Sept. 19, 2025

(music) #1434 Let me bore you to sleep | Q&A Friday

(music) #1434 Let me bore you to sleep | Q&A Friday

👉 "#1434 Let Me Bore You to Sleep Q&A Friday – Jason Newland – 19th September 2025" Impact: Listener stats dropped, and Jason fears many fans aren’t aware of the uploads' disappearance. - Website Changes: - He restored his primary site,...

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👉 "#1434 Let Me Bore You to Sleep Q&A Friday – Jason Newland – 19th September 2025"

Impact: Listener stats dropped, and Jason fears many fans aren’t aware of the uploads' disappearance.

  • Website Changes:
    • He restored his primary site, JasonNewland.com, with 1,000 of the most recent episodes.
    • He discontinued LetMeBoreYouToSleep.com, citing confusion and redundancy.
    • Now users can stream 6 versions of each recording (e.g., with/without music, extended versions).
  • Distribution: Some syncing issues with Spotify remain.
❓Q&A SECTION HIGHLIGHTS 🔹 1. “What do you do for downtime besides walking and recording?”
  • Boxing and walking Vinnie (his dog) are daily routines.
  • TV & movies are his go-to relaxation tools—especially binge-watching series.
  • Not much time for anything else when he’s busy making recordings.
🔹 2. “Are you happy?”
  • He finds this question difficult.
  • Doesn’t provide a clear answer—seems reflective and ambiguous.
🔹 3. “Have you ever collected anything?” Jason gives an epic, sprawling answer that spans decades. Key collections include:
  • Comics as a child: The Dandy, Look-In
  • Time Out magazines in London
  • Books (science fiction, Star Trek, Wilt, beat generation, philosophy, Buddhism, psychology)
  • Stand-up comedy: LPs, videos, cassettes (George Carlin, Richard Pryor, Bill Cosby, Steve Martin, Eddie Murphy, Lenny Bruce, etc.)
  • Top Trumps cards (as a kid, but had no one to play with)
  • Hypnosis & therapy books (later tied into his professional interest)
  • Audio recordings: NLP, self-help, meditation
  • Personal journals: 45-50 handwritten journals over 25 years (sadly destroyed)
He details many transitions in life, including moving frequently, being evicted, and repeatedly losing his possessions and collections. 🔹 4. “How’s your dad?”
  • Jason says his dad is doing well, recovering energy after treatment for a health condition.
  • Recently met up with Jason and his brother.
  • Jason notes how rare it is for all of them to be together, especially outside their hometown.
🔹 5. “Have you ever done Tai Chi or Qigong? Thoughts on meditation?”
  • Yes to both, lightly practiced at a Buddhist center.
  • Strong preference for walking meditation:
    • Focuses on breath, balance, awareness of surroundings.
    • Helps manage chronic back pain.
    • Uses walking time with Vinnie as a form of mindfulness.
  • He finds seated meditation uncomfortable due to back issues.
  • Expresses appreciation for slow movement practices like Qigong and Tai Chi, especially their meditative elements.
🔹 6. “Are older British homes more haunted? Do you think your flat is haunted?”
  • Doesn’t believe in ghosts per se, but:
    • Remembers feeling uneasy in his childhood home.
    • Recounts a strange experience with a carpet rising on its own.
  • Acknowledges that there's more energy in the world than humans can perceive.
  • Mostly jokes that his flat is haunted by Vinnie (his dog) and formerly by Andre (his ferret).
  • Notes that noisy neighbors are more disturbing than ghosts.
🛒 BONUS: Mini Rant About Shampoo (1:15:30)
  • Ordered 10 bottles of shampoo via Uber Eats.
  • Only received 1 bottle.
  • Cue: "Never been so angry!"
🧘‍♂️ TONE & STYLE Jason’s style remains:
  • Meandering and reflective
  • Occasionally funny and self-deprecating
  • Deeply personal, often nostalgic
  • Gentle and soothing despite the tangents
🧠 THEMES
  • Technological frustration
  • Nostalgia and memory
  • Minimalism vs. materialism
  • Self-reflection and growth
  • Mental and physical wellness
  • Gentle humor amidst daily chaos


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Hello, and welcome to Jasondewland dot com. My name's Jason

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Newland and this is let me buoy to sleep. It's

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also que and Friday. It is. It's qur and a Friday, everybody.

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So it's Friday, the nineteenth of September two thousand and

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twenty five. It is three point fifty three pm. And

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please only listen when you can safely close your eyes.

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So before I get on with the questions, because there

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isn't many, nor many questions, very few questions today. There's

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been a few problems with Apple podcasts. Just I'm not

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laughing at them. Just it's ridiculous. Some of the stuff

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that's I kind of don't know why. So it all started,

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we didn't start, but and kindly let me know, let

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me know some two days ago that the new recordings

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are not showing up on Apple podcasts anymore. There's no

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reason why they're not showing up. I couldn't figure it out.

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So I refreshed them and did everything I could try

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and do. They still weren't giving me the latest recordings.

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And I really spent ages on it trying to figure

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out what's wrong, why it wasn't working, and all that stuff.

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In the end, I had to delete them or put

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them all into archive mode and then re redo it

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on Apple Podcasts. So each podcast I've got, which is

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how many podcasts, I've got one, two, three, four, five,

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six No one one, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, ten, eleven, twelve,

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So I think there's twelve podcasts. I've not done all

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of them, but I've re not uploaded, but submitted, resubmitted

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the twelve podcasts onto Apple Podcasts, which is kind of

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like stying all over the game, which is frustrating, and

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it significantly affected my stats. So I guess I'm not

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saying I've lost the listeners, but the listeners may not

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be aware of the problems I've had with the Apple podcasts,

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So a lot of people may just maybe thousands out

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there that just don't know that. I have not released

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any new recordings since the seventeenth, not the seventeenth, since

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the since I don't know whatever day it was, it

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was about a week ago. Now I have done it,

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redone it all whether or not it's going to work

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or not, because I've tested them. So it's just got

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a bit confusing for me as well. So I've been

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working on it. So what I've done is I've gone

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back into it and uploaded a new version of each one.

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So according to this, so let me boy to Sleep

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is working fine now under the new one. And I

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also did, oh it's not available. Okay, all right, I'm

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gonna have to add something. So all the pages, all

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the all the podcasts are now up and running. They

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should be. What I've also done is just look, I

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think I've kind of not only if I confuse myself,

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but I think I've confused people with all the changes

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unfortunately I kind of have to do this because Apple

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podcast is my main source of listeners. I'm hoping that

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everyone kind of will find them. So what I've done

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is my main website, Jason Newland dot com is now

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up and running properly again as a podcast. So if

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you go on there, it's got a thousand episodes. So

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the latest thousand episodes are available. So there's eighty four

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pages and there's a thousand one two three, four, eight, nine, ten, eleven, twelve.

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twelve times by eighty four wherever that is? So ten

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times by eighties, eight hundred, isn't it so? Yeah, like

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a thousand or whatever. I don't think it's going to

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go all the way back to every episode. So what

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the podcast for my hypnosis A Sleeping Deeply, which has

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every recording I do is on there, including all the

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different versions, you know, the without music, with music, five ten,

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have a look to see how far back it goes.

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Some people in the gardens. Then he was barking a

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minute ago, but hopefully he won't be. In a minute

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he will calm down. I think he's I've closed the window,

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but there's not much more I can really do do. Yeah,

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so this, I think the thing is with this, how

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many episodes on nine and seventy episodes? So I've got

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a thousand on my website. So what I'm going to

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do is I'm going to put a page where you

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can link to. In fact, you can go to the

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actual website. I think via here it should be able

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to subscribe Apple Podcast, Apple podcast, so you can go

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to the Apple Now it's just all over the place.

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I don't know, but you should be able to see

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it on spreak as well, so I'll figure that out.

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I'll get it sorted. But at the moment, you can

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actually just listen to Late's recordings on there. It's a

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podcast now like it was before. It's a little bit

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different to before, but it is a podcast. So you

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can just go to Jasonnewland dot com and you can

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listen to six versions of the last recording, or six

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versions of the one before that, and before that and

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before then, all the way back to second of April

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this year. A thousand recordings since the second of April,

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but that does include the six different versions, but still

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quite a lot. So yeah, it makes it a little

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bit easier. You can use it on your phone, you

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can use it on a laptop, whichever way you want

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to do it. And for example, I'll just play you know,

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on mute, moot, and I'll click on it and it

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should pull up right. It also pulls up all the

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information about it as well, and there is a link

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Hypnosis are Sleeping deeply. Okay, Well it's not given me

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a link to the speaker page. Well hopefully, Okay. The

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other thing is I've got rid of the let Me Boy,

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the sleep dot com website. I just figured, what do

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I need two websites for one's enough? And it seemed

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like a good idea at the time when I did it.

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But if anything, I think just annoyed people because I

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got rid of the Jasonneuland dot com, which had been

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around for twenty years, and at least you knew how

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to find me. You know, if if all the apps

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go down or all the the podcast you know, sharing

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platforms go down, you can at least listen to me

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on my website. So it's it's handy. Does it allow

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us to open on Spotify? Is it open on Spotify? Okay?

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So it's not completely syncd up, but it's it's okay.

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I think it's doing its job, and I'll try and

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make a few changes along the way to update it

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make it a little bit better. But that's it. Really.

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What else? Why is it going so slow? Yeah? One, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, ten, eleven,

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twelve podcasts. There's like one hundred and one shows on

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my Apple podcasts archived from over the last up blimey

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however many years. So yeah, so the first time I've

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archived before the deleted stuff. But this was because it

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needs to be done. I think basically Apple podcasts got confused.

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I'm using a confused word a lot. I think maybe

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I'm just the only one that got confused. It don't

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take much my for the end, so I should also

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say welcome to Karen who's joined Jason Newland's boring group

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on Facebook, and if you'd like to join then please do.

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That'd be brilliant. We love to have you, and that

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I do believes all that information. It's you know, it

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might be a little bit annoying. I do apologize, but

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you know, it is what it is. It's all done now.

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I just need to do a little bit of sinking

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up and hopefully, hopefully fingers crossed, when I upload this

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it will update on the Apple Podcasts. If it doesn't,

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gonna I just just hope it does. Yeah. So other

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than that, things have been a bit weird the last

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couple of days, but I won't go into that. It's

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just you know a few strange things around here. So

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I'm going to start off with Ben and just apologize

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for the noisy people outside. In fact, i'm gonna do

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I'm gonna draw the curtains. See if I can block

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some of that noise out. There's still a little window opens.

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I closed that, and I've drawn the curtains over. I've

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got these sound deadening curtains. I hope that they're gonna

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don't make any difference. At least I'm giving it a

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always walking the dog by making recordings? What's Jason do

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for himself apart from boxing? As he it's weird talk

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about it my third person. What's my downtime? My downtime

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right now is wanting that noise to stop outside. That's

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my main focus. Screech, squeaky's out there. So it's very,

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very very noisy. Okay, my downtime I do I like

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to I would say boxing my downtime. But so I'm

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taking Vinnie out usually three times a day. Sometimes if

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I make a lot of recordings, I'll be you know

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the days when I'd just make three recordings in a day,

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which is a lot. Not recently, but I have done

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it quite a few times. And what do I do.

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I like to watch a movie, especially if it's one

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that I've been looking forward to watching, like a new

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release or a new season of a TV show that's

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come out. Sometimes if I get my teeth into a

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TV show, I will watch. I'm not saying I binge watch,

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but I will definitely watch a episodes. And if I

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can get into it and the whole seasons done and finished,

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I'll get through the entire lot within you know, maybe

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a month. So I might end up watching two, three,

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four episodes a day, but I won't sit all day

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watching it. I'm not going to do like eight hours

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straight watching TV. Generally I have done in the past,

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but not not for a long time. Second, also, are

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you happy? That's a difficult question to ask. I've got

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no idea how to answer that question. Third, have you

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ever collected anything? Oh? I have I have? Let's go

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for all the things I've collected when I was a kid.

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When I was a kid, I used to collect, So

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I used to get the two different comics every week

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the Dandy and Looking, and I used to collect them.

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So although I'd get them every week, i'd also collect them,

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and sometimes i'd get them put them all in order.

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I'd sit in the toilet. I sit on the toilet.

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I remember once my oldest brother was watching I Think

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the fa Cup on a Saturday afternoon and I went

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into the downstairs toilet and organized all of my comics

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in order, like by date. I quite enjoyed that, and

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I did the same thing when I moved to London.

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I time Out magazine every week. Was it a Thursday

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or was it a Tuesday. But I'd buy it every

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week and I had about three years worth collected, big

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massive old pile. That's one hundred and fifty magazines. So yeah,

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I collected them for a few years. I when I

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was at school, I used to collect books. I don't

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think it was oh yeah, I used to, I suppose

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because you know, finances were limited with school. I didn't

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like have a huge amount of books, but I did

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have a bookshelf for of paperbacks and older also I

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had hardback books and stuff as well. And I used

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to collect sign fiction books for a while because they

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want there's a lot of rude bits in them. It's

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the truth, you know. They have lots of adult scenes

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in these books. And yeah, I enjoyed that. I collected

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the Wilt books as well because I found them hilarious.

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So Wilt is if you've never heard of Wilt, w

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I l t. There's a writer they wrote, wrote for

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quite a few books based on this character, and she

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just funny. It's really funny. What other things I used

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to collect a lot of books. I went through a

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period when I collected and read Trek books like I

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was almost obsessed with them. And these were adventures from

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Star Trek like the original TV show, but not a

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TV show, if that makes sense. It was like extra

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stories extra adventures, which maybe is it came before Star

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Trek TV show, did I don't know, Gene Roddenberry or whatever,

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But there was loads of those. I used to read

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a lot of those, especially when I was feeling anti

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social at school and I didn't I go through periods

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when I didn't want to be around anyone. I'd be

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near anyone, so I would hide and read a book

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during lunch break. So that was a thing I remember.

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I remember sitting outside it was behind the because we

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all had these form rooms where we'd have to sort

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of congregate the beginning and the beginning of the day,

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and also after lunch and maybe even like at the

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end of the day. I can't remember, but one year

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I was there and it was I think it was

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the science lab. It's one of the science labs I

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was in, and so it had an exit out of

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the back as well. It's in the front. I guess

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the fire exit was stairs and everything. So I used

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to sit outside the back, got the fire exit door

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and going that way, going in out that way, because

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that wasn't the the exit that most people used, so

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I'd hide and just sit on right near the stairwell.

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So I just remember that, reading, reading the old Star

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Trek books other things. I went through a period when

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I was when I got into karate. Well, yeah, martial arts.

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I collected magazines. I can't even remember the name of

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the magazines, but martial arts magazines, martial arts books, hung

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Fu books, exercise books, books about Bruce Lee, and various

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martial arts paraphernalia like nunchucks and throwing stars and all

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the standard stuff that kids would kind of perhaps get

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back then. And yeah, that's definitely something I used to

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used to collect. Trying to think I used to I

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went through a period when I was really into Yeah,

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I'm just trying to think when I was a kid,

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what other things I do? Oh, I remember when I

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worked in the bakery when I was a kid. The

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first bakery I worked in, I worked all through the summer,

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so I was doing five or six mornings a week.

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I mean I could have done, you know, seven, but

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I think I probably did five or six and every

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because I only worked till like lunchtime, from six till

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twelve or something. I'd come home and I'd go and

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buy these top Trump cards that cost a pound or something,

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and I'd buy them. I had to buy something, and

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I ended up clickeding these. I got loads of them,

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but I had no one to play them with. So

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it was top Trump cars and top trunk motorbikes and

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top Trump planes and stuff like that. It was kind

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of pointless, really, but that's what I did. That's what

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I did. What would have been used for is I

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had collected clothes, like nice clothes so that I could looked,

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could have been like fashionable. That would have helped me

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in so many ways that I had no idea, Like

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if only i'd kind of had a clue back then,

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because I could have bought myself, you know, a pair

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of trousers, nice pair of shoes, you're fashionable stuff. I mean,

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not like for school as well, but something that would

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look good, even like a white shirt. You know, there's

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a white shirt which for school, but then you got

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you can get a really nice white shirt, you know, proper.

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You know, there's difference in clothes. I don't know why

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I'm trying to explain that, but there was nothing wrong

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with the clothes I was wearing. I just could have

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put a bit of effort in myself because I could.

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At the time, I had a little bit of money

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coming in from the jobs, so that that would have

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been possibly a better way to spend my money. Ah, well,

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it matter then. I when I got to my teat

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like leaving school, I did, I mean, I collected I

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had like quite a good tape collection of music albums

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and stuff. So I had probably a couple of carrier

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bag falls, maybe three carrybag balls of tapes, so there

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was quite a few. But some of those were carried

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on from when I was a kid as well, so

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I'd had a lot of those. But then when I

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got to probably in nineteen eighty nine, I started collecting

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comedy videos, like stand up comedy videos. In nineteen eighty nine,

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during in fact, it might might have been nineteen eighty eight,

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it might have been, but I started collecting live stand

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up comedy shows, live videos Robin William, Steve Martin, There's

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so many Emo Phillips, Steve Wright or Steven Wright, Eddie Murphy,

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as well as like Burning Manning, Roy, Chubby Brown, you know,

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Jasper Carrot. Any comedy, live comedy show I could get,

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I did any stand up show I would get. So

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I had quite a nice collection of those. It wasn't

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so much that I was collecting them. I just I

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suppose I was collecting them, but it didn't Maybe yeah,

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I was collecting them without realizing, not thinking about it.

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I just wanted to watch them. And then I was

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still collecting, Yeah, live stand up albums in nineteen eighty

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nine and more videos, but that's when it turned into

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a collection. So nineteen eighty nine, I was buying albums

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and audio tapes of stand up comedians at this point,

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mainly from American stand ups that I'd never heard of.

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I mean I already had stuff from Richard Pryor. So

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this is nineteen ninety so I was getting stuff from

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and I was going to second nd shops as well

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as traveling up to London to get to like the

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big stores, the big music stores like Vergin, HMV and

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what's another one the other record shop think what it's called.

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But there was three main record shops in the West

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End of London which had its own stand up comedy

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section specifically, but not just American, but a lot of

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American stuff. So I kind of discovered Lenny Bruce, George Carlin,

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Andrew dyas Clay, Sam Kinnerson. Then it was Roddy Dangerfield

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that I already knew about anyway, because he was already

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famous in this country for a long time. Bill Cosby,

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Richard Pryor. I think I already had Richard Price's videos

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and Bill Cosby. I had Bill's Cosby's the one way

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he turns fifty and so he's just sitting on a stool,

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and I didn't realize that he had loads of albums

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and stuff. This is Bill Cosby. Yeah, so I had

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quite a few albums of his. I had all of

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Richard Pryor's albums, all of Richard Prior's live performances, including

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one that's quite quite rare. I don't know that anymore,

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but it's probably on YouTube anyway. What else. Yeah, I

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had really good collection, really nice collection, and I spent

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quite a few months just pretty much all my money

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went on that when I was working, and just all

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my money went on getting new albums because I wanted to.

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I decided to sort of try and be a comedian,

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stand up comedian, and this was kind of this is

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part of that compulse of thing, and this is part

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of the whole excitement of wanting to do it. And

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I suppose thinking if I listened to other people, like

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the best comedians in the world, what was some of

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the best in the world, it would rub off on me.

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But it didn't. It really didn't. But hey, it was

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worth a try, wasn't it. After that, when I moved

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so I sold all that stuff. But then I moved

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to London and I got I started collecting comedy tapes

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like Richard Pryor, George Carlin. George Carlin was kind of

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my favorite really for a while. It just made me

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laugh so much. But I didn't collect collector. I just

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had some. But then when I moved to London, I

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really started collecting books again. I also at this time

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was collecting journals that I was writing, So I was

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writing journals every day and over like a twenty five

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year period, I had about forty five fifty journals, like

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pads full of me, my writings and my life and

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my thoughts and stuff. That's all destroyed a few years back,

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and I think I got really more into buying books,

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collecting books, but reading them. Yeah, so anything, not just

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comedy books. But I really got into the big generation.

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I also used to read Time Out and find out

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what the latest popular book was, and I ended up

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reading that as well. So you know, I had quite

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a large book collection. They all just stacked up on

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top of each other against the wall. Had a lot

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of books and probably about twenty bin Bag Falls and

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the Beach Generation. That's when I kind of really got

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quite transfixed with poetry. With Anna Ginsburg. I can't remember

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half of them, but a lot of Jack Carouac, all

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those kinds of that generation. I was reading their books.

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I can't I can't honestly said I understood a lot

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of it either, And I also used to read the poetry,

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some of them. It was Snyder was another one. Some

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of the poetry I liked. Some of it was a

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lot of it was context based, as most of it

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seemed to be coming out of America in the fifties

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and sixties, and I wasn't around then. I wasn't American.

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I wasn't living in America in the fifties and sixties.

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And I'm pretty certain even if I was in this country,

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it was a different environment, you know, we were, It's

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just it would have been different. So I'm never really

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gonna understand the vibe, not really. I enjoyed reading them.

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And then I discovered, kind of by accident, Charles Perkowski,

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who was his books would be put into the same

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category as beat generation, and he wasn't a beatnik. He wasn't.

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He's kind of like a crossover. He probably knew some

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of them, and he lived like some of them, but

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he wasn't he. For anyone that's read Charles Berkowski, it's

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very real, almost too real, I suppose some would say.

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And that's why I liked about it. I like, yeah,

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I quite quite like gritty, real stuff, not as in

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horrible stuff, but just I don't know someone's personal opinion.

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And because he talks from a third person, so he

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talks about himself, but he's not himself. It's Hank Chenesky

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is the character in his books, but it's basically him.

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And he also wrote, because he wrote a really famous

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book called post Office Women, and I forget the other one,

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but there was a trilogy, and he also wrote ham

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On Rye and some other ones bar Fly and things

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like that. I quite liked the poetry that he did.

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And yeah, so I had a large collection of his

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books because it was quite prolific. So I had a

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lot of his books and don't have them anymore. So

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that was me collecting early nineties comedy tapes and then

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books I would say really focused on the Bag generation.

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But I also had at that time I started collecting

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Buddhist books and Zen Taoism, and I started reading that stuff.

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So I got into that because that fitted in with

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the Big Generation and the the and I just sort

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of kind of fitted together with me and something I

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was interested in. Anyway, I quite like it if I

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can find something that hasn't overlapped to something else. And

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then when I left there, I did take my stuff

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with me and I ended up in moved once twice,

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and then I collected more books on Buddhism, so that

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was the main thing I've focused on around ninety five,

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Like ninety four to ninety five, it was mainly just

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Buddhist books that I collected, so I I mean, I

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wasn't buying loads of thads of books, but I had

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a really good collection and I would read them as well.

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And then in the end of ninety five I was

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evicted and I basically just chucked everything out because I

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couldn't take it with me. Then I I'm not sure

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chucked it. I think I left it outside and dustman

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took it. They weren't supposed to. It just happened to

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be in black bags as it was how I traveled,

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so I didn't know where I was going to take them,

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and I think I'm going to try and take into

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my girlfriends and ask if she'd look after them for me. Anyway,

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the dustman came and got them, and I pretty much

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took most of my belongings thinking it was just all

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of rubbish, so technically I didn't really chuck it out.

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What else I in ninety six nineteen ninety six, I

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was kind of starting from scratch again.

436
00:39:36.760 --> 00:39:41.360
So I had the only thing I really had was

437
00:39:44.199 --> 00:39:49.719
as far as belongings go, one book or two books

438
00:39:49.760 --> 00:39:53.639
and that was it, and a few clothes. So I

439
00:39:53.719 --> 00:39:59.320
started from scratch in January ninety six, and by like's

440
00:39:59.400 --> 00:40:05.119
Vinny scraping his teeth on a something. I'm not quite sure,

441
00:40:05.119 --> 00:40:06.280
but it seems happy anyway.

442
00:40:06.639 --> 00:40:31.800
It's not eating his dinner today for some reason, and I.

443
00:40:23.039 --> 00:40:24.840
Well, I do. I'm trying to think what I was

444
00:40:24.880 --> 00:40:31.679
going to say. Then he just stopped, Okay. I I

445
00:40:31.719 --> 00:40:35.599
carried on with my writing because I managed to save

446
00:40:35.760 --> 00:40:38.440
the journals, so that was fine. So I still had

447
00:40:38.480 --> 00:40:48.760
all my journals. And then I didn't buy a lot

448
00:40:48.760 --> 00:40:52.239
of books or anything back then, I think because i'd

449
00:40:52.239 --> 00:40:56.320
lost all my book collection kind of a few times

450
00:40:56.320 --> 00:40:58.760
over already. At this point, I just didn't know if

451
00:40:58.800 --> 00:41:06.760
there's any point. So between ninety six and then ninety seven,

452
00:41:10.320 --> 00:41:19.960
I didn't really purchase much. I didn't collect anything really

453
00:41:20.039 --> 00:41:24.840
at all. During that period. I was a security guard

454
00:41:25.000 --> 00:41:33.360
for over a year, and I had a girlfriend as well,

455
00:41:33.480 --> 00:41:37.480
so that kind of took up time outside of security work,

456
00:41:37.519 --> 00:41:42.920
and that was a long hours, so I didn't Apart

457
00:41:42.920 --> 00:41:46.079
from reading books and stuff, I just didn't really have

458
00:41:46.159 --> 00:41:50.599
a lot going on, watching TV when I got home.

459
00:41:53.320 --> 00:42:00.960
And then late nineteen ninety seven, I started acting books again,

460
00:42:01.679 --> 00:42:06.239
but this time is all about self help, motivation and

461
00:42:06.320 --> 00:42:21.239
self help, and I blimey, he's so noisy. I do

462
00:42:21.360 --> 00:42:26.239
still prefer him over this squealing and screaming outside in

463
00:42:26.239 --> 00:42:30.840
the garden. I don't know, it's just I kind of

464
00:42:30.880 --> 00:42:34.679
just want to hear what's inside. I know it's not realistic,

465
00:42:34.760 --> 00:42:38.679
but just just a little bit quiet, a little bit

466
00:42:38.679 --> 00:42:44.199
of a little bit calm, you know, what else should

467
00:42:44.199 --> 00:42:47.400
I I suppose? Like ninety seven, it was really much.

468
00:42:47.559 --> 00:42:54.360
I was collecting audio recordings and self help audio recordings,

469
00:42:54.400 --> 00:43:05.920
motivation and zigziglar meditation recordings for relaxing, and I was

470
00:43:06.000 --> 00:43:13.920
really trying to figure a way for me to, I

471
00:43:13.920 --> 00:43:20.239
don't know, grow as a person and become better and

472
00:43:20.360 --> 00:43:25.159
become calmer and to heal. I don't know, I'm not

473
00:43:25.199 --> 00:43:27.119
quite sure what it was I was looking for, but

474
00:43:28.360 --> 00:43:33.320
I collected lots of books. I read lots of books.

475
00:43:34.440 --> 00:43:41.840
And then early nineteen ninety eight, it's January, I bought

476
00:43:41.840 --> 00:43:48.159
my first two books on hypnosis. I didn't read them,

477
00:43:48.159 --> 00:43:50.920
straight away. I kind of looked at them and thought

478
00:43:50.960 --> 00:43:55.039
I'll read them one day, and then I did, and

479
00:43:55.079 --> 00:44:02.800
I thought, oh, I did an NLP course at college,

480
00:44:03.239 --> 00:44:08.440
did like a part time evening course at City University

481
00:44:08.599 --> 00:44:16.880
in London. And that's when my interest was peaked more

482
00:44:16.960 --> 00:44:20.880
so in that side of things because it involved hypnosis.

483
00:44:21.840 --> 00:44:27.519
It also for me kind of involved therapy and you know,

484
00:44:27.559 --> 00:44:29.440
all the things that I was kind of interested in.

485
00:44:32.199 --> 00:44:37.440
So I started buying loads of NLP books, all the

486
00:44:37.440 --> 00:44:45.119
ones I could get, and hypnosis books. BlimE me, if anny,

487
00:44:45.599 --> 00:44:52.360
So yeah, I started collecting all that stuff. And then

488
00:44:52.400 --> 00:44:57.960
really for the next few years, I built my hypnosis

489
00:44:57.960 --> 00:45:09.360
collection up. But then in two thousand, I'm not saying

490
00:45:09.400 --> 00:45:16.880
I lost interest in hypnosis, but I did. It's true,

491
00:45:16.920 --> 00:45:24.119
I kind of, for some reason, I became obsessed with

492
00:45:24.239 --> 00:45:29.719
building websites. And I spent the next year and a

493
00:45:29.800 --> 00:45:39.039
half obsessively, pretty much all day, every day working on websites.

494
00:45:40.159 --> 00:45:43.360
We weren't learning how to build them, how to learn

495
00:45:43.440 --> 00:45:47.199
in the code and HTML and all that stuff, and

496
00:45:47.360 --> 00:45:50.519
that was what I did, and I loved it, loved

497
00:45:50.559 --> 00:45:57.960
every second of it. And that's what I did. For yeah,

498
00:45:58.039 --> 00:46:04.880
for the pretty mu much until summertime two thousand and one,

499
00:46:06.760 --> 00:46:14.960
maybe May time. But then I was made I was evicted,

500
00:46:16.679 --> 00:46:26.440
so I moved out and I didn't. Everything was kind

501
00:46:26.440 --> 00:46:28.599
of up in the air. So I still had my belongings,

502
00:46:29.960 --> 00:46:36.960
still had my books, but I didn't. I was kind

503
00:46:36.960 --> 00:46:38.840
of a bit aimless, to be honest, I had this.

504
00:46:39.079 --> 00:46:43.039
I was forced into a sales job by the job center,

505
00:46:44.519 --> 00:46:49.159
and it was although I was quite good at it,

506
00:46:49.159 --> 00:46:55.599
it was difficult, very difficult to do that, and I

507
00:46:55.639 --> 00:47:02.639
stopped reading, I stopped doing it any website building, I

508
00:47:02.719 --> 00:47:07.119
stopped being interested in anything during that period. And then

509
00:47:07.239 --> 00:47:12.320
September I moved to where my name was because she

510
00:47:12.679 --> 00:47:15.199
was ill, so I wanted to be closer to my men,

511
00:47:17.400 --> 00:47:20.480
and I had a new job again in insurance. But

512
00:47:20.679 --> 00:47:25.239
it's selling, which is not really. It was kind of

513
00:47:25.239 --> 00:47:27.960
the wrong for me thinging for me to get involved in, really,

514
00:47:28.039 --> 00:47:31.000
but at the time, I didn't know what was going

515
00:47:31.039 --> 00:47:34.199
to happen. I didn't, you know, I wasn't really prepared

516
00:47:34.280 --> 00:47:38.840
for the outcome of putting myself in that kind of

517
00:47:38.840 --> 00:47:50.960
stressful environment long term. And during that period it wasn't

518
00:47:51.039 --> 00:47:53.880
so bad because I really got I no longer got involved,

519
00:47:54.199 --> 00:47:58.480
but I completely stopped doing any kind of website stuff

520
00:48:00.280 --> 00:48:03.400
during two thousand and like the end of two thousand

521
00:48:03.440 --> 00:48:10.360
and one, two thousand and two, and I would say

522
00:48:10.559 --> 00:48:16.639
even most of two thousand and three. Then two thousand

523
00:48:16.679 --> 00:48:19.239
and four I picked it up. I picked it up again,

524
00:48:19.559 --> 00:48:21.679
maybe two thousand and three I picked it up again.

525
00:48:22.800 --> 00:48:24.519
But I didn't do anything for a couple of years

526
00:48:24.840 --> 00:48:34.639
website wise. But I did collect hypnosis books like a lot.

527
00:48:35.840 --> 00:48:41.760
I had a huge library of hypnosis books, plus psychology books,

528
00:48:42.480 --> 00:48:49.880
counseling books. And this was a long time, like six years,

529
00:48:50.159 --> 00:48:53.440
five six years before I even started thinking about becoming

530
00:48:53.440 --> 00:48:59.760
a counselor. I was just interested in therapy, interested in

531
00:49:00.880 --> 00:49:07.199
how to helping others, but I guess also figuring a

532
00:49:07.239 --> 00:49:13.199
way to help myself maybe. So that's kind of where

533
00:49:13.199 --> 00:49:19.639
I was there. And i'd big, big book collection, and

534
00:49:19.679 --> 00:49:26.920
that book collection continued right the way until two thousand

535
00:49:26.960 --> 00:49:32.920
and seven November, and I had all these bookcases in

536
00:49:32.960 --> 00:49:38.079
this place I lived. Even I found it quite impressive

537
00:49:38.199 --> 00:49:43.280
the amount of books I had, because it was very looked,

538
00:49:43.360 --> 00:49:47.079
very professional, the setup I had, and I was doing

539
00:49:47.199 --> 00:49:50.679
videos with these bookcases and all these books behind me

540
00:49:51.280 --> 00:49:56.280
on psychology and hypnosis and psychotherapy and all this stuff

541
00:49:56.320 --> 00:50:01.760
behind me is like, yeah, how many people full as

542
00:50:01.760 --> 00:50:10.079
if I know something of Oh, and then I moved.

543
00:50:11.079 --> 00:50:14.239
Also I had videos, I had audios, I had CDs

544
00:50:14.760 --> 00:50:19.039
DVDs of hypnosis stuff courses as well as having done

545
00:50:19.079 --> 00:50:26.840
courses like Life in Person as well. So I moved

546
00:50:27.119 --> 00:50:34.280
into a tiny room when I was at college, and

547
00:50:35.679 --> 00:50:37.440
I had to get rid of some of the books.

548
00:50:37.519 --> 00:50:40.440
It was too many to It was literally I had

549
00:50:40.440 --> 00:50:45.320
all these these big containers full of books that was

550
00:50:45.360 --> 00:50:49.159
taken apart the room. I wasn't going to get rid

551
00:50:49.159 --> 00:50:53.920
of the hypnosis books. I couldn't be getting rid of

552
00:50:54.039 --> 00:50:58.920
the therapy books because I was studying counsel in the therapy.

553
00:50:59.239 --> 00:51:03.920
So why ended up doing is getting rid of all

554
00:51:04.000 --> 00:51:09.079
of the I also used to collect. I had quite

555
00:51:09.440 --> 00:51:15.119
quite a large collection of Buddhist books as well, probably

556
00:51:15.159 --> 00:51:19.239
about fifty or sixty Buddhist books, maybe one hundred, there's

557
00:51:19.320 --> 00:51:23.960
quite a lot. Anyway, I donated them to the Buddhist Center,

558
00:51:25.400 --> 00:51:31.760
and then I gave away all of my philosophy books,

559
00:51:32.880 --> 00:51:36.079
which again I had a big collection of like philosophy,

560
00:51:36.239 --> 00:51:40.880
and not just philosophy, but things that kind of minded,

561
00:51:40.920 --> 00:51:43.599
you know, so I got rid of all of those,

562
00:51:45.400 --> 00:51:52.840
gave them to a second hand shop, and then that

563
00:51:52.920 --> 00:51:56.800
kind of I kind of halfed not I don't say

564
00:51:56.880 --> 00:52:00.599
half my book collection, but there were also all the

565
00:52:00.639 --> 00:52:08.199
other stuff like about creativity and really anything that wasn't

566
00:52:08.239 --> 00:52:13.360
to do with hypnosis or therapy I got rid of,

567
00:52:14.519 --> 00:52:21.840
which cut down my book collection by probably behalf, maybe

568
00:52:21.880 --> 00:52:25.840
a quarter, maybe I knocked a quarter off of it.

569
00:52:29.559 --> 00:52:37.199
And then I moved again. Then I moved again, and

570
00:52:38.320 --> 00:52:40.599
that was the place before I moved in here, and

571
00:52:40.639 --> 00:52:44.199
that was even smaller, well probably not smaller, but it

572
00:52:44.239 --> 00:52:49.199
was damp. My books were starting to rot. I don't know,

573
00:52:49.239 --> 00:52:55.000
it's not good. And I had a bit of a thing,

574
00:52:55.199 --> 00:52:57.760
a bit of an episode, and I actually destroyed it

575
00:52:57.800 --> 00:53:01.800
all of my books apart from one, which was The

576
00:53:03.960 --> 00:53:08.360
Teachings of the Buddha, which I've had for probably since

577
00:53:08.400 --> 00:53:13.199
about nineteen ninety two, so I've had that book for

578
00:53:13.280 --> 00:53:20.400
quite a while. That was the only surviving book. So yeah,

579
00:53:20.480 --> 00:53:23.360
that was kind of That was probably the biggest collection

580
00:53:23.440 --> 00:53:27.519
I had was probably hypnosis books, but I also had

581
00:53:27.519 --> 00:53:36.280
a pretty healthy Buddhist collection as well. There wasn't even

582
00:53:36.360 --> 00:53:38.519
enough room on the shelves in the Buddhist Center to

583
00:53:38.559 --> 00:53:43.800
put them on because there's so many. So other than that,

584
00:53:44.320 --> 00:53:46.119
I'm trying to think of any other things that I've

585
00:53:46.159 --> 00:53:57.760
collected recently over the last few years, the last ten years.

586
00:54:00.039 --> 00:54:02.599
I can't think of anything. So that's kind of really it.

587
00:54:03.480 --> 00:54:08.960
Books seems to be the main thing. Number Four, How

588
00:54:09.039 --> 00:54:12.519
is your dad? So my dad, he's doing all right.

589
00:54:12.559 --> 00:54:17.079
I saw him last weekend. He came up to see

590
00:54:17.159 --> 00:54:20.840
me and with my little brother, so he had lunch

591
00:54:20.880 --> 00:54:26.880
around the corner and he's, you know, he's he had

592
00:54:26.920 --> 00:54:32.280
some treatment and stuff for a condition. He's getting his

593
00:54:32.440 --> 00:54:36.719
energy back and he seems to be doing well. It

594
00:54:36.800 --> 00:54:39.960
seems to be positive and seems to be doing good.

595
00:54:40.719 --> 00:54:43.440
And I think he enjoyed sort of spending time with

596
00:54:44.400 --> 00:54:49.119
two of his sons together at the same time out

597
00:54:50.599 --> 00:54:54.639
which is only kind of that hasn't happened, doesn't happen

598
00:54:54.679 --> 00:54:58.880
too often, although it did happen just before Christmas, But

599
00:54:58.960 --> 00:55:04.960
that was the first time that outside of the town

600
00:55:05.079 --> 00:55:07.519
that he lives as the first that's the city's the

601
00:55:07.519 --> 00:55:14.159
second time pretty much in decades that we've all kind

602
00:55:14.159 --> 00:55:19.840
of got together, So that was nice. But yeah, it

603
00:55:19.920 --> 00:55:27.239
seems to be doing good. Maria asks, with your previous

604
00:55:27.320 --> 00:55:31.400
interest in martial arts, have you ever practiced tai chi

605
00:55:31.599 --> 00:55:36.880
or chigung? Also, what are your thoughts on meditation? Yes,

606
00:55:37.320 --> 00:55:46.159
and yes, I did a bit of tai chi and chigung.

607
00:55:46.719 --> 00:55:49.239
I think that chigung. I think they were both probably

608
00:55:49.280 --> 00:55:52.880
connected to the Buddhist center. So what we'd have is

609
00:55:55.079 --> 00:55:58.079
there'd be a like a practitioner would come along and

610
00:55:58.760 --> 00:56:01.599
do a course, maybe a six week course on ti

611
00:56:01.760 --> 00:56:05.880
chie or a regular Tuesday night on ti chie or

612
00:56:05.960 --> 00:56:08.960
chickgung and stuff. So I did a little bit of

613
00:56:09.000 --> 00:56:12.719
tai chie, but the one I really liked was chickgung

614
00:56:13.360 --> 00:56:20.360
because but I did it minimally. I don't mean I

615
00:56:20.519 --> 00:56:22.519
changed the way I did it, but I mean I

616
00:56:22.559 --> 00:56:28.079
didn't do much of it. But I did appreciate the

617
00:56:28.159 --> 00:56:33.880
slow movements, the micro movements, the real like the idea

618
00:56:33.880 --> 00:56:38.920
of like holding a ball and passing that energy ball

619
00:56:39.400 --> 00:56:44.800
to another person and just that slow movement. I mean,

620
00:56:44.880 --> 00:56:46.800
I'm doing it now. You can't see me do it,

621
00:56:46.800 --> 00:56:54.440
but it feels nice. And because I'm quite a slow

622
00:56:54.559 --> 00:57:04.559
person anyway, moving slowly is my default really, and which

623
00:57:04.559 --> 00:57:10.519
brings me to your meditation is I think meditation's great.

624
00:57:10.880 --> 00:57:18.039
I kind of meditate every day using walking meditation. So

625
00:57:18.079 --> 00:57:22.039
I want to take Vinnie out. I walk very slowly,

626
00:57:24.119 --> 00:57:27.159
and what I do is I focus on my feet

627
00:57:27.480 --> 00:57:31.199
on the ground, how my feet feel, how my body

628
00:57:31.280 --> 00:57:36.960
feels as I walk. And it's also part of like

629
00:57:37.079 --> 00:57:39.599
paying control because I've got after rights in my lower

630
00:57:39.599 --> 00:57:43.039
back and it plays up, you know, whenever I move.

631
00:57:43.159 --> 00:57:47.639
Basically it's hurting now I say hurting, but it's I

632
00:57:47.639 --> 00:57:50.480
can feel it now and when I walk and when

633
00:57:50.519 --> 00:57:53.199
I sit down for too long, so when I walk,

634
00:57:53.280 --> 00:57:59.679
I can feel it. So sometimes by focusing on all

635
00:57:59.719 --> 00:58:06.599
of my body movement it eases that. It kind of

636
00:58:06.639 --> 00:58:10.519
reminds me that I've got a whole body that has feeling,

637
00:58:11.559 --> 00:58:19.360
not just that one part. And included in that meditation

638
00:58:20.360 --> 00:58:23.039
as well as being aware of Vinnie, because I have

639
00:58:23.079 --> 00:58:25.079
to be aware of what he's up to, and I

640
00:58:25.119 --> 00:58:28.840
need to also be aware of my surroundings. But I'd

641
00:58:28.920 --> 00:58:32.079
say that's part of the meditation, and that's my natural

642
00:58:32.159 --> 00:58:36.000
state is to be perhaps too aware of my surroundings

643
00:58:36.119 --> 00:58:40.679
to be honest. But the way you know, the weather,

644
00:58:40.840 --> 00:58:46.480
the wind, the air, the feeling the wind on my face,

645
00:58:47.880 --> 00:58:52.400
the feeling of breathing and my lungs, the temperature on

646
00:58:52.480 --> 00:58:58.079
my hands, on my face, the sun may be shine in,

647
00:58:58.119 --> 00:59:01.480
and the just little things that the sounds of the

648
00:59:01.519 --> 00:59:06.239
birds or the wind or the traffic, just little things

649
00:59:06.280 --> 00:59:12.920
with dogs in the background, all that stuff. In fact,

650
00:59:12.960 --> 00:59:15.639
even like next door, like you know, with all of

651
00:59:15.800 --> 00:59:20.079
the kids and the dogs barking over there. That is fine.

652
00:59:20.199 --> 00:59:24.320
When I'm meditating, I don't need quiet. I just incorporate

653
00:59:24.360 --> 00:59:27.800
it into the meditation and just be one with it.

654
00:59:31.239 --> 00:59:33.199
I should try and do that when I do a recording. Really,

655
00:59:33.239 --> 00:59:41.599
shuldn't I be one? Be one, my son. I don't

656
00:59:41.599 --> 00:59:48.440
do so much traditional meditation anymore, although I'm kind of

657
00:59:48.559 --> 00:59:51.559
I did meditate the other day. I could perhaps do

658
00:59:51.760 --> 00:59:55.559
with it, but I do. I like to walk in

659
00:59:55.639 --> 00:59:59.280
meditation because I do it every time, unless I'm talking

660
00:59:59.280 --> 01:00:02.159
to someone. Then I'm not if I'm on my own

661
01:00:02.360 --> 01:00:08.679
with him and we just walk in slowly. I mean,

662
01:00:08.679 --> 01:00:16.320
it's probably not the most deep meditation practice, but there

663
01:00:16.440 --> 01:00:25.199
is a meditation practice there. There is an intention to

664
01:00:25.239 --> 01:00:30.840
slow things down, to allow things to slow down. So

665
01:00:30.880 --> 01:00:36.559
I'm not trying to force my breathing to become deeper

666
01:00:36.599 --> 01:00:41.360
and slower. I allow my body my mind, you know,

667
01:00:42.039 --> 01:00:46.039
allowed for that to happen. And I don't try and

668
01:00:46.239 --> 01:00:49.559
cause my mind to slow down and for the thoughts

669
01:00:49.639 --> 01:00:56.639
to maybe vanish or just dissipey or slow. But I'm

670
01:00:56.679 --> 01:01:04.800
open to that happening. See, Yeah, it's quite nice. I

671
01:01:05.000 --> 01:01:14.920
do that every day if I can, you know, sometimes

672
01:01:15.079 --> 01:01:17.480
I can't. I'll be honest, sometimes I'm not in the

673
01:01:17.599 --> 01:01:21.039
right frame of my mind. But if I can, I will.

674
01:01:22.880 --> 01:01:26.960
It's better when there's no one else around, because I

675
01:01:26.960 --> 01:01:30.360
do especially if I if I can walk really slow,

676
01:01:30.599 --> 01:01:34.559
like super slow, if there's no one around, it doesn't

677
01:01:34.639 --> 01:01:40.159
look quite so weird. But when there's people around, I

678
01:01:40.719 --> 01:01:45.679
walk at very very slow pace anyway. But there's an

679
01:01:45.719 --> 01:01:51.599
even slower pace with meditation, with meditative walking, and it

680
01:01:51.719 --> 01:01:56.599
can be and it can be literally almost micro movements.

681
01:01:59.159 --> 01:02:07.159
I don't really really do that when I'm out, but

682
01:02:07.239 --> 01:02:11.679
I do focus on my feet when I'm walk in,

683
01:02:14.079 --> 01:02:18.760
I focus on my balance. I focus on my back,

684
01:02:19.639 --> 01:02:22.039
not just my lower back, but also my upper back,

685
01:02:22.559 --> 01:02:30.960
my shoulders, my posture, my neck, just noticing how I feel.

686
01:02:34.280 --> 01:02:41.400
And that's my connection with Chickgung and meditation could like

687
01:02:41.440 --> 01:02:46.840
the moving walking meditation you could say is chigung, you

688
01:02:46.880 --> 01:02:53.000
could say it is tai chi. Oh No, I'm not

689
01:02:53.039 --> 01:02:55.679
an expert on any of this stuff. I do know

690
01:02:55.760 --> 01:02:58.719
more about meditation than I know about tai chi or chickum.

691
01:03:01.320 --> 01:03:06.639
I think it's all really really good stuff. And in

692
01:03:06.880 --> 01:03:12.039
some ways, I think tai chi and chigung because it's movement,

693
01:03:14.800 --> 01:03:22.119
it's got an extra dimension added to it. I'm never

694
01:03:22.199 --> 01:03:24.039
going to be able to. I say I'm never going

695
01:03:24.079 --> 01:03:26.639
to because I tried for years to do this and

696
01:03:26.679 --> 01:03:32.320
it didn't work. So sitting on a cushion isn't something

697
01:03:32.320 --> 01:03:34.920
I can do on the floor on a cushion. Note

698
01:03:36.199 --> 01:03:39.199
I tried it from I think I did it all

699
01:03:39.239 --> 01:03:48.679
the way from November two thousand and two to two

700
01:03:48.719 --> 01:03:54.440
thousand and four, maybe even two thousand and five. Seriously,

701
01:03:54.480 --> 01:03:59.320
I tried for years to sit on a cushion. I

702
01:03:59.360 --> 01:04:02.800
did sit for years and then have to get up

703
01:04:02.840 --> 01:04:05.440
and sit on a chair, and I was just in

704
01:04:05.519 --> 01:04:10.559
pain for that whole time. And eventually, I mean that

705
01:04:10.599 --> 01:04:13.239
they tried every which way. At one point, at about

706
01:04:13.320 --> 01:04:17.239
seventeen Christians, I had scaffold and holding me up, but

707
01:04:17.280 --> 01:04:23.719
it still didn't work. I had a leaftick band tied

708
01:04:23.760 --> 01:04:28.000
to my head, so I didn't fall off. I don't know,

709
01:04:28.559 --> 01:04:40.480
but yeah, I like the idea of movement. A little

710
01:04:40.480 --> 01:04:44.679
bit of movement is nice. Doesn't have to be the

711
01:04:44.719 --> 01:04:47.800
whole body. I mean, tie cheek can be used by

712
01:04:47.840 --> 01:04:56.880
anyone who can has access to movement of some of

713
01:04:56.880 --> 01:05:00.360
their limbs. So if someone was in a wheelchair, still

714
01:05:00.360 --> 01:05:04.519
be able to do it with their hands or you know,

715
01:05:04.559 --> 01:05:07.360
there's going to be limitations, I suppose if someone's unable

716
01:05:07.400 --> 01:05:14.880
to move their body. But I'm guessing meditation would be

717
01:05:14.880 --> 01:05:19.039
fine in a situation. But I imagine, and you know, imagining

718
01:05:19.519 --> 01:05:26.800
doing the movements would be calming, imagining doing tai chi

719
01:05:27.039 --> 01:05:35.119
in your mind, or doing chigun chikung chigung. But yeah,

720
01:05:35.199 --> 01:05:41.599
I don't know enough about it. But our two because

721
01:05:42.000 --> 01:05:44.880
tai chi I did tai chi with when I did

722
01:05:45.880 --> 01:05:50.519
wing Chun kung fu in two thousand and four. He

723
01:05:50.639 --> 01:05:54.840
taught wing chun. He taught g kundu and he also

724
01:05:54.960 --> 01:05:58.400
taught tai chi, and he basically taught that tai chi

725
01:05:58.559 --> 01:06:01.039
was just a slow down version of a fighting style.

726
01:06:04.440 --> 01:06:08.440
You know, kicks, punches, blocks and all that stuff. So

727
01:06:08.480 --> 01:06:17.079
it's really just a very slow version of a form

728
01:06:17.599 --> 01:06:24.519
which would be or a a kater sometimes it's called

729
01:06:24.960 --> 01:06:32.039
it's just a mixture of movements where it's blocking and punching,

730
01:06:32.199 --> 01:06:36.079
then kicking, then sweeping, and you know, all kinds of

731
01:06:36.079 --> 01:06:39.199
like movements. And as the grades go up in like

732
01:06:39.280 --> 01:06:45.440
karate or whatever discipline, the katers or the forms become

733
01:06:45.559 --> 01:06:51.880
more and more complicated. So it's almost like an fighting

734
01:06:51.880 --> 01:06:59.960
an invisible opponent or multiple invisible opponents. The tie chair

735
01:07:00.199 --> 01:07:04.800
seems to be doing that, but invisible opponents that are

736
01:07:04.840 --> 01:07:15.119
really slow. So yeah, I'd recommend both for all, including meditation,

737
01:07:16.800 --> 01:07:25.199
because it's so useful, healthy healing. It's great stuff. I'm

738
01:07:25.199 --> 01:07:27.920
making myself want to go back to meditation, BlimE me.

739
01:07:29.480 --> 01:07:32.119
So thank you for that. So, Ben and Maria, I

740
01:07:32.159 --> 01:07:40.760
have answered both your questions. Yeah, Hope asks me the

741
01:07:40.920 --> 01:07:47.280
houses in Britain are older than in Canada. Do you

742
01:07:47.400 --> 01:07:52.400
think they're more haunted? Do you think your grouping of

743
01:07:52.519 --> 01:07:56.719
flats is haunted? And have you ever lived in a

744
01:07:56.760 --> 01:08:06.960
place you thought was haunted? And M I don't know, really,

745
01:08:07.039 --> 01:08:11.440
I don't know how to answer that. I don't I

746
01:08:11.440 --> 01:08:18.239
don't think so. I mean the big house I used

747
01:08:18.239 --> 01:08:20.279
to live in when I'm between the ages of nine

748
01:08:20.359 --> 01:08:28.680
and fifteen with my family. Didn't have a good atmosphere

749
01:08:28.720 --> 01:08:31.399
in there. I'm talking when there was no one else

750
01:08:31.399 --> 01:08:35.439
in the house, just me. I didn't feel I didn't

751
01:08:35.560 --> 01:08:38.399
like it. I was at the top of the stairs

752
01:08:38.680 --> 01:08:41.119
in the you know, in the well. I was in

753
01:08:41.119 --> 01:08:43.399
a room at the top of the stairs, and that

754
01:08:43.600 --> 01:08:51.159
was there was two sets of stairs, and I didn't

755
01:08:51.279 --> 01:08:54.960
like it. I didn't didn't get a good feeling about

756
01:08:54.960 --> 01:09:07.520
the place. Yeah, as for see anything, I don't. Don't

757
01:09:07.680 --> 01:09:13.159
you know, anything like that, which not really ever happened.

758
01:09:13.399 --> 01:09:18.239
So I mean, I know that you know, everything's energy

759
01:09:18.399 --> 01:09:21.880
and most there's more stuff we can't see than what

760
01:09:21.880 --> 01:09:26.279
we can see all of the you know, I'm looking

761
01:09:26.279 --> 01:09:30.640
around the room and that big gap, I say, big gap.

762
01:09:31.560 --> 01:09:34.800
I'm not living in a mansion, but that space between

763
01:09:34.960 --> 01:09:37.720
me and this desk and the television on the other

764
01:09:37.760 --> 01:09:41.840
side of the room is full of trillions and trillions

765
01:09:41.880 --> 01:09:52.560
and trillions and particles of energy, energy waves and all

766
01:09:52.640 --> 01:09:54.840
kinds of stuff that I'm never going to see or

767
01:09:54.920 --> 01:10:01.640
hear or feel, not consciously anyway. So I never try

768
01:10:01.680 --> 01:10:03.960
not to sort of, when I get serious, I try

769
01:10:04.000 --> 01:10:07.680
not to like poo poo other people's beliefs and things,

770
01:10:07.720 --> 01:10:12.359
because there's more stuff that I don't know than I

771
01:10:12.439 --> 01:10:15.000
do know, and that is always going to be the

772
01:10:15.039 --> 01:10:21.159
case my entire life. For everything I know, there's billions

773
01:10:21.159 --> 01:10:23.920
of things that I don't know, maybe trillions of things

774
01:10:24.039 --> 01:10:28.760
I don't know, so and I'm okay with that. I

775
01:10:28.800 --> 01:10:33.800
can't know everything. I don't want to know everything. Sometimes

776
01:10:33.800 --> 01:10:38.000
I want to know everything about specific subjects, but generally

777
01:10:38.279 --> 01:10:45.239
I don't know. I don't have any Yeah, I mean,

778
01:10:45.920 --> 01:10:50.000
my flat's haunted with a little Jack Russell, and before

779
01:10:50.039 --> 01:10:53.800
that it was haunted by a little ferrit called Andree

780
01:10:55.920 --> 01:11:05.239
and any occasional mice. But generally, yeah, it's so, it

781
01:11:05.239 --> 01:11:08.319
wouldn't bother me. It's the neighbors. As long as the

782
01:11:08.319 --> 01:11:10.600
neighbors are quiet. I don't really care what else happens,

783
01:11:11.520 --> 01:11:14.359
as long as everything everything, everyone's safe, and that sort

784
01:11:14.359 --> 01:11:21.279
of rocking with the house for so Yeah, No, I

785
01:11:21.279 --> 01:11:24.239
think the answer to that is no. There was one

786
01:11:24.279 --> 01:11:31.239
incident in that house I was telling you about. We'd

787
01:11:31.239 --> 01:11:35.439
only lived there for a little while, and my dad

788
01:11:35.479 --> 01:11:39.039
had put a carpet down and the carpets started to

789
01:11:39.199 --> 01:11:47.920
rise on its own, and that was strange. But I

790
01:11:47.920 --> 01:11:51.199
think my dad sorts like the air was going through

791
01:11:52.199 --> 01:11:55.439
the sciring boards or something like that. But that was

792
01:11:55.560 --> 01:12:02.840
very weird. It didn't happen in any other room. Then

793
01:12:02.880 --> 01:12:11.520
there was that poltergeist. Yeah, not not nothing really, it

794
01:12:11.680 --> 01:12:17.000
was just yeah, I just I did I don't know,

795
01:12:17.079 --> 01:12:21.279
I just didn't. I mean, I've lived in a literally

796
01:12:21.399 --> 01:12:24.680
have lived in a mansion, I guess technically, or I

797
01:12:24.800 --> 01:12:30.399
lived in the children's home in South End, huge building,

798
01:12:31.680 --> 01:12:38.960
huge like mansion size in a sense, like absolutely massive,

799
01:12:40.439 --> 01:12:48.239
big grounds and massive building. Really you know. So but

800
01:12:48.359 --> 01:12:54.560
I don't remember ever anything happening anything spooky, paranormal or

801
01:12:54.600 --> 01:13:00.520
anything like that there. And that building was prob there

802
01:13:00.680 --> 01:13:07.159
for a good five six hundred years probably in fact,

803
01:13:07.279 --> 01:13:09.560
I imagine when it was first built, it probably was

804
01:13:09.720 --> 01:13:14.960
I mentioned, or a hospital or something like that. Big,

805
01:13:15.119 --> 01:13:22.720
a big, old building. So yeah, I'm no, there is

806
01:13:22.760 --> 01:13:28.920
the answer. Really, the flats are fine. I mean I

807
01:13:28.920 --> 01:13:31.239
don't have access really to any of the other flats.

808
01:13:31.279 --> 01:13:34.039
So I talked to a couple of the other tenants.

809
01:13:34.079 --> 01:13:37.680
Now I've got two new people moving in, so I

810
01:13:37.680 --> 01:13:42.720
don't know them, and I speak to one one of

811
01:13:42.760 --> 01:13:44.960
the other tenants that I speak to him every now

812
01:13:44.960 --> 01:13:48.800
and then. I don't see him very often. And the

813
01:13:48.840 --> 01:13:51.720
other two one that I know, I speak to them

814
01:13:51.840 --> 01:13:57.680
every now and then, but really I don't. It's kind

815
01:13:57.680 --> 01:14:02.520
of things are changing around here than two new flats,

816
01:14:02.640 --> 01:14:05.560
two new people that moved in. I don't know them,

817
01:14:05.760 --> 01:14:10.720
and it's you know, things change and people move on,

818
01:14:10.880 --> 01:14:18.319
and it's it's all changing. Whether or not they're haunted,

819
01:14:18.359 --> 01:14:26.199
I don't know. No, I don't think so. So yeah,

820
01:14:29.880 --> 01:14:33.119
so I only had three people leaving messages for questions,

821
01:14:33.159 --> 01:14:38.119
but I did get one, one, two, three, four, five, six.

822
01:14:38.159 --> 01:14:42.600
I had six questions. I'm not sure if I've answered

823
01:14:42.640 --> 01:14:46.319
them very well. I'm not sure if I I'm not

824
01:14:46.319 --> 01:14:48.520
sure if I ever answered questions very well. I never

825
01:14:49.479 --> 01:14:53.479
really asked, do I do you know? I ordered something

826
01:14:53.680 --> 01:14:59.079
on uber eats, and because I'm trying to get I'm

827
01:14:59.079 --> 01:15:02.960
trying to get stocked up for not necessarily just for

828
01:15:03.000 --> 01:15:05.439
the end of the year, but for the future, just

829
01:15:05.479 --> 01:15:11.880
to prepare me for what's to come. And I so

830
01:15:11.920 --> 01:15:16.880
I've been getting like toilet roll and washing up liquids

831
01:15:17.079 --> 01:15:21.199
and black bin bags and just started collecting stuff so

832
01:15:21.239 --> 01:15:24.560
that I've got enough to last me, hopefully for another year.

833
01:15:24.640 --> 01:15:31.439
If I can, and so I ordered ten bottles of shampoo.

834
01:15:34.439 --> 01:15:38.760
You know how many they delivered one. I ordered a

835
01:15:38.760 --> 01:15:42.119
couple of other things, but not much. They delivered one

836
01:15:42.159 --> 01:15:46.560
bottle of shampoo. The whole point of it was to

837
01:15:46.600 --> 01:15:49.159
get ten, so that would last me. Bearing in mind

838
01:15:49.159 --> 01:15:52.840
I'm pretty much bored most of the time. That's going

839
01:15:52.920 --> 01:15:58.119
to last me a year. Ten bottles of shampoo. But no, no, no, no, no.

840
01:15:58.199 --> 01:16:05.960
Only one couldn't believe it never been so angry. So

841
01:16:06.119 --> 01:16:09.600
I do believe that is it for today. Thank you

842
01:16:09.640 --> 01:16:13.439
for listening. Remember to be kind to yourself because you

843
01:16:13.520 --> 01:16:17.359
do deserve to be happy. Be gentle of yourself. You

844
01:16:17.479 --> 01:16:24.199
deserve to feel safe. Lots of love, Bye,