May 19, 2025

(music) (5 hours) SKOOLS | Monday’s Boring Objects | LMBYTS #1356 | 19th May 2025

(music) (5 hours) SKOOLS | Monday’s Boring Objects | LMBYTS #1356 | 19th May 2025
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Hello, and welcome to Jasonnewland dot com. My name is

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Jason Newland. Please add elicted where you can safety close

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your eyes. I said that as I yawned and scratched

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my beard at the same time. So yes, I can multitask.

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Thank you very much. This is let me buoy to sleep.

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Number number is I don't know, one thousand, three hundred

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and one one thousand, three hundruids. I have to check this.

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Let me go to one of my podcasts, one thousand,

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three hundred and fifty six. BlimE me, that's a lot

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in it. That's a lot. So yep, this is Monday's

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Boring Objects without an object to talk about. Now, what

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I thought I might do is if I look back

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on my Jason Newland's Boring group on Facebook, there was

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a question that at the time of answerering. I thought

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to myself, hmm, maybe that would be a good subject

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to converse about on my Monday's Boring Objects. But I'm

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going to have to find the question. I'll have a look. Okay, okay,

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give me two seconds. I do also have a YouTube

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channel which is at Jason Newland that's also my podcast,

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So every single recording I do goes on there. The

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website has all of my well it will do if

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I'm just in the middle of doing some playlists. But

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I've been I've been changing things, trying to make it

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a bit better. But I decided to be to There

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was a certain thing I was doing and it would

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take me forever, so I decided not to do that.

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It seemed a bit pointless. I may go back and

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do it in the future, but right now I'm just

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going to stick to what I've got planned. So I

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do have all of the recordings uploaded to the podcast,

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each individual podcast on the website, which will be on

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the website when they are published. It's just going to

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take a little while to do that. I'm having a

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quick look. Oh yeah, I also started a cult, if

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anyone wants to join, can we see?

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Right?

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It might have been about the hypnosis and creative writing, right.

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I was fought about talking about how I started in hypnosis,

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but I've probably done that so many times. I talked

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that one too to sleep. I think there's a few

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little things I probably haven't talked about. Let me just

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think I'm thinking the different jobs I've had, different places,

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have lived, h relationships, mm hmm people, mm hmm. I

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wanted to talk about something that I haven't really mentioned before,

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something that's all kind of not surprised you, but maybe

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a little bit like, oh, you know, I mean that

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is kind of a sader surprise potentially, but just something

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where you're thinking, hmm, didn't know that about the juicy

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JJ man bloke person. I didn't know how old it

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was until I was seven. How about that? I didn't

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know my day at birth till I was seven. That's

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a bit of a that's more trivia, isn't It's more trivia? Tuesday?

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It is Monday today, isn't it? Is it Monday? I

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think it is Monday, the nineteenth of May twenty twenty

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five one two, all weeks to the end of the month.

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It's the year man, and it's like we're nearly halfway

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through the year. Jingle bells, jingle bells, jingle all the way.

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How much fun it is to ride in no No's Oh.

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One of my favorite hymns was I talked about my

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I talk about my high school. So there's only two

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schools I really remember, I really remember I've been in

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I could just talk about schools in general. Let's talk

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about my schools in general. Okay, I have this memory

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of walking to school on the first day on my own,

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and this is when I was I don't know, five

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four or five or something. That's when I lived in Newcastle.

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But I have another memory of another school. It might

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be the same school, and it's really it was freaky.

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It was one of those freaky moments. And so I

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was in this school behind the school gates, the right

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side of the school, inside the school, not inside the school,

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but inside the playground part of the front of the school.

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Although that might have been the back of the school,

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I don't think it's really relevant. I think it was

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the front of the school or the side. It was

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eble to side, the back or the front. And it

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definitely wasn't underground. It was definitely on top of the ground.

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And I was standing there on my own looking through

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the fence, and my memory is it was it wasn't

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barbed wire or anything like that, but it was these

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metal fence. Now, because I was so little, probably looked

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really tall. It might have only been like five foot,

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but in my memory was like twenty foot high. And

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so I'm looking through the fence at this lady and

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she falls over. I lock dies with her, but a

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man locked eyes. I mean, there was no locks involved.

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But I looked at her and she fell over, and

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I thought that I had caused her to fall over,

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which is kind of a weird thing. I believed that

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I had somehow made her fall over with my mind,

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which was a weird thing to think. I think at

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that age, at any age, really, and I don't remember

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too much about it. I think I might have gone

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back in school and told a teacher maybe, or just

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gone in a hidden because I didn't want to get

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in trouble. That was a very strange memory. Now I

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don't know where that was. That might have been in Newcastle,

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might be in South End, it might I don't know

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where it was. And then't I remember there was another

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school which was almost overlooking. Sure there was like a motorway.

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This was in South End, I think, or Newcastle again.

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I think that was a different school, and I got

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the very vague memories of standing looking. I used to

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do a lot of looking back then and just could

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see it was very inner city school, I would say,

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or around places it wasn't kind of I'm sure there

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was like a motorway that you could see. That's my

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memory of it. Anyway, I don't I remember walking to

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school through down a bypassed kind of this. I don't know.

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It was a.

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Some kind of bridge that would walk down. There was

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other kids as well, It wasn't just me, but I

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walk into school. This would be in Newcastle, But again

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I don't remember much of the actual school itself. Have

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you hear? Vinnie has been really fidgety. We've just been out,

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just got back. I took his food out of the

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fridge because he wasn't eating it. I'm getting a little

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bit fed up with chucking it away. Is at the

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moment he's just eating dry food and he doesn't seem

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to want wet food at all. So I put it

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in the fridge, just brought it out, and he's ignoring it.

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And he's not ignoring it like he's not calling to him,

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but he's just I've got an itchy beard. I don't

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know why. I think it might be a heat rash

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or flease. So I remember this vaguely remember that. But

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the first school that I really kind of have any

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any set of memories for was when I was seven

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and i'd moved in with papa and papa's new wife.

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It sounds like a song titled don't it. And there

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was this school just up the well, just up the road,

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but it was yeah, it wasn't wasn't far away from

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where the house was that we were living because we

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were living with my dad's new wife's mother that it

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was her house. So we were living there for I

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don't know how long because we went to school, I

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guess in the September. We moved there about in the

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summer during the summer holidays from South End Nazareth House

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in South End and went to school. I was seven,

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so I don't know what. We didn't have years back

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then the way they do now we do. But it

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wasn't it's like first, second, four, fifth, It wasn't like year, twelve,

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year fifteen, whatever. Didn't have that back then. And I

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was only there probably four maybe one term, perhaps two terms,

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And then we moved because the house we was in

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was I think it was derelict. It was basically falling apart.

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So they moved my stepmom's mum into a flat and

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we got a council house because we were overcrowded anyway,

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not that I cared. I didn't. I was fine. I

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like living there, so we I mean, it's like, okay,

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living in a room with one other kid, or even

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two other kids, it's better than living in a room

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with twelve other kids in my you know, That's how

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I kind of saw it. And then we moved to

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the house that my nan and grand had ended up

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living in for a long time, especially my na lived

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in there for a long, long, long time. So we

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moved into this new build on this new sort of state,

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and it was technically a three bedroom house. The third

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bedroom was some would argue wasn't big enough to be

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like a It was a very small bedroom. Some people

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might say it's just like a box room. Some people

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might just say hello, you know, there's lots of different

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things people can say. I was happy there because that

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was my room. For the first time in my life,

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I had my own bedroom. It was glorious. So I've

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talked about this before. My bruce Leaf poster on the wall,

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and even though I didn't know who Brucially was at

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that time, but I learned someone just sneezed the loudest

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sneeze I've ever heard in my life. So so we

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went about school, so we went to a different school,

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which was kind of about fifteen minute walk from there,

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so that was like, okay, So that was the second

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junior school I went to in that town. And it's

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kind of weird. I mean, we moved from one house

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that I really liked to another house that I really liked,

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and you know, it wasn't big enough for all of

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us really, plus another kid came along, so in reality,

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we couldn't have stayed there, but I would have happily

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stayed there because well I had my own room. That

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wasn't just the only reason, because I ended up having

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my own room when we moved again. But it was

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just I liked that house. It was a lovely house,

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and I liked the school as well. I like the

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other school, and my memories of the first school in

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that town that I went to at seven was and

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I just turned seven, literally probably a week or two

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before the before going to school, and yeah, it was

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just nice. I liked it. I got into a little

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bit of trouble for stealing one of some one of

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the girl who I liked found the keys or managed

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I don't know where she got the keys from to

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the touch shop and told me about it and invited

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me in to have a feast, and we got caught

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by the janitor. After a few days of do it that,

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and the police came into the school and got me

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to stand up and her to stand up and told

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us all off. Now I assumed they hadn't told my

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parents because I didn't get told office at home, But

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in reality they probably did. All the teachers did. But

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because I only just moved there, they probably didn't feel

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they could really tell me off. Yeah, I had only

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been there for like a couple of months living with them.

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Unless I did tell me off, and I just laughed

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at that, It's possible I just didn't hear them, didn't listen. Yeah,

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I don't know. And then there's another time when there

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was this cupboard that had all like the toys in

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so we were playing toys Lego, these big Lego definitely Lego,

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but these big bricks sticker bricks or whatever they were called,

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and had all his toys on the floor. The teacher

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came out of this room where all the toys were

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stored and said, somebody has made a dent in the wall.

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Now I remember even now, it was like a brick wall,

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big old bricks with paint covered in paint that there

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was a like a dent. And their teacher said, no

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one's going to lunch until we find out who did it.

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No one was owning up to it, so I just said,

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I did it, okay, and there's the teacher, so send

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everyone to lunch. Kept me behind, and the teacher said that.

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She said to me, okaylen new boy, show me how

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you did it. And I went in there and I thought, oh,

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now I'm on the spot. It's really hard. It's, you know,

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something you're not prepared for to if you if you

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like to get out of doing something you've done, you

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can kind of be prepared in a way, but to

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lie about doing something you haven't done is difficult. Find

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it very difficult, very difficult. So I pretty much said, well,

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I did it with this and it was like a

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lego brick, plastic plastic lego brick. Yeah, that's how I

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did it. And the teacher just laughed at me, said

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show me how you did it. Then, So I did

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this with this, like, yeah, that's how I did that,

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and I was just robbing this thing against the wall.

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It's like the worst lie, not the worst lie, but

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it was. It's like trying to escape from a prison

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cell with a toothbrush or some candy floss. Not candy floss,

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you know, tooth floss. Whatever is it? Just you could

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do it, probably, but it would take forever, you know,

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to break for a wall, to even scratch the wall

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would take more than I pressure than I had available,

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you know, with my little seven year old body. I

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mean I was a size for a five year old.

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And they said, did you really do it? I said yeah.

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They said, you do realize after the stealing this might

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mean you'll go to prison. I said really. She said no,

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not really. I said, okay, but I'm not sure if

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I admitted that it wasn't me or not. But the

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weird thing about it is I felt like it was me.

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That's a strange thing. I felt like I'd done it. Weird.

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So I got moved. So I got expelled from that school.

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Now I didn't get expelled, I don't think I did.

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I left that school and we went to this other school,

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which is around the corner from the new housing the

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state were moved to. So I was moving towards I

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was probably yeah, seven and a half at this point,

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So I'm unless unless that might be an eighty, so

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maybe I'd had the whole year there, but I think

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it was I might have had the whole year there.

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So I went to this other school between eight and nine,

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and I liked that school. I liked that school even

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more than the first school, because yeah, I wasn't at

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the other school long enough to make friends, so I

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might've only been there for one term, because I did

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make friends at the next school, like good friends, like

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my best friend who was called Andrew. I had two.

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I had Ian and Andrew. Ian lived up the road,

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and he was even on the same mistake as well.

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I was just living and went to school the same

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school all the same age. Ian's birthday was the same

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date as mine, exactly the same date. And we were

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good friends who were best friends in and out of

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each other's houses. Used to just spend all the times together, really,

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and I was probably that period between living in that house,

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whatever period that was. But I mean, you know, really

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from a school very whispery, whistley loud, wasn't it from

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a school perspective. From a school perspective, possibly that was

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my favorite time, you know, where both school and house,

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school and home synchronization was really good. Every aspect was good.

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And that was the only period really between the ages

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of eight and nine. So I went to the school

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I liked, I had friends for the first time, not

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for the first time, but for the first time where

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was a degree of stability because we'd stayed. I've never

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been at a school for a whole year before, so

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I'd been there for over a year. And I guess

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because I do one term, said a year and nearly

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two years, I suppose if you think about it, because

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when I moved into the other house when I was seven, seven,

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maybe the beginning of the year nineteen seventy eight, so

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I was yeah, and then started at the other school,

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and I was there until I was nine, and then

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I went Then we moved again, and I went to

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a different school again, another junior school, and I liked

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that school as well, to be fair, but yeah, I

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wasn't enjoying the home life at that point then. But

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as far as schools go with I'd say I probably

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liked that school better. The third junior school I went

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to during that period, I liked the school better and

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I did make lots of friends because I was there

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for two years. So I kind of had, you know,

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I kind of got to make more deeper friendships, I

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don't know, like closer friendships, maybe a bit more stability

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in that sense. But the previous school it was just

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really nice because living on a council of State, it

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was a new build. Pretty much all the kids of

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my age group that moved onto that Council of State

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were going to the same school as me, so we

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could hang out with each other. And then we moved

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and I lost all those friends, even though I was

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living in a little town. There was I think three

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or there was at least three junior school. It was

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probably a junior infant that's kind of the same thing.

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I think. You know, they went up to the age

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of eleven and in high schools from eleven onwards. Is Yeah,

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that was a shame because it was the first time

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that I'd had any kind of stable schooling. And I've

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been through quite a bit while I was there as well,

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because I had problems with my ears partially deaf, had

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an operation, and I liked the school and I like

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my friends, and I had a girlfriend as well. My

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first ever girlfriend was there, and so that was cool.

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I'd say my first ever, I kind of had her

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girlfriend at the other school, but she kept getting me

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into trouble, so yeah, I think he got moved away.

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That was the one with the keys to the tuck shop. Yeah,

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I had a girlfriend and we used to just chase

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each other and push each other over and stuff, pull

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each other's hair, you know. That was that kind of

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It was a very deep and loving friendship, a very

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very lot of romance. I was eight, but I did

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have my first ever date with her. I went to

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the cinema. I don't really remember what movies we went

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to see because of Saturday matinee. There was two movies,

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one old older one and one more newer one. I

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think I might have seen spider Man, the New Spote

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not the New spider Man now, but back then it

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was the new movie New spider Man movie, which was

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about nineteen seventy eight. I feel I need to check

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this up. Nineteen seventy eight Spider Man movie. It was

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nineteen seventy eight. I'll wait a minute. The film was

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that's weird spider Man. Let's have a look and get

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this back. Nineteen seventy seven movie spider Man for the

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first time. I loved it. And I remember going to

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watch it and on the what was it? The undercard

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were not the undercon but the movie before was Sinbad

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in the Eye of the Tiger. I think, or it

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might have been. No, I think it was that. I

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think it was I Love Spider Man. I'm not sure

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which came first, Spider Man or Superman. As far as

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like the new movies that came out in the late seventies,

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it was so good, loved loved it. I mean, back then,

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superheroes were a big thing on TV. I mean there'd

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been a big thing forever really, but there was a

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real popular, popular thing we had, you know, that was

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on TV at the time. So we had we have

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the Incredible Hulk, Wonder Woman, the Bionic Man, kung Fu

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when kung Fu was kind of like a superhero, but

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it wasn't really but kind of was more like real

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life superhero, you know, because he did kung fu. That's

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why he was called kung Fu. What other ones was there? Well,

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a Bionic Woman. I don't know when they started calling it. It

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was a six million dollar man then I'm sure they

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just started calling it the Bionic Man eventually, and then

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Spider Man because Spider Man was also a TV show

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as well, and I'm trying to think of other and

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we used to have some of the older shows on

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as well, like some of the Superman shows, of the

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Lone Ranger, High Whole, Silvar, Rocketman. I'm trying to think

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of some of the others, like but these were in

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black and white, Dick Tracy and the Dick Tracy technically

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wasn't a superhero, but he kind of was. And yeah,

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there was a lot a lot on back then. I

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probably missed out some really obvious ones. Shall I check

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because I'm sure this, I'm sure there's some that I've

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missed out. So super hero TV shows, I'm going to

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go online nineteen seventies. I don't want images list of

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superhero television and she was just okay, it's going right

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away back from nineteen forty nine. So the Lone Ranger

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is that how old The Lone Ranger was?

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Flash Gordon.

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Flash Gordon still one of the greatest movies ever in

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my opinion, one of the greatest, greatest soundtrack. But they

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I used to watch the Flash Gordon TV show and

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this was from like nineteen fifty four to fifty five,

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But they used to show it on TV, like in

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the late seventies early eighties.

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Zoro.

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They used to show that. On The Invisible Man. They

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used to show that. Again they were black and white.

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I think the Mighty Atom I don't remember seeing that

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sounds good though, I mean superheroes. I'm just looking. It's

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got stuff here that I can't I mean, mister Terrific,

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Captain Nice. I don't remember ever seeing those, even the

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sixties Kung Fu, Yeah to see, I thought that was

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I did think that was kind of like a superhero

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Mirror Man. Nope, the six Million Dollar Man nineteen seventy

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three to seventy eight. The Tomorrow People, of course, seventy

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three to seventy nine, And they were superheroes, weren't they.

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That was an English thing and they could do I

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think telepathy between each other and stuff. The Invisible Man

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again started.

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Here they.

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I thought The Invisible Man was in the eighties. Maybe

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they just started another one. Because this is saying the

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Invisible Man was nineteen seventy Invisible Man nineteen seventy five

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to ninety seventy six. Surely it's not the one with

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McCullum producers. Why are they're saying who was in it,

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They're not. It starred David McCullum nineteen seventy five to

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nineteen Wow, I didn't realize that. I used to loved that.

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So that was seventy five to seventy six. They were

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still showing it. They were showing repeats and stuff. So

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I used to watch that The Bionic Woman. Of course,

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I've already mentioned Man from Atlantis, yep, superhero that was

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Bobby Ewing. So Men from Atlantis another huge show. Anyone

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it's old enough to remember that huge. He was a

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pin up. He was a pin up for everyone, not

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just for adults but for kids as well. I used

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to have him on the wall because he was a superstar.

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He could breathe underwater. Come on, I kind of felt

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I was similar to him because I swam the way

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he did. Because I was not I had no way

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of keeping above the water. So I just thought, you

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know what, I'll swim the way the Man from Atlantis does,

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which has gone very wiggly, and I could go from

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one link to the other without without going above the water.

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So I thought I was quite good, but I couldn't swim.

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I used to bang into people as well. I remember

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once I did it, and I banged into the side

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and banging my face because I couldn't see where I

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was going. Monkey Monkey, So I remember Monkey nineteen seventy

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eight to nineteen eighty. Used to watch it on BBC two,

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and I remember watching that in the house we moved

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into when I was nine, watching it on TV while

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I was stripping the wallpaper in the living room. So

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we just moved in Buck Roger's in the twenty fifth century.

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It's a superhero and he he didn't have any powers though,

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so I just let you see all the different superheroes

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we had during that period. I'm going to miss seventies

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out Minimal nineteen eighty three. Now, I loved Minimal and

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then I didn't, So basically it was my favorite show.

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Was basically was a man that turned into an animal,

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hence Minimal. That's a dog barking now. And it didn't

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go down very well with the audience apparent. It wasn't

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only got one series and that was it. But I

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liked it a lot. But unfortunately, on the night that

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I was going to watch it, because I think I've

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seen a few episodes, the I got into trouble for

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something over nothing really but to do with my schoolwork.

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And I ended up getting big lecture and my dad

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just had a tantrum on me over a broken ruler,

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like a ruler my ruler had a chip in it.

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He wouldn't know why there was a chip in my ruler.

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I don't mean a chip as in, you know, potato,

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And I said, I don't know, and he just went

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on and on and on so and then I went

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and sat in and I couldn't watch Manimal just looked

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at it like, nah, it's wet. It'll never been able

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to watch it since it's weird, isn't it? The A

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team those superheroes were? They really but not didn't have powers,

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But then quite a few superheroes don't have powers. Batman

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doesn't have powers. Highway to Heaven that's not a super

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I mean, it's a brilliant show. I loved it. I

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watched that from all the way from the beginning to

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the end that one. I don't mean from the beginning

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of the episode to the end of the episode, but

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from eighty four to eighty nine. Loved Highway to Heaven.

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Why has the Incredible Hulk not being mentioned anyone? I've

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not mentioned a Whulk have I but it's not mentioned

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No Hulk, which was possibly one of the biggest biggest

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shows on TV at the time late seventies. The Hulk.

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No no Hulk on this list, so it's not a

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complete list. How can they not mention the Hulk Anyway?

472
00:39:14.119 --> 00:39:21.599
I mentioned the Hulk Super Grand that was like eighty

473
00:39:21.639 --> 00:39:24.440
five to eighty seven, So that was funny, but it

474
00:39:24.519 --> 00:39:26.519
was a little bit. I watched it, but it was

475
00:39:26.840 --> 00:39:28.960
you know, it was kind of coming to leave school

476
00:39:29.440 --> 00:39:40.760
and left school at that point. Yeah, why if they

477
00:39:40.800 --> 00:39:44.360
put bay Watch down? This is supposed to be superheroes

478
00:39:44.639 --> 00:39:49.679
and might have got this right. Independence DC and Novel

479
00:39:49.719 --> 00:39:54.800
List is television series based on DC comics. Okay, let's

480
00:39:54.840 --> 00:39:59.280
look at that one adventure as a Superman Batman. So

481
00:39:59.320 --> 00:40:00.920
all these these are the ones I was looking for,

482
00:40:01.360 --> 00:40:03.760
But these are in the six fifties and sixties. Wonder

483
00:40:03.760 --> 00:40:09.480
Woman seventy five to seventy nine, Superboy eighty eight to

484
00:40:09.559 --> 00:40:18.079
ninety two. Really, I don't remember ever seeing Superboy. Was

485
00:40:18.119 --> 00:40:24.800
it cartoon for the Chinese reality seeing contest see Superboy

486
00:40:24.880 --> 00:40:32.480
TV series. Okay, it's an American television series based on

487
00:40:32.519 --> 00:40:36.400
the fictional DC comic character Superman's early years a Superboy.

488
00:40:37.199 --> 00:40:40.000
The show ran from eighty eight to ninety two. In syndication.

489
00:40:40.559 --> 00:40:43.440
It was renamed The Adventures as Superboy at the start

490
00:40:43.480 --> 00:40:54.280
of the third season, although they sold arises. The first

491
00:40:54.599 --> 00:40:59.840
beginning focused on Clark Kent. Really, I'd love to see that.

492
00:41:00.679 --> 00:41:04.960
I didn't know there was a Superboy. Why did they

493
00:41:05.079 --> 00:41:08.679
never showed that on TV in this country? I'm pretty

494
00:41:08.719 --> 00:41:12.360
sure i'd remember that. Shazam again, that was seventy four

495
00:41:12.400 --> 00:41:20.719
to seventy six. Never saw that. The Batman series, I mean,

496
00:41:21.719 --> 00:41:24.320
who hasn't. I mean, maybe there are people that hasn't

497
00:41:24.320 --> 00:41:28.400
seen it, but the Batman shows sixty six sixty eight

498
00:41:29.039 --> 00:41:32.000
with some of the best television ever in my opinion.

499
00:41:32.119 --> 00:41:38.880
I loved it. The Flash nineteen ninety to ninety one,

500
00:41:39.880 --> 00:41:47.400
so that was funny. Lewis and Clark, The New Adventures Superman, Now,

501
00:41:47.480 --> 00:41:51.360
that was huge in this country ninety three to ninety seven.

502
00:41:51.719 --> 00:41:54.079
Who used to be on a Saturday evening and it

503
00:41:54.119 --> 00:41:58.199
was one of the top rated shows like in this

504
00:41:58.360 --> 00:42:05.320
country at that time, huge viewership. And the Lewis Lane

505
00:42:05.400 --> 00:42:10.719
whatever her name was, she was absolutely like you couldn't

506
00:42:11.119 --> 00:42:14.360
It's almost like you couldn't look at a newspaper without

507
00:42:14.400 --> 00:42:19.960
seeing her face on there. Small Ville, Now, you know

508
00:42:20.000 --> 00:42:25.199
what is a weird thing. I didn't even know what

509
00:42:25.400 --> 00:42:31.840
small Ville was about. So started in two thousand and one.

510
00:42:32.159 --> 00:42:35.760
I came over it by accident in two thousand and two.

511
00:42:36.679 --> 00:42:38.480
But it used to be on in a weird time,

512
00:42:38.559 --> 00:42:42.960
like on a Sunday afternoon, which is a strange time

513
00:42:43.039 --> 00:42:50.320
for something like a Superman show to be on. And

514
00:42:51.400 --> 00:42:54.280
I did not know, I said, I'm probably two thousand

515
00:42:54.280 --> 00:42:56.719
and three, sorry, not two thousand and two. Two thousand

516
00:42:56.760 --> 00:43:01.519
and three. I didn't know it was about Superman. And

517
00:43:01.679 --> 00:43:04.480
I saw a small villain. I thought that sounds familiar,

518
00:43:08.199 --> 00:43:11.679
and then I started watching it. I loved it, and

519
00:43:11.760 --> 00:43:15.239
I watched it every Sunday. I didn't see it from

520
00:43:15.719 --> 00:43:18.639
the beginning all the way to the end, because it

521
00:43:18.679 --> 00:43:21.440
went on to twenty eleven. I stopped watching it probably

522
00:43:21.480 --> 00:43:29.199
after a couple of years. And what I mean. Two

523
00:43:29.239 --> 00:43:31.480
things that amazed me about that, I mean it were

524
00:43:31.519 --> 00:43:39.800
not amazed me is he I was watching what's that

525
00:43:39.960 --> 00:43:46.039
name for the Devil? The TV show on Netflix? All

526
00:43:51.079 --> 00:44:10.599
Not Be Easy Bub Netflix A Devil TV show Lucifer Lucifer. Okay,

527
00:44:10.639 --> 00:44:15.159
so Lucifer. There was this character in Lucifer and I

528
00:44:15.199 --> 00:44:20.960
thought he looks familiar. Where have I seen him before?

529
00:44:21.119 --> 00:44:23.559
And it was really good in the show, Like I

530
00:44:23.599 --> 00:44:29.440
don't know who he is. He was Superman. It was

531
00:44:29.519 --> 00:44:32.920
smallvill Superman because he was I think he literally was

532
00:44:32.960 --> 00:44:35.599
a kid. He was like a teenager when he started

533
00:44:35.639 --> 00:44:41.440
doing that show. And it was so weird to see

534
00:44:41.519 --> 00:44:44.760
him all grown up because I I suppose he's in

535
00:44:44.840 --> 00:44:48.199
his forties now, maybe even older. I don't know. Should

536
00:44:48.199 --> 00:44:52.199
we find out Let's find out camera, Let's find out

537
00:44:52.519 --> 00:44:58.719
Tom Willing forty eight. The weird thing about it, it

538
00:44:58.800 --> 00:45:01.840
looks better now than he did then, not as anything

539
00:45:01.840 --> 00:45:05.719
wrong with how he looked then, but he's just maybe

540
00:45:05.719 --> 00:45:08.159
he's just grown into his face. I don't know, he's

541
00:45:12.079 --> 00:45:16.440
it just looks so it just looks. It's weird. I

542
00:45:16.480 --> 00:45:22.599
don't want to see what other things he'd done. I

543
00:45:22.599 --> 00:45:24.239
don't know why they can't have a little bit of

544
00:45:24.719 --> 00:45:27.639
continuity and just let him be Superman as an adult.

545
00:45:28.840 --> 00:45:34.639
But he didn't seem to want to. He's been in

546
00:45:34.679 --> 00:45:40.920
a few movies, being a few TV shows. He was

547
00:45:40.920 --> 00:45:53.000
a batwoman. He played Clark Kent really wow, but that

548
00:45:53.199 --> 00:46:01.760
was like eight years after Smallville finished. Mmmm, well, wait

549
00:46:01.840 --> 00:46:12.679
a minute, what's this one? Professionals? Professionals? Okay, No, it's

550
00:46:12.760 --> 00:46:20.199
not the TV show that I used to love, but

551
00:46:20.320 --> 00:46:21.960
the point I was trying to make, if there was

552
00:46:21.960 --> 00:46:24.639
a point, I don't know. I used to shave my

553
00:46:24.760 --> 00:46:29.639
head while I watched Smallville. So I had these clippers

554
00:46:29.719 --> 00:46:32.639
and I just used to do that, and I had

555
00:46:32.800 --> 00:46:35.079
when I shaved my head, I didn't like rinse my

556
00:46:35.119 --> 00:46:39.840
hair off and everything, or rinse rinse my scalp in

557
00:46:39.880 --> 00:46:46.760
the bath, and then I would rub in this moisturizer

558
00:46:46.920 --> 00:46:51.480
into my scalp and just message my scalp while I

559
00:46:51.519 --> 00:46:57.599
watched small Ville on TV. And not only did it,

560
00:46:57.599 --> 00:47:02.159
it just it felt nice, how lovely. It's a really

561
00:47:02.280 --> 00:47:09.400
nice smell. Yeah, I just remember doing that. I don't

562
00:47:09.400 --> 00:47:11.480
know why I remember that. That was two thousand and

563
00:47:11.480 --> 00:47:15.079
three Sundays. This is when I was working in the

564
00:47:15.079 --> 00:47:26.639
call center selling car insurance. So maybe it was Spider

565
00:47:26.639 --> 00:47:29.000
Man I went to on that date with. I didn't

566
00:47:29.000 --> 00:47:30.639
go on a date with Spider Man, but I went

567
00:47:30.679 --> 00:47:34.119
on a date with the girl at school to see

568
00:47:34.119 --> 00:47:37.639
Spider Man, I think, because I think I went to

569
00:47:37.679 --> 00:47:41.960
see Superman with my brother. I definitely went to see

570
00:47:41.960 --> 00:47:47.199
Superman two with my brother because I was dreaming about

571
00:47:47.239 --> 00:47:51.400
it the day before or the night before. I dreamt

572
00:47:52.320 --> 00:47:55.920
because we kept seeing I dreamt, we kept seeing the adverts,

573
00:47:55.960 --> 00:47:59.199
you know, with all the super villains that were in

574
00:47:59.239 --> 00:48:06.719
Superman three at Superman two, and yeah, I just I

575
00:48:06.760 --> 00:48:08.599
wanted to see that more than I wanted to see

576
00:48:08.599 --> 00:48:14.440
the first one. It excited me. But then I also

577
00:48:14.519 --> 00:48:17.320
got excited about seeing the third one because Richard Pryor

578
00:48:17.320 --> 00:48:20.079
was in it. And at the time Richard Pryor was

579
00:48:20.599 --> 00:48:26.000
he was the biggest Hollywood actor at the time because

580
00:48:26.000 --> 00:48:29.039
he'd done Stir Crazy and he was doing his due,

581
00:48:29.320 --> 00:48:32.239
you know, films with Gene Wilder, and he was a

582
00:48:32.679 --> 00:48:38.400
huge star. And this is before I even discovered his

583
00:48:38.719 --> 00:48:43.960
stand up. Genuinly didn't know he did stand up. It's weird,

584
00:48:43.960 --> 00:48:46.360
isn't it. But then I was I was a little kid,

585
00:48:46.400 --> 00:48:49.360
so I didn't really I knew what stand up comedy

586
00:48:49.480 --> 00:48:53.719
was because we had stand up comedy on television, but

587
00:48:53.800 --> 00:48:58.079
it was a different It definitely wasn't. Richard Pryor didn't

588
00:48:58.079 --> 00:49:00.599
have that kind of adult comedy on that I got

589
00:49:00.639 --> 00:49:07.800
to see. Anyway, I remember I used to share, give

590
00:49:08.280 --> 00:49:12.679
this girl my chocolate. So if i'd have a I'd ever,

591
00:49:13.119 --> 00:49:18.239
I'd ever packed lunch with sandwiches, packet of crisps, and

592
00:49:18.360 --> 00:49:24.039
maybe a chocolate bar, like a little chocolate bar, such

593
00:49:24.079 --> 00:49:33.519
as a penguin. Now I didn't like penguins. I don't

594
00:49:33.559 --> 00:49:37.199
know why. I just didn't like them. So i'd give

595
00:49:37.199 --> 00:49:40.079
them away or try and swap with someone if someone

596
00:49:40.079 --> 00:49:42.800
had a kit kat or you know, different kind of thing.

597
00:49:43.519 --> 00:49:47.840
And what I'd sometimes do is give away the penguin

598
00:49:47.920 --> 00:49:51.079
to someone, to this girl to show how much I

599
00:49:51.119 --> 00:49:55.199
loved her. Sometimes i'd pick flowers. I'd go up to

600
00:49:55.199 --> 00:50:00.599
her and say there, go and she said, there's nets

601
00:50:02.519 --> 00:50:04.079
and I'm like, check them on the floor. She said,

602
00:50:04.079 --> 00:50:05.400
why do you check them on the floor? Said because

603
00:50:05.400 --> 00:50:09.880
I was stinging me. Oh, so you knew there was

604
00:50:09.920 --> 00:50:12.800
stinging net lers and nettles ended you because she used

605
00:50:12.840 --> 00:50:16.480
to slur sometimes when she spoke, and I said, what,

606
00:50:18.039 --> 00:50:21.239
I can't understand you because you're slurred. She said, so

607
00:50:21.360 --> 00:50:24.480
you knew that there was stinging nettles. I said, no,

608
00:50:25.119 --> 00:50:27.880
there were flowers, I thought, but he said there was

609
00:50:27.920 --> 00:50:31.880
stinging your fingers. I said, yeah, I didn't know why

610
00:50:33.199 --> 00:50:35.639
But it makes sense now, that's if they sting, they're

611
00:50:35.639 --> 00:50:38.760
called stinging netles. That makes sense. The name very much

612
00:50:38.960 --> 00:50:43.960
applies to the topic that we're conversing about. She said,

613
00:50:43.960 --> 00:50:49.000
what I'm wondering if fin's eating his dinner now, he's

614
00:50:49.039 --> 00:50:53.400
eating his eating his wet food. He started looking on

615
00:50:53.440 --> 00:50:57.360
the floor for dry bits of dry food because sometimes

616
00:50:57.480 --> 00:50:59.199
drop things on the floor when I'm putting them in

617
00:50:59.199 --> 00:51:04.039
the pocket, and he's been hunting around for them, and

618
00:51:04.079 --> 00:51:07.360
because he had no more, he's had to settle with

619
00:51:07.400 --> 00:51:11.840
the wet food. I don't know if you can hear

620
00:51:11.880 --> 00:51:14.639
that slurp in a way. I'm not going to give

621
00:51:14.679 --> 00:51:16.079
him any attention. I'm going to I'm not going to

622
00:51:16.119 --> 00:51:22.239
look at him or anything. Well, I think that he's stopped.

623
00:51:22.320 --> 00:51:26.199
He might be looking at me. I think he did

624
00:51:26.199 --> 00:51:30.800
look up, and then he's continued. So I was at

625
00:51:30.840 --> 00:51:36.400
that school. Nothing particularly interesting occurred at that school that

626
00:51:36.480 --> 00:51:43.239
I can really remember, other than there was one incident.

627
00:51:43.840 --> 00:51:46.559
And this is really weird, but it's true. I had

628
00:51:46.599 --> 00:51:50.880
by two incidents. There was this bully there. Still remember

629
00:51:50.920 --> 00:51:53.360
his name. I won't say his name because I'm sure

630
00:51:53.400 --> 00:51:58.280
he's you know, he's sure he's a good bloke, just

631
00:51:58.480 --> 00:51:59.800
you know, at that time, he was a bit of

632
00:51:59.840 --> 00:52:02.960
a bit of a ruffian and used to try and

633
00:52:03.760 --> 00:52:11.880
cause trouble. And he picked on my friend who was

634
00:52:13.159 --> 00:52:17.199
who had a I think he had like one one

635
00:52:17.280 --> 00:52:21.000
kid ney or something, my friend who lived three doors

636
00:52:21.079 --> 00:52:23.920
up from where I lived, and he was making fun

637
00:52:23.920 --> 00:52:26.440
of him because he because he had a bag and

638
00:52:26.519 --> 00:52:30.480
I had a bag thing. I didn't really understand it,

639
00:52:30.559 --> 00:52:34.719
but I knew that he was unwell and stuff. So

640
00:52:37.280 --> 00:52:41.239
this kid was making fun of him. So I intervened

641
00:52:41.639 --> 00:52:45.960
and it didn't end well for him, to be fair,

642
00:52:49.000 --> 00:52:51.519
but it didn't seem to stop him from keep coming back.

643
00:52:53.639 --> 00:52:58.639
And then another time it was outside in the field.

644
00:53:00.079 --> 00:53:03.480
So at this point my other brother one who was

645
00:53:03.519 --> 00:53:06.119
two years older, was there as well, because I was

646
00:53:06.239 --> 00:53:15.079
eight and he was ten. Yeah, so he was like

647
00:53:15.199 --> 00:53:17.960
in his probably in the last year of that school.

648
00:53:18.239 --> 00:53:20.920
I still had a couple more left if I was

649
00:53:20.960 --> 00:53:26.599
going to stay there. And this kid, I think the

650
00:53:26.639 --> 00:53:29.320
name is Mark. I think I know what his name was,

651
00:53:29.360 --> 00:53:33.719
but it stayed with me for some reason. And I

652
00:53:33.760 --> 00:53:37.239
don't know if he I think he grabbed my back

653
00:53:37.920 --> 00:53:41.639
or something, or he might have walked up and just

654
00:53:41.679 --> 00:53:47.199
pushed me over something like that. I don't know and

655
00:53:47.320 --> 00:53:50.440
my brother, and this is totally true. It's not even

656
00:53:50.480 --> 00:53:53.719
made up, because well I could make it up. I

657
00:53:53.719 --> 00:53:57.039
could say anything good night, but it really happened, which

658
00:53:57.079 --> 00:54:03.280
was quite impressive. He showed O. He might not have said, oh,

659
00:54:03.320 --> 00:54:07.239
but he showered something out leave him alone, leave my

660
00:54:07.280 --> 00:54:12.480
brother alone, or whatever something like that. And I think

661
00:54:12.960 --> 00:54:15.920
this kid shouted something back at him because there was

662
00:54:15.960 --> 00:54:20.800
quite a distance between them, and my brother chucked this

663
00:54:20.960 --> 00:54:24.440
tennis ball which he was playing with with his friends

664
00:54:24.519 --> 00:54:28.440
or whatever. Chucked it and it landed right in his eye,

665
00:54:28.639 --> 00:54:30.840
not my brother's eye, and then just chuck it in

666
00:54:30.880 --> 00:54:33.760
the air and look up, he chucked it at this kid.

667
00:54:34.760 --> 00:54:40.840
It landed in his eye, Like how can you? I mean,

668
00:54:40.880 --> 00:54:44.360
he had to have it surgically removed. He didn't it landed.

669
00:54:44.440 --> 00:54:47.320
How could you even you could even plan something like that.

670
00:54:51.559 --> 00:54:56.320
I was like, honestly, I was probably the time that

671
00:54:56.400 --> 00:55:02.679
I had the most. I pleased. They pleased with my

672
00:55:02.760 --> 00:55:05.639
brother and I didn't need him to look after me

673
00:55:05.679 --> 00:55:07.400
for that because I'd already dealt with him before and

674
00:55:07.440 --> 00:55:10.960
I could the game. But it was just nice. It's

675
00:55:11.000 --> 00:55:13.039
quite nice, you know when a brother does something like that,

676
00:55:14.400 --> 00:55:22.079
and it's like such a good shot. Anyway, there was

677
00:55:22.119 --> 00:55:27.559
another time with my brother anyway, It's yeah, he did,

678
00:55:27.719 --> 00:55:30.119
he did. He did stand up for me a couple

679
00:55:30.159 --> 00:55:35.159
of times, so I'll give him that. So that school

680
00:55:35.280 --> 00:55:41.440
kind of left the ironic thing about it, right, here's

681
00:55:41.440 --> 00:55:43.840
a weird thing about it. We moved to different school,

682
00:55:43.960 --> 00:55:51.199
to a different house away from that school. But because

683
00:55:51.280 --> 00:55:57.719
he was in the final year, so I started a

684
00:55:57.840 --> 00:56:03.159
new junior school at age No, but my brother was eleven,

685
00:56:03.280 --> 00:56:05.960
so he went to the high school. But he went

686
00:56:06.000 --> 00:56:09.079
to a different high school. So both my brothers. My

687
00:56:09.159 --> 00:56:11.639
other brother was four years older than me, so he

688
00:56:11.639 --> 00:56:13.760
would have been in the second year of high school

689
00:56:14.079 --> 00:56:18.920
or third year of high school at this point. No,

690
00:56:20.880 --> 00:56:31.679
second year. No, this sounds weird. I can't remember nine, ten, eleven,

691
00:56:33.519 --> 00:56:35.639
so no, maybe my other brother still had one year

692
00:56:35.719 --> 00:56:41.719
left at that junior school. Yeah, eight and ten, I

693
00:56:41.760 --> 00:56:44.119
don't know, anyway, I think he still had one year

694
00:56:44.239 --> 00:56:50.960
left there. And then my other brother went to the

695
00:56:51.079 --> 00:56:54.360
high school. But anyhow, it ended up I went to

696
00:56:54.400 --> 00:56:59.559
a different junior school, another junior school that was miles away,

697
00:57:00.079 --> 00:57:04.280
so didn't have my friends anymore. Made some new friends.

698
00:57:07.000 --> 00:57:10.239
Both my brothers went to a different high school to me.

699
00:57:14.320 --> 00:57:17.519
I mean there was no reason for it. I mean literally,

700
00:57:17.639 --> 00:57:19.920
there's like they went. They just went to a different

701
00:57:20.199 --> 00:57:22.079
So I ended up going to a completely different high

702
00:57:22.079 --> 00:57:24.639
school because I was at this different junior school for

703
00:57:24.679 --> 00:57:30.000
two years and instead of just continuing to go to

704
00:57:30.039 --> 00:57:32.639
the school I was already at, which wouldn't have been

705
00:57:32.800 --> 00:57:40.239
hard to get to from where I was living. I mean, ironically,

706
00:57:40.320 --> 00:57:42.280
I think that sort of difference doing the correct word.

707
00:57:43.079 --> 00:57:49.360
This junior school that I was going to before was literally,

708
00:57:50.599 --> 00:57:52.840
I don't know, five minute walk from the high school

709
00:57:53.239 --> 00:57:56.159
that both my brothers ended up going to. So they

710
00:57:56.199 --> 00:57:58.239
were allowed, it's why for them to walk there. But

711
00:57:59.159 --> 00:58:01.360
I could have just is easily continue going to the

712
00:58:01.440 --> 00:58:05.679
junior school. In fact, I could have gone with them,

713
00:58:05.719 --> 00:58:10.440
couldn't I could have walked with them, and walking there

714
00:58:10.480 --> 00:58:12.199
wasn't an issue because I was walking to school on

715
00:58:12.239 --> 00:58:17.039
my own anyway at that age. Long before that, Yeah,

716
00:58:17.079 --> 00:58:21.559
I was walking to school at seven eighty eight years old.

717
00:58:21.559 --> 00:58:24.039
I was walking to school on my own, so it

718
00:58:24.159 --> 00:58:26.039
wasn't an issue. And even when I went to the

719
00:58:26.039 --> 00:58:29.800
other junior school, I was walking to about fifty minutes

720
00:58:29.960 --> 00:58:33.360
forty minutes to get there and about two hours to

721
00:58:33.400 --> 00:58:39.320
get home because I was very slow. And that's something

722
00:58:39.360 --> 00:58:43.639
I noticed when I was at that school. I used

723
00:58:43.679 --> 00:58:50.679
to walk around and just sing songs, and I went

724
00:58:50.760 --> 00:58:54.800
for a period when I thought I was a superhero

725
00:58:56.280 --> 00:59:04.639
and I thought that I could become invisible. I didn't

726
00:59:04.639 --> 00:59:12.079
always tell people that I thought I was invisible. I

727
00:59:12.079 --> 00:59:15.280
remember I decided to do it once during the court

728
00:59:15.280 --> 00:59:18.400
the register call at school, so we'd always go in

729
00:59:18.440 --> 00:59:20.880
the first first part of the day and then call

730
00:59:20.920 --> 00:59:23.400
out a name. Maybe they did it in assembly, I

731
00:59:23.400 --> 00:59:27.440
can't remember. Hey who had to shout out yes, sir,

732
00:59:27.599 --> 00:59:31.440
here's sir whatever. And I decided, I'm going to make

733
00:59:31.480 --> 00:59:36.800
myself invisible. So I made myself invisible and no one

734
00:59:36.880 --> 00:59:39.079
was looking at me, so I thought this is working.

735
00:59:42.719 --> 00:59:45.559
And then they called my name out. The teacher or

736
00:59:45.599 --> 00:59:49.920
the headmaster called my name out, and I thought, I'll

737
00:59:49.960 --> 00:59:52.199
just keep quiet because there's no point me talking because

738
00:59:52.199 --> 00:59:54.199
people aren't going to see me. They'll freak everyone out.

739
00:59:58.679 --> 01:00:01.800
It's really weird because they everyone was looking at my

740
01:00:01.920 --> 01:00:05.639
seat or where I would have been sitting, because no

741
01:00:05.679 --> 01:00:07.920
one sat on the seat. I suppose they must have

742
01:00:08.159 --> 01:00:10.880
just I don't know why they didn't sit on it

743
01:00:10.960 --> 01:00:12.800
because there was no one there because I was invisible.

744
01:00:13.320 --> 01:00:19.000
I was technically I was there, and the teacher kept

745
01:00:19.000 --> 01:00:30.400
saying Jacen Land, Josh and Peel like, we're looking over

746
01:00:30.559 --> 01:00:32.719
in my direction, and I know they couldn't see me

747
01:00:33.719 --> 01:00:38.480
because I was invisible. Horace, can you hear that?

748
01:00:42.760 --> 01:00:42.920
Hi?

749
01:00:43.079 --> 01:00:55.360
Horace? Hi? Mate? You're okay? Yeah? How you been? How's

750
01:00:55.400 --> 01:01:01.480
the kids? Well? I didn't want to talk. I bored him.

751
01:01:01.519 --> 01:01:09.599
Path he's gone. I think it was one of his

752
01:01:09.719 --> 01:01:12.800
kids that got stuck inside to the other day, came

753
01:01:12.840 --> 01:01:15.400
in the back door. Back door was lodged open for

754
01:01:15.440 --> 01:01:19.119
some reason, and it comes up trying to get in

755
01:01:19.159 --> 01:01:22.199
and out of the top part where all the windows

756
01:01:22.280 --> 01:01:25.280
can't get through the windows. I used to think I

757
01:01:25.320 --> 01:01:31.519
could walk through walls. The best thing to in those

758
01:01:31.519 --> 01:01:34.719
situations is as long as you never test it, you

759
01:01:34.760 --> 01:01:39.639
can still believe it. Because there used to be this

760
01:01:39.719 --> 01:01:46.679
big wall just right It had a gold painted on it,

761
01:01:47.280 --> 01:01:51.079
and it was just a random wall, very strange, and

762
01:01:52.480 --> 01:01:55.679
I used to believe I could walk through the wall,

763
01:02:00.280 --> 01:02:06.760
but I never tested it. I wonder why never tested it,

764
01:02:09.679 --> 01:02:12.159
but I did. I used to just remember once I

765
01:02:12.239 --> 01:02:18.000
actually I think we're playing hide and seek or we're

766
01:02:18.039 --> 01:02:22.960
playing soldiers, and I was in the grass and I

767
01:02:23.039 --> 01:02:32.280
made myself invisible. I thought I'd made myself invisible, and

768
01:02:32.320 --> 01:02:38.280
no one found me. Was there the whole weekend? No

769
01:02:39.159 --> 01:02:43.559
one found me. It's like, Wow, I didn't realize that

770
01:02:43.639 --> 01:02:48.760
people were just ignoring me. Did you ever when you

771
01:02:48.840 --> 01:02:50.519
was a kid, did you ever turn up at school

772
01:02:50.559 --> 01:02:54.159
on a Saturday by accident and wonder why you couldn't

773
01:02:54.159 --> 01:02:59.360
get in? That happened to me. I mean, I woke

774
01:02:59.440 --> 01:03:04.559
up like, oh, I'm late, and I'm like running to

775
01:03:04.679 --> 01:03:09.199
school to get there, and I'm wondering, oh, everyone's gone,

776
01:03:09.599 --> 01:03:11.440
because I didn't realize they were all still in bed.

777
01:03:13.599 --> 01:03:16.159
There's no one here. Everyone said their lunch, they're gone,

778
01:03:16.760 --> 01:03:21.239
their breakfast. Rather, they're gone. So I'm rushing and get there,

779
01:03:21.280 --> 01:03:28.480
and then I realized it's Saturday. Laughed, I've just well.

780
01:03:28.480 --> 01:03:30.480
I waited till I caught my breath and then I laughed.

781
01:03:31.400 --> 01:03:34.639
And I get home and at this point people the family,

782
01:03:34.719 --> 01:03:37.480
people the family are having their breakfast, and I told them,

783
01:03:37.480 --> 01:03:41.119
and some of them laughed, some of them just looked

784
01:03:41.159 --> 01:03:47.400
at me, bewildered. I say bewildered because that was a

785
01:03:47.440 --> 01:03:49.719
new word that I was trust trying out back then.

786
01:03:50.599 --> 01:03:53.119
I like to try a new word that I hadn't

787
01:03:53.159 --> 01:03:59.199
really used regularly, and I thought, you know what, because

788
01:03:59.239 --> 01:04:07.119
this was probably about nineteen eighty before, I've not used

789
01:04:07.119 --> 01:04:10.000
the word bewildered. I don't think I've ever used it

790
01:04:12.199 --> 01:04:14.880
every I know what it means, but in the context

791
01:04:14.880 --> 01:04:18.679
of a sentence. But I don't know I've ever used

792
01:04:18.679 --> 01:04:22.440
it in a sentence or in some kind of grammatical

793
01:04:23.239 --> 01:04:31.199
conversational format. But then I forgot to use it until

794
01:04:31.239 --> 01:04:35.880
now I was remembered. So yeah, thinking about it's kind

795
01:04:35.920 --> 01:04:44.880
of feelings a bit bewildered. Really, So I did like

796
01:04:45.000 --> 01:04:49.840
that school. There's a few things that I perhaps didn't

797
01:04:49.920 --> 01:04:51.760
like so much. That One of those things was they

798
01:04:51.840 --> 01:04:56.079
kept trying to teach me French, like, come on, are

799
01:04:56.079 --> 01:05:01.679
you kidding? What are you doing? I've never been I've

800
01:05:01.880 --> 01:05:05.239
just for some reason, speaking different languages and never really

801
01:05:05.320 --> 01:05:11.920
been something that I was particularly I wasn't interested in,

802
01:05:12.280 --> 01:05:18.079
but I also didn't really understand. Now, I think part

803
01:05:18.119 --> 01:05:21.360
of the reason for that, other than lack of intelligence

804
01:05:21.360 --> 01:05:27.480
on my part, probably is unlike the my dad's generation,

805
01:05:27.639 --> 01:05:32.519
and my NaN's generation. We didn't learn Latin, and Latin

806
01:05:32.880 --> 01:05:40.440
is almost the root of so many of the European languages,

807
01:05:41.360 --> 01:05:47.239
so you can almost it's I think, I'm just this

808
01:05:47.280 --> 01:05:51.519
is just my interpretation. It is easier to learn another

809
01:05:51.599 --> 01:05:55.039
language when you know Latin. I mean, Latin is I

810
01:05:55.039 --> 01:05:58.880
guess another language, I suppose, but you can, you know,

811
01:05:58.920 --> 01:06:02.480
when it comes to French or German, you've got the

812
01:06:02.559 --> 01:06:05.000
Latin roots, so you kind of kind of get to

813
01:06:05.079 --> 01:06:06.519
know what things are and it makes it a bit

814
01:06:06.559 --> 01:06:12.880
easier to connect together. At ten years old, I was

815
01:06:12.920 --> 01:06:16.920
still learning English and I still am so I didn't

816
01:06:16.960 --> 01:06:22.320
really understand, and I didn't learn to read really till

817
01:06:22.519 --> 01:06:26.840
I taught myself pretty much. I did go to school,

818
01:06:26.840 --> 01:06:32.599
but I was what five, six six probably when I

819
01:06:32.599 --> 01:06:35.400
first got my first book, first got my first book.

820
01:06:37.159 --> 01:06:39.920
That's pretty much my only position, actually, that book, and

821
01:06:40.480 --> 01:06:42.119
I used to read it over and over and over

822
01:06:42.119 --> 01:06:45.840
and over and over and over and over again. And

823
01:06:45.880 --> 01:06:48.800
then when I went to junior school, this particular junior school,

824
01:06:48.800 --> 01:06:53.480
the one I'm talking about, I'd read and read and

825
01:06:53.519 --> 01:06:56.599
read and read, take books home, bring them back, read,

826
01:06:56.639 --> 01:07:00.639
you know. I read everything, every single book they had

827
01:07:00.840 --> 01:07:06.360
pretty much in their little library. I read, and yeah,

828
01:07:06.360 --> 01:07:11.159
I loved it. Loved reading. That's the only kind of

829
01:07:13.039 --> 01:07:19.199
mildly intelligent thing. Flappy us there. I'm not saying intelligent,

830
01:07:19.360 --> 01:07:23.639
but yeah, the only thing that I really had is

831
01:07:23.920 --> 01:07:27.920
the love of reading. So I'm guessing there must have

832
01:07:28.000 --> 01:07:32.440
been some kind of brain activity going on inside my head.

833
01:07:34.280 --> 01:07:36.559
I don't know what or how much, but it was

834
01:07:36.559 --> 01:07:43.079
something going on. I loved to read. I'd like to

835
01:07:43.119 --> 01:07:45.320
get that passion back because I've kind of lost it

836
01:07:45.360 --> 01:07:48.440
a little bit. I mean, I do listen to audio books,

837
01:07:50.079 --> 01:07:52.760
but it's not the same. I mean, it can be that.

838
01:07:52.840 --> 01:07:55.199
I mean, I wouldn't be saying that if I was

839
01:07:57.239 --> 01:08:01.159
seriously visually impaired. I am visually impaired, but not seriously,

840
01:08:01.840 --> 01:08:06.519
so I think i'd take offense if people said, oh,

841
01:08:06.559 --> 01:08:08.639
you're not reading, because you'd not actually seen it with

842
01:08:08.679 --> 01:08:15.119
your eyes. But the problem is when I listen to

843
01:08:15.199 --> 01:08:17.640
an audiobook, I do have a tendency of falling asleep,

844
01:08:22.960 --> 01:08:25.279
and I wouldn't class that is reading the book if

845
01:08:25.279 --> 01:08:28.720
I was reading the book, and every time. The thing is,

846
01:08:28.720 --> 01:08:31.520
when you read a book, if you fall asleep reading

847
01:08:31.560 --> 01:08:35.000
the book, don't you're not on like page forty two,

848
01:08:35.159 --> 01:08:38.319
and then when you wake up, you're on page ninety three.

849
01:08:39.079 --> 01:08:41.079
You know, you don't read why you're asleep, do you?

850
01:08:41.239 --> 01:08:44.800
But you can listen while you're asleep, or the thing

851
01:08:44.880 --> 01:08:47.319
can still play. You're not still turning the pages when

852
01:08:47.319 --> 01:08:50.640
you're asleep, and then like, oh, what's happened? I don't know.

853
01:08:51.199 --> 01:08:53.520
It's like I've just gone through thirty seven pages and

854
01:08:53.520 --> 01:08:57.399
I don't know what's happened. Never mind, that's still classes

855
01:08:57.439 --> 01:09:03.720
reading the book. It wouldn't be, but it so, I

856
01:09:03.720 --> 01:09:07.000
don't know when it comes to listening to audio books,

857
01:09:07.600 --> 01:09:11.239
whether that's classed the same as reading a book. I

858
01:09:11.399 --> 01:09:18.079
like to think it is, but I don't know. I

859
01:09:18.119 --> 01:09:26.600
don't know. I'm not sure I have read. From an

860
01:09:26.640 --> 01:09:37.920
audiobook perspective, how many audiobooks I've got's I've got three

861
01:09:38.000 --> 01:09:45.239
hundred and eighty nine titles in my catalog. I've read

862
01:09:45.279 --> 01:09:48.039
more than that because you get some free. So I've

863
01:09:48.079 --> 01:09:52.600
read quite a few that were free, but recently I've

864
01:09:52.640 --> 01:09:55.199
had to go and going to read them and they're

865
01:09:55.399 --> 01:09:59.119
taking them off. They got three hundred and eighty nine,

866
01:10:00.239 --> 01:10:05.960
three hundred and eighty three in my library, all all

867
01:10:06.239 --> 01:10:09.079
three hundred and eighty nine all but three hundred and

868
01:10:09.119 --> 01:10:16.439
eighty three titles. I couldn't even tell you blind me.

869
01:10:17.000 --> 01:10:20.840
The thing is a lot of it is not not

870
01:10:20.960 --> 01:10:25.760
story books. Most of it is kind of self help.

871
01:10:28.560 --> 01:10:36.479
I think like the art of war and philosophy, psychology. Well,

872
01:10:36.520 --> 01:10:41.840
I do have the Beatrix Potter collection as a man

873
01:10:42.079 --> 01:10:47.399
thinking of the men, historic Goats, essentials or social psychology.

874
01:10:47.880 --> 01:10:52.600
The power of habit breaking, the habit of being just

875
01:10:52.760 --> 01:10:58.840
self breaking, the habit of breaking the habit, the habit

876
01:10:58.880 --> 01:11:04.560
of being yourself influenced Knew and Expanded Art Finish and

877
01:11:04.880 --> 01:11:11.560
Artificial Intelligence for Dummies. Borderline Personality Disorder Never Finished, The

878
01:11:11.600 --> 01:11:16.960
eighty twenty Principal chat P Chat GPT Mastery twelve books

879
01:11:17.000 --> 01:11:21.680
in one Understanding Disorders of the Brain. Then You've Got

880
01:11:21.720 --> 01:11:27.680
Gold by Zig Ziggler, The Jimp Paradox, Chimp Paradox, Stephen Peters,

881
01:11:29.640 --> 01:11:35.399
The Crowd, a Study of Psychology under You Got Success, Habits,

882
01:11:35.880 --> 01:11:40.960
The Law of Success Napoleon Hill Oh nineteen gal The

883
01:11:41.000 --> 01:11:46.159
Stranger's Secret for Success, And then You've Got My Voice

884
01:11:46.159 --> 01:11:49.199
Will Go with You by Sidney Rosen As a hypnosis one.

885
01:11:49.399 --> 01:11:51.800
The Therapist's Guide to E D. M R E. M

886
01:11:51.880 --> 01:11:56.520
D R R. The Coach to be Disliked, The Complex

887
01:11:56.880 --> 01:12:06.640
Borderline Personality Disorder co Cybernetics by Maxwell Maltz. And then

888
01:12:06.680 --> 01:12:11.079
you've got realer imagined Outspark your outsmite your pain, The

889
01:12:11.199 --> 01:12:17.039
TENX mentor this grant cardone, the ten X Rule, Seven

890
01:12:17.279 --> 01:12:23.079
Power Principles for Success, Hypnosis about Trance by James Tripp,

891
01:12:23.359 --> 01:12:27.279
The Essence of Success by L. Nightingale, The Direct Line

892
01:12:27.279 --> 01:12:33.159
by L. Nightingale, Great Ideas by L. Nightingale, The Magic

893
01:12:33.199 --> 01:12:35.680
of Thinking Big. So quite a few of these I've

894
01:12:35.680 --> 01:12:39.000
read in the past, but these are audio versions. Napoleon

895
01:12:39.119 --> 01:12:44.720
Hill's Golden Rules by Napoleon Hill, NLP, The ES Central Guide.

896
01:12:45.319 --> 01:12:48.000
I'm pretty sure I listened to that audiobook or that

897
01:12:48.079 --> 01:12:53.000
it was an audio recording back in ninety eight. BlimE me.

898
01:12:53.720 --> 01:12:57.119
Hypnosis there's no one understanding or as a start here,

899
01:12:57.560 --> 01:13:02.039
Advanced Hypnotherapy. Reason to Stay Alive but by Matt Haig.

900
01:13:02.880 --> 01:13:06.880
The Joy of Meditation by Sally Meryll Bedfield I think

901
01:13:06.880 --> 01:13:10.640
her name is. That's the recording that I listened to

902
01:13:11.479 --> 01:13:18.239
back in nineteen no. Two thousand. In two thousand, I

903
01:13:18.359 --> 01:13:21.920
listened to that recording. I found it and I've got

904
01:13:21.960 --> 01:13:25.520
it saved on here, and I think I purchased it. It

905
01:13:25.520 --> 01:13:29.319
was like too good or something. I think, but love

906
01:13:29.720 --> 01:13:36.079
that recording. And you've got the Quantum Revelation, the Quantum Rules.

907
01:13:36.640 --> 01:13:39.279
I forgot about that. I was really into quantum, wasn't

908
01:13:39.279 --> 01:13:42.279
I quantum stuff for a couple of weeks, and I

909
01:13:42.319 --> 01:13:46.920
seem to have, I don't know, seemed to have moved

910
01:13:46.920 --> 01:13:50.600
away from it. I'm really interested in all that stuff.

911
01:13:52.199 --> 01:13:57.520
So you got Deepak chop Chopra, The Quantum Doctor, The

912
01:13:57.520 --> 01:14:04.680
Power of Your Subconscious, Quantum Entanglement, Quantum Physics. Simplified Reality

913
01:14:04.760 --> 01:14:09.760
is Plastic. That's a hypnosis book. Quantum Physics. The Mountain

914
01:14:09.840 --> 01:14:13.439
is You. Think and Grow Rich. The Pain Habit Story

915
01:14:13.479 --> 01:14:16.600
of Earl Nightingale. That's quite a recent one. Think and

916
01:14:16.600 --> 01:14:21.239
Grow Rich. The Secret Million Dollar Weekend Money, The Ultimate

917
01:14:21.279 --> 01:14:25.119
Bob Propter Library. I'm Worth I've had that for years

918
01:14:25.199 --> 01:14:29.760
that month I'm Worth More by Bob Moore, Before and

919
01:14:30.079 --> 01:14:34.520
Laughter as Jimmy Carr. Napoleon Hill, The Road to Riches,

920
01:14:35.199 --> 01:14:39.439
Napoleon Hill's master Course, The Way Out to Anyone's suc

921
01:14:40.239 --> 01:14:46.119
Secrets of Success by Brian Brian Brian Brian Tracy, you

922
01:14:46.239 --> 01:14:51.680
are a bad ass at making money, clearly, not the odds.

923
01:14:51.720 --> 01:14:56.720
But Napoleon Hill, Napoleon Hill's Keys to Positivity, The Power

924
01:14:56.960 --> 01:14:59.680
of Ambition, which is what I was listening to earlier today,

925
01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:04.000
it's only three minutes left for that one. And Beatrix

926
01:15:04.560 --> 01:15:08.680
Potter Collection, which I accidentally clicked on earlier. That's just

927
01:15:08.800 --> 01:15:12.840
some of the ones that I've listened to. Wow, quite

928
01:15:12.880 --> 01:15:19.760
a few. So then that was the junior school. Then

929
01:15:19.760 --> 01:15:24.479
what happened is I moved. I played the violin in

930
01:15:24.600 --> 01:15:27.239
junior school, so that was pretty good. I also learned

931
01:15:27.239 --> 01:15:34.800
to swim, like technically, I still I had swimming lessons.

932
01:15:35.199 --> 01:15:37.199
Put it this way, I'm better at swimming than I

933
01:15:37.399 --> 01:15:41.399
was before because when I was I had a bit

934
01:15:41.399 --> 01:15:44.319
of an accident in the swimming pool, not not that

935
01:15:44.399 --> 01:15:50.880
kind of accident, just yeah, I was saved by the lifeguard.

936
01:15:51.640 --> 01:15:53.720
So after that, and that was when I was very little,

937
01:15:53.760 --> 01:15:59.319
probably about four so or maybe five, So I didn't

938
01:15:59.479 --> 01:16:04.520
like I didn't like swimming pools or anything. And the

939
01:16:04.560 --> 01:16:07.640
swimming instructor we actually had a swimming pool in this school,

940
01:16:08.279 --> 01:16:13.800
which is pretty amazing, and the the sw I had

941
01:16:13.840 --> 01:16:18.319
swimming lessons for quite a while and he was so

942
01:16:18.520 --> 01:16:22.840
patient with me, absolutely lovely. And the good thing about

943
01:16:22.880 --> 01:16:28.760
it is I got to swim, but without having anyone around.

944
01:16:28.800 --> 01:16:30.600
I mean, there was a couple other people having lessons.

945
01:16:31.640 --> 01:16:33.560
But what I found is when everyone got into this

946
01:16:34.159 --> 01:16:36.760
to the swimming pool together, they'll all be jumping on

947
01:16:36.800 --> 01:16:40.479
top of each other. And that was not good for

948
01:16:40.640 --> 01:16:44.000
me because I just didn't feel safe and I didn't

949
01:16:44.000 --> 01:16:49.680
feel comfortable with that. And I also had had violin lessons,

950
01:16:49.720 --> 01:16:54.319
so I went learned the violin for probably about a year,

951
01:16:54.560 --> 01:16:57.319
maybe a look, maybe longer than a year. I was

952
01:16:57.359 --> 01:17:00.600
at that school for two years, so playing violin for

953
01:17:00.680 --> 01:17:04.960
maybe a year and a half, maybe two years, I

954
01:17:04.960 --> 01:17:06.439
don't know. I think it was at least over a

955
01:17:06.520 --> 01:17:10.600
year anyway. And then I went to high school when

956
01:17:10.600 --> 01:17:18.399
I was eleven, just turned eleven in nineteen eighty one. Yeah,

957
01:17:18.520 --> 01:17:21.479
nineteen eighty one, in September, that's when I went to

958
01:17:21.520 --> 01:17:28.680
high school. And yeah, that was a whole news story.

959
01:17:28.720 --> 01:17:31.680
That was that weird. I remember we went there for

960
01:17:31.760 --> 01:17:36.119
the afternoon, probably a few months before going there for properly,

961
01:17:37.119 --> 01:17:38.720
just to kind of have a tour of the place.

962
01:17:38.800 --> 01:17:42.720
And I was huge and I was tiny. I mean

963
01:17:43.079 --> 01:17:45.000
it just take off two years. And that's the kind

964
01:17:45.000 --> 01:17:48.239
of size I was. So I was eleven, so I

965
01:17:48.279 --> 01:17:53.079
looked about the size of a nine year old, absolutely tiny,

966
01:17:53.199 --> 01:17:56.119
and apart from the fact, I was also one of

967
01:17:56.159 --> 01:17:59.199
the youngest there as well, because it had to be

968
01:17:59.239 --> 01:18:02.680
eleven to be an the first year of high school.

969
01:18:02.920 --> 01:18:05.720
But some of the kids, after being there for a

970
01:18:05.760 --> 01:18:08.359
few weeks, a couple of weeks, two three weeks, would

971
01:18:08.359 --> 01:18:11.479
turning twelve. So it's a lot of the kids were

972
01:18:11.479 --> 01:18:15.359
nearly a year older than me. And that really showed

973
01:18:15.600 --> 01:18:19.479
later on in school. So when like at thirteen, when

974
01:18:19.520 --> 01:18:22.720
I was twelve and they were thirteen, there was I know,

975
01:18:22.760 --> 01:18:25.880
there was a lot of size difference. There's some kids

976
01:18:25.960 --> 01:18:29.119
that had beards and you know, they were grown like

977
01:18:29.279 --> 01:18:33.279
almost like adults, and I was still a kid, and

978
01:18:33.319 --> 01:18:40.640
that was weird. And yeah, I mean that's a difference

979
01:18:40.680 --> 01:18:44.199
as a whole new conversation that high school. But I

980
01:18:44.239 --> 01:18:48.560
just remember just looking around thinking, Wow, I got lost.

981
01:18:48.680 --> 01:18:51.439
I got lost all the way. For five years, I

982
01:18:51.439 --> 01:18:55.960
would get lost in that place. Honestly, I had to.

983
01:18:56.560 --> 01:19:00.600
I needed help to navigate to know where because we

984
01:19:00.760 --> 01:19:03.960
have a roster, you know what classes. We had to

985
01:19:04.039 --> 01:19:07.000
go to and where we needed to be next, and

986
01:19:07.520 --> 01:19:12.520
I needed help. I could find my way around the

987
01:19:12.560 --> 01:19:16.039
whole time I was there. It's just I didn't know

988
01:19:16.079 --> 01:19:22.560
what classes, what number classes they were, and ah, and

989
01:19:22.560 --> 01:19:25.199
then there's one I had a different form room, which

990
01:19:25.279 --> 01:19:26.960
was like where we go in the morning and would

991
01:19:27.159 --> 01:19:29.399
then go back at the end of the day to

992
01:19:29.520 --> 01:19:33.760
sign and kind of sign out kind of, and we

993
01:19:33.800 --> 01:19:36.159
could go there during breaks, so that I used to

994
01:19:36.319 --> 01:19:41.199
just stay there during the breaks sometimes because I was

995
01:19:41.239 --> 01:19:45.079
worried I wouldn't get back in time for lunch, or

996
01:19:45.319 --> 01:19:47.079
after lunch, we had to go back there as well.

997
01:19:47.920 --> 01:19:58.800
I think, yeah, anyway that I think that school deserves

998
01:19:59.039 --> 01:20:03.880
a boring record on its own. But there was good thing.

999
01:20:04.000 --> 01:20:06.840
I liked all of the junior schools, the three junior

1000
01:20:06.880 --> 01:20:11.640
schools that I remember, I liked all of them. I

1001
01:20:13.079 --> 01:20:19.199
liked the second one more than the first one because

1002
01:20:19.199 --> 01:20:26.880
I made some new friends and at that time the home,

1003
01:20:28.199 --> 01:20:31.039
the home situation was as good as the school situation.

1004
01:20:31.079 --> 01:20:34.560
It was just really nice. Everything was nice. So that

1005
01:20:34.720 --> 01:20:38.359
was my favorite. That's my favorite time during childhood really

1006
01:20:38.399 --> 01:20:43.479
around a age of eight, between eight and nine, well

1007
01:20:43.520 --> 01:20:50.439
between seven and nine really, because we was also evenizing

1008
01:20:50.479 --> 01:20:53.640
the other school and everything. So that period of time,

1009
01:20:53.760 --> 01:21:01.600
those two years, but between eight and nine. Like I'm

1010
01:21:01.640 --> 01:21:06.600
not saying it's like a Disney movie, but it also

1011
01:21:06.680 --> 01:21:08.840
like a Disney movie. But it was not. I liked it. It

1012
01:21:08.840 --> 01:21:15.359
was Everything was very simple, you know. We lived in

1013
01:21:15.399 --> 01:21:19.079
a new house. Nothing needed to be done. Everything was good.

1014
01:21:19.199 --> 01:21:23.239
We had snow. I built an iceberg, not not an iceberg,

1015
01:21:23.279 --> 01:21:28.119
an igloo. You know. It was good. We used to

1016
01:21:28.199 --> 01:21:30.239
used to hang around all the others, the kids that

1017
01:21:30.319 --> 01:21:33.199
were local. We used to go into the fields and

1018
01:21:33.399 --> 01:21:36.439
jump out of trees, climb trees, things like that. I

1019
01:21:36.520 --> 01:21:38.319
used to get pushed out of trees. It was yeah,

1020
01:21:38.720 --> 01:21:42.159
it was fun. We used to climb into trees to

1021
01:21:42.159 --> 01:21:43.840
get away from the other kids. It was It was

1022
01:21:43.920 --> 01:21:48.199
good fun. So then then we moved and it was

1023
01:21:48.239 --> 01:21:51.279
weird because one land and ground they've moved in straight

1024
01:21:51.279 --> 01:21:54.800
away to that house from London, and we moved into

1025
01:21:54.840 --> 01:21:58.640
a bigger house because of the family growing. So I'd

1026
01:21:58.680 --> 01:22:02.720
be backing forward to that house constantly. So for a

1027
01:22:02.760 --> 01:22:07.079
short while, I would keep contact with my friends Ian

1028
01:22:07.560 --> 01:22:11.680
and Andrew. Ian was my bestest friend. Andrew was another

1029
01:22:11.720 --> 01:22:17.039
good friend that lived few doors up. Andrew lived just

1030
01:22:17.079 --> 01:22:19.880
around the corner. Literally it was like a minute's walk.

1031
01:22:21.319 --> 01:22:24.920
But as time went by, I wasn't at school with

1032
01:22:24.960 --> 01:22:32.039
him anymore and I kind of lost contact with him.

1033
01:22:32.199 --> 01:22:35.199
But for some reason I kept contact with Andrew because

1034
01:22:35.920 --> 01:22:38.760
because he lived literally two three doors up, I used

1035
01:22:38.760 --> 01:22:41.520
to see him or see his mum and dad and

1036
01:22:41.560 --> 01:22:44.640
they were friends with my nan and granddad. They so

1037
01:22:44.800 --> 01:22:47.600
it's kind of kind of kept in contact with him

1038
01:22:48.359 --> 01:22:51.039
into my early twenties. Still used to visit him in

1039
01:22:51.039 --> 01:22:54.960
my early twenties, which bearing in mind, I moved out

1040
01:22:54.960 --> 01:22:58.520
of that place when I was nine, so was that

1041
01:22:58.840 --> 01:23:02.880
nineteen to it? So yeah, over probb fift thirteen, fourteen years.

1042
01:23:03.920 --> 01:23:05.880
But I lost contact of Ian. And he was my

1043
01:23:05.960 --> 01:23:11.279
bestest friend's and he was on the same date of

1044
01:23:11.359 --> 01:23:14.920
birth as me. But my name is should tell me

1045
01:23:14.960 --> 01:23:17.319
stuff because she kind of knew what was going on

1046
01:23:17.359 --> 01:23:19.960
around and she'd sort of update me on how he

1047
01:23:20.000 --> 01:23:24.800
was doing. Even in my thirties. She's tell oh, yeah,

1048
01:23:24.840 --> 01:23:27.920
he's he's got married or whatever, and she just keep

1049
01:23:28.039 --> 01:23:31.000
up to date with some of the kids that are

1050
01:23:31.000 --> 01:23:36.640
now like fully grown adults what they're up to. But

1051
01:23:36.720 --> 01:23:43.680
it's weird because I that't It's just I don't know

1052
01:23:43.680 --> 01:23:47.039
why we kind of didn't keep in touch. Maybe it's

1053
01:23:47.079 --> 01:23:49.920
just a bit harder, you know, but it was so

1054
01:23:50.079 --> 01:23:52.840
close to me and him, really close. And then I

1055
01:23:52.920 --> 01:23:56.359
got my new best friend Dean in high school now

1056
01:23:56.399 --> 01:23:58.479
in junior school. That the last two years of junior

1057
01:23:58.520 --> 01:24:04.079
school and most of the way through high school. In

1058
01:24:04.159 --> 01:24:06.560
the last year of high school, we became a little

1059
01:24:06.560 --> 01:24:12.239
bit estranged, you know. I think there was, yeah, we

1060
01:24:12.920 --> 01:24:17.079
didn't get on so well, but all the years previous

1061
01:24:17.119 --> 01:24:23.399
to that we were inseparable. Is yeah, so that was

1062
01:24:24.840 --> 01:24:28.640
what's that. Another friend called Ian no Ivan who lived

1063
01:24:28.640 --> 01:24:31.520
around the corner used to come to my house, and

1064
01:24:31.720 --> 01:24:35.960
another friend Neil. So it's really I had three friends

1065
01:24:36.039 --> 01:24:40.439
that were known by my family that were welcome in

1066
01:24:40.479 --> 01:24:43.479
the house to come visit, and you know, they'd just

1067
01:24:43.520 --> 01:24:46.680
like go upstairs, upstairs, so they just come up. So

1068
01:24:46.720 --> 01:24:51.279
I had three three friends, and that's the only friends

1069
01:24:51.319 --> 01:24:55.119
I had that I'm pretty sure they would just walk

1070
01:24:55.159 --> 01:24:56.840
in the back. To be fair, I don't think they'd

1071
01:24:56.840 --> 01:24:58.520
even knock on the front door. Walk in the back

1072
01:24:58.560 --> 01:25:03.800
and knock on the back door, or shout up at

1073
01:25:03.840 --> 01:25:10.960
my bedroom standing all in the little alleyway oy juicy. Yeah,

1074
01:25:11.520 --> 01:25:15.119
one of them did sound like a like a pirate,

1075
01:25:16.119 --> 01:25:22.039
and that was Ian, not like Ian Ivan, So they

1076
01:25:22.079 --> 01:25:24.279
were cool. I had other friends, but I didn't. I

1077
01:25:24.359 --> 01:25:28.279
used to go around Pill's houses and get banned from

1078
01:25:28.359 --> 01:25:32.079
the wasn't allowed to go around anymore, never allowed to

1079
01:25:32.159 --> 01:25:35.079
go into well, I'm not allowed to go into. But

1080
01:25:36.520 --> 01:25:41.000
Dean's dad didn't like me, so it was always like,

1081
01:25:41.039 --> 01:25:44.720
way on the doorstep, I'll go and get him, and

1082
01:25:44.800 --> 01:25:46.840
he let I went in once. But he did live

1083
01:25:46.840 --> 01:25:49.600
in an old people's home like he was. That was

1084
01:25:49.640 --> 01:25:54.239
the family business, so I didn't care about that. But

1085
01:25:54.359 --> 01:25:57.880
I don't think that just didn't. He didn't didn't take

1086
01:25:57.920 --> 01:26:05.279
to me, but my parents let it. Literally, Dean would

1087
01:26:05.279 --> 01:26:09.439
just come in to go upstairs. He was in some

1088
01:26:09.560 --> 01:26:13.520
ways I think, part of the family really. Yeah, we

1089
01:26:13.520 --> 01:26:16.960
were always together, and then Neil was a bit like

1090
01:26:17.000 --> 01:26:19.600
that as well. Niels used to come around and he'd

1091
01:26:19.600 --> 01:26:22.239
come up, and the same with Ivan. But there were

1092
01:26:22.239 --> 01:26:24.399
the only three really that I used to have come

1093
01:26:24.439 --> 01:26:31.880
around regularly to my house and I'd go around Ivans,

1094
01:26:32.439 --> 01:26:34.520
but I didn't used to hang around in his house,

1095
01:26:34.720 --> 01:26:37.279
but I used to wait for him and his mom

1096
01:26:37.359 --> 01:26:39.119
was lovely. He used to talk to his mum and

1097
01:26:39.159 --> 01:26:42.079
it is yeah, Ivan's mom was lovely. He had two

1098
01:26:42.079 --> 01:26:44.960
older brothers I think that were into motorbikes. But he

1099
01:26:45.079 --> 01:26:46.920
was a good bloke. He was a good lad and

1100
01:26:47.399 --> 01:26:49.840
his brothers were nice. And his mom was absolutely lovely,

1101
01:26:50.159 --> 01:26:55.640
so friendly, and so he was welcome my house as well,

1102
01:26:56.840 --> 01:26:59.239
but I didn't used to spend too much time in

1103
01:26:59.319 --> 01:27:02.000
his house. Used to be just like waiting for him

1104
01:27:02.039 --> 01:27:07.439
and would go out and then Ian. So I wasn't

1105
01:27:07.439 --> 01:27:14.079
allowed really into Dean's house. But Neil and I don't

1106
01:27:14.119 --> 01:27:17.319
know why, but his parents liked me. They just welcomed me.

1107
01:27:17.399 --> 01:27:19.039
I don't think they like They just put up with me,

1108
01:27:19.079 --> 01:27:23.319
and they tolerated me, and they'd let me in, always

1109
01:27:23.760 --> 01:27:27.079
always let me in. I'd stay over, we'd go in

1110
01:27:27.119 --> 01:27:33.640
the garden, we'd cause trouble and they just kept letting me.

1111
01:27:34.399 --> 01:27:37.800
They just let me in. And they were lovely, both

1112
01:27:37.840 --> 01:27:40.600
of them, both the father and the mother, both lovely.

1113
01:27:41.439 --> 01:27:44.680
And when I got when I moved into the chip

1114
01:27:44.720 --> 01:27:48.760
shop flat above the flat when I was sixteen, they

1115
01:27:48.800 --> 01:27:52.600
gave me stuff for the flat. I could, you know, toaster, cutlery,

1116
01:27:52.720 --> 01:27:57.800
stuff like that, it's lovely. And this is after some

1117
01:27:57.880 --> 01:27:59.720
of the weird stuff I got up to in their house.

1118
01:28:00.920 --> 01:28:03.680
I mean once I got drunk, or we all got drunk,

1119
01:28:03.720 --> 01:28:06.920
but I got particularly drunk, and for some reason we

1120
01:28:07.359 --> 01:28:10.000
thought it would be a funny thing too. I thought

1121
01:28:10.000 --> 01:28:14.880
it was about fifteen fourteen maybe, and we thought it'd

1122
01:28:14.920 --> 01:28:17.239
be funny too, because we had like a half day

1123
01:28:17.800 --> 01:28:20.399
that I think it was a school teachers strike or

1124
01:28:20.439 --> 01:28:25.840
something like that, and we went around to me. Dean

1125
01:28:26.680 --> 01:28:31.960
and Neil were in Neil's house. We thought, let's raid

1126
01:28:31.399 --> 01:28:37.640
the alcohol cupboard. So we were drinking out pint glasses

1127
01:28:37.680 --> 01:28:41.920
and just mixing everything. Really silly idea to do, very

1128
01:28:42.319 --> 01:28:44.640
very dangerous as well, so I would never do that now,

1129
01:28:46.399 --> 01:28:51.159
but I did on that occasion, and I don't The

1130
01:28:51.199 --> 01:28:56.560
other two got drunk, but not like I got. They

1131
01:28:56.600 --> 01:28:59.600
thought it'd be a funny idea to take me up

1132
01:28:59.640 --> 01:29:03.800
to their mom and dad's his mom and dad's bed

1133
01:29:03.880 --> 01:29:08.520
and wrapped me in the douvet like a sausage roll. Okay,

1134
01:29:08.920 --> 01:29:12.720
wrapped me in the douvet. And that was not a

1135
01:29:12.720 --> 01:29:16.239
good idea because, as I kept saying to them, I

1136
01:29:16.359 --> 01:29:21.399
need to get to the bathroom. So I won't really

1137
01:29:21.439 --> 01:29:23.439
go into what happens next. But I made a real

1138
01:29:23.560 --> 01:29:29.800
mess of the bed, the bed in the the house. Really,

1139
01:29:30.319 --> 01:29:33.760
I mean I was because I was very dark. I

1140
01:29:33.840 --> 01:29:43.520
completely destroyed the house and then I left. They thought

1141
01:29:43.520 --> 01:29:47.119
it was hilarious, not the parents. I never saw the

1142
01:29:47.159 --> 01:29:51.119
parents result reaction because they weren't there. They were at work.

1143
01:29:53.039 --> 01:29:55.920
I left and did my paper round and then I

1144
01:29:55.960 --> 01:30:01.560
went home, went to bed, and then I got up

1145
01:30:01.760 --> 01:30:10.159
about half six and it was dinner time, and I

1146
01:30:10.199 --> 01:30:13.199
had boiled eggs. That was my dinner. I did not

1147
01:30:13.279 --> 01:30:15.760
want eggs. Eggs was the one thing I'm probably out

1148
01:30:15.760 --> 01:30:17.720
of the whole world of food. I did not want

1149
01:30:17.720 --> 01:30:21.640
to eat. And I had a headache. And Tucker's Luck

1150
01:30:21.720 --> 01:30:25.319
was on TV, so I can guess get the actual

1151
01:30:25.439 --> 01:30:29.600
year from Tucker's Luck. Tucker's Luck used to be on

1152
01:30:29.800 --> 01:30:35.600
BBC two. Tucker's Luck BBC two. I'm sure it was

1153
01:30:35.720 --> 01:30:42.119
used to be on a Tuesday BBC two. Tucker's Luck

1154
01:30:44.520 --> 01:30:46.880
is eighty three to eighty five. Tucker's Luck was on,

1155
01:30:48.479 --> 01:30:56.000
so I wonder if it tells me okay. Series three

1156
01:30:56.159 --> 01:30:59.159
went on to twenty second of October nineteen eighty five,

1157
01:31:00.199 --> 01:31:06.520
so I would have been just turned fifteen at that point,

1158
01:31:07.960 --> 01:31:09.720
so I reckon it was probably a little bit before that,

1159
01:31:09.880 --> 01:31:13.079
when I was about fourteen, and he used to be

1160
01:31:13.479 --> 01:31:21.079
On thirteenth of March. I wonder if it's it's going

1161
01:31:21.159 --> 01:31:23.479
to bug me down. I'm sure it's a Tuesday or Wednesday.

1162
01:31:24.279 --> 01:31:27.479
I don't know why, but I just had this feeling,

1163
01:31:32.720 --> 01:31:39.600
Oh my goodness, wow, thirteenth of March. Okay, and this

1164
01:31:39.840 --> 01:31:45.119
was this is the second series of Tucker's Luck. Tucker's Luck,

1165
01:31:45.239 --> 01:31:50.159
second series, episode one, so it might have been anyway.

1166
01:31:50.199 --> 01:31:51.239
It was the same day of the week, so it

1167
01:31:51.279 --> 01:31:55.039
might have been a different episode, but it was a Tuesday.

1168
01:31:57.119 --> 01:31:59.600
In fact, let's have a look at the tenth of

1169
01:32:00.399 --> 01:32:05.199
tenth of March sebrather or not. Now that's nineteen eighty three,

1170
01:32:05.359 --> 01:32:14.880
so let's just look at this one. That was a Thursday.

1171
01:32:15.720 --> 01:32:21.239
So that was the very first series and the third series.

1172
01:32:27.560 --> 01:32:29.960
For some reason, the date's not coming up, Oh yeah

1173
01:32:29.960 --> 01:32:35.279
it is. That was a Tuesday. So the first and

1174
01:32:35.520 --> 01:32:38.640
the second and third series was on a Tuesday. THIRSD

1175
01:32:38.760 --> 01:32:45.880
series was on a Wednesday Thursday rather, so I'm pretty

1176
01:32:45.880 --> 01:32:50.640
certain it would have been eighty four. Wow, So I

1177
01:32:50.800 --> 01:33:00.439
was fourteen, probably thirteen, fourteen fourteen, probably, and they were

1178
01:33:00.479 --> 01:33:08.680
still lovely to me, like just found I'm sure they

1179
01:33:08.720 --> 01:33:10.359
didn't find it funny, but it was one of those

1180
01:33:10.439 --> 01:33:13.039
things that just for some reason, they were just nice.

1181
01:33:13.640 --> 01:33:16.840
And I did get banned from some of the people,

1182
01:33:17.039 --> 01:33:20.760
like friends from school. I'd go around their houses and

1183
01:33:21.399 --> 01:33:24.800
get told I wasn't allowed to go back because I

1184
01:33:25.239 --> 01:33:27.720
don't know, say the wrong thing, do the wrong thing, whatever,

1185
01:33:28.560 --> 01:33:34.840
And I'm going. There was this one kid and he

1186
01:33:34.880 --> 01:33:39.600
had this big pile of mud and decided he wanted

1187
01:33:39.640 --> 01:33:43.159
to wrestle, so I kept climbing onto the parlor and

1188
01:33:43.239 --> 01:33:50.840
jumping onto him, and his mum didn't like it. Apparently

1189
01:33:50.920 --> 01:33:54.640
I was getting too excited, like okay, should we phrase out?

1190
01:33:54.680 --> 01:34:00.560
But I was getting excited. Yeah, I was just like

1191
01:34:00.600 --> 01:34:03.239
getting pumped up, and I was perhaps being a bit

1192
01:34:03.279 --> 01:34:06.960
too over the top, maybe too Maybe it seemed like

1193
01:34:07.000 --> 01:34:08.760
I was being aggressive or whatever, but I was just

1194
01:34:08.840 --> 01:34:13.319
like running up and jump in and you know, I

1195
01:34:13.359 --> 01:34:16.119
didn't have a sword or anything, but I was I

1196
01:34:16.119 --> 01:34:18.079
definitely thought I was a Viking. I think at the

1197
01:34:18.119 --> 01:34:22.439
time I was going through a little Viking phrase phrase

1198
01:34:22.800 --> 01:34:31.039
phase phrase. There was another two. Yeah, I remember I

1199
01:34:31.039 --> 01:34:34.560
went around another kid's house, and I wasn't gonna have

1200
01:34:34.600 --> 01:34:39.760
to go back there again. My favorite place, the favorite

1201
01:34:39.760 --> 01:34:43.800
place I ever went to was this girl's. I really

1202
01:34:43.880 --> 01:34:46.119
liked her and I was hoping that she was going

1203
01:34:46.119 --> 01:34:48.920
to be my girlfriend. And she invited me to a

1204
01:34:48.960 --> 01:34:54.560
birthday party. And it was the first birthday party, probably

1205
01:34:54.560 --> 01:34:57.079
the only birthday party I was ever invited to as

1206
01:34:57.079 --> 01:35:00.760
a kid, Not that I've really been invited to many

1207
01:35:00.800 --> 01:35:03.960
as an adult, eva really, but that was the first one,

1208
01:35:04.239 --> 01:35:08.319
first and only one. And I was in this Her

1209
01:35:08.399 --> 01:35:10.399
dad was like a vicar, so it was in this

1210
01:35:10.720 --> 01:35:15.039
not monastery but vicarage. Just said huge house, huge house.

1211
01:35:16.560 --> 01:35:20.960
And I went to a birthday party. And I was

1212
01:35:21.000 --> 01:35:23.720
probably in the first year put it the first year

1213
01:35:23.720 --> 01:35:29.239
of high school. I'd say, I think, And I loved her, okay,

1214
01:35:29.439 --> 01:35:34.960
And she took me aside and said just two things.

1215
01:35:35.199 --> 01:35:38.279
I said, yeah, what can you stop looking through my

1216
01:35:38.359 --> 01:35:41.880
under my underwear draw please? And I said, okay, what's

1217
01:35:41.920 --> 01:35:46.680
the second thing? She said, I'm moving. I said, just

1218
01:35:46.720 --> 01:35:48.279
because at the end of I was just I was

1219
01:35:48.319 --> 01:35:58.439
looking for some binoculars. She said, why, why, why you

1220
01:35:59.119 --> 01:36:03.960
this is a weird can't you bother to wow? Why

1221
01:36:03.960 --> 01:36:06.399
would my binoculars be in your underwear draws? That's what

1222
01:36:06.520 --> 01:36:15.439
I keep mine. Okay, So I didn't I wasn't looking through,

1223
01:36:15.479 --> 01:36:18.359
but I did do that as an older age. Yeah,

1224
01:36:18.359 --> 01:36:20.159
I got kicked out of a few people's houses for

1225
01:36:20.199 --> 01:36:24.119
that as well. That's enough of my date in history

1226
01:36:24.119 --> 01:36:27.840
in my twenties. So I yeah, So I'm just basically

1227
01:36:29.520 --> 01:36:32.680
she takes me aside and said I've got some news.

1228
01:36:32.720 --> 01:36:39.920
I said, okay, I thought weird. She said, I'm moving away.

1229
01:36:40.159 --> 01:36:43.640
I said, what do you mean, well, because this is

1230
01:36:43.720 --> 01:36:47.680
just at the end of school, the school break, and said, oh,

1231
01:36:47.680 --> 01:36:51.359
I'm not coming back to school again. I'm moving. My

1232
01:36:51.840 --> 01:36:55.760
parents are moving to a different district. He's going to

1233
01:36:55.760 --> 01:36:59.000
be a vicar of a different place the other side

1234
01:36:59.039 --> 01:37:09.000
of the country. And she seemed generally genuinely concerned for

1235
01:37:09.159 --> 01:37:13.479
my welfare, for my well being. So I think she

1236
01:37:13.560 --> 01:37:17.399
might like me a bit. I know it's very both

1237
01:37:17.479 --> 01:37:21.079
very young. We were like eleven twelve or whatever, but

1238
01:37:21.319 --> 01:37:23.600
just like, it was so nice the fact that she

1239
01:37:23.680 --> 01:37:26.920
invited me to a birthday party, and also that she

1240
01:37:27.359 --> 01:37:29.520
told me that she was moving away, and she seemed

1241
01:37:29.520 --> 01:37:35.000
to care that she was moving away. And I said, well,

1242
01:37:35.000 --> 01:37:37.399
we can still keep in touch. She said, Nah, I

1243
01:37:37.439 --> 01:37:40.920
don't really want to. I said, okay, that's to be fair.

1244
01:37:40.960 --> 01:37:46.079
I think that's support the moment. It did, and I

1245
01:37:46.119 --> 01:37:47.680
think her trying to push me out of a window

1246
01:37:47.680 --> 01:37:51.880
didn't help either. But I just yeah, but before that,

1247
01:37:51.920 --> 01:37:59.960
it was romantic, not romantic, but it was kind of nice. Yeah,

1248
01:38:00.199 --> 01:38:02.000
there was a bit of a problem with the toilet lid.

1249
01:38:02.159 --> 01:38:08.239
And when I got back to school after the holiday,

1250
01:38:08.359 --> 01:38:11.680
the school holidays, there was a few other kids that

1251
01:38:11.760 --> 01:38:14.439
were at that party. I want to keep going on

1252
01:38:14.479 --> 01:38:20.119
about as about the blocked toilet, and whenever they mentioned

1253
01:38:20.159 --> 01:38:22.880
block toilets, for the next four years of school, everyone

1254
01:38:22.920 --> 01:38:27.560
would look at me, even if the toilet. You know.

1255
01:38:27.600 --> 01:38:31.359
So I mentioned block toilets in a different classroom where

1256
01:38:31.359 --> 01:38:35.079
I wasn't even there. Everyone would walk from that classroom

1257
01:38:35.600 --> 01:38:38.119
to the other side of the school and look in

1258
01:38:38.159 --> 01:38:40.039
the door and look at me. Some people would go

1259
01:38:40.039 --> 01:38:42.119
out out the front or out of the side, look

1260
01:38:42.199 --> 01:38:46.479
through the window and look at me and then walk off.

1261
01:38:46.560 --> 01:38:47.479
It was a very.

1262
01:38:47.239 --> 01:38:52.239
Strange, strange environment. I had nothing to do with the

1263
01:38:52.279 --> 01:38:58.159
block toilet. Okay, maybe I did. I think sometimes block

1264
01:38:58.199 --> 01:39:03.319
toilets just it's just not sometimes. I mean, I don't

1265
01:39:03.319 --> 01:39:06.119
think toilets are or they're not suited for all sizes.

1266
01:39:07.680 --> 01:39:14.479
You know, there's sometimes just needed a wider I was

1267
01:39:14.479 --> 01:39:16.359
going to say a bigger mouth, but that's probably not

1268
01:39:16.359 --> 01:39:18.840
the right term for a toilet, is it a bigger

1269
01:39:19.239 --> 01:39:22.479
it's you know, just yeah, it's like when you're hungry.

1270
01:39:22.520 --> 01:39:25.439
It'd be nicer if we had a bigger hole to

1271
01:39:25.479 --> 01:39:30.159
put the food in when we were really really hungry.

1272
01:39:31.000 --> 01:39:33.159
Mind you, I suppose we are supposed to chew on

1273
01:39:33.239 --> 01:39:41.560
me technically, right, I've talked for much longer than I

1274
01:39:41.640 --> 01:39:44.960
expected because this was supposed to be not supposed to be,

1275
01:39:44.960 --> 01:39:50.760
but I was hoping to eat, to get some food,

1276
01:39:52.239 --> 01:39:55.199
and a little bit earlier than this, because it's now

1277
01:39:57.119 --> 01:40:01.720
nearly half past eight, it's I've been talking for well

1278
01:40:01.720 --> 01:40:06.239
over an hour, probably over an hour and a half,

1279
01:40:06.319 --> 01:40:11.760
I think, maybe even longer than that. And I still

1280
01:40:11.760 --> 01:40:14.520
didn't manage to cover all the schools. So this is

1281
01:40:15.880 --> 01:40:24.600
Monday's boring objects schools, junior schools. So that's it. That's

1282
01:40:24.640 --> 01:40:28.000
the end of this recording. It's I hope it's been

1283
01:40:28.000 --> 01:40:31.880
as exciting for you as it as it was for me.

1284
01:40:33.800 --> 01:40:39.640
So please remember to be kind to yourself, because you

1285
01:40:39.800 --> 01:40:44.159
do deserve to be happy, and remember to be gentle

1286
01:40:44.159 --> 01:40:51.359
with yourself. You deserve to feel safe, lots of love.

1287
01:40:54.479 --> 01:40:54.840
Bye.

1288
01:41:00.560 --> 01:41:15.119
Relax in a more deep and meaningful way, maybe in

1289
01:41:15.159 --> 01:41:20.720
a way that can not just allow you to feel

1290
01:41:22.119 --> 01:41:31.319
calmer now and throughout the time we've spend together here,

1291
01:41:33.359 --> 01:41:39.039
not just relaxed at the end of the recording when

1292
01:41:39.079 --> 01:41:45.760
it's finished and you can enjoy that sense of comfort

1293
01:41:45.920 --> 01:42:00.800
and peace, but also I think it would be nice

1294
01:42:00.920 --> 01:42:20.720
to have those feelings of relaxation continue for longer after

1295
01:42:20.800 --> 01:42:31.399
the recording has ended, so that you can still benefit

1296
01:42:34.279 --> 01:42:41.520
from listening to my voice, maybe in a few hours time,

1297
01:42:43.439 --> 01:42:56.920
perhaps tomorrow, and then by listening regularly, especially if you

1298
01:42:57.079 --> 01:43:02.359
find like some people do and myself as well. Sometimes

1299
01:43:02.359 --> 01:43:08.640
I find one particular recording that really resonates with me,

1300
01:43:13.000 --> 01:43:15.479
and I just listen to it over and over again

1301
01:43:17.640 --> 01:43:30.640
every morning, every evening. There was this recording from We're

1302
01:43:30.680 --> 01:43:36.479
going back to about nineteen ninety nine. It wasn't hypnosis,

1303
01:43:36.520 --> 01:43:41.840
but it was a guided visualizations. It kind of was hypnosis, really,

1304
01:43:44.319 --> 01:43:49.520
and I managed to find it again and it still

1305
01:43:49.600 --> 01:43:55.159
has the same effect on me. And part of it

1306
01:43:55.319 --> 01:44:10.159
was the person's voice relaxed me. She just felt so peaceful,

1307
01:44:12.159 --> 01:44:18.640
and I'd look forward to listening to her in the

1308
01:44:18.760 --> 01:44:29.439
morning and in the evening. And I knew before even

1309
01:44:30.199 --> 01:44:37.199
pressing the play button that as soon as I've done

1310
01:44:37.239 --> 01:44:41.680
that pressed the play button. This was in the days

1311
01:44:41.720 --> 01:44:55.840
of CD players pressed the play button. In fact, it

1312
01:44:55.920 --> 01:44:59.920
might have even been a tape tape recorder. I'd like

1313
01:45:00.159 --> 01:45:11.239
down on the bed and then even without necessarily listening

1314
01:45:12.960 --> 01:45:26.199
to her words because I had them memorized. Really, it

1315
01:45:26.319 --> 01:45:32.119
was as if my body knew exactly what to do,

1316
01:45:36.880 --> 01:45:58.680
and the muscles just almost went into automatic relaxation, and

1317
01:45:58.840 --> 01:46:12.239
I remember my mind and would slow down. Now. Now,

1318
01:46:12.439 --> 01:46:19.039
I was listening to this recording in the early days

1319
01:46:19.039 --> 01:46:27.319
of learning hypnosis, and long before I ever made any

1320
01:46:29.199 --> 01:46:34.680
videos or audio recordings myself, because I didn't start doing

1321
01:46:34.680 --> 01:46:48.680
that till two thousand and six, I knew, I knew

1322
01:46:49.039 --> 01:47:01.840
how helpful I found being able to, yeah, just let go,

1323
01:47:04.840 --> 01:47:10.239
to have that trust in the person that I'm listening to,

1324
01:47:17.880 --> 01:47:24.640
knowing that it's going to be just as relaxing, if

1325
01:47:26.039 --> 01:47:35.439
not more so. Each time you hear my voice, you

1326
01:47:35.520 --> 01:47:47.119
may feel the same. Some people have been listening to

1327
01:47:47.199 --> 01:48:01.119
me for over a decade. Maybe not solidly, obviously not

1328
01:48:01.159 --> 01:48:07.479
twenty four hours a day, but maybe people come back.

1329
01:48:09.279 --> 01:48:24.359
Some people maybe listen every day. That's something that I

1330
01:48:24.399 --> 01:48:40.439
do which you may not realize by listening, is when

1331
01:48:40.680 --> 01:48:56.199
I record these recordings now, for example, I also am

1332
01:48:56.439 --> 01:49:10.239
affected by the words that I say. So if I

1333
01:49:10.239 --> 01:49:17.640
set you focus on your feet, notice your feet relaxing,

1334
01:49:21.119 --> 01:49:29.000
I will be focusing on my feet. I will be

1335
01:49:29.119 --> 01:49:47.239
noticing my feet relaxing. If I said, focus on your hands,

1336
01:49:50.000 --> 01:50:00.159
and maybe notice the difference between each hand, perhaps notice

1337
01:49:59.640 --> 01:50:05.720
the the air in the room, a temperature of the room.

1338
01:50:07.600 --> 01:50:18.000
On the backs of your hands, you may start to

1339
01:50:18.560 --> 01:50:26.640
notice what almost feels like a very light breeze, even

1340
01:50:26.680 --> 01:50:30.920
though there may not be any type of breeze at

1341
01:50:30.960 --> 01:50:43.960
all where you are right now. And as you become

1342
01:50:44.560 --> 01:50:58.960
aware of your hands, I'm also aware of how relaxed

1343
01:50:59.239 --> 01:51:23.039
my hands our feeling now. And when it comes to

1344
01:51:24.560 --> 01:51:30.600
potentially drifting off to sleep, which may be the reason

1345
01:51:30.920 --> 01:51:47.239
you're listening, I also feel drowsy when I make these recordings.

1346
01:51:51.880 --> 01:52:08.279
I also notice my mind drifting. In fact, at times

1347
01:52:10.319 --> 01:52:24.520
I've actually fallen asleep without even noticing, and then I

1348
01:52:24.640 --> 01:52:35.960
carry on talking. And it's only when I listen back

1349
01:52:36.159 --> 01:52:45.159
to do the editing I hear snoring, and I think,

1350
01:52:45.600 --> 01:52:55.760
I don't remember snoring. I remember talking. This snoring was

1351
01:52:56.319 --> 01:53:02.680
a pick turned up. That's why I sound like when

1352
01:53:02.720 --> 01:53:13.600
I snore. How I get really into a whole experience.

1353
01:53:21.560 --> 01:53:30.600
I don't know how you feel. How relaxed do you

1354
01:53:30.680 --> 01:53:41.640
feel in your feet, how relaxed you feel in your hands.

1355
01:53:56.720 --> 01:54:08.920
I have noticed more and more that the more relaxed,

1356
01:54:10.680 --> 01:54:26.439
deeper level of comfort you feel, the easier your breathing becomes.

1357
01:54:33.000 --> 01:54:49.720
It's almost like that additional muscle relaxation. So this allows

1358
01:54:49.760 --> 01:55:20.840
you to breathe easier without necessarily focusing on your breath. However,

1359
01:55:21.079 --> 01:55:49.880
being able to notice the ease in which you breathe

1360
01:55:50.079 --> 01:56:39.960
so naturally. You breathe so very easily and smoothly. Whenever

1361
01:56:40.039 --> 01:56:58.359
I imagine my breathing improving, when I've got my eyes closed,

1362
01:57:04.399 --> 01:57:17.239
I tend to visualize a beautiful field with trees and

1363
01:57:17.520 --> 01:57:51.039
flowers producing all that life giving oxygen, and it feels

1364
01:57:51.159 --> 01:58:06.600
nice two if not thing else, just taking some time

1365
01:58:12.520 --> 01:59:00.840
away from everything, enjoying that feeling of peace, serenity with

1366
01:59:00.840 --> 01:59:37.359
a joyful heart. Time seems to just drip by so

1367
01:59:38.560 --> 02:00:27.079
very slowly, relaxed, so deep, play peaceful, completely unattached to

1368
02:00:28.000 --> 02:01:24.960
any thoughts whatsoever in this moment, completely free, noticing that

1369
02:01:32.520 --> 02:02:19.079
your mind has slowed down. Slowed down because nothing really

1370
02:02:19.279 --> 02:02:49.840
requires your attention. You can enjoy the physical sensations of

1371
02:02:50.039 --> 02:03:02.479
allowing the stress to drip out of your body, to

1372
02:03:02.600 --> 02:03:26.279
appear outs of every part of your body, and being

1373
02:03:26.640 --> 02:04:05.319
released from your brain o your mind slowly but surely.

1374
02:04:12.159 --> 02:04:15.439
The muscles in your legs.

1375
02:04:30.079 --> 02:04:37.279
Relax ras.

1376
02:04:42.479 --> 02:05:25.920
Rs so very deep, thing right, so deeply. And the feelings,

1377
02:05:28.520 --> 02:05:53.399
the pleasant feelings in your arms and shoulders, deepening each

1378
02:05:53.800 --> 02:06:31.840
part of your body further and deeper and deeper. Noticine,

1379
02:06:35.119 --> 02:07:01.640
the feelings in the back of your neck, the feelings

1380
02:07:01.800 --> 02:07:40.000
in your wrists, muscles in front of your.

1381
02:07:39.880 --> 02:08:34.359
Body, I will say, feeling peaceful deeply, there's a sense.

1382
02:08:34.039 --> 02:09:17.920
Of peace spreads through your very core. Even when you

1383
02:09:18.319 --> 02:10:02.159
focus on your mind, her mind becomes be and slowerven deep,

1384
02:10:17.640 --> 02:11:20.159
relax a very slow your stomach taste full in your stomach.

1385
02:11:42.239 --> 02:12:16.640
Look back. Notice notice relaxed. You now feel in the

1386
02:12:16.920 --> 02:12:49.239
hole of your back in a spy from your brain

1387
02:12:49.800 --> 02:12:57.520
all the way down the middle of your back. Sending

1388
02:12:57.840 --> 02:13:33.479
and receiving millions of messages every day. Deepcomfort increasing deeply relaxed,

1389
02:14:03.560 --> 02:14:38.640
your knees, relax spreading those signals down your spine or cord,

1390
02:14:43.000 --> 02:15:02.199
into every part of your body, your shins and your

1391
02:15:02.319 --> 02:15:49.960
calf muscles, your elbows. Feelings of peace.

1392
02:15:52.520 --> 02:16:06.479
And tranquility, spreading through your body, tips of your toes,

1393
02:16:10.760 --> 02:16:22.279
to your eyes, your fingers, all the wait till you'll

1394
02:16:22.359 --> 02:17:31.479
know it. Back letting her, reatting her pace, drift in mind,

1395
02:17:36.000 --> 02:17:53.680
just wander in a way, happy to let go, Let

1396
02:17:53.719 --> 02:18:58.959
go completely, let her said, tranquil the whole body. Enjoy

1397
02:18:59.159 --> 02:21:21.360
a sense of listening God he no, hey, enjoy the space,

1398
02:21:23.680 --> 02:21:25.559
this space.

1399
02:21:28.000 --> 02:23:54.920
Of peace and safety. Surery letting go. Maybe we can

1400
02:23:55.239 --> 02:24:06.479
just focus on the different but of your body, just

1401
02:24:06.920 --> 02:25:15.920
to notice your forehead and your eyes mutual, so loose,

1402
02:25:35.559 --> 02:27:12.520
noticing a sense of complete freedom, absolute freedom, day, pace, energy,

1403
02:27:44.520 --> 02:27:52.799
pace to breeze, so much ease, yeh.

1404
02:28:34.159 --> 02:28:56.319
Lees. You may.

1405
02:29:00.239 --> 02:30:00.840
Or may not have noticed your mind drifting peaceful any

1406
02:30:00.959 --> 02:30:02.040
even more.

1407
02:30:02.200 --> 02:30:26.760
Deeply in the direction of total blissful pace, blissful pace

1408
02:30:55.360 --> 02:32:56.440
directed to pace, so calm, let him go, peace of mind.

1409
02:33:06.479 --> 02:33:31.120
X foty c rex.

1410
02:33:38.840 --> 02:34:08.159
Ciryx a body feels almost.

1411
02:34:09.200 --> 02:35:02.600
Invisible, so very relaxed and paceful, so pace from right

1412
02:35:09.840 --> 02:35:48.840
like so ver, and you could start to notice that

1413
02:35:49.639 --> 02:36:00.440
you are feeling more relaxed, even though I've not purposely

1414
02:36:01.840 --> 02:36:10.840
focused your mind upon that sense of physical comfort that

1415
02:36:11.000 --> 02:36:18.000
is growing within you throughout your body, and your mind

1416
02:36:20.120 --> 02:36:28.559
starts to slow down, and that could be almost in

1417
02:36:29.399 --> 02:36:38.040
recognition of I guess my speech not being particularly fast,

1418
02:36:44.559 --> 02:36:54.959
and things just generally feel calmer. Just by listening to

1419
02:36:55.079 --> 02:37:03.600
my voice, you give yourself a an opportunity to take

1420
02:37:03.639 --> 02:37:10.239
a break from the day, take a break from your

1421
02:37:10.280 --> 02:37:17.360
life as it is, and to give yourself a rest,

1422
02:37:19.920 --> 02:37:27.239
giving yourself permission to take some time off and to

1423
02:37:27.360 --> 02:37:33.280
allow your body to relax and allow your mind to

1424
02:37:33.440 --> 02:37:44.760
slow down, which in turn releases the tension and it

1425
02:37:44.959 --> 02:37:53.879
stresses that you had in your body. It's almost as

1426
02:37:53.920 --> 02:37:59.719
if the parts of your body just open up, allowing

1427
02:37:59.760 --> 02:38:11.760
them negativity out and at the same time replacing that

1428
02:38:11.959 --> 02:38:21.639
negativity with positive healing energy, which then fills your body

1429
02:38:21.719 --> 02:38:34.360
up and your mind to also starts to appreciate those

1430
02:38:34.719 --> 02:38:52.479
feelings of increasing confidence and almost uplifting, feeling positive healing

1431
02:38:55.559 --> 02:39:04.120
an energy that spreads through your body like a wave

1432
02:39:06.440 --> 02:39:18.639
of comfort and all this comes, and just allowing yourself

1433
02:39:21.399 --> 02:39:26.639
a few minutes, maybe half an hour, however long you

1434
02:39:26.719 --> 02:39:32.360
want it to be, to just rest.

1435
02:39:35.959 --> 02:39:36.959
And allow.

1436
02:39:39.120 --> 02:39:49.079
Your mind and your body to almost reset itself to

1437
02:39:49.799 --> 02:40:05.440
the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness, which allows more

1438
02:40:05.600 --> 02:40:19.040
room for feelings of pleasure and happiness to move around

1439
02:40:19.239 --> 02:40:27.479
your body and into your mind, almost as if your

1440
02:40:27.600 --> 02:40:38.159
mind and your body are sinking together, almost mirroring each

1441
02:40:38.360 --> 02:40:54.000
other with that growing positivity and calmness. And it feels nice,

1442
02:40:54.319 --> 02:41:00.280
really does feel nice to know that you are the

1443
02:41:00.360 --> 02:41:13.719
one that has allowed yourself to feel more comfort than

1444
02:41:13.840 --> 02:41:16.559
to experience.

1445
02:41:18.200 --> 02:41:19.559
More of this.

1446
02:41:21.120 --> 02:41:36.559
Deep relaxation spreading throughout your body, and as I focus

1447
02:41:37.840 --> 02:41:43.799
on each part of your body, you can notice that

1448
02:41:43.799 --> 02:42:01.040
that part becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on it,

1449
02:42:01.079 --> 02:42:14.680
becomes even more calm and comfortable just by focusing. And

1450
02:42:14.840 --> 02:42:20.360
as I move down your body, starting at your head,

1451
02:42:23.079 --> 02:42:28.360
the parts that you have already focused on will continue

1452
02:42:29.719 --> 02:42:36.840
to relax deeply, and those parts that have not yet

1453
02:42:37.000 --> 02:42:42.239
focused on or just automatically.

1454
02:42:45.079 --> 02:42:53.879
Release any remain intention in anticipation of even more comfort

1455
02:42:55.200 --> 02:42:56.079
about to come.

1456
02:43:01.559 --> 02:43:07.959
Now. I'm going to start by focusing on your forehead.

1457
02:43:10.280 --> 02:43:18.680
Just being aware of the feelings of your forehead and

1458
02:43:18.719 --> 02:43:26.000
then your background sounds like mister Herbert the Pigeon can

1459
02:43:26.120 --> 02:43:33.440
just allow you to feel even more relaxed. Just means

1460
02:43:33.520 --> 02:43:40.520
you in the moment, this isn't this isn't a sterile environment.

1461
02:43:41.879 --> 02:43:49.719
This is the world. I live in the countryside, so

1462
02:43:49.760 --> 02:44:00.000
there's lots of nature sounds around. So it's your folks.

1463
02:44:00.000 --> 02:44:06.559
Because on your forehead, just notice how it becomes even

1464
02:44:07.079 --> 02:44:16.719
more relaxed as you focus only on my voice and

1465
02:44:16.840 --> 02:44:25.239
that part of your body. Moving down to your eyes,

1466
02:44:27.319 --> 02:44:38.520
focusing on your eyes, noticing how your eyelids feel so

1467
02:44:38.760 --> 02:44:48.520
heavy yet so light at the same time, and all

1468
02:44:48.559 --> 02:44:59.879
the muscles around your eyes relaxing completely. Moving your focus

1469
02:45:01.360 --> 02:45:08.040
down to your mouth, your lips, your tongue, your teeth,

1470
02:45:08.239 --> 02:45:22.600
you comes the whole of your mouth, relaxing, calm.

1471
02:45:20.760 --> 02:45:21.600
And lease.

1472
02:45:25.799 --> 02:45:33.600
As you focus now on your jaw, not just the

1473
02:45:33.760 --> 02:45:38.559
parts of your jawney, your mouth, and your chin, but

1474
02:45:38.719 --> 02:45:42.879
all the way up the size of your face to

1475
02:45:42.959 --> 02:45:57.479
your ears, the hole of your jaw, feeding more relaxed.

1476
02:46:00.879 --> 02:46:09.319
And calm.

1477
02:46:09.799 --> 02:46:18.959
Focusing on your neck, the front of your neck and

1478
02:46:19.000 --> 02:46:32.040
your throat, relaxing and loose and calm. The sides of

1479
02:46:32.120 --> 02:46:41.680
your neck, the right left side of your neck relaxtant,

1480
02:46:43.159 --> 02:46:56.760
lease and calm, And now the back of your neck.

1481
02:47:00.120 --> 02:47:10.079
Focusing on the back of your neck, letting go of

1482
02:47:10.280 --> 02:47:17.840
any tension that may have been there before, and enjoying.

1483
02:47:17.559 --> 02:47:30.440
That sense of increasing comfort and release. Then you can

1484
02:47:30.600 --> 02:47:41.719
experience in the back of your neck, moving down your

1485
02:47:41.840 --> 02:47:49.159
back and moving either side of your spine right from

1486
02:47:49.200 --> 02:47:50.559
the top of your back.

1487
02:47:52.280 --> 02:47:53.559
All the way.

1488
02:47:53.559 --> 02:48:06.200
Down to the bottom of your back down to your

1489
02:48:06.319 --> 02:48:16.879
lower back. As you move up and down your spine,

1490
02:48:19.000 --> 02:48:23.399
you can feel the muscles either side of your spine

1491
02:48:25.639 --> 02:48:40.200
relaxing even more. And as those muscles relax, that sense

1492
02:48:40.319 --> 02:48:50.760
of comfort starts to spread outwards from your spine into

1493
02:48:51.000 --> 02:48:57.600
both sides of your back, the top of your back,

1494
02:48:58.479 --> 02:49:04.719
the middle end your lower back. And as you scan

1495
02:49:06.440 --> 02:49:14.239
gently and slowly up and down your back, there's the

1496
02:49:14.399 --> 02:49:20.239
muscles in the top of your back relax and become looser.

1497
02:49:24.600 --> 02:49:30.600
The muscles in the middle of your back also seem

1498
02:49:30.719 --> 02:49:40.200
to just almost divide from each other, separating and almost melting,

1499
02:49:46.000 --> 02:49:51.959
and in your lower back there seems to be an

1500
02:49:52.040 --> 02:50:06.239
extra special feeling of comfort. The spreads into your hips.

1501
02:50:08.520 --> 02:50:16.360
Sit down your lower back into your hips, into the

1502
02:50:16.559 --> 02:50:25.280
area where your cosix are, and into your buttocks, and

1503
02:50:25.399 --> 02:50:34.600
all these muscles that spread bring your lower back into

1504
02:50:34.680 --> 02:50:48.159
your hip area, start to melt, start to reading, let go,

1505
02:50:54.840 --> 02:50:59.680
and you know where about to focus on your shoulders.

1506
02:51:01.440 --> 02:51:08.440
Your back and your spine will continue to let go,

1507
02:51:11.479 --> 02:51:14.799
continue to relax.

1508
02:51:17.760 --> 02:51:21.280
So calmly.

1509
02:51:26.040 --> 02:51:31.600
As she focus on your shoulders, you may notice they're

1510
02:51:31.840 --> 02:52:02.680
already feeling really loose. They're already feeding calm and fear.

1511
02:52:07.000 --> 02:52:08.559
Those muscles.

1512
02:52:10.799 --> 02:52:22.760
Then move from your neck into your shoulders. Feel so

1513
02:52:23.200 --> 02:52:52.159
soft and gentle, so smooth and calm, and the feeling

1514
02:52:52.360 --> 02:52:53.920
in your shoulders.

1515
02:53:00.680 --> 02:53:09.159
Seems to spread deep into your shoulders, a sense of relaxation,

1516
02:53:10.399 --> 02:53:21.879
not just traveling deeply into your muscles, but also relaxing

1517
02:53:24.760 --> 02:53:26.159
the bones.

1518
02:53:31.520 --> 02:53:38.159
And moving all the way to underneath your arms, relaxing

1519
02:53:40.040 --> 02:53:44.799
a whole area between the tops of your shoulders and

1520
02:53:45.000 --> 02:53:46.479
underneath your arms.

1521
02:53:50.520 --> 02:53:57.159
Healing. You feel so.

1522
02:53:59.079 --> 02:54:11.120
Relax and comfortable in your shoulders, which sense that's.

1523
02:54:12.799 --> 02:54:14.799
Deep healing.

1524
02:54:17.840 --> 02:54:35.319
Message into your arms. You may feel almost as if

1525
02:54:35.399 --> 02:54:40.319
your arms are not even there because they're so.

1526
02:54:41.159 --> 02:54:48.159
Relaxed, so deeply relaxed.

1527
02:54:55.399 --> 02:55:00.879
So can calm.

1528
02:55:16.040 --> 02:55:23.000
So this.

1529
02:55:30.559 --> 02:55:40.680
The feels spreading all the way down your arms to

1530
02:55:40.760 --> 02:56:13.639
your elbows, including your elbows, scomp spreads away intoists, your

1531
02:56:13.959 --> 02:56:24.639
forum snderists so heavy.

1532
02:56:28.000 --> 02:56:44.319
Yet the same time sunlight and gentle.

1533
02:57:09.120 --> 02:57:09.360
Sick.

1534
02:57:11.799 --> 02:57:39.399
Now on your hands, my hands.

1535
02:57:45.360 --> 02:57:48.159
So peaceful.

1536
02:57:49.280 --> 02:58:27.079
In your hands, the sense of real pace. It just

1537
02:58:27.319 --> 02:58:27.959
seems to.

1538
02:58:32.200 --> 02:58:43.520
Feel so familiar when your hands relax deeply.

1539
02:58:52.559 --> 02:59:11.600
Feels things.

1540
02:59:44.479 --> 03:00:18.479
It's you think it.

1541
03:00:18.639 --> 03:01:19.440
Tips, maving your attention to affront your body cuts many focus,

1542
03:01:21.360 --> 03:02:46.040
two legs as soles in your fis.

1543
03:03:02.680 --> 03:03:37.920
Names s relax, calf muscles.

1544
03:03:38.879 --> 03:05:45.000
Just shains a crazy I see then.

1545
03:05:46.840 --> 03:06:45.799
Fats sir pas on CycL sa peaceful circom ser peaceful.

1546
03:06:48.680 --> 03:06:57.120
Sycom so peace for.

1547
03:07:07.280 --> 03:07:14.600
Same peace fall.

1548
03:07:18.559 --> 03:07:27.520
Come, let that.

1549
03:07:27.959 --> 03:07:30.719
Deep relaxation.

1550
03:07:31.239 --> 03:07:48.680
To spread your chest your story so relax, let's me go.

1551
03:07:52.840 --> 03:07:53.479
Everything.

1552
03:08:04.760 --> 03:08:10.719
So I'm gonna start counting down now, from twenty down

1553
03:08:10.799 --> 03:08:18.920
to one. You can imagine in a way it's like

1554
03:08:19.719 --> 03:08:26.159
just walking down some steps and each step or twenty steps,

1555
03:08:26.239 --> 03:08:35.360
and each step represents a level of comfort. Each step

1556
03:08:35.920 --> 03:08:51.440
represents a deepening of that comfort, and the furthes you

1557
03:08:51.600 --> 03:08:57.639
walk down those steps, the deeper and more relaxed you feel.

1558
03:09:04.360 --> 03:11:51.239
So starting with number twenty twenty, nineteen, eighteen, seventeen sixteenhhhhhhhhh

1559
03:12:54.760 --> 03:14:38.520
three fourhhhhhhhhh four.

1560
03:15:44.959 --> 03:18:36.479
Too well, set.

1561
03:18:13.840 --> 03:19:01.399
Us nine.

1562
03:20:03.600 --> 03:22:41.600
Eighthhhhhhhhh six.

1563
03:23:04.559 --> 03:27:46.239
Five four shut the.

1564
03:28:54.120 --> 03:28:54.360
One.

1565
03:29:49.040 --> 03:30:01.680
As you focus on your eyes, we're gonna count down

1566
03:30:02.079 --> 03:30:13.200
from ten down to one. Focus in just on your eyes,

1567
03:30:16.959 --> 03:30:25.479
your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your eye walls themselves,

1568
03:30:27.000 --> 03:30:44.000
our whole area that makes up your eye. And as

1569
03:30:44.120 --> 03:30:52.440
we count down from ten down to one, whilst focus

1570
03:30:52.600 --> 03:31:05.280
in on your eyes, you will become twice is relaxed

1571
03:31:07.559 --> 03:31:20.600
with each number counting down that you may find the

1572
03:31:20.760 --> 03:31:27.239
all you want to do is just drift off to sleep.

1573
03:31:30.239 --> 03:31:36.840
And if that's what you want, then just allow yourself

1574
03:31:36.959 --> 03:31:51.600
to do that. Now, focusing on your eyes, I'm going

1575
03:31:51.719 --> 03:32:01.680
to begin counting down from ten down to one right now,

1576
03:32:36.760 --> 03:34:05.760
nine eight seven.

1577
03:35:51.959 --> 03:37:20.639
F four.

1578
03:38:33.840 --> 03:40:35.200
Three us.

1579
03:41:08.000 --> 03:41:25.000
One. So counting down from ten to one.

1580
03:41:26.879 --> 03:41:29.600
Ten nine.

1581
03:41:31.000 --> 03:41:58.719
Eight seven six five four three two one. And maybe

1582
03:41:58.840 --> 03:42:01.760
that was a bit too quick in order to relax.

1583
03:42:03.000 --> 03:42:07.200
Maybe it's a bit too fast for you to notice

1584
03:42:07.520 --> 03:42:15.559
the calming of your body, maybe even a little bit

1585
03:42:15.639 --> 03:42:19.719
of pressure. They're like, you're counting down from ten to one,

1586
03:42:19.840 --> 03:42:21.239
would you expect me to do?

1587
03:42:21.559 --> 03:42:21.719
Man?

1588
03:42:22.680 --> 03:42:26.360
Expect me to stick go with floppy just because you're

1589
03:42:26.440 --> 03:42:35.799
counting down. If you try it again, but this time,

1590
03:42:35.879 --> 03:42:42.319
I'll go this slower this time, as you focus on

1591
03:42:43.159 --> 03:42:47.479
the whole of your body before we focus on your legs.

1592
03:42:49.920 --> 03:42:59.120
Just notice how your body does start to feel more

1593
03:42:59.680 --> 03:43:18.559
la next with every number that I count down ten nine,

1594
03:43:24.120 --> 03:44:53.479
at eight, seven, six, five, four, three, one, I just

1595
03:44:53.719 --> 03:44:59.600
notice how how you feel, generally, how your body feels.

1596
03:45:06.280 --> 03:45:14.559
It's not necessarily even about counting down from ten to one.

1597
03:45:17.520 --> 03:45:30.959
It's that space that you have, that space between being

1598
03:45:34.520 --> 03:45:46.840
active physically or mentally, just sitting or lying down, just

1599
03:45:47.079 --> 03:45:52.959
being there, not doing anything, not saying anything, or needing

1600
03:45:53.200 --> 03:45:58.680
to think about anything. So it opens up a space,

1601
03:45:59.639 --> 03:46:08.799
you know, a bit of a space, a gap. And

1602
03:46:08.920 --> 03:46:13.479
the more I came down from ten to one, the

1603
03:46:13.559 --> 03:46:21.559
bigger that gap becomes. So there's that gap of calmness,

1604
03:46:22.959 --> 03:46:37.920
of comfort and relaxation. It's a nice feeling and it

1605
03:46:38.239 --> 03:46:50.120
moves those stresses or discomforts physically or emotionally, moves away.

1606
03:46:56.879 --> 03:46:57.840
Allows you.

1607
03:47:00.559 --> 03:47:01.079
To just.

1608
03:47:04.040 --> 03:47:10.360
Slow down. Someone to count a game from ten down

1609
03:47:10.440 --> 03:47:20.399
to one, and notice that gap widening, the gap, and

1610
03:47:20.520 --> 03:47:27.200
as it widens, it's almost like the stress and attention falls.

1611
03:47:27.120 --> 03:47:28.120
Into the gap.

1612
03:47:41.319 --> 03:48:37.719
And gives you that distance, that space. Now ten nine eight, seven, six, five.

1613
03:48:48.520 --> 03:48:49.000
Four.

1614
03:49:07.120 --> 03:49:24.079
Three two.

1615
03:49:42.440 --> 03:49:42.680
One.

1616
03:49:54.520 --> 03:49:58.559
How did your body feel.

1617
03:50:00.520 --> 03:50:00.680
Now?

1618
03:50:13.399 --> 03:50:25.360
Can you notice that? Do you feeling calmer? Do you

1619
03:50:25.639 --> 03:50:54.040
feeling more relaxed? As we now focus on your legs,

1620
03:50:55.760 --> 03:51:16.200
just your legs. You're just gonna start with focusing on

1621
03:51:16.680 --> 03:51:35.799
your thighs. Of course, it's not the most exciting thing

1622
03:51:35.959 --> 03:51:42.479
to be doing, because I'm sure, like most of your

1623
03:51:42.559 --> 03:51:54.200
body is not a lot going on right now. Just

1624
03:51:54.399 --> 03:52:01.200
focusing on the whole of your thighs, tops of your thighs,

1625
03:52:02.040 --> 03:52:07.360
the sides of your thighs, the bottoms of your thighs,

1626
03:52:08.840 --> 03:52:14.319
your outer thighs, and your inner thighs. Basically the whole

1627
03:52:14.399 --> 03:52:21.879
of your thigh that leads into your hip and it

1628
03:52:22.040 --> 03:52:32.719
goes down to your knee joint. Now, this is a

1629
03:52:32.799 --> 03:52:41.200
big area. It's a very heavy area. It's very strong,

1630
03:52:42.440 --> 03:52:47.440
probably the strongest muscles in your body or in your thighs.

1631
03:52:57.639 --> 03:53:05.360
But I don't think we perhaps give enough attention to

1632
03:53:05.559 --> 03:53:18.680
our thighs. Perhaps we don't and acknowledge how important our

1633
03:53:18.879 --> 03:53:39.079
thighs are to our lives, how much they actually do

1634
03:53:39.280 --> 03:53:53.120
for us all through our lives, and it may seem

1635
03:53:53.280 --> 03:53:58.479
sound really weird, but I think that all of our

1636
03:53:58.520 --> 03:54:09.399
body parts, especially our thighs, need some TLC, a bit

1637
03:54:09.440 --> 03:54:26.200
of love shown, a bit of acknowledgement, thank you, gratitude

1638
03:54:29.159 --> 03:54:38.200
for our thighs do for us. And I know this

1639
03:54:38.479 --> 03:54:44.399
may sound a bit strange. Maybe you think, why am

1640
03:54:44.440 --> 03:54:47.959
I short? How should be out in the garden hugging

1641
03:54:48.000 --> 03:54:55.920
a tree or something. Well, it's hard to set a

1642
03:54:56.000 --> 03:54:59.639
microphone up on a tree. That's why I'm doing this indoors.

1643
03:55:00.040 --> 03:55:03.520
As I would be outside in a tree. I can't

1644
03:55:03.520 --> 03:55:12.319
see the television from the tree. If you move down

1645
03:55:12.360 --> 03:55:22.120
to your knees gain such an important part. And I

1646
03:55:22.200 --> 03:55:29.040
think we don't necessarily I'll speak for myself here. I

1647
03:55:29.159 --> 03:55:31.399
don't necessarily appreciate.

1648
03:55:32.600 --> 03:55:37.639
All that my needs do for me until I have

1649
03:55:37.799 --> 03:55:41.159
a problem with my knee. It's occasionally, if I ever

1650
03:55:42.760 --> 03:55:46.719
maybe i'll bash it or it's aching for some reason.

1651
03:55:48.440 --> 03:55:54.639
It's then that I realize how much it does. You know,

1652
03:55:54.719 --> 03:56:00.680
the benefit of being able to use my legs without

1653
03:56:02.440 --> 03:56:05.319
any kind of physical discomfort.

1654
03:56:06.200 --> 03:56:08.040
Is a beautiful thing.

1655
03:56:09.440 --> 03:56:15.760
That's possibly not appreciated until it's temporarily removed.

1656
03:56:16.920 --> 03:56:23.920
You know, that's comfort but as you focus on your knees,

1657
03:56:26.079 --> 03:56:31.719
regardless of how your knees feel, you can have that

1658
03:56:32.000 --> 03:56:38.120
sense of gratitude and love to your needs for all

1659
03:56:38.280 --> 03:56:50.479
that they do for you, and you can still have

1660
03:56:50.639 --> 03:56:55.760
that attention on your thighs. Maybe notice how your thighs feel,

1661
03:56:57.920 --> 03:57:15.959
Maybe notice that they are relaxing more deeply as you

1662
03:57:16.120 --> 03:57:21.319
focus now on the bottoms of your legs, your shins,

1663
03:57:22.200 --> 03:57:28.680
and your calf muscles. The bones between your knees and

1664
03:57:28.799 --> 03:57:36.360
your feet incorporate, and of course your ankles so important.

1665
03:57:42.079 --> 03:57:46.840
Anyone that's had even like the slightest sprain of an

1666
03:57:46.879 --> 03:57:55.000
ankle knows how how much we take our ankles for granted.

1667
03:58:00.879 --> 03:58:02.879
And it's kind of strange in a way when you

1668
03:58:03.000 --> 03:58:08.559
think that. You know, logically, our wrists are a lot

1669
03:58:08.760 --> 03:58:13.559
thinner than the rest of our arms, which is okay,

1670
03:58:13.680 --> 03:58:17.559
It doesn't can't see any problem with that because we're

1671
03:58:17.639 --> 03:58:25.440
just picking stuff up. Our ankles so much thinner than

1672
03:58:25.479 --> 03:58:34.559
the rest of our legs, and from a physics perspective

1673
03:58:35.840 --> 03:58:40.040
or logical even it doesn't really make sense that all

1674
03:58:40.120 --> 03:58:48.840
this weight would ultimately be resting on your ankles then

1675
03:58:48.959 --> 03:58:50.159
leading to your feet.

1676
03:58:54.440 --> 03:59:03.280
That thin area, thin bone. Yeah, it does so much

1677
03:59:03.399 --> 03:59:10.440
great work. Supports us, supports our body for a lifetime,

1678
03:59:15.200 --> 03:59:24.719
helps us to balance, It helps you to get around

1679
03:59:24.879 --> 03:59:25.760
and be mobile.

1680
03:59:32.079 --> 03:59:39.879
And there's the calf muscles. Of course, when I was younger,

1681
03:59:40.280 --> 03:59:43.600
I couldn't see the point in calf muscles. Didn't seem

1682
03:59:43.639 --> 03:59:44.239
to do anything.

1683
03:59:45.799 --> 03:59:50.319
Okay, if I walked around on tiptoes, then my calf

1684
03:59:50.399 --> 03:59:51.440
muscles get some work.

1685
03:59:52.840 --> 03:59:55.399
But of course that's not true. The calf muscles are

1686
03:59:55.440 --> 04:00:05.360
being used whenever we use our legs and your shins

1687
04:00:08.639 --> 04:00:17.639
there to protect you'll lower legs shaped in a way

1688
04:00:19.479 --> 04:00:31.600
almost as a protector for the bone, leading of course

1689
04:00:31.680 --> 04:00:41.920
to your ankles and your feet. We're not going to

1690
04:00:42.000 --> 04:00:44.120
focus on your feet. We're just going to focus on

1691
04:00:44.239 --> 04:00:51.239
the legs. I realize, and now that I've mentioned your feet,

1692
04:00:51.319 --> 04:00:55.959
you'll probably focus on them anyway, So maybe I should

1693
04:00:56.079 --> 04:01:02.040
focus on your feet a little bit. You can have

1694
04:01:02.200 --> 04:01:07.399
them in your awareness the same as you have your

1695
04:01:07.520 --> 04:01:11.760
thighs in your awareness. Even though we haven't been focusing

1696
04:01:12.479 --> 04:01:17.239
on your thighs for a few minutes and we're focusing

1697
04:01:17.360 --> 04:01:33.959
on your ankles, there's still that sensation of comfort in

1698
04:01:34.120 --> 04:01:45.920
your thighs, and there's that movement of energy because the

1699
04:01:46.040 --> 04:01:53.639
thighs hold lots of different sensations. Of course, there's the muscles,

1700
04:01:54.239 --> 04:01:58.319
the big straw muscles that we have in our thighs,

1701
04:02:07.079 --> 04:02:12.760
but the skin on the outside of the thighs, as

1702
04:02:12.840 --> 04:02:17.360
in the outside of all of our body, can be

1703
04:02:17.639 --> 04:02:35.280
very sensitive, sensitive to the touch, sensitive to temperature, and

1704
04:02:35.479 --> 04:02:43.879
inside your thighs the bones, there's the muscle, there's the blood, vessels,

1705
04:02:44.040 --> 04:02:49.840
the arch trees, to all this stuff that's inside your thighs.

1706
04:02:54.239 --> 04:02:57.600
I guess sometimes it'd be nice if you could actually

1707
04:02:57.680 --> 04:03:05.120
put your fingers inside your thighs and a message, so

1708
04:03:05.200 --> 04:03:08.760
you can message on the outside, of course, but to

1709
04:03:08.760 --> 04:03:12.040
be able to get deep into the muscles, to be

1710
04:03:12.079 --> 04:03:17.239
able to just massage inside your thighs, message in the

1711
04:03:17.319 --> 04:03:26.280
bones of your leg, massage in or the veins, just

1712
04:03:26.559 --> 04:03:39.239
gently healing your thighs and you can move down message

1713
04:03:39.319 --> 04:03:44.840
and inside your knees, just message in those bones, but

1714
04:03:45.000 --> 04:03:52.000
with healing fingertips, spreading the healing energy deep into the

1715
04:03:52.200 --> 04:04:01.920
choice your knees. Of course, there's the back of your

1716
04:04:03.079 --> 04:04:07.799
you need, you know, the inside crease where you need is.

1717
04:04:09.479 --> 04:04:14.959
It's a very sensitive area, very it feels very nice

1718
04:04:15.040 --> 04:04:16.040
when you stroke it.

1719
04:04:17.440 --> 04:04:20.799
That might be because it's an area that's not really

1720
04:04:21.000 --> 04:04:28.440
touched very often. It's almost like a hidden part, a crease.

1721
04:04:30.239 --> 04:04:32.000
In your legs. It's almost.

1722
04:04:34.000 --> 04:04:34.760
Like a part that.

1723
04:04:36.520 --> 04:04:47.760
Has a sensitivity, which is a little bit different. Of course,

1724
04:04:47.840 --> 04:04:58.319
it's protected by your legs, so you can imagine putting

1725
04:04:59.200 --> 04:05:09.520
your fingers into that crease your legs, fold in between

1726
04:05:09.600 --> 04:05:14.719
your legs, you can just message with your fingertips. Imagine

1727
04:05:14.719 --> 04:05:21.079
your fingertips going inside, massage in the muscle or tissue.

1728
04:05:25.680 --> 04:05:29.920
You can of course field the bones of your knees,

1729
04:05:31.440 --> 04:05:41.879
heading through your fingertips, and then as you go down

1730
04:05:44.760 --> 04:05:47.559
to your calf muscles, and that's the part I'd like

1731
04:05:47.639 --> 04:05:52.360
to be able to really put my fingertips step inside

1732
04:05:53.120 --> 04:06:02.040
my calf muscles, massage in every single tissue of that muscle,

1733
04:06:03.639 --> 04:06:13.559
healing every part, and then doing the same for my shins,

1734
04:06:16.760 --> 04:06:24.959
massage and generally stroking the bones, generally stroking them, healing

1735
04:06:25.200 --> 04:06:29.280
in a loving way, because they deserve to be treated

1736
04:06:32.319 --> 04:06:36.479
as the precious bones that they are. Because our legs

1737
04:06:36.520 --> 04:06:39.840
are so precious as in all the other parts of

1738
04:06:39.959 --> 04:06:48.120
our body, the more precious of any chore on the planet.

1739
04:06:56.520 --> 04:07:04.680
When you start to think about your legs in this way,

1740
04:07:09.239 --> 04:07:16.079
it can change your perspective. It might sound a bit.

1741
04:07:19.159 --> 04:07:24.399
Bit silly to start with the idea of having love

1742
04:07:24.959 --> 04:07:29.120
for your legs, showing appreciation.

1743
04:07:30.239 --> 04:07:35.680
For your thighs. Want them to be able to put

1744
04:07:35.719 --> 04:07:44.280
your hands in your thighs, massage the muscles and the bones,

1745
04:07:46.120 --> 04:07:51.120
and to get your fingers deep in there, releasing all

1746
04:07:51.159 --> 04:08:02.079
a tension, just to show how much you care about

1747
04:08:02.760 --> 04:08:03.360
your legs.

1748
04:08:04.360 --> 04:08:08.200
What do you care for what your legs do for you.

1749
04:08:09.799 --> 04:08:21.920
Regularly, your means, your calves, your ankles, the strength of

1750
04:08:22.040 --> 04:08:30.120
your ankles consideringly, how thin they are compared to the

1751
04:08:30.239 --> 04:08:32.520
rest of your legs, especially your thighs.

1752
04:08:36.319 --> 04:08:47.920
Yeah, they're so strong, so flexible, absolutely amazing things. Your

1753
04:08:48.079 --> 04:08:57.680
ankles are truly a gift because of what they do

1754
04:08:57.920 --> 04:09:09.559
for you, supporting all that weight, regardless of how what

1755
04:09:09.879 --> 04:09:15.799
weight you are, even if you only ate stone, there's

1756
04:09:15.840 --> 04:09:22.639
still a lot of weight for these little ankles. How

1757
04:09:22.680 --> 04:09:30.440
am a lot heavier than eight stone? Double do get

1758
04:09:30.520 --> 04:09:31.719
My ankles.

1759
04:09:33.000 --> 04:09:40.639
Support my body all the time, whether they do give

1760
04:09:40.719 --> 04:09:45.280
off a sigh of relief when I sit down, as

1761
04:09:46.120 --> 04:09:47.200
you've had my whole legs to.

1762
04:09:50.879 --> 04:09:58.239
My feet, feels that go my toast clap so happy.

1763
04:10:18.040 --> 04:10:27.239
Your legs really are amazing, and I know they're talking

1764
04:10:27.319 --> 04:10:33.600
about talking about your legs is probably possibly one of

1765
04:10:33.639 --> 04:10:38.000
the most the most boring things you ever heard anyone say.

1766
04:10:38.879 --> 04:10:48.959
Possibly boring or not, everything I said is true. Your

1767
04:10:49.040 --> 04:11:03.680
legs are amazing. M Your legs deserve not just respect,

1768
04:11:09.520 --> 04:11:11.280
they deserve to relax.

1769
04:11:12.639 --> 04:11:13.000
Deeply.

1770
04:11:20.319 --> 04:11:23.639
They deserve to take some time out of the day

1771
04:11:25.879 --> 04:11:46.959
to just lecker completely. Your licks.

1772
04:11:52.040 --> 04:12:05.399
Really can relax because the legs are so such a

1773
04:12:05.799 --> 04:12:11.319
most you know, very important part of your body. When

1774
04:12:11.360 --> 04:12:14.799
you relax your legs, the rest of your body also

1775
04:12:16.079 --> 04:12:33.559
naturally follows in that journey of comfort. Like I feel

1776
04:12:33.600 --> 04:12:34.399
it in my hips.

1777
04:12:35.799 --> 04:12:42.920
My hips feel really loose, and also my lower back

1778
04:12:43.000 --> 04:12:49.600
as well. My lower back really feels it feels stretched,

1779
04:12:50.719 --> 04:12:53.760
even though I'm just sitting in a chair and there's

1780
04:12:53.879 --> 04:12:55.399
no stretching.

1781
04:12:57.520 --> 04:13:00.680
As far as I'm aware that I'm doing. It's almost

1782
04:13:00.719 --> 04:13:04.520
as if the muscles are just relaxed so much that

1783
04:13:04.639 --> 04:13:06.559
there is a natural stretch.

1784
04:13:08.040 --> 04:13:30.399
As the tension has reduced a lot. And I'm now

1785
04:13:30.520 --> 04:13:38.440
going to count down from ten down to one, you can.

1786
04:13:38.399 --> 04:13:44.360
Continue to feel wonderfully relaxed.

1787
04:13:48.200 --> 04:14:31.319
Ten nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three two one. Relax.

1788
04:14:39.200 --> 04:14:43.000
So I'm just going to count down from five down

1789
04:14:43.079 --> 04:14:47.520
to one. And as a countdown, if you just focus

1790
04:14:47.639 --> 04:14:55.559
on the numbers, just the numbers counting down, and notice

1791
04:14:56.440 --> 04:14:58.799
how you feel.

1792
04:15:01.159 --> 04:15:02.319
In this moment.

1793
04:15:03.760 --> 04:15:08.159
As you hear the numbers counting down, knowing that those

1794
04:15:08.319 --> 04:15:21.360
numbers counting down represent you feeling calmer, not just in

1795
04:15:21.479 --> 04:15:30.000
your body, but also relaxing your mind. Just notice how

1796
04:15:30.079 --> 04:15:35.920
you feel. There's nothing to do, there's nothing to say,

1797
04:15:36.600 --> 04:15:53.639
there's nothing to think about starting with number five, four

1798
04:16:03.159 --> 04:16:14.399
three two.

1799
04:16:20.200 --> 04:16:20.440
One.

1800
04:16:29.879 --> 04:16:42.319
How as you notice the gradual letting go the tension

1801
04:16:42.559 --> 04:16:49.680
in your body, you may also begin to notice and

1802
04:16:49.840 --> 04:16:58.840
be aware of how your mind is starting to slow down.

1803
04:17:01.360 --> 04:17:07.680
This is just a natural thing that happens. It's not

1804
04:17:07.920 --> 04:17:12.799
really a special procedure. It's just natural because it is.

1805
04:17:12.920 --> 04:17:20.200
Your body relaxes, your mind also starts to relax. And

1806
04:17:20.360 --> 04:17:23.840
the more your mind relaxes, the more your body relaxes.

1807
04:17:23.959 --> 04:17:34.479
It's just a continuous circle of relaxation. And there's that

1808
04:17:35.719 --> 04:17:43.600
calmness that comes from relative quietness. You know, even even

1809
04:17:43.639 --> 04:17:50.600
if there's background sounds, maybe your side online, it's still

1810
04:17:51.120 --> 04:17:53.959
going to be quite calm.

1811
04:17:55.680 --> 04:17:58.280
You know, you haven't got the television on, there's no

1812
04:17:58.600 --> 04:18:02.799
music in the background unless you're listening to the recorded

1813
04:18:02.879 --> 04:18:03.440
with music.

1814
04:18:03.559 --> 04:18:10.799
Of course, you're very likely not going to be sitting

1815
04:18:10.799 --> 04:18:14.000
in a room with other people. Of course you might be,

1816
04:18:14.159 --> 04:18:18.079
but generally it's more ideal if.

1817
04:18:17.959 --> 04:18:22.760
You can do this on your own, so no distractions,

1818
04:18:28.959 --> 04:18:41.879
and when you stop thinking about stuff, relaxation automatically arises,

1819
04:18:44.280 --> 04:18:55.000
a sense of comfort starts to grow, and without trying

1820
04:18:55.040 --> 04:19:03.959
to build it up into something fantastical or something magical,

1821
04:19:06.079 --> 04:19:16.280
this is just a natural process, something that's easy to accomplish.

1822
04:19:19.079 --> 04:19:23.440
In fact, it's almost you know, the sense of relaxing

1823
04:19:24.280 --> 04:19:30.040
completely happens really when you put no effort into it.

1824
04:19:31.040 --> 04:19:36.719
It's not something that you can really force. It's something

1825
04:19:36.879 --> 04:19:47.639
that happens naturally. And part of the process of this

1826
04:19:47.920 --> 04:19:59.799
recording and others is simply two allow you to take

1827
04:19:59.840 --> 04:20:14.799
it advantage of this space, this time, to just let go,

1828
04:20:17.959 --> 04:20:26.159
to just be here, to be in tune with how

1829
04:20:26.280 --> 04:20:39.639
you feel, yet with the intention of wanting to relax

1830
04:20:39.760 --> 04:20:51.120
deeply and maybe even to fall asleep, depending on what

1831
04:20:51.319 --> 04:20:57.440
it is that you wish for yourself in this moment.

1832
04:21:04.440 --> 04:21:13.799
As we know, relaxing is the majority of the process

1833
04:21:13.920 --> 04:21:17.680
of falling asleep. The actual fall in the sleep part

1834
04:21:17.959 --> 04:21:26.200
is the tiny bit at the end. The deeper relaxed

1835
04:21:26.520 --> 04:21:48.040
you become, the easier you find yourself drifting. But you

1836
04:21:48.120 --> 04:21:55.120
can also if you choose stay focused on my voice

1837
04:21:56.840 --> 04:22:28.360
and really enjoy the process, gradually relaxing each muscle in

1838
04:22:28.520 --> 04:22:56.079
your body effortlessly and just observing the sensation of letting go.

1839
04:23:02.520 --> 04:23:03.239
Completely.

1840
04:23:09.280 --> 04:23:13.319
This time, I'm going to count from six down to one,

1841
04:23:18.159 --> 04:23:19.760
and you can notice.

1842
04:23:20.760 --> 04:23:30.959
Your mind calming down more with each number that you

1843
04:23:31.280 --> 04:23:54.360
hear me say, naturally, feeling calm and slow, peaceful, sex.

1844
04:24:20.079 --> 04:26:50.799
Five, four being nowhere, how you mind to Sluwe write down,

1845
04:26:54.079 --> 04:27:17.280
sinking deeply into relaxation as you focus on your why

1846
04:27:17.680 --> 04:27:27.719
did I noticed that there are some thoughts still there,

1847
04:27:30.319 --> 04:27:39.840
maybe some stubborn thoughts that for some reason perhaps need

1848
04:27:39.959 --> 04:27:40.559
your attention.

1849
04:27:47.399 --> 04:27:48.799
That's what you can do is.

1850
04:27:54.360 --> 04:28:07.120
Send lough to those thoughts. Spring call those thoughts of love.

1851
04:28:08.600 --> 04:28:14.799
My little petals from a flower. Just sprinkle over petals,

1852
04:28:14.840 --> 04:28:22.280
feel good love towards those thoughts. To let those thoughts mo.

1853
04:28:24.879 --> 04:28:30.360
You're not abandon a number, You just need them to

1854
04:28:30.520 --> 04:28:42.000
require them to just calm down, slow down, quiet down,

1855
04:28:45.920 --> 04:28:46.520
and now.

1856
04:28:54.200 --> 04:28:59.920
So as you focus on those remaining thoughts as a countdown,

1857
04:29:00.120 --> 04:29:05.479
this time from seven down to one. With each number,

1858
04:29:08.479 --> 04:29:21.719
just imagine sprinkling those flower petals of love, kindness, gratitude.

1859
04:29:24.239 --> 04:29:33.600
Over those thoughts, which will allow them to just not

1860
04:29:33.840 --> 04:29:49.319
away relax deeply. With every number, those thoughts will become

1861
04:29:49.559 --> 04:29:55.319
more and more relaxed.

1862
04:30:00.920 --> 04:32:32.479
Stop him if not seven, six, five, four, three, lets

1863
04:32:32.520 --> 04:32:32.840
you know.

1864
04:32:37.239 --> 04:32:38.399
That is how.

1865
04:32:40.159 --> 04:32:40.559
Next?

1866
04:32:44.440 --> 04:33:00.000
Your feeling in your body. I got to focus.

1867
04:33:03.479 --> 04:33:13.000
On your hands. It's the boy relaxed your hands on

1868
04:33:15.479 --> 04:33:37.159
the relax your body and my done. Yes, you focus

1869
04:33:37.479 --> 04:33:48.279
on your hands, your fingers. There's nothing needed to be done.

1870
04:33:49.279 --> 04:33:54.880
It's like clenching the fists of DEAs in the fingers.

1871
04:33:54.479 --> 04:33:55.279
Right little that.

1872
04:34:02.680 --> 04:34:08.919
It's just not to sing a freakin on your hands,

1873
04:34:15.919 --> 04:34:38.159
not to sparely feel because them, but asks your hands feel.

1874
04:34:41.680 --> 04:34:51.680
I can't why your mind feels confidence you feel.

1875
04:34:53.639 --> 04:35:27.000
Around your body? Gee y w I tist you yes,

1876
04:35:29.840 --> 04:36:02.200
starting dread said, just on your hands and fingers, allowing

1877
04:36:02.880 --> 04:36:04.840
a cheap.

1878
04:36:06.680 --> 04:36:18.000
Experience a real deepening of that reaxation in your hands

1879
04:36:18.159 --> 04:36:36.560
and fingers, a more relaxed reached number.

1880
04:36:44.479 --> 04:36:48.200
Eight down to one.

1881
04:36:53.360 --> 04:37:02.919
Lost feel a healing really in the cheek, spread it

1882
04:37:04.159 --> 04:37:24.720
into your hands and fingers. My coming relaxing each number

1883
04:37:27.080 --> 04:37:42.119
you hear, cutting down, eight down to one, to drift in,

1884
04:37:45.720 --> 04:37:58.319
to drift in a cake, to start it with, knumb pup.

1885
04:38:42.959 --> 04:42:01.400
Seven, three, Just be here, nothing to think about, nothing

1886
04:42:01.479 --> 04:42:12.240
to do, nothing to say, and everything just feels calm.

1887
04:42:17.240 --> 04:42:25.000
This is your natural state of being. This is how

1888
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you just normally.

1889
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If you'll.

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Take away and unstuff, you add that stress and way,

1891
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I think Ancien thinking about take that away. You do

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now left with a real sense of insults, which comes

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to very quickly because absomply it's just a feeling, feeling

1894
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of confidence, most as if you've gotten side and found

1895
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a special place where everything it's place sweet relaxed, your

1896
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sense of confident I see think accept yourself and you

1897
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I sway at chose anybody else pace way again actually

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not just about yourself in some ways more importantly, like

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yourself appreciate. A sense of gratitude also relays where energy feel.

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The heathing energy soaking.

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Into your body, heaving energy soaking into your body, heaving

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energy spreads through your face, turning each every simple part

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of your body.

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You start to realize that actually a healing.

1905
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Energy just interdicto your brain. It's become a part of

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your brain.

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The spiral fluid.

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Now nest the energy not just about you to feel

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so much more relaxed.

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And healthy.

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In this moment.

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Also we start to realize that actually.

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What's happening now that here relaxing energy spreading through your body.

1914
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It's actually changing your life. That's actually changing the way

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you're going to feel, not just now and tomorrow and

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the next day.

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Is your health I hones.

1918
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Not just your physical health, for your mental health. Things

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that used to bother you in.

1920
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The past for some reason, the longer happy effect.

1921
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Please because something has changed deeper. Think maybe things they used.

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To cats to feel anger.

1923
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No lot he that power.

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To control you.

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The way they seem to be able to Benore.

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She realize the bere.

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The one.

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He decides what affects you.

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No one who decides.

1930
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To feel relaxed and calm.

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When he choose.

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To enjoy. Noticing these natural developments, the.

1933
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Healing team to grow and improve your life day by day,

1934
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need to course superability to relax so much easier. Sleeping

1935
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it's the most natural thing the world. Tea because food

1936
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in the sleep is something that you've done so many

1937
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times in your life, as we all were, with the

1938
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ability do feople asleep eventually.

1939
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That a good tea.

1940
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Just dreams are too deep keeping sleep even when the

1941
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kids sometimes it's awful sleep or don't want in shout

1942
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stay awake. Maybe it's birthday in the morning, it's Christmas

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or holiday.

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Or something we look forward to that when we can't sleep.

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The more you want to stay.

1946
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Away, the more just start to drift, and the more.

1947
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I finds drifting joints.

1948
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Still this sleep.

1949
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Depos stronger thout drifting because because we're born not just

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with the need to relax deeply to eventually fall asleep.

1951
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It's help a right, it's hard outda and sometimes as

1952
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you get older life perhaps at times we have built

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the relaxing completely wonderfully pleasant experience, some of some ingrediately easy,

1954
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very easy, because that's what it is.

1955
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It just.

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Side the pue butt.

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Accordance voice, stop playing, give permissions to factss food.

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Such stures.

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Such as fats.

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Smoom it steps n y

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Yeah,