July 8, 2025

(music) (5 hours) KARATE | Monday’s Boring Objects | LMBYTS #1389 | Jason Newland | 7th July 2025

(music) (5 hours) KARATE | Monday’s Boring Objects | LMBYTS #1389 | Jason Newland | 7th July 2025
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Hello, and welcome to jasonnew Land dot com. My name's

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Jason Newland. Please only listen when you can safely close

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shop eyes. I'm here with little Vinnie's laying by my side,

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and I'm sitting in my well on my sofa. But

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it's basically it's it's a reclining sofa, but there's two

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parts that recline. I'm in one part that reclines, and

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he's next to me. So I'll give you I mean,

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this is going to be my days boring objects, but

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i'll give you.

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Anne you'd.

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Give you a little bit of an update on Uncle Sausages,

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my neighbor. Just let you know, I won't. You know,

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I'm not going to talk about it for any length

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of time, but I'll just give you a basic update.

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So I'm still visiting him in hospital. He is now

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awaiting to find out if he's able to come home

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with some kind of.

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Care plan.

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Or whether he needed to go into a nursing home.

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So it's going to just you know, I'm going to

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see I'm going to start clearing up his flat, tidying

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up and cleaning it, making it a bit more ready

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if he does get the opportunity to return and yeah,

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that's it. Really. I went there today, spoke to the

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pallative palliative nurse or palliative care nurse, spoke to the

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Oh do they call them therapist? Not universal, not unisex,

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not ambilical. I'm trying to think what the name is.

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But basically, what they do is they check him, see

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what he's capable of physically, and to get a layer

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of the land. Really, I suppose, so hopefully he's been

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had those meetings today. I spoke to them this morning,

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but they're going to come back and see him later

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on in the day and I left just before one o'clock.

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So I'll give him a call tomorrow find out how

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he's getting on. It's not always easy to actually hear

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what he's saying because he wants to be private. So

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when he's talking to me about I guess serious things,

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he whispers and I can't hear him even in the hospital.

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I have to get really close to him because he

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talks so so quietly. So yeah, just see, just wait

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and see tomorrow. Oh God, I will stop you ordering

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in a minute. Don't worry. Tomorrow. I'll do a little

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bit on his flat. Just I want to organize some

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of his stuff. He's got lots of diaries from years ago.

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Some can put them into one drawer important stuff. Put

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all his letters into another place, you know, because there's

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things like darted all around the place. And might have

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to get rid of his chair in the setti. He

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needs a new chair. He needs a new bed. He

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hasn't slept in his bed for years, I don't think

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because it's I think it's broken, but he's been sleeping

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in his chair, which is also really really just it

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needs to be removed.

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Yeah.

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He also needs a fridge because he hasn't got fridge.

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So there's a few little bits I need to try

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and organize for him. But I'll do it with him.

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I'm not just going to do it, you know myself.

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I'm gonna just confirm that that's what he wants as

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I go along. So I need to try and find

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him a fridge, freezer, a cheap one to put in

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his kitchen, and then once I've kind of tied it up,

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I'll then look at maybe trying to find him a chair,

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some kind of yeah, just some kind of chair that

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will be comfortable for him.

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Hmmm.

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It's going to be a bit weird though, because I

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don't know what he's gonna find comfortable, because it's not

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all chairs. It's nice to sit in a chair, isn't

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it first before buying it or you know, and it

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won't be a new chair, or it be a new

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chair which is cheap, like from Amazon or something. But

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then the problem with that is getting it into the flat.

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Although the one he's got now, I'm not sure how

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he got it in because it's quite a big thing.

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So I'm probably what I'll do is perhaps measure that

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chair and try and get one the same kind of size,

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perhaps from second hand shop or something, and it's it's

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not gonna it's weird to say this, but it's not

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going to be needed for long. This is weird to

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say that out loud. But and I'll ask him what

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he wants to do. He might want to buy a

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brand new chair, and I would, you know. Just one

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thinking of doing is if he does come out moving

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my TV into his flat so he has a big

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TV to watch because he loves watching sport, and I'll

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get all the sports packages that he wants that he

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needs so that he can pretty much watch whatever he

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wants and he can still have his other TV there

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as well, which is very quite small, so he can

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watch I'd be like Granddad from Only Fools and Horses,

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I have more than one TV at the same time,

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so that might be something that he'd like. But I

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am thinking of doing that to moving my TV temporarily

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into his flat so he can watch the big TV.

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Get them a new chair or a second end chair,

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get them a new bed, and outside of that, it's

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you know, it also depends what kind of bed he's

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going to need, because at some point they're going to

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need to have equipment in their hoists and he might

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have to have a special bed, you know. So it

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really I don't know at this point it's going to

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It's it's just it's a guessing game at this point, really.

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But if he does come home rather than into a

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care home, then I'm going to do everything I can

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to make it as comfortable and enjoyable, I suppose as

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possible so that you can have the best time. If

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that makes any sense, I don't know. It kind of

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makes sense when I say it out loud, but at

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the same time, it also seems like a ridiculous thing

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to say, just bearing considering the circumstances. I mean, but anyway,

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I'll do whatever I can to help. He did buy me,

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he bought me a sausage roll and a drink. Today

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we went into Costers and he brought his card down

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with him and he bought He sort of treated me,

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and he really felt good about it. He seemed to

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really be happy about that. And he brought me some chocolates,

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a couple of crunchy bars in W. H. Smith and

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he got himself a couple of chocolate bars. And he

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seemed in really good spirits today, really quite more energetic. Hmm.

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And another thing is we I said to him, well,

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you're gonna want to if you want to come home,

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then we've got to stop taking the lift and I

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have to start using the stairs now, because you need

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to prove to yourself as well as the people here, really,

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but you definitely need to prove to yourself that you

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can do the stairs. So we did walk up and

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down the stairs. It's only two little sets of stairs.

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I mean, there's probably there's more stairs here than there

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is in each little set, So there's probably one and

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a half the amount of stairs steps. So yeah, i'd

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say maybe fifty percent more steps than here. It's just

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not a lot. There's not a lot of steps here either,

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And he was cool and he did it fine. He

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is a little bit. I think he's a bit unsteady

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on his feet anyway, just generally with age, he's a

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little bit. He's a little bit more careful than he

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used to be. But at the same time, I think

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because he's been off his feet pretty much nearly solidly

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for over two weeks, he's you know, he hasn't had

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that circulation, that blood circulation in his legs that we

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all kind of get used to, I suppose when we're

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walking around a bit and he's and plus he's on

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medication now, so yeah, it's just okay. I don't know

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how that's going to affect him, but.

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It was.

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It was weird. Weird figure we figured about it. It

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was pulling me out the way of people that were

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walking through. So he was. He was in a bit

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of a bossy mood today. It was funny. So yeah,

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that was quite good. I just figured though, if you

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want to come home, you're going to have to deal

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with the stairs, so we might as well do the

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stairs now. So when I see him next time I

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see him do the stairs again. If he's able to,

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I mean, I'm not I'm not forcing him. You can't

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force him to do anything. He only does what he

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wants to do. It just made sense really to test

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it out for him. And I was there with him anyways,

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who wasn't going to fall and there's there's a banister

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all the way around. So yeah, he had something for

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dinner today that was awful. It was really bad. It

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was just mush with It was supposed to be chicken

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and potatoes with gravy, and all you could see this

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is white stuff with gravy. And he'd had a hot

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sausage roll about an hour earlier, and he phoned me

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up later on. So I'm so thankful we had that

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sausage roll because that dinner was awful. And even the

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lady that delivered the sausage roll up that delivered the meal,

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she bought the tray in put it on to to

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take the bedside table thing you know that they have,

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and she she said to uncle sausages, She said, right,

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I don't know what you're going to think about this really,

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and she pulled the lid off because of a lot

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of metal lid thing pulled that off, the kind of

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things you see in like expensive restaurants that you pull

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it off. And she was on my laughing at the

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plate of the contents because she knew it was just wrong.

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She said, well, I'm allowed to be honest, like, wow,

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it was Yeah, it really wasn't good. I mean, I

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don't know what it tastes like. I didn't eat it.

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It might have been fine, but if you, yeah, it

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didn't look great. But then really, he's eating better than

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I am. He's getting he's eating four times a day,

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and they do have the calorie intake in the vitamins.

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They have it all very very well balanced meals. I

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don't know what they taste like. It's been a long

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time since I had a hospital food. I was twelve

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the last time. But yeah, I'd probably end up putting

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weight on. If I was eating four times a day

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cooked food. Well, I suppose breakfast is like cereal, but

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other than that it's cooked, and I was just sitting

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around or in bed, I'd probably put weight on. Yeah, probably,

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which in some situations is possibly needed with some people.

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Perhaps putting a bit of weight on is a good thing,

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but it wouldn't be a good thing for me, I

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don't need extra weight. Of all the things I need,

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that's not at the top of the list right now,

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and what else, Yes, So I s it. Really, I'm

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just waiting to see what happens, to find out what's

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happening with him. So at the moment, Uncle's Sausages is

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still in hospital, he's I realize this is going to

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sound weird, Like most things I say probably sound weird,

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but I kind of realized what it is about him

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that kind of grabs me a little bit emotionally. And

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I noticed this. I noticed this before, long before he

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was unwell, but I kind of ignored it. But what

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it is, he's got the same smile as my name.

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His eyes have the same smiley eyes as my name had.

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It's a weird, weird thing. I know they say smiling

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Irish eyes, smiling and that, but technically Scottish. But he's

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got the same kind of eyes as my name. It's

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it's weird as my name had. So maybe that's what

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it is. I kind of just when I see it

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looks at me the way my name used to look

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at me. You know, that look was sort of like,

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please leave me alone?

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Who are you?

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How did you get into my house. You know that

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that look stop eating all my biscuits. Right, So that's

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an update on there. I did a Q and A Friday,

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and I don't know if you realize, if you've listened

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to it or not, it was four four and a

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half hours long. The longest, Yeah, the longest recording I've

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ever done, I think, as in it was the whole

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episode was I think four nineteen minutes, nothing else added,

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just me doing the Q and A Friday. If that's

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a long recording, very much so this will not be that.

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This will be a standard standard length recording. Oh, I

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think my I just did some laundry, did some laundry. No, yesterday,

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I did some laundry, all my T shirts and my

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shirts and because I just kind of ran out because

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I didn't go in on Sunday, so I did them

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on Sundays. I did my laundry. I've done my tracksuit

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bombs because I've got seven pairs and underwear. I've done

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that now. So it's from the sound of it, it's done.

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But it's weird because I'm sure I only only put

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it on about an hour ago. It normally takes longer

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than an hour to finish up, but maybe not. Maybe

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it was longer. Maybe yeah, ah, because I think it's

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eight o'clock now and I put it on about quarter

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past six, so that, well, I guess that would make

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sense to finished now. So I hang them up when

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I've done this, and that will pretty much be all

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the lawn we've done now. And I told Uncle Sausages

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that I was gonna to get some like start washing

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some of his stuff because he's got some clothes that

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have been in the closet for I don't know how long.

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So what I do is I sought through it and

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maybe wash it and just so it's there so when

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he comes back he can just choose to, you know,

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wear what he wants and it will be clean. So

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that's that's another thing I'll do. If we do that

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last though, I'll leave that to the last last thing

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to do. Yeah. Yeah, he's got a brand new kitchen

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and they got a brand new bathroom that he hasn't

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even seen yet, and he saw part of it because

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they were in the middle of doing it. I think

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they just finished the the first week. YE had the

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first week of doing the bathroom because they started on

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Tuesday and the Fridays when he went into hospital, and

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then he came back the next week doing stuff and

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they might have yeah, so they finished it last week.

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He didn't get to see the finished result. And he

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had a brand new kitchen done about two months ago,

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three months ago, and he's got new windows coming as

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well in the next few months. So it's h hmm,

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you need to get rid of that wallpaper. I'm not

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going to, but it's the wall papers. I think the

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war paper is there before he moved in, because I

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think back in them days they didn't because when I

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moved in there, everything was bare. You know, there's nothing

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in the walls. It was just white walls, no carpet,

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no furniture, which I think is standard anyway. But I

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think when he moved in, there was war paper already

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there and they just left the wallpaper as it was.

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And he's lived here for thirty years. I'm just thinking,

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imagine if that's me in twenty five years, and I've

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got a neighbor coming into my flat looking for my stuff.

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I mean, I'm not looking for his stuff, but I

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had to look for something because he asked me to

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look for something. Put my money in there, because he

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asked me, I don't go into people's homes without him

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actually wanted me to do it. And I told him

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anytime I goes in, I goes in there, anytime I

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go in now and tell him and why. And he

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wanted me to look for some money because he had

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forty pounds in cash it wanted me to get for him.

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And it was in a I don't know where it

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was I found. I did find it in the end,

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but I can hear the washing machine. It's doing the

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old tumble bit, you know, the like that is that

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the draining, draining the water out, something like that. I

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don't know, summit simula. Raining today was raining, proper raining.

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So I got a taxi there because it was raining.

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I just didn't want to get wet. But I got

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two buses back. So I got the busses back because

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I thought, now this is just getting this is weird, Okay,

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this is this is just interrupted myself. Then the cost

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of a taxi to the hospital from where I live

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and back again. You know, So each journey either there

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or the journey back is around seventeen pound. At the weekend,

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it was more. It's a Saturday, seventeen sixty and the

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other person wanted eighteen pound forty or something, so it

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varies on a Saturday. But I've just been given them

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twenty pounds, you know, with a tip, twenty pound. And

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I've done that with every single taxi driver up till today.

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But today's taxi driver didn't want it. He wouldn't take

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it because I was paying on a card and he said, no,

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it's seventeen pound and he wouldn't take a tip. He wasn't.

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He was like really friendly taxi driver, but he said

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he didn't want it. He didn't. It's like, wow, okay,

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that was surprising because I've just automatically just said just

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take twenty pounds because just I don't know, it just

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seems the right thing to do. I'm not even going

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to work out how much. Oh Christine, just a big

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thank you to Christine for your PayPal gift. Thank you,

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thank you very much. I did send a message to you.

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Thank you.

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Well.

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Oh you know again. A taxi towards the hospital went

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round a corner from where I lived, and the taxi

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slowed down, and this pigeon was in the middle of

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the road, just standing there looking at us. Had attitude. Honestly,

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just like walked very slowly to the curb. Nothing wrong

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with it. It was just really like driver around me.

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Who do you think you are? I always here first?

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This is my manner, real, real attitude on it. This pigeon, Yeah,

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it's like King of the Pigeons or something. Yeah, all right,

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I should do Monday's boring objects. I've only been talking

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for half an hour. I should get on with it, really, shouldn't.

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I you what have I not talked about?

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Though?

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Because I've done so many of these? Is there some

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object that I've not talked about that maybe I could

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talk about. I'm going to talk about karate. I know

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I've talked about martial arts and different things I've done,

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but I want to talk about you, and we'll talk

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about karate specifically the karate I did when I was

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at school and how I ended up doing it and

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so I didn't do it for long, only a few

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years or cup to and a half years or something.

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But yeah, I'll go through that. Let's do that, because

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I've never really I don't think I ever well, I

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probably have, but I don't recall going in depth into

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the karate situation, but saying that I probably have. But

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I'll do it again anyway. It will be different this time,

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I'll be better. It will be different. This time, it

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will work out. Okay, I've looked for my mistakes, so

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I don't actually remember which particlarly year it was, but

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I'm guessing I was probably thirty. Yeah, thirty would be

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probably the age where I because I was in the

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Secredets from eleven to for about it's about twelve and

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a half in fact, before I was eleven, and then

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I left there because I didn't like it. I started

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doing karate. So basically what happened is I was at

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school with my friend Stephan, and he was just saying, Oh,

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I'm going to go tonight. I'm going to go and

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see the karate because his brother had started doing karate

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and loved it so and because his brother was so

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excited I think as Paul his name was. Because his

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brother was so excited and enthusiastic in that, Stephan became

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a little bit interested because it was his younger brother

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that was doing it, like a year younger pretty much,

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So he said I'm going to go. Because it was

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in a different high school to the one that we

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were going to, there was two high schools in that town.

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There was nothing about high school those kind of sports

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or anything. I don't think, unless, of course there was.

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I don't think there was. There might have been no.

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I think that they might have had judo there. I

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kind of wish i'd done judo as well, but hey,

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so it was on different nights of the week because karate.

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He was a Tuesday Thursday, and I think they had

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judo on Monday and Wednesday. So I said to Stephan, Oi, Stephan,

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can I come along. All he was going to do

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is go there and just watch the evening. So his

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brother was already there. We rolled up. Unless we went

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I might have got a lift. I don't even know.

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I might got a lift with him with his family

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and got dropped off there. Or I might have walked

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up there with him and his brother. I really am

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not sure. Or I might just rolled up on my

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own and him and his brother was already there. It's

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a little bit, but he did say it's okay for

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me to come along. I don't technically I could do

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what I wanted, but you know, it just seems a

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nice thing to do, just to say, you don't mind

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if I hang along, Because I didn't. The thing is right,

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I wanted to do karate when I was a young kid,

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when I was younger, when I was like, I asked

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my dad and he said no, basically, and this is

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when I was twelve eleven. He said no. There was

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no ifs or buts like no. I don't know why,

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because he did judo when he was at school, so

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I don't know why he didn't want me to do

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martial arts. Anyway, at thirteen, I just did it. I

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didn't ask him. I just went along and he so.

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My friend Stephen was there. I still kind of remember it.

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We sat on these long do you know those long

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benches they're having gym gymnasiums. There are long seats like wooden,

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and maybe people sit on them when they're watching other

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people performing or whatever, doing football or whatever. I don't know,

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and sometimes you use them to jump over and stuff.

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I kind of can I know what I'm imagining in

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my head. I just don't know what the correct term

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is for them. Just benches probably probably they call them benches.

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And they were all stacked up on the well as

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you go into the door of the of the gym,

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because it was at the big gym in the school.

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As you go into the doorway, on the left hand

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side was all the benches and the rest of the room,

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big old room was used for the karate So me

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and Stephane were sitting on this on the benches, watching

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But I didn't even know whose brother was. I don't

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think I've ever met him before, even though I'd been

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to school with Stefann right from junior school. So I'd

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spent two years at junior school and then well was

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it what year would it be, two thousand and no,

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two thousand, Well, nineteen eighty No, nineteen seventy nine. So

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from nineteen seventy nine to nineteen eighty six I was

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at school with Stefan, so I knew him that whole time,

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and I would say I was pretty good friends. We

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never hung out outside of school, but we always got

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on really well in school. It's just one of those things.

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So anyway, I went along with him. He was one

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of the toughest kids in the school in the year. Well,

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in fact, probably I was best friends. I was good

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friends with two of the toughest kids, Carl and Stephan.

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They just happened to be I wasn't friends with him

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for that reason. They just one I was one I

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was friends with because he was also in the I

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guess they used to call it the dancers class, which

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was wrong. They shouldn't have done that. But we were

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taken out. Anyone that was disruptive or didn't do what

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they were supposed to do, or showed no sign of

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intelligence in my case, was taken out of the normal

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classes and put into this special room with toys and stuff,

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and we could just do whatever we wanted for a

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few hours. And we did do whatever we wanted. I mean,

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it's probably fair to say that we were going to

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do whatever we wanted anyway, but we got free reign

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to do that. And it was a probably about out

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of the whole year, yeah, because I did it by year.

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Didn't have anyone in other years in now I don't

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think so there's probably there might have been other people

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from other years, but this is in the first year.

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I think it only happened in the first year. So

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we had probably about I'm trying to remember the people,

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me her eight, at least eight people that I could remember.

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There may have been, so there's there's me. There was

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a pretty about eight maybe more of us three girls

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and five boys, one two, I don't know, maybe four boys.

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So there's about eight, maybe a little bit more. And

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so I got to know these people separately from the

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rest of the year and because they were the well

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I say they, but they kind of were the most

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the biggest trouble makers. Technically they're all okay actually, but

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they because they didn't go along with what they were

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supposed to go along with. Spose they were classes the

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rough kids and but they weren't really they were tough,

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but they were just just kids just like me. And

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so I was in that group. So I got to

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know that I kind of became part of that group.

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It's the only group I really became part of. But

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that was just for the first year. And after that

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we all kind of separated, but still, you know, knew

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each other and I knew them, and some of them

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had known from junior school. Anyway, anyway, what was my

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point mentioning that? Oh, yeah, just there was a point too,

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I can't remember. So I went to anyway, Stephan I

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went to this to the Crier Club. It was either

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Tuesday or or a Thursday evening, and I think it

474
00:38:04.440 --> 00:38:10.320
was seven till nine, I think, or it might have

475
00:38:10.360 --> 00:38:16.920
been seven thirty till nine. I don't recall if it

476
00:38:16.960 --> 00:38:22.519
was summer or winter, or spring or autumn. I don't know.

477
00:38:25.480 --> 00:38:28.320
It wouldn't have been summer because they closed during the summer.

478
00:38:28.639 --> 00:38:33.400
When the school was closed, no karate, which meant we

479
00:38:33.440 --> 00:38:37.159
would train in a park. We'd all meet up and

480
00:38:37.239 --> 00:38:45.920
train in the park and stuff. And also half term

481
00:38:45.920 --> 00:38:47.880
it was always nice to have a break, you know,

482
00:38:49.159 --> 00:38:56.360
have a bit of a break from it all. Yeah,

483
00:38:56.400 --> 00:39:04.199
so I was there. What was weird is, first of all,

484
00:39:04.199 --> 00:39:07.679
I was impressed. I mean, I suppose it's obvious cause

485
00:39:07.719 --> 00:39:12.039
I I went back, but I was really impressed at

486
00:39:12.039 --> 00:39:15.280
what I saw. But I also found it funny because

487
00:39:17.159 --> 00:39:22.519
there was a really tough kid there who was the

488
00:39:22.599 --> 00:39:26.199
toughest kid in the year below us. But he was

489
00:39:26.480 --> 00:39:28.280
known for every everyone was kind of.

490
00:39:31.599 --> 00:39:32.440
He he was.

491
00:39:33.280 --> 00:39:36.320
It was like a little Mike Tyson. That's before Mike

492
00:39:36.360 --> 00:39:41.599
Tyson was even famous, you know, So he was he

493
00:39:41.639 --> 00:39:43.760
was doing that. It was basically a little bit of

494
00:39:43.760 --> 00:39:51.880
a terror. And so this would be in probably the

495
00:39:51.880 --> 00:39:56.039
third year school, so I'd known him for a couple

496
00:39:56.039 --> 00:40:04.559
of years or whatever, and he was there and he

497
00:40:04.639 --> 00:40:07.800
looked silly because he was just starting out, so he

498
00:40:07.840 --> 00:40:10.280
didn't know what he was doing. So I so used

499
00:40:10.280 --> 00:40:15.719
to him walking around flexing his muscles and trying to

500
00:40:15.760 --> 00:40:22.920
be a bully boy. And I saw him and he

501
00:40:22.960 --> 00:40:27.000
couldn't even punch properly in karate. I knew he could

502
00:40:27.000 --> 00:40:29.519
punch properly because I'd seen him, but he was more

503
00:40:29.519 --> 00:40:31.599
of a boxer. But the fact he was doing that,

504
00:40:31.639 --> 00:40:36.440
and I just it was quite amusing. And there's no

505
00:40:36.480 --> 00:40:38.199
reason why he would be any good because he was

506
00:40:38.280 --> 00:40:41.400
just starting, and no one's any good when they just

507
00:40:41.440 --> 00:40:45.679
start unless they've done it before. But it was quite

508
00:40:45.920 --> 00:40:49.119
I don't know, just I found it. It tickled me

509
00:40:49.159 --> 00:40:54.639
a little bit. I didn't tell him because because I'm

510
00:40:54.639 --> 00:41:02.079
not silly anyway, he didn't look at it, but he

511
00:41:02.199 --> 00:41:08.000
went along. He was best friends with Stephan's brother, who

512
00:41:08.079 --> 00:41:12.920
was also one of the tough kids. The thing is

513
00:41:12.960 --> 00:41:16.159
with Stephan and his brother, they were tough, but they

514
00:41:16.159 --> 00:41:23.239
didn't act tough. They were almost like adults around kids,

515
00:41:24.199 --> 00:41:29.039
you know. They just didn't take any rubbish. And they

516
00:41:28.840 --> 00:41:34.280
they were very physically mature. They were literally like physically

517
00:41:34.320 --> 00:41:39.320
adults before most of the other kids were. And they

518
00:41:39.360 --> 00:41:47.840
were both be glad and they had. Their mentality was

519
00:41:47.880 --> 00:41:52.679
also quite adult as well, so they weren't really like kids.

520
00:41:52.760 --> 00:41:55.679
He was never Stephan was never like a kid really.

521
00:41:56.360 --> 00:41:59.199
He was also really always had his head on his shoulders,

522
00:42:00.079 --> 00:42:02.840
was very mature. We used to have a good old laugh.

523
00:42:04.159 --> 00:42:08.800
But at the same time he was very intelligent, as

524
00:42:08.840 --> 00:42:12.559
his brother was as well. They sort of they knew

525
00:42:12.559 --> 00:42:17.760
what they wanted to do. And yeah, I remember one once.

526
00:42:17.920 --> 00:42:24.039
I was in the school yard and the year below,

527
00:42:25.760 --> 00:42:29.719
so not the year below me, but the year below him.

528
00:42:29.840 --> 00:42:33.079
So two years below this kid who was the toughest

529
00:42:33.119 --> 00:42:35.599
kid in that year and also one of the toughest

530
00:42:35.679 --> 00:42:38.480
kids in the school, they gained another big one and

531
00:42:38.519 --> 00:42:41.679
grew bigger than everyone else in that he jumped on

532
00:42:41.800 --> 00:42:46.599
me and pinned me to the ground. To the ground.

533
00:42:48.000 --> 00:42:51.639
Now this is where me and Stephan's brother and Stephane,

534
00:42:51.639 --> 00:42:55.119
we were doing karate at this point. Stephane had left,

535
00:42:55.800 --> 00:42:58.760
so I got to know his brother really well from

536
00:42:58.760 --> 00:43:03.880
the karate. So this this lad jumped on me and

537
00:43:04.000 --> 00:43:05.039
pinned my arms down.

538
00:43:05.639 --> 00:43:06.079
And like.

539
00:43:09.960 --> 00:43:13.039
I probably didn't weigh more than eight stone at the time,

540
00:43:13.400 --> 00:43:22.000
if that, he probably weighed about twelve thirteen stone. Probably

541
00:43:22.239 --> 00:43:27.159
he was a big big, strong lad. Yeah, at least

542
00:43:27.159 --> 00:43:33.440
twelve stone, at least four stone heavy than me. And

543
00:43:33.480 --> 00:43:35.599
I didn't know what to do. I mean I could

544
00:43:36.480 --> 00:43:38.000
like cause I was in shock because I didn't know

545
00:43:38.000 --> 00:43:40.559
who was going to do it. None had ever done

546
00:43:40.639 --> 00:43:45.079
that to me before, I don't think, not recently anyway,

547
00:43:45.159 --> 00:43:52.079
And I'm like, oh, and then out of the corner

548
00:43:52.079 --> 00:43:54.039
of my eye, well, actually I was gonna say, I

549
00:43:54.079 --> 00:43:55.760
heard out the corner of my eye, you can't hear

550
00:43:56.360 --> 00:43:58.360
how if you like, can you not even the corner

551
00:44:00.199 --> 00:44:04.079
his voice? And it was Stephan's brother that I was

552
00:44:04.079 --> 00:44:07.440
at great with. He just shouted out, get off him.

553
00:44:07.519 --> 00:44:07.840
Now.

554
00:44:08.639 --> 00:44:13.480
He did, just stood up, sorry and ran off. And

555
00:44:13.599 --> 00:44:16.000
that was the toughest kid in the whole of his year.

556
00:44:18.199 --> 00:44:21.960
But as soon as Paul said get off him, he did.

557
00:44:24.039 --> 00:44:27.880
It was weird, It's like, and both of them were

558
00:44:27.920 --> 00:44:33.639
younger than me, but I was like a little kid.

559
00:44:34.480 --> 00:44:41.039
I was so underdeveloped in a sense. When I left

560
00:44:41.039 --> 00:44:45.360
school at fifteen, I was eight and a half stone.

561
00:44:46.119 --> 00:44:48.840
I don't know what that is in pounds or kilos,

562
00:44:49.800 --> 00:44:53.320
but I do know what it is roughly in kilos,

563
00:44:53.639 --> 00:45:00.440
it's about fifty kilos ish. Sixteen stone is around one

564
00:45:00.559 --> 00:45:05.119
hundred kilos ish, so I was around like, I don't know,

565
00:45:05.320 --> 00:45:13.559
forty eight kilos, maybe fifty kilos, which burning mind. Technically

566
00:45:13.599 --> 00:45:16.079
I was an adult and I was probably the same

567
00:45:16.159 --> 00:45:23.559
weight when I was sixteen seventeen. I might got I

568
00:45:23.559 --> 00:45:26.519
think I went up to about nine stone when I

569
00:45:26.559 --> 00:45:30.159
was about eighteen, like, you know, so I was very light,

570
00:45:31.519 --> 00:45:39.119
like really really super slim, but naturally didn't matter. Whatever

571
00:45:39.239 --> 00:45:43.559
I ate didn't make a difference. I just was slim,

572
00:45:43.800 --> 00:45:48.679
you know, just the way it was. And I looked

573
00:45:48.760 --> 00:45:53.280
nothing like my dad physically, because my dad's strong, broad,

574
00:45:53.920 --> 00:46:02.159
big bloke always was. But then in older age, once

575
00:46:02.199 --> 00:46:08.039
I hit thirty, I kind of almost grew into my father,

576
00:46:09.719 --> 00:46:12.920
and now I got the same and shape body as him.

577
00:46:13.920 --> 00:46:16.519
It's weird, isn't it. I don't quite show how. It's

578
00:46:16.559 --> 00:46:20.239
like it was always there. I just didn't like the

579
00:46:20.320 --> 00:46:23.800
bones were there, but there was no there was no fat.

580
00:46:23.880 --> 00:46:26.280
I didn't have any fat on me at all when

581
00:46:26.280 --> 00:46:29.679
I was in my twenties, which is probably a good thing.

582
00:46:29.880 --> 00:46:36.320
You know. My BMI was probably like minus zero fat.

583
00:46:38.679 --> 00:46:52.280
And then thirty yeah, well that's a whole new ball game. Yeah, anyway,

584
00:46:52.480 --> 00:46:54.719
so that was weird. So so I went to it.

585
00:46:54.800 --> 00:46:57.280
So I went there the very first night of karate.

586
00:46:58.760 --> 00:47:00.440
I fell in love with the place. I fell in

587
00:47:00.519 --> 00:47:06.519
love with everything about it. Bearing in mind I've loved

588
00:47:06.559 --> 00:47:12.320
martial arts since I was a little kid, from age

589
00:47:12.320 --> 00:47:18.400
of seven, having that picture of Bruce Lee on my

590
00:47:18.559 --> 00:47:21.519
wall in my little room, my very first room I

591
00:47:21.559 --> 00:47:24.559
ever had of my own, and a picture of Bruce

592
00:47:24.599 --> 00:47:30.920
Lee from Met a Dragon. From that, you know, from

593
00:47:30.920 --> 00:47:34.039
that moment on, I had to discover who he was.

594
00:47:34.079 --> 00:47:41.079
And I loved martial arts and kung fu the TV

595
00:47:41.199 --> 00:47:45.400
show was on. I mean, that was probably the closest

596
00:47:45.400 --> 00:47:47.800
thing I really got to see martial arts at that time,

597
00:47:49.360 --> 00:47:51.840
and there was very little kung fu in it, but

598
00:47:51.840 --> 00:47:54.840
when it was in it, it was the most exciting

599
00:47:54.840 --> 00:48:01.840
thing in the world. I loved it, absolutely loved it.

600
00:48:02.000 --> 00:48:07.599
So I kind of just you know this, this is

601
00:48:07.679 --> 00:48:13.920
like I'm home. I'm home, baby. But at the same time,

602
00:48:14.079 --> 00:48:20.079
I was nervous because it's new. But I was less

603
00:48:20.159 --> 00:48:25.519
nervous because I was with Stephan and he was joining

604
00:48:25.559 --> 00:48:28.880
with me, so I was kind of okay with that

605
00:48:28.920 --> 00:48:31.920
because I wasn't on my own. So we both went

606
00:48:32.000 --> 00:48:35.000
back the next even if it was if it was

607
00:48:35.000 --> 00:48:37.599
a Tuesday that we went, then we both went back

608
00:48:37.639 --> 00:48:41.719
on a Thursday night. If it was a Thursday night

609
00:48:41.760 --> 00:48:44.119
that we went to watch that, we both went back

610
00:48:44.360 --> 00:48:49.800
on the following Tuesday night. And we just had some

611
00:48:49.880 --> 00:48:53.840
tracksuit bottombs and a T shirt because I don't give you.

612
00:48:53.840 --> 00:48:57.840
You don't get a gee straight away kind of see

613
00:48:57.880 --> 00:48:59.480
how you get on and if you do like it,

614
00:48:59.519 --> 00:49:03.360
then you pay. We paid Paul was his name, the

615
00:49:05.039 --> 00:49:12.840
sense at the teacher. He got the gey's then it

616
00:49:12.880 --> 00:49:15.960
costs like twenty quid or fifteen creed or twelve cred

617
00:49:16.000 --> 00:49:18.920
I don't know how much it was back then. And

618
00:49:19.199 --> 00:49:22.760
there'd be a white belt and a gee which was

619
00:49:22.960 --> 00:49:27.280
a white like white trousers and a white top made

620
00:49:27.320 --> 00:49:32.719
of flannel kind of material. I think it might not

621
00:49:32.760 --> 00:49:37.239
be flannel, but it was white. And I do actually,

622
00:49:38.599 --> 00:49:42.400
I do have a picture of myself in my g

623
00:49:42.719 --> 00:49:50.559
my karate costume from when I was fourteen. It's in

624
00:49:50.679 --> 00:49:58.960
a photograph album that by my dad and stepmom put

625
00:49:59.000 --> 00:50:03.440
together few years back just before just yeah, about two

626
00:50:03.480 --> 00:50:09.920
thousand and twenty two, and there's a picture of me.

627
00:50:10.360 --> 00:50:14.679
I might have even have my nunchucks on me possibly. Wow.

628
00:50:15.840 --> 00:50:23.840
So it's strange. There's also a picture of me in

629
00:50:23.840 --> 00:50:27.840
my CI Caredet costume as well, So that's the kind

630
00:50:27.840 --> 00:50:33.000
of I think my dad was. He liked me being

631
00:50:33.000 --> 00:50:39.000
in the Ciccredets. I don't think he was interested in

632
00:50:39.000 --> 00:50:42.719
me being in karate. It didn't really suit what he

633
00:50:42.800 --> 00:50:45.760
wanted for me. I don't. I don't quite know why. Actually,

634
00:50:46.519 --> 00:50:49.280
even as an adult, when I told him I've started

635
00:50:49.480 --> 00:50:56.800
doing kung fu or boxing or what did I do?

636
00:50:58.519 --> 00:51:06.480
I kind of remember what I've done? What did I do?

637
00:51:08.360 --> 00:51:10.000
Another thing I did? Like it's got out of my

638
00:51:10.039 --> 00:51:12.679
head now, but I've done a few different martial arts

639
00:51:12.719 --> 00:51:15.159
and stuff, and every time I told him, he's like, oh,

640
00:51:15.199 --> 00:51:17.800
what are you doing that for? Can't you find something

641
00:51:17.800 --> 00:51:22.000
else a bit less violent? Like it's not violent, it's

642
00:51:23.880 --> 00:51:29.280
it's just fun kicking and punching is it's a sport.

643
00:51:29.320 --> 00:51:34.320
It's just controlled And although I can't do it anymore.

644
00:51:34.360 --> 00:51:37.800
I can't do the kicking taekwon do. That's what I

645
00:51:37.800 --> 00:51:40.960
was trying to think of. That's the last thing I did.

646
00:51:41.199 --> 00:51:43.559
Or I did try and give jiu jitsu a go.

647
00:51:44.599 --> 00:51:49.480
I just don't have the bending capacity to do that anymore.

648
00:51:51.119 --> 00:51:56.880
It's yeah, it's just not physically up my road anymore, unfortunately.

649
00:51:59.239 --> 00:52:02.119
But I still know a few little moves that I

650
00:52:02.119 --> 00:52:06.719
can do if needed. So I think, if anything, i'd

651
00:52:06.760 --> 00:52:08.599
like to if I was going to go back to

652
00:52:08.639 --> 00:52:15.960
something boxing. The problem is because of my age. It's

653
00:52:16.000 --> 00:52:18.880
not a problem for me because I know I can.

654
00:52:19.320 --> 00:52:28.119
I can't do all like the super exercisey bit cardiovascular.

655
00:52:28.719 --> 00:52:31.280
I could do some of it, but you know, that's

656
00:52:31.280 --> 00:52:33.880
something I kind of have to be careful with. Just

657
00:52:33.920 --> 00:52:38.119
take it easy, take it slowly. But punching a bag

658
00:52:38.880 --> 00:52:42.320
or punching someone with their holding the midst up and

659
00:52:42.360 --> 00:52:48.239
punching the pads and stuff is something that would be fun.

660
00:52:49.519 --> 00:52:54.280
But unfortunately, when I went to the the amateur boxing

661
00:52:54.320 --> 00:52:57.039
club in about two thousand and nine, when I was

662
00:52:57.079 --> 00:53:00.920
at university, I went along to the local AID, which

663
00:53:00.960 --> 00:53:06.880
is the Amateur Boxing Association. They let me go. I

664
00:53:06.920 --> 00:53:12.000
was pretty much the oldest person there. I was pretty

665
00:53:12.039 --> 00:53:15.119
much one of the only adults there, so that wasn't

666
00:53:15.159 --> 00:53:17.400
I didn't like that. Actually, I wanted to be around,

667
00:53:19.920 --> 00:53:22.840
not bothered that there was kids there, but I'd rather

668
00:53:22.960 --> 00:53:28.679
have adults around me just because I just don't look

669
00:53:28.719 --> 00:53:34.000
so silly, you know, because if you've got adults doing

670
00:53:34.119 --> 00:53:37.400
martial arts, you don't have people watching, you don't have

671
00:53:37.519 --> 00:53:43.079
families watching. But because there's so many kids there, a

672
00:53:43.079 --> 00:53:45.840
lot of their parents were sitting in the sidelines watching,

673
00:53:46.119 --> 00:53:49.480
and I'm sure they were laughing at me. If they weren't,

674
00:53:49.519 --> 00:53:53.039
they should have been, because I'd have a T shirt

675
00:53:53.079 --> 00:53:58.840
on and within about five minutes it would be soaked through.

676
00:54:00.639 --> 00:54:02.840
I lost a bit away of doing it. I did

677
00:54:02.840 --> 00:54:09.519
put on some muscle in that, but I just absolutely soaked.

678
00:54:08.599 --> 00:54:14.239
And but I enjoyed it. But I kept injuring myself

679
00:54:16.199 --> 00:54:19.559
they wouldn't let me spa That's the thing that kind

680
00:54:19.599 --> 00:54:22.039
of annoyed me a little bit. And I understand, of

681
00:54:22.119 --> 00:54:24.559
course I'm not going to spire a little kid, but

682
00:54:25.639 --> 00:54:27.920
a lot of those kids, especially some of them were

683
00:54:28.199 --> 00:54:31.800
as big as I was were tall Wise, anyway, they

684
00:54:31.800 --> 00:54:33.599
would have just boxed my head off. I wouldn't have

685
00:54:33.639 --> 00:54:37.360
stood a chance because they would have just out boxed me.

686
00:54:37.519 --> 00:54:42.880
I wouldn't be able to catch them. But even though

687
00:54:43.119 --> 00:54:47.639
because I was too old, I wasn't allowed legally for

688
00:54:47.760 --> 00:54:52.199
them to be sparring, and I'd been okay just to

689
00:54:52.239 --> 00:54:56.840
stand there and not do anything, just move around the

690
00:54:56.920 --> 00:54:59.679
ring and block the punches if I could, and not

691
00:54:59.719 --> 00:55:03.679
throw any punches, just to be a target almost that

692
00:55:03.679 --> 00:55:06.960
would have been fun for me. But they didn't even

693
00:55:07.000 --> 00:55:10.320
do that. And that's quite a good opportunity, isn't it,

694
00:55:10.360 --> 00:55:14.199
to have someone running jumping around. Because there was some

695
00:55:14.280 --> 00:55:17.159
lads there that were much bigger than me, like six

696
00:55:17.320 --> 00:55:25.519
six two six three on five eight, so you know, technically,

697
00:55:25.880 --> 00:55:29.280
and they had something with young sort of late teens

698
00:55:29.320 --> 00:55:34.880
that were you know, really well adults really, so I

699
00:55:34.920 --> 00:55:37.719
could have happily just got in the ring with them

700
00:55:37.719 --> 00:55:41.119
and danced around a little bit and tried to avoid

701
00:55:41.119 --> 00:55:43.880
them punch at me. I don't I'm not saying I

702
00:55:43.920 --> 00:55:46.440
wanted to be a punch bag, but it would have

703
00:55:46.480 --> 00:55:54.679
been a bit of fun, I don't know, just stuff.

704
00:55:54.960 --> 00:56:00.760
But they wouldn't wouldn't let me, And that's really I mean.

705
00:56:03.239 --> 00:56:07.079
I think if anyone goes to boxing, anyone starts boxing,

706
00:56:07.679 --> 00:56:10.719
I think they're probably telling FIBs if they say that

707
00:56:10.800 --> 00:56:12.639
they don't care whether or not they get to spa.

708
00:56:15.639 --> 00:56:18.639
I think most people that go to boxing want to spa.

709
00:56:19.159 --> 00:56:21.920
It's kind of the point of the whole thing is

710
00:56:25.280 --> 00:56:28.559
being able to put it into action in a safe environment,

711
00:56:33.400 --> 00:56:37.559
and I didn't get a chance. Mind you, I did

712
00:56:37.599 --> 00:56:39.840
do boxing when I was at school for I think

713
00:56:39.840 --> 00:56:45.159
I went once or twice, and they didn't have any rules.

714
00:56:45.440 --> 00:56:49.119
There was like few sit ups, few press ups, go

715
00:56:49.239 --> 00:56:51.840
on the punch bag, and then start sparring with each other.

716
00:56:52.840 --> 00:56:55.079
And I ended up with this. Bearing in mind, I

717
00:56:55.119 --> 00:56:58.400
was like quite a little. I ended up with someone

718
00:56:58.400 --> 00:57:05.039
that was probably I could six six six two and

719
00:57:05.519 --> 00:57:10.239
twice twice my height and twice my weight rather and

720
00:57:10.320 --> 00:57:12.920
it just kept punching me in the head like I

721
00:57:12.960 --> 00:57:17.960
couldn't like, can you just stop punching me, please, which,

722
00:57:18.000 --> 00:57:20.199
of course you can't really say when it comes down

723
00:57:20.239 --> 00:57:23.719
to boxing, please stop that. Could you just stop give

724
00:57:23.760 --> 00:57:26.480
me a chance let me punch you, because it wouldn't

725
00:57:27.960 --> 00:57:32.639
so it can't put me off a little bit. Why

726
00:57:32.679 --> 00:57:36.559
did you stop doing boxing? It kept punching me, Yeah,

727
00:57:36.639 --> 00:57:43.719
pretty much. So. I can't remember the first time I

728
00:57:43.800 --> 00:57:50.159
went to karate as in the first lesson, but I

729
00:57:50.199 --> 00:57:54.880
know that I went every single Tuesday and Thursday. I

730
00:57:54.920 --> 00:58:00.119
had a pay per round. I think I had an

731
00:58:00.119 --> 00:58:03.519
early morning paper under this point, so that's what paid

732
00:58:03.840 --> 00:58:14.199
for the karate and a few things. A few standout

733
00:58:14.639 --> 00:58:19.840
moments of going to that create club during those years.

734
00:58:20.400 --> 00:58:25.960
The first thing is every single grading I attended, I

735
00:58:26.079 --> 00:58:31.400
got a first class pass. That isn't the highest you

736
00:58:31.480 --> 00:58:36.239
can skip a grade. That's what Stephan's brother because we

737
00:58:36.320 --> 00:58:42.000
both had our first Yeah, we both had our first

738
00:58:42.039 --> 00:58:44.599
grade in at the same time because he had literally

739
00:58:44.599 --> 00:58:49.880
just started I think the week before I did, and

740
00:58:49.920 --> 00:58:52.719
he skipped right away through to the next belt because

741
00:58:52.719 --> 00:58:56.039
he was so good straight away. But I did get

742
00:58:56.039 --> 00:59:01.440
a first class pass, so that suff's okay. The weird

743
00:59:01.480 --> 00:59:03.360
thing about it though, because we did I did I

744
00:59:03.400 --> 00:59:10.639
think two possibly three contests competitions, and I didn't win.

745
00:59:10.920 --> 00:59:13.719
I didn't I didn't win any awards or any prizes,

746
00:59:15.320 --> 00:59:21.440
but I did win a couple of fights. The like

747
00:59:21.559 --> 00:59:27.519
Stephan's brother, he was bearing in mind, he was yeah,

748
00:59:28.599 --> 00:59:32.480
he was fourteen. He was younger than me, so thirteen,

749
00:59:32.639 --> 00:59:37.280
let's say it's thirteen years old. They put him in

750
00:59:37.320 --> 00:59:43.840
with another thirteen year old. The size difference was ridiculous,

751
00:59:46.519 --> 00:59:53.079
and the other kid just started crying, and there was

752
00:59:53.360 --> 00:59:58.440
a lot of cafore before kafore, whatever about it? Parents? Same,

753
00:59:58.519 --> 01:00:00.599
what have you put my kid in with a adult for?

754
01:00:01.519 --> 01:00:03.559
And all this stuff and I said, he's not an adult.

755
01:00:03.599 --> 01:00:08.519
It's thirteen. He can't be thirteen. He's bigger than me.

756
01:00:09.800 --> 01:00:14.880
And there was all that, but he was thirteen. I

757
01:00:14.920 --> 01:00:18.599
think it's a little They should have weight categories. They

758
01:00:18.599 --> 01:00:22.039
were just doing it by age. But with adults they

759
01:00:22.119 --> 01:00:24.280
do it by weight. With the kids, they were just

760
01:00:24.280 --> 01:00:27.400
doing it by age. That was a little bit didn't

761
01:00:27.440 --> 01:00:32.719
really seem very fair to put someone who probably weighed well,

762
01:00:34.719 --> 01:00:38.000
this thirteen year old he probably it was about my

763
01:00:38.119 --> 01:00:41.239
size because I was about the size of a thirteen

764
01:00:41.320 --> 01:00:45.280
year old, so it's about my size. So it's a

765
01:00:45.280 --> 01:00:49.159
lot littler than this other kid who was probably at

766
01:00:49.199 --> 01:00:52.199
that time twelve stone if not more.

767
01:00:54.920 --> 01:00:54.960
So.

768
01:00:55.199 --> 01:00:59.679
Yeah, he won, he won his category, but there was

769
01:00:59.679 --> 01:01:08.119
a lot of a lot of neshing of teeth. He

770
01:01:08.199 --> 01:01:14.599
won the trophy. He was naturally good. He just he

771
01:01:14.679 --> 01:01:20.840
took to it so quickly. It was yeah, it's very

772
01:01:20.960 --> 01:01:26.880
very good. Stephan. He stayed for a while and then

773
01:01:26.880 --> 01:01:30.519
he stopped going. I never really he just I don't

774
01:01:30.519 --> 01:01:32.760
think he didn't want to do it anymore. He'd lost interest,

775
01:01:34.119 --> 01:01:36.079
which is you know, I was still friends with him.

776
01:01:36.079 --> 01:01:39.000
I just but I liked it when he was coming

777
01:01:39.079 --> 01:01:42.639
because during break times. We were practiced doing karate with

778
01:01:42.679 --> 01:01:45.880
each other going down the hallway, and a good thing

779
01:01:45.920 --> 01:01:48.440
about it is if I had done that, if anyone else,

780
01:01:49.199 --> 01:01:51.400
I could have had other lads coming up to me

781
01:01:51.440 --> 01:01:53.760
and give me a hard time. Because I was doing

782
01:01:53.920 --> 01:01:56.119
the toughest kid in one of the toughest kids in

783
01:01:56.159 --> 01:01:59.000
the school, and the toughest kid in the year. No

784
01:01:59.039 --> 01:02:02.039
one gave us a hard time, so it was quite cool.

785
01:02:02.159 --> 01:02:05.920
So we were like kicking each other and blocking and running

786
01:02:05.960 --> 01:02:09.760
around and it was brilliant. And then he stopped. He

787
01:02:09.840 --> 01:02:14.320
stopped going. It's not about being me embarrassing him or something.

788
01:02:14.400 --> 01:02:19.960
I don't know, so but you know, we're still friends.

789
01:02:19.960 --> 01:02:22.480
It's just he didn't want to go anymore. So I

790
01:02:22.599 --> 01:02:29.000
continued because I loved karate. It was my life. Within

791
01:02:29.039 --> 01:02:35.199
a week, it was my entire life. There was nothing

792
01:02:36.440 --> 01:02:40.760
more important than karate to me in the entire world.

793
01:02:41.880 --> 01:02:46.039
Everything else was just in the background, a bit of

794
01:02:46.039 --> 01:02:55.239
a blur. And it was my new special interest above

795
01:02:55.280 --> 01:03:05.519
everything else. My previous special interest was I was very

796
01:03:05.679 --> 01:03:08.280
very into This is going to sound a bit weird,

797
01:03:08.480 --> 01:03:12.800
bear in the mind, I was like eleven. I didn't

798
01:03:12.840 --> 01:03:15.920
I never liked the see Caredets. I just went there

799
01:03:17.320 --> 01:03:20.440
when I was ten, because I was there before I

800
01:03:20.320 --> 01:03:22.119
was I wasn't even old enough to be there, but

801
01:03:22.159 --> 01:03:24.440
they let me go along because there was only a

802
01:03:24.480 --> 01:03:30.400
couple of months before my eleventh birthday, and I just

803
01:03:30.400 --> 01:03:32.760
didn't want to go home. I just wanted to go

804
01:03:32.920 --> 01:03:36.440
somewhere else. So me and my friend went there and

805
01:03:36.440 --> 01:03:40.639
we joined up, and it was just nice to I

806
01:03:40.679 --> 01:03:46.440
was never really particularly good at fitting in, and I

807
01:03:46.480 --> 01:03:51.639
think when you join a group, even if you don't

808
01:03:51.679 --> 01:03:54.880
fit in, you are still part of the group, So

809
01:03:54.920 --> 01:03:57.679
you might be like an odd ball in the group,

810
01:03:57.800 --> 01:03:59.400
or may they say me. I taught it to myself.

811
01:04:00.079 --> 01:04:04.320
I was an odd ball in the Cycadets, but I

812
01:04:04.400 --> 01:04:11.280
was still one of them. I still wore the Ciccuet uniform. Yeah,

813
01:04:11.280 --> 01:04:17.320
that motorbike is in the garden just behind us. Way

814
01:04:17.360 --> 01:04:21.119
too late. Was it nearly nine o'clock? It's quarter past nine,

815
01:04:22.360 --> 01:04:26.960
a motorbike. I never used to be this mooning, you know,

816
01:04:27.320 --> 01:04:33.800
I didn't, So I think that's part of the reason.

817
01:04:34.039 --> 01:04:36.239
Another reason I kind of I didn't like it, but

818
01:04:36.360 --> 01:04:40.440
I felt a part of something when I was in

819
01:04:40.480 --> 01:04:42.719
the cy Cadets, as I did want to join the

820
01:04:42.800 --> 01:04:50.559
karate club. I preferred the karate club membership side of

821
01:04:50.599 --> 01:04:55.159
it because I was around adults as well as kids,

822
01:04:56.159 --> 01:04:59.199
and I respected all of the adults well, apart from

823
01:04:59.239 --> 01:05:02.840
one who he wasn't he was an adult. He was

824
01:05:02.840 --> 01:05:08.800
probably eighteen, but he was. He was a bit of

825
01:05:08.840 --> 01:05:12.960
a div really, that's a nice word for him. He

826
01:05:13.079 --> 01:05:15.239
used to try and bully me when we were sparring.

827
01:05:15.920 --> 01:05:19.000
He kicked me and he was good six foot five,

828
01:05:19.880 --> 01:05:24.119
like really tall, and he was a brown belt, so

829
01:05:24.199 --> 01:05:25.719
he got his black belt as well, so he was

830
01:05:25.840 --> 01:05:29.559
very really good at what he did. He was one

831
01:05:29.559 --> 01:05:32.480
of the top karate people in there. But for some

832
01:05:32.519 --> 01:05:38.599
reason he enjoyed kicking me over on the floor, and

833
01:05:38.800 --> 01:05:40.159
I got a bit fed up with it, so I

834
01:05:40.280 --> 01:05:46.599
just I started hurting him. What do you mean you

835
01:05:46.719 --> 01:05:50.360
hurt him? I mean he was so big. So the

836
01:05:50.400 --> 01:05:53.280
good thing about it is I could punch him in

837
01:05:53.320 --> 01:05:58.159
the stomach and accidentally miss his stomach and he'd be

838
01:05:58.239 --> 01:06:01.559
on the floor. So I did that a few times,

839
01:06:02.239 --> 01:06:06.119
or i'd hurt his leg and he started to kind

840
01:06:06.119 --> 01:06:08.800
of back down a little bit with me. He didn't

841
01:06:08.840 --> 01:06:12.880
sort of take so many liberties, as it were, but

842
01:06:12.920 --> 01:06:15.199
he seemed to really enjoy just tripping me up and

843
01:06:15.320 --> 01:06:18.039
kicking me over, and no one else did that. It

844
01:06:18.079 --> 01:06:21.039
was the only person who did it. Everyone else treated

845
01:06:21.079 --> 01:06:29.239
me with respect, including the adults. They always liked the instructor.

846
01:06:30.159 --> 01:06:33.960
He seemed to really like me, and it pushed me,

847
01:06:34.079 --> 01:06:37.440
but it would never ever hurt me. Let's face it,

848
01:06:37.760 --> 01:06:40.480
he could in a second have hurt me, but he didn't.

849
01:06:42.679 --> 01:06:46.000
And that's I respected that because that's kind of what

850
01:06:46.039 --> 01:06:48.679
I think the other lad should have done because he

851
01:06:48.719 --> 01:06:52.679
was an adult compared to me. It was eighteen, so

852
01:06:52.679 --> 01:06:54.639
to take my key, I suppose he was an adult.

853
01:06:55.480 --> 01:06:58.639
He was in sixth form college, I think, or maybe

854
01:06:58.719 --> 01:07:01.400
left left his left six form college. I don't know,

855
01:07:04.480 --> 01:07:07.199
but he was just yeah, but I don't think he

856
01:07:07.280 --> 01:07:10.639
did it with anyone else. I don't know. Maybe he

857
01:07:10.719 --> 01:07:15.199
fancied me, I don't know, who knows. Maybe was his way,

858
01:07:15.239 --> 01:07:19.800
he's a way of flirting. But yeah, that's a few

859
01:07:19.800 --> 01:07:23.440
low punches and that kind of sort of down. I'd

860
01:07:23.400 --> 01:07:31.599
say a few, quite a few. Oh I did it again. Sorry, hmm.

861
01:07:34.599 --> 01:07:43.559
I a few stand up moments. Nice memories would be

862
01:07:44.679 --> 01:07:50.159
when one of the older men, I say older, it

863
01:07:50.239 --> 01:07:52.679
was old to me, probably in his twenties, to be fair,

864
01:07:53.760 --> 01:07:59.199
it's probably yeah, twenties. Yeah, in his twenties. I thought

865
01:07:59.199 --> 01:08:05.719
he was like old, maybe he was late twenties. He

866
01:08:05.800 --> 01:08:11.519
was getting married, and he asked me and another of

867
01:08:11.559 --> 01:08:14.719
the young ones like me to go to his wedding

868
01:08:17.039 --> 01:08:22.199
in our geese of course, you know, karate uniforms, and

869
01:08:22.439 --> 01:08:26.560
stand as they walked out of the church after getting married.

870
01:08:28.159 --> 01:08:36.199
We were standing outside. They had a cameraman filming or yeah,

871
01:08:36.479 --> 01:08:41.039
or taking pictures or whatever. As the newly married couple

872
01:08:41.319 --> 01:08:44.960
came out, and me and another lad were holding the

873
01:08:45.079 --> 01:08:50.520
swords above basically at the entrance or the exit of

874
01:08:50.560 --> 01:08:54.239
the church, just high enough so they could just walk through.

875
01:08:54.279 --> 01:09:00.399
Of course, And I've had it funny for if I

876
01:09:00.479 --> 01:09:03.960
slip cut his head off, that would be funny. It

877
01:09:04.000 --> 01:09:08.079
won't go down very well. But it didn't happen, clearly,

878
01:09:08.159 --> 01:09:10.960
otherwise I probably wouldn't. My whole life would have been

879
01:09:11.000 --> 01:09:17.319
different with it. But how amazing. I'd love to see

880
01:09:17.319 --> 01:09:20.239
that picture. I never got to see the picture unless

881
01:09:20.239 --> 01:09:21.920
I did, and I forgot and I got to see it.

882
01:09:24.960 --> 01:09:30.640
How cool is that? Got to just be a How

883
01:09:30.640 --> 01:09:34.640
many people get married and walk out to two people

884
01:09:34.680 --> 01:09:37.720
holding swords. I mean, I suppose the royal family do.

885
01:09:37.880 --> 01:09:44.840
But yeah, it was really cool and it was just

886
01:09:44.920 --> 01:09:48.920
really it was also cool that he asked me and

887
01:09:49.119 --> 01:09:54.800
the other lad I forget who it was, but just

888
01:09:54.880 --> 01:09:57.159
like out of all of us, I got to do

889
01:09:57.199 --> 01:10:04.279
it so cool. Honestly, was brilliant, and I think I

890
01:10:04.399 --> 01:10:07.720
used to go up to the cry contests with him,

891
01:10:07.960 --> 01:10:09.600
so I suppose you got to know me a little bit.

892
01:10:11.479 --> 01:10:18.199
What else I used to love the sparring. Apart from

893
01:10:18.239 --> 01:10:22.319
with that, you know, the big lanky, six foot nine

894
01:10:24.359 --> 01:10:29.279
bully boy, I didn't enjoy that, but everyone else I

895
01:10:29.359 --> 01:10:32.920
enjoyed sparring with It was fun. I loved the spirring.

896
01:10:33.079 --> 01:10:36.359
That was kind of the whole point really is to

897
01:10:36.439 --> 01:10:39.479
practice what you're learning, is practice the block in and

898
01:10:39.520 --> 01:10:42.880
the kicking and a punch in, the sweeping and all

899
01:10:42.880 --> 01:10:53.319
that stuff. And we sparred every single time. So half

900
01:10:53.359 --> 01:10:57.880
the night or half the evening was based on practicing drills,

901
01:10:57.960 --> 01:11:01.960
practicing not drills as in not that kind of drill,

902
01:11:02.800 --> 01:11:07.479
and practicing in the form, practicing kicks, punches, stuff like that.

903
01:11:08.319 --> 01:11:12.680
And then the next part of the evening was spiring.

904
01:11:12.720 --> 01:11:15.960
So would all stand up in a line facing each other,

905
01:11:16.039 --> 01:11:18.199
so that if there was like there's twenty of us,

906
01:11:18.640 --> 01:11:23.359
there'd be one line of ten people all facing each other,

907
01:11:25.560 --> 01:11:28.039
and then they would spile with that person. We'd have

908
01:11:28.239 --> 01:11:33.000
pads on her hands, pads on her feet. I didn't

909
01:11:33.000 --> 01:11:36.159
have any pads on the head, didn't have a gum

910
01:11:36.239 --> 01:11:38.720
shield or anything like that. Oh yeah, pads on the groin.

911
01:11:39.319 --> 01:11:41.760
I probably didn't really need it, but you know, I

912
01:11:41.800 --> 01:11:46.239
had it anyway. And if you get a good old punch,

913
01:11:46.359 --> 01:11:51.880
it doesn't stop it, as I found out when I

914
01:11:51.920 --> 01:11:58.840
did the Punch Days, and it was so much fun,

915
01:12:00.600 --> 01:12:03.720
just punching and kicking each other. It was great. And

916
01:12:03.760 --> 01:12:06.279
the thing is I could hardly reach anyone's head anyway,

917
01:12:06.279 --> 01:12:09.760
because everyone everyone was taller than me, apart from those

918
01:12:09.800 --> 01:12:13.760
that weren't.

919
01:12:11.079 --> 01:12:11.159
And.

920
01:12:13.079 --> 01:12:18.880
They generally were a fair bit younger because I started, Yeah,

921
01:12:18.880 --> 01:12:23.880
I think you could start twelve in the Create Club.

922
01:12:23.920 --> 01:12:27.880
That was their limit, that was their oldest was twelve.

923
01:12:31.119 --> 01:12:34.399
So I remember the spar and that was great, which

924
01:12:34.399 --> 01:12:37.319
brings me on to my next thing. Of the most

925
01:12:38.039 --> 01:12:44.760
I actually changed the Create Club, and I'm never going

926
01:12:44.840 --> 01:12:47.600
to be remembered for it, that's the funny thing about it.

927
01:12:47.680 --> 01:12:53.159
But I changed the direction of that club because my

928
01:12:53.239 --> 01:13:04.960
little brother was Burr would be eighty five, so he

929
01:13:05.000 --> 01:13:11.960
would have been seven. My little brother was interested in

930
01:13:12.000 --> 01:13:16.119
doing karate, and I kept asking if he could come along,

931
01:13:16.560 --> 01:13:21.720
and Paul, the instructor, said, no, not till he's twelve.

932
01:13:22.720 --> 01:13:25.800
Can't do it. Won't do it, can't do it, won't

933
01:13:25.840 --> 01:13:29.920
do it. And then I said to him one night,

934
01:13:29.920 --> 01:13:34.319
I said, well, why don't we do a separate one,

935
01:13:34.640 --> 01:13:41.000
like on a Saturday, like a completely separate thing. You

936
01:13:41.000 --> 01:13:42.800
can have, you know, come in on a Saturday and

937
01:13:42.840 --> 01:13:46.439
have like an extra spiring session for the adults, but

938
01:13:48.119 --> 01:13:52.000
I have allow some kids to come along under the

939
01:13:52.039 --> 01:13:55.880
age of twelve. Yeah, you can have a limit, maybe

940
01:13:55.560 --> 01:14:02.840
no one under five or something. And eventually I was

941
01:14:04.279 --> 01:14:07.079
I'm not saying I was hasslingmit every day. I wasn't

942
01:14:07.119 --> 01:14:09.560
phoning them up in the middle of the night. It's

943
01:14:09.640 --> 01:14:15.279
me again. Please come my little brother, hat come on, please,

944
01:14:16.560 --> 01:14:20.680
just the kids please. So eventually he gave up and

945
01:14:20.720 --> 01:14:27.840
he said, okay, we'll try it. So, I mean, he

946
01:14:27.960 --> 01:14:31.439
gave up his own time to come in, and I

947
01:14:31.439 --> 01:14:35.119
don't know if they even charge the kids. So we

948
01:14:35.239 --> 01:14:44.359
came in on a Saturday, and he got me to

949
01:14:44.439 --> 01:14:49.960
teach the kids because it was just basically teaching them

950
01:14:49.960 --> 01:14:53.600
a little bit disciplined to line up, how to kick,

951
01:14:53.760 --> 01:14:58.199
how to punch, how none of it was like hard stuff.

952
01:14:58.239 --> 01:15:01.560
It's very basic stuff. So he got me to teach

953
01:15:01.600 --> 01:15:10.039
them and it went from there. So that's where it started.

954
01:15:10.600 --> 01:15:14.960
And then they progressed to doing it on having like

955
01:15:15.039 --> 01:15:18.199
a separate group on a Tuesday and Thursday night at

956
01:15:18.239 --> 01:15:22.159
the back of the of the gym, so they wouldn't

957
01:15:22.199 --> 01:15:24.600
be part of the main thing, but they'd be doing

958
01:15:24.640 --> 01:15:28.680
they'd be taught by me, and then when I left,

959
01:15:29.159 --> 01:15:35.960
someone else taught. And so it went from that doing

960
01:15:35.960 --> 01:15:40.319
it every Saturday morning to them do it then including

961
01:15:40.359 --> 01:15:45.560
it on a Tuesday and a Thursday evening, and that

962
01:15:45.840 --> 01:15:52.279
was blood how many block how many years ago? Is

963
01:15:52.319 --> 01:16:00.640
that forty years ago? And the amount of blot belts

964
01:16:02.920 --> 01:16:04.880
that have come out of those kids. They still do

965
01:16:04.920 --> 01:16:08.880
it now. I've still got little kids train them. Not

966
01:16:08.920 --> 01:16:12.039
to say not the same little kids, but they've still

967
01:16:12.079 --> 01:16:18.720
got little kids training. So that was my idea and

968
01:16:18.760 --> 01:16:20.680
it might be the greatest thing I've ever done in

969
01:16:20.680 --> 01:16:25.439
my life, which is kind of sad maybe, but it

970
01:16:25.520 --> 01:16:28.319
was my idea because I wanted my little brother to

971
01:16:28.439 --> 01:16:32.279
come along and do cry and because I've already taught

972
01:16:32.319 --> 01:16:36.359
him some kary, which came in handy because it's a

973
01:16:36.359 --> 01:16:39.760
little local. Bully started on him, and he sorted the

974
01:16:39.760 --> 01:16:44.640
bully out and it set him up for the rest

975
01:16:44.640 --> 01:16:47.760
of his school because he had confidence that he knew

976
01:16:47.760 --> 01:16:51.199
that he could deal with, you know, situations like that.

977
01:16:54.680 --> 01:16:59.880
And it was my little brother lost interest. He went

978
01:17:00.039 --> 01:17:04.000
for probably two months, three months. I don't know how long.

979
01:17:04.279 --> 01:17:07.039
He got his first grade in I know that, so

980
01:17:07.159 --> 01:17:09.000
he must have been there for at least three months

981
01:17:09.640 --> 01:17:13.960
because the gradings were every three months, so he got

982
01:17:14.000 --> 01:17:18.720
his yellow belt. It might have been there six months,

983
01:17:18.720 --> 01:17:23.760
but then he left. He lost interest, but they kept

984
01:17:23.760 --> 01:17:27.720
the thing going because by then they had more kids joining.

985
01:17:28.520 --> 01:17:32.520
It started off. I think I kind of got some

986
01:17:32.560 --> 01:17:35.880
of the neighbors' kids to come along, and it started

987
01:17:35.880 --> 01:17:40.479
off with maybe three kids, and then it grew to five,

988
01:17:40.800 --> 01:17:43.800
and then there was seven, and there was ten, and

989
01:17:45.760 --> 01:17:50.680
ten's all you need, really, it's a good number. And

990
01:17:50.720 --> 01:17:53.439
then it grew and it just continued from nineteen eighty

991
01:17:53.479 --> 01:18:03.960
five to today. So tomorrow Moorday evening, Tuesday evening pretty

992
01:18:04.000 --> 01:18:09.720
much guaranteed that someone will walk into that gym, a

993
01:18:09.840 --> 01:18:16.520
kid maybe ten years old, for example, nine years old.

994
01:18:16.880 --> 01:18:20.159
We'll walk in there for the first time with their

995
01:18:20.239 --> 01:18:26.239
parents or older brother or sister or whatever, and we'll,

996
01:18:26.399 --> 01:18:31.760
you know, learn to start kicking and punching for the

997
01:18:31.800 --> 01:18:35.720
first time, and by the time they leave school, there'll

998
01:18:35.760 --> 01:18:42.399
be a black belt. And that's all thanks to me.

999
01:18:43.600 --> 01:18:48.039
I'm responsible for the success of every single black belt ever. No,

1000
01:18:48.119 --> 01:18:51.159
that's not what I'm saying. But it was quite a

1001
01:18:51.279 --> 01:18:56.319
nice a nice memory, quite a nice thing, that a

1002
01:18:56.439 --> 01:19:03.479
positive thing that I'd probably created because it was it

1003
01:19:03.520 --> 01:19:09.359
wasn't allowed, not allowed, not allowed. But in the end

1004
01:19:09.359 --> 01:19:11.239
he gave up and he said okay, because I kept

1005
01:19:11.279 --> 01:19:16.039
going on about it, and he clearly must the instructor

1006
01:19:16.119 --> 01:19:20.159
must have liked me because he didn't tell me to

1007
01:19:20.199 --> 01:19:22.560
stop hassling him, or he might have done, actually, but

1008
01:19:22.600 --> 01:19:28.199
I just didn't give up. I was quite insistent because

1009
01:19:28.199 --> 01:19:31.840
I wanted my little brother to go to I think,

1010
01:19:31.840 --> 01:19:33.960
if I'm honest, I probably didn't care about the other kids.

1011
01:19:34.039 --> 01:19:38.800
I was just focusing on my little brother. But because

1012
01:19:39.720 --> 01:19:41.439
there had to be other kids as well, I kind

1013
01:19:41.439 --> 01:19:44.159
of got a few other kids from the neighborhood to

1014
01:19:44.239 --> 01:19:47.000
go along because some of his friends probably it's thinking

1015
01:19:47.000 --> 01:19:49.399
about it, Yeah, I think it was. And maybe some

1016
01:19:49.479 --> 01:19:52.479
of the kids of the adults that were going there,

1017
01:19:53.760 --> 01:19:56.600
they brought them along just to kind of support that

1018
01:19:56.760 --> 01:20:07.720
new venture. Yeah groovy. So I'm not going to remember.

1019
01:20:07.920 --> 01:20:10.359
I won't be remembered for it. I bet you. Not

1020
01:20:10.399 --> 01:20:14.800
one person remembers me ever, not even Paul, who was

1021
01:20:14.880 --> 01:20:18.000
my hero, he was the instructor. He won't remember me.

1022
01:20:19.000 --> 01:20:21.520
I mean, last time I saw him was probably about

1023
01:20:21.560 --> 01:20:24.560
nineteen eighty seven, and he said, when you're coming back?

1024
01:20:25.199 --> 01:20:25.920
I said soon.

1025
01:20:26.800 --> 01:20:35.119
Never did, never went back. Yeah, that's weird. It's at

1026
01:20:35.159 --> 01:20:37.800
one of less school. I was working in the evenings

1027
01:20:39.239 --> 01:20:45.199
and I'd lost interest anyway. At that point in everything,

1028
01:20:45.319 --> 01:20:50.600
I had no interest in anything. So karate was gone. Everything.

1029
01:20:50.840 --> 01:20:54.840
I was just working in a chip shop and that's it.

1030
01:20:54.920 --> 01:20:57.319
That's what I did for two years. There was nothing

1031
01:20:57.319 --> 01:21:03.159
really else going on in my life and what else.

1032
01:21:03.239 --> 01:21:09.319
So with the karate, I have nice memories of getting

1033
01:21:09.359 --> 01:21:19.720
together equipment. So I had the so yeah, I got

1034
01:21:19.760 --> 01:21:23.119
some gym stuff, like you know, weights, and my dad

1035
01:21:23.199 --> 01:21:28.479
had this big studio thing at the bottom of the garden,

1036
01:21:29.239 --> 01:21:32.199
which was his office because he was self employed, so

1037
01:21:32.319 --> 01:21:36.560
his office but also kept his equipment in part of

1038
01:21:36.600 --> 01:21:39.279
it as well. And there was a toilet down there,

1039
01:21:39.279 --> 01:21:42.840
and I think it was this his safe space, probably

1040
01:21:43.479 --> 01:21:45.279
to be on his own, have a bit of quiet

1041
01:21:45.319 --> 01:21:49.239
piece and quiet from all of us. But what he did,

1042
01:21:49.319 --> 01:21:50.960
he did he took a bit of interest in what

1043
01:21:51.000 --> 01:21:54.880
I was doing because he he let me put my

1044
01:21:54.920 --> 01:21:58.159
weights down there. So I was buying. I was buying

1045
01:21:58.199 --> 01:22:00.439
weights bit by bits. I was buying a our bell

1046
01:22:00.600 --> 01:22:03.800
one week. Then I was buying the you know, the

1047
01:22:03.800 --> 01:22:06.119
weights to put on the bar bell. Then I got

1048
01:22:06.159 --> 01:22:08.720
a curl bar, put some weights for the curl bar,

1049
01:22:09.319 --> 01:22:12.520
got some dumb bells, little dumb bells set, and then

1050
01:22:12.520 --> 01:22:14.960
I got another dumb bell set, you know, to sort

1051
01:22:14.960 --> 01:22:22.119
of match it. And I can't think of any other

1052
01:22:22.199 --> 01:22:27.199
things weights wise I had. But I had like a

1053
01:22:27.239 --> 01:22:33.039
you know, a varied weight collection. And then I told

1054
01:22:33.039 --> 01:22:34.840
my dad that I wanted to get a punch bag.

1055
01:22:35.520 --> 01:22:40.720
So what he did is he found me a kit

1056
01:22:40.800 --> 01:22:47.079
bag and he filled it with sawdust. It's really heavy,

1057
01:22:49.199 --> 01:22:54.159
really heavy, and he attached it to the ceiling. And

1058
01:22:54.199 --> 01:22:57.720
then I got another punchbag which was already. I think

1059
01:22:57.760 --> 01:23:00.520
it was full of We put just cloth in it,

1060
01:23:00.560 --> 01:23:03.680
so I had a light bag and a really heavy bag.

1061
01:23:05.520 --> 01:23:10.439
I imagine the one full of swordusts is probably as heavy

1062
01:23:10.439 --> 01:23:15.880
as me nearly. Anyway, it was pretty sturdy stuff and

1063
01:23:15.960 --> 01:23:18.319
a kit bag. If you've don't know what that is,

1064
01:23:17.720 --> 01:23:21.920
it's the kind of thing that people in the forces

1065
01:23:22.000 --> 01:23:27.920
used to use, and it's a big, long thing and

1066
01:23:27.960 --> 01:23:30.600
they would just basically have all their belongings in it.

1067
01:23:32.479 --> 01:23:38.479
But it didn't have handles for some reason, or maybe

1068
01:23:38.520 --> 01:23:41.039
the handles had fallen off, but it was just like

1069
01:23:41.079 --> 01:23:45.680
a big punch bag. I'm thinking it might have belonged

1070
01:23:45.680 --> 01:23:47.920
to my granddad because he used to be a boxer,

1071
01:23:48.800 --> 01:23:54.239
and I think I might have had my granddad's boxing gloves,

1072
01:23:55.079 --> 01:23:57.920
but I did buy some boxing gloves as well, and

1073
01:23:57.960 --> 01:24:04.199
some bag gloves. But I also like to punch without

1074
01:24:04.239 --> 01:24:09.479
any gloves on as well, so yeah, so so my

1075
01:24:09.560 --> 01:24:12.239
dad helped me put all that stuff up, so that

1076
01:24:12.359 --> 01:24:19.159
was nice. I got all happy memories of practicing karate

1077
01:24:19.279 --> 01:24:23.439
in the guarden, say happy memories, but they're very vague memories.

1078
01:24:23.479 --> 01:24:25.920
But I do remember I used to practice my kicks

1079
01:24:25.960 --> 01:24:29.079
and my punches and my forms. That's when it's like

1080
01:24:29.479 --> 01:24:32.920
it's a sequence of different moves. Some people call it

1081
01:24:32.960 --> 01:24:37.119
the carter, some people call it form. But it's just

1082
01:24:37.159 --> 01:24:45.520
like practicing kicks and punches and blocks and stuff. And

1083
01:24:45.600 --> 01:24:51.880
in the evenings, I used to go and really really

1084
01:24:51.920 --> 01:24:55.800
go on that punchback proper, the heavy one. More than anything,

1085
01:24:59.159 --> 01:25:03.760
I loved it. I just really loved it. Especially if

1086
01:25:03.800 --> 01:25:05.880
one of my brothers was annoying me, I'd go down

1087
01:25:05.920 --> 01:25:12.199
the garden and just punch the punch, punch the bag

1088
01:25:12.279 --> 01:25:24.399
as it were. And yeah, it was useful, really useful. Yeah.

1089
01:25:24.520 --> 01:25:27.960
I like that punch bag, the one that was heavy

1090
01:25:28.279 --> 01:25:33.760
like that. The heavier the better, Like a big, big

1091
01:25:33.960 --> 01:25:38.560
heavy punch bag. That's kind of the perfect thing. You know,

1092
01:25:38.840 --> 01:25:42.319
something doesn't even move when you punch it. That's like perfect.

1093
01:25:43.760 --> 01:25:47.359
I don't want something to start moving and swaying around.

1094
01:25:48.119 --> 01:25:53.520
It's something really heavy, twenty stone or something that that'd

1095
01:25:53.560 --> 01:25:59.720
be nice, although my ceiling wouldn't take that. I do

1096
01:25:59.800 --> 01:26:02.960
have a punch bag in my bedroom. There's one that's

1097
01:26:02.960 --> 01:26:06.800
on a it's got like got a water base with water.

1098
01:26:06.840 --> 01:26:08.880
You can put concrete or sand in there, but I

1099
01:26:08.920 --> 01:26:12.319
just put water in so I can punch it. It

1100
01:26:12.319 --> 01:26:15.560
does move around, and then I just feel a little

1101
01:26:15.600 --> 01:26:21.920
bit self conscious that I'm gonna disrupt my neighbor downstairs

1102
01:26:22.239 --> 01:26:24.760
because they're going to hear it. How could they not

1103
01:26:24.840 --> 01:26:29.359
hear it? It's quite loud, you know what I mean.

1104
01:26:31.159 --> 01:26:43.399
So ooh, ooh, ooh ooh. Trying to think there's some

1105
01:26:43.520 --> 01:26:46.159
other Yeah, in the summers we used to well in

1106
01:26:46.680 --> 01:26:49.640
wasn't that many summers, was it. But I remember one

1107
01:26:49.680 --> 01:26:52.960
summer we met up in this park around the corner

1108
01:26:52.960 --> 01:26:56.399
from where I lived and would run around and then

1109
01:26:56.439 --> 01:27:01.319
we'd spar and stuff. It's brilliant. It wouldn't be something

1110
01:27:01.439 --> 01:27:04.760
I would do myself. I wouldn't go to a park

1111
01:27:04.800 --> 01:27:08.840
and start practicing karate. But when you've got a bunch

1112
01:27:08.880 --> 01:27:12.960
of black belts with you adults, it's kind of you

1113
01:27:13.119 --> 01:27:18.840
do what you want, really, So it was nice. I'm

1114
01:27:18.880 --> 01:27:23.840
trying to think other moments of the karate, getting my

1115
01:27:24.439 --> 01:27:27.479
getting my gradings was nice, getting my first class grade

1116
01:27:27.560 --> 01:27:32.119
ins and getting a new belt. That was always good,

1117
01:27:35.680 --> 01:27:40.279
feeling part of something that for the first time I

1118
01:27:40.439 --> 01:27:44.199
was quite good at. I'm not saying I was, but

1119
01:27:44.640 --> 01:27:47.199
for the okay, for the first time I felt I

1120
01:27:47.279 --> 01:27:54.319
wasn't really bad at something because previously that I'd been

1121
01:27:54.319 --> 01:28:03.239
in the cecredets, and it took me over two years

1122
01:28:05.239 --> 01:28:08.279
to get my first badge, and most people get it

1123
01:28:08.319 --> 01:28:14.239
within two or three months. And every Friday, where every

1124
01:28:14.239 --> 01:28:18.359
other Friday, they would read out who's got the next badge?

1125
01:28:19.119 --> 01:28:22.920
Sometimes people would get it in a month or six weeks,

1126
01:28:23.800 --> 01:28:30.039
and I got passed over every single time. It got

1127
01:28:30.039 --> 01:28:32.720
to the point where I was a laughing stock that'd

1128
01:28:32.760 --> 01:28:39.199
actually read out and not Newlan and it became a joke,

1129
01:28:39.319 --> 01:28:43.640
like a running joke that I didn't get promoted. I

1130
01:28:43.760 --> 01:28:46.479
was like at the lowest level for the whole time,

1131
01:28:46.520 --> 01:28:53.960
pretty much, and then one night they read my name

1132
01:28:53.960 --> 01:28:59.840
out and the whole place erupted because it was such

1133
01:28:59.840 --> 01:29:04.520
a build up over a long period of time, the

1134
01:29:04.560 --> 01:29:08.439
fact that I finally got my first was it junior

1135
01:29:08.600 --> 01:29:14.079
seaman or something. I forget the first badge, and I

1136
01:29:14.119 --> 01:29:16.520
think I got demoted the next week, but it still

1137
01:29:16.560 --> 01:29:19.640
had it for a little while. I was always getting

1138
01:29:19.640 --> 01:29:24.520
in trouble, always in trouble at school, in trouble at

1139
01:29:24.560 --> 01:29:28.000
the ciccredets, because I just didn't I wasn't good with

1140
01:29:29.239 --> 01:29:31.359
I wasn't a big fan of people telling me what

1141
01:29:31.479 --> 01:29:40.560
to do really, and it was weird. It's kind of

1142
01:29:40.600 --> 01:29:43.439
such a weird thing because my dad wouldn't let me

1143
01:29:43.560 --> 01:29:48.880
leave the Ciccredets because there was a point where I'm like,

1144
01:29:49.359 --> 01:29:52.199
when I first got there, I found it funny because

1145
01:29:52.239 --> 01:29:54.880
they'd be shouting at me. And I find it funny

1146
01:29:54.920 --> 01:29:58.800
because I knew that I could just walk out and

1147
01:29:58.840 --> 01:30:02.159
I didn't have to do it. You know, it is

1148
01:30:02.199 --> 01:30:02.800
a choice.

1149
01:30:03.439 --> 01:30:04.000
And then.

1150
01:30:05.439 --> 01:30:07.840
When I said I wanted to leave, I was told no,

1151
01:30:11.800 --> 01:30:17.119
and I got this some weird man adult shouting in

1152
01:30:17.159 --> 01:30:21.880
my face. I was like, okay, I can't. This is

1153
01:30:21.920 --> 01:30:28.000
not funny anymore. So, yeah, I left my first opportunity.

1154
01:30:28.039 --> 01:30:32.439
I got out of there, and there was a family,

1155
01:30:33.399 --> 01:30:37.800
a family thing, a little family adventure between the parents,

1156
01:30:38.600 --> 01:30:41.640
and that gave me the opportunity to get out of

1157
01:30:41.640 --> 01:30:47.720
the cecretets. And then I started doing karate, so yeah,

1158
01:30:47.920 --> 01:30:55.079
well loved karates so much. And I remember I had

1159
01:30:55.840 --> 01:30:57.800
oh yeah, I had also to really, I used to

1160
01:30:57.800 --> 01:31:00.720
buy stuff and I had the like the gym stuff,

1161
01:31:00.760 --> 01:31:05.359
the bags, punch bags, the weights, but I also had

1162
01:31:07.399 --> 01:31:11.239
martial arts weapons as well, because next to the way

1163
01:31:11.359 --> 01:31:13.720
to do my grade which was in the next town.

1164
01:31:14.479 --> 01:31:18.479
They had a martial arts shop next to the karate

1165
01:31:18.640 --> 01:31:23.720
center the club. Because our club was just in a gym,

1166
01:31:23.800 --> 01:31:29.359
they actually had a purpose built club, so I went

1167
01:31:29.399 --> 01:31:32.000
into the I used to go into the martial arts

1168
01:31:32.039 --> 01:31:40.880
shop and I'd buy Bruce Lee magazines, nunchucks, throwing stars,

1169
01:31:41.479 --> 01:31:44.159
stuff like that, or i'd buy them. I was gonna

1170
01:31:44.159 --> 01:31:47.000
say I'd buy them online, but obviously can't do that,

1171
01:31:47.279 --> 01:31:49.840
but I would there. Used to be like with the

1172
01:31:49.880 --> 01:31:54.119
martial arts magazines. I don't even remember what it's called,

1173
01:31:54.399 --> 01:31:59.000
probably Martial Arts Monthly or something, and you could order

1174
01:31:59.039 --> 01:32:03.159
stuff through the post. So that's what I would do

1175
01:32:04.319 --> 01:32:08.640
from these martial arts shops in London. So I had

1176
01:32:09.720 --> 01:32:14.119
so I've got some nunchucks. I might have had two

1177
01:32:14.119 --> 01:32:17.319
pairs of nunchucks. I also had a plastic pair of nunchucks,

1178
01:32:17.720 --> 01:32:23.199
which is good for practicing multiple throwing stars, which I

1179
01:32:23.279 --> 01:32:26.399
used to play with in the garden, which is weird

1180
01:32:26.399 --> 01:32:28.560
because probably not a good idea to let a kid

1181
01:32:28.560 --> 01:32:34.279
play with throwing stars. And what else did I have?

1182
01:32:40.239 --> 01:32:43.359
I think it was mainly books. So I had books

1183
01:32:43.399 --> 01:32:47.600
on different kung fu styles, teaching different kung fu moves

1184
01:32:47.680 --> 01:32:53.039
and I used to practice all that stuff and exercise

1185
01:32:53.159 --> 01:32:58.319
books martial art exercises to help strengthen the body, and yeah,

1186
01:32:58.359 --> 01:33:02.199
I had lots of stuff like that to buy, and

1187
01:33:02.439 --> 01:33:09.680
the regular monthly weekly kung fu martial arts magazines Karate monthly.

1188
01:33:11.000 --> 01:33:14.760
I was also got into boxing as well. Kind of

1189
01:33:14.920 --> 01:33:17.760
a little bit later than that, but I started buying

1190
01:33:17.880 --> 01:33:23.560
ko which is a knockout monthly, I think, and it

1191
01:33:23.640 --> 01:33:26.319
kind of led me towards the fitness side of things.

1192
01:33:26.960 --> 01:33:31.159
I got into bodybuilding. Never worked with me because my

1193
01:33:31.199 --> 01:33:36.359
body would not build, but I got interested in it

1194
01:33:36.399 --> 01:33:39.199
and started to learn all that bodybuilding and die at

1195
01:33:39.960 --> 01:33:42.640
because I was into going to the gym because the

1196
01:33:42.680 --> 01:33:44.680
gym around the corners used to go there as well.

1197
01:33:45.359 --> 01:33:52.520
And the thing is, when I was fifteen, I had

1198
01:33:52.520 --> 01:33:55.000
a really good body, but no one knew I had

1199
01:33:55.000 --> 01:33:59.000
a good body because I was so little. That might

1200
01:33:59.039 --> 01:34:04.000
sound like a weird stay. I kind of looked it

1201
01:34:04.079 --> 01:34:10.640
was very muscular, but I was little. It's hard to

1202
01:34:10.720 --> 01:34:15.720
explain so because I'm obviously not explaining very well. When

1203
01:34:15.760 --> 01:34:19.720
I started working at a chip shop, I remember my

1204
01:34:19.720 --> 01:34:23.640
my boss laughing at me. I was fifteen, and I said,

1205
01:34:23.800 --> 01:34:26.520
I got muscles and he said. He started laughing. So

1206
01:34:27.479 --> 01:34:32.640
I pulled my top off, my sleeve up and showed them.

1207
01:34:32.720 --> 01:34:35.039
He's like, oh, wow, so I did. I had muscles.

1208
01:34:35.039 --> 01:34:38.399
I had biceps because I've been working out for a

1209
01:34:38.479 --> 01:34:41.439
couple of years. I'm not saying that they were big,

1210
01:34:41.560 --> 01:34:47.119
but they were fern, you know, fern muscles. Chest I

1211
01:34:47.159 --> 01:34:50.600
had six pack and all that stuff. I was just

1212
01:34:50.840 --> 01:34:56.800
one big, very sinewy muscle though, because I was so little,

1213
01:34:57.039 --> 01:35:04.800
so so light, and not particularly strong either. But no

1214
01:35:04.960 --> 01:35:08.720
foul on me at all. But I never used to

1215
01:35:08.720 --> 01:35:11.279
walk around the top off or anything because if I

1216
01:35:11.319 --> 01:35:14.439
had it done, people might have thought that I looked okay.

1217
01:35:16.520 --> 01:35:19.880
But I was embarrassed with how slim I was, so

1218
01:35:19.960 --> 01:35:30.680
I never did that. A strange one, really, h what

1219
01:35:30.800 --> 01:35:32.479
I say, I used to love doing I used to

1220
01:35:32.520 --> 01:35:37.439
love sort of avident magazines and the books. That's always

1221
01:35:37.439 --> 01:35:39.760
seems to be how I do things or I have

1222
01:35:39.880 --> 01:35:43.520
done things over the years. Want to get a special interest.

1223
01:35:44.000 --> 01:35:48.000
So before it used to be before karate, it was

1224
01:35:49.319 --> 01:35:59.399
it's really interested in like Werewes and vampires and that

1225
01:35:59.479 --> 01:36:02.840
kind of stuff. I just got really interested in. It

1226
01:36:02.880 --> 01:36:08.600
just became something that I was passionate about. And I'd

1227
01:36:08.600 --> 01:36:12.039
go to the library on my day on my days

1228
01:36:12.079 --> 01:36:15.279
off at the weekend on a Saturday, and I'd study

1229
01:36:15.840 --> 01:36:22.199
look through these big textbooks and encyclopedias and copy stuff down.

1230
01:36:22.319 --> 01:36:27.239
And I learned so much about it. There was no

1231
01:36:27.279 --> 01:36:31.079
reason for it other than I just became interested and

1232
01:36:31.119 --> 01:36:33.880
I learned more than I needed to about the subject,

1233
01:36:33.960 --> 01:36:39.600
and I started buying books about it, and I learned

1234
01:36:39.640 --> 01:36:42.039
quite a little bit, quite a lot about all that

1235
01:36:42.119 --> 01:36:42.560
whole thing.

1236
01:36:44.000 --> 01:36:44.520
And then.

1237
01:36:45.960 --> 01:36:52.159
Then I got obsessed with karate. Yeah, so that was

1238
01:36:52.199 --> 01:36:57.000
when I was about eleven twelve, sort of same time

1239
01:36:57.159 --> 01:37:01.920
possibly as the Secredets. But I had no interest in

1240
01:37:01.920 --> 01:37:06.079
the see Cadets, didn't even like it. I had to

1241
01:37:06.159 --> 01:37:14.439
laugh when I was there, but didn't enjoy being there really.

1242
01:37:15.079 --> 01:37:17.760
I had to start with it was a nice relief

1243
01:37:17.800 --> 01:37:21.279
and being at home, and then it became a chore.

1244
01:37:24.199 --> 01:37:26.439
And then once I did karate, that was nice because

1245
01:37:26.439 --> 01:37:28.680
I was out of the house. I was also doing

1246
01:37:28.720 --> 01:37:32.920
something that I enjoyed, and for the first time my childhood,

1247
01:37:34.439 --> 01:37:37.640
I had something to look forward to, which was going

1248
01:37:37.640 --> 01:37:42.119
to karate, and that's all I talked about to anyone.

1249
01:37:43.359 --> 01:37:47.720
I didn't talk about anything else, just karate. Seriously, it

1250
01:37:48.279 --> 01:37:52.000
must have been really boring for people. I mean, you're

1251
01:37:52.039 --> 01:37:53.760
probably going to get an idea of how boring it

1252
01:37:53.800 --> 01:37:57.720
is because you just listen to me talking about it

1253
01:37:57.800 --> 01:38:07.720
for the last and a half. Also, I love the karate.

1254
01:38:09.159 --> 01:38:12.479
I'm just trying to think, is there any other aspects

1255
01:38:12.680 --> 01:38:16.640
of karate that I remember that stand out?

1256
01:38:19.520 --> 01:38:19.880
Hmmm?

1257
01:38:24.479 --> 01:38:39.319
So my little brother going no, oh, I'll tell you

1258
01:38:39.319 --> 01:38:43.520
what I did do is another one of the black

1259
01:38:43.560 --> 01:38:47.359
belts that like the young black belts in the Cry Club.

1260
01:38:48.119 --> 01:38:50.279
He left to start his own club on a Friday

1261
01:38:50.359 --> 01:38:59.000
night somewhere else, and I basically talked him into having

1262
01:38:59.119 --> 01:39:04.000
kids go straight way as well as adults. So I

1263
01:39:04.079 --> 01:39:06.319
got my little brother to go and he was seven,

1264
01:39:08.159 --> 01:39:12.159
so that whole his club started off with little kids

1265
01:39:12.159 --> 01:39:19.119
straight away and adults. I don't know if he I

1266
01:39:19.159 --> 01:39:22.760
don't think he continued in that town, but he might

1267
01:39:22.800 --> 01:39:25.520
have moved somewhere else and did it. But he was

1268
01:39:25.880 --> 01:39:29.720
It was a really cool He was a cool dude. Dude,

1269
01:39:30.000 --> 01:39:37.000
cool dude. He was about eighteen nineteen, and he was

1270
01:39:37.159 --> 01:39:41.600
just the kind of person that I'd want to be,

1271
01:39:41.840 --> 01:39:44.520
the kind of person I'd still want to be now

1272
01:39:44.640 --> 01:39:47.720
and never was, never could be, never will be. He

1273
01:39:47.960 --> 01:39:55.720
just almost like the perfect person. He had everything. I'd say,

1274
01:39:55.880 --> 01:39:59.520
obviously didn't have everything, but from the outside it looked

1275
01:39:59.560 --> 01:40:04.319
like he had everything. You know, he was or clearly

1276
01:40:04.439 --> 01:40:11.439
very tough. He was brilliant at karate. It was a

1277
01:40:11.479 --> 01:40:12.439
good looking bloke.

1278
01:40:13.439 --> 01:40:13.840
He was.

1279
01:40:16.560 --> 01:40:21.840
Person great personality, extremely confident. But it's hard not to

1280
01:40:21.880 --> 01:40:24.399
be confident. I think if you're a black belt when

1281
01:40:24.399 --> 01:40:27.600
you're a teenager, he's going to have confidence there and you.

1282
01:40:30.479 --> 01:40:34.920
So that's the one thing I would say to any

1283
01:40:35.319 --> 01:40:38.520
any parent that's got a kid, get him down to

1284
01:40:39.680 --> 01:40:45.720
some kind of martial arts because the confidence that comes

1285
01:40:45.720 --> 01:40:51.520
from it is pretty cool. And whether it's karate, judo,

1286
01:40:51.760 --> 01:40:57.680
jiu jitsu, whatever, it's just something so you know that

1287
01:40:57.720 --> 01:40:59.760
they can take care of themselves. But more than that,

1288
01:41:00.680 --> 01:41:03.640
it's people are confident quite often never ever need to

1289
01:41:03.760 --> 01:41:10.359
use it. The higher they get in the training, the

1290
01:41:10.439 --> 01:41:12.439
less chance they ever going to need to use it,

1291
01:41:12.479 --> 01:41:19.000
because it's almost like an aura comes often the confidence.

1292
01:41:19.159 --> 01:41:24.720
Maybe now I know people have done martial arts for

1293
01:41:24.800 --> 01:41:31.039
decades and never ever had to use it. Yeah, man,

1294
01:41:34.039 --> 01:41:42.840
what else? What else? What else? What else? Because I'm

1295
01:41:42.840 --> 01:41:45.199
only talking about karates I'm not talking about any of

1296
01:41:45.199 --> 01:41:47.720
the other martial arts I've done, so just about the

1297
01:41:47.760 --> 01:41:51.520
karate when I was at school. I'm trying to think

1298
01:41:51.560 --> 01:42:09.319
of anything else that happened they are in that environment. No,

1299
01:42:09.439 --> 01:42:17.199
I can't think of anything now. It's pretty much it. Yeah,

1300
01:42:18.399 --> 01:42:21.319
I mean I've got to I quite like getting to

1301
01:42:21.359 --> 01:42:27.720
know a few adults, because I tell you, Okay, one

1302
01:42:27.720 --> 01:42:30.439
of the things I liked about the Charate Club I

1303
01:42:30.560 --> 01:42:33.520
got to know some adults that I would generally I

1304
01:42:33.520 --> 01:42:36.359
didn't know any adults other than I suppose friends of

1305
01:42:36.439 --> 01:42:40.439
the family and teachers, and I didn't want to know them.

1306
01:42:40.520 --> 01:42:44.840
So I got to know a few adults I could

1307
01:42:44.840 --> 01:42:47.279
say he lo too. And I was getting to the

1308
01:42:47.319 --> 01:42:49.960
point of leaving school anyway, you know, I was fourteen,

1309
01:42:50.359 --> 01:43:01.199
left school at fifteen, and yeah, that was quite cool.

1310
01:43:01.279 --> 01:43:05.159
Kind of go around and had a neighbor and I

1311
01:43:05.199 --> 01:43:08.479
go around his and would train together sometimes because he

1312
01:43:08.600 --> 01:43:18.279
was also doing judo. And another good thing is I

1313
01:43:18.399 --> 01:43:23.880
made some new friends. And there was this rivalry between

1314
01:43:24.640 --> 01:43:30.720
the two high schools, and there was less rivalry for

1315
01:43:30.880 --> 01:43:36.800
me because everything I did from the age of eleven

1316
01:43:38.920 --> 01:43:44.399
to leaving school I did with people from the other

1317
01:43:44.479 --> 01:43:48.840
school as well, So in the sigadets, probably half of

1318
01:43:48.880 --> 01:43:51.000
the kids in the cigaudettes were from the other school

1319
01:43:51.640 --> 01:43:55.359
as well as my school, so I knew them. And

1320
01:43:55.399 --> 01:43:58.600
then when I did karate, the karate club was actually

1321
01:43:58.600 --> 01:44:01.760
at the other school, and so there was more kids

1322
01:44:01.800 --> 01:44:03.920
from that school than there was for my own school,

1323
01:44:05.039 --> 01:44:08.039
so I got to know them. So it was kind

1324
01:44:08.079 --> 01:44:11.279
of quite good because then that rivalry wasn't there for me.

1325
01:44:12.079 --> 01:44:15.399
I got to meet different people differ from both the schools,

1326
01:44:16.680 --> 01:44:20.119
and there wasn't so much of that like them and

1327
01:44:20.239 --> 01:44:25.600
us when it came to me. Yeah, I liked that.

1328
01:44:26.239 --> 01:44:30.920
It was nice. Yeah, I made a few friends I

1329
01:44:31.039 --> 01:44:34.359
used to hang out with. It was one friend I

1330
01:44:34.359 --> 01:44:38.960
thought he was a girl when he first started, and

1331
01:44:41.079 --> 01:44:44.680
there was a boy and his mum was also there,

1332
01:44:44.840 --> 01:44:47.720
and yeah, I just ended up hanging around with room

1333
01:44:47.760 --> 01:44:52.560
for a little bit. He was probably about a year

1334
01:44:52.640 --> 01:44:55.560
younger than me, I think, but his mum was really

1335
01:44:55.560 --> 01:44:58.680
cool and I'd go around and she'd give me dinner

1336
01:44:58.720 --> 01:45:08.319
and stuff. I'm trying to think what else. Yeah, I

1337
01:45:08.359 --> 01:45:11.119
didn't have any friends at my school they did karate

1338
01:45:11.760 --> 01:45:17.920
other than Stephen's brother, I think nearly everyone else that

1339
01:45:18.039 --> 01:45:20.079
went to karate with me was from the other school,

1340
01:45:20.920 --> 01:45:22.920
which is for some reason, I don't know why that was.

1341
01:45:24.640 --> 01:45:27.520
I suppose it's I guess if you've got karate in

1342
01:45:27.560 --> 01:45:34.479
your school, you'd more like to go there. But yeah, so,

1343
01:45:34.960 --> 01:45:43.800
I mean there was a couple, there was two three, three,

1344
01:45:44.239 --> 01:45:47.760
three and me, so there's about four of us were

1345
01:45:47.800 --> 01:45:53.199
actually from my school and everyone else was from the school.

1346
01:45:53.239 --> 01:45:56.439
It was in other than you know, the kids I've done,

1347
01:45:56.600 --> 01:46:06.600
rather than adults. So there was probably i'd say ten

1348
01:46:06.640 --> 01:46:16.359
percent adults, like adult adults, m maybe twenty percent adults,

1349
01:46:18.880 --> 01:46:24.199
so people in their twenties plus, and then maybe twenty

1350
01:46:24.239 --> 01:46:30.560
percent of older teens you're like maybe seventeen to twenty

1351
01:46:31.399 --> 01:46:41.239
kind of, and then maybe I don't know, I would

1352
01:46:41.239 --> 01:46:54.479
say the majority was hmmm, yeah, I'd say probably thirteen

1353
01:46:55.119 --> 01:47:00.159
or twelve. Thirteen to sixteen there seemed to be the

1354
01:47:00.199 --> 01:47:03.079
main age group, but there was a few older and

1355
01:47:03.159 --> 01:47:09.800
a few even older than that. When I started, and

1356
01:47:09.840 --> 01:47:13.479
then when I left, there was probably another ten percent

1357
01:47:15.319 --> 01:47:20.560
of under under eleven or on the other twelve whatever

1358
01:47:20.800 --> 01:47:25.920
the rest of you know. The former age limit was

1359
01:47:26.720 --> 01:47:33.640
until my pestering allowed open the gates for kids to

1360
01:47:33.680 --> 01:47:41.119
go along like really young kids, like my little brother. Yeah,

1361
01:47:41.560 --> 01:47:43.920
I never realized that that was the proudest moment in

1362
01:47:43.920 --> 01:47:48.840
my life until this moment. It's the only thing I've

1363
01:47:48.880 --> 01:47:59.199
done my whole life. I'll tell you. What's weird is

1364
01:47:59.479 --> 01:48:05.159
it's now starting to get dark. It's nearly ten o'clock.

1365
01:48:07.079 --> 01:48:14.600
It's nine fifty six, and it's dark inside, not like

1366
01:48:14.920 --> 01:48:20.520
dark dark as in like I can't see anything dark,

1367
01:48:22.000 --> 01:48:26.319
but it's still light outside. It's not light light so

1368
01:48:26.359 --> 01:48:30.000
you can see everything, but it's light enough to go

1369
01:48:30.119 --> 01:48:36.960
out and not need a torch. That makes sense. And

1370
01:48:37.079 --> 01:48:40.880
what's weird is this is now the time, even though

1371
01:48:40.920 --> 01:48:46.840
this is technically probably the peak of the summer, like

1372
01:48:47.000 --> 01:48:53.640
beginning of July. Well maybe June is, but you know, roughly,

1373
01:48:54.079 --> 01:48:57.760
this is kind of the peak time. Last week is

1374
01:48:57.880 --> 01:49:03.199
very hot, This coming week exposed be very hot. But

1375
01:49:03.359 --> 01:49:06.760
now we've already had the longest stay, so it's starting

1376
01:49:06.800 --> 01:49:14.880
to get darker earlier and get lighter later. That might

1377
01:49:14.920 --> 01:49:21.159
it's only maybe, I don't know, a few minutes a week,

1378
01:49:24.520 --> 01:49:29.520
but it's really weird how quickly it starts to get darker,

1379
01:49:29.800 --> 01:49:35.239
because in a month's time it'll be completely pitch black

1380
01:49:35.399 --> 01:49:45.800
by now at ten o'clock, and then in September it'll

1381
01:49:45.840 --> 01:49:53.840
be dark probably by eight o'clock, if not earlier, possibly

1382
01:49:53.880 --> 01:50:05.720
seven o'clock, and then by November. December is just dark

1383
01:50:05.760 --> 01:50:11.600
all the time. It feels like it sometimes like it never.

1384
01:50:12.199 --> 01:50:14.000
There are days when it just doesn't seem to get

1385
01:50:14.079 --> 01:50:18.640
much brighter than this how it is now. I mean,

1386
01:50:18.800 --> 01:50:22.520
it's this kind of light at three in the afternoon

1387
01:50:22.560 --> 01:50:31.600
sometimes in December, especially unlike a cloudy day. You know,

1388
01:50:31.600 --> 01:50:33.960
I have to have the light on and look outside.

1389
01:50:34.239 --> 01:50:40.000
It's just, yeah, weird dark at four in the afternoon.

1390
01:50:42.359 --> 01:50:43.159
In January.

1391
01:50:44.279 --> 01:50:47.439
So we're not there yet, but it's kind of weird

1392
01:50:47.600 --> 01:50:52.880
that this is the kind of the peak, the peak

1393
01:50:52.960 --> 01:50:57.920
of the summer. It's a bit windy today. Someone's put

1394
01:50:57.920 --> 01:51:02.159
a brick in front of the the gate that keeps

1395
01:51:02.319 --> 01:51:06.640
slamming shut, so I'm guessing someone's been a little bit

1396
01:51:06.840 --> 01:51:11.399
mildly annoyed by it. So that was a good idea.

1397
01:51:14.479 --> 01:51:19.000
I'm surprised someone hasn't moved it. There's always there's always

1398
01:51:19.079 --> 01:51:21.640
like one person wants one thing and then another person

1399
01:51:21.680 --> 01:51:25.359
wants another thing. So someone wants it left open, another

1400
01:51:25.399 --> 01:51:31.439
possus wants it left closed. It's like, just leave it be, man,

1401
01:51:32.560 --> 01:51:36.640
Just chill out, chill out, and just enjoy all the chocolate.

1402
01:51:37.239 --> 01:51:42.439
That's what my things to say. That's before the diveets.

1403
01:51:42.560 --> 01:51:48.560
But I can't think of any other things connected to

1404
01:51:49.000 --> 01:51:59.279
karate that I can talk about. I can't. Hmm, you

1405
01:51:59.439 --> 01:52:06.319
think that's something else, wouldn't you? What else? What else?

1406
01:52:06.479 --> 01:52:12.840
What else? What else? Karaday kardaate Old, the Karate Kid.

1407
01:52:14.279 --> 01:52:18.960
I remember watching that and there was I think it's

1408
01:52:19.000 --> 01:52:23.279
the first time I was in tune with what was

1409
01:52:23.359 --> 01:52:31.840
going on. Like the Karate Kid was so popular in

1410
01:52:31.880 --> 01:52:35.520
the Western world, and loads of people wanted to do

1411
01:52:35.600 --> 01:52:41.239
karate because they wanted to be a karate man. And

1412
01:52:44.359 --> 01:52:46.920
I think at that time I was already doing it.

1413
01:52:47.640 --> 01:52:50.119
So I think the karate called was a five, So

1414
01:52:50.239 --> 01:52:52.720
I was already a karate kid before The Karate Kid

1415
01:52:52.800 --> 01:52:56.840
came out. It's like, yeah, I was ahead of the curve,

1416
01:52:58.039 --> 01:53:04.680
head of the curve, which is cool. But there was

1417
01:53:04.720 --> 01:53:07.520
a dream I'd had for years, you know, ever since

1418
01:53:07.560 --> 01:53:10.039
I was a little kid. Wanted to do martial arts.

1419
01:53:10.520 --> 01:53:13.279
I wanted to be kung Fu from a TV show

1420
01:53:13.359 --> 01:53:17.560
kung Fu. Technically his name was Kane, but you know,

1421
01:53:18.319 --> 01:53:20.119
that's why I wanted to be. I wanted to be

1422
01:53:20.960 --> 01:53:23.159
not just to be able to do the moves, but

1423
01:53:23.199 --> 01:53:33.000
also to be calm and peaceful and not not react

1424
01:53:34.960 --> 01:53:38.560
because he was so calmly just he did what he

1425
01:53:38.680 --> 01:53:43.880
needed to do, but he didn't overreact to people trying to,

1426
01:53:44.000 --> 01:53:48.920
you know, get him agitated. I never learned that bit.

1427
01:53:49.199 --> 01:53:51.760
That's a bit I never learned. I kind of learned

1428
01:53:51.800 --> 01:53:57.319
it now. It's taken me a little while. I'm better

1429
01:53:57.359 --> 01:53:57.560
than I.

1430
01:53:57.680 --> 01:53:58.039
Used to be.

1431
01:54:00.800 --> 01:54:05.199
Yeah, but I did. I like the spiritual side of

1432
01:54:05.239 --> 01:54:09.640
it as well, and I guess I found that with

1433
01:54:09.840 --> 01:54:13.680
maybe Buddhism when I was older, reading Buddhism when I

1434
01:54:13.720 --> 01:54:18.640
was in my twenties and studying it, Taoism as well,

1435
01:54:18.680 --> 01:54:23.199
and as well as well. Yeah, I think I forget

1436
01:54:27.720 --> 01:54:31.800
and that's it really. That was my little karate career

1437
01:54:34.880 --> 01:54:40.279
when I was at school. As I got older, like

1438
01:54:42.560 --> 01:54:54.680
moving towards leaving school, I started, if you can hear

1439
01:54:54.680 --> 01:54:59.239
that someone's doing it in the garden, I started kind

1440
01:54:59.239 --> 01:55:02.600
of going out and doing stuff and kind of moved

1441
01:55:02.600 --> 01:55:06.680
away from it a bit. But that's kind of standard.

1442
01:55:06.720 --> 01:55:21.199
I think sounds like the motorbike's gone. Now what a

1443
01:55:21.239 --> 01:55:23.760
silly time to be riding a motbike in a garden

1444
01:55:25.680 --> 01:55:29.520
three minutes past ten in the evening. My goodness.

1445
01:55:31.560 --> 01:55:32.199
So I.

1446
01:55:33.840 --> 01:55:37.760
Started to move away from it, started to do things

1447
01:55:37.800 --> 01:55:44.359
with my friends, go to the cinema, hang out, do

1448
01:55:44.479 --> 01:55:50.760
things instead of going to karate. You know, this was

1449
01:55:50.880 --> 01:55:55.399
just pretty much just before I left school, and then

1450
01:55:55.439 --> 01:55:58.880
after I left school. That was kind of it because

1451
01:56:01.600 --> 01:56:04.880
I was working in a chip shop. For some reason.

1452
01:56:04.880 --> 01:56:08.680
I chose the job which didn't allow me to continue

1453
01:56:08.720 --> 01:56:16.159
doing karate. Possibly wasn't the best career move I ever made,

1454
01:56:16.199 --> 01:56:20.239
but it is what I did and I can't change that,

1455
01:56:20.439 --> 01:56:27.399
So there you go. But I'm glad I did the karate.

1456
01:56:27.640 --> 01:56:31.439
I'm glad I did that at school. I wish i'd

1457
01:56:31.479 --> 01:56:36.720
started earlier, but I wasn't allowed to say, hey. I

1458
01:56:36.800 --> 01:56:40.680
Also I wish i'd done boxing. The thing is boxing

1459
01:56:40.800 --> 01:56:43.199
was in a different town, so I did go, so

1460
01:56:43.239 --> 01:56:47.760
I had a friend that went, but it was a

1461
01:56:47.760 --> 01:56:50.560
lot of I mean, it was expensive, the bus, I

1462
01:56:50.600 --> 01:56:53.920
was getting home late, and it just wasn't really practical,

1463
01:56:55.840 --> 01:56:58.239
so I didn't go. I did sort of stop going.

1464
01:56:59.119 --> 01:57:01.319
I did a bit of kick boxing before I did

1465
01:57:01.359 --> 01:57:04.560
the karate as well. That was with a neighbor opposite

1466
01:57:05.039 --> 01:57:11.640
who was in the American Forces, and the kid next

1467
01:57:11.680 --> 01:57:16.560
door to me wanted He wanted to teach him kickboxing,

1468
01:57:16.840 --> 01:57:21.159
but needed someone else to teach him with. He needed

1469
01:57:21.199 --> 01:57:26.159
an opponent and someone to spar with. So the kid

1470
01:57:26.159 --> 01:57:28.199
asked me if I had come along. So I did.

1471
01:57:29.039 --> 01:57:31.239
There'd been my next door neighbor for a few years.

1472
01:57:33.279 --> 01:57:34.880
The thing I didn't like about that is a couple

1473
01:57:34.920 --> 01:57:37.960
of things. First, I didn't like the stretching. I never

1474
01:57:38.039 --> 01:57:43.159
stretched before. It was not fun and I felt it

1475
01:57:43.239 --> 01:57:47.920
for days afterwards. I know he still did stretching in karate,

1476
01:57:48.079 --> 01:57:52.119
but it was stretching in a kickboxing It was really

1477
01:57:52.159 --> 01:57:55.880
full on. And the other thing I didn't like is

1478
01:57:57.079 --> 01:58:00.960
but I didn't really appreciate it was the man teaching

1479
01:58:01.039 --> 01:58:06.600
us was so he had. It was only two of

1480
01:58:06.680 --> 01:58:10.039
us training, and so he talked to us. He taught

1481
01:58:10.079 --> 01:58:13.359
he had towards the basic punches, kicks and stuff, and

1482
01:58:13.359 --> 01:58:19.760
then he got aspiring, but he was shouting in support

1483
01:58:19.760 --> 01:58:24.119
of the other kid, not me. I didn't like that.

1484
01:58:25.600 --> 01:58:28.960
It bugged me, still still bugs me today. It's just

1485
01:58:29.039 --> 01:58:34.920
like what you're doing is he can't invite two kids

1486
01:58:35.359 --> 01:58:39.039
to come along and train them and then side with

1487
01:58:39.159 --> 01:58:43.079
one over the other, especially as neither of us were

1488
01:58:43.079 --> 01:58:48.159
really we were just neighbors. He hadn't known he'd known

1489
01:58:48.239 --> 01:58:52.199
us all the same length for time that he knew

1490
01:58:52.239 --> 01:58:56.439
my parents. The bloke he knew the parents next door,

1491
01:58:58.880 --> 01:59:03.920
so very strange. I knew his I knew his his

1492
01:59:04.079 --> 01:59:08.520
son because his son was Yeah, I used to go

1493
01:59:08.680 --> 01:59:11.119
up in there and I used to hang around with

1494
01:59:11.119 --> 01:59:14.680
his son sometimes, so I've been in his house a

1495
01:59:14.680 --> 01:59:19.359
few times, so he knew me. So I don't know

1496
01:59:20.279 --> 01:59:23.960
but decide maybe that's why, because he kind of got

1497
01:59:24.000 --> 01:59:28.600
to know me a bit and he thought, you know,

1498
01:59:28.880 --> 01:59:33.720
try and teach the other kid to win. But neither

1499
01:59:33.720 --> 01:59:38.439
of us won. Because we were both both the same size,

1500
01:59:38.479 --> 01:59:41.359
because he was younger than me, both pretty much the

1501
01:59:41.359 --> 01:59:43.880
same size. That's why I was picked to do it,

1502
01:59:44.039 --> 01:59:50.920
you know, probably the same kind of strength level, and

1503
01:59:51.000 --> 01:59:55.199
we couldn't hurt each other if we tried. We couldn't.

1504
01:59:55.359 --> 01:59:58.800
It was just we were padded up, really properly padded

1505
01:59:58.880 --> 02:00:07.199
up body, legs, feets, hands, maybe even elbows and head.

1506
02:00:07.720 --> 02:00:19.640
So there is almost like it's yeah, it be a

1507
02:00:19.640 --> 02:00:24.880
little bit like getting a little glass thimble wrapping it

1508
02:00:25.000 --> 02:00:31.800
up in bubble rap, like a whole two hundred foot

1509
02:00:31.840 --> 02:00:35.840
bit of bubble rap, and tying it all together all

1510
02:00:35.880 --> 02:00:41.479
around and then covering it in foam. So the ball

1511
02:00:41.560 --> 02:00:44.000
is probably about, you know, the size of a house,

1512
02:00:44.680 --> 02:00:50.800
and then just dropping a two inches. You're not you're

1513
02:00:50.840 --> 02:00:56.199
not going to make any difference to the little glass thimble,

1514
02:00:57.800 --> 02:01:01.000
little glass the little tiny little glass thing. It's not

1515
02:01:01.000 --> 02:01:03.640
going to break because it's you know, it's so protected.

1516
02:01:04.000 --> 02:01:06.119
That's a little bit like what we were like, we've

1517
02:01:06.159 --> 02:01:13.479
all a padding on. I seemed like a good analogy

1518
02:01:13.640 --> 02:01:16.600
until I started and I realized it was going on

1519
02:01:16.680 --> 02:01:20.560
a bit too far. And I also thought, I'm saying

1520
02:01:20.640 --> 02:01:23.520
glass thimble. Does anyone know what I mean when I

1521
02:01:23.520 --> 02:01:27.880
say glass stimble? And I'll explain what I meant is

1522
02:01:28.399 --> 02:01:31.399
because you can get metal thimbles. It's basically what people

1523
02:01:31.479 --> 02:01:34.119
use when they do sewing, because they use it to

1524
02:01:34.199 --> 02:01:40.159
push the needle through through the cotton or whatever, so

1525
02:01:40.199 --> 02:01:44.560
it's kind of it just protects the thumb. But you

1526
02:01:44.560 --> 02:01:46.760
can also get glass ones, or at least you used

1527
02:01:46.760 --> 02:01:48.720
to be able to, and they have little dents in

1528
02:01:48.760 --> 02:01:54.079
them so that it would it would catch the needle

1529
02:01:54.119 --> 02:01:55.720
or the end of the needle as you pushed it in.

1530
02:01:56.239 --> 02:02:07.079
So yeah, anyway, that's what explain that. So this brings

1531
02:02:07.199 --> 02:02:13.039
me to the end of the recording again, La la

1532
02:02:13.119 --> 02:02:18.239
la la la. So thank you for listening. Remember to

1533
02:02:18.279 --> 02:02:22.640
be kind to yourself, because you do deserve to feel

1534
02:02:22.680 --> 02:02:29.760
happy and be gentle with yourself. You deserve to feel safe,

1535
02:02:30.600 --> 02:02:46.920
lots of love. Bye bye bye. Relax in a more

1536
02:02:47.920 --> 02:02:58.079
deep and meaningful way, maybe in a way that can

1537
02:02:59.479 --> 02:03:07.199
not just to allow you to feel calmer now and

1538
02:03:08.239 --> 02:03:16.640
throughout the time we spend together here, not just relaxed

1539
02:03:18.880 --> 02:03:23.119
at the end of the recording when it's finished and

1540
02:03:23.159 --> 02:03:33.039
you can enjoy that sense of comfort and peace, but

1541
02:03:33.199 --> 02:03:46.600
also I think it would be nice to have those

1542
02:03:46.960 --> 02:04:03.920
feelings of relaxation continue for longer after the recording has ended,

1543
02:04:09.000 --> 02:04:21.199
so that you can still benefit from listening to my voice,

1544
02:04:21.560 --> 02:04:33.000
maybe in a few hours time, perhaps tomorrow, and then

1545
02:04:33.159 --> 02:04:41.119
by listening regularly, especially if you find like some people

1546
02:04:41.199 --> 02:04:44.760
do and myself as well. I sometimes I find one

1547
02:04:44.840 --> 02:04:55.159
particular recording that really resonates with me, and I just

1548
02:04:55.279 --> 02:05:00.960
listen to it over and over again every morning every evening.

1549
02:05:08.600 --> 02:05:13.239
There was this recording from We're going back to about

1550
02:05:13.359 --> 02:05:18.600
nineteen ninety nine. It wasn't hypnosis, but it was a

1551
02:05:18.720 --> 02:05:26.199
guided visualization, so it kind of was hypnosis, really, and

1552
02:05:28.119 --> 02:05:31.439
I managed to find it again and it still has

1553
02:05:31.479 --> 02:05:37.119
the same effect on me. And part of it was

1554
02:05:40.720 --> 02:05:51.800
the person's voice relaxed me. She just felt so peaceful,

1555
02:05:53.840 --> 02:06:00.319
and I'd look forward to listening to her in the

1556
02:06:00.399 --> 02:06:11.119
morning and in the evening. And I knew before even

1557
02:06:11.840 --> 02:06:20.319
pressing the play button that since I've done that, pressed

1558
02:06:20.359 --> 02:06:28.920
the play button. This was in the days of CD

1559
02:06:29.119 --> 02:06:37.800
players press the play button. In fact, it might have

1560
02:06:37.840 --> 02:06:42.199
even been a tape tape recorder. I'd lie down on

1561
02:06:42.239 --> 02:06:55.079
the bed and then even without necessarily listening to her

1562
02:06:55.279 --> 02:07:08.199
words because I had them memorized. Really, it was as

1563
02:07:08.239 --> 02:07:18.920
if my body knew exactly what to do, and the

1564
02:07:19.079 --> 02:07:41.119
muscles just almost went into automatic relaxation, and I remember

1565
02:07:41.239 --> 02:07:54.520
my mind would slow down. Now now I was. I

1566
02:07:54.560 --> 02:08:00.800
was listening to this recording in the early days of

1567
02:08:00.920 --> 02:08:11.600
learning hypnosis, and long before I ever made any videos

1568
02:08:11.720 --> 02:08:16.439
or audio recordings myself, because I didn't start doing that

1569
02:08:16.600 --> 02:08:31.039
till two thousand and six, I knew, I knew how

1570
02:08:32.760 --> 02:08:46.560
helpful I found being able to just let go, to

1571
02:08:46.680 --> 02:08:59.800
have that trust in the person I'm listening to, knowing

1572
02:08:59.840 --> 02:09:07.880
that it's going to be just as relaxing, if not

1573
02:09:08.000 --> 02:09:17.319
more so. Each time you hear my voice, you may

1574
02:09:17.359 --> 02:09:28.960
feel the same. Some people have been listening to me

1575
02:09:29.199 --> 02:09:43.119
for over a decade, maybe not solidly, obviously not twenty

1576
02:09:43.119 --> 02:09:51.119
four hours a day, but maybe people come back. Some

1577
02:09:51.159 --> 02:10:06.039
people may be listen every day. That's something that I

1578
02:10:06.079 --> 02:10:22.079
do which you may not realize by listening, is when

1579
02:10:22.359 --> 02:10:29.880
I record these recordings. Now.

1580
02:10:30.000 --> 02:10:35.720
For example, I.

1581
02:10:35.720 --> 02:10:48.520
Also am affected by the words that I say. So

1582
02:10:48.720 --> 02:10:58.079
if I set you focus on your feet, notice your

1583
02:10:58.119 --> 02:11:10.079
feet relaxing, I will be focusing on my feet. I

1584
02:11:10.159 --> 02:11:27.920
will be noticing my feet relaxing. If I said focus

1585
02:11:28.000 --> 02:11:36.359
on your hands, and maybe notice the difference between each hand,

1586
02:11:40.000 --> 02:11:47.319
perhaps notice the air in the room, the temperature.

1587
02:11:46.840 --> 02:11:49.199
Of the room.

1588
02:11:49.239 --> 02:11:50.840
On the backs of your hands.

1589
02:11:58.640 --> 02:12:02.560
You may start to notice what almost feels like a

1590
02:12:02.680 --> 02:12:10.760
very light breeze, even though there may not be any

1591
02:12:11.119 --> 02:12:16.039
type of breeze at all where you are right now.

1592
02:12:24.239 --> 02:12:34.840
And as you become aware of your hands, I'm also

1593
02:12:35.199 --> 02:12:46.880
aware of how relaxed my hands are feeling.

1594
02:12:48.319 --> 02:12:48.680
Now.

1595
02:13:03.319 --> 02:13:09.119
And when it comes to potentially drifting off to sleep,

1596
02:13:10.239 --> 02:13:13.319
which may be the reason you're listening.

1597
02:13:19.000 --> 02:13:20.079
I also.

1598
02:13:22.520 --> 02:13:36.800
Feel drowsy when I make these recordings. I also notice

1599
02:13:37.119 --> 02:13:38.600
my mind.

1600
02:13:39.880 --> 02:13:40.399
Drifting.

1601
02:13:48.319 --> 02:13:59.840
In fact, at times I've actually fallen asleep without you

1602
02:14:00.039 --> 02:14:13.880
even noticing. And then I carry on talking. And it's

1603
02:14:13.960 --> 02:14:22.960
only when I listen back to do the editing I

1604
02:14:23.079 --> 02:14:32.399
hear snoring, and I think, I don't remember snoring. I

1605
02:14:32.439 --> 02:14:43.279
remember talking. This snoring was a pick turned up. That's

1606
02:14:43.319 --> 02:14:51.079
why I sound like when I snore, I get really

1607
02:14:51.359 --> 02:15:04.840
into a whole experience. I don't know how you feel,

1608
02:15:11.039 --> 02:15:21.520
how relaxed you feel in your feet, how relaxed you

1609
02:15:21.760 --> 02:15:43.000
feel in your hands. I have noticed more and more

1610
02:15:48.920 --> 02:16:01.600
that the more relaxed, deeper level of comfort you feel,

1611
02:16:05.239 --> 02:16:21.439
the easier your breathing becomes. It's almost like that additional

1612
02:16:24.600 --> 02:16:45.559
muscle relaxation. So this allows you to breathe easier without

1613
02:16:47.040 --> 02:17:14.600
necessarily focusing on your breath. However, being able to notice

1614
02:17:18.360 --> 02:17:19.719
the ease.

1615
02:17:22.680 --> 02:17:23.559
In which.

1616
02:17:30.799 --> 02:17:53.479
You breathe so naturally, you breathe so very easily and smoothly.

1617
02:18:21.159 --> 02:18:38.840
Whenever I imagine my breathing improving, when I've got my

1618
02:18:38.959 --> 02:18:57.639
eyes closed, I tend to visualize a beautiful field with

1619
02:18:57.959 --> 02:19:31.680
trees and flowers producing all that life giving oxygen and

1620
02:19:31.799 --> 02:19:47.440
it feels nice too, if nothing else, just taking some

1621
02:19:47.879 --> 02:20:30.639
time away from everything, enjoying that feeling of peace, serenity

1622
02:20:42.200 --> 02:21:14.440
with a joyful heart. Time seems to just drip by,

1623
02:21:18.959 --> 02:22:08.799
so very slowly, relaxed, so deeply, peaceful, completely unattached to

1624
02:22:09.680 --> 02:23:06.600
any thoughts whatsoever in this moment, completely free, noticing that

1625
02:23:14.159 --> 02:24:00.719
your mind has slowed down. Slowed down because nothing really

1626
02:24:00.959 --> 02:24:31.520
requires your attention. You can enjoy the physical sensations of

1627
02:24:31.680 --> 02:24:44.719
allowing the stress to dirip out of your body, appearing

1628
02:24:45.000 --> 02:25:08.959
out of every part of your body and being released

1629
02:25:14.239 --> 02:25:53.840
from your brain. Hunge your mind slowly but surely. The

1630
02:25:54.159 --> 02:25:55.280
muscles in.

1631
02:25:55.399 --> 02:25:57.079
Your legs.

1632
02:26:11.719 --> 02:26:42.360
Relax, relax, relax so very deeply, relax.

1633
02:26:46.879 --> 02:26:48.000
So deeply.

1634
02:27:05.760 --> 02:27:16.000
And the feelings, the pleasant feelings in your arms and shoulders,

1635
02:27:33.840 --> 02:27:47.440
deepening each part of your body further and deeper.

1636
02:27:57.440 --> 02:27:58.360
And deeper.

1637
02:28:12.840 --> 02:28:42.520
Magician, the feedings in the back of your neck, the

1638
02:28:42.719 --> 02:29:21.920
feedings in your wrists, muscles in the front of your body.

1639
02:29:32.280 --> 02:30:16.360
I also feeling peaceful, deep There's a sense of peace

1640
02:30:20.879 --> 02:31:00.840
spreads through your very cool even when you focus on

1641
02:31:00.879 --> 02:31:59.879
your mind, her mind becomes be and slower, even deeper relaxed,

1642
02:32:24.000 --> 02:33:01.840
a fairy slow his stomach, useful in your stomach.

1643
02:33:23.920 --> 02:33:24.600
You're back.

1644
02:33:30.000 --> 02:33:43.479
Notice Notice how relaxed.

1645
02:33:47.159 --> 02:33:49.120
You now feel.

1646
02:33:57.959 --> 02:34:30.280
In the holl of your back. In a spy from

1647
02:34:30.319 --> 02:34:35.319
your brain all the way down the middle of your back,

1648
02:34:38.600 --> 02:35:02.559
sending and receiving millions of messages every day. Decomfort, increase,

1649
02:35:13.280 --> 02:36:19.639
deeply relaxed, ms. Relax spreading those signals down your spine

1650
02:36:19.760 --> 02:36:42.600
or cord into air, every part of your body, your

1651
02:36:42.760 --> 02:37:31.280
shins and your calf, muscles, your elbows. Feelings of peace

1652
02:37:34.200 --> 02:37:48.159
and tranquility spreading through your body, tips of your toes,

1653
02:37:52.399 --> 02:38:04.879
to your eyes, your fingers. All wait till you know about.

1654
02:38:16.440 --> 02:38:17.200
Letting her.

1655
02:38:19.239 --> 02:39:19.559
Read, letting her pace drift in mind, the wondering away,

1656
02:39:29.040 --> 02:40:10.680
Happy to let go, let go completely, Leger said, tranquil,

1657
02:40:35.040 --> 02:42:56.440
whole body enjoying a sensor listeninger, Hey, nore, hey, joy

1658
02:43:02.159 --> 02:43:07.040
the space, this space.

1659
02:43:09.680 --> 02:43:10.760
Of peace.

1660
02:43:13.959 --> 02:43:47.040
And safety. So firy, fir relaxed.

1661
02:44:18.879 --> 02:44:49.840
They leading to.

1662
02:45:16.959 --> 02:45:41.639
Letting go. Maybe we can just focus on the different

1663
02:45:42.040 --> 02:46:16.840
parts of your body, just to notice you forehead and

1664
02:46:17.079 --> 02:47:23.520
your eyes ju silace, noticing the sense of complete freedom,

1665
02:47:35.600 --> 02:47:37.399
absolute freedom.

1666
02:48:23.520 --> 02:48:50.840
Dress day, dress day. He's on.

1667
02:48:52.879 --> 02:49:33.639
Energy paste to breeze such ease.

1668
02:49:34.000 --> 02:50:38.280
Yeah, lose you may have.

1669
02:50:41.760 --> 02:51:41.799
You may not have noticed your mind drifted peaceful move

1670
02:51:42.280 --> 02:51:44.799
been even more deeply.

1671
02:51:49.799 --> 02:51:51.079
In the direction of.

1672
02:51:56.239 --> 02:53:58.760
Total blissful pace, blissful pace terreft time to pace, sir, come.

1673
02:54:10.200 --> 02:54:53.319
Let him go peace with mind re body.

1674
02:55:10.319 --> 02:56:07.319
So relaxed, relaxed. A body feels almost invisible, So the.

1675
02:56:07.719 --> 02:56:09.600
Very relaxed.

1676
02:56:12.760 --> 02:57:28.520
Paceful so pace relax leckr so. And you could start

1677
02:57:29.000 --> 02:57:38.520
to notice that you are feeling more relaxed, even though

1678
02:57:38.680 --> 02:57:49.920
I've not purposely focused your mind upon that sense of

1679
02:57:50.319 --> 02:57:55.719
physical comfort that is growing within you throughout your body,

1680
02:57:58.920 --> 02:58:08.559
and your mind starts to slow down, And that could

1681
02:58:08.639 --> 02:58:16.959
be almost in recognition of I guess my speech not

1682
02:58:17.159 --> 02:58:34.200
being particularly fast, and things just generally feel calmer. Just

1683
02:58:34.600 --> 02:58:43.120
by listening to my voice, you give yourself an opportunity

1684
02:58:44.879 --> 02:58:50.520
to take a break from the day, take a break

1685
02:58:50.719 --> 02:58:58.399
from your life as it is, and to give yourself

1686
02:58:58.479 --> 02:59:06.360
a rest, giving yourself permission to take some time off

1687
02:59:08.639 --> 02:59:14.000
and to allow your body to relax and allow your

1688
02:59:14.159 --> 02:59:24.760
mind to slow down, which in turn releases the tension,

1689
02:59:26.200 --> 02:59:27.719
any stresses that you.

1690
02:59:27.920 --> 02:59:28.799
Had in your body.

1691
02:59:34.760 --> 02:59:38.639
It's almost as if the parts of your body just

1692
02:59:38.959 --> 02:59:50.639
open up, allowing the negativity out and at the same

1693
02:59:50.760 --> 03:00:02.040
time replacing that negativity with positive healing energy, which then

1694
03:00:02.239 --> 03:00:11.360
fills your body up and your mind to also starts

1695
03:00:11.559 --> 03:00:17.520
to appreciate those feelings.

1696
03:00:17.159 --> 03:00:20.040
Of increasing.

1697
03:00:21.559 --> 03:00:38.360
Confidence, an almost uplifting feeling, positive healing, an energy that

1698
03:00:42.040 --> 03:00:46.079
spreads through your body like a wave.

1699
03:00:48.120 --> 03:00:48.879
Of comfort.

1700
03:00:53.680 --> 03:01:03.079
And all this comes from just allowing yourself of a

1701
03:01:03.239 --> 03:01:08.520
few minutes, maybe half an hour, however long you want

1702
03:01:08.559 --> 03:01:12.520
it to be, to just rest.

1703
03:01:17.600 --> 03:01:18.559
And allow.

1704
03:01:20.760 --> 03:01:30.760
Your mind and your body to almost reset itself to

1705
03:01:31.440 --> 03:01:47.079
the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness, which allows more

1706
03:01:47.200 --> 03:01:50.680
room for feelings.

1707
03:01:50.200 --> 03:01:55.440
Of pleasure and happiness.

1708
03:01:58.959 --> 03:02:07.760
To move around your body and into your mind, almost

1709
03:02:08.559 --> 03:02:13.159
as if your mind and your body are sinking together,

1710
03:02:17.440 --> 03:02:27.120
almost mirroring each other with that growing positivity and calmness.

1711
03:02:32.200 --> 03:02:39.639
And it feels nice, really does feel nice to know

1712
03:02:39.920 --> 03:02:48.799
that you are the one that has allowed yourself to

1713
03:02:49.079 --> 03:03:03.040
feel more comfort and to experience more of this deep

1714
03:03:03.520 --> 03:03:19.559
relaxation spreading throughout your body. And as I focus on

1715
03:03:19.840 --> 03:03:25.520
each part of your body, you can notice that that

1716
03:03:25.879 --> 03:03:40.000
part becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on it.

1717
03:03:42.520 --> 03:03:52.799
It becomes even more calm and comfortable, just by focusing.

1718
03:03:56.239 --> 03:03:58.520
And as I move down your.

1719
03:03:58.399 --> 03:04:05.760
Body, starting at your head, the parts that you have

1720
03:04:06.159 --> 03:04:16.040
already focused on or continue to relax deeply, and those

1721
03:04:16.239 --> 03:04:22.920
parts that have not yet focused on or just automatically

1722
03:04:26.760 --> 03:04:35.520
release any remaining tension in anticipation of even more comfort

1723
03:04:36.840 --> 03:04:47.520
about to come. Now, I'm going to start by focusing

1724
03:04:48.200 --> 03:04:54.680
on your forehead. Just being aware of the feelings of

1725
03:04:54.799 --> 03:04:56.120
your forehead.

1726
03:05:00.280 --> 03:05:01.760
And any background.

1727
03:05:01.479 --> 03:05:08.360
Sounds like mister Herbert the pigeon can just allow you

1728
03:05:08.559 --> 03:05:16.040
to feel even more relaxed. Just means you're in the moment.

1729
03:05:19.159 --> 03:05:22.159
This isn't this isn't a sterile environment.

1730
03:05:23.559 --> 03:05:24.520
This is the world.

1731
03:05:27.959 --> 03:05:34.000
I live in the countryside, so there's lots of nature

1732
03:05:34.520 --> 03:05:45.000
sounds around. So as you focus on your forehead, just

1733
03:05:45.280 --> 03:05:56.079
notice how it becomes even more relaxed. Focus only on

1734
03:05:56.280 --> 03:06:05.879
my voice and that part of your body. Moving down

1735
03:06:06.120 --> 03:06:18.639
to your eyes, focusing on your eyes, noticing how your

1736
03:06:18.680 --> 03:06:26.520
eyelids feel so heavy yet so light at the same time,

1737
03:06:29.879 --> 03:06:40.559
and all the muscles around your eyes relaxing completely. Moving

1738
03:06:40.680 --> 03:06:47.840
your focus down to your mouth, your lips, your tongue,

1739
03:06:49.079 --> 03:06:50.959
your teeth, and your guns.

1740
03:06:52.920 --> 03:06:54.719
The hole of your mouth.

1741
03:06:56.280 --> 03:07:01.280
Relaxing, calm.

1742
03:07:02.440 --> 03:07:03.000
And lease.

1743
03:07:07.479 --> 03:07:15.280
As you focus now on your jaw, not just the

1744
03:07:15.399 --> 03:07:20.200
parts of your jawney, your mouth, and your chin, but

1745
03:07:20.360 --> 03:07:24.520
all the way up the size of your face to.

1746
03:07:24.600 --> 03:07:38.360
Your ears, the hole of your jaw feeding more relaxed

1747
03:07:42.520 --> 03:07:52.840
and calm, focusing.

1748
03:07:55.639 --> 03:08:00.799
On your neck, the front of your neck, and your

1749
03:08:00.959 --> 03:08:14.239
throat relaxing and loose and calm. The sides of your neck,

1750
03:08:16.559 --> 03:08:25.440
right and left side of your neck relax and place.

1751
03:08:29.200 --> 03:08:29.959
And calm.

1752
03:08:36.360 --> 03:08:43.000
And now the back of your neck, focusing on the

1753
03:08:43.280 --> 03:08:53.680
back of your neck, letting go of any tension that

1754
03:08:53.920 --> 03:09:02.760
may have been there before, and enjoying that sense of

1755
03:09:03.760 --> 03:09:14.399
increasing comfort and release. Then you can experience in the

1756
03:09:14.559 --> 03:09:26.799
back of your neck, moving down your back and moving

1757
03:09:27.079 --> 03:09:31.399
either side of your spine right from the top of

1758
03:09:31.479 --> 03:09:37.000
your back all the way down to the bottom of

1759
03:09:37.120 --> 03:09:54.559
your back, down to your lower back. As you move

1760
03:09:54.760 --> 03:10:02.440
up and down your spine, you can feel the muscles

1761
03:10:03.479 --> 03:10:05.520
either side of your spine.

1762
03:10:07.319 --> 03:10:09.360
Relaxing even more.

1763
03:10:16.840 --> 03:10:23.600
And as those muscles relax, that sense of comfort starts

1764
03:10:23.719 --> 03:10:33.799
to spread outwards from your spine into both sides of

1765
03:10:33.920 --> 03:10:41.000
your back, the top of your back, the middle end

1766
03:10:41.040 --> 03:10:50.520
your lower back. And as you scan gently and slowly

1767
03:10:51.760 --> 03:10:57.000
up and down your back, there's the muscles in the

1768
03:10:57.159 --> 03:11:06.280
top of your back relax and become a looser. The

1769
03:11:06.440 --> 03:11:12.399
muscles in the middle of your back also seem to

1770
03:11:12.719 --> 03:11:21.879
just almost divide from each other, separating and almost melting,

1771
03:11:27.680 --> 03:11:33.639
and in your lower back there seems to be an

1772
03:11:33.680 --> 03:11:47.879
extra special feeling of comfort. The spreads into your hips.

1773
03:11:50.159 --> 03:11:58.000
Sit down your lower back, into your hips, into the

1774
03:11:58.200 --> 03:12:06.959
area where your cosix are, and into your buttocks, and

1775
03:12:07.079 --> 03:12:16.280
all those muscles that spread bring your lower back into

1776
03:12:16.319 --> 03:12:29.799
your hip area, start to melt, start to reading, let go,

1777
03:12:36.520 --> 03:12:41.319
and even know where about to focus on your shoulders.

1778
03:12:43.120 --> 03:12:50.120
Your back and your spine will continue to let go,

1779
03:12:53.159 --> 03:13:08.799
continue to relax so calmly, and as you focus on

1780
03:13:08.920 --> 03:13:21.840
your shoulders, you may notice they're already feeling really loose.

1781
03:13:26.680 --> 03:13:28.319
They're already.

1782
03:13:30.760 --> 03:13:37.360
Feeding, calm.

1783
03:13:43.360 --> 03:13:44.440
And fearing.

1784
03:13:48.639 --> 03:13:56.959
Those muscles then move from your neck into your shoulders.

1785
03:14:03.520 --> 03:14:32.920
Feel so soft and gentle, so smooth and calm, and

1786
03:14:33.159 --> 03:14:45.959
the feeling in your shoulders seems to spread deep into

1787
03:14:46.079 --> 03:14:56.479
your shoulders, a sense of relaxation, not just traveling deeply

1788
03:14:56.840 --> 03:15:04.319
into your muscles, but also relaxing.

1789
03:15:06.399 --> 03:15:07.799
The bones.

1790
03:15:13.159 --> 03:15:19.840
And moving all the way to underneath your arms, relaxing

1791
03:15:21.680 --> 03:15:26.440
a whole area between the tops of your shoulders and

1792
03:15:26.680 --> 03:15:32.719
underneath your arms healing.

1793
03:15:38.159 --> 03:15:38.799
You feel so.

1794
03:15:40.760 --> 03:15:52.239
Relaxed and comfortable in your shoulders, which sense that.

1795
03:15:54.479 --> 03:15:56.479
Deep healing.

1796
03:15:59.479 --> 03:16:06.559
Messing into your arms.

1797
03:16:13.239 --> 03:16:14.520
You may feel.

1798
03:16:16.040 --> 03:16:18.200
Almost as if your arms are.

1799
03:16:18.200 --> 03:16:19.000
Not even that.

1800
03:16:20.680 --> 03:16:37.120
Because they're so relaxed, so deeply relaxed, so.

1801
03:16:41.360 --> 03:17:14.520
So calm, So the feeling spreading.

1802
03:17:16.719 --> 03:17:29.920
All the way down your arms, two elbows, including.

1803
03:17:30.280 --> 03:17:31.600
Your elbows.

1804
03:17:41.000 --> 03:17:43.680
Circumfort spreads.

1805
03:17:47.719 --> 03:17:48.479
Your way.

1806
03:17:51.000 --> 03:18:09.920
Into wrists, your forearms, and your wrists so heavy yet

1807
03:18:10.159 --> 03:18:21.440
at the same time slight.

1808
03:18:24.120 --> 03:18:25.479
And gentle.

1809
03:18:50.200 --> 03:18:51.280
Frek sin.

1810
03:18:53.440 --> 03:18:54.440
Now on.

1811
03:18:57.120 --> 03:19:50.600
Your hands, my hands, so peaceful in your hands, with

1812
03:19:50.760 --> 03:19:51.879
a sense.

1813
03:19:51.600 --> 03:19:56.639
Of real pace.

1814
03:20:08.399 --> 03:20:18.319
It just seems to feel so familion.

1815
03:20:21.040 --> 03:20:53.159
On your hands, relax deeply else your fingers.

1816
03:21:59.479 --> 03:22:00.319
I think your.

1817
03:22:00.319 --> 03:22:34.239
Tips maving your attention to runt your body.

1818
03:22:47.079 --> 03:22:49.319
So comfortable.

1819
03:23:00.200 --> 03:24:49.719
New focuss love muscles in your fis names so relax

1820
03:25:17.600 --> 03:27:36.079
calf muscles just shades compass the feathing you faints, sir,

1821
03:27:36.719 --> 03:28:32.040
peaceful circom sir peaceful circolm mhm, so peaceful, sycom.

1822
03:28:35.559 --> 03:28:49.479
So peace fall Rea, same.

1823
03:28:54.520 --> 03:29:00.760
Piece fall s col.

1824
03:29:08.559 --> 03:29:16.239
A lout of that deep relaxation to spread your chest storm.

1825
03:29:29.360 --> 03:29:30.360
Let's me go.

1826
03:29:34.479 --> 03:29:51.799
Everything. So I'm gonna start counting down now from twenty

1827
03:29:52.200 --> 03:30:00.360
down to one. You can imagine in the world it's

1828
03:30:00.559 --> 03:30:06.680
like just walking down some steps and each step or

1829
03:30:06.840 --> 03:30:12.799
twenty steps, and each step represents a level of comfort.

1830
03:30:16.319 --> 03:30:31.680
Each step represents a deepening of that comfort, and the

1831
03:30:31.879 --> 03:30:37.959
furvies you walk down those steps, the deeper and more

1832
03:30:38.040 --> 03:31:20.159
relaxed you feel. So starting with number twenty twenty, nineteen,

1833
03:31:54.440 --> 03:41:37.760
eighteen seven Jane sixteenhhhh three fourhhhhhhhhhh, four too well, nohhhhhhhhhhh

1834
03:41:45.280 --> 03:42:46.040
eight seven.

1835
03:43:05.280 --> 03:44:23.239
S six.

1836
03:45:38.120 --> 03:46:57.840
Five four.

1837
03:47:20.559 --> 03:50:36.000
Dass one.

1838
03:51:25.920 --> 03:51:42.959
Now, as you focus on your eyes, We're gonna count

1839
03:51:43.079 --> 03:51:54.840
down from ten downs one, focusing just on your eyes.

1840
03:51:58.639 --> 03:52:07.120
Your eyelids muscles around your eyes, your eye walls themselves,

1841
03:52:08.639 --> 03:52:25.680
a whole area that makes up your eye. And as

1842
03:52:25.760 --> 03:52:34.319
we count down from ten down to one, whilst focusing

1843
03:52:34.559 --> 03:52:49.920
on your eyes, you become twice is relaxed with each

1844
03:52:50.399 --> 03:53:02.799
number counting down that you may find the all you

1845
03:53:03.079 --> 03:53:04.840
want to do is just.

1846
03:53:06.799 --> 03:53:08.920
Drift off to sleep.

1847
03:53:11.920 --> 03:53:18.520
And if that's what you want, then just allow yourself

1848
03:53:18.639 --> 03:53:33.280
to do that. Now, focusing on your eyes, I'm going

1849
03:53:33.360 --> 03:53:43.040
to begin counting down from ten down to one right

1850
03:53:43.159 --> 03:55:47.520
now ten nine eight seven.

1851
03:57:50.840 --> 03:59:02.319
Feet four.

1852
04:00:15.479 --> 04:02:56.639
Three SiO.

1853
04:03:04.799 --> 04:03:21.280
Counting down from ten to one ten nine, eight, seven, six, five.

1854
04:03:23.319 --> 04:03:32.840
Four three two one.

1855
04:03:39.840 --> 04:03:42.719
And maybe that was a bit too quick in order

1856
04:03:42.799 --> 04:03:46.719
to relax. Maybe it's a bit too fast for you

1857
04:03:47.040 --> 04:03:56.760
to notice the calming of your body, maybe even a

1858
04:03:56.799 --> 04:04:00.639
little bit of pressure there, Like you're counting down from

1859
04:04:00.719 --> 04:04:03.399
ten to one. Would you expect me to do man,

1860
04:04:04.319 --> 04:04:08.000
expect me to stick go with floppy just because you're

1861
04:04:08.120 --> 04:04:17.440
counting down. You could try it again, but this time

1862
04:04:17.559 --> 04:04:23.559
I'll go a bit slower this time, and you focus

1863
04:04:23.920 --> 04:04:28.520
on the whole of your body before we focus on

1864
04:04:28.639 --> 04:04:29.159
your legs.

1865
04:04:31.600 --> 04:04:32.760
Just notice.

1866
04:04:33.920 --> 04:04:46.680
How your body does start to feel more relaxed with

1867
04:04:47.959 --> 04:05:30.440
every number that I count down ten eight, seven, six, five.

1868
04:05:40.600 --> 04:05:48.799
Four three.

1869
04:06:02.120 --> 04:06:39.799
Two one, And just notice how how you feel, generally,

1870
04:06:40.239 --> 04:06:54.520
how your body feels. It's not necessarily even about counting

1871
04:06:54.639 --> 04:06:59.840
down from ten to one. It's that's.

1872
04:07:01.319 --> 04:07:03.200
That you have that.

1873
04:07:05.760 --> 04:07:26.680
Space between being active physically or mentally to just sitting

1874
04:07:26.920 --> 04:07:31.719
or lying down, just being there, not doing anything, not

1875
04:07:32.040 --> 04:07:39.040
saying anything, or needing to think about anything. So it

1876
04:07:39.159 --> 04:07:42.719
opens up a space, you know, a bit of a space,

1877
04:07:43.680 --> 04:07:53.520
a gap. And the more I came down from ten

1878
04:07:53.559 --> 04:08:00.959
to one, the bigger that gap becomes. So there's that

1879
04:08:01.200 --> 04:08:13.799
gap of calmness, of comfort, relaxation. It's a nice feeling,

1880
04:08:19.360 --> 04:08:28.079
and it moves those stresses or discomforts physically or emotionally,

1881
04:08:28.760 --> 04:08:50.040
moves them away, allows you to just slow down. So

1882
04:08:50.040 --> 04:08:52.440
ione to count a game from ten down to one

1883
04:08:52.879 --> 04:09:03.079
and notice that gap widening app And they said widens.

1884
04:09:03.159 --> 04:09:09.520
It's almost like the stress and attention falls into the gap.

1885
04:09:22.959 --> 04:09:27.159
It gives you that distance, that space.

1886
04:09:29.559 --> 04:09:34.920
Now ten.

1887
04:09:39.360 --> 04:11:05.840
Nine, eight, seven, six, five, four three two.

1888
04:11:24.079 --> 04:11:24.319
One.

1889
04:11:35.840 --> 04:11:39.959
Now, how did your body feel?

1890
04:11:42.200 --> 04:11:42.360
Now?

1891
04:11:55.079 --> 04:12:07.040
Can you notice that? Do you feeling calmer? Are you

1892
04:12:07.280 --> 04:12:35.719
feeling more relaxed? As we now focus on your legs,

1893
04:12:37.440 --> 04:12:57.879
just your legs. We're just gonna start with focusing on

1894
04:12:58.319 --> 04:13:17.719
your thighs. Of course, it's not the most exciting thing to.

1895
04:13:17.760 --> 04:13:19.719
Be doing because.

1896
04:13:22.760 --> 04:13:25.399
I'm sure like most of your body is not a

1897
04:13:25.559 --> 04:13:37.959
lot going on right now. Just focusing on the whole

1898
04:13:38.079 --> 04:13:44.440
of your thighs, the tops of your thighs, the side

1899
04:13:44.600 --> 04:13:51.040
of your thighs, the bottoms of your thighs. You're outer

1900
04:13:51.239 --> 04:13:56.280
thighs and you're inner thighs. Basically the whole of your

1901
04:13:56.360 --> 04:14:05.280
thigh that leads into your hip and it goes down

1902
04:14:05.440 --> 04:14:06.040
to your.

1903
04:14:07.959 --> 04:14:08.239
Knee.

1904
04:14:08.360 --> 04:14:20.120
Joints, and this is a big area. It's a very

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04:14:20.319 --> 04:14:26.879
heavy area. It's very strong, probably the strongest muscles in

1906
04:14:26.959 --> 04:14:40.000
your body or in your thighs. But I don't think

1907
04:14:40.120 --> 04:14:54.520
we perhaps give enough attention to our thighs. Perhaps we

1908
04:14:54.639 --> 04:15:05.280
don't acknowledge how important our thighs are to our lives,

1909
04:15:16.799 --> 04:15:26.239
how much they actually do for us all through our lives.

1910
04:15:33.399 --> 04:15:36.040
And it may seem sound really weird, but.

1911
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I think that all of.

1912
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Our body parts, especially our thighs, needs some TLC, a

1913
04:15:50.920 --> 04:16:04.000
bit of love shown, a bit of acknowledgement, thank you,

1914
04:16:07.120 --> 04:16:19.280
gratitude for what our thighs to do for us. And

1915
04:16:19.399 --> 04:16:22.040
I know this may sound a bit strange.

1916
04:16:24.639 --> 04:16:26.120
Maybe you think, why am.

1917
04:16:26.120 --> 04:16:29.079
I sure that I should be out in the garden

1918
04:16:29.280 --> 04:16:37.520
hugging a tree or something. Well, it's hard to set

1919
04:16:37.559 --> 04:16:40.719
a microphone up on a tree. That's why I'm doing

1920
04:16:40.760 --> 04:16:43.399
this indoors. Otherwise I would be outside hugging a tree.

1921
04:16:44.799 --> 04:16:53.479
I can't see the television from the tree. If you

1922
04:16:53.559 --> 04:16:58.760
move down to your knees, gain such an important part.

1923
04:17:03.079 --> 04:17:08.159
And I think we don't necessarily I'll speak for myself here,

1924
04:17:10.680 --> 04:17:15.520
I don't necessarily appreciate all that my needs to do

1925
04:17:15.719 --> 04:17:20.559
for me until I have a problem with my knee.

1926
04:17:21.559 --> 04:17:25.680
It's occasionally if I ever maybe i'll bash it or

1927
04:17:26.639 --> 04:17:27.760
it's aching.

1928
04:17:27.600 --> 04:17:28.360
For some reason.

1929
04:17:30.120 --> 04:17:36.280
It's then that I realize how much it does. You know,

1930
04:17:36.399 --> 04:17:42.319
the benefit of being able to use my legs without

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04:17:44.120 --> 04:17:46.920
any kind of physical discomfort.

1932
04:17:47.840 --> 04:17:49.719
Is a beautiful thing.

1933
04:17:51.120 --> 04:17:58.760
That's possibly not appreciated until it's temporarily removed. You know

1934
04:17:58.879 --> 04:18:08.360
that's comfort. But as you focus on your knees, regardless

1935
04:18:08.399 --> 04:18:13.959
of how your knees feel, you can have that sense

1936
04:18:14.040 --> 04:18:19.959
of gratitude and love to your needs for all that

1937
04:18:20.079 --> 04:18:32.360
they do for you, and you can still have that

1938
04:18:32.479 --> 04:18:37.440
attention on your thighs. Maybe notice how your thighs feel.

1939
04:18:39.600 --> 04:18:57.520
Maybe you notice that they are relaxing more deeply as

1940
04:18:57.600 --> 04:19:02.440
you focus now on the bottoms of your legs, your

1941
04:19:02.520 --> 04:19:09.440
shins and your calf muscles, the bones between your knees

1942
04:19:10.319 --> 04:19:18.040
and your feet incorporate, and of course, your ankles so important.

1943
04:19:23.559 --> 04:19:28.159
You know, anyone that's had even like the slightest sprain

1944
04:19:28.280 --> 04:19:35.239
of an ankle knows how how much we take our

1945
04:19:35.440 --> 04:19:44.000
ankles for granted. And it's kind of strange in a

1946
04:19:44.079 --> 04:19:49.639
way when you think that, you know, logically, our wrists

1947
04:19:49.799 --> 04:19:52.639
are a lot thinner than the rest of our arms,

1948
04:19:53.799 --> 04:19:57.280
which is, okay, it doesn't I can't see any problem

1949
04:19:57.319 --> 04:20:02.200
with that because we're just picking stuff up by our

1950
04:20:02.319 --> 04:20:08.120
ankles so much thinner than the rest of our legs,

1951
04:20:14.559 --> 04:20:18.959
and from a physics perspective or logical even it doesn't

1952
04:20:19.040 --> 04:20:25.040
really make sense that all this weight would ultimately be

1953
04:20:26.120 --> 04:20:36.159
resting on your ankles then leading to your feet. That

1954
04:20:36.719 --> 04:20:44.600
thin area, thin bone. Yeah, it does so.

1955
04:20:44.760 --> 04:20:45.680
Much great work.

1956
04:20:47.840 --> 04:20:57.399
Supports us, supports our body for a lifetime, helps us

1957
04:20:58.079 --> 04:21:01.680
to balance, It helps.

1958
04:21:01.479 --> 04:21:01.799
You to.

1959
04:21:05.719 --> 04:21:15.000
Get her around and be mobile. And there's the calf muscles.

1960
04:21:15.040 --> 04:21:22.639
Of course, when I was younger, I couldn't see the

1961
04:21:22.719 --> 04:21:27.799
point in calf muscles. Didn't seem to do anything. Okay,

1962
04:21:28.920 --> 04:21:32.440
if I walked around on tiptoes, then my calf muscles

1963
04:21:32.520 --> 04:21:33.120
get some work.

1964
04:21:34.479 --> 04:21:35.840
But of course that's not true.

1965
04:21:35.959 --> 04:21:40.079
The calf muscles are being used whenever we use that

1966
04:21:40.239 --> 04:21:54.040
legs and your shins there to protect your lower legs,

1967
04:21:58.360 --> 04:22:03.520
shaped in a way almost as a protector for the bone,

1968
04:22:11.079 --> 04:22:23.000
leading of course to your ankles and your feet. But

1969
04:22:23.079 --> 04:22:25.000
we're not going to focus on your feet. We're just

1970
04:22:25.079 --> 04:22:26.360
going to focus on the legs.

1971
04:22:28.440 --> 04:22:29.639
I realize.

1972
04:22:31.200 --> 04:22:35.040
And now that I've mentioned your feet, you'll probably focusing

1973
04:22:35.520 --> 04:22:38.399
them anyway, So maybe I should focus.

1974
04:22:38.200 --> 04:22:44.000
On your feet a little bit. You can have them

1975
04:22:44.079 --> 04:22:44.440
in your.

1976
04:22:44.360 --> 04:22:50.760
Awareness the same as you have your thighs in your awareness.

1977
04:22:51.600 --> 04:22:52.920
Even though we haven't been.

1978
04:22:52.879 --> 04:22:58.920
Focusing on your thighs a few minutes and we're focusing

1979
04:22:59.040 --> 04:23:15.600
on your cause, there's still that sensation of comfort in

1980
04:23:15.760 --> 04:23:27.600
your thighs, and there's that movement of energy because the

1981
04:23:27.719 --> 04:23:35.319
thighs hold lots of different sensations. Of course, there's the muscles,

1982
04:23:35.920 --> 04:23:39.959
the big straw muscles that we have in our thighs,

1983
04:23:48.719 --> 04:23:54.440
but the skin on the outside of the thighs, as

1984
04:23:54.520 --> 04:23:59.040
in the outside of all of our body, can be

1985
04:23:59.280 --> 04:24:16.959
very sensitive, sensitive to the touch, sensitive to temperature, and

1986
04:24:17.159 --> 04:24:25.520
inside your thighs the bones, there's the muscle, there's the blood, vessels,

1987
04:24:25.680 --> 04:24:31.479
the arch trees, to all this stuff inside your thighs.

1988
04:24:35.920 --> 04:24:39.280
I guess sometimes it'd be nice if you could actually

1989
04:24:39.360 --> 04:24:46.760
put your fingers inside your thighs and a message, so

1990
04:24:46.840 --> 04:24:50.399
you can message on the outside, of course, but to

1991
04:24:50.440 --> 04:24:53.680
be able to get deep into the muscles, to be

1992
04:24:53.760 --> 04:24:59.479
able to just message inside your thighs, message in the bones.

1993
04:25:00.399 --> 04:25:01.239
With your leg.

1994
04:25:03.239 --> 04:25:03.920
Massage in.

1995
04:25:06.639 --> 04:25:17.520
Or the veins, just gently healing fives, and you can

1996
04:25:17.680 --> 04:25:24.559
move down message and inside your knees, just message in

1997
04:25:24.680 --> 04:25:32.040
those bones, but with healing fingertips, spreading that healing energy

1998
04:25:32.799 --> 04:25:42.639
deep into the choice your knees. Of course, there's the

1999
04:25:42.760 --> 04:25:48.200
back of your your need and the inside crease where

2000
04:25:48.200 --> 04:25:56.040
your need is. It's a very sensitive area. It feels

2001
04:25:56.120 --> 04:25:59.959
very nice when you stroke it. That might be because

2002
04:26:01.000 --> 04:26:05.959
it's an area that's not really touched very often. It's

2003
04:26:06.079 --> 04:26:10.159
almost like a hidden part, that crease.

2004
04:26:11.879 --> 04:26:12.600
On your legs.

2005
04:26:12.719 --> 04:26:13.719
It's almost.

2006
04:26:15.639 --> 04:26:16.399
Like a part that.

2007
04:26:18.159 --> 04:26:29.440
Has a sensitivity, which is a little bit different. Of course,

2008
04:26:29.479 --> 04:26:39.959
it's protected by your legs, so you can imagine putting

2009
04:26:40.879 --> 04:26:50.719
your fingers into that crease in your legs. Folded in

2010
04:26:50.840 --> 04:26:54.760
between your legs, you can just message with your fingertips.

2011
04:26:55.959 --> 04:27:02.760
Imagine your fingertips going inside, massage in the muscle or tissue.

2012
04:27:07.360 --> 04:27:11.600
You can of course field the bones of your knees,

2013
04:27:13.120 --> 04:27:23.559
heating through your fingertips, and then as you go down

2014
04:27:26.440 --> 04:27:29.239
to your calf muscles, and that's the part I'd like

2015
04:27:29.319 --> 04:27:34.000
to be able to really put my fingertips steep inside

2016
04:27:34.799 --> 04:27:43.719
my calf muscles, massage in every single tissue of that muscle,

2017
04:27:45.319 --> 04:27:55.239
healing every part, and then doing the same for my shines.

2018
04:27:58.440 --> 04:28:06.600
Massage in generally stroking the bones, generally stroking them, healing

2019
04:28:06.840 --> 04:28:10.920
in a loving way because they deserve to be treated.

2020
04:28:14.000 --> 04:28:18.120
There's the precious bones that they are. Because our legs

2021
04:28:18.159 --> 04:28:21.520
are so precious as in all the other parts of

2022
04:28:21.600 --> 04:28:26.760
our body, the more precious of any jure.

2023
04:28:29.079 --> 04:28:29.760
On the planet.

2024
04:28:38.200 --> 04:28:45.760
When when you start to think about the legs in

2025
04:28:45.879 --> 04:28:57.280
this way, it can change your perspective. It might sound

2026
04:28:57.319 --> 04:29:04.159
a bit a bit silly to start with the idea

2027
04:29:04.319 --> 04:29:12.719
of having love for your legs, showing appreciation for your thighs,

2028
04:29:15.520 --> 04:29:19.399
wanting to be able to put your hands in your

2029
04:29:19.520 --> 04:29:28.040
thighs the massage the muscles and the bones, and to

2030
04:29:28.159 --> 04:29:36.440
get your fingers deep in there, releasing all tension, just

2031
04:29:36.559 --> 04:29:46.000
to show how much you care about your legs, how

2032
04:29:46.079 --> 04:29:51.959
much you care for what your legs do for you regularly,

2033
04:29:54.360 --> 04:30:04.600
your need, your calves, your ankles, the strength of your ankles,

2034
04:30:07.479 --> 04:30:12.200
considering how thin they are compared to the rest of

2035
04:30:12.280 --> 04:30:22.040
your legs, especially your thighs. Yeah, they're so strong, so flexible,

2036
04:30:25.799 --> 04:30:38.680
absolutely amazing things. Your ankles are truly a gift because

2037
04:30:38.680 --> 04:30:47.440
of what they do for you. Supporting all that weight.

2038
04:30:49.440 --> 04:30:53.840
Regardless of how what weight you are, even if you

2039
04:30:53.959 --> 04:30:58.680
only eat ate stone, there's still a lot of weight

2040
04:30:58.920 --> 04:31:05.799
for these little ankles now a lot heavier than eight

2041
04:31:05.920 --> 04:31:16.559
st double dock. Yet my ankles support my body all

2042
04:31:16.600 --> 04:31:23.040
the time. What they do give off a sigh of

2043
04:31:23.120 --> 04:31:28.440
relief when I sit down, that's I've had my whole

2044
04:31:28.479 --> 04:31:37.959
legs though. My feet fingles to go, my toes clap

2045
04:31:39.399 --> 04:32:04.840
so happy. Eggs really are amazing.

2046
04:32:07.440 --> 04:32:10.680
And I know you're talking about talking about how your

2047
04:32:10.799 --> 04:32:11.319
legs is.

2048
04:32:11.360 --> 04:32:17.840
Probably possibly one of the most most boring things I've

2049
04:32:17.840 --> 04:32:26.879
ever heard anyone say. Possibly you're boring or not. Everything

2050
04:32:26.959 --> 04:32:42.399
I said is true. Your legs are amazing. Your legs

2051
04:32:42.559 --> 04:32:52.879
deserve not just respect, because they deserve to relax.

2052
04:32:54.319 --> 04:32:54.680
Deeply.

2053
04:33:01.959 --> 04:33:05.319
They deserve to take some time out of the day

2054
04:33:07.520 --> 04:33:09.680
to just let go completely.

2055
04:33:27.639 --> 04:33:28.639
Your legs.

2056
04:33:33.720 --> 04:33:36.720
Really can relax.

2057
04:33:44.040 --> 04:33:48.000
Because the legs are so such a most you know,

2058
04:33:48.240 --> 04:33:54.159
very important part of your body. When you relax your legs,

2059
04:33:54.279 --> 04:34:01.520
the rest of your body also naturally follows in that

2060
04:34:05.240 --> 04:34:16.080
journey of comfort. Like I feel it in my hips.

2061
04:34:17.479 --> 04:34:24.599
My hips feel really loose, and also my lighter back

2062
04:34:24.639 --> 04:34:31.240
as well. My light back really feels it feels stretched,

2063
04:34:32.360 --> 04:34:35.400
even though I'm just sitting in a chair and there's

2064
04:34:35.520 --> 04:34:40.759
no stretching as far as I'm aware that I'm doing.

2065
04:34:41.799 --> 04:34:44.439
It's almost as if the muscles are just relaxed so

2066
04:34:44.680 --> 04:34:50.599
much that there is a natural stretch. As the tension

2067
04:34:51.479 --> 04:35:15.119
has reduced a lot. Ann count down ten downs of one,

2068
04:35:19.639 --> 04:35:21.400
you can continue.

2069
04:35:22.560 --> 04:35:23.360
To fill.

2070
04:35:24.840 --> 04:35:49.080
Wonderfully relaxed ten nine, eight, seven, six, five.

2071
04:35:53.439 --> 04:36:06.520
Four three te Why.

2072
04:36:12.360 --> 04:36:24.279
Relaxed? So I'm just going to count down from five

2073
04:36:24.479 --> 04:36:28.680
down to one, and as a countdown, if you just

2074
04:36:28.799 --> 04:36:36.599
focus on the numbers, just the numbers counting down, and

2075
04:36:36.840 --> 04:36:40.479
notice how you feel.

2076
04:36:42.840 --> 04:36:44.000
In this moment.

2077
04:36:45.439 --> 04:36:49.799
As you hear the numbers counting down, knowing that those

2078
04:36:50.000 --> 04:37:03.040
numbers counting down represent you feeling calmer, not just in

2079
04:37:03.159 --> 04:37:07.759
your body, but also relaxing your mind.

2080
04:37:10.560 --> 04:37:12.119
I just notice how you feel.

2081
04:37:13.040 --> 04:37:18.919
There's nothing to do, there's nothing to say, there's nothing

2082
04:37:19.080 --> 04:37:24.200
to think about, starting with.

2083
04:37:25.680 --> 04:37:26.599
Number five.

2084
04:37:35.080 --> 04:37:45.319
Four three.

2085
04:37:55.680 --> 04:38:02.080
Two one.

2086
04:38:11.560 --> 04:38:18.000
How as you notice the gradual.

2087
04:38:20.240 --> 04:38:20.799
Letting go.

2088
04:38:23.360 --> 04:38:30.439
The tension in your body, you may also begin to

2089
04:38:30.759 --> 04:38:38.000
notice and be aware of how your mind is starting

2090
04:38:38.479 --> 04:38:46.439
to slow down. This is just a natural thing that happens.

2091
04:38:49.080 --> 04:38:54.279
It's not really a special procedure. It's just natural because

2092
04:38:54.360 --> 04:39:00.240
as your body relaxes, your mind also starts to relat

2093
04:39:01.840 --> 04:39:05.799
and the more microlaxes, the more your body relaxes. It's

2094
04:39:05.959 --> 04:39:18.000
just a continuous circle of relaxation. And there's that calmness

2095
04:39:18.240 --> 04:39:25.400
that comes from relative quietness. You know, even even if

2096
04:39:25.439 --> 04:39:29.680
there's background sounds, either your side.

2097
04:39:29.520 --> 04:39:35.599
Orline is still going to be quite calm.

2098
04:39:37.319 --> 04:39:39.959
You know, you haven't got the television on, there's no

2099
04:39:40.279 --> 04:39:44.479
music in the background, unless you're listening to the recorded

2100
04:39:44.520 --> 04:39:45.080
with music.

2101
04:39:45.240 --> 04:39:52.439
Of course, you're very likely not going to be sitting

2102
04:39:52.479 --> 04:39:55.639
in a room with other people. Of course you might be,

2103
04:39:55.840 --> 04:39:59.680
but generally it's more ideal if.

2104
04:39:59.599 --> 04:40:04.439
You can do this on your own, so no distractions,

2105
04:40:10.599 --> 04:40:23.560
and when you stop thinking about stuff, relaxation automatically rises.

2106
04:40:25.919 --> 04:40:27.439
A sense of comfort.

2107
04:40:28.720 --> 04:40:34.119
Starts to grow, and.

2108
04:40:35.919 --> 04:40:41.159
Without trying to build it up into something fantastical or

2109
04:40:44.560 --> 04:40:53.279
something magical, this is just a natural process, something.

2110
04:40:53.040 --> 04:40:55.200
That's easy.

2111
04:40:57.240 --> 04:40:57.919
To accomplish.

2112
04:41:00.720 --> 04:41:05.119
In fact, it's almost you know, the sense of relaxing

2113
04:41:05.959 --> 04:41:11.680
completely happens really when you put no effort into it.

2114
04:41:12.720 --> 04:41:18.400
It's not something that you can really force. It's something

2115
04:41:18.560 --> 04:41:29.279
that happens naturally and part of the process of this

2116
04:41:29.599 --> 04:41:41.560
recording and others is simply two. Allow you to take

2117
04:41:41.599 --> 04:41:45.119
advantage of this space.

2118
04:41:47.799 --> 04:41:52.040
This time, it's just.

2119
04:41:56.200 --> 04:42:07.479
Let go, just be here, to be in tune with

2120
04:42:07.680 --> 04:42:19.840
how you feel, yet with the intention of wanting to

2121
04:42:20.840 --> 04:42:32.200
relax deeply and maybe even to fall asleep, depending on

2122
04:42:32.759 --> 04:42:37.040
what it is that you wish for yourself.

2123
04:42:38.319 --> 04:42:39.119
In this moment.

2124
04:42:46.080 --> 04:42:55.919
As we know, relaxing is the majority of the process.

2125
04:42:55.599 --> 04:42:56.560
Of falling asleep.

2126
04:42:57.759 --> 04:43:01.479
The actual fall a sleep part is the tiny bit

2127
04:43:01.520 --> 04:43:14.080
at the end. The deeper relaxed you become, the easier.

2128
04:43:16.599 --> 04:43:17.479
You find.

2129
04:43:18.759 --> 04:43:34.799
Yourself drifting. You can also, if you choose stay focused

2130
04:43:35.959 --> 04:43:59.799
on my voice and really enjoy the process corradually relaxing

2131
04:44:04.200 --> 04:44:32.080
each muscle in your body effortlessly and just observing the sensation.

2132
04:44:36.759 --> 04:44:37.720
Of letting go.

2133
04:44:44.159 --> 04:44:44.919
Completely.

2134
04:44:50.959 --> 04:44:55.000
This time, I'm man a count from six down to one.

2135
04:45:00.200 --> 04:45:00.959
You can make this.

2136
04:45:02.439 --> 04:45:03.479
Your mind.

2137
04:45:05.759 --> 04:45:19.159
Calming down with each number you hear me say, actually

2138
04:45:20.279 --> 04:45:36.080
feeling calm and sir, peaceful, sex.

2139
04:46:01.759 --> 04:48:01.639
Five, four, w.

2140
04:48:22.880 --> 04:48:24.599
Being aware.

2141
04:48:27.319 --> 04:48:42.439
How your hide to slow right down, sinking deeply into

2142
04:48:42.560 --> 04:49:03.919
relaxation as she focus on your Why did they noticed

2143
04:49:04.159 --> 04:49:13.880
that there's some thoughts still there, maybe some stubborn thoughts

2144
04:49:14.119 --> 04:49:22.200
that some eason, perhaps need your attention.

2145
04:49:29.319 --> 04:49:30.200
What you can do.

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Sad love to those thorts. Sprinkle those stats of love,

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all petals for a flower. Just sprint petals, feel good,

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love those thoughts. To let those thoughts slow down. You're

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not abandon the number. You just need them to require

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them to just calm down, slow down, quiet down.

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And now.

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So as you focus on those remaining thoughts, and to countdown.

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This time from seven down to one.

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Each number, just imagine sprinkling those flower petals of love, this.

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Gratitude.

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I heard that the thoughts should allow them to just.

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Not away, relax deeply.

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Be number. My thoughts will become a.

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Good axed starting I number seven, Yes, I assist.

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