440
to relax so calmly, and as you focus on your shoulders,

1276
02:39:17.239 --> 02:39:33.319
you may notice they're already feeding, really loose, They're already

1277
02:39:36.360 --> 02:39:59.520
feeding calm. The feeling those muscles the move from your

1278
02:39:59.680 --> 02:40:19.079
neck into your shoulders feels so soft and gentle, so

1279
02:40:19.559 --> 02:40:48.479
smooth and calm, and the feeling in your shoulders seems

1280
02:40:48.799 --> 02:40:56.440
to spread deep into your shoulders, a sense of relaxation,

1281
02:40:57.680 --> 02:41:09.159
not just traveling deeply into your muscles, but also relaxing

1282
02:41:12.040 --> 02:41:21.920
the bones and moving all the way to underneath your arms,

1283
02:41:24.760 --> 02:41:30.680
relaxing a whole area between the tops of your shoulders

1284
02:41:32.040 --> 02:41:49.760
and underneath your arms healing. You feel so relaxed and

1285
02:41:50.040 --> 02:42:05.639
comfortable in your shoulders, which sense that deep healing message

1286
02:42:10.959 --> 02:42:20.159
into your arms. You may feel.

1287
02:42:21.639 --> 02:42:26.680
Almost as if your arms are not even that, because

1288
02:42:26.799 --> 02:42:27.600
they're so.

1289
02:42:28.440 --> 02:42:42.760
Relaxed, so deeply relaxed, so.

1290
02:42:47.840 --> 02:43:10.520
Calm, so loose.

1291
02:43:17.879 --> 02:43:24.239
That feels spreading all way down.

1292
02:43:24.280 --> 02:43:25.479
Your arms.

1293
02:43:27.920 --> 02:43:57.959
To elbows, including your elbows, circumfort spreads your way into wrists,

1294
02:44:00.799 --> 02:44:18.319
your form snder wrists so heavy at the same time

1295
02:44:25.959 --> 02:44:56.840
sunlight and gentle fuy sent.

1296
02:44:59.040 --> 02:45:26.680
Now your hands, your hands.

1297
02:45:32.680 --> 02:45:57.319
So peaceful in your hands with a sense of.

1298
02:46:00.799 --> 02:46:02.239
Real pace.

1299
02:46:14.040 --> 02:46:23.879
It just seems to feel so familiar.

1300
02:46:26.639 --> 02:46:30.799
When your hands relax deeply.

1301
02:46:39.920 --> 02:48:35.840
Else your fingers. It's you think it tips maving your

1302
02:48:35.920 --> 02:49:05.600
attention to front, to your body so comfortable like man.

1303
02:49:05.799 --> 02:50:55.479
You focus les like musculs in your fis nimes, relaxed

1304
02:51:23.239 --> 02:53:45.799
calf muscles, shades, the feathing fats, sir piece home circolm

1305
02:53:51.639 --> 02:54:55.000
sick pieceful com s peaceful, sycom so peace f sner

1306
02:55:00.079 --> 02:55:01.879
pace four.

1307
02:55:05.200 --> 02:55:06.600
S calm.

1308
02:55:14.319 --> 02:55:21.840
Out of that deep relaxation to spread your chest and storm.

1309
02:55:35.000 --> 02:55:53.760
Let's me go everything. So I'm gonna start counting down

1310
02:55:53.879 --> 02:56:05.319
now from twenty down to one. You can imagine in

1311
02:56:05.399 --> 02:56:11.000
a way it's like just walking down some steps and

1312
02:56:11.120 --> 02:56:16.600
each step or twenty steps, and each step represents a

1313
02:56:16.879 --> 02:56:30.440
level of comfort, each step represents a deepening of that comfort,

1314
02:56:37.079 --> 02:56:43.239
and the furvies you walk down those steps deeper and

1315
02:56:43.440 --> 02:59:27.200
more relaxed you feel. So starting with number twenty twenty, nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen.

1316
03:00:42.040 --> 03:03:33.000
Three fourhhhhhhhhhhh four too well.

1317
03:05:20.479 --> 03:07:51.399
Nohhhhhhhhh eight.

1318
03:08:50.840 --> 03:12:06.040
Siven six five us.

1319
03:13:03.040 --> 03:15:03.159
Four the.

1320
03:15:06.079 --> 03:15:34.520
Us.

1321
03:17:31.520 --> 03:17:48.559
Now, as you focus on your lives, We're gonna count

1322
03:17:48.680 --> 03:18:00.479
down from ten down to one, focusing just on your eyes,

1323
03:18:04.239 --> 03:18:12.760
your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your eye walls themselves,

1324
03:18:14.280 --> 03:18:31.319
our whole area that makes up your eye. And as

1325
03:18:31.399 --> 03:18:39.920
we count down from ten down to one, whilst focusing

1326
03:18:40.200 --> 03:18:55.559
on your eyes, you become twice is relaxed with each

1327
03:18:56.000 --> 03:19:08.440
number counting down that you may find the all you

1328
03:19:08.719 --> 03:19:10.440
want to do is just.

1329
03:19:12.440 --> 03:19:22.959
Drift off to sleep. And if that's what you want, then.

1330
03:19:23.040 --> 03:19:36.319
Just allow yourself to do that. Now, focusing on your eyes.

1331
03:19:38.479 --> 03:19:43.840
You're going to begin counting down from ten down to

1332
03:19:44.040 --> 03:22:42.280
one right now, ten nine eighth.

1333
03:23:56.440 --> 03:25:00.879
I INSTI.

1334
03:25:07.520 --> 03:26:21.760
Four three.

1335
03:27:01.120 --> 03:29:01.959
One, So.

1336
03:29:10.399 --> 03:29:24.120
Counting down from ten to one ten nine eight seven, six,

1337
03:29:26.319 --> 03:29:32.719
five four three.

1338
03:29:35.319 --> 03:29:38.440
Two one.

1339
03:29:45.440 --> 03:29:48.360
And maybe that was a bit too quick in order

1340
03:29:48.440 --> 03:29:52.319
to relax. Maybe it's a bit too fast for you

1341
03:29:52.680 --> 03:30:02.360
to notice the calming of your body, maybe even a

1342
03:30:02.440 --> 03:30:06.280
little bit of pressure there, like you're counting down from

1343
03:30:06.319 --> 03:30:09.000
ten to one. Would you expect me to do? Man,

1344
03:30:09.959 --> 03:30:13.639
expect me to stick go with floppy just because you're

1345
03:30:13.719 --> 03:30:23.079
counting down. I could try it again, but this time

1346
03:30:23.159 --> 03:30:29.159
I'll go a bit slower this time, as you focus

1347
03:30:29.559 --> 03:30:34.159
on the whole of your body before we focus on

1348
03:30:34.239 --> 03:30:44.639
your legs. Just notice how your body does start to

1349
03:30:45.120 --> 03:30:56.239
feel more relaxed with every number that I count down

1350
03:31:05.559 --> 03:31:54.479
nine eight, seven, six, five four three.

1351
03:32:28.840 --> 03:32:29.079
One.

1352
03:32:40.440 --> 03:32:46.120
And just notice how how you feel, generally, how your

1353
03:32:46.159 --> 03:33:01.000
body feels. It's not necessarily even about count down from

1354
03:33:01.120 --> 03:33:08.760
ten to one. It's that space that you have, that

1355
03:33:11.399 --> 03:33:32.600
space between being active physically or mentally, just sitting or

1356
03:33:32.719 --> 03:33:38.520
lying down, just being there, not doing anything, not saying anything,

1357
03:33:38.799 --> 03:33:45.280
or needing to think about anything. So it opens up

1358
03:33:45.319 --> 03:33:49.760
a space, you know, a bit of a space, a gap,

1359
03:33:56.040 --> 03:33:59.559
And the more I came down from ten to one,

1360
03:34:00.719 --> 03:34:08.840
the bigger that gap becomes. So there's that gap of calmness,

1361
03:34:10.239 --> 03:34:25.879
of comfort, relaxation. It's a nice feeling, and it moves

1362
03:34:27.479 --> 03:34:37.399
those stresses or discomforts physically or emotionally, moves them away.

1363
03:34:44.159 --> 03:34:45.120
Allows you.

1364
03:34:47.840 --> 03:34:48.360
To just.

1365
03:34:51.360 --> 03:34:57.760
Slow down. Someone can count again from ten down to

1366
03:34:57.879 --> 03:35:07.680
one and notice that that gap widening, the gap, and

1367
03:35:07.799 --> 03:35:12.799
as it widens, it's almost like the stress and attention

1368
03:35:13.680 --> 03:35:32.760
falls into the gap. It gives you that distance, that space.

1369
03:35:35.159 --> 03:35:40.600
Now ten.

1370
03:35:44.959 --> 03:36:25.000
Nine, eight, seven, six, five.

1371
03:36:35.760 --> 03:36:36.319
Four.

1372
03:36:54.399 --> 03:37:11.360
Three two.

1373
03:37:29.719 --> 03:37:29.920
One.

1374
03:37:41.799 --> 03:37:45.840
How did your body feel.

1375
03:37:47.799 --> 03:37:47.959
Now?

1376
03:38:00.680 --> 03:38:15.920
Can you notice that the feeling calmer, the feeling more

1377
03:38:16.399 --> 03:38:43.799
relaxed as we now focus on your legs, just your legs.

1378
03:39:00.120 --> 03:39:19.920
Is going to start with focusing on your thighs. Of course,

1379
03:39:20.040 --> 03:39:24.959
it's not the most exciting thing to be doing because

1380
03:39:28.360 --> 03:39:31.000
I'm sure, like most of your body is not a

1381
03:39:31.159 --> 03:39:43.559
lot going on right now. Just focusing on the whole

1382
03:39:43.680 --> 03:39:50.040
of your thighs, the tops of your thighs, the sides

1383
03:39:50.239 --> 03:39:57.200
of your thighs, the bottoms of your thighs, your outer thighs,

1384
03:39:57.319 --> 03:40:02.239
and your inner thighs. Basically the whole of your thigh

1385
03:40:02.360 --> 03:40:11.120
that leads into your hip and it goes down to

1386
03:40:11.360 --> 03:40:25.360
your knee joints. Now, this is a big area. It's

1387
03:40:25.399 --> 03:40:30.879
a very heavy area. It's very strong, probably the strongest

1388
03:40:31.879 --> 03:40:45.040
muscles in your body or in your thighs. But I

1389
03:40:45.120 --> 03:40:45.799
don't think we.

1390
03:40:47.559 --> 03:40:53.440
Perhaps will give enough attention to our thighs.

1391
03:40:59.360 --> 03:41:02.000
Perhaps we don't and.

1392
03:41:02.159 --> 03:41:22.600
Acknowledge how important our thighs are to our lives, how

1393
03:41:22.719 --> 03:41:31.840
much they actually do for us all through our lives.

1394
03:41:39.000 --> 03:41:44.840
And it may seem sound really weird, but I think

1395
03:41:44.920 --> 03:41:51.959
that all of our body parts, especially our thighs, needs

1396
03:41:52.079 --> 03:41:59.040
some TLC, a bit of love shown, a bit of

1397
03:42:05.600 --> 03:42:18.319
the acknowledgement, thank you, gratitude for our thighs do for us.

1398
03:42:24.879 --> 03:42:30.479
And I know this may sound a bit strange. Maybe

1399
03:42:30.520 --> 03:42:33.319
you think, why am I sure that I should be

1400
03:42:33.399 --> 03:42:38.200
out in the garden hugging a tree or something. Wow,

1401
03:42:42.319 --> 03:42:44.600
it's hard to set a microphone up on a tree.

1402
03:42:45.639 --> 03:42:47.879
That's why I'm doing this indoors. Otherwise I would be

1403
03:42:47.920 --> 03:42:51.840
outside hugging a tree. I can't see the television from

1404
03:42:51.879 --> 03:43:02.959
the tree. If you moved down to your gain such

1405
03:43:03.040 --> 03:43:12.600
an important part, and I think we don't necessarily I'll

1406
03:43:12.639 --> 03:43:20.319
speak for myself, I don't necessarily appreciate all that my

1407
03:43:20.520 --> 03:43:25.680
needs do for me until I have a problem with

1408
03:43:25.799 --> 03:43:30.920
my knee. It's occasionally, if I ever maybe i'll bash it,

1409
03:43:31.280 --> 03:43:37.040
or it's aching for some reason. It's then that I

1410
03:43:37.239 --> 03:43:42.719
realize how much it does. You know, the benefit of

1411
03:43:42.840 --> 03:43:50.280
being able to use my legs without any kind of

1412
03:43:50.440 --> 03:43:58.760
physical discomfort is a beautiful thing that's possibly not appreciated

1413
03:43:58.920 --> 03:44:09.959
until it's temporarily removed. You know that's comfort. But as

1414
03:44:10.000 --> 03:44:15.360
you focus on your knees, regardless of how your knees feel,

1415
03:44:18.440 --> 03:44:24.200
you can have that sense of gratitude and love to

1416
03:44:24.280 --> 03:44:36.879
your knees for all that they do for you, and

1417
03:44:37.040 --> 03:44:41.040
you can still have that attention on your thighs. Maybe

1418
03:44:41.239 --> 03:44:47.520
notice how your thighs feel. Maybe you've noticed that they

1419
03:44:48.440 --> 03:45:06.200
are relaxing more deeply as you focus now on the

1420
03:45:06.280 --> 03:45:10.719
bottoms of your legs, your shins and your calf muscles,

1421
03:45:11.200 --> 03:45:18.879
the bones between your knees and your feet incorporate, and

1422
03:45:18.959 --> 03:45:31.319
of course, your ankles so important. Anyone that's had even

1423
03:45:31.719 --> 03:45:38.360
like the slightest sprain of an ankle knows how how

1424
03:45:38.600 --> 03:45:48.719
much we take our ankles for granted. And it's kind

1425
03:45:48.760 --> 03:45:54.280
of strange in a way when you think that, you know, logically,

1426
03:45:54.600 --> 03:45:57.680
our wrists are a lot thinner than the rest of

1427
03:45:57.760 --> 03:46:02.440
our arms, which is okay, it doesn't you can't see

1428
03:46:02.440 --> 03:46:05.959
any problem with that because we're just picking stuff up

1429
03:46:07.559 --> 03:46:13.159
by our ankles so much thinner than the rest of

1430
03:46:13.200 --> 03:46:24.079
our legs, and from a physics perspective or logical even

1431
03:46:24.159 --> 03:46:29.879
it doesn't really make sense that all this weight would

1432
03:46:29.959 --> 03:46:37.159
ultimately be resting on your ankles then leading to your feet,

1433
03:46:41.719 --> 03:46:50.559
that thin area, thin bone. Yeah, it does so much

1434
03:46:50.680 --> 03:46:57.719
great work. Supports us, supports our body for a lifetime,

1435
03:47:02.479 --> 03:47:12.000
helps us to balance, It helps you to get around

1436
03:47:12.159 --> 03:47:21.079
and be mobile. And there's the calf muscles. Of course,

1437
03:47:26.200 --> 03:47:28.680
when I was younger, I couldn't see the point in

1438
03:47:28.760 --> 03:47:34.719
calf muscles. Didn't seem to do anything. Okay, if I

1439
03:47:34.799 --> 03:47:38.719
walked around on tiptoes, then my calf muscles get some work.

1440
03:47:40.120 --> 03:47:42.680
But of course that's not true. The calf muscles are

1441
03:47:42.760 --> 03:47:52.639
being used whenever we use our legs, and your shins

1442
03:47:55.920 --> 03:48:04.920
there to protect your lower legs, shaped in a way

1443
03:48:06.760 --> 03:48:18.879
almost as a protector for the bone, leading of course

1444
03:48:18.959 --> 03:48:29.120
to your ankles and your feet. But we're not going

1445
03:48:29.159 --> 03:48:31.319
to focus on your feet we're just going to focus

1446
03:48:31.360 --> 03:48:38.000
on the legs. I realize, and now that I've mentioned

1447
03:48:38.040 --> 03:48:42.760
your feet, you probably focus on them anyway, So maybe

1448
03:48:42.840 --> 03:48:48.959
I should focus on your feet a little bit. You

1449
03:48:49.040 --> 03:48:53.479
can have them in your awareness the same as you

1450
03:48:54.280 --> 03:48:58.159
have your thighs in your awareness. Even though we haven't

1451
03:48:58.200 --> 03:49:03.799
been focusing on your thighs for a few minutes, let

1452
03:49:03.840 --> 03:49:14.440
me focus in on your ankles. There's still that sensation

1453
03:49:14.719 --> 03:49:30.040
of comfort in your thighs, and there's that movement of

1454
03:49:30.440 --> 03:49:39.840
energy because the thighs hold lots of different sensations. Of course,

1455
03:49:39.920 --> 03:49:44.680
there's the muscles, the big straw muscles that we have

1456
03:49:44.879 --> 03:49:58.200
in our thighs, but the skin on the outside of

1457
03:49:58.319 --> 03:50:03.200
the thighs and in the outside of all of our

1458
03:50:03.280 --> 03:50:15.120
body can be very sensitive, sensitive to the touch, sensitive

1459
03:50:15.239 --> 03:50:29.600
to temperature, and inside your thighs the bones, there's the muscle,

1460
03:50:29.840 --> 03:50:34.280
there's the blood, vessels, the ar trees to all this

1461
03:50:34.559 --> 03:50:43.719
stuff that's inside your thighs. I guess sometimes it'd be

1462
03:50:43.879 --> 03:50:48.000
nice if you could actually put your fingers inside your

1463
03:50:48.079 --> 03:50:53.440
thighs and a message, so you can message on the

1464
03:50:53.600 --> 03:50:56.639
outside of of course, but to be able to get

1465
03:50:56.840 --> 03:51:00.760
deep into the muscles, to be able to just massage

1466
03:51:01.760 --> 03:51:06.639
inside your thighs, message in the bones of your leg

1467
03:51:08.879 --> 03:51:18.719
massage in or the veins, just gently healing your thighs.

1468
03:51:22.840 --> 03:51:29.360
You can move down message and inside your knees. Just

1469
03:51:29.600 --> 03:51:36.280
message in those bones, but with healing fingertips, spreading that

1470
03:51:36.680 --> 03:51:47.879
healing energy deep into the choice of your knees. Of course,

1471
03:51:47.959 --> 03:51:52.600
there's the back of your you need. The inside crease

1472
03:51:53.840 --> 03:52:01.639
you need is it's a very sensitive area. It feels

1473
03:52:01.719 --> 03:52:05.760
very nice when you stroke it. That might be because

1474
03:52:06.600 --> 03:52:11.559
it's an area that's not really touched very often. It's

1475
03:52:11.719 --> 03:52:18.239
almost like a hidden part, that crease on your legs.

1476
03:52:18.360 --> 03:52:25.680
It's almost like a part that has a sensitivity, which

1477
03:52:25.760 --> 03:52:36.159
is a little bit different. Of course, it's protected by

1478
03:52:36.239 --> 03:52:47.680
your legs, so you can imagine putting your fingers into

1479
03:52:47.760 --> 03:52:57.440
that crease in your legs. Folded in between your legs.

1480
03:52:58.159 --> 03:53:02.040
You can just message with your finger tips, I you know,

1481
03:53:02.159 --> 03:53:13.239
fingertips going inside, massage in the muscle tissue. You can

1482
03:53:13.319 --> 03:53:19.600
of course field the bones of your knees, heading through

1483
03:53:19.639 --> 03:53:32.319
your fingertips and then as you go down to your

1484
03:53:32.399 --> 03:53:35.079
calf muscles, and that's the part I'd like to be

1485
03:53:35.120 --> 03:53:41.479
able to really put my fingertips deep inside my calf muscles,

1486
03:53:42.959 --> 03:53:49.760
massage in every single tissue of that muscle.

1487
03:53:50.959 --> 03:53:59.559
Healing every part, and then doing.

1488
03:53:59.399 --> 03:54:07.760
The same from my shins, massage generally, stroking the bones,

1489
03:54:09.479 --> 03:54:15.159
generally stroking them, healing in a loving way, because they

1490
03:54:15.280 --> 03:54:21.639
deserve to be treated as the precious bones that they are.

1491
03:54:23.000 --> 03:54:26.239
Because our legs are so precious as in all the

1492
03:54:26.319 --> 03:54:31.680
other parts of our body, the more precious of any

1493
03:54:31.840 --> 03:54:46.719
chub on the planet. When when you start to think

1494
03:54:46.799 --> 03:54:59.360
about your legs in this way, it can change your perspective.

1495
03:55:02.079 --> 03:55:07.840
It might sound a bit a bit silly to start

1496
03:55:07.920 --> 03:55:14.680
with the idea of having love for your legs, showing

1497
03:55:14.719 --> 03:55:22.959
appreciation for your thighs, wanting to be able to put

1498
03:55:23.000 --> 03:55:31.559
your hands in your thighs, massage the muscles and the bones,

1499
03:55:33.399 --> 03:55:39.120
and to get your fingers deep in there, releasing all tension,

1500
03:55:42.040 --> 03:55:50.639
just to show how much you care about your legs,

1501
03:55:51.559 --> 03:55:54.920
how much you care for what your legs do.

1502
03:55:55.239 --> 03:55:55.479
For you.

1503
03:55:57.079 --> 03:56:09.239
Regularly, your knees, your calves, your ankles, the strength of

1504
03:56:09.319 --> 03:56:17.399
your ankles, considering how thin they are compared to the

1505
03:56:17.479 --> 03:56:25.200
rest of your legs, especially your thighs. Yeah, they're so strong,

1506
03:56:26.719 --> 03:56:41.159
so flexible, absolutely amazing things. Your ankles are truly a

1507
03:56:41.319 --> 03:56:52.120
gift because of what they do for you, supporting all

1508
03:56:52.360 --> 03:56:59.239
that weight, regardless of how what weight you are, Even

1509
03:56:59.239 --> 03:57:03.879
if you're only eight stone, there's still a lot of

1510
03:57:04.040 --> 03:57:11.079
weight for these little ankles. Now I'm a lot heavier

1511
03:57:11.159 --> 03:57:20.799
than eight stre double dock get my ankles support my

1512
03:57:20.920 --> 03:57:28.200
body all the time. What they do give off a

1513
03:57:28.360 --> 03:57:33.719
sigh of relief when I sit down, that's you've had

1514
03:57:33.760 --> 03:57:42.760
my whole legs though. My feet, feet, als go, my

1515
03:57:42.920 --> 03:58:13.120
toes clap so happy. Your legs really are amazing, And

1516
03:58:13.280 --> 03:58:16.920
I know they're talking about. Talking about your legs is

1517
03:58:17.000 --> 03:58:23.639
probably possibly among the most most boring things I've ever

1518
03:58:24.319 --> 03:58:32.600
heard anyone say. Possibly you're boring or not. Everything I

1519
03:58:32.760 --> 03:58:48.639
said is true. Your legs are amazing. Your legs deserve

1520
03:58:49.719 --> 03:59:08.319
not just respect because they deserve to relax. They deserve

1521
03:59:08.559 --> 03:59:11.159
to take some time out of the day.

1522
03:59:13.159 --> 03:59:34.239
To just let go completely. Your legs.

1523
03:59:39.360 --> 03:59:52.680
Really can relax because the legs are so such a

1524
03:59:53.079 --> 03:59:58.600
most you know, very important part of your body. When

1525
03:59:58.639 --> 04:00:03.799
your relax lexed, the rest of your body also naturally

1526
04:00:04.760 --> 04:00:20.920
follows in that journey of comfort, like I feel it

1527
04:00:20.959 --> 04:00:29.360
in my hips. My hips feel really loose and also

1528
04:00:29.520 --> 04:00:35.040
my lower back as well. My lower back really feels

1529
04:00:35.479 --> 04:00:39.440
it feels stretched, even though I'm just sitting in a

1530
04:00:39.559 --> 04:00:45.760
chair and there's no stretching as far as I'm aware

1531
04:00:45.799 --> 04:00:49.040
that I'm doing. It's almost as if the muscles are

1532
04:00:49.200 --> 04:00:53.840
just relaxed so much that there is a natural stretch.

1533
04:00:55.319 --> 04:01:17.680
As the tension has reduced a lot. And I'm now

1534
04:01:17.840 --> 04:01:25.559
going to count down from ten downs one, you can

1535
04:01:25.680 --> 04:01:54.680
continue to fill wonderfully relaxed ten nine eight, seven, six, five.

1536
04:01:59.079 --> 04:02:11.799
Four three two h.

1537
04:02:18.000 --> 04:02:29.920
Relax. So I'm just going to count down from five

1538
04:02:30.079 --> 04:02:34.280
down to one. And as a countdown, if you just

1539
04:02:34.440 --> 04:02:42.239
focus on the numbers, just the numbers counting down, and

1540
04:02:42.440 --> 04:02:46.079
notice how you feel.

1541
04:02:48.440 --> 04:02:49.600
In this moment.

1542
04:02:51.040 --> 04:02:55.440
As you hear the numbers counting down, knowing that those

1543
04:02:55.600 --> 04:03:08.639
numbers counting down represent you feeling calmer, not just in

1544
04:03:08.760 --> 04:03:17.120
your body, but also relaxing your mind. I just notice

1545
04:03:17.159 --> 04:03:23.200
how you feel. There's nothing to do, there's nothing to say,

1546
04:03:23.879 --> 04:03:29.799
there's nothing to think about, starting with.

1547
04:03:31.280 --> 04:03:50.920
Number five, four, three.

1548
04:04:01.280 --> 04:04:07.719
To one.

1549
04:04:17.159 --> 04:04:17.639
And as you.

1550
04:04:17.760 --> 04:04:30.479
Notice the gradual letting go the tension in your body,

1551
04:04:34.079 --> 04:04:39.760
you may also begin to notice and be aware of

1552
04:04:39.920 --> 04:04:48.920
how your mind is starting to slow down. This is

1553
04:04:49.079 --> 04:04:55.639
just a natural thing that happens. It's not really a

1554
04:04:55.799 --> 04:05:03.200
special procedure. It's just natural. Because your body relaxes, your

1555
04:05:03.319 --> 04:05:09.520
mind also starts to relax, and the more your mind relaxes,

1556
04:05:09.639 --> 04:05:14.239
the more your body relaxes. It's just a continuous circle

1557
04:05:14.360 --> 04:05:28.040
of relaxation. And there's that calmness that comes from relative quietness.

1558
04:05:29.639 --> 04:05:34.520
You know, even even if there's background sounds eibe your

1559
04:05:34.719 --> 04:05:43.079
side online, it's still going to be quite calm. You know,

1560
04:05:43.159 --> 04:05:47.799
you haven't got the television on, there's no music in

1561
04:05:47.879 --> 04:05:50.719
the background, unless you're listening to the recorded with music.

1562
04:05:50.840 --> 04:05:58.079
Of course, you're very likely not going to be sitting

1563
04:05:58.079 --> 04:05:59.399
in a room with other people.

1564
04:06:00.319 --> 04:06:04.959
Of course you might be, but generally it's more ideal

1565
04:06:05.079 --> 04:06:06.680
if you can do this on your own.

1566
04:06:08.239 --> 04:06:18.280
So no distractions, and when you stop thinking about stuff,

1567
04:06:24.879 --> 04:06:35.159
relaxation automatically rises. A sense of comfort starts to grow,

1568
04:06:39.680 --> 04:06:46.319
and without trying to build it up into something fantastical

1569
04:06:46.719 --> 04:06:58.479
or something magical, this is just a natural process, something

1570
04:06:58.639 --> 04:07:08.799
that's easy to accomplish. In fact, it's almost you know,

1571
04:07:08.959 --> 04:07:15.799
the sense of relaxing completely happens really when you put

1572
04:07:15.959 --> 04:07:19.840
no effort into it. It's not something that you can

1573
04:07:19.959 --> 04:07:31.559
really force. It's something that happens naturally, and part of

1574
04:07:32.000 --> 04:07:42.200
the process of this recording and others is simply two

1575
04:07:43.799 --> 04:07:54.159
allow you to take advantage of this space. This time,

1576
04:07:57.079 --> 04:08:08.079
it's just let go, to just be here, to be

1577
04:08:08.719 --> 04:08:22.120
in tune with how you feel, yet with the intention

1578
04:08:24.360 --> 04:08:35.840
of wanting to relax deeply and maybe even to fall asleep,

1579
04:08:37.000 --> 04:08:42.159
depending on what it is that you wish for yourself

1580
04:08:43.920 --> 04:08:59.000
in this moment. As we know, relaxing is the majority

1581
04:09:00.239 --> 04:09:04.680
of the process of falling asleep. The actual falling asleep

1582
04:09:04.760 --> 04:09:11.559
part is the tiny bit at the end. The deeper

1583
04:09:12.879 --> 04:09:35.120
relaxed you become, the easier you find yourself drifting. But

1584
04:09:35.280 --> 04:09:41.840
you can also if you choose stay focused on my

1585
04:09:42.079 --> 04:10:10.959
voice and really enjoy the process, gradually relaxing each muscle

1586
04:10:15.600 --> 04:10:16.639
in your body.

1587
04:10:21.399 --> 04:10:32.600
Effortlessly and just observing.

1588
04:10:36.280 --> 04:10:57.559
The sensation of letting go completely. This time, I'm an

1589
04:10:57.680 --> 04:11:06.639
account from six out to one, and you can notice

1590
04:11:08.040 --> 04:11:18.239
your mind calming down more with each number that you

1591
04:11:18.520 --> 04:11:35.000
hear me say, naturally, feeling calm and slow, to be peaceful,

1592
04:11:40.920 --> 04:14:33.959
sex five, four, three, being aware of how your mind

1593
04:14:34.280 --> 04:15:03.079
to slowe write down, sinking deeply into relaxation, and as

1594
04:15:03.120 --> 04:15:09.840
you focus on your mind, you may notice that.

1595
04:15:11.760 --> 04:15:19.520
There are some thoughts still there, maybe some stubborn thoughts

1596
04:15:19.719 --> 04:15:27.840
that for some reason perhaps need your attention.

1597
04:15:34.680 --> 04:15:43.600
That's what you can do is send love to those thoughts.

1598
04:15:46.879 --> 04:15:49.479
Sprinkle those thoughts.

1599
04:15:53.639 --> 04:15:54.399
With love.

1600
04:15:55.879 --> 04:16:02.079
My door petals from a flower. Just sprinkle over petals,

1601
04:16:02.120 --> 04:16:09.760
feel good love towards those thoughts. To let those thoughts. Mother,

1602
04:16:12.200 --> 04:16:16.360
You're not abandon the number. You just need them.

1603
04:16:17.600 --> 04:16:28.639
You require them to just calm down, slow down, quiet

1604
04:16:29.040 --> 04:16:45.000
down for now, so as you focus on those remaining thoughts.

1605
04:16:46.239 --> 04:16:50.319
As we count down this time from seven down to one.

1606
04:16:51.879 --> 04:17:05.959
With each number, just imagine sprinkling those flower petals of love, kindness,

1607
04:17:07.559 --> 04:17:19.399
gratitude over those thoughts, which will allow them to just

1608
04:17:20.840 --> 04:17:36.159
not away relaxed deeply. With every number, those thoughts will

1609
04:17:36.239 --> 04:18:44.799
become more and more relaxed. Starting with number seven, six, five, four.

1610
04:19:10.680 --> 04:19:10.920
Three.

1611
04:20:02.399 --> 04:20:36.239
What let's you now notice how relaxed your feeling in

1612
04:20:36.440 --> 04:20:58.000
your body. We got to focus on your hands, because

1613
04:20:58.079 --> 04:21:06.360
the more relaxed you head on, relax your body and mind.

1614
04:21:06.479 --> 04:21:33.360
Don's you focus on your hands and your fingers. There's

1615
04:21:33.399 --> 04:21:38.760
nothing needed to be done. There's no clenching of fists

1616
04:21:39.079 --> 04:21:50.159
or dance and the fingers or anything like that. It's

1617
04:21:50.440 --> 04:22:05.360
just noticing and focusing on your hands. Do to siprely feel.

1618
04:22:19.639 --> 04:22:21.079
Be kiss them all.

1619
04:22:22.959 --> 04:22:31.920
But asks your hands feel. I can't by your mind feels.

1620
04:22:33.319 --> 04:22:33.840
And the.

1621
04:22:37.319 --> 04:22:42.239
Comfort feel throround your body.

1622
04:22:48.159 --> 04:22:51.280
Jee may.

1623
04:22:53.600 --> 04:23:36.680
Have already latice you mind is starting to dressed faid.

1624
04:23:40.719 --> 04:23:55.399
Just on your hands and fingers all and cheap thxperience

1625
04:23:58.079 --> 04:24:05.520
a real deepening of that relaxation in your hands and

1626
04:24:05.799 --> 04:24:34.680
fingers and more relaxed. With each number from eight down

1627
04:24:34.840 --> 04:24:50.079
to one, we've almost feel that healing relax energy spread

1628
04:24:50.159 --> 04:25:11.079
it into your hands and fingers, becoming relaxing with each

1629
04:25:11.600 --> 04:25:29.520
number coming down, eight down to one, to drift down,

1630
04:25:32.959 --> 04:25:34.159
to drift him again.

1631
04:25:39.079 --> 04:25:52.799
Started with number eight.

1632
04:26:07.559 --> 04:29:46.600
Seven three, just being here now, nothing to think about,

1633
04:29:48.360 --> 04:29:51.520
nothing to do, nothing to say.

1634
04:29:56.040 --> 04:30:07.799
Everything just feels calm. This is your natural state of being.

1635
04:30:11.479 --> 04:30:16.440
This is how you just normally, if you're aware, you

1636
04:30:16.639 --> 04:30:25.760
take away all that other stuff can add and it's

1637
04:30:25.840 --> 04:30:27.680
like stress and way.

1638
04:30:30.840 --> 04:30:31.879
I think.

1639
04:30:34.879 --> 04:30:46.879
Anxiety in ten thinking about stuff, you take that away.

1640
04:30:47.879 --> 04:30:50.360
This is what you do now.

1641
04:30:56.840 --> 04:31:08.040
You left with a your sense of amazons which comes

1642
04:31:08.239 --> 04:31:15.680
to you very quickly because ansble is just.

1643
04:31:16.799 --> 04:31:17.920
A feeling.

1644
04:31:21.920 --> 04:31:30.799
Of feeling of comfort most as if you've got inside yourself,

1645
04:31:31.120 --> 04:31:46.079
you've found a special place where everything is pasiful place

1646
04:31:46.239 --> 04:31:57.319
week in the film relaxed your sense of confident, a

1647
04:31:57.440 --> 04:32:08.159
place where can be we can accept yourself and you

1648
04:32:08.319 --> 04:32:16.920
are the place where you are trying to please anybody else.

1649
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Place way can actually not just love yourself, but in

1650
04:32:32.079 --> 04:32:40.879
some ways more importantly, you can like yourself, appreciate who

1651
04:32:41.280 --> 04:32:57.040
you want, a sense of gratitude. Sit the air around

1652
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that's also a place where you can actually feel the

1653
04:33:13.040 --> 04:33:28.319
healing energy soaking into your body. Healing energy soaking into

1654
04:33:28.400 --> 04:33:42.639
your body, A healing energy spreads through your face, traveling

1655
04:33:43.240 --> 04:33:55.759
each every single part of your body. You start to

1656
04:33:55.919 --> 04:34:03.479
realize to actually a healing energy. It's not just entered

1657
04:34:03.560 --> 04:34:15.240
into your brain, it's become part of your brain. The

1658
04:34:15.520 --> 04:34:22.000
spinal fluid is now mixed to hear the energy.

1659
04:34:26.919 --> 04:34:27.400
Not just.

1660
04:34:29.520 --> 04:34:36.000
Allowing you to feel so much more relaxed and healthy

1661
04:34:37.520 --> 04:34:48.360
in this moment, but also we start to realize that

1662
04:34:48.560 --> 04:35:00.439
actually what's happening now without healing, relaxing energy spreading through

1663
04:35:00.599 --> 04:35:13.400
your body, it's actually changing your life. That's actually changing

1664
04:35:13.520 --> 04:35:18.560
the way you're going to feel, not just now, but

1665
04:35:18.759 --> 04:35:29.000
tomorrow and the next day because your health improves, not

1666
04:35:29.279 --> 04:35:36.759
just your physical health, but your mental health. Things that

1667
04:35:37.200 --> 04:35:42.000
used to bother you in the past for some reasons

1668
04:35:43.119 --> 04:35:50.680
no longer have the effect that they used to because

1669
04:35:50.799 --> 04:36:02.479
something has changed deep within you. Maybe things that used

1670
04:36:02.520 --> 04:36:13.000
to cause you to feel anger no longer heaven that

1671
04:36:13.880 --> 04:36:21.880
power to control you the way they seem to be

1672
04:36:22.000 --> 04:36:31.080
able to before. Is you realize that you're the one

1673
04:36:33.119 --> 04:36:44.840
who decides what affects you. You're the one who decides

1674
04:36:47.639 --> 04:36:58.720
to feel relaxed and calm when you choose to enjoy

1675
04:37:00.240 --> 04:37:16.520
Noticing these natural developments, healing continue to grow and improve

1676
04:37:16.919 --> 04:37:27.919
your life day by day, includes, of course, your ability

1677
04:37:30.000 --> 04:37:44.759
to relax so much easier and sleep in. It's the

1678
04:37:44.840 --> 04:37:55.680
most natural thing in the world to you because for in,

1679
04:37:55.799 --> 04:38:02.439
the sleep is something that you've done so many times

1680
04:38:04.200 --> 04:38:09.840
in your life, and you know that you were born,

1681
04:38:11.319 --> 04:38:17.959
as we all were, with the ability to fall asleep naturally,

1682
04:38:22.159 --> 04:38:34.000
were born with that ability to just drift off into

1683
04:38:34.159 --> 04:38:47.080
a deep, healing sleep. Even when we're kids, sometimes will

1684
04:38:47.159 --> 04:38:51.439
fall asleep or we don't even want to try to

1685
04:38:51.520 --> 04:38:56.159
think stay awake. Maybe it's a birthday in the morning,

1686
04:38:56.319 --> 04:38:59.680
or it's Christmas or holiday.

1687
04:38:59.360 --> 04:39:01.880
Or something with look forward to now when I go

1688
04:39:02.000 --> 04:39:06.919
to sleep. But the more you want to stay awake,

1689
04:39:09.159 --> 04:39:11.400
the more we just start to drift.

1690
04:39:15.520 --> 04:39:20.159
And the more you fights drifting, which might stop you

1691
04:39:20.279 --> 04:39:26.360
st and drifted, the same the depot is strongerout drifting

1692
04:39:26.520 --> 04:39:38.680
becomes because we're born not just with the need to

1693
04:39:38.840 --> 04:39:47.799
relax deeply and to actually fall asleep, but it's our birthright,

1694
04:39:51.200 --> 04:40:01.959
it's part of our DNA. Sometimes as we get older

1695
04:40:02.080 --> 04:40:15.520
in life, perhaps at times we have gotten relaxing completely.

1696
04:40:17.279 --> 04:40:30.639
It's not only a wonderfully pleasant experience, it's also really easy.

1697
04:40:42.000 --> 04:40:49.400
It's very very easy to let go because that's what

1698
04:40:49.560 --> 04:40:49.840
it is.

1699
04:40:50.040 --> 04:40:50.520
It's just.

1700
04:40:54.040 --> 04:41:05.439
Decided till they go. And when you press the play

1701
04:41:05.560 --> 04:41:15.799
button on my recordings, you have given permission from my

1702
04:41:16.080 --> 04:41:25.400
voice to relation. You pressed that play button, you have

1703
04:41:25.560 --> 04:41:37.000
given me permission for my words to effect in a

1704
04:41:37.279 --> 04:41:54.040
positive only a positive way, opening up your mind.

1705
04:41:55.599 --> 04:41:59.880
To use for.

1706
04:42:01.599 --> 04:42:06.159
And healing suggestions.

1707
04:42:10.720 --> 04:42:11.360
We can have.

1708
04:42:15.919 --> 04:42:23.360
Such a place and effect how you feel right now,

1709
04:42:28.119 --> 04:42:37.959
as well as those changes that continue long after the

1710
04:42:38.080 --> 04:42:50.200
recording ends. Those changes within continue to flourish and grow.

1711
04:42:54.720 --> 04:43:08.439
That's for your life in positive, beautiful way, allowing you

1712
04:43:09.040 --> 04:43:15.439
to move forward in life in the direction that you

1713
04:43:16.080 --> 04:43:33.959
choose for yourself. This feeling is feeding the he and

1714
04:43:34.159 --> 04:43:49.119
experience of safety, comfort and calmness. This feels so nice,

1715
04:43:58.759 --> 04:44:12.919
such a healthy place to be, and that postility grows

1716
04:44:14.200 --> 04:44:23.360
within it in every day.

1717
04:44:27.040 --> 04:44:27.400
Forward.

1718
04:44:31.200 --> 04:44:42.159
You had to find them all the acted physically and

1719
04:44:42.360 --> 04:44:52.799
in your mind's act. And it's not that you're thinking's slower,

1720
04:44:55.119 --> 04:45:00.479
it's just that your mind would be less knockdun, I'm

1721
04:45:01.000 --> 04:45:13.159
necessary negativity because from now, when your mind rejects negativity,

1722
04:45:17.200 --> 04:45:25.400
from now you're going to start noticing when negativity arises.

1723
04:45:29.240 --> 04:45:43.119
You can just say stop. Stop. The negativity will turn

1724
04:45:43.279 --> 04:46:11.880
around and believe you stop, and then negativity disappear. And

1725
04:46:12.000 --> 04:46:19.880
did you notice that you feel way more relaxed than

1726
04:46:19.919 --> 04:46:35.479
you probably expected. Now, congratulate yourself because.

1727
04:46:35.200 --> 04:46:41.479
You are the person that has done this. You an

1728
04:46:41.639 --> 04:46:46.319
the one that has opened your mind up to the

1729
04:46:46.520 --> 04:46:54.439
simple faiths and you can feel more relaxed in the

1730
04:46:54.599 --> 04:47:04.680
body and in your mind. You've open your mind up

1731
04:47:04.919 --> 04:47:13.000
to the birthright of being able to just fall asleep

1732
04:47:13.360 --> 04:47:28.880
easily with the cheers. And that's a nice feeling, don't

1733
04:47:28.919 --> 04:47:32.720
you think? Who's nice?

1734
04:47:32.840 --> 04:47:33.240
Doesn't that.

1735
04:47:36.360 --> 04:47:39.000
To feel calm.

1736
04:47:40.400 --> 04:47:45.000
Who made the energy is spreading through your body in

1737
04:47:45.119 --> 04:47:45.919
your mind.

1738
04:47:52.159 --> 04:48:03.000
To spend time a special place where negativity can no

1739
04:48:03.240 --> 04:48:12.200
longer inter Negativity is bad.

1740
04:48:13.279 --> 04:48:13.919
It's bad.

1741
04:48:15.319 --> 04:48:22.279
There's no allowed entream doesn't doesn't this, doesn't deserve to

1742
04:48:22.400 --> 04:48:30.439
be here, doesn't be long here. Negativity has no place

1743
04:48:31.479 --> 04:48:48.080
in your life. It makes learn from more comfort, more here,

1744
04:48:50.599 --> 04:48:52.639
or relaxation.

1745
04:48:56.840 --> 04:48:57.400
Or peace.

1746
04:49:14.520 --> 04:49:15.759
It was nice as that.

1747
04:49:17.240 --> 04:49:17.720
Was just.

1748
04:49:21.439 --> 04:49:22.319
A girl.

1749
04:49:25.520 --> 04:49:26.119
Everything.

1750
04:49:40.080 --> 04:49:48.959
The count down now from twenty thousand one can continue

1751
04:49:49.200 --> 04:50:07.680
to relax, shoes to sleep, give me number, he would say.

1752
04:50:12.599 --> 04:50:29.799
Film two is relaxed white film the wise sleeping now

1753
04:50:35.240 --> 04:50:54.759
twenty ninety eighteen.

1754
04:51:01.240 --> 04:52:09.840
Seven six stay two nine.

1755
04:52:17.520 --> 04:52:44.560
Eight six.

1756
04:52:43.520 --> 04:53:25.000
Hrut.

1757
04:53:28.520 --> 04:53:34.680
Just take a break times.

1758
04:53:37.959 --> 04:53:55.759
That's to have the moth to sleep, to keep yourself pus.

1759
04:54:00.360 --> 04:54:01.040
To thank.

1760
04:54:07.200 --> 04:54:20.279
Everything, Thank you pass you can make that. Listen anything

1761
04:54:20.400 --> 04:54:22.200
person should tell.

1762
04:54:27.720 --> 04:54:29.000
Just hose.

1763
04:54:37.080 --> 04:55:11.119
Just thinks, thout, some budding gets in touch. The process

1764
04:55:14.520 --> 04:55:47.279
speak of fish fish fish speakstins, spec.

1765
04:55:51.439 --> 04:55:52.040
Spels.

1766
04:56:03.400 --> 04:56:14.000
Did you say sleeps

1767
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I think