June 25, 2025

(music) (5 hours) Thank You | LMBYTS #1382 | Jason Newland | 25th June 2025

(music) (5 hours) Thank You | LMBYTS #1382 | Jason Newland | 25th June 2025
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Hello, and welcome to Jasonnewland dot com. My name is

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Jason Newland and hello, Hello, how are you good? It's

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hot so hot in here. Today is the twenty fifth

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of June two thousand and twenty five, and it is

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six thirty four pum. So please only listen when you

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can safely closerize.

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Oh tired, very tired.

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Oh so something on there? Why is that not giving

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me analytics? That's strange. It's very strange. It's going on podcasts,

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so I've got multiple podcasts. Why is it not give

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me analytics? So I'm just looking at the analytics, get

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insights by your website, visiting my stats. Okay, it's not

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given me any of the moment. It doesn't matter. It

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doesn't matter when I got my website back. The person

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who runs the podcast or I don't know, telling me off.

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You can't keep stopping, you can't keep you deleting it

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because otherwise you know, I can't keep There's a lot

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of work to get it back. It's okay, you need

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to joining annual. So I can't afford anal. I said,

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well you need to. You have to pay for anal

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because it's basically we need to know that you can

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stay for the full year, and I said, well, I

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can't afford. I can't do that. I can do monthly.

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And in the end he said, okay, then monthly is

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So that was all right. I'm going to go onto

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Facebook because I had a few comments. I'm going to

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read out some of the messages that I've had on Facebook.

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My back is hurting. I think with all the car

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journeys and the bus journeys, there's a lot of jolting

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around on the roads. They're not very smooth, a lot

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of them. I've noticed that's kind of jolted my back

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quite a lot, and I'm not used to it. So

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I'm not sure what else whatever reasons, reasons, I don't

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know what they are from my back is so. So, look,

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I did do a recording. Actually I did a recording.

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According to this, I did a recording on Saturday as well,

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which I don't remember doing. And it was a deep

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sleep whisper hypnosis recording which I did on the twenty

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second of June, which was indeed Sunday. Twenty second of

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June was Sunday, all right, so I did it. I

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don't remember doing a recording on Sunday. How did I

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manage to do that? Weird? Strange? So technically, so this

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is the third one of the week because I did

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do one Sunday, did one Monday. No, I didn't do

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one Monday. I did one yesterday, which was Tuesday. And

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it's kind of strange. It's all being a bit weird.

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It's just been weird. It's been a weird week. Weird, weird, weird, weird.

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If you want to know more about that, then I

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suggest you listen to yesterday's recording to save me go

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through it again and boring those that already have ingested

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the boringness of yesterday as a recording, just to say

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that I've been visiting a neighbor in hospital and that

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would be yeah, that's kind of been the whole week

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so far. So Friday night and then Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday,

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so six days in a row. I've been going up

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and back and forward to the hospital. Six So it's

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what twelve journeys or thirteen fourteen fifteen maybe if you

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include the buses, sixteen seventeen eighteen journeys, because the buses,

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it's two journeys to get here. But I genuinely cannot

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remember which days I've got a taxi, which days I

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got bus, Which days have got a lift from a neighbor,

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paid them ten pounds to take me. It's a bit

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of a blur, a bit a blur. Today I got

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a taxi there and back because it took me two

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hours to get home last night or yesterday afternoon on

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the bus or two different buses. With the walk in

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the waiting and the journeys, it's a two hour journey.

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And I just I just think of a little Vinnie

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waiting here for me because it doesn't eat his dinner,

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doesn't it Just like Lazier pining for me. I imagine

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he doesn't doesn't like it when to go out, really

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doesn't like it when I go out, really really doesn't

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like it. And I found there that's weird, a breakfast

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cereal in the middle of the settee buttocks, you know,

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been between the two buttocks of the city increase. Yeah,

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I'm just going to try to remember what happened today,

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what happened today. Last night was weird. Okay, this is

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very strange, Vinnie. So I had a sleep in the

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afternoon like I just did. Just now, as well, so

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I had to put it about an hour, hour and

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a half sleep and then he started barking someone in

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the garden. So what I did is I went to bed.

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It wasn't an early night last night, funny enough, probably

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about eleven, maybe half eleven, even because I did the recording,

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which was nearly was an hour and forty minutes before

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going to bed. And yeah, it's just just the way

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it went, I guess because my sleeping is a little

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bit out because really ever since Friday, because normally I'm

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up on I go to bed about ten o'clock, sometimes eleven,

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sometimes nine, you know, on a weekend if it's boxing on,

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i'd go to bed after the box have finishes, and

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sometimes that can be about half eleven twelve. But generally,

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and it's not because I have to, I don't go

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to bed at ten because that's my bedtime and I

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get in trouble if I don't. I don't have anyone

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coming in checking that my eyes are closed. It's I

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think that would be really weird, wouldn't it, especially as

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I live alone. So I choose to do that, and

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that's kind of been my routine for the last couple

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of years. Really Friday, I was up till I was

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at the hospital to about half three in the morning.

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I'd already gone to bed at ten and kind of, yeah,

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that didn't work out, So I ended up in the

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hospital with my neighbor, and then I got home probably

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just after four. It was quite a quick journey because

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there was no traffic on the roads really, but I

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was too or I was tired. I was too awake

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to go to sleep, and I was also really hungry

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because I hadn't eaten since probably six o'clock in the evening,

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so I needed I had some breakfast seal, which is

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all I needed really, just something, just a little bit

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of food. So I didn't go to bed hungry, and

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I eventually went to sleep. I fell asleep in a

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chair here, woke up about eight nine, about eight o'clock

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year and then I went Saturday, I just started again.

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I think I left at eleven or midday Saturday to

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go to the hospital, and I've been back and forward

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every day. But I don't seem to have caught up

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my sleep, which is probably a bit weird. But I

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kind of don't, yeah, kind of bit and there isn't

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it that whole theory that you can never catch up

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on your sleep. I don't know. Last night I went

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to bed a bit later than I normally do, which

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is fine because I'd had a sleep in the afternoon.

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It's usually this is going to sound weird. I quite

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often have an afternoon nap in my normal day to day,

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but I haven't had that, you know, for the last week.

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I'm not sure if it's a good thing or about

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all a neutral thing. I don't know, just it just

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hasn't happened. So I'd like a late or early evening

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nap instead. Last night Vinnie would we would not get

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on the bed with me. He refused to get on

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the bed, and I didn't really understand why it wouldn't

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like he refused point blank to get on the bed

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with me. So I took him, I think, and then

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he did get on eventually eventually did, but he was

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being really weird about it. And then at two o'clock

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this morning, he was on the floor looking up at

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me from the floor, you know. And I don't know.

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I guess he must have been making some noise or

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scratching at the bed or something to wake me up.

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And I said, what is it, Lassie, and nothing. So,

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I mean, Lassie is such a ridiculous TV show if

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anyone ever watched it, dogs communicating and letting you know.

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If Lassie was a Jack Russell like Minnie, that show

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would last for five minutes and the end, in the end,

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that just that'd be it. It'd just be like, what is it?

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What is it?

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Oh?

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You want to you want to treat? Okay, that's it.

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And he just jumped up when I said that. So

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about two o'clock, I don't know what's going on, so

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I give him some food. I thought maybe he's hungry.

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He eats the food and I go and lay down again,

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and he's still standing there or sitting down staring at me. Now,

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I don't have any treats. Run out of treats for him.

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I still got these little bony things that he can

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have chew on, but I've got no treats. He's got

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through them. I haven't been able to do any shopping

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this week yet. I got some milk from the hospitals.

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That's kind of all I've got. I've got been trying

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to eat when i've been out, and I have crumpets

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for my dinner tonight, so that's good. I got them

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from the hospital as well. And I can't believe the

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restaurant's closed. I was going to have a meal because

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when my neighbor's having his meal, I go and go

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and get something to eat. And so far as just

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being costers like a toasted sandwich thing, a toasty or

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whatever they call them. But I thought, oh, I'll try

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out the restaurants. It was closed at the weekend, I'll

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try that out. And I went along and turns out

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it's being refurbished, so it's just not open for anyone,

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including stuff. I think the staff are taking sandwiches in. Well.

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Actually I did see a lot of the nurses and

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doctors in costers, so I imagine they're getting quite good

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a good amount of money coming in. I hope that

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they get a discount. I really do. And in fact,

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without getting political political, nurses, doctors, they shouldn't pay a

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damn thing. Anyone who works in the hospital should get

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free food, or school kids or school kids and teachers

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should get free food. I'm going further, everyone should get

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free food. Okay, I'm now back. So I I've got

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some messages to read out, Okay, so I'm going to

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do that in a minute. The I just didn't know

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what to do. I didn't what what what is it?

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What is it? Benny? What is it? I didn't I

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can really figure it out. It was bugging me. But

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he wasn't being obvious of what he wanted. He wasn't

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running towards the front door, he wasn't looking at the

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kitchen door. He wasn't you know, he wasn't doing anything particular.

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So in the end, I thought, maybe he needs a

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wee wi or something else, you know, so I'll take

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him outside into the garden. For some reason, it wasn't

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really that dark out there. It mean, it's normally dark

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at two clock in the morning, but it was relatively light,

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so I went out there. He does go for a week,

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but that's not what he wanted. And he kept looking

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at the doorway of the other building. And I don't

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really know why. I'm just like, why two o'clock in

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the morning. And then he I dropped the hand you know,

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the handle for the lead, because I have to have

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my lead on he's in the garden, otherwise he will just

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run off. I dropped the lead on the floor and

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it made a big old bang like bang, actually was

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less of a bang, more of a splat or clap,

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you know, plasticumn concrete, and a bit like I imagine Pamela

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Anderson doing some break dancing anyway. So that's quite a

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really old reference, isn't it. Really, that's like a nineties reference.

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I mean both of them are kind of nineteen I

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mean breakdancing more nineteen eighties, isn't it. I love Breakdancing

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the movie Breakdancing or is it Breakdancing A Breakdancer? It

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was one of the best movies ever at the time.

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And when do you see it ever played? Not in

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this country. I've don't think I've ever seen it on TV.

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It's like a forgotten movie. And it was absolutely brilliant.

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It was uplifting, it was and the dance techniques were phenomenal.

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It was new, you know, and that wasn't new new.

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I suppose anything that goes into a cinema would have

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probably been around for years. I've seen footage of Michael

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Jackson doing the robot walk in the seventies, like in

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seventy five, seventy six, So it wasn't a new a

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new new thing, but it was amazing. And there's a

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couple of those movies that are really good. Now, I've

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realized a few things over the years. Over the years,

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I've learned a few things. First of all, I can't

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listen to someone like me. My neighbor is kind of

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a little bit like me. But when it comes to sport,

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he will talk about sport, sport or politics. That's his thing,

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and he can talk about it. He could. I think

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he could do twelve hours straight and you just keep talking.

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And he's very passionate.

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It's very.

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loves talking about stuff. And I struggle. I struggles because

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I'm not interested. If it's a subject i'm not interested in,

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my eyes do glaze over, and I can't. I can't listen. Now,

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it took me many years to realize that people's eyes

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were glazing over when I was talking because I so

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much Now, you know, I suppose ever since I learned

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to be a counselor, I kind of learned a bit

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more communication skills, human communication skills. And also when I

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was a excuse me, when I was a salesperson on

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the phones, working in a call center. So it's a

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you know, it's a conversation so I had twenty years

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of learning to do that stuff. Twenty five years of

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learning to do that stuff, I guess now twenty years,

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ten years, I don't know, however many years. But my

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favorite is probably just a monologu where I just talk

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at people. But I know I can't do that apart

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from when I do these recordings, and I learned years ago.

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Like I remember seeing people's eyes glaze over. I didn't

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I was doing it, and I didn't notice the glaze,

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the glazing of their eyes until I started learning about hypnosis,

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and I started at that time, I started playing around

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with it because I'd move from what I was talking

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about out to something completely different and they didn't even notice.

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That's when I realized that I was naturally a hypnotist,

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like my natural like I was hypnotizing people without even

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realizing O came not maybe not hypnotizing, putting them into

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a chance without realizing. I was doing it and making

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a focus and then almost drift, you know, not really

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be there, be there, but not be there. It's kind

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of a weird, weird one. And so what I started

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doing is playing with it. Sometimes I have to have

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a drink sometimes and this is in the late nineties. Okay,

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when I was in full hypnotic mode, I would start

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talking to someone and then I would just lead and

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I just keep talking, and they just look at me,

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and I just keep talking and they just keep talking,

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and see how long I could talk a complete nonsense

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before they realized I was just talking complete nonsense. And

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sometimes I could go on for like ten minutes and

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I'd ask them a question and be like, h and

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it had gone. They'd been somewhere else. They'd like, really, well,

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they weren't there. And I used to play with that

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just because for fun. I wasn't doing it in a

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harmful way. I wasn't giving them suggestions or anything. I

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would just distracted them and then started talking about lawnmowers

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and gremlins and pizza and you know, I just think

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things that had nothing to do with why we were

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actually having a conversation. I was like, wow, I mean, technically,

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I could have started these podcasts in the late nineties.

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I could have started to Let Me Boy You to

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Sleep in nineteen ninety nine, ninety eight, ninety nine, which

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would make me one of the longest podcasts of all time.

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But I didn't. I mean, podcasts I don't think we

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even really around them. But you know, I could have

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made audios. There were ways of listening to audio online

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back then. So yeah, it's too late now. But it's

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too late now. I can't go back and start it earlier.

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I mean, it's the old saying, isn't it. When's the

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best time to start something? Now? There's never a good time.

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The best time is now. I thought, don't ever wait,

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you can wait and wait and wait. I still know

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something like that. It was always, oh, I'm going to

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do this when this happens, and then you end up like,

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still haven't done it thirty years later. And I've been

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like that many times over the years, and I probably

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still will be. I'm a bit like that with vacuuming

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the carpet. I'll do it. I was gonna say, I'm

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going to do it next week, I'm going to do

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it the next two weeks. They started off I'm going

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to do it this afternoon. Then no, I'm going to

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do it tomorrow. I'll do it before Saturday. I'll do

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it next week. I'll do it over the weekend. I'll

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do it next week. And now I'm kind of like

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I'm gonna I'm going to vacuum before I'm sixty, you know,

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kind of the deadlines kind of extended somewhat. Now I'm

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going to read these messages out because there was a

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point to what I was saying, and I've forgotten what

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it is. Here's one message from yesterday. Sebastian believe it

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or not, left another weird message. So let's have a look.

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What did Sebastian rite stop producing when you're feeling unwell?

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You own me sex, but not daily recordings. No need

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to risk a blip. You did well with helping your neighbor.

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I'll just put question marks to answer that one.

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The thing is, it's.

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I'd rather make a recording. I still talk boringly. Think

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about it. How often do I actually if you can

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hear that dog in the background, how often do I

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actually do anything? I rarely leave the flat. I don't

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really go out and do much. So this has given

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me stuff to talk about. So it's kind of, you know,

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from that sense. I know it's kind of a weird subject.

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Hospitals and stuff, and he wants to hear about hospitals.

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But I'm not going to go into detail about anything

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about hospital. It's just somewhere that I'm actually visiting at

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the moment, and so, you know, I understand kind of

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where seb asked Sebastian is coming from. But yeah, so

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part of that was nice. But yeah, like I owe

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him what? So he writes what to Sebastian and to me,

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are these additional services now being offered to you?

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They are?

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But not to him, so Thoe yes, but Sebastian, no,

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definitely not. And then Sebasti decided that the picture looked

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like Harvey kai Tel on my image, and Christine says,

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it was really interesting and could understand your situation and

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now I know what to do if I was in

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your position. You are an amazing neighbor and friend, a

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good person. We could do with more kind, caring people

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like you. You'll be exhausted after all that. Thank you

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for sharing the story, and I wish you your friend well.

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Thank you, Christine. Yeah, it has been exhausting. I think

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weird today. He was being awkward today. He was being

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a little bit aggressive verbally not I don't know, it's

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hard to explain, but he was getting a little bit

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and ANTSI is that word antsy, A little bit and argumentative.

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So I don't really know what was going on with him. Well,

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I can guess, you know what's going on. I know

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what's going on with him, but I can guess that

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he just may I don't know. It was a weird

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one because he's he seems to be a little bit

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different each day. He's very calm, very softly spoken, but

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then when he gets going, he's he kind of started

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getting a bit angry, like expressive expressive. Yeah, maybe not

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towards me, a little bit towards me, but towards what

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he was talking about and like complaining about something. It

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was like, okay, it's like a maybe a different side

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to him that I've not really seen much of. Perhaps,

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So yeah, it was a bit weird. I mean, I

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kind of at one point, you're saying, well, you go

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and get back to Vinnie. I think he was almost

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trying to kick me out. It's I think I'd annoyed

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him at some point I said something that must have

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annoyed him. So I think he might be thinking that

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I'm the one that was being annoying, and I'm thinking

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that he was the one being not annoying.

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I don't know.

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There was one point where we walked through the hospital

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because I take him out every day, and I don't

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think he I'm not sure if he really appreciates going out,

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But all the other people in his ward are not

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allowed out. He's allowed out because he's got he's got

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his mobility and he's got me and I kind of

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take him and he's not walk. It's weird, but he's

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not walking away. He used to walk. He's very he's

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getting on a bit, but he's he's been walking to

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the petro station every day since I've known him, and

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now said, he's walking like one foot in front of

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the other, very slowly and almost holding on to me

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at times. But he's physically fine, he said, So I'm

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kind of a little bit confused, but so we're walking

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really slowly through the hospital. It reminded me a little

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bit about when my nan had I wasn't say when

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she had her hip, but she always she always had

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two hips, but when she'd like her that damaged her hip.

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And he tripped up on some lino that was sticking up,

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which was in the middle of a doorway. It was

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quite close to the exit and the entrance and some

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people on the left hand side. I don't know what

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they were doing, but they laughed. He didn't fall over,

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so I grabbed him, but he didn't fall over anyway,

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because you know, he kind of got his foot in

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and I the thing is, the people that laughed might

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have just been laughing anyway, They might have just been

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in the middle of a conversation. So I just I

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had to blank that out. My natural reaction is to

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possibly say something, so no, no, no. So I turned

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to the reception because there's literally a help desk right

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next to where he tripped, and I said to him

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that he's literally has a bit of lino sticking up

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off the floor and he tripped, luckily didn't fall over,

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but that's an accident waiting to happen, and a lady

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beyond account. I said, okay, I'll get the whatever to

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fix it. Still wasn't fixed when I left. I mean,

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it was only like an hour or two hours later,

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or an hour and a half that I left later.

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But it's like, that's a health and safety issue. It

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needs to be done quickly because thousands of people are

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walking through there every day, thousands and thousands. But it

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was it was weird because even though he's only I mean,

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he's very light, I imagine compared to me, he can't

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wait very much. Even then it's it's someone falls, it's

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hard to stop them from fording, isn't it. I'll stop him,

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you know, if it means he lands on me, I

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will stop him from falling. But at the same time,

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I don't want him to get hurt. And it was

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weird because putting his arm out to just generally as

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we're walking, sort of almost like to keep his balance.

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I'm kind of I'm just a little bit confused with

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the whole thing because I've never seen him do that before.

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So we're outside, and he's we've been out every day.

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I took him outside, and a lot of people don't

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get to go out in the sun, you know, they're

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kind of stuck inside the ward. And all the people

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in his ward are just they haven't been able to

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leave for days, some of them. One's waiting to go home,

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I think soon. And he spent six days without going

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outside until his daughter came and took him out. So

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I think it's good to take him out, But then

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he he kind of doesn't want to go out. It's

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almost like, let's go, let's go for a little walk,

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go into the because there's see it's a lot of

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seating outside and it's lovely day. It has been nice

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every day this week. Even when it was windy and cloudy,

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it was still nice. You know, it's still a nice temperature.

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But he's got like, okay, just just wait, it's fine.

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So I don't know. I don't know if he's struggling

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with the with the walking and just not mentioning it.

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I don't know, really, I don't know. I am turning

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into a fuss pot. Now. I was a fuss pot

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with Luke and he got annoyed with me. But I

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haven't needed to be a fusspot since that time. And

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over in the last six months, I've turned into a

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bit of a fuss spot with my neighbor that's in hospital,

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just with helping him with his bills, helping him with

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his just finding out stuff that he's ignored, trying to

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help him to get it sorted. But over the last

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month I haven't needed to really do anything, or maybe

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the last two months even because he's just been happily

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doing his thing. I see him when I see him,

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and usually see him a couple of times a week,

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maybe three times a week. He asked me, if he

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needs me to do something, I'll do it. And really

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the only reason he contacted me not contacting I see

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him fairly regularly, but he contacted me to because he

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phones me like once twice a week, even though I'm

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just opposite of like if he wants to just talk

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about sport or something, and that's when I don't answer

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the phone, that's terrible. But he needed my help with

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some stuff regarding the bathroom being done, so I said

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I was going to help him, just that he wanted

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to get the flat prepared before they builders came in

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and stuff like that, and we were going to try

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and talk to electrician to try and disconnect his cooker

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and maybe also see if we can get someone the

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plumber to connect his washing machine. Neither of those things

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have happened to be fair because it's other things have

469
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come up. But now the last week I seemed to

470
00:35:41.559 --> 00:35:46.800
be I'm not I'm not, I'm okay, I'm not seeming

471
00:35:46.840 --> 00:35:49.480
to be a fussy a fuss pot. I have been

472
00:35:49.519 --> 00:35:51.639
a fusspot and I know it, and I know it's

473
00:35:51.639 --> 00:35:53.960
annoying because I wouldn't like someone doing it to me.

474
00:35:57.239 --> 00:36:03.760
I don't know why why I'm like, that's it's almost

475
00:36:03.880 --> 00:36:09.119
like I'm concerned, and I can't hide being concerned, and

476
00:36:09.159 --> 00:36:13.239
I can't hide caring and wanting him to be okay

477
00:36:13.280 --> 00:36:16.880
and making sure that he's okay, knowing that he wouldn't

478
00:36:16.920 --> 00:36:25.039
tell me if he wasn't. That's the thing. And I

479
00:36:25.079 --> 00:36:31.719
think in the process of annoying, annoying, annoying him, it's

480
00:36:31.920 --> 00:36:34.039
I did the same with my friend Luke downstairs. I

481
00:36:34.119 --> 00:36:39.960
used to annoy the hell out of him sometimes. Is

482
00:36:40.119 --> 00:36:43.440
so yeah, it's one of those things. I mean when

483
00:36:43.440 --> 00:36:47.480
I left today, I left it too, and I didn't

484
00:36:47.480 --> 00:36:50.639
want to go back, like ever again. I was going

485
00:36:50.719 --> 00:36:52.519
to go back, but I was I told him not

486
00:36:52.599 --> 00:36:56.079
coming back tomorrow. So I haven't been able to do

487
00:36:56.119 --> 00:36:58.480
my shopping. I haven't really been able to do much here.

488
00:36:59.280 --> 00:37:01.199
I need to get bit of I maybe you to

489
00:37:01.199 --> 00:37:08.800
do some washing the other day and some laundry. But yeah,

490
00:37:08.920 --> 00:37:15.719
I thought tomorrow's Thursday, and I can get some get

491
00:37:15.719 --> 00:37:20.280
a few bits done here and get my just have

492
00:37:20.360 --> 00:37:22.880
a day off to be fair, just have a lie in,

493
00:37:24.079 --> 00:37:29.800
not have to do anything. And then my neighbor called.

494
00:37:29.840 --> 00:37:32.960
A different neighbor called up about an hour ago, saying

495
00:37:33.000 --> 00:37:36.159
do I want to lift tomorrow? So I asked her,

496
00:37:36.480 --> 00:37:39.679
I give her ten pounds to take me when she can.

497
00:37:39.800 --> 00:37:45.119
She should take me once. And it's really she she'll

498
00:37:45.159 --> 00:37:48.880
offer when she's going out herself, so she's not going

499
00:37:48.880 --> 00:37:51.400
there specifically for me, but she's going anywhere near there.

500
00:37:51.519 --> 00:37:55.280
She'll to the hospital. She'll give me a lift. And

501
00:37:56.679 --> 00:37:58.119
she called me up and said, I can take you

502
00:37:58.199 --> 00:38:02.360
tomorrow morning. So I thought, well, okay, I'll do that.

503
00:38:02.880 --> 00:38:06.719
And I called up my neighbor the I'm trying not

504
00:38:06.760 --> 00:38:09.880
to say his name, my neighbor opposite me who's in hospital.

505
00:38:10.199 --> 00:38:13.199
I called him up just to see have you had

506
00:38:13.199 --> 00:38:17.360
any other you know, just like I'll buy the one

507
00:38:17.440 --> 00:38:21.320
coming tomorrow, he said, really, So he seemed like he

508
00:38:21.440 --> 00:38:24.920
was quite pleased that I was coming, which is weird

509
00:38:24.920 --> 00:38:28.280
because he seemed really pleased that I was leaving today earlier.

510
00:38:31.159 --> 00:38:34.039
It's just weird. I think I just annoying him, I think.

511
00:38:35.079 --> 00:38:39.639
And so he's still got a bit of resentment, I

512
00:38:39.639 --> 00:38:41.719
think towards me, because he wouldn't be in there if

513
00:38:41.719 --> 00:38:48.239
it wasn't for me, and even though he needs to

514
00:38:48.280 --> 00:38:52.960
be in there, and some people would argue the other way,

515
00:38:53.000 --> 00:38:57.199
but you know, generally if he hadn't he had joined this.

516
00:38:57.760 --> 00:39:00.360
You know, he needed to be in hospital. He needed

517
00:39:00.400 --> 00:39:03.119
treatment for jaundice. He wouldn't have got any if he hadn't,

518
00:39:03.239 --> 00:39:07.599
if I hadn't called the paramedics, even if he could

519
00:39:07.599 --> 00:39:13.199
get treated at home, you know, he I'm not sure

520
00:39:13.199 --> 00:39:15.360
if Jordice goes away on his own. To be fair,

521
00:39:15.400 --> 00:39:18.000
I don't know enough about it, but I do know

522
00:39:18.119 --> 00:39:29.000
that it's basically it's serious. So I think he holds

523
00:39:29.000 --> 00:39:32.559
that resentment because I've this whole thing is to turn

524
00:39:32.639 --> 00:39:39.760
his life upside down, not just temporarily, so he's got that. Yeah,

525
00:39:39.800 --> 00:39:41.679
I think I think he'd quite like to punch me.

526
00:39:43.800 --> 00:39:46.719
I think I think is that I think he's kind

527
00:39:46.719 --> 00:39:53.239
of he's he's probably happy that I'm there and that

528
00:39:53.239 --> 00:39:56.440
he's got a neighbor that cares and whatever. I guess. Partly,

529
00:39:56.679 --> 00:39:58.960
I'm sure that I'm guessing that might be in his mind,

530
00:39:59.559 --> 00:40:01.719
but there also I saw that like part of him thinking,

531
00:40:03.800 --> 00:40:07.880
you know, I'm not sure if he makes that sounding

532
00:40:08.000 --> 00:40:10.639
his brain, but that as part of him. I think

533
00:40:10.639 --> 00:40:14.480
that just I actually actually I've asked him it. I'm

534
00:40:14.559 --> 00:40:19.639
quite blatant. I do ask people stuff. I said, like today.

535
00:40:19.679 --> 00:40:21.679
I said, you're angry today. You're angry with me, aren't you?

536
00:40:23.000 --> 00:40:28.280
And he was just because he started talking about politics,

537
00:40:31.679 --> 00:40:34.079
and I said, and he was really stuck on this

538
00:40:34.119 --> 00:40:37.159
particular story. And he carried it on all the way

539
00:40:37.159 --> 00:40:40.239
from when we was outside to when we got back

540
00:40:40.239 --> 00:40:44.599
inside and he was eating his dinner, and then after

541
00:40:44.639 --> 00:40:47.199
he's eating his dinner, he's still talking about it to

542
00:40:47.360 --> 00:40:51.519
the neighbor, his neighbor and the bed next to him.

543
00:40:52.360 --> 00:40:55.320
And I'm not sure if the neighbor next to him

544
00:40:55.440 --> 00:40:59.880
even knew what he was talking about, because he doesn't

545
00:41:00.039 --> 00:41:03.320
produce a subject again like me. This is kind of

546
00:41:04.559 --> 00:41:10.519
if I started talking about working in the meter factory

547
00:41:10.519 --> 00:41:14.519
where we used to make meters. It's a bit like that.

548
00:41:14.559 --> 00:41:17.559
It's like I'm talking about a hospital and now I'm

549
00:41:17.559 --> 00:41:22.320
talking about making the boxes, and you're going to think, well,

550
00:41:22.800 --> 00:41:26.239
am I still talking about a hospital? Because what boxes

551
00:41:26.280 --> 00:41:33.239
would you make in the hospital? And it's hard to

552
00:41:33.280 --> 00:41:36.639
follow sometimes, But I don't just sit there passively and

553
00:41:36.679 --> 00:41:39.880
listen because it is a conversation because as a person's

554
00:41:39.880 --> 00:41:43.679
there with me, and I question what you Perhaps I

555
00:41:43.679 --> 00:41:46.880
shouldn't be, perhaps I should be I don't know. I

556
00:41:47.000 --> 00:41:49.840
just say what you're talking about? Like, not in a

557
00:41:49.840 --> 00:41:53.679
horrible way, but like what. I don't say, what are

558
00:41:53.719 --> 00:41:57.239
you talking about? Now? What on earth are you going

559
00:41:57.280 --> 00:41:57.800
on about?

560
00:41:58.360 --> 00:41:58.920
Now?

561
00:41:59.440 --> 00:42:05.119
I don't do that, but I do say, uh, wha,

562
00:42:05.639 --> 00:42:06.519
where you want?

563
00:42:07.320 --> 00:42:09.119
What?

564
00:42:09.119 --> 00:42:09.559
What?

565
00:42:09.559 --> 00:42:17.599
Where you want? And at one point he said, because

566
00:42:17.599 --> 00:42:21.159
I asked him something, I don't know if I was

567
00:42:21.159 --> 00:42:23.800
talking about the lunch that he just had, and he said,

568
00:42:24.400 --> 00:42:27.480
or some question or whatever, and he said, are you

569
00:42:27.639 --> 00:42:31.159
trying to distract me from what I'm talking about? Because

570
00:42:31.159 --> 00:42:36.119
I've been doing that lately. I'm quite good at distracting

571
00:42:36.159 --> 00:42:40.360
people to bring them back to a different subject. Not

572
00:42:41.119 --> 00:42:43.239
I suppose it is. Maybe it's a little bit controlling.

573
00:42:43.320 --> 00:42:47.760
I don't mean it in a controlling way, but it's

574
00:42:47.800 --> 00:42:50.599
a ways. There's a certain skill that I learned as

575
00:42:50.599 --> 00:42:56.239
a counselor and in hypnosis sort of therapeutic manner is

576
00:42:56.679 --> 00:43:01.960
when someone goes off track, and sometimes that can be

577
00:43:02.000 --> 00:43:06.119
really useful, other times not so much so bringing it

578
00:43:06.159 --> 00:43:12.199
back to the reason they're there. So if someone's coming

579
00:43:12.320 --> 00:43:23.239
because let's say someone's coming because of uh yeah, maybe exam,

580
00:43:23.639 --> 00:43:26.920
you know, when I was exam anxiety or something like that,

581
00:43:27.840 --> 00:43:29.880
and they'll be coming for counseling because they were just

582
00:43:29.920 --> 00:43:35.599
struggling with that stuff or something similar, I don't know.

583
00:43:35.639 --> 00:43:43.440
And then let's start talking and be talking about spaceships,

584
00:43:43.519 --> 00:43:48.239
and you know, these were like I'm talking about adult people,

585
00:43:48.320 --> 00:43:51.519
not like little kids, although I did used to see

586
00:43:51.800 --> 00:43:55.239
I used to counsel kids as well. But sometimes you

587
00:43:55.280 --> 00:43:57.800
have to kind of bring it back to what the

588
00:43:57.880 --> 00:44:03.119
focus is because in Connsolin there is a I don't

589
00:44:03.159 --> 00:44:08.840
know what the correct term is where people maybe not purposely,

590
00:44:09.519 --> 00:44:17.920
maybe not like consciously move to a different subject to

591
00:44:18.079 --> 00:44:20.920
avoid I guess it's avoidance, isn't I suppose that's probably

592
00:44:20.920 --> 00:44:23.039
the word, isn't it? What do they what's it called

593
00:44:23.039 --> 00:44:30.760
when they avoid things? Oh? Avoidance? So it is something.

594
00:44:30.800 --> 00:44:33.119
It's kind of something. As a therapist, I think it

595
00:44:33.239 --> 00:44:35.400
might can be useful to kind of bring them back

596
00:44:35.719 --> 00:44:40.000
to notice that, maybe to even mention it as well.

597
00:44:41.079 --> 00:44:44.800
I noticed you've come here because you had an issue

598
00:44:44.840 --> 00:44:50.039
with you know, when you had that holiday and things

599
00:44:50.119 --> 00:44:55.079
didn't go quite well. But I'm wondering what that's got

600
00:44:55.079 --> 00:44:57.480
to do with that lego set that you had when

601
00:44:57.519 --> 00:45:03.360
you were nine. It might have something to do with it.

602
00:45:03.360 --> 00:45:07.239
It may well do it might be an analogy for

603
00:45:09.400 --> 00:45:14.000
their experience, So you know, it's it's I used to

604
00:45:14.039 --> 00:45:17.400
really I used to Here's what I used to do

605
00:45:17.440 --> 00:45:21.960
when I was a counselor. I used to be real.

606
00:45:24.159 --> 00:45:29.480
I don't understand people. I don't pretend that I understand people,

607
00:45:30.679 --> 00:45:34.199
so I ask. So the only way I can understand

608
00:45:34.199 --> 00:45:37.880
someone is by asking them questions, spending time with them,

609
00:45:38.440 --> 00:45:44.079
and genuinely asking them what's going on in your mind.

610
00:45:44.719 --> 00:45:47.400
I can't mind read. I don't pretend to be able

611
00:45:47.440 --> 00:45:52.599
to mind read. I don't know what someone's thinking by

612
00:45:52.599 --> 00:45:56.199
their facial expressions. I can kind of guess, but I

613
00:45:56.199 --> 00:46:02.360
will ask, but even then I still don't know if

614
00:46:02.360 --> 00:46:05.719
it's true, because people sometimes people don't even seem to

615
00:46:05.719 --> 00:46:08.679
know themselves what they're thinking or what they're feeling. So

616
00:46:09.440 --> 00:46:13.639
that was the way I kind of approached counseling. I

617
00:46:13.679 --> 00:46:17.239
didn't go I had the knowledge. You know, I studied,

618
00:46:17.280 --> 00:46:19.480
I had a degree, and you know, I had a

619
00:46:19.519 --> 00:46:24.480
lot of background in studying for fun psychology and stuff

620
00:46:24.519 --> 00:46:28.519
like that, and also the hypnosis background, and a lot

621
00:46:28.519 --> 00:46:37.280
of that is based in psychology and therapy. But I

622
00:46:37.320 --> 00:46:42.960
didn't go into the session thinking, oh, I was an

623
00:46:43.000 --> 00:46:49.000
expert on the human condition. I never had that. I

624
00:46:49.039 --> 00:46:53.880
didn't even for me. It wasn't about other people. It

625
00:46:53.960 --> 00:47:00.840
was just about that one person. It wasn't about were

626
00:47:01.440 --> 00:47:03.880
would the way that they were acting? Was it fitting

627
00:47:03.920 --> 00:47:09.760
in with a specific behavioral criteria you know that fits

628
00:47:09.800 --> 00:47:14.239
in that that's kind of explains the actions, like, Okay,

629
00:47:14.239 --> 00:47:16.400
they're doing this, doing that, doing that, Therefore they are

630
00:47:16.440 --> 00:47:19.519
this because other people that do that, that that that

631
00:47:19.599 --> 00:47:23.920
are this. I just take them as they were. I

632
00:47:23.960 --> 00:47:28.599
wasn't there to diagnose. I'm not a doctor, not yet anyway.

633
00:47:29.119 --> 00:47:35.400
Oh anyway, but my how was a distraction itself. Was

634
00:47:35.480 --> 00:47:41.719
that I'm talking about distractions and then I avoidance. I

635
00:47:44.679 --> 00:47:47.440
so my neighbor in the hospital, he said, are you

636
00:47:47.559 --> 00:47:51.960
trying to distract me from talking about that thing? But

637
00:47:52.000 --> 00:47:54.320
it already he told a story three times, so at

638
00:47:54.320 --> 00:48:00.880
this point kind of to three different people, and I'll say, no,

639
00:48:02.039 --> 00:48:08.159
I'm just trying to get you to focus on now

640
00:48:09.320 --> 00:48:14.239
and how you are, which is the reason I'm visiting you.

641
00:48:16.599 --> 00:48:18.960
And that didn't go down very well. I mean, perhaps

642
00:48:19.519 --> 00:48:23.119
that wasn't I didn't mean it harshly. I just it's

643
00:48:23.119 --> 00:48:25.960
the truth. I'm visited him. I'm visited him because of

644
00:48:27.599 --> 00:48:29.239
I want to know how he is. I want to

645
00:48:29.280 --> 00:48:34.079
know what he's feeling, and technically it's none of my

646
00:48:34.079 --> 00:48:36.400
business how he is or how he's feeling, so I

647
00:48:36.400 --> 00:48:39.960
can see that side as well. But earlier in the

648
00:48:39.960 --> 00:48:43.920
week he was opening up and he's sort of closed

649
00:48:43.920 --> 00:48:48.760
down again. This is weird. I don't know. I just

650
00:48:51.519 --> 00:48:57.960
I mean, my counseling skills are probably pretty much disappeared

651
00:48:57.960 --> 00:48:59.960
because I haven't been a counselor for a long time.

652
00:49:03.880 --> 00:49:10.000
But I can listen if someone is talking about something real.

653
00:49:11.920 --> 00:49:15.719
I really I find it. See I don't get bored

654
00:49:15.760 --> 00:49:24.519
with real stuff, like a real conversation about real things,

655
00:49:24.559 --> 00:49:26.519
you know, feelings and how do I feel about this?

656
00:49:26.679 --> 00:49:28.480
And opinions?

657
00:49:29.199 --> 00:49:34.880
Less interested in that Because he did say something about,

658
00:49:34.920 --> 00:49:37.960
oh do you do you feel educated now? Because he

659
00:49:38.000 --> 00:49:40.559
was talking about politics, I said, what do you mean? So, look,

660
00:49:40.639 --> 00:49:43.719
you learned something new, haven't you. I said, well, I've

661
00:49:43.800 --> 00:49:48.239
learned what your opinion is on that subject. That's probably

662
00:49:48.320 --> 00:49:52.320
stuffing that annoyed him. Actually, I said, it's just opinions.

663
00:49:53.760 --> 00:49:56.000
It's not a fact. These aren't facts, it's just what

664
00:49:56.039 --> 00:49:59.719
you believe. You you're on one side of the fence.

665
00:50:00.639 --> 00:50:07.599
You believe this about your political party, and it's really

666
00:50:08.920 --> 00:50:14.119
just that's an opinion. And it was because he's got

667
00:50:14.119 --> 00:50:16.320
a degree in politics. He's like, no, it's not an agreement,

668
00:50:16.320 --> 00:50:20.280
it's not just an opinion, it's through. And he was saying,

669
00:50:20.320 --> 00:50:22.440
I can teach you, I can teach you about politics.

670
00:50:22.440 --> 00:50:27.000
I said, well, I've got my own interests. Besides, I

671
00:50:27.000 --> 00:50:30.159
do know a little bit about politics. I do you know,

672
00:50:30.400 --> 00:50:35.119
I've not been I'm not completely oblivious to what's going

673
00:50:35.159 --> 00:50:38.800
on in politics. I go through periods when I'm really

674
00:50:38.840 --> 00:50:47.360
interested in it and then I'm not. But he we

675
00:50:47.360 --> 00:50:54.360
were talking about how one one political party always goes

676
00:50:54.400 --> 00:50:57.400
on about the other political party and what they did

677
00:50:57.519 --> 00:51:00.440
last time there was in power, and however it's their

678
00:51:01.119 --> 00:51:03.239
fault that the place is like it is now. And

679
00:51:04.400 --> 00:51:08.760
I just said to him, that's human that the tapping

680
00:51:08.800 --> 00:51:13.360
into the human nature. It's human nature to blame others,

681
00:51:14.280 --> 00:51:18.239
to want to blame other people. It's just a natural

682
00:51:18.320 --> 00:51:22.360
human instinct. So the politicians are just tapping into that.

683
00:51:25.840 --> 00:51:28.039
It's I mean, I don't know if it's a natural

684
00:51:28.119 --> 00:51:32.960
human instinct all around the world, but I'm pretty safe

685
00:51:33.000 --> 00:51:35.159
to say I feel safe to say, it's a national

686
00:51:35.360 --> 00:51:40.000
and it's a national pastimes. It seems to be a

687
00:51:40.079 --> 00:51:43.960
natural instinct in this country too. I'm not saying everyone

688
00:51:44.039 --> 00:51:46.159
does it and everyone does it all the time, but

689
00:51:47.719 --> 00:51:50.760
in a kind of majority way, it seems to be.

690
00:51:51.079 --> 00:51:53.599
I love blaming other people. I try not to, but

691
00:51:53.719 --> 00:52:00.719
it's just or blaming the weather, or blaming the blaming

692
00:52:00.960 --> 00:52:07.440
as she seems to be almost like inherited where you're

693
00:52:07.440 --> 00:52:12.039
born in this country. I mean, it might be. I'm

694
00:52:12.079 --> 00:52:14.400
guessing it's not an English thing. I'm pretty sure it's

695
00:52:15.079 --> 00:52:20.599
a worldwide thing. Anyway, I annoyed him, That's what I

696
00:52:20.639 --> 00:52:27.119
was just trying to say, and Zoe called me. So

697
00:52:31.400 --> 00:52:33.679
I got no idea what I was really saying there,

698
00:52:33.679 --> 00:52:34.599
to be honest.

699
00:52:43.239 --> 00:52:45.880
Oh yeah, oh yeah.

700
00:52:46.519 --> 00:52:49.639
So I saw just now before I started doing this,

701
00:52:49.800 --> 00:52:52.599
I had to go around. I saw my neighbor to

702
00:52:52.719 --> 00:52:56.159
discuss her give me a lift, And then I saw

703
00:52:56.320 --> 00:53:04.559
Archie's mum and I haven't seen her all week. I

704
00:53:04.599 --> 00:53:07.920
told her about the situation and she offered four Vinnie

705
00:53:07.960 --> 00:53:11.360
to stay there tomorrow because she's got a day off.

706
00:53:11.960 --> 00:53:15.880
So she said they could. Archie could be where because

707
00:53:15.920 --> 00:53:19.360
there's two dogs. There's Archie and another dog that's there,

708
00:53:21.320 --> 00:53:24.559
and then he liked both of them. He loves Archie,

709
00:53:24.880 --> 00:53:27.760
but they've got a garden, or she's got garden. So

710
00:53:27.840 --> 00:53:30.039
she said that you can figure him around and he

711
00:53:30.079 --> 00:53:33.440
can stay there. So what I did is I said, well, oh,

712
00:53:34.519 --> 00:53:37.599
like brilliant, so instead of him being on his own,

713
00:53:38.679 --> 00:53:40.840
so I'm going to take him around at ten o'clock

714
00:53:40.920 --> 00:53:45.639
tomorrow and she lives up the opposite the person that's

715
00:53:45.639 --> 00:53:49.599
going to give me a lift, and then I'll try

716
00:53:49.639 --> 00:53:51.880
and get back, I think, and get back by two,

717
00:53:52.880 --> 00:53:54.519
so I won't be able to spend a huge amount

718
00:53:54.519 --> 00:53:59.000
of time at the hospital because hopefully i'll get there

719
00:53:59.039 --> 00:54:01.800
by eleven and I might have to leave at one.

720
00:54:02.320 --> 00:54:04.679
But it's still two hours better than no hours, isn't it.

721
00:54:08.960 --> 00:54:13.159
But it's still has like four hours of the neighbor

722
00:54:13.239 --> 00:54:17.079
looking after him after looking after Vinnie, and he's never

723
00:54:17.119 --> 00:54:19.880
been to her house. So what I'm going to do,

724
00:54:19.960 --> 00:54:22.400
I'm going to give her my key to my flat

725
00:54:23.800 --> 00:54:26.199
and she knows where I live, so I'll just say

726
00:54:26.199 --> 00:54:31.920
that if he's being an absolute I don't know, if

727
00:54:31.960 --> 00:54:36.039
he's been really really naughty, then you're welcome just to

728
00:54:36.079 --> 00:54:37.840
bring him back and just stick him in the flat.

729
00:54:40.199 --> 00:54:46.559
You know that's fine, because who knows. He's never ever, never,

730
00:54:46.639 --> 00:54:51.760
ever ever ever ever since I've had him, since I've

731
00:54:51.800 --> 00:54:56.239
had him, he's never stayed around a stranger's house before.

732
00:54:57.800 --> 00:54:59.840
I mean, this person's not a stranger and his so

733
00:55:01.360 --> 00:55:03.960
I've seen her for the last two two and a

734
00:55:04.000 --> 00:55:10.599
half years walking Vinnie. So, but he's never he's never been.

735
00:55:11.280 --> 00:55:14.920
There's a video of him and Archie on YouTube, but

736
00:55:14.960 --> 00:55:21.400
they've never Actually, he's never stayed over and he's never

737
00:55:21.480 --> 00:55:26.239
really he's never stayed with anyone other than his former

738
00:55:26.360 --> 00:55:28.559
mum like that he used to live with. He stayed

739
00:55:28.599 --> 00:55:33.519
with her a few times. So this is different. So

740
00:55:33.559 --> 00:55:35.239
I don't know how. I don't know if he's going

741
00:55:35.320 --> 00:55:38.039
to behave if he's going to be a good boy.

742
00:55:38.159 --> 00:55:42.320
I hope he will be. I think he'll love it personally,

743
00:55:42.880 --> 00:55:47.239
I think he'll absolutely love it. Because but then there's

744
00:55:47.280 --> 00:55:51.440
one thing walking and playing around and stuff with Archie.

745
00:55:51.599 --> 00:55:56.039
But there's another thing. Will he try and take control

746
00:55:56.079 --> 00:55:58.039
of being in the garden? Will he be naughty? Will

747
00:55:58.039 --> 00:56:01.079
he try and escape from the garden? That's the thing,

748
00:56:01.119 --> 00:56:03.119
And if he does, I'm not going to be around

749
00:56:03.360 --> 00:56:08.199
to look for him. I just I hope, I hope, hope,

750
00:56:08.239 --> 00:56:14.360
hope that he behaves. But you know what this is more,

751
00:56:15.000 --> 00:56:18.360
this is going to be good for him because he

752
00:56:18.400 --> 00:56:22.280
hasn't had a chance to run around with any dogs

753
00:56:22.320 --> 00:56:30.199
off the lead for or since September really and now June.

754
00:56:30.719 --> 00:56:35.119
So and they've got a big garden so for him

755
00:56:35.119 --> 00:56:37.880
to run around. Actually that's not true. He did run

756
00:56:37.920 --> 00:56:41.440
around another neighbor's house who's got a dog, but that

757
00:56:41.559 --> 00:56:44.760
was a few Sundays ago. That was very brief, though,

758
00:56:45.719 --> 00:56:48.639
and he did run out of the front door, so

759
00:56:48.760 --> 00:56:52.000
that wasn't so good. So I'll make sure I just

760
00:56:52.079 --> 00:56:53.800
let him know don't open the front door because he

761
00:56:53.840 --> 00:57:00.760
will try and escape. He's so naughty, and because he

762
00:57:00.880 --> 00:57:02.800
knows where we are, he might try and run home

763
00:57:03.599 --> 00:57:07.360
thinking I'm there, although I don't think he really, I

764
00:57:07.440 --> 00:57:12.400
don't think he would. But I kind of think of

765
00:57:12.440 --> 00:57:16.840
it the if you toss it up in a sense

766
00:57:16.880 --> 00:57:22.159
of if I take him to the guard, I've take

767
00:57:22.199 --> 00:57:27.639
him the neighbors to play in the garden. It's like

768
00:57:27.679 --> 00:57:32.440
a ninety nine percent positive thing, possibly one hundred percent

769
00:57:32.519 --> 00:57:35.519
positive thing, because he's getting to do what he wants

770
00:57:35.519 --> 00:57:38.119
to do, which is run around with his friend, his

771
00:57:38.280 --> 00:57:43.039
best friend, Archie and Noodles. They're his two best friends,

772
00:57:44.079 --> 00:57:46.119
and he can't run around with either of them anymore.

773
00:57:47.599 --> 00:57:50.960
Off the lead. Noodles is the dog that he got

774
00:57:50.960 --> 00:57:54.639
into trouble with at the same time, and they're very

775
00:57:54.719 --> 00:57:57.039
naughty when they get together. They kind of lead each

776
00:57:57.079 --> 00:58:05.320
other astray a little bit, Archie less so, but still

777
00:58:05.679 --> 00:58:09.360
I've seen there's been a few dogs that if they

778
00:58:09.519 --> 00:58:12.000
run out of the out of the park venue, will

779
00:58:12.079 --> 00:58:17.440
just follow. So there's that thing, you know, that's happened

780
00:58:17.480 --> 00:58:19.920
a few times over the years. I should have learned

781
00:58:19.920 --> 00:58:20.719
from it, really.

782
00:58:20.519 --> 00:58:20.679
But.

783
00:58:23.599 --> 00:58:25.559
I just I so wanted him to be able to

784
00:58:25.559 --> 00:58:31.280
have that freedom. And he's so happy. I can see

785
00:58:31.719 --> 00:58:34.599
how happy he is when he's running around with his

786
00:58:35.199 --> 00:58:38.400
doggie friends. And he's got a few dog friends that

787
00:58:38.440 --> 00:58:42.679
he really likes. But I think Archie and Noodles there

788
00:58:42.760 --> 00:58:45.360
like at the top of the pack of because they're

789
00:58:45.400 --> 00:58:50.719
both little and they're both kind of all both got

790
00:58:50.760 --> 00:58:54.599
the same kind of energy as him, and about the

791
00:58:54.639 --> 00:58:58.079
same same age really as well, so yeah, they kind

792
00:58:58.079 --> 00:59:02.239
of Yeah, they've got a definite body like instant bond

793
00:59:02.800 --> 00:59:05.599
they had, and they've known each other for what a

794
00:59:05.639 --> 00:59:10.320
couple of years. I don't know how Yeah, probably a

795
00:59:10.320 --> 00:59:13.480
couple of years. Both of them actually noodles an Archie.

796
00:59:13.599 --> 00:59:17.519
I think Archie was first. I tell you something about Archie.

797
00:59:17.559 --> 00:59:22.519
This is weird. Archie's a proper fascist. No, he's not Archie.

798
00:59:22.960 --> 00:59:27.079
He's got questionable political No, I don't. I'm saying that.

799
00:59:30.599 --> 00:59:36.639
It doesn't click stamps either. Archie I used to see

800
00:59:37.039 --> 00:59:40.000
so I'd see Archie in the evening, like six, I

801
00:59:40.039 --> 00:59:43.079
don't wait a time that his mom would be walking

802
00:59:43.119 --> 00:59:48.079
in with the two dogs. And once I said to

803
00:59:48.119 --> 00:59:50.159
this lady, the one the neighbor, I said, you know what,

804
00:59:50.760 --> 00:59:56.400
he's got another friend that looks just like Archie. And

805
00:59:57.119 --> 01:00:00.719
they they don't run around, but because he was always

806
01:00:00.719 --> 01:00:04.119
on the lead, but we see him during the day.

807
01:00:05.159 --> 01:00:07.760
This is this, This is form about a year and

808
01:00:07.800 --> 01:00:09.519
I was saying to her, so you've got another friend.

809
01:00:10.360 --> 01:00:15.280
And after I don't know if it's a year, maybe

810
01:00:15.920 --> 01:00:18.000
nearly a year, it turned out as the same dog.

811
01:00:22.320 --> 01:00:27.360
And it was different because it was her mum was

812
01:00:27.400 --> 01:00:29.480
taking the dog out or taking Archie out during the

813
01:00:29.559 --> 01:00:32.840
day and I said to her, and we were talking,

814
01:00:32.920 --> 01:00:35.599
I said, you know what, he's got a friend just

815
01:00:36.000 --> 01:00:38.719
like that one, because I didn't see her that often.

816
01:00:38.800 --> 01:00:40.880
I saw the other one in the evenings fairly regular.

817
01:00:41.400 --> 01:00:43.440
The one during the day I didn't see very often.

818
01:00:43.880 --> 01:00:51.000
And she said, this is Archie. I said, I can't

819
01:00:51.039 --> 01:00:53.679
believe you've got two dogs with the same name, the

820
01:00:53.719 --> 01:01:03.679
same kind of dogs. And she said, oh, okay, and

821
01:01:03.719 --> 01:01:05.960
then I said goodbye to her. Then I said the

822
01:01:05.960 --> 01:01:08.760
same thing to the lady in the evening. I said,

823
01:01:09.239 --> 01:01:10.000
there's another woman.

824
01:01:10.039 --> 01:01:10.199
You know.

825
01:01:10.199 --> 01:01:12.039
I told you that a woman has got a dog

826
01:01:12.800 --> 01:01:17.400
that's just like Archie. His name is also Archie. And

827
01:01:17.519 --> 01:01:20.960
she looked at me. I think she must have thought

828
01:01:21.000 --> 01:01:27.440
I was a bit dim or I was like joking

829
01:01:27.480 --> 01:01:33.039
around or something. She said, really, I said, yeah, it's

830
01:01:33.039 --> 01:01:36.360
the same. She still mentions it now, like, how can

831
01:01:36.400 --> 01:01:37.960
you not know that there was the same dog for

832
01:01:38.000 --> 01:01:42.239
a year. Vinnie was playing the same dog, the same

833
01:01:42.360 --> 01:01:45.480
name for a year. Two different dogs, but it's one dog.

834
01:01:48.079 --> 01:01:50.639
I don't know. There's so many names, I don't keep track,

835
01:01:52.679 --> 01:01:56.119
but it's only Archie in the arch the evening Archie.

836
01:01:56.119 --> 01:01:58.079
I know both of them were Archie, but the afternoon

837
01:01:58.159 --> 01:02:01.320
Archie never used to run around with any It's always

838
01:02:01.360 --> 01:02:05.119
on the lead. But even in Archie is to run around,

839
01:02:05.840 --> 01:02:22.719
so I kind of learned his name a bit. It's weird, right, Yeah.

840
01:02:23.880 --> 01:02:25.760
I am going to do a Q and A Friday

841
01:02:26.119 --> 01:02:29.760
this week. Now, whether I do a Friday or I

842
01:02:29.840 --> 01:02:35.400
do a Saturday, Oh, I know, I'm definitely not going to.

843
01:02:37.880 --> 01:02:40.199
I'm not going to. I'm not going to the hospital

844
01:02:40.360 --> 01:02:44.840
on Sunday because the buses are just ridiculous. They're like

845
01:02:45.079 --> 01:02:48.119
every two hours if all. So I'm not I'm not

846
01:02:48.280 --> 01:02:51.719
traveling on Sunday, So I won't be going there on

847
01:02:51.760 --> 01:02:58.920
a Sunday. I'm there tomorrow. What I might do is

848
01:02:58.960 --> 01:03:01.840
maybe take Friday or off, or go Friday and have

849
01:03:02.039 --> 01:03:07.039
the weekend off. And if his other friend, because he's

850
01:03:07.039 --> 01:03:10.599
got someone else to visiting him now, is going to

851
01:03:10.639 --> 01:03:12.239
go and see him at the weekend, and that can

852
01:03:12.320 --> 01:03:15.159
kind of do that. I do really don't know. I'll

853
01:03:15.159 --> 01:03:18.960
play it by I'll play it by ear or by

854
01:03:19.039 --> 01:03:22.320
eye or by foot or whatever. I'll just see what happens,

855
01:03:22.400 --> 01:03:25.679
you know. But I'm going to do a Q and

856
01:03:25.719 --> 01:03:35.480
A Friday this week. Oh wow, So I did post

857
01:03:35.519 --> 01:03:39.920
a recording two days ago, Hi, or I might not

858
01:03:39.920 --> 01:03:41.679
be able to make a recording this week because I'm

859
01:03:41.679 --> 01:03:44.519
back and forward to a hospital. So I posted that

860
01:03:45.480 --> 01:03:47.719
I have had some comments, but I didn't have time

861
01:03:47.760 --> 01:03:50.400
to really reply to them. So I'm going to reply

862
01:03:50.519 --> 01:03:52.239
to them now. I'm going to read them out and

863
01:03:52.239 --> 01:03:56.559
I'm going to reply to them now. Unfortunately, some people

864
01:03:56.599 --> 01:03:59.239
listen to this might have just fallen asleep through boredom,

865
01:03:59.280 --> 01:04:04.239
which is a bit of a food But hey, Christine writes,

866
01:04:04.480 --> 01:04:06.800
I hope you and your neighbor feel a bit better soon.

867
01:04:07.360 --> 01:04:10.639
We'll all be here when you feel well enough. Take

868
01:04:10.679 --> 01:04:12.360
care and thank you for taking the time to let

869
01:04:12.440 --> 01:04:18.480
us know. So thank you, Christine. And I didn't after

870
01:04:18.519 --> 01:04:25.920
the Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday. By the end of Monday,

871
01:04:25.960 --> 01:04:29.960
I really just I didn't think I could be making

872
01:04:29.960 --> 01:04:34.320
any recordings. But then yesterday, for some reason, I just

873
01:04:35.039 --> 01:04:41.119
felt okay to do one. So I'm just gonna Oh,

874
01:04:43.239 --> 01:04:47.440
it really is time to go to sleep soon. I

875
01:04:47.480 --> 01:04:52.960
don't know what time it is, it's probably about seven o'clock, okay,

876
01:04:53.199 --> 01:04:57.639
it's twenty to eight, Hope wrote, take care of you.

877
01:04:58.920 --> 01:05:02.239
I hope you'll neahbor get better soon. Thank you, Thank you, Hope.

878
01:05:02.719 --> 01:05:05.719
So I put a love heart there as well. Just

879
01:05:05.840 --> 01:05:08.639
so why does it not allowed me to look up

880
01:05:08.679 --> 01:05:17.400
the that's weird. Theret's go. Maria writes, take care of yourself, Jason,

881
01:05:18.480 --> 01:05:21.400
I hope your neighbor makes a full recovery, saying thanks

882
01:05:21.440 --> 01:05:28.920
for letting us know. Thank you, Maria. Why is this

883
01:05:29.039 --> 01:05:33.760
not working? Okay? There we go. I just wanted to

884
01:05:33.760 --> 01:05:39.360
know that I have rigid messages. I just haven't. I

885
01:05:39.400 --> 01:05:44.519
was reading them in the hospital actually, and Tammy writes,

886
01:05:45.880 --> 01:05:54.320
we so well for me? What does that say? We

887
01:05:54.519 --> 01:06:06.960
so well for me? Email? Going out for health and safety? Okay,

888
01:06:08.639 --> 01:06:10.960
I'm not sure what that means. I'm I think my

889
01:06:11.000 --> 01:06:14.639
brain's going a little bit slow today. Sorry, but thanks

890
01:06:14.679 --> 01:06:21.119
your message. I'm not nie knee mail going out for

891
01:06:21.199 --> 01:06:26.519
health and safety. That probably makes sense, but it's not

892
01:06:26.960 --> 01:06:31.280
my brain. Honestly. I'm just I'm not on full full

893
01:06:31.360 --> 01:06:39.800
capacity at the moment. But saying that, I'm not sure

894
01:06:39.840 --> 01:06:45.000
if I've ever been on full capacity. Jackie writes, yeah,

895
01:06:45.119 --> 01:06:48.280
I can imagine neckering indeed, But you know something you

896
01:06:48.360 --> 01:06:52.719
have to do. Good on your mate, don't stress in

897
01:06:52.760 --> 01:07:03.400
your own time. Best wishes to your neighbor. Thank you, Jackie. Yeah, yeah,

898
01:07:03.480 --> 01:07:07.719
it's been an accurate it I think part of it

899
01:07:07.760 --> 01:07:09.880
is because I'm just not used to being around people,

900
01:07:10.599 --> 01:07:16.079
and I'm seeing more people in a day now than

901
01:07:16.119 --> 01:07:25.119
I would do for a whole year, way more. Yeah, yeah,

902
01:07:25.159 --> 01:07:27.840
more than I would do in a whole year, because

903
01:07:27.840 --> 01:07:31.920
there's literally thousands upon thousands upon thousands upon thousands of

904
01:07:31.960 --> 01:07:37.039
people that I'm seeing outside of the hospital, inside the hospital,

905
01:07:37.159 --> 01:07:41.559
walking through the wards. It's just thousands of people. So

906
01:07:41.639 --> 01:07:45.719
it's a little bit overload, I think, which is okay,

907
01:07:47.039 --> 01:07:50.000
I know what it is. Yeah, it's all right, It's

908
01:07:50.079 --> 01:07:54.360
just it is what it is. Ing says specially is

909
01:07:54.519 --> 01:07:56.800
switches to your neighbor, take care of yourself and take

910
01:07:56.840 --> 01:08:00.000
a break for as long as you need, so thank you.

911
01:08:03.199 --> 01:08:06.559
It's one of those situations I'm going to while he's

912
01:08:06.599 --> 01:08:09.199
in there. I can't. I'm going to make recordings when

913
01:08:09.199 --> 01:08:12.719
I can, and I'm not going to push myself to

914
01:08:12.719 --> 01:08:15.360
do anything really, but it's just going to I do

915
01:08:15.400 --> 01:08:18.880
them when I feel up to it. And it's just tiredness,

916
01:08:18.880 --> 01:08:23.680
that's all it is. Really. It's not anything else. Maybe

917
01:08:23.680 --> 01:08:27.159
a little bit more, but you know, it's just mainly tiredness.

918
01:08:27.239 --> 01:08:38.760
So I it's just it's disrupted my routine. But you

919
01:08:38.800 --> 01:08:47.920
know what, It's disrupted his routine as well, and so

920
01:08:48.119 --> 01:08:51.079
my routine is not really that important right now. So

921
01:08:51.159 --> 01:08:55.279
it's okay as long as I don't want to go

922
01:08:55.399 --> 01:08:58.359
like long periods of time without making a recording, because

923
01:09:00.600 --> 01:09:03.600
as it is, if I go, well, i'll tell you actually,

924
01:09:04.159 --> 01:09:08.680
I'll come back to this in a minute. Here's here's

925
01:09:08.680 --> 01:09:11.880
how the stats go. Okay, So what is it now?

926
01:09:11.920 --> 01:09:22.399
It's Wednesday, Tuesday, Monday, Sunday, Saturday, Friday. Okay, So Thursday

927
01:09:23.319 --> 01:09:28.439
two one hundred and thirty six two, one hundred and

928
01:09:28.479 --> 01:09:36.640
fifty three downloads, Saturday Friday one thousand, seven hundred and

929
01:09:36.680 --> 01:09:47.560
ninety five downloads, Friday seven hundred and four downloads, Saturday

930
01:09:47.800 --> 01:09:51.239
five hundred and forty, five hundred and forty one downloads,

931
01:09:52.199 --> 01:09:58.840
Sunday three hundred and fifty downloads. That's not right, Wednesday.

932
01:09:59.479 --> 01:10:02.079
So I've got five hundred and fifty today so far,

933
01:10:03.199 --> 01:10:06.920
but two hundred and twenty seven yesterday, two hundred and

934
01:10:06.960 --> 01:10:13.000
twenty seven is the amount I'll be getting. I mean,

935
01:10:13.199 --> 01:10:17.159
that would be bad. Ten years ago. In a day,

936
01:10:17.239 --> 01:10:18.880
two hundred and two asks like one of the worst

937
01:10:18.960 --> 01:10:22.279
days I could ever have because I've not been making

938
01:10:22.359 --> 01:10:31.279
new recordings. So Tuesday Monday three hundred and fifty listens.

939
01:10:31.319 --> 01:10:35.560
These downloads are listens, so three hundred is ridiculously low,

940
01:10:36.000 --> 01:10:43.119
really low. So Wednesday, Tuesday, Monday, Sunday five hundred and

941
01:10:43.119 --> 01:10:51.720
forty one, Saturday seven hundred and four. It's just gone down.

942
01:10:52.319 --> 01:10:54.680
I mean today, I did do a recording this morning

943
01:10:54.880 --> 01:10:59.920
or last night. I uploaded it this morning, so it's

944
01:11:00.079 --> 01:11:06.159
a rise, but it's still a small amount, which is

945
01:11:06.279 --> 01:11:10.439
kind of weird how I mean, yeah, I was making

946
01:11:10.760 --> 01:11:15.720
like two plus recordings a day last week or the

947
01:11:15.720 --> 01:11:21.039
week before, I can't remember. But the weird thing about

948
01:11:21.039 --> 01:11:28.560
it is, I it's a little bit like sales you

949
01:11:28.640 --> 01:11:32.920
run as good as your last sale, or in sports,

950
01:11:32.960 --> 01:11:35.239
you run as good as your last football game, or

951
01:11:35.279 --> 01:11:37.680
you are you know, it's only only as good as

952
01:11:37.680 --> 01:11:42.640
your last performance, which is come on, which is seems

953
01:11:42.640 --> 01:11:52.119
a bit harsh, But it seems that we're podcasting. As

954
01:11:52.119 --> 01:11:56.439
soon as I stopped making recordings, people stopped listening. Not

955
01:11:56.439 --> 01:12:02.760
not completely, but I I don't like seeing, you know,

956
01:12:02.840 --> 01:12:09.600
like yesterday two hundred and twenty seven downloads, So that's

957
01:12:09.600 --> 01:12:14.359
two hundred and twenty seven plays. Admittedly a lot of

958
01:12:14.399 --> 01:12:17.680
those would be ten hour recordings, so that's just one person.

959
01:12:18.159 --> 01:12:23.800
They're not like listening to multiple recordings, and hopefully a

960
01:12:23.840 --> 01:12:28.479
couple of people have found it useful. But to go

961
01:12:28.560 --> 01:12:33.399
from two thousand plus down to two hundred and twenty seven,

962
01:12:33.439 --> 01:12:37.800
it's a bit of a I mean, if the weird

963
01:12:37.800 --> 01:12:40.039
thing is I've only just looked at the stats. Now,

964
01:12:40.439 --> 01:12:42.000
I didn't look at this. I've not looked at the

965
01:12:42.039 --> 01:12:49.479
stats for probably a few days. I've not really taken

966
01:12:49.520 --> 01:12:51.279
much notice of the stats because I knew it was

967
01:12:51.279 --> 01:12:55.039
going to go down because it always does. It's weird though,

968
01:12:55.039 --> 01:12:58.680
because sometimes then it just shoots up and I get

969
01:12:58.800 --> 01:13:04.239
like three four thousand in a day. Is strange the

970
01:13:04.239 --> 01:13:09.039
way it goes. But I know this. That's part of

971
01:13:09.039 --> 01:13:11.680
the reason why I don't go too many days without

972
01:13:11.720 --> 01:13:16.680
making a recording, because it's almost like people just forget

973
01:13:16.680 --> 01:13:27.439
about me or forget about the podcast. Rather you start crying.

974
01:13:28.680 --> 01:13:34.199
Don't make me cry. You wouldn't like me want to cry. Yeah, So,

975
01:13:37.640 --> 01:13:39.439
I mean, it's still well, it's near the end of

976
01:13:39.479 --> 01:13:43.359
the day, really, isn't it's ten to eight, nine, ten eleven, twelve. Well,

977
01:13:43.479 --> 01:13:46.640
it's it's five hours left of the stats. Because it

978
01:13:46.680 --> 01:13:49.640
goes to one o'clock in the morning for some reason.

979
01:13:50.399 --> 01:13:53.520
So you know, I'll probably end up with maybe seven

980
01:13:53.600 --> 01:13:59.640
hundred eight hundred. It's still just such a small amount

981
01:14:00.720 --> 01:14:04.800
when you think about it, when you think compared comparisons

982
01:14:04.800 --> 01:14:10.319
aren't always use so are they? In two thousand and

983
01:14:10.399 --> 01:14:24.079
twenty one, twenty twenty one, twenty twenty two, twenty twenty one. Yeah,

984
01:14:24.119 --> 01:14:28.960
it was twenty twenty one. I think I had one

985
01:14:29.039 --> 01:14:32.640
month where it might have been twenty twenty. Maybe it

986
01:14:32.680 --> 01:14:39.840
was December. I had over nine hundred thousand views in

987
01:14:39.960 --> 01:14:46.239
one month, just under Yeah, it's just under a million.

988
01:14:47.000 --> 01:14:50.119
Let me see if I can find it. Seriously, you

989
01:14:50.159 --> 01:14:53.560
think I'm lying. I'm not lying. I'm I'm not. I

990
01:14:53.600 --> 01:14:56.079
can find it for you. Let me have a look.

991
01:14:56.640 --> 01:14:59.960
So let's go for the dates I was five year

992
01:15:00.039 --> 01:15:00.840
years ago. Isn't it?

993
01:15:01.319 --> 01:15:05.680
Oh no, it won't allow it. It will not allow it.

994
01:15:07.560 --> 01:15:09.479
It won't allow it. Why won't allow it?

995
01:15:10.960 --> 01:15:17.159
Damn? Okay, let me see if I can find it

996
01:15:17.199 --> 01:15:24.640
a different way. There's all these different ways of finding stuff. No,

997
01:15:29.199 --> 01:15:39.039
how annoying you're annoying. I wonder if there's that's for that?

998
01:15:40.760 --> 01:15:45.960
If I go back, Okay, there's another way of doing it.

999
01:15:46.119 --> 01:15:47.319
Let me have a look.

1000
01:15:48.920 --> 01:15:55.760
December twenty twenty? Did did did do?

1001
01:15:55.760 --> 01:15:57.119
Do?

1002
01:15:57.319 --> 01:15:58.039
December two?

1003
01:15:58.079 --> 01:15:58.359
Than?

1004
01:15:58.680 --> 01:16:06.319
Oh no, wait a minute, December twenty twenty to December

1005
01:16:06.359 --> 01:16:14.039
twenty twenty. Right, this doesn't seem to be working very well.

1006
01:16:15.399 --> 01:16:24.479
December sort of go that there, December twoy twenty Okay,

1007
01:16:24.640 --> 01:16:35.920
December twenty twenty. So, no, that was not the month.

1008
01:16:39.279 --> 01:16:42.800
But it was a very very busy month. It really was.

1009
01:16:43.159 --> 01:16:47.159
But it was not the month at all that I'm

1010
01:16:47.159 --> 01:16:52.359
thinking about. So maybe it's January twenty twenty one. Might

1011
01:16:52.399 --> 01:17:00.359
have been January twenty twenty one. No, maybe it's twoy

1012
01:17:00.399 --> 01:17:06.560
twenty two. Maybe it's December twenty twenty two. Maybe I'm

1013
01:17:06.600 --> 01:17:11.359
just completely getting it all wrong. Maybe it's two did

1014
01:17:11.520 --> 01:17:17.600
I say to Maybe it's two thousand and twenty one December. Yeah,

1015
01:17:18.640 --> 01:17:21.880
that must be the one that makes more sense. Actually,

1016
01:17:22.920 --> 01:17:28.039
for some reason, that's the one. Wow, that was the

1017
01:17:28.119 --> 01:17:34.600
biggest month I ever had, and I had just under

1018
01:17:37.079 --> 01:17:39.760
I've not got the exact number because it won't give

1019
01:17:39.800 --> 01:17:51.119
it to me. Twelfth of December was the biggest day

1020
01:17:51.880 --> 01:17:56.039
I had. I had something like seventy over seventy thousand

1021
01:17:57.439 --> 01:18:02.119
listens or downloads on that day, and overall I had

1022
01:18:02.199 --> 01:18:08.359
nearly a million downloads for the whole month of December

1023
01:18:08.399 --> 01:18:20.640
twoenty twenty one, and then it changed. It went a

1024
01:18:20.680 --> 01:18:24.119
little bit yeah, kind of it's not that the bubble,

1025
01:18:24.479 --> 01:18:33.560
the bubble didn't burst, but the downloads pretty much half.

1026
01:18:34.279 --> 01:18:37.439
I think the most I got was about thirty maybe

1027
01:18:37.479 --> 01:18:41.640
thirty five thousand in one day. And again that was

1028
01:18:41.640 --> 01:18:45.399
was that on the twelfth, that was the tenth, don't

1029
01:18:45.399 --> 01:18:48.039
know what it is about the tenth and the twelfth,

1030
01:18:49.159 --> 01:18:55.640
so that went down to like half. And then February

1031
01:18:55.640 --> 01:19:05.359
twenty twenty two, again it's starting to go down. I

1032
01:19:05.399 --> 01:19:09.640
had a couple of days that were above about forty thousand,

1033
01:19:10.239 --> 01:19:13.600
but it's a lot less. It was looking roughly about

1034
01:19:13.640 --> 01:19:25.199
six hundred thousand on that month, and then March it's

1035
01:19:25.279 --> 01:19:33.520
going down, so looking at like twenty seven thousand a day,

1036
01:19:34.439 --> 01:19:41.279
twenty thousand, seventeen thousand, things like that. So I ended

1037
01:19:41.359 --> 01:19:47.680
up probably getting probably about it's hard to work out,

1038
01:19:47.720 --> 01:19:53.000
maybe four hundred thousand for the month. And then April

1039
01:19:53.039 --> 01:20:03.640
twenty twenty two, it was, yeah, it went down even

1040
01:20:03.680 --> 01:20:07.720
further then, so I was roughly probably getting about fifteen

1041
01:20:07.960 --> 01:20:15.359
thousand a month a day, rather fourteen thousand, eleven twelve,

1042
01:20:15.520 --> 01:20:19.520
you know, varying, so looking probably about three hundred between

1043
01:20:19.560 --> 01:20:22.760
two hundred and fifteen three hundred thousand for the month.

1044
01:20:24.399 --> 01:20:28.199
Then May twenty twenty two, it just shows you how

1045
01:20:28.239 --> 01:20:32.560
different it is now, you know, it's and it goes

1046
01:20:32.600 --> 01:20:37.640
down again. I'm getting Yeah, it's not too bad, so

1047
01:20:37.720 --> 01:20:43.760
roughly eleven twelve a few days which were so probably

1048
01:20:43.800 --> 01:20:48.800
about twelve thousand, ten to twelve thousand a month a

1049
01:20:48.920 --> 01:20:52.960
day rather so for a while, ten thousand was kind

1050
01:20:52.960 --> 01:20:56.199
of the optimum amount that I would get in a day.

1051
01:20:57.479 --> 01:20:59.880
I kind of got used to it. This is before

1052
01:20:59.920 --> 01:21:02.880
I lost my podcast, by the way, because they had

1053
01:21:03.000 --> 01:21:07.880
music and they took them off. I actually lost the podcast.

1054
01:21:07.920 --> 01:21:14.920
I had to start again. And then we've got June

1055
01:21:14.960 --> 01:21:20.600
twenty twenty two. It's a lot less, about about two

1056
01:21:20.720 --> 01:21:23.880
hundred thousand, maybe a lot less than that. So I'm

1057
01:21:23.920 --> 01:21:28.560
getting probably roughly about seven seven thousand a day, sometimes

1058
01:21:28.600 --> 01:21:34.119
a little bit more, but it's still, you know, still

1059
01:21:34.199 --> 01:21:42.920
a nice amount. And then July twenty twenty four, for

1060
01:21:42.920 --> 01:21:46.960
some reason, the summer is quieter than the winter with

1061
01:21:47.159 --> 01:21:51.479
podcasting for me anyway, and probably because there's more to

1062
01:21:51.520 --> 01:21:55.319
do because you know, it's lighter, it's more more daylight,

1063
01:21:55.479 --> 01:22:00.760
more things to do than when it's this rain. And

1064
01:22:01.000 --> 01:22:05.319
you know, maybe maybe I don't know, I had some

1065
01:22:06.119 --> 01:22:08.000
This was an okay man. So I probably had about

1066
01:22:08.000 --> 01:22:15.359
two hundred thousand possibly, and a few really good days

1067
01:22:15.399 --> 01:22:20.600
where I had like maybe thirteen to fifteen thousand a day,

1068
01:22:21.399 --> 01:22:23.680
but a few other days where I was getting maybe

1069
01:22:23.760 --> 01:22:27.880
four thousand. So back then four thousands and four thousand

1070
01:22:28.000 --> 01:22:32.720
was a really bad day. It was a really low day.

1071
01:22:32.760 --> 01:22:37.960
Anything pretty much below three thousand was really I suppose

1072
01:22:38.000 --> 01:22:41.159
really anything below five thousand was class is quite a

1073
01:22:41.239 --> 01:22:48.680
bad day. Really. Back then then you got August twenty

1074
01:22:48.760 --> 01:22:53.760
twenty two that was starting to get busier again, which

1075
01:22:53.800 --> 01:22:58.319
is weird. So we're looking probably about three hundred thousand

1076
01:23:00.319 --> 01:23:03.279
a few days when it was less than four thousand,

1077
01:23:04.319 --> 01:23:09.199
but yeah, it's hard to it might it might be

1078
01:23:09.279 --> 01:23:13.479
less than three hundred thousand. Again, I'm just guessing. I'm

1079
01:23:13.520 --> 01:23:16.640
looking at the stats, but it's it's quite difficult from

1080
01:23:16.680 --> 01:23:19.960
what I'm looking at, but it's it's like a guess,

1081
01:23:20.000 --> 01:23:26.199
really an educated guess. Then the next month I can

1082
01:23:26.239 --> 01:23:28.319
just see, like from a pie chart, if that makes sense.

1083
01:23:28.800 --> 01:23:33.760
So it's a lot less again in September twenty twenty two,

1084
01:23:36.880 --> 01:23:40.359
and yeah, so it builds up near the end of

1085
01:23:40.359 --> 01:23:44.600
the month and then at some point I don't think

1086
01:23:44.600 --> 01:23:47.439
it's October, things go.

1087
01:23:49.479 --> 01:23:49.960
Poo pool.

1088
01:23:53.159 --> 01:23:58.359
Not yet, so October it's still okay, but all no,

1089
01:23:59.000 --> 01:24:01.520
So October that's when it went. Yeah, when it went

1090
01:24:01.640 --> 01:24:05.800
kind of wrong. I had to start, I think over again.

1091
01:24:07.560 --> 01:24:10.119
And because I was uploading so much stuff, I was

1092
01:24:10.119 --> 01:24:13.279
getting a lot of downloads, because I was uploading the

1093
01:24:13.319 --> 01:24:22.039
whole lot again. But yeah, it wasn't I was probably

1094
01:24:22.079 --> 01:24:27.760
getting one hundred thousand probably in that month. And then

1095
01:24:27.920 --> 01:24:34.520
November twoenty twenty two, so it grew a little bit more.

1096
01:24:34.800 --> 01:24:34.880
So.

1097
01:24:35.039 --> 01:24:38.920
The winter is always a bit busier. I mean, even

1098
01:24:39.159 --> 01:24:46.680
if I look at this stats from last year, the

1099
01:24:47.840 --> 01:24:53.399
I'm pretty sure like December November December kind of time

1100
01:24:53.560 --> 01:24:57.840
is generally a lot busier. So if I go November

1101
01:24:57.960 --> 01:25:09.000
last year November last year, no, not particularly. But actually

1102
01:25:09.000 --> 01:25:11.479
the reason for that is because I was using SoundCloud

1103
01:25:11.720 --> 01:25:15.359
for half the month. But the days when I was

1104
01:25:15.439 --> 01:25:30.239
on using Speaker, I was getting pretty good days December December, right,

1105
01:25:31.039 --> 01:25:36.000
I only won two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, ten, eleven, twelve.

1106
01:25:36.640 --> 01:25:39.920
Only twelve days of December did I have my podcast

1107
01:25:40.039 --> 01:25:42.960
on here. But at the same time, the rest of

1108
01:25:43.000 --> 01:25:46.159
the month I had on SoundCloud. So that's not a

1109
01:25:46.159 --> 01:25:49.000
good example of a day. I wonder why that was.

1110
01:25:50.199 --> 01:25:52.039
Is that when they said we couldn't have music again?

1111
01:25:52.199 --> 01:25:58.319
Was that another one of those situations, because yeah, I've

1112
01:25:58.319 --> 01:26:06.399
had a few problems with that jarnyery this year. Yeah,

1113
01:26:06.399 --> 01:26:09.720
that was a bit better. It's really it's up and down.

1114
01:26:09.760 --> 01:26:12.640
To be fair, it's up and down. I think the

1115
01:26:13.640 --> 01:26:19.279
inconsistency when it came to losing the podcasts and maybe

1116
01:26:19.319 --> 01:26:21.000
some of the things that I do, you know, putting

1117
01:26:21.000 --> 01:26:25.319
it onto SoundCloud, then it's back onto speaker. Although it

1118
01:26:25.359 --> 01:26:29.800
doesn't really make a huge difference to the podcast because

1119
01:26:29.800 --> 01:26:34.840
it's still available on the same places. It's probably a

1120
01:26:34.920 --> 01:26:43.680
little bit yeah, you know, maybe it doesn't. It's not good. Hope, right,

1121
01:26:44.119 --> 01:26:47.319
I hope your neighbors. How is your neighbor doing? So

1122
01:26:47.359 --> 01:26:50.039
I'm just going to put love because I've talked about

1123
01:26:50.079 --> 01:26:54.279
it in this podcast. So Rick says, sending love and

1124
01:26:54.319 --> 01:26:57.279
good vibes to your neighbor. How nice of you to

1125
01:26:57.319 --> 01:27:01.720
support her? Just let it it's a man. I've not

1126
01:27:01.800 --> 01:27:04.560
mentioned who it is. It's a man. It doesn't make

1127
01:27:04.600 --> 01:27:07.920
any difference, a man or woman. I call him her

1128
01:27:08.399 --> 01:27:13.239
he It makes no difference to me. And just let

1129
01:27:13.279 --> 01:27:20.359
you know. So it's he's a seventy eight in about

1130
01:27:22.960 --> 01:27:32.359
what's it now? He's seventy eight years old. Wednesday? So

1131
01:27:32.479 --> 01:27:35.960
not next Wednesday, next Friday, he will be seventy eight

1132
01:27:36.039 --> 01:27:44.840
years old. Not this Friday. Coming. Wow, can you believe right?

1133
01:27:45.680 --> 01:27:48.800
It's near the end of June. It's near the end

1134
01:27:48.840 --> 01:27:52.720
of June. It's nearly the end of June. It's weird.

1135
01:27:54.159 --> 01:28:02.159
I mean, the first of July is on Tuesday. I

1136
01:28:02.279 --> 01:28:05.520
just I don't know. I don't know why. Why am

1137
01:28:05.560 --> 01:28:12.199
I surprised? Is just normal, isn't it? So? I think

1138
01:28:12.239 --> 01:28:22.520
I've answered. I've read out these questions these things, so

1139
01:28:22.600 --> 01:28:25.600
thank you very much. If I haven't read them all out,

1140
01:28:25.640 --> 01:28:36.279
I'm sorry. I'm just scrolling through. So my website is back. However, however,

1141
01:28:37.279 --> 01:28:40.039
there's a bit of an issue because they've because I

1142
01:28:40.079 --> 01:28:42.920
did delete it, they're allowed for it to come back.

1143
01:28:44.560 --> 01:28:48.239
But some of it is not how it should be.

1144
01:28:49.199 --> 01:28:52.000
I haven't got time to work on it at the moment.

1145
01:28:52.640 --> 01:28:57.840
But I will get it sorted. I promise I will.

1146
01:28:58.720 --> 01:29:01.560
It's just going to take a little while. Well, I

1147
01:29:01.640 --> 01:29:04.159
don't have the time at the moment to work on

1148
01:29:04.199 --> 01:29:08.279
the website, but as soon as I've got the time,

1149
01:29:08.439 --> 01:29:11.359
I will make those fixes. I mean, at the moment,

1150
01:29:11.560 --> 01:29:15.760
at the moment, it's working fine. Generally. It's all the

1151
01:29:15.800 --> 01:29:19.840
only playlists I've got without music. I sorted that out

1152
01:29:19.960 --> 01:29:26.399
so that it was obvious to see, but it's put

1153
01:29:26.439 --> 01:29:29.479
it back to how it was before. So I'm not sure.

1154
01:29:29.800 --> 01:29:33.680
I've not even had time to really properly examine the

1155
01:29:33.720 --> 01:29:37.880
website to make sure that everything works, all the pages work,

1156
01:29:37.960 --> 01:29:39.680
or the links work. I've not done any of that,

1157
01:29:40.520 --> 01:29:45.359
and I hope it does. However, if you do go

1158
01:29:45.399 --> 01:29:50.319
to the website, there are let me have a look

1159
01:29:58.920 --> 01:30:03.239
right on my website. From all the different podcasts that

1160
01:30:03.319 --> 01:30:10.960
are on there, there's six thousand, six hundred episodes. Okay,

1161
01:30:11.079 --> 01:30:20.600
so there's twenty. There's sixty four podcasts, one video channel,

1162
01:30:21.520 --> 01:30:24.760
three blog posts. I don't know what that is. I

1163
01:30:24.800 --> 01:30:26.720
know what blog post is, but I don't know what

1164
01:30:26.760 --> 01:30:30.560
I've done it. So six thousand, six hundred and four

1165
01:30:31.239 --> 01:30:33.880
always let me look click on that. I wonder what's

1166
01:30:33.880 --> 01:30:42.199
going to show me right that different podcasts on the SULK,

1167
01:30:47.920 --> 01:30:55.840
I don't know how many there are. Well, okay, so

1168
01:30:55.840 --> 01:31:07.760
there's one hundred, one hundred times by thirteen, so one thousand,

1169
01:31:07.920 --> 01:31:13.920
three hundred episodes. This does include the different you know,

1170
01:31:13.960 --> 01:31:17.680
the ones with music, ones without music, ten hours, five hours.

1171
01:31:18.479 --> 01:31:23.119
But there's one three hundred recordings that you can actually

1172
01:31:23.399 --> 01:31:30.319
scroll through on the very first page of the website

1173
01:31:31.159 --> 01:31:34.199
if you're willing to kind of go through all that

1174
01:31:34.359 --> 01:31:37.560
is because it's it takes a while, but you can

1175
01:31:37.600 --> 01:31:45.920
also search for stuff. So basically, if you go into

1176
01:31:45.920 --> 01:31:50.520
the website, you've got one, two, three, four different boxes

1177
01:31:50.560 --> 01:31:55.920
at the top podcasts, playlists, podcast apps, and contact. Then

1178
01:31:55.960 --> 01:32:00.640
you've got two boxes below that, ones for PayPal, the

1179
01:32:00.640 --> 01:32:04.800
other ones join the boy in Jason Newland's boring group

1180
01:32:04.840 --> 01:32:09.720
on Facebook, and then below that is the latest recordings.

1181
01:32:09.760 --> 01:32:20.800
So there's six versions of most recordings. If for some reason, yes,

1182
01:32:20.840 --> 01:32:23.960
sometimes I'll only do two recordings. So I did a

1183
01:32:24.000 --> 01:32:26.880
deep sleep Whisper, and maybe it's because it was a

1184
01:32:26.920 --> 01:32:29.760
Sunday and I was busy, but I just did two versions,

1185
01:32:29.840 --> 01:32:33.720
one with music, one without. I think partly is because

1186
01:32:33.760 --> 01:32:39.039
it was so such a low volume that I just

1187
01:32:41.000 --> 01:32:43.000
it was just easier just to do one with music

1188
01:32:43.039 --> 01:32:46.800
one without rather than editing it five and ten hours,

1189
01:32:47.079 --> 01:32:48.720
because I think it would have taken a while and

1190
01:32:48.720 --> 01:32:53.359
I didn't really have the time to do it. But

1191
01:32:53.520 --> 01:32:58.159
most of the recordings I do there'll still be six versions.

1192
01:33:00.359 --> 01:33:04.560
So there's quite a few recordings I don't know. In fact,

1193
01:33:04.560 --> 01:33:06.399
I don't know now, but I can tell you how

1194
01:33:06.439 --> 01:33:10.880
far it goes back because it's the pot the recorded.

1195
01:33:10.920 --> 01:33:20.640
All the podcasts on the first page are basically yeah, wow.

1196
01:33:21.520 --> 01:33:23.760
According to this, I've got one thousand, five hundred and

1197
01:33:23.800 --> 01:33:29.640
ninety two episodes on this podcast, which means I see

1198
01:33:29.640 --> 01:33:31.199
if I can skip down to the end and tell

1199
01:33:31.199 --> 01:33:36.520
you when the first one was, because it's not that

1200
01:33:36.680 --> 01:33:39.000
far ago. It's not it's not a long long time ago,

1201
01:33:41.520 --> 01:33:47.039
long long time ago. I can still remember when the

1202
01:33:47.159 --> 01:33:55.039
music used to make me smile. Bitter beer, right or April.

1203
01:33:58.319 --> 01:34:03.000
I do appreciate the night comments you've left. This is

1204
01:34:03.239 --> 01:34:16.199
very very extremely pleasant of you. And what other things.

1205
01:34:22.039 --> 01:34:24.439
I'm not sure if I'm up to date with SoundCloud.

1206
01:34:25.840 --> 01:34:29.239
I might be a little bit behind on that one.

1207
01:34:30.119 --> 01:34:38.199
So now in February, wonder how far back it goes,

1208
01:34:42.399 --> 01:34:45.359
it's going to be last year. And when did I

1209
01:34:45.399 --> 01:34:48.000
get this for this website? When did I start building

1210
01:34:48.039 --> 01:34:53.840
this version? Was it last year? Oh yeah, I'm in

1211
01:34:53.880 --> 01:35:02.680
December now, last year December? Oh man, it might be

1212
01:35:02.720 --> 01:35:08.079
two years worth. Maybe, I don't know. I'm sure probably

1213
01:35:08.159 --> 01:35:16.119
not because this one, I yeah, because I had to

1214
01:35:16.119 --> 01:35:18.560
start the podcast again. I think they got taken off

1215
01:35:18.560 --> 01:35:21.640
because of the music and then they got brought back

1216
01:35:21.680 --> 01:35:26.600
on again, or I deleted the podcast and I had

1217
01:35:26.600 --> 01:35:31.079
to restart it something like that. I can't really remember

1218
01:35:31.239 --> 01:35:37.680
exactly at the moment. So the very first recording that

1219
01:35:37.760 --> 01:35:40.239
I did on this podcast, which is my main podcast

1220
01:35:40.319 --> 01:35:50.079
now other than They Let Me Boy to Sleep, was Ah,

1221
01:35:50.399 --> 01:35:54.359
so it's October eighth, twenty twenty four. That's when this

1222
01:35:54.479 --> 01:36:00.119
podcast was created. But I've got recordings going back to

1223
01:36:00.279 --> 01:36:05.960
twenty ninth of July twenty twenty four. I can't even

1224
01:36:06.039 --> 01:36:13.159
remember October last year. So I don't know how I

1225
01:36:13.279 --> 01:36:16.880
ended up starting this new podcast or what happened to

1226
01:36:16.920 --> 01:36:24.960
the old one. I really don't know. Oh well, so

1227
01:36:25.039 --> 01:36:34.239
there's a few recordings there. I got another message. Okay,

1228
01:36:34.399 --> 01:36:37.319
there's a few messages coming for the Q and a Friday.

1229
01:36:37.880 --> 01:36:47.760
There's two do do do do do Do Do Do

1230
01:36:47.760 --> 01:36:48.279
Do Do.

1231
01:36:48.079 --> 01:36:50.439
Do Do Do do do do do do do do do.

1232
01:36:54.239 --> 01:36:54.359
Uh.

1233
01:36:57.479 --> 01:37:07.039
All right, I need to look up at something here. Hmm.

1234
01:37:07.279 --> 01:37:13.720
That's weird. That shouldn't happen now, I'm just looking at something.

1235
01:37:13.760 --> 01:37:37.560
I've just been m optimized, right. I think I've just

1236
01:37:37.680 --> 01:37:42.079
saw it in an issue that I didn't know there

1237
01:37:42.159 --> 01:37:47.840
was there. So there's been a message. It's basically i'll

1238
01:37:47.880 --> 01:37:50.560
read the message out again at the time, but there

1239
01:37:50.640 --> 01:37:56.079
was a message about the podcast and adverts being played

1240
01:37:56.079 --> 01:37:58.800
in the middle. And there shouldn't be any adverts being

1241
01:37:58.800 --> 01:38:01.600
played in the middle of any pot casts ever in

1242
01:38:01.680 --> 01:38:08.159
my opinion, but especially not mine, but apparently there were,

1243
01:38:08.279 --> 01:38:10.520
and I've just sawt it. I've just seen the problem,

1244
01:38:10.520 --> 01:38:14.560
and I'm going to sort out that problem. I can

1245
01:38:14.640 --> 01:38:18.159
see what it is. So I don't know why I

1246
01:38:18.159 --> 01:38:23.119
think it just because I've started these new podcasts for

1247
01:38:23.520 --> 01:38:28.399
like playlists like one to fifty and one hundred and

1248
01:38:28.399 --> 01:38:32.600
one to one hundred and fifty for four different podcasts.

1249
01:38:34.479 --> 01:38:43.119
The there's a standard it automatically sets it to play

1250
01:38:43.159 --> 01:38:45.960
adverts in the middle, and I did not set it

1251
01:38:46.000 --> 01:38:49.640
for that. It's basically auto optimized ads on this podcast,

1252
01:38:50.359 --> 01:38:59.039
so get rid of it. That's weird. So there shouldn't

1253
01:38:59.199 --> 01:39:02.880
ever be adverts. If there's everyone had a lot on YouTube?

1254
01:39:03.000 --> 01:39:05.159
Is there any I don't even have adverts on YouTube,

1255
01:39:05.439 --> 01:39:12.399
But if there is, it's YouTube. It's not me. It's YouTube.

1256
01:39:14.960 --> 01:39:20.199
Because they banned me and banned me from playing adverts

1257
01:39:21.760 --> 01:39:26.119
because I think I annoyed them. I don't know who

1258
01:39:26.520 --> 01:39:32.600
I'm guessing. I'm not quite sure what it was, but

1259
01:39:32.640 --> 01:39:37.239
they said no, you can't have adverts, so oh well,

1260
01:39:37.600 --> 01:39:46.680
never mind. So I will sort that out gradually over

1261
01:39:46.720 --> 01:39:50.600
the next few days. But my plan, here's my plan,

1262
01:39:51.840 --> 01:40:00.960
is to if I go to back to my website,

1263
01:40:01.760 --> 01:40:09.880
I will with the playlists. Currently there's let Me Boy Sleep, ASMR,

1264
01:40:09.960 --> 01:40:16.079
Deep Sleep, Whisper Hypnosis, Relaxless Sleep, hypnosis daily, and Relaxation

1265
01:40:16.239 --> 01:40:20.960
for stress and panic attacks. So the let Me Boy

1266
01:40:21.000 --> 01:40:27.840
to Sleep is broken into without music, without music, with music,

1267
01:40:28.520 --> 01:40:32.319
five hours without music, five hours with music, ten hours

1268
01:40:32.319 --> 01:40:36.399
without music, ten hours with music. The only link that works,

1269
01:40:36.800 --> 01:40:39.920
the image that works is one without music. And then

1270
01:40:39.960 --> 01:40:43.680
I've got broken up into fifty categories of fifty one

1271
01:40:43.720 --> 01:40:47.159
to fifty fifty one undred one hundred, one hundred and

1272
01:40:47.199 --> 01:40:49.680
one hundred and fifty, et cetera, all the way down

1273
01:40:49.960 --> 01:40:54.920
two one thousand, three hundred and fifty one to fourteen hundred.

1274
01:40:57.520 --> 01:41:01.159
But it goes down there all with music. It goes

1275
01:41:01.920 --> 01:41:05.960
the one that works. Yeah, the latest one that actually

1276
01:41:05.960 --> 01:41:08.920
clicks on is to two hundred and fifty one to

1277
01:41:09.199 --> 01:41:13.880
oney three hundred. Still working on that one. So my

1278
01:41:14.039 --> 01:41:23.239
plan over time is to have with music five hours

1279
01:41:23.279 --> 01:41:26.680
ten hours and have all of those available, but only

1280
01:41:26.720 --> 01:41:29.479
the ones that I've already done, not going back and

1281
01:41:29.680 --> 01:41:31.800
adding music to ones that I've done in the past.

1282
01:41:31.880 --> 01:41:36.880
I didn't have music on. So this will be pretty

1283
01:41:36.960 --> 01:41:47.560
much for the last Yeah, it can only be ones

1284
01:41:47.760 --> 01:41:51.720
where Spreaker as a loud music, but it's their music,

1285
01:41:51.800 --> 01:41:53.439
so it won't be any of the old ones that

1286
01:41:53.560 --> 01:41:56.439
had ad music that I used to use. The Kevin

1287
01:41:56.520 --> 01:42:02.079
McLeod music can't use them, so Speaker won't allow it.

1288
01:42:02.199 --> 01:42:08.399
So I I will try and update all the ones

1289
01:42:08.439 --> 01:42:14.520
with music that I have, and then going forward all

1290
01:42:14.560 --> 01:42:16.960
the recordings apart from the one, so I just do

1291
01:42:18.119 --> 01:42:21.720
one with our music, one with music. They'll all have

1292
01:42:21.800 --> 01:42:24.680
the five one the five different six different versions. Rather

1293
01:42:26.119 --> 01:42:32.119
I was sending myself to sleep. It's incredible. Let's see

1294
01:42:32.159 --> 01:42:38.359
if I've had any Oh, my sister's birthday is coming

1295
01:42:38.439 --> 01:42:39.079
up in July.

1296
01:42:39.239 --> 01:42:52.159
Okay, oh, I want to get rid of some of this.

1297
01:42:55.119 --> 01:42:55.399
Junk.

1298
01:42:55.520 --> 01:43:08.560
Maw ba ooh ooh right, that's done, b.

1299
01:43:10.159 --> 01:43:13.520
B big oh yes, sir, Vinny's waking me up. Two

1300
01:43:13.640 --> 01:43:18.079
thirty this morning, we go outside. I dropped down the

1301
01:43:18.159 --> 01:43:21.279
lead on a floor. Pick it up. It's like Pamela

1302
01:43:21.319 --> 01:43:29.319
Anderson break dancing. I got distracted after that point, and

1303
01:43:29.359 --> 01:43:32.840
out of the doorway comes this big figure, which was

1304
01:43:32.840 --> 01:43:34.319
a little bit of a shock because I didn't expect

1305
01:43:34.359 --> 01:43:36.800
anyone to come through the doorway. And it was the

1306
01:43:36.880 --> 01:43:39.399
lad who lives over there over the over the road.

1307
01:43:40.760 --> 01:43:44.800
So I've lived here ten years, is now twenty one

1308
01:43:44.840 --> 01:43:46.359
or whatever. So he was a kid, a little kid

1309
01:43:46.439 --> 01:43:49.600
when I first moved in, and he's he's a man.

1310
01:43:49.720 --> 01:43:53.359
He's a grown, grown man now. But he locked and

1311
01:43:53.760 --> 01:43:55.439
he didn't lock himself out. I think he lost the

1312
01:43:55.560 --> 01:44:01.359
key and his mum was away, so I tried to

1313
01:44:01.399 --> 01:44:05.359
help him. I said, well, what can you what's your options?

1314
01:44:05.479 --> 01:44:08.520
Because he was literally just waiting around. He didn't know

1315
01:44:08.560 --> 01:44:11.760
what to do, and I said, what are your options.

1316
01:44:11.800 --> 01:44:14.680
I said, well, he's said I can knock on the

1317
01:44:15.000 --> 01:44:20.600
neighbor opposite. He's got a key, but he's he'll be asleep.

1318
01:44:20.680 --> 01:44:23.800
I said, well, then wake him up. Then he didn't

1319
01:44:23.800 --> 01:44:25.199
want to wake him up, and I said, look, that's

1320
01:44:25.239 --> 01:44:28.279
the whole point of having a key. It's for emergencies.

1321
01:44:29.520 --> 01:44:33.159
It's if you locked yourself out at two in the morning,

1322
01:44:34.680 --> 01:44:39.439
that's an emergency. And that's the whole point. Really, that's

1323
01:44:39.479 --> 01:44:43.600
you know, that's that's my it's an opinion, but you

1324
01:44:43.640 --> 01:44:48.840
know that's how I kind of see it. And so

1325
01:44:48.920 --> 01:44:51.600
he knocked on the door. I knocked on the door.

1326
01:44:51.840 --> 01:44:56.159
There's no answer, and we weren't going to not make

1327
01:44:56.239 --> 01:44:58.439
a huge amount of noise because he don't want to

1328
01:44:58.479 --> 01:45:01.479
startle the person, you know, so it's kind of okay,

1329
01:45:01.520 --> 01:45:04.720
less leave that. I took him upstairs, brought him upstairs here,

1330
01:45:05.560 --> 01:45:11.840
and I said, well, I'll call a council to get

1331
01:45:11.880 --> 01:45:16.000
the key, get the locksmith in, and then it turned

1332
01:45:16.000 --> 01:45:19.640
out that it's not with the council, so they couldn't

1333
01:45:19.640 --> 01:45:22.640
do that. And I said, well, you can stay here

1334
01:45:22.680 --> 01:45:26.279
if you want. You can sit down and wait until

1335
01:45:26.600 --> 01:45:28.920
a good time to knock on your neighbor's door when

1336
01:45:28.920 --> 01:45:31.920
he's awake, so I think he's quite early. He gets

1337
01:45:31.960 --> 01:45:34.880
up fairly early, and he didn't want to do that,

1338
01:45:35.039 --> 01:45:38.239
I understand, to be fair because he doesn't really know

1339
01:45:38.319 --> 01:45:42.439
me very well. But I just the idea of leaving

1340
01:45:42.479 --> 01:45:50.760
someone outside in the garden. And it's admittedly it wasn't

1341
01:45:50.760 --> 01:45:53.640
cold out there, you know, even at two point thirty

1342
01:45:53.720 --> 01:45:58.439
or whatever time it was, it wasn't cold, but there's

1343
01:45:58.479 --> 01:46:01.560
going to come a time when it isn't warm that

1344
01:46:01.640 --> 01:46:05.640
when it gets you know, by like maybe four three four,

1345
01:46:05.800 --> 01:46:09.640
there's a there's a certain time at night that it

1346
01:46:09.760 --> 01:46:15.359
really can get chilly, especially July August, but June, you know,

1347
01:46:17.479 --> 01:46:21.399
anytime really. But it just happened to be a really

1348
01:46:21.760 --> 01:46:26.800
really light evening that evening last night, so he just

1349
01:46:26.840 --> 01:46:29.600
went back downstairs and went sat in the garden and waited.

1350
01:46:30.720 --> 01:46:33.920
So and his mum was away or whatever, so he

1351
01:46:33.920 --> 01:46:37.960
couldn't couldn't get hold of her. So I've not seen

1352
01:46:38.039 --> 01:46:41.159
him to ask him if he's okay. But I think

1353
01:46:41.199 --> 01:46:45.000
that's why Vinnie was basically trying to get me, get

1354
01:46:45.039 --> 01:46:48.439
my attention, because he could he could probably hear hear

1355
01:46:48.560 --> 01:46:57.119
him down there, but he didn't bark or anything. I'm

1356
01:46:57.119 --> 01:46:59.359
not talking about the neighbor. I'm talking about him. He

1357
01:46:59.399 --> 01:47:02.840
didn't he didn't bark. He just like wanted my attention.

1358
01:47:05.920 --> 01:47:08.199
But then I'm thinking the fact that he's been left

1359
01:47:08.399 --> 01:47:11.760
on his own for most of the day, and then

1360
01:47:11.760 --> 01:47:16.640
when I am here, he's going out. He's still getting out.

1361
01:47:17.119 --> 01:47:20.039
I'm still taking him out three times a day for

1362
01:47:20.199 --> 01:47:24.560
his w alk. So he goes for one in the morning,

1363
01:47:24.680 --> 01:47:26.359
then he goes for one and to get back, then

1364
01:47:26.359 --> 01:47:29.199
he goes for another one later on, so he's had

1365
01:47:29.239 --> 01:47:37.039
three today already. It probably I might just just take

1366
01:47:37.119 --> 01:47:39.279
him in the garden for five minutes before I go

1367
01:47:39.319 --> 01:47:43.159
to bed tonight, because it's half past eight now I

1368
01:47:43.199 --> 01:47:48.159
do need to eat something, and then yeah, I'll be

1369
01:47:48.159 --> 01:47:52.720
in bed by ten hopefully, So I'll take him out

1370
01:47:52.760 --> 01:47:58.239
for go for doo weewiez in the garden. Yeah, I'll do,

1371
01:48:00.000 --> 01:48:02.680
and then I'll get up. I'll wake up whatever time

1372
01:48:03.800 --> 01:48:09.560
i'll wake up. If the border I've got, I've got

1373
01:48:09.680 --> 01:48:13.920
enough milk for my ready break in the morning, and

1374
01:48:14.000 --> 01:48:18.880
then that's it. So what I need to do when

1375
01:48:18.920 --> 01:48:22.960
I get home is order some food, get a delivery

1376
01:48:23.000 --> 01:48:29.600
that tomorrow and then just basics milk, breakfast, cereal, a

1377
01:48:29.640 --> 01:48:34.800
few bits and bobs. Yeah, that would be I need

1378
01:48:34.800 --> 01:48:42.239
to do that. Yeah, so tomorrow's kind of booked to

1379
01:48:42.640 --> 01:48:50.840
Tomorrow's planned, and Friday, I just don't know. To be honest,

1380
01:48:52.800 --> 01:48:55.840
I just don't know. I don't know. I really don't know.

1381
01:48:56.039 --> 01:48:58.399
I'm going to do a Q and A Friday, but

1382
01:48:58.439 --> 01:49:03.000
other than that, I'm just gonna see how things are

1383
01:49:03.039 --> 01:49:06.199
tomorrow because there has been a little bit of a

1384
01:49:06.239 --> 01:49:11.800
progression today since I left. He's been visited and he's

1385
01:49:11.840 --> 01:49:17.560
had some conversations with people about his situation. So I'll

1386
01:49:17.560 --> 01:49:23.560
catch up with him tomorrow and then just see see

1387
01:49:23.600 --> 01:49:28.960
what what what I can say, what what perspires. I

1388
01:49:28.960 --> 01:49:33.039
don't know, whatever the word is. So right now I'm

1389
01:49:33.199 --> 01:49:38.880
gonna go. I'm gonna have myself some crumpets, some toasted

1390
01:49:38.920 --> 01:49:45.479
crumpets with a margarine and a cup of tea or

1391
01:49:45.520 --> 01:49:52.880
a nast cup of tea, and that's it. Really. I

1392
01:49:53.000 --> 01:50:00.720
might treat myself to a cornetto hell, yeah, ice cream

1393
01:50:00.920 --> 01:50:08.199
ice cream. So thank you for listening. Remember to be

1394
01:50:08.279 --> 01:50:10.760
kind to yourself because you do deserve to be happy

1395
01:50:11.560 --> 01:50:14.880
and be gentle with yourself. You deserve to feel safe,

1396
01:50:16.279 --> 01:50:34.600
lots of love, bye, relax in a more deep and

1397
01:50:38.439 --> 01:50:45.840
meaningful way, maybe in a way that can not just

1398
01:50:46.119 --> 01:50:56.199
allow you to feel calmer now and throughout the time

1399
01:50:56.880 --> 01:51:05.199
we've spend together here, not just relaxed at the end

1400
01:51:05.319 --> 01:51:09.720
of the recording when it's finished and you can enjoy

1401
01:51:09.920 --> 01:51:27.319
that sense of comfort and peace, but also I think

1402
01:51:27.359 --> 01:51:38.560
it would be nice to have those feelings of relaxation

1403
01:51:40.880 --> 01:51:55.159
continue for longer after the recording has ended, so that

1404
01:51:55.239 --> 01:52:07.720
you can still benefit from listening to my voice, maybe

1405
01:52:07.760 --> 01:52:19.119
in a few hours time, perhaps tomorrow, and then by

1406
01:52:19.279 --> 01:52:27.239
listening regularly, especially if you find like some people do

1407
01:52:27.600 --> 01:52:31.239
and myself as well. I sometimes I find one particular

1408
01:52:31.359 --> 01:52:41.399
recording that really resonates with me, and I just listen

1409
01:52:41.479 --> 01:52:46.760
to it over and over again every morning, every evening.

1410
01:52:54.399 --> 01:52:59.039
There was this recording from We're going back to about

1411
01:52:59.159 --> 01:53:04.199
nineteen ninety nine. It was it wasn't hypnosis, but it

1412
01:53:04.239 --> 01:53:09.319
was a guided visualization, so it kind of was hypnosis really,

1413
01:53:11.800 --> 01:53:16.960
and I managed to find it again and it still

1414
01:53:17.039 --> 01:53:22.640
has the same effect on me, And part of it

1415
01:53:22.800 --> 01:53:37.520
was the person's voice relaxed me. She just felt so peaceful,

1416
01:53:39.640 --> 01:53:42.720
and I'd look forward to listening to.

1417
01:53:42.800 --> 01:53:55.079
Her in the morning and in the evening, and I

1418
01:53:55.239 --> 01:53:59.640
knew before even pressing the play button.

1419
01:54:03.359 --> 01:54:07.840
That since I've done that pressed the play button. This

1420
01:54:08.079 --> 01:54:19.520
was in the days of CD players pressed the play button.

1421
01:54:22.920 --> 01:54:25.800
In fact, it might have even been a tape recorder.

1422
01:54:27.039 --> 01:54:35.399
I'd lie down on the bed and then even without

1423
01:54:35.960 --> 01:54:48.920
necessarily listening to her words because I had them memorized. Really,

1424
01:54:53.600 --> 01:54:59.600
it was as if my body knew exactly what to do,

1425
01:55:04.359 --> 01:55:26.199
and the muscles just almost went into automatic relaxation, and

1426
01:55:26.319 --> 01:55:39.960
I remember my mind would slow down. Now. Now, I

1427
01:55:40.079 --> 01:55:46.600
was listening to this recording in the early days of

1428
01:55:46.720 --> 01:55:57.439
learning hypnosis, and long before I ever made any videos

1429
01:55:57.560 --> 01:56:02.279
or audio recordings myself, because I didn't start doing that

1430
01:56:02.399 --> 01:56:16.800
till two thousand and six, I knew, I knew how

1431
01:56:18.600 --> 01:56:32.399
helpful I found being able to just let go, to

1432
01:56:32.479 --> 01:56:37.720
have that trust in the person that I'm listening to,

1433
01:56:45.359 --> 01:56:52.119
knowing that it's going to be just as relaxing, if

1434
01:56:53.520 --> 01:57:02.920
not more so. Each time you hear my voice, you

1435
01:57:03.000 --> 01:57:14.600
may feel the same. Some people have been listening to

1436
01:57:14.680 --> 01:57:28.600
me for over a decade, maybe not solidly, obviously, not

1437
01:57:28.640 --> 01:57:34.920
twenty four hours a day, but maybe people come back.

1438
01:57:36.760 --> 01:57:50.479
Some people may be listen every day. That's something that

1439
01:57:50.560 --> 01:58:03.560
I do which you may not realize by listening, is

1440
01:58:07.640 --> 01:58:21.960
when I record these recordings now, for example, I also

1441
01:58:23.439 --> 01:58:34.720
am affected by the words that I say. So if

1442
01:58:34.720 --> 01:58:45.079
I set you focus on your feet, notice your feet relaxing,

1443
01:58:48.600 --> 01:58:56.520
I will be focusing on my feet. I will be

1444
01:58:56.600 --> 01:59:14.720
noticing my feet relaxing. If I said, focus on your hands,

1445
01:59:17.479 --> 01:59:27.000
and maybe notice the difference between each hand, perhaps notice

1446
01:59:27.119 --> 01:59:33.199
the air in the room, the temperature of the room.

1447
01:59:35.079 --> 01:59:45.479
On the backs of your hands, you may start to

1448
01:59:46.039 --> 01:59:54.119
notice what almost feels like a very light breeze, even

1449
01:59:54.159 --> 01:59:58.399
though there may not be any type of breeze at

1450
01:59:58.439 --> 02:00:11.399
all where you are right now. And as you become

1451
02:00:12.039 --> 02:00:26.439
aware of your hands, I'm also aware of how relaxed

1452
02:00:26.720 --> 02:00:50.479
my hands our feeling now. And when it comes to

1453
02:00:52.039 --> 02:00:58.079
potentially drifting off to sleep, which may be the reason

1454
02:00:58.399 --> 02:01:14.680
you're listening, I also feel drowsy when I make these recordings.

1455
02:01:19.359 --> 02:01:35.760
I also notice my mind drifting. In fact, at times

1456
02:01:37.800 --> 02:01:51.960
I've actually fallen asleep without even noticing, and then I

1457
02:01:52.119 --> 02:02:04.079
carry on talking the same. When I listen back to

1458
02:02:04.119 --> 02:02:13.159
do the editing, I hear snoring and I think I

1459
02:02:13.159 --> 02:02:23.840
don't remember snoring. I remember talking. This snoring was a

1460
02:02:24.000 --> 02:02:30.720
pick turned up. That's why I sound like when I snore,

1461
02:02:36.239 --> 02:02:49.560
I get really into a whole experience. I don't know

1462
02:02:49.640 --> 02:02:59.239
how you feel. How relaxed do you feel in your feet,

1463
02:03:02.359 --> 02:03:25.239
how relaxed you feel in your hands. I have noticed

1464
02:03:27.840 --> 02:03:44.079
more and more that the more relaxed, deeper level of

1465
02:03:44.319 --> 02:04:00.800
comfort you feel, the easier your breathing becomes. M It's

1466
02:04:00.800 --> 02:04:17.319
almost like that additional muscle relaxation. So this allows you

1467
02:04:22.199 --> 02:04:48.840
debreath easier without necessarily focusing on your breath, however, being

1468
02:04:48.880 --> 02:05:18.560
able to notice the ease in which you breathe so naturally.

1469
02:05:33.199 --> 02:06:15.880
You breathe so very easily and smoothly. Whenever I imagine my

1470
02:06:16.159 --> 02:06:32.479
breathing improving. When I've got my eyes closed, I tend

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02:06:32.560 --> 02:06:53.079
to visualize a beautiful field with trees and flowers producing

1472
02:06:53.199 --> 02:07:25.399
all that life giving oxygen. And it feels nice too,

1473
02:07:27.000 --> 02:07:45.960
if nothing else, just taking some time away from everything,

1474
02:07:57.279 --> 02:08:30.079
enjoying that feeling of peace serenity with a joyful heart.

1475
02:08:55.159 --> 02:09:20.680
Time seems to just drip by so very slowly, relaxed,

1476
02:09:26.560 --> 02:10:05.840
so deeply peaceful, completely unattached to any thoughts whatsoever in

1477
02:10:05.880 --> 02:11:08.840
this moment, completely free notice in that your mind has

1478
02:11:08.880 --> 02:11:48.439
slowed down, slowed down because nothing really requires your attention.

1479
02:12:04.880 --> 02:12:19.199
You can enjoy the physical sensations of allowing the stress

1480
02:12:19.560 --> 02:12:32.119
to drip out of your body, dripping out of every

1481
02:12:35.479 --> 02:13:00.920
part of your body and being released from your brain.

1482
02:13:06.199 --> 02:13:41.399
Un your mind slowly but surely. The muscles in your

1483
02:13:41.520 --> 02:14:33.800
legs relax rs res so very deeply, res so deeply.

1484
02:14:51.560 --> 02:15:01.840
And the feelings, the pleasant feelings in your arms and shoulders,

1485
02:15:19.640 --> 02:16:00.720
deepening each part of your body further and deeper and deeper, noticine,

1486
02:16:02.560 --> 02:16:29.159
the feelings in the back of your neck, the feelings

1487
02:16:29.319 --> 02:17:04.799
in your wrists, muscles.

1488
02:17:06.239 --> 02:17:18.760
In front of your body, I will.

1489
02:17:18.760 --> 02:18:07.799
Say, feeling peaceful, deep there's a sense of peace spreads

1490
02:18:07.840 --> 02:18:10.840
through your very core.

1491
02:18:42.079 --> 02:19:02.120
And when you focus on your mind, oh my, and becomes.

1492
02:19:08.600 --> 02:20:31.440
E and slowerven, deeper, relaxing, so very slow. His stomach,

1493
02:20:45.559 --> 02:21:33.040
it's Fellini's stomach, her back. Notice Notice how relaxed you

1494
02:21:33.440 --> 02:21:45.760
now feel in the hall of her back.

1495
02:22:10.920 --> 02:22:12.120
In a spy.

1496
02:22:15.879 --> 02:22:20.559
From your brain all the way down the middle of

1497
02:22:20.639 --> 02:22:43.319
your back, sending and receiving millions of messages every day,

1498
02:22:43.399 --> 02:22:59.559
deep comfort, increasing deeply.

1499
02:23:00.399 --> 02:23:31.360
Next y me.

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02:23:57.440 --> 02:24:11.159
L spreading those signals down your spine or cord into air,

1501
02:24:11.479 --> 02:24:32.879
every part of your body, your shins and your calf, muscles,

1502
02:24:58.120 --> 02:25:27.600
your elbows, Feelings of peace and tranquility spreading through your body,

1503
02:25:32.600 --> 02:25:48.879
tips of your toes, to your eyes, your fingers, all

1504
02:25:48.879 --> 02:26:34.680
the way to your lower back. M letting go, reating pace,

1505
02:26:50.479 --> 02:27:17.120
drifting mind the wonder in a way, happy to let go,

1506
02:27:20.319 --> 02:28:21.600
let go completely, let go, so tranquil, your whole body

1507
02:28:25.959 --> 02:28:53.280
enjoying a sensor listening God.

1508
02:28:58.159 --> 02:29:03.559
More could see.

1509
02:29:32.680 --> 02:30:52.959
U pace, enjoy the space, this space.

1510
02:30:55.479 --> 02:30:56.559
Of peace.

1511
02:30:59.719 --> 02:31:33.959
And safety, safe firy firy, relaxed.

1512
02:32:04.079 --> 02:33:03.479
Visions, letting go.

1513
02:33:21.360 --> 02:33:29.000
Maybe we can just focus on the different parts of

1514
02:33:29.120 --> 02:34:03.840
your body, just to notice you forehead and your eyes

1515
02:34:36.479 --> 02:35:09.360
uture so los noticing in the sense of complete freedom,

1516
02:35:21.399 --> 02:37:12.479
absolute freedom, dress day, dress day, He's fall energy paste

1517
02:37:13.000 --> 02:38:24.319
to breeze, so much ease, yeah, loose. You may have

1518
02:38:27.719 --> 02:39:27.639
or may not have noticed your mind drifted, paceful move

1519
02:39:28.079 --> 02:39:54.360
an even more deeply in the direction of total blissful pace, blissful.

1520
02:39:53.879 --> 02:40:22.840
Pace to.

1521
02:41:11.319 --> 02:42:23.479
To to pace, com so calm, lett him go, peace of.

1522
02:42:23.319 --> 02:42:58.559
Mind rex body so rex.

1523
02:43:06.399 --> 02:43:07.879
So relaxed.

1524
02:43:32.360 --> 02:44:05.600
Your body feels almost invisible, so very relaxed and pasteful, so.

1525
02:44:13.319 --> 02:44:54.559
Pace like God, sip.

1526
02:44:54.440 --> 02:45:00.719
Pace m.

1527
02:45:13.239 --> 02:45:19.479
And you could start to notice that you are feeling

1528
02:45:19.840 --> 02:45:31.120
more relaxed, even though I've not purposely focused your mind

1529
02:45:32.040 --> 02:45:39.600
upon that sense of physical comfort that is growing within

1530
02:45:39.719 --> 02:45:48.879
you throughout your body, and your mind starts to slow down,

1531
02:45:53.799 --> 02:46:01.000
and that could be almost in recognition of I guess

1532
02:46:01.399 --> 02:46:13.920
my speech not being particularly fast and things just generally

1533
02:46:15.559 --> 02:46:26.600
feel calmer. Just by listening to my voice, you give

1534
02:46:26.680 --> 02:46:34.840
yourself an opportunity to take a break from the day,

1535
02:46:35.719 --> 02:46:43.239
take a break from your life as it is, and

1536
02:46:43.360 --> 02:46:51.120
to give yourself a rest, giving yourself permission to take

1537
02:46:51.200 --> 02:46:56.760
some time off, and to allow your body to relax

1538
02:46:58.479 --> 02:47:06.440
and allow your mind to slow down, which in turn

1539
02:47:09.000 --> 02:47:17.079
releases the tension any stresses that you had in your body.

1540
02:47:20.600 --> 02:47:24.520
It's almost as if the parts of your body just

1541
02:47:24.760 --> 02:47:36.479
open up, allowing the negativity out and at the same

1542
02:47:36.600 --> 02:47:47.879
time replacing that negativity with positive heathing energy, which then

1543
02:47:48.040 --> 02:47:57.319
fills your body up and your mind to also starts

1544
02:47:57.360 --> 02:48:14.040
to appreciate those feelings of increasing confidence and almost uplifting,

1545
02:48:14.399 --> 02:48:29.840
feeling positive, healing, an energy that spreads through your body

1546
02:48:30.879 --> 02:48:41.000
like a wave of comfort. And all this comes from

1547
02:48:41.239 --> 02:48:52.840
just allowing yourself a few minutes, maybe half an hour

1548
02:48:53.280 --> 02:49:03.520
however long you want it to be, just rest and

1549
02:49:03.639 --> 02:49:13.719
allow your mind and your body to almost reset itself

1550
02:49:16.520 --> 02:49:32.319
to the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness which allows

1551
02:49:32.680 --> 02:49:45.440
more room for feelings of pleasure and happiness to move

1552
02:49:45.920 --> 02:49:54.760
around your body and into your mind, almost as if

1553
02:49:54.799 --> 02:50:04.559
your mind and your body are sinking together, almost mirroring

1554
02:50:05.360 --> 02:50:18.280
each other with that growing positivity and calmness. And it

1555
02:50:18.319 --> 02:50:26.200
feels nice, really does feel nice to know that you

1556
02:50:27.479 --> 02:50:36.040
are the one that has allowed yourself to feel more

1557
02:50:37.319 --> 02:50:44.040
comfort than to experience.

1558
02:50:45.680 --> 02:50:46.959
More of this.

1559
02:50:48.600 --> 02:51:04.000
Deep relaxation spreading throughout your body, and as I focus

1560
02:51:05.319 --> 02:51:11.520
on each part of your body, you can notice that.

1561
02:51:11.280 --> 02:51:12.239
That part.

1562
02:51:15.959 --> 02:51:28.479
Becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on it. It

1563
02:51:28.559 --> 02:51:42.159
becomes even more calm and comfortable just by focusing. And

1564
02:51:42.319 --> 02:51:47.840
as I move down your body, starting at your head,

1565
02:51:50.520 --> 02:51:57.280
the parts that you've already focused on will continue to

1566
02:51:57.399 --> 02:52:05.079
relax deeply, and those parts that have not yet focused

1567
02:52:05.120 --> 02:52:18.479
on or just automatically release any remain intention in anticipation

1568
02:52:18.840 --> 02:52:21.840
of even more comfort.

1569
02:52:22.680 --> 02:52:23.559
About to come.

1570
02:52:29.040 --> 02:52:35.440
Now, I'm going to start by focusing on your forehead,

1571
02:52:37.760 --> 02:52:46.159
just being aware of the feelings of your forehead and

1572
02:52:46.200 --> 02:52:54.040
any background sounds like mister Herbert's opinion, can just allow

1573
02:52:54.159 --> 02:53:01.280
you to feel even more relaxed. Just means you, in

1574
02:53:01.360 --> 02:53:09.440
the moment, this isn't this isn't a sterile environment. This

1575
02:53:09.600 --> 02:53:17.440
is the world. I live in the countryside, so there's

1576
02:53:17.520 --> 02:53:27.920
lots of nature sounds around. So as you focus on

1577
02:53:27.959 --> 02:53:35.559
your forehead, just notice how it becomes even more relaxed

1578
02:53:35.920 --> 02:53:44.879
as you focus only on my voice and that part

1579
02:53:45.000 --> 02:53:55.840
of your body. Moving down to your eyes, focusing on

1580
02:53:55.879 --> 02:54:09.239
your eyes, noticing how your eyelids feel so heavy yet

1581
02:54:09.440 --> 02:54:16.719
so light at the same time, and all the muscles

1582
02:54:16.760 --> 02:54:29.280
around your eyes relaxing completely. Moving your focus down to

1583
02:54:29.319 --> 02:54:36.360
your mouth, your lips, your tongue, your teeth, your comes,

1584
02:54:38.760 --> 02:54:53.479
the hole of your mouth, relaxing, calm and loose. As

1585
02:54:53.520 --> 02:55:02.520
you focus now on your jaw, the parts of your jawney,

1586
02:55:02.600 --> 02:55:07.520
your mouth, and your chin, but all the way up

1587
02:55:07.760 --> 02:55:10.799
the size of your face to your.

1588
02:55:10.639 --> 02:55:18.719
Ears, the hole of your jaw, feeling.

1589
02:55:22.399 --> 02:55:24.959
More relaxed.

1590
02:55:28.360 --> 02:55:36.879
And calm.

1591
02:55:37.280 --> 02:55:46.440
Focusing on your neck, the front of your neck and

1592
02:55:46.479 --> 02:55:59.479
your throat, relaxing and loose and calm. The sides of

1593
02:55:59.559 --> 02:56:04.879
your neck, the right and left side of your neck,

1594
02:56:07.799 --> 02:56:23.680
relax and please and calm and now the back of

1595
02:56:23.760 --> 02:56:37.280
your neck. Focusing on the back of your neck, letting go.

1596
02:56:37.520 --> 02:56:40.600
Of any tension that may have been.

1597
02:56:40.479 --> 02:56:54.559
There before, and enjoying that sense of increasing comfort and release.

1598
02:56:57.280 --> 02:57:01.280
Then you can experience in the back of your neck,

1599
02:57:07.600 --> 02:57:14.200
moving down your back and moving either side of your

1600
02:57:14.280 --> 02:57:17.399
spine right from the top of.

1601
02:57:17.319 --> 02:57:18.120
Your back.

1602
02:57:19.760 --> 02:57:23.479
All the way down to the bottom of your back

1603
02:57:29.440 --> 02:57:40.879
down it's your lower back. As you move up and

1604
02:57:41.040 --> 02:57:50.079
down your spine, you can feel the muscles either side

1605
02:57:50.120 --> 02:58:04.840
of your spine relaxing even more. And as those muscles relax,

1606
02:58:06.959 --> 02:58:14.920
that sense of comfort starts to spread outwards from your

1607
02:58:14.959 --> 02:58:24.559
spine into both sides of your back, the top of

1608
02:58:24.600 --> 02:58:31.559
your back, the middle and your lower back. And as

1609
02:58:31.559 --> 02:58:39.120
you scan gently and slowly up and down your back,

1610
02:58:41.440 --> 02:58:45.840
there's the muscles in the top of your back relax

1611
02:58:46.360 --> 02:58:54.000
and become looser. The muscles in the middle of your

1612
02:58:54.040 --> 02:59:01.479
back also seem to just almost difference finde from each other,

1613
02:59:02.440 --> 02:59:18.719
separating and almost melting. And in your lower back there

1614
02:59:18.760 --> 02:59:31.440
seems to be an extra special feeling of comfort. The

1615
02:59:31.799 --> 02:59:38.120
spreads into your hips sit down your lower back, into

1616
02:59:38.159 --> 02:59:49.479
your hips, into the area where your cosix are, and

1617
02:59:49.559 --> 02:59:58.719
into your buttocks and almos muscles that spread from your

1618
02:59:58.760 --> 02:59:59.600
lower back.

1619
03:00:01.840 --> 03:00:03.360
Into your hip area.

1620
03:00:06.159 --> 03:00:22.639
Start to melt, start to ready, let go, and you

1621
03:00:22.879 --> 03:00:29.600
know where about to focus on your shoulders. Your back

1622
03:00:29.879 --> 03:00:40.840
and your spine will continue to let go, continue to

1623
03:00:41.079 --> 03:00:55.680
relax so calmly. And if you focus on your shoulders,

1624
03:00:57.440 --> 03:01:14.280
you may notice they're already feeding loose, They're already.

1625
03:01:16.559 --> 03:01:28.959
Feeding calm.

1626
03:01:29.440 --> 03:01:30.440
I fear.

1627
03:01:34.479 --> 03:01:42.840
Those muscles then move from your neck into your shoulders.

1628
03:01:49.360 --> 03:02:00.639
Feel so soft and gentle, so small, move.

1629
03:02:06.520 --> 03:02:18.799
And calm, and.

1630
03:02:18.959 --> 03:02:31.840
The feeling in your shoulders seems to spread deep into

1631
03:02:31.879 --> 03:02:42.319
your shoulders, that sense of relaxation not just traveling deeply

1632
03:02:42.680 --> 03:02:59.639
into your muscles, but also relaxing the bones and moving

1633
03:02:59.719 --> 03:03:08.600
a way to underneath your arms, relaxing a whole area

1634
03:03:08.799 --> 03:03:23.159
between the tops of your shoulders and underneath your arms healing.

1635
03:03:23.959 --> 03:03:24.719
You feel so.

1636
03:03:26.559 --> 03:03:38.120
Relaxed and comfortable in your shoulders, which sense that.

1637
03:03:40.280 --> 03:03:42.440
Deep healing.

1638
03:03:45.319 --> 03:04:02.840
Message into your arms. You may feel almost as if

1639
03:04:02.879 --> 03:04:09.440
your arms are not even that because they so relaxed,

1640
03:04:12.600 --> 03:04:58.040
so deeply, relaxed, so so calm.

1641
03:04:43.520 --> 03:04:43.680
So.

1642
03:04:58.040 --> 03:05:09.479
That feeling spread in all way down your arms to elbows,

1643
03:05:12.959 --> 03:05:30.200
including your elbows, circumfort spreads.

1644
03:05:33.520 --> 03:05:34.280
Your way.

1645
03:05:36.840 --> 03:05:55.719
Into wrists your forearments and your wrists so heavy, yet

1646
03:05:55.959 --> 03:06:37.040
at the same time sunlight and gentle fk sin.

1647
03:06:39.239 --> 03:06:40.959
Now on.

1648
03:06:42.920 --> 03:07:15.719
Your hands, my hands, so peaceful.

1649
03:07:16.719 --> 03:07:36.559
In your hands.

1650
03:07:36.559 --> 03:08:02.559
The sense of real pace just seems to feel sive

1651
03:08:02.719 --> 03:09:12.840
familion on your hands, relax deeply else your things, things

1652
03:09:15.280 --> 03:10:28.000
side you think it tips moving your attention from your body,

1653
03:10:32.879 --> 03:10:50.079
so comfortable, marrying your focus to lights.

1654
03:12:08.719 --> 03:12:10.319
Like my souls.

1655
03:12:12.000 --> 03:12:13.520
And your fins.

1656
03:12:29.799 --> 03:12:30.799
And niece.

1657
03:12:34.920 --> 03:15:23.159
Relaxed calf muscles shines a clusiu, the faathing in your feets, Sir, peaceful,

1658
03:15:25.280 --> 03:16:24.559
circomm sit peaceful, circolm so peaceful, Sycolm so peace f

1659
03:16:33.479 --> 03:16:35.280
RelA sen.

1660
03:16:40.360 --> 03:16:42.159
Peace fall.

1661
03:16:45.479 --> 03:16:58.159
Cclm love that deep relaxation.

1662
03:16:58.719 --> 03:17:00.799
To spready, just.

1663
03:17:15.200 --> 03:17:16.159
Let you go.

1664
03:17:20.280 --> 03:17:20.959
Everything.

1665
03:17:32.239 --> 03:17:38.200
So I'm gonna start counting down now, from twenty down

1666
03:17:38.280 --> 03:17:46.399
to one. You can imagine in a way it's like

1667
03:17:47.239 --> 03:17:53.639
just walking down some steps and each step or twenty steps,

1668
03:17:53.719 --> 03:18:02.840
and each step represents a level of comfort, each step

1669
03:18:03.399 --> 03:18:18.920
represents a deepening of that comfort, and the fervies you

1670
03:18:19.079 --> 03:18:25.120
walk down those steps, the deeper and more relaxed you feel.

1671
03:18:31.840 --> 03:20:19.600
So starting with number twenty twenty, nineteen, eighteen, seven, ten,

1672
03:21:05.959 --> 03:25:30.959
sixteenhhhhhhhh three fourhhhh four too wellhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

1673
03:27:32.559 --> 03:29:31.639
No eight.

1674
03:30:31.000 --> 03:31:46.760
Sissie US.

1675
03:31:52.719 --> 03:33:24.559
Six five.

1676
03:34:43.239 --> 03:37:43.840
Four USUS.

1677
03:39:11.440 --> 03:39:12.120
And now.

1678
03:39:16.520 --> 03:39:29.159
As you focus on your eyes, we're gonna count down

1679
03:39:29.559 --> 03:39:40.680
from ten down to one, focusing just on your eyes,

1680
03:39:44.440 --> 03:39:52.959
your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your eye walls themselves,

1681
03:39:54.479 --> 03:39:56.040
a whole area.

1682
03:39:58.639 --> 03:39:59.959
That makes up your eyes.

1683
03:40:11.079 --> 03:40:19.200
And as we count down ten down to one, whilst

1684
03:40:19.479 --> 03:40:32.799
focusing on your eyes, you will become twice is relaxed

1685
03:40:35.040 --> 03:40:44.159
with each number counting down that you may find.

1686
03:40:48.040 --> 03:40:50.639
The what you want to do is just.

1687
03:40:52.639 --> 03:40:59.760
Drift off to sleep. And if that's what you want,

1688
03:41:02.840 --> 03:41:15.799
then just allow yourself to do that. Now, focusing on

1689
03:41:15.959 --> 03:41:21.319
your eyes, I'm going to begin counting down.

1690
03:41:22.639 --> 03:41:38.239
From ten down to one right now, ten.

1691
03:42:04.239 --> 03:42:39.399
Nine eight.

1692
03:43:24.719 --> 03:45:36.719
Sn F.

1693
03:46:47.639 --> 03:48:18.079
Four US.

1694
03:48:01.319 --> 03:50:52.479
Three one. So cut down from ten to one.

1695
03:50:54.319 --> 03:50:57.079
Ten nine.

1696
03:50:58.479 --> 03:51:26.159
Eight seven six five four three two one. And maybe

1697
03:51:26.319 --> 03:51:29.239
that was a bit too quick in order to relax.

1698
03:51:30.479 --> 03:51:34.680
Maybe it's a bit too fast for you to notice

1699
03:51:35.000 --> 03:51:43.040
the calming of your body, maybe even a little bit

1700
03:51:43.079 --> 03:51:47.200
of pressure there, like you're counting down from ten to one.

1701
03:51:47.280 --> 03:51:50.680
Would you expect me to do? Man, expect me to

1702
03:51:50.680 --> 03:51:54.680
just to go with floppy just because you're counting down.

1703
03:52:00.280 --> 03:52:03.600
I could try it again, but this time I'll go

1704
03:52:03.639 --> 03:52:10.680
a bit slower this time. As you focus on the

1705
03:52:10.840 --> 03:52:14.959
whole of your body before we focus on your legs.

1706
03:52:17.399 --> 03:52:26.559
Just notice how your body does start to feel more

1707
03:52:27.040 --> 03:52:46.000
relaxed with every number that I count down ten nine

1708
03:52:51.600 --> 03:54:20.959
at eight, seven, six, five, four, three, one, And just

1709
03:54:21.159 --> 03:54:27.079
notice how how you feel, generally, how your body feels.

1710
03:54:33.760 --> 03:54:42.040
It's not necessarily even about counting down from ten to one.

1711
03:54:45.000 --> 03:54:58.399
It's that space that you have, that space between being

1712
03:55:02.000 --> 03:55:13.559
active physically or mentally to just sitting or lying down,

1713
03:55:14.239 --> 03:55:19.040
just being there, not doing anything, not saying anything, or

1714
03:55:19.879 --> 03:55:22.239
needing to think about anything.

1715
03:55:24.079 --> 03:55:27.719
So it opens up a space, you know, a bit

1716
03:55:27.799 --> 03:55:38.520
of a space, a gap. And the more I came

1717
03:55:38.680 --> 03:55:43.239
down from ten to one, the bigger that gap becomes.

1718
03:55:46.239 --> 03:55:52.639
So there's that gap of calmness, of comfort, relaxation.

1719
03:55:58.600 --> 03:56:10.920
It's a nice feeling, and it moves those stresses or

1720
03:56:11.479 --> 03:56:15.680
discomforts physically or emotionally, moves them.

1721
03:56:17.200 --> 03:56:17.600
Away.

1722
03:56:24.360 --> 03:56:25.319
Allows you.

1723
03:56:28.040 --> 03:56:28.559
To just.

1724
03:56:31.520 --> 03:56:38.239
Slow down. Someone to count again from ten down to one,

1725
03:56:38.680 --> 03:56:48.920
and notice that gap widening, the gap, and as it widens,

1726
03:56:48.959 --> 03:56:55.360
it's almost like the stress and attention falls into the gap.

1727
03:57:09.000 --> 03:57:13.399
Give you that distance, that space.

1728
03:57:15.360 --> 03:57:20.719
Now ten.

1729
03:57:25.159 --> 03:58:35.120
Nine, eight, seven, six, five four three.

1730
03:59:09.879 --> 03:59:10.120
One.

1731
03:59:21.639 --> 03:59:26.040
Now, how does your body feel.

1732
03:59:28.000 --> 03:59:28.159
Now?

1733
03:59:40.879 --> 03:59:53.520
Can you notice that? Do you feeling calmer, the feeling

1734
03:59:55.879 --> 04:00:23.280
more relaxed as we now focus on your legs, just

1735
04:00:23.440 --> 04:00:44.840
your legs. We're just gonna start with focusing on your thighs.

1736
04:00:59.600 --> 04:01:03.920
Of course, it's not the most exciting thing to be doing,

1737
04:01:04.719 --> 04:01:11.079
because I'm sure, like most of your body is not

1738
04:01:11.200 --> 04:01:23.360
a lot going on right now. Just focusing on the

1739
04:01:23.479 --> 04:01:29.559
whole of your thighs, the tops of your thighs, the

1740
04:01:29.840 --> 04:01:36.479
sides of your thighs, the bottoms of your thighs, your

1741
04:01:36.600 --> 04:01:41.920
outer thighs, and your inner thighs. Basically the whole of

1742
04:01:41.959 --> 04:01:49.799
your thigh that leads into your hip and it goes

1743
04:01:50.840 --> 04:01:51.840
down to your.

1744
04:01:53.760 --> 04:01:54.479
Knee joints.

1745
04:01:59.600 --> 04:02:06.840
That is a big area. It's a very heavy area.

1746
04:02:07.360 --> 04:02:13.319
It's very strong, probably the strongest muscles in your body

1747
04:02:14.040 --> 04:02:28.319
or in your thighs. But I don't think we perhaps

1748
04:02:30.360 --> 04:02:33.600
give enough attention to our thighs.

1749
04:02:39.559 --> 04:02:40.959
Perhaps we don't.

1750
04:02:42.319 --> 04:03:02.799
Acknowledge how important our thighs are to our lives, how

1751
04:03:02.920 --> 04:03:12.040
much they actually do for us all through our lives.

1752
04:03:19.200 --> 04:03:25.040
And it may seem sound really weird, but I think

1753
04:03:25.120 --> 04:03:32.120
that all of our body parts, especially our thighs needs

1754
04:03:32.239 --> 04:03:46.719
some TLC, a bit of love shown, a bit of acknowledgement,

1755
04:03:49.440 --> 04:04:05.120
thank you, gratitude for our thighs do for us. And

1756
04:04:05.239 --> 04:04:11.120
I know this may sound a bit strange. Maybe you think,

1757
04:04:11.520 --> 04:04:14.280
why am I sure that I should be out in

1758
04:04:14.399 --> 04:04:22.959
the garden hugging a tree or something. Wow, it's hard

1759
04:04:23.000 --> 04:04:26.159
to set a microphone up on a tree. That's why

1760
04:04:26.159 --> 04:04:28.840
I'm doing this indoors. Otherwise I wouldn't be outside hugging

1761
04:04:28.879 --> 04:04:32.360
a tree. I can't see the television from the tree.

1762
04:04:39.040 --> 04:04:43.319
If you move down to your knees gain such an

1763
04:04:43.440 --> 04:04:53.120
important part. And I think we don't necessarily I'll speak

1764
04:04:53.200 --> 04:04:58.879
for myself here. I don't necessarily appreciate.

1765
04:05:00.079 --> 04:05:01.360
All that my needs to do.

1766
04:05:01.520 --> 04:05:06.399
For me until I have a problem with my knee.

1767
04:05:07.399 --> 04:05:11.479
It's occasionally, if I ever maybe i'll bash it or

1768
04:05:12.479 --> 04:05:18.000
it's aching for some reason. It's then that I realize

1769
04:05:19.159 --> 04:05:23.200
how much it does. You know, the benefit of being

1770
04:05:23.200 --> 04:05:31.120
able to use my legs without any kind of physical

1771
04:05:31.280 --> 04:05:39.440
discomfort is a beautiful thing that's possibly not appreciated until

1772
04:05:40.479 --> 04:05:50.239
it's temporarily removed. You know that's comfort. But as you

1773
04:05:50.360 --> 04:05:55.559
focus on your knees, regardless of how your knees feel.

1774
04:05:58.639 --> 04:06:04.399
You can have that sense gratitude and love to.

1775
04:06:04.479 --> 04:06:17.079
Your knees for all that they do for you, and

1776
04:06:17.239 --> 04:06:18.200
you can still have that.

1777
04:06:18.319 --> 04:06:23.239
Attention on your thighs and maybe notice how your thighs feel.

1778
04:06:25.399 --> 04:06:43.360
Maybe you noticed that they are relaxing more deeply as

1779
04:06:43.399 --> 04:06:48.799
you focus now on the bottoms of your legs, your shins,

1780
04:06:49.680 --> 04:06:53.920
and your calf muscles. The bones between.

1781
04:06:53.719 --> 04:06:57.040
Your knees and your feet.

1782
04:06:58.319 --> 04:07:09.479
Incorporate, and of course your ankles so important. You know,

1783
04:07:09.559 --> 04:07:14.319
anyone that's had even like the slightest sprain of an

1784
04:07:14.360 --> 04:07:22.479
ankle knows how how much we take our ankles for granted.

1785
04:07:28.360 --> 04:07:30.360
And it's kind of strange in a way when you

1786
04:07:30.479 --> 04:07:36.040
think that. You know, logically, our wrists are a lot

1787
04:07:36.200 --> 04:07:41.040
thinner than the rest of our arms, which is okay,

1788
04:07:41.159 --> 04:07:44.840
it doesn't I can't see any problem with that because

1789
04:07:44.879 --> 04:07:51.520
we're just picking stuff up. Our ankles so much thinner

1790
04:07:52.799 --> 04:08:01.360
than the rest of our legs, and from a physics

1791
04:08:01.440 --> 04:08:07.159
perspective or logical even it doesn't really make sense that

1792
04:08:07.319 --> 04:08:15.079
all this weight would ultimately be resting on your ankles

1793
04:08:16.200 --> 04:08:29.600
then leading to your feet. That thin area, thin bone. Yeah,

1794
04:08:29.639 --> 04:08:35.360
it does so much great work, supports us supports our

1795
04:08:35.479 --> 04:08:47.319
body for a lifetime, helps us to balance, helps you

1796
04:08:47.520 --> 04:09:00.799
to get around and be mobile. And there's a calf muscles.

1797
04:09:00.840 --> 04:09:08.440
Of course, when I was younger, I couldn't see the

1798
04:09:08.520 --> 04:09:14.840
pointing calf muscles. Didn't seem to do anything. Okay, if

1799
04:09:14.879 --> 04:09:18.479
I walked around on tiptoes, then my calf muscles get

1800
04:09:18.520 --> 04:09:22.239
some work. But of course that's not true. The calf

1801
04:09:22.360 --> 04:09:31.959
muscles are being used whenever we use the legs and

1802
04:09:32.120 --> 04:09:44.639
your shins there to protect your lower legs, shaped in

1803
04:09:44.760 --> 04:09:57.280
a way, almost as a protector for the bone, leading

1804
04:09:58.680 --> 04:10:09.040
of course to your ankles and your feet. But we're

1805
04:10:09.079 --> 04:10:11.000
not going to focus on your feet. We're just going

1806
04:10:11.040 --> 04:10:17.440
to focus on the legs. I realize, and now that

1807
04:10:17.520 --> 04:10:21.959
I've mentioned your feet, you'll probably focusing on them anyway.

1808
04:10:22.520 --> 04:10:25.079
So maybe I should focus on your feet a little bit.

1809
04:10:29.120 --> 04:10:33.520
You can have them in your awareness the same as

1810
04:10:33.600 --> 04:10:37.959
you have your thighs in your awareness. Even though we

1811
04:10:38.079 --> 04:10:42.079
haven't been focusing on your thighs for a few minutes,

1812
04:10:43.799 --> 04:10:54.639
I've been focusing on your ankles, there's still that sensation

1813
04:10:54.920 --> 04:11:10.239
of comfort in your thighs, and there's that movement of

1814
04:11:10.639 --> 04:11:20.040
energy because the thighs hold lots of different sensations. Of course,

1815
04:11:20.120 --> 04:11:24.879
there's the muscles, the big straw muscles that we have

1816
04:11:25.079 --> 04:11:38.399
in our thighs. But the skin on the outside of

1817
04:11:38.479 --> 04:11:43.799
the thighs, as in the outside of all of our body,

1818
04:11:44.600 --> 04:11:56.200
can be very sensitive, sensitive to touch, sensitive to temperature.

1819
04:12:02.760 --> 04:12:10.280
And inside your thighs the bones, there's the muscle, there's

1820
04:12:10.319 --> 04:12:15.120
the blood, vessels, the ar trees to all this stuff

1821
04:12:15.239 --> 04:12:24.319
that's inside your thighs. I guess sometimes it'd be nice

1822
04:12:24.319 --> 04:12:28.639
if you could actually put your fingers inside your thighs

1823
04:12:29.280 --> 04:12:34.479
and a message, so you can message on the outside,

1824
04:12:34.600 --> 04:12:37.639
of course, but to be able to get deep into

1825
04:12:37.719 --> 04:12:42.520
the muscles and to be able to just message inside

1826
04:12:42.600 --> 04:12:49.600
your thighs, message in the bones of your leg, message

1827
04:12:49.680 --> 04:13:02.840
in all the veins, just gently heaving your thighs and

1828
04:13:03.000 --> 04:13:09.559
you can move down message and inside your knees, just

1829
04:13:09.799 --> 04:13:17.760
message in those bones, but with healing fingertips spreading that healing.

1830
04:13:17.559 --> 04:13:22.159
Energy deep into the choints your knees.

1831
04:13:27.600 --> 04:13:31.319
Of course, there's the back of your you need, you know,

1832
04:13:31.399 --> 04:13:37.399
the inside crease where your need is. It's a very

1833
04:13:37.639 --> 04:13:43.520
sensitive area. It feels very nice when you stroke it.

1834
04:13:44.920 --> 04:13:48.280
That might be because it's an area that's not really

1835
04:13:48.479 --> 04:13:55.920
touched very often. It's almost like a hidden part, that crease.

1836
04:13:57.719 --> 04:13:58.440
In your legs.

1837
04:13:58.520 --> 04:13:59.520
It's almost.

1838
04:14:01.479 --> 04:14:02.200
Like a part that.

1839
04:14:04.000 --> 04:14:15.239
Has a sensitivity, which is a little bit different. Of course,

1840
04:14:15.319 --> 04:14:25.760
it's protected by your legs. So you can imagine putting

1841
04:14:26.680 --> 04:14:37.000
your fingers into that crease in your legs, folding between

1842
04:14:37.079 --> 04:14:42.159
your legs, you can just message with your fingertips, imagine

1843
04:14:42.200 --> 04:14:48.559
your fingertips going inside, massage in the muscle or tissue.

1844
04:14:53.159 --> 04:14:57.399
You can of course field the bones of your knees,

1845
04:14:58.920 --> 04:15:09.360
heading for your fingertips, and then as you go down

1846
04:15:12.239 --> 04:15:15.040
to your calf muscles, and that's the part I'd like

1847
04:15:15.120 --> 04:15:19.840
to be able to really put my fingertips step inside

1848
04:15:20.600 --> 04:15:29.920
my calf muscles, massage in every single tissue of that muscle.

1849
04:15:31.120 --> 04:15:39.760
Healing every part, and then doing.

1850
04:15:39.600 --> 04:15:47.959
The same for my shins. Massage in generally stroking the bones,

1851
04:15:49.680 --> 04:15:55.360
generally stroking them, healing in a loving way, because they

1852
04:15:55.479 --> 04:16:01.840
deserve to be treated the precious bones that they are.

1853
04:16:03.159 --> 04:16:06.440
Because our legs are so precious as in all the

1854
04:16:06.520 --> 04:16:11.840
other parts of our body, the more precious of any

1855
04:16:12.000 --> 04:16:27.319
jue on the planet. When you start to think about

1856
04:16:30.719 --> 04:16:39.559
your legs in this way, it can change your perspective.

1857
04:16:42.280 --> 04:16:48.040
It might sound a bit a bit silly to start

1858
04:16:48.120 --> 04:16:54.879
with the idea of having love for your legs, showing

1859
04:16:54.920 --> 04:17:03.159
appreciation for your thighs, wanting to be able to put

1860
04:17:03.200 --> 04:17:11.760
your hands in your thighs, massage the muscles and the bones,

1861
04:17:13.600 --> 04:17:19.319
and to get your fingers deep in there, releasing all tension,

1862
04:17:22.200 --> 04:17:30.840
just to show how much you care about your legs,

1863
04:17:31.719 --> 04:17:35.479
how much you care for what your legs do for

1864
04:17:35.559 --> 04:17:49.200
you regularly, your knees, your calves, your ankles, the strength

1865
04:17:49.360 --> 04:17:57.440
of your ankles, considering how thin they are compared to

1866
04:17:57.559 --> 04:18:04.239
the rest of your legs, especially your thigh Yeah, they're

1867
04:18:04.399 --> 04:18:16.680
so strong, so flexible, absolutely amazing things. Your ankles are

1868
04:18:20.520 --> 04:18:25.600
truly a gift because of what they do for you,

1869
04:18:31.079 --> 04:18:38.040
supporting all that weight, regardless of how what weight you are,

1870
04:18:39.239 --> 04:18:44.000
even if you only ate stone, there's still a lot

1871
04:18:44.040 --> 04:18:50.680
of weight for these little ankles. How am a lot

1872
04:18:50.959 --> 04:18:54.440
heavier than eight stone? Double dot.

1873
04:18:57.760 --> 04:18:59.200
Get My ankles.

1874
04:19:00.479 --> 04:19:08.120
Support my body all the time, or they do give

1875
04:19:08.200 --> 04:19:12.760
off a sigh of relief when I sit down, as

1876
04:19:13.600 --> 04:19:20.959
you've had. My whole legs though my feet, feet, als go,

1877
04:19:22.920 --> 04:19:50.639
my toes clap so happy. Your legs really are amazing.

1878
04:19:53.280 --> 04:19:56.920
And I know they're talking about. Talking about your legs

1879
04:19:57.040 --> 04:20:03.680
is probably m possibly among the most boring things you've

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ever heard anyone say. Possibly you're boring or not. Everything

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I said is true. Your legs are amazing. Your legs

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deserve not just respect, but they deserve to relax.

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Deeply.

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They deserve to take some time out of the day

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to just let go completely.

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Your legs.

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Really can relax because the legs are so such a most,

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you know, very important part of your body. When you

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relax your legs, the rest of your body also naturally

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follows in that journey of comfort. I can feel it

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in my hips. My hips feel really loose, and also

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my lower back as well. My lower back really feels

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it feels stretched, even though I'm just sitting in a

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chair and there's no stretching as far as I'm aware

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that I'm doing.

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It's almost as if.

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The muscles are just relaxed so much that there is

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a natural stretch. As the tension has reduced a lot.

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And I'm now going to count down from ten down

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to one, you can continue to fill wonderfully relaxed ten nine, eight, seven, six, five,

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four three two one relax so I'm just going to

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count down and fire down to one. And as a countdown,

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if you just focus on the numbers, just the numbers

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counting down, and notice how you feel.

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In this moment.

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As you hear the numbers counting down, knowing that those

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numbers counting down represent you feeling calmer, not just in

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your body, but also relaxing your mind.

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Just notice how you feel.

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There's nothing to do, it's nothing to say, there's nothing

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to think about, starting with number five, four, three two one.

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How as you notice the gradual letting go, that the

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tension in your body, you may also begin to notice

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and be aware of how your mind is starting to

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slow down. This is just a natural thing that happens.

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It's not really a special procedure. It's just natural because

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as your body relaxes, your mind also starts to relax.

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And the more your mind relaxes, the more your body relaxes.

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It's just a continuous circle of relaxation. And there's that

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calmness that comes from relative quietness. You know, even even

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if this background sounds eibe, your side online.

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Is still going to be quite calm.

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You know, you haven't got the television on, there's no

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music in the background, unless you're listening to the recorded

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with music. Of course, you're very likely not going to

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be sitting in a room with other people. Of course

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you might be, but generally it's more ideal if you

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can do this on your own, so no distractions, and

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when you stop thinking about stuff, relaxation automatically rises, a

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sense of comfort starts to grow, and without trying to

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build it up into something fantastical or something magical, this

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is just a natural process, something.

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That's easy.

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To accomplish. In fact, it's almost the sense of relaxing

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completely happens really when you put no effort into it.

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It's not something that you can really force. Is something

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that happens naturally. And part of the process of this

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recording and others is simply two allow you to take

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advantage of this space, this time.

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To just.

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Let go, to just be here, to be in tune

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with how you feel, yet with the intention of wanting

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to relax deeply that maybe even to fall asleep, depending

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on what it is that you wish for yourself.

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In this moment.

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As we know, relaxing is the majority of the process

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of falling asleep. The actual falling asleep part is the

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tiny bit at the end. The deeper relaxed you become,

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the easier you find yourself drifting. But you can also

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if you choose stay focused on my voice and really

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enjoy the process, gradually relaxing each muscle in your body

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effortlessly and just observing the sensation.

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Of letting go.

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Completely.

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This time, I'm going to count from six down to one.

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You can notice your mind calming down more with each

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number that you hear me say, actually, four.

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Cam s.

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Pace six.

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Five four four.

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Being aware of how your mind has slowed right down,

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sinking deeply into relaxation. As you focus on your mind,

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may notice that there are some thoughts still there, maybe

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some stubborn thoughts for some reason, perhaps need your attention.

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That's what you can do is.

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Send love to those thoughts.

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Sprinkle those thoughts.

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With love.

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I doll petals from a flower. Just sprinkle over them petals,

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feel good love towards those thoughts, to let those thoughts

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know that you're not abandon the number.

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You just need them.

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You require them to just calm down, slow down, quiet down.

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For now.

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So as you focus on those remaining thoughts. As we

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countdown this time from seven down to one with each number,

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just imagine sprinkling those flower petals of love, kindness, gratitude.

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Over those thoughts, which will allow them to just not away.

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Relaxed deeply. With every number, those thoughts would become more

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and more relaxed. Starting if number seven, six, five, four.

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Four, Now that is how.

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Relaxed your feeling in your body. We got to focus

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on your hands, because the more relaxed your hands are,

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the more relaxed your body and mind. Yes, you focus

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on your hands and your fingers. It's nothing needed to

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become there's like clenching the fists on that simple fingers, right, it's.

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Just not.

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Fucus on your hands, not a simarly feel.

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Kiss the more, but asks your hands feel. I can't

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why your mind feels.

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Comforts you feel.

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Throughout your body.

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Gee may have already I ticed you mind.

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Is starting.

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Dress said, just on your hands and fingers, a man

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and cheap.

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Think experience a real deepening of that reaxation in your

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hands and fingers, a more relaxed.

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With each number eight doun to one lowest few and.

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Relax energy spread it into your hands and fingers, becoming.

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Year relaxing. With each number you heard eight down to

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drift down, lifting the cake started wi.

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I seven.

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Three just being here now, nothing to think about, nothing

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to do, nothing to say, and everything just feels calm.

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This is your natural state of being. This is how

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you just normally feel.

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Take away.

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That stump, adds that stress of one hand, a thick.

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Anxiety, danger, chilly.

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Thinking about so take that away. Good now.

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A little sense of insults which caused a quickly because

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I was reek. It's just a feeling, feeling of confidences,

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common sence, so found in a special place. Everything pat

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place sweet in the film, relaxed your sense confident, play sweet,

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think except yourself, you are I swear joints.

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That sway actually not just love your son in some

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ways more potatly, like you appreciate a set of gratitude.

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The air.

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Some place where, actually feel the heathing energy soaking into

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your body.

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Healing energy so key into your body.

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A hearty spreads through the phase, traveling.

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To each every single part of your body.

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You start to realize the actually a healing energy.

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So I just entered into your brain. It's become part

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of your brain.

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The spiral fluid.

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Now it's the energy just allowed you to feel so

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much more relaxed, healthy in this moment.

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But also.

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It's start to realize that actually, what's happening now that

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here relaxing energy spreading through your body, it's actually changing

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your life. It's actually changing the way you're going to feel,

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not just now.

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The next day.

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Your health in please just your physical health, your mental health.

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Things the East above you in the past, some reason

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long happy things to the least, something has changed. Deep

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think maybe fast East to want you to feel angry.

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I don't have that.

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Truth.

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Seek to be

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Set to each spects, shoes