May 23, 2025

(music) (5 hours) Q&A Friday | LMBYTS #1358 | 23rd May 2025

(music) (5 hours) Q&A Friday | LMBYTS #1358 | 23rd May 2025
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Hello, and welcome to Jasonnewland dot com. And this is

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Q and A Friday. Bla la la la la lulu. Yeah, Hi, Hi,

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So my name is Adjason new Land. Please only listen

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when you can safely close your eyes.

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Right.

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It's one fifty five pm in the afternoon on Friday,

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the twenty third of Moy two thousand and five, No,

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two thousand and fifth, twenty twenty five. Wow, So nineteen

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ninety five, oh five, fifty thirty years ago, and now

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I'm just thinking it's weird. I've got these memories of

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stuff that happened thirty years ago, and I'm just like,

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how can it really be thirty years ago? Right? So

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it's Q and A Friday. It's all right. Outside, it's

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it's a bit. It's kind of glum and bright, a

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little bit of both today out there. It's not cold,

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it's yeah, there was a lot of activity. It disbuilded

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last night, a lot of door slamming, like you know,

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till early hours. I'm not quite sure what that was about,

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but I'm up here, so I didn't. I wasn't getting involved.

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I think it just might have just been a lot

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of a lot of traffic. Perhaps maybe maybe you look

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a bit of traffic. Oh that's nice sort of plane

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to come over while I'm doing this. How pleasant. So

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I've got a message on my Facebook group or my

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Facebook group Jason Newlands Boring Group. You can find a

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link to that group by going to Jasonnewland dot com

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and it's literally right at the top. It's a banner

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at the top of the page. Join Jason Newland's Boring Group.

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Can click on that and it takes you straight there.

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I wonder what it is on the Facebook page, on

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the the on the phone. Yeah, they're both together as well,

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but side by side, and I'll take you straight to

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the page and you can join.

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You can join.

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So I had a message from Claire Clara Claire. I'm

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not sure if I'm pronouncing that right. Clairakloa, who heard

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my name on your podcast. Thank you for the welcome.

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You're welcome. Thank you for welcoming the welcome. I did

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do a recording yesterday. It was number one thousand, three

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hundred and fifty seven. That's weird. Got a fly A fly.

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I don't know if it's the same fly. It must

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be a different fly. It's weird because I just had

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Vinnie on my not on my lap, but to the

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left of me, as I was sitting down with my

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feet up and I was watching a boxing YouTube channel,

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and then he was asleep, and suddenly he just reached

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up and snapped out a fly. It's like one of

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those movies with those plants that move really quick, except

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shape as a jack russell. He's been a bit weird today,

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no more weird than any other time. A bit stroge.

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So what I'm going to do? H I've got six? Nope,

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I haven't got There's a bird outside that goes like that.

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I hope that wasn't too loud, so I thought it

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was one of the neighbors. So he used to have

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a neighbor that lived over the fence that he used

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to squawk like a pigeon. But early in the morning.

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I'm talking like six in the morning, five six in

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the morning, four in the morning, it'd be like doing

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that noise. He was a bit of a a character,

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this one. He doesn't live around here anymore, but I

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remember once he was my neighbor who lived the other

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side of the built of the block where he lived.

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I knew him, and he was like he was a friend,

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and he said he got woken up at about five

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in the morning someone was outside his bedroom window, bearing

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in mind he lived upstairs, okay, these were like studio apartments,

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and he looked outside and it was the neighbor from

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downstairs on a ladder, painting his window frame pink. No

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apparent reason, just decided it would be a good idea.

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That didn't end. Well, it's just that I don't think

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it was the choice of color. But you can't. First

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of all, these frames are not wooden, they're like double

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blazing frames, so it can't really be painting them, I

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don't think, and I'm not sure the counsel like that.

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Another thing he did is he would spend like he's

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got tight. He had a tight little bit of grass

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in front or out the back, like a tiny little

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bit of grass that was kind of his little area.

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And I'm talking very small, very small little. Do you

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think of the smallest garden, the half of it half

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that you know, it's really tiny little. He would spend

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all day long mowing it. I mean you could literally

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probably cut it with scissors now scissors. In about half

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that time he was I don't know, it was just

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on pills, and he'd be doing it all day. Had

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another one lived over there. These are people who live

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over the fence. It's a different world over there. This bloke,

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he doesn't live there anymore either. He used to have

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palettes delivered, wooden palettes, like from a lorry. It'd have

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a big pile delivered, and it did this in the summer.

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I think. Yeah, so basically spend so this big, massive

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pile of palettes, wooden palettes. It's spend all day breaking

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them up with an axe, which was very noisy ausse.

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I'm sure you can imagine all day long, and then

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the evening they have a bonfire. And that was his

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routine for the whole of the summer. So's noise all day,

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smoke all night. And bonfires, however lovely they may be,

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you know, are like a nice bonfire, but it's not great.

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I think bonfires are better in the winter because in

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the summer, I don't know about you, but I kind

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of liked to have my windows open. Probably need to

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have my windows open, like in the winter, in the

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in the evening, in the evening in the summer, and

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that's not ideal to have smoke coming in. But and

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it's a different kind of smoke, isn't it bonfire smoke?

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I remember I was at a bonfire, and it's a

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place that I lived. This is the Buddhist community, and

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it was this fire, and there was a big like

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meeting together and giving one I suppose, like a party

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kind of thing, as much of a party as Buddhists

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can do. And I didn't even notice it until the

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next day. Every item of clothing that I'd worn that

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evening stunk like really bad. But I didn't notice the

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smaller smoke when I was out there because I wasn't

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even you know, I was avoiding the smoke. I was

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just near the fire, but you know, I wouldn't like

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stand there or sit there and then smoke pumping into me. Yeah,

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but quite smelly.

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Yeah.

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I had some strange had a fantasist living over there

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as well, a different bloke. Gossip said all gossip, isn't

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it here? He was unusual character, he's I mean, he

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was in all the national papers. He was quite famous.

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I couldn't believe it, but I got one right of

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them actually, but it was just one day. I'll do it.

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I could write a book. My name used to say

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that I could write a Guinness Book of Records of

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everything I've done, been through, and I'm thinking about ourself

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that I could write a book just about the neighbors.

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I'd have to be very careful of see not to

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name any of them. But I don't think you'd even

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believe even ten percent of what I've seen and heard

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and experienced since I've lived here, and not just here,

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but all the other places I've lived, all the different

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houses I've shared. Wow, Seriously, you'd think I was making

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it up, and I probably would be. That's the problem.

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So I've got Mike. These are the people that have

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left me questions for today. So the very beginning, I'm

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going to mention everyone's name, so you know that I

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have answered your question, maybe not very well, but I've

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at least attempted. So first of all was Mike. Then

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it's Ben, Cindy Hope, but I will mention Hope that

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she didn't actually ask the question, but it's part of

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the Cindy's question. And then Alie Oh Hope, yep, Pope's

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got a difference. She's got a question as well. And Sandy,

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So Sandy Hope, Ali, Cindy, Ben, and Mike. Yeah, So

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it's one, two, three, four, five, six questions, And I

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hope that those are who asked the questions, those you

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have asked the questions, and when you hear the answers,

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I hope it's it's everything you hoped it would be.

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I'm just I don't know what I'm going to say,

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because you know I don't always tell the truth. So

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I'll try a little bit, okay. So Sebastian has mentioned

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b in another cover which he likes to do. I

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want to meet you at the beach tonight. What, as

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Sebastian wrote Jason. Maybe he even wants to go to

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a hotel room every hour. Sebastian sends me another message

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he loves going on his AI things and if he

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sees a picture that is he just if you can

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see a way to make fun of me, he does.

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Right here we go. Mike has asked, as I was

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falling asleep last night to the Schools episode Schools, I

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was at the boring, the boring, Monday's boring thing. I

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think I was wondering how much you plan out what

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you're going to say? Do you develop an outline or

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do you just jump in and wing it? Does your

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mind ever go blank and you find yourself at a

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loss for words. Right, Well, with the I'll talk just

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about the let Me Boy the Sleep recordings because with

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the occasionally I will work out what I'm roughly going

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to say. With the if I do a hypnosis recording,

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although nine see nine percent of all my hypnosis recordings

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that are being just me talking off the top of

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my head, and the only preparation would be maybe having

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a concept. So if it was a relaxation technique, for example,

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and Le'd say it involved a biscuits in, I don't

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know why it would involve a biscuit tin. So I'm

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saying I want to have a biscuit tin, and I'm

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gonna crumble up all the biscuits and just shake the

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biscuits and then make some holes in the biscuits in

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at the bottom and just shake them and watch those

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biscuit drops just filtered down, and as as they fall

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to filtered down and fall out the bottom of the

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biscuits in, you know, you feel more relaxed and calmer.

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Something like that. It's just sounds rubbish. It sounds a

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bit crummy. So with the let Me Boy to Sleep,

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the most I do regarding preparation for most of them

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would be just to think about a subject. A lot

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of the times, when it comes to let's say Monday's

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boring objects, I don't know. Usually I don't know what

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I'm going to talk about until I start. I wasn't

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going to talk about I don't think I was even

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going to talk about schools when I I first started

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that recording with the Trivia Tuesday, yeah, I do. That's

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much more planned as far as you know. Look up

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the trivia bits and yes, there's a little bit more

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planning than that. And with the Q and A Fridays,

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of course, I had the questions in front of me,

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so in a sense, you plan what I'm going to

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talk about. But outside of that, no, I don't know.

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So when I didn't, I had a little skip through

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the questions before I started this, but I got no

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idea what I'm going to say until I say it.

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With the School's episode, for example, I ended up talking

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about school, so I just went with it. I don't

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have any kind of outline or structure for what I'm

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going to talk about pretty much ever, other than when

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it's a if it's a trivia one, the structure is

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just reading out the trivia the trivia's while thinking about

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something to talk about, and then focused on that subject

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and finding the trivia bits of information and maybe commenting

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on it. So it's organized, but not really Q and

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A Friday.

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It's just.

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I just answer, just honestly ish if I can. But

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generally no, I don't. I don't have any idea what

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I'm going to talk about. I mean sometimes I don't.

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It's not that I my mind never really goes blank.

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It did. That is actually it's not totally true. I mean,

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I know I am my hero to a lot of

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you out there altogether, there's a hero if you look

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inside your pants, right, And I like, I quite like

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the idea that it is. I thought the way that

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the recording has come out that it would seem like

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they were just pretty much adlict, because they are. It's

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just me just talking. I didn't I didn't think they

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seemed very structured. I mean, a Q and A Friday

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is kind of structured in a sense of I'm just

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answering questions. So there is a degree of structure. And

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if I focus on let's say a boring object, the

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only structure Okay, there is a structure with that in

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the sense of I choose a subject. So let's say,

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if I choose mobile phones for an example, as a subject,

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I will have that little reminder in my head to

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bring the subject back mobile phones. So when I'm starting

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to talk about dolphins and you know, tree houses and

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stuff like that, then I realize, what We've got to

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bring it back to mobile phones. So I managed to

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bring it back. I don't generally have that little voice

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in my head when I do just a general recording.

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And also even when I do the let's say a

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sleep normal sleep recording, if you want to call it hypnosis,

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a body scam, whatever. Even if I have an idea

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of something that I'm going to discuss, so maybe I

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decided I'm just going to focus on each part of

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the body and imagine the wind is just blowing through

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that part of the body. And then when I get

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to start the recording, I might change my mind and

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decide to say the word relax five times or something

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like that with each time, you know, whereas you focus

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on each part of the body or you know, So

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it's not I kind of wish I was more structured,

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but I think if I was more structured, i'd be

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I probably I've got more chance of being successful possibly

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if I was structured, But at the same time, I

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wouldn't be able to produce as many recordings as I

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do because struct for me, structure reduces I'm not going

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to say reduces creativity, but quite for me it does

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a little bit. I like the idea of being able

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to not know what I'm going to say because it

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amuses me then and I'm kind of interested in what

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I'm going to say next because I never know what

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I'm going to, what subject I'm going to end up

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talking about, or what direction I'm going to traveling. I

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really don't know. Now. Occasionally it's not so much that

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I find myself a loss for words, but occasionally, and

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this is true, I'm telling you, this is Mike. I'm

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telling you this, Mike is very true. And I did

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one recently.

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I do.

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I do recording and I'm just in a rotten mood.

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But I didn't realize until I started the recording, and

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I have to stop occasionally. I've done the whole recording

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and just trashed it. The other day I started I

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think I was try to do a trivia Tuesday, and

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I I like nah, I tried I think four different

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attempts to try to do it, and it wasn't the

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right day. So yeah, I just I abandoned it. Which

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is kind of weird because sometimes I might not feel

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in the mood to do recorded, but once I start

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the recording, I cheer up, and when I've completed the recording,

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I feel good like I've actually accomplished something, like I've

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contributed something to the world in my little way. But

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sometimes it's just a no go. As far as a

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loss for words, I think, if I'm in if I'm

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talking to human, yeah I'm not Mike, I'm not saying

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you're not human, don't ever go at me. What I think.

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If I was face to face with one person I

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had this, this would be I mean, I think the

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reason why it is easier because there's no interruption. There's

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nothing interrupting my stream of thoughts. If if this is

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a conversation, then I would have to stop talking and

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it'd just be a different process because in order to

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get to some of the I guess more weird things

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that come out of my mouth, it takes a bit

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of traveling, It takes a bit of I need to

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like just let go, just you know, be free without

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I was gonna say without censoring myself, but you know

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what I do, I don't sense myself. But in the end,

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I kind of do a little bit, but I generally don't. Generally.

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Occasionally I said something and I edit it out and

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I think, no, it's like no, and you might be thinking, yeah,

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but you said something the other day and didn't edit

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that out. What kind of stuff do you edit out?

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What it's like? What I know, I'll just you got it. Well,

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you haven't got to remember, but you could maybe you

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think that. Yeah, sometimes I leave stuff in It makes

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me laugh. I know it might sound strange, but I've

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just I just sometimes find things funny, and even when

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I listen back to it, it just makes me giggle because

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it's just so ridiculous. I like absurd, I do. I

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like absurd, and but I like I like everything I

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like so well, anything that makes me laugh I like.

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And I lost for words. No, there's a freedom. This

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is freedom for me. This is the only time I

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feel free is when I can just talk and I

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can just be me. And I think I've found my

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voice over the last eight years, which might sound weird

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because it's a long period of time. Is it seven

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How many years? Is it seven years? Not eight years?

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Is it seven years? Seven years? Sorry, since I've been

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doing since twenty eighteen, since I've been doing these, let

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me boy to sleep or lumbits, lumbits, lumbits bites. Yeah,

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since something doing these, I think I've discovered my voice.

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At the same time, I realized, I'm I'm not a

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bad person, really, just you know, stuff I come out with.

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I'm not out to cause anyone problems. I don't really

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have any I don't really have much in a way

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of extreme views. I never really wanted to have extreme views.

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You know, I grew up in a society in the seventies.

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You know, I was born in nineteen seventies, So I

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went through the seventies where there was a lot of

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extreme views around to do with well every single aspect

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of life really, and as I got older, you know,

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once I kind of reached I mean, it still went

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on through the eighties as well, but as I started

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to get older, I realized that these views that I

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had weren't my views, and I started to do something

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about it. Started to educate myself a bit, and by

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educate myself. I mean, just just read and listen, read

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other people's opinions. I think that can be educating. So

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if you've got one side of the argument and that's

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the only side of the argument you ever hear, it's

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going to kind of make sense, especially if you're a

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kid and you've grown up with that. But then if

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you see the other side of the argument, it can

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be like, it could be annoying, it can be difficult

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to hear. But then if you see another part of

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the argument from a different perspective, and then again from

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another perspective, And the more perspective you get, the I

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think the more educated I became realizing that it is

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opinions and perspective and experiences people. You know, we've all

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got different experiences, and it's yeah, I'm not not really

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into the extremest things, and it is I can't neighbor.

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It's proper, proper right wing always shouting on about it.

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And they it's like it's almost like they've they read

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the sun and that's where they get their their opinions from.

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That's where they get their information from, and everything's kind

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of based around It's like no new knowledge is going

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to go in because they've got that fixed, that fixed mentality,

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that that model that's there. I realized this has got

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nothing to do with the question, is it, But yeah,

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for me, yeah I do. I'm trying to explain that

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sometimes I do have a loss for words, but not

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really genery, not in this not for this podcast. I'm

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hm hmm. I mean there are better days. Some days.

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I guess I'm probably a bit more upbeat than others.

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I try not to be. I try not to. I

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try to keep it light if I can, but it's

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not always, not always easy, you know. But at the

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same time, this isn't therapy for me. I'm not talking

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to help myself therapeutically, or though it might be helping me,

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maybe you'd be helping other people in some ways to

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hear someone talking. And you know, if I don't really

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mention my mental health, travels, journeys, whatever you want to

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call it, over the last fifty years, you know, fifty

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odd years, I don't really go into it too much detail,

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but I think maybe for some people would look at this,

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look at where I am now, and I'm doing all

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right all things considered. You know, I'm still here. According

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to some of the messages I get. I'm helping people

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and I'm doing something positive with my time. And I

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mean my psychologist said this to me because I remember

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saying this is years ago. She said, can you put

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your trouser back on? Please? Like she said, didn't he

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What do you want? You want a treat? O gotta go,

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And I'm not gonna go. You can hear me. I'm

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just gonna go and get the treat out of the packet,

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all right? All right, here we go. How did that

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get on the law? Will you stop checking my stuff

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on the floor?

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Wow?

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I wait?

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So I've got this good boy chewy chicken twists with

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one hundred natural chicken breast meat, promotes dental hygiene and

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a complimentary pet food. Did you hear what you said?

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He said, I don't care what it says on the packet,

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just give me it. All right. Well, I'm trying to

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open it. He's sitting on both his He's basically sitting

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on his bum with his hands in the air, like

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just there you go. I'm not sure if he learned

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to do that, or if he was taught it, or

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I don't know if he just did it because he's

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always done it since I've had him, but he was

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ten months old and I got him right. So that's that.

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Uh yeah, I' a psychologist. And this is probably eight

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nine years ago, she said to me, because I said, well,

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I don't feel that I'm really helping society. I'm not

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help I'm not contributing. That's it. I'm not contributing to

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society being at home and not going to work or whatever.

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And she said, yeah, but society is not just your

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local area. Society is not just your country. Society is

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the world, isn't it. Society is everywhere. And I said,

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what are you talking about? She said, I don't know.

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I'm just trying to make you feel better. I said,

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it's because it's Friday afternoon. You're just waiting to go home.

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She said, yeah, I just we should stop talking. I said, well,

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we can have a cup tea if you want. You

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said no, I don't trust your tea, so I'm not

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going to put anything in it. She said, that's a problem.

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An empty cup is no good, does not quention my

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first I said it was a silly conversation, but I

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just said, ah, I didn't think about it really like that.

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She said, well, you got people listening. I mean, if

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you forget the world, you've got people listening in this

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country just because no one's listening locally. I said, yeah,

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got a few. I suppose a few thousand around the

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country that listen. She said, there you go.

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So for.

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So, I guess in a way I am. From then on,

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I kind of thought, maybe I saw a little bit differently.

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I am contributing to society in my own little way,

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in my own weird way. So yeah, and maybe if

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someone's listening, if they're like, you're very young maybe or

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I don't have to be young, but they might be listening.

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They might have a biopile or a personality disorder, some

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kind of mental health issue, and wondering like what's going

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to become of them and how they're going to get,

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how they're gonna you know, what's it like to Is

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it even possible to be like that and be in

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your thirties and forties and fifties, And yeah, it is possible.

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I'm proof of that. I was going to say living proof,

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but I don't know if I have to say a

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word of living considering I'm talking. I just heard this

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weird sound outside in the garden, and I didn't know

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what it was, so I just had a little look,

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and it's a man. Looks like he's washing the windows,

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which I'm kind of a little bit confused because but

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these are downstairs windows. Now, I know we have people

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wash the communal windows, but I've never had anyone washing

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my actual windows from outside, not in ten years i've

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lived there. So I've closed on windows just in case

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he's gonna wash them. Literally, I've got us. It's nominally

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joking it. I've got cobwebs that have been outside my window.

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I can't reach them to wash them, been out there

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for it's so long. If you get a magnifying glass,

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you can actually see one in a like a little

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rocking chair, smoking a pipe, another one knitting because the

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spiders is because they're so old. That would work on

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some level. I'm sure she needs a bit of rewriting.

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And Ben, when you were young and your dad collected

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you all again, did you have any pets? Right? So

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this is referring to when I left the children's home

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at seven, just before I was seven, the summer before

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I was seven? Why do I say summer so loudly?

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And in nineteen seventy seven it was. It was literally

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I think we moved there and Elvis passed away. That was.

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It was that kind of period. I remember that day

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because it rained so hard, and I mean, this was

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nineteen seventy seven. This is when summers lasted for like

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00:38:49.000 --> 00:38:54.400
it's for seemingly for weeks. I mean, whether they did

472
00:38:54.480 --> 00:38:59.920
or not, I don't know, but we definitely seventy five,

473
00:39:00.199 --> 00:39:04.000
seventy six, seventy seven we had some pretty long hot

474
00:39:04.039 --> 00:39:11.119
summers in the UK, and I remember walking I don't know,

475
00:39:11.239 --> 00:39:14.519
I think we were walking back from the beach and

476
00:39:14.559 --> 00:39:18.039
it pelted down and I've not said the word pelted

477
00:39:18.079 --> 00:39:24.199
for a long time, pelted down with rain, like really,

478
00:39:24.280 --> 00:39:29.199
we were all soaked through. Now, bearing in mind I

479
00:39:29.360 --> 00:39:33.159
was tiny and probably three drain three rain drops probably

480
00:39:33.199 --> 00:39:37.440
would have been enough to half wet me anyway. And

481
00:39:40.960 --> 00:39:42.880
you know a good thing about it is whenever it

482
00:39:42.960 --> 00:39:45.199
rained that hard, I just wet myself because I didn't

483
00:39:45.199 --> 00:39:47.559
it didn't matter. I could do a wee reading my

484
00:39:47.639 --> 00:39:54.559
pants and no one would know. Made a mistake one day, though,

485
00:39:55.079 --> 00:39:57.559
because it started to rain really hard and the top

486
00:39:57.559 --> 00:40:00.800
of me started getting completely drenched, I thought, okay, good,

487
00:40:00.840 --> 00:40:03.519
I can go to the toilet and it stopped raining.

488
00:40:05.599 --> 00:40:09.559
Not a good look. Not a good look at all.

489
00:40:11.719 --> 00:40:14.199
And other than that, I mean, it's not the only

490
00:40:14.239 --> 00:40:17.880
bad thing about it. The job interview didn't go very

491
00:40:17.880 --> 00:40:22.519
well either, Do do Do Do Do do? See. I

492
00:40:22.559 --> 00:40:26.920
was on the way to a job interview. I'm pretending

493
00:40:26.920 --> 00:40:29.679
I was still a kid, but Sally, I was on

494
00:40:29.719 --> 00:40:32.320
my way to job interview, and it rained, and I

495
00:40:32.480 --> 00:40:35.239
weed myself and I went into the job interview, and

496
00:40:35.679 --> 00:40:38.760
he thought I would weed myself and they didn't give

497
00:40:38.800 --> 00:40:42.079
me the job. That was That's what that was about.

498
00:40:43.159 --> 00:40:47.719
And I don't know if I wanted the job either,

499
00:40:50.280 --> 00:40:54.559
but I might have done. I don't know how many

500
00:40:54.639 --> 00:40:59.440
jobs have gone forward. I didn't get twice right twice.

501
00:40:59.840 --> 00:41:02.840
I've actually been offered two jobs at the same time

502
00:41:04.360 --> 00:41:07.800
and I had to choose. Happened twice once. I was

503
00:41:08.519 --> 00:41:11.639
in two thousand and four, I was offered a job

504
00:41:11.840 --> 00:41:16.840
in a call center, like selling car insurance again or

505
00:41:18.159 --> 00:41:25.039
working as a care assistant. Now. At the time, I

506
00:41:25.079 --> 00:41:29.000
wanted to be a care assistant, but the money would

507
00:41:29.039 --> 00:41:32.159
have been absolutely rubbish compared to well, I just wouldn't

508
00:41:32.159 --> 00:41:34.920
have been a good salary. But that's not what I wanted.

509
00:41:34.920 --> 00:41:37.239
I wanted to do something where I was helping people.

510
00:41:39.320 --> 00:41:42.000
But I chose to call center because first of all,

511
00:41:42.039 --> 00:41:44.320
I knew what I was doing because I'd already had

512
00:41:44.320 --> 00:41:48.159
a job doing that, and I was a second call center.

513
00:41:48.239 --> 00:41:51.199
I'd worked in second insurance job, i'd worked in third

514
00:41:51.239 --> 00:41:56.559
call center, and also I'd never done care work before,

515
00:41:56.679 --> 00:42:01.440
so I didn't know if or not i'd be right

516
00:42:01.559 --> 00:42:02.920
for that kind of job, didn't know if i'd be

517
00:42:02.960 --> 00:42:09.719
able to do it, And the second time was back

518
00:42:09.760 --> 00:42:12.639
in There might have been other times, but this another

519
00:42:12.679 --> 00:42:24.039
one I remember was in two thousand and twelve, around

520
00:42:24.159 --> 00:42:29.119
December year or end of November, I went for two

521
00:42:29.199 --> 00:42:32.760
jobs once. One was in a car insurance company, the

522
00:42:32.800 --> 00:42:34.880
third car insurance company that I ended up working in,

523
00:42:35.719 --> 00:42:38.440
so you mon't be surprised. I know that I took

524
00:42:38.440 --> 00:42:42.119
that one. But the other job I got offered was

525
00:42:42.960 --> 00:42:47.199
interviewing people on the phone, which actually was much more

526
00:42:47.440 --> 00:42:53.079
to my skill set because I wasn't selling anything. I

527
00:42:53.159 --> 00:42:56.840
got to be nice all day. I would have been

528
00:42:56.880 --> 00:43:00.079
good at it. I just would have been good. It

529
00:43:00.239 --> 00:43:07.719
would have been pretty much very easy job, but also

530
00:43:08.519 --> 00:43:13.480
rewarding because I'm giving people jobs and stuff, so it's

531
00:43:13.559 --> 00:43:18.480
like a like an outcore center working on behalf of

532
00:43:19.480 --> 00:43:27.400
big companies. But it wasn't. It didn't seem like a

533
00:43:27.440 --> 00:43:37.199
stable position, and so I just yeah, I just went

534
00:43:37.280 --> 00:43:45.719
with the insurance job. Sure there's a horse joke there somewhere.

535
00:43:47.079 --> 00:43:59.519
Stable position. So yeah, how did I talking about that?

536
00:43:59.599 --> 00:44:04.199
You asked me if I had any pets? Plumy. Yeah.

537
00:44:04.239 --> 00:44:12.639
So when we went there, do you want that last one?

538
00:44:12.679 --> 00:44:17.400
Do you want to how about eating your dinner? This

539
00:44:17.519 --> 00:44:23.960
is the last one. You've got no more treats and

540
00:44:24.039 --> 00:44:27.199
you're not having any more treats to next Thursday. So

541
00:44:27.320 --> 00:44:29.000
this is it. This is your this is your last

542
00:44:29.039 --> 00:44:35.840
treat for a whole week. Okay, awp to you. I

543
00:44:35.880 --> 00:44:42.360
went we had ants in the house. I mean that's

544
00:44:42.400 --> 00:44:51.199
not really technically a pet, is it. No? No, no pets.

545
00:44:54.199 --> 00:44:56.199
I'll let have this packet. He is probably gonna want

546
00:44:56.199 --> 00:45:03.519
to rip its bits. Let's just take out the thing

547
00:45:05.039 --> 00:45:07.079
which keeps the bag fresh, because I don't think I

548
00:45:07.159 --> 00:45:09.599
want him eating that. You'll be at the bag to

549
00:45:09.639 --> 00:45:14.519
bits now, trying to get to what's not in there.

550
00:45:21.320 --> 00:45:23.920
Not initially, I mean, we weren't in that house for

551
00:45:24.000 --> 00:45:28.599
very long because it was a little bit derelict. It was,

552
00:45:29.760 --> 00:45:31.800
I think it was condemned. So we had to move out.

553
00:45:32.800 --> 00:45:36.239
My dad joked something about, you know, it was fine

554
00:45:36.280 --> 00:45:41.599
until I moved in, which was a bit rude, too

555
00:45:41.639 --> 00:45:48.320
much farting, ha ha. And so when we moved into

556
00:45:48.480 --> 00:45:54.239
the next house, which is only probably five months maybe

557
00:45:54.280 --> 00:45:59.000
after moving there to that town, maybe less, maybe six

558
00:45:59.039 --> 00:46:03.639
months maybe less. It moved into this new buildhouse and

559
00:46:04.559 --> 00:46:15.159
we did have a cat called oh what was a

560
00:46:15.159 --> 00:46:20.679
cat called Tiger? Yeah, we had a cat called Tiger,

561
00:46:22.320 --> 00:46:29.599
and which was the first time I'd ever never stroked

562
00:46:29.599 --> 00:46:34.239
a pussy before. I'd never never had a dog, never never,

563
00:46:36.159 --> 00:46:41.639
never really been around any kind of pets in my life.

564
00:46:42.000 --> 00:46:46.920
So I was a little bit I didn't it wasn't

565
00:46:47.000 --> 00:46:53.400
quite sure how to how to I don't know, I

566
00:46:53.519 --> 00:46:59.199
didn't really know what to do with it. But yeah,

567
00:46:59.440 --> 00:47:03.079
so we had a cat. Unfortunately didn't but the cat

568
00:47:03.119 --> 00:47:11.719
didn't last long. Got yeah, it got I got run over,

569
00:47:11.800 --> 00:47:14.639
to be fair, that's what happened. Got over from school

570
00:47:14.679 --> 00:47:25.320
and I was upsetting. But other than that, there's nothing.

571
00:47:26.800 --> 00:47:32.519
And then I want a goldfish at the the Yearly Fair,

572
00:47:32.599 --> 00:47:36.119
which was thinking August or September.

573
00:47:38.719 --> 00:47:38.960
That's it.

574
00:47:39.079 --> 00:47:39.199
Thing.

575
00:47:39.239 --> 00:47:42.159
You can make people more nice place, don't start knocking

576
00:47:42.159 --> 00:47:50.199
stuff off. He wants me to give him more, but

577
00:47:50.280 --> 00:47:51.960
I can't give him more because I don't have more

578
00:47:52.000 --> 00:48:01.760
to give him. I really don't, no, So yeah, I

579
00:48:02.639 --> 00:48:06.599
won a goldfish called Popeye. I called him Popeye because

580
00:48:06.639 --> 00:48:09.400
he had one eye that was much bigger than the

581
00:48:09.400 --> 00:48:16.280
other eye. So Popeye was my first ever pet, really

582
00:48:17.039 --> 00:48:26.679
my first mind. And then it turned out he had

583
00:48:27.000 --> 00:48:32.159
an eye disease, so I felt a little bit guilty

584
00:48:32.239 --> 00:48:35.880
called him Popeye, but I didn't. I didn't think it

585
00:48:35.920 --> 00:48:38.639
was fair to change his name. I've always like it's

586
00:48:38.719 --> 00:48:41.360
all he knew. He didn't know any other name, and

587
00:48:41.400 --> 00:48:43.639
I don't think he realized the reason for the name,

588
00:48:43.760 --> 00:48:46.159
so there was no point telling him there. Didn't see

589
00:48:46.199 --> 00:48:49.840
any point changing it, because that just that would be

590
00:48:49.880 --> 00:48:53.760
confusing for him. So I had these little drops took

591
00:48:53.840 --> 00:48:58.159
him to the vet. I'm not sure if he did.

592
00:48:58.199 --> 00:48:59.880
I thought he might have taken him to the vet

593
00:49:00.079 --> 00:49:05.280
blind me, or maybe could you take a goldfish to

594
00:49:05.320 --> 00:49:08.800
the vet? I don't know. We've got these little drops

595
00:49:09.199 --> 00:49:13.039
which we put into his water, and it seemed to

596
00:49:13.079 --> 00:49:19.320
help a bit. I used to be fascinated with Popeye.

597
00:49:20.000 --> 00:49:26.559
It's just the whole kind of the poohing. I found

598
00:49:26.599 --> 00:49:34.159
weird the laying of cable, just the whole haven't it

599
00:49:34.239 --> 00:49:44.639
attached for that long? Wonder if whales do that? Mhmm.

600
00:49:45.639 --> 00:49:49.840
Well you couldn't fit a whale in a little goldfish thing,

601
00:49:49.920 --> 00:49:54.599
could you. My dad had a did we have a

602
00:49:54.599 --> 00:49:58.960
goldfish pond? Or is it my granddaddy put a goldfish

603
00:49:59.000 --> 00:50:05.360
pond in? Well? I think we might have got a

604
00:50:05.400 --> 00:50:07.400
goldfish pond, but it might have been my granddad. I

605
00:50:07.400 --> 00:50:10.360
can't remember. Now, that's weird. I'd have to ask my dad.

606
00:50:13.920 --> 00:50:17.400
There was definitely a goldfish pond in that garden in

607
00:50:17.480 --> 00:50:20.400
that house, just a little goldfish pond, and it was

608
00:50:22.519 --> 00:50:26.039
because used to put a tennis ball in there in

609
00:50:26.079 --> 00:50:29.360
the winter so that it always left an air an

610
00:50:29.400 --> 00:50:45.719
air hole. Mmm. I remember my brother, my little brother

611
00:50:45.800 --> 00:50:51.360
had a goldfish called Tonkatoy or Tony or something like that,

612
00:50:52.239 --> 00:50:57.800
and he was showing off. This is probably about ten

613
00:50:57.880 --> 00:51:02.639
years ago. You know, he's a he'll be nearly fifty soon.

614
00:51:03.559 --> 00:51:09.760
He was going on about how he is goldfish lived

615
00:51:09.920 --> 00:51:17.199
for like seven years or whatever. He had it for

616
00:51:17.239 --> 00:51:21.119
seven years, and my dad started laughing. It was at

617
00:51:21.119 --> 00:51:23.920
the dinner table. That's my dad. They said, why are

618
00:51:23.920 --> 00:51:26.800
you laughing? He said, oh, we just kept replacing it

619
00:51:26.800 --> 00:51:33.880
every time he died. You just didn't notice, right, really,

620
00:51:35.400 --> 00:51:36.960
I said, why can you do that with a cat?

621
00:51:40.159 --> 00:51:42.400
But I guess it's you know, he didn't didn't want

622
00:51:42.440 --> 00:51:48.039
to son, My dad don't like animals. It's really weird.

623
00:51:48.079 --> 00:51:51.679
Because one of them said to me, because they won't

624
00:51:51.679 --> 00:51:56.159
come here, they won't enter my house. My dad won't

625
00:51:56.400 --> 00:52:02.679
set foot into this place, this flat. And I was

626
00:52:02.840 --> 00:52:05.480
told like was because I had an andre the ferret.

627
00:52:05.920 --> 00:52:10.079
Now I've got a dog. Doesn't like animals. Someone said

628
00:52:10.079 --> 00:52:14.840
these are allergic to animals. I said, well, that's obviously

629
00:52:14.880 --> 00:52:18.639
a lie. And I said, well it's not true because

630
00:52:19.920 --> 00:52:23.880
he spent thirty five years or whatever, forty years going

631
00:52:23.880 --> 00:52:28.079
into people's houses, you know, part of his job, so

632
00:52:28.440 --> 00:52:31.119
you know. And then one day he said, well, I'm

633
00:52:31.119 --> 00:52:37.559
not allergic to animals, just don't like them. Okay, good,

634
00:52:37.639 --> 00:52:42.239
at least you've got some truth. Then, but out of

635
00:52:42.599 --> 00:52:46.880
the four people he visits, they've all got animals, they've

636
00:52:46.880 --> 00:52:55.199
all got dogs, including me, but he doesn't have come here. Weird,

637
00:52:55.239 --> 00:52:58.480
isn't it meets me in a restaurant or a coffee place.

638
00:52:59.480 --> 00:53:08.639
Won't set put into this place. I don't know. There's

639
00:53:08.679 --> 00:53:14.280
a lot to discuss. That's not really the question you need.

640
00:53:14.440 --> 00:53:14.960
Come on me.

641
00:53:17.320 --> 00:53:24.639
I know I gave it to her. I'll tell you

642
00:53:24.639 --> 00:53:26.920
it was weird. The other day I gave him a

643
00:53:26.960 --> 00:53:29.800
packet and there's one bit left in. There's one of

644
00:53:29.840 --> 00:53:33.039
those shoes left. And he just looked at the packet.

645
00:53:33.679 --> 00:53:40.280
The packet wasn't closed, it was open. He wouldn't take

646
00:53:40.280 --> 00:53:43.480
it out. He just couldn't be bothered. But as soon

647
00:53:43.480 --> 00:53:49.840
as he'd eaten that bit, he destroyed the packet into

648
00:53:49.920 --> 00:54:06.800
many pieces. Is what he's doing right now. Other animals

649
00:54:06.840 --> 00:54:26.440
we had, Wow, this is noisy. Other animals. When I

650
00:54:26.480 --> 00:54:36.320
don't know how old, I was probably thirteen, my dad

651
00:54:36.360 --> 00:54:42.000
got a dog for my stepmom. She wanted a dog,

652
00:54:42.480 --> 00:54:48.039
but I couldn't just get a normal dog, just a

653
00:54:48.079 --> 00:54:55.280
normal standard dog, had normal dog size, you know. Came

654
00:54:55.320 --> 00:55:01.360
home with Saint Bernard, one of the world's biggest dogs,

655
00:55:04.840 --> 00:55:14.079
and cute as anything. As a puppy. I mean, all

656
00:55:14.119 --> 00:55:16.599
puppies are cute. There's no you can't there's no non

657
00:55:16.719 --> 00:55:20.480
cute puppy. It's like a none cute pussy cat, you

658
00:55:20.519 --> 00:55:24.519
know what I mean. They're just always they're always cute,

659
00:55:24.519 --> 00:55:28.960
and they when they're little and then they oh, is

660
00:55:29.000 --> 00:55:30.599
that as noisy as for you as it is for me?

661
00:55:32.000 --> 00:55:38.079
That's really winded me up. It's still funny, though, I

662
00:55:38.119 --> 00:55:47.559
don't know why he's so silly. So I yeah. We

663
00:55:47.679 --> 00:55:52.920
had this dog called Misty Saint Bernard, and you literally,

664
00:55:52.960 --> 00:55:56.639
if you just you could watch it grow in front

665
00:55:56.679 --> 00:56:01.800
of you. I mean, I'm not even joking. Grew and

666
00:56:01.920 --> 00:56:07.039
grew and grew. I remember one day, everyone, not one day.

667
00:56:07.079 --> 00:56:10.480
I remember saying to my dad, is it finished growing yet? Said,

668
00:56:10.480 --> 00:56:14.559
you asked that yesterday and the day before that. You'll

669
00:56:14.559 --> 00:56:17.119
know when it's finished growing, so the hell, because you

670
00:56:17.159 --> 00:56:20.559
won't be able to see the sun anymore. And it

671
00:56:20.639 --> 00:56:25.239
was right huge, bigger than me. I was like thirteen

672
00:56:25.320 --> 00:56:30.960
fourteen or whatever. Thirteen bigger than me when it's fully grown,

673
00:56:31.320 --> 00:56:37.480
weighed more than me, probably weighed about twelve fourteen stone.

674
00:56:38.119 --> 00:56:44.119
I weighed about eight and a half stone. When I

675
00:56:44.159 --> 00:56:46.320
took it for a walk, it would just drag me along.

676
00:56:47.519 --> 00:56:50.599
I had no control over it, or over her, other

677
00:56:51.039 --> 00:56:54.079
no control over her. She was a beautiful dog. But

678
00:56:56.519 --> 00:56:58.239
she got too big for the house. So she and

679
00:56:58.280 --> 00:57:00.760
we had had quite a big house, but it wasn't

680
00:57:00.880 --> 00:57:05.000
big in the sense of I had a few rooms,

681
00:57:05.320 --> 00:57:09.639
but it wasn't big as finny. There's no point looking

682
00:57:09.679 --> 00:57:13.360
for stuff that isn't there. It's not there anymore. It's

683
00:57:13.360 --> 00:57:21.679
not there anymore, my dearest. The thing is, my dad

684
00:57:21.679 --> 00:57:26.320
built a kennel outside, and she lived outside because she

685
00:57:26.920 --> 00:57:30.199
just literally she'd get in and she'd knock everything over.

686
00:57:31.000 --> 00:57:32.920
She struggled to get through the door. I mean, she

687
00:57:33.119 --> 00:57:41.559
was huge, really big, and she wasn't she didn't have

688
00:57:41.639 --> 00:57:48.199
what she needed. And this is her time, probably forty

689
00:57:48.280 --> 00:57:51.320
so maybe it was when I was fourteen. This was

690
00:57:51.360 --> 00:57:53.119
at a time when everything was starting to go a

691
00:57:53.159 --> 00:58:02.880
little bit wrong, and you know, both my brothers ended

692
00:58:02.960 --> 00:58:08.719
up moving out. My stepmom went to start going back

693
00:58:08.760 --> 00:58:11.760
to work, so she was hardly ever there. My dad

694
00:58:11.800 --> 00:58:14.960
was always at working. I'd be babysitting my little brother

695
00:58:15.039 --> 00:58:22.480
after school during the summer holidays, and Misty was just

696
00:58:22.840 --> 00:58:27.480
left on her own too much. There wasn't really anyone's fault.

697
00:58:27.519 --> 00:58:30.960
It's just that wasn't planned. Just how it ended up being.

698
00:58:31.719 --> 00:58:34.360
You know, it went from being a big, full family

699
00:58:34.440 --> 00:58:40.559
house to her. I don't know, something quite strange for

700
00:58:40.639 --> 00:58:47.440
the last year or so, and Misty she just, I mean,

701
00:58:47.519 --> 00:58:53.239
she'd jump on me. Every time I was anywhere near her.

702
00:58:53.280 --> 00:58:55.519
She would jump on me and pin me down and

703
00:58:55.599 --> 00:59:04.840
dribble all over my school uniform. And you know, that

704
00:59:04.960 --> 00:59:06.639
was a time when I didn't really want to go

705
00:59:06.679 --> 00:59:11.159
to school with a stain on my trousers going home

706
00:59:11.199 --> 00:59:14.880
from you know, school, going home from lunch. What you've

707
00:59:14.920 --> 00:59:18.000
been doing? Nothing? Why is that big stain on your crotch?

708
00:59:20.239 --> 00:59:22.599
Don't worry about it? What about I want on your jumper?

709
00:59:22.840 --> 00:59:27.400
Oh that's Misty. Misty just that's dribbling on me. Why

710
00:59:27.400 --> 00:59:29.360
didn't you say Misty did on your crotch as well?

711
00:59:30.000 --> 00:59:33.280
I don't know. I just didn't think quick enough. But

712
00:59:33.360 --> 00:59:38.559
she was. She was just like beautiful dog, messive though massive.

713
00:59:38.760 --> 00:59:40.840
It probably costs more to feed her than it did

714
00:59:40.840 --> 00:59:44.079
me on a week because I were feeding her tripe,

715
00:59:44.400 --> 00:59:50.960
which was not cheap. But she was too big, way

716
00:59:51.079 --> 00:59:56.199
too big, and it got to the point where I

717
00:59:56.320 --> 00:59:57.559
sit sort of try and go. I used to go

718
00:59:57.639 --> 01:00:01.480
in the front door because I couldn't go around the

719
01:00:01.559 --> 01:00:05.800
back because she'd jump on me. I was not scared,

720
01:00:05.880 --> 01:00:10.719
but a little bit kind of. Yeah, it was a shame.

721
01:00:11.679 --> 01:00:13.760
I couldn't take her for walks. I couldn't handle her.

722
01:00:14.079 --> 01:00:17.480
She was too strong, so she didn't get any walks,

723
01:00:17.519 --> 01:00:22.719
any proper walks anymore. So yeah, that was that wasn't good.

724
01:00:22.760 --> 01:00:25.280
She did found that my dad found her a better home,

725
01:00:25.440 --> 01:00:31.400
a proper home. But I mean she had a big

726
01:00:31.440 --> 01:00:34.920
garden to run around in. But you know, for me

727
01:00:35.239 --> 01:00:37.400
it was a big garden I could run, but for her,

728
01:00:37.519 --> 01:00:40.280
she could just like a couple of jumps and she'd

729
01:00:40.320 --> 01:00:43.920
be either side of the the fence. So it wasn't

730
01:00:44.000 --> 01:00:52.239
really that big for her. It was more like, yeah,

731
01:00:52.400 --> 01:00:54.719
just a tiny little mat really, the grassho was for

732
01:00:54.760 --> 01:00:59.199
her if she was so, she wasn't that big. She

733
01:00:59.320 --> 01:01:02.639
was half the side in the house. She was quite big,

734
01:01:04.119 --> 01:01:17.000
and she's white and brown. For of course huge, absolutely huge.

735
01:01:17.320 --> 01:01:20.119
Ever since then, I've not I don't know, I just

736
01:01:20.719 --> 01:01:25.199
not scared of big dogs. I just I can never

737
01:01:25.239 --> 01:01:27.800
have a big dog. I can only really have a

738
01:01:27.800 --> 01:01:29.440
little dog. If I was going to have a dog,

739
01:01:29.679 --> 01:01:32.719
I've always thought that in my mind. I've lived with

740
01:01:32.800 --> 01:01:37.320
dogs on a few occasions. Other than that, I lived

741
01:01:38.239 --> 01:01:44.679
in London with a dog. One two, three different dogs

742
01:01:44.719 --> 01:01:51.079
in London, and they were all kind of medium sized dogs.

743
01:01:51.119 --> 01:01:53.119
They weren't big, they weren't little, they were just kind

744
01:01:53.119 --> 01:01:57.280
of medium kind of size. And I just thought, well,

745
01:01:58.000 --> 01:02:02.239
nothing bigger than that, because they're hard to manage if

746
01:02:02.239 --> 01:02:07.159
they're being naughty, because the dogs are strong. Vin he's

747
01:02:07.199 --> 01:02:11.119
really strong, but I can. I can beat him in

748
01:02:11.159 --> 01:02:16.960
an arm missile, you know, just about. So I did

749
01:02:17.000 --> 01:02:18.760
think if I was because I thought back getting a

750
01:02:18.800 --> 01:02:23.000
dog when I first moved in there in twenty fifteen,

751
01:02:24.760 --> 01:02:27.320
and I did look. I got permission from the council

752
01:02:28.159 --> 01:02:33.639
and I started to look at a shelter and there

753
01:02:33.719 --> 01:02:40.440
was this Pomeranian, little Pomeranian, and I thought, oh, he's

754
01:02:40.480 --> 01:02:44.760
so cute. But he didn't like me. And because he

755
01:02:44.800 --> 01:02:48.400
didn't like me, I thought, now, you know, I had

756
01:02:48.400 --> 01:02:51.199
this little fantasy that if I ever went to a shelter,

757
01:02:51.960 --> 01:02:53.559
it would be the dog that came up to me

758
01:02:53.760 --> 01:02:58.599
that I would take home. Didn't didn't work like that.

759
01:03:00.079 --> 01:03:08.159
They all none of them liked me. So yeah, I

760
01:03:08.239 --> 01:03:09.920
don't know. I just I suppose I had a little

761
01:03:10.400 --> 01:03:12.920
fantasy of what it would really be like compared to

762
01:03:12.920 --> 01:03:16.760
what it really was like. And then when I did

763
01:03:16.840 --> 01:03:19.559
end up getting my own, So, if you want to

764
01:03:19.559 --> 01:03:25.719
call their pet, Andre a little ferret. He hated me

765
01:03:25.760 --> 01:03:28.000
when I first got him, but I fell in love

766
01:03:28.039 --> 01:03:30.159
with him as soon as I saw him. I just

767
01:03:30.159 --> 01:03:34.119
fell in love with him. It's his little, tiny little face,

768
01:03:34.280 --> 01:03:38.199
little body, but his tiny patches on his eyes, and

769
01:03:38.320 --> 01:03:40.840
just I fell in love with him. And every time

770
01:03:40.840 --> 01:03:42.920
I picked him up, he hissed and he bit me.

771
01:03:43.840 --> 01:03:48.960
He absolutely didn't like me at all too. A couple

772
01:03:49.000 --> 01:03:52.599
of weeks before he sort of accepted that I existed,

773
01:03:53.159 --> 01:03:57.519
he wasn't able to get rid of me, and then

774
01:03:57.559 --> 01:04:01.719
we were kind of inseparable. Well, he couldn't get away

775
01:04:01.719 --> 01:04:03.679
from me, really, I suppose that's the best way to

776
01:04:03.760 --> 01:04:12.000
explain it. And so, yeah, we had pets, but only

777
01:04:12.079 --> 01:04:15.519
really them too. So really, when I first moved there,

778
01:04:16.119 --> 01:04:20.800
other than the nts, there was nothing. Then we had

779
01:04:20.800 --> 01:04:26.920
the cat and she wasn't there for long unfortunately. And

780
01:04:26.960 --> 01:04:30.599
then when we moved, I had my little goldfish, and

781
01:04:30.639 --> 01:04:36.719
then when we moved I didn't have a goldfish anymore.

782
01:04:37.039 --> 01:04:48.159
Then we had the Misty, the huge, huge dog. In

783
01:04:48.280 --> 01:04:53.360
about when I was about fourteen, maybe fifteen fourteen fifteen.

784
01:04:53.840 --> 01:04:56.719
I lose track of the times, really, but it was

785
01:04:56.760 --> 01:05:01.880
a point when neither of my brothers were living there,

786
01:05:01.880 --> 01:05:04.840
so I was on the top floor on my own,

787
01:05:06.079 --> 01:05:09.559
which was weird, and I didn't like living with them,

788
01:05:09.599 --> 01:05:12.840
but I missed them when they weren't there. It's weird.

789
01:05:12.880 --> 01:05:18.840
And it's like the brother just above me, the two

790
01:05:18.960 --> 01:05:21.000
years older. He used to wind me up all the time,

791
01:05:21.800 --> 01:05:24.440
but I missed him when he left. When he moved out,

792
01:05:24.519 --> 01:05:28.000
I was like, oh, because I'd spent my whole life

793
01:05:28.000 --> 01:05:34.000
with him, literally from the day I was born to

794
01:05:34.039 --> 01:05:40.079
fifteen or fourteen fifteen whatever. I'd been with him every

795
01:05:40.119 --> 01:05:44.400
single day of my life, moving around the country, living

796
01:05:44.400 --> 01:05:48.960
in different places. So suddenly he wasn't there. It was

797
01:05:49.199 --> 01:05:53.599
very strange, even though we didn't necessarily get on that well.

798
01:05:54.920 --> 01:05:58.119
And then my other brother, the oldest one, he moved out,

799
01:05:59.239 --> 01:06:07.159
and that was strange. It's like just being at the

800
01:06:07.159 --> 01:06:11.000
top of that old house on my own, very weird.

801
01:06:11.360 --> 01:06:15.880
So what I did is I got myself a budgy

802
01:06:15.920 --> 01:06:20.719
to replace him. It's okay, well i'd replaced him a budgy,

803
01:06:22.280 --> 01:06:25.159
and I did. I got myself a budgy in a

804
01:06:25.199 --> 01:06:27.760
cage had it in my bedroom start with, but it

805
01:06:27.800 --> 01:06:31.159
was a little bit too clattery, a bit annoying, I thought.

806
01:06:31.400 --> 01:06:34.239
I put it in the other bedroom, in my brother's

807
01:06:35.519 --> 01:06:41.840
bedroom at the front of the house, and unfortunately there

808
01:06:41.880 --> 01:06:49.840
was no heat and it froze. There was, yeah, there was,

809
01:06:49.920 --> 01:06:53.320
there was. This's terrible, really, but it was so this

810
01:06:53.400 --> 01:06:59.719
must have been during the winter and there's no yeah,

811
01:07:00.079 --> 01:07:05.440
that heating to be off. I think my dad's always

812
01:07:05.440 --> 01:07:08.719
had a bit of a problem with heating. I remember

813
01:07:08.719 --> 01:07:11.519
when I was living with I moved out and lived

814
01:07:11.559 --> 01:07:17.800
with my stepmom and her mom in the flat then

815
01:07:18.000 --> 01:07:21.320
my step man's flat. So my little brother and my

816
01:07:21.519 --> 01:07:26.039
stepmom were in one bed, my step nn was in

817
01:07:26.079 --> 01:07:28.960
the other bed in the other room, and then I

818
01:07:29.079 --> 01:07:31.880
was in the living room floor on a little camper bed.

819
01:07:34.400 --> 01:07:37.760
I didn't like that, so I went and moved back.

820
01:07:38.000 --> 01:07:39.719
I asked my dad if I could move back into

821
01:07:39.719 --> 01:07:43.159
the house because it was horrible, and he said, yeah,

822
01:07:45.280 --> 01:07:49.079
it was freezing cold. There was no hit, so that

823
01:07:49.119 --> 01:07:53.280
you're going to put the heat and said, nope, no heat.

824
01:07:54.760 --> 01:07:58.119
I had to move out again. I was fifteen years old,

825
01:07:58.119 --> 01:08:03.159
by the way, I wasn't even lead they should they

826
01:08:03.239 --> 01:08:07.000
had it right, they had a duty of care, but hey,

827
01:08:07.760 --> 01:08:10.599
in back in them days, it wasn't really enforced, but

828
01:08:10.880 --> 01:08:13.880
freezing colds. I went back to the flat where as one,

829
01:08:14.440 --> 01:08:18.039
but I didn't want to be there because just I

830
01:08:18.119 --> 01:08:21.439
missed my own room, you know, my own stuff, my

831
01:08:21.520 --> 01:08:25.279
own space. And I know I'd only been there for

832
01:08:25.359 --> 01:08:27.479
a little while because the house had to get sold.

833
01:08:28.000 --> 01:08:32.800
But would the house have to get sold if I

834
01:08:32.840 --> 01:08:37.680
was living there, I don't know. It probably would have

835
01:08:37.720 --> 01:08:40.680
put it off, probably wouldn't have had to sell it

836
01:08:40.760 --> 01:08:48.039
until I was sixteen or maybe eighteen. I don't know

837
01:08:50.000 --> 01:08:51.800
which would have been Getting it would have been better

838
01:08:52.399 --> 01:08:54.359
because the house would have been worth a lot more

839
01:08:58.079 --> 01:09:00.880
because it went up from being I think sixty six

840
01:09:00.960 --> 01:09:05.800
grand when they sold it in nineteen eighty six or

841
01:09:05.920 --> 01:09:10.479
nineteen eighty seven, in nineteen eighty eight went up to

842
01:09:11.359 --> 01:09:16.680
two hundred and fifty thousand pounds. Can you believe that?

843
01:09:16.680 --> 01:09:19.119
That's not even lie? I remember I went into my

844
01:09:19.199 --> 01:09:22.319
dad's because he had a new house by then, like

845
01:09:22.399 --> 01:09:25.279
he'd got himself another house. So I guess they split

846
01:09:25.319 --> 01:09:28.479
the money. She took her money, he took his and

847
01:09:28.880 --> 01:09:32.479
put a deposit on a new house. So I went

848
01:09:32.520 --> 01:09:35.000
in to his house just to see him, and there

849
01:09:35.039 --> 01:09:38.079
was this thing he pointed to it. It was on

850
01:09:38.760 --> 01:09:42.720
this little chip board wooden board thing where he posts

851
01:09:43.479 --> 01:09:47.000
no pins stuff on and there was a picture of

852
01:09:47.079 --> 01:09:50.399
our house with a two hundred and fifty thousand pounds

853
01:09:51.039 --> 01:09:57.359
price tag, and you could see a dent in the

854
01:09:57.399 --> 01:10:00.119
wall where he had been head by in it. It

855
01:10:00.239 --> 01:10:06.199
was so angry because a year just over a year,

856
01:10:06.279 --> 01:10:09.840
year and a half, and it went up by that much.

857
01:10:12.159 --> 01:10:14.640
A year later it dropped down by about to about

858
01:10:14.640 --> 01:10:17.319
one hundred and twenty five or two years later, so

859
01:10:17.359 --> 01:10:21.800
it was a big drop. But you know it's now

860
01:10:21.840 --> 01:10:25.119
worth about seven hundred to eight hundred thousand when onlineas

861
01:10:25.199 --> 01:10:30.800
to search, maybe a little bit more. But it's just

862
01:10:30.880 --> 01:10:33.560
like wow, So if we did, just if I, if

863
01:10:33.560 --> 01:10:36.079
I had moved in there, I might have been doing

864
01:10:36.239 --> 01:10:42.119
everyone a favor, like everyone i'd stayed there, and the

865
01:10:42.239 --> 01:10:46.520
council so like you I have to especially if I

866
01:10:46.560 --> 01:10:49.239
was on a YTS scheme, which I was said no,

867
01:10:49.520 --> 01:10:54.600
you have to look after until he's eighteen and do

868
01:10:54.640 --> 01:10:59.520
your care whatever, which meant the house price would have

869
01:10:59.520 --> 01:11:03.520
gone up. My dad could have sold that one hundred

870
01:11:03.520 --> 01:11:09.239
and twenty five grand each you would have been better off.

871
01:11:09.319 --> 01:11:11.319
He would have been better off. He would probably would

872
01:11:11.359 --> 01:11:15.199
be by his house outright, the one he got. I mean,

873
01:11:15.279 --> 01:11:25.800
that's would have been amazing if if if if so Yeah, see, yeah,

874
01:11:25.800 --> 01:11:31.000
we had pets. The budget was a weird one because

875
01:11:31.399 --> 01:11:35.840
I tried to give him mouth to mouth resuscitation and

876
01:11:35.960 --> 01:11:39.600
that didn't seem to work. So I thought, I'm not

877
01:11:39.640 --> 01:11:41.680
proud of this. I did do this. I didn't. I mean,

878
01:11:41.720 --> 01:11:43.880
I just thought to myself because I didn't know if

879
01:11:43.880 --> 01:11:51.279
he was still alive or not, and because he just

880
01:11:51.479 --> 01:11:53.119
I didn't know if because he was not looking at me,

881
01:11:53.119 --> 01:11:54.439
I didn't know if he was giving me the cold

882
01:11:54.439 --> 01:11:58.079
shoulder literally, but if he was just annoyed because I

883
01:11:58.199 --> 01:12:04.359
left him on his own, and I don't know, I

884
01:12:04.399 --> 01:12:06.119
was a kid. I just didn't really know what to do.

885
01:12:07.000 --> 01:12:14.039
So I thought because I was up three stories high,

886
01:12:14.319 --> 01:12:16.199
and I thought, well, if I just put it out,

887
01:12:16.199 --> 01:12:21.159
it's going to fly away, isn't it. And Okay, so

888
01:12:21.359 --> 01:12:27.560
I know budgies that generally don't necessarily it might not

889
01:12:27.600 --> 01:12:30.039
have a great life out in the wild, it's going

890
01:12:30.039 --> 01:12:32.560
to a better life than what it has there, you know,

891
01:12:33.960 --> 01:12:40.279
And so I kind of he didn't fly. That's what

892
01:12:40.279 --> 01:12:44.000
I'm going to say. He didn't fly. So that was

893
01:12:44.359 --> 01:12:49.920
the end of that. Never give me mouf to mouth

894
01:12:49.960 --> 01:12:55.680
with suscitation to a budgy. It's a hard one to judge,

895
01:12:55.960 --> 01:13:01.000
you know. But I did do That's genuinely true. I'm

896
01:13:01.000 --> 01:13:03.840
not I'm not proud of it. I just something I did.

897
01:13:05.680 --> 01:13:10.520
And the hard compressions, it's very hard to really know

898
01:13:10.520 --> 01:13:17.560
how hard to push. If they squeak, you might be

899
01:13:17.600 --> 01:13:24.199
pushing too hard. So also, have you ever had one

900
01:13:24.840 --> 01:13:27.720
driving test lesson car or motorbike?

901
01:13:29.159 --> 01:13:29.399
Yeah?

902
01:13:29.439 --> 01:13:34.439
I had more than one. I've had nineteen ninety one,

903
01:13:34.439 --> 01:13:37.079
I had a couple of driving lessons. Two thousand and four.

904
01:13:37.119 --> 01:13:41.560
I had a few driving lessons ninety one. I just

905
01:13:41.600 --> 01:13:51.880
couldn't be bothered. Just didn't see the point. And my

906
01:13:52.039 --> 01:14:02.239
spatial awareness is not necessarily perfect, which showed both times

907
01:14:02.279 --> 01:14:08.720
I tried to learn to drive, I was too close

908
01:14:09.039 --> 01:14:11.880
or too far. I could never I can never really

909
01:14:11.960 --> 01:14:15.920
figure out where the car should be. That might come

910
01:14:15.960 --> 01:14:20.119
with time, But yeah, I didn't. I didn't enjoy it.

911
01:14:22.880 --> 01:14:26.520
The second time in two thousand and four, my driving

912
01:14:26.560 --> 01:14:32.439
instructor was too enthusiastic. It was only a young bloke.

913
01:14:32.560 --> 01:14:34.279
I mean I was young as well myself. I was

914
01:14:34.319 --> 01:14:40.520
only twenty three or twenty four whatever, But I just

915
01:14:41.279 --> 01:14:45.840
twenty three, probably thirty three, not twenty three. I was

916
01:14:45.920 --> 01:14:48.960
thirty three. He was in his early twenties, i'd say.

917
01:14:50.079 --> 01:14:55.600
But it was super excited, super enthusiastic, motivational, and I

918
01:14:55.680 --> 01:14:58.920
just wanted him to calm down. Oh you can do it,

919
01:14:58.960 --> 01:15:02.319
you can do like, come on. I did wanted to

920
01:15:02.359 --> 01:15:04.520
be negative. I just didn't want him to be like

921
01:15:04.880 --> 01:15:05.600
over the top.

922
01:15:08.359 --> 01:15:08.560
You know.

923
01:15:08.800 --> 01:15:12.600
It was like emotionally doing cartwheels all the time. It

924
01:15:12.720 --> 01:15:15.199
was just a little bit, a little bit too much.

925
01:15:16.399 --> 01:15:19.640
So I just whenever he came around, I just hid,

926
01:15:19.760 --> 01:15:24.319
didn't answer the door. I ended up paying for quite

927
01:15:24.359 --> 01:15:28.000
a lot of lessons I didn't turn up for anyway.

928
01:15:28.000 --> 01:15:33.520
Any end. I stopped. I went into the DVLA or

929
01:15:33.680 --> 01:15:35.800
I don't know wherever, the places that I always take

930
01:15:35.880 --> 01:15:37.880
my lessons, and I went to the reception. I said

931
01:15:37.880 --> 01:15:41.520
I'd like to cancel my lessons please, and she said, well,

932
01:15:41.960 --> 01:15:45.039
who you driving with? And I said the name of

933
01:15:45.079 --> 01:15:47.920
the person who's your instructor. She said, I'll just go

934
01:15:47.960 --> 01:15:53.960
and get him. I said, no, no, no, no, no, no, no,

935
01:15:54.560 --> 01:15:59.960
and she said too enthusiastic. I said, yeah, too enthusiast.

936
01:16:00.199 --> 01:16:05.319
We heard that a lot. I said okay, and we canceled,

937
01:16:05.399 --> 01:16:09.600
now is it? And I moved so we couldn't find

938
01:16:09.600 --> 01:16:16.520
out where I was. What was my longest relationship? This

939
01:16:16.600 --> 01:16:21.239
is from Ben again, So I are you talking about

940
01:16:21.319 --> 01:16:29.239
romantic relationships? I guess the longest one I go through them.

941
01:16:29.359 --> 01:16:38.800
But I had one ninety one, which was that finished

942
01:16:38.840 --> 01:16:45.279
in the summer. I had one ninety three, sort of

943
01:16:45.319 --> 01:16:56.119
December ninety three all the way to September ish ninety four,

944
01:16:58.520 --> 01:17:02.319
so it's what's that October? So what's that? Nine months?

945
01:17:02.399 --> 01:17:06.800
So nine months, that's quite a long one. And there

946
01:17:06.840 --> 01:17:15.600
was one in two thousand and nineteen ninety six. It

947
01:17:15.840 --> 01:17:28.920
started probably May, maybe June nineteen ninety six, until probably

948
01:17:31.680 --> 01:17:50.279
around April nineteen ninety seven. So what's that July, August, September, October, November, December, January, February, March, April.

949
01:17:50.479 --> 01:17:55.119
So yeah, that was about ten months. So that was

950
01:17:55.840 --> 01:17:59.960
probably the longest relationship I was ever in, like romantic relationship.

951
01:18:01.439 --> 01:18:05.199
I'm being very vague with a word romantic, very very

952
01:18:05.359 --> 01:18:36.119
generous with that word, but yeah, that's a look. I'm

953
01:18:36.119 --> 01:18:42.960
trying to think. No, that's it. That was That was

954
01:18:43.000 --> 01:18:47.560
the longest one ten months. But if you I was

955
01:18:47.560 --> 01:18:52.279
just listening to some of the gardeners then and sometimes

956
01:18:52.279 --> 01:18:54.079
there's a voice and I just don't recognize it, and

957
01:18:54.119 --> 01:18:58.319
it sounds clear. It's like is it outside my garden?

958
01:19:01.800 --> 01:19:06.600
So yeah, that's my longest relationship. I'm trying to think

959
01:19:06.600 --> 01:19:11.279
of it. I had any other relationships. I've had a

960
01:19:11.319 --> 01:19:22.640
few little ones, a few little short relationships kind of yeah,

961
01:19:22.720 --> 01:19:34.279
I mean ninety five, I think one two one. I

962
01:19:34.319 --> 01:19:39.479
had two. You had two relationships ninety five, one in

963
01:19:39.600 --> 01:19:49.000
ninety six, one in ninety seven. During college, I didn't

964
01:19:49.000 --> 01:19:53.199
really have I had a friendship with a female, but

965
01:19:53.239 --> 01:19:56.399
it wasn't a relationship, but it was a friendship and

966
01:19:56.439 --> 01:19:58.720
then it turned into something a bit more at the

967
01:19:58.880 --> 01:20:03.039
end of the course, at the end of the university degree.

968
01:20:03.720 --> 01:20:08.359
But for the three years we were just really good friends.

969
01:20:08.439 --> 01:20:13.880
And then that kind of didn't really come to anything.

970
01:20:14.079 --> 01:20:14.600
We were just.

971
01:20:16.199 --> 01:20:27.439
Friends, very close friends. And no, no, not really the

972
01:20:27.520 --> 01:20:36.279
last ten years pretty much it's been a dry well.

973
01:20:38.479 --> 01:20:41.560
But yeah, as long as one about ten ten months.

974
01:20:44.000 --> 01:20:50.359
Do you imagine saying ten years? Wow? Ten months longest one, Cindy,

975
01:20:51.079 --> 01:20:54.239
would you tell us about the TV license tax? Do

976
01:20:54.279 --> 01:20:56.800
you pay it? Do you pay it on every TV

977
01:20:56.880 --> 01:20:59.560
in the household or is it one feed for per

978
01:20:59.640 --> 01:21:05.079
house regardless of the number of TVs. Mike's answered this,

979
01:21:05.159 --> 01:21:06.840
so he hasn't answered. It's a good question. I've never

980
01:21:06.920 --> 01:21:11.439
understood the whole UK TV license thing. How do they

981
01:21:11.520 --> 01:21:14.159
know if you have a TV or not? Do they

982
01:21:14.239 --> 01:21:16.520
have the right to just enter your house and look

983
01:21:16.560 --> 01:21:21.640
at all your technology devices? And Hope has written I

984
01:21:21.680 --> 01:21:23.600
had a friend who had to prove she didn't have

985
01:21:23.640 --> 01:21:26.560
a TV in order to avoid the tax. She was

986
01:21:26.600 --> 01:21:29.119
so so angry she had to let the TV tax

987
01:21:29.159 --> 01:21:33.359
people into search a flat. I'm Canadian, as she was

988
01:21:34.039 --> 01:21:36.600
when she moved to England. Okay, I feel there's a

989
01:21:36.600 --> 01:21:45.720
lot of questions there. So yeah, it's one Okay, So

990
01:21:47.479 --> 01:21:50.600
in this flat that I live, it wouldn't manified one

991
01:21:50.640 --> 01:21:54.079
hundred TVs as far as I'm aware, it's this one

992
01:21:54.119 --> 01:21:59.880
TV license per household. They do do a discount for

993
01:22:01.439 --> 01:22:12.840
blind people, and so the wholes found that just incredibly rude.

994
01:22:13.000 --> 01:22:16.039
To be fair, I just I don't know, I don't

995
01:22:16.079 --> 01:22:18.520
know if there's a discount for people that are pensioners.

996
01:22:19.840 --> 01:22:23.720
But I pay what do I pay this other? Look

997
01:22:24.439 --> 01:22:31.359
do I pay every single month? TV license? Pay? I

998
01:22:31.359 --> 01:22:45.239
think it's fifteen pound a month tv TV it's at

999
01:22:45.279 --> 01:22:49.640
the beginning of the months. And also look first of

1000
01:22:50.319 --> 01:22:54.319
May fifteen pound. So I pay fifteen pound a month

1001
01:22:55.159 --> 01:23:00.920
for my TV license. I only have one television. But

1002
01:23:01.079 --> 01:23:04.279
the way they figured it's one of those really really,

1003
01:23:05.239 --> 01:23:10.680
it's to me such a dumb thing, a dumb idea.

1004
01:23:10.960 --> 01:23:14.439
It made sense originally, you know, when they first started

1005
01:23:14.439 --> 01:23:21.880
doing it, I guess, But there was two channels, BBC one,

1006
01:23:22.119 --> 01:23:28.880
BBC two, both of them neither of them had adverts,

1007
01:23:29.640 --> 01:23:33.600
although they had sponsorship and stuff like that, but they

1008
01:23:33.600 --> 01:23:38.199
didn't have adverts, so it was a public service. Then

1009
01:23:38.319 --> 01:23:45.680
ITV came along, which was financed by advertising. Channel four

1010
01:23:45.760 --> 01:23:51.520
came along, financed by advertising. Channel five came along, financed

1011
01:23:51.560 --> 01:23:59.399
by advertising, and then over the years, everything except BBC

1012
01:23:59.479 --> 01:24:07.279
channels are financed by appetizing all of them. Yet we

1013
01:24:07.359 --> 01:24:12.960
all still have to pay for BBC even if people

1014
01:24:13.000 --> 01:24:17.960
don't use BBC. And you know, I see YouTube videos

1015
01:24:17.960 --> 01:24:20.279
where people say, oh, come on, you don't have to

1016
01:24:20.359 --> 01:24:21.960
let them in, or if you do, let them in

1017
01:24:22.239 --> 01:24:26.800
they have to prove that you watch BBC and it's

1018
01:24:27.000 --> 01:24:30.720
not It's not quite as simple as that. There. They

1019
01:24:30.720 --> 01:24:34.600
can be a little bit intimidating, you know, these people

1020
01:24:34.680 --> 01:24:37.319
coming around, they do it for a living. They know

1021
01:24:38.439 --> 01:24:41.000
what buttons the push, they know how to get people

1022
01:24:41.039 --> 01:24:44.720
to open up and how to incriminate themselves or whatever.

1023
01:24:45.560 --> 01:24:49.279
And it seems weird that some people go to prison

1024
01:24:49.359 --> 01:24:52.840
for not paying a TV license or refusing to pay

1025
01:24:52.880 --> 01:24:58.159
the TV license. They actually go to prison. How can

1026
01:24:58.199 --> 01:25:04.279
that in any world be justifiable? That doesn't me with

1027
01:25:04.439 --> 01:25:09.760
no strong views. It just seems ridiculous, just all absurd, absurd,

1028
01:25:10.079 --> 01:25:15.560
but not in a funny way. And so yeah, we

1029
01:25:15.680 --> 01:25:19.279
do have to have a TV license unless you can

1030
01:25:19.319 --> 01:25:24.560
prove that you do not have a television. And they

1031
01:25:24.720 --> 01:25:31.319
also now include streaming. So if you stream TV, even

1032
01:25:31.359 --> 01:25:35.319
if it isn't the BBC, So if you stream itv

1033
01:25:35.960 --> 01:25:39.479
app which has got adverts on, you're using the TV.

1034
01:25:39.600 --> 01:25:44.439
So you watch TV, any kind of terrestrial television, even

1035
01:25:44.439 --> 01:25:48.159
if it's streaming and you're viewing it through the internet,

1036
01:25:48.880 --> 01:25:52.119
you have to pay a tie TV license for it,

1037
01:25:52.199 --> 01:25:59.600
according to them. I'm sure there's ways around it. I

1038
01:25:59.680 --> 01:26:03.600
know people that don't pay the license, and they just

1039
01:26:03.600 --> 01:26:08.640
don't answer the door. I never used to pay the

1040
01:26:08.680 --> 01:26:13.479
TV license until I moved here, but I pretty much

1041
01:26:13.520 --> 01:26:18.760
always lived in a multiple occupancy house, so the landlord

1042
01:26:18.840 --> 01:26:24.520
paid the TV license for the building. So I never

1043
01:26:24.560 --> 01:26:28.600
had to pay a TV license until I moved here,

1044
01:26:28.640 --> 01:26:32.600
and I thought, I'll just pay it because I've seen

1045
01:26:32.640 --> 01:26:36.199
what happens when people don't pay it and they get hounded,

1046
01:26:38.880 --> 01:26:47.079
and how do they watch that? Look, how do they

1047
01:26:47.159 --> 01:26:48.640
know if you have a TV or not? So this

1048
01:26:48.760 --> 01:26:57.800
is Mike, Well, I have these Well, they basically just

1049
01:26:57.920 --> 01:27:02.239
look at who's paid for a TV license. So if

1050
01:27:02.239 --> 01:27:05.199
they've got everyone in a road except number forty three,

1051
01:27:05.359 --> 01:27:10.159
seventy two, and sixty five haven't paid a TV license,

1052
01:27:11.359 --> 01:27:15.479
then they know where to go. And they're just going

1053
01:27:15.560 --> 01:27:20.960
to assume that everybody has a TV, because most everybody

1054
01:27:21.000 --> 01:27:25.399
does have a TV. Some people don't, but most people do,

1055
01:27:25.479 --> 01:27:29.479
and even those people who don't. Actually, I remember having

1056
01:27:29.479 --> 01:27:34.640
this conversation with a dog walker and they said, oh yeah,

1057
01:27:35.079 --> 01:27:37.800
they said something about TV, and I said, wait a minute,

1058
01:27:37.880 --> 01:27:42.439
you told me you don't watch TV, because I remembered

1059
01:27:42.439 --> 01:27:46.520
what they'd said previously. When people contradict themselves. I tend

1060
01:27:46.560 --> 01:27:51.760
to remember what they said previously. And she said, oh no,

1061
01:27:52.119 --> 01:27:57.920
I stream I said, it's still watching Telly, just because

1062
01:27:57.960 --> 01:28:01.319
you don't own a television, So she didn't own a television,

1063
01:28:01.319 --> 01:28:04.720
which I assumed she didn't watch TV or there. There's

1064
01:28:04.760 --> 01:28:06.880
been times when I've not owned a TV, and I

1065
01:28:06.880 --> 01:28:11.880
do still watch TV online on my laptop or at

1066
01:28:11.960 --> 01:28:18.760
least watch programs, you know, streaming. So they will check.

1067
01:28:20.439 --> 01:28:23.439
They can check, and they will knock and they will harass,

1068
01:28:24.520 --> 01:28:28.800
and they also they've got these vans that apparently can tell,

1069
01:28:28.880 --> 01:28:31.680
but I don't know if they can or not. And

1070
01:28:31.840 --> 01:28:37.239
I don't know if it's just there might just be

1071
01:28:37.439 --> 01:28:40.760
like a little sausage roll maker inside there a little

1072
01:28:40.760 --> 01:28:42.880
bed they sleep in. I don't know if there's actually

1073
01:28:42.880 --> 01:28:46.640
anything's working. But yeah, they've definitely got the law on

1074
01:28:46.680 --> 01:28:50.279
their side for some reason. Do they have the right

1075
01:28:50.359 --> 01:28:54.039
to just enter a house and look at your technology devices?

1076
01:28:54.960 --> 01:29:00.720
According to them, they do, but I think it can

1077
01:29:00.800 --> 01:29:02.640
get to the point where they can call the police

1078
01:29:04.039 --> 01:29:10.680
in order to gain access, and which is just ridiculous.

1079
01:29:11.079 --> 01:29:17.560
It's really can you imagine wasting the police time because

1080
01:29:17.600 --> 01:29:23.920
you want to see if someone owns a television's phenomenally

1081
01:29:24.000 --> 01:29:29.680
bad bad, and they do check if they do get

1082
01:29:29.720 --> 01:29:31.760
into your house, they do look around and try and

1083
01:29:31.840 --> 01:29:35.560
check all the technology devices. So if you've got a laptop,

1084
01:29:35.640 --> 01:29:40.079
Dellas Zoom, if you've got broadband, you've got internet, if

1085
01:29:40.079 --> 01:29:44.479
you've got a phone with internet, then you can watch television.

1086
01:29:45.359 --> 01:29:47.760
If you've got access, If you're able to watch television,

1087
01:29:47.840 --> 01:29:50.720
then they think you should be paying a TV license.

1088
01:29:50.920 --> 01:29:59.119
That's their mentality. Everybody with a smartphone can gain access

1089
01:29:59.319 --> 01:30:02.840
to streaming television in the UK anywhere. I don't know

1090
01:30:02.840 --> 01:30:05.760
what it's like in America or in Australia or Canada

1091
01:30:05.880 --> 01:30:12.680
or anywhere else, but in the UK, any phone, you know,

1092
01:30:12.960 --> 01:30:19.000
a decent phone which has internet access, which would be

1093
01:30:19.039 --> 01:30:25.800
every phone that's in the world can stream TV. So

1094
01:30:25.880 --> 01:30:33.159
it's very difficult to really get out of it. And yeah,

1095
01:30:33.279 --> 01:30:34.920
I'm not not a big fan of the whole thing,

1096
01:30:34.960 --> 01:30:39.119
but you know what, sometimes what's an old old saying,

1097
01:30:39.239 --> 01:30:43.399
pick your battles, and I can't be bothered with this,

1098
01:30:43.800 --> 01:30:47.880
you know. I know people that have stood up for

1099
01:30:47.960 --> 01:30:53.760
themselves and ended up with a big fine COREK costs

1100
01:30:53.800 --> 01:30:56.479
and you know, just like it's not worth it for

1101
01:30:56.520 --> 01:31:00.960
the sake of fifteen pound a month. No, so yeah,

1102
01:31:00.960 --> 01:31:04.279
they kind of got us by the the Curly Worldies

1103
01:31:04.359 --> 01:31:09.880
as it were. I mean, I just I don't know

1104
01:31:10.600 --> 01:31:14.399
for personally. I think the BBC it would make sense

1105
01:31:14.399 --> 01:31:17.880
for the BBC to either just start having adverts or

1106
01:31:19.439 --> 01:31:22.479
have it as an app, you know, where people can

1107
01:31:22.640 --> 01:31:26.960
just subscribe, subscribe to all the different channels on the

1108
01:31:27.000 --> 01:31:30.960
BBC for a monthly price, which would be the cost

1109
01:31:31.000 --> 01:31:35.680
of a TV license. The problem with that is they

1110
01:31:35.680 --> 01:31:45.239
would probably I imagine, lose ninety percent of their customers. Ninety

1111
01:31:45.279 --> 01:31:49.119
percent of the revenue would probably be gone because people

1112
01:31:49.119 --> 01:31:57.119
wouldn't wouldn't want to pay you know. If they didn't,

1113
01:31:57.159 --> 01:31:59.119
they didn't if they didn't have to pay it, they wouldn't.

1114
01:31:59.399 --> 01:32:04.960
They probably find another way to watch it. So how

1115
01:32:05.000 --> 01:32:08.399
do you feel about bugs? Says Allie. Are you a

1116
01:32:08.479 --> 01:32:11.760
kill of spiders? I know, I know technically and they

1117
01:32:11.840 --> 01:32:14.560
record you needed, I think, Or do you catch them

1118
01:32:14.560 --> 01:32:15.439
and bring them outside?

1119
01:32:16.960 --> 01:32:17.000
No?

1120
01:32:17.279 --> 01:32:20.720
I don't kill bugs. I'm not bothered our bugs. Really

1121
01:32:21.720 --> 01:32:25.039
flies annoy me because I keep trying to land on

1122
01:32:25.079 --> 01:32:29.560
my food. And I said to him, like, why you

1123
01:32:29.640 --> 01:32:32.760
keep landing on my breakfast? And a fly said, I'm

1124
01:32:32.760 --> 01:32:34.560
trying to get the taste of that dog poo out

1125
01:32:34.560 --> 01:32:35.000
of my mouth.

1126
01:32:35.720 --> 01:32:36.159
It's like.

1127
01:32:37.880 --> 01:32:43.319
Rude. I was like, why they annoy me? Flies annoy me,

1128
01:32:44.079 --> 01:32:46.640
not enough to sort of get too angry, just just

1129
01:32:46.680 --> 01:32:50.479
annoy a bit. Spiders I don't care about. I wouldn't

1130
01:32:50.520 --> 01:32:52.560
even put it outside. Just leave it and leave it,

1131
01:32:52.640 --> 01:32:56.600
let me do what it wants. I don't care. And

1132
01:33:04.760 --> 01:33:07.319
Horrce just popped up onto the window sill and then

1133
01:33:07.359 --> 01:33:18.479
he's gone talking about creepy caoris and bugs. Horister pigeon. Yeah,

1134
01:33:18.760 --> 01:33:22.279
I think spiders, I'm not bothered. I don't care about them.

1135
01:33:22.319 --> 01:33:24.720
I think the only the only bug, if you want

1136
01:33:24.720 --> 01:33:27.359
to call it a bug, would be like a wasp

1137
01:33:27.880 --> 01:33:35.159
or a be a hornet, that kind of thing. I

1138
01:33:35.199 --> 01:33:38.359
would definitely try to well. I would always try and

1139
01:33:38.399 --> 01:33:43.840
guide them out of the window. I would put the

1140
01:33:43.840 --> 01:33:47.279
effort in to get them out of the window because

1141
01:33:47.600 --> 01:33:50.960
this isn't the right place for those animals to be.

1142
01:33:52.079 --> 01:33:56.920
They you know, they need to be outside. None of

1143
01:33:56.920 --> 01:34:01.399
them want to be inside, really, I don't think. So

1144
01:34:01.640 --> 01:34:05.800
I try and get them out and without doing any harm.

1145
01:34:05.840 --> 01:34:11.960
You know, in the past, if it was a spider,

1146
01:34:12.000 --> 01:34:14.199
i'd probably would try and get it outside, but I

1147
01:34:14.239 --> 01:34:17.960
don't care anymore. Just doesn't bother p Spiders don't bother

1148
01:34:18.000 --> 01:34:21.079
me at all. I don't bother them. They don't bother me.

1149
01:34:22.159 --> 01:34:24.600
But luckily I'm in a country where we haven't got

1150
01:34:24.600 --> 01:34:30.439
a way about stuff like that. Yees. For me, it

1151
01:34:30.640 --> 01:34:40.800
just I think flies with anyone's that annoyed me. And

1152
01:34:40.920 --> 01:34:45.680
when I hear a wasp's like because I know wasps

1153
01:34:45.680 --> 01:34:48.960
don't bother me if I don't bother them, but trying

1154
01:34:48.960 --> 01:34:50.319
to get them out of the window can be a

1155
01:34:50.359 --> 01:34:53.680
little bit bothersome to them. I don't. I don't want

1156
01:34:53.680 --> 01:34:59.159
to push them, you know, too far. Hope asks me,

1157
01:34:59.319 --> 01:35:03.640
do you like any sports other than boxing? If so, what, no,

1158
01:35:05.199 --> 01:35:14.600
Sandy asks no, genuinely, not really. I don't mind a

1159
01:35:14.600 --> 01:35:19.319
bit of mixed martial arts in UFC and stuff that

1160
01:35:19.399 --> 01:35:25.560
can be amazing. I'm the skill. I never really appreciated

1161
01:35:25.560 --> 01:35:31.680
the skill until more recently, and it's phenomenally skillful. I

1162
01:35:31.760 --> 01:35:34.640
just don't find it when they're on the floor. That's

1163
01:35:34.680 --> 01:35:37.479
when it's the real skill is. But I don't find

1164
01:35:37.479 --> 01:35:44.920
it exciting to watch. It's interesting to watch, but it's

1165
01:35:44.960 --> 01:35:49.199
not exciting in the same way as punching is for me.

1166
01:35:50.560 --> 01:35:53.840
But I can see, like if someone can do something

1167
01:35:53.840 --> 01:35:57.079
that I can't do most people, to be fair, so

1168
01:35:57.479 --> 01:36:01.239
I'm impressed to see the highest legs and with the

1169
01:36:01.359 --> 01:36:05.439
USC that's what you see, just like with the professional boxers.

1170
01:36:06.039 --> 01:36:10.439
He's seeing the boxers at the highest level. And I

1171
01:36:10.439 --> 01:36:13.279
can't even talk about other other sports that I might

1172
01:36:13.439 --> 01:36:16.840
like having in boxing without talking about boxing. It's terrible.

1173
01:36:18.960 --> 01:36:22.640
I used to I used to like tennis and snooker

1174
01:36:22.720 --> 01:36:25.680
when I was a kid, but that's and darts even

1175
01:36:25.720 --> 01:36:29.439
because we were grew up watching that stuff. You know,

1176
01:36:29.720 --> 01:36:34.920
snooker was huge in this country in the early eighties.

1177
01:36:36.840 --> 01:36:42.279
Darts was huge, Honestly, it's a big, really really popular sports.

1178
01:36:43.279 --> 01:36:53.119
Eric Bristow and tennis, Mecenroe, Connor Beyond brought Beyond Beyond

1179
01:36:53.319 --> 01:36:59.239
borg what his name was, and all these and then

1180
01:36:59.279 --> 01:37:02.680
Agacy in the early nineties or late eighties, early nineties,

1181
01:37:02.720 --> 01:37:08.479
and you know, tennis was huge in this country during

1182
01:37:08.520 --> 01:37:14.760
the old McEnroe era, partly because of McEnroe, to be fair,

1183
01:37:14.880 --> 01:37:22.239
he just he really a bit like Alex Higgins with snooker.

1184
01:37:23.439 --> 01:37:29.880
He made it into Hurricane Higgins they called him.

1185
01:37:29.880 --> 01:37:30.359
But he was.

1186
01:37:31.399 --> 01:37:35.920
It was a maverick and so yeah, I don't know,

1187
01:37:36.680 --> 01:37:38.800
so I quite. I used to watch football as well

1188
01:37:38.840 --> 01:37:42.840
because my oldest brother loved football and I wanted to

1189
01:37:42.840 --> 01:37:46.960
be like him a bit. So I used to watch football.

1190
01:37:47.560 --> 01:37:51.920
And at that time we lived near a town called Ipswich,

1191
01:37:52.239 --> 01:37:55.399
which was head of the league. They won it FA

1192
01:37:55.479 --> 01:37:59.319
Cup and the Europa Cup or whatever. They were the

1193
01:37:59.359 --> 01:38:05.079
top league. They were the top team in the country,

1194
01:38:05.239 --> 01:38:10.279
and so it was hard not to kind of been

1195
01:38:10.800 --> 01:38:15.640
to get blown away with that wave of excitement when

1196
01:38:15.920 --> 01:38:19.880
our local team was the best team in the entire

1197
01:38:19.960 --> 01:38:23.239
country and one of the best teams in the world

1198
01:38:23.439 --> 01:38:29.279
like Europe, you know, like football teams. So I'll tell

1199
01:38:29.279 --> 01:38:36.359
you when that was. Nineteen seventy eight two So Ipswich

1200
01:38:37.880 --> 01:38:44.479
Town Football Club FC, Ipswich Town FC. So let's have

1201
01:38:44.520 --> 01:38:51.119
a look the nineteen seventy eight FA Cup Finals Association

1202
01:38:51.319 --> 01:38:54.800
for the match between Arsenal and its Switched Town six

1203
01:38:54.880 --> 01:39:01.439
and May nineteen seventy eight at old Wembley Stadium. And

1204
01:39:01.520 --> 01:39:04.840
so if I just go to study, I want to

1205
01:39:04.880 --> 01:39:10.079
just I want to back this up with actual correct

1206
01:39:10.119 --> 01:39:16.880
information rather than just me making it up, because I

1207
01:39:16.920 --> 01:39:25.319
do remember them being really really really really big and

1208
01:39:27.880 --> 01:39:31.199
it was their biggest time and it was during the

1209
01:39:31.199 --> 01:39:34.960
Bobby Robson era as well, so Bobby Robson who was

1210
01:39:35.000 --> 01:39:46.520
a legend as a manager, and so so Bobby Rogers

1211
01:39:46.600 --> 01:39:52.600
during the Bobby Robson era. At their peak in the

1212
01:39:52.680 --> 01:39:57.079
nineteen seventy nine nineteen eighty season, they beat Manchester United.

1213
01:40:03.039 --> 01:40:05.840
Their major success came nineteen seventy eight when Ipswich b

1214
01:40:06.119 --> 01:40:09.520
Arsenal at Wembley Stadium to win the only their only

1215
01:40:09.720 --> 01:40:15.319
FA Cup trophy. The triumph was followed or by almost

1216
01:40:15.439 --> 01:40:22.199
winning the triple in eighty eighty one, so they are

1217
01:40:22.399 --> 01:40:28.840
really big, really big back then, and it's which did

1218
01:40:28.840 --> 01:40:37.439
win the UEFA Cup in nineteen eighty one as well.

1219
01:40:37.600 --> 01:40:40.960
It's hard, I mean anyone that's been I suppose there's

1220
01:40:40.960 --> 01:40:46.560
probably thousands of people, anyone that's had their local football

1221
01:40:46.600 --> 01:40:52.359
team be like at the top. Even if it is

1222
01:40:52.439 --> 01:40:54.359
just for a year, a couple of years or whatever,

1223
01:40:55.159 --> 01:40:58.640
it is something it has an effect on the local area,

1224
01:40:59.159 --> 01:41:04.600
it really does. Like really, I've only experienced it once

1225
01:41:04.680 --> 01:41:07.279
and that was, you know, when I lived near Ipswich

1226
01:41:08.680 --> 01:41:12.479
and when I was a kid, So between seventy eight

1227
01:41:12.520 --> 01:41:18.319
and eighty two Ipswich for big players and to win

1228
01:41:18.359 --> 01:41:22.399
the FA Cup is like at the time it was

1229
01:41:22.439 --> 01:41:27.600
like the highest prize really and there's a lot more

1230
01:41:27.640 --> 01:41:30.319
different cups now. That's for me. FA Cup was a

1231
01:41:30.439 --> 01:41:34.600
much bigger deal than it is even now. I'm saying

1232
01:41:34.640 --> 01:41:38.479
that like I know something about football. And also what's

1233
01:41:38.560 --> 01:41:44.199
really big back then was sabutio, which is I don't

1234
01:41:44.239 --> 01:41:47.680
if you've ever heard of it. It's basically, you put

1235
01:41:47.720 --> 01:41:50.920
this green cloth onto a table. You can play it

1236
01:41:50.960 --> 01:41:52.039
on the floor as well, but it needs to be

1237
01:41:52.079 --> 01:41:55.880
a flat floor. I mean, I don't know how many

1238
01:41:55.880 --> 01:41:59.479
floors are bumpy and lopsided, but you buy flat, I

1239
01:41:59.479 --> 01:42:03.439
mean because you're you're basically got these things that they're

1240
01:42:03.439 --> 01:42:07.359
like little weebles, you know, weebles robble but they don't

1241
01:42:07.359 --> 01:42:12.319
fall down, but you push them and they then they

1242
01:42:12.399 --> 01:42:18.680
hit the ball and the ball pushes and yeah, I

1243
01:42:18.680 --> 01:42:21.079
don't know. It made sense to me when I said it,

1244
01:42:21.119 --> 01:42:29.640
but a very popular game, so no, I don't really

1245
01:42:29.680 --> 01:42:37.640
it's boxing is the only sport I follow, even things

1246
01:42:37.800 --> 01:42:49.279
like martial arts, the taekwondo of the Olympics, judo, I

1247
01:42:49.319 --> 01:42:55.840
think some of that stuff. Judo, for example, is when

1248
01:42:55.880 --> 01:43:01.680
you realize what's being done. I think, okay, I'm going

1249
01:43:01.680 --> 01:43:05.960
to talk talk for myself with judo because my dad

1250
01:43:06.039 --> 01:43:09.039
was a judo man. When he was at school, he

1251
01:43:09.159 --> 01:43:13.880
got to got brown belt in judo, and so that

1252
01:43:14.000 --> 01:43:15.319
was his thing and he kept.

1253
01:43:15.239 --> 01:43:15.640
It with him.

1254
01:43:15.680 --> 01:43:18.800
He's like always, yeah, it was good balance and all

1255
01:43:18.840 --> 01:43:22.159
that stuff. But I didn't watching it. I didn't see

1256
01:43:23.520 --> 01:43:26.680
I couldn't see any kind of excitement, any kind of

1257
01:43:27.199 --> 01:43:30.319
point to watching it. I could see the point of

1258
01:43:30.439 --> 01:43:35.880
doing it. But once you learn a little bit about

1259
01:43:35.920 --> 01:43:41.000
what they're doing, you realize that it's phenomenal what they're

1260
01:43:41.000 --> 01:43:46.760
doing actually, And when you put two really really good people,

1261
01:43:48.560 --> 01:43:52.399
it's it's like a chess game. It's almost you know,

1262
01:43:52.439 --> 01:43:55.000
if you put one one really good person against someone

1263
01:43:55.000 --> 01:43:59.680
that's average, then that really good person is going to

1264
01:43:59.760 --> 01:44:04.079
check that average person all around, and it's going to

1265
01:44:04.119 --> 01:44:06.960
look spectacular. It's going to you know, it's going to

1266
01:44:07.039 --> 01:44:10.880
look just amazing. But you put two really good people

1267
01:44:10.920 --> 01:44:15.199
together and no one's going to get chucked around. Necessarily.

1268
01:44:15.680 --> 01:44:19.560
They're going to try and chuck each other around. And

1269
01:44:19.640 --> 01:44:23.319
it's the same with the USC or with the jiu jitsu.

1270
01:44:24.760 --> 01:44:27.159
They'll try and get each other choke each other out.

1271
01:44:27.760 --> 01:44:30.920
But it's much easier for you know, if I got

1272
01:44:30.920 --> 01:44:36.600
into a jiu jitsu someone that's I even doing it

1273
01:44:36.600 --> 01:44:41.199
a little while would get me into a choke in seconds.

1274
01:44:43.359 --> 01:44:50.560
But two really good people they can't. It's not that easy.

1275
01:44:51.119 --> 01:44:52.800
Not that it's that it will be easy for them,

1276
01:44:53.000 --> 01:44:59.760
but I'd say it's it's which in a way, as

1277
01:44:59.800 --> 01:45:08.039
a as an observer, as an audience, it I think

1278
01:45:08.079 --> 01:45:16.319
unless really into the sport, the skill doesn't necessarily impress

1279
01:45:18.199 --> 01:45:22.119
because not based on speed. But with you know, with races,

1280
01:45:22.399 --> 01:45:25.920
the one who wins first, when it gets their first wins.

1281
01:45:26.720 --> 01:45:29.520
It's a much easier thing to watch, isn't it a

1282
01:45:29.600 --> 01:45:36.479
running race, a swimming raceer wharing rowing, sorry rowing race,

1283
01:45:38.159 --> 01:45:43.560
hoeing hoeing rowing, horse race or whatever. You know, when

1284
01:45:43.680 --> 01:45:48.199
people are racing and it makes sense like okay, the

1285
01:45:48.279 --> 01:45:53.560
winner wins. But when it comes to like combat sports

1286
01:45:53.880 --> 01:45:57.039
is just so much more. I mean boxing used to

1287
01:45:57.119 --> 01:46:01.199
be I preferred the boxing in the olymps. How it

1288
01:46:01.359 --> 01:46:04.159
used to be when they used to have a scoring system.

1289
01:46:04.319 --> 01:46:08.880
When a beat like would actually every time a glove

1290
01:46:09.000 --> 01:46:13.880
touched the head guard or the body, it would trigger

1291
01:46:13.960 --> 01:46:18.720
off a point. So that was good because then you

1292
01:46:18.800 --> 01:46:22.000
could see how many points each boxer needed to win,

1293
01:46:22.199 --> 01:46:23.960
and if he was on one person's side, you so,

1294
01:46:24.039 --> 01:46:27.520
I get more, get more. Now they don't do that anymore.

1295
01:46:27.840 --> 01:46:30.680
If I don't even have head gear anymore, I don't

1296
01:46:30.720 --> 01:46:36.520
think you in the amateur Do they have head gear

1297
01:46:36.640 --> 01:46:39.800
in the Olympics, I don't know if they do anymore.

1298
01:46:41.399 --> 01:46:48.159
They might do, so I think with because I'm a

1299
01:46:48.319 --> 01:46:53.000
very I'm a non fan when I watch any other sport.

1300
01:46:53.720 --> 01:46:58.520
So I do watch something, I'm looking for excitement in

1301
01:46:58.640 --> 01:47:01.279
the same way as if someone not really into boxing,

1302
01:47:03.399 --> 01:47:05.640
they might watch the same five as me and think

1303
01:47:05.800 --> 01:47:09.720
what a pile of rubbish, And I might think that

1304
01:47:09.920 --> 01:47:13.800
was an amazing fight. It might not be exciting in

1305
01:47:13.920 --> 01:47:18.000
the sense of lots of action, but the skill involved,

1306
01:47:19.640 --> 01:47:23.359
you know, it might might be phenomenal. The kind of

1307
01:47:23.439 --> 01:47:29.239
skill you'd get with Mayweather, or the kind of skill

1308
01:47:29.319 --> 01:47:37.720
you get with Tyson Fury or with Usik. There's different

1309
01:47:37.800 --> 01:47:46.239
types of skill levels, or with Lumachenko the nomenal skills.

1310
01:47:49.479 --> 01:47:53.720
So it's not always exciting to watch, but you know,

1311
01:47:53.880 --> 01:47:57.279
I think there's a reason why only one person ever

1312
01:47:57.439 --> 01:48:06.960
beat Tyson Fury. And there was Usik. Because Usik is phenomenal.

1313
01:48:08.720 --> 01:48:12.119
He is now poundful pound the top out of everyone

1314
01:48:12.359 --> 01:48:17.760
at the moment. But is this something he's like, Wow,

1315
01:48:18.239 --> 01:48:22.800
he's got Yeah. Anyway, I won't bore you about to

1316
01:48:22.800 --> 01:48:27.800
talking about boxing. But no, I'm not really interested in

1317
01:48:28.239 --> 01:48:31.119
other sports. Boxing is the only one I really like.

1318
01:48:33.359 --> 01:48:41.399
And I'm trying to think of any others. No, not really.

1319
01:48:43.840 --> 01:48:46.560
Sandy asks, I would like to know if you have

1320
01:48:47.399 --> 01:48:51.720
taught Finny any tricks. And also thank you for being

1321
01:48:51.800 --> 01:48:54.039
with me for the last six years. I love fullness

1322
01:48:54.119 --> 01:48:56.520
leap to your stories. Well, thank you, Sandy, thank you

1323
01:48:56.680 --> 01:48:59.359
for inviting me to be with you for the last

1324
01:48:59.359 --> 01:49:06.479
six years. I'm happy to help Vinnie. He's taught me

1325
01:49:06.560 --> 01:49:11.720
a few tricks. Vinnie will not do a single thing

1326
01:49:12.000 --> 01:49:15.800
I ask him to do. Do you know the whole

1327
01:49:15.880 --> 01:49:21.800
time I've had him, which is two years and two

1328
01:49:22.000 --> 01:49:25.880
years and five months six months, nearly two years and

1329
01:49:26.119 --> 01:49:30.600
six months I've had him, he won't come into the

1330
01:49:30.680 --> 01:49:35.680
kitchen unless he wants to. And if I say to him,

1331
01:49:35.920 --> 01:49:40.880
something's making a weird noise over there. If I say

1332
01:49:40.960 --> 01:49:44.239
to him, do you want to come come in the kitchen,

1333
01:49:44.960 --> 01:49:49.880
he just stands at the door and stares at me. Right,

1334
01:49:52.279 --> 01:49:55.600
I've now realized, and this is a new thing. If

1335
01:49:55.640 --> 01:49:57.880
I say to him, stay there, he runs into the kitchen.

1336
01:50:02.239 --> 01:50:04.600
He won't do what I tell him. It does exactly

1337
01:50:04.720 --> 01:50:07.359
the opposite. So I realized he wouldn't do what I

1338
01:50:07.399 --> 01:50:10.800
told him. I realized that. But he will do the opposite.

1339
01:50:10.800 --> 01:50:15.039
So if I don't want him to do something, I

1340
01:50:15.239 --> 01:50:17.239
just tell him to do the thing I don't want

1341
01:50:17.319 --> 01:50:20.479
him to do, and he does the thing that I

1342
01:50:20.560 --> 01:50:25.399
do want him to do. No, no, I tell him

1343
01:50:25.439 --> 01:50:27.720
to tell him to do the thing that I do

1344
01:50:27.840 --> 01:50:29.920
want him to do, but I tell him not to

1345
01:50:30.000 --> 01:50:35.000
do the thing that Oh I knew what I mean.

1346
01:50:35.119 --> 01:50:39.159
You know what I mean. So if it's reverse psychology

1347
01:50:39.279 --> 01:50:43.800
or whatever, but he will not. If I say sit,

1348
01:50:43.960 --> 01:50:48.399
he stands, I say stand, he sits. He You know,

1349
01:50:49.520 --> 01:50:51.840
he won't do a single thing I tell him or

1350
01:50:51.920 --> 01:50:58.880
ask him. The only thing he's ever done consistently is

1351
01:50:59.399 --> 01:51:04.199
when I'm out. And only command he ever listens to

1352
01:51:05.760 --> 01:51:10.920
is when I shout to him. THENNY ignore me and

1353
01:51:10.960 --> 01:51:15.760
he does the only thing he actually listens to. So

1354
01:51:17.600 --> 01:51:22.960
he won't do anything, no tricks, nothing, He's just completely

1355
01:51:26.600 --> 01:51:29.319
is all about him. He does whatever he wants, whenever

1356
01:51:29.399 --> 01:51:35.520
he wants, even in bed. Right if I accidentally touch him,

1357
01:51:36.039 --> 01:51:41.319
my hand moves over or my leg moves, he growls

1358
01:51:41.399 --> 01:51:54.399
at me. It's my bed, he growls at me. He's very, very,

1359
01:51:56.600 --> 01:52:09.279
a little bit temperamental. Ah, I think that's all the questions.

1360
01:52:09.520 --> 01:52:11.840
I've got no idea how long I've been doing this for,

1361
01:52:12.600 --> 01:52:19.119
but it's now tend to four, so I've been doing

1362
01:52:19.119 --> 01:52:24.680
it over an hour. There's warm in it. That's because

1363
01:52:24.720 --> 01:52:27.079
I opened I closed the window. Isn't it because of

1364
01:52:27.159 --> 01:52:33.399
that man doing washing, cleaning the windows or whatever? So

1365
01:52:34.399 --> 01:52:37.119
thank you for listening, and remember to be kind to

1366
01:52:37.199 --> 01:52:43.119
yourself because you do deserve to be happy. Lots of love. Bye.

1367
01:52:48.680 --> 01:53:03.199
Relax in a more deep and meaningful way, maybe in

1368
01:53:03.319 --> 01:53:08.800
a way that can not just allow you to feel

1369
01:53:10.239 --> 01:53:19.319
calmer now and throughout the time we've spend together here,

1370
01:53:21.479 --> 01:53:27.159
not just relaxed at the end of the recording when

1371
01:53:27.199 --> 01:53:33.840
it's finished and you can enjoy that sense of comfort

1372
01:53:34.039 --> 01:53:48.920
and peace, but also I think it would be nice

1373
01:53:49.079 --> 01:54:08.800
to have those feelings of relaxation continue for longer after

1374
01:54:08.960 --> 01:54:19.479
the recording has ended, so that you can still benefit

1375
01:54:22.399 --> 01:54:29.640
from listening to my voice maybe in a few hours time,

1376
01:54:31.600 --> 01:54:45.000
perhaps tomorrow, and then by listening regularly, especially if you

1377
01:54:45.239 --> 01:54:49.439
find like some people do and myself as well. I

1378
01:54:50.039 --> 01:54:56.760
sometimes I find one particular recording that really resonates with me,

1379
01:55:01.119 --> 01:55:03.479
and I just listened to it over and over again

1380
01:55:05.800 --> 01:55:18.800
every morning, every evening. There was this recording from We're

1381
01:55:18.840 --> 01:55:24.560
going back to about nineteen ninety nine. It wasn't hypnosis,

1382
01:55:24.640 --> 01:55:29.920
but it was a guided visualizations. It kind of was hypnosis, really,

1383
01:55:32.439 --> 01:55:37.600
and I managed to find it again and it still

1384
01:55:37.720 --> 01:55:43.119
has the same effect on me. And part of it

1385
01:55:43.479 --> 01:55:58.159
was the person's voice relaxed me just felt so peaceful,

1386
01:56:00.319 --> 01:56:06.760
and I'd look forward to listening to her in the

1387
01:56:06.880 --> 01:56:17.560
morning and in the evening. And I knew before even

1388
01:56:18.319 --> 01:56:25.399
pressing the play button. As soon as I've done that

1389
01:56:26.479 --> 01:56:29.880
pressed the play button. This was in the days of

1390
01:56:35.039 --> 01:56:44.159
CD players press the play button. In fact, it might

1391
01:56:44.199 --> 01:56:48.479
have even been a tape tape recorder. I'd lie down

1392
01:56:48.560 --> 01:57:01.159
on the bed and then even without necessarily listening to

1393
01:57:01.359 --> 01:57:14.479
her words because I had them memorized. Really, it was

1394
01:57:14.520 --> 01:57:25.039
as if my body knew exactly what to do, and

1395
01:57:25.319 --> 01:57:47.039
the muscles just almost went into automatic relaxation, and I

1396
01:57:47.159 --> 01:58:01.720
remember my mind would slow down. Now, I was listening

1397
01:58:01.800 --> 01:58:08.399
to this recording in the early days of learning hypnosis,

1398
01:58:11.119 --> 01:58:18.840
and long before I ever made any videos or audio

1399
01:58:19.000 --> 01:58:23.560
recordings myself, because I didn't start doing that till two

1400
01:58:23.800 --> 01:58:39.800
thousand and six. But I knew, I knew how helpful

1401
01:58:41.680 --> 01:58:53.199
I found being able to just let go, to have

1402
01:58:53.439 --> 01:59:06.279
that trust in the person that I'm listening to, knowing

1403
01:59:06.399 --> 01:59:07.399
that it's going.

1404
01:59:07.279 --> 01:59:07.479
To be.

1405
01:59:11.359 --> 01:59:18.520
Just as relaxing, if not more so. Each time you

1406
01:59:18.640 --> 01:59:31.680
hear my voice, you may feel the same. Some people

1407
01:59:34.279 --> 01:59:46.600
have been listening to me for over a decade, maybe

1408
01:59:46.720 --> 01:59:52.119
not solidly, obviously not twenty four hours a day, but

1409
01:59:54.279 --> 01:59:59.119
maybe people come back. Some people may be listen every day.

1410
02:00:10.359 --> 02:00:16.279
That's something that I do which you may not realize

1411
02:00:18.760 --> 02:00:37.279
by listening, is when I record these recordings. Now, for example,

1412
02:00:41.840 --> 02:00:49.600
I also am affected by the words that I say.

1413
02:00:54.920 --> 02:01:01.279
So if I said to you, focus on your feet,

1414
02:01:03.840 --> 02:01:11.520
notice your feet relaxing, I will be focusing on my feet.

1415
02:01:16.439 --> 02:01:33.840
I will be noticing my feet relaxing. If I said,

1416
02:01:34.000 --> 02:01:41.640
focus on your hands, and maybe notice the difference between

1417
02:01:41.720 --> 02:01:52.520
each hand, Perhaps notice the air in the room, the

1418
02:01:52.680 --> 02:01:57.279
temperature of the room, on the backs of your hands.

1419
02:02:05.119 --> 02:02:08.960
You may start to notice what almost feels like a

1420
02:02:09.159 --> 02:02:17.039
very light breeze, even though there may not be any

1421
02:02:17.600 --> 02:02:22.359
type of breeze at all where you are right now.

1422
02:02:30.720 --> 02:02:41.279
And as you become aware of your hands, I'm also

1423
02:02:41.640 --> 02:03:09.800
aware of how relaxed my hands are feeling now, and

1424
02:03:10.039 --> 02:03:16.920
when it comes to potentially drifting off to sleep, which

1425
02:03:17.039 --> 02:03:30.159
may be the reason you're listening, I also feel drowsy

1426
02:03:33.399 --> 02:03:46.840
when I make these recordings. I also notice my mind drifting.

1427
02:03:54.760 --> 02:04:07.359
In fact, at times I've actually fallen sleep without even noticing,

1428
02:04:12.239 --> 02:04:21.319
and then I carry on talking. And it's only when

1429
02:04:21.680 --> 02:04:30.760
I listen back to do the editing I hear snoring

1430
02:04:32.640 --> 02:04:39.960
and I think, I don't remember snoring. I remember talking.

1431
02:04:42.760 --> 02:04:49.920
Is it snoring? Was a pick turned up? That's why

1432
02:04:49.960 --> 02:04:58.159
I sound like when I snore, I get really into

1433
02:04:58.319 --> 02:05:17.680
the whole experience. I don't know how you feel. How

1434
02:05:17.760 --> 02:05:27.920
relaxed do you feel in your feet, how relaxed you

1435
02:05:28.199 --> 02:05:49.439
feel in your hands. I have noticed more and more

1436
02:05:55.399 --> 02:06:08.000
that the more relaxed, deeper level of comfort you feel,

1437
02:06:11.720 --> 02:06:27.840
the easier your breathing becomes. It's almost like that additional

1438
02:06:31.039 --> 02:06:51.960
muscle relaxation. So this allows you to breathe easier without

1439
02:06:53.479 --> 02:07:14.159
necessarily focusing on your breath, however, being able to notice

1440
02:07:24.840 --> 02:07:54.520
the ease in which you breathe so naturally, you breathe

1441
02:07:55.159 --> 02:08:38.800
so very easily and smooth. Whenever I imagine my breathing improving,

1442
02:08:44.560 --> 02:08:57.840
when I've got my eyes closed, I tend to visualize

1443
02:09:00.199 --> 02:09:16.720
beautiful field with trees and flowers producing all that life

1444
02:09:16.880 --> 02:09:49.159
giving oxygen. And it feels nice too, if nothing else,

1445
02:09:52.399 --> 02:10:26.520
just taking some time away from everything, enjoying that feeling

1446
02:10:26.920 --> 02:11:17.399
of peace, serenity with a joyful heart. Time seems to

1447
02:11:17.680 --> 02:11:52.800
just drip by, so very slowly, relaxed, so deeply peaceful,

1448
02:12:02.720 --> 02:12:45.479
completely unattached to any thoughts whatsoever in this moment, completely free,

1449
02:13:12.000 --> 02:14:03.319
noticing that your mind has slowed down. Slowed down because

1450
02:14:03.520 --> 02:14:32.079
nothing really requires your attention, you can enjoy the physical

1451
02:14:32.479 --> 02:14:44.079
sensations of allowing the stress to drip out of your body,

1452
02:14:50.600 --> 02:15:13.520
d appear out of every part of your body, and

1453
02:15:13.960 --> 02:15:53.399
being released from your brain, un your mind. Slowly but surely,

1454
02:16:00.279 --> 02:16:37.639
the muscles in your legs relax res res so very deeply,

1455
02:16:47.520 --> 02:17:18.479
res so deeply, and the feelings, the pleasant feelings in

1456
02:17:18.600 --> 02:17:43.079
your arms and shoulders deepening each part of your body

1457
02:17:46.440 --> 02:18:24.760
further and deeper and deeper, noticine, the feelings in the

1458
02:18:24.920 --> 02:19:24.840
back of your neck, the feedings in your wrists, muscles,

1459
02:19:26.879 --> 02:19:55.319
in front of your body, I will say, feeling peaceful

1460
02:20:03.680 --> 02:20:31.479
deep there's a sense of peace spreads through your very cool.

1461
02:21:02.040 --> 02:21:03.479
Even when you.

1462
02:21:06.440 --> 02:21:31.200
Focus on your mind, your mind becomes be and slower,

1463
02:21:47.120 --> 02:23:08.239
even deeper, relax so very slow, stomach peaceful in your stomach,

1464
02:23:30.399 --> 02:24:04.479
felt back. Notice Notice how relaxed you never feel in

1465
02:24:04.639 --> 02:24:36.920
the hole of your back. In a spy from your

1466
02:24:37.040 --> 02:24:41.799
brain all the way down the middle of your back,

1467
02:24:45.079 --> 02:25:05.520
sending and receiving millions of messages every day, deep comfort,

1468
02:25:08.479 --> 02:26:25.120
increasing deeply relaxed you mes relax spreading those signals down

1469
02:26:25.280 --> 02:26:34.239
your spine or cord into air, every part of your body,

1470
02:26:48.879 --> 02:27:37.200
your shins and your calf, muscles, your elbows, feelings of

1471
02:27:37.399 --> 02:27:54.479
peace and tranquility spreading through your body, tips of your toes,

1472
02:27:58.879 --> 02:28:10.520
to your eyes, your fingers. All wait till you'll know

1473
02:28:10.680 --> 02:29:19.639
about I'm letting go reating her pace to drift in mind,

1474
02:29:24.159 --> 02:29:41.200
Just wander in a way happy to let go, let

1475
02:29:41.879 --> 02:30:42.280
go completely, to let go, said, tranquil your whole body

1476
02:30:46.600 --> 02:33:09.440
enjoying a sensor listening that Hey more, Hey, enjoy the space,

1477
02:33:11.840 --> 02:33:13.520
this space.

1478
02:33:16.159 --> 02:33:17.239
Of peace.

1479
02:33:20.440 --> 02:33:45.520
And safety, so very.

1480
02:33:52.760 --> 02:34:56.319
Relaxed, us unity, believing to.

1481
02:35:23.440 --> 02:35:48.120
Letting go. Maybe we can just focus on the different

1482
02:35:48.479 --> 02:36:23.319
parts of your body, just to notice you foolhead and

1483
02:36:23.559 --> 02:37:30.000
your eyestue so loose, noticing in the sense of complete freedom,

1484
02:37:42.079 --> 02:39:33.159
absolute freedom, dress day dress day, he's fall energy paste

1485
02:39:33.680 --> 02:39:40.879
to breeze such ease, yeah.

1486
02:40:22.280 --> 02:40:44.520
Loose. You may.

1487
02:40:48.360 --> 02:41:48.280
Or may not have noticed your mind drifted, peaceful move

1488
02:41:48.760 --> 02:42:08.600
been even more deeply in the direction of total blissful

1489
02:42:08.920 --> 02:44:17.280
pace blisphul pace thereft tie to pace circlm let him go,

1490
02:44:42.200 --> 02:45:53.040
peace of mind re fday, so relaxed, so relaxed. A

1491
02:45:53.319 --> 02:46:26.239
body feels almost invisible, so very relaxed. I'e peaceful, so

1492
02:46:34.000 --> 02:47:36.280
pace rel like God. And you could start to notice

1493
02:47:36.719 --> 02:47:45.719
that you are feeling more relaxed, even though I've not

1494
02:47:47.440 --> 02:47:58.159
purposely focused your mind upon that sense of physical comfort

1495
02:47:58.879 --> 02:48:05.719
that is growing within you throughout your body, and your

1496
02:48:05.840 --> 02:48:16.399
mind starts to slow down. And that could be almost

1497
02:48:16.600 --> 02:48:26.120
in recognition of I guess my speech not being particularly fast,

1498
02:48:32.680 --> 02:48:43.040
and things just generally feel calmer. Just by listening to

1499
02:48:43.239 --> 02:48:51.799
my voice, you give yourself an opportunity to take a

1500
02:48:51.920 --> 02:48:58.719
break from the day take a break from your life

1501
02:49:00.159 --> 02:49:08.799
it is, and to give yourself a rest, giving yourself

1502
02:49:08.959 --> 02:49:16.200
permission to take some time off, and to allow your

1503
02:49:16.239 --> 02:49:22.200
body to relax and allow your mind to slow down,

1504
02:49:26.280 --> 02:49:34.200
which in turn releases the tension any stresses that you

1505
02:49:34.399 --> 02:49:44.280
had in your body. It's almost as if the parts

1506
02:49:44.319 --> 02:49:49.479
of your body just open up, allowing the negativity out

1507
02:49:56.360 --> 02:50:02.360
and at the same time replacing that negativity with positive

1508
02:50:03.559 --> 02:50:11.680
healing energy, which then fills your body up and your

1509
02:50:11.840 --> 02:50:25.719
mind to also starts to appreciate those feelings of increasing

1510
02:50:28.040 --> 02:50:44.840
confidence and almost uplifting feeling positive healing, an energy that

1511
02:50:48.520 --> 02:51:00.239
spreads through your body like a wave of comfort. And

1512
02:51:00.319 --> 02:51:10.440
all this comes from just allowing yourself a few minutes,

1513
02:51:12.319 --> 02:51:15.319
maybe half an hour, however long you want it to be,

1514
02:51:16.840 --> 02:51:28.719
to just rest and allow your mind and your body

1515
02:51:31.000 --> 02:51:47.719
to almost reset itself to the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness,

1516
02:51:52.040 --> 02:52:01.399
which allows more room for feelings of pleasure and happiness

1517
02:52:05.440 --> 02:52:14.239
to move around your body and into your mind, almost

1518
02:52:15.040 --> 02:52:19.639
as if your mind and your body are sinking together,

1519
02:52:23.920 --> 02:52:33.600
almost mirroring each other with that growing positivity and calmness,

1520
02:52:38.680 --> 02:52:46.120
and it feels nice, really does feel nice to know

1521
02:52:46.399 --> 02:52:55.280
that you are the one that has allowed yourself to

1522
02:52:55.559 --> 02:53:09.520
feel more comfort and to experience more of this deep

1523
02:53:09.959 --> 02:53:26.040
relaxation spreading throughout your body, and as I focus on

1524
02:53:26.319 --> 02:53:32.000
each part of your body, you can notice that that

1525
02:53:32.360 --> 02:53:46.479
part becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on it,

1526
02:53:49.200 --> 02:54:02.719
becomes even more calm and comfortable just by focusing. And

1527
02:54:03.000 --> 02:54:08.479
as I move down your body, starting at your head,

1528
02:54:11.200 --> 02:54:16.440
the parts that you have already focused on will continue

1529
02:54:17.840 --> 02:54:24.920
to relax deeply and those parts that have not yet

1530
02:54:25.159 --> 02:54:38.000
focused on or just automatically release any remain intention in

1531
02:54:38.200 --> 02:54:52.479
anticipation of even more comfort about to come now, and

1532
02:54:52.760 --> 02:55:00.239
start by focusing on your forehead. Just being aware the

1533
02:55:00.479 --> 02:55:10.280
feelings of your forehead and then your background sounds like

1534
02:55:10.479 --> 02:55:15.559
mister Herbert the pigeon can just allow you to feel

1535
02:55:15.719 --> 02:55:25.680
even more relaxed. Just means you're in the moment. This

1536
02:55:25.840 --> 02:55:31.000
isn't this isn't a sterile environment. This is the world.

1537
02:55:34.440 --> 02:55:40.479
I live in the countryside, so there's lots of nature

1538
02:55:41.000 --> 02:55:51.479
sounds around. So as you focus on your forehead, just

1539
02:55:51.760 --> 02:55:59.520
notice how it becomes even more relaxed. Is your focus

1540
02:56:01.840 --> 02:56:06.319
only on my voice and that part of your body.

1541
02:56:11.520 --> 02:56:19.799
Moving down to your eyes, focusing on your eyes, noticing

1542
02:56:22.280 --> 02:56:31.959
how your eyelids feel so heavy yet so light at

1543
02:56:32.040 --> 02:56:38.479
the same time, and all the muscles around your eyes

1544
02:56:38.719 --> 02:56:53.159
relaxing completely. Moving your focus down to your mouth, your lips,

1545
02:56:53.600 --> 02:57:03.479
your tongue, your teeth, your gums, all of your mouth relaxing,

1546
02:57:06.959 --> 02:57:17.200
calm and lease. As you focus now on your jaw,

1547
02:57:20.680 --> 02:57:24.680
just the parts of your jaw near your mouth and

1548
02:57:24.840 --> 02:57:29.079
your chin, but all the way up the size of

1549
02:57:29.159 --> 02:57:35.840
your face to your ears, the hole of your jaw

1550
02:57:38.479 --> 02:58:05.600
feeding more relaxed and calm. Focusing on your neck, the

1551
02:58:05.719 --> 02:58:13.239
front of your neck, and your throat relaxing and loose

1552
02:58:13.959 --> 02:58:24.120
and calm. The sides of your neck, right and left

1553
02:58:24.360 --> 02:58:42.879
side of your neck relax and lease and calm. And

1554
02:58:43.040 --> 02:58:50.040
now the back of your neck, focusing on the back

1555
02:58:50.280 --> 02:59:00.520
of your neck, letting go of any tension that may

1556
02:59:00.559 --> 02:59:11.079
have been there before, and enjoying that sense of increasing

1557
02:59:12.719 --> 02:59:15.200
comfort and release.

1558
02:59:17.959 --> 02:59:18.760
Then you can.

1559
02:59:18.760 --> 02:59:29.840
Experience in the back of your neck, moving down your

1560
02:59:30.000 --> 02:59:37.280
back and moving either side of your spine right from

1561
02:59:37.360 --> 02:59:42.680
the top of your back all the way down to

1562
02:59:42.799 --> 02:59:55.079
the bottom of your back, down to your lower back.

1563
03:00:00.319 --> 03:00:07.440
As you move up and down your spine, you can

1564
03:00:07.600 --> 03:00:15.799
feel the muscles either side of your spine relaxing even more.

1565
03:00:23.319 --> 03:00:30.040
And as those muscles relax, that sense of comfort starts

1566
03:00:30.159 --> 03:00:40.280
to spread outwards from your spine into both sides of

1567
03:00:40.399 --> 03:00:47.399
your back, the top of your back, the middle en

1568
03:00:47.520 --> 03:00:57.000
your lower back. And as you scan gently and slowly

1569
03:00:58.239 --> 03:01:03.479
up and down your back, there's the muscles in the

1570
03:01:03.639 --> 03:01:13.479
top of your back relax and become looser. The muscles

1571
03:01:13.600 --> 03:01:19.239
in the middle of your back also seem to just

1572
03:01:19.680 --> 03:01:34.159
almost divide from each other, separating and almost melting. And

1573
03:01:34.399 --> 03:01:40.440
in your lower back there seems to be an extra

1574
03:01:40.680 --> 03:01:56.799
special feeling of comfort. The spreads into your hips. Sit

1575
03:01:56.920 --> 03:02:05.040
down your lower back, into your hips, into the area

1576
03:02:05.079 --> 03:02:13.639
where your cosix are, and into your buttocks, and all

1577
03:02:13.680 --> 03:02:20.200
those muscles that spread bring your lower back.

1578
03:02:22.479 --> 03:02:23.479
Into your hip.

1579
03:02:23.399 --> 03:02:43.040
Area start to melt, start to reading, let go, and

1580
03:02:43.239 --> 03:02:49.719
you know where about to focus on your shoulders. Your

1581
03:02:49.959 --> 03:03:00.600
back and your spine will continue to let go, continue

1582
03:03:01.440 --> 03:03:16.319
to relax so calmly. As you focus on your shoulders,

1583
03:03:18.079 --> 03:03:34.159
you may notice they're already feeling really loose, They're already

1584
03:03:37.239 --> 03:04:00.440
feeding calm. I fear those muscles. The move on your

1585
03:04:00.559 --> 03:04:20.959
neck into your shoulders feels so soft and gentle, so smooth.

1586
03:04:27.200 --> 03:04:49.680
And calm, and the feeling in your shoulders seems to

1587
03:04:50.120 --> 03:04:58.600
spread deep into your shoulders, a sense of relaxation, not

1588
03:04:59.120 --> 03:05:12.920
just traveling deeply into your muscles, but also relaxing the

1589
03:05:13.079 --> 03:05:22.760
bones and moving all the way to underneath your arms,

1590
03:05:25.600 --> 03:05:31.520
relaxing a whole area between the tops of your shoulders

1591
03:05:32.879 --> 03:05:34.319
and underneath your arms.

1592
03:05:38.680 --> 03:05:45.280
He then you feel so.

1593
03:05:47.239 --> 03:05:58.719
Relaxed and comfortable in your shoulders, which sense that.

1594
03:06:00.959 --> 03:06:02.920
Deep healing.

1595
03:06:05.959 --> 03:06:23.479
Message into your arms. You may feel almost as if

1596
03:06:23.559 --> 03:06:24.680
your arms are.

1597
03:06:24.680 --> 03:06:25.479
Not even that.

1598
03:06:27.159 --> 03:06:49.040
Because they so relaxed, so deeply relaxed, so so calm,

1599
03:07:04.200 --> 03:07:26.000
So this the feelings spreading all way down your arms

1600
03:07:28.760 --> 03:07:58.840
two elbows, including your elbows comforts spreads away into wrists,

1601
03:08:01.639 --> 03:08:17.639
your form nder wrists so heavy. He has the same

1602
03:08:18.879 --> 03:08:57.760
time sunlight and gentle for st.

1603
03:08:59.559 --> 03:09:00.559
Mhm out.

1604
03:09:03.600 --> 03:09:57.239
Your hands, My hands, so peaceful in your hands. It's

1605
03:09:57.280 --> 03:10:22.959
a sense real pace. It just seems to feel so

1606
03:10:23.360 --> 03:11:32.920
familiar on your hands, relax deeply else your fingers. It's

1607
03:12:05.760 --> 03:12:40.399
when you think it tips your attention from your body

1608
03:12:53.559 --> 03:14:30.920
so constable. Then focus legs like my souls.

1609
03:14:32.680 --> 03:14:34.200
In your thoughts.

1610
03:14:55.600 --> 03:17:43.840
Relat calf muscles, just sads cozy, feathing your feet sir, peaceful,

1611
03:17:45.920 --> 03:18:44.520
so calm, so peaceful, circom so peaceful, sycom so peace

1612
03:18:45.159 --> 03:18:55.959
for brack say.

1613
03:19:01.040 --> 03:19:15.559
Piece four calm, loud of.

1614
03:19:15.600 --> 03:19:28.120
That deep relaxation, to spread your chest your stormlight.

1615
03:19:35.840 --> 03:19:54.239
Let's me go of everything. So I'm gonna start counting

1616
03:19:54.399 --> 03:20:06.079
down now from twenty down to one. You can imagine

1617
03:20:06.159 --> 03:20:09.840
in a way it's like just walking down some steps

1618
03:20:11.799 --> 03:20:16.120
and each step or twenty steps, and each step represents

1619
03:20:17.440 --> 03:20:30.319
a level of comfort, each step represents a deepening of

1620
03:20:30.559 --> 03:20:41.239
that comfort, and the furvies you walk down those steps

1621
03:20:43.200 --> 03:20:54.360
deeper and more relaxed you feel. So starting with number

1622
03:20:54.479 --> 03:26:26.760
twenty t eighteen ninety eighteen seventeen sixteenhhhh three fourhhhhhhhhhhh four s.

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03:27:33.120 --> 03:27:33.479
Two we.

1624
03:31:41.559 --> 03:31:52.319
Hhhhhhhhhh eight.

1625
03:32:51.719 --> 03:33:38.120
Seven US.

1626
03:34:29.239 --> 03:39:07.000
Six five four U.

1627
03:40:42.239 --> 03:40:42.479
One.

1628
03:41:32.360 --> 03:41:49.799
Now, as you focus on your eyes, we're gonna countdown

1629
03:41:50.200 --> 03:42:01.360
from ten down to one. Focus it gust on your eyes,

1630
03:42:05.120 --> 03:42:13.600
your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your eye walls themselves,

1631
03:42:15.120 --> 03:42:32.159
a whole area that makes up your eye. And as

1632
03:42:32.239 --> 03:42:40.799
we count down from ten down to one, whilst focusing

1633
03:42:41.040 --> 03:42:56.399
on your eyes, you become twice is relaxed with each

1634
03:42:56.879 --> 03:43:09.280
number counting down, that you may find the all you

1635
03:43:09.559 --> 03:43:18.399
want to do is just drift off to sleep. And

1636
03:43:18.600 --> 03:43:25.120
if that's what you want, then just allow yourself to

1637
03:43:25.280 --> 03:43:39.879
do that. Now, focusing on your eyes, I'm going to

1638
03:43:40.040 --> 03:43:58.920
begin counting down from ten down to one right now, ten.

1639
03:44:24.879 --> 03:47:57.399
Nine eight, yeah, seven, I.

1640
03:48:05.479 --> 03:49:08.760
Most four.

1641
03:50:22.000 --> 03:53:17.440
Three. So count down from ten to one. Ten nine

1642
03:53:19.159 --> 03:53:46.840
eight seven six five four three two one. And maybe

1643
03:53:47.000 --> 03:53:49.920
that was a bit too quick in order to relax.

1644
03:53:51.159 --> 03:53:55.360
Maybe it's a bit too fast for you to notice

1645
03:53:55.639 --> 03:54:03.680
the calming of your body, maybe even a little bit

1646
03:54:03.760 --> 03:54:07.840
of pressure there, Like you're counting down from ten to one.

1647
03:54:07.959 --> 03:54:11.360
Would you expect me to do? Man, expect me to

1648
03:54:11.399 --> 03:54:21.000
stick go with floppy just because you're counting down. You

1649
03:54:21.079 --> 03:54:24.360
could try it again, but this time I'll go a

1650
03:54:24.399 --> 03:54:31.760
bit slower this time, as you focus on the whole

1651
03:54:31.879 --> 03:54:38.120
of your body before we focus on your legs. Just

1652
03:54:38.360 --> 03:54:48.360
notice how your body does start to feel more relaxed

1653
03:54:53.120 --> 03:55:27.959
with every number that I count down ten nine eight seven, six,

1654
03:55:36.360 --> 03:55:55.280
five four three.

1655
03:56:29.719 --> 03:56:29.920
One.

1656
03:56:41.280 --> 03:56:47.000
I just notice how how you feel, generally, how your

1657
03:56:47.040 --> 03:57:01.879
body feels. It's not necessarily even about counting down from

1658
03:57:01.959 --> 03:57:09.639
ten to one. It's that space that you have, that

1659
03:57:12.239 --> 03:57:33.440
space between being active physically or mentally just sitting or

1660
03:57:33.600 --> 03:57:39.399
lying down, just being there, not doing anything, not saying anything,

1661
03:57:39.680 --> 03:57:46.159
or needing to think about anything. So it opens up

1662
03:57:46.200 --> 03:57:50.639
a space, you know, a bit of a space, a gap.

1663
03:57:56.879 --> 03:58:00.399
And the more I came down from ten to one,

1664
03:58:01.600 --> 03:58:09.680
the bigger that gap becomes. So there's that gap of calmness,

1665
03:58:11.120 --> 03:58:26.079
of comfort and relaxation. It's a nice feeling and it

1666
03:58:26.360 --> 03:58:38.280
moves those stresses or discomforts physically or emotionally moves away.

1667
03:58:45.040 --> 03:58:46.000
Allows you.

1668
03:58:48.719 --> 03:58:49.200
To just.

1669
03:58:52.200 --> 03:58:58.520
Slow down, someone to count the game from ten down

1670
03:58:58.559 --> 03:59:08.559
to one and notice that gap widening, the gap, And

1671
03:59:08.680 --> 03:59:13.680
as it widens, it's almost like the stress and attention

1672
03:59:14.520 --> 03:59:33.639
falls into the gap. It gives you that distance, that space.

1673
03:59:36.040 --> 03:59:41.399
Now ten.

1674
03:59:45.840 --> 04:01:43.159
Nine eight, seven, six, five four three. How did you

1675
04:01:45.479 --> 04:02:05.239
What do you feel? Can you notice that the feeling calmer,

1676
04:02:13.319 --> 04:02:42.200
the feeling more relaxed as we now focus on your legs,

1677
04:02:43.879 --> 04:03:05.479
just reles. We're just gonna start with focusing on your thighs.

1678
04:03:20.319 --> 04:03:24.600
Of course, it's not the most exciting thing to be doing,

1679
04:03:25.399 --> 04:03:31.760
because I'm sure like most of your body is not

1680
04:03:32.040 --> 04:03:44.399
not going on right now. Just focusing on the whole

1681
04:03:44.559 --> 04:03:50.920
of your thighs, the tops of your thighs, the sides

1682
04:03:51.079 --> 04:03:57.520
of your thighs, the bottoms of your thighs. You're outer

1683
04:03:57.719 --> 04:04:02.760
thighs and you're inner thighs. Basically the whole of your

1684
04:04:02.840 --> 04:04:11.760
thigh that leads into your hip and it goes down

1685
04:04:11.920 --> 04:04:21.600
to your knee joint. Now, this is a big area,

1686
04:04:26.079 --> 04:04:31.000
it's a very heavy area. It's very strong, probably the

1687
04:04:31.120 --> 04:04:45.799
strongest muscles in your body or in your thighs. But

1688
04:04:45.879 --> 04:04:53.479
I don't think we perhaps will give enough attention to

1689
04:04:53.719 --> 04:05:06.840
our thighs. Perhaps we don't and acknowledge how important our

1690
04:05:07.040 --> 04:05:27.200
thighs are to our lives, how much they actually do

1691
04:05:27.399 --> 04:05:41.239
for us all through our lives. And it may seem

1692
04:05:41.319 --> 04:05:46.399
to sound really weird, but I think that all of

1693
04:05:46.479 --> 04:05:57.319
our body parts, especially our thighs, needs some TLC, a

1694
04:05:57.399 --> 04:06:10.440
bit of love shown, a bit of the acknowledgement, thank you,

1695
04:06:13.600 --> 04:06:25.760
gratitude for what ad thighs to do for us. And

1696
04:06:25.879 --> 04:06:31.760
I know this may sound a bit strange. Maybe you think,

1697
04:06:32.200 --> 04:06:35.120
why am I sure I should be out in the

1698
04:06:35.200 --> 04:06:43.719
garden hugging a tree or something. Well, it's hard to

1699
04:06:43.799 --> 04:06:47.000
set a microphone up on a tree. That's why I'm

1700
04:06:47.040 --> 04:06:49.520
doing this thing doors. Otherwise I wouldn't be outside hugging

1701
04:06:49.559 --> 04:06:53.040
a tree. I can't see the television from the tree.

1702
04:07:00.120 --> 04:07:05.239
Move down to your knees gain such an important part,

1703
04:07:09.559 --> 04:07:14.639
and I think we don't necessarily I'll speak for myself here.

1704
04:07:14.680 --> 04:07:21.959
I don't necessarily appreciate all that my needs to do

1705
04:07:22.200 --> 04:07:27.079
for me until I have a problem with my knee.

1706
04:07:28.040 --> 04:07:32.159
It's occasionally, if I ever, maybe i'll bash it, or

1707
04:07:33.120 --> 04:07:38.680
it's aching for some reason. It's then that I realize

1708
04:07:39.840 --> 04:07:43.840
how much it does. You know, the benefit of being

1709
04:07:43.879 --> 04:07:51.799
able to use my legs without any kind of physical

1710
04:07:51.959 --> 04:08:01.360
discomfort is a beautiful thing that's possibly not appreciated. It's

1711
04:08:01.959 --> 04:08:11.360
temporarily removed. You know that's comfort. But as you focus

1712
04:08:11.479 --> 04:08:19.360
on your knees, regardless of how your knees feel, you

1713
04:08:19.440 --> 04:08:25.280
can have that sense of gratitude and love to your

1714
04:08:25.319 --> 04:08:37.959
knees for all that they do for you. And you

1715
04:08:38.040 --> 04:08:42.520
can still have that attention on your thighs. Maybe notice

1716
04:08:42.600 --> 04:08:49.440
how your thighs feel, Maybe you notice that they are

1717
04:08:51.280 --> 04:09:07.639
relaxing more deeply as you focus now on the bottoms

1718
04:09:07.680 --> 04:09:12.079
of your legs, your shins and your calf muscles, the

1719
04:09:12.200 --> 04:09:19.879
bones between your knees and your feet incorporate, and of

1720
04:09:20.000 --> 04:09:32.639
course your ankles so important. Anyone that's had even like

1721
04:09:32.799 --> 04:09:39.639
the slightest sprain of an ankle. Who knows how much

1722
04:09:39.840 --> 04:09:49.600
we take Our ankles are, for granted, and it's kind

1723
04:09:49.600 --> 04:09:55.120
of strange in a way when you think that. You know, logically,

1724
04:09:55.479 --> 04:09:58.559
our wrists are a lot thinner than the rest of

1725
04:09:58.600 --> 04:10:03.280
our arms, which is okay, it doesn't I can't see

1726
04:10:03.319 --> 04:10:06.799
any problem with that because we're just picking stuff up

1727
04:10:08.399 --> 04:10:14.000
by our ankles so much thinner than the rest of

1728
04:10:14.079 --> 04:10:24.920
our legs. And from a physics perspective or logical even

1729
04:10:25.040 --> 04:10:30.719
it doesn't really make sense that all this weight would

1730
04:10:30.799 --> 04:10:37.680
ultimately be resting on your ankles then leading to your

1731
04:10:37.719 --> 04:10:51.000
feet that thin area, thin bone. Yeah, it does so

1732
04:10:51.239 --> 04:10:58.559
much great work. Supports us, supports our body for a lifetime,

1733
04:11:03.360 --> 04:11:12.879
helps us to balance, It helps you to get around

1734
04:11:13.040 --> 04:11:21.920
and be mobile. And there's the calf muscles. Of course,

1735
04:11:27.040 --> 04:11:29.879
when I was younger, I couldn't see the pointing calf

1736
04:11:29.959 --> 04:11:35.879
muscles didn't seem to do anything. Okay, if a worked

1737
04:11:35.879 --> 04:11:39.600
around on tiptoes, then my calf muscles get some work.

1738
04:11:40.959 --> 04:11:43.559
But of course that's not true. The calf muscles are

1739
04:11:43.600 --> 04:11:53.520
being used whenever we use the legs, and your shins

1740
04:11:56.760 --> 04:12:08.040
there to protect the legs. Shaped in a way almost

1741
04:12:08.079 --> 04:12:19.840
as a protector for the bone, leading of course to

1742
04:12:19.959 --> 04:12:30.479
your ankles and your feet. We're not going to focus

1743
04:12:30.559 --> 04:12:32.799
on your feet. We're just going to focus on the legs.

1744
04:12:34.920 --> 04:12:39.639
I realize, and now that I've mentioned your feet, you'll

1745
04:12:39.680 --> 04:12:44.559
probably focus on them anyway, So maybe I should focus

1746
04:12:44.639 --> 04:12:50.479
on your feet a little bit. You can have them

1747
04:12:50.559 --> 04:12:56.079
in your awareness the same as you have your thighs

1748
04:12:56.360 --> 04:13:00.680
in your awareness. Even though we haven't been focusing on

1749
04:13:00.840 --> 04:13:05.399
your thighs for a few minutes and we're focus in

1750
04:13:05.520 --> 04:13:22.079
on your ankles, there's still that sensation of comfort in

1751
04:13:22.239 --> 04:13:34.079
your thighs, and there's that movement of energy because the

1752
04:13:34.200 --> 04:13:41.799
thighs hold lots of different sensations. Of course, there's the muscles,

1753
04:13:42.399 --> 04:13:46.440
the big straw muscles that we have in our thighs,

1754
04:13:55.200 --> 04:14:00.920
but the skin on the outside of the thighs, as

1755
04:14:01.000 --> 04:14:05.520
in the outside of all of our body, can be

1756
04:14:05.760 --> 04:14:23.440
very sensitive, sensitive to the touch, sensitive to temperature, and

1757
04:14:23.600 --> 04:14:32.000
inside your thighs the bones, there's the muscle, there's the blood, vessels,

1758
04:14:32.159 --> 04:14:37.959
the arch trees to all this stuff inside your thighs.

1759
04:14:42.399 --> 04:14:45.760
I guess sometimes it'd be nice if you could actually

1760
04:14:45.799 --> 04:14:53.280
put your fingers inside your thighs and a message, so

1761
04:14:53.360 --> 04:14:57.000
you can message on the outside, of course, but be

1762
04:14:57.000 --> 04:15:00.399
able to get deep into the muscles to be able

1763
04:15:00.440 --> 04:15:05.959
to just massage inside your thighs, message in the bones

1764
04:15:06.879 --> 04:15:15.120
of your leg massage in or the veins, just gently

1765
04:15:17.920 --> 04:15:28.680
healing thighs. You can move down message and inside your knees,

1766
04:15:30.200 --> 04:15:37.120
just message in those bones with healing fingertips, spreading that

1767
04:15:37.559 --> 04:15:48.719
healing energy deep into the choice your knees. Of course,

1768
04:15:48.799 --> 04:15:53.479
there's the back of your you need. The inside crease

1769
04:15:54.520 --> 04:16:02.520
we need is it's a really sensitive area. It feels

1770
04:16:02.600 --> 04:16:06.600
very nice when you stroke it. That might be because

1771
04:16:07.479 --> 04:16:12.440
it's an area that's not really touched very often. It's

1772
04:16:12.559 --> 04:16:20.120
almost like a hidden part that crease your legs. It's almost.

1773
04:16:22.159 --> 04:16:22.879
Like a part that.

1774
04:16:24.639 --> 04:16:35.920
Has a sensitivity, which is a little bit different. Of course,

1775
04:16:35.959 --> 04:16:46.440
it's protected by your legs, so you can imagine putting

1776
04:16:47.360 --> 04:16:57.200
your fingers into that crease in your legs. Folded in

1777
04:16:57.319 --> 04:17:00.239
between your legs. You can just mess up out of

1778
04:17:00.360 --> 04:17:08.520
your fingertips, your fingertips going inside, massage in the muscle

1779
04:17:08.600 --> 04:17:18.079
or tissue you can cause field the bones of your knees,

1780
04:17:19.600 --> 04:17:30.040
heating through your fingertips, and then as you go down

1781
04:17:32.920 --> 04:17:35.680
to your calf muscles, and that's the part I'd like

1782
04:17:35.799 --> 04:17:40.479
to be able to really put my fingertips step inside

1783
04:17:41.280 --> 04:17:50.200
my calf muscles, massage in every single tissue of the muscle,

1784
04:17:51.799 --> 04:18:05.520
healing every part. And the same for my shins. Message

1785
04:18:06.559 --> 04:18:14.239
generally stroking the bones, generally stroking them, healing and loving way,

1786
04:18:15.559 --> 04:18:21.959
because they deserve to be treated as the precious bones

1787
04:18:22.000 --> 04:18:26.680
that they are. Because our legs are so precious as

1788
04:18:26.719 --> 04:18:31.440
in all the other parts of our body, the more

1789
04:18:31.520 --> 04:18:45.079
precious of any chure on the planet. When when you

1790
04:18:45.280 --> 04:18:57.399
start to think about the legs in this way, it

1791
04:18:57.520 --> 04:19:07.159
can change your perspect It might sound a bit a

1792
04:19:07.280 --> 04:19:12.559
bit silly to start with the idea of having love

1793
04:19:13.120 --> 04:19:22.360
for your legs, showing appreciation for your thighs, want them

1794
04:19:22.440 --> 04:19:26.360
to be able to put your hands in your thighs,

1795
04:19:28.280 --> 04:19:34.760
the massage the muscles and the bones, and to get

1796
04:19:34.799 --> 04:19:42.920
your fingers deep in there, releasing all a tension, just

1797
04:19:43.040 --> 04:19:52.319
to show how much you care about your legs and

1798
04:19:52.520 --> 04:19:58.440
much you care for what your legs do for you regularly,

1799
04:20:00.840 --> 04:20:14.719
your means, your cars, your ankles, the strength of your ankles, consideringly,

1800
04:20:14.840 --> 04:20:19.280
how thin they are compared to the rest of your legs,

1801
04:20:19.479 --> 04:20:33.120
especially your thighs. Yeah, they're so strong, so flexible, absolutely

1802
04:20:33.399 --> 04:20:45.200
amazing things. Your ankles are truly a gift because of

1803
04:20:45.280 --> 04:20:56.559
what they do for you supporting all that weight. Regardless

1804
04:20:56.639 --> 04:21:01.600
of how what weight you are. If you only eight stone,

1805
04:21:03.760 --> 04:21:10.760
there's still a lot of weight for these little ankles. Now,

1806
04:21:10.799 --> 04:21:14.920
am I a lot heavier than eight stand double dock?

1807
04:21:18.399 --> 04:21:27.239
Yet my ankles support my body all the time? What

1808
04:21:27.399 --> 04:21:30.200
do they do? Give off a sigh of relief when

1809
04:21:30.280 --> 04:21:30.920
I sit down?

1810
04:21:33.200 --> 04:21:33.520
That's it.

1811
04:21:34.280 --> 04:21:41.680
You've had my whole legs though, my feet female circo,

1812
04:21:43.559 --> 04:22:11.319
my toast clap so happy. Your legs really are amazing,

1813
04:22:13.920 --> 04:22:17.559
And I know they're talking about. Talking about your legs

1814
04:22:17.719 --> 04:22:24.120
is probably possibly one of the most most boring things

1815
04:22:24.200 --> 04:22:31.360
I've ever heard anyone say. Possibly you're boring or not.

1816
04:22:33.000 --> 04:22:48.479
Everything I said is true. Your legs are amazing. Your

1817
04:22:48.559 --> 04:23:01.159
legs deserve not just respect, because they deserve to relax deeply.

1818
04:23:08.440 --> 04:23:11.799
They deserve to take some time out of the day

1819
04:23:14.000 --> 04:23:50.879
to just lecker completely. The legs really can relax because

1820
04:23:50.920 --> 04:23:54.879
the legs are so such a most you know, very

1821
04:23:54.920 --> 04:24:00.799
important part of your body. When you RelA relates, the

1822
04:24:00.959 --> 04:24:12.120
rest of your body also naturally follows in that journey

1823
04:24:12.280 --> 04:24:24.000
of comfort. I can feel it in my hips. My

1824
04:24:24.159 --> 04:24:31.520
hips feel really loose, and also my lower back as well.

1825
04:24:33.520 --> 04:24:39.280
My lower back really feels it feels stretched, even though

1826
04:24:39.280 --> 04:24:42.920
I'm just sitting in a chair and there's no stretching

1827
04:24:45.639 --> 04:24:48.799
as far as I'm aware that I'm doing. It's almost

1828
04:24:48.840 --> 04:24:52.639
as if the muscles are just relaxed so much that

1829
04:24:52.760 --> 04:24:59.799
there is a natural stretch as a tension has reduced

1830
04:25:01.239 --> 04:25:21.600
a lot. An I'm gonna count down ten doowns of one?

1831
04:25:26.120 --> 04:25:43.760
You can continue to film wonderfully relapsed ten nine eight

1832
04:25:47.479 --> 04:26:04.040
seven six five a three.

1833
04:26:07.920 --> 04:26:08.200
Two?

1834
04:26:12.520 --> 04:26:19.440
Why relax?

1835
04:26:27.319 --> 04:26:28.040
So I'm just going to.

1836
04:26:28.079 --> 04:26:33.440
Count down from five down to one. And as a countdown,

1837
04:26:34.719 --> 04:26:39.479
if you just focus on the numbers, just the numbers

1838
04:26:41.159 --> 04:26:46.959
counting down, and notice how you feel.

1839
04:26:49.319 --> 04:26:50.479
In this moment.

1840
04:26:51.920 --> 04:26:56.280
As you hear the numbers counting down, knowing that those

1841
04:26:56.479 --> 04:27:09.520
numbers counting down represent you feeling calmer, not just in

1842
04:27:09.639 --> 04:27:17.959
your body, but also relaxing your mind. I just notice

1843
04:27:18.040 --> 04:27:24.040
how you feel. There's nothing to do, there's nothing to say,

1844
04:27:24.760 --> 04:27:41.760
there's nothing to think about. Starting with number five four

1845
04:27:51.319 --> 04:28:24.479
three two one. How as you notice the gradual.

1846
04:28:26.719 --> 04:28:27.280
Letting go.

1847
04:28:29.639 --> 04:28:36.920
The tension in your body. You may also begin to

1848
04:28:37.200 --> 04:28:44.479
notice and be aware of how your mind is starting

1849
04:28:44.959 --> 04:28:52.920
to slow down. This is just a natural thing that happens.

1850
04:28:55.559 --> 04:28:58.040
It's not really a special procedure.

1851
04:28:59.319 --> 04:29:00.280
It's just sure.

1852
04:29:00.360 --> 04:29:06.719
Because is your body relaxes, your mind also starts to relax.

1853
04:29:08.319 --> 04:29:11.959
And the more mid relaxes, the more your body relaxes.

1854
04:29:12.120 --> 04:29:22.600
It's just a continuous circle of relaxation. And there's that

1855
04:29:23.879 --> 04:29:31.760
calmness that comes from relative quietness. You know, even even

1856
04:29:31.799 --> 04:29:38.760
if this background sounds either your side online is still

1857
04:29:39.239 --> 04:29:44.479
going to be quite calm. You know, you haven't got

1858
04:29:44.559 --> 04:29:49.719
the television on, there's no music in the background, unless

1859
04:29:49.760 --> 04:29:57.159
you're listening to the recorded with music. Of course, you're

1860
04:29:57.360 --> 04:29:59.440
very likely not going to be sitting in a room

1861
04:29:59.479 --> 04:30:04.079
with others people. Of course you might be, but generally

1862
04:30:04.239 --> 04:30:07.360
it's more ideal if you can do this on your own,

1863
04:30:09.079 --> 04:30:19.159
so no distractions, and when you stop thinking about stuff,

1864
04:30:25.719 --> 04:30:36.000
relaxation automatically arises. A sense of comfort starts to grow,

1865
04:30:40.520 --> 04:30:47.200
and without trying to build it up into something fantastical

1866
04:30:47.600 --> 04:30:59.360
or something magical, this is just a natural process, something

1867
04:30:59.520 --> 04:31:09.680
that's easy to accomplish. In fact, it's almost you know,

1868
04:31:09.799 --> 04:31:16.639
the sense of relaxing completely happens really when you put

1869
04:31:16.840 --> 04:31:20.680
no effort into it. It's not something that you can

1870
04:31:20.799 --> 04:31:32.440
really force. It's something that happens naturally. And part of

1871
04:31:32.840 --> 04:31:43.079
the process of this recording and others is simply two

1872
04:31:44.639 --> 04:31:51.600
allow you to take advantage of this space.

1873
04:31:54.280 --> 04:31:58.520
This time, it's just.

1874
04:32:02.680 --> 04:32:10.239
Let go, to just be here, to be in tune

1875
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with how you feel, yet with the intention of wanting

1876
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to relax deeply and maybe even to fall asleep, depending

1877
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on what it is that you wish for yourself in

1878
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this moment. As we know, relaxing is the majority of

1879
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the process of falling asleep. The actual fall in a

1880
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sleep part is the tiny bit at the end. The

1881
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deeper relaxed you become, the easier you find yourself drifting.

1882
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You can also, if you choose stay focused on my

1883
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voice and really enjoy the process corretch, relaxing each muscle

1884
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in your body effortlessly, and just observing the sensation of

1885
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letting go completely.

1886
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This time, I'm gonna count from six down to one.

1887
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You can notice your mind.

1888
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Calming down.

1889
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With each number you hear me say, actually feeling calm

1890
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and slow, beeaceful, sex, five, four, three, be awhere well,

1891
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you quite to slowe, write down, sinking deeply into relaxation.

1892
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As you focus on your why did they noticed that

1893
04:39:12.639 --> 04:39:20.360
there are some thoughts still there, maybe some stubborn thoughts

1894
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that for some reason perhaps need your attention.

1895
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That's what you can do is.

1896
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Set love to those thoughts. Sprinkle those thoughts of love

1897
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all petals for a flower. Just blow petals, feel good

1898
04:40:03.520 --> 04:40:10.919
love towards those thoughts, to let those thoughts slow down.

1899
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You're not abandon the number, You just need them to

1900
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require them to just calm down, slow down, quiet down,

1901
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and now so as you focus on those remaining thoughts

1902
04:40:47.080 --> 04:40:51.159
as a countdown, this time from seven down to one.

1903
04:40:52.720 --> 04:41:09.919
With each number, just imagine sprinkling those flowers at us love, love, kindness, gratitude.

1904
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Those thoughts which will allow them to just.

1905
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Not away.

1906
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Relax deeply. Every number, those thoughts will become more and

1907
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more relaxed, starting if number seven six, Now, that is how.

1908
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Relaxed you're feeling in your body. We got to focus.

1909
04:44:51.599 --> 04:45:05.599
On your hands, stop extry hands on, relax to body

1910
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and my dog, yes, you focus on your hands, two fingers.

1911
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It's nothing that needed to become.

1912
04:45:37.360 --> 04:45:42.799
It's my creach fists long dead and the fingers right.

1913
04:45:50.840 --> 04:46:05.000
It's just nice and fun on your hands, I do smeal.

1914
04:46:05.319 --> 04:46:06.159
You feel.

1915
04:46:20.720 --> 04:46:21.639
Your stone.

1916
04:46:24.119 --> 04:46:38.840
As your hands fail, I call your mind feels confidence

1917
04:46:39.000 --> 04:46:43.080
you feel around your body.

1918
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Who latist starting dreads.

1919
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Said just my hands aness a man and cheap spears.

1920
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A deepening of the reaxation in your hands and fingers,

1921
04:48:13.240 --> 04:48:42.080
m more relaxed feast number etes down to world nor west.

1922
04:48:43.880 --> 04:48:53.360
Feel that her eyes imagy spread it into your hands.

1923
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Things coming lis h No.

1924
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Not now, I do wan.

1925
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Drift.

1926
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I think.

1927
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Started with.

1928
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As dude, given you a peep. Just be here, nothing

1929
04:53:46.720 --> 04:53:57.360
to think about, nothing to do, nothing to say. Everything

1930
04:53:57.720 --> 04:54:13.319
just feels. This is the natural states bear, this is you.

1931
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Just wom