Aug. 23, 2025

(music) (5 hours) Good Morning | LMBYTS #1420 | Jason Newland | 23rd August 2025

(music) (5 hours) Good Morning | LMBYTS #1420 | Jason Newland | 23rd August 2025
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Hello, and welcome to Jasonnewland dot com. My name's Jason

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Newland and this is let me bore you to sleep.

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Please only listen when you can faifly closurize. They their

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thefy So today I don't know what that was about. Sorry.

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Today is Saturday, the twenty third, I think twenty third,

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twenty third, eighteen nineteen twenty third, twenty four fived. I

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can work it out by doing something else on my

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birthdays on Tuesday, and that's the twenty sixth Saturday, twenty third,

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twenty fourth, twenty fifth, twenty sixth year. So happy birthday

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to me, birthday to me. So yeah, yeah, it's my

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birthday Tuesday. I'm reminding everyone. I don't know why, you know,

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I shouldn't really keep mentioning it because I'm I'm scared

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of the flood of cards and gifts. I'm going to get,

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oh overwhelming all in cards. I won't be able to

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get out of my front door. There'd be so many cards.

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The whole of the my whole street will be blocked

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off with all those cards. I think these days I

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get about three cards cards, two cards max.

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For my birthday these days, maybe three. I always get

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one from my dad. Usually get one from me brother

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and usually I mean yeah, sometimes I don't, but generally

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I get one from him, and that's it. Yeah, that's

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the only guarantees. Sometimes I get one from we have

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a brother and we have a sister, but I always

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get one from me dad. That's the only guaranteed card

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I get for my birthday. Mm hmmm mmm, rare.

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Proper.

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Yeah, what did I dream about last night? It's really

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weird cool at last night because it was just now really,

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because I've only just got out of bed. It's what's

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the time, it's one minute past seven. I've been up

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about eighteen minutes, i'd say the most, probably about fifteen

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sixteen minutes, long enough to do a whiz and take

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me tablet. And that was it. And then I got

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up and read through an email I got from Cleo, Cleo, Chloe, Cleo.

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And here I am sitting on my sofa talking again

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out very little. It's very overcast today, very overcast. It's weird.

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Yesterday was a weird one. The heating came on. It

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was chilly in here inside, it was cold inside outside,

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absolutely fine, weird. It shouldn't be colder inside, I know,

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it's just it. Maybe it's because of the shelter. When

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I was outside, there was some sun, although it was

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mainly cloudy, so there wasn't really a lot of sun.

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But here there's a massive tree that kind of blocks

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most of the sun and the light from getting in.

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So maybe that's what is. But and it feels quite

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It feels very cool in here. Now. Yeah, it's weird.

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It's this is strange. It can be warmer outside than inside.

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But there's no sound inside, is there? No? But h

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what did I dream about during the night? What did

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what did I? What did I? What did I? I

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can't remember? Let me just think, Yeah, it's I can't

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tell you all my dreams because some of them are

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just too weird and occasionally erotic, and I'm not going

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to talk about them. Okay, Well what happened was this?

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I'll tell you then if you want. I met a

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lady in my dreams. She let me hold her hand,

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and yeah that was it, and I was done for

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and it was I can't control myself and I had

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to apologize. She said, why you apologize? And I said,

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because I'm not going to be any use if you

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want to take me home and make passionate love. And

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she said, why did you think I wanted to take

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you home and make passionate love. I said, oh no,

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I messed up another relationship. And she said, this isn't

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a relationship. I said, but you hold him my hand.

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She said, I'm a paramedic. I'm helping you up before

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you fell over. Oh oh oh, where I go with

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that one? None of that happened. No, what did I dream?

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Did I dream? What did A dream? I didn't dream

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about those places that I lived, because I've got this

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whole little dream world where it's weird because I'm living

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in one place, but I had my own place, which

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is a council place. But I don't like that place

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because it's it's shared. You can you know, there's so

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else is living in the same place. But in reality,

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I actually had my own flat, which is a proper

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council one. It was just weird. Is that my whole

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scenario that just replays itself?

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Oh?

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I know what I did. I went back working in

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one of my jobs I used to have in a factory,

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and I was back there. It does make me think, though,

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because I was like in my early twenties, so it's

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thirty years ago, and I think about people that I

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used to work with, and I'm pretty sure.

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That Terry.

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Was in forties, so it would be like an old

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man now, and people that were in their fifties, which

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was a few, they might alfur. For example, he might

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not be around anymore. I'll tell you one of the

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funniest I've talked about this before, but one of the

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funniest men I ever met was in this factory and

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he was a temp, just a temporary, and he did.

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He came in and we worked together, and he was funny.

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It's really chilled out. And he was in his fifties,

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probably fifty five. Man by age blind me. Yeah, wow,

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I'm talking about him being fifty five as like really old.

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And I just realized that's what I'm going to be

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in a few days, like really old. And I don't

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think I no, No, fifty five is not old. I

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just realized. Anyway, this bloke, he's a big, big bloke,

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like big strong man. He looked a little bit like

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he clearly had a bit of a past the way

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he talked and the way he moved, and there was

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a certain confidence there and he was so funny, and

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he knew Arthur, so Uncle Arthur was the he was.

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I had to explain Uncle Arthur without making it sound

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like a complete knob. I don't know, because I got

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on well with him, but I didn't. I didn't as well.

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I got really badly with him, but I would also

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sometimes we would see each other out and we'd have

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a drink together, and we got on perfectly, but in

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work we didn't for some weird reason, so we didn't

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have shout each other. And he became a supervisor and

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I used to make just laugh at him because we

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were the same level. In nineteen eighty nine, because I

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moved to London for and I was like there October November, December,

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January February March, so I was there for six months

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from eighty nine to ninety six months where I was

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just living in a room in London. That was kind

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of still my favorite period of being in London though,

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because it was all new, didn't know anybody didn't. Everything

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was kind of fresh. Even the air felt fresh, which

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it wasn't because I was in London. The year has

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never been fresh in London. I think you'd have to

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go quite high up here. You have to fly into

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the sky, fly into the sky, you know how it feels. Yeah,

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that was quite a nice period. It was a bit

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bit boring, I'll be honest. It was a bit boring.

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So I didn't have hardly any money, so I couldn't

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really enjoy the experience of being in London. I mean,

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there are stuff, there are things you can do in

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London that well they used to be free. I don't

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know if they are now, but you know, things like

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the museums and stuff standing outside the houses of I

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was at the Palace going to some Sometimes there's concerts

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and stuff in Hyde Park and also go into the parks.

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You know, there's lots of places. There are places you

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can go which doesn't cost your money other than the

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travel to get there and back. Then traveling on the

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tube was really really cheap. The rent was really really cheap.

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You know.

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It wasn't really because I lived in little Town before

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that and the rent was about thirty pounds a week.

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I went there and it was about about forty pounds

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a week, thirty five pounds a week. There wasn't a

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lot of difference. It was very kind of similar, kind

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of maybe a little bit more, but not a lot more.

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I'm pretty sure I'd didn't pay forty pounds a week,

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probably at thirty pound thirty five pounds, so it's relatively similar.

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But now it's night and day. It's a completely it's

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not it's daytime now. But let's not be literal. It's

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absolutely like it's yeah, I couldn't. I couldn't live in

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London now. I wouldn't be able to afford to even

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rent a room, even if I was working. It would

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be yeah, it's just wouldn't. I wouldn't be able to

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do it moving from here to there, which is ironic

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because I'm in Essex and moving to Essex was a

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step up for people living in London.

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It used to be.

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It often was the goal to move out of London

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and to move to South End or to Romford, or

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to Hainal, or to Colchester or to Chelmsford or to

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I don't know, there's so many different Essex is one

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of the biggest counties in the country, so it's a

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huge area, you know, in comparison to the UK, to

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it to England. I say huge area. I mean, I'm

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sure people in America travel. It's that's that's some people travel,

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maybe that far just to get to the shops, go

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all the way, you know. It's it's amazing that some

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people travel like two hours to get to work and

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that's just standard two hours to get to the other

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side of the country. Here m tiny little place. I'm

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surprised we were ever discovered. Honestly, it's like it must

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have been people living here. I reckon this country, this

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this plot of land should record. It was left undisturbed

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for a long long time because it's so out of

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the way. Did you know that I think it's island

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Man they used to put prison German prisoners of wars,

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like during the Second World War they used to put

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prisoners of war on the Isle of Man. Was the

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island Island Wight one of those.

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That.

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Wow, I don't know why I did something. I saw

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the documentary ether day and I thought it was interesting,

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and I thought I mentioned that when the when the

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right conversation or the right topic arises, I'll just checked

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that in as a fact and that will help me

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contribute towards the conversation. And I don't know, I just

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feel more more a part of society, like I contributed

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something to the ongoing dialogue about World War two, that

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hadn't said it. I just realized that it was kind

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of a bit out of place, really wasn't. It didn't

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really fit in with what I was already talking about.

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But then I think, in what was I talking about?

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And then I remember I was talking about the bloke

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I met, what was his name, Ray? His name was

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Ray Weird. I probably can remember him because of the

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name of Ray Winston, and he reminds me. He was

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kind of like Ray Winston's size build, a very stocky,

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strong body. You know. It even looked a bit like

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Ray Winston. But this is before Ray Winston was not

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before he was a star, because he was a staff

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from the seventies. He was in a movie called Borstal,

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but he wasn't like a big star the way he

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is Ray Winston. One of my favorite movie stars English

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ones was Bob Hoskins, and I can't believe that he

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just when he left the planet. He wasn't an astronaut.

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When he left the planet. It was almost like, oh, okay, nothing,

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And I don't know, it's just to me, there was

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something so lovely about him on screen. I know, you

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played a gangster and not all his roles were nice

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and cuddly, but it was something like he was like

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a tough guy but at the same time gentle and

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loving and passionate. And it's almost like, you know, you

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knew that if he was looking after you, he keep

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you safe, but it also keep you nice and comfortable

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as well. What I'm talking about, I don't know. I

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got no idea. Yeah, I don't know. It just seemed

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like you protect you Bob. I thought Bob was lovely

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and Bob Hoskins went back to Ray. So Ray Taylor's

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room I had at the time. Oh, no, what am

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I talking? I'm now just remembering the room I lived

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in back in nineteen eighty nine, because Ray was a

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few years later than that. But this room I lived in, and.

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There was.

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Oh, they must have moved out because yeah, so downstairs

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was two girls or two females were down there and

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they were, yeah, they both seemed to be really close friends,

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and they were at University of East London, I think.

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And then upstairs there was me. There must have been

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three rooms upstairs, because it wouldn't just be two rooms

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with that. Possibly, I don't know. It seems to be

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strange though, sure that there'd been more than four rooms

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to rent in a house. Maybe not, but there was

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my room. So if you go to the top of

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the stairs or whatever, I was up there somewhere, turn right,

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turn left, and then I was able to sit on

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the window sill. Yeah, that it was. There was enough

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room to sit out on the window sill. And you know,

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not in the winter, but in the springtime as it's

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sort of you know, between the because you know, I

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was listening to radio last night and someone was moaning, saying, all,

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it's now going into autumn, and it will be winter

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before we know it. And we mean, yeah, but it'll

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be winter before we know it, but will also be

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spring before we know it, and also be summer again

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before we know it. So you know, time time is

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doesn't feel like time is going fast in the moment necessarily.

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I mean, I.

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Think some people find time going very slowly when I'm

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talking to them. I watched sometimes I talk. I got

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this my friend's husband and I talk and easy yawning,

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and his eyes are closing, and I'm sure that half

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an hour hour seemed like probably four or five hours

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for him. Hum hmm. It's I've been doing that to

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people for years, talking and watching them trying to hold

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in a yawn. I don't think it's always it's not

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always the my the subject matter, but it might be.

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But I'm not sure. But I'm thinking that I don't

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necessarily always have the most interesting voice. Possibly the most exciting,

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not interesting, that wouldn't be worth because I think I'm

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I'm relatively now, I'm quite exciting. I excite myself. Oh

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I don't know what that means. Do you mean you

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cite yourself? I don't know you're gonna tell us about Ray.

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You started telling us about Ray and then you just stopped. Okay, Ray.

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So we were just we worked together a couple of days.

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It might have just been one day to be fair,

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like a Friday, and we got on really well. And

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he said, oh, you're gonna come to the pub. And

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normally I'd say no, because well normally I just didn't

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really have any money to go out, but for some

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reason I thought, yeah, So we went to the pub.

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We went to this Irish pub, which was it was

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around the corner from where I lived. Now, yeah, I'm

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just trying to think, all right, yes, I'm trying to

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place where we worked. So I so we went into

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this pub and We're just sitting there, remember, which we

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were sitting one side of it, of the bar, because

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the bar went all the way around, so it's quite

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a quite a big bar. And we were just chatting

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and he was telling me stories about Arthur. He he

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knew Arthur, who was the supervisor and my arch enemy

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at work. Ray I think had gone to school with Arthur,

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so we'd known him forever. And he just went on

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and just told me about Arthur, told me all lots

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of things about him that he got up to over

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the last forty odd years. And I was, honestly, I

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was laughing my head off, and then he was telling

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me stuff. It wasn't all based aimed at Arthur. There's

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a few little bits and bobs, but then I contributed

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and told him some stuff that had happened some of

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the stories. I've talked about his story, and anyone that's

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listened to me for a long time may remember. It's

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about a bloke going into a pub and he's basically

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really kicking off and yeah, so the story, if you

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remember the story, it's like I told that story probably

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six years ago. It was really it was very funny.

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And there's also a sadness as well, but like a

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sadness and a positivity there because he was going blind.

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His eyesight was really really bad and he was, you know,

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he was heading towards blindness, and he had his daughter

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looking after him, helping him out and stuff.

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And.

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He just.

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It was weird. There was a rule. It was positive

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and even he was just funny whether he was drinking

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or not drinking. And he wasn't no aggression, nothing, it

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was no, it didn't change him. It just it just

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he just enjoyed having a pint. So we had like

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probably four pints. I was probably drunk, to be honest

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about that. But the next day we went into work

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because we had a Saturdays. We didn't not always work Saturday,

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but that day we did, and Arthur was there and

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we were just starting to work and we see Alfur

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walking and we can't stop laughing. And Arthur's walking up

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to us and he's he's like, he's like, what you're

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doing laughing? To get on with some work? Do some work,

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and Ray just tells him to shut up, and Arthur

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walks away. He does he doesn't know what to say

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because he's he he knows Ray. I mean, he's Ray

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half is the reason of Ray. He was working there

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because Ray, you know, after I think Ray was I

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keep saying Ray and arfur So I think he probably

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met Arthur in the pub and Arthur said, well, try

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and get him our place into the factory and I'll

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get you some work and i'll keep you on and stuff.

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So Ray said, oh, okay, so you know, so it's

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still friends. It's just that he wouldn't take any rubbish

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from him. And then he left. He was there, he

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didn't like the job, so he didn't come back. It

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was so funny. I met some characters doing their job.

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I met a lot of people from a lot of

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different countries and doing some of the jobs I had.

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I mean in London, you know, when I was a

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security guard, the other security guards were African, most of them.

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And when I worked in the Yeah, when I worked

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in the big bakery, most of the people I worked

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with when I worked inside the bakery itself rather than

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in the canteen, most of the people I worked with

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were from other countries. Probably think India and Jamaica. I

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think that was the two main places. Now A lot

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of them already knew me because I was serving and

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food before serving of food. That sounds weird, but I

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was working in the canteen for a good few months,

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so they, you know, most of the people working out

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already knew who I was, so I got on quite

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well with the people. But it was very weird because

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the thing is from a safety perspective in a place

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like that, where if something goes wrong, it could really

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go wrong. All these I mean that the mixes, the

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bread mixes were the size of this building. I'm exaggerating

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for the sake of it, but you know, huge, massive,

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And the miscommunication was kind of ridiculous because it's so

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loud to start with, so it was hard. But then

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people were shouting in different languages. So there's one point

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where I heard shouting and in the end someone pulled

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me physically out of the way of something that was

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heading towards me. And because all I was hearing was like,

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it's something that I didn't understand what I was hearing,

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so I didn't figure it was for me, but I

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was on the floor. I think I was. There was

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two English speaking people, not English speaking, they all spoke English,

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but English person there whose first language was English. There's

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two of us and it is from a communication point

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of view, because when it's quiet, I can communicate with

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anyone pretty much. And also even if someone's English isn't

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maybe it's it's not you know, I can still communicate.

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I can communicate with people if I when I've been abroad,

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I always managed to communicate with people because you know,

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it takes I take my time and I'm in no hurry,

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and you know i'd find a way. But when there's

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a lot of noise, well it's practically impossible. I suppose

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you can use sign language or you know, sort of signs,

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not sign language, but signs to sort of to tell

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people stuff. But I don't know if they had that.

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All I know is I remember coming back because they

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stayed like a bus, like a private bus coach thing

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that would bring go from warden Stowe to Stratford and

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then to other places. So i'd get old, I'd grab

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on that because it was free and this was just

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for us, you know, the workers. Now I've done a

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twenty four hour shift, so I was tired. Tired is

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not the word. And I did this. I did one

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week where I did one hundred hours, so I don't

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know how many how many hours that is in a

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day seven seventy ten hours a day for seven days

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is seventy another thirty, so one hundred hours five days

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at twenty hours. So I must have been doing sixteen

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hours or something a day, two shifts, and I did

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once do a twenty four hour shift, which is just ridiculous.

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But I did that with a security as well, because

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I shifts for twelve hours, I did twenty four hours,

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fell asleep, got suspended. Yeah, it's to do sixteen hours

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in a bakery shouldn't really be allowed just from a

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health and safety perspective. But I remember I got my

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biggest paycheck I'd ever had up to that point, and

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it was cash, had my tax taken off already as well,

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had an all brown envelope as we used to get

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back in the nineties or early nineties, late eighties. And

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I went up to the manager's office to collect my

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paycheck or my pay cash, and I was saying all,

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and I was smiling, and I said why, because apparently

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I'd earn the most out of anyone else in the

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in the factory, because of all the hours I've done.

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And I opened up and I looked at this amount

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of money and I'd never seen so much cash, like

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for one week's work that you know, I was used

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to one hundred pounds a week if I was lucky

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so to get two hundred and fifty after tax. In fact,

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I don't think i'd hardly earn. I can't always getting

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more than one hundred pounds in the bakery. I was

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probably getting about one hundred and thirty one hundred and

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forty pounds a week. I was paying tax on that,

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which seems I don't know, should we get paying tax

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on such a small amount, But yeah, that was back then.

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Yeah.

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I remember I was traveling on the bus and it

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was really just surreal because or this coach thing, because

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all these voices and I didn't understand a word that

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anyone was saying, and I fell asleep and it was

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just so weird, just a weird feeling like I don't

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it's like I don't know where I am. I didn't

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know where I was, very strange. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah,

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bum bum. The thing is, I think a lot of

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the people that worked there, there's a lot of older

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men working there. There was I think there's one woman

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in the whole factory, like in the actual the bakery itself,

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it was all men, and then there was yeah, there's

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women working in the administration area, the p and the

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catering part. Yeah no, And the women could have done

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a job just as well as a man.

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It wasn't.

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Really it was endurance rather than physical strength in a

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sense of I mean back then, I think the average

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woman would have been stronger than me anyway, but it wasn't.

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What was really weird is they'd never turned anything off.

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They hated to turn the the conveyor belt off if

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they didn't have to, which meant when stuff was coming

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off the other end of the conveyor belt and needed

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to be put into trays, there was very little wiggle room.

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And you might be thinking what you're wiggling about, for

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what's wiggling got to do with anything? What I mean

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by that is if you miss, if you you know,

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you can't get it back. Once one falls off the

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end onto the floor, another one falls onto the floor

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and you can't and because it's fallen onto the floor,

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you can't get to the position that you need to

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get the next one off. And I've literally stood there

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up to my knees in bread rolls because tray after

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trays banging onto.

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The floor.

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Until someone stops to convey about. And I don't know why.

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It's not like I'd wanted to stop it for a

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long time. Just a few seconds. Let me get up

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up to date. Sometimes the the brown trays or baskets

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that the bread rolls we put into, they weren't replaced.

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So I needed them. I needed to put the bread somewhere,

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and so I'd look around and be none left, or

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someone just taking one's eyes and there's literally nowhere to

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put anything, and they just end up on the floor.

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And I thought that was just such a waste of food,

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such a waste. Yeah, I kind of wish I'd stuck

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with that. There's a few there's so many things that

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I would have changed over the years if I went back.

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But then one little change could have just transformed my

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whole life. Goodn't it? One little decision, one little tweak

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or twerk there or here, and my whole world would

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potentially have been different. So, I mean, if I had

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stayed there, who knows, I might have ended up. I

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don't know why, but I might have ended up getting married,

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having kids, getting a mortgage, you know, having like a

474
00:45:26.760 --> 00:45:36.800
normal life, just because I suppose something technically financially I

475
00:45:36.840 --> 00:45:42.920
was doing all right. I possibly would have been able

476
00:45:42.960 --> 00:45:45.840
to afford to get a mortgage on the money I

477
00:45:45.880 --> 00:45:54.480
was getting because I was working so many hours. It's weird, though,

478
00:45:54.519 --> 00:45:56.840
isn't it. Because you think two hundred and fifty pounds

479
00:45:57.480 --> 00:46:05.079
a week, one thousand pounds a month, which is what

480
00:46:05.280 --> 00:46:08.679
twelve thousand pounds a year take that was take home.

481
00:46:11.239 --> 00:46:17.280
It's such a small amount. But back then, back then,

482
00:46:18.880 --> 00:46:25.800
nineteen ninety one, it wasn't a small amount. It was

483
00:46:26.960 --> 00:46:44.119
like really good money. Kind of it was okay money,

484
00:46:45.159 --> 00:46:49.480
and I couldn't really do anything else but work because

485
00:46:49.760 --> 00:46:54.800
I was just so naked doing the job, and so

486
00:46:55.119 --> 00:46:58.079
i'd be, you know, partner obviously part of my days

487
00:46:58.119 --> 00:47:02.679
off if I did get days off, but I was

488
00:47:02.679 --> 00:47:05.519
always a choice anyway. I didn't have to I didn't

489
00:47:05.559 --> 00:47:06.679
have to do the overtime.

490
00:47:08.360 --> 00:47:08.800
It was.

491
00:47:11.559 --> 00:47:16.159
It was an opportunity to have some money. So that

492
00:47:16.320 --> 00:47:23.480
was just useful to get paid, useful having some cash.

493
00:47:23.920 --> 00:47:28.760
My room was forty pounds a week at that time,

494
00:47:32.280 --> 00:47:37.000
so to begin over two hundred pounds a week, it

495
00:47:37.079 --> 00:47:55.519
was definitely pretty groovy. Oh moovy. I was thinking of

496
00:47:57.480 --> 00:48:17.719
what was it Saturday today. Mm hmm, yeah, Saturday. I

497
00:48:17.840 --> 00:48:23.000
partly would kind of like to go out, but I

498
00:48:23.039 --> 00:48:28.000
haven't really been out since since I had to go

499
00:48:28.079 --> 00:48:31.519
out for uncle sausages, although I did go out Monday.

500
00:48:32.280 --> 00:48:37.920
I got taxi to the doctor's surgery and had my

501
00:48:41.039 --> 00:48:48.719
edy mental health review check things side a blood test

502
00:48:48.880 --> 00:48:55.119
and blood pressure dad and got weighed and checked my pulse.

503
00:48:56.199 --> 00:49:01.000
Everything was fine, if I know, a hot the blood test,

504
00:49:01.079 --> 00:49:08.159
but everything was fine as far as my blood pressure

505
00:49:08.320 --> 00:49:15.800
was really good. My puls orate blood pressure is a pulsary,

506
00:49:15.840 --> 00:49:20.440
isn't it there? Blood pressure is really good, pulse rates fine.

507
00:49:21.199 --> 00:49:25.159
My weight's good. So I've lost some weight a little bit,

508
00:49:26.840 --> 00:49:32.000
just a little bit. I've kept it off anywhere. So

509
00:49:33.599 --> 00:49:36.119
the way I got rid of the fact I reach

510
00:49:36.239 --> 00:49:42.360
just has stayed off. And so I'm just under fifteen

511
00:49:42.440 --> 00:49:48.039
stone now and it's a much more manageable way. I

512
00:49:48.119 --> 00:49:50.440
just feel I'm so light, though I'm scared or blow

513
00:49:50.480 --> 00:49:56.280
away just but it's all right. I just feel lighter,

514
00:49:57.400 --> 00:49:59.000
which I'm kind of surprised about.

515
00:50:03.880 --> 00:50:17.320
Yeah, baby day, I don't know what I was talking about.

516
00:50:17.360 --> 00:50:23.400
Then, I'll be honest with you. I'd got no idea

517
00:50:23.480 --> 00:50:25.360
what it's just waffling on about.

518
00:50:27.599 --> 00:50:27.760
Uh.

519
00:50:35.440 --> 00:50:38.960
I got my deliveries yesterday. Oh it was so nice.

520
00:50:43.039 --> 00:50:46.920
It's weird because the Amazon bloke delivered it in a

521
00:50:47.000 --> 00:50:56.199
huge sack with wheels, like big box thing with wheels,

522
00:50:57.079 --> 00:51:01.400
and I don't think I've ever seen that before. So

523
00:51:01.400 --> 00:51:05.519
I'm wondering what the noise is because I'm hearing this

524
00:51:05.719 --> 00:51:11.440
like banging up the stairs like Vinnie was barking. I'm

525
00:51:11.519 --> 00:51:14.920
just telling Vinnie to stop barking, not realizing that he's

526
00:51:14.960 --> 00:51:19.400
actually barking for a reason. And he's been a good,

527
00:51:19.480 --> 00:51:21.840
good boy, isn't he for letting me know that someone's

528
00:51:21.920 --> 00:51:26.159
coming to my door? Anyway, the bloke knocked on my

529
00:51:26.199 --> 00:51:29.800
door and open it and he's got this big thing

530
00:51:30.119 --> 00:51:38.760
on the floor and he's just stroking his things, this

531
00:51:38.960 --> 00:51:43.639
big thing, and I was like, I said, he said, yeah,

532
00:51:43.639 --> 00:51:49.719
you got some packages there, and I think there was one, two, three,

533
00:51:49.960 --> 00:51:58.320
four different packages. So I had my soap, I had

534
00:51:59.519 --> 00:52:12.119
my wet wipes, I had my face wipes, I had deodorant,

535
00:52:15.679 --> 00:52:28.360
and oh yeah, I also had uh two packs of

536
00:52:28.920 --> 00:52:36.800
dog food as well. That's six different things. So the

537
00:52:36.880 --> 00:52:43.559
deodorant I got, I got enough to last me for

538
00:52:43.599 --> 00:52:48.119
the year to rest of the year. I got enough

539
00:52:48.199 --> 00:52:50.280
soap to last me for the rest of the year.

540
00:52:57.400 --> 00:53:01.199
I'm trying to think what else tea packs? Oh, yes,

541
00:53:01.239 --> 00:53:08.000
so seven, I've got tea bags. I've got wow, huge

542
00:53:08.039 --> 00:53:12.440
amounts of tea bags. So that that would be I got, yeah,

543
00:53:12.519 --> 00:53:14.880
easily enough tea bags for last week to the end

544
00:53:14.880 --> 00:53:21.480
of the year. So it's like a couple of thousand

545
00:53:21.519 --> 00:53:27.000
tea bags. I think, No, not a couple of thousand.

546
00:53:27.880 --> 00:53:33.519
I'm exaggerating. There eight eight eight eight eight, there's about

547
00:53:33.519 --> 00:53:38.800
eight hundred tea bags. There was two packs of two

548
00:53:38.840 --> 00:53:44.320
backs either two packs of five, you know, like in

549
00:53:44.320 --> 00:53:47.519
a little the little box things. So there's I think

550
00:53:47.599 --> 00:53:51.239
there's five boxes in each or maybe six box in

551
00:53:51.840 --> 00:53:56.400
boxes in each five I think maybe six. There's eighty

552
00:53:56.599 --> 00:54:04.480
per box. So yeah, that's at least eight hundred tea

553
00:54:04.559 --> 00:54:09.280
bags to get me through to the end of the year.

554
00:54:12.159 --> 00:54:24.280
So see how many you need? One, two, three, four.

555
00:54:24.920 --> 00:54:32.400
I have at least four cups of tea per day,

556
00:54:43.440 --> 00:54:50.039
so I'm trying to work out how many days. So four, okay,

557
00:54:50.199 --> 00:54:59.599
if I had if I had eight cups of tea

558
00:54:59.599 --> 00:55:13.119
a day, that would give me one hundred days so

559
00:55:13.320 --> 00:55:31.320
I've had half of that. Yeah, it's two hundred days

560
00:55:31.360 --> 00:55:36.199
of tea bags and mid days left in this year,

561
00:55:38.039 --> 00:55:46.119
so nearly the end of August, September, October, November December

562
00:55:46.920 --> 00:55:48.119
three six.

563
00:55:51.360 --> 00:55:52.119
Three or.

564
00:55:54.400 --> 00:56:00.559
Three more than three weeks and then thirty I'm thinking

565
00:56:00.559 --> 00:56:09.480
an so thirty sorry, thirty days September, October, November, December

566
00:56:13.159 --> 00:56:32.079
thirty times by eight. Okay'll work out another way as

567
00:56:32.119 --> 00:56:36.559
I'm fallen asleep talking about it. Mathematics is a way

568
00:56:36.599 --> 00:56:45.119
for me to fall asleep. Yees. Or two hundred days

569
00:56:46.599 --> 00:56:53.199
thirty sixty ninety, one hundred and twenty September October one

570
00:56:53.280 --> 00:56:59.559
hundred and twenty. How many did I I've got eight

571
00:56:59.639 --> 00:57:10.760
hundred three six Oh no, that's that's for one a day, though,

572
00:57:10.840 --> 00:57:17.079
isn't it? Three thirty sixteen ninety one hundred and twenty days?

573
00:57:17.559 --> 00:57:20.519
But one a day? But what about for a day?

574
00:57:22.280 --> 00:57:28.400
Four day is for use? I reckon eight hundred will

575
00:57:28.519 --> 00:57:33.159
last me until the end of the year. In fact,

576
00:57:33.199 --> 00:57:37.639
I would I reckon as we get to the end

577
00:57:37.639 --> 00:57:43.679
of the year, like you know, moving towards Happy New

578
00:57:43.840 --> 00:57:52.480
Year book all that stuff. I will find that letter.

579
00:57:55.119 --> 00:58:06.960
I don't know why. Whatever I say Emma, Wow, I'm

580
00:58:07.039 --> 00:58:11.119
drifting off back to sleep again as I'm talking, So

581
00:58:11.239 --> 00:58:15.760
I better just go and get some breakfast. I did

582
00:58:15.880 --> 00:58:27.719
bore myself to sleep. Genuinely. It's weird, isn't it. It's very,

583
00:58:28.239 --> 00:58:36.519
very strange. So yeah, today's Saturday. I'm gonna have me breakfast. Now,

584
00:58:36.519 --> 00:58:40.719
I'm gonna watch a bit of Telly. I'm then gonna

585
00:58:41.360 --> 00:58:49.480
take Vinnie out for a walk. And I need to

586
00:58:49.639 --> 00:58:52.760
edit this and upload this. But outside of that, I

587
00:58:52.800 --> 00:59:04.760
don't have much in the way of plans. Really. Yeah,

588
00:59:05.440 --> 00:59:12.159
so I'm going to go. Thank you for listening, and

589
00:59:12.280 --> 00:59:16.280
remember to be kind to yourself because you do deserve

590
00:59:16.400 --> 00:59:22.480
to be happy, and be gentle with yourself. Mister Krokiy

591
00:59:22.559 --> 00:59:26.480
voice says, be careful, be gentle with yourself, because you

592
00:59:26.639 --> 00:59:34.159
do deserve to feel safe, lots of love. Bye bye,

593
00:59:34.239 --> 00:59:52.840
bye bye. Relax in a more deep and meaningful way,

594
00:59:53.800 --> 00:59:59.039
Maybe in a way that can not just allow you

595
00:59:59.360 --> 01:00:09.400
to feel calmer now and throughout the time we've spend

596
01:00:09.440 --> 01:00:17.400
together here, not just relaxed at the end of the

597
01:00:17.480 --> 01:00:22.840
recording when it's finished and you can enjoy that sense

598
01:00:23.000 --> 01:00:39.599
of comfort and peace. But also I think it would

599
01:00:39.639 --> 01:00:55.519
be nice to have those feelings of relaxation continue for

600
01:00:55.679 --> 01:01:07.239
longer after to the recording is ended, so that you

601
01:01:07.360 --> 01:01:19.760
can still benefit from listening to my voice, maybe in

602
01:01:19.800 --> 01:01:32.400
a few hours time, perhaps tomorrow, and then by listening regularly,

603
01:01:35.480 --> 01:01:40.119
especially if you find like some people do and myself

604
01:01:40.159 --> 01:01:45.320
as well. Sometimes I find one particular recording that really

605
01:01:46.960 --> 01:01:53.960
resonates with me, and I just listen to it over

606
01:01:54.000 --> 01:02:06.679
and over again every morning, every evening. There was this

607
01:02:06.840 --> 01:02:13.719
recording from We're going back to about nineteen ninety nine.

608
01:02:14.000 --> 01:02:19.440
It wasn't hypnosis, but it was a guided visualization, so

609
01:02:19.480 --> 01:02:26.480
it kind of was hypnosis really, and I managed to

610
01:02:26.519 --> 01:02:30.039
find it again and it still has the same effect

611
01:02:30.559 --> 01:02:39.760
on me. And part of it was the person's voice

612
01:02:42.559 --> 01:02:52.159
relaxed me. She just felt so peaceful, and I'd look

613
01:02:52.360 --> 01:02:59.320
forward to listening to her in the morning and in

614
01:02:59.400 --> 01:03:11.119
the evening. And I knew before even pressing the play button.

615
01:03:15.400 --> 01:03:18.880
As soon as I've done that pressed the play button.

616
01:03:19.679 --> 01:03:30.639
This was in the days of CD players pressed the

617
01:03:30.719 --> 01:03:36.360
play button, ifact it might have even been a tap

618
01:03:36.880 --> 01:03:40.920
tape recorder. I'd lie down on the bed and then

619
01:03:46.400 --> 01:03:59.440
even without necessarily listening to her words, because I had

620
01:03:59.480 --> 01:04:06.760
the memory rised really it was as if my body

621
01:04:08.679 --> 01:04:22.119
knew exactly what to do, and the muscles just almost

622
01:04:22.159 --> 01:04:42.639
went into automatic relaxation, and I remember my mind would

623
01:04:42.639 --> 01:04:54.039
slow down. Now. Now, I was listening to this recording

624
01:04:57.360 --> 01:05:03.440
in the early days of learning hypnosis, and long before

625
01:05:05.039 --> 01:05:13.079
I ever made any videos or audio recordings myself, because

626
01:05:13.079 --> 01:05:16.159
I didn't start doing that till two thousand and six,

627
01:05:23.079 --> 01:05:39.000
I knew, I knew how helpful I found being able

628
01:05:39.079 --> 01:05:48.119
to just let go, to have that trust in the

629
01:05:48.239 --> 01:05:58.599
person that I'm listening to, knowing that it's going to

630
01:05:58.639 --> 01:06:09.480
be just as relaxing, if not more so. Each time

631
01:06:09.719 --> 01:06:22.199
you hear my voice, you may feel the same. Some

632
01:06:22.559 --> 01:06:36.719
people have been listening to me for over a decade,

633
01:06:37.559 --> 01:06:42.440
maybe not solidly, obviously not twenty four hours a day,

634
01:06:43.360 --> 01:06:49.880
but maybe people come back. Some people may be listen

635
01:06:49.960 --> 01:07:06.519
every day. That's something that I do which you may

636
01:07:06.639 --> 01:07:27.599
not realize by listening, is when I record these recordings. Now,

637
01:07:27.719 --> 01:07:40.280
for example, I also am affected by the words that

638
01:07:40.360 --> 01:07:52.559
I say. So if I set you focus on your feet,

639
01:07:55.079 --> 01:08:02.800
notice your feet relaxing, I will be focusing on my feet.

640
01:08:07.719 --> 01:08:25.119
I will be noticing my feet relaxing. If I said

641
01:08:25.239 --> 01:08:32.920
focus on your hands, and maybe notice the difference between

642
01:08:32.960 --> 01:08:43.800
each hand, perhaps notice the air in the room, the

643
01:08:43.920 --> 01:08:48.560
temperature of the room. On the backs of your hands,

644
01:08:56.359 --> 01:09:00.319
you may start to notice what almost feels like a

645
01:09:00.399 --> 01:09:08.439
very light breeze, even though there may not be any

646
01:09:08.840 --> 01:09:13.760
type of breeze at all where you are right now.

647
01:09:21.960 --> 01:09:32.560
And as you become aware of your hands, I'm also

648
01:09:32.920 --> 01:10:01.119
aware of how relaxed my hands are feeling now and

649
01:10:01.279 --> 01:10:08.199
when it comes to potentially drifting off to sleep, which

650
01:10:08.279 --> 01:10:22.399
may be the reason you're listening, I also feel drowsy

651
01:10:24.640 --> 01:10:38.119
when I make these recordings. I also notice my mind drifting.

652
01:10:46.000 --> 01:10:58.600
In fact, at times I've actually fallen asleep without even noticing,

653
01:11:03.479 --> 01:11:12.640
and then I carry on talking. And it's only when

654
01:11:12.920 --> 01:11:22.039
I listen back to do the editing I hear snoring,

655
01:11:23.920 --> 01:11:31.239
and I think, I don't remember snoring. I remember talking.

656
01:11:34.000 --> 01:11:41.199
Is it snoring? Was a pick turned up? That's why

657
01:11:41.199 --> 01:11:49.479
I sound like when I snore, I get really into

658
01:11:49.560 --> 01:12:08.920
a whole experience. I don't know how you feel, how

659
01:12:09.039 --> 01:12:19.880
relaxed you feel in your feet, how relaxed you feel

660
01:12:20.039 --> 01:12:46.680
in your hands. I have noticed more and more that

661
01:12:46.880 --> 01:13:03.079
the more relaxed, deeper level of comfort you feel, the

662
01:13:03.279 --> 01:13:23.840
easier your breathing becomes it's almost like that additional muscle relaxation.

663
01:13:28.199 --> 01:13:49.199
So this allows you to breathe easier without necessarily focusing

664
01:13:51.399 --> 01:14:12.279
on your breath. How I ever been able to notice

665
01:14:16.079 --> 01:14:45.880
the ease in which you breathe so naturally, You breathe

666
01:14:46.399 --> 01:15:28.640
so very easily and smoothly. Whenever I imagine my breathing

667
01:15:29.199 --> 01:15:48.199
improving when I've got my eyes closed, I tend to

668
01:15:48.279 --> 01:16:05.319
visualize a beautiful field with trees and flowers producing all

669
01:16:05.399 --> 01:16:37.319
of that life giving oxygen. And it feels nice too,

670
01:16:38.920 --> 01:16:57.880
if nothing else, just taking some time away from everything,

671
01:17:09.159 --> 01:17:41.680
enjoying that feeling of peace, serenity with a joyful heart.

672
01:18:07.079 --> 01:18:32.600
Time seems to just drip by, so very slowly, relaxed,

673
01:18:38.479 --> 01:19:17.600
so deeply peaceful, completely unattached to any thoughts whatsoever in

674
01:19:17.800 --> 01:20:22.159
this moment, completely free, noticing that your mind has slowed down.

675
01:20:30.479 --> 01:21:16.880
Slowed down because nothing really requires your at tension, you

676
01:21:17.000 --> 01:21:33.119
can enjoy the physical sensations of allowing the stress to

677
01:21:33.319 --> 01:21:47.760
rip out of your body, dripping out of every part

678
01:21:54.039 --> 01:22:18.479
of your body and being released from your brain. Hunge

679
01:22:18.640 --> 01:22:54.079
your mind slowly but surely, The muscles in your legs

680
01:23:09.439 --> 01:24:03.520
relax res relax so very deeply, relax so deeply, and

681
01:24:03.760 --> 01:24:13.720
the feelings, the pleasant feelings in your arms and shoulders,

682
01:24:31.560 --> 01:25:11.239
deepening each part of your body further and deeper and deeper, noticine,

683
01:25:14.479 --> 01:25:41.039
the feelings in the back of your neck, the feedings

684
01:25:41.199 --> 01:26:30.079
in your wrists, muscles, in front of your body. I

685
01:26:30.239 --> 01:27:14.119
all say, feeling peaceful, deeping. There's a sense of peace

686
01:27:18.600 --> 01:27:58.560
spreads through your very cool even when you focus on

687
01:27:58.600 --> 01:29:08.840
your mind. Her mind becomes e and slower, even deeper, relaxing,

688
01:29:21.600 --> 01:30:30.600
so very slow. Your stomach teas following your stomach, your back. Notice,

689
01:30:38.520 --> 01:30:57.000
Notice how relaxed you now feel in the hall of

690
01:30:57.079 --> 01:31:29.800
your back. In a spy from your brain all the

691
01:31:29.840 --> 01:31:38.560
way down the middle of your back, sending and receiving

692
01:31:40.920 --> 01:32:05.439
millions of messages every day, deecomforts.

693
01:32:11.000 --> 01:32:43.600
Deeply relaxed, nis.

694
01:33:09.239 --> 01:33:23.000
Relax spreading those signals down your spine or cord into air,

695
01:33:23.359 --> 01:33:44.800
every part of your body, your shins and your calf, muscles,

696
01:34:10.039 --> 01:34:43.760
your elbows, Feelings of peace and tranquility spreading through your body,

697
01:34:44.520 --> 01:34:59.560
tips of your toes, to your eyes, your fingers, m

698
01:35:00.560 --> 01:35:18.119
all the way till love it back, letting her, reletting

699
01:35:18.279 --> 01:36:28.760
her pace, drifting mind. There's wandering away, happy to let go,

700
01:36:32.199 --> 01:37:33.520
let go completely, let go, so tranquil, the whole body

701
01:37:37.840 --> 01:39:54.479
enjoying a sense listening God here, hey, joy.

702
01:40:00.199 --> 01:40:04.760
Space, this space.

703
01:40:07.399 --> 01:40:08.479
Of peace.

704
01:40:11.680 --> 01:40:45.520
And safety, so firy fir relaxed.

705
01:41:14.680 --> 01:41:19.359
Us us.

706
01:41:45.439 --> 01:41:47.800
The belding.

707
01:42:14.680 --> 01:42:39.359
Letting go. Maybe we can just focus on the different

708
01:42:39.760 --> 01:42:47.560
parts of your body, just to notice.

709
01:43:13.199 --> 01:43:49.319
You forehead and your eyes au.

710
01:43:54.479 --> 01:45:34.359
Silace, noticing the sense of complete freedom, absolute freedom, dress day, dress,

711
01:45:35.119 --> 01:47:13.800
day's fall, energy, paste, to breeze, so much ease, yeah, loose.

712
01:47:35.079 --> 01:47:36.000
You may have.

713
01:47:39.479 --> 01:48:40.039
You may not have noticed your mind drifted, peaceful, moveing

714
01:48:40.319 --> 01:49:00.520
even more deeply in the direction of total blissful pace,

715
01:49:04.760 --> 01:51:08.039
bliss for pace, arrest toe to to pace, sir, let

716
01:51:08.279 --> 01:52:19.720
him go, peace of mind, body c rexed, so relaxed.

717
01:52:44.239 --> 01:53:11.119
A body feels almost invisible, so very relaxed and peaceful.

718
01:53:17.439 --> 01:53:25.720
So pay so.

719
01:53:49.159 --> 01:54:29.039
Like God. And you could start to notice that you

720
01:54:30.600 --> 01:54:41.880
are feeling more relaxed, even though I've not purposely focused

721
01:54:42.279 --> 01:54:50.399
your mind upon that sense of physical comfort that is

722
01:54:50.640 --> 01:54:59.840
growing within you throughout your body, and your mind starts

723
01:55:00.079 --> 01:55:09.560
to slow down, And that could be almost in recognition

724
01:55:10.119 --> 01:55:23.960
of I guess my speech not being particularly fast, and

725
01:55:24.159 --> 01:55:35.000
things just generally feel calmer. Just by listening to my voice,

726
01:55:38.119 --> 01:55:45.039
you give yourself an opportunity to take a break from

727
01:55:45.119 --> 01:55:51.640
the day, take a break from your life as it is,

728
01:55:55.039 --> 01:56:02.640
and to give yourself a rest, giving yourself permission to

729
01:56:02.800 --> 01:56:08.039
take some time off and to allow your body to

730
01:56:08.159 --> 01:56:17.880
relax and allow your mind to slow down, which in

731
01:56:18.039 --> 01:56:25.920
turn releases the tension any stresses that you had in

732
01:56:26.000 --> 01:56:35.840
your body. It's almost as if the parts of your

733
01:56:35.880 --> 01:56:47.880
body just open up, allowing the negativity out and at

734
01:56:47.920 --> 01:56:56.199
the same time replacing that negativity with positive heathing energy,

735
01:56:59.279 --> 01:57:03.880
which then feels your body up and your mind to

736
01:57:05.520 --> 01:57:23.640
also starts to appreciate those feelings of increasing confidence and

737
01:57:23.880 --> 01:57:41.079
almost uplifting feeling positive healing, an energy that spreads through

738
01:57:41.159 --> 01:57:51.840
your body like a wave of comfort. And all this

739
01:57:52.159 --> 01:58:04.199
comes from just allowing yourself a few minutes, maybe half

740
01:58:04.279 --> 01:58:08.119
an hour, however long you want it to be, to

741
01:58:08.439 --> 01:58:22.279
just rest and allow your mind and your body to

742
01:58:22.399 --> 01:58:39.000
almost reset itself to the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness,

743
01:58:43.279 --> 01:58:52.640
which allows more room for feelings of pleasure and happiness

744
01:58:56.680 --> 01:59:05.479
to move around your body and into your mind, almost

745
01:59:06.279 --> 01:59:10.880
as if your mind and your body are sinking together,

746
01:59:15.159 --> 01:59:24.840
almost mirroring each other with that growing positivity and calmness,

747
01:59:29.920 --> 01:59:37.359
and it feels nice, really does feel nice to know

748
01:59:37.640 --> 01:59:46.520
that you are the one that has allowed yourself to

749
01:59:46.800 --> 02:00:00.760
feel more comfort and to experience more of this deep

750
02:00:01.199 --> 02:00:17.279
relaxation spreading throughout your body. And as I focus on

751
02:00:17.560 --> 02:00:23.239
each part of your body, you can notice that that

752
02:00:23.600 --> 02:00:37.720
part becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on it.

753
02:00:40.239 --> 02:00:49.920
It becomes even more calm and comfortable, just by focusing.

754
02:00:54.000 --> 02:00:59.720
And as I move down your body, starting at your head,

755
02:01:02.439 --> 02:01:07.680
the parts that you have already focused on or continue

756
02:01:09.079 --> 02:01:16.159
to relax deeply, and those parts that have not yet

757
02:01:16.399 --> 02:01:29.239
focused on or just automatically release any remaining tension in

758
02:01:29.439 --> 02:01:43.680
anticipation of even more comfort about to come. Now, I'm

759
02:01:43.680 --> 02:01:50.159
going to start by focusing on your forehead. Just being

760
02:01:50.319 --> 02:01:58.960
aware of the feelings of your forehead and any background

761
02:01:59.199 --> 02:02:06.079
sounds like mister Herbert o Pigeon can just allow you

762
02:02:06.279 --> 02:02:13.760
to feel even more relaxed. Just means you in the moment,

763
02:02:16.880 --> 02:02:22.239
this isn't this isn't a sterile environment. This is the world.

764
02:02:25.680 --> 02:02:31.720
I live in the countryside, so there's lots of nature

765
02:02:32.239 --> 02:02:42.720
sounds around. So as you focus on your forehead, just

766
02:02:43.000 --> 02:02:50.800
notice how it becomes even more relaxed is you focus

767
02:02:53.079 --> 02:02:57.560
only on my voice and that part of your body.

768
02:03:02.760 --> 02:03:11.039
Moving down to your eyes, focusing on your eyes, noticing

769
02:03:13.520 --> 02:03:23.199
how your eyelids feel so heavy yet so light at

770
02:03:23.279 --> 02:03:29.760
the same time, and all the muscles around your eyes

771
02:03:30.000 --> 02:03:44.399
relaxing completely. Moving your focus down to your mouth, your lips,

772
02:03:44.840 --> 02:03:51.800
your tongue, your teeth, your guns, the hole of your

773
02:03:51.880 --> 02:03:58.960
mouth relaxing, calm.

774
02:04:00.159 --> 02:04:00.720
And loose.

775
02:04:05.199 --> 02:04:13.000
If you focus now on your jaw, not just the

776
02:04:13.119 --> 02:04:16.600
parts of your jaw near your mouth and your chin,

777
02:04:17.880 --> 02:04:20.960
but all the way up the size of your face

778
02:04:22.159 --> 02:04:22.560
to your.

779
02:04:22.560 --> 02:04:36.760
Ears, the hole of your jaw, feeding more relaxed.

780
02:04:40.239 --> 02:04:40.960
And calm.

781
02:04:49.199 --> 02:04:58.239
Focusing on your neck, the front of your neck and

782
02:04:58.359 --> 02:05:11.039
your throat hm relaxing and loose and calm. The sides

783
02:05:11.319 --> 02:05:16.760
of your neck, right and left side of your neck

784
02:05:19.720 --> 02:05:23.159
relax and place.

785
02:05:26.920 --> 02:05:27.680
And calm.

786
02:05:34.039 --> 02:05:40.720
And now the back of your neck, focusing on the

787
02:05:41.000 --> 02:05:51.399
back of your neck, letting go of any tension that

788
02:05:51.640 --> 02:06:00.399
may have been there before, and enjoying that sense so

789
02:06:01.479 --> 02:06:12.119
increasing comfort and release. Then you can experience in the

790
02:06:12.279 --> 02:06:24.520
back of your neck, moving down your back and moving

791
02:06:24.800 --> 02:06:29.119
either side of your spine right from the top of

792
02:06:29.199 --> 02:06:29.960
your back.

793
02:06:31.680 --> 02:06:32.960
All the way.

794
02:06:32.960 --> 02:06:45.600
Down to the bottom of your back, down to your

795
02:06:45.680 --> 02:06:56.239
lower back. As you move up and down your spine,

796
02:06:58.399 --> 02:07:02.800
you can feel the muscle either side of your spine

797
02:07:05.039 --> 02:07:19.600
relaxing even more. And as those muscles relax, that sense

798
02:07:19.680 --> 02:07:30.159
of comfort starts to spread outwards from your spine into

799
02:07:30.399 --> 02:07:37.000
both sides of your back, the top of your back,

800
02:07:37.840 --> 02:07:44.119
the middle end your lower back. And as you scan

801
02:07:45.800 --> 02:07:53.640
gently and slowly up and down your back, there's the

802
02:07:53.760 --> 02:07:59.600
muscles in the top of your back relax and become looser.

803
02:08:03.960 --> 02:08:09.960
The muscles in the middle of your back also seem

804
02:08:10.079 --> 02:08:19.600
to just almost divide from each other, separating and almost melting,

805
02:08:25.359 --> 02:08:31.359
and in your lower back there seems to be an

806
02:08:31.399 --> 02:08:45.600
extra special feeling of comfort. The spreads into your hips,

807
02:08:47.880 --> 02:08:55.720
sit down your lower back, into your hips, into the

808
02:08:55.920 --> 02:09:04.680
area where your cosix are, and into your buttocks, and

809
02:09:04.760 --> 02:09:14.000
all these muscles that spread bring your lower back into

810
02:09:14.079 --> 02:09:27.520
your hip area start to melt, start to reading, let go,

811
02:09:34.239 --> 02:09:39.039
and you know where about to focus on your shoulders.

812
02:09:40.840 --> 02:09:47.800
Your back and your spine will continue to let go,

813
02:09:50.880 --> 02:10:07.520
continue to relax so calmly, and you focus on your shoulders,

814
02:10:09.319 --> 02:10:29.000
you may notice they're already feeling really loose. They're already feeding,

815
02:10:34.279 --> 02:10:52.000
calm and fearing. Those muscles. The move from your neck

816
02:10:53.439 --> 02:11:12.199
into your shoulders feel so soft and gentle, so smooth

817
02:11:18.439 --> 02:11:40.920
and calm, and the feeling in your shoulders seems to

818
02:11:41.359 --> 02:11:49.840
spread deep into your shoulders, a sense of relaxation, not

819
02:11:50.359 --> 02:12:01.279
just traveling deeply into your muscles, the wars, so relaxing

820
02:12:04.119 --> 02:12:13.359
the bones, and move it all the way to underneath

821
02:12:13.399 --> 02:12:21.880
your arms, relaxing a whole area between the tops of

822
02:12:22.000 --> 02:12:30.439
your shoulders and underneath your arms healing.

823
02:12:35.880 --> 02:12:36.520
You feel so.

824
02:12:38.479 --> 02:12:49.960
Relaxed and comfortable in your shoulders, which sense that.

825
02:12:52.199 --> 02:12:54.199
Deep healing.

826
02:12:57.199 --> 02:13:14.720
Message into your arms. You may feel almost as if

827
02:13:14.800 --> 02:13:21.279
your arms are not even that, because they're so relaxed,

828
02:13:24.520 --> 02:13:34.840
so deeply relaxed, so.

829
02:13:39.079 --> 02:13:55.520
So calm, so.

830
02:14:02.319 --> 02:14:02.560
Loose.

831
02:14:09.960 --> 02:14:21.079
That feeling spreading all the way down your arms two elbows,

832
02:14:25.000 --> 02:14:41.399
including your elbows circumfort spreads.

833
02:14:45.600 --> 02:14:46.199
Or way.

834
02:14:48.720 --> 02:14:55.479
Into wrists, your forearments and your.

835
02:14:55.479 --> 02:15:09.239
Wrists so heavy yet the same.

836
02:15:10.119 --> 02:15:55.760
Time sunlight and gentle frey. Same Now on your hands,

837
02:16:17.600 --> 02:16:49.920
my hands, so peaceful in your hands with a sensor.

838
02:16:52.920 --> 02:17:12.159
Real pace, It just seems to feel.

839
02:17:14.159 --> 02:17:50.879
So familion when your hands relax deeply else your fingers

840
02:18:23.479 --> 02:19:30.639
things slish, you think it tips maving your attention to front,

841
02:19:31.079 --> 02:21:23.959
your body so comfortable, marrying your focus like musculs in

842
02:21:24.120 --> 02:21:25.440
your figs.

843
02:21:41.719 --> 02:21:42.760
And niece.

844
02:21:46.440 --> 02:24:25.719
I relaxed calf muscles, just shades, composition, the feeling in

845
02:24:25.840 --> 02:25:25.319
your faints, sir, peaceful circolm say peaceful sircolm, sir, peaceful.

846
02:25:28.079 --> 02:25:36.520
Sycom so peace f.

847
02:25:45.360 --> 02:25:47.120
Re sn.

848
02:25:52.239 --> 02:26:06.799
Piece fall cycom out of.

849
02:26:06.840 --> 02:26:10.760
That deep relaxation, the.

850
02:26:10.959 --> 02:26:28.079
Spread your chest, stub, let it go.

851
02:26:32.200 --> 02:26:49.520
Everything. So I'm gonna start counting down now from twenty

852
02:26:49.920 --> 02:26:58.040
down to one. You can imagine in a way, it's

853
02:26:58.239 --> 02:27:04.399
like just walking down some steps and each step or

854
02:27:04.559 --> 02:27:10.520
twenty steps, and each step represents a level of comfort.

855
02:27:14.040 --> 02:27:29.399
Each step represents a deepening of that comfort, and the

856
02:27:29.600 --> 02:27:35.680
fervies you walk down those steps, the deeper and more

857
02:27:35.760 --> 02:29:31.040
relaxed you feel. So starting with number twenty twenty, nineteen, eighteen, seven,

858
02:29:31.280 --> 02:33:17.840
jan sixteenhhhhhhhhh three four four.

859
02:34:24.360 --> 02:41:59.799
Two uhhh.

860
02:38:43.000 --> 02:39:43.719
Eight seven.

861
02:40:17.159 --> 02:41:50.440
Last six.

862
02:42:35.840 --> 02:45:30.559
Five fours, dismis.

863
02:45:23.559 --> 02:46:22.799
Us.

864
02:48:23.360 --> 02:48:23.959
And now.

865
02:48:28.399 --> 02:48:41.040
As you focus on your eyes, We're gonna count down

866
02:48:41.440 --> 02:48:52.600
from ten down to one, focusing just on your eyes,

867
02:48:56.360 --> 02:49:04.879
your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your eye walls themselves,

868
02:49:06.360 --> 02:49:23.399
a whole area that makes up your eye. And as

869
02:49:23.479 --> 02:49:32.040
we count down from ten down to one, whilst focusing

870
02:49:32.280 --> 02:49:47.639
on your eyes, you become twice is relaxed with each

871
02:49:48.120 --> 02:50:01.000
number counting down that you may find all you want

872
02:50:01.159 --> 02:50:10.000
to do is just drift off to sleep. And if

873
02:50:10.200 --> 02:50:16.840
that's what you want, then just allow yourself to do that.

874
02:50:23.440 --> 02:50:28.120
Now, focusing on your.

875
02:50:28.120 --> 02:50:33.200
Eyes, I'm going to begin counting down.

876
02:50:34.520 --> 02:51:51.360
From ten down to one right now, ten nine eight.

877
02:52:44.399 --> 02:54:48.639
Seven I.

878
02:55:29.000 --> 02:56:58.280
Us most.

879
02:57:13.239 --> 02:59:54.360
Three swo.

880
03:00:02.520 --> 03:00:13.799
Counting down from ten to one. Ten nine eight seven

881
03:00:15.920 --> 03:00:38.520
six five four three two one. And maybe that was

882
03:00:38.559 --> 03:00:42.760
a bit too quick in order to relax. Maybe it's

883
03:00:42.760 --> 03:00:48.680
a bit too fast for you to notice the calming

884
03:00:48.920 --> 03:00:55.559
of your body, maybe even a little bit of pressure

885
03:00:55.600 --> 03:00:59.079
that they're like, you're counting down from ten to one.

886
03:00:59.200 --> 03:01:02.600
Would you expect me to do? Man, expect me to

887
03:01:02.639 --> 03:01:12.239
stick go with floppy just because you're counting down. We

888
03:01:12.319 --> 03:01:15.600
could try it again, but this time I'll go a

889
03:01:15.639 --> 03:01:23.000
bit lower this time, as you focus on the whole

890
03:01:23.120 --> 03:01:29.360
of your body before we focus on your legs, just

891
03:01:29.600 --> 03:01:39.600
notice how your body does start to feel more relaxed

892
03:01:44.360 --> 03:02:19.200
with every number that I count down ten nine eight seven, six,

893
03:02:27.600 --> 03:03:37.520
five four three one, And just notice how you feel, generally,

894
03:03:37.959 --> 03:03:52.239
how your body feels. It's not necessarily even about counting

895
03:03:52.399 --> 03:03:59.479
down from ten to one. It's that space that you have,

896
03:04:00.840 --> 03:04:19.319
that space between being active physically or mentally to just

897
03:04:24.040 --> 03:04:29.200
sitting or lying down, just being there, not doing anything,

898
03:04:29.399 --> 03:04:36.000
not saying anything, or needing to think about anything. So

899
03:04:36.719 --> 03:04:39.719
it opens up a space, you know, a bit of

900
03:04:39.799 --> 03:04:50.760
a space, a gap. And the more I came down

901
03:04:50.840 --> 03:04:58.200
from ten to one, the bigger that gap becomes. So

902
03:04:58.319 --> 03:05:10.719
there's that gap of calmness, of comfort, relaxation. It's a

903
03:05:10.879 --> 03:05:24.920
nice feeling, and it moves those stresses or discomforts physically

904
03:05:25.120 --> 03:05:37.239
or emotionally, moves them away, allows you.

905
03:05:39.959 --> 03:05:40.479
To just.

906
03:05:43.440 --> 03:05:49.479
Slow down. So I'm going to count again from ten

907
03:05:49.600 --> 03:05:57.959
down to one, and notice that gap widening, the gap,

908
03:05:59.719 --> 03:06:04.920
and it widens. It's almost like the stress and attention

909
03:06:05.760 --> 03:06:24.879
falls into the gap and gives you that distance, that space.

910
03:06:27.280 --> 03:06:32.639
Now ten.

911
03:06:37.079 --> 03:08:03.479
Nine, eight, seven, six, five, four three two.

912
03:08:21.760 --> 03:08:22.040
One.

913
03:08:33.559 --> 03:08:37.680
Now, how did your body feel?

914
03:08:39.920 --> 03:08:40.079
Now?

915
03:08:52.799 --> 03:09:04.760
Can you notice that the feeling corner? What are you

916
03:09:05.000 --> 03:09:33.440
feeling more relaxed? As we now focus on your legs,

917
03:09:35.159 --> 03:09:55.600
just your legs. We're just gonna start with focusing on

918
03:09:56.040 --> 03:10:15.200
your thighs of course it's not the most exciting thing

919
03:10:15.360 --> 03:10:21.879
to be doing, because I'm sure, like most of your

920
03:10:21.920 --> 03:10:33.600
body is not a lot going on right now. Just

921
03:10:33.799 --> 03:10:39.920
focusing on the whole of your thighs, the tops of

922
03:10:40.000 --> 03:10:46.079
your thighs, the sides of your thighs, the bottoms of

923
03:10:46.159 --> 03:10:53.120
your thighs, you're outer thighs and you're inner thighs. Basically

924
03:10:53.319 --> 03:10:56.959
the whole of your thigh that leads into your hip

925
03:11:01.040 --> 03:11:11.799
and it goes down to your knee joints. Now, this

926
03:11:11.959 --> 03:11:19.399
is a big area. It's a very heavy area. It's

927
03:11:19.600 --> 03:11:26.000
very strong, probably the strongest muscles in your body or

928
03:11:26.079 --> 03:11:42.440
in your thighs. But I don't think we perhaps give

929
03:11:42.600 --> 03:11:55.799
enough attention to our thighs. Perhaps we don't acknowledge how

930
03:11:55.879 --> 03:12:17.799
important our thighs are to our lives, how much they

931
03:12:17.879 --> 03:12:31.319
actually do for us all through our lives. And it

932
03:12:31.559 --> 03:12:37.079
may seem to sound really weird, but I think that

933
03:12:37.280 --> 03:12:45.159
all of our body parts, especially our thighs, needs some TLC,

934
03:12:48.520 --> 03:13:01.680
a bit of love shown, a bit of acknowledgement, thank you,

935
03:13:04.840 --> 03:13:17.159
gratitude for what our thighs do for us. And I

936
03:13:17.319 --> 03:13:23.000
know this may sound a bit strange. Maybe you think,

937
03:13:23.440 --> 03:13:26.200
why am I sure that I should be out in

938
03:13:26.319 --> 03:13:34.879
the garden hugging a tree or something. Well, it's hard

939
03:13:34.920 --> 03:13:38.079
to set a microphone up on a tree. That's why

940
03:13:38.079 --> 03:13:40.760
I'm doing this indoors. Otherwise I wouldn't be outside hugging

941
03:13:40.799 --> 03:13:44.280
a tree. I can't see the television from the tree.

942
03:13:51.000 --> 03:13:55.239
If you move down to your knees gain such an

943
03:13:55.319 --> 03:14:05.040
important part. And I think we don't necessarily I'll speak

944
03:14:05.079 --> 03:14:12.920
for myself. I don't necessarily appreciate all that my needs

945
03:14:12.959 --> 03:14:17.799
to do for me until I have a problem with

946
03:14:17.920 --> 03:14:23.040
my knee. It's occasionally, if I ever maybe i'll bash it,

947
03:14:23.360 --> 03:14:29.159
or it's aching for some reason. It's then that I

948
03:14:29.360 --> 03:14:34.840
realize how much it does. You know, the benefit of

949
03:14:34.920 --> 03:14:42.360
being able to use my legs without any kind of

950
03:14:42.559 --> 03:14:50.879
physical discomfort is a beautiful thing that's possibly not appreciated

951
03:14:51.000 --> 03:15:02.079
until it's temporarily removed. You know that's comfort. But as

952
03:15:02.079 --> 03:15:07.440
you focus on your knees, regardless of how your knees feel,

953
03:15:10.559 --> 03:15:16.280
you can have that sense of gratitude and love to

954
03:15:16.399 --> 03:15:29.000
your knees for all that they do for you, and

955
03:15:29.159 --> 03:15:33.159
you can still have that attention on your thighs. Maybe

956
03:15:33.360 --> 03:15:39.600
notice how your thighs feel. Maybe you've noticed that they

957
03:15:40.520 --> 03:15:58.319
are relaxing more deeply as you focus now on the

958
03:15:58.399 --> 03:16:02.799
bottoms of your legs, your shins, and your calf muscles,

959
03:16:03.280 --> 03:16:11.120
the bones between your knees and your feet, incorporating of

960
03:16:11.239 --> 03:16:22.280
course your ankles so important. You know, anyone that's had

961
03:16:23.159 --> 03:16:28.600
even like the slightest sprain of an ankle knows how

962
03:16:30.239 --> 03:16:40.559
how much we take our ankles for granted. And it's

963
03:16:40.639 --> 03:16:42.719
kind of strange in a way when you think that.

964
03:16:45.280 --> 03:16:49.239
You know, logically, our wrists are a lot thinner than

965
03:16:49.360 --> 03:16:53.479
the rest of our arms, which is okay, it doesn't

966
03:16:54.000 --> 03:16:57.040
I can't see any problem with that because we're just

967
03:16:57.159 --> 03:17:05.159
picking stuff up. Ankles so much thinner than the rest

968
03:17:05.200 --> 03:17:15.840
of our legs, and from a physics perspective or logical

969
03:17:15.959 --> 03:17:20.079
even it doesn't really make sense that all this weight

970
03:17:21.760 --> 03:17:28.719
would ultimately be resting on your ankles then leading to

971
03:17:28.799 --> 03:17:42.000
your feet, that thin area, thin bone. Yeah, it does

972
03:17:42.200 --> 03:17:49.000
so much great work. Supports us, supports our body for

973
03:17:49.120 --> 03:18:03.639
a lifetime, helps us to balance, helps you to get

974
03:18:03.719 --> 03:18:13.159
around and be mobile. And there's the calf muscles. Of course,

975
03:18:18.280 --> 03:18:21.120
when I was younger, I couldn't see the pointing calf

976
03:18:21.200 --> 03:18:27.120
muscles didn't seem to do anything Okay, if I walked

977
03:18:27.120 --> 03:18:30.840
around on tiptoes, then my calf muscles get some work.

978
03:18:32.239 --> 03:18:34.799
But of course that's not true. The calf muscles are

979
03:18:34.840 --> 03:18:44.760
being used whenever we use the legs and your shins

980
03:18:48.000 --> 03:18:57.000
there to protect your lower legs, shaped in a way

981
03:18:58.840 --> 03:19:10.600
almost as a protect that for the bone, leading of

982
03:19:10.719 --> 03:19:21.040
course to your ankles and your feet. But we're not

983
03:19:21.120 --> 03:19:23.000
going to focus on your feet. We're just going to

984
03:19:23.079 --> 03:19:29.639
focus on the legs. I realize, and now that I've

985
03:19:29.760 --> 03:19:34.479
mentioned your feet, you'll probably focusing on them anyway, So

986
03:19:34.600 --> 03:19:36.959
maybe I should focus on your feet a little bit.

987
03:19:41.000 --> 03:19:45.440
You can have them in your awareness the same as

988
03:19:45.520 --> 03:19:49.879
you have your thighs in your awareness. Even though we

989
03:19:50.000 --> 03:19:53.959
haven't been focusing on your thighs for a few minutes

990
03:19:55.719 --> 03:20:06.559
and been focusing on your ankles, there's still that sensation

991
03:20:06.840 --> 03:20:22.159
of comfort in your thighs, and there's that movement of

992
03:20:22.520 --> 03:20:31.959
energy because the thighs hold lots of different sensations. Of course,

993
03:20:32.040 --> 03:20:36.760
there's the muscles, the big strong muscles that we have

994
03:20:37.000 --> 03:20:50.319
in our thighs, but the skin on the outside of

995
03:20:50.399 --> 03:20:55.719
the thighs, as in the outside of all of our body,

996
03:20:56.520 --> 03:21:08.079
can be very sensitive, sensitive to the touch, sensitive to temperature,

997
03:21:14.639 --> 03:21:22.159
and inside your thighs the bones, there's the muscle, there's

998
03:21:22.239 --> 03:21:27.000
the blood, vessels, the ar trees, to all this stuff

999
03:21:27.600 --> 03:21:36.399
inside your thighs. I guess sometimes it'd be nice if

1000
03:21:36.399 --> 03:21:42.079
you could actually put your fingers inside your thighs and message.

1001
03:21:44.440 --> 03:21:48.000
So you can message on the outside, of course, but

1002
03:21:48.079 --> 03:21:51.200
to be able to get deep into the muscles and

1003
03:21:51.280 --> 03:21:56.399
to be able to just message inside your thighs, message

1004
03:21:56.440 --> 03:22:05.200
in the bones of your leg massage in all the veins,

1005
03:22:05.639 --> 03:22:16.079
just gently healing your thighs and you can move down

1006
03:22:18.120 --> 03:22:23.159
message and inside your knees. Just message in those bones,

1007
03:22:24.200 --> 03:22:31.200
but with healing fingertips spreading that healing energy deep into

1008
03:22:31.319 --> 03:22:40.760
the choice of your knees. Of course, there's the back

1009
03:22:40.959 --> 03:22:46.079
of your your need and the inside crease where your

1010
03:22:46.200 --> 03:22:53.760
knee is. It's a very sensitive area. Three it feels

1011
03:22:53.840 --> 03:22:57.840
very nice when you stroke it. That might be because

1012
03:22:58.719 --> 03:23:04.200
it's an area that's not touched very often. It's almost

1013
03:23:04.280 --> 03:23:10.600
like a hidden part, that crease in your legs. It's

1014
03:23:10.639 --> 03:23:17.879
almost like a part that has a sensitivity, which is

1015
03:23:17.920 --> 03:23:28.920
a little bit different. Of course, it's protected by your legs,

1016
03:23:36.280 --> 03:23:40.520
so you can imagine putting your fingers into that crease

1017
03:23:41.399 --> 03:23:50.479
in your legs foward in between your legs, you can

1018
03:23:50.600 --> 03:23:56.120
just message with your fingertips. Imagine your fingertips going inside

1019
03:23:57.799 --> 03:24:06.479
message in the muscle tissue you can cause field the

1020
03:24:07.559 --> 03:24:20.360
bones of your knees heating through your fingertips. And then

1021
03:24:20.399 --> 03:24:26.159
as you go down to your calf muscles, and that's

1022
03:24:26.200 --> 03:24:29.719
the part I'd like to be able to really put

1023
03:24:29.799 --> 03:24:36.680
my fingertips deep inside my calf muscles, massage in every

1024
03:24:38.360 --> 03:24:51.079
single tissue of that muscle, healing every part, and then

1025
03:24:51.200 --> 03:24:58.959
doing the same for my shins, massage in generally stroking

1026
03:24:59.120 --> 03:25:05.479
the bones, generally stroking them, healing in a loving way

1027
03:25:06.799 --> 03:25:13.200
because they deserve to be treated. There's the precious bones

1028
03:25:13.280 --> 03:25:17.920
that they are, because our legs are so precious as

1029
03:25:17.959 --> 03:25:22.680
in all the other parts of our body, the more

1030
03:25:22.760 --> 03:25:36.879
precious at any chue on the planet. When you start

1031
03:25:37.000 --> 03:25:48.920
to think about your legs in this way, it can

1032
03:25:49.159 --> 03:25:58.639
change your perspective. It might sound a bit a bit

1033
03:25:58.920 --> 03:26:04.399
silly to start with the idea of having love for

1034
03:26:04.479 --> 03:26:13.840
your legs, showing appreciation for your thighs, wanting to be

1035
03:26:13.879 --> 03:26:21.319
able to put your hands in your thighs, massage the

1036
03:26:21.479 --> 03:26:27.360
muscles and the bones, and to get your fingers deep

1037
03:26:27.440 --> 03:26:36.879
in there and releasing all tension, just to show how

1038
03:26:37.000 --> 03:26:44.399
much you care about your legs, how much you care

1039
03:26:44.760 --> 03:26:52.760
for what your legs do for you regularly, your knees,

1040
03:26:53.000 --> 03:27:05.840
your calves, your ankles, the strength of your ankles considering

1041
03:27:06.040 --> 03:27:10.520
how thin they are compared to the rest of your legs,

1042
03:27:10.719 --> 03:27:24.360
especially your thighs. Yeah, this so strong, so flexible, absolutely

1043
03:27:24.639 --> 03:27:36.440
amazing things. Your ankles are truly a gift because of

1044
03:27:36.520 --> 03:27:47.799
what they do for you, supporting all that weight. Regardless

1045
03:27:47.879 --> 03:27:51.879
of how what weight you are, even if you only

1046
03:27:51.920 --> 03:27:56.680
eat ate stone, there's still a lot of weight for

1047
03:27:56.840 --> 03:28:03.520
these little ankles. Now, I'm a lot heavier than eight

1048
03:28:03.639 --> 03:28:14.280
stone double down, yet my ankles support my body all

1049
03:28:14.319 --> 03:28:20.760
the time, or they do give off a sigh of

1050
03:28:20.879 --> 03:28:26.680
relief when I sit down. That's my whole legs though

1051
03:28:30.280 --> 03:28:37.639
my feet, feet or circo my toes clap. I'm so happy.

1052
03:28:57.399 --> 03:29:06.280
Your legs, I'm really are amazing. And I know they're

1053
03:29:06.319 --> 03:29:12.920
talking about. Talking about your legs is probably possibly among

1054
03:29:13.040 --> 03:29:17.360
the most most boring things I've ever heard anyone say.

1055
03:29:18.280 --> 03:29:25.719
Possibly or boring or not. Everything I said is true.

1056
03:29:28.159 --> 03:29:43.040
Your legs are amazing. Your legs deserve not just respect,

1057
03:29:48.879 --> 03:29:50.600
they deserve to relax.

1058
03:29:52.040 --> 03:29:52.399
Deeply.

1059
03:29:59.639 --> 03:30:03.040
They serve to take some time out of the day

1060
03:30:05.239 --> 03:30:34.000
to just let go completely. Your legs really can relax.

1061
03:30:41.600 --> 03:30:45.719
And because the legs are so such a most, you know,

1062
03:30:45.959 --> 03:30:51.879
very important part of your body. When you relax your legs,

1063
03:30:52.000 --> 03:30:59.200
the rest of your body also naturally follows in that

1064
03:31:02.959 --> 03:31:13.799
journey of comfort. Like I feel it in my hips.

1065
03:31:15.200 --> 03:31:22.319
My hips feel really loose, and also my lower back

1066
03:31:22.360 --> 03:31:28.959
as well. My lower back really feels it feels stretched,

1067
03:31:30.120 --> 03:31:33.120
even though I'm just sitting in a chair and there's

1068
03:31:33.239 --> 03:31:38.479
no stretching as far as I'm aware that I'm doing.

1069
03:31:39.520 --> 03:31:42.159
It's almost as if the muscles are just relaxed so

1070
03:31:42.399 --> 03:31:48.319
much that there is a natural stretch as the tension

1071
03:31:49.200 --> 03:32:10.440
has reduced a lot. And I'm now going to count

1072
03:32:10.559 --> 03:32:18.440
down from ten down to one, and you can continue

1073
03:32:20.280 --> 03:32:46.520
to fill wonderfully relaxed ten nine, eight, seven, six, five,

1074
03:32:51.159 --> 03:33:19.239
four three two. Why relax. So I'm just going to

1075
03:33:19.319 --> 03:33:24.719
count down five down to one. And as a countdown,

1076
03:33:26.000 --> 03:33:30.719
if you just focus on the numbers, just the numbers

1077
03:33:32.399 --> 03:33:41.399
counting down, and notice how you feel in this moment

1078
03:33:43.159 --> 03:33:47.520
as you hear the numbers counting down. Knowing that those

1079
03:33:47.719 --> 03:34:00.760
numbers counting down represent you feeling calmer, not just in

1080
03:34:00.840 --> 03:34:09.360
your body, but also relaxing your mind. Just notice how

1081
03:34:09.440 --> 03:34:15.280
you feel there's nothing to do, there's nothing to say,

1082
03:34:15.959 --> 03:34:53.840
there's nothing to think about, starting with number five, four, three, two.

1083
03:34:59.520 --> 03:34:59.559
On.

1084
03:35:09.280 --> 03:35:21.120
And as you notice the gradual letting go of the

1085
03:35:21.280 --> 03:35:28.879
tension in your body, you may also begin to notice

1086
03:35:29.000 --> 03:35:36.239
and be aware of how your mind is starting to

1087
03:35:37.559 --> 03:35:44.159
slow down. This is just a natural thing that happens.

1088
03:35:46.799 --> 03:35:51.959
It's not really a special procedure. It's just natural because

1089
03:35:52.040 --> 03:35:57.959
as your body relaxes, your mind also starts to relax,

1090
03:35:59.520 --> 03:36:02.239
and a more more your mind relaxes, the more your

1091
03:36:02.280 --> 03:36:13.440
body relaxes. It's just a continuous circle of relaxation. And

1092
03:36:13.680 --> 03:36:21.920
is that calmness that comes from relative quietness. You know,

1093
03:36:22.079 --> 03:36:27.680
even even if this background sounds either your side orline,

1094
03:36:29.360 --> 03:36:35.200
it is still going to be quite calm. You know,

1095
03:36:35.239 --> 03:36:39.879
you haven't got the television on, there's no music in

1096
03:36:40.000 --> 03:36:42.799
the background, unless you're listening to the recorded with music.

1097
03:36:42.959 --> 03:36:50.159
Of course, you're very likely not going to be sitting

1098
03:36:50.200 --> 03:36:53.360
in a room with other people. Of course you might be,

1099
03:36:53.559 --> 03:36:57.920
but generally it's more ideal if you can do this

1100
03:36:58.120 --> 03:37:09.159
on your own so no distractions, and when you stop

1101
03:37:09.280 --> 03:37:24.680
thinking about stuff, relaxation automatically rises, a sense of comfort

1102
03:37:26.440 --> 03:37:35.319
starts to grow, and without trying to build it up

1103
03:37:35.399 --> 03:37:46.440
into something fantastical or something magical, this is just a

1104
03:37:46.719 --> 03:37:59.200
natural process, something that's easy to accomplish. In fact, it's

1105
03:37:59.319 --> 03:38:06.239
almost you know, the sense of relaxing completely happens really

1106
03:38:06.360 --> 03:38:11.319
when you put no effort into it. It's not something

1107
03:38:11.440 --> 03:38:19.440
that you can really force. It's something that happens naturally.

1108
03:38:22.399 --> 03:38:29.680
And part of the process of this recording and others

1109
03:38:31.280 --> 03:38:42.840
is simply two allow you to take advantage of this space.

1110
03:38:45.520 --> 03:38:49.760
This time, it's just.

1111
03:38:53.920 --> 03:38:54.200
Let go.

1112
03:38:57.319 --> 03:39:06.079
To just be here, be in tune with how you feel,

1113
03:39:12.200 --> 03:39:24.399
yet with the intention of wanting to relax deeply and

1114
03:39:24.600 --> 03:39:30.959
maybe even to fall asleep, depending on what it is

1115
03:39:31.200 --> 03:39:44.360
that you wish for yourself in this moment. As we know,

1116
03:39:44.959 --> 03:39:54.280
relaxing is the majority of the process of falling asleep.

1117
03:39:55.479 --> 03:39:59.360
The actual falling asleep part is the tiny bit at

1118
03:39:59.360 --> 03:40:14.360
the end. The deeper relaxed you become, the easier you

1119
03:40:14.559 --> 03:40:28.920
find yourself drifting. But you can also if you choose,

1120
03:40:29.959 --> 03:40:46.159
stay focused on my voice and really enjoy the process

1121
03:40:50.520 --> 03:41:22.399
gradually relaxing each muscle in your body effortlessly and just

1122
03:41:23.040 --> 03:41:49.559
observing the sensation of letting go completely. This time, I'm

1123
03:41:49.559 --> 03:41:58.159
going to count from six down to one. You can

1124
03:41:58.319 --> 03:42:10.120
notice your mind calming down more with each number that

1125
03:42:10.280 --> 03:42:27.079
you hear me say, naturally, feeling calm and slower, peaceful

1126
03:42:33.000 --> 03:45:25.520
sex five, four, three four, being aware of how your

1127
03:45:25.760 --> 03:45:55.200
mind to slowed right down, sinking deeply into relaxation. As

1128
03:45:55.239 --> 03:45:56.479
you focus on your.

1129
03:45:56.520 --> 03:45:57.200
Mind, and.

1130
03:46:00.719 --> 03:46:10.000
May notice that there are some thoughts still there, maybe

1131
03:46:10.159 --> 03:46:19.920
some stubborn thoughts that for some reason perhaps need your attention.

1132
03:46:26.959 --> 03:46:28.159
So what you can do is.

1133
03:46:33.760 --> 03:46:46.239
Send love to those thoughts. Sprinkle those thoughts with love

1134
03:46:48.200 --> 03:46:52.200
all petals from a flower. Just sprinkle it over them,

1135
03:46:53.680 --> 03:47:00.799
petals feel good love towards those thoughts. To let those

1136
03:47:01.040 --> 03:47:08.479
thoughts mother, You're not abandon the number, You just need them.

1137
03:47:09.680 --> 03:47:20.719
You require them to just calm down, slow down, quiet

1138
03:47:21.120 --> 03:47:36.520
down for now. So as you focus on those remaining

1139
03:47:36.680 --> 03:47:41.959
thoughts as we count down this time from seven down

1140
03:47:42.040 --> 03:47:51.079
to one. With each number, just imagine sprinkling those flower

1141
03:47:51.239 --> 03:48:10.319
petals of love, kindness, gratid over those thoughts, which will

1142
03:48:10.360 --> 03:48:20.360
allow them to just melt away and relax deeply. With

1143
03:48:20.520 --> 03:48:34.719
every number, those thoughts will become more and more relaxed.

1144
03:48:40.319 --> 03:50:03.280
Starting with number seven six five four three.

1145
03:50:54.440 --> 03:50:54.680
Four.

1146
03:51:11.399 --> 03:51:28.360
And as you now notice how relaxed your feeling in

1147
03:51:28.520 --> 03:51:50.079
your body, We're going to focus on your hands, because

1148
03:51:50.200 --> 03:51:56.399
the more relaxed your hands are, the more relaxed your

1149
03:51:56.520 --> 03:52:18.799
body and mind. There's you focus on your hands and

1150
03:52:18.959 --> 03:52:29.000
your fingers. There's nothing needed to be done. There's no

1151
03:52:29.280 --> 03:52:34.280
clinching of fists or dance in the fingers or anything

1152
03:52:34.399 --> 03:52:48.319
like that. It's just noticing and focusing on your hands,

1153
03:52:55.360 --> 03:52:57.479
noticing the early film.

1154
03:53:11.760 --> 03:53:13.159
Because the more.

1155
03:53:15.120 --> 03:53:22.280
Relaxed your hands feel, the calmer your.

1156
03:53:22.440 --> 03:53:26.760
Mind feels, more.

1157
03:53:29.440 --> 03:53:34.319
Comforts you feel throughout your body.

1158
03:53:40.280 --> 03:53:43.440
Jeer may.

1159
03:53:45.680 --> 03:53:50.879
Have already.

1160
03:53:53.120 --> 03:54:32.879
Noticed you mind is starting to drift. Quis him just

1161
03:54:33.079 --> 03:54:50.239
on your hands and fingers, allowing them cheat experience a

1162
03:54:50.479 --> 03:54:58.399
real deepening of that relaxation in your hands and fingers,

1163
03:55:04.479 --> 03:55:27.440
more more relaxed. With each number from eight down to one,

1164
03:55:32.479 --> 03:55:43.840
you can almost feel that healing, relaxing energy spreading into

1165
03:55:43.959 --> 03:55:51.120
your hands and fingers, becoming.

1166
03:55:55.000 --> 03:55:56.600
Year more.

1167
03:55:58.559 --> 03:56:16.639
Relaxing. With each number going down eight down to one,

1168
03:56:20.959 --> 04:00:31.879
drifting drifting again started with number eight seven three just

1169
04:00:32.120 --> 04:00:41.120
being here now, nothing to think about, nothing to do

1170
04:00:42.760 --> 04:00:57.000
nothing to say, and everything just feels calm. This is

1171
04:00:58.120 --> 04:01:04.920
your natural state of being. This is how you just

1172
04:01:06.000 --> 04:01:12.559
normally feel when you take away all that other stuff

1173
04:01:14.959 --> 04:01:19.600
that we add, you know, thinks like stress and worry

1174
04:01:20.000 --> 04:01:37.680
and overthinking, some anxiety, tension, generally thinking about stuff. You

1175
04:01:37.879 --> 04:01:40.799
take that away, which is what we do.

1176
04:01:41.760 --> 04:01:42.680
We do it now.

1177
04:01:48.920 --> 04:01:59.959
You're left with a real sense of dieselness, which can't

1178
04:02:00.239 --> 04:02:14.040
still very quickly because ultimately it's just a feeling, a

1179
04:02:14.319 --> 04:02:22.920
feeling and comfort, almost as if you've got inside yourself

1180
04:02:23.000 --> 04:02:34.639
and you've found a special place where everything is pasiful,

1181
04:02:37.559 --> 04:02:42.360
a place where you can be filmed, relaxed, and your

1182
04:02:42.520 --> 04:02:51.559
natural sense of comfort, a place where can be. Here

1183
04:02:56.159 --> 04:02:58.680
we can accept yourself.

1184
04:02:59.879 --> 04:03:00.680
You are.

1185
04:03:02.959 --> 04:03:09.079
In the place where you're not trying to please anybody else,

1186
04:03:09.559 --> 04:03:22.360
in the place where you can actually not just love yourself,

1187
04:03:22.479 --> 04:03:27.920
but in some ways more importantly, you can like yourself,

1188
04:03:30.399 --> 04:03:47.680
appreciate who you are, a sense of gratitude. He's in

1189
04:03:47.840 --> 04:03:59.040
the air around here. That's also a place where you

1190
04:04:01.399 --> 04:04:09.360
can actually feel the healing energy soaking into your body.

1191
04:04:16.040 --> 04:04:28.319
Healing energy soaking into your body. That healing energy spreads

1192
04:04:29.319 --> 04:04:40.520
through your veins, traveling to each every single part of

1193
04:04:40.639 --> 04:04:50.440
your body, and you start to realize that actually that

1194
04:04:50.760 --> 04:04:59.479
healing energy it's not just entered into your brain, it's

1195
04:04:59.559 --> 04:05:11.559
become part of your brain, and the spinal fluid is

1196
04:05:11.639 --> 04:05:22.559
now mixed with healing energy, not just allowing you to

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04:05:22.920 --> 04:05:30.559
feel so much more relaxed and healthy in this moment,

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04:05:35.040 --> 04:05:44.440
but also you start to realize that actually, what's happening

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04:05:44.680 --> 04:05:53.239
now without a healing, relaxing energy spreading through your body,

1200
04:05:55.280 --> 04:06:05.959
is actually changing your life. It's actually changing the way

1201
04:06:06.079 --> 04:06:12.680
you're going to feel not just now, but tomorrow and

1202
04:06:12.799 --> 04:06:21.719
the next day. As your health improves, not just your

1203
04:06:21.799 --> 04:06:29.559
physical health, but your mental health. Things that used to

1204
04:06:29.760 --> 04:06:35.840
bother you in the past, for some reason, no longer

1205
04:06:37.200 --> 04:06:43.680
have the effect that they used to because something has

1206
04:06:44.200 --> 04:06:57.200
changed deep within you. Maybe things that used to cause

1207
04:06:57.319 --> 04:07:09.280
you to feel anger no longer have that power to

1208
04:07:09.440 --> 04:07:15.079
control you the way they seem to be able to before.

1209
04:07:18.760 --> 04:07:29.559
As you realize that you're the one who decides what

1210
04:07:29.879 --> 04:07:41.600
affects you, you're the one who decides to feel relaxed

1211
04:07:42.440 --> 04:07:55.239
and calm when you choose to enjoy noticing, these natural

1212
04:07:56.280 --> 04:08:09.600
developments for healing continue to grow and improve your life

1213
04:08:11.040 --> 04:08:22.840
day by day. Include of course, your ability to relax

1214
04:08:23.479 --> 04:08:37.920
so much easier than sleep in it's the most natural

1215
04:08:38.200 --> 04:08:47.920
thing in the world to you because for in, the

1216
04:08:48.120 --> 04:08:55.000
sleep is something that you've done so many times.

1217
04:08:56.319 --> 04:09:01.920
In your life, and you know that you were born,

1218
04:09:03.440 --> 04:09:05.200
as we all were, with.

1219
04:09:05.799 --> 04:09:16.399
The ability to fall asleep naturally. We were born with

1220
04:09:16.959 --> 04:09:18.920
that ability.

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To just drift.

1222
04:09:24.719 --> 04:09:36.559
Off into a deep, healing sleep. Even when we're kids,

1223
04:09:38.239 --> 04:09:41.079
sometimes will fall asleep and we don't even want to

1224
04:09:43.159 --> 04:09:47.600
try to think of stay awake. Maybe it's a birthday

1225
04:09:47.680 --> 04:09:51.799
in the morning, though it's Christmas or holiday or something

1226
04:09:51.879 --> 04:09:54.520
we look forward to, we don't want to go to sleep.

1227
04:09:56.760 --> 04:10:01.719
But the more we want to stay awake, the more

1228
04:10:02.000 --> 04:10:10.319
we just start to drift. And the more you fight drifting,

1229
04:10:11.200 --> 04:10:16.639
we try to stop yourself and drifting asleep, the deeper

1230
04:10:16.840 --> 04:10:28.399
is stronger that drifting becomes. Because we're born not just

1231
04:10:28.600 --> 04:10:35.319
with the need to relax deeply and to naturally fall asleep,

1232
04:10:38.520 --> 04:10:51.840
but it's our birthright, it's part of our DNA, and

1233
04:10:52.120 --> 04:10:57.559
sometimes as we get older in life, perhaps at times

1234
04:10:58.479 --> 04:11:11.399
we have forgot the relaxing completely. It's not only a

1235
04:11:11.719 --> 04:11:35.920
wonderfully pleasant experience, it's also really easy. It's very, very

1236
04:11:36.479 --> 04:11:41.959
easy to let go, because that's all it is.

1237
04:11:42.120 --> 04:11:42.600
It's just.

1238
04:11:46.120 --> 04:11:57.559
Deciding to let go. And when you press the play

1239
04:11:57.680 --> 04:12:07.920
button on my recordings, you have given permission from my

1240
04:12:08.159 --> 04:12:17.319
voice to relation. When you press that play button, you

1241
04:12:17.440 --> 04:12:28.239
have given me permission for my words to effect you

1242
04:12:28.879 --> 04:12:45.399
in a positive, only a positive way, opening up your

1243
04:12:45.520 --> 04:13:08.280
mind to useful and healing suggestions that can have such

1244
04:13:08.280 --> 04:13:20.399
an amazing effect on how you feel right now, as

1245
04:13:20.520 --> 04:13:31.399
well as those changes that continue long after the recording ends,

1246
04:13:33.159 --> 04:13:42.280
those changes within you that continue to flourish and grow,

1247
04:13:46.840 --> 04:14:00.559
transforming your life in a positive, beautiful way, allowing you

1248
04:14:01.159 --> 04:14:07.360
to move forward in your life in the direction that

1249
04:14:07.680 --> 04:14:24.840
you choose for yourself. And this feeling, this feeling that

1250
04:14:25.079 --> 04:14:41.200
you can experience a safety, comfort, calmness, just feels so nice.

1251
04:14:50.559 --> 04:15:03.239
It's such a healthy place to be, and that positivity

1252
04:15:04.600 --> 04:15:23.559
grows within you each and every day. Moving forward, you're

1253
04:15:23.719 --> 04:15:34.520
going to find that you're more relaxed physically and in

1254
04:15:34.639 --> 04:15:43.440
your mind is more relaxed. And it's not that you're

1255
04:15:43.639 --> 04:15:49.360
thinking slower, it's just that your mind will be less

1256
04:15:50.159 --> 04:16:00.840
clogged up with unnecessary negativity because it's from now on,

1257
04:16:01.520 --> 04:16:11.159
your mind rejects negativity. From now on, you're going to

1258
04:16:11.319 --> 04:16:21.879
start notice it when negativity arises, and you can just

1259
04:16:22.000 --> 04:16:36.440
say stop, stop, and that negativity will turn around and

1260
04:16:36.760 --> 04:17:03.959
leave you alone. Stop, and that negativity would disappear. And

1261
04:17:04.120 --> 04:17:11.959
that you notice that you feel way more relaxed than

1262
04:17:12.040 --> 04:17:27.600
you probably expected. You can now congratulate yourself because you're

1263
04:17:28.159 --> 04:17:34.159
the person that has done this. You are the one

1264
04:17:34.760 --> 04:17:39.639
that has opened your mind up to the simple facts.

1265
04:17:42.840 --> 04:17:47.840
And you can feel more relaxed than your body. And

1266
04:17:48.079 --> 04:17:59.440
in your mind, you've opened your mind up to the

1267
04:17:59.559 --> 04:18:05.959
birth right of being able to just fall asleep easily

1268
04:18:07.040 --> 04:18:19.120
when you choose. And that's a nice feeling.

1269
04:18:20.760 --> 04:18:21.559
Don't you think.

1270
04:18:24.000 --> 04:18:32.840
It feels nice? Doesn't it? To feel calm full, that

1271
04:18:33.159 --> 04:18:37.760
healing energy is spreading through your body in your mind.

1272
04:18:44.440 --> 04:18:56.319
Spend time a special place where negativity can no longer enter.

1273
04:19:02.760 --> 04:19:11.959
Negativity is banned. It's bad, it's not allowed entry doesn't

1274
04:19:12.360 --> 04:19:16.719
doesn't this doesn't deserve to be here, doesn't be long here.

1275
04:19:20.440 --> 04:19:35.319
Negativity has no place in your life, which makes room

1276
04:19:35.520 --> 04:20:06.440
for more comfort, more heathing, or relaxation, more peace. It

1277
04:20:06.559 --> 04:20:07.879
feels nice, doesn't it.

1278
04:20:09.719 --> 04:20:13.920
Just let go.

1279
04:20:17.600 --> 04:20:36.239
Everything. I'm gonna count down now from twenty down to one.

1280
04:20:39.680 --> 04:20:51.600
You can continue to relax high can dread to sleep

1281
04:20:55.239 --> 04:20:56.680
with every number.

1282
04:20:58.840 --> 04:21:00.040
He me say.

1283
04:21:04.200 --> 04:21:11.520
You can fill twice is relaxed or if you choose

1284
04:21:11.680 --> 04:21:54.360
you can fill twice sleeping now twenty nineteen, eighteen seventeen

1285
04:22:02.000 --> 04:22:53.719
six stam fifty four eleven two.

1286
04:23:01.440 --> 04:23:10.280
Nine eight.

1287
04:23:17.399 --> 04:23:27.479
Seven six.

1288
04:23:35.520 --> 04:23:35.799
Five.

1289
04:24:16.399 --> 04:24:26.200
This is your time to just take a break, your

1290
04:24:26.360 --> 04:24:45.799
time relax, to allow your mind to slow down, to

1291
04:24:46.000 --> 04:25:05.040
give yourself permission to take a break from everything. Endure

1292
04:25:05.120 --> 04:25:12.120
the only person that can make that decision. You're the

1293
04:25:12.239 --> 04:25:20.680
only person that can actually tell your mind just relax,

1294
04:25:28.799 --> 04:25:29.239
to just.

1295
04:25:32.920 --> 04:25:34.159
Take some time.

1296
04:25:35.879 --> 04:25:47.719
Off so that you can focus on your body, getting

1297
04:25:48.079 --> 04:26:02.479
in touch with how you feel physically and in the

1298
04:26:02.639 --> 04:26:10.719
process of this body scared where you focus on different

1299
04:26:10.799 --> 04:26:20.639
parts of your body, those parts that you focus on

1300
04:26:21.399 --> 04:26:33.319
and observe, even though you're not purposely requesting those parts

1301
04:26:33.360 --> 04:26:40.200
of your body to relax, it's kind of expected. You

1302
04:26:40.399 --> 04:26:46.920
expect when you listen to my woe to feel more

1303
04:26:47.399 --> 04:27:00.920
worst naturally, because when you're listening to me, your attention

1304
04:27:03.239 --> 04:27:14.120
is focused on my words, and as my words guide

1305
04:27:14.360 --> 04:27:27.840
you to focus on those parts of your body, your

1306
04:27:27.920 --> 04:27:37.760
focus increases, which actually.

1307
04:27:40.280 --> 04:27:41.479
Calms your mind.

1308
04:27:49.680 --> 04:28:08.879
When your mind calms down, your body relaxes and on

1309
04:28:09.079 --> 04:28:31.959
your body calms down, your mind relaxes, and the good

1310
04:28:32.920 --> 04:28:41.719
have not really started to focus on your body. It

1311
04:28:41.879 --> 04:28:52.719
can already feel that heating energy is spreading through your body,

1312
04:28:57.639 --> 04:29:15.840
pushing out stress, attention. He all the parts of your body, skin,

1313
04:29:17.000 --> 04:29:23.920
your bodies, your blood, all of your works inside your body,

1314
04:29:25.600 --> 04:29:32.079
of the muscles, and all of the fat of everything,

1315
04:29:33.920 --> 04:29:48.159
every hair on your body. It is fueled by and

1316
04:29:48.319 --> 04:30:08.840
when your brain fills the energy feed and comfort, relaxation.

1317
04:30:11.920 --> 04:30:22.719
Increases deeply increases.

1318
04:30:28.319 --> 04:30:33.600
In a way, your mind.

1319
04:30:36.840 --> 04:30:50.399
Starts to feel perhaps speak to rousing because it's not needed.

1320
04:30:54.319 --> 04:30:56.040
They starts.

1321
04:30:58.680 --> 04:30:59.760
To drift.

1322
04:31:08.159 --> 04:31:10.040
If that's what's needed.

1323
04:31:13.200 --> 04:31:14.840
So if you're listening to this.

1324
04:31:16.840 --> 04:31:17.920
And what you need.

1325
04:31:18.000 --> 04:31:21.120
Disting relaxation, that's where you get.

1326
04:31:23.319 --> 04:31:24.760
If you need is.

1327
04:31:26.479 --> 04:31:28.120
To fall asleep.

1328
04:31:29.399 --> 04:31:33.440
Naturally easily, that you're wid dreams.

1329
04:31:36.000 --> 04:31:37.159
That's also.

1330
04:31:38.520 --> 04:31:52.159
Wherever because my listen that play button on the podcast

1331
04:31:52.360 --> 04:31:59.719
and listening to me give permission your body, your white

1332
04:32:02.760 --> 04:32:12.040
in fact, give the command to your body and the

1333
04:32:12.200 --> 04:32:23.959
mind to rise deeply, to drift off to sleep.

1334
04:32:25.000 --> 04:32:27.799
If that's what he wants.

1335
04:32:39.319 --> 04:32:45.319
And as I focus on the different parts of your body.

1336
04:32:50.159 --> 04:32:59.719
May start to just do then you come back again.

1337
04:33:01.280 --> 04:33:02.319
Be talking.

1338
04:33:03.479 --> 04:33:05.560
Focusing on different.

1339
04:33:05.360 --> 04:33:06.479
Parts of your body.

1340
04:33:12.279 --> 04:33:12.919
You may.

1341
04:33:14.840 --> 04:33:16.799
I'm just so drifting.

1342
04:33:19.639 --> 04:33:30.680
People realize to you school drifting into my voice.

1343
04:33:32.159 --> 04:33:35.560
Said what different parts of your body?

1344
04:33:36.840 --> 04:33:49.119
Starts to reac because I drifting basically already.

1345
04:33:50.919 --> 04:33:51.639
In the sleep.

1346
04:33:51.799 --> 04:34:11.279
So the more you drift, nod draft, I try to

1347
04:34:11.520 --> 04:34:14.279
continuous to sleep.

1348
04:34:19.479 --> 04:34:31.319
That's the last year to when you're time, when.

1349
04:34:31.319 --> 04:34:33.919
You've experienced the I amount of.

1350
04:34:34.040 --> 04:34:39.919
Sleep on.

1351
04:34:42.279 --> 04:34:49.880
A DIFFTI out of sleep, sister, pleasant.

1352
04:34:52.200 --> 04:34:53.840
Some accident.

1353
04:35:01.360 --> 04:35:13.759
S feel and ice.

1354
04:35:15.680 --> 04:35:40.880
Taxes by putting ye feel that which is spreading, relaxing, sax,

1355
04:35:54.919 --> 04:35:57.080
start focus.

1356
04:35:58.439 --> 04:35:59.479
Your eyes.

1357
04:36:10.799 --> 04:36:30.479
Shot shop.

1358
04:37:01.520 --> 04:38:29.040
Six six s your body.

1359
04:38:34.880 --> 04:38:40.000
Now let's focus again.

1360
04:38:42.200 --> 04:38:49.200
Parts of your body. How you spend this time on

1361
04:38:49.319 --> 04:38:59.959
your forehead, now your mouth, your lips.

1362
04:39:01.279 --> 04:39:19.360
At the time, all of your mouth. What you said,

1363
04:39:20.639 --> 04:39:30.240
what you think is maybe a good if you think

1364
04:39:30.360 --> 04:39:31.639
it's a little goods.

1365
04:39:32.919 --> 04:39:48.000
Thus on each one individual my hands, even though you

1366
04:39:48.159 --> 04:39:51.200
focus on both of your hands, well.

1367
04:39:52.680 --> 04:39:54.080
You know my sins just.

1368
04:39:54.279 --> 04:39:55.240
Not it's one.

1369
04:40:00.639 --> 04:40:04.880
Maybe I had stopped, if I had ended.

1370
04:40:11.919 --> 04:40:13.439
Just mixt.

1371
04:40:18.720 --> 04:40:29.639
How far excuse just like to say how your beads

1372
04:40:29.720 --> 04:40:54.360
will now cops what you say by a few hours.

1373
04:41:00.639 --> 04:41:01.439
Just si.

1374
04:41:04.000 --> 04:44:16.159
Fights, backs, schools, shoots. See ye.

1375
04:44:51.520 --> 04:44:52.680
A, you say.

1376
04:45:03.840 --> 04:46:26.639
So, let's think, lets go, let's see go, let you go,

1377
04:46:33.200 --> 04:47:08.240
let's go. Let's say you're going to start now.

1378
04:47:09.680 --> 04:47:10.520
And like it.

1379
04:47:10.680 --> 04:47:15.040
Just first of all, just to see as lying down.

1380
04:47:16.439 --> 04:47:20.720
On the message table, lying on the front.

1381
04:47:21.639 --> 04:47:29.639
Your head is supported, the arms are supported, and you

1382
04:47:29.680 --> 04:47:32.360
feel comfortable and breathing.

1383
04:47:32.159 --> 04:47:36.639
Is really easy, and you feel.

1384
04:47:39.840 --> 04:47:42.840
You feel confident in how you look as well. So

1385
04:47:43.240 --> 04:47:47.439
there's none of that issue of body problems or shyness

1386
04:47:48.319 --> 04:47:56.439
because I'm a professional and this is a therapy session,

1387
04:47:57.279 --> 04:48:00.520
so none of that stuff matters soever.

1388
04:48:04.400 --> 04:48:10.880
This is about you. This is about how you feel,

1389
04:48:11.840 --> 04:48:17.479
how you can enjoy that sense.

1390
04:48:17.319 --> 04:48:24.240
Of comfort and relaxation that comes from letting go and allow.

1391
04:48:24.000 --> 04:48:31.720
Him my hands, my fingers to relax you by a

1392
04:48:31.880 --> 04:48:41.360
message your body. Someone starts off just by placing my

1393
04:48:41.560 --> 04:48:48.400
hands on the back of your head, just jiggly, just

1394
04:48:48.560 --> 04:48:52.720
so you can feel with my hands feel like really

1395
04:48:53.080 --> 04:48:59.479
on you, so you can maybe feel the warmth of

1396
04:48:59.560 --> 04:49:05.159
my hands in the back of your head. With my

1397
04:49:05.279 --> 04:49:08.880
hands the side of your head, not pressing, but just

1398
04:49:09.319 --> 04:49:15.639
holding there very gently, maybe over your ears, and a

1399
04:49:15.720 --> 04:49:19.200
little bit on your face, just so you can feel

1400
04:49:20.119 --> 04:49:25.040
my hands so you can become accustomed.

1401
04:49:26.000 --> 04:49:26.400
To them.

1402
04:49:35.040 --> 04:49:37.240
And now put my hands in the back of your

1403
04:49:37.279 --> 04:49:42.000
head again and gently let them slide down.

1404
04:49:44.560 --> 04:49:45.520
To the back of your neck.

1405
04:49:53.119 --> 04:49:54.880
You can feel my hands.

1406
04:50:01.360 --> 04:50:03.159
Gently stroking the back.

1407
04:50:03.040 --> 04:50:09.680
Of your neck and starting just so you can get

1408
04:50:09.840 --> 04:50:10.479
used to the.

1409
04:50:12.279 --> 04:50:20.400
Feeling my hands on your skin, get accustomed to realize

1410
04:50:20.520 --> 04:50:21.720
that you're safe.

1411
04:50:22.799 --> 04:50:31.880
It's all good, it's all fine. I'm going to start

1412
04:50:32.040 --> 04:50:35.240
chiming messaging with the muscles in.

1413
04:50:35.279 --> 04:50:36.360
The back of your neck.

1414
04:50:43.840 --> 04:50:44.720
With both hands.

1415
04:50:50.880 --> 04:50:52.720
And this is a very trusting.

1416
04:50:54.479 --> 04:51:00.200
Situation really, because our necks is so fragile to have

1417
04:51:00.360 --> 04:51:04.240
someone to have their hands around your neck in that

1418
04:51:04.400 --> 04:51:09.680
way and sometimes be problematic for people, which is why

1419
04:51:09.840 --> 04:51:14.520
messages are quite good because it allows you to relax

1420
04:51:15.919 --> 04:51:29.639
and tow in touch with trust to feel peaceful, and

1421
04:51:29.720 --> 04:51:42.119
you can't it's a message. Decide if you need him

1422
04:51:42.279 --> 04:51:50.759
be moving from the bottom of your neck to be

1423
04:51:51.040 --> 04:51:52.880
sort of near where you shoulder and start.

1424
04:51:52.959 --> 04:51:54.959
I guess all the way up.

1425
04:51:56.959 --> 04:52:00.119
Seem your jaw, yeah.

1426
04:52:00.479 --> 04:52:02.479
On an area that's starting.

1427
04:52:02.560 --> 04:52:07.840
The neck, of course, is a lot longer than the

1428
04:52:08.000 --> 04:52:23.959
front of your men. The massage in the back of

1429
04:52:24.040 --> 04:52:31.799
your neck, especially that area where I have some hold

1430
04:52:32.040 --> 04:52:39.560
tension and that's that air is massage. You can actually

1431
04:52:39.720 --> 04:52:42.400
feel a sense of the lease.

1432
04:52:42.759 --> 04:52:45.560
In the back of the name MH.

1433
04:52:49.520 --> 04:52:51.560
One you can read out as.

1434
04:52:51.479 --> 04:52:57.159
Well, I want to say you feel.

1435
04:53:06.840 --> 04:53:10.639
And moving down to that area between the making of

1436
04:53:10.720 --> 04:53:18.000
shoulders mostly area starts its message.

1437
04:53:20.159 --> 04:53:21.680
That area b side.

1438
04:53:24.080 --> 04:53:26.680
This would be the area that a lot of people.

1439
04:53:26.479 --> 04:53:32.720
With message if they give the showder message and let's

1440
04:53:33.400 --> 04:53:36.520
taken keep the shoulders and can see the messes of

1441
04:53:36.599 --> 04:53:50.599
the minds of the shoulders, kamuntation, the stress, the message sometimes.

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As deep mess no me