July 22, 2025

(music) (5 hours) Not so Subtle Nurse | LMBYTS #1397 | Jason Newland | 22nd July 2025

(music) (5 hours) Not so Subtle Nurse | LMBYTS #1397 | Jason Newland | 22nd July 2025
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Hello, and we'll welcome to jasonnew Land dot com. My

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name is Jason new Land. Please only listen when you

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can safely close your eyes.

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This is mm hmm. Let me bore you to sleep.

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It is.

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I don't know what it is.

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It's Tuesday again.

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I'm a little bit out of rhythm with.

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The regular recordings that I have been doing for the

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past few months. You know, the.

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Monday's boring objects, Trivia, Tuesday, Whisper, Wednesday.

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Q and a Friday. Well that I've been doing a

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Q and a Friday. I'd see only one I've really

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kind of.

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Stuck to, as it were, So I thought I just

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do a general, lot general.

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Thing, just say hi, a little catch up, you know,

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not tomatos.

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So I'm sitting here in my living room, vinees.

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Colded up to me by my side, my left side.

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I got the window open, but for now it's fairly quiet.

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There was hours and hours of loud chit chat in

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the garden earlier. It's seemed gone forever. I don't know

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how people find that much to talk about, which is

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a weird cupboard for me, because I don't seem to

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run out of things to talk about.

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It just.

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I prefer to do it on my own rather than

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with someone.

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I did well earlier.

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Actually, someone asked me how I was, and I asked

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them how they were back afterwards.

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See, I'm learning.

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I'm learning to communicate with humans. It's about time.

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So I give a little update on what's going on.

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My daddy has finished his treatment that he was having

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and RT.

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I think it's called beginnings of ARE. The next next

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letter is T not hormone replacement. So he's had four

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weeks of that, five days a week, four weeks in

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a row.

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And I spoke.

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It was quite weird actually, because I spoke to him

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yesterday I think it was yesterday, yesterday afternoon, maybe it

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was Sunday, a loose track, and he.

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He actually opened up about how he was feeling. And

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that was weird because he doesn't normally do that. Normally,

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he just says, yeah, everything's fine, and that's it. There's

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not nowhere to.

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Go after that.

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But he actually went through how he's feeling and what

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he's been through the last four weeks.

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And.

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Yeah, wow, So I was quite surprised. It seems to

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be doing quite well. I'm very tired, though, very very tired,

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So that's kind of to be expected, and everything seems

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to be going to plan. So outside of that, been

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going up to the hospital, went up yesterday to see

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uncle's sausages.

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Yeah, is a lot of confusion, a lot of you know, it's.

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It's difficult to try and explain to someone.

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That the because the blood's not.

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Clearing, it's the toxes for the blood that it can

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affect a person's mind. But unfortunately, kind of in the

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same way as when I'm going through a shall we

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say episode, it's hard to separate from that and realize

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that it's an episode rather than believe in it. So

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he was particularly agitated like yesterday, as he has been

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really for about two weeks, three weeks even. So I

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went and spoke to the nurse and I said, oh, nurse.

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She said, what, who are you?

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What do you want?

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And I said, oh, I want so many things right now,

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A big bar of chocolate. She said me too. I

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said I'd quite like to get on a cruise and

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she said me too. Should we run away together? And

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I said no, thanks, not really.

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She said, oh, oh, never mind. She said that anything else?

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I said, yeah, that uncle sausages. She said who, I said,

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Uncle sausage. And then I realized she didn't know who

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Uncle Sausages was, So I explained who I was talking about,

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and she said, why do you call him uncle sausages?

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And I said, because I've got a little dog called.

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Vinnie, and he gives Vinnie sausages.

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That's something they do.

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He gives the buyers some sausages, and Vinnie loves the sausages,

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and so Vinny calls him Uncle sausages.

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And she said, but he's a dog. How can he

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call someone something he can't talk. I said no, but

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it's just a bit of fun. She said, no, we

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don't have fun here. This is this is a very

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serious place. I said, I don't know.

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It's a serious place, but we're still, you know, try.

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And have a little bit of fun, little bit of

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verbal play.

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And in fact, he actually calls Vinie sausages now, so

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he's Uncle sausages and Vinnie's sausages.

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And she said, but what do you want? I said, Okay,

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if I'm BlimE me, I think it's because I didn't

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want to run away with her, but hey, it's just me.

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Maybe I'm just being a little bit egotistical. But I

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actually had that look at her eye when she said

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should run away together, almost like she had a bag

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packed already and it was hidden in the toilet. Why

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would it be hit not inside a toilet, but like

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maybe your little cabinet I lock her maybe anyway, So

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I said, well, here's a situation. Uncle's sausages. He's very,

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very agitated and anxious. Is there anything you can do?

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She said, oh, she said, we'll explain what you mean.

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So basically, when I go there and when he phones

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me up, he tells him all this stuff that he

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thinks is happening.

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Very I don't want to.

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Be rude about him, but it's like very conspiratorial, potentially hallucinatory, paranoy, parannoiary,

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you know. So he's already being told in the past,

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you know that he's being paranoid, and he's got very.

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Angry with that.

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He said, I never want to hear that word again.

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I said, okay, So I'm speaking to the nurse outside

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the ward.

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You know, just.

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She said, Well, he doesn't tell us any of this stuff.

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He just says everything's fine. I said, I know, he's

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just you know, it's hard to help someone if they

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don't tell you. She said, well, I don't know what

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we can do. I said, well, is there any chance

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you can see get some kind of evaluation from the

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a psychiatrist to see whether it is if it's the

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condition he's got, or maybe it's a previous mental health

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issue that's a re arisen because I don't know his background.

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And you know, there's no judgment from my perspective, because

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I've a I'm a bit of a mental myself and

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know so I do have something. Oh, I've got something

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to tell you later.

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It's I.

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I've got a letter through today from the council tax people.

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So the council tax is kind of like it used

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to be corpor rates, and it covers things like, I

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suppose everything that's done by the local council roads and

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waste and all that kind of stuff.

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So I got letters saying that I was exempt from

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council tax for the next year due to being you

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get this right, and this is because of the benefits

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agency contacted them or my doctor.

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They contented my contact with my doctor and my doctor.

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You know, I'm not sure quite how they got their information.

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It's really weird seeing this in print. This is what

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they said.

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I'm not going to get up and read it because

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it means disturbing a little one, but it's etched in.

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My brain.

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As you are exempt from paying counsel tax for the

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next year due to severe what was it, severe mental impairment?

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Severe mental impairment. That doesn't sound.

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Good, does it. That doesn't make me sound like a hero.

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He I mean, I kind of in a way.

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Rather pay fifteen pound a month to not hear those

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words or not to see that in writing, to not

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be called severely mentally impaired. I know it's another way

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to explain my brain not working properly, but BlimE me,

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blimin neck. So I said to the nurse, I said,

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is there a chance she can go and have someone

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come and give him evaluation, see how he is, or

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something else you can do.

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She said, well, leadal with me. I'll go and find

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it out. We're going to find out. And she walks away.

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And she turns back and says, are you sure don't

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want to do the cruise? I said no, I want

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to say I'm fine, thanks, And she turned away just

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honestly stomped.

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She was just.

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Slamming her feet on the ground as she walked away.

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I'm going to get that a lot, you know. I

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don't am I saying this anyway.

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So I go back into the room with mister sausages,

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mister Uncle's sausages, and we're just chatting. I managed to

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disrupt his flow and redirect him to something else other

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than what he was talking about, because I didn't I

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didn't really think it was much use to him getting angry,

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you know, so I thought, just distract him a little bit,

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focus on something different.

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And the nurse came.

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Back in probably about fifteen minutes later. Bearing in mind that, well,

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here's a subtlety. This is the subtlety, subtlety level of

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this nurse. She came in, she looked at me. First

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of all, she's talking about him in front of him.

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To me, didn't even look at him. I'm afraid, Uncle Sausages.

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He can't have a psychiatric review. They won't come and

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see him.

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I'm like, it's right there. It's like what's going on.

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It's like it's weird, very weird.

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And then she said, but we're going to give him

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some The doctors prescribed some medication to help him with

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the paranoia, and shouted that word out really loud again.

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Directed just talking to me.

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He was not happy.

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Because it sounds like I was talking about it being paranoid,

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and it was just they know his situation, they know

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that what he's some of the stuff he said in

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the past. It's just the last few days he's been quiet,

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just telling me. So they said, we can't give him

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some medication tonight. Won't give it during the day because

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it'll be tired. I don't know what it was. I

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thought they were going to give him something to help

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clear away that stuff, you know, clear away the toxins

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from his blood. I really don't know what it was.

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I'm not great with medication. And I said to Uncle Sausages,

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you're okay with that? He said, because he was hiding

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his medication before he didn't want to take it. And

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I said, look, I wouldn't never let any want to

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hurt you. And he said, I know. I said, no, seriously,

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if this is if you know, this is a medication

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I would take if I had to, if it was

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going to help. The only medication they're going to give

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you is to help you. They're not here to do

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anything but help. That's the sole purpose, you know, when

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they come into your room, it's to help you. Nothing else,

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and he kind of, I think, pretended to agree with me,

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and then he was kind of cheered up for the.

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Rest of the day.

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The rest of the morning I was with him, cheered up.

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He was quite jovial. I went and got got some

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sort of stuff to eat from downstairs in the hospital,

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and we talked about the golf.

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And he seemed all right.

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He seemed, you know, fairly okay.

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You know, all things considered. And I had a miss

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call for him yes late afternoon yesterday. I was probably

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having my mid afternoon nap. So I called him back.

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No answer. I called him back again, called him back again,

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and gooden back, called him back, called him back again

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quite a few times last night. Then I called him

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again this morning quite a few times, and he was

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not answering. Now either he had his phone on silent

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because his phone was on because it was ringing, or well,

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there's no way. It's really loud.

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Now.

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I know his hearing is not great, but it's very

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very loud. I mean the whole hospital can hear it.

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I mean, in fact, if I stick my head out

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of the window, I can hear it. I can't. I

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don't know why I said that. I really stick my

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head out of the window. And while my giraffe my

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head wouldn't fit out the window, we'd fit out the window.

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But there's a window there isn't there doesn't open.

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That wide for me to just.

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So.

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Eventually I called him up this afternoon and the answer

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was the phone and I said, uncle, sausages. He said, yeah,

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really quiet the way he was talking.

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I said, you're right, he said.

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H.

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I said, so you.

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I were trying to call you all morning and last

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night he said, I was asleep. I'm al to you know.

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I said, wow, is that okay?

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You know?

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And of course you're allowed to sleep. I'm not saying

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you're not allowed to sleep. I'm just making sure that

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you're okay because I did find the hospital earlier. I

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didn't tell him this about to find the hospital area

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this area earlier, early on.

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Just to find out if he's okay. And they went

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into his.

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Room and they said, yeah, it's fine.

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I think he started barking. What was I talking about?

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Oh yeah, the nurses in.

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There telling me that just oh no, I would have

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done that bit. Oh yeah.

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So I'm talking to him on the phone, and.

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Not only is he talking really quietly, he sounds like

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he's asleep, like he's almost.

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Half, well three quarters asleep, not even half asleep. Really, yeah,

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you know, I'm thinking.

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I kind of hope it's the medication, to be fair,

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But at the same time, because I was hoping that

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whatever medication they gave him would reduce.

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His anxiety levels, that's it, and then maybe he he'd be.

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Because it's.

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He's stuck in there and he's had enough, you know,

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he's had enough of being there, and he's waiting to

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be moved into a nursing home, and he's just you know.

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He's just bored, bored.

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But even yesterday he said he wasn't even bothered about

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He said, you can take the iPad back if you want.

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I never expected that, because you can watch movies and

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you can watch I realized, I'm not sure how much

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meaning that stuff would have to him. But still there

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is still sport on. There's always some kind of sport

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on around the world. And he did say yesterday he

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just needed some sleep. He says it a couple of times,

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because he said he's not getting much sleep. I just

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need some sleep. So I think he got it last night.

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He got a good night's sleep for the first time,

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possibly in weeks. And I think that in itself might

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have cleared his brain a little bit, might have made

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him a little bit more himself. I was gonna this

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is this is a day I don't go and see him.

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On Tuesday. I nearly went up there, nearly, but I

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thought I'll wait, just, you know, in case he does

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call me. And he did in the end.

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One night, he did answer in the end, and then

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he hung up while he was talking to me. And

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he phoned me about an hour ago, and a half

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an hour ago, I answered, and there was nothing. I

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could just hear him, but he wasn't. I hear him breathing,

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but I couldn't hear him. He didn't say anything to me.

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I think he might have accidentally phoned me, just holding

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the phone or something. So I'll go and see him

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in the morning.

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And I want to speak to his nurse to see

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because he might not have actually had any table, because sometimes,

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you know, they're so busy in there, they might have

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just forgotten. Because he's in this little room on his zone.

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It's a little bit out the way.

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They might you know, they're busy with all the other

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people and it's.

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You know, human error.

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Sometimes they forget stuff, so they might have forgotten to.

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Give him the medication.

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And because he's had twenty four hours, the staff are

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changing over, aren't they. So he's dealing with a different

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nurse at night, a different nurse during the day, and

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then maybe a different nurse a day after because all

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our different rotors and stuff. So I'm not sure if

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they do twelve hour shifts, so it might have three

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different nurses during the twenty four hours period. I mean,

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he hasn't had the same nurse three days in a row.

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I don't think it's different.

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Yeah, it's I've spoken to I think four different nurses

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so far in that ward, maybe five, and they've all

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been great.

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It's just it's I mean, one was a little bit.

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I don't know.

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There's something about talking about talking about the patient in

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front of the patient when the patient's actually looking that

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I don't know if I do, I'd enjoy that myself.

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I mean I've talked about him. I've asked questions to

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doctors when the doctor's been there and Uncle Sausages has

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been there and I'm there, and because Uncle Sausages won't

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ask any questions, I asked the questions, but I include

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Uncle sasages in it. I don't just like talk about him.

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I'm kind of talking with him, if that makes sense,

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Like I'm another mouth.

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That was weird.

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I'm uncle sausages second mouth. Yeah, that's very very strange,

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very strange visual. So I hope that when I see

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him tomorrow he's all right, because he sounded very It's

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like it wasn't there. And I know that different medication

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can have different effects in that, but.

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Just that was kind of.

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I don't know. I don't know what to think. So

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I'll go and speak to his nurse tomorrow and ask

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what he's been given and whether or not that's normal

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for those sides of things, or whether it's there's another

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reason for it. But yeah, that's kind of it, really,

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Although he did he did say something about how he's

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jumper had been stolen this morning this afternoon, so I

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don't know what's going on there. I said, I'll speak

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to you tomorrow and we'll work it out. And the

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other day I took in I bought him some Tomato

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ketchup sachets because I took him in my tomato ketchup

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in a bottle.

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But that made a bit of a mess.

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So I thought he said, I'd rather have them in

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sachets because that's what he's used to.

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So I ordered.

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Lots of sachets online on Amazon, took them in his

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the old bag of them, and he found that funny.

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And I think he thought I was just going to

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go into McDonald's and just grab a handful something like that.

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It's like, no, no, no, no, no, no, no.

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Anyway I went. He did the same thing on for

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a Friday. He said, no, yesterday, Sorry, I've run out

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of sugar.

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No, no, he said.

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The what did they say something about didn't have any

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sugar to put in his tea? It was it his

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tea or just something? What else would you have sugar on?

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He had something, but he didn't have any sugar, and

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he said it ruined it. Not ice cream, because that

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would be unnecessary, wouldn't.

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It mind you? It might taste nice. It's sugar on

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some ice cream. Not something that I would do because

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I'm not supposed to really have sugar.

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Not a hot dog. What was he needed sugar for?

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Maybe it was yeah, maybe it was for a cup

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of tea cup of coffee. What isn't another book? But planes?

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Going past all day. Can you hear that?

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I don't really know why, because I don't think there's

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any kind of celebrations. There's no d D double DD Eday,

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King's Birthday, celebrations, V Day, VD Day. There's none of

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those stuff because there's a lot of those different days.

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And we get all the aircraft flying over towards London

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and fly back, and they probably come from different parts

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of the country to do a big old flyover over

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London Trafalgar Square or whatever they do it, but or

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the Senotaph. I don't know where the Senotaph is. However,

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today I don't think there is a particular thing on.

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I mean it might be, I'm just not aware of it.

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There might well be a big celebration going on today.

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I don't know. I didn't even know. Oh yes, anyways

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at all.

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She gave me tea but no sugar, so I thought, okay,

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and he asked for the sugar, but she didn't come back.

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So I thought, I'll sort you out some sugar, and

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so I bought him on Amazon.

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Again.

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They're not being delivered yet, No, they haven't. No one

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hundred and forty packs of sugar like the long ones

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that you get in cafes and you know, you open

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the end up and you just pour it in. So

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you've got one hundred and forty of then coming. So

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I'll hopefully it should be delivered today and I'll take

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him to him tomorrow morning. I'm just trying to kind

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of give him what he needs, just to it's those

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little comforts because in his situation, I'm sure as heck

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would not be drinking tea without sugar. I would be

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having sugar with everything because I like sugar.

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I just unfortunately have to be a little bit careful

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with it, A little bit careful, not as careful as

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I should be, probably.

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Yeah, I mean not literally.

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I haven't bought a bag of sugar for well over

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a year now, yeah, well over probably a year and

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a half. Whenever it was that I was told that

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I had to cut down and loose some weight, and

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I stopped with the sugar. No more sugar and breakfast cereal,

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no more sugar and tea or coffee or though I

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don't drink coffee anymore, although I did drink coffee the

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other day, so I'm just pretty much just lied, didn't.

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I I used to have coffee, used to have one

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cup of coffee every morning with my breakfast for quite

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some time, possibly years, and then the rest of the

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day I would have tea. This is when I stopped

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drinking coke before that old not really to you all.

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I just haven't can to coke, but I stopped drinking coke, So,

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you know, tea, cups of tea and a fair bit

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of water.

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I do.

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I've always been quite an avid, avid, regular water drinker, and.

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Yeah, since since I was a kid.

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Really anyway, I ran out of coffee. This is even

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more boring than I wanted.

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It to be.

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I do you ever stop yourself at heart, like midway

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in a sentence and think.

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This is really boring? This is even this is too boring.

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I can't finish this sentence. It's just too I've got

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to do a U turn. This is really gonna be tedious.

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Why am I even saying this? I'll think I'll continue,

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but I'm just just letting you know. I'm talking about coffee.

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What I talk about coffee? It's got to be more

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interesting things to talk about.

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Yeah, but it's suppose to be boring, isn't it. It's

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supposed to be bullying. Yeah, but there's a limit there's

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a limit to boredom. I mean, I might as well

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just count how many times I've cut my toenails in

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the last ten years.

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It's on the same.

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Level of like complete tedium. Anyway, I finished the exciting story.

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So I was drinking coffee every day, one cup of day.

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That was my limit, A little bit of kickstart to

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today it was yeah, all right, And then I ran

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out of coffee and.

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There was no coffee available. But basically, I have my

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delivery delivered, the coffee was missing. There was none available,

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so I just had tea bags and I thought, what

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am I going to do? A cup of tea is

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not going to solve the issue. It's not the same

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as a cup of coffee. Now, at this time, I was.

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Drinking coffee and tea with sugar, so that's when the

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coffee finished before I stopped with the sugar, which is

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just as well, because there's no way in the world

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I'm ever what I say never, but generally I wouldn't

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drink coffee without sugar.

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It ain't happening.

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And I had a cost as coffee the other day,

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first coffee in a year, well over a year, and

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I had a couple of at least one or two

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sugars in it. I can't have I can't have coffee

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without sugar. Ain't gonna happen. But as I was only

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having one coffee, you know, one coffee a year is allowed,

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I would say I would hazard a gift that I'd

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be okay with that, although I did feel a bit

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weird having all that caffeine running through me, the buzz ah.

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So yeah, I haven't had coffee really other than you know,

488
00:36:35.880 --> 00:36:40.199
when I did have coffee. I never drink coffee apart

489
00:36:40.199 --> 00:36:41.559
from when I do drink coffee.

490
00:36:41.960 --> 00:36:50.360
That's just a weird sentence, very weird. You used to

491
00:36:50.440 --> 00:36:51.559
drink a lot of coffee.

492
00:36:52.920 --> 00:36:59.320
I've been through phases in my life where like between

493
00:36:59.320 --> 00:37:16.199
the ages of seven and fifteen, maybe sixteen, yeah, fifteen sixteen,

494
00:37:16.320 --> 00:37:19.960
I was drinking coffee regularly. I drinking tea regularly.

495
00:37:20.000 --> 00:37:25.480
Sorry, just part of that was the culture. I drink tea.

496
00:37:25.880 --> 00:37:28.360
I don't have the occasional coffee, but not that often,

497
00:37:30.719 --> 00:37:33.639
not in the evening. But i'd have a coffee sometimes

498
00:37:34.519 --> 00:37:38.239
eleven Z's with a cup of coffee and some biscuits,

499
00:37:38.320 --> 00:37:40.599
you know, on a weekend and stuff.

500
00:37:47.880 --> 00:37:50.320
Yeah, I have cups of tea that would be kind

501
00:37:50.320 --> 00:37:50.800
of normal.

502
00:37:52.320 --> 00:38:01.599
But then when I left school, didn't really drink much

503
00:38:01.639 --> 00:38:06.760
in a way of tea. I mean, I did drink tea,

504
00:38:07.519 --> 00:38:09.360
but not a lot of tea.

505
00:38:11.079 --> 00:38:14.199
I think, you know, once I got sort of sixteen,

506
00:38:15.119 --> 00:38:17.159
seventeen eighteen.

507
00:38:17.880 --> 00:38:20.079
It was I suppose I had a bit more.

508
00:38:20.079 --> 00:38:25.119
Choice, didn't have to stick to tea because I was

509
00:38:25.159 --> 00:38:27.280
the one buying what I was drinking.

510
00:38:28.440 --> 00:38:32.840
And yeah, I think I started drinking more.

511
00:38:32.719 --> 00:38:35.119
Coke and.

512
00:38:37.239 --> 00:38:44.239
More water, just trying to think, just you know, bit's

513
00:38:44.440 --> 00:38:44.880
just whatever.

514
00:38:45.039 --> 00:38:47.599
Really I can't remember.

515
00:38:48.239 --> 00:38:50.159
Probably quite a bit of water because I was working

516
00:38:50.159 --> 00:38:54.639
in the hot environment, but definitely drinking coke other cans

517
00:38:54.679 --> 00:38:55.159
of drink.

518
00:38:55.960 --> 00:38:56.280
Lilt.

519
00:38:56.440 --> 00:38:58.639
I used to like lilt when I was about sixteen.

520
00:38:59.400 --> 00:39:04.639
Oh my goodness, lilt. It was lovely. It's gorgeous.

521
00:39:07.079 --> 00:39:07.639
M hmmm.

522
00:39:10.559 --> 00:39:17.760
It's a little bit like fencer really but lemon lemonee,

523
00:39:20.679 --> 00:39:24.679
not lemon. But I don't know how to explain a bit.

524
00:39:24.719 --> 00:39:32.960
I liked it, and so I went quite a few

525
00:39:33.199 --> 00:39:38.039
years where probably the only time I'd drink.

526
00:39:38.280 --> 00:39:42.000
Tea would perhaps be.

527
00:39:43.760 --> 00:39:47.760
First thing in the morning with my breakfast, so that

528
00:39:47.880 --> 00:39:49.159
was kind of a regular thing.

529
00:39:49.199 --> 00:39:53.679
I'd have a cup of tea my breakfast and then

530
00:39:55.360 --> 00:39:59.480
during the nineties, i'd have a pie of milk with

531
00:39:59.639 --> 00:40:01.159
my evening meal.

532
00:40:04.360 --> 00:40:06.760
And water. So that was all i'd have in the evening,

533
00:40:07.480 --> 00:40:10.440
milk and water unless I went out, and then i'd have.

534
00:40:13.000 --> 00:40:15.400
For a lot of the nineties, I would never drunk alcohol,

535
00:40:15.519 --> 00:40:20.960
so i'd just be drinking. I'd order a coke, and

536
00:40:21.760 --> 00:40:24.760
I try to make the coke of coca glass, the

537
00:40:24.840 --> 00:40:27.400
glass of coke last as possible.

538
00:40:29.679 --> 00:40:32.039
So I'll try and get that sentence out properly. Now,

539
00:40:32.840 --> 00:40:35.519
I'd try and make a glass of coke last as

540
00:40:35.559 --> 00:40:41.039
long as possible. Because it wasn't just that I was tight,

541
00:40:41.239 --> 00:40:45.079
but I didn't have lots of money.

542
00:40:47.119 --> 00:40:51.880
Money, So I'd go out and i'd have like maybe

543
00:40:51.920 --> 00:40:54.519
ten pounds five or ten pounds to last me for

544
00:40:54.559 --> 00:40:57.519
the whole evening.

545
00:41:00.239 --> 00:41:02.639
You know that that was it. So what I did

546
00:41:03.000 --> 00:41:07.840
is I mean not all the time.

547
00:41:07.920 --> 00:41:10.360
There was periods when I had a bit more a bit.

548
00:41:10.199 --> 00:41:15.000
More cash than others, and maybe I would drink, you know,

549
00:41:16.519 --> 00:41:24.639
I think ninety four in the summer I started drinking,

550
00:41:25.039 --> 00:41:28.199
like going out drinking and stuff really like regularly. But

551
00:41:28.280 --> 00:41:32.480
that was like a for a summer eighty nine, I

552
00:41:32.519 --> 00:41:34.719
did as well, but that was just for the summer.

553
00:41:37.159 --> 00:41:41.480
Outside of that, during.

554
00:41:41.199 --> 00:41:44.039
The whole of the nineties, other than when I was

555
00:41:44.079 --> 00:41:47.280
working and earned a cup of tea from the machine

556
00:41:50.559 --> 00:41:54.159
or a cup of coffee, I didn't drink you know,

557
00:41:54.360 --> 00:41:57.000
tier coffee, so that'd be maybe two or three a day.

558
00:41:57.639 --> 00:42:01.880
But there was like tiny little those tiny little plastic cups.

559
00:42:02.559 --> 00:42:02.880
And.

560
00:42:04.719 --> 00:42:08.719
Yeah, so I didn't really bother with tea. And then

561
00:42:09.000 --> 00:42:14.880
in the two thousands, actually in two thousand, I got

562
00:42:15.119 --> 00:42:23.280
real really excited about tea again, which is weird, not excited,

563
00:42:23.960 --> 00:42:29.639
but I liked drinking tea, so I was getting through

564
00:42:29.800 --> 00:42:30.840
more tea.

565
00:42:33.760 --> 00:42:37.159
During the day in.

566
00:42:37.159 --> 00:42:42.039
Two thousand and two thousand and one, and then two

567
00:42:42.119 --> 00:42:46.039
thousand and two, well, at the end of two thousand

568
00:42:46.039 --> 00:42:50.679
and one two thousand and two, I was drinking huge

569
00:42:50.679 --> 00:42:55.920
amounts of coffee at work and that didn't do me

570
00:42:55.960 --> 00:43:02.719
any good. In two thousand and three, I pretty much

571
00:43:02.719 --> 00:43:06.440
stopped drinking coffee. It came out from a machine, so

572
00:43:06.519 --> 00:43:09.800
that wasn't Yeah, it was a bit.

573
00:43:09.440 --> 00:43:17.280
Rubbish, so I stopped doing that. Didn't I think I

574
00:43:17.320 --> 00:43:20.039
really had much. I suppose I get the odd coffee

575
00:43:20.079 --> 00:43:26.079
or tea, you know, leading into two thousand and seven

576
00:43:26.559 --> 00:43:30.519
when I stopped working in insurance, So it was about

577
00:43:30.760 --> 00:43:36.000
now this time of the year in two thousand and seven,

578
00:43:37.920 --> 00:43:43.920
I basically as my second insurance job, second out three,

579
00:43:45.000 --> 00:43:47.639
and I was part time because i'd.

580
00:43:47.480 --> 00:43:48.119
Be nil.

581
00:43:51.440 --> 00:43:56.239
In two thousand and six, nearing the I think it

582
00:43:56.239 --> 00:44:01.280
was September time two thousand and six, and I had

583
00:44:01.280 --> 00:44:05.559
some time off and they allowed me to go back

584
00:44:05.639 --> 00:44:08.639
part time after about a month off work, so I

585
00:44:08.679 --> 00:44:15.679
went back part time. That suited me perfectly because I

586
00:44:15.679 --> 00:44:19.840
could then do volunteering and I can do you know,

587
00:44:19.960 --> 00:44:23.519
the other stuff that I was doing. It's really good,

588
00:44:24.840 --> 00:44:27.000
and I was earning enough to get by.

589
00:44:29.400 --> 00:44:29.800
Just you know.

590
00:44:29.800 --> 00:44:31.639
It wasn't a lot, but I had enough to pay

591
00:44:31.679 --> 00:44:36.719
the rent and buy the food and have enough just

592
00:44:37.519 --> 00:44:45.039
bits and bops, you know. But then in I think

593
00:44:45.119 --> 00:44:50.559
it was June two thousand and seven, they hauled me

594
00:44:50.639 --> 00:44:54.559
into the office by a hold. They didn't they just

595
00:44:54.599 --> 00:45:00.920
asked me to go in there and about seven footsteps

596
00:45:00.920 --> 00:45:03.239
from where my desk was, so it wasn't a big

597
00:45:03.280 --> 00:45:08.519
deal anyway. I walked in there and my boss said,

598
00:45:10.639 --> 00:45:15.599
we need you to go full time again. I said, no,

599
00:45:15.880 --> 00:45:19.440
I don't want to he said, but we want you to,

600
00:45:19.960 --> 00:45:24.920
I said, I don't want to do because, other than

601
00:45:24.920 --> 00:45:31.599
anything else I had, I liked that job. Now, you

602
00:45:31.639 --> 00:45:37.519
won't hear me say that about many of my jobs

603
00:45:37.519 --> 00:45:40.519
I've had in the past. And I've had a lot

604
00:45:40.519 --> 00:45:46.920
of jobs, like lots and lots and lots. That's one

605
00:45:46.920 --> 00:45:56.920
of the few jobs that I actually I didn't Yeah,

606
00:45:57.159 --> 00:46:01.920
Sunday wasn't tarnished by thinking about going to work on

607
00:46:01.920 --> 00:46:05.960
the Monday. I didn't have that anymore because I was

608
00:46:06.000 --> 00:46:08.559
doing it part time. I liked the job full time

609
00:46:08.599 --> 00:46:17.039
as well, but I just I just struggled to keep

610
00:46:17.079 --> 00:46:20.559
it going. And I don't know how long i'd lasted

611
00:46:21.280 --> 00:46:25.480
part time, but I did quite well because I've been

612
00:46:25.519 --> 00:46:37.159
part time since probably October. Yes, I did like seven

613
00:46:37.239 --> 00:46:40.920
or eight months part time, so I was holding it together.

614
00:46:41.559 --> 00:46:43.519
I had a couple of weeks off, but other than that,

615
00:46:45.000 --> 00:46:58.360
I was doing all right. And I mean, chances are I.

616
00:46:56.199 --> 00:47:00.920
I might still be there if they'll let me.

617
00:47:02.079 --> 00:47:04.639
I mean, I wouldn't still be there because the whole

618
00:47:04.639 --> 00:47:11.480
place closed down. They made everyone redundant, so and that

619
00:47:11.679 --> 00:47:14.519
was kind of coming. I kind of knew that as well.

620
00:47:14.760 --> 00:47:16.280
I think that's part of the reason why I was

621
00:47:16.679 --> 00:47:25.480
not so well, But it was, yeah, all things being

622
00:47:26.360 --> 00:47:29.400
equal and being good, I.

623
00:47:29.639 --> 00:47:31.280
Liked the job. I was good at the job.

624
00:47:32.679 --> 00:47:37.880
This is I'd moved from working in sales to listening

625
00:47:37.880 --> 00:47:41.360
to people's phone calls to make sure that they were

626
00:47:41.360 --> 00:47:44.880
doing the job correctly. So I was in compliance and

627
00:47:44.920 --> 00:47:53.199
I was very good at listening, concentrating. I had headphones

628
00:47:53.239 --> 00:47:55.480
and stuff, and I wasn't Actually.

629
00:47:56.039 --> 00:48:00.000
I wasn't sitting on the desk listening to people talking

630
00:48:00.079 --> 00:48:03.719
and you know it's actually recorded calls, because that would

631
00:48:03.760 --> 00:48:10.079
have been off putting, wouldn't it Just sitting there one

632
00:48:10.159 --> 00:48:12.719
egg cup from the customer and when it a cup

633
00:48:12.800 --> 00:48:22.280
with strength from the salesperson, a cup, yoga cup. Anyway,

634
00:48:22.320 --> 00:48:28.960
that's just a silly thing, silly visual. Uh.

635
00:48:30.159 --> 00:48:36.079
Yeah, I was quite good at it. Not not sure if.

636
00:48:37.480 --> 00:48:42.079
Not playing my own trumpet, violin or whatever instrument. It's

637
00:48:42.119 --> 00:48:45.400
just you know, it's a factual thing. Was for some reason,

638
00:48:45.440 --> 00:48:46.840
I was pretty good at doing that.

639
00:48:49.760 --> 00:48:51.039
So I didn't want to leave.

640
00:48:52.960 --> 00:48:58.360
But at the same time, I didn't feel like a

641
00:48:58.480 --> 00:49:03.000
go full time again. At that point, I didn't think

642
00:49:03.039 --> 00:49:06.199
I could go full time anywhere. I just didn't because

643
00:49:06.199 --> 00:49:11.360
I'd already. Oh man, the amount of times that I've

644
00:49:12.400 --> 00:49:17.400
had issues, you know, had to have time off and

645
00:49:17.440 --> 00:49:23.840
stuff with different jobs. So I was like, Okay, I

646
00:49:23.880 --> 00:49:28.239
want to stay here. I like I like the company,

647
00:49:30.039 --> 00:49:31.559
I like the people I work with.

648
00:49:32.840 --> 00:49:35.280
I like the job. It's easy.

649
00:49:36.280 --> 00:49:39.480
It's challenging at times, but generally quite easy for me.

650
00:49:40.920 --> 00:49:44.599
And I got really well with my little team, and

651
00:49:44.679 --> 00:49:52.280
I was in. But then yeah, it was a choice

652
00:49:52.320 --> 00:49:55.960
of like, go full time or leave.

653
00:49:56.320 --> 00:49:56.880
That was it.

654
00:49:58.000 --> 00:50:00.000
And I said, okay, I'll go back full time.

655
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:00.199
And then.

656
00:50:01.800 --> 00:50:05.599
I came back the next day. I said no, I'm leaving.

657
00:50:11.679 --> 00:50:17.840
And I had no idea what I was going to do. Well,

658
00:50:17.840 --> 00:50:18.840
I knew I was going to leave.

659
00:50:19.000 --> 00:50:19.559
That was it.

660
00:50:21.000 --> 00:50:23.960
I think I think I was sort of.

661
00:50:25.599 --> 00:50:30.360
Doing a little gamble. I was hoping that they would say.

662
00:50:31.360 --> 00:50:33.239
Oh no, no, no, no.

663
00:50:33.639 --> 00:50:37.519
Run after me. Oh no, juicy Jay Jay, we need you.

664
00:50:37.639 --> 00:50:40.760
It's it's okay, you can. You can stay part time.

665
00:50:42.840 --> 00:50:45.159
I'll employ someone else to come in and I'll pay

666
00:50:45.239 --> 00:50:48.559
out my own wages, someone extra to do the extra work.

667
00:50:49.639 --> 00:50:51.400
We can't lose you.

668
00:50:52.840 --> 00:50:54.039
But no, that didn't happen.

669
00:50:56.159 --> 00:51:03.119
It was weird because when I left, I just said

670
00:51:03.159 --> 00:51:05.880
goodbye to but by this point my boss had away

671
00:51:05.960 --> 00:51:12.320
left and all I had was the lady that I

672
00:51:12.559 --> 00:51:14.239
was sitting next to me, that I got really well

673
00:51:14.280 --> 00:51:17.159
with the people behind me, and I just said.

674
00:51:16.960 --> 00:51:19.440
See her, and I was left.

675
00:51:21.039 --> 00:51:25.320
And it's almost like no one knew I was leaving,

676
00:51:26.920 --> 00:51:27.719
or no one cared.

677
00:51:28.159 --> 00:51:37.199
It's hard to believe. It's very strange. Yeah, I feel

678
00:51:37.239 --> 00:51:41.480
a bit cold because I knew people in different departments

679
00:51:41.559 --> 00:51:44.239
because I've been in the sales department. I knew everyone

680
00:51:44.280 --> 00:51:47.719
in the sales department, not just because I'd worked with.

681
00:51:47.800 --> 00:51:48.320
Most of them.

682
00:51:50.760 --> 00:51:52.519
Well, I hadn't worked with most of my work at

683
00:51:52.559 --> 00:51:55.519
the time. I'd worked with everyone, and then they took

684
00:51:55.599 --> 00:52:02.480
on another probably twice as many different people, maybe three times.

685
00:52:03.199 --> 00:52:03.800
I never heard.

686
00:52:04.800 --> 00:52:08.960
They took on a lot more people, and I got

687
00:52:09.000 --> 00:52:10.800
to know them because I was listening to their cause.

688
00:52:11.239 --> 00:52:13.800
So I felt like I knew them and I would

689
00:52:13.880 --> 00:52:17.159
speak to them, you know, and give them feedback and stuff.

690
00:52:17.239 --> 00:52:23.440
So not everyone was in love with me because they

691
00:52:23.639 --> 00:52:25.159
sometimes lost money.

692
00:52:26.920 --> 00:52:30.679
Due to not doing the job properly. And that wasn't

693
00:52:30.719 --> 00:52:34.000
my fault. That was just the way it was, you know,

694
00:52:34.599 --> 00:52:41.360
just there was I did thought I was going to

695
00:52:41.400 --> 00:52:41.920
get in trouble.

696
00:52:41.960 --> 00:52:48.559
Once some lady was in renewals and he lost something

697
00:52:48.679 --> 00:52:56.760
like two hundred pound from his bonus because he failed

698
00:52:56.880 --> 00:53:07.400
every single one of his compliance things. And I said, well,

699
00:53:08.519 --> 00:53:12.159
I only marked two of them, and what's her name

700
00:53:12.239 --> 00:53:12.599
next to me?

701
00:53:12.719 --> 00:53:15.760
Mark two? We didn't do all four, so was it

702
00:53:15.960 --> 00:53:17.639
six three?

703
00:53:18.000 --> 00:53:20.800
I think I had six, Either four or six, I

704
00:53:20.880 --> 00:53:24.400
can't remember, but I didn't do all of them, so

705
00:53:24.440 --> 00:53:28.960
it couldn't all be blamed on me. So the team

706
00:53:29.119 --> 00:53:30.920
leader he calls the big fuss.

707
00:53:31.039 --> 00:53:33.840
The team leader came up, wanted to listen to the

708
00:53:33.920 --> 00:53:38.000
calls again and said, no, it was fine, and I said,

709
00:53:38.000 --> 00:53:41.199
I'd listened to it again, and no it wasn't. And

710
00:53:41.360 --> 00:53:43.800
then my boss would listened to it and said, no,

711
00:53:43.920 --> 00:53:47.719
it wasn't all these people listening to the call trying

712
00:53:47.800 --> 00:53:52.039
to trying to find a way to pay him. When

713
00:53:54.559 --> 00:53:56.960
I mean, when I listened back to the call, I

714
00:53:57.079 --> 00:54:01.679
didn't want myself to be wrong for because I quite

715
00:54:02.519 --> 00:54:05.079
I quite liked the idea that I was pretty good

716
00:54:05.119 --> 00:54:08.679
at a job. But at the same time i'd have

717
00:54:08.760 --> 00:54:09.599
been happy.

718
00:54:09.440 --> 00:54:13.320
Enough, and I wouldn't really, but I wanted him to

719
00:54:13.360 --> 00:54:13.840
have his money.

720
00:54:13.840 --> 00:54:14.960
I didn't want him to lose money.

721
00:54:16.039 --> 00:54:19.199
I wouldn't have been happy if I'd been wrong, just

722
00:54:19.320 --> 00:54:22.719
because that brings up doubts in other people's minds. Then,

723
00:54:23.239 --> 00:54:25.239
so how many other ones you has he done wrong?

724
00:54:25.920 --> 00:54:28.800
I lost one hundred pounds last month. Maybe that was

725
00:54:28.840 --> 00:54:32.960
because him he doesn't know what he's doing. But I

726
00:54:33.079 --> 00:54:36.000
really didn't know what I was doing, very.

727
00:54:36.480 --> 00:54:38.599
Very very rarely will you ever hear me say that.

728
00:54:39.079 --> 00:54:41.760
I was pretty good at that job. It was very simple,

729
00:54:44.440 --> 00:54:47.760
but I knew exactly what or I knew what needed

730
00:54:47.800 --> 00:54:50.800
to be, how things needed to be asked and as

731
00:54:50.840 --> 00:54:52.840
a certain way it was. I think it was ridiculous

732
00:54:53.679 --> 00:54:55.239
that the staff were.

733
00:54:55.199 --> 00:54:59.599
Made to do that. You know, I really did this,

734
00:54:59.760 --> 00:55:01.000
but it's just compliance.

735
00:55:01.039 --> 00:55:06.159
It's just the rules. It's the rules, it's the financial

736
00:55:09.280 --> 00:55:22.079
whatever organization. But yeah, it's weird because I left thinking, oh,

737
00:55:22.920 --> 00:55:25.920
I did give the month's notice. So during that month

738
00:55:26.800 --> 00:55:35.119
I applied to go to university to do my counseling degree.

739
00:55:36.360 --> 00:55:36.960
I applied.

740
00:55:37.280 --> 00:55:42.400
I didn't get a result, I think until i'd left,

741
00:55:45.559 --> 00:55:51.559
because that would have been in the August, or maybe

742
00:55:51.599 --> 00:55:55.239
it was in the July and August September. I started

743
00:55:55.360 --> 00:56:01.920
university in October, so I think I probably went for

744
00:56:02.000 --> 00:56:10.440
an interview in the July, because I think they did

745
00:56:10.519 --> 00:56:12.039
the interviews before.

746
00:56:13.559 --> 00:56:14.079
The clothes.

747
00:56:14.239 --> 00:56:16.320
I don't know, Yeah, I think I did. It might

748
00:56:16.320 --> 00:56:19.280
have been June, BlimE me. Anyway, I think it was July.

749
00:56:20.880 --> 00:56:21.440
And then.

750
00:56:25.440 --> 00:56:26.320
I got accepted.

751
00:56:28.280 --> 00:56:32.920
I went on to I got benefits housing benefit just

752
00:56:33.039 --> 00:56:38.719
for three months while I was unemployed waiting to go

753
00:56:38.840 --> 00:56:39.559
to university.

754
00:56:40.719 --> 00:56:41.920
Remember the they said another one.

755
00:56:41.960 --> 00:56:46.119
I remember the lady as it was a lady in

756
00:56:46.199 --> 00:56:49.000
this situation. It's not always a lady in my stories.

757
00:56:49.320 --> 00:56:52.199
It's quite often men as well. It was a man.

758
00:56:52.480 --> 00:56:53.039
It was a man.

759
00:56:54.000 --> 00:56:58.440
And she said to me, yeah, you won't get any

760
00:56:58.480 --> 00:57:01.719
housing benefit because you're living in this shared accommodation. It's

761
00:57:01.760 --> 00:57:07.400
a religious house because I was living with Buddhists. There's

762
00:57:07.440 --> 00:57:10.840
no locks on the doors, because that's what makes it

763
00:57:11.480 --> 00:57:17.000
a multiple occupancy whatever. I said, yeah, but we trust

764
00:57:17.079 --> 00:57:20.119
each other, so it don't matter if there's no locks

765
00:57:20.159 --> 00:57:23.880
on the doors. Class as a family, I said, well,

766
00:57:23.960 --> 00:57:26.599
we do argue, so it's similar to be in her family.

767
00:57:30.639 --> 00:57:31.599
But I do pay rent.

768
00:57:32.920 --> 00:57:34.920
Well, it turns out she was wrong and I did

769
00:57:35.039 --> 00:57:38.239
get paid didn't get my rent paid, so that was

770
00:57:38.320 --> 00:57:39.679
good and only for a few weeks.

771
00:57:40.159 --> 00:57:40.480
What was it?

772
00:57:40.639 --> 00:57:49.199
Probably two months, really only two months, And so if

773
00:57:49.280 --> 00:57:55.239
I hadn't being told you either go full time or

774
00:57:55.320 --> 00:58:00.559
you leave, then I would never have probably gone to

775
00:58:00.719 --> 00:58:02.920
university because.

776
00:58:02.599 --> 00:58:03.599
I was fairly.

777
00:58:05.280 --> 00:58:10.639
Kind of happy being there doing part time and then

778
00:58:11.199 --> 00:58:14.760
volunteering doing a free pain relief service.

779
00:58:17.159 --> 00:58:19.039
No, I'd stopped doing that at this point. So I

780
00:58:19.159 --> 00:58:20.519
was doing that in two thousand and six.

781
00:58:21.400 --> 00:58:24.000
I was doing that when I was full time, the

782
00:58:24.159 --> 00:58:27.960
free pay relief service, and I was doing on Saturdays.

783
00:58:29.079 --> 00:58:35.320
But then two thousand and seven I was doing the.

784
00:58:39.039 --> 00:58:43.519
The Rehab Drug Rehab and Alcoholic Charity. So I was

785
00:58:43.800 --> 00:58:47.599
doing relaxation group sessions. I think I was doing two

786
00:58:47.679 --> 00:58:59.000
a week each one, and not while I was part time.

787
00:58:59.079 --> 00:59:00.960
I think I was doing one a week at each one,

788
00:59:01.800 --> 00:59:03.199
and then when I went.

789
00:59:04.920 --> 00:59:05.360
Or was I.

790
00:59:09.920 --> 00:59:14.880
I can't remember one two.

791
00:59:16.760 --> 00:59:20.039
Yeah, I think it was two a week, one a week,

792
00:59:20.559 --> 00:59:23.039
and then I went two a week for each one

793
00:59:24.280 --> 00:59:25.239
when I left my job.

794
00:59:28.400 --> 00:59:29.039
That was a shame.

795
00:59:29.280 --> 00:59:34.920
I'd again, I'd probably still be there doing that if

796
00:59:34.960 --> 00:59:37.719
it hadn't been for circumstances.

797
00:59:41.639 --> 00:59:46.039
It's a shame. It's weird, isn't it. I know, you know, life.

798
00:59:46.960 --> 00:59:47.800
Just life is.

799
00:59:49.840 --> 00:59:52.559
It can be a bit unusual at times all the time,

800
00:59:53.320 --> 01:00:02.039
but there's certain in some ways. For a short period

801
01:00:02.079 --> 01:00:15.239
of time, everything was kind of going pretty well, even

802
01:00:15.440 --> 01:00:21.079
leading up to start in university, because I had everything

803
01:00:21.199 --> 01:00:23.920
planned very eloquently.

804
01:00:26.480 --> 01:00:29.400
I'm not sure if it's eloquent, but I had everything planned.

805
01:00:30.559 --> 01:00:37.800
So I had a part time job in a supermarket

806
01:00:41.440 --> 01:00:45.320
to start, and it was just going to be at weekends.

807
01:00:48.360 --> 01:00:49.800
I was starting university.

808
01:00:52.440 --> 01:00:56.320
Well i'd already started university, but it was in a

809
01:00:56.360 --> 01:01:03.679
different town, but that's okay, it was doable. I was

810
01:01:03.760 --> 01:01:08.280
still living at the Buddhist place again, that was what

811
01:01:08.400 --> 01:01:16.800
I wanted, and it's fairly cheap to live there. I

812
01:01:16.960 --> 01:01:21.239
was still doing the voluntary work. I had to base

813
01:01:21.320 --> 01:01:25.000
it around, you know, university, but I was still managing

814
01:01:25.039 --> 01:01:27.519
to go twice a week so I'll do at least

815
01:01:27.559 --> 01:01:34.760
one session per week at the two charities doing group

816
01:01:34.880 --> 01:01:41.519
relaxation sessions. I was still making my recordings and my videos,

817
01:01:44.880 --> 01:01:51.719
and I had a new girlfriend which came from me

818
01:01:51.880 --> 01:01:55.800
doing the voluntary work. She was in charge of the volunteers,

819
01:01:56.519 --> 01:02:01.360
volunteer coordinature or something. So everything was kind of going

820
01:02:01.400 --> 01:02:12.199
together quite nicely. Actually, and then, as sometimes.

821
01:02:11.840 --> 01:02:16.679
Happened, Hello for any Hello Hello, as.

822
01:02:16.639 --> 01:02:25.800
Sometimes occurs, things went a little bit awry. So I

823
01:02:25.920 --> 01:02:29.639
ended up moving to the town I was going to university,

824
01:02:29.760 --> 01:02:36.840
yet moving away from that job, so I didn't even

825
01:02:36.880 --> 01:02:41.559
get to start the job, and.

826
01:02:43.320 --> 01:02:44.639
Moving away from my friends.

827
01:02:46.639 --> 01:02:50.599
My girlfriend wasn't I moved away from her.

828
01:02:50.800 --> 01:02:53.679
She didn't take that greatly, and.

829
01:02:56.239 --> 01:03:04.480
I wasn't able to do the volunteer work anymore. So

830
01:03:04.719 --> 01:03:08.239
the only thing I continued when I moved was doing

831
01:03:08.360 --> 01:03:10.039
recordings and videos.

832
01:03:10.760 --> 01:03:11.880
And going to university.

833
01:03:15.480 --> 01:03:20.679
But the way it worked out, it did take a

834
01:03:20.800 --> 01:03:25.039
lot out of me doing their course, so I'm not

835
01:03:25.199 --> 01:03:34.360
sure if I'd have been able to maintain all the

836
01:03:34.400 --> 01:03:38.280
other things at the same time, you know, a part

837
01:03:38.400 --> 01:03:43.960
time job, a girlfriend, the volunteer jobs, volunteer work.

838
01:03:48.000 --> 01:03:54.039
Yeah, I don't know if I could have. I mean,

839
01:03:54.239 --> 01:03:55.480
it might have been much better.

840
01:03:55.639 --> 01:03:56.239
I don't know, but.

841
01:03:58.519 --> 01:04:05.239
I don't know, no way of knowing. But that was

842
01:04:05.320 --> 01:04:06.159
with Sainsbury's.

843
01:04:06.400 --> 01:04:07.159
I tall it's weird.

844
01:04:07.239 --> 01:04:09.840
I actually got a part time job again in Sainsbury's

845
01:04:10.920 --> 01:04:14.519
in was it?

846
01:04:15.079 --> 01:04:15.679
Where was it?

847
01:04:22.800 --> 01:04:25.320
Yeah? When I moved here, I got a job part

848
01:04:25.400 --> 01:04:30.760
time job at Sainsbury's, and again I didn't go. I

849
01:04:30.840 --> 01:04:34.119
got the job, I just didn't go. I just couldn't

850
01:04:34.159 --> 01:04:34.480
face it.

851
01:04:35.880 --> 01:04:37.800
It's weird. I couldn't get out of bed.

852
01:04:42.719 --> 01:04:43.360
And then.

853
01:04:46.079 --> 01:04:50.320
Yeah, I think I kind of I think that particular,

854
01:04:50.719 --> 01:04:54.239
that particular ladder has been shortened. I don't think I

855
01:04:54.280 --> 01:05:02.519
can get onto the ladder anymore. For that company, I

856
01:05:02.639 --> 01:05:04.239
was going to be on the vegetable section.

857
01:05:10.519 --> 01:05:10.639
Hm.

858
01:05:17.719 --> 01:05:19.519
It was weird, well not weird, but the bloke that

859
01:05:19.599 --> 01:05:22.000
showed me around and he was going to be my supervisor.

860
01:05:22.960 --> 01:05:27.559
He was so enthusiastic about all the apples, the fruits

861
01:05:27.719 --> 01:05:33.119
and the vegetables and the cabbages and the beetroot, and.

862
01:05:35.280 --> 01:05:42.960
Really enthusiastic. He had a hat and everything. You're not.

863
01:05:43.199 --> 01:05:49.079
Really I can't really express to you how enthusiastic he

864
01:05:49.280 --> 01:05:53.519
was about that particular section. Now, it's quite a large

865
01:05:53.519 --> 01:05:57.239
section in the supermarket, isn't it, the whole vegetable, fruit

866
01:05:57.280 --> 01:06:02.119
and veg area. It's quite quite a big section of

867
01:06:02.199 --> 01:06:07.440
a bit of a large supermarket, so I'm guessing there'd

868
01:06:07.480 --> 01:06:11.840
be quite a few staff looking after that area. And

869
01:06:12.039 --> 01:06:14.920
he was I don't know if he was in charge

870
01:06:15.159 --> 01:06:21.039
overall in charge or if he was I don't know

871
01:06:21.280 --> 01:06:27.800
like a shift manager or something. Definitely loved his job,

872
01:06:28.119 --> 01:06:31.880
which was amazing. I always like that anyone. I've just

873
01:06:31.920 --> 01:06:35.639
got a thing about people enthusiastic about stuff, because I

874
01:06:37.440 --> 01:06:40.039
don't think I come across as being very enthusiastic.

875
01:06:41.639 --> 01:06:42.960
I hide it very well.

876
01:06:45.480 --> 01:06:46.480
I I just like that.

877
01:06:46.599 --> 01:06:50.920
I don't Yeah, whatever it is, as long as.

878
01:06:50.880 --> 01:06:55.079
It's not hurting anyone else, and for me personally, it's useful.

879
01:06:57.719 --> 01:07:00.639
Just just for me personally. I mean, other people can

880
01:07:00.719 --> 01:07:02.480
be enthusiastic about whatever they want.

881
01:07:02.599 --> 01:07:07.559
That's up to them. I only really want to be.

882
01:07:07.719 --> 01:07:11.320
Enthusiastic about Well, actually it's not true because I'm enthusiastic

883
01:07:11.360 --> 01:07:16.719
about Let's try to say the word a little bit

884
01:07:16.840 --> 01:07:20.840
slower so it comes out more concisely and clearly.

885
01:07:22.639 --> 01:07:24.199
Enthusiastic.

886
01:07:26.880 --> 01:07:30.239
I am enthusiastic about boxing, and that's not helping anyone.

887
01:07:31.280 --> 01:07:35.719
The only one that's helping is to people that are

888
01:07:35.800 --> 01:07:42.280
getting paid. So I'm you know, I love watching the

889
01:07:42.400 --> 01:07:52.000
big fights. My stomach's hungry again. It don't stop being hungry.

890
01:08:01.599 --> 01:08:05.199
It's nearly time to take the little monkey out for

891
01:08:05.239 --> 01:08:06.719
a little climbing the trees.

892
01:08:09.480 --> 01:08:10.000
Mon care.

893
01:08:12.400 --> 01:08:14.679
So that's the end of this.

894
01:08:15.039 --> 01:08:20.800
Here a recording it's not you know, it's not in

895
01:08:20.960 --> 01:08:28.720
line with the regular Monday Tuesday kind of schedule that

896
01:08:28.840 --> 01:08:34.600
I've been building up over the last few months or

897
01:08:35.199 --> 01:08:39.920
I don't know how long it's been. But I will

898
01:08:40.000 --> 01:08:44.439
get back to that. I promise. I really do promise

899
01:08:45.359 --> 01:08:50.000
it just it might take a little while. I will

900
01:08:50.079 --> 01:08:52.920
get back to it. There's a bit of a blip

901
01:08:53.000 --> 01:08:57.319
with the adverts as well, but that's sorted now thanks to.

902
01:09:00.399 --> 01:09:01.680
Someone let me know that.

903
01:09:01.920 --> 01:09:05.800
I thank you that there was adverts playing mid role

904
01:09:05.920 --> 01:09:09.479
on some of the podcasts. I shouldn't have been. So

905
01:09:09.680 --> 01:09:17.960
that's all been sorted out. Yeah, it should should be

906
01:09:18.079 --> 01:09:18.720
sorted out.

907
01:09:18.840 --> 01:09:20.760
Please please please.

908
01:09:26.960 --> 01:09:29.720
Severely mentally deficient.

909
01:09:31.359 --> 01:09:31.680
Wow.

910
01:09:34.199 --> 01:09:37.199
Yeah, I feel like I need to print that only

911
01:09:37.520 --> 01:09:40.960
I might put that as my my screen as the

912
01:09:41.039 --> 01:09:43.119
image for this recording.

913
01:09:45.319 --> 01:09:46.159
It's like what.

914
01:09:48.279 --> 01:09:48.560
Wow.

915
01:09:50.239 --> 01:09:55.920
Anyway, I'm going to go. Thank you for listening. Please

916
01:09:57.119 --> 01:10:00.760
remember to be kind to yourself, because you do deserve

917
01:10:00.840 --> 01:10:01.399
to be happy.

918
01:10:03.079 --> 01:10:09.880
Be gentle with yourself. You deserve to feel safe lots

919
01:10:09.920 --> 01:10:36.760
of love by relax.

920
01:10:40.000 --> 01:10:42.439
In a more deep and.

921
01:10:46.279 --> 01:10:53.600
Meaningful way, maybe in a way that can not just

922
01:10:53.960 --> 01:11:04.000
allow you to feel calmer now and throughout the time.

923
01:11:04.720 --> 01:11:13.039
We spend together here, not just relaxed at the end

924
01:11:13.159 --> 01:11:17.560
of the recording when it's finished, and you can enjoy

925
01:11:17.760 --> 01:11:35.119
that sense of comfort and peace, but also I think

926
01:11:35.199 --> 01:11:50.319
it would be nice to have those feelings of relaxation continue.

927
01:11:51.359 --> 01:11:52.399
For longer.

928
01:11:55.680 --> 01:12:05.479
After the recording has ended, so that you can still

929
01:12:06.199 --> 01:12:16.039
benefit from listening to my voice, maybe in a few

930
01:12:16.119 --> 01:12:31.880
hours time, perhaps tomorrow, and then by listening regularly, especially

931
01:12:31.960 --> 01:12:36.439
if you find like some people do and myself as well.

932
01:12:37.199 --> 01:12:43.920
Sometimes I find one particular recording that really resonates with me,

933
01:12:48.319 --> 01:12:50.680
and I just listen to it over and over again

934
01:12:52.960 --> 01:13:05.960
every morning, every evening. There was this recording from We're

935
01:13:06.000 --> 01:13:11.720
going back to about nineteen ninety nine. It wasn't hypnosis,

936
01:13:11.840 --> 01:13:16.039
but it was a guided visualizations. It kind of was

937
01:13:16.159 --> 01:13:22.880
hypnosis really, and I managed to find it.

938
01:13:22.960 --> 01:13:26.840
Again and it still has the same effect on me.

939
01:13:29.479 --> 01:13:39.159
And part of it was the person's voice relaxed me.

940
01:13:43.079 --> 01:13:49.199
She just felt so peaceful, and I'd look forward to

941
01:13:49.399 --> 01:13:55.800
listening to her in the morning and in the evening.

942
01:14:02.239 --> 01:14:11.239
And I knew before even pressing the play button that

943
01:14:11.359 --> 01:14:15.640
as since I've done that, pressed the play button. This

944
01:14:15.920 --> 01:14:26.880
was in the days of CD players press the play

945
01:14:26.960 --> 01:14:33.520
button in fact, it might have even been a tape recorder.

946
01:14:34.840 --> 01:14:43.199
I'd lie down on the bed and then even without

947
01:14:43.800 --> 01:14:56.720
necessarily listening to her words because I had them memorized. Really,

948
01:15:01.439 --> 01:15:07.279
it was as if my body knew exactly what to do,

949
01:15:12.199 --> 01:15:33.880
and the muscles just almost went into automatic relaxation, and

950
01:15:34.159 --> 01:15:39.159
I remember my mind would slow down.

951
01:15:44.840 --> 01:15:45.000
Now.

952
01:15:47.199 --> 01:15:53.880
Now, I was listening to this recording in the early

953
01:15:54.000 --> 01:16:02.840
days of learning hypnosis, and long before I ever made any.

954
01:16:04.520 --> 01:16:09.960
Videos or audio recordings myself, because I didn't start doing

955
01:16:10.000 --> 01:16:24.760
that till two thousand and six, I knew, I knew how.

956
01:16:26.439 --> 01:16:40.199
Helpful I found being able to just let go, to

957
01:16:40.319 --> 01:16:45.479
have that trust in the person that I'm listening to,

958
01:16:53.199 --> 01:16:59.880
knowing that it's going to be just as relaxing, if

959
01:17:01.359 --> 01:17:10.720
not more so. Each time you hear my voice, you

960
01:17:10.840 --> 01:17:11.680
may feel the same.

961
01:17:18.079 --> 01:17:19.199
Some people.

962
01:17:21.479 --> 01:17:33.760
Have been listening to me for over a decade, maybe

963
01:17:33.920 --> 01:17:39.359
not solidly, obviously not twenty four hours a day, but.

964
01:17:41.479 --> 01:17:45.680
Maybe people come back. Some people maybe.

965
01:17:45.520 --> 01:18:02.000
Listen every day. That's something that I do which you

966
01:18:02.239 --> 01:18:23.319
may not realize by listening, is when I record these recordings. Now,

967
01:18:23.680 --> 01:18:34.800
for example, I also am affected by the words.

968
01:18:36.119 --> 01:18:42.640
That I say. So if I.

969
01:18:45.560 --> 01:18:52.920
Set you focus on your feet, notice your feet relaxing.

970
01:18:56.439 --> 01:19:04.159
I will be focusing on my feet. I will be

971
01:19:04.439 --> 01:19:22.520
noticing my feet relaxing. If I said, focus on your hands,

972
01:19:25.319 --> 01:19:35.039
and maybe notice the difference between each hand, Perhaps notice the.

973
01:19:37.800 --> 01:19:40.920
Air in the room, the temperature.

974
01:19:40.479 --> 01:19:41.000
Of the room.

975
01:19:42.920 --> 01:19:44.439
On the backs of your hands.

976
01:19:52.319 --> 01:19:56.119
You may start to notice what almost feels like a

977
01:19:56.319 --> 01:20:04.239
very light breeze, even though there may not be any

978
01:20:04.800 --> 01:20:06.560
type of breeze at all.

979
01:20:08.159 --> 01:20:09.520
Where you are right now.

980
01:20:17.880 --> 01:20:29.720
And as you become aware of your hands, I'm also aware.

981
01:20:31.960 --> 01:20:40.520
Of how relaxed my hands are feeling.

982
01:20:41.960 --> 01:20:42.159
Now.

983
01:20:56.920 --> 01:20:58.359
And when it comes to.

984
01:21:00.159 --> 01:21:05.880
Tendually drifting off to sleep, which may be the reason

985
01:21:06.239 --> 01:21:22.439
you're listening, I also feel drowsy when I make these recordings.

986
01:21:27.159 --> 01:21:29.199
I also notice.

987
01:21:30.800 --> 01:21:31.800
My mind.

988
01:21:33.520 --> 01:21:34.039
Drifting.

989
01:21:41.960 --> 01:21:54.520
In fact, at times I've actually fallen asleep without even noticing,

990
01:21:59.399 --> 01:22:07.960
and then I can area on talking and it's suddenly

991
01:22:08.279 --> 01:22:16.920
when I listen back to do the editing, I hear

992
01:22:17.279 --> 01:22:27.119
snoring and I think I don't remember snoring. I remember talking.

993
01:22:29.840 --> 01:22:37.199
This snoring was a pick turned up. That's why I

994
01:22:37.279 --> 01:22:45.520
sound like when I snore, I get reday into the

995
01:22:47.399 --> 01:22:48.880
whole experience.

996
01:22:56.840 --> 01:23:06.279
I don't know how you feel, how relaxed you feel

997
01:23:06.359 --> 01:23:11.920
in your feet, how relaxed.

998
01:23:15.079 --> 01:23:33.600
You feel in your hands. I have noticed.

999
01:23:35.680 --> 01:23:51.880
More and more that the more relaxed, deeper level of

1000
01:23:52.159 --> 01:24:09.399
comfort you feel, the easier your breathing becomes. It's almost

1001
01:24:09.800 --> 01:24:30.079
like that additional muscle relaxation. So this allows you to

1002
01:24:30.279 --> 01:24:31.960
breathe easier.

1003
01:24:38.760 --> 01:24:57.119
Without necessarily focusing on your breath, however, being able to

1004
01:25:00.840 --> 01:25:13.279
notice the ease.

1005
01:25:16.359 --> 01:25:17.079
In which.

1006
01:25:24.439 --> 01:25:47.079
You breathe so naturally. You breathe so very easily and smoothly.

1007
01:26:14.800 --> 01:26:32.479
Whenever I imagine my breathing improving. When I've got my

1008
01:26:32.640 --> 01:26:51.279
eyes closed, I tend to visualize a beautiful field with

1009
01:26:51.600 --> 01:27:25.279
trees and flowers producing all that life giving oxygen. And

1010
01:27:25.439 --> 01:27:40.920
it feels nice to, if nothing else, just taking some

1011
01:27:41.520 --> 01:28:24.239
time away from everything, enjoying that feeling of peace, serenity

1012
01:28:35.840 --> 01:29:08.039
with a joyful heart. Time seems to just drip by,

1013
01:29:12.600 --> 01:30:02.399
so very slowly, relaxed, so deeply peaceful, completely unattached to

1014
01:30:03.319 --> 01:31:00.319
any thoughts whatsoever in this moment, completely free. Notice that.

1015
01:31:07.840 --> 01:31:08.920
Your mind.

1016
01:31:16.279 --> 01:31:56.239
Has slowed down. Slowed down because nothing really requires your attention.

1017
01:32:12.720 --> 01:32:27.000
You can enjoy the physical sensations of allowing the stress

1018
01:32:27.359 --> 01:32:39.920
to drip out of your body. Drippear out of every

1019
01:32:43.359 --> 01:33:08.720
part of your body and being released from your brain.

1020
01:33:14.000 --> 01:33:15.520
Hue your mind.

1021
01:33:33.840 --> 01:34:11.840
Slowly but surely, the muscles in your legs relax res

1022
01:34:17.760 --> 01:35:01.199
relax so very deeply, relax so deeply. And the feelings,

1023
01:35:03.840 --> 01:35:28.680
the pleasant feelings in your arms and shoulders, deepening each

1024
01:35:29.119 --> 01:35:40.720
part of your body further and deeper.

1025
01:35:51.079 --> 01:36:07.720
And deeper. M noticin.

1026
01:36:10.439 --> 01:36:36.960
The feedings in the back of your neck, the feedings

1027
01:36:37.159 --> 01:37:15.520
in your wrists, muscles, in the front of your body.

1028
01:37:25.920 --> 01:38:09.399
I all say, feeling peaceful, deeping. There's a sense of

1029
01:38:09.680 --> 01:38:16.079
peace spreads through.

1030
01:38:17.479 --> 01:38:19.000
Your very core.

1031
01:38:49.159 --> 01:39:07.920
E. Even when you focus on your mind, her mind

1032
01:39:08.359 --> 01:40:19.119
becomes a and slower, even deeper relaxing, a very slow

1033
01:40:38.359 --> 01:40:55.439
his stomach paste felling your stomach.

1034
01:41:17.600 --> 01:41:18.239
You'll back.

1035
01:41:23.680 --> 01:41:37.159
Notice Notice how relaxed.

1036
01:41:40.840 --> 01:42:18.840
You now feel in the hole of your back. In

1037
01:42:18.840 --> 01:42:19.880
a spy.

1038
01:42:23.720 --> 01:42:28.359
From your brain all the way down the middle of

1039
01:42:28.479 --> 01:42:40.159
your back, sending and receiving millions of messages every day,

1040
01:42:51.199 --> 01:43:09.479
decomfort increasing deeply relaxed.

1041
01:43:38.880 --> 01:43:39.760
Y mes.

1042
01:44:05.199 --> 01:44:18.640
RELs spreading those signals down your spine or cord into

1043
01:44:18.760 --> 01:44:37.479
air every part of your body, your shins and your

1044
01:44:37.640 --> 01:45:24.680
calf muscles, your elbows, feelings.

1045
01:45:24.319 --> 01:45:25.199
Of peace.

1046
01:45:27.840 --> 01:45:41.680
And tranquility spreading through your body, tips of your toes,

1047
01:45:46.079 --> 01:45:57.520
to your eyes, your fingers, all the way to your

1048
01:45:57.640 --> 01:47:11.399
lower back. Letting go, relet think, base, drifting mind just

1049
01:47:11.880 --> 01:47:34.880
wont in a way happy to let go. Let go completely,

1050
01:47:37.319 --> 01:49:01.319
Let go, sir. Tranquil your whole body, enjoying a sense listeninger.

1051
01:49:04.439 --> 01:49:06.479
Hey, more.

1052
01:50:14.439 --> 01:51:36.439
Space, joy, space, this face of peace and safety, s fairy, fairy.

1053
01:51:39.960 --> 01:53:11.159
Relaxed us us letting go.

1054
01:53:29.199 --> 01:53:30.640
Maybe we can just.

1055
01:53:33.520 --> 01:53:42.279
Focus on the different parts of your body, just to

1056
01:53:42.600 --> 01:55:11.680
notice you forehead and your eyes atun sails, noticing the

1057
01:55:11.920 --> 01:56:31.279
sense of complete freedom, absolute freedom, dress day dress day,

1058
01:56:43.680 --> 01:57:27.760
he's fall energy paste to breeze, such ease.

1059
01:57:27.680 --> 01:58:09.760
Yeah, loose.

1060
01:58:31.039 --> 01:59:21.119
You may have or may not have noticed your mind drifted, peaceful,

1061
01:59:35.199 --> 01:59:38.399
move ay even more deeply.

1062
01:59:43.479 --> 01:59:44.760
In the direction of.

1063
01:59:49.880 --> 02:00:31.680
Total blissful pacem less for peace, drift.

1064
02:01:19.159 --> 02:02:31.520
T to pace, sir, let him go, peace of mind

1065
02:02:46.279 --> 02:03:06.800
forty c rexed.

1066
02:03:14.199 --> 02:03:15.680
So relaxed.

1067
02:03:40.199 --> 02:03:43.399
A body feels almost.

1068
02:03:44.520 --> 02:04:07.640
Invisible, so very relaxed, paceful.

1069
02:04:13.399 --> 02:04:13.479
So.

1070
02:04:21.199 --> 02:05:08.560
Pace, relax, Let go, m.

1071
02:05:21.079 --> 02:05:27.319
And you could start to notice that you are feeling

1072
02:05:27.720 --> 02:05:40.359
more relaxed, even though I've not purposely focused your mind upon.

1073
02:05:41.279 --> 02:05:47.600
That sense of physical comfort that is growing within you

1074
02:05:48.279 --> 02:05:56.680
throughout your body, and your mind starts to slow down,

1075
02:06:01.640 --> 02:06:08.800
and that could be almost in recognition of I guess

1076
02:06:09.239 --> 02:06:21.720
my speech not being particularly fast, and things just generally

1077
02:06:23.439 --> 02:06:34.439
feel calmer. Just by listening to my voice, you give

1078
02:06:34.479 --> 02:06:37.680
yourself an opportunity.

1079
02:06:38.520 --> 02:06:44.159
To take a break from the day, take a break

1080
02:06:44.359 --> 02:06:52.079
from your life as it is, and to give yourself

1081
02:06:52.159 --> 02:07:02.359
a rest, giving yourself permission to take some time and

1082
02:07:02.479 --> 02:07:08.159
to allow your body to relax and allow your mind

1083
02:07:08.520 --> 02:07:20.119
to slow down, which in turn releases the tension any

1084
02:07:20.319 --> 02:07:29.199
stresses that you had in your body. It's almost as

1085
02:07:29.239 --> 02:07:35.039
if the parts of your body just open up, allowing

1086
02:07:35.159 --> 02:07:47.079
the negativity out and at the same time replacing that

1087
02:07:47.319 --> 02:07:58.600
negativity with positive heathing energy, which then fills your body up, and.

1088
02:07:58.720 --> 02:08:12.920
Your mind also starts to appreciate those feelings of increasing

1089
02:08:15.199 --> 02:08:32.039
confidence and almost uplifting, feeling positive, healing, an energy that

1090
02:08:35.680 --> 02:08:47.399
spreads through your body like a wave of comfort. And

1091
02:08:47.479 --> 02:08:54.479
all this comes from just allowing yourself.

1092
02:08:56.720 --> 02:09:01.800
A few minutes, maybe hargh Off, an hour, however long

1093
02:09:01.880 --> 02:09:11.840
you want it to be, to just rest and allow

1094
02:09:14.439 --> 02:09:24.960
your mind and your body to almost reset itself to

1095
02:09:25.119 --> 02:09:28.720
the settings of comfort.

1096
02:09:30.520 --> 02:09:31.640
And relaxation.

1097
02:09:34.239 --> 02:09:45.560
Calmness, which allows more room for feelings of pleasure.

1098
02:09:47.800 --> 02:09:49.079
And happiness.

1099
02:09:52.600 --> 02:10:01.439
To move around your body and into your mind. Most

1100
02:10:02.239 --> 02:10:06.800
as if your mind and your body are sinking together,

1101
02:10:11.079 --> 02:10:20.800
almost mirroring each other with that growing positivity and calmness,

1102
02:10:25.840 --> 02:10:33.319
And it feels nice, really does feel nice to know

1103
02:10:33.600 --> 02:10:42.439
that you are the one that has allowed yourself to

1104
02:10:42.720 --> 02:10:51.800
feel more comfort and to experience.

1105
02:10:53.520 --> 02:10:54.640
More of this.

1106
02:10:56.439 --> 02:11:03.039
Deep relaxation spread throughout your body.

1107
02:11:10.039 --> 02:11:12.119
And as I focus.

1108
02:11:13.159 --> 02:11:18.920
On each part of your body, you can notice that

1109
02:11:19.119 --> 02:11:33.640
that part becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on it.

1110
02:11:36.199 --> 02:11:42.479
It becomes even more calm and comfortable.

1111
02:11:44.399 --> 02:11:45.840
Just by focusing.

1112
02:11:49.920 --> 02:11:55.640
And as I move down your body, starting at your head,

1113
02:11:58.399 --> 02:12:03.640
the parts that you all already focused on or continue

1114
02:12:05.039 --> 02:12:12.119
to relax deeply, and those parts that have not yet

1115
02:12:12.319 --> 02:12:25.199
focused on or just automatically release any remain intension in

1116
02:12:25.359 --> 02:12:29.600
anticipation of even more comfort.

1117
02:12:30.520 --> 02:12:31.359
About to come.

1118
02:12:36.880 --> 02:12:42.800
Now, I'm going to start by focusing on your forehead.

1119
02:12:45.600 --> 02:12:53.960
Just being aware of the feelings of your forehead and

1120
02:12:54.039 --> 02:13:01.880
any background sounds like mister Herbert opinion can just allow

1121
02:13:01.960 --> 02:13:09.079
you to feel even more relaxed. Just means you in

1122
02:13:09.199 --> 02:13:15.840
the moment, this isn't this isn't a sterile environment.

1123
02:13:17.199 --> 02:13:18.159
This is the world.

1124
02:13:21.640 --> 02:13:27.680
I live in the countryside, so there's lots of nature

1125
02:13:28.199 --> 02:13:38.680
sounds around. So as you focus on your forehead, just

1126
02:13:38.960 --> 02:13:46.720
notice how it becomes even more relaxed as you focus

1127
02:13:49.039 --> 02:13:53.520
only on my voice and that part of your body.

1128
02:13:58.720 --> 02:14:07.000
Moving down to your eyes, focusing on your eyes, noticing

1129
02:14:09.479 --> 02:14:14.720
how your eyelids feel so heavy.

1130
02:14:16.880 --> 02:14:23.920
Yet so light at the same time, and all the

1131
02:14:24.039 --> 02:14:27.279
muscles around your eyes relaxing.

1132
02:14:28.520 --> 02:14:35.640
Completely. Moving your focus.

1133
02:14:36.680 --> 02:14:43.279
Down to your mouth, your lips, your tongue, your teeth,

1134
02:14:43.399 --> 02:14:44.600
and your gums.

1135
02:14:46.600 --> 02:14:48.399
The hole of your mouth.

1136
02:14:49.960 --> 02:15:02.439
Relaxing, calm and loose, as you focus.

1137
02:15:02.199 --> 02:15:09.720
Now on your jaw, not just the parts of your

1138
02:15:09.840 --> 02:15:14.319
jaw ney, your mouth, and your chin, but all the

1139
02:15:14.399 --> 02:15:18.800
way up the size of your face to your ears,

1140
02:15:21.039 --> 02:15:22.439
the hole of.

1141
02:15:22.560 --> 02:15:26.560
Your jaw, feeding.

1142
02:15:30.279 --> 02:15:32.720
More relaxed.

1143
02:15:36.159 --> 02:15:36.920
And calm.

1144
02:15:45.119 --> 02:15:54.199
Focusing on your neck, the front of your neck and

1145
02:15:54.319 --> 02:16:07.319
your throat, relaxing and loose and calm. The sides of

1146
02:16:07.439 --> 02:16:12.680
your neck, the right and left side of your neck,

1147
02:16:15.640 --> 02:16:19.119
relax and loose.

1148
02:16:22.840 --> 02:16:32.079
And calm. And now the back of your neck.

1149
02:16:35.399 --> 02:16:45.399
Focusing on the back of your neck, letting go of

1150
02:16:45.600 --> 02:16:52.479
any tension that may have been there before. And enjoying

1151
02:16:52.879 --> 02:17:05.440
that sense of increasing on foot and release. Then you

1152
02:17:05.600 --> 02:17:07.959
can experience in.

1153
02:17:08.040 --> 02:17:19.920
The back of your neck, moving down your back and

1154
02:17:20.120 --> 02:17:24.920
moving either side of your spine right from the top

1155
02:17:25.000 --> 02:17:30.520
of your back all the way down to the bottom

1156
02:17:30.639 --> 02:17:47.719
of your back down to your lower back. As you

1157
02:17:48.000 --> 02:17:55.280
move up and down your spine, you can feel the

1158
02:17:55.520 --> 02:18:03.000
muscles either side of your spine relaxing even more.

1159
02:18:10.520 --> 02:18:17.239
And as those muscles relax, that sense of comfort starts

1160
02:18:17.360 --> 02:18:27.440
to spread outwards from your spine into both sides of

1161
02:18:27.559 --> 02:18:34.680
your back, the top of your back, the middle end

1162
02:18:34.680 --> 02:18:35.520
your lower back.

1163
02:18:39.040 --> 02:18:40.360
And as you scan.

1164
02:18:41.760 --> 02:18:49.559
Gently and slowly up and down your back, there's the

1165
02:18:49.719 --> 02:18:54.280
muscles in the top of your back relax.

1166
02:18:54.200 --> 02:19:02.120
And become looser. Muscles in the middle of your back

1167
02:19:03.680 --> 02:19:11.079
also seem to just almost divide from each other, separating

1168
02:19:11.360 --> 02:19:22.879
and almost melting, And in your lower back.

1169
02:19:26.399 --> 02:19:33.920
There seems to be an extra special feeling of comfort.

1170
02:19:39.239 --> 02:19:45.360
The spreads into your hips sit down your lower back,

1171
02:19:45.680 --> 02:19:53.639
into your hips, into the area where your cosix are,

1172
02:19:57.239 --> 02:20:06.319
and into your buttocks. The wise muscles that spread bring

1173
02:20:06.399 --> 02:20:15.920
your lower back into your hip area, start to melt,

1174
02:20:20.360 --> 02:20:32.639
start to reading, let go, and you know where about

1175
02:20:32.799 --> 02:20:38.799
to focus on your shoulders, your back and your spine

1176
02:20:39.879 --> 02:20:41.840
will continue.

1177
02:20:43.120 --> 02:20:50.200
To let go, continue to relax.

1178
02:20:53.079 --> 02:20:56.639
So calmly.

1179
02:21:01.360 --> 02:21:06.920
As you focus on your shoulders, you may notice they're

1180
02:21:07.159 --> 02:21:22.040
already feeling really loose. They're already.

1181
02:21:24.399 --> 02:21:30.920
Feeding, calm.

1182
02:21:37.040 --> 02:21:38.440
And fearing.

1183
02:21:42.319 --> 02:21:43.319
Those muscles.

1184
02:21:46.120 --> 02:21:58.079
Then move from your neck into your shoulders. Feel so

1185
02:21:58.520 --> 02:22:27.520
soft and gentle, so smooth and calm, and the feeling

1186
02:22:27.680 --> 02:22:40.520
in your shoulders seems to spread deep into your shoulders,

1187
02:22:42.600 --> 02:22:52.399
a sense of relaxation, not just traveling deeply into your muscles.

1188
02:22:55.280 --> 02:23:01.479
But also relaxing the bones.

1189
02:23:06.840 --> 02:23:13.479
And moving all the way to underneath your arms, relaxing

1190
02:23:15.360 --> 02:23:20.120
a whole area between the tops of your shoulders and

1191
02:23:20.319 --> 02:23:26.399
underneath your arms healing.

1192
02:23:31.799 --> 02:23:32.479
You feel so.

1193
02:23:34.399 --> 02:23:45.879
Relaxed and comfortable in your shoulders, which sends that.

1194
02:23:48.159 --> 02:23:50.200
Deep healing.

1195
02:23:53.159 --> 02:24:10.440
Message into your arm arms. You may feel almost as

1196
02:24:10.479 --> 02:24:12.639
if your arms are not even that.

1197
02:24:14.319 --> 02:24:51.440
Because they so relaxed, so deeply, relaxed, so calm, So.

1198
02:25:05.920 --> 02:25:08.159
That feels spreading.

1199
02:25:10.399 --> 02:25:23.559
All the way down your arms, two elbows, including.

1200
02:25:23.920 --> 02:25:25.319
Your elbows.

1201
02:25:34.600 --> 02:25:37.319
Circumfort spreads.

1202
02:25:41.360 --> 02:25:42.079
Your way.

1203
02:25:44.680 --> 02:25:52.639
Into wrists, your forearms, and your wrists.

1204
02:25:58.840 --> 02:25:59.639
So heavy.

1205
02:26:03.280 --> 02:26:19.680
Yet the same time, sunlight and gentle.

1206
02:26:43.840 --> 02:26:48.079
Frey said, now on.

1207
02:26:50.760 --> 02:27:14.799
Your hands, your hands.

1208
02:27:20.680 --> 02:27:22.840
So peace.

1209
02:27:24.600 --> 02:27:45.360
In your hands with a sense of.

1210
02:27:48.840 --> 02:28:15.079
Real pace. Just seems to feel so familiar. When your

1211
02:28:15.280 --> 02:29:53.559
hands relax deeply feels your fingers things slish, you think

1212
02:29:53.719 --> 02:30:42.159
it tips maving your attention from your body, so comfortable,

1213
02:30:53.120 --> 02:30:55.319
marrying your focus.

1214
02:30:56.719 --> 02:30:58.040
To your legs.

1215
02:31:02.920 --> 02:32:18.159
Ud like my souls.

1216
02:32:19.840 --> 02:32:21.360
In your fis.

1217
02:32:38.000 --> 02:35:20.159
Names so relaxed, comf muscles, shades pas and the feathing

1218
02:35:21.639 --> 02:36:21.200
in your fats sir, peaceful, circom sit, peaceful circom s peaceful.

1219
02:36:24.040 --> 02:36:29.319
Sycom so.

1220
02:36:31.280 --> 02:37:06.680
Peace f re cener piece fall cycom deep relaxation, Just

1221
02:37:06.879 --> 02:37:24.000
spread your chest, let you go.

1222
02:37:28.159 --> 02:37:28.799
Everything.

1223
02:37:40.040 --> 02:37:46.079
So I'm gonna start counting down now, from twenty down

1224
02:37:46.120 --> 02:37:54.239
to one. You can imagine in a way it's like

1225
02:37:55.079 --> 02:37:56.040
just walking.

1226
02:37:55.760 --> 02:38:01.600
Down some steps in each step or twenty steps, and

1227
02:38:01.719 --> 02:38:12.920
each step represents a level of comfort. Each step represents.

1228
02:38:14.680 --> 02:38:15.920
A deepening.

1229
02:38:17.440 --> 02:38:27.760
Of that comfort, and the furvies you walk down those

1230
02:38:27.920 --> 02:38:40.879
steps to deeper and more relaxed you feel. So starting

1231
02:38:41.000 --> 02:39:40.040
with number twenty twenty nineteenshhh.

1232
02:39:48.079 --> 02:41:41.159
Eighteen seven ten, sixteenhhhhhhhh.

1233
02:42:30.079 --> 02:43:13.600
Three four.

1234
02:44:13.280 --> 02:51:50.280
Fi too wellhhhhhhhhhhhhhh eight sissie.

1235
02:51:46.639 --> 02:52:46.399
Who six.

1236
02:53:31.799 --> 02:54:51.479
Five four.

1237
02:55:11.079 --> 02:57:20.079
Ussissimus.

1238
02:59:19.280 --> 02:59:19.959
And now.

1239
02:59:24.360 --> 02:59:36.959
As you focus on your eyes, We're gonna count down

1240
02:59:37.399 --> 02:59:48.520
from ten down to one, focusing just on your eyes,

1241
02:59:52.280 --> 03:00:01.479
your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your eye will themselves.

1242
03:00:02.319 --> 03:00:19.360
The whole area that makes up your eye. And as

1243
03:00:19.440 --> 03:00:21.479
we count down from ten.

1244
03:00:23.239 --> 03:00:35.680
Down to one, whilst focusing on your eyes, you will

1245
03:00:36.079 --> 03:00:50.399
become twice is relaxed with each number counting down that

1246
03:00:50.680 --> 03:00:52.000
you may find.

1247
03:00:55.879 --> 03:01:01.639
The what you want to do is just drift off

1248
03:01:02.000 --> 03:01:02.559
to sleep.

1249
03:01:05.559 --> 03:01:12.159
And if that's what you want, then just allow yourself

1250
03:01:12.280 --> 03:01:26.920
to do that. Now, focusing on your eyes, I'm going

1251
03:01:27.040 --> 03:01:46.120
to begin counting down from ten down to one right now, ten.

1252
03:02:12.079 --> 03:05:44.559
Nine eight seven f.

1253
03:06:55.559 --> 03:08:09.479
Four three.

1254
03:10:49.879 --> 03:10:59.760
So cut down from ten to.

1255
03:11:02.200 --> 03:11:04.840
Ten nine.

1256
03:11:06.319 --> 03:11:14.920
Eight seven six five.

1257
03:11:16.959 --> 03:11:26.479
Four three two one.

1258
03:11:33.479 --> 03:11:36.399
And maybe that was a bit too quick in order

1259
03:11:36.479 --> 03:11:40.399
to relax. Maybe it's a bit too fast for you

1260
03:11:40.680 --> 03:11:50.399
to notice the calming of your body, maybe even a

1261
03:11:50.479 --> 03:11:51.959
little bit of pressure there, like.

1262
03:11:53.079 --> 03:11:55.920
You're counting down from ten to one. Would you expect

1263
03:11:56.000 --> 03:11:56.559
me to do?

1264
03:11:56.879 --> 03:12:01.479
Man, expect me to STI go with floppy just because

1265
03:12:01.479 --> 03:12:10.680
you're counting down. I could try it again, but this

1266
03:12:10.920 --> 03:12:12.200
time I'll go a bit slower.

1267
03:12:14.440 --> 03:12:15.040
This time.

1268
03:12:16.280 --> 03:12:21.239
As you focus on the whole of your body before

1269
03:12:21.319 --> 03:12:26.360
we focus on your legs, just notice.

1270
03:12:27.559 --> 03:12:40.360
How your body does start to feel more relaxed with

1271
03:12:41.639 --> 03:13:24.120
every number that I count down ten nine, seven, six, five.

1272
03:13:34.239 --> 03:13:42.520
Four three.

1273
03:14:16.879 --> 03:14:34.120
One, and just notice how how you feel, generally, how.

1274
03:14:34.079 --> 03:14:34.920
Your body feels.

1275
03:14:41.600 --> 03:14:49.879
It's not necessarily even about counting down from ten to one.

1276
03:14:52.840 --> 03:15:06.280
It's that space that you have, that space between being

1277
03:15:09.840 --> 03:15:21.399
active physically or mentally to just sitting or lying down,

1278
03:15:22.120 --> 03:15:24.920
just being there, not doing.

1279
03:15:24.719 --> 03:15:30.079
Anything, not saying anything, or needing to think about anything.

1280
03:15:31.920 --> 03:15:35.559
So it opens up a space, you know, a bit

1281
03:15:35.639 --> 03:15:46.399
of a space, a gap. And the more I came

1282
03:15:46.520 --> 03:15:51.079
down from ten to one, the bigger that gap becomes.

1283
03:15:54.079 --> 03:16:00.479
So there's that gap of calmness, of comfort, real vaxation.

1284
03:16:06.440 --> 03:16:14.360
It's a nice feeling, and it moves.

1285
03:16:15.520 --> 03:16:23.520
Those stresses or discomforts physically or emotionally, moves them.

1286
03:16:25.040 --> 03:16:33.159
Away. Allows you.

1287
03:16:35.879 --> 03:16:36.399
To just.

1288
03:16:39.399 --> 03:16:46.120
Slow down, someone to count again from ten down to one,

1289
03:16:46.520 --> 03:16:51.799
and notice that gap widening.

1290
03:16:53.399 --> 03:16:53.879
The gap.

1291
03:16:55.680 --> 03:17:00.280
And as it widens, it's almost like the stress and

1292
03:17:00.440 --> 03:17:18.040
attention falls into the gap and gives you that distance,

1293
03:17:20.040 --> 03:17:20.799
that space.

1294
03:17:23.200 --> 03:17:28.639
Now ten.

1295
03:17:33.000 --> 03:18:12.959
Nine, eight, seven, six, five.

1296
03:18:23.799 --> 03:18:42.920
Four three.

1297
03:19:17.719 --> 03:19:17.959
One.

1298
03:19:29.479 --> 03:19:33.879
Now, how did your body feel.

1299
03:19:35.840 --> 03:19:36.000
Now?

1300
03:19:48.719 --> 03:19:52.399
Can you notice that? Do you feeling calmer?

1301
03:20:00.479 --> 03:20:05.000
Are you feeling more relaxed?

1302
03:20:27.479 --> 03:20:31.799
As we now focus on your legs, just your legs,

1303
03:20:47.840 --> 03:21:07.959
We're just gonna start with focusing on your thighs. Of course,

1304
03:21:08.079 --> 03:21:12.959
it's not the most exciting thing to be doing, because

1305
03:21:16.399 --> 03:21:19.079
I'm sure, like most of your body is not a

1306
03:21:19.200 --> 03:21:31.600
lot going on right now. Just focusing on the whole

1307
03:21:31.719 --> 03:21:38.079
of your thighs, the tops of your thighs, the sides

1308
03:21:38.280 --> 03:21:45.239
of your thighs, the bottoms of your thighs, your outer thighs,

1309
03:21:45.360 --> 03:21:50.280
and your inner thighs. Basically the whole of your thigh

1310
03:21:50.399 --> 03:21:51.319
that leads.

1311
03:21:52.079 --> 03:21:59.680
Into your hip and it goes down to your.

1312
03:22:01.639 --> 03:22:13.479
Knee joints. Now, this is a big area. It's a

1313
03:22:13.600 --> 03:22:14.680
very heavy area.

1314
03:22:15.200 --> 03:22:21.159
It's very strong, probably the strongest muscles in your body

1315
03:22:21.879 --> 03:22:33.840
or in your thighs. But I don't think we.

1316
03:22:35.600 --> 03:22:41.479
Perhaps give enough attention to our thighs.

1317
03:22:47.399 --> 03:22:58.159
Perhaps we don't acknowledge how important our thighs are to

1318
03:22:58.360 --> 03:23:18.959
our lives, how much they actually do for us all

1319
03:23:19.079 --> 03:23:29.719
through our lives. And it may seem sound really weird, but.

1320
03:23:32.559 --> 03:23:33.920
I think that all of our.

1321
03:23:33.840 --> 03:23:44.719
Body parts, especially our thighs, need some TLC, a bit

1322
03:23:44.760 --> 03:23:47.159
of love shown, a bit of.

1323
03:23:53.760 --> 03:24:06.319
Acknowledgement, thank you, gratitude for what our thighs do for us.

1324
03:24:12.920 --> 03:24:18.520
And I know this may sound a bit strange. Maybe

1325
03:24:18.559 --> 03:24:19.840
you think, why am.

1326
03:24:19.760 --> 03:24:22.760
I sure that I should be out in the garden

1327
03:24:22.959 --> 03:24:31.159
hugging a tree or something. Well, it's hard to set

1328
03:24:31.200 --> 03:24:34.360
a microphone up on a tree. That's why I'm doing

1329
03:24:34.440 --> 03:24:37.079
this indoors. Otherwise I would be outside huging a tree.

1330
03:24:38.479 --> 03:24:40.159
I can't see the television.

1331
03:24:39.719 --> 03:24:40.200
From the tree.

1332
03:24:46.920 --> 03:24:48.719
If you move down to your knees.

1333
03:24:50.239 --> 03:24:52.440
Gain such an important part.

1334
03:24:56.760 --> 03:24:59.520
And I think we don't necessarily.

1335
03:25:00.399 --> 03:25:08.079
I'll speak for myself here, I don't necessarily appreciate all

1336
03:25:08.159 --> 03:25:13.159
that my needs do for me until I have a

1337
03:25:13.239 --> 03:25:18.319
problem with my knee. It's occasionally, if I ever maybe

1338
03:25:18.360 --> 03:25:23.959
i'll bash it or it's aching for some reason. It's

1339
03:25:24.200 --> 03:25:29.959
then that I realize how much it does. You know,

1340
03:25:30.040 --> 03:25:36.000
the benefit of being able to use my legs without

1341
03:25:37.760 --> 03:25:40.639
any kind of physical discomfort.

1342
03:25:41.520 --> 03:25:43.360
Is a beautiful thing.

1343
03:25:44.760 --> 03:25:51.079
That's possibly not appreciated until it's temporarily removed.

1344
03:25:52.239 --> 03:25:53.639
You know that's comfort.

1345
03:25:57.719 --> 03:26:02.360
But as you focus on your knees, regardless of how

1346
03:26:02.399 --> 03:26:09.920
your knees feel, you can have that sense of gratitude

1347
03:26:11.440 --> 03:26:14.040
and love to your knees for all that they do

1348
03:26:14.239 --> 03:26:27.239
for you, and you can still have that attention on

1349
03:26:27.360 --> 03:26:34.040
your thighs. Maybe notice how your thighs feel. Maybe you've

1350
03:26:34.239 --> 03:26:51.799
noticed that they are relaxing more deeply as you focus

1351
03:26:52.000 --> 03:26:56.639
now on the bottoms of your legs and your shins

1352
03:26:57.520 --> 03:26:58.360
and your calf.

1353
03:26:58.239 --> 03:27:06.920
Muscles, the bones between your knees and your feet, incorporating

1354
03:27:07.000 --> 03:27:07.479
the course.

1355
03:27:07.600 --> 03:27:11.680
Your ankles so important.

1356
03:27:17.200 --> 03:27:21.799
You know, anyone that's had even like the slightest sprain

1357
03:27:21.959 --> 03:27:24.680
of an ankle knows how.

1358
03:27:26.200 --> 03:27:30.319
How much we take our ankles for granted.

1359
03:27:36.200 --> 03:27:38.200
And it's kind of strange in a way when you

1360
03:27:38.319 --> 03:27:43.920
think that. You know, logically, our wrists are a lot

1361
03:27:44.079 --> 03:27:48.879
thinner than the rest of our arms, which is okay,

1362
03:27:49.000 --> 03:27:52.680
it doesn't I can't see any problem with that because

1363
03:27:52.719 --> 03:27:54.000
we're just picking stuff up.

1364
03:27:55.600 --> 03:27:57.079
Our ankles.

1365
03:27:58.319 --> 03:28:08.239
So much thinner than the rest of our legs, and

1366
03:28:08.399 --> 03:28:12.239
from a physics perspective or logical.

1367
03:28:11.920 --> 03:28:16.319
Even it doesn't really make sense that all this weight.

1368
03:28:17.680 --> 03:28:24.639
Would ultimately be resting on your ankles then leading to

1369
03:28:24.719 --> 03:28:25.479
your feet.

1370
03:28:29.760 --> 03:28:33.399
That thin area, thin bone.

1371
03:28:37.239 --> 03:28:43.319
Yeah, it does so much great work. Supports us, supports our.

1372
03:28:43.319 --> 03:28:55.440
Body for a lifetime, helps us to balance, helps you to.

1373
03:28:59.399 --> 03:29:08.440
Get around, don't be mobile. And there's the calf.

1374
03:29:08.280 --> 03:29:16.239
Muscles of course, when I was younger, I couldn't see

1375
03:29:16.239 --> 03:29:21.440
the pointing calf muscles didn't seem to do anything. Okay,

1376
03:29:22.559 --> 03:29:26.120
if I walked around on tiptoes, then my calf muscles

1377
03:29:26.159 --> 03:29:26.760
get some work.

1378
03:29:28.159 --> 03:29:30.719
But of course that's not true. The calf muscles are

1379
03:29:30.799 --> 03:29:33.159
being used whenever.

1380
03:29:32.959 --> 03:29:45.319
We use our legs, and your shins there to protect.

1381
03:29:46.840 --> 03:29:55.479
Your lower legs, shaped in a way, almost as a

1382
03:29:55.559 --> 03:30:08.360
protector for the bone, leading of course to your ankles.

1383
03:30:11.239 --> 03:30:17.799
And your feet. But we're not going to focus on

1384
03:30:17.920 --> 03:30:18.319
your feet.

1385
03:30:18.399 --> 03:30:19.000
We're just going to.

1386
03:30:19.000 --> 03:30:20.000
Focus on the legs.

1387
03:30:22.079 --> 03:30:26.840
I realize, but now that I've mentioned your feet, you'll

1388
03:30:26.840 --> 03:30:32.120
probably focus on them anyway, So maybe I should focus.

1389
03:30:31.840 --> 03:30:37.680
On your feet a little bit. You can have them

1390
03:30:37.719 --> 03:30:43.280
in your awareness the same as you have your thighs

1391
03:30:43.559 --> 03:30:47.840
in your awareness. Even though we haven't been focusing on

1392
03:30:48.000 --> 03:30:54.200
your thighs a few minutes and been focusing on your ankles.

1393
03:31:00.159 --> 03:31:15.399
Still that sensation of comfort in your thighs, and there's

1394
03:31:15.479 --> 03:31:16.879
that movement.

1395
03:31:18.040 --> 03:31:19.120
Of energy.

1396
03:31:20.840 --> 03:31:27.879
Because the thighs hold lots of different sensations. Of course,

1397
03:31:27.959 --> 03:31:32.719
there's the muscles, the big straw muscles that we have

1398
03:31:32.920 --> 03:31:33.280
in our.

1399
03:31:33.280 --> 03:31:43.479
Thighs, but the skin.

1400
03:31:45.079 --> 03:31:49.559
On the outside of the thighs, as in the outside

1401
03:31:49.600 --> 03:31:58.959
of all of our body can be very sensitive, sensitive

1402
03:31:59.120 --> 03:32:12.120
to the touch, sensitive to temperature. And inside your thighs

1403
03:32:14.639 --> 03:32:19.399
the bones, there's the muscle, there's the blood, vessels, the

1404
03:32:19.639 --> 03:32:29.639
ar trees, to all this stuff inside your thighs. I

1405
03:32:29.719 --> 03:32:33.159
guess sometimes it'd be nice if you could actually put

1406
03:32:33.239 --> 03:32:40.559
your fingers inside your thighs and a message, so you

1407
03:32:40.639 --> 03:32:44.120
can message on the outside, of course, but to be

1408
03:32:44.200 --> 03:32:47.360
able to get deep into the muscles, and to be

1409
03:32:47.440 --> 03:32:52.559
able to just message inside your thighs, message in the

1410
03:32:52.680 --> 03:32:54.879
bones of your leg.

1411
03:32:56.920 --> 03:32:57.600
Message in.

1412
03:33:00.280 --> 03:33:01.120
Or the veins.

1413
03:33:01.600 --> 03:33:02.760
Just gently.

1414
03:33:05.079 --> 03:33:12.239
Healing your thighs and you can move down.

1415
03:33:14.079 --> 03:33:19.079
Message and inside your knees, just message in those bones,

1416
03:33:20.120 --> 03:33:25.600
but with healing fingertips spreading that healing.

1417
03:33:25.399 --> 03:33:35.920
Energy deep into the choice of your knees. Of course,

1418
03:33:35.959 --> 03:33:36.920
there's the back.

1419
03:33:36.879 --> 03:33:42.040
Of your your need and the inside crease where your

1420
03:33:42.200 --> 03:33:49.680
need is. It's a very sensitive area. Three it feels

1421
03:33:49.760 --> 03:33:53.760
very nice when you stroke it. That might be because

1422
03:33:54.639 --> 03:33:59.600
it's an area that's not really touched very often. It's

1423
03:34:00.120 --> 03:34:03.760
just like a hidden part that crease.

1424
03:34:05.559 --> 03:34:10.040
In your legs. It's almost it's like a part that.

1425
03:34:11.840 --> 03:34:23.079
Has a sensitivity, which is a little bit different. Of course,

1426
03:34:23.159 --> 03:34:33.639
it's protected by your legs. So you can imagine putting

1427
03:34:34.520 --> 03:34:44.360
your fingers into that crease in your legs. Fold in

1428
03:34:44.479 --> 03:34:48.440
between your legs. You can just message with your fingertips.

1429
03:34:49.639 --> 03:34:56.879
Imagine your fingertips going inside, massage in the muscle or tissue.

1430
03:35:01.000 --> 03:35:04.719
You can cause. Fielder the bones.

1431
03:35:04.559 --> 03:35:16.479
Of your knees heading through your fingertips, and then as

1432
03:35:16.520 --> 03:35:22.200
you go down to your calf muscles, and that's the

1433
03:35:22.280 --> 03:35:25.760
part I'd like to be able to really put my

1434
03:35:25.920 --> 03:35:34.719
fingertips deep inside my calf muscles, massage in every single

1435
03:35:35.719 --> 03:35:47.559
tissue of that muscle, healing every part, and then doing.

1436
03:35:47.440 --> 03:35:48.879
The same for my shines.

1437
03:35:52.079 --> 03:36:00.559
Massage in generally stroking the bones, generally stroking them in

1438
03:36:00.639 --> 03:36:07.840
a loving way because they deserve to be treated as

1439
03:36:07.920 --> 03:36:11.920
the precious bones that they are, Because our legs are

1440
03:36:12.000 --> 03:36:15.760
so precious as in all the other parts of our body,

1441
03:36:18.319 --> 03:36:20.399
the more precious of any jure.

1442
03:36:22.719 --> 03:36:23.440
On the planet.

1443
03:36:32.000 --> 03:36:35.479
When you start to think about.

1444
03:36:38.559 --> 03:36:47.399
Your legs in this way, it can change your perspective.

1445
03:36:50.120 --> 03:36:55.879
It might sound a bit a bit silly to start

1446
03:36:55.959 --> 03:37:04.399
with the idea of having love for your legs, showing appreciation.

1447
03:37:05.559 --> 03:37:11.200
For your thighs, wanting to be able to put your

1448
03:37:11.319 --> 03:37:20.040
hands in your thighs, massage the muscles and the bones.

1449
03:37:21.440 --> 03:37:27.159
And to get your fingers deep in there, releasing all tension.

1450
03:37:30.079 --> 03:37:31.079
Just to show.

1451
03:37:32.639 --> 03:37:40.000
How much you care about your legs, how much you

1452
03:37:40.120 --> 03:37:48.680
care for what your legs do for you regularly, your knees,

1453
03:37:48.959 --> 03:38:01.799
your calves, your ankles, the strength of your ankles, considering

1454
03:38:02.000 --> 03:38:06.479
how thin they are compared to the rest of your legs,

1455
03:38:06.639 --> 03:38:20.280
especially your thighs. Yeah, they're so strong, so flexible, absolutely

1456
03:38:20.600 --> 03:38:21.879
amazing things.

1457
03:38:23.159 --> 03:38:24.719
Your ankles are.

1458
03:38:28.360 --> 03:38:30.000
Truly a gift.

1459
03:38:32.000 --> 03:38:41.079
Because of what they do for you, supporting all that weight,

1460
03:38:43.079 --> 03:38:47.479
regardless of how what weight you are, even if you

1461
03:38:47.600 --> 03:38:52.319
only eat ate stone, there's still a lot of weight

1462
03:38:52.600 --> 03:38:59.239
for these little ankles. How am a lot heavier than

1463
03:38:59.319 --> 03:39:09.280
eat stone double down, Yet my ankles support my body

1464
03:39:10.040 --> 03:39:10.639
all the time.

1465
03:39:14.399 --> 03:39:17.399
What they do give off a sigh of relief when

1466
03:39:17.440 --> 03:39:22.639
I sit down. That's I've had my whole legs though

1467
03:39:26.200 --> 03:39:54.360
my feet fee also my toes clap so happy. Your legs.

1468
03:39:55.920 --> 03:39:58.479
Really are amazing.

1469
03:40:01.120 --> 03:40:04.760
I don't know that talking about talking about your legs

1470
03:40:04.879 --> 03:40:05.680
is probably.

1471
03:40:07.879 --> 03:40:12.559
Possibly among the most most boring things I've ever heard

1472
03:40:12.600 --> 03:40:13.280
anyone say.

1473
03:40:14.200 --> 03:40:18.559
Possibly you're boring or not.

1474
03:40:20.159 --> 03:40:35.639
Everything I said is true. Your legs are amazing. Your

1475
03:40:35.760 --> 03:40:48.360
legs deserve not just respect, they deserve to relax deeply.

1476
03:40:55.639 --> 03:40:58.959
They deserve to take some time out of the day

1477
03:41:01.200 --> 03:41:22.280
to just let go completely. Your legs.

1478
03:41:27.399 --> 03:41:30.440
Really can relax.

1479
03:41:37.719 --> 03:41:41.680
Because the legs are so such a most you know,

1480
03:41:41.920 --> 03:41:47.840
very important part of your body. When you relax your legs,

1481
03:41:47.920 --> 03:41:55.159
the rest of your body also naturally follows in that

1482
03:41:58.879 --> 03:42:09.719
journey of comfort that I I feel it in my hips.

1483
03:42:11.120 --> 03:42:18.239
My hips feel really loose, and also my lower back

1484
03:42:18.319 --> 03:42:18.680
as well.

1485
03:42:20.719 --> 03:42:22.319
My lower back really.

1486
03:42:22.719 --> 03:42:27.319
Feels it feels stretched, even though I'm just sitting in

1487
03:42:27.399 --> 03:42:30.719
a chair and there's no stretching.

1488
03:42:32.840 --> 03:42:36.000
As far as I'm aware that I'm doing. It's almost

1489
03:42:36.040 --> 03:42:37.319
as if the muscles are just.

1490
03:42:37.440 --> 03:42:43.479
Relaxed so much that there is a natural stretch as

1491
03:42:43.600 --> 03:43:05.959
the tension has reduced a lot. And I'm now going

1492
03:43:06.040 --> 03:43:08.760
to count down from ten down to one.

1493
03:43:13.319 --> 03:43:20.319
You can continue to fill wonderfully relaxed.

1494
03:43:23.520 --> 03:43:47.600
Ten nine, eight, seven, six, five, four.

1495
03:43:50.760 --> 03:44:06.600
Three two relax.

1496
03:44:14.520 --> 03:44:18.319
So I'm just going to count down from five down

1497
03:44:18.399 --> 03:44:22.159
to one. And as I countdown, if you.

1498
03:44:22.280 --> 03:44:29.159
Just focus on the numbers, just the numbers counting down,

1499
03:44:30.239 --> 03:44:34.120
and notice how you feel.

1500
03:44:36.479 --> 03:44:37.639
In this moment.

1501
03:44:39.079 --> 03:44:44.440
As you hear the numbers counting down, knowing that those numbers.

1502
03:44:46.639 --> 03:44:49.079
Counting down represent you.

1503
03:44:50.879 --> 03:45:00.879
Feeling calmer, not just in your body, but also relaxing

1504
03:45:00.959 --> 03:45:01.399
your mind.

1505
03:45:04.479 --> 03:45:09.760
Just notice how you felt there's nothing to do, there's

1506
03:45:09.920 --> 03:45:12.799
nothing to say, there's nothing to.

1507
03:45:12.920 --> 03:45:49.719
Think about, starting with number five, four, three, two.

1508
03:45:55.520 --> 03:46:14.440
One. And as you notice the gradual letting go.

1509
03:46:16.799 --> 03:46:23.760
Of the tension in your body, you may also begin

1510
03:46:24.079 --> 03:46:30.040
to notice and be aware of how your mind is

1511
03:46:31.120 --> 03:46:38.959
starting to slow down. This is just a natural thing

1512
03:46:39.440 --> 03:46:40.120
that happens.

1513
03:46:42.719 --> 03:46:47.920
It's not really a special procedure. It's just natural because

1514
03:46:48.000 --> 03:46:53.879
as your body relaxes, your mind also starts to relax,

1515
03:46:55.479 --> 03:46:59.159
and the more your mind relaxes, the more your body relaxes.

1516
03:46:59.280 --> 03:47:09.760
It's just a continuous circle of relaxation. And there's that

1517
03:47:11.040 --> 03:47:16.079
calmness that comes from relative quietness.

1518
03:47:17.680 --> 03:47:22.559
You know, even even if there's background sounds EIBE, your

1519
03:47:22.760 --> 03:47:24.040
side online.

1520
03:47:25.440 --> 03:47:29.280
Is still going to be quite calm.

1521
03:47:30.959 --> 03:47:33.600
You know, you haven't got the television on, there's no

1522
03:47:33.920 --> 03:47:38.159
music in the background, unless you're listening to the recorded

1523
03:47:38.200 --> 03:47:38.760
with music.

1524
03:47:38.879 --> 03:47:46.120
Of course, you're very likely not going to be sitting

1525
03:47:46.120 --> 03:47:46.319
in a.

1526
03:47:46.399 --> 03:47:47.440
Room with other people.

1527
03:47:48.360 --> 03:47:53.000
Of course, you might be, but generally it's more ideal

1528
03:47:53.079 --> 03:47:58.079
if you can do this on your own, so no distractions,

1529
03:48:04.280 --> 03:48:17.200
and when you stop thinking about stuff, relaxation automatically rises,

1530
03:48:19.600 --> 03:48:21.079
a sense of comfort.

1531
03:48:22.399 --> 03:48:27.799
Starts to grow, and.

1532
03:48:29.600 --> 03:48:34.840
Without trying to build it up into something fantastical or

1533
03:48:38.200 --> 03:48:48.920
something magical, this is just a natural process, something that's easy.

1534
03:48:50.879 --> 03:48:55.319
To accomplish. In fact, it's.

1535
03:48:55.280 --> 03:49:02.159
Almost you know, the sense of relaxing completely happens really

1536
03:49:02.280 --> 03:49:05.360
when you put no effort into it.

1537
03:49:06.360 --> 03:49:08.799
It's not something that you can really force.

1538
03:49:11.399 --> 03:49:15.360
It's something that happens naturally.

1539
03:49:18.360 --> 03:49:20.120
And part of the.

1540
03:49:20.239 --> 03:49:25.920
Process of this recording and others.

1541
03:49:27.239 --> 03:49:28.840
Is simply.

1542
03:49:30.079 --> 03:49:42.200
Two allow you to take advantage of this space, this time,

1543
03:49:45.239 --> 03:49:56.120
to just let go, to just be here, to be

1544
03:49:56.760 --> 03:50:10.159
in tune with how you feel, yet with the intention

1545
03:50:12.399 --> 03:50:23.879
of wanting to relax deeply that maybe even to fall asleep,

1546
03:50:25.040 --> 03:50:30.719
depending on what it is that you wish for yourself.

1547
03:50:31.959 --> 03:50:32.760
In this moment.

1548
03:50:39.760 --> 03:50:49.120
As we know, relaxing is the majority of the process

1549
03:50:49.239 --> 03:50:54.399
of falling asleep. The actual falling asleep part is the

1550
03:50:54.559 --> 03:51:02.360
tiny bit at the end. The deeper relaxed you become,

1551
03:51:06.280 --> 03:51:23.959
the easier you find yourself drifting. But you can also

1552
03:51:24.120 --> 03:51:34.200
if you choose stay focused on my voice and really

1553
03:51:34.680 --> 03:51:59.399
enjoy the process, gradually relaxing each muscle.

1554
03:52:03.639 --> 03:52:04.680
In your body.

1555
03:52:09.440 --> 03:52:25.799
Effortlessly and just observing the sensation.

1556
03:52:30.479 --> 03:52:38.600
Of letting go completely.

1557
03:52:44.600 --> 03:52:48.639
This time, I'm going to count from six down to one.

1558
03:52:53.799 --> 03:53:03.360
You can notice your mind calming down war with each

1559
03:53:03.920 --> 03:53:17.959
number that you hear me say, naturally, feeling calm and slower,

1560
03:53:22.399 --> 03:54:48.680
peaceful sex five, four, three.

1561
03:55:18.319 --> 03:56:18.200
Four, being aware of.

1562
03:56:21.000 --> 03:56:30.360
How your mind to slowed right down, sinking.

1563
03:56:32.479 --> 03:56:37.040
Deeply into relaxation.

1564
03:56:50.959 --> 03:56:57.879
As you focus on your mind, you may notice that.

1565
03:57:00.280 --> 03:57:10.360
Some thoughts still there, maybe some stubborn thoughts that for

1566
03:57:10.520 --> 03:57:15.879
some reason perhaps need your attention.

1567
03:57:22.760 --> 03:57:24.120
That's what you can do is.

1568
03:57:29.680 --> 03:57:42.200
Send love to those thoughts. Sprinkle those thoughts with love,

1569
03:57:43.920 --> 03:57:48.120
my lot petals from a flower. Just sprinkle over them,

1570
03:57:49.600 --> 03:57:56.719
petals feel good love towards those thoughts. To let those

1571
03:57:56.959 --> 03:58:04.399
thoughts other. You're not abandon the number, You just need them.

1572
03:58:05.639 --> 03:58:17.559
You require them to just calm down, slow down, quiet down.

1573
03:58:21.239 --> 03:58:21.639
For now.

1574
03:58:29.520 --> 03:58:34.520
So as you focus on those remaining thoughts as a

1575
03:58:34.719 --> 03:58:40.760
countdown this time from seven down to one. With each number,

1576
03:58:43.799 --> 03:58:56.319
just imagine sprinkling those flower petals of love, kindness, gratitude

1577
03:58:59.559 --> 03:59:07.440
over the those thoughts which will allow them to just

1578
03:59:08.879 --> 03:59:23.879
not away and relax deeply. With every number, those thoughts

1579
03:59:24.000 --> 03:59:25.440
will become more.

1580
03:59:29.159 --> 03:59:30.680
And more relaxed.

1581
03:59:36.280 --> 04:00:59.200
Starting with number seven, six, five, four, three.

1582
04:01:50.399 --> 04:01:50.639
Four.

1583
04:02:07.319 --> 04:02:24.280
And as you now notice how relaxed your feeling in

1584
04:02:24.479 --> 04:02:46.000
your body, we're going to focus on your hands, because

1585
04:02:46.120 --> 04:02:52.360
the more relaxed your hands are, the more relaxed your

1586
04:02:52.440 --> 04:03:14.760
body and mind. This you focus on your hands and

1587
04:03:14.920 --> 04:03:24.959
your fingers. There's nothing needed to be done. There's no

1588
04:03:25.239 --> 04:03:30.200
clenching of fists or dance in the fingers or anything

1589
04:03:30.319 --> 04:03:44.239
like that. It's just noticing and focusing on your hands,

1590
04:03:51.280 --> 04:04:12.319
noticing the early film because the more relaxed do your

1591
04:04:12.559 --> 04:04:22.760
hands feel, the calmer your mind feels, and the more.

1592
04:04:25.360 --> 04:04:30.280
Comforts you feel throughout your body.

1593
04:04:36.239 --> 04:04:39.319
Jee may.

1594
04:04:41.639 --> 04:04:46.799
Have already.

1595
04:04:49.079 --> 04:05:28.840
Noticed you mind is starting to draft quick said, just

1596
04:05:29.040 --> 04:05:46.159
on your hands and fingers, allowing them cheap experience a

1597
04:05:46.440 --> 04:05:54.360
real deepening of that relaxation in your hands and fingers

1598
04:06:00.399 --> 04:06:20.280
more and more relaxed. With each number from eight.

1599
04:06:22.520 --> 04:06:28.840
Down to one, you can.

1600
04:06:28.799 --> 04:06:40.600
Almost feel that healing, relaxing energy spreading into your hands

1601
04:06:41.719 --> 04:07:07.760
and fingers becoming ear more relaxing with each number coming down,

1602
04:07:09.959 --> 04:07:12.799
eight down to one.

1603
04:07:16.920 --> 04:07:17.479
Drift in.

1604
04:07:21.120 --> 04:07:28.079
Drifted again, started with.

1605
04:07:32.680 --> 04:07:32.719
No.

1606
04:07:40.280 --> 04:08:19.000
Eight seven.

1607
04:09:22.760 --> 04:11:29.120
Four just being here.

1608
04:11:29.639 --> 04:11:39.559
Now, nothing to think about, nothing to do, nothing to say,

1609
04:11:43.719 --> 04:11:47.639
and everything just feels calm.

1610
04:11:52.559 --> 04:11:55.840
This is your natural state of being.

1611
04:11:59.520 --> 04:12:04.879
This is how you just normally feel when you take

1612
04:12:05.000 --> 04:12:08.840
away all that other stuff.

1613
04:12:10.879 --> 04:12:11.559
That we add.

1614
04:12:13.319 --> 04:12:24.879
You know, thinks like stress and worry over thick anxiety, tension,

1615
04:12:29.559 --> 04:12:31.399
checkerly thinking about stuff.

1616
04:12:33.600 --> 04:12:37.559
You take that away, which is what we do, what

1617
04:12:37.680 --> 04:12:44.920
we do now, you.

1618
04:12:45.120 --> 04:12:45.600
Left with.

1619
04:12:48.319 --> 04:12:57.360
A real sense of measons which comes to you very quickly,

1620
04:13:01.559 --> 04:13:03.719
because ultimately it's just.

1621
04:13:04.879 --> 04:13:05.959
A feeling.

1622
04:13:09.959 --> 04:13:17.319
Of feeling and comfort, almost.

1623
04:13:16.959 --> 04:13:20.559
As if you've got inside yourself and you've found a

1624
04:13:20.760 --> 04:13:34.680
special place where everything is peaceful, a place where you

1625
04:13:34.840 --> 04:13:42.159
can be filmed, relaxed and you're actual sense of comfort,

1626
04:13:45.360 --> 04:13:54.000
a place where you can be here, we can accept

1627
04:13:54.120 --> 04:14:00.840
yourself who you are, the place where not trying to

1628
04:14:03.040 --> 04:14:16.719
please anybody else, a place where you can actually not

1629
04:14:17.079 --> 04:14:22.319
just love yourself, but in some ways more importantly, you

1630
04:14:22.440 --> 04:14:40.440
can like yourself, appreciate who you are, a sense of gratitude.

1631
04:14:43.360 --> 04:14:53.719
He's in the air, one around you. That's also a

1632
04:14:53.920 --> 04:15:04.000
place where you can actually feel the healing energy soaking

1633
04:15:04.399 --> 04:15:22.159
into your body. Healing energy soaking into your body, the

1634
04:15:22.440 --> 04:15:30.920
healing energy spreads through your veins, traveling to.

1635
04:15:31.280 --> 04:15:34.959
Each every single part.

1636
04:15:36.399 --> 04:15:37.079
Of your body.

1637
04:15:43.000 --> 04:15:43.840
When you start to.

1638
04:15:43.959 --> 04:15:47.920
Realize that actually that healing energy.

1639
04:15:50.079 --> 04:15:52.000
It's not just entered into.

1640
04:15:51.920 --> 04:16:03.239
Your brain, it's become part of your brain, and the

1641
04:16:03.559 --> 04:16:15.399
spinal fluid is now mixed with healing energy, not just

1642
04:16:17.559 --> 04:16:21.799
allowing you to feel so much more relaxed.

1643
04:16:23.280 --> 04:16:31.079
And healthy in this moment, but.

1644
04:16:31.280 --> 04:16:40.799
Also you start to realize that actually, what's happening now

1645
04:16:42.040 --> 04:16:51.879
without a healing, relaxing energy spreading through your body's actually

1646
04:16:52.319 --> 04:17:02.520
changing your life. It's actually changing the way you're going

1647
04:17:02.639 --> 04:17:09.399
to feel not just now, but tomorrow and the next day.

1648
04:17:11.319 --> 04:17:18.799
As your health improves, not just your physical health, but

1649
04:17:18.920 --> 04:17:19.920
your mental health.

1650
04:17:23.879 --> 04:17:25.600
Things that used.

1651
04:17:25.479 --> 04:17:31.200
To bother you in the past, for some reason, no

1652
04:17:31.440 --> 04:17:33.200
longer have.

1653
04:17:33.399 --> 04:17:41.159
The effect that they used to because something has changed.

1654
04:17:42.239 --> 04:17:53.280
Deep within you. Maybe things that used to cause you

1655
04:17:53.559 --> 04:18:05.920
to feel anger no longer have that power to control

1656
04:18:06.040 --> 04:18:11.000
you the way they seem to be able to before.

1657
04:18:14.680 --> 04:18:25.479
As you realize that you're the one who decides what

1658
04:18:25.840 --> 04:18:37.520
affects you, you're the one who decides to feel relaxed

1659
04:18:38.399 --> 04:18:39.319
and can't.

1660
04:18:40.600 --> 04:18:42.760
When you choose.

1661
04:18:46.000 --> 04:18:53.879
To enjoy noticing these natural developments.

1662
04:18:55.879 --> 04:19:01.200
And the healing continue to grow.

1663
04:19:03.760 --> 04:19:15.079
And improve your life day by day, including of course,

1664
04:19:15.200 --> 04:19:16.520
your ability.

1665
04:19:18.040 --> 04:19:22.520
To relax so much easier.

1666
04:19:26.959 --> 04:19:28.000
Than sleep in.

1667
04:19:32.520 --> 04:19:38.200
It's the most natural thing in the world to you

1668
04:19:42.719 --> 04:19:46.280
because for in, the sleep is something that you've done

1669
04:19:49.319 --> 04:19:50.879
so many times.

1670
04:19:52.239 --> 04:19:57.879
In your life, and you know that you were born,

1671
04:19:59.360 --> 04:20:00.079
as we all.

1672
04:20:00.079 --> 04:20:10.920
Where with the ability to fall asleep naturally. We're born

1673
04:20:12.319 --> 04:20:22.760
with that ability to just drift off into a deep,

1674
04:20:24.040 --> 04:20:35.840
healing sleep. Even when we're kids, sometimes will fall asleep

1675
04:20:35.879 --> 04:20:39.799
when we don't even want to try to take a

1676
04:20:40.040 --> 04:20:40.760
stay awake.

1677
04:20:42.120 --> 04:20:45.559
Maybe it's a birthday in the morning, though it's Christmas

1678
04:20:45.799 --> 04:20:48.920
or holiday or something we look forward.

1679
04:20:48.639 --> 04:20:52.920
To, we don't want to go to sleep. But the

1680
04:20:53.079 --> 04:20:58.280
more we want to stay awake, the more we just

1681
04:20:58.440 --> 04:21:07.360
start to drift. And the more you fight drifting, which

1682
04:21:07.479 --> 04:21:12.760
right to stop yourself and drifting asleep, the deeper and

1683
04:21:13.040 --> 04:21:24.840
strongerout drifting becomes. Because we're born not just with the

1684
04:21:25.120 --> 04:21:34.520
need to relax deeply and to naturally fall asleep, but

1685
04:21:34.600 --> 04:21:48.920
it's our birthright, it's part of our DNA, and sometimes

1686
04:21:49.079 --> 04:21:54.440
as we get older in life, perhaps at times we

1687
04:21:54.799 --> 04:22:10.920
have forgotten relaxing completely. It's not only a wonderfully pleasant experience,

1688
04:22:16.719 --> 04:22:34.719
it's also really easy. It's very very easy to let go,

1689
04:22:36.760 --> 04:22:37.879
because that's all it is.

1690
04:22:38.079 --> 04:22:38.559
It's just.

1691
04:22:42.079 --> 04:22:53.479
Deciding to let go. And when you press the play

1692
04:22:53.600 --> 04:23:01.760
button on my recordings, you given permission.

1693
04:23:03.600 --> 04:23:06.600
From my voice to relax.

1694
04:23:10.479 --> 04:23:14.760
When you pressed that play button, you've given me permission

1695
04:23:15.959 --> 04:23:17.520
for my words.

1696
04:23:20.920 --> 04:23:22.120
To effect.

1697
04:23:24.120 --> 04:23:36.079
You in a positive, only a positive way, opening up.

1698
04:23:41.159 --> 04:23:42.079
Your mind.

1699
04:23:43.600 --> 04:23:48.520
To useful.

1700
04:23:49.639 --> 04:23:54.200
And healing suggestions.

1701
04:23:58.760 --> 04:23:59.440
They can have.

1702
04:24:03.959 --> 04:24:11.399
Such an amazing effect on how you feel right now,

1703
04:24:16.159 --> 04:24:26.000
as well as those changes that continue long after the

1704
04:24:26.120 --> 04:24:31.959
recording ends, those changes within you.

1705
04:24:34.799 --> 04:24:36.040
That continue to.

1706
04:24:36.280 --> 04:24:52.399
Flourish and grow, transforming your life in a positive, beautiful.

1707
04:24:51.959 --> 04:25:02.360
Way, allowing you to move forward your life in the

1708
04:25:02.479 --> 04:25:03.319
direction that.

1709
04:25:03.639 --> 04:25:06.680
You choose for yourself.

1710
04:25:15.799 --> 04:25:27.760
And this feeling, this feeling that you can experience a safety, comfort, calmness.

1711
04:25:35.559 --> 04:25:37.159
This feels so nice.

1712
04:25:46.479 --> 04:26:00.239
It's such a healthy place to be, and that positivity.

1713
04:26:00.520 --> 04:26:02.799
Grows within you.

1714
04:26:08.600 --> 04:26:11.200
Each and every day.

1715
04:26:14.280 --> 04:26:24.040
Moving forward, you're going to find that you're more relaxed

1716
04:26:26.399 --> 04:26:34.600
physically and in your mind. It's more relaxed.

1717
04:26:38.440 --> 04:26:39.600
And it's not that you're.

1718
04:26:39.600 --> 04:26:45.280
Thinking slower, it's just that your mind will be less

1719
04:26:46.079 --> 04:26:57.639
clogged up with unnecessary negativity, because from now on, your

1720
04:26:57.840 --> 04:27:01.200
mind rejects negativity.

1721
04:27:05.200 --> 04:27:08.799
From now you're going to start noticing.

1722
04:27:11.600 --> 04:27:24.159
When negativity arises, and you can just say stop, stop

1723
04:27:27.000 --> 04:27:29.000
and the negativity.

1724
04:27:30.680 --> 04:27:48.479
Will turn around and leave your life. Stop and then negativity.

1725
04:27:50.799 --> 04:27:51.680
Would disappear.

1726
04:27:59.799 --> 04:28:06.319
And that you notice that you feel way more relaxed

1727
04:28:07.760 --> 04:28:09.719
than you probably expected.

1728
04:28:15.879 --> 04:28:17.000
You can now.

1729
04:28:20.360 --> 04:28:26.200
Congratulate yourself because you are the person that has done this.

1730
04:28:28.000 --> 04:28:33.440
You are the one that has opened your mind up

1731
04:28:34.120 --> 04:28:42.319
to the simple facts. You can feel more relaxed in

1732
04:28:42.440 --> 04:28:52.399
your body and in your mind. You've opened your mind

1733
04:28:52.600 --> 04:29:00.479
up to the birthright of being able to just fall

1734
04:29:00.559 --> 04:29:04.959
asleep easily when he cheers.

1735
04:29:13.639 --> 04:29:15.079
And that's a nice feeling.

1736
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Don't you think it feels nice?

1737
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Doesn't it to feel calm? All the healing energy is

1738
04:29:30.360 --> 04:29:33.680
spreading through your body in your mind.

1739
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Spend time a special place where negativity can no longer enter.

1740
04:29:58.680 --> 04:30:04.799
Negativity is back, and it's hard. It's not allowed entry,

1741
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doesn't doesn't this doesn't deserve to be here, doesn't belong here.

1742
04:30:16.399 --> 04:30:31.239
Negativity has no place in your life, which makes room

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for more comfort, more heathing.

1744
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Or relaxation.

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More peace.

1746
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Feels nice as that.

1747
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Just let go.

1748
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With everything.

1749
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I'm gonna count down now from twenty down to one.

1750
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He can continue to relax, huish career to sleep with

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every number.

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Hear me say.

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You Phil twice is relaxed, or if you change, you

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can Phil twice sleeping.

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Now twenty.

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Ninety eighteen seventeen six, steam fifty four.

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Two nine.

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Eight, seven.

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Six five. God, it's your time to just take a break,

1760
04:35:21.959 --> 04:35:22.880
your time.

1761
04:35:25.840 --> 04:35:42.159
Relax, to allow your mind to slow down, to give

1762
04:35:42.240 --> 04:36:00.959
yourself a permission to take a break from everything. Endure

1763
04:36:01.080 --> 04:36:03.200
the only person that.

1764
04:36:03.319 --> 04:36:09.279
Can make that decision. You're the only person that can

1765
04:36:09.360 --> 04:36:25.200
actually tell you why just relax, to just.

1766
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Take some time.

1767
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Off so that you can focus on your body, getting

1768
04:36:44.040 --> 04:36:58.439
in touch with how you feel physically and in the

1769
04:36:58.560 --> 04:37:06.639
process of this body scared where you focus on different

1770
04:37:06.720 --> 04:37:18.040
parts of your body, those parts you focus on and observe,

1771
04:37:21.000 --> 04:37:29.520
even though you're not purposely requesting those parts of your

1772
04:37:29.599 --> 04:37:38.479
body to relax, it's kind of expected. You expect when

1773
04:37:38.520 --> 04:37:51.840
you listen to my voice to feel latest naturally, because

1774
04:37:51.919 --> 04:37:57.319
when you're listening to me, your attention.

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04:37:59.159 --> 04:38:00.319
Is focused.

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04:38:01.639 --> 04:38:10.439
On my words, and as my words guide.

1777
04:38:10.319 --> 04:38:20.159
You to focus those parts of your body.

1778
04:38:23.639 --> 04:38:33.759
Your focus increases, which actually.

1779
04:38:36.200 --> 04:39:04.520
Calms your mind. Your mind calms down, body relaxes, and

1780
04:39:05.040 --> 04:39:16.599
your body calms down, your mind.

1781
04:39:18.279 --> 04:39:33.919
Relaxes. The ha not really started to focus.

1782
04:39:33.880 --> 04:39:34.639
On your body.

1783
04:39:37.799 --> 04:39:48.680
Can ready feel back the energy spreading through your body,

1784
04:39:53.560 --> 04:40:11.759
pushing out stress, all the parts of your buddy, skin,

1785
04:40:12.919 --> 04:40:13.759
your body.

1786
04:40:15.240 --> 04:40:21.560
Your blood, all if your words side your body, of

1787
04:40:21.639 --> 04:40:24.799
the muscles, more of the fact.

1788
04:40:27.439 --> 04:40:44.400
Everything every hair on your body's fueled by and when

1789
04:40:44.439 --> 04:41:01.479
you're playing fuels bad and the energy feed and comfort

1790
04:41:03.119 --> 04:41:34.200
relaxation increases, increases. No way, your mind starts to feel

1791
04:41:37.479 --> 04:41:51.400
perhaps speak to rousing because it's not needed. They starts

1792
04:41:54.639 --> 04:41:55.720
to direct.

1793
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If that's what's needed. So if you're listening to this, we.

1794
04:42:13.520 --> 04:42:15.439
Need distinct relaxation.

1795
04:42:16.240 --> 04:42:17.080
That's where you get.

1796
04:42:19.279 --> 04:42:20.639
You need this.

1797
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To sleep actually easily your wind dreads.

1798
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That's also.

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Wherever because why listen play button on the podcast and

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04:42:48.680 --> 04:42:56.040
listening to me your body, the wind.

1801
04:42:58.720 --> 04:42:59.520
In fact.

1802
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Give the cop.

1803
04:43:08.119 --> 04:43:22.479
Want to relax, drift to slay, if that's what he

1804
04:43:23.360 --> 04:43:23.919
wants to.

1805
04:43:35.599 --> 04:43:35.840
Say.

1806
04:43:36.040 --> 04:43:49.080
Focus on different parts you start just.

1807
04:43:54.080 --> 04:44:01.799
When you come back ahead too, focus different thought of

1808
04:44:01.880 --> 04:44:12.720
your body. I'm just so drifting.

1809
04:44:15.520 --> 04:44:26.200
People realize se st my voice.

1810
04:44:27.919 --> 04:44:33.520
I said, what different ought of your body? Stops to

1811
04:44:33.680 --> 04:44:48.000
relax because I drift. It's basically more day in the sleep, son,

1812
04:44:55.040 --> 04:45:16.520
more you drift, drift continuous to scream. That's the posture

1813
04:45:25.319 --> 04:45:38.279
time you experienced the I am out of sight. I

1814
04:45:38.439 --> 04:45:38.759
think you.

1815
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Sass s accident surprise to put feel.

1816
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Which is speaking.

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Lexx stop likes.

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To eyes.

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Shoot shop.

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Yes, six.

1821
04:48:56.080 --> 04:49:34.880
S it's fight.

1822
04:49:35.000 --> 04:49:35.599
It's again.

1823
04:49:44.200 --> 04:50:02.400
Send this time on your forehead lips all you now.

1824
04:50:14.400 --> 04:50:15.319
What you said?

1825
04:50:16.799 --> 04:50:17.560
You think it's.

1826
04:50:25.959 --> 04:50:27.439
Feelings kids.

1827
04:50:28.840 --> 04:50:29.360
Like some.

1828
04:50:30.840 --> 04:50:38.560
Individually my hands.

1829
04:50:43.880 --> 04:50:49.520
She focused on both of your hands. Now I seem

1830
04:50:49.919 --> 04:50:58.520
just melt into work because my hand started.

1831
04:51:04.319 --> 04:51:04.919
Quest is.

1832
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Just make stick out awfu schooldays just as.

1833
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Now you say.

1834
04:51:49.759 --> 04:52:54.799
Outcomes just SCUSI.

1835
04:52:29.200 --> 04:52:33.319
You speaks.

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Your sus such such short such.

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If you think the.

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S beginning schools set stop that is speci just decespe