June 9, 2025

(music) (5 hours) Entrepreneur | Monday’s Boring Objects | LMBYTS #1369 | 9th June 2025

(music) (5 hours) Entrepreneur | Monday’s Boring Objects | LMBYTS #1369 | 9th June 2025
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Hello, and welcome to Jasonnewland dot com. My name is

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Jason Newland, who please only listen when you can safety

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close your eyes. What else?

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M h.

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What do I normally say? Shall I say something?

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Oh? Itchy?

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Got itchy? Side? Hello? Opinny. So this is let be

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buoy to sleep. Monday's boring objects? What can I talk

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about today?

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But you?

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If you, if you're not, If you're not prepared, no,

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I haven't. Why not if you be prepared? You are

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you not a professional? No? Caut yourself a professional? No?

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Why are you?

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Then?

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I don't know? You should know what you're doing. No,

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I don't know what I'm doing. I'm just plodding along

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hoping that I don't fall in a hole. Basically, So,

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Monday's boring up jecks. I'm going to talk about something

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that I've never talked about before. It's a part of

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my life that I don't think I've ever even mentioned,

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which may surprise you that i'd done over one thousand,

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three hundred recordings. And how could I have not mentioned?

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How can I be at least one thing that I've

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not mentioned because I've not exactly had an interest in life?

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So but there is one thing. And I was thinking

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about this earlier when I was on a toilet. I

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don't know what I thought about it then, but there's

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selfie that I wanted to be. So I've got this

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is what the subject is going to be then, but

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I'll be talking about myself. But the subject is entred

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and entrepreneurship. That's the subject. That's the boring subject for

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today's Monday's boring object. So entrepreneurship or entrepreneurs Right from

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an early, quite an early age, I wanted to be

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successful in some kind of business. Clearly it never happened,

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but I kind of I don't know what it was.

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Maybe it was the idea of working for myself. I

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saw my dad, he was self employed, so he had

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a successful business. And I used to like watching del

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Boy on Only Fools and Horses, the duck in and

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dive in and after daily ducking and diving. And I

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wasn't so big on the con aspect of that, you know,

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selling people cars that didn't have any breaks. That wasn't,

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you know, not really my style, but it made for

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a comedy show. So when I was in my I

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think my first delve into any kind of entrepreneurship, money

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making outside of working for someone else, was probably when

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I was about thirteen, so yeah, I'm just trying to

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delve back to see probably thirteen. Yeah, so one of

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the things. So I started working, I think when I

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was twelve part time. I think twelve was the that

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was the minimum age to do a paper round. I

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think might have been eleven, but I think it was twelve,

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I think. And so hmm, I get a little bit

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modeled up because I had so many different paper rounds.

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I had a morning paper round, I hadn't eaten lot

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at different times. I had an evening paper round. I

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had a monthly delivering leaflets, and there was a fortnightly

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delivering these pamphlet things. I also worked in the bakery

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well as well as I also worked in the washing

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dishes in this restaurant, and then I worked in a

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bakery or a bakehouse they called it. So I started

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off working in the evenings just washing up, which is

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a cool job. Actually it was all right. So that

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was very busy, but it was okay. And I've worked

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during the day sometimes on a Saturday, and I think

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it was something like seventy five pence an hour which

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may not seem a lot, but when I was twenty

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one or twenty two, literally ten years later, I still

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was only getting about two pounds an hour, you know,

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so it was pretty you know, I was probably better

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off then than what I was when I left school

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so financially on me, but then I didn't have to

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pay rent or buy food, so I guess it was

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it was a little bit different. So forgetting the jobs

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I had, there was I don't know what it was,

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but I started to think, hmm, what can I do

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to earn some money. I don't know why I wanted

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to earn money, because I knew I could do a

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paper around and I could I could get money. It

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wasn't a lot, but it was still you know, it

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was still okay. And I had multiple jobs going at

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the same time at times. Why I don't know why,

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but yeah, I just this this feeling, this need two

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do something too, I don't know, make something of myself

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kind of to be successful. It never happened, but you know,

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I kind of really was. I was going for it.

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So I'm not sure which order it happened. But I'll

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focus on what I did at school first, and then

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I'll talk about what I did outside of school when

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I was still at school, but what I did on

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the outside, and then I'll move into what I did

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once I left school. So this is how I worked

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this out in my brain. Okay, I categorized things, so

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I've broken it up into periods. So it's the period

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before I left school, those couple of years, three years

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or whatever before I left school. And then there's a

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period when I was working at a chip shop and

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when I left the chip shop. So that's a little

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period on its own. Can you hear that plane. Then

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there's another period, you know, So I broken out into periods.

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So the period before leaving school is then broken up

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into different periods. There's the period, it's the things I

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did at school and the things I did outside of school.

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And then I break it in again into those things

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that at school, those things that I was getting money for,

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and those things that I was owed money for. So

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at school, there was a few trends. One thing I

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realized is people kept running out of pens. So I

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bought a bunch of pens and I would sell them

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and I made a profit, but it was just it

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was never going to buy me my new jet you know,

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so that was a little bit boring. I was walking around.

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I could walk to school with a whole satchel full

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of pens and come home and made like maybe fifty

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pence profit. It really wasn't worth it. And then but

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unfortunately the pens were rubbish as well, so that didn't

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really last. There was a reason they were so cheap.

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And then there was another trend. I mean, pens weren't

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a trend, but there was a couple of trends that

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I kind of jumped on. One was gob stoppers. Gob

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Stoppers became really, really, really popular. And if you don't

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know what a gobstopper is, basically it just it's called

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a gob stopper because you can't talk when it's in

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your mouth. It's so big, and it's like a like

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a big ball. Actually, when you suck the ball for

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long enough, it it's got like maybe different tastes and stuff,

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and probably a little bit like what's his name, Willy Wonka?

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That wasn't they had a gob stopper, didn't they? That

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was different flavors of dinner and stuff. Anyway, in the end,

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in the middle of right in the middle of there'd

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be like chewing them, but it would take ages to

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get through it, and the teachers would confiscate it. It'd

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make you spit it out if you had one in

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your mouth and they saw it, which made it more

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attractive to the pupils. You know. It was like a

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challenge to be able to get away with spending the

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whole lesson forty five minutes with that, you know, something

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in your mouth. But what happened is people, I think,

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what happened to you? Hear that? Yeah that, I don't

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think you hear that in the garden. I distracted me,

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all right. So what it was is I noticed that

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when when one kid had something, all the other kids

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seem to want it, mainly the boys, to be fair,

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But if one had it, others wanted it, but they

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couldn't have it because you know, he didn't sell god stoppers.

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The teacher didn't have a supply to sell to us.

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I probably would have gone against education standards, possibly, But

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then I thought, hmmm, because I saw I had a

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friend who wanted who had one, and I said, can

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I have one? He said yeah, and he said it'd

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be a pound, and I think they cost like forty

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pence fifty pence to buy, maybe twenty pence to buy,

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you know, so I was like okay, and I thought, hmmm,

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So what I did is I bought about ten of

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these and the sales technique was just to basically walk

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around sucking or be in a classroom break tom is

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good because people want stuff and it's easier to you know,

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exchange money and stuff during a break rather than at

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class time. So I made a few quid doing that.

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Another friend of mine was doing the same thing as well. Actually,

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so it wasn't I don't think it was really my

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It wasn't really my invention really. And then another thing

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happened where there was this trend where it was chucking

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coins at a wall. So let's say two people would

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chuck pound coins or fifty pounds pieces against the wall

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and whichever one got closest to the wall would win

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the other person's money. That's the simplest way to explain it.

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Sometimes it yeah, it's exposed. It's a it's a similar

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to bowls, you know, where you've got to get the

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closest to the ball, to the white ball. You've got

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to get your bowls, so you kind of knock the

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other the other person's ball out the way, so it's

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a little bit like that, so you might bounce off

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the wall, but not the other person's coined further away

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from the wall. And people were losing what it nearly

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got every time someone lost, but then if like go

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double or nothing, double or nothing. And so I saw

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that people were getting they wanted to get their money back.

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And this is something that was happening every single break time, lunchtime,

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break two breaks and lunch time every day for quite

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a while. I think it got banned in the end. Yeah. Yeah,

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that and the Ouiji bought they got banned, and the

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gangs they've banned. The gangs as well. Went through a

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little phase of having gangs, the Wanderers, the Warriors, the Wongs,

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just because of the Wanderers movie. And I start my

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own gang called the Silver Eagles because no one wanted

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me to be in their gang. So I started my

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own gang. But I had I had the It was

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kind of like a misfits gang. And yeah, I went

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a bit wrong. So everything got banned because I had

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people in my gang that were actually acting like a gang.

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They didn't I don't think they realized it was just

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for fun. Yeah, so it's so. Then what I did

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is I thought people are losing their minds because they

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haven't got enough money to try and win back. So

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I started lending money because I had I had a

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couple of part time jobs, so I had I always

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had some cash. So I started taking like ten twenty

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pounds to scool with me. That's probably my life savings,

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to be fair. But and I'd have always like one

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pound coins. And I started to lend people money. And

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I had a little book and I kept track of

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everything I had interest added on. I don't remember what

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the interest was. It's a long time ago, and I

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didn't realize how hard it is to do to be

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a money lender. Really, it's not an easy job. And

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I always thought, you know, you see these I mean,

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it's many movies and TV shows and that I've seen,

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you know how money lenders operate in later years, you know,

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sort of like how they can be quite quite naughty,

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you know, when it comes to getting their money back.

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But after doing it for a little while, I realized

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that people will make they will take the whatever you

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want to call it, as much as they can. They

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will avoid paying it sometimes outright, they like say nope,

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you're not getting it back, and it leaves. You know,

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once one person does that, then the whole thing's gone.

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Now this happened to me. Someone decided they weren't going

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to pay me back. So I collected and I got

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a friend to come and he collected it for me.

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And I disliked the whole situation so much. It wasn't

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like awful, but it was very much. Yeah, I stopped

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it before it got our hand. And then that's when

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I realized that life is not for me. You know,

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a little bit of a little taste of that. It's

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like no, over like two pound fifty, you know what

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I mean. It's like, no, it's really silly. Because my

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friend was my friend was saying, I'll give them money.

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You need to own the money. I was in the

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toilet in at school and this kid was saying that

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you ain't getting nothing, and he did end the pain.

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But it just wasn't wasn't It just wasn't for me.

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It wasn't for hear me, even my friend, because he's like, no,

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this isn't really what I want to be doing. So

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I think that's a good thing that it taught me

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that that sort of lifestyle was not for me. I'm

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a bit I guess it's the word vanilla, would be

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a little bit, a little bit peaceful. I think just

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had a bit of an interruption. Then some one knocked

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on No, they didn' knock on the door. They knocked

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on the phone. They rang on the door. They rang

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me up. That's it, oh key, When I was I

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talking about? What was I talking about? When earlier? But

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what was it? It was something hmm, pens, gobs, stoppers,

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coins against the wall, money lending. I didn't go really

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to plan change of mind with that stuff, and I

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think that was the end of my entrepreneurial career at school.

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That was it for school thing. Outside of school, I

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had three different businesses that I started. And by businesses,

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I mean I put postcards in the local shop window.

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That's what I mean by businesses. With my telephone number,

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my home telephone number. The first one. There was three

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different ones. There was one for car cleaning, there was

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one for wait a minute, what was it car cleaning?

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Dog walking? And there was another one for looking after kids, babysitting. Now,

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I used to babysit my little brother, so I kind

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of knew my way around being a babysitter. So I thought, oh,

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maybe I can do this, maybe make some money out

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of it, because I was getting nothing for looking after

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my little brother all through the summer and in the

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evenings and like between school to say, evenings between school

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and like six o'clock. I was looking after him, and yeah,

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I just it was quite easy, well, yeah, generally, so

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I thought maybe I could make some money out that

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I didn't get any I might have even put an

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advert in the local paper as well. I didn't do

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any leaflets. I didn't make any leaflets at this point.

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I don't think I did. Maybe I did, but I

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think it was mainly just and if I remember rightly,

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it was just one news agents that I put my

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postcard in the window. Maybe I did it in two.

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I'm trying to think of the different places in town.

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There was definitely one place where I used to have

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my paper around anywhere else in town where was there

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another news agents? There was one down the seafront, and

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there was one on the way to my AND's house

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where I used to live when I was eight.

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Mm hmmm mmm.

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That's the only ones I can remember as far as

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the news agents go in that town. There probably was others,

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but not like within where I would go, Oh, no,

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that was there a news agent's. Yeah, there was a

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news agent's, of course there was, which was not near

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where I was talking about it. It was near where

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my dad moved to and I lived with him for

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a little while. It was opposite the co op, and

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it was It was kind of weird because it was

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it was next to a laundrette, and then next the

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laundrette was a hairdressers, and oppositely that was the co op.

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So it was like there was three shops, well the

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laundrette to three buildings with three commercial businesses. So if

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you was standing outside the co op that I worked in,

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looked across the road on the left hand side, was

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was it what gate road? BlimE me, I don't know

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if that's that's come into our mind. It might be

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the road. So there's this newsagent's quite a spacey shop actually,

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and then there was the laundret, and then there was

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on the right hand side there was the women's I

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think it was like a hairdresser's because in the end days,

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you know, it's a little while ago, hares would quite

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often just be for females. Barbers would be for men,

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but then some hairdressers would have different sections, one for men,

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one for women.

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Not.

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It wasn't so much segregation. It's just unless it was

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because I went to a hairdressers that had a men's

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section and there was a women's section. Yeah, for some reason,

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I got to get Yeah, I had my haircut and

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a women's section once because I had a perm. I know,

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it's a half perm. I was still at school, so

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I had a half perm because because I've got no idea,

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because I was fifteen, I guess fourteen fifteen seemed like

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a good idea. It was weird really because I also

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dyed my hair dark brown. They might think, what's weird

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about dyn your hair dark brown and having a half perm.

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This are two different, separate, different, separate occasions. Well, firstly,

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my hair is already dark brown, so that was a

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bit pointless. And once my hair got past a certain length,

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it went curly. Anyway, I got naturally curly hair. I

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just I guess it has to get to a certain

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length before it goes curly curly. I'm talking about what

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when I used to have a full sexy head of hair. Yeah,

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the same hairdresses that I got my I think I

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did the coloring. I colored my hair from a box,

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you know, you know, from the soup. I don't know

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hair dye, I guess, so I did that myself, made

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a mess of it. I had a big Yeah. It

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was a bit weird out school that day, because it does.

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It doesn't just dye your hair. If you leave it,

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it dyees your skin temporarily at least, And so I

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was going to I was, honestly, I was like, the

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teacher said, you can't come to school with blackface. I'm not,

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you know, because in that in that day, it wasn't

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it was okay to do that, but it was crowned

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upon even then. But I said, I'm not. I wouldn't

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do that stuff. It's so we'll take it off what

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you've got makeup on, so it's not it's dye. I've

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literally it dripped down my face. I was told to

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sit with it for an hour or whatever to let

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it soak in. So I thought I'd do it for

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two hours because it would definitely be done, and then

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rinse it off and then but it didn't say anything

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about my face, And the teacher said, were you not

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aware that it was all down in your face. I said, yeah,

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but I didn't I was focusing on my hair. He said,

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don't you ever wash your face? I said this, yeah,

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I have done. It is what do you mean you

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have done? Do you not wash your face every day?

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And I said where you asked I don't ask you

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personal questions. I don't ask you whether or not you flush.

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What do you mean whether or not I flush? I said,

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I don't ask you if you flush a toilet when

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you've done a pooh. I said, well, everyone does, But

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I said so, I don't know if I have done

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if you do. He said that you're just saying this, Jason,

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to distract the listeners from the fact that you said

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blackface earlier. I said, no, it's a term that people use.

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It's not a term I use, but it's a term

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that's used for someone that like puts a ground paint

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on their face, and it's not acceptable anymore. It was

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in the eighties. He said, we're in the eighties. I said,

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oh no, but just getting confusing. You're talking about my

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listeners in thirty forty years time. But we're now in

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nineteen eighty four and things are different now. He said, yeah,

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I know, and I said, but that's not what I

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was doing.

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It.

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Literally, it's stained my face. He said, are you sure

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so you can see it? Try wiping it off. He

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said no, I don't want to touch it. I said,

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that isad because of the health and guidelines and sharp protection.

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He said, no, you just look dirty. You just smell bad,

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and I don't want to I don't you look like

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you might have fleas. I said, well, you can't say

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that to me. You're a teacher and he said, I'm

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not a teacher. I said, what do you mean you're

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a teacher. You're here at the oh he said, I'm

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the janitor. Why would the teacher be cleaning the toilets?

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I said, oh, I did wonder about that, which brings

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me to the next question. Why are you asking me

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if I flush? You literally see me flush every day

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when you see me. Why are you hanging around the

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toilets anyway? And I said, well, that's what I was

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thinking about you now I know you're a cleaner. He said,

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what's your excuse? I said, I don't have one, And

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I said to him, be honest with me, mister janitor,

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do you feel managed to move away from you know

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what I said earlier, And he said, no, I'm not

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sure if it Maybe everyone's forgotten. I said, I don't know,

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because it wasn't used in a derogatory word way. It

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was literally just used inner to someone thinking I was

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doing that and I wasn't doing that. I said, yeah,

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but it's the term. It's just not a nice term.

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I said, but I wasn't using that term. I don't

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use that term. But that's what the newspapers use. Well,

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that's what the news uses when a celebrity comes out

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and does something like that. I mean, you remember Ted

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Danson in the early nineties when he was dating Whoopi Goldberg.

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He painted He went to a fancy dress party and

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painted his face a different color and he got into

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a lot of a lot of trouble. Wow. The jella said,

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how many people listening to this podcast do you think

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are going to actually remember that Whoopy Goldberg and Ted

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Danson used to date. That's a blast from the past.

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How do you remember things like that? Well, more importantly,

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why do you remember things like that? I said, it's

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always handy to get me out of trouble. I can

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use it as an example because of someone like Ted Danson,

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who was he was a legend. He is a legend,

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star of cheers, being in loads of movies, loads of

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TV shows. He is a legend, and he's still a

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legend now and he still makes good TV shows now,

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even though he's in his nineties or whatever. And at

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the time, he was dating Whoopee Goldberg, who was also

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arguably one of the most famous actresses in Hollywood at

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that time, huge star, and she didn't obviously didn't care

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that he was putting makeup on. He said, ah, the janet.

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He said, what do you think about would be Goldberg now?

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Then I said, what do you mean? Well, she seems

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to come up with quite a lot of criticism ever

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since doing that view show. We actually have a TV

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show based on that in the UK called Angry Women,

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Not Angry Women, Moaning, Not Moaning Women, Wicked Women. I

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told you it's got a name. It's been shut down anyway,

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speak they've took it off air. Moaning Not Moaning was.

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I used to watch It was quite good. There's a

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few presenters on there that I really liked. Women Something Women,

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and it was kind of a copy of the view.

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I think the view was first, but it might not

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have been. But anyway that the Janet was say, or

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what do you think about Whoopi Goldberg?

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Now?

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I said, well, so, what you don't realize is I

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was a fan of Woodby Goldberg before she was famous.

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He said, no, you wasn't You weren't a fan of it?

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I said, yes, I was. See Whoopi Goldberg did comedy

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before she was an actress, and she had a hit

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stage show on Broadway which was one of the best

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shows I've ever seen. I wouldn't I say, I see it.

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I had it on a video and I also had

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it on album as well. I still can't remember what

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it was called. But it was phenomenal. It was funny,

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it was insightful, intelligent, She did different characters as one

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as a one woman show, brilliant, and I think she

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won Bafters or whatever. She wre loads of awards for it,

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and that's what That's what got her into, I guess,

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into being on TV and being in movies because I

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was such a big stand up fan, and I collected

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albums and comedy. I did start doing an again, don't I.

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I did start collecting, having a comedy collection. I like

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collecting things. I like looking at them. So if I

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had a row of comedy DVDs all along the wall,

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I'd look at them and think, oh, look at them.

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They're all comedy DVDs. I collected them. I spent ten

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years collecting them. And it'd have to be specific and

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don't have to be all stand up, and it'd be

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in groups, So maybe i'd have Maybe that's why I

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categorize things memories in groups, because it's a very librarian

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kind of way to do things, which means maybe I

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should have been a librarian. That didn't you know. I

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used to work in this children's charity. And this is

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when I was a counselor at the charity as well,

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and I couldn't work there anymore because of the It

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was just the working environment was not very nice. But

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I still stayed as a counselor. Part of my job

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when I was there for eight months I was there

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was to do admin pretty much, just to be on

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the reception. That was my job. There's more to it,

471
00:38:48.840 --> 00:38:53.039
I'll tell you one day. But it wasn't good. It

472
00:38:53.079 --> 00:38:56.159
was not good. But one of my roles was to

473
00:38:57.400 --> 00:39:05.599
alphab to organize is the files by alphabetic or order. Okay,

474
00:39:06.239 --> 00:39:11.000
So I left in two thousand and eleven August. I

475
00:39:11.039 --> 00:39:17.159
went back probably about twenty sixteen, maybe two thousand seventeen,

476
00:39:18.840 --> 00:39:22.000
maybe twenty eighteen, it was around that time. It was

477
00:39:22.119 --> 00:39:28.039
quite a few years later, looking at maybe doing some

478
00:39:28.239 --> 00:39:31.039
voluntary work there, because I did volunteer work before, and

479
00:39:31.079 --> 00:39:34.159
I liked being a voluntary volunteer. Just didn't like working

480
00:39:34.239 --> 00:39:40.440
for them, And because if you volunteer, people can't. They

481
00:39:40.519 --> 00:39:43.880
might try it, but they can't be route here, you know,

482
00:39:43.960 --> 00:39:47.800
they can't. They dislike they have to. I say, they

483
00:39:47.840 --> 00:39:56.599
have to. But generally volunteers hold all the cards really,

484
00:39:59.400 --> 00:40:06.159
you know, so a manager, supervisor, they got no choice

485
00:40:06.159 --> 00:40:13.719
but to really be gentle and respectful. I'm not saying

486
00:40:13.719 --> 00:40:16.920
that's always the case, but you know, in my experience

487
00:40:17.000 --> 00:40:20.199
that seemed to be the case. And that's what it

488
00:40:20.239 --> 00:40:22.599
was when I was as a volunteer there. Soon as

489
00:40:22.599 --> 00:40:27.719
I started working there, Wow, I was treated very differently.

490
00:40:29.239 --> 00:40:34.920
It was dark opposite. It's amazing considering it as a

491
00:40:35.000 --> 00:40:40.880
charity for children. So anyway, I thought, maybe I'll go

492
00:40:40.880 --> 00:40:44.800
and volunteer again. I was looking for some vo volunteer places,

493
00:40:46.599 --> 00:40:52.280
get me out, you know, just to do something and

494
00:40:53.599 --> 00:40:56.000
so I go into this building just out of interest,

495
00:40:56.119 --> 00:41:01.880
like half hoping that the manager would have gone moved on,

496
00:41:03.519 --> 00:41:06.239
got a different job, you know, hopefully she wasn't there anymore.

497
00:41:06.480 --> 00:41:10.639
But she was there, unfortunately, but it was worth a try.

498
00:41:11.000 --> 00:41:15.280
So I went in there. I'm talking to a man

499
00:41:15.320 --> 00:41:18.079
I've never met before. He was in charge of the volunteers,

500
00:41:18.960 --> 00:41:22.920
so he was saying, or we might have some volunteer work.

501
00:41:26.199 --> 00:41:29.159
And then in through the door comes not the manager,

502
00:41:29.360 --> 00:41:34.199
she did turn up later on, but a lady that

503
00:41:34.360 --> 00:41:36.800
I used to work with that was in the counseling office.

504
00:41:37.440 --> 00:41:41.639
I used to go really well with her. She came in.

505
00:41:42.679 --> 00:41:45.119
She was the one that would give me, tell me

506
00:41:45.159 --> 00:41:50.360
what I needed to do with the client files and

507
00:41:50.400 --> 00:41:52.920
the alphabetical stuff, you know, where to put it and stuff.

508
00:41:53.559 --> 00:41:56.440
She came in telling me that I had completely ruined

509
00:41:56.480 --> 00:42:02.840
everything and put everything into the files in wrong alphabet unalphabetically,

510
00:42:05.159 --> 00:42:09.639
and all it was is by surname, so you know,

511
00:42:09.719 --> 00:42:13.440
it's it's like And I said, what are you talking

512
00:42:13.480 --> 00:42:15.119
about it? She said, yeah, yeah, he just messed it

513
00:42:15.159 --> 00:42:18.039
all up. She'd made it a complete nightmare. Because every

514
00:42:18.119 --> 00:42:21.480
seven years, I think it was, they had to go

515
00:42:21.559 --> 00:42:23.440
through all the files and get rid of anything that

516
00:42:23.519 --> 00:42:27.719
was over seven years old. So they were going they

517
00:42:27.719 --> 00:42:32.119
were now in that process again, having and I was

518
00:42:32.159 --> 00:42:35.760
going through that process when I was working there, so

519
00:42:35.840 --> 00:42:38.000
it was the next turn to do that. And she

520
00:42:38.119 --> 00:42:42.119
was saying, you've made such a mess. Everything's in the

521
00:42:42.159 --> 00:42:48.639
wrong all day in under wrong alphabet and stuff. I said, well,

522
00:42:48.679 --> 00:42:52.639
first of all, hi, how are you? Yeah? Maybe say

523
00:42:52.639 --> 00:43:00.360
hello first? So they just moaning at me desperate women,

524
00:43:00.599 --> 00:43:05.280
wicked women. What was it called? I can't remember? And

525
00:43:05.320 --> 00:43:08.800
I said, are you sure that it was me and

526
00:43:08.840 --> 00:43:14.280
not one of the many, many, many people that have

527
00:43:14.360 --> 00:43:19.519
come and gone in the last seven years? Me? Come on,

528
00:43:20.599 --> 00:43:25.199
how can you bear it in mind that the files

529
00:43:25.239 --> 00:43:30.519
at the time, the seven years worth of files would

530
00:43:30.519 --> 00:43:36.199
have been put in there? Okay, how can But I'm

531
00:43:36.199 --> 00:43:38.920
the one to blame for the whole thing. It's like wow,

532
00:43:40.559 --> 00:43:46.400
And I was amazed. It's like really, And the one

533
00:43:46.440 --> 00:43:51.280
thing I can do, I can alphab better to lize

534
00:43:52.199 --> 00:43:58.840
this that makes sense. I know I might have to

535
00:43:59.760 --> 00:44:01.800
do it in my head or do all my fingers

536
00:44:01.840 --> 00:44:04.199
to figure out what comes before, but I know A

537
00:44:04.400 --> 00:44:08.119
comes first. I know the z's at the end. Somewhere

538
00:44:09.960 --> 00:44:14.119
and M and then oh, they're kind of in the

539
00:44:14.119 --> 00:44:18.639
middle ish bqs. Do you know I might have to

540
00:44:18.679 --> 00:44:22.599
work it out, but I know that the F is

541
00:44:22.639 --> 00:44:29.559
after B Just things like that. You know, I don't

542
00:44:29.599 --> 00:44:31.440
need a chart on the wall for me to look

543
00:44:31.480 --> 00:44:34.000
at it, but I know the alphabet. I can't do

544
00:44:34.039 --> 00:44:37.639
it backwards. There's a lot of things I can't do backwards.

545
00:44:39.280 --> 00:44:42.599
I can't do a wee way backwards. You know, why

546
00:44:42.639 --> 00:44:45.159
would I what would do? When I can walk backwards?

547
00:44:45.159 --> 00:44:50.480
But I will bang into things? Did you know? I

548
00:44:50.519 --> 00:44:53.920
don't ever tell you The only time I ever ever

549
00:44:53.960 --> 00:44:58.960
had a black eye in my whole life was when

550
00:44:58.960 --> 00:45:06.559
I was walking home from school this kid. So I'm

551
00:45:06.639 --> 00:45:11.920
like shouting at this kid and he's looking at me,

552
00:45:13.599 --> 00:45:17.719
and he bangs into a lamp post because he's distracted

553
00:45:17.760 --> 00:45:20.280
by me. And I'm laughing my head off and I

554
00:45:20.280 --> 00:45:24.440
turn around and I bang into a lamp post. Now,

555
00:45:24.760 --> 00:45:28.599
back in them days, the lamp posts were concrete. They

556
00:45:28.639 --> 00:45:30.840
weren't like metal like that are now not saying that

557
00:45:31.480 --> 00:45:36.159
banging into a metal lamp post wouldn't be problematic, But

558
00:45:37.079 --> 00:45:43.480
these were solid concrete lamposts, and my eye just so

559
00:45:47.840 --> 00:45:53.119
videy's looking at me. Do you like that sound? I

560
00:45:53.199 --> 00:45:57.880
was so proud of my black eye, my shiner. Really

561
00:45:58.239 --> 00:46:01.280
really loved it. I don't know why it's called a shiner,

562
00:46:02.239 --> 00:46:06.719
but I loved it. It's and it was like, really,

563
00:46:06.719 --> 00:46:17.360
my whole eyebrow is like blue. So proud, and I

564
00:46:17.559 --> 00:46:20.199
was like walking around like I've just been in a

565
00:46:20.199 --> 00:46:23.280
big fight, and I was a big man. I was

566
00:46:23.320 --> 00:46:27.760
probably about twelve, thirteen or whatever at the time. It's

567
00:46:27.800 --> 00:46:31.400
like yeah, But unfortunately my friend was just going around

568
00:46:31.440 --> 00:46:36.039
telling everyone, Yeah, he walked into a lamp post. He'd

569
00:46:36.039 --> 00:46:38.239
already told everyone before I got to school the next day.

570
00:46:38.960 --> 00:46:45.719
So I'm walking around like a big I am and

571
00:46:45.800 --> 00:46:52.039
everyone already knew. So people was saying, what happened to you?

572
00:46:52.280 --> 00:46:54.000
Are you okay? I said, oh, you should see the

573
00:46:54.039 --> 00:46:59.039
other person. And I said that a few times. Eventually

574
00:46:59.079 --> 00:47:02.679
someone said, what the post? Lamp post looked fine this morning,

575
00:47:03.639 --> 00:47:08.880
still standing up? Ah, how do you know? Dean told

576
00:47:08.920 --> 00:47:14.320
everyone really said yeah, we didn't tell everyone, but everyone

577
00:47:14.320 --> 00:47:18.480
then just spread it around because he said that you're

578
00:47:18.480 --> 00:47:21.239
going to brag about being in a fight and how

579
00:47:21.280 --> 00:47:27.440
you beat up ten people, and you know why, you've

580
00:47:27.440 --> 00:47:32.920
got a black eye because one of them got lucky.

581
00:47:33.440 --> 00:47:35.559
I said, Okay, I walked into a lamp post. What's

582
00:47:35.599 --> 00:47:44.000
wrong with that? It's funny, But this is not huge

583
00:47:44.000 --> 00:47:51.800
to glamorous, is it. Yeah, that's the only time I

584
00:47:51.960 --> 00:47:54.760
never I've been bruised. I've had bruises and stuff, but

585
00:47:54.800 --> 00:48:00.360
I've never actually had a proper, full, proper shiner time

586
00:48:00.480 --> 00:48:05.840
my life. I'd got one of them. So yeah, I

587
00:48:05.880 --> 00:48:11.960
had my hair dark brown half a perm. I never

588
00:48:11.960 --> 00:48:16.920
really understood what half a perm was, but I was intrigued,

589
00:48:18.800 --> 00:48:21.599
very intrigued. I didn't know if it was going to

590
00:48:21.760 --> 00:48:23.719
half my hair is gonna be permed in our half

591
00:48:23.760 --> 00:48:30.119
would just be left. See. I didn't realize when I

592
00:48:30.280 --> 00:48:35.519
was between the ages of twenty and twenty four. Summer

593
00:48:35.559 --> 00:48:41.480
twenty nineteen ninety four, I grew my hair long. So

594
00:48:41.559 --> 00:48:44.480
I had long hair all the way down to my

595
00:48:44.760 --> 00:48:49.880
middle of my back for years. But because my hair

596
00:48:49.920 --> 00:48:57.000
is so curly, it was almost impossible to manage. I'd

597
00:48:57.079 --> 00:49:01.320
have it in a ponytail most of the time. I

598
00:49:01.360 --> 00:49:05.280
didn't know that it was possible to straighten hair. I

599
00:49:05.280 --> 00:49:08.360
could have strained it, it could have been lovely. I

600
00:49:08.360 --> 00:49:10.679
could have still well. I wouldn't still have it, because

601
00:49:11.679 --> 00:49:16.320
I imagine my hair would have fallen out much quicker

602
00:49:16.519 --> 00:49:19.480
if I had kept the ponytail, because it really pulls

603
00:49:19.480 --> 00:49:23.880
on the roots then it So I did think about

604
00:49:23.920 --> 00:49:26.800
growing my hair long, just the for a laugh, really,

605
00:49:27.760 --> 00:49:31.280
just to see what it would look like now being

606
00:49:33.480 --> 00:49:47.800
a bit mildly slightly marginally bald, how it would work out.

607
00:49:49.360 --> 00:49:51.599
But I just never got around to it because for

608
00:49:51.639 --> 00:49:54.559
some reason, the longer my hair gets, the border I look,

609
00:49:55.760 --> 00:50:00.280
which is weird because the size get very curly. So

610
00:50:00.320 --> 00:50:04.519
what very thick curly hair at the back, at the sides,

611
00:50:06.920 --> 00:50:13.239
not so much at the front. There's there's it's kind

612
00:50:13.280 --> 00:50:19.159
of like looking down on a forest, you know, when

613
00:50:19.199 --> 00:50:21.920
you look down the forest and it's like really thick forest.

614
00:50:22.000 --> 00:50:26.599
Then you get an opening and on the on one

615
00:50:26.679 --> 00:50:32.119
side there's the like bits of opening that's like the

616
00:50:32.159 --> 00:50:34.800
front of my hair, and on the crown on my

617
00:50:34.840 --> 00:50:39.760
head it's like a lake's that's just like an opening completely.

618
00:50:40.800 --> 00:50:42.519
That's that's kind of what my head, the top of

619
00:50:42.519 --> 00:50:48.480
my head looks like. Yeah, I don't know if that's

620
00:50:48.519 --> 00:50:57.920
a good visual. I did have my hair bleached in

621
00:50:59.800 --> 00:51:08.800
nineteen eighty nineteen eighty eight. I wanted to be like Bross.

622
00:51:09.800 --> 00:51:12.960
So my head bleached. Both my ears pierced. I got

623
00:51:12.960 --> 00:51:15.920
a lot of attention. I wanted a lot of attention,

624
00:51:16.079 --> 00:51:23.039
and I was getting it, but not for women, and

625
00:51:23.079 --> 00:51:26.519
I couldn't understand it. I was with my friend and

626
00:51:26.559 --> 00:51:30.199
we were going into like I said, all these men

627
00:51:30.719 --> 00:51:34.239
are chatting me up? What was going on? And turned

628
00:51:34.239 --> 00:51:36.440
out we was in a gay bar. Didn't know. I

629
00:51:36.519 --> 00:51:41.039
didn't know there was a gay bar in town. The

630
00:51:41.119 --> 00:51:43.280
reason I liked it in there because it was friendly

631
00:51:44.039 --> 00:51:46.039
and it wasn't like a gay nightclub. It was just

632
00:51:46.079 --> 00:51:49.199
a bar, but it was run by a gay bloke

633
00:51:49.679 --> 00:51:56.239
and the atmosphere in there was really nice, really nice.

634
00:51:56.440 --> 00:52:01.199
There was no arguments, no, it was just really nice.

635
00:52:01.199 --> 00:52:04.360
So I go in there because some people I knew

636
00:52:04.360 --> 00:52:06.679
went in there and we just have a chat and

637
00:52:06.800 --> 00:52:10.519
it was bright and it was lovely. I didn't know

638
00:52:10.559 --> 00:52:13.119
it was a gay club or a gay bar rather

639
00:52:13.960 --> 00:52:18.800
because back then it wasn't official in a sense. It

640
00:52:18.880 --> 00:52:22.400
wasn't like an official gay bar. It was just a

641
00:52:22.480 --> 00:52:28.400
bar run for I guess, for his people that he knew,

642
00:52:28.440 --> 00:52:33.599
and for people to feel comfortable going there. And that's

643
00:52:33.639 --> 00:52:35.039
one of the things about. I didn't know I was

644
00:52:35.039 --> 00:52:38.440
going to talk about gay bars, but I've been lots

645
00:52:38.440 --> 00:52:40.760
of gay nightclubs over the years when I was younger.

646
00:52:43.000 --> 00:52:46.239
The one thing, the two things I noticed, one thing

647
00:52:46.440 --> 00:52:51.639
I liked, the one thing I didn't like. I liked

648
00:52:51.800 --> 00:52:59.039
the atmosphere, such a good atmosphere. Never ever seen trouble

649
00:52:59.480 --> 00:53:02.079
in a game, aar or gay club. Not saying that

650
00:53:02.119 --> 00:53:06.880
it never happened, but I never saw it. And you

651
00:53:06.920 --> 00:53:11.199
know in London, you go anywhere, you know what I mean,

652
00:53:11.239 --> 00:53:15.639
there's there's usually something happens during the night. Nothing nothing

653
00:53:15.679 --> 00:53:20.039
happened ever when I was out, and they're probably all

654
00:53:20.039 --> 00:53:26.239
too busy checking me out. And then the thing I

655
00:53:26.280 --> 00:53:30.000
didn't wasn't so impressed with. And I don't know why

656
00:53:30.039 --> 00:53:33.559
this is. And I've been in quite a few nightclubs

657
00:53:33.639 --> 00:53:40.280
during that period, every single gay club or gay nightclub

658
00:53:40.360 --> 00:53:42.800
rather I went to. There's no lights in the toilets.

659
00:53:43.599 --> 00:53:48.320
I couldn't figure it out. Like, how am I supposed

660
00:53:48.360 --> 00:53:50.039
to know where? I remember saying, how I'm supposed to

661
00:53:50.039 --> 00:53:54.119
know where everything is? And you just follow the follow,

662
00:53:54.159 --> 00:53:57.920
the follow the sounds, follow the noises. So does anyone

663
00:53:57.960 --> 00:53:59.199
know where the cubicle is.

664
00:53:59.239 --> 00:54:06.519
Like, so here, okay, I lead you there like no,

665
00:54:06.599 --> 00:54:10.519
it's okay, now I don't.

666
00:54:10.280 --> 00:54:13.880
Need you to hold my hat. Oh you got lovely hands. Okay,

667
00:54:15.880 --> 00:54:19.239
but it's yeah, I remember, yeah, I remember got a

668
00:54:19.280 --> 00:54:24.440
girlfriend from a game I once it was brilliant because

669
00:54:24.480 --> 00:54:27.039
it's that old you can't you can't pick up women

670
00:54:27.039 --> 00:54:33.079
in a gay bar. It's actually I think women were

671
00:54:33.079 --> 00:54:35.159
there the same reason I was there, because it was

672
00:54:35.199 --> 00:54:39.719
a nice atmosphere. It was safe, unthreatening, it was nice,

673
00:54:40.800 --> 00:54:43.840
just a lovely place. So I used to meet women, well,

674
00:54:43.960 --> 00:54:49.719
particularly met one particular female, and I'm sure she was

675
00:54:49.760 --> 00:54:52.480
there for exactly the same reason. And we got on

676
00:54:52.599 --> 00:54:55.679
and we ended up dating, and we had a lot

677
00:54:55.719 --> 00:55:03.679
in common, you know, just chilled out, didn't really want

678
00:55:03.719 --> 00:55:07.519
all that the hassle. You know, it's quite nice to

679
00:55:07.679 --> 00:55:11.400
just she didn't want to be somewhere where she's going

680
00:55:11.440 --> 00:55:15.599
to be hit on all the time, and I quite

681
00:55:15.679 --> 00:55:17.360
like being somewhere where I was being hit on all

682
00:55:17.360 --> 00:55:21.519
the time, you know. And we ended up going out,

683
00:55:21.639 --> 00:55:32.559
and yeah, I remember she was it. We couldn't go out.

684
00:55:32.960 --> 00:55:37.360
We kind of we had the first night together on

685
00:55:37.480 --> 00:55:40.599
that night, but we did arrange to meetach other the

686
00:55:40.639 --> 00:55:43.840
next day and she found me out and said, oh,

687
00:55:44.679 --> 00:55:48.639
she couldn't meet me until later on in the day

688
00:55:48.679 --> 00:55:53.000
because she had to get a prostate exam. So I thought, okay,

689
00:55:53.039 --> 00:55:56.280
well we'll meet up later on. And it was good.

690
00:55:56.679 --> 00:56:00.000
It was a nice romantic time. Yeah.

691
00:56:00.039 --> 00:56:00.239
Yeah.

692
00:56:02.119 --> 00:56:13.320
So one other things I My next delve into entrepreneurship

693
00:56:13.639 --> 00:56:21.360
was probably when I was at the chip shop because

694
00:56:21.440 --> 00:56:24.840
oh yeah, I did get a couple of vocals for

695
00:56:25.159 --> 00:56:35.079
the child minding service or babysitting service, and they all

696
00:56:35.119 --> 00:56:42.119
said the same thing, your boy, it's like, okay, weird question.

697
00:56:43.519 --> 00:56:47.719
I said, yeah, all right, never mind by it's in

698
00:56:47.800 --> 00:56:49.639
the end. After a few of these corpers, I said,

699
00:56:49.639 --> 00:56:52.679
wait a minute, what's the problem. I'm not leaving my kid,

700
00:56:52.719 --> 00:56:57.840
little boy. We figured that you were if you're offering

701
00:56:57.840 --> 00:57:01.480
a babysitting service, that you'd be female. I said, what

702
00:57:01.519 --> 00:57:06.320
difference does it make? I said, I babysit my little

703
00:57:06.320 --> 00:57:10.559
brother all the time. And ironically I didn't say this

704
00:57:10.599 --> 00:57:13.480
to the person because I couldn't really predict the future

705
00:57:13.480 --> 00:57:17.280
to him, but I would have said to him what

706
00:57:17.280 --> 00:57:20.559
I want to say to you is I had multiple

707
00:57:20.639 --> 00:57:23.360
people asked me to babysit their kids, as I got older,

708
00:57:25.159 --> 00:57:27.079
because you know, when I was in a chip shop,

709
00:57:27.119 --> 00:57:34.199
there was one, two, three, three different people asked me

710
00:57:34.239 --> 00:57:39.280
to babysit for them and they pay me. They give

711
00:57:39.320 --> 00:57:42.280
me five quid or whatever. And it meant that they

712
00:57:42.280 --> 00:57:44.199
could go out for a meal, they could go out

713
00:57:44.239 --> 00:57:47.639
and do something, and I just turn up when they

714
00:57:47.639 --> 00:57:51.320
were already in bed. So I'd just go watch TV,

715
00:57:52.079 --> 00:57:56.960
watch a big, big colored TV and stuff. It was

716
00:57:57.000 --> 00:58:00.360
easy just sitting there for a few hours. I said,

717
00:58:00.400 --> 00:58:02.719
come back and I go home. Whether give me a

718
00:58:03.000 --> 00:58:06.920
lift home if if I you know, was if they

719
00:58:06.960 --> 00:58:12.400
weren't drunk. So I did it a few times, and

720
00:58:12.519 --> 00:58:17.280
I did it again when I worked in the co op,

721
00:58:17.360 --> 00:58:23.760
I looked after my friend's kids. It's the babysit. I

722
00:58:23.760 --> 00:58:24.320
think that was it.

723
00:58:24.440 --> 00:58:25.000
But no.

724
00:58:25.119 --> 00:58:31.639
I also I was actually a childminder for probably about

725
00:58:31.840 --> 00:58:37.000
four months five months when I was eighteen. I actually

726
00:58:37.000 --> 00:58:39.559
lived in like a live in nanny. But all my

727
00:58:39.960 --> 00:58:42.880
only job really was just to take her to school.

728
00:58:43.239 --> 00:58:46.360
The rest of the time I'd just be I'd be

729
00:58:46.360 --> 00:58:48.800
in the flat while she was in bed, so I'd

730
00:58:48.800 --> 00:58:50.280
have to just make sure that she was safe and

731
00:58:50.320 --> 00:58:53.920
she'd be asleep anyway, and they'd be doing a night shift.

732
00:58:56.159 --> 00:58:58.440
So I did that for a while and then i'd yeah,

733
00:58:58.440 --> 00:59:00.199
I'd take her to school in the morning, that's it,

734
00:59:01.840 --> 00:59:06.719
And that was it didn't I'm not sure. Maybe no,

735
00:59:06.800 --> 00:59:08.719
I didn't pick her up from school. I think the

736
00:59:10.119 --> 00:59:12.840
mother picked her up from school because she was up

737
00:59:12.880 --> 00:59:16.039
by then, so she'd beg in bed by seven, and

738
00:59:16.079 --> 00:59:19.519
then she'd be up again, probably by two two or

739
00:59:19.519 --> 00:59:23.280
three two. Probably the school was only around the corner.

740
00:59:27.360 --> 00:59:30.760
But I couldn't really use that as a as a

741
00:59:30.800 --> 00:59:35.800
defense when I was a kid saying to this person

742
00:59:35.840 --> 00:59:38.239
on the phone, what difference does it make for my

743
00:59:38.320 --> 00:59:43.239
boy or a girl? Just I didn't really get it,

744
00:59:43.239 --> 00:59:46.079
to be honest, I didn't understand. I didn't see what

745
00:59:46.119 --> 00:59:49.639
the difference would be. But yeah, I didn't get any

746
00:59:49.679 --> 00:59:54.599
work anyway. And then when I was at the chip shop,

747
00:59:55.519 --> 00:59:58.199
it it got a bit silly because I had literally

748
00:59:58.239 --> 01:00:01.559
I was selling my furniture just so I could get by,

749
01:00:02.800 --> 01:00:06.719
because my dad had all my furniture and storage from

750
01:00:06.719 --> 01:00:10.800
my bedroom. So when I got that flat, he moved in,

751
01:00:12.400 --> 01:00:14.880
you know, as far as the furniture goes, probably the TV,

752
01:00:15.280 --> 01:00:16.840
I was thinking about it. I probably did get the

753
01:00:16.840 --> 01:00:19.480
TV so it was in storage. I was wondering the

754
01:00:19.480 --> 01:00:23.719
other day what happened to that TV. I got my bed,

755
01:00:24.599 --> 01:00:43.920
I got my wardrobe and bed wardrobe. There probably wasn't

756
01:00:44.000 --> 01:00:48.159
much more. Probably maybe a chair. That was about it. Really,

757
01:00:48.159 --> 01:00:52.679
there wasn't like a lot of things. I didn't have,

758
01:00:52.760 --> 01:00:57.880
like huge amounts of belongings. I wonder where everything went.

759
01:00:58.599 --> 01:01:03.199
I must have had some stuff because it was in

760
01:01:03.400 --> 01:01:09.679
storage downstairs in the garage where at my step man's place.

761
01:01:12.880 --> 01:01:16.239
I mean, all my weights and my punch bags and

762
01:01:16.280 --> 01:01:22.239
all that stuff I sold before I even moved into

763
01:01:22.280 --> 01:01:25.159
the flab after chip shop. So I didn't have any

764
01:01:25.159 --> 01:01:27.599
of that stuff anymore because I wasn't able to use that.

765
01:01:27.639 --> 01:01:29.599
I was a point leven if I can't use it,

766
01:01:30.599 --> 01:01:32.239
because at the time I didn't know I was ever

767
01:01:32.320 --> 01:01:41.440
going to find anywhere else to live. Yeah, So I

768
01:01:41.480 --> 01:01:43.480
got to the point where I was sleeping on the

769
01:01:43.559 --> 01:01:50.000
floor on a mattress in the living room, and I

770
01:01:50.119 --> 01:01:57.719
didn't really have any belongings. So I started to for

771
01:01:57.960 --> 01:02:00.960
what can I do? So I started to be a

772
01:02:01.000 --> 01:02:05.079
bit of a wheeler dealer, and I knew some people

773
01:02:05.239 --> 01:02:10.239
that had stuff to sell or stuff for me to

774
01:02:10.280 --> 01:02:13.880
buy to sell. And sometimes they'd let me have it

775
01:02:14.440 --> 01:02:18.320
and I'd pay them once I got the money from

776
01:02:18.360 --> 01:02:20.760
the person I was selling it to, which is quite

777
01:02:20.760 --> 01:02:22.360
a good deal for me because I didn't have any

778
01:02:22.400 --> 01:02:25.119
sort of cash to play with. So I did that

779
01:02:25.159 --> 01:02:27.199
for a bit, sold a few little bits and bobs.

780
01:02:27.440 --> 01:02:31.360
Sold a fridge freezer. That was probably my biggest sale.

781
01:02:31.599 --> 01:02:34.199
I think I made about forty five pounds for that,

782
01:02:35.559 --> 01:02:39.280
which was pretty much double what I was getting a

783
01:02:39.320 --> 01:02:43.000
week in my pocket, So that was quite a nice

784
01:02:43.039 --> 01:02:48.880
bit of money. What else then I got, Well, I

785
01:02:48.920 --> 01:02:51.599
started doing it. I met a jeweler who was one

786
01:02:51.639 --> 01:02:54.440
of the customers, and he was telling me that there

787
01:02:54.519 --> 01:02:59.599
was money and jewelry, and I think he was kind

788
01:02:59.639 --> 01:03:04.840
of hired. He had a jewelry store, retired and he'd

789
01:03:04.880 --> 01:03:08.639
been in London or something, but he still kind of

790
01:03:08.800 --> 01:03:12.400
did a little bit on the side, you know. So

791
01:03:12.559 --> 01:03:14.000
I talked to him and I was like.

792
01:03:14.480 --> 01:03:18.400
Oh it.

793
01:03:18.519 --> 01:03:20.840
Sometimes he showed me catalogs. I'd be sitting on his

794
01:03:20.920 --> 01:03:24.719
lap and he showed me catalogs and bits of the

795
01:03:24.840 --> 01:03:28.000
jewelryes and like said, well, you could the markup prices

796
01:03:28.079 --> 01:03:34.360
for that, so you can you can spend one hundred

797
01:03:34.360 --> 01:03:36.519
pounds on something to sell it for like maybe three

798
01:03:36.519 --> 01:03:42.159
point fifty four hundred, because the more something costs, the

799
01:03:42.239 --> 01:03:46.320
more valuable it feels to the person buying it. But

800
01:03:46.440 --> 01:03:54.480
the markup is really high, and thought all so I

801
01:03:54.559 --> 01:04:03.880
kind of looked into it, and again this man decided

802
01:04:04.159 --> 01:04:07.440
he said he could sell me stuff. So it gave

803
01:04:07.480 --> 01:04:11.760
me a catalog. Again. I would buy the stuff, I

804
01:04:11.760 --> 01:04:16.199
would sell it, and then he would provide me with

805
01:04:16.360 --> 01:04:17.920
that and I would get the money for him. So

806
01:04:18.199 --> 01:04:22.920
that's kind of I would order from him and sell

807
01:04:22.960 --> 01:04:25.880
it to people. Now, I sold a couple of rings,

808
01:04:27.360 --> 01:04:30.440
but it didn't really go very far. It is only

809
01:04:30.480 --> 01:04:34.559
so much you can do when you work in a

810
01:04:34.679 --> 01:04:42.880
chip shop, because it was quite hard for me to

811
01:04:43.039 --> 01:04:48.159
present myself as successful to the people on the other

812
01:04:48.199 --> 01:04:53.400
side of the counter, the customers successful enough to depart

813
01:04:53.480 --> 01:05:00.679
with their money for jewelry when I I stunk of

814
01:05:00.840 --> 01:05:07.960
fish and I was wearing just dirty were not dirty,

815
01:05:07.960 --> 01:05:12.719
with clothes that were just horrible, and I, yeah, I

816
01:05:12.760 --> 01:05:18.480
didn't I didn't really, I didn't fit the part. I

817
01:05:18.599 --> 01:05:20.639
got a couple of sales, but you know, it didn't

818
01:05:20.679 --> 01:05:25.000
work great, but it was something, so I kind of

819
01:05:25.360 --> 01:05:29.360
made a little bit of money. My friend came around

820
01:05:29.400 --> 01:05:40.679
once with some a big black bag full of cigarettes, and.

821
01:05:41.639 --> 01:05:42.760
That was he.

822
01:05:43.239 --> 01:05:45.840
He had a friend who had a friend and we

823
01:05:45.840 --> 01:05:49.320
were going to sell them in the pubs, and so

824
01:05:49.400 --> 01:05:52.360
I stored them. This is before I moved into the flat,

825
01:05:52.440 --> 01:05:54.679
So this is a long time ago, before I moved

826
01:05:54.679 --> 01:05:58.199
into the the flat above the chip shops. So this

827
01:05:58.320 --> 01:06:09.960
is like forty wow, four years ago. And so we're

828
01:06:10.000 --> 01:06:12.400
all ready to go out that night and you know,

829
01:06:12.679 --> 01:06:14.760
go into the pubs, and just so I couldn't even

830
01:06:14.760 --> 01:06:17.039
get served in the pubs. I was what fifteen at

831
01:06:17.039 --> 01:06:20.719
the time. So let's go around and sell these cigarettes

832
01:06:20.760 --> 01:06:24.159
to people. And he came around. I thought, but let's

833
01:06:24.159 --> 01:06:27.119
get ready to go, and they said, no, it's a problem.

834
01:06:27.440 --> 01:06:32.800
I said, what he showed me the newspaper and what

835
01:06:32.960 --> 01:06:38.519
he didn't know where the cigarettes had come from. So

836
01:06:38.559 --> 01:06:41.960
he sped the rest of the evening disposing of them

837
01:06:42.800 --> 01:06:48.159
because you know, it was dodgy. It's like, I can't

838
01:06:48.199 --> 01:06:51.320
believe it. I really I didn't mind being a wheel lid.

839
01:06:51.400 --> 01:06:53.639
I was trying to be a wheeler dealer, but I

840
01:06:53.719 --> 01:06:59.480
wasn't trying to be a criminal. I'm a criminal. See, yeah,

841
01:06:59.559 --> 01:07:03.440
that wasn't. It wasn't great, I mean ideally old. It

842
01:07:03.559 --> 01:07:07.559
just sort of it wasn't one hundred percent sure it

843
01:07:07.639 --> 01:07:10.039
was from there, but it just seemed a little bit

844
01:07:10.039 --> 01:07:13.599
of a coincidence. No one sort of knew, no one, well,

845
01:07:13.679 --> 01:07:16.719
no one that did know would tell, which is probably

846
01:07:16.760 --> 01:07:23.920
the right thing anyway. But so we're walking around disposing

847
01:07:24.000 --> 01:07:30.519
of them for hours, literally taking them out of packets

848
01:07:30.559 --> 01:07:34.079
and breaking them up one by one. They must have

849
01:07:34.159 --> 01:07:40.000
been there was a lot, a lot that's yeah, a lot,

850
01:07:42.800 --> 01:07:46.519
a lot of money's worth actually in today's money, that

851
01:07:46.559 --> 01:07:55.519
would be worth probably a couple of thousand pounds worth

852
01:07:55.519 --> 01:08:00.360
of cigarettes now, because it's about twenty pounds a packets now,

853
01:08:00.440 --> 01:08:05.559
so yeah, at least one hundred packs, probably maybe even

854
01:08:05.559 --> 01:08:12.079
more than that. So yeah, it's after that. I didn't

855
01:08:12.159 --> 01:08:16.439
I thought, no, I don't think I'm gonna I'm not

856
01:08:16.439 --> 01:08:19.439
going to sell contraband, not contraband, but I just the

857
01:08:19.520 --> 01:08:23.560
idea of I didn't want to sell stolen goods. I

858
01:08:23.600 --> 01:08:25.319
mean it might not be, but I didn't want to

859
01:08:25.359 --> 01:08:28.439
do that anyway because I was in such a small

860
01:08:28.479 --> 01:08:31.359
town you couldn't get away with it. And when I

861
01:08:31.359 --> 01:08:34.520
moved to London, I was buying stuff all the time

862
01:08:34.600 --> 01:08:40.479
that was snide or dodgy stuff that had come in

863
01:08:40.520 --> 01:08:44.399
on the boats. I don't mean I wasn't buying immigrants.

864
01:08:46.359 --> 01:08:53.520
I wasn't buying illegals. No, there was like tapes that

865
01:08:53.640 --> 01:08:59.039
were what do you call them, like copies of stuff snids.

866
01:08:59.039 --> 01:09:03.439
I suppose that's what they could. I forget what they

867
01:09:03.520 --> 01:09:06.079
call them. But yeah, So that was the end of

868
01:09:06.079 --> 01:09:14.960
that criminal empire, just wasn't for me. And then I

869
01:09:15.000 --> 01:09:20.439
traveled to London to the main place where they sell jewelry,

870
01:09:21.159 --> 01:09:25.560
and this is probably a little bit later, probably Yeah,

871
01:09:25.600 --> 01:09:27.840
that was a couple of years later, probably about nineteen

872
01:09:27.920 --> 01:09:33.159
eighty nine. I went to London and I bought I

873
01:09:33.199 --> 01:09:36.880
probably spent about one hundred pound on jewelry, brought it

874
01:09:36.920 --> 01:09:43.279
back trying to sell it, and I was even walking

875
01:09:43.359 --> 01:09:45.960
through the train trying to sell it to people on

876
01:09:46.000 --> 01:09:50.560
the train. What was going on in my mind? I

877
01:09:50.560 --> 01:09:54.840
didn't sell anything, But I don't know where I got

878
01:09:54.880 --> 01:10:03.479
the the confidence, so we say, maybe stupidity, but confidence.

879
01:10:03.479 --> 01:10:05.960
Where did I get that from? To be able to

880
01:10:06.000 --> 01:10:08.439
walk up to complete strangers on a train that was

881
01:10:08.520 --> 01:10:13.079
sitting there and try and sell them jewelry out of

882
01:10:13.119 --> 01:10:16.880
a carry it back. It didn't even know No, I

883
01:10:16.920 --> 01:10:20.359
don't think they even had boxes, which was a bit silly.

884
01:10:22.079 --> 01:10:26.680
Like Yeah, in the end, I'm not sure. I think

885
01:10:26.720 --> 01:10:31.319
I did sell some, but I think I didn't sell many.

886
01:10:32.199 --> 01:10:36.960
I did sell some, not on the train, but afterwards.

887
01:10:37.479 --> 01:10:42.960
I might have given a few away. But another thing

888
01:10:43.000 --> 01:10:48.079
I did is I bought the Exchange and Mart, which

889
01:10:48.159 --> 01:10:53.680
was a magazine and very famous for it was very famous.

890
01:10:53.680 --> 01:10:56.800
I'm not sure if it's still around. It might be

891
01:10:56.880 --> 01:11:01.680
a website now, but people used to sell their cars

892
01:11:01.720 --> 01:11:06.199
on there. Buy and selling cars. They also had buying

893
01:11:06.239 --> 01:11:08.840
and selling number plates was a very that was a

894
01:11:08.920 --> 01:11:14.720
very kind of specialized thing. But there's also a business

895
01:11:14.760 --> 01:11:23.800
section where you could phone up or send off for

896
01:11:24.479 --> 01:11:28.520
a business kit absolutely free, and it'd be a free

897
01:11:28.560 --> 01:11:31.359
business idea. You go along and they just send it

898
01:11:31.399 --> 01:11:33.880
to you in the post and you'd give it go

899
01:11:33.920 --> 01:11:36.159
and see if you could, you know, make money from it.

900
01:11:38.720 --> 01:11:42.560
And I did that for every single business opportunity there was.

901
01:11:44.119 --> 01:11:48.319
And I remember I came downstairs one morning and I

902
01:11:48.399 --> 01:11:53.600
had about forty five It was a brilliant day. I

903
01:11:53.600 --> 01:11:57.680
had about forty five packages or envelopes with stuff in

904
01:11:59.199 --> 01:12:02.960
with all these different and things. It's different, you know,

905
01:12:03.000 --> 01:12:05.399
because I was just giving stuff away free, trying to

906
01:12:05.399 --> 01:12:10.039
get people to sell it, samples and stuff. It was

907
01:12:10.079 --> 01:12:16.640
so good. There was financial plans. There was even money lending,

908
01:12:16.800 --> 01:12:21.119
which perhaps wasn't a good thing to get to get

909
01:12:21.119 --> 01:12:27.760
involved in again. But the one thing I did take up,

910
01:12:29.079 --> 01:12:31.800
I did sort of delve into the jewelry, try to

911
01:12:31.840 --> 01:12:38.640
start business as a jeweler, kind of in person. I

912
01:12:38.680 --> 01:12:41.720
had this idea that I'd be call myself mister Gold,

913
01:12:43.479 --> 01:12:47.840
and I'd travel. I'd go around the pubs and I'd

914
01:12:47.880 --> 01:12:53.079
wear lots of jewelry and a suit, and everyone would

915
01:12:53.119 --> 01:12:57.520
come to me for their jewelry requirements and I'd just

916
01:12:57.600 --> 01:12:59.600
be known in the local town. And that would be

917
01:13:00.119 --> 01:13:04.920
if someone got engaged, they'd come to me because I

918
01:13:04.920 --> 01:13:08.840
would get them a reduced rate than what they would

919
01:13:08.840 --> 01:13:12.720
get in a jewelers, but it would still be the

920
01:13:12.800 --> 01:13:19.640
same quality. Didn't quite work out, that was the plan,

921
01:13:22.520 --> 01:13:25.279
and so I had leaflets made up and you know,

922
01:13:25.319 --> 01:13:34.119
all this stuff done, and yeah, I had necklaces, and yeah,

923
01:13:34.119 --> 01:13:40.439
it didn't quite work. The next thing I tried was perfume.

924
01:13:42.000 --> 01:13:44.680
Now this company, I still feel a little bit giddy

925
01:13:44.720 --> 01:13:48.399
thinking about it because it was exciting. They sent me

926
01:13:48.560 --> 01:13:55.119
a whole pack of perfumes, a big sample pack, like big.

927
01:13:55.439 --> 01:13:59.079
You know, we'd go through the letterbox. I mean, it

928
01:13:59.199 --> 01:14:02.399
might argue because it wouldn't go through letbox, doesn't It

929
01:14:02.399 --> 01:14:06.119
doesn't mean it's like big, but it was big. It

930
01:14:06.159 --> 01:14:13.880
was kind of like souit I don't know, not suitcase size,

931
01:14:14.800 --> 01:14:18.920
but briefcase size, maybe maybe a bit smaller than briefcase.

932
01:14:21.840 --> 01:14:28.760
And the samples were nice, really nice, and they'd be

933
01:14:28.840 --> 01:14:33.760
it was so I felt professional. So what I did

934
01:14:33.960 --> 01:14:38.439
I started going around to people I knew, and it'd

935
01:14:38.439 --> 01:14:42.960
be almost like an Anne Smer's party, but we're perfume,

936
01:14:48.159 --> 01:14:54.279
but without any laughter or people. So I guess there's

937
01:14:54.319 --> 01:14:59.119
nothing like an An Summer's party. But I knew a few people,

938
01:14:59.159 --> 01:15:03.359
a few females, and I just like, try that because

939
01:15:03.359 --> 01:15:06.359
back in them days, perfume, you know, it's it's not

940
01:15:06.840 --> 01:15:12.319
things were different. There wasn't a lot of is it

941
01:15:12.399 --> 01:15:16.560
cologne that men wear, which is basically just perfume, isn't it?

942
01:15:16.560 --> 01:15:19.680
So that there wasn't a lot of really kind of

943
01:15:19.840 --> 01:15:25.720
men perfume like there is now, not that I don't

944
01:15:25.800 --> 01:15:32.439
wear cologne. I just like, and I like an old

945
01:15:32.439 --> 01:15:39.119
fashioned bio. I think that's perfect. Oh, I thought you

946
01:15:39.159 --> 01:15:41.640
were coming and could smell you from a block off,

947
01:15:42.399 --> 01:15:47.640
block off, block away, block away, a mile away, so

948
01:15:50.359 --> 01:15:56.000
I don't have bio. It's weird though, because I've known

949
01:15:56.039 --> 01:15:58.680
a few people like really really bad bio in it.

950
01:15:59.520 --> 01:16:03.920
And I don't know. I was sitting there. I was

951
01:16:04.000 --> 01:16:07.319
in there, working the place, and the person's I wasn't

952
01:16:07.359 --> 01:16:11.640
far from their armpit. It just the working environment meant

953
01:16:11.640 --> 01:16:16.079
that perhaps I need to explain that. But the you know,

954
01:16:16.159 --> 01:16:22.720
I could smell them. And I was also near the microwave,

955
01:16:24.079 --> 01:16:29.920
and the microwave was heating up a pie. And it

956
01:16:30.000 --> 01:16:31.760
was weird because I was kind of getting a little

957
01:16:31.800 --> 01:16:37.039
bit of a similar smell from both his armpit and

958
01:16:37.079 --> 01:16:41.239
the microwave, and they were almost like they were mixing together,

959
01:16:42.439 --> 01:16:47.640
really like having a little dance in the air. The

960
01:16:48.039 --> 01:16:52.199
two smells were. I don't know if it's symbiotic whatever,

961
01:16:52.560 --> 01:17:00.359
like a little symbiotic bouncing on a symbiotic trampoline. I

962
01:17:00.399 --> 01:17:10.239
don't know, but I was like, Oh, that's weird. And

963
01:17:10.279 --> 01:17:17.680
then I started to think, is the pie is smelling

964
01:17:17.800 --> 01:17:22.439
like his armpits? Or is the armpits smelling like that pie?

965
01:17:23.039 --> 01:17:24.600
Now I didn't know what kind of pie it was

966
01:17:24.640 --> 01:17:31.399
because I wasn't the one heating the pie up, so

967
01:17:32.279 --> 01:17:38.439
and the pies all had different bottoms of like tin fold.

968
01:17:38.439 --> 01:17:41.239
Obviously don't put a tin fold in the microwave, but

969
01:17:41.359 --> 01:17:49.279
they all had different So I'm standing there thinking, was

970
01:17:49.319 --> 01:17:52.279
I sitting down? Sometimes I sit down when I want

971
01:17:52.279 --> 01:17:54.680
to enjoy a smell and trying to figure out what

972
01:17:54.840 --> 01:17:59.880
the substances, especially if there's two different smells. Sometimes I

973
01:18:00.159 --> 01:18:04.239
to rest my legs. On this occasion, I think I

974
01:18:04.279 --> 01:18:09.039
was just standing. Yeah, because he was very tall. That's

975
01:18:09.039 --> 01:18:10.880
why I was able to get to the arm not

976
01:18:10.960 --> 01:18:13.000
get to the arm pits. But that's why the arm

977
01:18:13.000 --> 01:18:15.359
pits a little bit closer to me. And I didn't

978
01:18:15.359 --> 01:18:18.239
actually had my nose in his armpit. That would have

979
01:18:18.279 --> 01:18:23.319
been inappropriate to do that when there was customers around that.

980
01:18:23.439 --> 01:18:26.000
The microwave was also to right at me. He was

981
01:18:26.239 --> 01:18:29.720
to left me because we was in a like a

982
01:18:31.079 --> 01:18:39.279
food environment, and I thought, I wonder what kind of

983
01:18:39.319 --> 01:18:45.920
pie it is? Then? Is it a chicken pie? Is

984
01:18:45.920 --> 01:18:49.560
it a vegetable pie? I don't know why I'm squeaking

985
01:18:49.560 --> 01:18:54.279
when I say the word pie pie. But they had

986
01:18:54.720 --> 01:19:00.239
different metal covers, like or not covers but holders. So

987
01:19:02.079 --> 01:19:08.399
the chicken ones were yellow, the I think the steak

988
01:19:08.640 --> 01:19:20.199
ones were oblong with purple bombs purple aluminium or aluminium

989
01:19:21.439 --> 01:19:24.600
aluminium is the correct way to say that. But the

990
01:19:24.640 --> 01:19:29.680
bottom of the one with silver aluminium, which meant it

991
01:19:29.760 --> 01:19:33.119
was a beef and onion pie. And I thought to myself,

992
01:19:35.159 --> 01:19:45.159
beef and onion, beef an onion. But I didn't realize

993
01:19:45.199 --> 01:19:47.600
I was saying it out loud. The customers will look

994
01:19:47.600 --> 01:19:50.880
at me a bit weird. The person I was working

995
01:19:50.920 --> 01:19:54.520
with was like, you're talking about But then when the

996
01:19:54.560 --> 01:19:56.720
customer shouted out, now he's talking about my pie. It's

997
01:19:56.720 --> 01:19:59.840
in a microwave. It sounds smells like it's ready, and

998
01:20:00.279 --> 01:20:04.000
it hasn't. It hasn't pinged yet, but not that I'm

999
01:20:04.039 --> 01:20:06.840
time in it. But I reckon it's probably ready because

1000
01:20:06.840 --> 01:20:09.920
I can smell it. I said, are you sure, though?

1001
01:20:10.119 --> 01:20:12.840
Is he sure that's what you can smell? And he

1002
01:20:12.840 --> 01:20:15.000
said what else could I be able to smell other

1003
01:20:15.079 --> 01:20:20.000
than the beef and union pie? And I said maybe,

1004
01:20:20.039 --> 01:20:22.199
And I thought, no, I can't just say his armpits

1005
01:20:22.279 --> 01:20:26.520
can I because that would be I don't know. I

1006
01:20:26.520 --> 01:20:29.760
don't think it would go down too well. I guess

1007
01:20:29.760 --> 01:20:32.239
that's something you need to discuss with the person first.

1008
01:20:32.279 --> 01:20:38.199
Isn't it like it could be an awkward conversation? So

1009
01:20:39.239 --> 01:20:42.840
you're right, Tony, Yeah, you're right. Before we start our

1010
01:20:42.920 --> 01:20:45.800
shift today tonight, I was just wondering if I can

1011
01:20:45.840 --> 01:20:48.119
ask you something, Yeah.

1012
01:20:47.880 --> 01:20:48.439
What is it?

1013
01:20:49.239 --> 01:20:49.600
Well?

1014
01:20:51.000 --> 01:20:55.560
I just want to know just in case I have

1015
01:20:55.600 --> 01:21:02.199
to heat up a beef and onion pie in a

1016
01:21:02.279 --> 01:21:09.720
microwave and a customer asks, is there a beef lunion

1017
01:21:09.760 --> 01:21:15.600
pie being heated up? Or maybe I haven't heated the

1018
01:21:15.640 --> 01:21:19.640
beef lunnon pie up? And if a customer asks, is

1019
01:21:19.680 --> 01:21:22.399
a beef and onion pie being heated up? And if

1020
01:21:22.399 --> 01:21:24.760
there isn't a beef and onion pipe being heated up?

1021
01:21:25.279 --> 01:21:27.239
Is it okay? If I tell them that it's your

1022
01:21:27.319 --> 01:21:32.960
armpits that they're smelling. It's weird to sort of bring

1023
01:21:32.960 --> 01:21:36.359
that into a conversation, isn't it, Especially when you've been

1024
01:21:36.359 --> 01:21:45.800
talking about Star Trek. So I was thinking they overlap,

1025
01:21:46.000 --> 01:21:51.600
there's an overlapping smell. He intrigued me. I didn't realize,

1026
01:21:51.640 --> 01:21:57.119
but it seems to still be intriguing me for a

1027
01:21:57.159 --> 01:22:02.920
weird way. For some reason, my phone keeps turning off.

1028
01:22:05.199 --> 01:22:11.960
I don't trust that phone. And then I started thinking

1029
01:22:13.119 --> 01:22:20.800
beef an onion pie body odor? What they've both got

1030
01:22:20.840 --> 01:22:25.279
in common other than the smell bo beef an onion

1031
01:22:25.399 --> 01:22:31.640
bo body odor bo? So I started thinking, is that

1032
01:22:31.720 --> 01:22:35.760
why they call beef and onion pies beef and onion

1033
01:22:35.800 --> 01:22:39.239
pies because they smell like bo? Then I thought, no,

1034
01:22:39.359 --> 01:22:41.960
that doesn't make sense. Maybe that's why they call bo

1035
01:22:42.119 --> 01:22:47.640
bo because it smells like a beef and onion pie. Again,

1036
01:22:47.720 --> 01:22:52.760
I thought perhaps I should ask him, but that didn't

1037
01:22:52.800 --> 01:22:56.600
seem like how when is a good time? I suppose

1038
01:22:56.680 --> 01:22:59.239
directly after asking, if it's okay to point to his

1039
01:22:59.319 --> 01:23:02.840
armpits if a customer thinks they're smelling a beef onion

1040
01:23:02.920 --> 01:23:05.800
pie being heated up, that would be probably the ideal

1041
01:23:06.640 --> 01:23:19.880
entry into that part of the conversation. Yeah, so I

1042
01:23:19.960 --> 01:23:26.039
delved in jewelry and so that was okay. The perfume,

1043
01:23:26.079 --> 01:23:31.600
that's it. Perfume. I did sell a little bit of perfume,

1044
01:23:32.239 --> 01:23:35.840
not a lot, A little bit, but not a lot.

1045
01:23:36.800 --> 01:23:39.600
And I just thought, oh, so that didn't really work.

1046
01:23:41.159 --> 01:23:47.159
But I loved the whole planning, not the doing, but

1047
01:23:47.239 --> 01:23:52.039
the dreaming. Not the doing, but the thinking about it.

1048
01:23:52.439 --> 01:23:58.680
The idea of being an entrepreneur. It really appealed to

1049
01:23:58.760 --> 01:24:04.079
me and getting all these new things through the post about,

1050
01:24:04.279 --> 01:24:09.760
you know, how to sell registration numbers and all things

1051
01:24:09.880 --> 01:24:20.000
like that, but ultimately never really made any money. I

1052
01:24:20.039 --> 01:24:22.000
was probably at a loss with the amount of money

1053
01:24:22.039 --> 01:24:25.600
I paid out over the years with that, you know,

1054
01:24:25.720 --> 01:24:27.720
not that I paid out a lot, but I didn't

1055
01:24:27.760 --> 01:24:37.600
have a lot come in either. So that's my entrepreneurial period.

1056
01:24:41.720 --> 01:24:43.359
I think it kind of came to an end by

1057
01:24:43.399 --> 01:24:48.439
the time I was By the time I was nineteen,

1058
01:24:48.520 --> 01:24:52.239
I kind of kind of given up on that. I

1059
01:24:52.479 --> 01:24:55.760
just didn't really pursue it anymore. But for good like

1060
01:24:55.960 --> 01:25:00.920
five years was that fourteen, fifteen, six seven, eighteen nineteen,

1061
01:25:01.520 --> 01:25:07.359
maybe six years I was really pursuing options, looking at

1062
01:25:07.399 --> 01:25:15.399
ways to maybe make some money as an entrepreneur. I

1063
01:25:15.359 --> 01:25:20.840
also tried It's when I think I was eighteen, I

1064
01:25:20.880 --> 01:25:26.319
was going to sell water filters as a self employed basis,

1065
01:25:27.600 --> 01:25:29.640
but that didn't really work because I didn't have a

1066
01:25:29.680 --> 01:25:35.079
car and to carry around water filters. It is just yeah,

1067
01:25:35.119 --> 01:25:37.319
it was a big old suitcase, and I thought, oh,

1068
01:25:38.600 --> 01:25:41.520
so that didn't work. Plus, I think they wanted money

1069
01:25:41.760 --> 01:25:45.840
from me. They wanted me to put down a deposit

1070
01:25:46.520 --> 01:25:50.159
on or to pay for the first water filter that

1071
01:25:50.239 --> 01:25:52.640
I was going to use as a demonstration, because they

1072
01:25:52.640 --> 01:25:54.800
wouldn't be able to use it again, they wouldn't be

1073
01:25:54.840 --> 01:25:57.560
able to sell it on. So I think they wanted

1074
01:25:57.560 --> 01:26:03.960
me to pay them that and I said okay, and

1075
01:26:04.000 --> 01:26:05.720
then I didn't speak to him again. I just like

1076
01:26:05.800 --> 01:26:10.560
left it like and it probably wasn't a lot of money,

1077
01:26:10.600 --> 01:26:17.159
but more than I had anyway. Perhaps that was their

1078
01:26:17.439 --> 01:26:23.800
stick is that was their way of selling water fillers,

1079
01:26:25.399 --> 01:26:30.880
by employing people on a self employed basis that didn't

1080
01:26:30.880 --> 01:26:35.840
cost them anything, and they they'd sell a water filler

1081
01:26:35.880 --> 01:26:40.000
to them. I wonder how many interviews he did a week,

1082
01:26:40.520 --> 01:26:49.199
how many jobs he gave away a week. So that

1083
01:26:49.359 --> 01:26:55.840
was pretty much the That was that period. There was

1084
01:26:58.239 --> 01:27:00.000
I think what I would have liked to die. Oh yeah,

1085
01:27:00.079 --> 01:27:03.239
I did become a window cleaner. And it's not so much.

1086
01:27:03.840 --> 01:27:09.920
I mean, it's entrepreneurial, isn't it. It's self employed. I

1087
01:27:10.000 --> 01:27:14.560
became a window cleaner and I cleaned one window. I

1088
01:27:14.640 --> 01:27:18.560
think it was my landlord's my landlady's windows. And then

1089
01:27:18.680 --> 01:27:23.119
I left the ladder and all my equipment in her garage.

1090
01:27:24.000 --> 01:27:29.119
Then I moved to Spain, decided to move to Spain.

1091
01:27:29.319 --> 01:27:33.600
Came back the same day after going to Spain for

1092
01:27:33.640 --> 01:27:37.079
the afternoon, and she evicted me, and she wouldn't give

1093
01:27:37.119 --> 01:27:42.680
me the I wouldn't give me the ladder back. M

1094
01:27:50.479 --> 01:27:54.960
So that's that's the end of Monday's boring objects talking

1095
01:27:54.960 --> 01:28:04.800
about being an entrepreneur or entre entrepreneurial ship, being an entrepreneur.

1096
01:28:04.880 --> 01:28:06.399
I don't know what I'm going to call it. I

1097
01:28:06.439 --> 01:28:09.359
can't even spell the word. I literally can't say it

1098
01:28:09.359 --> 01:28:13.239
even can I. So I will see see how this

1099
01:28:13.319 --> 01:28:18.039
all comes out. But that's it for me. So thank

1100
01:28:18.079 --> 01:28:23.199
you for listening. Remember to be kind to yourself because

1101
01:28:23.239 --> 01:28:25.800
you do deserve to be happy, and be gentle of

1102
01:28:25.840 --> 01:28:32.880
yourself because you deserve to feel safe. Lots of love.

1103
01:28:35.439 --> 01:28:35.960
Bye.

1104
01:28:43.079 --> 01:28:57.640
Relax in a more deep and meaningful way, maybe in

1105
01:28:57.680 --> 01:29:03.239
a way that can not just allow you to feel

1106
01:29:04.600 --> 01:29:13.840
calmer now and throughout the time we spend together here,

1107
01:29:15.880 --> 01:29:21.560
not just relaxed at the end of the recording when

1108
01:29:21.560 --> 01:29:28.239
it's finished, and you can enjoy that sense of comfort

1109
01:29:28.439 --> 01:29:43.319
and peace. But also I think it would be nice

1110
01:29:43.439 --> 01:30:03.239
to have those feelings of relaxation continue for longer after

1111
01:30:03.319 --> 01:30:13.880
the recording has ended, so that you can still benefit

1112
01:30:16.760 --> 01:30:24.039
from listening to my voice, maybe in a few hours time,

1113
01:30:25.960 --> 01:30:39.439
perhaps tomorrow, and then by listening regularly, especially if you

1114
01:30:39.600 --> 01:30:44.840
find like some people do and myself as well. Sometimes

1115
01:30:44.880 --> 01:30:51.159
I find one particular recording that really resonates with me,

1116
01:30:55.520 --> 01:30:57.920
and I just listen to it over and over again

1117
01:31:00.159 --> 01:31:13.199
every morning, every evening. There was this recording from We're

1118
01:31:13.199 --> 01:31:18.960
going back to about nineteen ninety nine. It wasn't hypnosis,

1119
01:31:19.039 --> 01:31:24.359
but it was a guided visualizations. It kind of was hypnosis, really,

1120
01:31:26.840 --> 01:31:32.000
and I managed to find it again and it still

1121
01:31:32.079 --> 01:31:37.680
has the same effect on me, And part of it

1122
01:31:37.840 --> 01:31:52.680
was the person's voice relaxed me. She just felt so peaceful,

1123
01:31:54.680 --> 01:32:01.239
and I'd look forward to listening to her in the

1124
01:32:01.279 --> 01:32:11.960
morning and in the evening. And I knew before even

1125
01:32:12.720 --> 01:32:21.159
pressing the play button that since I've done that pressed

1126
01:32:21.199 --> 01:32:29.760
the play button. This was in the days of CD

1127
01:32:29.960 --> 01:32:38.640
players press the play button. In fact, it might have

1128
01:32:38.680 --> 01:32:43.039
even been a tape tape recorder. I'd lie down on

1129
01:32:43.079 --> 01:32:55.920
the bed and then even without necessarily listening to her

1130
01:32:56.119 --> 01:33:09.039
words because I had them memorized. Really, it was as

1131
01:33:09.079 --> 01:33:19.800
if my body knew exactly what to do, and the

1132
01:33:19.960 --> 01:33:42.000
muscles just almost went into automatic relaxation, and I remember

1133
01:33:42.079 --> 01:33:56.159
my mind would slow down. Now. Now, I was listening

1134
01:33:56.199 --> 01:34:02.960
to this recording in the early days of learning hypnosis,

1135
01:34:05.520 --> 01:34:13.359
and long before I ever made any videos or audio

1136
01:34:13.399 --> 01:34:18.159
recordings myself, because I didn't start doing that till two

1137
01:34:18.199 --> 01:34:37.520
thousand and six, I knew, I knew how helpful I

1138
01:34:37.600 --> 01:34:47.880
found being able to just let go, to have that

1139
01:34:48.239 --> 01:35:00.880
trust in the person that I'm listening to, knowing that

1140
01:35:00.960 --> 01:35:09.279
it's going to be just as relaxing, if not more so.

1141
01:35:11.920 --> 01:35:18.920
Each time you hear my voice, you may feel the same.

1142
01:35:25.279 --> 01:35:39.920
Some people have been listening to me for over a decade,

1143
01:35:40.720 --> 01:35:44.760
maybe not solidly, obviously not twenty four hours a day,

1144
01:35:46.479 --> 01:35:53.000
but maybe people come back. Some people may be listen

1145
01:35:53.079 --> 01:36:09.640
every day. That's something that I do which you may

1146
01:36:09.760 --> 01:36:30.720
not realize by listening, is when I record these recordings. Now,

1147
01:36:30.840 --> 01:36:43.399
for example, I also am affected by the words that

1148
01:36:43.520 --> 01:36:55.680
I say. So if I set you focus on your feet,

1149
01:36:58.199 --> 01:37:05.920
notice your feet relaxed, I will be focusing on my feet.

1150
01:37:10.840 --> 01:37:28.239
I will be noticing my feet relaxing. If I said,

1151
01:37:28.359 --> 01:37:36.039
focus on your hands and maybe notice the difference between

1152
01:37:36.079 --> 01:37:47.039
each hand. Perhaps notice the air in the room, the

1153
01:37:47.079 --> 01:37:51.720
temperature of the room. On the backs of your hands,

1154
01:37:59.479 --> 01:38:03.399
you may start to notice what almost feels like a

1155
01:38:03.520 --> 01:38:11.600
very light breeze, even though there may not be any

1156
01:38:12.000 --> 01:38:16.920
type of breeze at all where you are right now.

1157
01:38:25.079 --> 01:38:35.680
And as you become aware of your hands, I'm also

1158
01:38:36.039 --> 01:39:04.239
aware of how relaxed my hands are feeling now. And

1159
01:39:04.399 --> 01:39:11.319
when it comes to potentially drifting off to sleep, which

1160
01:39:11.399 --> 01:39:25.520
may be the reason you're listening, I also feel drowsy

1161
01:39:27.800 --> 01:39:41.239
when I make these recordings. I also notice my mind drifting.

1162
01:39:49.159 --> 01:40:01.760
In fact, at times I've actually fallen asleep without even noticing,

1163
01:40:06.600 --> 01:40:15.760
and then I carry on talking. And it's only when

1164
01:40:16.039 --> 01:40:25.159
I listen back to do the editing I hear snoring

1165
01:40:27.079 --> 01:40:34.359
and I think, I don't remember snoring. I remember talking.

1166
01:40:37.000 --> 01:40:44.399
This snoring was a pick turned up. That's why I

1167
01:40:44.479 --> 01:40:54.560
sound like when I snore, I get really into the

1168
01:40:54.600 --> 01:41:12.840
whole experience. I don't know how you feel. How relaxed

1169
01:41:12.920 --> 01:41:23.000
do you feel in your feet, how relaxed you feel

1170
01:41:23.159 --> 01:41:49.800
in your hands. I have noticed more and more that

1171
01:41:50.000 --> 01:42:06.359
the more relaxed deeper level of comfort you feel, the

1172
01:42:06.399 --> 01:42:27.000
easier your breathing becomes. It's almost like that additional muscle relaxation.

1173
01:42:31.319 --> 01:42:52.319
So this allows you to breathe easier without necessarily focusing

1174
01:42:54.520 --> 01:43:20.119
on your breath, however, being able to notice the ease

1175
01:43:23.560 --> 01:43:50.119
in which you breathe so naturally. You breathe so very

1176
01:43:50.399 --> 01:44:39.319
easily and smoothly. Whenever I imagine my breathing improving. When I've

1177
01:44:39.319 --> 01:44:55.159
got my eyes closed, I tend to visualize a beautiful

1178
01:44:55.319 --> 01:45:12.399
field with trees and flowers producing all that life giving oxygen.

1179
01:45:32.439 --> 01:45:47.800
And it feels nice too, if nothing else, just taking

1180
01:45:48.079 --> 01:46:25.760
some time away from everything, enjoying that feeling of peace,

1181
01:46:30.760 --> 01:47:15.279
serenity with a joyful heart. Time seems to just drip by,

1182
01:47:19.800 --> 01:48:09.640
so very slowly, relaxed, so deeply peaceful, completely unattached to

1183
01:48:10.520 --> 01:49:07.479
any thoughts whatsoever in this moment, completely free, noticing that

1184
01:49:15.039 --> 01:50:01.560
your mind has slowed down. Slowed down because nothing really

1185
01:50:01.800 --> 01:50:32.399
requires your attention, you can enjoy the physical sensations of

1186
01:50:32.560 --> 01:50:45.520
allowing the stress to drip out of your body, dripping

1187
01:50:45.840 --> 01:51:09.800
out of every part of your body and being released

1188
01:51:15.079 --> 01:51:54.680
from your brain. Hune your mind slowly but surely, the

1189
01:51:55.000 --> 01:52:32.079
muscles in your legs. Relax relx, relax so very deeply,

1190
01:52:41.840 --> 01:53:12.880
relax so deeply. And the feelings, the pleasant feelings in

1191
01:53:12.960 --> 01:53:37.520
your arms and shoulders, deepening each part of your body

1192
01:53:40.800 --> 01:54:19.239
further and deeper and deeper. Noticin the feedings in the

1193
01:54:19.279 --> 01:55:19.199
back of your neck, the feelings in your wrists, muscles,

1194
01:55:21.279 --> 01:55:58.439
in the front of your body, I will say, feeling peaceful, deep,

1195
01:56:15.560 --> 01:56:25.880
There's a sense of pace spreads through your very cool

1196
01:56:56.359 --> 01:57:16.319
even when you focus on your mind, her mind becomes

1197
01:57:23.640 --> 01:58:46.520
a and slowerven deeper, relaxing, so very slow, his stomach

1198
01:59:00.600 --> 01:59:02.680
peace fall in your stomach.

1199
01:59:24.800 --> 01:59:25.479
You're back.

1200
01:59:30.880 --> 01:59:59.720
Notice Notice how relaxed you now feel in the hole

1201
02:00:00.119 --> 02:00:00.840
of your back.

1202
02:00:25.960 --> 02:00:27.159
In a spy.

1203
02:00:30.920 --> 02:00:35.600
From your brain all the way down the middle of

1204
02:00:35.680 --> 02:00:47.720
your back, sending and receiving millions of messages every day.

1205
02:00:58.399 --> 02:02:18.960
Deep comfort, increase, deeply relaxed nis reles spreading those signals

1206
02:02:19.239 --> 02:02:27.920
down your spine or cord into air every part of

1207
02:02:28.079 --> 02:02:45.560
your body, your shins and your calf.

1208
02:02:45.399 --> 02:03:32.479
Muscles, hm, your elbows, feelings of peace.

1209
02:03:35.039 --> 02:03:49.000
And tranquility spreading through your body, tips of your toes,

1210
02:03:53.239 --> 02:04:04.880
to your eyes, your fingers. All wait till you know

1211
02:04:05.079 --> 02:05:14.000
about letting her reletting her pace to drift in mind,

1212
02:05:18.520 --> 02:05:42.079
just wondering away. Happy to let go, let go completely,

1213
02:05:44.560 --> 02:07:08.079
let go, said Tranquil, who body enjoying a sense listening God,

1214
02:07:11.640 --> 02:09:07.960
he nore hey joy the space, this space.

1215
02:09:10.520 --> 02:09:11.560
Of peace.

1216
02:09:14.800 --> 02:09:40.039
And safety, so fery.

1217
02:09:47.119 --> 02:10:21.119
Relaxed, us.

1218
02:10:50.119 --> 02:10:50.680
Leading the.

1219
02:11:17.800 --> 02:11:42.479
Letting go. Maybe we can just focus on the different

1220
02:11:42.880 --> 02:12:17.680
parts of your body, just to notice your forehead and

1221
02:12:17.960 --> 02:13:19.439
your eyes. A chu, said Lis, noticing in the sense

1222
02:13:19.520 --> 02:14:38.479
of complete freedom, absolute freedom, dress d dress day.

1223
02:14:50.880 --> 02:14:51.640
He's on.

1224
02:14:53.720 --> 02:16:16.920
Energy paste to breeze, so much ease, yeah, loose.

1225
02:16:38.239 --> 02:16:39.159
You may have.

1226
02:16:42.639 --> 02:17:42.680
You may not have noticed your mind drifted peaceful move

1227
02:17:43.120 --> 02:18:03.639
an even more deeply in the direction of total blissful pace,

1228
02:18:07.879 --> 02:19:59.200
bliss for pace, raft to to to pace, sir con

1229
02:20:11.079 --> 02:21:22.879
let him go, peace of mind, right footy, so relaxed, relaxed.

1230
02:21:47.399 --> 02:22:14.879
A body feels almost invisible, so very relaxed, paceful.

1231
02:22:20.600 --> 02:22:28.959
So pace f.

1232
02:22:44.879 --> 02:22:52.840
Relle go.

1233
02:23:09.040 --> 02:23:16.040
So m h.

1234
02:23:28.280 --> 02:23:34.479
And you could start to notice that you are feeling

1235
02:23:34.920 --> 02:23:46.079
more relaxed, even though I've not purposely focused your mind

1236
02:23:47.079 --> 02:23:54.600
upon that sense of physical comfort that is growing within

1237
02:23:54.760 --> 02:24:03.879
you throughout your body, and mind starts to slow down,

1238
02:24:08.799 --> 02:24:16.000
and that could be almost in recognition of I guess

1239
02:24:16.440 --> 02:24:28.920
my speech not being particularly fast, and things just generally

1240
02:24:30.600 --> 02:24:41.639
feel calmer. Just by listening to my voice, you give

1241
02:24:41.680 --> 02:24:48.600
yourself an opportunity to take a break from the day,

1242
02:24:50.760 --> 02:24:58.239
take a break from your life as it is, and

1243
02:24:58.399 --> 02:25:06.120
to give yourself a rest, giving yourself permission to take

1244
02:25:06.239 --> 02:25:11.760
some time off and to allow your body to relax

1245
02:25:13.520 --> 02:25:21.399
and allow your mind to slow down, which in turn

1246
02:25:24.040 --> 02:25:29.639
releases the tension any stresses that you had in your body.

1247
02:25:35.639 --> 02:25:39.520
It's almost as if the parts of your body just

1248
02:25:39.799 --> 02:25:51.479
open up, allowing the negativity out and at the same

1249
02:25:51.639 --> 02:26:02.920
time replacing that negativity with positive heathing energy, which then

1250
02:26:03.079 --> 02:26:12.200
fills your body up and your mind to also starts

1251
02:26:12.399 --> 02:26:29.840
to appreciate those feelings of increasing confidence, an almost uplifting feeling,

1252
02:26:31.920 --> 02:26:45.959
positive healing, an energy that spreads through your body like

1253
02:26:46.079 --> 02:26:56.319
a wave of comfort. And all this comes from just

1254
02:27:00.000 --> 02:27:08.680
allowing yourself a few minutes, maybe half an hour, however

1255
02:27:08.799 --> 02:27:19.040
long you want it to be, just rest and allow

1256
02:27:21.639 --> 02:27:31.600
your mind and your body to almost reset itself to

1257
02:27:31.760 --> 02:27:47.920
the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness, which allows more

1258
02:27:48.079 --> 02:28:01.440
room for feelings of pleasure and happiness to move around

1259
02:28:01.760 --> 02:28:09.959
your body and into your mind. Almost as if your

1260
02:28:10.120 --> 02:28:21.120
mind and your body are sinking together, almost mirroring each other,

1261
02:28:22.159 --> 02:28:34.200
with that growing positivity and calmness, and it feels nice,

1262
02:28:36.840 --> 02:28:42.719
really does feel nice to know that you are the

1263
02:28:42.879 --> 02:28:56.159
one that has allowed yourself to feel more comfort and

1264
02:28:56.360 --> 02:28:59.000
to experience.

1265
02:29:00.719 --> 02:29:01.840
More of this.

1266
02:29:03.639 --> 02:29:18.799
Deep relaxation spreading throughout your body. And as I focus

1267
02:29:20.360 --> 02:29:26.120
on each part of your body, you can notice that

1268
02:29:26.319 --> 02:29:40.840
that part becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on it.

1269
02:29:43.399 --> 02:29:53.040
It becomes even more calm and comfortable just by focusing.

1270
02:29:57.120 --> 02:30:02.840
And as I move down your body, starting at your head,

1271
02:30:05.559 --> 02:30:10.840
the parts that you have already focused on will continue

1272
02:30:12.239 --> 02:30:19.319
to relax deeply, and those parts that have not yet

1273
02:30:19.520 --> 02:30:32.399
focused on or just automatically release any remain intention in

1274
02:30:32.559 --> 02:30:46.799
anticipation of even more comfort about to come. Now, I'm

1275
02:30:46.840 --> 02:30:53.280
going to start by focusing on your forehead. Just being

1276
02:30:53.440 --> 02:31:01.520
aware of the feelings of your forehead and then your

1277
02:31:01.559 --> 02:31:09.040
background sounds like mister Herbert the pigeon, can just allow

1278
02:31:09.159 --> 02:31:16.280
you to feel even more relaxed. Just means you in

1279
02:31:16.399 --> 02:31:24.440
the moment, this isn't this isn't a sterile environment. This

1280
02:31:24.639 --> 02:31:32.440
is the world. I live in the countryside, so there's

1281
02:31:32.559 --> 02:31:42.840
lots of nature sounds around, So as you focus on

1282
02:31:43.000 --> 02:31:50.559
your forehead, just notice how it becomes even more relaxed

1283
02:31:50.959 --> 02:31:59.840
as you focus only on my voice and that part

1284
02:32:00.079 --> 02:32:10.799
of your body. Moving down to your eyes, focusing on

1285
02:32:10.920 --> 02:32:24.280
your eyes, noticing how your eyelids feel so heavy yet

1286
02:32:24.479 --> 02:32:31.719
so light at the same time, and all the muscles

1287
02:32:31.760 --> 02:32:44.280
around your eyes relaxing completely. Moving your focus down to

1288
02:32:44.360 --> 02:32:51.399
your mouth, your lips, your tongue, your teeth, and your gums,

1289
02:32:53.760 --> 02:33:08.520
the whole of your mouth relaxing, calm and least as

1290
02:33:08.559 --> 02:33:16.600
you focus now on your jaw, not just the parts

1291
02:33:16.639 --> 02:33:21.040
of your jaw ney, your mouth, and your chin, but

1292
02:33:21.239 --> 02:33:25.360
all the way up the size of your face to

1293
02:33:25.440 --> 02:33:39.239
your ears, the hole of your jaw feeding more relaxed

1294
02:33:43.239 --> 02:34:00.799
and calm. Focusing on your neck, the front of your

1295
02:34:00.920 --> 02:34:13.360
neck and your throat relaxing and loose and calm. The

1296
02:34:13.760 --> 02:34:19.559
sides of your neck, right and left side of your

1297
02:34:19.680 --> 02:34:38.479
neck relaxed and lace and calm. And now the back

1298
02:34:38.600 --> 02:34:45.319
of your neck. Focusing on the back of your neck,

1299
02:34:51.280 --> 02:34:56.479
letting go of any tension that may have been there before,

1300
02:34:58.319 --> 02:35:12.479
and enjoying that sense of increasing comfort and release then

1301
02:35:12.559 --> 02:35:23.000
you can experience in the back of your neck. Moving

1302
02:35:23.239 --> 02:35:29.840
down your back and moving either side of your spine

1303
02:35:31.120 --> 02:35:35.840
right from the top of your back all the way

1304
02:35:36.079 --> 02:35:48.719
down to the bottom of your back down to your

1305
02:35:48.840 --> 02:35:59.360
lower back. As you move up and down your spine,

1306
02:36:01.520 --> 02:36:05.920
you can feel the muscles either side of your spine

1307
02:36:08.159 --> 02:36:22.719
relaxing even more. And as those muscles relax, that sense

1308
02:36:22.840 --> 02:36:33.280
of comfort starts to spread outwards from your spine into

1309
02:36:33.520 --> 02:36:40.120
both sides of your back, the top of your back,

1310
02:36:41.000 --> 02:36:47.239
the middle, and your lower back. And as you scan

1311
02:36:48.959 --> 02:36:56.760
gently and slowly up and down your back, there's the

1312
02:36:56.920 --> 02:37:02.760
muscles in the top of your back relax and become looser.

1313
02:37:07.120 --> 02:37:13.120
The muscles in the middle of your back also seem

1314
02:37:13.200 --> 02:37:22.719
to just almost divide from each other, separating and almost melting,

1315
02:37:28.520 --> 02:37:34.479
and in your lower back there seems to be an

1316
02:37:34.559 --> 02:37:48.719
extra special feeling of comfort. The spreads into your hips,

1317
02:37:51.040 --> 02:37:58.879
sit down, your lower back, into your hips, into the

1318
02:37:59.040 --> 02:38:05.600
area where it ox six are, and into your buttocks,

1319
02:38:07.719 --> 02:38:17.120
and always muscles that spread bring your life back into

1320
02:38:17.200 --> 02:38:30.479
your hip area, start to melt, start to reading, let

1321
02:38:30.600 --> 02:38:42.200
go and even nowhere about to focus on your shoulders,

1322
02:38:43.959 --> 02:38:50.959
Your back and your spine will continue to let go,

1323
02:38:54.000 --> 02:39:09.639
continue to relax so calmly, and as you focus on

1324
02:39:09.760 --> 02:39:22.680
your shoulders. You may notice they're already feeding, really loose,

1325
02:39:27.520 --> 02:39:53.920
they're already feeding calm. The feeling those muscles then move

1326
02:39:54.319 --> 02:40:10.159
from your neck into your shoulders feels so soft and gentle,

1327
02:40:14.280 --> 02:40:35.879
so smooth and calm, and the feeling in your shoulders

1328
02:40:43.200 --> 02:40:51.680
seems to spread deep into your shoulders, a sense of relaxation,

1329
02:40:52.920 --> 02:41:04.399
not just traveling deeply into your muscles, but also relaxing

1330
02:41:07.280 --> 02:41:17.159
the bones and moving all the way to underneath your arms,

1331
02:41:20.000 --> 02:41:25.920
relaxing a whole area between the tops of your shoulders

1332
02:41:27.239 --> 02:41:45.000
and underneath your arms healing. You feel so relaxed and

1333
02:41:45.280 --> 02:41:53.079
comfortable in your shoulders, which sense that.

1334
02:41:55.319 --> 02:41:57.319
Deep healing.

1335
02:42:00.360 --> 02:42:17.840
Message into your arms. You may feel almost as if

1336
02:42:17.920 --> 02:42:24.440
your arms are not even that because they're so relaxed,

1337
02:42:27.639 --> 02:42:38.000
so deeply relaxed, so.

1338
02:42:43.079 --> 02:42:58.639
Calm, So.

1339
02:43:13.120 --> 02:43:24.239
That feels spreading all the way down your arms, two elbows,

1340
02:43:28.040 --> 02:43:57.600
including your elbows circumforts, spreads your way into wrists, your forearms,

1341
02:43:58.159 --> 02:44:21.760
and your wrists so heavy, yet the same time, sunlight

1342
02:44:24.959 --> 02:44:52.079
and gentle frey sent.

1343
02:44:54.280 --> 02:44:55.280
Now on.

1344
02:44:57.959 --> 02:45:22.040
Your hands, my hands.

1345
02:45:27.920 --> 02:45:52.719
So peaceful in your hands, with a sense.

1346
02:45:52.479 --> 02:45:57.479
Of real pace.

1347
02:46:09.239 --> 02:46:23.000
It just seems to feel sip familion on your hands.

1348
02:46:23.319 --> 02:48:00.959
Relax deeply else your fingers. It's rich you think it

1349
02:48:01.159 --> 02:48:49.360
tips meving your attention. Let front your body so comfortable.

1350
02:49:00.680 --> 02:50:28.559
Then you focus j legs like muculs in your fids.

1351
02:50:44.840 --> 02:50:45.840
And niece.

1352
02:50:49.559 --> 02:53:26.680
I relaxed calf muscles, just shades cluzie I and the

1353
02:53:26.920 --> 02:53:55.760
fathing in your faith. Sir, peaceful circolm, sir, peaceful sircolm

1354
02:54:25.879 --> 02:54:36.479
s peace fall cycom so.

1355
02:54:38.440 --> 02:54:39.639
Peace for.

1356
02:54:48.479 --> 02:54:50.680
Re sner.

1357
02:54:55.360 --> 02:55:10.040
Peace f so calm, a lout.

1358
02:55:09.840 --> 02:55:17.079
Of that deep relaxation, to spread your chest in your storm,

1359
02:55:30.239 --> 02:55:49.000
lets you go everything. So I'm gonna start counting down

1360
02:55:49.120 --> 02:56:00.559
now from twenty down to one. You can imagine in

1361
02:56:00.639 --> 02:56:06.239
a way it's like just walking down some steps and

1362
02:56:06.360 --> 02:56:11.840
each step or twenty steps, and each step represents a

1363
02:56:12.079 --> 02:56:23.120
level of comfort. Each step represents a deepening.

1364
02:56:24.639 --> 02:56:26.159
Of that comfort.

1365
02:56:32.319 --> 02:56:38.000
And the furvies you walk down those steps to deeper

1366
02:56:38.399 --> 02:58:34.639
and more relaxed you feel. So starting with number twenty twenty, nineteen, eighteen, seven, ten,

1367
02:59:21.000 --> 03:03:28.239
sixteenhhhhh three fourhhhhhhhhhh four too well.

1368
03:05:15.719 --> 03:07:46.600
Nohhhhhhhh eight.

1369
03:08:46.040 --> 03:09:18.360
Siven most.

1370
03:09:53.840 --> 03:09:58.719
Would set.

1371
03:09:59.239 --> 03:10:24.159
U six.

1372
03:11:38.959 --> 03:13:09.440
Five four.

1373
03:13:02.239 --> 03:15:58.840
Da using.

1374
03:16:36.639 --> 03:17:27.079
One And now.

1375
03:17:31.559 --> 03:17:44.159
As you focus on your eyes, you're gonna count down

1376
03:17:44.600 --> 03:17:55.680
from ten down to one, focusing just on your eyes.

1377
03:17:59.440 --> 03:18:06.440
Your eyes, it's the muscles around your eyes, your eye

1378
03:18:06.760 --> 03:18:15.120
walls themselves, a whole area that makes up your eye.

1379
03:18:26.079 --> 03:18:31.319
And as we count down for ten down to one,

1380
03:18:33.920 --> 03:18:47.840
whilst focusing on your eyes, you become twice is relaxed

1381
03:18:50.079 --> 03:19:03.120
with each number counting down that you may find the

1382
03:19:03.280 --> 03:19:09.760
all you want to do is just drift off to sleep.

1383
03:19:12.760 --> 03:19:19.360
And if that's what you want, then just allow yourself

1384
03:19:19.479 --> 03:19:34.120
to do that. Now, focusing on your eyes, I'm going

1385
03:19:34.239 --> 03:19:44.200
to begin counting down from ten down to one right now,

1386
03:19:52.760 --> 03:23:51.760
ten nine eight seven I.

1387
03:24:03.399 --> 03:27:30.639
Us fourree.

1388
03:27:16.200 --> 03:29:07.319
Swoo, counting down from ten to one.

1389
03:29:09.399 --> 03:29:12.040
Ten nine.

1390
03:29:13.520 --> 03:29:41.200
Eight seven six five four three two one. And maybe

1391
03:29:41.360 --> 03:29:44.280
that was a bit too quick in order to relax.

1392
03:29:45.520 --> 03:29:49.760
Maybe it's a bit too fast for you to notice

1393
03:29:50.000 --> 03:29:58.079
the calming of your body, maybe even a little bit

1394
03:29:58.120 --> 03:30:02.239
of pressure there, Like you're counted down from ten to one.

1395
03:30:02.319 --> 03:30:05.719
Would you expect me to do? Man, expect me to

1396
03:30:05.799 --> 03:30:15.360
STI go with floppy just because you're counting down. I

1397
03:30:15.440 --> 03:30:18.719
could try it again, but this time I'll go a

1398
03:30:18.760 --> 03:30:26.159
bit slower. This time. As you focus on the whole

1399
03:30:26.239 --> 03:30:32.479
of your body before we focus on your legs, just

1400
03:30:32.760 --> 03:30:42.719
notice how your body does start to feel more relaxed

1401
03:30:47.520 --> 03:31:22.319
with every number that I count down ten nine, eight, seven, six,

1402
03:31:30.760 --> 03:32:39.719
five four three two one, And just notice how how

1403
03:32:39.799 --> 03:32:49.840
you feel, generally, how your body feels. It's not necessarily

1404
03:32:49.959 --> 03:33:00.360
even about counting down from ten to one. It's that

1405
03:33:00.639 --> 03:33:20.319
space that you have, that space between being active physically

1406
03:33:20.559 --> 03:33:30.159
or mentally to just sitting or lying down, just being there,

1407
03:33:30.879 --> 03:33:36.319
not doing anything, not saying anything, or needing to think

1408
03:33:36.440 --> 03:33:42.360
about anything. So it opens up a space, you know,

1409
03:33:42.520 --> 03:33:51.879
a bit of a space, a gap. And the more

1410
03:33:53.159 --> 03:33:56.479
I came down from ten to one, the bigger that

1411
03:33:56.719 --> 03:34:07.680
gap becomes. So there's that gap of calmness, of comfort, relaxation.

1412
03:34:13.600 --> 03:34:25.959
It's a nice feeling, and it moves those stresses or

1413
03:34:26.520 --> 03:34:30.719
discomforts physically or emotionally, moves them.

1414
03:34:32.239 --> 03:34:32.639
Away.

1415
03:34:39.399 --> 03:34:40.360
Allows you.

1416
03:34:43.079 --> 03:34:43.600
To just.

1417
03:34:46.559 --> 03:34:53.280
Slow down, someone to count again from ten down to one,

1418
03:34:53.719 --> 03:35:03.959
and notice that gap widening the gap. And as it widens,

1419
03:35:04.000 --> 03:35:10.040
it's almost like the stress and attention falls into the

1420
03:35:10.159 --> 03:35:28.000
gap and gives you that distance, that space.

1421
03:35:30.399 --> 03:35:35.760
Now, ten.

1422
03:35:40.200 --> 03:36:50.120
Nine, eight, seven, six, five four three.

1423
03:37:06.200 --> 03:37:25.159
Two one.

1424
03:37:36.680 --> 03:37:41.079
Now, how did your body feel.

1425
03:37:43.040 --> 03:37:43.200
Now?

1426
03:37:55.920 --> 03:38:07.879
Can you notice that? Do you feeling calmer? Are you

1427
03:38:08.159 --> 03:38:36.559
feeling more relaxed as we now focus on your legs,

1428
03:38:38.280 --> 03:38:58.719
just your legs. You're just gonna start with focusing on

1429
03:38:59.159 --> 03:39:18.319
your thighs. Of course, it's not the most exciting thing

1430
03:39:18.479 --> 03:39:25.000
to be doing, because I'm sure, like most of your

1431
03:39:25.040 --> 03:39:36.719
body is not a lot going on right now. Just

1432
03:39:36.920 --> 03:39:43.079
focusing on the whole of your thighs, the tops of

1433
03:39:43.159 --> 03:39:49.200
your thighs, the sides of your thighs, the bottoms of

1434
03:39:49.280 --> 03:39:56.239
your thighs, your outer thighs, and your inner thighs. Basically

1435
03:39:56.440 --> 03:39:59.959
the whole of your thigh that leads into your head

1436
03:40:04.159 --> 03:40:14.920
and it goes down to your knee joints. Now, this

1437
03:40:15.120 --> 03:40:22.559
is a big area. It's a very heavy area. It's

1438
03:40:22.719 --> 03:40:29.120
very strong, probably the strongest muscles in your body or

1439
03:40:29.200 --> 03:40:45.319
in your thighs. But I don't think we perhaps will

1440
03:40:45.399 --> 03:40:58.079
give enough attention to our thighs. Perhaps we don't acknowledge

1441
03:40:58.760 --> 03:41:18.159
how important our thighs are to our lives, how much

1442
03:41:20.799 --> 03:41:34.280
they actually do for us all through our lives. And

1443
03:41:34.399 --> 03:41:40.200
it may seem sound really weird, but I think that

1444
03:41:40.399 --> 03:41:48.280
all of our body parts, especially our thighs, needs some TLC,

1445
03:41:51.639 --> 03:42:08.719
a bit of love shown, a bit of acknowledgement, thank you, gratitude,

1446
03:42:11.680 --> 03:42:20.719
for our thighs do for us. And I know this

1447
03:42:21.000 --> 03:42:26.920
may sound a bit strange. Maybe you think, why am

1448
03:42:26.959 --> 03:42:30.479
I Surely I should be out in the garden hugging

1449
03:42:30.520 --> 03:42:38.440
a tree or something. Well, it's hard to set a

1450
03:42:38.520 --> 03:42:42.200
microphone up on a tree. That's why I'm doing this indoors.

1451
03:42:42.239 --> 03:42:46.040
Otherwise I wouldn't be outside hugging a tree. I can't

1452
03:42:46.040 --> 03:42:54.840
see the television from the tree. If you move down

1453
03:42:54.879 --> 03:43:04.639
to your knees gain such an important part. And I

1454
03:43:04.719 --> 03:43:11.559
think we don't necessarily I'll speak for myself here. I

1455
03:43:11.639 --> 03:43:16.600
don't necessarily appreciate all that my needs to do for

1456
03:43:16.760 --> 03:43:23.239
me until I have a problem with my knee. It's occasionally,

1457
03:43:23.280 --> 03:43:28.239
if I ever maybe i'll bash it or it's aching

1458
03:43:28.440 --> 03:43:34.799
for some reason. It's then that I realize how much

1459
03:43:34.959 --> 03:43:38.559
it does. You know, the benefit of being able to

1460
03:43:39.520 --> 03:43:48.760
use my legs without any kind of physical discomfort is

1461
03:43:49.559 --> 03:43:58.280
a beautiful thing that's possibly not appreciated until it's temporarily removed.

1462
03:43:59.440 --> 03:44:06.440
You know that comfort, But as you focus on your knees,

1463
03:44:08.559 --> 03:44:14.239
regardless of how your knees feel, you can have that

1464
03:44:14.520 --> 03:44:20.639
sense of gratitude and love to your knees for all

1465
03:44:20.799 --> 03:44:33.000
that they do for you, and you can still have

1466
03:44:33.159 --> 03:44:38.280
that attention on your thighs. Maybe notice how your thighs feel,

1467
03:44:40.440 --> 03:44:58.479
Maybe notice that they are relaxing more deeply as you

1468
03:44:58.639 --> 03:45:03.840
focus now on the bottoms of your legs, your shins,

1469
03:45:04.719 --> 03:45:11.200
and your calf muscles, the bones between your knees and

1470
03:45:11.319 --> 03:45:18.879
your feet incorporates, and of course your ankles so important.

1471
03:45:24.399 --> 03:45:29.000
You know, anyone that's had even like the slightest sprain

1472
03:45:29.120 --> 03:45:36.079
of an ankle knows how how much we take our

1473
03:45:36.319 --> 03:45:44.840
ankles for granted. And it's kind of strange in a

1474
03:45:44.920 --> 03:45:50.479
way when you think that. You know, logically, our wrists

1475
03:45:50.639 --> 03:45:53.520
are a lot thinner than the rest of our arms,

1476
03:45:54.639 --> 03:45:58.159
which is okay, it doesn't I can't see any problem

1477
03:45:58.159 --> 03:46:05.959
with that just picking stuff up. Our ankles so much

1478
03:46:06.239 --> 03:46:15.879
thinner than the rest of our legs, and from a

1479
03:46:15.959 --> 03:46:20.799
physics perspective or logical even it doesn't really make sense

1480
03:46:22.159 --> 03:46:29.520
that all this weight would ultimately be resting on your

1481
03:46:29.600 --> 03:46:44.639
ankles then leading to your feet, that thin area, thin bone. Yeah,

1482
03:46:44.680 --> 03:46:50.399
it does so much great work. Supports us, supports our

1483
03:46:50.520 --> 03:47:02.600
body for a lifetime, helps us to balance, It helps.

1484
03:47:02.319 --> 03:47:02.639
You to.

1485
03:47:06.600 --> 03:47:15.360
Get her around and be mobile. And there's the calf

1486
03:47:15.440 --> 03:47:23.440
muscles of course, when I was younger, I couldn't see

1487
03:47:23.440 --> 03:47:28.639
the point in calf muscles didn't seem to do anything. Okay,

1488
03:47:29.760 --> 03:47:33.280
if I walked around on tiptoes, then my calf muscles

1489
03:47:33.360 --> 03:47:36.840
get some work. But of course that's not true. The

1490
03:47:37.000 --> 03:47:41.360
calf muscles are being used whenever we use the legs,

1491
03:47:47.000 --> 03:47:59.559
and your shins there to protect your lower legs, shaped

1492
03:47:59.600 --> 03:48:04.360
in a way, almost as a protector for the bone,

1493
03:48:11.959 --> 03:48:23.840
leading of course to your ankles and your feet. But

1494
03:48:23.959 --> 03:48:25.840
we're not going to focus on your feet. We're just

1495
03:48:25.920 --> 03:48:32.079
going to focus on the legs. And I realize, and

1496
03:48:32.200 --> 03:48:35.920
now that I haven't mentioned your feet, you'll probably focusing

1497
03:48:36.200 --> 03:48:39.280
on them anyway, So maybe I should focus on your

1498
03:48:39.319 --> 03:48:45.159
feet a little bit. You can have them in your

1499
03:48:45.200 --> 03:48:51.600
awareness the same as you have your thighs in your awareness.

1500
03:48:52.440 --> 03:48:56.280
Even though we haven't been focusing on your thighs for

1501
03:48:56.319 --> 03:49:07.319
a few minutes, let me focusing on your ankles. There's

1502
03:49:07.360 --> 03:49:22.559
still that sensation of comfort in your thighs, and there's

1503
03:49:22.680 --> 03:49:31.920
that movement of energy because the thighs hold lots of

1504
03:49:31.959 --> 03:49:38.159
different sensations. Of course, there's the muscles, the big straw

1505
03:49:38.360 --> 03:49:50.360
muscles that we have in our thighs, but the skin

1506
03:49:52.280 --> 03:49:56.719
on the outside of the thighs, as in the outside

1507
03:49:56.799 --> 03:50:06.159
of all of our body, can be very sensitive, sensitive

1508
03:50:06.319 --> 03:50:19.319
to the touch, sensitive to temperature. And inside your thighs

1509
03:50:21.840 --> 03:50:26.600
the bones, there's the muscle, there's the blood, vessels, the

1510
03:50:26.840 --> 03:50:32.319
ar trees, to all this stuff that's inside your thighs.

1511
03:50:36.760 --> 03:50:40.120
I guess sometimes it'd be nice if you could actually

1512
03:50:40.200 --> 03:50:47.600
put your fingers inside your thighs and a message, so

1513
03:50:47.719 --> 03:50:51.239
you can message on the outside, of course, but to

1514
03:50:51.280 --> 03:50:54.559
be able to get deep into the muscles, to be

1515
03:50:54.600 --> 03:50:59.680
able to just message inside your thighs, message in the

1516
03:50:59.760 --> 03:51:08.840
bones of your leg, massage in all the veins, just

1517
03:51:09.079 --> 03:51:21.760
gently healing your thighs and you can move down message

1518
03:51:21.840 --> 03:51:27.360
and inside your knees, just message in those bones, but

1519
03:51:27.520 --> 03:51:34.479
with healing fingertips spreading that healing energy deep into the

1520
03:51:34.719 --> 03:51:44.120
choice of your knees. Of course, there's the back of

1521
03:51:44.280 --> 03:51:50.319
your your need and the inside crease where your need is.

1522
03:51:52.000 --> 03:51:57.479
It's a very sensitive area. Very it feels very nice

1523
03:51:57.559 --> 03:52:02.440
when you stroke. It might be because it's an area

1524
03:52:02.520 --> 03:52:07.600
that's not really touched very often. It's almost like a

1525
03:52:07.760 --> 03:52:16.559
hidden part, that crease in your legs. It's almost like

1526
03:52:16.639 --> 03:52:21.399
a part that has a sensitivity which is a little

1527
03:52:21.399 --> 03:52:39.440
bit different. Of course, it's protected by your legs. So

1528
03:52:39.520 --> 03:52:44.559
you can imagine putting your fingers into that crease in

1529
03:52:44.639 --> 03:52:53.760
your legs. Folded in between your legs, you can just

1530
03:52:54.000 --> 03:53:01.520
message with your fingertips. Imagine your fingertips going inside, massage

1531
03:53:01.600 --> 03:53:09.600
in the muscle tissue. You can of course field the

1532
03:53:10.680 --> 03:53:23.479
bones of your knees heading through your fingertips, and then

1533
03:53:23.520 --> 03:53:29.280
as you go down to your calf muscles, and that's

1534
03:53:29.360 --> 03:53:32.840
the part I'd like to be able to really put

1535
03:53:32.920 --> 03:53:39.799
my fingertips deep inside my calf muscles, massage in every

1536
03:53:41.479 --> 03:53:54.239
single tissue of that muscle, healing every part, and then

1537
03:53:54.319 --> 03:54:02.079
doing the same for my shins, massage and generally stroking

1538
03:54:02.280 --> 03:54:08.639
the bones, generally stroking them, healing in a loving way

1539
03:54:09.920 --> 03:54:16.319
because they deserve to be treated. There's the precious bones

1540
03:54:16.399 --> 03:54:21.040
that they are, because our legs are so precious as

1541
03:54:21.120 --> 03:54:25.799
in all the other parts of our body, the more

1542
03:54:25.879 --> 03:54:40.000
precious of any jure on the planet. When you start

1543
03:54:40.159 --> 03:54:52.040
to think about your legs in this way, it can

1544
03:54:52.319 --> 03:55:01.799
change your perspective. It might sound a bit a bit

1545
03:55:02.040 --> 03:55:07.520
silly to start with the idea of having love for

1546
03:55:07.600 --> 03:55:16.959
your legs, showing appreciation for your thighs, wanting to be

1547
03:55:17.040 --> 03:55:24.440
able to put your hands in your thighs, massage the

1548
03:55:24.600 --> 03:55:30.479
muscles and the bones, and to get your fingers deep

1549
03:55:30.600 --> 03:55:40.319
in there, releasing all tension. Just to show how much

1550
03:55:40.440 --> 03:55:47.920
you care about your legs, how much you care for

1551
03:55:49.040 --> 03:55:57.000
what your legs do for you regularly, your knees, your calves,

1552
03:55:58.319 --> 03:56:10.559
your ankles, the strength of your ankles, considering how thin

1553
03:56:10.719 --> 03:56:14.280
they are compared to the rest of your legs, especially

1554
03:56:14.399 --> 03:56:29.079
your thighs. Yeah, they're so strong, so flexible, absolutely amazing things.

1555
03:56:30.360 --> 03:56:40.000
Your ankles are truly a gift because of what they

1556
03:56:40.159 --> 03:56:51.879
do for you, supporting all that weight, regardless of how

1557
03:56:52.040 --> 03:56:56.040
what weight you are, even if you only eat ate stone,

1558
03:56:58.120 --> 03:57:01.399
there's still a lot of weight for these little ankles.

1559
03:57:05.040 --> 03:57:09.280
How am a lot heavier than eight stand? Double down,

1560
03:57:12.760 --> 03:57:21.719
Get my ankles support my body all the time, or

1561
03:57:21.799 --> 03:57:24.680
they do give off a sigh of relief when I

1562
03:57:24.799 --> 03:57:29.479
sit down. That's you've had my whole.

1563
03:57:29.319 --> 03:57:29.959
Legs though.

1564
03:57:33.399 --> 03:57:40.760
My feet feet or so go. My toes clap so happy.

1565
03:58:00.559 --> 03:58:10.159
Your legs really are amazing, And I know they're talking about.

1566
03:58:10.680 --> 03:58:16.520
Talking about your legs is probably possibly among the most

1567
03:58:17.440 --> 03:58:24.959
most boring things you've ever heard anyone say possibly you're

1568
03:58:25.079 --> 03:58:31.920
boring or not. Everything I said is true. Your legs

1569
03:58:32.559 --> 03:58:52.120
are amazing. Your legs deserve not just respect, but they

1570
03:58:52.239 --> 03:58:53.799
deserve to relax.

1571
03:58:55.159 --> 03:58:55.520
Deeply.

1572
03:59:02.840 --> 03:59:06.159
They deserve to take some time out of the day

1573
03:59:08.360 --> 03:59:37.120
to just let go completely. Your legs really can relax

1574
03:59:44.920 --> 03:59:48.840
because the legs are so such a most, you know,

1575
03:59:49.120 --> 03:59:55.040
very important part of your body. When you relax your legs,

1576
03:59:55.120 --> 04:00:02.360
the rest of your body also naturally follows in that

1577
04:00:06.079 --> 04:00:16.920
journey of comfort. I can feel it in my hips.

1578
04:00:18.319 --> 04:00:25.440
My hips feel really loose, and also my lower back

1579
04:00:25.520 --> 04:00:32.120
as well. My lower back really feels it feels stretched,

1580
04:00:33.239 --> 04:00:36.280
even though I'm just sitting in a chair and there's

1581
04:00:36.360 --> 04:00:41.600
no stretching as far as I'm aware that I'm doing.

1582
04:00:42.639 --> 04:00:45.280
It's almost as if the muscles are just relaxed so

1583
04:00:45.520 --> 04:00:51.440
much that there is a natural stretch as the tension

1584
04:00:52.360 --> 04:01:13.600
has reduced a lot. And I'm now going to count

1585
04:01:13.680 --> 04:01:23.440
down from ten downs one, and you can continue to

1586
04:01:23.639 --> 04:01:54.559
fill wonderfully relaxed ten nine, eight, seven, six, five, four

1587
04:01:57.920 --> 04:02:22.719
three two. Why relax? So I'm just going to count

1588
04:02:22.799 --> 04:02:29.239
down five down to one, and as a countdown, if

1589
04:02:29.280 --> 04:02:36.360
you just focus on the numbers, just the numbers counting down.

1590
04:02:37.440 --> 04:02:46.559
And notice how you feel in this moment as you

1591
04:02:46.719 --> 04:02:54.239
hear the numbers counting down, knowing that those numbers counting

1592
04:02:54.319 --> 04:03:04.479
down represent you feeling calmer, not just in your body,

1593
04:03:04.639 --> 04:03:12.959
but also relaxing your mind. Just notice how you feel.

1594
04:03:13.879 --> 04:03:19.760
There's nothing to do, there's nothing to say, there's nothing

1595
04:03:19.920 --> 04:03:56.920
to think about, starting with number five, four, three, two.

1596
04:04:02.719 --> 04:04:02.959
One.

1597
04:04:12.399 --> 04:04:24.840
And as you notice the gradual letting go the tension

1598
04:04:25.079 --> 04:04:32.200
in your body, you may also begin to notice and

1599
04:04:32.360 --> 04:04:41.360
be aware of how your mind is starting to slow down.

1600
04:04:43.879 --> 04:04:50.200
This is just a natural thing that happens. It's not

1601
04:04:50.440 --> 04:04:55.600
really a special procedure. It's just natural because as your

1602
04:04:56.920 --> 04:05:02.879
body relaxes, your mind also starts to relax. And the

1603
04:05:03.000 --> 04:05:06.639
more your mind relaxes, the more your body relaxes. It's

1604
04:05:06.799 --> 04:05:18.879
just a continuous circle of relaxation. And there's that calmness

1605
04:05:19.079 --> 04:05:26.280
that comes from relative quietness. You know, even even if

1606
04:05:26.280 --> 04:05:33.120
there's background sounds eibe, your side or mine is still

1607
04:05:33.639 --> 04:05:38.879
going to be quite calm. You know, you haven't got

1608
04:05:38.920 --> 04:05:44.079
the television on, there's no music in the background. Unless

1609
04:05:44.120 --> 04:05:51.559
you're listening to the recorded with music, of course, you're

1610
04:05:51.719 --> 04:05:53.840
very likely not going to be sitting in a room

1611
04:05:53.879 --> 04:05:58.440
with other people. Of course you might be, but generally

1612
04:05:58.600 --> 04:06:01.760
it's morene deal if you can do this on your own,

1613
04:06:03.479 --> 04:06:13.520
so no distractions, and when you stop thinking about stuff,

1614
04:06:20.120 --> 04:06:30.399
relaxation automatically rises, a sense of comfort starts to grow,

1615
04:06:34.920 --> 04:06:41.559
and without trying to build it up into something fantastical

1616
04:06:42.000 --> 04:06:53.719
or something magical, this is just a natural process, something

1617
04:06:53.879 --> 04:07:04.840
that's easy to accomplish. In fact, it's almost the sense

1618
04:07:04.959 --> 04:07:11.760
of relaxing completely happens really when you put no effort

1619
04:07:12.120 --> 04:07:16.000
into it. It's not something that you can really force.

1620
04:07:18.600 --> 04:07:28.000
It's something that happens naturally. And part of the process

1621
04:07:28.399 --> 04:07:39.600
of this recording and others is simply two allow you

1622
04:07:42.000 --> 04:07:45.959
to take advantage of this space.

1623
04:07:48.639 --> 04:07:52.879
This time. It's just.

1624
04:07:57.040 --> 04:08:04.600
Let go to just be here, to be in tune

1625
04:08:08.280 --> 04:08:20.360
with how you feel, yet with the intention of wanting

1626
04:08:20.680 --> 04:08:32.760
to relax deeply and maybe even to fall asleep, depending

1627
04:08:33.000 --> 04:08:39.200
on what it is that you wish for yourself in

1628
04:08:39.360 --> 04:08:55.520
this moment. As we know, relaxing is the majority of

1629
04:08:55.639 --> 04:09:00.520
the process of falling asleep. The actual falling asleep is

1630
04:09:01.559 --> 04:09:09.520
the tiny bit at the end. The deeper relaxed you become,

1631
04:09:13.479 --> 04:09:31.479
the easier you find yourself drifting. You can also, if

1632
04:09:31.520 --> 04:09:42.319
you choose, stay focused on my voice and really enjoy

1633
04:09:48.280 --> 04:10:11.559
the process, gradually relax in each muscle in your body

1634
04:10:16.639 --> 04:10:45.760
effortlessly and just observing the sensation of letting go completely.

1635
04:10:51.799 --> 04:10:55.840
This time, I'm going to count from six down to one,

1636
04:11:00.680 --> 04:11:09.879
and you can notice your mind calming down more with

1637
04:11:10.280 --> 04:11:23.920
each number that you hear me say, naturally, feeling calm

1638
04:11:24.440 --> 04:14:02.600
and slow, to be peaceful sex five, four, three, one,

1639
04:14:23.760 --> 04:14:33.319
being aware of how your mind to slowed, rite down,

1640
04:14:36.600 --> 04:14:59.600
sinking deeply into relaxation as you focus on your.

1641
04:14:59.559 --> 04:15:00.600
Way, did.

1642
04:15:03.840 --> 04:15:13.120
May notice that there are some thoughts still there, maybe

1643
04:15:13.280 --> 04:15:23.040
some stubborn thoughts that for some reason perhaps need your attention.

1644
04:15:29.959 --> 04:15:38.840
That's what you can do is send love to those thoughts.

1645
04:15:42.120 --> 04:15:44.639
Sprinkle those thoughts.

1646
04:15:48.840 --> 04:15:49.559
With love.

1647
04:15:51.360 --> 04:15:57.280
All petals from a flower. Just sprinkle it over them, petals,

1648
04:15:57.360 --> 04:16:04.559
feel good love towards those thoughts, to let those thoughts

1649
04:16:04.760 --> 04:16:11.600
know that you're not abandon the number. You just need them.

1650
04:16:12.840 --> 04:16:24.760
You require them to just calm down, slow down, quiet down.

1651
04:16:28.440 --> 04:16:28.840
For now.

1652
04:16:36.719 --> 04:16:37.200
So as you.

1653
04:16:37.319 --> 04:16:42.680
Focus on those remaining thoughts as we count down this

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time from seven down to one. With each number, just

1655
04:16:51.159 --> 04:17:07.000
imagine sprinkling those flower petals of love, kindness, gratitude over

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04:17:07.159 --> 04:17:16.680
those thoughts, which will allow them to just not away

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04:17:18.079 --> 04:17:31.840
and relax deeply. With every number, those thoughts will become

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more and more relaxed, starting with number seven, six, five, four.

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Four.

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Now, lets you now notice how relaxed your feeling in

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04:20:31.680 --> 04:20:53.200
your body. We got to focus on your hands, because

1662
04:20:53.319 --> 04:20:59.520
the more relaxed your hands are, the more relaxed your

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04:20:59.639 --> 04:21:21.959
body and mind. This you focus on your hands and

1664
04:21:22.120 --> 04:21:32.159
your fingers. There's nothing needed to be done. There's no

1665
04:21:32.440 --> 04:21:37.760
clinching the fists, dance in the fingers or anything like that.

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04:21:45.200 --> 04:21:59.200
It's just noticing and focusing on your hands, noticing the

1667
04:21:59.280 --> 04:22:24.239
earlift feel because the all relax your hands feel, the

1668
04:22:24.479 --> 04:22:36.520
calm on your mind feels more comforts you feel throughout

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04:22:36.840 --> 04:22:37.479
your body.

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04:22:43.399 --> 04:22:46.559
Jee may.

1671
04:22:48.840 --> 04:23:17.520
Have already noticed you a mind is starting to dress

1672
04:23:31.319 --> 04:23:45.399
like sap. Just on your hands and fingers, allowing and

1673
04:23:46.760 --> 04:23:59.840
cheap experience. I'm real deepening of that relaxation and you

1674
04:24:00.040 --> 04:24:26.799
my hands and fingers or relaxed. With each number from

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04:24:26.959 --> 04:24:40.360
eight down to one, you can almost feel like healing

1676
04:24:42.079 --> 04:24:53.680
relax energy spread it into your hands and fingers, becoming

1677
04:25:01.680 --> 04:25:19.760
relaxing with each number going down eight down to one

1678
04:25:23.959 --> 04:25:47.760
to drift down to drifting again, started with number eight

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04:26:25.440 --> 04:29:41.840
seven four three just being here now, nothing to think about,

1680
04:29:43.600 --> 04:29:54.760
nothing to do, nothing to say, and everything just feels calm.

1681
04:29:59.719 --> 04:30:07.479
This is your natural state of being. This is how

1682
04:30:07.639 --> 04:30:14.200
you just normally feel when you take away all that

1683
04:30:14.639 --> 04:30:22.239
other stuff that we add and thinks like stress and

1684
04:30:22.440 --> 04:30:23.120
way we're here.

1685
04:30:26.120 --> 04:30:27.120
Over thick.

1686
04:30:30.120 --> 04:30:38.680
Anxiety and tension him thinking about studies.

1687
04:30:40.799 --> 04:30:44.760
You take that away, which is what you do. What

1688
04:30:44.879 --> 04:30:45.600
you do now.

1689
04:30:52.040 --> 04:31:03.280
You left with a real sense of insuce, which comes

1690
04:31:03.440 --> 04:31:12.760
to you very quickly because ansomately it's just a feeling,

1691
04:31:17.159 --> 04:31:25.479
a feeling of comfort, most as if you've got inside

1692
04:31:25.559 --> 04:31:37.760
yourself and you've found a special place where everything is peaceful.

1693
04:31:40.920 --> 04:31:48.559
Place week in the film Relaxed as your actual sense

1694
04:31:48.639 --> 04:32:01.200
of confident, a place where you can be here, accept

1695
04:32:01.319 --> 04:32:07.920
yourself and you are the place where you're not trying

1696
04:32:08.000 --> 04:32:23.920
to please anybody else, place where you can actually not

1697
04:32:24.280 --> 04:32:29.479
just love yourself, but in some ways more importantly, you

1698
04:32:29.600 --> 04:32:46.520
can like yourself, appreciate who do you want, a sense

1699
04:32:46.600 --> 04:33:01.440
of gratitude, see the air around That's also a place

1700
04:33:01.680 --> 04:33:11.840
where you can actually feel the healing energy soaking into

1701
04:33:11.959 --> 04:33:29.959
your body, healing energy soaking into your body. A healing

1702
04:33:30.200 --> 04:33:41.159
energy spreads through your veins, traveling too each every single

1703
04:33:41.560 --> 04:33:52.720
part of your body. You start to realize to actually

1704
04:33:53.560 --> 04:33:59.599
a healing energy. It's not just entered into your brain,

1705
04:34:02.439 --> 04:34:11.959
it's become a part of your brain. The spinal fluid

1706
04:34:14.639 --> 04:34:17.159
is now mixed up here, the energy.

1707
04:34:22.159 --> 04:34:22.639
Not just.

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04:34:24.759 --> 04:34:31.240
Allowing you to feel so much more relaxed and healthy

1709
04:34:32.759 --> 04:34:44.200
in this moment, but also you start to realize that actually,

1710
04:34:46.680 --> 04:34:55.680
what's happening now without a healing, relaxing energy spreading through

1711
04:34:55.799 --> 04:35:06.840
your body, it's actually changed in your life. It's actually

1712
04:35:08.159 --> 04:35:11.959
changing the way you're going to feel not just now,

1713
04:35:13.759 --> 04:35:20.560
but tomorrow and the next day. As your health improves,

1714
04:35:24.200 --> 04:35:31.520
not just your physical health, but your mental health. Things

1715
04:35:31.919 --> 04:35:37.159
that used to bother you in the past, for some reason,

1716
04:35:38.360 --> 04:35:45.919
no longer have the effect that they used to because

1717
04:35:46.040 --> 04:35:57.680
something has changed deep within you. Maybe things that used

1718
04:35:57.759 --> 04:36:08.200
to cause you to feel anger no longer have that

1719
04:36:09.119 --> 04:36:13.319
power to control you.

1720
04:36:15.799 --> 04:36:17.000
The way they seem to.

1721
04:36:17.040 --> 04:36:25.919
Be able to before. As you realize that you're the

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04:36:26.080 --> 04:36:39.360
one who decides what affects you, you're the one who

1723
04:36:39.479 --> 04:36:53.240
decides to feel relaxed and calm when you choose to

1724
04:36:53.560 --> 04:37:08.159
enjoy noticing these natural developers and healing continue to grow

1725
04:37:10.959 --> 04:37:22.279
and improve your life day by day. Include of course,

1726
04:37:22.400 --> 04:37:35.119
your ability to relax so much easier and sleep in.

1727
04:37:39.720 --> 04:37:45.400
It's the most natural thing in the world to you

1728
04:37:49.919 --> 04:37:53.479
because for in, the sleep is something that you've done

1729
04:37:56.520 --> 04:38:04.200
so many times in your life, and you know that

1730
04:38:04.400 --> 04:38:09.639
you were born, as we all were, with the ability

1731
04:38:11.240 --> 04:38:20.119
to fall asleep or naturally we were born with that

1732
04:38:21.000 --> 04:38:32.560
ability to just drift off into a deep, healing sleep.

1733
04:38:38.520 --> 04:38:39.439
Even when we're.

1734
04:38:39.400 --> 04:38:43.799
Kids, sometimes we will fall asleep and we don't even

1735
04:38:43.919 --> 04:38:50.040
want to try to think stay awake. Maybe it's a

1736
04:38:50.159 --> 04:38:54.639
birthday in the morning, or it's Christmas or holiday or

1737
04:38:54.720 --> 04:38:57.119
something we look forward to. I don't want to go

1738
04:38:57.279 --> 04:39:04.400
to sleep. The more we want to stay awake, the

1739
04:39:04.599 --> 04:39:12.159
more we just start to drift. And the more you

1740
04:39:12.360 --> 04:39:16.599
fights drifting, we right stop yourself and drift in the

1741
04:39:16.680 --> 04:39:29.799
same the depot is stronger thatut drifting becomes because we're

1742
04:39:29.880 --> 04:39:36.799
born not just with the need to relax deeply and

1743
04:39:36.959 --> 04:39:46.599
to naturally fall asleep, but it's our birth right, it's

1744
04:39:46.720 --> 04:39:57.200
part of our DNA. And sometimes as we get older

1745
04:39:57.319 --> 04:40:10.759
in life, perhaps times we have forgotten relaxing completely.

1746
04:40:12.520 --> 04:40:14.560
It's not only a.

1747
04:40:14.880 --> 04:40:25.880
Wonderfully pleasant experience, it's also really easy.

1748
04:40:37.240 --> 04:40:41.880
It's very very easy to let.

1749
04:40:41.880 --> 04:40:45.080
Go, because that's all it is.

1750
04:40:45.240 --> 04:40:45.759
It's just.

1751
04:40:49.279 --> 04:41:00.680
Decided to let go. And when you press the play

1752
04:41:00.799 --> 04:41:11.040
button on my recordings, you have given permission from my

1753
04:41:11.279 --> 04:41:20.439
voice to relax. When you press that play button, you

1754
04:41:20.560 --> 04:41:31.360
have given me permission for my words to effect you

1755
04:41:32.040 --> 04:41:48.520
in a positive, only a positive way, opening up your

1756
04:41:48.639 --> 04:42:01.400
mind to useful and healing suggestions.

1757
04:42:05.959 --> 04:42:06.599
They can have.

1758
04:42:11.159 --> 04:42:18.599
Such an amazing effect on how you feel right now,

1759
04:42:23.360 --> 04:42:30.880
as well as those changes that continue.

1760
04:42:31.959 --> 04:42:33.240
Long after the.

1761
04:42:33.319 --> 04:42:43.959
Recording ends, those changes within you, they continue to flourish

1762
04:42:44.840 --> 04:42:59.400
and grow, transforming your life in a positive, beautiful way,

1763
04:43:02.479 --> 04:43:09.560
allowing you to move forward in your life in the

1764
04:43:09.680 --> 04:43:27.639
direction that you choose for yourself. This feeling is feeding

1765
04:43:27.959 --> 04:43:43.439
the hue and experience of safety, comfort, calmness. This feels

1766
04:43:43.560 --> 04:44:04.880
so nice, such a healthy place to be, and that

1767
04:44:05.279 --> 04:44:27.080
positivity grows within it every day. Moving forward, you had

1768
04:44:27.159 --> 04:44:38.319
to find them. You're more relaxed physically and in your mind.

1769
04:44:39.720 --> 04:44:46.799
It's more relaxed, And it's not that you're.

1770
04:44:46.799 --> 04:44:52.479
Thinking slower, it's just that your mind would be less

1771
04:44:53.439 --> 04:45:05.319
knock up with unnecessary negativity because from now your mind

1772
04:45:05.599 --> 04:45:18.959
rejects negativity. From now you're going to start noticing when

1773
04:45:19.119 --> 04:45:36.200
negativity arises. You can just say stop, stop and the negativity.

1774
04:45:37.880 --> 04:45:40.959
Will turn around and leave you alone.

1775
04:45:48.959 --> 04:46:08.599
Stop and the negativity disappear. And did you notice that

1776
04:46:08.840 --> 04:46:16.880
you feel way more relaxed than you've probably expected.

1777
04:46:23.119 --> 04:46:24.200
You can now.

1778
04:46:27.560 --> 04:46:33.400
Congratulate yourself because you're the person that has done this.

1779
04:46:35.159 --> 04:46:41.360
You another one that has opened your mind up to

1780
04:46:41.520 --> 04:46:49.520
the simple facts. And you can feel more relaxed in

1781
04:46:49.639 --> 04:46:59.560
your body and in your mind. You've opened your mind

1782
04:46:59.720 --> 04:47:07.680
up to the birthright of being able to just fall

1783
04:47:07.720 --> 04:47:22.240
asleep easily with you choose. And that's a nice feeling,

1784
04:47:23.919 --> 04:47:28.479
don't you think? Who's nice? Doesn't it.

1785
04:47:31.599 --> 04:47:36.520
To feel calm? Who hear?

1786
04:47:36.639 --> 04:47:40.880
The energy is spreading through your body in your mind

1787
04:47:47.400 --> 04:47:58.240
to spend time a special place where negativity can no

1788
04:47:58.479 --> 04:48:12.040
longer inter Negativity is banned. It's good, it's not allowed entry,

1789
04:48:14.759 --> 04:48:19.080
doesn't doesn't this doesn't deserve to be here, doesn't been

1790
04:48:19.279 --> 04:48:37.720
long here. Negativity has no place in your life, which

1791
04:48:37.880 --> 04:48:38.720
makes room.

1792
04:48:38.639 --> 04:48:40.919
For more comfort.

1793
04:48:42.639 --> 04:48:47.880
Or heath, or relaxation.

1794
04:48:52.080 --> 04:49:10.959
Or peace. Feels nice as that.

1795
04:49:12.880 --> 04:49:39.360
Just everything A count down now from twenty down to one.

1796
04:49:42.799 --> 04:49:45.200
You can continue to relax.

1797
04:49:47.919 --> 04:49:55.040
Shoes care to sleep.

1798
04:49:58.400 --> 04:50:10.720
A different number, He will say film twice is relaxed.

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04:50:13.680 --> 04:50:40.680
Who if you change PHILM twice Sleeping now twenty ninety

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eighteen seventeen six stad nine n six five.

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This is your time. Just take a break, your time.

1802
04:53:33.040 --> 04:53:49.360
Relax, so allow your way to slide down, to give

1803
04:53:49.439 --> 04:53:51.360
yourself a permission.

1804
04:53:55.560 --> 04:54:08.919
To take a break from everything. And Julie I the

1805
04:54:09.119 --> 04:54:16.279
person that can make that. Listen, the young person who

1806
04:54:16.360 --> 04:54:24.319
can actually tell you why just reacts.

1807
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To just.

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04:54:36.040 --> 04:54:37.159
Take some guy.

1809
04:54:39.000 --> 04:54:51.799
Off so you can focus on the body, letting touch

1810
04:54:53.360 --> 04:55:10.319
how you feel physically and in the process it's pretty

1811
04:55:10.479 --> 04:55:21.639
scared way focus on different parts of the body. Those

1812
04:55:21.959 --> 04:55:29.159
parts focus on and observe even both.

1813
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Perhaps the questioned.

1814
04:55:35.759 --> 04:55:41.639
Those parts were putting into reacts. It's kind of expected.

1815
04:55:43.520 --> 04:55:59.759
Expect when you listens feels naturally because when you listen

1816
04:56:00.119 --> 04:56:15.880
to me attention it's focused on my words. It's my words,

1817
04:56:16.840 --> 04:56:41.040
guid's you focus games parts by focus increases its actually.

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Can't to mind.

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My times now. As axes starts, fature shows spots attention

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speaking speech screen such.

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Switch sits

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