April 19, 2025

(music) (5 hours) Q&A Friday | Let me bore you to sleep #1331 | 18th April 2025

(music) (5 hours) Q&A Friday | Let me bore you to sleep #1331 | 18th April 2025
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Hello, and welcome to jasonnew Land dot com. Money is

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Jason a new Land. Please only listen when you can

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safely close your eyes. And this is Q and a Friday,

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Q and a Friday, but being recorded on a Saturday.

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So should have done this yesterday, good Friday, the eighteenth

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of April twenty twenty five, but I am now doing

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it instead on Saturday. The I suppose still good Saturday.

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Maybe nineteenth of April. I'd say eighteenth April, yesterday, nineteenth

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of April today, twenty twenty five at seven forty four am.

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That's more information than any of us really needed, isn't it?

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And I wear my pink crocs. I mean my right

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buttck is itchier than my left buttock. I mean, what

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what stuff do we really need to hear about? Awe okay,

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me wants a treat, but for some reason he's gone.

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He's on a setty, happy to clean himself if I

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crink all the thing. Oh yeah, he's noticed. Do you

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want to treat chewy chicken twists with one hundred natural

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chicken breast meat promotes dental hygiene. Good boy, it's called

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and let meast say what is it? He's just looking

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at me like, who cares what it says on the packet?

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Just give me it a complete pet food? Okay here goo,

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good boy. He loves them. Basically, he loves them. I

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would say it's probably his favorite treat that he's had ever.

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Sorry about all the noise, the chairs, a bit clickery, clickery,

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it's just got that that will keep my occupied for

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about occupied. He'll keep him occupied for about ten minutes,

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I think, unlike most other treats, which keep him occupied

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for like treat treats will keep occupied and maybe ten seconds.

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You know, the ones that are edible. The only things

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that keep that last any amount of time is like

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a bone thing and thinking that can keep him going

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for an hour or two? What an hour? Maybe an

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egg because he likes to break up the eggshell into

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a million pieces, So you know, that can keep him

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going for puting about twenty minutes. I feel like I

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want to time him now just to see how long

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it actually takes, but I won't. So I'll briefly tell

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you about what happened last night. We yesterday just because

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the reason bloody fleas. So I will tell you what

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happened yesterday because.

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EO.

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But I posted yesterday on my Facebook group, which is

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Jason Newland's boring group. Wasn't able to do Q and

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a Friday today due to some neighbor drama, but will

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try and do it tomorrow. I'm going to bed. Well,

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I'm now going to bed now. That wasn't grammatically correct.

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I didn't put I wasn't able, just wasn't able. The

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English language is going downhill. The written English language is

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going downhill. And I understand why because there's so much

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stuff we don't need to really put in, because no

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one's gonna put wasn't able to do Q and a Friday.

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Is there anyone in the world reading that thinking who

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wasn't able to? Who's he talking about? Is he talking

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about Vinny? Is he talking about the Milkman? Is he

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talking about I don't know. I'm just confused. No, it's

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me obviously I'm in the first person, but it isn't,

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you know, grammatically correct. Hmmm. Mike wrote, I hope you

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update this on a drama in an upcoming episode. I

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will update you on a drama in this for this one,

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in this episode, I will tell you right now, Well,

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in a minute, what happened, because also got another message.

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But who is this? Oh, I did get you blame me,

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I did get a miss. It's a comment posted on

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my Facebook group by and We'll just want to welcome

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new a new member. Now I can't find it at

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Louisa Welcome, It says hi, Jason hid One. You've been

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my sandman for a couple of years now, and every

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single night I tell myself remember to join the Facebook

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group tomorrow, then forget the moment I wake up. But

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here I am. Lately, I've been really stressed. I have

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to leave London and move back to Paris. Thanks Brexit,

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and you've helped me unwind and let my mind wander.

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I haven't subscribed to a YouTube channel yet, but I

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will soon. But over the years I've built up this

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whole mental image of your flat, the windows, the guard

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and the setup, and I'm slightly scared would clash with

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my imagination. Are you planning to visit? Are you planning

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to move in? Don't worry it, I'm sure. I don't

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know if I've actually done. I haven't done much videos

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of of the flat really. I did a video when

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I first moved in, when I got the carpet put in,

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So when I late when I got the carpet laid. Yeah,

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I was quite pleased because everything was immaculate, really the

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whole factually only time ever that the flat was immaculate,

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and since then, because I moved in in April twenty fifteen,

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in November or maybe it was October, I don't know.

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I think about November time I got Andre in my

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little ferret, and from that moment on, the flat was

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no longer immaculate and hasn't been since. He destroyed the

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setti that I had, like literally ripped it to bits.

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He destroyed the carpet, He pretty much destroyed the bottoms

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of all the doors. He yeah, he made it his

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own and I still love him to bits, so, you know,

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even though he's not around anymore, but he Yeah, I

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mean I made my my impression as well. I mean,

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it's not like he's the only one. I can't blame

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him for everything. And then then a couple of years ago,

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I got Vinnie, and he's pretty much done the same,

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you know, ripped up the carpet and done. You know,

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just he's a little dog and he's he is. He

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keeps a place very messy. Yeah, and it's good because

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I can blame him, even though probably most of the

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messes me. So I'm messy, I'm a bit messy. I'm

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better off. I mean, I don't have much stuff really

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other than the equipment to make the podcast, television and

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some books. That's pretty much my belongings. I don't have

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lots and lots of belongings. I don't. So really it's

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I would say it's relatively tidy in here. Just there's

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stuff on the floor that I that needs to be

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picked up. These toys are all over the floor and

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the bedroom it's clothes on the bedroom floor, you know,

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things like that. So you can help tidy up when

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you move in. Right, what's next? I they did eat yesterday? Wow?

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So I I admit that I was running behind. I

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wasn't really feeling it yesterday anyway. I spent a lot

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of the day in bed. The morning I was relaxing,

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but I wasn't really I didn't have much in a

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way of energy. Okay. I took a little one out

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for a wa l k and it was you know,

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it was fine, said a load to a couple of people.

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It was nice enough. Came back, watched a bit of

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Telly and really just sort of spent a bit of

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time in bed in the afternoon, realizing I still hadn't

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done anything. Bearing in mind I've been making two to

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three recordings a day for the last week or so,

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so I having not made one recording, and I didn't

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think did I even make a recording Thursday. I don't

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think I did, So I've gotten right downhill. My work

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ethic is ridiculously bad, terrible if it was a job.

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The last recording I did was the seventeenth of April,

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so yeah, it was Thursday, Friday, Saturday. So I did

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do a recording on Thursday, but I did one. But

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Wednesday I did one two, but fit on. On Tuesday

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I did one two two, Monday one two three. Yeah, wow,

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Sunday I did three. Blim me, okay, well you want

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another one. That's the last one that didn't last ten minutes?

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Did it?

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He thinks it's his food and it's not his food.

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It's not it's a tree, but he thinks it's his food.

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He didn't even eat his bottle of food. Like yesterday afternoon. Anyway,

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I get a phone call. I'm hearing a bit of

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commotion in the garden. Not my garden, but a garden nearby,

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and I don't mean what's going on. There's always a

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bit of drama around here, you know, people shouting and

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stuff like that. And then get a phone. I get

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a phone call from my friend, a local neighbor. He said,

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I have just pop around and see you. I said, yeah,

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come around. He didn't seem very happy, but he came around.

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But his voice didn't seem great. So his voice is fine,

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but he didn't seem in a good mood. That's what

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I mean. So anyway, he came around. I'm not going

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to go in to specifics, but he came round and

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just told me he'd had a there's some problems he

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was having. And then later on I saw a lady

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outside better than mind. I was in the middle of

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watching Big Brother, so I had two goals yesterday catch

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up with Big Brother, so that I watched the final

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you know, the picture night live. Having caught up with it,

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so I'd already watched one episode, so it was two

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episodes behind, and I was going to watch Thursday's episode

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and I got about ten minutes into it, so there

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was still quite a bit of maybe fifteen minutes. There

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was still quite a lot to go, but I paused

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it where my friend said he was going to come

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around my neighbor. So he came around, and then I

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fast forward a little bit. There was a lady outside

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the front of my building laying on the pavement, and

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it was like, okay, what's going on here? So I

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went into sort of she was unconscious at this point,

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but she was breathing, like you know, she was kind

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of moving around a bit, but there was cans of

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drink on the floor next to her, like alcoholic drinks.

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So I'm like, oh, okay, now this this, this whole

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this kind of surprised me a little bit. So I

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called for an ambulance. I said, They said, is she breathing?

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And said, yeah, what's her name? I don't know what

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her name is, which I didn't I did find out later,

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and I was saying, do you know what's wrong with us?

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I said, novoice, I've called for an ambulance. I don't

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we don't know. I just found us. She's lying on

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the floor on the pavement, and I'm just concerned that

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she needs medical help. So when I told them about

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the cans of alcohol, and I said, she does you know,

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I think she might have been drinking immediately. It's almost

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like they lost interest in the conversation. Which was weird

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because I was talking to someone who literally was telling like,

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usually they're quite attentive and but they take it seriously.

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This bloke didn't seem to really be interested as soon

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as alcohol's involved. He wasn't like, oh, oh, well. And

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I was kind of surprised at that, and I said, yeah,

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but she's a vulnerable female. She's not able to protect herself.

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She's not able to really stop anyone doing anything they

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want to do right now, and no one's helping her.

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The weird thing is that I said this, people were

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starting to stop. It turned out she'd been out there

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for three hours, but she'd been knocking on people's doors

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and some of the neighbors were actually keep an eye

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out on her. But because she was drunk, they just

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didn't know what to do with her, you know, they

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didn't want to let her in her in their house,

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and that she was given the She was given her

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dad's phone number to different neighbors and stuff, so she

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had that down in her head. This is a mobile number.

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She had both her mom and her dad's phone number

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lodged in her head. So I don't know. She don't

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know how drunk she could have been, and she was

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able to recall two mobile phone numbers. But maybe that's

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just how what I show my ignorance. Maybe I don't know.

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I just don't know how much of it was like

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it exaggerated. But at the time I didn't know she

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was drunk. Yeah she had some cans, but yeah she

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she she might have had as far as I was concerned,

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I didn't know. She might have tripped over and hurt herself.

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She might have had a seizure, she might have It's

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it's all kinds of weird things. You know. Just because

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someone's been drinking alcohol doesn't mean that they're exempt from

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medical attention. That's my opinion. So I mean, yeah, if

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it's self inflicted, okay, But lots of things are self inflicted.

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Someone driving really rubbishly and speeding and know if they

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have a crash, ambulance still come. They don't say you

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were speeding. I'm not going to help you, do They?

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In fact, literally literal self inflicted wounds get treed by

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an ambulance. So then he stopped fidgeting. Please mate, be

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mind me. He's not even eating all of that treat

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so I accord an ambulance. I had this weird conversation

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and they said, is she injured? So I said, are

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you injured? Because at this point she had her eyes

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open and she's not a jess. I said, she's not

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in yes. Oh, I don't know what we're going to do, bloke. Really,

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I've never had a conversation with someone from embudence before.

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They usually like, stick to the script. You just it's

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almost like you just put the script down and went

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for cigarette break and just talking to me while I

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was on a cigarette break. Yeah, well, you know, not

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much we can. What you do is ah, really, well,

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can you send the police or something? Because she's not

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in a good way and she's vulnerable, vulnerable female because

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I realized they're not that bothered about men, so maybe

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they'll be care a bit more about women in that situation.

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But no, and it's weird, and they said, well, call

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call us back. Well, we'll call the police, but you know,

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whether we don't know if they're going to come or not,

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and if anything worse happened, and just call us back. Okay.

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So then she she's laying in the road, she's like

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half laying in the road, and I'm thinking, well, this

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is getting more dangerous now, because I mean lucky I was.

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I was standing in the road with her. I'm not

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going to push it in the road. No, I wasn't.

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I was standing in there with her to make sure

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no cars kind of ran her over because literally there

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was a car parked just in front so as a

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as a bend, so it would have been quite easy

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for a car to drive around the other car not

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knowing that she was behind the car. You know, it

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was kind of a bit of a blind spot I

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could imagine, especially if they were driving into park and

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they could have they could have hit her potentially. So

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I stopped. I was just stood there to make sure

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no one did that. And then two neighbors parked up

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in their cars. It's quite weird. So they were kind

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of standing around, like what were you going to do?

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A bloke stopped with his dog who was another neighbor

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and was walking his dog, and which I was. I was.

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I was glad to have that support, to be honest,

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I just didn't know what to do. I didn't know.

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And then so I called the police and the police

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are talking to me, and ah, so she's in the road.

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Can you not get her off the road? I said,

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I don't. I don't want to touch her. You know, she's,

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as I said before, she's a she's a female vulnerable.

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I don't want to be grabbing her. And I understand

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if there was who was a motorwhire, I'd have to

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have to think about it. But this is a very

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quiet road and there's no way anyone was going to

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hit her because I was stopping it. But she's like, oh,

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and she was telling me to get away from her,

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so that you know that that in itself wasn't particularly good.

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And he said, well, if you tried putting your trousers

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back on and then offering to help, And I said,

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I'm wearing trousers. What stupid? And he said, well, you

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know we can. That didn't That didn't happen. I don't

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know why I'm saying that. And she's it went weird

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after this that that wasn't the weird part. So I

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step away. She starts getting up, So she's getting up now,

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and she starts talking to someone else. She goes over

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to a car and starts trying to open a car door,

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pulling on it and hitting the car not hard. And

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I said to the police, I was just trying to

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get in a car. Now that peaked their interest. If

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it was criminal damage, they'd come to that, so her

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welfare wasn't particularly important to them. But and I don't

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know why, I guess just because she drink drunk or whatever.

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But the idea that she was maybe hurt in a

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car with that old criminal damage, and they really grabbed

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old of that. Also, she's trying to get into a car.

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She's doing like yeah. But I told her to get

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off and she did because it was a neighbor's car.

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So I said, can you get off? Actually I said

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it nicely, but Lee, can you leave that alone? And

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she looked at me, So that's a neighbor's car. Move away,

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and she did. I said, there's no damage, no damage,

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no harm done. You know. She I wanted to get arrested.

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I wanted to get some help. Well, in the meantime,

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I'm talking to the police for about ten minutes, well

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not the police, but they're nine nine nine. This bloke

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with a dog is he's actually on the phone because

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she's walked around the bushes and just she's falling down

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multiple times and you never see a toddler like balancing

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on a toy. You know that a toddler in the

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gardens and they're balancing on a toy and it's like, oh,

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they're going to fall, They're going to fall, but they

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don't what. It was a bit like that with this woman,

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but she actually did fall. She's going to fall, she's yeah,

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she's gone, but she kept getting up. It's like a weeble,

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you know, weeble's wobble, but they don't fall down. I mean,

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she did fall down, but she did get up again.

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And I guess I'm the one that wobbles really are. Anyway,

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she he got her telephone, her dad's telephone number. He's

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on the phone to her dad. He found a mom up. Mum,

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what didn't want to know? So this is this is

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someone that's in a I don't know, late thirties, possibly

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this this this lady maybe even early forties, middle thirties

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and early forties, I don't know, to be fair, and yeah,

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probably thirties. So I did see her dad, so he

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was he founded. My mom didn't want to know. He

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found the dad up and her dad said, I'm already

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on my way because it's from London, like he's ten

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minutes away. That's why he said, he's ten minutes away.

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How can it be ten minutes away from London if

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you just called him? It turned out that she'd already

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the neighbor across the road had already phoned their dad,

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because you'd be knocking on everyone's doors. I didn't know

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this at this point, and it was weird. It was

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just a strange situation. Prior to that, between the ambulance

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and the police phone calls, I I was saying to her,

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so where are you? I don't trying to sort of

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see if try and get her an ambulance, you know,

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sort of said to her, and she started swearing at

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me and being abusive to me verbally, wasn't abusive to

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anyone else, just me for some reason, and telling me

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to go whatever to my dad and whatever to my mum,

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and okay, you're not helping yourself here, you know. I

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was trying to help. And she said, I said where

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are you from? And said, oh, Stratford. I said, well,

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I know it Stratford. And you wouldn't get away of

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this behavior there. You know this, this you would not

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get away, You would not This is be a very

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dangerous situation for you if you did this in Stratford.

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And she's like, and I was losing a bit of

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sympathy and understand I suppose why the police an ambulance.

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They get so much hassle when they go just to

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people who were drunk trying to help someone that won't

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let you help them. So I do understand that. I

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just at the same time, I can't ignore someone that's

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lying on them on the floor, can't even hardly walk.

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She couldn't walk. That puts her in such a dangerous situation,

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which it would do if it was a man. It

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would make no difference to me man or woman. I

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can't really ignore it. I don't think or I can't.

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So it turned out so this was half four. I finally,

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after all the stuff, I finally got back up here.

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Just yeah, the police. I didn't realize i'd had it. Yeah,

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it was about ten past six. I was born twenty six.

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I was back upstairs, So I mean, the whole thing

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didn't start a half past four, but probably five five.

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I don't know. I lose track of the timing, So

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we're probably out there for about an hour, and I

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had two miscalls from the police that I got a

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text and the police just after I think it was

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I can tell you, actually, what's this guy to do

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with Q and a Friday? I don't know this was

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at how weird? Doesn't give me a time for the Texas.

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I thought Texas had times yesterday eighteen oh three. This

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is the Clinical Assessment Service of East Anglia Ambulance Service.

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We have attempted to contenterate with fun I've been able

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to be made. If there's been any worse than the

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patient's condition, please ring nine on nine. So I didn't

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have my phone switched on. It was on, but it

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wasn't on. If the volume wasn't on, then if it

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was on, I didn't hear it. But I think I

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might go on an editor mute just to forgot, because

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I thought I got it on mute most of the time.

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Oh dear, I wouldn't normally I would. I wouldn't do

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that if I you know, I didn't purposely do that.

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But I got a couple of emails, one saying we

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all continuing to rage help. This was probably about half

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an hour later. An hour later, actually, the clinician may

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call you back from a withheld number. Please keep your

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phone lying clear. I only call nine nine nine again

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if the patient's condition worsens. Alternatively, should you no longer

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require help, please reply cancel. So I just sent a cancel.

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I didn't I thought they just that was it. They

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weren't bothering. But it didn't tell me that the ambulance

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was still planning to come. But they just it wasn't

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a priority, which is fair enough. They've got their criteria.

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And.

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When I called them, I didn't know if it's a

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priority or not. Unfortunately, I've had to call the ambulance

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and the police so many times since I've lived there,

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and I've been in this situation before with my neighbor downstairs,

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the one directly below me, and she treas I say,

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was because she passed away. But she's only young. She's

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only in a little bit older than me, about a

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year older than me or something. And this was too fat. Yeah,

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twenty nineteen or twenty twenty, right at the beginning of

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the year. She basically her mom knocked on the door

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and she wasn't answering, and I heard her mum banging

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on the windows, like the bedroom windows out of the back.

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So I went downstairs because I saw this woman and

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I thought what was going on there? I just checked

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that she was all right because it seemed like a

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weird thing to be doing. Didn't look like a thief

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by far. I just go and check it out. And

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I said, all right. She said, yeah, I'm trying to

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get hold of my daughter. She's in there, but she's not.

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She should be in it because she arranged to pick

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her up. I think she had a doctor's appointment or something.

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And I said, oh, okay, and then she she said, well, no,

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I can hear her. She's in there, but I can't

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see where she is. She's not answering the door. Well,

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then she goes and she starts talking letterbox to her

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and it turns out she owed her money and she

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just didn't want to pay it. No, that's not true.

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She shed collapsed. She was on the floor, collapsed, and

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she'd been like that for days apparently. So she was

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able to talk to her mum, but wasn't able to

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move right, there's no way of getting into the flat.

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I couldn't get into the flat. Well, I couldn't get

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into the flat. Luckily, I know some people that do

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know how to do stuff. Like that, not luckily for

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the neighbors to get robbed. But yeah, I know people

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that know how to get into flats very quickly. So

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I got my my local my local breaking service. Well

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it's really weird. I know, if I ever, if I

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ever locked myself out up properly and I can't get

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a locksmith or whatever, a ladder, that's all the need.

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A ladder. You if all the windows are locked, I

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know someone can get through the windows in for like

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thirty seconds. It's just like and they won't have to

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be quiet either, so probably even quite even quicker because

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I'll be with them if they had to do it quietly.

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They put It's like, yeah, it's strange. It's just a weird,

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weird situation. But anyway, I called it. I said, you

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need to call an ambulance, and she said, no, my

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daughter would be in a minute. She'll know what to

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do because her other daughter was coming. She'd called her,

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and I said, I got angry, but it was like,

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you need to call an ambulance. She's lying on the

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floor and she can't move, and that is not a

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good sign. I mean, I'm no doctor, but I can

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I can conclude. I can conclude that's not a good sign.

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And I was correct, and I wish I hadn't been correct.

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So I called an ambulance and the ambulance said, oh,

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forty five minutes, and I said what he said, Yeah,

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forty five minutes. That's it. I said, she's lying on

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the floor, she can't move. No, be forty five minutes. Now.

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The ambulances are brilliant. And I'm not saying anything about

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ambulances or at police or anything. They've always been, you know,

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pretty much been great and I'm grateful. You know, ambulance

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services saved my friend's life multiple times, and so yeah,

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that's not But I was just surprised at this. So

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I went, this is I say, this is a few

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years back, and it's never that. It's not. It's not

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their fault anyways. They can't be everywhere all at once.

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Even Superman can't be everywhere, can they can he? You know,

466
00:36:00.320 --> 00:36:03.320
it's like remember Superman and movie the first one that I

467
00:36:03.440 --> 00:36:08.559
want to spoil it. I mean, it's fifty years ago,

468
00:36:08.599 --> 00:36:10.719
and since it came out, is it too soon to

469
00:36:10.719 --> 00:36:17.960
tell you what happened? But I think was it Superman one?

470
00:36:18.119 --> 00:36:18.280
Was it?

471
00:36:19.239 --> 00:36:21.719
There was? I don't know if it was a superhero

472
00:36:21.760 --> 00:36:25.840
movie where there was two missiles being sent at the

473
00:36:25.920 --> 00:36:31.440
same time, Yeah, it was two. It was Superman. So again,

474
00:36:31.519 --> 00:36:33.679
if you haven't seen it, you don't want to spoil it.

475
00:36:35.559 --> 00:36:40.119
The movie that was released in nineteen seventy five or

476
00:36:40.159 --> 00:36:42.800
was it nineteen seventy seven, but it's you know, it's

477
00:36:42.880 --> 00:36:49.639
nearly fifty years ago, and Lex Lufa launched two nuclear

478
00:36:49.679 --> 00:36:56.239
missiles or two missiles like really badness, so Superman couldn't

479
00:36:56.239 --> 00:36:58.679
and there were different areas. Superman couldn't get to both

480
00:36:58.679 --> 00:37:02.920
of them, so he had to choose one. It got

481
00:37:02.920 --> 00:37:06.039
to it and got rid of it, and he nearly

482
00:37:06.079 --> 00:37:07.880
got to the second one, I do believe, but he

483
00:37:07.920 --> 00:37:14.920
didn't get there in time and for some reason, I

484
00:37:14.960 --> 00:37:16.719
mean maybe it was just a fit the plot of

485
00:37:16.760 --> 00:37:23.679
the movie. But Lewis Lane or Lois Lois Lane, who

486
00:37:23.760 --> 00:37:24.840
was the love of his life?

487
00:37:26.000 --> 00:37:26.639
But was she?

488
00:37:26.760 --> 00:37:31.280
What about Lana Lane? The movie's never really dealt with

489
00:37:31.360 --> 00:37:37.480
Lana Lane. The more recent TV show did, but it

490
00:37:37.519 --> 00:37:42.440
was always like Clark Kent Loves l L Is it

491
00:37:42.519 --> 00:37:45.599
Lewis Lane or is it Lowis Lane? Or is it

492
00:37:45.679 --> 00:37:52.039
Lana Lane? L L? Who do you love Clark? I

493
00:37:52.079 --> 00:37:57.039
love it l L. So it's you know, it was

494
00:37:57.119 --> 00:38:00.159
always that really, I mean in the movies there was

495
00:38:00.159 --> 00:38:03.119
was Lewis Lane, but yeah, the thing for you know,

496
00:38:03.280 --> 00:38:10.360
Lana Lang as well, and for some reason Lewis Lane

497
00:38:10.639 --> 00:38:16.840
love with I can't I can't speak like that. Ol Lane.

498
00:38:17.119 --> 00:38:22.599
The the other missile pretty much landed on her head,

499
00:38:23.840 --> 00:38:29.840
so caused this big you know, catastrophic feing or whatever

500
00:38:30.599 --> 00:38:34.000
in the desert. She happened to be there. I think

501
00:38:34.039 --> 00:38:36.159
he chose the other one was going towards the city

502
00:38:36.639 --> 00:38:38.760
opposed to the one that was going towards the desert.

503
00:38:42.360 --> 00:38:45.840
And he finds her and he's like, oh, it's Lowis

504
00:38:45.960 --> 00:38:51.800
Lane and she's not survived, and it's very sad and

505
00:38:51.840 --> 00:38:59.119
he cries, and he then flies around the world lots

506
00:38:59.119 --> 00:39:06.280
of times and turns back time and it's very good.

507
00:39:07.679 --> 00:39:10.480
Why am I talking about Superman? Oh yeah, you can't.

508
00:39:10.599 --> 00:39:14.840
The ambulance they can't be everywhere. I mean, there's a

509
00:39:14.840 --> 00:39:16.920
lot more than them of them than there is a Superman.

510
00:39:17.599 --> 00:39:22.519
But at the same time, yeah, I'm so grateful that

511
00:39:22.559 --> 00:39:25.320
we've got an ambulance service that we've got in an NHS here,

512
00:39:25.719 --> 00:39:28.480
there've got police service, fire service.

513
00:39:28.960 --> 00:39:29.039
And.

514
00:39:30.679 --> 00:39:35.280
You know, I am. I'm grateful. We've got people to

515
00:39:35.360 --> 00:39:41.239
come and collect the rubbish, people that deliver the mail. Yeah,

516
00:39:41.360 --> 00:39:44.480
I am grateful for that. I don't always feel the gratitude,

517
00:39:44.519 --> 00:39:53.480
but you know, generally, i'm quite I am grateful. So, yeah,

518
00:39:53.599 --> 00:39:58.000
my neighbor downstairs, I phone the police, find I fhond

519
00:39:58.039 --> 00:40:03.719
the fires this next and I said, hello, I don't know it.

520
00:40:03.719 --> 00:40:08.599
I don't know if you can help me. My neighbors

521
00:40:08.880 --> 00:40:13.760
on the floor downstairs. She's collapsed. She can't move, but

522
00:40:13.920 --> 00:40:16.039
she's locked out. I didn't know there's anyway you can

523
00:40:17.000 --> 00:40:21.039
get into the place, you know, she's the front doors

524
00:40:21.159 --> 00:40:24.679
locked solid and we can't get in. And the ambulance

525
00:40:24.679 --> 00:40:29.239
would be here in about forty five minutes. And they said,

526
00:40:29.280 --> 00:40:32.679
what do you expect us to do it? And I'm

527
00:40:32.679 --> 00:40:40.079
like okay. And it was one of those like yeah,

528
00:40:40.119 --> 00:40:43.280
I know I need a locksmith, obviously, but I just

529
00:40:43.360 --> 00:40:45.719
thought maybe in a situation like that, they could come

530
00:40:45.760 --> 00:40:51.480
and remove the door in an emergency. It seemed like

531
00:40:51.519 --> 00:40:56.039
an emergency. It was an emergency. In fact, it was

532
00:40:56.159 --> 00:40:59.960
much more serious than realized. I just assumed it was,

533
00:41:01.360 --> 00:41:05.400
but no one else did for some reason. And then

534
00:41:06.239 --> 00:41:10.199
I called up the police and again they said, what

535
00:41:10.280 --> 00:41:12.199
do you want us to do about it? What do

536
00:41:12.199 --> 00:41:13.880
you what do you expect us to do about it?

537
00:41:14.960 --> 00:41:16.960
I mean literally those words, which I was a little

538
00:41:17.000 --> 00:41:22.039
bit surprised about. I said, well, she's locked. We can't

539
00:41:22.039 --> 00:41:24.000
get in there. The ambulance said they're going to be

540
00:41:24.079 --> 00:41:28.400
forty five minutes, and they said, well what I said?

541
00:41:29.440 --> 00:41:31.280
I said, yeah, but I think she had a heart attack,

542
00:41:35.079 --> 00:41:40.199
and they said, oh, okay. Five minutes later the ambulance

543
00:41:40.280 --> 00:41:45.519
was here. And in that five minutes, I got my friend.

544
00:41:46.719 --> 00:41:48.880
I asked my friend to get into the flat, and

545
00:41:48.920 --> 00:41:56.039
he did. He didn't go in, he took He removed

546
00:41:56.079 --> 00:41:59.199
the window from the bathroom or the kitchen, I think

547
00:41:59.199 --> 00:42:02.599
it was the bathroom. When he removed that in seconds,

548
00:42:03.679 --> 00:42:08.559
and just as he had removed that, her sister turned up,

549
00:42:09.079 --> 00:42:16.239
who was actually able to fit through the window. And

550
00:42:16.639 --> 00:42:19.000
just as she was pretty much climbing through the window,

551
00:42:19.320 --> 00:42:24.679
the ambulance turned up. So she came in. She opened

552
00:42:24.679 --> 00:42:27.920
the door from the inside, the ambulance went in there.

553
00:42:28.119 --> 00:42:32.480
We're there for about half an hour. Took her into

554
00:42:32.519 --> 00:42:35.599
the ambulance. The ambulance put you the paramedics. Rother took

555
00:42:35.639 --> 00:42:39.960
her into the ambulance and they were working on her

556
00:42:40.000 --> 00:42:42.400
in the ambulance for about an hour, maybe an hour

557
00:42:42.400 --> 00:42:46.480
and a half, and then it her that took her

558
00:42:46.519 --> 00:42:49.840
to the hospital and she died two days later. Now

559
00:42:49.840 --> 00:42:52.199
I'm not saying this is a sad story, although it

560
00:42:52.559 --> 00:42:55.239
is a sad story. The fact is she had had

561
00:42:55.239 --> 00:42:59.199
a heart attack, and she had another one in the ambulance.

562
00:43:00.559 --> 00:43:05.119
So there was part of me feeling guilty, like, am

563
00:43:05.159 --> 00:43:08.639
I lying saying that she said ah attack But I

564
00:43:08.639 --> 00:43:10.440
didn't say she had. I said I think she's had

565
00:43:10.880 --> 00:43:14.960
when I actually did believe that, and I was right.

566
00:43:16.440 --> 00:43:19.239
I just couldn't figure any other reason why she would

567
00:43:19.280 --> 00:43:21.119
be lying on the floor for a couple of days

568
00:43:21.400 --> 00:43:27.119
unable to move unless there was something really seriously had

569
00:43:27.159 --> 00:43:32.960
happened internally outside of like a fall or something like that.

570
00:43:33.039 --> 00:43:37.719
But she apparently she wasn't injured, wasn't physically like whatever,

571
00:43:37.880 --> 00:43:41.519
She hadn't broken a hip or anything, according to her mum,

572
00:43:41.760 --> 00:43:48.519
she just couldn't move. So I, yeah, I don't even

573
00:43:48.519 --> 00:43:50.280
know why I'm talking about this. I talked about it

574
00:43:50.280 --> 00:43:52.960
when it happened, But this just gives you an idea

575
00:43:53.000 --> 00:43:57.840
the kind of stuff that happens around here. And eventually,

576
00:43:57.920 --> 00:44:02.039
yesterday this lady, she got to her, a dad turned up.

577
00:44:03.519 --> 00:44:09.480
He said, right, he couldn't she wouldn't get up. He

578
00:44:09.519 --> 00:44:11.840
couldn't pick her up on his own. He called his

579
00:44:11.920 --> 00:44:18.159
wife over or his girlfriend over, and he shouted, Ory Doris,

580
00:44:18.280 --> 00:44:21.400
I don't know what her name was. Can you come here, please?

581
00:44:21.519 --> 00:44:23.440
Can you bring the camera as well so we can

582
00:44:25.079 --> 00:44:28.239
take another picture for the photo album, for the family

583
00:44:28.280 --> 00:44:31.920
photo album. And then he was going on and it's

584
00:44:32.000 --> 00:44:34.880
like he's had years of this since she was a kid.

585
00:44:35.920 --> 00:44:39.719
And he looked drained. He looked so much. I don't know.

586
00:44:40.480 --> 00:44:42.960
I have no idea what the background is behind the

587
00:44:43.000 --> 00:44:47.280
whole thing. But there was no winners, that's for sure.

588
00:44:48.639 --> 00:44:52.239
And it's weird because I felt relief as he drove off,

589
00:44:54.440 --> 00:44:57.639
but at the same time, I knew that the journey

590
00:44:57.719 --> 00:45:02.920
was nowhere near ending for him or for her, and

591
00:45:03.800 --> 00:45:06.039
you know, it was over for me. I'd kind of

592
00:45:08.239 --> 00:45:11.800
I had a degree of relief. I still wasn't quite there,

593
00:45:11.840 --> 00:45:15.320
but I was. It completely shattered me dealing with all

594
00:45:15.320 --> 00:45:20.519
the different people. So I kind of felt for him,

595
00:45:20.599 --> 00:45:24.360
but I felt for her as well, because you know,

596
00:45:26.239 --> 00:45:30.920
it's this addiction, isn't it. It's a horrible, horrible thing.

597
00:45:31.360 --> 00:45:33.360
And I've had to deal with it with lots of

598
00:45:33.360 --> 00:45:40.159
different people for for a long time actually, over the years,

599
00:45:41.000 --> 00:45:45.440
for good old twenty years. Really, I've dealt with my

600
00:45:45.559 --> 00:45:48.400
own issues and other people's issues. I had a little

601
00:45:48.400 --> 00:45:54.960
bit of fling with alcohol when I was younger, but yeah,

602
00:45:55.159 --> 00:45:59.360
I was very strange. And then my other name, my

603
00:45:59.400 --> 00:46:01.719
other neighbor, was it freaked out about some stuff and

604
00:46:01.760 --> 00:46:08.079
I just ended up ten to nine I think after

605
00:46:08.159 --> 00:46:12.039
taking him out, or maybe five to nine. I got

606
00:46:12.039 --> 00:46:18.400
home after sort of doing some other stuff, and that

607
00:46:18.559 --> 00:46:25.639
by the time I'd cooked some teacakes because I was hungry.

608
00:46:26.280 --> 00:46:30.719
The Big Brother Live episode was seven minutes in, so

609
00:46:30.800 --> 00:46:34.519
I couldn't watch yesterday's episode to see. I didn't even

610
00:46:34.519 --> 00:46:40.280
know who was evicted until, like I watched Disturb the

611
00:46:40.360 --> 00:46:43.920
live show. It just ruined it, you know, ruined the whole.

612
00:46:44.039 --> 00:46:47.159
I know, shouldn't all be about a TV show, but

613
00:46:47.280 --> 00:46:58.960
for me, this is what I enjoy. So that's why

614
00:46:59.000 --> 00:47:02.159
I'm late doing a Q Friday. And it took me

615
00:47:02.199 --> 00:47:07.760
what an hour to tell you that, Oh my goodness,

616
00:47:08.079 --> 00:47:10.719
it really did take nearly fifty minutes to tell you

617
00:47:10.760 --> 00:47:13.480
that I'm sorry. I'm going to do a Q and

618
00:47:13.480 --> 00:47:21.119
a Friday now, BlimE me. Wow, this is what this

619
00:47:21.159 --> 00:47:23.800
is what happens. This is how things work here. So

620
00:47:24.960 --> 00:47:28.039
I sometimes go on a bit. I've also got YouTube channel,

621
00:47:28.079 --> 00:47:34.960
by the way, hat Jason Newland, and it's it's a

622
00:47:34.960 --> 00:47:40.280
weird thing because it's just weird because I've been uploading

623
00:47:40.320 --> 00:47:44.920
the latest recordings all six and yeah, I don't think

624
00:47:44.920 --> 00:47:50.320
it's really working so well. But hey, oh well, so questions.

625
00:47:50.320 --> 00:47:54.639
Do I have any questions? Well, yes I do. I

626
00:47:54.840 --> 00:48:04.920
put a like a little form on my website that

627
00:48:04.960 --> 00:48:07.239
you can fill in if you've got questions for qu

628
00:48:07.360 --> 00:48:11.119
and a Friday, and I've had a few people fill

629
00:48:11.159 --> 00:48:14.679
it in this week, so I'm just check in, did

630
00:48:14.440 --> 00:48:19.440
did did did LYD, did lid so QN A fri.

631
00:48:20.760 --> 00:48:21.000
Day?

632
00:48:21.079 --> 00:48:26.000
Where is it? I saved him in a folder one, two, three, four, five,

633
00:48:26.320 --> 00:48:31.280
six questions. This might be the longest Q and a

634
00:48:31.400 --> 00:48:35.679
Friday in the history. By the way, I'm going to

635
00:48:35.760 --> 00:48:40.239
go buy order. If I miss any out, I will

636
00:48:40.280 --> 00:48:42.840
answer them next week. Okay, So I don't want this

637
00:48:42.920 --> 00:48:46.599
to be like three hours long. I've got things to do.

638
00:48:47.920 --> 00:48:52.400
So the first question is from Ann if you don't

639
00:48:52.559 --> 00:48:55.239
mind me asking. I was wondering how old Andre was

640
00:48:55.280 --> 00:49:05.400
when he passed, and yeah, yeah, he was about six

641
00:49:05.440 --> 00:49:14.000
and a half. The reason what happened basically had spying injury.

642
00:49:14.960 --> 00:49:19.119
A little kid trod on him a year earlier, like stamped,

643
00:49:19.239 --> 00:49:24.400
probably stomped on him. And you know it wasn't anyone's fault.

644
00:49:24.440 --> 00:49:25.800
Is it was a little kid. It wasn't like a

645
00:49:25.880 --> 00:49:27.400
kid that knew what he was doing. Is like a

646
00:49:27.440 --> 00:49:32.480
little toddler really well, like three years old, four years old,

647
00:49:32.880 --> 00:49:36.360
and he just stomped on him. And at the time,

648
00:49:37.840 --> 00:49:42.159
Vinnie or Vinnie Andre seemed like he was just angry.

649
00:49:43.079 --> 00:49:45.039
I picked him up and he clung clung to me,

650
00:49:45.119 --> 00:49:46.559
but at the same time he wanted to have a

651
00:49:46.599 --> 00:49:50.920
fight with his kid. I thought nothing of it, really,

652
00:49:51.039 --> 00:49:54.199
I thought I didn't like it. But the mum was

653
00:49:54.199 --> 00:49:59.079
so but apologetic and basically she called me over, can

654
00:49:59.119 --> 00:50:02.280
you can my little boy have a little look sort

655
00:50:02.280 --> 00:50:05.559
of say loo to your ferret? And I've spoken to

656
00:50:05.599 --> 00:50:09.639
her numerous times. He's a very friendly person. Still speak

657
00:50:09.719 --> 00:50:11.760
to her husband. Don't see her anymore, but I see

658
00:50:11.760 --> 00:50:15.079
her husband regularly walking the dogs. He's also really friendly,

659
00:50:16.440 --> 00:50:20.000
but the kids, we were just talking and the kid

660
00:50:20.400 --> 00:50:22.960
it happened so quick. I saw it in a peripheral

661
00:50:23.360 --> 00:50:29.199
and just see his leg raised and on Andre's scream. Anyway,

662
00:50:29.199 --> 00:50:31.960
I thought nothing of it. Really, she was like apologetic,

663
00:50:32.119 --> 00:50:34.400
like it's not your fault. We didn't know this was

664
00:50:34.400 --> 00:50:41.960
going to happen. And the next day Vinnie was struggling

665
00:50:42.000 --> 00:50:46.199
to walk Vinida Vinny, Andre was struggling to walk, and

666
00:50:47.960 --> 00:50:51.599
he was basically he couldn't walk. It was limping really badly.

667
00:50:52.880 --> 00:50:58.679
And I left it a day because I thought, ah,

668
00:50:59.199 --> 00:51:01.480
see how I am. I didn't even connect the two.

669
00:51:02.760 --> 00:51:05.440
That's how slow I am. Sometimes didn't even connect it.

670
00:51:06.800 --> 00:51:10.599
And until I took him to the vets, and the

671
00:51:10.679 --> 00:51:13.199
vets said they did an X ray on his back.

672
00:51:14.239 --> 00:51:20.000
They said he's got spinal injury, like he's been trod on.

673
00:51:20.159 --> 00:51:24.039
It was like all okay, I said, yeah, a kid

674
00:51:24.079 --> 00:51:28.159
did stomp on him, trod on him on purpose. I said, okay,

675
00:51:28.239 --> 00:51:32.519
that'll do it. And I said what now. Then he said, well,

676
00:51:34.280 --> 00:51:40.800
in these cases, quite often, especially with ferrets, I mean,

677
00:51:40.800 --> 00:51:43.000
they're prone to have this kind of thing because they're

678
00:51:43.039 --> 00:51:47.079
so bendy. If you take that flexibility away from them.

679
00:51:48.000 --> 00:51:54.079
It kind of ruins their life, really because they're so

680
00:51:54.280 --> 00:51:59.920
bendy and he once you take that away, it's you know, quality,

681
00:52:00.159 --> 00:52:04.920
not great. And the weird thing about it, he nearly parts.

682
00:52:05.159 --> 00:52:06.800
Unless it's going to say, I'm just talking about death

683
00:52:06.840 --> 00:52:12.320
on this one, but he nearly died with the anesthetic

684
00:52:12.920 --> 00:52:15.800
that he yet to have to have the the X

685
00:52:15.920 --> 00:52:18.760
ray because he wou he wouldn't stand still or sit

686
00:52:18.800 --> 00:52:22.280
still for a second. And I wasn't allowed to hold

687
00:52:22.320 --> 00:52:27.400
him because this is during the old mask covering it period,

688
00:52:28.000 --> 00:52:32.159
if you remember that. So I couldn't be in the vets,

689
00:52:32.440 --> 00:52:37.760
couldn't even be inside the building. I had to stand

690
00:52:37.760 --> 00:52:40.280
in the car park. I had to hand over the

691
00:52:40.320 --> 00:52:44.400
bag with him in it to the receptionist or to

692
00:52:44.480 --> 00:52:46.719
the vet who had a mask on. I had a

693
00:52:46.719 --> 00:52:49.840
mask on. I would stand outside. He put his long arm.

694
00:52:50.119 --> 00:52:51.719
I couldn't believe that long as im once it was

695
00:52:51.760 --> 00:52:55.239
about like eighteen foot long, and he picked it up

696
00:52:55.840 --> 00:52:59.280
and he took the bag in and I had to

697
00:52:59.320 --> 00:53:02.159
wait for him to I think he phoned me to

698
00:53:02.320 --> 00:53:05.639
let me know how he was getting on. And I

699
00:53:05.679 --> 00:53:10.639
had to pick him up the next day because he

700
00:53:10.679 --> 00:53:15.800
was really groggy with the whole anesthetic, and they didn't

701
00:53:15.840 --> 00:53:18.000
know what to do because he wasn't He was like,

702
00:53:18.360 --> 00:53:24.039
wasn't coming back, wasn't to be in fully aware. Well,

703
00:53:24.079 --> 00:53:26.280
in the end I came and got him, took him home,

704
00:53:26.760 --> 00:53:30.079
and it took about a day or so, two days

705
00:53:30.079 --> 00:53:32.719
I think, before he was normal again. He's just like

706
00:53:32.840 --> 00:53:34.960
just lying there, just looking at me. It was weird,

707
00:53:36.320 --> 00:53:42.639
like he was drunk or something. There wasn't really much

708
00:53:42.679 --> 00:53:46.039
they could do, but he recovered. I got videos of

709
00:53:46.079 --> 00:53:49.119
him limping around, and then a video of him. He

710
00:53:49.199 --> 00:53:51.000
still wanted to go for a walk, still wanted to

711
00:53:51.000 --> 00:53:55.119
do everything as before, and eventually he got it back.

712
00:53:55.320 --> 00:53:58.480
His leg was fine, or his spine was fine, and

713
00:53:58.519 --> 00:54:03.679
his mobility was perfect, so I thought. And then a

714
00:54:03.760 --> 00:54:09.440
year later, for no reason other than just the injury,

715
00:54:10.119 --> 00:54:15.960
I guess that it got worse and he was limping again,

716
00:54:16.079 --> 00:54:22.239
and there was more war going on this time, and

717
00:54:22.280 --> 00:54:25.719
we were still in the masks, the mask episode, but

718
00:54:25.800 --> 00:54:31.079
this time I was allowed inside the veterinary reception, but

719
00:54:31.039 --> 00:54:33.719
I wasn't allowed to be in No, I was. I

720
00:54:33.760 --> 00:54:36.639
was allowed to go in there with him, but were

721
00:54:36.679 --> 00:54:38.719
still you know, everyone still had to wear a mask

722
00:54:38.800 --> 00:54:42.360
and stuff, so This was like two thousand and one,

723
00:54:42.880 --> 00:54:49.280
twenty twenty one, I think, And he said he had

724
00:54:49.280 --> 00:54:54.320
another X ray. He said that the spine's gone, like

725
00:54:54.400 --> 00:54:57.440
there was just warm. It was so damaged from before

726
00:54:58.119 --> 00:55:01.559
that it didn't heal proper plague, but it healed enough

727
00:55:01.559 --> 00:55:05.199
for him to because they've already determined old ferrets are.

728
00:55:06.000 --> 00:55:08.679
They don't care. They won't let anything get in their way.

729
00:55:08.719 --> 00:55:11.679
But he wasn't eating, and that's a sign that he

730
00:55:11.719 --> 00:55:18.119
was in pain. And there was no watch. Really, Yeah,

731
00:55:23.360 --> 00:55:25.440
so that was it. That's so, yeah, six and a

732
00:55:25.440 --> 00:55:27.639
half years ago where it was the end, It was

733
00:55:27.679 --> 00:55:33.679
like June twoy twenty one wasn't six and a half

734
00:55:33.719 --> 00:55:35.159
years ago, but I think it was about six and

735
00:55:35.159 --> 00:55:37.119
a half years when I got in went when he

736
00:55:37.320 --> 00:55:43.480
passed away. Yeah, So I would try and lighten it

737
00:55:43.559 --> 00:55:49.199
up if I can. Ja. This is from Maria r

738
00:55:50.119 --> 00:55:52.159
Hi Jason. What's the longest time you ever lived in

739
00:55:52.159 --> 00:55:55.360
one place? Are there any fond child of memories that

740
00:55:55.400 --> 00:56:00.760
you can recall? Thank you? Oh, I can't think of

741
00:56:00.760 --> 00:56:04.199
any childhood memories. So the longest time I ever lived

742
00:56:04.239 --> 00:56:10.239
in one place is here this place. Never lived anywhere

743
00:56:10.239 --> 00:56:16.400
for ten years before the second longest place was I

744
00:56:16.400 --> 00:56:19.119
guess like the family home would call it that I

745
00:56:19.199 --> 00:56:26.119
lived for between the ages of nine and fifteen, So

746
00:56:26.119 --> 00:56:32.199
what's that ten nine and fifteen? Six? It's not that long?

747
00:56:32.320 --> 00:56:38.320
Is it really six years? Wow? It seemed like forever,

748
00:56:38.400 --> 00:56:41.920
but then I was young, So yeah. The second longest

749
00:56:41.920 --> 00:56:48.679
place was there was six years, and I did live

750
00:56:48.719 --> 00:56:51.639
at a couple of places for about four years each.

751
00:56:53.960 --> 00:56:56.559
When I first moved to Stratford from ninety one to

752
00:56:56.679 --> 00:57:02.719
ninety four, well three and a half years, so I

753
00:57:02.760 --> 00:57:05.480
spent three and a half years living in that room

754
00:57:06.000 --> 00:57:09.000
and there was another room in Stratford where I moved in.

755
00:57:10.920 --> 00:57:19.239
Was it probably about June to June nineteen ninety seven.

756
00:57:19.840 --> 00:57:30.599
I moved out the summer two thousand and one, so yeah,

757
00:57:30.639 --> 00:57:35.000
that's four I was there for about four years, evicted

758
00:57:35.000 --> 00:57:40.119
from there. And when I was at university, I stayed

759
00:57:40.119 --> 00:57:48.840
in a place in a room from November nineteen ninety no,

760
00:57:49.000 --> 00:58:00.599
two thousand and seven, and I moved out. I spelled

761
00:58:00.639 --> 00:58:07.840
like March two thousand and eleven, two thousand and eleven, Yeah,

762
00:58:08.960 --> 00:58:15.440
so what's that two thousand and seven, November two thousand

763
00:58:15.480 --> 00:58:19.920
and eight, two thousand and nine, twenty ten, so again

764
00:58:20.039 --> 00:58:32.360
that's three years and probably three months. Yeah, I mean

765
00:58:32.559 --> 00:58:38.760
I lived at them set the YMCA from September two

766
00:58:38.800 --> 00:58:48.119
thousand and one until about March two thousand and four.

767
00:58:48.639 --> 00:58:52.119
But I lived in three different studio apartments. There were

768
00:58:52.159 --> 00:58:55.760
studio flats, so I didn't stay in the same place,

769
00:58:56.400 --> 00:58:58.320
but I moved around because I just started trying to

770
00:58:58.320 --> 00:59:03.119
find somewhere quiet. But you know, technically in the same well,

771
00:59:03.440 --> 00:59:06.800
not technically, I was literally in the same building. It's

772
00:59:06.840 --> 00:59:10.719
a very big building. From September two thousand and one,

773
00:59:11.480 --> 00:59:18.519
two thousand and two, two thousand and three. That's two years,

774
00:59:18.599 --> 00:59:23.320
and for two and a half years, I suppose I

775
00:59:23.400 --> 00:59:33.920
was living there. This seemed a lot longer at the time. No, yes, no,

776
00:59:37.400 --> 00:59:41.840
blind me see. It was weird because if I'd have

777
00:59:41.880 --> 00:59:45.199
stayed there, i'd have got I would have been shortlisted

778
00:59:45.239 --> 00:59:51.400
to get a council flat. That's not why I moved

779
00:59:51.400 --> 00:59:52.880
in there. I moved in there because it's the only

780
00:59:52.920 --> 00:59:57.159
place I could find anywhere to live when I moved

781
00:59:57.159 --> 00:59:59.159
from London, because I had a job to start and

782
00:59:59.199 --> 01:00:02.639
I could not find anywhere get a room or anything,

783
01:00:03.760 --> 01:00:09.519
and they basically I phoned them up. I had a

784
01:00:09.559 --> 01:00:13.719
friend say try to YMCA. So I did, and they said, yeah,

785
01:00:13.719 --> 01:00:16.000
we've got a place for you if you want to come.

786
01:00:16.079 --> 01:00:20.559
Never look tomorrow or Monday or whenever. Yeah, this is

787
01:00:20.559 --> 01:00:23.920
on I think this is on a Saturday. And I said, yeah,

788
01:00:23.960 --> 01:00:25.400
if you want to come Monday and have a look.

789
01:00:26.159 --> 01:00:34.199
Really yeah, because at the time I was staying in Yeah,

790
01:00:34.320 --> 01:00:37.000
I was staying in a bed and breakfast because I

791
01:00:37.079 --> 01:00:43.000
just started the job September I think it was the ninth.

792
01:00:44.840 --> 01:00:47.800
I think ninth September ninth, two thousand and one.

793
01:00:47.840 --> 01:00:48.199
It was a.

794
01:00:48.159 --> 01:00:54.880
Monday, I think, and I I stayed in the bed

795
01:00:54.960 --> 01:01:01.559
and Breakfast. I moved in on a Sunday, stayed in

796
01:01:01.599 --> 01:01:05.039
the bed and breakfast. I was still I was DJing

797
01:01:05.039 --> 01:01:10.000
in London, so I s I had my weekend hobby

798
01:01:10.199 --> 01:01:13.719
as a DJ. I didn't want to give that up,

799
01:01:13.760 --> 01:01:18.280
but I had to. But luckily I had three weeks

800
01:01:18.280 --> 01:01:21.639
where I could still do it, and then I had

801
01:01:21.679 --> 01:01:24.159
to give it up because I was moving away. But

802
01:01:24.199 --> 01:01:27.239
at this point what I was doing is going to London,

803
01:01:28.280 --> 01:01:32.480
staying over in London, and then coming back Sunday evening.

804
01:01:34.480 --> 01:01:37.320
So I think I did two weeks in the bed

805
01:01:37.320 --> 01:01:42.719
and Breakfast, but it was expensive. You know, I was not.

806
01:01:43.280 --> 01:01:47.320
I didn't have I hadn't hurt that I will learn

807
01:01:47.440 --> 01:01:52.239
to speak one day. I hadn't earned any money yet

808
01:01:54.440 --> 01:02:01.239
because I'd only done two weeks of work, So I

809
01:02:01.239 --> 01:02:02.960
I'm not quite sure how I got by it, but

810
01:02:04.079 --> 01:02:12.239
I did stop moaning. Finny, You like, why can't the

811
01:02:12.400 --> 01:02:20.400
sounds you make make me feel nice? That like it

812
01:02:20.440 --> 01:02:25.719
winds me up because it's just like, he's never never satisfied,

813
01:02:25.760 --> 01:02:30.400
don't you You're never satisfied? Well, no treat, but he

814
01:02:30.480 --> 01:02:38.039
had that whining just greats me a little bit. Sometimes.

815
01:02:38.440 --> 01:02:43.800
Come on, It's just like I wish they could talk

816
01:02:43.840 --> 01:02:49.000
so I could really know what he's talking about. And

817
01:02:49.039 --> 01:02:51.679
he's probably thinking, you know, I just want to Every

818
01:02:51.679 --> 01:02:53.440
time I go up to my daddy and I just

819
01:02:53.480 --> 01:02:55.280
want to talk about and ask him about his day,

820
01:02:55.320 --> 01:02:57.840
he sticks a treat in my mouth. I don't even

821
01:02:57.840 --> 01:02:59.599
want to treat. I don't even like him. I eat

822
01:02:59.599 --> 01:03:04.119
them just please him. I was just yeah, Okay, that's

823
01:03:04.159 --> 01:03:05.079
not likely, is it?

824
01:03:07.760 --> 01:03:07.840
So?

825
01:03:08.000 --> 01:03:10.960
Yeah, I'm trying to think, are there any fond childed

826
01:03:11.039 --> 01:03:23.320
memories that you can recall? Yeah? I'm sure there was loads.

827
01:03:25.519 --> 01:03:36.840
Recalling them is another thing I mean, Christmases were always good,

828
01:03:37.800 --> 01:03:43.440
like during the period between the ages of seven and fourteen.

829
01:03:47.920 --> 01:03:50.760
Things when even fifteen, but things have got a bit

830
01:03:50.920 --> 01:03:57.119
stressed at home by then. But during that period Christmases

831
01:03:57.159 --> 01:04:04.079
were brilliant. So every Christmas was great pretty much when

832
01:04:04.119 --> 01:04:06.599
I was a kid at tween the ages of seven

833
01:04:06.719 --> 01:04:15.320
and fourteen, every Christmas and unless I'm forgetting stuff, but

834
01:04:15.840 --> 01:04:19.920
generally I don't have I supdally. When I got a bike,

835
01:04:20.400 --> 01:04:24.119
that was cool because it was the only time I

836
01:04:24.159 --> 01:04:27.599
really got something. I was always happy what I got

837
01:04:27.639 --> 01:04:31.920
I got. That's the one thing about my parents at

838
01:04:31.920 --> 01:04:35.800
the time, very generous when it came to Christmas and

839
01:04:35.920 --> 01:04:40.159
birthdays and stuff like that. It can't be no way

840
01:04:40.239 --> 01:04:42.599
can then be folwed for that. It was so generous.

841
01:04:43.440 --> 01:04:49.119
I had multiple presents, loads and loads of thads, so

842
01:04:49.199 --> 01:04:53.599
it was brilliant. But only once did I you know

843
01:04:53.679 --> 01:04:56.519
that this I don't know, maybe it's the same four kids.

844
01:04:56.760 --> 01:05:00.960
There was that one present as a kid that you want,

845
01:05:01.679 --> 01:05:06.639
you want father Christmas to bring you and mine did.

846
01:05:07.119 --> 01:05:08.599
I did get that, and it was a bike. It

847
01:05:08.679 --> 01:05:17.480
was a racer and I was probably thirteen at the time.

848
01:05:17.960 --> 01:05:20.519
I had a paper around and I just wanted. I

849
01:05:20.639 --> 01:05:23.880
needed a bike to get me around because it was

850
01:05:24.000 --> 01:05:28.559
taking me so long. And I was yeah, so yeah,

851
01:05:28.599 --> 01:05:32.360
I got my bike for Christmas. It's brilliant. It's very

852
01:05:32.639 --> 01:05:40.239
very please, best present I ever had. And I'm trying

853
01:05:40.280 --> 01:05:47.599
to think, Yeah, so that was always good. And I

854
01:05:47.679 --> 01:05:50.360
used to like going to the library on my own.

855
01:05:51.199 --> 01:05:56.119
That was nice. When I discovered the library, the library

856
01:05:56.119 --> 01:05:59.679
became kind of like a second home for me. I

857
01:06:00.480 --> 01:06:04.400
loved going in there, reading the books, sitting down reading

858
01:06:04.400 --> 01:06:07.400
the books, going through every single book on the shelf,

859
01:06:08.199 --> 01:06:10.960
having a little dip. You know, that sounded weird, but

860
01:06:11.000 --> 01:06:12.480
you know what I mean, I look dipping in and

861
01:06:12.519 --> 01:06:19.119
have a little read. There was up upstairs. There was this,

862
01:06:20.920 --> 01:06:26.039
I don't know, like a partition thing upstairs where there

863
01:06:26.159 --> 01:06:32.119
was these kind of like encyclopedias and there's a big tables.

864
01:06:32.159 --> 01:06:35.679
So I suppose the research area maybe they would call it.

865
01:06:36.880 --> 01:06:39.760
And I went through a period when I was researching

866
01:06:42.119 --> 01:06:46.760
things that's very interested in. I don't want to say

867
01:06:46.760 --> 01:06:49.320
the occult because that sounds a bit bad, but I

868
01:06:49.360 --> 01:06:57.239
was really interested in were wolves and witches and vampires

869
01:06:58.800 --> 01:07:02.679
and all that stuff just fascinated me. I was interested

870
01:07:02.679 --> 01:07:06.880
in UFOs, and I just I'd literally go in and

871
01:07:06.920 --> 01:07:12.320
I would do my own research on a subject. So

872
01:07:12.400 --> 01:07:17.719
I researched vampires and Dracula and Led the Impaler, and

873
01:07:17.800 --> 01:07:20.320
I just I researched that. I went through all the

874
01:07:20.360 --> 01:07:23.960
different books and I copied out they what they wrote

875
01:07:24.559 --> 01:07:28.760
into my own pads, just for me. It was not

876
01:07:28.800 --> 01:07:36.519
for I wouldn't you wouldn't find me doing homework at all,

877
01:07:38.760 --> 01:07:42.639
but this, yeah, I was. There was no reason for it.

878
01:07:42.719 --> 01:07:47.920
I just got obsessed. So that's what I did. That

879
01:07:48.039 --> 01:07:52.920
was brilliant. I'd spent hours doing that. I'd love that.

880
01:07:53.239 --> 01:07:56.719
And I'd had only three or four five big massive

881
01:07:56.800 --> 01:07:58.679
textbooks out and I'd just been looking at all the

882
01:07:58.719 --> 01:08:04.360
different pictures and yeah, loved it to Yeah, absolutely loved

883
01:08:04.360 --> 01:08:19.399
it and reading. I think my favorite bit was when

884
01:08:19.399 --> 01:08:21.720
none of the family were around, when I could just

885
01:08:21.760 --> 01:08:24.840
be I didn't mind, obviously if they were around, but

886
01:08:25.239 --> 01:08:28.359
not around me, so I could be left on my

887
01:08:28.399 --> 01:08:34.039
own quiet. One of my favorite things to do. And

888
01:08:34.079 --> 01:08:41.680
I'm thinking back when I was like maybe ten eleven, ten, yeah,

889
01:08:41.720 --> 01:08:53.119
probably about ten, I would lie down on my Yeah,

890
01:08:53.279 --> 01:08:56.600
I'd lie down on the bed and I'd listen to

891
01:08:57.079 --> 01:09:00.920
classical music. There was an album which was basically the

892
01:09:03.359 --> 01:09:15.640
a lot of really really big movie scores. There's what

893
01:09:15.800 --> 01:09:19.760
was that do you Do Do do a million dollars?

894
01:09:20.399 --> 01:09:24.560
Fist full of million dollars or whatever, and there was

895
01:09:24.640 --> 01:09:31.079
the Pretty Star Wars and Superman. Definitely Superman because they

896
01:09:31.119 --> 01:09:36.239
had the long version where Louis Lane is actually talking

897
01:09:36.560 --> 01:09:39.680
in them in the song and it's the bit where

898
01:09:39.680 --> 01:09:44.760
they're singing no, it is a bit where they're yeah,

899
01:09:44.800 --> 01:09:47.239
there's a bit. There's some music from a Superman where

900
01:09:48.079 --> 01:09:51.079
she's flying with him or he's holding her and flying

901
01:09:51.119 --> 01:09:54.199
with her, and it's like a romantic one. And there's

902
01:09:54.239 --> 01:09:57.439
a song that it's really nice song. But anyway, I

903
01:09:57.520 --> 01:10:00.439
used to do that. I just lay down on the back,

904
01:10:00.880 --> 01:10:06.439
listened to the music and relax. When I was about ten,

905
01:10:08.680 --> 01:10:14.960
So that was a nice memory. Every time I visited

906
01:10:15.079 --> 01:10:22.119
my uncle, my uncle Terry, that was a nice memory

907
01:10:22.159 --> 01:10:28.720
because he was so brilliant. It was just lovely. It

908
01:10:28.760 --> 01:10:31.439
was lovely. I mean, yeah, he had money, but that

909
01:10:31.560 --> 01:10:34.199
wasn't the reason he was lovely. He was just lovely,

910
01:10:35.960 --> 01:10:40.840
best uncle you could wish for. So I visited him

911
01:10:41.159 --> 01:10:43.640
a few times, a couple of times when I was

912
01:10:43.640 --> 01:10:50.840
a bit older when I was in my teens, and

913
01:10:50.880 --> 01:10:54.279
it always treated me with respect, always treated me like

914
01:10:54.359 --> 01:10:57.840
a human, but didn't talk down to me. He didn't

915
01:10:57.840 --> 01:11:03.520
treat me like I was a kid, and he showed interest,

916
01:11:06.600 --> 01:11:09.560
and it was like almost like I was an equal

917
01:11:12.039 --> 01:11:14.319
in a way, in a weird way, and he was,

918
01:11:15.039 --> 01:11:17.039
you know, he's fairly well off. He was a wealthy

919
01:11:17.479 --> 01:11:20.479
owned his own shipping company. This is back in Dover,

920
01:11:21.520 --> 01:11:23.159
so he was, you know as well. Af lived in

921
01:11:23.199 --> 01:11:29.479
a really large house on the beach in deal or something.

922
01:11:29.560 --> 01:11:34.439
Can't deal with her so lovely though, And as someone

923
01:11:34.439 --> 01:11:35.960
said to me, oh yeah, it's easy to be nice

924
01:11:35.960 --> 01:11:39.399
if you're rich, Like I don't think it's that simple.

925
01:11:40.359 --> 01:11:44.319
It's not. It's a very simple way to look at it.

926
01:11:44.319 --> 01:11:50.640
It's there's nothing wrong with being wealthy. And I've met

927
01:11:50.680 --> 01:11:56.640
plenty of people that weren't so nice were now wealthy.

928
01:11:57.319 --> 01:12:00.000
And I've met lots of people that were really nice

929
01:12:00.359 --> 01:12:05.960
when they were had no money, but also met really

930
01:12:06.880 --> 01:12:12.039
unpleasant people that had no money as well. It's I

931
01:12:12.039 --> 01:12:14.800
think it's down to the personality and not what's in

932
01:12:14.840 --> 01:12:19.680
their bank account. I'm guessing that's just my personal take

933
01:12:19.720 --> 01:12:24.319
on it. But he was lovely and it can't be

934
01:12:24.439 --> 01:12:30.079
changed that those memories. And I think the fact that

935
01:12:30.119 --> 01:12:32.079
he left me left me to do what I wanted

936
01:12:32.119 --> 01:12:34.880
to do. By that, I don't mean I was left

937
01:12:34.920 --> 01:12:37.359
on my own, but he's just like if I wanted

938
01:12:37.359 --> 01:12:39.800
to go into a different room and watch movies on

939
01:12:39.840 --> 01:12:46.600
my own, I could and that was quite nice because

940
01:12:46.640 --> 01:12:49.079
I didn't really get to do that like at home

941
01:12:49.119 --> 01:12:54.079
because there's so many of us. So I think any

942
01:12:54.199 --> 01:12:58.840
time my family wasn't around, I was kind of happier.

943
01:13:00.239 --> 01:13:05.079
I think it was just crowd too many people constantly

944
01:13:05.199 --> 01:13:09.239
arguing between my brothers and me, they bring me into

945
01:13:09.319 --> 01:13:11.840
it as well. I'd probably argue more with my middle

946
01:13:11.880 --> 01:13:15.479
brother than with my oldest brother, but then he would

947
01:13:15.479 --> 01:13:20.800
probably argue with They would argue amongst themselves more as well,

948
01:13:20.840 --> 01:13:23.720
because it's like the age, because there was two years

949
01:13:23.800 --> 01:13:26.479
to me and my middle brother, those two years through

950
01:13:26.520 --> 01:13:30.560
my middle brother and my oldest brother, but that four

951
01:13:30.640 --> 01:13:35.439
year gap meant that we weren't really very different in age,

952
01:13:36.399 --> 01:13:40.439
so we didn't have so much to argue about. And

953
01:13:40.479 --> 01:13:42.479
then my little brother was eight years younger than me,

954
01:13:42.920 --> 01:13:47.319
so no one really argued with him until he got

955
01:13:47.319 --> 01:13:53.399
to about probably five or six, and then yeah, it

956
01:13:53.479 --> 01:14:02.039
was a bit of a bit of a little ruffian. Yeah,

957
01:14:02.159 --> 01:14:07.119
so I don't what do I want memories see one

958
01:14:07.119 --> 01:14:09.920
of my fondest memories. And it's going to be weird

959
01:14:09.920 --> 01:14:14.159
for anyone that from the UK that knows the person

960
01:14:14.199 --> 01:14:21.880
I'm mentioning. But my school, and I think it was

961
01:14:22.039 --> 01:14:31.520
nineteen seventy nine, maybe nineteen eighty. My school was on

962
01:14:31.560 --> 01:14:38.520
the Rolf Harris Show and we rehearsed for months before

963
01:14:38.600 --> 01:14:44.880
that before the filming. At the time, Rolf Harris was

964
01:14:45.079 --> 01:14:51.319
super famous in his country and it travel around different

965
01:14:51.399 --> 01:14:55.159
schools and they'd be singing and dancing and all that stuff.

966
01:14:56.279 --> 01:15:00.079
The thing is it wasn't filmed in the schools that

967
01:15:00.239 --> 01:15:03.680
their own studio that they filmed it in, but it

968
01:15:03.760 --> 01:15:06.119
was it was a school. It looked like a school,

969
01:15:06.920 --> 01:15:08.800
and it probably was a school, to be fair, but

970
01:15:09.119 --> 01:15:13.520
it was maybe they used it during the summertime. But

971
01:15:13.600 --> 01:15:16.960
then make out it was the school, you know, the

972
01:15:17.039 --> 01:15:20.199
actual school that makes sense, the school that they were visiting.

973
01:15:21.039 --> 01:15:27.479
So it wasn't just the it wasn't just the whole day,

974
01:15:27.680 --> 01:15:32.239
the traveling with all the kids, because you know, the

975
01:15:32.319 --> 01:15:35.960
whole school wasn't just like one year, so there's probably

976
01:15:37.399 --> 01:15:39.800
I don't know how many coachfuls of kids there was.

977
01:15:42.119 --> 01:15:48.079
We were all The rehearsing bit was really fun, so

978
01:15:48.079 --> 01:15:51.159
there's a lot of singing, a lot of dancing, you know.

979
01:15:52.960 --> 01:15:55.520
The sixth well I say six maybe maybe it's three

980
01:15:55.560 --> 01:15:58.319
months leading up to, but it seemed like quite a

981
01:15:58.359 --> 01:16:04.239
long time. And I think Rolf Harris came around and

982
01:16:04.239 --> 01:16:07.359
saw us first at the school to announce that he

983
01:16:07.439 --> 01:16:10.920
was going to be having us on his show, and

984
01:16:11.920 --> 01:16:14.960
it was one of the biggest shows on Saturday night TV,

985
01:16:15.520 --> 01:16:21.079
early TV, and he did a different different school each week,

986
01:16:21.880 --> 01:16:25.880
so it was exciting. The build up was exciting, the

987
01:16:25.920 --> 01:16:30.159
actual event was brilliant. I was on Camra quite a

988
01:16:30.199 --> 01:16:35.119
few times and I said I was like nine or ten.

989
01:16:36.479 --> 01:16:39.640
I'm not sure exactly that the act exact year is

990
01:16:39.680 --> 01:16:46.039
even nineteen seventy nine or nineteen nineteen eighty. It could

991
01:16:46.039 --> 01:16:50.520
be eighty one, because i'd have been ten in eighty one. Yes,

992
01:16:50.800 --> 01:16:52.920
maybe it was eighty one. I think it was nineteen eighty.

993
01:16:53.560 --> 01:17:00.560
I think it was brilliant, absolutely one of the best

994
01:17:00.640 --> 01:17:06.439
days of my childhood. So yeah, I mean Rolph House

995
01:17:06.600 --> 01:17:11.439
is no longer around and see Yeah, things didn't go

996
01:17:11.640 --> 01:17:16.119
quite so well with him and his career, but it

997
01:17:16.159 --> 01:17:18.279
doesn't take away the fact that that was one of

998
01:17:18.319 --> 01:17:26.000
the highlights of my childhood positive highlights. What else childed

999
01:17:26.199 --> 01:17:32.920
fond childed memories that I can recall. There was a

1000
01:17:32.960 --> 01:17:36.640
period when my dad was in a good mood. I

1001
01:17:36.239 --> 01:17:41.560
don't quite know why, but I remember coming home from school.

1002
01:17:42.079 --> 01:17:43.680
So I was a teenager at this point, so I

1003
01:17:43.680 --> 01:17:52.800
would have been probably thirteen, maybe twelve thirteen, and his

1004
01:17:55.439 --> 01:17:57.600
I don't know what it is he went. There was

1005
01:17:57.640 --> 01:18:00.439
this little period when he was buying stuff, so he

1006
01:18:00.600 --> 01:18:05.560
bought a new computer. And even though I don't have

1007
01:18:06.359 --> 01:18:12.199
they had no interest in computers back then, the fact

1008
01:18:12.239 --> 01:18:17.439
that everyone was happy was nice. My dad was excited,

1009
01:18:18.000 --> 01:18:21.399
My brothers were excited. My middle brother was more excited

1010
01:18:21.399 --> 01:18:24.840
than anyone about the computer, and he was learning to

1011
01:18:24.960 --> 01:18:30.199
code and all kinds of stuff. But it was just

1012
01:18:30.439 --> 01:18:34.760
and yeah, it was nice because it was a nice atmosphere.

1013
01:18:36.079 --> 01:18:43.359
So that happened a few times. Those kinds of things, Yeah,

1014
01:18:44.279 --> 01:18:48.520
I did. I'm never really I don't think I ever

1015
01:18:48.640 --> 01:18:53.199
really felt like I am superstitious. But I tried to

1016
01:18:53.279 --> 01:18:57.000
do the exact same walk and tried to do everything

1017
01:18:57.079 --> 01:19:02.720
the same as I did that day and on the

1018
01:19:02.760 --> 01:19:05.920
same day of the week, to see if I get

1019
01:19:05.960 --> 01:19:09.199
the same result. So I got home and things were nice.

1020
01:19:10.600 --> 01:19:13.000
It's weird. I'd be like looking at the floor at

1021
01:19:13.039 --> 01:19:16.359
which bit did I walk on? How did I feel?

1022
01:19:17.560 --> 01:19:19.760
What was I listening to? Or do you know? Just

1023
01:19:19.840 --> 01:19:23.159
really trying to focus on getting into that zone of

1024
01:19:24.479 --> 01:19:28.800
if I could get into the same zone, the same mindset,

1025
01:19:29.239 --> 01:19:32.439
feeling exactly the same way as I did the day

1026
01:19:32.520 --> 01:19:36.920
when I got home and the computer was there and

1027
01:19:37.319 --> 01:19:39.359
he was in a good mood and everyone was like

1028
01:19:39.439 --> 01:19:43.000
happy past. If I could get into that, then the

1029
01:19:43.039 --> 01:19:45.840
same would happen again, not a new computer, but just

1030
01:19:46.520 --> 01:19:53.720
it'd be the same vibe. And yeah, that's that's what

1031
01:19:53.800 --> 01:20:02.279
I used to try and do. One of my happy memories.

1032
01:20:02.439 --> 01:20:05.720
I think when I was a kid, Saturday evenings is nice.

1033
01:20:06.279 --> 01:20:10.920
Quite often we'd all sit down watch TV. When I

1034
01:20:10.920 --> 01:20:14.560
was really young, I would sit lay on my front

1035
01:20:15.720 --> 01:20:19.239
watching TV. I'd be on the floor. They want to

1036
01:20:19.279 --> 01:20:19.880
go a bit older.

1037
01:20:19.880 --> 01:20:20.319
I was.

1038
01:20:22.800 --> 01:20:22.920
Well.

1039
01:20:22.960 --> 01:20:24.920
I was told I couldn't because my bomb was too big.

1040
01:20:25.039 --> 01:20:27.560
No one could see the TV. That's not true. I

1041
01:20:27.560 --> 01:20:30.840
don't know why I said it, and so we're all

1042
01:20:30.920 --> 01:20:34.760
over dressing gowns on. Would have eaten at dinner, which

1043
01:20:34.880 --> 01:20:40.279
was usually like in the evening, like a snack kind

1044
01:20:40.319 --> 01:20:43.479
of like crisps, the buffet kind of thing that would

1045
01:20:43.520 --> 01:20:49.399
have So that was nice. Then we'd watch TV or

1046
01:20:49.479 --> 01:20:56.560
like TV shows early evening and I'd probably be in

1047
01:20:56.600 --> 01:21:00.199
bed at eight or whatever time I don't know. By

1048
01:21:00.279 --> 01:21:06.279
them addressing gown on get a bag of sweets, which

1049
01:21:06.319 --> 01:21:13.680
is cool. So yeah, those were nice. And then there

1050
01:21:13.760 --> 01:21:16.800
was the period when we didn't always do it, but

1051
01:21:16.840 --> 01:21:21.800
there was appeared when we had Yeah, we used to

1052
01:21:21.840 --> 01:21:26.199
get videos, not not every week, but when we did

1053
01:21:26.199 --> 01:21:29.680
get videos, we'd get like four movies maybe on a

1054
01:21:29.760 --> 01:21:32.840
Friday night, maybe Saturday night, and we'd be able to

1055
01:21:32.920 --> 01:21:34.680
keep it for the weekend and take it back on

1056
01:21:34.720 --> 01:21:38.399
the Sunday or Monday or something like that. This is

1057
01:21:38.439 --> 01:21:45.199
like early days of the video take cossette.

1058
01:21:43.800 --> 01:21:44.199
And.

1059
01:21:45.840 --> 01:21:47.880
That used to be brilliant, going down to the video

1060
01:21:47.960 --> 01:21:54.199
shop and we'd all go down together and try and

1061
01:21:54.279 --> 01:22:02.680
choose some movies together and yeah, great, yeah, I think

1062
01:22:02.760 --> 01:22:04.560
we were allowed to take it back Monday. So what

1063
01:22:04.600 --> 01:22:07.960
we did is we took it back so we'd rent

1064
01:22:09.199 --> 01:22:12.720
or was it Sunday afternoon, So my dad would take

1065
01:22:12.800 --> 01:22:15.520
us up there in the car and we'd get the stuff,

1066
01:22:15.760 --> 01:22:17.279
and then one of us or a couple of us

1067
01:22:17.319 --> 01:22:20.720
would walk back and take the tapes backs down the seafront,

1068
01:22:21.159 --> 01:22:30.159
probably about thirty forty minute walk. Unless it was Monday,

1069
01:22:30.199 --> 01:22:32.800
we had to take it back. It's not really that relevant,

1070
01:22:32.800 --> 01:22:37.359
but yeah, that was cool. That was nice. I liked that.

1071
01:22:37.600 --> 01:22:44.439
I used to look forward to that childhood memories. Probably

1072
01:22:44.640 --> 01:22:48.000
some of my favorite childhood memories was when I got

1073
01:22:48.039 --> 01:22:55.600
my first television. I was fourteen, and it was a

1074
01:22:55.640 --> 01:23:03.119
black and white Poorboll TV. And it was the first

1075
01:23:03.479 --> 01:23:08.880
time that I had any kind of say of what

1076
01:23:08.920 --> 01:23:14.279
I watched outside of being in the living room on

1077
01:23:14.399 --> 01:23:17.000
my own, you know, because there's stuff I used to

1078
01:23:17.000 --> 01:23:18.680
be able to watch when I was a kid that

1079
01:23:18.760 --> 01:23:22.880
no one else watched, like Grange Hill. My little brother

1080
01:23:23.039 --> 01:23:26.520
was too young to watch it, and both my older

1081
01:23:26.560 --> 01:23:28.720
brothers were too old to watch it. So it was

1082
01:23:28.720 --> 01:23:31.039
a time when I had the TV to myself for

1083
01:23:31.079 --> 01:23:34.720
about an hour and a half two hours sometimes, you know,

1084
01:23:34.760 --> 01:23:40.880
when I was around about the maybe twelve mark, i'd watch, Yeah,

1085
01:23:40.880 --> 01:23:45.119
I'd watch Grange Hill. For example. My brothers were too old.

1086
01:23:45.199 --> 01:23:49.399
They like, wouldn't watch that no more. I remember watching

1087
01:23:51.079 --> 01:23:57.479
Mister Merlin. But then there was a period when when

1088
01:23:57.479 --> 01:23:59.840
my little brother was old enough, we used to watch

1089
01:24:01.039 --> 01:24:07.479
cartoons together, so things like Musca Hounds, what other ones,

1090
01:24:10.199 --> 01:24:27.439
Danger Mouse, Mighty Mouse, Scooby Doo, the Muppet Babies. So

1091
01:24:27.520 --> 01:24:29.920
this is something. I don't think my little brother even

1092
01:24:29.960 --> 01:24:34.119
remembered this, but he there was this. There was a film.

1093
01:24:34.399 --> 01:24:36.319
I sent him a birthday card with it once on it,

1094
01:24:36.399 --> 01:24:39.039
and he didn't I think he remembered how to point

1095
01:24:39.079 --> 01:24:41.760
out what it was. And it was a movie called

1096
01:24:41.920 --> 01:24:50.840
Animal Olympics, Animal Impics. He watched it over and over

1097
01:24:51.800 --> 01:24:56.720
and over and over and over and over again. I

1098
01:24:56.760 --> 01:25:02.239
mean probably hundreds of times. That is his favorite movie.

1099
01:25:03.960 --> 01:25:06.920
He just loved watching it. I'm not sure how much

1100
01:25:06.960 --> 01:25:09.840
he understood what was going on because he was little,

1101
01:25:10.000 --> 01:25:13.319
really little, but he loved watching it. And I sent

1102
01:25:13.399 --> 01:25:15.319
him a birthday card a couple of years back with

1103
01:25:16.359 --> 01:25:20.600
like an image from that, and he didn't know what

1104
01:25:20.640 --> 01:25:25.920
it was. I don't think I should tell him one day, well,

1105
01:25:25.920 --> 01:25:28.119
you have to move in here, you want another tree? Yeah,

1106
01:25:28.119 --> 01:25:31.600
that's what it is. This is what we're doing. We're

1107
01:25:31.640 --> 01:25:38.840
just feeding, feeding, feeding, feeding food food. Well, i'll put

1108
01:25:38.840 --> 01:25:43.000
it on there. I'll see if he takes up. Yeah,

1109
01:25:43.199 --> 01:25:45.479
when he really wants something, I could put it on

1110
01:25:45.520 --> 01:25:49.199
a chandelier if like, I've got a schandelier, but I

1111
01:25:49.239 --> 01:25:51.479
could put it like high up on the ceiling and

1112
01:25:51.720 --> 01:25:55.880
still get to it. Any our childhood memories, there probably

1113
01:25:55.920 --> 01:26:04.319
are a few. Can't really think of anything right now. Yeah,

1114
01:26:04.520 --> 01:26:08.159
just a few little bits every now and then. Having

1115
01:26:08.199 --> 01:26:10.560
my appendix out, that's one of the best memories of

1116
01:26:10.600 --> 01:26:15.319
my life. That was brilliant being in hospital again, I

1117
01:26:15.319 --> 01:26:18.079
think partly because I was away from the family. It

1118
01:26:18.119 --> 01:26:23.840
was a bit of peace and quiet really, and yeah,

1119
01:26:23.960 --> 01:26:31.239
I loved that. That was brilliant. Another time would be

1120
01:26:32.279 --> 01:26:34.119
I had it by in my mind just now and

1121
01:26:34.159 --> 01:26:40.720
it's gone. Well, that was weird my stomach. Oh yeah,

1122
01:26:40.800 --> 01:26:44.880
chicken pox. I loved having chicken pox because I didn't

1123
01:26:44.880 --> 01:26:48.399
have to go to school. It was brilliant, and it

1124
01:26:48.439 --> 01:26:52.199
was snowing outside, so I was there. Basically, I think

1125
01:26:52.199 --> 01:26:55.039
my oldest brother got it first. We all kind of

1126
01:26:55.039 --> 01:26:57.600
took turns getting it, so it was only I think

1127
01:26:57.640 --> 01:27:00.720
it was a point where I had to stay because

1128
01:27:01.079 --> 01:27:05.640
too many of my family had it. So I got

1129
01:27:05.680 --> 01:27:08.079
like two weeks off work, off work, off school, I

1130
01:27:08.119 --> 01:27:13.880
think because I had to be contaminated or whatever they

1131
01:27:13.920 --> 01:27:18.960
call it contained. And I did get it, and it

1132
01:27:19.039 --> 01:27:22.960
was brilliant. It was so cool to not have to

1133
01:27:23.000 --> 01:27:25.479
go to school. I mean, that's one of the benefits

1134
01:27:25.520 --> 01:27:28.159
of having the appendix out. Didn't have to go to

1135
01:27:28.159 --> 01:27:31.159
school for a couple of weeks, didn't have to go

1136
01:27:31.279 --> 01:27:40.479
to school with the older chicken pox. I just remember

1137
01:27:40.560 --> 01:27:46.000
sitting indoors, drawing and things like that. It was snowing outside.

1138
01:27:46.920 --> 01:27:49.359
Maybe a bit of music playing, I don't know, there was.

1139
01:27:49.640 --> 01:27:52.560
The whole family was in but everyone was quite chilled out.

1140
01:27:53.640 --> 01:27:59.399
We were just enjoying, enjoying it. Yeah, that was nice.

1141
01:28:00.880 --> 01:28:05.520
Basically illness, anything involved illness, it might I wasn't ill

1142
01:28:05.560 --> 01:28:08.680
with it. I wasn't ill with chicken pox. I mean

1143
01:28:08.720 --> 01:28:13.000
I got it. I had the blotches, bit itchy, that's it.

1144
01:28:13.000 --> 01:28:18.439
It wasn't nothing for me. That wasn't being ill. And appendicitis.

1145
01:28:19.439 --> 01:28:22.720
I I didn't really have it. I don't know I

1146
01:28:22.760 --> 01:28:28.039
had appendicitis. I was trying to get off off school,

1147
01:28:28.680 --> 01:28:30.960
so I kept using the thing about having a stomach ache,

1148
01:28:31.000 --> 01:28:34.399
and I did have a stomach ache, but I don't

1149
01:28:34.439 --> 01:28:36.239
know if it was appendicitis. I think it might have

1150
01:28:36.279 --> 01:28:40.760
been grumbling appendix or something. But they took it out anyway,

1151
01:28:40.920 --> 01:28:44.840
which was a win win situation for me. It was

1152
01:28:44.920 --> 01:28:48.960
just great. I just yeah. I mean, I was thinking,

1153
01:28:49.199 --> 01:28:51.159
at this rate, I'm going to run out of body

1154
01:28:51.159 --> 01:28:53.520
parts because I was trying to work out what else

1155
01:28:53.560 --> 01:28:57.039
can I have removed to get another two weeks off school.

1156
01:28:58.359 --> 01:29:10.520
But it didn't come to that. Other things. There's a

1157
01:29:10.520 --> 01:29:13.439
few bits, and bobsessed a few of them anyway. So

1158
01:29:15.720 --> 01:29:20.720
Georgie asks, do you have a hidden talent? I don't haven't.

1159
01:29:21.159 --> 01:29:24.319
I don't even have any on show, never mind any

1160
01:29:24.359 --> 01:29:33.439
hidden ones. I ain't got no talents. No, I don't. Yeah,

1161
01:29:33.520 --> 01:29:38.520
I do think so, I don't know. I used to

1162
01:29:38.560 --> 01:29:43.199
think I could sing, and I think I could when

1163
01:29:43.199 --> 01:29:45.680
I was younger. Maybe everything's when I was younger, really,

1164
01:29:45.760 --> 01:29:48.199
isn't it. But I used to think I could sing,

1165
01:29:48.279 --> 01:29:52.720
and I think I could now not so much. But

1166
01:29:53.199 --> 01:29:59.439
hidden talents I can be annoying. It's not so hidden,

1167
01:29:59.520 --> 01:30:06.640
is it. No, I don't think there is. I can't. No,

1168
01:30:08.520 --> 01:30:12.439
there's nothing. Really, I don't think there's anything that I

1169
01:30:12.479 --> 01:30:18.279
can do. That would surprise anybody. I'm just trying to think.

1170
01:30:21.920 --> 01:30:28.640
Mm hmmm, Vinny, I can see my peripheral begging, begging.

1171
01:30:28.760 --> 01:30:35.520
I tell you, you're begging again. Stop begging. Do you ever

1172
01:30:35.560 --> 01:30:38.920
see it on TV or movies where they're showing someone's

1173
01:30:38.960 --> 01:30:44.760
doing something and the person, like the start of show,

1174
01:30:44.840 --> 01:30:48.640
can't see them doing it, but it's literally in their peripherals.

1175
01:30:48.640 --> 01:30:50.920
In no way you would not see that person moving

1176
01:30:50.960 --> 01:30:55.680
around to the side of you, but they don't because

1177
01:30:55.720 --> 01:30:59.039
it's a movie. It's like, wait a minute, even the

1178
01:30:59.079 --> 01:31:03.720
actor can see that person. I can see, Vinny. I'm

1179
01:31:03.720 --> 01:31:05.439
not looking at him, but I can see him moving

1180
01:31:05.479 --> 01:31:09.720
around and doing his law. I haven't eaten him for

1181
01:31:09.760 --> 01:31:14.039
a thousand years. My daddy never gives me anything, you know,

1182
01:31:16.359 --> 01:31:24.840
not Tom Sawyer, what is it? The little kid? Tom? Please, sir?

1183
01:31:25.000 --> 01:31:31.640
Can I have familiar Oliver Twist? That's it? So I

1184
01:31:31.640 --> 01:31:33.680
looked at him. As soon as I saw him, I thought, yeah,

1185
01:31:33.720 --> 01:31:37.279
Oliver Twist, Oliver. I'm gonna call you Oliver now, I'm

1186
01:31:37.279 --> 01:31:39.720
gonna call you Oliver Twist. And you've got some food

1187
01:31:39.760 --> 01:31:43.960
on you on your mouth, clean up after yourself.

1188
01:31:45.880 --> 01:31:46.039
Ah.

1189
01:31:46.159 --> 01:31:48.199
The other day and I talked about him. But I

1190
01:31:48.239 --> 01:31:51.720
still can't believe that. I went out. I had a

1191
01:31:51.760 --> 01:31:55.560
little bit of chocolate and the toffee was all over

1192
01:31:55.560 --> 01:31:58.920
my beard from the bit of chocolate I had, and

1193
01:31:58.960 --> 01:32:02.359
I went out took him out. I was talking to

1194
01:32:02.560 --> 01:32:05.279
different people. I was talking to two people when I

1195
01:32:05.359 --> 01:32:08.359
got back as well, not one punched person mentioned the

1196
01:32:08.399 --> 01:32:10.960
fact that I had this and it was stretched out

1197
01:32:10.960 --> 01:32:14.920
as well. It wasn't like just a little bit. Why

1198
01:32:14.920 --> 01:32:24.720
didn't anyone mention it? It was just do I don't

1199
01:32:24.760 --> 01:32:32.159
have any hidden talents? I don't think I really. I

1200
01:32:32.239 --> 01:32:41.000
used to write poems, I used to write songs, but again,

1201
01:32:41.800 --> 01:32:47.159
not something I would call talents. I suppose things that

1202
01:32:47.199 --> 01:32:52.239
I wanted to do. The poems were more just as

1203
01:32:52.279 --> 01:32:56.439
an expression, to be fair. The songs that was more

1204
01:32:56.520 --> 01:33:00.399
to do with romance. I was trying to be roman antick.

1205
01:33:02.319 --> 01:33:06.520
You know, it's a long time ago. No, I can't

1206
01:33:06.520 --> 01:33:10.000
think of any. Maybe I do, but they're hidden. They

1207
01:33:10.079 --> 01:33:17.359
must be hidden, very very well hidden, because I don't

1208
01:33:20.000 --> 01:33:27.720
really No, I don't think I have any. But then

1209
01:33:27.840 --> 01:33:30.159
you know, if they're hidden, I wouldn't know in a

1210
01:33:30.199 --> 01:33:31.640
sense I know you're talking about I I've got any

1211
01:33:31.680 --> 01:33:34.079
hidden talents that I kind of don't tell anyone about.

1212
01:33:35.439 --> 01:33:38.720
But I don't think I have. But you know, I

1213
01:33:38.880 --> 01:33:44.680
do believe that we're all we've all got hidden talents

1214
01:33:44.960 --> 01:33:48.880
that maybe we never find out about, you know, not

1215
01:33:48.960 --> 01:33:53.800
just just one thing, multiple things that you know, I

1216
01:33:53.880 --> 01:33:58.199
might be or you might be really really good. It's

1217
01:33:58.239 --> 01:34:01.399
something that you've never even attempted to do, but because

1218
01:34:01.399 --> 01:34:05.439
you've got no interest in it yet, if you did

1219
01:34:05.720 --> 01:34:09.680
have a go at it and you realized that you

1220
01:34:09.720 --> 01:34:13.800
were naturally gifted, I'm guessing that would make you interested

1221
01:34:13.800 --> 01:34:18.800
in it. Oh, Okay, I do have a talent, it's

1222
01:34:18.840 --> 01:34:22.000
not hidden so much. I am very good on the phone,

1223
01:34:23.760 --> 01:34:27.720
and I was very good at sales, but I didn't

1224
01:34:27.800 --> 01:34:32.560
enjoy it. I didn't enjoy the pressure or the stress.

1225
01:34:33.319 --> 01:34:36.439
So yeah, and I was very good at listening. I'm

1226
01:34:36.479 --> 01:34:43.680
good at listening. My job, apart from being a counselor

1227
01:34:43.760 --> 01:34:46.520
and stuff, later on, I did have a job where

1228
01:34:47.319 --> 01:34:50.840
my whole job was listening to phone calls and making

1229
01:34:50.840 --> 01:34:56.199
sure that the people the staff calls that they were

1230
01:34:56.239 --> 01:34:59.560
doing their job properly and they were sticking to the script.

1231
01:35:00.119 --> 01:35:06.640
And you know, I had to mark these calls and

1232
01:35:06.680 --> 01:35:09.399
I was I'd say I was pretty good at that,

1233
01:35:10.279 --> 01:35:12.279
but I don't know if that's much of a hidden talent.

1234
01:35:14.039 --> 01:35:16.359
Being pedantic really, isn't it. I don't know if I

1235
01:35:16.399 --> 01:35:24.640
mean literally my job was being pedantic, being quite inflexible.

1236
01:35:26.119 --> 01:35:31.960
So yeah, I've got hidden talent. I'm very inflexible, but

1237
01:35:32.119 --> 01:35:38.199
that's not so hidden, I don't think. If you ask

1238
01:35:38.319 --> 01:35:40.800
me that question again a different day, I will be

1239
01:35:40.920 --> 01:35:44.720
thinking about that. It's quite weird because Georgia. I also

1240
01:35:44.800 --> 01:35:51.960
know someone called Georgia Georgia, and I was drooping about

1241
01:35:51.960 --> 01:35:58.319
it last night. It's really weird. It's I had some

1242
01:35:58.600 --> 01:36:04.319
very very strange dreams last night, and I had this

1243
01:36:04.399 --> 01:36:09.960
conversation with this this female that I used to work with,

1244
01:36:11.159 --> 01:36:17.520
and I had this fear I never ever dated waitresses

1245
01:36:17.640 --> 01:36:22.720
that I worked with, just basically because I kind of

1246
01:36:22.800 --> 01:36:26.520
did nearly once and it was awkward. So I thought, no,

1247
01:36:26.600 --> 01:36:32.479
I'm not doing that anymore. And because you knowin't got

1248
01:36:32.479 --> 01:36:35.760
to work with them, it doesn't work out as awkward.

1249
01:36:38.600 --> 01:36:41.359
So there was this one waitress who I really liked

1250
01:36:43.199 --> 01:36:44.800
as a friend, you know, I just really liked her,

1251
01:36:46.800 --> 01:36:48.880
and she started giving me some hints that maybe she

1252
01:36:49.119 --> 01:36:54.000
liked me in a more, you know, my more, I

1253
01:36:54.000 --> 01:36:55.840
don't know for romance is the right word, but in

1254
01:36:55.840 --> 01:37:01.399
a more physical way and sort of telling me stuff whatever.

1255
01:37:03.359 --> 01:37:08.520
And she gave me three really massive hints over time,

1256
01:37:09.720 --> 01:37:13.960
you know, three different occasions. Once she danced with me,

1257
01:37:15.520 --> 01:37:19.319
and other times she told me some things that she liked.

1258
01:37:19.760 --> 01:37:23.159
And on the third time she told me I'm not

1259
01:37:23.159 --> 01:37:25.079
going to use the words, but it was on the

1260
01:37:25.159 --> 01:37:29.319
leaving do she said, you like, I'm gonna say blank,

1261
01:37:30.199 --> 01:37:35.359
and I've got blank. I still didn't take the hint,

1262
01:37:36.760 --> 01:37:43.600
and because I was just nervous, I just didn't know.

1263
01:37:44.520 --> 01:37:46.399
I felt like I was being watched by the other

1264
01:37:46.439 --> 01:37:50.439
people in the room, and I just yeah, I didn't

1265
01:37:50.479 --> 01:37:55.680
know really what to do, so I didn't pursue. I didn't,

1266
01:37:55.880 --> 01:38:01.600
which I kind of regret. And even now our dream

1267
01:38:01.680 --> 01:38:05.760
about her really weird. I mean literally last night, but

1268
01:38:05.840 --> 01:38:11.479
over the years. It's twenty twenty four years ago, so

1269
01:38:11.560 --> 01:38:15.760
it's way too long to be and it didn't seem

1270
01:38:15.840 --> 01:38:24.159
to bother me at the time, but this literally had

1271
01:38:24.159 --> 01:38:27.920
a I was conversing with her, explaining to us so

1272
01:38:28.079 --> 01:38:31.279
I disapologize and saying I know that you. I wish

1273
01:38:31.359 --> 01:38:34.520
i'd kind of done something and we didn't, you know,

1274
01:38:34.560 --> 01:38:41.039
blahlah blah blah blah. It's weird, very weird. And Hillary

1275
01:38:41.079 --> 01:38:43.760
asked me, Okay, let's try again. Where entire land did

1276
01:38:43.800 --> 01:38:47.760
you go? I've been there many times to many different parts.

1277
01:38:47.840 --> 01:38:50.479
Just interested where you went. So I went near bang

1278
01:38:50.560 --> 01:39:00.680
Kok bang Kok and it's yeah, I suppose I don't

1279
01:39:00.720 --> 01:39:03.920
go into great detail about where I've been. I don't

1280
01:39:03.960 --> 01:39:06.680
rejudge because that's where I went. Is a little bit

1281
01:39:06.680 --> 01:39:11.199
of a I think the class is some of it

1282
01:39:11.399 --> 01:39:15.199
like sex tourists, and I wasn't that. It wasn't for

1283
01:39:15.239 --> 01:39:17.680
that reason. I was just going because it's a Buddhist

1284
01:39:17.680 --> 01:39:23.079
country and I wanted I needed to get away. I

1285
01:39:23.119 --> 01:39:27.439
was talking to a friend about this. After I lost Andrea,

1286
01:39:28.520 --> 01:39:31.600
I started going back and my panic attacks came back,

1287
01:39:32.600 --> 01:39:35.600
not like the occasional one or the like the standard

1288
01:39:35.720 --> 01:39:39.640
kind of stuff that I had, but like really became

1289
01:39:39.680 --> 01:39:43.800
really bad again. And I think part of that because

1290
01:39:43.800 --> 01:39:49.640
I lost Andrea, I no longer had the emotional What

1291
01:39:49.760 --> 01:39:54.680
Vinnie gives me and what Andre gave me is emotional support.

1292
01:39:54.720 --> 01:39:58.359
I suppose really in reality, it's emotional support. It's an

1293
01:39:58.359 --> 01:40:08.640
emotional or emotional whatever, and so I was up here

1294
01:40:08.680 --> 01:40:10.760
on my own, and I was also dealing with all

1295
01:40:10.800 --> 01:40:15.720
the drama of downstairs and my neighbor and all that

1296
01:40:15.800 --> 01:40:23.760
came with that, and it got too much. So I

1297
01:40:23.840 --> 01:40:27.720
managed to go away. And I just basically chose the

1298
01:40:27.760 --> 01:40:30.800
first place because I'd done a bit of research, gone

1299
01:40:30.800 --> 01:40:34.359
on YouTube, and every time I put in Thailand there

1300
01:40:34.439 --> 01:40:41.880
was like Pattire came up and Bouquette Bangkok, those kinds

1301
01:40:41.920 --> 01:40:47.960
of areas, so I thought, yeah, I had there, That's

1302
01:40:47.960 --> 01:40:49.680
what I did. So I just went there and just

1303
01:40:50.279 --> 01:40:57.600
found somewhere to stay. And yeah, it was all right

1304
01:40:57.840 --> 01:41:01.079
the first time I went twice. The second time rainy season,

1305
01:41:01.159 --> 01:41:04.720
so that wasn't so good. At the moment they got

1306
01:41:04.760 --> 01:41:07.880
Sangrin Sangron, I think it's just come to an end

1307
01:41:07.880 --> 01:41:11.319
where there's basically two weeks of covering each other with

1308
01:41:11.399 --> 01:41:17.800
waters like a New Year thing. It's like the Thailand

1309
01:41:17.920 --> 01:41:24.800
New Year celebration Songrin song Grand or Songrin. I wouldn't

1310
01:41:24.840 --> 01:41:29.199
want to be there during that. Something I noticed about

1311
01:41:29.199 --> 01:41:32.600
myself is weird. Even though I was technically on holiday,

1312
01:41:35.039 --> 01:41:39.760
the bipolar didn't stay at home. It's weird, Honestly, I

1313
01:41:39.960 --> 01:41:45.239
thought in my mind bearing in mind that I hadn't

1314
01:41:45.399 --> 01:41:54.560
really been anywhere since two thousand and three was the

1315
01:41:54.640 --> 01:41:58.039
last time i'd really gone anywhere, like on my own holiday,

1316
01:41:59.199 --> 01:42:05.640
So that's yeah, twenty years or whatever. Really thought I'd

1317
01:42:05.680 --> 01:42:10.239
just go away and I'd be oh so happy, and no,

1318
01:42:10.359 --> 01:42:14.399
it wasn't like that. It was there was the relief

1319
01:42:15.439 --> 01:42:18.000
of not having to deal with people that we're here,

1320
01:42:18.319 --> 01:42:22.000
but then I had to deal with new people, although

1321
01:42:22.039 --> 01:42:23.800
most of those people were nice, but there was a

1322
01:42:23.840 --> 01:42:28.079
lot of It was quite It wasn't busy like it

1323
01:42:28.159 --> 01:42:32.279
normally is because of the the because it was a

1324
01:42:32.520 --> 01:42:37.079
mask wearing times. It was just after that during that period.

1325
01:42:41.079 --> 01:42:48.479
But there's still a fair bit of people around and yeah,

1326
01:42:48.600 --> 01:42:50.640
that's where it went. So I've met a couple of

1327
01:42:50.640 --> 01:42:54.520
people actually around here that went to Thailand and they

1328
01:42:54.880 --> 01:42:59.039
went to those parts. The thing is, there's lots of

1329
01:42:59.159 --> 01:43:01.199
islands that I could have gone. I could have gone

1330
01:43:01.199 --> 01:43:05.119
on excursions. There was a big old fairy full of

1331
01:43:05.239 --> 01:43:10.880
little little boats, which I could have traveled to multiple

1332
01:43:10.920 --> 01:43:14.239
different islands, because it is pretty much paradise, isn't it

1333
01:43:14.279 --> 01:43:20.640
out there. The thing is, once I got out there,

1334
01:43:20.680 --> 01:43:26.640
I just the first time. So I went out twice.

1335
01:43:26.680 --> 01:43:32.319
The first time I broke my rib because I just

1336
01:43:32.399 --> 01:43:37.479
had like a genuine message, like a proper tie message,

1337
01:43:38.039 --> 01:43:43.479
and this bloke he just pressed on my back and

1338
01:43:43.479 --> 01:43:47.079
and all I heard was click, a really loud click.

1339
01:43:47.479 --> 01:43:51.560
He found it funny. I couldn't breathe. I didn't find

1340
01:43:51.600 --> 01:43:53.880
it quite as funny. I mean maybe if I was

1341
01:43:53.920 --> 01:43:55.479
able to breathe, I might have been able to laugh.

1342
01:43:55.600 --> 01:44:00.840
But you know, and from and that was I think

1343
01:44:00.920 --> 01:44:06.159
the second day in So from then on I was

1344
01:44:07.079 --> 01:44:10.399
I just couldn't really do much. It didn't stop me

1345
01:44:10.479 --> 01:44:15.720
getting around, but I couldn't, you know. I wasn't sleeping really,

1346
01:44:16.119 --> 01:44:19.239
I wasn't able to, you know. It was just it

1347
01:44:19.319 --> 01:44:22.159
was very uncomfortable, to the point where I left early.

1348
01:44:22.520 --> 01:44:26.520
I got an early flight back. But I did manage

1349
01:44:26.520 --> 01:44:29.560
to give food out, so that was really good. I

1350
01:44:29.600 --> 01:44:31.760
loved that bit. So I made to give loads of

1351
01:44:31.760 --> 01:44:35.239
food out to people who were hungry. So the second

1352
01:44:35.319 --> 01:44:41.960
time I went, I thought I deserved once my Once

1353
01:44:42.000 --> 01:44:46.600
my group was held up, it started getting bad again downstairs,

1354
01:44:46.600 --> 01:44:49.279
and I thought, no more, I've got to get out

1355
01:44:49.319 --> 01:44:55.039
of here, and I had to go somewhere, so I

1356
01:44:55.119 --> 01:44:58.680
just thought to go there it's got a flight, didn't

1357
01:44:58.680 --> 01:45:01.319
book a hotel or anything. I just like just went there,

1358
01:45:01.960 --> 01:45:06.239
got to Bangkok and decided where to go next. And

1359
01:45:08.399 --> 01:45:11.600
I ended up in a sports bar, really nice. It

1360
01:45:11.680 --> 01:45:16.199
was full of Australians, run by Australians, full of Australian customers.

1361
01:45:16.960 --> 01:45:23.239
I was the only brick there, I think, and it

1362
01:45:23.319 --> 01:45:25.520
was really well. It was a sports bar. I was

1363
01:45:25.520 --> 01:45:28.359
aimed at all the different sports. The good thing I

1364
01:45:28.439 --> 01:45:31.159
did have boxing on once, so that was one of

1365
01:45:31.199 --> 01:45:35.399
the highlights of the holiday, sitting there having me breakfast

1366
01:45:35.520 --> 01:45:43.960
watching heavyweight boxing fight. It was and uies and and

1367
01:45:44.359 --> 01:45:51.720
Uiez and Otis Otis, I forget his name, but yeah,

1368
01:45:51.760 --> 01:45:54.359
it was really it was a Cuban fighter. But anyway,

1369
01:45:54.359 --> 01:45:59.640
that was that was good. So technically things are going

1370
01:45:59.640 --> 01:46:08.840
well there. Yeah. I got there just before my birthday

1371
01:46:08.960 --> 01:46:11.640
and I had a really good birthday. Went on this

1372
01:46:11.720 --> 01:46:15.880
big pub crawl. It was part of another bar and

1373
01:46:15.880 --> 01:46:19.640
it took us all around different places, different pubs and stuff.

1374
01:46:21.560 --> 01:46:25.640
And the next day I had a chest infection. I

1375
01:46:25.680 --> 01:46:28.760
was feeling there during that day as well as it

1376
01:46:28.800 --> 01:46:31.199
was going on, and I had a chest infection that

1377
01:46:31.319 --> 01:46:38.840
lasted about ten days. So I was in bed, and

1378
01:46:38.920 --> 01:46:41.800
then I tried to get a ticket early to go home, couldn't,

1379
01:46:42.760 --> 01:46:45.720
so I ended up staying there for two and a

1380
01:46:45.760 --> 01:46:52.560
half weeks, three weeks, I can't remember. And then I

1381
01:46:52.680 --> 01:46:56.640
was well for about I was probably I was still

1382
01:46:56.680 --> 01:46:59.399
coughing a bit, but I was on my way to

1383
01:46:59.439 --> 01:47:04.840
getting better. Wasn't completely healed, wasn't completely back, but I

1384
01:47:05.000 --> 01:47:08.680
probably had a couple of days of feeling better, and

1385
01:47:08.760 --> 01:47:12.279
I'd had probably four days of being able to go

1386
01:47:12.359 --> 01:47:15.880
out and walk around. I waited until it was the

1387
01:47:15.880 --> 01:47:19.640
evening when there wasn't so many people around because unfortunately

1388
01:47:20.199 --> 01:47:26.359
I dn't cough in public because somebody would always shout

1389
01:47:26.399 --> 01:47:30.880
out a certain word, beginning with sea and then ended

1390
01:47:30.920 --> 01:47:38.199
with it's. That was weird. So yeah, but I didn't

1391
01:47:38.239 --> 01:47:41.079
realize because they were putting adverts on TV in Thailand

1392
01:47:42.800 --> 01:47:50.640
that was just scaring everyone, like proper. Yeah, it's weird,

1393
01:47:50.800 --> 01:47:57.359
weird seeing what other countries do. So, Michelle, how did

1394
01:47:57.399 --> 01:47:59.680
you decide to start the boy you let me bore

1395
01:48:00.319 --> 01:48:03.399
you to sleep podcast? They great bay Away, Thank you

1396
01:48:03.920 --> 01:48:09.079
the grips bay Away. I'm slurring today? Am I slurring?

1397
01:48:09.159 --> 01:48:11.039
Or I A'm I just being lazy? A little bit

1398
01:48:11.159 --> 01:48:16.840
both a bit tired. Yesterday I was shattered, like at

1399
01:48:16.840 --> 01:48:18.279
the end of it, I had to go to bed early.

1400
01:48:20.039 --> 01:48:22.920
I just I hadn't eaten really much. I just like

1401
01:48:23.039 --> 01:48:27.399
it drained everything out of me. So I woke up today.

1402
01:48:27.479 --> 01:48:30.159
I'm still feel like I'm a little bit recovering from that.

1403
01:48:31.079 --> 01:48:36.520
It's weird. I'm not built for that stuff anymore, taking

1404
01:48:36.520 --> 01:48:41.880
on other people's stuff, like, oh, I'm not so I

1405
01:48:41.880 --> 01:48:44.800
think they let me boy to sleep. It was twenty eighteen,

1406
01:48:47.199 --> 01:48:50.119
had I did have precursors to the let Me Boy

1407
01:48:50.239 --> 01:49:01.159
to Sleep. In two thousand and ten, I did a

1408
01:49:01.279 --> 01:49:09.239
hypno chats, which was basically a mixture between chatting and hypnosis.

1409
01:49:09.840 --> 01:49:14.720
So I would just talk about my day about a subject,

1410
01:49:15.399 --> 01:49:23.680
and then I would ease into a hypnosis session and

1411
01:49:23.720 --> 01:49:28.640
I'd end up doing like a a relaxation session at

1412
01:49:28.640 --> 01:49:33.680
the end of it. So that that's the hypno chats,

1413
01:49:34.479 --> 01:49:36.439
and I'd choose a subject and it could be all

1414
01:49:36.520 --> 01:49:40.720
kinds of weird different things. Weird things. I mean, I

1415
01:49:40.760 --> 01:49:43.319
do still have them, but no one ever listened to them,

1416
01:49:43.359 --> 01:49:45.520
so I just got rid of them. But I've still

1417
01:49:45.560 --> 01:49:56.600
got them on here on my Really, that's weird. Oh okay,

1418
01:49:56.760 --> 01:50:06.680
hypno chats? Is it hypno hip no chats? Yeah? I do,

1419
01:50:06.880 --> 01:50:09.600
still got it on it. Still got the recordings I've

1420
01:50:09.600 --> 01:50:16.119
got twenty twenty yeah, twenty different ones. They range, They

1421
01:50:16.159 --> 01:50:21.359
do range different subjects. Number one was future. Number two

1422
01:50:21.479 --> 01:50:27.039
is public transport and sending healing energy. Wow, I won.

1423
01:50:27.119 --> 01:50:31.319
If it tells me what year it was, No, it doesn't.

1424
01:50:31.560 --> 01:50:41.359
It says twenty fifteen, but it was long before that. Yeah.

1425
01:50:41.479 --> 01:50:43.600
And then so I did hit my chats. Then I

1426
01:50:43.680 --> 01:50:58.800
did another version talking out talking out loudly or thinking

1427
01:50:58.840 --> 01:51:01.479
out loudly, I don't know, something like that, which was

1428
01:51:01.520 --> 01:51:05.119
like another version of this where I just talked about stuff.

1429
01:51:05.840 --> 01:51:12.239
And then I did hypnotic Buffet hip not tick buffet.

1430
01:51:12.359 --> 01:51:17.199
See if that's still around on my Oh it's not

1431
01:51:18.399 --> 01:51:22.760
hypnotic buffet. Have I lost all those recordings a way? Okay,

1432
01:51:22.840 --> 01:51:26.680
I may have lost them all never mind, Oh no,

1433
01:51:26.760 --> 01:51:30.600
I don't. I don't really want to have lost them

1434
01:51:30.600 --> 01:51:36.199
more to be fair, hypnotic buffet. Oh no, they are

1435
01:51:36.359 --> 01:51:39.119
still on air. I was looking at the wrong in

1436
01:51:39.159 --> 01:51:44.760
the wrong folder. So there are thirty one hypnotic buffets.

1437
01:51:46.359 --> 01:51:57.920
And the last one I did was where is that's weird.

1438
01:51:58.199 --> 01:52:03.319
I don't want to see properties. That's it. According to

1439
01:52:03.359 --> 01:52:05.239
this the last one I did was the sixth of

1440
01:52:05.279 --> 01:52:10.680
all was twenty eighteen, but that I don't think that

1441
01:52:10.680 --> 01:52:18.439
would be true. It says created eleventh of September twenty eighteen. Yeah,

1442
01:52:18.479 --> 01:52:24.159
I don't think that's true either. Before that, so, yeah,

1443
01:52:24.199 --> 01:52:30.520
I did those. Did I have those named? I don't

1444
01:52:30.560 --> 01:52:36.520
know if a look or yeah. The underlying thing was

1445
01:52:37.000 --> 01:52:45.399
so hypnotic buffet thoughts and ideas to transform lives every Monday.

1446
01:52:45.920 --> 01:52:54.239
So this is what I did, probably two thousand, well

1447
01:52:54.239 --> 01:52:59.000
maybe it was twenty fifteen. Did what was it two thousand,

1448
01:53:00.560 --> 01:53:05.239
twenty eighteen, No, it wouldn't have been twenty eighteen. I

1449
01:53:05.239 --> 01:53:10.119
don't think so anyway. But I started to let me

1450
01:53:10.159 --> 01:53:22.159
boys to sleep in. That was previous versions general. Yeah,

1451
01:53:22.199 --> 01:53:24.920
eleventh of September two thousand and eight, that's just when

1452
01:53:24.960 --> 01:53:32.039
they were transferred. So after that, so I did the

1453
01:53:32.119 --> 01:53:37.199
three different things I used to do Jason Chats, which

1454
01:53:37.279 --> 01:53:39.680
was just a blog about my life, and I just

1455
01:53:39.720 --> 01:53:42.880
talked about that and someone posted, I think it was

1456
01:53:42.920 --> 01:53:46.800
on YouTube. They said, oh, I was fall asleep whenever

1457
01:53:46.840 --> 01:53:51.760
you do your blogs. Part of me it was a

1458
01:53:51.800 --> 01:53:54.479
little bit like, oh, that's a bit rude, A little

1459
01:53:54.479 --> 01:53:56.760
bit rude. You know, I'm talking about my life and

1460
01:53:56.800 --> 01:54:02.439
you're falling asleep. Dumber's game, it's time for food, baby food,

1461
01:54:02.479 --> 01:54:06.760
food food. But then another party thought, m there's something

1462
01:54:06.800 --> 01:54:14.760
in that. So regardless of what I talk about, you're bored.

1463
01:54:15.319 --> 01:54:17.239
Guess what the person said, you just bore me and

1464
01:54:17.319 --> 01:54:21.880
I fall asleep. They might have been trying to be rude,

1465
01:54:22.039 --> 01:54:27.399
but I thought about it and I thought, okay, So

1466
01:54:29.840 --> 01:54:32.159
I started a podcast, let Me Boy You to Sleep,

1467
01:54:32.399 --> 01:54:41.520
which was when was it, let Me Bore You to Sleep?

1468
01:54:47.840 --> 01:54:53.520
Twenty seventh of March twenty eighteen. That was the very first,

1469
01:54:53.560 --> 01:54:59.880
so we have I missed that. I could have put

1470
01:55:00.039 --> 01:55:07.680
down the what was it eighteen nineteen twenty, I could have.

1471
01:55:10.800 --> 01:55:13.279
I could have done a seventh year anniversary episode, but

1472
01:55:13.319 --> 01:55:20.600
I didn't think about it. Oh well, so yeah, it's

1473
01:55:20.880 --> 01:55:24.680
it was. So that was the very very very first

1474
01:55:25.000 --> 01:55:31.039
recording after Let Me Boy to Sleep. Now, I didn't

1475
01:55:31.079 --> 01:55:33.479
do any research. I didn't look online to see if

1476
01:55:33.520 --> 01:55:37.079
anyone else was doing boring recordings. I just did it.

1477
01:55:37.680 --> 01:55:41.680
There is another podcast, something like Bore Me to Sleep

1478
01:55:41.880 --> 01:55:44.920
that's been around a few more years than me, And

1479
01:55:45.199 --> 01:55:48.079
someone was saying, oh, you're just copying them, Like, No,

1480
01:55:48.680 --> 01:55:53.520
first of all, I didn't know they existed. Secondly, I

1481
01:55:53.520 --> 01:55:57.199
don't think anyone does what I do. I don't mean

1482
01:55:57.239 --> 01:55:59.399
it in a good way, because you know, I'll probably

1483
01:55:59.439 --> 01:56:02.319
be better off if I did copy other people. But

1484
01:56:03.640 --> 01:56:07.119
this is what I do is unique. Even if it

1485
01:56:07.159 --> 01:56:12.960
was the identical type of thing, it would still be different. Yeah,

1486
01:56:12.960 --> 01:56:15.600
if you got if you like, gave a topic and

1487
01:56:15.960 --> 01:56:22.079
talk about watching tennis, and you gave that topic to

1488
01:56:22.159 --> 01:56:24.840
any other podcasts and you gave it to me, mine's

1489
01:56:24.880 --> 01:56:27.079
going to be different from theirs, and there is probably

1490
01:56:27.079 --> 01:56:29.640
gonna be different from everyone else's as well. It's gonna

1491
01:56:29.640 --> 01:56:34.119
be different. So that's how I ended up doing this.

1492
01:56:35.520 --> 01:56:41.560
And I didn't expect it to lead anywhere. I really didn't.

1493
01:56:41.600 --> 01:56:49.560
I didn't think it would be Yeah, I didn't. I

1494
01:56:49.560 --> 01:56:52.159
didn't really think anything of it. It was just a

1495
01:56:52.239 --> 01:56:56.199
new thing. I thought maybe i'd do perhaps ten twenty,

1496
01:56:56.359 --> 01:57:03.000
you know, like the Hypnotic Buffet or the hypno Chats.

1497
01:57:03.840 --> 01:57:06.279
I didn't think it would lead to anything sort of

1498
01:57:06.319 --> 01:57:12.319
a lot ongoing, but it did, and seven years, over,

1499
01:57:12.359 --> 01:57:18.119
seven years later, here we are and I think it's

1500
01:57:18.119 --> 01:57:22.680
because I was getting feedback. People were telling me they're

1501
01:57:22.760 --> 01:57:26.039
very relaxing regardless of what I talk about, and some

1502
01:57:26.079 --> 01:57:30.880
people like the fact that I'm real. I do make

1503
01:57:30.920 --> 01:57:33.600
stuff up, obviously. I think that's obvious. I do that

1504
01:57:33.640 --> 01:57:38.840
as well. I don't generally take myself too seriously. I

1505
01:57:41.000 --> 01:57:43.359
can see the funny side to a lot of things.

1506
01:57:44.800 --> 01:57:49.079
And also something that I didn't know would happen is

1507
01:57:49.680 --> 01:57:51.279
I was getting a lot of people over the years

1508
01:57:51.279 --> 01:57:54.640
telling me that I'm company that actually it's a friendly

1509
01:57:54.800 --> 01:57:57.840
voice to listen to. It's like, you get to know me,

1510
01:57:58.640 --> 01:58:02.880
and do you to listen to me every day? And

1511
01:58:02.880 --> 01:58:10.439
it's something that some people look forward to. So that's

1512
01:58:10.000 --> 01:58:18.640
in some ways that's probably more of a compliment. And yeah,

1513
01:58:19.039 --> 01:58:22.640
I mean that's partly why there's a couple of if

1514
01:58:22.640 --> 01:58:25.840
I see an elderly person, not just elderly, but if

1515
01:58:25.880 --> 01:58:29.239
I see someone in the park, they're on their own

1516
01:58:30.680 --> 01:58:33.800
because generally I only talk to dog walkers because Vinnie

1517
01:58:33.840 --> 01:58:36.439
wants to say loa to them. He loves people, but

1518
01:58:36.520 --> 01:58:40.000
he loves dog walkers because they've got treats. There's a

1519
01:58:40.000 --> 01:58:44.279
few dog that says a loo too as well. But

1520
01:58:44.439 --> 01:58:48.039
Vinny wants to say low to everybody. So if the

1521
01:58:48.079 --> 01:58:53.239
person looks okay, some people don't look approachable, to be fair,

1522
01:58:53.600 --> 01:58:58.640
but if the person looks approachable, I'll let Vinnie take

1523
01:58:58.680 --> 01:59:00.359
me up to them and I'll just say, can he

1524
01:59:00.439 --> 01:59:05.239
say hello? He wants to say hello, and no one's

1525
01:59:05.239 --> 01:59:07.479
ever said go away yet. I think I did have

1526
01:59:07.560 --> 01:59:13.479
one person ignore me and just walk on. And but

1527
01:59:13.479 --> 01:59:16.439
it's like, as my mom, so you shi had a reason.

1528
01:59:18.479 --> 01:59:23.079
So I and a couple of times, one recently and

1529
01:59:23.479 --> 01:59:29.239
a man said that will be my only contact today,

1530
01:59:30.640 --> 01:59:36.159
so thank you. I was like, oh, so I'm avoiding

1531
01:59:36.239 --> 01:59:40.760
from now on and joking. And then I think yesterday

1532
01:59:40.800 --> 01:59:43.880
or the day before that, it was a bloke and

1533
01:59:43.920 --> 01:59:47.760
a man he said, oh, thank you for stopping, thank

1534
01:59:47.800 --> 01:59:53.279
you for talking to me. So these are like people

1535
01:59:53.319 --> 01:59:56.079
that live on the estate. Maybe they don't see anyone.

1536
01:59:56.359 --> 02:00:02.840
I don't know, but Finny absolutely loves people and he

1537
02:00:02.920 --> 02:00:07.239
knows when a person's friendly, because that's when this bloke

1538
02:00:07.319 --> 02:00:12.800
I think yesterday, said oh, he just wants to come

1539
02:00:13.039 --> 02:00:16.159
if he must like everyone. I said no, not necessarily.

1540
02:00:16.319 --> 02:00:20.039
He does love people, but he knows people. There's people

1541
02:00:20.079 --> 02:00:21.880
he doesn't want to go and say lo to. He

1542
02:00:21.920 --> 02:00:25.159
can tell who's friend and he's not friendly. He knows.

1543
02:00:25.439 --> 02:00:31.000
I think dogs actually do know. They can tell a

1544
02:00:31.039 --> 02:00:34.359
dog lover from someone that isn't a dog lover. Maybe

1545
02:00:34.359 --> 02:00:39.800
not instantly, but you know, there's people that clearly that

1546
02:00:39.880 --> 02:00:43.039
I kind of know that don't like Vinnie, but not

1547
02:00:43.119 --> 02:00:45.159
don't like him, but kind of keep the distance from him.

1548
02:00:45.319 --> 02:00:48.239
Not really into dogs, and he knows that. You know,

1549
02:00:48.359 --> 02:00:50.760
he gets excited to see them, but he doesn't try

1550
02:00:50.800 --> 02:00:53.920
and jump up, he doesn't doesn't really take much notice

1551
02:00:53.920 --> 02:00:57.359
of them really, so he knows. And this bloke was

1552
02:00:57.399 --> 02:01:00.960
so happy that I was telling him that, yeah, he's

1553
02:01:01.000 --> 02:01:05.239
fussy who he says hello to, because he doesn't he

1554
02:01:05.359 --> 02:01:08.439
knows if someone's not friendly. And he seemed to really

1555
02:01:08.479 --> 02:01:12.399
appreciate that, so that was nice. I don't know how

1556
02:01:12.439 --> 02:01:18.239
I got on to that subject. Last question Brooke Brook

1557
02:01:18.319 --> 02:01:23.000
Brook Brook, my friend Brooke. What is hypnosis and why

1558
02:01:23.039 --> 02:01:25.920
does it work? What are some myths about hypnosis are

1559
02:01:25.960 --> 02:01:31.199
important to dispel? What is your best tofu recipe? Okay,

1560
02:01:31.399 --> 02:01:33.159
the last one. I don't have one, so I want

1561
02:01:33.159 --> 02:01:34.119
to skip that one.

1562
02:01:34.640 --> 02:01:34.760
Now.

1563
02:01:34.800 --> 02:01:38.800
If you said toffee recipe, I'd say, I love anything

1564
02:01:38.800 --> 02:01:41.800
with toffee, especially ones where that I get ended up

1565
02:01:41.840 --> 02:01:47.199
with bits of toffee in my beard, scaring the neighbors.

1566
02:01:48.119 --> 02:01:50.119
Would you tell someone though, if you if you were

1567
02:01:50.119 --> 02:01:52.800
talking to someone I'm not talking about a complete stranger,

1568
02:01:52.840 --> 02:01:56.159
but someone that you see regularly, you know, something you

1569
02:01:56.239 --> 02:01:59.000
may see daily, even and you saw they had toffee

1570
02:01:59.039 --> 02:02:03.760
sticking out their beer? Would you mention it to them?

1571
02:02:04.119 --> 02:02:06.840
And there's ways of mentioning it without being rude, isn't

1572
02:02:06.840 --> 02:02:11.560
there is? You know, It's like if I'm going out

1573
02:02:11.560 --> 02:02:14.920
and I've got gravy all down my top and I

1574
02:02:15.079 --> 02:02:18.399
scream on my head like, okay, perhaps we shouldn't mention

1575
02:02:18.520 --> 02:02:22.520
that because there's something going on there, but just a

1576
02:02:22.520 --> 02:02:30.279
little I would have preferred, mind you, Something happened yesterday

1577
02:02:30.279 --> 02:02:33.119
and I wasn't particularly pleased with. Let's talking to my

1578
02:02:33.159 --> 02:02:37.399
neighbor and I was saying, oh, I wear a hack,

1579
02:02:37.479 --> 02:02:40.560
so I don't like to because I'm I'm a bit

1580
02:02:40.680 --> 02:02:44.199
conscious about my my board patch on the top of

1581
02:02:44.239 --> 02:02:45.960
my head. And he said, what about the one at

1582
02:02:45.960 --> 02:02:49.239
the front of your head? What do you mean? He said,

1583
02:02:49.239 --> 02:02:51.039
the one on the front, or you've got a comb over.

1584
02:02:52.960 --> 02:02:55.600
I said, I do not have a comb over. My

1585
02:02:55.680 --> 02:02:58.119
hair is not long enough. I can't even brush my hair.

1586
02:02:58.319 --> 02:03:01.239
It's not long enough to brush. He said, there's none there.

1587
02:03:02.000 --> 02:03:06.399
I said, technically, you're correct, that is probably the reason.

1588
02:03:06.439 --> 02:03:10.840
But from the distance he could see that, like the

1589
02:03:10.880 --> 02:03:15.960
front of the hair is pretty much just disappearing, which means,

1590
02:03:19.479 --> 02:03:24.319
and I really am not pleased to say this, It

1591
02:03:24.560 --> 02:03:29.039
means what I'm going to have is hair around the side.

1592
02:03:30.439 --> 02:03:33.680
And I've already got the ball patch at the back.

1593
02:03:35.000 --> 02:03:44.800
It's finning out on top. There's yeah, I don't know

1594
02:03:44.800 --> 02:03:49.039
how long it's going to take. Now, my decision will

1595
02:03:49.079 --> 02:03:51.359
have to be this if it does in fact happen.

1596
02:03:51.800 --> 02:03:56.840
So the board patch grows and the one on the

1597
02:03:56.840 --> 02:04:00.600
front kind of grows to the point of eating in

1598
02:04:00.640 --> 02:04:06.199
the middle. What do I do with a straight hair

1599
02:04:06.319 --> 02:04:09.720
the stray hairs? Do? I let them grow really long

1600
02:04:10.199 --> 02:04:16.560
and pretend that that's hair and hold on to that

1601
02:04:16.720 --> 02:04:21.039
because I know people that do that. They literally they

1602
02:04:21.119 --> 02:04:23.680
cherish those hairs, even though there's only like a little

1603
02:04:23.680 --> 02:04:29.359
fuzz now, because it's their hair. They cherish it. They

1604
02:04:30.399 --> 02:04:34.560
it's important to them, regardless of how ridiculous it might look.

1605
02:04:36.359 --> 02:04:39.880
They love it. They keep it. And I'm now in

1606
02:04:39.880 --> 02:04:42.319
that position where I'm thinking, yeah, I might have to

1607
02:04:42.399 --> 02:04:45.119
keep that have a little bit of fuzz on top,

1608
02:04:49.039 --> 02:04:52.000
like a little brillo pad. I don't know, just I

1609
02:04:52.039 --> 02:04:56.760
don't know what, because I used to have an attitude

1610
02:04:56.760 --> 02:04:59.399
when I was younger just to shave my head. I

1611
02:04:59.439 --> 02:05:02.800
still do shake my head sometimes like it doesn't matter.

1612
02:05:02.920 --> 02:05:04.920
If I ever go bored, it will not affect me

1613
02:05:04.960 --> 02:05:07.520
at all, because I've walked around for years with a

1614
02:05:07.640 --> 02:05:13.319
bald head, being bored would not affect me at all.

1615
02:05:15.279 --> 02:05:17.199
Now it's easy to say that when you're not baled,

1616
02:05:17.640 --> 02:05:21.840
when you're not naturally baled, So shaving my head bald

1617
02:05:22.359 --> 02:05:26.479
is a lot different from actually not need not needing

1618
02:05:26.520 --> 02:05:30.439
to save my head bald because it's doing it naturally.

1619
02:05:33.960 --> 02:05:34.960
Ah.

1620
02:05:35.079 --> 02:05:38.680
Yeah, I didn't realize that, you know what, It's not

1621
02:05:38.800 --> 02:05:48.800
as non affecting me as I thought. And Brooke might

1622
02:05:48.840 --> 02:05:51.079
be listening to this thinking what's that got to do

1623
02:05:51.159 --> 02:05:57.119
with how hypnosis works? Okay, I'll go back to that hypnosis.

1624
02:05:57.920 --> 02:06:00.279
All I can do is my understanding. Because I've so

1625
02:06:00.359 --> 02:06:03.000
many books. I know what the theories are, all the

1626
02:06:03.079 --> 02:06:08.239
different theories, and like the myths about hypnosis, what's important

1627
02:06:08.279 --> 02:06:14.720
to dispel even now I see on Facebook and places

1628
02:06:15.279 --> 02:06:22.399
the idea hypnosis. If you it's like it's somehow harmful

1629
02:06:23.079 --> 02:06:26.239
given away control to someone and they can do make

1630
02:06:26.279 --> 02:06:28.079
you do whatever they want you to do, and it's

1631
02:06:28.640 --> 02:06:33.840
it's not true. It's really not. It's it's not how

1632
02:06:33.880 --> 02:06:39.640
it works. If I mean, maybe there's a degree of

1633
02:06:40.680 --> 02:06:44.640
I suppose if you was hypnotizing someone every day and

1634
02:06:45.239 --> 02:06:47.520
you wanted to, you know, you could sort of play

1635
02:06:47.560 --> 02:06:52.439
around of it and have fun with it. But ultimately

1636
02:06:55.199 --> 02:07:00.680
I can't just control someone completely. I don't think maybe

1637
02:07:00.680 --> 02:07:07.840
some people can. I don't have that. I mean, everyone's manipulatively, manipulaable, maniputable,

1638
02:07:09.479 --> 02:07:13.960
able to be manipulated, and as people were public we are.

1639
02:07:14.039 --> 02:07:18.439
That's why as adverts on TV constantly, everyone's being at

1640
02:07:18.520 --> 02:07:21.640
least are trying to manipulate us. And that is in

1641
02:07:21.720 --> 02:07:24.720
no way a conspiracy thing. It's just a factual thing.

1642
02:07:25.760 --> 02:07:30.720
And hypnosis has been used in advertising. It's one of

1643
02:07:30.720 --> 02:07:37.800
the first things that was used for Like generally, hypnosis

1644
02:07:37.800 --> 02:07:40.720
are used for advertising because they knew that it worked.

1645
02:07:41.239 --> 02:07:45.119
They knew that they wanted to advertise in this manipulation

1646
02:07:45.479 --> 02:07:47.840
to try and get you to buy a product or

1647
02:07:47.880 --> 02:07:53.239
to think a certain way. So yeah, it works. That

1648
02:07:53.359 --> 02:08:01.920
stuff works. It's I don't know he hypnosis some of

1649
02:08:01.960 --> 02:08:06.199
the myths with it, I would say, I think it's

1650
02:08:06.199 --> 02:08:10.640
a standard thing. Some people think that the hypnotists will

1651
02:08:10.640 --> 02:08:15.479
get them to do silly things, like like with stage hypnosis.

1652
02:08:16.079 --> 02:08:25.359
But that's not the case. The idea that maybe you'd

1653
02:08:25.359 --> 02:08:29.000
be under you being hypnosis and you're completely unconscious and

1654
02:08:29.079 --> 02:08:32.159
you don't know anything that's going on. I would say

1655
02:08:32.159 --> 02:08:38.039
that's not the case either, because the fact that the

1656
02:08:38.159 --> 02:08:43.520
unconscious you might be consciously unaware the unconsciously aware. But

1657
02:08:44.079 --> 02:08:46.199
you've got to remember your unconscious is looking out for

1658
02:08:46.239 --> 02:08:50.560
you all the time. That's the thing that pulls your

1659
02:08:50.640 --> 02:08:53.560
hand back when it touches a hot surface. Not your

1660
02:08:53.600 --> 02:08:59.720
conscious mind. Your unconscious, your automatic reflexes is looking out

1661
02:08:59.720 --> 02:09:03.640
for you. It's not your conscious mind that sees that

1662
02:09:03.680 --> 02:09:07.720
speeding car coming as you're walking, you're about to walk

1663
02:09:07.760 --> 02:09:12.359
out on the road between two cars, you're about to

1664
02:09:12.399 --> 02:09:16.079
walk out. You don't see it, but you move back

1665
02:09:17.680 --> 02:09:22.159
like in an instant. It's not your conscious minded does that,

1666
02:09:22.880 --> 02:09:25.720
because as your conscious minded does that, you'd get hit

1667
02:09:25.800 --> 02:09:30.399
by the car. Our conscious minds don't move that quickly.

1668
02:09:31.439 --> 02:09:35.119
So your unconscious mind or your subconscious mind, or whatever

1669
02:09:35.119 --> 02:09:41.520
you want to call it, I call it unconscious because

1670
02:09:41.520 --> 02:09:43.880
we're not really conscious of it, that's all. It's not

1671
02:09:43.960 --> 02:09:51.199
unconscious like being asleep. I like to believe it's looking

1672
02:09:51.199 --> 02:09:58.479
out for us, has our best interest at heart. But

1673
02:09:58.560 --> 02:10:01.199
when it comes to hypnosis, I suppose, going back to

1674
02:10:01.560 --> 02:10:04.920
theory and how it works, it doesn't always know what's right.

1675
02:10:07.239 --> 02:10:09.319
It can see if the car's coming towards us, that's

1676
02:10:09.760 --> 02:10:11.039
the right thing, is to get out of the way,

1677
02:10:11.560 --> 02:10:13.920
to put your hand on hot stove, you take it away,

1678
02:10:13.960 --> 02:10:18.239
it's the right thing. Things like that. Protecting our bodies

1679
02:10:19.479 --> 02:10:28.640
is standard. But sometimes but when it comes to things

1680
02:10:28.680 --> 02:10:33.520
like phobias and being worried about things and stuff like that,

1681
02:10:33.880 --> 02:10:37.760
then the unconscious mind doesn't always know it needs help,

1682
02:10:38.520 --> 02:10:43.119
needs us to let it know what's I mean, you

1683
02:10:43.119 --> 02:10:45.479
could say in a way like a computer, but programming

1684
02:10:45.680 --> 02:10:51.239
it needs guidance, needs supervision. So the unconscious mind just

1685
02:10:51.279 --> 02:10:54.680
needs to be It needs us to let it know

1686
02:10:55.640 --> 02:11:02.199
what it needs. And I think we need to be

1687
02:11:02.279 --> 02:11:06.399
quite specific as well. And there's different ways you can

1688
02:11:06.439 --> 02:11:12.000
do that. Just by you know, you can do affirmations,

1689
02:11:12.039 --> 02:11:15.159
you can do hypnosis, You can do all this stuff,

1690
02:11:15.159 --> 02:11:19.520
but you could also just just live the life. So

1691
02:11:19.640 --> 02:11:28.439
Brooke for example, and Brook, you're living the life. You're

1692
02:11:28.479 --> 02:11:32.359
doing what you do helping people have had strokes, and

1693
02:11:35.199 --> 02:11:38.439
you know you're living. If you live the life do

1694
02:11:38.479 --> 02:11:42.319
you want to live? Your unconscious mind helps you to

1695
02:11:42.399 --> 02:11:46.520
continue to live the life you live. So if you're

1696
02:11:46.800 --> 02:11:55.159
thinking positive things, your unconscious mind is basically hearing that, like, oh,

1697
02:11:55.239 --> 02:11:58.680
you want to you want to be positive, you want

1698
02:11:58.720 --> 02:12:04.279
to think more more positive thoughts. If you've got kind

1699
02:12:04.319 --> 02:12:06.439
of love in your heart and you're thinking about people

1700
02:12:06.479 --> 02:12:11.279
that you care about, your unconscious mind realized that and

1701
02:12:11.319 --> 02:12:16.680
if you need more of that. So our unconscious mind's

1702
02:12:16.720 --> 02:12:20.840
always listening to our thoughts. So what we say to

1703
02:12:20.880 --> 02:12:26.880
ourselves is hugely important. I mean, technically you say, that's

1704
02:12:26.920 --> 02:12:30.359
not hypnosis, it's just the brain, it's the mind. So yeah,

1705
02:12:30.439 --> 02:12:33.319
fair enough, but it's still part of that whole thing.

1706
02:12:34.359 --> 02:12:36.640
You get what you think about, You get more of

1707
02:12:36.720 --> 02:12:40.279
what you think about. We come what we think about.

1708
02:12:42.520 --> 02:12:50.399
And there's so many examples of this around us. You

1709
02:12:50.439 --> 02:12:55.680
can see it if you know someone that's constantly complaining,

1710
02:12:56.560 --> 02:13:07.000
like constantly, you can see even in their face, their behavior,

1711
02:13:08.000 --> 02:13:13.239
their interactions. You can see how they even their voice,

1712
02:13:13.319 --> 02:13:20.640
even their health is affected by that negativity, by that

1713
02:13:20.800 --> 02:13:32.359
internal looking at things in a negative way. So even

1714
02:13:32.439 --> 02:13:35.520
I guess because some people, some of the funniest people

1715
02:13:36.399 --> 02:13:42.560
can be really negative, like proper funny. But then some

1716
02:13:42.600 --> 02:13:47.680
of those people are not very happy. So it's one

1717
02:13:47.680 --> 02:13:50.760
of those things. What do you focus on? We get

1718
02:13:50.760 --> 02:13:56.079
what we focus on, and it's not like an instant thing,

1719
02:13:59.439 --> 02:14:02.199
but it's it's kind of like it works in different ways.

1720
02:14:02.399 --> 02:14:04.600
So you get what we get what we focus on.

1721
02:14:04.680 --> 02:14:09.000
So let's say itchy bum. Let's say I'm focused on

1722
02:14:09.039 --> 02:14:14.760
having an itchy bum. It gets itchyer. That's actually a

1723
02:14:14.800 --> 02:14:17.960
good example, you know, if you're kind of thinking of too,

1724
02:14:18.199 --> 02:14:20.760
and it works with the unconscious mind. It doesn't understand

1725
02:14:21.399 --> 02:14:25.119
negative and positive. Really, it's just focus on what you're

1726
02:14:25.159 --> 02:14:30.560
thinking about. So if you're thinking, oh, I don't want

1727
02:14:30.600 --> 02:14:33.319
to have that itch in the bottom of my foot.

1728
02:14:35.079 --> 02:14:36.720
I don't want to have that itch in the bottom

1729
02:14:36.760 --> 02:14:39.079
of my foot, all your unconscious mind is really going

1730
02:14:39.119 --> 02:14:42.119
to get from that is focus on the itch in

1731
02:14:42.199 --> 02:14:47.600
your foot. Just going to focus on it. So if

1732
02:14:47.640 --> 02:14:49.640
you put in a different language, I like my foot

1733
02:14:49.640 --> 02:14:54.479
to feel relaxed and calm, and you know, by imagining

1734
02:14:54.520 --> 02:15:02.079
that that might change it that way. And also our

1735
02:15:02.159 --> 02:15:05.039
brains don't know that, and this is the scientists say this.

1736
02:15:05.960 --> 02:15:09.079
Our brains don't know the difference between imagined and real

1737
02:15:09.880 --> 02:15:16.239
in a sense of if we imagine feeling relaxed, lying

1738
02:15:16.279 --> 02:15:20.800
on a beach, on a hammock or whatever, and actually

1739
02:15:20.840 --> 02:15:26.399
doing it, we have the same physiological effect on our

1740
02:15:26.439 --> 02:15:29.279
bodies and on our minds as if we were actually there.

1741
02:15:31.359 --> 02:15:33.039
I'm not saying that you can get a sun tanned.

1742
02:15:33.079 --> 02:15:38.800
I'm just you know, generally, our unconscious mind or our mind,

1743
02:15:38.840 --> 02:15:43.159
our brain doesn't know the difference. And I think that's

1744
02:15:43.239 --> 02:15:51.479
quite interesting actually. So my motto is not my motto.

1745
02:15:52.279 --> 02:15:56.960
I took it from Old Nightingale, but it has become

1746
02:15:57.000 --> 02:16:01.079
what we think about, and I try and remember that

1747
02:16:01.159 --> 02:16:07.960
every single day. Become what we think about. So if

1748
02:16:07.960 --> 02:16:14.600
you think about what do you want to become? If

1749
02:16:14.640 --> 02:16:19.600
someone wants to stay let's say someone wants to stay unhappy,

1750
02:16:20.279 --> 02:16:24.680
then just think about unhappy things. It's kind of basic, really,

1751
02:16:25.279 --> 02:16:27.720
and I don't think anyone could argue that that would

1752
02:16:28.199 --> 02:16:32.959
probably help the person to feel rubbish inside. If that's

1753
02:16:33.000 --> 02:16:38.760
all they focus on. And that's why I don't watch

1754
02:16:40.479 --> 02:16:44.000
these like true crime things. I'm not knocking anyone does,

1755
02:16:44.079 --> 02:16:47.239
but I just don't find it. It's useful for me

1756
02:16:48.639 --> 02:16:52.680
my mental states. It's really interesting, that's for sure. I

1757
02:16:52.719 --> 02:16:57.079
know that I understand why people get caught up in it,

1758
02:16:57.559 --> 02:16:59.879
especially the ones where you see all the film footage

1759
02:17:00.120 --> 02:17:04.360
the police arresting the people and any interrogation makes me

1760
02:17:04.399 --> 02:17:07.639
want to watch it now. But I've spent two hours

1761
02:17:07.639 --> 02:17:12.920
watching one of them, and it's so fascinating, but at

1762
02:17:12.920 --> 02:17:19.600
the same time, I don't feel good afterwards. It's you know,

1763
02:17:19.719 --> 02:17:25.399
there's been so much horrible stuff I've just ingested. That's

1764
02:17:26.479 --> 02:17:32.040
pretty much poison, really think about it, poison for the mind, negativity.

1765
02:17:32.760 --> 02:17:37.399
So yeah, we become what we think about. So I

1766
02:17:37.520 --> 02:17:44.680
try and remember that every day and try to focus.

1767
02:17:45.319 --> 02:17:51.120
I focus on doing these recordings helping people, and that's

1768
02:17:51.200 --> 02:17:59.200
my life. That is everything to me. So that's kind

1769
02:17:59.200 --> 02:18:02.600
of so I've can't I don't know if I have,

1770
02:18:02.760 --> 02:18:06.639
but I feel like I've become this in a way,

1771
02:18:09.040 --> 02:18:14.399
but with moods, with an unstable personality, but I've become

1772
02:18:17.319 --> 02:18:20.879
this person that I wanted to become or I've just

1773
02:18:20.959 --> 02:18:25.600
become me. In some ways, I feel like I've found

1774
02:18:25.639 --> 02:18:30.959
my voice. It took a long time, but I seem

1775
02:18:31.040 --> 02:18:33.559
to have found my voice since I've been doing these

1776
02:18:33.680 --> 02:18:39.239
Let Me Boy the Sleeps recordings. I do feel like

1777
02:18:39.319 --> 02:18:44.200
I've found me and I can just be me. And

1778
02:18:44.360 --> 02:18:48.280
I know that I do censor myself a lot sometimes

1779
02:18:48.479 --> 02:18:50.760
when I do these, I think because they will not

1780
02:18:50.840 --> 02:18:55.959
upset anyone, and I try not to swear, and my

1781
02:18:56.079 --> 02:18:59.479
natural would probably be to swear a little bit. And

1782
02:19:00.040 --> 02:19:09.879
but it's still ultimately it's just me being me, and

1783
02:19:09.959 --> 02:19:12.520
in a way, it can't really be anything more than ourselves,

1784
02:19:12.559 --> 02:19:16.360
can we There's got to come a point, especially at

1785
02:19:16.440 --> 02:19:18.760
my age, I was like, maybe I am good enough.

1786
02:19:23.239 --> 02:19:26.760
I may be better. I may become better. I just

1787
02:19:26.799 --> 02:19:29.200
remember years ago I was in the Buddhist center and

1788
02:19:30.000 --> 02:19:33.399
I said to someone because they pointed out one of

1789
02:19:33.399 --> 02:19:38.040
my flaws, which is sometimes Buddhists have a tendency to do,

1790
02:19:38.520 --> 02:19:44.440
especially when I'm around them, and I said, well, I'm

1791
02:19:44.479 --> 02:19:47.920
not doing this. I don't want to be perfect. And

1792
02:19:47.959 --> 02:19:49.840
he was confused by that, said, what do you mean

1793
02:19:49.840 --> 02:19:52.479
he don't want to be perfect? I said, antone I'm

1794
02:19:52.479 --> 02:19:57.000
not trying to be perfect, and that when against how

1795
02:19:57.079 --> 02:20:01.639
he was I guess attempting his life to be perfect.

1796
02:20:03.639 --> 02:20:05.600
I don't want to be I never wanted to be perfect.

1797
02:20:07.799 --> 02:20:12.719
I just wanted to be better. I wanted to be

1798
02:20:14.479 --> 02:20:18.239
I want to leave something, you know, I want to

1799
02:20:18.280 --> 02:20:25.799
be useful. I didn't want to be useful, not when

1800
02:20:25.840 --> 02:20:29.239
I was in my twenties, but since the age of

1801
02:20:30.520 --> 02:20:32.479
pretty much since two thousand and six, when I was

1802
02:20:32.520 --> 02:20:38.319
thirty five, although I started before then, but I didn't

1803
02:20:38.360 --> 02:20:41.319
really manage to do much until yeah, till two thousand

1804
02:20:41.319 --> 02:20:47.319
and six. I wanted to help people, but knowing that

1805
02:20:47.399 --> 02:20:52.559
I'm not really I don't. It's a struggle being around

1806
02:20:52.559 --> 02:20:56.879
people for any length of time. Generally not all people

1807
02:20:57.840 --> 02:21:00.000
I meet. The occasional person that I can spend time,

1808
02:21:00.200 --> 02:21:07.639
but it's yeah, it I had to make that decision, Like,

1809
02:21:07.799 --> 02:21:11.280
you know what, I can help one person. I could

1810
02:21:11.319 --> 02:21:14.680
spend fifty minutes or four hours, and I can help

1811
02:21:14.840 --> 02:21:20.360
four people in that four hours. Or I can make

1812
02:21:20.399 --> 02:21:29.319
a recording online and help hundreds of people with just

1813
02:21:29.399 --> 02:21:35.520
one recording uploaded to YouTube or Facebook or wherever I

1814
02:21:35.559 --> 02:21:39.239
was doing it, whatever podcast host I was using at

1815
02:21:39.239 --> 02:21:49.879
that time and my space to start with, and then

1816
02:21:49.920 --> 02:21:56.280
when the videos were getting thousands of yours, it made

1817
02:21:56.360 --> 02:21:59.440
sense that instead of doing a group session where I

1818
02:21:59.479 --> 02:22:06.760
was seeing maybe twelve, sometimes as eighteen people, I can

1819
02:22:06.799 --> 02:22:18.120
reach a thousand people or five hundred people. That's a

1820
02:22:18.200 --> 02:22:24.920
large audience, I mean down between a thousand and two

1821
02:22:24.959 --> 02:22:37.920
thousand people. That's a big old theater. So that's pretty

1822
02:22:37.959 --> 02:22:49.000
much why I went in this direction. What is hypnosis?

1823
02:22:49.040 --> 02:22:50.840
How does it work? I don't know if I've really

1824
02:22:50.879 --> 02:22:55.479
answered that question, but I've kind of given a my

1825
02:22:55.719 --> 02:22:59.079
version of what I think. It's more than just having

1826
02:22:59.159 --> 02:23:02.319
someone talk to you you and get you to relax

1827
02:23:02.399 --> 02:23:10.040
and focus on this and whatever. It's It's about thoughts,

1828
02:23:10.079 --> 02:23:14.120
it's about attitude. It's about expectation. What do you believe

1829
02:23:14.159 --> 02:23:18.600
is going to happen? Belief is so strong, so powerful,

1830
02:23:20.639 --> 02:23:24.360
like the most powerful thing. What you expect to happen,

1831
02:23:25.239 --> 02:23:28.559
what you really expect to happen, has such an impact

1832
02:23:29.159 --> 02:23:35.000
on what does actually happen. So expect things to go, well,

1833
02:23:37.440 --> 02:23:42.600
you know, just an idea. Right, the noisy people are

1834
02:23:42.600 --> 02:23:47.479
back in the garden and so they clearly you don't

1835
02:23:47.520 --> 02:23:50.399
have a break at Easter. Bless them. So I'm going

1836
02:23:50.479 --> 02:23:53.760
to go, so thank you for listening. Remember to be

1837
02:23:53.840 --> 02:23:56.239
kind to yourself, because you do deserve to be happy.

1838
02:23:57.000 --> 02:24:01.520
Thank you to Anne, Maria, Georgie, Hillary, Michelle, and Brooke

1839
02:24:02.159 --> 02:24:08.120
for your questions. I hope of answer them and saw

1840
02:24:08.200 --> 02:24:15.200
the introduction. So long, take care lots of love, by

1841
02:24:24.319 --> 02:24:38.920
relax in a more deep and meaningful way, maybe in

1842
02:24:38.959 --> 02:24:44.520
a way that can not just allow you to feel

1843
02:24:45.879 --> 02:24:55.120
calmer now and throughout the time we've spend together here,

1844
02:24:57.159 --> 02:25:02.840
not just relaxed at the end of the recording when

1845
02:25:02.840 --> 02:25:09.520
it's finished and you can enjoy that sense of comfort

1846
02:25:09.680 --> 02:25:24.600
and peace, but also I think it would be nice

1847
02:25:24.719 --> 02:25:44.520
to have those feelings of relaxation continue for longer after

1848
02:25:44.600 --> 02:25:55.120
the recording has ended, so that you can still benefit

1849
02:25:58.040 --> 02:26:05.319
from listening to my voice, maybe in a few hours time,

1850
02:26:07.239 --> 02:26:20.799
perhaps tomorrow, and then by listening regularly, especially if you

1851
02:26:20.879 --> 02:26:25.559
find like some people do and myself as well. I

1852
02:26:25.680 --> 02:26:32.440
sometimes I find one particular recording that really resonates with me,

1853
02:26:36.799 --> 02:26:39.159
and I just listen to it over and over again

1854
02:26:41.440 --> 02:26:54.479
every morning, every evening. There was this recording from We're

1855
02:26:54.479 --> 02:26:59.920
going back to about nineteen ninety nine. It wasn't hypnos

1856
02:27:00.319 --> 02:27:04.520
it was it guided visualization, so it kind of was

1857
02:27:04.639 --> 02:27:12.639
hypnosis really, and I managed to find it again and

1858
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it still has the same effect on me. And part

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of it was the person's voice relaxed me. She just

1860
02:27:31.879 --> 02:27:38.920
felt so peaceful, and I'd look forward to listening to

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02:27:39.120 --> 02:27:51.360
her in the morning and in the evening. And I

1862
02:27:51.559 --> 02:28:01.040
knew before even pressing the play button, since I've done that,

1863
02:28:02.120 --> 02:28:05.559
pressed the play button. This was in the days of

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02:28:10.680 --> 02:28:19.799
CD players pressed the play button. In fact, it might

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02:28:19.840 --> 02:28:24.239
have even been a tape recorder. I'd lie down on

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02:28:24.360 --> 02:28:37.159
the bed and then even without necessarily listening to her

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02:28:37.399 --> 02:28:50.280
words because I had them memorized. Really, it was as

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02:28:50.319 --> 02:29:01.000
if my body knew exactly what to do, and the

1869
02:29:01.200 --> 02:29:23.200
muscles just almost went into automatic relaxation, and I remember

1870
02:29:23.360 --> 02:29:37.360
my mind would slow down. Now. Now, I was listening

1871
02:29:37.440 --> 02:29:44.040
to this recording in the early days of learning hypnosis,

1872
02:29:46.760 --> 02:29:54.479
and long before I ever made any videos or audio

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02:29:54.680 --> 02:29:59.200
recordings myself, because I didn't start doing that till two

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02:29:59.440 --> 02:30:17.360
thousand six, but I knew, I knew how helpful I

1875
02:30:18.840 --> 02:30:29.120
found being able to just let go, to have that

1876
02:30:29.520 --> 02:30:42.079
trust in the person that I'm listening to, knowing that

1877
02:30:42.239 --> 02:30:50.479
it's going to be just as relaxing, if not more so,

1878
02:30:53.200 --> 02:31:00.000
each time you hear my voice, you may feel the same.

1879
02:31:06.520 --> 02:31:13.520
Some people have been listening to me for over a decade,

1880
02:31:21.959 --> 02:31:25.959
maybe not solidly, obviously not twenty four hours a day,

1881
02:31:27.719 --> 02:31:34.760
but maybe people come back. Some people maybe listen every day.

1882
02:31:46.000 --> 02:31:51.959
That's something that I do which you may not realize

1883
02:31:54.399 --> 02:32:11.799
by listening, is yes, when I record these recordings now,

1884
02:32:12.120 --> 02:32:24.639
for example, I also am affected by the words that

1885
02:32:24.799 --> 02:32:36.920
I say. So if I set you focus on your feet,

1886
02:32:39.479 --> 02:32:47.159
notice your feet relaxing, I will be focusing on my feet.

1887
02:32:52.079 --> 02:33:09.479
I will be noticing my feet relaxing. If I said

1888
02:33:09.639 --> 02:33:17.280
focus on your hands, and maybe notice the difference between

1889
02:33:17.360 --> 02:33:28.200
each hand, perhaps notice the air in the room, the

1890
02:33:28.319 --> 02:33:32.920
temperature of the room. On the backs of your hands.

1891
02:33:40.760 --> 02:33:44.600
You may start to notice what almost feels like a

1892
02:33:44.799 --> 02:33:52.680
very light breeze, even though there may not be any

1893
02:33:53.239 --> 02:33:58.000
type of breeze at all where you are right now.

1894
02:34:06.360 --> 02:34:16.920
And as you become aware of your hands, I'm also

1895
02:34:17.280 --> 02:34:45.479
aware of how relaxed my hands our feeling now and

1896
02:34:45.680 --> 02:34:52.559
when it comes to potentially drifting off to sleep, which

1897
02:34:52.680 --> 02:35:05.799
may be the reason you're listening, I also feel drowsy

1898
02:35:09.040 --> 02:35:22.520
when I make these recordings. I also notice my mind drifting.

1899
02:35:30.440 --> 02:35:43.000
In fact, at times I've actually fallen asleep without even noticing,

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02:35:47.879 --> 02:35:56.959
and then I carry on talking. And it's only where

1901
02:35:57.319 --> 02:36:06.360
I listen back to to do the editing. I hear snoring,

1902
02:36:08.319 --> 02:36:15.600
and I think, I don't remember snoring. I remember talking.

1903
02:36:18.440 --> 02:36:25.559
Is it snoring? Was a pick turned up? That's why

1904
02:36:25.600 --> 02:36:33.200
I sound like when I snare, how I get really

1905
02:36:33.479 --> 02:36:46.840
into the whole experience. I don't know how you feel.

1906
02:36:53.159 --> 02:36:59.680
How relaxed do you feel in your feet, how relaxed

1907
02:37:03.559 --> 02:37:24.600
you feel in your hands. I have noticed more and

1908
02:37:24.840 --> 02:37:43.680
more that the more relaxed, deeper level of comfort you feel,

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02:37:47.399 --> 02:38:03.520
the easier your breathing becomes. It's almost like that additional

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02:38:06.719 --> 02:38:30.040
muscle relaxation. So this allows you debreath easier without necessarily

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02:38:32.920 --> 02:39:00.520
focusing on your breath, however, being able to notice the

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02:39:00.959 --> 02:39:30.840
ease in which you breathe so naturally, you breeze so

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02:39:31.200 --> 02:40:14.440
very easily and smoothly. M Whenever I imagine my breathing improving.

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When I've got my eyes closed, I tend to visualize

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02:40:35.639 --> 02:40:49.959
a beautiful field with trees and flowers producing all that

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02:40:52.079 --> 02:41:24.799
life giving oxygen, And it feels nice to if nothing else,

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02:41:28.040 --> 02:42:02.159
just taking some time away from everything, enjoying that feeling

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02:42:02.559 --> 02:42:53.040
of peace, serenity with a joyful heart. Time seems to

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02:42:53.319 --> 02:43:28.399
just drip by, so very slowly, relaxed, so deeply, peaceful,

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02:43:38.360 --> 02:44:21.159
completely unattached to any thoughts whatsoever in this moment, completely free.

1921
02:44:47.639 --> 02:45:39.000
Notice that your mind has slowed down. Slowed down because

1922
02:45:39.159 --> 02:46:07.719
nothing really requires your attention. You can enjoy the physical

1923
02:46:08.120 --> 02:46:19.719
sensations of allowing the stress to drip out of your body,

1924
02:46:26.280 --> 02:46:49.879
dripping out of every part of your body and being

1925
02:46:50.440 --> 02:47:29.040
released from your brain. Hung your mind slowly but surely,

1926
02:47:35.920 --> 02:48:11.680
the muscles in your legs relax h ex res so

1927
02:48:12.239 --> 02:48:53.040
very deeply, relas so deeply, and the feelings, the pleasant

1928
02:48:53.280 --> 02:49:18.040
feelings in your arms and shoulders, deepening each part of

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02:49:18.159 --> 02:49:59.760
your body further and deeper and deeper. Noticine, the feelings

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02:50:00.280 --> 02:50:26.680
in the back of your neck, feelings in your wrists

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02:50:59.760 --> 02:51:15.159
must thus in the front of your body. I also

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02:51:25.120 --> 02:52:03.680
feeling peaceful, deeping. There's a sense of peace MHM spreads

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02:52:04.120 --> 02:52:43.680
through your very core. Even when you focus on your mind.

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02:52:55.639 --> 02:54:07.559
Your mind becomes a slower, deeper, relaxing, so very slow.

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02:54:26.799 --> 02:55:23.399
His stomach he's felling his stomach. He'll back Notice notice

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02:55:23.639 --> 02:55:42.040
how relaxed you now feel in the holl of your back,

1937
02:56:07.200 --> 02:56:14.840
in a spy from your brain all the way down

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02:56:16.239 --> 02:56:26.040
the middle of your back, sending and receiving millions of

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02:56:26.360 --> 02:56:57.959
messages every day, deepcomfort, increasing, deeply relaxed.

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02:57:27.319 --> 02:57:28.159
You, nices.

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02:57:53.799 --> 02:58:02.399
Les spreading the signals must down your spine or cord

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02:58:06.799 --> 02:58:25.680
into air, every part of your body, your shins and

1943
02:58:25.799 --> 02:59:17.399
your calf muscles, your elbows, Feelings of peace and tranquility

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02:59:21.319 --> 02:59:35.280
spreading through your body, tips of your toes, to your eyes,

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02:59:39.719 --> 02:59:58.399
your fingers, all the way to your lower back. I'm

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02:59:58.559 --> 03:01:01.159
letting go read acting God pace, drifting mind swander in

1947
03:01:01.319 --> 03:01:26.159
a way, happy to let go, let go completely, let go,

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03:01:51.799 --> 03:02:49.360
so tranquil her whole body, enjoying a sensor listing God,

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03:02:52.920 --> 03:04:51.840
heven more sis pace, enjoy the space, this space of

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03:04:52.159 --> 03:05:28.959
peace and safety, fairy f relx.

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03:06:59.079 --> 03:06:59.600
Let you go.

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03:07:17.680 --> 03:07:25.239
Maybe we can just focus on the different parts of

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03:07:25.399 --> 03:08:39.600
your body, just to notice your forehead and your eye. Yes, sides.

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03:08:59.280 --> 03:09:19.520
Let's say, in a sense of complete freedom, absolute freedom,

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03:10:05.559 --> 03:11:10.159
dress day, dress day. He's swam energy paste to breeze

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03:11:13.959 --> 03:12:24.799
such ease, yea Les, you may you may not have

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03:12:25.079 --> 03:13:31.959
noticed your mind drifting, peaceful moveing even more deeply in

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03:13:32.120 --> 03:15:07.639
the direction of total blissful pace. Blissful pace two to

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03:15:08.040 --> 03:15:09.200
to the pace.

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Com so calm, lett him go.

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Peace of mind right footy so rex so relaxed. Your

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03:17:28.959 --> 03:18:10.440
body feels almost invisible, so very relaxed and paceful. So pace.

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L like cad.

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Do slip pace so fa, and you could start to

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03:19:11.440 --> 03:19:20.959
notice that you are feeling more relaxed, even though I've

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03:19:21.319 --> 03:19:33.000
not purposely focused your mind upon that sense of physical

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03:19:33.280 --> 03:19:41.079
comfort that is growing within you throughout your body, and

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03:19:41.239 --> 03:19:50.799
your mind starts to slow down, and that could be

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03:19:51.559 --> 03:19:59.479
almost in recognition of I guess my speech not being

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particularly fast, and things just generally feel calmer. Just by

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03:20:17.920 --> 03:20:27.040
listening to my voice, you give yourself an opportunity to

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03:20:27.159 --> 03:20:33.079
take a break from the day, take a break from

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03:20:33.799 --> 03:20:41.079
your life as it is, and to give yourself a rest,

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03:20:43.719 --> 03:20:51.000
giving yourself permission to take some time off, and to

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03:20:51.120 --> 03:20:57.040
allow your body to relax and allow your mind to

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03:20:57.200 --> 03:21:09.360
slow down, which in turn releases the tension any stresses

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03:21:09.559 --> 03:21:17.840
that you had in your body. It's almost as if

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03:21:19.399 --> 03:21:23.639
the parts of your body just open up, allowing the

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03:21:23.799 --> 03:21:36.520
negativity out and at the same time replacing that negativity

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03:21:36.719 --> 03:21:45.600
with positive heathing energy which then fills your body up

1981
03:21:47.000 --> 03:21:59.079
and your mind to also starts to appreciate those feelings

1982
03:21:59.280 --> 03:22:16.120
of increasing confidence and an almost uplifting feeling, positive healing,

1983
03:22:19.319 --> 03:22:27.879
an energy that spreads through your body like a wave

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03:22:30.239 --> 03:22:42.360
of comfort. And all this comes from just allowing yourself

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03:22:45.159 --> 03:22:50.399
a few minutes, maybe half an hour, however long you

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03:22:50.479 --> 03:23:03.719
want it to be, just rest, allow your mind and

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03:23:03.879 --> 03:23:14.680
your body to almost reset itself to the settings of

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03:23:15.760 --> 03:23:32.200
comfort and relaxation, calmness, which allows more room for feelings

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03:23:32.319 --> 03:23:34.040
of pleasure.

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And happiness.

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To move around your body and into your mind, almost

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03:23:50.680 --> 03:23:55.280
as if your mind and your body are sinking together,

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03:23:59.520 --> 03:24:09.239
almost mirroring each other with that growing positivity and calmness.

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03:24:14.319 --> 03:24:21.760
And it feels nice, really does feel nice to know

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03:24:22.040 --> 03:24:30.920
that you are the one that has allowed yourself to

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03:24:31.200 --> 03:24:40.200
feel more comfort and to experience.

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More of this.

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03:24:44.879 --> 03:24:59.799
Deep relaxation spreading throughout your body. And as I folk

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03:25:01.639 --> 03:25:07.399
on each part of your body, you can notice that

2000
03:25:07.600 --> 03:25:22.120
that part becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on it,

2001
03:25:24.840 --> 03:25:38.399
becomes even more calm and comfortable just by focusing. And

2002
03:25:38.639 --> 03:25:44.120
as I move down your body, starting at your head,

2003
03:25:46.840 --> 03:25:52.120
the parts that you have already focused on or continue

2004
03:25:53.479 --> 03:26:00.600
to relax deeply, and those parts that have not yet

2005
03:26:00.799 --> 03:26:13.639
focused on or just automatically release any remain intention in

2006
03:26:13.840 --> 03:26:28.079
anticipation of even more comfort about to come. Now, I'm

2007
03:26:28.079 --> 03:26:34.559
going to start by focusing on your forehead. Just being

2008
03:26:34.719 --> 03:26:44.079
aware the feelings of your forehead and any background sounds

2009
03:26:45.879 --> 03:26:50.719
like mister Herbert the pigeon can just allow you to

2010
03:26:50.920 --> 03:26:58.159
feel even more relaxed. Just means you're in the moment.

2011
03:27:01.280 --> 03:27:04.280
This isn't this isn't a sterile environment.

2012
03:27:05.680 --> 03:27:06.639
This is the world.

2013
03:27:10.079 --> 03:27:16.120
I live in the countryside, so there's lots of nature

2014
03:27:16.639 --> 03:27:27.120
sounds around. So as you focus on your forehead, just

2015
03:27:27.399 --> 03:27:38.200
notice how it becomes even more relaxed. Focus only on

2016
03:27:38.399 --> 03:27:47.959
my voice and that part of your body. Moving down

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03:27:48.239 --> 03:28:00.719
to your eyes, focusing on your eyes, noticing how your

2018
03:28:00.799 --> 03:28:08.639
eyelids feel so heavy yet so light at the same time,

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03:28:12.040 --> 03:28:22.680
and all the muscles around your eyes relaxing completely. Moving

2020
03:28:22.799 --> 03:28:29.959
your focus down to your mouth, your lips, your tongue,

2021
03:28:31.200 --> 03:28:33.079
your teeth, and your gums.

2022
03:28:35.040 --> 03:28:36.840
The whole of your mouth.

2023
03:28:38.399 --> 03:28:43.360
Relaxing, calm.

2024
03:28:44.559 --> 03:28:45.120
And loose.

2025
03:28:49.600 --> 03:28:57.399
As you focus now on your jaw, not just a

2026
03:28:57.520 --> 03:29:02.680
part of your jawney, your mouth, your chin, but all

2027
03:29:02.760 --> 03:29:07.239
the way up, the size of your face to your ears,

2028
03:29:09.520 --> 03:29:21.239
the hole of your jaw feeling more relaxed.

2029
03:29:24.639 --> 03:29:25.399
And calm.

2030
03:29:33.600 --> 03:29:42.639
Focusing on your neck, the front of your neck, and

2031
03:29:42.799 --> 03:29:55.799
your throat relaxing and loose and calm. The sides of

2032
03:29:55.920 --> 03:30:04.799
your neck, right and lefts eye of your neck relax

2033
03:30:05.319 --> 03:30:20.559
and please and calm. And now the back of your neck,

2034
03:30:23.879 --> 03:30:33.840
focusing on the back of your neck, letting go of

2035
03:30:34.079 --> 03:30:40.959
any tension that may have been there before, and enjoying

2036
03:30:41.319 --> 03:30:54.239
that sense of increasing comfort and release. Then you can

2037
03:30:54.399 --> 03:31:05.479
experience in the back of your neck, moving down your

2038
03:31:05.639 --> 03:31:12.920
back and moving either side of your spine right from

2039
03:31:13.000 --> 03:31:18.360
the top of your back all the way down to

2040
03:31:18.440 --> 03:31:30.719
the bottom of your back. Down it's your lower back.

2041
03:31:35.959 --> 03:31:43.079
As you move up and down your spine, you can

2042
03:31:43.280 --> 03:31:51.479
feel the muscles either side of your spine relaxing even more.

2043
03:31:58.959 --> 03:32:05.719
And there's those muscles relax That sense of comfort starts

2044
03:32:05.799 --> 03:32:15.920
to spread outwards from your spine into both sides of

2045
03:32:16.040 --> 03:32:23.000
your back, the top of your back, the middle and

2046
03:32:23.159 --> 03:32:32.639
your lower back. And as you scan gently and slowly

2047
03:32:33.879 --> 03:32:34.159
up and.

2048
03:32:34.360 --> 03:32:38.079
Down your back, there's the.

2049
03:32:38.159 --> 03:32:44.040
Muscles in the top of your back relax and become looser.

2050
03:32:48.360 --> 03:32:54.360
The muscles in the middle of your back also seem

2051
03:32:54.479 --> 03:33:04.000
to just almost divide from each other, separating and almost melting.

2052
03:33:09.760 --> 03:33:15.760
And in your lower back there seems to be an

2053
03:33:15.799 --> 03:33:30.000
extra special feeling of comfort. The spreads into your hips.

2054
03:33:32.280 --> 03:33:40.120
Sit down your lower back, into your hips, into the

2055
03:33:40.360 --> 03:33:49.079
area where your cosicks are, and into your buttocks, and

2056
03:33:49.200 --> 03:33:58.399
all those muscles that spread in your lower back into

2057
03:33:58.479 --> 03:34:11.920
your hip area start to melt, start to reading, let go,

2058
03:34:18.639 --> 03:34:23.440
and you know where about to focus on your shoulders.

2059
03:34:25.239 --> 03:34:32.200
Your back and your spine will continue to let go,

2060
03:34:35.280 --> 03:34:50.920
continue to relax so calmly, and if you focus on

2061
03:34:51.040 --> 03:35:03.920
your shoulders, you may notice they're already feeling really loose,

2062
03:35:08.799 --> 03:35:10.440
They're already.

2063
03:35:12.840 --> 03:35:19.040
Feeding calm.

2064
03:35:25.760 --> 03:35:38.159
I feel those muscles then move from your neck into

2065
03:35:38.239 --> 03:35:56.559
your shoulders. I feel so soft and gentle, so smooth

2066
03:36:02.840 --> 03:36:26.319
and calm. The feeling in your shoulders seems to spread

2067
03:36:27.239 --> 03:36:34.799
deep into your shoulders, a sense of relaxation, not just

2068
03:36:37.040 --> 03:36:49.360
traveling deeply into your muscles, but also relaxing the bones

2069
03:36:55.280 --> 03:37:01.920
and moving all the way to underneath your arms, relaxing

2070
03:37:03.840 --> 03:37:08.559
a whole area between the tops of your shoulders and

2071
03:37:08.799 --> 03:37:14.840
underneath your arms, healing.

2072
03:37:20.319 --> 03:37:20.920
If you're so.

2073
03:37:22.879 --> 03:37:34.360
Relaxed, and comfortable in your shoulders, which sense that.

2074
03:37:36.600 --> 03:37:38.600
Deep healing.

2075
03:37:41.600 --> 03:37:56.680
Message into your arms. You may feel.

2076
03:37:58.159 --> 03:38:03.200
Almost as if your arem so not even that because

2077
03:38:03.319 --> 03:38:19.239
the sun relaxed, so deeply, relaxed, so.

2078
03:38:23.479 --> 03:39:00.920
So calm, so that feeling spread in oh down your

2079
03:39:01.319 --> 03:39:12.079
arms to elbows, including.

2080
03:39:12.360 --> 03:39:13.200
Your elbows.

2081
03:39:23.120 --> 03:39:39.760
Circumfort spreads your way into wrists, your forearms, and your

2082
03:39:39.879 --> 03:39:48.120
wrists so heavy.

2083
03:39:51.719 --> 03:40:08.159
It's at the same time sunlight and gentle.

2084
03:40:32.319 --> 03:40:33.239
F si.

2085
03:40:35.559 --> 03:41:03.200
Now on your hand, my hands.

2086
03:41:09.159 --> 03:41:11.959
So peaceful.

2087
03:41:13.040 --> 03:41:39.120
In your hands as a sensor, real pace.

2088
03:41:50.840 --> 03:41:59.680
Just seems to feel so familiar.

2089
03:42:03.719 --> 03:44:12.959
Handslas take else things you think it hips, Your attention

2090
03:44:14.319 --> 03:44:43.799
to front, to your body are constable, man, you focus.

2091
03:44:45.159 --> 03:46:51.479
To the lights, musculs.

2092
03:46:08.319 --> 03:47:01.600
In your sights. Names songs.

2093
03:47:03.040 --> 03:50:14.000
Sasa feathing, faint, sir peaceful, circomm sait peaceful, circom so peaceful, cyclm.

2094
03:50:17.680 --> 03:50:21.399
So peace fall.

2095
03:50:29.840 --> 03:50:31.600
Ra same.

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03:50:36.639 --> 03:50:38.399
Peace fall.

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03:50:41.799 --> 03:50:54.440
Cyclm love that deep relaxation.

2098
03:50:55.040 --> 03:50:58.719
To spread your chest storm.

2099
03:51:11.520 --> 03:51:12.479
Let you go.

2100
03:51:16.600 --> 03:51:33.959
Everything. So I'm gonna start counting down now, from twenty

2101
03:51:34.319 --> 03:51:42.440
down to one. You can imagine in a way it's

2102
03:51:42.639 --> 03:51:48.799
like just walking down some steps and each step or

2103
03:51:48.959 --> 03:51:54.920
twenty steps, and each step represents a level of comfort,

2104
03:51:58.440 --> 03:52:04.319
each stepp sense a deepening.

2105
03:52:05.920 --> 03:52:07.440
Of that comfort.

2106
03:52:13.600 --> 03:52:19.280
And the fervies you walk down those steps to deeper

2107
03:52:19.920 --> 03:52:42.600
more relaxed you feel. So starting with number twenty twenty

2108
03:53:01.799 --> 03:59:24.079
ninety eight SNJO sixteen three fourhhhhhhhhh four two too wellh.

2109
04:02:24.760 --> 04:03:27.959
Nine eight.

2110
04:04:27.319 --> 04:05:01.000
Si the.

2111
04:05:33.639 --> 04:06:20.639
US six.

2112
04:07:20.239 --> 04:08:39.959
Five four.

2113
04:10:01.799 --> 04:12:18.120
Us four.

2114
04:13:07.760 --> 04:13:08.440
And now.

2115
04:13:12.840 --> 04:13:25.440
As you focus on your eyes, you're gonna count down

2116
04:13:25.840 --> 04:13:37.000
from ten out to one, focusing just on your eyes,

2117
04:13:40.760 --> 04:13:49.239
your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your eye walls themselves,

2118
04:13:50.760 --> 04:14:07.920
a whole area that makes up your eye. As we

2119
04:14:08.200 --> 04:14:17.440
count down ten down to one, whilst focusing on your eyes,

2120
04:14:23.799 --> 04:14:34.280
you will become twice is relaxed with each number counting

2121
04:14:34.479 --> 04:14:45.559
down that you may find the what you want to

2122
04:14:45.760 --> 04:14:54.920
do is just drift off to sleep. And if that's

2123
04:14:55.200 --> 04:15:08.040
what you want, then just a let yourself to do that. Now,

2124
04:15:11.000 --> 04:15:16.920
focus in on your eyes. I'm going to begin counting

2125
04:15:17.120 --> 04:15:20.440
down from ten down.

2126
04:15:20.280 --> 04:15:20.920
To one.

2127
04:15:24.959 --> 04:16:35.680
Right now, ten nine eight.

2128
04:17:21.040 --> 04:19:33.079
Seven e.

2129
04:20:44.000 --> 04:21:58.200
Four three.

2130
04:24:31.840 --> 04:24:32.079
One.

2131
04:24:38.360 --> 04:24:55.040
So count down from ten to one ten nine eight

2132
04:24:57.879 --> 04:25:09.200
seven six five four three.

2133
04:25:11.799 --> 04:25:14.959
Two one.

2134
04:25:21.959 --> 04:25:24.840
And maybe that was a bit too quick in order

2135
04:25:24.920 --> 04:25:28.840
to relax. Maybe it's a bit too fast for you

2136
04:25:29.159 --> 04:25:38.879
to notice the calming of your body. Maybe even a

2137
04:25:38.920 --> 04:25:42.760
little bit of pressure there, like you're counting down from

2138
04:25:42.840 --> 04:25:45.520
ten to one. Would you expect me to do? Man,

2139
04:25:46.440 --> 04:25:50.120
expect me just to go with floppy just because you're

2140
04:25:50.239 --> 04:25:59.559
counting down. If you try it again, but this time

2141
04:26:00.079 --> 04:26:07.399
bits lower this time, and you focus on the whole

2142
04:26:07.520 --> 04:26:13.760
of your body before we focus on your legs, just

2143
04:26:14.000 --> 04:26:24.000
notice how your body does start to feel more relaxed

2144
04:26:28.760 --> 04:27:23.000
with every number that I count down ten nine at eight, seven, six, five, four,

2145
04:27:30.440 --> 04:28:21.879
three one, And just notice how how you feel generally,

2146
04:28:22.360 --> 04:28:36.639
how your body feels. It's not necessarily even about counting

2147
04:28:36.760 --> 04:28:43.879
down from ten to one. It's that space that you have,

2148
04:28:45.239 --> 04:29:08.799
that space between being active physically or mentally, just sitting

2149
04:29:09.040 --> 04:29:13.879
or lying down, just being there, not doing anything, not

2150
04:29:14.159 --> 04:29:21.159
saying anything, nor needing to think about anything. So it

2151
04:29:21.280 --> 04:29:24.840
opens up a space, you know, a bit of a space,

2152
04:29:25.799 --> 04:29:35.639
a gap. And the more I came down from ten

2153
04:29:35.760 --> 04:29:43.079
to one, the bigger that gap becomes. So there's that

2154
04:29:43.319 --> 04:29:55.920
gap of calmness, of comfort and relaxation. It's a nice feeling,

2155
04:30:01.479 --> 04:30:10.200
and it moves those stresses or discomforts physically or emotionally,

2156
04:30:10.879 --> 04:30:12.000
moves them.

2157
04:30:13.520 --> 04:30:13.920
Away.

2158
04:30:20.680 --> 04:30:21.600
Allows you.

2159
04:30:24.360 --> 04:30:24.879
To just.

2160
04:30:27.840 --> 04:30:34.159
Slow down, someone to count the game from ten down

2161
04:30:34.200 --> 04:30:44.200
to one, and notice that gap widening, the gap, and

2162
04:30:44.319 --> 04:30:48.760
as it widens, it's almost like the the stress and

2163
04:30:48.879 --> 04:31:09.239
attention falls into the gap gives you that distance, that space.

2164
04:31:16.600 --> 04:31:48.440
Ten nine, eight, seven, six.

2165
04:32:00.840 --> 04:32:01.399
Five.

2166
04:32:12.280 --> 04:32:31.360
Four three.

2167
04:33:06.200 --> 04:33:22.360
One. How did you body you feel.

2168
04:33:24.319 --> 04:33:24.479
Now?

2169
04:33:37.200 --> 04:33:40.840
Can you notice that? Do you feel in calmer?

2170
04:33:48.919 --> 04:33:49.959
Did you feel.

2171
04:33:52.919 --> 04:34:20.279
Relaxed? As we're now focus on your legs, Just your legs.

2172
04:34:36.279 --> 04:34:56.439
You're just gonna start with focusing on your thighs. Of course,

2173
04:34:56.560 --> 04:35:05.080
it's not the most exciting thing to be because I'm

2174
04:35:05.200 --> 04:35:08.159
sure like most of your body is not not going

2175
04:35:08.240 --> 04:35:20.919
on right now. Just focusing on the whole of your thighs,

2176
04:35:23.720 --> 04:35:27.439
the tops of your thighs, the sides of your thighs,

2177
04:35:29.639 --> 04:35:34.119
the bottoms of your thighs. You're outer thighs and you're

2178
04:35:34.240 --> 04:35:39.439
inner thighs. Basically the whole of your thigh that leads

2179
04:35:40.520 --> 04:35:56.040
into your hip and it goes down to your knee joints. Now,

2180
04:35:56.159 --> 04:36:03.159
this is a big area. It's a very heavy area.

2181
04:36:03.680 --> 04:36:09.639
It's very strong, probably the strongest muscles in your body

2182
04:36:10.360 --> 04:36:24.599
or in your thighs. But I don't think we perhaps

2183
04:36:26.639 --> 04:36:38.520
give enough attention to our thighs. Perhaps we don't they

2184
04:36:38.720 --> 04:36:59.080
acknowledge how important our thighs are to our lives, how

2185
04:36:59.200 --> 04:37:08.360
much they actually do for us all through our lives

2186
04:37:15.520 --> 04:37:21.360
and help may seem sound really weird, but I think

2187
04:37:21.439 --> 04:37:28.479
that all of her body parts, especially her thighs, needs

2188
04:37:28.560 --> 04:37:35.560
some TLC, a bit of love shown, a bit of

2189
04:37:42.119 --> 04:37:54.240
the acknowledgement, thank you, gratitude for her thighs to do

2190
04:37:54.479 --> 04:38:04.159
for us. And I know this may sound a bit strange.

2191
04:38:06.759 --> 04:38:09.759
Maybe you think, why am I surely how I should

2192
04:38:09.799 --> 04:38:12.840
be out there in the garden hugging a tree or something.

2193
04:38:18.799 --> 04:38:21.080
It's hard to set a microphone up on a tree.

2194
04:38:22.159 --> 04:38:24.000
That's why I'm doing this in doors something. Wise I

2195
04:38:24.000 --> 04:38:27.599
would be outside hugging a tree. I can't see the

2196
04:38:27.680 --> 04:38:36.840
television from a tree. You move down to your knees

2197
04:38:38.720 --> 04:38:46.599
gain such an important part, and I think we don't

2198
04:38:46.720 --> 04:38:54.560
necessarily I'll speak for myself here, I don't necessarily appreciate

2199
04:38:56.360 --> 04:39:01.279
all that it needs to do for me until I

2200
04:39:01.400 --> 04:39:04.759
have a problem with my knee. It's occasionally if I

2201
04:39:04.799 --> 04:39:10.479
ever maybe i'll bash it or it's aching for some reason.

2202
04:39:12.240 --> 04:39:18.400
It's then that I realize how much it does the

2203
04:39:18.680 --> 04:39:26.439
benefit of being able to use my legs without any

2204
04:39:26.560 --> 04:39:34.159
kind of physical discomfort is a beautiful thing that's possibly

2205
04:39:34.360 --> 04:39:46.479
not appreciated until it's temporarily removed. That's comfort. But as

2206
04:39:46.520 --> 04:39:51.880
you focus on your knees, regardless of how your niece feel,

2207
04:39:54.959 --> 04:40:00.919
you can have that sense of gratitude love to your

2208
04:40:01.040 --> 04:40:13.799
needs for all that they do for you. You can

2209
04:40:13.880 --> 04:40:18.360
still have that attention on your thighs. Maybe notice how

2210
04:40:18.439 --> 04:40:27.680
your thighs feel. Maybe you've notice that they are relaxing

2211
04:40:30.279 --> 04:40:43.360
more deeply as you focus now on the bottoms of

2212
04:40:43.439 --> 04:40:48.279
your legs, your shifts and your calf bossiles, the bones

2213
04:40:49.319 --> 04:40:56.200
between your knees and your feet incorporates with course your

2214
04:40:56.279 --> 04:41:08.279
ankles so important and anyone that's had even then, like

2215
04:41:08.439 --> 04:41:14.840
the slightest sprain of an ankle, who knows how how

2216
04:41:15.119 --> 04:41:24.959
much we take our en course for granted. And it's

2217
04:41:25.080 --> 04:41:27.119
kind of strange in a way when you think that,

2218
04:41:29.680 --> 04:41:33.680
you know, logically, our wrists are a lot thinner than

2219
04:41:33.799 --> 04:41:37.840
the rest of our arms, which is okay, it doesn't

2220
04:41:37.880 --> 04:41:41.479
it can't see any problem with that because we're just

2221
04:41:41.560 --> 04:41:49.240
picking stuff up by our ankles so much thinner than

2222
04:41:49.279 --> 04:41:58.360
the rest of our legs. And from a physics perspective

2223
04:41:59.639 --> 04:42:01.599
or lot you call you and it doesn't really make

2224
04:42:01.759 --> 04:42:09.759
sense that all this weight will ultimately be resting on

2225
04:42:10.639 --> 04:42:19.720
your ankles then leading to your feet, a thin area,

2226
04:42:21.200 --> 04:42:30.799
thin bone. Yeah, it does so much great work. Supports us,

2227
04:42:30.880 --> 04:42:40.840
supports our body for a lifetime, helps us to balance,

2228
04:42:43.240 --> 04:42:56.200
helps you to get around and be mobile, and the

2229
04:42:56.360 --> 04:43:04.520
car muscles. Of course, when I was younger, I couldn't

2230
04:43:04.520 --> 04:43:09.919
see the point in calf muscles didn't seem to do anything. Okay,

2231
04:43:11.040 --> 04:43:14.560
if I walked around on tiptoes, then my clth muscles

2232
04:43:14.639 --> 04:43:18.119
get some work. And of course that's not true. The

2233
04:43:18.240 --> 04:43:22.639
calf muscles are being used whenever we use that lex

2234
04:43:28.240 --> 04:43:40.880
and your shins there to protect your lower legs shaped

2235
04:43:40.919 --> 04:43:45.240
in a way the most as a protector with the

2236
04:43:45.279 --> 04:44:00.400
bone leading of course to your ankles and you feet.

2237
04:44:05.159 --> 04:44:07.119
I'm not going to focus on your feet. I'm just

2238
04:44:07.200 --> 04:44:13.639
going to focus on the legs. I realize, and now

2239
04:44:13.720 --> 04:44:18.279
that I've mentioned your feet, you godly focusing on them anyway,

2240
04:44:18.840 --> 04:44:21.439
So maybe I should focus on your feet a little bit.

2241
04:44:25.439 --> 04:44:29.840
You can have them in your awareness the same as

2242
04:44:29.919 --> 04:44:34.279
you have your thighs in your awareness. Even though we

2243
04:44:34.400 --> 04:44:40.200
haven't been focusing on your thighs a few minutes and

2244
04:44:40.319 --> 04:44:51.279
we're focusing on your ankles. There's still that sensation of

2245
04:44:54.479 --> 04:45:07.240
comfort in your thighs, and there's that movement of energy

2246
04:45:09.319 --> 04:45:16.360
because the thighs hold lots of different sensations. Of course,

2247
04:45:16.439 --> 04:45:20.959
there's the muscles and the big straw muscles that we

2248
04:45:21.119 --> 04:45:34.599
have in our thighs, but the skin on the outside

2249
04:45:34.680 --> 04:45:39.520
of the thighs, as in the outside of all of

2250
04:45:39.599 --> 04:45:48.279
our body, can be very sensitive, sensitive to a touch,

2251
04:45:51.080 --> 04:46:04.400
sensitive to temperature, and inside of thighs the bones, there's

2252
04:46:05.439 --> 04:46:10.240
the muscle, it's the blood, vessels, the arch trees, to

2253
04:46:10.439 --> 04:46:19.040
all this stuff that's inside of thighs. I guess sometimes

2254
04:46:19.919 --> 04:46:22.400
it'd be nice if you could actually put your fingers

2255
04:46:23.680 --> 04:46:29.240
inside your thighs and the message. So if you can

2256
04:46:29.319 --> 04:46:32.840
message on the outside, of course, but to be able

2257
04:46:32.840 --> 04:46:36.119
to get deep into the muscles, to be able to

2258
04:46:36.279 --> 04:46:42.799
just message inside your thighs, message in the bones, your

2259
04:46:42.919 --> 04:46:59.360
leg all the veins and just gently human thighs, you

2260
04:46:59.439 --> 04:47:06.599
can do down message inside your peace. It's a message

2261
04:47:06.639 --> 04:47:14.119
in those bones with healing fingertips spreading their healing energy

2262
04:47:14.959 --> 04:47:25.360
deep into the choice. Of course, it's the back of

2263
04:47:25.520 --> 04:47:29.119
the need that the inside crease.

2264
04:47:30.200 --> 04:47:31.560
Real need is.

2265
04:47:33.240 --> 04:47:39.000
It's a really sensitive area. Really that's very nice when

2266
04:47:39.040 --> 04:47:43.959
you stroking. That might be because it's an area that's

2267
04:47:44.040 --> 04:47:49.400
not really touched very often. It's almost like a hidden

2268
04:47:49.560 --> 04:47:58.479
part a crease legs. It's almost like a part that

2269
04:48:00.279 --> 04:48:11.560
has a sensitivity which is a little bit different because

2270
04:48:11.599 --> 04:48:22.119
it's protected by your legs. So you imagine put in

2271
04:48:23.040 --> 04:48:32.639
your fingers, sent to increase your legs, have fun with

2272
04:48:32.919 --> 04:48:38.319
between your legs, and just message with your fingertips. As

2273
04:48:38.439 --> 04:48:49.520
your fingertips going inside massage in the muscle tissue you

2274
04:48:49.639 --> 04:48:57.080
can cause field the virons your fingertips.

2275
04:49:04.479 --> 04:49:05.919
And then if she go down.

2276
04:49:08.560 --> 04:49:10.279
Deep calf muscles, and.

2277
04:49:10.360 --> 04:49:13.000
That's a part I'd like to be able to read.

2278
04:49:13.919 --> 04:49:15.639
Put my thinker to state.

2279
04:49:15.520 --> 04:49:25.840
And sien calf muscles massoogy every single tissue of the muscle,

2280
04:49:27.400 --> 04:49:29.279
hearing every card.

2281
04:49:35.319 --> 04:49:36.799
They doing the same for a.

2282
04:49:36.919 --> 04:49:49.119
Shies massagy generally stroking bones, generally stroking the hearing and

2283
04:49:49.279 --> 04:49:56.439
loving way because they deserve to be treated. There's the

2284
04:49:56.560 --> 04:50:02.159
precious bones that they are. Things are so precious that

2285
04:50:02.319 --> 04:50:06.799
you have all the other parts of our body, the

2286
04:50:06.919 --> 04:50:09.040
more precious of mutual.

2287
04:50:11.520 --> 04:50:11.720
Plan.

2288
04:50:20.319 --> 04:50:21.479
When you start to.

2289
04:50:23.000 --> 04:50:23.880
Think about.

2290
04:50:27.040 --> 04:50:36.200
The legs in this way, can change your perspect.

2291
04:50:38.799 --> 04:50:46.560
Might sound. It's silly to start with the idea.

2292
04:50:46.360 --> 04:50:55.200
Of family love ales. Showing appreciation. Your eyes.

2293
04:50:57.639 --> 04:51:02.000
Wants to be also you are in your fies.

2294
04:51:04.200 --> 04:51:08.479
Message the muscles and the bones.

2295
04:51:10.119 --> 04:51:12.439
To get your fingers deep in there.

2296
04:51:13.479 --> 04:51:19.439
Releasing the pension, just to show.

2297
04:51:21.119 --> 04:51:22.439
How much you care.

2298
04:51:25.479 --> 04:51:27.119
About your links.

2299
04:51:28.200 --> 04:51:32.040
Much you care for what your links do? You feel,

2300
04:51:36.520 --> 04:51:38.759
your needs, your cars.

2301
04:51:39.560 --> 04:51:51.840
Your ankles. The strength of your ankles, considering how thin

2302
04:51:52.000 --> 04:51:56.279
they are compared to the rest of your legs, especially thighs.

2303
04:52:00.400 --> 04:52:12.479
It's so strong, so flexible, absolutely amazing things and course

2304
04:52:12.799 --> 04:52:18.439
are truly again.

2305
04:52:20.439 --> 04:52:21.919
Because of what they do for you.

2306
04:52:27.400 --> 04:52:34.360
Supporting all that weight, regardless of how what way you are,

2307
04:52:35.560 --> 04:52:37.680
even if you're a stone.

2308
04:52:39.599 --> 04:52:46.880
Still long weight is in my course Now I'm not

2309
04:52:47.240 --> 04:52:54.080
happy to stand love happy.

2310
04:52:54.279 --> 04:52:55.319
I of course.

2311
04:52:56.799 --> 04:53:04.439
Support my body all the time. What they do keep

2312
04:53:04.520 --> 04:53:10.439
up a side when they wouldn't sit down. I wow,

2313
04:53:10.599 --> 04:53:11.240
Next thing.

2314
04:53:14.680 --> 04:53:15.479
A thing.

2315
04:53:19.200 --> 04:53:20.279
That's quick.

2316
04:53:41.880 --> 04:53:46.479
The legs really am.

2317
04:53:50.720 --> 04:53:59.279
Talking about talking about? I was really ust I spoke

2318
04:53:59.479 --> 04:54:10.119
think they they didn't say possibly anything that says true.

2319
04:54:12.639 --> 04:54:33.840
He makes amazing Who makes deserve just respect. They deserve

2320
04:54:33.959 --> 04:54:45.159
to relax deeply, They deserve to.

2321
04:54:45.240 --> 04:54:49.919
Take some time out of the day, just

2322
04:55:26.319 --> 04:55:30.040
Insteads spe