Aug. 11, 2025

(music) (5 hours) SHOES | Mondays Boring Objects | LMBYTS #1410 | Jason Newland | 11th August 2025

(music) (5 hours) SHOES | Mondays Boring Objects | LMBYTS #1410 | Jason Newland | 11th August 2025
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Hello, and welcome to Jason Newland dot com. My name

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is Jason new Land. This is let me buoy you

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to sleep. Please only listen when you can safely close

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your eyes. And this is ma Day's boy in Objects. Yeah. So,

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while I try and think of a subject or an

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object to be boring about, what's the latest in my life?

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Oh itchy had a really weird dream last night, and

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I woke up extra early. What though I did go

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to bed extra early as well. I woke up and

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I thought I'm just gonna stay up, so I did.

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And then this morning, because I think last night I

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was working out what was I yeah, I think it

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might have been. Last night I was working out what

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hypnosis recording to do next, and I decided on doing

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a recording for bruxism, which is grinding teeth usually when

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people are asleep. And this morning I start doing a recording.

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I'm sitting here doing it. Twenty minutes in. It's going

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pretty well, I feel and I realize I've not pressed

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the record button, and I go back to bed. I'm furious.

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So what I did this afternoon? I gave it another attempt.

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At this time I completed it, and I couldn't believe

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it was not nearly two hours long. I think it's

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an hour and fifty five minutes. So it took it's

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a very thorough recording, and it took quite a long

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time to edit and to process and all that. So

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I feel like it's sort of taken up most of

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the day. Really, that's okay. I'm quite pleased with it

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kind of. It's just I mean, I'll ask a favor

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here from anyone that's listening if I do a recording that,

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let's say a hypnosis recording that fits in with something

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that you would use. For example, I did a loop

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as one the other day. I've done I've done a

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few different ones recently, and if you remember what would

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maybe share it on your Facebook page. And also if

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you're a member of a group on Facebook or some

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other social network site, perhaps you could share that recording

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because it's quite hard for me to share it myself

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because a lot of groups class that has spam if

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I start sharing my own stuff, no matter how good

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intention or maybe useful it might be. So you know,

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it's something to think about. Maybe if it's possible, it

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would definitely help. Other than that, I've been out a

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couple of times. Today had a showered as morning. Exciting stuff.

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It's been quite a warm day and I got my

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window open and the soundproof and curtains are not completely

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covering the window, so you might hear some background sounds

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a little bit, although even with the soundproofing there was

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still background sounds as well earlier. But for some reason,

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it was a relatively quiet day in the garden today,

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which was nice. Normally I have to wait for the

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winter for that to happen. Feeling quite tired. Actually, I'm

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nearly ready forbid. I mean it's only half past seven. Oh,

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the sound has started. I'm not going to block it out.

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I'm just going to leave it as it is because

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it's too warm to have the window closed. So yeah,

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that's it. Really, there's not not much left. Not really

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else happened. Oh, I got a letter from the the

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doctor's surgery a few days ago telling me I needed

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to make an appointment to get a mental health review,

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my anal mental health review and if I didn't contact them,

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as basically, if I didn't attend the appointment, my medication

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would be reduced to once a week, so I'd have

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to collect it once a week instead of once a month,

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which seems a little bit heavy handed. I'd kind quite

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sure why they were threatening that. I've never had a

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problem with them before. And they had a telephone number

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to call, so I called the number. I think it

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maybe it's like a specialized number, but it wasn't. It

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was just a doctor surgery. And I got through and

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it said click here for appointments. So I'll clicked the

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number for appointments, and it said you have to go online.

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You can't do appointments on the phone anymore. We don't

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take appointments. No. I'm like, okay, that's that's just I mean,

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I suppose I am fairly internet savvy to a degree.

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I do think about people that aren't and how this

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whole digital only, internet only kind of service does not

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It doesn't serve a large well not maybe you're not

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not a big percentage, but it's still a large population

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of people in this country, millions that it can struggle

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with that all they want to do is make an

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appointment phone number and make an appointment. But no, you've

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got to go online, and you've got to do this,

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and you've got to do that. I don't know, I

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just don't think it's going in the right direction. To

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be fair, I'm just moaning for the sake of moaning. Yeah,

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I don't really like it either. I want to be

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able to just phone up speak to a human. I'm

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the same when it comes to shops as well. I

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won't use the self service unless I really have to,

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although I don't you know, I don't go out that often,

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but the previous couple of months I have been going

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to the whole hospital and using the shops in the hospital,

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wh Smith's, Marks and Spencers and Cost to Coffee, those

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sort of three places that I went into. Cost the

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Coffee it's fine you deal with human, don you and

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just pay card or cash. Wh Smith's have a self service,

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but they also have a till with a human as

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well in that place, so I do get the impression

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of the staff. It's a bit of an inconvenience for

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the staff member. When you go and stand waiting to

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pay at the till, it's like, who are you doing

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that for? You can go and pay over there on

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the robot machine thing. I don't want to, So yeah,

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that's and also Marks and Spencers in there. I think

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there's like four machines maybe more. Actually, yeah, they did

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have a little till, tiny little till area with a

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human and I queued up for that. I just yeah,

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I just it's always been a little just a slight

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annoyance to me right from the start, right from you. However,

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many years, twenty years maybe longer, since self service machines

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started out, and there was you know, even though it's

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a naughty and I did try them out, but I

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just found them to be not very good either. What

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did they used to say, lot, oh, can you move

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your stuff out of the the carrier bag section or

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I don't know. So, yeah, it's never really not a

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big fan of the old self service. McDonald's have self

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service now, but you can also order it the till

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as well. I suppose the only self service that I've

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ever really kind of embraced was cashpoint machines, because that's

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a self service, isn't it? Self service? Banking and till

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it's almost like a banking window, self service, isn't it.

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I mean, there was a time. I don't think they

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do it now, but they might still do it. I

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don't know. I've not tried. About thirty d years ago

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used to be able to put money into the machine.

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It's true. It wasn't just taking money out. You could

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put money in, money in. It's true. Yeah, it's been

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a while since that happened for me anyway, I'm not

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attempted to do it, but maybe it's still available. I

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don't think it is, but it could be. I don't know.

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I'm not sure. I've been thinking about Uncle's Sausages and

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whether we're not to try and get up to Northern

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Ireland to because basically he's having his cremation here near

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the end of the month and then it's probably about

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a week and a half actually no, yeah, like about

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about two weeks and his actually has been sent to

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Northern Ireland and there's going to be a ceremony there

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for him with the Boy's Brigade, which is uncle Sausage

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used to be in a boy's Brigade. I think he

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might have been in it as well when he's a kid,

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but he also is in it as an adult running it,

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helped to run it. It's one of the I don't

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know soldiers or officers or whatever. So he's very passionate

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about that, and I did think about maybe trying to

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get up there. For that and then maybe moving from

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Northern Ireland into Ireland and visiting a couple of friends

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that live in Ireland, and also making a bit of

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a is it a homage, I don't know, a visit

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to Andre, my original friend Andre, to his grave, who

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was my friend in the nineties. He's who are named

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Andre Andre after you know, little Andre the perrh because

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they used to call him no legs. That used to

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be his nickname at work, Andre, which is weird because

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I mean, he was trying to make out that he

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was sure, but he was probably taller than me. He

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was probably five eight five nine. He wasn't tall, but

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he was still you know. I mean, it's like they

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called him. Everyone had nicknames except me, which makes me

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wonder what my nickname was because no one told me.

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Although in the canteen at one of my jobs, I

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used to get called professor because I was wearing glasses.

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It shows the level of the level of where I

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was working. Although saying that they were really nice, both

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the ladies that worked there did. I really liked them

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a lot. They were good. They knew my name as well.

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They just decided to professor was a better name. Plus

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I worked there for years and years, on and off.

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I dreamt about being there the other day, being back there.

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I don't know if it was last night or if

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it was the night before, but it was another weird dream.

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And went back to Yeah, trying to figure out where

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I lived where, you know, maybe living in three different places.

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And I remember asking someone to knock on someone's door

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a previous place I lived, and asked him if I

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still lived there or not. I couldn't remember if I

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still had some of my belongings there, which makes me think,

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what should I talk about today? Have I talked about

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all the different places I've lived? I think I have.

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I've talked about the jobs I've had. I've talked about

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girlfriends I've had. I've talked about talked about my nan

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talked about step mummies, talked about karate, talked about boxing,

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talked about Taekwondu martial arts, bodybuilding. Last week, Yeah, and

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that was the subject. I think it was last week.

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It was last week or the week before. I talked

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about my book collection, although my book collection is now

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much sparser than it was. The main pretty much the

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only books, well not the only books, but most of

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the books I've got now are just hypnosis books, because

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that's now what I'm focusing on, as well as doing

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this to let me boys a sleep. I'm going to

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continue doing this because this is the most fun. But

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I'm going to continue and really, I think put more

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effort into making hypnosis recordings for issues, problems, medical conditions,

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things like that that perhaps I haven't done before. So

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instead of just focusing on paying relief, relaxation or sleep,

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I'm going to I'm starting to broaden out, which I

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have done before. I mean, it's not the first time

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I've done lots of different recordings over the years, lots lots,

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but this is the first time I've really kind of

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started to expand on expand something other than my waistline, really,

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because I've done quite a few different recordings, very different

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types of recordings the last week or so. I intend

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to continue with that because it takes a lot of work,

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a lot of energy, a lot of concentration, but I

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think at the end of it, it's worth it. Yeah,

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that's what I'm thinking. At least I hope, so at

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least I hope so at least the hopes I have.

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What's that for? Three times? Okay, one more time, at least,

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I hope. So what are the things? What haven't I

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talked about? To Enails? Can I do a whole hour

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about toe nails? I mean if I could, I probably could,

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but just see wrong, it seems immoral. Underpants, Yeah, perhaps

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I won't do that. Shoes, shoes, I'm going to talk

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about shoes. That's boring. That's boring. I've never talked about

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shoes before. The different shoes that I've had over the years. Wow,

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it's quite hard to remember too far back, because shoes

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is not something. I've never really been a fan of shoes.

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I mean, they're handy, but I don't think I've ever

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generally bought a pair of shoes and been super excited

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about it generally. I mean maybe there has been a

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couple of times, but not really. I can't really remember

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shoes I had as a kid, like a little kid,

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but I'm pretty sure I had sandals, and it probably

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wasn't the right thing to do, but they used to

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be called Jesus sandals in the UK back in the seventies,

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like latest middle to late seventies, and they were just

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sandals with the toes. You could see the toes and whatever.

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And so I had them not something I would have now.

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I mean, I think my toes do not. My toes

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are not for public viewing, Yeah, I think not for

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public scrutiny. And then flip flop. That's something I used

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to wear when I was a kid, and I'd always

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disliked them so impractical, and flip flop is probably the best,

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the best name for anything ever because they literally did

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go flip flop, flip flop. They sound silly, they felt silly,

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they looked silly. I just didn't like them. Never liked

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flip flops, and all I do, I'm quite enjoying saying

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the word flip flop though for some reason. It's just

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as a little kid, I used to like running around

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and you can't run around with those things because they

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keep falling off sandals. I found much more to my

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like him because they did stay on because I had

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straps and stuff. Although I found them a little bit cumbersome,

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which is a word I used a lot when I

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was seven years old. Cumbersome, cumbersome? What's it was a dinner? Okay, Jason,

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Yeah it was cumbersome? Thanks? And what was your Christmas?

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Like?

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Very cumbersome? So yeah, I was flip flops. Wellies Wellington boots.

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Used to have a pair of them, which is kind

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of needed in this country because of the rain and

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the weather and stuff. So I had wellies, which was

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a very popular thing for pretty much everyone to wear

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in the late seventies and in the eighties. Don't see

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young people walking around in wellies anymore, but used to

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see it a lot when I was a kid. When

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I say young people, I mean like teenagers and stuff.

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I used to wear wellies when I was a teenager.

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To be fair, I probably was the only one. I

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was never up to date with fashion. Oh I really wasn't.

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I was always so slow. I mean I remember when

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I got my first BMX. I bought a BMX bike

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from the catalog and I paid for it myself for

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my pocket money. And I might know my pocket money

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for my news paper round money. And I went next

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door to ask them to help me learn some tricks

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because they had BMX bikes, but they were in they

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were in line with fashion. So I was about two

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years too late. And they said, well, moved on from that.

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We don't ride BMX bikes anymore. We don't do tricks anymore.

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Did you not notice? I said, here, and I said,

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can you teach me some breakdancing moves on the liner?

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And they said, no, we haven't done that for probably

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five years, four years because there was little There were

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certain things that were really popular in the eighties when

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I was at school. Breakdancing was one. BMX bikes was another.

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Possibly skate skate skateboarding possibly, but I think I know

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definitely BMX bikes and breakdancing the two things. I didn't

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even attempt breakdancing, which is kind of weird because I

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possibly it may have been quite good at that because

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I was quite nimble as a kid, but I didn't

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like the idea of people watching me. And it was

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always the kids that did the breakdancing were always like

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a group of kids, the popular kids and the ones

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that were kind of in a gang, kind of like

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not a ganggang but a gang bangang, but you know,

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kind of the popular kids or getting together and stuff.

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And I was never part of any kind of popular group,

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popular gang. I just had individual friends who almost liked

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school colleagues. Really, so I knew different kids at school

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that I talked to, but it was only really like

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had close friendship with a couple. So and my next

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door neighbors, A couple of kids there. One was a

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year younger than me, when was two years younger than me,

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and I were both cool. But they literally they were cool.

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They was the cool kids. Always had the latest clothing,

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the latest. They were just on the ball with that stuff.

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And they were really popular as well. And I wasn't

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in their friendship group even though they went to school

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with me, and I used to say low to them.

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But they were my nextuor neighbors. So I've known them

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for well from seventy nine to eighty six, so I've

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known them for a long time, you know. So it's

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just almost like they were just there and we were there.

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But I never really I mean I think I sometimes

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went around their house, but generally not much. I don't

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think so. I think they probably did because I know

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that their dad and my dad were friends here, because

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you know what, let's say, good neighbors become good friends.

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H What am I talking about? Shoes? Yeah, so Wellington boots.

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I had those. I remember when I was about seven

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or eight.

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Yeah.

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We moved into this council house, which then became my

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nan and granddad's house after when I'm We moved out

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when I was about nine, just before I was nine.

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We moved into a different house, but we lived there

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for a year or so, a year and a half maybe.

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I liked that house. That was my favorite family time

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in that council house. And I was seven, so it

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was the first time I'd ever had my own bedroom

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on my own and it's the first time that we

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kind of had the first time I had a family

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really since the age of six months or whatever. So

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the first time like all the family were together, like

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my three brother me and my two brothers and my

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dad and you know, his new wife. But it was

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the first time I kind of been in a family unit.

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So and I was the little baby of the family.

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And I used to ride on my dad's shoulders when

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he was walking. I'd be go gidy up, geary up,

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stuff like that, slapping him on the head, brilliant. When

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we was in the car, I'd be on my step moms,

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so I used to call a mum on her lap,

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cuddling up to her. It was absolutely brilliant. Honestly, it

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was great times for me, and there was there was

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a lot of nice memories from that time. I can

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remember some of them. But because it was a new

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build there was still there's still houses being built when

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we moved in, and the ground hadn't settled properly, so

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the garden outside it wasn't a garden, it was just mud.

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And we all went into the mud with our Wellington

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boots on and I got stuck. My dad had to

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pick me up out of the mud, out of the

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Wellington boots. My Wellington boots were still in there, they're

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probably still there now because I just literally could not move.

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I didn't have the strength, the physical strength because the

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mud was so deep. It was kind of like quicksand

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it wasn't, but it was like my version of Quicksand

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in my mind after having seen I mean, there was

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a lot of Quicksand on movies and TV back then,

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all the Tarsan movies. Quicksand was in quite a lot

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of those, some of the seventies eighties, seventies TV shows

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Quicksand I'm trying to say Quicksand without whistling Quicksand. So

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that was fun. And I remember we got there was

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a blizzard in the winter, and I'm guessing that was

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probably nineteen seventy eight, and we got blocked in. We

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wore cup, couldn't get out of the back, and it

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was literally just solid snow, you know. I was like

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six foot high solid just out of the back, and

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then at the front it was all solid. It was

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like really up against it. But I think my dad,

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I think the door opened from the inside. I think

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the front door. I loved that house because my nan

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and grand had stayed there. My nan stayed there, you know,

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on her own, from ninety one all the way till

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about two thousand and h I don't know, eleven, maybe

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twenty ten, eleven, twenty twelve, two fears one of them.

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So she stayed there for a long time on her own.

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And it's weird because it had the same feeling. There

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was a feeling that that was for me, that was

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the family home. That was a place where I had

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my happiest memories as a kid, even though I wasn't

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there for long. But also, you know, throughout my life

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visited my nand you know, as an adult, as a

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kid and as a teenager and as an adult all

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the way up till you know, ten years ago. And yes,

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it's quite a nice fuzzy little feeling around my left knee.

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I'm hoping it will spread, but that's where it is

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at the moment. It's not I don't know why I

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said that. That's weird, wasn't it. The good thing about

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this is we've got the day off though, because that's

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no school. No school. Yes, result, And my dad cleared

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the front out, you know, he got rid of He

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cleared the pathway out, the front left, he left the

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back because it just had to wait for it to

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kind of dissolve a little bit because it was so

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full on. So we just left that. He waited a while,

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and then then I think we all kind of got

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involved and kind of moved it off. Because I built

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an igloo. I did generally, I bought. I built an igloo,

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and I say bought. I built an iglu, and I

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used a mixture of mud and ice as cement. It's

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still there today. It was that good. Actually, I think

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I might have just been mud. No, it was. There

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was definitely some ic in pold because I actually because

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I was quite specific and I I cut the ice

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into bits and made proper bricks and did it that way.

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So yeah, I didn't mess around. I did it properly,

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I thought, and I made really and hours and hours

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and hours doing this thing. It's very very pleased with it.

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But I remember the snow is so deep. It was

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it was up to my waist I think in parts.

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But at the same time, I was or eight years

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old and I was probably about three foot tall, so

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it probably wasn't that deep apart from the bits that

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got blown into a heap, but it was deep enough

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for everything to be closed. Brilliant day. That was a

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really good day. I'm not sure if it's the only day.

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It might have been more than one, but I remember

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my dad taking me and my two brothers behind the

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house and there was this slope which was just directly

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behind the house, and there was a motorway running across,

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so this slope, him and my two brothers were kind

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of sliding on a sled. I just watched because I

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didn't want anything to do with it. I wasn't really

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much of a risk taker. And I like my oldest brother.

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He was four years old than me, so he was

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like eleven twelve or whatever, I don't know, eight nine, ten,

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eleven twelve, so he was just having fun. He wasn't

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really scared and stuff like that. My other brother the

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younger than him, So he was two years older than me.

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He wasn't scared of nothing. Ever, you know, he'd jumped

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out of a plane with a parachute at that age,

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it wouldn't have scared, and he just fearless. I was

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a little bit different. I just for me. I couldn't

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see the point sliding down on a sled made a

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plastic heading towards a fence, Like, how's it going to stop?

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How am I going to stop this thing? And then my

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two brothers at the bottom saying will stop you? Like, yeah, okay, yeah,

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you know I'd spent eight years in my life with

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these two blokes, these two older lads, I knew not

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to trust them. By them say that they'd stopped me

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from going headfirst into the fence meant that I was

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probably going to end up going headfirst into the fence,

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and if I didn't reach the fence, they'd probably put

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push me into the fence. So yeah, because I was

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the youngest, I got a bit of the brunt of

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that at that time. But you know what, here's something

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that is an acknowledgment that, well, they won't get to

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the ears that it's needed. I'll say it out loud anyway,

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my oldest brother four years older than me. For a

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period of my life, he was like a father figure,

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however ridiculous that might sound. So when I was really little,

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he used to be put in charge of looking after

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me and my other brother. So let's say I was four,

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my other brother was sick and my oldest brother was eight.

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Would be left for days, and my brother would be

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looking after us, make sure we'd be eight, make sure

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we were safe. And he was eight years old. I

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saw him as an adult. And also the fact that

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he was always much much taller than me, Like, I know,

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he's four years older, but he's like six' four or,

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something And i'm five. EIGHT i wasn't. Then i'd have

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loved to be in five eight WHEN i was four years. Old,

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Wow i'd be an absolute giant by now. Anyway, Yeah

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SO i didn't appreciate him at that, time AND i

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don't think it's ever been appreciated what he. Did how

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much was put on his little. Shoulders this eight year

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old looking after two younger brothers for long periods of

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time on his own Is, yeah it's. Weird so he

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was even when he was in a children soon he

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was the father. Figure even, THEN i listened to him

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what he said when you, KNOW i did what he told.

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Me and then when we all moved to live with my,

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Dad so he was eleven at this, point WHEN i was,

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seven my other brother was, nine and my oldest brother was.

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Eleven he went from being in charge to being a little.

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Kid AND i don't think he knew how to handle

470
00:42:54.199 --> 00:42:56.440
being a little kid because he'd never been a little

471
00:42:56.519 --> 00:43:03.159
kid before for a long long, time not since he

472
00:43:03.360 --> 00:43:13.960
was four or, five, yeah, four four and a half, five,

473
00:43:14.400 --> 00:43:18.280
SIX i don't, know, six it was, Six so we'd

474
00:43:18.280 --> 00:43:21.360
had six years or five years of being like an,

475
00:43:21.360 --> 00:43:26.039
adult and then suddenly he was a. Kid SO i

476
00:43:26.079 --> 00:43:29.559
think that was a bit of a, yeah a bit

477
00:43:29.599 --> 00:43:31.480
of a shock to his.

478
00:43:31.599 --> 00:43:36.679
System.

479
00:43:36.760 --> 00:43:40.159
Yeah, anyway it's not really got anything to do his.

480
00:43:40.199 --> 00:43:46.039
Shoes is it just a bit of personal. REFLECTION i

481
00:43:46.039 --> 00:43:54.400
GUESS i used to. Have, SEE i didn't really, OKAY i.

482
00:43:54.440 --> 00:43:56.519
DID i did get a choice of what SHOES i

483
00:43:56.519 --> 00:43:59.119
had WHEN i was at, school but it really was

484
00:43:59.159 --> 00:44:03.360
a case of these or, these you, KNOW i had

485
00:44:03.400 --> 00:44:06.639
to every year BEFORE i started the new, Year i'd

486
00:44:06.639 --> 00:44:11.360
go and get some new shoes new school, uniform and

487
00:44:11.519 --> 00:44:19.880
BECAUSE i normally would have grown a little. Bit sometimes

488
00:44:20.000 --> 00:44:22.760
if i'd grown a, bit you, know if my feet

489
00:44:22.760 --> 00:44:25.119
had grown a bit too, much or the fit shoes

490
00:44:25.159 --> 00:44:29.920
had falling. Apart, HERE i might get some new shoes

491
00:44:30.039 --> 00:44:37.360
halfway through the. Year SO i, WENT i, REMEMBER i

492
00:44:37.360 --> 00:44:40.039
think it was in the fourth year of high, school

493
00:44:40.239 --> 00:44:44.199
maybe the third, year AND i bought these, shoes AND

494
00:44:44.400 --> 00:44:47.559
i thought it would be a good idea to buy

495
00:44:47.599 --> 00:44:52.760
ones With, okay not a high. Heel there weren't high heel,

496
00:44:52.800 --> 00:44:58.639
shoes but they had a heel on, them or they

497
00:44:58.719 --> 00:45:03.119
had a fair bit of sponge at the bottom of,

498
00:45:03.159 --> 00:45:06.400
them which added a good inch to, me and as

499
00:45:06.440 --> 00:45:08.199
we all, know in inches a hell of a. Lot,

500
00:45:11.639 --> 00:45:16.119
NOW i was pleased with these. Shoes but they were quite,

501
00:45:16.119 --> 00:45:20.840
big they were quite. Bulky they're a little Bit herman.

502
00:45:20.920 --> 00:45:29.000
Monstery AND i, THOUGHT i just walk into. SCHOOL i,

503
00:45:29.000 --> 00:45:31.880
mean it's, LIKE i don't know how many hundreds of

504
00:45:31.960 --> 00:45:37.480
kids were in that, school maybe maybe even a. THOUSAND

505
00:45:37.519 --> 00:45:39.480
i don't know however many kids were in that, school

506
00:45:40.119 --> 00:45:45.760
at least five, hundred possibly maybe, more maybe a. THOUSAND

507
00:45:45.840 --> 00:45:50.199
i don't. Know why would anyone take any notice of my?

508
00:45:50.320 --> 00:46:02.440
Shoes was my kind of. Theory in my, EXPERIENCE i

509
00:46:02.639 --> 00:46:06.760
found that people have a tendency of focus on the wrong,

510
00:46:06.840 --> 00:46:14.840
thing you, know on the wrong. Thing so going to

511
00:46:14.880 --> 00:46:20.679
school Thinking i'm not really thinking anything of. It maybe

512
00:46:21.039 --> 00:46:25.880
people might notice That i've grown an extra inch. Overnight it's,

513
00:46:26.000 --> 00:46:36.440
possible but, no it is, like within minutes of me

514
00:46:37.480 --> 00:46:46.159
walking into the, classroom my new nickname was Beatle crushes

515
00:46:48.480 --> 00:46:52.119
because of my, shoes because they were so. BIG i

516
00:46:52.159 --> 00:46:55.440
was wearing beetle. Crushes that's what they were. Saying that's

517
00:46:55.480 --> 00:47:01.599
my new, name Beatle. Crushes so you nicknames at School

518
00:47:01.840 --> 00:47:08.880
New Zealand, lamb beatle, Crushes specky WHEN i got my.

519
00:47:08.880 --> 00:47:14.840
Glasses it's very. Original the other Thing i've talked about

520
00:47:14.840 --> 00:47:19.000
this before when this was During Grange, chill there was

521
00:47:19.039 --> 00:47:25.760
an event where this late this girl kept Saying, Roland,

522
00:47:26.760 --> 00:47:31.920
ROLAND i care about You, rowland Because roland was one

523
00:47:31.920 --> 00:47:34.679
of the characters and this girl was something in love

524
00:47:34.719 --> 00:47:40.119
with him or, SOMETHING i care about, You. Rowland and

525
00:47:40.320 --> 00:47:43.800
there was this particular episode that she kept saying, it

526
00:47:44.920 --> 00:47:48.199
and the next Day i'm coming to school and ALL

527
00:47:48.239 --> 00:47:52.960
i got all day was New, land New, LAND i

528
00:47:53.079 --> 00:47:58.039
care about you New. Land i'm not even, joking and

529
00:47:58.119 --> 00:48:08.039
went on and on and. On it's sometimes you've got

530
00:48:08.039 --> 00:48:10.519
so BAD i just had to rurilate, myself just sort

531
00:48:10.519 --> 00:48:14.800
of start giving me a different, name you. Know, Anyway

532
00:48:15.400 --> 00:48:23.159
SO i had various pairs of. Trainers if you might

533
00:48:23.239 --> 00:48:26.800
live in a country where they're wrongly called, sneakers but

534
00:48:27.000 --> 00:48:31.000
trainers is the correct. WORD i never understood why are

535
00:48:31.000 --> 00:48:34.679
they called sneakers because you can sneak around in them

536
00:48:34.679 --> 00:48:38.719
without anyone hearing. You that's a bit, dodgy isn't. It

537
00:48:39.119 --> 00:48:43.239
that's a bit that's a bit. Wrong it's a bit. Criminal.

538
00:48:44.639 --> 00:48:52.320
Criminal so SO i used to wear trainers or football

539
00:48:52.360 --> 00:48:57.840
boots at, school you, know for football HAD i had,

540
00:48:57.880 --> 00:49:04.199
those had trainers for the other STUFF i. DID i

541
00:49:04.360 --> 00:49:09.840
used to oh, wow talking about boots or talking about

542
00:49:09.920 --> 00:49:13.320
food boo, boobs not, boobs boots or.

543
00:49:15.559 --> 00:49:15.719
Well.

544
00:49:15.719 --> 00:49:20.800
Footwear, really WHEN i was in the Ci, CADETS i

545
00:49:20.840 --> 00:49:25.679
had these. Boots and part of the if you don't

546
00:49:25.719 --> 00:49:30.079
if you know anything about THE Cic cadets or The Army,

547
00:49:30.159 --> 00:49:36.719
cadets or probably The Royal Air Force cadets there or

548
00:49:36.760 --> 00:49:41.880
there used to be a big thing about making the

549
00:49:41.880 --> 00:49:49.039
fronts of the boots really, shiny like almost like. Mirrors

550
00:49:51.000 --> 00:49:52.840
AND i used to do this with my brother because

551
00:49:52.880 --> 00:50:01.239
he was in The what was he? In he was

552
00:50:01.280 --> 00:50:03.679
in THE. Raf he was in The Air, cadets not the,

553
00:50:03.719 --> 00:50:07.320
acadet The air. Cadets so my older brother was in

554
00:50:07.360 --> 00:50:10.880
The air. CADETS i was in The. ARMY i was

555
00:50:10.920 --> 00:50:21.119
in The Navy sea. Cadets BlimE, me SO i. Was

556
00:50:21.159 --> 00:50:23.039
he was in The air. CADETS i was in the sea.

557
00:50:23.079 --> 00:50:29.360
Cadets what do they just call? Them THE raf cadets

558
00:50:29.400 --> 00:50:34.159
and The navy. CADETS i don't. Know so, anyway we

559
00:50:34.239 --> 00:50:37.440
used to do our boots, together and part of the

560
00:50:37.480 --> 00:50:43.920
thing was to put polish, on melt the polish with a,

561
00:50:44.039 --> 00:50:48.400
lighter and then have a little bowls of water in

562
00:50:48.519 --> 00:50:54.760
and a cloth and then just basically do circles in.

563
00:50:54.800 --> 00:50:59.199
It we'd spend hours doing. That what a waste of

564
00:50:59.280 --> 00:51:03.599
time it really. Was and THEN i get to The

565
00:51:03.639 --> 00:51:07.119
Sea cadets on A tuesday Or thursday night And i'd do,

566
00:51:07.199 --> 00:51:13.400
it and sometimes the one of the officers would, say,

567
00:51:13.400 --> 00:51:16.000
oh that's not done good, enough and they'd literally stand

568
00:51:17.679 --> 00:51:22.679
on my shoe And i'd spent maybe four hours shining.

569
00:51:22.719 --> 00:51:27.960
Them sometimes other cadets would do it just as a. Joke,

570
00:51:31.840 --> 00:51:38.599
YEAH i didn't go down well with, me BUT i

571
00:51:38.760 --> 00:51:40.679
managed to do. IT i managed to sort. OF i

572
00:51:40.760 --> 00:51:43.480
even got the. Smell it's kind of stuck in my,

573
00:51:43.599 --> 00:51:52.199
head that smell of polish and like burning polish and damp.

574
00:51:52.400 --> 00:51:59.519
Cloth and, yeah it was there's a degree of satisfaction doing,

575
00:51:59.599 --> 00:52:06.000
it but it was also a percentage of absolute pointlessness

576
00:52:06.119 --> 00:52:12.280
doing it as. Well so IT'S i guess back, THEN

577
00:52:13.320 --> 00:52:21.559
i didn't realize how valuable time, was but it. IS i,

578
00:52:21.559 --> 00:52:24.880
MEAN i don't think it taught me, anything you. KNOW

579
00:52:24.960 --> 00:52:32.079
i think it's supposed to teach a discipline and self

580
00:52:32.119 --> 00:52:36.159
respect stuff like, that AND i don't know any of,

581
00:52:36.159 --> 00:52:40.679
that any of that. Stuff i've never had any self

582
00:52:40.719 --> 00:52:49.239
respect or, pride hasn't really hasn't really raised its head

583
00:52:49.320 --> 00:52:52.960
my voice About. Kroggy it's probably BECAUSE i spent two

584
00:52:52.960 --> 00:52:57.920
hours making a recording, earlier and also Because i'm sitting.

585
00:52:57.960 --> 00:53:07.039
Here we got deck crunched. Over i'll, Know, vinnie sorry as,

586
00:53:07.119 --> 00:53:11.840
y'are DID i wake you? Up and so that's another

587
00:53:11.920 --> 00:53:15.159
bit of footwear THAT i probably spent the most of

588
00:53:15.239 --> 00:53:18.599
the amount of time. Doing and he's looking at me, like,

589
00:53:18.719 --> 00:53:24.079
oh were you, doing? Daddy what are you? Doing and

590
00:53:24.119 --> 00:53:28.440
then WHEN i left, school he keeps looking back at,

591
00:53:28.519 --> 00:53:31.079
Me what is It you want me to just tickle your?

592
00:53:31.119 --> 00:53:33.679
Nose do you want me to tickle your? Nose do

593
00:53:33.719 --> 00:53:34.000
you like?

594
00:53:34.079 --> 00:53:35.400
That do you like?

595
00:53:35.480 --> 00:53:42.760
That, okay just stroking his. Nose he's liking. That so

596
00:53:46.480 --> 00:53:51.480
WHEN i left, SCHOOL i suddenly had a bit more

597
00:53:51.679 --> 00:53:56.000
options in a sense THAT i was getting, PAID i

598
00:53:56.039 --> 00:54:04.800
had money coming. In, HOWEVER i went between wearing absolute

599
00:54:05.039 --> 00:54:12.920
grotty clothes WHERE i was, working including horrible and trainers

600
00:54:13.039 --> 00:54:15.639
that were wearing away and they were getting wet every

601
00:54:15.639 --> 00:54:19.360
TIME i was working in, them and he just did

602
00:54:19.400 --> 00:54:25.480
a little growl at. Me but during that period WHEN

603
00:54:25.480 --> 00:54:28.599
i first started working, THERE i was buying myself some

604
00:54:28.679 --> 00:54:33.599
nice clothes to wear WHEN i wasn't at. Work and

605
00:54:33.639 --> 00:54:36.719
because one of the just in his name was he

606
00:54:36.760 --> 00:54:39.000
was still at, school so he was like a year

607
00:54:39.039 --> 00:54:43.000
younger than. Me so, yeah he was still at school

608
00:54:43.880 --> 00:54:46.639
and he was part time working in the chip, shop

609
00:54:48.840 --> 00:54:53.320
and he took me shopping because he was super, fashionable

610
00:54:54.760 --> 00:54:56.840
a bit like my next door neighbors were as. Well

611
00:54:57.280 --> 00:54:59.840
he was like he had the thing at the time was,

612
00:55:00.400 --> 00:55:05.400
trousers and everything about him was a. Maculate his, haircut

613
00:55:07.000 --> 00:55:11.039
all his. Clothing he was so like that was his.

614
00:55:11.199 --> 00:55:15.239
Thing so he kind of tried to tidy me up

615
00:55:15.239 --> 00:55:18.400
a little, bit and it took To he took me

616
00:55:18.480 --> 00:55:20.960
to a couple of his secret shops that he went.

617
00:55:21.000 --> 00:55:24.360
TO i mean there weren't, secret but they were places

618
00:55:24.400 --> 00:55:27.360
that were a little bit off the off the beaten,

619
00:55:27.400 --> 00:55:32.280
track as it, were in a different. Town and so

620
00:55:32.400 --> 00:55:35.880
instead of going to next or to some of the more,

621
00:55:37.639 --> 00:55:41.880
frank you, know the the shops in the TOWN i was,

622
00:55:41.960 --> 00:55:44.599
living he took me to a different place where you'd

623
00:55:44.639 --> 00:55:55.000
get something. Different SO i got these boots from this,

624
00:55:55.159 --> 00:56:01.920
shop and they were like cowboy cowboy, Boots it's. True

625
00:56:02.800 --> 00:56:06.639
and they clicked WHEN i. Walked they clicked WHEN i,

626
00:56:06.719 --> 00:56:12.639
walked AND i loved. THEM i loved my. Boots at this, Time,

627
00:56:12.760 --> 00:56:15.039
YEAH i was still fifteen at this, POINT i, think,

628
00:56:15.159 --> 00:56:20.679
YEAH i would have been still, fifteen AND i loved my.

629
00:56:20.760 --> 00:56:27.840
Boots this is probably the, summertime AND i was just clicking,

630
00:56:27.880 --> 00:56:34.639
along AND i was wearing nice. Clothes but then WHEN

631
00:56:34.639 --> 00:56:38.039
i went to, WORK i put on these horrible jeans

632
00:56:38.920 --> 00:56:43.199
that were just caked in better and WHEN i say,

633
00:56:43.239 --> 00:56:49.320
BETTER i mean like fish and chip. Better AND i

634
00:56:49.480 --> 00:56:54.559
just stunk stunk of fish and all kinds of stuff

635
00:56:54.559 --> 00:56:57.199
BECAUSE i, WAS i mean IF i, was IF i,

636
00:56:57.280 --> 00:56:59.519
was IF i you, know IF i didn't do it,

637
00:56:59.559 --> 00:57:05.360
AGAIN i do. OVER i do things. Differently but WOULD

638
00:57:05.400 --> 00:57:08.880
i Because i'd be that person, again WOULDN'T. I it

639
00:57:08.920 --> 00:57:14.320
wouldn't be. ME i definitely wouldn't do that again BECAUSE

640
00:57:14.760 --> 00:57:17.559
i didn't do my feet any flavors wearing those old

641
00:57:18.639 --> 00:57:21.639
smelly trainers that were falling, apart and they were wet

642
00:57:22.079 --> 00:57:30.840
all day. Long and THEN i THINK i might have

643
00:57:30.880 --> 00:57:34.199
walred well into boots part of it as, well but

644
00:57:34.599 --> 00:57:37.280
my feet was still getting wet WHILE i was going

645
00:57:37.280 --> 00:57:41.440
in and out of the kitchen and. Stuff it needs

646
00:57:41.440 --> 00:57:49.480
a bit. Restless SO i liked them boots though they were.

647
00:57:49.559 --> 00:58:00.199
Nice and then NINETEEN i had a feuderal to go

648
00:58:00.280 --> 00:58:06.440
to nineteen eighty, SEVEN i think it, was AND i

649
00:58:06.519 --> 00:58:10.239
bought some, clothes AND i bought some like a. SUIT

650
00:58:10.400 --> 00:58:20.599
i bought some new, shoes and then during the late

651
00:58:20.679 --> 00:58:24.000
EIGHTIES i used to BUY i think most of my

652
00:58:24.079 --> 00:58:31.320
clothes THAT i got was From next Or marks And,

653
00:58:31.440 --> 00:58:36.000
spencers you, know places like. That just being h Or.

654
00:58:36.079 --> 00:58:41.400
Debenhams SO i didn't spend much money on clothes because

655
00:58:41.400 --> 00:58:45.199
WHEN i did buy, something it lasted a long. Time

656
00:58:47.079 --> 00:58:50.760
so let's SAY i spent ten pounds on a pair

657
00:58:50.800 --> 00:58:56.199
of five h one jeans that you, know that would

658
00:58:56.239 --> 00:59:01.039
be the only Pair i'd buy for a. Year MAYBE

659
00:59:01.880 --> 00:59:05.119
i didn't HAVE i never had a small amount of.

660
00:59:05.119 --> 00:59:11.519
CLOTHES i still. Do, really it's just the way that

661
00:59:11.960 --> 00:59:15.880
Because i've been almost like a bit of a, traveler you,

662
00:59:15.920 --> 00:59:18.760
know moving from place to. Place we know what traveling.

663
00:59:18.920 --> 00:59:23.719
IS i know WHAT i mean is not really. TRAVELING i,

664
00:59:23.719 --> 00:59:28.519
mean As i've traveled a few, distances but it's just

665
00:59:29.599 --> 00:59:32.119
apart from the last ten, Years i've kind of been

666
00:59:32.159 --> 00:59:36.800
on the move a. Lot AND i Think i've moved

667
00:59:36.840 --> 00:59:40.719
about fifty times SINCE i left, school something silly like.

668
00:59:40.760 --> 00:59:46.280
That SO i realized that the more STUFF i, had

669
00:59:46.559 --> 00:59:50.159
the harder it was to. Move the MORE i had to,

670
00:59:50.199 --> 00:59:53.320
carry the MORE i had to you. Know it just

671
00:59:54.800 --> 00:59:56.599
that's why for a lot of the TIME i just

672
00:59:56.679 --> 00:59:57.480
kept things to a.

673
00:59:57.559 --> 01:00:07.320
Minimum and THEN i don't remember what kind of SHOES

674
01:00:07.440 --> 01:00:10.159
i Had in the late, EIGHTIES.

675
01:00:11.159 --> 01:00:24.320
I really don't, remember or early. NINETIES i kind of can't.

676
01:00:24.360 --> 01:00:28.639
Remember this is. TERRIBLE i can't remember any SHOES i

677
01:00:28.760 --> 01:00:33.039
had throughout a whole. Decade it was that unimportant to.

678
01:00:33.119 --> 01:00:37.320
Me but in the late NINETIES i probably had some nice,

679
01:00:37.320 --> 01:00:44.960
shoes not like super, nice but you, know, pleasant, okay okay.

680
01:00:45.000 --> 01:00:57.079
SHOES i mean two, THOUSANDS i started wearing proper shoes

681
01:00:57.800 --> 01:01:02.119
for working in, offices So i'd have black, shoes just

682
01:01:02.360 --> 01:01:10.760
standard boring office, shoes So i'd have that throughout the two.

683
01:01:10.840 --> 01:01:16.400
Thousands in two thousand and, FOUR i went through a

684
01:01:16.519 --> 01:01:23.199
period WHEN i was wearing quite nice. Clothes, no not

685
01:01:23.280 --> 01:01:25.480
two thousand and, four two maybe two thousand and, four

686
01:01:25.559 --> 01:01:29.360
bit two thousand and, five two thousand and. Six, DEFINITELY

687
01:01:29.960 --> 01:01:34.079
i was wearing a lot of white. Stuff don't ask me,

688
01:01:34.119 --> 01:01:38.039
why BUT i was wearing white, trousers white, TOPS i

689
01:01:38.079 --> 01:01:43.239
was wearing white, shoes AND i was shaving my, head

690
01:01:43.400 --> 01:01:49.480
SO i don't know WHAT i look. Like but, yeah

691
01:01:49.559 --> 01:01:52.639
it was just a little THINK i went, through AND

692
01:01:53.599 --> 01:02:02.679
i had generally during that, period probably throughout the whole

693
01:02:02.679 --> 01:02:07.039
of the two, thousands my shoes were quite. NICE i

694
01:02:07.199 --> 01:02:11.440
generally had decent, shoes and IF i needed new, ONES

695
01:02:11.480 --> 01:02:14.360
i just bought. Them so it's just not really a big,

696
01:02:14.400 --> 01:02:18.320
issue AND i always had at least one like two

697
01:02:18.400 --> 01:02:21.639
sets of, shoes one for work and one for at,

698
01:02:21.639 --> 01:02:25.079
home maybe two for a, home depending on what you

699
01:02:25.119 --> 01:02:38.480
know it's or. Casuals then in two thousand and, SEVEN

700
01:02:39.360 --> 01:02:43.360
i was wearing Hush. Puppies and the REASON i liked

701
01:02:43.480 --> 01:02:47.760
Hush puppies BECAUSE i could just put them on and

702
01:02:47.800 --> 01:02:51.440
they didn't, slip they didn't cause. Blisters, No they're just

703
01:02:51.599 --> 01:02:57.679
the ones THAT i got. Perfect absolutely loved, them AND

704
01:02:57.920 --> 01:03:00.559
i THINK i might have got THEM i think about two

705
01:03:00.599 --> 01:03:03.760
thousand and, seven AND i got a new pair nearly every,

706
01:03:03.840 --> 01:03:08.880
year exactly the same pair for about four years in a,

707
01:03:08.960 --> 01:03:13.800
row and the SHOP i was getting them from stop doing,

708
01:03:13.840 --> 01:03:17.960
them SO i had to change over to something. Else

709
01:03:20.079 --> 01:03:27.679
by this, TIME i wasn't. NEEDING i didn't need to

710
01:03:28.440 --> 01:03:32.480
wear anything in an office BECAUSE i was like self employed,

711
01:03:32.559 --> 01:03:37.280
counseling having been to, university SO i didn't need to

712
01:03:37.320 --> 01:03:41.920
wear black shoes and stuff like that or you know office.

713
01:03:41.960 --> 01:03:46.480
ATTIRE i STILL i was, smart but didn't necessarily need

714
01:03:46.519 --> 01:03:55.519
to wear ALTHOUGH i possibly did wear, shoes AND i

715
01:03:55.519 --> 01:04:01.880
REMEMBER i bought some shoes for My name's a goodbye,

716
01:04:01.920 --> 01:04:07.480
event AND i got. Blistered i've still got the shoes,

717
01:04:07.519 --> 01:04:10.679
now ten years, later AND i got such bad blisters that.

718
01:04:10.840 --> 01:04:19.360
Day it was. Ridiculous they were just too. TIGHT i

719
01:04:19.360 --> 01:04:21.679
mean they weren't too tight in the, feet they were

720
01:04:21.719 --> 01:04:28.760
just too tight in the. Heel i've still got, THEM i,

721
01:04:28.800 --> 01:04:37.320
think and that's a chucked them. Away and then the

722
01:04:37.400 --> 01:04:40.320
last few, years or the last ten, YEARS i SUPPOSE

723
01:04:41.360 --> 01:04:49.519
i JUST i was GETTING i like to get stretched

724
01:04:49.599 --> 01:04:54.440
what they called, stretchers. Stretches that's not the right, word

725
01:04:54.519 --> 01:04:59.960
is it. SKETCHES i was buying sketches for the last fear.

726
01:05:00.119 --> 01:05:05.920
Years and also a few years AGO i bought these

727
01:05:06.039 --> 01:05:10.840
boots that were kind of really, big really nice boots

728
01:05:13.519 --> 01:05:16.679
that are perfect for all it's raining or anything like,

729
01:05:16.719 --> 01:05:20.039
THAT i mean. Mountaineering REALLY i could wear them for

730
01:05:20.239 --> 01:05:24.880
probably or, hillwalking BUT i don't wear them very. OFTEN

731
01:05:27.519 --> 01:05:32.000
i mean NOWADAYS i pretty WELL i wear. THESE i

732
01:05:32.119 --> 01:05:36.239
lots some new shoes, recently well a few months, ago

733
01:05:36.320 --> 01:05:40.960
probably because my other ones had holes in, them and

734
01:05:43.559 --> 01:05:48.199
they just slip ons. Casual they seem to do the,

735
01:05:48.360 --> 01:05:50.760
job but there are bits they're a bit big for.

736
01:05:50.880 --> 01:05:55.480
Me ALTHOUGH i don't wear any, socks so IF i

737
01:05:55.519 --> 01:06:00.280
wore socks that probably fit a bit. Better SO i

738
01:06:00.320 --> 01:06:03.039
couldn't really go. Running not THAT i would go, running

739
01:06:03.039 --> 01:06:05.039
BUT i. COULDN'T i couldn't run in them because it

740
01:06:05.079 --> 01:06:10.920
would Be, yeah they'd fall, off they'd. Slip, Yeah i'd

741
01:06:11.000 --> 01:06:21.960
lose them in the hedge or. SOMETHING i did have some,

742
01:06:25.119 --> 01:06:27.599
trainers BUT i don't know If i've still got, THEM

743
01:06:27.599 --> 01:06:35.440
i might chuck them. AWAY i can't remember all. Footwear

744
01:06:35.559 --> 01:06:39.760
i'll tell You i've got. Her WHEN i Had, Andre

745
01:06:42.679 --> 01:06:45.000
i've not talked about all the Slippers i've. Had that'd

746
01:06:45.039 --> 01:06:48.400
be a different. Story but WHEN i moved in, HERE

747
01:06:48.440 --> 01:06:54.800
i had, slippers And andre destroyed two pairs of my,

748
01:06:54.920 --> 01:07:01.360
slippers one one after. Another kept buying them and pulling

749
01:07:01.400 --> 01:07:04.079
them WHEN i was wearing, them and you, know WHEN

750
01:07:04.119 --> 01:07:06.519
i wasn't, around it'd do all kinds of things to.

751
01:07:06.559 --> 01:07:14.800
Them SO i bought, crocs some blue, crocs And andre

752
01:07:15.800 --> 01:07:17.920
he loved them as, well because he could pull on

753
01:07:18.000 --> 01:07:23.760
them and bite, them but he. Couldn't you, know in some,

754
01:07:23.800 --> 01:07:27.719
ways he probably liked them just as. MUCH i, mean

755
01:07:27.719 --> 01:07:29.519
he still had my old slippers to do what he

756
01:07:29.599 --> 01:07:31.840
wanted to do with. Them and let's just let's not

757
01:07:31.920 --> 01:07:35.400
go into. That but he did exactly what he, wanted

758
01:07:37.800 --> 01:07:42.400
but the crocs kind of you, know they were quite.

759
01:07:42.559 --> 01:07:47.599
Useful and THEN i think the they, broke they started falling,

760
01:07:47.639 --> 01:07:52.639
apart AND i ordered some more. Crocs but this TIME

761
01:07:52.719 --> 01:07:54.840
i thought it'd be. Funny i'd get some pink. Ones

762
01:07:56.239 --> 01:08:01.079
JUST i thought it'd make my friend. Laugh so, Yeah

763
01:08:01.079 --> 01:08:03.119
i've got some pink, crocks and that's where we are.

764
01:08:03.199 --> 01:08:07.440
Now you might, think, well while wouldn't make any difference

765
01:08:07.480 --> 01:08:12.320
what color they, are but people notice and people do.

766
01:08:12.480 --> 01:08:18.800
COMMENT i think it's because it make me look so

767
01:08:22.359 --> 01:08:24.760
so super. SEXY i think it must be what it.

768
01:08:24.840 --> 01:08:35.960
Is, YEAH i think what up to?

769
01:08:36.039 --> 01:08:42.920
DATE i think that's all my bearing in. MIND i

770
01:08:43.159 --> 01:08:46.640
being around for so, Long there's going to be so

771
01:08:46.720 --> 01:08:52.600
many pairs of shoes That i've forgotten all. About but

772
01:08:52.680 --> 01:08:58.119
because of MY i want to say lack of, fashion

773
01:08:58.199 --> 01:09:03.119
but that's the correct. TERM i. Don't i've never really

774
01:09:03.159 --> 01:09:12.319
put a lot of energy into, shoes although PERHAPS i

775
01:09:12.319 --> 01:09:15.640
would have been better off IF i. Had it just

776
01:09:15.720 --> 01:09:20.039
never really interested, me AND i didn't, know, like why

777
01:09:20.039 --> 01:09:24.439
would anyone look at my? Shoes BUT i know sometimes

778
01:09:24.479 --> 01:09:28.119
people do look at people's. Shoes i've just never looked

779
01:09:28.159 --> 01:09:31.760
at anyone's. SHOES i don't see it of any. Relevance,

780
01:09:38.920 --> 01:09:52.760
yeah so that's. Me that's, me so, shoes this is

781
01:09:52.840 --> 01:09:57.680
my that's my boring subject of the. Day AND i

782
01:09:57.720 --> 01:10:04.880
hope it was smartly my ounly. Boring so thank you for.

783
01:10:04.960 --> 01:10:09.560
Listening remember to be kind to, yourself because you do

784
01:10:09.800 --> 01:10:18.680
deserve to be, Happy be gentle with. Yourself you deserve

785
01:10:18.800 --> 01:10:45.479
to feel, safe lots of. Love. Bye relax in a

786
01:10:45.560 --> 01:10:56.439
more deep and meaningful, way maybe in a way that

787
01:10:56.640 --> 01:11:06.119
can not just allow you to feel calmer now and

788
01:11:07.199 --> 01:11:15.560
throughout the time we spend together, here not just relaxed

789
01:11:17.800 --> 01:11:22.039
at the end of the recording when it's finished and

790
01:11:22.079 --> 01:11:31.960
you can enjoy that sense of comfort and, peace but

791
01:11:32.119 --> 01:11:45.520
ALSO i think it would be nice to have those

792
01:11:45.880 --> 01:12:02.399
feelings of relaxation continue for longer after the recording has,

793
01:12:02.560 --> 01:12:16.920
ended so that you can still benefit from listening to my,

794
01:12:17.079 --> 01:12:31.720
voice maybe in a few hours, time perhaps, tomorrow and

795
01:12:31.760 --> 01:12:39.640
then by listening, regularly especially if you, find like some

796
01:12:39.760 --> 01:12:43.399
people do and myself as, WELL i SOMETIMES i find

797
01:12:43.479 --> 01:12:53.800
one particular recording that really resonates with, me AND i

798
01:12:54.000 --> 01:12:59.439
just listen to it over and over again every, morning every.

799
01:12:59.479 --> 01:13:11.840
Evening there was this recording from we're going back to

800
01:13:11.880 --> 01:13:17.439
about nineteen ninety. Nine it wasn't, hypnosis but it was

801
01:13:17.479 --> 01:13:22.439
it guided, visualization so it kind of was, hypnosis, really

802
01:13:24.880 --> 01:13:30.079
AND i managed to find it again and it still

803
01:13:30.159 --> 01:13:35.760
has the same effect on. Me and part of it

804
01:13:35.920 --> 01:13:49.239
was the person's voice relaxed. Me she just felt so,

805
01:13:50.079 --> 01:13:59.119
peaceful And i'd look forward to listening to her in

806
01:13:59.159 --> 01:14:09.479
the morning and in the, evening AND i knew before

807
01:14:09.720 --> 01:14:18.000
even pressing the play button that Since i've done, that

808
01:14:18.960 --> 01:14:27.840
pressed the play. Button this was in the days OF cd,

809
01:14:28.039 --> 01:14:36.720
players pressed the play, button if that it might have

810
01:14:36.760 --> 01:14:41.119
even been a tape tape. Recorder i'd lie down on

811
01:14:41.159 --> 01:14:54.000
the bed and then even without necessarily listening to her

812
01:14:54.199 --> 01:15:07.159
words BECAUSE i had them. Memorized, really it was as

813
01:15:07.159 --> 01:15:17.840
if my body knew exactly what to, do and the

814
01:15:18.000 --> 01:15:40.039
muscles just almost went into automatic, relaxation AND i remember

815
01:15:40.159 --> 01:15:54.239
my mind would slow. Down. Now, NOW i was listening

816
01:15:54.279 --> 01:16:00.119
to this recording in the early days of le and,

817
01:16:00.239 --> 01:16:10.840
hypnosis and long BEFORE i ever made any videos or

818
01:16:10.880 --> 01:16:15.680
audio recordings, myself BECAUSE i didn't start doing that till

819
01:16:15.840 --> 01:16:29.960
two thousand and, six BUT i, KNEW i knew how

820
01:16:31.720 --> 01:16:45.479
HELPFUL i found being able to just let, go to

821
01:16:45.600 --> 01:16:50.800
have that trust in the person That i'm listening, to

822
01:16:58.479 --> 01:17:05.239
knowing that it's going to be just as, relaxing if

823
01:17:06.640 --> 01:17:16.000
not more. So each time you hear my, voice you

824
01:17:16.079 --> 01:17:27.720
may feel the. Same some people have been listening to

825
01:17:27.800 --> 01:17:41.720
me for over a, decade maybe not, solidly obviously not

826
01:17:41.760 --> 01:17:48.039
twenty four hours a, day but maybe people come. Back

827
01:17:49.880 --> 01:17:51.319
some people maybe listen every.

828
01:17:51.399 --> 01:18:05.640
Day that's something THAT i do.

829
01:18:06.880 --> 01:18:21.399
Which you may not realize by, listening is WHEN i

830
01:18:21.640 --> 01:18:37.840
record these. Recordings, now for, EXAMPLE i also am affected

831
01:18:38.319 --> 01:18:40.439
by the words.

832
01:18:41.399 --> 01:18:41.640
THAT i.

833
01:18:41.840 --> 01:18:53.760
Say so IF i set you focus on your, feet

834
01:18:56.279 --> 01:19:03.479
notice your feet, RELAXING i will be focusing on my.

835
01:19:03.680 --> 01:19:10.920
FEET i will be noticing.

836
01:19:13.279 --> 01:19:27.800
My feet. Relaxing IF i, said focus on your, hands

837
01:19:30.600 --> 01:19:40.119
and maybe notice the difference between each, Hand perhaps notice

838
01:19:40.239 --> 01:19:48.119
the air in the, room the temperature of the. Room

839
01:19:48.159 --> 01:19:58.560
on the backs of your. Hands you may start to

840
01:19:59.119 --> 01:20:07.199
notice what almost feels like a very light, breeze even

841
01:20:07.279 --> 01:20:11.479
though there may not be any type of breeze at

842
01:20:11.520 --> 01:20:24.520
all where you are right. Now and as you become

843
01:20:25.159 --> 01:20:39.560
aware of your, Hands i'm also aware of how relaxed

844
01:20:39.840 --> 01:21:03.600
my hands are feeling. Now and when it comes to

845
01:21:05.159 --> 01:21:11.720
potentially drifting off to, sleep which may be the reason you're.

846
01:21:11.760 --> 01:21:27.800
LISTENING i also feel drowsy WHEN i make these. RECORDINGS

847
01:21:32.479 --> 01:21:48.880
i also notice my mind. Drifting in, fact at Times

848
01:21:50.920 --> 01:22:05.079
i've actually fallen asleep without even, noticing and THEN i

849
01:22:05.239 --> 01:22:16.560
carry on, talking and it's suddenly WHEN i listen back

850
01:22:16.720 --> 01:22:25.760
to do the, EDITING i hear, snoring AND i, THINK

851
01:22:26.159 --> 01:22:36.319
i don't remember. SNORING i remember. Talking this snoring was

852
01:22:36.920 --> 01:22:43.359
a pick turned. Up that's WHY i sound like WHEN i,

853
01:22:43.479 --> 01:23:02.479
SNORE i get really into the whole. EXPERIENCE i don't

854
01:23:02.520 --> 01:23:11.920
know how you. Feel how relaxed do you feel in your,

855
01:23:12.000 --> 01:23:37.520
Feet how relaxed you feel in your. HANDS i have

856
01:23:37.800 --> 01:23:57.039
noticed more and more that the more, relaxed deeper level

857
01:23:57.119 --> 01:24:14.760
of comfort, feel the easier your breathing. Becomes it's almost

858
01:24:15.039 --> 01:24:35.359
like that additional muscle. Relaxation so this allows you to

859
01:24:35.560 --> 01:25:01.920
breathe easier without necessarily focusing on your. Breath, however being

860
01:25:02.000 --> 01:25:30.720
able to notice the ease in which you breathe so,

861
01:25:31.079 --> 01:25:49.640
naturally you breathe so very easily.

862
01:25:50.640 --> 01:25:50.720
And.

863
01:25:51.239 --> 01:26:38.279
Smoothly WHENEVER i imagine my breathing, improving When i've got my eyes,

864
01:26:38.439 --> 01:26:57.439
CLOSED i tend to visualize a beautiful field with trees

865
01:26:57.800 --> 01:27:30.800
and flowers producing all that life giving, oxygen and it

866
01:27:31.039 --> 01:27:47.199
feels nice, to if nothing, else just taking some time

867
01:27:53.079 --> 01:28:41.399
away from, everything enjoying that feeling of, peace serenity with

868
01:28:41.439 --> 01:29:20.359
a joyful. Heart time seems to just drip, by so very, slowly,

869
01:29:32.880 --> 01:30:14.399
relaxed so, deeply, peaceful completely unattached to any thoughts whatsoever

870
01:30:18.760 --> 01:31:23.000
in this, moment completely, free noticing that your mind has slowed.

871
01:31:23.039 --> 01:32:01.520
Down slowed down because nothing really real requires your. Attention

872
01:32:18.000 --> 01:32:32.359
you can enjoy the physical sensations of allowing the stress

873
01:32:32.640 --> 01:32:45.239
to drip out of your, body dripping out of every

874
01:32:48.600 --> 01:33:14.039
part of your body and being released from your. Brain

875
01:33:19.359 --> 01:33:55.960
une your mind slowly but, surely the muscles in your legs.

876
01:34:10.640 --> 01:34:24.640
Relax res relx.

877
01:34:28.439 --> 01:35:09.159
So very, deeply relax so, deeply and the, feelings the

878
01:35:09.359 --> 01:35:34.680
pleasant feelings in your arms and, shoulders deepening each part

879
01:35:34.800 --> 01:35:46.319
of your body further and deeper.

880
01:35:56.359 --> 01:35:56.399
And.

881
01:35:56.720 --> 01:36:18.279
Deeper noticin the feelings in the back of your, neck

882
01:36:41.399 --> 01:37:20.439
the feelings in your, wrists muscles in front of your,

883
01:37:20.479 --> 01:38:14.520
BODY i will, say feeling, peaceful. Deeping there's a sense

884
01:38:14.640 --> 01:38:58.560
of peace spreads through your very cool even when you

885
01:38:58.880 --> 01:40:21.920
focus on your, mind her mind becomes be and slower and, deeper, relaxing.

886
01:40:23.520 --> 01:40:23.760
Very.

887
01:40:24.039 --> 01:41:40.239
Slow his. Stomach he's falling. Stomach you'll. Back Notice notice

888
01:41:40.439 --> 01:41:58.479
how relaxed you now feel in the hole of your.

889
01:41:58.600 --> 01:42:31.279
Back in a spy from your brain all the way

890
01:42:31.359 --> 01:42:42.800
down the middle of your, back sending and receiving millions

891
01:42:42.840 --> 01:44:11.159
of messages every. Day decomfort, increase deeply relaxed uns, legs

892
01:44:15.039 --> 01:44:24.199
spreading those signals down your spine or cord into air

893
01:44:24.560 --> 01:44:43.279
every part of your, body your shins and your, calf,

894
01:44:43.479 --> 01:45:40.279
muscles your, Elbows feelings of peace and tranquility spreading through your,

895
01:45:40.319 --> 01:45:57.960
body tips of your, toes to your, eyes your, fingers

896
01:46:01.760 --> 01:46:18.199
all the way you know About i'm letting, go re

897
01:46:18.960 --> 01:47:18.520
letting her pace to drift in, mind just wandering, away

898
01:47:27.960 --> 01:48:09.600
happy to let, go let go Completely leger, sir tranquil

899
01:48:33.760 --> 01:50:11.560
the whole, body enjoy a sense listening that he no,

900
01:50:19.920 --> 01:51:13.920
hey joy the, space this space of peace and, safety

901
01:51:36.720 --> 01:51:37.960
so very.

902
01:51:45.199 --> 01:52:22.079
Relaxed us.

903
01:52:17.800 --> 01:52:44.000
Becaus the.

904
01:52:48.199 --> 01:52:48.760
Lad to.

905
01:53:15.880 --> 01:53:40.640
Letting. Go maybe we can just focus on the different

906
01:53:40.920 --> 01:54:16.199
parts of your, body just to notice you foolhead and your,

907
01:54:16.279 --> 01:55:35.399
Eyes atu, said noticing the sense of complete, freedom absolute

908
01:55:35.800 --> 01:56:22.840
freedom Dress.

909
01:56:23.399 --> 01:56:49.760
Dreda he's on.

910
01:56:51.800 --> 01:58:15.279
Energy paste to breeze such, ease, yeah loose.

911
01:58:36.319 --> 01:58:47.880
You may have you may not have noticed your mind

912
01:58:48.600 --> 01:59:49.800
drifted peaceful move any even more deeply in the direction

913
01:59:49.960 --> 02:01:25.640
of total blissful, pace blissful, pace direft to to, pace

914
02:01:56.439 --> 02:03:45.479
so let him, go peace of, mind, relax. RELAXED a

915
02:03:45.760 --> 02:04:26.800
body feels almost, invisible so very, relaxed, paceful so pace

916
02:04:43.000 --> 02:04:50.840
rel like ca.

917
02:05:07.119 --> 02:05:07.159
So.

918
02:05:13.720 --> 02:05:31.920
Mm and you could start to notice that you are

919
02:05:32.159 --> 02:05:43.680
feeling more, relaxed even Though i've not purposely focused your

920
02:05:43.880 --> 02:05:52.239
mind upon that sense of physical comfort that is growing

921
02:05:52.399 --> 02:06:01.640
within you throughout your, body and your mind starts to slow.

922
02:06:01.720 --> 02:06:13.720
Down and that could be almost in recognition OF i

923
02:06:13.800 --> 02:06:26.199
guess my speech not being particularly, fast and things just

924
02:06:26.560 --> 02:06:39.359
generally feel. Calmer just by listening to my, voice you

925
02:06:39.520 --> 02:06:46.359
give yourself an opportunity to take a break from the,

926
02:06:46.479 --> 02:06:52.840
day take a break from your life as it, is

927
02:06:56.239 --> 02:07:03.840
and to give yourself a, rest giving yourself permission to

928
02:07:04.000 --> 02:07:09.239
take some time off and to allow your body to

929
02:07:09.399 --> 02:07:19.079
relax and allow your mind to slow, down which in

930
02:07:19.239 --> 02:07:27.319
turn releases the tension any stresses that you had in your.

931
02:07:27.399 --> 02:07:37.359
Body it's almost as if the parts of your body

932
02:07:37.520 --> 02:07:49.159
just open, up allowing the negativity out and at the

933
02:07:49.279 --> 02:08:00.680
same time replacing that negativity with positive heathing, energy which

934
02:08:00.800 --> 02:08:07.079
then fills your body up and your mind to also

935
02:08:09.800 --> 02:08:25.600
starts to appreciate those feelings of increasing confidence and almost

936
02:08:26.239 --> 02:08:42.479
uplifting feeling positive, healing an energy that spreads through your

937
02:08:42.560 --> 02:08:45.000
body like a wave.

938
02:08:47.039 --> 02:08:47.079
Of.

939
02:08:47.279 --> 02:09:02.359
Comfort and all this comes from just allowing yourself a few,

940
02:09:02.479 --> 02:09:07.640
minutes maybe half an, hour however long you want it to,

941
02:09:07.720 --> 02:09:20.800
be to just rest and allow your mind and your

942
02:09:20.840 --> 02:09:36.920
body to almost reset itself to the settings of comfort and, relaxation,

943
02:09:39.479 --> 02:09:53.119
calmness which allows more room for feelings of pleasure and

944
02:09:53.319 --> 02:10:03.359
happiness to move around your body and into your, mind

945
02:10:06.279 --> 02:10:11.359
almost as if your mind and your body are sinking,

946
02:10:11.640 --> 02:10:25.119
together almost mirroring each other with that growing positivity and.

947
02:10:25.439 --> 02:10:38.319
Calmness and it feels, nice really does feel nice to

948
02:10:38.520 --> 02:10:44.199
know that you are the one that has allowed yourself

949
02:10:47.680 --> 02:10:57.000
to feel more comfort and to experience.

950
02:10:58.800 --> 02:10:59.840
More the.

951
02:11:01.720 --> 02:11:16.880
Deep relaxation spreading throughout your. Body and AS i focus

952
02:11:18.439 --> 02:11:24.199
on each part of your, body you can notice that

953
02:11:24.399 --> 02:11:38.760
that part becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on.

954
02:11:38.880 --> 02:11:50.279
It it becomes even more calm and comfortable just by

955
02:11:50.520 --> 02:12:00.560
focusing and AS i move down your, body starting at your,

956
02:12:00.680 --> 02:12:07.239
head the parts that you have already focused on or

957
02:12:07.439 --> 02:12:16.880
continue to relax, deeply and those parts that have not

958
02:12:17.159 --> 02:12:29.079
yet focused on or just automatically release any remain intention

959
02:12:30.399 --> 02:12:42.319
in anticipation of even more comfort about to. Come, Now

960
02:12:44.720 --> 02:12:50.880
i'm going to start by focusing on your. Forehead just

961
02:12:51.079 --> 02:12:59.520
being aware of the feelings of your forehead and any

962
02:12:59.600 --> 02:13:06.720
background and sounds like Mister herbert the pigeon can just

963
02:13:06.840 --> 02:13:14.159
allow you to feel even more. Relaxed just means, you

964
02:13:14.319 --> 02:13:21.079
in the, moment this isn't this isn't a sterile. Environment

965
02:13:22.479 --> 02:13:29.479
this is the. WORLD i live in the, countryside.

966
02:13:30.199 --> 02:13:31.039
So there's lots of.

967
02:13:32.560 --> 02:13:41.880
Nature sounds. Around so as you focus on your, forehead

968
02:13:43.920 --> 02:13:54.640
just notice how it becomes even more. Relaxed focus only

969
02:13:54.960 --> 02:14:04.279
on my voice and that part of your. Body moving

970
02:14:04.479 --> 02:14:14.920
down to your, eyes focusing on your, eyes noticing how

971
02:14:17.399 --> 02:14:24.960
your eyelids feel so heavy yet so light at the same,

972
02:14:25.199 --> 02:14:34.399
time and all the muscles around your eyes relaxing. Completely

973
02:14:39.119 --> 02:14:46.199
moving your focus down to your, mouth your, lips your,

974
02:14:46.399 --> 02:14:53.399
tongue your, teeth your, gums the hole of your, mouth,

975
02:14:55.199 --> 02:15:08.880
relaxing calm and. Least as you focus now on your,

976
02:15:09.479 --> 02:15:16.279
jaw not just the parts of your, journey your mouth

977
02:15:17.119 --> 02:15:21.439
and your, chin but all the way up the size

978
02:15:21.479 --> 02:15:24.319
of your face to your, ears.

979
02:15:26.279 --> 02:15:37.960
The hole of your, jaw feeling more relaxed.

980
02:15:41.279 --> 02:15:58.840
And. Calm focusing on your, neck the front of your

981
02:15:59.000 --> 02:16:11.439
neck and your throat relaxing and loose and. Calm the

982
02:16:11.840 --> 02:16:17.399
sides of your, neck the right and left side of

983
02:16:17.520 --> 02:16:36.040
your neck relax and place and. Calm and now the

984
02:16:36.280 --> 02:16:43.000
back of your. Neck focusing on the back of your,

985
02:16:43.159 --> 02:16:53.799
neck letting go of any tension that may have been there,

986
02:16:54.040 --> 02:17:07.639
before and enjoying that sense of increasing comfort and. Release

987
02:17:10.399 --> 02:17:14.360
then you can experience in the back of your, neck

988
02:17:20.680 --> 02:17:27.120
moving down your back and moving either side of your

989
02:17:27.360 --> 02:17:33.559
spine right from the top of your back all the

990
02:17:33.680 --> 02:17:46.600
way down to the bottom of your. Back down it's

991
02:17:46.680 --> 02:17:56.840
your lower. Back as you move up and down your,

992
02:17:56.959 --> 02:18:03.479
spine you can feel the muscles either side of your

993
02:18:03.559 --> 02:18:20.120
spine relaxing even. More and as those muscles, relax that

994
02:18:20.479 --> 02:18:28.559
sense of comfort starts to spread outwards from your spine

995
02:18:31.120 --> 02:18:37.840
into both sides of your, back the top of your,

996
02:18:37.959 --> 02:18:44.719
back the middle and your lower. Back and as you

997
02:18:45.000 --> 02:18:54.760
scan gently and slowly up and down your, back there's

998
02:18:54.799 --> 02:18:59.479
the muscles in the top of your back relax and

999
02:18:59.680 --> 02:19:07.040
Be i'm. Looser the muscles in the middle of your

1000
02:19:07.159 --> 02:19:14.559
back also seem to just almost divide from each, other

1001
02:19:15.559 --> 02:19:21.280
separating and almost, melting.

1002
02:19:26.600 --> 02:19:28.159
And in your lower back.

1003
02:19:31.680 --> 02:19:34.799
There seems to be an extra special feeling.

1004
02:19:38.319 --> 02:19:38.360
Of.

1005
02:19:38.600 --> 02:19:50.239
Comfort the spreads into your. Hips sit down your lower,

1006
02:19:50.399 --> 02:19:58.719
back into your, hips into the area where your cosix,

1007
02:19:58.799 --> 02:20:09.200
are and into your, buttocks and a, wise muscles that spread.

1008
02:20:11.399 --> 02:20:12.639
Bring your lower back.

1009
02:20:14.959 --> 02:20:28.559
Into your hip area start to, melt start to really let,

1010
02:20:28.719 --> 02:20:39.520
go and even know where about to focus on your.

1011
02:20:39.680 --> 02:20:48.840
Shoulders your back and your spine will continue to let,

1012
02:20:48.959 --> 02:21:07.559
go continue to relax so, calmly and as you focus

1013
02:21:07.680 --> 02:21:19.040
on your, shoulders you may notice they're already feeding really.

1014
02:21:20.440 --> 02:21:36.280
Loose they're already feeding calm.

1015
02:21:42.280 --> 02:21:42.319
And.

1016
02:21:42.959 --> 02:21:55.159
Fearing those muscles that move from your neck into your

1017
02:21:55.319 --> 02:22:20.399
shoulders feel so soft and, gentle so smooth and, calm

1018
02:22:31.840 --> 02:22:44.360
and the feeling in your shoulders seems to spread deep

1019
02:22:44.639 --> 02:22:55.399
into your, shoulders a sense, relaxation not just traveling deeply

1020
02:22:55.760 --> 02:23:12.760
into your, muscles but also relaxing the bones and moving

1021
02:23:12.879 --> 02:23:21.120
all the way to underneath your, arms relaxing a whole

1022
02:23:21.319 --> 02:23:26.799
area between the tops of your shoulders and underneath your arms.

1023
02:23:31.120 --> 02:23:46.280
Healing you feel so relaxed and comfortable in your, shoulders

1024
02:23:49.879 --> 02:24:12.200
which sense that deep healing message into your. Arms you

1025
02:24:12.399 --> 02:24:17.600
may feel almost as if your arms are not even,

1026
02:24:17.840 --> 02:24:40.360
there because they're so, relaxed so deeply, relaxed so so,

1027
02:24:41.120 --> 02:25:17.719
calm so the feelings spreading all the way down your,

1028
02:25:18.120 --> 02:25:42.600
arms two, elbows including your elbows circumforts spreads.

1029
02:25:46.639 --> 02:25:47.399
Your way.

1030
02:25:49.920 --> 02:25:57.959
Into, wrists your forearms and your wrists.

1031
02:26:04.120 --> 02:26:05.280
So heavy.

1032
02:26:08.479 --> 02:26:50.120
He has at the same time sunlight and gentle fu Sin.

1033
02:26:52.360 --> 02:26:57.280
Now on your, hands.

1034
02:27:18.799 --> 02:27:50.559
My hands so peaceful in your hands with a sensor

1035
02:27:54.120 --> 02:28:20.360
real pace just seems to feel so. Familiar on your,

1036
02:28:20.520 --> 02:29:59.200
hands relax deeply else your fingers things you think it's.

1037
02:29:59.239 --> 02:30:33.159
Tips may your attention to affront your, Body.

1038
02:30:46.000 --> 02:30:46.159
Sir.

1039
02:30:46.639 --> 02:32:26.200
Constable then you fuck like my souls in your, fids

1040
02:32:43.239 --> 02:35:27.159
names off, muscles shades as and the feathing and of,

1041
02:35:27.440 --> 02:36:29.959
Faints sir, peaceful Circom sir, peaceful circom so, peaceful sycom

1042
02:36:34.479 --> 02:37:07.959
so piece f re same peace fall sac out of

1043
02:37:08.040 --> 02:37:29.239
that deep, relaxation the spread your chest storm lets you go.

1044
02:37:33.399 --> 02:37:50.760
Everything So i'm gonna start counting down now from twenty

1045
02:37:51.120 --> 02:37:59.280
down to. One you can imagine in a, way it's

1046
02:37:59.479 --> 02:38:06.159
like just walking down some steps and each step or twenty,

1047
02:38:06.280 --> 02:38:15.440
steps and each step represents a level of. Comfort each

1048
02:38:15.600 --> 02:38:31.520
step represents a deepening of that, comfort and the furvies

1049
02:38:32.000 --> 02:38:37.840
you walk down those, steps the deeper and more relaxed you.

1050
02:38:37.959 --> 02:40:32.719
Feel so starting with number twenty, twenty, ninety, eighteen seventeen

1051
02:41:19.079 --> 02:51:23.040
sixteenhhhhhhhh three fourhhhhh four s too wellhhhhhhh hhh eight sissist

1052
02:51:49.680 --> 02:53:37.639
us six five.

1053
02:54:56.360 --> 02:55:28.680
Four ussis.

1054
02:58:34.719 --> 02:59:41.479
One, now as you focus on your, eyes we're gonna

1055
02:59:41.559 --> 02:59:53.319
count down from ten down to, one focusing just on your,

1056
02:59:53.440 --> 03:00:04.120
eyes your, eyelids the muscles are around your, eyes your

1057
03:00:04.200 --> 03:00:12.879
eye walls, themselves our whole area that makes up your.

1058
03:00:12.959 --> 03:00:28.879
Eye and as we count down from ten down to,

1059
03:00:29.159 --> 03:00:44.920
one whilst focusing on your, eyes you'll become twice is.

1060
03:00:45.120 --> 03:00:56.959
Relaxed with each number counting down that you may find

1061
03:00:59.840 --> 03:01:07.280
the all you want to do is just drift off to.

1062
03:01:07.479 --> 03:01:16.840
Sleep and if that's what you, want then just allow

1063
03:01:16.959 --> 03:01:31.920
yourself to do. That, now focusing on your, Eyes i'm

1064
03:01:32.000 --> 03:01:41.959
going to begin counting down from ten down to. One right,

1065
03:01:42.079 --> 03:06:29.159
now ten nine eight SEVEN I m.

1066
03:07:00.840 --> 03:07:46.159
Four ah.

1067
03:08:14.440 --> 03:11:17.399
Three swo counting down from ten to, one, ten, nine, eight, seven, six,

1068
03:11:19.639 --> 03:11:39.799
five four three two. One and maybe that was a

1069
03:11:39.879 --> 03:11:44.000
bit too quick in order to. Relax maybe it's a

1070
03:11:44.040 --> 03:11:50.399
bit too fast for you to notice the calming of your,

1071
03:11:50.440 --> 03:11:57.200
body maybe even a little bit of pressure, There like

1072
03:11:58.319 --> 03:12:01.200
you're counting down from ten to. One would you expect

1073
03:12:01.280 --> 03:12:04.319
me to do, man expect me to just go with

1074
03:12:04.520 --> 03:12:14.000
floppy just because you're counting. Down you can try it,

1075
03:12:14.040 --> 03:12:20.319
again but this Time i'll go this. Lower this, time

1076
03:12:21.559 --> 03:12:26.520
as you focus on the whole of your body before

1077
03:12:26.600 --> 03:12:33.559
we focus on your. Legs just notice how your body

1078
03:12:33.719 --> 03:12:48.680
does start to feel more relaxed with every number THAT

1079
03:12:48.799 --> 03:13:39.799
i count down ten, nine, eight, seven, six five four

1080
03:13:47.239 --> 03:14:38.239
three two, One and just notice how how you, feel,

1081
03:14:38.360 --> 03:14:48.600
generally how your body. Feels it's not necessarily even about

1082
03:14:53.040 --> 03:15:00.479
counting down from ten to. One it's that space that you,

1083
03:15:00.639 --> 03:15:20.159
have that space between being active physically or mentally to

1084
03:15:20.479 --> 03:15:29.840
just sitting or lying, down just being, there not doing,

1085
03:15:30.000 --> 03:15:35.319
anything not saying, anything or needing to think about. Anything

1086
03:15:37.159 --> 03:15:40.840
so it opens up a, space you, know a bit

1087
03:15:40.879 --> 03:15:51.639
of a, space a. Gap and the MORE i came

1088
03:15:51.799 --> 03:15:56.319
down from ten to, one the bigger that gap. Becomes

1089
03:15:59.360 --> 03:16:05.760
so there's that gap of calmness of comfort and. Relaxation

1090
03:16:11.680 --> 03:16:24.040
it's a nice, feeling and it moves those stresses or

1091
03:16:24.600 --> 03:16:38.440
discomforts physically or, emotionally moves them. Away allows you.

1092
03:16:41.159 --> 03:16:41.680
To just.

1093
03:16:44.639 --> 03:16:51.079
Slow, down someone to count a gain from ten down to,

1094
03:16:51.200 --> 03:17:01.360
one and notice that gap, widening the, gap and is it.

1095
03:17:01.479 --> 03:17:08.000
Widens it's almost like the stress and attention falls into

1096
03:17:08.079 --> 03:17:23.760
the gap and gives you that distance.

1097
03:17:25.280 --> 03:17:25.319
That.

1098
03:17:25.639 --> 03:18:05.239
Space now ten, nine, eight, seven, six.

1099
03:18:17.680 --> 03:18:18.239
Five.

1100
03:18:29.079 --> 03:19:38.879
Four three two. One, now how does your body feel?

1101
03:19:41.120 --> 03:20:05.639
Now can you notice? That do you feeling? Calmer what

1102
03:20:05.719 --> 03:20:07.040
are you feeling.

1103
03:20:08.959 --> 03:20:09.200
More?

1104
03:20:09.719 --> 03:20:36.680
Relaxed as we now focus on your, legs just your.

1105
03:20:36.760 --> 03:21:12.799
Legs we're just gonna start with focusing on your. Thighs of,

1106
03:21:12.920 --> 03:21:17.040
course it's not the most exciting thing to be doing

1107
03:21:17.840 --> 03:21:24.200
Because i'm, sure like most of your body is not

1108
03:21:24.280 --> 03:21:36.479
a lot going on right. Now just focusing on the

1109
03:21:36.600 --> 03:21:42.639
whole of your, thighs the tops of your, thighs the

1110
03:21:42.959 --> 03:21:49.600
sides of your, thighs the bottoms of your. Thighs you're

1111
03:21:49.719 --> 03:21:55.040
outer thighs and you're inner. Thighs basically the whole of

1112
03:21:55.079 --> 03:22:02.920
your thigh that leads into your hip and it goes

1113
03:22:03.920 --> 03:22:04.959
down to your.

1114
03:22:06.879 --> 03:22:07.200
Knee.

1115
03:22:07.280 --> 03:22:19.559
Joints, now this is a big, area it's a very heavy.

1116
03:22:19.639 --> 03:22:26.040
Area it's very, strong probably the strongest muscles in your

1117
03:22:26.120 --> 03:22:39.079
body or in your. Thighs BUT i don't think we

1118
03:22:40.879 --> 03:22:53.840
perhaps give enough attention to our. Thighs perhaps we don't

1119
03:22:55.440 --> 03:23:15.879
acknowledge how important our thighs are to our, lives how

1120
03:23:16.040 --> 03:23:25.159
much they actually do for us all through our. Lives

1121
03:23:32.319 --> 03:23:34.959
and it may seem sound really, weird BUT.

1122
03:23:37.840 --> 03:23:38.879
I think that all of.

1123
03:23:38.920 --> 03:23:49.760
Our body, parts especially our, thighs need SOME, tlc a

1124
03:23:49.840 --> 03:24:00.559
bit of love, shown a bit of, acknowledgement.

1125
03:24:02.559 --> 03:24:02.959
Thank, you.

1126
03:24:06.040 --> 03:24:18.399
Gratitude for what our thighs do for. Us AND i

1127
03:24:18.520 --> 03:24:24.200
know this may sound a bit. Strange maybe you, think

1128
03:24:24.639 --> 03:24:27.399
why AM i sure THAT i should be held in

1129
03:24:27.520 --> 03:24:36.079
the garden hugging a tree or. Something, well it's hard

1130
03:24:36.120 --> 03:24:39.280
to set a microphone up on a. Tree that's Why

1131
03:24:39.280 --> 03:24:42.040
i'm doing this. Indoors OTHERWISE i wouldn't be outside hugging a.

1132
03:24:42.120 --> 03:24:52.319
TREE i can't see the television from the. Tree if

1133
03:24:52.360 --> 03:24:57.200
you move down to your, knees gain such an important.

1134
03:24:57.440 --> 03:25:06.319
Part AND i think we don't Necessarily i'll speak for,

1135
03:25:06.440 --> 03:25:14.200
MYSELF i don't necessarily appreciate all that my needs to

1136
03:25:14.399 --> 03:25:19.159
do for me UNTIL i have a problem with my.

1137
03:25:19.239 --> 03:25:24.239
Knee it's occasionally IF i ever maybe i'll bash, it

1138
03:25:24.559 --> 03:25:30.360
or it's aching for some. Reason it's then THAT i

1139
03:25:30.559 --> 03:25:36.040
realize how much it. Does you, know the benefit of

1140
03:25:36.159 --> 03:25:43.559
being able to use my legs without any kind of

1141
03:25:43.760 --> 03:25:52.079
physical discomfort is a beautiful thing that's possibly not appreciated

1142
03:25:52.200 --> 03:26:03.280
until it's temporarily. Removed you know that's. Comfort but as

1143
03:26:03.280 --> 03:26:08.200
you focus on your, knees regardless of how your knees,

1144
03:26:08.360 --> 03:26:17.280
feel you can have that sense of gratitude and love

1145
03:26:17.440 --> 03:26:19.680
to your knees for all that they do for, you

1146
03:26:30.159 --> 03:26:33.280
and you can still have that attention on your. Thighs

1147
03:26:34.079 --> 03:26:40.799
maybe notice how your thighs, Feel maybe notice that they

1148
03:26:41.719 --> 03:26:59.520
are relaxing more deeply as you focus now on the

1149
03:26:59.559 --> 03:27:04.000
bottom of your, legs your shins and your calf, muscles

1150
03:27:04.479 --> 03:27:12.319
the bones between your knees and your, feet incorporating the

1151
03:27:12.440 --> 03:27:14.159
course your ankles.

1152
03:27:15.959 --> 03:27:16.000
So.

1153
03:27:16.319 --> 03:27:26.200
Important you, know anyone that's had even like the slightest

1154
03:27:26.639 --> 03:27:32.639
sprain of an ankle knows how how much we take

1155
03:27:33.959 --> 03:27:42.799
our ankles for. Granted and it's kind of strange in

1156
03:27:42.879 --> 03:27:48.079
a way when you think, that you, know, logically our

1157
03:27:48.120 --> 03:27:51.200
wrists are a lot thinner than the rest of our,

1158
03:27:51.360 --> 03:27:55.920
arms which, is, okay it. DOESN'T i can't see any

1159
03:27:55.959 --> 03:28:01.000
problem with that because we're just picking stuff up by

1160
03:28:01.000 --> 03:28:06.639
our ankles so much thinner than the rest of our,

1161
03:28:06.719 --> 03:28:17.520
legs and from a physics perspective or logical even it

1162
03:28:17.559 --> 03:28:23.719
doesn't really make sense that all this weight would ultimately

1163
03:28:23.920 --> 03:28:30.440
be resting on your ankles then leading to your, feet

1164
03:28:35.040 --> 03:28:44.239
that thin, area thin. Bone, yeah it does so much great.

1165
03:28:44.360 --> 03:28:56.120
Work supports, us supports our body for a, lifetime helps

1166
03:28:56.200 --> 03:29:05.680
us to, balance helps you to get around and be.

1167
03:29:05.879 --> 03:29:20.000
Mobile and there's the calf. Muscles of, course WHEN i was,

1168
03:29:20.120 --> 03:29:23.920
YOUNGER i couldn't see the point in calf. Muscles didn't

1169
03:29:23.920 --> 03:29:28.639
seem to do. Anything, okay IF i walked around on,

1170
03:29:28.719 --> 03:29:31.680
tiptoes then my calf muscles get some.

1171
03:29:31.840 --> 03:29:34.319
Work but of course that's not.

1172
03:29:34.520 --> 03:29:39.000
True the calf muscles are being used whenever we use the,

1173
03:29:39.159 --> 03:29:52.959
legs and your shins there to protect your lower, legs

1174
03:29:57.280 --> 03:30:02.079
shaped in a way almost as a protector for the.

1175
03:30:02.120 --> 03:30:02.760
Bone.

1176
03:30:10.040 --> 03:30:13.600
Leading of course to your ankles.

1177
03:30:16.479 --> 03:30:16.799
And your.

1178
03:30:16.879 --> 03:30:23.600
Feet but we're not going to focus on your. Feet

1179
03:30:23.680 --> 03:30:28.040
we're just going to focus on the. LEGS i, realize

1180
03:30:30.120 --> 03:30:34.000
and now That i've mentioned your, feet you'll probably focusing

1181
03:30:34.239 --> 03:30:37.319
on them, Anyway so MAYBE i should focus.

1182
03:30:37.120 --> 03:30:38.040
On your feet a little.

1183
03:30:38.040 --> 03:30:46.399
Bit you can have them in your awareness the same

1184
03:30:46.520 --> 03:30:50.959
as you have your thighs in your. Awareness even though

1185
03:30:51.040 --> 03:30:55.159
we haven't been focusing on your thighs a few, minutes

1186
03:30:56.959 --> 03:30:58.040
have been focusing on.

1187
03:30:58.120 --> 03:31:00.000
Your, ankles.

1188
03:31:05.159 --> 03:31:20.360
There's still that sensation of comfort in your, thighs and

1189
03:31:20.440 --> 03:31:29.879
there's that movement of energy because the thighs hold lots

1190
03:31:29.959 --> 03:31:35.440
of different. Sensations of, course there's the, muscles the big

1191
03:31:35.840 --> 03:31:47.920
straw muscles that we have in our. Thighs but the

1192
03:31:48.120 --> 03:31:54.040
skin on the outside of the, thighs as in the

1193
03:31:54.200 --> 03:31:59.760
outside of all of our, body can be very, sensitive

1194
03:32:03.680 --> 03:32:16.879
sensitive to the, touch sensitive to, temperature and inside your

1195
03:32:17.000 --> 03:32:24.440
thighs the, bones there's the, muscle there's the, blood, vessels

1196
03:32:24.600 --> 03:32:29.920
the arch, trees to all this stuff that's inside your.

1197
03:32:30.040 --> 03:32:37.879
THIGHS i guess sometimes it'd be nice if you could

1198
03:32:37.920 --> 03:32:43.280
actually put your fingers inside your thighs and a, message

1199
03:32:45.639 --> 03:32:49.200
so you can message on the, outside of, course but

1200
03:32:49.280 --> 03:32:52.399
to be able to get deep into the muscles and

1201
03:32:52.479 --> 03:32:57.639
to be able to just message inside your, thighs message

1202
03:32:57.680 --> 03:33:05.719
in the bones of your, leg cut massage in or the,

1203
03:33:05.840 --> 03:33:17.280
veins just gently healing fives and you can move down

1204
03:33:19.319 --> 03:33:24.360
message and inside your, knees just message in those, bones

1205
03:33:25.399 --> 03:33:32.680
but with healing, fingertips spreading that healing energy deep into.

1206
03:33:32.520 --> 03:33:34.840
The choice of your.

1207
03:33:34.920 --> 03:33:44.159
Knees of, course there's the back of your your need

1208
03:33:44.360 --> 03:33:51.319
and the inside crease you need is it's a very sensitive.

1209
03:33:51.399 --> 03:33:56.639
Area three it feels very nice when you stroke. It

1210
03:33:58.040 --> 03:34:02.280
that might be because scenario that's not really touched very.

1211
03:34:02.360 --> 03:34:09.040
Often it's almost like a hidden, part that crease.

1212
03:34:10.840 --> 03:34:11.120
On your.

1213
03:34:11.200 --> 03:34:12.639
Legs it's almost.

1214
03:34:14.559 --> 03:34:15.319
Like a part that.

1215
03:34:17.120 --> 03:34:27.959
Has a sensitivity which is a little bit. Different of,

1216
03:34:28.079 --> 03:34:38.399
course it's protected by your. Legs so you can imagine

1217
03:34:38.559 --> 03:34:49.520
putting your fingers into that crease in your. Legs folded

1218
03:34:49.600 --> 03:34:52.920
in between your, legs you can just message with your.

1219
03:34:52.959 --> 03:35:01.079
Fingertips imagine your fingertips going inside message in the muscle or.

1220
03:35:01.159 --> 03:35:10.079
Tissue you can of course feel the bones of your

1221
03:35:10.159 --> 03:35:22.040
knees heading through your. Fingertips and then as you go

1222
03:35:22.239 --> 03:35:28.000
down to your calf, muscles and that's the Part i'd

1223
03:35:28.120 --> 03:35:32.280
like to be able to really put my fingertips deep

1224
03:35:32.360 --> 03:35:41.840
inside my calf, muscles massage in every single tissue of that,

1225
03:35:42.239 --> 03:35:53.559
muscle healing every, part and then doing the same for my.

1226
03:35:53.719 --> 03:36:03.959
Shins massage in, checkly straight king the, bones generally stroking,

1227
03:36:04.079 --> 03:36:09.280
them healing in a loving way because they deserve to be.

1228
03:36:09.440 --> 03:36:16.680
Treated there's the precious bones that they, are because our

1229
03:36:16.760 --> 03:36:20.319
legs are so precious as in all the other parts

1230
03:36:20.399 --> 03:36:25.680
of our, body the more precious of any jure.

1231
03:36:28.000 --> 03:36:28.200
On the.

1232
03:36:28.319 --> 03:36:44.840
Planet when you start to think about your legs in this,

1233
03:36:45.040 --> 03:36:56.280
way it can change your. Perspective it might sound a

1234
03:36:56.319 --> 03:37:05.000
bit silly to start with the idea of having love

1235
03:37:05.559 --> 03:37:14.920
for your, legs showing appreciation for your, thighs wanting to

1236
03:37:15.000 --> 03:37:20.760
be able to put your hands in your thighs the

1237
03:37:21.040 --> 03:37:27.399
massage the muscles and the, bones and to get your

1238
03:37:27.520 --> 03:37:36.000
fingers deep in, there releasing all, tension just to show

1239
03:37:37.920 --> 03:37:45.239
how much you care about your, legs how much you

1240
03:37:45.399 --> 03:37:53.440
care for what your legs do for you, regularly your,

1241
03:37:53.559 --> 03:38:03.520
knees your, cars your. Ankles the strength of your, ankles

1242
03:38:06.399 --> 03:38:11.319
considering how thin they are compared to the rest of your,

1243
03:38:11.399 --> 03:38:20.959
legs especially your. Thighs, yeah they're so, strong so, flexible

1244
03:38:24.719 --> 03:38:37.600
absolutely amazing. Things your ankles are truly a gift because

1245
03:38:37.600 --> 03:38:38.559
of what they do for.

1246
03:38:38.639 --> 03:38:38.719
You.

1247
03:38:44.200 --> 03:38:50.879
Supporting all that weight regardless of how what weight you.

1248
03:38:51.040 --> 03:38:54.559
Are even if you only eat ate, stone.

1249
03:38:56.200 --> 03:38:57.280
There's still a lot.

1250
03:38:57.120 --> 03:39:03.799
Of weight for these little. Ankles now am a lot

1251
03:39:04.040 --> 03:39:14.000
heavier than eight stre double. Down yet my ankles support

1252
03:39:14.079 --> 03:39:21.440
my body all the, time or they do give off

1253
03:39:21.479 --> 03:39:26.879
a sigh of relief WHEN i sit. Down that's you've

1254
03:39:26.879 --> 03:39:34.079
had my whole Legs, Threa my, feet feet als, go

1255
03:39:36.040 --> 03:40:03.760
my toes clap so. Happy your legs really are. Amazing

1256
03:40:06.360 --> 03:40:10.000
AND i know they're talking. About talking about your legs

1257
03:40:10.159 --> 03:40:16.600
is probably possibly one of the most most boring Things

1258
03:40:16.639 --> 03:40:23.840
i've ever heard anyone. Say possibly or boring or. Not

1259
03:40:25.440 --> 03:40:40.920
EVERYTHING i said is. True your legs are. Amazing your

1260
03:40:41.000 --> 03:40:51.360
legs deserve not just, respect but they deserve to relax.

1261
03:40:53.239 --> 03:41:03.959
Deeply they deserve to take some time out of the

1262
03:41:04.079 --> 03:41:33.399
day to just let go. Completely the legs really can

1263
03:41:34.680 --> 03:41:46.799
relax because the legs are so such a most you,

1264
03:41:46.879 --> 03:41:52.680
know very important part of your. Body when you relax your,

1265
03:41:52.799 --> 03:41:59.840
legs the rest of your body also naturally follows in

1266
03:42:00.399 --> 03:42:14.479
that journey of. COMFORT i can feel it in my.

1267
03:42:14.639 --> 03:42:23.200
Hips my hips feel really, loose and also my lower

1268
03:42:23.319 --> 03:42:29.280
back as. Well my lower back really feels it feels,

1269
03:42:29.520 --> 03:42:34.000
stretched even Though i'm just sitting in a, chair and

1270
03:42:34.120 --> 03:42:39.360
there's no stretching as far As i'm aware That i'm.

1271
03:42:39.440 --> 03:42:43.239
Doing it's almost as if the muscles are just relaxed

1272
03:42:43.319 --> 03:42:48.920
so much that there is a natural stretch as a

1273
03:42:49.079 --> 03:43:11.319
tension has reduced a. Lot And i'm now going to

1274
03:43:11.399 --> 03:43:13.680
count down from ten downs.

1275
03:43:13.840 --> 03:43:19.040
One you can.

1276
03:43:19.000 --> 03:43:44.239
Continue to fill wonderfully relaxed ten nine eight, seven, six

1277
03:43:47.440 --> 03:44:20.319
five four three. Tube why? Relax So i'm just going

1278
03:44:20.399 --> 03:44:25.239
to count down from five down to. One and as a,

1279
03:44:25.360 --> 03:44:31.360
countdown if you just focus on the, numbers just the

1280
03:44:31.520 --> 03:44:39.399
numbers counting, down and notice how you feel.

1281
03:44:41.760 --> 03:44:42.920
In this moment.

1282
03:44:44.360 --> 03:44:48.760
As you hear the numbers counting, down knowing that those

1283
03:44:48.920 --> 03:45:02.159
numbers counting down represent you feeling, calmer not just in your,

1284
03:45:02.200 --> 03:45:10.680
body but also relaxing your. Mind just notice how you.

1285
03:45:10.799 --> 03:45:17.399
Feel there's nothing to, do there's nothing to, say there's

1286
03:45:17.479 --> 03:45:18.600
nothing to think.

1287
03:45:18.479 --> 03:45:19.040
About.

1288
03:45:21.799 --> 03:46:10.799
Starting with number five four three two. One and as

1289
03:46:10.840 --> 03:46:16.920
you notice the gradual.

1290
03:46:19.159 --> 03:46:19.719
Letting go.

1291
03:46:22.280 --> 03:46:29.360
The tension in your, body you may also begin to

1292
03:46:29.680 --> 03:46:36.959
notice and be aware of how your mind is starting

1293
03:46:37.399 --> 03:46:44.760
to slow. Down this is just a natural thing that.

1294
03:46:44.959 --> 03:46:52.680
Happens it's not really a special. Procedure it's just natural

1295
03:46:52.799 --> 03:46:58.600
because as your body, relaxes your mind also starts to,

1296
03:46:58.719 --> 03:47:03.760
relax and the more your mind, relaxes the more your body.

1297
03:47:03.799 --> 03:47:14.920
Relaxes it's just a continuous circle of. Relaxation and there's

1298
03:47:15.000 --> 03:47:23.520
that calmness that comes from relative. Quietness you, know even

1299
03:47:23.959 --> 03:47:30.760
even if there's background sounds either your, side, online it's

1300
03:47:30.920 --> 03:47:33.959
still going to be quite.

1301
03:47:34.200 --> 03:47:36.559
Calm you, know you.

1302
03:47:36.559 --> 03:47:41.239
Haven't got the television, on there's no music in the

1303
03:47:41.319 --> 03:47:43.520
background unless you're listening to the recorded with.

1304
03:47:43.760 --> 03:47:50.959
Music of, course you're very likely not going to be

1305
03:47:51.079 --> 03:47:52.280
sitting in a room with other.

1306
03:47:52.399 --> 03:47:57.760
People of course you might, be but generally it's more

1307
03:47:57.879 --> 03:48:02.399
ideal if you can do this on your, own so no,

1308
03:48:02.600 --> 03:48:21.840
distractions and when you stop thinking about, stuff relaxation automatically.

1309
03:48:22.079 --> 03:48:35.200
Rises a sense of comfort starts to, grow and without

1310
03:48:35.319 --> 03:48:43.799
trying to build it up into something fantastical or something,

1311
03:48:44.000 --> 03:48:56.200
magical this is just a natural, process something that's easy to.

1312
03:48:56.280 --> 03:49:05.479
Accomplish it's almost you, know the sense of relaxing completely

1313
03:49:06.600 --> 03:49:11.799
happens really when you put no effort into. It it's

1314
03:49:11.920 --> 03:49:19.239
not something that you can really. Force it's something that happens.

1315
03:49:20.120 --> 03:49:30.360
Naturally and part of the process of this recording and

1316
03:49:30.559 --> 03:49:41.600
others is simply, two allow you to take advantage of

1317
03:49:42.239 --> 03:49:44.479
this space.

1318
03:49:46.719 --> 03:49:47.799
This, time.

1319
03:49:50.879 --> 03:49:55.440
Just let, go.

1320
03:49:58.559 --> 03:50:06.879
To just be, here to be in tune with how you,

1321
03:50:07.040 --> 03:50:20.719
feel yet with the intention of wanting to relax deeply

1322
03:50:25.559 --> 03:50:31.920
and maybe even to fall, asleep depending on what it

1323
03:50:32.120 --> 03:50:36.040
is that you wish for yourself.

1324
03:50:37.239 --> 03:50:37.479
In this.

1325
03:50:37.719 --> 03:50:53.760
Moment as we, know relaxing is the majority of the

1326
03:50:53.879 --> 03:50:58.440
process of falling. Asleep the actual falling asleep.

1327
03:50:58.079 --> 03:51:05.200
Part is the time any bit at the. End the deeper.

1328
03:51:06.159 --> 03:51:28.440
Relaxed you, become the easier you find yourself. Drifting but

1329
03:51:28.559 --> 03:51:35.159
you can also if you choose stay focused on my

1330
03:51:35.360 --> 03:52:04.280
voice and really enjoy the, process gradually relaxing each muscle

1331
03:52:08.879 --> 03:52:35.760
in your body effortlessly and just observing the sensation of

1332
03:52:36.040 --> 03:52:51.639
letting go. Completely this, Time i'm going to count from

1333
03:52:51.879 --> 03:53:05.239
six down to. One you can notice your mind calming

1334
03:53:05.520 --> 03:53:09.920
down more with each number.

1335
03:53:11.280 --> 03:53:13.200
That you hear me, say.

1336
03:53:17.600 --> 03:54:54.000
Actually feeling calm and slow to beeaceful sex, five, four, three.

1337
03:55:31.719 --> 03:55:31.920
Three.

1338
03:56:00.440 --> 03:56:29.079
One being aware of how your mind to slowed.

1339
03:56:30.680 --> 03:56:31.639
Right, down.

1340
03:56:34.680 --> 03:56:58.040
Sinking deeply into. Relaxation as you focus on your, mind

1341
03:57:01.920 --> 03:57:11.200
may notice that there are some thoughts still, there maybe

1342
03:57:11.360 --> 03:57:20.639
some stubborn thoughts that for some, reason perhaps need your.

1343
03:57:20.719 --> 03:57:36.360
Attention that's what you can do is send love to those.

1344
03:57:36.520 --> 03:57:42.719
Thoughts sprinkle those thoughts.

1345
03:57:46.920 --> 03:57:47.680
With love.

1346
03:57:49.399 --> 03:57:55.360
All petals from a. Flower just sprinkle over them petals

1347
03:57:55.440 --> 03:58:02.639
feel good love towards those thoughts to let those thoughts

1348
03:58:02.840 --> 03:58:09.360
know that you're not abandon the. Number you just need.

1349
03:58:09.520 --> 03:58:19.200
Them you require them to just calm, down slow, down

1350
03:58:21.520 --> 03:58:22.879
quiet down.

1351
03:58:26.520 --> 03:58:27.120
For, now.

1352
03:58:34.799 --> 03:58:39.799
So as you focus on those remaining. Thoughts as a

1353
03:58:40.000 --> 03:58:45.559
countdown this time from seven down to. One with each,

1354
03:58:45.719 --> 03:58:59.239
number just imagine sprinkling those flower petals of, love, kindness

1355
03:59:00.840 --> 03:59:12.719
gratitude over those, thoughts which will allow them to just

1356
03:59:14.159 --> 03:59:29.479
not away relax. Deeply with every, number those thoughts will

1357
03:59:29.559 --> 03:59:30.680
become more.

1358
03:59:34.479 --> 03:59:35.079
And more.

1359
03:59:35.280 --> 04:02:13.200
Relaxed starting with number, seven, six, five. Four let's you

1360
04:02:13.360 --> 04:02:26.200
now notice how relaxed your feeling.

1361
04:02:29.520 --> 04:02:29.879
In your.

1362
04:02:29.959 --> 04:02:51.440
Body we got to focus on your hands because the

1363
04:02:51.680 --> 04:02:59.040
more relaxed your hands, are the more relaxed your body and.

1364
04:02:59.360 --> 04:03:20.319
Mind not can you focus on your hands and your.

1365
04:03:20.440 --> 04:03:31.000
Fingers there's nothing needed to be. Done there's no clenching

1366
04:03:31.159 --> 04:03:35.639
of fists or tents in the fingers or anything like.

1367
04:03:35.799 --> 04:03:47.520
That it's just noticing and focusing.

1368
04:03:48.559 --> 04:03:49.959
On your, hands.

1369
04:03:56.520 --> 04:04:18.239
Noticing the early feel because the all blasts your hands

1370
04:04:18.479 --> 04:04:32.000
feel a calm why your mind feels comforts you feel

1371
04:04:34.079 --> 04:05:03.399
throughout your. Body gee may have already noticed you a

1372
04:05:03.799 --> 04:05:16.000
mind is starting to draft.

1373
04:05:29.239 --> 04:05:30.200
Quick, said.

1374
04:05:34.040 --> 04:05:48.719
Just on your hands and, fingers allowing them. Cheat experience

1375
04:05:51.399 --> 04:05:58.799
a real deepening of that relaxation in your hands and

1376
04:05:59.079 --> 04:06:11.079
fingers or relaxed.

1377
04:06:15.600 --> 04:06:25.600
With each number from eight.

1378
04:06:27.760 --> 04:06:28.200
Down to.

1379
04:06:28.399 --> 04:06:45.040
One almost feel that healing relax, energy spread it into

1380
04:06:45.159 --> 04:07:01.000
your hands and, fingers becoming accent.

1381
04:07:03.639 --> 04:07:05.639
With each number.

1382
04:07:12.239 --> 04:07:26.760
Going, down eight down to, one to drift, down drift

1383
04:07:26.879 --> 04:08:24.239
in a gain snorted with number, eight, seven.

1384
04:09:28.040 --> 04:10:13.479
Four, Three.

1385
04:11:33.040 --> 04:11:42.120
Just being here, now nothing to think, about nothing to,

1386
04:11:42.280 --> 04:11:57.879
do nothing to, say and everything just feels. Calm this

1387
04:11:58.200 --> 04:12:05.760
is your natural states of. Being this is how you

1388
04:12:06.079 --> 04:12:12.319
just normally feel when you take away all that.

1389
04:12:12.719 --> 04:12:14.159
Other stuff.

1390
04:12:16.159 --> 04:12:20.920
That we add and thinks like stress and way we're

1391
04:12:20.959 --> 04:12:38.920
hear over, think, anxiety, tension chip thinking about. Stuff you

1392
04:12:39.120 --> 04:12:43.000
take that, away which is what we, do what we

1393
04:12:43.159 --> 04:12:43.879
do now.

1394
04:12:50.360 --> 04:12:50.840
Left with.

1395
04:12:53.600 --> 04:13:02.120
A real sense of diss which comes to you very,

1396
04:13:02.239 --> 04:13:16.959
quickly because, answerably is just a feeling of feeling of

1397
04:13:17.200 --> 04:13:24.239
comfort a most as if you've got inside yourself and

1398
04:13:24.399 --> 04:13:35.840
you've found in a special place where everything is, peaceful

1399
04:13:38.799 --> 04:13:44.559
a place week in the, film relaxed and your natural.

1400
04:13:46.280 --> 04:13:52.920
Sense of, comfort the place we can be, here.

1401
04:13:57.399 --> 04:14:04.760
We can accept yourself and you are in the place

1402
04:14:04.879 --> 04:14:15.879
where you're trying to please anybody, else in place where

1403
04:14:16.040 --> 04:14:25.399
you can actually not just love, yourself but in some

1404
04:14:25.600 --> 04:14:34.719
ways more, importantly you can like, yourself appreciate who do you,

1405
04:14:34.879 --> 04:14:50.360
want a sense of. Gratitude see the air one around.

1406
04:14:50.479 --> 04:15:04.280
You that's also a place where you can actually feel

1407
04:15:05.959 --> 04:15:20.000
the healing energy soaking into your. Body healing energy soaking

1408
04:15:21.239 --> 04:15:31.600
into your, BODY a healing energy spreads through your, veins

1409
04:15:35.479 --> 04:15:40.200
traveling to each every single part.

1410
04:15:41.680 --> 04:15:42.000
Of your.

1411
04:15:42.040 --> 04:15:52.879
Body you start to realize that actually a healing energy

1412
04:15:55.319 --> 04:16:01.280
it's not just entered into your, brain it's become a

1413
04:16:01.440 --> 04:16:09.959
part of your. Brain the spinal.

1414
04:16:09.639 --> 04:16:14.799
Fluid is now mixed to healing.

1415
04:16:14.680 --> 04:16:15.239
Energy.

1416
04:16:20.200 --> 04:16:20.719
Not just.

1417
04:16:22.840 --> 04:16:29.760
Allowing you to feel so much more relaxed and healthy.

1418
04:16:30.840 --> 04:16:32.079
In this, moment.

1419
04:16:36.239 --> 04:16:45.639
But also you start to realize that, actually what's happening

1420
04:16:45.879 --> 04:16:54.440
now without a, healing relaxing energy spreading through your, body

1421
04:16:56.319 --> 04:17:07.479
it's actually changing Your life's suctually changing the way you're

1422
04:17:07.559 --> 04:17:14.360
going to, feel not just, now but tomorrow and the next.

1423
04:17:14.520 --> 04:17:23.879
Day is your health, improves not just your physical, health

1424
04:17:24.000 --> 04:17:31.399
but your mental. Health things that used to bother you

1425
04:17:31.600 --> 04:17:38.719
in the, past for some, reason no longer have the

1426
04:17:38.840 --> 04:17:48.559
effect that they used to because something has changed deep within.

1427
04:17:48.719 --> 04:17:59.360
You maybe things that used to cause you to feel

1428
04:18:04.040 --> 04:18:11.399
no longer have that power to control you.

1429
04:18:13.840 --> 04:18:15.639
The way they seem to be able to.

1430
04:18:15.879 --> 04:18:27.399
Before as you realize that you're the one who decides

1431
04:18:30.719 --> 04:18:41.520
what affects, you you're the one who decides to feel

1432
04:18:42.159 --> 04:18:44.559
relaxed and calm.

1433
04:18:45.879 --> 04:18:48.079
When you choose.

1434
04:18:51.280 --> 04:18:59.159
To enjoy noticing these natural developments.

1435
04:19:01.159 --> 04:19:02.280
And healing.

1436
04:19:04.479 --> 04:19:13.079
Continue to grow and improve your life day by, day

1437
04:19:18.959 --> 04:19:27.239
including of, course your ability to relax so much easier

1438
04:19:32.159 --> 04:19:41.280
and sleep. In it's the most natural thing in the

1439
04:19:41.479 --> 04:19:50.479
world to you because for, in the sleep is something

1440
04:19:50.680 --> 04:19:56.200
that you've done so many times.

1441
04:19:57.520 --> 04:20:03.159
In your, life and you know that you were, born

1442
04:20:04.639 --> 04:20:06.399
as we all, were with.

1443
04:20:07.000 --> 04:20:17.600
The ability to fall asleep. Naturally we were born with

1444
04:20:18.159 --> 04:20:20.120
that ability.

1445
04:20:22.600 --> 04:20:24.440
To just drift.

1446
04:20:25.920 --> 04:20:37.760
Off into a, deep healing. Sleep even when we're, kids

1447
04:20:39.440 --> 04:20:42.159
sometimes we will fall asleep when we don't even want

1448
04:20:42.239 --> 04:20:48.079
to try to tell you stay. Awake maybe it's a

1449
04:20:48.239 --> 04:20:52.760
birthday in the, morning though It's christmas or holiday or.

1450
04:20:52.760 --> 04:20:55.360
Something we look forward. TO i don't want to go to.

1451
04:20:55.440 --> 04:21:02.920
Sleep but the more we want to, stay the more

1452
04:21:03.200 --> 04:21:04.159
we just start to.

1453
04:21:04.319 --> 04:21:13.360
Drift and the more you fights, drifting which might stop

1454
04:21:13.440 --> 04:21:20.319
yourself and drifting, asleep the depot is strongerout drifting becomes

1455
04:21:27.280 --> 04:21:32.559
because we're born not just with the need to relax

1456
04:21:32.719 --> 04:21:36.959
deeply and to naturally fall, asleep.

1457
04:21:39.719 --> 04:21:40.360
But it's out.

1458
04:21:40.479 --> 04:21:54.559
Birthright it's part of OUR, dna and sometimes as we

1459
04:21:54.680 --> 04:22:06.760
get older in, life perhaps at times we have forgotten relaxing.

1460
04:22:08.079 --> 04:22:23.239
Completely it's not only a wonderfully pleasant, experience it's also really.

1461
04:22:23.520 --> 04:22:42.600
Easy it's, very very easy to let, go because that's

1462
04:22:42.680 --> 04:22:42.920
all it.

1463
04:22:43.120 --> 04:22:43.840
Is it's just.

1464
04:22:47.280 --> 04:22:58.760
Deciding to let. Go and when you press the play

1465
04:22:58.879 --> 04:23:10.079
button on my, recordings you have given permission from my voice.

1466
04:23:11.319 --> 04:23:11.360
To.

1467
04:23:11.520 --> 04:23:19.120
Relax when you pressed that play, button you have given

1468
04:23:19.239 --> 04:23:27.360
me permission for my words to effect.

1469
04:23:29.399 --> 04:23:36.840
You in a, positive, openly a positive, way.

1470
04:23:40.520 --> 04:24:04.120
Opening up your mind to useful and healing. Suggestions they

1471
04:24:04.239 --> 04:24:16.360
can have such an amazing effect on how you feel right,

1472
04:24:16.479 --> 04:24:31.040
now as well as those changes that continue long after

1473
04:24:31.200 --> 04:24:41.280
the recording. Ends those changes within, you they continue to

1474
04:24:41.559 --> 04:24:57.000
flourish and, grow transforming your life in a, positive beautiful,

1475
04:24:57.239 --> 04:25:07.600
way allowing you to move forward your life in the

1476
04:25:07.760 --> 04:25:09.920
direction that you choose.

1477
04:25:11.159 --> 04:25:11.200
For.

1478
04:25:11.360 --> 04:25:31.559
Yourself this, feeling this feeling that you can experience a, safety, comfort.

1479
04:25:32.479 --> 04:25:54.600
Calmness this feels so, nice such a healthy place to,

1480
04:25:54.760 --> 04:26:08.079
be and that positivity grows within you.

1481
04:26:13.840 --> 04:26:21.040
In every day moving, forward.

1482
04:26:24.479 --> 04:26:35.479
You're had to find that you're more relaxed physically and

1483
04:26:35.680 --> 04:26:45.280
in your mind's more. Relaxed and it's not that you're thinking,

1484
04:26:45.719 --> 04:26:51.840
slower it's just that your mind would be less knocked

1485
04:26:51.959 --> 04:27:04.479
up with unnecessary negativity because from now, on your mind rejects.

1486
04:27:05.719 --> 04:27:17.040
Negativity from now, on you're going to start noticing when

1487
04:27:17.159 --> 04:27:32.319
negativity arises and you can just say, stop stop and

1488
04:27:32.440 --> 04:27:34.239
the negativity.

1489
04:27:35.959 --> 04:27:38.479
Will turn around and leave you.

1490
04:27:38.559 --> 04:28:05.600
Alone stop and that negativity will. Disappear and that you

1491
04:28:05.879 --> 04:28:12.239
notice that you feel way more relaxed.

1492
04:28:13.040 --> 04:28:21.719
Than you've probably. Expected you can.

1493
04:28:21.879 --> 04:28:31.360
Now congratulate yourself because you're the person that has done.

1494
04:28:31.440 --> 04:28:38.680
This you are the one that's opened your mind up

1495
04:28:39.399 --> 04:28:47.440
to the simple. Faiths if you can feel more relaxed

1496
04:28:47.559 --> 04:28:57.159
in your body and in your, mind you've opened your

1497
04:28:57.360 --> 04:29:02.239
mind up to the birthright of being.

1498
04:29:02.079 --> 04:29:02.840
Able to just.

1499
04:29:05.520 --> 04:29:20.760
Fall asleep easily when you. Choose and that's a nice, feeling.

1500
04:29:21.959 --> 04:29:22.760
Don't you think.

1501
04:29:25.319 --> 04:29:30.239
Feels? Nice doesn't it to feel?

1502
04:29:31.680 --> 04:29:37.120
Calm who hear the energy is splitting through your body

1503
04:29:38.280 --> 04:29:39.239
in your mind.

1504
04:29:45.479 --> 04:29:46.760
To spend time.

1505
04:29:48.799 --> 04:30:04.959
A special place where negativity can no longer. Eatter negativity is,

1506
04:30:05.159 --> 04:30:13.879
Bad it's, bad it's not a loud, entry doesn't doesn't

1507
04:30:13.959 --> 04:30:17.920
this doesn't deserve to be, here doesn't been long. Here

1508
04:30:21.639 --> 04:30:24.079
negativity has no place.

1509
04:30:24.760 --> 04:30:39.040
In your life which makes room for warm comfort.

1510
04:30:40.719 --> 04:30:45.879
Or, heath or relaxation.

1511
04:30:50.120 --> 04:30:50.159
Or.

1512
04:30:50.399 --> 04:31:09.360
Peace its. Nice doesn't.

1513
04:31:10.959 --> 04:31:15.360
Just let a curl.

1514
04:31:18.799 --> 04:31:37.079
Everything i'm gonna count down now from twenty down to.

1515
04:31:37.239 --> 04:31:52.799
One he can continue to, relax cheesh career to sleep

1516
04:31:56.639 --> 04:31:57.879
every number.

1517
04:32:00.239 --> 04:32:01.280
He will, SAY.

1518
04:32:05.959 --> 04:32:16.040
Philm twice is. Relaxed or if you CHOOSE philm twice sleeping,

1519
04:32:22.879 --> 04:34:37.279
now twenty ninety eighteen, seventeen sixty, four, nine, eight, seven six, five.

1520
04:35:17.599 --> 04:35:19.040
This is your time.

1521
04:35:21.520 --> 04:35:22.880
To just take a, break.

1522
04:35:27.200 --> 04:35:38.279
Your, time, relax to allow your mind to slow, down

1523
04:35:46.959 --> 04:35:49.439
to give yourself permission.

1524
04:35:53.639 --> 04:35:55.439
To take a break.

1525
04:36:00.080 --> 04:36:09.279
From. Everything and you're the only person that can make that.

1526
04:36:09.720 --> 04:36:15.319
Decision you're the only person that can actually tell you

1527
04:36:15.400 --> 04:36:16.080
a life.

1528
04:36:21.000 --> 04:36:22.319
Just, relaxs.

1529
04:36:30.000 --> 04:36:35.360
To just take some time.

1530
04:36:37.119 --> 04:36:45.319
Off so that you.

1531
04:36:45.439 --> 04:36:51.599
Can focus on your, buddy getting in touch with how

1532
04:36:51.799 --> 04:37:03.560
you feel physically and in.

1533
04:37:03.639 --> 04:37:11.400
The process of this body scared, way you focus on

1534
04:37:11.599 --> 04:37:23.799
different parts of your, body those parts you focus on and, observe.

1535
04:37:26.240 --> 04:37:27.400
Even though you're.

1536
04:37:27.279 --> 04:37:31.959
Not purposely requesting.

1537
04:37:33.720 --> 04:37:38.880
Those parts of your buddy to. Relax it's kind of.

1538
04:37:39.080 --> 04:37:45.720
Expected you expect when you listen to my woice.

1539
04:37:46.319 --> 04:37:47.200
To feel.

1540
04:37:48.599 --> 04:37:51.599
Words, naturally.

1541
04:37:56.759 --> 04:37:58.400
Because when you're listen to, me.

1542
04:38:01.520 --> 04:38:02.560
Your attention.

1543
04:38:04.439 --> 04:38:05.680
Is focused.

1544
04:38:06.919 --> 04:38:08.159
On my, words.

1545
04:38:12.759 --> 04:38:15.680
And there's my words guide you.

1546
04:38:18.080 --> 04:38:24.720
To focus on those parts of your.

1547
04:38:24.799 --> 04:38:39.040
Body your focus. Increases it's actually.

1548
04:38:41.439 --> 04:38:54.159
Calm to your. Mind you my times now.

1549
04:38:59.240 --> 04:39:15.599
Body, Relaxes your calms, down.

1550
04:39:21.159 --> 04:39:46.599
Mind, relaxes the real started to focus on your. Body feel,

1551
04:39:50.040 --> 04:40:03.759
back the energy spreading through your, body pushing out, stress,

1552
04:40:04.919 --> 04:40:21.319
attention the parts of your, body, skins.

1553
04:40:20.479 --> 04:40:21.479
Your, blood.

1554
04:40:22.799 --> 04:40:25.360
Who moves such your, boy.

1555
04:40:26.880 --> 04:40:28.200
The, muscles.

1556
04:40:29.360 --> 04:40:36.400
The fact everything on your.

1557
04:40:36.479 --> 04:40:57.360
Boy it's fueled by knowing your brain field, energy.

1558
04:41:05.319 --> 04:41:24.080
Feed and. Comfort relaxation, increases, increases.

1559
04:41:29.639 --> 04:41:45.279
No way your mind starts to feel perhaps speak to rousing.

1560
04:41:50.000 --> 04:41:51.200
Because it spoke.

1561
04:41:55.520 --> 04:41:56.680
A starps.

1562
04:42:00.119 --> 04:42:16.040
Dream if that's what's. Need so if you're listening to this.

1563
04:42:18.040 --> 04:42:21.560
And w you need distinct, renaxation.

1564
04:42:21.520 --> 04:42:25.880
That's what you. Get if we need this.

1565
04:42:27.680 --> 04:42:29.159
To be all a slave.

1566
04:42:30.560 --> 04:42:35.040
Actually you might, gas.

1567
04:42:37.200 --> 04:42:37.439
That's.

1568
04:42:37.639 --> 04:42:46.599
Awesome whoever accuse my.

1569
04:42:49.560 --> 04:42:51.759
Listen that play bottom.

1570
04:42:52.720 --> 04:43:00.439
Podcast listening to me permission put no.

1571
04:43:00.639 --> 04:43:10.000
Mind in, fact give the.

1572
04:43:13.400 --> 04:43:15.200
Wind to rights.

1573
04:43:24.319 --> 04:43:41.080
The same if that's what he, wants and that's WHY

1574
04:43:41.080 --> 04:43:45.560
i works thoughts you.

1575
04:43:53.040 --> 04:43:54.720
Start to to.

1576
04:44:04.680 --> 04:44:16.560
Like it, said different thoughts of your. Body i'm just

1577
04:44:16.840 --> 04:44:35.439
so eyes to be so into my voice, said different

1578
04:44:35.639 --> 04:44:52.360
pots of your body. Fast it's that it's basically in the.

1579
04:44:52.520 --> 04:44:53.080
Sleep so.

1580
04:45:00.599 --> 04:45:06.400
You drive.

1581
04:45:09.560 --> 04:45:25.959
That dry continues to. Sleep that's some posture that when you, too.

1582
04:45:30.000 --> 04:45:31.159
You time.

1583
04:45:32.479 --> 04:45:44.880
You experienced the my amount of sleep at out of

1584
04:45:45.159 --> 04:46:27.360
sleeples as some accident side ice to bast put feel

1585
04:46:27.479 --> 04:47:30.439
that which is spreading les u sidles spark mass shop

1586
04:47:30.799 --> 04:49:49.720
and supers speaksiss. Siss let's fight this, AGAIN i said

1587
04:49:49.880 --> 04:50:35.159
this time. Before now you stand things feels kiss each

1588
04:50:35.439 --> 04:50:36.159
one in.

1589
04:50:43.119 --> 04:50:43.360
Five.

1590
04:50:43.520 --> 04:50:56.479
Hands she finds some bifelnds now seems to smelts. One

1591
04:51:02.000 --> 04:51:50.520
why had you stopped speak stick for your schechs struts

1592
04:52:01.880 --> 04:53:47.639
just such you sell you stop the shops set such shot.

1593
04:54:04.439 --> 04:54:04.720
If you.

1594
04:54:56.479 --> 04:58:12.880
Which people pass us what let's step as first interesting,

1595
04:58:13.119 --> 04:58:33.959
speak

1596
04:58:43.959 --> 04:59:01.439
Said the chist