May 30, 2025

(music) (5 hours) Q&A Friday | LMBYTS #1362 | 30th May 2025

(music) (5 hours) Q&A Friday | LMBYTS #1362 | 30th May 2025
Apple Podcasts podcast player icon Spotify podcast player icon
Apple Podcasts podcast player icon Spotify podcast player icon
None
WEBVTT

1
00:00:01.800 --> 00:00:14.519
Hello, Welcome to Benny making noise in the background. Welcome

2
00:00:14.560 --> 00:00:18.079
to Jason Newland dot com. My name is Jason Newland.

3
00:00:18.879 --> 00:00:23.839
This is let me boy to sleep Q and a

4
00:00:23.960 --> 00:00:29.039
Friday if and I've got a little bit of a

5
00:00:29.039 --> 00:00:36.600
different setup or to start with, I'm filming it for

6
00:00:36.640 --> 00:00:40.600
some reason. Don't ask me why. I don't know why.

7
00:00:41.479 --> 00:00:44.240
I never know why. I never know why. I do

8
00:00:44.280 --> 00:00:50.479
a lot of things. Really, there's some background stuff and

9
00:00:52.039 --> 00:00:54.920
I was hoping to have the cause I've basically got

10
00:00:54.920 --> 00:00:56.960
the camera. I've got the window in front of me,

11
00:00:57.600 --> 00:00:59.560
so I've got natural light.

12
00:01:01.399 --> 00:01:01.719
Now.

13
00:01:03.520 --> 00:01:06.280
It just means the backgrounds a little bit mm hmm,

14
00:01:06.480 --> 00:01:13.599
messy a bit, and I'm warm. I ain't got any

15
00:01:13.760 --> 00:01:17.280
any lights on nothing. Having a sunshine on my face

16
00:01:17.359 --> 00:01:25.640
probably does it, doesn't it. So what I'm going to

17
00:01:25.719 --> 00:01:28.920
do is or did I say, only listen and you

18
00:01:28.959 --> 00:01:30.359
can safely close or.

19
00:01:31.959 --> 00:01:32.319
Eyes?

20
00:01:36.920 --> 00:01:37.599
Hopefully I did.

21
00:01:37.799 --> 00:01:39.799
I'm looking down here because that's where my laptop is,

22
00:01:39.879 --> 00:01:44.560
and this is where all the Christians are in case

23
00:01:44.599 --> 00:01:47.959
you wondered, So I hope you will, just to let

24
00:01:48.000 --> 00:01:52.239
you know. I mean, he probably already may be a member,

25
00:01:52.280 --> 00:01:55.920
but I've got a Jason Newlands boring group on Facebook,

26
00:01:57.200 --> 00:02:00.519
and also got a YouTube channel at Jason new Land.

27
00:02:04.079 --> 00:02:09.719
That's it, really, I'm sure that takes longer normally, I do.

28
00:02:10.120 --> 00:02:10.719
I mean I do.

29
00:02:10.879 --> 00:02:21.879
Also also also also have the website, so I had

30
00:02:21.919 --> 00:02:25.759
a few stuff going on with the website, changed things around,

31
00:02:26.800 --> 00:02:31.159
and what I've done is it's all been up, it's

32
00:02:31.199 --> 00:02:35.479
all back. I did the recording yesterday, but I decided

33
00:02:35.520 --> 00:02:42.039
not to upload it because it here, you know, wasn't

34
00:02:42.479 --> 00:02:46.000
wasn't quite what I wanted it to be. And you

35
00:02:46.120 --> 00:02:49.199
may query that thinking, well, you mean the ones that

36
00:02:49.240 --> 00:02:56.439
you actually upload are to your satisfaction. M oh. I

37
00:02:56.560 --> 00:02:59.199
took Vinnie out for a walk for an hour, out

38
00:02:59.240 --> 00:03:05.759
for an hour, nice lovely. Went out early about about

39
00:03:05.800 --> 00:03:08.680
half seven, got back about half eight. It is now

40
00:03:09.039 --> 00:03:22.520
eighteen minutes past ten. Oh gas lovely. So all the

41
00:03:22.599 --> 00:03:26.080
changes I did has all gone back to how it was.

42
00:03:27.439 --> 00:03:30.960
So the podcasts are back how they were, the website's

43
00:03:31.000 --> 00:03:35.400
back how it was, Everything's back to exactly how it

44
00:03:35.520 --> 00:03:42.800
was at the beginning of the week. Yeah, So that's

45
00:03:42.840 --> 00:03:46.000
it really. So if you haven't watched or listened or

46
00:03:46.159 --> 00:03:49.800
had any you know, had any contact since the beginning

47
00:03:49.800 --> 00:03:52.199
of the week, then there'd be no change, no change.

48
00:03:54.719 --> 00:03:56.080
So what I'm going to do, I'm going to go

49
00:03:56.199 --> 00:04:02.039
through the recordings of the questions in my visual air.

50
00:04:02.960 --> 00:04:07.120
So today's Friday, the thirtieth, thirtieth of May. How many

51
00:04:07.199 --> 00:04:12.439
days is there in this month? Thirty one? Right, So

52
00:04:12.840 --> 00:04:20.680
next week Tuesday? Okay, all right, so thirty one. So

53
00:04:22.639 --> 00:04:32.240
it's the first on Sunday, twenty twenty five. So the

54
00:04:32.279 --> 00:04:35.439
first question I got is from Hope and it is

55
00:04:35.639 --> 00:04:39.480
what got you interested in? No, wait a minute, I'm

56
00:04:39.519 --> 00:04:40.839
doing it from the wrong. I want to do the

57
00:04:40.920 --> 00:04:44.120
first ones first. So I want to go to Hillary first,

58
00:04:44.160 --> 00:04:47.079
because Hillary asked the first question. I'd just like to

59
00:04:47.079 --> 00:04:51.879
do things in a certain order Hillary. Also, I want

60
00:04:51.879 --> 00:04:54.800
to say thank you for the PayPal gift that I received,

61
00:04:55.680 --> 00:05:00.439
but I didn't. I don't know who sent it. I do,

62
00:05:00.639 --> 00:05:03.279
but I don't if that makes sense. There is no

63
00:05:03.360 --> 00:05:09.120
email address to reply. And also I was looking through

64
00:05:09.160 --> 00:05:12.240
my emails to see because I would have responded, and

65
00:05:12.519 --> 00:05:15.439
I think I'm perably going to have to go through Facebook.

66
00:05:16.639 --> 00:05:20.040
It just gets like confusing. So if you can contact me,

67
00:05:20.079 --> 00:05:25.120
please so I can say thank you. And I think

68
00:05:25.319 --> 00:05:29.759
it's just I get confused sometimes, especially when I look

69
00:05:29.800 --> 00:05:34.920
in the mirror, Hillary asks, really sad that you're not

70
00:05:35.040 --> 00:05:38.839
using a word BlimE me anymore. Also, what would you

71
00:05:38.920 --> 00:05:40.279
do if you won the lottery?

72
00:05:40.839 --> 00:05:41.000
Oh?

73
00:05:41.959 --> 00:05:45.240
Wow, I've had fantasies about this, and I'm sure I'll

74
00:05:45.279 --> 00:05:56.199
not be the only one, so blimey. I. I mean

75
00:05:56.240 --> 00:05:58.600
it depends on how much a one, So I guess

76
00:05:58.920 --> 00:06:03.879
it's a fantasy or win like huge amounts. I mean,

77
00:06:03.920 --> 00:06:07.040
you know, one hundred grand would be a huge amount

78
00:06:07.800 --> 00:06:10.360
to me. A million would be a huge amount. But

79
00:06:10.399 --> 00:06:13.560
you know, I'm thinking, like in order to do what

80
00:06:13.600 --> 00:06:18.040
I want to do in order to share it. So

81
00:06:18.079 --> 00:06:26.959
the very first thing I would do is I probably

82
00:06:27.079 --> 00:06:35.959
just maybe give my dad a few quid, maybe like

83
00:06:36.199 --> 00:06:41.639
get together. No, I thought, and this is something that

84
00:06:41.720 --> 00:06:46.120
I should have. Yeah, it's kind of two beginnings to this.

85
00:06:47.040 --> 00:06:50.639
The first one is where I say, right, the money

86
00:06:51.560 --> 00:06:54.839
never had money before, So that money is going to

87
00:06:55.040 --> 00:06:57.839
see I read my faces. It's going outside. It's just

88
00:06:58.000 --> 00:07:01.519
to catch the sun. I burn in the winter. Seriously,

89
00:07:01.600 --> 00:07:09.600
it's kind of skin I got. So I like the idea. Wow,

90
00:07:09.639 --> 00:07:14.439
I see how dusty this is. BlimE me. I didn't

91
00:07:14.480 --> 00:07:20.920
realize is it dusty or is it just a light

92
00:07:21.000 --> 00:07:23.120
shining on it. I think it might just be the

93
00:07:23.199 --> 00:07:32.959
light shining on it. Yes, I think there's a bit

94
00:07:33.000 --> 00:07:36.519
of both. I think it's the light. Actually it probably

95
00:07:36.519 --> 00:07:40.560
is dusty as well. So I'm talking about the microphone

96
00:07:41.680 --> 00:07:45.399
grip thing at the top. For those listening on the podcast.

97
00:07:51.279 --> 00:07:56.720
My fantasy is first of all, to get either get

98
00:07:56.720 --> 00:08:03.120
everyone together in one place, invite everyone to party, get

99
00:08:03.120 --> 00:08:06.279
them picked up wherever they are in the country, picked

100
00:08:06.360 --> 00:08:09.560
up by chauffeur and brought to this place, and then

101
00:08:10.360 --> 00:08:20.000
hand out money to everyone. That's like a little fantasy.

102
00:08:22.560 --> 00:08:25.720
But there's the I suppose there's another part of me

103
00:08:25.800 --> 00:08:34.399
he thinks, well my best my best move would be too.

104
00:08:36.679 --> 00:08:41.879
I think if if I was to win a lot

105
00:08:41.919 --> 00:08:44.000
of money, you need to splash out a little bit.

106
00:08:44.639 --> 00:08:48.799
You need to have a good time initially to celebrate

107
00:08:48.960 --> 00:08:51.000
even you know, I don't mean spend lots of money,

108
00:08:51.000 --> 00:08:54.279
but just need to do something, go on holiday, or

109
00:08:57.159 --> 00:09:00.480
you know, buy myself a really good camera, or you know,

110
00:09:00.559 --> 00:09:03.159
to a video in I don't know, something like that.

111
00:09:08.000 --> 00:09:11.000
Maybe by this place here's something that would be like

112
00:09:11.080 --> 00:09:16.519
an initial thing. So that would mean that because that

113
00:09:16.519 --> 00:09:19.440
would give me security in the future. So if I

114
00:09:19.559 --> 00:09:21.519
do was to blow through it, or at least i'd

115
00:09:21.559 --> 00:09:29.600
have a home. But I quite like the idea of

116
00:09:29.919 --> 00:09:36.279
just stepping back, going away, and I don't necessarily mean

117
00:09:36.279 --> 00:09:40.200
a holiday. I always used to think, maybe some kind

118
00:09:40.240 --> 00:09:44.519
of health club for six months or three months, go

119
00:09:44.559 --> 00:09:50.399
away from everything. It probably wouldn't be going to do

120
00:09:50.480 --> 00:09:55.240
that with Vinnie, so i'd have to get rid of him. Yeah,

121
00:09:55.679 --> 00:09:57.679
this is what I thought about before I had Vinnie

122
00:09:58.320 --> 00:10:00.639
and Andre. So this is something I thought about a

123
00:10:00.679 --> 00:10:03.960
lot over the years. It's a little fantasy. I like

124
00:10:04.039 --> 00:10:07.679
to just go to sleep too sometimes just thinking about

125
00:10:07.679 --> 00:10:11.879
all the good things I could do, you know. But

126
00:10:12.000 --> 00:10:17.360
I thought maybe have a step back instead of because

127
00:10:17.360 --> 00:10:23.720
you know, a million pounds is a phenomenal amount of money,

128
00:10:23.759 --> 00:10:28.120
but at the same time, if you break it down,

129
00:10:28.600 --> 00:10:33.000
it's three thousand pounds a day for a year, or

130
00:10:33.039 --> 00:10:37.399
three thousand, three hundred whatever, it's not that much. Just

131
00:10:37.559 --> 00:10:39.799
it's be easy to spend three thousand pounds a day

132
00:10:40.480 --> 00:10:44.480
just going to really expensive restaurants and stuff like. You know.

133
00:10:44.519 --> 00:10:47.600
I mean, if you are buying a really expensive coat

134
00:10:47.639 --> 00:10:50.720
an item of clothing, go and buy a watch that

135
00:10:50.759 --> 00:10:54.000
would cost like one hundred grand or fifty grand you said,

136
00:10:54.000 --> 00:10:56.159
what I mean, so you could get through it in

137
00:10:56.200 --> 00:11:01.159
a year if if I wasn't careful. So I'd have

138
00:11:01.200 --> 00:11:05.840
to be careful. And I think people are used to

139
00:11:05.879 --> 00:11:11.200
having money are better with money. There's an old saying,

140
00:11:12.679 --> 00:11:16.000
an old saying that if you took because you know,

141
00:11:16.039 --> 00:11:18.200
there's this whole thing, or why why is I need

142
00:11:18.240 --> 00:11:21.120
two percent of the world got.

143
00:11:22.639 --> 00:11:23.480
Two percent of the.

144
00:11:23.399 --> 00:11:25.639
World have got something like ninety five percent of the

145
00:11:25.919 --> 00:11:28.799
of the of the wealth or ninety percent of the wealth.

146
00:11:32.200 --> 00:11:35.000
But some economic experts have kind of got their heads

147
00:11:35.039 --> 00:11:37.759
together and said, well, if you spread all that money

148
00:11:37.799 --> 00:11:41.960
out between everybody in the world, that money would still

149
00:11:42.080 --> 00:11:46.600
end up back into that percentage. And I can kind

150
00:11:46.600 --> 00:11:53.960
of understand that because to never have had money it

151
00:11:54.000 --> 00:11:58.440
would be I mean even to have so if I

152
00:11:58.720 --> 00:12:01.879
like a five thousand pound would be like winning the

153
00:12:01.879 --> 00:12:07.279
lottery in a way, you know, So to step back,

154
00:12:07.759 --> 00:12:09.159
and I think this would be a time when I

155
00:12:09.200 --> 00:12:11.519
would actually go and listen to my dad. I go

156
00:12:11.639 --> 00:12:13.840
to my dad and I get his advice because he's

157
00:12:13.879 --> 00:12:19.519
always been really good at money. So I think I

158
00:12:19.600 --> 00:12:26.720
would I would sweat like I am today. I think

159
00:12:26.759 --> 00:12:35.679
the heating is on. Why is the heating on? It's

160
00:12:35.679 --> 00:12:38.159
not what it's gone off, but it's not it's been on.

161
00:12:38.200 --> 00:12:42.360
That's why it's hot. BlimE me. See, I'm going to

162
00:12:42.399 --> 00:12:44.679
try and say it throughout this recording. BlimE me, BlimE me,

163
00:12:44.799 --> 00:12:50.720
BlimE me. I think I quite like the idea of

164
00:12:50.799 --> 00:12:58.000
going away. So maybe I couldn't go and leave Vinnie

165
00:12:58.000 --> 00:13:01.879
on his own for any length of time because it's

166
00:13:01.879 --> 00:13:07.240
not fair on him. But I definitely do a couple

167
00:13:07.240 --> 00:13:10.200
of weeks away and I'd need a holiday, So I'd

168
00:13:10.240 --> 00:13:12.639
go away for a couple of weeks, pay someone to

169
00:13:12.679 --> 00:13:16.000
look after him here to stay in my flat for

170
00:13:16.080 --> 00:13:19.639
that period of time. I don't know who, but someone

171
00:13:19.639 --> 00:13:22.919
that I trusted again asking it, I don't know who

172
00:13:22.960 --> 00:13:26.600
I could trust to do that, but I'd find someone

173
00:13:26.759 --> 00:13:31.159
and then go away for a couple of weeks just

174
00:13:31.200 --> 00:13:35.679
to think things over, just to figure out what I'm

175
00:13:35.679 --> 00:13:40.639
going to do next, to plan it, you know. Then

176
00:13:40.960 --> 00:13:41.879
I would.

177
00:13:43.519 --> 00:13:43.720
Go.

178
00:13:43.919 --> 00:13:46.399
I suppose the first people would go and see would

179
00:13:46.399 --> 00:13:51.000
be my dad. I would try and get my dad

180
00:13:51.039 --> 00:13:59.639
to get everyone together like immediate family, and then I

181
00:13:59.720 --> 00:14:04.559
would I'd speak to my dad first about the money,

182
00:14:04.919 --> 00:14:06.639
and I would give him so if I if I

183
00:14:06.759 --> 00:14:09.799
won lots and lots, then I would give him a

184
00:14:09.840 --> 00:14:15.039
big amount, and I would the people I would give

185
00:14:15.080 --> 00:14:19.200
money to at the very beginning would be my brother.

186
00:14:21.559 --> 00:14:23.600
In fact, I would track down the other two brothers

187
00:14:23.600 --> 00:14:27.039
and give money to them as well, and so i'd

188
00:14:27.080 --> 00:14:30.440
give I'll give money to all three brothers, and then

189
00:14:30.440 --> 00:14:35.279
my step brother and stepsister give them money, So that

190
00:14:35.320 --> 00:14:37.759
would be six people to give money to.

191
00:14:37.799 --> 00:14:38.159
My dad.

192
00:14:38.399 --> 00:14:40.679
I mean that would be shared with his wife anyway,

193
00:14:40.720 --> 00:14:43.240
with my step mom, so that's for the two of them,

194
00:14:43.440 --> 00:14:49.799
so six loads of money would be gone. I'd probably

195
00:14:50.120 --> 00:14:54.799
then also give money to my first step mom via

196
00:14:54.960 --> 00:14:56.919
my little brother, so give him the money to give

197
00:14:56.960 --> 00:15:03.480
to her. And I would also give money to my

198
00:15:03.679 --> 00:15:06.279
step uncle or I haven't seen since I was a teenager,

199
00:15:06.759 --> 00:15:09.000
but he was so lovely, so I would give him

200
00:15:09.000 --> 00:15:15.360
money because I think he's according to my brother, he's

201
00:15:15.360 --> 00:15:18.279
not doing so great, so I would help him out.

202
00:15:19.480 --> 00:15:25.639
And then I would go and give money to both

203
00:15:25.720 --> 00:15:30.080
my aunties and my uncle. So I kind of work

204
00:15:30.159 --> 00:15:32.039
my way down knock down, but like go for the

205
00:15:32.080 --> 00:15:35.080
obvious people, even though I don't really have much contact

206
00:15:35.080 --> 00:15:38.720
with any of them. But still my relatives, So I

207
00:15:38.759 --> 00:15:49.279
give them money then, and I'm thinking it'd be cool

208
00:15:49.320 --> 00:15:51.799
if I had like millions and millions and millions, so

209
00:15:51.919 --> 00:15:56.039
give them like fifty grand each, because that's a substantial

210
00:15:56.080 --> 00:16:02.120
amount to actually potentially make a difference to their life.

211
00:16:03.279 --> 00:16:06.039
It might not, but I'm thinking it might in the

212
00:16:06.120 --> 00:16:09.240
sense of make at least go on holiday, going to

213
00:16:09.279 --> 00:16:11.120
all the world, travel the world, go on a few

214
00:16:11.120 --> 00:16:15.399
holidays with that, I imagine. I don't know how much

215
00:16:15.559 --> 00:16:20.120
holiday would be for a couple to go on holiday.

216
00:16:21.039 --> 00:16:21.519
I don't know.

217
00:16:23.240 --> 00:16:26.360
I've never gone on holiday as a couple. I've never

218
00:16:26.399 --> 00:16:29.600
done a cruise, like my dad likes cruises. My dad

219
00:16:29.720 --> 00:16:34.879
likes to cruise, so I don't know. They can be

220
00:16:34.919 --> 00:16:42.279
quite expensive, I know, I all. So, I mean, I

221
00:16:42.279 --> 00:16:46.840
would like to travel the world on a cruise, but

222
00:16:46.919 --> 00:16:50.320
there's no way in the world I'm leaving Vinnie Vinnie's

223
00:16:50.559 --> 00:16:53.799
That won't happen while I've got Vinnie, because that would

224
00:16:53.840 --> 00:16:58.879
be like a six month, six month thing, you know.

225
00:16:59.440 --> 00:17:01.639
I mean, I could go off for the odd week

226
00:17:01.679 --> 00:17:06.400
and stuff, which I probably would do, but I'm not

227
00:17:06.480 --> 00:17:11.720
gonna leave the little penguin. I'm just trying to think

228
00:17:11.720 --> 00:17:13.680
what's in the background. There's a lot of rubbish in

229
00:17:13.680 --> 00:17:19.119
the background here. I might try and edit it so

230
00:17:19.200 --> 00:17:22.720
that the background is blood blank or blue or green

231
00:17:22.799 --> 00:17:24.799
or something. I might try and do that on a video.

232
00:17:25.240 --> 00:17:27.319
I don't know how easy it is to do that.

233
00:17:31.240 --> 00:17:34.079
So then what I'd do is I would then move

234
00:17:34.359 --> 00:17:47.599
to probably aim at cousins, send money to the cousins

235
00:17:47.680 --> 00:17:51.680
I've had contact with, maybe even give money to cousins

236
00:17:51.680 --> 00:17:53.839
that I haven't seen since I was a kid, just

237
00:17:53.839 --> 00:17:56.039
because they're family, you know, just like just give them

238
00:17:56.039 --> 00:18:07.640
some money. So I've got probably one, two, three, four, five, six, seven,

239
00:18:08.440 --> 00:18:14.559
eight nine, probably about ten cousins I have contact with one,

240
00:18:15.119 --> 00:18:20.559
but yeah, there's a couple that I haven't seen for years,

241
00:18:20.599 --> 00:18:22.759
but I was very very close to them, so i'd

242
00:18:22.759 --> 00:18:26.960
give them money. I'd also give their mum money as well.

243
00:18:28.279 --> 00:18:31.079
Be so I lived with her for four years and

244
00:18:31.160 --> 00:18:33.160
she did help me out. I annoyed the hell out

245
00:18:33.200 --> 00:18:35.839
of me and I annoyed her, but she did help

246
00:18:35.920 --> 00:18:39.480
me out. So I do you know, now I appreciate it.

247
00:18:39.519 --> 00:18:42.920
Maybe at the time I did as well, but we

248
00:18:43.279 --> 00:18:49.880
just used to annoy each other. So I'd give her money,

249
00:18:50.039 --> 00:18:52.920
give her kids money, I give the dad money as well,

250
00:18:53.039 --> 00:18:55.880
because I've gotten very well with him as well. So

251
00:18:56.279 --> 00:18:59.680
I give all of them money to do what they

252
00:18:59.680 --> 00:19:03.599
want with it. So i'd like to, you know, if

253
00:19:03.599 --> 00:19:06.519
it was ten grand even, you know, I give something

254
00:19:07.000 --> 00:19:17.359
so that could I'm literally dripping. The radios aren't on.

255
00:19:17.920 --> 00:19:19.759
They're warm, but they're not on, if you know what

256
00:19:19.759 --> 00:19:21.880
I mean. I can't if I got got up and

257
00:19:22.000 --> 00:19:25.400
turned it off, it wouldn't click because it is turned off.

258
00:19:26.480 --> 00:19:36.119
But why did they come on? Yes, So I that's

259
00:19:36.200 --> 00:19:39.319
one way of doing it. And then I would give

260
00:19:39.440 --> 00:19:47.319
money to friends, So I'd start with family first. Technically, friends,

261
00:19:47.359 --> 00:19:51.559
I would say possibly is the beginning, because anyone that

262
00:19:51.599 --> 00:19:56.160
I see on a regular basis is in some ways

263
00:19:56.160 --> 00:19:59.240
closer than family in a way. I mean, I have

264
00:19:59.319 --> 00:20:01.839
more conversation with dog walkers and i'd do with my

265
00:20:01.880 --> 00:20:08.640
own family, but more meaningful conversations as well sometimes, but

266
00:20:08.720 --> 00:20:11.240
that's just because they don't. No one lives near me,

267
00:20:11.400 --> 00:20:16.160
and you know, I don't go out, I don't go

268
00:20:16.480 --> 00:20:22.720
don't travel very far. I'll get myself a chauffeur and

269
00:20:22.759 --> 00:20:24.799
I'll buy myself a very expensive car.

270
00:20:26.480 --> 00:20:27.119
I don't know.

271
00:20:28.519 --> 00:20:32.680
I would need. I think I quite like the idea

272
00:20:32.720 --> 00:20:36.480
of having a taxi driver. So if there was someone

273
00:20:36.480 --> 00:20:41.599
that I knew that I liked to be my taxi

274
00:20:41.720 --> 00:20:46.880
driver and just drive me around if I needed to

275
00:20:47.000 --> 00:21:01.480
drive around, and I would. This is going to take

276
00:21:01.519 --> 00:21:04.119
the whole record and just talking about my fantasies, isn't it.

277
00:21:09.400 --> 00:21:16.119
I yeah, I think taking a step back would be

278
00:21:16.319 --> 00:21:21.000
very very useful, taking a step back and like, okay,

279
00:21:21.960 --> 00:21:26.119
go away for a couple of weeks. I'd have to

280
00:21:26.160 --> 00:21:30.720
tell someone. Who would I tell if I won the lottery?

281
00:21:31.200 --> 00:21:36.920
Who would I tell? Probably everybody. To be fair, I'll

282
00:21:36.960 --> 00:21:37.839
tell you first.

283
00:21:38.880 --> 00:21:39.319
I would.

284
00:21:40.920 --> 00:21:48.240
You're the first person i'd tell, and obviously have to

285
00:21:48.319 --> 00:21:59.119
let the other certain people know. The thing is, I

286
00:21:59.160 --> 00:22:01.640
think i'd keep a little bit quiet because as soon

287
00:22:01.680 --> 00:22:05.839
as not not publicly, but family wise or friends. So

288
00:22:06.119 --> 00:22:07.880
I think if I told anyone that I'd won the

289
00:22:07.880 --> 00:22:13.519
lottery and it was a big amount of money, wouldn't

290
00:22:13.559 --> 00:22:17.920
they expect something from me? I mean they would be

291
00:22:17.960 --> 00:22:24.119
getting something from him because I could not. You know,

292
00:22:24.559 --> 00:22:29.799
it's how good you're not, It's not I had a

293
00:22:29.799 --> 00:22:33.240
friend won five grand five grand on a lottery ticket

294
00:22:33.279 --> 00:22:37.920
once and it didn't even buy a meal or nothing,

295
00:22:38.079 --> 00:22:42.200
just like, I couldn't have done that. I'd have just

296
00:22:42.359 --> 00:22:45.000
at least got a Chinese takeaway for everyone. I took

297
00:22:45.000 --> 00:22:47.759
everyone out for a meal. This is where I lived.

298
00:22:47.880 --> 00:22:50.359
There was only like four of us living there, so

299
00:22:50.400 --> 00:22:53.039
I can't take us all out. That's going to cost

300
00:22:53.079 --> 00:22:54.079
what one hundred quid.

301
00:22:55.680 --> 00:22:56.079
Back then?

302
00:22:57.079 --> 00:23:03.920
This was nineteen sixty three. I'm trying to think, Yeah,

303
00:23:04.039 --> 00:23:09.839
so that I would. I don't have any big purchases

304
00:23:09.880 --> 00:23:14.160
that I would want. I wouldn't want a boat, not

305
00:23:14.240 --> 00:23:17.759
really into this two I like, I like ferries or

306
00:23:18.799 --> 00:23:20.880
to be on a cruise ship, love all that stuff.

307
00:23:21.559 --> 00:23:25.920
I wouldn't want to be on a boat, So that's

308
00:23:25.960 --> 00:23:31.119
a purchase I wouldn't make. I wouldn't buy a plane.

309
00:23:31.920 --> 00:23:36.559
And if I had a substantial amount of money, then

310
00:23:36.559 --> 00:23:41.960
I would start flying first class. I've never I've never

311
00:23:42.079 --> 00:23:46.200
flown comfortably before, so that would be definitely something that

312
00:23:46.240 --> 00:23:58.799
I would do. What else I probably i'd want to

313
00:23:58.839 --> 00:24:06.119
move away from here. I think I would buy this

314
00:24:06.240 --> 00:24:15.599
place and then I just have it as my It

315
00:24:15.720 --> 00:24:18.680
might seem sound bad, have it like as a storage

316
00:24:18.799 --> 00:24:21.960
or have it as a I don't know. Maybe I wouldn't.

317
00:24:22.000 --> 00:24:29.680
Maybe i'd just move on, get myself a place, or

318
00:24:29.720 --> 00:24:32.799
maybe buy this and let someone live here for free.

319
00:24:33.480 --> 00:24:41.759
I don't know, because that kind of goes against my ethos.

320
00:24:43.000 --> 00:24:51.680
Try not to bang the the microphone. Thanks Finn, he's

321
00:24:51.720 --> 00:24:59.480
on the ground. I would with a counsel property. It

322
00:24:59.640 --> 00:25:02.759
seems kind of wrong for the government or for the

323
00:25:02.799 --> 00:25:10.359
councils to sell them because it doesn't take into consideration

324
00:25:10.559 --> 00:25:14.319
future people that are going to need council properties. And

325
00:25:16.720 --> 00:25:23.079
you know, in my mind, they shouldn't have ever really

326
00:25:23.119 --> 00:25:27.119
been sold off because council properties were for everyone. They weren't.

327
00:25:28.039 --> 00:25:30.359
Now they seemed to be aimed at people like me,

328
00:25:31.799 --> 00:25:33.880
but they used to be aimed at people that worked.

329
00:25:34.039 --> 00:25:37.279
It was for people like my granddad and my dad

330
00:25:40.039 --> 00:25:45.119
had families and they had a council house and social housing,

331
00:25:45.200 --> 00:25:52.160
and it was just that's how it was. And in

332
00:25:52.200 --> 00:25:54.440
the eighties or whatever, and they kind of started selling

333
00:25:54.440 --> 00:25:59.400
them properties off, but they didn't build new places to

334
00:25:59.480 --> 00:26:03.079
replace the council houses and the council flats that we're gone.

335
00:26:03.200 --> 00:26:07.039
I'm not getting into politics, it's just I don' it

336
00:26:07.119 --> 00:26:12.839
just seems seems kind of wrong to buy it because

337
00:26:12.880 --> 00:26:15.839
that's one person less that won't be able to live here,

338
00:26:16.759 --> 00:26:18.680
but then it would be seen it seemed kind of

339
00:26:18.720 --> 00:26:22.319
wrong to stay here, which I would be allowed. I

340
00:26:22.359 --> 00:26:25.119
don't have to. There's no law to say that someone

341
00:26:25.160 --> 00:26:28.400
with money isn't allowed to have a council flat as

342
00:26:28.400 --> 00:26:32.279
long as you paid the rent, you know so, but

343
00:26:32.400 --> 00:26:34.759
that seems kind of wrong as well. If I had,

344
00:26:37.240 --> 00:26:41.759
you know, a substantial amount of money to still be

345
00:26:41.799 --> 00:26:46.039
living in a council property social housing, I don't know.

346
00:26:49.720 --> 00:26:51.119
I definitely wouldn't.

347
00:26:50.759 --> 00:26:51.400
Move out.

348
00:26:52.759 --> 00:26:57.519
Straight away. I have to see how long the money lasted,

349
00:26:57.559 --> 00:27:03.480
you know. So I think from a strategic so I've

350
00:27:03.480 --> 00:27:06.960
got to be strategic, but at the same time realistic

351
00:27:07.079 --> 00:27:10.759
because I'm not in the thirties, am I. You know,

352
00:27:12.200 --> 00:27:15.240
it's okay. I could put my money, put half of

353
00:27:15.279 --> 00:27:17.319
it or three quarters of it into some kind of

354
00:27:18.880 --> 00:27:22.559
bank account that's going to give me high interest, but

355
00:27:22.640 --> 00:27:24.640
it might have to stay in there for ten years

356
00:27:24.720 --> 00:27:30.400
or something silly like that. I'll be sixty five when

357
00:27:30.400 --> 00:27:31.519
I can get that money out.

358
00:27:32.799 --> 00:27:32.960
You know.

359
00:27:33.039 --> 00:27:35.119
There's no guarantees, is there. So I don't know if

360
00:27:35.160 --> 00:27:41.160
I would want to necessarily do that. I think Hillary,

361
00:27:41.200 --> 00:27:43.799
you was more interested in what silly things I would do,

362
00:27:43.799 --> 00:27:48.359
aren't you? I think possibly, what silly things would I do?

363
00:27:50.799 --> 00:27:53.799
I would definitely not have the heating on in the summer.

364
00:27:56.960 --> 00:28:05.519
It's nearly June. Why is the heating come on? Mind,

365
00:28:05.559 --> 00:28:07.960
it has been cold, it's been cold at night, and

366
00:28:07.960 --> 00:28:11.599
then it's just the temperatures change it. For anyone that's

367
00:28:11.640 --> 00:28:19.000
never been to this country, we have seasons, but we

368
00:28:19.319 --> 00:28:23.640
have multiple seasons in one day sometimes, and it might

369
00:28:23.759 --> 00:28:26.400
sound silly, but asking anyone who lives here and they

370
00:28:26.400 --> 00:28:29.160
will tell you the same thing. You know, it can

371
00:28:29.200 --> 00:28:36.759
feel like winter, summer, autumn all in one day. It's

372
00:28:36.799 --> 00:28:42.720
like changes. The day can start off frosty and ice

373
00:28:42.799 --> 00:28:46.720
on the cars, and then by one o'clock in the afternoon,

374
00:28:47.079 --> 00:28:49.200
it could be steaming the sun and people are walking

375
00:28:49.200 --> 00:28:53.200
around and there's shorts and little nipple tassels and stuff.

376
00:28:54.160 --> 00:28:57.119
And then in the evening it can be kind of

377
00:28:57.200 --> 00:29:06.400
like really windy and blowing winds off Autumn not fall autumn.

378
00:29:07.680 --> 00:29:10.119
I don't know where it comes from, which came first

379
00:29:10.359 --> 00:29:16.839
autumn or fall. I wonder whether four is just invented

380
00:29:17.240 --> 00:29:21.240
in order to make that rhyme rhyme, you know, for

381
00:29:21.279 --> 00:29:25.000
people to remember what's what for when the clocks go forward.

382
00:29:28.839 --> 00:29:36.559
Do you know that what I'm talking about? No spring back,

383
00:29:39.240 --> 00:29:46.279
no fall back, fall back, spring forward. So you put

384
00:29:46.279 --> 00:29:48.920
the clocks forward in spring, and the clock's going out

385
00:29:49.000 --> 00:29:53.319
back in four But it makes no sense in this

386
00:29:53.400 --> 00:29:57.079
country because we don't use the term fall. We use autumn.

387
00:29:59.519 --> 00:30:01.640
My friend used to love and when I say how

388
00:30:01.640 --> 00:30:04.880
many days in this year? How many days in this month?

389
00:30:06.319 --> 00:30:08.720
Bearing in mind it's the thirtieth today, So is all

390
00:30:08.720 --> 00:30:10.720
I'm asking is this the last day of the month

391
00:30:11.160 --> 00:30:12.079
or is it one more day?

392
00:30:12.799 --> 00:30:13.039
You know what?

393
00:30:13.119 --> 00:30:16.960
He wouldn't just say, oh there's one more day. No,

394
00:30:16.960 --> 00:30:22.279
No April, May and June, November forty days, thirty days

395
00:30:22.279 --> 00:30:28.079
in September, whatever that that stupid rhyme is? I said,

396
00:30:28.119 --> 00:30:30.039
so how many days in this month? I just told

397
00:30:30.079 --> 00:30:37.240
you again you're fit to be moved in November. I'm

398
00:30:37.240 --> 00:30:39.119
not listening to you. Could you tell me what the

399
00:30:39.440 --> 00:30:41.440
how many days are in them? And in the end,

400
00:30:41.480 --> 00:30:42.960
I just have to go on my phone and look,

401
00:30:43.599 --> 00:30:46.359
it's like I wasn't at school on that day. It's

402
00:30:46.400 --> 00:30:53.440
not in my head. I'm sorry. It's like, when did

403
00:30:53.480 --> 00:30:57.119
you get someone that you're talking to? Someone like? And

404
00:30:57.160 --> 00:30:59.799
he said, oh, what's what's the name. I forget their name,

405
00:31:00.079 --> 00:31:03.920
and they said it's Ian. The person's name is Ian.

406
00:31:06.200 --> 00:31:09.680
I don't why you telling me that. You're telling me

407
00:31:09.720 --> 00:31:12.440
like I'm supposed to remember if I didn't know by now,

408
00:31:12.519 --> 00:31:15.720
why am I going to remember? Because you said it like,

409
00:31:16.079 --> 00:31:17.920
I don't care what the name is. I don't know

410
00:31:17.960 --> 00:31:19.880
what the name is. When I say I don't know,

411
00:31:20.440 --> 00:31:24.119
I'm not asking what it is. I don't know, and

412
00:31:24.200 --> 00:31:26.599
I still don't know. But I've told you it's Ian.

413
00:31:27.359 --> 00:31:30.559
I still don't know. I mean, I know now, but

414
00:31:30.640 --> 00:31:36.000
I won't know after this conversation's gone. Actually, after that conversation,

415
00:31:36.039 --> 00:31:37.799
I probably did remember it because I just said Ian

416
00:31:38.839 --> 00:31:45.839
because it was annoying conversation. Yeah, there's some method in

417
00:31:45.839 --> 00:31:48.000
that one, isn't there. I suppose this that makes sense.

418
00:31:50.519 --> 00:32:05.640
So if I won the lottery plastic surgery, probably I

419
00:32:05.640 --> 00:32:18.079
don't know. I definitely I wouldn't. I think I try

420
00:32:18.079 --> 00:32:21.400
and get myself a bit fitter and maybe get some

421
00:32:21.440 --> 00:32:26.640
professional help with that. I get some professional therapy as well,

422
00:32:28.319 --> 00:32:33.440
because you know, I'm not sure. I'm not sure how

423
00:32:36.200 --> 00:32:42.680
how I would deal with being wealthy, but ultimately I

424
00:32:42.720 --> 00:32:46.640
want to continue doing this. So this is the only

425
00:32:46.680 --> 00:32:51.759
thing that has any meaning to me, which is weird

426
00:32:51.839 --> 00:32:55.079
because some would argue this is a completely meaningless thing

427
00:32:55.480 --> 00:32:58.839
that I do. But for me, it's the only thing

428
00:32:58.920 --> 00:33:04.200
that gets me out and gives me any kind of

429
00:33:05.599 --> 00:33:11.880
enthusiasm or interest, you know, like continuously. You know this

430
00:33:12.759 --> 00:33:15.640
when boxing's on is a big fight, I'm interested in that,

431
00:33:15.799 --> 00:33:19.559
And there's a chocolate bar in front of me about

432
00:33:19.599 --> 00:33:21.920
to go in my mouth that I'm interested in that,

433
00:33:22.559 --> 00:33:28.400
you know. But I mean, like continuous since two thousand

434
00:33:28.400 --> 00:33:34.160
and six, making videos, making recordings, and going all the

435
00:33:34.200 --> 00:33:39.559
way back to nineteen ninety seven or ninety eight when

436
00:33:39.599 --> 00:33:45.000
I first got involved in this whole thing. So I

437
00:33:45.039 --> 00:33:49.880
don't know, it's there's so many different things. I'd like

438
00:33:50.000 --> 00:34:00.039
to help as many people as I can ultimately, and

439
00:34:04.240 --> 00:34:11.440
that might involve getting some professionals involved with this thing

440
00:34:11.559 --> 00:34:18.760
that I do, getting a proper quality set up, you know,

441
00:34:19.239 --> 00:34:24.679
recording studio, TV studio, whatever to make the videos, make

442
00:34:24.719 --> 00:34:28.440
the audio, have professionals doing the editing and all that stuff,

443
00:34:30.480 --> 00:34:37.400
and maybe reach a larger audience and perhaps help more

444
00:34:37.440 --> 00:34:45.719
people be bored. Maybe. Yeah, I mean, I quite like

445
00:34:45.800 --> 00:34:48.320
the idea of when I right at the beginning, when

446
00:34:48.360 --> 00:34:52.280
I said, get a party, have a party, get everyone together,

447
00:34:52.559 --> 00:34:57.679
get everyone that I've known, and this includes people that

448
00:34:57.719 --> 00:35:01.280
I'm not even friends with anymore. So I've got a

449
00:35:01.320 --> 00:35:08.199
friend in Nottingham who doesn't like me anymore, but I

450
00:35:08.360 --> 00:35:13.719
do appreciate the friendship we had, you know, twenty thirty

451
00:35:13.800 --> 00:35:18.679
years ago, so and he did help me out back then,

452
00:35:18.800 --> 00:35:26.880
so I would give him money. I would probably even

453
00:35:26.920 --> 00:35:31.079
try and contact a couple of ex girlfriends and give

454
00:35:31.119 --> 00:35:35.239
them money. I think anyone that's anyone that's been a

455
00:35:35.239 --> 00:35:39.320
girlfriend with one of my girlfriends deserves deserves a bit

456
00:35:39.360 --> 00:35:41.599
of my lot of rewind to be fair, have putting

457
00:35:41.639 --> 00:35:49.119
up with me for that time. My two goddaughters who

458
00:35:49.159 --> 00:35:52.199
I don't really see anymore, not official god daughters, but

459
00:35:53.519 --> 00:35:56.440
because I'm a Buddhist, so the mother wouldn't do it,

460
00:35:56.840 --> 00:35:59.480
she wouldn't go, she wouldn't allow me to officially be

461
00:36:00.039 --> 00:36:04.599
a godfather. But I was kind of in that same

462
00:36:04.639 --> 00:36:08.360
way I was for a while, So I would give

463
00:36:08.400 --> 00:36:17.440
them some money, help them out and try and find

464
00:36:17.519 --> 00:36:22.920
people from the past and also help them out. So

465
00:36:23.000 --> 00:36:25.360
even like my best friend from school that I haven't

466
00:36:25.360 --> 00:36:32.599
seen since I was eighteen nineteen, give him money. In fact,

467
00:36:32.719 --> 00:36:37.159
there's a few that I would give money to even

468
00:36:37.199 --> 00:36:38.840
if it was I don't have to see them. I

469
00:36:39.000 --> 00:36:45.400
just send them money. I get some kind of an

470
00:36:45.400 --> 00:36:51.360
accountancy to go and give them the cash and get

471
00:36:51.400 --> 00:36:53.480
them to sign for it and stuff and film it.

472
00:36:54.440 --> 00:36:56.840
I don't necessarily want to be there when it's done.

473
00:37:00.679 --> 00:37:10.760
And I would also get a private investigator, pay a

474
00:37:10.760 --> 00:37:14.760
private investigator, like a top top top one to just

475
00:37:14.840 --> 00:37:21.840
do some research and look into my family history on

476
00:37:21.840 --> 00:37:24.920
my mother's side and start to see I've got any

477
00:37:25.199 --> 00:37:30.239
we've ever got any brothers or sisters or anything like that,

478
00:37:30.400 --> 00:37:35.440
any family that's surround you know, because that's half of

479
00:37:35.519 --> 00:37:39.800
my gene pool, isn't it. So be Yeah, that'd be interesting.

480
00:37:42.760 --> 00:37:46.280
I'd like to also get that person to find any

481
00:37:46.400 --> 00:37:54.480
social social services information about me when I was in care.

482
00:37:55.360 --> 00:37:57.719
I'd like to see those notes. I'd like to see

483
00:37:57.760 --> 00:38:01.519
their records. If they kept them is the seventies, so

484
00:38:01.559 --> 00:38:05.719
I don't know if they'd still have them now. But

485
00:38:06.559 --> 00:38:12.239
I did get an freedom of information thing with my

486
00:38:13.280 --> 00:38:27.360
because i'd seen a psychiatrist back in two thousand and thirteen,

487
00:38:27.519 --> 00:38:36.760
twenty thirteen, and twenty fourteen, stuff like that, and the

488
00:38:37.280 --> 00:38:39.360
I had a lot of problems for the coulors. So

489
00:38:39.519 --> 00:38:45.559
psychiatrists are very rude to me, very dismissive, and almost

490
00:38:45.679 --> 00:38:49.960
one even like was looked in disgust that something I'd said,

491
00:38:50.039 --> 00:38:58.159
is like, yeah, so I thought I would ask for

492
00:38:58.239 --> 00:39:02.199
all the notes that are being written about me, and

493
00:39:02.639 --> 00:39:09.320
it was quite an eye opening stuff as also it

494
00:39:09.400 --> 00:39:11.320
was rude some of the stuff that they wrote down.

495
00:39:16.079 --> 00:39:18.119
So I'm wondering if I could quite try and do

496
00:39:18.239 --> 00:39:23.440
that with notes from a long time ago. So I'd

497
00:39:23.440 --> 00:39:27.039
need professional help with that. A lot of people say

498
00:39:27.039 --> 00:39:32.360
that I need professional help. So that's that I could

499
00:39:32.400 --> 00:39:34.159
go on and no, no, on, no, because there's lots

500
00:39:34.199 --> 00:39:37.719
of different things that I would like to do, but

501
00:39:38.320 --> 00:39:43.079
I still like to continue what I'm doing, really, but

502
00:39:43.320 --> 00:39:48.559
just have a nice life, do some nice things, you know,

503
00:39:49.159 --> 00:40:02.000
have some nice clothes and I don't know, hair transplant

504
00:40:02.000 --> 00:40:08.960
maybe I don't know, something like that. Michelle asks, when

505
00:40:09.000 --> 00:40:13.440
you aren't recording, do you have conversations with Vinnie or

506
00:40:13.599 --> 00:40:16.440
just quiet? Yeah. I talked to him all the time,

507
00:40:16.960 --> 00:40:24.519
and it's quieter than when I am doing a recording.

508
00:40:25.719 --> 00:40:28.800
I mean, that's true, it's there's not a lot of

509
00:40:32.199 --> 00:40:34.880
he does sleep quite a lot, but we do chat.

510
00:40:35.000 --> 00:40:37.719
I do talk to him as if he can understand.

511
00:40:38.679 --> 00:40:41.360
I don't know. I mean, he's asleep now, right to

512
00:40:41.440 --> 00:40:44.960
the left of me, fast asleep on the floor, which

513
00:40:45.000 --> 00:40:46.960
is weird that he chooses to sleep right next to

514
00:40:46.960 --> 00:40:50.119
me because there's this comfy sofa over there, and if

515
00:40:50.119 --> 00:40:53.079
you see on the just down there, there's a yellow

516
00:40:54.360 --> 00:40:57.800
it was originally the throw for the settee so that

517
00:40:57.800 --> 00:40:59.760
he could sit on that while I did a video.

518
00:41:00.639 --> 00:41:04.400
But it's really comfortable. It's on the floor. I can't

519
00:41:04.400 --> 00:41:09.400
believe how red I look. I can't even see my face.

520
00:41:09.480 --> 00:41:14.320
The light is no I can see my face, but

521
00:41:14.360 --> 00:41:21.599
it just looks one big like a tomato. Yeah, do

522
00:41:21.639 --> 00:41:25.280
you talk to him? I quite like it when he

523
00:41:25.320 --> 00:41:30.199
turns his head like that, you know, That's that's when

524
00:41:30.199 --> 00:41:33.199
I know I've got his full attention. And another thing

525
00:41:33.239 --> 00:41:36.679
he does do is when I'm watching TV, he will

526
00:41:36.920 --> 00:41:38.880
sit up on his barm and look at me because

527
00:41:38.920 --> 00:41:42.920
he wants something, whether he wants a t R E

528
00:41:42.920 --> 00:41:46.960
E E E T or a W A n W

529
00:41:47.159 --> 00:41:53.440
A l K. But what he does is he stands

530
00:41:53.480 --> 00:41:56.840
that he sits there, stares at me, and I kind

531
00:41:56.840 --> 00:41:59.800
of try and move my feet or my my male,

532
00:42:00.880 --> 00:42:04.400
my leg, elbow, my knee up to blox him, and

533
00:42:04.440 --> 00:42:06.320
he walks around the other way to stare at me.

534
00:42:08.360 --> 00:42:11.519
Doesn't make a sound, he just stares at me. And

535
00:42:11.559 --> 00:42:15.000
he can do it for hours. Seriously, he doesn't give up.

536
00:42:16.639 --> 00:42:18.119
Just dares.

537
00:42:19.320 --> 00:42:25.480
It's very weird. That's when I sort of say, what

538
00:42:25.880 --> 00:42:26.440
was it you want?

539
00:42:26.679 --> 00:42:27.280
What is it you want?

540
00:42:27.360 --> 00:42:31.079
Dylan? What is he want? And I go through different

541
00:42:31.079 --> 00:42:36.239
things and he's like nodding his head from his side

542
00:42:36.239 --> 00:42:43.880
to side like one ear flapping. So yeah, I do

543
00:42:44.039 --> 00:42:48.039
talk to him. I don't know if he I don't

544
00:42:48.079 --> 00:42:50.039
know if he likes to be talking to him. I

545
00:42:50.079 --> 00:42:56.559
don't know. But he doesn't like me leaving him. Doesn't

546
00:42:56.599 --> 00:42:59.000
like me leaving him on his own, that's for sure.

547
00:43:01.400 --> 00:43:03.360
The other day, I think it was yesterday, I had

548
00:43:03.360 --> 00:43:06.760
an Amazon package and all I did was go to

549
00:43:06.800 --> 00:43:09.360
the front door. So I closed the living room door,

550
00:43:09.920 --> 00:43:14.760
went to the front door, opened the front door, got

551
00:43:14.800 --> 00:43:19.000
the package, brought it in. It was just some toothpaste,

552
00:43:19.119 --> 00:43:25.159
some some deodre, and I can't remember what I He

553
00:43:25.199 --> 00:43:27.400
had some dog food as well, so I put that

554
00:43:27.679 --> 00:43:31.199
just two boxes. I put them on the floor, closed

555
00:43:31.199 --> 00:43:35.800
the front door locked it. Then went into the bathrooms

556
00:43:36.079 --> 00:43:37.719
and I need to go to a toilet and he

557
00:43:37.800 --> 00:43:47.559
starts like that, Vinny, I'm here, Vinny, I'm actually here.

558
00:43:47.599 --> 00:43:53.960
I'm in the bathroom. It's like it's like almost like

559
00:43:54.039 --> 00:43:57.480
his ears had switched off and he just decided that

560
00:43:57.519 --> 00:44:03.679
i'd left him, which I hadn't. Sometimes right, and this

561
00:44:03.800 --> 00:44:08.320
is really that's a bit silly. Really, Well, I've got

562
00:44:08.320 --> 00:44:17.320
to take the rubbish downstairs. He'll start. And what I

563
00:44:17.400 --> 00:44:20.519
do is I talk to him all the way a

564
00:44:20.519 --> 00:44:24.079
while I'm going downstairs. Vinnie, I'm still here, and he's

565
00:44:24.199 --> 00:44:27.960
quiet listening. Vinnie, I'm still here. And it's like I

566
00:44:27.960 --> 00:44:29.000
shouldn't have to do that.

567
00:44:29.920 --> 00:44:31.000
He is he's a baby.

568
00:44:31.039 --> 00:44:33.039
I guess he's still a little baby, still a little

569
00:44:33.639 --> 00:44:35.599
he's all he'll always be a baby when he always

570
00:44:35.639 --> 00:44:43.320
be my baby? Uh, Carina, have you ever been to Ireland?

571
00:44:43.719 --> 00:44:47.599
And if so, did you like it? Yes? And no?

572
00:44:48.039 --> 00:44:48.119
No?

573
00:44:48.320 --> 00:44:54.599
Yeah, I have been to Ireland twice and I'm forty

574
00:44:54.639 --> 00:44:57.079
eight percent Irish. You know, I am forty a percent

575
00:44:57.119 --> 00:45:04.320
Irish officially, and I had my DNA test done. We

576
00:45:04.440 --> 00:45:13.800
may be related. I went to Ireland basically, I went

577
00:45:13.840 --> 00:45:15.719
to live but it didn't really work out, so I

578
00:45:15.760 --> 00:45:19.360
came back after about five weeks. But I moved to

579
00:45:19.400 --> 00:45:26.400
Ireland in probably September nineteen eighty no nineteen ninety four,

580
00:45:27.239 --> 00:45:34.400
a long time ago. And what happened is my best

581
00:45:34.440 --> 00:45:39.039
friend Andrea, who Andrea was named after. My little ferret

582
00:45:39.039 --> 00:45:44.360
was named after him. He was Irish, lived in Carlo,

583
00:45:44.639 --> 00:45:52.440
County Carlo. That's where his family came from. Now, his

584
00:45:52.960 --> 00:45:59.360
sister was living with another friend of mine, and Andrea

585
00:45:59.440 --> 00:46:05.599
was living with to Then this someone came onto the

586
00:46:05.639 --> 00:46:11.639
scene and really kind of shook things up and Andre

587
00:46:11.840 --> 00:46:15.880
ended up getting sacked for something that he was kind

588
00:46:15.920 --> 00:46:17.559
of egged on to do. It was like a bit

589
00:46:17.599 --> 00:46:21.519
it's a silly situation. It was a health and safety issue,

590
00:46:21.559 --> 00:46:24.639
so they kind of probably had no choice. But he

591
00:46:24.719 --> 00:46:29.280
went downhill from there and he moved in with this

592
00:46:29.400 --> 00:46:33.320
bloke that we lived, that we worked with, and he

593
00:46:33.360 --> 00:46:35.280
was just drinking real time and it was just the

594
00:46:35.400 --> 00:46:39.400
kind of went off the rails. His mum came to visit,

595
00:46:40.199 --> 00:46:44.559
stayed with his sister and when she saw him, her

596
00:46:44.599 --> 00:46:47.079
little boy, I mean he was twenty four at the time,

597
00:46:47.400 --> 00:46:50.920
but when she saw what a messy was, she said

598
00:46:50.920 --> 00:46:56.440
you're coming home with me, but no choice. She said,

599
00:46:56.840 --> 00:46:59.159
that's it, You're coming home. You're not living like this,

600
00:47:00.519 --> 00:47:03.119
because he was. He was sleeping in a set, yeah,

601
00:47:03.199 --> 00:47:10.840
in this was it sofa bed downstairs and yeah, she said,

602
00:47:10.840 --> 00:47:12.800
you're not living like this. So you're doing is drinking

603
00:47:13.679 --> 00:47:20.079
and so they were here for about two weeks. I mean,

604
00:47:20.119 --> 00:47:22.199
she didn't she wasn't holding his ear or anything but

605
00:47:22.559 --> 00:47:27.960
carrying you. But he just did what she said, and

606
00:47:28.000 --> 00:47:34.360
he didn't want to leave me. Really, however sad or

607
00:47:34.400 --> 00:47:38.480
weird that might sound, but she his mum invited me

608
00:47:38.559 --> 00:47:39.840
to go and stay there.

609
00:47:43.119 --> 00:47:43.679
In Ireland.

610
00:47:44.880 --> 00:47:49.360
I didn't go at the same time as them because

611
00:47:54.039 --> 00:47:58.199
I don't know why. I can't remember exactly why, but

612
00:47:58.440 --> 00:48:01.239
I think I needed to sort a few things out first.

613
00:48:03.119 --> 00:48:10.239
I was in a relationship as well. Yeah, I think

614
00:48:10.320 --> 00:48:12.760
I went to tell her. Yeah, I think I had

615
00:48:12.760 --> 00:48:14.760
to go and tell her that I was moving to Ireland.

616
00:48:16.320 --> 00:48:17.800
I was going to keep the relation. I did keep

617
00:48:17.840 --> 00:48:22.639
the relationship going, but there was absolutely no contact between us,

618
00:48:23.320 --> 00:48:31.280
so it wasn't really a relationship, I suppose, and it

619
00:48:31.400 --> 00:48:33.960
kind of sizzled out to nothing anyway, because we weren't

620
00:48:33.960 --> 00:48:37.039
anywhere near each other so that, but that she did

621
00:48:37.079 --> 00:48:38.559
call me while I was in Ireland to tell me

622
00:48:38.599 --> 00:48:42.880
she'd met someone else, and you know, I was kind

623
00:48:42.880 --> 00:48:43.599
of like, who is this?

624
00:48:44.400 --> 00:48:44.840
Who is this?

625
00:48:46.079 --> 00:48:48.320
She said, I mean your girlfriend was like, oh yeah,

626
00:48:49.159 --> 00:48:50.280
I forgot we were dating.

627
00:48:51.400 --> 00:48:52.840
So it wasn't really a big deal.

628
00:48:53.119 --> 00:48:55.639
When I did move back, I visited and met him

629
00:48:55.679 --> 00:48:59.239
and he was cool, got on really well with and

630
00:48:59.440 --> 00:49:01.840
I just it was it was one of those things

631
00:49:01.920 --> 00:49:04.400
that it had run its course, I guess.

632
00:49:05.639 --> 00:49:05.800
But.

633
00:49:07.400 --> 00:49:09.599
I went. So I went to Ireland. I got the

634
00:49:09.639 --> 00:49:13.840
ferry there, got a lift back in a van, in

635
00:49:13.880 --> 00:49:18.400
the back of a van, but it was it was

636
00:49:18.440 --> 00:49:20.480
one of those vans with no windows in the back,

637
00:49:21.360 --> 00:49:23.400
so I didn't see anything. I didn't know where I

638
00:49:23.440 --> 00:49:28.840
was going. I don't know why they blindfolded me. And

639
00:49:32.639 --> 00:49:35.320
to start with, we was in Carlo, but we weren't

640
00:49:35.320 --> 00:49:40.880
at his parents. We was his other sisters and her husband,

641
00:49:41.800 --> 00:49:48.280
so we both stayed there for that night. Then we

642
00:49:48.320 --> 00:49:49.360
went and.

643
00:49:49.960 --> 00:49:50.760
I went to his.

644
00:49:52.400 --> 00:49:54.800
Mum's house or she might come and picked us up.

645
00:49:55.639 --> 00:49:58.159
So I met his dad and his mum for the

646
00:49:58.199 --> 00:50:02.440
first time, though his mum might have been there. No,

647
00:50:02.719 --> 00:50:05.960
I don't can't remember. I can't remember, but I think

648
00:50:06.039 --> 00:50:07.480
I met his dad for the first time.

649
00:50:07.920 --> 00:50:10.239
His dad.

650
00:50:10.480 --> 00:50:14.599
It was weird because his dad was very, very tough

651
00:50:15.000 --> 00:50:18.639
man that they were kind of the tough family of

652
00:50:18.679 --> 00:50:26.599
the town, the Doolies at the time. And the weird

653
00:50:26.639 --> 00:50:29.920
thing about it is his dad's I think his dad

654
00:50:29.920 --> 00:50:34.280
found out I thought I was quite funny, and also

655
00:50:34.800 --> 00:50:37.920
because I wasn't intimidated by him. I'm just a huge

656
00:50:37.960 --> 00:50:43.239
strong man and I probably weighed about what nine half

657
00:50:43.320 --> 00:50:46.119
stone probably at the time maybe ten stone if that.

658
00:50:48.159 --> 00:50:53.719
It was a huge, honestly big strong man and tough

659
00:50:53.760 --> 00:50:57.280
guy in that and he used to say things to me,

660
00:50:57.679 --> 00:51:02.840
probably expected me to, I don't know, maybe be intimidated

661
00:51:02.960 --> 00:51:05.840
or whatever, and I just laughed at him. And because

662
00:51:05.880 --> 00:51:08.559
he I think he just found that funny that I

663
00:51:08.599 --> 00:51:13.679
didn't care. I wasn't bothered, you know, which I wasn't.

664
00:51:14.639 --> 00:51:19.679
Just I don't really get intimidated generally. Perhaps I should,

665
00:51:20.920 --> 00:51:26.000
but I got on quite well with him. We even

666
00:51:26.079 --> 00:51:29.159
went to the dogs because he was he used to

667
00:51:29.199 --> 00:51:32.320
train greyhounds and we went to the dogs together. It

668
00:51:32.360 --> 00:51:34.920
took me. It was a nice I've never been to

669
00:51:35.000 --> 00:51:39.159
anything like that before. And bearing in mind I couldn't understand,

670
00:51:39.280 --> 00:51:44.039
like only every fourth word he said because he was

671
00:51:44.039 --> 00:51:46.440
speaking so fast. But I still managed to do it.

672
00:51:46.480 --> 00:51:52.480
I still managed to I don't know adapt my ears.

673
00:51:52.519 --> 00:51:54.159
I guess.

674
00:51:55.119 --> 00:51:57.119
So we Yeah, we got on all right.

675
00:51:57.960 --> 00:52:01.760
I mean he might have just been verbally abused me

676
00:52:01.800 --> 00:52:05.199
the whole time. I just didn't realize it because I

677
00:52:05.199 --> 00:52:07.519
couldn't understand what he was saying. So is me just

678
00:52:07.599 --> 00:52:13.440
laughing and he's thinking here crazy? What? Hell? Yeah, he's

679
00:52:13.480 --> 00:52:14.639
not scared of me. Why.

680
00:52:15.679 --> 00:52:16.079
I don't know.

681
00:52:17.360 --> 00:52:21.639
But his mum was nice dead. I've got one always

682
00:52:21.960 --> 00:52:28.360
he was dead. He's dire and.

683
00:52:29.079 --> 00:52:29.679
It's weird.

684
00:52:29.760 --> 00:52:34.119
I remember that house because it was Was it a bungalow?

685
00:52:36.039 --> 00:52:37.760
I think it was a bungalow. Either it was a

686
00:52:37.800 --> 00:52:46.679
bungalow or it wasn't. I only remember three rooms in

687
00:52:46.719 --> 00:52:53.159
the house. I don't remember the bathroom. I was there

688
00:52:53.199 --> 00:52:55.159
for five weeks. I must have gone to the toilet

689
00:52:55.159 --> 00:53:01.039
at some point. But I remember my room and it

690
00:53:01.119 --> 00:53:05.360
was you know by I just picked my ear the

691
00:53:05.440 --> 00:53:08.400
end of night in camera. I wonder what else I've done.

692
00:53:08.440 --> 00:53:11.360
I I've picked my nose probably as well. Sorry how

693
00:53:12.920 --> 00:53:24.440
And I I remember it was cold, I mean it

694
00:53:24.480 --> 00:53:32.320
was September, but September is not normally cold, really, but

695
00:53:32.400 --> 00:53:38.719
over there it was cold and lots of blankets, but

696
00:53:38.960 --> 00:53:43.639
very quiet. Where they lived is literally in the countryside.

697
00:53:43.800 --> 00:53:48.320
I mean I live in the countryside now, but they

698
00:53:48.400 --> 00:53:52.840
lived in the countryside. I mean it's like as countryside

699
00:53:52.880 --> 00:53:59.119
as you can get across the road country just trees,

700
00:53:59.400 --> 00:54:07.519
trees everywhere, so you could hear frogs farting, you know.

701
00:54:07.639 --> 00:54:12.360
It was that kind of thing and so quiet, and

702
00:54:12.480 --> 00:54:16.920
having lived in London for quite a long time at

703
00:54:16.920 --> 00:54:20.639
that point, it was the first time really that I'd

704
00:54:20.639 --> 00:54:28.440
ever been that I'd ever had a quiet night, a

705
00:54:28.480 --> 00:54:32.440
bit like now. It's not normally this quiet, but it's

706
00:54:32.519 --> 00:54:36.559
quiet today for some reason, and I'm making the best

707
00:54:36.880 --> 00:54:45.440
of that opportunity to do a recording. I remember the

708
00:54:45.559 --> 00:54:48.280
kitchen because quite a big kitchen, and there was a table,

709
00:54:49.480 --> 00:54:54.719
and they would eat a breakfast I think it was

710
00:54:54.760 --> 00:54:59.000
a cooked breakfast. Then they'd have lunch. Then they'd have dinner,

711
00:54:59.239 --> 00:55:02.559
but even a meal. Then they'd have supper. I think

712
00:55:02.679 --> 00:55:05.239
the lunchtime I'd get my own stuff because I'd be gone,

713
00:55:05.239 --> 00:55:07.760
i'd be out of the house, but there'd be supper

714
00:55:07.920 --> 00:55:10.199
before going to bed. Like an hour or so before

715
00:55:10.280 --> 00:55:14.440
going to bed. I've never done that before. I might

716
00:55:14.480 --> 00:55:16.880
have a packet of crisps or some biscuits, but i'd

717
00:55:16.880 --> 00:55:21.159
never have food, and I'd probably put on a little

718
00:55:21.159 --> 00:55:25.519
bit of weight when I was out there. And then

719
00:55:26.480 --> 00:55:32.119
I remember the living room because they had a nice,

720
00:55:32.519 --> 00:55:36.079
nice living room. They had a TV that had Sky

721
00:55:36.639 --> 00:55:42.840
it's a sky you know, satellite stuff, and me and Andre

722
00:55:42.360 --> 00:55:49.000
would sit and watch Simpsons, would also watch Star Trek

723
00:55:49.760 --> 00:55:53.280
the Next Generation, and at some points should also watch

724
00:55:54.559 --> 00:55:59.360
Wonder Woman with the volume down, but you know, we

725
00:55:59.400 --> 00:56:06.480
would watch it. And I remember when I when I

726
00:56:06.519 --> 00:56:11.880
first got there, and I think Andre, I think she

727
00:56:12.360 --> 00:56:15.599
his mum, said something like, what do you what do

728
00:56:15.679 --> 00:56:19.519
you like to do? And and said he likes to read.

729
00:56:19.840 --> 00:56:21.400
And she said you're one of him readers?

730
00:56:21.440 --> 00:56:21.760
Are you.

731
00:56:23.679 --> 00:56:27.719
The one of them readers? And I said, yeah, yeah,

732
00:56:27.920 --> 00:56:30.239
I do. I do, you know. I mean at that

733
00:56:30.360 --> 00:56:35.639
point I had no books anymore, but previously that I'd

734
00:56:35.679 --> 00:56:38.599
had a large book collection. I've had lots of large

735
00:56:38.639 --> 00:56:42.000
book collections over the years. If I had all my

736
00:56:42.039 --> 00:56:45.559
books now right from a kid right till now that

737
00:56:45.599 --> 00:56:52.920
I've ever bought, I probably have about five thousand books.

738
00:56:52.920 --> 00:56:58.920
I'd say probably maybe not that many, but a good

739
00:56:58.960 --> 00:57:04.760
few thousands. It would fill this room and the room

740
00:57:04.800 --> 00:57:07.679
next to me, and the hallway, but fill the entire

741
00:57:07.719 --> 00:57:08.639
flat with books.

742
00:57:09.400 --> 00:57:10.360
There's a lot of books.

743
00:57:12.519 --> 00:57:17.960
He's moved then, he's moved over in front of me,

744
00:57:18.000 --> 00:57:24.199
to the left, so I can see him. Seems to

745
00:57:24.199 --> 00:57:26.400
be high me before, but now I can see him,

746
00:57:27.039 --> 00:57:31.599
and he's listening. He's got his eyes open and he's

747
00:57:31.639 --> 00:57:36.480
listening to me. Aren't you you're listening to me? I

748
00:57:36.480 --> 00:57:43.840
think you're listening. He's even moving his head like pretending

749
00:57:43.960 --> 00:57:47.039
not to listen, pretending to be asleep. But I can

750
00:57:47.079 --> 00:57:53.079
see he's got his eyes open. I know what he wants.

751
00:57:54.039 --> 00:57:59.119
But I'll get something thro him when I finish this. Yes,

752
00:57:59.360 --> 00:58:03.079
I lived there for Oh yes. His mum said, oh

753
00:58:03.159 --> 00:58:04.440
you like you like books?

754
00:58:04.480 --> 00:58:05.159
And do yeah?

755
00:58:05.519 --> 00:58:10.400
I said, you're one of them there, book readers. I said, okay, yeah.

756
00:58:10.480 --> 00:58:12.760
I said, well I've got I've got books if you

757
00:58:12.800 --> 00:58:15.639
want to read anything. And they had a bookcase full

758
00:58:15.679 --> 00:58:18.599
of books. I said, it's not really how it works.

759
00:58:19.360 --> 00:58:20.039
She said, what do you mean?

760
00:58:20.119 --> 00:58:23.079
I said, well, I don't just read anything, and I

761
00:58:23.199 --> 00:58:26.239
read books. I'm interested in I just read anything for the.

762
00:58:26.199 --> 00:58:26.719
Sake of it.

763
00:58:29.159 --> 00:58:32.360
The thing is, they had a really good book collection,

764
00:58:32.519 --> 00:58:38.079
and it's full of stories and really good stories like

765
00:58:38.280 --> 00:58:40.840
showlock homes and stuff like and just like.

766
00:58:42.400 --> 00:58:42.960
Really good.

767
00:58:43.679 --> 00:58:46.639
It's like these were good books. So I felt a

768
00:58:46.639 --> 00:58:49.079
bit of a bit of a nob Having said that,

769
00:58:49.159 --> 00:58:56.280
but we started looking for me and Andre started looking

770
00:58:56.320 --> 00:59:03.880
for somewhere to live, and a couple of things happened.

771
00:59:05.400 --> 00:59:08.880
I a couple of things that kind of put me

772
00:59:08.920 --> 00:59:16.440
off being there, to be honest. One thing was, whenever

773
00:59:16.480 --> 00:59:20.639
I went out, I seemed to get blokes try and

774
00:59:20.719 --> 00:59:23.280
kind of start trouble with me because I was from England.

775
00:59:24.719 --> 00:59:24.920
You know.

776
00:59:24.960 --> 00:59:26.920
I remember I was at the qubicle and there's two

777
00:59:27.000 --> 00:59:29.920
lads either side of me saying, oh, here are You're

778
00:59:29.920 --> 00:59:32.559
from England? But first of all, how do you know?

779
00:59:34.000 --> 00:59:37.920
And I said, yeah, Oh, England's crap. I said, yeah,

780
00:59:37.920 --> 00:59:39.320
I know. That's why I moved out of there. That's

781
00:59:39.320 --> 00:59:41.679
why I moved away. They didn't know what to say

782
00:59:41.719 --> 00:59:45.719
because I agreed with them, but I just, I don't know,

783
00:59:45.960 --> 00:59:50.800
didn't really sit very well with me. And there was

784
00:59:50.840 --> 00:59:51.920
one time when.

785
00:59:52.039 --> 00:59:52.559
There was.

786
00:59:54.840 --> 01:00:01.840
There was literally a street fight with everybody fighting over nothing,

787
01:00:03.760 --> 01:00:06.440
and I'm just standing there looking and no one's touching me,

788
01:00:06.480 --> 01:00:10.000
no one's coming near me. They're just it's so weird.

789
01:00:10.920 --> 01:00:15.360
Everyone's so nice during the day in that town, Soul

790
01:00:15.719 --> 01:00:19.719
soul like so what so like that's just our way

791
01:00:19.800 --> 01:00:26.119
saying hello, okay, okay, so so everyone nice and then

792
01:00:26.159 --> 01:00:28.920
it go this this is what it was. It seemed

793
01:00:28.960 --> 01:00:31.519
like at the time. I'm not it's not everywhere it's

794
01:00:31.559 --> 01:00:34.599
the same, and it's maybe not the same now. But

795
01:00:34.639 --> 01:00:38.320
then they go out on a Saturday night and kind

796
01:00:38.320 --> 01:00:41.519
of eir their grievances kind of you know, sought it out.

797
01:00:42.559 --> 01:00:44.719
It seemed to be that's what happened, and it's it's

798
01:00:44.920 --> 01:00:47.719
seemed to be quite a regular thing in that place

799
01:00:47.880 --> 01:00:52.679
at that time. And then the next day everyone was

800
01:00:52.719 --> 01:00:56.920
fine again, soul sort of a few of them with

801
01:00:57.000 --> 01:00:59.400
the black eyes and stuff saying so to each other.

802
01:01:00.559 --> 01:01:02.559
So I don't know, it was. I found that a

803
01:01:02.639 --> 01:01:07.119
bit strange. It's not what I was used to, not

804
01:01:07.159 --> 01:01:10.960
what i'd sort of really idis. I'd not experienced that before.

805
01:01:12.920 --> 01:01:18.239
And another thing is I kind of fell for Andre's cousin,

806
01:01:19.840 --> 01:01:29.280
not Jason, but Michelle. Was it Michelle, Oh my goodness, blimey.

807
01:01:29.519 --> 01:01:32.320
I don't know. I know he had a cousin called Jason,

808
01:01:32.719 --> 01:01:36.280
because he was the size of a house. He was

809
01:01:36.280 --> 01:01:39.519
only young. I think he was like nineteen, and well

810
01:01:39.639 --> 01:01:43.480
I was young as well when I and he maybe

811
01:01:43.559 --> 01:01:47.559
was seventeen eighteen. So I'm in his coffee shop in town,

812
01:01:48.599 --> 01:01:53.280
and I mean literally the sun went out. The sun

813
01:01:53.400 --> 01:01:55.880
wasn't because the sun was shining in through the doorway,

814
01:01:56.519 --> 01:01:58.280
and I looked back and he was there, and he

815
01:01:58.320 --> 01:02:02.440
took up the entire doorway. He was that big, and

816
01:02:02.519 --> 01:02:05.480
he was tall, and I mean he was just huge man.

817
01:02:07.039 --> 01:02:09.599
Slim as well, but just big.

818
01:02:09.440 --> 01:02:09.679
You know.

819
01:02:10.800 --> 01:02:16.719
And his sister kind of got to know because we

820
01:02:16.800 --> 01:02:18.679
hung around with him a little bit, and he had

821
01:02:18.679 --> 01:02:20.840
a couple of other cousins as well that we would

822
01:02:20.840 --> 01:02:26.840
hang around with, and because he grew up with them

823
01:02:26.840 --> 01:02:29.440
all and then he went to England and didn't see

824
01:02:29.519 --> 01:02:36.719
them for a while. I liked his sister, his cousin,

825
01:02:36.840 --> 01:02:40.880
my friend's cousin. I liked his cousin, and we kind

826
01:02:40.920 --> 01:02:43.360
of used to spend some time together when we were

827
01:02:43.400 --> 01:02:46.000
out drinking it. She'd be talking to me, sitting next

828
01:02:46.079 --> 01:02:48.639
to me and stuff. But I never had the courage

829
01:02:48.679 --> 01:02:51.760
to kind of ask her out. I didn't know if

830
01:02:51.800 --> 01:02:58.039
she would or not, and I don't know anyway that

831
01:02:58.199 --> 01:03:01.039
I think that same night as the big thing that happened,

832
01:03:01.199 --> 01:03:04.800
the big punch up whatever, I saw her in the

833
01:03:04.880 --> 01:03:09.159
street kissing some bloke and that was kind of my

834
01:03:10.239 --> 01:03:12.159
That was it, I thought, Now I'm getting out of here,

835
01:03:14.079 --> 01:03:16.760
just just yeah. I don't know, it was my. It

836
01:03:16.800 --> 01:03:19.960
was my tipping point for leaving. A couple of things

837
01:03:19.960 --> 01:03:22.639
happened previous to that. I was looking for a job.

838
01:03:23.199 --> 01:03:26.960
First of all, I heard I overheard his mum talking

839
01:03:27.000 --> 01:03:30.400
on the phone to his sister, the one in England.

840
01:03:32.039 --> 01:03:34.360
This is this is pretty much what I heard her say.

841
01:03:35.000 --> 01:03:38.719
He seems to think he can live here forever. In

842
01:03:38.800 --> 01:03:42.360
a different accent. He seems to think he can live

843
01:03:42.400 --> 01:03:44.920
here forever. Now I know he wasn't talking about it.

844
01:03:44.960 --> 01:03:47.320
She wasn't talking about Andre, because she'd have had Andre

845
01:03:47.519 --> 01:03:50.760
living there forever. She definitely would learn a little boy.

846
01:03:50.880 --> 01:03:56.079
So she wasn't talking about her husband either, And it

847
01:03:56.079 --> 01:03:58.199
wasn't about any of the Greyhounds. So I'm pretty sure

848
01:03:58.239 --> 01:04:01.079
it was me. Could have been about the gee, the chance,

849
01:04:01.320 --> 01:04:08.079
but probably about me. And there's an old sayanism don't

850
01:04:08.199 --> 01:04:11.440
don't ever eavesdrop because you never hear anything nice about yourself.

851
01:04:12.280 --> 01:04:15.239
So yeah, maybe that was some truth in that one

852
01:04:15.400 --> 01:04:21.360
on that occasion. So that happened as well, just prior

853
01:04:21.400 --> 01:04:25.880
to me, you know, seeing my friend's cousin kissing, and

854
01:04:25.920 --> 01:04:28.880
I think a couple of days before that, i'd gone

855
01:04:28.920 --> 01:04:31.719
to look to get a job, and because i'd worked

856
01:04:31.800 --> 01:04:37.400
in a meat storage place, his mum said, oh, try

857
01:04:37.440 --> 01:04:40.440
this place, so I went along, got an interview. It

858
01:04:40.559 --> 01:04:49.199
was an abatoir. I'm that that's not a suitable job

859
01:04:49.280 --> 01:04:57.719
for me. Just no, and you know, it took me

860
01:04:57.800 --> 01:05:00.800
around and what I need to do and I don't know.

861
01:05:01.880 --> 01:05:05.519
I said, I was putting labels on boxes. That's what

862
01:05:05.599 --> 01:05:08.679
I did, boxes of frozen meat. I wasn't. I just

863
01:05:09.840 --> 01:05:18.280
I couldn't. That wasn't you know. I know people do it,

864
01:05:18.320 --> 01:05:22.639
and it just I just wasn't. No, it was not

865
01:05:23.039 --> 01:05:30.000
my thing. So it's getting a little bit harder, Like what,

866
01:05:30.199 --> 01:05:33.119
it's not a lot of opportunities. The other place was

867
01:05:33.960 --> 01:05:40.760
dry cleaners, big dry cleaners, and that didn't seem I

868
01:05:40.840 --> 01:05:44.559
just saw this bird like it looks like a peregrine

869
01:05:44.599 --> 01:05:48.719
falcon or something and to this dry cleaners was not

870
01:05:49.280 --> 01:05:52.400
ideal either. It didn't seem to be anything that was

871
01:05:52.440 --> 01:05:59.840
really suitable for me at the time. And then I

872
01:06:04.320 --> 01:06:05.800
went and had a look at a place that I

873
01:06:05.840 --> 01:06:09.800
was going to move into with Andre, because we were looking,

874
01:06:11.920 --> 01:06:15.519
not actively looking around. But that was before I heard him.

875
01:06:15.679 --> 01:06:18.920
I didn't realize his mum wanted me out of there.

876
01:06:20.480 --> 01:06:23.159
And that's when I thought, Okay, you want me out,

877
01:06:23.199 --> 01:06:29.079
I'll get out. And I left that day. I phoned up,

878
01:06:29.440 --> 01:06:34.960
got a ferry booked, and I said, right, I'm going

879
01:06:34.960 --> 01:06:38.880
and see her. Andre was very upset. Everyone else was cheering.

880
01:06:38.920 --> 01:06:41.880
I think the whole town was like celebrating, but Andre

881
01:06:42.039 --> 01:06:45.719
was upset and he didn't really forgive me for leaving,

882
01:06:45.760 --> 01:06:50.840
to be honest. So I came back. I also got

883
01:06:50.840 --> 01:06:55.519
food poisoning. I got, I had a bad beer and

884
01:06:55.559 --> 01:06:58.840
I was ill and yeah, whatever it was, or was

885
01:06:58.880 --> 01:07:03.239
ill for quite a while and the I came back,

886
01:07:05.960 --> 01:07:10.559
I regretted. I regretted it, regretted sort of leaving not giving.

887
01:07:10.280 --> 01:07:11.239
It more of a go.

888
01:07:14.880 --> 01:07:18.800
And then I went and visited again, probably about March time,

889
01:07:19.639 --> 01:07:24.960
maybe April the next year, maybe May April. It was

890
01:07:25.320 --> 01:07:29.840
just before the Eurovision Song contest, and that was recently,

891
01:07:30.079 --> 01:07:32.840
so it's now the end of May, so maybe it

892
01:07:32.880 --> 01:07:39.679
was in May when when and visited. Stayed with At

893
01:07:39.679 --> 01:07:46.280
this point my other friend was living there, so I

894
01:07:46.440 --> 01:07:51.320
stayed with him and Andrea. They were all living together,

895
01:07:52.039 --> 01:07:55.440
so I stayed with him, so Andrea's sister and my

896
01:07:55.480 --> 01:08:06.159
other friend. At this point, Andre was just if he

897
01:08:06.280 --> 01:08:07.960
was off the rolls when he was in London. This

898
01:08:08.039 --> 01:08:11.559
is nothing compared to by the time I'd left. He

899
01:08:12.639 --> 01:08:17.840
he was just drinking a lot. But at one point

900
01:08:17.880 --> 01:08:21.880
it's quite weird because we were all out, he got

901
01:08:21.920 --> 01:08:25.159
a little bit handsy with me and he pushed me

902
01:08:25.199 --> 01:08:28.159
against the wall. It's sort of sad. You were my

903
01:08:28.239 --> 01:08:33.880
best friend, all right, and appeople trying to get intervene

904
01:08:34.319 --> 01:08:35.119
and I said, no.

905
01:08:34.960 --> 01:08:35.359
No, leave it.

906
01:08:35.439 --> 01:08:39.880
Then that's fine, And we just had a little chat.

907
01:08:42.479 --> 01:08:45.119
So he hadn't really forgiven me for leaving him. But

908
01:08:47.399 --> 01:08:51.119
it wasn't you know, it didn't didn't turn nasty or anything,

909
01:08:51.159 --> 01:08:53.640
and he still said goodbye to me when I left

910
01:08:53.720 --> 01:09:00.640
and hugged me in that But yeah, it was Yeah,

911
01:09:00.920 --> 01:09:04.920
I don't know, so I don't know would it have

912
01:09:05.039 --> 01:09:12.279
been right to stay there? Hard to tell. I mean,

913
01:09:12.319 --> 01:09:17.760
it's a beautiful country. It's just I don't know just

914
01:09:17.880 --> 01:09:21.920
at the time I would have been if I'd had

915
01:09:21.920 --> 01:09:24.880
a bit of money, had my own place, had a

916
01:09:24.880 --> 01:09:29.680
bit of space, bit of time to figure out what

917
01:09:29.800 --> 01:09:34.079
I was going to be able to do, it might

918
01:09:34.079 --> 01:09:36.319
have been, you know, I mean, I possibly would have

919
01:09:36.399 --> 01:09:40.720
ended up getting married, having kids, have like a normal life,

920
01:09:41.520 --> 01:09:45.479
much more normal than I've had. Maybe, or I might

921
01:09:45.479 --> 01:09:52.439
have gone down a different route, so you know, down

922
01:09:52.479 --> 01:09:55.760
the drinking route. And you know, I kind of did

923
01:09:55.800 --> 01:10:00.039
a bit anyway in my thirties, but that was that

924
01:10:00.199 --> 01:10:01.039
wasn't socially.

925
01:10:01.640 --> 01:10:04.159
I was in private private.

926
01:10:06.920 --> 01:10:12.159
So yeah, I think Ireland is a beautiful country and

927
01:10:13.760 --> 01:10:16.319
I'd like to go back back. I do have two

928
01:10:16.399 --> 01:10:27.119
friends that live in Ireland. I would like to visit. Yeah,

929
01:10:27.239 --> 01:10:34.199
I would, but we'll see one day, Kate asks me.

930
01:10:36.560 --> 01:10:42.800
So that was Karina Kate's do you anythingny ever visit Logi? No,

931
01:10:43.720 --> 01:10:49.279
I haven't seen Logi since he left. It's like a

932
01:10:49.319 --> 01:10:54.560
buzzard or something right above the tree keeps coming into

933
01:10:54.600 --> 01:10:58.840
the little area of sky that I could see. But

934
01:10:58.880 --> 01:11:04.039
I think it's it's a buzzard or it's a pedigree

935
01:11:04.239 --> 01:11:08.960
falcon or it's not a golden eagle, but it's something

936
01:11:09.319 --> 01:11:15.399
right up there, and it's kind of this hovering, very beautiful. No,

937
01:11:15.640 --> 01:11:17.039
I don't see Logi.

938
01:11:17.439 --> 01:11:18.039
Then he hasn't.

939
01:11:18.359 --> 01:11:24.640
Neither of us have seen Logi since he left. But

940
01:11:24.720 --> 01:11:28.239
he's doing well. I've heard heard things and it seems

941
01:11:28.239 --> 01:11:30.960
to be fine. He's living in a family. He escaped

942
01:11:30.960 --> 01:11:34.119
from where I was living. He was an escape artist

943
01:11:34.960 --> 01:11:38.000
and he ended up back in the hostel. But he's

944
01:11:38.119 --> 01:11:45.880
managed to got some new a new family, and they, Yeah,

945
01:11:46.000 --> 01:11:49.159
he's I'm sure he's very happy. He loves being around

946
01:11:49.239 --> 01:11:54.880
people and yeah, so it's all kind of ended up.

947
01:11:57.600 --> 01:11:59.960
He just wanted to I think he wanted a peaceful life.

948
01:12:00.439 --> 01:12:04.359
He loves a cuddle, loves being around people. He just

949
01:12:04.399 --> 01:12:07.800
wants peaceful life. That's you know, go for a walk,

950
01:12:08.079 --> 01:12:12.359
one walk a day, just to get out, you know,

951
01:12:12.600 --> 01:12:17.720
have have food, have water, just chill out. That that

952
01:12:17.760 --> 01:12:26.279
was LOGI. Jonathan asks, how tall are you? Six foot four?

953
01:12:28.039 --> 01:12:31.359
I know it might not look like that, but what

954
01:12:31.439 --> 01:12:33.880
that means is that everyone else around me is much

955
01:12:33.920 --> 01:12:38.560
taller than they realize. They're taller than they think. In fact,

956
01:12:38.600 --> 01:12:43.600
some of them are like seven foot three. I don't know,

957
01:12:43.720 --> 01:12:50.439
I'm kind of my whole life well, since the age

958
01:12:50.479 --> 01:12:56.439
of sixteen, I suppose I've been five for eight. And

959
01:12:56.520 --> 01:13:01.640
then I got measure a year or so ago and

960
01:13:01.680 --> 01:13:02.840
they said five to nine.

961
01:13:03.520 --> 01:13:03.960
You got you.

962
01:13:04.119 --> 01:13:07.319
They said, you've got five nine on your thing. I said,

963
01:13:07.760 --> 01:13:10.800
but I thought it was five eight, and she said

964
01:13:10.840 --> 01:13:13.399
we can missure again. I said, no, that's fine, I'll

965
01:13:13.439 --> 01:13:20.800
take five nine. So according to my official documents, my

966
01:13:20.880 --> 01:13:25.159
medical record, i'm five nine. But if they went back,

967
01:13:25.199 --> 01:13:27.760
they'd see that I was five eight every other time,

968
01:13:28.079 --> 01:13:29.000
So I don't know.

969
01:13:31.720 --> 01:13:35.720
It's a bit weird.

970
01:13:37.119 --> 01:13:39.479
I thought he's supposed to shrink with age, not get taller.

971
01:13:42.720 --> 01:13:50.319
And what else? Ali asks me, do you have any

972
01:13:50.359 --> 01:13:56.439
recommendations or advice as someone who's wanting to start their

973
01:13:56.479 --> 01:13:59.279
own podcast? Don't do it?

974
01:13:59.800 --> 01:14:00.000
No?

975
01:14:00.039 --> 01:14:06.479
Oh, Also, I see you have a lot of questions already,

976
01:14:07.039 --> 01:14:10.760
totally don't mind you skipping this one. Oh no, it's fine,

977
01:14:10.920 --> 01:14:18.720
I'll answer this one, Elie. I've got practical, practical recommendations

978
01:14:18.840 --> 01:14:28.159
or whatever I mean you have, I guess you. I

979
01:14:28.199 --> 01:14:40.640
would say, sign up with a podcast host and you

980
01:14:40.720 --> 01:14:45.079
can use free stuff, but it's worth paying, even like

981
01:14:45.159 --> 01:14:49.800
a like a ten pound a month podcast fee to

982
01:14:49.920 --> 01:14:52.800
have one, and there's a few that you can use.

983
01:14:54.279 --> 01:14:56.960
It depends how many podcasts you're going to be doing

984
01:14:58.199 --> 01:15:01.079
a week or a month, or you know, if you're

985
01:15:01.119 --> 01:15:05.640
going to be doing a lot of podcasts, then there's

986
01:15:05.680 --> 01:15:09.479
some podcast posts that aren't going to be suitable because

987
01:15:09.479 --> 01:15:13.399
they're limited. They might be limited to how many podcasts

988
01:15:13.399 --> 01:15:15.960
you can upload, they might be limited to how many

989
01:15:15.960 --> 01:15:16.840
people can listen.

990
01:15:17.479 --> 01:15:17.720
You know.

991
01:15:18.880 --> 01:15:23.079
Spreaker's got no limitations, although they do increase. The prices

992
01:15:23.119 --> 01:15:28.159
depend on how many podcasts you've got. And SoundCloud is

993
01:15:29.600 --> 01:15:31.840
I mean they've got a free account on SoundCloud. I

994
01:15:31.880 --> 01:15:35.399
think they've got free one on Spreaker, but you'll get

995
01:15:36.159 --> 01:15:43.680
a very minimum amount of space. Spreaker is quite good

996
01:15:43.720 --> 01:15:55.399
to share, especially with Spotify and stuff like that. Have

997
01:15:55.520 --> 01:16:01.079
a subject, have something you're interested in. Do in something

998
01:16:01.119 --> 01:16:03.279
that you're not going to get bored of, which is

999
01:16:03.319 --> 01:16:09.640
weird considering I'm my podcasts are boring, but I don't

1000
01:16:09.640 --> 01:16:12.560
get bored of being boring because to me, I'm not boring.

1001
01:16:14.399 --> 01:16:24.159
There's a poem there somewhere, isn't there. Do Do something

1002
01:16:24.199 --> 01:16:26.159
that you want to that you're going to be doing

1003
01:16:26.199 --> 01:16:31.680
for fun in the sense of so you'll enjoy it,

1004
01:16:32.960 --> 01:16:35.760
you know, I mean I do. I like doing the

1005
01:16:36.119 --> 01:16:39.680
let me bow your pain away now. Chronic pain, some

1006
01:16:39.800 --> 01:16:44.319
would say is not a fun topic. But it's something

1007
01:16:44.359 --> 01:16:48.119
that I'm interested in and so I have fun making them.

1008
01:16:48.319 --> 01:16:50.159
So I haven't made one for a couple of weeks.

1009
01:16:50.199 --> 01:16:53.399
I don't think I have to be in a proper mood,

1010
01:16:53.479 --> 01:16:58.600
you know, So do something that you're going to enjoy.

1011
01:16:59.000 --> 01:17:00.680
That would be my my advice.

1012
01:17:01.159 --> 01:17:01.560
I don't know.

1013
01:17:01.560 --> 01:17:09.720
If you're looking for practical suggestions, find a decent podcast host.

1014
01:17:13.159 --> 01:17:16.720
You can. There's lots of ways of making images as well.

1015
01:17:23.560 --> 01:17:24.119
Just do it.

1016
01:17:24.319 --> 01:17:28.039
I mean, if you want for equipment, there's a lot

1017
01:17:28.039 --> 01:17:30.880
of equipment out there now which you can use, which

1018
01:17:30.920 --> 01:17:36.920
is quite easy. You can have stuff connected to your phone.

1019
01:17:37.520 --> 01:17:40.960
You can have or you can get like a It's

1020
01:17:41.000 --> 01:17:45.479
lots of different ways to you know, to do the

1021
01:17:45.600 --> 01:17:47.239
audio and to make If you want to make a

1022
01:17:47.319 --> 01:17:51.640
video as well, I'd say just go for it and

1023
01:17:51.760 --> 01:17:58.079
see see if you like it. It might it might

1024
01:17:58.159 --> 01:18:03.199
change your life, you know, it might be something that

1025
01:18:03.319 --> 01:18:09.600
you really loved doing. It might help you in some ways,

1026
01:18:09.840 --> 01:18:17.960
you know, emotionally. It depends what you're doing. Yeah, I

1027
01:18:17.960 --> 01:18:25.800
don't know, just thinking advice if someone wanted to start

1028
01:18:25.800 --> 01:18:31.119
their own podcast, it's weird. I can't remember what it

1029
01:18:31.159 --> 01:18:34.359
was like because for me, I didn't start a podcast

1030
01:18:35.880 --> 01:18:40.159
because podcasting wasn't really a thing when I started. It

1031
01:18:40.239 --> 01:18:47.319
was for me because I was uploading audio recordings and

1032
01:18:47.439 --> 01:18:56.039
videos onto MySpace, so I wasn't doing podcasting. YouTube wasn't

1033
01:18:56.039 --> 01:19:02.760
a thing at that time. Facebook book wasn't a thing,

1034
01:19:02.880 --> 01:19:05.800
well at least it wasn't popular at that time because

1035
01:19:05.800 --> 01:19:10.039
Facebook basically closed my Space down really, but I was

1036
01:19:10.079 --> 01:19:13.840
with my Space, so I was uploading audios, hypnosis audios

1037
01:19:13.920 --> 01:19:20.560
and hypnosis videos. And then YouTube came along and I

1038
01:19:20.600 --> 01:19:23.359
started putting my videos on YouTube as well as my

1039
01:19:23.479 --> 01:19:27.800
Space because with my Space, with you know, you could

1040
01:19:27.880 --> 01:19:35.039
upload the stuff, so they stored it. And then I

1041
01:19:35.119 --> 01:19:40.680
started using a free podcast host or whatever. I think

1042
01:19:40.720 --> 01:19:49.039
it was called free podcast host in probably two thousand

1043
01:19:49.199 --> 01:19:56.520
and seven, maybe maybe two thousand and six, maybe it was.

1044
01:19:56.640 --> 01:19:59.680
But so I started using a podcasts and I started

1045
01:19:59.760 --> 01:20:02.000
using lots of different podcasts, but that was the main

1046
01:20:02.039 --> 01:20:08.720
one I used, And so I guess I didn't start

1047
01:20:08.760 --> 01:20:12.800
out as a podcast. All I did is just podcasts

1048
01:20:12.840 --> 01:20:16.680
were just another way for me to present the audio.

1049
01:20:19.800 --> 01:20:23.119
If that makes sense. It's kind of I wasn't. I

1050
01:20:23.239 --> 01:20:26.079
used it as a like. I was already making videos

1051
01:20:26.079 --> 01:20:29.760
before YouTube came out, before YouTube was a thing. I

1052
01:20:29.840 --> 01:20:34.760
was making videos already, so I was already making It's

1053
01:20:34.800 --> 01:20:38.279
weird because when I uploaded my videos to YouTube, I

1054
01:20:38.319 --> 01:20:41.439
didn't know that anybody else made videos on YouTube. But

1055
01:20:41.479 --> 01:20:44.199
there were other people. I wasn't the only one. So

1056
01:20:44.279 --> 01:20:48.600
I started YouTube two thousand and seven, and there was

1057
01:20:48.720 --> 01:20:51.640
other people doing it. So it's weird that, like people

1058
01:20:51.680 --> 01:20:53.760
had the same kind of idea at the same time,

1059
01:20:54.560 --> 01:20:56.880
but there's only a handful of us.

1060
01:20:57.319 --> 01:20:57.960
Really, it was.

1061
01:20:57.880 --> 01:21:02.439
Only a real, real small amount. And anyone listening or

1062
01:21:02.439 --> 01:21:07.640
watching this from that time who used to follow my videos,

1063
01:21:09.199 --> 01:21:13.159
you'll know what I'm saying is true. You'll know. You

1064
01:21:13.279 --> 01:21:17.359
will know. I don't know why I'm doing that for

1065
01:21:18.399 --> 01:21:23.399
so just go through it and have fun, That's what

1066
01:21:23.520 --> 01:21:34.880
I would say. Hope asks what got you interested in hypnosis?

1067
01:21:37.319 --> 01:21:38.359
It was there was.

1068
01:21:38.359 --> 01:21:46.640
A couple of things to start with. I don't know why,

1069
01:21:46.680 --> 01:21:49.159
but I was going through this little period at the

1070
01:21:49.239 --> 01:21:51.680
end of two thousand and at the end of nineteen

1071
01:21:52.920 --> 01:21:58.640
ninety seven, and just had a bit of a very

1072
01:21:58.760 --> 01:22:09.520
very problematic period in my life. You know, lost my job,

1073
01:22:09.600 --> 01:22:14.680
lost my girlfriend, pretty much had to move, had no

1074
01:22:15.520 --> 01:22:17.399
you know, everything kind of went. And then there was

1075
01:22:17.439 --> 01:22:25.720
a family thing, really big family thing happened, and I

1076
01:22:25.720 --> 01:22:33.880
I was lost, so lost at that time, and the

1077
01:22:33.920 --> 01:22:36.960
only thing I had I was writing. So I was

1078
01:22:37.439 --> 01:22:41.079
writing down how I felt and stuff, so that kind

1079
01:22:41.119 --> 01:22:46.439
of helped. And then I started listening to audio books,

1080
01:22:46.520 --> 01:22:51.960
self help audio books, reading reading self help books to

1081
01:22:51.960 --> 01:22:56.319
try and help me get through that period. So when

1082
01:22:56.319 --> 01:22:59.600
I was going and buying these audio books and looking

1083
01:22:59.600 --> 01:23:04.359
at these off help books, I started noticing hypnosis books,

1084
01:23:05.279 --> 01:23:10.560
and for me, it was kind of like very spelly,

1085
01:23:11.479 --> 01:23:15.319
very kind of magic y, you know, like a script

1086
01:23:15.479 --> 01:23:18.920
almost seemed a little bit like a magic spell. And

1087
01:23:19.520 --> 01:23:22.680
so I was looking at these books thinking, hmm, I

1088
01:23:22.680 --> 01:23:25.640
didn't know you could learn this. I don't know how

1089
01:23:25.680 --> 01:23:32.720
I thought hypnotists became hypnotists if they didn't learn. But

1090
01:23:32.800 --> 01:23:38.199
I just afore, oh, I just grabbed my slight interest.

1091
01:23:38.520 --> 01:23:42.079
And I'd never ever had an interest before outside of

1092
01:23:42.159 --> 01:23:49.079
just watching on TV. In the early nineties, I thought,

1093
01:23:51.199 --> 01:23:54.960
I don't know why, And there was these two particular books,

1094
01:23:55.000 --> 01:23:57.640
and I used to look at them. One was an

1095
01:23:57.680 --> 01:24:04.359
introduction to hypnosis. Another one was Hypnosis for Beginnings or something,

1096
01:24:04.399 --> 01:24:08.000
so it's too one was green, one was I think

1097
01:24:08.000 --> 01:24:11.960
it was orange. I kept putting them back in the

1098
01:24:11.960 --> 01:24:14.520
same bookshop, and I'd go to it every week, and

1099
01:24:14.560 --> 01:24:17.720
I kept putting them back. I'd read a little bit more,

1100
01:24:17.720 --> 01:24:20.960
and I kept putting them back, and this went on

1101
01:24:21.079 --> 01:24:23.880
for months, and I'd go and buy other stuff.

1102
01:24:23.920 --> 01:24:25.439
And you know, as I was.

1103
01:24:25.359 --> 01:24:27.880
Really into the audio books because I could I could

1104
01:24:27.880 --> 01:24:29.920
listen to her while I walked around and stuff, so

1105
01:24:29.960 --> 01:24:33.119
that kind of suited me. And you know, Field with

1106
01:24:33.199 --> 01:24:38.199
Fear and Do It Anyway and Anthony Robbins and all

1107
01:24:38.239 --> 01:24:41.680
that stuff. Zig Ziggler.

1108
01:24:45.199 --> 01:24:45.880
And then.

1109
01:24:47.279 --> 01:24:52.399
Then I just barked. Then and then after months of

1110
01:24:52.560 --> 01:25:05.880
just thinking about these books, calm down, Vin, I just thought, so,

1111
01:25:06.000 --> 01:25:12.800
it's January nineteen ninety eight. I bought them. I'm now

1112
01:25:12.880 --> 01:25:15.880
worn out by the time I must have read them,

1113
01:25:15.920 --> 01:25:20.560
probably by the time I brought them. But I thought, okay,

1114
01:25:21.079 --> 01:25:23.279
because I had these like fantasies of buying them, and

1115
01:25:23.319 --> 01:25:25.640
I was like, why don't want to buy these two books?

1116
01:25:26.640 --> 01:25:31.000
I'm not interested in hypnosis. I don't know anything about hypnosis. Vinnie,

1117
01:25:31.399 --> 01:25:34.680
don't bark, please please, he's like that on his back.

1118
01:25:35.199 --> 01:25:41.359
I'm sorry, I'm sorry anyone think that. It's like, don't

1119
01:25:41.359 --> 01:25:43.159
want to do anything, am I. I'm just asking you

1120
01:25:43.279 --> 01:25:51.760
to be quiet. BlimE, me said it. Blame me and I.

1121
01:25:51.760 --> 01:25:53.880
I don't know why. I just felt I needed to

1122
01:25:53.880 --> 01:25:58.319
buy these books, bought them, read them, didn't read them

1123
01:25:58.479 --> 01:26:03.399
straight away. I can't really express how much I love books.

1124
01:26:03.760 --> 01:26:07.800
I still love books. I mean similar I've got I've

1125
01:26:07.800 --> 01:26:10.520
only got a small book collection now, but most of

1126
01:26:10.560 --> 01:26:14.800
those books are hypnosis books. I love books. I don't

1127
01:26:14.840 --> 01:26:16.760
know what it is. I don't know why.

1128
01:26:18.760 --> 01:26:21.159
I love them.

1129
01:26:21.359 --> 01:26:27.720
I think my favor, my probably ideal job would have

1130
01:26:27.760 --> 01:26:30.880
been working in a bookshop. That's probably what I should

1131
01:26:30.920 --> 01:26:36.600
have done as a younger man. That that probably I

1132
01:26:36.600 --> 01:26:41.680
should you know, I should have would have ideally, And

1133
01:26:41.720 --> 01:26:43.399
I don't know why I didn't even think about it,

1134
01:26:44.159 --> 01:26:46.800
bearing in mind how much I've always loved books since

1135
01:26:46.960 --> 01:26:50.000
being a small child, since I kind of taught myself

1136
01:26:50.000 --> 01:26:56.840
to read, well, I mean I taught myself, I kind of.

1137
01:26:57.680 --> 01:27:01.239
I did also go to school by but I had

1138
01:27:01.239 --> 01:27:04.119
this one book I still can't find. It's on there somewhere.

1139
01:27:04.560 --> 01:27:08.800
It's a Jack and Ry book, and I read it

1140
01:27:08.880 --> 01:27:11.000
over and over and over and over and over again,

1141
01:27:11.319 --> 01:27:15.119
and it's the only thing that was ever. I'm not

1142
01:27:15.159 --> 01:27:19.800
saying any good but competent act that I could do,

1143
01:27:20.159 --> 01:27:23.960
that I could actually say, Yeah, I can read. I

1144
01:27:24.000 --> 01:27:26.279
don't understand all the words I read. I still don't

1145
01:27:26.359 --> 01:27:29.560
understand all the words I read, but I do check

1146
01:27:29.600 --> 01:27:32.119
what they are. And you can tell from the meaning,

1147
01:27:32.359 --> 01:27:36.399
from the structure of the sentence or the paragraph, what

1148
01:27:36.479 --> 01:27:41.119
the word means. Providing the person that's writing that paragraph

1149
01:27:41.239 --> 01:27:44.279
knows what the word means, you know, they might put

1150
01:27:44.279 --> 01:27:50.159
a wrong word in. But yeah, So I've got these

1151
01:27:50.199 --> 01:27:58.000
books home. I didn't touch them to start with. I

1152
01:27:58.119 --> 01:28:00.399
just like looked at them again. I don't know why

1153
01:28:00.439 --> 01:28:04.560
I had them. And then I started reading them and

1154
01:28:07.479 --> 01:28:17.199
something something happened to me. So I don't know what

1155
01:28:17.279 --> 01:28:17.760
it was.

1156
01:28:17.880 --> 01:28:18.039
Just.

1157
01:28:21.199 --> 01:28:25.479
Maybe it's I kind of felt, well, the way I

1158
01:28:25.640 --> 01:28:29.439
talk kind of matches.

1159
01:28:31.600 --> 01:28:32.560
What I would.

1160
01:28:39.640 --> 01:28:42.119
I don't know. I noticed sometimes people would kind of

1161
01:28:42.159 --> 01:28:49.479
glaze over when I talk to them, and I noticed this,

1162
01:28:49.800 --> 01:28:55.079
and I didn't realize that I was sort of putting

1163
01:28:55.159 --> 01:28:57.199
him into a chance. This is before I even read

1164
01:28:57.199 --> 01:29:00.640
a hypnosis book. Happened to a counselor. Counselor fell asleep

1165
01:29:00.680 --> 01:29:04.800
when I was talking. It's true. I'm not even like

1166
01:29:04.880 --> 01:29:08.760
it's a Saturday morning. I was having counseling, trauma counseling,

1167
01:29:08.840 --> 01:29:12.960
can you believe? And she was a student and she

1168
01:29:13.079 --> 01:29:18.119
fell asleep. Her eyes like started glazing, and her eyes,

1169
01:29:18.279 --> 01:29:22.319
I live closed. And this was before I even knew

1170
01:29:22.319 --> 01:29:24.840
what hypnosis was. I'd not even read a book. I

1171
01:29:24.920 --> 01:29:27.520
didn't know the first thing about it. This was like

1172
01:29:27.560 --> 01:29:34.039
the summer ninety seven, I think, or like late summer.

1173
01:29:36.760 --> 01:29:39.000
So yeah, that was weird.

1174
01:29:40.640 --> 01:29:46.039
Very strange. And I noticed that other people were having that,

1175
01:29:46.199 --> 01:29:50.479
and also noticed that sometimes I talked to someone and

1176
01:29:50.520 --> 01:29:56.359
I just keep talking and just keep talking, not fast,

1177
01:29:56.399 --> 01:30:00.680
but just keep talking and make the sentence keep lasting

1178
01:30:02.000 --> 01:30:06.560
in a way that kind of never ends. The sentence

1179
01:30:06.640 --> 01:30:13.880
never ends, and which means the person can't sort of

1180
01:30:13.920 --> 01:30:19.119
talk say something themselves. And it's I don't know, it's a.

1181
01:30:19.039 --> 01:30:20.720
Bit weird the reaction I was getting.

1182
01:30:20.720 --> 01:30:26.560
And I started playing with it, started to testing it

1183
01:30:26.640 --> 01:30:30.640
out with people. Then he please, why are you banging?

1184
01:30:30.960 --> 01:30:34.000
You see the camera's banging the cameras to at the stand.

1185
01:30:35.640 --> 01:30:37.880
He knows he's doing it. I'm pretty sure he's doing

1186
01:30:37.880 --> 01:30:41.600
it on purpose. He's purposely moved himself over there to

1187
01:30:41.720 --> 01:30:50.680
bang the camera so it wobbles. I'm pretty sure he is.

1188
01:30:50.720 --> 01:31:02.199
He's a very naughty boy. It's very cheeky. Is But yeah,

1189
01:31:02.199 --> 01:31:04.479
that's kind of how I got into it. Just I

1190
01:31:04.560 --> 01:31:07.600
found it interesting And the most thing that I found

1191
01:31:07.680 --> 01:31:12.840
most interesting of all was the pain relief out of anything,

1192
01:31:12.960 --> 01:31:17.640
that was the thing. Nothing else really grabbed me the

1193
01:31:17.640 --> 01:31:20.960
way that that did. The idea to be able to

1194
01:31:21.000 --> 01:31:29.920
take away someone's pain, I mean, wow, what could be

1195
01:31:29.920 --> 01:31:32.880
better than that? And finish just done the biggest part.

1196
01:31:39.279 --> 01:31:41.399
I think it's him, Did you do finish? Did you

1197
01:31:41.479 --> 01:31:45.279
just do the biggest fart? You always aims his bum

1198
01:31:45.479 --> 01:31:48.640
at me whenever he lays down, everyone's in the bed,

1199
01:31:49.119 --> 01:31:51.119
never had his face in him, he's always his bum

1200
01:31:51.279 --> 01:31:54.279
faced at me. Ready for so when he lets it off,

1201
01:31:54.560 --> 01:31:58.920
I get to smell it and he doesn't. He's got

1202
01:31:58.920 --> 01:32:08.800
his eyes why don't haven't you? Hey? So yeah, that's

1203
01:32:08.840 --> 01:32:14.560
how I kind of got into hypnosis. And then I

1204
01:32:14.920 --> 01:32:25.359
started buying books. Then I started Yeah, then I got

1205
01:32:25.399 --> 01:32:28.079
some and I kind of moved and started finding out

1206
01:32:28.119 --> 01:32:32.800
about NLP, got books on NLP. Then I did training

1207
01:32:32.840 --> 01:32:38.640
in LP. Then I did training in the hypnosis, and

1208
01:32:40.640 --> 01:32:49.399
continued the purchasing and getting hypnosis books right the way

1209
01:32:49.479 --> 01:32:55.920
up to about two thousand and thirteen. So from nineteen

1210
01:32:56.039 --> 01:33:04.840
ninety eight to two thy thirty, I was purchasing hypnosis books,

1211
01:33:05.439 --> 01:33:09.079
had a very very good collection. I lost all of

1212
01:33:09.119 --> 01:33:12.760
those books, but I did have a really good collection

1213
01:33:13.159 --> 01:33:18.520
or I also had training videos, training DVDs, training audios,

1214
01:33:19.600 --> 01:33:23.159
really out of print books as well, some of the

1215
01:33:23.159 --> 01:33:28.079
ones that I bought in you know, ninety nine two thousand,

1216
01:33:28.119 --> 01:33:32.279
that weren't in print anymore. You couldn't get them. In fact,

1217
01:33:32.319 --> 01:33:34.520
you could get them, but they were expensive on Amazon

1218
01:33:35.159 --> 01:33:43.239
or eBay. But I think for me, I liked just

1219
01:33:43.319 --> 01:33:46.720
studying it. I liked the idea of being good at

1220
01:33:46.760 --> 01:33:55.880
it but without testing. So during ninety nine, two thousand,

1221
01:33:56.119 --> 01:33:59.520
two thousand and one, two thousand and two, two thousand

1222
01:33:59.520 --> 01:34:02.720
and three, two thousand and four, two thousand and five,

1223
01:34:04.359 --> 01:34:11.319
training doing trainings, I was buying and reading lots of books,

1224
01:34:12.680 --> 01:34:19.319
even making recordings for myself. I did a little bit

1225
01:34:19.359 --> 01:34:23.199
of relaxation stuff for some friends, some pain relief for

1226
01:34:23.279 --> 01:34:26.960
my nan, but outside of that, I didn't ever test

1227
01:34:27.039 --> 01:34:33.960
it with the public. And it's only two thousand and six.

1228
01:34:34.039 --> 01:34:36.680
When I started doing that, I was kind of pushed

1229
01:34:36.720 --> 01:34:41.359
into it by a friend who called my bluff. I've

1230
01:34:41.399 --> 01:34:43.159
talked about that in the past, and it was just

1231
01:34:45.039 --> 01:34:47.680
I didn't want to do it. I was quite happy

1232
01:34:47.800 --> 01:34:53.119
just to read the books and kind of fantasize that

1233
01:34:53.319 --> 01:34:58.000
maybe I could be good at it rather than actually.

1234
01:34:59.000 --> 01:34:59.640
Do anything.

1235
01:35:06.000 --> 01:35:08.560
And then you know, in two thousand and six, I

1236
01:35:08.600 --> 01:35:12.640
also started making audios and videos. The reason I started

1237
01:35:12.640 --> 01:35:16.039
making audios is because I was doing I was volunteering

1238
01:35:16.199 --> 01:35:25.039
at a alcohol charity and I was doing these group

1239
01:35:25.119 --> 01:35:27.279
sessions two a week or one on a Friday, I

1240
01:35:27.279 --> 01:35:29.520
think one a week at the time on a Friday,

1241
01:35:30.079 --> 01:35:36.000
and someone said, can you not You know, it's not

1242
01:35:36.159 --> 01:35:38.279
enough once a week isn't enough. Isn't there any way

1243
01:35:38.319 --> 01:35:42.840
of getting a recording of this? So the charity and

1244
01:35:43.000 --> 01:35:47.399
me got together and made some CDs. They went so quickly,

1245
01:35:47.960 --> 01:35:51.039
and the charity can really afford to keep making new CDs.

1246
01:35:52.560 --> 01:35:55.520
What I did is I taped a recording me and

1247
01:35:55.560 --> 01:35:59.600
we printed it onto a CD. So I thought, Okay,

1248
01:35:59.680 --> 01:36:06.520
what's solution for this. I had my website and I

1249
01:36:06.600 --> 01:36:10.279
put the recording. I started putting my recordings on my

1250
01:36:10.319 --> 01:36:14.000
website where you could download them or stream. I can't

1251
01:36:14.039 --> 01:36:17.840
remember you could stream at the time or download them.

1252
01:36:17.920 --> 01:36:27.920
And then I discovered MySpace, so I started uploading the

1253
01:36:27.960 --> 01:36:31.319
audios to MySpace from the live sessions. I started recording

1254
01:36:31.319 --> 01:36:35.359
the live sessions every time I did one these live

1255
01:36:35.399 --> 01:36:37.880
group sessions, and I was doing it also at drug

1256
01:36:38.000 --> 01:36:44.359
rehab center as well. A few months later, until the

1257
01:36:44.479 --> 01:36:47.960
end of two thousand, until the end of two thousand

1258
01:36:48.000 --> 01:36:57.600
and seven. Yes, and I started making videos. So far,

1259
01:36:57.640 --> 01:37:01.640
while I'm doing the audios to MySpace, I can do videos,

1260
01:37:01.680 --> 01:37:04.399
so let me try. I try that, use the webcam

1261
01:37:04.439 --> 01:37:09.560
from the laptop. Terrible picture and not that this one's

1262
01:37:09.640 --> 01:37:12.119
much better. But I look at my eyes. It looks

1263
01:37:12.159 --> 01:37:23.119
so blue next to the red my face. The yeah,

1264
01:37:23.439 --> 01:37:28.319
the I think the videos. I had one video that

1265
01:37:28.359 --> 01:37:31.439
reached about ten thousand views. I think that was the

1266
01:37:31.520 --> 01:37:37.000
Chronic Pain one. It's like wow. And the thing about

1267
01:37:37.079 --> 01:37:40.239
MySpace is I never I think. I'm not sure if

1268
01:37:40.279 --> 01:37:46.800
I ever had one negative review. People so supportive on MySpace.

1269
01:37:48.079 --> 01:37:51.920
It's a shame that place just didn't continue because it

1270
01:37:51.960 --> 01:37:58.640
was a really nice space, really was well yes, it's

1271
01:37:58.720 --> 01:38:02.720
kind of like MySpace really that it was a nice place.

1272
01:38:03.079 --> 01:38:10.079
And then Facebook came along, YouTube came along, so YouTube

1273
01:38:10.239 --> 01:38:14.039
tubetube took all the videos. YouTube YouTube was the place

1274
01:38:14.079 --> 01:38:17.479
for the videos to be. My Space started to just

1275
01:38:17.560 --> 01:38:23.479
dwindle down when Facebook came along again. So you had

1276
01:38:23.479 --> 01:38:26.319
somewhere to post to YouTube videos or you had someone

1277
01:38:26.319 --> 01:38:30.680
to post videos and in somewhere that you could have

1278
01:38:30.880 --> 01:38:36.079
social interactions with people, and Facebook was the new place

1279
01:38:36.119 --> 01:38:38.319
for that, and everyone kind of just went over there.

1280
01:38:40.399 --> 01:38:42.039
And then, as I said earlier, I started using a

1281
01:38:42.079 --> 01:38:49.239
podcast for the audio, so I really didn't use my

1282
01:38:49.399 --> 01:38:53.079
space at all after a little while, which is the same,

1283
01:38:54.640 --> 01:38:59.640
but that's that's kind of how disprogressed. I focused mainly

1284
01:38:59.680 --> 01:39:03.720
on the YouTube videos for up to at twenty thirteen

1285
01:39:04.359 --> 01:39:09.560
in two thousand and seven, but I did also have podcasts,

1286
01:39:10.039 --> 01:39:13.520
but they were kind of not secondary. But it was

1287
01:39:14.159 --> 01:39:17.640
I'd make the video and then i'd extract the audio

1288
01:39:18.239 --> 01:39:21.399
and put that on the podcast. Sometimes i'd do ado

1289
01:39:21.800 --> 01:39:24.319
audio just on its own, but quite often it would

1290
01:39:24.359 --> 01:39:27.159
just be the video and then then i'd extract that,

1291
01:39:27.279 --> 01:39:31.680
so I'd be focusing more on the video aspect, you know,

1292
01:39:31.800 --> 01:39:41.680
things on YouTube. And then probably I moved here twenty fifteen,

1293
01:39:41.800 --> 01:39:45.960
started doing more recordings, audios, did some videos and stuff.

1294
01:39:46.520 --> 01:39:48.760
Hadn't done many videos for a while for a couple

1295
01:39:48.800 --> 01:39:54.520
of years, and I haven't been steady with videos really.

1296
01:39:54.560 --> 01:39:59.319
I've got through little periods. The audios. I think two

1297
01:39:59.399 --> 01:40:03.479
thousand and eight really kicked in. I started putting more

1298
01:40:03.520 --> 01:40:09.359
effort and doing them a lot more regular in twenty eighteen,

1299
01:40:09.520 --> 01:40:11.399
once I started doing the let Me Boy to Sleep,

1300
01:40:13.399 --> 01:40:21.199
and since then I've done thousands of recordings, and it is, Yeah,

1301
01:40:21.640 --> 01:40:25.399
it's sort of grown, I guess from there. But I

1302
01:40:25.560 --> 01:40:28.479
like to think in a way, even though I'm not

1303
01:40:30.439 --> 01:40:34.680
really don't really do hypnosis anymore, not really, I kind

1304
01:40:34.680 --> 01:40:36.720
of do and I don't. I like to think that

1305
01:40:39.840 --> 01:40:44.399
I incorporate what I learn. So when I when I

1306
01:40:44.479 --> 01:40:48.439
do the let Me Boil Your Pain Away, I'm still

1307
01:40:48.760 --> 01:40:55.720
using techniques and I don't know how to explain it,

1308
01:40:56.720 --> 01:41:00.199
but I think it's about trying to instead of of

1309
01:41:01.720 --> 01:41:05.800
adapting myself, because what I was trying to do before

1310
01:41:06.319 --> 01:41:15.960
is adapting myself to the hypnosis. Now I just adapt

1311
01:41:15.960 --> 01:41:23.079
the hypnosis to myself, so I try and use whatever

1312
01:41:23.199 --> 01:41:29.520
has been absorbed into my brain and hope for the best.

1313
01:41:29.880 --> 01:41:38.680
I suppose I don't know, but yeah, I hope that

1314
01:41:38.760 --> 01:41:44.199
answered your question. So I have answered every question. There

1315
01:41:44.279 --> 01:41:48.199
was nine nine questions, So thank you very much everyone.

1316
01:41:49.159 --> 01:41:51.840
So I was going to say thank you to everyone

1317
01:41:52.439 --> 01:42:00.520
all that's answered to ask. So Hillary, Sandy, Michelle, Karna

1318
01:42:01.399 --> 01:42:08.520
or coroner. Sure it's Karna, Kate, Jonathan, Ali, and Hope.

1319
01:42:10.000 --> 01:42:12.720
Thank you very much, and I'm going to go now.

1320
01:42:12.800 --> 01:42:15.479
So thank you for listening. Remember to be kind to yourself,

1321
01:42:16.439 --> 01:42:23.560
because you do deserve to be happy. Lots of love. Bye.

1322
01:42:29.880 --> 01:42:44.439
Relax in a more deep and meaningful way, Maybe in

1323
01:42:44.479 --> 01:42:50.039
a way that can not just allow you to feel

1324
01:42:51.399 --> 01:43:00.640
calmer now and throughout the time we've spend together here,

1325
01:43:02.680 --> 01:43:08.359
not just relaxed at the end of the recording when

1326
01:43:08.399 --> 01:43:15.000
it's finished and you can enjoy that sense of comfort

1327
01:43:15.239 --> 01:43:30.159
and peace, but also I think it would be nice

1328
01:43:30.239 --> 01:43:50.039
to have those feelings of relaxation continue for longer after

1329
01:43:50.119 --> 01:44:00.720
the recording has ended, so that you can still benefit

1330
01:44:03.600 --> 01:44:10.880
from listening to my voice, maybe in a few hours time,

1331
01:44:12.760 --> 01:44:26.239
perhaps tomorrow, and then by listening regularly, especially if you

1332
01:44:26.439 --> 01:44:31.079
find like some people do and myself as well. I

1333
01:44:31.239 --> 01:44:37.960
sometimes I find one particular recording that really resonates with me,

1334
01:44:42.319 --> 01:44:44.720
and I just listen to it over and over again

1335
01:44:46.960 --> 01:45:00.279
every morning, every evening. There was this recording from going

1336
01:45:00.279 --> 01:45:05.800
back to about nineteen ninety nine. It was it wasn't hypnosis,

1337
01:45:05.840 --> 01:45:11.159
but it was a guided visualizations. It kind of was hypnosis, really,

1338
01:45:13.640 --> 01:45:18.840
and I managed to find it again and it still

1339
01:45:18.920 --> 01:45:24.520
has the same effect on me. And part of it

1340
01:45:24.640 --> 01:45:39.479
was the person's voice relaxed me. She just felt so peaceful,

1341
01:45:41.520 --> 01:45:48.039
and I'd look forward to listening to her in the

1342
01:45:48.079 --> 01:45:58.920
morning and in the evening. And I knew before even

1343
01:45:59.520 --> 01:46:08.000
pressing the play button that since I've done that pressed

1344
01:46:08.000 --> 01:46:16.560
the play button. This was in the days of CD

1345
01:46:16.760 --> 01:46:25.439
players pressed the play button. In fact, it might have

1346
01:46:25.520 --> 01:46:29.840
even been a tap tape recorder. I'd lie down on

1347
01:46:29.880 --> 01:46:42.720
the bed and then even without necessarily listening to her

1348
01:46:42.920 --> 01:46:55.840
words because I had them memorized. Really, it was as

1349
01:46:55.880 --> 01:47:06.600
if my body knew exactly what to do, and the

1350
01:47:06.760 --> 01:47:28.800
muscles just almost went into automatic relaxation, and I remember

1351
01:47:28.880 --> 01:47:42.960
my mind would slow down. Now now I was listening

1352
01:47:43.000 --> 01:47:49.800
to this recording in the early days of learning hypnosis,

1353
01:47:52.319 --> 01:48:00.159
and long before I ever made any videos or audio

1354
01:48:00.199 --> 01:48:05.000
recordings myself, because I didn't start doing that till two

1355
01:48:05.000 --> 01:48:24.319
thousand and six, I knew, I knew how helpful I

1356
01:48:24.399 --> 01:48:34.680
found being able to just let go, to have that

1357
01:48:35.039 --> 01:48:47.680
trust in the person that I'm listening to, knowing that

1358
01:48:47.760 --> 01:48:55.439
it's going to be just as relaxing, if if not

1359
01:48:55.680 --> 01:49:05.000
more so. Each time you hear my voice, you may

1360
01:49:05.039 --> 01:49:16.600
feel the same. Some people have been listening to me

1361
01:49:16.840 --> 01:49:30.760
for over a decade, maybe not solidly, obviously not twenty

1362
01:49:30.800 --> 01:49:38.800
four hours a day, but maybe people come back. Some

1363
01:49:38.840 --> 01:49:53.680
people may be listen every day. There's something that I

1364
01:49:53.720 --> 01:50:09.760
do which you may not realize are listening, is when

1365
01:50:10.039 --> 01:50:25.520
I record these recordings. Now, for example, I also am

1366
01:50:25.760 --> 01:50:39.560
affected by the words that I say. So if I

1367
01:50:39.600 --> 01:50:46.960
set you focus on your feet, notice your feet relaxing,

1368
01:50:50.439 --> 01:50:58.359
I will be focusing on my feet. I will be

1369
01:50:58.439 --> 01:51:16.560
noticing my feet relaxing. If I said, focus on your hands,

1370
01:51:19.319 --> 01:51:28.840
and maybe notice the difference between each hand, perhaps notice

1371
01:51:28.960 --> 01:51:35.039
the air in the room, the temperature of the room.

1372
01:51:36.920 --> 01:51:47.319
On the backs of your hands. You may start to

1373
01:51:47.880 --> 01:51:55.960
notice what almost feels like a very light breeze, even

1374
01:51:56.000 --> 01:52:00.239
though there may not be any type of breeze at

1375
01:52:00.279 --> 01:52:13.239
all where you are right now, and as you become

1376
01:52:13.920 --> 01:52:28.279
aware of your hands, I'm also aware of how relaxed

1377
01:52:28.560 --> 01:52:52.359
my hands our feeling now and when it comes to

1378
01:52:53.880 --> 01:52:59.840
potentially drifting off to sleep, which may be the reason

1379
01:53:00.239 --> 01:53:16.560
you're listening, I also feel drowsy when I make these recordings.

1380
01:53:21.199 --> 01:53:26.640
I also notice.

1381
01:53:24.800 --> 01:53:26.279
My mind.

1382
01:53:27.560 --> 01:53:47.479
Drifting. In fact, at times I've actually fallen asleep without

1383
01:53:47.560 --> 01:54:01.560
even noticing, and then I carry on talking. And it's

1384
01:54:01.560 --> 01:54:10.600
only when I listen back to do the editing I

1385
01:54:10.760 --> 01:54:20.039
hear snoring and I think, I don't remember snoring. I

1386
01:54:20.079 --> 01:54:26.800
remember talking. Is it snoring? Was a pick turned up?

1387
01:54:30.760 --> 01:54:38.199
That's why I sound like when I snare, how I

1388
01:54:38.239 --> 01:54:51.720
get really into the whole experience. I don't know how

1389
01:54:51.840 --> 01:55:04.399
you feel, how relaxed you feel in your feet, how

1390
01:55:04.560 --> 01:55:29.960
relaxed you feel in your hands. I have noticed more

1391
01:55:30.079 --> 01:55:46.720
and more that the more relaxed, deeper level of comfort

1392
01:55:48.720 --> 01:56:03.880
you feel, the easier your breathing becomes. It's almost like

1393
01:56:06.640 --> 01:56:25.560
that additional muscle relaxation. So this allows you debreathe easier

1394
01:56:32.760 --> 01:56:51.159
without necessarily focusing on your breath. However, being able to

1395
01:56:54.880 --> 01:57:35.079
notice the ease in which you breathe so naturally, you

1396
01:57:35.279 --> 01:58:17.720
breeze so very easily and smoothly. Whenever I imagine my

1397
01:58:18.000 --> 01:58:34.319
breathing improving, when I've got my eyes closed, I tend

1398
01:58:34.439 --> 01:58:54.960
to visualize a beautiful field with trees and flowers producing

1399
01:58:55.079 --> 01:59:27.119
all that life giving oxygen. And it feels nice to,

1400
01:59:28.840 --> 01:59:35.039
if nothing else, just taking.

1401
01:59:34.880 --> 01:59:36.319
Some time.

1402
01:59:41.800 --> 02:00:30.159
Away from everything, enjoying that feeling of peace serenity with

1403
02:00:30.199 --> 02:01:06.680
a joyful heart. Time seems to just drip by, so

1404
02:01:07.880 --> 02:01:57.640
very slowly, relaxed, so deeply, peaceful, completely unattached to any

1405
02:01:58.600 --> 02:02:54.279
thoughts whatsoever in this moment, completely free notice in that

1406
02:03:01.840 --> 02:03:48.359
your mind has slowed down, slowed down because nothing really

1407
02:03:48.600 --> 02:04:19.199
requires your attention. You can enjoy the physical sensations of

1408
02:04:19.359 --> 02:04:32.399
allowing the stress to drip out of your body, dripping

1409
02:04:32.640 --> 02:04:56.600
out of every part of your body and being released

1410
02:05:01.880 --> 02:05:41.680
from your brain. Hune your mind slowly but surely. The

1411
02:05:41.800 --> 02:06:18.840
muscles in your legs rem ks rys really so very deeply,

1412
02:06:28.720 --> 02:06:59.600
rs so deeply, and the feelings, the pleasant feelings in

1413
02:06:59.720 --> 02:07:24.279
your arms and shoulders deepening each part of your body

1414
02:07:27.600 --> 02:08:05.960
further and deeper and deeper. Noticin the feelings in the

1415
02:08:06.079 --> 02:09:06.000
back of your neck the feelings in your wrists, muscles,

1416
02:09:08.079 --> 02:09:45.319
in the front of your body. I also feeling peaceful, deeping.

1417
02:10:02.359 --> 02:10:12.680
There's a sense of peace spreads through your very core.

1418
02:10:43.159 --> 02:11:03.079
Even when you focus on your mind. Her mind becomes

1419
02:11:10.399 --> 02:12:32.399
be and slower and deeper, relaxing, so very slow. His

1420
02:12:32.720 --> 02:13:29.359
stomach taste, felling your stomach, you'll back. Notice, Notice how

1421
02:13:29.640 --> 02:13:47.600
relaxed you now feel in the hall of your back.

1422
02:14:12.760 --> 02:14:20.399
You a spy from your brain all the way down

1423
02:14:21.800 --> 02:14:31.600
the middle of your back, sending and receiving millions of

1424
02:14:31.880 --> 02:16:04.840
messages every day. Deecomfort increasing deeply relaxed ms spreading those

1425
02:16:05.119 --> 02:16:14.279
signals down your spine or cord into air every part

1426
02:16:14.680 --> 02:17:00.879
of your body, your shins and your calf muscles, your elbows,

1427
02:17:17.399 --> 02:17:34.799
Feelings of peace and tranquility spreading through your body, tips

1428
02:17:34.840 --> 02:17:50.760
of your toes, to your eyes, your fingers, all the

1429
02:17:50.840 --> 02:18:36.520
way to your lower back. Hmm. Letting go reating base,

1430
02:18:52.319 --> 02:19:18.680
drifting mind, just wander in a way, happy to let go,

1431
02:19:22.159 --> 02:20:23.479
Let go completely, let go, so tranquil her whole body

1432
02:20:27.799 --> 02:22:50.600
enjoying a sensor listening gird us pace, enjoy the space,

1433
02:22:53.000 --> 02:22:54.719
this space.

1434
02:22:57.319 --> 02:22:58.360
Of peace.

1435
02:23:01.600 --> 02:23:35.399
And safety, safe, fery fy, relaxed.

1436
02:24:04.600 --> 02:25:05.159
Us letting go.

1437
02:25:23.200 --> 02:25:30.799
Maybe we can just focus on the different parts of

1438
02:25:30.959 --> 02:26:05.360
your body, just to notice a forehead and your eyes.

1439
02:26:38.600 --> 02:27:25.079
Ju said this, noticing the sense of complete freedom, absolute freedom.

1440
02:28:11.159 --> 02:28:25.280
Dress day, dress day.

1441
02:28:37.719 --> 02:28:39.040
He's fall.

1442
02:28:40.520 --> 02:30:25.079
Energy, paste, to breeze, so much ease, yeah, lose. You

1443
02:30:25.319 --> 02:30:37.879
may have you may not have noticed your mind drifting

1444
02:31:14.399 --> 02:31:38.760
peaceful move ay, even more deeply in the direction of

1445
02:31:43.879 --> 02:33:39.440
total blissful pace, blissful pace to to to pace, come

1446
02:33:45.159 --> 02:34:35.840
so calm, lett him go, peace of mind rights.

1447
02:34:40.280 --> 02:35:00.280
Fody c res.

1448
02:35:08.239 --> 02:35:56.559
So relaxed. Her body feels almost invisible, so very relaxed

1449
02:36:00.079 --> 02:37:15.120
and peaceful, so pace like God, I'm sp paceful. And

1450
02:37:15.280 --> 02:37:22.559
you could start to notice that you are feeling more relaxed,

1451
02:37:25.600 --> 02:37:35.319
even though I've not purposely focused your mind upon that

1452
02:37:36.680 --> 02:37:42.760
sense of physical comfort that is growing within you throughout

1453
02:37:42.879 --> 02:37:47.639
your body, and your mind.

1454
02:37:49.440 --> 02:37:50.680
Starts to slow down.

1455
02:37:55.639 --> 02:38:02.799
And that could be almost in recognition of I guess

1456
02:38:03.239 --> 02:38:15.719
my speech not being particularly fast, and things just generally

1457
02:38:17.440 --> 02:38:28.440
feel calmer. Just by listening to my voice, you give

1458
02:38:28.520 --> 02:38:35.399
yourself an opportunity to take a break from the day,

1459
02:38:37.559 --> 02:38:45.040
take a break from your life as it is, and

1460
02:38:45.200 --> 02:38:52.920
to give yourself a rest, giving yourself permission to take

1461
02:38:53.040 --> 02:38:58.559
some time off and to allow your body to relax

1462
02:39:00.319 --> 02:39:08.200
and allow your mind to slow down, which in turn

1463
02:39:10.840 --> 02:39:16.440
releases the tension any stresses that you had in your body.

1464
02:39:22.440 --> 02:39:26.319
It's almost as if the parts of your body just

1465
02:39:26.600 --> 02:39:38.280
open up, allowing the negativity out and at the same

1466
02:39:38.440 --> 02:39:49.719
time replacing that negativity with positive healing energy, which then

1467
02:39:49.920 --> 02:39:59.040
fills your body up and your mind to also starts

1468
02:39:59.200 --> 02:40:15.840
to appreciate those feelings of increasing confidence and almost uplifting

1469
02:40:16.239 --> 02:40:31.639
feeling positive healing, an energy that spreads through your body

1470
02:40:32.719 --> 02:40:42.760
like a wave of comfort. And all this comes from

1471
02:40:43.079 --> 02:40:54.639
just allowing yourself a few minutes, maybe half an hour,

1472
02:40:55.120 --> 02:41:00.000
however long you want it to be, just rest.

1473
02:41:05.280 --> 02:41:06.200
And allow.

1474
02:41:08.440 --> 02:41:18.399
Your mind and your body to almost reset itself to

1475
02:41:18.559 --> 02:41:34.719
the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness, which allows more

1476
02:41:34.879 --> 02:41:48.239
room for feelings of pleasure and happiness to move around

1477
02:41:48.559 --> 02:41:56.760
your body and into your mind, almost as if your

1478
02:41:56.920 --> 02:42:06.360
mind and your body are sinking looking together, almost mirroring

1479
02:42:07.200 --> 02:42:20.079
each other, with that growing positivity and calmness. And it

1480
02:42:20.159 --> 02:42:28.000
feels nice, really does feel nice to know that you

1481
02:42:29.319 --> 02:42:37.840
are the one that has allowed yourself to feel more

1482
02:42:39.159 --> 02:42:45.799
comfort than to experience.

1483
02:42:47.520 --> 02:42:48.639
More of this.

1484
02:42:50.440 --> 02:43:05.600
Deep relaxation spreading throughout your body, and as I focus

1485
02:43:07.159 --> 02:43:12.920
on each part of your body, you can notice that

1486
02:43:13.159 --> 02:43:27.639
that part becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on it.

1487
02:43:30.200 --> 02:43:39.840
It becomes even more calm and comfortable, just by focusing.

1488
02:43:43.920 --> 02:43:49.639
And as I move down your body, starting at your head,

1489
02:43:52.399 --> 02:43:59.079
the parts that you've already focused on will continue to

1490
02:43:59.239 --> 02:44:06.879
relax deeply, and those parts that have not yet focused

1491
02:44:06.959 --> 02:44:20.280
on or just automatically release any remain intention in anticipation

1492
02:44:20.680 --> 02:44:33.680
of even more comfort about to come. Now, I'm and

1493
02:44:33.959 --> 02:44:41.399
start by focusing on your forehead. Just being aware the

1494
02:44:41.639 --> 02:44:51.920
feelings of your forehead and any background sounds like mister

1495
02:44:52.200 --> 02:44:58.200
Herbert opinion can just allow you to feel even more relaxed.

1496
02:45:02.120 --> 02:45:08.200
Just means you in the moment, this isn't this isn't

1497
02:45:08.239 --> 02:45:16.239
a sterile environment. This is the world. I live in

1498
02:45:16.319 --> 02:45:28.600
the countryside, so there's lots of nature sounds around. So

1499
02:45:28.680 --> 02:45:33.840
as you focus on your forehead, just notice how it

1500
02:45:34.120 --> 02:45:44.000
becomes even more relaxed as you focus only on my

1501
02:45:44.280 --> 02:45:53.799
voice and that part of your body. Moving down to

1502
02:45:53.959 --> 02:46:06.879
your eyes, focusing on your eyes, noticing how your eyelids

1503
02:46:07.159 --> 02:46:14.159
feel so heavy yet so light at the same time,

1504
02:46:17.559 --> 02:46:28.200
and all the muscles around your eyes relaxing completely. Moving

1505
02:46:28.319 --> 02:46:35.479
your focus down to your mouth, your lips, your tongue,

1506
02:46:36.719 --> 02:46:44.680
your teeth, and your gums, the hall of your mouth relaxing,

1507
02:46:48.159 --> 02:46:58.399
calm and loose as you focus now on your jaw,

1508
02:47:01.840 --> 02:47:05.879
just the parts of your jaw ney, your mouth, and

1509
02:47:06.000 --> 02:47:10.239
your chin, but all the way up the size of

1510
02:47:10.360 --> 02:47:20.479
your face to your ears, the hole of your jaw, feeding.

1511
02:47:24.280 --> 02:47:26.719
More relaxed.

1512
02:47:30.159 --> 02:47:30.920
And calm.

1513
02:47:39.120 --> 02:47:48.200
Focusing on your neck, the front of your neck and

1514
02:47:48.319 --> 02:48:01.319
your throat relaxing and loose and calm. The sides of

1515
02:48:01.440 --> 02:48:10.319
your neck, right and left side of your neck relax

1516
02:48:10.879 --> 02:48:26.079
and please and calm. And now the back of your neck,

1517
02:48:29.399 --> 02:48:39.399
focusing on the back of your neck, letting go of

1518
02:48:39.600 --> 02:48:46.479
any tension that may have been there before, and enjoying

1519
02:48:46.879 --> 02:48:59.680
that sense of increasing comfort and release that you can

1520
02:48:59.760 --> 02:49:10.360
e expirits in the back of your neck, Moving down

1521
02:49:10.879 --> 02:49:18.120
your back and moving either side of your spine right

1522
02:49:18.280 --> 02:49:19.879
from the top of your back.

1523
02:49:21.600 --> 02:49:22.879
All the way.

1524
02:49:22.879 --> 02:49:35.520
Down to the bottom of your back, down to your

1525
02:49:35.639 --> 02:49:46.159
lower back. As you move up and down your spine,

1526
02:49:48.319 --> 02:49:52.760
you can feel the muscles either side of your spine

1527
02:49:54.959 --> 02:50:09.520
relaxing even more. And as those muscles relax that sense

1528
02:50:09.639 --> 02:50:20.120
of comfort starts to spread outwards from your spine into

1529
02:50:20.319 --> 02:50:26.920
both sides of your back, the top of your back,

1530
02:50:27.799 --> 02:50:29.520
the middle and your lower back.

1531
02:50:33.040 --> 02:50:34.360
And as you scan.

1532
02:50:35.760 --> 02:50:43.559
Gently and slowly up and down your back, there's the

1533
02:50:43.719 --> 02:50:49.559
muscles in the top of your back relax and become looser.

1534
02:50:53.920 --> 02:50:59.840
The muscles in the middle of your back also seen

1535
02:51:00.079 --> 02:51:09.520
to just almost divide from each other, separating and almost melting,

1536
02:51:15.319 --> 02:51:21.280
and in your lower back there seems to be an

1537
02:51:21.360 --> 02:51:35.520
extra special feeling of comfort. The spreads into your hips.

1538
02:51:37.840 --> 02:51:45.680
Sit down your lower back, into your hips, into the

1539
02:51:45.879 --> 02:51:51.920
area where your cosix are, and into your.

1540
02:51:51.879 --> 02:52:01.200
Buttocks, and almost muscles that spread bring your lower back

1541
02:52:03.680 --> 02:52:15.920
into your hip area start to melt, start to reading,

1542
02:52:17.120 --> 02:52:27.959
let go, and you know where about to focus on

1543
02:52:28.120 --> 02:52:37.159
your shoulders. Your back and your spine will continue to

1544
02:52:37.399 --> 02:52:55.680
let go, continue to relax so calmly, and as you

1545
02:52:55.879 --> 02:53:01.760
focus on your shoulders, I mean not is they're already

1546
02:53:03.639 --> 02:53:16.040
feeding really loose, They're already.

1547
02:53:18.399 --> 02:53:24.920
Feeding, calm.

1548
02:53:31.040 --> 02:53:43.680
And fearing. Those muscles then move from your neck into

1549
02:53:43.760 --> 02:54:09.120
your shoulders. Feel so soft and gentle, so smooth and calm,

1550
02:54:20.559 --> 02:54:33.120
and the feeling in your shoulders seems to spread deep

1551
02:54:33.360 --> 02:54:43.120
into your shoulders, a sense of relaxation, not just traveling

1552
02:54:43.639 --> 02:54:51.959
deeply into your muscles, but also relaxing.

1553
02:54:54.079 --> 02:54:55.520
The bones.

1554
02:55:00.799 --> 02:55:07.479
And moving all the way to underneath your arms, relaxing

1555
02:55:09.399 --> 02:55:14.120
a whole area between the tops of your shoulders and

1556
02:55:14.319 --> 02:55:32.760
underneath your arms healing. You feel so relaxed and comfortable

1557
02:55:33.959 --> 02:55:39.879
in your shoulders, which sends that.

1558
02:55:42.159 --> 02:55:44.200
Deep healing.

1559
02:55:47.159 --> 02:56:04.639
Message into your arms. You may feel almost as if

1560
02:56:04.719 --> 02:56:05.840
your arms are.

1561
02:56:05.879 --> 02:56:06.639
Not even that.

1562
02:56:08.319 --> 02:56:24.799
Because they so relaxed, so deeply, relaxed, so.

1563
02:56:29.840 --> 02:56:45.440
Calm, so.

1564
02:57:00.239 --> 02:57:14.879
Fins spreading all the way down your arms, two elbows in,

1565
02:57:15.000 --> 02:57:31.360
including your elbows, circumfort spreads.

1566
02:57:35.360 --> 02:57:36.079
Your way.

1567
02:57:38.680 --> 02:57:57.559
Into wrists, your forearms, and your wrists so heavy, yet

1568
02:57:58.079 --> 02:58:38.520
the same time, sunlight and gentle fred s.

1569
02:58:41.079 --> 02:58:42.079
Now on.

1570
02:58:44.760 --> 02:59:39.920
Your hands, My hands, so peaceful in your hands, the sensor.

1571
02:59:42.840 --> 02:59:44.680
Real pace.

1572
02:59:56.360 --> 03:00:10.719
Just seems to feel so familiar on your hands, relax

1573
03:00:12.040 --> 03:02:17.399
deeply else your fingers things you think it's hips making

1574
03:02:17.760 --> 03:02:47.840
your attention from your body so comfortable, make man you

1575
03:02:48.200 --> 03:05:06.600
focus to legs, musculs in your thoughts. Names sla calf muscles,

1576
03:05:08.559 --> 03:07:16.879
sassy and the feathing your feets.

1577
03:07:23.479 --> 03:08:19.719
Sir, peaceful, circom sick, peaceful, circomm sup peaceful, Sycolm.

1578
03:08:23.239 --> 03:08:37.479
So peace fall re Sner.

1579
03:08:42.200 --> 03:08:44.000
Peace fall.

1580
03:08:47.319 --> 03:09:00.040
Cycom love that deep relaxation.

1581
03:09:00.639 --> 03:09:34.319
Just spread your chest, let you go everything. So I'm

1582
03:09:34.319 --> 03:09:40.520
gonna start counting down now from twenty down to one.

1583
03:09:46.440 --> 03:09:49.680
You can imagine in a way it's like just walking

1584
03:09:49.799 --> 03:09:55.600
down some steps and each step or twenty steps, and

1585
03:09:55.719 --> 03:10:06.079
each step represents a level of comfort. Each step represents

1586
03:10:08.680 --> 03:10:21.159
a deepening of that comfort and the furvies you walk

1587
03:10:21.239 --> 03:10:26.959
down those steps to deeper and more relaxed you feel.

1588
03:10:33.680 --> 03:12:21.639
So starting with number twenty twenty, nineteen, eighteen seven, ten.

1589
03:13:07.799 --> 03:14:24.479
Sixteenhhhhhh three.

1590
03:15:07.040 --> 03:26:55.639
Fourhhhhhhhhhhh four to wellh hhhhhhhhhhhh eight sis six five four.

1591
03:27:05.079 --> 03:27:49.600
Us conci.

1592
03:31:13.559 --> 03:31:30.600
Now, as you focus on your eyes, We're gonna count

1593
03:31:30.719 --> 03:31:42.520
down from ten douts one, focusing just on your eyes,

1594
03:31:46.280 --> 03:31:54.799
your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your eye walls themselves,

1595
03:31:56.319 --> 03:32:13.319
a whole area that makes up your eye. And as

1596
03:32:13.440 --> 03:32:22.280
we count down ten down to one, whilst focusing on

1597
03:32:22.440 --> 03:32:37.600
your eyes, you will become twice is relaxed. With each

1598
03:32:38.040 --> 03:32:50.959
number counting down. That you may find they you want

1599
03:32:51.079 --> 03:32:59.879
to do is just drift off to sleep, and it's

1600
03:33:00.200 --> 03:33:06.520
that's what you want. Then just allow yourself to do

1601
03:33:06.760 --> 03:33:21.559
that now, focusing on your eyes. I'm going to begin

1602
03:33:22.000 --> 03:33:39.799
counting down from ten down to one right now, ten

1603
03:34:06.079 --> 03:34:41.280
nine eight.

1604
03:35:34.360 --> 03:40:56.559
Seven four.

1605
03:40:03.159 --> 03:42:37.840
Three one.

1606
03:42:43.879 --> 03:42:44.079
Two.

1607
03:42:52.440 --> 03:43:03.719
Count down from ten to one. Ten nine eight seven

1608
03:43:05.879 --> 03:43:14.760
six five four three.

1609
03:43:17.360 --> 03:43:20.479
Two one.

1610
03:43:27.520 --> 03:43:30.399
And maybe that was a bit too quick in order

1611
03:43:30.479 --> 03:43:34.399
to relax. Maybe it's a bit too fast for you

1612
03:43:34.680 --> 03:43:44.399
to notice the calming of your body, maybe even a

1613
03:43:44.479 --> 03:43:48.319
little bit of pressure. They're like, you're counting down from

1614
03:43:48.360 --> 03:43:51.040
ten to one, would you expect me to do? Man,

1615
03:43:52.000 --> 03:43:55.680
expect me to stick go with floppy just because you're

1616
03:43:55.760 --> 03:44:05.120
counting down. If you try it again, but this time,

1617
03:44:05.200 --> 03:44:11.200
I'll go a bit slower this time, as you focus

1618
03:44:11.600 --> 03:44:16.200
on the whole of your body before we focus on

1619
03:44:16.280 --> 03:44:16.840
your legs.

1620
03:44:19.280 --> 03:44:20.440
Just notice.

1621
03:44:21.559 --> 03:44:34.360
How your body does start to feel more relaxed with

1622
03:44:35.639 --> 03:44:48.079
every number that I count down ten nine.

1623
03:44:53.440 --> 03:44:54.200
At eight.

1624
03:44:59.280 --> 03:45:36.520
Seven, six, five four three.

1625
03:46:10.879 --> 03:46:24.200
One, And just notice how.

1626
03:46:26.399 --> 03:46:35.840
How you feel generally, how your body feels. It's not

1627
03:46:36.000 --> 03:46:47.040
necessarily even about counting down from ten to one. It's

1628
03:46:47.120 --> 03:47:04.280
that space that you have, that space between being active

1629
03:47:06.639 --> 03:47:15.600
physically or mentally to just sitting or lying down and

1630
03:47:16.120 --> 03:47:20.879
just being there, not doing anything, not saying anything, or

1631
03:47:21.760 --> 03:47:24.079
needing to think about anything.

1632
03:47:25.920 --> 03:47:29.559
So it opens up a space, you know, a bit

1633
03:47:29.639 --> 03:47:40.399
of a space, a gap. And the more I came

1634
03:47:40.520 --> 03:47:45.079
down from ten to one, the bigger that gap becomes.

1635
03:47:48.120 --> 03:47:54.479
So there's that gap of calmness, of comfort, relaxation.

1636
03:48:00.440 --> 03:48:12.760
It's a nice feeling, and it moves those stresses or

1637
03:48:13.319 --> 03:48:29.920
discomforts physically or emotionally, moves them away. Allows you to

1638
03:48:30.319 --> 03:48:39.719
just slow down, someone to count again from ten down

1639
03:48:39.760 --> 03:48:49.719
to one, and notice that gap widening, the gap. And

1640
03:48:49.840 --> 03:48:54.280
as it widens, it's almost like that the stress and

1641
03:48:54.440 --> 03:49:14.799
attention falls into the gap, gives you that distance, that space.

1642
03:49:17.200 --> 03:49:22.559
Now ten.

1643
03:49:27.000 --> 03:49:53.920
Nine, eight, seven, six.

1644
03:50:06.399 --> 03:50:18.319
Five, four.

1645
03:50:36.440 --> 03:51:27.879
Three one. Now, how does your body feel.

1646
03:51:29.840 --> 03:51:30.000
Now?

1647
03:51:42.719 --> 03:51:55.360
Can you notice that? Do you feeling calmer, the feeling

1648
03:51:57.719 --> 03:52:25.120
more relaxed. As we now focus on your legs, just

1649
03:52:25.280 --> 03:52:46.680
your lex You're just gonna start with focusing on your thighs.

1650
03:53:01.479 --> 03:53:05.440
Of course, it's not the most exciting thing to be

1651
03:53:05.559 --> 03:53:12.760
doing because I'm sure like most of your body is

1652
03:53:12.920 --> 03:53:25.000
not a lot going on right now. Just focusing on

1653
03:53:25.159 --> 03:53:30.520
the whole of your thighs, the tops of your thighs,

1654
03:53:31.360 --> 03:53:36.680
the sides of your thighs, the bottoms of your thighs,

1655
03:53:38.159 --> 03:53:43.639
your outer thighs, and your inner thighs, basically the whole

1656
03:53:43.719 --> 03:53:51.200
of your thigh that leads into your hip and it

1657
03:53:51.360 --> 03:53:53.680
goes down to your.

1658
03:53:55.639 --> 03:53:56.319
Knee joints.

1659
03:54:01.479 --> 03:54:08.680
Now, this is a big area, it's a very heavy area.

1660
03:54:09.200 --> 03:54:15.159
It's very strong, probably the strongest muscles in your body

1661
03:54:15.920 --> 03:54:30.159
or in your thighs. But I don't think we perhaps

1662
03:54:32.200 --> 03:54:35.479
give enough attention to our thighs.

1663
03:54:41.399 --> 03:54:42.799
Perhaps we don't.

1664
03:54:44.159 --> 03:55:04.639
Acknowledge how important our thighs are to our lives, how

1665
03:55:04.760 --> 03:55:13.879
much they actually do for us all through our lives.

1666
03:55:21.040 --> 03:55:26.920
And it may seem sound really weird, but I think

1667
03:55:27.000 --> 03:55:34.000
that all of our body parts, especially our thighs, needs

1668
03:55:34.120 --> 03:55:48.559
some TLC, a bit of love shown, a bit of acknowledgement,

1669
03:55:51.280 --> 03:56:00.360
thank you, gratitude for our thighs to do for us.

1670
03:56:06.920 --> 03:56:12.520
And I know this may sound a bit strange. Maybe

1671
03:56:12.559 --> 03:56:15.360
you think, why am I sure that I should be

1672
03:56:15.440 --> 03:56:20.239
out in the garden hugging a tree or something. Well,

1673
03:56:24.360 --> 03:56:26.639
it's hard to set a microphone up on a tree.

1674
03:56:27.680 --> 03:56:29.879
That's why I'm doing this indoors. Otherwise I would be

1675
03:56:29.959 --> 03:56:34.159
outside hugging a tree. I can't see the television.

1676
03:56:33.760 --> 03:56:34.200
From the tree.

1677
03:56:40.920 --> 03:56:45.200
If you move down to your knees, gain such an

1678
03:56:45.280 --> 03:56:54.959
important part. And I think we don't necessarily I'll speak

1679
03:56:55.040 --> 03:57:02.360
for myself here, I don't necessarily appreciate all that my

1680
03:57:02.559 --> 03:57:07.719
needs do for me until I have a problem with

1681
03:57:07.840 --> 03:57:12.959
my knee. It's occasionally, if I ever maybe i'll bash it,

1682
03:57:13.319 --> 03:57:19.079
or it's aching for some reason. It's then that I

1683
03:57:19.280 --> 03:57:24.760
realize how much it does. You know, the benefit of

1684
03:57:24.879 --> 03:57:32.319
being able to use my legs without any kind of

1685
03:57:32.479 --> 03:57:40.799
physical discomfort is a beautiful thing that's possibly not appreciated

1686
03:57:40.959 --> 03:57:52.000
until it's temporarily removed. You know that's comfort. But as

1687
03:57:52.040 --> 03:57:57.399
you focus on your knees, regardless of how your knees feel,

1688
03:58:00.479 --> 03:58:06.200
you can have that sense of gratitude and love to

1689
03:58:06.319 --> 03:58:18.920
your knees for all that they do for you, and

1690
03:58:19.120 --> 03:58:23.079
you can still have that attention on your thighs. Maybe

1691
03:58:23.280 --> 03:58:29.559
notice how your thighs feel. Maybe you've notice that they

1692
03:58:30.479 --> 03:58:48.239
are relaxing more deeply as you focus now on the

1693
03:58:48.319 --> 03:58:52.760
bottoms of your legs, your shins and your calf muscles,

1694
03:58:53.239 --> 03:59:00.920
the bones between your knees and your feet incorporate, and

1695
03:59:01.040 --> 03:59:11.959
of course your ankles so important. You know, anyone that's

1696
03:59:12.000 --> 03:59:18.040
had even like the slightest sprain of an ankle knows

1697
03:59:18.360 --> 03:59:30.239
how how much we take our ankles, for granted, and

1698
03:59:30.360 --> 03:59:32.680
it's kind of strange in a way when you think that.

1699
03:59:35.239 --> 03:59:39.200
You know, logically, our wrists are a lot thinner than

1700
03:59:39.319 --> 03:59:43.399
the rest of our arms, which is okay, it doesn't

1701
03:59:43.959 --> 03:59:47.000
I can't see any problem with that because we're just

1702
03:59:47.120 --> 03:59:54.840
picking stuff up. Our ankles so much thinner than the

1703
03:59:54.920 --> 04:00:05.200
rest of our legs, and from a physics perspective or

1704
04:00:05.360 --> 04:00:09.479
logical even it doesn't really make sense that all this

1705
04:00:09.760 --> 04:00:18.559
weight would ultimately be resting on your ankles then leading

1706
04:00:18.600 --> 04:00:31.559
to your feet, that thin area, thin bone. Yeah, it

1707
04:00:31.760 --> 04:00:37.639
does so much great work. Supports us, supports our body

1708
04:00:38.920 --> 04:00:49.399
for a lifetime, helps us to balance, helps you to

1709
04:00:53.399 --> 04:01:02.639
get around and be mobile. And there's the calf muscles.

1710
04:01:02.680 --> 04:01:10.280
Of course, when I was younger, I couldn't see the

1711
04:01:10.360 --> 04:01:16.719
pointing calf muscles. Didn't seem to do anything. Okay, if

1712
04:01:16.719 --> 04:01:20.319
I walked around on tiptoes, then my calf muscles get

1713
04:01:20.360 --> 04:01:24.079
some work. But of course that's not true. The calf

1714
04:01:24.200 --> 04:01:33.840
muscles are being used whenever we use our legs, and

1715
04:01:33.959 --> 04:01:46.479
your shins there to protect your lower legs, shaped in

1716
04:01:46.600 --> 04:01:59.120
a way almost as a protector for the bone, leading

1717
04:02:00.520 --> 04:02:10.879
of course to your ankles and your feet, But we're

1718
04:02:10.920 --> 04:02:12.840
not going to focus on your feet. We're just going

1719
04:02:12.920 --> 04:02:19.280
to focus on the legs. I realize, and now that

1720
04:02:19.399 --> 04:02:23.799
I've mentioned your feet, you'll probably focuses on them anyway,

1721
04:02:24.360 --> 04:02:26.920
So maybe I should focus on your feet a little bit.

1722
04:02:30.959 --> 04:02:35.360
You can have them in your awareness the same as

1723
04:02:35.479 --> 04:02:39.799
you have your thighs in your awareness. Even though we

1724
04:02:39.959 --> 04:02:45.680
haven't been focusing on your thighs a few minutes and

1725
04:02:45.879 --> 04:02:56.799
we're focusing on your ankles, there's still that sensation of

1726
04:03:00.079 --> 04:03:12.799
comfort in your thighs in this that movement of energy

1727
04:03:14.840 --> 04:03:21.879
because the thighs hold lots of different sensations. Of course,

1728
04:03:21.959 --> 04:03:26.719
there's the muscles, the big straw muscles that we have

1729
04:03:26.920 --> 04:03:40.239
in our thighs, but the skin on the outside of

1730
04:03:40.360 --> 04:03:45.639
the thighs, as in the outside of all of our body,

1731
04:03:46.440 --> 04:03:58.040
can be very sensitive, sensitive to the touch, sensitive to temperature,

1732
04:04:04.600 --> 04:04:12.120
and inside your thighs the bones, there's the muscle, there's

1733
04:04:12.159 --> 04:04:16.959
the blood, vessels, the ar trees to all this stuff

1734
04:04:17.079 --> 04:04:26.159
that's inside your thighs. I guess sometimes it'd be nice

1735
04:04:26.200 --> 04:04:30.479
if you could actually put your fingers inside your thighs

1736
04:04:31.120 --> 04:04:36.319
and a message, so you can message on the outside,

1737
04:04:36.479 --> 04:04:39.479
of course, and to be able to get deep into

1738
04:04:39.559 --> 04:04:45.040
the muscles, to be able to just message inside your thighs,

1739
04:04:45.879 --> 04:04:54.319
message in the bones of your leg message in all

1740
04:04:54.399 --> 04:05:05.559
the veins. Just gently heaving your thighs, you can move

1741
04:05:05.760 --> 04:05:12.120
down message and the inside your knees, just a message

1742
04:05:12.200 --> 04:05:19.159
in those bones, but with healing fingertips, spreading that healing

1743
04:05:19.399 --> 04:05:30.200
energy deep into the choice your knees. Of course, there's

1744
04:05:30.239 --> 04:05:34.639
the back of your need. You know, the inside crease

1745
04:05:35.680 --> 04:05:43.680
we need is it's a very sensitive area. It feels

1746
04:05:43.760 --> 04:05:47.760
very nice when you stroke it. That might be because

1747
04:05:48.639 --> 04:05:53.600
it's an area that's not really touched very often. It's

1748
04:05:53.760 --> 04:05:57.760
almost like a hidden part, that crease.

1749
04:06:00.040 --> 04:06:00.239
Egg.

1750
04:06:00.399 --> 04:06:07.719
It's almost like a part that has a sensitivity which

1751
04:06:07.799 --> 04:06:18.200
is a little bit different. Of course, it's protected by

1752
04:06:18.280 --> 04:06:29.719
your legs, so you can imagine putting your fingers into

1753
04:06:29.799 --> 04:06:40.239
that crease in your legs, folding between your legs, you

1754
04:06:40.319 --> 04:06:45.159
can just message with your fingertips. Imagine your fingertips going

1755
04:06:45.360 --> 04:06:55.440
inside message in the muscle or tissue. You can of

1756
04:06:55.520 --> 04:07:02.600
course feel the bones of your knees heating through your fingertips.

1757
04:07:10.040 --> 04:07:15.319
And then as you go down to your calf muscles.

1758
04:07:15.719 --> 04:07:17.440
And that's the part i'd like to be able to

1759
04:07:18.280 --> 04:07:25.600
really put my fingertips steam inside my calf muscles, massage

1760
04:07:25.719 --> 04:07:34.799
in every single tissue of that muscle, healing every part,

1761
04:07:40.760 --> 04:07:46.840
and then doing the same for my shins, massage in

1762
04:07:47.719 --> 04:07:54.680
generally stroking the bones, generally stroking them, healing in a

1763
04:07:54.840 --> 04:08:01.959
loving way, because they deserve to be treated as the

1764
04:08:02.120 --> 04:08:06.040
precious bones that they are. Because our legs are so

1765
04:08:06.239 --> 04:08:09.760
precious as in all the other parts of our body,

1766
04:08:12.319 --> 04:08:26.000
and more precious of any jub on the planet. When

1767
04:08:26.040 --> 04:08:27.040
when you start to.

1768
04:08:28.559 --> 04:08:29.440
Think about.

1769
04:08:32.559 --> 04:08:41.399
Your legs in this way, it can change your perspective.

1770
04:08:44.120 --> 04:08:49.879
It might sound a bit a bit silly to start

1771
04:08:49.959 --> 04:08:58.399
with the idea of having love for your legs, showing appreciation.

1772
04:08:59.680 --> 04:09:00.639
Your eyes.

1773
04:09:03.159 --> 04:09:06.799
Want them to be able to put your hands in

1774
04:09:06.959 --> 04:09:15.719
your thighs, massage the muscles and the bones, and to

1775
04:09:15.799 --> 04:09:24.120
get your fingers deep in their releasing all tension, just

1776
04:09:24.239 --> 04:09:33.680
to show how much you care about your legs, how

1777
04:09:33.719 --> 04:09:39.639
much you care for what your legs do for you regularly,

1778
04:09:42.040 --> 04:09:52.239
your knee, your calves, your ankles, the strength of your ankles,

1779
04:09:55.159 --> 04:09:59.760
considering how thin they are compared to the rest of

1780
04:09:59.799 --> 04:10:09.680
your legs, especially your thighs. Yeah, they're so strong, so flexible,

1781
04:10:13.479 --> 04:10:18.719
absolutely amazing things. Ankles are.

1782
04:10:22.360 --> 04:10:24.000
Truly a gift.

1783
04:10:26.000 --> 04:10:35.120
Because of what they do for you, supporting all that weight,

1784
04:10:37.079 --> 04:10:41.520
regardless of how what weight you are, even if you

1785
04:10:41.600 --> 04:10:46.319
only eat ate stone, there's still a lot of weight

1786
04:10:46.600 --> 04:10:53.920
for these little ankles, how a lot heavier than maystone

1787
04:10:55.520 --> 04:11:04.639
double dot. Yeah, of course support my body all the time.

1788
04:11:08.399 --> 04:11:11.399
What they do give off a sigh of relief when

1789
04:11:11.440 --> 04:11:16.639
to sit down, as you've had. My whole legs though

1790
04:11:20.200 --> 04:11:27.559
my feet feet, or circle my toes clap so happy.

1791
04:11:47.360 --> 04:11:56.559
Your legs really are amazing. I don't know that talking

1792
04:11:56.639 --> 04:12:03.000
about talking about your legs is probably possibly among the

1793
04:12:03.079 --> 04:12:11.760
most boring things I've ever heard anyone say. Possibly you're

1794
04:12:11.879 --> 04:12:18.719
boring or not. Everything I said is true. Your legs

1795
04:12:19.399 --> 04:12:39.399
are amazing. Your legs deserve not just respect, They deserve

1796
04:12:39.520 --> 04:12:40.600
to relax.

1797
04:12:41.959 --> 04:12:42.360
Deeply.

1798
04:12:49.639 --> 04:12:52.959
They deserve to take some time out of the day

1799
04:12:55.200 --> 04:13:16.280
to just let go completely. Your legs.

1800
04:13:21.399 --> 04:13:24.440
Really can relax.

1801
04:13:31.719 --> 04:13:35.680
Because the legs are so such a most you know,

1802
04:13:35.920 --> 04:13:41.840
very important part of your body. When you relax your legs,

1803
04:13:41.959 --> 04:13:49.159
the rest of your body also naturally follows in that

1804
04:13:52.920 --> 04:14:05.159
journey of comfort. I feel it in my hips. My

1805
04:14:05.360 --> 04:14:12.680
hips feel really loose and also my lower back as well.

1806
04:14:14.719 --> 04:14:20.440
My lower back really feels it feels stretched, even though

1807
04:14:20.479 --> 04:14:24.120
I'm just sitting in a chair and there's no stretching

1808
04:14:26.840 --> 04:14:30.000
as far as I'm aware that I'm doing. It's almost

1809
04:14:30.040 --> 04:14:33.840
as if the muscles are just relaxed so much that

1810
04:14:33.959 --> 04:14:41.000
there is a natural stretch. As the tension has reduced

1811
04:14:42.399 --> 04:15:01.879
a lot. And I'm now going to count down ten

1812
04:15:02.120 --> 04:15:09.000
downs one, you can continue.

1813
04:15:10.200 --> 04:15:11.000
To fill.

1814
04:15:12.520 --> 04:15:36.719
Wonderfully relaxed ten nine eight, seven, six, five.

1815
04:15:41.120 --> 04:15:45.239
Four three.

1816
04:15:49.040 --> 04:15:53.959
Two one.

1817
04:16:00.079 --> 04:16:00.600
Relax.

1818
04:16:08.520 --> 04:16:12.360
So I'm just going to count down from five down

1819
04:16:12.399 --> 04:16:16.840
to one. And as a countdown, if you just focus

1820
04:16:16.959 --> 04:16:24.879
on the numbers, just the numbers counting down, and notice

1821
04:16:25.799 --> 04:16:28.200
how you feel.

1822
04:16:30.479 --> 04:16:31.639
In this moment.

1823
04:16:33.079 --> 04:16:37.479
As you hear the numbers counting down, knowing that those

1824
04:16:37.639 --> 04:16:50.680
numbers counting down represent you feeling calmer, not just in

1825
04:16:50.799 --> 04:16:59.120
your body, but also relaxing your mind. I'll just notice

1826
04:16:59.200 --> 04:17:05.239
how you feel. There's nothing to do, there's nothing to say,

1827
04:17:05.920 --> 04:17:22.959
there's nothing to think about, starting with number five, four

1828
04:17:32.479 --> 04:17:43.719
three two.

1829
04:17:49.520 --> 04:17:49.760
One.

1830
04:17:59.200 --> 04:18:11.639
And as you notice the gradual letting go the tension

1831
04:18:11.879 --> 04:18:19.000
in your body, you may also begin to notice and

1832
04:18:19.159 --> 04:18:28.159
be aware of how your mind is starting to slow down.

1833
04:18:30.680 --> 04:18:37.000
This is just a natural thing that happens. It's not

1834
04:18:37.239 --> 04:18:42.399
really a special procedure. It's just natural because as your

1835
04:18:43.719 --> 04:18:49.719
body relaxes, your mind also starts to relax, and the

1836
04:18:49.799 --> 04:18:53.440
more your mind relaxes, the more your body relaxes. It's

1837
04:18:53.600 --> 04:19:05.680
just a continuous circle of relaxation. And there's that calmness

1838
04:19:05.879 --> 04:19:13.079
that comes from relative quietness. You know, even even if

1839
04:19:13.120 --> 04:19:20.639
there's background sounds, even your side online is still going

1840
04:19:20.760 --> 04:19:25.760
to be quite calm. You know, you haven't got the

1841
04:19:25.920 --> 04:19:31.079
television on, there's no music in the background, unless you're

1842
04:19:31.120 --> 04:19:38.639
listening to the recorded with music. Of course, you're very

1843
04:19:38.879 --> 04:19:40.760
likely not going to be sitting in a room with

1844
04:19:40.840 --> 04:19:45.639
other people. Of course you might be, but generally it's

1845
04:19:46.360 --> 04:19:48.559
more ideal if you can do this on your own,

1846
04:19:50.280 --> 04:20:00.360
so no distractions, and when you stop thinking about stuff,

1847
04:20:06.920 --> 04:20:17.200
relaxation automatically rises. A sense of comfort starts to grow,

1848
04:20:21.719 --> 04:20:28.360
and without trying to build it up into something fantastical

1849
04:20:28.799 --> 04:20:40.520
or something magical, this is just a natural process, something

1850
04:20:40.680 --> 04:20:51.680
that's easy to accomplish. In fact, it's almost the sense

1851
04:20:51.760 --> 04:20:58.559
of relaxing completely happens really when you put no effort

1852
04:20:58.920 --> 04:21:02.799
into it. It's not something that you can really force

1853
04:21:05.399 --> 04:21:14.799
it's something that happens naturally, and part of the process

1854
04:21:15.200 --> 04:21:26.399
of this recording and others is simply two allow you

1855
04:21:28.799 --> 04:21:32.760
to take advantage of this space.

1856
04:21:35.440 --> 04:21:48.399
This time, it's just let go, to just be here,

1857
04:21:49.879 --> 04:21:50.159
to be.

1858
04:21:50.760 --> 04:22:04.159
In tune with how you feel, yet with the intention

1859
04:22:06.399 --> 04:22:17.879
of wanting to relax deeply and maybe even to fall asleep,

1860
04:22:19.040 --> 04:22:24.719
depending on what it is that you wish for yourself.

1861
04:22:25.959 --> 04:22:26.760
In this moment.

1862
04:22:33.760 --> 04:22:43.120
As we know, relaxing is the majority of the process

1863
04:22:43.239 --> 04:22:48.399
of falling asleep. The actual falling asleep part is the

1864
04:22:48.559 --> 04:22:56.360
tiny bit at the end. The deeper relaxed you become,

1865
04:23:00.280 --> 04:23:17.959
the easier you find yourself drifting. But you can also

1866
04:23:18.159 --> 04:23:28.200
if you choose stay focused on my voice and really

1867
04:23:28.639 --> 04:23:53.399
enjoy the process, gradually relaxing each muscle.

1868
04:23:57.639 --> 04:23:58.680
In your body.

1869
04:24:03.440 --> 04:24:32.559
Effortlessly and just observing the sensation of letting go completely.

1870
04:24:38.639 --> 04:24:42.639
This time, I'm gonna count from six down to one,

1871
04:24:47.479 --> 04:24:56.680
and you can notice your mind calming down more with

1872
04:24:57.079 --> 04:25:50.040
each number. Hear me say, naturally, feel calm, sory, peaceful, sex, five.

1873
04:26:09.840 --> 04:28:12.159
Four, four, being aware of.

1874
04:28:15.000 --> 04:28:31.040
How your mind slowed right down, sinking deeply into relaxation

1875
04:28:44.959 --> 04:28:53.920
as you focus on your mind. I noticed that there

1876
04:28:53.959 --> 04:29:04.360
are some thoughts still there, Maybe some stubborn thoughts for

1877
04:29:04.520 --> 04:29:09.879
some reason perhaps need your attention.

1878
04:29:16.760 --> 04:29:18.120
That's what you can do is.

1879
04:29:23.680 --> 04:29:36.200
Send love to those thoughts. Sprinkle those thoughts with love

1880
04:29:37.920 --> 04:29:44.120
my door petals from a flower. Just sprinkle over the petals,

1881
04:29:44.159 --> 04:29:51.360
feel good love towards those thoughts, to let those thoughts

1882
04:29:51.600 --> 04:29:55.760
know that you're not abandon a number.

1883
04:29:57.079 --> 04:29:58.559
You just need them.

1884
04:30:00.120 --> 04:30:15.639
Quiet to just calm down, slow down, quiet down for now,

1885
04:30:23.559 --> 04:30:28.559
so as you focus on those remaining thoughts. As a

1886
04:30:28.719 --> 04:30:34.760
countdown this time from seven down to one. With each number,

1887
04:30:37.799 --> 04:30:50.319
just imagine sprinkling those flower petals of love, kindness, gratitude

1888
04:30:53.559 --> 04:31:03.479
over those thoughts will allow them to just not away

1889
04:31:05.079 --> 04:31:19.079
relax deeply. With every number, those thoughts would become more

1890
04:31:23.159 --> 04:33:44.680
and more relaxed. Starting if number seven, six, five, four, h.

1891
04:34:01.639 --> 04:34:02.439
Let you now.

1892
04:34:06.599 --> 04:34:27.799
Notice how relaxed your feeling in your body. We got

1893
04:34:27.919 --> 04:34:41.560
to focus on your hands, because the more relaxed your

1894
04:34:41.759 --> 04:35:03.959
hands are, the more relaxed your body and mind. Don yes,

1895
04:35:05.759 --> 04:35:16.799
you focus on your hands, your fingers if nothing needed

1896
04:35:17.040 --> 04:35:22.520
to be done. It's like clenching the fists or death

1897
04:35:22.799 --> 04:35:24.200
and the fingers.

1898
04:35:23.799 --> 04:35:24.799
Right into my hand.

1899
04:35:32.000 --> 04:35:45.279
It's just like to say, focus on your hands, not

1900
04:35:45.479 --> 04:36:07.479
a simarly feel. Because the more relax your hands feel,

1901
04:36:11.000 --> 04:36:23.360
I can't why your mind feels more comfort feel throughout

1902
04:36:23.680 --> 04:36:24.279
your body.

1903
04:36:30.200 --> 04:36:33.319
Gee, they.

1904
04:36:35.599 --> 04:37:18.720
Have already noticed your mind is starting to dress. Said

1905
04:37:22.799 --> 04:37:37.439
just on your hands and inguious a man and chexperience.

1906
04:37:40.119 --> 04:37:47.520
How real deepening of that relaxation in your hands and

1907
04:37:47.840 --> 04:37:59.880
fingers or relaxed.

1908
04:38:04.319 --> 04:38:17.599
With each number eight down to one.

1909
04:38:22.720 --> 04:38:32.240
Lowest few and healing relax in the gy spread it

1910
04:38:33.479 --> 04:38:54.360
into your hands and fingers, becoming relaxing with each number.

1911
04:39:00.959 --> 04:39:01.759
Going down.

1912
04:39:03.840 --> 04:39:47.200
I hate down, drift down, lifted. The king started wist.

1913
04:40:12.240 --> 04:43:24.000
Seven three, just being here now.

1914
04:43:27.520 --> 04:43:33.560
Nothing to think about, nothing to do, nothing to say,

1915
04:43:37.759 --> 04:43:41.560
and everything just feels calm.

1916
04:43:46.560 --> 04:43:53.880
This is your natural state to be in. This is

1917
04:43:54.119 --> 04:43:56.360
how you just normally.

1918
04:43:56.479 --> 04:43:59.639
If you'll take away.

1919
04:44:01.000 --> 04:44:03.560
That unstopped.

1920
04:44:05.080 --> 04:44:05.799
We add.

1921
04:44:07.799 --> 04:44:18.759
That stress of wonky thick anxiety.

1922
04:44:23.560 --> 04:44:29.279
Chip thinking about So take that away.

1923
04:44:32.240 --> 04:44:32.439
Now.

1924
04:44:38.880 --> 04:44:50.080
He left with a real sense of insults which comes

1925
04:44:50.279 --> 04:44:59.720
to very quickly. His eyes pleads, just I fear.

1926
04:45:04.240 --> 04:45:06.959
Feeling and confidence.

1927
04:45:10.599 --> 04:45:15.639
Most if you got inside some found a special place.

1928
04:45:17.040 --> 04:45:29.520
Where is pat place sweet in the film.

1929
04:45:30.720 --> 04:45:32.439
Relaxed in your.

1930
04:45:35.040 --> 04:45:50.479
Sense confidence place sweet, bea accept yourself who you are,

1931
04:45:53.040 --> 04:45:58.959
the place where you're going to please in the audios

1932
04:46:03.919 --> 04:46:14.159
place way can actually not just loving yourself in some

1933
04:46:14.319 --> 04:46:17.040
ways more importantly, you can like.

1934
04:46:17.319 --> 04:46:34.400
Yourself appreciate that sense of gratitude.

1935
04:46:37.479 --> 04:46:51.479
See the air around that's all some place where can

1936
04:46:51.639 --> 04:46:53.279
actually feel.

1937
04:46:54.680 --> 04:46:58.479
A heathing energy soaking.

1938
04:46:58.360 --> 04:47:07.599
Into your body, healing energy.

1939
04:47:08.279 --> 04:47:20.319
Soaking into your body. A healing energy spreads through your face,

1940
04:47:24.240 --> 04:47:24.720
travel it.

1941
04:47:25.240 --> 04:47:31.080
Each every single part of your body.

1942
04:47:37.200 --> 04:47:41.599
You start to realize to actually a healing energy.

1943
04:47:44.040 --> 04:47:50.439
It's not just entered into your brain, It's become part

1944
04:47:51.000 --> 04:47:52.119
of your brain.

1945
04:47:57.240 --> 04:47:59.159
The spiral fluid.

1946
04:48:01.439 --> 04:48:09.439
Is now next to the energy. I'm just.

1947
04:48:11.560 --> 04:48:15.720
Allowing you to feel so much more relaxed.

1948
04:48:17.279 --> 04:48:18.479
And healthy.

1949
04:48:19.599 --> 04:48:26.000
In this moment. I'm also.

1950
04:48:28.560 --> 04:48:31.400
We start to realize and actually.

1951
04:48:33.520 --> 04:48:43.159
What's happening now that here relaxing energy spreading through your body.

1952
04:48:45.080 --> 04:48:47.799
It's actually changing your life.

1953
04:48:53.000 --> 04:48:58.080
It's actually changing the way you're going to feel, not

1954
04:48:58.360 --> 04:49:05.720
just now, but tomorrow and the next day. Use your

1955
04:49:05.880 --> 04:49:13.919
health improves, not just your physical health, but your mental health.

1956
04:49:17.880 --> 04:49:23.040
Things that used to bother you in the past, for

1957
04:49:23.240 --> 04:49:29.279
some reason, no longer have the effect to the easter

1958
04:49:32.400 --> 04:49:43.959
because something has changed deeper within you. Maybe things the

1959
04:49:44.200 --> 04:49:54.240
east to cause you to feel anger no longer heaven

1960
04:49:55.000 --> 04:50:04.240
that power to control where they seem to be able

1961
04:50:04.319 --> 04:50:15.279
to before less. You realize that you're the one who

1962
04:50:15.439 --> 04:50:24.639
decides what affects you, Your.

1963
04:50:25.159 --> 04:50:33.319
One who decides to feel relaxed and can't.

1964
04:50:34.599 --> 04:50:36.759
When you choose.

1965
04:50:40.040 --> 04:50:40.720
To enjoy.

1966
04:50:42.279 --> 04:50:57.799
Noticing these natural developments, the healing continue to grow and

1967
04:50:58.000 --> 04:51:01.840
improve your life day by day.

1968
04:51:07.680 --> 04:51:11.159
You pled courserability.

1969
04:51:12.040 --> 04:51:27.159
To relax so much easier. Sleep here it's the most

1970
04:51:27.439 --> 04:51:37.720
natural thing in the world to you because fall in

1971
04:51:37.799 --> 04:51:44.479
the sleep is something that you've done so many times

1972
04:51:46.240 --> 04:51:53.959
in your life. You know that you're as we all

1973
04:51:54.080 --> 04:52:08.360
work with the ability to fall asleep, lecture that ability

1974
04:52:11.759 --> 04:52:26.479
just drift are too deep healing sleep even when the kids.

1975
04:52:28.159 --> 04:52:30.880
Sometimes you will fall asleep or dat you don't want

1976
04:52:31.000 --> 04:52:37.680
to shut think to stay awake. Maybe it's birthday in

1977
04:52:37.720 --> 04:52:41.479
the morning, or it's Christmas or holiday or.

1978
04:52:41.520 --> 04:52:44.439
Something I look forward to that might go to sleep.

1979
04:52:46.720 --> 04:52:51.639
But the more you want to stay awake, the more

1980
04:52:51.880 --> 04:52:59.439
would you start to drift, and the more you find

1981
04:53:01.080 --> 04:53:03.759
we might still be something drifted a sleep.

1982
04:53:05.880 --> 04:53:16.959
The people are strong without drifting becomes because we're born

1983
04:53:17.919 --> 04:53:23.799
not just with the need to relax deeply and to

1984
04:53:23.959 --> 04:53:33.799
actually fall asleep. But it's our birthright, it's part of

1985
04:53:33.919 --> 04:53:44.560
our DNA. And sometimes as we get older in life,

1986
04:53:45.919 --> 04:53:57.560
perhaps at times we have thought in the relaxing completely.

1987
04:53:59.319 --> 04:53:59.840
It's not a.

1988
04:54:01.680 --> 04:54:04.880
Wonderfully pleasant experience.

1989
04:54:10.720 --> 04:54:26.840
It's also really easy. It's very very easy.

1990
04:54:28.439 --> 04:54:28.759
They go.

1991
04:54:30.799 --> 04:54:31.919
Because that's what it is.

1992
04:54:32.080 --> 04:54:32.560
It's just.

1993
04:54:36.000 --> 04:54:48.000
Decided until that came. When you press the play button

1994
04:54:50.279 --> 04:54:57.840
on my recordings, you have given her permission for my

1995
04:54:58.119 --> 04:55:07.799
voice to reaction. That's not play button. You will give

1996
04:55:07.959 --> 04:55:24.240
me permission for my words to effect be positive a

1997
04:55:24.439 --> 04:55:42.560
positive way. My Pio mind useful.

1998
04:55:43.599 --> 04:55:45.400
And he.

1999
04:55:47.319 --> 04:56:03.200
Suggestions that you have such a ways and effect who

2000
04:56:03.560 --> 04:56:15.599
you feel right now as well as those changes the

2001
04:56:15.919 --> 04:56:29.119
continue long after the recording as those changes within it

2002
04:56:29.240 --> 04:56:46.200
seems to flourish and plansform your life in positive, beautiful way.

2003
04:56:49.240 --> 04:56:56.959
Allowed to move fold in your life in the direction

2004
04:56:57.279 --> 04:57:20.319
of the natures. So this SpeI can experience of safety, comicate,

2005
04:57:21.279 --> 04:57:42.680
promiss such a putt place.

2006
04:57:43.279 --> 04:57:43.560
To be.

2007
04:57:51.680 --> 04:57:56.279
That doesn't sit, promus the.

2008
04:58:20.439 --> 04:58:34.680
Physical, listen than juice.

2009
04:58:37.520 --> 04:58:45.319
Schools us.

2010
04:59:05.560 --> 04:59:06.319
What were you do