Sept. 19, 2025

(music) (5 hours) #1434 Let me bore you to sleep | Q&A Friday

(music) (5 hours) #1434 Let me bore you to sleep | Q&A Friday

👉 "#1434 Let Me Bore You to Sleep Q&A Friday – Jason Newland – 19th September 2025" Impact: Listener stats dropped, and Jason fears many fans aren’t aware of the uploads' disappearance. - Website Changes: - He restored his primary site,...

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👉 "#1434 Let Me Bore You to Sleep Q&A Friday – Jason Newland – 19th September 2025"

Impact: Listener stats dropped, and Jason fears many fans aren’t aware of the uploads' disappearance.

  • Website Changes:
    • He restored his primary site, JasonNewland.com, with 1,000 of the most recent episodes.
    • He discontinued LetMeBoreYouToSleep.com, citing confusion and redundancy.
    • Now users can stream 6 versions of each recording (e.g., with/without music, extended versions).
  • Distribution: Some syncing issues with Spotify remain.
❓Q&A SECTION HIGHLIGHTS 🔹 1. “What do you do for downtime besides walking and recording?”
  • Boxing and walking Vinnie (his dog) are daily routines.
  • TV & movies are his go-to relaxation tools—especially binge-watching series.
  • Not much time for anything else when he’s busy making recordings.
🔹 2. “Are you happy?”
  • He finds this question difficult.
  • Doesn’t provide a clear answer—seems reflective and ambiguous.
🔹 3. “Have you ever collected anything?” Jason gives an epic, sprawling answer that spans decades. Key collections include:
  • Comics as a child: The Dandy, Look-In
  • Time Out magazines in London
  • Books (science fiction, Star Trek, Wilt, beat generation, philosophy, Buddhism, psychology)
  • Stand-up comedy: LPs, videos, cassettes (George Carlin, Richard Pryor, Bill Cosby, Steve Martin, Eddie Murphy, Lenny Bruce, etc.)
  • Top Trumps cards (as a kid, but had no one to play with)
  • Hypnosis & therapy books (later tied into his professional interest)
  • Audio recordings: NLP, self-help, meditation
  • Personal journals: 45-50 handwritten journals over 25 years (sadly destroyed)
He details many transitions in life, including moving frequently, being evicted, and repeatedly losing his possessions and collections. 🔹 4. “How’s your dad?”
  • Jason says his dad is doing well, recovering energy after treatment for a health condition.
  • Recently met up with Jason and his brother.
  • Jason notes how rare it is for all of them to be together, especially outside their hometown.
🔹 5. “Have you ever done Tai Chi or Qigong? Thoughts on meditation?”
  • Yes to both, lightly practiced at a Buddhist center.
  • Strong preference for walking meditation:
    • Focuses on breath, balance, awareness of surroundings.
    • Helps manage chronic back pain.
    • Uses walking time with Vinnie as a form of mindfulness.
  • He finds seated meditation uncomfortable due to back issues.
  • Expresses appreciation for slow movement practices like Qigong and Tai Chi, especially their meditative elements.
🔹 6. “Are older British homes more haunted? Do you think your flat is haunted?”
  • Doesn’t believe in ghosts per se, but:
    • Remembers feeling uneasy in his childhood home.
    • Recounts a strange experience with a carpet rising on its own.
  • Acknowledges that there's more energy in the world than humans can perceive.
  • Mostly jokes that his flat is haunted by Vinnie (his dog) and formerly by Andre (his ferret).
  • Notes that noisy neighbors are more disturbing than ghosts.
🛒 BONUS: Mini Rant About Shampoo (1:15:30)
  • Ordered 10 bottles of shampoo via Uber Eats.
  • Only received 1 bottle.
  • Cue: "Never been so angry!"
🧘‍♂️ TONE & STYLE Jason’s style remains:
  • Meandering and reflective
  • Occasionally funny and self-deprecating
  • Deeply personal, often nostalgic
  • Gentle and soothing despite the tangents
🧠 THEMES
  • Technological frustration
  • Nostalgia and memory
  • Minimalism vs. materialism
  • Self-reflection and growth
  • Mental and physical wellness
  • Gentle humor amidst daily chaos


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Hello, and welcome to Jasondewland dot com. My name's Jason Newland,

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and this is let Me Buy You to Sleep. It's

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also que and Friday. It is. It's qur and a Friday, everybody.

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So it's Friday, the nineteenth of September two thousand and

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twenty five.

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It is three point fifty three pm.

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And please only listen when you can safely close your eyes.

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So before I get on with the questions, because there

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isn't many, nor many questions, very few questions today. There's

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been a few problems with Apple podcasts. Just I'm not

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laughing at them. Just it's ridiculous. Some of the stuff

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that's I kind of don't know why. So it all started,

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we didn't start, but and kindly let me know, let

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me know some two days ago that the new recordings

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are not showing up on Apple podcasts anymore. There's no

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reason why they're not showing up. I couldn't figure it out.

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So I refreshed them and did everything I could try

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and do. They still weren't giving me the latest recordings.

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And I really spent ages on it trying to figure

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out what's wrong, why it wasn't working, and all that stuff.

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In the end, I had to delete them or put

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them all into archive mode and then re redo it

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on Apple Podcasts. So each podcast I've got, which is

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how many podcasts, I've got one, two, three, four, five,

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six No one one, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, ten, eleven, twelve,

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So I think there's twelve podcasts. I've not done all

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of them, but I've re not uploaded, but submitted, resubmitted

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the twelve podcasts onto Apple Podcasts, which is kind of

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like stying all over the game, which is frustrating, and

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it significantly affected my stats. So I guess I'm not

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saying I've lost the listeners, but the listeners may not

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be aware of the problems I've had with the Apple podcasts,

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So a lot of people may just maybe thousands out

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there that just don't know that. I have not released

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any new recordings since the seventeenth, not the seventeenth, since

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the since I don't know whatever day it was, it

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was about a week ago. Now I have done it,

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redone it all whether or not it's going to work

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or not, because I've tested them. So it's just got

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a bit confused for me as well. So I've been

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working on it. So what I've done is I've gone

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back into it and uploaded a new version of each one.

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So according to this, so let me boy to Sleep

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is working fine now under the new one. And I

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also did, oh it's not available. Okay, all right, I'm

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gonna have to add something. So all the pages, all

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the all the podcasts are now up and running. They

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should be. What I've also done is just look, I

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think I've kind of not only if I confuse myself,

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but I think I've confused people with all the changes

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I made recently. I know this is another change, but

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unfortunately I kind of had to do this because Apple

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podcast is my main source of listeners. I'm hoping that

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everyone kind of will find them. So what I've done

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is my main website, Jason Inland dot com is now

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up and running properly again as a podcast. So if

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you go on there, it's got a thousand episodes. So

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the latest thousand episodes are available. There's eighty four pages,

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and there's a thousand one two three, four, eight, nine, ten, eleven, twelve.

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I wonder how many in each one two three fourth,

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I said, it's a thousand anyway, One two, three, four,

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ten eleven, twelve, twelve times by eighty four whatever that is,

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so ten times by eighties eight hundred, isn't it? So yeah,

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like a thousand or whatever. I don't think it's going

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to go all the way back to every episode. So

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what I've done is I've made the Jason Newland dot

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com the podcast for my hipnosis Are Sleeping Deeply, which

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has every recording I do is on there, including all

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the different versions, you know, the without music, with music,

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five ten's and all that stuff. So I'm not just

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trying to have a look to see how far back

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it goes. Some people in the gardens. Then he was

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barking a minute ago, but hopefully he won't be. In

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a minute he will calm down. I think he's I've

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closed the window, but there's not much more I can

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really do do. Yeah, so this, I think the thing

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is with this, how many episodes on nine and seventy episodes?

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So I've got a thousand on my website. So what

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I'm going to do is I'm going to put a

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page where you can link to. In fact, you can

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go to the actual website.

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I think via here it should.

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Be able to subscribe Apple Podcast Apple Podcast so you

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can go to the Apple Now it's just all over

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the place. I don't know, but you should be able

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to see it on spreak as well, so I'll figure

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that out. I'll get it sorted. But at the moment,

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you can actually just listen to Late's recordings on there.

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It's a podcast now like it was before. It's a

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little bit different to before, but it is a podcast.

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So you can just go to Jasonnewland dot com and

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you can listen to six versions of the last recording,

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or six versions of the one before that, and before

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that before then all the way back to second of

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April this year. A thousand recordings since the second of April,

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but that does include the six different versions, but still

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quite a lot. So yeah, it makes it a little

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bit easier. You can use it on your phone, you

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can use it on a laptop, whichever way you want

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to do it. And for example, I'll just play you know,

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I won't play it, but it's there. I'll put it

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on mute, moot and I'll click on it and it

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should pull up right. It also pulls up all the

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information about it as well, and there is a link

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Hypnosis are Sleeping Deeply okay, Well it's not given me

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a link to the speaker page. Well hopefully, Okay. The

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other thing is I've got rid of the let Me Boy,

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the sleep dot com website. I just figured, what do

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I need two websites for one's enough? And it seemed

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like a good idea at the time when I did it.

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But if anything, I think just annoyed people because I

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got rid of the Jasonnuland dot com, which has been

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around for twenty years, and at least you knew how

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to find me. You know, if if all the apps

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go down or all the the podcast you know, sharing

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platforms go down, you can at least listen to me

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on my website. So it's it's handy. Did it allow

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us to open on Spotify? Is it open on Spotify? Okay?

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So it's not completely syncd up, but it's it's okay.

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I think it's doing its job, and I'll try and

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make a few changes along the way to update it

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make it a little bit better. But that's it.

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Really.

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What else? Why's it going so slow? Yeah? One, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, ten, eleven,

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twelve podcasts. There's like one hundred and one shows on

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my Apple podcast archived from over the last uplimey however

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many years. So yeah, so the first time I've archived

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before deleted stuff, but this was because it needs to

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be done. I think basically Apple podcasts got confused. I'm

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using a confused word a lot. I think maybe I'm

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just the only one that got confused. It don't take

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much for the end. So I should also say welcome

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to Karen who's joined Jason Newland's boring group on Facebook,

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and if you'd like to join then please do. That'd

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be brilliant. We love to have you, and that I

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do believe all that information. It's you know, it might

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be a little bit annoying. I do apologize, but you know,

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it is what it is. It's all done now. I

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just need to do a little bit of sinking up

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and hopefully, hopefully fingers crossed. When I upload this it

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will update on the Apple Podcasts. If it doesn't, I

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don't know what I'm going to do. It's just gonna

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I just just hope it does. Yeah. So other than that,

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things have been a bit weird the last couple of days,

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but I aren't going too that. It's just you know,

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a few strange things around here. So I'm going to

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start off with Ben and just apologize for the noisy

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people outside. In fact, I'm gonna do I'm gonna draw

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the curtains, see if i can block some of that

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noise out. There's still a little window opens. I closed

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that and I've drawn the curtains over. I've got these

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sound deadening curtains. I hope that they're gonna don't make

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any difference. At least I'm giving it a I'm giving

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it a try, and I'm putting some effort in. So

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Ben asks me, what is Jason's downtime, as he's always

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walking the dog, not making recordings. What's Jason do for

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himself apart from boxing? As he it's weird talk about

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it my third person. What's my downtime? My downtime right

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now is wanting that noise to stop outside. That's my

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main focus. Screech, squeaky's out there. So it's very, very

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very noisy. Okay, my downtime I do I like to

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I would say boxing my downtime. But so I'm taking

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Vinnie out usually three times a day. Sometimes if I

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make a lot of recordings, I'll be you know, the

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days when I'd just make three recordings in a day,

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which is a lot. Not recently, but I have done

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it quite a few times. And what do I do.

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I like to watch a movie, especially if it's one

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that I've been looking forward to watching, like a new

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release or a new season of a TV show that's

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come out. Sometimes if I get my teeth into a

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TV show, I will watch I'm not saying a binge watch,

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but I will definitely watch a episodes.

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And if I can get into it and the.

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Whole seasons done and finished, I'll get through the entire

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lot within you know, maybe a month. So I might

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end up watching two, three, four episodes a day, but

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I won't sit all day watching it. I'm not going

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to do like eight hours straight watching TV. Generally I

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have done in the past, but not not for a

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long time. Second, also, are you happy? That's a difficult

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question to ask. I've got no idea how to answer

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that question. Third, have you ever collected anything? Oh? I

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have I have. Let's go for all the things I've

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collected when I was a kid. When I was a kid,

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I used to collect So I used to get the

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two different comics every week. The dandy and looking, and

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I used to collect them. So although i'd get them

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every week, i'd also collect them and sometimes i'd get

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them put them all in order. I'd sit in the toilet.

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I sit on the toilet. I remember once my oldest

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brother was watching I Think the fa Cup on a

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Saturday afternoon and I went into the downstairs toilet and

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organized all of my comics in order, like by date.

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I quite enjoyed that, and I did the same thing

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when I moved to London. I time Out magazine every week.

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Was it a Thursday or was it a Tuesday. But

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I'd buy it every week and I had about three

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years worth collected, big massive old pile. That's one hundred

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and fifty magazines. So yeah, I collected them for a

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few years. I when I was at school, I used

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to collect books. I don't think it was oh yeah,

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I used to, I suppose because you know, finances were

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limited with school. I didn't like have a huge amount

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of books, but I did have a bookshelf for of

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paperbacks and older house. I had hardback books and stuff

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as well, and I used to collect sign fiction books

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for a while because they want there there's a lot

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of rude bits in them. It's the truth, you know.

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They have lots of adult scenes in these books. And yeah,

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I enjoyed that. I collected the Wilt books as well

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because I found them hilarious. So Wilt is if you've

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never heard of Wilt, w I l t. There's a

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writer they wrote, wrote for quite a few books based

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on this character, and she's funny. It's really funny. What

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other things I used to collect a lot of books.

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I went through a period when I collected and read

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Trek books like I was almost obsessed with them. And

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these were adventures from Star Trek like the original TV show,

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but not a TV show, if that makes sense. It

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was like extra stories extra adventures, which maybe is it

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came before Star Trek TV show, did, I don't know,

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Gene Roddenberry or whatever, But there was loads of those.

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I used to read a lot of those, especially when

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I was feeling anti social at school and I didn't.

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I go through periods when I didn't want to be

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around anyone or be near anyone, so I would hide

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and read a book during lunch break. So that was

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a thing I remember. I remember sitting outside it was

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behind the because we all had these form rooms where

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we'd have to sort of congregate the beginning and the

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beginning of the day, and also after lunch and maybe

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even like at the end of the day. I can't remember,

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but one year I was there and it was I

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think it was the science lab. It's one of the

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science labs I was in, and so it had an

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exit out of the back as well. It's in the front.

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I guess the fire exit was stairs and everything. So

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I used to sit outside the back, got the fire

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exit door and going that way, going in out that way,

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because that wasn't the the exit that most people used,

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so I'd hide and just sit on r near the stairwell.

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So I just remember that, reading, reading the old Star

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Trek books, other things. I went through a period when

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I was when I got into karate. Well, yeah, martial arts.

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I collected magazines. I can't even remember the name of

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the magazines, but martial arts magazines, martial arts books, hung

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Fu books, exercise books, books about Bruce Lee, and various

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martial arts paraphernalia like nunchucks and throwing stars and all

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the standard stuff that kids would kind of perhaps get

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back then. And yeah, that's definitely something I used to

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used to collect trying to think I used to I

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went through a period when I was really into Yeah,

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I'm just trying to think when I was a kid,

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what other things I did. Oh, I remember when I

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worked in the bakery when I was a kid. The

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first bakery I worked in, I worked all through the summer,

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so I was doing five or six mornings a week.

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I mean I could have done, you know, seven, but

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I think I probably did five or six and every

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because I only worked to all like lunchtime from six

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till twelve or something. I'd come home and I'd go

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and buy these top Trump cards that cost a pound

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or something, and I'd buy them. I had to buy something,

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and I ended up clickeding these. I got loads of them,

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but I had no one to play them with. So

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it was top Trump cars and top trunk motorbikes and

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top Trump planes and stuff like that. It was kind

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of pointless, really, but that's what I did. That's what

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I did. What would have been used for is I

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had collected clothes, like nice clothes so that I could looked,

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could have been like fashionable. That would have helped me

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in so many ways that I had no idea like

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if only I'd kind of had a clue back then,

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because I could have bought myself, you know, a pair

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of trousers, nice pair of shoes, you're fashionable stuff. I mean,

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not like for school as well, but something that would

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look good, even like a white shirt. You know, there's

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a white shirt which for school, but then you got

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you can get a really nice white shirt, you know, proper.

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You know, there's difference in clothes. I don't know why

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I'm trying to explain that, but there was nothing wrong

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with the clothes I was wearing. I just could have

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put a bit of effort in myself because I could.

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At the time, I had a little bit of money

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coming in from the jobs, so that that would have

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been possibly a better way to spend my money. Ah, well,

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it matter.

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Then.

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I when I got to my tea, like leaving school,

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I did. I mean, I collected I had like quite

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a good tape collection of music albums and stuff. So

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I had probably a couple of carrier bag falls, maybe

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three carryback falls of tapes, so there was quite a few.

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But some of those were carried on from when I

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was a kid as well, so I'd had a lot

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of those But then when I got to probably nineteen

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eighty nine, I started collecting comedy videos, like stand up

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comedy videos in nineteen eighty nine, Dune. In fact, it

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might might have been nineteen eighty eight. It might have been,

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but I started collecting live stand up comedy shows, live

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videos Robin Williams, Steve Martin, There's so many Emo Phillips,

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Steve Wright or Steven Wright, Eddie Murphy, as well as

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like Burning Manning, Roy, Chubby Brown, you know, Jasper Carrots.

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Any comedy, live comedy show I could get. I did

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any stand up show I would get. So I had

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quite a nice collection of those. It wasn't so much

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that I was collecting them. I just I suppose I

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was collecting them, but it didn't Maybe yeah, I was

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collecting them without realizing, not thinking about it. I just

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wanted to watch them. And then I was still collecting, Yeah,

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live stand up albums in nineteen eighty nine, and more videos.

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But that's when it turned into a collection. So nineteen

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eighty nine, I was buying albums and audio tapes of

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stand up comedians at this point, mainly from American stand

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ups that I'd never heard of. I've already had stuff

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from Richard Pryor. So this is nineteen ninety so I

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was getting stuff from and I was going to second

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nd shops as well as traveling up to London to

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get to like the big stores, the big music stores

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like Verge, HMV and what's the other one, the other

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record shop, I think what it's called. But there was

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three main record shops in the West End of London

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which had its own stand up comedy section specifically, but

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not just American, but a lot of American stuff. So

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I kind of discovered Lenny Bruce, George Carlin, Andrew dyas Clay,

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Sam Kinnerson. Then it was Roddy Dangerfield that I already

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knew about anyway, because he was already famous in this

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country for a long time. Bill Cosby, Richard Pryor. I

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think I already had Richard Pryce's videos and Bill Cosby.

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I had Bill's Cosby's the one way he turns fifty

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and so he's just sitting on a stool, and I

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didn't realize that he had loads of albums and stuff.

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This is Bill Cosby. Yeah, so I had quite a

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few albums at his I had all of Richard Pryor's albums,

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all of Richard Prior's live performances, including one that's quite

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quite rare. I don't know that anymore, but it's properly

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on YouTube anyway. What else, Yeah, I had really good collection,

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really nice collection, and I spent quite a few months

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just pretty much all my money went on that, and

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I was working, and just all my money went on

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getting new albums because I wanted to. I decided to

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sort of try and be a comedian, stand up comedian,

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and this was kind of this is part of that

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compulse of thing, and this is part of the whole

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excitement of wanting to do it. And I suppose thinking

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if I listened to other people, like the best comedians

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in the world, what was some of the best in

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the world, it would rub off on me. But it didn't,

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It really didn't. But hey, it was worth a try,

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wasn't it. After that, when I moved so I sold

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all that stuff. But then I moved to London and

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I got I started collecting comedy tapes like Richard pryor,

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George Carlin. George Carlin was kind of my favorite really

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for a while. It just made me laugh so much.

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But I didn't collect collector I just had some. But

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then when I moved to London, I really started collecting

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books again. I also at this time was collecting journals

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that I was writing, So I was writing journals every

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day and over like a twenty five year period, I

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had about forty five fifty journals, like pads full of me,

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my writings and my life and my thoughts and stuff.

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That's all destroyed a few years back, and I think

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I got really more into buying books, collecting books, but

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reading them. Yeah, so anything, not just comedy books. But

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I really got into the big generation. I also used

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to read Time Out and find out what the latest

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popular book was, and I'd ended up reading that as well.

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So you know, I had quite a large book collection.

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They all just stacked up on top of each other

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against the wall. Had a lot of books and probably

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about twenty bin Bag Falls and the Beach Generation. That's

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when I kind of really got quite transfixed with poetry.

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With Anna Ginsburg. I can't remember half of them, but

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a lot of Jack Carouac, all those kinds of that generation.

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I was reading their books. I can't I can't honestly

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said I understood a lot of it either. And I

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also used to read the poetry, some of them. It

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was Snyder was another one. Some of the poetry I liked.

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Some of it was a lot of it was context based,

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as most of it seemed to be coming out of

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America in the fifties and sixties, and I wasn't around then.

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I wasn't American. I wasn't living in America in the

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fifties and sixties. And I'm pretty certain even if I

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was in this country, it was a different environment. You know,

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we were, It's just that it would have been different.

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So I'm never really gonna understand the vibe. Not really.

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I enjoyed reading them. And then I discovered, kind of

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by accident, Charles Perkowski, who was his books would be

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put into the same category as beat generation, and he

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wasn't a beatnik. He wasn't. He's kind of like a crossover.

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He probably knew some of them, and he lived like

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some of them, but he wasn't he. For anyone that's

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read Charles Berkowski, it's very real, almost too real, I suppose,

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some would say. And that's what I liked about it.

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I like, yeah, I quite quite like gritty, real stuff,

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not as in horrible stuff, but just I don't know

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someone's personal opinion. And because he talks from a third person,

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he talks about himself, but he's not himself. It's Hank Chenesky.

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It's the character in his books, but it's basically him.

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And he also wrote, because he wrote a really famous

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book called post Office Women, and I forget the other one,

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but there was a trilogy, and he also wrote ham

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On Rye and some other ones, bar Fly and things

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like that. I quite liked the poetry that he did.

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And yeah, so I had a large collection of his

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books because it was quite prolific. So I had a

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lot of his books and don't have them anymore. So

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that was me collecting early nineties comedy tapes and then

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books I would say really focused on the Big Generation.

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But I also had at that time I started collecting

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Buddhist books and Zen Taoism, and I started reading that stuff.

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So I got into that because that fitted in with

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the Big Generation and the the and I just at

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kind of fitted together with me and something I was

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interested in. Anyway, I quite like it if I can

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find something that hasn't overlapped something else. And then when

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I left there, I did take my stuff with me

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and I ended up in moved once twice, and then

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I collected more books on Buddhism, so that was the

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main thing I've focused on around ninety five, Like ninety

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four to ninety five, it was mainly just Buddhist books

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that I collected, so I, I mean, I wasn't buying

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loads of those of books, but I had a really

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good collection and I would read them as well. And

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then in the end of ninety five I was evicted

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and I basically just chucked everything out because I couldn't

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take it with me. Then I, I'm not sure chucked it.

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I think I left it outside and dustman took it.

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They weren't supposed to. It just happened to be in

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black bags as it was how I traveled, so I

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didn't know where I was going to take them, and

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I foun I'm going to try and take into my

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girlfriends and ask if she'd look after them for me. Anyway,

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the dustman came and got them, and I pretty much

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took most of my belongings thinking it was just all rubbish,

437
00:39:19.199 --> 00:39:21.159
So technically I didn't really check it out.

438
00:39:23.960 --> 00:39:34.480
What else I in ninety six nineteen ninety six, I

439
00:39:34.559 --> 00:39:36.599
was kind of starting from scratch again.

440
00:39:36.760 --> 00:39:41.360
So I had the only thing I really had was

441
00:39:44.199 --> 00:39:49.719
as far as belongings go, one book or two books

442
00:39:49.760 --> 00:39:53.639
and that was it, and a few clothes. So I

443
00:39:53.719 --> 00:39:59.320
started from scratch in January ninety six, and by likes

444
00:39:59.400 --> 00:40:05.119
Vinny scraping its teeth on a something. I'm not quite sure,

445
00:40:05.119 --> 00:40:06.280
but he seems happy anyway.

446
00:40:06.639 --> 00:40:23.199
It's not eating his dinner today for some reason, and I, well,

447
00:40:23.199 --> 00:40:23.480
I do.

448
00:40:23.760 --> 00:40:25.400
I'm trying to think what I was going to say.

449
00:40:26.480 --> 00:40:32.320
Then he just stopped, Okay. I I carried on with

450
00:40:32.360 --> 00:40:36.719
my writing because I managed to save the journals, so

451
00:40:36.800 --> 00:40:39.360
that was fine. So I still had all my journals.

452
00:40:44.000 --> 00:40:49.400
And then I didn't buy a lot of books or

453
00:40:49.400 --> 00:40:52.760
anything back then, I think because i'd lost all my

454
00:40:52.800 --> 00:40:57.079
book collection kind of a few times over already. At

455
00:40:57.119 --> 00:40:59.559
this point, I just didn't know if there's any point.

456
00:41:01.840 --> 00:41:11.000
So between ninety six and then ninety seven, I didn't

457
00:41:11.320 --> 00:41:20.480
really purchase much. I didn't collect anything really at all.

458
00:41:20.679 --> 00:41:28.079
During that period. I was a security guard for over

459
00:41:28.159 --> 00:41:33.599
a year, and I had a girlfriend as well, so

460
00:41:33.639 --> 00:41:37.480
that kind of took up time outside of security work,

461
00:41:37.519 --> 00:41:42.920
and that was a long hours. So I didn't apart

462
00:41:42.920 --> 00:41:46.079
from reading books and stuff. I just didn't really have

463
00:41:46.119 --> 00:41:50.599
a lot going on watching TV when I got home.

464
00:41:53.320 --> 00:42:00.960
And then late nineteen ninety seven, I started acting books again,

465
00:42:01.679 --> 00:42:06.239
but this time is all about self help, motivation and

466
00:42:06.320 --> 00:42:21.239
self help, and I blimey, he's so noisy. I do

467
00:42:21.360 --> 00:42:26.239
still prefer him over this squealing and screaming outside in

468
00:42:26.239 --> 00:42:30.840
the garden. I don't know, it's just I kind of

469
00:42:30.880 --> 00:42:34.679
just want to hear what's inside. I know it's not realistic,

470
00:42:34.760 --> 00:42:38.679
but just just a little bit quiet, a little bit

471
00:42:38.679 --> 00:42:45.159
of a little bit calm, you know, what else should I?

472
00:42:45.159 --> 00:42:47.679
I suppose, Like ninety seven, it was really much. I

473
00:42:47.760 --> 00:42:55.000
was collecting audio recordings and self help audio recordings, motivation

474
00:42:56.039 --> 00:43:05.920
and zig ziglar meditation recordings for relaxing, and I was

475
00:43:06.000 --> 00:43:13.920
really trying to figure a way for me to, I

476
00:43:13.920 --> 00:43:20.199
don't know, grow as a person and become better and

477
00:43:20.360 --> 00:43:25.119
become calmer and to heal. I don't know, I'm not

478
00:43:25.199 --> 00:43:27.119
quite sure what it was I was looking for, but

479
00:43:28.360 --> 00:43:33.360
I collected lots of books. I read lots of books.

480
00:43:34.440 --> 00:43:35.199
And then.

481
00:43:36.639 --> 00:43:42.519
Early nineteen ninety eight, it's January, I bought my first

482
00:43:42.559 --> 00:43:48.800
two books on hypnosis. I didn't read them straight away.

483
00:43:49.400 --> 00:43:51.599
I kind of looked at them and thought, I'll read them.

484
00:43:51.519 --> 00:43:58.920
One day, and then I did, and I thought, oh,

485
00:44:00.079 --> 00:44:05.239
I did an NLP course at college, did like a

486
00:44:05.280 --> 00:44:09.199
part time evening course at City University in London.

487
00:44:12.000 --> 00:44:17.920
And that's when my interest was peaked more so in

488
00:44:18.079 --> 00:44:22.760
that side of things because it involved hypnosis. It also

489
00:44:23.760 --> 00:44:27.719
for me kind of involved therapy and you know, all

490
00:44:27.719 --> 00:44:32.320
the things that I was kind of interested in. So

491
00:44:32.360 --> 00:44:37.679
I started buying loads of NLP books, all the ones

492
00:44:37.719 --> 00:44:45.119
I could get, and hypnosis books BlimE me, if anny,

493
00:44:45.599 --> 00:44:52.360
So yeah, I started collecting all that stuff and then

494
00:44:52.400 --> 00:44:57.960
really for the next few years I built my hypnosis

495
00:44:57.960 --> 00:45:09.360
collection up. But then in two thousand, I'm not saying

496
00:45:09.360 --> 00:45:16.880
I lost interest in hypnosis, but I did. It's true,

497
00:45:16.920 --> 00:45:24.119
I kind of, for some reason, I became obsessed with

498
00:45:24.239 --> 00:45:29.719
building websites. And I spent the next year and a

499
00:45:29.800 --> 00:45:39.039
half obsessively, pretty much all day, every day working on websites.

500
00:45:40.159 --> 00:45:43.519
We weren't learning how to build them, how to learning

501
00:45:43.559 --> 00:45:47.480
the code and HTML and all that stuff, and that

502
00:45:47.760 --> 00:45:50.800
was what I did, and I loved it, loved every

503
00:45:50.800 --> 00:45:57.960
second of it. And that's what I did for yeah,

504
00:45:58.039 --> 00:46:04.880
for the pretty mu much until summertime two thousand and one,

505
00:46:06.760 --> 00:46:14.960
maybe May time. But then I was made I was evicted,

506
00:46:16.679 --> 00:46:26.440
so I moved out and I didn't Everything was kind

507
00:46:26.440 --> 00:46:28.599
of up in the air. So I still had my belongings,

508
00:46:29.960 --> 00:46:36.960
still had my books, but I didn't. I was kind

509
00:46:36.960 --> 00:46:38.840
of a bit aimless, to be honest, I had this.

510
00:46:39.079 --> 00:46:43.039
I was forced into a sales job by the job center,

511
00:46:44.519 --> 00:46:49.159
and it was although I was quite good at it,

512
00:46:49.159 --> 00:46:55.599
it was difficult, very difficult to do that, and I

513
00:46:55.639 --> 00:47:03.039
stopped reading. I stopped doing any website building, I stopped

514
00:47:03.039 --> 00:47:07.960
being interested in anything during that period. And then September

515
00:47:09.320 --> 00:47:13.039
I moved to where my name was because she was ill,

516
00:47:13.760 --> 00:47:17.480
so I wanted to be closer to my men. And

517
00:47:17.559 --> 00:47:21.519
I had a new job again in insurance, but it's selling,

518
00:47:23.119 --> 00:47:25.559
which is not really It was kind of the wrong

519
00:47:25.599 --> 00:47:27.960
for me, thinging for me to get involved in, really,

520
00:47:28.039 --> 00:47:31.000
but at the time I didn't know what was going

521
00:47:31.039 --> 00:47:34.199
to happen. I didn't, you know, I wasn't really prepared

522
00:47:34.280 --> 00:47:38.840
for the outcome of putting myself in that kind of

523
00:47:38.840 --> 00:47:50.960
stressful environment long term. And during that period it wasn't

524
00:47:51.000 --> 00:47:53.880
so bad because I really got I no longer got involved,

525
00:47:54.199 --> 00:47:58.480
but I completely stopped doing any kind of website stuff

526
00:48:00.280 --> 00:48:03.400
during two thousand and like the end of two thousand

527
00:48:03.440 --> 00:48:10.360
and one, two thousand and two, and I would say

528
00:48:10.559 --> 00:48:16.639
even most of two thousand and three. Then two thousand

529
00:48:16.679 --> 00:48:19.239
and four I picked up. I picked it up again,

530
00:48:19.559 --> 00:48:22.880
maybe two thousand and three I picked up again. But

531
00:48:22.920 --> 00:48:25.679
I didn't do anything for a couple of years website wise.

532
00:48:29.920 --> 00:48:35.960
But I did collect hypnosis books like a lot. I

533
00:48:36.039 --> 00:48:41.760
had a huge library of hypnosis books, plus psychology books,

534
00:48:42.480 --> 00:48:49.880
counseling books. And this was a long time, like six years,

535
00:48:50.159 --> 00:48:53.440
five six years before I even started thinking about becoming

536
00:48:53.440 --> 00:48:59.760
a counselor. I was just interested in therapy, interested in

537
00:49:00.880 --> 00:49:07.199
how to helping others, but I guess also figuring a

538
00:49:07.239 --> 00:49:13.199
way to help myself maybe, So that's kind of where

539
00:49:13.199 --> 00:49:19.639
I was there. And i'd big, big book collection, and

540
00:49:19.679 --> 00:49:26.920
that book collection continued right the way until two thousand

541
00:49:27.000 --> 00:49:32.920
and seven November, and I had all these bookcases in

542
00:49:32.960 --> 00:49:38.079
this place I lived. Even I found it quite impressive

543
00:49:38.199 --> 00:49:43.280
the amount of books I had, because it was very looked,

544
00:49:43.360 --> 00:49:47.079
very professional, the setup I had, and I was doing

545
00:49:47.199 --> 00:49:50.679
videos with these bookcases and all these books behind me

546
00:49:51.280 --> 00:49:56.239
on psychology and hypnosis and psychotherapy and all this stuff

547
00:49:56.320 --> 00:50:00.559
behind me is like, yeah, how many people like fool

548
00:50:01.559 --> 00:50:11.360
as if I know something of all? And then I moved. Also,

549
00:50:11.400 --> 00:50:15.480
I had videos, I had audios, I had CDs DVDs

550
00:50:15.519 --> 00:50:19.559
of hypnosis stuff courses as well as having done courses

551
00:50:20.880 --> 00:50:27.440
like Life in Person as well. So I moved into

552
00:50:27.519 --> 00:50:35.840
a tiny room when I was at college, and I

553
00:50:35.880 --> 00:50:37.719
had to get rid of some of the books. It

554
00:50:37.760 --> 00:50:40.599
was too many too. It was literally I had all

555
00:50:40.599 --> 00:50:45.639
these these big containers full of books that was taken

556
00:50:45.679 --> 00:50:49.199
apart the room. I wasn't going to get rid of

557
00:50:49.239 --> 00:50:55.000
the hypnosis books. I couldn't be getting rid of the

558
00:50:55.000 --> 00:50:58.880
therapy books because I was studying counsel in the therapy.

559
00:50:59.239 --> 00:51:03.920
So why ended up doing is getting rid of all

560
00:51:04.000 --> 00:51:09.079
of the I also used to collect. I had quite

561
00:51:09.440 --> 00:51:15.119
quite a large collection of Buddhist books as well, probably

562
00:51:15.159 --> 00:51:19.239
about fifty or sixty Buddhist books, maybe one hundred, there's

563
00:51:19.320 --> 00:51:24.000
quite a lot. Anyway, I donated them to the Buddhist Center.

564
00:51:25.400 --> 00:51:31.760
And then I gave away all of my philosophy books,

565
00:51:32.920 --> 00:51:36.079
which again I had a big collection of like philosophy,

566
00:51:36.239 --> 00:51:40.880
and not just philosophy, but things that kind of minded,

567
00:51:40.920 --> 00:51:43.599
you know. So I got rid of all of those

568
00:51:45.400 --> 00:51:52.840
gave them to a second hand shop, and then that

569
00:51:52.920 --> 00:51:56.800
kind of I kind of halfed not I don't say

570
00:51:56.880 --> 00:52:00.599
half my book collection, but there was also all the

571
00:52:00.639 --> 00:52:08.199
other stuff like about creativity and really anything that wasn't

572
00:52:08.239 --> 00:52:13.360
to do with hypnosis or therapy I got rid of,

573
00:52:14.519 --> 00:52:20.440
which cut down my book collection by probably be half,

574
00:52:21.559 --> 00:52:25.840
maybe a quarter, maybe I knocked a quarter off of it.

575
00:52:29.559 --> 00:52:37.199
And then I moved again. Then I moved again, and

576
00:52:38.320 --> 00:52:40.599
that was the place before I moved in here, and

577
00:52:40.639 --> 00:52:44.199
that was even smaller, well probably not smaller, but it

578
00:52:44.239 --> 00:52:49.199
was damp. My books were starting to rot. I don't know,

579
00:52:49.280 --> 00:52:55.000
it's not good. And I had a bit of a thing,

580
00:52:55.199 --> 00:52:57.760
a bit of an episode, and I actually destroyed it

581
00:52:57.800 --> 00:53:01.800
all of my books apart from one, which was The

582
00:53:03.960 --> 00:53:08.360
Teachings of the Buddha, which I've had for probably since

583
00:53:08.400 --> 00:53:13.199
about nineteen ninety two, so I've had that book for

584
00:53:13.280 --> 00:53:20.400
quite a while. That was the only surviving book. So yeah,

585
00:53:20.480 --> 00:53:23.360
that was kind of That was probably the biggest collection

586
00:53:23.440 --> 00:53:27.519
I had was probably hypnosis books, but I also had

587
00:53:27.519 --> 00:53:36.280
a pretty healthy Buddhist collection as well. There wasn't even

588
00:53:36.360 --> 00:53:38.559
enough room on the shelves in the Buddhist Center to

589
00:53:38.559 --> 00:53:43.440
put them on because there were so many. So other

590
00:53:43.519 --> 00:53:45.840
than that, I'm trying to think of any other things

591
00:53:45.840 --> 00:53:54.719
that I've collected recently over the last few years, the

592
00:53:54.760 --> 00:54:01.719
last ten years. I can't think of anything. So that's

593
00:54:01.840 --> 00:54:05.039
kind of really it. Books seems to be the main thing.

594
00:54:08.119 --> 00:54:11.840
Number four, How is your dad? So my dad he's

595
00:54:11.880 --> 00:54:16.440
doing all right. I saw him last weekend. He came

596
00:54:16.519 --> 00:54:19.719
up to see me and with my little brother, so

597
00:54:19.800 --> 00:54:25.880
he had lunch around the corner and he's, you know,

598
00:54:26.079 --> 00:54:29.039
he's he had some treatment and stuff for a condition.

599
00:54:31.639 --> 00:54:36.199
He's getting his energy back and he seems to be

600
00:54:36.239 --> 00:54:39.000
doing well. It seems to be positive and seems to

601
00:54:39.000 --> 00:54:42.519
be doing good. And I think he enjoyed sort of

602
00:54:42.519 --> 00:54:45.880
spending time with two of his sons together at the

603
00:54:45.880 --> 00:54:53.880
same time out which is only kind of that hasn't happened,

604
00:54:54.039 --> 00:54:58.440
doesn't happen too often, although it did happen just before Christmas,

605
00:54:58.800 --> 00:55:04.679
But that was the first time that outside of the

606
00:55:04.679 --> 00:55:07.400
town that he lives as the first that's the city's

607
00:55:07.440 --> 00:55:13.840
the second time pretty much in decades that we've all

608
00:55:13.960 --> 00:55:19.760
kind of got together. So that was nice. But yeah,

609
00:55:19.800 --> 00:55:26.760
its seems to be doing good. Maria asks with your

610
00:55:26.800 --> 00:55:31.079
previous interest in martial arts. Have you ever practiced tai

611
00:55:31.159 --> 00:55:36.880
chi or chigung? Also, what are your thoughts on meditation? Yes,

612
00:55:37.320 --> 00:55:46.159
and yes, I did a bit of tai chi and chigung.

613
00:55:46.719 --> 00:55:49.239
I think that chigung. I think they were both probably

614
00:55:49.280 --> 00:55:52.880
connected to the Buddhist center. So what we'd have is

615
00:55:55.079 --> 00:55:58.079
there'd be a like a practitioner would come along and

616
00:55:58.760 --> 00:56:01.599
do a course, maybe a six week course on ti

617
00:56:01.760 --> 00:56:05.880
chie or a regular Tuesday night on ti chie or

618
00:56:05.960 --> 00:56:08.960
chickgung and stuff. So I did a little bit of

619
00:56:09.000 --> 00:56:12.719
tai chee, but the one I really liked was chickgung

620
00:56:13.360 --> 00:56:20.360
because but I did it minimally. I don't mean I

621
00:56:20.519 --> 00:56:22.519
changed the way I did it, but I mean I

622
00:56:22.599 --> 00:56:28.079
didn't do much of it. But I did appreciate the

623
00:56:28.159 --> 00:56:33.840
slow movements, the micro movements, the real like the idea

624
00:56:33.880 --> 00:56:38.920
of like holding a ball and passing that energy ball

625
00:56:39.400 --> 00:56:44.800
to another person and just that slow movement. I mean,

626
00:56:44.880 --> 00:56:46.800
I'm doing it now. You can't see me do it,

627
00:56:46.800 --> 00:56:54.440
but it feels nice. And because I'm quite a slow

628
00:56:54.559 --> 00:57:04.559
person anyway, moving slowly is my default. Really, and which

629
00:57:04.559 --> 00:57:10.519
brings me to your meditation is I think meditation's great.

630
00:57:10.840 --> 00:57:18.079
I kind of meditate every day using walking meditation. So

631
00:57:18.079 --> 00:57:22.039
I want to take Vinnie out. I walk very slowly,

632
00:57:24.119 --> 00:57:27.159
and what I do is I focus on my feet

633
00:57:27.480 --> 00:57:31.199
on the ground, how my feet feel, how my body

634
00:57:31.280 --> 00:57:36.960
feels as I walk. And it's also part of like

635
00:57:37.079 --> 00:57:39.599
paying control because I've got after rights in my lower

636
00:57:39.599 --> 00:57:43.039
back and it plays up, you know, whenever I move.

637
00:57:43.159 --> 00:57:47.639
Basically it's hurting now I say hurting, but it's I

638
00:57:47.639 --> 00:57:50.480
can feel it now and when I walk and when

639
00:57:50.519 --> 00:57:53.199
I sit down for too long, so when I walk,

640
00:57:53.280 --> 00:57:59.679
I can feel it. So sometimes by focusing on all

641
00:57:59.719 --> 00:58:06.599
of my body movement it eases that. It kind of

642
00:58:06.639 --> 00:58:10.519
reminds me that I've got a whole body that has feeling,

643
00:58:11.559 --> 00:58:19.360
not just that one part, and included in that meditation

644
00:58:20.360 --> 00:58:23.039
as well as being aware of Vinnie, because I have

645
00:58:23.079 --> 00:58:25.079
to be aware of what he's up to, and I

646
00:58:25.119 --> 00:58:28.840
need to also be aware of my surroundings. But I'd

647
00:58:28.920 --> 00:58:32.079
say that's part of the meditation, and that's my natural

648
00:58:32.159 --> 00:58:36.000
state is to be perhaps too aware of my surroundings

649
00:58:36.119 --> 00:58:40.679
to be honest. But the way you know, the weather,

650
00:58:40.840 --> 00:58:46.480
the wind, the air, the feeling the wind on my face,

651
00:58:47.880 --> 00:58:52.400
the feeling of breathing, and my lungs, the temperature on

652
00:58:52.480 --> 00:58:58.079
my hands, on my face, the sun may be shine in,

653
00:58:58.119 --> 00:59:01.480
and the just little things that the sounds of the

654
00:59:01.519 --> 00:59:06.239
birds or the wind or the traffic, just little things

655
00:59:06.320 --> 00:59:12.920
or dogs in the background, all that stuff. In fact,

656
00:59:12.960 --> 00:59:15.880
even like next door, like you know, with all the

657
00:59:16.119 --> 00:59:20.079
kids and the dogs barking over there, that is fine.

658
00:59:20.199 --> 00:59:24.320
When I'm meditating, I don't need quiet. I just incorporate

659
00:59:24.360 --> 00:59:27.760
it into the meditation and just be one with it.

660
00:59:31.239 --> 00:59:33.199
I should try and do that when I do a recording. Really,

661
00:59:33.239 --> 00:59:41.599
shouldn't I be one? Be one? My son. I don't

662
00:59:41.599 --> 00:59:48.440
do so much traditional meditation anymore, although I'm kind of

663
00:59:48.559 --> 00:59:51.559
I did meditate the other day. I could perhaps do

664
00:59:51.760 --> 00:59:55.559
with it, but I do. I like to walk in

665
00:59:55.639 --> 00:59:59.280
meditation because I do it every time. Unless I'm talking

666
00:59:59.280 --> 01:00:02.159
to someone, then I'm not. If I'm on my own

667
01:00:02.360 --> 01:00:08.679
with him and we just walk in slowly. I mean,

668
01:00:08.679 --> 01:00:16.320
it's probably not the most deep meditation practice that there

669
01:00:16.440 --> 01:00:18.440
is a meditation practice.

670
01:00:18.480 --> 01:00:18.719
There.

671
01:00:20.000 --> 01:00:29.559
There is an intention to slow things down, to allow

672
01:00:29.679 --> 01:00:32.119
things to slow down. So I'm not trying to force

673
01:00:34.639 --> 01:00:39.760
my breathing to become deeper and slower. I allow my body,

674
01:00:40.079 --> 01:00:45.119
my mind, you know, allowed for that to happen, and

675
01:00:45.159 --> 01:00:48.079
I don't try and cause my mind to slow down

676
01:00:48.639 --> 01:00:53.599
and for the thoughts to maybe vanish or just dissapey

677
01:00:53.880 --> 01:01:02.559
or slow. But I'm open to that happening. See, Yeah,

678
01:01:02.679 --> 01:01:05.719
it's quite nice. I do that.

679
01:01:07.880 --> 01:01:13.480
Every day if I can.

680
01:01:13.920 --> 01:01:17.039
You know, sometimes I can't, not be honest, sometimes I'm

681
01:01:17.039 --> 01:01:19.880
not in the right frame of my mind. But if

682
01:01:19.880 --> 01:01:23.960
I can, I will. It's better when there's no one

683
01:01:23.960 --> 01:01:28.719
else around, because I do especially if I if I

684
01:01:28.719 --> 01:01:33.480
can walk really slow, like super slow, if there's no

685
01:01:33.480 --> 01:01:36.599
one around, it doesn't look quite so weird. But when

686
01:01:36.639 --> 01:01:43.760
there's people around, I walk at very very slow pace anyway,

687
01:01:45.199 --> 01:01:49.960
But there's an even slower pace with meditation, with meditative walking,

688
01:01:51.360 --> 01:01:54.719
and it can be and it can be literally almost

689
01:01:55.039 --> 01:02:04.039
micro movements. I don't really really do that when I'm out,

690
01:02:07.079 --> 01:02:11.679
but I do focus on my feet when I'm walk in,

691
01:02:14.079 --> 01:02:18.760
I focus on my balance. I focus on my back,

692
01:02:19.639 --> 01:02:22.039
not just my lower back, but also my upper back,

693
01:02:22.559 --> 01:02:30.960
my shoulders, my posture, my neck, just noticing how I feel.

694
01:02:34.280 --> 01:02:41.360
And that's my connection with chigung and meditation could like

695
01:02:41.440 --> 01:02:46.840
the moving walking, meditation you could say is chickum. You

696
01:02:46.880 --> 01:02:53.000
could say it is tai chi. Oh No, I'm not

697
01:02:53.039 --> 01:02:55.679
an expert on any of this stuff. I do know

698
01:02:55.760 --> 01:02:58.719
more about meditation than I know about tai chi or chickum.

699
01:03:01.320 --> 01:03:06.639
I think it's all really really good stuff. And in

700
01:03:06.880 --> 01:03:11.400
some ways, I think tai chi and chigung because it's

701
01:03:11.400 --> 01:03:17.840
a movement, it's got an extra dimension added to it.

702
01:03:21.639 --> 01:03:23.639
I'm never going to be able to. I say I'm

703
01:03:23.679 --> 01:03:25.760
never going to because I tried for years to do

704
01:03:25.800 --> 01:03:30.800
this and it didn't work. So sitting on a cushion

705
01:03:31.679 --> 01:03:34.440
isn't something I can do on the floor on a cushion.

706
01:03:34.559 --> 01:03:38.960
Note I tried it from I think I did it

707
01:03:39.039 --> 01:03:46.400
all the way from November two thousand and two to

708
01:03:48.440 --> 01:03:54.440
two thousand and four, maybe even two thousand and five. Seriously,

709
01:03:54.480 --> 01:03:59.320
I tried for years to sit on a cushion. I

710
01:03:59.360 --> 01:04:02.800
did sit for years and then have to get up

711
01:04:02.840 --> 01:04:05.280
and see it on a chair. And I was just

712
01:04:05.360 --> 01:04:10.440
in pain for that whole time. And eventually, I mean

713
01:04:10.480 --> 01:04:12.920
that they tried every which way. At one point, at

714
01:04:12.960 --> 01:04:16.599
about seventeen chushions, I had scaffold in holding me up,

715
01:04:17.119 --> 01:04:22.840
but it still didn't work. I had a leastic band

716
01:04:23.440 --> 01:04:27.639
tied to me ed so I didn't fall off. I

717
01:04:27.679 --> 01:04:39.400
don't know, but yeah, I like the idea of movement.

718
01:04:40.119 --> 01:04:44.480
A little bit of movement is nice. Doesn't have to

719
01:04:44.480 --> 01:04:46.679
be the whole body. I mean, tie cheek can be

720
01:04:46.800 --> 01:04:56.519
used by anyone who can has access to movement of

721
01:04:56.559 --> 01:04:59.800
some of their limbs. So if someone was in a wheelchair,

722
01:05:00.119 --> 01:05:03.039
still be able to do it with their hands or

723
01:05:04.320 --> 01:05:06.360
you know, there's going to be limitations, I suppose if

724
01:05:06.440 --> 01:05:14.400
someone's unable to move their body. But I'm guessing meditation

725
01:05:14.519 --> 01:05:17.960
would be fine in that situation. But I imagine, and you know,

726
01:05:18.239 --> 01:05:26.360
imagining doing the movements would be calming, imagining doing tai

727
01:05:26.480 --> 01:05:35.119
chi in your mind, or doing chigun chikung chigum. But yeah,

728
01:05:35.199 --> 01:05:41.599
I don't know enough about it. But our two because

729
01:05:42.000 --> 01:05:44.880
tai chi I did tai chi with when I did

730
01:05:45.880 --> 01:05:50.519
wing Chun kung fu in two thousand and four. He

731
01:05:50.639 --> 01:05:54.840
taught wing chun. He taught g kundu, and he also

732
01:05:54.960 --> 01:05:58.360
taught tai chi, and he basically taught that tai chi

733
01:05:58.559 --> 01:06:01.039
was just a slow down version of a fighting style.

734
01:06:04.440 --> 01:06:07.719
You know, kicks, punches, blocks and all that stuff.

735
01:06:08.320 --> 01:06:12.360
So it's really just a very.

736
01:06:12.679 --> 01:06:19.159
Slow version of a form which would be or a

737
01:06:22.360 --> 01:06:26.480
a kater sometimes it's called it's just a mixture of

738
01:06:28.440 --> 01:06:33.880
movements where it's blocking and punching and then kicking, then sweeping,

739
01:06:34.039 --> 01:06:37.840
and you know, all kinds of like movements. And as

740
01:06:37.880 --> 01:06:42.639
the grades go up in like karate or whatever discipline,

741
01:06:43.519 --> 01:06:48.880
the katers or the forms become more and more complicated.

742
01:06:49.679 --> 01:06:53.400
So it's almost like an fighting an invisible opponent or

743
01:06:53.920 --> 01:07:01.159
multiple invisible opponents. The tie chee seems to be doing that,

744
01:07:01.239 --> 01:07:11.119
but invisible opponents that are really slow. So yeah, I'd

745
01:07:11.159 --> 01:07:19.639
recommend both for all, including meditation, because it's so useful,

746
01:07:19.920 --> 01:07:26.119
healthy healing. It's great stuff. I'm making myself want to

747
01:07:26.159 --> 01:07:30.519
go back to meditation, BlimE me. So thank you for that. So,

748
01:07:30.719 --> 01:07:36.519
Ben and Maria, I have answered both of your questions. Yeah,

749
01:07:37.039 --> 01:07:44.480
Hope asks me the houses in Britain are older than

750
01:07:44.519 --> 01:07:50.840
in Canada. Do you think they're more haunted? Do you

751
01:07:50.960 --> 01:07:55.679
think your grouping of flats is haunted? And have you

752
01:07:55.719 --> 01:08:00.960
ever lived in a place you thought was haunted? And

753
01:08:06.159 --> 01:08:08.159
I don't know, really, I don't know how to answer that.

754
01:08:08.239 --> 01:08:17.319
I don't I don't think so. I mean the big

755
01:08:17.399 --> 01:08:19.800
house I used to live in where I'm between ages

756
01:08:19.800 --> 01:08:27.800
of nine and fifteen, with my family. Didn't have a

757
01:08:27.800 --> 01:08:31.039
good atmosphere in there. I'm talking when there was no

758
01:08:31.039 --> 01:08:34.800
one else in the house, just me. I didn't feel

759
01:08:35.079 --> 01:08:37.800
I didn't like it. I was at the top of

760
01:08:37.800 --> 01:08:40.880
the stairs in the you know, in the well. I

761
01:08:40.920 --> 01:08:42.319
was in a room at the top of the stairs,

762
01:08:43.159 --> 01:08:50.479
and that was there was two sets of stairs, and

763
01:08:50.680 --> 01:08:53.039
I didn't like it. I didn't didn't get a good

764
01:08:53.279 --> 01:09:06.560
feeling about the place. Yeahs as for see anything, I don't.

765
01:09:07.239 --> 01:09:13.479
Don't you know anything like that, which not really ever happened. So,

766
01:09:15.720 --> 01:09:18.560
I mean, I know that you know, everything's energy and

767
01:09:19.520 --> 01:09:22.000
most there's more stuff we can't see than what we

768
01:09:22.039 --> 01:09:26.600
can see all of the you know, I'm looking around

769
01:09:26.600 --> 01:09:30.880
the room and that big gap, I say, big gap.

770
01:09:31.560 --> 01:09:34.800
I'm not living in a mansion, but that space between

771
01:09:34.960 --> 01:09:37.720
me and this desk and the television on the other

772
01:09:37.760 --> 01:09:41.840
side of the room is full of trillions and trillions

773
01:09:41.880 --> 01:09:52.560
and trillions and particles of energy, energy waves and all

774
01:09:52.640 --> 01:09:54.840
kinds of stuff that I'm never going to see or

775
01:09:54.920 --> 01:10:01.640
hear or feel, not consciously anyway. So I never try

776
01:10:01.720 --> 01:10:03.960
not to sort of, when I get serious, I try

777
01:10:04.000 --> 01:10:07.680
not to like poo poo other people's beliefs and things,

778
01:10:07.720 --> 01:10:12.359
because there's more stuff that I don't know than I

779
01:10:12.439 --> 01:10:15.000
do know, and that is always going to be the

780
01:10:15.039 --> 01:10:21.159
case my entire life. For everything I know, there's billions

781
01:10:21.159 --> 01:10:23.960
of things that I don't know, maybe trillions of things

782
01:10:24.039 --> 01:10:28.760
I don't know, so and I'm okay with that. I

783
01:10:28.800 --> 01:10:33.800
can't know everything. I don't want to know everything. Sometimes

784
01:10:33.800 --> 01:10:38.000
I want to know everything about specific subjects, but generally

785
01:10:38.279 --> 01:10:45.239
I don't know. I don't have any Yeah, I mean,

786
01:10:45.920 --> 01:10:50.000
my flat's haunted with a little Jack Russell, and before

787
01:10:50.039 --> 01:10:53.680
that it was haunted by a little ferrit called Andre

788
01:10:55.920 --> 01:11:05.079
and an the occasional mice. But generally, yeah, it's so,

789
01:11:05.159 --> 01:11:08.279
it wouldn't bother me. It's the neighbors. As long as

790
01:11:08.279 --> 01:11:10.600
the neighbors are quiet, I don't really care what else happens.

791
01:11:11.560 --> 01:11:14.359
As long as everything everything, everyone's safe, and that sort

792
01:11:14.359 --> 01:11:21.279
of rocking with the house for so Yeah, No, I

793
01:11:21.279 --> 01:11:24.239
think the answer to that is no. There was one

794
01:11:24.279 --> 01:11:31.239
incident in that house I was telling you about. We'd

795
01:11:31.239 --> 01:11:35.439
only lived there for a little while and my dad

796
01:11:35.479 --> 01:11:39.039
had put a carpet down and the carpets started to

797
01:11:39.199 --> 01:11:40.399
rise on its own.

798
01:11:41.920 --> 01:11:46.560
And that was strange.

799
01:11:47.359 --> 01:11:50.359
But I think my dad sorts like the air was

800
01:11:50.520 --> 01:11:54.279
going through the sciring boards or something like that. But

801
01:11:55.159 --> 01:12:02.520
that was very weird. It didn't happen in any other room.

802
01:12:02.680 --> 01:12:10.279
Then there was that poltergeist. Yeah, not not nothing really,

803
01:12:11.479 --> 01:12:17.000
it was just yeah, I just I did I don't know,

804
01:12:17.039 --> 01:12:21.279
I just didn't. I mean, I've lived in a literally

805
01:12:21.399 --> 01:12:24.720
have lived in a mansion, I guess technically, or I

806
01:12:24.800 --> 01:12:30.399
lived in the children's home in South End, huge building,

807
01:12:31.680 --> 01:12:38.960
huge like mentioned size in a sense, like absolutely massive,

808
01:12:40.439 --> 01:12:48.239
big grounds and massive building. Really you know. So, but

809
01:12:48.359 --> 01:12:54.560
I don't remember ever anything happening anything spooky, paranormal or

810
01:12:54.600 --> 01:13:00.520
anything like that there. And that building was prob there

811
01:13:00.680 --> 01:13:07.199
for a good five six hundred years probably in fact,

812
01:13:07.279 --> 01:13:09.560
I imagine when it was first built, it probably was

813
01:13:09.720 --> 01:13:14.960
I mentioned, or a hospital or something like that. Big,

814
01:13:15.119 --> 01:13:23.920
a big, old building. So yeah, I'm no, he's the answer. Really,

815
01:13:25.399 --> 01:13:29.880
the flats are fine. I mean I don't have access

816
01:13:29.880 --> 01:13:32.479
really to any of the other flats. So I talked

817
01:13:32.520 --> 01:13:35.800
to a couple of the other tenants. Now I've got

818
01:13:35.800 --> 01:13:40.359
two new people moving in, so I don't know them,

819
01:13:40.680 --> 01:13:43.439
and I speak to one one of the other tenants

820
01:13:43.479 --> 01:13:45.279
that I speak to him every now and then. I

821
01:13:45.279 --> 01:13:49.479
don't see him very often. And the other two one

822
01:13:49.600 --> 01:13:52.560
that I know, I speak to them every now and then,

823
01:13:52.560 --> 01:13:59.319
but really I don't. It's kind of things are changing

824
01:13:59.319 --> 01:14:03.520
around here than two new flats, two new people that

825
01:14:03.680 --> 01:14:09.119
moved in. I don't know them, and it's you know,

826
01:14:09.199 --> 01:14:13.920
things changed and people move on, and it's it's all changing.

827
01:14:17.159 --> 01:14:23.640
Whether or not they're haunted. I don't know. No, I

828
01:14:23.680 --> 01:14:30.920
don't think so. So mhm. So I only had three

829
01:14:30.960 --> 01:14:38.119
people leaving messages for questions, but I did get one, one, two, three, four, five, six.

830
01:14:38.159 --> 01:14:42.600
I had six questions. I'm not sure if I've answered

831
01:14:42.640 --> 01:14:46.520
them very well. I'm not sure if I'm not sure

832
01:14:46.520 --> 01:14:48.159
if I ever answered questions very well.

833
01:14:48.199 --> 01:14:52.399
I never really asked, do I you know?

834
01:14:52.560 --> 01:14:58.359
I ordered something on Uber eats, and because I'm trying

835
01:14:58.359 --> 01:15:02.039
to get I'm trying to get stocked up for not

836
01:15:02.079 --> 01:15:04.439
necessarily just for the end of the year, but for

837
01:15:04.520 --> 01:15:08.560
the future, just to prepare me for what's to come.

838
01:15:09.520 --> 01:15:14.319
And I so I've been getting like toilet roll and

839
01:15:15.760 --> 01:15:20.239
washing up liquid and black bin bags and just started

840
01:15:20.239 --> 01:15:22.600
collecting stuff so that I've got enough to last me

841
01:15:23.359 --> 01:15:28.399
hopefully for another year if I can. And so I

842
01:15:28.520 --> 01:15:35.319
ordered ten bottles of shampoo. You know how many they

843
01:15:35.439 --> 01:15:39.760
delivered one. I ordered a couple of other things, but

844
01:15:39.800 --> 01:15:45.600
not much. They delivered one bottle of shampoo. The whole

845
01:15:45.600 --> 01:15:47.720
point of it was to get ten, so that would

846
01:15:47.760 --> 01:15:51.159
last me. Bearing in mind I'm pretty much bored most

847
01:15:51.199 --> 01:15:53.760
of the time. That's going to last me a year.

848
01:15:54.079 --> 01:15:58.119
Ten bottles of shampoo. But no, no, no, no, no,

849
01:15:58.199 --> 01:16:04.359
only one. I couldn't believe it never been so angry,

850
01:16:05.840 --> 01:16:09.479
So I do believe that is it for today. Thank

851
01:16:09.520 --> 01:16:13.359
you for listening. Remember to be kind to yourself, because

852
01:16:13.399 --> 01:16:17.279
you do deserve to be happy. Be gentle of yourself.

853
01:16:17.279 --> 01:16:49.479
You deserve to feel safe. Lots of love. Bye. Relax

854
01:16:53.119 --> 01:17:03.680
in a more deep and meaningful way. Maybe in a

855
01:17:03.760 --> 01:17:11.279
way that can not just allow you to feel calmer

856
01:17:12.479 --> 01:17:21.880
now and throughout the time we've spend together here, not

857
01:17:22.399 --> 01:17:27.720
just relaxed at the end of the recording when it's

858
01:17:27.840 --> 01:17:35.000
finished and you can enjoy that sense of comfort and peace,

859
01:17:39.720 --> 01:17:52.520
but also I think it would be nice to have

860
01:17:53.039 --> 01:18:10.039
those feelings of relaxation continue for longer after the recording

861
01:18:10.079 --> 01:18:23.560
has ended, so that you can still benefit from listening

862
01:18:24.439 --> 01:18:33.399
to my voice. Maybe in a few hours time, perhaps tomorrow,

863
01:18:39.399 --> 01:18:47.239
and then by listening regularly, especially if you find like

864
01:18:47.399 --> 01:18:50.840
some people do and myself as well, I sometimes I

865
01:18:51.000 --> 01:19:01.560
find one particular recording that really resonates with me, and

866
01:19:01.640 --> 01:19:06.840
I just listened to it over and over again every morning,

867
01:19:07.000 --> 01:19:19.560
every evening. There was this recording from We're going back

868
01:19:19.600 --> 01:19:25.159
to about nineteen ninety nine. It wasn't hypnosis, but it

869
01:19:25.199 --> 01:19:30.279
was it guided visualization, so it kind of was hypnosis, really,

870
01:19:32.760 --> 01:19:37.920
and I managed to find it again and it still

871
01:19:38.000 --> 01:19:43.600
has the same effect on me. And part of it

872
01:19:43.760 --> 01:19:58.600
was the person's voice relaxed me, just felt so peaceful,

873
01:20:00.600 --> 01:20:07.159
and I'd look forward to listening to her in the

874
01:20:07.199 --> 01:20:17.880
morning and in the evening. And I knew before even

875
01:20:18.640 --> 01:20:27.079
pressing the play button that since I've done that pressed

876
01:20:27.119 --> 01:20:35.680
the play button. This was in the days of CD

877
01:20:35.880 --> 01:20:44.560
players press the play button. In fact, it might have

878
01:20:44.600 --> 01:20:48.960
even been a tape tape recorder. I'd lie down on

879
01:20:49.000 --> 01:21:01.840
the bed and then even without necessarily listening to her

880
01:21:02.039 --> 01:21:15.000
words because I had them memorized. Really, it was as

881
01:21:15.000 --> 01:21:25.720
if my body knew exactly what to do, and the

882
01:21:25.880 --> 01:21:47.880
muscles just almost went into automatic relaxation, and I remember

883
01:21:48.000 --> 01:22:02.079
my mind would slow down. Now now I was listening

884
01:22:02.079 --> 01:22:08.880
to this recording in the early days of learning hypnosis,

885
01:22:11.439 --> 01:22:19.279
and long before I ever made any videos or audio

886
01:22:19.319 --> 01:22:24.079
recordings myself, because I didn't start doing that till two

887
01:22:24.119 --> 01:22:40.199
thousand and six. But I knew, I knew how helpful

888
01:22:42.000 --> 01:22:53.560
I found being able to just let go, to have

889
01:22:53.720 --> 01:23:06.640
that trust in the person that I'm listening to, knowing

890
01:23:06.720 --> 01:23:14.560
that it's going to be just as relaxing, if not

891
01:23:14.800 --> 01:23:24.119
more so. Each time you hear my voice, you may

892
01:23:24.119 --> 01:23:35.720
feel the same. Some people have been listening to me

893
01:23:35.960 --> 01:23:49.880
for over a decade, maybe not solidly, obviously not twenty

894
01:23:49.920 --> 01:23:57.920
four hours a day, but maybe people come back. Some

895
01:23:57.920 --> 01:24:12.800
people may be listen every day. That's something that I

896
01:24:12.840 --> 01:24:28.880
do which you may not realize by listening, is when

897
01:24:29.119 --> 01:24:44.640
I record these recordings. Now, for example, I also am

898
01:24:44.880 --> 01:24:58.680
affected by the words that I say. So if I

899
01:24:58.680 --> 01:25:06.079
said to you, focus on your feet, notice your feet relaxing,

900
01:25:09.560 --> 01:25:17.439
I will be focusing on my feet. I will be

901
01:25:17.560 --> 01:25:35.680
noticing my feet relaxing. If I said, focus on your hands,

902
01:25:38.439 --> 01:25:47.960
and maybe notice the difference between each hand, perhaps notice

903
01:25:48.079 --> 01:25:54.159
the air in the room, the temperature of the room.

904
01:25:56.000 --> 01:26:06.439
On the backs of your hands, you may start to

905
01:26:07.000 --> 01:26:15.079
notice what almost feels like a very light breeze, even

906
01:26:15.119 --> 01:26:19.359
though there may not be any type of breeze at

907
01:26:19.399 --> 01:26:32.359
all where you are right now. And as you become

908
01:26:33.000 --> 01:26:47.399
aware of your hands, I'm also aware of how relaxed

909
01:26:47.680 --> 01:27:11.439
my hands are feeling now, and when it comes to

910
01:27:13.000 --> 01:27:19.039
potentially drifting off to sleep, which may be the reason

911
01:27:19.359 --> 01:27:35.680
you're listening, I also feel drowsy when I make these recordings.

912
01:27:40.319 --> 01:27:56.840
I also notice my mind drifting. In fact, at times

913
01:27:58.760 --> 01:28:12.920
I've actually fallen asleep without even noticing, and then I

914
01:28:13.079 --> 01:28:24.399
carry on talking. And it's only when I listen back

915
01:28:24.600 --> 01:28:33.600
to do the editing I hear snoring, and I think,

916
01:28:34.039 --> 01:28:44.159
I don't remember snoring. I remember talking. It's snoring was

917
01:28:44.760 --> 01:28:51.119
a pick turned up. That's why I sound like when

918
01:28:51.119 --> 01:29:10.039
I snore, I get really into a whole experience. I

919
01:29:10.079 --> 01:29:19.439
don't know how you feel. How relaxed do you feel

920
01:29:19.439 --> 01:29:30.079
in your feet, how relaxed you feel in your hands.

921
01:29:45.119 --> 01:29:57.359
I have noticed more and more that the more relaxed,

922
01:29:59.079 --> 01:30:14.920
deeper level of comfort you feel, the easier your breathing becomes.

923
01:30:21.520 --> 01:30:38.159
It's almost like that additional muscle relaxation. So this allows

924
01:30:38.199 --> 01:31:09.279
you to breathe easier without necessarily focusing on your breath. However,

925
01:31:09.520 --> 01:31:38.319
being able to notice the ease in which you breathe

926
01:31:38.520 --> 01:32:00.439
so naturally, You breathe so very easily and smooth lead

927
01:32:27.920 --> 01:32:46.800
Whenever I imagine my breathing improving. When I've got my eyes closed,

928
01:32:52.800 --> 01:33:05.680
I tend to visualize a beautiful field with trees and

929
01:33:05.960 --> 01:33:39.479
flowers producing all that life giving oxygen. And it feels

930
01:33:39.600 --> 01:34:06.039
nice too, if nothing else, just taking some time away

931
01:34:06.079 --> 01:34:49.399
from everything, enjoying that feeling of peace serenity with a

932
01:34:49.720 --> 01:35:41.640
joyful heart. Time seems to just drip by, so very slowly, relaxed,

933
01:35:47.520 --> 01:36:26.640
so deeply, peaceful, completely unattached to any thoughts whatsoever in

934
01:36:26.840 --> 01:37:31.199
this moment, completely free, noticing that your mind has slowed down.

935
01:37:39.520 --> 01:38:26.199
Slowed down because nothing really requires your attention. You can

936
01:38:26.479 --> 01:38:42.600
enjoy the physical sensations of allowing the stress to drip

937
01:38:43.319 --> 01:39:03.119
out of your body, dripping out of every part of

938
01:39:03.319 --> 01:39:27.880
your body and being released from your brain longte your

939
01:39:28.000 --> 01:40:19.159
mind slowly but surely, the muscles in your legs relax

940
01:40:24.159 --> 01:41:14.359
res relax so very deeply, relax so deeply, and the feelings,

941
01:41:16.960 --> 01:41:41.840
the pleasant feelings in your arms and shoulders, deepening each

942
01:41:42.239 --> 01:42:04.960
part of your body further and deeper, m Hm and deeper.

943
01:42:19.640 --> 01:42:49.279
Magician the feedings in the back of your neck, the

944
01:42:49.479 --> 01:43:28.680
feelings in your wrists, muscles, in front of your body,

945
01:43:39.039 --> 01:44:22.520
I will say, filing, peaceful, deep, there's a sense of

946
01:44:22.800 --> 01:45:07.279
pace spreads through your very core. Even when you focus

947
01:45:07.439 --> 01:46:27.439
on your mind. Her mind becomes be and slowerven, deeper, relaxing,

948
01:46:30.680 --> 01:47:39.960
so fairy, slow, stomach peace fall in your stomach, held back. Notice,

949
01:47:47.560 --> 01:48:06.039
Notice how relaxed you now feel in the hall of

950
01:48:06.159 --> 01:48:06.720
your back.

951
01:48:31.880 --> 01:48:33.079
In a spy.

952
01:48:36.800 --> 01:48:41.560
From your brain all the way down the middle of

953
01:48:41.600 --> 01:49:00.079
your back, sending and receiving millions of messages every day,

954
01:49:04.319 --> 01:50:24.079
deep comfort, increasing deeply relaxed, your knees, relax spreading those

955
01:50:24.239 --> 01:50:33.479
signals down your spine or cord into air, every part

956
01:50:33.800 --> 01:51:20.319
of your body, your shins and your calf muscles, your elbows,

957
01:51:36.520 --> 01:51:53.960
Feelings of peace and tranquility spreading through your body, tips

958
01:51:53.960 --> 01:52:09.840
of your toes to your eye, Yes, your fingers, all

959
01:52:09.840 --> 01:52:26.279
the way till you'll know it. Back, letting her read,

960
01:52:26.840 --> 01:53:26.359
letting her pace hmm, to drift in mind, just wandering away.

961
01:53:35.800 --> 01:54:17.520
Happy to let go, let go completely, Leger said, tranquil,

962
01:54:41.800 --> 01:56:27.960
whole body, enjoying a sense listening that hey more thy

963
01:57:02.680 --> 01:57:44.600
enjoy the space, this space of peace and safety, so

964
01:57:45.319 --> 01:59:43.760
very relaxed, us lady, letting go. Maybe we can just

965
01:59:46.600 --> 01:59:55.479
focus on the different parts of your body, just to

966
01:59:55.720 --> 02:01:24.560
notice you foolhead and your eyes tune so loose, noticing

967
02:01:24.760 --> 02:02:44.439
the sense of complete freedom, absolute freedom, dress day, dress day.

968
02:02:56.800 --> 02:03:40.479
He's fall and it's paste to breeze so much ease,

969
02:03:40.760 --> 02:04:50.279
yeah loose. You may have or may not have noticed

970
02:04:55.000 --> 02:05:56.680
your mind drifted peaceful move an even more deeply in

971
02:05:56.760 --> 02:07:32.319
the direction of total blissful pace blisshul pace terreft t

972
02:07:32.680 --> 02:08:44.640
to pace so calm, let him go, peace of mind

973
02:08:54.319 --> 02:09:58.560
rex body c rexed c relaxed. A body feels almost invisible,

974
02:10:13.760 --> 02:11:15.880
so very relaxed, like paceful, so paceful, relax lead so

975
02:11:34.199 --> 02:11:40.439
and you could start to notice that you are feeling

976
02:11:40.800 --> 02:11:52.039
more relaxed, even though I've not purposely focused your mind

977
02:11:53.000 --> 02:12:00.600
upon that sense of physical comfort that is grown within

978
02:12:00.680 --> 02:12:09.840
you throughout your body, and your mind starts to slow down.

979
02:12:14.760 --> 02:12:22.039
And that could be almost in recognition of I guess

980
02:12:22.359 --> 02:12:34.880
my speech not being particularly fast, and things just generally

981
02:12:36.520 --> 02:12:47.560
feel calmer. Just by listening to my voice, you give

982
02:12:47.640 --> 02:12:55.800
yourself an opportunity to take a break from the day,

983
02:12:56.680 --> 02:13:04.199
take a break from your life as it is, and

984
02:13:04.319 --> 02:13:12.079
to give yourself a rest, giving yourself permission to take

985
02:13:12.159 --> 02:13:17.720
some time off, and to allow your body to relax

986
02:13:19.399 --> 02:13:27.600
and allow your mind to slow down, which in turn

987
02:13:29.960 --> 02:13:39.079
releases the tension any stresses that you had in your body.

988
02:13:41.560 --> 02:13:45.439
It's almost as if the parts of your body just

989
02:13:45.720 --> 02:13:57.439
open up, allowing the negativity out and at the same

990
02:13:57.560 --> 02:14:08.840
time replacing that negativity with positive heathing energy, which then

991
02:14:09.000 --> 02:14:18.279
fills your body up and your mind to also starts

992
02:14:18.319 --> 02:14:33.479
to appreciate those feelings of increasing confidence and an almost

993
02:14:34.119 --> 02:14:50.399
uplifting feeling, positive healing, an energy that spreads through your

994
02:14:50.439 --> 02:15:01.640
body like a wave of comfort. And all this comes

995
02:15:01.760 --> 02:15:13.800
from just allowing yourself a few minutes, maybe half an hour,

996
02:15:14.239 --> 02:15:19.720
however long you want it to be, to just rest

997
02:15:24.399 --> 02:15:33.239
and allow your mind and your body to almost reset

998
02:15:33.920 --> 02:15:52.600
itself to the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness, which

999
02:15:52.640 --> 02:16:05.800
allows more room for feelings of pleasure and happiness to

1000
02:16:06.079 --> 02:16:15.520
move around your body and into your mind, almost as

1001
02:16:15.560 --> 02:16:24.680
if your mind and your body are sinking together, almost

1002
02:16:25.039 --> 02:16:39.079
mirroring each other with that growing positivity and calmness, And

1003
02:16:39.120 --> 02:16:46.959
it feels nice, really does feel nice to know that

1004
02:16:47.079 --> 02:16:56.280
you are the one that has allowed yourself to feel

1005
02:16:56.680 --> 02:17:05.000
more comfort and to experience.

1006
02:17:06.639 --> 02:17:08.000
More of this.

1007
02:17:09.559 --> 02:17:25.200
Deep relaxation spreading throughout your body. And as I focus

1008
02:17:26.280 --> 02:17:32.479
on each part of your body, you can notice that.

1009
02:17:32.239 --> 02:17:33.200
That part.

1010
02:17:36.920 --> 02:17:50.120
Becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on it becomes

1011
02:17:50.319 --> 02:18:03.440
even more calm and comfortable just by focusing. And as

1012
02:18:03.479 --> 02:18:11.559
I move down your body, starting at your head, the

1013
02:18:11.719 --> 02:18:18.239
parts that you have already focused on will continue to

1014
02:18:18.360 --> 02:18:26.040
relax deeply, and those parts that have not yet focused

1015
02:18:26.079 --> 02:18:39.440
on or just automatically release any remain intention in anticipation

1016
02:18:39.799 --> 02:18:52.840
of even more comfort about to come. Now, I'm going

1017
02:18:52.879 --> 02:18:59.799
to start by focusing on your forehead. Just being aware

1018
02:19:00.479 --> 02:19:08.799
the feelings of your forehead and then your background sounds

1019
02:19:10.520 --> 02:19:15.959
like mister Herbert Opigeon can just allow you to feel

1020
02:19:16.000 --> 02:19:26.040
even more relaxed. Just means you're in the moment. This

1021
02:19:26.159 --> 02:19:31.319
isn't this isn't a sterile environment. This is the world.

1022
02:19:34.719 --> 02:19:40.799
I live in the countryside, so there's lots of nature

1023
02:19:41.319 --> 02:19:51.840
sounds around. So as you focus on your forehead, just

1024
02:19:52.040 --> 02:19:59.799
notice how it becomes even more relaxed as your focus

1025
02:20:00.040 --> 02:20:06.600
yes only on my voice and that part of your body.

1026
02:20:11.840 --> 02:20:20.120
Moving down to your eyes, focusing on your eyes, noticing

1027
02:20:22.559 --> 02:20:32.280
how your eyelids feel so heavy yet so light at

1028
02:20:32.319 --> 02:20:38.760
the same time, and all the muscles around your eyes

1029
02:20:39.040 --> 02:20:53.440
relaxing completely. Moving your focus down to your mouth, your lips,

1030
02:20:53.920 --> 02:21:00.840
your tongue, your teeth, and your guns, all of your

1031
02:21:00.959 --> 02:21:08.000
mouth relaxing, calm.

1032
02:21:09.200 --> 02:21:09.760
And lease.

1033
02:21:14.239 --> 02:21:22.040
As you focus now on your jaw, not just the

1034
02:21:22.200 --> 02:21:25.639
parts of your jaw near your mouth and your chin,

1035
02:21:26.920 --> 02:21:30.040
but all the way up the size of your face

1036
02:21:31.200 --> 02:21:43.639
to your ears, the hole of your jaw feeding more

1037
02:21:44.479 --> 02:22:06.479
relaxed and calm. Focusing on your neck, the front of

1038
02:22:06.559 --> 02:22:15.079
your neck and your throat relaxing and loose and calm.

1039
02:22:19.239 --> 02:22:25.000
The side of your neck, the right and left side

1040
02:22:25.200 --> 02:22:26.000
of your neck.

1041
02:22:28.760 --> 02:22:30.079
Relax and.

1042
02:22:31.559 --> 02:22:45.200
Loose and calm. And now the back of your neck,

1043
02:22:48.520 --> 02:22:58.479
focusing on the back of your neck, letting go of

1044
02:22:58.719 --> 02:23:05.600
any tension that may have been there before, and enjoying

1045
02:23:05.959 --> 02:23:15.479
that sense of increasing comfort and release.

1046
02:23:18.239 --> 02:23:29.280
Then you can experience in the back of your neck, moving.

1047
02:23:29.159 --> 02:23:35.760
Down your back and moving either side of your spine

1048
02:23:37.040 --> 02:23:41.760
right from the top of your back all the way

1049
02:23:42.000 --> 02:23:54.639
down to the bottom of your back, down to your

1050
02:23:54.760 --> 02:24:05.280
lower back. As you move up and down your spine,

1051
02:24:07.440 --> 02:24:11.840
you can feel the muscles either side of your spine

1052
02:24:14.079 --> 02:24:28.639
relaxing even more. And as those muscles relax, that sense

1053
02:24:28.760 --> 02:24:39.200
of comfort starts to spread outwards from your spine into

1054
02:24:39.440 --> 02:24:46.040
both sides of your back, the top of your back,

1055
02:24:46.920 --> 02:24:53.159
the middle, and your lower back. And as you scan

1056
02:24:54.840 --> 02:25:02.680
gently and slowly up and down your back, there's the

1057
02:25:02.840 --> 02:25:08.680
muscles in the top of your back relax and become looser.

1058
02:25:13.040 --> 02:25:19.040
The muscles in the middle of your back also seem

1059
02:25:19.120 --> 02:25:28.639
to just almost divide from each other, separating and almost melting.

1060
02:25:34.440 --> 02:25:40.399
And in your lower back there seems to be an

1061
02:25:40.479 --> 02:25:54.639
extra special feeling of comfort. The spreads into your hips.

1062
02:25:56.959 --> 02:26:04.760
Sit down, your lower back, into your hips, into the

1063
02:26:05.000 --> 02:26:13.719
area where your cosix are, and into your buttocks, and

1064
02:26:13.760 --> 02:26:23.040
the wise muscles that spread bring your lower back into

1065
02:26:23.120 --> 02:26:36.559
your hip area start to melt, start to reading, let go,

1066
02:26:43.280 --> 02:26:50.040
and even nowhere about to focus on your shoulders. Your

1067
02:26:50.239 --> 02:26:59.879
back and your spine will continue to let go, okay,

1068
02:27:00.040 --> 02:27:15.559
continue to relax so calmly, and then she focus on

1069
02:27:15.719 --> 02:27:28.600
your shoulders. You may notice they're already feeling really loose,

1070
02:27:33.440 --> 02:27:59.799
They're already feeding calm. I feel those muscles the move

1071
02:28:00.239 --> 02:28:16.079
from your neck into your shoulders feels so soft and gentle,

1072
02:28:20.159 --> 02:28:49.639
so smooth and calm. The feeling in your shoulders seems

1073
02:28:49.959 --> 02:28:57.600
to spread deep into your shoulders, a sense of relaxation,

1074
02:28:58.840 --> 02:29:10.319
not just traveling deeply into your muscles, but also relaxing

1075
02:29:13.000 --> 02:29:22.399
with the bones and moving all the way to underneath

1076
02:29:22.479 --> 02:29:30.920
your arms, relaxing a whole area between the tops of

1077
02:29:31.079 --> 02:29:34.920
your shoulders and underneath your arms.

1078
02:29:38.959 --> 02:29:39.520
Healing.

1079
02:29:44.920 --> 02:29:57.959
You feel so relaxed and comfortable in your shoulders, which

1080
02:29:58.200 --> 02:29:59.000
sense that.

1081
02:30:01.239 --> 02:30:03.239
Deep healing.

1082
02:30:06.280 --> 02:30:23.760
Message into your arms. You may feel almost as if

1083
02:30:23.840 --> 02:30:30.360
your arms are not even there, because they're so relaxed,

1084
02:30:33.559 --> 02:31:19.719
so deeply relaxed, so so calm, So this the feeling

1085
02:31:20.079 --> 02:31:35.319
spreading all the way down your arms to elbows, including

1086
02:31:37.040 --> 02:32:03.520
your elbows, comfort spreads your way into wrists, your forearms,

1087
02:32:04.040 --> 02:32:27.680
and your wrists so heavy. Yet the same time, sunlight

1088
02:32:30.920 --> 02:32:58.239
and gentle frey spe.

1089
02:33:00.239 --> 02:33:01.200
Now on.

1090
02:33:03.879 --> 02:33:28.000
Your hands, your hands.

1091
02:33:33.840 --> 02:33:58.479
So peaceful in your hands, with a sense of.

1092
02:34:01.959 --> 02:34:03.360
Real pace.

1093
02:34:15.200 --> 02:34:28.840
It just seems to feel so familion when your hands

1094
02:34:29.239 --> 02:36:07.479
relax deeply else your finger it's you think it tips

1095
02:36:36.120 --> 02:37:06.760
may your attention to affront your body. So comfortable, man,

1096
02:37:06.959 --> 02:38:56.719
you focus muculs in your thighs and knies, so relaxed,

1097
02:39:24.360 --> 02:41:33.760
calf muscles, shades, comus, the faathing.

1098
02:41:34.920 --> 02:42:34.399
Your feets, sir, piece of CCO sun, peaceful circom s, peaceful.

1099
02:42:37.120 --> 02:43:03.040
Sycom so peace for re scen piece faur.

1100
02:43:06.360 --> 02:43:15.840
Sort calm, a lout of.

1101
02:43:15.920 --> 02:43:19.079
That deep relaxation.

1102
02:43:19.719 --> 02:43:23.360
To spread your chest storm.

1103
02:43:27.920 --> 02:43:28.479
Relad.

1104
02:43:36.120 --> 02:43:54.920
Let's me go everything. So I'm gonna start counting down

1105
02:43:55.040 --> 02:44:06.479
now from twenty down to one. You can imagine in

1106
02:44:06.559 --> 02:44:12.159
a way it's like just walking down some steps and

1107
02:44:12.280 --> 02:44:17.760
each step or twenty steps, and each step represents a

1108
02:44:18.000 --> 02:44:30.879
level of comfort. Each step represents a deepening of that

1109
02:44:31.120 --> 02:44:43.920
comfort and the furvies you walk down those steps deeper

1110
02:44:44.319 --> 02:46:40.520
and more relaxed you feel so starting with number twenty, twenty, ninety, eighteen, seventeen,

1111
02:47:26.920 --> 02:56:52.799
sixteenhhhhhhhh three fourhhhhhh four too well, nohhhhhhhhh eight seven.

1112
02:57:02.000 --> 03:01:04.680
Six five us four.

1113
03:03:04.559 --> 03:03:04.760
Da.

1114
03:05:32.680 --> 03:05:49.719
Now, as you focus on your lines, we're gonna count

1115
03:05:49.840 --> 03:06:00.840
down from ten down to one. Focus it just on

1116
03:06:01.040 --> 03:06:11.959
your eyes, your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your

1117
03:06:12.040 --> 03:06:21.079
eye walls themselves, our whole area that makes up your eye.

1118
03:06:32.000 --> 03:06:37.239
And as we count down from ten down to one,

1119
03:06:39.799 --> 03:06:53.719
whilst focusing on your eyes, you become twice is relaxed

1120
03:06:56.000 --> 03:07:09.040
with each number counting down that you may find the

1121
03:07:09.200 --> 03:07:15.680
all you want to do is just drift off to sleep.

1122
03:07:18.680 --> 03:07:25.280
And if that's what you want, then just allow yourself

1123
03:07:25.399 --> 03:07:40.040
to do that. Now, focusing on your eyes, I'm going

1124
03:07:40.159 --> 03:07:50.120
to begin counting down from ten down to one right now,

1125
03:07:58.680 --> 03:11:57.680
ten nine eight seven I.

1126
03:12:07.719 --> 03:13:09.040
USUS four.

1127
03:14:22.280 --> 03:17:03.120
Three, So.

1128
03:17:11.559 --> 03:17:22.840
Counting down from ten to one ten nine eight seven

1129
03:17:24.959 --> 03:17:47.559
six five four three two one. And maybe that was

1130
03:17:47.600 --> 03:17:51.799
a bit too quick in order to relax. Maybe it's

1131
03:17:51.799 --> 03:17:57.760
a bit too fast for you to notice the calming

1132
03:17:57.959 --> 03:18:04.840
of your body, maybe even a little bit of pressure there,

1133
03:18:05.000 --> 03:18:08.479
like you're count it down from ten to one. Would

1134
03:18:08.479 --> 03:18:11.920
you expect me to do? Man, expect me to stick

1135
03:18:11.920 --> 03:18:21.479
go with floppy just because you're counting down. You can

1136
03:18:21.600 --> 03:18:24.840
try it again, but this time I'll go a bit

1137
03:18:24.959 --> 03:18:32.200
slower this time, as you focus on the whole of

1138
03:18:32.319 --> 03:18:39.079
your body before we focus on your legs. Just notice

1139
03:18:40.680 --> 03:18:53.479
how your body does start to feel more relaxed with

1140
03:18:54.760 --> 03:19:18.760
every number that I count down ten nine eight seven

1141
03:19:27.920 --> 03:20:45.600
six five four three one, And just notice how how

1142
03:20:45.719 --> 03:20:55.799
you feel, generally, how your body feels. It's not necessarily

1143
03:20:55.879 --> 03:21:06.280
even about counting down from ten to one. It's that

1144
03:21:06.559 --> 03:21:26.239
space that you have that space between being active physically

1145
03:21:26.479 --> 03:21:36.040
or mentally to just sitting or lying down, just being there,

1146
03:21:36.799 --> 03:21:42.239
not doing anything, not saying anything, or needing to think

1147
03:21:42.360 --> 03:21:48.239
about anything. So it opens up a space, you know,

1148
03:21:48.440 --> 03:21:57.760
a bit of a space, a gap. And the more

1149
03:21:59.079 --> 03:22:02.399
I came down for ten to one, the bigger that

1150
03:22:02.600 --> 03:22:13.600
gap becomes. So there's that gap of calmness, of comfort, relaxation.

1151
03:22:19.520 --> 03:22:31.879
It's a nice feeling, and it moves those stresses or

1152
03:22:32.440 --> 03:22:46.239
discomforts physically or emotionally, moves them away. Allows you.

1153
03:22:49.000 --> 03:22:49.520
To just.

1154
03:22:52.479 --> 03:22:58.879
Slow down. Someone to count again from ten down to

1155
03:22:59.040 --> 03:23:07.040
one and no. It is that gap, widening the gap,

1156
03:23:08.799 --> 03:23:13.399
and as it widens, it's almost like the stress and

1157
03:23:13.559 --> 03:23:31.120
attention falls into the gap. It gives you that distance,

1158
03:23:33.159 --> 03:23:33.920
that space.

1159
03:23:36.319 --> 03:23:41.760
Now ten.

1160
03:23:46.120 --> 03:25:43.120
Nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three two one. How

1161
03:25:43.200 --> 03:26:04.360
did you body feel? Can you notice that you are

1162
03:26:04.440 --> 03:26:41.719
feeling calmer, the feeling more relaxed. As we now focus

1163
03:26:41.799 --> 03:27:01.600
on your legs, just your legs. You're just going to

1164
03:27:02.120 --> 03:27:21.479
start with focusing on your thighs. Of course, it's not

1165
03:27:21.639 --> 03:27:30.079
the most exciting thing to be doing, because I'm sure

1166
03:27:30.239 --> 03:27:32.799
like most of your body is not a lot going

1167
03:27:32.879 --> 03:27:45.559
on right now. Just focusing on the whole of your thighs,

1168
03:27:48.399 --> 03:27:52.079
the tops of your thighs, the sides of your fighs,

1169
03:27:54.319 --> 03:27:58.799
the bottoms of your thighs, your outer thighs, and your

1170
03:27:58.879 --> 03:28:04.120
inner thighs, basically the whole of your thigh that leads

1171
03:28:05.159 --> 03:28:20.680
into your hip and it goes down to your knee joint. Now,

1172
03:28:20.799 --> 03:28:27.799
this is a big area. It's a very heavy area.

1173
03:28:28.319 --> 03:28:34.280
It's very strong, probably the strongest muscles in your body

1174
03:28:35.000 --> 03:28:49.280
or in your thighs. But I don't think we perhaps

1175
03:28:51.040 --> 03:29:01.680
will give enough attention to our thighs. Perhaps we don't

1176
03:29:03.040 --> 03:29:12.040
and acknowledge how important our thighs are to our lives,

1177
03:29:23.600 --> 03:29:33.000
how much they actually do for us all through our lives.

1178
03:29:40.159 --> 03:29:42.799
And it may seem sound really weird, but.

1179
03:29:45.680 --> 03:29:47.040
I think that all of our.

1180
03:29:46.959 --> 03:29:57.840
Body parts, especially our thighs, need some TLC, a bit

1181
03:29:57.879 --> 03:30:17.639
of love shown, bit of acknowledgement, thank you, gratitude for

1182
03:30:17.959 --> 03:30:27.040
our thighs do for us. And I know this may

1183
03:30:27.280 --> 03:30:32.920
sound a bit strange. Maybe you think, why am I

1184
03:30:33.680 --> 03:30:36.479
Surely I should be out in the garden hugging a

1185
03:30:36.600 --> 03:30:45.000
tree or something. Well, it's hard to set a microphone

1186
03:30:45.079 --> 03:30:48.120
up on a tree. That's why I'm doing this indoors.

1187
03:30:48.159 --> 03:30:51.959
Otherwise I would be outside hugging a tree. I can't

1188
03:30:51.959 --> 03:31:00.760
see the television from the tree. If you move down

1189
03:31:00.799 --> 03:31:10.559
to your knees gain such an important part. And I

1190
03:31:10.639 --> 03:31:17.799
think we don't necessarily I'll speak for myself. I don't

1191
03:31:17.879 --> 03:31:22.719
necessarily appreciate all that my needs to do for me

1192
03:31:23.959 --> 03:31:29.159
until I have a problem with my knee. It's occasionally,

1193
03:31:29.200 --> 03:31:34.159
if I ever, maybe i'll bash it, or it's aching

1194
03:31:34.360 --> 03:31:40.719
for some reason. It's then that I realize how much

1195
03:31:40.879 --> 03:31:44.479
it does. You know, the benefit of being able to

1196
03:31:45.440 --> 03:31:54.680
use my legs without any kind of physical discomfort is

1197
03:31:55.479 --> 03:32:04.200
a beautiful thing that's possibly not appreciated until it's temporarily removed.

1198
03:32:05.360 --> 03:32:12.360
You know that's comfort. But as you focus on your knees,

1199
03:32:14.479 --> 03:32:20.159
regardless of how your knees feel, you can have that

1200
03:32:20.440 --> 03:32:26.559
sense of gratitude and love to your knees for all

1201
03:32:26.719 --> 03:32:38.920
that they do for you, and you can still have

1202
03:32:39.079 --> 03:32:44.200
that attention on your thighs. Maybe notice how your thighs feel,

1203
03:32:46.360 --> 03:33:04.399
Maybe notice that they are relaxing more deeply. As you

1204
03:33:04.559 --> 03:33:09.719
focus now on the bottoms of your legs, your shins,

1205
03:33:10.639 --> 03:33:17.120
and your calf muscles. The bones between your knees and

1206
03:33:17.239 --> 03:33:24.799
your feet incorporate and of course, your ankles so important.

1207
03:33:30.319 --> 03:33:34.920
You know, anyone that's had even like the slightest sprain

1208
03:33:35.040 --> 03:33:42.000
of an ankle knows how how much we take our

1209
03:33:42.239 --> 03:33:50.760
ankles for granted. And it's kind of strange in a

1210
03:33:50.840 --> 03:33:56.399
way when you think that. You know, logically, our wrists

1211
03:33:56.559 --> 03:33:59.440
are a lot thinner than the rest of our arms,

1212
03:34:00.559 --> 03:34:04.040
which is okay, it doesn't I can't see any problem

1213
03:34:04.079 --> 03:34:08.959
with that because we're just picking stuff up by our

1214
03:34:09.079 --> 03:34:14.879
ankles so much thinner than the rest of our legs.

1215
03:34:21.319 --> 03:34:25.760
And from a physics perspective or logical even it doesn't

1216
03:34:25.799 --> 03:34:31.799
really make sense that all this weight would ultimately be

1217
03:34:32.920 --> 03:34:42.920
resting on your ankles then leading to your feet that

1218
03:34:43.520 --> 03:34:52.479
thin area, thin bone. Yeah, it does so much great work.

1219
03:34:54.639 --> 03:35:04.159
Supports us, supports our body for a lifetime, helps us

1220
03:35:04.840 --> 03:35:14.200
to balance, It helps you to get around and be mobile.

1221
03:35:20.520 --> 03:35:28.319
And there's the calf muscles. Of course, when I was younger,

1222
03:35:28.719 --> 03:35:32.079
I couldn't see the pointing calf muscles didn't seem to

1223
03:35:32.200 --> 03:35:38.120
do anything. Okay, if I walked around on tiptoes, then

1224
03:35:38.280 --> 03:35:42.040
my calf muscles get some work. But of course that's

1225
03:35:42.120 --> 03:35:46.120
not true. The calf muscles are being used whenever we

1226
03:35:46.559 --> 03:36:00.120
use their legs and your shins there to protect your

1227
03:36:00.200 --> 03:36:09.200
lower legs, shaped in a way almost as a protector

1228
03:36:09.680 --> 03:36:24.399
for the bone, leading of course to your ankles and

1229
03:36:24.520 --> 03:36:31.440
your feet. But we're not going to focus on your feet.

1230
03:36:31.520 --> 03:36:35.920
We're just going to focus on the legs. And I realize,

1231
03:36:37.959 --> 03:36:41.680
and now that I've mentioned your feet, you'll probably focus

1232
03:36:42.120 --> 03:36:45.200
on them anyway, So maybe I should focus on your

1233
03:36:45.239 --> 03:36:51.079
feet a little bit. You can have them in your

1234
03:36:51.120 --> 03:36:57.520
awareness the same as you have your thighs in your awareness.

1235
03:36:58.360 --> 03:37:02.200
Even though we haven't been focused on your thighs for

1236
03:37:02.200 --> 03:37:07.319
a few minutes and we focus in on your ankles,

1237
03:37:13.000 --> 03:37:28.200
there's still that sensation of comfort in your thighs, and

1238
03:37:28.280 --> 03:37:37.760
there's that movement of energy because the thighs hold lots

1239
03:37:37.799 --> 03:37:43.280
of different sensations. Of course, there's the muscles, the big

1240
03:37:43.680 --> 03:37:55.760
straw muscles that we have in our thighs. Put The

1241
03:37:55.959 --> 03:38:01.920
skin on the outside of the thigh, as in the

1242
03:38:02.040 --> 03:38:07.639
outside of all of our body, can be very sensitive,

1243
03:38:11.520 --> 03:38:24.719
sensitive to the touch, sensitive to temperature, and inside your

1244
03:38:24.879 --> 03:38:32.280
thighs the bones, there's the muscle, there's the blood, vessels,

1245
03:38:32.479 --> 03:38:38.280
the ar trees to all this stuff inside your thighs.

1246
03:38:42.680 --> 03:38:46.040
I guess sometimes it'd be nice if you could actually

1247
03:38:46.120 --> 03:38:53.559
put your fingers inside your thighs and a message, so

1248
03:38:53.639 --> 03:38:57.159
you can message on the outside, of course, but to

1249
03:38:57.200 --> 03:39:00.479
be able to get deep into the muscles, to be

1250
03:39:00.520 --> 03:39:05.639
able to just massage inside your thighs, message in the

1251
03:39:05.760 --> 03:39:14.719
bones of your leg massage in or the veins, just

1252
03:39:15.000 --> 03:39:27.680
gently healing your thighs and you can move down message

1253
03:39:27.760 --> 03:39:33.280
and inside your knees. Just message in those bones, but

1254
03:39:33.440 --> 03:39:40.399
with healing fingertips, spreading that healing energy deep into the

1255
03:39:40.639 --> 03:39:50.360
choice your knees. Of course, there's the back of your

1256
03:39:51.520 --> 03:39:58.120
you need. The inside crease you need is it's a

1257
03:39:58.159 --> 03:40:04.479
really sensitive area. It feels very nice when you stroke it.

1258
03:40:05.879 --> 03:40:09.239
That might be because it's an area that's not really

1259
03:40:09.440 --> 03:40:15.920
touched very often. It's almost like a hidden part, that

1260
03:40:16.239 --> 03:40:23.120
crease in your legs. It's almost like a part that

1261
03:40:24.959 --> 03:40:36.200
has a sensitivity, which is a little bit different. Of course,

1262
03:40:36.280 --> 03:40:46.719
it's protected by your legs. So you can imagine putting

1263
03:40:47.639 --> 03:40:57.479
your fingers into that crease in your legs. Fold in

1264
03:40:57.600 --> 03:41:01.520
between your legs. You can just massage with your fingertips.

1265
03:41:02.719 --> 03:41:09.520
Imagine your fingertips going inside, massage in the muscle tissue.

1266
03:41:14.120 --> 03:41:18.360
You can of course field the bones of your knees,

1267
03:41:19.920 --> 03:41:30.319
heating through your fingertips, and then as you go down

1268
03:41:33.200 --> 03:41:36.000
to your calf muscles, and that's the part I'd like

1269
03:41:36.079 --> 03:41:40.799
to be able to really put my fingertips deep inside

1270
03:41:41.559 --> 03:41:50.479
my calf muscles, massage in every single tissue of that muscle,

1271
03:41:52.079 --> 03:42:02.000
healing every part, and doing the same for my shins,

1272
03:42:05.200 --> 03:42:13.399
massage and generally stroking the bones, generally stroking them, healing

1273
03:42:13.639 --> 03:42:17.719
in a loving way, because they deserve to be treated.

1274
03:42:20.760 --> 03:42:22.639
There's the precious bones.

1275
03:42:22.319 --> 03:42:22.799
That they are.

1276
03:42:24.159 --> 03:42:27.399
Because our legs are so precious as in all the

1277
03:42:27.479 --> 03:42:32.799
other parts of our body, the more precious of any

1278
03:42:32.959 --> 03:42:47.879
chore on the planet. And when you start to think

1279
03:42:47.959 --> 03:43:00.520
about the legs in this way, it can change your perspective.

1280
03:43:03.239 --> 03:43:09.000
It might sound a bit a bit silly to start

1281
03:43:09.079 --> 03:43:15.840
with the idea of having love for your legs, showing

1282
03:43:15.879 --> 03:43:24.079
appreciation for your thighs, wanting to be able to put

1283
03:43:24.159 --> 03:43:32.719
your hands in your thighs, massage the muscles and the bones,

1284
03:43:34.559 --> 03:43:40.280
and to get your fingers deep in there, releasing all tension,

1285
03:43:43.159 --> 03:43:51.799
just to show how much you care about your legs,

1286
03:43:52.680 --> 03:43:56.440
how much you care for what your legs do for

1287
03:43:56.559 --> 03:44:10.159
you regularly, your needs, your calves your ankles. The strength

1288
03:44:10.319 --> 03:44:18.360
of your ankles, considering how thin they are compared to

1289
03:44:18.520 --> 03:44:25.200
the rest of your legs, especially your thighs. Yeah, they're

1290
03:44:25.360 --> 03:44:37.639
so strong, so flexible, absolutely amazing things. Your ankles are

1291
03:44:41.479 --> 03:44:46.559
truly a gift because of what they do for you

1292
03:44:52.040 --> 03:44:59.000
supporting all that weight. Regardless of how what weight you are,

1293
03:45:00.200 --> 03:45:04.959
even if you only ate stone, there's still a lot

1294
03:45:05.000 --> 03:45:11.639
of weight for these little ankles. Now I'm a lot

1295
03:45:11.920 --> 03:45:21.840
heavier than eight stone. Double down. Get my ankles support

1296
03:45:21.920 --> 03:45:23.760
my body all the time.

1297
03:45:27.520 --> 03:45:28.120
Whether they do.

1298
03:45:28.879 --> 03:45:31.200
Give off a sigh of relief when I sit down,

1299
03:45:33.520 --> 03:45:41.360
that's I've had my whole legs to my feet, feet

1300
03:45:41.399 --> 03:46:09.319
als go, my toes clap so happy. Your legs really

1301
03:46:10.799 --> 03:46:17.200
are amazing. And I know they're talking about. Talking about

1302
03:46:17.319 --> 03:46:24.040
your legs is probably possibly among the most most boring

1303
03:46:24.159 --> 03:46:31.680
things I've ever heard anyone say. Possibly you're boring or not.

1304
03:46:33.280 --> 03:46:48.760
Everything I said is true. Your legs are amazing. Your

1305
03:46:48.879 --> 03:47:01.440
legs deserve not just respect, they deserve to relax deeply.

1306
03:47:08.760 --> 03:47:12.079
They deserve to take some time out of the day

1307
03:47:14.280 --> 03:47:43.040
to just let go completely. Your legs really can relax

1308
03:47:50.840 --> 03:47:54.760
because the legs are so such a most you know,

1309
03:47:55.040 --> 03:48:00.959
very important part of your body when you actually likes

1310
03:48:01.079 --> 03:48:08.280
the rest of your body also naturally follows in that

1311
03:48:12.000 --> 03:48:22.840
journey of comfort, Like I feel it in my hips.

1312
03:48:24.239 --> 03:48:31.360
My hips feel really loose, and also my lower back

1313
03:48:31.440 --> 03:48:31.799
as well.

1314
03:48:33.840 --> 03:48:34.760
My lower back.

1315
03:48:34.799 --> 03:48:40.319
Really feels it feels stretched, even though I'm just sitting

1316
03:48:40.399 --> 03:48:46.399
in a chair and there's no stretching as far as

1317
03:48:46.440 --> 03:48:49.479
I'm aware that I'm doing. It's almost as if the

1318
03:48:49.639 --> 03:48:53.559
muscles are just relaxed so much that there is a

1319
03:48:53.760 --> 03:49:00.559
natural stretch as the tension has reduced.

1320
03:49:01.520 --> 03:49:02.000
A lot.

1321
03:49:18.360 --> 03:49:21.440
And I'm now going to count down from ten down

1322
03:49:21.520 --> 03:49:26.879
to one, and you can.

1323
03:49:26.840 --> 03:49:55.840
Continue to fill wonderfully relaxed ten nine eight seven six, five.

1324
03:50:00.239 --> 03:50:04.319
Four three.

1325
03:50:08.200 --> 03:50:28.959
Two one relax. So I'm just going to count down

1326
03:50:30.479 --> 03:50:35.239
five down to one, and as a countdown, if you

1327
03:50:35.399 --> 03:50:42.280
just focus on the numbers, just the numbers counting down,

1328
03:50:43.360 --> 03:50:50.760
and notice how you feel in this moment.

1329
03:50:52.200 --> 03:50:52.959
As you hear the.

1330
03:50:53.040 --> 03:51:01.079
Numbers counting down, knowing that those numbers count down represent

1331
03:51:02.120 --> 03:51:11.120
you feeling calmer, not just in your body, but also

1332
03:51:13.399 --> 03:51:20.559
relaxing your mind. Just notice how you feel. There's nothing

1333
03:51:21.280 --> 03:51:26.600
to do, there's nothing to say, there's nothing to think about.

1334
03:51:29.680 --> 03:52:08.879
Starting with number five, four three, two one.

1335
03:52:18.319 --> 03:52:18.760
How as you.

1336
03:52:18.920 --> 03:52:31.639
Notice the gradual letting go the tension in your body,

1337
03:52:35.239 --> 03:52:40.920
you may also begin to notice and be aware of

1338
03:52:41.079 --> 03:52:50.040
how your mind is starting to slow down. This is

1339
03:52:50.200 --> 03:52:56.760
just a natural thing that happens. It's not really a

1340
03:52:56.959 --> 03:53:04.040
special procedure. It's just natural because is your body relaxes,

1341
03:53:04.200 --> 03:53:09.639
your mind also starts to relax. And the more your

1342
03:53:09.760 --> 03:53:12.920
mind relaxes, the more your body relaxes. It's just a

1343
03:53:13.120 --> 03:53:25.639
continuous circle of relaxation. And there's that calmness that comes

1344
03:53:25.840 --> 03:53:33.760
from relative quietness. You know, even even if this background sounds,

1345
03:53:35.200 --> 03:53:40.120
either your side or mine is still going to be

1346
03:53:41.479 --> 03:53:45.799
quite calm. You know, you haven't got the television on,

1347
03:53:46.399 --> 03:53:50.600
there's no music in the background, unless you're listening to

1348
03:53:50.719 --> 03:53:58.399
the recorded with music. Of course, you're very likely not

1349
03:53:58.520 --> 03:54:01.520
going to be sitting in a room with people. Of

1350
03:54:01.639 --> 03:54:06.360
course you might be, but generally it's more ideal if

1351
03:54:06.360 --> 03:54:11.200
you can do this on your own, so no distractions,

1352
03:54:17.360 --> 03:54:30.319
and when you stop thinking about stuff, relaxation automatically rises.

1353
03:54:32.680 --> 03:54:43.440
A sense of comfort starts to grow, and without trying

1354
03:54:43.479 --> 03:54:52.399
to build it up into something fantastical or something magical,

1355
03:54:54.520 --> 03:55:01.600
this is just a natural process, something that it's easy

1356
03:55:04.000 --> 03:55:10.760
to accomplish. In fact, it's almost you know, the sense

1357
03:55:10.879 --> 03:55:17.680
of relaxing completely happens really when you put no effort

1358
03:55:18.040 --> 03:55:21.920
into it. It's not something that you can really force.

1359
03:55:24.520 --> 03:55:33.920
It's something that happens naturally. And part of the process

1360
03:55:34.319 --> 03:55:45.520
of this recording and others is simply two allow you

1361
03:55:47.920 --> 03:55:58.760
to take advantage of this space. This time, it's just

1362
03:56:02.959 --> 03:56:10.520
let go, to just be here, to be in tune

1363
03:56:14.200 --> 03:56:26.280
with how you feel, yet with the intention of wanting

1364
03:56:26.600 --> 03:56:38.680
to relax deeply that maybe even to fall asleep, depending

1365
03:56:38.920 --> 03:56:45.120
on what it is that you wish for yourself in

1366
03:56:45.280 --> 03:57:00.319
this moment. As we know, relaxing is the majority team

1367
03:57:01.360 --> 03:57:05.840
of the process of falling asleep. The actual falling asleep

1368
03:57:05.920 --> 03:57:12.680
part is the tiny bit at the end. The deeper

1369
03:57:14.040 --> 03:57:36.440
relaxed you become, the easier you find yourself drifting. You

1370
03:57:36.559 --> 03:57:43.559
can also if you choose stay focused on my voice

1371
03:57:45.280 --> 03:58:12.120
and really enjoy the process correct actually relaxing each muscle

1372
03:58:16.719 --> 03:58:43.600
in your body effortlessly and just observing the sensation of

1373
03:58:43.879 --> 03:58:59.879
letting go completely. This time, I'm an account from six

1374
03:59:01.079 --> 03:59:13.079
down to one, and you can notice your mind calming

1375
03:59:13.399 --> 03:59:17.760
down more with each number.

1376
03:59:19.120 --> 03:59:20.799
That you hear me say.

1377
03:59:25.479 --> 04:00:29.159
Naturally, feeling calm and slow, be peaceful, sex five four

1378
04:01:01.360 --> 04:02:39.239
three one, being aware how you mind to slowe, write down,

1379
04:02:42.520 --> 04:03:05.920
sinking deeply into relaxation. And as you focus on your mind,

1380
04:03:06.200 --> 04:03:16.159
you may notice that there are some thoughts still there,

1381
04:03:18.719 --> 04:03:28.280
maybe some stubborn thoughts that for some reason perhaps need

1382
04:03:28.360 --> 04:03:28.959
your attention.

1383
04:03:35.840 --> 04:03:37.319
That's what you can do is.

1384
04:03:42.799 --> 04:03:50.559
Send love to those thoughts. Sprinkle those thoughts.

1385
04:03:54.760 --> 04:03:55.520
With love.

1386
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My door petals from a flower. Sprinkle it over them, petals,

1387
04:04:03.280 --> 04:04:10.920
feel good love towards those thoughts, to let those thoughts smother.

1388
04:04:13.319 --> 04:04:14.879
You're not abandon the number.

1389
04:04:16.159 --> 04:04:17.520
You just need them.

1390
04:04:18.760 --> 04:04:29.799
You require them to just calm down, slow down, quiet

1391
04:04:30.200 --> 04:04:34.760
down for now.

1392
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So as you.

1393
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Focus on those remaining thoughts as we count down this

1394
04:04:48.840 --> 04:04:56.959
time from seven down to one. With each number, just

1395
04:04:57.079 --> 04:05:09.440
imagine sprinkling those flowers our petals of love, kindness, gratitude

1396
04:05:12.680 --> 04:05:22.239
over those thoughts, which will allow them to just melt

1397
04:05:22.280 --> 04:05:37.319
away and relax deeply. With every number, those thoughts will

1398
04:05:37.399 --> 04:06:32.559
become more and more relaxed. Starting with number seven six, five.

1399
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Four three.

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One.

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I'll let you now.

1402
04:08:25.680 --> 04:08:46.920
Notice how relaxed your feeling in your body. We got

1403
04:08:47.040 --> 04:09:00.719
to focus on your hands because the moment axt your

1404
04:09:00.879 --> 04:09:07.840
hands on the relax your body and mind.

1405
04:09:07.639 --> 04:09:28.760
On's you focus on your hands and your fingers.

1406
04:09:34.280 --> 04:09:39.040
There's nothing needed to be done. There's no clinching of

1407
04:09:39.360 --> 04:09:43.680
fists or dance in the fingers or anything like that.

1408
04:09:51.120 --> 04:10:05.479
It's just noticing and focusing on your hands. Let simrely

1409
04:10:05.879 --> 04:10:30.760
feel because the more relax your hands feel, the calm

1410
04:10:30.879 --> 04:10:39.840
on your mind feels, and the more comforts you feel

1411
04:10:41.920 --> 04:10:43.399
throughout your body.

1412
04:10:49.319 --> 04:10:52.479
Jee may.

1413
04:10:54.760 --> 04:11:37.840
Have already noticed you mind is starting to dress. Like said,

1414
04:11:41.879 --> 04:11:56.559
just on your hands and fingers, alm and cheap experience

1415
04:11:59.239 --> 04:12:06.680
a real deepening of that relaxation in your hands and

1416
04:12:06.959 --> 04:12:18.319
fingers or relaxed.

1417
04:12:23.440 --> 04:12:24.920
With each number.

1418
04:12:32.479 --> 04:12:44.959
From eight down to one, we can almost feel that

1419
04:12:45.840 --> 04:12:55.600
healing relax energy spread it into your hands and fingers,

1420
04:12:58.959 --> 04:13:21.159
becoming relaxing with each number going down.

1421
04:13:23.040 --> 04:13:30.840
Eight down to one to drift down.

1422
04:13:34.239 --> 04:13:53.959
Drifting again started with number eight.

1423
04:14:08.799 --> 04:17:47.760
Seven three, just being here now, nothing to think about,

1424
04:17:49.520 --> 04:17:52.680
nothing to do, nothing to say.

1425
04:17:57.200 --> 04:18:08.959
Everything just feels calm. This is your natural state of being.

1426
04:18:12.639 --> 04:18:18.000
This is how you just normally feel when you take

1427
04:18:18.079 --> 04:18:21.959
away all that other stuff.

1428
04:18:24.000 --> 04:18:24.879
That we add.

1429
04:18:26.399 --> 04:18:28.840
And thinks, like stress and way.

1430
04:18:32.000 --> 04:18:44.479
O thinking, anxiety and tension generally thinking about stuff.

1431
04:18:46.559 --> 04:18:48.000
You take that away.

1432
04:18:49.079 --> 04:18:49.840
This is what we do.

1433
04:18:50.639 --> 04:18:51.520
What we do now.

1434
04:18:57.959 --> 04:19:09.200
You left with a real sense of peacefulness which comes

1435
04:19:09.360 --> 04:19:18.680
to you very quickly because absolutly it's just a feeling,

1436
04:19:23.079 --> 04:19:30.840
a feeling and comfort a most as if you've got

1437
04:19:30.879 --> 04:19:42.840
inside yourself. You've found a special place where everything is

1438
04:19:43.159 --> 04:19:51.959
basil place Weeking in the film, relaxed and your actual

1439
04:19:54.159 --> 04:20:05.799
sense of confident a place week be here we can

1440
04:20:06.559 --> 04:20:13.280
accept yourselfwhere and you are, the place where you're not

1441
04:20:13.520 --> 04:20:26.440
trying to please anybody else, place where you can actually

1442
04:20:29.799 --> 04:20:34.760
not just love yourself, but in some ways more importantly,

1443
04:20:35.360 --> 04:20:41.079
you can like yourself, appreciate.

1444
04:20:41.840 --> 04:20:53.559
Who you are, a sense of gratitude.

1445
04:20:56.600 --> 04:21:06.879
See the air around here, that's also a.

1446
04:21:07.040 --> 04:21:17.120
Place where you can actually feel the healing energy soaking

1447
04:21:17.479 --> 04:21:35.280
into your body. Healing energy soaking into your body, A

1448
04:21:35.559 --> 04:21:46.399
healing energy spreads through your vece, traveling to each every

1449
04:21:46.719 --> 04:21:57.959
single part of your body. You start to realize to

1450
04:21:58.200 --> 04:22:05.559
actually that energy it's not just entered into your brain,

1451
04:22:08.360 --> 04:22:20.600
it's become part of your brain. The spinal fluid is

1452
04:22:20.719 --> 04:22:31.600
now mixed with healing energy, not just allowing you to

1453
04:22:31.959 --> 04:22:39.600
feel so much more relaxed and healthy. In this moment,

1454
04:22:44.079 --> 04:22:53.479
but also you start to realize that actually, what's happening

1455
04:22:53.760 --> 04:23:02.280
now without a healing, relaxing energy spreading through your body

1456
04:23:04.319 --> 04:23:15.000
is actually changing your life. It's actually changing the way

1457
04:23:15.120 --> 04:23:21.719
you're going to feel not just now, but tomorrow and

1458
04:23:21.840 --> 04:23:30.760
the next day. As your health improves, not just your

1459
04:23:30.879 --> 04:23:38.639
physical health, but your mental health. Things that used to

1460
04:23:38.799 --> 04:23:44.920
bother you in the past, for some reason, no longer

1461
04:23:46.239 --> 04:23:52.760
have the effect that they used to because something has

1462
04:23:53.239 --> 04:24:06.239
changed deep within you. Maybe things that used to cause

1463
04:24:06.360 --> 04:24:18.360
you to feel anger no longer have that power to

1464
04:24:18.479 --> 04:24:24.120
control you the way they seem to be able to before.

1465
04:24:27.799 --> 04:24:38.600
As you realize that you're the one who decides what

1466
04:24:38.959 --> 04:24:50.639
affects you, you're the one who decides to feel relaxed

1467
04:24:51.479 --> 04:24:52.319
and calm.

1468
04:24:53.719 --> 04:24:55.920
When you choose.

1469
04:24:59.120 --> 04:25:13.639
To enjoy noticing these natural developments and healing continue to

1470
04:25:13.840 --> 04:25:28.200
grow and improve your life day by day, including of course,

1471
04:25:28.280 --> 04:25:45.799
your ability to relax so much easier than sleeping. It's

1472
04:25:45.879 --> 04:25:56.200
the most natural thing in the world to you because

1473
04:25:56.440 --> 04:25:58.799
for in the sleep is something.

1474
04:25:58.520 --> 04:25:59.639
That you've done.

1475
04:26:02.440 --> 04:26:04.040
So many times.

1476
04:26:05.360 --> 04:26:11.000
In your life, and you know that you were born,

1477
04:26:12.479 --> 04:26:13.479
as we all were.

1478
04:26:14.159 --> 04:26:19.559
With the ability to fall asleep, but naturally.

1479
04:26:23.319 --> 04:26:25.479
We were born with.

1480
04:26:26.000 --> 04:26:38.440
That ability to just drift off into a deep, healing sleep.

1481
04:26:44.399 --> 04:26:49.159
Even when we're kids, sometimes we will fall asleep when

1482
04:26:49.200 --> 04:26:53.840
we don't even want to try tell us stay awake.

1483
04:26:55.239 --> 04:26:58.680
Maybe it's a birthday in the morning though it's Christmas,

1484
04:26:58.920 --> 04:27:02.440
or the day or something we look forward to and

1485
04:27:02.520 --> 04:27:03.559
don't want to go to sleep.

1486
04:27:05.840 --> 04:27:10.760
But the more you want to stay awake, the more

1487
04:27:11.040 --> 04:27:12.559
we just start to drift.

1488
04:27:16.680 --> 04:27:21.200
And the more you fights drifting. We try to stop

1489
04:27:21.280 --> 04:27:26.959
yourself and drift in a sleap the depot and strongerout

1490
04:27:27.079 --> 04:27:38.479
drifting becomes because we're born not just with the need

1491
04:27:39.799 --> 04:27:47.879
to relax deeply and to naturally fall asleep, but it's

1492
04:27:48.000 --> 04:28:02.000
our birth right, it's part of our DNA, and sometimes

1493
04:28:02.200 --> 04:28:07.559
as we get older in life, perhaps at times we

1494
04:28:07.920 --> 04:28:24.040
have forgotten relaxing completely. It's not only a wonderfully pleasant experience,

1495
04:28:29.840 --> 04:28:31.799
it's also really easy.

1496
04:28:43.159 --> 04:28:50.639
It's very, very easy to let go, because that's all

1497
04:28:50.719 --> 04:28:51.000
it is.

1498
04:28:51.159 --> 04:28:51.680
It's just.

1499
04:28:55.200 --> 04:29:06.600
Deciding to let go. And when you press the play

1500
04:29:06.719 --> 04:29:16.840
button on my recordings, you have given a permission from

1501
04:29:16.920 --> 04:29:25.319
my voice to reaction. When you press that play button,

1502
04:29:26.319 --> 04:29:34.760
you have given me permission for my words to effect

1503
04:29:37.239 --> 04:29:49.159
you in a positive openly a positive way, opening up.

1504
04:29:54.280 --> 04:29:55.200
Your mind.

1505
04:29:56.719 --> 04:30:07.319
To useful and healing suggestions.

1506
04:30:11.879 --> 04:30:12.520
They can have.

1507
04:30:17.079 --> 04:30:19.719
Such an amazing effect.

1508
04:30:22.000 --> 04:30:22.719
On how you.

1509
04:30:22.959 --> 04:30:35.920
Feel right now, as well as those changes that continue

1510
04:30:37.879 --> 04:30:47.959
long after the recording ends. Those changes within you, they

1511
04:30:48.120 --> 04:31:02.360
continue to flourish and grow, transforming your life in positive,

1512
04:31:04.159 --> 04:31:15.280
beautiful way, allowing you to move forward in life in

1513
04:31:15.440 --> 04:31:32.879
the direction that you choose for yourself. This feeling, this

1514
04:31:33.120 --> 04:31:48.719
feeling that you can experience of safety, comfort, calmness. This

1515
04:31:49.000 --> 04:32:10.559
feels so nice. It's a healthy place to be, and

1516
04:32:10.760 --> 04:32:28.559
that positivity grows within you in every day moving forward,

1517
04:32:32.360 --> 04:32:43.319
you had to find that you're moreb axed physically and

1518
04:32:43.520 --> 04:32:52.200
in your mind it's more relaxed. And it's not that

1519
04:32:52.319 --> 04:32:57.879
you're thinking slower, it's just that your mind would be

1520
04:32:58.120 --> 04:33:09.479
less if you're locker dun if unnecessary negativity, because from

1521
04:33:09.560 --> 04:33:14.319
now on, your mind rejects negativity.

1522
04:33:18.319 --> 04:33:20.279
From now on, you're going to.

1523
04:33:20.400 --> 04:33:31.840
Start noticing when negativity arises. You can just say stop,

1524
04:33:36.880 --> 04:33:42.080
stop and then negativity.

1525
04:33:43.799 --> 04:33:46.880
Will turn around and leave you alone.

1526
04:33:54.880 --> 04:34:13.439
Stop and then the gatunity would disappear. And did you

1527
04:34:13.720 --> 04:34:22.799
notice that you feel way more relaxed than you probably expected.

1528
04:34:29.000 --> 04:34:30.119
You can now.

1529
04:34:33.479 --> 04:34:39.319
Congratulate yourself because you're the person that has done this.

1530
04:34:41.080 --> 04:34:43.880
You're the one that.

1531
04:34:43.919 --> 04:34:51.959
Has opened your mind up to the simple facts, and

1532
04:34:52.119 --> 04:34:56.400
you can feel more relaxed in your body.

1533
04:34:56.840 --> 04:35:06.119
And in your mind. You've opened your mind up to

1534
04:35:08.479 --> 04:35:10.680
the birthright of being able to just.

1535
04:35:13.360 --> 04:35:28.200
Fall asleep easily when you choose. And that's a nice feeling,

1536
04:35:29.799 --> 04:35:30.599
don't you think.

1537
04:35:33.159 --> 04:35:33.880
Feels nice?

1538
04:35:34.000 --> 04:35:34.400
Doesn't it.

1539
04:35:37.520 --> 04:35:39.840
To feel calm?

1540
04:35:41.560 --> 04:35:46.159
For here the energy is spreading through your body in

1541
04:35:46.279 --> 04:36:02.279
your mind to spend time a special place where negativity

1542
04:36:03.799 --> 04:36:16.680
can no longer enter. Negativity is banned. It's bad, it's

1543
04:36:16.799 --> 04:36:17.919
not allowed entry.

1544
04:36:20.520 --> 04:36:24.319
It doesn't doesn't this doesn't deserve to be here. It

1545
04:36:24.400 --> 04:36:25.759
doesn't been long here.

1546
04:36:29.520 --> 04:36:44.360
Negativity has no place in your life, which makes room

1547
04:36:44.560 --> 04:36:53.799
for more comfort or heath, or relaxation.

1548
04:36:57.959 --> 04:36:58.520
Or peace.

1549
04:37:15.639 --> 04:37:16.880
Feels nice to the.

1550
04:37:18.799 --> 04:37:23.000
Just they go.

1551
04:37:26.639 --> 04:37:27.279
Everything.

1552
04:37:41.240 --> 04:37:45.279
I count down now from twenty down to one.

1553
04:37:48.720 --> 04:38:05.400
He can continue to relax, cheese to sleep. Giveny number,

1554
04:38:08.080 --> 04:38:20.560
he will saved. Phil twice is relaxed. Or if you choose,

1555
04:38:20.720 --> 04:38:24.360
you can film twice sleeping.

1556
04:38:30.759 --> 04:38:37.400
Now twenty.

1557
04:38:46.040 --> 04:39:27.439
Ninety eighteen seventeen six stay fifty fo.

1558
04:40:02.319 --> 04:40:11.040
Two nine.

1559
04:40:18.639 --> 04:40:44.799
Eight seven six five.

1560
04:41:25.439 --> 04:41:26.880
This is your time.

1561
04:41:29.400 --> 04:41:36.000
To just take a break, your time.

1562
04:41:38.959 --> 04:41:55.279
Relax, to allow your mind to slide down, to give

1563
04:41:55.360 --> 04:41:57.279
yourself permission.

1564
04:42:01.479 --> 04:42:03.240
To take a break.

1565
04:42:07.880 --> 04:42:15.840
From everything, and Judie only person.

1566
04:42:16.240 --> 04:42:22.400
That can make that decision, the only person that can

1567
04:42:22.479 --> 04:42:23.720
actually tell you why.

1568
04:42:28.840 --> 04:42:38.279
Just relax, to just.

1569
04:42:41.959 --> 04:42:53.680
Take some time off so that you can.

1570
04:42:54.240 --> 04:42:59.680
Focus on your body, get in touch with how you.

1571
04:43:01.720 --> 04:43:11.400
Physically and in.

1572
04:43:11.479 --> 04:43:12.680
The process of.

1573
04:43:15.520 --> 04:43:20.279
Its prey scared way to focus on different parts of

1574
04:43:20.360 --> 04:43:34.360
your body, those parts you focus on and observed, even

1575
04:43:34.479 --> 04:43:35.240
though you're.

1576
04:43:35.119 --> 04:43:39.840
Not purposely requesting.

1577
04:43:41.560 --> 04:43:47.599
Those parts of you're putting into acts. It's kind of expected.

1578
04:43:49.240 --> 04:43:55.040
You expect when you listen to my voice to feel.

1579
04:43:56.439 --> 04:44:09.959
Words naturally, because when you're listening to me, your attention

1580
04:44:12.159 --> 04:44:13.520
it's focused.

1581
04:44:14.759 --> 04:44:23.479
On my words and as my words guid you.

1582
04:44:25.919 --> 04:44:27.000
To focus.

1583
04:44:30.919 --> 04:44:33.200
On doing as parts of your body.

1584
04:44:36.799 --> 04:44:38.479
The focus increases.

1585
04:44:45.639 --> 04:44:46.840
It's actually.

1586
04:44:49.319 --> 04:45:07.759
Can't your mind, your w calms down, body.

1587
04:45:09.520 --> 04:45:46.560
Relaxes. By calms down, relaxes, the red started to buckness

1588
04:45:46.959 --> 04:45:47.759
on your body.

1589
04:45:54.159 --> 04:46:11.599
Feel that the energy spreading through hoody, pushing out stress,

1590
04:46:12.759 --> 04:46:32.959
attention pods for good skins, blood, the modes and such, money,

1591
04:46:33.200 --> 04:46:48.360
the muscles, the fact everything on your body it's filled back.

1592
04:46:57.599 --> 04:46:58.479
The brain.

1593
04:47:02.840 --> 04:47:13.880
Filled, the energy feed and the.

1594
04:47:14.000 --> 04:47:17.959
Confidence relaxation.

1595
04:47:20.799 --> 04:47:47.279
Incases, deep increases in no way mid starts to feel.

1596
04:47:50.560 --> 04:47:59.159
Perhaps speak to Rousey because it spelled.

1597
04:48:03.360 --> 04:48:05.479
The stars.

1598
04:48:07.759 --> 04:48:23.279
To drive. If that's what's a mega So you're listening

1599
04:48:23.560 --> 04:48:29.720
to this most cove section, that's what.

1600
04:48:32.439 --> 04:48:33.759
Who need this.

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Slave that takes me to my dads? That's also kuse

1602
04:48:54.360 --> 04:49:04.319
why I spell my butter because listened to me kill

1603
04:49:04.599 --> 04:49:12.799
a body mind. The facts.

1604
04:49:17.479 --> 04:49:17.840
Give the.

1605
04:49:21.240 --> 04:49:34.840
Wand to dies take. You have to say, if that's

1606
04:49:35.159 --> 04:50:14.240
what he wants, focus turn thoughts jus to fancasy, different

1607
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voice of different spots. Expect it's a specially the scenes

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two contracts schools to speakest to S S S SUPs

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fis Sis six Nature the future supposs.

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S S S S.

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Shore Stich Jesus s

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The