May 18, 2025

(music) (5 hours) Q&A Friday | LMBYTS #1354 | 16th May 2025

(music) (5 hours) Q&A Friday | LMBYTS #1354 | 16th May 2025
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Hello, and welcome to jasonnew Land dot com.

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My name is.

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You all need rub hands together, that's my nickname. My

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name is Jason new Land. Please only listen when you

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can safely close short eyes. And this is let me

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boy to sleep. And today it is Q and a Friday.

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Yes it's a little bit late, a little bit late,

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but I'll be busy day busy. So before I go on,

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I'll just give you a little update on what's been

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going on this week. Wow, I think the Actually I

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did go to do a recording on Wednesday, but I

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just gave up because I didn't I wasn't in the mood.

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So I kind of did about twenty minutes and I

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just turned it off. I did one on Tuesday, didn't

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do one Thursday. So yeah, done a little bit less

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than normal this week. But I have been very busy

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with my website. I've been working on my website, not

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just the website as far as what it looks like

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on a laptop or a tablet, but also adapting it

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for mobile phones to make sure it works correctly. So

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I've changed a few things. If you've been on there recently,

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you know, if you was a couple of weeks ago.

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I think you'll if you go back, you'll see it's

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very different. It's just nicer. It looks nicer. So I've

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got the podcasts, which is in the index, and they're

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all listed that there's images of the podcast and you

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just click on the podcast and that takes you to

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the all the latest recordings. Or if you want to

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find out where my podcasts are on the various different apps,

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just click on podcast apps. I've got Audible boring myself already,

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that's quick. There's Apple Podcasts, Audible, Apple, Amazon Music podcast App,

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cast Box, Deser, Luminary Podcast, Republic Player, FM Podcast, Addict

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Podcast Index, pod Chaser, pod Friend, pod First, Podbean, Spreaker, Spotify,

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and SoundCloud. Basically alphabetical order really from top top to bottom.

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Apart from it's not all actually it's just the age

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at the top and the s's are at the bottom,

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but other than that, it's yeah, it's kind of alphabetical.

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And again they're all got images. So before it was

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just text that you clicked on. This is images now.

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So if you click on Apple Podcasts, for example, and

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then it gives you a list of all the different

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podcasts and then you can click on let's say, for example,

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let me Boil your pain Away, and that takes you

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to let Me Boy Pain Away on Apple podcasts. It's

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just a different way of doing it. It might be

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a useful thing. So if you if you're on cast

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Box and you don't know where my let Me Boy

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to Sleep podcast is, you just click on podcast apps,

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go down, click on cast Box, click on let Me

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Boy to Sleep, and it brings you to the let

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Me Boy to Sleep podcast on cast Box. So it's yeah,

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it's kind of I think it's easy to use other

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than net. I'm in the middle of redoing the playlists.

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So at the moment, I've got four, four different podcasts

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that I've been working on said let me Boy to Sleep. Okay,

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it's a few changes. Okay, so let Me Boy to Sleep.

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The infrastrate is built for these, but they're not all

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updated yet. Let Me Boy Sleep, Deep Sleep, whisper Hypnosis,

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relax Asleep, hypnosis Daily and Relaxation of stress and panic attacks.

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So with these, so let's say, for example, you click

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on playlists and then you click on let Me Boy

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to Sleep. It gives you six different options without music,

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with music, five hours without music, five hours with music,

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ten hours without music, ten hours with music. At the moment,

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I'm working on the ones without music, because I think

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the first thousand of the let Me Boy You to

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Sleep ones are without music, although I might remedy that.

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So if you click on let me board asleep, you

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click on without music, and then you've got all the

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way up from one to fifty. Again, is it images?

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So it's not just text anymore. Just makes it a

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little bit easier visually to you know, manipulate and to

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maneuver to I don't know what's another word for that, navigate,

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And it goes down to the last one is thirteen

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hundred and fifty one to fourteen hundred. Only one the

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one to fifty is on there at the moment, and

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you click on that and they will take you to

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the podcast, and it's exactly the same as when you

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go onto the homepage. You can download, you can stream,

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you can save it for yourself. It tells you how

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big the file is, tells you how long the recording is.

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So yeah, and there's all fifty on there. That's it.

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So I'm quite pleased with that. It's taken a lot

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of hours to put this together. It may not seem

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like much, but it's taken a long time because I've

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been to get it so it works fine on the

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phone for the images and everything to be together and

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to be the same size, and it's taken a bit

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of code code work, as it were. So I'm going

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to have a break from the website today and do

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this recording now, and I'm probably not gonna bother with

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the website. I probably will actually, but probably yeah, I'm

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gonna not get The problem is if I could finish

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a sentence. That's one of the things I've got problems with.

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The problem is I struggled to stop doing something once

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I start, especially move that metal thing, keep banging it

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on my desk. Once I start doing these things, for example,

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working on the podcast apps, there's so much to do.

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There's a lot of it's quite intricate in a sense

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of you know, I don't matter. Some of it is

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just copy paste, but it's remembering where to paste and

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what to change and change in sizes of images and

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pasting in the link to the podcast, you know, and

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making it all kind of a line with each other.

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So there's quite a lot involved in it. I'm pretty

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pleased with how it's working out so far. I've got

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a few other ideas what I want to do as well,

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to make it a little bit easier to a gate

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around the website. In some ways, you could say I've

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turned my website into an app kind of in a

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way now kind of because you know, you've got the homepage.

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It's just the website basically the podcast. But if you

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click on podcasts, then it gives you all the different podcasts.

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Then you can choose one you want to say, for example, relax,

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let's say stop smoking. Click on that. Okay, that's not

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a good example because that link's not done yet. That's

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not a good example either, So I'll ask podcasts. Yeah, okay,

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so you can go directly to the podcast BlimE me.

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Or if you want to go to the playlists, you know,

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the all the different types. Again you click on there,

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let me boidy sleep with music about music whatever. So yeah,

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it seems happy if that's such a word. So I'll

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get on the recording. Not a lot going on. I've

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just been working on this. I got a letter. I

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got a letter. Let me. I like to read you

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about my letters.

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To a look, oh.

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Read you my latest letters.

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What's this way?

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Your Income Related Employment and Support Allowance ESA payments will end,

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So it ends on the first of the fifth, twenty

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twenty five.

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Will end.

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They sent me this on the second of May. I

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didn't get it till about three days ago. How it

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takes so long to get here, I'll never know. And

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it's coming all the way from Wolverhampton. So unless they

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sent it on the back of a donkey, and we've

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received your Universal Credit you see claim, and we sent

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a plane to drop off monny planes, your final payment

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of the essay covers the period first of the fifth

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to the fourteenth of the fifth.

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So m.

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I I honestly I think I've had my last payment,

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which means I've got wow, two weeks, two weeks. But

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then I've got another letter. This is from the Council,

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the council, City Council. This letter, it doesn't have a die.

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Sixth of May. This letter is important, Dearness the New Land.

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This letter is important. You must read all of it carefully,

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and you must inform this office immediately if your circumstances change.

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Go to blah blah blah blah blah dot blah blah blah.

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The Department for Working Pensions had advis us here's something

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all right, Okay, this is the first year I noticed

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because always looked for month, just like if there's any

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kind of financial thing on there, as in with pound signs,

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because it's just gives just it's the first thing I

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notice really of the additional award mentioned above. So the department,

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oh okay, the Department of for Work and Pensions has

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advised us that you have started claiming Universal Credit and

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that you qualify for an additional two weeks extension of

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your housing benefit known as Transition to Uce Housing payment

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of the additional award mentioned above, one hundred and sixty

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eight pound ninety has been recovered against previously notified overpayment

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over payment? How how is it own over payment? Then

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it says if you are worried about paying your rent

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bills or living expenses, where you can help, if you

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are struggling to find your to pay your bills for

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any reason, speak to the Financial Equality and Well Being

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Teams today. Okay, So you know, suddenly you owe this

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money and then it's been recovered. So I was like

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confused about that, like what's going on? So then it

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says another one another letter. Dear mister Newland, this letter

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is also important. You must also read all of this

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carefully and you must inform blah blah blah blah so

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you claim. For you to claim for benefit has been

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looked at because managing managed migration to Universal credits successfully

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and your benefit has been stopped from the first of

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May twenty twenty five. So pretty much I think. Oh no,

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I think it's the eighth of June before I get paid. Oh,

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I'm confused. The housing costs will now be paid within

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your Universal Credit award. Please contact your work coach if

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you have any changes or the costs so incorrect. If

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you are ad vont lah blah blah blah blah blah,

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as your intitement has ended, any overpayments which were previously

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overpaid or recovered or blah blah blah via deductions from

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the housing benefit payment will now end as such. If

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you have any outstanding over there's like too much information

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and then it says here you have been overpaid one

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hundred and sixty eight pound ninety housand. Benefit of this

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overpayment one hundred and sixty eight pound ninety is non

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recoverable and therefore only the balance of zero will be recovered.

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Does anyone understand what that means? Any ideas anyone? I

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really don't. You have been overpaid one hundred and sixty

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eight pound ninety. Housing benefit of this overpayment on hundred

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and sixty eight pound ninety is non recoverable, and therefore

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only the balance of zero will be recovered. I get

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from that that there's nothing to pay. They've written it off.

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But have they written it off? Because worded very strangely,

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the reason for the overpayment is managed migration, which has

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been calculated as follows, from the first of the fifth,

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twenty twenty five to the twelve of the fifth, twenty

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twenty five one week and four days old award one

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hundred and seven pounds forty eight new awards zero weekly

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amount overpaid one hundred and seven pound forty eight. Total

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amount overpaid one hundred and sixty eight pound ninety. It

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doesn't make sense. I don't understand it. I know one

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hundred and seven pounds that's the rent for a week.

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Your repayment will be accepted without prejudice to any further

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action if you are. It doesn't make the way they've

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worded it is. So I'm gonna say of twos because

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I don't know what that means, but I heard someone

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say it once on a video in about nineteen eighty two.

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I think it was a Steve Martin movie. Ah, So

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I don't know. Confusing, very confusing, right, t WDDD. They've

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also they have agreed to pay my rent directly to

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the housing benefit and they've also agreed to pay me

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every two weeks from the eighth of I think it's

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the eighth of June, and they'll let me know on

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the fourth of June what I'm getting. So is going

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to be an interesting period in next couple of weeks.

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So I'll find out Wednesday, on the twenty first, whether

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or not. Wow, that's fine, I'm just going to go around.

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I'm going have to start collecting the money. People lone me,

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aren't I go around? Oh you know all that money

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that I've been lending you over the last ten years,

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and you thought that you didn't have to pay it back.

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You see this baseball back in my hand. You do

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have to pay it back. Okay, right back to seriousness.

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Any questions for this Friday? So let's add a look. Oh,

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today Viny started barking like proper man and it sounds

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like someone was at my door, and I went nothing,

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there he's barking again. It really sounds like someone was

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pushing on the door, the front door. So I just

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went out as I do, just just like I wonder

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what's going on. There's a pigeon. Someone's left the back

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door open downstairs. It's come up, flying basically bashing into

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each window trying to get out. Poor little thing. So

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I got a hammer, I got my boathball. I just

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I thought, what am I going to do? So this

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has happened before, it's not the first time, so I

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didn't have a towel, but I did have like a

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T shirt. So I've got a T shirt, not the

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one I was wearing. It's a different T shirt. And

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I was trying to check it over the pigeon. It

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wasn't like a big pigeon, more like a dove sized pigeon.

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trying to check it over, but it wasn't going over.

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The pigeon was just moving its head and just knocking

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it off and just looking at me. And then when

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I went down, it flew off again and smashed against

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the window in the end, it just it let it,

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let me pick it up, and actually wrapped his or

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her da. I think it's a girl, actually wrapped her

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hands fingers around my fingers, and I was stroking her

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and just carrying it. Carried it downstairs, and for a

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little while she was just standing on my hand, just

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looking around, and I was just talking to her, and

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then I started telling her a story. I thought i'd

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tell her about the chip shop that used to work in.

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Then she was off, but yeah, just went into the tree.

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I think it's probably a relative of Horrace, maybe his girlfriend.

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because she's quite young. He's been around for ten years

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since I moved in, right, So other than that, anything

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else that's happened, I can't think of anything even mildly interesting. Well,

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it's never going to be anything interested. But it's not

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a lot going on.

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A neighbor just phoned me up while I was doing

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this recording, asking me if I had any antidepressants. He's

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like cell Solita, Prahm or whatever they are, and I said, no,

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don't have those that medication. I said, I've got a

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few spare on my own. But you won't want to

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take my medication. It's a different medication and it's you know,

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shouldn't mix that stuff. Plus it takes it takes quite

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a few weeks to kick in the older floors a team.

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So Maria, first question, Hi Jason, how long ago did

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you last visit Thailand? How long did you stay and

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did you enjoy the food there? I don't think I

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ate any of the food there, to be honest, I

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just ate normal food, human food. I didn't. I mean,

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for one, I was not going to eat the street food.

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And it's smelled amazing, but I was not going to

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eat the street food just through is. I wouldn't eat

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street food in this country, so I'm definitely not going

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to eat street food abroad. Yeah, when I went, it

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was kind of during the COVID. Between the COVID, I

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just said the words sorry. That period like twenty twenty one,

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I think it was so they even though we were

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pretty much we were in lockdown here, they were in

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lockdown there, not not to the point of banning anyone visiting,

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but had to wear masks in every shop, had to.

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I mean people were wearing masks in the street. It

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was you know, it was pretty full on. Had to

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had to have your blood, your temperature done before entering

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any any places, any establishments, had to do that, and

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the hand washed everywhere. So it was it was a

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very step it was.

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It was.

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Yeah, it was a bit of a weird time and

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a lot of the restaurants were closed. A lot of

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everything was closed when I went there, actually, so I

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stayed in a like a hotel place. Luckily when I stayed,

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I stayed in this place, which was a sports bar.

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Loads of TVs all around the place, including two outside.

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Remember I watched the boxing.

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That was cool.

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And they had food there, so I ate every day

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there and it was really burgers and stuff like that.

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To be honest with you, you know, I wasn't very

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I wasn't very creative with my food choices. But they

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were catering for Westerners, well Westerners and Australians, mainly Australians.

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It was an Australian bar run by Australian people, and

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other than me, I think everyone in all the customers

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were Australian that were like staying living there and would

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visit as well. So it's a very I mean, there

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was a few people that weren't Australian. All the staff

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other than the owners. The staff weren't Australian. But there's

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the they wouldn't be allowed to work there. In Thailand,

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you have to be tied to work in most jobs.

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Actually most done a little bit of research into that,

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and you can. If you've got a share in a place,

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you can work, but you can't take a tied job.

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So technically, if you've got forty you know, forty nine

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percent share in a restaurant, you're working that restaurant. You're

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not You're not taking someone else's job because it's your business,

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isn't it always fifty business? So that's when I visited.

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It's quite a long time ago. It wasn't long i'd.

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I had.

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I had a chest infection, so it's just I can't remember.

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It was over two weeks, two and a bit weeks,

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and I came back. I was there for two days.

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I think it's getting vague, to be honest, it was

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a bit of a non event. Really it wasn't. It wasn't.

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Really.

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What I didn't realize is though that's it. He made

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it more nice, please brilliant, thanks.

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Too.

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That's a weird one. He has absolutely destroyed his bag

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which had his treating chewy chicken twists. Right, he's destroyed it.

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It's empty and he's destroyed it. I gave him that

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bag when it had one left in it, and he

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just looked at it for about an hour and a half.

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So it would destroy it and rip it open when

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there's nothing in it. But when it's something in it,

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you won't even attempt to open it. What's weird, And

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that's strange behavior. Yeah, it wasn't. It wasn't the right time.

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It wasn't really the right time for me to go.

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Really.

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I just I just got like a rebate, a benefit

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rebate actually from from previous year is something that I

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should have got paid and I wasn't, and I decided

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just to I had to get away from it. Things

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just difficult living here for you know, and I basically

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turned into a care in some ways. I mean, my

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friend always said to me, I'm his care and I said, no,

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I'm not your care. But it did, I think emotionally

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I was, you know, I just constantly worried about him

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just for years, for years and years. So I needed

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to get away, and you know, I gave him a

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little bit of money as well. When I got that money,

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paid off my debts and went away, I did the

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old gave a load of food out to people that

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were home, well they were hungry. So that was that

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was the highlight for me. That was you could say,

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almost the highlight of my life. He is handing out

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hundreds of meals and that's whatever it was. I can't

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remember how many it was, but I did it two

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days in a row, and it was kind of the

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best thing I've ever done or feeling why. It just

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felt amazing. So it's worth it for that, And I

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know I could have I could have done the same

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thing here. It's you know, I don't know. Just for

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some reason, I wanted to go to a Buddhist country,

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wanted to see how what Buddhist people like are people

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that were born into Buddhism, not just but in this country.

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You know, it's something that there are people born into

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it in this country, but there if they're Westerners, then

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the people their parents probably weren't born into it, and

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they they've just raised their kids in that kind of way.

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But to be a bit to live in a country

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where everybody going back many many, many many years, you know,

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all born as Buddhists, all raised as Buddhists. I just

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found that an interesting thing to be around. And I

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could see the difference, consider difference in the mentality. There

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might not be anything to do with the religion, but

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and most of them didn't practice the religion anyway, but

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you know, they it was the foundation of their belief system,

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was the foundation of their culture, which I just found

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it interesting. So enjoy the food. Probably the best food

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I had when I was there was apple pie and

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ice cream. Yeah, that was nice. So the cook in

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the that bar, it was a bar, but it was

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also like hotel as well, the sports bar. The cook

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in now I got ridly well with her, and she

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would she made sure she got lots of pies in

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for me so I could have an apple pie and

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ice cream after my meals. And I had a cook

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breakfast every morning. And also so I basically ate. I'd

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eat twice a day there, so eat breakfast, cook breakfast.

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Then i'd have when I was out, i'd probably see

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if I could get something, maybe in McDonald's or I'm

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trying to think, just to have would look around see

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if there were places some places I went. I went

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in one place, which was it was terrible, it really bad.

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It was.

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I think it's called the Nag's Head, and apparently it

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used to be owned by Kevin Keegan. That's what they

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said because pictures of him on the wall. That was

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Kevin Keegan was like a superstar footballer in the early

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eighties in the UK, well worldwide as well, I think,

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and he had curly hair stopped. I'd say it's not relevant,

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but it was because it was the fashion back then.

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The amount of people, the amount of boys that were

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getting their hair curled permed to look like Kevin Keegan

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because he was a superstar footballer. So I went in

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there and I think that it was a it was

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a cooked breakfast and I think it was some beans,

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an egg which I'm not sure what kind of egg.

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It was some bacon that did not look like bacon,

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and some sausages the type that I give Vinny like,

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they're not sausages, they're those bendy rubbery ones. I just,

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I mean, I'm pretty sure they just didn't have any

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food in possibly was the only customer they'd had for

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a while, so I just I said thanks, and I yeah, left. Well,

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I ate it first but I ate some of it

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wasn't wasn't great. I did go to a Thai restaurant

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a pizza, so yeah, I don't think I had even

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one bit of typhood the whole time I was there. Yeah,

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I have had typhood. I've had it in this country,

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but I didn't have anyone kind of because you know,

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back when I was in London, I'd go on dates

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and the some of the people that I'd go on

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dates with there'd be much more open culturally to new things.

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And because you can pretty much eat any food from

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anywhere in the world in London, like any type of food.

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So you know, I've been in Vietnam, are Vietnamese, I've

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been Entai, I've been in Spanish, Italian, French, whatever, lots

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of different places, and there's always I always felt that

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pressure to kind of be involved. You know, two show

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that I'm open minded and I ordered something without knowing

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what it is. Sometimes I deeply regret it, and as

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I got older, I just thought, you know what, no,

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if I go into a Chinese restaurant, I probably am

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going to order an omelet and chips, or an omelet

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and fried rice, egg fried rice. You know, I know

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what I like, and that's what I like. I like omelets,

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and yeah, I'm sure that sure, the typhoon's amazing. I

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mean people, I mean, some people go to Thailand for

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the tayphood. It's some of the thing they look forward

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to most because I guess it's the most authentic typhood

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you're going to get. It's like the most authentic any

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food you're going to get is in the country of origin,

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I imagine. I'm sure if you want to the best burger,

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then you have to go to where the first I

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don't even know, America, is that where the burgers come from.

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Or if you want the first mushy pea, you want

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the best mushy peas, you've got to go up north.

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Or if you want the best fried mars bar, you've

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got to go up north. Or if you want the

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best fish and chips, probably gotta go up north, or

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maybe Scotland or or I don't know, but you Uk.

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I imagine for fish and chips, probably the best fish

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and chips you'll get in the world will probably be

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in this country. It might I might be wrong. It's

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just because it's our heritage, it's our you know, goes

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back centuries. I don't know if that's true or not, right,

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Kathleen asks me, I've got a lot of questions to

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get through. Just let you know that it's loads. I'm

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kind of surprised at how is that?

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One?

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Two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine. There's nine,

473
00:37:51.639 --> 00:37:59.000
but there's thirteen comments, so I'm not quite sure. Okay,

474
00:37:59.079 --> 00:38:02.440
one's got one with one's got three replies, so there's

475
00:38:02.559 --> 00:38:08.719
nine questions. The next one is from Kathleen. A couple

476
00:38:08.760 --> 00:38:13.360
of questions, JJ or I loved in his flop it?

477
00:38:13.440 --> 00:38:17.639
There are Is he able to straighten it? Always floppy?

478
00:38:19.000 --> 00:38:26.679
He can? He can straighten it sometimes if he's I'm

479
00:38:26.719 --> 00:38:29.760
trying to think, oh, I'm just doing the straightening my

480
00:38:29.800 --> 00:38:33.280
hands to show you the ears not being floppy. But

481
00:38:33.320 --> 00:38:38.000
you can't see that, can you? When there's a sound,

482
00:38:38.360 --> 00:38:42.119
got his attention. His ears do stick up, both of them.

483
00:38:42.920 --> 00:38:47.119
But I saw a picture of his mummy, and his

484
00:38:47.239 --> 00:38:50.760
mummy also had a floppy ear. I said, well, look,

485
00:38:50.840 --> 00:38:52.679
I've got it on here. I think I've got it

486
00:38:52.719 --> 00:39:04.199
on here unless I haven't. Sometimes, Yeah, if I've got

487
00:39:04.199 --> 00:39:12.360
any pictures of Vinnie, right, Okays, I've got a picture

488
00:39:12.400 --> 00:39:14.280
of Vinnie when he was a baby.

489
00:39:15.519 --> 00:39:15.920
On here.

490
00:39:15.960 --> 00:39:18.079
I'm pretty sure it's a picture of him with his mummy,

491
00:39:18.960 --> 00:39:22.239
like his you know, birth mummy.

492
00:39:24.400 --> 00:39:48.000
Uh so cute when he was a baby.

493
00:39:44.480 --> 00:39:49.559
I do. That's something that I kind of wish that i'd, oh,

494
00:39:49.599 --> 00:39:52.840
there's a little cute. He's in a cage. I never

495
00:39:53.000 --> 00:39:55.400
liked the idea of put them dogs in cages. Never

496
00:39:55.519 --> 00:40:00.519
been something i've I don't know the it's something about

497
00:40:00.559 --> 00:40:05.840
being in a cage. I guess that he's I mean,

498
00:40:05.840 --> 00:40:07.840
it can be for their own safety anyway. I can't out.

499
00:40:07.840 --> 00:40:11.880
But he's in this cage, which is probably I guess

500
00:40:12.000 --> 00:40:17.119
was there prepared for multiple puppies, and he was the

501
00:40:17.159 --> 00:40:22.000
only puppy. And he's laying on his back, he's got

502
00:40:22.000 --> 00:40:26.400
his little hands in the air, and he's tiny, you know,

503
00:40:26.599 --> 00:40:32.519
absolutely tiny, and doesn't I don't have a date on this.

504
00:40:35.559 --> 00:40:37.519
I got a date when it was sent fortieth of

505
00:40:37.639 --> 00:40:45.039
January twenty twenty three. January twenty twenty.

506
00:40:44.800 --> 00:40:50.440
Three, really.

507
00:40:59.360 --> 00:41:03.159
No, two thousand January two. Fairy No, I wouldn't have

508
00:41:03.199 --> 00:41:09.199
sent it to me in twenty twenty three. That's her date,

509
00:41:09.280 --> 00:41:18.159
isn't it? What's my date? Wasn't January twenty twenty three.

510
00:41:18.480 --> 00:41:22.159
I didn't even know jur January twenty twenty three. I

511
00:41:22.199 --> 00:41:37.599
didn't get him till I'm losing track of time twenty

512
00:41:37.800 --> 00:41:43.039
twenty three. But I thought I got him in November

513
00:41:43.039 --> 00:41:53.679
twenty twenty three, but I didn't do that. I got him.

514
00:41:54.320 --> 00:42:03.880
I got him in twenty twenty two, November twenty twenty two,

515
00:42:09.000 --> 00:42:14.639
twenty twenty two, stop at me, don't be bucking twenty

516
00:42:14.719 --> 00:42:21.760
twenty two, twenty twenty two. So November twenty twenty two,

517
00:42:22.280 --> 00:42:28.119
November twenty twenty three, November twenty twenty four. It was December,

518
00:42:28.159 --> 00:42:36.360
wasn't it, twoenty twenty three, twenty four, two years and

519
00:42:37.039 --> 00:42:42.039
like five months, four months, five months. So yeah, so

520
00:42:42.159 --> 00:42:47.480
I got him in December twenty twenty three and twenty

521
00:42:47.519 --> 00:42:50.079
twenty two, so she must have sent me those pictures

522
00:42:50.320 --> 00:42:55.239
yet in the January. Okay, yeah, Oh that just threw

523
00:42:55.320 --> 00:42:58.320
me off for a second. Then there's a picture of

524
00:42:58.440 --> 00:43:05.159
him with his mummy somewhere. Yeah, I just can't find

525
00:43:05.239 --> 00:43:09.880
it unless it's on my laptop, which it could be.

526
00:43:10.760 --> 00:43:14.119
Let's have a look to look. So look at my

527
00:43:14.280 --> 00:43:22.480
lap torp lap trp. Oh, Vinnie's found another fly. Vinnie

528
00:43:22.920 --> 00:43:31.159
Vinnie Vinnnnnnnnie. Oh, I don't know where Vinie Vini ven

529
00:43:31.239 --> 00:43:36.880
even I Annie Vinnie an if any any Vinnie, somebab

530
00:43:37.000 --> 00:43:47.440
in Vinnie, my new set up with Vinnie Vinnie at mummy's. Nope,

531
00:43:47.679 --> 00:43:57.519
knows that is baby Vinnie. No, I can't fight it.

532
00:43:57.639 --> 00:44:01.840
It's here, somewhere, it's here somewhere. I've got a picture

533
00:44:01.840 --> 00:44:08.280
of Logi, Logi and Vinnie last stayed together. Oh, got

534
00:44:08.360 --> 00:44:15.840
the limage, Louggie, don't care. He's just there, just chill down.

535
00:44:16.440 --> 00:44:22.000
Then he's looking at me, he's looking at his watch.

536
00:44:22.599 --> 00:44:25.199
How much longer we got before we get rid of him?

537
00:44:27.239 --> 00:44:29.880
I said, you're missing when he's when he's moved out,

538
00:44:29.920 --> 00:44:32.400
you're missing. I won't. I want my house back. I

539
00:44:32.440 --> 00:44:36.079
want my bed back. I said, it's my bed, Vinnie.

540
00:44:36.119 --> 00:44:40.039
It's not your bed, it's my bed. Okay, I want

541
00:44:40.119 --> 00:44:50.800
our bed back. He's got a proper attitude on him. So, yes,

542
00:44:50.920 --> 00:44:55.800
he's always had the floppy ear, but his mummy is biological.

543
00:44:55.920 --> 00:45:00.679
Mum had the floppy here as well. Don't about his dad,

544
00:45:02.800 --> 00:45:11.800
oh itchy bump. Yeah, the both his parents had were red,

545
00:45:14.000 --> 00:45:15.760
but he was the only one that was red.

546
00:45:15.880 --> 00:45:16.239
All over.

547
00:45:16.320 --> 00:45:17.599
I mean, he's got a little bit of white on

548
00:45:17.679 --> 00:45:20.599
his belly and a little bit on his neck, but

549
00:45:20.719 --> 00:45:22.679
it's pretty much and he's on his He's got a

550
00:45:22.719 --> 00:45:28.159
little couple of little little socks, little white socks on

551
00:45:28.920 --> 00:45:31.519
other than that, and gloves, but he's pretty much red

552
00:45:31.559 --> 00:45:39.559
all over here. You he knows I'm talking about him,

553
00:45:41.719 --> 00:45:46.079
probably because I just keep saying his name. Phinni, Vinnie, Minnie.

554
00:45:48.320 --> 00:45:51.400
Will you be getting a new bathroom like your neighbors?

555
00:45:52.960 --> 00:46:05.079
Cheers Kathleen. It looks like no, so my neighbor's downstairs.

556
00:46:05.400 --> 00:46:13.000
To be fair, there was a a There was a

557
00:46:13.119 --> 00:46:16.840
reason why she got a new bathroom because she needed it.

558
00:46:17.000 --> 00:46:20.920
Wasn't because she needed a new bathroom, as in the

559
00:46:21.000 --> 00:46:27.119
old one was too old. It was it was I

560
00:46:27.159 --> 00:46:29.480
don't know how to word it, but it was something

561
00:46:29.559 --> 00:46:32.840
that was required, if you know what I mean. So

562
00:46:32.920 --> 00:46:35.840
it wasn't something that they just got round to doing

563
00:46:35.920 --> 00:46:38.800
because it was time. It was needed to be done.

564
00:46:39.840 --> 00:46:42.280
She and my neighbor down stairs to get a kitchen,

565
00:46:43.159 --> 00:46:46.280
and that was basically due to time. It was time

566
00:46:46.360 --> 00:46:51.599
to redo them. My neighbor opposite has had his kitchen done,

567
00:46:52.400 --> 00:46:54.960
he's having his bathroom done. And he's having his windows

568
00:46:55.000 --> 00:46:59.320
done and when they came round to he knew. He's

569
00:46:59.360 --> 00:47:02.320
known about the wind for a few months. He's just

570
00:47:02.400 --> 00:47:04.039
waiting to sort of find out when they're going to

571
00:47:04.119 --> 00:47:06.039
come and do them. But he didn't know about the

572
00:47:06.039 --> 00:47:08.119
bathroom until the other day when they came to measure up.

573
00:47:10.119 --> 00:47:14.719
So but he's he's lived there for thirty odd years

574
00:47:15.400 --> 00:47:18.119
and he's never had anything new at all the whole

575
00:47:18.159 --> 00:47:23.599
time he's been there. So you know it is I

576
00:47:23.760 --> 00:47:28.239
really don't know. I don't doesn't I asked the council.

577
00:47:28.800 --> 00:47:31.840
I saw the counsel lady, the late a lady from

578
00:47:31.880 --> 00:47:35.920
the council on Wednesday. They came round to check the

579
00:47:36.159 --> 00:47:40.559
bathroom downstairs to make sure it was all all okay

580
00:47:40.679 --> 00:47:45.639
and to sign it off. And I little word with

581
00:47:46.159 --> 00:47:50.320
the lady and I said, when am I going to

582
00:47:50.400 --> 00:47:52.519
have one? I cut a few onions first before I

583
00:47:52.559 --> 00:47:57.880
went down there, and just to so I can cry

584
00:47:57.960 --> 00:48:02.360
and see him upset. Here's a little clue though, if

585
00:48:02.400 --> 00:48:04.760
you're going to do that before going up to someone,

586
00:48:05.880 --> 00:48:11.400
and you know, cut up onions in order to cry

587
00:48:12.039 --> 00:48:16.039
to in order to get the older emotions going with

588
00:48:16.119 --> 00:48:21.199
the other person. If you're going to shake their hand.

589
00:48:21.320 --> 00:48:25.360
Put the onions down first. That's all I'm going to say.

590
00:48:27.000 --> 00:48:34.239
And Tammy asks, can hypnosis be in effected to all

591
00:48:34.320 --> 00:48:38.320
and reshaping our subconscious patterns? Don't know next.

592
00:48:39.280 --> 00:48:39.719
I don't know.

593
00:48:39.840 --> 00:48:49.239
That's that's that's a hard question. And I'll tell you what.

594
00:48:51.320 --> 00:48:51.719
I tell you.

595
00:48:51.760 --> 00:48:59.280
The biggest thing, just based on my studies, the biggest

596
00:48:59.320 --> 00:49:03.559
thing that affect excess, let's say unconscious, I call it

597
00:49:03.639 --> 00:49:11.519
unconscious with subconscious. Unconscious patterning is our conscious mind, what

598
00:49:11.679 --> 00:49:18.760
we do, what we listen to, what we think, our experiences,

599
00:49:20.559 --> 00:49:26.159
stuff like that is what shapes us. Reshaping doing something different,

600
00:49:26.320 --> 00:49:34.320
thinking differently, on purpose, purposefully, and so for example, if

601
00:49:34.599 --> 00:49:40.480
someone was constantly thinking about their illness, start thinking about

602
00:49:40.559 --> 00:49:47.400
something different. Because we get what we think about, you know,

603
00:49:47.639 --> 00:49:55.039
we become what we think about because we're basically it's

604
00:49:55.159 --> 00:49:58.559
kind of weird. I've seen all these different angles, all

605
00:49:58.599 --> 00:50:01.400
these different things, and it all kind of points to

606
00:50:01.519 --> 00:50:06.800
the same thing, to the same conclusion, and that is

607
00:50:07.639 --> 00:50:16.280
that our thoughts are so powerful on ourselves. It's almost

608
00:50:16.440 --> 00:50:24.360
like what we consciously think, what you purposefully think, not

609
00:50:24.480 --> 00:50:31.159
what you think automatically. What you purposely think affects your

610
00:50:31.199 --> 00:50:36.920
brain affects your body, affects your let's say, unconscious mind

611
00:50:37.840 --> 00:50:46.920
affects those automatic thinking processes. Now none of that might

612
00:50:46.960 --> 00:50:54.559
have made any sense, not even to me, but I

613
00:50:54.719 --> 00:50:58.880
kind of I'm starting to look at hypnosis in a

614
00:50:58.960 --> 00:51:00.800
different way to help I used to look at it,

615
00:51:02.039 --> 00:51:19.880
and belief expectations is almost is so important. Just generally,

616
00:51:20.639 --> 00:51:25.800
what we expect to happen has a huge effect on

617
00:51:25.920 --> 00:51:33.119
what does happen, how we expect to feel. You know

618
00:51:33.440 --> 00:51:40.400
someone that it's just proven so many times and experiments.

619
00:51:41.679 --> 00:51:45.800
It's just like when I was seventeen, I mentioned this

620
00:51:46.000 --> 00:51:49.039
a few a couple of weeks ago, went to a party.

621
00:51:49.119 --> 00:51:51.599
It was held it's at the chip shop, but we

622
00:51:51.719 --> 00:51:57.719
went to my boss's house and we were drinking. They

623
00:51:57.840 --> 00:52:00.559
gave me. They all were in on it. They gave

624
00:52:00.679 --> 00:52:04.840
me non alcoholic lager. So every time I went to

625
00:52:04.880 --> 00:52:06.599
get a can, but no, no, I'll get it for you.

626
00:52:07.360 --> 00:52:10.920
I thought they would just be nice, But they were

627
00:52:10.920 --> 00:52:14.440
all in on it, and they were laughing when I

628
00:52:14.519 --> 00:52:16.239
was talking, so I thought I was also being funny.

629
00:52:17.320 --> 00:52:27.360
So you know, I got drunk and there was no difference,

630
00:52:27.440 --> 00:52:32.599
but not being drunk before, there was no difference. There

631
00:52:32.679 --> 00:52:38.519
really wasn't any difference between drinking alcohol and not drinking alcohol,

632
00:52:39.519 --> 00:52:43.159
because I thought I was drinking alcohol and all those

633
00:52:43.480 --> 00:52:47.400
chemicals in my brain kicked off. They just did their thing,

634
00:52:49.599 --> 00:52:51.679
and I was expecting to feel a certain way, and

635
00:52:51.800 --> 00:52:56.960
I felt that way. Now, good chance is if they

636
00:52:57.000 --> 00:53:00.599
hadn't told me I met, I may well gone home.

637
00:53:01.480 --> 00:53:03.440
I may well have been ill. I may well have

638
00:53:03.480 --> 00:53:08.280
woken up with her with her hangover. That's how powerful

639
00:53:09.280 --> 00:53:13.280
belief is when you believe that something's you know, you

640
00:53:13.400 --> 00:53:19.679
believe that non alcoholic lager is alcoholic lager. You know,

641
00:53:20.159 --> 00:53:24.280
it's just I mean, that was quite a good thing

642
00:53:24.360 --> 00:53:28.320
to happen. In one way, it was horrible, horribly embarrassing

643
00:53:28.559 --> 00:53:34.280
and quite I think it's a very cruel thing to

644
00:53:34.360 --> 00:53:41.159
do actually, to be honest. But hey, but it was

645
00:53:41.599 --> 00:53:49.000
a learning experience. And when you think that was forty

646
00:53:49.119 --> 00:53:56.760
years ago, thirty eight years ago, I mean, it's kind

647
00:53:56.800 --> 00:54:00.800
of crazy in it. Thirty eight years on. All different

648
00:54:00.840 --> 00:54:05.440
things I've learned since then comes back to that is belief.

649
00:54:07.280 --> 00:54:10.679
And with all the religious stuff that I've kind of studied,

650
00:54:10.760 --> 00:54:15.960
and I've been interested in religion, different religions since I

651
00:54:16.079 --> 00:54:20.199
was a kid. I don't know why, just it wasn't

652
00:54:20.239 --> 00:54:26.880
so much interested in the specifics of the religion.

653
00:54:28.239 --> 00:54:29.639
Or the rules.

654
00:54:33.039 --> 00:54:36.719
I was fascinated by why people did it. I was

655
00:54:36.920 --> 00:54:41.159
fascinated and I still am't really I understand it a

656
00:54:41.159 --> 00:54:43.679
little bit more now than I used to, I think,

657
00:54:44.679 --> 00:54:46.199
but just fascinated how.

658
00:54:48.840 --> 00:54:49.039
Why.

659
00:54:50.159 --> 00:54:58.079
Well I kind of understand why people need religion, but

660
00:54:58.199 --> 00:55:01.840
I can there's like two sides to it because I've

661
00:55:01.960 --> 00:55:05.639
seen the damage, like from a I don't want to

662
00:55:05.639 --> 00:55:08.199
say damage, but how someone can turn it to be

663
00:55:08.280 --> 00:55:14.440
in a negative. So I knew someone that was they

664
00:55:14.599 --> 00:55:20.079
lost someone close to them. That person's gone to heaven.

665
00:55:21.760 --> 00:55:22.679
Good good thing.

666
00:55:23.000 --> 00:55:23.159
You know.

667
00:55:23.239 --> 00:55:26.719
That's a kind of a positive way to deal with it.

668
00:55:27.199 --> 00:55:32.159
They're gone to heaven. They're happy now, they're now, they're

669
00:55:32.199 --> 00:55:35.760
not suffering anymore. That kind of I know it's cliche stuff,

670
00:55:35.800 --> 00:55:40.920
but it was. It's got to be helpful. It can't

671
00:55:41.039 --> 00:55:46.199
not be really can It's like, so, Okay, I'm going

672
00:55:46.280 --> 00:55:50.440
to see them again soon. That's nice, so it's not

673
00:55:50.559 --> 00:55:52.719
the last time you ever see them. So there's that belief.

674
00:55:53.480 --> 00:55:58.599
It can be comforting. But then that belief turned for

675
00:55:58.719 --> 00:56:03.480
this one person. I'm thinking about turned into I want

676
00:56:03.519 --> 00:56:13.280
to be with them now, and it's like no, and

677
00:56:13.920 --> 00:56:16.360
they tried to be with them now as it were,

678
00:56:17.079 --> 00:56:18.760
this is a few years ago.

679
00:56:19.320 --> 00:56:20.639
And well.

680
00:56:23.000 --> 00:56:24.639
It's really hard. So what do you do with that?

681
00:56:24.760 --> 00:56:28.679
It's like, okay, well, if you didn't believe in that

682
00:56:28.880 --> 00:56:32.679
belief system, that religious belief system, then you wouldn't be

683
00:56:32.760 --> 00:56:35.039
doing that because you wouldn't be trying to be with them.

684
00:56:35.079 --> 00:56:38.159
If you didn't believe you could be with them, you'd

685
00:56:38.840 --> 00:56:41.599
perhaps just have to find a way to move on

686
00:56:41.719 --> 00:56:49.320
with your life. So yeah, it's a complicated thing. But

687
00:56:49.400 --> 00:56:51.199
I've just seen some of the things that people do.

688
00:56:52.159 --> 00:56:53.800
A lot of it's been on the news, to be fair,

689
00:56:54.000 --> 00:57:03.360
but based on belief, based on their expectations of what's

690
00:57:03.440 --> 00:57:07.960
going to happen to them or if they're going to

691
00:57:08.000 --> 00:57:13.280
be rewarded, even if it's doing a non good thing.

692
00:57:14.079 --> 00:57:27.239
I'm keeping this very vague. So it's really powerful if

693
00:57:27.320 --> 00:57:31.760
you take anyone you having the chance to raise a

694
00:57:32.000 --> 00:57:36.239
child is a chance to raise your own little angel,

695
00:57:36.360 --> 00:57:39.639
or your own little monster, or your own little confused

696
00:57:39.880 --> 00:57:46.280
creature that doesn't know what I mean. I just don't

697
00:57:46.360 --> 00:57:51.639
think individual human beings necessarily always I know I wouldn't.

698
00:57:52.480 --> 00:57:56.079
I wouldn't have the capacity to raise a child in

699
00:57:56.199 --> 00:58:00.320
a way that they needed to be raised. I don't think.

700
00:58:00.440 --> 00:58:03.239
I mean, some people do have that, some people like

701
00:58:03.400 --> 00:58:11.280
me probably don't. I don't think I'm patient enough. But

702
00:58:11.360 --> 00:58:18.079
it's really weird to just think how much you can

703
00:58:19.239 --> 00:58:25.239
forge a child's brain and their mind by the stuff

704
00:58:25.360 --> 00:58:27.320
you say, by what they see you do, what they

705
00:58:27.400 --> 00:58:32.599
hear you say, the behavior, your belief structure, what you

706
00:58:32.800 --> 00:58:36.880
tell them things like as fact when it's just an opinion,

707
00:58:37.519 --> 00:58:40.400
and they believe it and they will literally do anything

708
00:58:40.599 --> 00:58:44.639
to back up because you've said it, so therefore it's true.

709
00:58:46.119 --> 00:58:49.880
And I've seen that in action. And I had a

710
00:58:50.000 --> 00:58:55.559
friend that and I told his mum this, I said,

711
00:58:55.639 --> 00:59:00.480
you know what, I'm my friend who passed away his funeral.

712
00:59:00.559 --> 00:59:04.199
I told his mum, do you realize that he believed

713
00:59:04.360 --> 00:59:07.920
every single thing you said to him? And she laughed

714
00:59:08.119 --> 00:59:11.480
and I said, serious, if you came in here now

715
00:59:11.840 --> 00:59:15.000
and told everyone, okay, if you okay, not now, but

716
00:59:15.519 --> 00:59:21.039
if you told him on a Tuesday that was a Thursday,

717
00:59:25.239 --> 00:59:28.559
he would stick to that. He says, a Thursday. My

718
00:59:28.679 --> 00:59:31.559
mom said it's a Thursday, so it's a Thursday. Even

719
00:59:31.639 --> 00:59:35.880
if everyone's walking around with T shirts on saying it's

720
00:59:36.000 --> 00:59:40.400
Tuesday and the TV comes on and saying we're celebrating

721
00:59:40.440 --> 00:59:47.480
Tuesday Day today, he would completely ignore that factual information

722
00:59:48.159 --> 00:59:51.760
because his mom said it was Thursday, and he wouldn't

723
00:59:51.800 --> 00:59:59.920
back down, not for anything. I've never had that connection

724
01:00:00.199 --> 01:00:07.039
with anyone to believe what they say. So I've heard

725
01:00:07.199 --> 01:00:11.280
so much bs ever since I was born, so much

726
01:00:11.480 --> 01:00:19.440
just silly stuff that I realized that nobody is going

727
01:00:19.519 --> 01:00:23.280
to be telling the truth the whole time because a

728
01:00:23.320 --> 01:00:24.880
lot of it is just made up. A lot of

729
01:00:24.960 --> 01:00:28.239
it is It might be truthful to them, but it

730
01:00:28.360 --> 01:00:33.719
might be someone else's lie and opinions and all that stuff.

731
01:00:33.800 --> 01:00:38.079
So I think I've benefited in a way from not

732
01:00:38.199 --> 01:00:42.480
being in that sort of stuck structure of I believe this,

733
01:00:44.480 --> 01:00:47.039
and I'm never going to change how I think I

734
01:00:47.199 --> 01:00:52.719
believe this, or I kind of don't have that. I

735
01:00:52.800 --> 01:00:54.360
think life would be a lot easier if I did.

736
01:00:54.760 --> 01:00:57.760
To be fair. I've said to be fair three times now,

737
01:00:58.519 --> 01:01:03.880
to be honest, I don't like to be honest, and

738
01:01:04.000 --> 01:01:06.239
I've kind of moved away probably from what you were asking.

739
01:01:07.679 --> 01:01:13.800
So what's my favorite ice cream? Okay, it is. I like, no,

740
01:01:16.440 --> 01:01:20.800
everything we do, this is my little belief Everything we

741
01:01:21.039 --> 01:01:32.639
do affects us, whether it's our belief system, whether it's

742
01:01:34.280 --> 01:01:39.519
and our beliefs. I mean, some people's it's hard for

743
01:01:39.639 --> 01:01:42.920
their belief system to change, but I've seen my belief

744
01:01:43.000 --> 01:01:51.079
systems changeing like an instant. One example is, ok, I

745
01:01:52.039 --> 01:01:57.159
have a real issue with motorbikes. Just this, just the

746
01:01:57.280 --> 01:01:59.840
sound of them, That's all it is. I don't like

747
01:02:00.119 --> 01:02:05.719
loud sounds, never have done, probably never will do. Maybe

748
01:02:07.639 --> 01:02:09.760
I've got a theory what that is, but it's it's

749
01:02:11.679 --> 01:02:12.519
just part of my brain.

750
01:02:12.639 --> 01:02:12.960
I can't.

751
01:02:13.000 --> 01:02:16.320
I can't deal with loud, really loud sounds. I don't

752
01:02:16.360 --> 01:02:20.320
even have loud music on, you know. I have it

753
01:02:20.400 --> 01:02:23.519
on loud enough so I can hear what I'm listening to, don't.

754
01:02:23.639 --> 01:02:25.559
I don't even like to put it on louder. If

755
01:02:25.599 --> 01:02:28.320
I have to cover up noise in the garden because

756
01:02:28.320 --> 01:02:29.079
it's too loud for.

757
01:02:29.159 --> 01:02:29.519
Me, then.

758
01:02:31.239 --> 01:02:35.440
So, because I got an issue. If I see a

759
01:02:35.480 --> 01:02:42.960
motorbike revin I go into that little angry mode. My

760
01:02:43.079 --> 01:02:49.000
little angry smurf pops up. It's like, how could you

761
01:02:49.079 --> 01:02:52.880
be so inconsiderate to me, even when they don't even

762
01:02:52.920 --> 01:02:55.039
know I exist, you know, not the smurf. I'm talking

763
01:02:55.079 --> 01:03:01.360
about the person on the bike. So I'm thinking, and

764
01:03:01.440 --> 01:03:05.440
I'm walking past, I'm just like, and then I hear

765
01:03:05.679 --> 01:03:10.639
we coming from that direction. I look over, puts his

766
01:03:10.760 --> 01:03:13.079
visor up, and it's someone that I see regularly who

767
01:03:13.119 --> 01:03:20.119
walks his dog. Instantly, that belief, Okay, not the whole

768
01:03:20.159 --> 01:03:22.599
belief about bikes and noise hasn't changed, because I still

769
01:03:22.599 --> 01:03:25.559
have an issue with noise, but the emotions connected to

770
01:03:26.840 --> 01:03:32.280
motorbikes seem to have eased, definitely eased in that moment anyway,

771
01:03:34.440 --> 01:03:40.079
which showed that the if it can bend, if a

772
01:03:40.159 --> 01:03:47.440
belief system can bend quite easily and be molded and

773
01:03:47.840 --> 01:03:56.360
sort of curved around quite easily, be manipulated and maneuvered,

774
01:03:56.480 --> 01:03:59.159
I'm trying to think of clever words, then it's not

775
01:03:59.280 --> 01:04:08.239
really it's yeah, if it can be. If it's not

776
01:04:08.519 --> 01:04:13.400
that tightly structured so that it can be moved and

777
01:04:13.599 --> 01:04:22.840
changed so easily, says Vinney's Flappy Years, then it's not

778
01:04:23.039 --> 01:04:25.480
very strong, is it that belief? That belief is not

779
01:04:25.519 --> 01:04:36.719
a very strong belief if it can almost transform instantly.

780
01:04:37.360 --> 01:04:42.360
It was never a strong belief. There was never a

781
01:04:42.880 --> 01:04:49.480
really however strong the emotions were at times, wasn't connected

782
01:04:49.760 --> 01:05:01.360
to a particularly strong foundation. M M yes, so yeah,

783
01:05:01.519 --> 01:05:04.679
I probably can't. I can't answer your question in a

784
01:05:04.760 --> 01:05:07.840
way that I may maybe you'd like to hear me

785
01:05:07.960 --> 01:05:11.079
answer it again. I can only assume on that one.

786
01:05:11.119 --> 01:05:13.440
I don't know, but I can't answer it in a

787
01:05:13.480 --> 01:05:18.320
way that you would get in a textbook or in

788
01:05:18.400 --> 01:05:24.320
a way that makes any cognitive sense. Probably, I'm just

789
01:05:24.639 --> 01:05:30.199
trying to explain from my perspective kind of how I

790
01:05:30.320 --> 01:05:35.960
map it out in front of me, going to like rituals.

791
01:05:37.760 --> 01:05:40.320
You got rituals, so you've got things like I know,

792
01:05:41.039 --> 01:05:45.599
you go go far back. Okay, take a breath.

793
01:05:46.079 --> 01:05:46.320
I go.

794
01:05:48.159 --> 01:05:51.559
From a religious point of view this country. Things like

795
01:05:51.719 --> 01:05:53.679
Christianity aren't from this country.

796
01:05:56.119 --> 01:05:56.320
You know.

797
01:05:57.199 --> 01:06:04.440
They're not from Africa, They're not from America. Christianity, Islam, Hinduism, Buddhism,

798
01:06:05.559 --> 01:06:10.239
none of these religions are from the countries you know

799
01:06:13.440 --> 01:06:19.199
are probably most of the people listening. So if you

800
01:06:19.280 --> 01:06:24.599
go back to your original country, the leaf systems, if

801
01:06:24.599 --> 01:06:28.400
you're in Australia, or if you're in Canada, if you're

802
01:06:28.440 --> 01:06:33.800
in America, if you're in England, in Scotland, in Wales.

803
01:06:35.199 --> 01:06:41.719
It's different. It's a completely different belief structure that we

804
01:06:41.880 --> 01:06:46.559
came from originally. Although I'm forty eight percent Irish. I

805
01:06:46.599 --> 01:06:50.639
don't know if I've mentioned that. So my ancestors, my

806
01:06:50.760 --> 01:06:56.119
ancestors were like pretty much Irish, so that would be Celtic.

807
01:06:56.280 --> 01:06:59.840
And there was a lot of ritual and it goes

808
01:06:59.880 --> 01:07:05.599
back to almost worshiping the sun and the wind and

809
01:07:05.760 --> 01:07:09.280
the trees. And I don't know, I'll make part of

810
01:07:09.360 --> 01:07:15.960
that up, but there's that belief system. You know, people

811
01:07:19.960 --> 01:07:23.960
I guess like carrying a rabbit's foot or believe in

812
01:07:24.639 --> 01:07:32.880
something's good luck because it is for them, no matter

813
01:07:32.960 --> 01:07:38.360
how ridiculous it seems to everyone else. I've seen people

814
01:07:38.800 --> 01:07:43.639
that are superstitious, and I think nearly everyone i've seen

815
01:07:43.679 --> 01:07:50.599
that's superstitious in a working environment as successful. I've seen

816
01:07:50.639 --> 01:07:54.480
that a few times and they've been successful. They're actually good.

817
01:07:55.239 --> 01:08:00.440
And you mess with their superstitious thing, whether it's they

818
01:08:00.519 --> 01:08:06.199
might have a picture of their their daughter on the thing,

819
01:08:06.960 --> 01:08:10.000
so if you draw a mustache on their daughter photograph,

820
01:08:10.719 --> 01:08:17.039
this is their day up. Whether they're superstitious or not,

821
01:08:17.119 --> 01:08:24.880
I suppose, But if they lose the the the thing

822
01:08:25.319 --> 01:08:28.279
that they have as a I guess kind of like

823
01:08:28.359 --> 01:08:39.319
a talisman or whatever. So you know, it's it's belief,

824
01:08:42.239 --> 01:08:47.359
and I think next to that belief expectations. When you

825
01:08:47.439 --> 01:08:51.000
believe something, then you expect something. I think you kind

826
01:08:51.039 --> 01:08:54.800
of need both. When you got both together, it makes

827
01:08:54.840 --> 01:09:02.760
a very strong, super strong. So, for example, Paul, there

828
01:09:02.880 --> 01:09:06.479
was a time when I was confident going out, confident

829
01:09:06.720 --> 01:09:12.680
that I would be able to talk confidently to ladies. Yes,

830
01:09:12.760 --> 01:09:18.119
it's twenty twenty five years ago, so it's a while back.

831
01:09:20.720 --> 01:09:23.880
But I felt confident and I had that belief, but

832
01:09:24.000 --> 01:09:27.800
it wasn't just it was belief. So the expectations were

833
01:09:27.840 --> 01:09:30.960
based on my belief, but also that belief was based

834
01:09:31.119 --> 01:09:36.039
on previous experience. So all the previous experience and all

835
01:09:36.119 --> 01:09:42.880
the new experience was kind of backing up that belief,

836
01:09:45.079 --> 01:09:52.119
confirming it, new evidence, more evidence to confirm it. But

837
01:09:52.199 --> 01:10:00.399
I was ignoring the evidence that was confirming otherwise because

838
01:10:00.399 --> 01:10:03.920
that's what I focused on. So I was you know,

839
01:10:04.560 --> 01:10:06.399
that wasn't all I was doing. I'm just saying I've

840
01:10:06.479 --> 01:10:11.359
just had a period when I was fairly confident. Didn't

841
01:10:11.439 --> 01:10:20.159
last long. Three hours, Yeah, so I don't know, I

842
01:10:20.279 --> 01:10:34.880
probably haven't answered your question. Our subconscious patterns, we can

843
01:10:35.079 --> 01:10:43.840
change what we think about by just thinking on purpose.

844
01:10:46.000 --> 01:10:50.039
Sometimes it is that instead of just allowing I mean,

845
01:10:50.079 --> 01:10:52.079
it's just something to be said for allowing thoughts to

846
01:10:52.159 --> 01:10:55.119
come and go. And that's a kind of meditation in itself.

847
01:10:56.479 --> 01:10:59.159
But when you're doing that, you're not holding onto them,

848
01:11:00.239 --> 01:11:06.319
following the thoughts. So in a meditation, if, for example,

849
01:11:06.399 --> 01:11:13.359
you just sit and just breathe always made me laugh

850
01:11:13.439 --> 01:11:18.159
every time the meditation leader would say, don't forget to breathe.

851
01:11:18.560 --> 01:11:26.479
I've never once forgotten to breathe. It's like, you know, swimming,

852
01:11:27.600 --> 01:11:33.680
people are going swimming. Don't forget to swim. Really, don't

853
01:11:33.680 --> 01:11:42.560
forget to keep above the water. Okay, oh, don't forget

854
01:11:42.600 --> 01:11:50.039
to eat. I've never forgotten to eat anyway, So on

855
01:11:50.159 --> 01:11:53.279
a recent show, So there's there's I could go on

856
01:11:53.359 --> 01:11:55.159
and on about that all day long, and it probably

857
01:11:55.199 --> 01:12:08.760
wouldn't make any more sense. Possibly, but there's something to

858
01:12:08.800 --> 01:12:14.000
be said for just sitting down allowing your thoughts to

859
01:12:14.159 --> 01:12:17.439
just come, but don't follow the thoughts. You will follow them,

860
01:12:17.760 --> 01:12:20.439
but once you once you notice you're kind of focusing

861
01:12:20.520 --> 01:12:30.560
on something let it go and then just just allow

862
01:12:30.600 --> 01:12:33.640
the thoughts to come and go, and then when you

863
01:12:33.760 --> 01:12:41.479
notice yourself focusing on something, let it go again. And

864
01:12:41.600 --> 01:12:45.159
it's kind of a good way to it's it's a

865
01:12:45.359 --> 01:12:47.920
similar thing if you want to find out if you're

866
01:12:47.960 --> 01:12:51.880
going to buy take over a restaurant or let's say

867
01:12:51.880 --> 01:12:58.319
it's a fast food place or a chip shop. Yeah

868
01:12:58.399 --> 01:13:01.239
it's a chip shop, and you want to find out

869
01:13:01.920 --> 01:13:04.479
the kind of customers you're going to get. You want

870
01:13:04.479 --> 01:13:06.119
to find out what it's going to be, like, what

871
01:13:06.319 --> 01:13:12.640
kind of foot traffic you're going to get. Then you

872
01:13:12.800 --> 01:13:14.680
sit in the window and look out. You're sitting there

873
01:13:14.720 --> 01:13:22.720
and watch, and the longer you sit, the more of

874
01:13:22.760 --> 01:13:24.600
an idea you're going to get of what's going on.

875
01:13:24.720 --> 01:13:29.800
And you start seeing patterns. Oh, that bloke's coming, he

876
01:13:29.920 --> 01:13:38.600
comes in every Tuesday and every Thursday. Oh he's always

877
01:13:38.640 --> 01:13:41.560
got yogurt on his head. You know, just things like that,

878
01:13:42.279 --> 01:13:47.479
and it can be it could be quite interesting to

879
01:13:47.600 --> 01:13:55.359
see the to see to notice what you're thinking without

880
01:13:55.439 --> 01:14:02.199
adding anything, without getting into an internal dialogue or being imaginative,

881
01:14:03.640 --> 01:14:04.800
which can also be fun.

882
01:14:05.039 --> 01:14:05.920
I suppose.

883
01:14:08.640 --> 01:14:12.239
I don't know if I've answered that. Jonathan On a

884
01:14:12.319 --> 01:14:15.399
recent show, you mentioned a disability of yours but didn't

885
01:14:15.399 --> 01:14:18.359
refer to what it was, and also implied that you

886
01:14:18.560 --> 01:14:24.239
maybe don't drive. But curious about both of these. Well,

887
01:14:26.920 --> 01:14:30.239
that's the thing with these recordings. I've mentioned it a

888
01:14:30.319 --> 01:14:33.800
few times, but I know that sometimes if people fall

889
01:14:33.840 --> 01:14:36.199
asleep or whatever, they just you're not going to hear

890
01:14:36.239 --> 01:14:39.640
what I've talked about. But I don't know if I'll

891
01:14:39.640 --> 01:14:44.720
mentioned it too much. But yeah, I have a We've

892
01:14:44.720 --> 01:14:49.159
got bipolar effective disorder and which is classed as a

893
01:14:51.520 --> 01:15:03.119
disability with me and eu PDS an emotionally unstable personality disorder.

894
01:15:04.199 --> 01:15:07.159
So they are the two things. It's not mental mental

895
01:15:07.239 --> 01:15:13.760
stuff that's my disability. I haven't got any physical disabilities.

896
01:15:15.199 --> 01:15:21.119
But I do have a disability bus pass. I do

897
01:15:21.680 --> 01:15:29.159
come like an old pension and now I do not

898
01:15:29.239 --> 01:15:32.960
allowed to drive because of the medication I'm on because

899
01:15:32.960 --> 01:15:41.760
it causes drowsiness and the d d w what is

900
01:15:41.800 --> 01:15:45.520
it called, the d LP PL DAL whatever d w

901
01:15:46.199 --> 01:15:52.359
L the driving people driving, I forget the name of

902
01:15:53.000 --> 01:15:57.279
the company the driving place. Yeah, they didn't ban me

903
01:15:59.560 --> 01:16:01.640
like in a way of like banning me for drink

904
01:16:01.760 --> 01:16:05.159
driving or whatever or speeding. They just banned me from driving.

905
01:16:05.199 --> 01:16:09.199
They said, you're not allowed to drive. This was quite

906
01:16:09.199 --> 01:16:14.760
a few years ago. However, I don't drive. I can't drive,

907
01:16:18.319 --> 01:16:24.199
so it's one of those weird things. When I first

908
01:16:24.279 --> 01:16:27.119
got my bus pass, I had to go to the

909
01:16:27.399 --> 01:16:33.800
driving place and get proof about me not being able

910
01:16:33.840 --> 01:16:36.159
to drive. That's the only reason they would give me

911
01:16:36.199 --> 01:16:40.000
a bus pass. So I just went scott let from

912
01:16:40.039 --> 01:16:41.760
the doctor just to tell them what I was, my

913
01:16:41.920 --> 01:16:47.680
situation and they banned me. Was like, wow, but yeah,

914
01:16:48.079 --> 01:16:52.079
I don't know quite it causes drowsiness to medications. I

915
01:16:52.119 --> 01:16:54.800
think it's probably more to do with that than my

916
01:16:57.239 --> 01:17:01.239
my road rage potential. I don't know. Yeah, I don't

917
01:17:01.239 --> 01:17:03.159
know what kind of driver I would be, but yeah,

918
01:17:03.159 --> 01:17:06.479
I don't drive. Never driven. I've had two sets of

919
01:17:06.560 --> 01:17:13.359
driving lessons, one in London and one in Ipswich. Period

920
01:17:14.119 --> 01:17:19.439
in London nineteen ninety one, what's the point? I was

921
01:17:19.520 --> 01:17:23.239
walking fast and the traffic was driving. I didn't really

922
01:17:23.399 --> 01:17:28.199
see the bigger picture, really like earth driving outside of London.

923
01:17:28.720 --> 01:17:32.680
But inside of London it didn't seem any point. It's

924
01:17:32.880 --> 01:17:37.000
everything was moving so slowly and you've got cars you have,

925
01:17:37.279 --> 01:17:39.239
you can't even drive. You can You've got stopped like

926
01:17:39.319 --> 01:17:42.680
every two seconds to let cars through because people are

927
01:17:42.720 --> 01:17:46.960
parked both sides of the road, because you're not allowed

928
01:17:47.000 --> 01:17:50.680
to park on the pavement in London, which is I'm glad.

929
01:17:51.760 --> 01:17:55.000
That's one of my big pet peeves, people parking on

930
01:17:55.079 --> 01:17:57.920
the pavement. I don't know what it is. We've got

931
01:17:57.960 --> 01:18:05.119
someone locally it's an ambulance. They park on the pavement. Anyway, Yeah,

932
01:18:05.159 --> 01:18:07.640
I just got my little pet peeve, people parking on

933
01:18:07.720 --> 01:18:10.960
the pavement. You're not allowed to do that in London.

934
01:18:11.840 --> 01:18:14.039
You're not allowed to do it anywhere in this country,

935
01:18:14.279 --> 01:18:19.239
but it's not enforced, but in London it's enforced. So

936
01:18:19.600 --> 01:18:22.920
you literally got to stop and if there's another car company,

937
01:18:22.920 --> 01:18:24.720
you've got to let them through or they'll let you through.

938
01:18:27.479 --> 01:18:32.439
And yeah, so I just didn't see the point in driving.

939
01:18:34.239 --> 01:18:36.479
Plus I was working whenever I had the money to

940
01:18:36.600 --> 01:18:39.800
pay for driving lessons. I was working too many hours

941
01:18:40.960 --> 01:18:50.720
to have any time to take driving lessons. So that's that,

942
01:18:53.800 --> 01:18:58.000
Joe Anne, not a question. But if you are thinking

943
01:18:58.000 --> 01:19:01.640
about selling merch, I would definitely wear a T shirt

944
01:19:01.760 --> 01:19:08.760
that said I sleep with Jason every night, or Temmy says,

945
01:19:09.119 --> 01:19:12.560
that's shirt I definitely could not wear to work, and

946
01:19:12.680 --> 01:19:18.199
I'm thinking why and then tell me put someone by

947
01:19:18.319 --> 01:19:21.680
the same name in my office so I don't want

948
01:19:21.680 --> 01:19:28.279
to give them ideas. Yeah, that could get awkward. By

949
01:19:28.319 --> 01:19:29.840
the way, I shouldn't be reading you about what other

950
01:19:29.880 --> 01:19:33.279
people have written, because you need to join the boarding

951
01:19:33.359 --> 01:19:36.239
group Jason Newland's boring group. If you want to see

952
01:19:36.279 --> 01:19:38.000
what people have written, you need to join.

953
01:19:38.159 --> 01:19:38.319
Man.

954
01:19:40.399 --> 01:19:42.800
So the next one, Oh, yeah, I've got to answer

955
01:19:42.840 --> 01:19:47.760
that question, am I sorry? I was thinking about that.

956
01:19:47.960 --> 01:19:52.039
I mean, you know, merch merchandise isn't going to happen

957
01:19:52.039 --> 01:19:56.600
anywhere anytime soon, maybe in the future. Unless you want

958
01:19:56.640 --> 01:20:02.319
to just make some yourself. That would be cool. Maybe

959
01:20:02.399 --> 01:20:05.880
put my website at the bottom, my website address, just

960
01:20:06.000 --> 01:20:12.359
otherwise they won't know who you're talking about. Man. But yeah,

961
01:20:12.640 --> 01:20:15.199
I used to have a T shirt with let Me

962
01:20:15.279 --> 01:20:21.359
Boy to Sleep on it and my website address. People

963
01:20:21.479 --> 01:20:24.439
did actually look they used to look at it. It

964
01:20:24.560 --> 01:20:30.399
was quite a bright picture an image, and I'm not

965
01:20:30.479 --> 01:20:32.279
sure if I had Andre on there, might've had a

966
01:20:32.319 --> 01:20:36.079
picture of Andrea on there as well. See, that's the

967
01:20:36.119 --> 01:20:40.680
weird thing. I don't think about the future like that's

968
01:20:40.720 --> 01:20:42.680
the kind of thing that I should have gotten and

969
01:20:43.000 --> 01:20:45.680
just kept one. Isn't it because I got it printed

970
01:20:45.760 --> 01:20:49.279
for me, I should have kept one and just kept

971
01:20:49.319 --> 01:20:54.920
it somewhere safe as a kind of keepsake. I had

972
01:20:55.000 --> 01:21:00.079
a T shirt with chronic pain relief on it of

973
01:21:00.119 --> 01:21:02.359
a website. I had another one with free pain relief

974
01:21:02.560 --> 01:21:06.079
back in two thousand and six T shirt. I remember

975
01:21:06.159 --> 01:21:11.359
collecting that and again I just wore it until it

976
01:21:11.399 --> 01:21:16.720
wore out. See you what I had. I had a

977
01:21:16.760 --> 01:21:20.079
T shirt in nineteen ninety one and it was a

978
01:21:20.119 --> 01:21:24.840
picture of me. It was in the West End, and

979
01:21:25.199 --> 01:21:30.479
there's this bloke taking photographs, and I mentioned a lot

980
01:21:30.479 --> 01:21:32.840
of people would take a photograph of their loved one,

981
01:21:33.439 --> 01:21:36.359
maybe of their kids, and then having it printed on

982
01:21:36.439 --> 01:21:40.800
a T shirt for them to wear. But I had

983
01:21:40.800 --> 01:21:44.399
a picture of me and I had put it onto

984
01:21:44.439 --> 01:21:46.680
a T shirt and I wore that T shirt of myself.

985
01:21:48.840 --> 01:21:51.119
No one ever mentioned it, no one ever said anything.

986
01:21:55.800 --> 01:22:01.399
Maybe it was a baseball bat. Sean. This is a question,

987
01:22:01.720 --> 01:22:06.880
Sean asks me, how are you able to recall dates

988
01:22:07.039 --> 01:22:11.720
so accurately? I have often been drifted in off and

989
01:22:12.119 --> 01:22:17.159
you'll be talking about something you've seen or that happened

990
01:22:17.199 --> 01:22:19.439
to you in the past, and you seem to be

991
01:22:20.319 --> 01:22:26.039
very accurately recall the specific year it happened. It's quite impressive.

992
01:22:26.520 --> 01:22:31.479
Thank you very much. This question finally being asked after

993
01:22:31.600 --> 01:22:36.000
you list the Lion documentary release years in the Disney

994
01:22:36.119 --> 01:22:40.520
Triviury episode. You're able to do it with your stories.

995
01:22:42.720 --> 01:22:45.359
So I start this question again because I've just been

996
01:22:45.720 --> 01:23:11.199
rudely interrupted by three different dogs and someone downstairs shouting

997
01:23:11.239 --> 01:23:17.199
as well. Now brilliant, right here we go, Sean says,

998
01:23:17.239 --> 01:23:19.840
how are you able to record date so accurately? I've

999
01:23:19.880 --> 01:23:22.319
often been drifted off and you'll be talking about something

1000
01:23:22.359 --> 01:23:25.600
you've seen or that happened to you in the past,

1001
01:23:26.239 --> 01:23:30.079
and you seem to be very accurately recalling the specific

1002
01:23:30.199 --> 01:23:34.359
year it happened. It's quite impressive. I agree, Thank you

1003
01:23:34.479 --> 01:23:40.840
very much. And this question finally being asked after you

1004
01:23:41.000 --> 01:23:45.840
list the Lion documentary release years in the True Disney

1005
01:23:45.960 --> 01:23:50.079
Trivia episode. You're also able to do it with your

1006
01:23:50.199 --> 01:23:54.279
stories too, in X year this happened, etc. I'm always

1007
01:23:54.279 --> 01:23:58.159
amazed by your memory. Well, thank you well, I mean

1008
01:23:58.359 --> 01:24:00.560
to be saying, sometimes I do it the laptop in

1009
01:24:00.600 --> 01:24:05.600
front of me, so if I'm looking up stuff. So

1010
01:24:05.640 --> 01:24:11.039
I don't always remember every single year, but when it's

1011
01:24:12.479 --> 01:24:15.800
when it's to do with my life, not to do

1012
01:24:15.920 --> 01:24:23.920
with my life. I mean technically Madonna releasing The Like

1013
01:24:24.000 --> 01:24:29.920
a Prayer album in nineteen eighty nine wasn't to do

1014
01:24:30.039 --> 01:24:34.479
with my life, but it was. It signified a particular time.

1015
01:24:35.800 --> 01:24:42.079
Remember listening to it in France, in the France very poor.

1016
01:24:43.079 --> 01:24:45.640
It might have been Dover, even Dover or France, but

1017
01:24:45.680 --> 01:24:48.920
I think it was France and it was be Calai

1018
01:24:48.960 --> 01:24:52.640
I suppose, wasn't it, and the video, The Like a

1019
01:24:52.680 --> 01:24:57.880
Prayer video was on. But there's a few ways I

1020
01:24:58.000 --> 01:25:00.840
do it. I don't do it on purpose. And I

1021
01:25:00.920 --> 01:25:02.520
had a friend that used to keep They used to

1022
01:25:02.600 --> 01:25:05.439
mock me for it when I'd sort of say the

1023
01:25:05.560 --> 01:25:09.560
year or sometimes the month as well, and they'd picked

1024
01:25:09.600 --> 01:25:11.079
me up on it to the point where I felt

1025
01:25:11.079 --> 01:25:15.039
a little bit self conscious. And I don't like feeling it.

1026
01:25:15.079 --> 01:25:18.520
I don't think anyone likes feeling self conscious today, So

1027
01:25:18.600 --> 01:25:23.439
I kind of felt, oh, and like I had to

1028
01:25:23.439 --> 01:25:28.399
stop doing it. This is with someone like in person,

1029
01:25:28.479 --> 01:25:30.800
you know, and they'd like start laughing every time I've

1030
01:25:30.840 --> 01:25:34.760
mentioned a year. I don't know why I do it.

1031
01:25:34.800 --> 01:25:39.119
I think it's just I don't know how I do it. Rather,

1032
01:25:41.479 --> 01:25:44.600
I think the reason I do it is to I'd

1033
01:25:44.680 --> 01:25:48.000
like to treat it, try and be a little bit factual.

1034
01:25:49.199 --> 01:25:54.399
But also it's just me kind of talking out loud

1035
01:25:55.039 --> 01:26:00.760
the process, the brain process that's going on. I've got

1036
01:26:00.840 --> 01:26:06.319
my life broken into different parts in my memory, and

1037
01:26:06.399 --> 01:26:08.720
there's a lot of things I don't remember. I mean,

1038
01:26:08.760 --> 01:26:13.439
I generally don't remember much about Thailand. I don't remember

1039
01:26:13.520 --> 01:26:16.560
much about the last few years, last couple of years,

1040
01:26:21.560 --> 01:26:28.640
or the last week or so. There's and that's partly

1041
01:26:28.680 --> 01:26:34.199
because nothing's going on. Because even though I've generally had

1042
01:26:34.319 --> 01:26:38.920
quite a boring life, but at the same time, it

1043
01:26:39.159 --> 01:26:40.720
wasn't boring, if you know what I mean.

1044
01:26:41.199 --> 01:26:41.520
It was.

1045
01:26:46.520 --> 01:26:49.880
It's constantly on the move, constantly moving from place to place,

1046
01:26:50.600 --> 01:26:52.720
even if it was in the same part of town

1047
01:26:52.920 --> 01:26:55.680
or the same part of the country. I'd you know,

1048
01:26:56.600 --> 01:26:59.960
I'd been moving every couple of years, every year, sometimes

1049
01:27:00.359 --> 01:27:04.960
twice three times a year, and I'd be having different jobs,

1050
01:27:06.680 --> 01:27:09.960
and I'd be having different girlfriends, and i'd be different

1051
01:27:10.000 --> 01:27:15.279
lots of different things happening, and I've got those things

1052
01:27:15.439 --> 01:27:22.600
kind of broken up, so I could list. Yeah, I

1053
01:27:22.640 --> 01:27:28.279
could go by jobs, or I could go by where

1054
01:27:28.319 --> 01:27:33.720
I've lived. I can pretty much. I can't remember the addresses,

1055
01:27:35.359 --> 01:27:39.359
but I can pretty much remember all the moves, and

1056
01:27:39.760 --> 01:27:42.279
a lot of them by date, not day date, but

1057
01:27:42.399 --> 01:27:45.680
by year, and sometimes even by roughly what part of

1058
01:27:45.720 --> 01:27:54.960
the year it was. And then there's jobs. So you know,

1059
01:27:55.079 --> 01:27:59.880
I started working nineteen eighty six in a chip shop,

1060
01:28:00.720 --> 01:28:02.880
so that's kind of the start. But if we go

1061
01:28:03.039 --> 01:28:05.640
all the way back to the very start of working,

1062
01:28:07.199 --> 01:28:14.119
and I had a paper round, and I worked in

1063
01:28:14.199 --> 01:28:17.560
the bakehouse, which was a restaurant. I worked in a

1064
01:28:17.680 --> 01:28:22.920
bakery of the restaurant at the weekend Saturday and Sunday,

1065
01:28:22.960 --> 01:28:29.079
I think it was it was either five o'clock on

1066
01:28:29.119 --> 01:28:32.239
a Saturday or five o'clock on a Sunday and six

1067
01:28:32.279 --> 01:28:37.319
o'clock the other day. I forget which was which, And

1068
01:28:38.039 --> 01:28:40.479
I think it might have been six o'clock Friday, at

1069
01:28:40.520 --> 01:28:45.119
six o'clock Saturday, five o'clock Sunday, because maybe Sunday was

1070
01:28:45.239 --> 01:28:47.720
busier day because then they've got a little coaches and

1071
01:28:47.800 --> 01:28:51.800
stuff come to you know, they would come to visit.

1072
01:28:54.399 --> 01:28:56.800
They wouldn't drive into the outu restaurant. They did park

1073
01:28:56.920 --> 01:29:03.319
and let all the people off, you know how coaches.

1074
01:29:02.960 --> 01:29:04.079
Work, So.

1075
01:29:05.600 --> 01:29:12.600
I I remember that. But then when I've got like

1076
01:29:12.760 --> 01:29:17.760
memories connected to each job, so I remember some of

1077
01:29:17.800 --> 01:29:22.279
the things I did, so if I if I zoom

1078
01:29:22.359 --> 01:29:27.720
in on a job, And maybe it's because I've been

1079
01:29:29.279 --> 01:29:32.680
I've focused on myself pretty much the whole time, and

1080
01:29:32.800 --> 01:29:38.199
it means some would say it's someone would argue it's

1081
01:29:38.279 --> 01:29:45.359
just me being selfish, or me put myself first or whatever.

1082
01:29:46.359 --> 01:29:51.560
But in some ways I kind of had to. There

1083
01:29:51.640 --> 01:29:57.800
hasn't been a safety net really, so I've kind of

1084
01:29:58.079 --> 01:30:00.720
not that. Probably many people have safety in it, but

1085
01:30:01.560 --> 01:30:05.439
I didn't have. I kind of I never really knew

1086
01:30:07.119 --> 01:30:09.600
what was going to happen next, or where I was

1087
01:30:09.640 --> 01:30:11.319
going to end up next, where I was going to

1088
01:30:11.399 --> 01:30:13.039
work next, where I was going to live next.

1089
01:30:14.560 --> 01:30:14.760
You know.

1090
01:30:15.159 --> 01:30:18.319
It was there's always that kind of quite uncertainty in

1091
01:30:18.479 --> 01:30:27.039
my life. Instability. Definitely. I was unstable in lots of

1092
01:30:27.039 --> 01:30:29.680
different ways. I'm not I'm not being a victim. I'm

1093
01:30:29.720 --> 01:30:33.000
just saying that's just how it was, and I didn't

1094
01:30:33.119 --> 01:30:35.960
seem to know how to get out of that. It's almost.

1095
01:30:37.479 --> 01:30:38.079
That that was.

1096
01:30:39.960 --> 01:30:45.000
In built, and I guess A lot of that would

1097
01:30:45.000 --> 01:30:47.600
have been because of when I was a little, very little,

1098
01:30:48.039 --> 01:30:52.000
we moved around a lot. I had stability at the

1099
01:30:52.039 --> 01:30:57.640
age of seven to the age of fifteen, I mean

1100
01:30:58.279 --> 01:31:03.239
we still moved so the ASA one, two, three, three

1101
01:31:03.319 --> 01:31:07.800
times four times, so I still moved four times in

1102
01:31:07.840 --> 01:31:10.720
those years. But there was a period between nine and

1103
01:31:12.319 --> 01:31:17.079
fifteen for six years where I stayed in the same place,

1104
01:31:18.520 --> 01:31:22.880
and until I moved here, that was the longest time

1105
01:31:22.960 --> 01:31:28.720
I ever lived anywhere six years. I've lived in places

1106
01:31:28.760 --> 01:31:32.760
for four years, three years, two years, a year, a

1107
01:31:32.840 --> 01:31:38.199
few months, and so yeah, I've got Sometimes when I

1108
01:31:38.319 --> 01:31:41.960
was younger, and maybe I was my brain was a

1109
01:31:42.000 --> 01:31:49.479
little bit too active to fall asleep, I would recall

1110
01:31:51.319 --> 01:31:56.560
all the different places I lived by year, So I

1111
01:31:56.640 --> 01:31:59.640
mean that's possibly why I remember. I'd recall all the

1112
01:31:59.640 --> 01:32:10.680
different places in order that I worked, and that used

1113
01:32:10.680 --> 01:32:13.439
to send me to sleep sometimes, so and I do

1114
01:32:13.560 --> 01:32:18.800
this in my twenties and my thirties. I don't know

1115
01:32:18.880 --> 01:32:21.039
how many times I moved around when I was very young.

1116
01:32:23.359 --> 01:32:25.079
A lot is going to be the answer to that,

1117
01:32:25.319 --> 01:32:28.399
but I don't know how many. So there's no stability,

1118
01:32:28.560 --> 01:32:35.279
really like proper stability. Until I was seven, and then

1119
01:32:35.800 --> 01:32:38.199
the stability was there because even though we moved a

1120
01:32:38.239 --> 01:32:40.920
couple of times, it was all of us together, so

1121
01:32:41.039 --> 01:32:49.359
it was it wasn't unstable from that perspective. Yeah, I

1122
01:32:49.439 --> 01:32:53.399
think the only stable thing I had up to the

1123
01:32:53.479 --> 01:33:01.199
age of fourteen whatever was my older brother, the one

1124
01:33:01.359 --> 01:33:03.239
just a bit older than me, because I was with

1125
01:33:03.439 --> 01:33:07.960
him the whole time. We we was in foster care

1126
01:33:08.039 --> 01:33:11.199
together for a year and a half or whatever when

1127
01:33:11.199 --> 01:33:14.920
I was six months old till about two, so we

1128
01:33:15.119 --> 01:33:20.239
lived together before that. Then we lived together just you know,

1129
01:33:20.399 --> 01:33:23.199
my older brother always stayed with my nano granddad, and

1130
01:33:23.359 --> 01:33:27.600
then we moved away. We got took away to Newcastle,

1131
01:33:28.159 --> 01:33:30.119
then we lived in the colored children's homes, and then

1132
01:33:30.159 --> 01:33:32.319
we came back and ended up living with my dad.

1133
01:33:32.399 --> 01:33:37.399
And so he was the only real consistent other than

1134
01:33:37.479 --> 01:33:41.119
my older brother who became consistent in my life from

1135
01:33:41.199 --> 01:33:45.079
the age of and he was there for the first

1136
01:33:45.119 --> 01:33:46.920
six months, but I didn't know anyone did like at

1137
01:33:46.960 --> 01:33:51.479
that point from their I'm sure there was a bond

1138
01:33:51.840 --> 01:33:54.680
six months. I probably would have bonded with him as

1139
01:33:54.760 --> 01:33:58.359
in emotionally known who he was because I see him

1140
01:33:58.359 --> 01:34:02.760
every day, I suppose. But from the age of two onwards,

1141
01:34:04.039 --> 01:34:11.199
so for five years of age two to fifteen. So

1142
01:34:11.359 --> 01:34:20.119
what's that thirteen years so thirteen years and fifteen years,

1143
01:34:20.159 --> 01:34:22.439
so thirteen years of my oldest brother, fifteen years my

1144
01:34:22.560 --> 01:34:25.000
younger brother got my other older brother, but not the

1145
01:34:25.079 --> 01:34:33.239
oldest Other than my dad and my nan, they were

1146
01:34:33.279 --> 01:34:35.960
the only two people. But it's differently because I lived

1147
01:34:36.000 --> 01:34:41.840
with them. I lived with my dad for seven to fifteen,

1148
01:34:43.359 --> 01:34:45.760
and I did live with him a few times after

1149
01:34:45.840 --> 01:34:52.279
that for a short period. I never lived with my nan.

1150
01:34:53.319 --> 01:34:55.640
I just stay over sometimes, but I'd never lived with her,

1151
01:34:56.640 --> 01:35:04.520
but i'd see her regularly, so I just I remember, Yeah,

1152
01:35:04.560 --> 01:35:06.880
I just got these little memories. Sometimes I do get

1153
01:35:06.960 --> 01:35:12.159
modeled up. I do think that, oh wait a minute,

1154
01:35:12.199 --> 01:35:17.960
that's that that was a different year, and like thinking

1155
01:35:18.000 --> 01:35:22.119
about something that happened over Christmas, and I'm thinking that

1156
01:35:22.279 --> 01:35:26.920
wasn't me, that's someone else's memory. I don't remember doing it.

1157
01:35:29.079 --> 01:35:35.960
I've never flown a plane, weird, so I have there's

1158
01:35:36.000 --> 01:35:40.000
also jobs looking at that, looking at the music, so

1159
01:35:40.119 --> 01:35:43.039
there's connection with the music and the years. I don't

1160
01:35:43.119 --> 01:35:47.920
have that anymore because I have lost track of the music.

1161
01:35:48.039 --> 01:35:53.520
Today I have I feel a little bit sad about that,

1162
01:35:53.760 --> 01:35:59.319
but you know, I just there's so many albums that

1163
01:35:59.359 --> 01:36:01.560
I do listen to, so many songs from the past,

1164
01:36:05.159 --> 01:36:08.760
you know, my favorite song collection. There's so many that

1165
01:36:08.920 --> 01:36:13.399
would take I reckon. If I added continuously added songs

1166
01:36:13.439 --> 01:36:18.720
that I really like, I could sit for possibly twenty

1167
01:36:18.800 --> 01:36:23.039
four hours, if not more, listening to different songs, all

1168
01:36:23.119 --> 01:36:29.960
of them that I love. Possibly, I don't know, I'm

1169
01:36:30.039 --> 01:36:33.880
kind of making that up. But during that period there

1170
01:36:34.000 --> 01:36:38.199
was a lot of music connected so to the times

1171
01:36:38.479 --> 01:36:40.399
that I remember when I was in a chip shop,

1172
01:36:41.520 --> 01:36:46.319
I used to go in in the afternoon, going a

1173
01:36:46.359 --> 01:36:52.800
bit early because I used to enjoy being in there

1174
01:36:52.880 --> 01:36:56.640
on my own, and I'll be preparing the kitchen. Maybe

1175
01:36:58.920 --> 01:37:02.399
doing this is an early afternoon, So I go in

1176
01:37:02.399 --> 01:37:05.560
a little bit early in the afternoon and just take

1177
01:37:05.680 --> 01:37:08.920
my time. And I don't know what it was I

1178
01:37:09.039 --> 01:37:12.000
was doing, but I was probably just getting getting the

1179
01:37:12.800 --> 01:37:16.439
fryers on, you know, setting up for the evening, the

1180
01:37:16.560 --> 01:37:20.840
evening shift. And I'd listened to I had a tape

1181
01:37:20.840 --> 01:37:24.760
recorder downstairs, and I had two tapes, and they were

1182
01:37:24.840 --> 01:37:32.880
both the first two albums from Madonna. I loved Papa

1183
01:37:32.960 --> 01:37:37.199
Don't Preach True Blue. Sorry, the album True Blue and

1184
01:37:38.680 --> 01:37:43.760
my two favorite albums Versus True Blue and Like a Prayer.

1185
01:37:44.479 --> 01:37:48.279
They are are two favorite Madonna albums. But during that

1186
01:37:48.359 --> 01:37:50.600
period I quite liked the first two albums that she

1187
01:37:50.680 --> 01:37:55.760
did as well, Holiday You Can Do. So that one

1188
01:37:55.840 --> 01:37:57.880
subject like dancing a little bit on my own, and

1189
01:37:58.880 --> 01:38:00.640
so I remember that. And there's other things like when

1190
01:38:00.680 --> 01:38:04.159
I first moved above the chip Shop, I was playing

1191
01:38:05.960 --> 01:38:10.159
George Michael's first album Faith was his album Faith? I

1192
01:38:10.239 --> 01:38:12.600
think it wasn't it? So I was. I was playing

1193
01:38:12.640 --> 01:38:22.199
that album over and over again in my kitchen, just

1194
01:38:22.399 --> 01:38:30.520
little bits, little bits and bobs connected to music. The Yeah,

1195
01:38:34.359 --> 01:38:36.199
I'm trying to give an example. Now, I can't think

1196
01:38:36.239 --> 01:38:44.199
of any examples. Yeah, but there's there are examples. It is.

1197
01:38:45.560 --> 01:38:47.840
It's not necessarily going to pop up when I wanted to.

1198
01:38:49.560 --> 01:38:55.840
But if I was, for example, I don't know if I.

1199
01:38:55.920 --> 01:38:57.560
If you was, like, let's focus on the year two

1200
01:38:57.600 --> 01:39:04.920
thousand and five, straight way, Michael Jackson's album History came out,

1201
01:39:06.840 --> 01:39:10.720
so I would talk about that. Was it two thousand

1202
01:39:10.720 --> 01:39:12.159
and five or two thousand and four? I think it

1203
01:39:12.239 --> 01:39:15.680
was two thousand and five. I was definitely listening to

1204
01:39:15.760 --> 01:39:18.560
it in two thousand and five anyway, and then we

1205
01:39:18.600 --> 01:39:20.880
could say, well that was the year, Yeah, it was

1206
01:39:20.920 --> 01:39:24.800
two thousand and five, and then I could say, okay,

1207
01:39:24.880 --> 01:39:31.920
well I had I had two girlfriends that year. I

1208
01:39:32.039 --> 01:39:37.840
also went and worked at Butlin's. And just going back

1209
01:39:37.960 --> 01:39:41.640
through that year, I can remember certain things that happened.

1210
01:39:42.560 --> 01:39:46.640
I know remember where I was living because I was

1211
01:39:46.680 --> 01:39:49.479
living in one place. Then I went to Butlan's. Then

1212
01:39:49.520 --> 01:39:51.880
I come back and I was homeless, didn't have anywhere

1213
01:39:51.920 --> 01:39:56.000
to stay. But that was pretty much the beginning of

1214
01:39:56.079 --> 01:40:02.119
two thousand and six. So and the only reason I

1215
01:40:02.159 --> 01:40:05.560
went to Buttlings is because we were being evicted. So

1216
01:40:05.680 --> 01:40:07.880
I was evicted from the house. It was a council

1217
01:40:07.960 --> 01:40:10.760
house that my friend was living in or council flat

1218
01:40:10.840 --> 01:40:13.680
wherever it was, and he was being evicted. Was it

1219
01:40:13.760 --> 01:40:18.640
a council I can't remember. He had a flat and

1220
01:40:18.760 --> 01:40:22.840
a house. Anyway, I I had to get out of there,

1221
01:40:23.000 --> 01:40:26.079
so I went and moved. But I just went in

1222
01:40:26.079 --> 01:40:29.239
to the job center, like what am I going to do?

1223
01:40:29.359 --> 01:40:33.239
Because I had no job? What am I going to do?

1224
01:40:33.560 --> 01:40:35.880
It was like literally he told me. I think he

1225
01:40:35.920 --> 01:40:39.960
gave me about a week's notice or five days. So

1226
01:40:40.199 --> 01:40:41.840
we moved, Yeah, you have, we have to be out

1227
01:40:41.880 --> 01:40:46.800
in five days. He knew about it. He'd had the

1228
01:40:47.000 --> 01:40:52.640
viction notice for about a month. So I saw, So

1229
01:40:52.760 --> 01:40:55.319
I went and I managed to. I went into a

1230
01:40:55.359 --> 01:40:58.880
job center and that is big signs. Do you want

1231
01:40:58.880 --> 01:41:06.600
to work at Buttling's? I laughed, but yeah, sure, And

1232
01:41:06.720 --> 01:41:09.880
then I thought I looked around as another jobs. So

1233
01:41:09.960 --> 01:41:14.840
I just well, there's other jobs, but nothing that offered accommodation,

1234
01:41:16.319 --> 01:41:18.800
because that was the problem. It's like, I need somewhere

1235
01:41:18.840 --> 01:41:26.600
to live. And I said to I said, well, what's

1236
01:41:26.640 --> 01:41:31.039
going on with this Buttling's thing? They said, well, it's

1237
01:41:31.079 --> 01:41:32.840
a holiday camp. I said, no, I know what it is.

1238
01:41:33.960 --> 01:41:37.560
They said that, you know, there's music, they have families

1239
01:41:37.640 --> 01:41:39.760
go and have a holiday there. I said that I

1240
01:41:39.840 --> 01:41:45.399
already I'm not asking about the actual camp. So what

1241
01:41:45.720 --> 01:41:48.880
is it your What is it you're offering? It's said,

1242
01:41:48.920 --> 01:41:53.600
we offer entertainment variety. There's pubs, there's restaurants, there's a

1243
01:41:53.720 --> 01:41:57.439
swim pool. WAS like, no, it's like it's trying to

1244
01:41:57.560 --> 01:42:00.279
sell me a tickets to go going, is it?

1245
01:42:00.960 --> 01:42:01.000
No?

1246
01:42:01.199 --> 01:42:04.039
No, wait a minute, what what are you here for?

1247
01:42:04.760 --> 01:42:09.800
He said, I'm getting paid. I work for Buttling's. I said, okay,

1248
01:42:11.319 --> 01:42:13.680
how can I structure this question in a way that

1249
01:42:13.720 --> 01:42:18.079
you're going to understand it? I said, what what's the

1250
01:42:18.119 --> 01:42:21.399
big signs for? He said, that's so that people know

1251
01:42:21.560 --> 01:42:26.399
that we're here that are a bit further away. He

1252
01:42:26.479 --> 01:42:29.479
didn't say that that is funny. Why the big signs

1253
01:42:29.479 --> 01:42:31.279
ask for people that are further away can see it?

1254
01:42:32.239 --> 01:42:36.359
And he said there's jobs. Do you want a job?

1255
01:42:36.600 --> 01:42:39.359
Do you want a job? And I said, I don't know.

1256
01:42:40.199 --> 01:42:43.000
I mean the problem I've got is got nowhere to

1257
01:42:43.079 --> 01:42:46.279
live in five days, and if I do get a job,

1258
01:42:46.560 --> 01:42:48.079
I have to work for a month before I get

1259
01:42:48.079 --> 01:42:51.560
any money. And he said, oh, but this is this

1260
01:42:51.680 --> 01:42:54.479
is a good situation. I said why. He said, you

1261
01:42:54.520 --> 01:42:58.039
don't have to sign off because I was temporarily unemployed.

1262
01:42:58.079 --> 01:42:59.960
Then he said you don't have to sign off to

1263
01:43:00.119 --> 01:43:04.159
do this. This is part of the unemployment program. I

1264
01:43:04.239 --> 01:43:08.119
said really. He said yeah. So you go to Buttling's

1265
01:43:08.800 --> 01:43:14.000
in Bogna, Regis. You can work, You still get your unemployment,

1266
01:43:14.279 --> 01:43:18.920
you get extra twenty quid on top, you get fed.

1267
01:43:19.560 --> 01:43:22.479
There's a restaurant which you get fed or canteen, get

1268
01:43:22.560 --> 01:43:26.560
fed three times a day. You get a big discount

1269
01:43:26.640 --> 01:43:33.000
on drinks, and you don't have to pay for any accommodation.

1270
01:43:33.560 --> 01:43:36.520
You get accommodation, have to share a bed or bedroom

1271
01:43:36.600 --> 01:43:40.720
rather sorry, with someone else. So there's two people in

1272
01:43:41.119 --> 01:43:45.600
a not a very particularly big room, in fact, probably

1273
01:43:45.600 --> 01:43:49.279
about the size of this room, maybe a little bit

1274
01:43:49.319 --> 01:43:53.680
smaller than this room actually, And I said, I didn't

1275
01:43:53.720 --> 01:43:59.720
have a lot of options at that point. So yeah,

1276
01:44:00.199 --> 01:44:01.840
so I had to fill a form in it. I

1277
01:44:01.880 --> 01:44:04.760
had to do a questionnaire and like to test my intelligence.

1278
01:44:06.399 --> 01:44:09.359
And I remember when I handed it in and fireworks

1279
01:44:09.439 --> 01:44:12.800
went off. I said, Wow, you're the most intelligent person

1280
01:44:12.880 --> 01:44:16.439
we've ever seen it. Ever, how come you're not teaching

1281
01:44:16.479 --> 01:44:26.439
in a university? And that didn't happen. So I just thought,

1282
01:44:27.279 --> 01:44:28.720
I said, well, what kind of work can you do?

1283
01:44:29.800 --> 01:44:34.079
I said, what's available? And it kind of broke down

1284
01:44:34.800 --> 01:44:37.479
what I should what I would have done. If I

1285
01:44:37.560 --> 01:44:41.600
had looked at longer, further picture, the bigger picture, the

1286
01:44:41.720 --> 01:44:47.079
more advanced picture, the future, I would have chosen something

1287
01:44:47.159 --> 01:44:51.760
that I wouldn't have disliked doing. But I had experience

1288
01:44:51.840 --> 01:44:55.600
working in the bar, and they saw it as soon

1289
01:44:55.640 --> 01:44:57.159
as they saw that acts. I had to film a

1290
01:44:57.239 --> 01:44:59.800
CV in and that they said, okay, well you can

1291
01:44:59.840 --> 01:45:02.920
work in a bar. Then I didn't realize it was

1292
01:45:02.960 --> 01:45:08.560
going to be the world's busiest bar. And I've never

1293
01:45:08.840 --> 01:45:10.920
I don't think I could ever work anywhere with a

1294
01:45:11.000 --> 01:45:15.119
bar that busy. And I've been in bars. These these

1295
01:45:15.159 --> 01:45:22.000
were like thousands of people, you know, in this massive,

1296
01:45:22.520 --> 01:45:31.039
massive hall venue. There was like three bars and the

1297
01:45:31.159 --> 01:45:35.039
show it was a show on and there was hundreds

1298
01:45:35.079 --> 01:45:38.600
of tables, and there's people, families, and there was literally

1299
01:45:38.760 --> 01:45:42.520
it was non stop from the beginning of the evening

1300
01:45:43.000 --> 01:45:46.000
to the end. There was never The only breaks we

1301
01:45:46.079 --> 01:45:47.359
got is when we were allowed to have a break.

1302
01:45:47.880 --> 01:45:51.399
There was no standing around, no waiting. It was constant.

1303
01:45:52.359 --> 01:45:54.000
I mean, the amount of money that would have taken

1304
01:45:54.079 --> 01:46:04.439
would have been huge. So I I said, okay, really

1305
01:46:04.560 --> 01:46:07.159
I probably should have been better off going and doing

1306
01:46:07.239 --> 01:46:12.000
a cleaning becoming like cleaning the chalets. But I had

1307
01:46:12.039 --> 01:46:17.439
a little no had I wait a minute, this is

1308
01:46:17.520 --> 01:46:20.199
two thousand and five, Yes, I had. I'd had a

1309
01:46:20.279 --> 01:46:27.079
little test of doing that. In nineteen eighty nine, I

1310
01:46:27.239 --> 01:46:30.920
cleaned caravans for a little while and it was kind

1311
01:46:30.920 --> 01:46:33.119
of the same process. You know, you've got to limits

1312
01:46:33.199 --> 01:46:36.159
the time to do it, and you've got to it's

1313
01:46:36.199 --> 01:46:41.079
got to be kind of perfect, and it's very hard work.

1314
01:46:41.399 --> 01:46:43.800
You know, if you ever go anywhere that has a

1315
01:46:43.880 --> 01:46:50.479
chalet or a caravan. I don't know what I was

1316
01:46:50.960 --> 01:46:52.479
I was going to sort of say, just think about

1317
01:46:52.520 --> 01:46:55.439
the people that have to clean it. I'm not sure

1318
01:46:55.479 --> 01:46:59.119
where I'm going with that, but it's hard. It's really hard.

1319
01:46:59.199 --> 01:47:03.279
It's not easy to very difficult job. It kind of

1320
01:47:03.319 --> 01:47:09.680
put me off. Ah, I just had an interruption there.

1321
01:47:09.720 --> 01:47:12.560
There's bark dogs barking, so it sounded like someone was

1322
01:47:12.640 --> 01:47:17.520
knocking on the door, but they wasn't. And I can't

1323
01:47:17.560 --> 01:47:21.199
remember what I was talking about, but yeah, that's kind

1324
01:47:21.239 --> 01:47:25.600
of how I was saying about buttlings and caravans or something.

1325
01:47:27.479 --> 01:47:37.039
I It's almost like I've got things mapped in my brain.

1326
01:47:41.439 --> 01:47:49.800
And yeah, because things would changing so often back then,

1327
01:47:50.880 --> 01:47:56.960
I've kind of compartmentalized them into like little little flags

1328
01:47:57.000 --> 01:47:58.560
or little arrows to different bits.

1329
01:47:58.640 --> 01:47:58.800
You know.

1330
01:48:00.399 --> 01:48:04.279
Since I've been living here, this is probably the most

1331
01:48:05.600 --> 01:48:10.479
the most stable. Maybe not emotionally, but it's the most

1332
01:48:11.560 --> 01:48:14.439
It's the first place I've ever lived for ten years,

1333
01:48:15.079 --> 01:48:20.000
never lived in the same building or the same premises

1334
01:48:20.039 --> 01:48:23.439
for ten years. Ever in my life. So this is

1335
01:48:24.560 --> 01:48:28.880
the first, which means some of the stuff the last

1336
01:48:28.960 --> 01:48:32.960
ten years has become very muddled, a little bit, a

1337
01:48:33.000 --> 01:48:39.039
bit mixed together. So I haven't had that separation that,

1338
01:48:39.840 --> 01:48:46.319
you know, because I remember, like two thousand and fifteen

1339
01:48:46.520 --> 01:48:52.199
when I moved in it. I remember that period, and

1340
01:48:52.399 --> 01:48:54.439
I remember I broke my wrist falling out of the bath,

1341
01:48:54.560 --> 01:48:56.880
and there was a few you know. I remember the

1342
01:48:56.920 --> 01:49:00.399
first night I slept in the bedroom, all I had

1343
01:49:00.520 --> 01:49:06.159
was a bed. I had no All I had when

1344
01:49:06.199 --> 01:49:12.079
I moved here was a bed and a bag of

1345
01:49:12.199 --> 01:49:16.840
clothes and a chair. That was it. That was pretty

1346
01:49:16.920 --> 01:49:25.720
much my entire belongings really, which was a bit weird

1347
01:49:25.760 --> 01:49:29.680
at age forty five. Well I was forty four at

1348
01:49:29.680 --> 01:49:33.560
the time, forty four, so like it's not a lot

1349
01:49:33.600 --> 01:49:38.600
of belonging, did it. But I had to check a

1350
01:49:38.680 --> 01:49:42.920
lot of stuff out from the place, including clothes because

1351
01:49:43.119 --> 01:49:46.680
it was moldy, so I had it was just horrible

1352
01:49:46.720 --> 01:49:49.199
when the place I lived before this, A lot of

1353
01:49:49.239 --> 01:49:52.239
stuff I'd had to check out and other stuff I

1354
01:49:52.359 --> 01:49:53.800
just didn't want to bring with me. I wanted to

1355
01:49:54.000 --> 01:50:00.760
like a fresh start. I brought a goldfish, definitely put

1356
01:50:00.840 --> 01:50:07.439
the goldfish. Unfortunately, they yeah, they didn't, so they didn't

1357
01:50:07.439 --> 01:50:11.359
survive the journey. They did survive the journey, but they Yeah,

1358
01:50:11.800 --> 01:50:15.920
that's a sad. I promised them to get them a big,

1359
01:50:16.960 --> 01:50:20.560
big bowl, like a proper big tank. I didn't stick

1360
01:50:20.600 --> 01:50:29.600
to that promise. And they needed they needed a tank

1361
01:50:31.159 --> 01:50:34.720
because those gold those goldfish bowls, you know, the plastic ones.

1362
01:50:35.039 --> 01:50:42.600
They're okay, but not enough room for fifty goldfish. I

1363
01:50:42.720 --> 01:50:46.600
didn't really have fifty goldfish. Come on. So, yeah, I

1364
01:50:46.760 --> 01:50:50.239
just remember certain things. I remember certain years, like when

1365
01:50:50.279 --> 01:50:52.640
I fractured my back. I remember when that happened.

1366
01:50:53.520 --> 01:50:54.159
That was the.

1367
01:50:56.079 --> 01:51:01.319
Literally a week after got Vinnie. I remember the month that,

1368
01:51:02.720 --> 01:51:07.399
you know. I remember certain things, certain times where big

1369
01:51:07.479 --> 01:51:16.880
things happen, which I'm sure most people do also, I

1370
01:51:16.880 --> 01:51:20.439
suppose because I've got dates on my podcasts, I can

1371
01:51:20.520 --> 01:51:24.399
sometimes go back and some of the images and some

1372
01:51:24.560 --> 01:51:30.560
are like just to remind myself. Oh, you know, if

1373
01:51:30.600 --> 01:51:33.279
I what's the first date I did the first time

1374
01:51:33.319 --> 01:51:34.720
I did and let me boy to sleep? What was

1375
01:51:34.760 --> 01:51:36.840
the very first date? And I can go back and

1376
01:51:36.920 --> 01:51:39.960
find that date. It was I think March twenty eighteen,

1377
01:51:40.760 --> 01:51:48.600
so it was like, okay, which is crazy. Really, three years,

1378
01:51:48.680 --> 01:51:51.039
I'll be ten years doing to let Me Boy to Sleep.

1379
01:51:52.199 --> 01:51:55.520
Next year it'll be twenty years of making podcasts and

1380
01:51:55.640 --> 01:52:02.720
videos online. Twenty years. You think i'd have an audience

1381
01:52:02.760 --> 01:52:07.239
by now, wudn't you? By keep going? I'll keep at

1382
01:52:07.319 --> 01:52:11.760
it so anyway, thanks Sean. I hope I've answered these questions.

1383
01:52:12.640 --> 01:52:18.920
It's been two hours so far, so Jackie says, Tammy,

1384
01:52:19.039 --> 01:52:21.880
I agree. I love that Jason is so candid with

1385
01:52:22.000 --> 01:52:26.119
his thoughts, and I love his awareness, his inherent kindness. Oh,

1386
01:52:26.279 --> 01:52:29.600
thank you. Let's not got too crazy. This is not

1387
01:52:29.680 --> 01:52:32.800
a cult. O carry on. You can say nice things.

1388
01:52:32.840 --> 01:52:35.479
There's never a trust me. I never get bored with

1389
01:52:35.560 --> 01:52:38.279
hearing nice things said about me. That's the one thing

1390
01:52:38.479 --> 01:52:41.720
I will never get bored of. That if you send

1391
01:52:41.800 --> 01:52:45.239
me nice words saying how I'm helping you, and not

1392
01:52:45.439 --> 01:52:48.680
once have I ever seen a message and thought I'll

1393
01:52:48.800 --> 01:52:53.680
shut up, I'll not you against being nice. No, I

1394
01:52:53.760 --> 01:52:58.199
can't get enough of that. Honestly. It probably says something

1395
01:52:58.199 --> 01:53:03.920
about my need for acceptance, possibly, but yeah, it's not.

1396
01:53:04.319 --> 01:53:10.760
It's nice to feel appreciated. I think I don't feel

1397
01:53:10.760 --> 01:53:16.720
appreciated in real life, so it's nice that I mean,

1398
01:53:16.760 --> 01:53:19.960
I know this is real life, but technically it's kind

1399
01:53:20.000 --> 01:53:28.560
of I suppose it'd be a little bit like beyond

1400
01:53:28.560 --> 01:53:33.680
a radio, wouldn't it being a radio presenter, which is

1401
01:53:33.760 --> 01:53:36.800
possibly what I should have done. Maybe that was my

1402
01:53:37.039 --> 01:53:43.479
calling to be a radio presenter, just chatting over these years.

1403
01:53:43.520 --> 01:53:48.239
I could have done that, and maybe maybe I still could.

1404
01:53:48.439 --> 01:53:51.840
I don't know, I don't know. It might not be,

1405
01:53:52.119 --> 01:53:54.520
it might be too late. Maybe this is kind of

1406
01:53:54.600 --> 01:53:57.640
my version. This is the this today's version of a

1407
01:53:57.760 --> 01:54:02.880
radio show. Maybe don't know about you, but if he's

1408
01:54:02.920 --> 01:54:06.039
not discussing himself or his day to day impressions, I

1409
01:54:06.199 --> 01:54:10.520
get bored. Oh so bored, and being that bored is

1410
01:54:10.600 --> 01:54:13.840
not conducive to sleeping. What do you think about that?

1411
01:54:16.199 --> 01:54:17.640
What do you think about that? Then? What do you

1412
01:54:17.680 --> 01:54:22.119
think about that? Hey? Hey, JJ, if you see this,

1413
01:54:22.640 --> 01:54:23.760
why do you think this is?

1414
01:54:24.600 --> 01:54:24.800
Yep?

1415
01:54:24.880 --> 01:54:26.720
I'm going to have to post this in your next

1416
01:54:26.880 --> 01:54:31.359
Q and A. I hope I can keep up. Actually

1417
01:54:32.520 --> 01:54:37.000
I posted it. I posted that. I realized I posted

1418
01:54:37.039 --> 01:54:42.359
that into the Q and A. Any questions for this Friday?

1419
01:54:43.079 --> 01:54:43.239
I do.

1420
01:54:43.399 --> 01:54:45.199
I will do that if I see a thing that's

1421
01:54:45.279 --> 01:54:48.119
kind of asking a question somewhere else, I'll post it

1422
01:54:48.199 --> 01:54:54.479
otherwise I forget if it's sort of somewhere else, Well,

1423
01:54:57.800 --> 01:55:00.880
I don't know. It's we're all different, we're all like

1424
01:55:00.960 --> 01:55:06.279
different things. I mean, some people would find it really

1425
01:55:06.319 --> 01:55:09.239
good just to hear me counting down. So it's like

1426
01:55:09.359 --> 01:55:17.760
count down for one thousand, like thousand, nine hundred and

1427
01:55:17.800 --> 01:55:27.640
ninety nine, nine hundred and ninety eight. I think there's

1428
01:55:27.640 --> 01:55:31.439
a few of you thinking, well, not now, but like,

1429
01:55:32.079 --> 01:55:35.119
is he going to continue? How long is he going

1430
01:55:35.199 --> 01:55:38.279
to continue for? Is he just going to go down

1431
01:55:38.319 --> 01:55:45.000
to maybe nine hundred and ninety or to keep going,

1432
01:55:45.279 --> 01:55:48.920
keep pushing it and go all the way down, all

1433
01:55:48.960 --> 01:55:52.479
the way down to one, which will take probably two hours.

1434
01:55:54.359 --> 01:55:55.760
But no, I'm not going to do that. But some

1435
01:55:56.119 --> 01:55:59.199
people would like that, Some people would find that useful,

1436
01:56:00.359 --> 01:56:08.560
and different people like different things. I do realize that

1437
01:56:09.359 --> 01:56:12.800
the problem we've talked about myself is well, I have

1438
01:56:12.920 --> 01:56:17.079
no problem talking about myself. I love it. But when

1439
01:56:17.119 --> 01:56:21.479
it's about my day to day life, it's not always

1440
01:56:21.479 --> 01:56:25.399
easier to do because there's nothing going on a lot

1441
01:56:25.439 --> 01:56:31.359
of time. So like with the Q and a Friday,

1442
01:56:31.399 --> 01:56:33.079
it makes it a little bit easier because I've got

1443
01:56:33.159 --> 01:56:38.960
something to talk about, and I'll still manage to talk

1444
01:56:39.000 --> 01:56:41.520
about my day to day life as well during this,

1445
01:56:43.560 --> 01:56:46.680
but there's not a huge amount going on at the moment,

1446
01:56:48.880 --> 01:56:53.520
and I do try and keep things positive. So if

1447
01:56:53.560 --> 01:56:58.600
this things something's there's things that aren't so great going on,

1448
01:56:59.039 --> 01:57:02.079
I don't like to really talk about that stuff because

1449
01:57:03.000 --> 01:57:09.399
I like to think this is a fairly I don't know,

1450
01:57:10.079 --> 01:57:14.439
just a nice a nice space. I mean, not everything

1451
01:57:14.520 --> 01:57:16.760
I say is going to be like super positive, but

1452
01:57:16.880 --> 01:57:27.880
I try to keep it light. Being bored, yeah, I

1453
01:57:28.000 --> 01:57:32.479
think I don't know why that is, Why being bored

1454
01:57:33.239 --> 01:57:38.079
doesn't send you to sleep. I'm not sure well that

1455
01:57:38.239 --> 01:57:43.960
that type of boring and we're all different. I think

1456
01:57:44.000 --> 01:57:47.159
that's just what it is. There's going to be some

1457
01:57:47.319 --> 01:57:54.640
people who've listened to my recordings and think like we're

1458
01:57:54.760 --> 01:58:00.319
just just talking. What's the point in this? Yet they

1459
01:58:00.399 --> 01:58:06.640
may like the sleep hypnosis recordings I do, and some

1460
01:58:06.800 --> 01:58:12.520
people absolutely can't stand the whisper stuff, and other people

1461
01:58:12.640 --> 01:58:18.000
prefer the Whisper stuff it some people, really there's a

1462
01:58:18.039 --> 01:58:23.079
few people that really like the the boring, the was

1463
01:58:23.159 --> 01:58:32.479
it bedtime, storytime things that I've done. It's just everyone's different.

1464
01:58:32.520 --> 01:58:36.000
Than they some people like the I've had quite a

1465
01:58:36.039 --> 01:58:40.479
bit of positive her a lot, and I a fair

1466
01:58:40.600 --> 01:58:43.600
amount of positive feedback for the let Me Bore Your

1467
01:58:43.640 --> 01:58:48.880
Pain Away. That was kind of a bit of a

1468
01:58:49.000 --> 01:58:52.239
passion project. To be fair, I haven't done any this week.

1469
01:58:53.319 --> 01:58:59.840
I haven't felt it. I just haven't haven't it. I mean,

1470
01:59:00.039 --> 01:59:02.119
went to do a recording, I said on Wednesday, and

1471
01:59:02.199 --> 01:59:07.960
I'm just looking just there's no words. There was words,

1472
01:59:08.000 --> 01:59:10.840
but they weren't words I wanted to say. I just

1473
01:59:12.359 --> 01:59:16.960
wasn't in the mood. So when I'm like that, there's

1474
01:59:17.039 --> 01:59:20.279
no point me making a recording because I'm never going

1475
01:59:20.359 --> 01:59:22.760
to force myself to do it because otherwise, if.

1476
01:59:22.640 --> 01:59:22.920
I'm not.

1477
01:59:24.920 --> 01:59:27.239
Enjoying it, or if I'm not relaxed, I think that's

1478
01:59:27.319 --> 01:59:33.039
going to come across. I think. I don't know, maybe

1479
01:59:33.119 --> 01:59:41.359
not so you won't have to post this to the

1480
01:59:41.479 --> 01:59:45.399
next Q and A because you we've done it today.

1481
01:59:46.520 --> 01:59:49.000
So I don't really know what the answer is. We're

1482
01:59:49.000 --> 01:59:53.000
all different, we all just like different things. I did

1483
01:59:53.119 --> 01:59:57.119
do a survey ages ago, like a little questionnaire what

1484
01:59:57.319 --> 02:00:01.560
do you prefer? And it was different but different people,

1485
02:00:02.680 --> 02:00:07.760
no one, There was no real I suppose to let

1486
02:00:07.800 --> 02:00:12.000
Me Boy to Sleep was the unanimous one because I

1487
02:00:12.399 --> 02:00:16.760
think that I think that the majority of people that

1488
02:00:16.960 --> 02:00:20.479
come to this group have come through the let me

1489
02:00:20.560 --> 02:00:24.560
boy to Sleep, not necessarily through the chronic pain or this,

1490
02:00:25.000 --> 02:00:28.319
or through the stress and pain relief, or through the

1491
02:00:29.319 --> 02:00:32.000
stop smoking or whatever other ones I've done, becase I've

1492
02:00:32.039 --> 02:00:38.399
done lots of different podcasts, thousands of recordings. I've done thousands.

1493
02:00:39.760 --> 02:00:48.520
It's ridiculous really, So you yeah, I'd like to get

1494
02:00:48.640 --> 02:00:53.399
that feedback. I'd like to just it'd be nice if

1495
02:00:54.479 --> 02:01:00.079
if there was a way of just finding out what

1496
02:01:00.199 --> 02:01:05.640
everyone likes. But then the problem with that is if

1497
02:01:05.720 --> 02:01:11.239
I start to try and change what I'm doing to

1498
02:01:11.479 --> 02:01:16.479
suit every individual request or need, I will be then

1499
02:01:16.640 --> 02:01:22.039
micromanaging myself, and then I wouldn't want to do it anymore.

1500
02:01:23.239 --> 02:01:27.279
I've been micromanaged before, and it's horrible. It's like just

1501
02:01:29.600 --> 02:01:33.960
constantly like, no, do like that, do it? You're doing it,

1502
02:01:34.039 --> 02:01:37.399
You're doing it. It's like no, there needs to be

1503
02:01:37.520 --> 02:01:44.800
freedom there, and I don't want to do something that

1504
02:01:44.880 --> 02:01:52.119
I don't like doing. So you know, there was a

1505
02:01:52.239 --> 02:01:57.119
podcast that I did in I think it was during

1506
02:01:57.399 --> 02:02:06.880
kind of lockdown period, okay, and it was what was

1507
02:02:06.920 --> 02:02:11.720
it called relaxation for stress and panic attacks. I did

1508
02:02:11.880 --> 02:02:14.520
a lot of recordings. I lived every day I was

1509
02:02:14.600 --> 02:02:19.079
doing them, and I ended up doing I've now got

1510
02:02:19.119 --> 02:02:24.279
two hundred and thirty nine, and there's a few recent

1511
02:02:24.399 --> 02:02:27.560
years at most of them, like two hundred and twenty three,

1512
02:02:29.399 --> 02:02:33.720
two hundred and twenty nine, two hundred and thirty, two hundred. Okay,

1513
02:02:33.800 --> 02:02:36.720
So two hundred and thirty was seventh of May twenty

1514
02:02:36.880 --> 02:02:41.600
twenty one. Okay, let's have a look at where number

1515
02:02:41.640 --> 02:02:52.399
one was. So May twenty twenty one, so I started, okay, right,

1516
02:02:52.439 --> 02:02:57.119
I started it a long time before that, so yeah,

1517
02:02:58.119 --> 02:03:06.239
probably about two two thousand and fifteen, but but I

1518
02:03:06.319 --> 02:03:09.319
didn't really start getting into it until about twenty nineteen.

1519
02:03:10.560 --> 02:03:14.199
So I did number fifty six, fifty four, fifty three

1520
02:03:14.720 --> 02:03:18.520
in twenty nineteen, all the way up to I'm reading

1521
02:03:18.560 --> 02:03:20.319
this off the scream, just in case you think that

1522
02:03:20.359 --> 02:03:26.520
I'm remembering it all. And but that was October September,

1523
02:03:26.520 --> 02:03:31.199
October December. But then number seventy in twenty twenty, so

1524
02:03:31.359 --> 02:03:39.159
seventy and we know, you know what happened in twenty twenty,

1525
02:03:40.279 --> 02:03:47.800
So number seventy all the way up to I mean honestly,

1526
02:03:47.960 --> 02:03:58.640
BlimE me a lot. I did a lot so twoenty

1527
02:03:58.960 --> 02:04:07.199
twenty two thousand, right twenty ninth of December twenty twenty,

1528
02:04:07.880 --> 02:04:11.520
from number seventy to two hundred and eighteen seventy to

1529
02:04:11.600 --> 02:04:17.520
two hundred and eighteen. And it was so regular as well.

1530
02:04:17.560 --> 02:04:23.399
It was quite regular, and I was doing just I

1531
02:04:23.439 --> 02:04:26.960
had this little microphone, lapel microphone, and I was making

1532
02:04:27.039 --> 02:04:30.159
recordings while I was pacing, not pacing in it like

1533
02:04:30.479 --> 02:04:33.159
a weird way, but just walking around. And I was

1534
02:04:33.680 --> 02:04:36.880
I was quite energetic. I was getting quite passionate about

1535
02:04:36.920 --> 02:04:40.239
what I was talking about. So there's a ninth of January,

1536
02:04:40.359 --> 02:04:47.159
twelfth of January, thirteenth, fourteenth, fifteenth, seventeenth, eighteenth, nineteenth, twenty fourth,

1537
02:04:47.359 --> 02:04:51.399
twenty fifth, twenty sixth, twenty seven, twenty eight, twenty nine,

1538
02:04:51.880 --> 02:04:57.600
thirty thirty, first of January, like nearly, it's like wow.

1539
02:04:58.159 --> 02:05:10.640
And in February the first, second, third, fourth, fifth, six, seven, eight, nine, twelve, thirteen, fifteen, sixteen, eighteen, nineteen,

1540
02:05:10.800 --> 02:05:17.560
twenty one, twenty four, twenty six, twenty seventh February. So

1541
02:05:18.159 --> 02:05:25.439
you know, I'm quite regularly doing his recordings, and after

1542
02:05:25.479 --> 02:05:29.439
a certain time I started giving them names instead of

1543
02:05:29.600 --> 02:05:36.119
just a number, I started giving them. Yeah, the first

1544
02:05:36.199 --> 02:05:39.800
one number eighty, I gave it a name to Smiley

1545
02:05:39.920 --> 02:05:48.079
Mirror twenty sixth of January twenty twenty, and then meaning purpose.

1546
02:05:51.960 --> 02:05:57.279
The next one web page ball or sock silly song

1547
02:05:58.960 --> 02:06:01.600
that was a good one, actually silly song thirty for

1548
02:06:01.720 --> 02:06:06.600
January twenty twenty. I don't know. I thought it was

1549
02:06:06.640 --> 02:06:10.159
funny self worth and not me saying it, but I

1550
02:06:10.239 --> 02:06:12.439
think the actual podcast, do you the recording is quite

1551
02:06:12.479 --> 02:06:18.439
a good recording. If I remember rightly it is over

1552
02:06:18.560 --> 02:06:24.960
five years ago, then you've got self worth, gratitude, drip focusing,

1553
02:06:25.560 --> 02:06:32.079
bath floater. Oh I like some of these titles. I'm

1554
02:06:32.119 --> 02:06:37.359
not sure if I yeah, it's anyone's guess what I

1555
02:06:37.479 --> 02:06:43.119
was talking about. Magic, relaxation, mirror, hopelessness, Is it true

1556
02:06:45.319 --> 02:06:56.600
You're not broken? Relaxation sessions, reassuring letter, self sabotage, relapse, noise, sensitivity, question,

1557
02:06:56.760 --> 02:07:05.279
automatic thinking, evict self prejud just blimey, hash be kind free, anxiety,

1558
02:07:06.479 --> 02:07:13.039
brain plasticity. That was January February twenty twenty, Send healing,

1559
02:07:13.520 --> 02:07:16.760
don't feel guilty for be and ill give attention to

1560
02:07:16.840 --> 02:07:22.760
mini me. Stress and anxiety are natural germs. That's one

1561
02:07:22.760 --> 02:07:26.359
about germs. That was twenty twenty March. I wonder what

1562
02:07:26.479 --> 02:07:30.319
made me think about that? M I wonder.

1563
02:07:34.720 --> 02:07:35.000
So this.

1564
02:07:35.239 --> 02:07:37.279
I was doing this at the beginning of the year.

1565
02:07:42.239 --> 02:07:44.239
Something kicked in and I was like nearly every day

1566
02:07:44.840 --> 02:07:46.640
making a new one. And they would lasted for like

1567
02:07:46.800 --> 02:07:49.239
forty fifty minutes, some of them, some of them like

1568
02:07:49.319 --> 02:07:59.640
twenty minutes. But yeah, never give up. Remember this is

1569
02:07:59.680 --> 02:08:04.479
ten prairie. It's being emotional. That's an hour and six minutes.

1570
02:08:06.159 --> 02:08:11.439
A safe, positive, healing, relaxation. How are you today? Relaxed

1571
02:08:11.479 --> 02:08:17.079
hands equals relaxed brain, feel safe, feel comfort, feel relaxed,

1572
02:08:19.359 --> 02:08:29.159
and reduce anxiety level. Compassion reduces stress. Funny memory, intrusive thoughts,

1573
02:08:29.199 --> 02:08:36.279
I just thoughts. We are born positive blind me taping

1574
02:08:36.439 --> 02:08:42.640
fingertips no mass. I like that one, but I'm kind

1575
02:08:42.680 --> 02:08:46.000
of talking about boxing, but it's still relevant. See these

1576
02:08:46.279 --> 02:08:53.319
are amongst my favorite recordings I've ever made. Chained Elephant, Vice,

1577
02:08:53.479 --> 02:08:59.479
gript positive Butterflies. You can choose what you think about

1578
02:09:01.039 --> 02:09:11.920
bubble fark confidence. I can't no idea ringo tension release Okay,

1579
02:09:11.920 --> 02:09:15.079
I got no of that groovy relax or sleep session

1580
02:09:16.119 --> 02:09:24.319
TV remote amazing, loved and deeply relaxed. Stress licking ferret.

1581
02:09:25.800 --> 02:09:33.640
That's about Andre so stress versus love. Focus on feeling relaxed,

1582
02:09:35.319 --> 02:09:42.720
relax sleep neurons lighting up okay, Buckets of healing relaxing.

1583
02:09:43.680 --> 02:09:51.520
No bucket of relaxing healing you in the mirror, stress

1584
02:09:51.880 --> 02:09:55.560
sucking helmet. Some of these names are a bit weird.

1585
02:09:58.359 --> 02:10:05.880
Letting stress know it's not a prisoner, dissolving the rust

1586
02:10:05.960 --> 02:10:11.840
of anxiety. I don't know what was going on in

1587
02:10:11.920 --> 02:10:13.520
my brain at the time, but it seems to be

1588
02:10:14.119 --> 02:10:24.560
quite active. Removing stress batteries, hand squeeze, stress relief technique,

1589
02:10:27.880 --> 02:10:33.159
blind sports, recording yourself. I've got no idea what that was.

1590
02:10:43.600 --> 02:10:48.279
You are going to be okay. We don't reduce stress

1591
02:10:48.399 --> 02:10:52.520
when thinking of someone you dislike you've got a balloon.

1592
02:10:52.600 --> 02:11:01.479
Anxiety reduction technique, Overcoming hurdle too big to swallow. Choose

1593
02:11:01.560 --> 02:11:07.880
relaxation bubble or sleep bubble. Say nice things to yourself

1594
02:11:07.880 --> 02:11:20.760
whilst walking ah negativity fumigation, questioning your worries. There's some

1595
02:11:21.079 --> 02:11:26.279
I quite like these these titles from five years ago.

1596
02:11:27.399 --> 02:11:29.920
What it is now like four and a half years ago.

1597
02:11:29.920 --> 02:11:34.439
It's near the end of twenty twenty natural born positivity,

1598
02:11:37.560 --> 02:11:43.960
burping your anxiety war not taking yourself too seriously when

1599
02:11:44.000 --> 02:11:52.079
you're feeling agitated positivity trigger You were born able to

1600
02:11:52.159 --> 02:11:59.840
relax and seep naturally, which is true. Put trust in

1601
02:11:59.880 --> 02:12:07.520
your brain to relax or sleep during noise, support networks

1602
02:12:07.560 --> 02:12:22.279
and asking for help, making friends with yourself, victim mentality,

1603
02:12:22.800 --> 02:12:31.560
emotional abuse, never again, and caring for carers. Okay, that

1604
02:12:31.720 --> 02:12:33.600
was a really long one. So I've got no idea

1605
02:12:33.680 --> 02:12:37.159
what kind of that sounds like a quite heavy one.

1606
02:12:40.720 --> 02:12:46.960
The power of breathing. Okay, so I'm talking about bereavema.

1607
02:12:47.199 --> 02:12:47.800
I don't know why.

1608
02:12:49.199 --> 02:12:53.399
Make friends with your stress, hot water bottles, stress relief technique,

1609
02:12:55.880 --> 02:13:02.119
Pouring healing, relaxation and safety into your brain, tapping scalp

1610
02:13:02.239 --> 02:13:18.479
to relax, brain rehearsing feeling okay, ah, listen to my

1611
02:13:18.640 --> 02:13:30.840
boring voice, Superman re energizing. Right, there's quite a few,

1612
02:13:30.880 --> 02:13:38.439
isn't it. Kettle anger release. I quite like that one,

1613
02:13:38.520 --> 02:13:40.199
and so it suddenly a short one, but it's quite

1614
02:13:40.239 --> 02:13:46.159
good holding safe hands and there's a quantum memory shift.

1615
02:13:47.039 --> 02:13:50.439
That's another one that's a bit more. That's me trying

1616
02:13:50.479 --> 02:13:54.880
to be advanced. It didn't work. Maybe it did.

1617
02:13:54.920 --> 02:13:55.319
I don't know.

1618
02:13:57.039 --> 02:14:00.000
Hi, Jason from Cindy. You recently shared a story about

1619
02:14:00.119 --> 02:14:03.319
your grandfather has told you by your men. Are there

1620
02:14:03.319 --> 02:14:19.239
any other NaN's stories you can share. I'm trying to think.

1621
02:14:24.600 --> 02:14:27.680
I mean we used to talk about I mean, this

1622
02:14:28.119 --> 02:14:34.680
story is about her. She was really good swimmer. But

1623
02:14:34.760 --> 02:14:37.800
I feel like NaN's stories that she told me she

1624
02:14:37.960 --> 02:14:41.720
told me about in our family. She told me about

1625
02:14:41.840 --> 02:14:47.960
her parents. She told me I got a lot of

1626
02:14:48.039 --> 02:14:53.239
information about my very very young childhood from her because

1627
02:14:53.319 --> 02:14:55.319
no one else would talk about it, but she would.

1628
02:14:56.119 --> 02:14:58.520
So she told me she had pictures of me when

1629
02:14:58.560 --> 02:15:09.439
I was a baby, and there was I think I

1630
02:15:09.520 --> 02:15:20.720
had blonde hair back then. Yeah, I'm just trying to think.

1631
02:15:23.199 --> 02:15:23.520
It was.

1632
02:15:27.680 --> 02:15:28.840
I'll get back to you on that one.

1633
02:15:29.119 --> 02:15:29.399
I might.

1634
02:15:29.680 --> 02:15:31.960
I'm just trying to think, off the top of my

1635
02:15:32.079 --> 02:15:42.319
head any particular stories that she told me. I can't

1636
02:15:42.359 --> 02:15:45.199
believe it's been over ten years since I last spoke

1637
02:15:45.239 --> 02:15:55.000
to her. She used to Yeah, she'd talk about stuff,

1638
02:15:55.079 --> 02:15:59.439
but a lot of things that we talk about would

1639
02:15:59.439 --> 02:16:03.520
be about what going on now. We didn't really focus

1640
02:16:04.079 --> 02:16:07.319
too much on the past. But when she did, she

1641
02:16:07.479 --> 02:16:11.640
talk about like how she remembered some of the stuff

1642
02:16:11.720 --> 02:16:14.520
that happened. I mean, there was one she said that

1643
02:16:14.800 --> 02:16:22.199
my dad, my biological mother, had moved out of her

1644
02:16:22.319 --> 02:16:25.199
house and bettered in mind. Both my dad and her

1645
02:16:25.279 --> 02:16:29.560
were very young, and it was before they got married,

1646
02:16:29.640 --> 02:16:32.719
and they got married in what sixty five I think,

1647
02:16:34.239 --> 02:16:36.680
which was five years before I got where I was born,

1648
02:16:37.399 --> 02:16:39.559
and my dad was twenty six when I was born,

1649
02:16:41.079 --> 02:16:45.559
so he would have got married at twenty one. They

1650
02:16:45.600 --> 02:16:48.280
were dating before that, and he was living at home

1651
02:16:51.879 --> 02:16:56.680
and my dad was at work. I think he was

1652
02:16:56.680 --> 02:16:59.879
an apprentice at the time, see less school than when

1653
02:17:00.000 --> 02:17:09.479
an apprenticeship. And it's not funny really, but my other

1654
02:17:09.559 --> 02:17:12.360
biological grandfather, the one that I never met because he

1655
02:17:12.479 --> 02:17:18.520
passed away quite early before I was born, I think,

1656
02:17:20.520 --> 02:17:25.159
so basically, and apparently he was just a huge man.

1657
02:17:25.680 --> 02:17:26.000
Huge.

1658
02:17:26.760 --> 02:17:30.360
My granddad wasn't huge, but it was it wasn't he

1659
02:17:30.479 --> 02:17:32.840
just what he was very slim, and but this bloke

1660
02:17:33.040 --> 02:17:35.799
was just, you know, apparently according to my name, he

1661
02:17:35.879 --> 02:17:41.479
was massive and he just shadowed my grand he'd like,

1662
02:17:41.639 --> 02:17:45.040
really just my name was worried for my granddad, my

1663
02:17:45.159 --> 02:17:50.799
other granddad that her husband or over. Well, what happened

1664
02:17:50.840 --> 02:17:54.200
next is so he knocks on the door, wording my door.

1665
02:17:56.600 --> 02:18:00.840
So I don't know. So they didn't know she was

1666
02:18:00.920 --> 02:18:05.079
in the house. So she was in the bedroom upstairs.

1667
02:18:06.399 --> 02:18:09.719
What they didn't know, both my nan and my granddad

1668
02:18:10.200 --> 02:18:14.840
because my granddad was retired at this point. Was he retired,

1669
02:18:15.000 --> 02:18:18.399
I don't know. Yeah, he was retired. He was retired

1670
02:18:18.399 --> 02:18:27.920
at this point. He didn't know that she was upstairs.

1671
02:18:28.000 --> 02:18:32.159
Not only was she upstairs, she'd moved out of her

1672
02:18:32.239 --> 02:18:36.319
family home. She took us stuff and moved out into

1673
02:18:36.399 --> 02:18:40.559
my nan and granddad's. They didn't even know. So he's

1674
02:18:40.639 --> 02:18:42.319
knock on the doorstairs, walk my dughter, I want to

1675
02:18:42.479 --> 02:18:46.440
bring her back. So they my name because she was

1676
02:18:46.440 --> 02:18:48.680
always around the house because she was my dad's girlfriend

1677
02:18:49.959 --> 02:18:51.719
or fiance however, so I don't know.

1678
02:18:51.840 --> 02:18:52.239
But so.

1679
02:18:54.840 --> 02:18:57.159
My name did say that she was worried for my granddad,

1680
02:18:58.440 --> 02:19:01.360
like her I keep saying, because they were both my granddads.

1681
02:19:01.520 --> 02:19:05.520
But she was worried for her husband, my granddad Newland.

1682
02:19:06.520 --> 02:19:09.479
She was worried for him because he was tiny compared

1683
02:19:09.479 --> 02:19:16.200
to this bloke, the other granddad. So but I think,

1684
02:19:16.280 --> 02:19:19.600
well I came my grandad would have been sixty then,

1685
02:19:21.239 --> 02:19:27.280
so this this would have been No, he'd have been fifty.

1686
02:19:27.319 --> 02:19:28.760
He would have still been at work, so it'd have

1687
02:19:28.760 --> 02:19:33.719
been about fifty five. Think he retired in nineteen seventy

1688
02:19:34.600 --> 02:19:37.120
when he was sixty, so I think you could retire

1689
02:19:37.120 --> 02:19:46.440
at sixty back then and then he I think so,

1690
02:19:46.639 --> 02:19:52.040
I'm not one hundred percent sure, but anyway, and I

1691
02:19:52.079 --> 02:19:55.079
don't know. I think my granddad was a boxer in

1692
02:19:55.200 --> 02:19:58.520
the army. But he was a boxer, he was, and

1693
02:19:58.639 --> 02:20:01.040
at fifty five, which she is nearly as old as

1694
02:20:01.079 --> 02:20:03.719
I am, he would have been a lot probably more,

1695
02:20:03.879 --> 02:20:06.840
much more fitter than I am, and he would have

1696
02:20:06.879 --> 02:20:11.920
been well able to take care of himself because not

1697
02:20:12.040 --> 02:20:13.879
only was he a boxer, but he's also had been

1698
02:20:13.959 --> 02:20:16.879
in the army. You know, he'd served time in the

1699
02:20:17.000 --> 02:20:22.360
army for I think twelve years as a career, and

1700
02:20:22.559 --> 02:20:24.520
then he was in the army game during the war

1701
02:20:24.600 --> 02:20:28.799
for for six years. So it's you know, done over

1702
02:20:28.879 --> 02:20:36.120
twenty years in the army pretty much nearly so I

1703
02:20:36.239 --> 02:20:39.920
don't know, but apparently, but they didn't come to blows.

1704
02:20:39.959 --> 02:20:41.879
But my name said that she was really worried that

1705
02:20:41.920 --> 02:20:48.559
he was gonna he was just like beat up my

1706
02:20:48.639 --> 02:20:52.200
other granddad. But they didn't Now. I don't know how

1707
02:20:52.280 --> 02:20:54.840
well they get on. I think she was. I think

1708
02:20:54.920 --> 02:20:56.920
he was gone before they even got married, before my

1709
02:20:57.000 --> 02:21:01.760
dad got married to her. But she did tell me

1710
02:21:01.840 --> 02:21:06.200
stuff about my mom, about my biological mum, and what

1711
02:21:06.319 --> 02:21:11.280
she did say though, she said she was even though

1712
02:21:11.360 --> 02:21:18.479
she was a problem and just always causing, just causing problems, causing.

1713
02:21:19.159 --> 02:21:22.079
Sheared a chaotic life back then. She might I don't

1714
02:21:22.120 --> 02:21:24.239
know which she might have a really good life now.

1715
02:21:26.040 --> 02:21:28.760
But she said for all her faults, the one thing

1716
02:21:28.959 --> 02:21:33.239
she had to say is she was funny. She made

1717
02:21:33.280 --> 02:21:40.159
a laugh. She made my men laugh. And that's the

1718
02:21:40.239 --> 02:21:44.079
one thing that I kind of think, Okay, cool, that

1719
02:21:44.319 --> 02:21:50.479
means something to me, like us good because she, yeah,

1720
02:21:50.639 --> 02:21:54.120
she'd lived a chaotic life, but that's probably because of

1721
02:21:54.200 --> 02:21:58.879
where her background came from. She'd, you know, she'd sort

1722
02:21:58.920 --> 02:22:02.840
of learned that, and she was whatever, you know, wasn't

1723
02:22:02.959 --> 02:22:06.920
just her own decision to be like that. And she

1724
02:22:07.079 --> 02:22:13.319
also had a called to my nan, she was like

1725
02:22:13.600 --> 02:22:20.040
biopolar or she had mental health stuff. But she was

1726
02:22:20.200 --> 02:22:24.840
best friends with my auntie. I think my auntie and

1727
02:22:24.920 --> 02:22:28.760
her went to school together. My auntie was probably a

1728
02:22:28.840 --> 02:22:32.639
couple of years younger than my dad, and it's probably

1729
02:22:32.680 --> 02:22:36.200
how they met, probably how him and my mum met,

1730
02:22:37.120 --> 02:22:41.799
because she'd be around, probably with her sister, and I

1731
02:22:41.840 --> 02:22:48.319
don't know, they just got together, so, you know, even

1732
02:22:48.440 --> 02:22:56.200
though she left when I was six months old, so

1733
02:22:56.280 --> 02:23:03.079
it was like nineteen seventy one, the fact is they've

1734
02:23:03.120 --> 02:23:06.440
been together quite a while. They got married sixty five,

1735
02:23:06.639 --> 02:23:09.200
so six years, and they were probably together a year

1736
02:23:09.280 --> 02:23:12.280
or two before that, so you know, it was it

1737
02:23:12.399 --> 02:23:15.879
wasn't like a short term, and they had three kids,

1738
02:23:17.520 --> 02:23:20.239
so it must have been. It must have had a

1739
02:23:20.319 --> 02:23:26.520
good time at some point. I don't know she's told

1740
02:23:26.559 --> 02:23:33.440
Why did she tell me? She that's just one of

1741
02:23:33.520 --> 02:23:39.719
the things. She's just basically she said that when my

1742
02:23:39.840 --> 02:23:41.920
mom took off, yeah, she used to. She used to

1743
02:23:42.000 --> 02:23:45.760
go into the butchers and the bakers, and they'd all

1744
02:23:45.799 --> 02:23:50.079
been asking her about the money that my mum owed them.

1745
02:23:51.319 --> 02:23:55.000
So apparently she just owed money to everyone. That's what

1746
02:23:55.159 --> 02:23:58.319
my name said. Again, It's like, you know, I'm not

1747
02:23:58.399 --> 02:24:01.600
here to say horrible things about anyone, but that's all

1748
02:24:01.719 --> 02:24:05.840
my name. She's she said like this, she'd just be

1749
02:24:06.159 --> 02:24:09.440
borrowing money off everyone, but she'd make people laugh that

1750
02:24:09.479 --> 02:24:17.799
if he was like just funny, funny person. So yeah,

1751
02:24:17.840 --> 02:24:29.760
I think maybe it's the Maybe that's why I've got

1752
02:24:29.840 --> 02:24:34.159
bipolar wybe and that's where my my brain comes from.

1753
02:24:35.360 --> 02:24:45.319
I mean, yeah, inherited, well, he inherited this brain. But

1754
02:24:45.479 --> 02:24:47.799
that's it. It's probably this loasure of stuff. But that's

1755
02:24:47.879 --> 02:24:51.680
one off the top of my head. I realized the

1756
02:24:51.799 --> 02:24:58.280
time's going, it's now, line is six o'clock. Dev asks Hello, Jason,

1757
02:24:58.399 --> 02:25:01.600
Hello all. I'm a nubie at this, a chronic pain sufferer,

1758
02:25:01.600 --> 02:25:04.959
but also interested in learning about hypnosis in general, as

1759
02:25:05.000 --> 02:25:08.639
well as applying it to creative writing. I find Jason's

1760
02:25:08.680 --> 02:25:13.000
podcast very effective, actually, but both for pain relief and sleep.

1761
02:25:13.680 --> 02:25:16.639
I'd also like to learn how a writer can place

1762
02:25:16.719 --> 02:25:22.559
itself into a sort of fictional environment and develop a story. Equally,

1763
02:25:22.799 --> 02:25:25.639
I would like to learn about immersing a reader into

1764
02:25:25.719 --> 02:25:29.239
the story. I'm currently struggling with writing a sort of

1765
02:25:29.399 --> 02:25:36.680
ghost story. Thanks and advance. I don't know, so I'm

1766
02:25:36.719 --> 02:25:46.399
not a writer. I suppose to immerse someone into a

1767
02:25:46.600 --> 02:25:59.399
story would be keeping it flowing. Well, then let's be

1768
02:25:59.520 --> 02:26:01.639
teaching how to write. I don't. I don't know how

1769
02:26:01.719 --> 02:26:06.000
to write, but it's my understanding of like writing with

1770
02:26:06.479 --> 02:26:09.920
creative writing is one of the things I've done a

1771
02:26:10.000 --> 02:26:13.760
little bit of red books on it and played around

1772
02:26:13.799 --> 02:26:18.079
of it. What I liked about it is there's no

1773
02:26:18.239 --> 02:26:22.520
right or wrong, you know, it's it's art creativity. There's

1774
02:26:22.639 --> 02:26:27.159
no there is no right or wrong. You just see

1775
02:26:27.200 --> 02:26:30.239
what comes up and maybe something really cool or come

1776
02:26:30.319 --> 02:26:40.040
up a fictional environment developer story. I tell you what

1777
02:26:40.159 --> 02:26:45.479
you could do. You could tell the story. You could

1778
02:26:45.559 --> 02:26:50.680
verbally tell the story and see what comes up. Transcribe it.

1779
02:26:51.719 --> 02:26:57.280
There's loads of transcribing places you can get stuff transcribed.

1780
02:26:57.840 --> 02:27:01.040
Just record it on your on your phone hm and

1781
02:27:01.120 --> 02:27:04.559
then just look back at it and maybe start to

1782
02:27:06.840 --> 02:27:09.399
you could like map it out. It's like okay, well,

1783
02:27:09.440 --> 02:27:12.559
as that's that, there's that character, where would they go?

1784
02:27:12.719 --> 02:27:14.559
What would they do? And you know, I don't know.

1785
02:27:14.600 --> 02:27:16.040
I mean, it's not something that I'm ever going to

1786
02:27:16.079 --> 02:27:21.559
be doing. Well, if I ever wrote a book, it

1787
02:27:21.600 --> 02:27:25.840
would be kind of it'd have to be factual pretty

1788
02:27:25.959 --> 02:27:37.399
much it made up but about me maybe or I'm

1789
02:27:37.440 --> 02:27:45.399
trying to think there's something else I was thought about doing. Yeah,

1790
02:27:45.639 --> 02:27:46.719
just it'd have to be.

1791
02:27:48.239 --> 02:27:48.280
That.

1792
02:27:48.399 --> 02:27:51.239
That's the way you could do it maybe, But as

1793
02:27:51.319 --> 02:27:59.200
far as hypnosis, I'm not really sure. It's something I

1794
02:27:59.239 --> 02:28:02.520
don't really know about when it comes to writing. I

1795
02:28:02.680 --> 02:28:06.680
used to write diaries and journals, but it was more

1796
02:28:07.559 --> 02:28:11.239
for me. It's like shouting, isn't he here that in

1797
02:28:11.360 --> 02:28:15.760
the background. It's not a very good answer. Let me

1798
02:28:15.840 --> 02:28:17.319
think about it a bit more. If I come up

1799
02:28:17.319 --> 02:28:19.440
with I think of anything else, I'll mention it in

1800
02:28:19.520 --> 02:28:23.520
the next recording. I might do a little bit of research.

1801
02:28:25.319 --> 02:28:40.280
So thanks everybody, Thank you. Going down the list, Maria, Kathleen, Tammy, Jonathan, Joanne, Sean, Jackie,

1802
02:28:40.840 --> 02:28:46.920
Cindy and dev a marathon, wasn't it There's a lot

1803
02:28:47.000 --> 02:28:50.120
of I don't know how long I've been talking for.

1804
02:28:50.200 --> 02:28:51.840
It's got to be nearly two and a half hours,

1805
02:28:53.680 --> 02:28:56.280
which means I'm not sure when this is going to

1806
02:28:56.360 --> 02:29:02.239
get edited. I'm literally this on a Saturday afternoon. I

1807
02:29:02.360 --> 02:29:06.079
know it's Friday Q and a Friday, but I was

1808
02:29:06.159 --> 02:29:11.319
got so caught up in building a website. But I

1809
02:29:11.440 --> 02:29:17.280
did start this. I thought I started it at three.

1810
02:29:19.799 --> 02:29:24.159
I definitely started it before four o'clock because I was

1811
02:29:24.159 --> 02:29:26.360
already at two hours. Last time I went to a toilet,

1812
02:29:26.440 --> 02:29:32.479
so I had a break. Lion. It's now seven minutes

1813
02:29:32.520 --> 02:29:37.680
past six, and there's boxing on at seven, so this

1814
02:29:37.840 --> 02:29:39.719
might be one of those Q and A Fridays that

1815
02:29:39.840 --> 02:29:45.920
come out on Sunday morning. I apologize kind of. I'll

1816
02:29:45.959 --> 02:29:49.879
do a little bit, just a little bit, so thank you.

1817
02:29:50.719 --> 02:29:54.159
I just didn't expect to get this many questions. I'm pleased. Thanks,

1818
02:29:54.239 --> 02:29:57.360
But there's been times when I get like two questions

1819
02:29:57.440 --> 02:30:00.680
and I still managed to last that an hour or so.

1820
02:30:04.639 --> 02:30:05.120
So that's it.

1821
02:30:05.559 --> 02:30:10.399
That is the end of this recording, So thank you

1822
02:30:10.520 --> 02:30:13.079
for listening. Remember to be kind to yourself, because you

1823
02:30:13.239 --> 02:30:17.079
do deserve to be happy and be gentle with yourself.

1824
02:30:18.479 --> 02:30:33.360
You deserve to feel safe, lots of love. Bye. Relax

1825
02:30:37.000 --> 02:30:37.719
in a more.

1826
02:30:38.559 --> 02:30:39.440
Deep and.

1827
02:30:43.280 --> 02:30:50.600
Meaningful way, maybe in a way that can not just

1828
02:30:50.959 --> 02:31:01.000
allow you to feel calmer now and throughout the time

1829
02:31:01.719 --> 02:31:10.040
we spend together here, not just relaxed at the end

1830
02:31:10.159 --> 02:31:14.559
of the recording when it's finished and you can enjoy

1831
02:31:14.760 --> 02:31:32.120
that sense of comfort and peace, but also I think

1832
02:31:32.200 --> 02:31:43.360
it would be nice to have those feelings of relaxation

1833
02:31:45.760 --> 02:32:00.440
continue for longer after the recording is ended. You can

1834
02:32:02.159 --> 02:32:12.760
still benefit from listening to my voice, maybe in a

1835
02:32:12.840 --> 02:32:25.319
few hours time, perhaps tomorrow, and then by listening regularly,

1836
02:32:28.440 --> 02:32:33.040
especially if you find like some people do and myself

1837
02:32:33.079 --> 02:32:37.600
as well, I sometimes I find one particular recording that

1838
02:32:37.879 --> 02:32:46.479
really resonates with me, and I just listen to it

1839
02:32:46.639 --> 02:32:59.479
over and over again every morning, every evening. There was

1840
02:32:59.520 --> 02:33:04.440
this record bording from We're going back to about nineteen

1841
02:33:04.559 --> 02:33:09.159
ninety nine. It was it wasn't hypnosis, but it was

1842
02:33:09.200 --> 02:33:16.680
a guided visualizations. It kind of was hypnosis, really, and

1843
02:33:18.760 --> 02:33:22.040
I managed to find it again and it still has

1844
02:33:22.120 --> 02:33:27.680
the same effect on me. And part of it was

1845
02:33:31.399 --> 02:33:42.360
the person's voice relaxed me. She just felt so peaceful,

1846
02:33:44.479 --> 02:33:50.920
and I'd look forward to listening to her in the

1847
02:33:51.079 --> 02:34:01.719
morning and in the evening. And I knew before even

1848
02:34:02.520 --> 02:34:11.000
pressing the play button that since I've done that pressed

1849
02:34:11.000 --> 02:34:19.520
the play button. This was in the days of CD

1850
02:34:19.760 --> 02:34:28.440
players press the play button. In fact, it might have

1851
02:34:28.520 --> 02:34:32.920
even been a tape recorder. I'd lie down on the

1852
02:34:33.000 --> 02:34:46.360
bed and then even without necessarily listening to her words

1853
02:34:49.719 --> 02:34:59.040
because I had them memorized. Really, it was as if

1854
02:34:59.120 --> 02:35:10.319
my body knew exactly what to do, and the muscles

1855
02:35:10.600 --> 02:35:31.920
just almost went into automatic relaxation, and I remember my

1856
02:35:32.159 --> 02:35:46.040
mind would slow down. Now now I was listening to

1857
02:35:46.159 --> 02:35:55.360
this recording in the early days of learning hypnosis, and

1858
02:35:55.639 --> 02:36:04.479
long before I ever made any videos or audio recordings myself,

1859
02:36:05.719 --> 02:36:09.040
because I didn't start doing that till two thousand and six,

1860
02:36:16.000 --> 02:36:31.920
I knew. I knew how helpful I found being able

1861
02:36:32.000 --> 02:36:41.040
to just let go, to have that trust in the

1862
02:36:41.159 --> 02:36:51.479
person that I'm listening to, knowing that it's going to

1863
02:36:51.600 --> 02:37:02.319
be just as relaxing, if not more so. Each time

1864
02:37:02.680 --> 02:37:08.680
you hear my voice, you may feel the same.

1865
02:37:15.079 --> 02:37:16.200
Some people.

1866
02:37:18.479 --> 02:37:30.760
Have been listening to me for over a decade, maybe

1867
02:37:30.920 --> 02:37:36.319
not solidly, obviously not twenty four hours a day, but

1868
02:37:38.479 --> 02:37:43.319
maybe people come back. Some people may be listen every day.

1869
02:37:54.559 --> 02:38:00.479
That's something that I do which you may not realize

1870
02:38:02.920 --> 02:38:21.440
by listening, is when I record these recordings. Now, for example,

1871
02:38:26.040 --> 02:38:33.760
I also am affected by the words that I say.

1872
02:38:39.120 --> 02:38:48.399
So if I set you focus on your feet, notice

1873
02:38:48.559 --> 02:38:55.719
your feet relaxing, I would be focusing on my feet.

1874
02:39:00.600 --> 02:39:18.000
I will be noticing my feet relaxing. If I said,

1875
02:39:18.159 --> 02:39:25.799
focus on your hands, and maybe notice the difference between

1876
02:39:25.920 --> 02:39:36.719
each hand, Perhaps notice the air in the room, the

1877
02:39:36.879 --> 02:39:41.479
temperature of the room. On the backs of your hands,

1878
02:39:49.319 --> 02:39:53.120
you may start to notice what almost feels like a

1879
02:39:53.319 --> 02:40:01.239
very light breeze, even though there may not be any

1880
02:40:01.799 --> 02:40:06.520
type of breeze at all where you are right now.

1881
02:40:14.879 --> 02:40:25.440
And as you become aware of your hands, I'm also

1882
02:40:25.840 --> 02:40:54.000
aware of how relaxed my hands our feeling now and

1883
02:40:54.200 --> 02:41:01.079
when it comes to potentially drifting off to sleep, which

1884
02:41:01.200 --> 02:41:14.360
may be the reason you're listening, I also feel drowsy

1885
02:41:17.600 --> 02:41:28.799
when I make these recordings. I also notice my mind.

1886
02:41:30.559 --> 02:41:31.040
Drifting.

1887
02:41:38.959 --> 02:41:51.520
In fact, at times I've actually fallen asleep without even noticing,

1888
02:41:56.440 --> 02:42:05.520
and then I carry on talking. And it's only when

1889
02:42:05.840 --> 02:42:14.920
I listen back to do the editing I hear snoring,

1890
02:42:16.879 --> 02:42:24.120
and I think, I don't remember snoring. I remember talking.

1891
02:42:26.959 --> 02:42:34.079
Is this snoring was a pick turned up? That's why

1892
02:42:34.159 --> 02:42:41.760
I sound like when I snore. How I get really

1893
02:42:42.040 --> 02:42:55.399
into the whole experience. I don't know how you feel,

1894
02:43:01.680 --> 02:43:12.120
how relaxed you feel in your feet, how relaxed you

1895
02:43:12.399 --> 02:43:33.600
feel in your hands. I have noticed more and more

1896
02:43:39.600 --> 02:43:52.200
that the more relaxed, deeper level of comfort you feel,

1897
02:43:55.920 --> 02:44:12.040
the easier your breathing becomes. It's almost like that additional

1898
02:44:15.239 --> 02:44:38.600
muscle relaxation. So this allows you debreath easier without necessarily

1899
02:44:41.440 --> 02:45:10.280
focusing on your breath. However, being able to notice the ease.

1900
02:45:13.360 --> 02:45:14.079
In which.

1901
02:45:21.440 --> 02:45:44.079
You breathe so naturally, You breeze so very easily and smoothly.

1902
02:46:11.799 --> 02:46:29.479
Whenever I imagine my breathing improving, when I've got my

1903
02:46:29.639 --> 02:46:45.840
eyes closed, I tend to visualize a beautiful field.

1904
02:46:48.239 --> 02:46:49.600
With trees and.

1905
02:46:49.840 --> 02:47:23.200
Flowers producing all of that life giving oxygen. It feels

1906
02:47:23.479 --> 02:47:45.239
nice to, if nothing else, just taking some time away

1907
02:47:49.959 --> 02:48:32.879
from everything, m enjoying that feeling of peace, serenity with

1908
02:48:33.200 --> 02:49:09.639
a joyful heart. Time seems to just drip by, so

1909
02:49:10.879 --> 02:50:00.600
very slowly, relaxed, so deeply, peaceful, completely unattached to any

1910
02:50:01.600 --> 02:51:05.000
thoughts whatsoever in this moment, completely free, noticing that your

1911
02:51:05.280 --> 02:51:52.319
mind has slowed down. Slowed down because nothing really requires

1912
02:51:52.520 --> 02:52:22.879
your attention. You can enjoy the physical sensations of allowing

1913
02:52:23.120 --> 02:52:35.879
the stress to drip out of your body, dripping out

1914
02:52:35.959 --> 02:53:05.079
of every part of your body and being released from

1915
02:53:05.159 --> 02:53:45.319
your brain. Hunge your mind slowly but surely, the muscles

1916
02:53:45.879 --> 02:53:47.200
in your legs.

1917
02:54:02.399 --> 02:54:32.879
Relax res relax so very deeply, relax.

1918
02:54:37.559 --> 02:55:02.920
So deeply, and the feedings, the pleasant feelings in your

1919
02:55:03.239 --> 02:55:31.000
arms and shoulders, deepening each part of your body further

1920
02:55:36.000 --> 02:55:37.719
and deeper.

1921
02:55:48.079 --> 02:56:04.440
And deeper, not to send.

1922
02:56:07.399 --> 02:56:33.959
The feelings in the back of your neck, the feelings

1923
02:56:34.159 --> 02:57:12.520
in your wrists, muscles, in the front of your body.

1924
02:57:22.920 --> 02:58:07.000
I also feeling peaceful, deeping. There's a sense of peace

1925
02:58:11.559 --> 02:58:16.000
spreads through your very cool.

1926
02:58:46.159 --> 02:58:47.639
Even when you.

1927
02:58:50.600 --> 02:59:15.399
Focus on your mind, her mind becomes be and slower

1928
02:59:31.639 --> 03:00:52.440
and deeper, relaxing, very slow, your stomach, taste felling your stomach,

1929
03:01:14.600 --> 03:01:34.159
your back. Notice, Notice how relaxed.

1930
03:01:37.840 --> 03:01:39.760
You now feel.

1931
03:01:48.600 --> 03:02:20.879
In the hole of your back. In a spy from

1932
03:02:20.959 --> 03:02:25.959
your brain all the way down the middle of your back,

1933
03:02:29.280 --> 03:02:53.399
sending and receiving millions of messages every day, decomfort increasing

1934
03:03:03.920 --> 03:04:10.280
deeply elax him reles spreading those signals down your spine

1935
03:04:10.440 --> 03:04:33.200
or cord into a every part of your body, your

1936
03:04:33.399 --> 03:05:21.680
shins and your calf, muscles, your elbows, Feelings.

1937
03:05:21.319 --> 03:05:22.159
Of peace.

1938
03:05:24.840 --> 03:05:38.680
And tranquility spreading through your body, tips of your toes,

1939
03:05:43.040 --> 03:05:54.520
to your eyes, your fingers, all the way to your

1940
03:05:54.639 --> 03:07:09.479
lower back. Letting go, reletting base, drifting mind, just wonder

1941
03:07:09.680 --> 03:07:31.879
in a way, happy to let go, let go completely,

1942
03:07:34.360 --> 03:08:32.239
let go, so tranquil your whole body, enjoying a sense

1943
03:08:57.079 --> 03:08:57.719
letting go.

1944
03:09:01.479 --> 03:09:02.959
He no.

1945
03:10:11.639 --> 03:10:57.760
Pace, enjoy space, this space.

1946
03:11:00.319 --> 03:11:01.360
Of peace.

1947
03:11:04.600 --> 03:11:38.520
And safety, safe firy fy relaxed.

1948
03:12:07.799 --> 03:12:58.840
Us ut.

1949
03:13:07.600 --> 03:13:08.159
Letting go.

1950
03:13:26.200 --> 03:13:27.639
Maybe we can just.

1951
03:13:30.520 --> 03:13:39.280
Focus on the different parts of your body, just to

1952
03:13:39.600 --> 03:15:08.399
notice a forehead and your eyes. TU say this noticing

1953
03:15:08.440 --> 03:16:28.280
in the sense of complete freedom, absolute freedom, day d day,

1954
03:16:40.719 --> 03:17:22.559
He's fall energy, paste to breeze, so.

1955
03:17:22.760 --> 03:18:06.760
Much ease, yeah, loose.

1956
03:18:28.040 --> 03:18:28.959
You may have.

1957
03:18:32.440 --> 03:19:32.479
You may not have noticed your mind drifting peaceful move

1958
03:19:32.959 --> 03:19:53.440
ay even more deeply in the direction of total blissful pace,

1959
03:19:57.680 --> 03:22:01.440
blissful pace. You go to pace, sir, let him go,

1960
03:22:26.360 --> 03:23:37.879
peace of mind, fay, so relaxed, so relaxed. Your body

1961
03:23:38.639 --> 03:24:18.760
feels almost invisible, so very relaxed, that peaceful, so pace for.

1962
03:24:42.120 --> 03:25:00.399
Let go as a paceful.

1963
03:25:05.479 --> 03:25:23.639
M and you could start to notice that you are

1964
03:25:23.920 --> 03:25:35.399
feeling more relaxed, even though I've not purposely focused your

1965
03:25:35.600 --> 03:25:44.000
mind upon that sense of physical comfort that is growing

1966
03:25:44.120 --> 03:25:52.959
within you throughout your body, and your mind starts to

1967
03:25:53.079 --> 03:26:03.120
slow down. And that could be almost in recognition of

1968
03:26:05.399 --> 03:26:17.479
I guess my speech not being particularly fast, and things

1969
03:26:17.879 --> 03:26:27.959
just generally feel calmer. Just by listening to my voice,

1970
03:26:31.040 --> 03:26:38.000
you give yourself an opportunity to take a break from

1971
03:26:38.040 --> 03:26:44.559
the day, take a break from your life as it is,

1972
03:26:48.000 --> 03:26:55.600
and to give yourself a rest, giving yourself permission to

1973
03:26:55.719 --> 03:27:00.760
take some time off and to allow allow your body

1974
03:27:00.920 --> 03:27:10.680
to relax and allow your mind to slow down, which

1975
03:27:10.760 --> 03:27:18.760
in turn releases the tension any stresses that you had

1976
03:27:18.799 --> 03:27:28.559
in your body. It's almost as if the parts of

1977
03:27:28.639 --> 03:27:40.559
your body just open up, allowing the negativity out and

1978
03:27:40.719 --> 03:27:49.120
at the same time replacing that negativity with positive heathing energy,

1979
03:27:52.239 --> 03:27:56.799
which then fills your body up and your mind to

1980
03:27:58.479 --> 03:28:16.879
also starts to appreciate those feelings of increasing confidence, an

1981
03:28:16.959 --> 03:28:34.040
almost uplifting feeling, positive healing, an energy that spreads through

1982
03:28:34.120 --> 03:28:44.760
your body like a wave of comfort. And all this

1983
03:28:45.120 --> 03:28:57.159
comes from just allowing yourself a few minutes, maybe half

1984
03:28:57.200 --> 03:29:01.040
an hour, however long you want it to be, to

1985
03:29:01.399 --> 03:29:03.159
just rest.

1986
03:29:08.280 --> 03:29:09.200
And allow.

1987
03:29:11.440 --> 03:29:21.440
Your mind and your body to almost reset itself to

1988
03:29:22.120 --> 03:29:37.719
the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness, which allows more

1989
03:29:37.879 --> 03:29:51.239
room for feelings of pleasure and happiness to move around

1990
03:29:51.559 --> 03:29:59.719
your body and into your mind, almost as if your

1991
03:29:59.760 --> 03:30:10.920
mind and your body are sinking together, almost mirroring each other,

1992
03:30:12.000 --> 03:30:24.000
with that growing positivity and calmness. And it feels nice,

1993
03:30:26.639 --> 03:30:32.520
really does feel nice to know that you are the

1994
03:30:32.639 --> 03:30:45.959
one that has allowed yourself to feel more comfort and

1995
03:30:46.200 --> 03:30:48.799
to experience.

1996
03:30:50.520 --> 03:30:51.639
More of this.

1997
03:30:53.440 --> 03:31:08.600
Deep relaxation spreading throughout your body. And as I focus

1998
03:31:10.159 --> 03:31:15.920
on each part of your body, you can notice that

1999
03:31:16.159 --> 03:31:30.520
that part becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on

2000
03:31:30.600 --> 03:31:42.840
it becomes even more calm and comfortable just by focusing.

2001
03:31:46.879 --> 03:31:52.639
And as I move down your body, starting at your head,

2002
03:31:55.399 --> 03:32:00.680
the parts that you've already focused on or can tinue

2003
03:32:02.040 --> 03:32:09.120
to relax deeply and those parts that have not yet

2004
03:32:09.319 --> 03:32:22.200
focused on or just automatically release any remain intention in

2005
03:32:22.360 --> 03:32:36.600
anticipation of even more comfort about to come. Now, I'm

2006
03:32:36.639 --> 03:32:43.120
going to start by focusing on your forehead. Just being

2007
03:32:43.239 --> 03:32:51.879
aware of the feelings of your forehead and any background

2008
03:32:52.159 --> 03:32:59.280
sounds like mister Herbert's opinion, can just allow you to

2009
03:32:59.440 --> 03:33:06.680
feel and more relaxed. Just means you in the moment,

2010
03:33:09.799 --> 03:33:15.159
this isn't this isn't a sterile environment. This is the world.

2011
03:33:18.639 --> 03:33:24.680
I live in the countryside, so there's lots of nature

2012
03:33:25.200 --> 03:33:35.680
sounds around. So as you focus on your forehead, just

2013
03:33:35.959 --> 03:33:43.719
notice how it becomes even more relaxed as you focus

2014
03:33:46.040 --> 03:33:50.520
only on my voice and that part of your body.

2015
03:33:55.719 --> 03:34:01.319
Moving down to your eyes, focus see on your eyes,

2016
03:34:03.440 --> 03:34:14.920
noticing how your eyelids feel so heavy, yet so light

2017
03:34:16.000 --> 03:34:22.200
at the same time, and all the muscles around your

2018
03:34:22.280 --> 03:34:34.719
eyes relaxing completely. Moving your focus down to your mouth,

2019
03:34:36.639 --> 03:34:41.239
your lips, your tongue, your teeth, and your guns.

2020
03:34:43.600 --> 03:34:45.399
The hole of your mouth.

2021
03:34:46.959 --> 03:35:01.440
Relaxing, calm and loose, as you focus now on your jaw,

2022
03:35:04.840 --> 03:35:09.559
just the parts of your jawney, your mouth, and your chin,

2023
03:35:10.840 --> 03:35:13.920
but all the way up the size of your face

2024
03:35:15.120 --> 03:35:29.719
to your ears, the hole of your jaw feeding more relaxed.

2025
03:35:33.040 --> 03:35:33.920
And calm.

2026
03:35:42.120 --> 03:35:51.200
Focusing on your neck, the front of your neck and

2027
03:35:51.319 --> 03:36:04.319
your throat relaxing and loose and calm. The sides of

2028
03:36:04.440 --> 03:36:09.680
your neck, the right and left side of your neck

2029
03:36:12.639 --> 03:36:16.120
relax and place.

2030
03:36:19.840 --> 03:36:20.600
And calm.

2031
03:36:27.000 --> 03:36:33.639
And now the back of your neck, focusing on the

2032
03:36:33.920 --> 03:36:44.360
back of your neck, letting go of any tension that

2033
03:36:44.559 --> 03:36:53.399
may have been there before, and enjoying that sense of

2034
03:36:54.440 --> 03:36:59.360
increasing comfort and release.

2035
03:37:02.120 --> 03:37:06.120
Then you can experience in the back of your neck,

2036
03:37:12.440 --> 03:37:14.639
moving down your back.

2037
03:37:16.879 --> 03:37:21.559
And moving either side of your spine right from the

2038
03:37:21.719 --> 03:37:22.879
top of your back.

2039
03:37:24.600 --> 03:37:25.879
All the way.

2040
03:37:25.879 --> 03:37:38.520
Down to the bottom of your back down to your

2041
03:37:38.639 --> 03:37:46.440
lower back. As you move up and down.

2042
03:37:48.440 --> 03:37:55.000
Your spine, you can feel the muscles either side of

2043
03:37:55.079 --> 03:38:09.639
your spine relaxing even more and as those muscles relax,

2044
03:38:11.799 --> 03:38:19.680
that sense of comfort starts to spread outwards from your

2045
03:38:19.799 --> 03:38:29.319
spine into both sides of your back, the top of

2046
03:38:29.440 --> 03:38:32.520
your back, the middle end your lower back.

2047
03:38:36.040 --> 03:38:37.360
And as you scan.

2048
03:38:38.760 --> 03:38:46.559
Gently and slowly up and down your back, there's the

2049
03:38:46.719 --> 03:38:52.559
muscles in the top of your back relax and become looser.

2050
03:38:56.920 --> 03:39:02.920
The muscles in the middle of your back also seem

2051
03:39:03.040 --> 03:39:12.520
to just almost divide from each other, separating and almost melting,

2052
03:39:18.319 --> 03:39:24.280
And in your lower back there seems to be an

2053
03:39:24.360 --> 03:39:26.479
extra special feeling.

2054
03:39:30.079 --> 03:39:30.920
Of comfort.

2055
03:39:36.239 --> 03:39:42.360
The spreads into your hips. Sit down your lower back,

2056
03:39:42.680 --> 03:39:50.680
into your hips, into the area where your cosix are,

2057
03:39:54.239 --> 03:40:00.440
and into your buttocks, and all those muscles that bread

2058
03:40:03.120 --> 03:40:04.440
bring your lower back.

2059
03:40:06.680 --> 03:40:08.159
Into your hip area.

2060
03:40:10.959 --> 03:40:27.440
Start to melt, start to reading, let go, and you

2061
03:40:27.760 --> 03:40:34.399
know where about to focus on your shoulders. Your back

2062
03:40:34.719 --> 03:40:45.639
and your spine will continue to let go, continue to

2063
03:40:45.920 --> 03:41:00.520
relax so calmly, and as you focus on your orders,

2064
03:41:02.280 --> 03:41:19.040
you may notice they're already feeling really loose. They're already.

2065
03:41:21.399 --> 03:41:27.840
Feeding, calm.

2066
03:41:34.040 --> 03:41:35.079
And fearing.

2067
03:41:39.319 --> 03:41:47.639
Those muscles then move from your neck into your shoulders.

2068
03:41:54.200 --> 03:41:56.159
Feel so soft.

2069
03:41:59.120 --> 03:41:59.959
And gent.

2070
03:42:04.079 --> 03:42:05.639
So smooth.

2071
03:42:11.360 --> 03:42:33.879
And calm, and the feeling in your shoulders seems to

2072
03:42:34.319 --> 03:42:42.760
spread deep into your shoulders, a sense of relaxation, not

2073
03:42:43.319 --> 03:42:54.959
just traveling deeply into your muscles, but also relaxing.

2074
03:42:57.079 --> 03:42:58.479
The bones.

2075
03:43:03.799 --> 03:43:10.479
And moving all the way to underneath your arms, relaxing

2076
03:43:12.399 --> 03:43:17.120
a whole area between the tops of your shoulders and

2077
03:43:17.319 --> 03:43:18.799
underneath your arms.

2078
03:43:22.879 --> 03:43:23.399
Healing.

2079
03:43:28.799 --> 03:43:29.479
You feel so.

2080
03:43:31.399 --> 03:43:42.879
Relaxed and comfortable in your shoulders, which sends that.

2081
03:43:45.159 --> 03:43:47.200
Deep healing.

2082
03:43:50.159 --> 03:43:57.239
Message into your arms.

2083
03:44:03.920 --> 03:44:05.200
You may feel.

2084
03:44:06.680 --> 03:44:11.719
Almost as if your arms are not even that because

2085
03:44:11.840 --> 03:44:27.799
they so relaxed, so deeply relaxed, so.

2086
03:44:32.040 --> 03:44:33.159
So calm.

2087
03:44:48.360 --> 03:45:20.559
So the fins spreading all way down your arms to elbows, including.

2088
03:45:20.920 --> 03:45:22.319
Your elbows.

2089
03:45:31.639 --> 03:45:34.399
Circumforts spreads.

2090
03:45:38.360 --> 03:45:39.079
Your way.

2091
03:45:41.680 --> 03:45:49.639
Into wrists, your forearms and your wrists.

2092
03:45:55.840 --> 03:45:56.959
So heavy.

2093
03:46:00.319 --> 03:46:41.959
Has the same time sunlight and gentle fuk say.

2094
03:46:44.079 --> 03:46:45.079
Now on.

2095
03:46:47.760 --> 03:47:41.280
Your hands, my hands, so peace in your hands, with

2096
03:47:41.440 --> 03:47:42.360
a sense of.

2097
03:47:45.879 --> 03:47:47.280
Real pace.

2098
03:47:59.360 --> 03:48:00.319
Just see to.

2099
03:48:04.520 --> 03:48:08.680
Feel so familiar.

2100
03:48:11.680 --> 03:49:50.559
With your hands, relax deeply else your fingers. I think

2101
03:49:50.719 --> 03:50:24.879
it's hips. Your attention frum to your body.

2102
03:50:38.360 --> 03:52:16.879
Constable, my man, you focus to your legs, muscles in

2103
03:52:17.040 --> 03:55:17.600
your fights, calf muscles, shades and the feathing.

2104
03:55:18.799 --> 03:55:19.520
Your faets.

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03:55:26.520 --> 03:56:18.120
Sir piece home circom, suck piece home Circom sup peaceful.

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03:56:21.040 --> 03:56:26.319
Sycom so.

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03:56:28.280 --> 03:56:40.479
Peace fall right sner.

2108
03:56:45.200 --> 03:57:03.680
Piece fall cycom love, the deep relaxation, just.

2109
03:57:03.879 --> 03:57:21.040
Spread your chest, let you go.

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03:57:25.159 --> 03:57:25.799
Everything.

2111
03:57:37.079 --> 03:57:43.079
So I'm gonna start counting down now from twenty down

2112
03:57:43.120 --> 03:57:51.239
to one. You can imagine in a way it's like

2113
03:57:52.079 --> 03:57:58.479
just walking down some steps and each step or twenty steps,

2114
03:57:58.559 --> 03:58:07.159
and each step rips sense a level of comfort. Each

2115
03:58:07.360 --> 03:58:23.239
step represents a deepening of that comfort and the furvies

2116
03:58:23.719 --> 03:58:29.280
you walk down those steps to deeper and more relaxed

2117
03:58:29.520 --> 03:59:46.040
you feel. So starting with number twenty twenty, nineteen, eighteen.

2118
04:00:13.760 --> 04:01:12.239
Seven, ten, sixteen.

2119
04:02:27.079 --> 04:05:18.040
Three fourhhhhhhhhhh fo you well.

2120
04:08:33.280 --> 04:09:36.440
No eight.

2121
04:10:35.840 --> 04:13:29.319
Sissie in six five.

2122
04:14:37.319 --> 04:18:26.639
Four us us four.

2123
04:19:16.280 --> 04:19:16.959
And now.

2124
04:19:21.360 --> 04:19:33.959
As you focus on your eyes, You're gonna count down

2125
04:19:34.399 --> 04:19:50.159
from ten outs one, focusing just on your eyes, your eyelids,

2126
04:19:50.600 --> 04:19:59.319
the muscles around your eyes, your eyes walls themselves, a

2127
04:19:59.520 --> 04:20:00.920
whole area.

2128
04:20:03.479 --> 04:20:17.639
That makes up your eye. And as we count down.

2129
04:20:18.000 --> 04:20:32.399
Ten down to one, whilst focusing on your eyes, you

2130
04:20:32.520 --> 04:20:43.559
will become twice is relaxed with each number counting down.

2131
04:20:47.360 --> 04:20:49.000
That you may find.

2132
04:20:52.879 --> 04:20:55.479
The what you want to do is just.

2133
04:20:57.479 --> 04:20:59.559
Drift off to sleep.

2134
04:21:02.559 --> 04:21:09.159
And if that's what you want, then just allow yourself

2135
04:21:09.280 --> 04:21:23.680
to do that. Now, focus in on your eyes. You're

2136
04:21:23.719 --> 04:21:29.280
going to begin counting down from ten down to one

2137
04:21:33.479 --> 04:22:44.280
right now, ten nine eight.

2138
04:23:29.559 --> 04:25:41.559
Sn f.

2139
04:26:52.520 --> 04:28:14.920
Four ships.

2140
04:28:06.200 --> 04:30:40.920
Three one.

2141
04:30:46.879 --> 04:30:47.040
Two.

2142
04:30:55.440 --> 04:30:57.319
Count down from ten to one.

2143
04:30:59.159 --> 04:31:01.840
Ten nine.

2144
04:31:03.319 --> 04:31:17.760
Eight seven six five four three.

2145
04:31:20.360 --> 04:31:23.479
Two one.

2146
04:31:30.479 --> 04:31:33.399
And maybe that was a bit too quick in order

2147
04:31:33.479 --> 04:31:37.360
to relax. Maybe it's a bit too fast for you

2148
04:31:37.680 --> 04:31:47.399
to notice the calming of your body, maybe even a

2149
04:31:47.479 --> 04:31:51.319
little bit of pressure there, like you're counting down from

2150
04:31:51.360 --> 04:31:54.040
ten to one. Would you expect me to do? Man,

2151
04:31:55.000 --> 04:31:58.479
expect me to just to go with floppy just because

2152
04:31:58.479 --> 04:32:08.120
you're counting down. If you try it again, but this time,

2153
04:32:08.200 --> 04:32:14.200
I'll go a bit slower this time. Then you focus

2154
04:32:14.600 --> 04:32:19.200
on the whole of your body before we focus on

2155
04:32:19.280 --> 04:32:19.799
your legs.

2156
04:32:22.280 --> 04:32:23.440
Just notice.

2157
04:32:24.559 --> 04:32:37.360
How your body does start to feel more relaxed with

2158
04:32:38.639 --> 04:32:41.440
every number that I count down.

2159
04:32:44.719 --> 04:32:51.079
Ten nine.

2160
04:32:56.440 --> 04:34:26.479
At eight, seven, six four three one, And just notice

2161
04:34:26.799 --> 04:34:38.759
how how you feel generally, how your body feels. It's

2162
04:34:38.799 --> 04:34:46.880
not necessarily even about counting down from ten to one.

2163
04:34:49.840 --> 04:34:57.919
It's that space that you have, that space between.

2164
04:34:59.840 --> 04:35:03.560
H being.

2165
04:35:06.840 --> 04:35:19.159
Active physically or mentally, just sitting or lying down, just

2166
04:35:19.400 --> 04:35:25.279
being there, not doing anything, not saying anything, or needing

2167
04:35:25.520 --> 04:35:31.000
to think about anything. So it opens up a space,

2168
04:35:32.000 --> 04:35:41.119
you know, a bit of a space, a gap. And

2169
04:35:41.240 --> 04:35:45.799
the more I came down from ten to one, the

2170
04:35:45.880 --> 04:35:53.880
bigger that gap becomes. So there's that gap of calmness,

2171
04:35:55.279 --> 04:36:10.240
of comfort and relaxation. It's a nice feeling, and it

2172
04:36:10.560 --> 04:36:19.319
moves those stresses or discomforts physically or emotionally.

2173
04:36:19.439 --> 04:36:20.520
Moves them.

2174
04:36:22.040 --> 04:36:33.400
On way. Allows you to just.

2175
04:36:36.400 --> 04:36:37.040
Slow down.

2176
04:36:40.680 --> 04:36:43.080
Someone to count the game from ten down to one

2177
04:36:43.560 --> 04:36:53.759
and notice that gap widening, the gap, And as it widens,

2178
04:36:53.799 --> 04:36:58.240
it's almost like that the stress and attention.

2179
04:36:58.720 --> 04:37:17.799
Falls into the It gives you that distance, that space

2180
04:37:25.119 --> 04:38:39.880
ten nine eight, seven, six, five four three.

2181
04:39:14.759 --> 04:39:14.959
One.

2182
04:39:26.880 --> 04:39:30.880
How did you work? Body? You feel.

2183
04:39:32.840 --> 04:39:33.040
Now?

2184
04:39:45.720 --> 04:39:49.279
Can you notice? Do you feeling calm?

2185
04:39:57.479 --> 04:39:58.759
Do you feeling.

2186
04:40:01.439 --> 04:40:28.799
Relaxed? We now focus on your lex just a les.

2187
04:40:44.840 --> 04:41:04.959
You're just gonna start with focusing on your thighs. Of course,

2188
04:41:05.080 --> 04:41:10.000
it's not the most exciting thing to be doing because

2189
04:41:13.400 --> 04:41:16.279
I'm sure like most of your body is not not

2190
04:41:16.439 --> 04:41:28.759
going on right now. Just focusing on the whole of

2191
04:41:28.840 --> 04:41:35.319
your thighs, the tops of your thighs, the size of

2192
04:41:35.400 --> 04:41:42.240
your thighs, the bottoms of your thighs. You're outer thighs

2193
04:41:42.360 --> 04:41:47.279
and you're inner thighs, basically the whole of your thigh

2194
04:41:47.400 --> 04:41:56.159
that leads into your hip and it goes down to

2195
04:41:56.360 --> 04:42:10.400
your knee joints. Now, this is a big area, it's

2196
04:42:10.439 --> 04:42:15.919
a very heavy area. It's very strong, probably the strongest

2197
04:42:16.919 --> 04:42:19.759
muscles in your body or in your thighs.

2198
04:42:29.959 --> 04:42:30.840
But I don't think we.

2199
04:42:32.599 --> 04:42:45.159
Perhaps will give enough attention to our thighs. Perhaps we

2200
04:42:45.319 --> 04:42:55.919
don't and acknowledge how important our thighs are to our lives,

2201
04:43:07.479 --> 04:43:16.880
how much they actually do for us all through our lives.

2202
04:43:24.040 --> 04:43:30.040
And may seem sound really weird, but I think that

2203
04:43:30.200 --> 04:43:38.119
all of our body parts, especially our thighs, needs some TLC,

2204
04:43:41.439 --> 04:43:51.560
a bit of love show, a bit of the acknowledgement,

2205
04:43:54.279 --> 04:44:09.959
thank you, gratitude for what advis do for us. And

2206
04:44:10.080 --> 04:44:15.959
I know this may sound and it's strange. Maybe you think,

2207
04:44:16.360 --> 04:44:19.119
why am I sure that I should be out in

2208
04:44:19.240 --> 04:44:27.919
the garden hugging a tree or something. It's hard to

2209
04:44:27.959 --> 04:44:29.639
set a microphone up on a tree.

2210
04:44:30.680 --> 04:44:32.240
That's what I'm doing to sing to or something.

2211
04:44:32.240 --> 04:44:35.840
Wise I would be outside hugging a tree. I can't

2212
04:44:35.840 --> 04:44:44.720
see the television from the tree. You move down to

2213
04:44:44.840 --> 04:44:54.439
your knees a gain such an important part, and I

2214
04:44:54.520 --> 04:45:01.360
think we don't necessarily I'll speak for myself here, I

2215
04:45:01.479 --> 04:45:06.400
don't necessarily appreciate all that my needs to do for

2216
04:45:06.560 --> 04:45:13.000
me until I have a problem with my need. Occasionally,

2217
04:45:13.119 --> 04:45:18.080
if I ever, maybe i'll bash it or it's aching

2218
04:45:18.240 --> 04:45:24.599
for some reason. It's then that I realize how much

2219
04:45:24.759 --> 04:45:28.360
it does. You know, the benefit of being able to

2220
04:45:29.319 --> 04:45:38.560
use my legs without any kind of physical discomfort is

2221
04:45:39.360 --> 04:45:48.080
a beautiful thing that's possibly not appreciated until it's temporarily removed.

2222
04:45:49.240 --> 04:45:56.200
You know that's comfort. But as you focus on your needs,

2223
04:45:58.400 --> 04:46:04.040
regardless of how your needs feel, you can have that

2224
04:46:04.319 --> 04:46:10.479
sense of gratitude and love to your needs for all

2225
04:46:10.599 --> 04:46:23.000
that they do for you. You can still have that

2226
04:46:23.159 --> 04:46:28.080
attention on your thighs. Maybe notice how your thighs feel.

2227
04:46:30.240 --> 04:46:41.240
Maybe you notice that they are with relaxing more deeply

2228
04:46:48.040 --> 04:46:52.479
as you focus now on the bottoms of your legs,

2229
04:46:53.200 --> 04:46:59.799
ships and your clof muscles, the bones between your the

2230
04:47:01.119 --> 04:47:01.880
your feet.

2231
04:47:03.200 --> 04:47:04.080
Incorporates, and the.

2232
04:47:04.200 --> 04:47:05.880
Course your ankles.

2233
04:47:07.720 --> 04:47:08.680
So important.

2234
04:47:14.119 --> 04:47:17.919
Can you know anyone that's had even like the slightest

2235
04:47:18.360 --> 04:47:24.080
sprain of an ankle who knows how how much we

2236
04:47:24.200 --> 04:47:33.840
take our end course for granted. And it's kind of

2237
04:47:33.959 --> 04:47:39.319
strange in a way when you think that. You know, logically,

2238
04:47:39.639 --> 04:47:42.720
our wrists are a lot thinner than the rest of

2239
04:47:42.799 --> 04:47:47.279
our arms, which is okay, it doesn't it. I can't

2240
04:47:47.319 --> 04:47:50.959
see any problem with that. You're just picking stuff up.

2241
04:47:52.639 --> 04:47:58.759
Our ankles so much thinner than the rest of our legs,

2242
04:48:05.200 --> 04:48:09.639
and from a physics perspective, a logical even, it doesn't

2243
04:48:09.680 --> 04:48:15.680
really make sense that all this weight will ultimately be

2244
04:48:16.799 --> 04:48:26.840
resting on your ankles then leading to your feet, a

2245
04:48:27.400 --> 04:48:36.360
thin area, thin bone. Yeah, it does so much great work.

2246
04:48:38.520 --> 04:48:48.040
Supports us, supports our body for a lifetime, helps us

2247
04:48:48.720 --> 04:48:58.119
to balance, helps you to get around and be mobile.

2248
04:49:04.520 --> 04:49:05.639
There's the calf muscles.

2249
04:49:05.680 --> 04:49:11.799
Of course, when I was.

2250
04:49:11.840 --> 04:49:15.680
Younger, I couldn't see the point in calf muscles. Didn't

2251
04:49:15.680 --> 04:49:21.000
seem to do anything. Okay, if I walked around my tiptoes,

2252
04:49:21.840 --> 04:49:23.759
then my calf muscles get some work.

2253
04:49:25.159 --> 04:49:26.479
But of course that's not true.

2254
04:49:26.639 --> 04:49:31.159
The calf muscles being used whenever we use that legs

2255
04:49:36.799 --> 04:49:49.400
and your shins there to protect your lower legs shaped

2256
04:49:49.439 --> 04:49:54.159
and away the most as a protector, with the bone

2257
04:50:01.759 --> 04:50:13.880
leading of course to your ankles and your feet. I'm

2258
04:50:13.880 --> 04:50:15.840
not going to focus on your feet. I'm just going

2259
04:50:15.880 --> 04:50:22.599
to focus on the legs. I realize now that I've

2260
04:50:22.680 --> 04:50:26.799
mentioned your feet, you could be focusing on them anyway,

2261
04:50:27.360 --> 04:50:29.919
So maybe I should focus on your feet a little bit.

2262
04:50:33.959 --> 04:50:38.360
You can have the mean your awareness the same as

2263
04:50:38.439 --> 04:50:41.400
you have your thighs in your awareness.

2264
04:50:42.279 --> 04:50:43.439
Even though we haven't.

2265
04:50:43.240 --> 04:50:49.040
Been focusing on your thighs a few minutes and we're

2266
04:50:49.080 --> 04:51:03.520
focusing on your ankles, there's still that sensation of comfort

2267
04:51:06.200 --> 04:51:18.159
in your thighs, and there's that movement of energy because

2268
04:51:18.200 --> 04:51:25.159
the thighs hold lots of different sensations. Of course, there's

2269
04:51:25.200 --> 04:51:29.720
the muscles and the big straw muscles that we have

2270
04:51:29.919 --> 04:51:43.279
in our thighs, but the skin on the outside of

2271
04:51:43.360 --> 04:51:48.639
the thighs, as in the outside of all of our body,

2272
04:51:49.439 --> 04:52:00.279
can be very sensitive, sensitive to the touch sensitive. It's

2273
04:52:00.319 --> 04:52:15.119
the temperature, and inside your thighs the bones, there's the muscles,

2274
04:52:15.159 --> 04:52:20.240
the blood, vessels, the art trees, all this stuff that's

2275
04:52:20.520 --> 04:52:29.319
inside your thighs. I guess sometimes it'd be nice if

2276
04:52:29.360 --> 04:52:34.159
you could actually put your fingers inside your thighs and

2277
04:52:34.279 --> 04:52:39.959
a message. So if you can message on the outside.

2278
04:52:39.439 --> 04:52:42.720
Of course, and to be able to get deep into.

2279
04:52:42.560 --> 04:52:48.040
The muscles, to be able to just message inside your thighs,

2280
04:52:48.880 --> 04:52:58.360
message in your bones, your leg all the things and

2281
04:52:58.599 --> 04:53:04.119
just gently heathen fives.

2282
04:53:07.840 --> 04:53:09.319
Need move down.

2283
04:53:11.040 --> 04:53:17.159
Message and inside of peace's message of those bones. But

2284
04:53:17.319 --> 04:53:21.720
with the healing fingatives spreading.

2285
04:53:21.279 --> 04:53:33.080
Their health unity deep in the choice of course, to

2286
04:53:33.200 --> 04:53:38.959
the back of the mill that the inside crease real

2287
04:53:39.200 --> 04:53:40.159
need is.

2288
04:53:41.799 --> 04:53:48.360
It's a really sensitive area that's very nice when you stroking.

2289
04:53:49.759 --> 04:53:53.119
That might be because it's an area that's not really

2290
04:53:53.279 --> 04:53:54.319
touched very often.

2291
04:53:56.400 --> 04:54:03.279
It's almost like a hidden part. And grease your legs.

2292
04:54:03.360 --> 04:54:10.799
It's almost like a partner has a sensitivity, which is

2293
04:54:10.840 --> 04:54:21.799
a little bit different. Of course, it's protected by your legs.

2294
04:54:29.319 --> 04:54:35.000
What you leagine put in thin stacrease in the legs,

2295
04:54:40.759 --> 04:54:45.439
fun between the legs. You can just message with your fingertips.

2296
04:54:46.720 --> 04:54:53.400
Imagine your fingertips go inside, massage in the muscle tissue.

2297
04:54:58.000 --> 04:55:05.159
You can of course field but peace and free thinker

2298
04:55:05.240 --> 04:55:18.759
times and then she got down see half muscles, and

2299
04:55:18.919 --> 04:55:21.520
that's the part I'd like to be able to read.

2300
04:55:22.479 --> 04:55:24.000
But I think it's extinct.

2301
04:55:24.080 --> 04:55:34.799
Inside the calf muscles, massology every single tissue of the muscle.

2302
04:55:35.919 --> 04:55:46.319
Hearing every part and the same from what shoes.

2303
04:55:49.080 --> 04:55:57.639
Massaogy generally striking the bones generally striking the he a

2304
04:55:57.799 --> 04:56:05.599
loving way, so deserves to be treated. There's the precious

2305
04:56:05.720 --> 04:56:10.720
bones that they are. Our legs are so precious that

2306
04:56:10.840 --> 04:56:15.360
you all we have the parts of that body, the

2307
04:56:15.479 --> 04:56:30.000
more precious of any true plan. You start to.

2308
04:56:31.520 --> 04:56:47.919
Think about legs in this way and change perspect might sound.

2309
04:56:51.439 --> 04:57:00.599
It's silly to start the idea. Love poles, sure situation.

2310
04:57:02.680 --> 04:57:10.520
Your thighs makes me to ouser, and wads in your eyes.

2311
04:57:12.759 --> 04:57:15.520
Massage and muscles.

2312
04:57:15.880 --> 04:57:24.119
And lines to get your fingers deep in there, leasing tension,

2313
04:57:27.080 --> 04:57:28.000
just to show.

2314
04:57:29.639 --> 04:57:30.959
How much you care.

2315
04:57:34.159 --> 04:57:35.680
Go your legs.

2316
04:57:36.680 --> 04:57:46.200
What you care for, what your negs deep, your.

2317
04:57:46.279 --> 04:57:48.919
Cars, the ankles.

2318
04:57:53.240 --> 04:58:00.880
The strength of your ankles se hell food they are

2319
04:58:01.080 --> 04:58:11.840
compared to the less they legs especially tis so strong, so.

2320
04:58:12.119 --> 04:58:30.040
Flexible, that's amazing things. Anchies are truly again because I do.

2321
04:58:35.919 --> 04:58:42.880
Supporting all weight. You can't listen how what weight you lie,

2322
04:58:44.080 --> 04:58:44.919
even if you are.

2323
04:58:45.080 --> 04:58:46.200
A stone.

2324
04:58:48.200 --> 04:59:03.840
Still like the still nsas double hitch.

2325
04:59:13.159 --> 04:59:14.159
A slip.

2326
04:59:18.959 --> 04:59:19.639
The witch three

2327
04:59:30.040 --> 05:00:01.560
St at