June 2, 2025

(music) (5 hours) Buddhism | Monday’s Boring Objects | LMBYTS #1363 | 2nd June 2025

(music) (5 hours) Buddhism | Monday’s Boring Objects | LMBYTS #1363 | 2nd June 2025
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Hello, Hello, Welcome to Jasonnewland dot com. My name is

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Jason Newland and this is let Me Buoy You to Sleep.

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Please only listen when you can safety close your eyes,

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and this is Monday's boring Objects.

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I hope you will.

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I actually started this recording to do a kind of

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a relaxation recording, and I realized that it's just not

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quite enough to do that. Here.

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Too much noise, too much background noise.

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Vinnie's like cleaning himself and it's weird. So yeah, I'm

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gonna do this instead because he is a part of

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the let Me boy You to Sleep or to let

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Me Bore Your Pain Away recordings. And those that listen regularly.

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Know who Vinnie is.

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You know that he's a little Jack Russell, little red

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Jack Russell who likes to be involved. He's kind of

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like my co host in a weird way. Very weird way, really,

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isn't it. So I've ordered some shopping and it's apparently

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it's on its way. It should be here in about

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twenty minutes. And then I've got a meeting a friend

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for coffee at this afternoon. So that's the first time

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I've been out anywhere in public since.

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Wow. December.

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Yeah, first time I've been out anywhere since December, because

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that was when I went saw my dad at the

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pub just before Christmas.

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I mean, I go to the park.

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And I have been to the pet shop probably since then.

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I'm into the garage a couple of times, but I

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don't like going to the garage anymore. I have been

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to the pharmacy probably a couple of times in that time.

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I mean last month I didn't go, but all the

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other months I did. This month I didn't go, but

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I've got a neighbor that I asked a neighbor to

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go and collect it for me, and they did, which

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is grew groovy. So probably January, February, March, January, February,

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March I got them. You know, I probably had to

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go and collect themselves. Maybe not January, but definitely February.

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Much But I haven't been in a public place, you know,

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sitting down with humans around me. So it's going to

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be a bit strange, but it's okay.

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It's a very old.

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Friend, someone I've known for a long time. I'm thinking

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I'm going to talk about Buddhism because it's a Buddhist friend.

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I'm meeting, and I don't want to really focus on

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him as the boring object. And also I don't think.

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I don't think that anything I talk about is boring.

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Is just.

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Yeah, that's the thing.

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I hope people don't think that if I was going

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to talk about let's say, yeah, train spotting or a

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subject that's some people would be absolutely engrossed and fascinated.

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We can absolutely love that I'm mocking it and corn

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it boring because I'm not. I mean, look at some

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of the subjects that I've covered in my Boring Objects.

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I say, look, I don't know what I had myself.

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I'm gonna have to go and look. I going look, look, look, look, look,

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look look where is it? Okay, sleepy boring objects? Monday's

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Sleepy Boring Objects. So I've now done I've done a lot.

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There's a lot of a lot of episodes.

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But and when I first started doing them, I did

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the first song was rain. Okay, that's not something I

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particularly find interesting. Hair, that's the number one I don't

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particularly find interesting. Bricks, so you know, printers, cameras, plugs,

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so I was talking about really random just objects, and

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then swimming pools, ovens, hitch hiking books. Now, there's nothing

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boring about books to me. So that was something that

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I've had a big interest in over the years. And

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once I actually get my eyes tested and get some

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proper glasses, I will be getting back into reading the

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books once my eyes work. Microphones, that's not a boring subject. Well,

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mops now that probably is. So yeah, I don't know

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how manage you talk about mops for thirty five minutes.

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Wallpaper, I mean, that is.

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The epiphany of boringness, isn't it really wallpaper or a

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painted wall? Train? Spotters, games, beds as jobs, baths now

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the jobs only lasted thirty eight minutes fifty nine seconds

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when that was the eighteenth of October twenty twenty one.

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So yeah, I started doing these sleepy boarding objects on

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the ninth of August twenty twenty one, so I've been

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doing it for a while now. I yeah, I could

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have made that jobs one last for about ten hours.

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Really.

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I got baths, wooden benches. Belgium again. I love Belgium.

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I got It's like, I don't have an issue with Belgium.

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I really really loved Belgium when I went there. Brilliant place, great.

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Especially it's it.

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Whatever I say now is going to probably come across

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as wrong, and it's just I like the fact that

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it's flat like this. I'm not a big I'm not

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a lover of hills, really, I'm not. I'd like to

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be able to just walk and you can see ahead

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of yourself, can't you. You can see what's about you can

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wherever you go, So basically, whenever you leave your house,

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no matter where you go, how far away you go,

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you can.

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Always see your house. It's great.

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And tea bags cheese. Yes, I've done quite a few.

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The last one I did was dog walking, and I'm

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pretty sure that was super super exciting for everyone. Oh God,

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I'm trying to manipulate, manipulate, maneuver the laptop, but it

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keeps missing schools. I did that the week before Monday's

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Boring Objects, but I didn't even talk. I didn't even

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give it a subject.

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And the one.

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Before that, I didn't give it a subject. That's weird.

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I don't know what that is about. Strange. And then

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I did Willy Wonka that was the twenty first of April,

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then another one before that I didn't give it a subject.

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That's kind of the point of The thing, isn't it said,

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why am I not giving them subjects? Doc job?

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That's the one they first of March this year, twenty

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twenty five homes cleaning jobs, New Year's Eve, Monday's boring objects.

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So I did a recording on New Year's Eve last

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year and as an hour and an hour and forty minutes.

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So maybe I was actually talking about New Year's Eves

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that I'd spent over the years. And then the Monday

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before that it was Christmas. Well it was probably Christmas Eve,

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wasn't it New Year's EO Christmas Eve?

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So I talked about.

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Christmas for one hour and eighteen minutes, blind me. Then

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before that I talked about friends, hair styles. Before that,

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counseling degree, girlfriends, girlfriends and girl they dare your girlfriend? Ooh?

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Girlfriends lasted two hours and seven minutes.

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What the ex about?

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Online IQ tes tests? Two hours and forteen minutes? So

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I actually did an online I did online IQ tests. Wow,

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I kind of vaguely remember that. That was in October

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last year. So today what did I say I was

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going to talk about?

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I can't remember.

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I have a.

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Not deliveries. Oh Buddhism, So.

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I'm going to talk. I'm going to talk about Buddhism.

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I'm not going to talk about Buddhism itself. I'm not

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going to go into details, you know, about what Buddhism

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is and stuff. But I'm going to talk about my

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experiences with Buddhism from from an early age and then onwards.

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So just let you know.

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I do have a Facebook group called Jason Newland's Boring Group.

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The link is on my website. I also have a

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YouTube channel at Jason Newland. I'm just going to go

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back to doing I tried to make some videos the

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last few days and takes so long and my head

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looks my face looks like a tomato. I'm not Yeah,

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I'm just going to go back to doing audios. It's

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much more relaxed for me. I'm just talking to the microphone.

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I can look at the computer screen if I want to,

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I can close my eyes.

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I can just.

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Chill out and yeah, this suits me better, better, and

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what else.

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So yeah, that's it.

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I'll probably just continue go back to uploading on YouTube.

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Six versions that are recording, you know, without music, and

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then with music five and ten hours. Yeah, Today's second

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of June two thousand and twenty five, I got my

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Universal Credit an email from them telling me to check

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some stuff and I didn't understand it. I genuinely didn't

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understand it.

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And then.

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Then I've got a letter through today, so apparently on

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my new style employment and support allowance on your interview

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on and there's a little gap, but you you had

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an interview, so they did call me last week with

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us to agree what you need to do to get

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new style essay. This is known as your claimant commitment.

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You agreed your claimant commitment on a twenty eighth of

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May two twenty five, which was Thursday, Wednesday, Wednesday, last Wednesday.

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What happens next? We were right to tell you if

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you can get new style of essay, and if so,

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how much you will get. So at this point I

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don't even know I'm getting if I'm getting it, I

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don't know when.

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They're going to tell me.

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And then this is this is absolutely it's kind of

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it's funny, but.

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It's not funny because it's very confusing.

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I've got a letter about another one about my employment

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and support allowance. Your contribution based employment and support allowance

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will change the new style employment Lalla, and we will

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book an appointment, so I get this. They sent this

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in a twenty fifth bearing in mind it's so.

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They sent this on.

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Well, it's dated the twenty fifth, which would be the

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Sunday before last, so it will have been sent out

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earliest on a Monday.

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So it's literally.

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Taken Yeah, it's taken a whole week to get here,

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so I'm not sure how that works. And now I've

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got a letter from the rent for the council iri

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rent reminder. It appears you have not received your rent.

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We have not received your rent payment on time, and

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you now owe one hundred and sixty eight pound ninety

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if you have paid within the last few days.

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Thank you. Please disregard this letter.

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And it's given me like a list of things that

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will happen over payment payment overdue that leads to legal action,

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corp proceedings, then eviction a little bit heavy handed. I mean,

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my rents ten years. My rent's always been paid and

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only reason it's not being paid yet is because the

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benefits are changed over they just so does that mean

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I owe one hundred and sixty eight pound ninety? I

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don't know. This is confusing me. I really think you know,

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if you owe one hundred and sixty eight pound ninety.

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The word legal actions, core proceedings and evictions shouldn't not

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be on that letter. That's just a really it's weird.

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I'm not I'm not a big fan of that. If

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I have him pay difficulty paying your rent, please contact us.

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If you normally pay your rent with housing benefit or

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have made a claim for Universal credit, then it may

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have been suspended or stopped.

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Wow.

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The thing is, these letters are just generic, aren't they.

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No one's actually like thinking all that Jason on to

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get him now and typing it out.

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It is just.

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I guess if you go, I mean one hundred and

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sixty eight pound ninety. The rents one hundred and what

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four pounds a week, so that's not even two weeks

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rent and they're sending a letter out, so I don't know,

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very strange. It's a very very unusual behavior. I personally think,

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should I.

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Talk about a rent?

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I can't even remember that a lot of the rents

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are paid over the years. That might be more interesting

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or moor less interesting, more boring. I just just said, oh,

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you're all over the place. Why are you making so

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much noise? You've already ruined one recording today, Vinny, why

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don't try and ruin this one as well? Well, I'm

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doing it all on my own, he said, seven rudes,

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Stop being some rude. Don't flap your ears at me.

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You've got such an attitude now as you're getting older,

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Yes you have, you're getting an attitude. You need to

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calm yourself down.

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No, don't look away, look at me.

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You need to calm He's so cute. He's wiggling his tail.

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It's both his ears are up and he's turning his head.

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He's so damn cute, and as you are.

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I finally found.

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Some food that he likes, that he really likes, and

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one's called I'll tell you though.

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It's like a whole food. Where is it? I got

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it from Amazon. I've got it.

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I bought it on Amazon. It's not, you know, an

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Amazon mute food?

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Where is it? Okay? He really likes it.

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And I've gone through probably ten different types of food

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trying to find him something that he would almost I

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don't want to say, get excited to eat, but it

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seems sometimes he just reluctantly eats what I give him

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it's okay, or eat it if he's hungry. But he

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doesn't seem to be particularly you know, excited.

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Just have a look.

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Past three months.

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Oh I got some.

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Yeah, because I also got some soap, and some toothpaste,

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tough paste, and some deodorant. Sketches shoes on the thirteenth

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for me that my other shoes are falling apart, right,

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so I get these sketches. Men's go max athletic. The

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idea of me buying anything with the name athletic, and

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it is kind of funny to me, but they're supposed

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to be good for sort of slipping on. And the

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weird problem is, and they're.

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Supposed to be ten size ten, they're too loose. They're

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not too loose.

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They're not falling off me when I walk, but they're

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not I definitely couldn't run in them. Again, that's kind

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of tiggles me a little bit because I've said, the

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little visual of me trying to run, I'm not going

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to be running in them.

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But that's not the point is I.

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Took Vinnie around the field the other day, around the

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actual field fields, and I ended up with a blister

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on the back of my foot. This is this is

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wearing socks. So how much did it cost? Fifty pounds

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fifty sixpence supposed to be tenpence, size ten, and I

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desperately needed because the other ones. When I broke my

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foot probably ah, BlimE me two years ago, two years,

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maybe a year, a year and a half. I can't

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it's a while, and I couldn't put socks on. Maybe

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it was when I break my toe. I can't remember,

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but I couldn't put socks on because my foot. It

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must have been my toe. Oh is it when I

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kicked the wall when I was asleep. I think I

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kicked the wall.

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Yees.

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So I broke my toe, my big toe, and it

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wasn't on purpose, by the way, So I was hobbling

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around for a while. I couldn't put my socks on.

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That was just a just no, it's.

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A no no.

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So but luckily the shoes I had were comfortable enough

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the former sketches ones.

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I had.

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To not need shoes to not need socks, and I

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went through about a year where I didn't wear socks

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at all. Some would say that's gross, but it's it's

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not the worst thing I've done, so it's it probably

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maybe it is, Maybe it is groom. I don't know,

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but I got. I went through the whole winter about

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wearing socks. I was outside, didn't need socks, just got

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used to it, and there was a degree of freedom

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I quite liked. I enjoyed that, I know, just a

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little bit of it was relaxing. It was I didn't

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feel so restricted. But then the shoes that I had

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started falling apart internally and also at the bottom. They're

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just worn out, basically because I do I suppose, I

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do quite a bit of walking through the week, taking

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him out and stuff. So I could no longer where

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I could no longer have them without socks. So I

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started wearing socks. But then they just became really uncomfortable

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because there's just it's like stick things sticking into my foot.

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That's why I had to better go and buy some

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new shoes. And I did think maybe I could go

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back to not wearing any socks again, But it turns

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out I'm going to need to two pairs of socks

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really if I want them to fit tight no nicely.

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If I was going to walk around the field like

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I did before, I probably need.

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Two pairs of socks.

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But the question is why this is only my right

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heel blister, But my left heel didn't. I mean, I

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wasn't hopping. I used both feet, So why did only

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one blister and the other one did not? That just

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seems a bit strange. So, okay, we're talking about dog food.

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Dog food. I just had my delivery, by the way,

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I just I had a few, a few. I think

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that's why I'm kind of losing track of where I

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am with this recording a little bit, because I've had

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a few interruptions from Vinnie from the door, going from

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the door going to once is when the post got

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delivered and Vinnie went absolutely.

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Rah rah rah.

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And then I got my delivery and Vinie went.

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Rah rah rah rah rah. And earlier we had someone

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in the garden talking a.

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Loudness or volume that's unnecessary. Really, I think she did

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he or she When they talk on their phone and

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have their phone on a loud speaker and they walk

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to the next road, so I think, what what they do?

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They leave their phone like the other side of the

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road or something, and then come back into the garden

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and talk.

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That's what it sounds like. So loud.

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Lily's Kitchen Natural adult dog food.

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Now it was.

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Lah a little bit six pound fifty six.

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And it was six.

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Tins one hundred and fifty grams each. I give him

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half a ten per meal basically because he had treats

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and he eats the dry food and stuff in between.

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So I did give him the whole packet. I give

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him the whole tin, and he couldn't eat all too much,

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so I'm just give him half at a time.

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He loves it.

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I don't have to coax him to eat it, which

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I did before with the other stuff, and I really

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have I mean, you might think, oh, wait a minute,

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it was a one time purchase. So I paid seven

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pound twenty nine. Really seven pounded? Does it tell me

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how much I paid delivered twenty eighth of may buy

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it again? Okay, let's have a look. Buy again. Seven

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pound twenty nine. Yeah, that's how much I paid for

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six So I'm going to have another look to see

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what other what other foods visit the store. Lily's Kitchen

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calling all daring dogs shop dog food. Okay, that's what

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we want. I'm not I'm not happy now because they

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also serve, they help. I don't want to buy food

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that also makes food for cat for cats. It's just

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it just feelings feels unfair for any shop dry food. No, well,

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I suppose I could shop web food. Let's have a

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look see what different ones they've got. They've got ones

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in big ten which I don't want. Classic dinners. That's

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the ones I got, uh, Classic dinners multipack six times

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one point fifty gram all I can also by them.

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What's this thirteen pound forty nine thirteen amiens in that

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one and thirty is cottage pie pack of ten. It's oh,

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it's not thirteen pounds, it's twelve pounds fourteen, so it's

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a different it's a discount, but that's the same, the

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same one. I'd like the idea of maybe me, you know,

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having options, having different ones. I don't want to just

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get in like ten of the same, although there's quite

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a few different ones that they do they've got, So

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have a look. Beef goulash, cottage pie, lean machine, whatever

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that is great British breakfast Sunday lunch, chicken and turkey,

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casse role lamb, hot pot lamb tag in to guinea

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fishy pie, fishy fish pie, fishy fish pie as opposed

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to what kind of other fish pie, coronation chicken, Okay,

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so that's all the ones I do.

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It's still good. Oh no, it's more.

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Beef supper, lamb supper, chicken supper, and you've got organic.

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As well.

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So I don't know how many is in that one? One, two, three, four?

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Is it four for fourteen pound? That seems a little bit.

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Oh no, it's back of ten fourteen pound pack of

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ten Okay, so.

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I'll go back. So there's quite a few. Let's have

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a look at.

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Some of these other ones. This is the pack of

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pack of one Lily's Kitchen six six weekend Favorites. Okay,

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so that's seven pound A note it is eight pound

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forty nine but as cheaper ways of getting it, lowest

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price other sellers seven pound seventy five plus three delivery.

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So why is it costing more than the actual place

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that makes the stuff? That don't make so much sense.

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Where are they getting it from? Or they buying it

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in bulk and then dividing it into smaller packs, or

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you know, I knew what I meant when.

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I said what I said.

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I could put it down on my Amazon list. If

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anyone's interested in buying Viny some food, let me know

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if you are, because honestly, I have tried is what

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I bought him so far, Win a lot Meatia chunks,

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Win a lot of Sunday Dinners, Caesar's Countries, Doe Adult

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and Lily's Kitchen, so that's recent. The other one's pedigree Charm.

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Adult Wet Food. Several of or.

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Other ones have I got him? Oh some of it

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might actually have been from Sainsbury's who won't be on here.

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But he's had lots of different old number pedigree chum

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different one Sultana cake and now that was for me.

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I do like a bit of cake. Hard to believe,

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but I do. I do is like to kick Oh,

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Morrison's Chocolate Claires. I ordered that at some point in

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the past. I haven't ordered anything from Amazon, like the

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shopping groceries for ages. I use Uber eats now because

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Amazon kept not delivering the stuff that I ordered, so

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they used Morrison's and had a few examples when they

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just didn't. The stuff wasn't in the bag and you

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get refund and stuff, but I just didn't. That wasn't

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quite what I was looking for, you know what I mean?

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Sketches Men's Go Max delivered Tuesday ten for June our

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three delivery shoes. I was going to say, I didn't

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buy it in tem for June. I need a second

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of June. I did buy some FM London one two, three,

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four five eight pack. There was an eight pack of

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boxes or underwear and they were too small, just too

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They weren't too small, but they were just too tight.

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So I can't really wear them. I can wear them,

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but they're just a bit too tight, you know, a

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bit too Oh look at this, just looking at some

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I've bought. Most of the stuff I've bought on Amazon

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has just been food. Just looking at other dog food

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and must be I'll wag a complete dog food. So

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I've bought oh yeah, James well beloved adult dog food.

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And according to this, I bought socks. But I don't

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know where any of them are.

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Now. I'm not sure how.

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Many of those have been eaten by Vinnie. Possibly a few, possibly,

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I mean genuinely, possibly a few have been eaten by

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him or hidden. He might have a stash somewhere.

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I don't know where he would have them. Oh wow, I.

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There's a muzzle that I got for LOGI.

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So that's quite a while back.

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In it, it doesn't say what date it was. Man right,

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I can't find any others. So yeah, what was I

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talking about? What was the etiking a boot? This is

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going to be one of those recordings where I don't

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actually get to the point, and as we all know,

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that doesn't happen very often.

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Maybe she was stick with a Buddhist. So my first.

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Interesting Buddhism, I would say, probably came when I watched

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Kung Fu on TV, Kung Fu show Good Our Supper,

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I don't know if you remember, and there was one

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scene where he was locked in a I don't know

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what it was called, like a.

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A heated.

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Little shed thing, you know, like a coal bunker thing,

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and he was locked in there overnight or for two

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days or three days, and he when they opened the

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door expected him to be in a not very good space.

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He was calmly, meditating, smiling, if I if I remember correctly,

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they were so annoyed that they closed door again, but

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that might just be added and I just added that myself.

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And that's when I started thinking and like, ah, because

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I've been I've been in a situation where I was

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locked in cupboards and locked in.

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Places, and like I didn't know how to deal with it.

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And I thought oh, there is a way of dealing

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with that kind of stuff where you know, to calm

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yourself down. I didn't really understand because I was like

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eight nine years old, but.

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I liked it. I liked it a lot, I did.

484
00:36:40.920 --> 00:36:49.840
I liked it, and I thought, hmm, And then I

485
00:36:49.880 --> 00:36:53.679
remember seeing Incredible Hulk and he also used to try

486
00:36:53.719 --> 00:36:57.320
and work or you know, find ways to calm himself

487
00:36:57.440 --> 00:37:00.599
down so that he didn't get angry because you wouldn't

488
00:37:00.599 --> 00:37:03.320
like him when he got angry. And this was the

489
00:37:03.400 --> 00:37:06.599
TV show from the seventies and I guess early eighties

490
00:37:06.639 --> 00:37:12.400
as well. And again I was kind of like, okay,

491
00:37:12.800 --> 00:37:16.960
because I had a few anger stuff issues. I guess

492
00:37:17.079 --> 00:37:24.000
back then I would explode. So I could see the

493
00:37:24.079 --> 00:37:28.639
similarity between me and the Incredible Hulk, except I just

494
00:37:28.679 --> 00:37:32.559
turned red and stayed the same size other than that,

495
00:37:32.639 --> 00:37:40.079
and didn't get any stronger, but just screamed like a Benchie.

496
00:37:40.480 --> 00:37:48.239
So I kind of like that seed was sown the

497
00:37:48.440 --> 00:37:52.760
idea of finding a way to calm down my mind

498
00:37:53.360 --> 00:37:56.639
or calm down me, and.

499
00:37:58.440 --> 00:37:58.760
I was.

500
00:37:58.880 --> 00:38:00.800
I guess I was a little bit a stress head

501
00:38:01.800 --> 00:38:06.599
when I was a kid, and I didn't even know why.

502
00:38:06.800 --> 00:38:07.719
I wasn't.

503
00:38:08.239 --> 00:38:12.320
I didn't understand why I was how I was. And

504
00:38:12.639 --> 00:38:15.679
I remember one particular time I went home from school

505
00:38:16.199 --> 00:38:18.440
and was still living in the house where mine and

506
00:38:18.480 --> 00:38:20.039
the grand had moved in, so I would have been

507
00:38:20.079 --> 00:38:23.800
about nine eight or nine. I went into kitchen and

508
00:38:23.840 --> 00:38:27.960
I and my stepmom said, but you're right. I said, yeah,

509
00:38:27.960 --> 00:38:29.960
I fine. He said, come on, you don't and I

510
00:38:30.039 --> 00:38:33.920
started crying and I'm sort of just uncontrollably crying and

511
00:38:33.960 --> 00:38:37.760
I didn't know why, and it was I just remember that,

512
00:38:38.599 --> 00:38:40.679
and it happened a few times. It still happened as

513
00:38:40.679 --> 00:38:45.039
an adult sometimes, but it was really just like built

514
00:38:45.159 --> 00:38:49.239
up and I didn't really I had no way of

515
00:38:49.360 --> 00:38:52.239
dealing with it. I guess I had nowhere of dealing

516
00:38:52.320 --> 00:38:56.000
what happened in the past. I didn't understand it. None

517
00:38:56.039 --> 00:39:04.199
of it really made sense. Buckets see the benefit of

518
00:39:04.599 --> 00:39:10.559
some kind of I knew it was meditation, So I

519
00:39:10.599 --> 00:39:13.280
don't know how I knew it was meditation. Maybe someone

520
00:39:13.360 --> 00:39:18.000
told me that was that Kung Fu was doing in

521
00:39:18.039 --> 00:39:22.199
that like dungeony room thing that he was locked in

522
00:39:22.800 --> 00:39:29.320
like a hot room or something. But yeah, those seeds

523
00:39:29.320 --> 00:39:32.639
were planted of like maybe there is a way to

524
00:39:35.320 --> 00:39:44.920
calm myself, and then I when my dad was ill,

525
00:39:45.039 --> 00:39:47.760
he had to have a serious operation when I was

526
00:39:47.800 --> 00:39:57.360
about twelve, i'd say, maybe eleven. So at that time

527
00:39:57.440 --> 00:39:59.800
I turned to the New Testament. It kind of co

528
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:03.840
decided when the Gideon Society came around the school, and

529
00:40:04.559 --> 00:40:06.480
probably right at the beginning of the first year of

530
00:40:06.519 --> 00:40:10.639
high school, they handed these Gideon Bibles. I've got one

531
00:40:10.880 --> 00:40:14.679
on the shelf. Actually it's not the same one, but

532
00:40:14.719 --> 00:40:17.320
it's it is the same one. It's a red Gideon's Bible,

533
00:40:17.400 --> 00:40:21.800
and that they produced probably millions over the years, hundreds

534
00:40:21.840 --> 00:40:27.800
of millions probably, and I read it. I spent all

535
00:40:27.800 --> 00:40:28.800
my time reading.

536
00:40:28.559 --> 00:40:34.039
It, really and there was a degree of.

537
00:40:35.960 --> 00:40:44.400
Meditation that came from that for me, by letting go

538
00:40:44.599 --> 00:40:50.920
and not clinging onto stuff and not not getting angry

539
00:40:50.920 --> 00:40:54.159
with people. But at the same time, I was letting

540
00:40:54.159 --> 00:40:56.559
people get away with stuff that I would not normally

541
00:40:56.559 --> 00:40:59.840
have done at school and that so, you know, it

542
00:41:00.000 --> 00:41:05.519
didn't last long, but it lasted till my dad had

543
00:41:05.519 --> 00:41:08.559
his operation and was better. So then I went back

544
00:41:08.559 --> 00:41:15.280
to my old ways. And then when I was then

545
00:41:15.320 --> 00:41:21.480
I started doing karate, and there was a degree of

546
00:41:23.719 --> 00:41:29.840
self control involved in that. There was definitely I would

547
00:41:29.880 --> 00:41:35.800
say a degree of controlled in the anger because it's

548
00:41:36.000 --> 00:41:39.079
it's a very It's a discipline, isn't it. Like all sports,

549
00:41:39.079 --> 00:41:42.760
it's a discipline. So I was starting to learn a

550
00:41:42.800 --> 00:41:45.679
bit of discipline. I'd already been in the Cecre det

551
00:41:45.760 --> 00:41:47.719
so I'd had to learn that kind of discipline as

552
00:41:47.760 --> 00:41:59.599
well being shouted at and not reacting, which yeah, wasn't easy.

553
00:42:00.679 --> 00:42:11.079
But they're on a a religious education trip school trip

554
00:42:11.599 --> 00:42:18.159
to London, visiting a few different religious places. So we

555
00:42:18.199 --> 00:42:22.159
went to a church I think we went to.

556
00:42:26.960 --> 00:42:28.559
Is was it.

557
00:42:30.119 --> 00:42:33.800
What are they called, a Muslim place, a Jewish place,

558
00:42:36.239 --> 00:42:42.280
Catholic place, and a Buddhist place. We might have even

559
00:42:42.320 --> 00:42:45.159
gone to a seek place. So we went to quite

560
00:42:45.159 --> 00:42:48.960
a few different places and didn't spend a huge amount

561
00:42:48.960 --> 00:42:52.639
of time there, but because there was nothing there. There

562
00:42:52.719 --> 00:42:55.639
was just like empty buildings really, so we kind of

563
00:42:55.639 --> 00:42:57.440
had to look around. But when we got to the

564
00:42:57.480 --> 00:43:00.679
Buddhist center in London, there was people were there.

565
00:43:02.599 --> 00:43:04.239
And we all sat.

566
00:43:04.119 --> 00:43:08.039
Around and they answered questions, because we didn't have that

567
00:43:08.079 --> 00:43:12.679
with any of the other places that we visited, so

568
00:43:13.039 --> 00:43:16.199
you know, it was probably a bit more enjoyable because

569
00:43:16.199 --> 00:43:20.079
there was interaction, and then they did they answered questions,

570
00:43:20.079 --> 00:43:23.599
and I kept asking questions about karate because they did

571
00:43:23.719 --> 00:43:27.599
karate there as well, so that kind of I think

572
00:43:27.599 --> 00:43:30.760
I annoyed everyone else in the in the group. And

573
00:43:30.800 --> 00:43:33.079
then I was also the first time I ever had

574
00:43:33.119 --> 00:43:39.639
a McDonald's milkshake. Oh my goodness, that was phenomenal. So

575
00:43:39.880 --> 00:43:44.679
two really lovely experiences in one day. So what they

576
00:43:44.760 --> 00:43:49.599
did at the London Buddies Center, which is in bethnal Green,

577
00:43:49.639 --> 00:43:57.320
I think we did some meditation that probably lasted ten minutes,

578
00:43:57.559 --> 00:44:02.639
maybe fifteen minutes, and we all sat on mats, dad

579
00:44:02.760 --> 00:44:09.719
bells and incest was burning and it was like, really

580
00:44:11.719 --> 00:44:14.760
I liked it a lot, I mean really really liked it.

581
00:44:17.079 --> 00:44:19.960
In fact, I think if if I'd have been closer,

582
00:44:21.079 --> 00:44:25.159
if there'd been one in my town, I possibly would

583
00:44:25.159 --> 00:44:28.519
have gone. I mean I might not have been allowed

584
00:44:28.559 --> 00:44:31.199
to go, but I would have probably asked to go

585
00:44:31.679 --> 00:44:34.960
and maybe sneaked in just for the meditation because I

586
00:44:35.000 --> 00:44:41.000
needed it. I so needed it a way to calm

587
00:44:41.039 --> 00:44:46.440
my mind. Makes you must have starting to think, why

588
00:44:46.480 --> 00:44:49.519
don't I go? I should go back?

589
00:44:49.719 --> 00:44:51.119
Hey.

590
00:44:51.280 --> 00:44:55.840
So that was that experience, and then I left school

591
00:44:56.519 --> 00:45:02.840
the next year and I didn't do anything other than

592
00:45:03.000 --> 00:45:06.480
just try and survive, really, so I gave up the karate.

593
00:45:06.760 --> 00:45:08.679
I didn't had.

594
00:45:08.519 --> 00:45:15.119
No interests really, And then it was probably nineteen eighty

595
00:45:15.320 --> 00:45:21.920
nine I decided I became very interested in comedy. I

596
00:45:21.960 --> 00:45:27.960
started to write a journal. And then nineteen ninety after

597
00:45:28.079 --> 00:45:30.880
living in London for a while, I came back to

598
00:45:31.000 --> 00:45:35.280
the town I was used to living and I decided

599
00:45:35.480 --> 00:45:41.599
to become a comedian, a stand up So I planned

600
00:45:41.599 --> 00:45:43.199
and I was going to move back to London the

601
00:45:43.239 --> 00:45:44.719
next year, and I did so I went back to

602
00:45:44.760 --> 00:45:55.199
London ninety one, and then probably about ninety two, maybe

603
00:45:55.320 --> 00:45:58.440
ninety three, but I'd say probably about ninety two, I

604
00:45:58.559 --> 00:46:05.840
started getting in trusted in beat generation books like the

605
00:46:05.920 --> 00:46:11.880
Dama Bumbs, the I don't know, there's so many different ones,

606
00:46:11.960 --> 00:46:14.960
wasn't there on the Road and the Dama Bums both

607
00:46:15.079 --> 00:46:23.000
by Carriac Karaoke Jack Carroac and then Alan Ginsburg and

608
00:46:24.760 --> 00:46:30.840
Cassidy or whatever, lots of different ones. And as I

609
00:46:30.880 --> 00:46:34.320
have a tendency to do in my life, I collected

610
00:46:34.400 --> 00:46:38.880
every single book I could on the subject, every single

611
00:46:38.960 --> 00:46:42.199
beat book, every poetry book and everything.

612
00:46:43.480 --> 00:46:44.039
I'm not saying.

613
00:46:44.079 --> 00:46:46.239
I had all those books, but I collected all the

614
00:46:46.239 --> 00:46:49.880
ones I could afford to get, and I did that

615
00:46:49.920 --> 00:46:52.639
for put in the next three years up to all one

616
00:46:52.639 --> 00:46:55.199
of the next couple of years to two thousand and four,

617
00:46:57.960 --> 00:47:01.400
nineteen ninety four, sorry, not too for nineteen ninety four.

618
00:47:03.000 --> 00:47:06.719
So I got very much into after that, though, I

619
00:47:06.719 --> 00:47:07.639
got into Buddhism.

620
00:47:08.159 --> 00:47:11.559
Well, actually probably more Taoism.

621
00:47:12.360 --> 00:47:16.719
To start with, because the b generation a lot of

622
00:47:16.760 --> 00:47:20.920
what they're talking about was very Buddhist, very Taoist or

623
00:47:21.000 --> 00:47:26.480
Taoist however you want to pronounce it, and that interested me.

624
00:47:27.480 --> 00:47:31.320
So I kind of from there got back into interested

625
00:47:31.360 --> 00:47:35.679
in Buddhism, interested in I mean, I remember I used

626
00:47:35.719 --> 00:47:37.840
to go to school, go to school, go to work,

627
00:47:38.880 --> 00:47:43.719
and I would be reading books like Confucious books or

628
00:47:44.480 --> 00:47:50.719
Zen books about Zen maybe the cones or not like

629
00:47:50.880 --> 00:47:56.920
ice cream cones but or is it co Aen's And

630
00:47:56.960 --> 00:48:01.400
I'd have these I think the right pithy you know,

631
00:48:01.519 --> 00:48:04.639
like there a book of sayings, and I'd read those

632
00:48:04.760 --> 00:48:09.639
in my breaks at work. So I was very involved

633
00:48:10.119 --> 00:48:15.920
in Buddhism, but only in the sense of reading the books.

634
00:48:17.559 --> 00:48:25.239
And then two thousand and five or two thousand, yeah,

635
00:48:25.280 --> 00:48:28.679
between yeah, so between that time and two thousand and

636
00:48:28.719 --> 00:48:31.519
five September.

637
00:48:34.000 --> 00:48:40.000
August, No, when was it.

638
00:48:40.079 --> 00:48:45.800
Probably I'm in November maybe two nineteen ninety five, I

639
00:48:45.880 --> 00:48:49.280
keep it's so long ago. I can't it's like nineteen

640
00:48:49.400 --> 00:48:53.639
ninety five. That was like that was a different century.

641
00:48:54.920 --> 00:49:00.519
So nineteen ninety five, I I sold all my book books,

642
00:49:00.760 --> 00:49:01.119
or my.

643
00:49:04.000 --> 00:49:04.840
Buddhist books.

644
00:49:05.320 --> 00:49:09.639
And I had a good collection, a large collection, but

645
00:49:09.719 --> 00:49:10.360
I sold.

646
00:49:10.159 --> 00:49:10.639
Them all.

647
00:49:13.119 --> 00:49:17.639
Because I was basically being evicted and I needed somewhere.

648
00:49:17.840 --> 00:49:20.480
I needed some cash, and then I went and worked

649
00:49:20.519 --> 00:49:24.719
at Butlin's, so you know, I didn't really work out.

650
00:49:25.320 --> 00:49:31.760
It worked out in the end, but I loved that

651
00:49:31.800 --> 00:49:35.679
little collection and it's I had. Yeah, I had a

652
00:49:35.679 --> 00:49:39.920
good collection of books back then, probably a good couple

653
00:49:39.920 --> 00:49:50.239
of hundred books. Yeah, and then nothing, honestly up from

654
00:49:50.320 --> 00:49:55.800
ninety five then ninety six. I did read buy another book,

655
00:49:57.039 --> 00:50:01.719
which was the It was a Buddhist book, the Tibetan.

656
00:50:04.400 --> 00:50:07.320
I've still it's not the same one, but it's the

657
00:50:07.360 --> 00:50:09.840
same one. So I basically had that book three times

658
00:50:09.880 --> 00:50:11.519
now and it's on my bookcase.

659
00:50:13.440 --> 00:50:14.480
It's sort of red cover.

660
00:50:14.760 --> 00:50:20.000
I forget something Path of good Fortune to make me

661
00:50:20.039 --> 00:50:24.000
want to read it again, strange, isn't it? So I

662
00:50:24.079 --> 00:50:26.159
bought that, and I was reading that when I was

663
00:50:26.239 --> 00:50:33.159
doing a security job during ninety six ninety seven, and

664
00:50:33.199 --> 00:50:37.599
I think I also got I also had.

665
00:50:39.840 --> 00:50:44.480
See this is weird. I've had this book. It is.

666
00:50:46.320 --> 00:50:51.079
Teachings of a Buddha, and I've had it since probably

667
00:50:51.760 --> 00:50:55.760
nineteen ninety three.

668
00:50:57.679 --> 00:51:00.840
I still got it. So I can't get it.

669
00:51:05.760 --> 00:51:06.440
What is that good?

670
00:51:10.840 --> 00:51:33.320
Okay, okay, couch watch.

671
00:51:37.360 --> 00:51:44.199
It's obstacle everywhere. I came back.

672
00:51:46.679 --> 00:51:49.800
The cover and it's like a I guess it's a

673
00:51:49.880 --> 00:51:50.800
dust cover or whatever.

674
00:51:50.840 --> 00:51:52.920
It's very worn now.

675
00:51:53.519 --> 00:52:01.199
But it's called The Teachings of Buddha and it's one

676
00:52:01.320 --> 00:52:02.039
size English.

677
00:52:02.079 --> 00:52:02.840
Other side is.

678
00:52:05.800 --> 00:52:09.159
I don't know Chinese, Mandarin. I'm not sure what the

679
00:52:10.360 --> 00:52:13.000
what the language is. It might be Japanese, actually, I'm

680
00:52:13.039 --> 00:52:19.360
not sure. Teach instead of Buddha. What year was this printed?

681
00:52:24.679 --> 00:52:28.239
Oh it's Japan Yes, so it's Japanese. So it's English

682
00:52:28.280 --> 00:52:34.000
and Japanese. Nineteen sixty six it was printed, and then

683
00:52:34.239 --> 00:52:40.960
again the revised edition, Wow, seven hundred and third revised

684
00:52:41.079 --> 00:52:44.119
edition seven hundred.

685
00:52:43.920 --> 00:52:44.920
And three.

686
00:52:47.840 --> 00:52:51.119
Revisions of this nineteen ninety one.

687
00:52:51.239 --> 00:52:53.440
This was so this this was from nineteen ninety.

688
00:52:53.199 --> 00:52:56.119
One, so I probably got it in about ninety two.

689
00:52:57.119 --> 00:53:03.960
It's the only item that I have from that long ago.

690
00:53:04.039 --> 00:53:07.280
And then you know how much it cost me twenty

691
00:53:07.280 --> 00:53:11.039
five pound, still got the price tag on it on

692
00:53:11.079 --> 00:53:19.679
the inside. Twenty five pound. When you consider at the

693
00:53:19.800 --> 00:53:24.679
time my rent was forty pounds a week. I was

694
00:53:24.760 --> 00:53:29.119
earning one hundred pounds a week in my job, So

695
00:53:29.199 --> 00:53:34.119
I spent twenty five pounds on a book, which kind

696
00:53:34.119 --> 00:53:39.199
of shows how interesting I was in the subject, because

697
00:53:43.119 --> 00:53:46.519
so it's English and Japanese, and there is how many pages,

698
00:53:47.440 --> 00:53:48.760
over six hundred pages.

699
00:53:49.440 --> 00:53:50.480
But it's not a big book.

700
00:53:50.760 --> 00:53:54.519
It's you know, quite small. The writing is quite small.

701
00:53:58.480 --> 00:54:01.320
So yeah, it's good, but it's very in a way,

702
00:54:01.599 --> 00:54:04.480
it's kind of similar to the Gideon's Bible in the

703
00:54:04.599 --> 00:54:11.199
sense of you can look up things to to focus on.

704
00:54:11.360 --> 00:54:22.199
So for example, if you're interested in I, I should

705
00:54:22.199 --> 00:54:26.280
be at the back. Actually, yeah, it at the back

706
00:54:26.800 --> 00:54:28.880
like a glossary.

707
00:54:29.960 --> 00:54:35.360
No it isn't, it's not at all.

708
00:54:35.800 --> 00:54:43.039
There is a there's a also, okay, so there is.

709
00:54:43.000 --> 00:54:44.000
Like it's an index.

710
00:54:45.360 --> 00:54:47.039
So if you want to look at truth where you

711
00:54:47.079 --> 00:54:55.159
want to, okay, do not forget where you are seeking

712
00:54:59.800 --> 00:55:03.679
h do not let your mind be disturbed, even under

713
00:55:03.760 --> 00:55:08.639
unsatisfactory circumstances. So there's little things like that you can

714
00:55:08.679 --> 00:55:13.199
go into and it say, okay.

715
00:55:12.159 --> 00:55:12.920
It can help in.

716
00:55:15.159 --> 00:55:20.119
A few you know, I suppose stuff when it's getting

717
00:55:20.400 --> 00:55:23.360
when things are maybe a little bit difficult, and the

718
00:55:23.440 --> 00:55:30.440
meaning of life, a prejudiced life, and the five things

719
00:55:30.440 --> 00:55:33.679
that no one can accomplish in this world, the four

720
00:55:33.760 --> 00:55:43.119
truths in this world is faith is a manifest manifestation, manifestation.

721
00:55:43.239 --> 00:55:45.480
I can't even say the word, but anyway, that there

722
00:55:45.480 --> 00:55:46.280
reason not getting that.

723
00:55:46.199 --> 00:55:50.719
Out is because I just I forgot.

724
00:55:50.760 --> 00:55:52.880
I don't think I've got that book, but I forget

725
00:55:52.920 --> 00:55:58.840
that that book predates every other item or belonging that

726
00:55:58.920 --> 00:56:03.159
I have in world. I have nothing that's older in

727
00:56:03.199 --> 00:56:10.000
that book. I mean even my internal organs have regenerated

728
00:56:10.079 --> 00:56:12.880
in that time, because I'd say, is that every seven

729
00:56:12.960 --> 00:56:16.840
years our organs regenerate over time, So that book's older

730
00:56:16.840 --> 00:56:23.239
than me. Technically it was born when I was twenty one.

731
00:56:23.800 --> 00:56:26.960
That book, so in this sense, is like my son

732
00:56:27.840 --> 00:56:28.440
or my daughter.

733
00:56:28.719 --> 00:56:29.360
That book is.

734
00:56:31.519 --> 00:56:36.000
And it's the only thing. Even when I was destroying

735
00:56:36.079 --> 00:56:46.920
books back in twenty fourteen, I wouldn't go near that one.

736
00:56:48.400 --> 00:56:50.800
I mean, it's not that it's irreplaceable because it's probably

737
00:56:52.159 --> 00:56:57.119
for me now and it's nine thousandth edition reprint or whatever,

738
00:56:57.199 --> 00:57:05.000
but it's yeah, it's traveled with me. You think about it,

739
00:57:05.000 --> 00:57:11.480
it's traveled for so it was in Stratford and it's

740
00:57:11.519 --> 00:57:14.639
traveled with me all the different places I've moved, So

741
00:57:14.760 --> 00:57:20.360
let's count those. So from Stratford ninety four to another

742
00:57:20.400 --> 00:57:26.920
place in light and so that's one, then again stayed

743
00:57:26.920 --> 00:57:32.239
with me there, then to Ireland, then back to London.

744
00:57:32.760 --> 00:57:36.960
So that's four places. Just been to Ireland, it's been,

745
00:57:38.559 --> 00:57:44.920
then to Bogner, Regis, then back to London, then to

746
00:57:44.960 --> 00:57:53.320
another place in London, another place in London, then another

747
00:57:53.400 --> 00:58:00.199
place in London, then Ipswich, another place in it's which

748
00:58:00.280 --> 00:58:06.119
number place in Ipswich. No, a place in Ipswich, number

749
00:58:06.119 --> 00:58:14.320
place in Ipswich. So that's fourteen so far. Then where

750
00:58:14.320 --> 00:58:19.599
I'm living now that's fifteen. No, where I moved, so

751
00:58:19.639 --> 00:58:28.440
that it is rather then six, sixteen, seventeen, eighteen, nineteen,

752
00:58:30.920 --> 00:58:35.639
nineteen or twenty, So about nineteen or twenty different places

753
00:58:35.639 --> 00:58:40.639
I've lived since I've got this book. I think it's

754
00:58:40.679 --> 00:58:43.119
more than that. I've moved probably more than that. I'm

755
00:58:43.159 --> 00:58:46.719
just think old yeah, twenty one, twenty two, Yeah, maybe

756
00:58:46.760 --> 00:58:50.480
twenty three, twenty two, between twenty one and twenty three.

757
00:58:50.519 --> 00:58:53.800
Times I've moved since I've got this book, So it's

758
00:58:53.840 --> 00:58:57.599
moved around with me. Now, how I thought about it,

759
00:58:57.599 --> 00:59:01.119
I would have took it with me to when I

760
00:59:01.119 --> 00:59:03.199
went to Amsterdam, or when I went to the Isle

761
00:59:03.199 --> 00:59:10.320
of Man, or when I went to Bulgaria, or when

762
00:59:10.320 --> 00:59:12.840
I went to Thailand or whatever. I could have sort

763
00:59:12.840 --> 00:59:17.000
of taken it with me. Is my travel my travel companion,

764
00:59:17.599 --> 00:59:21.599
But I didn't didn't think about it. I got you know,

765
00:59:21.599 --> 00:59:25.920
I like to travel light, not in physical weight, but

766
00:59:26.039 --> 00:59:33.159
just generally light. So yeah, so that I've got that book.

767
00:59:33.199 --> 00:59:39.039
So that's that's been with me the whole time. I

768
00:59:39.039 --> 00:59:41.440
I generally, I don't really look at it.

769
00:59:41.440 --> 00:59:42.280
It's terrist jaw.

770
00:59:42.440 --> 00:59:44.440
I should have got that other book, shouldn't I The

771
00:59:44.480 --> 00:59:48.199
other book that I've got, Path of Great Fortune, Noble

772
00:59:48.280 --> 00:59:50.239
Path of Great Fortune or something it's called.

773
00:59:52.679 --> 00:59:59.760
So what year am I up to on this?

774
01:00:00.039 --> 01:00:00.119
Yes?

775
01:00:02.920 --> 01:00:05.320
So yeah, I think when I got involved in about

776
01:00:05.320 --> 01:00:09.280
two thousand, nineteen ninety seven blind Me. I keep saying

777
01:00:09.280 --> 01:00:16.719
two thousand, nineteen ninety seven, I started getting into self development,

778
01:00:19.719 --> 01:00:22.800
and before that I was, it's going to be strange

779
01:00:22.840 --> 01:00:28.559
because I never really did any sales. In the nineties.

780
01:00:28.639 --> 01:00:33.039
I tried a few different sales jobs and failed every

781
01:00:33.079 --> 01:00:38.159
single one of them. And because they were always not

782
01:00:38.239 --> 01:00:44.159
always but one wasn't, but most of them were, you know,

783
01:00:46.039 --> 01:00:53.800
bonus only no actual pay unless your sell I couldn't

784
01:00:53.880 --> 01:00:56.639
keep it up because I was I had a tendency

785
01:00:56.679 --> 01:01:01.400
of starting those jobs. They're not hard to get because

786
01:01:01.719 --> 01:01:03.320
there's nothing for the people to lose.

787
01:01:03.400 --> 01:01:03.960
Is that really?

788
01:01:04.320 --> 01:01:06.599
The companies that take you on they don't pay you anything,

789
01:01:07.440 --> 01:01:10.320
and they give you a commission, so they don't have

790
01:01:10.400 --> 01:01:12.960
to pay you a commission. If you make money, it's

791
01:01:12.960 --> 01:01:19.239
a win win for them. So I didn't get you know,

792
01:01:19.719 --> 01:01:21.760
but I was interested in selling, and I had lots

793
01:01:21.760 --> 01:01:24.440
of selling books, lots of sales books, and I used

794
01:01:24.480 --> 01:01:28.440
to read those books for fun in the ninety five,

795
01:01:28.599 --> 01:01:34.760
ninety six, ninety seven, ninety eight, ninety nine. It's weird.

796
01:01:34.800 --> 01:01:39.360
I just in fact, earlier than that. I started reading

797
01:01:39.440 --> 01:01:45.679
sales books in nineteen eighty nine when I was doing canvassing,

798
01:01:46.679 --> 01:01:51.000
and I just liked the positivity of it. Anything that

799
01:01:51.039 --> 01:01:53.199
could help me to feel a little bit more positive

800
01:01:53.559 --> 01:01:58.480
was a good thing. But I did go after Rails

801
01:01:58.519 --> 01:02:06.960
a bit during the nineties, and then I started doing

802
01:02:07.079 --> 01:02:13.039
sales in two thousand and one as a job, like

803
01:02:13.320 --> 01:02:20.079
full time properly, so you know, I kind of began

804
01:02:20.199 --> 01:02:24.159
reading books again on sales and listening to audio tapes

805
01:02:24.199 --> 01:02:33.519
by zig Ziggler and people like that. I kind of, yeah,

806
01:02:33.599 --> 01:02:37.639
I'd lost contact with the the Buddhism stuff. I didn't

807
01:02:37.760 --> 01:02:40.800
have anything to do with that, although I didn't have

808
01:02:40.920 --> 01:02:42.960
my little book here, but I didn't look at it.

809
01:02:44.280 --> 01:02:46.639
And then probably about November.

810
01:02:46.159 --> 01:02:50.079
Two thousand and two or the end of two thousand

811
01:02:50.119 --> 01:02:51.960
and two, I was in.

812
01:02:53.679 --> 01:02:55.719
Much need to.

813
01:02:58.239 --> 01:03:05.280
For help as far as relaxing, as far as anxiety

814
01:03:05.360 --> 01:03:06.599
control and stuff like that.

815
01:03:08.039 --> 01:03:11.920
So what happened is I used to walk.

816
01:03:11.719 --> 01:03:16.800
Past this place every day, a Buddhist center. It was

817
01:03:16.800 --> 01:03:18.639
at a Buddhist shop, and then I realized it was

818
01:03:18.639 --> 01:03:22.960
a Buddhist center, and then I kind of started thinking

819
01:03:23.000 --> 01:03:26.039
about going in there, and I knew it was open,

820
01:03:26.079 --> 01:03:30.760
and I think at Wednesday or Tuesday evening, and.

821
01:03:29.679 --> 01:03:30.599
I don't know.

822
01:03:31.960 --> 01:03:34.760
It kind of pulled me in a little bit so

823
01:03:34.800 --> 01:03:39.840
I was going into the shop quite regularly and buying gifts.

824
01:03:39.880 --> 01:03:43.800
It's a gift shop called Evolution, So I'd buy gifts

825
01:03:43.840 --> 01:03:46.639
for my nan or buy gifts for family from there,

826
01:03:46.639 --> 01:03:49.159
because I liked it in there, and I liked the atmosphere.

827
01:03:49.679 --> 01:03:52.039
I liked the.

828
01:03:51.159 --> 01:03:56.199
Calmness of the people that were working there, who I

829
01:03:56.280 --> 01:03:58.559
ended up being friends with. I ended up actually working

830
01:03:58.599 --> 01:04:03.000
there myself, but at that time I wasn't going to

831
01:04:03.039 --> 01:04:08.119
the Buddhist center. And then I'm not quite sure how

832
01:04:08.199 --> 01:04:09.800
it worked, but I ended up going.

833
01:04:13.360 --> 01:04:15.920
And from then on. In fact, that very first night,

834
01:04:16.440 --> 01:04:17.559
I met my friend who.

835
01:04:17.480 --> 01:04:22.719
I'm going to see in a couple of hours, and

836
01:04:22.880 --> 01:04:28.960
he was there and we just got on really well.

837
01:04:29.079 --> 01:04:33.719
I mean, what's that two thousand and two, three four five,

838
01:04:33.800 --> 01:04:40.280
So that's what twenty twenty three years? Twenty three years. Yeah,

839
01:04:40.679 --> 01:04:43.239
so I've known him for twenty two twenty three years.

840
01:04:44.280 --> 01:04:45.800
Even we lived with him for a little while. I

841
01:04:45.920 --> 01:04:51.639
worked with him twice, so because he lived in a

842
01:04:51.639 --> 01:04:54.960
Buddhist community when I moved in and then moved out,

843
01:04:57.320 --> 01:04:59.000
he moved out after a couple of weeks, but he

844
01:04:59.079 --> 01:05:01.599
was planning on moving now anyway. That's why they were

845
01:05:01.639 --> 01:05:02.519
looking for someone to.

846
01:05:02.400 --> 01:05:05.039
Move in, and.

847
01:05:06.480 --> 01:05:08.760
I worked with him in the Evolution Shop in It's

848
01:05:08.800 --> 01:05:14.360
which he got me a job there because after going

849
01:05:14.400 --> 01:05:18.760
to the Buddhist Center for a while for about a year, Yeah,

850
01:05:18.800 --> 01:05:22.400
I kept I kept my job going for as long

851
01:05:22.440 --> 01:05:24.000
as I could. I didn't want to leave my job.

852
01:05:24.599 --> 01:05:26.079
I didn't want to lose it. Didn't want to leave

853
01:05:26.119 --> 01:05:29.079
it because I was good at it, and you know,

854
01:05:29.360 --> 01:05:34.400
I was doing quite well, but I wasn't well enough

855
01:05:34.400 --> 01:05:36.320
to keep going. And then in the end I had

856
01:05:36.320 --> 01:05:38.440
to leave. So it was another year. So as the

857
01:05:38.519 --> 01:05:41.639
end of two thousand and three, even though I'd gone

858
01:05:41.639 --> 01:05:46.039
part time, I just packed it in, couldn't do it anymore.

859
01:05:47.239 --> 01:05:53.239
And that Christmas, my friend offered me a job just

860
01:05:53.320 --> 01:05:59.119
over the Christmas period working in the Evolution shop because

861
01:05:59.119 --> 01:06:01.159
that was their busy part of the whole year.

862
01:06:02.400 --> 01:06:02.960
So I did.

863
01:06:03.079 --> 01:06:05.880
I worked there, probably not every day, probably three days

864
01:06:05.880 --> 01:06:10.599
a week or you know, part time, but just you know,

865
01:06:12.880 --> 01:06:16.280
having somewhere because I needed to have an income. But

866
01:06:16.320 --> 01:06:19.480
at the same time, I couldn't work full time. I

867
01:06:19.519 --> 01:06:24.880
didn't fill up to that, so and I worked there

868
01:06:25.559 --> 01:06:36.079
part time until the following August, and I kind of

869
01:06:36.119 --> 01:06:39.119
lived on savings really and then again well I ended

870
01:06:39.199 --> 01:06:42.960
up living on credit cards and stuff, which wasn't probably

871
01:06:42.960 --> 01:06:44.760
the best idea.

872
01:06:44.800 --> 01:06:45.760
And then.

873
01:06:49.400 --> 01:06:51.880
And then I left, but I didn't leave the Bullhet Center,

874
01:06:51.920 --> 01:07:00.559
but I left the shop, got a job, and I

875
01:07:00.599 --> 01:07:05.079
continued going to the Buddhist Center. Four sauce is two

876
01:07:05.119 --> 01:07:12.480
thousand and four, I had my Mitra ceremony, which is

877
01:07:12.559 --> 01:07:16.679
kind of like I guess, like a Christening, like a

878
01:07:16.760 --> 01:07:18.199
Christenin kind of thing.

879
01:07:18.519 --> 01:07:19.400
It's a ceremony.

880
01:07:20.320 --> 01:07:23.559
And so that was in August two thousand or August

881
01:07:23.639 --> 01:07:29.440
or September two thousand and four. And then in two

882
01:07:29.440 --> 01:07:36.039
thousand and five I moved into the Buddhist community because

883
01:07:36.079 --> 01:07:39.519
I was going very well with the people living there.

884
01:07:39.519 --> 01:07:40.280
Well most of them.

885
01:07:40.440 --> 01:07:44.760
I didn't know everyone, but I knew like at least one,

886
01:07:45.119 --> 01:07:49.480
two three people before, in fact four people living there.

887
01:07:50.119 --> 01:07:52.559
There was another person I didn't know so well, but

888
01:07:52.639 --> 01:07:55.519
he moved out, and another person my friend who yeah,

889
01:07:55.719 --> 01:08:00.440
so and I lived there. In continue you go to

890
01:08:00.480 --> 01:08:04.480
the Buddhist Center from up until.

891
01:08:04.400 --> 01:08:05.199
I left in.

892
01:08:08.119 --> 01:08:16.159
Two thousand and seven, around November time, when I had

893
01:08:16.159 --> 01:08:22.760
to find basically there was a squirmish, a squirmish, and

894
01:08:22.880 --> 01:08:26.880
so I had to move out, and I went and lived.

895
01:08:29.600 --> 01:08:32.520
I needed really to live closer to where the university was,

896
01:08:32.560 --> 01:08:36.920
which was in a different town, which is what I did.

897
01:08:37.359 --> 01:08:39.960
But then I started going to the Buddhist Center in

898
01:08:40.000 --> 01:08:44.479
that town, and then I ended up working in the

899
01:08:45.479 --> 01:08:50.439
because a couple of people knew me anyway, because it wasn't.

900
01:08:49.479 --> 01:08:50.239
That far away.

901
01:08:51.720 --> 01:08:54.239
And then I started working in the Evolution shop in

902
01:08:54.279 --> 01:09:02.359
that town because my friend was working there, the one

903
01:09:02.359 --> 01:09:05.920
that got me a job at the Evolution in Ipswich,

904
01:09:06.319 --> 01:09:10.199
got me a job at the Evolution in this town

905
01:09:10.239 --> 01:09:13.640
as well. And it was it was just part time

906
01:09:14.000 --> 01:09:19.920
again during Christmas the busiest time, and it was handy

907
01:09:19.960 --> 01:09:22.680
because I was a student that actually a little bit

908
01:09:22.720 --> 01:09:28.199
of money was useful. So I did that on and

909
01:09:28.239 --> 01:09:32.359
off for a couple of years well, during a period

910
01:09:32.399 --> 01:09:39.000
of being at university, really just part time Saturdays, not

911
01:09:39.079 --> 01:09:39.880
every Saturday.

912
01:09:40.000 --> 01:09:41.359
This is whenever.

913
01:09:41.439 --> 01:09:45.359
Really we need that be barking, please mate. And then

914
01:09:48.760 --> 01:09:54.479
I when I finished university, I moved literally around the

915
01:09:54.560 --> 01:09:59.520
corner from the Buddhist Center, so I was probably going

916
01:09:59.560 --> 01:10:02.439
a little bit more regular then because it's just up

917
01:10:02.479 --> 01:10:05.920
the road. And then I moved again a year later,

918
01:10:06.039 --> 01:10:09.000
and it was also across across thetroad. It's just like

919
01:10:09.520 --> 01:10:11.880
the opposite, but it's still the same kind of distance,

920
01:10:12.680 --> 01:10:15.479
a little bit further away, but you know, ten minute walk,

921
01:10:15.600 --> 01:10:20.359
five minute walk, six minute walk, ten seven, eight nine,

922
01:10:20.520 --> 01:10:25.840
something like that, And so i'd go along. I used

923
01:10:25.880 --> 01:10:28.239
to go New Year's Eve and stuff like that as well.

924
01:10:31.279 --> 01:10:35.640
So I was involved in the Buddhist Center then during

925
01:10:35.680 --> 01:10:39.600
this period sort of especially like during two thousand and

926
01:10:40.680 --> 01:10:46.079
three two thousand and four, I bought so many books

927
01:10:46.079 --> 01:10:50.760
on Buddhism. It's just it's one of those things that

928
01:10:50.800 --> 01:10:53.159
I have a tendency of doing. If I really get

929
01:10:53.159 --> 01:10:55.800
into a subject, I'll buy every book I can.

930
01:10:57.920 --> 01:10:59.319
What I find is.

931
01:11:01.520 --> 01:11:07.239
To study a subject, I like to if you, if

932
01:11:07.279 --> 01:11:10.239
you read enough books on a subject, you'll start to

933
01:11:10.279 --> 01:11:17.560
see repetition almost or yeah, you guarantee to see repetition.

934
01:11:17.840 --> 01:11:21.199
But that repetition is good because then it helps for me,

935
01:11:22.039 --> 01:11:26.279
It helps it to absorb it and also get to

936
01:11:26.319 --> 01:11:31.359
see things from a slightly different angle or different opinion

937
01:11:31.680 --> 01:11:41.880
or expressed in a slightly way, you know. So that

938
01:11:41.880 --> 01:11:44.279
that's what I did. Bought a lot of books. I

939
01:11:44.359 --> 01:11:50.600
ended up giving most of them to the Buddhist Center. Yeah,

940
01:11:50.640 --> 01:11:54.800
I did accept this one. The reason I know is

941
01:11:54.800 --> 01:11:58.239
because I didn't print. I didn't because I printed the

942
01:11:58.239 --> 01:12:02.720
Buddhist Center's print it. But I didn't give this one away.

943
01:12:02.720 --> 01:12:05.960
I kept this one. This was never this will be

944
01:12:06.039 --> 01:12:09.960
with me, this will be me, this is this is

945
01:12:09.960 --> 01:12:22.159
with me forever, I guess now. And when I moved

946
01:12:22.199 --> 01:12:25.960
away to hear So there's a lot of things happened

947
01:12:25.960 --> 01:12:28.920
in the Buddhist world, you know, since I've been involved.

948
01:12:29.760 --> 01:12:33.439
I went to retreats and I went on a pain

949
01:12:33.520 --> 01:12:38.000
management retreat as well, back in two thousand and five

950
01:12:38.119 --> 01:12:43.079
I think, unless it was two thousand and six, and

951
01:12:44.880 --> 01:12:46.560
I think it might have been two thousand and six.

952
01:12:46.600 --> 01:12:50.000
And that was amazing because I was interested in pain

953
01:12:50.039 --> 01:12:54.159
relief and as a practitioner, and this was like a

954
01:12:54.199 --> 01:13:01.039
breath works mindfulness pain relief and lasted for about a

955
01:13:01.079 --> 01:13:03.920
week I think two weeks a week. I think it's

956
01:13:03.920 --> 01:13:08.520
about a week. So as well as being a retreat,

957
01:13:08.520 --> 01:13:20.319
it was also training as well. Yeah, so I used

958
01:13:20.359 --> 01:13:22.600
to go out and meet up with Buddhists. I used

959
01:13:22.640 --> 01:13:24.720
to meet up with my friend that I'm seeing today

960
01:13:26.520 --> 01:13:28.920
when I was in the same town. You know, when

961
01:13:28.960 --> 01:13:33.000
I first started going to the Buddhist center. We used

962
01:13:33.039 --> 01:13:36.600
to meet up quite often, once a week, once every

963
01:13:36.600 --> 01:13:41.800
two weeks, and he almost kind of became like a

964
01:13:41.840 --> 01:13:46.279
counselor to me. It wasn't the idea, it wasn't the plan,

965
01:13:46.520 --> 01:13:49.920
and that wasn't his intention. But I used to just

966
01:13:50.000 --> 01:13:53.720
go and unload and he just sit down and.

967
01:13:53.720 --> 01:13:54.760
Listen, and.

968
01:13:56.960 --> 01:14:00.800
You know, it was probably wasn't really fair on him,

969
01:14:01.039 --> 01:14:03.680
but he was so so gentle and so.

970
01:14:06.319 --> 01:14:09.239
The right word attentive.

971
01:14:10.159 --> 01:14:13.760
And I said to him, why don't you, why don't

972
01:14:13.800 --> 01:14:17.000
you become a counselor, And he said he didn't want to.

973
01:14:19.520 --> 01:14:20.199
But then.

974
01:14:21.680 --> 01:14:25.479
Once I'd finished my counseling course, he trained up to

975
01:14:25.479 --> 01:14:30.600
become a counselor. So he also is a counselor. Well,

976
01:14:30.640 --> 01:14:33.840
he's trained. I don't know if he's seeing clients or not.

977
01:14:33.920 --> 01:14:35.600
I don't know. I know why'm not.

978
01:14:36.319 --> 01:14:40.199
I haven't seen clients for over a decade now. I

979
01:14:40.199 --> 01:14:41.479
wouldn't even know how.

980
01:14:46.680 --> 01:14:47.439
What what what?

981
01:14:49.760 --> 01:14:51.800
I'm sure I must have some skills.

982
01:14:52.039 --> 01:14:57.479
I don't know it. But yeah, it's.

983
01:14:57.319 --> 01:15:02.800
So, I've seen him go through lots of different things.

984
01:15:02.800 --> 01:15:10.399
I mean, he's now got a kid that's probably thirteen

985
01:15:11.399 --> 01:15:16.039
twelve thirteen fourteen now, And I went to his wedding,

986
01:15:16.159 --> 01:15:25.680
which was in probably about two thousand and nine, which

987
01:15:25.760 --> 01:15:39.680
is yeah, two thousand and nine, twenty nineteen, so yeah,

988
01:15:39.880 --> 01:15:42.239
probably the next year they had a baby's probably fifteen

989
01:15:42.319 --> 01:15:42.720
years old.

990
01:15:43.399 --> 01:15:48.399
He's boy. Now, wow, it's really weird. My niece.

991
01:15:49.199 --> 01:15:52.239
I got a message from my stepmom saying, I'll just

992
01:15:52.279 --> 01:15:56.479
letting you know that your niece is now it's her

993
01:15:56.640 --> 01:16:02.000
seventeenth birthday today. This is yesterday. I forgot to send

994
01:16:02.000 --> 01:16:14.199
a card. But hey, and seventeen, and I remember, it

995
01:16:14.239 --> 01:16:17.479
doesn't seem long ago that she was running around two

996
01:16:17.439 --> 01:16:19.479
all of us and just punching us all in the balls.

997
01:16:20.439 --> 01:16:22.319
You know what was last year?

998
01:16:23.039 --> 01:16:24.319
No, but you know when she was a little kid,

999
01:16:24.359 --> 01:16:27.119
you know, a kid doing they just sort of they

1000
01:16:27.199 --> 01:16:29.560
realized they found a place where they can hurt you.

1001
01:16:30.880 --> 01:16:33.840
And I had a video camera and I filmed her

1002
01:16:34.000 --> 01:16:35.960
when she was probably.

1003
01:16:37.840 --> 01:16:43.359
Five four something like that, and she was at a

1004
01:16:43.399 --> 01:16:45.520
dinner table if it was at Christmas, and I was

1005
01:16:45.560 --> 01:16:51.039
filming and she was just being so funny and she's

1006
01:16:51.039 --> 01:16:54.279
not making faces and doing all funny voices and stuff.

1007
01:16:55.880 --> 01:17:00.520
But I lost it. I lost the film footage. I

1008
01:17:00.560 --> 01:17:04.359
don't know what happened. And it's a little bit unlike

1009
01:17:04.439 --> 01:17:06.880
me because I did. I kept a lot of film

1010
01:17:06.880 --> 01:17:09.319
footage that well, most film footage that I took with

1011
01:17:09.359 --> 01:17:13.720
that camera is actually on YouTube. Now that wouldn't be,

1012
01:17:13.760 --> 01:17:18.680
of course, because that's of family and stuff. I wouldn't show.

1013
01:17:18.880 --> 01:17:21.680
I wouldn't have videos of kids and stuff on the

1014
01:17:21.760 --> 01:17:28.439
YouTube channel. Even with my neighbor, I was filming Vinnie

1015
01:17:28.520 --> 01:17:33.279
in their garden and I made sure that the little

1016
01:17:33.279 --> 01:17:35.520
girl wasn't in the camera. You could hear a voice.

1017
01:17:35.520 --> 01:17:39.800
But I'm not filming. I just want to All I

1018
01:17:39.880 --> 01:17:42.399
want is to film Vinnie. I don't want to film humans.

1019
01:17:42.840 --> 01:17:48.479
I don't want humans on the camera. He's laying on

1020
01:17:48.520 --> 01:17:51.880
the floor. The windows, the curtains are open and the

1021
01:17:52.079 --> 01:17:55.880
sun shining in, and he's found the one little part

1022
01:17:56.000 --> 01:18:02.680
where the sun's still shining on the carpet. Honestly, it's

1023
01:18:02.760 --> 01:18:04.920
almost dog shaped size.

1024
01:18:06.039 --> 01:18:11.479
He fits in it perfectly. It's a tiny little bit

1025
01:18:11.520 --> 01:18:12.640
on the carpet.

1026
01:18:12.279 --> 01:18:12.840
That's got some.

1027
01:18:15.159 --> 01:18:16.279
It just makes me laugh.

1028
01:18:16.359 --> 01:18:22.199
He's so funny, he's so cute. But I know if

1029
01:18:22.239 --> 01:18:24.119
I went over and I touched him and growl at me.

1030
01:18:25.920 --> 01:18:30.319
It doesn't like being disturbed. But it's okay for him

1031
01:18:31.119 --> 01:18:35.199
to disturb me. It's fine for me to disturb him.

1032
01:18:35.520 --> 01:18:35.920
Mind you.

1033
01:18:37.600 --> 01:18:39.920
I woke up this morning and he was just standing

1034
01:18:39.960 --> 01:18:46.079
over me, and I thought he needed to get up

1035
01:18:46.119 --> 01:18:49.560
and go, but he didn't. He didn't want to go out,

1036
01:18:49.640 --> 01:18:52.239
didn't want anything. As soon as I got out of bed,

1037
01:18:52.279 --> 01:18:54.239
he just went back and laid down to go to sleep.

1038
01:18:56.039 --> 01:18:59.439
So I'm thinking he woke me up, so maybe but

1039
01:18:59.520 --> 01:19:02.239
I was making some weird noises or something and he

1040
01:19:02.319 --> 01:19:05.000
was concerned, So he was he woke me up, or

1041
01:19:05.000 --> 01:19:08.800
he was protecting me, guarding me or something, which.

1042
01:19:10.640 --> 01:19:13.920
For just watching me, Either he was.

1043
01:19:15.399 --> 01:19:19.760
He was helping me, or he's just a weirdo, a

1044
01:19:19.880 --> 01:19:27.319
bit of both. Tech staff is the dar. See if

1045
01:19:27.319 --> 01:19:34.439
I've got any messages? Okay, right PayPal? Yeah, that's that's

1046
01:19:34.479 --> 01:19:40.479
just for the groceries I got delivered, which is fine.

1047
01:19:42.319 --> 01:19:43.600
Okay, it's not coming up.

1048
01:19:47.680 --> 01:19:47.840
Right?

1049
01:19:47.920 --> 01:19:48.640
Another message?

1050
01:19:48.720 --> 01:19:49.840
My my?

1051
01:19:51.640 --> 01:19:54.479
What sit downstairs? Jason?

1052
01:19:54.760 --> 01:19:57.800
Sorry, babe, do you have any fizzy drink? As my

1053
01:19:57.880 --> 01:20:01.760
sugar levels are really low and I don't nothing, I

1054
01:20:01.800 --> 01:20:14.760
don't sorry, I'm not allowed to drink fizzy drinks, although

1055
01:20:15.600 --> 01:20:23.800
saying that some times I have. Oh I could give

1056
01:20:23.840 --> 01:20:28.079
her an ice cream I got on Yeah, I could

1057
01:20:28.079 --> 01:20:31.439
give her that. I would be I just got some cornetto's,

1058
01:20:31.520 --> 01:20:34.560
could give her a cornetto I suppose every day she

1059
01:20:34.640 --> 01:20:38.279
asks us something. The weird thing about it is she

1060
01:20:38.319 --> 01:20:41.399
doesn't even talk to me, like has no conversation with

1061
01:20:41.439 --> 01:20:47.079
me at all, but constantly asking me stuff. So that's today, yesterday, hijason,

1062
01:20:47.119 --> 01:20:49.600
does some juice please, as I literally only have one

1063
01:20:49.720 --> 01:20:59.600
only have tap water. That was yesterday. And last Tuesday,

1064
01:21:00.039 --> 01:21:03.640
do you have any frozen meals? I could nick because

1065
01:21:03.680 --> 01:21:09.119
I'm waiting on the food bank. And the Thursday before that,

1066
01:21:10.439 --> 01:21:15.000
can you put she wanted me have someone put money

1067
01:21:15.039 --> 01:21:19.960
into my account. And then the Monday before that we've

1068
01:21:20.000 --> 01:21:23.960
got some butter. I can borrow to butter some rolls.

1069
01:21:25.720 --> 01:21:29.960
And then the Sunday before that is ru anywhere you

1070
01:21:30.000 --> 01:21:32.239
can order me some white chest of drawers on a

1071
01:21:32.319 --> 01:21:34.960
pay monthly for the baby, as I got so much

1072
01:21:35.000 --> 01:21:44.039
baby clothes now nowhere to put them, and I can

1073
01:21:44.079 --> 01:21:49.279
pay you once a month towards it. Like no, I

1074
01:21:49.319 --> 01:21:53.600
can't get credit. I literally cannot get credit. Even if

1075
01:21:53.600 --> 01:22:03.319
I wanted to, I couldn't. It's amazing, absolutely amazing, So length.

1076
01:22:03.880 --> 01:22:04.239
Okay.

1077
01:22:04.319 --> 01:22:07.199
The the Sunday before that, have you got a lighter?

1078
01:22:07.239 --> 01:22:07.600
Please?

1079
01:22:12.000 --> 01:22:15.159
Sunday before that? Can you keep my can you keep

1080
01:22:15.199 --> 01:22:26.560
an eye on my flat? It goes on. I told

1081
01:22:26.600 --> 01:22:29.319
I had a friend. I did this, It's okay. And

1082
01:22:29.399 --> 01:22:33.319
then the thirtieth of April, do you have any money

1083
01:22:33.319 --> 01:22:35.479
I could have because I need to go to London.

1084
01:22:35.479 --> 01:22:40.079
I need twenty pound which I didn't have any money.

1085
01:22:40.720 --> 01:22:45.720
So that's the twenty fifth of April. Fifth of April.

1086
01:22:46.159 --> 01:22:48.560
Don't suppose you've got fifteen pound I can have so

1087
01:22:48.600 --> 01:22:51.039
I can get a or if you can just order

1088
01:22:51.119 --> 01:22:54.199
me an egg, egg, fried rice, sat a chicken and

1089
01:22:54.279 --> 01:22:55.359
chips from the Chinese.

1090
01:22:57.399 --> 01:22:59.880
It was like, what did I answer that?

1091
01:23:00.199 --> 01:23:03.720
Nope, got no money, but you can have a pasta

1092
01:23:03.840 --> 01:23:08.039
pack just needs boiling. I left a bag outside your door.

1093
01:23:10.119 --> 01:23:13.560
I don't think she ate that. And then the Thursday

1094
01:23:13.600 --> 01:23:20.600
before that, oh no, And oh the Wednesday before that,

1095
01:23:21.319 --> 01:23:28.000
do you have any potatoes? Friday before that do you

1096
01:23:28.039 --> 01:23:35.840
have any chocolates? And Friday, twenty first of March, I

1097
01:23:35.880 --> 01:23:37.479
wonder if you add in money I could borrow her

1098
01:23:37.520 --> 01:23:38.560
for taxi.

1099
01:23:41.279 --> 01:23:42.520
Okay, which I didn't.

1100
01:23:45.880 --> 01:23:51.159
And then the Monday, BlimE me that's amazing, This is amazing.

1101
01:23:51.319 --> 01:23:57.359
The Monday, seventeenth March, I wonder if you could transfer

1102
01:23:57.439 --> 01:24:02.880
me seventeen pound so I can give you cash at midnight,

1103
01:24:08.239 --> 01:24:10.079
or if you can borrow me the money, could you

1104
01:24:10.199 --> 01:24:11.119
order me a big Mac?

1105
01:24:14.039 --> 01:24:14.520
That was a no?

1106
01:24:19.479 --> 01:24:22.920
Twenty seventh of February. Is there any way you could

1107
01:24:22.920 --> 01:24:24.720
do me a big favor and try and get me

1108
01:24:24.760 --> 01:24:25.439
an iPhone?

1109
01:24:25.479 --> 01:24:25.840
Please?

1110
01:24:26.319 --> 01:24:30.159
Mine keeps turning off and he's smashed, and I'm having whatever.

1111
01:24:30.199 --> 01:24:31.960
I'm not going to be the whole thing out. I

1112
01:24:32.000 --> 01:24:45.199
can pay you next week when I'm paid. I said,

1113
01:24:45.199 --> 01:24:46.640
I have no money. Is the only way you could

1114
01:24:46.640 --> 01:24:52.000
get paid monthly? And I said I can't. I can't,

1115
01:24:52.840 --> 01:24:57.279
I can't borrow any money.

1116
01:24:59.479 --> 01:24:59.760
Whatever.

1117
01:24:59.800 --> 01:25:03.319
Look nineteenth of February.

1118
01:25:04.520 --> 01:25:07.119
Would I be able to ask? Can I? Can you boy?

1119
01:25:07.520 --> 01:25:11.479
I borrow sixty pound? I said, sorry, I've already leant

1120
01:25:11.520 --> 01:25:13.439
some one eighty pounds and they didn't pay it back,

1121
01:25:14.039 --> 01:25:19.960
which left me with nothing? What other one? What's the

1122
01:25:20.039 --> 01:25:44.279
next one? H just kind of can just going back.

1123
01:25:47.840 --> 01:25:48.279
All right?

1124
01:25:50.319 --> 01:25:50.960
January?

1125
01:25:52.079 --> 01:25:52.239
Oh?

1126
01:25:52.359 --> 01:25:53.680
Yes, certainly got any eggs?

1127
01:25:54.039 --> 01:25:54.880
This is last.

1128
01:25:54.760 --> 01:26:01.119
January, third of January. Do you have any do you

1129
01:26:01.159 --> 01:26:07.720
have ten pound? I can borrow. Third of January any painkillers?

1130
01:26:13.000 --> 01:26:20.000
Seventeenth December last year, any painkillers? Fifteenth of December, you've

1131
01:26:20.000 --> 01:26:32.039
got a lighter please? Twenty third of October do you

1132
01:26:32.119 --> 01:26:41.600
have seventeen pound you can put in my count? I

1133
01:26:41.680 --> 01:26:45.199
don't have any money, as I couldn't. Nineteenth of October

1134
01:26:49.000 --> 01:26:50.840
can I have six pound or eight pounds to.

1135
01:26:50.800 --> 01:26:55.199
Borrow off you? And then a big whatever?

1136
01:26:55.760 --> 01:26:56.319
Information?

1137
01:26:58.840 --> 01:26:59.479
I said.

1138
01:27:01.119 --> 01:27:08.239
Zero cash? Sixteenth the day before? Wow, can I borrow

1139
01:27:08.239 --> 01:27:13.079
you ten or fifteen pounds? I got thirty seven pence

1140
01:27:13.079 --> 01:27:17.079
so I can do that. Fifteenth of October last year,

1141
01:27:18.359 --> 01:27:24.000
do you have any newspapers I can use? And sixteenth

1142
01:27:24.000 --> 01:27:25.880
of October you've got any milk?

1143
01:27:29.920 --> 01:27:30.399
Okay?

1144
01:27:30.520 --> 01:27:31.439
What's the next one?

1145
01:27:31.600 --> 01:27:32.199
Going back?

1146
01:27:39.880 --> 01:27:42.520
Seventh of October? See this is when this is at

1147
01:27:42.520 --> 01:27:45.079
a time when I was helping her. I had to

1148
01:27:45.079 --> 01:27:49.760
stop after this. My heating box is not working. I

1149
01:27:49.800 --> 01:27:53.640
was wondering if you know how to whatever? Just wondering.

1150
01:27:53.920 --> 01:27:56.319
This is seventh October, wondering if you have ten pounds

1151
01:27:56.319 --> 01:28:00.680
till Thursday, as I'm very not very well, So I

1152
01:28:00.760 --> 01:28:03.000
put ten pounds in a bank and I just texted

1153
01:28:03.079 --> 01:28:06.520
that to her. Oh sorry, I'm got a garage and

1154
01:28:06.520 --> 01:28:08.399
on a six pounds short Could you help me out?

1155
01:28:18.439 --> 01:28:18.680
Yeah?

1156
01:28:18.720 --> 01:28:20.439
It just goes on and on and on.

1157
01:28:24.319 --> 01:28:24.920
It's weird.

1158
01:28:25.840 --> 01:28:29.720
Seventeenth of August last year, do you have thirty pounds?

1159
01:28:29.680 --> 01:28:47.319
I can board to get whatever? Where's you're going? Wow? Friday,

1160
01:28:47.720 --> 01:28:52.159
nineteenth of July? Could you transfer me sixty nine pence?

1161
01:28:53.880 --> 01:28:55.920
And then a little while later, can you put twenty

1162
01:28:55.920 --> 01:29:00.920
pounds on my account? And I give you cash? I

1163
01:29:00.960 --> 01:29:02.119
had no money in my accounsel.

1164
01:29:02.119 --> 01:29:03.000
I couldn't.

1165
01:29:04.600 --> 01:29:08.079
Thirty first of July do you ever take measure? I

1166
01:29:08.079 --> 01:29:09.119
don't know what that was about.

1167
01:29:09.479 --> 01:29:21.439
Through random?

1168
01:29:21.640 --> 01:29:25.159
Oh this is the word. Thirteenth July. Could I connect

1169
01:29:25.399 --> 01:29:26.039
to your WiFi?

1170
01:29:26.159 --> 01:29:27.439
Please? My day is low.

1171
01:29:28.760 --> 01:29:30.760
No no no.

1172
01:29:30.479 --> 01:29:31.439
No no no.

1173
01:29:31.520 --> 01:29:34.560
That it gives someone your password for your WiFi. That's

1174
01:29:34.600 --> 01:29:37.239
it forever. Then you're never going to get them off.

1175
01:29:38.079 --> 01:29:40.880
You can block people and you can change the password,

1176
01:29:40.960 --> 01:29:45.600
but blind me, I can't involve with that. Okay, so

1177
01:29:45.640 --> 01:29:57.600
we're going back to seventh of July. So wow, seventeenth

1178
01:29:57.880 --> 01:30:05.039
seventh of July. Oh, yeah, I let my umbrella. I

1179
01:30:05.039 --> 01:30:06.399
didn't get my umbrella back.

1180
01:30:08.560 --> 01:30:08.760
Then.

1181
01:30:08.800 --> 01:30:10.279
I need you, really need your help. I'm in a

1182
01:30:10.359 --> 01:30:16.359
taxi and I only have three pound and I put

1183
01:30:16.399 --> 01:30:32.159
I have less than you, So what do I do? Wow,

1184
01:30:33.000 --> 01:30:34.520
it's weird just looking back.

1185
01:30:34.399 --> 01:30:40.920
At it, it's uh oh yeah, what is this? Back in.

1186
01:30:43.159 --> 01:30:48.359
God, this was like constant. This is a long This

1187
01:30:48.399 --> 01:30:56.760
is a twenty seventh, twenty seventh for June twenty seventh,

1188
01:30:56.760 --> 01:31:06.359
for June twenty sixth of June. I just want to

1189
01:31:06.399 --> 01:31:08.720
check your okay, as there was an ambulance outside at

1190
01:31:08.720 --> 01:31:09.600
four m this morning.

1191
01:31:10.319 --> 01:31:11.520
I'm okay and.

1192
01:31:14.279 --> 01:31:14.640
Very low.

1193
01:31:14.680 --> 01:31:19.680
I don't have money for fizzy drink or chocolate. The

1194
01:31:19.720 --> 01:31:37.640
ambulance wasn't for her anyway. I got I got some coke.

1195
01:31:39.439 --> 01:31:41.319
Lest some coke outside your door. This is on the

1196
01:31:41.319 --> 01:31:59.119
twenty seventh. Can you Oh yeah, can you? So you

1197
01:31:59.199 --> 01:32:10.119
want to borrow fifty equid? Could you buy me three

1198
01:32:10.439 --> 01:32:19.880
for my prescription? And then later on another fourteen pound? Wow?

1199
01:32:20.000 --> 01:32:23.439
This is just silly, isn't it. Oh well, I'll move

1200
01:32:23.479 --> 01:32:26.960
on from that because it's weird because she's only lived

1201
01:32:27.000 --> 01:32:29.600
here for three months. He's only moved in last week.

1202
01:32:31.159 --> 01:32:36.960
She's only been here three days. So I think one

1203
01:32:36.960 --> 01:32:41.680
of the downsides of the Buddhism I guess was well,

1204
01:32:41.680 --> 01:32:42.720
not not a downside.

1205
01:32:42.720 --> 01:32:44.199
But I tried to help people.

1206
01:32:46.520 --> 01:32:49.279
I guess one of the downsides of helping people is

1207
01:32:51.000 --> 01:32:54.079
more here than anywhere else. Not here, but like in

1208
01:32:54.119 --> 01:32:59.319
this area, people have sort of took advantage of it,

1209
01:33:00.079 --> 01:33:04.760
or took advantage and of the situation. And bit by

1210
01:33:04.840 --> 01:33:08.119
bit I've managed to stop it. I'm still getting asked

1211
01:33:08.119 --> 01:33:10.560
for stuff, but I just say no. I had another

1212
01:33:10.600 --> 01:33:12.600
neighbor downstairs knock on my door when I was in

1213
01:33:12.640 --> 01:33:16.920
bed on Friday about eleven o'clock, asking if I had

1214
01:33:17.199 --> 01:33:22.000
twenty pound. She said, oh, I need I need some tobacco.

1215
01:33:23.079 --> 01:33:26.479
If you got twenty pound, Well, twenty pound doesn't buy tobacco,

1216
01:33:27.600 --> 01:33:30.800
it's like thirty six pounds or something, so twenty pounds

1217
01:33:30.840 --> 01:33:33.560
not going to get you anything. And I said, but

1218
01:33:33.640 --> 01:33:37.039
she did, you know? She just want And I said no,

1219
01:33:37.079 --> 01:33:39.720
she's okay, bye, So she didn't hassle me for it.

1220
01:33:39.760 --> 01:33:42.920
But like I don't have any money, I don't have

1221
01:33:42.920 --> 01:33:47.560
any cash. I'm think of getting a big sign, sticking

1222
01:33:47.600 --> 01:33:50.560
it on my door, my front door. You know those,

1223
01:33:51.439 --> 01:33:53.720
what do those? You know when a shop is empty,

1224
01:33:54.279 --> 01:34:02.840
and they said, this property does not contain cash. Some

1225
01:34:02.920 --> 01:34:06.079
shops had that done it in the window when they're closed.

1226
01:34:07.560 --> 01:34:10.119
I remember when I worked in the chip shop, he

1227
01:34:10.239 --> 01:34:13.720
always left the till open and I said, why did

1228
01:34:13.720 --> 01:34:16.680
you do that? Then he said, because if someone does

1229
01:34:16.720 --> 01:34:23.520
break in it, they can just help themselves to because

1230
01:34:23.560 --> 01:34:26.760
there was always like a float, maybe twenty quid or something.

1231
01:34:26.960 --> 01:34:30.720
They can help themselves to that and leave. They haven't

1232
01:34:30.760 --> 01:34:33.680
got a take. They won't take the till with them,

1233
01:34:33.920 --> 01:34:35.960
and I think the till was quite expensive. Putt a

1234
01:34:35.960 --> 01:34:39.800
few underquid, so they won't break the till because they

1235
01:34:40.039 --> 01:34:42.359
generally they'll smash the till up to get into it,

1236
01:34:43.159 --> 01:34:46.039
even though underneath the till was a little catch which

1237
01:34:46.039 --> 01:34:50.159
you could push and it would open it. I don't

1238
01:34:50.159 --> 01:34:53.479
know if they still have that in tills. They had

1239
01:34:53.479 --> 01:34:57.399
it in a oh when I was in the comedy

1240
01:34:57.439 --> 01:35:04.119
club they had one which was really old. For some reason,

1241
01:35:04.560 --> 01:35:09.840
my boss liked it. It didn't work at all, but

1242
01:35:10.000 --> 01:35:14.640
it looked nice like wooden. But you could open it

1243
01:35:14.680 --> 01:35:16.520
from the bottom. So I think maybe a lot of

1244
01:35:16.560 --> 01:35:19.880
tills you can just open them from the bottom, but

1245
01:35:20.000 --> 01:35:23.199
press a button or a lever and they open, so

1246
01:35:23.279 --> 01:35:25.439
you haven't got smashed them and break them or anything.

1247
01:35:26.199 --> 01:35:28.920
I mean, listen, I'm not giving advice to the thieves.

1248
01:35:29.800 --> 01:35:34.680
If he was to break into a shop, here's my advice.

1249
01:35:35.479 --> 01:35:41.960
No, not really, but yeah, this was about Buddhism.

1250
01:35:42.000 --> 01:35:44.359
It didn't really end up being about Buddhism, did it.

1251
01:35:44.800 --> 01:35:45.479
Not really?

1252
01:35:46.800 --> 01:35:51.119
Not really, I replied to the neighby downstairs or not?

1253
01:35:51.279 --> 01:36:00.600
I can't remember. Wow, that's a lot of sorry, ok,

1254
01:36:00.720 --> 01:36:01.239
I replied.

1255
01:36:01.319 --> 01:36:01.560
There.

1256
01:36:03.319 --> 01:36:05.479
The thing is, if I do take her anything down

1257
01:36:05.560 --> 01:36:07.520
like the other day, I want to have a chat

1258
01:36:07.600 --> 01:36:09.800
with her, just to find out what's going on. So

1259
01:36:09.920 --> 01:36:13.680
can I come in and got no clothes on? I said,

1260
01:36:13.720 --> 01:36:22.159
that's fine, And doesn't talk to me, doesn't have any

1261
01:36:22.399 --> 01:36:27.720
any conversation with her or anything. It's just it's almost

1262
01:36:27.760 --> 01:36:31.880
like she doesn't like me at all. Yeah, she asks

1263
01:36:31.880 --> 01:36:32.319
her stuff.

1264
01:36:32.359 --> 01:36:36.600
I don't. I don't kind of understand that. It's weird.

1265
01:36:37.079 --> 01:36:41.920
It just seems a bit strange. I did buy her television.

1266
01:36:44.079 --> 01:36:48.279
That's a long, a long while ago. That was the

1267
01:36:48.319 --> 01:37:01.880
second of June last year, second of June. Oh yeah,

1268
01:37:01.880 --> 01:37:03.439
she wanted me to go. She asked me to go

1269
01:37:03.479 --> 01:37:06.479
to television, and she said I'd like one like yours

1270
01:37:06.680 --> 01:37:09.720
or a little smaller. And my answer was my TV

1271
01:37:09.840 --> 01:37:13.119
is huge. There's no way I can. So I got

1272
01:37:13.119 --> 01:37:15.319
this on special offer and I paid for it over

1273
01:37:15.359 --> 01:37:17.880
a long time. But this was over I think a

1274
01:37:17.960 --> 01:37:23.159
grand or maybe just under one thousand pounds. It's like,

1275
01:37:23.279 --> 01:37:28.079
I think, I don't know what size it is, seventy

1276
01:37:28.119 --> 01:37:31.239
five eighty five something like that, but she got I

1277
01:37:31.359 --> 01:37:45.560
ended up getting her a fifty five inch one.

1278
01:37:43.119 --> 01:37:43.600
Wow.

1279
01:37:46.760 --> 01:37:53.640
So yeah, it's just wanting to look when I got

1280
01:37:53.680 --> 01:38:03.079
my very first message. What's the very first message? Eighteenth

1281
01:38:03.079 --> 01:38:11.920
of May last year, eighteenth of my very first message.

1282
01:38:12.079 --> 01:38:14.399
So as soon as she got a message, this is

1283
01:38:14.520 --> 01:38:17.600
probably the day I gave her the telephone number.

1284
01:38:22.239 --> 01:38:22.800
How are you?

1285
01:38:23.239 --> 01:38:27.239
This is at half six eighteenth, you'd be a Saturday.

1286
01:38:27.279 --> 01:38:31.560
Probably cool? Thanks, just watching boxing? Okay, that's good. I'm

1287
01:38:31.600 --> 01:38:33.399
just waiting to see if my friend can borrow me

1288
01:38:33.439 --> 01:38:47.680
twenty pounds to get food. So I'm like, okay, so

1289
01:38:47.760 --> 01:38:50.840
I must have maybe a carder. So I ended up

1290
01:38:50.840 --> 01:39:21.800
giving her that money. H so yeah, oh dear, so yeah,

1291
01:39:21.960 --> 01:39:25.560
I said at the end of the recording, the end

1292
01:39:25.560 --> 01:39:28.359
of the record in La la la la, La, la

1293
01:39:28.439 --> 01:39:39.039
la la, I'm.

1294
01:39:38.880 --> 01:39:40.359
Feeling quite hungry.

1295
01:39:41.520 --> 01:39:44.960
Anyone else I can't be bothered to go out, though

1296
01:39:45.319 --> 01:39:47.680
I might have to cancel going out. I'm not really

1297
01:39:47.880 --> 01:39:50.800
in the mood. I don't want to go out, or

1298
01:39:50.920 --> 01:39:54.960
don't I really don't, but I don't know.

1299
01:39:56.159 --> 01:39:56.960
I don't.

1300
01:40:00.319 --> 01:40:10.880
Mhm did it here we go walking down the street.

1301
01:40:14.840 --> 01:40:40.880
Mm hmmm, h oh, what's hired? Mm hmm how interesting

1302
01:40:43.079 --> 01:40:44.800
dp d d d D.

1303
01:40:59.039 --> 01:41:09.279
So I'm just looking at some and online.

1304
01:41:12.039 --> 01:41:13.039
So really.

1305
01:41:16.680 --> 01:41:18.760
That's pretty much the end of the record. And I

1306
01:41:18.920 --> 01:41:29.159
do believe is it time to eat though? Because when

1307
01:41:29.199 --> 01:41:29.680
did I eat?

1308
01:41:29.760 --> 01:41:33.880
Last nine? Ten? And yeah, maybe it is. Yeah, I

1309
01:41:33.880 --> 01:41:36.880
feel I'm going to cancel on me. I don't want

1310
01:41:36.880 --> 01:41:37.560
to go out.

1311
01:41:40.399 --> 01:41:42.239
After all these nice things I said about him. I

1312
01:41:42.399 --> 01:41:58.279
just coming board. It's not just that I just can't. Yeah,

1313
01:41:58.600 --> 01:42:04.239
you know, not can't be bothered.

1314
01:42:04.279 --> 01:42:14.920
That's not the right word. Am hm.

1315
01:42:17.079 --> 01:42:21.800
Oh I have sulved to eat and then I see

1316
01:42:21.800 --> 01:42:22.840
how I feel.

1317
01:42:24.239 --> 01:42:25.000
Afterwards.

1318
01:42:29.720 --> 01:42:35.279
So yeah, thank you for listening. I feel like I

1319
01:42:35.399 --> 01:42:38.920
really wound down this recording to almost to stand still.

1320
01:42:40.680 --> 01:42:46.319
It's real, So thank.

1321
01:42:46.199 --> 01:42:49.800
You for listening. Rememberer, be kind.

1322
01:42:49.800 --> 01:42:54.439
To yourself because you do deserve to be happy. Remember

1323
01:42:54.439 --> 01:42:59.039
to be gentle with yourself.

1324
01:43:00.960 --> 01:43:16.079
Deserve to feel safe lots of love by relax.

1325
01:43:19.199 --> 01:43:29.760
In a more deep and meaningful way, maybe in a

1326
01:43:29.840 --> 01:43:37.359
way that can not just allow you to feel calmer

1327
01:43:38.560 --> 01:43:47.960
now and throughout the time we've spent together here, not

1328
01:43:48.479 --> 01:43:53.800
just relaxed at the end of the recording when it's

1329
01:43:53.880 --> 01:44:01.039
finished and you can enjoy that sense of comfortfort and peace,

1330
01:44:05.800 --> 01:44:18.600
but also I think it would be nice to have

1331
01:44:19.119 --> 01:44:36.119
those feelings of relaxation continue for longer after the recording

1332
01:44:36.199 --> 01:44:49.640
has ended, so that you can still benefit from listening

1333
01:44:50.520 --> 01:44:59.439
to my voice, maybe in a few hours time, perhaps tomorrow,

1334
01:45:05.479 --> 01:45:13.319
and then by listening regularly, especially if you find like

1335
01:45:13.479 --> 01:45:16.920
some people do and myself as well. I sometimes I

1336
01:45:17.079 --> 01:45:27.640
find one particular recording that really resonates with me, and

1337
01:45:27.680 --> 01:45:32.920
I just listen to it over and over again every morning,

1338
01:45:33.079 --> 01:45:45.640
every evening. There was this recording from We're going back

1339
01:45:45.680 --> 01:45:50.960
to about nineteen ninety nine. It was it wasn't hypnosis,

1340
01:45:51.039 --> 01:45:56.359
but it was it guided visualizations. It kind of was hypnosis, really,

1341
01:45:58.840 --> 01:46:04.000
and I managed to find it again and it still

1342
01:46:04.079 --> 01:46:09.680
has the same effect on me. And part of it

1343
01:46:09.840 --> 01:46:24.640
was the person's voice relaxed me. She just felt so peaceful,

1344
01:46:26.680 --> 01:46:33.159
and I'd look forward to listening to her in the

1345
01:46:33.239 --> 01:46:43.960
morning and in the evening, and I knew before even

1346
01:46:44.720 --> 01:46:51.920
pressing the play button, that as soon as I've done that,

1347
01:46:52.880 --> 01:46:56.319
pressed the play button. This was in the days of

1348
01:47:01.399 --> 01:47:10.560
CD players pressed the play button. In fact, it might

1349
01:47:10.560 --> 01:47:15.039
have even been a tape recorder. I'd lie down on

1350
01:47:15.079 --> 01:47:27.920
the bed and then even without necessarily listening to her

1351
01:47:28.119 --> 01:47:41.079
words because I had them memorized. Really, it was as

1352
01:47:41.079 --> 01:47:51.760
if my body knew exactly what to do, and the

1353
01:47:51.920 --> 01:48:13.960
muscles just almost went into automatic relaxation, and I remember

1354
01:48:14.079 --> 01:48:18.399
my mind would slow down.

1355
01:48:24.000 --> 01:48:24.439
Now.

1356
01:48:26.399 --> 01:48:33.079
Now, I was listening to this recording in the early

1357
01:48:33.199 --> 01:48:40.960
days of learning hypnosis, and long before I ever made

1358
01:48:41.560 --> 01:48:48.880
any videos or audio recordings myself, because I didn't start

1359
01:48:48.960 --> 01:48:59.439
doing that till two thousand and six, I knew.

1360
01:49:02.640 --> 01:49:04.119
I knew how.

1361
01:49:05.640 --> 01:49:19.439
Helpful I found being able to just let go, to

1362
01:49:19.520 --> 01:49:24.720
have that trust in the person that I'm listening to,

1363
01:49:32.399 --> 01:49:40.479
knowing that it's going to be just as relaxing, if

1364
01:49:40.560 --> 01:49:49.239
not more so. Each time you hear my voice.

1365
01:49:49.880 --> 01:49:58.560
You may feel the same. Some people.

1366
01:50:00.680 --> 01:50:13.000
Have been listening to me for over a decade, maybe

1367
01:50:13.079 --> 01:50:18.560
not solidly, obviously, not twenty four hours a day, but

1368
01:50:20.680 --> 01:50:21.960
maybe people come back.

1369
01:50:23.800 --> 01:50:34.680
Some people maybe listen every day.

1370
01:50:36.720 --> 01:50:42.720
That's something that I do, which you may not realize

1371
01:50:45.119 --> 01:50:46.319
by listening.

1372
01:50:50.479 --> 01:51:08.399
Is when I record these recordings now, for example, I

1373
01:51:08.560 --> 01:51:21.359
also am affected by the words that I say. So

1374
01:51:21.560 --> 01:51:30.920
if I set you focus on your feet, notice your

1375
01:51:30.960 --> 01:51:42.920
feet relaxing, I will be focusing on my feet. I

1376
01:51:43.000 --> 01:52:00.920
will be noticing my feet relaxing. Advice it Focus on

1377
01:52:01.000 --> 01:52:09.199
your hands and maybe notice the difference between each hand.

1378
01:52:12.880 --> 01:52:19.800
Perhaps notice the air in the room, the temperature of

1379
01:52:19.840 --> 01:52:31.840
the room. On the backs of your hands. You may

1380
01:52:32.000 --> 01:52:40.199
start to notice what almost feels like a very light breeze,

1381
01:52:40.880 --> 01:52:44.960
even though there may not be any type of breeze

1382
01:52:45.199 --> 01:52:57.920
at all where you are right now. And as you

1383
01:52:58.000 --> 01:53:11.680
become aware of your hands, I'm also aware of how

1384
01:53:12.840 --> 01:53:15.359
relaxed my hands.

1385
01:53:18.600 --> 01:53:37.600
Are feeling now. And when it comes to.

1386
01:53:39.079 --> 01:53:45.079
Potentially drifting off to sleep, which may be the reason

1387
01:53:45.439 --> 01:54:01.720
you're listening, I also feel drowsy when I make these recordings.

1388
01:54:06.399 --> 01:54:11.840
I also notice my mind.

1389
01:54:12.720 --> 01:54:13.279
Drifting.

1390
01:54:21.159 --> 01:54:33.760
In fact, at times I've actually fallen asleep without even noticing,

1391
01:54:38.640 --> 01:54:40.359
and then I carry on talking.

1392
01:54:46.399 --> 01:54:48.000
And it's only where.

1393
01:54:48.039 --> 01:54:57.119
I listen back to do the editing I hear snoring,

1394
01:54:59.079 --> 01:55:01.840
and I think I don't remember snoring.

1395
01:55:05.119 --> 01:55:06.359
I remember talking.

1396
01:55:09.159 --> 01:55:16.319
Is it snoring? Was a pick turned up That's why

1397
01:55:16.359 --> 01:55:24.600
I sound like when I snore, I get really into

1398
01:55:24.680 --> 01:55:44.079
a whole experience. I don't know how you feel, How

1399
01:55:44.159 --> 01:55:51.119
relaxed do you feel in your feet, how relaxed.

1400
01:55:54.279 --> 01:56:12.840
You feel in your hands. I have noticed.

1401
01:56:14.880 --> 01:56:31.119
More and more that the more relaxed, deeper level of

1402
01:56:31.359 --> 01:56:48.600
comfort you feel, the easier your breathing becomes. It's almost

1403
01:56:49.000 --> 01:57:09.840
like that additional muscle relaxation. So this allows you debreath

1404
01:57:10.239 --> 01:57:36.199
easier without necessarily focusing on your breath, however, being able

1405
01:57:36.239 --> 01:57:52.560
to notice the ease.

1406
01:57:55.520 --> 01:57:56.359
In which.

1407
01:58:03.640 --> 01:58:23.560
You breathe so naturally. You breathe so very easily.

1408
01:58:24.520 --> 01:59:05.439
And smoothly. Whenever I imagine.

1409
01:59:02.880 --> 01:59:18.960
My breathing improving, when I've got my eyes closed, I

1410
01:59:19.199 --> 01:59:32.640
tend to visualize a beautiful field with trees and flowers

1411
01:59:39.439 --> 02:00:12.439
producing all that life giving oxygen. And it feels nice too,

1412
02:00:14.039 --> 02:00:45.920
if nothing else, just taking some time away from everything, enjoying.

1413
02:00:51.359 --> 02:00:53.439
That feeling of.

1414
02:00:57.279 --> 02:01:44.159
Peace serenity with a joyful heart. Time seems to just

1415
02:01:45.960 --> 02:02:30.039
drip by, so very slowly, relaxed, so deeply peaceful, completely

1416
02:02:35.920 --> 02:03:37.199
unattached to any thoughts whatsoever in this moment, completely free,

1417
02:03:38.359 --> 02:03:39.560
noticing that.

1418
02:03:47.000 --> 02:03:48.239
Your mind.

1419
02:03:55.479 --> 02:04:35.479
Has slowed down, slowed down because nothing really requires your attention.

1420
02:04:51.960 --> 02:05:06.239
You can enjoy the physical sensation of allowing the stress

1421
02:05:06.560 --> 02:05:19.159
to drip out of your body, dripping out of every

1422
02:05:22.520 --> 02:05:47.960
part of your body and being released from your brain

1423
02:05:53.760 --> 02:06:28.960
your mind slowly but surely. The muscles in your legs

1424
02:06:44.600 --> 02:07:15.119
relax res res so very deeply, rags.

1425
02:07:19.760 --> 02:07:38.680
So deeply, and.

1426
02:07:38.880 --> 02:07:48.880
The feelings, the pleasant feelings in your arms and shoulders,

1427
02:08:06.680 --> 02:08:20.319
deepening each part of your body further and deeper.

1428
02:08:30.279 --> 02:08:51.279
And deeper. Noticing the feelings.

1429
02:08:50.960 --> 02:09:17.439
In the back of your neck, feelings in your wrists,

1430
02:09:50.560 --> 02:10:41.640
muscles in front of your body. I also feeling peaceful, deeping.

1431
02:10:47.560 --> 02:10:57.840
There's a sense of peace spreads through your very core.

1432
02:11:28.359 --> 02:11:49.079
Even when you focus on your mind, her mind becomes.

1433
02:11:55.600 --> 02:13:18.479
Be and slower, deep relaxing, so very slow. Your stomach,

1434
02:13:32.600 --> 02:13:34.680
it's fell in your stomach.

1435
02:13:56.760 --> 02:13:57.399
Look back.

1436
02:14:02.840 --> 02:14:16.479
Notice Notice how relaxed.

1437
02:14:20.000 --> 02:14:58.119
You'd now feel in the hole of your back. A

1438
02:14:58.399 --> 02:15:00.319
spy h.

1439
02:15:02.880 --> 02:15:07.600
From your brain all the way down the middle of

1440
02:15:07.680 --> 02:15:30.359
your back, sending and receiving millions of messages every day,

1441
02:15:30.399 --> 02:16:50.200
deep comfort, increasing deeply relaxed, your knees relax spreading those

1442
02:16:50.319 --> 02:16:59.479
signals down your spine or cord into air every part

1443
02:17:00.079 --> 02:18:04.360
your body, shins, and your car muscles, the outbursts, feelings.

1444
02:18:03.520 --> 02:18:09.040
Of peace and tranquility.

1445
02:18:12.079 --> 02:18:26.040
Spreading through your body, tips of your toes to your eyes,

1446
02:18:30.440 --> 02:18:48.879
your fingers all the way to your lower back, and

1447
02:18:49.280 --> 02:19:52.440
letting go dating her pace, drift him mind just wondering away,

1448
02:20:01.879 --> 02:20:17.399
happy to let go, let go completely lecker.

1449
02:20:42.479 --> 02:21:13.879
So tranquil your whole body, enjoy.

1450
02:21:13.680 --> 02:23:38.280
A censor listing go more, Hey, enjoy the space, this

1451
02:23:38.920 --> 02:23:43.680
space of peace.

1452
02:23:46.799 --> 02:24:10.959
And safety.

1453
02:24:11.239 --> 02:24:11.680
Fay me.

1454
02:24:14.799 --> 02:26:13.639
He relxhhhhhhhhhh, letting go. Maybe we can just focus on

1455
02:26:13.799 --> 02:26:48.440
the different parts of your body, just to notice your

1456
02:26:48.680 --> 02:27:51.440
forehead and your eyes uptual, so loose, noticing the sense

1457
02:27:51.520 --> 02:29:26.120
of complete freedom, absolute freedom, dress day, pace on energy,

1458
02:29:59.000 --> 02:31:10.760
pace to breeze so much ease, Yeah, les. You may

1459
02:31:11.079 --> 02:31:59.840
have or may not have noticed your mind drifting peace,

1460
02:32:14.399 --> 02:32:17.719
move ay even more deeply.

1461
02:32:22.639 --> 02:32:24.120
In the direction of.

1462
02:32:29.079 --> 02:34:31.200
Total blissful pace, blissful pace, draft to pace, suir, come

1463
02:34:43.079 --> 02:35:54.840
let him go. Peace of mind, relaxed, body, relaxed, relaxed.

1464
02:36:19.360 --> 02:36:46.200
A body feels almost invisible, so very relaxed and peaceful.

1465
02:36:52.600 --> 02:37:01.079
So pace.

1466
02:37:17.040 --> 02:37:25.200
L like god.

1467
02:37:40.680 --> 02:37:42.200
Dom sip pace.

1468
02:37:47.959 --> 02:38:00.559
So the favs, and you.

1469
02:38:00.600 --> 02:38:07.760
Could start to notice that you are feeling more relaxed

1470
02:38:10.760 --> 02:38:20.520
even though if not purposely focused your mind upon that

1471
02:38:21.879 --> 02:38:27.959
sense of physical comfort that is growing within you throughout

1472
02:38:28.040 --> 02:38:40.840
your body, and your mind starts to slow down, and

1473
02:38:41.000 --> 02:38:48.479
that could be almost in recognition of I guess my

1474
02:38:48.719 --> 02:38:52.840
speech not being particularly fast.

1475
02:38:59.079 --> 02:39:03.479
And things just generally feel calmer.

1476
02:39:07.040 --> 02:39:14.959
Just by listening to my voice, you give yourself an

1477
02:39:15.040 --> 02:39:23.000
opportunity to take a break from the day, take a

1478
02:39:23.079 --> 02:39:30.719
break from your life as it is, and to give

1479
02:39:30.799 --> 02:39:38.879
yourself a rest, giving yourself permission to take some time

1480
02:39:39.040 --> 02:39:46.440
off and to allow your body to relax and allow

1481
02:39:46.680 --> 02:39:57.600
your mind to slow down, which in turn releases the tension,

1482
02:39:59.079 --> 02:40:07.760
any stress is that you had in your body. It's

1483
02:40:07.840 --> 02:40:12.360
almost as if the parts of your body just open up,

1484
02:40:13.719 --> 02:40:25.360
allowing the negativity out and at the same time replacing

1485
02:40:26.200 --> 02:40:35.719
that negativity with positive heathing energy, which then fills your

1486
02:40:35.799 --> 02:40:47.600
body up and your mind to also starts to appreciate

1487
02:40:48.520 --> 02:41:06.879
those feelings of increasing confidence and almost uplifting feeling positive, healing,

1488
02:41:10.079 --> 02:41:18.920
an energy that spreads through your body like a wave.

1489
02:41:20.959 --> 02:41:33.680
Of comfort. And all this comes from just allowing yourself.

1490
02:41:35.920 --> 02:41:41.120
A few minutes, maybe half an hour, however long you

1491
02:41:41.200 --> 02:41:45.360
want it to be, to just rest.

1492
02:41:50.440 --> 02:41:51.399
And allow.

1493
02:41:53.600 --> 02:42:03.600
Your mind and your body to almost reset itself to

1494
02:42:04.280 --> 02:42:19.920
the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness, which allows more

1495
02:42:20.079 --> 02:42:24.760
room for feelings of pleasure.

1496
02:42:27.000 --> 02:42:28.280
And happiness.

1497
02:42:31.799 --> 02:42:40.600
To move around your body and into your mind, almost

1498
02:42:41.440 --> 02:42:46.000
as if your mind and your body are sinking together,

1499
02:42:50.280 --> 02:42:59.920
almost mirroring each other with that growing positivity and calmness.

1500
02:43:05.040 --> 02:43:12.479
And it feels nice, really does feel nice to know

1501
02:43:12.760 --> 02:43:21.639
that you are the one that has allowed yourself to

1502
02:43:21.920 --> 02:43:30.920
feel more comfort than to experience.

1503
02:43:32.719 --> 02:43:33.840
More of this.

1504
02:43:35.639 --> 02:43:50.760
Deep relaxation spreading throughout your body, and as I focus

1505
02:43:52.360 --> 02:43:58.120
on each part of your body, you can notice that

1506
02:43:58.319 --> 02:44:12.840
that part becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on it.

1507
02:44:15.360 --> 02:44:21.680
It becomes even more calm and comfortable.

1508
02:44:23.559 --> 02:44:25.040
Just by focusing.

1509
02:44:29.079 --> 02:44:34.840
And as I move down your body, starting at your head,

1510
02:44:37.559 --> 02:44:42.840
the parts that you have already focused on or continue

1511
02:44:44.200 --> 02:44:51.319
to relax deeply, and those parts that have not yet

1512
02:44:51.520 --> 02:45:04.360
focused on or just automatically relie any remain intention in

1513
02:45:04.559 --> 02:45:18.799
anticipation of even more comfort about to come. Now, I'm

1514
02:45:18.799 --> 02:45:25.280
going to start by focusing on your forehead. Just being

1515
02:45:25.440 --> 02:45:34.079
aware of the feelings of your forehead and any background

1516
02:45:34.360 --> 02:45:41.440
sounds like mister Herbert's opinion, can just allow you to

1517
02:45:41.639 --> 02:45:43.360
feel even more relaxed.

1518
02:45:47.280 --> 02:45:53.399
Just means you're in the moment. This isn't this isn't

1519
02:45:53.399 --> 02:45:57.360
a sterile environment. This is the world.

1520
02:46:00.799 --> 02:46:06.840
I live in the countryside, so there's lots of nature

1521
02:46:07.360 --> 02:46:17.879
sounds around. So as you focus on your forehead, just

1522
02:46:18.120 --> 02:46:25.920
notice how it becomes even more relaxed as you focus

1523
02:46:28.200 --> 02:46:32.680
only on my voice and that part of your body.

1524
02:46:37.920 --> 02:46:46.159
Moving down to your eyes, focusing on your eyes, noticing

1525
02:46:48.639 --> 02:46:57.120
how your eyelids feel so heavy, he has so light

1526
02:46:58.200 --> 02:47:04.399
at the same time, and all the muscles around your

1527
02:47:04.479 --> 02:47:06.479
eyes relaxing.

1528
02:47:07.680 --> 02:47:14.799
Completely. Moving your focus.

1529
02:47:15.879 --> 02:47:22.479
Down to your mouth, your lips, your tongue, your teeth,

1530
02:47:22.719 --> 02:47:23.799
your comes.

1531
02:47:25.760 --> 02:47:34.120
The hole of your mouth, relaxing, calm.

1532
02:47:35.280 --> 02:47:46.680
And loose as you focus now on your jaw, not

1533
02:47:47.040 --> 02:47:51.719
just a part of your journey, your mouth, your chin,

1534
02:47:53.000 --> 02:47:56.079
but all the way up the size of your face,

1535
02:47:57.280 --> 02:48:01.120
to your ears, the hole.

1536
02:48:01.559 --> 02:48:05.680
Of your jaw, feeding.

1537
02:48:09.479 --> 02:48:32.399
More relaxed and calm. Focusing on your neck, the front

1538
02:48:32.520 --> 02:48:41.120
of your neck and your throat, relaxing and loose and calm.

1539
02:48:45.319 --> 02:48:50.479
The sides of your neck, the right and the left

1540
02:48:50.760 --> 02:48:56.159
side of your neck, relax and.

1541
02:48:57.680 --> 02:49:02.760
Lease and calm.

1542
02:49:09.159 --> 02:49:15.840
And now the back of your neck. Focusing on the

1543
02:49:16.120 --> 02:49:26.520
back of your neck, letting go of any tension that

1544
02:49:26.760 --> 02:49:35.600
may have been there before, and enjoying that sense of

1545
02:49:36.639 --> 02:49:41.559
increasing comfort and release.

1546
02:49:44.319 --> 02:49:55.360
Then you can experience in the back of your neck, moving.

1547
02:49:55.239 --> 02:50:03.520
Down your back and moving either side of your spine right.

1548
02:50:03.440 --> 02:50:08.399
From the top of your back all the way down

1549
02:50:09.040 --> 02:50:21.440
to the bottom of your back down it's your lower back.

1550
02:50:26.680 --> 02:50:33.799
As you move up and down your spine, you can

1551
02:50:34.000 --> 02:50:42.159
feel the muscles either side of your spine relaxing even more.

1552
02:50:49.680 --> 02:50:56.440
And as those muscles relax, that sense of comfort starts

1553
02:50:56.559 --> 02:51:02.959
to spread outwards from your spine.

1554
02:51:05.040 --> 02:51:12.120
Into both sides of your back, the top of your back,

1555
02:51:13.000 --> 02:51:14.680
the middle, and your lower back.

1556
02:51:18.239 --> 02:51:19.559
And as you scan.

1557
02:51:20.920 --> 02:51:28.760
Gently and slowly up and down your back, there's the

1558
02:51:28.920 --> 02:51:34.760
muscles in the top of your back relax and become looser.

1559
02:51:39.120 --> 02:51:45.079
The muscles in the middle of your back also seem

1560
02:51:45.200 --> 02:51:54.719
to just almost divide from each other, separating and almost melting,

1561
02:52:00.479 --> 02:52:06.479
And in your lower back there seems to be an

1562
02:52:06.559 --> 02:52:20.719
extra special feeling of comfort. The spreads into your hips

1563
02:52:23.000 --> 02:52:30.840
sit down your lower back, into your hips, into the

1564
02:52:31.040 --> 02:52:31.879
area where.

1565
02:52:31.719 --> 02:52:37.120
Your cosicks are, and into your.

1566
02:52:37.040 --> 02:52:46.360
Buttocks, and always muscles that spread in your lower back

1567
02:52:48.879 --> 02:53:01.120
into your hip area start to melt, start to reading,

1568
02:53:02.319 --> 02:53:13.159
let go and even know where about to focus on

1569
02:53:13.280 --> 02:53:22.319
your shoulders. Your back and your spine will continue to

1570
02:53:22.600 --> 02:53:40.879
let go, continue to relax so calmly, and as you

1571
02:53:41.079 --> 02:53:45.879
focus on your shoulders, you may notice.

1572
02:53:45.879 --> 02:54:01.079
They're already feeling really loose. They're all already.

1573
02:54:03.600 --> 02:54:26.760
Feeding calm and fear. Those muscles then move from your

1574
02:54:26.920 --> 02:54:46.280
neck into your shoulders. Feel so soft and gentle, so

1575
02:54:46.799 --> 02:54:54.360
smooth and calm.

1576
02:55:06.000 --> 02:55:08.440
The feeling in your shoulders.

1577
02:55:15.200 --> 02:55:23.680
Seems to spread deep into your shoulders, that sense of relaxation,

1578
02:55:24.920 --> 02:55:36.399
not just traveling deeply into your muscles, but also relaxing

1579
02:55:39.239 --> 02:55:49.120
the bones and moving all the way to underneath your arms,

1580
02:55:51.959 --> 02:55:57.920
relaxing the whole area between the tops of your shoulders

1581
02:55:59.239 --> 02:56:17.000
and underneath your arms healing. You feel so relaxed and

1582
02:56:17.280 --> 02:56:29.319
comfortable in your shoulders, which sense that's deep healing.

1583
02:56:32.360 --> 02:56:39.399
Message into your arms.

1584
02:56:46.079 --> 02:56:51.079
You may feel almost as if your arms are not

1585
02:56:51.280 --> 02:57:09.920
even there, because they're so relaxed, so deeply relaxed, so

1586
02:57:14.239 --> 02:57:15.360
so calm.

1587
02:57:30.559 --> 02:57:37.559
So this.

1588
02:57:45.079 --> 02:57:56.200
The feeling spread in all way down your arms two elbows,

1589
02:58:00.280 --> 02:58:04.440
including your elbows.

1590
02:58:13.840 --> 02:58:21.319
Circumfort spreads all the way.

1591
02:58:23.840 --> 02:58:39.200
Into wrists, your forearms, and your wrists so heavy.

1592
02:58:42.479 --> 02:58:45.879
Yet at the same time.

1593
02:58:53.159 --> 02:58:58.319
Sunlight and gentle.

1594
02:59:23.000 --> 02:59:24.120
But see.

1595
02:59:26.280 --> 03:00:05.239
Now peaceful in your hands.

1596
03:00:23.440 --> 03:00:24.520
With a sense of.

1597
03:00:28.040 --> 03:00:51.040
Real pace just seems to feel so familiar.

1598
03:00:53.840 --> 03:02:33.559
On your hands. Relax deeplysis, it's you think it tips

1599
03:03:02.159 --> 03:03:32.840
may your attention to affront your body are comfortable, my man,

1600
03:03:33.000 --> 03:04:57.680
You focus to your lights, assles.

1601
03:04:59.040 --> 03:05:23.399
In your though names, sac.

1602
03:05:50.440 --> 03:10:00.000
Calf muscles, just shaves, compassiy.

1603
03:08:01.360 --> 03:09:08.479
Faats sir, peaceful circom sir, peaceful, sircomm sir, peaceful sclm so.

1604
03:09:10.440 --> 03:09:12.120
Peace fall.

1605
03:09:20.479 --> 03:09:29.120
Rea, same peace fall.

1606
03:09:32.520 --> 03:09:33.520
C calm.

1607
03:09:41.559 --> 03:09:45.159
Let that deep relaxation.

1608
03:09:45.760 --> 03:09:49.079
To spread your chesty storm.

1609
03:09:52.920 --> 03:10:03.200
So relax, let you go.

1610
03:10:07.319 --> 03:10:24.680
Everything. So I'm gonna start counting down now from twenty

1611
03:10:25.040 --> 03:10:33.200
down to one. You can imagine in a way it's

1612
03:10:33.399 --> 03:10:36.760
like just walking down some steps.

1613
03:10:38.159 --> 03:10:41.920
And each step or twenty steps, and each step.

1614
03:10:41.840 --> 03:10:54.639
Represents a level of comfort. Each step represents a deepening

1615
03:10:56.639 --> 03:11:07.639
of that comfort, and the fervies you walk down those steps,

1616
03:11:07.760 --> 03:11:20.239
the deeper and more relaxed you feel. So starting with

1617
03:11:20.440 --> 03:13:54.440
number twenty twenty, nineteen, eight, seventeen, sixteen.

1618
03:14:20.559 --> 03:14:50.319
Until US.

1619
03:15:08.799 --> 03:15:52.799
Six four.

1620
03:16:52.479 --> 03:16:53.479
Four two.

1621
03:17:59.440 --> 03:19:30.399
Two US.

1622
03:19:52.120 --> 03:23:05.040
Do ninehhhhhhhhhh.

1623
03:22:18.120 --> 03:23:18.120
Eight s.

1624
03:24:55.639 --> 03:26:09.239
Six must.

1625
03:25:57.120 --> 03:30:01.920
Lay five four US.

1626
03:31:08.639 --> 03:32:15.399
One no. As you focus on your eyes. We're gonna

1627
03:32:15.520 --> 03:32:26.920
count down from ten down to one, focusing just on

1628
03:32:27.120 --> 03:32:38.040
your eyes, your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your

1629
03:32:38.120 --> 03:32:43.079
eye walls themselves, our whole area.

1630
03:32:45.680 --> 03:33:00.680
That makes up your eye. And as we count down ten.

1631
03:33:02.440 --> 03:33:15.719
Down to one, whilst focusing on your eyes, you'll become

1632
03:33:17.799 --> 03:33:25.680
twice is relaxed with each number counting down.

1633
03:33:29.559 --> 03:33:36.520
That you may find the what you want to do

1634
03:33:37.040 --> 03:33:41.760
is just drift off to sleep.

1635
03:33:44.760 --> 03:33:51.360
And if that's what you want, then just allow yourself

1636
03:33:51.479 --> 03:34:06.120
to do that. Now, focus on your eyes. I'm going

1637
03:34:06.239 --> 03:34:08.399
to begin counting down.

1638
03:34:09.639 --> 03:34:11.639
From ten down to one.

1639
03:34:15.680 --> 03:34:51.840
Right now. Ten nine.

1640
03:35:25.920 --> 03:36:20.479
Eighth sn.

1641
03:38:23.680 --> 03:39:35.159
F four.

1642
03:40:48.319 --> 03:42:36.159
Three us.

1643
03:43:22.520 --> 03:43:22.760
One.

1644
03:43:29.079 --> 03:43:39.520
So counted down from ten to one.

1645
03:43:41.360 --> 03:43:44.120
Ten nine.

1646
03:43:45.520 --> 03:43:59.920
Eight seven six five four three.

1647
03:44:02.520 --> 03:44:05.680
Two one.

1648
03:44:12.680 --> 03:44:15.559
And maybe that was a bit too quick in order

1649
03:44:15.639 --> 03:44:16.280
to relax.

1650
03:44:17.479 --> 03:44:21.719
Maybe it's a bit too fast for you to notice

1651
03:44:22.000 --> 03:44:30.079
the calming of your body, maybe even a little bit

1652
03:44:30.120 --> 03:44:34.200
of pressure there, Like you're counting down from ten to one.

1653
03:44:34.319 --> 03:44:35.760
Would you expect me to do?

1654
03:44:36.040 --> 03:44:40.840
Man, expect me to go with floppy just because you're

1655
03:44:40.959 --> 03:44:50.319
counting down. You could try it again, but this time

1656
03:44:50.360 --> 03:44:56.399
I'll go a bit slower this time, and you focus

1657
03:44:56.760 --> 03:45:01.360
on the whole of your body before we focus on

1658
03:45:01.479 --> 03:45:02.000
your legs.

1659
03:45:04.440 --> 03:45:05.559
Just notice.

1660
03:45:06.760 --> 03:45:08.040
How your body does.

1661
03:45:09.639 --> 03:45:22.760
Start to feel more relaxed with every number that I

1662
03:45:22.959 --> 03:45:23.680
count down.

1663
03:45:26.920 --> 03:46:56.319
Ten nine at eight, seven, six, five four three one,

1664
03:47:07.680 --> 03:47:13.360
And just notice how how you feel generally, how your

1665
03:47:13.399 --> 03:47:14.120
body feels.

1666
03:47:20.799 --> 03:47:29.079
It's not necessarily even about counting down from ten to one.

1667
03:47:32.040 --> 03:47:45.440
It's that space that you have, that space between being

1668
03:47:49.040 --> 03:48:02.159
active physically or mentally, just sitting down, just being there,

1669
03:48:02.879 --> 03:48:08.319
not doing anything, not saying anything, or needing to think

1670
03:48:08.440 --> 03:48:09.280
about anything.

1671
03:48:11.079 --> 03:48:14.760
So it opens up a space, you know, a bit

1672
03:48:14.799 --> 03:48:25.559
of a space, a gap. And the more I came

1673
03:48:25.719 --> 03:48:30.239
down from ten to one, the bigger that gap becomes.

1674
03:48:33.280 --> 03:48:39.680
So there's that gap of calmness, of comfort, relaxation.

1675
03:48:45.600 --> 03:48:53.479
It's a nice feeling, and it moves.

1676
03:48:54.719 --> 03:49:02.719
Those stresses or discomforts physical or emotionally, moves them.

1677
03:49:04.239 --> 03:49:12.319
Away. Allows you.

1678
03:49:15.079 --> 03:49:24.399
To just slow down, someone to count the game from

1679
03:49:24.440 --> 03:49:33.079
ten down to one, and notice that gap widening, the gap,

1680
03:49:34.879 --> 03:49:39.280
And as it widens, it's almost like that the stress

1681
03:49:39.440 --> 03:49:42.239
and attention falls into.

1682
03:49:42.000 --> 03:49:42.600
The gap.

1683
03:49:55.840 --> 03:50:52.159
And gives you that distance. That's space ten nine, eight seven, six, five.

1684
03:51:03.000 --> 03:51:22.159
Four three.

1685
03:51:56.920 --> 03:51:57.159
One.

1686
03:52:08.680 --> 03:52:13.079
Now, how does your body you feel.

1687
03:52:15.040 --> 03:52:31.600
Now? Can you notice that? Do you feeling calmer?

1688
03:52:39.680 --> 03:52:44.760
Do you feeling more relaxed.

1689
03:53:06.680 --> 03:53:11.000
As we now focus on your legs, just your legs.

1690
03:53:27.040 --> 03:53:47.159
We're just gonna start with focusing on your thighs. Of course,

1691
03:53:47.280 --> 03:53:52.559
it's not the most exciting thing to be doing, because.

1692
03:53:55.600 --> 03:53:56.360
I'm sure, like.

1693
03:53:56.479 --> 03:53:59.000
Most of your body is not a lot going on

1694
03:53:59.239 --> 03:54:11.639
right now. Just focusing on the whole of your thighs,

1695
03:54:14.440 --> 03:54:18.159
the tops of your thighs, the sides of your thighs,

1696
03:54:20.399 --> 03:54:24.840
the bottoms of your thighs, your outer thighs, and your

1697
03:54:24.959 --> 03:54:30.200
inner thighs. Basically the whole of your thigh that leads

1698
03:54:31.239 --> 03:54:41.520
into your hip and it goes down to your knee joints.

1699
03:54:46.639 --> 03:54:53.879
Now, this is a big area. It's a very heavy area.

1700
03:54:54.399 --> 03:55:00.360
It's very strong, probably the strongest muscles in your body

1701
03:55:01.079 --> 03:55:17.559
ring your thighs. But I don't think we perhaps give

1702
03:55:17.719 --> 03:55:30.920
enough attention to our thighs. Perhaps we don't acknowledge how

1703
03:55:31.040 --> 03:55:52.920
important our thighs are to our lives, how much they

1704
03:55:53.000 --> 03:56:06.440
actually do for us all through our lives. And it

1705
03:56:06.680 --> 03:56:07.840
may seem.

1706
03:56:07.799 --> 03:56:12.799
Sound really weird, but I think that all of.

1707
03:56:12.840 --> 03:56:23.680
Our body parts, especially our thighs, need some TLC, a

1708
03:56:23.760 --> 03:56:26.360
bit of love shown, a bit of.

1709
03:56:32.920 --> 03:56:36.840
Acknowledgement. Thank you.

1710
03:56:39.959 --> 03:56:52.479
Gratitude for our thighs do for us. And I know

1711
03:56:52.680 --> 03:56:54.879
this may sound a bit strange.

1712
03:56:57.479 --> 03:56:59.040
Maybe you think, why am.

1713
03:56:58.959 --> 03:57:01.920
I sure that I should be out in the garden

1714
03:57:02.159 --> 03:57:10.440
hugging a tree or something. It's hard to set a

1715
03:57:10.520 --> 03:57:14.200
microphone up on a tree. That's why I'm doing this indoors.

1716
03:57:14.239 --> 03:57:18.000
Otherwise I wouldn't be outside hugging a tree. I can't

1717
03:57:18.040 --> 03:57:19.360
see the television.

1718
03:57:18.920 --> 03:57:19.399
From the tree.

1719
03:57:26.079 --> 03:57:30.360
If you move down to your knees gain such an

1720
03:57:30.440 --> 03:57:38.040
important part. And I think we don't necessarily.

1721
03:57:39.559 --> 03:57:45.920
I'll speak for myself. I don't necessarily appreciate.

1722
03:57:47.079 --> 03:57:52.000
All that my needs to do for me until I

1723
03:57:52.120 --> 03:57:55.479
have a problem with my knee. It's occasionally, if I

1724
03:57:55.520 --> 03:58:01.200
ever maybe i'll bash it, or it's a for some reason.

1725
03:58:02.959 --> 03:58:09.159
It's then that I realize how much it does. You know,

1726
03:58:09.239 --> 03:58:15.200
the benefit of being able to use my legs without

1727
03:58:16.959 --> 03:58:19.760
any kind of physical discomfort.

1728
03:58:20.680 --> 03:58:22.559
Is a beautiful thing.

1729
03:58:23.959 --> 03:58:30.280
That's possibly not appreciated until it's temporarily removed.

1730
03:58:31.440 --> 03:58:32.799
You know that's comfort.

1731
03:58:36.920 --> 03:58:41.559
But as you focus on your knees, regardless of how

1732
03:58:41.600 --> 03:58:49.079
your knees feel, you can have that sense of gratitude

1733
03:58:50.639 --> 03:58:53.239
and love to your needs for all that they do

1734
03:58:53.440 --> 03:59:06.440
for you, and you can still have that attention on

1735
03:59:06.559 --> 03:59:13.120
your thighs. Maybe notice how your thighs feel, Maybe you

1736
03:59:13.440 --> 03:59:31.000
notice that they are relaxing more deeply as you focus

1737
03:59:31.200 --> 03:59:36.760
now on the bottoms of your legs, your shins and

1738
03:59:36.879 --> 03:59:43.440
your calf muscles, the bones between your knees and your

1739
03:59:43.520 --> 03:59:56.520
feet incorporate, and of course your ankles so important. You know,

1740
03:59:56.559 --> 04:00:01.000
anyone that's had even then, like the slightest the spray

1741
04:00:01.120 --> 04:00:08.799
of an ankle, knows how much we take our ankles

1742
04:00:08.920 --> 04:00:17.079
for granted. And it's kind of strange in a way

1743
04:00:17.159 --> 04:00:22.760
when you think that. You know, logically, our wrists are

1744
04:00:22.799 --> 04:00:26.879
a lot thinner than the rest of our arms, which

1745
04:00:27.000 --> 04:00:30.200
is okay, it doesn't I can't see any problem with

1746
04:00:30.280 --> 04:00:33.280
that because we're just picking stuff up.

1747
04:00:34.799 --> 04:00:40.360
By our ankles so much thinner than the rest of

1748
04:00:40.440 --> 04:00:40.959
our legs.

1749
04:00:47.399 --> 04:00:51.799
And from a physics perspective or logical even it doesn't

1750
04:00:51.879 --> 04:00:55.440
really make sense that all this weight.

1751
04:00:56.879 --> 04:01:02.639
Would ultimately be resting on your ankles.

1752
04:01:03.200 --> 04:01:16.639
Then leading to your feet that thin area, thin bone. Yeah,

1753
04:01:16.680 --> 04:01:22.399
it does so much great work. Supports us, supports our

1754
04:01:22.520 --> 04:01:34.280
body for a lifetime, helps us to balance, It helps

1755
04:01:34.319 --> 04:01:46.959
you to get around and be mobile, and there's the

1756
04:01:47.079 --> 04:01:47.840
calf muscles.

1757
04:01:47.879 --> 04:01:55.479
Of course, when I was younger, I couldn't see the

1758
04:01:55.559 --> 04:01:58.760
point in calf muscles didn't seem to do anything.

1759
04:02:00.319 --> 04:02:04.799
Okay, if I walked around on tiptoes, then my calf

1760
04:02:04.920 --> 04:02:08.680
muscles get some work. But of course that's not true.

1761
04:02:08.799 --> 04:02:19.040
The calf muscles are being used whenever we use our legs, and.

1762
04:02:19.159 --> 04:02:24.479
Your shins there to protect.

1763
04:02:26.000 --> 04:02:34.680
Your lower legs, shaped in a way, almost as a

1764
04:02:34.760 --> 04:02:36.000
protector for the.

1765
04:02:36.040 --> 04:02:51.120
Bone, leading of course to your ankles and your feet.

1766
04:02:55.920 --> 04:02:57.840
We're not going to focus on your feet. We're just

1767
04:02:57.920 --> 04:02:59.200
going to focus on the legs.

1768
04:03:01.239 --> 04:03:06.000
I realize, and now that I've mentioned your feet, you'll

1769
04:03:06.040 --> 04:03:10.959
probably focusing on them anyway, So maybe I should focus

1770
04:03:11.040 --> 04:03:16.879
on your feet a little bit. You can have them

1771
04:03:16.920 --> 04:03:22.440
in your awareness the same as you have your thighs

1772
04:03:22.760 --> 04:03:27.040
in your awareness. Even though we haven't been focusing on

1773
04:03:27.200 --> 04:03:33.360
your thighs a few minutes and we're focusing on your ankles,

1774
04:03:39.079 --> 04:03:54.280
there's still that sensation of comfort in your thighs, and

1775
04:03:54.360 --> 04:03:56.040
there's that movement.

1776
04:03:57.239 --> 04:03:58.280
Of energy.

1777
04:04:00.079 --> 04:04:07.079
Because the thighs hold lots of different sensations. Of course,

1778
04:04:07.159 --> 04:04:11.920
there's the muscles, the big straw muscles that we have

1779
04:04:12.120 --> 04:04:12.799
in our thighs.

1780
04:04:21.559 --> 04:04:22.680
But the skin.

1781
04:04:24.280 --> 04:04:28.719
On the outside of the thighs, as in the outside

1782
04:04:28.760 --> 04:04:38.159
of all of our body, can be very sensitive, sensitive

1783
04:04:38.280 --> 04:04:51.319
to the touch, sensitive to temperature. And inside your thighs

1784
04:04:53.840 --> 04:04:58.559
the bones, there's the muscle, there's the blood, vessels, the

1785
04:04:58.799 --> 04:05:08.799
ar trees, all this stuff that's inside your thighs. I

1786
04:05:08.879 --> 04:05:12.360
guess sometimes it'd be nice if you could actually put

1787
04:05:12.399 --> 04:05:19.760
your fingers inside your thighs and a message, so you

1788
04:05:19.840 --> 04:05:22.200
can message on the outside.

1789
04:05:21.680 --> 04:05:24.639
Of course, but to be able to get deep into

1790
04:05:24.760 --> 04:05:26.879
the muscles, to be able to.

1791
04:05:27.000 --> 04:05:33.280
Just message inside your thighs, message in the bones of

1792
04:05:33.440 --> 04:05:46.280
your leg message all the veins, just gently heaving your thighs.

1793
04:05:49.879 --> 04:05:51.479
And you can move down.

1794
04:05:53.239 --> 04:05:58.280
Message and inside your knees, just message in those bones,

1795
04:05:59.319 --> 04:06:06.200
but with huge fingertips spreading that healing energy deep.

1796
04:06:06.040 --> 04:06:09.200
Into the choice of your knees.

1797
04:06:14.639 --> 04:06:18.319
Of course, there's the back of your your need and

1798
04:06:18.440 --> 04:06:25.639
the inside crease we need is it's a really sensitive area.

1799
04:06:27.559 --> 04:06:32.000
Real it feels very nice when you stroke it. That

1800
04:06:32.159 --> 04:06:35.840
might be because it's an area that's not really touched

1801
04:06:36.079 --> 04:06:36.559
very often.

1802
04:06:38.600 --> 04:06:45.479
It's almost like a hidden part, a crease in your legs.

1803
04:06:45.559 --> 04:06:49.239
It's almost like a part that.

1804
04:06:51.040 --> 04:07:02.280
Has a sensitivity, which is a little bit different. Of course,

1805
04:07:02.319 --> 04:07:12.799
it's protected by your legs. So you can imagine putting

1806
04:07:13.719 --> 04:07:23.559
your fingers into that crease in your legs. Fold in

1807
04:07:23.680 --> 04:07:27.600
between your legs. You can just message with your fingertips.

1808
04:07:28.840 --> 04:07:35.600
Imagine your fingertips going inside, message in the muscle or tissue.

1809
04:07:40.200 --> 04:07:41.639
You can of course field the.

1810
04:07:42.680 --> 04:07:55.479
Bones of your knees, heading through your fingertips, and then

1811
04:07:55.520 --> 04:08:01.280
as you go down to your calf muscles, and that's

1812
04:08:01.360 --> 04:08:04.840
the part I'd like to be able to really put

1813
04:08:04.920 --> 04:08:11.799
my fingertips steep inside my half muscles, massage in every

1814
04:08:13.479 --> 04:08:15.799
single tissue of that.

1815
04:08:16.159 --> 04:08:26.719
Muscle, healing every part, and then doing.

1816
04:08:26.639 --> 04:08:34.959
The same for my shins, massage in generally stroking the bones,

1817
04:08:36.719 --> 04:08:42.360
generally stroking them, healing in a loving way because they

1818
04:08:42.520 --> 04:08:48.879
deserve to be treated. There's the precious bones that they are,

1819
04:08:50.200 --> 04:08:53.479
because our legs are so precious as in all the

1820
04:08:53.520 --> 04:08:58.879
other parts of our body, the more precious of any

1821
04:08:59.040 --> 04:09:14.360
chore on the planet. When you start to think about

1822
04:09:17.760 --> 04:09:26.600
your legs in this way, it can change your perspective.

1823
04:09:29.319 --> 04:09:36.479
It might sound a bit bit silly to start with the.

1824
04:09:36.639 --> 04:09:44.799
Idea of having love for your legs, showing appreciation for

1825
04:09:44.920 --> 04:09:50.920
your thighs, wanting to be able to put your hands

1826
04:09:51.920 --> 04:09:58.799
in your thighs the massage the muscles and the bones,

1827
04:10:00.600 --> 04:10:06.360
and to get your fingers deep in there, releasing all tension.

1828
04:10:09.239 --> 04:10:17.879
Just to show how much you care about your legs,

1829
04:10:18.760 --> 04:10:22.719
how much you care for what your legs do for you.

1830
04:10:24.319 --> 04:10:36.440
Regularly, your knees, your cars, your ankles. The strength of

1831
04:10:36.559 --> 04:10:44.639
your ankles, considering how thin they are compared to the

1832
04:10:44.719 --> 04:10:52.399
rest of your legs, especially your thighs. Yeah, they're so strong,

1833
04:10:53.959 --> 04:11:01.040
so flexible, absolutely un amazing things.

1834
04:11:02.600 --> 04:11:09.120
Ankles are truly a gift.

1835
04:11:11.159 --> 04:11:20.280
Because of what they do for you, supporting all that weight,

1836
04:11:22.280 --> 04:11:26.680
regardless of how what weight you are, even if you

1837
04:11:26.799 --> 04:11:31.520
only eat ate stone, there's still a lot of weight

1838
04:11:31.760 --> 04:11:33.399
for these little ankles.

1839
04:11:37.079 --> 04:11:38.520
How am a lot heavier than.

1840
04:11:38.520 --> 04:11:49.399
Einstone double dot, Yet my ankles support my body all

1841
04:11:49.440 --> 04:11:55.879
the time. Whether they do give off a sigh of

1842
04:11:56.000 --> 04:12:01.239
relief when I sit down, that's you've had my whole

1843
04:12:01.319 --> 04:12:01.959
legs thick.

1844
04:12:05.399 --> 04:12:12.760
My feet feet or so go my toes clap so happy.

1845
04:12:32.559 --> 04:12:42.120
Your legs really are amazing. And I know talking about

1846
04:12:42.680 --> 04:12:44.920
talking about your legs is probably.

1847
04:12:47.079 --> 04:12:50.840
Possibly one of the most most boring things you've ever

1848
04:12:51.559 --> 04:12:54.360
heard anyone say possibly.

1849
04:12:56.719 --> 04:12:57.719
You're boring or not.

1850
04:12:59.360 --> 04:13:14.840
Everything that's said, it's true. Your legs are amazing. Your

1851
04:13:14.920 --> 04:13:25.719
legs deserve not just respect, because they deserve to relax.

1852
04:13:27.159 --> 04:13:27.520
Deeply.

1853
04:13:34.840 --> 04:13:38.159
They deserve to take some time out of the day

1854
04:13:40.360 --> 04:13:42.520
to just lecker completely.

1855
04:14:00.479 --> 04:14:09.639
Your legs really can relax.

1856
04:14:16.920 --> 04:14:20.840
Because the legs are so such a most, you know,

1857
04:14:21.079 --> 04:14:27.040
very important part of your body. When you relax your legs,

1858
04:14:27.120 --> 04:14:34.360
the rest of your body also naturally follows in that

1859
04:14:38.079 --> 04:14:48.920
journey of comfort. Like I feel it in my hips.

1860
04:14:50.319 --> 04:14:51.559
My hips feel.

1861
04:14:51.959 --> 04:15:00.040
Really loose, and also my lower back as well, a

1862
04:15:00.120 --> 04:15:01.440
lot back really.

1863
04:15:01.920 --> 04:15:06.520
Feels it feels stretched, even though I'm just sitting in

1864
04:15:06.600 --> 04:15:12.680
a chair and there's no stretching as far as I'm

1865
04:15:12.680 --> 04:15:16.159
aware that I'm doing. It's almost as if the muscles

1866
04:15:16.200 --> 04:15:20.239
are just relaxed so much that there is a natural

1867
04:15:20.520 --> 04:15:44.719
stretch as the tension has reduced a lot. And I'm

1868
04:15:44.799 --> 04:15:47.959
now going to count down from ten downs of one,

1869
04:15:52.479 --> 04:16:21.920
you can continue to feel wonderfully relaxed ten nine, eight, seven, six, five.

1870
04:16:26.319 --> 04:16:26.799
Four.

1871
04:16:29.920 --> 04:16:34.719
Three two.

1872
04:16:38.920 --> 04:16:57.959
One relax. So I'm just gonna countdown five down to one.

1873
04:16:58.760 --> 04:17:03.319
And it's a countdown if you just focus on the numbers.

1874
04:17:05.000 --> 04:17:13.040
Just the numbers counting down. And notice how you feel

1875
04:17:15.680 --> 04:17:20.239
in this moment as you hear the numbers counting down,

1876
04:17:21.319 --> 04:17:33.840
knowing that those numbers counting down represent you feeling calmer,

1877
04:17:35.200 --> 04:17:40.600
not just in your body, but also relaxing your mind.

1878
04:17:43.680 --> 04:17:45.000
Just notice how you feel.

1879
04:17:45.840 --> 04:17:51.760
There's nothing to do, there's nothing to say, there's nothing

1880
04:17:51.920 --> 04:17:57.040
to think about, starting with.

1881
04:17:58.520 --> 04:18:45.440
Number five, four, three two one. How as you notice

1882
04:18:49.559 --> 04:18:50.840
the gradual.

1883
04:18:53.079 --> 04:19:01.600
Letting go, let the tension in your body, you may

1884
04:19:01.680 --> 04:19:04.399
also begin to notice.

1885
04:19:04.159 --> 04:19:05.360
And be aware.

1886
04:19:06.959 --> 04:19:15.879
Of how your mind is starting to slow down. This

1887
04:19:16.079 --> 04:19:19.280
is just a natural thing that happens.

1888
04:19:21.920 --> 04:19:24.399
It's not really a special procedure.

1889
04:19:25.719 --> 04:19:30.840
It's just natural because as your body relaxes, your mind

1890
04:19:30.959 --> 04:19:36.760
also starts to relax. And the more your mind relaxes,

1891
04:19:36.879 --> 04:19:41.479
the more your body relaxes. It's just a continuous circle

1892
04:19:41.559 --> 04:19:42.479
of relaxation.

1893
04:19:48.520 --> 04:19:57.040
And there's that calmness that comes from relative quietness. You know,

1894
04:19:57.200 --> 04:20:02.799
even even if there's background sounds, even your side online

1895
04:20:04.639 --> 04:20:10.440
is still going to be quite calm. You know, you

1896
04:20:10.479 --> 04:20:15.680
haven't got the television on, there's no music in the background.

1897
04:20:15.799 --> 04:20:18.440
Unless you're listening to the recorded with music, of course,

1898
04:20:23.319 --> 04:20:25.479
you're very likely not going to be sitting in a

1899
04:20:25.600 --> 04:20:26.639
room with other people.

1900
04:20:27.559 --> 04:20:32.200
Of course you might be, but generally it's more ideal

1901
04:20:32.280 --> 04:20:37.280
if you can do this on your own, so no distractions,

1902
04:20:43.440 --> 04:20:56.399
and when you stop thinking about stuff, relaxation automatically rises,

1903
04:20:58.760 --> 04:21:00.200
a sense of comfort.

1904
04:21:01.600 --> 04:21:06.959
Starts to grow, and.

1905
04:21:08.760 --> 04:21:14.000
Without trying to build it up into something fantastical or

1906
04:21:17.399 --> 04:21:26.079
something magical, this is just a natural process, something.

1907
04:21:25.879 --> 04:21:36.040
That's easy to accomplish. In fact, it's almost you know,

1908
04:21:36.159 --> 04:21:37.159
the sense.

1909
04:21:36.959 --> 04:21:43.760
Of relaxing completely happens really when you put no effort

1910
04:21:44.120 --> 04:21:48.000
into it. It's not something that you can really force.

1911
04:21:50.600 --> 04:21:59.920
It's something that happens naturally. And part of the process

1912
04:22:00.360 --> 04:22:05.120
of this recording and others.

1913
04:22:06.399 --> 04:22:07.959
Is simply.

1914
04:22:09.280 --> 04:22:21.360
Two allow you to take advantage of this space, this time,

1915
04:22:24.399 --> 04:22:35.280
to just let go, to just be here, to be

1916
04:22:35.959 --> 04:22:49.360
in tune with how you feel, yet with the intention

1917
04:22:51.600 --> 04:23:03.040
of wanting to relax deeply, that maybe even to fall asleep,

1918
04:23:04.239 --> 04:23:09.959
depending on what it is that you wish for yourself.

1919
04:23:11.159 --> 04:23:11.959
In this moment.

1920
04:23:18.959 --> 04:23:28.280
As we know, relaxing is the majority of the process

1921
04:23:28.440 --> 04:23:33.600
of falling asleep. The actual falling asleep part is the

1922
04:23:33.719 --> 04:23:41.120
tiny bit at the end. The deeper relaxed you.

1923
04:23:41.200 --> 04:24:03.559
Become, the easier you find yourself drifting. But you can also, if.

1924
04:24:03.479 --> 04:24:14.360
You choose, stay focused on my voice and really enjoy

1925
04:24:20.280 --> 04:24:38.600
the process, gradually relaxing each muscle.

1926
04:24:42.799 --> 04:25:09.680
In your body effortlessly and just observing the sensation of

1927
04:25:10.000 --> 04:25:10.600
letting go.

1928
04:25:17.040 --> 04:25:17.760
Completely.

1929
04:25:23.799 --> 04:25:27.840
This time, I'm gonna count from six down to one,

1930
04:25:32.639 --> 04:25:36.280
and you can notice your mind.

1931
04:25:38.600 --> 04:25:52.000
Calming down more with each number that you hear me say, naturally,

1932
04:25:53.079 --> 04:28:56.360
feeling calm and slow piece six, five, four, three, No

1933
04:28:56.639 --> 04:29:09.559
where how your mind has slowed right down, sinking.

1934
04:29:11.680 --> 04:29:35.959
Deeply into relaxation. As you focus on your mind, they

1935
04:29:36.239 --> 04:29:45.319
noticed that there are some thoughts still there, maybe some

1936
04:29:45.639 --> 04:29:55.040
stubborn thoughts that for some reason perhaps need your attention.

1937
04:30:01.920 --> 04:30:03.440
That's what you can do is.

1938
04:30:08.879 --> 04:30:21.600
Send love to those thoughts. Sprinkle those thoughts with love.

1939
04:30:23.319 --> 04:30:29.280
All petals for a flower. Just sprinkle over the petals,

1940
04:30:29.360 --> 04:30:36.559
feel good love towards those thoughts, to let those thoughts

1941
04:30:36.760 --> 04:30:40.799
know that you're not abandoned in them.

1942
04:30:42.239 --> 04:30:43.600
You just need them.

1943
04:30:44.799 --> 04:30:55.879
You require them to just calm down, slow down, quiet

1944
04:30:56.239 --> 04:31:00.799
down for now.

1945
04:31:08.719 --> 04:31:13.719
So as you focus on those remaining thoughts as we

1946
04:31:13.920 --> 04:31:19.959
countdown this time from seven down to one. With each number,

1947
04:31:23.000 --> 04:31:35.520
just imagine sprinkling those flower petals of love kindness, gratitude

1948
04:31:38.760 --> 04:31:48.120
over those thoughts, which will allow them to just not

1949
04:31:48.360 --> 04:31:51.239
away relax deeply.

1950
04:31:55.399 --> 04:32:19.719
With every number, his thoughts would become coast starting if

1951
04:32:19.840 --> 04:34:59.720
number seven, six, four three, that is how next feeling

1952
04:35:03.439 --> 04:35:14.599
in your body? I got to focus.

1953
04:35:17.959 --> 04:35:27.520
On your hands. It's the war, relaxed your hands on

1954
04:35:30.000 --> 04:35:52.040
the relax your body and my dog. You focus on

1955
04:35:52.240 --> 04:36:02.720
your hands and your fingers. It's nothing needed to become

1956
04:36:03.759 --> 04:36:06.560
There's no clenching the fists.

1957
04:36:06.319 --> 04:36:09.919
Or dens and the fingers right into my bad.

1958
04:36:17.200 --> 04:36:18.759
It's just not to sing.

1959
04:36:20.040 --> 04:36:32.520
Focusing on your hands, not to searly feel.

1960
04:36:46.880 --> 04:36:56.200
Because the war, but asks to your hands feel. I

1961
04:36:56.479 --> 04:37:09.439
can't where your mind feels. Comforts you feel throughout your body?

1962
04:37:18.159 --> 04:37:25.200
May who.

1963
04:37:28.240 --> 04:38:08.279
Noticed you? I starting to dress quick said, just on

1964
04:38:08.439 --> 04:38:19.360
your hands and fingers, allowing a cheap.

1965
04:38:20.959 --> 04:38:32.560
Thxperience a real deepening of that reaxation in your hands

1966
04:38:32.680 --> 04:38:44.400
and fingers, a more relaxed.

1967
04:38:49.520 --> 04:39:08.959
With each number eight down to one, clowest.

1968
04:39:10.240 --> 04:39:12.000
Feel that he.

1969
04:39:14.119 --> 04:39:21.680
Relaxing energy, spread it into your hands and fingers.

1970
04:39:25.000 --> 04:39:39.560
My coming relaxing h number.

1971
04:39:41.560 --> 04:39:47.159
You hear right down.

1972
04:39:49.119 --> 04:39:51.959
Light down to one.

1973
04:39:55.959 --> 04:39:56.880
To drift down.

1974
04:40:00.720 --> 04:44:09.200
Two spot to the police, seven three just being here now.

1975
04:44:12.680 --> 04:44:18.759
Nothing to think about, nothing to do, nothing to say,

1976
04:44:22.959 --> 04:44:26.759
and everything just feels calm.

1977
04:44:31.759 --> 04:44:39.479
This is your natural state of being. This is how

1978
04:44:39.639 --> 04:44:42.040
you just normally feel.

1979
04:44:43.880 --> 04:45:03.080
Take away that unstop add like stress and work, anxiety,

1980
04:45:03.560 --> 04:45:27.560
tech thinking about and take that away now left of

1981
04:45:27.759 --> 04:45:41.959
your sense of disuls which cost very quickly, because absompletely

1982
04:45:42.360 --> 04:45:56.040
it's just a feeling of feeling of confidence at most,

1983
04:45:56.119 --> 04:46:00.840
as if you've got inside of soul founds passion, place

1984
04:46:04.959 --> 04:46:17.759
everything its pet lay sweep in the film Relax your men,

1985
04:46:20.240 --> 04:46:31.840
sense of content place seen think, Wait.

1986
04:46:32.639 --> 04:46:33.799
Accept yourself.

1987
04:46:35.360 --> 04:46:35.759
You are.

1988
04:46:38.439 --> 04:46:52.520
I swear I'll try it. Please anybody else? I sweet again. Actually,

1989
04:46:55.880 --> 04:47:03.000
I'll just love yourself in some ways like your son,

1990
04:47:05.560 --> 04:47:38.479
appreciate a sense of gratitude. That's wills place where ague feel.

1991
04:47:39.880 --> 04:47:43.680
The heathing energy soaking.

1992
04:47:43.560 --> 04:47:44.479
Into your body.

1993
04:47:51.159 --> 04:47:54.400
Heaving energy soaking.

1994
04:47:55.159 --> 04:47:56.159
Into your body.

1995
04:48:01.319 --> 04:48:14.080
Our healing energy spreads through veins, traveling each every single part.

1996
04:48:15.599 --> 04:48:16.240
Of your body.

1997
04:48:22.400 --> 04:48:25.599
You start to realize the actually a.

1998
04:48:25.880 --> 04:48:35.599
Healing energy just interdict your brain. It's become a part

1999
04:48:36.159 --> 04:48:37.279
of your brain.

2000
04:48:42.439 --> 04:48:44.360
The spiral fluid.

2001
04:48:46.639 --> 04:48:57.080
Is now lost to me. Hear the energy just allow

2002
04:48:57.319 --> 04:49:00.599
you to feel so much more acts.

2003
04:49:02.479 --> 04:49:03.599
And healthy.

2004
04:49:04.759 --> 04:49:05.680
In this moment.

2005
04:49:10.159 --> 04:49:11.240
But Also.

2006
04:49:13.759 --> 04:49:21.439
You start to realize that actually, what's happening now that

2007
04:49:21.880 --> 04:49:32.040
he relaxing, energy spreading through the body, it's actually changing

2008
04:49:32.439 --> 04:49:42.360
your life. It's actually changing the way you're planning to feel,

2009
04:49:43.240 --> 04:49:50.720
not just now, but tomorrow and the next day. Use

2010
04:49:50.759 --> 04:49:58.279
your health improns, not just your physical health and your

2011
04:49:58.400 --> 04:50:05.680
mental health. Things that used to bother you in the

2012
04:50:05.840 --> 04:50:11.000
past for some reason, a long.

2013
04:50:12.319 --> 04:50:21.680
Happy effect of the East, because something has changed deep

2014
04:50:22.159 --> 04:50:32.840
within you. Maybe things they used to cause you to

2015
04:50:32.959 --> 04:50:45.240
feel anger not longer Heaven that palm to control you

2016
04:50:47.919 --> 04:50:50.599
maybe seemed to be able to before.

2017
04:50:54.119 --> 04:50:58.119
She realize that you're.

2018
04:50:57.880 --> 04:50:58.479
The one.

2019
04:51:00.360 --> 04:51:02.040
Who decides.

2020
04:51:04.639 --> 04:51:10.799
What affects you, one.

2021
04:51:11.240 --> 04:51:18.439
Who decides to feel relaxed and calm.

2022
04:51:19.799 --> 04:51:22.040
When he choose.

2023
04:51:25.200 --> 04:51:33.080
To enjoy. Noticing these natural developments.

2024
04:51:35.200 --> 04:51:45.040
A healing teemed to grow and improve your life.

2025
04:51:46.119 --> 04:51:47.159
Day by day.

2026
04:51:53.560 --> 04:51:54.159
To the core.

2027
04:51:54.360 --> 04:52:12.319
Suability to relax so much easier. Sleeping it's the most

2028
04:52:12.639 --> 04:52:23.040
natural thing in the world to you, because fall a

2029
04:52:23.240 --> 04:52:24.840
sleep is something.

2030
04:52:24.599 --> 04:52:25.680
That you've done.

2031
04:52:28.520 --> 04:52:39.400
So many times in your life, as we all were

2032
04:52:40.200 --> 04:52:53.520
with the ability to fall asleep naturally born with that ability.

2033
04:52:56.959 --> 04:52:58.279
Just dreams.

2034
04:52:59.720 --> 04:53:04.880
Oh too deep, keep sleep.

2035
04:53:10.520 --> 04:53:15.119
Even when the kids sometimes it's will fall asleep and

2036
04:53:15.360 --> 04:53:23.400
don't want to stay awake. It iss birthday in the morning,

2037
04:53:23.639 --> 04:53:26.599
it's Christmas or holiday, and.

2038
04:53:26.720 --> 04:53:29.599
Something will look forward to me that my get sleep

2039
04:53:32.279 --> 04:53:38.080
more than my stay away. The more man just starts

2040
04:53:38.240 --> 04:53:47.880
drink more, if finds drifting, will tries to stop something

2041
04:53:48.639 --> 04:54:01.759
sleep deep and stronger than drifting, because if he's we're

2042
04:54:01.880 --> 04:54:09.000
born not just with the need to relax deeply to

2043
04:54:09.159 --> 04:54:19.279
matually fall asleep. It's our birth right. It's half out

2044
04:54:19.439 --> 04:54:31.959
DNA and sometimes as to get older life, perhaps at

2045
04:54:32.200 --> 04:54:45.360
times we have gotten the relaxing completely. It's the fly

2046
04:54:46.840 --> 04:54:50.080
wonderfully pleasant experience.

2047
04:54:55.880 --> 04:54:58.200
It's some second real easy.

2048
04:55:15.959 --> 04:55:17.159
Because that's what it is.

2049
04:55:17.680 --> 04:56:27.279
Just sidey stations, stops keeping, commissions, stop

2050
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Steps,