Aug. 22, 2025

(music) (5 hours) Q&A Friday | LMBYTS #1419 | Jason Newland | 22nd August 2025

(music) (5 hours) Q&A Friday | LMBYTS #1419 | Jason Newland | 22nd August 2025
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Hello, and welcome to Jasondewland dot com. My name's Jason Newland.

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Please only listen when you can safely closure eyes. And

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this is Q and A Friday. Yees, it is Q

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and Ae Q and a.

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Q and ae Friday.

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Oh.

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Vinny is on the floor and he is chomping on

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a bony thing. So he's a he's a happy little bunny.

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He's had a good day, he said. We went to

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the pet shop or he equals it the sweet shop

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a couple of hours ago, and just yeah, I got

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him a few bits and bobs and he's very happy.

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He got to carry one home and he was like

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the proudest little doggie in the whole wide world. He's

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almost like he won the lottery.

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Couldn't be happier as The happiest I'll ever see is

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when he's doing that. So happy. Yeah, so yeah, Q

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and A Friday. I did promise that I would do.

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Oh cool, I'm trying to go to the page.

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Okay, two hundred and twenty one members. I'm sure I

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had two and twenty two members yesterday. Okay, this is

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my Jason Newland's boring group John. If you want to,

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if you want to if you don't want to, then don't.

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But if you do want to, then do so let's

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say a look, I've got a lot of questions to

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get through, so what I'm going to do is ask

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the very first question, which I said I'd promised that

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I would ask first. Okay, yeah, Megan. So I've got

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questions from ing, Ing, Christine, Meghan, Christine again, Robin, Hillary, Hope, Marry, Julie,

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Karen and Rich. If for any reason I have missed

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out anybody, then let me know and I'll edg you

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a question for next week. I've tried to kind of

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get questions from different places wherever I've been sent them

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into one place. So starting off with Megan, I hope

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you're all well, yeah, I just had a delivery of

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all the because I've been trying to stock up for

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the winter like a.

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Big fat bear that I am, and it's going quite well,

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actually it's quite It feels fairly nice, you know, to

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know that all the stuff.

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Is well, not everything I need, but a lot of

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stuff that I need, like soap, washing up, liquid, tea bags,

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toilet roll, wet whites, toothpaste, soap, deodorant, and trying to

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think what else. That's pretty much it. But all that

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stuff's now, i haven't got to buy anymore for the year.

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For the rest of the years, it's all all done.

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And you know, I can't even.

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And I've got a lot of water as well, so one, one, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nineteen,

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I've probably got about thirty days worth of world water.

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So it's you know, it's it's good.

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I'm pleased with that because I'm trying to just plan ahead,

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you know, because it's it's okay to not have any money.

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It's not okay, but you know, it's one thing not

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having much money. But if I've got what I need,

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then it doesn't matter that much.

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You know.

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If all I've got to do is just get the

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fir the bare basics food wise, you know, I can

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go and get some pasta and some milk, and you

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know it. It's it's just this is what I used

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to do in the past, stock up for like a

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year ahead, and it was nice. I just had it

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all day and I didn't have to think about it.

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I mean, in twenty twenty, I had enough toilet paper

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because some of my listeners sent me toilet paper in

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I had enough toilet paper to last me for about

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six months, maybe a year. Honestly, it was brilliant. Anyway,

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things make a lot of weird, grunty noises. You're okay,

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You're right, okay, always frowning. He's got a permanent frown

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in his face.

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Okay.

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So, Megan, I always want to ask a question, but

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I know it will never I never hear the answer

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because I fall asleep within the first ten minutes. Hopefully

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you get to hear the answer for this one, but

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I'll give it a go. He may be nastist before,

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but if you could eat one meal for the rest

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of your life, what would it be? For the record,

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mine would be jack of potato, baked beans, coalslaw, and

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in an ideal world where I was allowed to eat it,

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loads and loads of cheese, and yeah, I'd add my

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coalslaw and beans on the same plate. And it does

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go before anyone tells me otherwise. I hope you're doing okay, Thanks, Megan.

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I hope you are as well. I agree with you

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the last bit. It does go together. Why would why

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would it have to be on a separate plate? Mind you,

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If you go into a restaurant, I say restaurant. I

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mean probably pub pub food, but then sometimes you do

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get the cold slap being a little plate on its

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side when they're like a little dish.

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Yeah. I like to mix things up, really, Yeah, I

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like to mix things up. I like to mix things up.

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I'm just just checking something here because it's weird.

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But the hold on a second.

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Yeah, I just had to check something quickly because I

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thought the microphone wasn't working.

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But it does seem to me. So the same meal

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every day, i'd probably go for a roast dinner, like

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a Christmas dinner. Yeah, I mean I think if I

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had to have the same thing every day, the same

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meal every day, I probably would get a little bit bored. However,

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with a Christmas dinner, there's quite a lot of different things.

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So if I wasn't, you know, it'd be a big

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lots you know, turnips, turnips, parsnips, rather parsnips, every single vegetable,

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mashed potato, roast potato, Yorkshire puddings galore, and see, yeah,

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it'd be a plenty.

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You know, I could kind of if I was in

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a non roast potato day, I could just not eat

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the roast potatoes. So it'd be a big plate, and

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the desserts as well with ice cream. So I guess

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Christmas pudding with ice cream.

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Yeah, I could do that, although.

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I think if I was going to have something, i'd

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probably go more for something like an apple pie and ice.

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Cream or yeah, something like that.

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Yeah, I think so be. I think a roast in it.

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I do like a roast in it, and I really

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have one. But yeah, I think that's what I would

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choose every day this, although I roasting is not my

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favorite food, which makes me make sure, wonder why am

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I choosing that? But if I choose kind of my

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one of my favorite things, I don't. I like pizza,

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but I don't like eating pizza too often because it's

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a treat. You know, sweet corn and pineapple pizza is

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a treat. If I had it every day, I'd get

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very bored of it very quickly. Even if I had

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it twice a week, that would be too much. Once

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a week, yeah, once a week's okay, on a Saturday maybe,

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though I haven't done that for a bit. You used

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to do that because before I moved there, I used

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to get a pizza delivered, large pizza for ten pounds

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because they did a discount and it was like great,

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and then they put them up to like seventeen pound

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and now I think it's like twenty five pounds to

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get our pizza delivered like a large pizza.

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I know it's a.

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Ten year period, but blimey, blim in neck. So that's

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a big increase, isn't it.

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So yeah, that's kind of.

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I'd like to have a menu. I think if I

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could like have a menu, the same menu for every

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day with lots of different options, that would suit me better.

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But at the same time, I do kind of eat

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the same things every day. So if you was to say,

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what would I have for breakfast every day? Well, I

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do have the same thing for breakfast every day, and

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it's ready break with some dried fruit on top. So

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I have that every single morning, and it's my favorite

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meal of the day, if I'm honest. That's the one

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thing I probably enjoyed most because I've gone like, you know,

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eight ten whatever hours about eating and yeah, I enjoyed

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that meal.

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It's not a meal, is it, But I enjoy that

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little bit of food. Is it food? It's ready break food? Yeah, hmm,

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I think that'd be it.

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However, if it was like what, I don't know how

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much I'd enjoy eating it every day though.

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Yeah, I'm going to stick with that.

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A roast dinner, but you know, with lots of guards

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and side plates with stuff. You know, it's like Yorkshire

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put in as minute as I want. Yeah, so it'd

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be a meal, but it'd be on a table. Vinnie,

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please don't bark, please make please don't know. Don't turn

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your head because you're trying to hear more so, I'm

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trying to stop him from barking, and he's listening, but

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he's turned his head now like with his ears flicked up.

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Don't there's nothing of interest to hear, Vinnie. You've got

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me listening, listen to me and be bored like everyone else.

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Come on, don't need you need to be parking.

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He's been very playful today. It's been nice.

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So I hope I answered your question, Megan. I don't

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know if I have, but I hope I have. It's yeah,

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I felt I'm going to go for roast dinner Christmas dinner,

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but without the hat, without the Christmas crackers.

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Yeah, do you know? At Christmas? Right, I my.

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Three of my family members came down to where I lived,

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my town.

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It was beginning of Chris. It was like, I don't know,

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second first week of December something like that.

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On a Saturday, I couldn't book the place we normally

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go to, you know when we meet out for a

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cup of coffee or whatever.

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So what I did is because it was full up,

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like Christmas dinners were booked.

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So I contacted the local pub well just up the road,

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and they said and I did it online. They said, yeah,

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yess fine, what do you want to order? And I

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ordered the food, Christmas dinner and everything, expecting when I

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got there that it was going to be full of

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people having the Christmas dinner and it wasn't. It was

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just had a few people in there drinking, and we

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were the only table decorated for Christmas, all the tables

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that are in there, because it's quite a big pub

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with like a restaurant area as well, two restaurant areas actually,

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And I felt very self conscious, I really did.

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I didn't.

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I don't like, I don't know, being in public, and

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it might as well just have a big sign saying

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look at us, look at us.

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So I didn't. I couldn't relax, I couldn't relax.

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To be honest, that I just couldn't because I was

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in public and my dad insisted on me wearing a

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Christmas hat because he wanted to have picture took, And like,

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I don't mind if it's at home, if it's you know,

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inside a private place, but.

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I don't wear I don't want to wear a Christmas

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hat in public. Just it's just my little thing. I

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just don't.

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Yeah, it just doesn't fit well with me. But at

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the same time, it was still nice to see them,

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but just it wasn't didn't kind of go how I

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was expecting. Right inc asks me, do you prefer personal

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questions or general ones? Do you have questions that you

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didn't answer before because they were too personal? Did I

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have any questions? Well, I can't tell you what those

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questions are, can I because they were personal? And I

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don't mind what kind of questions I get. Really, I

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don't mind. If there's one I don't want to answer,

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then I'll just be vague and and I'll just make

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it a very short question. You have very short answer

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right next, Christine, I'm joking. So, yeah, I'm trying to

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think of any personal questions that I wasn't able to

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ask the answer over, I don't.

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I can't think of any offhand.

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There's been some questions put to me that were worded

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very very unusual.

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And I didn't quite understand.

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Really what the where the question was coming from. That

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that's quite rare.

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It's just my lack of not really getting what the

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question was.

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No, not really, I don't think there's been anything bearing

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in mind, I talk about my personal life, my personal thoughts,

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and I talk about bipolar and I talk about all

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my little bits and stuff that's going on in my life.

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All very boring stuff, of course, but I'm fairly open

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with what's going on.

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So yeah, I'm.

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It's yeah, I'm okay with any questions. If this one

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I don't want to answer, I just won't answer it,

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to be honest with you. If it's if the something that,

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but I haven't really had anything like that. No one's

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just come out and asked me a rude question. So

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it's but then I wouldn't expect that because this is

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my Facebook group, and I wouldn't expect someone on this

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group to be having a go at me.

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I'd like to think they wouldn't.

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Please don't just love me, Please love me, so yeah,

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I can't think of anything that I didn't answer.

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I think.

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My brothers is a bit of a touchy subject, to

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be fair, like family stuff.

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I don't really I know.

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I've talked about my dad a little bit, talked about

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my stepmums, but I don't really go into any kind

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of detail, and I don't go into detail about my

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family or that dog that's by I can bless him.

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The councilors started working on the flat downstairs, so I'm

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sure I heard someone shout out.

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What's all this pain doing everywhere?

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Because someone's like sprayed paint all in the hallway and stuff.

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I don't know why, bless him. Oh yeah, the.

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Uncle sausages funerals next Thursday, So that's all gone ahead now.

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So it's definitely going to go ahead because we managed

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to find the correct information. So yeah, it's definitely going

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ahead on Thursday, next Thursday, so I possibly won't be

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making a recording that day, and I've got to find

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a way to get out of bed.

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On that morning. I don't know how.

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The twenty eighth, so it's two days after my birthday. Yeah,

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fifty five years old on Tuesday, this coming Tuesday, fifty five.

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Fifty five. Even if you.

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Say it quick, it still sounds old. Fifty five still

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sounds old.

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Ah.

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So Christine asked me, does the chippy van still come

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to your flats?

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Yeah?

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I mean it doesn't come directly to where I live,

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but it comes like in the local area. And Uncle

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Sausages was their most regular customer for years and years

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and years. They even used to buy him Christmas presents. Seriously,

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the Christmas said, actually buy him up and they bought

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a box of chocolates last year. He's a regular, so

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they know that they can come here every single week

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the year and it won't be a wasted journey. I mean,

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they've got lots of stops along the way and then

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a lot of stops probably afterwards as well.

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But he's always there.

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He's you know, sometimes I had to kind of let

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him know that because he wasn't hearing the.

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Truck anymore.

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He was getting the van, so but I used to

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kind of let him know. But that's only like more recently,

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like the last.

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Six months or so. Before that, he was always he

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go out there and just wait. So yeah, still still there.

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I saw them.

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The thing is, the last two weeks I've wanted to

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go down there and tell them I just couldn't face it.

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To be honest, I couldn't face going down there, and

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just yeah, I couldn't face it. Last Thursday and last night,

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I think it was I couldn't face couldn't, just couldn't.

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I need to and I really do need to, because

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you know, they really liked him and he liked them,

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and they just they talk about sport, and cricket was

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the main thing that they discussed because I think they're from.

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I think they were.

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They supported Pakistan and Uncle's Sausages supported Northern Ireland, but

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he also kind of supported England as well, if you know,

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if Northern Island weren't playing.

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And but he liked everyone.

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He liked all teams, whether it was Australia, where whoever,

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South Africa. He just was a big cricket fan. But

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it was also a huge.

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I don't think it was not all sports, but definitely

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most of the sports that are big in this country.

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So football is his main thing, and then you've got rugby, cricket,

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badminton probably not, I don't think. So what's the other one? Golf?

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He never mentioned racing, car driving, so like f one,

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so I don't think Formula one, isn't it. It's such

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a long word to say Formula one.

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No, f one. It's too much effort to say formula So.

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He never mentioned liking that, but that I don't know

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football football?

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Is it boxing?

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He kind of He was mildly interested if it was

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someone from Northern Ireland because that was where he was from.

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That's where he was born. He told me he was born.

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He told me he was Scottish.

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Yeah, and I thought by that he meant he was

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born in Scotland.

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He wasn't.

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He was born in Northern Ireland. His parents were Scottish

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or one of his parents are Scottish, so he's used

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all armed Scottish.

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It's like, well, yeah, yeah.

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And no.

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I mean.

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Both my name's parents were Irish, So that makes her Irish,

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doesn't it it? All of her ancestors probably going back

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thousands of years or Irish. There's a good charts You

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could really say she's Irish because both her parents are Irish. However,

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she was born in London, so she was always in

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English as well. Whether or not she had a dual

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passport on nationality, I don't know, but I don't really

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know how it all works. But she was English or

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British as well and Irish. But it was weird because

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I found his passport, not his passport is yeah, I

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found his passport. I had to find that, but that

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was when he was in hospital. He asked me to

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do that, and then his next to kin asked me

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to find if I could his birth certificate. I took

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a lot of finding, but I did in the end,

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and there was just a replace for a birth certificate

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that he got about twenty five years ago, and it

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says on there that he was born in Northern Ireland,

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wasn't born in Scotland.

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It's like, why did you today? He was sticking to it.

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I'm Scottish, Okay, do you have so? Yeah, the jippyvan

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does still come. I try not to go down there

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because you know what, one sausage costs about three pound.

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It's a big sausage, but still three pound. And I

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can get like a whole pack of sausages I can cook.

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Not that I generally am much of a like a cook,

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but just three pounds for sausage just seems like a lot.

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Maybe I'm behind the times. It seems like a lot

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of money for just a sausage three pound. Can I

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say one more time? It just seems it seems like

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a lot.

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That's it. That's all I got to say.

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And Christine, I'm getting through these quite quickly. And I

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Christine asks, have you ever tried then tiliquism as you're

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very funny and good with dual dialogue?

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Well, thank you very much, Christine.

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I do actually have a thing Tilly cuistal. That's not

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weird one, it's true. And I did do a video

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on YouTube a yeares ago, ages and ages ago. But

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I did have Vinnie at the time, and Vinnie did

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not like it. So I don't know if i'd had

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how long i'd had Vinnie four at this point.

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So I ordered this thing off of.

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I guess probably Amazon, and so I'm doing. I'll tell

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you what all I found strange is if you're not

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resting your arm or anything, it does take its toll

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on your arm holding this thing up all the time

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and just loving your hands and stuff.

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I don't remember the videos on there.

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It was let me boy you to Sleep video. It's

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on YouTube somewhere. I should try and find it. Just

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try and find it. I don't even know if it'll

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be on.

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Here YouTube YouTube, because there'll be a picture of me

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on there if I put in search. Let me bore

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you to sleep, let me boil you to sleep, just

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skipping down. There's too many. There's way too many. I'm like, yeah,

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take me quite a while to try and find that.

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At the moment, I every single new recording I do

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gets released onto YouTube as part of my podcast, so

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all six versions get uploaded and.

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Two.

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There's way too many.

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It's yeah, yeah, it's I don't think I'm going to

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be like this will take There's probably a quicker way

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to find it than the way I've chosen.

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Because it's it might have been a live one. No,

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I don't think I did it. It might have been.

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I don't think I did, though, but it might have been.

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I'm just looking. I'm looking, and I'm looking. I'm looking,

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looking looking, dibdy do dibd d look in I'm looking.

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No, anyway, it's definitely it's one where I'm actually on

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the camera with Vinnie for part of it.

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And the dolly that the doll vent Tuloquis doll.

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There's too many. I've made too many recordings. It's very

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difficult to find stuff, very difficult. Indeed. Ooh, look at

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this number seven hundred and twenty nine Let Me Boy

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to Sleep live stream, eighteenth September two ty and twenty one.

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So I'm now double that amount of recordings. So it's

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now fourteen one hundred and something. So well that's called

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one view successful.

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Yeah.

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No, it's got to be somewhere. It's got to be.

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It's just gotta be a Oh. I found it. It's

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called shout Out.

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Welcome to cats sleepy.

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H Hello, welcome to right. I found out I was

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played the first little bit here sleep. My name is Jason, and.

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This is.

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It sounds like me, doesn't it? Podcast to help you too? Right?

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So this podcast episode is called shout Out to Tammy

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Let Me Boys Sleep. It's number one and eighteen and

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it was like the seventeenth of July twenty twenty three,

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and it's me with a Ventiliquis dummy.

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Now, what I got try and do is do it?

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How can I do the mute?

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Maybe?

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If you want to sleep? Yeah, else, listen watching this

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video video, you can.

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Say, right, the volume's not working, so I'm gonna just

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turn it off.

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Whoops, So I'm back to where was So?

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Yeah, that was the one, so I've done one before.

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I don't know if I actually did ventilyquism and on

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a podcast, it would be kind of weird.

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I was like to say, I'd like you to introduce

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you to Willy fit Willy, the.

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My friend knew, my new friend Willy. Say hello, Willy. Oh,

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so how are you getting on today?

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Oh? Really? Her per Oh, I know I do what

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he just said. The thing is, you can't see me,

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So why am I? Why am I? I might as

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well just talk? Then it's not a ventual equism, is it?

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Then it? You know?

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I mean, I can pretend I've got something my hand

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inside something, okay, phraser, I could. I could pretend that

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I've got like a Ventiloquist doll.

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Here, but you wouldn't know if I have or not,

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because it's it's not you can't see me. I did.

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I wanted to be a ventiloquist.

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I cannot not like full on, you know, not in

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a way that I wanted to be a kung fu

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expert and a cloudy man and a singer and all

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the things that I wanted to do when I was younger.

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But I thought it'd be fun.

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Because I grew up and There was quite a few

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ventiloquists around when I was a kid on TV, like

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Keith Harris with all Ville and Cuddles. There was Spit

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the Dog. There was City and Sweep. I mean yeah,

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there there were puppets. There was the Muppet Show, and

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there was.

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Things uh burder b. I'm trying to think of others.

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But there was a few EMU.

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That was and yes, there was quite a few different

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ones when I was a kid. And Orville, well, yeah,

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Orville was my favorite. But I did like the monkey

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as well. So like that he had the monkey and Orvil.

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He had different characters, but Orvil and what was his name?

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The monkey?

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He kept saying, I hit La Doc, I hit La Doc,

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and all, oh, I love you. So I did a voice.

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I had a number one hit. I think I wish

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I could fly right up to the sky, but I can't.

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You can. I can't. I wish I could do the

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00:36:18.840 --> 00:36:20.960
things that the other birds do.

485
00:36:21.719 --> 00:36:22.159
You can.

486
00:36:23.199 --> 00:36:29.360
I can't look over fool? Who is your very best friend?

487
00:36:30.159 --> 00:36:35.639
You are? I want to help you mend your broken heart?

488
00:36:36.519 --> 00:36:40.920
Now listen to me, Ovihiel, oh, Phil, Yeah, who is

489
00:36:40.960 --> 00:36:45.280
your very best friends staring at me? I want to

490
00:36:45.360 --> 00:36:49.159
help your men. You are I want I told you

491
00:36:49.159 --> 00:36:54.679
you are, I want to help you mend your broken heart.

492
00:36:57.679 --> 00:37:01.280
I realized that he got he can himself more versus

493
00:37:01.360 --> 00:37:05.880
in that song than he gave Orville, didn't he. I

494
00:37:05.920 --> 00:37:10.559
mean Orville's only real verse was like, I wish I

495
00:37:10.559 --> 00:37:14.639
could fly around top to the scab, but a cat,

496
00:37:17.119 --> 00:37:20.079
I wish I could do the things that the other

497
00:37:20.280 --> 00:37:23.599
birds do, but a can't.

498
00:37:25.719 --> 00:37:29.639
And then the other bits like you are, you are,

499
00:37:30.639 --> 00:37:36.559
and that's it? Mind you did do he sung with

500
00:37:36.920 --> 00:37:40.159
Keith Harris. No, he wouldn't have sung with Keith Harris

501
00:37:40.159 --> 00:37:46.239
because that would be impossible, isn't it Now he sung

502
00:37:46.280 --> 00:37:51.320
a little bit of someone part of the sentence, Yeah,

503
00:37:51.800 --> 00:37:53.039
anyway that I kind.

504
00:37:52.880 --> 00:37:55.199
Of wanted to do. I'd tell you who was my

505
00:37:55.559 --> 00:38:03.079
biggest my biggest, biggest influence as a kid, like quite

506
00:38:03.119 --> 00:38:08.599
a young kid comedy wise, and that was Kenny Everett.

507
00:38:10.599 --> 00:38:15.159
I loved Kenny Everett and he was hilarious and I

508
00:38:15.159 --> 00:38:18.360
think he still is hilarious. I mean he's no longer

509
00:38:18.400 --> 00:38:26.480
with us, but he was funny, just wacky and he Yeah,

510
00:38:26.519 --> 00:38:35.840
it's really, my personal opinion, one of the greatest comedy shows,

511
00:38:35.920 --> 00:38:40.400
like on a Saturday evening kind of comedy show because

512
00:38:40.400 --> 00:38:43.119
it was so irreverent, irreverend, is that the right word.

513
00:38:43.360 --> 00:38:48.679
It was so out there. I don't know, It's just

514
00:38:49.519 --> 00:38:54.480
it was great, really great. And he was so funny.

515
00:38:54.920 --> 00:38:58.719
And I used to he had all these characters, and

516
00:38:58.840 --> 00:39:01.519
I kind of learned the whole his whole thing.

517
00:39:01.880 --> 00:39:03.679
And I used to do do.

518
00:39:05.400 --> 00:39:07.039
I think me and my brother we used to do

519
00:39:07.960 --> 00:39:10.000
entertaining each other on the beach in the summer, and

520
00:39:10.840 --> 00:39:12.960
we'd do the characters, or perhaps I'd do it to

521
00:39:13.239 --> 00:39:17.239
complete strangers if they were stuck in the sand or something,

522
00:39:17.400 --> 00:39:19.039
if someone who buried them in the sand. I think,

523
00:39:19.159 --> 00:39:21.880
all captive audience, and I'll be going and.

524
00:39:22.159 --> 00:39:24.760
Done at the best possible taste.

525
00:39:25.519 --> 00:39:35.760
Or it's not here and other characters. Yeah, I loved, loved, loved, loved, loved, loved.

526
00:39:36.079 --> 00:39:38.480
I would have liked to have met him.

527
00:39:38.719 --> 00:39:39.159
He would so.

528
00:39:39.320 --> 00:39:44.239
He was a comedy hero of mine. And he wasn't

529
00:39:44.239 --> 00:39:48.239
a stand up comedian. He was a DJ, but he

530
00:39:48.320 --> 00:39:51.760
had the funny jingles. I used to listen to him.

531
00:39:51.760 --> 00:39:53.360
So I listened to him when I was a little kid.

532
00:39:54.239 --> 00:39:57.840
I don't know, eight, nine, ten, I don't know what years,

533
00:39:58.039 --> 00:40:02.000
what kind of period it was. And then when I

534
00:40:02.039 --> 00:40:04.559
was in my early twenties, I used to listen to

535
00:40:04.639 --> 00:40:05.440
him on.

536
00:40:07.280 --> 00:40:08.880
Radio two.

537
00:40:08.960 --> 00:40:11.079
I think it might have been because we had a

538
00:40:11.199 --> 00:40:13.920
radio one all the time and we used to listen

539
00:40:13.960 --> 00:40:14.320
to that.

540
00:40:15.079 --> 00:40:15.559
It might have been.

541
00:40:15.880 --> 00:40:19.519
It might have been Radio Gold or Capital Gold, but anyway,

542
00:40:21.360 --> 00:40:24.719
very funny and he had all these jingles that were funny,

543
00:40:24.760 --> 00:40:25.440
and he was just.

544
00:40:27.599 --> 00:40:30.719
So creative with the whole thing.

545
00:40:31.719 --> 00:40:39.440
So yeah, my top my favorite DJ of all time. Yeah,

546
00:40:39.960 --> 00:40:47.360
him my favorite comedy show. Not my favorite comedy show,

547
00:40:47.360 --> 00:40:49.920
I'd be wrong to say that, but it's the one

548
00:40:49.960 --> 00:40:55.840
that I probably enjoyed the most watching would be Kenny

549
00:40:55.840 --> 00:40:58.519
of It because it was just so funny.

550
00:40:58.599 --> 00:41:01.440
I just I thought it's hilarious.

551
00:41:03.679 --> 00:41:08.519
Now, Christine, that is not the question you asked. I've

552
00:41:08.559 --> 00:41:10.840
answered a different question that's not.

553
00:41:10.760 --> 00:41:16.719
Been asked, which will happen occasionally, as anyone that listens

554
00:41:16.760 --> 00:41:17.360
to me will know.

555
00:41:17.519 --> 00:41:23.920
But I tear it sometimes. I quite enjoyed doing the

556
00:41:24.039 --> 00:41:27.480
duel dialogue thing, and but I just do it when

557
00:41:27.559 --> 00:41:29.199
it comes, you know, when it.

558
00:41:29.280 --> 00:41:34.920
Just when it's organic and it just comes from nowhere

559
00:41:34.920 --> 00:41:35.159
and I.

560
00:41:35.119 --> 00:41:37.840
Don't know it's going to happen, and it just happens,

561
00:41:38.039 --> 00:41:40.559
and I just I just go along with it. And

562
00:41:40.639 --> 00:41:43.599
sometimes it goes on for ages and ages and ages.

563
00:41:43.880 --> 00:41:48.320
Other times this is very short, and I've done nearly

564
00:41:48.679 --> 00:41:51.039
like I've done a whole recordings in the past, that

565
00:41:51.159 --> 00:41:57.159
being practically a dual dialogue, just like a conversation for

566
00:41:57.280 --> 00:42:01.039
the whole thing between two people that aren't even there,

567
00:42:01.079 --> 00:42:06.159
you know, and it goes off into a different it's

568
00:42:06.239 --> 00:42:18.320
a different dimension. It's very strange. However, however, I was

569
00:42:18.360 --> 00:42:19.039
at a wedding.

570
00:42:19.960 --> 00:42:22.000
I mightn't wonder why I'm going with this. I was

571
00:42:22.000 --> 00:42:25.199
at a wedding. What's the wedding got to do with this? Well,

572
00:42:25.199 --> 00:42:26.800
if you listen, you'll find out.

573
00:42:27.920 --> 00:42:29.880
I was at a wedding, a family wedding. I think

574
00:42:29.920 --> 00:42:33.920
it was my I don't know, it was someone's wedding.

575
00:42:35.360 --> 00:42:37.000
And it's probably about.

576
00:42:39.800 --> 00:42:41.840
Eight years ago, maybe nine years ago.

577
00:42:43.639 --> 00:42:46.199
Yes, it's quite a long time ago, maybe ten years,

578
00:42:46.280 --> 00:42:47.320
quite a long time ago.

579
00:42:49.199 --> 00:42:50.599
And my dad was strunk.

580
00:42:51.760 --> 00:42:57.920
Now, my dad's really nice, drunk like, he's the most

581
00:42:58.039 --> 00:43:03.199
chilled out, relaxed he drunk that there is. And I've

582
00:43:03.239 --> 00:43:07.880
only ever seen him drunk, probably three or four times,

583
00:43:07.920 --> 00:43:09.400
and the whole time i've known.

584
00:43:09.320 --> 00:43:13.599
Him, really, it just never really he doesn't get it,

585
00:43:13.599 --> 00:43:17.960
doesn't really drink to excess, and I think he just

586
00:43:18.039 --> 00:43:21.679
paces it throughout the day. But yeah, it doesn't. I've

587
00:43:21.679 --> 00:43:24.840
not seen him drunk very often. He did get that.

588
00:43:24.960 --> 00:43:26.719
He got drunk one Christmas.

589
00:43:27.000 --> 00:43:27.480
This was.

590
00:43:29.760 --> 00:43:33.719
Probably when I was in my twenties, maybe by thirties.

591
00:43:34.599 --> 00:43:36.440
But he just overdid it a little bit and he

592
00:43:36.480 --> 00:43:39.320
had a bit too much to drink before dinner and

593
00:43:39.320 --> 00:43:41.480
he ended up having to go to bed. But it

594
00:43:41.519 --> 00:43:44.199
was up a few hours later and everything's fine. It's

595
00:43:44.280 --> 00:43:47.440
just it just it just overdid it a little bit.

596
00:43:48.239 --> 00:43:58.559
Because he is mister Christmas. He absolutely loves Christmas. It's yeah,

597
00:43:59.519 --> 00:44:03.079
in some ways he turns into Father Christmas or Santa

598
00:44:03.119 --> 00:44:07.760
Claus when he's drunk, like whatever time of the year

599
00:44:07.840 --> 00:44:16.719
is it is, he's he's kind of that jovial, happy kind.

600
00:44:17.559 --> 00:44:19.679
I don't know how to explain. He's just really, you know,

601
00:44:20.320 --> 00:44:21.920
so he's I want to.

602
00:44:21.880 --> 00:44:27.440
Say, good drunk. He's not drunk, hasn't fallen over, but just.

603
00:44:27.480 --> 00:44:38.039
You know, but drunk. You know. Anyway, he was sitting

604
00:44:38.199 --> 00:44:41.480
on it at the bar. So this is after all

605
00:44:41.519 --> 00:44:45.880
the wedding stuff and all the free food, which is

606
00:44:45.920 --> 00:44:51.679
why I went, and we're at the bar. I was drinking.

607
00:44:53.000 --> 00:44:56.840
Bearing in mind I don't really drink anymore since I

608
00:44:56.920 --> 00:44:58.960
moved here, I stopped drinking regularly.

609
00:45:00.519 --> 00:45:03.920
So ten years ago I still had my weekend laggers,

610
00:45:05.519 --> 00:45:12.360
and then probably within a year of being here, I

611
00:45:12.400 --> 00:45:16.559
wasn't hardly drinking anything. It just I got bored of them.

612
00:45:16.559 --> 00:45:20.039
I didn't. Maybe it's because I suddenly had a bit

613
00:45:20.039 --> 00:45:26.960
of space for my own i'd work towards getting this place. Well,

614
00:45:27.119 --> 00:45:32.039
you know, I didn't need that. I didn't need it anymore.

615
00:45:32.119 --> 00:45:35.320
Not Perhaps I don't know if I ever needed.

616
00:45:35.039 --> 00:45:35.440
It, but.

617
00:45:37.000 --> 00:45:37.400
I did.

618
00:45:38.079 --> 00:45:41.239
I felt I did. It was in the past. It

619
00:45:41.360 --> 00:45:43.360
was definitely self medication.

620
00:45:43.039 --> 00:45:45.039
But.

621
00:45:45.719 --> 00:45:51.320
Just prior to moving in here, I was it was

622
00:45:51.480 --> 00:45:55.320
pretty much only weekends at that point, wasn't every day,

623
00:45:57.239 --> 00:45:58.599
and then it turned into never.

624
00:46:01.960 --> 00:46:04.079
And I really I don't haven't.

625
00:46:03.880 --> 00:46:08.559
Drunk alcohol on any kind of regular basis for about

626
00:46:08.639 --> 00:46:12.960
nine years. So when I go to a hot like

627
00:46:13.000 --> 00:46:16.880
an event like a wedding, and I've been.

628
00:46:16.719 --> 00:46:25.000
To one, two, maybe three.

629
00:46:27.039 --> 00:46:35.360
Weddings since I moved in here, maybe two maybe three,

630
00:46:36.960 --> 00:46:41.440
and that's the one event I seem to not be

631
00:46:41.480 --> 00:46:46.760
able to do without drinking. It's like a mixture is

632
00:46:46.840 --> 00:46:50.239
too many people. It's a little bit of emotional because

633
00:46:50.280 --> 00:46:52.800
you know, I don't know. It brings up emotions, I suppose,

634
00:46:54.079 --> 00:46:59.880
and alcohol is the only thing that seems to get

635
00:46:59.920 --> 00:47:03.639
me through it. But it's very rare because I don't

636
00:47:03.679 --> 00:47:07.039
go to many weddings. You know, there's two in the

637
00:47:07.079 --> 00:47:11.559
last ten years or three, and before that I can't

638
00:47:11.559 --> 00:47:14.280
even remember. I mean, I got invited to be invited

639
00:47:14.280 --> 00:47:18.480
to weddings I've not gone to just because I don't

640
00:47:18.519 --> 00:47:26.639
really I don't really like them really, too many, too.

641
00:47:26.480 --> 00:47:35.079
Many people, too many people. And funerals. Never drink at

642
00:47:36.679 --> 00:47:37.039
I know.

643
00:47:37.320 --> 00:47:39.559
I know better than that. I would not drink il

644
00:47:39.639 --> 00:47:43.880
caoll at a funeral. So that's something that I've kind

645
00:47:43.880 --> 00:47:49.760
of definitely know about myself. So that's that's good.

646
00:47:50.280 --> 00:47:52.519
It's good to it's good to have a little bit

647
00:47:52.559 --> 00:48:01.119
of self awareness. I suppose. Why am I talking about this?

648
00:48:02.559 --> 00:48:06.079
Oh yeah, my dad said the wedding, my dad was

649
00:48:06.400 --> 00:48:10.199
sitting on a bar stool at the bar. Me and

650
00:48:10.280 --> 00:48:12.519
my little brother walk up to him because we're just chatting,

651
00:48:12.519 --> 00:48:13.280
and we walk.

652
00:48:13.199 --> 00:48:16.039
Up to him and.

653
00:48:15.000 --> 00:48:22.639
He's he's on the phone, so he puts the phone

654
00:48:22.679 --> 00:48:26.039
to his ear and he starts talking, and he's having

655
00:48:26.079 --> 00:48:30.440
this conversation and he said, O wait a.

656
00:48:30.440 --> 00:48:33.960
Minute to us, and he's talking and it's the weirdest

657
00:48:34.000 --> 00:48:38.800
conversation ever, and it's very funny as well. So you

658
00:48:38.800 --> 00:48:44.639
can only hear his side of the dialogue, and it

659
00:48:44.719 --> 00:48:48.320
goes on for about ten minutes. So me and my

660
00:48:48.360 --> 00:48:50.800
brother are laughing at some of the stuff he's saying,

661
00:48:53.239 --> 00:48:55.280
and my brother takes the phone out his hand.

662
00:48:55.320 --> 00:48:58.320
He said, there's no one there. So my dad was

663
00:48:58.360 --> 00:49:03.360
just making up a conversation on the spot, just to

664
00:49:03.559 --> 00:49:09.320
entertain us or maybe to entertain himself as well. And

665
00:49:09.400 --> 00:49:15.480
it's like, okay, that's interesting because that is something that

666
00:49:15.559 --> 00:49:18.519
I tend to be able to do as well.

667
00:49:19.000 --> 00:49:22.239
I'm not saying that it's a special gift, special gift.

668
00:49:22.679 --> 00:49:28.639
I'm sure everyone could do it. But I remember years ago,

669
00:49:28.719 --> 00:49:30.519
like when I first started.

670
00:49:31.639 --> 00:49:35.559
Doing these type of recordings, I did used to call

671
00:49:35.599 --> 00:49:36.760
them let me boy to Sleep.

672
00:49:36.960 --> 00:49:39.719
I used to call them what did?

673
00:49:39.719 --> 00:49:42.840
I used to call them thinking out loud or pretending

674
00:49:42.880 --> 00:49:45.239
to think that was another one. I used to call

675
00:49:45.280 --> 00:49:51.360
them pretending to think that's good. And I had a

676
00:49:51.360 --> 00:49:53.719
lot of different I had a few different versions of

677
00:49:53.760 --> 00:49:58.960
this before I did this, going back, you know, thirteen fifteen,

678
00:49:59.199 --> 00:50:06.480
sixteen years and I had a friend that told me

679
00:50:06.599 --> 00:50:11.639
that I needed psychiatric help because I was doing this

680
00:50:11.880 --> 00:50:17.440
like stream of consciousness conversation going on and he thought

681
00:50:17.480 --> 00:50:21.440
I was ill. Well, actually I was just having a

682
00:50:21.440 --> 00:50:27.360
bit of fun. Bless him or her, whoever it might be.

683
00:50:30.880 --> 00:50:34.239
So no, I've never tried ventiloquism, not in front of

684
00:50:34.320 --> 00:50:40.199
an audience, although I do think I might have gone

685
00:50:40.239 --> 00:50:44.079
on stage with a ventiloquist doll once and just had

686
00:50:44.079 --> 00:50:47.840
it in my arm and ignored it and just did

687
00:50:47.880 --> 00:50:48.599
my act.

688
00:50:50.039 --> 00:50:51.800
Because I thought that would be funny thing to do.

689
00:50:54.039 --> 00:50:58.360
I actually one of my first ever gigs, it might

690
00:50:58.440 --> 00:50:59.320
be my first gig.

691
00:51:02.079 --> 00:51:04.800
I was at the Comedy Comedy Club and had a

692
00:51:06.119 --> 00:51:08.599
new act night and it's one of my first gigs

693
00:51:08.599 --> 00:51:09.760
I'd ever done in London.

694
00:51:11.559 --> 00:51:14.360
So I go on stage.

695
00:51:14.679 --> 00:51:19.880
I had a piece of paper with some jokes, none

696
00:51:19.960 --> 00:51:22.320
of which I don't think got to laugh, but anyway,

697
00:51:22.320 --> 00:51:24.199
it was still you know something, and.

698
00:51:27.039 --> 00:51:29.079
This I did get a laugh from. What I did

699
00:51:29.119 --> 00:51:32.559
here is I picked something out of the audience. I said,

700
00:51:32.719 --> 00:51:35.280
are you okay to come on stage? And a big,

701
00:51:35.360 --> 00:51:38.920
hefty bloke gets on stage. What your name, he said, said,

702
00:51:39.880 --> 00:51:41.159
and I said, I'm Jason.

703
00:51:41.239 --> 00:51:41.400
Hi.

704
00:51:41.960 --> 00:51:43.760
I said, if you just stand there, please just hold

705
00:51:43.760 --> 00:51:48.760
this piece of paper, and then I ignored him for

706
00:51:48.800 --> 00:51:53.159
the next five minutes and he's laughing his head off,

707
00:51:54.400 --> 00:51:58.039
and the audience are laughing, not at me, but at him.

708
00:51:58.599 --> 00:52:03.599
So technically it was quite a good gig, but it

709
00:52:03.639 --> 00:52:04.559
wasn't due to me.

710
00:52:04.679 --> 00:52:05.599
It was due to him.

711
00:52:06.079 --> 00:52:09.239
I didn't realize he was also a comedian as well,

712
00:52:09.840 --> 00:52:13.639
and we became good friends after that because he was

713
00:52:14.079 --> 00:52:16.400
What was weird is he was on right after me,

714
00:52:18.679 --> 00:52:21.480
which I didn't know. This is the first time been

715
00:52:21.519 --> 00:52:24.800
in that club, so I didn't know anybody. I mean,

716
00:52:24.840 --> 00:52:28.320
I can't believe he got on stage, you know, the

717
00:52:28.360 --> 00:52:33.159
fact he was sitting in the front row just before

718
00:52:33.159 --> 00:52:35.719
he gets on stage. I could never do that. I'd

719
00:52:35.719 --> 00:52:38.280
have to be at the bar, pacing or something. He

720
00:52:38.320 --> 00:52:41.760
was so chilled out and relaxed. And then he went

721
00:52:41.800 --> 00:52:45.079
on and got his own gigs, started his own comedy clubs,

722
00:52:45.559 --> 00:52:49.159
and he always gave me work, whether paid or unpaid.

723
00:52:49.159 --> 00:52:52.920
He'd always always get me on the stage.

724
00:52:52.920 --> 00:52:56.000
Because he liked my act. He liked me as well,

725
00:52:56.039 --> 00:52:58.519
but he liked my act. He thought it was funny.

726
00:53:00.199 --> 00:53:02.440
The only person in London that thought I was funny.

727
00:53:02.480 --> 00:53:04.800
But hey, at least one person did.

728
00:53:04.920 --> 00:53:10.960
He A.

729
00:53:10.719 --> 00:53:13.920
Robin asks, how do you like your beans on toast?

730
00:53:14.679 --> 00:53:23.280
Traditional or with additional toppings? Hmmm, I don't have beans

731
00:53:23.320 --> 00:53:26.760
on toast very often, although I've just been going through

732
00:53:26.800 --> 00:53:29.920
all the stuff that I've got storing up, and I've

733
00:53:29.920 --> 00:53:32.079
got a load of dog food that I put into

734
00:53:36.239 --> 00:53:40.400
two cupboards and some treats or one the dog foods

735
00:53:40.400 --> 00:53:42.719
on one shelf, the treats on another shelf, and on

736
00:53:42.760 --> 00:53:46.559
the other shelf of this cupboard is tins of baked beans.

737
00:53:47.320 --> 00:53:50.679
So I have been thinking of beans just for that

738
00:53:50.719 --> 00:53:53.719
period of time. But yeah, beans were definitely in my

739
00:53:53.840 --> 00:53:59.360
mind at some point for a few seconds today. Tamar

740
00:53:59.480 --> 00:54:03.920
to catch is quite a nice little addition. I think

741
00:54:04.119 --> 00:54:12.360
the beans on toast cheese is a nice addition. What

742
00:54:12.440 --> 00:54:16.440
I used to do in the nineties, I used to

743
00:54:16.559 --> 00:54:24.519
put the toast underneath the grill, Yeah, the toast underneath

744
00:54:24.519 --> 00:54:29.679
the grill, and then I'd do cheese on toast, and

745
00:54:29.719 --> 00:54:36.800
then I would heat up the beans, put some cheese

746
00:54:36.840 --> 00:54:40.480
in with the beans as well. Melted and then poured

747
00:54:40.519 --> 00:54:43.199
that on top of the beans on toast the cheese.

748
00:54:43.880 --> 00:54:49.239
So cheese on toast with beans. So bean on toast. Yeah,

749
00:54:49.360 --> 00:54:53.840
cheese on toast with beans and cheese. So that's kind

750
00:54:53.840 --> 00:54:56.719
of beans on toast, but with two lots of cheese.

751
00:54:58.880 --> 00:55:03.760
Sometimes I would add something like some fish fingers, so

752
00:55:04.159 --> 00:55:07.320
cheese on toast, fish fingers on top of the toast,

753
00:55:08.039 --> 00:55:13.760
and then the beans with some cheese and maybe some

754
00:55:13.840 --> 00:55:22.159
tomato ketchup on top and a pint of milk. And

755
00:55:22.199 --> 00:55:25.280
that was something that i'd have fairly regularly, you know,

756
00:55:25.920 --> 00:55:33.679
various different types of kind of that. It would be

757
00:55:33.719 --> 00:55:39.920
different things. Sometimes it'd be no fish fingers, sometimes it.

758
00:55:39.800 --> 00:55:43.199
Would be yes.

759
00:55:43.280 --> 00:55:48.079
Sometimes I'd do it with sweet corn. So cheese on

760
00:55:48.159 --> 00:55:53.199
toast with fish fingers and then sweet corn on top.

761
00:55:54.400 --> 00:55:58.320
Now I realized that's not answering the question about how

762
00:55:58.360 --> 00:56:01.519
do I like my beans on toast? Because you didn't

763
00:56:01.559 --> 00:56:05.079
say sweet corn on toast, did you? And sweet corn

764
00:56:05.159 --> 00:56:09.280
on toast might sound like a weird thing, but actually,

765
00:56:10.599 --> 00:56:13.960
if you've got some cheese and something else on them

766
00:56:14.000 --> 00:56:20.679
as well. Sweet orn not not like a big tube thing,

767
00:56:20.800 --> 00:56:23.960
you know how it's grown, but you know, individual sweet

768
00:56:24.039 --> 00:56:35.320
on pieces. Mm hmm, can be quite quite yummy. I

769
00:56:35.320 --> 00:56:41.760
wouldn't go for brown sauce. Definitely tomato sauce if.

770
00:56:41.639 --> 00:56:44.719
I had to choose. Not really a big.

771
00:56:44.519 --> 00:56:49.880
Brown sauce eater gives me a little bit of it's

772
00:56:49.920 --> 00:56:52.760
a little bit too spicy, a little bit too or

773
00:56:53.440 --> 00:57:00.760
for me. Hillary asks, can you listen to the song

774
00:57:00.960 --> 00:57:10.880
save My jelly Roll and critique it? Not what I'm

775
00:57:10.920 --> 00:57:11.960
doing the podcast?

776
00:57:13.199 --> 00:57:16.199
Is it your song? Hillary?

777
00:57:16.679 --> 00:57:18.159
I love I try to have a little look at

778
00:57:18.159 --> 00:57:25.400
listen to it another time. But maybe I'm just wondering

779
00:57:25.440 --> 00:57:29.159
what it's about now? Is it a weird Let me

780
00:57:29.239 --> 00:57:31.079
just have a look. I'm what I'm going to do

781
00:57:31.360 --> 00:57:35.920
if I can. What's it called save Me by jelly Roll?

782
00:57:36.480 --> 00:57:54.400
I'm going to get the lyrics? Lyrics right? Song by

783
00:57:54.480 --> 00:58:05.639
jelly Roll twenty twenty mhm uh all right. I thought

784
00:58:05.639 --> 00:58:08.199
it was going to be a funny I suppose jelly Roll.

785
00:58:08.239 --> 00:58:10.920
I thought it was going to be like a funny song,

786
00:58:11.320 --> 00:58:12.199
but it's not, is it?

787
00:58:15.880 --> 00:58:22.559
Okay? Okay?

788
00:58:22.800 --> 00:58:34.079
Right, yeah, I'm just reading it through.

789
00:58:34.440 --> 00:58:36.000
I'm not going to read it out loud.

790
00:58:39.000 --> 00:58:59.199
Okay, okay, yeah, okay, yeah, I'm reading the lyrics and

791
00:58:59.280 --> 00:59:02.280
the good lyrics.

792
00:59:07.079 --> 00:59:11.440
I've been a little bit pressed now though, but thanks.

793
00:59:11.079 --> 00:59:14.840
It's a heavy, heavy lyrics. I've not heard the song,

794
00:59:15.559 --> 00:59:20.320
but yeah, it's from the Looks, so it's quite a

795
00:59:20.320 --> 00:59:25.320
powerful song, and I can relate to some of what

796
00:59:25.440 --> 00:59:26.039
I saw there.

797
00:59:27.400 --> 00:59:31.800
I'll actually have a The thing is, sometimes I like

798
00:59:31.840 --> 00:59:33.760
a song and I don't know what the lyrics are.

799
00:59:38.000 --> 00:59:40.760
You know, I remember this one song years ago, the

800
00:59:40.880 --> 00:59:44.679
late nineties, and I'll be singing it and I'll be

801
00:59:44.760 --> 00:59:46.119
doing the washing up.

802
00:59:46.360 --> 00:59:48.000
So it's Christmas dinner.

803
00:59:48.719 --> 00:59:51.360
I'd be like doing the washing up in the kitchen

804
00:59:51.400 --> 00:59:55.480
after dinner, and my stepmom would be there putting stuff away,

805
00:59:55.519 --> 00:59:57.639
and my sister would be put there putting stuff away

806
00:59:57.679 --> 01:00:00.480
in the kitchen, and my dad would be like maybe

807
01:00:00.599 --> 01:00:03.880
getting some stuff out of the fridge. And I'm I'm

808
01:00:03.960 --> 01:00:07.559
hard dancing in doing a washing up, shouting like singing.

809
01:00:08.119 --> 01:00:11.800
Everybody needs a boosom for a pillow. Everybody needs a bosom.

810
01:00:12.119 --> 01:00:15.079
Everybody needs a bosom for a pillow. Everybody needs a

811
01:00:15.079 --> 01:00:19.559
bosom burning forty five And I didn't even realize what

812
01:00:20.320 --> 01:00:21.760
they're looking at me, Like what do you mean? Everyone

813
01:00:21.760 --> 01:00:26.920
needs a bosom for a pillow? And like Okay, I

814
01:00:26.960 --> 01:00:31.239
wasn't realizing what I was actually singing. I just like

815
01:00:31.360 --> 01:00:34.679
the tune. I liked the beat. I like the do

816
01:00:34.639 --> 01:00:36.199
do do Do Do Do Do Do Do Do Do

817
01:00:36.199 --> 01:00:38.960
Do Do Do Do Do Do do did a do do

818
01:00:38.960 --> 01:00:39.280
do do?

819
01:00:39.360 --> 01:00:41.559
You know it could be it could it could be

820
01:00:41.599 --> 01:00:43.599
saying anything wouldn't bother me.

821
01:00:45.079 --> 01:00:45.639
And I got this.

822
01:00:45.719 --> 01:00:51.840
Memory and it still tickles me a little bit because

823
01:00:53.039 --> 01:00:55.559
and this is about nineteen eighty four.

824
01:00:56.159 --> 01:01:00.880
I would say about nineteen eighty four, Frankie Goes to

825
01:01:00.960 --> 01:01:04.320
Hollywood was the biggest band.

826
01:01:06.199 --> 01:01:11.079
Possibly in the Western world at this time. They and

827
01:01:11.119 --> 01:01:12.840
they were banned, They banned.

828
01:01:12.920 --> 01:01:13.679
They were a.

829
01:01:13.719 --> 01:01:17.119
Band that was banned, and being banned put them to

830
01:01:17.199 --> 01:01:21.840
number one. But it wasn't just that they were actually

831
01:01:21.920 --> 01:01:26.760
really good. Their songs, the songs that they like relax,

832
01:01:27.079 --> 01:01:30.400
two Tribes, the Power of Love.

833
01:01:31.360 --> 01:01:37.440
And Beyond the thunder Dome was that the other one.

834
01:01:37.679 --> 01:01:43.199
So there's four really really good songs, really great songs

835
01:01:43.239 --> 01:01:45.920
that they did. I don't know what else they did,

836
01:01:45.960 --> 01:01:54.880
but that's that's my memory of that. Wow, the song Relaxed,

837
01:01:57.519 --> 01:02:02.119
Bearing in mind, it was banned, the video was banned,

838
01:02:02.800 --> 01:02:04.280
the song was banned.

839
01:02:03.880 --> 01:02:09.079
From radio, one so and also better.

840
01:02:09.159 --> 01:02:12.440
Mama's stepmom was only probably twenty seven at the time,

841
01:02:13.559 --> 01:02:18.039
maybe twenty eight, since she wasn't old, so I thought

842
01:02:18.079 --> 01:02:21.960
she'd be aware of what the song was about. But

843
01:02:22.000 --> 01:02:24.519
I don't know she was because she was dancing to

844
01:02:24.639 --> 01:02:28.800
it in the kitchen and seeing the words because they

845
01:02:28.800 --> 01:02:29.559
were playing.

846
01:02:29.239 --> 01:02:29.559
It on.

847
01:02:31.159 --> 01:02:36.400
I think it was it was one of those illegal

848
01:02:36.519 --> 01:02:39.800
radio channels where they had ships out in the sea

849
01:02:40.199 --> 01:02:43.199
and they used to do used to call them pirate radios,

850
01:02:43.719 --> 01:02:45.000
so everyone used to.

851
01:02:44.880 --> 01:02:47.840
Listen to them. It wasn't illegal to listen to him.

852
01:02:47.840 --> 01:02:50.519
It's just illegal for the people to do it because

853
01:02:50.559 --> 01:02:55.119
they were competing with channels that were paying for licenses

854
01:02:55.159 --> 01:02:55.519
and stuff.

855
01:02:55.519 --> 01:02:59.880
I guess, like I don't know who. I just remember

856
01:03:00.039 --> 01:03:04.719
says you're dancing, relax, don't do it when you want.

857
01:03:04.880 --> 01:03:09.039
I think, okay, And it was weird, like and then

858
01:03:09.119 --> 01:03:13.440
she's like, just when it came to the when you

859
01:03:13.519 --> 01:03:17.280
wanna that bit, and I had to leave the room

860
01:03:17.360 --> 01:03:27.760
laughing because it's like, this is you're not are you No?

861
01:03:28.519 --> 01:03:30.960
I don't want to see my mum dance into that song.

862
01:03:31.880 --> 01:03:38.199
It's just weird. It was just very strange, but still

863
01:03:38.199 --> 01:03:40.559
a great song. Though it's not my favorite one out

864
01:03:40.559 --> 01:03:44.320
of their songs. I think the power of love, the

865
01:03:44.360 --> 01:03:51.159
power of love, of the power of love when you

866
01:03:51.239 --> 01:03:56.079
want to cut And then two tribes didn't that get

867
01:03:56.159 --> 01:03:59.679
banned as well, and that was good. I mean that,

868
01:04:00.840 --> 01:04:03.280
you know what, if anything, because they.

869
01:04:03.239 --> 01:04:10.360
Had the two leaders of two particular countries settling their

870
01:04:10.360 --> 01:04:16.920
differences one on one, man on man.

871
01:04:18.039 --> 01:04:22.559
The in the dirt with a having like a fistfight

872
01:04:22.800 --> 01:04:29.639
or wrestle or whatever. And I don't know, I just

873
01:04:29.679 --> 01:04:39.360
always found that quite funny. So I'll have a little

874
01:04:39.360 --> 01:04:42.199
listen to that song, Hillary, But the words, the lyrics

875
01:04:42.239 --> 01:04:47.159
definitely got some powerful lyrics there. Hope asks me top

876
01:04:47.239 --> 01:04:48.920
five favorite animals.

877
01:04:48.440 --> 01:05:09.079
And why oh oh, okay, okay, top five animals, and why.

878
01:05:08.320 --> 01:05:14.519
I'm gonna have to go with a dog and a

879
01:05:14.519 --> 01:05:20.079
ferret because of Andre and Vinnie, So I can't not

880
01:05:20.440 --> 01:05:20.960
go there.

881
01:05:21.599 --> 01:05:23.320
I can't go with them two.

882
01:05:24.960 --> 01:05:30.559
Before I had either Andre Lreaddy my favorite animal, I

883
01:05:30.599 --> 01:05:42.800
would say it would be a penguin and monkeys. Little monkeys.

884
01:05:43.119 --> 01:05:48.119
Love little monkeys. I just think they're funny. So yeah,

885
01:05:48.199 --> 01:05:51.880
a little monkey, not chimpanzee that's going to get big

886
01:05:51.920 --> 01:05:54.440
and strong, just the little ones that stay little the

887
01:05:54.480 --> 01:05:55.079
whole time.

888
01:05:55.920 --> 01:06:10.880
Yeah, I like them. So that's that's four. I like elephants.

889
01:06:10.960 --> 01:06:22.599
Because they seem to be very peaceful, peaceful animals. Yeah,

890
01:06:22.960 --> 01:06:28.400
very peaceful. I like elephants. I mean they've got they've

891
01:06:28.440 --> 01:06:29.920
definitely got a reason.

892
01:06:29.639 --> 01:06:32.599
To feel fairly safe. Haven't be because of how their size,

893
01:06:32.679 --> 01:06:37.800
and they really as long as they stick together once

894
01:06:37.840 --> 01:06:40.280
they're adults. They don't really have much in a way

895
01:06:40.280 --> 01:06:45.519
of prey. But the.

896
01:06:47.800 --> 01:06:49.679
I don't know, I just they just seem to be peaceful.

897
01:06:49.760 --> 01:06:55.440
Like Wise, animals and whales are six.

898
01:06:56.400 --> 01:06:56.960
So top.

899
01:06:57.480 --> 01:07:05.920
My top one would have been a penguin, but then

900
01:07:06.159 --> 01:07:09.159
probably you know, if you'd have asked me that question

901
01:07:09.559 --> 01:07:12.800
three years ago, four years ago, I would have said

902
01:07:13.480 --> 01:07:20.400
a ferret because I had hoary. But you know, as

903
01:07:20.440 --> 01:07:24.199
far as top favorite animals, the first one has got

904
01:07:24.199 --> 01:07:24.920
to be Little Vinny.

905
01:07:25.119 --> 01:07:29.760
So let's say Lord Jack Russell little doggie. No matter

906
01:07:29.800 --> 01:07:35.000
how annoying he is at times, he's he's my little boy. Anything,

907
01:07:36.480 --> 01:07:42.119
shut up, go away, no stop it. Yeah, that's it.

908
01:07:42.239 --> 01:07:49.559
I think I like peaceful animals.

909
01:07:51.119 --> 01:07:55.079
I quite like foxes. I know they're not everyone's favorite

910
01:07:55.119 --> 01:08:00.119
cup of tea, but I sort of Fox. The very

911
01:08:00.159 --> 01:08:04.440
first night I took well, I went to hospital with

912
01:08:04.679 --> 01:08:10.639
Uncle Sausages and he was in the accident emergency in

913
01:08:10.760 --> 01:08:12.960
a bed, so he was already kind of in a

914
01:08:13.000 --> 01:08:16.560
war down there, and the nurse told me that I

915
01:08:16.640 --> 01:08:19.399
might as well go home because he wasn't going to

916
01:08:19.439 --> 01:08:23.560
see a doctor or get anything. It had a scan,

917
01:08:24.039 --> 01:08:26.800
but he wasn't going to get the results until the

918
01:08:26.840 --> 01:08:30.439
next day. So this is on a Friday night, about

919
01:08:31.439 --> 01:08:33.239
seven weeks ago something like that.

920
01:08:33.840 --> 01:08:34.880
I lose track of time.

921
01:08:34.960 --> 01:08:41.000
Now, maybe it was eight weeks ago and it was

922
01:08:41.039 --> 01:08:44.960
the end of May. It was the end of June. Yeah,

923
01:08:44.960 --> 01:08:47.520
it was the end of June. We hadn't got into

924
01:08:47.600 --> 01:08:55.439
July yet, I don't think. And so I left about

925
01:08:55.479 --> 01:08:58.960
three o'clock three point thirty, ordered a taxi and his

926
01:08:59.159 --> 01:09:00.000
fox came out.

927
01:09:00.119 --> 01:09:01.319
I've actually got a video of it.

928
01:09:01.840 --> 01:09:04.760
I did post it on Facebook, I think, and he

929
01:09:04.840 --> 01:09:06.399
was just looking at me. So I gave him a

930
01:09:06.399 --> 01:09:12.920
biscuit and he grabbed a biscuit and ran off. But

931
01:09:13.199 --> 01:09:19.359
very yeah, just it was surreal, because the whole event

932
01:09:19.520 --> 01:09:26.399
was surreal, going from just a normal day to ambulance

933
01:09:26.760 --> 01:09:29.680
and going to hospital in the back of an ambulance

934
01:09:29.760 --> 01:09:34.760
with him and all of the chaos of being in

935
01:09:34.760 --> 01:09:42.600
that environment and then suddenly walking out and it was

936
01:09:42.600 --> 01:09:47.560
so peaceful. There was no one around at three o'clock

937
01:09:47.600 --> 01:09:49.800
in the morning. There was a policeman there and he

938
01:09:49.880 --> 01:09:53.560
was watching a fox as well. I didn't even know

939
01:09:53.600 --> 01:09:54.159
who was there.

940
01:09:54.800 --> 01:09:55.760
I was like, I'm chucking.

941
01:09:56.000 --> 01:09:58.560
I'm chucking bits of biscuit and stuff on the floor,

942
01:09:59.119 --> 01:10:01.439
and I realized, my hope, I've not broken the law.

943
01:10:03.359 --> 01:10:06.399
And he said, it's fine, just put your pants back on.

944
01:10:07.479 --> 01:10:17.880
And so it was so peaceful though, so peaceful, really calm,

945
01:10:17.920 --> 01:10:21.920
and to see this fox there there's almost like no sound,

946
01:10:22.560 --> 01:10:29.079
very bright though, because the lights everywhere very quiet, and

947
01:10:29.119 --> 01:10:33.239
I hadn't It's almost I'd forgotten what it was like.

948
01:10:33.560 --> 01:10:36.680
I've forgotten what peace was like for a little while

949
01:10:37.079 --> 01:10:42.520
because in the accident emergency it's so noisy because it's

950
01:10:42.560 --> 01:10:45.439
just I mean, there's little like thirty nurses and doctors

951
01:10:45.439 --> 01:10:50.279
all rushing around and like it's very busy.

952
01:10:51.319 --> 01:10:53.319
It was weird how calm it was.

953
01:10:57.800 --> 01:11:01.279
Mary asked me, do you think now that Luke and

954
01:11:01.359 --> 01:11:05.720
your and uncle sausages are passed, that you'll move? He said,

955
01:11:05.760 --> 01:11:08.119
often you'd like to and was wondering if you'd go

956
01:11:08.199 --> 01:11:13.439
to a for a house exchange closer to the facilities

957
01:11:14.079 --> 01:11:16.159
of a town or near your dad.

958
01:11:16.920 --> 01:11:17.239
PS.

959
01:11:17.359 --> 01:11:19.399
Your dad must have really loved you in your brothers,

960
01:11:19.439 --> 01:11:21.199
as he never gave up until he got you all

961
01:11:21.239 --> 01:11:25.680
back home. I read that actually before that was that

962
01:11:25.920 --> 01:11:30.960
maybe tingle a little bit with emotion, because yeah, I

963
01:11:31.000 --> 01:11:32.039
didn't appreciate it.

964
01:11:34.479 --> 01:11:35.640
I probably did appreciate it.

965
01:11:35.760 --> 01:11:40.560
To be fair, I probably didn't appreciate what he did

966
01:11:40.720 --> 01:11:43.439
when I was an older kid and in my twenties,

967
01:11:43.800 --> 01:11:48.520
maybe in my thirties, maybe even in my forties, but

968
01:11:48.640 --> 01:11:52.560
at the time when he was coming and taking us back,

969
01:11:53.439 --> 01:11:55.399
taking us away from there, and when he eventually took

970
01:11:55.479 --> 01:11:59.600
us away from there for good, no one in the

971
01:11:59.600 --> 01:12:02.399
world can tell me that I did not appreciate what

972
01:12:02.600 --> 01:12:07.279
he and my new mum had done, Because I did.

973
01:12:08.479 --> 01:12:11.359
I might not have told them that I appreciated it.

974
01:12:11.680 --> 01:12:14.840
I probably didn't know how to express that in the

975
01:12:14.920 --> 01:12:17.199
correct way, because bear in my mind, I was seven

976
01:12:17.279 --> 01:12:20.600
years old. But I did appreciate.

977
01:12:20.039 --> 01:12:22.880
It, and maybe I haven't.

978
01:12:22.600 --> 01:12:26.079
Appreciated it in a way I have. I thanked him

979
01:12:26.079 --> 01:12:29.159
by the way I have more recently the last year

980
01:12:29.279 --> 01:12:31.600
or so I thanked him, so thank you for saving

981
01:12:31.600 --> 01:12:32.520
me from the children's home.

982
01:12:35.840 --> 01:12:36.880
But he's so.

983
01:12:38.479 --> 01:12:43.319
He won't get into emotional conversations, so he won't He's like, okay,

984
01:12:43.399 --> 01:12:49.479
that my son. You know it's but I know he's heard. Well,

985
01:12:49.560 --> 01:12:53.079
I hope he's heard me, and I do appreciate it,

986
01:12:53.119 --> 01:12:58.279
because in reality, no matter how badly I've done as

987
01:12:58.319 --> 01:13:02.199
a human generally in my life, I think it would

988
01:13:02.199 --> 01:13:04.760
have been a lot worse if I'd been left in

989
01:13:04.800 --> 01:13:11.000
the children till the age of being eighteen. I don't think, yeah,

990
01:13:11.199 --> 01:13:15.359
I don't think i'd have even though I hadn't been

991
01:13:15.399 --> 01:13:21.199
successful and whatever. I think there's nothing wrong with being

992
01:13:21.199 --> 01:13:24.199
in the children's home two eighteen. By the way, I'm

993
01:13:24.279 --> 01:13:31.720
just talking from my own personal experience. How at times

994
01:13:31.800 --> 01:13:36.880
really badly I've done in life, and I think if

995
01:13:36.920 --> 01:13:46.319
I hadn't had at least some stability, then I don't

996
01:13:46.359 --> 01:13:48.199
know what I would if I'd even be here. To

997
01:13:48.239 --> 01:13:53.680
be honest about being dramatic, but even though it wasn't

998
01:13:53.680 --> 01:13:58.520
always great living there, you know, my family life between

999
01:13:58.560 --> 01:14:02.600
ages seven and fifteen, there's still some stability. There was

1000
01:14:02.640 --> 01:14:07.680
still the same people in the same house for years,

1001
01:14:08.199 --> 01:14:12.199
so that that's stable, and it wasn't like super chaotic

1002
01:14:12.359 --> 01:14:15.479
or anything like that. The way I was growing brought up,

1003
01:14:15.520 --> 01:14:18.199
when I was like between two and five or two

1004
01:14:18.239 --> 01:14:23.920
and four whatever, two and five, probably that was chaos.

1005
01:14:24.039 --> 01:14:24.880
This wasn't.

1006
01:14:27.159 --> 01:14:31.439
So yeah, it didn't. It didn't prepare me for life

1007
01:14:32.159 --> 01:14:36.119
as an adult. But then how do you prepare for that?

1008
01:14:36.199 --> 01:14:43.079
I don't know. I didn't know that I had what

1009
01:14:43.199 --> 01:14:43.560
I had.

1010
01:14:43.600 --> 01:14:45.119
I didn't know what you know, I had, what was

1011
01:14:45.159 --> 01:14:47.880
ever going on going on inside and stuff I hadn't

1012
01:14:47.880 --> 01:14:53.640
dealt with. And so, yeah, but I do appreciate my dad.

1013
01:14:55.920 --> 01:14:58.840
I started to appreciate my brothers more as well, even

1014
01:14:58.880 --> 01:14:59.760
though I'm.

1015
01:14:59.640 --> 01:15:01.960
Never gonna I told them unless they're listening to.

1016
01:15:01.920 --> 01:15:06.640
This, Like my oldest brother, for it's only recently really

1017
01:15:06.640 --> 01:15:10.279
that I've kind of realized that he looked after me

1018
01:15:10.520 --> 01:15:11.279
and my other brother.

1019
01:15:12.239 --> 01:15:13.319
He was in charge of us.

1020
01:15:13.359 --> 01:15:17.479
He looked after us for days, days on end sometimes,

1021
01:15:19.159 --> 01:15:24.319
and he was a little kid himself. You know, I'll

1022
01:15:24.319 --> 01:15:29.279
be four years old, he was only eight years old.

1023
01:15:31.560 --> 01:15:37.279
So and also my other brother. All the stuff that's happened,

1024
01:15:38.079 --> 01:15:41.439
and there's a reason for that, you know, there's a

1025
01:15:41.520 --> 01:15:49.159
reason for what happened later in life. So yeah, it's.

1026
01:15:54.319 --> 01:15:56.119
I just say, if I could, you know, the only

1027
01:15:56.720 --> 01:16:01.239
if I could just have not be taken away from

1028
01:16:01.279 --> 01:16:05.640
London when I was two. I think i'd been all right,

1029
01:16:06.720 --> 01:16:09.960
that's the thing. It's just that period between two and seven.

1030
01:16:12.520 --> 01:16:15.279
But yeah, it's got heavy quick, didn't it. I move

1031
01:16:15.319 --> 01:16:22.199
on from that. I don't know about moving.

1032
01:16:23.600 --> 01:16:30.479
Anymore. I really don't know. I'd like to.

1033
01:16:33.119 --> 01:16:37.600
I got this is a base, this is somewhere I'd

1034
01:16:37.640 --> 01:16:40.439
like to perhaps start traveling, not now, but like in

1035
01:16:40.479 --> 01:16:43.680
the future. Although I don't want to lead everything off

1036
01:16:43.680 --> 01:16:47.760
to the future, because the future doesn't always happen, does

1037
01:16:47.800 --> 01:16:51.720
it if you keep putting it off. But I would

1038
01:16:51.800 --> 01:16:55.439
like to travel, would like to not just abroad, but

1039
01:16:55.560 --> 01:16:58.880
you know in this country, get around a little bit,

1040
01:17:01.079 --> 01:17:04.279
maybe go on tour, do my let me boy to

1041
01:17:04.359 --> 01:17:11.039
sleep on tour. I don't know, get a little mini buffs.

1042
01:17:12.439 --> 01:17:16.520
So I'm not sure. I don't about moving closer to

1043
01:17:16.560 --> 01:17:19.039
my dad. There will be a time when I probably

1044
01:17:19.119 --> 01:17:22.680
want to do that, and I hope there isn't, but

1045
01:17:22.840 --> 01:17:23.520
I've got.

1046
01:17:23.399 --> 01:17:26.319
A feeling because of his age and.

1047
01:17:28.079 --> 01:17:33.520
He's I do sometimes wish I lived a bit closer

1048
01:17:34.239 --> 01:17:36.399
because then I could just pop around and see him,

1049
01:17:36.600 --> 01:17:40.279
have a cup of tea, see how he is, and

1050
01:17:40.720 --> 01:17:46.199
you know, pop around Christmas Day. We'll basically get free food,

1051
01:17:46.359 --> 01:17:49.079
really get some dinners and stuff, and then that would

1052
01:17:49.119 --> 01:17:55.159
be handy. But he didn't just didn't work out that way.

1053
01:17:55.199 --> 01:17:59.479
I ended up moving to you know here. I've been

1054
01:17:59.479 --> 01:18:04.880
there for ten and a half years now, nearly April

1055
01:18:05.119 --> 01:18:10.960
May June July August, ten years and four months. Julie

1056
01:18:11.000 --> 01:18:13.600
asks me, do you have any tips for dealing with depression?

1057
01:18:14.600 --> 01:18:17.119
I might, Actually I might, I quite like to.

1058
01:18:18.520 --> 01:18:20.479
I don't know why. I thought about maybe moving to

1059
01:18:20.640 --> 01:18:28.520
Scotland on maybe Wales or I don't know why. Just

1060
01:18:29.199 --> 01:18:32.439
somewhere near the beach should be nice.

1061
01:18:33.479 --> 01:18:36.159
That'd be quite a nice place to retire, because this

1062
01:18:36.319 --> 01:18:41.760
is so far out of the way anyway. Do you

1063
01:18:41.800 --> 01:18:49.159
have any tips for dealing with depression? Julie, Wow, b

1064
01:18:54.159 --> 01:18:55.399
seek medical help.

1065
01:18:56.359 --> 01:19:00.079
I would say so.

1066
01:19:03.279 --> 01:19:05.880
And I'm not just saying that as a kind of

1067
01:19:06.920 --> 01:19:11.079
dismissive way of saying that I'm not at all is

1068
01:19:11.760 --> 01:19:13.159
I had depression.

1069
01:19:12.720 --> 01:19:15.399
For years and years and years and years.

1070
01:19:15.680 --> 01:19:19.680
Never told anyone, never, I didn't even know that there

1071
01:19:19.800 --> 01:19:20.680
was help out there.

1072
01:19:20.840 --> 01:19:21.760
I didn't know that.

1073
01:19:22.640 --> 01:19:26.520
Really things like medication, you know, or I just put

1074
01:19:26.600 --> 01:19:28.760
up with it. And I'd had it since I was

1075
01:19:28.800 --> 01:19:32.560
a kid, since I was a kid. I was up

1076
01:19:32.640 --> 01:19:35.840
and down all over the place, since I was like

1077
01:19:35.920 --> 01:19:41.119
a child. And it's only when I was twenty five,

1078
01:19:42.000 --> 01:19:46.680
after being ill for about seven to eight months with

1079
01:19:47.159 --> 01:19:52.279
stomach problems, which I'm guessing now would probably be called

1080
01:19:52.359 --> 01:20:00.840
pet and what's it called stomach stress?

1081
01:20:00.920 --> 01:20:01.359
I don't know.

1082
01:20:01.920 --> 01:20:04.520
I forgot it was called, but I possibly had that.

1083
01:20:06.439 --> 01:20:08.720
But I got tested for loads of different things, and

1084
01:20:08.760 --> 01:20:12.199
I was twenty four, not twenty five, twenty four, and

1085
01:20:12.399 --> 01:20:16.560
ultimately the doctor said to me, its stress. Put me

1086
01:20:16.600 --> 01:20:21.279
on antidepressants, and within a short time all the problems left,

1087
01:20:22.560 --> 01:20:29.920
or of the physical ailments left, and I couldn't believe it.

1088
01:20:31.520 --> 01:20:35.000
And it had a change. It changed. I put weight on,

1089
01:20:35.159 --> 01:20:41.520
put half a stone on, which was needed, and I

1090
01:20:41.640 --> 01:20:42.520
just felt different.

1091
01:20:45.800 --> 01:20:49.600
So I didn't get any counseling. But then.

1092
01:20:50.920 --> 01:20:56.279
I was back on antidepressants ninety seven, So it was

1093
01:20:56.399 --> 01:20:59.319
ninety five ninety seven, I was back on them, and

1094
01:20:59.359 --> 01:20:59.800
I did.

1095
01:20:59.680 --> 01:21:09.600
Get I got counseling for the first time, and then

1096
01:21:09.920 --> 01:21:11.319
you know, I was on and off them.

1097
01:21:11.399 --> 01:21:15.640
For years until I was finally diagnosed with bipolar in

1098
01:21:15.720 --> 01:21:25.399
two thousand and ten December, when I was forty twenty

1099
01:21:25.479 --> 01:21:32.760
eleven December, so I was forty one, forty one years old.

1100
01:21:36.079 --> 01:21:46.319
And so yeah, speak to someone if you're going through

1101
01:21:46.319 --> 01:21:49.399
a depression, because it's I think there's different types. When

1102
01:21:49.399 --> 01:21:57.199
you've got grief, bereavement. I know it's someoneould say that's

1103
01:21:57.199 --> 01:22:01.720
not depression, but it is. But it's it's almost it's

1104
01:22:01.720 --> 01:22:06.960
for a reason. There's a lot of depression. Can sometimes

1105
01:22:07.000 --> 01:22:10.600
feel there's no there's no reason for it, you know.

1106
01:22:11.359 --> 01:22:13.239
I mean I've been in the.

1107
01:22:13.159 --> 01:22:15.479
Past and now this is getting quite serious, but in

1108
01:22:15.520 --> 01:22:19.840
the past, I've been in the most amazing environments and

1109
01:22:21.680 --> 01:22:24.600
I felt like I couldn't have felt worse if I

1110
01:22:24.880 --> 01:22:28.479
was at a funeral and I didn't know why. There

1111
01:22:28.520 --> 01:22:33.279
was no reason for me, no obvious reason for me

1112
01:22:33.359 --> 01:22:47.279
to feel that way. And it's yeah, so but then

1113
01:22:47.279 --> 01:22:49.439
there's sometimes there's an obvious reason.

1114
01:22:52.159 --> 01:22:52.399
You know.

1115
01:22:52.640 --> 01:22:55.760
If there was a period in my time in ninety seven, well,

1116
01:22:55.760 --> 01:23:00.000
I lost my job, my girlfriend and I couldn't have

1117
01:23:00.239 --> 01:23:02.760
to pay the rent, didn't have enough money for food,

1118
01:23:03.479 --> 01:23:06.079
like all at the same time within like about a

1119
01:23:06.119 --> 01:23:11.920
month of each other. Yeah, I was depressed, and kind

1120
01:23:11.920 --> 01:23:18.279
of what else would I be in that situation without

1121
01:23:18.359 --> 01:23:24.039
the coping mechanisms or any kind of safety net, anyone

1122
01:23:24.159 --> 01:23:31.039
to help me or asking for help. So yeah, it's

1123
01:23:32.359 --> 01:23:33.199
ask for help.

1124
01:23:33.520 --> 01:23:34.239
That's my thing.

1125
01:23:34.279 --> 01:23:38.319
That's my tips. Ask for help if you're dealing with depression. Now,

1126
01:23:38.520 --> 01:23:40.760
I don't know, Julie, if you're coming from a perspective

1127
01:23:40.840 --> 01:23:49.439
of someone that's got depression, that hasn't been diagnosed with depression,

1128
01:23:49.479 --> 01:23:53.720
that's not on medication, or someone that's going through it regularly,

1129
01:23:55.079 --> 01:24:04.359
that has medication and just talk has it regularly and

1130
01:24:04.399 --> 01:24:05.439
on and off and stuff.

1131
01:24:06.119 --> 01:24:08.479
See, I have it, but it's part of the bipolar.

1132
01:24:08.800 --> 01:24:13.359
So it's kind of it's not all the time. When

1133
01:24:13.399 --> 01:24:14.880
it hits, it's hard, but it's not.

1134
01:24:14.880 --> 01:24:17.359
All the time, thankfully.

1135
01:24:19.840 --> 01:24:21.920
When I've had like months and months and months of

1136
01:24:22.000 --> 01:24:26.640
it when I was younger, but I'm on medication, and

1137
01:24:27.399 --> 01:24:33.720
so I've had depression separate from the bipolar And yeah,

1138
01:24:33.800 --> 01:24:38.279
so all kinds of things. And PTSD I was diagnosed

1139
01:24:38.279 --> 01:24:42.520
with in two thousand and three, Like would you talk

1140
01:24:42.640 --> 01:24:50.239
about PTSD? Like how can something affect me? I'm thirty

1141
01:24:50.319 --> 01:24:54.239
two years old. How can I be affected by something

1142
01:24:54.239 --> 01:24:59.680
that happened when I was four and I really didn't

1143
01:24:59.720 --> 01:25:05.960
get it. I didn't understand how something traumatic happening all.

1144
01:25:05.800 --> 01:25:08.920
That time ago could affect me as an adult. It

1145
01:25:08.960 --> 01:25:15.880
didn't make sense to me. But yeah, so I would

1146
01:25:15.960 --> 01:25:21.119
say seek help, ask for help if you'd need it,

1147
01:25:22.119 --> 01:25:27.880
talk to someone you know, even if it's even you know,

1148
01:25:28.039 --> 01:25:29.079
there samaritans.

1149
01:25:29.119 --> 01:25:33.079
There's phone lines probably in most I don't know at

1150
01:25:33.119 --> 01:25:35.840
let's say western countries anyway, I don't know about other countries,

1151
01:25:36.880 --> 01:25:43.800
but probably in most European and probably America, Canada, Australia,

1152
01:25:44.279 --> 01:25:49.880
the UK, there's like things like Samaritans that you can

1153
01:25:49.960 --> 01:25:54.159
phone up and just talk about what's going on, or

1154
01:25:54.159 --> 01:25:57.880
if you have a friend or a family member that

1155
01:25:58.000 --> 01:25:59.880
you can just be honest with.

1156
01:26:03.319 --> 01:26:04.600
Someone that you can just.

1157
01:26:07.920 --> 01:26:13.319
Hopefully someone that will listen without judging. And sometimes you'll

1158
01:26:13.359 --> 01:26:15.840
need for someone to do that. It will need to

1159
01:26:15.880 --> 01:26:16.640
be a stranger.

1160
01:26:18.159 --> 01:26:20.800
It might need to be because not everyone's got that

1161
01:26:20.840 --> 01:26:29.439
as like a person in their life. So and also

1162
01:26:33.159 --> 01:26:35.520
probably don't go and talk to someone that wants to

1163
01:26:35.560 --> 01:26:42.319
talk about themselves because it's not really a conversation. So

1164
01:26:42.359 --> 01:26:43.960
if you if you've got someone that wants to just

1165
01:26:44.039 --> 01:26:50.520
have a normal conversation and telling them your problems.

1166
01:26:50.920 --> 01:26:53.600
I'm not saying don't, but sometimes telling those kinds of

1167
01:26:53.600 --> 01:26:57.720
people your problems, they're they're just waiting to talk about

1168
01:26:57.920 --> 01:27:02.199
their own stuff, and that's not always helpful.

1169
01:27:03.760 --> 01:27:05.319
So if you've got a friend.

1170
01:27:07.359 --> 01:27:13.159
That you can trust and maybe ask them, is that

1171
01:27:13.239 --> 01:27:16.199
okay if I just talked to you about what's going

1172
01:27:16.239 --> 01:27:22.520
on with me? So it kind of maybe asked permission,

1173
01:27:22.720 --> 01:27:27.119
not in a kind of in a nice way. He

1174
01:27:27.199 --> 01:27:29.359
had a very loose and gentle.

1175
01:27:29.039 --> 01:27:32.319
Way, just to make sure that they're in the right space.

1176
01:27:32.720 --> 01:27:40.439
Because I remember when Luke before he went, he was

1177
01:27:40.520 --> 01:27:45.039
in a bad way before he left us, very bad way,

1178
01:27:45.800 --> 01:27:50.399
and he phoned up. He told me he came up here,

1179
01:27:50.399 --> 01:27:53.279
and he told me he phoned up two of his

1180
01:27:53.479 --> 01:27:56.720
closest people that he would talk to on the phone,

1181
01:27:57.960 --> 01:27:59.399
so he wouldn't talk to me on the phone. He

1182
01:27:59.520 --> 01:28:02.359
just come up because he was downstairs. I was up here.

1183
01:28:04.720 --> 01:28:07.279
And both of those people said to the same thing

1184
01:28:07.319 --> 01:28:10.399
to him that they couldn't they could listen to him

1185
01:28:10.439 --> 01:28:10.960
going on.

1186
01:28:10.840 --> 01:28:12.640
Because they had their own problems to deal with.

1187
01:28:16.439 --> 01:28:19.439
Two different people that I know he was very close

1188
01:28:19.520 --> 01:28:21.920
to and he did see them very often, but he

1189
01:28:21.960 --> 01:28:23.840
used to talk to him on the phone quite a lot,

1190
01:28:25.159 --> 01:28:30.079
and at this point he wasn't he wasn't being particularly

1191
01:28:30.119 --> 01:28:33.720
pleasant either with it, so it was hard to listen

1192
01:28:33.880 --> 01:28:39.239
to what he was saying because he wasn't always being nice.

1193
01:28:40.159 --> 01:28:43.960
This is a very difficult situation. If you've got someone

1194
01:28:46.760 --> 01:28:50.560
that you can trust, talk to them. If you haven't,

1195
01:28:51.199 --> 01:28:55.199
then talked to a stranger, make use of the mental

1196
01:28:55.199 --> 01:28:56.520
health services.

1197
01:28:56.000 --> 01:29:03.840
That are around. Well you could do is make a

1198
01:29:03.920 --> 01:29:10.560
recording or write down how you're feeling now.

1199
01:29:10.760 --> 01:29:14.640
Years ago, I had a bit of a an episode.

1200
01:29:14.760 --> 01:29:17.840
This was in ninety seven when all this stuff was happening,

1201
01:29:19.159 --> 01:29:21.439
and I lost it, like.

1202
01:29:21.840 --> 01:29:29.159
In a big way, completely lost, and it was kind

1203
01:29:29.199 --> 01:29:35.199
of I was on the verge of it was just

1204
01:29:35.640 --> 01:29:39.600
I don't know, it was really weird. But what I

1205
01:29:39.680 --> 01:29:44.720
did is I wrote letters to three different people.

1206
01:29:48.199 --> 01:29:50.439
And I wrote and I wrote and I wrote and

1207
01:29:50.479 --> 01:29:56.159
I wrote everything that I felt. And once I've done that,

1208
01:29:58.399 --> 01:30:04.159
I actually did feel some relief. Now I kind of

1209
01:30:04.199 --> 01:30:07.000
knew about this. I must have seen it in a

1210
01:30:07.079 --> 01:30:15.399
book somewhere along the way. Yeah, I don't know where.

1211
01:30:15.560 --> 01:30:19.439
Maybe I saw it on TV. But you know, Bat,

1212
01:30:19.479 --> 01:30:21.520
this is ninety seven, this is long before I didn't

1213
01:30:21.680 --> 01:30:28.119
wasn't doing hypnosis or NLP, hadn't really even any interesting,

1214
01:30:29.680 --> 01:30:32.760
you know, counseling, never had counseling at that point.

1215
01:30:33.199 --> 01:30:39.800
That was a few months later. But it definitely helped

1216
01:30:40.479 --> 01:30:43.600
writing down how I felt. But what is is you

1217
01:30:43.720 --> 01:30:46.000
don't write to them the way you would talk to

1218
01:30:46.000 --> 01:30:52.640
them to their face. You write down everything that you

1219
01:30:52.720 --> 01:30:55.600
want to say, that you want to express, no matter

1220
01:30:55.640 --> 01:31:00.359
how horrible it is, because you don't send it to them.

1221
01:31:00.560 --> 01:31:03.920
You don't send the letter to the person. You don't

1222
01:31:04.000 --> 01:31:07.239
keep that letter, you destroy it, you get rid of it.

1223
01:31:09.199 --> 01:31:15.960
But you've allowed yourself to express it. And that's what

1224
01:31:16.039 --> 01:31:18.119
I did, and I found it useful.

1225
01:31:24.199 --> 01:31:27.760
Another thing I did when there was a family, real

1226
01:31:27.840 --> 01:31:34.640
big family thing that happened that summer, and I spent

1227
01:31:34.840 --> 01:31:38.640
probably about three or four or five days all day

1228
01:31:38.800 --> 01:31:42.760
just writing in the pad. I got through a couple

1229
01:31:42.800 --> 01:31:47.279
of pads for you know, just talked about what I

1230
01:31:47.319 --> 01:31:51.079
was feeling. Not all day was I doing it, but

1231
01:31:51.119 --> 01:31:53.239
I did. You spend quite a few hours during the

1232
01:31:53.319 --> 01:31:57.159
day and in the garden just writing down how I

1233
01:31:57.239 --> 01:32:03.279
was feeling. And I did find that that helped as well.

1234
01:32:08.359 --> 01:32:13.520
Now in the past, I've made videos and made podcasts

1235
01:32:13.560 --> 01:32:18.840
where I've talked about how I felt, and sometimes.

1236
01:32:18.319 --> 01:32:22.880
That can also help. I've also made podcasts that I've

1237
01:32:22.920 --> 01:32:24.159
never released.

1238
01:32:24.600 --> 01:32:27.800
Where I've really gone in depth about how I'm feeling,

1239
01:32:28.600 --> 01:32:32.039
and then I ended up deleting them because it was

1240
01:32:32.119 --> 01:32:35.199
not suitable, not allowed.

1241
01:32:35.680 --> 01:32:37.920
It was in no way I was not going to

1242
01:32:37.920 --> 01:32:41.399
be putting that on there. So there's a few ways

1243
01:32:41.439 --> 01:32:43.560
that I would say to deal with it, to deal

1244
01:32:43.560 --> 01:32:47.159
with depression, but the most important thing is that you're

1245
01:32:47.239 --> 01:32:51.439
gentle with yourself and you don't give yourself a hard time,

1246
01:32:52.640 --> 01:32:56.279
and there's no right or wrong, there's no rules. Really,

1247
01:32:57.319 --> 01:32:58.199
we're all different.

1248
01:32:59.000 --> 01:33:05.039
And just remember that there are people out there that care.

1249
01:33:07.119 --> 01:33:10.159
So you know it's a cliche, You're not the only one.

1250
01:33:10.840 --> 01:33:12.880
You're not the only one going through that. Loads of

1251
01:33:12.920 --> 01:33:16.800
other people, millions of other people are also going through

1252
01:33:16.840 --> 01:33:24.279
their own journey of depression, whether short term or otherwise,

1253
01:33:26.039 --> 01:33:31.720
and there's so many people out there that do care.

1254
01:33:36.479 --> 01:33:43.560
So I definitely would say seek professional medical help. Speak

1255
01:33:43.640 --> 01:33:51.199
to your doctor, whoever the medical professional is in your country,

1256
01:33:51.760 --> 01:33:57.560
wherever you live, and you just find someone ask for therapy, ask.

1257
01:33:58.039 --> 01:34:00.760
To ask for help.

1258
01:34:03.479 --> 01:34:11.359
There's no harm in asking for help, and talking to

1259
01:34:11.399 --> 01:34:18.279
someone about how you're feeling can really help. I've been

1260
01:34:18.279 --> 01:34:21.760
on both sides of the sofa, as it were, for

1261
01:34:21.800 --> 01:34:22.239
this one.

1262
01:34:23.279 --> 01:34:23.760
I've been.

1263
01:34:25.159 --> 01:34:34.600
I've done hundreds of hours as a patient in therapy, counseling, psychotherapy,

1264
01:34:34.800 --> 01:34:39.479
you name it. I've done lots and lots of lots

1265
01:34:39.479 --> 01:34:43.840
of hours. I mean even when I was counseling at college.

1266
01:34:43.920 --> 01:34:47.840
When I first started, I had to have twenty hours

1267
01:34:47.880 --> 01:34:54.239
of personal counseling as part of my college course just outside.

1268
01:34:54.279 --> 01:34:57.680
I pay for it twenty hours and I had to

1269
01:34:57.720 --> 01:35:01.199
have it signed off by the to prove that I'd

1270
01:35:01.199 --> 01:35:03.720
had those hours. And I had to do that. I

1271
01:35:03.840 --> 01:35:07.399
was part of the contract of doing the degree and

1272
01:35:07.479 --> 01:35:15.319
to become a counselor myself. Well, I knew someone on

1273
01:35:15.359 --> 01:35:19.279
the course and they did that it might be ten hours,

1274
01:35:19.399 --> 01:35:21.439
might not, It might not been.

1275
01:35:21.319 --> 01:35:22.279
Twenty, It might have been ten.

1276
01:35:23.479 --> 01:35:25.560
Someone on the course actually said that they did it,

1277
01:35:25.640 --> 01:35:29.159
and they just made up a character. They didn't even

1278
01:35:29.159 --> 01:35:32.279
talk about themselves in counseling. That just made up a character.

1279
01:35:34.680 --> 01:35:38.079
And I thought, what is the point in that you

1280
01:35:38.159 --> 01:35:44.720
can't even be yourself when you're paying someone to be

1281
01:35:44.760 --> 01:35:49.359
a counselor, you know they're professional counselor, you're paying them

1282
01:35:49.399 --> 01:35:53.560
twenty thirty pounds an hour whatever, and you put on

1283
01:35:53.640 --> 01:35:57.640
a character just because you don't want to open yourself up.

1284
01:35:59.359 --> 01:36:02.439
Yeah you want to be a counselor. But wow.

1285
01:36:03.119 --> 01:36:06.199
But yeah, it's that I found out. I'm not sure

1286
01:36:06.199 --> 01:36:10.479
if it's true, but a fund of very unusual. But

1287
01:36:10.600 --> 01:36:17.319
what I did is I spent two whole years, maybe

1288
01:36:17.359 --> 01:36:19.439
longer with this counselor.

1289
01:36:20.800 --> 01:36:28.520
So I had probably one hundred yeah, actually probably one hundred,

1290
01:36:28.600 --> 01:36:32.680
maybe one hundred and fifty over one hundred sessions. So

1291
01:36:32.720 --> 01:36:35.560
I did at least two years, you know, once a week,

1292
01:36:35.600 --> 01:36:42.119
every week, every Friday. And I think she retired or

1293
01:36:42.199 --> 01:36:47.199
she moved away, something like that. She just couldn't stand

1294
01:36:47.239 --> 01:36:51.159
me any longer. She had to move to early retirement.

1295
01:36:54.239 --> 01:37:01.199
So yeah, ask for help, keep going on. But yeah,

1296
01:37:01.199 --> 01:37:04.600
that's pretty much well cover well cover Rob.

1297
01:37:06.479 --> 01:37:09.199
I've also, as I said, I've been a client of

1298
01:37:09.239 --> 01:37:13.880
being a patient, I've also been a counselor for what

1299
01:37:14.079 --> 01:37:16.079
four and a half years or so that I did it.

1300
01:37:17.439 --> 01:37:25.119
So I can see the benefit of talking to a

1301
01:37:25.199 --> 01:37:33.960
stranger and the benefit of being that stranger. Yeah, so

1302
01:37:34.239 --> 01:37:38.479
Karen asks me Hi Jason questions Friday, do you believe

1303
01:37:38.520 --> 01:37:41.359
in ghosts? And have you seen one? And do you

1304
01:37:41.359 --> 01:37:44.800
think aliens in UFOs are time travelers from the future

1305
01:37:45.399 --> 01:37:49.119
rather than extraterrestrial beings. Love the show, by the way,

1306
01:37:49.359 --> 01:37:59.960
Thank you, Karen. The thing is, I don't not believe

1307
01:38:00.039 --> 01:38:00.560
even anything.

1308
01:38:00.600 --> 01:38:00.800
You know.

1309
01:38:00.960 --> 01:38:05.920
I'm kind of very open minded. You know. I've never

1310
01:38:05.920 --> 01:38:11.319
seen a ghost that I know of. I kind of

1311
01:38:12.000 --> 01:38:14.199
it's weird. I kind of don't care if they exist

1312
01:38:14.319 --> 01:38:19.399
or not, not in a like harsh way, but I'm

1313
01:38:19.439 --> 01:38:22.640
open to it, like great if they do brilliant. If

1314
01:38:22.640 --> 01:38:28.880
they don't brilliant, it's fine. I've never seen a ghost.

1315
01:38:29.720 --> 01:38:37.920
But I also know that the brain can produce hallucinations

1316
01:38:39.359 --> 01:38:44.720
so that people sometimes see things that aren't there. I'm

1317
01:38:44.720 --> 01:38:48.199
not talking about serious mental honest, if I just the

1318
01:38:48.399 --> 01:38:51.920
general person might have a you know, a.

1319
01:38:51.840 --> 01:38:58.000
False hallucination sometimes in life, whether it's due to stress

1320
01:38:58.199 --> 01:39:05.760
or grief or fear or whatever. So I don't know,

1321
01:39:05.800 --> 01:39:08.920
and I've never seen one. As far as aliens in UFOs,

1322
01:39:09.439 --> 01:39:12.560
I think that's kind of almost the opposite.

1323
01:39:13.319 --> 01:39:16.800
Although I will say.

1324
01:39:15.960 --> 01:39:18.159
With ghosts It's an energy, isn't it. It's like an

1325
01:39:18.239 --> 01:39:19.840
energy we can't see.

1326
01:39:20.000 --> 01:39:23.720
Now we know now we didn't by say we know

1327
01:39:23.760 --> 01:39:30.000
as humans, we are surrounded by invisible energy.

1328
01:39:30.520 --> 01:39:33.680
That's how radio signals work, isn't it. I mean, it's

1329
01:39:33.680 --> 01:39:40.840
phenomenal that that was ever found and created that you

1330
01:39:40.920 --> 01:39:47.640
can transmit a voice talk to someone through the air

1331
01:39:49.960 --> 01:39:58.640
just by using you know, invisible energy signals. So we're

1332
01:39:58.680 --> 01:40:08.920
surrounded by energy. So who knows what's what we can't

1333
01:40:08.920 --> 01:40:11.439
see because we can't. Most of the stuff in the

1334
01:40:11.479 --> 01:40:15.560
world we can't see, you know, whenever there's a gap,

1335
01:40:16.479 --> 01:40:22.359
there's billions upon billions and billions of particles between.

1336
01:40:21.840 --> 01:40:27.880
Me and the wall on the other side of the room.

1337
01:40:28.359 --> 01:40:30.960
That gap between me sitting on the sofa and that wall,

1338
01:40:31.439 --> 01:40:35.680
trillions upon trillions and trillions probably of particles that are

1339
01:40:35.680 --> 01:40:42.199
invisible to me, but they are there. So it's kind

1340
01:40:42.239 --> 01:40:46.159
of yeah, I don't know what all the ghosts.

1341
01:40:46.680 --> 01:40:51.319
I mean, who knows, Maybe we're the ghosts? Do you

1342
01:40:51.399 --> 01:40:55.279
think aliens and UFOs so I think?

1343
01:40:55.680 --> 01:40:58.800
I mean, I'd love to say this with some kind

1344
01:40:58.840 --> 01:41:03.960
of originality, but it's pretty much impossible to be original

1345
01:41:03.960 --> 01:41:10.880
with this. It seems absurd to think that if the

1346
01:41:11.079 --> 01:41:18.840
universe really is almost infinite and there's billions and billions

1347
01:41:18.840 --> 01:41:23.079
of planets, that we would be the only one with.

1348
01:41:26.960 --> 01:41:30.840
Life, this kind of life, you know, intelligent life. Shall

1349
01:41:30.840 --> 01:41:31.439
we say.

1350
01:41:33.720 --> 01:41:33.800
So?

1351
01:41:34.000 --> 01:41:41.119
Yeah? I would. I'd both say I reckon, there are

1352
01:41:41.600 --> 01:41:46.680
other beings out there, and I also hope there are.

1353
01:41:47.439 --> 01:41:48.600
I really hope they are.

1354
01:41:49.399 --> 01:41:52.840
I think that'd be so exciting, and I hope to

1355
01:41:52.840 --> 01:41:56.840
see it in my life. I don't want an alien

1356
01:41:56.880 --> 01:41:59.960
invasion or nothing like that. I don't want my independent

1357
01:42:00.039 --> 01:42:04.319
didn't stay to happen, but i'd love to see just

1358
01:42:05.000 --> 01:42:09.319
I don't know. I think it's just it's amazing, it's exciting,

1359
01:42:11.239 --> 01:42:13.640
and yeah, but I think it'd be brilliant.

1360
01:42:14.640 --> 01:42:16.800
Time traveling. Yeah, I don't know.

1361
01:42:18.600 --> 01:42:27.279
I mean I sometimes think I reckon, we're all aliens

1362
01:42:27.319 --> 01:42:28.600
just landed on this planet.

1363
01:42:31.960 --> 01:42:33.079
Can you hear that motorbike?

1364
01:42:33.239 --> 01:42:39.359
Bless him? Or is he driving off? Oh it's a

1365
01:42:39.399 --> 01:42:48.159
good little bunny, he's driving off. Thank you, Bye, Save travels.

1366
01:42:52.000 --> 01:42:57.840
I think i'd like to be a time traveler, but

1367
01:42:57.960 --> 01:43:01.600
technically we're all time travelers, aren't we or traveling through

1368
01:43:01.640 --> 01:43:02.479
time together?

1369
01:43:04.880 --> 01:43:10.119
I'd like to Yeah, I reckon I'm just.

1370
01:43:12.159 --> 01:43:16.520
I think that the human erace, there's so many differences

1371
01:43:16.560 --> 01:43:21.720
between the different parts of the world and between people.

1372
01:43:23.359 --> 01:43:29.079
I reckon we're all aliens or just from different different planets,

1373
01:43:30.039 --> 01:43:33.880
which is maybe why people just can't get on. Maybe

1374
01:43:34.000 --> 01:43:39.840
sometimes they have such different viewpoints and such different mentalities,

1375
01:43:39.920 --> 01:43:45.239
different ways of thinking, and maybe that's that's a planet thing,

1376
01:43:49.479 --> 01:43:53.039
you do, an idea. Maybe people from Jupiter can't get

1377
01:43:53.039 --> 01:43:57.560
on with Bars men off for Venus, women are from

1378
01:43:57.600 --> 01:44:04.000
Mars or whatever it was, and maybe it's that, you know,

1379
01:44:04.840 --> 01:44:07.399
we can get on to a degree. Maybe maybe it's

1380
01:44:07.479 --> 01:44:08.119
very difficult.

1381
01:44:10.680 --> 01:44:11.199
I don't know.

1382
01:44:12.199 --> 01:44:16.760
I just I hope that there are aliens. It's just

1383
01:44:16.920 --> 01:44:22.319
going to be even more harder now because AI, there's

1384
01:44:22.439 --> 01:44:26.359
so much absolute I don't know what the right word

1385
01:44:26.359 --> 01:44:33.039
would be. I've noticed it more. I'm not I don't

1386
01:44:33.039 --> 01:44:36.159
even like being on Facebook anymore, like the normal kind

1387
01:44:36.199 --> 01:44:37.920
of like I like my little.

1388
01:44:37.680 --> 01:44:38.159
Group, but.

1389
01:44:40.000 --> 01:44:45.960
There's so much rubbish coming onto Facebook, which is just

1390
01:44:46.039 --> 01:44:46.520
made up.

1391
01:44:47.479 --> 01:44:48.600
It's all AI.

1392
01:44:49.880 --> 01:44:53.039
Pictures of people together that have never even met each other,

1393
01:44:56.640 --> 01:45:00.359
just getting And the thing is, I can how old

1394
01:45:00.359 --> 01:45:04.119
that those ones are lies because I know the facts.

1395
01:45:04.319 --> 01:45:09.399
I know, but that's probably only not even a tiny

1396
01:45:10.119 --> 01:45:16.720
zero point zero points zero points zero one percent, not

1397
01:45:16.800 --> 01:45:19.920
even that of how much stuff is on Facebook that

1398
01:45:20.000 --> 01:45:25.079
I don't know is made up, and how much of

1399
01:45:25.119 --> 01:45:29.279
that is going into my brain turn itself into facts

1400
01:45:29.760 --> 01:45:31.880
when it isn't facts.

1401
01:45:32.479 --> 01:45:37.520
So yeah, I do find it weird though, all those

1402
01:45:37.600 --> 01:45:41.359
years non stop.

1403
01:45:41.399 --> 01:45:48.720
UFO sightings on camera, but as soon as everyone in

1404
01:45:48.760 --> 01:45:54.359
the world has mobile phone cameras on their phones, we

1405
01:45:54.479 --> 01:46:00.800
get hardly any sightings of actually UFOs compared to how

1406
01:46:00.840 --> 01:46:07.439
we used to, or of Bigfoot or the Luckness Monster,

1407
01:46:08.640 --> 01:46:12.600
the yetty.

1408
01:46:13.359 --> 01:46:17.920
So yeah, Rich asks did you go to school university

1409
01:46:17.960 --> 01:46:21.159
for hypnosis or as all your learnings come from reading books,

1410
01:46:21.199 --> 01:46:24.319
self taught a bit, a bit, a bit bit of both.

1411
01:46:26.119 --> 01:46:26.640
I did.

1412
01:46:28.039 --> 01:46:31.199
I've been self taught, and I also did hypnosis courses,

1413
01:46:31.680 --> 01:46:40.359
so it's a mixture mixture of things. Also, I would

1414
01:46:40.399 --> 01:46:47.159
say most learnings has come from doing it, so nineteen

1415
01:46:47.279 --> 01:46:53.399
years of doing it, and then I started off doing

1416
01:46:53.439 --> 01:46:56.880
it with people face to face. I used to do

1417
01:46:56.960 --> 01:47:03.039
a stop let's see yeah, free pain release service I

1418
01:47:03.119 --> 01:47:06.039
used to have, and I'd see people face to face

1419
01:47:06.079 --> 01:47:09.399
and help them with their chronic pain. And then I

1420
01:47:09.479 --> 01:47:11.760
kind of people started asking me for more things like

1421
01:47:11.920 --> 01:47:16.079
stop certain things that they wanted me to help with,

1422
01:47:17.000 --> 01:47:19.479
and I'd help them with that. But I was aiming

1423
01:47:19.479 --> 01:47:25.119
at stop to keep sting stopped and I to reduce

1424
01:47:25.279 --> 01:47:26.920
chronic pain.

1425
01:47:27.199 --> 01:47:28.760
That was what I was sort of aiming at.

1426
01:47:30.720 --> 01:47:36.680
And then I started doing the group relaxation sessions at

1427
01:47:36.720 --> 01:47:42.520
and Alcohol and Drug Charity, and then I was kind

1428
01:47:42.560 --> 01:47:48.680
of headhunted for a drug rehab place because they'd heard

1429
01:47:48.680 --> 01:47:50.920
that I was doing what I was doing at the

1430
01:47:51.039 --> 01:47:53.600
Alcohol place, and they asked me if i'd do it there,

1431
01:47:53.720 --> 01:47:57.800
So I did. And so I did that for about

1432
01:47:57.800 --> 01:48:01.079
a year and a half at those two places, or

1433
01:48:01.119 --> 01:48:07.640
to the end of November till November two thousand and seven.

1434
01:48:08.680 --> 01:48:10.119
I started in two thousand and six.

1435
01:48:10.520 --> 01:48:10.680
Two.

1436
01:48:10.760 --> 01:48:16.439
Yeah, So I had experiencing groups, had experienced one on one,

1437
01:48:17.159 --> 01:48:22.479
and then I had experience of actually making recordings, as

1438
01:48:26.720 --> 01:48:31.760
you know, on recordings like this making sometimes it would

1439
01:48:31.760 --> 01:48:36.479
be live, sometimes online on Facebook or YouTube, brother, and

1440
01:48:36.800 --> 01:48:40.960
most of the time it'd just be a recording. I

1441
01:48:41.039 --> 01:48:45.960
started off releasing on my podcasts. I'd release the live

1442
01:48:46.199 --> 01:48:50.960
recordings from the group sessions I did. That's how I

1443
01:48:51.079 --> 01:48:55.439
kind of started off because they were asking me in

1444
01:48:55.439 --> 01:48:57.920
the same well, once a week isn't enough.

1445
01:48:58.600 --> 01:49:00.479
We want to be able to hear you often.

1446
01:49:00.680 --> 01:49:03.800
So I thought, well, first of all, we did CDs,

1447
01:49:04.840 --> 01:49:08.319
but that was getting expensive for the charities, so I

1448
01:49:08.439 --> 01:49:11.720
just stuck on more website and it kind of grew

1449
01:49:11.760 --> 01:49:12.159
from there.

1450
01:49:12.199 --> 01:49:12.479
Really.

1451
01:49:16.479 --> 01:49:18.680
But the first time I went to my first course

1452
01:49:18.720 --> 01:49:24.800
in hypnosis was at City University back in nineteen ninety eight,

1453
01:49:25.560 --> 01:49:31.640
and it was an NLP course three parts, one part

1454
01:49:31.720 --> 01:49:37.079
per term, and it also included hypnosis. Then I was

1455
01:49:37.119 --> 01:49:41.560
buying books from then onwards and reading them, and then

1456
01:49:43.560 --> 01:49:49.680
I started doing courses again two thousand and two in hypnosis,

1457
01:49:51.079 --> 01:49:56.359
and I just kept going. Did another course two thousand

1458
01:49:56.399 --> 01:50:01.560
and five. It wasn't just books that I was reading.

1459
01:50:01.640 --> 01:50:07.479
I was also I had DVD's tapes, audio recordings of trainings.

1460
01:50:08.560 --> 01:50:10.960
There was a time I had loads.

1461
01:50:10.479 --> 01:50:15.319
Of stuff, you know, before I moved away from when

1462
01:50:15.359 --> 01:50:21.479
I was still working, before I went to university. I mean,

1463
01:50:23.039 --> 01:50:27.560
I had an amazing collection of stuff, just so much

1464
01:50:27.640 --> 01:50:31.520
stuff hypnosis related.

1465
01:50:32.880 --> 01:50:39.720
So honestly it was just yeah, but that was that

1466
01:50:39.840 --> 01:50:40.239
was what.

1467
01:50:43.399 --> 01:50:47.920
Ninety eight to two, so it's nine years worth of collection.

1468
01:50:48.920 --> 01:50:51.920
That was to get all that stuff I.

1469
01:50:51.840 --> 01:50:57.279
Don't have it all anymore. I've got some books, but

1470
01:50:57.439 --> 01:51:04.239
my interest in hypnosis has, like traditional hypnosis, has reduced

1471
01:51:04.279 --> 01:51:09.840
a lot. I enjoyed doing the let Me Boy to

1472
01:51:09.920 --> 01:51:16.560
Sleep because it's a mixture of different things, and if

1473
01:51:16.600 --> 01:51:21.319
it helps people to fall asleep, then that's a good

1474
01:51:21.359 --> 01:51:25.800
thing because that can really or to relax. It can

1475
01:51:25.840 --> 01:51:34.399
help me to relax, then it can have such an amazing,

1476
01:51:35.039 --> 01:51:41.079
amazingly positive effect on your life without me sort of

1477
01:51:42.119 --> 01:51:46.880
doing some kind of trancy stuff and talking, you know,

1478
01:51:47.319 --> 01:51:52.439
like that, I can just be me. I've got a

1479
01:51:52.479 --> 01:51:57.199
slow voice anyway, naturally, probably monot to the suddenly.

1480
01:51:58.520 --> 01:52:11.920
And yeah, so this suits me better than Yeah, it

1481
01:52:12.079 --> 01:52:17.119
suits me better than the hypnosis stuff. And for some reason,

1482
01:52:18.640 --> 01:52:22.159
I don't really know why, but to.

1483
01:52:22.319 --> 01:52:24.359
Let Me Boy the Sleep seems to be a bit

1484
01:52:24.479 --> 01:52:34.319
more popular than the hypnosis stuff I do. So I think, yeah,

1485
01:52:34.720 --> 01:52:35.920
I'm thinking more.

1486
01:52:37.239 --> 01:52:48.960
Of just focusing on this moving forward, because there's no one.

1487
01:52:49.880 --> 01:52:52.159
The thing is with the hypnosis is thods are people

1488
01:52:52.279 --> 01:52:55.720
you can listen to hypnosis for. I know, We're all

1489
01:52:55.960 --> 01:52:59.520
different in the sense of like voice, and different in

1490
01:52:59.560 --> 01:53:06.439
the sense of techniques and strategy and the way things

1491
01:53:06.439 --> 01:53:06.880
are done.

1492
01:53:11.039 --> 01:53:15.880
But no one does what I do here. People do.

1493
01:53:16.039 --> 01:53:19.399
Maybe I don't do what they do either, but everyone

1494
01:53:19.439 --> 01:53:22.840
does their own thing. But this is I've not really

1495
01:53:22.920 --> 01:53:26.239
heard anyone else do this.

1496
01:53:26.319 --> 01:53:30.840
Type of podcast that let me boy to sleep.

1497
01:53:31.479 --> 01:53:34.319
I mean, there is a podcast called bored to Sleep

1498
01:53:34.439 --> 01:53:41.520
or bor me to Sleep or something, but it's not this, And.

1499
01:53:42.840 --> 01:53:43.359
There's no.

1500
01:53:45.199 --> 01:53:49.000
I'm not putting anything on. I'm not putting on you know,

1501
01:53:49.079 --> 01:53:50.520
a super slow voice.

1502
01:53:50.600 --> 01:53:58.359
It's just me. This is how I talk. And yeah,

1503
01:53:58.560 --> 01:54:06.520
it's kind of real. I suppose, I suppose, I don't know. Maybe,

1504
01:54:10.199 --> 01:54:15.279
but that, ladies and gentlemen, I do believe is everything.

1505
01:54:16.079 --> 01:54:20.640
All the questions answered. I hope you've got to hear

1506
01:54:20.760 --> 01:54:25.079
the questions, all the answers. So thank you for listening.

1507
01:54:26.479 --> 01:54:30.800
Remember to be kind to yourself because you do deserve

1508
01:54:31.039 --> 01:54:37.199
to be happy, and remember to be gentle with yourself.

1509
01:54:38.640 --> 01:54:45.960
You deserve to feel safe. Lots of love. Bye.

1510
01:54:55.319 --> 01:55:09.920
Relax in the more deep and meaningful way, maybe in

1511
01:55:09.960 --> 01:55:15.520
a way that can not just allow you to feel

1512
01:55:16.880 --> 01:55:26.119
calmer now and throughout the time we spend together here,

1513
01:55:28.119 --> 01:55:33.840
not just relaxed at the end of the recording when

1514
01:55:33.840 --> 01:55:40.520
it's finished, and you can enjoy that sense of comfort

1515
01:55:40.680 --> 01:55:41.319
and peace.

1516
01:55:46.039 --> 01:55:47.119
But also.

1517
01:55:54.239 --> 01:56:00.720
I think it would be nice to have those feelings

1518
01:56:00.760 --> 01:56:17.039
of relaxation continue for longer after the recording has ended,

1519
01:56:22.119 --> 01:56:34.319
so that you can still benefit from listening to my voice,

1520
01:56:34.680 --> 01:56:46.119
maybe in a few hours time, perhaps tomorrow, and then

1521
01:56:46.279 --> 01:56:54.239
by listening regularly, especially if you find like some people

1522
01:56:54.319 --> 01:56:57.880
do and myself as well. I sometimes I find one

1523
01:56:57.960 --> 01:57:08.279
particular recording that really resonates with me, and I just

1524
01:57:08.399 --> 01:57:14.039
listened to it over and over again every morning, every evening.

1525
01:57:21.720 --> 01:57:26.359
There was this recording from We're going back to about

1526
01:57:26.479 --> 01:57:31.720
nineteen ninety nine. It wasn't hypnosis, but it was a

1527
01:57:31.840 --> 01:57:36.880
guided visualizations. It kind of was hypnosis, really.

1528
01:57:39.079 --> 01:57:39.560
And.

1529
01:57:41.239 --> 01:57:44.560
I managed to find it again and it still has

1530
01:57:44.600 --> 01:57:50.199
the same effect on me, And part of it was

1531
01:57:53.840 --> 01:58:04.920
the person's voice relaxed me. She just felt so peaceful,

1532
01:58:06.960 --> 01:58:13.439
and I'd look forward to listening to her in the

1533
01:58:13.520 --> 01:58:24.199
morning and in the evening. And I knew before even

1534
01:58:24.960 --> 01:58:33.439
pressing the play button, as since I've done that, pressed

1535
01:58:33.479 --> 01:58:42.039
the play button. This is in the days of CD

1536
01:58:42.199 --> 01:58:50.880
players pressed the play button. In fact, it might have

1537
01:58:50.960 --> 01:58:55.319
even been a tape tape recorder. I'd lie down on

1538
01:58:55.359 --> 01:59:08.199
the bed and then even without necessarily listening to her

1539
01:59:08.359 --> 01:59:21.319
words because I had them memorized. Really, it was as

1540
01:59:21.319 --> 01:59:32.039
if my body knew exactly what to do, and the

1541
01:59:32.199 --> 01:59:54.239
muscles just almost went into automatic relaxation, and I remember

1542
01:59:54.359 --> 01:59:58.680
my mind would slow down.

1543
02:00:04.279 --> 02:00:04.680
Now.

1544
02:00:06.680 --> 02:00:13.359
Now, I was listening to this recording in the early

1545
02:00:13.479 --> 02:00:21.279
days of learning hypnosis, and long before I ever made

1546
02:00:21.840 --> 02:00:29.159
any videos or audio recordings myself, because I didn't start

1547
02:00:29.199 --> 02:00:42.960
doing that till two thousand and six, I knew, I

1548
02:00:43.079 --> 02:00:56.600
knew how helpful I found being able to just let go,

1549
02:00:59.560 --> 02:01:05.000
to have that trust in the person that I'm listening to,

1550
02:01:12.640 --> 02:01:20.720
knowing that it's going to be just as relaxing, if

1551
02:01:20.840 --> 02:01:30.199
not more so. Each time you hear my voice, you

1552
02:01:30.279 --> 02:01:31.159
may feel the same.

1553
02:01:37.520 --> 02:01:38.840
Some people.

1554
02:01:40.920 --> 02:01:53.279
Have been listening to me for over a decade, maybe

1555
02:01:53.359 --> 02:02:01.239
not solidly, obviously, not twenty four hours a day. Maybe

1556
02:02:01.279 --> 02:02:17.239
people come back, some people maybe listen every day. That's

1557
02:02:17.239 --> 02:02:19.800
something that I do.

1558
02:02:21.079 --> 02:02:38.479
Which you may not realize by listening, is when I record.

1559
02:02:39.279 --> 02:02:53.039
These recordings. Now, for example, I also am affected by

1560
02:02:53.079 --> 02:03:05.600
the words that I say. So if I set you

1561
02:03:06.640 --> 02:03:16.239
focus on your feet, notice your feet relaxing, I will

1562
02:03:16.319 --> 02:03:27.560
be focusing on my feet. I will be noticing my

1563
02:03:27.760 --> 02:03:44.800
feet relaxing. If I said, focus on your hands and

1564
02:03:45.000 --> 02:03:54.439
maybe notice the difference between each hand. Perhaps notice the

1565
02:03:57.239 --> 02:04:02.680
air in the room, the temperature the room. On the

1566
02:04:02.720 --> 02:04:03.960
backs of your hands.

1567
02:04:11.760 --> 02:04:15.640
You may start to notice what almost feels like a

1568
02:04:15.800 --> 02:04:24.199
very light breeze, even though there may not be any

1569
02:04:24.239 --> 02:04:29.159
type of breeze at all where you are right now.

1570
02:04:37.359 --> 02:04:47.960
And as you become aware of your hands, I'm also

1571
02:04:48.279 --> 02:04:55.560
aware of how relaxed my hands.

1572
02:04:58.880 --> 02:05:01.760
Are feeling now.

1573
02:05:16.439 --> 02:05:22.239
And when it comes to potentially drifting off to sleep,

1574
02:05:23.359 --> 02:05:33.199
which may be the reason you're listening, I also.

1575
02:05:35.600 --> 02:05:49.920
Feel drowsy when I make these recordings. I also notice

1576
02:05:50.239 --> 02:05:53.520
my mind drifting.

1577
02:06:01.399 --> 02:06:14.039
In fact, at times I've actually fallen asleep without even noticing,

1578
02:06:18.880 --> 02:06:27.960
and then I carry on talking. And it's only when

1579
02:06:28.319 --> 02:06:37.399
I listen back to do the editing I hear snoring

1580
02:06:39.319 --> 02:06:46.600
and I think, I don't remember snoring. I remember talking.

1581
02:06:49.279 --> 02:06:56.680
The snoring was a pig turned up. That's why I

1582
02:06:56.760 --> 02:07:04.840
sound like when I snore. How I get read into

1583
02:07:04.920 --> 02:07:08.399
a whole experience.

1584
02:07:16.319 --> 02:07:25.760
I don't know how you feel, how relaxed you feel

1585
02:07:25.800 --> 02:07:31.439
in your feet, how relaxed.

1586
02:07:34.560 --> 02:07:36.399
You feel in your hands.

1587
02:07:51.479 --> 02:07:56.319
I have noticed more and more.

1588
02:08:02.039 --> 02:08:14.720
That the more relaxed, deeper level of comfort you feel,

1589
02:08:18.359 --> 02:08:34.560
the easier your breathing becomes. It's almost like that additional

1590
02:08:37.680 --> 02:08:51.520
muscle relaxation. So this allows you to breathe easier.

1591
02:08:58.199 --> 02:09:16.600
Without necessarily focusing on your breath. However, being able to

1592
02:09:20.319 --> 02:09:59.560
notice the ease in which you breathe so naturally m

1593
02:10:00.479 --> 02:10:06.600
you breathe so very easily and smoothly.

1594
02:10:34.279 --> 02:10:51.960
Whenever I imagine my breathing improving. When I've got my

1595
02:10:52.079 --> 02:11:10.720
eyes closed, I tend to visualize a beautiful field with

1596
02:11:11.079 --> 02:11:44.800
trees and flowers producing all that life giving oxygen. And

1597
02:11:44.880 --> 02:12:00.279
it feels nice too, if nothing else, just taking in

1598
02:12:00.359 --> 02:12:38.000
some time away from everything, enjoying that feeling of peace

1599
02:12:43.039 --> 02:13:26.600
serenity with a joyful heart. Time seems to just drip

1600
02:13:27.319 --> 02:14:17.079
by so very slowly, relaxed, so deeply peaceful, completely unattached

1601
02:14:21.840 --> 02:15:19.279
to any thoughts whatsoever in this moment, completely free, noticing

1602
02:15:19.640 --> 02:16:10.600
that your mind has slowed down. Slowed down because nothing

1603
02:16:13.439 --> 02:16:40.319
really requires your attention. You can enjoy the physical sensations

1604
02:16:44.600 --> 02:16:47.079
of allowing the stress.

1605
02:16:46.840 --> 02:16:58.559
To drip out of your body, to appear out of.

1606
02:16:59.000 --> 02:17:28.200
Every part of your body, and being released from your brain.

1607
02:17:33.680 --> 02:18:08.680
Nge your mind slowly but sure, the muscles in your

1608
02:18:08.840 --> 02:18:59.719
legs relax res res so very deep thing relax mm

1609
02:18:59.799 --> 02:19:25.159
hm so deeply. And the feelings, the pleasant feelings in

1610
02:19:25.239 --> 02:19:49.760
your arms and shoulders, deepening each part of your body

1611
02:19:53.079 --> 02:20:00.239
further and deeper.

1612
02:20:10.520 --> 02:20:11.360
And deeper.

1613
02:20:25.959 --> 02:20:55.639
Magicine, the feedings in the back of your neck, the

1614
02:20:55.799 --> 02:21:35.040
feedings in your wrists, muscles, in front of your body,

1615
02:21:45.399 --> 02:21:56.920
I will say, feeding.

1616
02:22:01.280 --> 02:22:37.120
Peace deeply. There's a sense of pace spreads through your

1617
02:22:37.319 --> 02:23:10.120
very core. Even when you.

1618
02:23:13.079 --> 02:23:29.280
Focus on your mind, her mind becomes.

1619
02:23:35.879 --> 02:23:54.479
Be and slower, even.

1620
02:23:56.559 --> 02:24:59.399
Deeper, relaxing, so very slow, stomach.

1621
02:25:12.879 --> 02:25:54.840
Peace full in your stomach, held back. Notice Notice how

1622
02:25:55.079 --> 02:26:13.079
relaxed you now feel in the hole of your back.

1623
02:26:38.200 --> 02:26:45.520
In a spy from your brain all.

1624
02:26:45.079 --> 02:26:52.719
The way down the middle of your back, sending and

1625
02:26:53.159 --> 02:27:18.159
receiving millions of messages every day, deep comfort, increasing.

1626
02:27:26.399 --> 02:28:00.200
Deeply relaxed you mes.

1627
02:28:24.680 --> 02:28:38.159
Reles spreading those signals down your spine or cord into

1628
02:28:38.200 --> 02:28:57.079
a every part of your body, your shins and your

1629
02:28:57.079 --> 02:29:47.399
calf muscles mm hmm, your outbos. Feelings of peace and

1630
02:29:47.559 --> 02:30:05.600
tranquility spreading through your body, tips of your toes, to

1631
02:30:05.680 --> 02:30:16.520
your eyes, your fingers, all the way.

1632
02:30:16.840 --> 02:30:17.959
You'll know a back.

1633
02:30:29.600 --> 02:31:32.000
Letting her readia think hmm, peace drifting mind, there's wander

1634
02:31:32.120 --> 02:31:54.399
in a way happy to let go, Let go completely,

1635
02:31:56.799 --> 02:33:24.719
let go, said tranquil, whole body enjoying a sensor listinger, Hey,

1636
02:33:25.360 --> 02:35:20.319
no ey, enjoy the space, this space.

1637
02:35:22.799 --> 02:35:23.959
Of peace.

1638
02:35:27.079 --> 02:35:52.079
And safety s very.

1639
02:35:59.399 --> 02:37:30.760
Right up, letting go.

1640
02:37:48.680 --> 02:37:56.280
Maybe we can just focus on the different parts of

1641
02:37:56.399 --> 02:38:31.200
your body, just to notice a forehead and your eyes.

1642
02:39:03.840 --> 02:40:37.959
Uptual, so loose, noticing a sense of complete freedom, absolute freedom, day.

1643
02:41:03.079 --> 02:41:04.479
Pace form.

1644
02:41:06.000 --> 02:41:47.159
Energy, pace to breathe so much easier.

1645
02:42:50.479 --> 02:42:51.239
You may.

1646
02:42:55.000 --> 02:43:03.920
Or may not have noticed your mind drifted.

1647
02:43:39.879 --> 02:43:58.000
Peaceful, move any even more deeply.

1648
02:44:02.920 --> 02:45:19.600
In the direction of dital blissful pace, blisphul pace directedhhhhhhh

1649
02:45:38.639 --> 02:46:49.280
t to pace colm so calm, let him go, peace

1650
02:46:50.200 --> 02:47:25.879
with mind, relaxed body c rex.

1651
02:47:33.639 --> 02:47:38.399
C relaxed.

1652
02:48:00.040 --> 02:48:02.879
Body feels almost.

1653
02:48:03.959 --> 02:48:33.000
Invisible, so very relaxed, maine, paceful, so.

1654
02:48:40.639 --> 02:49:40.680
Paceful, let go, and.

1655
02:49:40.760 --> 02:49:48.079
You could start to notice that you are feeling more relaxed,

1656
02:49:51.040 --> 02:50:00.799
even though I've not purposely focused your mind upon that

1657
02:50:02.159 --> 02:50:08.280
sense of physical comfort that is growing within you throughout

1658
02:50:08.319 --> 02:50:13.120
your body, and your mind.

1659
02:50:14.879 --> 02:50:16.200
Starts to slow.

1660
02:50:15.920 --> 02:50:27.959
Down, and that could be almost in recognition of I

1661
02:50:28.000 --> 02:50:40.479
guess my speech not being particularly fast, and things just

1662
02:50:40.760 --> 02:50:53.600
generally feel calmer. Just by listening to my voice, you

1663
02:50:53.719 --> 02:51:02.159
give yourself an opportunity to take a break from the day,

1664
02:51:03.000 --> 02:51:10.559
take a break from your life as it is, and

1665
02:51:10.639 --> 02:51:18.399
to give yourself a rest, giving yourself permission to take

1666
02:51:18.479 --> 02:51:24.079
some time off, and to allow your body to relax

1667
02:51:25.760 --> 02:51:33.920
and allow your mind to slow down, which in turn

1668
02:51:36.319 --> 02:51:46.879
releases the tension any stresses that you had in your body.

1669
02:51:47.879 --> 02:51:51.799
It's almost as if the parts of your body just

1670
02:51:52.040 --> 02:52:03.799
open up, allowing the negativity out and at the same

1671
02:52:03.879 --> 02:52:15.200
time replacing that negativity with positive healing energy, which then

1672
02:52:15.360 --> 02:52:24.639
fills your body up and your mind to also starts

1673
02:52:24.680 --> 02:52:39.840
to appreciate those feelings of increasing confidence and an almost

1674
02:52:40.440 --> 02:52:56.719
uplifting feeling, positive healing, an energy that spreads through your

1675
02:52:56.760 --> 02:53:08.000
body like a wave of comfort. And all this comes

1676
02:53:08.079 --> 02:53:20.120
from just allowing yourself a few minutes, maybe half an hour,

1677
02:53:20.600 --> 02:53:21.479
however long you.

1678
02:53:21.479 --> 02:53:31.760
Want it to be, to just rest and allow.

1679
02:53:33.879 --> 02:53:43.879
Your mind and your body to almost reset itself to

1680
02:53:44.559 --> 02:54:00.000
the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness, which allows more

1681
02:54:00.319 --> 02:54:05.079
room for feelings of pleasure.

1682
02:54:07.239 --> 02:54:17.600
And happiness to move around your body and into your mind.

1683
02:54:20.479 --> 02:54:26.319
Almost as if your mind and your body are sinking together,

1684
02:54:30.559 --> 02:54:40.280
almost mirroring each other with that growing positivity and calmness,

1685
02:54:45.319 --> 02:54:49.639
and it feels nice, really.

1686
02:54:49.479 --> 02:54:50.879
Does feel nice.

1687
02:54:52.479 --> 02:54:56.639
To know that you are the one that has allowed

1688
02:54:57.799 --> 02:55:11.360
yourself to feel more comfort and to experience.

1689
02:55:12.959 --> 02:55:14.360
More of this.

1690
02:55:15.879 --> 02:55:31.319
Deep relaxation spreading throughout your body. And as I focus

1691
02:55:32.639 --> 02:55:38.879
on each part of your body, you can notice that.

1692
02:55:38.600 --> 02:55:39.559
That part.

1693
02:55:43.239 --> 02:55:55.799
Becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on it. It

1694
02:55:55.840 --> 02:56:05.360
becomes even more can arm and comfortable just by focusing.

1695
02:56:09.399 --> 02:56:15.159
And as I move down your body, starting at your head,

1696
02:56:17.840 --> 02:56:23.159
the parts that you have already focused on will continue

1697
02:56:24.479 --> 02:56:31.639
to relax deeply, and those parts that have not yet

1698
02:56:31.799 --> 02:56:44.680
focused on or just automatically release any remain intention in

1699
02:56:44.840 --> 02:56:59.079
anticipation of even more comfort about to come. Now, I'm

1700
02:56:59.079 --> 02:57:05.600
going to start by focusing on your forehead. Just being

1701
02:57:05.719 --> 02:57:14.399
aware of the feelings of your forehead and any background

1702
02:57:14.600 --> 02:57:19.000
sounds like mister Herbert o pigeon.

1703
02:57:20.600 --> 02:57:27.639
Can just allow you to feel even more relaxed. Just

1704
02:57:27.840 --> 02:57:33.719
means you're in the moment. This isn't this isn't a

1705
02:57:33.920 --> 02:57:35.319
sterile environment.

1706
02:57:36.639 --> 02:57:37.680
This is the world.

1707
02:57:41.079 --> 02:57:47.120
I live in the countryside, so there's lots of nature

1708
02:57:47.639 --> 02:57:58.159
sounds around, so as you focus on your forehead. Just

1709
02:57:58.399 --> 02:58:03.600
notice how it becomes was even more relaxed as.

1710
02:58:03.520 --> 02:58:12.399
You focus only on my voice and that part of

1711
02:58:12.440 --> 02:58:23.760
your body. Moving down to your eyes, focusing on your eyes,

1712
02:58:25.920 --> 02:58:37.479
noticing how your eyelids feel so heavy yet so light

1713
02:58:38.479 --> 02:58:44.719
at the same time, and all the muscles around your

1714
02:58:44.719 --> 02:58:57.200
eyes relaxing completely. Moving your focus down to your mouth,

1715
02:58:59.079 --> 02:59:06.639
your lips, your tongue, your teeth. You comes the whole

1716
02:59:06.840 --> 02:59:21.479
of your mouth, relaxing, calm and lease as you focus

1717
02:59:21.639 --> 02:59:29.200
now on your jaw, not just the parts of your

1718
02:59:29.319 --> 02:59:34.120
jaw near your mouth, your chin, but all the way

1719
02:59:34.200 --> 02:59:40.559
up the size of your face to your ears, the

1720
02:59:40.799 --> 02:59:46.000
hole of your jaw, feeding.

1721
02:59:49.719 --> 03:00:04.120
More relaxed and calm.

1722
03:00:04.600 --> 03:00:13.719
Focusing on your neck, the front of your neck and

1723
03:00:13.760 --> 03:00:26.799
your throat relaxing and loose and calm. The sides of

1724
03:00:26.879 --> 03:00:32.200
your neck, the right and the left side of your neck,

1725
03:00:35.120 --> 03:00:38.559
relax and loose.

1726
03:00:42.319 --> 03:00:49.120
And calm.

1727
03:00:49.479 --> 03:00:56.319
And now the back of your neck, focusing on the

1728
03:00:56.399 --> 03:01:06.799
back of your neck, letting go of any tension that

1729
03:01:07.000 --> 03:01:15.920
may have been there before, and enjoying that sense of

1730
03:01:16.879 --> 03:01:27.600
increasing comfort and release that you can experience in the

1731
03:01:27.680 --> 03:01:39.920
back of your neck. Moving down your back and moving

1732
03:01:40.159 --> 03:01:44.559
either side of your spine right from the top of

1733
03:01:44.600 --> 03:01:50.200
your back all the way down to the bottom of

1734
03:01:50.239 --> 03:02:07.719
your back, down to your lower back. As you move

1735
03:02:07.879 --> 03:02:15.600
up and down your spine, you can feel the muscles

1736
03:02:16.600 --> 03:02:22.479
either side of your spine relaxing even more.

1737
03:02:29.959 --> 03:02:36.760
And as those muscles relax, that sense of comfort starts

1738
03:02:36.799 --> 03:02:46.920
to spread outwards from your spine into both sides of

1739
03:02:47.040 --> 03:02:54.159
your back, the top of your back, the middle end

1740
03:02:54.159 --> 03:02:55.000
your lower back.

1741
03:02:58.520 --> 03:03:05.680
And as you scan gently and slowly up and down

1742
03:03:05.840 --> 03:03:10.920
your back, there's the muscles in the top of your

1743
03:03:11.000 --> 03:03:20.920
back relax and become looser. The muscles in the middle

1744
03:03:21.000 --> 03:03:28.319
of your back also seem to just almost divide from

1745
03:03:28.360 --> 03:03:41.840
each other, separating and almost melting, and in your lower

1746
03:03:41.879 --> 03:03:53.440
back there seems to be an extra special feeling of comfort.

1747
03:03:58.680 --> 03:04:04.840
The spreads into your hips sit down your lower back,

1748
03:04:05.120 --> 03:04:13.159
into your hips, into the area where your cosix are,

1749
03:04:16.680 --> 03:04:23.399
and into your buttocks, and all these muscles that spread

1750
03:04:25.600 --> 03:04:35.399
bring your lower back into your hip area start to melt,

1751
03:04:39.840 --> 03:04:52.719
start to really let go and even nowhere about to

1752
03:04:52.799 --> 03:04:58.280
focus on your shoulders, your back, and your spine.

1753
03:04:59.319 --> 03:05:00.600
What can ue.

1754
03:05:02.559 --> 03:05:20.959
Till let go continue to relax so calmly, and then

1755
03:05:21.079 --> 03:05:28.479
she focus on your shoulders. You may notice they're already

1756
03:05:29.079 --> 03:05:41.520
feeling really loose, they're already.

1757
03:05:43.879 --> 03:05:56.280
Feeding calm.

1758
03:05:56.760 --> 03:06:09.200
I feel those muscles then move from your neck into

1759
03:06:09.239 --> 03:06:35.879
your shoulders. Feel so soft and gentle, so smooth and calm,

1760
03:06:46.000 --> 03:06:58.639
And the feeling in your shoulders seems to spread deep

1761
03:06:58.840 --> 03:07:08.600
into your shoulders, a sense of relaxation, not just traveling

1762
03:07:09.079 --> 03:07:26.360
deeply into your muscles, but also relaxing the bones and

1763
03:07:26.600 --> 03:07:34.840
moving all the way to underneath your arms, relaxing a

1764
03:07:35.040 --> 03:07:40.360
whole area between the tops of your shoulders and underneath

1765
03:07:40.399 --> 03:07:45.879
your arms healing.

1766
03:07:51.280 --> 03:07:52.000
You feel so.

1767
03:07:53.879 --> 03:08:06.040
Relaxed and comfortable, and you oders which sense that's.

1768
03:08:07.600 --> 03:08:09.639
Deep healing.

1769
03:08:12.600 --> 03:08:30.120
Message into your arms. You may feel almost as if

1770
03:08:30.200 --> 03:08:31.479
your arms are not.

1771
03:08:31.559 --> 03:08:32.120
Even that.

1772
03:08:33.799 --> 03:08:50.319
Because they're so relaxed, so deeply relaxed, so.

1773
03:08:55.319 --> 03:09:17.799
Calm. So this.

1774
03:09:25.360 --> 03:09:36.719
That feels spreading all the way down your arms, two elbows,

1775
03:09:40.479 --> 03:10:09.879
including your elbows circumfort spreads away into rists, your forearms,

1776
03:10:10.479 --> 03:10:12.079
nder wrists.

1777
03:10:18.280 --> 03:10:19.120
So heavy.

1778
03:10:22.760 --> 03:11:04.120
Yet at the same time sunlight and gentle frey sin

1779
03:11:06.559 --> 03:11:07.600
now on.

1780
03:11:10.239 --> 03:11:34.440
Your hands, My hands.

1781
03:11:40.159 --> 03:11:43.040
So peaceful.

1782
03:11:44.040 --> 03:12:04.799
In your hands with the sense of.

1783
03:12:08.319 --> 03:12:31.440
Real pace, just seems to feel so familiar.

1784
03:12:34.159 --> 03:14:12.639
When your hands relax deeply. Else the things things you

1785
03:14:12.799 --> 03:14:47.079
think it taps making attention to affront to your body

1786
03:15:00.000 --> 03:16:37.840
war comes up many new focus tell legs, muscles.

1787
03:16:39.319 --> 03:17:34.559
And your fives and names. I relaxed, cough myselves just shades,

1788
03:17:38.239 --> 03:19:58.959
how puzzi the feathing you faint, sir, piece of circolm

1789
03:19:59.120 --> 03:20:40.719
ci piece sircom so peaceful.

1790
03:20:43.479 --> 03:20:48.799
Sycom so.

1791
03:20:50.719 --> 03:20:51.879
Peace f.

1792
03:21:00.760 --> 03:21:02.639
RelA same.

1793
03:21:07.639 --> 03:21:09.440
Piece fall.

1794
03:21:13.360 --> 03:21:29.399
Col love that deep relaxation to spread your chest story

1795
03:21:33.159 --> 03:21:43.959
so relax, lets you go.

1796
03:21:47.600 --> 03:22:05.239
Everything some of the start counting down now from twenty

1797
03:22:05.319 --> 03:22:13.479
down to one. You can imagine in a way it's

1798
03:22:13.639 --> 03:22:19.920
like just walking down some steps and each step or

1799
03:22:19.959 --> 03:22:22.399
twenty steps, and each step.

1800
03:22:22.120 --> 03:22:35.440
Represents a level of comfort. Each step represents a deepening.

1801
03:22:36.920 --> 03:22:47.280
Of that comfort, and the furvies you walk down those

1802
03:22:47.399 --> 03:23:00.360
steps to deeper and more relaxed you feel so adding

1803
03:23:00.440 --> 03:23:02.040
with number twenty.

1804
03:23:13.120 --> 03:26:00.520
Twenty, nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteenhhhhhhhhh.

1805
03:26:49.520 --> 03:30:32.559
Three fourhhhh f s.

1806
03:29:39.760 --> 03:29:40.440
Too well.

1807
03:31:27.959 --> 03:33:59.360
Noh eight.

1808
03:34:58.360 --> 03:39:05.799
Seven US us six five us.

1809
03:39:10.520 --> 03:42:21.040
Four using.

1810
03:42:48.920 --> 03:43:31.239
One.

1811
03:43:39.000 --> 03:43:56.120
Now, as you focus on your eyes, we're gonna count

1812
03:43:56.200 --> 03:44:08.040
down from ten down to one, focusing just on your eyes,

1813
03:44:11.760 --> 03:44:20.280
your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your eye walls themselves,

1814
03:44:21.760 --> 03:44:37.680
a whole area that makes up your eye.

1815
03:44:38.360 --> 03:44:40.959
And as we count down from ten.

1816
03:44:42.719 --> 03:44:55.159
Down to one, whilst focus in on your eyes, you'll

1817
03:44:55.559 --> 03:44:59.840
become twice is RelA.

1818
03:45:02.360 --> 03:45:11.399
With each number counting down.

1819
03:45:09.840 --> 03:45:16.959
That you may find the all you want to do

1820
03:45:17.280 --> 03:45:26.280
is just drift off to sleep. And if that's what

1821
03:45:26.520 --> 03:45:39.559
you want, then just allow yourself to do that. Now,

1822
03:45:42.000 --> 03:45:48.680
focusing on your eyes, I'm going to begin counting down.

1823
03:45:49.920 --> 03:49:41.360
From ten down to one right now, two nine eighth, seven, sh.

1824
03:50:03.920 --> 03:51:15.719
Five four.

1825
03:52:28.639 --> 03:54:23.879
Three most.

1826
03:54:23.639 --> 03:55:02.959
Us one.

1827
03:55:09.360 --> 03:55:19.440
So counting down from ten to.

1828
03:55:19.399 --> 03:55:26.360
One ten nine eight.

1829
03:55:28.879 --> 03:55:44.959
Seven six five four three two.

1830
03:55:45.719 --> 03:55:46.000
One.

1831
03:55:52.959 --> 03:55:55.879
And maybe that was a bit too quick in order

1832
03:55:55.920 --> 03:56:00.159
to relax. Maybe it's a bit too fast for you

1833
03:56:00.239 --> 03:56:09.920
to notice the calming of your body, maybe even a

1834
03:56:09.920 --> 03:56:10.559
little bit of.

1835
03:56:10.559 --> 03:56:14.520
Pressure there, like you're counting down from ten to one.

1836
03:56:14.600 --> 03:56:16.040
Would you expect me to do?

1837
03:56:16.319 --> 03:56:20.920
Man, expect me to stick go with floppy just because

1838
03:56:20.959 --> 03:56:30.159
you're counting down. You could try it again, but this

1839
03:56:30.360 --> 03:56:36.040
time I'll go a bit slower this time, and you

1840
03:56:36.239 --> 03:56:41.479
focus on the whole of your body before we focus

1841
03:56:41.600 --> 03:56:50.280
on your legs. Just notice how your body does start

1842
03:56:52.079 --> 03:57:04.079
to feel more relaxed. Every number that I count down

1843
03:57:07.200 --> 03:57:34.920
ten nine, eight, seven, six.

1844
03:57:43.000 --> 03:57:54.360
Five four.

1845
03:58:01.440 --> 03:58:36.639
Three, one.

1846
03:58:47.920 --> 03:58:53.639
I just notice how how you feel, generally, how your

1847
03:58:53.639 --> 03:58:54.440
body feels.

1848
03:59:01.040 --> 03:59:10.600
It's not necessarily even about counting down from ten to one.

1849
03:59:12.319 --> 03:59:25.760
It's that space that you have, that space between being

1850
03:59:29.319 --> 03:59:40.879
active physically or mentally to just sitting or lying down,

1851
03:59:41.559 --> 03:59:46.360
just being there, not doing anything, not saying anything, or

1852
03:59:47.200 --> 03:59:53.479
needing to think about anything. So it opens up a space,

1853
03:59:54.440 --> 04:00:03.600
you know, a bit of a space, a gap. And

1854
04:00:03.680 --> 04:00:08.319
the more I came down from ten to one, the

1855
04:00:08.360 --> 04:00:16.399
bigger that gap becomes. So there's that gap of calmness,

1856
04:00:17.719 --> 04:00:35.760
of comfort, relaxation. It's a nice feeling, and it moves those.

1857
04:00:37.040 --> 04:00:42.600
Stresses or discomforts physically or emotionally moves.

1858
04:00:44.520 --> 04:00:44.920
Away.

1859
04:00:51.680 --> 04:00:52.760
Allows you.

1860
04:00:55.360 --> 04:00:55.920
To just.

1861
04:00:58.840 --> 04:01:05.159
Slow down, someone to count a game from ten down

1862
04:01:05.200 --> 04:01:15.239
to one, and notice that gap widening, the gap. And

1863
04:01:15.319 --> 04:01:17.200
as it widens, it's almost like.

1864
04:01:17.239 --> 04:01:22.959
The stress and attention falls into the gap.

1865
04:01:36.120 --> 04:01:40.319
And gives you that distance, that space.

1866
04:01:42.639 --> 04:03:21.000
Now ten nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three.

1867
04:03:18.479 --> 04:03:37.479
Two one.

1868
04:03:49.319 --> 04:03:53.280
How did your body feel.

1869
04:03:55.280 --> 04:03:55.479
Now?

1870
04:04:08.200 --> 04:04:10.399
Can you notice that?

1871
04:04:10.440 --> 04:04:12.360
Do you feeling calmer.

1872
04:04:19.920 --> 04:04:20.040
There?

1873
04:04:20.079 --> 04:04:24.479
You're feeling more relaxed.

1874
04:04:46.920 --> 04:04:51.440
As we now focus on your legs, just your legs.

1875
04:05:07.280 --> 04:05:27.479
We're just gonna start with focusing on your thighs. Of course,

1876
04:05:27.520 --> 04:05:32.440
it's not the most exciting thing to be doing, because

1877
04:05:35.879 --> 04:05:38.920
I'm sure, like most of your body, is not a lot.

1878
04:05:38.920 --> 04:05:40.840
Going on right now.

1879
04:05:48.959 --> 04:05:55.239
Just focusing on the whole of your thighs, the tops

1880
04:05:55.280 --> 04:06:01.360
of your thighs, the sides of your thighs, the bottoms

1881
04:06:01.440 --> 04:06:06.000
of your thighs, your outer thighs, and your inner thighs,

1882
04:06:08.120 --> 04:06:12.200
basically the whole of your thigh that leads into your.

1883
04:06:12.159 --> 04:06:19.559
Hip and it goes down to your.

1884
04:06:21.079 --> 04:06:21.760
Knee joint.

1885
04:06:26.920 --> 04:06:34.200
Now, this is a big area. It's a very heavy area.

1886
04:06:34.639 --> 04:06:40.680
It's very strong, probably the strongest muscles in your body

1887
04:06:41.360 --> 04:06:55.680
or in your thighs. But I don't think we perhaps

1888
04:06:57.399 --> 04:07:08.000
will give enough attention to our thighs. Perhaps we don't

1889
04:07:09.440 --> 04:07:30.120
acknowledge how important our thighs are to our lives, how

1890
04:07:30.200 --> 04:07:39.399
much they actually do for us all through our lives.

1891
04:07:46.520 --> 04:07:52.399
And it may seem sound really weird, but I think

1892
04:07:52.440 --> 04:07:59.559
that all of our body parts, especially our thighs, needs

1893
04:07:59.559 --> 04:08:06.719
some TLC, a bit of love shown, a bit of.

1894
04:08:13.120 --> 04:08:25.840
The acknowledgement thank you, gratitude for our thighs do for us.

1895
04:08:32.360 --> 04:08:35.200
And I know this may sound a bit strange.

1896
04:08:37.760 --> 04:08:40.879
Maybe you think, why am I surely I should be

1897
04:08:40.879 --> 04:08:45.680
out in the garden hugging a tree or something. Wow,

1898
04:08:49.799 --> 04:08:52.239
it's hard to set a microphone up on a tree.

1899
04:08:53.120 --> 04:08:55.399
That's why I'm doing this indoors. Otherwise I wouldn't be

1900
04:08:55.399 --> 04:08:59.360
outside huging a tree. I can't see the television from

1901
04:08:59.360 --> 04:09:09.959
the tree. If you move down to your knees gain

1902
04:09:10.239 --> 04:09:18.440
such an important part. And I think we don't necessarily

1903
04:09:19.840 --> 04:09:21.280
I'll speak for myself here.

1904
04:09:23.799 --> 04:09:28.719
I don't necessarily appreciate all that my needs to do

1905
04:09:28.840 --> 04:09:34.360
for me until I have a problem with my knee.

1906
04:09:34.680 --> 04:09:38.840
It's occasionally, if I ever maybe i'll bash it, or

1907
04:09:39.760 --> 04:09:45.360
it's aching for some reason. It's then that I realize

1908
04:09:46.479 --> 04:09:50.520
how much it does. You know, the benefit of being

1909
04:09:50.520 --> 04:09:58.440
able to use my legs without any kind of physical

1910
04:09:58.600 --> 04:10:06.760
discomfort is a beautiful thing that's possibly not appreciated. Toil

1911
04:10:07.799 --> 04:10:17.559
it's temporarily removed. You know that's comfort. But as you

1912
04:10:17.639 --> 04:10:22.920
focus on your knees, regardless of how your knees feel,

1913
04:10:25.959 --> 04:10:30.200
you can have that sense of gratitude.

1914
04:10:30.920 --> 04:10:32.840
And love to your needs.

1915
04:10:32.440 --> 04:10:33.920
For all that they do for you.

1916
04:10:44.360 --> 04:10:47.719
And you can still have that attention on your thighs.

1917
04:10:48.280 --> 04:10:54.680
Maybe notice how your thighs feel. Maybe you've noticed that

1918
04:10:54.840 --> 04:10:56.239
they are.

1919
04:10:57.920 --> 04:11:14.280
Relaxing more deeply as you focus now on the bottoms

1920
04:11:14.319 --> 04:11:18.760
of your legs, your shins, and your calf muscles, the

1921
04:11:18.840 --> 04:11:26.639
bones between your knees and your feet incorporate, and of

1922
04:11:26.639 --> 04:11:39.040
course your ankles so important. Anyone that's had even there,

1923
04:11:39.239 --> 04:11:46.000
like the slightest sprain of an ankle knows how how

1924
04:11:46.079 --> 04:11:56.239
much we take our ankles for granted. And it's kind

1925
04:11:56.239 --> 04:12:01.840
of strange in a way when you think that. You know, logically,

1926
04:12:02.120 --> 04:12:05.239
our wrists are a lot thinner than the rest of

1927
04:12:05.239 --> 04:12:10.120
our arms, which is okay, It doesn't can't see any

1928
04:12:10.120 --> 04:12:15.200
problem with that because we're just picking stuff up by

1929
04:12:15.200 --> 04:12:21.319
our ankles so much thinner than the rest of our legs.

1930
04:12:27.680 --> 04:12:32.120
And from a physics perspective or logical even it doesn't

1931
04:12:32.159 --> 04:12:38.319
really make sense that all this weight would ultimately be

1932
04:12:39.239 --> 04:12:49.319
resting on your ankles then leading to your feet, that

1933
04:12:49.840 --> 04:13:00.159
thin area, thin bone. Yeah, it does so much great work.

1934
04:13:00.959 --> 04:13:10.719
Supports us, supports our body for a lifetime, helps us

1935
04:13:11.200 --> 04:13:22.879
to balance, It helps you to.

1936
04:13:18.840 --> 04:13:28.120
Get around and be mobile. And there's the calf muscles.

1937
04:13:28.159 --> 04:13:35.799
Of course, when I was younger, I couldn't see the

1938
04:13:35.840 --> 04:13:42.159
pointing calf muscles didn't seem to do anything. Okay, if

1939
04:13:42.200 --> 04:13:45.760
I walked around on tiptoes, then my calf muscles get

1940
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some work. But of course that's not true. The calf

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muscles are being used whenever we use their legs.

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And your ship.

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There to protect your lower legs, shaped in a way

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almost as a protector for the.

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Bone, leading of course to your ankles and your feet.

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But we're not going to focus on your feet. We're

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just going to focus on the legs. I realize, and

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now that I've mentioned your feet, you'll probably focusing on

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them anyway, So maybe I should focus on your feet

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a little bit. You can have them in your.

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Awareness the same as you have your thighs in your awareness.

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Even though we haven't been focusing on your thighs a

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few minutes.

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And we're focusing on.

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Your ankles, there's still that sensation of comfort in your thighs,

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and there's that movement.

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Of energy.

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Because the thighs hold lots.

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Of different sensations. Of course, there's the muscles, the big

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straw muscles that we have in our thighs, but the

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skin on the outside of the thighs, as in the

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outside of all of our body, can be very sensitive,

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sensitive to the touch sensitive to temperature, and inside your

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thighs the bones, there's the muscle, there's the blood, vessels,

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the arch trees, to all this stuff that inside your thighs.

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I guess sometimes it'd be nice if you could actually

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put your fingers inside your thighs and a message.

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You can message on the outside.

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Of course, but to be able to get deep into

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the muscles, and to be able to just massage inside

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your thighs, message in the bones of your leg, massage

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in all the veins, just gently healing your thighs. You

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can move down.

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Message and inside your knees, just message in those bones,

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but with healing fingertips, spreading that healing energy deep into.

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The choice your knees.

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04:17:54.920 --> 04:17:58.799
Of course, there's the back of your you need the

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inside creep where your need is. It's a very sensitive area.

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Very it feels very nice when you stroke it. That

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might be because it's an area that's not really touched

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very often. It's almost like a hidden part that crease

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04:18:25.000 --> 04:18:31.520
in your legs. It's almost like a part that has

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a sensitivity, which is a little bit different. Of course,

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it's protected by your legs, so you can imagine putting

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your fingers into that crease in your legs. Fold in

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04:19:03.920 --> 04:19:07.959
between your legs. You can just message with your fingertips.

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Imagine your fingertips going inside, massage in the muscle or

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tissue you can cause, field the bones of your knees,

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heating through your fingertips, and then as you go down.

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To your calf muscles, and that's the part I'd like

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to be able to really put my fingertips deep inside

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my calf muscles, massage in every single tissue of that muscle,

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healing every part art and then doing the same for

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my shins, massage and generally stroking the bones, generally stroking them,

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healing in a loving way because they deserve to be treated.

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There's the precious bones that they are, because our legs

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are so precious as in all the other parts of

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our body, the.

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More precious of any chore on the planet. When you

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start to.

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Think about your legs in this way, it can.

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04:21:04.559 --> 04:21:14.079
Change your perspective. It might sound a bit a bit

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04:21:14.319 --> 04:21:17.719
silly to start with the idea.

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04:21:17.440 --> 04:21:25.959
Of having love for your legs, showing appreciation for your thighs,

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04:21:28.639 --> 04:21:33.120
wanting to be able to put your hands in your thighs,

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04:21:35.239 --> 04:21:41.680
massage the muscles and the bones and to get your

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04:21:41.680 --> 04:21:46.639
fingers deep in there, releasing all tension.

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Just to show how much you care about your legs.

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04:21:59.040 --> 04:22:03.000
How much you care for what your legs do for.

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04:22:02.920 --> 04:22:16.600
You regularly, your needs, your cars, your ankles, the strength

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04:22:16.680 --> 04:22:24.760
of your ankles, considering how thin they are compared to

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04:22:24.879 --> 04:22:31.559
the rest of your legs, especially your thighs. Yeah, they're

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04:22:31.719 --> 04:22:44.000
so strong, so flexible, absolutely amazing things. Your ankles are

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truly a gift because of what they do for you,

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supporting all weight, regardless of how what weight you are,

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04:23:06.520 --> 04:23:11.319
even if you only ate stone, there's still a lot

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04:23:11.360 --> 04:23:18.600
of weight for these little ankles, how a lot heavier

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04:23:18.639 --> 04:23:28.360
than eight stone double dock. Yet my ankles support my

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04:23:28.399 --> 04:23:35.760
body all the time, or they do give off a

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04:23:35.840 --> 04:23:37.600
sigh of relief when I sit down.

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04:23:39.840 --> 04:23:47.760
That's I've had my whole legs though my feet feet

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or so go.

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My toes clap so happy. Your legs.

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04:24:15.360 --> 04:24:23.239
Really are amazing, And I know they're talking about. Talking

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04:24:23.280 --> 04:24:28.799
about your legs is probably possibly one of the most

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04:24:29.719 --> 04:24:37.239
most boring things I've ever heard anyone say. Possibly you're

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04:24:37.360 --> 04:24:44.799
boring or not. Everything I said is true. Your legs

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04:24:44.840 --> 04:25:04.840
are amazing. Your legs deserve not just respect. They deserve

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04:25:04.959 --> 04:25:17.879
to relax deeply. They deserve to take some time out

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04:25:17.920 --> 04:25:47.239
of the day to just let completely. The legs really

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04:25:47.360 --> 04:26:00.200
can relax because the legs are so so to the

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04:26:00.559 --> 04:26:04.680
most you know, very important part of your body.

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04:26:05.959 --> 04:26:09.000
When you relax relects. The rest of your body.

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04:26:09.200 --> 04:26:27.920
Also naturally follows in that journey of comfort. Like I

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04:26:28.079 --> 04:26:33.040
feel it in my hips. My hips feel really loose,

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04:26:36.319 --> 04:26:37.239
and also.

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My lower back as well.

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04:26:40.159 --> 04:26:41.040
My lower back.

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04:26:41.159 --> 04:26:46.719
Really feels it feels stretched, even though I'm just sitting

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04:26:46.760 --> 04:26:50.200
in a chair and there's no stretching.

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04:26:52.280 --> 04:26:53.920
As far as I'm aware that I'm doing.

2042
04:26:54.920 --> 04:26:55.879
It's almost as if the.

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04:26:55.959 --> 04:27:00.040
Muscles are just relaxed so much that there is a

2044
04:27:00.159 --> 04:27:03.159
natural stretch as a.

2045
04:27:03.280 --> 04:27:25.920
Tension has reduced a lot. I'm now going to count

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04:27:25.920 --> 04:27:34.559
down from ten down to one, and you can continue

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04:27:35.680 --> 04:27:58.840
to fill wonderfully relaxed ten nine, eight, seven, six.

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04:28:01.600 --> 04:28:07.280
Five, four.

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04:28:10.200 --> 04:28:15.360
Three two.

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One relax.

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04:28:34.000 --> 04:28:38.280
So I'm just going to count down five down to one.

2052
04:28:39.000 --> 04:28:43.719
And as a countdown, if you just focus on the numbers,

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04:28:45.280 --> 04:28:53.760
just the numbers counting down, and notice how you feel.

2054
04:28:55.920 --> 04:29:00.920
In this moment as you hear the numbers count and down,

2055
04:29:01.600 --> 04:29:14.200
knowing that those numbers counting down represent you feeling calmer,

2056
04:29:15.479 --> 04:29:17.920
not just in your body, but also.

2057
04:29:19.719 --> 04:29:22.120
Relaxing your mind.

2058
04:29:23.920 --> 04:29:25.280
Just notice how you feel.

2059
04:29:26.159 --> 04:29:32.079
There's nothing to do, there's nothing to say, there's nothing

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04:29:32.200 --> 04:29:33.000
to think about.

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04:29:36.000 --> 04:29:39.719
Starting with number five.

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Four, three.

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04:30:08.799 --> 04:30:15.200
To one.

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04:30:24.680 --> 04:30:26.159
How as you notice.

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04:30:29.840 --> 04:30:31.200
The gradual.

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04:30:33.319 --> 04:30:42.360
Letting go the tension in your body, you may also

2067
04:30:42.879 --> 04:30:49.040
begin to notice and be aware of how your mind.

2068
04:30:49.440 --> 04:30:53.680
Is starting to slow down.

2069
04:30:56.120 --> 04:31:02.520
This is just a natural thing that happens. It's not

2070
04:31:02.680 --> 04:31:06.879
really a special procedure. It's just natural.

2071
04:31:07.000 --> 04:31:13.399
Because is your body relaxes, your mind also starts to relax.

2072
04:31:14.959 --> 04:31:16.200
And the more your.

2073
04:31:16.079 --> 04:31:19.440
Mind relaxes, the more your body relaxes. It's just a

2074
04:31:19.479 --> 04:31:32.079
continuous circle of relaxation. And there's that calmness that comes

2075
04:31:32.159 --> 04:31:40.159
from relative quietness. You know, even even if there's background sounds,

2076
04:31:41.559 --> 04:31:42.920
either your side.

2077
04:31:42.639 --> 04:31:50.639
Or mind is still going to be quite calm. You know,

2078
04:31:50.680 --> 04:31:55.319
you haven't got the television on, there's no music in

2079
04:31:55.399 --> 04:31:58.239
the background, unless you're listening to the recorded with music.

2080
04:31:58.360 --> 04:32:05.600
Of course, you're very likely not going to be sitting

2081
04:32:05.600 --> 04:32:08.760
in a room with other people. Of course you might be,

2082
04:32:08.959 --> 04:32:13.360
but generally it's more ideal if you can do this

2083
04:32:13.520 --> 04:32:24.559
on your own, so no distractions and when you stop

2084
04:32:24.680 --> 04:32:34.040
thinking about stuff, relaxation.

2085
04:32:35.200 --> 04:32:40.559
Automatically rises, a sense of comfort.

2086
04:32:41.840 --> 04:32:50.760
Starts to grow, and without trying to build it up

2087
04:32:50.799 --> 04:33:01.920
into something fantastical or something magical, this is just a

2088
04:33:02.120 --> 04:33:08.439
natural process, something that's easy.

2089
04:33:10.360 --> 04:33:13.080
To accomplish.

2090
04:33:13.840 --> 04:33:21.279
In fact, it's almost the sense of relaxing completely happens

2091
04:33:21.400 --> 04:33:26.240
really when you put no effort into it. It's not

2092
04:33:26.319 --> 04:33:34.880
something that you can really force. It's something that happens naturally.

2093
04:33:37.799 --> 04:33:45.119
And part of the process of this recording and others

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04:33:46.680 --> 04:33:48.319
is simply.

2095
04:33:49.560 --> 04:33:52.000
Two allow you.

2096
04:33:54.240 --> 04:33:58.759
To take advantage of this space.

2097
04:34:00.880 --> 04:34:05.240
This time, to just.

2098
04:34:09.279 --> 04:34:19.560
Let go, to just be here, to be in tune

2099
04:34:20.560 --> 04:34:21.200
with how you.

2100
04:34:21.240 --> 04:34:34.959
Feel, yet with the intention of wanting to relax deeply

2101
04:34:39.759 --> 04:34:41.159
and maybe even.

2102
04:34:42.479 --> 04:34:46.919
To fall asleep, depending on what it is that you

2103
04:34:48.000 --> 04:34:50.319
wish for yourself.

2104
04:34:51.439 --> 04:35:06.520
In this moment. As we know, relaxing is the majority

2105
04:35:07.720 --> 04:35:11.720
of the process of fallen asleep. The actual fall in

2106
04:35:11.759 --> 04:35:15.159
the sleep part is the tiny bit at the end.

2107
04:35:18.479 --> 04:35:21.439
The deeper relaxed you.

2108
04:35:21.439 --> 04:35:43.040
Become, the easier you find yourself drifting. But you can

2109
04:35:43.119 --> 04:35:51.680
also if you choose stay focused on my voice and

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really enjoy the process.

2111
04:36:05.880 --> 04:36:37.840
Coradually relaxing, each muscle in your body effortlessly and just

2112
04:36:38.439 --> 04:36:58.080
observing the sensation of letting go completely.

2113
04:37:04.080 --> 04:37:07.880
This time, I'm gonna count from six down to.

2114
04:37:07.919 --> 04:37:16.599
One, and you can notice your mind.

2115
04:37:18.880 --> 04:37:24.200
Calming down more with each number.

2116
04:37:25.479 --> 04:37:26.959
That you hear me.

2117
04:37:26.880 --> 04:37:36.880
Say naturally, feeling calm and.

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04:37:37.040 --> 04:38:15.520
Slow, peaceful sex Five.

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Four on.

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Being aware how your mind to slowe.

2121
04:40:44.799 --> 04:41:11.319
Write down, sinking deeply into relaxation. And as you focus

2122
04:41:11.439 --> 04:41:17.520
on your why, I notice that.

2123
04:41:19.240 --> 04:41:22.479
There are some thoughts still.

2124
04:41:22.279 --> 04:41:27.319
There, maybe some stubborn thoughts that.

2125
04:41:29.759 --> 04:41:31.119
For some reason.

2126
04:41:33.799 --> 04:41:35.360
Perhaps need your attention.

2127
04:41:42.319 --> 04:41:43.799
So what you can do is.

2128
04:41:49.159 --> 04:41:56.959
Send love to those thoughts. Sprinkle those thoughts.

2129
04:42:01.119 --> 04:42:01.959
With love.

2130
04:42:03.400 --> 04:42:05.279
My dor petals from a flower.

2131
04:42:06.319 --> 04:42:14.279
Just sprinkle over them petals feel good love towards those thoughts,

2132
04:42:14.720 --> 04:42:21.279
to let those thoughts know that you're not abandon the number.

2133
04:42:22.520 --> 04:42:30.319
You just need them. You require them to just calm down,

2134
04:42:32.599 --> 04:42:50.040
slow down, quiet down and now. So as you focus

2135
04:42:50.119 --> 04:42:55.720
on those remaining thoughts as a countdown this time from

2136
04:42:55.880 --> 04:42:57.840
seven down to one.

2137
04:42:59.360 --> 04:42:59.840
With each.

2138
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Just imagine sprinkling those flower petals of love, kindness, gratitude

2139
04:43:19.000 --> 04:43:29.279
over those thoughts, which will allow them to just not away.

2140
04:43:30.520 --> 04:43:44.880
Relax deeply. With every number, those thoughts will become more.

2141
04:43:48.680 --> 04:44:20.840
And more relaxed. Starting if number seven six.

2142
04:44:38.319 --> 04:46:20.919
Fo three.

2143
04:46:32.040 --> 04:46:54.400
Notice how relaxed your feeling body. We got to focus

2144
04:46:58.240 --> 04:47:11.319
on my hands. It's the oil, extra hands on the wax,

2145
04:47:11.599 --> 04:47:14.200
your body and my dog.

2146
04:47:31.200 --> 04:47:42.279
You focus on my hands, two fingers. It's nothing needed

2147
04:47:42.479 --> 04:47:47.880
to be done. There's no clinching of fists of dead

2148
04:47:48.159 --> 04:48:01.680
sim the fingers d it's just noticing, focusing.

2149
04:48:02.720 --> 04:48:08.119
On your hands.

2150
04:48:10.680 --> 04:48:30.520
I do see wally, you feel a kiss them, but

2151
04:48:30.759 --> 04:48:46.520
asks your hands feel I can't by your mind feels confidence, feel.

2152
04:48:48.479 --> 04:48:59.040
Around your body? Gee maybe.

2153
04:49:05.159 --> 04:49:44.439
Gordy, I tiste you starting dread said.

2154
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Just on your hands and as.

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A cheap.

2156
04:50:01.919 --> 04:50:12.840
Experience, a real deepening of that relaxation in your heads

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04:50:12.919 --> 04:50:24.759
and fingers, a more relaxed.

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Each number.

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Of etes, don't world.

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You west.

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Feel a healing.

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04:50:54.319 --> 04:51:02.000
Relax Imergy spread it into your heads.

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04:51:05.279 --> 04:51:19.880
My counts each number.

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04:51:26.919 --> 04:51:41.119
Down light now to one, to drift down, to drift to.

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The cake.

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04:51:46.520 --> 04:52:37.720
Started s.

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Just be here now, nothing to think about, nothing to do,

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nothing to say.

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04:56:03.279 --> 04:56:15.080
And everything just feels. This is the natural stately

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This is how you just move me