Sept. 3, 2025

(music) (5 hours) Tidying Up | LMBYTS #1427 | Jason Newland | 3rd September 2025

(music) (5 hours) Tidying Up | LMBYTS #1427 | Jason Newland | 3rd September 2025
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Hello and welcome to Jasondewland dot com. My name's Jason Newland.

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This.

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What's he doing? This is let me boy to sleep.

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Before I started this recording, then he was cuddled up

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to me on the sofa, just chilling out. As soon

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as I start talking, literally, I'm getting a thing set up,

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getting a microphone put there in front of me and

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all that stuff. The second I start talking. As soon

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as I say hello and welcome to Jasonnewland dot com,

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he jumps off and goes and finds something to chew on.

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It's the same as when he's like down, because you'll

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probably end up at the end of this recording back

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here lying down next to me. And as soon as

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I say, well, thank you for listening, Remember to be

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kind to yourself, blah blah blah, lots.

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Of love bye, it jumps up. So I don't know why.

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I think it might be because you're a dog.

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I don't know.

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I don't know.

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So it's Wednesday. I don't know what day of the month.

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What month is September? Yes, definitely September, Thursday, the third

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of September, two thoy and twenty five.

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It's currently.

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Eleven minutes to nine pm.

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Hm, I haven't.

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I haven't made a recording since Saturday.

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Not really felt particularly well, not not really yeah, not

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not yeah, just not not felt great. So I'm still

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not feeling particularly great. But I thought, because the statistics

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are so ridiculously bad on my podcast statistics, I thought

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I'd better make a recording because literally, honest today, according

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to the stats right now, so far today, bearing in mind,

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there's only three hours or four hours left, because I

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think it starts at one in the morning, but let's

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say it is just over three hours left of the day.

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One hundred and seventy four downloads, So my podcasts have

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been listened by maximum one hundred and seventy four people

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in a whole day.

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Now, I'm not bragging, obviously that's really low. That's like.

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Now, I'd be pleased with that. Probably the first few months,

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maybe even the first year or two of making recordings,

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I wouldn't. But you know, I'm just saying it's like,

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potentially one hundred and seventy four people. That's quite a

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lot of people. But I always thought that maybe some

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of my older stuff might be listened to if I

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don't make a new recording every day.

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But doesn't seem to be the case, which you know,

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it's fair enough whatever, because you.

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Know, we want what we want, don't we We like

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what we like. And I suppose it would be kind

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of weird in some ways listening to a recording from

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two thoy and nineteen, for example, because I'm talking about things,

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very different things to what I would talk about now,

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and there'd be a different animal running around making noise.

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I remember this one time, I was sitting over there.

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I'm pointing.

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It's not useful, it really is it when you can't

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see what I'm doing, but see the other side of

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the room. And I'm at my table and Andre, my

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little ferret, has got a strategically placed I think about

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five different carrier bags dotted around the room, and he's

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literally running from one to the other, rolling around in it,

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making as much noise as possible, and then running over

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to the next one and making as much noise. Like

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the really crinky carrier bags, ones that perhaps you get

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from a petrol station.

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You know, the white, white white. They might not be white, but.

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They're particularly crinkly, or maybe you get your takeaway in them,

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if you get a takeaway meal or something, just you know,

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they'd like the really cheap, flimsy ones that basically you

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can't hold much in them. You wouldn't use it to

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go on holiday with, you know, to pack in all

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your gear and all your stuff in Generally you shouldn't

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be taking gear on holiday.

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Depend depends how you use that word. I suppose you

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could get arrested. Rah. So yeah, I.

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That might be weird to listen back to those recordings.

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It might even be weird.

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For me.

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Because I have started when I've started as and I've

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never done it. But over the last few months, I've

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been listening to my recordings a bit more often, just

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to get a sense of.

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What it's like to listen to me me me, and

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I do send myself to sleep, and I've noticed that,

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even if it's just for a nap, I kind of

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feel better afterwards. So it's kind of yeah, I mean

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it's not the best. Is it a litmus test? What

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do I call it? But you know, doing it on myself.

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But the sight of the garden showing that drummy, I

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don't know who that is. I don't know what drummy

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is with.

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Yeah, weird drummy. What's drummy? Maybe it's a cat. Oh,

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we're On's in London. Well here she goes again. Really

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weird because the window is open. Oh, Vinnie's just noticed that.

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He didn't even notice it. But normally that gets embarking.

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Be hears sold in the garden showering. We're not showing

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but calling rather maybe Vinie was just like slightly looking around, thinking,

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who's making more noise than me? How dare they always

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loving that?

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Wow?

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Was there a nap a little while ago, about an

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hour ago half seven?

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And he woke me up and he just stared at me,

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started licking my face and basically pushing me because he

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wanted me to get up. So in the end I

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said okay, and I'd go to take the covers off,

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and he's pushing the covers on me, so I can't

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get the covers off.

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But make your mind up. You want me to get

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up or you don't want me to get up. But

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I think what he wanted was like a little fight,

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you know, a little playtime. So we had a little

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play He does.

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This thing where he just stares.

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It's really weird waking up to that stare. It's like

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just you know, and then he turns his head from

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side to side. Sometimes it goes all the way around

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and it's just like just stairs and I'm like, what

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do you want? And then other times he completely ignores me.

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You know.

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I try and give him something, a little bit of

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food or something which I know he normally likes, and

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it'll turn his head away. I don't think I'm never

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going to figure it out. What was I going to say?

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What else?

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I don't know.

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Oh, yeah, I've been.

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Tidying up the last few days. Well I've been tidying

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up for about.

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A month.

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Okay, three years, but being focused on it for.

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About a month, and they're not they're not focusing on it.

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It kind of all started when I decided to ask

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my neighbors downstairs if they'd helped me to put my

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TV onto the wall. I already had a bracket, bought

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a bracket like two three years ago whatever, when I

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got the TV.

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Four years ago, I think.

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So they came up the bracket was too small, so.

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And I'm thinking, oh, because I had this it was

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originally well, I had the TV on top of.

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A wardrobe, but it was like I had the wardrobe

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on inside and it was just the right size to

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hold this TV because it's quite a big TV, but

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also down I took the door off the wardrobe and

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it left me with that big bit in you know,

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the space. And Andre used to use that space for

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his play area, so all his toys was in there,

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his water and his food.

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I also used it for Vinnie for his water and

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food as well, and it was just a good place

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to have stuff that you could be his stuff. And

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I kind of kept it. So I had it like

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that for years, even though I had the bracket. I

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kind of liked it as it was.

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Because it suited the situation, you know. And then more

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recently I decided I didn't want that thing here anymore.

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I wanted it gone, and I wanted to it just

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seemed a little bit cluttered in here in this room,

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in the living room, a little bit, a little bit

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too too much stuff.

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It's not really bad, I tell you.

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What I mean is I don't like stuff. I don't

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like obstacles in a room.

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If possible for me, this is my personal preference.

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I like things to be on the near the wall,

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so the area between.

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The walls is kind of clear clear I'm not talking

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about empty, but clearish, so I can get.

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Out from here.

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And walk over to the door and not have any

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obstacles and not have to walk around anything. In the

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same way, I wouldn't have a table in front of

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my chair.

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And I've got recliner chair. And before you're thinking.

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Wow, he's doing well for himself, he's got a big

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reclining sofa. This is probably about nine hundred years old.

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It's not even it's like probably fifth hand, not secondhand.

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It's been through I don't even want to know where

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to be in the past, and its falling apart. It's

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broken in fact, but it's relatively comfortable, so I'm going

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to keep a bit for a while longer.

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I've only had it, probably only had it only for

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a few years.

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Well, I probably have had it for about.

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Five years. It's ridiculous and it only seems like a

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couple of years, but maybe five or six years.

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I had this because I used to have.

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A reclining chair, which was I can tell exactly. It's

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about one hundred and forty nine pounds.

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It was.

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I liked that chair, but I broke it on the

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very first day. Before you shout out, what what did

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you do?

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Sit in it?

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Your big fat bum like OI would be rude to

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me pretty much.

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It really Yeah.

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And there was one time where I sat I was

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sitting in it and I leant back and the thing

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did break and I got trapped whilst I was doing

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a recording.

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It was on camera, but I literally got trapped backwards

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against the wall.

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In fact, I'm still there now help. A similar thing

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happened in a shop. Where was that shop?

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Wow?

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Where was it? Because I went into this shop and

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they had these chairs way out of my price range,

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but they were really really nice chairs and also kind

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of mechanical. I think some of them had like message

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and things like that, you know, and electrical reclining. I

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think that basically for very elderly people. I think that's

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maybe people with physical I don't want the.

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Right word is the correct word, that need a bit

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of help physically to kind of to recline and stuff

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like that.

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Because my Nan had a chair because she was disabled,

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I don't want to use the word disabled.

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But it's nothing. It's not a swear word, is it.

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I'm disabled just mentally, I'm not not physically. My Nan

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was disabled because she broke a hip and she had

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this chair which used to not only did it recline

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it unclined, not sure if that's the right word. She could,

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she could sit down. Sitting down wasn't really difficult for her.

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Getting up was so he used to help her get up,

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used to push her out. Coulor hands, culor hands would

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just like appear from behind and push.

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Her out of the chair.

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No, it would kind of mechanically straighten up, which would

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help her to get out of the chair, which is amazing.

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I'm not sure what they're called. It's a very expensive chair,

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but it was really good and she didn't like it.

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She didn't I think.

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When she first got it, because she had two chairs

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and a little table in between, and there was a

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sofa the other side of the room. This is when

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she had the sheltered accommodation. So I should explain what

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sheltered accommodation is for people that don't live in the UK.

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It might be the same term wherever you are, but

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it was basically what happened is she broke her hip

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in two thousand and two thousand, No, in yeah, two

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thousand and one summer, and she was still she was

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living in the house where she lived with my granddad

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for many years. But there were stairs, and she went

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back to the house continued to live her life. Finny,

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can you a bit more noise please?

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Thanks?

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He always does as well whenever say that, it always

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makes ball noise.

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Very clever.

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She yeah, she went back to living there because she

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she loved that house. That was her at my granddad's house.

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It was a family house because we lived there before

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they did, so it's always had always been in the family,

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and that was her home and she would have had

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it to be her home forever, you know, for the

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rest of her life. But then she was struggling with

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the stairs, and then she unfortunately broke a hip again

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and the other I think was the other hip, and

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then I might not have the timeline correct, but I

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think then she kind of had to move somewhere where

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there was no stairs, and where there was at least

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someone that could look out for her, somewhere where there

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was someone on call, you know, someone was there most

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of the time. But she still had her own independence.

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So this flat she had, well I'm sure there was

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some upstairs flats as well, so it wasn't just for

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people that were needed ground floor, but she had it's

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mainly ground floor.

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She had I think they even had couples living there.

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But she had this flat, one bedroom flat, and there

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was a bedroom which is quite small, and it was

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big enough for the bed, a wardrobe, built in wardrobe,

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and that's about it.

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So there wasn't, you know, not ideal.

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If for someone that was stuck in bed, or someone

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that was in bed a lot of the time, that

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would not be an ideal flat. But I suppose technically

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you could just put the bed into the living room

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so there would be a lot more room. So you know,

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it depends. You've just got to kind of figure away

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around it, I suppose. So she just did what I

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did in my bedroom. Not okay, that sounded weird, but

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I mean as far as she just slept in there

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and then wasn't in there the rest of the day.

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She was out in the living room. And I'm the same.

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I don't spend any time in my bedroom other than

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when I'm in bed. Now, some people listen to this

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might think yeah, and everyone else as well, everyone does that. Well,

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not necessarily, because in.

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The past.

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I lived in many, many, many many.

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Rooms where all it was was just a bed, sometimes

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a table and a chair.

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So I would watch TV, I would live.

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In a room. You know, I'd be going out to work,

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then I'd get home and I'd be in that room.

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Another weekend, I'd be in that room the whole time unless.

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I went out. And yeah, I'm just just I guess

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trying to explain it. It's like.

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I got used to living like that. I lived like

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that for a long long time, pretty much.

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Most of my adult life until I was forty five,

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so you know, for nearly thirty years I lived like that.

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There's been times when I didn't, but most of the time,

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you know, I've had a couple of studio apartments, never

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had a flat before like this, not like this, like

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a council flat.

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I've lived in.

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I've lived in flats, I've lived in different places, but

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most of where I've lived has been in one room.

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In a house like shared.

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What do they call it?

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Multiple occupancy MBOBOM multiple occupancy property MOP MOP.

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I don't know.

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There's a certain term for it. It didn't used to be.

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It just used to be somewhere to live. How they've

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got terms multiple occupancy property.

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MOP. It's a MOP A game, multiple occupancy of mom,

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occupancy of multiple om m M. I don't know, so

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that's kind of how I lived my life for nearly

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thirty years old and off, so I was used to it.

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And when I moved in here, cause that's how I was.

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I mean, yes, that's how I was living before. Before

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I moved in here, I was just in one room

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and a and before that, I was in one room.

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And before that, I was in one room. And before that,

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I was in one room. Although I did that, I

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did have access to a living room downstairs, and before that,

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I was in one room, and before that, I was

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in a studio apartment, so it's still one room.

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Uh.

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Before that, I was in one room. Before that, I

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was in one room.

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Before that, I was in one room. Before that, I

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was in one room.

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BlimE me. Before that, I was in one room.

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No, I was sharing a flat, so it was a

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living room and I had a bedroom, so I was

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sharing a flat of a friend. Before that, I was

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in one room. Before that, I was.

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In a.

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Blame me, I was sharing a room with someone. Before

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that I was, I was in one room. There was

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a living room, but I didn't use it. I basically

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just used to sort of spend all my time on

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my own in a room. So yeah, I lived in

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one room. Before that, I lived like shared a house.

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I was just renting a room in the house.

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But I was friends of a person, so you know,

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it wasn't so much just living in one room.

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Before that, I was living in one room for four years.

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And then before that, I was living in one room.

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There's quite a few rooms. Yeah, before I was living

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in one room.

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Before that, I had a studio, little studio thing, so

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it was one room. So yeah, and before that, I

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was in a room, but I could use living room.

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So I stayed at my dad's before that. It was

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his previous house as well, So again I had a

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bedroom and it was only for a few couple of months,

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about three months, and I stayed there, but I could

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use the living room. So I kind of wasn't really

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stuck to one room. But I did used to do

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that because I've watched TV and stuff so when I

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was working. So yeah, before that, I'm doing quite well.

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I'm going back to all different rooms. So before that

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I was living oh oh yeah, I was in London,

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so again, so I was in one room. Before that,

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I was.

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Just staying with someone temporarily on the couch. Before that,

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I was living.

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It was a weird setup because me and a friend

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rented two rooms. I had one room, he had the

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other room. And this was in a house.

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And I had the bedroom and he had the living room,

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or we used his bedroom as.

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A living room.

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I don't know.

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It's kind of a strange setup.

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But previously that I was living, I was living in

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a room with him.

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There was two beds, so I was.

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Sharing a room, sharing a room. I'll be honest with you,

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I don't know how many should do it, but yeah

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I did. I shared a room for it wasn't long.

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It was I don't think it was more much more

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than a month or so. Before that, I had.

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A room, one room, but that room that we shared

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up just one room. So yeah, and before that I

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was in this one room. And before that I was

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just in Well I'm just gonna figure this one out.

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I moved from there, whether they moved her there from

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oh do lu do do do?

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I can't remember.

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Oh, okay, Yeah, I was sharing. I was living in

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someone's flat. I was sleeping on the floor while a

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little basically cushions made from the sofa.

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From the sofa cushions, So.

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It wasn't really a home as such, and before that,

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I was living in a room.

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And before that, this is very repetitive, isn't it.

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Before that, now this isn't This isn't the same, This

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isn't organized correctly.

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Wait a minute, before that, before that?

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Before? Where was I?

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Before that?

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I'm losing track of where I am now, okay on, yeah, yeah,

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that's weird.

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Well fair enough, So before that I was in a room.

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And then because yeah, I went to Spain for the

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day and then got kicked out there.

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So before yeah, so before that place, I was living

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at my dad's for a little while for a couple

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of months. And before that I was living in a room.

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Before that, I was living in a room, And before

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that I was living in a flat above.

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The co op supermarket.

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That was what nineteen eighty eight, and I had a room.

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I mean there was s I've always I spent most

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of the time in my room, but there was a

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there was a living room there as well.

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I sort of a TV and stuff.

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But I've always kind of preferred to just be on

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me own anyway, So that would be I.

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Thought I quite liked living there. Well, it was handy

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cause it was downstairs the walk.

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In fact, I think I was later, I was getting

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getting to work later than I was before.

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Yeah, And then going back I was Yeah.

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Then before that I was living at my dad's again

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for a little while. The I'm going backwards and I wow.

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Then before that, I was living at.

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The chip shop, so I had my own flat.

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I've could have missed.

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I've missed some of the things out but it's fine.

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And then before that, I can't remember every single place.

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I've moved around so many. Oh, I've missed the whole

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I've missed the chunk out. There was another place I

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lived in a council flat. This was a few years back,

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and I had a room.

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It was weird. It was quite a sad story. But

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I want to tell you the whole story.

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But it was Jim, my friend Jim who I worked with,

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and he just said, you want to move in. Lovely man,

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really lovely. I really got on well with.

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Him and I worked with him for a little while.

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And then I didn't see him for Yeah, I didn't

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see him probably just a couple of weeks. I didn't

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see him because of something that happened at work. And

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then I see him outside of work and he's like saying, well,

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things aren't going so well and he's wants to try

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and rent his room out. So I thought, well, i'll

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help him out. He's helping me out as well. And yes,

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I moved into his council flat. Spent most of my

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time in the room when I wasn't working. But I

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didn't have to. You know, I could have gone, well

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I did. I always went and said low to him.

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I didn't. The thing is he was he liked to drink,

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but he was he was. He was a nice person,

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whether sober or drunk.

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He was just just a really nice person.

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And but I didn't back then, I never drunk alcohol, Yeah,

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cause I was what was I um bum ba bum

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bum bum.

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I was nineteen. Yeah, I was nineteen at the time.

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I didn't didn't never still a teenager. I didn't just drink,

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just didn't drink. It wasn't wasn't something I did.

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And then.

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Yeah, So going back even further to the chip shop,

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I lived above the chip shop, so I did have

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my own.

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Living room. So I had a bedroom, living room, kitchen,

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and bathroom.

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Had to share the bathroom with the public, the customers

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from downstairs, which wasn't.

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Ideal, and.

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Eventually I moved pretty much everything into the living room

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and I just it's weird. So I ended up just

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sleeping on the floor. I sold everything, I dozed. It's

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one of those things.

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I ended up with nothing but a few tapes to

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listen to, Michael Jackson tapes and a few little bit

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of clothing and.

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That was it.

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And then before that, I was sleeping on the floor.

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Well it was a little camper bed in another council

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flat where I.

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Yeah, that was when I was.

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Fifteen, and then I turned sixteen, so I was there

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from what kind of I don't know, early summertime and

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March the next year, so nineteen eighty seven, and I

495
00:39:07.800 --> 00:39:14.440
just basically slept in the living room. So I mean, technically,

496
00:39:14.480 --> 00:39:18.000
you know, I did have a TV in my room,

497
00:39:18.360 --> 00:39:23.639
but unfortunately, when I turned it on, my step mother's

498
00:39:23.880 --> 00:39:28.400
or my step grandmother, my step mother's mother would come

499
00:39:28.400 --> 00:39:33.400
in and turn it off, which wasn't ideal because you know,

500
00:39:33.440 --> 00:39:36.199
I'd bear in my mind, I was what fifteen years old,

501
00:39:36.360 --> 00:39:42.079
sixteen years old, and I just got back from work,

502
00:39:42.159 --> 00:39:43.559
didn't finish work from nine.

503
00:39:44.199 --> 00:39:46.679
I'll get back from work and then we're going to bed,

504
00:39:48.159 --> 00:39:50.000
and I want.

505
00:39:49.880 --> 00:39:50.639
To watch some TV.

506
00:39:56.400 --> 00:40:00.440
So I mean, maybe I had the TV on too loud.

507
00:40:01.039 --> 00:40:04.880
Well I'll keep getting told I did. But she would

508
00:40:04.920 --> 00:40:09.559
just walking and just turn it off. It was like, really, wow,

509
00:40:10.679 --> 00:40:16.159
it was Yeah, it's not easy, but then it wouldn't

510
00:40:16.159 --> 00:40:18.000
have been easy for her. She was used to living

511
00:40:18.039 --> 00:40:19.760
on her own, so.

512
00:40:21.559 --> 00:40:25.719
Well, yeah, she was used to living on her own,

513
00:40:26.440 --> 00:40:29.760
so it must have been weird having me there.

514
00:40:31.320 --> 00:40:33.559
And then before that, I.

515
00:40:33.559 --> 00:40:36.760
Was living in a room, but I was living in

516
00:40:36.760 --> 00:40:41.599
a room at the top of this right at the

517
00:40:41.599 --> 00:40:45.360
top of the house. This is the family house, the

518
00:40:45.480 --> 00:40:52.320
new Land family House, and we were there from nineteen

519
00:40:54.880 --> 00:41:02.679
seventy nine till nineteen eighty six, so they're seven years

520
00:41:04.519 --> 00:41:10.280
and so I was in the room at the top

521
00:41:10.320 --> 00:41:15.039
of the bit of the top of the building. I

522
00:41:15.079 --> 00:41:18.480
had a TV for the last year I've lived there,

523
00:41:19.960 --> 00:41:20.800
probably about a year.

524
00:41:21.800 --> 00:41:22.039
Oh.

525
00:41:22.079 --> 00:41:23.599
Now, I fell in love with that TV.

526
00:41:24.960 --> 00:41:28.599
It was so obviously it changed my change my life

527
00:41:29.000 --> 00:41:32.840
just being able to watch for the first time, not

528
00:41:32.920 --> 00:41:34.800
the first time, because I could watch what I wanted

529
00:41:34.840 --> 00:41:38.199
on TV provided there was no one else in the house,

530
00:41:38.440 --> 00:41:43.039
you know, and that was rare. The only programs I

531
00:41:43.079 --> 00:41:47.119
got to watch that I wanted to watch on The

532
00:41:47.159 --> 00:41:57.639
main television in the living room was generally the kids programs.

533
00:41:57.480 --> 00:41:59.639
Because both my brothers were older than me and they

534
00:41:59.639 --> 00:42:01.280
didn't want to watch that stuff anymore.

535
00:42:03.719 --> 00:42:06.880
So I was able to watch that. And then my

536
00:42:06.920 --> 00:42:09.280
little brother was old enough and he wanted to watch

537
00:42:09.320 --> 00:42:11.920
the same stuff, and I'd end up watching it with him,

538
00:42:12.360 --> 00:42:18.039
things like Musket Hounds and I don't know, I can't

539
00:42:18.039 --> 00:42:22.599
remember different Muppet babies, things like that, and then.

540
00:42:26.719 --> 00:42:28.840
Yeah, what was it? Terror Hawks?

541
00:42:28.920 --> 00:42:29.880
Wasn't that one as well?

542
00:42:30.760 --> 00:42:41.320
Terror Hawks? He Man? Danger Mouse? Mini Mouse?

543
00:42:41.480 --> 00:42:45.280
Was that Mini Mouse? Danger Mouse?

544
00:42:45.280 --> 00:42:46.119
Anyway? Remember that.

545
00:42:49.639 --> 00:42:53.360
Danger Mouse? Great show?

546
00:42:54.679 --> 00:42:58.280
Mister what's the one? And he had lots of different

547
00:42:58.320 --> 00:43:01.639
gadget Gadget Man, wasn't it Gadget It Man? That used

548
00:43:01.639 --> 00:43:05.920
to be good Pink Panther. So there used to be

549
00:43:05.960 --> 00:43:08.320
lots of things. I'd watch them with my little brother,

550
00:43:09.880 --> 00:43:11.119
a couple of my favorite things.

551
00:43:11.159 --> 00:43:12.199
On a Saturday morning.

552
00:43:13.199 --> 00:43:15.880
We'd watch these and then continue to watch these when

553
00:43:15.920 --> 00:43:19.599
we moved again out of that house for you know,

554
00:43:19.719 --> 00:43:24.920
a few months. Saturday morning Muppet Babies. But there was

555
00:43:24.960 --> 00:43:29.000
the wide away club that would beyond during the holidays

556
00:43:29.199 --> 00:43:31.239
and on weekends.

557
00:43:31.719 --> 00:43:34.239
I'm not sure about Sundays, but definitely on Saturday morning,

558
00:43:39.039 --> 00:43:41.360
and I would get my brother to wake me up.

559
00:43:43.800 --> 00:43:46.280
I just say to it, look, wake me up. Wait, wait,

560
00:43:46.480 --> 00:43:47.280
because you know.

561
00:43:50.519 --> 00:43:55.280
I didn't necessarily want to be woken up on a day,

562
00:43:55.599 --> 00:43:59.400
you know, like normal weekday, but on a Saturday morning.

563
00:43:59.519 --> 00:44:01.440
It was a good started a day because I always

564
00:44:01.480 --> 00:44:07.599
worked on a Saturday. But I liked I liked being

565
00:44:07.679 --> 00:44:11.280
woken up at seven o'clock or six point thirty or

566
00:44:11.320 --> 00:44:12.960
something like that because I could just.

567
00:44:13.880 --> 00:44:17.039
Watch the cartoons with my little brother.

568
00:44:20.119 --> 00:44:23.599
And I kind of knew that that time was coming

569
00:44:23.880 --> 00:44:31.559
near to an end because he was, you know, he

570
00:44:31.719 --> 00:44:34.159
was heading off to a different part of the country

571
00:44:34.639 --> 00:44:38.920
with her, and I kind of that little period of

572
00:44:38.920 --> 00:44:41.679
time of us sort of sitting there watching.

573
00:44:41.360 --> 00:44:45.519
Cartoons was valuable time for me.

574
00:44:45.920 --> 00:44:46.599
I guess.

575
00:44:48.039 --> 00:44:52.760
And yeah, it was like what was it the Fragle

576
00:44:52.880 --> 00:44:59.800
Rock frag of Rock Muppet Babies. And then of course

577
00:44:59.840 --> 00:45:03.000
you at the wide Away Club, we're wide a quick.

578
00:45:03.599 --> 00:45:06.000
It's good to know you're a ready and we're way

579
00:45:06.039 --> 00:45:08.880
of a week the do do let's get see go.

580
00:45:12.480 --> 00:45:17.400
That's fairly by the way. That noise in the back ground.

581
00:45:20.440 --> 00:45:30.000
Ohthough before that, I was downstairs in a different room,

582
00:45:30.480 --> 00:45:34.119
which was a much bigger room, which ended up being

583
00:45:34.159 --> 00:45:39.960
my little brother's room. So we kind of moved around.

584
00:45:40.800 --> 00:45:45.239
Around him really as he got older, because to start with,

585
00:45:45.320 --> 00:45:48.159
when he moved when we moved there, he had which

586
00:45:48.199 --> 00:45:50.360
you would probably classes like the box.

587
00:45:50.119 --> 00:45:52.679
Room if it had big enough for a bed.

588
00:45:52.760 --> 00:45:54.480
It was a small room, but it was big enough

589
00:45:54.480 --> 00:45:56.480
for a bed and toys and stuff.

590
00:45:57.239 --> 00:45:59.360
But he was tiny, you know, It's just it was

591
00:45:59.400 --> 00:46:03.119
like a year old. So he had that area. And

592
00:46:03.159 --> 00:46:07.599
then when he got to about oh, I don't know

593
00:46:07.639 --> 00:46:12.960
what year it was, I would argue and I wouldn't argue,

594
00:46:13.000 --> 00:46:13.719
but I would.

595
00:46:13.480 --> 00:46:25.440
Say probably probably the last two years of my schooling

596
00:46:25.639 --> 00:46:31.840
I was upstairs. Bearing in mind that a year last

597
00:46:32.199 --> 00:46:37.760
a heck of a long time, you know, at the

598
00:46:37.800 --> 00:46:43.679
age of fourteen, a year is It's not a quick period,

599
00:46:43.719 --> 00:46:46.760
is it. Unfortunately or fortunately, depending on which way you

600
00:46:46.800 --> 00:46:52.400
look at it. So it might have been two years,

601
00:46:52.440 --> 00:46:57.880
but it might have been less because I'm thinking seventy nine,

602
00:46:58.880 --> 00:47:04.599
eighty eighty one, eighty three. Yes, I'm thinking probably about

603
00:47:04.719 --> 00:47:10.199
nineteen eighty three, maybe nineteen eighty two, but I'm thinking

604
00:47:10.320 --> 00:47:16.079
nineteen eighty three was when I went upstairs to the other.

605
00:47:15.960 --> 00:47:20.159
Room, which means I was only there for two years.

606
00:47:21.679 --> 00:47:23.480
I got more memories of being up there than I

607
00:47:23.559 --> 00:47:24.599
ever being down in the.

608
00:47:24.559 --> 00:47:27.679
Other room, which I was.

609
00:47:27.079 --> 00:47:30.199
Probably there for longer, BlimE me.

610
00:47:34.039 --> 00:47:37.880
So yeah, I think the only reason he really moved

611
00:47:37.880 --> 00:47:40.639
into the bigger room probably because he had his toys

612
00:47:40.639 --> 00:47:44.159
were getting He was getting more and more toys, so

613
00:47:44.199 --> 00:47:49.400
we needed more space, and also because I think my

614
00:47:49.519 --> 00:47:59.199
stepmum wanted a solarium or sunbed in that room, and

615
00:48:00.760 --> 00:48:02.880
so yeah, I think that's that's what the cover. Every

616
00:48:02.880 --> 00:48:04.239
thing kind of changed around a bit.

617
00:48:04.920 --> 00:48:09.440
So what happened is our games room upstairs, where we

618
00:48:09.519 --> 00:48:14.079
had a snooker table or Paul table was it Paul,

619
00:48:14.400 --> 00:48:16.960
I don't know, but also a tennis table.

620
00:48:16.760 --> 00:48:22.079
Went over it, and I think my granddad made that,

621
00:48:23.599 --> 00:48:29.400
and then we had music player and sort of sofa,

622
00:48:29.719 --> 00:48:32.719
so we'd kind of hang out up there, take friends.

623
00:48:32.400 --> 00:48:37.960
A dance board as well, have friends up there that

624
00:48:39.000 --> 00:48:43.159
got taken away or got taken away that that kind

625
00:48:43.159 --> 00:48:43.960
of got emptied.

626
00:48:44.960 --> 00:48:47.639
So my oldest brother, who was living in the room

627
00:48:47.679 --> 00:48:54.559
I ended up in, moved and I moved into his room,

628
00:48:54.599 --> 00:48:57.960
and then my little brother moved into my room that

629
00:48:58.039 --> 00:49:04.320
I was in before, which was arguably the best room

630
00:49:04.320 --> 00:49:07.039
in the house, the best bedroom out of all of ours.

631
00:49:08.320 --> 00:49:10.360
And the reason I say that just because of the

632
00:49:10.480 --> 00:49:14.559
light and a lot of light coming in, and it

633
00:49:14.639 --> 00:49:18.960
was bigger than the other my other two brothers rooms,

634
00:49:21.039 --> 00:49:24.239
because the one I ended up in was a lot smaller,

635
00:49:25.719 --> 00:49:29.320
although I actually liked it. I liked that room, and

636
00:49:29.360 --> 00:49:34.039
then my other brother's room was kind of probably I'm

637
00:49:34.079 --> 00:49:36.880
not sure, maybe even smaller than mine, maybe the same size,

638
00:49:37.000 --> 00:49:43.599
I can't remember. I liked the room upstairs. I think

639
00:49:43.639 --> 00:49:45.760
I liked because it was upstairs. It was a bit

640
00:49:45.760 --> 00:49:52.840
out of the way no longer, I don't know. It

641
00:49:52.920 --> 00:49:54.920
was nice to it's sort of like a little bit

642
00:49:54.920 --> 00:50:02.440
of privacy kind of. Yes. I probably in that room

643
00:50:02.480 --> 00:50:12.320
for about two years. So anyway, So before that, I

644
00:50:12.519 --> 00:50:16.559
was in the little room in my NaN's house where

645
00:50:18.400 --> 00:50:23.480
my we'd moved to as a family first time as

646
00:50:23.519 --> 00:50:28.440
a family in nineteen seventy eight, I think it was

647
00:50:28.800 --> 00:50:33.519
or nineteen No, it's about nineteen seventy eight, so you

648
00:50:33.679 --> 00:50:38.400
moved there. I had my own bedroom for the very

649
00:50:38.480 --> 00:50:45.199
first time in my life. It was amazing, and my

650
00:50:45.280 --> 00:50:48.320
other two brothers had bunk beds because I had a

651
00:50:48.480 --> 00:50:51.599
much bigger room. My room was again kind of like

652
00:50:51.639 --> 00:50:56.599
a box room, and that's where my little brother would

653
00:50:56.639 --> 00:51:00.480
have ended up if we had more rooms, but we didn't,

654
00:51:00.559 --> 00:51:02.519
so we had to kind of move out because my

655
00:51:02.519 --> 00:51:04.800
little brother was living in me or when he was

656
00:51:04.840 --> 00:51:07.480
born in the August.

657
00:51:07.559 --> 00:51:11.599
Of seventy eight, he's he was in the bedroom with

658
00:51:11.639 --> 00:51:13.840
my with the parents.

659
00:51:16.639 --> 00:51:19.639
And it's weird because we're nice to.

660
00:51:19.719 --> 00:51:22.320
Visit my Name and sometimes I'd stay over and sleep

661
00:51:22.360 --> 00:51:25.239
in her house and I'd sleep.

662
00:51:25.000 --> 00:51:32.280
In that that bedroom and to this.

663
00:51:32.239 --> 00:51:39.000
Day, it's still the best bedroom I think I ever

664
00:51:39.039 --> 00:51:48.360
slept in. And being in there next to my nan

665
00:51:50.800 --> 00:51:55.039
is and when I was in there before, I was

666
00:51:55.079 --> 00:51:57.679
next to my dad. You know, my my parents were

667
00:51:57.719 --> 00:52:00.599
next to it when I was. They were they kind

668
00:52:00.639 --> 00:52:04.039
of my new parents really, But there was that safety

669
00:52:04.679 --> 00:52:08.880
safety not issue, but safety factor. There was that kind

670
00:52:08.920 --> 00:52:13.440
of feeling more safe, and I always had that as

671
00:52:13.440 --> 00:52:15.440
well with my Name. I felt safe when I was

672
00:52:16.239 --> 00:52:21.440
in her company and sleeping in that bed in that

673
00:52:21.800 --> 00:52:26.679
little room, my original first bedroom, even at the age

674
00:52:26.719 --> 00:52:32.760
of thirty nine or whatever I was. I can't remember

675
00:52:32.760 --> 00:52:40.079
how when my nan moved into the place, but I

676
00:52:40.119 --> 00:52:41.480
was in my late thirties.

677
00:52:43.440 --> 00:52:44.239
No, I.

678
00:52:45.760 --> 00:52:48.559
Think the last time I remember sleeping in that place,

679
00:52:48.599 --> 00:52:50.480
and it might not be the last time, but the

680
00:52:50.559 --> 00:52:53.719
last time I remember, which was at Christmas, which was

681
00:52:53.760 --> 00:52:58.559
two thousand and four, when I was thirty four years old.

682
00:53:00.239 --> 00:53:12.719
So so that's twenty six years. The twenty six year

683
00:53:12.880 --> 00:53:17.800
kind of period of sleeping in that room kind of.

684
00:53:18.480 --> 00:53:21.840
But you know, it wasn't that often. I mean sometimes

685
00:53:22.119 --> 00:53:27.440
I would sleep in the big bed. I once spent

686
00:53:27.480 --> 00:53:31.320
a whole week with them when my non and granddad

687
00:53:31.360 --> 00:53:34.760
were both my grandad were still around, and I slept

688
00:53:34.800 --> 00:53:37.960
in a big bed, and I think they at that

689
00:53:38.000 --> 00:53:39.880
time they were using the small room.

690
00:53:40.159 --> 00:53:41.440
I'm not quite sure what.

691
00:53:41.400 --> 00:53:44.800
For I think, And this is a weird memory.

692
00:53:44.880 --> 00:53:46.199
I think my nn had.

693
00:53:46.079 --> 00:53:54.039
Like a sewing machine in there, what weird memory.

694
00:53:54.159 --> 00:54:01.599
And then before that, so before that, living in that

695
00:54:01.719 --> 00:54:07.280
house when I was like so, I had actually I

696
00:54:07.320 --> 00:54:11.119
didn't have my own TV. And I didn't spend time

697
00:54:11.159 --> 00:54:13.039
in that room other than when I was playing or

698
00:54:13.039 --> 00:54:15.400
when I was in bed, you know, so I'd be

699
00:54:15.480 --> 00:54:16.800
downstairs watching TV.

700
00:54:19.840 --> 00:54:21.639
I still have the memory of.

701
00:54:24.199 --> 00:54:26.840
When we were packing up and getting ready to move

702
00:54:26.920 --> 00:54:33.400
to the new house and everything was moved pretty much

703
00:54:34.599 --> 00:54:38.519
apart from the beds. In fact, I think we might

704
00:54:38.559 --> 00:54:45.599
have even been in sleeping bags. Literally everything was packed away.

705
00:54:44.360 --> 00:54:49.159
To be moved. There was in all the rooms were

706
00:54:49.199 --> 00:54:55.519
pretty much empty, and just sitting on or standing at

707
00:54:55.559 --> 00:55:01.519
the window sill in my brother's that room, my two

708
00:55:01.559 --> 00:55:04.440
brothers that had bunk bits in there, and just looking

709
00:55:04.480 --> 00:55:08.440
out at the motorway because we had a motorway in

710
00:55:08.519 --> 00:55:12.559
the back, and just looking at the guard And then

711
00:55:12.679 --> 00:55:18.559
kind of it felt weird, and I was eight years old,

712
00:55:18.599 --> 00:55:24.360
but I kind of I feel it was quite I

713
00:55:24.400 --> 00:55:29.159
don't what I was a thinker. A thinker, I don't know.

714
00:55:29.159 --> 00:55:32.360
I think I used to think about things. I mean,

715
00:55:32.360 --> 00:55:34.360
I'm sure everyone thinks about things, but I used to

716
00:55:34.400 --> 00:55:44.159
just really contemplate, like what does this mean? I used

717
00:55:44.159 --> 00:55:47.239
to do that sometimes when you know, when I was

718
00:55:47.239 --> 00:55:49.079
around my family, like what does this mean?

719
00:55:50.320 --> 00:55:52.000
What we're doing now? What does this mean?

720
00:55:52.360 --> 00:55:52.519
Was?

721
00:55:53.320 --> 00:55:56.679
What's the mean of this? And sometimes I just hear

722
00:55:56.719 --> 00:55:59.960
it always saying like, especially if I verbalized it, said,

723
00:56:01.320 --> 00:56:04.760
it's just a piece of lettuce, Jason. It's just it's

724
00:56:04.840 --> 00:56:07.440
on your plate. It's part of the sellers. You can

725
00:56:07.480 --> 00:56:09.280
eat it or not. It's up to you. You don't have

726
00:56:09.320 --> 00:56:11.519
to eat it. There's plenty of other bits, you know.

727
00:56:11.559 --> 00:56:17.079
There's tomatoes, there's cucumber, there's other things on there. There's

728
00:56:17.119 --> 00:56:21.639
some cheese. You don't have to eat the lettuce. I

729
00:56:21.719 --> 00:56:25.719
was like, okay, well, you know, I have to go

730
00:56:25.880 --> 00:56:30.599
to put a spotlight on media and she'd say, sorry

731
00:56:30.599 --> 00:56:35.760
about that, and she turned the light off. But that

732
00:56:35.880 --> 00:56:46.760
was weird. So I'm trying to think, what did I do?

733
00:56:48.119 --> 00:56:52.440
Did did do? What? What? What? What? What?

734
00:56:56.559 --> 00:56:56.679
Oh?

735
00:56:56.719 --> 00:57:02.239
Yes, So before that, I can't even remember.

736
00:57:02.360 --> 00:57:03.320
I know where he was.

737
00:57:05.840 --> 00:57:14.920
Were in a house with the new parents. The two

738
00:57:15.039 --> 00:57:19.639
kids were two brothers, rather older brothers, and the step

739
00:57:19.719 --> 00:57:27.599
mom the step grandparent rather sorry, So there was one, two, three, four, five,

740
00:57:27.760 --> 00:57:32.159
six of us in this house. I don't remember anywhere

741
00:57:32.159 --> 00:57:36.280
that I slept. I can't remember exactly where it was,

742
00:57:37.800 --> 00:57:39.039
but we weren't there for long.

743
00:57:40.519 --> 00:57:45.440
And then before that, so I probably shared a room

744
00:57:45.440 --> 00:57:53.960
with my brothers. Possibly, So before that, I lived in.

745
00:57:53.840 --> 00:57:57.599
A dormitory with quite a few other kids.

746
00:57:59.800 --> 00:58:07.079
And before that I lived in the dormitory with other kids.

747
00:58:08.679 --> 00:58:14.440
Before that, I lived in My memory is I lived

748
00:58:14.480 --> 00:58:22.280
in a flat, council flat in Newcastle now I don't remember,

749
00:58:25.960 --> 00:58:29.920
and the sleeping arrangements, although I've got kind of a

750
00:58:29.920 --> 00:58:34.920
little outline on outlay of the flat in my head,

751
00:58:36.039 --> 00:58:38.920
which is kind of weird. But then I might have

752
00:58:38.960 --> 00:58:40.679
lived in more than one flats. It might be a

753
00:58:40.760 --> 00:58:45.000
mixture different flats.

754
00:58:46.079 --> 00:58:47.719
But I definitely didn't have me on TV.

755
00:58:48.039 --> 00:58:49.000
I know that for a fact.

756
00:58:50.519 --> 00:58:58.679
And in the children's homes we had a room for TV,

757
00:59:00.639 --> 00:59:04.840
so there would be, you know, a TV room or

758
00:59:05.400 --> 00:59:07.760
a lounge or.

759
00:59:07.679 --> 00:59:10.880
Something, so that would be there.

760
00:59:14.639 --> 00:59:18.559
I'm just trying to think maybe the girl that made

761
00:59:18.599 --> 00:59:25.679
me the or the lady that tickled me during the

762
00:59:25.679 --> 00:59:30.039
Planet of the Apes movie, that might have been a Newcastle,

763
00:59:33.239 --> 00:59:35.960
because for some reason, I've got more of a kind

764
00:59:36.000 --> 00:59:42.639
of there's more color in that memory than there is

765
00:59:43.039 --> 00:59:47.239
in the South End one. For me, that's just very

766
00:59:47.400 --> 00:59:53.440
kind of pretty gray ish. And my memory of watching

767
00:59:53.519 --> 00:59:58.599
TV there was it'd really be whatever the nuns wanted

768
00:59:58.599 --> 01:00:07.679
to watch, and they would sit around watching Crossroads or Emmadale,

769
01:00:07.760 --> 01:00:09.800
I think, and it'd be on it and then it'd

770
01:00:09.840 --> 01:00:12.639
be time for bed, not not for them but for us,

771
01:00:14.320 --> 01:00:17.559
and that would be like six o'clock, six point thirty

772
01:00:17.800 --> 01:00:23.719
something like that. Maybe seven, I don't, I don't know,

773
01:00:23.800 --> 01:00:26.760
but it was very early, bearing in mind I was

774
01:00:26.800 --> 01:00:32.880
twenty five, Yes, it's very early. And then before that

775
01:00:33.000 --> 01:00:40.880
any so before that going backwards from new Castle, yeah,

776
01:00:40.960 --> 01:00:52.519
so in the Council flat, and then before that I remember, yes,

777
01:00:52.599 --> 01:00:57.679
I didn't would have had a TV then, so well,

778
01:00:57.719 --> 01:01:01.920
just shared rooms with my brothers. Before I can't remember.

779
01:01:02.840 --> 01:01:04.760
There was a house. I remember this house. It was

780
01:01:04.760 --> 01:01:08.440
a terrorist house. Is a terrorist house for or just

781
01:01:08.599 --> 01:01:13.920
one one connected to another for long as the eyes

782
01:01:14.039 --> 01:01:15.639
can see.

783
01:01:16.039 --> 01:01:17.400
And I was in a place like that.

784
01:01:17.480 --> 01:01:21.280
I don't know where it was, whether it was in London,

785
01:01:21.360 --> 01:01:26.280
whether it was in Newcastle. Apparently my oldest brother he

786
01:01:26.559 --> 01:01:29.280
was not apparently, but he told me that we were in.

787
01:01:29.159 --> 01:01:30.559
Scotland for a while, so.

788
01:01:31.920 --> 01:01:33.840
He remembers it a lot more than I do, because

789
01:01:33.840 --> 01:01:39.519
he's four years older than me. Not that I've conversed

790
01:01:39.519 --> 01:01:42.840
with him about it, not for a long time. He

791
01:01:42.960 --> 01:01:47.760
kind of filled me in twenty odd years ago, kind

792
01:01:47.760 --> 01:01:51.320
of got together and he told me some stuff. And

793
01:01:55.440 --> 01:01:58.800
before that, I don't know, moved around a bit, so.

794
01:01:58.800 --> 01:01:59.960
I didn't have.

795
01:02:02.559 --> 01:02:05.960
I lived in one room most of the time as

796
01:02:06.000 --> 01:02:07.000
an adult.

797
01:02:10.199 --> 01:02:12.760
As a kid, I suppose, you know, it's just standard

798
01:02:12.800 --> 01:02:15.760
living in a room, either with my brothers or sharing

799
01:02:15.800 --> 01:02:19.480
a room with other kids. But I didn't have my

800
01:02:19.480 --> 01:02:25.800
own room until I was seven eight sorry, no seven,

801
01:02:30.519 --> 01:02:32.519
Yeah it was it was before I was, just before

802
01:02:32.559 --> 01:02:35.159
I was eight. So yeah, that's when I got my

803
01:02:35.199 --> 01:02:42.920
first room. Yeah, my first room. I loved it. I love, love,

804
01:02:43.000 --> 01:02:48.800
love loved it. I so loved it. I loved that house.

805
01:02:50.800 --> 01:02:53.559
I did just everything about it. It was just great.

806
01:02:54.639 --> 01:03:00.800
It was brand new. There was nothing to do, you know.

807
01:03:01.000 --> 01:03:04.320
I mean when we moved to the next house, which

808
01:03:04.480 --> 01:03:09.440
was this big, old derelict partl of Puss, and.

809
01:03:10.840 --> 01:03:11.360
It was.

810
01:03:13.000 --> 01:03:16.519
A dure upper as it were, and that was horrible.

811
01:03:16.639 --> 01:03:18.239
Like I didn't it's like it was.

812
01:03:18.280 --> 01:03:25.440
Permanently in us, like being rebuilt, Like there was always

813
01:03:25.480 --> 01:03:30.559
at least one room that was being redecorated, it seemed.

814
01:03:32.159 --> 01:03:38.599
And yeah, all the garden, and it's okay because that's

815
01:03:38.639 --> 01:03:41.480
something my dad used to enjoy doing, but none of

816
01:03:41.559 --> 01:03:41.920
us did.

817
01:03:43.480 --> 01:03:47.320
It's you know, it's just everyone's.

818
01:03:46.880 --> 01:03:50.639
Got their own hobbies and their own likes, and I

819
01:03:50.639 --> 01:03:55.519
guess it was frustrating for him being in this new build,

820
01:03:55.599 --> 01:03:59.039
this little place of like a little garden, which for

821
01:03:59.119 --> 01:04:02.800
me was nice sized garden, but he he wanted to

822
01:04:02.840 --> 01:04:05.280
be doing things, and he wanted to probably want to

823
01:04:05.320 --> 01:04:09.199
be knocking through doors, and he wanted to be redoing stuff,

824
01:04:09.239 --> 01:04:15.159
and that's not something that I really was interested in doing.

825
01:04:17.199 --> 01:04:19.280
I still haven't painted this place, and I've been here

826
01:04:19.320 --> 01:04:27.159
for ten years. About how I put a carpet down. Now,

827
01:04:27.159 --> 01:04:31.639
I've got a carpet's worn out now between Andre and

828
01:04:31.920 --> 01:04:36.599
little Vinnie. This carpet is well and truly.

829
01:04:37.760 --> 01:04:38.159
Worn.

830
01:04:39.679 --> 01:04:45.360
Need a new one. I don't know how I got

831
01:04:45.440 --> 01:04:49.079
talking about rooms.

832
01:04:48.159 --> 01:04:48.320
But.

833
01:04:52.599 --> 01:04:54.239
I don't know how I got talk about rooms. I

834
01:04:54.280 --> 01:04:57.039
really don't, but yeah, when I moved in here, I

835
01:04:57.119 --> 01:04:59.960
decided that's what I was talking about. When I moved

836
01:05:00.079 --> 01:05:02.760
in here, I decided I'm no longer going to just

837
01:05:02.800 --> 01:05:05.679
be in one room because.

838
01:05:05.480 --> 01:05:06.119
I don't need to.

839
01:05:06.800 --> 01:05:11.000
So I purposefully didn't have a TV in my bedroom

840
01:05:11.239 --> 01:05:12.679
and never have the whole.

841
01:05:12.480 --> 01:05:16.599
Time I've lived there. Sometimes I wish I did have one,

842
01:05:17.360 --> 01:05:24.559
because it'd be nice, but it also makes me really lazy,

843
01:05:24.599 --> 01:05:30.960
I think at times. But it's not like a long

844
01:05:31.039 --> 01:05:33.639
distance It's not like I have to book a train

845
01:05:33.719 --> 01:05:35.000
to get to the living room.

846
01:05:34.880 --> 01:05:41.480
Is it it's not far. So yeah, I've kind of

847
01:05:41.519 --> 01:05:46.320
stuck to that one TV in one room. The bedroom's

848
01:05:46.360 --> 01:05:53.119
for sleeping. Unfortunately, it's all it's for. But yeah, that's okay,

849
01:05:56.679 --> 01:06:04.000
that's okay. Sorry, Vinnie.

850
01:06:04.000 --> 01:06:08.800
I know it's it's our bedroom, it's his bedroom, and

851
01:06:08.840 --> 01:06:11.360
he allows me to sleep in the bed with him

852
01:06:11.719 --> 01:06:13.159
if I'm a good boy.

853
01:06:13.800 --> 01:06:18.880
Basically, he this is his flat. Now I just I'm

854
01:06:18.920 --> 01:06:26.480
his lodger. So yeah, I.

855
01:06:26.440 --> 01:06:27.559
Do believe.

856
01:06:29.079 --> 01:06:32.760
That is that.

857
01:06:39.840 --> 01:06:41.559
I don't know how I'm going to edit this because

858
01:06:41.639 --> 01:06:46.400
everything's all messy everywhere. You know, my little set up

859
01:06:46.440 --> 01:06:49.559
I had before, because the TV was on the table,

860
01:06:49.599 --> 01:06:53.039
it was table, two desks together, the computer was up.

861
01:06:53.199 --> 01:06:54.239
Everything was set up.

862
01:06:54.960 --> 01:06:57.360
And now I think that's what I can say.

863
01:06:58.000 --> 01:07:00.280
I got my neighbor downstairs to help me to put

864
01:07:00.320 --> 01:07:04.199
the TV on a rack on the wall. So I

865
01:07:04.280 --> 01:07:07.199
got a new rack was big enough put it on

866
01:07:07.199 --> 01:07:07.599
the wall.

867
01:07:08.440 --> 01:07:09.199
And this was.

868
01:07:11.800 --> 01:07:17.519
Sunday, Friday, Monday, I don't know, it was a few

869
01:07:17.599 --> 01:07:18.360
days ago.

870
01:07:19.360 --> 01:07:26.960
And it's yeah, it's freed all that space in front

871
01:07:27.000 --> 01:07:27.760
of it.

872
01:07:27.920 --> 01:07:32.360
So I moved the tables away or the.

873
01:07:32.400 --> 01:07:36.760
Desks, and in the process started to get rid of

874
01:07:36.800 --> 01:07:37.960
some stuff and move.

875
01:07:37.800 --> 01:07:40.079
Things around, and.

876
01:07:42.480 --> 01:07:47.920
Yeah, it seems to have called a more mess than before,

877
01:07:49.320 --> 01:07:51.679
although technically I probably could.

878
01:07:52.760 --> 01:07:55.320
Tomorrow. Yeah, tomorrow I'm going.

879
01:07:55.280 --> 01:08:04.920
To start organizing the desks. Got two tables, two desks,

880
01:08:06.079 --> 01:08:12.519
and one chair, so I'm thinking it's going to be

881
01:08:12.559 --> 01:08:14.320
the other side of the room.

882
01:08:14.800 --> 01:08:16.000
Figure out how I want them to be.

883
01:08:21.239 --> 01:08:25.520
Yeah, that'll be fine. I kind of know what I

884
01:08:25.560 --> 01:08:27.640
wanted how I want it to be, so it'll be okay.

885
01:08:28.199 --> 01:08:30.800
Just gotta figure it out tomorrow.

886
01:08:30.680 --> 01:08:32.479
The logistics of it.

887
01:08:33.359 --> 01:08:35.720
And then i'll be able to edit this because I

888
01:08:35.760 --> 01:08:41.079
won't be able to edit this until unless my iPad

889
01:08:41.319 --> 01:08:45.680
is charged, because it hasn't been plugged in for quite

890
01:08:45.720 --> 01:08:50.079
a few days, so it might have uncharged itself. If

891
01:08:50.119 --> 01:08:55.239
it's still charged, you know, if it hasn't worn down, then.

892
01:08:55.039 --> 01:09:01.680
I can upload this and do some editing and release

893
01:09:01.720 --> 01:09:09.359
it like the precious gem that it is. Ooh, or

894
01:09:09.359 --> 01:09:11.319
a little dove. Release the dove.

895
01:09:15.960 --> 01:09:19.600
So I'm going to go. Thank you for listening. Remember

896
01:09:19.680 --> 01:09:22.920
to be kind to yourself because you do deserve to

897
01:09:22.960 --> 01:09:26.560
be happy and be gentle of yourself. You deserve to

898
01:09:26.600 --> 01:09:32.239
feel safe. Don't forget Q and A Friday. If you've

899
01:09:32.239 --> 01:09:35.039
got any questions, please go to my Facebook group.

900
01:09:37.399 --> 01:09:54.600
Lots of Love Bye. Relax in a more deep and

901
01:09:58.439 --> 01:10:05.800
meaningful way, maybe in a way that can not just

902
01:10:06.119 --> 01:10:16.199
allow you to feel calmer now and throughout the time

903
01:10:16.880 --> 01:10:25.239
we spend together here, not just relaxed at the end

904
01:10:25.279 --> 01:10:29.720
of the recording when it's finished and you can enjoy

905
01:10:29.920 --> 01:10:47.319
that sense of comfort and peace, but also I think

906
01:10:47.359 --> 01:10:53.640
it would be nice to have those feelings of.

907
01:10:57.640 --> 01:11:14.880
Relaxation continue for longer after the recording has ended, so

908
01:11:15.039 --> 01:11:23.880
that you can still benefit from listening to my.

909
01:11:23.920 --> 01:11:38.600
Voice, maybe in a few hours time, perhaps tomorrow, and

910
01:11:38.640 --> 01:11:46.520
then by listening regularly, especially if you find like some

911
01:11:46.640 --> 01:11:47.399
people do.

912
01:11:47.560 --> 01:11:48.600
And myself as well.

913
01:11:48.760 --> 01:11:55.760
I sometimes I find one particular recording that really resonates

914
01:11:55.800 --> 01:12:02.199
with me, and I just listened to it over and

915
01:12:02.239 --> 01:12:15.600
over again every morning, every evening. There was this recording

916
01:12:15.840 --> 01:12:22.119
from We're going back to about nineteen ninety nine. It

917
01:12:22.279 --> 01:12:27.920
wasn't hypnosis, but it was a guided visualizations. It kind

918
01:12:27.920 --> 01:12:35.039
of was hypnosis, really, and I managed to find it

919
01:12:35.119 --> 01:12:39.000
again and it still has the same effect on me,

920
01:12:41.640 --> 01:12:51.359
And part of it was the person's voice relaxed me,

921
01:12:55.359 --> 01:13:04.279
just felt so peaceful, look forward to listening to her

922
01:13:05.880 --> 01:13:15.560
in the morning and in the evening, and I knew

923
01:13:15.920 --> 01:13:24.880
before even pressing the play button, as since I've done that,

924
01:13:25.840 --> 01:13:26.960
pressed the play button.

925
01:13:27.760 --> 01:13:38.720
This was in the days of CD players press the

926
01:13:38.800 --> 01:13:44.159
play button. In fact, it might have even been a

927
01:13:44.199 --> 01:13:48.760
tap tape recorder. I'd lie down on the bed and

928
01:13:48.800 --> 01:14:07.279
then even without necessarily listening to her words because I

929
01:14:07.359 --> 01:14:14.840
had them memorized. Really, it was as if my body

930
01:14:16.760 --> 01:14:30.199
knew exactly what to do, and the muscles just almost

931
01:14:30.279 --> 01:14:50.720
went into automatic relaxation, and I remember my mind would

932
01:14:50.720 --> 01:15:02.119
slow down. Now. Now, I was listening to this recording

933
01:15:05.439 --> 01:15:11.520
in the early days of learning hypnosis, and long before

934
01:15:13.119 --> 01:15:21.159
I ever made any videos or audio recordings myself, because

935
01:15:21.199 --> 01:15:24.239
I didn't start doing that till two thousand and six,

936
01:15:31.159 --> 01:15:31.720
I knew.

937
01:15:35.600 --> 01:15:48.720
I knew how helpful I found being able to just

938
01:15:48.880 --> 01:15:56.880
let go, to have that trust in the person that

939
01:15:56.920 --> 01:16:10.760
I'm listening to, knowing that it's going to be just

940
01:16:10.920 --> 01:16:18.159
as relaxing, if not more so. Each time you hear

941
01:16:18.239 --> 01:16:23.000
my voice, you.

942
01:16:22.960 --> 01:16:34.600
May feel the same. Some people have been listening to

943
01:16:34.680 --> 01:16:44.840
me for over a decade.

944
01:16:45.640 --> 01:16:49.680
Maybe not solidly, obviously, not twenty four hours a day,

945
01:16:51.439 --> 01:16:54.920
but maybe people come back.

946
01:16:56.760 --> 01:17:10.439
Some people may be listen every day. That's something that

947
01:17:10.560 --> 01:17:23.560
I do which you may not realize by listening, is

948
01:17:27.640 --> 01:17:41.960
when I record these recordings. Now, for example, I also

949
01:17:43.439 --> 01:17:47.319
am affected by the words.

950
01:17:48.279 --> 01:17:51.439
That I say.

951
01:17:54.239 --> 01:18:03.600
So if I set you focus on your feet, notice

952
01:18:03.680 --> 01:18:10.880
your feet relaxing, I will be focusing on my feet.

953
01:18:15.800 --> 01:18:33.199
I will be noticing my feet relaxing. If I said,

954
01:18:33.319 --> 01:18:41.000
focus on your hands, and maybe notice the difference between

955
01:18:41.039 --> 01:18:52.000
each hand, perhaps notice the air in the room, the

956
01:18:52.000 --> 01:18:53.199
temperature of the room.

957
01:18:55.079 --> 01:19:04.600
On the backs of your hands, you.

958
01:19:04.640 --> 01:19:08.680
May start to notice what almost feels like a very

959
01:19:08.880 --> 01:19:17.239
light breeze, even though there may not be any type

960
01:19:17.239 --> 01:19:30.159
of breeze at all where you are right now. And

961
01:19:30.239 --> 01:19:41.479
as you become aware of your hands, I'm also aware

962
01:19:44.119 --> 01:19:54.479
of how relaxed my hands are feeling now.

963
01:20:09.119 --> 01:20:14.960
And when it comes to potentially drifting off to sleep,

964
01:20:16.039 --> 01:20:28.600
which may be the reason you're listening, I also feel

965
01:20:28.760 --> 01:20:43.000
drowsy when I make these recordings. I also notice my

966
01:20:43.279 --> 01:20:59.600
mind drifting. In fact, at times I've actually fallen asleep

967
01:21:05.199 --> 01:21:19.439
without even noticing, and then I carry on talking and

968
01:21:19.479 --> 01:21:24.920
it's suddenly when I listen back to do the editing,

969
01:21:28.680 --> 01:21:34.800
I hear snoring and I think I don't remember snoring.

970
01:21:38.119 --> 01:21:44.920
I remember talking this snoring was a pick turned up.

971
01:21:48.920 --> 01:21:56.600
That's why I sound like when I snore, I get

972
01:21:56.640 --> 01:22:10.640
really into a whole experience. I don't know how you feel.

973
01:22:16.840 --> 01:22:23.399
How relaxed do you feel in your feet, how relaxed

974
01:22:27.239 --> 01:22:29.079
you feel in your hands.

975
01:22:44.159 --> 01:22:45.800
I have noticed.

976
01:22:47.840 --> 01:23:04.079
More and more that the more relaxed, deeper level of

977
01:23:04.319 --> 01:23:21.640
comfort you feel, the easier your breathing becomes. It's almost

978
01:23:21.920 --> 01:23:42.239
like that additional muscle relaxation. So this allows you to

979
01:23:42.439 --> 01:24:08.800
breathe easier without necessarily focusing on your breath, however, being

980
01:24:08.880 --> 01:24:38.520
able to notice the ease in which you breathe so naturally.

981
01:24:53.199 --> 01:25:30.640
You breathe so very easily and smoothly. Whenever I imagine

982
01:25:35.840 --> 01:25:51.920
my breathing improving. When I've got my eyes closed, I

983
01:25:52.159 --> 01:26:04.720
tend to visualize a beautiful a field with trees and

984
01:26:04.960 --> 01:26:38.520
flowers producing all that life giving oxygen. And it feels

985
01:26:38.640 --> 01:27:00.399
nice too, if nothing else, just taking some time away

986
01:27:05.119 --> 01:27:18.800
from everything, enjoying.

987
01:27:24.319 --> 01:27:26.399
That feeling of.

988
01:27:30.279 --> 01:28:17.079
Peace serenity with a joyful heart. Time seems to just

989
01:28:18.920 --> 01:29:02.960
drip by so very slowly, relaxed, so deeply peaceful, completely

990
01:29:08.840 --> 01:30:01.760
unattached to any thoughts whatsoever. In this moment, completely free,

991
01:30:11.319 --> 01:31:02.680
noticing that your mind has slowed down. Slowed down because

992
01:31:02.880 --> 01:31:31.439
nothing really requires your attention, you can enjoy the physical

993
01:31:31.800 --> 01:31:43.439
sensations of allowing the stress to drip out of your body,

994
01:31:49.960 --> 01:32:20.920
dripping out of every part of your body.

995
01:32:12.800 --> 01:32:46.720
And being released from your brain. Change your mind slowly

996
01:32:51.319 --> 01:33:18.880
but surely, sous in your legs, relax.

997
01:33:23.199 --> 01:33:48.039
Res res so very deeply, relax.

998
01:33:52.680 --> 01:33:53.800
So deeply.

999
01:34:11.560 --> 01:34:21.760
And the feelings, the pleasant feelings in your arms and shoulders,

1000
01:34:39.640 --> 01:34:53.279
deepening each part of your body further and deeper.

1001
01:35:03.199 --> 01:35:25.159
And deeper, noticine, the feelings in the back of your neck,

1002
01:35:48.279 --> 01:36:27.720
the feelings in your wrists, muscles, in front of your body,

1003
01:36:38.079 --> 01:37:21.560
I will say, feeling peaceful, deep, There's a sense of

1004
01:37:21.840 --> 01:37:30.800
pace spreads through your very core.

1005
01:38:01.359 --> 01:38:21.239
Even when you focus on your mind, her mind becomes

1006
01:38:28.560 --> 01:40:05.880
be and slowerven, deeper, relaxing, so faery, slow, stomach, peace

1007
01:40:06.079 --> 01:40:48.600
full in your stomach, held back. Notice Notice how relaxed

1008
01:40:52.960 --> 01:40:54.920
you'd now feel.

1009
01:41:03.760 --> 01:41:05.760
In the hole of your back.

1010
01:41:30.920 --> 01:41:32.159
In a spy.

1011
01:41:35.840 --> 01:41:40.600
From your brain all the way down the middle of

1012
01:41:40.640 --> 01:41:47.399
your back, sending and receiving.

1013
01:41:49.039 --> 01:42:21.039
Millions of messages every day, deep comfort, increasing deeply relaxed.

1014
01:42:51.279 --> 01:43:27.479
Nys Reles spreading those signals down your spine or cord

1015
01:43:30.479 --> 01:43:49.359
into air, every part of your body, your shins and

1016
01:43:49.479 --> 01:44:41.119
your calf muscles, your elbows, feelings of peace and tranquility

1017
01:44:45.000 --> 01:44:59.000
spreading through your body, tips of your toes, to your eyes,

1018
01:45:03.399 --> 01:45:23.119
your fingers. All wait till you'll know about I'm letting her,

1019
01:45:25.039 --> 01:46:25.359
reatting her place to drift him mind just wondering away.

1020
01:46:34.840 --> 01:47:16.479
Happy to let go, Let go completely, let go, said tranquil,

1021
01:47:40.800 --> 01:50:02.359
who body enjoying a sensor listening God, hey nore, enjoying

1022
01:50:07.960 --> 01:50:44.840
the space, this space of peace and safety, So very.

1023
01:50:52.119 --> 01:51:26.439
Relaxed us, miss.

1024
01:51:55.079 --> 01:52:42.760
Lady letting go. Maybe we can just.

1025
01:52:45.640 --> 01:52:54.439
Focus on the different parts of your body, just to

1026
01:52:54.760 --> 01:54:23.840
notice you foolhead, and your eyes so loose, noticing the

1027
01:54:24.039 --> 01:55:43.439
sense of complete freedom, absolute freedom. Dress day, dress day.

1028
01:55:55.840 --> 01:55:56.600
He's on.

1029
01:55:58.680 --> 01:56:39.479
Energy paste to breeze such ease.

1030
01:56:39.800 --> 01:57:21.880
Yeah loose.

1031
01:57:43.159 --> 01:57:44.119
You may have.

1032
01:57:47.560 --> 01:58:47.600
You may not have noticed your mind drifted, peaceful move

1033
01:58:48.079 --> 01:59:08.600
any even more deeply in the direction of dital blissful pace,

1034
01:59:12.800 --> 02:01:16.600
blisshul pace, therefhhhhhhh te to pace, so calm, let him go,

1035
02:01:41.520 --> 02:01:44.000
peace of mind.

1036
02:01:53.359 --> 02:02:27.800
Rex bday, So relaxed, relaxed.

1037
02:02:52.319 --> 02:03:14.680
A body feels almost invisible, so the very relaxed.

1038
02:03:18.079 --> 02:03:57.920
But I'm paceful, so pace relax like God.

1039
02:04:33.239 --> 02:04:39.439
And you could start to notice that you are feeling

1040
02:04:39.840 --> 02:04:51.039
more relaxed, even though I've not purposely focused your mind

1041
02:04:52.039 --> 02:04:59.560
upon that sense of physical comfort that is growing within

1042
02:04:59.680 --> 02:05:08.840
you throughout your body, and your mind starts to slow down,

1043
02:05:13.760 --> 02:05:20.920
and that could be almost in recognition of I guess

1044
02:05:21.399 --> 02:05:25.800
my speech not being particularly fast.

1045
02:05:32.000 --> 02:05:36.439
And things just generally feel calmer.

1046
02:05:39.960 --> 02:05:49.840
Just by listening to my voice, you give yourself an opportunity.

1047
02:05:50.680 --> 02:05:56.319
To take a break from the day, take a break

1048
02:05:56.520 --> 02:06:04.760
from your life, as it is, to give yourself a rest,

1049
02:06:07.399 --> 02:06:14.680
giving yourself permission to take some time off and to

1050
02:06:14.800 --> 02:06:20.720
allow your body to relax and allow your mind to

1051
02:06:20.880 --> 02:06:33.039
slow down, which in turn releases the tension any stresses

1052
02:06:33.239 --> 02:06:41.520
that you had in your body. It's almost as if

1053
02:06:43.079 --> 02:06:47.319
the parts of your body just open up, allowing the

1054
02:06:47.479 --> 02:06:59.840
negativity out and at the same time replacing that negative

1055
02:07:00.119 --> 02:07:09.039
to with positive healing energy, which then fills your body

1056
02:07:09.159 --> 02:07:21.720
up and your mind to also starts to appreciate those

1057
02:07:22.199 --> 02:07:39.800
feelings of increasing confidence and an almost uplifting feeling, positive healing,

1058
02:07:43.039 --> 02:07:51.880
an energy that spreads through your body like a wave.

1059
02:07:53.920 --> 02:07:54.680
Of comfort.

1060
02:07:59.479 --> 02:08:06.640
And all this comes from just allowing yourself.

1061
02:08:08.840 --> 02:08:14.079
A few minutes, maybe half an hour, however long you

1062
02:08:14.159 --> 02:08:18.319
want it to be, to just rest.

1063
02:08:23.399 --> 02:08:24.359
And allow.

1064
02:08:26.560 --> 02:08:36.560
Your mind and your body to almost reset itself to

1065
02:08:37.239 --> 02:08:52.880
the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness, which allows more

1066
02:08:53.000 --> 02:08:57.720
room for feelings of pleasure.

1067
02:09:00.000 --> 02:09:01.239
And happiness.

1068
02:09:04.760 --> 02:09:13.560
To move around your body and into your mind, almost

1069
02:09:14.359 --> 02:09:18.960
as if your mind and your body are sinking together,

1070
02:09:23.239 --> 02:09:32.920
almost mirroring each other with that growing positivity and calmness.

1071
02:09:38.000 --> 02:09:45.439
And it feels nice, really does feel nice to know

1072
02:09:45.720 --> 02:09:54.600
that you are the one that has allowed yourself to

1073
02:09:54.880 --> 02:10:08.880
feel more comfort and to experience more of this deep

1074
02:10:09.319 --> 02:10:15.159
relaxation spreading throughout your body.

1075
02:10:22.199 --> 02:10:24.279
And as I focus.

1076
02:10:25.319 --> 02:10:31.039
On each part of your body, you can notice that

1077
02:10:31.279 --> 02:10:45.800
that part becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on it.

1078
02:10:48.319 --> 02:10:54.640
It becomes even more calm and comfortable.

1079
02:10:56.520 --> 02:11:04.560
Just by focusing. And as I move down your body,

1080
02:11:05.920 --> 02:11:12.439
starting at your head, the parts that you have already

1081
02:11:12.640 --> 02:11:22.479
focused on will continue to relax deeply, and those parts

1082
02:11:22.680 --> 02:11:29.600
that have not yet focused on or just automatically.

1083
02:11:32.560 --> 02:11:41.319
Release any remain intention in anticipation of even more comfort

1084
02:11:42.640 --> 02:11:53.319
about to come. Now, I'm going to start by focusing

1085
02:11:54.039 --> 02:12:01.399
on your forehead, just being aware eveness of your forehead

1086
02:12:06.079 --> 02:12:13.439
and any background sounds like mister Herbert the pigeon can

1087
02:12:13.560 --> 02:12:20.880
just allow you to feel even more relaxed. Just means

1088
02:12:20.960 --> 02:12:27.960
you're in the moment. This isn't this isn't a sterile environment.

1089
02:12:29.359 --> 02:12:30.319
This is the world.

1090
02:12:33.760 --> 02:12:39.800
I live in the countryside, so there's lots of nature

1091
02:12:40.319 --> 02:12:50.840
sounds around. So as you focus on your forehead, just

1092
02:12:51.079 --> 02:13:01.880
notice how it becomes even more relaxed. Focus only on

1093
02:13:02.119 --> 02:13:05.640
my voice and that part of your body.

1094
02:13:10.840 --> 02:13:19.119
Moving down to your eyes, Focusing on your eyes, noticing

1095
02:13:21.600 --> 02:13:26.880
how your eyelids feel so heavy.

1096
02:13:29.000 --> 02:13:36.079
Yet so light at the same time, and all the

1097
02:13:36.199 --> 02:13:49.079
muscles around your eyes relaxing completely. Moving your focus down

1098
02:13:49.159 --> 02:13:52.079
to your mouth, your.

1099
02:13:52.039 --> 02:13:59.279
Lips, your tongue, your teeth, and your gums, the whole

1100
02:13:59.520 --> 02:14:14.119
of your mouth, relaxing, calm at least, as you focus

1101
02:14:14.359 --> 02:14:21.880
now on your jaw, not just the parts of your

1102
02:14:22.000 --> 02:14:26.479
jaw ney, your mouth, and your chin, but all the

1103
02:14:26.560 --> 02:14:30.920
way up the size of your face to your ears,

1104
02:14:33.199 --> 02:14:44.920
the hole of your jaw, feeding more relaxed.

1105
02:14:48.159 --> 02:14:49.079
And calm.

1106
02:14:57.279 --> 02:15:06.319
Focusing on your neck, the front of your neck and

1107
02:15:06.439 --> 02:15:19.479
your throat, relaxing and loose and calm. The side of

1108
02:15:19.600 --> 02:15:24.840
your neck, the right and left side of your neck

1109
02:15:27.800 --> 02:15:43.600
relax and loose and calm, and now the back of

1110
02:15:43.720 --> 02:15:56.560
your neck. Focusing on the back of your neck, letting

1111
02:15:56.760 --> 02:16:03.319
go of any tension that may be there before, and

1112
02:16:03.960 --> 02:16:17.560
enjoying that sense of increasing comfort and release. Then you

1113
02:16:17.760 --> 02:16:28.479
can experience in the back of your neck, moving down

1114
02:16:29.039 --> 02:16:36.280
your back and moving either side of your spine right

1115
02:16:36.399 --> 02:16:41.040
from the top of your back all the way.

1116
02:16:41.040 --> 02:16:53.680
Down to the bottom of your back. Down it's your

1117
02:16:53.760 --> 02:17:01.520
lower back. You move up and down.

1118
02:17:03.600 --> 02:17:10.159
Your spine, you can feel the muscles either side of

1119
02:17:10.239 --> 02:17:11.319
your spine.

1120
02:17:13.120 --> 02:17:27.680
Relaxing even more. And as those muscles relax, that sense

1121
02:17:27.760 --> 02:17:29.120
of comfort.

1122
02:17:28.920 --> 02:17:35.920
Starts to spread outwards from your spine.

1123
02:17:38.000 --> 02:17:45.079
Into both sides of your back, the top of your back,

1124
02:17:45.959 --> 02:17:47.639
the middle and your lower back.

1125
02:17:51.200 --> 02:17:58.319
And as you scan gently and slowly up and down

1126
02:17:58.520 --> 02:18:03.559
your back, there's the muscles in the top of your

1127
02:18:03.680 --> 02:18:06.399
back relax.

1128
02:18:06.360 --> 02:18:13.920
And become looser. The muscles in the middle of your

1129
02:18:14.040 --> 02:18:21.440
back also seem to just almost divide from each other,

1130
02:18:22.440 --> 02:18:23.559
separating and.

1131
02:18:26.360 --> 02:18:27.680
Almost melting.

1132
02:18:33.479 --> 02:18:35.040
And in your lower back.

1133
02:18:38.559 --> 02:18:46.079
There seems to be an extra special feeling of comfort.

1134
02:18:51.360 --> 02:18:57.520
The spreads into your hips. Sit down your lower back

1135
02:18:57.840 --> 02:19:05.799
into your hips, into the area where your cosix are,

1136
02:19:09.399 --> 02:19:18.479
and into your buttocks and always muscles that spread bring

1137
02:19:18.559 --> 02:19:28.040
your lower back into your hip area, start to melt,

1138
02:19:32.520 --> 02:19:45.000
start to reading, let go, and even nowhere about to

1139
02:19:45.479 --> 02:19:52.200
focus on your shoulders. Your back and your spine will

1140
02:19:52.319 --> 02:19:59.799
continue till let go continue.

1141
02:20:00.079 --> 02:20:14.600
You to relax so calmly, and as you focus on

1142
02:20:14.719 --> 02:20:27.639
your shoulders, you may notice they're already feeling really loose,

1143
02:20:32.479 --> 02:20:34.200
They're already.

1144
02:20:36.559 --> 02:20:50.639
Feeding calm. The feeling.

1145
02:20:54.479 --> 02:20:56.040
Those muscles.

1146
02:20:58.280 --> 02:21:10.239
Then move from your neck into your shoulders feels so

1147
02:21:10.639 --> 02:21:39.639
soft and gentle, so smooth and calm, and the feeling

1148
02:21:39.840 --> 02:21:52.680
in your shoulders seems to spread deep into your shoulders,

1149
02:21:54.719 --> 02:22:03.959
a sense of relaxation, not just traveling deeply into your muscles,

1150
02:22:07.440 --> 02:22:13.600
but also relaxing the bones.

1151
02:22:18.959 --> 02:22:25.639
And moving all the way to underneath your arms, relaxing

1152
02:22:27.479 --> 02:22:32.239
a whole area between the tops of your shoulders and

1153
02:22:32.479 --> 02:22:33.959
underneath your arms.

1154
02:22:38.000 --> 02:22:38.559
Healing.

1155
02:22:43.959 --> 02:22:57.000
You feel so relaxed and comfortable in your shoulders, which

1156
02:22:57.200 --> 02:22:58.040
sense that.

1157
02:23:00.280 --> 02:23:02.239
Deep healing.

1158
02:23:05.319 --> 02:23:22.799
Message into your arms. You may feel almost as if

1159
02:23:22.879 --> 02:23:24.000
your arms are.

1160
02:23:24.000 --> 02:23:24.799
Not even that.

1161
02:23:26.479 --> 02:23:42.920
Because they're so relaxed, so deeply relaxed, so.

1162
02:23:47.200 --> 02:24:03.600
So calm, so.

1163
02:24:10.440 --> 02:24:25.319
This the feelings spreading all the way down your arms,

1164
02:24:28.120 --> 02:24:35.760
two elbows, including.

1165
02:24:36.079 --> 02:24:49.479
Your elbows. Circumfort spreads.

1166
02:24:53.520 --> 02:24:54.280
Your way.

1167
02:24:56.799 --> 02:25:15.680
Into wrists, your forments, and your wrists so heavy yet

1168
02:25:16.239 --> 02:26:00.280
the same time, sunlight and gentle frey sin now on.

1169
02:26:02.920 --> 02:26:38.040
Your hands, my hands, so peaceful in your hands.

1170
02:26:56.399 --> 02:27:23.399
A sensor real pace just seems to feel so familiar

1171
02:27:26.840 --> 02:27:58.959
on your hands, relax deeply else your fingers.

1172
02:28:31.959 --> 02:29:38.040
It's when you think it tips making your attention to

1173
02:29:38.200 --> 02:31:30.520
affront your body so comfortable, then new focus les muculs.

1174
02:31:32.000 --> 02:31:33.520
In your thighs.

1175
02:31:49.639 --> 02:31:50.840
And names.

1176
02:31:54.520 --> 02:34:41.879
So relaxed, calf mussels, shades composing feathing you faint, sir,

1177
02:34:42.520 --> 02:34:52.840
piece of so calm, ser peaceful?

1178
02:35:00.079 --> 02:35:01.200
I can't.

1179
02:35:30.840 --> 02:35:41.440
So peaceful? Scm so.

1180
02:35:43.399 --> 02:35:55.360
Peace fall back said.

1181
02:36:00.319 --> 02:36:02.079
Peace fall.

1182
02:36:06.079 --> 02:36:14.879
Calm, A lout of.

1183
02:36:14.920 --> 02:36:22.040
That deep relaxation to spread your chest in your storm.

1184
02:36:35.200 --> 02:36:40.959
Let's me go everything.

1185
02:36:52.239 --> 02:36:58.200
So I'm gonna start counting down now, from twenty down

1186
02:36:58.280 --> 02:37:06.360
to one. You can imagine in a way it's like

1187
02:37:07.200 --> 02:37:08.399
just walking down some.

1188
02:37:08.680 --> 02:37:14.879
Steps and each step or twenty steps, and each step.

1189
02:37:14.799 --> 02:37:25.079
Represents a level of comfort, each step represents.

1190
02:37:26.840 --> 02:37:28.079
A deepening.

1191
02:37:29.600 --> 02:37:40.799
Of that comfort, and the furvies you walk down those steps, the.

1192
02:37:42.559 --> 02:37:53.680
Deeper and more relaxed you feel. So starting with number

1193
02:37:53.799 --> 02:43:25.920
twenty twenty, ninety eighteen seventeen sixteenhhhhhhhhh three fourhhhhhh four.

1194
02:44:32.440 --> 02:44:33.120
Too well.

1195
02:47:48.440 --> 02:48:51.639
Nine eight.

1196
02:49:51.040 --> 02:52:44.479
Seven us six five.

1197
02:54:03.239 --> 02:57:07.040
Four using.

1198
02:57:41.600 --> 02:57:41.840
One.

1199
02:58:31.680 --> 02:58:48.760
Now, as you focus on your eyes, we're gonna count

1200
02:58:48.879 --> 02:59:00.680
down from taking down to one, focusing just your eyes,

1201
02:59:04.440 --> 02:59:12.920
your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your eye walls themselves,

1202
02:59:14.479 --> 02:59:16.040
our whole area.

1203
02:59:18.639 --> 02:59:32.559
That makes up your eye. And as we count down

1204
02:59:32.799 --> 02:59:41.159
from ten down to one, whilst focusing on your eyes,

1205
02:59:47.520 --> 02:59:58.399
you become twice is relaxed with each number counting down

1206
03:00:02.520 --> 03:00:09.479
that you may find the all you want to do

1207
03:00:10.000 --> 03:00:10.600
is just.

1208
03:00:12.600 --> 03:00:14.719
Drift off to sleep.

1209
03:00:17.719 --> 03:00:24.040
And if that's what you want, then just allow.

1210
03:00:23.840 --> 03:00:38.799
Yourself to do that. Now, focusing on your eyes, I'm

1211
03:00:38.879 --> 03:00:41.360
going to begin counting down.

1212
03:00:42.600 --> 03:01:59.159
From ten down to one right now, ten nine eight

1213
03:02:52.520 --> 03:04:56.719
zn I.

1214
03:05:04.159 --> 03:06:08.000
Us four.

1215
03:07:21.280 --> 03:07:21.600
Three.

1216
03:10:02.079 --> 03:10:12.479
So counting down from ten to one.

1217
03:10:14.319 --> 03:10:17.000
Ten nine.

1218
03:10:18.479 --> 03:10:32.840
Eight seven six five four three.

1219
03:10:35.479 --> 03:10:47.520
Two one. And maybe that was a bit too quick

1220
03:10:48.120 --> 03:10:52.000
in order to relax. Maybe it's a bit too fast

1221
03:10:52.319 --> 03:11:01.120
for you to notice the calming of your body, maybe

1222
03:11:01.959 --> 03:11:05.799
even a little bit of pressure there, Like you're counted

1223
03:11:05.920 --> 03:11:08.680
down from ten to one. Would you expect me to do?

1224
03:11:09.000 --> 03:11:09.200
Man?

1225
03:11:10.120 --> 03:11:13.920
Expect me to stick go with floppy just because.

1226
03:11:13.639 --> 03:11:22.799
You're counting down. I can try it again, but this

1227
03:11:23.040 --> 03:11:24.760
time I'll go a bit slower.

1228
03:11:26.600 --> 03:11:31.440
This time. As you focus on the whole of your

1229
03:11:31.520 --> 03:11:34.959
body before we focus on your legs.

1230
03:11:37.399 --> 03:11:41.000
Just notice how your body does.

1231
03:11:42.559 --> 03:11:55.719
Start to feel more relaxed with every number that I

1232
03:11:55.879 --> 03:12:36.239
count down nine, eight, seven, six, five.

1233
03:12:46.399 --> 03:13:29.280
Four, three, one.

1234
03:13:40.639 --> 03:13:42.399
I just notice how.

1235
03:13:44.520 --> 03:13:47.079
How you feel, generally, how your body feels.

1236
03:13:53.719 --> 03:13:57.319
It's not necessarily even about god.

1237
03:13:59.639 --> 03:14:06.000
Ok, ounting down from ten to one. It's that space

1238
03:14:07.120 --> 03:14:22.879
that you have, that space between being active.

1239
03:14:24.760 --> 03:14:27.440
Physically or mentally to just.

1240
03:14:32.120 --> 03:14:37.280
Sitting or lying down, just being there, not doing anything,

1241
03:14:37.479 --> 03:14:44.079
not saying anything, or needing to think about anything. So

1242
03:14:44.799 --> 03:14:47.799
it opens up a space, you know, a bit of

1243
03:14:47.879 --> 03:14:58.840
a space, a gap. And the more I came down

1244
03:14:58.920 --> 03:15:06.280
from ten to one, the bigger that gap becomes. So

1245
03:15:06.399 --> 03:15:18.719
there's that gap of calmness, of comfort and relaxation. It's

1246
03:15:18.799 --> 03:15:19.920
a nice feeling.

1247
03:15:25.159 --> 03:15:34.479
And it moves those stresses or discomforts physically or emotionally.

1248
03:15:34.559 --> 03:15:45.280
Moves away. Allows you.

1249
03:15:48.040 --> 03:15:48.559
To just.

1250
03:15:51.520 --> 03:15:58.239
Slow down, someone to count again from ten down to one,

1251
03:15:58.680 --> 03:16:08.879
and notice that gap widening, the gap, And as it widens,

1252
03:16:08.959 --> 03:16:15.360
it's almost like the stress and attention falls into the gap.

1253
03:16:28.760 --> 03:16:32.959
It gives you that distance, that space.

1254
03:16:35.360 --> 03:16:40.719
Now ten.

1255
03:16:45.159 --> 03:18:30.120
Nine eight, seven, six, five four three two one.

1256
03:18:42.000 --> 03:19:03.280
How did your body feel? Can you notice that you

1257
03:19:03.280 --> 03:19:13.840
are feeling calmer, the feeling.

1258
03:19:15.879 --> 03:19:43.239
More relaxed as we now focus on your legs, just

1259
03:19:43.440 --> 03:20:03.680
your legs. You're just going to start with focusing on

1260
03:20:04.159 --> 03:20:23.280
your thighs. Of course, it's not the most exciting thing

1261
03:20:23.440 --> 03:20:29.319
to be doing, because I'm sure like.

1262
03:20:29.440 --> 03:20:31.959
Most of your body is not a lot going on

1263
03:20:32.200 --> 03:20:44.600
right now. Just focusing on the whole of your thighs,

1264
03:20:47.399 --> 03:20:51.120
the tops of your thighs, the sides of your thighs,

1265
03:20:53.319 --> 03:20:57.799
the bottoms of your thighs, your outer thighs, and you're

1266
03:20:57.920 --> 03:21:03.159
inner thighs. Basically the whole of your thigh that leads

1267
03:21:04.200 --> 03:21:14.399
into your hip and it goes down to your knee joint.

1268
03:21:19.600 --> 03:21:26.840
Now, this is a big area. It's a very heavy area.

1269
03:21:27.319 --> 03:21:31.680
It's very strong, probably the strongest.

1270
03:21:32.079 --> 03:21:45.239
Muscles in your body or in your thighs. But I

1271
03:21:45.319 --> 03:21:53.159
don't think we perhaps will give enough attention to our

1272
03:21:53.280 --> 03:22:10.319
thighs absolute and acknowledge how important our thighs are to

1273
03:22:10.520 --> 03:22:31.120
our lives, how much they actually do for us all

1274
03:22:31.239 --> 03:22:41.680
through our lives, and it may seem sound really weird,

1275
03:22:41.760 --> 03:22:50.159
but I think that all of our body parts, especially

1276
03:22:50.280 --> 03:22:57.920
our thighs, need some TLC, a bit of love shown,

1277
03:22:58.879 --> 03:23:17.639
a bit of acknowledgement, thank you, gratitude for our thighs

1278
03:23:17.879 --> 03:23:26.719
do for us. And I know this may sound a

1279
03:23:26.799 --> 03:23:33.120
bit strange. Maybe you think, why am I short? How

1280
03:23:33.200 --> 03:23:38.360
should be in the garden hugging a tree or something. Wow,

1281
03:23:42.479 --> 03:23:44.799
it's hard to set a microphone up on a tree.

1282
03:23:45.799 --> 03:23:48.079
That's why I'm doing this indoors. Otherwise I wouldn't be

1283
03:23:48.120 --> 03:23:52.040
outside hugging a tree. I can't see the television from

1284
03:23:52.040 --> 03:24:02.639
the tree. If we moved down to your knees gain

1285
03:24:02.920 --> 03:24:11.600
such an important part, and I think we don't necessarily.

1286
03:24:12.559 --> 03:24:13.959
I'll speak for myself here.

1287
03:24:16.479 --> 03:24:18.920
I don't necessarily appreciate.

1288
03:24:20.040 --> 03:24:24.959
All that my needs to do for me until I

1289
03:24:25.079 --> 03:24:26.399
have a problem with my knee.

1290
03:24:27.399 --> 03:24:31.479
It's occasionally, if I ever, maybe i'll bash it or

1291
03:24:32.440 --> 03:24:38.559
it's aching for some reason. It's then that I realize.

1292
03:24:39.159 --> 03:24:40.319
How much it does.

1293
03:24:41.959 --> 03:24:45.200
You know, the benefit of being able to use my

1294
03:24:45.440 --> 03:24:52.719
legs without any kind of physical discomfort.

1295
03:24:53.680 --> 03:24:55.520
Is a beautiful thing.

1296
03:24:56.920 --> 03:25:04.559
That's possibly not appreciated until it's temporarily removed. You know,

1297
03:25:04.680 --> 03:25:14.200
that's comfort. But as you focus on your knees, regardless

1298
03:25:14.200 --> 03:25:19.760
of how your knees feel, you can have that sense

1299
03:25:19.840 --> 03:25:25.799
of gratitude and love to your knees for all that

1300
03:25:25.879 --> 03:25:38.159
they do for you, and you can still have that

1301
03:25:38.280 --> 03:25:43.239
attention on your thighs. Maybe notice how your thighs feel,

1302
03:25:45.399 --> 03:26:03.440
Maybe notice that they are relaxing more deeply as you

1303
03:26:03.600 --> 03:26:08.760
focus now on the bottoms of your legs, your shins,

1304
03:26:09.680 --> 03:26:12.360
and your calf muscles, the bones.

1305
03:26:13.040 --> 03:26:19.639
Between your knees and your feet incorporate, and of course

1306
03:26:19.760 --> 03:26:21.040
your ankles.

1307
03:26:22.840 --> 03:26:32.159
So important. You know, anyone has had even like the

1308
03:26:32.360 --> 03:26:39.200
slightest sprain of an ankle knows how how much we

1309
03:26:39.360 --> 03:26:49.600
take our ankles for granted. And it's kind of strange

1310
03:26:49.639 --> 03:26:54.440
in a way when you think that. You know, logically,

1311
03:26:54.799 --> 03:26:57.879
our wrists are a lot thinner than the rest of

1312
03:26:57.920 --> 03:27:02.639
our arms, which is okay, it doesn't you can't see

1313
03:27:02.639 --> 03:27:06.239
any problem with that because we're just picking stuff up.

1314
03:27:07.719 --> 03:27:13.319
By our ankles so much thinner than the rest of

1315
03:27:13.399 --> 03:27:13.920
our legs.

1316
03:27:20.360 --> 03:27:24.760
And from a physics perspective or logical even it doesn't

1317
03:27:24.840 --> 03:27:30.840
really make sense that all this weight would ultimately be

1318
03:27:31.920 --> 03:27:41.959
resting on your ankles then leading to your feet, that

1319
03:27:42.520 --> 03:27:51.520
thin area, thin bone. Yeah, it does so much great work.

1320
03:27:53.680 --> 03:28:03.200
Supports us, supports our body for a lifetime, helps us

1321
03:28:03.879 --> 03:28:07.600
to balance, It helps you to.

1322
03:28:11.559 --> 03:28:20.799
Get her around and be mobile. And there's the calf muscles.

1323
03:28:20.840 --> 03:28:28.440
Of course, when I was younger, I couldn't see the

1324
03:28:28.520 --> 03:28:34.840
pointing calf muscles. Didn't seem to do anything. Okay, if

1325
03:28:34.879 --> 03:28:38.440
I walked around on tiptoes, then my calf muscles get

1326
03:28:38.520 --> 03:28:42.239
some work. But of course that's not true. The calf

1327
03:28:42.319 --> 03:28:51.959
muscles are being used whenever we use our legs and

1328
03:28:52.120 --> 03:28:57.440
your shins there to protect.

1329
03:28:59.000 --> 03:29:07.639
Your lower legs, shaped in a way, almost as a

1330
03:29:07.719 --> 03:29:20.559
protector for the bone, leading of course to your ankles.

1331
03:29:23.360 --> 03:29:29.959
And your feet. But we're not going to focus on

1332
03:29:30.040 --> 03:29:32.159
your feet. We're just going to focus on the legs.

1333
03:29:34.239 --> 03:29:38.719
I realize, and now that I haven't mentioned your feet,

1334
03:29:38.799 --> 03:29:43.440
you'll probably focusing on them anyway, So maybe I should

1335
03:29:43.559 --> 03:29:49.520
focus on your feet a little bit. You can have

1336
03:29:49.680 --> 03:29:54.879
them in your awareness the same as you have your

1337
03:29:55.000 --> 03:29:59.239
thighs in your awareness. Even though we haven't been focusing

1338
03:30:00.040 --> 03:30:04.559
on your thighs for a few minutes, let me focus

1339
03:30:04.680 --> 03:30:06.319
in on your ankles.

1340
03:30:12.040 --> 03:30:27.239
There's still that sensation of comfort in your thighs, and

1341
03:30:27.319 --> 03:30:29.000
there's that movement.

1342
03:30:30.200 --> 03:30:38.159
Of energy because the thighs hold lots of different sensations.

1343
03:30:39.639 --> 03:30:44.479
Of course, there's the muscles, the big straw muscles that

1344
03:30:44.600 --> 03:30:55.639
we have in our thighs. Put the skin.

1345
03:30:57.239 --> 03:31:01.680
On the outside of the thighs, as in the outside

1346
03:31:01.719 --> 03:31:11.120
of all of our body, can be very sensitive, sensitive

1347
03:31:11.239 --> 03:31:24.280
to the touch, sensitive to temperature. And inside your thighs

1348
03:31:26.799 --> 03:31:31.520
the bones, there's the muscle, there's the blood, vessels, the

1349
03:31:31.760 --> 03:31:41.760
arch trees, to all this stuff inside your thighs. I

1350
03:31:41.840 --> 03:31:44.559
guess sometimes it'd be nice.

1351
03:31:44.319 --> 03:31:48.639
If you could actually put your fingers inside your thighs

1352
03:31:49.280 --> 03:31:50.159
and message.

1353
03:31:52.520 --> 03:31:55.159
So you can message on the outside.

1354
03:31:54.600 --> 03:31:57.600
Of course, but to be able to get deep into

1355
03:31:57.719 --> 03:32:03.159
the muscles, to be able to just massage inside your thighs,

1356
03:32:04.040 --> 03:32:12.479
message in the bones of your leg, massage in all

1357
03:32:12.559 --> 03:32:23.319
the veins, just gently healing your thighs and you can

1358
03:32:23.479 --> 03:32:30.360
move down message and inside your knees, just message in

1359
03:32:30.479 --> 03:32:37.840
those bones, but with healing fingertips, spreading that healing energy

1360
03:32:38.600 --> 03:32:48.319
deep into the choice of your knees. Of course, there's

1361
03:32:48.399 --> 03:32:54.000
the back of your you need the inside crease where

1362
03:32:54.000 --> 03:33:01.520
your need is. It's a really sensitive area. Three, it

1363
03:33:01.520 --> 03:33:05.399
feels very nice when you stroke it. That might be

1364
03:33:05.559 --> 03:33:09.520
because it's an area that's not really touched very often.

1365
03:33:11.559 --> 03:33:18.440
It's almost like a hidden part, that crease in your legs.

1366
03:33:18.520 --> 03:33:19.520
It's almost.

1367
03:33:21.440 --> 03:33:22.200
Like a part that.

1368
03:33:24.000 --> 03:33:35.239
Has a sensitivity, which is a little bit different. Of course,

1369
03:33:35.280 --> 03:33:45.760
it's protected by your legs, so you can imagine putting

1370
03:33:46.680 --> 03:33:56.520
your fingers into that crease in your legs. Folded in

1371
03:33:56.639 --> 03:34:00.600
between your legs, you can just message or your thing tips.

1372
03:34:01.799 --> 03:34:03.559
Imagine your fingertips.

1373
03:34:03.040 --> 03:34:13.440
Going inside, massage in the muscle or tissue. You can

1374
03:34:13.520 --> 03:34:19.760
of course field the bones of your knees, heating through

1375
03:34:19.840 --> 03:34:29.600
your fingertips, and then as you go down.

1376
03:34:32.239 --> 03:34:35.040
To your calf muscles, and that's the part I'd like

1377
03:34:35.120 --> 03:34:39.840
to be able to really put my fingertips deep inside

1378
03:34:40.600 --> 03:34:49.520
my calf muscles, massage in every single tissue of that muscle,

1379
03:34:51.120 --> 03:35:01.040
healing every part, and then doing the same from my shins,

1380
03:35:04.239 --> 03:35:12.399
massage and generally stroking the bones, generally stroking them, healing

1381
03:35:12.639 --> 03:35:16.760
in a loving way because they deserve to be treated.

1382
03:35:19.799 --> 03:35:23.959
There's the precious bones that they are, because our legs

1383
03:35:23.959 --> 03:35:27.319
are so precious as in all the other parts of

1384
03:35:27.399 --> 03:35:35.559
our body, the more precious of any chore on the planet.

1385
03:35:44.000 --> 03:35:47.639
When you start to think about.

1386
03:35:50.719 --> 03:35:59.520
Your legs in this way, it can change your perspective.

1387
03:36:02.280 --> 03:36:08.000
It might sound a bit a bit silly to start

1388
03:36:08.120 --> 03:36:09.479
with the.

1389
03:36:09.600 --> 03:36:16.520
Idea of having love for your legs, showing appreciation.

1390
03:36:17.719 --> 03:36:23.319
For your thighs, wanting to be able to put your

1391
03:36:23.479 --> 03:36:31.760
hands in your thighs, massage the muscles and the bones,

1392
03:36:33.639 --> 03:36:39.319
and to get your fingers deep in there, releasing all tension,

1393
03:36:42.200 --> 03:36:50.799
just to show how much you care about your legs,

1394
03:36:51.719 --> 03:36:55.479
how much you care for what your legs do for

1395
03:36:55.600 --> 03:37:02.399
you regularly, your needs, your cars.

1396
03:37:03.239 --> 03:37:15.520
Your ankles, the strength of your ankles, considering how thin

1397
03:37:15.680 --> 03:37:19.239
they are compared to the rest of your legs, especially

1398
03:37:19.360 --> 03:37:34.000
your thighs. Yeah, this so strong, so flexible, absolutely amazing things.

1399
03:37:35.319 --> 03:37:36.799
Your ankles are.

1400
03:37:40.520 --> 03:37:42.159
Truly a gift.

1401
03:37:44.120 --> 03:37:45.639
Because of what they do for you.

1402
03:37:51.079 --> 03:37:58.040
Supporting all that weight, regardless of how what weight you are,

1403
03:37:59.200 --> 03:38:03.680
even if you're only you ate stone, there's still a

1404
03:38:03.840 --> 03:38:10.360
lot of weight for these little ankles. Now, I'm a

1405
03:38:10.520 --> 03:38:18.680
lot heavier than eight stone double down, Yet my ankles

1406
03:38:20.440 --> 03:38:28.120
support my body all the time. Whether they do give

1407
03:38:28.159 --> 03:38:32.760
off a sigh of relief when I sit down, that's

1408
03:38:33.600 --> 03:38:40.680
you've had my whole legs though, my feet feet or so.

1409
03:38:40.920 --> 03:39:06.559
Go my toes clap so happy. Your legs.

1410
03:39:08.079 --> 03:39:13.360
Really are amazing, and.

1411
03:39:13.399 --> 03:39:17.079
I know they're talking about. Talking about your legs is

1412
03:39:17.159 --> 03:39:23.799
probably possibly among the most most boring things you've ever

1413
03:39:24.479 --> 03:39:32.799
heard anyone say. Possibly you're boring or not. Everything I

1414
03:39:32.920 --> 03:39:48.840
said is true. Your legs are amazing. Your legs deserve

1415
03:39:49.879 --> 03:40:00.479
not just respect, but they deserve to relax deeply.

1416
03:40:07.760 --> 03:40:11.120
They deserve to take some time out of the day

1417
03:40:13.319 --> 03:40:15.479
to just let go completely.

1418
03:40:33.440 --> 03:40:42.520
The legs really can relax.

1419
03:40:49.840 --> 03:40:53.799
Because the legs are so such a most you know,

1420
03:40:54.040 --> 03:40:59.920
very important part of your body. When you relax your legs,

1421
03:41:00.120 --> 03:41:00.959
the rest of your.

1422
03:41:00.920 --> 03:41:20.440
Body also naturally follows in that journey of comfort. Like

1423
03:41:20.559 --> 03:41:25.680
I feel it in my hips. My hips feel really loose,

1424
03:41:29.000 --> 03:41:33.600
and also my lower back as well. My lower back

1425
03:41:33.840 --> 03:41:39.360
really feels it feels stretched, even though I'm just sitting

1426
03:41:39.440 --> 03:41:42.799
in a chair and there's no stretching.

1427
03:41:44.959 --> 03:41:46.559
As far as I'm aware that I'm doing.

1428
03:41:47.600 --> 03:41:50.239
It's almost as if the muscles are just relaxed so

1429
03:41:50.479 --> 03:41:56.840
much that there is a natural stretch as the tension.

1430
03:41:57.280 --> 03:42:18.559
Has reduced a lot. And I'm now going to count

1431
03:42:18.639 --> 03:42:27.159
down from ten down to one. You can continue.

1432
03:42:28.360 --> 03:42:31.840
To fill wonderfully relaxed.

1433
03:42:35.639 --> 03:43:12.319
Ten nine, eight, seven, six, five four three two one.

1434
03:43:18.159 --> 03:43:18.760
Relax.

1435
03:43:26.680 --> 03:43:30.920
So I'm just going to count down five down to one.

1436
03:43:31.719 --> 03:43:36.280
And as a countdown, if you just focus on the numbers,

1437
03:43:37.959 --> 03:43:46.000
just the numbers counting down, and notice how you feel

1438
03:43:48.639 --> 03:43:49.799
in this moment.

1439
03:43:51.239 --> 03:43:55.639
As you hear the numbers counting down, knowing that those

1440
03:43:55.799 --> 03:44:00.239
numbers counting down ripers.

1441
03:44:00.079 --> 03:44:01.239
And you.

1442
03:44:03.040 --> 03:44:09.680
Feeling calmer, not just in your body, but.

1443
03:44:09.840 --> 03:44:13.559
Also relaxing your mind.

1444
03:44:16.600 --> 03:44:21.920
Just notice how you feel. There's nothing to do, there's

1445
03:44:22.079 --> 03:44:29.959
nothing to say, there's nothing to think about, starting with

1446
03:44:31.479 --> 03:44:51.120
number five, four, three.

1447
03:45:01.479 --> 03:45:18.840
To one. And as you notice.

1448
03:45:22.520 --> 03:45:26.600
The gradual letting go.

1449
03:45:28.959 --> 03:45:36.239
The tension in your body, you may also begin to

1450
03:45:36.559 --> 03:45:43.799
notice and be aware of how your mind is starting

1451
03:45:44.280 --> 03:45:52.239
to slow down. This is just a natural thing that happens.

1452
03:45:54.879 --> 03:45:59.959
It's not really a special procedure. It's just natural because

1453
03:46:00.040 --> 03:46:06.040
as is your body relaxes, your mind also starts to relax.

1454
03:46:07.639 --> 03:46:11.280
And the more your mind relaxes, the more your body relaxes.

1455
03:46:11.440 --> 03:46:21.920
It's just a continuous circle of relaxation. And there's that

1456
03:46:23.200 --> 03:46:31.079
calmness that comes from relative quietness. You know, even even

1457
03:46:31.079 --> 03:46:37.639
if there's background sounds either your side or mine, is

1458
03:46:37.760 --> 03:46:41.440
still going to be quite calm.

1459
03:46:43.120 --> 03:46:45.760
You know, you haven't got the television on, there's no

1460
03:46:46.079 --> 03:46:50.280
music in the background, unless you're listening to the recorded

1461
03:46:50.319 --> 03:46:50.879
with music.

1462
03:46:51.040 --> 03:46:58.239
Of course, you're very likely not going to be sitting

1463
03:46:58.280 --> 03:47:01.440
in a room with other people. Of course you might be,

1464
03:47:01.639 --> 03:47:06.000
but generally it's more ideal if you can do this

1465
03:47:06.200 --> 03:47:17.239
on your own, so no distractions, and when you stop

1466
03:47:17.360 --> 03:47:33.159
thinking about stuff, relaxation automatically rises, a sense of comfort.

1467
03:47:34.520 --> 03:47:39.920
Starts to grow, and.

1468
03:47:41.719 --> 03:47:46.959
Without trying to build it up into something fantastical or

1469
03:47:50.360 --> 03:47:59.040
something magical, this is just a natural process, something that's

1470
03:48:00.239 --> 03:48:09.159
easy to accomplish. In fact, it's almost you know, the

1471
03:48:09.479 --> 03:48:16.200
sense of relaxing completely happens really when you put no

1472
03:48:16.399 --> 03:48:17.479
effort into it.

1473
03:48:18.520 --> 03:48:24.200
It's not something that you can really force. It's something

1474
03:48:24.360 --> 03:48:35.120
that happens naturally. And part of the process of this

1475
03:48:35.399 --> 03:48:38.079
recording and others.

1476
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Is simply two allow you to take advantage of this space.

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This time.

1478
03:48:57.239 --> 03:49:02.319
It's just let go.

1479
03:49:05.399 --> 03:49:13.639
To just be here, to be in tune with how

1480
03:49:13.760 --> 03:49:27.120
you feel, yet with the intention of wanting to relax

1481
03:49:27.239 --> 03:49:38.600
deeply that maybe even to fall asleep, depending on what

1482
03:49:38.760 --> 03:49:42.920
it is that you wish for yourself.

1483
03:49:44.120 --> 03:49:59.159
In this moment. As we know, relaxing is the majority

1484
03:50:00.399 --> 03:50:04.879
of the process of falling asleep. The actual falling asleep

1485
03:50:04.959 --> 03:50:11.719
part is the tiny bit at the end. The deeper

1486
03:50:13.040 --> 03:50:23.280
relaxed you become, the easier you find.

1487
03:50:24.559 --> 03:50:38.360
Yourself drifting. But you can also if you choose stay

1488
03:50:40.000 --> 03:50:47.719
focused on my voice and really enjoy.

1489
03:50:53.239 --> 03:51:11.559
The process, gradually relaxing each muscle.

1490
03:51:15.760 --> 03:51:42.639
In your body effortlessly and just observing the sensation of

1491
03:51:42.920 --> 03:51:58.520
letting go completely. This time, I'm going to count from

1492
03:51:58.760 --> 03:52:07.280
six down to one, and you can notice.

1493
03:52:08.239 --> 03:52:09.239
Your mind.

1494
03:52:11.559 --> 03:52:13.680
Calming down more.

1495
03:52:14.799 --> 03:52:16.799
With each number.

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03:52:18.159 --> 03:52:19.360
That you hear me.

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03:52:19.600 --> 03:55:07.600
Say, actually feeling calm and slow, to be peaceful sex five, four, three, one,

1498
03:55:28.719 --> 03:55:42.520
being aware how your mind to slowe write down, sinking.

1499
03:55:44.639 --> 03:56:04.959
Deeply into relaxation. And as you focus on your mind,

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03:56:05.239 --> 03:56:10.040
you may notice that.

1501
03:56:11.959 --> 03:56:20.000
There are some thoughts still there, maybe some stubborn thoughts that.

1502
03:56:22.479 --> 03:56:23.799
For some reason.

1503
03:56:26.479 --> 03:56:28.000
Perhaps need your attention.

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03:56:34.879 --> 03:56:36.319
That's what you can do is.

1505
03:56:41.840 --> 03:56:49.600
Send love to those thoughts. Sprinkle those thoughts.

1506
03:56:53.799 --> 03:56:54.319
With love.

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03:56:56.079 --> 03:57:00.200
My doll petals from a flower, Just sprinkle and the

1508
03:57:01.760 --> 03:57:02.760
petals feel good.

1509
03:57:02.840 --> 03:57:10.120
Love towards those thoughts, to let those thoughts know that

1510
03:57:12.360 --> 03:57:17.840
you're not abandon the number you just need them. You

1511
03:57:18.000 --> 03:57:29.760
require them to just calm down, slow down, quiet down.

1512
03:57:33.399 --> 03:57:33.760
For now.

1513
03:57:41.680 --> 03:57:42.159
So as you.

1514
03:57:42.280 --> 03:57:47.600
Focus on those remaining thoughts as we count down this

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03:57:47.879 --> 03:57:55.959
time from seven down to one. With each number, just

1516
03:57:56.120 --> 03:58:11.959
imagine sprinkling those flower petals of love, kindness, gratitude over

1517
03:58:12.120 --> 03:58:21.639
those thoughts, which will allow them to just not away

1518
03:58:23.000 --> 03:58:36.799
and relax deeply. With every number, those thoughts will become

1519
03:58:37.000 --> 04:00:11.440
more and more relaxed. Starting with number seven, six, five, four, three.

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04:01:02.600 --> 04:01:02.840
One.

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04:01:19.760 --> 04:01:20.639
Lets you now.

1522
04:01:24.719 --> 04:01:45.959
Notice how relaxed your feeling in your body. We got

1523
04:01:46.079 --> 04:01:47.479
to focus.

1524
04:01:50.959 --> 04:02:00.520
On your hands because the more relaxed Jory hands on

1525
04:02:03.440 --> 04:02:25.360
relax your body and mind. This you focus on your

1526
04:02:25.520 --> 04:02:35.719
hands and your fingers. There's nothing needed to be done.

1527
04:02:36.719 --> 04:02:41.799
There's no clinching of fists or dance in the fingers

1528
04:02:41.920 --> 04:02:55.479
or anything like that. It's just noticing and focusing on

1529
04:02:55.680 --> 04:03:21.319
your hands. Let searly feel because they are.

1530
04:03:23.159 --> 04:03:23.799
Relaks.

1531
04:03:24.319 --> 04:03:38.159
Your hands feel my calm on your mind feels comforts

1532
04:03:38.319 --> 04:03:51.520
you feel throughout your body. Jee may.

1533
04:03:53.799 --> 04:04:36.840
Have already noticed you mind is starting to drest said

1534
04:04:40.920 --> 04:04:55.600
just on your hands and fingers, allowing a cheap experience

1535
04:04:58.280 --> 04:05:05.520
a real deep in of that relaxation in your hands

1536
04:05:05.639 --> 04:05:18.040
and fingers and more relaxed.

1537
04:05:22.479 --> 04:05:43.479
With each number from eight down to one, almost feel

1538
04:05:43.959 --> 04:05:45.680
that healing.

1539
04:05:47.040 --> 04:05:59.319
Relax energy, spread it into your hands and fingers, becoming.

1540
04:06:06.639 --> 04:06:12.520
Relaxing with each number.

1541
04:06:19.120 --> 04:06:24.959
Going down, eight down to one.

1542
04:06:28.920 --> 04:06:40.600
To drift down, drifted again, started.

1543
04:06:40.159 --> 04:10:42.159
With number eight seven three, just being here now.

1544
04:10:45.639 --> 04:10:51.719
Nothing to think about, nothing to do, nothing to say,

1545
04:10:55.879 --> 04:11:07.479
and everything just feels calm. This is your natural state

1546
04:11:07.600 --> 04:11:16.040
of being. This is how you just normally feel when

1547
04:11:16.559 --> 04:11:21.040
you take away all that other stuff.

1548
04:11:23.040 --> 04:11:23.959
That we add.

1549
04:11:25.440 --> 04:11:37.040
And think, like stress and worry, over thinking, anxiety, tension,

1550
04:11:41.680 --> 04:11:43.520
him thinking about stuff.

1551
04:11:45.760 --> 04:11:47.040
You take that away.

1552
04:11:48.120 --> 04:11:48.879
This is what we do.

1553
04:11:49.840 --> 04:11:50.559
We do now.

1554
04:11:57.000 --> 04:11:57.760
You left with.

1555
04:12:00.479 --> 04:12:08.959
A real sense of peacefulness, which comes to you very

1556
04:12:09.120 --> 04:12:25.040
quickly because answermately is just a feeling, a feeling and comfort.

1557
04:12:28.719 --> 04:12:32.479
Most as if you've got inside yourself. You've found in

1558
04:12:32.680 --> 04:12:47.079
a special place where everything is basiful place week in

1559
04:12:47.239 --> 04:12:50.639
the film, relaxed and your.

1560
04:12:50.600 --> 04:12:59.639
Natural sense of comfort, a place we can be here,

1561
04:13:04.280 --> 04:13:12.000
we can accept yourself who you are, the place where

1562
04:13:12.079 --> 04:13:13.040
you're not trying to.

1563
04:13:15.319 --> 04:13:28.879
Please anybody else, in place where you can actually not

1564
04:13:29.239 --> 04:13:34.440
just love yourself, but in some ways more importantly, you

1565
04:13:34.559 --> 04:13:40.120
can like yourself, appreciate.

1566
04:13:40.879 --> 04:13:42.120
Who you are.

1567
04:13:50.760 --> 04:13:52.600
A sense of gratitude.

1568
04:13:55.639 --> 04:14:06.000
See the air around here, that's also.

1569
04:14:05.840 --> 04:14:14.600
A place where you can actually feel the healing energy

1570
04:14:15.680 --> 04:14:29.159
soaking into your body. Healing energy soaking into your body.

1571
04:14:34.280 --> 04:14:43.680
A healing energy spreads through your veins, traveling too, each

1572
04:14:45.120 --> 04:14:47.079
every single part.

1573
04:14:48.559 --> 04:14:49.200
Of your body.

1574
04:14:55.360 --> 04:15:02.360
You start to realize that actually a healing energy it's

1575
04:15:02.440 --> 04:15:09.200
not just entered into your brain, it's become part of

1576
04:15:09.680 --> 04:15:21.639
your brain, and the spinal fluid is now mixed up healing.

1577
04:15:21.559 --> 04:15:27.600
Energy, not just.

1578
04:15:29.719 --> 04:15:33.959
Allowing you to feel so much more relaxed.

1579
04:15:35.399 --> 04:15:36.639
And healthy.

1580
04:15:37.719 --> 04:15:48.520
In this moment, but also you start to realize that

1581
04:15:48.719 --> 04:15:59.879
actually what's happening now without a healing, relaxing energy spreading

1582
04:16:00.399 --> 04:16:11.799
through your body, is actually changing your life. It's actually

1583
04:16:13.120 --> 04:16:16.920
changing the way you're going to feel not just now,

1584
04:16:18.719 --> 04:16:25.520
but tomorrow and the next day. As your health improves,

1585
04:16:29.159 --> 04:16:36.479
not just your physical health, but your mental health. Things

1586
04:16:36.879 --> 04:16:42.079
that used to bother you in the past, for some reason,

1587
04:16:43.319 --> 04:16:47.520
no longer have the effect that they used to.

1588
04:16:50.520 --> 04:16:53.319
Because something has changed.

1589
04:16:54.360 --> 04:16:55.600
Deep within you.

1590
04:17:00.719 --> 04:17:07.520
Maybe things that used to cause you to feel anger.

1591
04:17:10.959 --> 04:17:21.040
No longer have that power to control you the way

1592
04:17:21.120 --> 04:17:29.120
they seem to be able to before. As you realize

1593
04:17:30.159 --> 04:17:42.559
that you're the one who decides what affects you. You're

1594
04:17:43.120 --> 04:17:50.360
the one who decides to feel relaxed.

1595
04:17:50.520 --> 04:17:51.360
And calm.

1596
04:17:52.760 --> 04:17:54.959
When you choose.

1597
04:17:58.159 --> 04:17:59.239
To enjoy.

1598
04:18:00.440 --> 04:18:09.159
Noticing these natural developments and healing.

1599
04:18:11.360 --> 04:18:13.360
Continue to grow.

1600
04:18:15.920 --> 04:18:27.239
And improve your life day by day, including of course,

1601
04:18:27.319 --> 04:18:40.079
your ability to relax so much easier and sleep in.

1602
04:18:44.680 --> 04:18:50.360
It's the most natural thing in the world to you

1603
04:18:54.879 --> 04:18:58.399
because for in, the sleep is something that you've done

1604
04:19:01.479 --> 04:19:03.079
so many times.

1605
04:19:04.399 --> 04:19:10.040
In your life, and you know that you were born,

1606
04:19:11.520 --> 04:19:12.520
as we all were.

1607
04:19:13.200 --> 04:19:23.079
With the ability to fall asleep naturally. We were born

1608
04:19:24.440 --> 04:19:27.000
with that ability.

1609
04:19:29.479 --> 04:19:37.479
To just drift off into a deep, healing sleep.

1610
04:19:43.440 --> 04:19:44.360
Even when we're.

1611
04:19:44.319 --> 04:19:48.760
Kids, sometimes we will fall asleep and we don't even

1612
04:19:48.879 --> 04:19:54.959
want to try to think stay awake. Maybe it's a

1613
04:19:55.120 --> 04:19:59.600
birthday in the morning, or it's Christmas or holiday or

1614
04:19:59.639 --> 04:20:02.040
something we look forward to. I don't want to go

1615
04:20:02.200 --> 04:20:07.000
to sleep. But the more we want to stay.

1616
04:20:06.799 --> 04:20:11.559
Awake, the more we just start to drift.

1617
04:20:15.719 --> 04:20:20.719
And the more you fights drifting, which might stop yourself

1618
04:20:20.799 --> 04:20:27.200
and drifting a sleep, the depot is stronger that drifting becomes.

1619
04:20:34.159 --> 04:20:39.440
Because we're born not just with the need to relax

1620
04:20:39.600 --> 04:20:47.959
deeply and to naturally fall asleep, but it's our birthright,

1621
04:20:51.360 --> 04:21:02.159
it's part of our DNA. Sometimes as we get older

1622
04:21:02.239 --> 04:21:08.719
in life, perhaps at times we have forgotten.

1623
04:21:12.840 --> 04:21:29.040
Relaxing completely. It's not only a wonderfully pleasant experience, it's

1624
04:21:29.120 --> 04:21:46.879
also really easy. It's very very easy to let go,

1625
04:21:48.920 --> 04:21:50.040
because that's all it is.

1626
04:21:50.200 --> 04:21:50.719
It's just.

1627
04:21:54.200 --> 04:22:05.639
Decided to let go. And when you press the play

1628
04:22:05.760 --> 04:22:16.000
button on my recordings, you have given permission from my

1629
04:22:16.239 --> 04:22:25.399
voice to reaction. When you press that play button, you

1630
04:22:25.520 --> 04:22:34.239
have given me permission for my words to effect.

1631
04:22:36.280 --> 04:22:37.239
You in a.

1632
04:22:37.440 --> 04:22:54.239
Positive, openly, a positive way, opening up your mind.

1633
04:22:55.760 --> 04:23:00.200
To use for.

1634
04:23:01.840 --> 04:23:04.280
And healing.

1635
04:23:05.479 --> 04:23:06.360
Suggestions.

1636
04:23:10.879 --> 04:23:11.600
They can have.

1637
04:23:16.120 --> 04:23:18.760
Such an amazing effect.

1638
04:23:21.040 --> 04:23:21.760
On how you.

1639
04:23:22.000 --> 04:23:34.959
Feel right now, as well as those changes that continue

1640
04:23:36.920 --> 04:23:47.000
long after the recording ends, those changes within you, they

1641
04:23:47.120 --> 04:24:01.399
continue to flourish and grow, transforming your life in positive,

1642
04:24:03.200 --> 04:24:12.799
beautiful way, allowing you to move forward in your life

1643
04:24:14.280 --> 04:24:29.040
in the direction that you choose for yourself. This feeling,

1644
04:24:31.879 --> 04:24:39.920
this feeling that you can experience a safety, comfort, calmness,

1645
04:24:47.719 --> 04:25:01.680
this feels so nice, such a health the place to be,

1646
04:25:09.559 --> 04:25:27.559
and that postivity grows within you in every day moving forward,

1647
04:25:31.399 --> 04:25:42.360
you had to find that you're more relaxed physically and

1648
04:25:42.559 --> 04:25:51.239
in your mind. Is more relaxed. And it's not that

1649
04:25:51.360 --> 04:25:56.879
you're thinking slower, it's just that your mind will be

1650
04:25:57.120 --> 04:26:08.920
less locked up with unnecessary negativity because from now on,

1651
04:26:09.600 --> 04:26:19.680
your mind rejects negativity. From now you're going to start

1652
04:26:19.959 --> 04:26:36.280
noticing when negativity arises, and you can just say stop, stop,

1653
04:26:39.159 --> 04:26:45.920
and that negativity will turn around and leave you alone.

1654
04:26:53.920 --> 04:27:13.559
Stop and the negativity disappear. And that you notice that

1655
04:27:13.799 --> 04:27:21.840
you feel way more relaxed than you probably expected.

1656
04:27:28.079 --> 04:27:29.159
You can now.

1657
04:27:32.479 --> 04:27:38.360
Congratulate yourself because you're are the person that has done this.

1658
04:27:40.120 --> 04:27:46.319
You another one that has opened your mind up to

1659
04:27:46.479 --> 04:27:54.719
the simple facts. You can feel more relaxed in your

1660
04:27:54.799 --> 04:28:04.879
body and in your mind. You've opened your mind up

1661
04:28:05.120 --> 04:28:09.719
to the birthright of being able to just.

1662
04:28:12.399 --> 04:28:27.239
Fall asleep easily when you choose. That's a nice feeling,

1663
04:28:28.840 --> 04:28:29.639
don't you think.

1664
04:28:32.200 --> 04:28:38.879
Feels nice? Doesn't it? To feel calm?

1665
04:28:40.559 --> 04:28:41.440
Who lay here?

1666
04:28:41.600 --> 04:28:45.840
The energy is splitting through your body in your mind

1667
04:28:52.360 --> 04:29:03.200
to spend time a special place where negativity can no

1668
04:29:03.399 --> 04:29:16.959
longer enter. Negativity is bad, It's bad, it's not allowed entry.

1669
04:29:19.559 --> 04:29:24.079
It doesn't doesn't this doesn't deserve to be here, doesn't.

1670
04:29:23.920 --> 04:29:24.799
Been long here.

1671
04:29:28.520 --> 04:29:32.479
Negativity has no place in your life.

1672
04:29:42.479 --> 04:29:52.760
Which makes room for more comfort or heathing or relaxation.

1673
04:29:57.000 --> 04:29:57.559
Or peace.

1674
04:30:14.680 --> 04:30:15.920
Feels nice as that.

1675
04:30:17.840 --> 04:30:21.680
Just the.

1676
04:30:25.680 --> 04:30:44.319
Everything. I'm gonna count down now from twenty down to one.

1677
04:30:47.760 --> 04:30:49.479
He can continue to.

1678
04:30:49.639 --> 04:30:53.719
Relax, cheesh.

1679
04:30:57.360 --> 04:31:00.040
Care to sleep.

1680
04:31:03.520 --> 04:31:04.760
Every number.

1681
04:31:07.120 --> 04:31:08.159
He will say.

1682
04:31:12.840 --> 04:31:21.879
Film twice is relaxed, or if you choose film twice

1683
04:31:22.440 --> 04:31:36.360
sleeping now twenty.

1684
04:31:45.040 --> 04:33:25.799
Ninety eighteen seventy six, stay fift four, two, nine, eight, seven,

1685
04:33:34.720 --> 04:33:43.840
six five.

1686
04:34:24.479 --> 04:34:25.919
This is your time.

1687
04:34:28.400 --> 04:34:29.840
To just take a breaking.

1688
04:34:34.080 --> 04:34:45.159
Your time, relax, to allow your mind to slow down,

1689
04:34:53.840 --> 04:34:54.520
to give.

1690
04:34:54.400 --> 04:34:56.319
Yourself permission.

1691
04:35:00.520 --> 04:35:02.240
To take a break.

1692
04:35:06.919 --> 04:35:14.880
From everything, and Julie, by a person.

1693
04:35:15.240 --> 04:35:20.680
That can make that decision, you're the only.

1694
04:35:20.599 --> 04:35:37.319
Person that can actually tell your life just relax, to just.

1695
04:35:41.000 --> 04:35:42.240
Take some time.

1696
04:35:44.000 --> 04:35:55.799
Off so that you can focus on your buddy, getting

1697
04:35:56.200 --> 04:35:58.759
in touch with how you.

1698
04:35:58.880 --> 04:36:01.799
Feel physically.

1699
04:36:10.159 --> 04:36:16.560
And in the process of this body scared where you.

1700
04:36:17.360 --> 04:36:28.000
Focus on different parts of your body, those parts you

1701
04:36:28.200 --> 04:36:30.720
focus on and observe.

1702
04:36:33.119 --> 04:36:34.279
Either though you're.

1703
04:36:34.159 --> 04:36:38.840
Not perhaps the requesting.

1704
04:36:40.599 --> 04:36:46.639
Those parts of your body to relax. It's kind of expected.

1705
04:36:48.240 --> 04:36:52.560
You expect when you listen to my voice.

1706
04:36:53.200 --> 04:36:54.080
To feel.

1707
04:36:55.479 --> 04:37:04.360
Worst, naturally, because.

1708
04:37:04.080 --> 04:37:13.840
When you're listening to me, your attention it's focused on

1709
04:37:14.080 --> 04:37:26.040
my words, there's my words guide you to focus.

1710
04:37:29.959 --> 04:37:32.000
On going as parts of your body.

1711
04:37:35.799 --> 04:37:46.000
The focus increases its eventually.

1712
04:37:48.319 --> 04:38:22.240
Calms your mind. You can't down, relaxes your bums down,

1713
04:38:30.400 --> 04:38:40.279
reaxes the good.

1714
04:38:42.959 --> 04:38:46.040
Started to focus.

1715
04:38:46.000 --> 04:39:12.319
On your body. Feel that spreading your body, pushing out stress, attention,

1716
04:39:19.360 --> 04:39:30.240
the parts of the buddy, skins, blood, all of your

1717
04:39:30.319 --> 04:39:35.159
modes and such a body, the muscles.

1718
04:39:36.119 --> 04:39:46.479
Of the fact, everything, every hair nor body. It's fuelled

1719
04:39:46.840 --> 04:40:04.240
by your pray. The energy.

1720
04:40:12.200 --> 04:40:13.560
Feed and comfort.

1721
04:40:15.240 --> 04:40:30.840
Relaxation increases, deeply increases.

1722
04:40:36.520 --> 04:40:51.639
No way mind response to fell per speaking to rousing

1723
04:40:56.919 --> 04:40:58.159
because it spoke.

1724
04:41:02.360 --> 04:41:04.159
The starts.

1725
04:41:06.799 --> 04:41:22.919
To if that's what's thinking. So if you're listening to this.

1726
04:41:25.639 --> 04:41:28.200
Need in still vexation.

1727
04:41:28.360 --> 04:41:29.400
That's what you get.

1728
04:41:31.400 --> 04:41:41.520
Your needs to a slave atally takes me to my dreads.

1729
04:41:44.080 --> 04:41:53.479
That's also were excuse my.

1730
04:41:56.400 --> 04:41:58.200
I sup play butt.

1731
04:42:00.080 --> 04:42:01.479
As listening to.

1732
04:42:01.560 --> 04:42:08.159
Measure you putting the mind.

1733
04:42:11.119 --> 04:42:16.880
Than give the.

1734
04:42:19.319 --> 04:42:34.200
Pu mind. Does you have to say if that's what

1735
04:42:34.599 --> 04:43:14.560
he wants, that's thoughts you fancy different pos of body,

1736
04:43:22.880 --> 04:43:25.000
I'm just so drink.

1737
04:43:37.680 --> 04:43:38.720
My voice.

1738
04:43:41.799 --> 04:43:46.639
The different parts of the bodyst accent.

1739
04:43:51.959 --> 04:43:52.360
It's like.

1740
04:43:54.880 --> 04:44:40.639
I speak the sastry to continuous spain stist to experienced

1741
04:44:40.799 --> 04:45:33.919
to septs some loose. Thus to bass you Eli, jury,

1742
04:45:36.000 --> 04:45:51.240
think you just speaking fas fass.

1743
04:46:03.040 --> 04:46:04.919
S s.

1744
04:46:07.520 --> 04:48:10.080
S s sure supshus englished in exists, set a.

1745
04:48:30.400 --> 04:49:07.639
Yes, yes, let's fake this again. Spoke It's time keeps

1746
04:49:26.759 --> 04:50:02.119
its fists so much, it's such as

1747
04:50:02.720 --> 04:50:27.479
To stand as