June 28, 2025

(music) (5 hours) Q&A Friday | LMBYTS #1383 | Jason Newland | 27th June 2025

(music) (5 hours) Q&A Friday | LMBYTS #1383 | Jason Newland | 27th June 2025
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Hello, and welcome to Jasonnewlan dot com. My name is.

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It's got a smell of perfume for some reason. That's weird.

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It's got this picture. Wow, it's almost like Vinnie's just farted.

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But it's a nice smell, so it couldn't have been

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one of his farts. It couldn't have been. How strange.

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So yeah, welcome to me me. I'm Jason new Land.

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This is Q and A Friday. Please only listen when

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you can safely close your eyes. And it is the

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twenty seventh of June twenty and twenty five. Ooh ooh

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that's nice. Oh dear, so I've got many questions. I'll

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be honest with you. I'm recording this on Saturday morning.

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I am, I really am. Yes, it was dom dum dumn.

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So yeah, I'm doing this Saturday morning. It's nine forty

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seven am. I couldn't do it yesterday. I was so tired,

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so tired. I got home. What time did I get home?

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About two o'clock ish in the afternoon, And oh, I

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just yeah, I sat for a little while and then

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I went to bed when they'd lie down. Wow, I'm

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just on Facebook now and there's the politicians in America

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and not particularly loved. It seems not all of them

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are particularly cherished. Wow. Oh so anyway, let me have

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a look. Not particularly it makes me I'll tell you

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what makes me laugh, okay is people, you know, people

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say oh, we want our free speech, or they say

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something like, in this country, the prime minister is taking

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away our free speech and he's a Nobed or something

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like that, and it just makes me laugh because or

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they say, always this person is a dictator. He's a dictator.

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If the person in charge of your country was a dictator,

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you would not be standing there with a big placard

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calling that person names. You would be in a prison.

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You would not be allowed to do that. It makes

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us like, go do that in Russia or China. Go on,

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give it a go baby, go on. Ah, we don't

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have any free speech. No, I think you do. I

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think you do. It's a dictatorship. Okay. Well, the fact

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that you can say that online and you can walk

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around just freely saying that stuff means you're not living

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under the dictatorship means you don't understand what dictatorship means.

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I stopped now I'm moving back to Q and a Friday.

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I just find it funny you don't understand so Q

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and a Frido. I have six comments, but they're not

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all questions. I got one, two, three questions, a fourth

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one but wasn't really a question. But I have sorted

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out the issue, so I addressed that one first. Michelle

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asks me, not really a question. But when I listen

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to the playlists on your website, I'll get ads during

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the podcast anyway to avoid this? Thanks? And Jonathan writes

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in reply, no ads on Apple podcasts, and Michelle writes,

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I'm trying to listen to old podcasts from twenty twenty,

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not current ones, current ones, current ones, current ones. And basically,

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for anyone who doesn't know on my website, let's have

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a look my beautiful website, which is now back. There

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is the first but basically on the very first page

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you've got all the latest recordings, and then at the

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top of the page you've got four boxes that you

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can click on podcasts, playlists, podcast apps, and contact and

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then below that you've got the PayPal link and boring

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join the Facebook group link. If you click on playlists.

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At the moment, there's only four playlists, four different podcasts

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that I've got playlists for so clicking on let Me

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Buy You to Sleep, for example. And I'm still in

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the process of building this, okay, so it's gonna take

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a while, but I'm still in the process. So the

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only one that works at the moment is without music.

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There currently isn't any playlists old playlists with music at all,

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but there will be with music, without music, with music,

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five hours without music, five hours with music, ten hours

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without music, ten hours, or with music. But at the moment,

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just the without music ones. And I've got them in

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groups of fifty, so one to fifty, fifty one to

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one hundred. The last one I've got is one thousand,

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three hundred and fifty one to one thousand, four hundred,

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so I have Yeah, So I've updated all of that,

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so they were all now on there. So that's which

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wasn't before I did that yesterday, so I managed to

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make sure it's all updated. Now. What I didn't know

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is that the all right, I don't want to hearing

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someone's playing some a movie or something very loud in

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the garden. So I there was adverts in the middle

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of the podcast, which I would never have never, I

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would never do that, but the podcasts because all of

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the new podcasts that I've done, the ones like one

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hundred and one to one point fifty and all those,

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I'd set those up separate, and I didn't click the

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right box. I didn't cancel the adverts, so adverts were playing.

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I've now gone through every single podcast from the playlist

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days because it wasn't happening on the other podcast the

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normal podcasts, because as I said, I would never allow

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that to happen if I knew about it. I just

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didn't know about it, and I didn't even realize that

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the podcasts did that automatically had it that it's kind

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of a setting that you have to undo manually, and

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I didn't realize it did it. It's been quite a while.

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I don't know why it did it. Anyway, that has

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been reversed, so none of the playlists will have that anymore. So,

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just apologies to anyone that was affected by that. I've

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let Michelle know, but just letting everyone know as well. Now.

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So I've now got it changed anything else about my website,

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and so look, I will look at I think what

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I'm going to do is I'm going to have to

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do probably a little bit of reverse engineering with this one,

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because I can't go too far back with the podcasts

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because I'm only allowed to have the ones with music

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that have got the Spreaker music on them, the ones

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that because that's the only one that the podcast allows

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I put any other different music on there, they will

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just they might end up closing the podcast again, which

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I don't want to go through that game. So, you know,

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it might just be for the Let Me Boy to Sleep.

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It might only be the last one hundred, one hundred

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and fifty recordings maybe that has the music, and so

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I can't do that right now because I'm doing this,

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but I will look into that so that you can

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click on the you know, have the versions that are

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five hours of our music five hours with music. Technically

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I should be able to do five and ten hours

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of our music for every single one. But when I

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first started doing they Let Me Boy to Sleep, I

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didn't do more than just the initial recording. I didn't

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do different versions, didn't do longer versions, didn't do versions

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with music at all. So what I might do instead

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of going back and re making new, more and more recordings,

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I'm just going to leave the ones from the past

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as they were, but make sure that all future recordings

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are added and all more recent ones are as well.

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That made sense to me when I said it, but

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I'm not sure if it made sense after I said it.

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I'm not even sure if that sentence made sense. Did

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it make sense?

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I don't know.

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I'm not sure. I'm going to be sleeping a lot today.

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I am. I can feel it. I can feel when

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I've done this, I'm going to go and lie down

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very warm. Last night, very warm. Indeed, I got no chocolate.

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I got some groceries yesterday, and all that money I

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spent on groceries, and it's like, I don't know, there's

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like there's nothing to show for it. It's like what

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what what? What? What? Where? Where's all the stuff? Well?

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Here is everything. It's like this, there's hardly any fan

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theirs of breakfast, cereal and some milk, some bread rolls. Yeah,

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there's not a lot of stuff there. I'm not quite

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sure how it came to be one hundred and twenty

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two pounds. I don't know, one hundred and twenty two pounds.

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I'd spend less than that in a month back in

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nineteen ninety. That was quite a long time ago. To

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be fair. But yeah, I remember when thirty pound was

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quite a big shop. It was a good like two

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three bagfuls of food for thirty pound, and you know

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one hundred pound that would be an overloaded trolley full

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of stuff. Yeah, I need to look into that. I

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need to mix some changes. I think because I ordered

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my food on uber Eats, I get it delivered the groceries.

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I'm beginning to think that they just add on a

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lot more to the price because the delivery is two pound,

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and maybe they I can't remember if they charge any

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four the there's another charge, isn't there. I'm not sure. No,

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not a delivery. I think the delivery was No. Yeah,

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maybe the delivery was four pound. I always leave a

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tip of two pound, which is not a lot, but

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it does add up over the weeks. But then I

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also carried all the stuff up. Oh yeah, because I

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got quite a few bottles of water, so I sart

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four could of packs. I got four packs of water.

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But I ended up helping because when I first got

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stuff for muber eats a whole one of the main

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points of getting deliveries is so that I don't have

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to carry the stuff. It kind of seems to defeat

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the object of getting a delivery if I'm carrying it.

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I don't know. It just seems a bit of a

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weird concept really, and I the more time has gone by,

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the more often I end up helping them with the

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with the delivery. And part of the reason I don't

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want to sort of carry it is because of my back.

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So I was trying to avoid, you know, doing all

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the bending over and stuff if all possible. I don't know. Yeah,

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I seem to have I mean I did delivery. This

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is a few weeks ago. It was a takeaway delivery.

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I think it was pizza. Rub me up to come

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down and collect it. It's like, no, do you You

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come in and you knock on my door. That's that's

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how it works since the winter delivery driver is not

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even knock on your door anymore. Did you This is

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I'm just moaning today. Did you know in England, well,

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where I used to live, and probably the same in

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other places, maybe not London, but the same you know

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in like towns and stuff. In the eighties, the early eighties,

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maybe the middle eighties, even in the nineties, I think,

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but definitely in the eighties you'd order a taxi, they

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would knock on your door, don't actually knock on your

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door to come and collect, to let you know the

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taxes there. And then someone discovered the horn, and I

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think one of them must have seen the other one

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do it. I guess it's a bit like in an

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animal kingdom, isn't it. You see a monkey breaks a

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nut with a rock, like oh, and they all start

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doing it. It's a little bit like that, I think.

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And one taxi driver saw another taxi driver not getting

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out of the cab, not getting out of the car,

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and just bibbing his horn relentlessly until the person came out.

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Bear in the mind this is before mobile phone, and

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so the taxi couldn't phone, couldn't phone, you know, the

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person in the house. And then it just became that.

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That's how it became like everyone just bibbed their horn.

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And now they don't bid their horn. It's just they

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just sit there and maybe the phone you or there's

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you got apps now? And they said, you're a text,

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you're cars here, this is the registration of your car.

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The driver's name is unpronounceable. Potentially I try and pronounce

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the delivery driver's names. I do and they seem to

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like it. I think they appreciate the fact they've given

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it a go. But I get it wrong so often

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so hi abjubalandon bum bum dumb and they laugh. I

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remember one says that he said, name's my name is Jamie. Okay, sorry,

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I get it wrong, but I give it a go.

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I give it go, do I do? Because I don't

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know why. I just get bored. I guess baba di

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ba ba ba boom b.

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I don't know about oper I'd kind of like to

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stop using them, really because it's expensive. But it's getting

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to the point. You know, McDonald's won't even deliver here now.

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They've delivered here before. They delivered either if you went

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on their website or downloaded their app, or if I

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was to go through Uber Eats or one of the

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other ones delivery or whatever, and they would deliver. McDonald's

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not anymore. They're decided it's too far away, which is

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kind of ironic because it's one of the closest places

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there is. I get deliveries from places way further away

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than that. The McDonald's here, well, the closest McDonald's probably

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about five minutes in the car from from my way.

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I live just one straight road. It's really it's not

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far at all. I wonder why that is. Maybe I

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don't know. I don't know, mind you. The McDonald's always

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seemed to be cold when it got to me. No, not,

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I've not ordered it many times, but I've done a

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bit of market research, and other neighbors that have got

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McDonald's they say the same thing, and the chips are cold,

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or the fryers are cold, and the burgers are kind

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of lukewarm. I've not used that term for years. Lukewarm

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where it came from. Lukewarm For those who don't know

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what it means, it just means slightly warm. It's a

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bit like when you fill your bath up and it's

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really way too hot, so you put some warm you

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put some cold water in, but then you put in

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too much cold water in and it goes from being

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too hot to too cold, too cool for a bath.

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It's not cold, but it's just lukewarm. And it's amazing

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how it's almost like three seconds too much to three

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seconds too much of cold water can turn it from

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being a nice bath to a cold bath. And then

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you need to put some more hot water in, but

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you have to unplug, you have to let some water

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out because it takes ages to get it hot again

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or warm. Strange and that it's one of those. It's

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an anomaly that needs to be sorted out. Forget space travel.

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We need to sort that one out. We need to

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figure out what going on there anyway, Tammy is the

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first question. Oh, by the way, my neighbor is he's

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doing all right? He's for those that want to know,

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still in the hospital. He's had a scan, like a

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full proper body scan, not like the ones I do

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with the recordings, but inside this big tube. And apparently

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the moment that because he kept moving around, I said,

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there wasn't the right time to start dancing.

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Was it?

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Really? We laughed. I mean, I think it's because you

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can't stop talking. He literally cannot stop talking. Is I

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was trying to figure what is it?

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What is it that.

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Creates someone that cannot stop talking? I can be a

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little bit like that myself.

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Is it.

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Disliking silences or pauses? But it's kind of talking without

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listening as well? So I do have a tendency of talking,

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but I can also listen, and it's it's not a monologue,

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not not like here when I do this, This is

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a monologue, isn't it? I guess, isn't it. It's a

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monologue monologo. But in person it's a two way street.

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But it depends on what the conversation or topic is.

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So if you start talking about boxing, providing your boxing

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fan and you know something about boxing, it's going to

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be a two way conversation like equally, but I'm going

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to be excited about what I'm going to say next,

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So I will be just waiting for you to stop

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talking so I can talk, but I will also be

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listening to what you're saying, and i'll readjust what I'm

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going to say depending on what you just said. It's

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almost like as a big cure things that I want

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to say, and they're just waiting impatiently to get on

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the ride the next roller coaster, which is my verbal

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diarrhea that's about to pop out my mouth when I

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talk next. It's a little bit like that. But I

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noticed that I can't listen to someone that's talking about

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something I'm not interested in, unless it's kind of in

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a scenario like this, you know, it's you know, never

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got my eyes closed and it's just relaxing. It's a

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kind of different thing. But in a real life situation,

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when there's a person just talking at me constantly for

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hours and hours, it's I find it hard. I just

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I don't, I don't not very good with that stuff.

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I've known a couple of people like that in my past,

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both really lovely people, genuinely really nice people. Where they

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once they start talking, I'd struggle to follow where they

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were going. One. Yeah, it's I think it's a there's

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a common thread, and I think I've kind of in

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some ways absorbed part of that kind of personality in

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order to produce these recordings in a way, because that's

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kind of how I started off. When with the let

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Me Boy to Sleep, it was I mean, it was

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just another version of something I'm previously done before anyway,

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which was speaking out quietly I think, or thinking out quietly,

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something like that. And there was another one, I forget

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the name of it, but it was where I was

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just I guess, stream of consciousness, just talking NonStop, and

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I realized I could do it. I could do it

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really easily. It was there was no no effort, nothing,

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it took, yeah, no energy. It was just the easiest

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thing in the world to just talk. I'm sure it

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could be with anyone else as well. I'm not I'm

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not saying I'm special, although all my teachers told me

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I was special. And but in a real life situation,

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you know, because if it's so, if you met me

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in real life, and of course as soon as you

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saw me, you'd want to rip my clothes off. Not

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because I'm sexiest, because I'm wearing really horrible clothes. It's

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unless you were, I mean to be fair, if you've

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if you're used to hearing me, listening to me just

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waffling on like I do, and you're used to just

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feeling relaxed, just maybe just the idea of listening to

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me when you think of me, maybe you feel quite

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relaxed in sign and perhaps my voice does send you

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to sleep. So if you saw me in person, met

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me in real life, it might be weird. I mean,

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it'd be weird, obviously, you know. I think if you've

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got together with all the people who have met me,

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they'll always say the same thing. Weird. Not in a

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bad way necessarily, but weird. But I can't quite put

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my finger on it is something not the same as

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other people, but not in a good way. You know,

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there's it's one good you know, you could feel sort

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of so proud of yourself. I'm not like other people,

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but with me, it's always been like I wish I was.

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And then you say other people, what's other people?

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What?

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Everyone is the same except you are? They obviously not?

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But I do have an abnormal brain, so I don't.

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I'm on the spectrum of something, but I just don't think.

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I don't think it's I don't think it's been discovered yet.

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Whatever spectrum I'm on, it's an unknown quantity. Wow, I

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would like my friend has just had this. I haven't

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ever started the podcast ever yet. Sorry, Sorry Tammy and

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Jonathan and Tina, who've got questions. I am going to

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answer the questions, I promise, but at the same time,

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I can't stop talking. It's I forgot what I was

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going to say. Now now that I've just I've interrupted,

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did myself rudely and completely forgot what I was going

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to say something about being on the spectrum and notes gone.

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It's gone out? Me ed, What was I going to

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say something about it? Should I get tested? Oh? So

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my neighbor he had a full scan. So I basically

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he had a scan to first of all, which was

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a cat scan, which scans the bones and the skeletal system.

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I do believe it scans other things as well, but this,

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this full body scan was it goes in depth, so

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scans your brain just you know it basically your entire body.

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And i'd like to I don't know if I particularly

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want to have a body scan, because who knows what's

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going on in there, and I think I perhaps rather

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not know in some ways, but I would like to

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have a brain scan because there's something not right with

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my brain. Then yeah, it's just and it's not it's

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just it's a fact there's something that never has My

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brain's never been correct, and so I've always been something off,

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a bit weird. So I'd love to get a brain

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scan and just for them to say, ah, because I

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might have only half a brain or something. You know,

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it might be one of those that it's like which

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would make make sense, but it might be just like,

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just have a what's that thing the brain? The brain stem.

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There might be a brain stem and just a little

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bit of jelly on the side. That might all. It

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might be maybe some peanut butter on the other side,

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a little bit of bread at the bottom. I don't

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know that, you know, there might not be anything in there,

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and it'd be nice to just find out, because that

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sort of bugs me. Doesn't bug me, but I just

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don't really understand it. Things like mental illness issues, mental

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health issues, conditions, you know, it's like bipolar schizophrenia. There's

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so many, isn't it so? And they're classed as brain conditions.

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So things like anxiety could be a brain condition, but

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quite often maybe is due to something that's happened in

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the past, due to a phobia, due to you know,

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social stuff, not necessarily also got autism as well. It's

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a brain thing, isn't it. So these are brain things.

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Then there's environmentally things that have changed someone environmentally behaviorally,

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which can technically be fixed with time, with therapy, with understanding.

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I guess that that you know, can hopefully be changed

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at least. So I wonder why, bearing in mind that

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there's millions of people with these brain conditions, let's just

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stay those three bipolar, schizophrenia and autism, and they're different things.

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I'm not saying autism is saying as bipolar schizophrenia I'm

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just saying, it's a it's a brain condition, isn't it.

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It's a brain thing, let's say call it. So why

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why are they're not just scan in every single person

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with everyone was bipolar. Just scan their brain, maybe every adult,

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not the kids. Maybe it's every adult with bipolar. Scan

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their brain once and then look and compare, do comparisons,

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and do the same with people with schizophrenia or there's

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lots of different conditions in between that, and you know,

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but then do the same with people with autism. Just

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scan the brains and look at it, look at them

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because at the moment, all they do the experts in

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this country anyway, I don't know. Maybe other countries they

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do more. But unless it's a brain injury, they don't

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tend to scan the brain all. So, which as guesswork

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based on how you feel and how you behave and

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previous history, previous medical history, you know, stuff like that.

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So just scan it. You know, if you get a

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broken bone, they scan the bone so they can see

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if it's broken or not. They can't tell if it's

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broken unless they scan it. I mean they probably can,

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but it probably it hurt a hell of a lot,

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could they have to really manipulate, you wouldn't they to

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sort of to feel where it's broken. But generally they

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do a scan so they can see if it's broken

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in one place, it's broken in two places, if everything's okay,

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you know, it's just as they're clean break And it's simple,

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simple process which is done probably millions of times a

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day around the world. So why can't they just do

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that with brains. And it's not about having lots of

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different scans, just one scan per person just to start with,

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because I know it's it's not safe to keep having

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keep having lots and lots and lots and lots of

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X ray scans and stuff. But just one per person

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and then they can get an idea what's really happening,

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because they do they do do brain scans on people,

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you know, when they do studies, but just do it

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on everyone. That's why, that's what I think, But only

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adults to start with. Leave the kids alone, you know,

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just to work on the adults first and then then

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perhaps move to the kids and work with that as well,

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because it's like a very different situation for kids to

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and for adults. So I don't know any ideas I

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suppose that any questions, but it could be, well, yeah,

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are you going to answer the questions that are for

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Q and A Friday, because that's why we're here. Weren't

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here to just be lectured about two about having brain scans.

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I don't know. I'm kind of quite passionate about that.

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I didn't realize I wasn't until just now quite passionate

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about possibly. It just makes sense to me. You know,

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I understand why they don't do full body scans for everyone.

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You know. It's simply because it's too expensive, apparently, and

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also they'd have to start treating people, you know, because

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you know, you know, you know, you know I'm saying,

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you know a lot.

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I know you know.

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It would Yeah, it would open up a big old

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box of frogs. I don't think that's the correct terminology,

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because generally people only get a body scan when they're

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not when it's too late, but you know, when there's

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an issue. And if my friend hadn't turned yellow, he'd

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still be in this flat, unaware that he was unwell,

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because he feels fine, and he'd be enjoying the football

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or the rugby, or the cricket or the tennis. I

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don't know what other sports you likes, but you know

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that's what he lives for, that's his passion in life,

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So he'd be having the time of He just enjoys

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his life, so he'd be doing that all weekend and

470
00:40:13.440 --> 00:40:19.559
be happy. Instead, he's stuck in a hospital ward and

471
00:40:19.679 --> 00:40:27.960
he feels fine, physically, feels absolutely fine. It's strange. I've

472
00:40:28.039 --> 00:40:31.079
never known anything like this before. It just kind of

473
00:40:31.159 --> 00:40:36.039
doesn't make sense to me because he's not around. Everyone's

474
00:40:36.039 --> 00:40:41.920
around does not feel fine. He's the only one. I'm

475
00:40:41.960 --> 00:40:44.360
not saying he's the only one in the hospital that's

476
00:40:44.360 --> 00:40:48.320
sitting in the hospital bed feeling absolutely fine and kind

477
00:40:48.320 --> 00:40:51.960
of wondering why they're there. You know, there's no way

478
00:40:51.960 --> 00:40:53.840
I could say that, because it's no way of knowing.

479
00:40:55.920 --> 00:40:59.599
But I'm pretty sure there's not many that are just

480
00:41:00.199 --> 00:41:05.239
he feels perfect, or he feels exactly how he always has.

481
00:41:06.639 --> 00:41:11.119
And you know, he's slowed down. He's nearly eighty's he

482
00:41:11.320 --> 00:41:15.519
walks a lot slower than he would do that he did,

483
00:41:15.679 --> 00:41:18.599
you know, a year ago even, but he just he's

484
00:41:18.679 --> 00:41:22.280
aging a bit and he's careful when he walks up

485
00:41:22.320 --> 00:41:24.880
and down the stairs. But so am I. Ever since

486
00:41:24.920 --> 00:41:27.760
I fell down them stairs a couple of years ago.

487
00:41:28.000 --> 00:41:35.239
I'm full on both handles, I'm holding onto both banisters.

488
00:41:36.719 --> 00:41:40.079
I've got like five coats in case of fall. You know,

489
00:41:40.159 --> 00:41:45.599
there's a trampoline at the bottom of the stairs. That

490
00:41:45.639 --> 00:41:47.480
would be the worst thing to fall on, wouldn't it

491
00:41:47.480 --> 00:41:50.079
because you just end up banging into the ceiling. That

492
00:41:50.360 --> 00:41:55.440
would be such a really yeah, you know someone fell

493
00:41:55.480 --> 00:41:57.440
off of you know, if you're going to catch someone

494
00:41:57.559 --> 00:41:59.639
that has falling off of building or something, you know,

495
00:42:00.199 --> 00:42:03.199
and you're trying to save them, a trampoline wouldn't be

496
00:42:03.239 --> 00:42:07.079
the right thing to use. It end up back on

497
00:42:07.159 --> 00:42:15.639
the building or maybe onto another building. I wonder how

498
00:42:15.719 --> 00:42:18.440
much it would cost to have a brain scan. I'm

499
00:42:18.440 --> 00:42:25.280
going to look that up now. How much is it

500
00:42:26.239 --> 00:42:33.760
to have a brain scan? How much the brain scan cost?

501
00:42:35.039 --> 00:42:37.239
So I'm going to put in UK because it's coming

502
00:42:37.360 --> 00:42:40.920
up the US. It's a little bit different, I think

503
00:42:41.719 --> 00:42:53.679
in the UK because after your brain scan, three hundred

504
00:42:53.719 --> 00:43:05.320
and thirty five pound Oh oh, okay, so that's the

505
00:43:05.360 --> 00:43:10.039
brain scan. So if you have this is private MRI scans.

506
00:43:11.760 --> 00:43:15.400
Let's have a look. I'm braining head scans oh m

507
00:43:15.519 --> 00:43:19.360
r R MRI plus brain and head scans from one

508
00:43:19.519 --> 00:43:28.199
ninety nine. Humm, Noughfield Health. I think I'd probably want

509
00:43:28.239 --> 00:43:33.000
to use if I put in my town to see

510
00:43:33.039 --> 00:43:35.480
if anything comes up, because I want to I'd want

511
00:43:35.480 --> 00:43:39.320
to go somewhere that I knew, you know, not some

512
00:43:40.559 --> 00:43:43.960
I mean there's one here called scan dot com. I mean,

513
00:43:44.000 --> 00:43:46.079
it might as well just call usselves scam. I'm just

514
00:43:46.320 --> 00:43:50.679
I don't know. I'd be scared top MRI dot com.

515
00:43:53.400 --> 00:43:56.920
So no, Field Health. That's a hospital. I do believe

516
00:43:58.280 --> 00:44:05.199
I'd want to go somewhere that was like well known

517
00:44:05.559 --> 00:44:09.039
or well regarded, you know. I wouldn't want to just

518
00:44:09.199 --> 00:44:14.360
go to random places. You have to save up for that.

519
00:44:14.679 --> 00:44:22.360
That's for pets. HCA, all right, So HCA, that's an

520
00:44:22.400 --> 00:44:28.639
actual healthcare. So that's a place private. CT scan that's

521
00:44:28.719 --> 00:44:32.760
a cat scan, though, isn't it. I don't want a

522
00:44:32.840 --> 00:44:43.800
cat scan. I'm talking about brains, brains departments, tests and scans,

523
00:44:44.679 --> 00:44:50.360
all tests and scans's have a look coloscopopy HPV screaming

524
00:44:57.440 --> 00:45:14.079
there's loads, there's loads, it's bone density all BlimE me. Okay, yeah,

525
00:45:17.199 --> 00:45:19.199
see this is all I wonder if you can just

526
00:45:21.719 --> 00:45:28.519
I don't know how much it costs. It's not saying, oh,

527
00:45:28.599 --> 00:45:31.119
we'll come out of that. I think that's like an

528
00:45:31.199 --> 00:45:33.239
insurance thing that you need to be part.

529
00:45:33.079 --> 00:45:35.000
Of M M.

530
00:45:43.320 --> 00:45:52.760
House. This is weird alliance medical. I just if I was, Oh,

531
00:45:52.920 --> 00:46:00.320
this is this soul look self pay? Am all right?

532
00:46:03.159 --> 00:46:09.480
Have a referral? Do not have a referral? Okay? Our locations?

533
00:46:12.519 --> 00:46:15.079
Why is it put Oh there is this one. It's

534
00:46:15.159 --> 00:46:19.840
actually in the hospital. It's actually in the hospital area.

535
00:46:20.840 --> 00:46:25.320
How weird? I didn't. Wow, it's next to the hospital.

536
00:46:27.079 --> 00:46:29.679
Does it say how much four hundred and forty pound

537
00:46:34.320 --> 00:46:37.760
I might do that? Actually? Is that the whole body scan?

538
00:46:38.000 --> 00:46:38.920
Is that whole everything?

539
00:46:40.679 --> 00:46:40.960
Or no?

540
00:46:41.280 --> 00:46:45.559
It's four pound. It's four hundred and forty pound for

541
00:46:45.719 --> 00:46:53.000
one body part. Blimey. So let's see what body parts

542
00:46:53.320 --> 00:47:02.039
are they offering. They're not even offer the brain unless

543
00:47:02.159 --> 00:47:06.920
it's head brain head, Yeah, brain head, four hundred and

544
00:47:07.000 --> 00:47:18.360
forty check prices four hundred and forty pounds, So they're

545
00:47:18.400 --> 00:47:19.840
not offering it for the whole body.

546
00:47:21.599 --> 00:47:21.840
Wow.

547
00:47:23.559 --> 00:47:32.440
Left thumb check prices? You're joking, they're left thumb. They're

548
00:47:32.480 --> 00:47:36.800
going to charge four hundred and forty pounds for a thumb.

549
00:47:38.719 --> 00:47:44.800
A thumb all together? Now a thumb, I mean, not

550
00:47:44.920 --> 00:47:50.199
even both funds. Four hundred and forty pounds for one thumb.

551
00:47:52.400 --> 00:48:01.119
That's I don't know. I can't. That's but if you

552
00:48:01.199 --> 00:48:05.880
have your spine done four hundred and forty how can

553
00:48:06.400 --> 00:48:09.719
a spine be the same price or a brain the

554
00:48:09.840 --> 00:48:12.480
brain in the head be the same price as a thumb.

555
00:48:14.800 --> 00:48:31.960
It's just all about little finger. I don't know. I

556
00:48:32.079 --> 00:48:34.599
was going to say I could it, says groin, right

557
00:48:34.719 --> 00:48:37.320
and left. They can't. Not even going to offer the

558
00:48:37.320 --> 00:48:40.719
whole of the grain. I would like to get scanned

559
00:48:40.760 --> 00:48:44.159
to see if there's still anything down there. I'm not sure.

560
00:48:44.480 --> 00:48:47.800
I haven't seen anything for years. Right and left thumb,

561
00:48:49.039 --> 00:49:00.519
Oh toenails. I'll come back to that another time. That's

562
00:49:00.639 --> 00:49:06.679
quite interesting. I might do that. So Tammy asks, how

563
00:49:06.719 --> 00:49:09.760
are you doing with the week of chaos around the house?

564
00:49:10.280 --> 00:49:14.400
Is your friend up and about now? It's been a

565
00:49:14.599 --> 00:49:18.880
very very weird week. I'll beat it up up and

566
00:49:19.039 --> 00:49:24.920
back for the hospital. They're went back every day since

567
00:49:25.159 --> 00:49:33.360
Friday last week. So it's Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday,

568
00:49:34.320 --> 00:49:37.559
so it's eight days in a row. I'm not going

569
00:49:37.639 --> 00:49:43.199
up today. He's got another visitor come in later afternoon,

570
00:49:43.920 --> 00:49:46.280
and I can't go up Sunday because there's no buses

571
00:49:47.239 --> 00:49:50.760
or there is that. The buses are just really random

572
00:49:51.280 --> 00:49:53.039
every two hours, and I'm not going to do that.

573
00:49:54.480 --> 00:49:56.400
As it is, it takes two hours if I get

574
00:49:56.400 --> 00:49:59.440
a bus, it takes two hours there, two hours back

575
00:50:00.039 --> 00:50:02.719
because of the waiting around, and there's two buses to

576
00:50:02.880 --> 00:50:07.119
catch and a bit of walking. So yeah, I'm not

577
00:50:08.119 --> 00:50:12.119
I'm having two days off and Vinnie, little Vinceta here

578
00:50:14.119 --> 00:50:16.159
seems to be quite happy that I'm here with him

579
00:50:17.000 --> 00:50:22.199
because yesterday he didn't even bark when I left. He

580
00:50:22.360 --> 00:50:24.000
just sat on the sofa and just looked at me,

581
00:50:24.199 --> 00:50:32.320
and I left and nothing. That's never happened before. You know,

582
00:50:32.440 --> 00:50:37.800
even if I just go out and pop around a corner,

583
00:50:39.840 --> 00:50:46.320
he would bark, but this time nothing. What's what's been

584
00:50:46.519 --> 00:50:51.639
weird is Vinnie's behavior the last week now. It's been

585
00:50:51.719 --> 00:50:55.480
off his food. I think that's partly because of the heat,

586
00:50:57.239 --> 00:50:59.320
but I know it's not just because of that, because

587
00:51:00.159 --> 00:51:02.960
I left some food out and I gave him a

588
00:51:03.000 --> 00:51:05.719
treat which you'd normally just gobble down, and he'd be

589
00:51:05.840 --> 00:51:10.599
like chewing on it. The tree was still on the

590
00:51:10.679 --> 00:51:17.079
settee when I got back six hours later, and then

591
00:51:17.119 --> 00:51:25.000
he ate it. So he's sulking, basically. I think it's

592
00:51:25.079 --> 00:51:33.199
been sulking the last few days. He refused to get

593
00:51:33.239 --> 00:51:37.559
on my bed. I didn't want to sleep with me,

594
00:51:38.960 --> 00:51:42.079
which is a little bit upset and actually because for

595
00:51:44.360 --> 00:51:47.159
however long I've had him two and a half years,

596
00:51:47.320 --> 00:51:50.800
he slept in my bed. We sleep together, you know,

597
00:51:50.920 --> 00:51:54.320
that's that's our thing. And that sounds weird, doesn't it.

598
00:51:54.880 --> 00:52:00.559
That's our thing, that is, and I don't care who

599
00:52:00.679 --> 00:52:06.320
knows it. Yeah, so he's but it's not just that

600
00:52:06.519 --> 00:52:08.599
he's been sort of sitting there just staring at me

601
00:52:08.840 --> 00:52:18.800
from the floor making the odd dollm So I don't know.

602
00:52:19.079 --> 00:52:22.920
But last night he got in the bed with me,

603
00:52:23.079 --> 00:52:27.079
which is nice. So that was that was quite a

604
00:52:27.119 --> 00:52:32.320
pleasant experience again, But then I woke up and he

605
00:52:32.440 --> 00:52:35.800
wasn't in the bed. He wasn't in the bedroom, he

606
00:52:35.960 --> 00:52:41.480
wasn't in the living room. I thought, where's Vinnegon? He

607
00:52:41.599 --> 00:52:46.519
was lying down in front of the front door, leaning

608
00:52:46.559 --> 00:52:49.280
against the front door. Now there's a chance that was

609
00:52:49.400 --> 00:52:52.039
just the coolest place for him to be. I hope

610
00:52:52.039 --> 00:52:59.639
that's the reason. But I think he is pining for

611
00:52:59.760 --> 00:53:05.039
his uncle who's in hospital, because he's used to hearing

612
00:53:05.119 --> 00:53:09.639
him coming and going. He knows everyone in this building.

613
00:53:11.079 --> 00:53:13.840
He knows where everyone is and who they are, and

614
00:53:14.199 --> 00:53:16.599
because he can smell and hear them, can't I guess,

615
00:53:16.719 --> 00:53:22.000
And I suppose to him this building's his, his home,

616
00:53:22.519 --> 00:53:25.440
even though we live in one of the flats. He

617
00:53:26.360 --> 00:53:28.639
gets excited to say lo to all of them. He

618
00:53:28.760 --> 00:53:35.000
knows everyone here, and his uncle opposite me is one

619
00:53:35.039 --> 00:53:43.239
of his favorite people. So I think he's getting a

620
00:53:43.320 --> 00:53:49.559
little bit sad missing him, just missing because sometimes you know,

621
00:53:49.920 --> 00:53:52.119
I'll be in here and Vinie will be out of

622
00:53:52.159 --> 00:53:56.599
the front door and my neighbor be talking to Vinnie

623
00:53:56.639 --> 00:53:59.199
through the door, just saying hell lo to. They'll be

624
00:53:59.239 --> 00:54:03.920
having this big, full on conversation starts leaving to it.

625
00:54:07.320 --> 00:54:09.159
So it's been a bit strange. I managed to do

626
00:54:09.239 --> 00:54:12.039
a few little bits. I did some washing, some laundry,

627
00:54:13.320 --> 00:54:16.400
and kind of ran out of food. But I managed

628
00:54:16.400 --> 00:54:20.519
to get some food yesterday afternoon or like early evening,

629
00:54:21.079 --> 00:54:32.920
got a delivery and what else. Oh, the other day,

630
00:54:33.079 --> 00:54:40.719
Vinnie stayed with a friend. This was Thursday morning. He

631
00:54:40.880 --> 00:54:46.320
stayed with Archie so that was a neighbor around the corner,

632
00:54:47.320 --> 00:54:51.599
and he's never he's never had a playdate before with

633
00:54:51.760 --> 00:54:56.679
another dog. Ever, it's the first time where he's been,

634
00:54:57.360 --> 00:54:59.679
you know, like a dog he knows really well and

635
00:55:00.119 --> 00:55:06.239
gone around because it's not an Archie for years. They're

636
00:55:06.320 --> 00:55:09.000
best friends. But they see each other not all the

637
00:55:09.119 --> 00:55:12.519
time but usually a few times a week, depending on,

638
00:55:12.840 --> 00:55:18.559
you know, if we managed to bump into them. But

639
00:55:18.679 --> 00:55:21.159
they just get on so well. And they had a

640
00:55:21.239 --> 00:55:24.880
really good time together playing in the garden. Apparently they

641
00:55:24.920 --> 00:55:28.119
were jumping all over her, the mother of the dogs,

642
00:55:28.559 --> 00:55:30.519
jumping all over her like while she was trying to

643
00:55:30.639 --> 00:55:35.119
use her phone or whatever, and probably fighting over attention,

644
00:55:35.320 --> 00:55:39.199
to be honest. So they had a really good time.

645
00:55:41.440 --> 00:55:46.159
And I think Vinnie is trying to go back there

646
00:55:46.239 --> 00:55:48.760
now because he wants to go back and play because

647
00:55:48.800 --> 00:55:52.480
he had a good time. But I can't really invite myself.

648
00:55:52.559 --> 00:55:55.480
Can I kind of knock on the door? Can Vinnie

649
00:55:55.519 --> 00:55:59.559
come to play? Please? Can Archie come out to play? Please?

650
00:56:00.800 --> 00:56:12.199
Can't really do that, can we really? Not? Really? Not really?

651
00:56:15.960 --> 00:56:18.079
So he's a bit grumpy, but I think he's enjoying

652
00:56:18.119 --> 00:56:21.159
me being here, So he's lying down next to me.

653
00:56:21.280 --> 00:56:26.280
He's on his side, his feet and his hands both

654
00:56:26.360 --> 00:56:32.000
all touching me. So he's I think he's a little

655
00:56:32.000 --> 00:56:41.719
bit more. He looks relaxed. He looks very relaxed. As

656
00:56:41.800 --> 00:56:49.199
far as my neighbor goes, he's it's the same. He's

657
00:56:49.320 --> 00:56:59.000
still in the hospital. He's chatting. He's bored, like everyone

658
00:56:59.079 --> 00:57:01.639
in there, he's bored being there. He doesn't want to

659
00:57:01.679 --> 00:57:04.639
be there. No one does that. They really, let's face it,

660
00:57:04.880 --> 00:57:10.880
who wants to be in a hospital. So, yeah, but

661
00:57:11.079 --> 00:57:14.559
he's physically fine. It physically feels fine. I mean, he's

662
00:57:14.599 --> 00:57:19.199
not physically fine, but he's he feels okay. He's actually

663
00:57:19.320 --> 00:57:25.039
very unwell. So it's just he hasn't got any symptoms

664
00:57:25.079 --> 00:57:33.079
other than the jaundice yees, So it's kind of I

665
00:57:33.159 --> 00:57:35.639
don't know. I think this is a very confusing for him,

666
00:57:37.079 --> 00:57:42.840
understandably so, and he's just waiting to go home. But

667
00:57:44.199 --> 00:57:47.559
there are some benefits, I don't mean, yeah, there's there's

668
00:57:47.559 --> 00:57:49.880
the things he's getting there that he doesn't get at home.

669
00:57:51.599 --> 00:57:56.159
One is being fed three times a day. He doesn't

670
00:57:56.199 --> 00:58:01.719
eat three times a day at home. So I think

671
00:58:01.719 --> 00:58:07.079
he's quite enjoying getting food, like having cooked food. I

672
00:58:07.159 --> 00:58:11.000
think he has a breakfast cereal in the morning, but

673
00:58:11.079 --> 00:58:19.719
he's having too cooked meals a day. He's he's made

674
00:58:19.800 --> 00:58:24.440
friends with the person sitting oppositely next to him, so

675
00:58:24.599 --> 00:58:29.840
he's he's got a captive audience to talk to, and

676
00:58:29.960 --> 00:58:32.800
he doesn't have that normally because he lives on his own.

677
00:58:33.320 --> 00:58:35.320
I mean, you know, I speak to him and I

678
00:58:35.440 --> 00:58:38.920
see him and stuff, but like me, I live on

679
00:58:39.000 --> 00:58:41.679
my own, so I used to being on my own.

680
00:58:43.519 --> 00:58:45.920
I think the difference between this is I enjoy I

681
00:58:46.119 --> 00:58:52.679
enjoy the silence, the quiet, but if you brought someone

682
00:58:52.760 --> 00:59:01.039
in here, the chances are I wouldn't stop talking, you know.

683
00:59:01.239 --> 00:59:07.079
So there's some similarities between us in a sense. Because

684
00:59:07.800 --> 00:59:12.440
that's why I tried to explain this to a few

685
00:59:12.519 --> 00:59:15.679
people over the years, why I don't want anyone in

686
00:59:15.760 --> 00:59:16.960
here when I'm watching boxing.

687
00:59:18.360 --> 00:59:18.519
You know.

688
00:59:18.559 --> 00:59:20.119
I had a couple of friends and say I'll come

689
00:59:20.119 --> 00:59:22.239
around and watch the A J fight, or we watched

690
00:59:22.280 --> 00:59:26.239
the Tyson Fury fight, and I said, no, I don't

691
00:59:26.280 --> 00:59:28.559
want you. Okay, I don't don't say I don't want

692
00:59:28.599 --> 00:59:31.280
you here, but no, I don't don't like people being

693
00:59:31.320 --> 00:59:36.480
here when I'm watching the boxing. For two reasons. Three reasons,

694
00:59:36.519 --> 00:59:43.440
actually four reasons. There's a few reasons there's I'll go

695
00:59:43.599 --> 00:59:50.559
through them. The first one is I can't relax if

696
00:59:50.599 --> 00:59:54.360
someone else is here. I don't relax. There's there's not Yeah,

697
00:59:54.559 --> 00:59:58.000
it's not relaxing for me to have. I'm relaxed when

698
00:59:58.000 --> 01:00:04.199
I've got Vinny here and that's it. No one else

699
01:00:04.719 --> 01:00:06.719
I don't have. I don't feel relaxed with anyone else.

700
01:00:07.480 --> 01:00:09.719
I'm not saying I won't ever feel, but at the

701
01:00:09.760 --> 01:00:14.119
moment and there's no one, but I feel relaxed around.

702
01:00:15.280 --> 01:00:17.719
But it doesn't mean that I don't you know, I

703
01:00:17.760 --> 01:00:19.800
don't mean I dislike the person if I don't feel

704
01:00:19.840 --> 01:00:25.440
relaxed around them. I just feel if there's someone else

705
01:00:25.559 --> 01:00:28.079
in my home, it puts me on edge a little

706
01:00:28.079 --> 01:00:34.760
bit a lot sometimes. And the other thing is they

707
01:00:34.840 --> 01:00:36.559
might want to sit next to me on the sofa.

708
01:00:36.840 --> 01:00:40.400
I don't like that. The only one that sits next

709
01:00:40.480 --> 01:00:44.079
to me is Vinnie. I don't That other side of

710
01:00:44.159 --> 01:00:49.400
the sofa is for rubbish, well not rubbish, but just stuff,

711
01:00:51.559 --> 01:00:55.480
just bits and bobs. Is just messy, but that's what

712
01:00:55.639 --> 01:00:58.880
that's that's what that chair is for. This side is

713
01:00:58.960 --> 01:01:03.159
for me and then if I'm not sitting in it,

714
01:01:04.840 --> 01:01:07.280
and then he can sit to the side, so he

715
01:01:07.360 --> 01:01:09.199
takes up a little bit at the other seat and

716
01:01:09.239 --> 01:01:13.239
a little bit of this seat, and that's his area.

717
01:01:19.000 --> 01:01:25.599
So that's two reasons. The third reason would be it'd

718
01:01:25.639 --> 01:01:33.039
be distracting. Having someone here is a distraction, which I

719
01:01:33.119 --> 01:01:39.079
don't want when I'm watching boxing or which is why

720
01:01:39.079 --> 01:01:44.679
I don't want ever, maybe not when I'm at home.

721
01:01:46.039 --> 01:01:52.320
Don't need that distraction. Generally, It's probably not true all

722
01:01:52.320 --> 01:01:56.639
the times, but generally, you know, if it's if I'm

723
01:01:56.639 --> 01:02:00.519
going to watch the boxing, I want to be able

724
01:02:00.559 --> 01:02:03.280
to concentrate on that. Even if I don't want to

725
01:02:03.320 --> 01:02:05.840
concentrate on it, I don't want to have to concentrate

726
01:02:05.920 --> 01:02:15.559
on what someone else is saying. Another reason is there's

727
01:02:15.599 --> 01:02:23.000
the chance they're going to talk constantly, which will annoy me,

728
01:02:23.639 --> 01:02:27.159
distract me. It will be I lose, I lose my

729
01:02:28.280 --> 01:02:30.760
for me to focus, I can do one thing at

730
01:02:30.800 --> 01:02:35.639
the time. That's it. And the other reason is because

731
01:02:35.719 --> 01:02:46.760
I will talk. I will definitely talk constantly, and that

732
01:02:46.840 --> 01:02:52.360
will distract me because I I might end up talking

733
01:02:52.360 --> 01:02:58.280
about something completely irrelevant and I'll miss an important thing

734
01:02:59.360 --> 01:03:01.679
in what I'm watching, whether it's a movie, whether it's

735
01:03:02.559 --> 01:03:07.960
a TV series, or whether it's the boxing. If I

736
01:03:08.039 --> 01:03:12.719
miss something when I'm on my own, I can rewind,

737
01:03:13.320 --> 01:03:20.280
but you know, ultimately it's because I haven't focused. But

738
01:03:20.360 --> 01:03:24.320
if I miss something, an important bit of information, because

739
01:03:24.440 --> 01:03:27.119
someone else is talking to me or I'm talking to them,

740
01:03:27.800 --> 01:03:39.599
that's just yeah, I can't really do that. I'm trying

741
01:03:39.639 --> 01:03:41.360
to think of any other reasons, but I think that's

742
01:03:41.480 --> 01:03:47.719
enough reasons. It's I hope that I could meet someone

743
01:03:47.800 --> 01:03:53.360
one day that I don't feel that way with, you know,

744
01:03:54.119 --> 01:03:56.679
without getting all romantic. I think it'd be quite nice

745
01:03:57.039 --> 01:04:00.880
one day I had someone I could just, I don't know,

746
01:04:00.920 --> 01:04:08.320
maybe hold hands with or cuddle, you know, maybe and

747
01:04:08.440 --> 01:04:12.840
watch boxing and maybe they'd be into boxing or they're

748
01:04:12.920 --> 01:04:14.480
just I don't, I don't know.

749
01:04:16.840 --> 01:04:17.440
The thing is.

750
01:04:19.280 --> 01:04:21.039
They'd have to sit on top of Vinny, wouldn't they,

751
01:04:21.079 --> 01:04:25.400
because he's that's where he sits, so be quite hard.

752
01:04:26.480 --> 01:04:29.119
But knowing him, because he's got a real thing for women.

753
01:04:30.840 --> 01:04:34.239
He's really got I mean, he gets so much attention

754
01:04:34.400 --> 01:04:37.960
from women. He knows it. He's a little bit of

755
01:04:38.000 --> 01:04:43.079
a little stud, nothing thin ears, so he'd be all

756
01:04:43.159 --> 01:04:51.320
over equally, if I had a female friend romantically, he

757
01:04:51.639 --> 01:04:57.639
would probably not want me going anywhere near. It'd be

758
01:04:59.199 --> 01:05:04.559
should be his friend basically in his mind, so he'd

759
01:05:04.599 --> 01:05:06.639
be hogging her. He'd be all over sitting on a

760
01:05:06.760 --> 01:05:11.960
lap and probably wouldn't He probably wouldn't even want me

761
01:05:12.639 --> 01:05:18.679
and her even sitting next to each other. The other

762
01:05:18.840 --> 01:05:21.960
thing is when you got visitors here, there always breathing,

763
01:05:22.039 --> 01:05:30.599
and they always breathing, make a noise breathing. I don't know.

764
01:05:30.719 --> 01:05:31.039
I just.

765
01:05:36.519 --> 01:05:38.519
I'd love to wish. I'd love to be the kind

766
01:05:38.559 --> 01:05:41.719
of person that just enjoyed being around lots of people.

767
01:05:43.679 --> 01:05:45.920
I can be around one person. I can have a

768
01:05:46.039 --> 01:05:48.239
conversation that was lad, wasn't it? I can have a

769
01:05:48.280 --> 01:05:53.159
conversation one on one. I cannot have a conversation with

770
01:05:53.280 --> 01:06:03.639
more than one person at a time without feeling I

771
01:06:03.719 --> 01:06:05.840
feel unwell when it happens. I'll be honest, I do.

772
01:06:06.960 --> 01:06:13.679
And there's certain situations I can't I cannot avoid. So

773
01:06:13.840 --> 01:06:18.280
if I see my dad is if he speaks to

774
01:06:18.280 --> 01:06:20.039
me on the phone, there's always both of them, him

775
01:06:20.079 --> 01:06:22.840
and his wife. Now I can talk to either of

776
01:06:22.880 --> 01:06:25.679
them on their own. Talking to both of them is

777
01:06:25.760 --> 01:06:30.239
hard because I can't, especially on the phone, I cannot

778
01:06:30.320 --> 01:06:37.000
gauge what their emotions are, or even in person, I

779
01:06:37.039 --> 01:06:39.719
can't really gauge what their emotions are. But because there's

780
01:06:39.840 --> 01:06:44.760
too I can can't. I can like probe one that's wrong,

781
01:06:44.840 --> 01:06:49.360
isn't it, but kind of ask questions of one person

782
01:06:49.840 --> 01:06:52.440
to find out what they mean. When you've got two

783
01:06:52.599 --> 01:06:58.719
people talking and then they're talking, they're kind of maybe

784
01:07:01.679 --> 01:07:04.199
I don't want to say, contradicting each other, maybe saying

785
01:07:04.239 --> 01:07:08.079
different things, but maybe talking about different things as well.

786
01:07:09.760 --> 01:07:17.320
I find it confusing. And you know when a few

787
01:07:17.440 --> 01:07:21.960
years ago, I used to say to my if my

788
01:07:22.079 --> 01:07:25.360
dad phoned a say, could take my speaker phone please,

789
01:07:26.519 --> 01:07:29.960
so I could just have one on one conversation. Be refused.

790
01:07:32.760 --> 01:07:37.920
And it's just because I really really struggle to communicate

791
01:07:38.960 --> 01:07:44.920
with more than one person. And this is nothing bad

792
01:07:45.000 --> 01:07:49.320
about my dad's wife, because she's brilliant. You know, I

793
01:07:49.519 --> 01:07:52.360
love talking to her one on one, the two of

794
01:07:52.440 --> 01:07:57.360
them together, I just struggle with anyone two people, and

795
01:07:57.480 --> 01:07:59.320
when they're together, even in front of me, it's like,

796
01:08:02.039 --> 01:08:07.840
is those silences that do me? Where I say something

797
01:08:07.920 --> 01:08:12.840
and there's just nothing. Now in person, you can see

798
01:08:12.880 --> 01:08:16.600
a facial expression. It doesn't mean I understand what it means,

799
01:08:16.680 --> 01:08:23.359
but it's something there's and I can question it. But

800
01:08:23.520 --> 01:08:25.600
on the phone and it's just silent, I can't I

801
01:08:25.720 --> 01:08:32.560
say hello, Well, I do he's still there. What you're feeling.

802
01:08:34.239 --> 01:08:38.880
What's your internal response to what I just said? It's

803
01:08:39.520 --> 01:08:42.720
I can't really do that. I mean I suppose I could,

804
01:08:42.880 --> 01:08:48.319
but it would be weird. You know, how are you

805
01:08:48.439 --> 01:08:53.760
both feeling specifically about the last paragraph? Is there an

806
01:08:53.800 --> 01:08:57.600
emotional response from what I just said. Please explain it

807
01:08:57.680 --> 01:08:59.720
to me in a way that I'll be able to

808
01:08:59.760 --> 01:09:11.560
want stand. I don't know, so I I've really it's weird.

809
01:09:11.640 --> 01:09:14.640
To tell you, what's weird. My neighbor on the phone,

810
01:09:18.039 --> 01:09:25.359
he can have a conversation backward and forward in person,

811
01:09:26.520 --> 01:09:29.640
not so much. He can, but it doesn't happen so much.

812
01:09:31.399 --> 01:09:33.760
It's really weird. Like he was talking about some stuff,

813
01:09:34.439 --> 01:09:38.880
talk about cricket or some spot. I've told him before

814
01:09:39.079 --> 01:09:42.399
when you talk about sports, I switch off. I stopped listening.

815
01:09:43.800 --> 01:09:47.880
I've told him many times about that. But I can't

816
01:09:48.000 --> 01:09:51.760
say that to him at the moment because it's rude.

817
01:09:52.800 --> 01:09:55.079
I mean, you could argue it's rude before but it

818
01:09:55.199 --> 01:09:59.119
was truthful. And in the past we've been talking and

819
01:09:59.600 --> 01:10:01.439
he will remind me of something he said to me.

820
01:10:01.520 --> 01:10:08.119
I said, oh, I'll probably just stop listening, which is true. Again,

821
01:10:08.520 --> 01:10:11.960
may be rude, but he laughed because I've told him

822
01:10:11.960 --> 01:10:15.319
if you if you talk too much at me, I'm

823
01:10:15.359 --> 01:10:17.000
not going to hear it. I'm going to switch off.

824
01:10:17.319 --> 01:10:20.680
And it's not because I'm not purposely switching off. It's

825
01:10:20.880 --> 01:10:26.880
just I'm so bored with what you're saying. Again, that

826
01:10:27.000 --> 01:10:31.720
sounds rude, doesn't it. It's not in a not in

827
01:10:31.800 --> 01:10:35.960
a rude way. It's just a factual thing. If you

828
01:10:36.760 --> 01:10:40.279
if it's interesting, you've got my attention, or if it's

829
01:10:40.399 --> 01:10:44.880
interesting to me, I mean, if I'm enthralled. So sometimes

830
01:10:45.479 --> 01:10:49.359
that's a weird thing. The amount of people I said

831
01:10:49.399 --> 01:10:52.640
this to and I don't mean to so someone maybe

832
01:10:52.680 --> 01:10:58.439
I see regularly dog walker, maybe even a friend, someone

833
01:10:58.479 --> 01:11:00.079
that I speak to, you know, say a load to

834
01:11:00.239 --> 01:11:03.439
maybe someone I've known for years, and I say something

835
01:11:03.520 --> 01:11:08.239
I was like, zing, it's like, wow, Okay, this is

836
01:11:08.319 --> 01:11:12.159
the first time you've got my interest since I've known you.

837
01:11:13.720 --> 01:11:17.880
And I shouldn't say stuff like that. But it's kind

838
01:11:17.920 --> 01:11:22.319
of true because I'm all in. I'm completely focused on

839
01:11:22.439 --> 01:11:25.520
what they're saying, and there's nothing more important to me

840
01:11:26.119 --> 01:11:28.880
in that moment than what they're going to say next.

841
01:11:32.039 --> 01:11:39.640
It's like super charged, super excited, majorly interested because I

842
01:11:39.760 --> 01:11:46.920
can't pretend. I can't fake interest. I can't. I can't

843
01:11:47.039 --> 01:11:49.439
do it. I tried to do it when I was

844
01:11:49.479 --> 01:11:53.239
a counselor, and I realized I can't. But then I

845
01:11:53.279 --> 01:11:55.279
also realized I didn't need to, because when I was

846
01:11:55.319 --> 01:12:00.720
a counselor, I was interested in nearly every situation there was.

847
01:12:01.279 --> 01:12:07.800
There was there was one person that just would not

848
01:12:08.039 --> 01:12:13.359
talk about anything while they were there, and I managed

849
01:12:13.399 --> 01:12:15.000
to get them to open up in the end, but

850
01:12:16.199 --> 01:12:20.840
that was difficult. But this, you know, I wasn't going

851
01:12:20.920 --> 01:12:24.000
to be rude, because that's I don't want to be rude.

852
01:12:24.039 --> 01:12:26.560
I don't mean to be rude anyway. Ever, it's not

853
01:12:26.680 --> 01:12:31.600
my thing. But almost telling someone that's the most that's

854
01:12:31.640 --> 01:12:35.279
the first time you've piqued my interest. Well, it's the

855
01:12:35.359 --> 01:12:38.760
most interesting thing you've ever said to me. That's almost

856
01:12:38.840 --> 01:12:41.039
like an insult, And it wasn't meant to be an insult.

857
01:12:41.359 --> 01:12:45.119
It's I guess it wasn't even supposed to be a compliment.

858
01:12:45.159 --> 01:12:50.159
It was just me being honest. Yet I have to

859
01:12:50.159 --> 01:12:53.479
stop myself saying stuff like that because I don't want to.

860
01:12:54.640 --> 01:12:57.159
I don't want to annoy people. I just want to

861
01:12:57.199 --> 01:12:58.640
let them to know that, let them know that I

862
01:12:58.720 --> 01:13:05.239
actually am rested and I'm seriously focused on what they're saying.

863
01:13:06.000 --> 01:13:08.680
And it could be the most pointless thing as well.

864
01:13:11.399 --> 01:13:15.199
You know, it could be talking about the zebra crossing,

865
01:13:15.680 --> 01:13:18.920
and for some reason, I'm interested in what they're saying.

866
01:13:20.760 --> 01:13:24.760
For some reason, in that moment, I'm suddenly really excited

867
01:13:24.760 --> 01:13:27.720
about talking about zebra crossings. And I don't know why.

868
01:13:29.399 --> 01:13:36.079
It's I don't know. It's a way. It's a weird one. Okay,

869
01:13:36.199 --> 01:13:38.880
I've never been excited about talking about zebra crossings, but

870
01:13:40.159 --> 01:13:49.479
it's yeah, mind you the other way, it goes the

871
01:13:49.520 --> 01:13:53.000
other way because I used to have a friend who

872
01:13:53.079 --> 01:13:57.199
would ask me to explain stuff to him. Okay, explain

873
01:13:57.319 --> 01:14:00.399
hypnosis to me. They just sit there and stare at me. Said, no,

874
01:14:01.199 --> 01:14:05.039
who want to know about hypnosis? Read a book? That

875
01:14:05.159 --> 01:14:08.359
was my attitude, and it was just because I'm not

876
01:14:08.439 --> 01:14:14.000
going to I don't know. I think if someone wants

877
01:14:14.079 --> 01:14:15.880
me to sit there and talk at them, I don't

878
01:14:15.920 --> 01:14:20.600
want to do it. I kind of clamber up. It's

879
01:14:20.680 --> 01:14:21.960
when they don't want me to do it, I just

880
01:14:22.079 --> 01:14:25.199
want to enjoy it more. No, that's not that's not true.

881
01:14:25.279 --> 01:14:25.600
It's just.

882
01:14:27.199 --> 01:14:29.760
That whole because I feel I think in that situation

883
01:14:29.920 --> 01:14:38.640
like that almost it was. I feel like I'm put

884
01:14:38.720 --> 01:14:45.119
on the spot a bit, and it's like, yeah, I

885
01:14:45.119 --> 01:14:46.840
think it's a bit like when someone says.

886
01:14:47.079 --> 01:14:48.199
Oh, so you've.

887
01:14:49.840 --> 01:14:52.880
So you know about if you ever ever heard about

888
01:14:52.920 --> 01:14:55.119
this thing, and say, yeah, we'll explain it to me.

889
01:14:55.199 --> 01:15:01.720
Then no, you said you heard about it, Yeah, explain it.

890
01:15:01.840 --> 01:15:04.760
No that that that's not what I do. I don't

891
01:15:04.840 --> 01:15:08.239
explain anything to anyone. I do, you know, do the

892
01:15:08.319 --> 01:15:12.800
Q and A Fridays. But that's I invite these questions.

893
01:15:14.079 --> 01:15:14.159
But.

894
01:15:17.560 --> 01:15:21.399
I'm not even sure what I'm trying to explain. You

895
01:15:21.520 --> 01:15:24.119
imagine being with someone in a room with someone and

896
01:15:24.199 --> 01:15:28.359
then just saying it's just something you're interested in. But

897
01:15:28.520 --> 01:15:33.119
then it's deciding that they want you to explain that

898
01:15:33.720 --> 01:15:36.680
to them in a way that they're going to understand it,

899
01:15:37.800 --> 01:15:43.039
and there's going to be follow up questions. It almost

900
01:15:44.199 --> 01:15:49.880
it sort of turns into some kind of oral exam again.

901
01:15:50.000 --> 01:15:52.840
That sounds wrong, but you know what I mean. It's like,

902
01:15:53.119 --> 01:16:01.159
just no, I'm not I don't want to be tested. No,

903
01:16:04.239 --> 01:16:09.560
but I do like talking to people. This is not

904
01:16:09.680 --> 01:16:11.479
answering your questions, Tammy.

905
01:16:11.279 --> 01:16:11.439
Is it?

906
01:16:11.800 --> 01:16:15.159
Sorry? How are you doing with the week? Chaos around

907
01:16:15.199 --> 01:16:16.720
the house? Is your friend?

908
01:16:16.760 --> 01:16:17.039
And up?

909
01:16:17.079 --> 01:16:21.079
Okay? So I have answered the questions. I'm just I

910
01:16:21.199 --> 01:16:26.520
felt like my brain was fried yesterday the last three

911
01:16:26.640 --> 01:16:32.399
days really, but I got home yesterday and I just

912
01:16:34.399 --> 01:16:39.239
I was struggling to even put a sentence together, so

913
01:16:39.479 --> 01:16:46.119
tired and just it was overloaded.

914
01:16:46.399 --> 01:16:46.760
I was.

915
01:16:48.399 --> 01:16:49.159
Is that the right word?

916
01:16:49.319 --> 01:16:49.479
You know?

917
01:16:50.039 --> 01:16:56.479
It was too much, way, too much of everything, seeing

918
01:16:56.560 --> 01:17:05.279
too many people, spoken to too many people, and overload.

919
01:17:05.840 --> 01:17:10.720
Did I say it's overload? Probably for my senses were overloaded,

920
01:17:12.039 --> 01:17:19.079
my ears, my hears my hearing, my ears, my eyes physically, emotionally,

921
01:17:19.479 --> 01:17:24.079
probably smells, tastes. Maybe I don't know. Everything was just

922
01:17:24.399 --> 01:17:32.000
too much for me, And yeah, I don't ever want

923
01:17:32.039 --> 01:17:33.880
to go back there, but I kind of got to

924
01:17:34.079 --> 01:17:36.840
go back on Monday because I promised, plus he asked

925
01:17:36.880 --> 01:17:45.520
me to. But yes, it's too much for me. Really,

926
01:17:45.720 --> 01:17:54.399
I don't not when also, I was thinking how often

927
01:17:54.439 --> 01:17:58.279
have I actually left my flat and left this area,

928
01:17:59.520 --> 01:18:01.680
you know, this this little area that I live. How

929
01:18:01.760 --> 01:18:06.119
often have I left there to wander as far as

930
01:18:06.199 --> 01:18:18.359
town where we're on a bus a taxi. And really

931
01:18:18.680 --> 01:18:22.680
in the last two years, I can only think of

932
01:18:23.560 --> 01:18:33.000
three occasions, maybe four occasions, actually maybe five are come

933
01:18:33.159 --> 01:18:38.199
just find five, four or five. So yeah, in the

934
01:18:38.319 --> 01:18:42.119
last couple of years, I've left this little area maybe

935
01:18:42.199 --> 01:18:47.680
five times. Once it was to a funeral, another one

936
01:18:47.960 --> 01:18:53.119
was to the supermarket twice I think, another one was

937
01:18:53.199 --> 01:18:57.199
to the doctors, another one was to the dentist. So

938
01:18:57.680 --> 01:19:03.560
that's five times in probably two that I've left my

939
01:19:03.680 --> 01:19:10.479
little village. And this week I've done eight different days

940
01:19:10.520 --> 01:19:18.800
in a row. So yeah, it was a bit. There's

941
01:19:18.840 --> 01:19:20.479
a lot. It's a lot.

942
01:19:20.720 --> 01:19:20.920
Man.

943
01:19:22.359 --> 01:19:26.560
Jonathan asks what your normal dinner consists of? Ever go

944
01:19:26.720 --> 01:19:29.439
out to eat? And if so, what variety of Christine

945
01:19:30.359 --> 01:19:32.720
The answer to the next one, the last question is no,

946
01:19:34.000 --> 01:19:36.439
I don't go out to eat. If I did go

947
01:19:36.560 --> 01:19:40.960
out to eat, I'm quite open minded. But the last

948
01:19:41.039 --> 01:19:48.199
time I went out to eat, I know I did

949
01:19:48.319 --> 01:19:51.560
go out. No, I did. I went out just before Christmas.

950
01:19:51.600 --> 01:19:54.239
I forgot about that. So it's just up the road

951
01:19:54.279 --> 01:19:57.600
for me, it's not far. And it was a pub

952
01:19:58.319 --> 01:20:03.520
I went to just before Christmas. Went there with some

953
01:20:03.720 --> 01:20:11.479
family members to celebrate Christmas before Christmas, and so that

954
01:20:11.840 --> 01:20:16.399
was a roast dinner or Christmas dinner. It was weird

955
01:20:16.479 --> 01:20:18.239
because I thought the whole place was going to be

956
01:20:18.359 --> 01:20:22.239
busy and it wasn't. We were the only Christmas dinner

957
01:20:22.279 --> 01:20:25.760
there and everyone else was just in a pub like normal.

958
01:20:26.960 --> 01:20:31.119
I felt very a bit silly. I just figured the

959
01:20:31.159 --> 01:20:33.399
whole I really did. I thought the whole place would

960
01:20:33.439 --> 01:20:44.520
be busy, so it'd be kind of quite anonymous. Sitting

961
01:20:44.560 --> 01:20:49.359
there with Christmas hats on is not something I would

962
01:20:49.399 --> 01:20:52.960
normally do in a pub. I just know if everyone

963
01:20:53.000 --> 01:20:56.840
else is doing it, maybe, but not. No, not the

964
01:20:56.960 --> 01:21:01.720
only table and were just sitting there. It's a it's

965
01:21:01.760 --> 01:21:03.960
like we were celebrating Christmas in the summer. That's what

966
01:21:04.079 --> 01:21:09.720
it felt like a bit. So that was a Christmas dinner.

967
01:21:11.640 --> 01:21:19.680
Other than that, the last time I went out, oh,

968
01:21:20.359 --> 01:21:24.439
the last time I went out, I did go to

969
01:21:24.600 --> 01:21:31.560
the Child, not to the Indian restaurant locally. I think

970
01:21:31.600 --> 01:21:34.279
that was ten years ago, ten years something like that.

971
01:21:34.840 --> 01:21:38.079
I did go to a pizza place. A pizza hut

972
01:21:38.199 --> 01:21:45.159
in town. I think that was also probably nine years ago,

973
01:21:47.560 --> 01:21:52.359
ten nine, ten years ago. I used to go to

974
01:21:52.760 --> 01:21:55.600
the Wimpye in town because there was a time when

975
01:21:55.600 --> 01:21:58.279
i'd go. I'd go out quite regularly, and that kind

976
01:21:58.319 --> 01:22:04.720
of used over the years. And I do I did

977
01:22:04.800 --> 01:22:10.359
go to McDonald's yesterday. No, I didn't eat in but

978
01:22:10.960 --> 01:22:13.680
I think it was even Monday or Tuesday. I went

979
01:22:13.720 --> 01:22:17.760
into McDonald's and had a meal in there, which is

980
01:22:17.840 --> 01:22:26.399
the first time I've done that in quite some time. Yeah,

981
01:22:27.640 --> 01:22:29.359
I think the last time I went there was when

982
01:22:29.399 --> 01:22:32.600
I went to have my I went to the doctors,

983
01:22:32.760 --> 01:22:34.520
and the doctors is like a little bit out of

984
01:22:34.520 --> 01:22:37.520
the road, so I think I went to McDonald's after

985
01:22:37.600 --> 01:22:45.880
going to the doctors to have a check up. Yeah.

986
01:22:46.119 --> 01:22:50.479
So other than that, No, I don't. I don't go out.

987
01:22:51.600 --> 01:22:55.960
I don't really have any kind of fancy cuisine like

988
01:22:56.199 --> 01:23:02.439
French or Spanish, or Italian or Jamaica or Somalian or

989
01:23:02.720 --> 01:23:11.119
Thaie or German or I don't know what kind of Greek,

990
01:23:11.479 --> 01:23:14.159
you know. I don't. I've not really gone to many places,

991
01:23:15.319 --> 01:23:17.680
and I have been to places when I was living

992
01:23:17.720 --> 01:23:23.800
in London. I've been to there a Takeaspa, which wasn't

993
01:23:23.840 --> 01:23:30.199
act Spanish. I loved it, just so many different things

994
01:23:30.279 --> 01:23:33.880
to choose from. It's that perfect for me and I

995
01:23:34.039 --> 01:23:35.880
used to go there with my cousin. It's just up

996
01:23:35.880 --> 01:23:44.439
the road from where I lived. Outside of that, I'm

997
01:23:44.520 --> 01:23:46.479
trying to think I went to a pizza place, but

998
01:23:46.600 --> 01:23:49.279
that was that's a long time ago. I think I

999
01:23:49.359 --> 01:23:55.279
went to the me what was it, not the pizza

1000
01:23:55.399 --> 01:23:58.159
the Pizza Hut. It might have been the Pizza Hut,

1001
01:23:59.600 --> 01:24:07.680
and it was back in two thousand and twelve December,

1002
01:24:09.079 --> 01:24:10.199
not twenty twelve.

1003
01:24:10.319 --> 01:24:10.560
Wow.

1004
01:24:10.800 --> 01:24:26.640
Yeah, No, twenty thirteen December, I think. I don't even know. No,

1005
01:24:27.000 --> 01:24:34.079
twenty twelve December. I think it was really wow. What whoa, whoa, whoa.

1006
01:24:34.560 --> 01:24:37.680
It's just a little while ago. That's the last time

1007
01:24:37.680 --> 01:24:41.600
I had a pizza, I think in a restaurant. No,

1008
01:24:41.720 --> 01:24:44.920
it's not. I had one with my ex girlfriend in

1009
01:24:48.039 --> 01:24:50.840
I think i'd moved here and I've been in maybe

1010
01:24:51.479 --> 01:24:54.399
a year, so thatut what he would have been around

1011
01:24:56.279 --> 01:25:02.359
two thousand and sixteen, I guess because I moved here

1012
01:25:02.399 --> 01:25:11.199
twenty fifteen. My normal dinner at the moment I ate

1013
01:25:11.199 --> 01:25:16.640
a fair amount of breakfast, cereal and then sandwiches or

1014
01:25:17.840 --> 01:25:21.399
something I can just stick in the airfryer. It's just.

1015
01:25:23.600 --> 01:25:23.840
For me.

1016
01:25:24.119 --> 01:25:26.920
Preparing food is a bit of a chore. I don't

1017
01:25:26.960 --> 01:25:29.760
really want to be bothered with it, but I do it.

1018
01:25:30.560 --> 01:25:32.079
But it's just bits and bobs.

1019
01:25:32.159 --> 01:25:32.359
Really.

1020
01:25:33.600 --> 01:25:37.960
I don't really cook myself much as in like a

1021
01:25:38.079 --> 01:25:40.319
full meal and stuff like I used to when I

1022
01:25:40.439 --> 01:25:44.239
was younger. All I'm going to try and get back

1023
01:25:44.279 --> 01:25:44.479
to that.

1024
01:25:44.600 --> 01:25:44.960
It's just.

1025
01:25:47.680 --> 01:25:49.560
Just don't feel like it a lot of the time.

1026
01:25:55.680 --> 01:26:00.479
Tina asks if there was a movey about you and Vinnie,

1027
01:26:01.319 --> 01:26:05.279
what song would be? What songs would be on your soundtrack?

1028
01:26:06.840 --> 01:26:09.199
I'd like dire straits. Why I worry to be one

1029
01:26:09.239 --> 01:26:23.399
on mine? O, Katina, I don't know. Wow, that's one

1030
01:26:23.439 --> 01:26:25.600
of the hardest questions I think I've ever been asked.

1031
01:26:27.000 --> 01:26:28.279
What songs.

1032
01:26:30.479 --> 01:26:30.760
There is?

1033
01:26:37.119 --> 01:26:39.840
There are some songs that I would have in my

1034
01:26:42.479 --> 01:26:45.760
if it was a movie about me. I can't think

1035
01:26:45.800 --> 01:26:49.680
about him. I'm not sure what he would like. But

1036
01:26:49.800 --> 01:26:53.000
if I know, for going back in the past about me,

1037
01:26:54.880 --> 01:27:02.680
I would mix together an no ario that happened on

1038
01:27:02.680 --> 01:27:08.840
an occurrence with a song of that particular period. So,

1039
01:27:09.239 --> 01:27:12.720
for example, when I was in the hospital having my

1040
01:27:12.760 --> 01:27:16.199
appendix out. There was two songs that were in the

1041
01:27:16.399 --> 01:27:19.439
charts or that I were two songs that I really

1042
01:27:19.640 --> 01:27:23.399
liked because I asked for them to be played on

1043
01:27:23.560 --> 01:27:29.439
the hospital radio. So one was totally Clips of the

1044
01:27:29.520 --> 01:27:35.399
Heart by Bonnoy Tyler and the everyone was down Under

1045
01:27:35.720 --> 01:27:40.399
by men at work? Do you come from a down up?

1046
01:27:40.560 --> 01:27:44.600
Do you come from? Do you come from a do

1047
01:27:44.680 --> 01:27:46.840
you what? Do you come from? A man? Down under?

1048
01:27:47.640 --> 01:27:47.800
Well?

1049
01:27:47.840 --> 01:27:51.039
We mingle and then thunder can you hear? Can you

1050
01:27:51.119 --> 01:27:56.239
hear it? And tutor the clips of the hard turn

1051
01:27:56.520 --> 01:27:59.760
around even now, and then I get a little bit,

1052
01:28:00.239 --> 01:28:07.920
I mean they turn around? What other songs? And then

1053
01:28:09.119 --> 01:28:17.560
when I was about sixteen fifteen, sixteen fifteen, yeah, fifteen,

1054
01:28:18.880 --> 01:28:27.319
living in my step mother's my step grandmother's flat, Papa

1055
01:28:27.399 --> 01:28:32.279
Don't Preach from Madonna that was on. I watched that

1056
01:28:32.520 --> 01:28:37.920
video a few thousand times. I had actually had it

1057
01:28:38.000 --> 01:28:42.520
on video, and I was just I used to freeze

1058
01:28:42.600 --> 01:28:46.840
and stop it at certain points. I just used to

1059
01:28:46.920 --> 01:28:50.479
enjoy watching the dance Madonna. I was. I was kind

1060
01:28:50.520 --> 01:28:52.800
of really in love with Madonna at that time, I think.

1061
01:28:54.720 --> 01:28:55.239
And then.

1062
01:28:58.880 --> 01:29:01.680
There was another period. I know, I'm not including Vinie,

1063
01:29:01.720 --> 01:29:03.760
and this said, I am sorry, as kind of it

1064
01:29:03.840 --> 01:29:05.960
seems to be like a question i'd need to ask him,

1065
01:29:07.920 --> 01:29:12.720
however strange that might sound, I'm not really sure what

1066
01:29:12.840 --> 01:29:18.199
it'd say. There was a period that I got really

1067
01:29:18.319 --> 01:29:22.399
stuck into this particular song, which was blamed on the

1068
01:29:22.399 --> 01:29:28.800
Boogie by the Old Jackson's. And I don't know why

1069
01:29:28.840 --> 01:29:32.000
I kept thinking about this song, but it was nineteen

1070
01:29:32.479 --> 01:29:38.960
eighty nine and I'd lost my previous job working in

1071
01:29:39.039 --> 01:29:46.680
a pub. I'd walked out of that, and then I

1072
01:29:46.880 --> 01:29:51.520
needed a new job, and then I had some problems

1073
01:29:51.560 --> 01:29:53.840
with the person I was living with that was living

1074
01:29:53.840 --> 01:29:55.880
in a house that I was in, so I needed

1075
01:29:55.920 --> 01:30:00.880
to get out of there. Everything was kind of went

1076
01:30:00.920 --> 01:30:04.720
a bit weird, and I remember walking on to the

1077
01:30:05.079 --> 01:30:07.800
pier just to get away from everything, and it's a

1078
01:30:07.880 --> 01:30:11.039
windy it's just like the beginning of the year, very

1079
01:30:11.119 --> 01:30:15.119
windy and cold, and I just just kept singing the

1080
01:30:15.239 --> 01:30:18.880
babies there was dancing when you see them, and don't

1081
01:30:18.920 --> 01:30:22.720
getting no loving. It's no way, believing on a certain shame,

1082
01:30:23.399 --> 01:30:26.840
believing in the moonlight, believing on a good time, believing

1083
01:30:26.920 --> 01:30:29.119
on a boot. I don't know why, but I just

1084
01:30:29.239 --> 01:30:35.520
kept singing it and it's weird just at that moment.

1085
01:30:36.279 --> 01:30:42.920
And then when I went to France, picked up a

1086
01:30:43.039 --> 01:30:50.399
hitchhiker on the way to Kent. I was gonna stay

1087
01:30:50.479 --> 01:30:56.199
in a tent for a couple of weeks or a week,

1088
01:30:57.319 --> 01:31:02.239
and because a land lady and landlord were going away

1089
01:31:02.680 --> 01:31:04.199
for some reason, they didn't want to leave me in

1090
01:31:04.239 --> 01:31:10.079
the flat on my own, which I don't really understand

1091
01:31:10.159 --> 01:31:14.760
what that was about, but they didn't so they because

1092
01:31:14.760 --> 01:31:21.039
I was looking after their kid. But it was now

1093
01:31:21.159 --> 01:31:23.279
summer holidays and the kid had gone to be with

1094
01:31:23.399 --> 01:31:29.479
the dad for I think the holiday season, summer season,

1095
01:31:29.560 --> 01:31:33.119
and they wanted to go and they didn't want to

1096
01:31:33.359 --> 01:31:35.600
they'd want me there, so they kicked me out for

1097
01:31:35.640 --> 01:31:38.760
a week. So I went to Dover. They gave me

1098
01:31:38.800 --> 01:31:42.319
a left because I were going that way anyway, and

1099
01:31:42.840 --> 01:31:45.279
picked up They picked up a hitchhiker and away, which

1100
01:31:45.359 --> 01:31:49.840
was annoying. She kept talking to me, trying to make

1101
01:31:49.920 --> 01:31:58.560
friends and stuff, and so we both got off at Dover.

1102
01:31:58.840 --> 01:32:01.560
That's it. Got off at Dover. He was going over

1103
01:32:01.640 --> 01:32:06.880
to France to see a friend. I ended up going

1104
01:32:06.920 --> 01:32:10.960
to France with him, so he went to France, spent

1105
01:32:12.199 --> 01:32:14.479
I don't know how many days. It was a week

1106
01:32:14.600 --> 01:32:22.520
or so, just traveling around France, going through the Alps, hitchhiking,

1107
01:32:23.079 --> 01:32:28.159
walking trains is a bit of everything, you know. So

1108
01:32:28.560 --> 01:32:39.439
we traveled across France. I think, BlimE me, oh yeah,

1109
01:32:39.560 --> 01:32:42.880
his friend was teaching a rock climbing. That's it.

1110
01:32:45.039 --> 01:32:45.680
And then.

1111
01:32:47.159 --> 01:32:52.880
We came back, went to Paris and went back that way.

1112
01:32:53.239 --> 01:32:59.000
But I just that period. I remember being in the

1113
01:33:03.960 --> 01:33:05.920
I don't know if it was in Dover or if

1114
01:33:05.920 --> 01:33:08.319
it was in Calais, but I was in one place

1115
01:33:08.439 --> 01:33:13.119
where on the monitor, the TV screen, they were playing

1116
01:33:14.840 --> 01:33:21.640
like a prayer. It Madonna's main song from the album,

1117
01:33:22.359 --> 01:33:26.319
after the one that she was singing Papa Don't Preach,

1118
01:33:26.399 --> 01:33:30.920
which was True Blue. So yeah, that would be a

1119
01:33:31.039 --> 01:33:48.439
song for that period. I don't know. I guess it's

1120
01:33:48.520 --> 01:33:53.760
just different songs at different times of my life with Vinnie.

1121
01:33:53.920 --> 01:34:06.199
I don't know what song knew. I mean, there was

1122
01:34:06.239 --> 01:34:09.359
one song I remember the Smiths. There's a song called

1123
01:34:09.479 --> 01:34:13.640
last Night I Dreamt Somebody Loved Me and such a

1124
01:34:13.720 --> 01:34:18.760
good song. I really like it, and that would be

1125
01:34:18.920 --> 01:34:24.000
quite representative of certain parts of my life in the past.

1126
01:34:32.760 --> 01:34:35.439
There was another song when I was trying to do

1127
01:34:35.640 --> 01:34:42.119
my dissertation for my degree. There was I was really

1128
01:34:42.279 --> 01:34:46.359
struggling to do it. I mean, in reality, it almost loud,

1129
01:34:46.399 --> 01:34:51.640
wasn't it. Again, in reality, it wasn't difficult. I just

1130
01:34:51.760 --> 01:34:55.600
wasn't interested in what I was doing. I wasn't interested

1131
01:34:55.760 --> 01:35:02.159
in the subject. I was interested in counseling. But the

1132
01:35:02.399 --> 01:35:05.840
specific dissertation I had to do, which is I think

1133
01:35:05.880 --> 01:35:09.319
it was? Was it fifty thousand words? I can't remember.

1134
01:35:12.720 --> 01:35:15.079
I just could. I did it, but I just it

1135
01:35:15.319 --> 01:35:19.800
took everything. But what I did. I started listening to

1136
01:35:19.960 --> 01:35:23.640
this song that really perked me up, and it was

1137
01:35:25.920 --> 01:35:30.399
I think it was not R Kelly. What's his name,

1138
01:35:32.840 --> 01:35:40.560
I forget his name, big Star, but I forget his name.

1139
01:35:40.880 --> 01:35:42.520
I think it was Will i Am was on the

1140
01:35:42.600 --> 01:35:49.800
thing boom boom, let me hear you go ooh ooh,

1141
01:35:50.880 --> 01:35:54.920
let me hear you go oh, let me hear go ooh.

1142
01:35:58.760 --> 01:36:05.760
That wasn't a good impression of the song. Yeah, it wasn't.

1143
01:36:05.800 --> 01:36:16.279
Actually whoops limerhugel bang bang No. I think I think

1144
01:36:16.319 --> 01:36:33.680
in the two different songs, Yeah, I don't really know

1145
01:36:33.840 --> 01:36:42.039
what song I would represent Vinnie other than he's just

1146
01:36:42.159 --> 01:36:48.039
a naughty boy sometimes Sleeping Beauty. If there's a song there,

1147
01:36:53.119 --> 01:36:58.680
mm hmm, I mean if I was too, Yeah, if

1148
01:36:59.239 --> 01:37:03.600
if it was a sound track to my life, there

1149
01:37:03.640 --> 01:37:10.359
would be. See even I think it's not even so

1150
01:37:10.479 --> 01:37:13.479
much a soundtrack about what's going on for me, more

1151
01:37:13.720 --> 01:37:18.239
just what I was listening to at that time. So,

1152
01:37:18.720 --> 01:37:24.319
when I was very very young, I remember sitting laying

1153
01:37:24.399 --> 01:37:27.720
down in a bed or something, and I could see

1154
01:37:27.760 --> 01:37:31.840
the radio, and the radio was playing Gary Glitter I

1155
01:37:32.000 --> 01:37:36.399
Love You Love like I Love you, Love you Love

1156
01:37:36.479 --> 01:37:40.640
me to love, I love you, love me love Ooh,

1157
01:37:41.520 --> 01:37:44.640
I love you loving it, And it was such a

1158
01:37:44.720 --> 01:37:49.000
good song. I really liked it. But I'm not even

1159
01:37:49.039 --> 01:37:51.000
sure if I could talk at that point, but I

1160
01:37:51.199 --> 01:37:54.359
liked listening to that song. That'stally. What year was that

1161
01:37:54.720 --> 01:38:05.520
I Love You Love? It was in the seventies? I

1162
01:38:05.840 --> 01:38:13.119
Love you isn't it weird? It's not coming up? Okay,

1163
01:38:13.439 --> 01:38:20.159
got it now? Nineteen seventy three, so yeah, I was.

1164
01:38:24.520 --> 01:38:31.479
It was another number one in nineteen seventy three, so yeah,

1165
01:38:31.520 --> 01:38:36.319
i'd have been two two and a half. I don't

1166
01:38:36.359 --> 01:38:38.279
know exactly when it came out. Let's have a look,

1167
01:38:39.119 --> 01:38:43.119
what what month did it come out in the UK

1168
01:38:44.079 --> 01:38:47.199
because they were playing it all November nineteen seventy three,

1169
01:38:47.279 --> 01:38:51.279
so I would have been three. It spent four weeks

1170
01:38:51.319 --> 01:38:59.680
at the top of the charts. Okay, yeah, so it was.

1171
01:39:00.000 --> 01:39:02.439
It was a really good, good song. So I remember

1172
01:39:02.600 --> 01:39:05.319
hearing that and lying down in my maybe it was

1173
01:39:05.439 --> 01:39:08.920
my cop It's weird. I've got that memory though, at

1174
01:39:08.960 --> 01:39:13.560
being so young. I just remember the song because it

1175
01:39:13.680 --> 01:39:16.479
was like like the radio used to be, they'd be

1176
01:39:16.600 --> 01:39:22.640
playing the same songs very irregular Arly. I've got another

1177
01:39:22.720 --> 01:39:26.840
memory of in the children's home in South End on

1178
01:39:26.960 --> 01:39:30.720
the radio then playing Rock around the Clock like but

1179
01:39:30.920 --> 01:39:34.880
quite often one, two, three o'clock, four o'clock Rock, four o'clock,

1180
01:39:34.920 --> 01:39:37.920
five o'clock, nine o'clock Rock, seven o'clock, two o'clock, five

1181
01:39:37.920 --> 01:39:43.079
o'clock Rock on a Rock, six round the clock, And

1182
01:39:44.079 --> 01:39:47.279
and I thought, I remember looking that up Rock around

1183
01:39:48.880 --> 01:39:55.199
the Clock, Rock around the Clock. So of course it

1184
01:39:55.319 --> 01:40:00.399
was a huge hit in the fifties, but also charted

1185
01:40:00.600 --> 01:40:04.520
in the sixties and the seventies in the UK. So

1186
01:40:04.640 --> 01:40:16.600
let's seve it, look suver, look, let's sever look, let's

1187
01:40:16.640 --> 01:40:24.439
save look so charts nineteen fifty six. Oh okay, so

1188
01:40:24.520 --> 01:40:30.439
we charted in nineteen fifty five fifty six. It was, yeah,

1189
01:40:30.479 --> 01:40:41.439
a huge hit in in OH. I don't know, we're

1190
01:40:41.479 --> 01:40:46.039
definitely in America. I don't know, doesn't oh UK singles. Yeah,

1191
01:40:46.039 --> 01:40:49.760
it was number one here as well, and then it

1192
01:40:49.920 --> 01:40:55.119
was also number forty one in nineteen sixty six, then

1193
01:40:55.239 --> 01:41:01.239
nineteen sixty eight. It was released again in nineteen seventy four.

1194
01:41:04.439 --> 01:41:08.279
See that doesn't make sense to me. Nineteen seventy four,

1195
01:41:10.720 --> 01:41:14.600
which makes you wonder how long was I that in

1196
01:41:14.720 --> 01:41:17.720
that children's home. But then just the fact that they

1197
01:41:17.760 --> 01:41:19.600
were playing it on the radio doesn't mean that'd just

1198
01:41:19.680 --> 01:41:23.319
be released. But it was number twelve in the UK singles,

1199
01:41:26.640 --> 01:41:29.880
so I just remember them playing it. One, two, three o'clock,

1200
01:41:29.960 --> 01:41:33.439
four o'clock Rock, five, six, seven o'clock, eared o'clock rock.

1201
01:41:35.439 --> 01:41:38.319
I tell you something strange about that song. For me,

1202
01:41:39.119 --> 01:41:44.000
it's got an atmosphere there's Maybe it's because I used

1203
01:41:44.039 --> 01:41:47.720
to hear it in weird periods of my life, maybe,

1204
01:41:49.279 --> 01:41:51.319
but there's a feeling connected to that song.

1205
01:41:51.439 --> 01:41:51.680
For me.

1206
01:41:53.159 --> 01:41:56.720
It's a strange feeling. It's not a horrible feeling. It's

1207
01:41:56.760 --> 01:42:03.399
just a certain emotion and connected to it and the

1208
01:42:03.600 --> 01:42:07.479
sound of it. It's unlike any other song.

1209
01:42:10.000 --> 01:42:10.239
To me.

1210
01:42:10.800 --> 01:42:14.239
It's just that one, two, three, club four o'clock. But

1211
01:42:14.880 --> 01:42:19.840
verse six, I don't know, something unique. I mean all

1212
01:42:19.840 --> 01:42:23.720
I know all songs are probably uniquey in some way,

1213
01:42:23.800 --> 01:42:27.800
but this was just and then he had it. I

1214
01:42:27.880 --> 01:42:30.640
want to shake rel and roll. I want to shake

1215
01:42:30.840 --> 01:42:34.560
rail and roll, so that one as well. And I

1216
01:42:34.680 --> 01:42:37.439
imagine that's probably got re released at this quite often

1217
01:42:37.479 --> 01:42:51.279
as well, quite often. Ah is interesting Bill Haley and

1218
01:42:51.399 --> 01:42:54.399
the comics, Is that right? Bill Haley and the comics.

1219
01:43:09.359 --> 01:43:16.039
Let's have a look. I want to check. The thing

1220
01:43:16.159 --> 01:43:21.039
is they all looked really old for some reason. They

1221
01:43:21.119 --> 01:43:29.960
looked quite old in the like in the videos. I mean,

1222
01:43:30.079 --> 01:43:33.680
you know from the fifties and stuff. They looked quite

1223
01:43:33.760 --> 01:43:40.760
old there what Bill Haley did. But in reality he

1224
01:43:40.880 --> 01:43:43.880
probably wasn't he just because it was all in black

1225
01:43:43.960 --> 01:43:47.920
and white. It was born nineteen twenty five, thirty five,

1226
01:43:48.079 --> 01:43:52.319
forty five, fifty five, so yeah, it was like twenty

1227
01:43:52.359 --> 01:43:58.119
eight probably at the time, twenty two, twenty twenty eight,

1228
01:43:58.239 --> 01:44:02.279
twenty twenty six. They're not exactly old as it. He

1229
01:44:02.479 --> 01:44:07.000
just had his face. It's weird though, because if you

1230
01:44:07.079 --> 01:44:08.960
look at him, he's got that that what that that

1231
01:44:09.119 --> 01:44:12.000
crooked smile A bit like Elvis? And he had his

1232
01:44:14.319 --> 01:44:17.359
and he was a round before Elvis, wasn't he? I

1233
01:44:17.479 --> 01:44:25.560
think nineteen fifty two? When did Elvis decide to pop up?

1234
01:44:27.000 --> 01:44:31.760
Was it nineteen fifty four or was it nineteen fifty six?

1235
01:44:34.319 --> 01:44:41.720
I'm not sure. I want chic around and roll. I

1236
01:44:41.880 --> 01:44:43.439
want chic around and roll.

1237
01:44:44.439 --> 01:44:50.920
Do do do Do Do Do do do do? Hmm?

1238
01:45:01.000 --> 01:45:18.279
Okay, all right, yeah, I'm just wondering how many hits

1239
01:45:18.319 --> 01:45:22.840
he had. How many hits did Shake Rout and roll

1240
01:45:22.960 --> 01:45:37.680
Man have? Billy Billy Bill Hayley nineteen fifty six studio albums, Ok,

1241
01:45:37.720 --> 01:45:41.960
I know singles. I want to know about the singles.

1242
01:45:43.359 --> 01:45:50.319
Fifty two nineteen fifty two. Stop beating around the mulberry bush. Okay,

1243
01:45:51.840 --> 01:45:59.000
I will stop. Crazy Man Crazy, Patty Cake? Why does

1244
01:45:59.079 --> 01:45:59.880
that sound for me?

1245
01:46:00.119 --> 01:46:00.560
You are.

1246
01:46:02.479 --> 01:46:07.720
Fifty three? Live it up, Live it up, Leave it up?

1247
01:46:11.399 --> 01:46:15.079
So the US in America number twelve, and these were

1248
01:46:15.079 --> 01:46:18.359
all in the top thirty. So that's a hit, isn't

1249
01:46:18.359 --> 01:46:24.359
that really? Crazy Man Crazy was number twelve? And then

1250
01:46:25.600 --> 01:46:32.439
Live it Up? Why does that sound familiar? Chattanooga Cheu Chuo?

1251
01:46:34.119 --> 01:46:39.199
I wonder why that didn't hit. Yes, Indeed, the nineteen

1252
01:46:39.199 --> 01:46:44.800
fifty four Rock around the Clock and then Shake Out

1253
01:46:44.880 --> 01:46:49.359
and Roll that wasn't as successful, but it's still a hit.

1254
01:46:52.479 --> 01:47:01.239
Birth of the boogie wasn't so much razzle dazzle burn

1255
01:47:01.359 --> 01:47:05.600
that candle rock a beat boogie, See you Later, Alligator,

1256
01:47:06.399 --> 01:47:10.840
see you later, Alligator in a While, Crocodile, see you later,

1257
01:47:10.840 --> 01:47:15.840
aig in a while, Crocodile, and in the minute and

1258
01:47:16.720 --> 01:47:25.439
to b a Rock the Saints see you later ready.

1259
01:47:26.560 --> 01:47:29.960
I think that would be the same kind of sounders

1260
01:47:30.479 --> 01:47:41.279
Rock around the Clock as well. Lean Jean Rock around

1261
01:47:41.319 --> 01:47:46.760
the Clock re release ah nineteen seventy four, Shake ROUTTL

1262
01:47:46.800 --> 01:47:50.279
and Rolls on the back, and then again later on

1263
01:47:50.479 --> 01:47:54.199
they released see you Later Alligator. Now I'm looking at this,

1264
01:47:54.720 --> 01:47:59.119
I'm thinking, yeah, that's why they didn't re release see

1265
01:47:59.119 --> 01:48:02.720
you Later Radigator in any other country according to this,

1266
01:48:03.079 --> 01:48:08.279
except England or the UK. So Rock around o'clock went

1267
01:48:08.359 --> 01:48:11.880
to number twelve in the UK, and see You Late

1268
01:48:11.960 --> 01:48:25.279
Radygaia went to number fifty two nineteen seventy four. I'm

1269
01:48:25.399 --> 01:48:30.640
sure that's that said nineteen seventy three, though earlier. See

1270
01:48:31.800 --> 01:48:44.640
this is Wikipedia not always correct, not always correct. Me, me, me, me, me, Oh,

1271
01:48:46.800 --> 01:48:48.039
what have I got any emails?

1272
01:48:51.760 --> 01:48:51.800
No?

1273
01:48:52.399 --> 01:49:04.079
No, no, no, no junk mail, just yeah, nothing. I

1274
01:49:04.159 --> 01:49:06.479
think I might have answered all the questions. I'm sorry

1275
01:49:06.560 --> 01:49:08.600
they're not very good. I'm not done a very good

1276
01:49:08.720 --> 01:49:16.199
job today. I think Tina with the if I was

1277
01:49:16.279 --> 01:49:19.560
going to do a new movie in my life, there's

1278
01:49:19.840 --> 01:49:22.319
I think I just want all the best, all the

1279
01:49:22.439 --> 01:49:24.680
songs that I like the best or that I really

1280
01:49:24.800 --> 01:49:39.399
love to be played throughout. There's quite a few. There's

1281
01:49:39.479 --> 01:49:54.880
quite a few songs. Yeah, that's a lot of songs.

1282
01:49:56.760 --> 01:49:59.239
So I'm finding myself falling asleep. So I'm going to

1283
01:49:59.319 --> 01:50:03.520
go thank you. If you hear any pauses, it's just

1284
01:50:03.680 --> 01:50:06.840
me to drift en off. So thank you for listening.

1285
01:50:07.039 --> 01:50:10.239
Remember to be kind to yourself because you do deserve

1286
01:50:10.319 --> 01:50:13.079
to be happy, and be gentle of yourself because you

1287
01:50:13.159 --> 01:50:33.760
deserve to feel safe. Lots of love. Bye. Relax in

1288
01:50:33.880 --> 01:50:44.600
a more deep and meaningful way, maybe in a way

1289
01:50:44.800 --> 01:50:53.279
that can not just allow you to feel calmer now

1290
01:50:54.479 --> 01:51:03.039
and throughout the time we've spend together here, not just

1291
01:51:03.359 --> 01:51:08.920
relaxed at the end of the recording when it's finished,

1292
01:51:09.000 --> 01:51:15.560
and you can enjoy that sense of comfort and peace.

1293
01:51:20.319 --> 01:51:32.920
But also I think it would be nice to have

1294
01:51:33.640 --> 01:51:50.640
those feelings of relaxation continue for longer after the recording

1295
01:51:50.680 --> 01:52:00.399
has ended, so that you can still and if it

1296
01:52:03.319 --> 01:52:10.560
from listening to my voice, maybe in a few hours time,

1297
01:52:12.479 --> 01:52:25.920
perhaps tomorrow, and then by listening regularly, especially if you

1298
01:52:26.159 --> 01:52:30.359
find like some people do and myself as well. I

1299
01:52:30.960 --> 01:52:37.640
sometimes I find one particular recording that really resonates with me,

1300
01:52:42.039 --> 01:52:44.399
and I just listen to it over and over again

1301
01:52:46.680 --> 01:52:59.640
every morning, every evening. There was this recording from We're

1302
01:52:59.680 --> 01:53:04.319
Going Act to about nineteen ninety nine. It was it

1303
01:53:04.479 --> 01:53:09.199
wasn't hypnosis, but it was a guided visualization, so it

1304
01:53:09.319 --> 01:53:16.439
kind of was hypnosis really, and I managed to find

1305
01:53:16.520 --> 01:53:20.560
it again and it still has the same effect on me,

1306
01:53:23.199 --> 01:53:32.920
And part of it was the person's voice relaxed me.

1307
01:53:36.800 --> 01:53:42.920
She just felt so peaceful, and I'd look forward to

1308
01:53:43.119 --> 01:53:49.520
listening to her in the morning and in the evening.

1309
01:53:55.960 --> 01:54:04.960
And I knew before even pressing the play button that

1310
01:54:05.079 --> 01:54:08.520
as soon as I've done that pressed the play button.

1311
01:54:09.319 --> 01:54:20.319
This was in the days of CD players pressed the

1312
01:54:20.399 --> 01:54:25.680
play button. In fact, it might have even been a

1313
01:54:25.800 --> 01:54:30.239
tap tape recorder. I'd lie down on the bed and

1314
01:54:30.359 --> 01:54:48.800
then even without necessarily listening to her words because I

1315
01:54:48.920 --> 01:54:56.359
had them memorized. Really, it was as if my body

1316
01:54:58.319 --> 01:55:11.720
knew exactly what to do, and the muscles just almost

1317
01:55:11.840 --> 01:55:32.239
went into automatic relaxation, and I remember my mind would

1318
01:55:32.319 --> 01:55:32.880
slow down.

1319
01:55:38.560 --> 01:55:38.720
Now.

1320
01:55:40.920 --> 01:55:47.600
Now, I was listening to this recording in the early

1321
01:55:47.720 --> 01:55:55.520
days of learning hypnosis, and long before I ever made

1322
01:55:56.079 --> 01:56:03.399
any videos or audio recordings myself, because I didn't start

1323
01:56:03.479 --> 01:56:13.199
doing that till two thousand and six. But I knew,

1324
01:56:17.159 --> 01:56:30.239
I knew how helpful I found being able to just

1325
01:56:30.439 --> 01:56:38.399
let go, to have that trust in the person that

1326
01:56:38.479 --> 01:56:48.239
I'm listening to, knowing that it's going.

1327
01:56:48.199 --> 01:56:48.399
To be.

1328
01:56:52.279 --> 01:56:59.399
Just as relaxing, if not more so. Each time you

1329
01:56:59.520 --> 01:57:15.239
hear my've you may feel the same. Some people have

1330
01:57:15.399 --> 01:57:28.479
been listening to me for over a decade, maybe not solidly,

1331
01:57:29.600 --> 01:57:35.800
obviously not twenty four hours a day, but maybe people

1332
01:57:35.960 --> 01:57:51.479
come back. Some people may be listen every day. That's

1333
01:57:51.520 --> 01:58:00.399
something that I do which you may not realize. Listening

1334
01:58:05.000 --> 01:58:22.800
is when I record these recordings. Now, for example, I

1335
01:58:23.119 --> 01:58:35.880
also am affected by the words that I say. So

1336
01:58:36.079 --> 01:58:45.399
if I set you focus on your feet, notice your

1337
01:58:45.520 --> 01:58:57.399
feet relaxing, I will be focusing on my feet. I

1338
01:58:57.520 --> 01:59:15.279
will be noticing my feet relaxing. If I said, focus

1339
01:59:15.399 --> 01:59:23.239
on your hands, then maybe notice the difference between each hand.

1340
01:59:27.399 --> 01:59:34.279
Perhaps notice the air in the room, the temperature of

1341
01:59:34.359 --> 01:59:46.359
the room. On the backs of your hands. You may

1342
01:59:46.520 --> 01:59:51.479
start to notice what almost feels like a very light breeze,

1343
01:59:55.399 --> 01:59:59.399
even though there may not be any type of breeze

1344
01:59:59.640 --> 02:00:12.920
at where you are right now. And as you become

1345
02:00:13.600 --> 02:00:27.960
aware of your hands, I'm also aware of how relaxed

1346
02:00:28.279 --> 02:00:52.039
my hands our feeling now and when it comes to

1347
02:00:53.600 --> 02:00:59.600
potentially drifting off to sleep, which may be the reason

1348
02:01:00.039 --> 02:01:16.159
you're listening, I also feel drowsy when I make these recordings.

1349
02:01:20.880 --> 02:01:37.279
I also notice my mind drifting. In fact, at times

1350
02:01:39.359 --> 02:01:53.520
I've actually fallen asleep without even noticing, and then I

1351
02:01:53.680 --> 02:02:04.960
carry on talking. And it's only when I listen back

1352
02:02:05.199 --> 02:02:14.159
to do the editing I hear snoring and I think,

1353
02:02:14.600 --> 02:02:24.800
I don't remember snoring. I remember talking. This snoring was

1354
02:02:25.399 --> 02:02:31.680
a pick turned up. That's why I sound like when

1355
02:02:31.760 --> 02:02:50.600
I snore, I get really into the whole experience. I

1356
02:02:50.680 --> 02:02:59.960
don't know how you feel. How relaxed do you feel

1357
02:03:00.079 --> 02:03:10.640
in your feet, how relaxed you feel in your hands.

1358
02:03:25.720 --> 02:03:37.960
I have noticed more and more that the more relaxed,

1359
02:03:39.720 --> 02:03:55.479
deeper level of comfort you feel, the easier your breathing becomes.

1360
02:04:02.079 --> 02:04:18.720
It's almost like that additional muscle relaxation. So this allows

1361
02:04:18.800 --> 02:04:49.880
you debreath easier without necessarily focusing on your breath, however,

1362
02:04:50.159 --> 02:05:18.840
being able to notice the ease in which you breathe

1363
02:05:19.119 --> 02:06:08.880
so naturally. You breathe so very easily and smoothly. Whenever

1364
02:06:09.079 --> 02:06:27.359
I imagine my breathing improving. When I've got my eyes closed,

1365
02:06:33.399 --> 02:06:46.279
I tend to visualize a beautiful field with trees and

1366
02:06:46.560 --> 02:07:19.920
flowers producing all that life giving oxygen. And it feels

1367
02:07:20.199 --> 02:07:41.920
nice to, if nothing else, just taking some time away

1368
02:07:46.680 --> 02:08:29.960
from everything, enjoying that feeling of peace serenity with a

1369
02:08:30.359 --> 02:09:22.199
joyful heart. Time seems to just drip by, so very slowly, relaxed,

1370
02:09:28.119 --> 02:10:07.279
so deeply peaceful, completely unattached to any thoughts whatsoever in

1371
02:10:07.439 --> 02:11:10.199
this moment, completely free notice in that your mind has

1372
02:11:10.439 --> 02:11:49.960
slowed down, slowed down because nothing really requires your attention.

1373
02:12:06.479 --> 02:12:20.720
You can enjoy the physical sensations of allowing the stress

1374
02:12:21.119 --> 02:12:33.640
to drip out of your body, dripping out of every

1375
02:12:37.039 --> 02:13:02.439
part of your body and being released from your brain

1376
02:13:07.720 --> 02:13:42.920
huge your mind slowly but surely, the muscles in your

1377
02:13:43.119 --> 02:14:00.439
legs relax yesh.

1378
02:14:04.800 --> 02:14:11.840
Rs real.

1379
02:14:16.920 --> 02:14:57.600
So very deeply, res so deeply, And the feelings, the

1380
02:14:57.840 --> 02:15:22.399
pleasant feelings in your own bonds and shoulders, deepening each

1381
02:15:22.840 --> 02:16:00.920
part of your body further and deeper and deeper hmm madicine,

1382
02:16:04.159 --> 02:16:30.680
The feedings in the back of your neck, the feelings

1383
02:16:30.880 --> 02:17:09.239
in your wrists, muscles, in the front of your body.

1384
02:17:19.639 --> 02:18:03.719
I also feeling peaceful, deeping. There's a sense of peace

1385
02:18:08.280 --> 02:18:12.719
spreads through your very core.

1386
02:18:42.920 --> 02:18:42.959
E.

1387
02:18:43.200 --> 02:19:02.799
Even when you focus on your mind, her mind becomes

1388
02:19:10.159 --> 02:20:32.159
be and slower and deeper, relaxing, so very slow, your

1389
02:20:32.440 --> 02:21:29.120
stomach taste felling your stomach hel back. Notice, Notice how

1390
02:21:29.360 --> 02:21:47.319
relaxed you now feel in the hall of her back.

1391
02:22:12.479 --> 02:22:20.120
In a spy from your brain all the way down

1392
02:22:21.520 --> 02:22:31.319
the middle of your back, sending and receiving millions of

1393
02:22:31.600 --> 02:23:03.159
messages every day deecomfort increasing deeply relaxed.

1394
02:23:32.840 --> 02:24:00.239
M h.

1395
02:24:03.479 --> 02:24:12.719
Spreading those signals down your spine or cord into air

1396
02:24:13.000 --> 02:24:31.719
every part of your body, your shins and your calf

1397
02:24:31.920 --> 02:25:28.360
muscles we albos. Feelings of peace and tranquility spreading through

1398
02:25:28.520 --> 02:25:45.840
your body, tips of your toes, to your eyes, your fingers,

1399
02:25:50.239 --> 02:26:36.239
all the way to your lower back, letting go reletting base,

1400
02:26:52.040 --> 02:27:06.479
drifting mind, just wander in.

1401
02:27:06.559 --> 02:27:07.120
A way.

1402
02:27:16.440 --> 02:27:57.079
Happy to let go, let go completely, let go, so

1403
02:27:57.479 --> 02:28:54.799
tranquil your whole body enjoying a sensor listening God.

1404
02:28:59.639 --> 02:29:59.040
Nored PEPs.

1405
02:30:08.399 --> 02:31:25.559
Pace, enjoy the space, this space of peace and safety, safe,

1406
02:31:25.760 --> 02:31:35.200
firy fy relaxed.

1407
02:32:02.719 --> 02:32:57.559
Us using.

1408
02:33:04.319 --> 02:33:29.000
Letting go. Maybe we can just focus on the different

1409
02:33:29.399 --> 02:34:04.200
parts of your body, just to notice you forehead and

1410
02:34:04.479 --> 02:35:06.079
your eyes. Jun said this, noticing in the sense of

1411
02:35:09.079 --> 02:36:38.440
complete freedom, absolute freedom, dress day, dress day. He's fall

1412
02:36:40.239 --> 02:38:03.440
energy paste to breeze, so much ease, yeah, loose.

1413
02:38:24.760 --> 02:38:25.719
You may have.

1414
02:38:29.280 --> 02:39:29.200
Or may not have noticed your mind drifting, peaceful move

1415
02:39:29.680 --> 02:39:50.159
ay even more deeply in the direction of total blissful pace,

1416
02:39:54.399 --> 02:41:45.799
blissful pace. Hhhh to to the pace, come so calm,

1417
02:41:57.600 --> 02:42:59.879
let him go, peace of mind X foody so rex.

1418
02:43:07.959 --> 02:43:09.399
So relaxed.

1419
02:43:33.920 --> 02:44:07.120
Her body feels almost invisible, so very relaxed, peaceful, so

1420
02:44:14.879 --> 02:44:15.479
pace for.

1421
02:44:38.840 --> 02:44:39.360
Like a.

1422
02:44:55.559 --> 02:45:18.719
Se peaceful. And you could start to notice that you

1423
02:45:20.239 --> 02:45:31.520
are feeling more relaxed, even though I've not purposely focused

1424
02:45:31.959 --> 02:45:40.079
your mind upon that sense of physical comfort that is

1425
02:45:40.319 --> 02:45:49.559
growing within you throughout your body, and your mind starts

1426
02:45:49.639 --> 02:45:59.200
to slow down, and that could be almost in recognition

1427
02:45:59.719 --> 02:46:13.639
of I guess my speech not being particularly fast, and

1428
02:46:13.840 --> 02:46:24.680
things just generally feel calmer. Just by listening to my voice,

1429
02:46:27.760 --> 02:46:34.719
you give yourself an opportunity to take a break from

1430
02:46:34.760 --> 02:46:41.280
the day, take a break from your life as it is,

1431
02:46:44.719 --> 02:46:52.319
and to give yourself a rest, giving yourself permission to

1432
02:46:52.440 --> 02:46:57.680
take some time off and to allow your body to

1433
02:46:57.840 --> 02:47:07.520
relax and allow your mind to slow down, which in

1434
02:47:07.680 --> 02:47:15.559
turn releases the tension any stresses that you had in

1435
02:47:15.680 --> 02:47:25.479
your body. It's almost as if the parts of your

1436
02:47:25.520 --> 02:47:37.559
body just open up, allowing the negativity out and at

1437
02:47:37.600 --> 02:47:45.840
the same time replacing that negativity with positive healing energy,

1438
02:47:48.959 --> 02:47:53.520
which then fills your body up and your mind to

1439
02:47:55.200 --> 02:48:13.600
also starts to appreciate those feelings of increasing confidence, an

1440
02:48:13.680 --> 02:48:30.760
almost uplifting feeling, positive healing, an energy that spreads through

1441
02:48:30.840 --> 02:48:41.479
your body like a wave of comfort. And all this

1442
02:48:41.840 --> 02:48:53.879
comes from just allowing yourself a few minutes, maybe half

1443
02:48:53.920 --> 02:48:58.159
an hour, however long you want it to be, just

1444
02:48:59.239 --> 02:49:12.479
rest and allow your mind and your body to almost

1445
02:49:13.079 --> 02:49:28.639
reset itself to the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness,

1446
02:49:32.959 --> 02:49:42.280
which allows more room for feelings of pleasure and happiness

1447
02:49:46.319 --> 02:49:55.159
to move around your body and into your mind, almost

1448
02:49:55.959 --> 02:50:00.559
as if your mind and your body are sinking together,

1449
02:50:04.840 --> 02:50:14.520
almost mirroring each other, with that growing positivity and calmness,

1450
02:50:19.559 --> 02:50:27.040
And it feels nice, really does feel nice to know

1451
02:50:27.319 --> 02:50:36.159
that you are the one that has allowed yourself to

1452
02:50:36.440 --> 02:50:45.520
feel more comfort and to experience.

1453
02:50:47.239 --> 02:50:48.360
More of this.

1454
02:50:50.159 --> 02:51:05.319
Deep relaxation spreading throughout your body. And as I focus

1455
02:51:06.879 --> 02:51:12.639
on each part of your body, you can notice that

1456
02:51:12.680 --> 02:51:27.360
that part becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on it.

1457
02:51:29.920 --> 02:51:39.559
It becomes even more calm and comfortable just by focusing.

1458
02:51:43.639 --> 02:51:49.360
And as I move down your body, starting at your head,

1459
02:51:52.120 --> 02:51:58.799
the parts that you've already focused on, will continue to

1460
02:51:59.000 --> 02:52:05.840
relax the play and those parts that have not yet

1461
02:52:06.040 --> 02:52:18.920
focused on or just automatically release any remain intention in

1462
02:52:19.079 --> 02:52:33.319
anticipation of even more comfort about to come. Now, I'm

1463
02:52:33.360 --> 02:52:39.840
going to start by focusing on your forehead. Just being

1464
02:52:39.959 --> 02:52:48.600
aware of the feelings of your forehead and any background

1465
02:52:48.879 --> 02:52:56.000
sounds like mister Herbert's opinion, can just allow you to

1466
02:52:56.159 --> 02:53:03.399
feel even more relaxed. Just means you in the moment,

1467
02:53:06.520 --> 02:53:11.879
this isn't this isn't a sterile environment. This is the world.

1468
02:53:15.360 --> 02:53:21.399
I live in the countryside, so there's lots of nature

1469
02:53:21.920 --> 02:53:32.399
sounds around, so as you focus on your forehead, just

1470
02:53:32.680 --> 02:53:40.440
notice how it becomes even more relaxed as you focus

1471
02:53:42.760 --> 02:53:47.239
only on my voice and that part of your body.

1472
02:53:52.440 --> 02:54:00.719
Moving down to your eyes, focusing on your eyes, noticing

1473
02:54:03.159 --> 02:54:12.879
how your eyelids feel so heavy yet so light at

1474
02:54:12.920 --> 02:54:19.440
the same time, and all the muscles around your eyes

1475
02:54:19.639 --> 02:54:34.040
relaxing completely. Moving your focus down to your mouth, your lips,

1476
02:54:34.520 --> 02:54:41.440
your tongue, your teeth, your comes, the hole of your

1477
02:54:41.559 --> 02:54:56.959
mouth relaxing, calm and loose as you focus now on

1478
02:54:57.159 --> 02:55:04.760
your jaw, not just the parts of your jawney, your mouth,

1479
02:55:05.559 --> 02:55:09.879
and your chin, but all the way up the size

1480
02:55:09.920 --> 02:55:16.399
of your face to your ears, the hole of your

1481
02:55:16.559 --> 02:55:43.799
jaw feeding more relaxed and calm. Focusing on your neck,

1482
02:55:46.440 --> 02:55:52.280
the front of your neck and your throat relaxing and

1483
02:55:53.799 --> 02:56:05.040
loose and calm. Sides of your neck, right and left

1484
02:56:05.280 --> 02:56:23.760
side of your neck relax and release and calm. And

1485
02:56:23.959 --> 02:56:30.360
now the back of your neck. Focus in on the

1486
02:56:30.639 --> 02:56:41.079
back of your neck, letting go of any tension that

1487
02:56:41.280 --> 02:56:50.120
may have been there before, and enjoying that sense of

1488
02:56:51.159 --> 02:57:01.799
increasing comfort and release that you can expects in the

1489
02:57:01.920 --> 02:57:14.159
back of your neck. Moving down your back and moving

1490
02:57:14.440 --> 02:57:18.760
either side of your spine, right from the top of

1491
02:57:18.879 --> 02:57:19.600
your back.

1492
02:57:21.319 --> 02:57:22.559
All the way.

1493
02:57:22.600 --> 02:57:35.239
Down to the bottom of your back down to your

1494
02:57:35.360 --> 02:57:45.920
lower back. As you move up and down your spine,

1495
02:57:48.040 --> 02:57:52.479
you can feel the muscles either side of your spine

1496
02:57:54.680 --> 02:58:09.280
relaxing even more. And as those muscles relax, that sense

1497
02:58:09.360 --> 02:58:19.840
of comfort starts to spread outwards from your spine into

1498
02:58:20.040 --> 02:58:26.639
both sides of your back, the top of your back,

1499
02:58:27.520 --> 02:58:33.760
the middle, and your lower back. And as you scan

1500
02:58:35.479 --> 02:58:43.280
gently and slowly up and down your back, there's the

1501
02:58:43.440 --> 02:58:49.280
muscles in the top of your back relax and become looser.

1502
02:58:53.639 --> 02:58:59.600
The muscles in the middle of your back also seem

1503
02:58:59.680 --> 02:59:09.239
to just almost divide from each other, separating and almost melting,

1504
02:59:15.040 --> 02:59:21.000
and in your lower back there seems to be an

1505
02:59:21.079 --> 02:59:35.239
extra special feeling of comfort. The spreads into your hips,

1506
02:59:37.559 --> 02:59:45.399
sit down your lower back, into your hips, into the

1507
02:59:45.600 --> 02:59:54.360
area where your cosix are, and into your buttocks, and

1508
02:59:54.440 --> 03:00:04.200
almost muscles that spread your lower back into your hip

1509
03:00:04.319 --> 03:00:23.920
area start to melt, start to reading, let go, and

1510
03:00:24.120 --> 03:00:30.639
you know where about to focus on your shoulders. Your

1511
03:00:30.840 --> 03:00:41.479
back and your spine will continue to let go, continue

1512
03:00:42.360 --> 03:00:56.440
to relax so calmly, and if you focus on your

1513
03:00:56.600 --> 03:01:14.280
shoulders you may notice they're already feeling really loose, they're

1514
03:01:14.440 --> 03:01:41.079
already feeding calm. I feel those muscles then move from

1515
03:01:41.159 --> 03:01:56.680
your neck into your shoulders. Feel so soft and gentle,

1516
03:02:00.799 --> 03:02:22.399
so smooth and calm, And the feeling in your shoulders

1517
03:02:29.719 --> 03:02:38.200
seems to spread deep into your shoulders, a sense of relaxation,

1518
03:02:39.440 --> 03:02:50.920
not just traveling deeply into your muscles, but also relaxing

1519
03:02:53.799 --> 03:03:03.680
the bones and moving all the way to underneath your arms,

1520
03:03:06.520 --> 03:03:12.440
relaxing a whole area between the tops of your shoulders

1521
03:03:13.799 --> 03:03:20.120
and underneath your arms healing.

1522
03:03:25.520 --> 03:03:26.200
You feel so.

1523
03:03:28.159 --> 03:03:42.159
Relaxed and comfortable in your shoulders, which sense that deep

1524
03:03:43.040 --> 03:04:04.159
healing message into your arms. You may feel almost as

1525
03:04:04.200 --> 03:04:10.959
if your arms are not even that, because they're so relaxed,

1526
03:04:14.159 --> 03:05:01.280
so deeply relaxed, so so calm, so that in spreading

1527
03:05:04.120 --> 03:05:17.799
all the way down your arms two elbows, including your

1528
03:05:17.959 --> 03:05:44.719
elbows circumfort spreads your way into wrists, your forearments, and

1529
03:05:44.920 --> 03:06:11.520
your wrists so heavy, yet the same top sunlight and

1530
03:06:12.280 --> 03:06:38.680
gentle frek sat.

1531
03:06:40.799 --> 03:06:41.799
Now on.

1532
03:06:44.479 --> 03:07:08.520
Your hands, my hands.

1533
03:07:14.440 --> 03:07:56.120
So peaceful in your hands, the sensor real pace just

1534
03:07:56.360 --> 03:08:22.040
seems to feel samiliar on your hands. Relax deeply else

1535
03:08:39.639 --> 03:10:17.120
your things, things side fish. You think it's sps maving

1536
03:10:17.479 --> 03:10:47.200
your attention to front, to your body so comfortable, marrying

1537
03:10:47.559 --> 03:10:51.680
your focus to legs.

1538
03:11:34.799 --> 03:12:49.959
Us love mysels in your fiss.

1539
03:12:36.079 --> 03:15:13.879
So relaxed, caf muscles just shades OUSI and the feathing

1540
03:15:15.360 --> 03:15:24.680
in your faints, sir, piece of.

1541
03:15:26.840 --> 03:16:14.840
Circom sick, peaceful sircomm su peaceful.

1542
03:16:17.760 --> 03:16:26.639
Sycolm so peace fall.

1543
03:16:35.040 --> 03:16:36.399
Re s.

1544
03:16:41.920 --> 03:16:43.719
Peace fall.

1545
03:16:47.040 --> 03:16:58.639
Cyclm love that deep relaxation.

1546
03:17:00.360 --> 03:17:34.040
Just spread your chest, let you go everything. So I'm

1547
03:17:34.079 --> 03:17:40.239
gonna start counting down now from twenty down to one.

1548
03:17:46.159 --> 03:17:49.399
You can imagine in a way it's like just walking

1549
03:17:49.520 --> 03:17:55.319
down some steps and each step or twenty steps, and

1550
03:17:55.440 --> 03:18:05.799
each step represents a level of comfort. Each step represents

1551
03:18:08.399 --> 03:18:20.879
a deepening of that comfort and the fervies you walk

1552
03:18:21.000 --> 03:18:26.680
down those steps to deeper and more relaxed you feel.

1553
03:18:33.399 --> 03:20:21.159
So starting with number twenty twenty, nineteen, eighteen, seven, ten,

1554
03:21:07.520 --> 03:33:36.719
sixteenhhhhhhhh three fourhhhhhh s too wellhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

1555
03:29:32.680 --> 03:30:33.239
Eight siven.

1556
03:31:05.319 --> 03:31:40.360
Us us.

1557
03:31:54.879 --> 03:33:26.120
Six five.

1558
03:34:44.799 --> 03:35:24.000
Four us.

1559
03:35:48.959 --> 03:37:51.319
Conclusis us.

1560
03:39:13.280 --> 03:39:30.319
Now, as you focus on your eyes, We're gonna count

1561
03:39:30.440 --> 03:39:42.239
down from ten outs one, focusing just on your eyes,

1562
03:39:46.000 --> 03:39:54.520
your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your eye walls themselves,

1563
03:39:56.040 --> 03:40:13.079
a whole area that makes up your eye. And as

1564
03:40:13.159 --> 03:40:22.000
we count down ten down to one, whilst focusing on

1565
03:40:22.159 --> 03:40:37.319
your eyes, you will become twice is relaxed with each

1566
03:40:37.760 --> 03:40:50.120
number counting down that you may find the all you

1567
03:40:50.479 --> 03:40:59.319
want to do is just drift off to sleep, and

1568
03:40:59.479 --> 03:41:05.879
it's fat that's what you want, then just allow yourself

1569
03:41:06.000 --> 03:41:20.360
to do that. Now, focus in on your eyes. I'm

1570
03:41:20.440 --> 03:41:26.000
going to begin counting down from ten down to one

1571
03:41:30.200 --> 03:42:41.040
right now, ten nine eight.

1572
03:43:34.079 --> 03:48:00.680
Seven four.

1573
03:48:02.920 --> 03:50:37.559
Three one.

1574
03:50:43.600 --> 03:50:43.799
Two.

1575
03:50:52.159 --> 03:51:03.479
Cut down from ten to one ten nine eight seven

1576
03:51:05.559 --> 03:51:28.159
six five four three two one. And maybe that was

1577
03:51:28.239 --> 03:51:32.399
a bit too quick in order to relax. Maybe it's

1578
03:51:32.399 --> 03:51:38.360
a bit too fast for you to notice the calming

1579
03:51:38.600 --> 03:51:45.200
of your body, maybe even a little bit of pressure.

1580
03:51:45.280 --> 03:51:49.079
They're like, you're counting down from ten to one. Would

1581
03:51:49.079 --> 03:51:52.280
you expect me to do? Man, expect me to just

1582
03:51:52.399 --> 03:52:01.879
to go with floppy just because you're counting down. I

1583
03:52:01.959 --> 03:52:05.239
can try it again, but this time I'll go a

1584
03:52:05.280 --> 03:52:12.680
bit slower this time. As you focus on the whole

1585
03:52:12.799 --> 03:52:19.040
of your body before we focus on your legs, just

1586
03:52:19.280 --> 03:52:29.239
notice how your body does start to feel more relaxed

1587
03:52:34.040 --> 03:53:08.840
with every number that I count down, ten nine, at eight, seven, six,

1588
03:53:17.280 --> 03:54:26.360
five four three one, and just notice how how you

1589
03:54:26.440 --> 03:54:36.719
feel generally, how your body feels. It's not necessarily even

1590
03:54:36.760 --> 03:54:47.600
about counting down from ten to one. It's that space

1591
03:54:48.680 --> 03:55:07.120
that you have, that space between be active physically or

1592
03:55:07.200 --> 03:55:16.680
mentally to just sitting or lying down and just being there,

1593
03:55:17.399 --> 03:55:22.879
not doing anything, not saying anything, or needing to think

1594
03:55:22.959 --> 03:55:23.799
about anything.

1595
03:55:25.639 --> 03:55:29.280
So it opens up a space, you know, a bit

1596
03:55:29.360 --> 03:55:40.120
of a space, a gap. And the more I came

1597
03:55:40.239 --> 03:55:44.799
down from ten to one, the bigger that gap becomes.

1598
03:55:47.840 --> 03:55:54.200
So there's that gap of calmness, of comfort, relaxation.

1599
03:56:00.159 --> 03:56:12.479
It's a nice feeling, and it moves those stresses or

1600
03:56:13.040 --> 03:56:17.239
discomforts physically or emotionally, moves them.

1601
03:56:18.760 --> 03:56:19.159
Away.

1602
03:56:25.920 --> 03:56:26.879
Allows you.

1603
03:56:29.600 --> 03:56:30.120
To just.

1604
03:56:33.120 --> 03:56:39.840
Slow down, someone to count again from ten down to one,

1605
03:56:40.239 --> 03:56:50.479
and notice that gap widening, the gap, And as it widens,

1606
03:56:50.559 --> 03:56:56.440
it's almost like that the stress and attention falls into

1607
03:56:56.559 --> 03:57:14.520
the gap, gives you that distance, that space.

1608
03:57:16.920 --> 03:57:22.280
Now ten.

1609
03:57:26.719 --> 03:59:23.719
Nine, eight, seven, six, five four three one. Now, how

1610
03:59:23.799 --> 03:59:27.600
does your body feel.

1611
03:59:29.559 --> 03:59:29.760
Now?

1612
03:59:42.440 --> 03:59:55.079
Can you notice that? Do you feeling calmer, the feeling

1613
03:59:57.440 --> 04:00:24.840
more relaxed. As we now focus on your legs, just

1614
04:00:25.000 --> 04:00:46.399
your les, We're just gonna start with focusing on your thighs.

1615
04:01:01.200 --> 04:01:05.479
Of course, it's not the most exciting thing to be doing,

1616
04:01:06.280 --> 04:01:12.680
because I'm sure, like most of your body is not

1617
04:01:12.719 --> 04:01:24.920
a lot going on right now. Just focusing on the

1618
04:01:25.079 --> 04:01:31.120
whole of your thighs, the tops of your thighs, the

1619
04:01:31.399 --> 04:01:38.079
sides of your thighs, the bottoms of your thighs, your

1620
04:01:38.159 --> 04:01:43.479
outer thighs, and your inner thighs. Basically the whole of

1621
04:01:43.559 --> 04:01:51.360
your thigh that leads into your hip and it goes

1622
04:01:52.399 --> 04:02:02.479
down to your knee joint. Now, this is a big area.

1623
04:02:06.959 --> 04:02:11.920
It's a very heavy area. It's very strong, probably the

1624
04:02:12.040 --> 04:02:26.719
strongest muscles in your body or in your thighs. But

1625
04:02:26.760 --> 04:02:34.399
I don't think we perhaps will give enough attention to

1626
04:02:34.639 --> 04:02:48.319
our thighs. Perhaps we don't acknowledge how important our thighs

1627
04:02:48.600 --> 04:03:08.360
are to our lives, how much they actually do for

1628
04:03:08.520 --> 04:03:22.559
us all through our lives. And it may seem sound

1629
04:03:22.680 --> 04:03:28.280
really weird, but I think that all of our body parts,

1630
04:03:31.200 --> 04:03:39.479
especially our thighs, needs some TLC, a bit of love shown,

1631
04:03:40.479 --> 04:03:58.719
a bit of the acknowledgement, thank you, gratitude for our

1632
04:03:58.840 --> 04:04:07.680
thighs do for us. Yes, And I know this may

1633
04:04:07.879 --> 04:04:13.520
sound a bit strange. Maybe you think why am I

1634
04:04:14.319 --> 04:04:17.120
Surely I should be out in the garden hugging a

1635
04:04:17.239 --> 04:04:25.600
tree or something. Well, it's hard to set a microphone

1636
04:04:25.680 --> 04:04:28.719
up on a tree. That's why I'm doing this indoors.

1637
04:04:28.760 --> 04:04:32.559
Otherwise I would be outside huging a tree. I can't

1638
04:04:32.559 --> 04:04:41.360
see the television from the tree. If you move down

1639
04:04:41.399 --> 04:04:51.159
to your knees gain such an important part. And I

1640
04:04:51.280 --> 04:04:58.079
think we don't necessarily I'll speak for myself here. I

1641
04:04:58.200 --> 04:05:03.319
don't necessarily appreciate all that my needs do for me

1642
04:05:04.600 --> 04:05:09.760
until I have a problem with my knee. It's occasionally,

1643
04:05:09.840 --> 04:05:14.799
if I ever maybe i'll bash it, or it's aching

1644
04:05:14.959 --> 04:05:21.319
for some reason. It's then that I realize how much

1645
04:05:21.479 --> 04:05:25.120
it does. You know, the benefit of being able to

1646
04:05:26.040 --> 04:05:35.280
use my legs without any kind of physical discomfort is

1647
04:05:36.079 --> 04:05:44.799
a beautiful thing that's possibly not appreciated until it's temporarily removed.

1648
04:05:45.959 --> 04:05:52.959
You know that's comfort. But as you focus on your knees,

1649
04:05:55.120 --> 04:06:00.760
regardless of how your knees feel, you can have that

1650
04:06:01.040 --> 04:06:07.200
sense of gratitude and love to your knees for all

1651
04:06:07.319 --> 04:06:19.520
that they do for you, And you can still have

1652
04:06:19.680 --> 04:06:24.799
that attention on your thighs. Maybe notice how your thighs feel,

1653
04:06:26.959 --> 04:06:44.920
Maybe you notice that they are relaxing more deeply as

1654
04:06:44.959 --> 04:06:50.360
you focus now on the bottoms of your legs, your shins,

1655
04:06:51.239 --> 04:06:57.719
and your calf muscles, the bones between your knees and

1656
04:06:57.840 --> 04:07:05.399
your feet corporate, and of course your ankles so important.

1657
04:07:11.120 --> 04:07:15.879
Anyone that's had even like the slightest sprain of an

1658
04:07:15.920 --> 04:07:24.040
ankle knows how how much we take our ankles for granted.

1659
04:07:29.920 --> 04:07:31.920
And it's kind of strange in a way when you

1660
04:07:32.040 --> 04:07:37.639
think that. You know, logically, our wrists are a lot

1661
04:07:37.799 --> 04:07:42.600
thinner than the rest of our arms, which is okay,

1662
04:07:42.719 --> 04:07:46.440
it doesn't I can't see any problem with that because

1663
04:07:46.440 --> 04:07:53.120
we're just picking stuff up. Our ankles so much thinner

1664
04:07:54.360 --> 04:08:02.920
than the rest of our legs, and from a physics

1665
04:08:03.000 --> 04:08:08.719
perspective or logical even it doesn't really make sense that

1666
04:08:08.920 --> 04:08:16.639
all this weight would ultimately be resting on your ankles

1667
04:08:17.760 --> 04:08:31.159
then leading to your feet, that thin area, thin bone. Yeah,

1668
04:08:31.239 --> 04:08:36.920
it does so much great work. Supports us, supports our

1669
04:08:37.040 --> 04:08:48.879
body for a lifetime, helps us to balance, helps you

1670
04:08:49.079 --> 04:09:02.360
to get around and be mobile. And there's the calf muscles.

1671
04:09:02.399 --> 04:09:10.040
Of course, when I was younger, I couldn't see the

1672
04:09:10.079 --> 04:09:16.440
pointing calf muscles didn't seem to do anything. Okay, if

1673
04:09:16.479 --> 04:09:20.040
I walked around on tiptoes, then my calf muscles get

1674
04:09:20.079 --> 04:09:23.799
some work. But of course that's not true. The calf

1675
04:09:23.920 --> 04:09:33.559
muscles are being used whenever we use our legs, and

1676
04:09:33.680 --> 04:09:46.200
your shins there to protect your lower legs, shaped in

1677
04:09:46.319 --> 04:09:58.840
a way almost as a protector for the bone, leading

1678
04:10:00.239 --> 04:10:10.600
of course to your ankles and your feet. But we're

1679
04:10:10.639 --> 04:10:12.559
not going to focus on your feet. We're just going

1680
04:10:12.639 --> 04:10:19.000
to focus on the legs. I realize, and now that

1681
04:10:19.120 --> 04:10:23.520
I've mentioned your feet, you'll probably focus on them anyway,

1682
04:10:24.079 --> 04:10:26.639
So maybe I should focus on your feet a little bit.

1683
04:10:30.680 --> 04:10:35.079
You can have them in your awareness the same as

1684
04:10:35.200 --> 04:10:39.520
you have your thighs in your awareness. Even though we

1685
04:10:39.680 --> 04:10:45.600
haven't been focusing on your thighs a few minutes, I've

1686
04:10:45.600 --> 04:10:56.520
been focusing on your ankles, there's still that sensation of

1687
04:11:00.079 --> 04:11:12.520
foot in your thighs, and there's that movement of energy

1688
04:11:14.559 --> 04:11:21.600
because the thighs hold lots of different sensations. Of course,

1689
04:11:21.680 --> 04:11:26.440
there's the muscles, the big straw muscles that we have

1690
04:11:26.639 --> 04:11:39.959
in our thighs, But the skin on the outside of

1691
04:11:40.079 --> 04:11:45.360
the thighs, as in the outside of all of our body,

1692
04:11:46.159 --> 04:11:57.760
can be very sensitive, sensitive to the touch sensitive to temperature,

1693
04:12:04.319 --> 04:12:11.840
and inside your thighs the bones, there's the muscle, there's

1694
04:12:11.879 --> 04:12:16.680
the blood, vessels, the ar trees, to all this stuff

1695
04:12:16.799 --> 04:12:25.879
that's inside your thighs. I guess sometimes it'd be nice

1696
04:12:25.920 --> 04:12:30.239
if you could actually put your fingers inside your thighs

1697
04:12:30.879 --> 04:12:36.040
and a message, so you can message on the outside,

1698
04:12:36.200 --> 04:12:39.200
of course, but to be able to get deep into

1699
04:12:39.280 --> 04:12:44.079
the muscles, and to be able to just message inside

1700
04:12:44.159 --> 04:12:51.159
your thighs, message in the bones of your leg, message

1701
04:12:51.239 --> 04:13:04.879
in all the veins. Just gently heaving fighs. You can

1702
04:13:05.040 --> 04:13:11.959
move down message and inside your knees, just message in

1703
04:13:12.079 --> 04:13:19.399
those bones, but with healing fingertips, spreading that healing energy

1704
04:13:20.200 --> 04:13:30.000
deep into the choice your knees. Of course, there's the

1705
04:13:30.159 --> 04:13:35.600
back of your your need and the inside crease where

1706
04:13:35.600 --> 04:13:43.399
your need is. It's a very sensitive area. It feels

1707
04:13:43.479 --> 04:13:47.520
very nice when you stroke it. That might be because

1708
04:13:48.360 --> 04:13:53.319
it's an area that's not really touched very often. It's

1709
04:13:53.479 --> 04:13:59.840
almost like a hidden part, that crease in your leg.

1710
04:14:00.159 --> 04:14:01.040
It's almost.

1711
04:14:03.040 --> 04:14:03.799
Like a part that.

1712
04:14:05.559 --> 04:14:16.799
Has a sensitivity, which is a little bit different. Of course,

1713
04:14:16.879 --> 04:14:27.360
it's protected by your legs, so you can imagine putting

1714
04:14:28.239 --> 04:14:38.559
your fingers into that crease in your legs. Folding between

1715
04:14:38.680 --> 04:14:43.719
your legs, you can just message with your fingertips. Imagine

1716
04:14:43.760 --> 04:14:50.120
your fingertips going inside massage in the muscle or tissue.

1717
04:14:54.719 --> 04:14:58.399
You can of course feel the bones.

1718
04:14:58.280 --> 04:14:59.319
Of your knees.

1719
04:15:00.520 --> 04:15:10.920
Heating through your fingertips. And then as you go down

1720
04:15:13.799 --> 04:15:16.600
to your calf muscles, and that's the part I'd like

1721
04:15:16.719 --> 04:15:21.399
to be able to really put my fingertips steam inside

1722
04:15:22.159 --> 04:15:31.120
my calf muscles, massage in every single tissue of that muscle,

1723
04:15:32.680 --> 04:15:42.600
healing every part, and then doing the same for my shins.

1724
04:15:45.799 --> 04:15:54.000
Massage in generally stroking the bones, generally stroking them, healing

1725
04:15:54.239 --> 04:15:58.319
in a loving way, because they deserve to be treated

1726
04:16:01.360 --> 04:16:05.520
as the precious bones that they are, because our legs

1727
04:16:05.559 --> 04:16:08.920
are so precious as in all the other parts of

1728
04:16:09.000 --> 04:16:17.159
our body, the more precious of any jure on the planet.

1729
04:16:25.559 --> 04:16:33.159
When when you start to think about your legs in

1730
04:16:33.239 --> 04:16:44.639
this way, it can change your perspective. It might sound

1731
04:16:44.680 --> 04:16:51.559
a bit a bit silly to start with the idea

1732
04:16:51.719 --> 04:16:59.559
of having love for your legs. Showing appreciation for your

1733
04:16:59.680 --> 04:17:05.440
thigh is wanting to be able to put your hands

1734
04:17:06.479 --> 04:17:15.200
in your thighs, massage the muscles and the bones and

1735
04:17:15.360 --> 04:17:20.879
to get your fingers deep in there, releasing all tension,

1736
04:17:23.799 --> 04:17:32.399
just to show how much you care about your legs,

1737
04:17:33.319 --> 04:17:37.040
how much you care for what your legs do for

1738
04:17:37.159 --> 04:17:50.799
you regularly, your knee, your calves, your ankles. The strength

1739
04:17:50.959 --> 04:17:59.000
of your ankles, considering how thin they are compared to

1740
04:17:59.120 --> 04:18:05.840
the rest of your legs, especially your thighs. Yeah, they're

1741
04:18:05.959 --> 04:18:22.479
so strong, so flexible, absolutely amazing things. Ankles are truly

1742
04:18:22.879 --> 04:18:33.399
a gift because of what they do for you, supporting

1743
04:18:33.719 --> 04:18:39.600
all that weight, regardless of how what weight you are,

1744
04:18:40.799 --> 04:18:45.600
even if you only ate stone, there's still a lot

1745
04:18:45.600 --> 04:18:52.399
of weight for these little ankles. How a lot the

1746
04:18:52.520 --> 04:19:03.000
heavier the maystone. Double doubt. My ankles support my body

1747
04:19:03.760 --> 04:19:10.360
all the time. What they do give off a sigh

1748
04:19:10.399 --> 04:19:15.559
of relief when I sit down, as I've had my

1749
04:19:15.600 --> 04:19:24.520
whole legs though my feet fee or sir go, my

1750
04:19:24.680 --> 04:19:54.879
toes clap so happy. Your legs really are amazing, And

1751
04:19:55.040 --> 04:19:58.680
I know they're talking about. Talking about your legs is

1752
04:19:58.760 --> 04:20:06.280
probably possibly among the most boring things I've ever heard

1753
04:20:06.360 --> 04:20:14.719
anyone say. Possibly you're boring or not. Everything I said

1754
04:20:14.879 --> 04:20:31.520
is true. Your legs are amazing. Your legs deserve not

1755
04:20:31.920 --> 04:20:50.360
just respect, They deserve to relax deeply. They deserve to

1756
04:20:50.520 --> 04:20:55.760
take some time out of the day to just let

1757
04:20:55.959 --> 04:21:32.360
go completely. Your legs really can relax because the legs

1758
04:21:32.719 --> 04:21:37.479
are so such a most you know, very important part

1759
04:21:38.239 --> 04:21:42.079
of your body. When you relax your legs, the rest

1760
04:21:42.159 --> 04:21:53.840
of your body also naturally follows in that journey of comfort.

1761
04:22:02.000 --> 04:22:05.799
I can feel it in my hips. My hips feel

1762
04:22:06.520 --> 04:22:14.479
really loose, and also my lwer back as well. My

1763
04:22:14.639 --> 04:22:20.360
lower back really feels it feels stretched, even though I'm

1764
04:22:20.479 --> 04:22:26.680
just sitting in a chair and there's no stretching as

1765
04:22:26.719 --> 04:22:29.719
far as I'm aware that I'm doing, but it's almost

1766
04:22:29.760 --> 04:22:33.559
as if the muscles are just relaxed so much that

1767
04:22:33.680 --> 04:22:40.719
there is a natural stretch as the tension has reduced

1768
04:22:42.200 --> 04:23:01.600
a lot. And I'm now going to care down ten

1769
04:23:01.840 --> 04:23:36.159
downs one you can continue to fill wonderfully relaxed ten nine, eight, seven, six, five,

1770
04:23:40.840 --> 04:24:08.920
four three two one act. So I'm just going to

1771
04:24:09.000 --> 04:24:14.360
count down and fire down to one. And as a countdown,

1772
04:24:15.680 --> 04:24:20.399
if you just focus on the numbers, just the numbers

1773
04:24:22.079 --> 04:24:31.040
counting down, and notice how you feel in this moment

1774
04:24:32.799 --> 04:24:37.200
as you hear the numbers counting down, knowing that those

1775
04:24:37.360 --> 04:24:50.399
numbers counting down represent you feeling calmer, not just in

1776
04:24:50.520 --> 04:24:58.840
your body, but also relaxing your mind. I'll just notice

1777
04:24:58.920 --> 04:25:04.959
how you feel. There's nothing to do, there's nothing to say,

1778
04:25:05.639 --> 04:25:13.920
there's nothing to think about. Starting with number five.

1779
04:25:22.479 --> 04:25:49.479
Four three two one.

1780
04:25:59.120 --> 04:26:11.639
As you notice the gradual letting go the tension in

1781
04:26:11.760 --> 04:26:18.920
your body, you may also begin to notice and be

1782
04:26:19.079 --> 04:26:27.879
aware of how your mind is starting to slow down.

1783
04:26:30.399 --> 04:26:36.719
This is just a natural thing that happens. It's not

1784
04:26:36.959 --> 04:26:42.120
really a special procedure. It's just natural because as your

1785
04:26:43.440 --> 04:26:49.440
body relaxes, your mind also starts to relax, and the

1786
04:26:49.520 --> 04:26:53.159
more your mind relaxes, the more your body relaxes. It's

1787
04:26:53.319 --> 04:27:05.399
just a continuous circle of relaxation. And there's that calmness

1788
04:27:05.600 --> 04:27:12.799
that comes from relative quietness. You know, even even if

1789
04:27:12.840 --> 04:27:20.360
there's background sounds either your side online is still going

1790
04:27:20.479 --> 04:27:25.520
to be quite calm. You know, you haven't got the

1791
04:27:25.639 --> 04:27:30.799
television on, there's no music in the background, unless you're

1792
04:27:30.840 --> 04:27:38.360
listening to the recorded with music. Of course, you're very

1793
04:27:38.600 --> 04:27:40.479
likely not going to be sitting in a room with

1794
04:27:40.559 --> 04:27:45.360
other people. Of course you might be, but generally it's

1795
04:27:46.079 --> 04:27:48.280
more ideal if you can do this on your own,

1796
04:27:50.000 --> 04:27:59.959
so no distractions, and when you stop thinking about stuff.

1797
04:28:06.639 --> 04:28:16.920
Relaxation automatically rises a sense of comfort, starts to grow,

1798
04:28:21.440 --> 04:28:28.079
and without trying to build it up into something fantastical

1799
04:28:28.520 --> 04:28:40.239
or something magical, this is just a natural process, something

1800
04:28:40.399 --> 04:28:51.399
that's easy to accomplish. In fact, it's almost the sense

1801
04:28:51.479 --> 04:28:58.280
of relaxing completely happens really when you put no effort

1802
04:28:58.639 --> 04:29:02.520
into it. It's not something that you can really force.

1803
04:29:05.159 --> 04:29:14.520
It's something that happens naturally. And part of the process

1804
04:29:14.920 --> 04:29:26.120
of this recording and others is simply two allow you

1805
04:29:28.520 --> 04:29:39.360
to take advantage of this space, this time, to just

1806
04:29:43.559 --> 04:29:51.120
let go, to just be here, to be in tune

1807
04:29:54.840 --> 04:30:06.920
with how you feel, yet with the intention of wanting

1808
04:30:07.200 --> 04:30:19.280
to relax deeply and maybe even to fall asleep, depending

1809
04:30:19.520 --> 04:30:25.760
on what it is that you wish for yourself in

1810
04:30:25.879 --> 04:30:42.040
this moment. As we know, relaxing is the majority of

1811
04:30:42.159 --> 04:30:46.719
the process of falling asleep. The actual falling asleep part

1812
04:30:47.000 --> 04:30:55.200
is the tiny bit at the end. The deeper relaxed

1813
04:30:55.559 --> 04:31:17.280
you become, the easier you find yourself drifting. You can

1814
04:31:17.399 --> 04:31:25.799
also if you choose stay focused on my voice and

1815
04:31:27.559 --> 04:31:57.680
really enjoy the process gradually relaxing each muscle in your

1816
04:31:57.760 --> 04:32:32.319
body effortlessly and just observing the sensation of letting go completely.

1817
04:32:38.360 --> 04:32:42.360
This time, I'm an account from six down to one,

1818
04:32:47.200 --> 04:32:56.399
and you can notice your mind calming down more with

1819
04:32:56.799 --> 04:33:08.439
each number. Here we say actually feeling.

1820
04:33:10.000 --> 04:34:10.040
Calm, sory, peaceful, six, five, four.

1821
04:35:42.040 --> 04:36:12.000
Four, being aware.

1822
04:36:14.720 --> 04:36:30.759
How your wind has slowed right down, sinking deeply into relaxation.

1823
04:36:44.639 --> 04:36:53.680
As you focus on your wind, I noticed that there

1824
04:36:53.720 --> 04:37:04.080
are some thoughts still there, maybe some stubborn thoughts for

1825
04:37:04.240 --> 04:37:09.599
some reason, perhaps need your attention.

1826
04:37:16.479 --> 04:37:17.840
That's what you can do is.

1827
04:37:23.400 --> 04:37:35.919
Send love to those thoughts. Sprinkle those thoughts with love

1828
04:37:37.639 --> 04:37:43.840
my door petals from a flower. Just sprinkle over the petals,

1829
04:37:43.880 --> 04:37:51.520
feel good love towards those thoughts. To let those thoughts mother,

1830
04:37:53.919 --> 04:37:55.479
You're not abandon a number.

1831
04:37:56.799 --> 04:37:58.119
You just need them.

1832
04:37:59.319 --> 04:38:00.360
You require.

1833
04:38:03.200 --> 04:38:15.360
To just calm down, slow down, quiet down, and now

1834
04:38:23.279 --> 04:38:28.240
so as you focus on those remaining thoughts as a

1835
04:38:28.439 --> 04:38:34.520
countdown this time from seven down to one. With each number,

1836
04:38:37.520 --> 04:38:50.759
just imagine sprinkling those flower petals of love, kindness, gratitude.

1837
04:38:53.279 --> 04:39:02.639
Over those thoughts, which would allow them to just not

1838
04:39:02.919 --> 04:39:24.400
away relaxed deeply. With every number, those thoughts would become relaxed.

1839
04:39:29.959 --> 04:42:02.159
Starting if number seven, six, five, four four, let's you now.

1840
04:42:06.279 --> 04:42:07.439
That is how.

1841
04:42:09.000 --> 04:42:28.639
Relaxed your feeling in your body. We got to focus

1842
04:42:32.520 --> 04:42:42.080
on your hands. It's the more relaxed your hands on,

1843
04:42:44.520 --> 04:43:05.520
the more relaxed your body and mind done. Yes, you

1844
04:43:05.759 --> 04:43:16.799
focus on your hands to fingers. It's nothing needed to

1845
04:43:16.880 --> 04:43:23.400
be done. It's like clenching the fists on dead fingers.

1846
04:43:23.520 --> 04:43:38.240
Right. It's just like to say, on your hands.

1847
04:43:44.959 --> 04:43:47.200
Not to see the feeling.

1848
04:44:01.400 --> 04:44:07.279
Because the molas jo hands failed.

1849
04:44:10.720 --> 04:44:24.000
The card mind feels comfort to feel around your body.

1850
04:44:29.959 --> 04:44:32.759
Ge Ma.

1851
04:44:39.439 --> 04:45:23.080
Whody latist mind is starting dreams face just on your

1852
04:45:23.240 --> 04:45:37.119
hands and fingers, a cheap thin sperience.

1853
04:45:39.840 --> 04:45:43.159
How your deep them with that.

1854
04:45:43.439 --> 04:46:13.279
Reaxation in your heads and fingers relaxed Each number from

1855
04:46:13.520 --> 04:46:30.400
eight out no west, a few legs and the chain

1856
04:46:31.360 --> 04:46:45.639
spread it into your heads. Vegers comment, easier.

1857
04:46:48.200 --> 04:46:54.080
Reles each number.

1858
04:47:03.599 --> 04:47:05.040
Eight now.

1859
04:47:10.520 --> 04:47:21.880
Tift to the king started this.

1860
04:48:12.000 --> 04:51:30.439
Sim just be here now, nothing to think about, nothing

1861
04:51:30.560 --> 04:51:46.360
to do, nothing to say, and everything just feels. This

1862
04:51:46.680 --> 04:51:49.360
is the natural state be.

1863
04:51:53.279 --> 04:51:56.040
This is how you just woman

1864
04:52:00.040 --> 04:52:00.080
O