April 11, 2025

(music) (5 hours) Q&A Friday | Let me bore you to sleep #1325 | 11th April 2025

(music) (5 hours) Q&A Friday | Let me bore you to sleep #1325 | 11th April 2025
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Hello, and welcome to.

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CUE and Cunie Cune Friday, Cooney Cooney, Cumbere Friday. My

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name's Jason Newland. This is Jason Newland dot com. Please

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don'tly listen someone who can safely close your eyes. It

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is eleventh what Friday? The eleventh of April two thousand

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and twenty five. Now little problem.

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No, I'm not talking about that. I'm talking about this.

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What I don't really know what to do today because

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because because because because of the wonderful things he does,

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I haven't really had any questions hardly. Now does that

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mean we're at the end of the Q and A Friday?

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Does that mean that's kind of it now we'd sort

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of stop doing them?

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Or I don't know. I don't know what the what

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the solution is, if I'm honest.

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So I do have a couple of questions, but and

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I realized one question can take me the whole session.

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But the idea, what's going on?

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What's that?

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Or right?

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Okay?

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So maybe my problem is I posted them on all

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the different pages instead of just on the Jason Newlands

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Boring group on Facebook. But I posted, like the any questions.

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I think the two things that have been problematic is

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first of all, I have produced probably too many recordings

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in a sense that the post hello, do you have

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any questions for this sex q? And a Friday, eleventh

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of April twenty twenty five, which I posted on the

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ninth Wednesday, has got kind of hidden by all the

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other posts that I posted, because you know I've done.

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I did three recordings yesterday. This will be the second

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one today. I did two the day before that, two

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the day before that. So yes, quite a few, I guess.

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So I'm thinking what can I do to cover that?

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So I've got questions from Hillary where in high landage

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of visit? And I've got another question from Sebastian. Oh,

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that wasn't a question. Will podcast when? Don't make me

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start on my own? So he didn't. I didn't ask

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a question. He posted a picture of do you know?

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On YouTube?

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But what on Facebook at the moment is all these

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pictures of like action figures done by AI and people

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are doing their own ones.

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Well, he's done for me, and it says Uncle Smellie

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hours of boredom. And it's basically a very very short,

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plump man with hardly any hair, wearing pink glasses and

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it says comes with several cooled dysfunctionalities ages nine and up.

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No age is five and up, so it yeah, that

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was his thing for me, So it wasn't a question.

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So I say, hello, do you have any questions for

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this seach Q and a Friday Sebastian answers have aware

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of you of robbing yourself by not talking to me.

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Never mind, I'll keep on barding your dms and one

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day you will have to face it. So I say,

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do you have an actual question? And he says, do

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you like your action figure I designed for you? So no, Sebastian,

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I don't like it. I mean, it's nice that you

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took the time to I don't even know what the

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right word is to be honest, uncle Smellie ours of boredom.

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I mean, the thing is, I don't.

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Want to say nice things about him. But Sebastian's been

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doing AI and images and stuff like that. Before AI

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was even about, he was doing and making weird im

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making weird.

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Images and videos like ten years ago. So I'm a

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little bit scared what he could come up with with

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the new technology.

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Some of the things he's actually posted are very funny.

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There's one he did where there's me in a dressing

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gown and suddenly all these people just pulled my dresses

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and gown off and it's like a kung fu or

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karate dojo. So yeah, I do like the some of

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new stuff you post, but it's usually it's not aimed

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at making me feel good about myself?

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Is it a?

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So?

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Where a guess?

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Where did Thailand were entirely to go? So that's that one,

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seems there's any other questions, any other.

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Questions, any other questions? Nothing on Jason Newland's boring group

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Let Me Boy to Sleep. Let's see, I there's anything

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on that page?

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Oh?

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What come on Jason Newland Hypnosis. Let's all look on

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that page? Is there anything? You never know? There might

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be something? No, nothing on there, Let me Boy to Sleep?

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Anything on there? I wonder why trains make so much noise?

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Sometimes? Might not be a train? Actually, Oh, I didn't

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seem to post it on that one? Okay, fair enough?

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So did I post it on the Jason Newland Hypnotist

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or one word? I didn't? Okay fair enough?

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So the ones I posted on I didn't get any

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other responses, so only one question? And I don't believe

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if I'm correct, I've ever had only one question in

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a week, which is it.

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We're not concerned as in like.

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No, oh, no, what we're going to do, but a

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little bit like okay, because it seems a little bit

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of a shame to wave goodbye to the Q and

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a Friday, because I've kind of got a little bit

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used to it. It's it's almost the first regular thing

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that I've ever really done. Like like I'm saying like

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a lot to don't I regular as in, well, okay,

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we all know what regular means, don't me.

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But I don't know. I don't know what the solution is.

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So I'm thinking, if I go onto my website, is

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there a.

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Way general settings? Is there a way I can add

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something to the top of the page header and footer

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header layout? Because I'm thinking if there is, I know

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I need to I need to go to the page.

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So I go to pages because maybe if I can

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put so if I edit that homepage, if.

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I can add a question or a button or or

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voice message as well, no not voice meage contact form

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review form.

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I wonder what the review form would do write a

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review for Hypnosis and Sleeping Deeply Blind it no, okay

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that it brings up. It brings up a different one

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for each podcast. So there's too many podcasts. It's a big,

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long old thing. So if I go to intake form,

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what's an intake form? Anyone intake form?

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Say?

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Look what this is? Intake form? Your name?

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Wow?

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Okay, that's a lot of stuff. What if I can

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Nopes not allow me to change stuff? Well, that's no good.

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No, that's probably more for me to fill in, isn't it.

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I suppose so people can know where to go. So

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let's do another one. So I'm thinking if I can

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do what would be quite nice if I could just

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have a section and you can ask. So if I

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could put a contact form at the top.

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And I don't know if I'm able to edit the

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contact form layout. I suppose, Yeah, I could put something

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at the top so you could just put your name in,

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email address and your message. I don't know if it

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allow me to edit what's in the form. Doesn't seem to,

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does it seem to. It's just added another one. That's

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no point to that.

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So maybe I'll do that.

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I'll put that at the top of the page for

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the Jasonnuland dot Com website, and then you can just

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ask your question, you know, add a question that you

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want for Q and A Friday, and I will just

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write them down, keep a track of them and answer

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them as I get them. Well not I get them,

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but whatever I get before that Friday our answer, and

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then whatever I get the following week leading up by

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answer that as well. That makes sense, I think. So

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I need to put a header head in head in

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head in ask question.

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For Q and A Friday. This is real time, baby,

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I'm doing this in real time. But how do I'm

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not used to doing it like this? How do I

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get it to be.

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I don't want largest. I think H two is fine.

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I don't need largest, but I do need it to

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be in the middle. How do I get it into

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the center? Styles typography, font font font font font font

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font While there was in many choices book antiguy and

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that'd be it.

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I don't know old text a line that's it, got

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it in the middle. So is that useful?

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Ask question for Q and a Friday for the next

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for yeah, I'll update that. So let's have a look

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how it looks on my website on the on the phone.

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Jess new Land dot com yeah, blind me, ask question

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for ask questions for Q and a Friday. Should it

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be more than that? Should ask questions? Ask questions for

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ask a question for the next Q.

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And a Friday. What would be the best way to

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word it? I don't know? Uh to do? Do? Do?

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I'm going to ask Q and a chat GPT what's the

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best way to word a title? To form asking for questions? Yes,

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for the next Q and a Friday, and I can

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do it myself.

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I just thought i'd be interested to see what it

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comes up with. Got a question for Q and a Friday?

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See this is better.

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This is ask me anything Q and a Friday submission

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or submit your question for Q and a Friday. I

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think they ask me anything. I quite like that, so

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what okay, let's take get rid of that. Ask me

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anything Q and a Friday submission. Do you think that's okay?

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I think it's what you're doing. So just on.

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New Land ask me anything Q and a Friday submission.

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So from now on we'll just see, we'll see and

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see how it goes. So every time I do recording,

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I'll just say you can go to my website ask

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a question for Q and a Friday.

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And just go to in fact, what I could do?

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Oh I could?

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I mean, it's going to come on the first page.

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I don't need to have it as a as a

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separate link. Do I really a separate page? I might do, though,

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but it's on the very first page. When you go

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to my web fite Jasonnewland dot com, is there, ask

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me anything Q and a Friday submission and you just

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put in your name, put in your email address. You

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can put any email address, it doesn't matter. I'm not

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going to respond unless you want me to respond. And

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then there's just a question and just under your message,

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that's it. I could probably change it a little bit,

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getting make it a bit more flashy, but I think

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that's all right. That does the job, doesn't It don't

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need flashy, just need functional, I would argue, So let

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me know what you think about it. So the question

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really is Thailand?

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So what I thought i'd just maybe talk about Thailand

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as I don't really have. I mean, you know, what

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did I do? Where did I go? What did I So, yeah,

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I'll just talk about my time in Thailand as I

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don't It's the only question I've got, So thank you, Hillary,

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And yeah, that's what I do. I think the first time.

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I really heard about Thailand, I mean I heard about

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it when I was a kid, to see it on TV,

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movies and stuff like that. I didn't realize the connection

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with Vietnam and all that stuff, didn't know the history

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of that. But I think it was more when I

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got into Buddhism and learned a bit more about Tibet

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and Japan, China, India, Burma, all the different places where

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Buddhism was and Thailand being a Buddhist country. I mean,

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how many Buddhist countries are there?

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Not many?

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Right, I need to spell countries correctly, Oh dear, I

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still have to look at the keyboard and the type.

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So there's twelve recognized Buddhist countries in the world where

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Buddhism plays a significant role in shaping the culture.

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So the top ten, really, why is it doing? Whoops?

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The page is gone? Why is the page gone? Right?

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The page is gone? Buddhist by country? Okay, here we go. So, wow,

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there's some countries where there's none recognized.

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I was going to say Afghanistan is thirty one million,

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four hundred and ten Buddhists. But now that's the population

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of the country. There's about ten thousand Buddhists this estimate.

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I didn't realize there'd be any Boddy's in Afghanistan, Albania, Algeria,

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American Samoa, Andra, Angola about ten thousand, Argentina about ten thousand,

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No twenty thousand, Armenia ten thousand, Aluba ten thousand, Australia

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six hundred thousand. Well, now Australia, Australia has got quite

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a link to Thailand.

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There's a link there. There's like, I don't know how

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to express it.

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There's a lot of Australian visitors to Thailand, and I

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think there's a lot of Thailand visitors to Australia. There's

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a all I think, a good positive connection. I might

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be wrong, but it seems like it's almost like a

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a family, like they're related in some way, a bit

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like maybe England and Ireland. There's always going to be

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that connection, regardless of the blamely some of the weird

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history that went on this. I think the average person.

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In England would think of Ireland as being what I do.

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Did I tell you I'm forty eight percent Irish. I'm

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going to you know, I'm going to be saying that

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until I'm ninety. It would never get boring for me.

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So yeah, I think Australia's six hundred thousand. Didn't think

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it would be that many, so it's quite a high.

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It's two point still only two point seven percent. Austria

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twenty thousand, alger Baijan ten thousand. I might mispronounce some

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of these words names, Bahamas ten thousand, and Bahrain thirty thousand,

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Bangladesh a million, a million and one thousand, so that

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doesn't surprise me. But there is one hundred and forty

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eight million, six hundred and ninety thousand people there, so

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it's still zero point six percent. So it's still a

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very very tiny percentage. But when you consider that India

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is where Buddhism came from, and the history of Bangladesh

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and all the other parts of that area sort of

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you know, with the religions and stuff. So yeah, the

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Barbados ten thousand, Blaris ten thousand, Belgium thirty thousand Buddhists,

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so it's zero it's still zero point two percent.

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That's weird.

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I just they've got ten million people in Belgium. Thirty

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thousand is zero point two percent, is it? Thirty thousand,

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three hundred thousand, three million. Yeah, I suppose blind me

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so it's a very small amount. Just it seems like

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quite a few people. So yeah, thirty thousand, believes ten thousand,

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ben In ten thousand, Bermuda ten thousand. Used to be more,

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but they just keep disappearing.

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Do Do Do Do Do Do Do do? Don't hear

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about the Muda triangle anymore? Do? We used to be

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such a big thing.

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It's like the Yetty and the lock Miss Monster, and

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you know, there's TV shows and movies.

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About it, and it's almost like no one cares anymore.

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I still care.

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Bhutan is one of the most famous Buddhist countries. Seventy

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four point seven percent of the country is Buddhist five

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hundred and forty thousand, so seven hundred and thirty thousand

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people live in Bhutan. Seventy four point seven percent is big.

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So I'd quite like to go there.

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Because for me, it's it might I know something that, oh,

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you're going to Thailand.

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It's just to.

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Have a party lifestyle and stuff. It wasn't that party life.

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I've never been a party lifestyle person in my life,

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even when I was young and fruity. I didn't, never

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did never, just wasn't really a crowd person. The only

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place I ever felt comfortable in my life as an adult,

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like out like socially, I mean, would be the comedy

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club that used to frequent and I loved that place.

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It was the only place I really felt at home.

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So Bolivia ten thousand, zero point one percent, Botswana ten thousand,

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So I'm surprised that there's any just because some of

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the cultures ten ten thousand, two million people in Botswana.

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Brazil two hundred and fifty thousand. Again, I'm surprised at that.

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I didn't realize there'd be that many in Brazil. Brunei

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thirty thousand, eight point six percent. So that's interesting because

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Brunei is I think it's not known for being a

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Buddhist place, is it, But it's got one of the

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higher percentages.

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In the world.

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You've got Bulgaria ten thousand. I didn't think there'd be

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any Buddhists in Bulgaria, Burkina Faso ten thousand, because these

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are very Catholic or Christian countries.

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Bulgaria is pretty sure. Cambodia Wa bam Van Cambodia, there's

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fourteen million, one hundred and forty thousand people living in Cambodia.

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How many people do you think are Buddhists according to

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these statistics, thirteen million, six hundred and ninety thousand, ninety

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six point nine percent in Cambodia. Wow, Cameroon ten thousand, Canarada,

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Canada two hundred and eighty thousand. So that's cool, a

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very tiny amount percentage wise, because it's thirty four million

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in Canada. Chad.

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I've got no idea where that is. Ten thousand is Chad?

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Is it near Brazil? Chile? Ten thousand? China. See this

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surprises me.

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I know, it doesn't really surprise me, but it kind

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of surprises me now considering.

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Just the way that China.

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Is portrayed in the West media that there's no freedom. Well,

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according to this is two hundred and forty four million,

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one hundred and thirty thousand Buddhists in China out of

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one point three out of one point three billion, so

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as eighteen point two percent. Again, one of the countries

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that one of the world's highest proportions of Buddhists. So

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I'd like to go to China. I'd like to go

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and visit the Buddhist temples and maybe even stay in

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one for a while. But I don't know what the

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rules are anymore, or you don't know regarding going to China,

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and if we're allowed to go there, and I know

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there's Chinese people will listen to this recording, so hello,

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See there's people from Russia put it from China. There's

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people from all over the world, and some countries that

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block maybe the Western Internet, they just choose VPNs and

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they get through that way. So it looks like I've

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got someone.

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From maybe I don't know, trying to feel the country,

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Holland or Brussels or Scotland.

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But actually they're listening from China because they've got a

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VPN and they just put more of a Western country

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down so they can listen. So hello, Hello my Chinese friends,

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my Russian friends, my Egyptian friends, Costa Rican friends, my

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Cuban friends, Denmark friends. But I can't might Bermuda friends,

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mind you. And I used to have more more listeners

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from Bermuda, but for some reason they just keep vanishing.

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See I'm going to keep doing it. I can't help it. Sorry,

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I have no control.

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So China is definitely a place I'd like to go

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to visit because it's a because of the Buddhism. Really

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Costa Rica, Croatia, ten thousand, Cyprus, Kuba. I'm thinking this

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is just out loud, which is where they're putting ten thousand,

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is they don't know, they're just guessing. France, there's two hundred.

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I imagine they're guessing anyway. But France, you've got two

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hundred and eighty thousand, which is zero point five percent

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out sixty two million, seven hundred and ninety. So France

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has got less people than the UK, more than the

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United Kingdom. Germany eighty two eighty two million, three hundred thousand,

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so they've got more people, but they've got two hundred

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and ten thousand Buddhists. Ghana ten thousand, Greece, Guam, Guatemala, Guinea, Guyana, Haiti, Honduras,

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they've all got that ten thousand. Hong Kong is got

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thirteen point two percent, which is nine hundred and thirty thousand,

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But that's in.

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China, isn't it controversial? Sorry?

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Seven million, fifty and that's a separate place, but it's

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now part of China, isn't it Hong Kong? So it's

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nine hundred and thirty thousand. That's blimey, that's good amount.

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Hungary ten thousand, Iceland ten thousand, India nine million, two

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hundred and fifty thousand, which is where Buddhism originated from.

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Some people think it originated from China, but it was India,

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originated from India one point two billion, so zero point

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eight percent still a small amount in India. I think

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it used to be a Buddhist country and then changed.

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I think it's gone through different phrases.

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Over the years. Indonese year two million and two million

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and sixty two thousand, one hundred and fifty so that's bliman.

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There's two hundred and sixty six million people and a

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half million people living there, so Iran ten thousand, Iraq

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ten thousand. See, I didn't that surprisingly just because I

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thought I didn't think they'd be allowed. But then that's

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just the way that these countries are portrayed on the news.

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Maybe there is more freedom, more religious freedom than is

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you know, presented in the media. What else we got,

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it's itally one hundred and ten thousand out sixty million,

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Jamaica ten thousand, Japan forty five million, eight hundred and

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twenty thousand, so out of one hundred and twenty six

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and a half million, So it's thirty six point two percent.

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So I knew Japan would be large. I was well,

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I thought.

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It might be larger, but nope, it's still thirty six

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point two percent.

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Still one of the largest ones in the country in

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the world.

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Keeps saying country South Korea eleven million, our forty eight

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million is twenty two point nine percent. Guess South Korea

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Kuwait is eighty thousand our two point seven million, So

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that's that's interesting. Laos four point one million million, our

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six point two million set sixty six point one percent.

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And you've got other countries leven and Latvia, lesofa Liberia. Girl,

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you came and you've changed my world, Libya, Leitchenstein, Lithuania, Luxembourg.

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They'd like ten thousand part of Libya's twenty thousand. According

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to this, Macau or Mecca Macau ninety thousand, seventeen point

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three percent. That's quite HIGHPPP. Malaysia five million out of

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twenty eight point four million, so that's nineteen point eight percent. Mexico, Mauritius,

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Martinic Mutiniq, Malta, Mali, Maldives ten thousand. Blimey, I didn't

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realize there's so many countries, so I just skipped to

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the ones where there's actually a lot of people, because

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this is getting ridiculous.

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This is not this is taken forever forever. I tell you.

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Laos four million point one hundred Malaysia did I do that?

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Five million?

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So that's nineteen point eight percent, Mongolia one point five million,

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fifty five point one percent, Burma or Mayan mar thirty

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eight point four million, so it's eighty nine point nine percent.

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Nepal two point four million, it's eight point two percent

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New Zealand fifty two thousand, and then you've got.

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Netherlands forty thousand, Norway thirty thousand, so it's still a

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small proportion. Then you've got fifty thousand in Peru, still

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a small proportion of the people, sixty thousand in Portugal.

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One hundred and seventy thousand in Russia. Wow, okay, cool,

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ninety thousand.

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I mean's one.

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Hundred and forty two point nine million people in Russia

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according to this, so it's zero point one percent, so

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it's very small percentage. Ninety thousand in Saudi Arabia Singapore

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one point seven million, so thirty three point nine percent,

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and then you've got Sri Lanka fourteen point four million,

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sixty nine point three percent, Taiwan four point nine million,

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it's twenty one point three percent, Thailand sixty four point

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four million, ninety three point two percent, and then you've

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got Vietnam fourteen point three million, sixteen point four percent.

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So really, if I go to the just to the percentages,

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just to the percentages. So Cambodia's top a ninety six

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point nine percent, thirteen point six million, but Thailand ninety

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three point two percent second, but it's got a lot

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more Buddhists, sixty four point four million.

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So that's why I went to Thailand.

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That's why I wanted to go there for quite a

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few years.

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And there was a few things that appeal to me.

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Just seems like, what would it be like to be

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in a Buddhist environment unlike here where the Buddhists go

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to a center and it's not this is not a

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Buddhist country, and this is where I live, and it's

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kind of all kind of behind closed doors kind of

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for the Buddhists. I mean, it's you're free to practice

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in this country, whatever you want to do. But I

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think the general public probably don't ever hear about Buddhists.

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They don't make a fuss, they don't, you know, it's

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kind of quiet, quiet, i'd say. But in Thailand the thing,

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So I'll go through the thing. There's a thing in

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Thailand they've got.

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I saw this myself, and I've seen it on videos

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on YouTube. There is a.

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The monks. Because I visited the monastery. It's on this massive, massive,

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massive hill and the steps and it was hard walking

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up there. If I was going to do it again

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and have to be early morning or in the evening

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because it's way too hot, or have someone carry me.

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When I say someone, I mean probably someone dragged me.

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It'd have to be a horse or something. And the.

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Wow, China has got more Buddhists than anywhere. I just

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realized that, BlimE me, China's got the most Buddhists. China,

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it's just it's not the biggest percentage. That two hundred

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and forty four million Chinese Buddhists, and then Thailand second

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at sixty four. So I realized I couldn't just go

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to China. There's visas and well, it's visas for Thailand

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as well, but it's a lot easier what it was

479
00:38:49.519 --> 00:38:54.400
just to go to Thailand. And basically what happened is

480
00:38:55.559 --> 00:38:57.960
I wanted to go. I've not really talked.

481
00:38:57.760 --> 00:39:06.480
About this, but I received a back payment.

482
00:39:07.840 --> 00:39:12.159
Which was owed to me from money that I should

483
00:39:12.199 --> 00:39:15.360
have been getting and I didn't going back for a

484
00:39:15.480 --> 00:39:21.360
few years, so they called me up and sent that

485
00:39:21.400 --> 00:39:21.639
to me.

486
00:39:23.679 --> 00:39:34.400
So what I did is I.

487
00:39:30.119 --> 00:39:34.719
At the time, paid off my debts, paid off bills,

488
00:39:34.880 --> 00:39:38.760
paid off phone contracts, paid off all the different things,

489
00:39:39.079 --> 00:39:41.360
got some new equipment for this play, you know, for

490
00:39:41.639 --> 00:39:48.400
the recording, and gave some of it away to friends.

491
00:39:49.519 --> 00:39:52.719
And then that's when I went over to a fortun

492
00:39:53.519 --> 00:39:55.159
and go to Thailand.

493
00:39:55.400 --> 00:39:57.800
So I did got the.

494
00:39:59.800 --> 00:40:04.440
Did during there was still needed a COVID pass at

495
00:40:04.440 --> 00:40:08.440
that time, even though we was out out of it

496
00:40:08.800 --> 00:40:13.639
in Thailand. That was still all wearing masks and also

497
00:40:13.800 --> 00:40:17.960
in the airports and all that stuff, not in England

498
00:40:18.400 --> 00:40:22.519
but in Thailand and on the plane. If you can

499
00:40:22.559 --> 00:40:24.159
believe that I had.

500
00:40:24.000 --> 00:40:31.079
To wear a mask for twelve hours. You know, when

501
00:40:31.119 --> 00:40:33.280
it came to eating, because there was two meals during

502
00:40:33.320 --> 00:40:39.400
that time. I have never spent so long chewing on

503
00:40:39.519 --> 00:40:44.880
a little bit of food, as I did that day.

504
00:40:45.360 --> 00:40:47.519
I must have spent about three hours eating my dinner

505
00:40:48.280 --> 00:40:50.679
because there was such a break to not have that

506
00:40:50.840 --> 00:40:56.079
mask on, because it was very, very stifling, you know,

507
00:40:56.320 --> 00:41:00.400
to sort of be stuck with it and keep around

508
00:41:00.400 --> 00:41:02.639
and telling people put your mask on, put your mask on.

509
00:41:06.559 --> 00:41:07.840
I mean, it's nice that, you know.

510
00:41:08.239 --> 00:41:11.719
The good thing about that period is I wasn't I

511
00:41:11.760 --> 00:41:13.800
was being asked to put a mask on because everyone

512
00:41:13.840 --> 00:41:16.000
else had to, not just to cover up my face

513
00:41:16.760 --> 00:41:21.000
for other people because they were complaining. So it's nice,

514
00:41:21.079 --> 00:41:24.519
you know, there's a reason for it, and.

515
00:41:27.000 --> 00:41:35.360
So got there. What was weird is so I got my.

516
00:41:35.360 --> 00:41:40.039
Friend to look after my flat. I wasn't gone for

517
00:41:40.119 --> 00:41:43.039
long anyway, a couple of weeks or.

518
00:41:42.960 --> 00:41:47.639
Whatever, but it just had to because I'd lost.

519
00:41:47.440 --> 00:41:56.360
Andre a few months earlier, and I was very aimless

520
00:41:56.400 --> 00:41:58.079
at that time, and I was living on my own game.

521
00:41:58.119 --> 00:41:59.920
I didn't have anyone with me, but I had Onto

522
00:42:00.079 --> 00:42:02.039
with me for six years, five to six and a

523
00:42:02.039 --> 00:42:02.840
half years or whatever.

524
00:42:03.199 --> 00:42:06.840
Five and a half years. It's before I got Vinnie.

525
00:42:07.039 --> 00:42:08.440
I got Vin at the end of the year of

526
00:42:08.480 --> 00:42:15.480
that year two thousand and twenty three. I think it was,

527
00:42:19.440 --> 00:42:23.320
so I just thought, or was it twenty two? I

528
00:42:23.519 --> 00:42:28.280
really lose track. I think it's probably twenty two. Wasn't

529
00:42:28.280 --> 00:42:30.320
it twenty twenty one?

530
00:42:30.360 --> 00:42:30.480
Two?

531
00:42:30.559 --> 00:42:37.679
Yeah, twenty twenty two, endo, twenty two, twenty three, twenty four,

532
00:42:37.800 --> 00:42:42.519
twenty yeah, yeah, twenty two. Yeah, so it's it was

533
00:42:42.760 --> 00:42:52.400
twenty twenty two, And so I go over I didn't.

534
00:42:53.480 --> 00:42:55.320
I booked a hotel, I booked.

535
00:42:55.400 --> 00:42:59.440
It's just, you know, just everything over there is fairly cheap,

536
00:43:00.119 --> 00:43:04.639
an expensive place to go. The airfares are now like

537
00:43:05.239 --> 00:43:08.039
they went up to about double three times the amount

538
00:43:08.639 --> 00:43:13.119
because just after that whole period the fuel went up.

539
00:43:14.159 --> 00:43:16.599
So I managed to go there before the air price

540
00:43:16.760 --> 00:43:23.199
the air flights went up. And I had a couple

541
00:43:23.239 --> 00:43:27.440
of things in mind what I wanted to do. I

542
00:43:27.480 --> 00:43:31.639
was open to the idea of meeting someone because I

543
00:43:31.840 --> 00:43:34.719
was led to believe it's a very friendly place and

544
00:43:35.119 --> 00:43:39.639
maybe I might meet a female and go on dates

545
00:43:39.639 --> 00:43:42.360
and who knows. I didn't know, but I was open

546
00:43:42.400 --> 00:43:45.559
to it. And that is the kind of place. It's

547
00:43:45.679 --> 00:43:50.440
very friendly. People are friendly there, there's no What I

548
00:43:50.519 --> 00:43:54.519
did find out is talking to some of the tie girls,

549
00:43:54.559 --> 00:44:01.159
the Thai ladies, to them, they're very very up front,

550
00:44:01.320 --> 00:44:06.400
very straight, don't mince their words. And one of them

551
00:44:06.480 --> 00:44:08.159
said to me, you know, you all look the same

552
00:44:08.199 --> 00:44:11.960
to us, So what do you mean, So do you

553
00:44:12.079 --> 00:44:14.000
just all are the same. You've all got big noses,

554
00:44:14.519 --> 00:44:19.519
because here I've got a big nose, But in Thailand

555
00:44:20.119 --> 00:44:22.920
pretty much all Westerners have got big noses because they've

556
00:44:22.920 --> 00:44:26.760
got little noses over there. So it's that in their mind,

557
00:44:26.840 --> 00:44:29.480
like you just got big nose. You're English or you're

558
00:44:29.480 --> 00:44:33.280
American or European. They know straight away, and they've got

559
00:44:33.360 --> 00:44:45.079
names they've got like Arab, English, American. I think Arab

560
00:44:45.199 --> 00:44:49.400
kind of covers anyone from like in their mind, like

561
00:44:49.519 --> 00:44:54.400
anyone from like India from the Arabian. You know, it's

562
00:44:54.400 --> 00:44:58.480
like they kind of class as an Arab, which is

563
00:44:58.840 --> 00:45:00.719
I was always fort you don't say the word Arab,

564
00:45:01.519 --> 00:45:07.079
but they just do. And also when it comes because

565
00:45:07.119 --> 00:45:09.719
I think, you know, I tell you that it's the

566
00:45:09.719 --> 00:45:15.280
best place to go if for a trans person, because

567
00:45:15.280 --> 00:45:18.039
if you want to walk down the street test it out,

568
00:45:18.480 --> 00:45:21.880
if you want to test out dressing the way that

569
00:45:21.920 --> 00:45:25.159
you want to dress, you can do that in Thailand

570
00:45:26.199 --> 00:45:29.920
and no one cares. I mean, technically you can probably

571
00:45:29.920 --> 00:45:32.400
do it in London as well, maybe some of the

572
00:45:32.440 --> 00:45:35.480
other cities. And I've seen people in London walk around

573
00:45:35.599 --> 00:45:39.159
dressing gowns in the middle of winter in snow, eating

574
00:45:39.199 --> 00:45:43.280
and ice cream, So you know, I've seen some of

575
00:45:43.320 --> 00:45:46.800
the weirdest things. Probably the weirdest thing I saw in

576
00:45:46.840 --> 00:45:54.800
Thailand was someone on a bicycle with a ladder, but

577
00:45:54.880 --> 00:45:57.360
it was like it wasn't a foldable ladder. It's a

578
00:45:57.400 --> 00:46:02.159
full ladder, probably six foot.

579
00:46:03.679 --> 00:46:05.800
But instead of having it on the side, he had

580
00:46:05.800 --> 00:46:10.280
it on front of him, so it was like stretching

581
00:46:10.360 --> 00:46:13.440
out both sides of the road and he's riding along

582
00:46:13.480 --> 00:46:21.280
like that. I was like, what, how I was spending

583
00:46:21.320 --> 00:46:26.920
the microphone and how how? Why? So that that was

584
00:46:27.519 --> 00:46:32.039
one of the weirdest things I saw. But when I

585
00:46:32.079 --> 00:46:36.000
got to I had this idea what I wanted to do.

586
00:46:39.159 --> 00:46:39.880
I needed a.

587
00:46:39.840 --> 00:46:44.119
Break from because I was taking care of my friend

588
00:46:44.199 --> 00:46:47.000
and I was that was just getting harder and harder.

589
00:46:47.320 --> 00:46:50.639
I needed a break from that. I gave him some

590
00:46:50.760 --> 00:46:58.400
money and I just needed because it was just getting

591
00:46:58.880 --> 00:47:02.119
too much for me and having lost Andrea and I

592
00:47:02.159 --> 00:47:04.079
don't want to go. I was serious, but yeah, I

593
00:47:04.199 --> 00:47:09.840
needed I started having I'd started having panic attacks again

594
00:47:09.880 --> 00:47:12.440
for the first time, I mean regularly, for the first

595
00:47:12.440 --> 00:47:19.559
time in years, you know, like properly, full on, constantly

596
00:47:19.639 --> 00:47:24.280
all the time. Kind of that moment, that situation, and

597
00:47:24.280 --> 00:47:26.679
it was like reverting back to two thousand and six,

598
00:47:28.079 --> 00:47:31.719
and I didn't think that would happen again. And I

599
00:47:31.719 --> 00:47:33.840
couldn't get a grip of them. I couldn't seem to

600
00:47:33.960 --> 00:47:39.599
sort out it. It couldn't. Sort of, it's almost like

601
00:47:39.639 --> 00:47:43.639
I could. I was struggling, really struggling, And I was

602
00:47:43.679 --> 00:47:51.199
also getting what's that thing where your ears go and.

603
00:47:51.159 --> 00:47:52.239
Your kind of dizzy and stuff.

604
00:47:52.239 --> 00:47:56.039
I was getting that as well, So it was all weird.

605
00:47:56.159 --> 00:47:59.039
I was going through some weird, weird things at that time.

606
00:48:02.960 --> 00:48:05.559
And then I thought, you know, I'm just going to go.

607
00:48:06.599 --> 00:48:10.679
So I went out there on the plane. My ears popped,

608
00:48:12.119 --> 00:48:16.639
and that's the last time I had any ear problems,

609
00:48:17.480 --> 00:48:18.519
balance problems.

610
00:48:18.199 --> 00:48:20.440
Whatever you call it. I forget them, but forget the term.

611
00:48:20.920 --> 00:48:22.599
I know the term, but I forget what it is.

612
00:48:23.159 --> 00:48:25.199
But it's the last time that happened. Because both my

613
00:48:25.280 --> 00:48:31.360
ears popped on the plane. An expensive cure, to be fair,

614
00:48:31.480 --> 00:48:36.519
but it cleared whatever was going on in my ears

615
00:48:36.679 --> 00:48:38.199
in a vertigo. That's it.

616
00:48:38.199 --> 00:48:41.480
It cleared it and I haven't had it since I

617
00:48:41.599 --> 00:48:44.719
used to have it a few years ago. But that

618
00:48:44.840 --> 00:48:51.360
was course through a burst ear drum. This seemed to

619
00:48:51.360 --> 00:48:53.679
be caused by stress or something. I don't know what

620
00:48:53.719 --> 00:48:57.159
it was, grief, it could be anything, all kinds of stuff.

621
00:48:59.320 --> 00:49:01.760
So I need to get away. So I got away.

622
00:49:02.599 --> 00:49:05.239
I went there, stayed in this hotel.

623
00:49:06.159 --> 00:49:08.000
I think one of my happiest memories, and it's going

624
00:49:08.039 --> 00:49:09.840
to be weird to say this, but one of my happy,

625
00:49:10.159 --> 00:49:15.119
happiest times was sitting on the verandah. And this hotel

626
00:49:15.159 --> 00:49:16.880
was in a back alley, so it wasn't even like

627
00:49:16.960 --> 00:49:20.280
a near the sea or anything. I wasn't far from

628
00:49:20.320 --> 00:49:27.199
the sea, and I was sitting on the verandah taking

629
00:49:27.199 --> 00:49:30.559
in the smells. And that's the one thing about I'm

630
00:49:30.559 --> 00:49:32.599
not doing about the whole of Thailand, but anywhere I

631
00:49:32.639 --> 00:49:37.000
went it smelt nice because of the food. It's like

632
00:49:37.320 --> 00:49:40.000
just there's a lot of street food and it just

633
00:49:40.000 --> 00:49:45.440
smelt nice. There was no horrible smells. And the Thai

634
00:49:45.599 --> 00:49:49.920
people probably amongst the cleanest people I've ever been around.

635
00:49:50.360 --> 00:49:53.840
They have multiple showers a day because of the heeks.

636
00:49:53.840 --> 00:49:56.760
It's so hot and stuff, and it was like, wow,

637
00:49:58.039 --> 00:49:59.559
I have more showers in a day than I do

638
00:49:59.599 --> 00:50:00.000
any year.

639
00:50:00.079 --> 00:50:01.039
Yeah.

640
00:50:01.239 --> 00:50:02.760
I shouldn't say that out loud, should I?

641
00:50:02.840 --> 00:50:06.639
But yeah, it was very It was a very clean,

642
00:50:07.159 --> 00:50:10.960
very clean place from that perspective. From that perspective, what

643
00:50:11.079 --> 00:50:13.960
I did found weird, though I did found I found

644
00:50:14.599 --> 00:50:15.320
I find.

645
00:50:15.079 --> 00:50:21.920
It weird is there was hardly any hot water. It

646
00:50:21.960 --> 00:50:26.800
was just warm like here I used to and I

647
00:50:26.880 --> 00:50:30.039
don't I don't scold my hands when I wash my hands,

648
00:50:30.039 --> 00:50:32.280
but I wash my hands quite regularly and.

649
00:50:32.719 --> 00:50:35.519
Every time I go out because we shared a banister

650
00:50:35.639 --> 00:50:39.199
and stuff, you know, outside in the hallway, and I

651
00:50:39.239 --> 00:50:42.679
always wash my hands when I get back, just so that,

652
00:50:43.000 --> 00:50:46.440
you know, got rid of any who knows what people

653
00:50:46.440 --> 00:50:46.960
have been.

654
00:50:48.960 --> 00:50:51.519
Doing with their hands. I don't know. I know what

655
00:50:51.559 --> 00:50:56.320
I've been doing with mine. So when I was out there,

656
00:50:56.639 --> 00:50:59.440
it just wasn't hot. The water wasn't hot to a

657
00:50:59.519 --> 00:51:05.599
level that I was used to, which is very strange.

658
00:51:06.719 --> 00:51:10.840
Maybe that's why they have so many showers, because it's

659
00:51:10.960 --> 00:51:15.360
like keeping a constant cleansing. The cleaning lotless miss ness

660
00:51:15.599 --> 00:51:23.119
ness thing cleanly ness. I mean, I don't know if

661
00:51:23.119 --> 00:51:26.440
every single person has lots and lots of showers, but

662
00:51:26.719 --> 00:51:32.239
it's you know, the whole time I was out there,

663
00:51:32.320 --> 00:51:40.000
I didn't meet one bad smelling person at all, A

664
00:51:40.079 --> 00:51:43.480
type person that smell weird, not weird.

665
00:51:43.519 --> 00:51:48.360
But when it's hot, there's a tendency you know, just

666
00:51:48.559 --> 00:51:54.400
naturally that it's gonna come across yourd with you'red wiffy person.

667
00:51:54.440 --> 00:51:58.199
It's just natural, especially climely on the tube. That's the

668
00:51:58.239 --> 00:52:00.639
person I was always stuck under their eyes put armpit

669
00:52:00.719 --> 00:52:01.559
and I couldn't get out.

670
00:52:02.360 --> 00:52:07.400
That's that was always. Yeah, I love the tube and

671
00:52:07.480 --> 00:52:15.000
I didn't, so that was strange. I just I just

672
00:52:15.079 --> 00:52:17.360
not have any hot water. That threw me off a bit.

673
00:52:18.719 --> 00:52:21.519
But one of my happiest memories of being there was

674
00:52:21.599 --> 00:52:23.320
sitting on the verandah.

675
00:52:24.639 --> 00:52:28.800
The first few mornings I had.

676
00:52:29.800 --> 00:52:32.519
There was no food in the restaurant because I had

677
00:52:32.599 --> 00:52:36.519
like a Thai restaurant part of the hotel. But because

678
00:52:36.559 --> 00:52:43.320
of that period, you know, two thousand and twenty twenty one,

679
00:52:43.679 --> 00:52:47.119
pretty much most of the tourism in Thailand, and I'd

680
00:52:47.159 --> 00:52:51.840
say probably the whole of the world pretty much closed down,

681
00:52:53.480 --> 00:52:56.599
So there was there wasn't a lot open when I

682
00:52:56.639 --> 00:52:59.559
went there. A lot of restaurants were closed. A lot

683
00:52:59.599 --> 00:53:02.360
of bars were closed, not that I'm really a bar

684
00:53:02.480 --> 00:53:05.960
person anyway, but there was a lot of things weren't open.

685
00:53:07.119 --> 00:53:10.719
They either hadn't they either.

686
00:53:12.280 --> 00:53:15.920
They hadn't reopened them, or they were closed completely. There

687
00:53:15.960 --> 00:53:20.320
was parts of the area that were completely derelict that

688
00:53:20.639 --> 00:53:22.519
two years earlier had been really busy.

689
00:53:23.480 --> 00:53:25.320
So and the.

690
00:53:25.199 --> 00:53:30.760
Only real regular people they were getting was people that

691
00:53:30.880 --> 00:53:34.559
lived a bit closer. So they had people from India,

692
00:53:34.639 --> 00:53:39.159
they appealed from Emirates, they appeared from Australia coming over,

693
00:53:39.280 --> 00:53:42.280
but they didn't weren't getting a lot of They're still

694
00:53:42.320 --> 00:53:47.840
getting like Americans and English, but because of the the restrictions,

695
00:53:47.840 --> 00:53:49.800
they weren't getting as many as they would normally get.

696
00:53:50.920 --> 00:53:54.360
This is what I was told. None of the hotels

697
00:53:54.400 --> 00:54:02.960
were full, so it was fairly check the rooms. I mean,

698
00:54:03.000 --> 00:54:07.119
I think if that was in this country, what the

699
00:54:07.159 --> 00:54:09.480
people what to cut the hotels in this country would

700
00:54:09.519 --> 00:54:12.119
do is put the prices up to try and get

701
00:54:12.119 --> 00:54:12.840
their money back.

702
00:54:13.840 --> 00:54:16.679
But they didn't do that. They just treated people fairly

703
00:54:17.280 --> 00:54:20.320
because they were happy to have the customers. You know,

704
00:54:20.360 --> 00:54:23.280
the mentality in this country is well, if you've if

705
00:54:23.280 --> 00:54:27.039
you've got a hundred rooms and I can only fill fifty,

706
00:54:27.440 --> 00:54:29.119
then we'll try and charge them twice a price so

707
00:54:29.119 --> 00:54:31.719
we can get the money back for the other fifty

708
00:54:31.760 --> 00:54:33.000
rooms that we not fill in.

709
00:54:35.360 --> 00:54:36.400
But the way they see it.

710
00:54:36.320 --> 00:54:40.159
Over there more is well, actually we're grateful to have

711
00:54:40.199 --> 00:54:45.280
fifty rooms for so we'll let people have a cheaper

712
00:54:45.639 --> 00:54:50.360
have a cheaper time, you know, maybe stay for ten

713
00:54:50.480 --> 00:54:54.920
or twenty percent off the price because they've got such

714
00:54:54.920 --> 00:54:59.000
a choice of other hotels to stay in. So that's

715
00:54:59.159 --> 00:55:04.800
you know, that's I quite like that. But that was

716
00:55:04.920 --> 00:55:10.760
nice sitting on that veranda or that balcony. Rather, I

717
00:55:10.880 --> 00:55:18.639
bought some paper, some paper what are they called paper dishes,

718
00:55:18.920 --> 00:55:22.800
and some paper spoons or plastic spoons to eat, and

719
00:55:22.840 --> 00:55:26.000
I got some breakfast cereal, little boxes of breakfast cereal,

720
00:55:26.480 --> 00:55:29.360
and some milk put in the fridge, and a cup

721
00:55:29.400 --> 00:55:32.559
of coffee, so I had coffee anyway there. So I

722
00:55:32.559 --> 00:55:37.800
had a cup of coffee and my corn flakes on

723
00:55:38.000 --> 00:55:41.320
the veranda the balcony. What's the different to the veranda

724
00:55:41.320 --> 00:55:47.199
on the balcony. And I'm listening to my phone and

725
00:55:47.199 --> 00:55:51.280
I'm listening to LBC radio and it was Steve Allen,

726
00:55:51.760 --> 00:55:54.480
who does his four o'clock was what he used to

727
00:55:54.480 --> 00:55:57.480
do four till seven in the morning radio show, just

728
00:55:57.519 --> 00:55:59.519
a talk show where he just talked.

729
00:55:59.599 --> 00:56:00.280
He didn't the.

730
00:56:01.800 --> 00:56:04.960
Phones, but it would read out, you know, text messages

731
00:56:05.039 --> 00:56:05.840
and stuff like that.

732
00:56:08.360 --> 00:56:10.400
And I just remember, I don't know what time of

733
00:56:10.400 --> 00:56:17.760
the day it was for me. It was BlimE me.

734
00:56:18.679 --> 00:56:23.000
It's probably mourning for me, maybe ten o'clock in the

735
00:56:23.039 --> 00:56:24.039
morning or something.

736
00:56:25.199 --> 00:56:34.559
But it was just nice. It's very peaceful, and it

737
00:56:34.599 --> 00:56:38.480
wasn't busy. Really, it wasn't really busy where I was.

738
00:56:38.559 --> 00:56:41.920
It was quite quite kind of a little area. It wasn't

739
00:56:41.920 --> 00:56:46.280
a lot going on. The tourism was probably i'd say

740
00:56:46.280 --> 00:56:50.639
probably ten percent what it would normally be, which is

741
00:56:50.639 --> 00:56:53.239
why it was only ten percent of the place is open, probably,

742
00:56:56.639 --> 00:56:59.960
And I just thought, oh, so I had had my dinner,

743
00:57:00.119 --> 00:57:02.880
how many breakfast. But the very first night I got there,

744
00:57:04.719 --> 00:57:06.920
I went and had to look around. I went for walk,

745
00:57:07.800 --> 00:57:11.039
didn't know where I was going. But the good thing

746
00:57:11.079 --> 00:57:14.400
about you know, if you go to a seaside resort

747
00:57:14.639 --> 00:57:18.920
in Thailand, again, I don't know if all the places

748
00:57:18.960 --> 00:57:22.599
are same, but it's well lit. There's a lot of

749
00:57:22.639 --> 00:57:27.199
people around because it's a tourist destination. It's the safest

750
00:57:27.239 --> 00:57:30.079
I've ever felt walking around at two in the morning.

751
00:57:32.920 --> 00:57:36.800
I mean ever, never ever felt safe really, because the

752
00:57:36.840 --> 00:57:38.639
only time I'd walk around at two in the morning

753
00:57:38.719 --> 00:57:43.000
was when I was in London, and in London, two

754
00:57:43.079 --> 00:57:43.840
in the morning is not.

755
00:57:45.559 --> 00:57:48.400
Yeah, it's never. Even as a young person, it wasn't.

756
00:57:48.400 --> 00:57:50.280
I was worried, but I never really felt kind of

757
00:57:51.039 --> 00:57:54.320
I felt on guard, but here I didn't feel on

758
00:57:54.320 --> 00:58:00.840
guard at all. It seemed like the sort of place where, yeah,

759
00:58:00.920 --> 00:58:04.119
if you want trouble, you can have it. It's like,

760
00:58:04.159 --> 00:58:06.159
if you want trouble, they give it to you, but

761
00:58:06.199 --> 00:58:11.000
if you don't, they're fine. You know, it's not anywhere

762
00:58:10.719 --> 00:58:13.039
if you want to be a trouble maker. It's very

763
00:58:13.039 --> 00:58:16.519
easy to get into trouble anywhere you go, but there

764
00:58:17.119 --> 00:58:23.599
it's you won't. My experiences, I felt safe. That's pretty

765
00:58:23.639 --> 00:58:24.400
much what I'm saying.

766
00:58:26.280 --> 00:58:27.760
And I got to know a few of the people

767
00:58:28.440 --> 00:58:34.119
and some of the some of the Buddhist parts of

768
00:58:34.199 --> 00:58:37.079
their life, so it's basically they're indoctrinated into it. They're

769
00:58:37.079 --> 00:58:44.480
born into Buddhism. Now they have Buddhist holidays. They also

770
00:58:44.840 --> 00:58:50.679
absolutely love their role family out there. I mean like

771
00:58:51.880 --> 00:58:56.239
in a way that maybe we used to in this country.

772
00:58:57.199 --> 00:59:02.480
They're really important into them.

773
00:59:02.639 --> 00:59:04.480
I mean, I know there are people out there in

774
00:59:04.519 --> 00:59:07.199
this country that love the royal family, but I'm talking

775
00:59:07.280 --> 00:59:07.880
as a nation.

776
00:59:08.719 --> 00:59:11.719
There's a real loyalty to the royal family in Thailand.

777
00:59:12.920 --> 00:59:18.159
It's they're almost like say royalty, I suppose, but they're

778
00:59:18.280 --> 00:59:24.440
very Yeah, it's hard to explain what I mean, but

779
00:59:24.519 --> 00:59:29.360
it's huge. And when there's a birthday, there's no alcohol

780
00:59:29.400 --> 00:59:34.559
sold when there's a public a royal day. So if

781
00:59:34.599 --> 00:59:38.039
it's the King's birthday or whatever something like that, no

782
00:59:38.159 --> 00:59:40.119
alcohol during that day.

783
00:59:40.679 --> 00:59:41.480
They're still open.

784
00:59:42.039 --> 00:59:44.239
Bars will still open, but it will be soft drinks only,

785
00:59:44.880 --> 00:59:47.880
and they'll actually tell people. Because I went in on

786
00:59:47.960 --> 00:59:51.159
the day I went The day after I went there,

787
00:59:52.199 --> 00:59:57.079
it was a bank holiday due to a remember the

788
00:59:57.119 --> 01:00:01.039
royal family. I think it was a king's birthday. And

789
01:00:01.119 --> 01:00:05.920
I went in and there was this bar and I

790
01:00:06.880 --> 01:00:09.239
wasn't bored about drinking alcohol anywhere. I was still a

791
01:00:09.239 --> 01:00:11.039
bit jet lagged.

792
01:00:11.599 --> 01:00:17.519
I needed something to eat, and so I sat down

793
01:00:17.559 --> 01:00:21.000
and the first thing I was told is you can't

794
01:00:21.079 --> 01:00:26.880
serve your alcohol. I said, that's all right, and she

795
01:00:26.960 --> 01:00:31.679
said what I said, that's okay, I'm not bothered. I

796
01:00:31.800 --> 01:00:35.280
don't care if I drinking alcohol, she said. Turned out

797
01:00:35.280 --> 01:00:41.639
she couldn't speak English. She said what she was surprised because.

798
01:00:42.480 --> 01:00:46.119
I think most people that go there are going to drink.

799
01:00:46.400 --> 01:00:49.559
And I wasn't really that bothered. So I had something

800
01:00:49.599 --> 01:00:51.599
to eat. I can't remember what I had.

801
01:00:52.920 --> 01:00:53.519
We have to.

802
01:00:53.679 --> 01:00:57.039
I found a burger and chips and the coke.

803
01:00:58.719 --> 01:01:01.719
That's back in the days when I drinking Coca cola.

804
01:01:02.000 --> 01:01:05.880
I'm like now when I just drink water. I don't

805
01:01:05.880 --> 01:01:13.039
even drink alcohol anymore. Blimey, And.

806
01:01:16.199 --> 01:01:23.159
I think the So there was a lady called Ella there.

807
01:01:23.480 --> 01:01:25.719
I really I don't know.

808
01:01:25.719 --> 01:01:28.760
I just like really liked her because we were talking

809
01:01:28.800 --> 01:01:30.440
and she had the same kind of energy as me,

810
01:01:30.880 --> 01:01:34.960
quite low key. I'm quite low energy, really, and I

811
01:01:35.039 --> 01:01:37.199
in my moment, I do have my moments, but it

812
01:01:37.199 --> 01:01:38.519
doesn't everyone.

813
01:01:39.239 --> 01:01:45.039
But I'm quite low in. She're quite quiet. I don't get.

814
01:01:48.440 --> 01:01:52.119
I'm not the most excitable person. Really, you know, I'm

815
01:01:52.119 --> 01:01:57.719
not particularly loud, and we seem to get on quite well.

816
01:02:02.119 --> 01:02:04.920
Now you're going to just probably I don't know I

817
01:02:05.079 --> 01:02:10.400
tell you this, but anyway, she is it Ella or

818
01:02:10.440 --> 01:02:13.239
is it Bella or was it Stella or was it

819
01:02:13.320 --> 01:02:14.480
Gee or is it nom?

820
01:02:14.800 --> 01:02:17.119
I don't know. I forget what her name was, but

821
01:02:18.360 --> 01:02:22.079
she invited me. I think of Ella because it's someone

822
01:02:22.119 --> 01:02:24.599
a big brother Cordella. That's what I'm thinking of that word,

823
01:02:24.840 --> 01:02:28.719
that name, she said. I went in there a couple

824
01:02:28.760 --> 01:02:32.920
of days in a row. I think the first night

825
01:02:35.360 --> 01:02:40.039
she I'm always at the second night because I went

826
01:02:40.079 --> 01:02:41.840
in there because I quite liked the vibe in there.

827
01:02:42.800 --> 01:02:47.320
And she said, I was got talking to another bloke.

828
01:02:47.679 --> 01:02:50.840
It was from Ireland, and he just, you know, he

829
01:02:50.920 --> 01:02:54.239
was just chatting and stuff. And they were closing up

830
01:02:55.719 --> 01:02:58.719
and we're going out, and the he was going back

831
01:02:58.840 --> 01:03:02.559
with the other waitress or the other there was like

832
01:03:02.559 --> 01:03:05.000
two managers. He was I don't know if that was

833
01:03:05.000 --> 01:03:06.199
his girlfriend or what.

834
01:03:07.079 --> 01:03:11.239
And she said, I'll bring bring Jason back and the

835
01:03:11.320 --> 01:03:17.480
other one said no, I don't know, and I thought,

836
01:03:17.519 --> 01:03:21.719
I don't care, it's fine, and I don't know. I

837
01:03:21.760 --> 01:03:26.159
didn't ask to go anywhere anyway. Well, a couple of

838
01:03:26.239 --> 01:03:29.400
nights later I went back and she's just there on

839
01:03:29.440 --> 01:03:32.000
her own, and at the end of the night she

840
01:03:32.480 --> 01:03:39.079
offered to take me home. And this is a bit

841
01:03:39.119 --> 01:03:42.079
where I should be saying, well, I'd like to be

842
01:03:42.119 --> 01:03:45.199
saying I went home. It was the best night of

843
01:03:45.280 --> 01:03:50.679
my life. We fell in love, and you know, we

844
01:03:50.800 --> 01:03:55.119
got married and we going to spend the rest of

845
01:03:55.159 --> 01:03:58.239
my life with our I say, I bet the rest

846
01:03:58.239 --> 01:04:00.920
of our lives together. But she's but younger than me.

847
01:04:01.880 --> 01:04:07.840
I don't know how much I would say. It's hard

848
01:04:07.960 --> 01:04:11.840
to guess under thirty. I would say, maybe maybe older,

849
01:04:11.880 --> 01:04:16.519
but it's hard, you know. And it's someone else that

850
01:04:16.639 --> 01:04:20.320
I got on with. She was thirty eight and didn't

851
01:04:20.320 --> 01:04:23.800
look I could. I would never have guessed her age.

852
01:04:24.360 --> 01:04:29.239
I'm no good at guessing ages anymore, not that ever

853
01:04:29.440 --> 01:04:32.199
was so if I ever was that good. But I

854
01:04:32.199 --> 01:04:33.639
think there was a period when I was in my

855
01:04:33.719 --> 01:04:37.840
twenties and I could kind of gauge in age, gauge

856
01:04:37.840 --> 01:04:41.480
and age, you know, if someone was nineteen or someone

857
01:04:41.639 --> 01:04:47.599
was like late twenties, maybe early thirties. But as I

858
01:04:47.599 --> 01:04:53.400
got older, people in the early twenties look just some

859
01:04:53.480 --> 01:04:58.840
of them are really really young, and then some people

860
01:04:58.960 --> 01:05:05.119
in their sixties look really really young, Like how can

861
01:05:05.159 --> 01:05:07.239
you can't be I know a couple of people and

862
01:05:07.239 --> 01:05:08.000
they're both.

863
01:05:09.719 --> 01:05:10.159
BlimE me.

864
01:05:10.280 --> 01:05:14.440
I think they're both like nearly eighty, and neither of

865
01:05:14.480 --> 01:05:20.679
them look it. It's like, how can you be nearly eighty?

866
01:05:20.920 --> 01:05:27.320
So it's uh. Someone did say to me and said,

867
01:05:27.719 --> 01:05:30.159
you said, well, you look younger than you are. But

868
01:05:30.199 --> 01:05:32.320
it probably wouldn't do if you took your glasses off

869
01:05:32.599 --> 01:05:35.199
and we could see your eyes, because I've got like

870
01:05:35.360 --> 01:05:39.199
shades some of my glasses acted like or whatever I

871
01:05:39.320 --> 01:05:43.239
thought was a rude. If anything, I'm really younger without

872
01:05:43.239 --> 01:05:45.559
the glasses. Probably not.

873
01:05:47.239 --> 01:05:53.280
So in those situations, all you can do. You can argue,

874
01:05:53.440 --> 01:05:58.039
or you can just silently fart and walk away. So

875
01:05:58.159 --> 01:05:59.199
I chose to do that.

876
01:06:01.920 --> 01:06:06.960
So I yeah, So we didn't have a romance, and

877
01:06:07.000 --> 01:06:13.039
I didn't. What I did is first of all, I thought, yeah,

878
01:06:13.079 --> 01:06:14.920
But it wasn't do you want to come back to mine?

879
01:06:15.119 --> 01:06:23.280
It was as go then, and she called two mopeds,

880
01:06:23.760 --> 01:06:27.840
two moped taxis. She had her own moped, but she

881
01:06:27.920 --> 01:06:29.920
left it there because she had a couple of drinks.

882
01:06:30.719 --> 01:06:33.480
So she got a moped taxi for herself and one

883
01:06:33.519 --> 01:06:33.760
for me.

884
01:06:35.000 --> 01:06:38.880
And I said no. I said, no way in the

885
01:06:38.920 --> 01:06:43.159
world am I getting on the back of that. And

886
01:06:47.639 --> 01:06:50.840
I'm not sure days gone past when I wish that

887
01:06:50.920 --> 01:06:52.760
I had just got on the back of the moped

888
01:06:53.719 --> 01:07:02.920
because I put fear ahead of pleasure, maybe fear ahead of.

889
01:07:04.239 --> 01:07:06.079
I wasn't scared of her. I was just scared of

890
01:07:06.119 --> 01:07:13.119
the motor journey, the being on a moped, just just

891
01:07:13.639 --> 01:07:16.840
having seen the way they ride those mopeds in and

892
01:07:16.840 --> 01:07:19.679
out of traffic, like seeing that and then thinking this

893
01:07:19.800 --> 01:07:23.320
is going to happen at eleven o'clock at night or

894
01:07:23.360 --> 01:07:26.840
half eleven at night, and it was dark at that point,

895
01:07:30.320 --> 01:07:31.679
and I didn't know where we were going.

896
01:07:32.960 --> 01:07:34.639
You know, It's like a part of me thinking and

897
01:07:34.679 --> 01:07:37.400
that this is my friend's He put this image in

898
01:07:37.440 --> 01:07:40.159
my head. He kept saying, well, be careful. You don't

899
01:07:40.199 --> 01:07:42.000
go home with someone and wake up in a bar

900
01:07:42.079 --> 01:07:44.039
full of ice and one.

901
01:07:43.920 --> 01:07:48.000
Of your organs missing. It's like brilliant, like thanks for that.

902
01:07:48.039 --> 01:07:50.800
I really wanted that in my head, and I kept

903
01:07:51.239 --> 01:07:59.440
I was thinking this, this lady's seriously, we're gonna say

904
01:07:59.480 --> 01:08:02.199
up my street. You know, as far as she just

905
01:08:02.559 --> 01:08:06.679
really lovely, I liked her a lot, but I did think, well,

906
01:08:06.800 --> 01:08:12.800
maybe I don't know, I might just.

907
01:08:14.440 --> 01:08:16.479
Is she gonna try and make some money from me

908
01:08:16.560 --> 01:08:21.199
by I'm going to wake up with only one liver,

909
01:08:21.520 --> 01:08:26.840
you know, so I thought, oh maybe, but there was

910
01:08:26.960 --> 01:08:29.039
that was it was more than moped to be fair.

911
01:08:30.479 --> 01:08:34.640
And then there was also I'm thinking, maybe she's just

912
01:08:34.640 --> 01:08:37.159
being friendly and she takes me back to her place

913
01:08:37.199 --> 01:08:37.960
and introduces me.

914
01:08:37.920 --> 01:08:39.279
To a boyfriend.

915
01:08:40.680 --> 01:08:44.760
Or a husband, and she's just being friendly, just a

916
01:08:44.800 --> 01:08:49.800
friendly person. Because that happened in Bulgaria, I was I

917
01:08:49.840 --> 01:08:52.720
spent all day talking to a wait to she was.

918
01:08:54.720 --> 01:08:55.800
Work behind the bar, so.

919
01:08:55.760 --> 01:09:00.079
I think she's like a bar manager all day in

920
01:09:00.079 --> 01:09:03.960
the hotel. This is when I went snowboarding, but I'd

921
01:09:04.000 --> 01:09:08.039
spent the day before traveling down a mountain on my face,

922
01:09:08.760 --> 01:09:13.119
so I took a day off. I was teaching her English,

923
01:09:13.119 --> 01:09:16.119
who was teaching me Bulgarian. It's just me and her

924
01:09:16.279 --> 01:09:21.520
pretty much for hours and hours. And then in the evening,

925
01:09:21.840 --> 01:09:25.800
when my fellow travelers that I traveled there with got

926
01:09:25.840 --> 01:09:30.840
back from the mountain slopes, you know, we're another dinner,

927
01:09:32.800 --> 01:09:37.199
trying not to laugh at the the music act, and

928
01:09:37.279 --> 01:09:40.960
then it's just I don't know, I'm not used to

929
01:09:41.000 --> 01:09:43.760
having music being played on a meeting. You know, when

930
01:09:43.760 --> 01:09:47.560
Summer starts playing a harpt chord and it's like what

931
01:09:48.239 --> 01:09:51.800
starts dancing. It's like, I'm this is this is confusing

932
01:09:51.880 --> 01:09:52.439
my senses.

933
01:09:56.000 --> 01:10:01.079
And we're in this bar, which is part of our hotel.

934
01:10:01.399 --> 01:10:03.479
Where I went to was part of another kind of

935
01:10:03.520 --> 01:10:04.399
hotel part.

936
01:10:04.840 --> 01:10:07.000
Because all part of this big old complex and there's

937
01:10:07.039 --> 01:10:10.560
this like underground trapped tunnels and stuff. And I just

938
01:10:10.600 --> 01:10:13.640
followed them until I found new other places to go

939
01:10:13.680 --> 01:10:17.439
to what didn't seem to even.

940
01:10:17.239 --> 01:10:19.880
Be part of the hotel. It's like part of something else.

941
01:10:21.600 --> 01:10:25.720
Anyway, I'm in the in the bar, another bar, with

942
01:10:25.800 --> 01:10:30.479
my my friends that have traveled to Bulgaria.

943
01:10:29.920 --> 01:10:32.079
With and.

944
01:10:36.760 --> 01:10:40.600
This this bloke came up to me, tapped me on

945
01:10:40.640 --> 01:10:46.720
the shoulder and he looked exactly how he was. He

946
01:10:46.880 --> 01:10:55.800
was a gangster, like proper gangster. It's like it's it's

947
01:10:55.840 --> 01:11:00.039
hard to explain, but I would bet any money I

948
01:11:00.079 --> 01:11:04.479
had that he had a gun on him. And he

949
01:11:04.479 --> 01:11:09.880
said he pointed, he pointed, and he's like, he's the

950
01:11:09.960 --> 01:11:12.399
lady that I've been talking to all day. He says,

951
01:11:12.600 --> 01:11:13.439
that's my fiance.

952
01:11:16.479 --> 01:11:17.439
M m mmmmm.

953
01:11:19.359 --> 01:11:21.319
I mean that's when I thought I really am gonna

954
01:11:21.399 --> 01:11:27.920
wake up in nice on a mountain, a mountain, and

955
01:11:28.000 --> 01:11:33.960
she comes over and he says and I thought, oh god,

956
01:11:34.000 --> 01:11:36.520
I don't know what to say here, because I really

957
01:11:36.600 --> 01:11:40.880
liked her, and I didn't realize she was I didn't

958
01:11:40.880 --> 01:11:43.960
ask if she had a boyfriend or anything, because I

959
01:11:44.000 --> 01:11:44.680
was just chatting to her.

960
01:11:44.720 --> 01:11:45.279
It was nothing.

961
01:11:46.079 --> 01:11:50.960
I wasn't flirting, really, just having a nice conversation during

962
01:11:51.000 --> 01:11:56.800
that whole day. And she said, and she came over smiling,

963
01:11:57.680 --> 01:12:03.239
and I thought, I wonder if he's smiling. I didn't look, and.

964
01:12:03.199 --> 01:12:05.479
I think might still have his hand on my shoulder,

965
01:12:06.720 --> 01:12:09.039
and my knees were shaking.

966
01:12:10.920 --> 01:12:13.680
My knees were shaking. That sounds like a song, isn't it.

967
01:12:14.079 --> 01:12:19.640
And the hips were weak. And he said, I understand

968
01:12:19.840 --> 01:12:21.720
in it an accent. You've been teaching.

969
01:12:22.199 --> 01:12:25.840
You've been teaching whatever her name was, to some English words,

970
01:12:25.880 --> 01:12:28.000
and she's been I said, she's been teaching you some

971
01:12:28.119 --> 01:12:31.760
Bulgaria and I said yeah. He said, oh, very good,

972
01:12:31.960 --> 01:12:41.039
very good. I'm BlimE me. He it's so cool because

973
01:12:41.079 --> 01:12:45.560
he I think it's probably the only time ever that

974
01:12:45.600 --> 01:12:51.039
I've been thankful that I wasn't good looking, because I

975
01:12:51.119 --> 01:12:54.079
clearly was not a threat to him in any way.

976
01:12:54.760 --> 01:12:56.800
And I don't mean this physically, but I wasn't like

977
01:12:56.840 --> 01:13:01.840
a threat to his relationship. I was some handsome, strapping,

978
01:13:03.800 --> 01:13:06.720
you know, handsome guy that's gonna try and steal his

979
01:13:06.800 --> 01:13:11.399
fiance way. He didn't see any any threaten or at all,

980
01:13:12.479 --> 01:13:14.439
which is good for me.

981
01:13:14.600 --> 01:13:14.920
Really.

982
01:13:16.520 --> 01:13:18.479
It's the only time I've ever been grateful that I

983
01:13:18.479 --> 01:13:24.359
would look like I do, and he liked me, brought

984
01:13:24.439 --> 01:13:28.800
me a drink and he was chatting to me, and

985
01:13:28.840 --> 01:13:34.720
they were chatting, and she was like, you know, talking

986
01:13:34.800 --> 01:13:40.079
to me, and it's like really nice.

987
01:13:40.960 --> 01:13:44.520
I didn't know what to do next. I still wasn't

988
01:13:44.600 --> 01:13:48.680
sure because I'd seen the Sopranos. I mean, the Sopranos

989
01:13:48.680 --> 01:13:52.239
hadn't finished. The Sopranos were still going strong in those days,

990
01:13:52.239 --> 01:13:57.199
because this was two thousand and two, probably about March time,

991
01:13:58.119 --> 01:14:02.079
so the Sopranos are still you know, No, it's infancy

992
01:14:02.119 --> 01:14:04.439
because it went on to about twenty ten, didn't it.

993
01:14:04.439 --> 01:14:09.319
Well I suppose infancy, yeah, I guess, but I wasn't

994
01:14:09.359 --> 01:14:09.920
sure how this.

995
01:14:10.039 --> 01:14:14.159
Was going to play out. But it went okay, and

996
01:14:14.279 --> 01:14:21.840
I'm here, so it's fine. And then I yeah, that

997
01:14:21.920 --> 01:14:31.560
was just strange, very strange. Yeah, she was, it was.

998
01:14:32.199 --> 01:14:36.520
I didn't Yeah, I mean, it's not Thailand.

999
01:14:36.600 --> 01:14:38.520
It's a different story. It's just.

1000
01:14:41.720 --> 01:14:44.560
When I go abroad or in the past, when I've

1001
01:14:44.560 --> 01:14:50.680
gone abroad, I seemed to be different, maybe a bit

1002
01:14:50.720 --> 01:14:57.439
more confident, maybe maybe a bit more relaxed, maybe a

1003
01:14:57.439 --> 01:15:01.319
bit freer. I don't put any effort in.

1004
01:15:03.479 --> 01:15:08.640
Yeah I don't. I'm not kind of like trying to

1005
01:15:08.680 --> 01:15:11.119
get to know anyone. Just see what happens. Let it

1006
01:15:11.159 --> 01:15:19.039
happen naturally. But on that occasion, I got to know

1007
01:15:19.600 --> 01:15:26.520
three four women, five actually five, so there was the

1008
01:15:26.600 --> 01:15:29.439
first waitress was the I say, when I get to know.

1009
01:15:29.479 --> 01:15:32.159
I didn't do anything with anyone, but we've got to

1010
01:15:32.199 --> 01:15:35.880
know them. The first one was the very first waitress

1011
01:15:35.920 --> 01:15:39.520
that served us and I had a cheese toasty sandwich

1012
01:15:39.960 --> 01:15:41.880
and it was the very first day we got there

1013
01:15:43.720 --> 01:15:52.399
to the hotel, and she smiled at me. I mean

1014
01:15:52.520 --> 01:15:55.359
some would view it and say she caught me looking

1015
01:15:55.399 --> 01:15:58.159
down a top, but I'm just going to stick to you.

1016
01:15:58.279 --> 01:16:01.159
She smiled at me, and she did smile at me

1017
01:16:01.920 --> 01:16:05.239
when she caught me. She smiled and we had a

1018
01:16:05.239 --> 01:16:08.720
bit of a connection that she chatted to me and

1019
01:16:08.760 --> 01:16:14.960
the next hour was in there and we we decided

1020
01:16:15.159 --> 01:16:19.279
to go out on a date.

1021
01:16:21.439 --> 01:16:24.680
Yeah, I think like the next night, next evening, when

1022
01:16:24.680 --> 01:16:28.159
she finished work, I'm when you go to a restaurant

1023
01:16:28.239 --> 01:16:31.279
or something. So I went into the bar to see her,

1024
01:16:31.359 --> 01:16:33.560
and there was this other bar the other side of

1025
01:16:33.600 --> 01:16:36.760
the place, in the middle of nowhere came up.

1026
01:16:36.760 --> 01:16:37.319
I kind of.

1027
01:16:37.399 --> 01:16:40.079
Found my way around these places because I spent a

1028
01:16:40.079 --> 01:16:44.439
lot of time on my own, just wandering around. And

1029
01:16:46.960 --> 01:16:50.319
I got in there and she was just basically talking

1030
01:16:50.359 --> 01:16:51.399
to another bloke.

1031
01:16:52.880 --> 01:16:55.399
And she waved to me, but then she carried on

1032
01:16:55.479 --> 01:16:57.359
talking to this bloke. So I left.

1033
01:16:59.680 --> 01:17:00.600
The day.

1034
01:17:02.359 --> 01:17:05.159
I went to a pizza place that was there that

1035
01:17:05.199 --> 01:17:11.159
I found, and I got really well with the lady

1036
01:17:12.039 --> 01:17:16.479
in the pizza place, and we were like talking and

1037
01:17:16.520 --> 01:17:24.760
maybe talking about maybe doing something. And then I got

1038
01:17:24.800 --> 01:17:26.560
to know the other one in the other bar, the

1039
01:17:26.560 --> 01:17:30.239
one that I told you about the beginning. So what

1040
01:17:30.439 --> 01:17:35.159
happened is it's very strange. The one that I was

1041
01:17:35.159 --> 01:17:39.640
supposed to go on a date with and she was

1042
01:17:39.640 --> 01:17:45.000
talking to another bloke. I saw her two days later.

1043
01:17:45.039 --> 01:17:46.800
I think she might have had the day off. Saw

1044
01:17:46.800 --> 01:17:51.680
her two days later and the first thing she said

1045
01:17:51.720 --> 01:17:54.199
is where were you? I said, I was there. I'm

1046
01:17:54.199 --> 01:17:55.680
not you know, you saw me in a wave to you.

1047
01:17:56.239 --> 01:17:58.079
So where did you go? I said, we was talking

1048
01:17:58.119 --> 01:18:02.199
to some bloke okay, and she had she had the

1049
01:18:02.319 --> 01:18:03.880
LP with me, Like, I said, what's wrong?

1050
01:18:04.800 --> 01:18:08.239
She said, I got talking to a friend of mine.

1051
01:18:09.880 --> 01:18:13.680
I said, okay, she said, yeah, I told her. She

1052
01:18:13.760 --> 01:18:17.359
said to me, I just met just met this this

1053
01:18:17.560 --> 01:18:19.680
english man is really lovely and I've got on really

1054
01:18:19.680 --> 01:18:23.479
well with him. And I said, yeah, same here, and

1055
01:18:23.520 --> 01:18:26.720
we both said, what's his name is, Jason? It's you.

1056
01:18:26.960 --> 01:18:30.920
We both we both met you and like I was

1057
01:18:30.920 --> 01:18:33.079
playing them against each other, which I wasn't. I just

1058
01:18:33.479 --> 01:18:36.960
only met them. I had gone out with either of

1059
01:18:36.960 --> 01:18:41.840
them really some kind of playboy. But it wasn't like

1060
01:18:41.880 --> 01:18:45.880
that at all. But she wasn't happy.

1061
01:18:47.439 --> 01:18:52.399
And she yeah. Ironically, the very very first night when

1062
01:18:52.399 --> 01:18:57.000
I got there, the receptionist, I really liked the receptionist.

1063
01:18:57.079 --> 01:18:59.439
I feel I was going through little phase of liking people.

1064
01:19:01.319 --> 01:19:04.439
I really liked the receptionist who you know, we spoke

1065
01:19:04.479 --> 01:19:06.760
to for it first of all, and.

1066
01:19:06.720 --> 01:19:09.119
Then she disappeared. Didn't see her till the very last night.

1067
01:19:11.560 --> 01:19:16.199
And she came up to me the very last night

1068
01:19:16.880 --> 01:19:18.319
and we were sort of talking to me and I

1069
01:19:18.399 --> 01:19:21.079
was like, okay, yeah, I just I don't know.

1070
01:19:22.199 --> 01:19:23.960
I couldn't be bothered to talk to anyone. I thought

1071
01:19:23.960 --> 01:19:28.359
I'd had enough of people by then, but I maybe

1072
01:19:28.359 --> 01:19:31.239
had enough to drink and stuff. But the next day,

1073
01:19:31.279 --> 01:19:32.920
because I didn't know, I didn't recognize her, because she

1074
01:19:32.960 --> 01:19:36.239
hadn't been there the whole week other than that one

1075
01:19:36.720 --> 01:19:40.880
time when we first got there, so we'd go to logout,

1076
01:19:41.079 --> 01:19:42.600
you know, to I think we had to collect that

1077
01:19:42.640 --> 01:19:47.640
passports and whatever to leave, and she's on a reception.

1078
01:19:47.760 --> 01:19:48.920
I was like, oh my god.

1079
01:19:48.760 --> 01:19:49.079
It's you.

1080
01:19:50.479 --> 01:19:54.800
She said, yeah. I didn't realized that her.

1081
01:19:54.840 --> 01:19:56.560
She was trying to talk to me the night before,

1082
01:19:57.000 --> 01:20:00.000
and I just couldn't be bothered, not in a rude

1083
01:20:00.159 --> 01:20:02.439
I just I think I just had enough.

1084
01:20:02.880 --> 01:20:09.199
I wanted to go home, really, And.

1085
01:20:07.479 --> 01:20:10.600
She came out and followed me to the coach and

1086
01:20:10.680 --> 01:20:12.960
saw me off on the coach and gave me a

1087
01:20:13.000 --> 01:20:15.880
big hug, and I'm not sure she gave me a kiss.

1088
01:20:15.920 --> 01:20:23.119
I can't remember. We made love in the snow. We didn't, well,

1089
01:20:23.119 --> 01:20:26.399
everyone watched from the bus. We were on the top

1090
01:20:26.439 --> 01:20:29.119
of the bus. No, we wouldn't know. Nothing like that happened.

1091
01:20:29.119 --> 01:20:31.399
But she did like give me a big hug and

1092
01:20:31.439 --> 01:20:34.359
everything like, what's going on?

1093
01:20:34.439 --> 01:20:34.640
White.

1094
01:20:34.760 --> 01:20:41.159
It's almost like I was suddenly became attractive to women

1095
01:20:42.520 --> 01:20:45.359
out of nowhere for a week, and then when I

1096
01:20:45.399 --> 01:20:47.560
got back to the UK, I went back to being

1097
01:20:48.640 --> 01:20:49.520
invisible again.

1098
01:20:49.760 --> 01:20:54.520
It's like brilliant. Then.

1099
01:20:56.319 --> 01:20:58.479
I think three days or two days before we left,

1100
01:20:59.840 --> 01:21:06.279
I met this other lady from Germany and we were

1101
01:21:06.439 --> 01:21:08.640
just chat in and we went for a little walk

1102
01:21:08.720 --> 01:21:12.119
and she grabbed me and start kissing me and everything,

1103
01:21:13.359 --> 01:21:16.560
and she she palls me to the actually the elevator,

1104
01:21:16.680 --> 01:21:20.159
to the lift to go up to my room. Right

1105
01:21:22.800 --> 01:21:25.000
just as a lift the lift doors about to close.

1106
01:21:25.319 --> 01:21:31.319
What happens, This hand comes through and stops the doors

1107
01:21:31.319 --> 01:21:32.039
from closing.

1108
01:21:32.439 --> 01:21:35.920
And it's her friend. Her friend doesn't want it to

1109
01:21:36.000 --> 01:21:40.800
have fun. So there's a term. There's a term for

1110
01:21:40.840 --> 01:21:48.079
that now, isn't there. It's two words ones blocking. I

1111
01:21:48.119 --> 01:21:56.159
was blocked by her and it was weird. I was like, okay,

1112
01:21:56.159 --> 01:22:02.880
fair enough, yeah, ok, just google both both of us.

1113
01:22:02.880 --> 01:22:04.079
Probably a little bit.

1114
01:22:06.119 --> 01:22:10.000
Tipsy or whatever, but she's the one that kind of

1115
01:22:10.039 --> 01:22:13.159
made the moves. But her friend blame me. She didn't

1116
01:22:13.159 --> 01:22:15.680
want to. She didn't want her friend to have any fun.

1117
01:22:16.920 --> 01:22:21.239
So that was that done as well. I just had

1118
01:22:21.279 --> 01:22:26.039
to accept, okay, fair enough, see her, I need to

1119
01:22:26.039 --> 01:22:30.239
pooh anyway, by I was poohing a lot when I

1120
01:22:30.279 --> 01:22:33.520
went there. I couldn't believe it. It really changed my

1121
01:22:33.600 --> 01:22:36.199
whole body being there. So I don't know if it

1122
01:22:36.239 --> 01:22:38.439
was the altitude or if it was the food.

1123
01:22:39.239 --> 01:22:42.600
Maybe a little bit too much alcohol, I don't know,

1124
01:22:44.039 --> 01:22:48.319
but yeah.

1125
01:22:47.279 --> 01:22:53.960
Nice fresh air though, that was nice. And then there

1126
01:22:54.039 --> 01:22:55.800
was the twins. Now there wasn't I.

1127
01:22:55.880 --> 01:23:06.079
Just h so I I did. I did go and

1128
01:23:06.119 --> 01:23:07.279
say goodbye to.

1129
01:23:08.800 --> 01:23:11.159
All three of the women that I kind of got

1130
01:23:11.199 --> 01:23:14.119
to know a little bit, not the German one, but

1131
01:23:14.199 --> 01:23:15.720
I didn't see her again.

1132
01:23:15.760 --> 01:23:17.760
I don't think I might have done. I think she

1133
01:23:17.800 --> 01:23:20.319
was with a family though it's like family holidays, so

1134
01:23:20.359 --> 01:23:25.119
I was like, okay, a bit of keep away. But

1135
01:23:25.199 --> 01:23:27.399
I went to see the other three.

1136
01:23:27.520 --> 01:23:31.439
So there's one that worked in one bar, there's another

1137
01:23:31.479 --> 01:23:33.439
one worked in a pizza place, and the.

1138
01:23:33.479 --> 01:23:36.920
Other worked one worked in the restaurant downstairs. Not need

1139
01:23:36.920 --> 01:23:37.479
a reception.

1140
01:23:37.880 --> 01:23:42.800
So I went to each one and say goodbye, and

1141
01:23:42.920 --> 01:23:46.319
it was just like I thought, well, I've not dated anyone,

1142
01:23:46.359 --> 01:23:51.520
I've not actually gone out anywhere, so.

1143
01:23:51.520 --> 01:23:53.560
I'll just say goodbye. You know, and they were all

1144
01:23:54.039 --> 01:23:59.479
one of them that even took me into a room

1145
01:23:59.680 --> 01:24:01.880
I wait from the bar, and it was like a

1146
01:24:01.920 --> 01:24:05.159
storage room. There was nothing in there but just empty,

1147
01:24:05.239 --> 01:24:10.079
but there was a few storage I guess, and crates

1148
01:24:10.079 --> 01:24:12.680
of coke cans or whatever, and that was it, and

1149
01:24:12.720 --> 01:24:18.840
closed the door and just looked at me, like what

1150
01:24:19.079 --> 01:24:22.479
I'm supposed to do now? I literally had about half

1151
01:24:22.479 --> 01:24:25.279
an hour to get on the bus.

1152
01:24:25.680 --> 01:24:29.760
And I didn't know what I didn't know what she wanted.

1153
01:24:31.239 --> 01:24:39.000
And because I was so naive and very I was

1154
01:24:39.119 --> 01:24:43.079
quite a young person back then. I was only thirty.

1155
01:24:44.319 --> 01:24:48.359
One. Yeah, I was still thirty one, so I was young,

1156
01:24:48.399 --> 01:24:53.680
and then I was only a youngster. I really was.

1157
01:24:54.039 --> 01:24:56.600
I didn't know, I didn't know what to do, but

1158
01:24:56.720 --> 01:24:59.239
obviously gave me a big hug, didn't see no way,

1159
01:24:59.319 --> 01:25:03.279
let me go, picked me up, rattled me around a

1160
01:25:03.279 --> 01:25:03.720
little bit.

1161
01:25:04.880 --> 01:25:16.319
I didn't mind, to be honest. I mean, yeah, I

1162
01:25:16.600 --> 01:25:19.000
feel quite happy. We would have brought a home with

1163
01:25:19.079 --> 01:25:22.439
me and possibly got married.

1164
01:25:25.279 --> 01:25:27.920
I know that life doesn't work like that. I'll just

1165
01:25:27.960 --> 01:25:32.079
bring someone home and get married, But and there seemed

1166
01:25:32.079 --> 01:25:35.600
to be a connection. Maybe there wasn't. I feel like

1167
01:25:35.640 --> 01:25:39.600
I'm making this up. Maybe I'm not. I don't know, maybe.

1168
01:25:39.319 --> 01:25:47.680
I am the the bomber boom boom, boom boom what else.

1169
01:25:49.680 --> 01:25:55.960
So yeah, that was good. And then I did give

1170
01:25:56.960 --> 01:25:57.840
I got the address.

1171
01:25:57.880 --> 01:26:01.399
Oh, one of them gave me an address and telephone number,

1172
01:26:01.399 --> 01:26:05.600
but I tried to contact but didn't seem to do.

1173
01:26:07.239 --> 01:26:10.039
I gave me my tele I tried to phone. That's it.

1174
01:26:10.119 --> 01:26:12.119
I tried to phone.

1175
01:26:12.359 --> 01:26:14.720
I've got one of those you know, those cards that

1176
01:26:14.760 --> 01:26:18.119
you can phone abroad and stuff, but it didn't seem

1177
01:26:18.159 --> 01:26:18.600
to work.

1178
01:26:20.199 --> 01:26:23.079
It was Yeah, the language barrier.

1179
01:26:22.880 --> 01:26:26.319
Was definitely an issue. It'd be easier now with all

1180
01:26:26.359 --> 01:26:31.039
the different apps. And this is before Facebook and whatsappened,

1181
01:26:32.079 --> 01:26:35.399
all the different ways to communicate with people. There's no

1182
01:26:35.600 --> 01:26:41.479
smartphones back then, and it would have been easy, you know,

1183
01:26:42.119 --> 01:26:47.520
much easier to sort of keep in contact with someone.

1184
01:26:49.079 --> 01:26:52.640
So what happened then is in my Thailand side, I

1185
01:26:52.640 --> 01:26:59.760
did meet someone else, but.

1186
01:26:57.760 --> 01:27:05.199
At this point I had a can rib and I

1187
01:27:05.279 --> 01:27:08.479
wasn't really interested in her as a as a other

1188
01:27:08.520 --> 01:27:10.399
than just as a tourist.

1189
01:27:10.079 --> 01:27:14.159
Guide really if she showed me around, but she did

1190
01:27:14.239 --> 01:27:17.920
sort of try and take advantage of me. I think

1191
01:27:18.039 --> 01:27:22.079
financially a little bitter, but I wasn't that bothered.

1192
01:27:24.760 --> 01:27:27.800
And then she in a place. This is where I

1193
01:27:27.840 --> 01:27:32.079
met her because a couple of this man said can

1194
01:27:32.439 --> 01:27:35.359
you buy me some foods? I said all right. He

1195
01:27:35.399 --> 01:27:37.720
actually came up to me. He said you got any money?

1196
01:27:39.159 --> 01:27:42.199
I said, have you? Were you asking me if I've

1197
01:27:42.199 --> 01:27:44.439
got any money for? What's in your wallet? What's in

1198
01:27:44.479 --> 01:27:46.840
your wallet? And he got his wallet out and said,

1199
01:27:46.880 --> 01:27:49.960
look nothing. And he was a taxi driver, but there

1200
01:27:49.960 --> 01:27:55.279
was no customers. I said, so why are you asking? Well,

1201
01:27:55.359 --> 01:27:59.039
you showed me your wallet for and he said, I'm hungry.

1202
01:27:59.039 --> 01:28:01.319
You can I have some food? I said, I'm sure

1203
01:28:01.359 --> 01:28:03.560
you'll find someone to give you food. He said, well,

1204
01:28:03.560 --> 01:28:07.279
you get me some food. I said, yeah, right, and

1205
01:28:07.319 --> 01:28:10.239
he said what is this way? I think he led me.

1206
01:28:10.279 --> 01:28:11.399
I didn't realize he owned the.

1207
01:28:11.319 --> 01:28:14.239
Place he led me to actually had his name on

1208
01:28:14.279 --> 01:28:16.000
the front. And I don't know if he owned it

1209
01:28:16.119 --> 01:28:19.600
or rented it or it was a family thing. But

1210
01:28:20.800 --> 01:28:23.239
I mean he was hungry as well. There was no customers.

1211
01:28:24.039 --> 01:28:28.000
There was no one in there. There's this little bar restaurant.

1212
01:28:28.520 --> 01:28:34.720
There wasn't really a restaurant, more takeaway. So I gave

1213
01:28:34.800 --> 01:28:39.000
him the food, gave his fellow taxi driver. I like,

1214
01:28:39.079 --> 01:28:44.439
because I had moped taxis, gave them food, and then

1215
01:28:44.479 --> 01:28:46.640
I just left wait for a walk.

1216
01:28:47.840 --> 01:28:51.000
Later on in the evening, I forget all about it,

1217
01:28:51.039 --> 01:28:53.760
and I walked past and they all start shouting for

1218
01:28:53.840 --> 01:28:54.560
me to come in.

1219
01:28:55.920 --> 01:28:57.640
And I didn't know who they were because I didn't

1220
01:28:57.640 --> 01:28:59.760
realize where I was because it was all still new.

1221
01:29:01.199 --> 01:29:04.359
And they was like, oh, come in, let me buy you,

1222
01:29:04.600 --> 01:29:07.520
give you a drink, and they were like all over me,

1223
01:29:08.039 --> 01:29:12.479
being nice to me and stuff, very very friendly. So

1224
01:29:12.560 --> 01:29:14.960
I stayed in there for a couple of hours, had

1225
01:29:15.000 --> 01:29:21.359
some drinks, and met this person that was a bit

1226
01:29:21.479 --> 01:29:24.479
friendly as well. But you know, it sort of became

1227
01:29:24.560 --> 01:29:27.680
my tour guide for a few days, showed me around

1228
01:29:27.760 --> 01:29:28.079
and that.

1229
01:29:31.319 --> 01:29:34.239
I had this idea.

1230
01:29:34.760 --> 01:29:37.000
But maybe it was a little bit drunk, but I

1231
01:29:37.039 --> 01:29:40.800
had an idea, I thought, And this is something I'd

1232
01:29:40.800 --> 01:29:46.640
thought about before because I'd seen on YouTube during twenty

1233
01:29:46.720 --> 01:29:54.359
twenty and twenty twenty one, because the tourists pretty much

1234
01:29:54.359 --> 01:30:03.960
had disappeared, like completely for about two years. They the

1235
01:30:04.000 --> 01:30:07.479
people that would normally work, didn't have any money for food,

1236
01:30:07.600 --> 01:30:13.279
didn't have any food, so there was charities and there

1237
01:30:13.359 --> 01:30:20.560
was YouTubers and all stuff giving out food to people

1238
01:30:20.840 --> 01:30:24.319
queuing up along the beach. Some people were running along

1239
01:30:24.399 --> 01:30:26.199
to get the food, and they were giving food out

1240
01:30:26.520 --> 01:30:30.800
off the back of trucks and stuff like that. I

1241
01:30:30.840 --> 01:30:34.159
didn't see that when I got there, but I did

1242
01:30:34.199 --> 01:30:37.159
think to myself before I got there, I want to

1243
01:30:37.159 --> 01:30:40.600
give some food out. I wasn't expecting to do it

1244
01:30:40.640 --> 01:30:42.760
the way I did it, but I was thinking I

1245
01:30:42.800 --> 01:30:46.720
want to. It's been a dream, really to be able

1246
01:30:46.720 --> 01:30:50.920
to do something like that on a more a bigger

1247
01:30:50.960 --> 01:30:51.880
scale than just.

1248
01:30:56.039 --> 01:31:05.279
Giving someone a burger for McDonald's who's sitting in a.

1249
01:31:03.239 --> 01:31:08.880
A shop, a shop what you call it a shop entrance,

1250
01:31:09.680 --> 01:31:17.439
And I thought it'd be nice to do something that

1251
01:31:17.720 --> 01:31:21.720
was like a one off situation that I'm possibly never

1252
01:31:21.760 --> 01:31:24.840
going to be able to do again. So what I

1253
01:31:24.920 --> 01:31:30.760
decided is, I said to the lady who was running

1254
01:31:30.800 --> 01:31:35.399
this place which sells food and it's like a little

1255
01:31:35.479 --> 01:31:38.359
bar as well where I got the food from during

1256
01:31:38.359 --> 01:31:40.560
the day for the taxi drivers.

1257
01:31:41.840 --> 01:31:45.159
Or the motorbike taxi drivers. I said to her.

1258
01:31:47.039 --> 01:31:48.840
Act I said to the person I was talking to

1259
01:31:48.960 --> 01:31:52.079
that became my guide. I got an idea.

1260
01:31:53.000 --> 01:32:01.000
She said, what's that, I said, what if I because.

1261
01:32:00.800 --> 01:32:03.079
She was telling me how people were hungry and how

1262
01:32:03.119 --> 01:32:05.720
there was no like there was. She was pointing out

1263
01:32:05.720 --> 01:32:08.239
the bar she used to work out, which had a

1264
01:32:08.279 --> 01:32:10.359
pool table in there was just like a small bar,

1265
01:32:11.359 --> 01:32:14.720
but it was empty. She was living upstairs and then

1266
01:32:14.760 --> 01:32:20.000
pretty much a derelict room, didn't have anything, didn't have

1267
01:32:20.319 --> 01:32:22.359
you know, she was like living from one day to

1268
01:32:22.359 --> 01:32:28.159
the next. And I kind of became a meal ticket

1269
01:32:28.199 --> 01:32:31.640
for a little while, which, you know, it is what

1270
01:32:31.680 --> 01:32:37.680
it is, is fine. But she sort of pointed me

1271
01:32:37.800 --> 01:32:40.039
towards the lady that was in charge of that place,

1272
01:32:40.479 --> 01:32:43.479
of the place we were sitting in, and I said, well,

1273
01:32:43.520 --> 01:32:48.920
how much would it cost to give away a meal.

1274
01:32:50.920 --> 01:32:56.199
And a drink like a meal in a bottle of water,

1275
01:32:57.000 --> 01:33:02.199
I think something like that. And she was working out.

1276
01:33:02.279 --> 01:33:04.119
She said, how many do you want to do? I said, well,

1277
01:33:04.319 --> 01:33:08.000
it depends how much they are each. Bear in mind

1278
01:33:08.039 --> 01:33:11.319
I had to try and figure it out the currency change,

1279
01:33:11.359 --> 01:33:20.000
you know, from pounds to.

1280
01:33:16.760 --> 01:33:21.520
Tie bart or tie bart to pounds, you know, conversion.

1281
01:33:24.319 --> 01:33:27.239
And I was like, okay, well you know roughly what

1282
01:33:27.279 --> 01:33:27.920
would it be?

1283
01:33:27.960 --> 01:33:31.800
And I couldn't even tell you how much it was

1284
01:33:31.840 --> 01:33:40.760
per meal, but we decided to do a lot of meals.

1285
01:33:45.319 --> 01:33:47.199
I don't know what it was, one hundred, two hundred

1286
01:33:47.239 --> 01:33:51.239
and fifty two hundred, I can't remember. And then so

1287
01:33:51.279 --> 01:33:53.960
we did that and when they were all like stacked up.

1288
01:33:54.159 --> 01:33:56.039
It's actually a photograph of me on one of my

1289
01:33:56.159 --> 01:33:59.560
podcasts with the staff there.

1290
01:34:01.000 --> 01:34:07.119
They're all like hugging me. And most of the people

1291
01:34:07.119 --> 01:34:11.640
I gave the food out too, were coming on mopeds

1292
01:34:13.199 --> 01:34:17.800
because even though the job was taxi drivers, they didn't

1293
01:34:17.920 --> 01:34:27.680
really have any customers. So I gave out not just me,

1294
01:34:27.960 --> 01:34:30.720
the other staff did as well. The other like everyone

1295
01:34:30.800 --> 01:34:32.520
kind of muck did and gave out the food. But

1296
01:34:32.600 --> 01:34:35.920
I was it went really quickly.

1297
01:34:36.079 --> 01:34:40.079
Like really quickly, and then they kept cooking more and

1298
01:34:40.119 --> 01:34:42.399
said you you want me to cook more? She said,

1299
01:34:42.439 --> 01:34:44.359
I bought more. I can cook it if you want.

1300
01:34:44.399 --> 01:34:51.199
And I lost track. I lost track of what I

1301
01:34:51.239 --> 01:34:54.119
was spending, I lost track of what I was given away.

1302
01:34:55.159 --> 01:34:58.199
And I did it the next day as well. I

1303
01:34:58.199 --> 01:35:03.800
think I did twice as much the next day. Yeah,

1304
01:35:03.800 --> 01:35:10.199
I spent a lot, a lot on that. It's the most.

1305
01:35:10.439 --> 01:35:14.079
Yeah, it's yeah, a lot. I've never never spent that

1306
01:35:14.159 --> 01:35:17.600
much money in one day. I don't think for that

1307
01:35:17.680 --> 01:35:22.439
kind of thing before, but it was one of the

1308
01:35:22.479 --> 01:35:27.720
best experiences of my life, given away food to people

1309
01:35:27.800 --> 01:35:30.960
that were hungry. I can't think of anything really better

1310
01:35:31.000 --> 01:35:37.800
than that were to be more more useful in a way.

1311
01:35:38.000 --> 01:35:45.000
I know it's short term solution, but it's still I mean,

1312
01:35:45.000 --> 01:35:48.399
it might be a short term solution, but it's going

1313
01:35:48.479 --> 01:35:49.840
to mean a hell of a lot to the person

1314
01:35:49.840 --> 01:35:52.359
that's eating. And how do I know, just because I've

1315
01:35:52.359 --> 01:35:56.399
given out a meal to someone, they might be sharing

1316
01:35:56.439 --> 01:36:00.640
that with three people, they might be taking at home

1317
01:36:01.119 --> 01:36:04.880
to their kid and not eating anything themselves. You know,

1318
01:36:05.000 --> 01:36:14.600
I don't know. I'll find out after the third day.

1319
01:36:15.319 --> 01:36:17.479
And this is weird. I find out to the third

1320
01:36:17.600 --> 01:36:26.560
day that I was being charged Western prices for the food.

1321
01:36:28.600 --> 01:36:31.520
So I was being charged the same amount as I

1322
01:36:31.560 --> 01:36:34.000
would have been charged if I'd have gone in there

1323
01:36:34.159 --> 01:36:39.279
as a tourist to order a meal.

1324
01:36:39.800 --> 01:36:41.640
That's how much I would have been charged. And I

1325
01:36:41.680 --> 01:36:46.000
got charged that amount for each and every meal. But

1326
01:36:46.079 --> 01:36:48.119
if I had been a tie, I'd have gone in

1327
01:36:48.119 --> 01:36:50.319
there and ordered the same thing. It would have been

1328
01:36:50.359 --> 01:36:58.279
probably one third of the price. But they charged me

1329
01:36:58.359 --> 01:37:06.439
the full price, and the lady that was going to be, like,

1330
01:37:06.720 --> 01:37:10.319
give me a bit as a tour guide. She told

1331
01:37:10.319 --> 01:37:14.000
me after about the fourth day, she said, you couldn't.

1332
01:37:14.520 --> 01:37:16.239
She fell out with them over it, but she said

1333
01:37:16.239 --> 01:37:19.680
she couldn't tell me because I seemed so happy doing

1334
01:37:19.680 --> 01:37:22.399
what I was doing, and they told her that you

1335
01:37:22.479 --> 01:37:25.520
dared tell them. So I think she was also her

1336
01:37:25.560 --> 01:37:28.680
boss for the other bar when it reopens, and just.

1337
01:37:30.640 --> 01:37:32.560
I didn't go back there after that. I didn't go back,

1338
01:37:33.199 --> 01:37:37.319
didn't I just, you know, once I found that out,

1339
01:37:37.359 --> 01:37:41.199
I was a bit because it wasn't even about the money.

1340
01:37:41.279 --> 01:37:45.800
It was about the simple fact that I could have

1341
01:37:45.840 --> 01:37:52.640
given twice three till I was only given away one

1342
01:37:52.920 --> 01:37:56.359
given away. I was only given away one third of

1343
01:37:56.359 --> 01:37:58.640
what I could have been given away. I could have

1344
01:37:58.640 --> 01:38:03.359
given away two thirds more or food and meals to

1345
01:38:03.520 --> 01:38:09.720
people that needed it, and I wasn't. And that's hundreds

1346
01:38:10.600 --> 01:38:15.960
of meals that I didn't get to give away. So

1347
01:38:16.039 --> 01:38:19.359
that was, yeah, I didn't like that. That kind of

1348
01:38:19.479 --> 01:38:25.039
left a little bit of her horrible. I mean, I

1349
01:38:25.119 --> 01:38:27.199
understand they want to get paid for the work because

1350
01:38:27.199 --> 01:38:28.840
they were cooking and it was hard work and that,

1351
01:38:29.680 --> 01:38:31.800
but wouldn't they get paid? Don't they take that out

1352
01:38:31.840 --> 01:38:36.279
of the that would be the wages they would take anywhay,

1353
01:38:36.319 --> 01:38:39.399
isn't it if they're not going to work for nothing

1354
01:38:39.960 --> 01:38:42.560
when they give away the food to the tie people,

1355
01:38:42.760 --> 01:38:44.800
they're still going to make a profit, still going to

1356
01:38:44.840 --> 01:38:46.760
cover their wages and cover their costs.

1357
01:38:48.239 --> 01:38:52.600
And bearing in mind how many there's no. I can't

1358
01:38:52.600 --> 01:38:56.359
imagine any day in her history that she would have

1359
01:38:56.359 --> 01:38:59.920
sold as many meals as that in a day. Ever

1360
01:39:02.359 --> 01:39:04.560
th what she did that day, those two days with me,

1361
01:39:08.279 --> 01:39:09.800
and all she had to do was cooks. She didn't

1362
01:39:09.800 --> 01:39:11.800
have to she didn't have to deal with anyone else.

1363
01:39:14.600 --> 01:39:16.680
And at the end I think she said, oh, can

1364
01:39:16.720 --> 01:39:19.199
you pay? Can you pay my system give her a

1365
01:39:19.199 --> 01:39:24.399
bit more money? I just said yes, But I thought,

1366
01:39:24.760 --> 01:39:27.600
BlimE me, that's this is before I realized I've been

1367
01:39:27.640 --> 01:39:32.960
ripped off. So yeah, I said, it wasn't about the

1368
01:39:33.039 --> 01:39:37.000
money rather than about I could have given more free

1369
01:39:37.039 --> 01:39:37.560
stuff out.

1370
01:39:39.640 --> 01:39:43.000
So that was that was weird. Some of the I

1371
01:39:43.079 --> 01:39:49.359
quite like some of the Buddhists rituals that they do.

1372
01:39:49.680 --> 01:39:54.920
I like the bowing. That's nice, it's very respectful. The

1373
01:40:00.039 --> 01:40:01.920
what am I going to say?

1374
01:40:02.079 --> 01:40:04.319
Oh yeah, even when they're drinking, they'll chuck a bit

1375
01:40:04.359 --> 01:40:08.039
of the drink into the street. It's like an offering

1376
01:40:08.119 --> 01:40:13.439
to the Buddha. So it's kind of even though they're

1377
01:40:13.479 --> 01:40:18.520
doing and technically as a Buddhist really it is like a.

1378
01:40:18.520 --> 01:40:21.640
Non toxicant religion. You don't take toxicants.

1379
01:40:21.720 --> 01:40:24.840
It's one of the one of the I don't say

1380
01:40:24.920 --> 01:40:27.760
rules are one of the things, but.

1381
01:40:30.680 --> 01:40:35.199
It's it's less that their Buddhists, as in not meditating

1382
01:40:35.319 --> 01:40:40.640
and not practicing, but they have a monk practice for them.

1383
01:40:42.199 --> 01:40:44.079
So the monk will come down.

1384
01:40:43.920 --> 01:40:47.800
From the mountain or from the monastery and they will

1385
01:40:47.840 --> 01:40:56.439
give offerings to the monk in the form of usually food.

1386
01:40:58.439 --> 01:41:02.000
And then the monk will say some prayers.

1387
01:41:01.720 --> 01:41:03.920
For them, and.

1388
01:41:03.880 --> 01:41:06.960
They'll sit there and just have the monk offer prayers

1389
01:41:06.960 --> 01:41:10.920
to them. So it's a give and take situation. So

1390
01:41:11.039 --> 01:41:14.880
the monk sits in the monastery all day meditating and

1391
01:41:15.039 --> 01:41:21.079
practicing for the rest of the people in Thailand, and

1392
01:41:21.119 --> 01:41:24.920
they can just get on with their lives and not

1393
01:41:25.079 --> 01:41:28.560
have to do that. So it's a very different way

1394
01:41:28.640 --> 01:41:31.640
to how the Western meditators work.

1395
01:41:33.359 --> 01:41:35.479
Really, I mean it isn't.

1396
01:41:35.479 --> 01:41:39.399
It isn't though we don't I say, we are not

1397
01:41:39.560 --> 01:41:43.800
that involved I've been involved for years. Really, in my

1398
01:41:43.880 --> 01:41:56.119
mind I am, but in practice I'm not. Yeah, I'm

1399
01:41:56.159 --> 01:42:02.880
trying to think other things. What this is the irony?

1400
01:42:03.239 --> 01:42:11.600
When I got back this my tour guide started contacting me,

1401
01:42:11.960 --> 01:42:15.840
asking me for stuff. So I ended up buying a television,

1402
01:42:16.840 --> 01:42:20.960
ended up sending them money, all these kinds of things

1403
01:42:21.520 --> 01:42:25.399
by I forget was called some app And in the

1404
01:42:25.479 --> 01:42:27.079
end I just had to cut her off because she

1405
01:42:27.159 --> 01:42:28.800
was just kept asking.

1406
01:42:28.479 --> 01:42:33.560
For more, more, more, more and more and more. But

1407
01:42:33.640 --> 01:42:37.479
she was a good tour guide. So I paid her

1408
01:42:38.239 --> 01:42:41.079
to do to take me around, paid her for everything

1409
01:42:41.119 --> 01:42:44.920
that she needed. Food, We went and fed the dogs.

1410
01:42:45.000 --> 01:42:55.840
We got food off her. What's it. There's this uh.

1411
01:42:53.159 --> 01:42:56.720
Street food vendor and he was making these like meat

1412
01:42:56.800 --> 01:43:00.760
stick things on sticks, almost like kebabs, I suppose, and

1413
01:43:00.800 --> 01:43:04.399
there'd be three in a pack, and maybe they'd had

1414
01:43:04.520 --> 01:43:05.800
vegetables on them as well.

1415
01:43:06.800 --> 01:43:11.720
And I bought the entire store and we walked through

1416
01:43:11.720 --> 01:43:14.760
the beach. And it's good to have her with me

1417
01:43:14.840 --> 01:43:18.960
because she knew who not to approach. She said, don't

1418
01:43:18.960 --> 01:43:23.640
go near them. They don't like foreigners, because some people

1419
01:43:23.680 --> 01:43:28.680
didn't like the you know people. She just knew who

1420
01:43:28.760 --> 01:43:34.279
was who. So we would give out the food along

1421
01:43:34.319 --> 01:43:39.000
the beach and I thought, and then we walked back

1422
01:43:39.239 --> 01:43:44.279
after doing that, I couldn't believe that stare was full again,

1423
01:43:44.479 --> 01:43:48.279
full of food. I thought I'd done him a favor.

1424
01:43:48.640 --> 01:43:49.439
You go home now.

1425
01:43:49.760 --> 01:43:53.560
Nope, he just appeared out of nowhere. It's almost like

1426
01:43:53.680 --> 01:43:55.439
he just shook it like a magic trick and all

1427
01:43:55.439 --> 01:43:56.359
the food is there again.

1428
01:43:57.439 --> 01:44:01.199
Wow. So we've got a load of more food and

1429
01:44:01.319 --> 01:44:05.880
fed the dogs. So there's a lot of stray dogs around.

1430
01:44:06.319 --> 01:44:09.399
To start feeding dogs, some of them just have to

1431
01:44:09.479 --> 01:44:12.279
kind of chuck the meat and let them eat it.

1432
01:44:12.880 --> 01:44:19.000
And there was this big pound of massive gate and

1433
01:44:19.039 --> 01:44:20.920
there's that waste ground or whatever, and.

1434
01:44:20.880 --> 01:44:21.239
It was.

1435
01:44:22.720 --> 01:44:27.119
Huge amounts of dogs behind there. So I'd be chucking

1436
01:44:27.159 --> 01:44:34.319
food over there for them and it was cool. I

1437
01:44:34.439 --> 01:44:37.920
got to do things that I probably never would get

1438
01:44:37.920 --> 01:44:41.319
to do here. I mean, I can't go around feeding

1439
01:44:41.399 --> 01:44:43.640
stray dogs in the UK because.

1440
01:44:43.439 --> 01:44:51.199
There ain't none. Really, there's not going to walk on

1441
01:44:51.279 --> 01:44:55.560
a beach and give out food to people some bathing

1442
01:44:55.640 --> 01:44:56.680
on a beach because.

1443
01:44:56.399 --> 01:45:01.239
They probably don't want that. It's a different scenario. Plus

1444
01:45:01.239 --> 01:45:04.159
people aren't sleeping on the beach at night in this

1445
01:45:04.279 --> 01:45:05.520
kind Well maybe they are.

1446
01:45:05.560 --> 01:45:07.800
I don't know. I've not been everywhere, but there was

1447
01:45:07.840 --> 01:45:08.239
a lot of.

1448
01:45:08.159 --> 01:45:12.640
People were on the beach late at night, just sleeping,

1449
01:45:14.640 --> 01:45:18.760
so there was that. Another thing I quite liked there

1450
01:45:18.840 --> 01:45:21.680
was this. It sounds like I'm just bragging about what

1451
01:45:21.720 --> 01:45:23.359
I did, but this is just what I did. It's

1452
01:45:23.399 --> 01:45:29.239
not really bragging and just it was something I'm I'm

1453
01:45:29.279 --> 01:45:33.600
glad I got to do. And yeah, so I did

1454
01:45:33.600 --> 01:45:35.159
a few other things like that as well, but.

1455
01:45:38.520 --> 01:45:46.000
I'm glad I've got to do that. Yeah, I am.

1456
01:45:46.560 --> 01:45:49.880
It's a shame to I don't think it kind of

1457
01:45:49.920 --> 01:45:53.119
worked out so well That's what I would have wanted

1458
01:45:53.159 --> 01:45:56.800
it to, but it's it was a great experience to

1459
01:45:56.800 --> 01:46:03.319
be able to do that. So yeah, that was my Thailand,

1460
01:46:03.760 --> 01:46:06.159
one of my one of my Thailand journeys.

1461
01:46:06.399 --> 01:46:07.560
I think I've talked.

1462
01:46:08.720 --> 01:46:12.680
Forever about this now, so I didn't have any other questions.

1463
01:46:14.079 --> 01:46:21.279
So yeah, thank you, thank you. What I'm going to do,

1464
01:46:21.359 --> 01:46:23.960
Wait a minute, I'm going to go into my website. Okay,

1465
01:46:25.119 --> 01:46:30.119
go into my website and let me see if it works.

1466
01:46:30.159 --> 01:46:35.279
If I go to Jasonnewland dot com ask Me Anything

1467
01:46:35.399 --> 01:46:37.880
Q and a Friday submission right at the top of

1468
01:46:37.920 --> 01:46:38.520
the page.

1469
01:46:39.079 --> 01:46:40.039
So I'm going to put in.

1470
01:46:42.159 --> 01:47:02.399
Right Willie Warmer email, Willy Warmer at booby So my question.

1471
01:47:05.920 --> 01:47:09.800
Have you I'd like to give different weird funny names.

1472
01:47:09.840 --> 01:47:22.640
Have you always been so handsome? Right? So that's the question.

1473
01:47:23.600 --> 01:47:25.399
So I'll see what comes through.

1474
01:47:25.560 --> 01:47:28.479
I said, Look, so I'm gonna submit that or it's

1475
01:47:28.520 --> 01:47:30.319
asking me, Am I a robot? No, I'm not a

1476
01:47:30.439 --> 01:47:35.039
robot sending the message was sent successfully, so let me

1477
01:47:35.079 --> 01:47:39.760
see if the message came up in the junk mail

1478
01:47:40.439 --> 01:47:49.800
it has. Let me click. So the message from Williwarmer. Oh,

1479
01:47:50.920 --> 01:47:55.560
this message sent from Jason dot com Williwarmer email, Williwarmer

1480
01:47:55.680 --> 01:48:00.279
at boobies dot com form type contact. Have you always

1481
01:48:00.319 --> 01:48:03.439
been so handsome? There's no d in that, so I

1482
01:48:03.439 --> 01:48:06.760
should have done it wrong. So it works so that

1483
01:48:06.920 --> 01:48:12.880
if you have questions for next Friday. For next Friday,

1484
01:48:14.880 --> 01:48:18.920
you can start adding now so that next Friday I

1485
01:48:18.920 --> 01:48:25.000
can actually answer some questions rather than this has been

1486
01:48:25.079 --> 01:48:28.960
like a more like an ordinary let me boy to sleep, really,

1487
01:48:29.000 --> 01:48:35.159
isn't it? Which is fine? But it's just weird. Just

1488
01:48:37.439 --> 01:48:40.119
I don't think I have a ever have a week

1489
01:48:40.159 --> 01:48:44.119
where it was just one question, because I haven't the

1490
01:48:44.199 --> 01:48:48.239
whole time i've been doing this, and the Q and

1491
01:48:48.279 --> 01:48:51.079
a Friday is wonderful was the first one.

1492
01:48:51.520 --> 01:48:53.319
I don't know if I've got it. I've got a

1493
01:48:53.720 --> 01:48:57.600
something like Q and a Friday one hundred and seventy

1494
01:48:57.680 --> 01:49:00.680
two episodes. Okay, that's with all the different ones. So

1495
01:49:00.800 --> 01:49:07.840
let's see when was the first one. The first one was, oh,

1496
01:49:07.920 --> 01:49:14.600
my goodness, you won't even believe this, that you might

1497
01:49:14.640 --> 01:49:17.119
be asleep now that if you are awake, you won't

1498
01:49:17.119 --> 01:49:25.920
believe it. The very first Q and a Friday was

1499
01:49:25.960 --> 01:49:30.520
a tenth of April twenty twenty four, and it's now

1500
01:49:30.560 --> 01:49:34.720
the eleventh of April twenty twenty five. So I have

1501
01:49:34.880 --> 01:49:48.520
literally done every single week since then. I don't know

1502
01:49:48.560 --> 01:49:52.520
if I've missed any out. I'm pretty sure I've done

1503
01:49:52.560 --> 01:50:03.239
every week. In fact, i'm pretty sure I have blimey

1504
01:50:05.319 --> 01:50:13.880
wow wow a year. So this is a year of

1505
01:50:13.960 --> 01:50:16.680
letting boy to sleep, and it's probably the worst one yet.

1506
01:50:17.039 --> 01:50:18.039
One question.

1507
01:50:22.199 --> 01:50:23.680
I should have put that If I have known that,

1508
01:50:23.800 --> 01:50:27.760
I could have put the first year anniversary Q and

1509
01:50:27.800 --> 01:50:28.439
a Friday.

1510
01:50:29.840 --> 01:50:35.000
I think he's moaning now. I don't know what he wants. Wow, blimey.

1511
01:50:35.079 --> 01:50:38.000
Okay, anyway, I'm going to go. Thank you for listening.

1512
01:50:38.680 --> 01:50:43.399
Remember Q and it Oh. Tonight is the fiction night

1513
01:50:43.479 --> 01:50:47.920
for celebrity Big Brother. I think that's on at nine o'clock.

1514
01:50:49.199 --> 01:50:51.760
So I've been watching that at nine. It's now caught

1515
01:50:51.840 --> 01:50:59.640
past seven, which means probably get myself some food and

1516
01:50:59.680 --> 01:51:05.319
then I will watch the end of a movie that

1517
01:51:05.359 --> 01:51:09.520
I started to watch. Well, actually know what I'll do

1518
01:51:09.640 --> 01:51:12.760
play watch watch something while I do that. Well, maybe

1519
01:51:12.800 --> 01:51:16.600
i'll try and edit this now. I want to get

1520
01:51:16.600 --> 01:51:21.520
this edited before Big Brother starts. It's even out. I'll

1521
01:51:21.560 --> 01:51:24.640
do it first thing in the morning. I'd kind of

1522
01:51:24.680 --> 01:51:31.199
like to do it tonight. Yeah, we'll see. So thank

1523
01:51:31.199 --> 01:51:35.039
you for listening, Thank you Hillary for your question. And sorry,

1524
01:51:35.039 --> 01:51:40.840
there's only one one answer to give. Please and thank

1525
01:51:40.880 --> 01:51:44.439
you for listening. Remember to be kind to yourself and

1526
01:51:44.560 --> 01:51:47.880
also be gentle with yourself, because you deserve to be

1527
01:51:47.920 --> 01:51:50.640
happy and you do deserve to feel safe.

1528
01:51:52.359 --> 01:52:08.680
What's of love? Bye? Relax in a more deep and

1529
01:52:12.520 --> 01:52:19.880
meaningful way, Maybe in a way that can not just

1530
01:52:20.159 --> 01:52:30.279
allow you to feel calmer now and throughout the time

1531
01:52:30.960 --> 01:52:39.319
we spend together here, not just relaxed. At the end

1532
01:52:39.359 --> 01:52:43.800
of the recording when it's finished, and you can enjoy

1533
01:52:43.960 --> 01:53:01.359
that sense of comfort and peace. But also I think

1534
01:53:01.399 --> 01:53:12.640
it would be nice to have those feelings of relaxation

1535
01:53:14.960 --> 01:53:29.159
continue for longer after the recording has ended, so that

1536
01:53:29.319 --> 01:53:41.720
you can still benefit from listening to my voice, maybe

1537
01:53:41.840 --> 01:53:53.199
in a few hours time, perhaps tomorrow, and then by

1538
01:53:53.319 --> 01:54:01.279
listening regularly, especially if you find like some people do

1539
01:54:01.640 --> 01:54:06.119
and myself as well. Sometimes I find one particular recording

1540
01:54:06.800 --> 01:54:15.600
that really resonates with me, and I just listen to

1541
01:54:15.680 --> 01:54:28.600
it over and over again every morning, every evening. There

1542
01:54:28.640 --> 01:54:33.640
was this recording from We're going back to about nineteen

1543
01:54:33.760 --> 01:54:41.520
ninety nine. It wasn't hypnosis, but it was a guided visualizations.

1544
01:54:41.600 --> 01:54:48.600
It kind of was hypnosis, really, and I managed to

1545
01:54:48.680 --> 01:54:52.199
find it again and it still has the same effect

1546
01:54:52.680 --> 01:54:57.079
on me. And part of it was.

1547
01:55:00.600 --> 01:55:11.680
The person's voice relaxed me. She just felt so peaceful,

1548
01:55:13.720 --> 01:55:19.680
and I'd look forward to listening to her.

1549
01:55:19.960 --> 01:55:29.640
In the morning and in the evening. And I knew

1550
01:55:30.000 --> 01:55:38.680
before even pressing the play button that since I've done

1551
01:55:38.760 --> 01:55:41.039
that pressed the play button.

1552
01:55:41.840 --> 01:55:52.800
This was in the days of CD players pressed the

1553
01:55:52.880 --> 01:55:58.239
play button. In fact, it might have even been a

1554
01:55:58.279 --> 01:56:02.840
tape tape recorder I'd lie down on a bed and

1555
01:56:02.880 --> 01:56:21.319
then even without necessarily listening to her words because I

1556
01:56:21.439 --> 01:56:28.920
had them memorized. Really, it was as if my body

1557
01:56:30.840 --> 01:56:44.279
knew exactly what to do, and the muscles just almost

1558
01:56:44.319 --> 01:57:04.800
went into automatic relaxation, and I remember my mind would

1559
01:57:04.800 --> 01:57:16.199
slow down. Now. Now, I was listening to this recording

1560
01:57:19.520 --> 01:57:25.560
in the early days of learning hypnosis, and long before

1561
01:57:27.199 --> 01:57:35.239
I ever made any videos or audio recordings myself, because

1562
01:57:35.239 --> 01:57:38.319
I didn't start doing that till two thousand and six,

1563
01:57:45.239 --> 01:58:01.159
I knew, I knew how helpful I found being able

1564
01:58:01.199 --> 01:58:10.279
to just let go, to have that trust in the

1565
01:58:10.359 --> 01:58:20.760
person that I'm listening to, knowing that it's going to

1566
01:58:20.800 --> 01:58:31.600
be just as relaxing, if not more so. Each time

1567
01:58:31.880 --> 01:58:37.920
you hear my voice, you may feel the same.

1568
01:58:44.279 --> 01:58:58.880
Some people have been listening to me for over a decade,

1569
01:58:59.680 --> 01:59:03.760
maybe not solidly, obviously not twenty four hours a day,

1570
01:59:05.479 --> 01:59:22.039
but maybe people come back. Some people maybe listen every day.

1571
01:59:23.760 --> 01:59:31.760
That's something that I do which you may not realize

1572
01:59:32.159 --> 01:59:37.680
by listening, is.

1573
01:59:41.720 --> 01:59:56.039
When I record these recordings. Now, for example, I also

1574
01:59:57.520 --> 02:00:08.760
am affected by the words that I say. So if

1575
02:00:08.800 --> 02:00:12.279
I set.

1576
02:00:12.239 --> 02:00:22.720
You focus on your feet, notice your feet relaxing, I

1577
02:00:22.800 --> 02:00:31.279
will be focusing on my feet, I will be noticing

1578
02:00:34.239 --> 02:00:48.760
my feet relaxing. If I said, focus on your hands

1579
02:00:51.520 --> 02:01:01.079
and maybe notice the difference between each hand. Perhaps noticed

1580
02:01:01.199 --> 02:01:07.239
the air in the room, the temperature of the room.

1581
02:01:09.119 --> 02:01:19.520
On the backs of your hands. You may start to

1582
02:01:20.079 --> 02:01:28.159
notice what almost feels like a very light breeze, even

1583
02:01:28.199 --> 02:01:32.439
though there may not be any type of breeze at

1584
02:01:32.479 --> 02:01:45.479
all where you are right now. And as you become

1585
02:01:46.119 --> 02:02:00.000
aware of your hands, I'm also aware of how really

1586
02:02:00.079 --> 02:02:24.319
baxed my hands, our feeling now and when it comes

1587
02:02:24.479 --> 02:02:31.439
to potentially drifting off to sleep, which may be the

1588
02:02:31.640 --> 02:02:47.479
reason you're listening, I also feel drowsy when I make

1589
02:02:47.560 --> 02:03:08.760
these recordings. I also notice my mind drift. In fact,

1590
02:03:09.000 --> 02:03:25.720
at times I've actually fallen asleep without even noticing. And

1591
02:03:25.760 --> 02:03:36.720
then I carry on talking. And it's only where I

1592
02:03:36.800 --> 02:03:46.199
listen back to do the editing. I hear snoring, and

1593
02:03:46.279 --> 02:03:56.880
I think I don't remember snoring. I remember talking. Snoring

1594
02:03:57.239 --> 02:03:57.960
was a.

1595
02:03:58.079 --> 02:04:04.760
Pick turned up. That's why I sound like when I snore.

1596
02:04:10.159 --> 02:04:23.439
How I get really into a whole experience. I don't

1597
02:04:23.479 --> 02:04:32.640
know how you feel. How relaxed do you feel in

1598
02:04:32.680 --> 02:04:43.159
your feet, How relaxed you feel in your hands.

1599
02:04:58.239 --> 02:05:10.439
I have noticed more and more that the more relaxed,

1600
02:05:12.199 --> 02:05:27.960
deeper level of comfort you feel, the easier your breathing becomes.

1601
02:05:34.560 --> 02:05:51.239
It's almost like that additional muscle relaxation. So this allows

1602
02:05:51.319 --> 02:06:22.399
you to breathe easier without necessarily focusing on your breath, however,

1603
02:06:22.640 --> 02:06:51.359
being able to notice the ease in which you breathe

1604
02:06:51.600 --> 02:07:41.479
so naturally. You breathe so very easily and smoothly. Whenever

1605
02:07:41.560 --> 02:07:59.880
I imagine my breathing improving. When I've got my eyes closed,

1606
02:08:05.920 --> 02:08:18.800
I tend to visualize a beautiful field with trees and

1607
02:08:19.039 --> 02:08:52.560
flowers producing all that life giving oxygen. And it feels

1608
02:08:52.680 --> 02:09:14.479
nice to, if nothing else, just taking some time away

1609
02:09:19.159 --> 02:10:02.479
from everything, enjoying that feeling of peace, serenity with a

1610
02:10:02.840 --> 02:10:54.720
joyful heart. Time seems to just drip by, so very slowly, relaxed,

1611
02:11:00.640 --> 02:11:39.760
so deeply peaceful, completely unattached to any thoughts whatsoever in

1612
02:11:39.920 --> 02:12:44.319
this moment, completely free, noticing that your mind has slowed down.

1613
02:12:52.600 --> 02:13:39.319
Slowed down because nothing really requires your attention, you can

1614
02:13:39.560 --> 02:13:55.640
enjoy the physical sensations of allowing the stress to rip

1615
02:13:56.439 --> 02:14:10.319
out of your body, to appaying outs of every part

1616
02:14:16.199 --> 02:14:40.760
of your body and being released from your brain ge

1617
02:14:40.760 --> 02:15:16.359
your mind slowly but surely. The muscles in your legs

1618
02:15:31.600 --> 02:16:07.880
relax res res so very deep, thing rects so deeply.

1619
02:16:25.640 --> 02:16:35.879
And the feelings, the pleasant feelings in your arms and shoulders,

1620
02:16:53.719 --> 02:17:06.559
deepening each part of your body the earth, and deeper

1621
02:17:17.280 --> 02:17:38.600
and deeper, not to say, the feelings in the back

1622
02:17:38.639 --> 02:18:41.360
of your neck, feelings in your wrists, muscles, in front.

1623
02:18:41.079 --> 02:19:03.760
Of your body, I will say, feeling.

1624
02:19:08.040 --> 02:19:43.840
Peaceful, deeping. There's a sense of pace spreads through your

1625
02:19:44.079 --> 02:20:33.680
very col even when you focus on your mind, her

1626
02:20:33.719 --> 02:21:46.200
mind becomes be and slower, deep, relaxing, so very slow,

1627
02:22:04.559 --> 02:23:01.200
his stomach paste felling your stomach held back. Notice, Notice

1628
02:23:01.399 --> 02:23:03.440
how relaxed.

1629
02:23:07.040 --> 02:23:09.040
You now feel.

1630
02:23:17.840 --> 02:23:50.399
In the hole of your back. In spy from your

1631
02:23:50.440 --> 02:23:55.239
brain all the way down the middle of your back,

1632
02:23:58.479 --> 02:24:18.879
sending into receiving millions of messages every day, deep coomfort

1633
02:24:21.879 --> 02:25:38.559
increasing deeply relaxed, your knees, reles, spreading those signals down

1634
02:25:38.680 --> 02:25:47.680
your spine or cord into air, every part of your body,

1635
02:26:02.319 --> 02:26:50.600
your shins and your calf muscles, your outbows, Feelings of

1636
02:26:50.799 --> 02:27:07.399
peace and tranquility spreading through your body, tips of your

1637
02:27:07.479 --> 02:27:23.639
toes to your eyes, your fingers, all the way till

1638
02:27:23.639 --> 02:27:24.719
you'll lower back.

1639
02:27:35.879 --> 02:27:37.319
And let thinker.

1640
02:27:39.120 --> 02:28:39.440
Redia, thinker m place to drift in mind wandering away.

1641
02:28:48.920 --> 02:29:30.639
Happy to let go, let go completely, Leckr said, tranquil,

1642
02:29:54.760 --> 02:32:07.079
Oh body, joy of sensor, listing God for more. Hey,

1643
02:32:15.799 --> 02:32:58.639
enjoy the space, this space of peace and safety, seery,

1644
02:34:36.799 --> 02:35:00.840
lett him go. Maybe we can just because on of

1645
02:35:00.840 --> 02:35:35.520
the different parts of your body, just to notice your

1646
02:35:35.719 --> 02:36:38.479
forehead and your eyes mutual, so loose, noticing the sense

1647
02:36:38.559 --> 02:38:46.399
of complete freedom, absolute freedom, day, pace, wall energy, pace

1648
02:38:47.079 --> 02:40:02.120
to breathe so much easy. Yes, you may you may

1649
02:40:02.239 --> 02:41:03.319
not have noticed your mind drifting, peaceful, moveing even more

1650
02:41:03.719 --> 02:41:28.280
deeply in the direction of total blissful pace, blissful pace

1651
02:41:56.879 --> 02:42:46.600
directed to pace.

1652
02:43:11.239 --> 02:44:18.319
Come, sir, Colm, let him go, peace with mind.

1653
02:44:12.479 --> 02:45:33.239
Body six Ciray. Your body feels almost invisible, so very relaxed, paceful.

1654
02:45:39.600 --> 02:45:48.280
So pay from.

1655
02:46:03.959 --> 02:46:11.840
Right like a.

1656
02:46:28.040 --> 02:46:51.200
So so and you could start to notice that you

1657
02:46:52.719 --> 02:47:04.079
are feeling more relaxed, even though I've not purposely focused

1658
02:47:04.440 --> 02:47:12.639
your mind upon that sense of physical comfort that is

1659
02:47:12.799 --> 02:47:22.079
growing within you throughout your body, and your mind starts

1660
02:47:22.159 --> 02:47:31.799
to slow down, and that could be almost in recognition

1661
02:47:32.280 --> 02:47:46.159
of I guess my speech not being particularly fast, and

1662
02:47:46.319 --> 02:47:59.760
things just generally feel calmer. Just by listening to my voice,

1663
02:48:00.280 --> 02:48:07.239
you give yourself an opportunity to take a break from

1664
02:48:07.280 --> 02:48:13.879
the day, take a break from your life as it is,

1665
02:48:17.200 --> 02:48:24.840
and to give yourself a rest, giving yourself permission to

1666
02:48:24.959 --> 02:48:30.239
take some time off, and to allow your body to

1667
02:48:30.319 --> 02:48:41.239
relax and allow your mind to slow down, which in turn.

1668
02:48:43.079 --> 02:48:53.000
Releases the tension any stresses that you had in your body.

1669
02:48:54.639 --> 02:48:58.559
It's almost as if the parts of your body just

1670
02:48:58.799 --> 02:49:10.559
open up, allowing the negativity out and at the same

1671
02:49:10.639 --> 02:49:23.000
time replacing that negativity with positive healing energy, which then fills.

1672
02:49:22.600 --> 02:49:31.479
Your body up and your mind to also starts to

1673
02:49:33.920 --> 02:49:40.000
appreciate those feelings of increasing.

1674
02:49:41.440 --> 02:49:58.280
Confidence, an almost uplifting feeling, positive healing, an energy that

1675
02:50:01.920 --> 02:50:06.040
spreads through your body like a wave.

1676
02:50:07.959 --> 02:50:20.159
Of comfort. And all this comes from just allowing yourself

1677
02:50:22.959 --> 02:50:28.159
a few minutes, maybe half an hour, however long you

1678
02:50:28.239 --> 02:50:40.840
want it to be, to just rest and allow your

1679
02:50:40.920 --> 02:50:50.799
mind and your body to almost reset itself to the

1680
02:50:51.520 --> 02:51:07.440
settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness, which allows more room

1681
02:51:07.879 --> 02:51:20.959
for feelings of pleasure and happiness to move around your

1682
02:51:21.000 --> 02:51:29.479
body and into your mind, almost as if your mind

1683
02:51:29.559 --> 02:51:40.200
and your body are sinking together, almost mirroring each other

1684
02:51:41.200 --> 02:51:52.479
with that growing positivity and calmness, and it.

1685
02:51:52.399 --> 02:52:00.280
Feels nice, really does feel nice to know that you

1686
02:52:01.520 --> 02:52:05.920
are the one that has allowed yourself.

1687
02:52:08.639 --> 02:52:21.200
To feel more comfort and to experience more of this.

1688
02:52:22.639 --> 02:52:38.120
Deep relaxation spreading throughout your body. And as I focus

1689
02:52:39.399 --> 02:52:45.360
on each part of your body, you can notice that

1690
02:52:45.360 --> 02:52:59.719
that part becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on

1691
02:52:59.799 --> 02:53:04.680
it becomes even more.

1692
02:53:06.479 --> 02:53:17.159
Calm and comfortable just by focusing. And as I move

1693
02:53:17.600 --> 02:53:25.440
down your body, starting at your head, the parts that

1694
02:53:25.520 --> 02:53:32.799
you have already focused on will continue to relax deeply,

1695
02:53:35.520 --> 02:53:41.600
and those parts that have not yet focused on or

1696
02:53:41.719 --> 02:53:53.520
just automatically release any remain intention in anticipation of even

1697
02:53:53.920 --> 02:54:06.479
more comfort about to come. Now, I'm going to start

1698
02:54:06.559 --> 02:54:13.840
by focusing on your forehead. Just being aware of the

1699
02:54:13.879 --> 02:54:22.399
feelings of your forehead and any background sounds.

1700
02:54:23.600 --> 02:54:28.520
Like mister Herbert O Pigeon can just allow you to

1701
02:54:28.680 --> 02:54:35.920
feel even more relaxed. Just means you're in the moment.

1702
02:54:39.040 --> 02:54:42.079
This isn't this isn't a sterile environment.

1703
02:54:43.399 --> 02:54:51.239
This is the world. I live in the countryside, so

1704
02:54:51.280 --> 02:55:01.760
there's lots of nature sounds around. So as you focus

1705
02:55:01.840 --> 02:55:09.639
on your forehead, just notice how it becomes even more relaxed.

1706
02:55:12.440 --> 02:55:21.559
Focus only on my voice and that part of your body.

1707
02:55:24.920 --> 02:55:33.239
Moving down to your eyes. Focusing on your eyes, noticing

1708
02:55:35.680 --> 02:55:45.399
how your eyelids feel so heavy yet so light at

1709
02:55:45.440 --> 02:55:53.559
the same time, and all the muscles around your eyes relaxing.

1710
02:55:54.719 --> 02:55:55.399
Completely.

1711
02:56:00.120 --> 02:56:07.760
Moving your focus down to your mouth, your lips, your tongue,

1712
02:56:08.959 --> 02:56:16.920
your teeth, You comes, the whole of your mouth, relaxing,

1713
02:56:20.360 --> 02:56:30.680
calm and lease as you focus now on your jaw,

1714
02:56:33.680 --> 02:56:38.799
not just a part of your jawney, your mouth, your chin,

1715
02:56:40.040 --> 02:56:43.159
but all the way up the size of your face

1716
02:56:44.319 --> 02:56:55.239
to your ears, the hole of your jaw, feeding.

1717
02:56:56.479 --> 02:56:59.000
More relaxed.

1718
02:57:02.399 --> 02:57:10.879
And calm.

1719
02:57:11.360 --> 02:57:20.479
Focusing on your neck, the front of your neck and

1720
02:57:20.520 --> 02:57:33.559
your throat relaxing and loose and calm. The sides of

1721
02:57:33.639 --> 02:57:38.600
your neck, the right and the left side of your

1722
02:57:38.719 --> 02:57:57.760
neck relaxtant, lease and calm. And now the back of

1723
02:57:57.799 --> 02:58:04.399
your neck. Focus in on the back of your neck,

1724
02:58:10.319 --> 02:58:15.520
letting go of any tension that may have been there before,

1725
02:58:17.319 --> 02:58:31.639
and enjoying that sense of increasing comfort and release thing

1726
02:58:31.639 --> 02:58:42.040
you can experience in the back of your neck. Moving

1727
02:58:42.280 --> 02:58:48.879
down your back and moving either side of your spine

1728
02:58:50.159 --> 02:58:54.920
right from the top of your back all the way

1729
02:58:55.079 --> 02:59:07.799
down to the bottom of your back, down to your

1730
02:59:07.840 --> 02:59:19.760
lower back. As you move up and down your spine,

1731
02:59:20.520 --> 02:59:24.959
you can feel the muscles either side of your spine

1732
02:59:27.159 --> 02:59:29.239
relaxing even more.

1733
02:59:36.719 --> 02:59:43.520
And as those muscles relax, that sense of comfort starts

1734
02:59:43.559 --> 02:59:53.680
to spread outwards from your spine into both sides of

1735
02:59:53.799 --> 03:00:00.920
your back, the top of your back, the middle end

1736
03:00:00.920 --> 03:00:01.760
your lower back.

1737
03:00:05.280 --> 03:00:12.440
And as you scan gently and slowly up and down

1738
03:00:12.600 --> 03:00:17.680
your back, there's the muscles in the top of your

1739
03:00:17.760 --> 03:00:27.680
back relax and become looser. The muscles in the middle

1740
03:00:27.760 --> 03:00:35.079
of your back also seem to just almost divide from

1741
03:00:35.120 --> 03:00:41.760
each other, separating and almost melting.

1742
03:00:47.520 --> 03:00:49.120
And in your lower back.

1743
03:00:52.639 --> 03:00:59.760
There seems to be an extra special feeling I've come

1744
03:00:59.799 --> 03:01:10.799
from that the spreads into your hips, sit down your

1745
03:01:10.920 --> 03:01:18.840
lower back, into your hips, into the area where your

1746
03:01:19.000 --> 03:01:28.000
cosicks are, and into your buttocks, and all those muscles

1747
03:01:28.120 --> 03:01:37.120
that spread bring your lower back into your hip area

1748
03:01:40.200 --> 03:01:56.879
start to melt, start to reading. Let go and even

1749
03:01:56.959 --> 03:02:04.040
nowhere about to focus on your shoulders. Your back and

1750
03:02:04.159 --> 03:02:16.479
your spine will continue un til let go. Continue to relax.

1751
03:02:19.280 --> 03:02:23.520
So calmly.

1752
03:02:27.559 --> 03:02:33.319
And she focus on your shoulders. You may notice they're

1753
03:02:33.399 --> 03:02:48.239
already feeling really loose, they're already.

1754
03:02:50.600 --> 03:02:57.120
Feeding calm.

1755
03:03:03.280 --> 03:03:15.959
And fear. Those muscles then move from your neck into

1756
03:03:16.000 --> 03:03:35.079
your shoulders. Feel so soft and gentle, so smooth.

1757
03:03:40.559 --> 03:03:52.840
And calm, and.

1758
03:03:53.000 --> 03:04:05.879
The feeling in your shoulders seems to spread deep into

1759
03:04:05.920 --> 03:04:16.399
your shoulders, a sense of relaxation, not just traveling deeply

1760
03:04:16.719 --> 03:04:22.079
into your muscles, but.

1761
03:04:21.879 --> 03:04:27.760
Also relaxing the bones.

1762
03:04:33.079 --> 03:04:39.760
And moving all the way to underneath your arms, relaxing

1763
03:04:41.559 --> 03:04:46.360
the whole area between the tops of your shoulders and

1764
03:04:46.559 --> 03:04:56.520
underneath your arms healing.

1765
03:04:58.040 --> 03:04:58.760
You feel so.

1766
03:05:00.639 --> 03:05:13.200
Relaxed and comfortable in your shoulders, which sense that's.

1767
03:05:14.360 --> 03:05:16.360
Deep healing.

1768
03:05:19.360 --> 03:05:36.879
Message into your arms. You may feel almost as if

1769
03:05:36.959 --> 03:05:43.479
your arms are not even there, because they're so relaxed,

1770
03:05:46.680 --> 03:06:32.920
so deeply relaxed, so so calm, so this the feels

1771
03:06:33.200 --> 03:07:00.799
spreading all way down your arms to elbows, including your elbows,

1772
03:07:00.840 --> 03:07:18.920
circumfort spreads away into rests, your forarents, under wrists.

1773
03:07:25.040 --> 03:07:25.879
So heavy.

1774
03:07:29.600 --> 03:07:30.959
At at the.

1775
03:07:30.719 --> 03:08:15.680
Same time, sunlight and gentle fuy sin now on.

1776
03:08:17.000 --> 03:08:41.120
Your hands, my hands.

1777
03:08:46.920 --> 03:08:49.799
So peaceful.

1778
03:08:50.799 --> 03:09:12.159
In your hands, The sensor.

1779
03:09:15.079 --> 03:09:41.360
Real pace just seems to feel so familiar when your

1780
03:09:41.479 --> 03:11:19.840
hands relax deeply. Else I think it's it's you think

1781
03:11:19.920 --> 03:12:08.000
it taps attention to the front, to your body, cuts

1782
03:12:19.680 --> 03:14:08.600
man new focus, legs, muscles in your fis and names.

1783
03:14:08.600 --> 03:15:15.120
So relax calf muscles just shaves coprazie I.

1784
03:15:03.799 --> 03:16:46.159
Its fee.

1785
03:16:46.280 --> 03:17:47.399
Then you faint, sir pas on such sack peaceful, sircom sir, peaceful.

1786
03:17:50.239 --> 03:17:55.479
Sycom so.

1787
03:17:57.479 --> 03:17:58.639
Peace for.

1788
03:18:08.799 --> 03:18:16.760
Same peace fall.

1789
03:18:19.479 --> 03:18:20.760
S come.

1790
03:18:28.600 --> 03:18:30.159
Love that deep.

1791
03:18:30.040 --> 03:18:49.559
Relaxation to spread your chest your story. So relax, let's

1792
03:18:49.600 --> 03:18:50.680
me go.

1793
03:18:54.360 --> 03:18:56.719
Everything.

1794
03:19:06.280 --> 03:19:12.319
So I'm gonna start counting down now from twenty down

1795
03:19:12.360 --> 03:19:20.520
to one. You can imagine in a way it's like

1796
03:19:21.280 --> 03:19:27.760
just walking down some steps and each step or twenty steps,

1797
03:19:27.799 --> 03:19:37.200
and each step represents a level of comfort. Each step

1798
03:19:37.479 --> 03:19:53.040
represents a deepening of that comfort, and the furvies you

1799
03:19:53.120 --> 03:19:59.239
walk down those steps, the deeper and more relaxed you feel.

1800
03:20:05.879 --> 03:22:53.399
So starting with number twenty twenty, nineteen, eighteen, seventeen sixtyenhhhhhhhh

1801
03:23:56.280 --> 03:32:58.440
three fourhhhhhhh four s too well ei nine eight shhhhhhhh

1802
03:33:42.680 --> 03:40:51.680
six five us four ms belding, did you focus on

1803
03:40:51.760 --> 03:41:10.719
your eyes? We're gonna count down from ten down to one.

1804
03:41:11.639 --> 03:41:20.680
Focus in just on your eyes, your eyelids, the muscles

1805
03:41:20.799 --> 03:41:29.760
around your eyes, your eye walls themselves, our whole area

1806
03:41:32.719 --> 03:41:46.680
that makes up your eye and as we count down

1807
03:41:46.879 --> 03:42:00.280
from ten down to one, whilst focus in on your eyes,

1808
03:42:01.559 --> 03:42:12.079
you will become twice is relaxed with each number counting

1809
03:42:12.239 --> 03:42:23.479
down that you may find the all you want to

1810
03:42:23.479 --> 03:42:32.719
do is just drift off to sleep. And if that's

1811
03:42:32.959 --> 03:42:46.079
what you want, then just allow yourself to do that. Now,

1812
03:42:48.760 --> 03:42:55.520
focusing on your eyes, I'm going to begin counting down

1813
03:42:56.680 --> 03:43:12.040
from ten down to one right now, two.

1814
03:43:38.280 --> 03:44:13.559
Nine eight.

1815
03:45:04.200 --> 03:49:33.200
Seven four.

1816
03:49:35.360 --> 03:52:09.040
Three us.

1817
03:52:09.520 --> 03:52:32.280
One. So counted down from ten to one ten nine

1818
03:52:32.520 --> 03:52:59.879
eight seven six five four three two one. And my

1819
03:53:00.000 --> 03:53:03.319
maybe that was a bit too quick in order to relax.

1820
03:53:04.520 --> 03:53:08.799
Maybe it's a bit too fast for you to notice

1821
03:53:09.040 --> 03:53:17.120
the calming of your body, maybe even a little bit

1822
03:53:17.159 --> 03:53:21.280
of pressure there, like you're counting down from ten to one.

1823
03:53:21.360 --> 03:53:24.760
Would you expect me to do? Man, expect me to

1824
03:53:24.760 --> 03:53:28.799
just to go with floppy just because you're counting down.

1825
03:53:34.360 --> 03:53:37.639
If you try it again, but this time, I'll go

1826
03:53:37.719 --> 03:53:44.879
a bit slower this time. Did you focus on the

1827
03:53:44.920 --> 03:53:47.719
whole of your body before we.

1828
03:53:47.840 --> 03:53:49.680
Focus on your legs?

1829
03:53:51.479 --> 03:54:00.639
Just notice how your body does start to feel more

1830
03:54:01.120 --> 03:54:10.719
relaxed with every number that I count down.

1831
03:54:13.959 --> 03:54:28.360
Ten nine.

1832
03:54:25.920 --> 03:55:55.719
Eight seven six five four three one. I just notice

1833
03:55:56.000 --> 03:56:08.000
how how you feel, generally, how your body feels. It's

1834
03:56:08.040 --> 03:56:16.120
not necessarily even about counting down from ten to one.

1835
03:56:19.079 --> 03:56:32.520
It's that space that you have, that space between being

1836
03:56:36.079 --> 03:56:48.399
active physically or mentally, just sitting or lying down, just

1837
03:56:48.600 --> 03:56:54.520
being there, not doing anything, not saying anything, or needing

1838
03:56:54.760 --> 03:57:00.000
to think about anything. So it opens up a space,

1839
03:57:01.200 --> 03:57:10.360
you know, a bit of a space, a gap. And

1840
03:57:10.440 --> 03:57:15.079
the more I came down from ten to one, the

1841
03:57:15.120 --> 03:57:23.159
bigger that gap becomes. So there's that gap of calmness,

1842
03:57:24.479 --> 03:57:39.559
of comfort and relaxation. It's a nice feeling, and it

1843
03:57:39.760 --> 03:57:51.680
moves those stresses or discomforts physically or emotionally, moves away.

1844
03:57:58.440 --> 03:57:59.520
Allows you.

1845
03:58:02.120 --> 03:58:02.680
To just.

1846
03:58:05.600 --> 03:58:11.920
Slow down. Someone can count the game from ten down

1847
03:58:11.959 --> 03:58:22.000
to one and notice that gap widening, the gap, And

1848
03:58:22.040 --> 03:58:26.520
as it widens, it's almost like that the stress and

1849
03:58:26.639 --> 03:58:29.360
attention falls into.

1850
03:58:29.040 --> 03:58:29.719
The gap.

1851
03:58:42.879 --> 03:58:47.079
And gives you that distance, that space.

1852
03:58:49.399 --> 03:58:54.959
Now ten.

1853
03:58:59.200 --> 03:59:39.319
Nine, eight, seven, six, five.

1854
03:59:50.040 --> 04:00:54.159
Four three one.

1855
04:00:56.079 --> 04:00:59.959
How is your body fell.

1856
04:01:02.040 --> 04:01:02.399
Now?

1857
04:01:14.959 --> 04:01:26.920
Can you notice that? Do you feeling calmer? Are you

1858
04:01:27.159 --> 04:01:55.879
feeling more relaxed? As we now focus on your legs,

1859
04:01:57.280 --> 04:02:17.760
just your legs. You're just gonna start with focusing on

1860
04:02:18.200 --> 04:02:37.360
your thighs. Of course, it's not the most exciting thing

1861
04:02:37.479 --> 04:02:44.040
to be doing, because I'm sure, like most of your

1862
04:02:44.079 --> 04:02:45.520
body is not not.

1863
04:02:45.639 --> 04:02:47.600
Going on right now.

1864
04:02:55.719 --> 04:03:02.000
Just focusing on the whole of your thighs, the tops

1865
04:03:02.040 --> 04:03:08.120
of your thighs, the sides of your fires the bottoms

1866
04:03:08.200 --> 04:03:12.760
of your thighs, your outer thighs, and your inner thighs,

1867
04:03:14.879 --> 04:03:18.799
basically the whole of your thigh that leads into your

1868
04:03:18.920 --> 04:03:33.840
hip and it goes down to your knee joints. Now,

1869
04:03:33.879 --> 04:03:40.959
this is a big area. It's a very heavy area.

1870
04:03:41.399 --> 04:03:47.440
It's very strong, probably the strongest muscles in your body

1871
04:03:48.120 --> 04:04:02.440
or in your thighs. But I don't think we perhaps

1872
04:04:04.399 --> 04:04:17.120
give enough attention to our thighs. Perhaps we don't acknowledge

1873
04:04:17.799 --> 04:04:37.200
how important our thighs are to our lives, how much

1874
04:04:39.799 --> 04:04:46.159
they actually do for us all through our lives.

1875
04:04:53.280 --> 04:04:56.000
And it may seem sound really weird, but.

1876
04:04:58.799 --> 04:05:05.079
I think that all of body parts, especially our thighs,

1877
04:05:05.920 --> 04:05:13.280
need some TLC, a bit of love shown, a bit

1878
04:05:13.319 --> 04:05:32.000
of the acknowledgement, thank you, gratitude for our thighs do

1879
04:05:32.239 --> 04:05:41.959
for us. And I know this may sound a bit strange.

1880
04:05:44.520 --> 04:05:47.639
Maybe you think, why am I sure I should be

1881
04:05:47.639 --> 04:05:52.440
out in the garden hugging a tree or something. Well,

1882
04:05:56.559 --> 04:05:59.680
it's hard to set a microphone up on a tree.

1883
04:06:00.000 --> 04:06:01.239
That's why I'm doing this indoors.

1884
04:06:01.280 --> 04:06:05.079
Otherwise I wouldn't be outside in a tree. I can't

1885
04:06:05.079 --> 04:06:13.879
see the television from the tree. If you move down

1886
04:06:13.920 --> 04:06:23.719
to your knees gain such an important part. And I

1887
04:06:23.760 --> 04:06:28.079
think we don't necessarily I'll speak for myself here.

1888
04:06:30.559 --> 04:06:33.079
I don't necessarily appreciate.

1889
04:06:34.120 --> 04:06:39.079
All that my needs to do for me until I

1890
04:06:39.159 --> 04:06:42.520
have a problem with my knee. It's occasionally if I

1891
04:06:42.639 --> 04:06:48.280
wor maybe i'll bash it, or it's aching for some reason.

1892
04:06:49.959 --> 04:06:56.200
It's then that I realize how much it does. You know,

1893
04:06:56.239 --> 04:07:02.280
the benefit of being able to use my legs without

1894
04:07:04.000 --> 04:07:11.280
any kind of physical discomfort is a beautiful thing that's

1895
04:07:11.440 --> 04:07:20.479
possibly not appreciated until it's temporarily removed. You know that's comfort.

1896
04:07:23.959 --> 04:07:28.600
But as you focus on your knees, regardless of how

1897
04:07:28.639 --> 04:07:36.159
your knees feel, you can have that sense of gratitude

1898
04:07:37.680 --> 04:07:40.319
and love to your needs for all that they do

1899
04:07:40.440 --> 04:07:53.440
for you, And you can still have that attention on

1900
04:07:53.600 --> 04:08:00.159
your thighs. Maybe notice how your thighs feel. Maybe you

1901
04:08:00.200 --> 04:08:17.520
have noticed that they are relaxing more deeply as you

1902
04:08:17.639 --> 04:08:22.959
focus now on the bottoms of your lex your shins,

1903
04:08:23.719 --> 04:08:30.239
and your calf muscles, the bones between your knees and

1904
04:08:30.360 --> 04:08:35.159
your feet incorporate, and of course your ankles.

1905
04:08:36.920 --> 04:08:37.920
So important.

1906
04:08:43.600 --> 04:08:48.239
Anyone that's had even there, like the slightest sprain of

1907
04:08:48.239 --> 04:08:55.840
an ankle, knows how how much we take our ankles

1908
04:08:55.959 --> 04:09:04.159
for granted. And it's kind of strange in a way

1909
04:09:04.200 --> 04:09:09.840
when you think that. You know, logically, our wrists are

1910
04:09:09.840 --> 04:09:13.959
a lot thinner than the rest of our arms, which

1911
04:09:14.040 --> 04:09:17.280
is okay, it doesn't I can't see any problem with

1912
04:09:17.319 --> 04:09:24.520
that because we're just picking stuff up by our ankles

1913
04:09:24.520 --> 04:09:34.520
so much thinner than the rest of our legs. And

1914
04:09:34.600 --> 04:09:39.159
from a physics perspective or logical even it doesn't really

1915
04:09:39.200 --> 04:09:46.479
make sense that all this weight would ultimately be resting

1916
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on your ankles then leading to your feet, that thin area,

1917
04:09:58.959 --> 04:10:08.600
thin bone. Yeah, it does so much great work. Supports us,

1918
04:10:08.680 --> 04:10:18.639
supports our body for a lifetime, helps us to balance,

1919
04:10:21.000 --> 04:10:33.719
helps you to get her around and be mobile. And

1920
04:10:33.760 --> 04:10:41.559
there's the calf muscles. Of course, when I was younger,

1921
04:10:41.799 --> 04:10:45.159
I couldn't see the point in calf muscles didn't seem

1922
04:10:45.159 --> 04:10:50.280
to do anything. Okay, If I walked around on tiptoes,

1923
04:10:51.040 --> 04:10:53.040
then my calf muscles get some work.

1924
04:10:54.399 --> 04:10:55.719
But of course that's not true.

1925
04:10:55.840 --> 04:10:57.280
The calf muscles.

1926
04:10:56.840 --> 04:11:00.920
Are being used whenever we use that legs.

1927
04:11:06.000 --> 04:11:18.639
And your shins there to protect your lower legs, shaped

1928
04:11:18.680 --> 04:11:22.840
in a way almost as a protector for.

1929
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The bone, leading of course to your ankles.

1930
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And your feet. We're not going to focus on your feet.

1931
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We're just going to focus on the legs. I realize,

1932
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and now that I've mentioned your feet, you probably focusing

1933
04:11:55.200 --> 04:11:58.399
on them anyway, So maybe I should focus.

1934
04:11:58.040 --> 04:12:03.920
On your feet a little bit. You can have them

1935
04:12:03.920 --> 04:12:07.159
in your awareness the.

1936
04:12:07.120 --> 04:12:11.719
Same as you have your thighs in your awareness. Even

1937
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though we haven't been focusing on your thighs a few

1938
04:12:15.760 --> 04:12:26.719
minutes and we're focusing on your ankles, there's still that

1939
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sensation of comfort in your thighs, and there's that movement

1940
04:12:44.280 --> 04:12:52.280
of energy because the thighs hold lots of different sensations.

1941
04:12:53.719 --> 04:12:58.600
Of course, there's the muscles, the big straw muscles that

1942
04:12:58.680 --> 04:13:11.639
we have in our thighs, but the skin on the

1943
04:13:11.680 --> 04:13:17.159
outside of the thighs, as in the outside of all

1944
04:13:17.239 --> 04:13:26.079
of our body, can be very sensitive, sensitive to the touch,

1945
04:13:28.840 --> 04:13:42.840
sensitive to temperature, and inside your thighs, the bones, there's

1946
04:13:43.200 --> 04:13:44.319
the muscle.

1947
04:13:44.120 --> 04:13:46.799
There's the blood, vessels, the ar trees.

1948
04:13:47.959 --> 04:13:56.200
To all this stuff that inside your thighs. I guess

1949
04:13:56.239 --> 04:13:59.600
sometimes it'd be nice if you could actually put your

1950
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finger is inside your thighs and a message, so you

1951
04:14:06.840 --> 04:14:10.360
can message on the outside, of course, but to be

1952
04:14:10.399 --> 04:14:13.799
able to get deep into the muscles, to be able

1953
04:14:13.840 --> 04:14:19.079
to just massage inside your thighs, message.

1954
04:14:18.600 --> 04:14:21.159
In the bones of your leg.

1955
04:14:23.120 --> 04:14:33.120
Massage in or the veins, just gently healing thighs.

1956
04:14:37.079 --> 04:14:38.600
You can move down.

1957
04:14:40.280 --> 04:14:45.399
Message and inside your knees, just message in those bones,

1958
04:14:46.360 --> 04:14:53.719
but with healing fingertips, spreading that healing energy deep into.

1959
04:14:53.479 --> 04:15:03.120
The choice your knees. Of course, there's the back of

1960
04:15:03.319 --> 04:15:05.399
your need and.

1961
04:15:05.479 --> 04:15:11.479
The inside crease where your need is. It's a very

1962
04:15:11.680 --> 04:15:17.600
sensitive area. Very it feels very nice when you stroke it.

1963
04:15:18.959 --> 04:15:22.399
That might be because it's an area that's not really

1964
04:15:22.520 --> 04:15:29.000
touched very often. It's almost like a hidden part a

1965
04:15:29.319 --> 04:15:36.280
crease in your legs. It's almost like a part that

1966
04:15:38.040 --> 04:15:49.319
has a sensitivity, which is a little bit different. Of course,

1967
04:15:49.360 --> 04:15:59.799
it's protected by your legs, so you can imagine putting

1968
04:16:00.760 --> 04:16:11.120
your fingers into that crease your legs fold in between

1969
04:16:11.159 --> 04:16:16.319
your legs. You can just message with your fingertips, your

1970
04:16:16.399 --> 04:16:27.280
fingertips going inside, massage in the muscle or tissue you

1971
04:16:27.360 --> 04:16:33.879
can cause field the bones of your knees, heading through

1972
04:16:33.879 --> 04:16:46.639
your fingertips, and then as you go down to your

1973
04:16:46.639 --> 04:16:49.319
calf muscles, and that's the part. I'd like to be

1974
04:16:49.399 --> 04:16:55.799
able to really put my fingertips deep inside my calf muscles,

1975
04:16:57.239 --> 04:17:05.719
massage in the every single tissue of the muscle, healing

1976
04:17:06.159 --> 04:17:15.239
every part. And then doing the same for my shins,

1977
04:17:18.280 --> 04:17:26.840
massage generally, stroking the bones, generally stroking them, healing in

1978
04:17:26.840 --> 04:17:34.079
a loving way because they deserve to be treated. There's

1979
04:17:34.120 --> 04:17:38.159
the precious bones that they are, because our legs are

1980
04:17:38.200 --> 04:17:42.040
so precious as in all the other parts of our body,

1981
04:17:44.520 --> 04:17:58.239
the more precious of any chore on the planet. When

1982
04:17:58.239 --> 04:18:09.719
when you start to think about the legs in this way,

1983
04:18:10.760 --> 04:18:17.479
it can change your perspective. In my sound a bit

1984
04:18:20.680 --> 04:18:25.959
bit silly to start with the idea of having love

1985
04:18:26.520 --> 04:18:35.920
for your legs, showing appreciation for your thighs, wanting to

1986
04:18:35.959 --> 04:18:42.639
be able to put your hands in your thighs, massage

1987
04:18:43.399 --> 04:18:46.479
the muscles and the bones.

1988
04:18:47.680 --> 04:18:49.719
And to get your fingers.

1989
04:18:49.239 --> 04:18:59.079
Deep in there, releasing all tension, just to show how

1990
04:18:59.159 --> 04:19:07.120
much you care about your legs, what you care for,

1991
04:19:08.040 --> 04:19:16.239
what your legs do for you regularly. You mean your cars,

1992
04:19:17.319 --> 04:19:29.600
your ankles, the strength of your ankles consideringly, how thin

1993
04:19:29.760 --> 04:19:33.360
they are compared to the rest of your legs, especially

1994
04:19:33.440 --> 04:19:48.120
your thighs. Yeah, they're so strong, so flexible, absolutely amazing things.

1995
04:19:49.399 --> 04:19:50.879
Your ankles are.

1996
04:19:54.600 --> 04:20:00.000
Truly a gift because of what they do for you,

1997
04:20:05.120 --> 04:20:12.120
supporting all that weight, regardless of how what weight you are,

1998
04:20:13.280 --> 04:20:17.840
even if you only eat ate stone, there's still a

1999
04:20:17.920 --> 04:20:24.760
lot of weight for these little ankles, how a lot

2000
04:20:25.000 --> 04:20:35.079
heavier than eats double dock get. My ankles support my

2001
04:20:35.159 --> 04:20:42.479
body all the time, whether they do give off a

2002
04:20:42.600 --> 04:20:48.000
sigh of relief when I sit down, as I've had

2003
04:20:48.000 --> 04:20:55.319
my whole legs though, my feet feeles to go. My

2004
04:20:57.159 --> 04:21:27.360
toes clap so happy. Your legs really are amazing, And

2005
04:21:27.520 --> 04:21:31.200
I know they're talking about Talking about your legs is

2006
04:21:31.239 --> 04:21:37.639
probably possibly one of the most most boring things you

2007
04:21:37.680 --> 04:21:46.799
ever heard anyone say. Possibly you're boring or not. Everything

2008
04:21:46.840 --> 04:22:02.280
I said is true. Your legs are amazing. Your les

2009
04:22:02.440 --> 04:22:22.000
deserve not just respect, They deserve to relax deeply. They

2010
04:22:22.120 --> 04:22:27.440
deserve to take some time out of the day to

2011
04:22:27.639 --> 04:23:04.399
just lecker completely. You licks really can relax because the

2012
04:23:04.520 --> 04:23:09.040
legs are so such a most, you know, very important

2013
04:23:09.680 --> 04:23:14.319
part of your body, and your relax your legs, the

2014
04:23:14.360 --> 04:23:25.600
rest of your body also naturally follows in that journey

2015
04:23:25.680 --> 04:23:37.440
of comfort. I can feel it in my hips. My

2016
04:23:37.559 --> 04:23:46.920
hips feel really loose, and also my lower back as well.

2017
04:23:46.920 --> 04:23:52.680
My lower back really feels it feels stretched, even though

2018
04:23:52.719 --> 04:23:56.360
I'm just sitting in a chair and there's no stretching

2019
04:23:59.040 --> 04:24:02.200
as far as I'm aware that I'm doing. It's almost

2020
04:24:02.239 --> 04:24:06.079
as if the muscles are just relaxed so much that

2021
04:24:06.159 --> 04:24:13.239
there is a natural stretch as a tension has reduced

2022
04:24:14.639 --> 04:24:33.239
a lot. And I'm now going to count down from

2023
04:24:33.879 --> 04:24:42.959
ten down to one, and you can continue to feel

2024
04:24:44.719 --> 04:24:45.959
wonderfully relaxed.

2025
04:24:49.719 --> 04:24:57.479
Ten nine, eight.

2026
04:25:00.879 --> 04:25:13.959
Seven, six, five, four.

2027
04:25:16.959 --> 04:25:32.879
Three two one relax.

2028
04:25:40.760 --> 04:25:44.600
So I'm just going to count down from five down

2029
04:25:44.639 --> 04:25:49.079
to one. And as a countdown, if you just focus

2030
04:25:49.159 --> 04:25:57.120
on the numbers, just the numbers counting down, and notice

2031
04:25:58.000 --> 04:26:00.280
how you feel.

2032
04:26:02.680 --> 04:26:03.959
In this moment.

2033
04:26:05.319 --> 04:26:09.719
As you hear the numbers counting down, knowing that those

2034
04:26:09.840 --> 04:26:22.959
numbers counting down represent you feeling calmer, not just in

2035
04:26:23.000 --> 04:26:31.760
your body, but also relaxing your mind, you just notice.

2036
04:26:31.399 --> 04:26:32.040
How you feel.

2037
04:26:32.920 --> 04:26:38.840
There's nothing to do, there's nothing to say, there's nothing

2038
04:26:38.959 --> 04:26:46.159
to think about. Starting with number.

2039
04:26:45.920 --> 04:26:55.680
Five four.

2040
04:27:04.680 --> 04:27:15.920
Three two.

2041
04:27:21.719 --> 04:27:22.000
One.

2042
04:27:31.479 --> 04:27:43.280
How as you notice the gradual letting go with the

2043
04:27:43.440 --> 04:27:51.079
tension in your body, you may also begin to notice

2044
04:27:51.159 --> 04:27:58.399
and be aware of how your mind is starting to

2045
04:27:59.680 --> 04:28:06.399
slow down. This is just a natural thing that happens.

2046
04:28:08.959 --> 04:28:14.120
It's not really a special procedure. It's just natural because

2047
04:28:14.319 --> 04:28:20.159
is your body relaxes, your mind also starts to relax.

2048
04:28:21.719 --> 04:28:23.399
And the more your mind.

2049
04:28:23.159 --> 04:28:27.040
Relaxes, the more your body relaxes. It's just a continuous

2050
04:28:28.079 --> 04:28:40.840
circle of relaxation. And there's that calmness that comes from

2051
04:28:41.159 --> 04:28:46.920
relative quietness. You know, even even if there's background sounds

2052
04:28:48.319 --> 04:28:57.040
either your side orline, it's still going to be quite calm.

2053
04:28:57.200 --> 04:28:59.799
You know, you haven't got the television on, there's no

2054
04:29:00.200 --> 04:29:04.360
music in the background, unless you're listening to the recorded

2055
04:29:04.399 --> 04:29:11.879
with music. Of course, you're very likely not going to

2056
04:29:11.879 --> 04:29:15.000
be sitting in a room with other people. Of course

2057
04:29:15.040 --> 04:29:19.600
you might be, but generally it's more ideal if you

2058
04:29:19.639 --> 04:29:30.600
can do this on your own, so no distractions, and

2059
04:29:30.639 --> 04:29:45.840
when you stop thinking about stuff, relaxation automatically rises, a

2060
04:29:46.000 --> 04:29:56.680
sense of comfort starts to grow and without trying to

2061
04:29:56.760 --> 04:30:07.680
build it up into something fantas lastical, something magical, this

2062
04:30:07.840 --> 04:30:15.120
is just a natural process, something that's easy.

2063
04:30:17.120 --> 04:30:20.159
To accomplish.

2064
04:30:20.600 --> 04:30:28.079
In fact, it's almost the sense of relaxing completely happens

2065
04:30:28.159 --> 04:30:33.000
really when you put no effort into it. It's not

2066
04:30:33.079 --> 04:30:41.639
something that you can really force. It's something that happens naturally.

2067
04:30:44.559 --> 04:30:51.879
And part of the process of this recording and others

2068
04:30:53.440 --> 04:31:05.520
is simply two allow you to take advantage of this space.

2069
04:31:07.639 --> 04:31:12.079
This time, to just.

2070
04:31:16.079 --> 04:31:26.280
Let go, to just be here, to be in tune

2071
04:31:27.319 --> 04:31:27.959
with how you.

2072
04:31:27.959 --> 04:31:41.719
Feel, yet with the intention of wanting to relax deeply

2073
04:31:46.520 --> 04:31:53.040
and maybe even to fall asleep, depending on what it

2074
04:31:53.079 --> 04:32:06.200
is that you wish for yourself in this moment. As

2075
04:32:06.239 --> 04:32:15.520
we know, relaxing is the majority of the process of

2076
04:32:15.639 --> 04:32:19.559
falling asleep. The actual fall in the sleep part is

2077
04:32:20.559 --> 04:32:28.600
the tiny bit at the end. The deeper relaxed you become,

2078
04:32:32.520 --> 04:32:50.479
the easier you find yourself drifting. You can also if

2079
04:32:50.520 --> 04:33:00.799
you choose stay focused on my voice and really and

2080
04:33:01.120 --> 04:33:25.720
joy the process corradually relaxing each muscle.

2081
04:33:29.840 --> 04:33:31.000
In your body.

2082
04:33:35.680 --> 04:33:57.680
Effortlessly and just observing the sensation of letting go.

2083
04:34:04.040 --> 04:34:11.439
Completely. This time.

2084
04:34:11.560 --> 04:34:20.400
I'm gonna count from six down to one. You can

2085
04:34:20.479 --> 04:34:24.400
notice your mind.

2086
04:34:25.639 --> 04:34:33.680
Calming down more with each number that you hear me.

2087
04:34:33.680 --> 04:35:22.479
Say, actually feeling calm and slow, to be peaceful, sex, five.

2088
04:35:42.040 --> 04:37:49.799
Four being awhere, Well, you quite to slit.

2089
04:37:51.680 --> 04:37:58.560
Right down, sinking.

2090
04:37:58.680 --> 04:38:21.759
Deeply into relaxation as you focus on your why.

2091
04:38:18.840 --> 04:38:34.639
I notice that there are some thoughts still there.

2092
04:38:31.840 --> 04:38:41.400
Maybe some stubborn thoughts that for some reason perhaps need

2093
04:38:41.479 --> 04:38:42.119
your attention.

2094
04:38:49.479 --> 04:38:50.159
You can do.

2095
04:38:55.880 --> 04:39:03.959
Send love to those thoughts. Sprinkle those thoughts.

2096
04:39:07.880 --> 04:39:08.720
With love.

2097
04:39:10.159 --> 04:39:16.360
My door petals from a flower. Just sprinkle over petals

2098
04:39:16.400 --> 04:39:23.599
feel good love towards those thoughts, to let those thoughts

2099
04:39:23.799 --> 04:39:30.439
know that you're not abandon the number. You just need

2100
04:39:30.439 --> 04:39:38.560
them to require them.

2101
04:39:35.680 --> 04:39:48.400
To just calm down, slow down, quiet down, and now.

2102
04:39:55.759 --> 04:40:00.759
So as you focus on those remaining thoughts as a

2103
04:40:00.919 --> 04:40:07.040
countdown this time from seven down to one. With each number,

2104
04:40:10.000 --> 04:40:25.040
just imagine sprinkling those flower petals of love, kindness, gratitude

2105
04:40:25.759 --> 04:40:35.159
over those thoughts, which will allow them to just not

2106
04:40:35.400 --> 04:40:50.880
away relax deeply. With every number, those thoughts will become

2107
04:40:51.080 --> 04:41:03.639
more and more relaxed, stopping.

2108
04:41:06.599 --> 04:43:39.919
If not seven, six, five, three, that is how.

2109
04:43:41.680 --> 04:44:13.040
Laxed your pudding. To focus on your hands, just the oil,

2110
04:44:13.240 --> 04:44:36.400
extra hands on the wax, your body and my dog. Yes,

2111
04:44:38.000 --> 04:44:49.240
you focus on my hands, your fingers. It's nothing needed

2112
04:44:49.240 --> 04:44:54.759
to be done. There's no clinching of fists or death

2113
04:44:55.000 --> 04:44:55.880
and the fingers.

2114
04:44:55.959 --> 04:45:08.040
Wh It's just like to say friend, to say.

2115
04:45:09.479 --> 04:45:19.639
On your hands, not to see how you feel.

2116
04:45:33.880 --> 04:45:34.479
It, kiss the.

2117
04:45:37.240 --> 04:45:45.959
Blanks your hands feel. I can't by your mind feels

2118
04:45:51.520 --> 04:45:53.279
no friends, you feel.

2119
04:45:55.919 --> 04:45:56.880
Your body.

2120
04:46:05.360 --> 04:46:16.159
Y, I tist.

2121
04:46:20.159 --> 04:46:32.759
You starting.

2122
04:46:36.080 --> 04:47:03.119
Dread said just on my hands, and I guess a

2123
04:47:03.360 --> 04:47:16.959
man and cheap experience a real deepening of that reaxation

2124
04:47:18.720 --> 04:47:38.119
in your heads and fingers, a more relaxed, reached number.

2125
04:47:45.560 --> 04:47:46.360
Of eights.

2126
04:47:48.720 --> 04:47:59.799
Don't one no west feel that healing.

2127
04:48:01.119 --> 04:48:12.119
Relax imagy spread it into my hands, I asked, my.

2128
04:48:12.319 --> 04:48:38.319
Comment, relaxing each number going down at down to.

2129
04:48:38.560 --> 04:48:54.000
One, to drift down, to drift to the cake spotted

2130
04:48:54.240 --> 04:53:01.159
wre just be.

2131
04:52:59.680 --> 04:53:00.759
Yes, to think.

2132
04:53:00.560 --> 04:53:12.240
About nothing to do, nothing to say and everything just feels.

2133
04:53:18.799 --> 04:53:26.159
This is the natural state to be in. This is

2134
04:53:26.360 --> 04:53:29.080
how you just normally feel.

2135
04:53:30.919 --> 04:54:00.200
Take away, that's stop that stress. Someone Si dangehm say

2136
04:54:00.520 --> 04:54:28.040
that that me no sense of answers, which cost is

2137
04:54:28.159 --> 04:55:03.799
absolutely disgest feel confidence most SI found specialness speak stop

2138
04:55:07.240 --> 04:55:36.400
since you come, that's right, good sent you, scrus. That's

2139
04:55:39.119 --> 04:56:05.520
actually just yourself in some ways issue living in sense

2140
04:56:05.639 --> 04:56:31.479
of connected to be. So he came Souk into putting

2141
04:56:40.439 --> 04:56:51.959
souch its you spreads through.

2142
04:56:59.200 --> 04:56:59.240
It.

2143
04:56:59.439 --> 04:57:20.599
It's statue stage, past.

2144
04:57:17.759 --> 04:57:18.240
Ex.

2145
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Speatures, sweet, just students stopp