Aug. 25, 2025

(music) (5 hours) How my brother ruined my 8th Birthday | LMBYTS #1422 | Jason Newland | 25th August 2025

(music) (5 hours) How my brother ruined my 8th Birthday | LMBYTS #1422 | Jason Newland | 25th August 2025
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In this special birthday edition of Let Me Bore You To Sleep (#1422), Jason Newland reflects on the day his younger brother was born—the day before his 8th birthday—and how it completely changed the spotlight on his big day. With his trademark mix of humor, rambling stories, and light-hearted complaints, Jason shares childhood memories, family anecdotes, and the unique way birthdays shaped his life. As always, the meandering storytelling is designed to relax, distract, and gently lull you into a calm, sleepy state. Perfect for anyone who enjoys a blend of nostalgia, silliness, and soothing background chatter before drifting off to sleep.

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Hello, and welcome to Jasonnewland dot com. My name's Jason

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new Land. This is let Me Buy to Sleep LM

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LMB white, Yes, LMB white, Yes, yeah, mitz lebitz. Yeah.

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So it is Monday, the twenty fifth of August two

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thousand and twenty five. Hello, Hello, it's my brother's birthday

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today and tomorrow Tuesday, the twenty sixth of August twenty

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twenty five. It's my birthday, my mine, mine, So yeah,

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I'll be tomorrow fifty five years old, fifty five, fifty

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fifty five, even if you say a quick least it

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sounds old, yep, fifty five. As I got my hand

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on top of my head, really feeling the temperature difference

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in my ball spot. It's weird, and like, h I wonder,

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I'm not sure if I wonder if I have any

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hair by the time I'm sixty five. So yeah, So

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it's my brother was born well now clearly was born

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the day before my birthday when I was I turned eight.

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So basically he was born the day before my eighth birthday.

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And I remember that quite clearly. Yeah, so I'll tell

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you about that in a minute. Oh yeah, I got

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uncle sausages funeral on Thursday at nine thirty, So that's

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going to be a weird one. But I do still

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intend to do a Q and A Friday This Friday.

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I need to post a question thing on faith book.

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I had a lot of questions last time last Friday,

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lots and lots of questions. So I'm gonna if I remember,

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I will post that. I could do it now while

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I'm thinking about No, I can't because there's no Internet

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on my phone because I always put it onto Yeah,

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I put it onto what's it called airplane mode, so

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I don't get disturbed by all the millions of phone

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calls that I get on a daily basis me. So yeah,

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I'll do that after this. So it's bank Collored in

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Monday here in the British Isles of the UK England Commonwealth,

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and it's a nice day outside. It's really nice, little

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bit of wind which is good. It's fairly hot there,

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very sunny. What he took Vinnie out earlier about seven

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o'clock ish, and of course he barked at a couple

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of dogs like he does. I missed the old days

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when he was really like when he was ten months

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old and I first got him he was happy to

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see every single dog excited. He just wanted to run

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up to them and be friends. He's not like that anymore.

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He's got the dogs that he's friends with, and anyone

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new he's not particularly interested in, and especially the big dogs.

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He doesn't like big dogs or generally black dogs. But

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he's got a couple of black dog friends, so he's

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not completely racist, but he's definitely you know, he's got

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a thing about sheep dogs, what they called colliers or

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whatever they're called. Yet one of his good friends is

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a collier's. I can't figure him out, really, So not

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a big fan of him doing it anytime, but not

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early in the morning or late at night. Just not

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not really, don't even really enjoy that. It's because some

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people like he did it. Yesterday we turned a corner

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and there was someone there of a dog, and did

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he's barking, And both the people the dog would give

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me funny looks like he's just a dog. He's barking.

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That's what dogs do, man. But you know, I could

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be responsible for him up to a limit. You know,

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he's on a lead. He can't do any mischief, but

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as far as barking, he's going to do that. He's

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a dog, that's what you know. I can't stop him

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from barking. I try and stop him, and I'm usually

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able to calm him down. But ultimately, if he decides

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to start barking, which I think is kind of automatic behavior,

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he doesn't plan it. He's not got a little alarm

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goes off on his on his watch that tells him

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all time to bark. No, it's just an automatic response

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to outside stimuli. I'm guessing I don't know where he is.

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He's on the floor somewhere. He came in licking his lips.

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So I've got some food, got some water, or change

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his waterever because he was in a bedroom with his

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water and his food did not touch his food f

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him last night. So I've given him some new food.

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Put it out. I haven't got anywhere near it, and

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I think he's just done a big fart. Wit. No,

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it wasn't me, it was him. If it was me,

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it was a silent one. But normally even if it's silent,

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you know, still feel the air bad. So, yeah, it's

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another week, another week in August. It's the last week

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of August. I do believe so what we've got twenty

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six tomorrow, just Tuesday, my birthday, fifty five, twenty seventh, Wednesday,

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twenty third on Thursday, twenty third, Wow, twenty six, twenty seven, Wednesday,

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twenty eighth, Thursday, twenty ninth, Friday, thirtieth, Saturday day, very

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first Sunday, and the first of September will be next

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Monday in a week's time. So, yeah, that was a

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bit pointless, really, wasn't. I just reading out the numbers

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of the days. The weird thing is, I just really

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enjoyed doing it, and I don't know why I do know. Yeah,

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I haven't really done much today, although it's still fairly early.

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It's only eleven twenty five in the morning. I mean recently,

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I have been doing recordings a little bit earlier than this,

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but it's been relatively quite outside. So I thought, ah,

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maybe i'll make a recording. There's not much screaming and

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shouting and you know, ding dongs going on out there.

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Plus one two three, four, one two four out of

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six of the flats in this building are empty at

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the moment today. Anyway, one's on holiday. I think one's

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gone away for the weekend or so. I don't know.

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I haven't seen them because I put some black bags

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out there out the front for them. There's a little

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gift and they haven't brought it in, so I guess

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they're not around. And then yeah, one downstairs on a holiday,

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and then they have two flats that are empty anyway,

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So there's only me and downstairs that they're here today.

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So pitt quiet and I don't make much noise. Generally,

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I'm fairly fairly peaceful neighbor. I would, I would, I think,

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I hope. So I have asked intermittently my neighbor downstairs

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just to make sure that I'm being quiet enough, because

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I don't, you know, I don't want to be one

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of those noisy neighbors. That's almost like my worst scenario.

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Just yeah, other than having a really noisy neighbors, that's

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that's up higher than that, you know. So hmmm, yeah,

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the weakerheads looking.

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Well.

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I don't really do anything on my birthday anymore. I

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used to. I used to celebrate my birthday every single year,

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not as in like having a birthday celebration party or

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anything like that. I'm talking about as an adult. When

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I was a kid, I used to have parties. I think, yeah,

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pretty much. But as an adult, most of the time

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when I was in London, I would take the day

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off on my birthday, I'd go up to the West

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End and just chill out. I'll become I suppose, like

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a tourist for the day and I'd go and eat out,

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and I'd go and I'd be on my own every

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single time, and I'd just, you know, just go to

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the West End. I would look around, go into the bookshops,

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maybe buy a book, go and get McDonald's. I saw

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her an advert or saw an advert on TV for McDonald's.

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And now they're using the term Mackie d for McDonald's,

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which just shows you how how slow companies are to

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use because I heard that term when I like twenty

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five years ago, people talk about mcy d's. So now

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McDonald's just realized that people use that term. I personally

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don't use that term because it's McDonald's. I did the

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idea of actually making a cute name for something that's

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so harmful for me, you know, I mean McDonald's, Okay.

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I used to like McDonald's used to be a treat.

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Now it's I would have I would go to McDonald's

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if there was nothing else to eat, it would be

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a last resort. I think i'd even choose a sausage

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roll over McDonald's meal. Generally, Yeah, it's if I'm in

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the middle of somewhere and I've got no other food.

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I'll go to McDonald's only if there's McDonald's there, because

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otherwise I wouldn't be able to go, could I.

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No.

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Oh, So my birthday, my birthday, my birthday, My my birthday,

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my birthday, my birthday, Oh fifty five? How many birthdays

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I can remember? I can't remember last year. Well, birthdays

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stand out in my life. Okay. The first birthday I

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call was when I was living in Newcastle in a

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children's home and I come down. I've told this story before,

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but I come downstairs because my birthday was always during

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the summer holidays when I was at school, so right

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from being I don't know when I first went to school.

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I don't know what age I was, but I never

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had to do anything on my birthday until I started working,

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and then when I got to my twenties, I kind

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of decided I'm not working on my birthday anymore. So yeah,

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my first birthday recollection because I didn't know what my

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birthday was. I didn't know how old I was back then,

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so I guessed and I was probably about five. And

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I come downstairs. I'm late, must have slept in or something.

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I go into the canteen because the the Children's Home

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in Newcastle was a lot better than the Children's Home

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in South End where I ended up. It was it

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was just nicer though. The place was nicer and as

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far as brighter and where we ate it was like

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a conservatory thing and I don't know, it was just

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a nicer and it was all surrounded by fields and

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you know the play area, big play field was swings

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and stuff. Yeah. Anyway, I so I come down and

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I'm sitting at the table and someone says, oh, happy birthday.

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I said, okay, I had no idea it was my birthday.

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Neither did they. I mean, obviously I did, because that

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just said happy birthday, and because I know I had

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that conversation with him. I said, how do you that's

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my birthday? And she said I didn't. I said, well,

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you just told me happy birthday. How can you say

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happy birthday if you didn't know it's my birthday? She said, well,

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I could just be making it up, and I could

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say happy birthday to anyone at any time, you know.

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But I said, what are you you making up? And

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she said no, I'm not. I said, okay, well, how

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come how do you know it's my birthday? Then she

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said because your mom came around. I said really, I said, yeah,

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your mom turned up. I said, okay, where is she? No,

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she didn't stop. Okay, she didn't stop. She did. Why

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didn't you wake me up? Oh? She couldn't stop. Okay.

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So I said, okay, a lot back then, and I

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said all right, And she said then the lady said, well,

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she left you a present. I said, I know, really,

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and she gave it to me. It was a box

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of more teasers, like one of the bigger boxes. And

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I love not what I love more teasers still do.

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So oh and that was it. That was my birthday,

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and that's her first birthday. I remember having really known

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of what her birthday was. Now the next time I

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had a birthday, I couldn't tell you. I mean, I

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know it was a year later, but I couldn't tell you.

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I don't remember a specific celebration of any particular birthday

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year probably until I was eight, So I remember that birthday.

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So we'd been living we just moved into, not just

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moved in. But I haven't been long. We've been living

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in this house which was a new build on a

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council estate, which my nana Grande moved into as well.

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Once we moved out in I don't know, nineteen eighty

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eight or summer time. Yeah, just in time. Yeah, it's

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probably just in time for me to move into. We

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moved into a new house and I started a new

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school in September. So yeah, that's it. Yeah, that's right.

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So the day before my eighth birthday, the twenty fifth,

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which is today, I don't even know how many years ago,

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forty something, forty three, no, forty seven years ago. So

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my little brother is now forty seven, he's getting old

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and he so forty seven years ago today I was

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see in our house we had and I don't know why,

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and it's really it caused problems for my name as well.

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As she fell down these steps that I fell down,

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and they put a ramp up in the end, my

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dad and whatever. It was ridiculous, like these big steps

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and each step was pretty much as high up up

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to my knee when I was only two inches tall

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at the time, but still big steps to get into

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the back door. And it's I think it's because the

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house was kind of on a bit of a slope

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and the ground hadn't settled yet because it was on

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a new bit of land. Why not a new bit

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of land and land's probably been there for millions of years,

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But depending on which book you read. And I I

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fell downstairs that my stepmom was heavily pregnant. I mean,

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the fact is she had a baby that day, so

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she must have been quite heavily pregnant. And she comes

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out to help me. So I walked down the stairs

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and I'm crying where my dad comes out and oh,

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you've had the baby already, and he realizes it's just me.

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I was still a baby, that's what That's the day

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I stopped being a baby. It's kind of weird. I

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got to be a baby for a year pretty much.

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I had a whole year of being the baby, being

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the youngest. I know, I was young. I was youngest

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for the first eight years, but that's it's only between

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seven and eight that I was actually treated like a human,

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I think. So I got to be a baby and

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act like a baby and be all, I don't know,

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baby ish, I guess I don't mean a baby baby.

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I wasn't like wearing nappies and going gega googo, Not

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that babies generally go gega goo goo, buter like that.

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I wasn't doing that, but I was, you know, I was.

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My dad would carry me on his shoulders and we

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were walking around and I would sit on my stepmom's

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lap and cuddle up to her like I was a

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little baby. Yeah, it was good. I liked it. But

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then my little brother was born and he ruined everything,

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absolutely ruined it, and I suddenly had to start acting

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I suppose my age. Really it was good. It was

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good for a year kind of what was it? Yeah?

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I remember once I was thinking because my dad said, oh,

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you getting a bit too heavy now for me to

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carry you on my shoulders, so I'm probably not gonna

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be able to do it anymore. And I thought, hmmm,

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So what I did is I put super glue on

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my bum and on my legs. Well, I was wearing

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trousers but was super clue on them, and I thought

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that'd work, but it didn't. He just took his shirt

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off and we didn't talk about it again. Yeah, the

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people in a restaurant weren't too pleased. That doesn't make sense.

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What do you mean the people in the restaurant. Why

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would you be on your dad's shoulders in a restaurant.

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I don't know. It makes sense when I said it,

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But then once I said that, I realized it didn't

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make sense, and instead of moving on, I actually highlighted

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the fact that what I just said made no no

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sense at all.

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You can't think of any other words that mean sense,

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can you? So you just keep using the same words sense.

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Yeah, I noticed that as well. Thanks, it's okay. I'm

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here to help. Yeah, cheers didn't make any didn't seem relevant,

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didn't make any kind of sense. No, see, she'll keep

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coming back to the words since anyway, I fell over,

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not on purpose, you know. I bashed my knee on

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the concrete floor. It hurt, and I cried like that

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and probably about a lot louder. Although I got quite

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a quiet voice, I can shout really loud. You'd be

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surprised you. Honestly, I can really shout loud if I

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need to. But the whole estate would hear me if

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I showered my loudest. I don't know why. It's my

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little superpower. I keep quiet. I keep it to myself.

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Plus there's no apparent reason to use it. And yeah,

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so I've fallen. I've fallen over off the step, a

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very unsafe step. Really not a good idea to have

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us two steps, in fact, two concrete steps to get

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into the back door. It just I don't know, personally,

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I think it was a bad idea and a big

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fault in the building structure. It just wasn't It's a

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nice house. It was my favorite house of all time.

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And if I could live anywhere, it'd be there in

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that house. You know, it'd have to be like it

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was when my men lived there. I wouldn't change a thing.

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I keep it the same. But unfortunately she moved out,

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she had to move out, and yeah, into a care home,

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and not a care home that was sheltered them sheltered

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sheltered residential accommodation is that what it's called. She had

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her own flat and with I don't know how many

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other people, fifty sixty hundred, I don't know, and everyone

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had their own flats, and she'd go in as you

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walk basically as you walk in the main thing. I

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think it was locked sometimes. But if you walk in

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and there's this big area room where sometimes they'd congregate

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and play big go and cricket or whatever else hopscotch,

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and I don't know why that's funny, and then turn right.

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It wasn't funny. Okay, stop, I don't need this. You're

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not helping anymore, not trying to. Oh it's a turn

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right down there, one, two, three four on the right,

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that was where her door was. I couldn't tell you

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what number it was. I do what number. I knew

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what I didn't look. I remember the numbers of the

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two houses I lived in when I was a kid too.

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Of the houses, one was fifty six, one was ninety eight, Yeah,

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fifty six, ninety eight, but this one I don't remember.

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And yeah, you go in on the left hand side,

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there was a cudboard. On top of that there was

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was it a cupboardal was in built? I don't know.

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But that's where my nan stored shoe boxes with photographs.

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And there was some photo albums up there as well,

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because every now and then we get them out and

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have a little look. They'll laugh. And then she'd show

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me she had pictures of me when I was little before,

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like when I was like really little. I don't know how.

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That's kind of a little bit confusing. I don't know

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how because this is before I was I was like

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a toddler. I'm guessing when I was with the foster parents,

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my name was still visited and visiting us, maybe still

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taking us out, and maybe my dad was. I don't

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really don't know, but there there were some pictures of

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us where I was definitely older than a baby. Yeah,

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and it was before I was too, because that's when

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I moved to Newcastle. Anyways. Pictures of me and a

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pram and stuff, and my nan and my brother, and

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there's a few pictures of me when I was younger,

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when I was like a kid, Christmases and stuff like that.

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Pictures of the family, Pictures of my nan when she

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was a kid, Pictures of her when she got married,

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Pictures of my granddad. My grandad looked like Clark Gable

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seriously when he was older, I mean when he was

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like in his fifties sixties, looked like Clark Gable, very

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handsome man. I obviously take after him, and he had

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a mustache. I think he had a mustache all his life.

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I don't suit a mustache really. In fact, recently I've

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been shaving. I've not had a beard for a while.

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I just I'm not sure if having a gray beard

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really help help to me in life. I just don't

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know if it's advantageous on any level. You know, just

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see for me, I look at it. I look at

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pictures of me with beard. I think I look all right,

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But then I see other people with exactly the same

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kind of beard is what I've got, And I'm thinking,

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do I look like that? Because sometimes it looks really scraggly.

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And I don't know. I think I think beards look

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good from a distance, but as you get closer, maybe

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they don't look so good. I don't know. I might

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just I could dye my beard black and dye my

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hair black, dye my eyebrows black, and dye my ear

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hairs black. My arm hair is black. I don't know

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I could do I'd look silly, but I could do it.

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I look ridiculous. But or blonde. I used to be blonde,

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I did. I think I was born blonde, but gingery,

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I say, born blonde. I don't know if I had

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much hair when I was born. That's reverting back to

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being a baby again. Yeah, the aging process is a

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little bit like that, isn't it turning into a babby?

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So that's why I used to call them when I

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was because I was living Newcastle, called them babby's. I

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didn't know, but I didn't know what baby was. I

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knew what babby was. So guys, remember that. Wow, I

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haven't heard that turn for a long time, a babby unless,

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of course, I'm gont getting it wrong. Maybe I was

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just pronouncing it incorrectly.

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It's baby, Jason's baby Babby Babby. Why are you talking

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like that, Jason, You're twelve years old, Babby Babby?

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No, I don't know. That was weird. Yeah, that was

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too weird to me. So I fall over and I

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baked my knee on the floor on the concrete. I'm crying.

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Where where I've heard MANGI mange is so wow?

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Oh.

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To start with, I didn't make too much noise, but

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no one came, so I had to up it, you know,

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I had to make it louder. And you know, after

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about twenty minutes of no one taking any notice, that's

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when I used my super powerful loud voice which I

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have hidden away, and I'm not going to do an

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impression because that would be really loud. The microphone would break.

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And that's when my stepmom came running out and she tripped.

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I think she tripped on the step, but she came out.

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But the shock I know. She picked me up and

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her water broke, and it's really weird. Her water broke

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and I learned to swim at the same time. It

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was great. No, I think she picked me up and

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then she went to the kitchen and suddenly I just

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hear this splash and I'm thinking, oh, I don't have

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to clear that up, and she calls for help, and

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I'm thinking, what are you calling me for help? I'm

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the one that needs help. I'm waiting for that plaster.

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Where's the plast? Day woman? I never said that again? Wow, Oh,

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but yeah, she's a I've never said that to anyone

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ever in my life. I said, man, but yeah, man,

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white man, because I'm an old hippie in it. I

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used to be young hippie. Now I'm an old hippie.

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Still don't know what it means. Anyway, her waters broke,

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splashed everywhere, and I actually thought that my little brother

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was just going to pop out. And the reason he

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hadn't fallen on the floor is because she was wearing knickers.

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I didn't understand that the whole process of giving birth.

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I just figured that it just it'd come out with

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the water, you know, it'd flush out. And the next

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thing I know, she's my dad said, I'm not sure

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if my dad was. I think he was a And

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he comes in and saying, who made this mess? You know,

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and my step Moe pointing to me, and so it's

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my fault. So I had to go and get them

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the mop and bucket. No that happened. Someone cleared it up.

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They must have done. And the two things they had

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to do. First of all, they had to leave us

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on our own, but they left us with I think

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I left us. They left the neighbor looking after us,

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and maybe next door that we were very close with,

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so I say close, but we liked them. They were

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really really nice people, so I think we probably stayed

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or maybe her mum came around and looked after us.

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Who was my step name? Someone did anyway, and they

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went off to hospital to have the baby, and then

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a few hours later after they left, my nan and

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granddad turned up to look after us, and they were

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with us for about three days, three or four days

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while the baby was in hospital, because the baby was born,

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you know, within a few hours. I think I'm partially

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making this up because I don't know the full facts,

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but I think my little brother was born, you know,

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fairly quick, and I think she was quite lucky. She's

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got she had an extra large uterus, So I don't

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know what I was saying. It just lead out, no problems,

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no pain. It was just, you know, didn't even realize

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she'd had baby, just like it was just she was

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sitting there eating some corn flakes and my dad popped out.

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It came back and my little brother was just lying

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on the on the bed, sucking. It's fun. She didn't

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realize she'd give them birth. Would you believe any of this?

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So that was my I remember visiting. We couldn't visit

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until I think the day after, so probably went up

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there on my birthday, probably to visit the hospital. Things

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were a little bit different in the seventies. It was

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you know, people stayed in hospital a lot longer for

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things that you wouldn't be in hospital for editing nowadays,

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I fact a lot of outpatient things are done that

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used to be in patient things. You know, so things

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like having a baby, you can be in and out

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of in a short period of time, providing everything's gone

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to plan, you know. But back then she was in

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hospital for about a week. I mean, I know people

461
00:40:35.639 --> 00:40:37.400
have had their appendix out and they're out of in

462
00:40:37.440 --> 00:40:42.079
about two days. I was in for at least what

463
00:40:42.480 --> 00:40:46.119
six seven days? When I have my appendix out, I

464
00:40:46.159 --> 00:40:50.199
did milk it. I loved I'd have my favorite time

465
00:40:50.280 --> 00:40:53.719
of all. That was my favorite time my childhood was

466
00:40:53.760 --> 00:40:57.960
being in hospital. That's sad, isn't it. But I loved it.

467
00:40:58.039 --> 00:41:05.079
I did had the best time. And also I was

468
00:41:05.119 --> 00:41:09.199
in love with Nurse Nichols. So that was when I

469
00:41:09.239 --> 00:41:19.800
was about twelve though. Anyway, the most important thing, remember, yeah,

470
00:41:20.519 --> 00:41:25.000
I think we spoke to my stepmom on the phone

471
00:41:25.360 --> 00:41:30.360
and she said to me, this is like first thing

472
00:41:30.440 --> 00:41:32.440
in the I think it was first thing on the

473
00:41:32.480 --> 00:41:37.719
morning on my birthday and she says, happy birthday, Jason.

474
00:41:38.280 --> 00:41:43.000
I said thanks. She said, your little brothers. Isn't your

475
00:41:43.000 --> 00:41:45.599
little brother the best birthday present you could ever get?

476
00:41:50.000 --> 00:41:54.840
I didn't know what to do with that. I was like, Okay,

477
00:41:54.960 --> 00:41:58.679
I want to say yes, just to make her feel better,

478
00:42:00.239 --> 00:42:10.400
to her feel that she's done something worthwhile. It's one

479
00:42:10.440 --> 00:42:16.440
that's funny, done something that actually mad. She meant something

480
00:42:16.920 --> 00:42:22.719
to me, which it didn't. I didn't care. It was

481
00:42:22.760 --> 00:42:25.239
a novelty, to be honest. He was a novelty when

482
00:42:25.239 --> 00:42:27.840
he first came along. It was like having a pet, really,

483
00:42:27.880 --> 00:42:30.480
isn't it If you have a new brother, like having

484
00:42:30.480 --> 00:42:33.280
a new kitten or a new dog. The novelty's there,

485
00:42:33.719 --> 00:42:37.119
the novelty wears off. It's like, yeah, I'll take him

486
00:42:37.119 --> 00:42:40.840
for a walk every day, promise, and then after three

487
00:42:40.880 --> 00:42:45.199
weeks she will turn to take him out. Can't you

488
00:42:45.280 --> 00:42:49.599
take him out? So yeah, that's kind of what it

489
00:42:49.679 --> 00:42:53.280
was like having a brother. Plus I thought he had

490
00:42:53.400 --> 00:42:58.199
I've got two brothers already. I knew what to expect

491
00:42:59.360 --> 00:43:02.440
and I didn't see much point in them, So to

492
00:43:02.480 --> 00:43:04.800
have another one didn't seem a lot of There was

493
00:43:04.840 --> 00:43:08.519
no logic in that. Really, my two pointless older ones,

494
00:43:08.599 --> 00:43:13.079
what's the point in another new one, a younger one.

495
00:43:13.599 --> 00:43:15.719
This is how I used to feel when I was eight.

496
00:43:17.599 --> 00:43:28.199
And so I'm on the phone and she's saying, yes,

497
00:43:28.639 --> 00:43:30.480
it's the best present you've ever had. Isn't it the

498
00:43:30.519 --> 00:43:33.559
best birthday present you could ever get? And I laughed,

499
00:43:33.679 --> 00:43:37.519
thinking she's joking, and she said, why are you laughing?

500
00:43:37.599 --> 00:43:41.960
I said, oh, no, nothing, no reason, And I just

501
00:43:42.000 --> 00:43:44.480
thought of a joke that I saw in the Kenny

502
00:43:44.480 --> 00:43:51.320
Everette Show. She said, what was it? I said, it's

503
00:43:51.360 --> 00:44:00.599
basically he was. I don't remember. She said, did you

504
00:44:00.639 --> 00:44:05.800
make it up? I said, no, no, it did happen,

505
00:44:05.840 --> 00:44:08.360
and just forget what it was now. But you remember

506
00:44:08.440 --> 00:44:10.239
that when you were talking to me a second ago

507
00:44:10.960 --> 00:44:14.239
and started laughing. In fact, you remembering it while I

508
00:44:14.320 --> 00:44:17.960
was talking to you about the baby, about baby, It

509
00:44:18.000 --> 00:44:20.880
wasn't the baby baby? Do you ever see that? Do

510
00:44:21.039 --> 00:44:24.280
you hear people talk like nurses and stuff? Let's see

511
00:44:24.280 --> 00:44:31.679
how baby is today? How's baby? Like? What? Learn my name?

512
00:44:33.280 --> 00:44:39.280
My name's Jason, not baby? How's baby? Let's wait baby?

513
00:44:40.760 --> 00:44:44.360
Or but you're looking forward to baby being born, aren't you? Oh?

514
00:44:44.800 --> 00:44:53.199
Baby baby? I don't know. Do people what do they

515
00:44:53.280 --> 00:44:59.119
call not wet nurses? What is the nurses that help

516
00:45:00.079 --> 00:45:04.800
pull babies out of you know, help with that part

517
00:45:04.840 --> 00:45:12.760
of it, the birth part. I don't know what they're

518
00:45:12.760 --> 00:45:20.480
called baby nurses? Them people? So are they told to

519
00:45:20.599 --> 00:45:26.599
use a word word baby as often as possible. Don't

520
00:45:26.599 --> 00:45:31.199
forget to feed baby, Like, yeah, I feel to remember

521
00:45:31.239 --> 00:45:35.519
that one. It's like when you're doing a meditation, they said,

522
00:45:35.519 --> 00:45:39.280
don't forget to breathe. You know, I remember saying at

523
00:45:39.320 --> 00:45:43.440
the times, you know what. I actually interrupted the meditation

524
00:45:43.519 --> 00:45:51.280
and said, I've not been rude. And I'm thirty one

525
00:45:51.360 --> 00:45:55.840
years old. I'm thirty two years old after you're thirty

526
00:45:55.880 --> 00:45:58.239
two years old. Not really relevant the age, but thirty

527
00:45:58.280 --> 00:46:06.239
two years old. Never once have I ever forgotten to breathe.

528
00:46:07.360 --> 00:46:11.920
And the meditation teacher thought I was being rude, rude,

529
00:46:12.119 --> 00:46:15.559
and I said, not being rude. It's just like I

530
00:46:15.559 --> 00:46:17.960
don't need to be told to remember to breeve. I've

531
00:46:17.960 --> 00:46:30.320
always breathed. I've never had to be reminded to breathe. Hmm, yeah,

532
00:46:30.320 --> 00:46:36.880
I didn't go down well. But anyway, baby, I said.

533
00:46:36.800 --> 00:46:39.199
When are we going to get to see baby? When

534
00:46:39.239 --> 00:46:42.880
can I meet baby? When are you bring baby home?

535
00:46:45.159 --> 00:46:51.280
Baby? Anyway? Yes, So so she's saying, don't you think

536
00:46:51.320 --> 00:46:55.199
that's the best birthday present you could ever have? And

537
00:46:55.280 --> 00:46:59.360
I said yeah, yeah, but seriously though, she said, what

538
00:47:00.599 --> 00:47:04.320
I'm actually getting a proper present? Are I, And she laughed,

539
00:47:04.559 --> 00:47:11.480
and then I thought, well, you're laughing, but it doesn't

540
00:47:11.519 --> 00:47:13.320
mean it's a yes or a no. I don't know

541
00:47:13.320 --> 00:47:16.440
what does that mean. You laughed at the question. But

542
00:47:16.480 --> 00:47:21.079
does that mean that it's funny what I said, but

543
00:47:21.159 --> 00:47:24.199
I'm not getting a present or that I am getting

544
00:47:24.199 --> 00:47:29.960
a present because in a answer to your question, step money,

545
00:47:30.199 --> 00:47:33.440
you poo out. A new baby, a new brother is

546
00:47:33.559 --> 00:47:39.960
not my idea of a good birthday present. It's not

547
00:47:40.360 --> 00:47:44.840
just not never will be, never has been. If anything,

548
00:47:45.000 --> 00:47:49.719
it's an inconvenience. If anything, I think, if we're all honest,

549
00:47:50.840 --> 00:47:56.400
it's spoilt my birthday. It's took the shine off my birthday.

550
00:47:57.800 --> 00:48:03.360
It's definitely taken the attention away from my birthday. And

551
00:48:03.400 --> 00:48:06.000
we all know how important the eighth birthday is for

552
00:48:06.079 --> 00:48:14.480
a boy eight years old. Oh, is anyone talking about

553
00:48:14.480 --> 00:48:18.760
how Jason's doing? Or it's Jason's birthday tomorrow? Or it

554
00:48:18.840 --> 00:48:22.960
is Jason's birthday today? Or or no, what are they

555
00:48:23.000 --> 00:48:23.599
talking about?

556
00:48:25.280 --> 00:48:26.079
Baby?

557
00:48:26.519 --> 00:48:28.079
We're talking about baby?

558
00:48:28.480 --> 00:48:29.199
Oh?

559
00:48:29.760 --> 00:48:32.480
Baby, how's baby doing? Because of course he didn't have

560
00:48:32.480 --> 00:48:39.320
a name yet, baby, the new baby, Like what about me?

561
00:48:40.840 --> 00:48:44.039
I used to be the baby yesterday? I was the baby.

562
00:48:44.400 --> 00:48:48.840
Now I'm not. Yeah, I've only had a year of

563
00:48:48.880 --> 00:48:54.360
being a baby. Most people get like a few years

564
00:48:54.519 --> 00:48:56.280
or you know, get quite a long time of being

565
00:48:56.280 --> 00:48:59.639
a baby, of being the babyish and growing up and

566
00:48:59.679 --> 00:49:02.320
being a loan. I didn't get that, so come on.

567
00:49:06.239 --> 00:49:07.599
The reason I didn't get it is because I was

568
00:49:07.599 --> 00:49:11.440
five when I was born. But luckily my real mum

569
00:49:11.480 --> 00:49:18.920
also had a massive We didn't bother her. The birth

570
00:49:18.920 --> 00:49:23.000
didn't bother fillopian tube it is that the right word,

571
00:49:23.039 --> 00:49:29.559
filopian tube or uterusfra. Yeah, she had a large urefra.

572
00:49:29.719 --> 00:49:32.280
So I was when I was born. It didn't really

573
00:49:32.280 --> 00:49:36.079
affect her. Plus, I was tiny when I was born.

574
00:49:36.159 --> 00:49:41.119
I was really very small, underdeveloped. Still am a bit

575
00:49:41.440 --> 00:49:50.119
really still waiting for parts to grow. So my nan

576
00:49:50.199 --> 00:49:55.159
and granddad are looking after us. I would talk about,

577
00:49:55.199 --> 00:49:57.400
you know, seeing my little brother for the first time,

578
00:49:57.960 --> 00:50:05.039
but it was completely unmemorable a brother. It's like, how

579
00:50:05.079 --> 00:50:12.599
do people get all emotional about babies as if it's

580
00:50:12.599 --> 00:50:16.840
your own baby. I understand it, but like as a

581
00:50:16.840 --> 00:50:19.960
as just another brother added on to the ones I've

582
00:50:19.960 --> 00:50:22.880
already got, which I didn't want anyway. I didn't want

583
00:50:22.880 --> 00:50:24.519
the ones I didn't want the ones I had, so

584
00:50:24.519 --> 00:50:29.639
I definitely didn't want another one. Yeah, we get the idea, JJ, okay,

585
00:50:30.639 --> 00:50:34.400
inconvenience if anything, well, you know, it wasn't wasn't a

586
00:50:34.400 --> 00:50:42.920
special moment, and it was like, okay always my birthday

587
00:50:42.960 --> 00:50:48.199
cake didn't get to ice it because you were too

588
00:50:48.239 --> 00:50:55.559
busy giving birth to that thing. Yeah, I had a

589
00:50:55.599 --> 00:50:59.559
birthday cake that was just a sponge with some candles.

590
00:51:00.079 --> 00:51:11.679
Now icing, how is that acceptable? How is that in

591
00:51:11.800 --> 00:51:17.440
any way? It shouldn't be allowed. I mean that's neglect,

592
00:51:17.559 --> 00:51:20.599
isn't it. I mean, oh, you're having another baby? What

593
00:51:20.639 --> 00:51:23.360
about the ones you've got? What about us? I know

594
00:51:23.400 --> 00:51:26.559
we're not your real kids, but what anyway? What about

595
00:51:26.559 --> 00:51:30.519
my birthday cake? Forget that that silly little thing you

596
00:51:30.639 --> 00:51:34.559
just had? What about my birthday cake? Had a bit

597
00:51:34.559 --> 00:51:37.280
of an attitude on eight, didn't. I don't come across

598
00:51:37.280 --> 00:51:42.639
it's very nice, did I back then? Oh? Much nicer.

599
00:51:43.000 --> 00:51:44.840
I was much nicer by the time I got to ten.

600
00:51:48.320 --> 00:51:50.679
To be fair, the next year was all right because

601
00:51:51.440 --> 00:51:54.000
I just saw how much strain, not getting any sleep,

602
00:51:55.000 --> 00:51:58.679
the effects that it had on the parents. I was like, yeah,

603
00:51:59.239 --> 00:52:01.559
I get your back for me not having a proper birthday.

604
00:52:04.679 --> 00:52:06.679
I think they must have aged about ten years. In

605
00:52:06.719 --> 00:52:10.119
the first year of having a baby, it was great.

606
00:52:11.079 --> 00:52:20.079
So I none of this is true. I know it

607
00:52:20.199 --> 00:52:30.960
went visited the baby, went visited the baby. And I

608
00:52:31.000 --> 00:52:37.840
mean even back then, I thought, you know what the

609
00:52:37.920 --> 00:52:41.280
nurses in the hospital that back then they used to

610
00:52:41.320 --> 00:52:47.519
have nurses do the nurse's job, and now they've got

611
00:52:47.559 --> 00:52:52.280
care workers, care assistance, care workers doing the nurse's job.

612
00:52:53.280 --> 00:52:55.760
The nurses seemed to be doing the doctor's job, and

613
00:52:55.840 --> 00:53:03.519
the doctors just come and go and doing whatever, probably

614
00:53:03.519 --> 00:53:09.039
doing the surgeoncy job. I don't know, but I couldn't. Honestly,

615
00:53:09.159 --> 00:53:11.360
it's amazing. If you go to the hospital now, it's

616
00:53:11.559 --> 00:53:15.920
changed so much. No one seems to be getting paid

617
00:53:16.360 --> 00:53:19.079
for what they're doing. Like the level of what they're doing.

618
00:53:19.480 --> 00:53:22.000
The nurses are doing so much more than they used to.

619
00:53:22.920 --> 00:53:25.079
The care workers are doing so much more than they

620
00:53:25.400 --> 00:53:30.039
used to is I mean, I'm pretty sure I saw

621
00:53:31.079 --> 00:53:35.880
one of the cleaners doing a heart transplant on one

622
00:53:35.920 --> 00:53:57.280
of the patients. Oh, admittedly she did get arrested. Who's

623
00:53:57.280 --> 00:54:03.199
only in with a broken leg, So that was silly,

624
00:54:04.880 --> 00:54:12.800
I figured out. Because the baby was taken into this

625
00:54:13.159 --> 00:54:17.960
room of other babies and stuff, and the nurse said, oh,

626
00:54:18.159 --> 00:54:21.639
go and get your baby, can and get baby. I

627
00:54:21.639 --> 00:54:27.280
can't get baby and came in with a cot and

628
00:54:27.360 --> 00:54:35.639
this little scrunched up thing, little gargoyle. The I mean,

629
00:54:36.800 --> 00:54:38.880
the thing is, you know sometimes you think, oh no,

630
00:54:39.280 --> 00:54:41.960
but if you actually looked at baby and said to someone,

631
00:54:42.639 --> 00:54:46.199
do you know what that's spent the last nine months underwater?

632
00:54:47.400 --> 00:54:50.679
You believe munya because it looks like it's spent the

633
00:54:50.760 --> 00:54:55.159
last nine months underwater without any air, without any light.

634
00:54:56.440 --> 00:55:00.800
I mean, they're basically like little sea creatures do you'd

635
00:55:00.800 --> 00:55:03.400
expect to find at the bottom of a big ship.

636
00:55:04.440 --> 00:55:09.039
It's you know what I mean, if you if you

637
00:55:09.119 --> 00:55:11.840
woke up and okay, okay, I won't go any further,

638
00:55:11.840 --> 00:55:18.920
but just yeah, babies horrible looking things. There was there

639
00:55:19.039 --> 00:55:22.360
was years ago there was these baby doll things and

640
00:55:22.400 --> 00:55:25.960
they look like babies and they were the most ugliest

641
00:55:26.000 --> 00:55:31.039
things ever. And the reason that they actually looked and

642
00:55:31.079 --> 00:55:34.840
I realized, like they look like babies, like real babies.

643
00:55:35.480 --> 00:55:39.039
You know, when they're first born, all crinkles and this,

644
00:55:40.880 --> 00:55:45.239
it's like they haven't become because it's not really until

645
00:55:45.239 --> 00:55:48.639
they become toddlers and then they become like miniature humans,

646
00:55:49.639 --> 00:55:54.679
don't they. They look like humans almost, but with huge

647
00:55:54.719 --> 00:56:00.639
heads and little bodies, so alien humans. But you know,

648
00:56:00.840 --> 00:56:03.960
gradually grow into their head, don't they by the time

649
00:56:04.039 --> 00:56:10.840
they get to about seven or eight, maybe nine. I mean,

650
00:56:10.880 --> 00:56:15.960
that head's so big and the eyes like et it's ridiculous.

651
00:56:17.000 --> 00:56:20.159
The eyes are bigger than their head. I mean, how

652
00:56:20.239 --> 00:56:22.599
is that even possible? How can an eye be bigger

653
00:56:22.639 --> 00:56:29.039
than the head it's in. I mean, the eyes are

654
00:56:29.079 --> 00:56:34.480
definitely bigger than his mouth. His eyes wouldn't even fit

655
00:56:34.519 --> 00:56:37.039
in his mouth. I'm not I didn't try. I'm saying

656
00:56:37.400 --> 00:56:42.360
it's just such a weird kind of organism and it

657
00:56:42.480 --> 00:56:46.119
was a mess. But I started thinking, well, how do

658
00:56:46.199 --> 00:56:50.239
you know that this is the baby bear? In the mind?

659
00:56:50.280 --> 00:56:54.119
You called and ward them? Baby? No one's got a

660
00:56:54.199 --> 00:56:58.000
name yet, so, because this is back in the days

661
00:56:58.039 --> 00:57:01.599
when people didn't they'd wait days before giving a name

662
00:57:01.639 --> 00:57:08.239
to a kid, I've got a name straight away. Well,

663
00:57:08.280 --> 00:57:10.760
I said, I recommended it, and they didn't go for it.

664
00:57:11.079 --> 00:57:15.280
My mum was bastard, but no or another one was

665
00:57:15.320 --> 00:57:18.800
you ruined our birthday. But they didn't want that either.

666
00:57:18.800 --> 00:57:21.079
They said, that's a sentence I said, no, if you

667
00:57:21.119 --> 00:57:24.199
put it all together, I said, no, you can't have

668
00:57:24.639 --> 00:57:26.800
a word that's really long like that. I said, if

669
00:57:26.800 --> 00:57:30.320
you've never been to India, they have names that are

670
00:57:30.400 --> 00:57:35.920
like longer than the alphabet, some of their names, or Thailand,

671
00:57:36.239 --> 00:57:39.239
it's like, honestly, some of the names are so long.

672
00:57:40.360 --> 00:57:42.840
And she said that's border on racism. I said, no,

673
00:57:42.880 --> 00:57:46.320
it's not bordering on race. It's actually true. Look it up.

674
00:57:47.760 --> 00:57:51.039
Look it up. I know that you've lost a lot

675
00:57:51.039 --> 00:57:53.760
of blood and a lot of liquid given birth and that,

676
00:57:53.920 --> 00:57:56.880
but I mean when you pulled him out, did you

677
00:57:56.880 --> 00:58:01.159
pull out your own brain as well? Apparently that's the

678
00:58:01.159 --> 00:58:03.960
line you shouldn't cross with your parents and say stuff

679
00:58:04.039 --> 00:58:15.719
like that. Oh dear, that's so ridiculous what I'm saying today.

680
00:58:16.599 --> 00:58:19.079
I don't mean any of it. I'm just in a

681
00:58:19.119 --> 00:58:25.519
weird mood. But yeah, god, he was ugly anyway, horrible,

682
00:58:26.760 --> 00:58:31.960
And I just thought, do they just randomly just dis

683
00:58:31.960 --> 00:58:34.519
grabbed the first baby that they see and bring it

684
00:58:34.559 --> 00:58:37.320
in because they all look the same, how do they

685
00:58:37.320 --> 00:58:38.039
tell the difference?

686
00:58:40.480 --> 00:58:44.719
Oh he's so pretty, Oh it's so beautiful my little baby.

687
00:58:44.880 --> 00:58:50.960
No he's not, no offense, but no, they look they're

688
00:58:51.000 --> 00:58:56.199
just crinkled. I don't know how to explain that. Don't

689
00:58:56.199 --> 00:59:02.199
look much different to like newborn mice. There's that look

690
00:59:02.239 --> 00:59:06.039
of like a little crinkled and or a little puppy

691
00:59:06.800 --> 00:59:09.400
or a little cat like really you know newborn where

692
00:59:09.400 --> 00:59:12.480
they've got no hair and they just basically just pink.

693
00:59:14.559 --> 00:59:17.239
The difference is with a puppy they grow very quick

694
00:59:17.440 --> 00:59:21.400
and a cat does as well. Humans I still look

695
00:59:21.519 --> 00:59:31.119
like that, still pink and bored. It's no fear. So yeah,

696
00:59:31.280 --> 00:59:34.239
babies are good. It's brilliant and so happy. When he

697
00:59:34.320 --> 00:59:39.199
was born, it changed my life. It did change my

698
00:59:39.239 --> 00:59:46.880
life actually because he stayed in the house. Obviously we

699
00:59:47.079 --> 00:59:49.719
had to have him in the house. I mean, unfortunately

700
00:59:49.880 --> 00:59:52.440
they brought him home. I thought it was just going

701
00:59:52.519 --> 00:59:54.679
to be they like send him off an adoption like they

702
00:59:54.719 --> 01:00:01.280
did me. But no, they brought him back and he

703
01:00:01.519 --> 01:00:07.360
stayed in my dad's room, their parents' room for probably

704
01:00:07.360 --> 01:00:12.039
about six months, so I still had my bedroom is

705
01:00:12.199 --> 01:00:15.960
right next to their bedroom. Now I was tired. I

706
01:00:16.000 --> 01:00:18.320
think he used to keep the baby like wake me

707
01:00:18.440 --> 01:00:22.000
up and stuff. So it wasn't ideal. Because it was

708
01:00:22.039 --> 01:00:23.920
a small house, there's no way to get away. From

709
01:00:23.960 --> 01:00:32.320
the screaming, and my brothers complained about it. My dad

710
01:00:32.400 --> 01:00:36.079
wasn't happy with it. Eventually they sat me down and

711
01:00:36.119 --> 01:00:40.119
asked me to stop screaming, so I stopped. It's a

712
01:00:40.239 --> 01:00:46.760
joking there somewhere, And eventually we had to move out

713
01:00:46.800 --> 01:00:54.800
of there because he needed his own room. So he

714
01:00:54.880 --> 01:01:00.760
moved out into a big house and we all had

715
01:01:00.800 --> 01:01:03.119
our own rooms. And that's where it all kind of

716
01:01:03.960 --> 01:01:07.679
went wrong from there, really, but that was the nicest

717
01:01:07.679 --> 01:01:10.400
house overlooked in that little house where my nanogrant had

718
01:01:10.400 --> 01:01:17.159
then moved in as well. The weird thing about my

719
01:01:17.159 --> 01:01:24.199
brother though, so of once he sort of developed kind

720
01:01:24.199 --> 01:01:27.639
of a likeness to human, to a human, you know,

721
01:01:27.679 --> 01:01:32.000
he kind of had facial expressions and he looked, Yeah,

722
01:01:32.039 --> 01:01:35.320
he looked human. It was like a toddler. At this point.

723
01:01:37.119 --> 01:01:41.000
He's kept exactly the same face the whole life, his

724
01:01:41.039 --> 01:01:44.199
whole life. And you might think, well, yeah, everyone does,

725
01:01:45.519 --> 01:01:49.440
unless you have surgery. Like, no, I look nothing like

726
01:01:49.599 --> 01:01:52.599
how I looked when I was a kid, not even

727
01:01:52.599 --> 01:01:56.360
when I was fifteen, not even when I was eight twelve,

728
01:01:57.480 --> 01:01:59.840
not even when I was twenty. I don't look the same.

729
01:02:00.599 --> 01:02:07.039
He looks exactly the same. He looks older, of course

730
01:02:07.239 --> 01:02:11.079
it'd be weird. And when he was two he looked

731
01:02:11.159 --> 01:02:17.079
forty seven, that would be strange. But he's still got

732
01:02:17.079 --> 01:02:21.960
the same features, still looks the same, same facial expression,

733
01:02:24.920 --> 01:02:27.280
my remover. I mean, he's got more than one facial expression.

734
01:02:27.280 --> 01:02:33.159
I'm sure I've seen at least two. So it's he's

735
01:02:33.280 --> 01:02:38.559
ruined my birthday, man, I mean eighth birthdays, it's supposed

736
01:02:38.559 --> 01:02:41.960
to be a special occasion. But what I did do

737
01:02:42.159 --> 01:02:44.559
I'll give you the next part of the story tomorrow. Actually,

738
01:02:45.119 --> 01:02:48.880
i'll tell you about presents and stuff. But on my

739
01:02:48.960 --> 01:02:55.880
actual birthday, I did get some golf clubs, like a

740
01:02:55.920 --> 01:02:59.679
put in set, but there weren't no crappy thing. These

741
01:02:59.679 --> 01:03:07.000
are like heavy steal golf clubs, and they were good.

742
01:03:07.199 --> 01:03:09.480
They were heavy. They were good, really like probably about

743
01:03:09.519 --> 01:03:18.119
heavy as I was actually, And I don't remember what

744
01:03:18.159 --> 01:03:23.079
else I got, but I think we was in the

745
01:03:23.159 --> 01:03:27.480
garden and I was trying to I was trying to

746
01:03:27.599 --> 01:03:34.480
enjoy my birthday, but things felt like they'd changed. You know.

747
01:03:35.960 --> 01:03:38.880
It's almost like I was turning. I was turned into

748
01:03:38.920 --> 01:03:45.840
an adult, and I suppose I knew that things were

749
01:03:45.840 --> 01:03:50.039
never going to be the same again, because when they

750
01:03:50.079 --> 01:03:52.400
came back, they were going to have this little alien

751
01:03:52.440 --> 01:03:57.559
with them. They're going to give it all this attention, which,

752
01:03:57.599 --> 01:04:00.960
as I said, is fun for the first couple of days,

753
01:04:02.119 --> 01:04:06.000
maybe three or four days even. I don't know how

754
01:04:06.039 --> 01:04:10.039
people may make that kind of how to keep the

755
01:04:10.079 --> 01:04:13.639
interest up, I don't know. I guess it's just lucky.

756
01:04:13.679 --> 01:04:17.119
I never became a parent, I suppose, but they managed

757
01:04:17.159 --> 01:04:24.360
to keep interest. And it's got to be boring, is it.

758
01:04:28.320 --> 01:04:34.440
So it's like what it does is just cry, go

759
01:04:34.559 --> 01:04:39.239
to the toilet and cry, and sleep and go to

760
01:04:39.280 --> 01:04:45.079
the toilet and sleep whilst going to the toilet. You know,

761
01:04:45.159 --> 01:04:48.599
it's just it's this. There's not a lot of points

762
01:04:48.599 --> 01:04:51.920
to them, is there. I mean, if that was a gift,

763
01:04:51.920 --> 01:04:54.360
if someone gave you a gift and that's all it did,

764
01:04:55.239 --> 01:04:59.920
pooed and cried and slept, you'd give it back. Say no,

765
01:05:00.440 --> 01:05:08.039
can I change this? Please? Could I? Yeah? Can I

766
01:05:08.079 --> 01:05:13.320
have a television? Yeah? Can I? Yeah? Thanks? I'd like

767
01:05:13.440 --> 01:05:18.599
something different. This isn't No, it's not all I ever

768
01:05:18.639 --> 01:05:23.360
hoped it would be. All it does is just cry

769
01:05:23.760 --> 01:05:33.800
and pooh and sleep. How's that supposed to be fun? No? No,

770
01:05:34.199 --> 01:05:37.840
I want to give it back, have you okay, well,

771
01:05:37.840 --> 01:05:40.920
have you got a different one? Can I can I

772
01:05:40.960 --> 01:05:44.559
exchange it for a different baby when it doesn't make

773
01:05:44.599 --> 01:05:49.119
so much noise? And if you've got any of that

774
01:05:49.239 --> 01:05:51.079
poo a little bit. They don't pooh much, you know,

775
01:05:51.199 --> 01:06:04.360
just a small amount. H Okay, we'll take it back. Then.

776
01:06:07.599 --> 01:06:09.360
I don't know how it was before they gave him

777
01:06:09.360 --> 01:06:13.000
a name. I didn't like any of my suggestions. As

778
01:06:13.000 --> 01:06:22.960
I've already said, birthday ruiner. So yeah, ruined our birthday,

779
01:06:23.079 --> 01:06:31.519
my eighth birthday. And then see it was never never

780
01:06:31.599 --> 01:06:34.079
really like growing up from then on to the age

781
01:06:34.119 --> 01:06:38.280
of fifteen, we did celebrate birthdays. And that's the one

782
01:06:38.679 --> 01:06:41.800
really you know thing I can never take away from

783
01:06:41.800 --> 01:06:47.519
my dad and his wife at the time. They really

784
01:06:47.559 --> 01:06:51.119
went all out for birthdays, Christmases things like that. Really did.

785
01:06:51.559 --> 01:06:54.800
Couldn't ask some more, And what I could ask there

786
01:06:54.920 --> 01:06:58.639
is to not have a baby brother. But I'm going

787
01:06:58.639 --> 01:07:01.519
to send him a happy birthday. Tech after doing this,

788
01:07:02.039 --> 01:07:05.599
I'll just spend the hour slagging him off. But yeah

789
01:07:05.599 --> 01:07:09.639
I will. I will say happy birthday. Please don't listen

790
01:07:09.639 --> 01:07:17.599
to my podcast, please please don't and sunny jokes, sony

791
01:07:17.679 --> 01:07:22.559
silliness just a bit of h in it and ah,

792
01:07:23.119 --> 01:07:29.119
just missing about that's all, nothing serious, just having a laugh.

793
01:07:31.280 --> 01:07:35.320
So yeah, but it did. It did with my birthday,

794
01:07:35.360 --> 01:07:39.880
but in reality it did. But it also kind of

795
01:07:39.920 --> 01:07:44.719
it was nice to have my birthday not directly after

796
01:07:44.960 --> 01:07:50.280
the day of my brother's birthday. You know, it's nice

797
01:07:50.280 --> 01:07:51.840
to have a few a little bit of time in

798
01:07:51.880 --> 01:07:56.880
between birthdays. So it's almost like it'd be a big

799
01:07:56.960 --> 01:08:01.159
celebration for him and then to be a celebration for

800
01:08:01.280 --> 01:08:06.000
me on my birthday. But it was kind of eclipsed

801
01:08:06.000 --> 01:08:10.719
by him because he was clearly the most important child

802
01:08:11.239 --> 01:08:16.159
in the world. I was like, Okay, if he really

803
01:08:16.279 --> 01:08:23.239
is that important, then shouldn't he be. I mean, honestly,

804
01:08:23.279 --> 01:08:25.760
it's like he was a second coming or something. I

805
01:08:25.840 --> 01:08:29.439
just thought, God, this is ridiculous. It made such a

806
01:08:29.439 --> 01:08:32.319
big thing. He can't even read yet. I mean, we

807
01:08:32.319 --> 01:08:34.800
don't know if he's going to start preaching and stuff

808
01:08:34.840 --> 01:08:37.640
like that when he gets older, healing people. We don't know.

809
01:08:38.279 --> 01:08:40.439
He can't read yet. Well, he's still he's still dribbling

810
01:08:41.239 --> 01:08:43.560
and you know, it's hot. He won't even eat his food,

811
01:08:43.960 --> 01:08:47.159
about spitting it out everywhere, which I do agree was

812
01:08:47.239 --> 01:08:54.199
quite funny that he did that, but yeah, he spoil

813
01:08:54.279 --> 01:09:03.520
my birthday. And I sometimes felt that because we had

814
01:09:03.520 --> 01:09:07.560
this ceremony thing where we'd go into no sacrifices or anything,

815
01:09:07.640 --> 01:09:10.640
just like that kind of ceremony. We'll go into the

816
01:09:10.680 --> 01:09:15.079
people's birth into their bedrooms and sort of seeing happy birthday,

817
01:09:15.199 --> 01:09:19.000
all that stuff, and give them presents. And it was lovely.

818
01:09:19.680 --> 01:09:21.680
It was really lovely. And I'm just joking about but

819
01:09:21.760 --> 01:09:25.800
it was nice. But I got the sense that everyone

820
01:09:25.960 --> 01:09:29.800
was birthdayed out by the end of the twenty fifth

821
01:09:31.760 --> 01:09:34.880
and then my birthday was in twenty six and it

822
01:09:34.960 --> 01:09:40.880
didn't seem as if the energy was there. I can

823
01:09:40.920 --> 01:09:45.000
imagine it's like going to see someone performing in the theater,

824
01:09:45.560 --> 01:09:49.760
but they're doing two shows, one at five o'clock and

825
01:09:49.800 --> 01:09:58.119
then one at eight o'clock, and maybe feels like you've

826
01:09:58.159 --> 01:10:01.399
gone to the last show, the second show, and they're

827
01:10:01.439 --> 01:10:05.960
a bit they're a bit tired, perhaps a little bit bored.

828
01:10:06.239 --> 01:10:09.279
Maybe they don't really feel in the mood to do

829
01:10:09.359 --> 01:10:17.079
a second show. Maybe perhaps the audience just that they

830
01:10:17.119 --> 01:10:18.680
just wanted to be over and done with so they

831
01:10:18.680 --> 01:10:22.039
can go home. I felt a little bit of that

832
01:10:22.119 --> 01:10:30.720
lackluster sometimes, but that was just from my parents, my brothers.

833
01:10:30.800 --> 01:10:32.479
I mean, they were just there because I had to be,

834
01:10:34.239 --> 01:10:36.720
not when none of us liked each other. So it

835
01:10:36.880 --> 01:10:40.359
was a case of like, Okay, here we go again, people,

836
01:10:40.359 --> 01:10:47.079
birthday two. It's just going through the like like wrote wrote,

837
01:10:47.159 --> 01:10:54.720
isn't it just going through the the the whatever? Going

838
01:10:55.039 --> 01:11:09.720
through going through happy birthday to it was nice, though

839
01:11:10.000 --> 01:11:13.960
it got a bit weird when I got older. Don't

840
01:11:14.000 --> 01:11:17.840
want to kind of hit teenage years. It wasn't so

841
01:11:18.000 --> 01:11:22.279
much like bursting in happy birthday, you know, everyone burst in.

842
01:11:22.279 --> 01:11:25.760
It's more like knocking on the door, Jason, knock on

843
01:11:25.760 --> 01:11:28.199
the door again. We're going to come in and surprise

844
01:11:28.279 --> 01:11:35.039
you a birthday presence. Are you awake? Are you dressed? Yeah,

845
01:11:35.119 --> 01:11:39.000
if you've got a big clothes over you, Okay, we're

846
01:11:39.000 --> 01:11:47.800
going to come in one and accounted one hundred, one, two, three,

847
01:11:48.119 --> 01:11:53.720
four five. And then they'd come in and they'd be like, oh, surprise,

848
01:11:54.880 --> 01:11:58.600
Well I pretend I was asleep. You know. It just

849
01:11:58.600 --> 01:12:02.800
says I'm walking into me kind of looking like I've

850
01:12:06.640 --> 01:12:11.560
sitting underneath a tent on the bedclothes over. So yeah,

851
01:12:11.640 --> 01:12:19.840
that was good. Yeah, I liked I liked birthdays. But

852
01:12:20.000 --> 01:12:24.079
for me, the main thing about birthdays was the presence,

853
01:12:26.439 --> 01:12:30.239
and it always was, I'll be honest, that's what it

854
01:12:30.319 --> 01:12:37.760
was about. It wasn't really bothered about the attention, you know,

855
01:12:37.960 --> 01:12:42.560
have an attention on me. What it wasn't always. I

856
01:12:42.600 --> 01:12:45.560
mean it was positive attention. But you know, throughout the

857
01:12:45.640 --> 01:12:48.600
year learned that I try and stay in the background.

858
01:12:49.119 --> 01:12:51.840
Don't want attention on me because then you don't know

859
01:12:51.840 --> 01:12:54.880
what's going to come up. I don't know what you know,

860
01:12:54.920 --> 01:12:57.840
what subject is going to be risen. So I just like, okay,

861
01:12:58.520 --> 01:13:02.239
it's yeah, I like it, but let's just focus on

862
01:13:02.279 --> 01:13:08.439
something else now while I play with my new toys. Yeah,

863
01:13:08.479 --> 01:13:13.239
I did like I like getting gifts. That's what birthdays

864
01:13:13.239 --> 01:13:26.279
are about. Yeah, it's been a long time since I don't. Yeah,

865
01:13:26.439 --> 01:13:31.840
I have had presents, but it's hardly I mean, I've

866
01:13:31.880 --> 01:13:36.319
got two birthday cards that I've been given, which is nice.

867
01:13:37.920 --> 01:13:45.119
So I've received those Thursday, I think, and that's for

868
01:13:45.239 --> 01:13:48.960
my dad and my brother and that's it. So two

869
01:13:49.000 --> 01:13:57.680
birthday cards for this year. It's not that I want thousands,

870
01:13:57.760 --> 01:13:59.720
but you know, a couple of hundred to be nice,

871
01:14:02.239 --> 01:14:08.600
Just a couple of hundred, even one hundred and eighty six.

872
01:14:10.119 --> 01:14:15.079
You know, I don't want much, and this is a

873
01:14:15.119 --> 01:14:17.039
fifty pound on in each one as well, you know,

874
01:14:17.439 --> 01:14:22.640
a part of them. Now, I don't want much. No no,

875
01:14:22.760 --> 01:14:25.600
I don't know. No, no, no, no, no no now.

876
01:14:31.520 --> 01:14:35.479
And that I do believe is me talking a bunch

877
01:14:35.560 --> 01:14:43.560
of rubbish for about seventy five minutes, and I don't

878
01:14:43.600 --> 01:14:49.199
know what I've talked about. It's a happy birthday, little

879
01:14:49.199 --> 01:14:56.279
brother as well. It is happy birthday to you forty seven.

880
01:14:56.560 --> 01:15:01.239
It's amazing, it's great, It's the thing is yeah, all seriousness.

881
01:15:01.279 --> 01:15:07.359
My little brother's you know, good bloke. He's yeah, he's

882
01:15:07.399 --> 01:15:14.520
a good one. So yeah, I wish him well. After

883
01:15:14.600 --> 01:15:23.560
all that BlimE me, I'm going to go, Oh, I

884
01:15:23.560 --> 01:15:27.319
could eat I could eat an oboleot really eat an

885
01:15:27.319 --> 01:15:34.039
omalop right now. Mm hmmm. So I'm going to go.

886
01:15:34.640 --> 01:15:39.119
Thank you for listening. Remember to be kind to yourself

887
01:15:39.159 --> 01:15:47.039
because you do deserve to be happy. Lots of love. Bye,

888
01:15:55.640 --> 01:16:10.239
Relax and I'm more deep and meaningful way, maybe in

889
01:16:10.239 --> 01:16:15.840
a way that can not just allow you to feel

890
01:16:17.199 --> 01:16:26.439
calmer now and throughout the time we've spend together here,

891
01:16:28.439 --> 01:16:34.119
not just relaxed. At the end of the recording when

892
01:16:34.159 --> 01:16:40.840
it's finished, and you can enjoy that sense of comfort

893
01:16:41.000 --> 01:16:55.920
and peace. But also I think it would be nice

894
01:16:56.000 --> 01:17:15.800
to have those feelings of relaxation continue for longer after

895
01:17:15.880 --> 01:17:26.479
the recording has ended, so that you can still benefit

896
01:17:29.359 --> 01:17:36.640
from listening to my voice, maybe in a few hours time,

897
01:17:38.560 --> 01:17:52.000
perhaps tomorrow, and then by listening regularly, especially if you

898
01:17:52.199 --> 01:17:57.439
find like some people do and myself as well. Sometimes

899
01:17:57.439 --> 01:18:03.760
I find one particular recording that really resonates with me,

900
01:18:08.079 --> 01:18:10.560
and I just listened to it over and over again

901
01:18:12.720 --> 01:18:25.720
every morning, every evening. There was this recording from We're

902
01:18:25.800 --> 01:18:31.560
going back to about nineteen ninety nine. It wasn't hypnosis,

903
01:18:31.600 --> 01:18:35.640
but it was a guided visualizations, so it kind of

904
01:18:35.760 --> 01:18:43.079
was hypnosis really, and I managed to find it again

905
01:18:43.880 --> 01:18:49.399
and it still has the same effect on me. And

906
01:18:49.600 --> 01:19:02.880
part of it was the person's voice relaxed me. She

907
01:19:03.000 --> 01:19:09.640
just felt so peaceful, and I'd look forward to listening

908
01:19:10.159 --> 01:19:22.439
to her in the morning and in the evening. And

909
01:19:22.600 --> 01:19:31.760
I knew before even pressing the play button that since

910
01:19:31.800 --> 01:19:36.239
I've done that pressed the play button. This was in

911
01:19:36.279 --> 01:19:50.880
the days of CD players pressed the play button. In fact,

912
01:19:50.880 --> 01:19:54.920
it might have even been a tape tape recorder, I'd

913
01:19:54.920 --> 01:20:04.680
lie down on the bed and then even without necessarily

914
01:20:05.800 --> 01:20:16.520
listening to her words because I had them memorized. Really,

915
01:20:21.199 --> 01:20:27.199
it was as if my body knew exactly what to do,

916
01:20:31.960 --> 01:20:53.760
and the muscles just almost went into automatic relaxation, and

917
01:20:53.960 --> 01:21:07.560
I remember my mind would slow down. Now. Now, I

918
01:21:07.720 --> 01:21:14.239
was listening to this recording in the early days of

919
01:21:14.319 --> 01:21:25.039
learning hypnosis, and long before I ever made any videos

920
01:21:25.159 --> 01:21:29.880
or audio recordings myself, because I didn't start doing that

921
01:21:30.000 --> 01:21:44.439
till two thousand and six, I knew, I knew how

922
01:21:46.199 --> 01:22:00.239
helpful I found being able to just let go, have

923
01:22:00.399 --> 01:22:13.279
that trust in the person that I'm listening to, knowing

924
01:22:13.359 --> 01:22:21.199
that it's going to be just as relaxing, if not

925
01:22:21.439 --> 01:22:30.760
more so. Each time you hear my voice, you may

926
01:22:30.800 --> 01:22:42.399
feel the same. Some people have been listening to me

927
01:22:42.600 --> 01:22:56.520
for over a decade, maybe not solidly, obviously, not twenty

928
01:22:56.560 --> 01:23:04.880
four hours a day. Maybe people come back, some people

929
01:23:04.960 --> 01:23:21.680
maybe listen every day. That's something that I do which

930
01:23:21.760 --> 01:23:31.279
you may not realize by listening, is.

931
01:23:35.239 --> 01:23:38.720
When I record.

932
01:23:39.600 --> 01:23:53.359
These recordings. Now, for example, I also am affected by

933
01:23:53.399 --> 01:24:05.880
the words that I say. So if I set to you,

934
01:24:06.960 --> 01:24:16.520
focus on your feet, notice your feet relaxing. I will

935
01:24:16.640 --> 01:24:27.880
be focusing on my feet. I will be noticing my

936
01:24:28.039 --> 01:24:45.119
feet relaxing. If I said, focus on your hands and

937
01:24:45.319 --> 01:24:54.760
maybe notice the difference between each hand. Perhaps notice the

938
01:24:57.560 --> 01:25:02.760
air in the room, a temperature of the room. On

939
01:25:02.880 --> 01:25:14.119
the backs of your hands. You may start to notice

940
01:25:14.760 --> 01:25:22.000
what almost feels like a very light breeze, even though

941
01:25:22.039 --> 01:25:26.319
there may not be any type of breeze at all

942
01:25:27.920 --> 01:25:40.199
where you are right now. And as you become aware

943
01:25:40.399 --> 01:25:54.439
of your hands, I'm also aware of how relaxed my

944
01:25:54.760 --> 01:26:20.479
hands are feeling now. And when it comes to potentially

945
01:26:20.920 --> 01:26:26.720
drifting off to sleep, which may be the reason you're listening,

946
01:26:32.439 --> 01:26:47.039
I also feel drowsy when I make these recordings. I

947
01:26:47.199 --> 01:27:05.640
also notice my mind drifting. In fact, at times I've

948
01:27:05.680 --> 01:27:20.079
actually fallen asleep without even noticing, and then I carry

949
01:27:20.159 --> 01:27:31.680
on talking. And it's only when I listen back to

950
01:27:31.720 --> 01:27:40.760
do the editing I hear snoring and I think I

951
01:27:40.800 --> 01:27:51.479
don't remember snoring. I remember talking. This snoring was a

952
01:27:51.600 --> 01:27:58.319
pig turned up. That's why I sound like when I snare,

953
01:28:03.720 --> 01:28:17.000
how I get read into a whole experience. I don't

954
01:28:17.000 --> 01:28:26.840
know how you feel, how relaxed you feel in your feet,

955
01:28:29.960 --> 01:28:52.840
how relaxed you feel in your hands. I have noticed

956
01:28:55.439 --> 01:29:11.680
more and more that the more relaxed, deeper level of

957
01:29:11.920 --> 01:29:29.159
comfort you feel, the easier your breathing becomes so almost

958
01:29:29.560 --> 01:29:49.840
like that additional muscle relaxation. So this allows you to

959
01:29:50.039 --> 01:30:16.439
breathe easier without necessarily focusing on your breath, however, being

960
01:30:16.479 --> 01:30:46.119
able to notice the ease in which you breathe so naturally.

961
01:31:00.800 --> 01:31:40.119
You breathe so very easily and smoothly whenever I imagine

962
01:31:43.439 --> 01:31:59.520
my breathing improving when I've got my eyes closed a

963
01:31:59.720 --> 01:32:13.239
ten to visualize a beautiful field with trees and flowers

964
01:32:20.039 --> 01:32:53.039
producing all that life giving oxygen. And it feels nice too,

965
01:32:54.600 --> 01:33:13.600
if nothing else, just taking some time away from everything,

966
01:33:24.880 --> 01:33:57.399
enjoying that feeling of peace serenity with a joyful heart.

967
01:34:22.800 --> 01:34:48.319
Time seems to just drip by, so very slowly, relaxed,

968
01:34:54.159 --> 01:35:33.319
so deeply peaceful, completely unattached to any thoughts whatsoever in

969
01:35:33.479 --> 01:36:37.880
this moment, completely free, noticing that your mind has slowed down.

970
01:36:46.159 --> 01:37:32.880
Slowed down because nothing really requires your attention. You can

971
01:37:33.119 --> 01:37:49.199
enjoy the physical sensations of allowing the stress to drip

972
01:37:49.960 --> 01:38:03.000
out of your body, to appear out of every but

973
01:38:09.720 --> 01:38:34.319
of your body, and being released from your brain. Nge

974
01:38:34.319 --> 01:39:10.000
your mind slowly, but only the muscles in les.

975
01:39:25.159 --> 01:39:55.640
Relax ris res so very deep thing, relax.

976
01:40:00.319 --> 01:40:25.720
So deeply. And the feelings, the pleasant feelings in your

977
01:40:26.000 --> 01:40:53.800
arms and shoulders, deepening each part of your body further

978
01:40:58.760 --> 01:41:31.800
and deep, mum and deeper noticine, the feedings in the

979
01:41:31.880 --> 01:42:00.000
back of your neck, the feelings in your wrists m hm,

980
01:42:31.119 --> 01:42:56.439
muscles in front of your body. I will say he

981
01:43:01.600 --> 01:43:37.399
peace deep. There's a sense of peace spreads through your

982
01:43:37.640 --> 01:44:27.239
very core. Even when you focus on your mind, your

983
01:44:27.279 --> 01:45:38.920
mind becomes be and slower, even deeper, relaxing, so very slow,

984
01:45:58.520 --> 01:46:54.760
stomach peace for in your's stomach held back. Notice Notice

985
01:46:54.960 --> 01:47:13.399
how relaxed you now feel in the hole of your back.

986
01:47:38.560 --> 01:47:47.720
A spy from your brain all the way down the

987
01:47:47.760 --> 01:47:58.439
middle of your back, sending and receiving millions of messages

988
01:47:59.159 --> 01:48:59.199
every day. Deep comfort, increase in deeply relaxed your niece

989
01:49:00.199 --> 01:49:35.079
h relax spreading those signals down your spine or cord

990
01:49:38.119 --> 01:49:56.960
into air every part of your body, your shins and

991
01:49:57.119 --> 01:50:47.680
your calf muscles, m your outbos. Feelings of peace and

992
01:50:47.840 --> 01:51:05.920
tranquility spreading through your body, tips of your toes to

993
01:51:06.000 --> 01:51:18.039
your eyes, your fingers, all the way till you'll lower back,

994
01:51:29.880 --> 01:52:33.000
lettinger reatinker peace, drifting mind just wander in a way

995
01:52:42.479 --> 01:53:24.159
happy to let go, Let go completely, let go, said tranquil,

996
01:53:48.439 --> 01:56:01.079
whole body enjoying a sensor listening God he more ey

997
01:56:09.359 --> 01:56:52.199
enjoy the space, this space of peace and safety, sur ery,

998
01:58:30.359 --> 01:58:55.119
letting go. Maybe we can just focus on the different

999
01:58:55.439 --> 01:59:54.199
parts of your body, just to notice.

1000
01:59:28.880 --> 01:59:32.039
You forehead in your eyes.

1001
02:00:04.039 --> 02:00:46.920
Mutual, so loose, noticing in the sense of complete freedom,

1002
02:00:49.039 --> 02:02:45.279
absolute freedom, day, peace, fall energy, pace to breathe so

1003
02:02:45.600 --> 02:03:56.920
much easy los You may or may not have noticed

1004
02:04:01.640 --> 02:05:03.319
your mind drifting peaceful move any even more deeply in

1005
02:05:03.399 --> 02:06:39.600
the direction of total blissful pace blisphor pace directed two

1006
02:06:39.760 --> 02:07:51.279
pace come so calm, let him go, peace with mind,

1007
02:08:01.000 --> 02:09:05.239
relaxed body c rex c relaxed body feels almost invisible,

1008
02:09:20.399 --> 02:09:41.680
so very relaxed, paceful so pace.

1009
02:09:57.479 --> 02:10:35.600
Re let go so.

1010
02:10:22.439 --> 02:10:46.439
So And you could start to notice that you are

1011
02:10:46.640 --> 02:10:58.199
feeling more relaxed, even though I've not purposely focused your

1012
02:10:58.359 --> 02:11:06.800
mind upon that sense of physical comfort that is growing

1013
02:11:06.920 --> 02:11:15.800
within you throughout your body, and your mind starts to

1014
02:11:15.840 --> 02:11:26.119
slow down, and that could be almost in recognition of

1015
02:11:28.199 --> 02:11:40.279
I guess my speech not being particularly fast, and things

1016
02:11:40.680 --> 02:11:53.000
just generally feel calmer. Just by listening to my voice,

1017
02:11:53.800 --> 02:12:00.800
you give yourself an opportunity to take a break from

1018
02:12:00.800 --> 02:12:07.399
the day, take a break from your life as it is,

1019
02:12:10.760 --> 02:12:18.399
and to give yourself a rest, giving yourself permission to

1020
02:12:18.479 --> 02:12:23.760
take some time off, and to allow your body to

1021
02:12:23.880 --> 02:12:33.640
relax and allow your mind to slow down, which in

1022
02:12:33.760 --> 02:12:41.680
turn releases the tension any stresses that you had in

1023
02:12:41.720 --> 02:12:51.560
your body. It's almost as if the parts of your

1024
02:12:51.600 --> 02:13:03.640
body just open up, allowing the negativity out and at

1025
02:13:03.640 --> 02:13:11.920
the same time replacing that negativity with positive healing energy,

1026
02:13:15.000 --> 02:13:19.560
which then fills your body up and your mind to

1027
02:13:21.239 --> 02:13:39.720
also starts to appreciate those feelings of increasing confidence, an

1028
02:13:39.720 --> 02:13:56.840
almost uplifting feeling, positive healing, an energy that spreads through

1029
02:13:56.880 --> 02:14:07.760
your body like a wave of comfort. And all this

1030
02:14:07.880 --> 02:14:19.960
comes from just allowing yourself a few minutes, maybe half

1031
02:14:20.000 --> 02:14:23.960
an hour, however long you want it to be, to

1032
02:14:24.159 --> 02:14:38.000
just rest and allow your mind and your body to

1033
02:14:38.119 --> 02:14:54.960
almost reset itself to the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness,

1034
02:14:59.000 --> 02:15:08.359
which allows more room for feelings of pleasure and happiness

1035
02:15:12.359 --> 02:15:21.479
to move around your body and into your mind. Almost

1036
02:15:22.000 --> 02:15:26.600
as if your mind and your body are sinking together,

1037
02:15:30.880 --> 02:15:40.600
almost mirroring each other with that growing positivity and calmness,

1038
02:15:45.600 --> 02:15:53.119
and it feels nice, really does feel nice to know

1039
02:15:53.359 --> 02:16:02.279
that you are the one that has allowed yourself to

1040
02:16:02.520 --> 02:16:16.520
feel more comfort and to experience more of this deep

1041
02:16:16.920 --> 02:16:33.000
relaxation spreading throughout your body. And as I focus on

1042
02:16:33.239 --> 02:16:39.000
each part of your body, you can notice that that

1043
02:16:39.280 --> 02:16:56.120
part becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on it.

1044
02:16:55.959 --> 02:17:05.639
It becomes even more harm and comfortable just by focusing.

1045
02:17:09.680 --> 02:17:15.440
And as I move down your body, starting at your head,

1046
02:17:18.159 --> 02:17:23.440
the parts that you have already focused on will continue

1047
02:17:24.799 --> 02:17:31.920
to relax deeply, and those parts that we not yet

1048
02:17:32.079 --> 02:17:45.000
focused on or just automatically release any remain intention in

1049
02:17:45.120 --> 02:17:59.440
anticipation of even more comfort about to come now. And

1050
02:17:59.639 --> 02:18:07.360
start by focusing on your forehead, just being aware the

1051
02:18:07.399 --> 02:18:17.200
feelings of your forehead and then your background sounds like

1052
02:18:17.440 --> 02:18:22.600
mister Herbert the pigeon can just allow you to feel

1053
02:18:22.639 --> 02:18:32.719
even more relaxed. Just means you in the moment, this

1054
02:18:32.799 --> 02:18:38.000
isn't this isn't a sterile environment. This is the world.

1055
02:18:41.399 --> 02:18:47.440
I live in the countryside, so there's lots of nature

1056
02:18:47.959 --> 02:18:58.479
sounds around. So as you focus on your forehead. Just

1057
02:18:58.719 --> 02:19:07.040
notice how it comes even more relaxed as you focus

1058
02:19:08.799 --> 02:19:14.639
only on my voice and that part of your body.

1059
02:19:18.479 --> 02:19:26.760
Moving down to your eyes, focusing on your eyes, noticing

1060
02:19:29.239 --> 02:19:38.959
how your eyelids feel so heavy yet so light at

1061
02:19:38.959 --> 02:19:45.479
the same time, and all the muscles around your eyes

1062
02:19:45.680 --> 02:19:59.799
relaxing completely. Moving your focus down to your mouth. You're lit,

1063
02:20:00.559 --> 02:20:10.479
your tongue, your teeth. You comes the whole of your mouth, relaxing,

1064
02:20:13.920 --> 02:20:24.239
calm and glease as you focus now on your jaw,

1065
02:20:27.239 --> 02:20:30.840
not just the parts of your jaw near your mouth

1066
02:20:31.600 --> 02:20:35.920
and your chin, but all the way up the size

1067
02:20:35.959 --> 02:20:42.479
of your face to your ears, the hole of your

1068
02:20:42.600 --> 02:21:09.879
jaw feeding more relaxed and calm. Focusing on your neck,

1069
02:21:12.520 --> 02:21:19.760
the front of your neck and your throat relaxing and

1070
02:21:19.840 --> 02:21:30.600
loose and calm. The sides of your neck, right and

1071
02:21:30.760 --> 02:21:49.559
left side of your neck relax and lease and calm.

1072
02:21:49.799 --> 02:21:56.639
And now the back of your neck, focusing on the

1073
02:21:56.680 --> 02:22:07.120
back of your neck, letting go of any tension that

1074
02:22:07.319 --> 02:22:16.239
may have been there before, and enjoying that sense of

1075
02:22:17.200 --> 02:22:22.159
increasing comfort and release.

1076
02:22:24.920 --> 02:22:28.920
Then you can experience in the back of your neck,

1077
02:22:35.200 --> 02:22:37.639
moving down your back.

1078
02:22:39.639 --> 02:22:44.440
And moving either side of your spine right from the

1079
02:22:44.479 --> 02:22:49.879
top of your back all the way down to the

1080
02:22:49.920 --> 02:23:07.399
bottom of your back, down to your lower back. As

1081
02:23:07.440 --> 02:23:14.920
you move up and down your spine, you can feel

1082
02:23:15.040 --> 02:23:22.799
the muscles either side of your spine relaxing even more.

1083
02:23:30.280 --> 02:23:37.079
And as those muscles relax, that sense of comfort starts

1084
02:23:37.120 --> 02:23:47.239
to spread outwards from your spine into both sides of

1085
02:23:47.319 --> 02:23:54.440
your back, the top of your back, the middle end

1086
02:23:54.479 --> 02:24:02.799
your lower back. And as you're scared and gently and

1087
02:24:03.360 --> 02:24:10.280
slowly up and down your back, there's the muscles in

1088
02:24:10.399 --> 02:24:19.760
the top of your back relax and become looser. The

1089
02:24:19.840 --> 02:24:25.879
muscles in the middle of your back also seem to

1090
02:24:26.120 --> 02:24:35.319
just almost divide from each other, separating and almost melting.

1091
02:24:41.079 --> 02:24:47.079
And in your lower back there seems to be an

1092
02:24:47.120 --> 02:25:01.360
extra special feeling of comfort. The spread into your hips,

1093
02:25:03.600 --> 02:25:11.479
sit down your lower back, into your hips, into the

1094
02:25:11.639 --> 02:25:20.399
area where your cosix are, and into your buttocks, and

1095
02:25:20.479 --> 02:25:27.000
all these muscles that spread bring me your lower back

1096
02:25:29.440 --> 02:25:41.680
into your hip area, start to melt, start to reading,

1097
02:25:42.879 --> 02:25:53.600
let go and don't even know where about to focus

1098
02:25:53.680 --> 02:26:00.879
on your shoulders. Your back and your spine can continue

1099
02:26:02.879 --> 02:26:21.399
till I go. Continue to relax so calmly. Then she

1100
02:26:21.639 --> 02:26:29.879
focused on your shoulders. You may notice they're already feeling

1101
02:26:33.120 --> 02:27:05.879
really loose, they're already feeding calm. I feeling those muscles

1102
02:27:05.920 --> 02:27:18.280
then move from your neck into your shoulders. Feel so

1103
02:27:18.280 --> 02:27:47.280
soft and gentle, so smooth and calm, And the feeling

1104
02:27:47.440 --> 02:28:00.000
in your shoulders seems to spread deep into your shoulder,

1105
02:28:02.360 --> 02:28:11.639
a sense of relaxation, not just traveling deeply into your muscles,

1106
02:28:15.079 --> 02:28:28.000
but also relaxing the bones and moving all the way

1107
02:28:28.200 --> 02:28:36.959
to underneath your arms, relaxing a whole area between the

1108
02:28:37.079 --> 02:28:46.639
tops of your shoulders and underneath your arms. He Then

1109
02:28:51.559 --> 02:29:07.879
you feel so relaxed and comfortable shoulders, which sense that's

1110
02:29:07.920 --> 02:29:29.959
deep healing message into your arms. You may feel almost

1111
02:29:30.079 --> 02:29:35.040
as if your arms are not even that, because they're

1112
02:29:35.360 --> 02:30:25.239
so relaxed, so deeply relaxed, so so calm.

1113
02:30:11.159 --> 02:30:11.239
So.

1114
02:30:25.680 --> 02:30:37.000
The feelings spreading all the way down your arms to elbows,

1115
02:30:40.600 --> 02:31:11.040
including your elbows, circumfort spreads away, interists, your form nder

1116
02:31:11.200 --> 02:31:38.920
wrists so heavy yet the same time, sunlight and gentle

1117
02:32:03.600 --> 02:32:42.639
fully sip Now on your hands, my hands, so peaceful

1118
02:32:44.360 --> 02:33:23.079
in your hands, the sensor real pace just seems to

1119
02:33:27.280 --> 02:34:05.719
feel so familiar when your hands relax deeply. Else the

1120
02:34:05.959 --> 02:35:46.399
things things you think it taps, making attention. Let affront

1121
02:35:46.520 --> 02:36:17.079
to your body. Sure counsome a man new focus toight

1122
02:37:36.479 --> 02:38:30.959
like mysels and your figs and nimes I relaxed, a

1123
02:38:31.040 --> 02:40:49.520
carve muscles, just shades a PUSI and the fathing you faints, sir,

1124
02:40:50.120 --> 02:41:49.000
peace on circlm sick, peaceful sycom sir, peaceful sycom so

1125
02:41:51.000 --> 02:42:03.879
peace f h RelA sner.

1126
02:42:07.959 --> 02:42:09.680
Peace fall.

1127
02:42:13.680 --> 02:42:25.840
Calm love that deep relaxation.

1128
02:42:26.360 --> 02:42:33.799
To spread your chest story.

1129
02:42:33.440 --> 02:43:00.319
So RelA, lets me go everything. It's I'm going to

1130
02:43:00.399 --> 02:43:12.280
start counting down now from twenty down to one. You

1131
02:43:12.319 --> 02:43:15.799
can imagine in a way it's like just walking down

1132
02:43:15.920 --> 02:43:21.719
some steps and each step or twenty steps, and each

1133
02:43:21.840 --> 02:43:34.520
step represents a level of comfort. Each step represents a

1134
02:43:34.719 --> 02:43:47.239
deepening of that comfort and the furvies you walk down

1135
02:43:47.319 --> 02:44:00.639
those steps to deeper and more relaxed you feel. Starting

1136
02:44:00.760 --> 02:48:33.159
with number twenty twenty, nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteenhhhhhhhhh three four

1137
02:49:33.040 --> 02:50:40.760
four s too well.

1138
02:53:56.040 --> 02:54:59.600
No eight.

1139
02:55:03.120 --> 02:56:06.600
Seven us.

1140
02:56:20.319 --> 03:00:20.879
US six five four.

1141
03:00:38.319 --> 03:03:11.000
US using.

1142
03:04:39.319 --> 03:04:56.440
Now as you focus on your eyes, we're gonna count

1143
03:04:56.520 --> 03:05:07.559
down from taking down to one h focusing just on

1144
03:05:07.680 --> 03:05:18.680
your eyes, your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your

1145
03:05:18.719 --> 03:05:37.440
eye walls, themselves a whole area that makes up your eye.

1146
03:05:38.680 --> 03:05:46.120
And as we count down from ten down to one,

1147
03:05:46.479 --> 03:05:59.440
whilst focus in on your eyes, you become twice. Is

1148
03:05:59.559 --> 03:06:12.159
related with each number counting down that you may find

1149
03:06:15.639 --> 03:06:21.479
the all you want to do is just drift off

1150
03:06:21.760 --> 03:06:30.920
to sleep. And if that's what you want, then just

1151
03:06:31.040 --> 03:06:44.159
allow yourself to do that. Now, focusing on your eyes,

1152
03:06:46.239 --> 03:06:51.680
I'm going to begin counting down from ten down to

1153
03:06:51.840 --> 03:09:01.159
one right now, nine eighth seven.

1154
03:10:04.879 --> 03:16:08.840
Shh f fourree usus one.

1155
03:16:09.680 --> 03:16:30.000
So counting down from ten to one, ten nine eight seven,

1156
03:16:31.639 --> 03:16:54.239
six five four three two one. And maybe that was

1157
03:16:54.280 --> 03:16:58.479
a bit too quick in order to relax. Maybe it's

1158
03:16:58.479 --> 03:17:04.719
a bit too fast. You to notice the calming of

1159
03:17:04.760 --> 03:17:11.559
your body, maybe even a little bit of pressure there,

1160
03:17:11.680 --> 03:17:15.239
like you're counting down from ten to one. Would you

1161
03:17:15.319 --> 03:17:18.479
expect me to do? Man, expect me to just to

1162
03:17:18.600 --> 03:17:28.239
go with floppy just because you're counting down. I could

1163
03:17:28.239 --> 03:17:32.159
try it again, but this time I'll go a bit slower.

1164
03:17:34.239 --> 03:17:39.120
This time that you focus on the whole of your

1165
03:17:39.120 --> 03:17:47.520
body before we focus on your legs. Just notice how

1166
03:17:47.600 --> 03:18:01.719
your body does start to feel more relaxed with every

1167
03:18:01.840 --> 03:18:43.639
number that I count down ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five,

1168
03:18:54.040 --> 03:19:53.239
four three one. I just notice how how you feel, generally,

1169
03:19:53.639 --> 03:20:08.000
how your body feels. It's not necessarily even about counting

1170
03:20:08.079 --> 03:20:15.360
down from ten to one. It's that space that you have,

1171
03:20:16.520 --> 03:20:35.040
that space between being active physically or mentally to just

1172
03:20:39.719 --> 03:20:44.959
sitting or lying down, just being there, not doing anything,

1173
03:20:45.120 --> 03:20:51.760
not saying anything, or needing to think about anything. So

1174
03:20:52.440 --> 03:20:55.479
that opens up a space, you know, a bit of

1175
03:20:55.479 --> 03:21:06.520
a space, a gap. And the more I came down

1176
03:21:06.520 --> 03:21:13.959
from ten to one, the bigger that gap becomes. So

1177
03:21:14.040 --> 03:21:26.479
there's that gap of calmness, of comfort, relaxation. It's a

1178
03:21:26.600 --> 03:21:40.680
nice feeling, and it moves those stresses or discomforts physically

1179
03:21:40.799 --> 03:21:59.840
or emotionally, moves them away. Allows you to just slow down,

1180
03:22:03.440 --> 03:22:06.399
someone to count again from ten down to one, and

1181
03:22:06.559 --> 03:22:16.559
notice that gap widening, the gap, And as it widens,

1182
03:22:16.600 --> 03:22:22.680
it's almost like the stress and attention falls into the

1183
03:22:22.719 --> 03:22:48.200
gap and gives you that distance, that space. Now ten

1184
03:22:52.760 --> 03:24:02.840
nine eight seven, six, five four three.

1185
03:24:18.760 --> 03:24:42.440
Two one.

1186
03:24:49.639 --> 03:25:10.719
How did your body feel now? Can you notice that

1187
03:25:10.840 --> 03:25:47.840
you're feeling calmer, the feeling more relaxed. As we now

1188
03:25:47.959 --> 03:26:08.719
focus on your legs, just your legs. We're just gonna

1189
03:26:08.760 --> 03:26:28.159
start with focusing on your thighs. Of course, it's not

1190
03:26:28.280 --> 03:26:36.799
the most exciting thing to be doing, because I'm sure,

1191
03:26:36.879 --> 03:26:39.520
like most of your body, is not a lot going

1192
03:26:39.559 --> 03:26:52.360
on right now. Just focusing on the whole of your thighs,

1193
03:26:55.040 --> 03:26:58.760
the tops of your thighs, the sides of your thighs,

1194
03:27:00.959 --> 03:27:05.440
the bottoms of your thighs, your outer thighs, and your

1195
03:27:05.559 --> 03:27:10.879
inner thighs, basically the whole of your thigh that leads

1196
03:27:11.840 --> 03:27:27.399
into your hip and it goes down to your knee joint. Now,

1197
03:27:27.440 --> 03:27:34.440
this is a big area. It's a very heavy area.

1198
03:27:34.959 --> 03:27:41.000
It's very strong, probably the strongest muscles in your body

1199
03:27:41.680 --> 03:27:56.000
or in your thighs. But I don't think we perhaps

1200
03:27:57.719 --> 03:28:08.360
will give enough attention to our thighs. Perhaps we don't

1201
03:28:09.920 --> 03:28:30.440
acknowledge how important our thighs are to our lives, how

1202
03:28:30.520 --> 03:28:39.719
much they actually do for us all through our lives.

1203
03:28:46.799 --> 03:28:52.520
And it may seem sound really weird, but I.

1204
03:28:52.479 --> 03:28:58.639
Think that all of our body parts, especially our thighs,

1205
03:28:59.440 --> 03:29:06.920
needs TLC, a bit of love shown, a bit of

1206
03:29:13.399 --> 03:29:26.520
the acknowledgement thank you, gratitude for our thighs do for us.

1207
03:29:32.680 --> 03:29:38.319
And I know this may sound a bit strange, Maybe

1208
03:29:38.319 --> 03:29:41.399
you think, why am I surely I should be out

1209
03:29:41.840 --> 03:29:50.319
in the garden hugging a tree or something. Well, it's

1210
03:29:50.360 --> 03:29:53.600
hard to set a microphone up on a tree. That's

1211
03:29:53.639 --> 03:29:56.120
why I'm doing this indoors. Otherwise I would be outside

1212
03:29:56.200 --> 03:30:04.639
huging a tree. I can't see the television from the tree.

1213
03:30:06.719 --> 03:30:11.000
If you move down to your knees gain such an

1214
03:30:11.040 --> 03:30:20.760
important part. And I think we don't necessarily I'll speak

1215
03:30:20.799 --> 03:30:28.159
for myself here. I don't necessarily appreciate all that my

1216
03:30:28.319 --> 03:30:33.520
needs do for me until I have a problem with

1217
03:30:33.600 --> 03:30:38.600
my knee. It's occasionally, if I ever maybe i'll bash

1218
03:30:38.719 --> 03:30:44.760
it or it's aching for some reason. It's then that

1219
03:30:44.840 --> 03:30:50.440
I realize how much it does. You know, the benefit

1220
03:30:50.479 --> 03:30:58.040
of being able to use my legs without any kind

1221
03:30:58.040 --> 03:31:05.680
of physical discomfort is a beautiful thing that's possibly not

1222
03:31:05.840 --> 03:31:17.559
appreciated until it's temporarily removed. You know that's comfort. But

1223
03:31:17.639 --> 03:31:22.319
as you focus on your knees, regardless of how your

1224
03:31:22.360 --> 03:31:31.280
knees feel, you can have that sense of gratitude and

1225
03:31:31.559 --> 03:31:34.239
love to your knees for all that they do for you,

1226
03:31:44.680 --> 03:31:48.040
and you can still have that attention on your thighs.

1227
03:31:48.600 --> 03:31:55.040
Maybe notice how your thighs feel. Maybe you've noticed that

1228
03:31:55.159 --> 03:32:13.879
they are relaxing more deeply as you focus now on

1229
03:32:14.000 --> 03:32:18.559
the bottoms of your legs, your shins, and your calf muscles,

1230
03:32:19.000 --> 03:32:26.760
the bones between your knees and your feet incorporate, and

1231
03:32:26.799 --> 03:32:39.120
of course your ankles so important. Anyone that's had even

1232
03:32:39.520 --> 03:32:46.319
like the slightest sprain of an ankle knows how how

1233
03:32:46.399 --> 03:32:56.559
much we take our ankles for granted. And it's kind

1234
03:32:56.559 --> 03:33:02.120
of strange in a way when you think that. You know, logically,

1235
03:33:02.440 --> 03:33:05.520
our wrists are a lot thinner than the rest of

1236
03:33:05.559 --> 03:33:10.440
our arms, which is okay. It doesn't can't see any

1237
03:33:10.440 --> 03:33:15.479
problem with that because we're just picking stuff up by

1238
03:33:15.520 --> 03:33:21.600
our ankles so much thinner than the rest of our legs.

1239
03:33:27.959 --> 03:33:32.399
And from a physics perspective or logical even it doesn't

1240
03:33:32.440 --> 03:33:38.600
really make sense that all this weight would ultimately be

1241
03:33:39.559 --> 03:33:49.600
resting on your ankles then leading to your feet, that

1242
03:33:50.159 --> 03:34:00.159
thin area, thin bone. Yeah, it does so much great work.

1243
03:34:01.280 --> 03:34:11.040
Supports us, supports our body for a lifetime, helps us

1244
03:34:11.520 --> 03:34:20.879
to balance, It helps you to get around and be mobile.

1245
03:34:27.200 --> 03:34:35.159
And there's the calf muscles. Of course, when I was younger,

1246
03:34:35.360 --> 03:34:38.799
I couldn't see the pointing calf muscles didn't seem to

1247
03:34:38.840 --> 03:34:44.799
do anything Okay, if I walked around on tiptoes, then

1248
03:34:44.959 --> 03:34:48.719
my calf muscles get some work. But of course that's

1249
03:34:48.760 --> 03:34:52.920
not true. The calf muscles are being used whenever we

1250
03:34:53.200 --> 03:35:11.760
use our legs, and there to protect your lower legs,

1251
03:35:11.760 --> 03:35:18.959
shaped in a way almost as a protector for the bone,

1252
03:35:24.520 --> 03:35:36.440
leading of course to your ankles and your feet. But

1253
03:35:36.520 --> 03:35:38.479
we're not going to focus on your feet. We're just

1254
03:35:38.520 --> 03:35:44.959
going to focus on the legs. I realize, but now

1255
03:35:45.000 --> 03:35:49.600
that I've mentioned your feet, you'll probably focus on them anyway,

1256
03:35:50.120 --> 03:35:52.719
So maybe I should focus on your feet a little bit.

1257
03:35:56.719 --> 03:36:01.200
You can have them in your awareness the same as

1258
03:36:01.239 --> 03:36:05.600
you have your thighs in your awareness. Even though we

1259
03:36:05.719 --> 03:36:11.479
haven't been focusing on your thighs a few minutes and

1260
03:36:11.639 --> 03:36:22.639
we're focusing on your ankles, there's still that sensation of

1261
03:36:25.799 --> 03:36:38.600
comfort in your thighs in this that movement of energy

1262
03:36:40.639 --> 03:36:47.680
because the thighs hold lots of different sensations. Of course,

1263
03:36:47.719 --> 03:36:52.520
there's the muscles, the big strong muscles that we have

1264
03:36:52.680 --> 03:37:06.079
in our thighs, but the skin on the outside of

1265
03:37:06.120 --> 03:37:11.440
the thighs, as in the outside of all of our body,

1266
03:37:12.200 --> 03:37:23.799
can be very sensitive, sensitive to the touch, sensitive to temperature,

1267
03:37:30.360 --> 03:37:37.879
and inside your thighs, the bones, there's the muscle, there's

1268
03:37:37.920 --> 03:37:42.760
the blood, vessels, the ar trees to all this stuff

1269
03:37:42.840 --> 03:37:51.920
that inside your thighs. I guess sometimes it'd be nice

1270
03:37:51.959 --> 03:37:56.520
if you could actually put your fingers inside your thighs

1271
03:37:56.920 --> 03:38:02.120
and a message, so you can message on the outside,

1272
03:38:02.239 --> 03:38:05.280
of course, but to be able to get deep into

1273
03:38:05.319 --> 03:38:10.159
the muscles, and to be able to just massage inside

1274
03:38:10.200 --> 03:38:17.239
your thighs, message in the bones of your leg massage

1275
03:38:17.280 --> 03:38:30.479
in or the veins, just gently healing your thighs and

1276
03:38:30.639 --> 03:38:37.239
you can move down message and inside your knees. Just

1277
03:38:37.399 --> 03:38:44.079
message in those bones, but with healing fingertips, spreading that

1278
03:38:44.479 --> 03:38:55.719
healing energy deep into the choice of your knees. Of course,

1279
03:38:55.760 --> 03:39:00.479
there's the back of your You need the inside crease

1280
03:39:01.440 --> 03:39:09.120
where your knee is. It's a very sensitive area. It

1281
03:39:09.159 --> 03:39:13.200
feels very nice when you stroke it. That might be

1282
03:39:13.200 --> 03:39:17.200
because it's an area that's not really touched very often.

1283
03:39:19.200 --> 03:39:26.079
It's almost like a hidden part, that crease in your legs.

1284
03:39:26.159 --> 03:39:33.520
It's almost like a part that has a sensitivity, which

1285
03:39:33.559 --> 03:39:43.959
is a little bit different. Of course, it's protected by

1286
03:39:44.040 --> 03:39:55.520
your legs, so you can imagine putting your fingers into

1287
03:39:55.559 --> 03:40:05.319
that crease in your legs. Fold in between your legs.

1288
03:40:05.959 --> 03:40:10.600
You can just message with your fingertips. Imagine your fingertips

1289
03:40:10.680 --> 03:40:21.639
going inside, massage in the muscle or tissue you can cause.

1290
03:40:21.719 --> 03:40:28.440
Field the bones of your knees, healing through your fingertips,

1291
03:40:35.799 --> 03:40:41.120
and then as you go down to your calf muscles,

1292
03:40:41.479 --> 03:40:43.319
and that's the part. I'd like to be able to

1293
03:40:44.040 --> 03:40:51.399
really put my fingertips deep inside my calf muscles, message

1294
03:40:51.479 --> 03:41:00.600
in every single tissue of that muscle, healing every part,

1295
03:41:06.520 --> 03:41:12.879
and then doing the same for my shins, massagy and

1296
03:41:13.479 --> 03:41:20.520
generally stroking the bones, generally stroking them, healing in a

1297
03:41:20.600 --> 03:41:27.760
loving way because they deserve to be treated. There's the

1298
03:41:27.879 --> 03:41:31.840
precious bones that they are, because our legs are so

1299
03:41:32.000 --> 03:41:35.559
precious as in all the other parts of our body,

1300
03:41:38.040 --> 03:41:51.959
the more precious of any chub on the planet. When

1301
03:41:52.000 --> 03:42:01.680
you start to think about your legs in this way,

1302
03:42:04.319 --> 03:42:11.040
it can change your perspective. It might sound a bit

1303
03:42:14.120 --> 03:42:18.399
a bit silly to start with the idea of having

1304
03:42:19.239 --> 03:42:29.239
love for your legs, showing appreciation for your thighs, wanting

1305
03:42:29.399 --> 03:42:33.399
to be able to put your hands in your thighs,

1306
03:42:35.520 --> 03:42:41.959
massage the muscles and the bones, and to get your

1307
03:42:42.000 --> 03:42:50.520
fingers deep in there, releasing all tension, just to show

1308
03:42:52.399 --> 03:42:59.760
how much you care about your legs, how much you

1309
03:42:59.799 --> 03:43:08.440
care for what your legs do for you regularly, your knees,

1310
03:43:08.719 --> 03:43:21.559
your cars, your ankles. The strength of your ankles considering

1311
03:43:21.760 --> 03:43:26.280
how thin they are compared to the rest of your legs,

1312
03:43:26.399 --> 03:43:40.120
especially your thighs. Yeah, they're so strong, so flexible, absolutely

1313
03:43:40.360 --> 03:43:52.200
amazing things. Your ankles are truly a gift because of

1314
03:43:52.239 --> 03:44:03.559
what they do for you, supporting all that weight. Regardless

1315
03:44:03.559 --> 03:44:07.600
of how what weight you are, even if you only

1316
03:44:07.600 --> 03:44:12.479
eat ate stone, there's still a lot of weight for

1317
03:44:12.520 --> 03:44:19.079
these little ankles. Now I am a lot heavier than

1318
03:44:19.079 --> 03:44:29.079
eight stone double down, yet my ankles support my body

1319
03:44:29.799 --> 03:44:36.399
all the time. Orther they do give off a sigh

1320
03:44:36.440 --> 03:44:41.639
of relief when I sit down. That's you've had my

1321
03:44:41.639 --> 03:44:51.040
whole legs to my feet feet also go. My toes

1322
03:44:51.079 --> 03:45:21.120
clap so happy. Your legs really are amazing, And I

1323
03:45:21.239 --> 03:45:25.200
know they're talking about. Talking about your legs is probably

1324
03:45:27.639 --> 03:45:32.360
possibly among the most most boring things you've ever heard

1325
03:45:32.399 --> 03:45:40.799
anyone say. Possibly you're boring or not. Everything I said

1326
03:45:40.920 --> 03:45:57.600
is true. Your legs are amazing. Your legs deserve not

1327
03:45:57.959 --> 03:46:16.479
just respect, They deserve to relax deeply. They deserve to

1328
03:46:16.559 --> 03:46:21.840
take some time out of the day to just let

1329
03:46:22.000 --> 03:46:58.559
go completely. The legs really can relax because the legs

1330
03:46:58.760 --> 03:47:03.520
are so such a most, you know, very important part

1331
03:47:04.280 --> 03:47:08.159
of your body. When you relax your legs, the rest

1332
03:47:08.200 --> 03:47:19.920
of your body also naturally follows in that journey of comfort.

1333
03:47:28.040 --> 03:47:31.920
Like I feel it in my hips. My hips feel

1334
03:47:32.559 --> 03:47:40.559
really loose, and also my lower back as well. My

1335
03:47:40.680 --> 03:47:46.440
lower back really feels it feels stretched, even though I'm

1336
03:47:46.520 --> 03:47:52.760
just sitting in a chair and there's no stretching as

1337
03:47:52.760 --> 03:47:55.799
far as I'm aware that I'm doing, but it's almost

1338
03:47:55.799 --> 03:47:59.600
as if the muscles are just relaxed so much that

1339
03:47:59.639 --> 03:48:06.799
there is a natural stretch as a tension has reduced

1340
03:48:08.200 --> 03:48:26.840
a lot. And I'm now going to count down from

1341
03:48:27.440 --> 03:48:36.520
ten down to one, and you can continue to fill

1342
03:48:38.280 --> 03:49:14.399
wonderfully relaxed ten nine, eight, seven, six, five, four three

1343
03:49:14.840 --> 03:49:35.600
two one relax. So I'm just going to count down

1344
03:49:37.120 --> 03:49:41.840
from five down to one. And as a countdown, if

1345
03:49:41.879 --> 03:49:49.000
you just focus on the numbers, just the numbers counting down,

1346
03:49:50.000 --> 03:49:59.200
and notice how you feel in this moment as you

1347
03:49:59.280 --> 03:50:06.840
hear the numbers counting down, knowing that those numbers counting

1348
03:50:06.879 --> 03:50:17.079
down represent you feeling calmer, not just in your body,

1349
03:50:17.200 --> 03:50:25.600
but also relaxing your mind. Just notice how you feel

1350
03:50:26.440 --> 03:50:32.399
there's nothing to do, there's nothing to say, there's nothing

1351
03:50:32.479 --> 03:50:40.040
to think about, starting with number five.

1352
03:50:48.520 --> 03:50:49.159
Four.

1353
03:50:58.239 --> 03:51:34.040
Three two one. And as you notice the gradual letting

1354
03:51:34.159 --> 03:51:42.600
go of the tension in your body, you may also

1355
03:51:43.200 --> 03:51:48.680
begin to notice and be aware of how your mind

1356
03:51:49.760 --> 03:51:57.760
is starting to slow down. This is just a natural

1357
03:51:58.520 --> 03:52:06.520
thing that happens. It's not really a special procedure. It's

1358
03:52:06.559 --> 03:52:11.920
just natural because as your body relaxes, your mind also

1359
03:52:12.639 --> 03:52:17.600
starts to relax, and the more your mind relaxes, the

1360
03:52:17.600 --> 03:52:23.120
more your body relaxes. It's just a continuous circle of relaxation.

1361
03:52:29.120 --> 03:52:37.680
And there's that calmness that comes from relative quietness. You know,

1362
03:52:37.760 --> 03:52:43.360
even even if there's background sounds, either your side or mine,

1363
03:52:45.079 --> 03:52:51.040
it's still going to be quite calm. You know, you

1364
03:52:51.079 --> 03:52:56.319
haven't got the television on, there's no music in the background,

1365
03:52:56.360 --> 03:52:59.079
unless you're listening to the recording with music. Of course,

1366
03:53:03.879 --> 03:53:06.079
you're very likely not going to be sitting in a

1367
03:53:06.200 --> 03:53:09.319
room with other people. Of course you might be, but

1368
03:53:10.600 --> 03:53:13.920
generally it's more ideal if you can do this on

1369
03:53:13.959 --> 03:53:25.319
your own. So no distractions, and when you stop thinking

1370
03:53:25.360 --> 03:53:42.559
about stuff, relaxation automatically rises, a sense of comfort starts

1371
03:53:42.600 --> 03:53:51.399
to grow, and without trying to build it up into

1372
03:53:51.440 --> 03:54:05.879
something fantastical or something magical, this is just a natural process,

1373
03:54:05.920 --> 03:54:16.680
something that's easy to accomplish. In fact, it's almost you know,

1374
03:54:16.760 --> 03:54:23.639
the sense of relaxing completely happens really when you put

1375
03:54:23.799 --> 03:54:27.680
no effort into it. It's not something that you can

1376
03:54:27.760 --> 03:54:39.559
really force. It's something that happens naturally. And part of

1377
03:54:39.799 --> 03:54:50.000
the process of this recording and others is simply two

1378
03:54:51.600 --> 03:55:02.000
allow you to take advantage of this space, this time,

1379
03:55:05.000 --> 03:55:15.920
to just let go, to just be here, to be

1380
03:55:16.559 --> 03:55:29.959
in tune with how you feel, yet with the intention

1381
03:55:32.200 --> 03:55:43.680
of wanting to relax deeply and maybe even to fall asleep,

1382
03:55:44.799 --> 03:55:50.040
depending on what it is that you wish for yourself

1383
03:55:51.760 --> 03:56:08.120
in this moment. As we relaxing is the majority of

1384
03:56:08.200 --> 03:56:12.079
the process of falling asleep, the actual fall and the

1385
03:56:12.200 --> 03:56:18.879
sleep part is the tiny bit at the end. The

1386
03:56:19.000 --> 03:56:33.479
deeper relaxed you become, the easier you find yourself drifting.

1387
03:56:42.920 --> 03:56:49.440
But you can also if you choose stay focused on

1388
03:56:49.639 --> 03:57:17.920
my voice and really enjoy the process gradually relaxing each

1389
03:57:18.399 --> 03:57:44.959
muscle in your body effortlessly and just observing the sensation

1390
03:57:50.239 --> 03:58:06.200
of letting go completely. This time, I'm gonna count from

1391
03:58:06.399 --> 03:58:19.760
six down to one. You can notice your mind calming

1392
03:58:20.040 --> 03:58:32.639
down more with each number that you hear me say, naturally,

1393
03:58:33.680 --> 04:01:15.200
feeling calm and slow, peaceful sex five, four, three, one,

1394
04:01:36.319 --> 04:01:45.920
being aware of how your mind to slowed right down,

1395
04:01:49.159 --> 04:02:12.600
sinking deeply into relaxation. And as you focus on your mind,

1396
04:02:12.840 --> 04:02:25.399
you may notice that there are some thoughts still there,

1397
04:02:25.399 --> 04:02:34.959
maybe some stubborn thoughts that for some reason perhaps need

1398
04:02:35.040 --> 04:02:50.239
your attention. So what you can do is send love

1399
04:02:50.440 --> 04:03:04.200
to those thoughts. Sprinkle those thoughts with love my little

1400
04:03:04.239 --> 04:03:09.920
petals from a flower. Just sprinkle it over them, petals

1401
04:03:09.920 --> 04:03:17.120
feel good love towards those thoughts, to let those thoughts

1402
04:03:17.360 --> 04:03:24.760
know that you're not abandoned in number, You just need them.

1403
04:03:25.399 --> 04:03:36.520
You require them to just calm down, slow down, quiet

1404
04:03:36.840 --> 04:03:52.239
down for now. So as you focus on those remaining

1405
04:03:52.399 --> 04:03:57.840
thoughts as a countdown this time from seven down to

1406
04:03:57.920 --> 04:04:08.840
one number, just imagine sprinkling those flower petals of love,

1407
04:04:13.159 --> 04:04:26.879
kindness gratitude over those thoughts, which will allow them to

1408
04:04:27.159 --> 04:04:43.200
just not away and relax deeply. With every number, those

1409
04:04:43.239 --> 04:05:52.879
thoughts will become more and more relaxed, starting if number seven, six, five, four.

1410
04:06:18.440 --> 04:07:24.319
Three one.

1411
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As you now notice how relaxed you're feeling in your body,

1412
04:07:53.200 --> 04:08:06.399
We're going to focus on your hands because the more

1413
04:08:06.479 --> 04:08:14.200
relaxed your hands are, the more relax your body and mind.

1414
04:08:14.319 --> 04:08:34.120
As you focus on your hands.

1415
04:08:34.479 --> 04:08:44.600
And your fingers, there's nothing needed to be done. There's

1416
04:08:44.680 --> 04:08:49.600
no clenching of fists or tents in the fingers or

1417
04:08:49.639 --> 04:09:07.719
anything like that. It's just noticing and focusing on your hands,

1418
04:09:11.000 --> 04:09:33.319
noticingre they feel. Because the more relaxed do your hands feel,

1419
04:09:36.760 --> 04:09:45.959
the calmly your mind feels, and the all comforts you

1420
04:09:46.200 --> 04:09:55.319
feel throughout your body.

1421
04:09:55.959 --> 04:09:58.840
Jee me.

1422
04:10:01.399 --> 04:10:44.479
Have hardy laticed you mind is starting to dress quick said,

1423
04:10:48.559 --> 04:10:59.920
Just on your hands and fingers, allowing and cheat.

1424
04:11:01.760 --> 04:11:09.239
Experience a real deepening of.

1425
04:11:09.079 --> 04:11:25.079
That relaxation in your hands and fingers war more relaxed.

1426
04:11:30.120 --> 04:11:48.479
With each number from eight down to one. You can

1427
04:11:48.559 --> 04:12:00.879
almost feel that healing, relaxing energy spreading into your hands

1428
04:12:01.479 --> 04:12:30.000
and fingers, becoming relaxing. With each number going down eight

1429
04:12:30.760 --> 04:13:00.319
down to one, drifting drifting again started with number eight

1430
04:13:38.040 --> 04:16:56.520
seven just being here now, nothing to think about, nothing

1431
04:16:56.559 --> 04:17:07.559
to do, nothing to say, and everything just feels calmer.

1432
04:17:12.159 --> 04:17:19.760
And this is your natural state of being. This is

1433
04:17:19.879 --> 04:17:26.600
how you just normally feel when you take away all

1434
04:17:26.760 --> 04:17:33.719
that other stuff that we add and I think like

1435
04:17:34.120 --> 04:17:50.399
stress and where we're hear overthinking, anxiety, tension, generally thinking

1436
04:17:50.440 --> 04:17:56.559
about stuff. You take that away, this is what we do.

1437
04:17:57.280 --> 04:18:09.200
What we do now. You left with a real sense

1438
04:18:09.760 --> 04:18:22.319
of peacefulness which comes to you very quickly, because ultimately

1439
04:18:22.959 --> 04:18:23.559
it's just.

1440
04:18:24.639 --> 04:18:37.239
A feeling, a feeling and comfort, almost as if you've

1441
04:18:37.280 --> 04:18:43.120
got inside yourself and you've found a special place where

1442
04:18:45.520 --> 04:18:50.760
everything is basil.

1443
04:18:53.280 --> 04:18:58.639
The place where in the film relaxed and you're natural

1444
04:19:00.799 --> 04:19:07.319
sense of comfort, the place where you can be. Here

1445
04:19:11.879 --> 04:19:19.319
we can accept yourself who you are, in the place

1446
04:19:19.360 --> 04:19:29.520
where you're not trying to please anybody else, in the

1447
04:19:29.680 --> 04:19:38.239
place where you can actually not just love yourself, but

1448
04:19:39.680 --> 04:19:47.000
in some ways more importantly, you can like yourself, appreciate

1449
04:19:48.520 --> 04:20:03.639
who you are, a sense of gratitude. It's in the

1450
04:20:03.760 --> 04:20:18.079
air around that's also a place where you can actually

1451
04:20:18.479 --> 04:20:33.079
feel the healing energy soaking into your body. Healing energy

1452
04:20:34.040 --> 04:20:46.120
soaking into your body, a healing energy spreads through your veins,

1453
04:20:49.959 --> 04:21:02.799
traveling to each every single part of your body, and

1454
04:21:02.959 --> 04:21:10.000
you start to realize that actually that healing energy, it's

1455
04:21:10.079 --> 04:21:17.239
not just entered into your brain, it's become part of

1456
04:21:17.280 --> 04:21:28.280
your brain, and the spinal fluid is now mixed up

1457
04:21:28.479 --> 04:21:39.799
healing energy, not just allowing you to feel so much

1458
04:21:40.000 --> 04:21:54.399
more relaxed and healthy in this moment, but also you

1459
04:21:54.559 --> 04:22:02.200
start to realize that actually what's happened and now without

1460
04:22:02.479 --> 04:22:12.680
healing relaxing energy spreading through your body, it's actually changing

1461
04:22:13.000 --> 04:22:22.479
your life. It's actually changing the way you're going to

1462
04:22:22.639 --> 04:22:29.200
feel not just now, but tomorrow and the next day.

1463
04:22:31.079 --> 04:22:38.600
As your health improves, not just your physical health, but

1464
04:22:38.719 --> 04:22:46.159
your mental health. Things that used to bother you in

1465
04:22:46.239 --> 04:22:53.879
the past, for some reason, no longer have the effect

1466
04:22:54.319 --> 04:23:03.280
that they used to because something is aged deep within you.

1467
04:23:08.319 --> 04:23:14.760
Maybe things that used to cause you to feel anger

1468
04:23:18.559 --> 04:23:28.719
no longer have that power to control you the way

1469
04:23:28.760 --> 04:23:36.920
they seem to be able to perform. As you realize

1470
04:23:37.799 --> 04:23:50.680
that you're the one who decides what affects you, you're

1471
04:23:50.719 --> 04:24:00.639
the one who decides to feel relaxed and calm when

1472
04:24:01.520 --> 04:24:17.399
you choose to enjoy noticing, these natural developments and healing

1473
04:24:19.000 --> 04:24:27.639
continue to grow and improve your life day by day,

1474
04:24:33.479 --> 04:24:41.760
including of course, your ability to relax so much easier

1475
04:24:46.719 --> 04:24:57.879
then sleeping. It's the most natural thing in the world.

1476
04:24:57.719 --> 04:24:58.040
To you.

1477
04:25:02.479 --> 04:25:06.639
Because fall in the sleep is something that you've done

1478
04:25:09.079 --> 04:25:16.799
so many times in your life, and you know that

1479
04:25:17.000 --> 04:25:22.239
you were born, as we all were, with the ability

1480
04:25:23.840 --> 04:25:34.159
to fall asleep naturally. We were born with that ability

1481
04:25:37.079 --> 04:25:51.360
to just drift off into a deep, healing sleep. Even

1482
04:25:51.440 --> 04:25:56.159
when we're kids, sometimes will fall asleep when we don't

1483
04:25:56.200 --> 04:26:02.200
even want to try to think us you're awake. Maybe

1484
04:26:02.239 --> 04:26:05.639
it's a birthday in the morning, though it's Christmas or

1485
04:26:06.440 --> 04:26:09.520
holiday or something we look forward to. I don't want

1486
04:26:09.559 --> 04:26:14.079
to go to sleep. But the more you want to

1487
04:26:14.120 --> 04:26:23.399
stay awake, the more we just start to drift. And

1488
04:26:23.520 --> 04:26:28.360
the more you fights drifting we try to stop yourself

1489
04:26:28.440 --> 04:26:33.440
and drift in a sleep, the deeper and stronger that

1490
04:26:33.719 --> 04:26:45.159
drifting becomes. Because we're born not just with the need

1491
04:26:46.440 --> 04:26:54.559
to relax deeply and to naturally fall asleep, but it's

1492
04:26:54.639 --> 04:27:08.719
our birth right, it's part of our DNA, and sometimes

1493
04:27:08.840 --> 04:27:14.239
as we get older in life, perhaps at times we

1494
04:27:14.559 --> 04:27:30.760
have forgotten relaxing completely. It's not only a wonderfully pleasant experience,

1495
04:27:36.479 --> 04:27:54.399
it's also really easy. It's very very easy to let

1496
04:27:54.479 --> 04:28:02.680
go because that's all it is. It is just deciding

1497
04:28:05.719 --> 04:28:13.760
to let go. And when you press the play button

1498
04:28:16.040 --> 04:28:24.239
on my recordings, you have given permission for my voice

1499
04:28:25.840 --> 04:28:33.040
to relax you. When you press that play button, you

1500
04:28:33.159 --> 04:28:44.520
have given me permission for my words to effect you

1501
04:28:44.600 --> 04:29:01.120
in a positive, only a positive way, opening up your

1502
04:29:01.200 --> 04:29:24.000
mind to useful and healing suggestions. They can have such

1503
04:29:24.040 --> 04:29:36.159
an amazing effect on how you feel right now, as

1504
04:29:36.239 --> 04:29:47.280
well as those changes that continue long after the recording ends,

1505
04:29:48.879 --> 04:29:59.079
those changes within you, they continue to flourish and grow,

1506
04:30:02.520 --> 04:30:16.520
transforming your life in a positive, beautiful way, allowing you

1507
04:30:16.840 --> 04:30:23.079
to move forward in your life in the direction that

1508
04:30:23.200 --> 04:30:41.680
you choose for yourself. This feeling, this feeling that you

1509
04:30:41.680 --> 04:31:05.000
can experience a safety, comfort, calmness. This feels so nice,

1510
04:31:06.559 --> 04:31:21.280
such a healthy place to be, and that positivity grows

1511
04:31:22.000 --> 04:31:39.639
within you in and every day moving forward, you're going

1512
04:31:39.719 --> 04:31:50.520
to find that you're all relaxed physically and in your

1513
04:31:50.559 --> 04:32:00.680
mind is more relaxed. And it's not that you're thinking slower,

1514
04:32:02.920 --> 04:32:06.559
it's just that your mind will be less clocked up

1515
04:32:07.680 --> 04:32:22.000
with unnecessary negativity because from now on, your mind rejects negativity.

1516
04:32:24.959 --> 04:32:33.239
From now on, you're going to start noticing when negativity arises,

1517
04:32:37.040 --> 04:32:50.639
you can just say stop, stop and that negativity will

1518
04:32:50.719 --> 04:33:07.479
turn around and leave you alone. Stop and then negativity

1519
04:33:10.560 --> 04:33:24.759
would disappear. And as you notice that you feel way

1520
04:33:25.119 --> 04:33:41.040
more relaxed than you probably expected. You can now congratulate

1521
04:33:41.159 --> 04:33:47.840
yourself because you're the person that has done this. You

1522
04:33:49.119 --> 04:33:53.959
are the one that has opened your mind up to

1523
04:33:54.080 --> 04:34:01.959
the simple faith, and you can feel or more relaxed

1524
04:34:02.040 --> 04:34:11.720
in your body end in your mind. You've opened your

1525
04:34:11.840 --> 04:34:17.360
mind up to the birthright of being able to just

1526
04:34:20.040 --> 04:34:34.880
fall asleep easily when you cheers. And that's a nice feeling.

1527
04:34:36.479 --> 04:34:47.959
Don't you think it feels nice? Doesn't it? To feel calm?

1528
04:34:48.200 --> 04:34:52.799
All that healing energy is spreading through your body in

1529
04:34:52.959 --> 04:35:10.720
your mind. Spend time a special place where negativity can

1530
04:35:10.759 --> 04:35:23.479
no longer enter. Negativity is banned. It's bad, it's not

1531
04:35:23.599 --> 04:35:30.639
allowed entry, doesn't doesn't this doesn't deserve to be here,

1532
04:35:31.080 --> 04:35:40.119
doesn't belong here. Negativity has no place in your life,

1533
04:35:50.080 --> 04:35:59.599
which makes room for more comfort, more healing, or relaxation,

1534
04:36:04.479 --> 04:36:39.639
old peace. It feels nice as that just echo everything.

1535
04:36:47.599 --> 04:36:54.599
I'm gonna count down now from twenty down to one.

1536
04:36:55.360 --> 04:37:07.319
He can continue to relax, cheer, Kim great to sleep

1537
04:37:10.959 --> 04:37:23.319
with every number, he will say, even film twice is relaxed,

1538
04:37:26.360 --> 04:37:37.840
or if you choose, you can film twice sleeping now

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04:37:43.040 --> 04:38:52.479
twenty ninety eighteen seventeen six day fifty four thy two.

1540
04:39:01.360 --> 04:39:24.959
Eleven nine.

1541
04:39:25.319 --> 04:40:36.639
Eight six five. This is your time to just take

1542
04:40:36.680 --> 04:40:52.119
a break, your time relax, to allow your mind to

1543
04:40:52.159 --> 04:41:09.119
slow down, to give yourself a permission to take a

1544
04:41:09.319 --> 04:41:23.599
break from everything. Endure the only person that can make

1545
04:41:23.759 --> 04:41:24.759
that decision.

1546
04:41:27.599 --> 04:41:28.319
You're the only.

1547
04:41:28.240 --> 04:41:36.400
Person that can actually tell you why to just relax,

1548
04:41:44.520 --> 04:41:45.040
to just.

1549
04:41:48.599 --> 04:41:49.919
Take some time.

1550
04:41:51.599 --> 04:42:04.680
Off. So focus on your body, getting in touch with

1551
04:42:05.919 --> 04:42:22.200
how you feel physically, and in the process of this

1552
04:42:22.560 --> 04:42:32.200
body scared way, you focus on different parts of your body,

1553
04:42:33.919 --> 04:42:41.720
those parts you focus on and observe, even though you're

1554
04:42:41.799 --> 04:42:50.639
not purposely requesting those parts of your body need to relax.

1555
04:42:52.840 --> 04:42:59.240
It's kind of expected. You expect when you listen to

1556
04:42:59.360 --> 04:43:12.080
my voice to feel the words naturally, because when you're

1557
04:43:12.080 --> 04:43:17.080
listening to me, your attention.

1558
04:43:18.919 --> 04:43:20.279
Is focused.

1559
04:43:21.400 --> 04:43:32.639
On my words, and as my words guide you to

1560
04:43:32.759 --> 04:43:44.159
focus on those parts of your body.

1561
04:43:43.400 --> 04:43:53.599
Your focus increases. It's actually.

1562
04:43:55.959 --> 04:44:08.599
Calm your mind to calms down.

1563
04:44:13.720 --> 04:44:43.159
Buddy, relaxes and calms down.

1564
04:44:38.000 --> 04:45:05.959
Relaxes, started to focus on your body. Feel that energy

1565
04:45:06.520 --> 04:45:26.880
is spreading through your body, pushing out stress, attention all

1566
04:45:26.959 --> 04:45:37.560
the parts of your body, cleaning, skins and blood, all

1567
04:45:37.599 --> 04:45:39.080
of your words and such.

1568
04:45:39.159 --> 04:45:44.000
Your body. One of the muscles are of the.

1569
04:45:44.000 --> 04:45:51.759
Fat of everything. Every hair on your body.

1570
04:45:53.520 --> 04:46:03.919
Is fuelled by energy, and.

1571
04:46:04.240 --> 04:46:11.479
Your brain feels bag.

1572
04:46:19.560 --> 04:46:20.479
The feed and.

1573
04:46:20.720 --> 04:46:44.599
Comfort and relaxation increases, deep pay increases. In no way,

1574
04:46:48.400 --> 04:47:04.880
your mind starts to feel perhaps speaking to rousing because

1575
04:47:04.880 --> 04:47:14.959
it's not needed. The way starts to drive.

1576
04:47:23.840 --> 04:47:30.799
If that's what's need. So if you listening to this.

1577
04:47:32.759 --> 04:47:35.200
We need disting vexation.

1578
04:47:36.000 --> 04:47:43.279
That's what you get. You need this to be a slave.

1579
04:47:45.040 --> 04:47:53.000
Actually display you want drinks. That's also.

1580
04:47:54.240 --> 04:48:01.360
Well, it's why.

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04:48:04.040 --> 04:48:09.119
I suppose the bottom in the podcast and listen to

1582
04:48:09.200 --> 04:48:12.040
me gre notion.

1583
04:48:13.880 --> 04:48:15.279
Your body and your.

1584
04:48:15.119 --> 04:48:27.720
Mind in fact, give the command to the body, the

1585
04:48:27.880 --> 04:48:39.360
wind to my life deeply to drift off to sleep

1586
04:48:40.720 --> 04:48:43.880
if that's what he wants.

1587
04:48:47.119 --> 04:48:55.599
Need And as I.

1588
04:48:58.279 --> 04:49:20.919
Different parts don't put stop, you don't talk fus different

1589
04:49:21.040 --> 04:49:40.439
parts of your body. I just started to realize you stalk.

1590
04:49:44.919 --> 04:49:51.080
Into my voice said what different parts of your.

1591
04:49:50.959 --> 04:49:54.799
Body started accent.

1592
04:49:59.400 --> 04:50:04.400
Because it's basically here they.

1593
04:50:06.599 --> 04:50:08.360
In the sleep.

1594
04:50:15.119 --> 04:50:24.560
You dry, you dream ventually.

1595
04:50:26.319 --> 04:50:45.040
I tried to continuous to sleep. That's the posture to

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time when you experienced the I am how to sleep.

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To you, sister s accidents suprice to ax to usually

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which spoke in ex. Sax, stop, fris s, shoe, soup, ships,

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SEPs sss. Let's wake this again, this time before else.

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The keeps said sssscation features steps, sists, can spots, spots

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