July 13, 2025

(music) (10 hours) Uncle Sausages Update | LMBYTS #1392 | Jason Newland | 13th July 2025

(music) (10 hours) Uncle Sausages Update | LMBYTS #1392 | Jason Newland | 13th July 2025
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Hello, and welcome to jasonnew Land dot com. My name

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is Jason new Land and I am sitting in my

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chair with my favorite little doggie, Finney Finney. Oh he's

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colored up to me. I'm just stroking him. Oh yeah.

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Please only listen when you can safely close your eyes.

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I thought i'd do a Sunday subbery as it's Sunday,

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so like a summary of last week, not a summary

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of Sunday, because I haven't done much today except sleep really,

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although I did gap very very early this morning to

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watch the boxing. So here's a summary. Let's see where

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do we start. Should we start Monday or should we

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start yesday to Yeah, let's start Monday and work. I

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waited today, so I can't remember anything that happened on

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Sunday last week, so Monday. You know what this is? Weird? Okay?

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The days seem to be mixing together, or rather the

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weeks are mixing together, and I'm not one hundred percent

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sure what happened last week and what happened this week,

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so I might get it a little bit wrong, a

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little bit wrong. So today's Sunday. Something? Is it the

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twelfth of July? I think something like that and it's

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about three. It's twenty to three in the afternoon. I've

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got the windows open because it's quite it's a stuffy

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day to day. It's like it's warm, but it's stuffy.

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It's overcast. The sun's not there quite obviously it's there,

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but there's no sunshine really, but it's very stuffy, very

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like there's less oxygen and the normal, which is probably a

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weird thing to say. However, based on that, I'm wondering

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whether or not we're going to have a big old

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thunderstorm tonight. I hope so. And I like a big

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thunderstorm even then he doesn't care about them. Honestly, I

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know it's a bit selfish because I like something that

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a lot of people don't like, but I do. I

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love a thunderstorm, really really loud one. Yeah, So I

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think maybe it's I don't know, I don't know why,

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I just do. There's something, Ever, since I was a kid,

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I quite like the idea that nature is just way

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more powerful than anything humans can produce. As far as

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you know, just every now and then, it seems that

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nature just pops its little head up and says just

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a little reminder to the humans you know, I can

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do this in a second. Something that you can create,

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I can. You know, it's I don't know, just it's

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very powerful, isn't it? Nature? But naturally? But at the

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same time I don't as I don't like things that

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cause damage and harm. But I guess because we don't

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really get that much here, which is nice, but just

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a big thunderstorm more a particularly winded day. It's something

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to be respected, isn't it. Really? I would say nature.

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I was thinking about, you know, the old argument about

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what what instincts we're born with nature versus nurture. So

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what we talk compared to what do we learn, you know,

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compared to what natural instincts do we have? And dogs

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have been studied for this, dogs, rats, animals and stuff

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and humans of course, but the idea that a dog

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has that it made me rethink it because I was

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thought that dogs naturally, you know, a dog or pockets leg.

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A male dog would cock its leg to go for wuies.

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It will kick behind it after going to a toilet

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to cover up because you know, to keep away predators

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and stuff and not know why they're doing it, and

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it's instinctive. But with Vinnie, it's not instinctive because he

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had no brothers or sisters. When he was born. He

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was around no dogs, really, he had a female. He

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was around his mum. So when he went to a toilet,

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he crouched, which I guess is what his mum did.

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And I had him at ten months old, so he

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never cocked his leg and he never did the old like,

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you know, kicking back after going to a toilet, didn't

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do any of that stuff. Once he started going out

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for walks with Logi, my friend's dog downstairs, he started

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copying them. He started cocking his legs, started kicking. The

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weird thing about it is he'll go to toilet and

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then we'll turn around and we'll keep behind him, which

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is a complete different direction. So there's no point always

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doing it, but he's just learned it so that that. Yeah,

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he had about eleven months with Logi, No, not eleven

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mode more than that, didn't he because my friend left

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in November and I had Logi to for another three

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months to the end of February. I think I was

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in March, I think February, so he had over I

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mean there three months of living with him solidly upstairs here,

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him and Logi together, but before that they would see

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each other every day, go for walks every day, so

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we copied him. But after living it like it didn't

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actually get on so well because Vinnie was Vinnie wanted

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his He wanted his own space, and this was his home.

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He didn't want He liked Vinni, he liked Logi visiting.

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But there's certain times, like when he came to bedtime,

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Logi took up. He needed a whole bed because of

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a b old dog. Vinnie was trying to push Logi off.

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He couldn't physically do it. I couldn't physically do it.

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It was too strong and heavy, and Vinnie did not

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like that. That's when he started sleeping on a pillow

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next to me, because before that he always used to

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sleep at the bottom of the bed or maybe at

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the side, like cuddle up to me when I was asleep,

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because he didn't like to cuddle up to me when

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I was awake. Doesn't like to show it any kind

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of affection. Weird, weird old sausages. And so that's the

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pillow next to me. That was kind of the only

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space he had, or right behind him near the wall.

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Because Logi took up literally half the bed. Vinnie takes

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up half the bed, but he doesn't need half the bed.

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LOGI needed half the bed because he's big old thing.

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What's that guy do with the last week? I don't

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know who expect me to keep track of what I'm saying.

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Sorry about the noise, but it's like a crush in

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the garden. I can't do anything about it. I'm not

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closing the windows. And at the same time, I do

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also want to make recordings, so it's one of those

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either I don't make a recording. Isn't it really weird?

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You know when you've got an adult that's really loud,

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and you've got a kid with that adult all the time,

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and then the kid starts being really loud verbally. Then

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the adult gets upset with a kid for being loud.

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Now that is funny. That's our funny old situation. Bless them.

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A loud people raise loud people. It's just because we

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just learned. It's the whole nature and nurture what everything

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as well, isn't it. It's sometimes I feel lucky that

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I moved around so much when I was very young,

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that I wasn't with the same people. I wasn't with

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the same adults. And you know, it might seem weird

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because technically I probably lucky wasn't the right word. I

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didn't get caught up in that copying other people's behavior.

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So I didn't grow up like my dad, or like

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my mom or like my step mom. I didn't. I

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didn't grow up like them or like the nuns, although

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I do sometimes like to dress up and pace around

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with a big ruler, big bit of wood. But other

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than that, I'm not saying I wasn't influenced by them,

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because kids are influenced by what's around them, aren't they.

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I think all humans are really to be honest, I

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know I am to a degree, but I didn't end

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up being like a little carbon copy or even even

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partially a carbon copy of a parent. So I didn't

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have the especially if you think back to the era

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that I grew up, like the seventies, So I didn't

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grow up racist or homophobic, or particularly sexist or anything

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like that. I didn't have those strong views about people

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from other countries and stuff, because I've just been I've traveled,

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not traveled, but I've been around. You know, I was

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in this little town at the age of seven I

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was in this little town and I was hearing people

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be I don't know, not very friendly towards non white people,

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let's just say. And this was standard in the seventies,

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standard almost kind of just flippant in a flippant way,

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not necessarily in a bullian way, just about people that

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were non white. Now there was only I think I

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met one black person. There was one black person in

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my school, or he was a mixed race, and there

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was probably one black person in the town. The only

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Chinese people in the town were people that had a

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Chinese takeaway. The only Indian people the people that had

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Indian restaurants. It was that kind of town, you know,

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early eighties, late seventies, early eighties, very like ninety nine

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point nine point nine point nine point nine point nine

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nine percent Caucasian. So I go to that town and

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people are being all It wasn't just the people, but

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on television it was a very kind of prejudice. Being

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prejudiced was just okay. It was standard. It was on

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family entertainment. Was racist and homophobic. It was a standard thing.

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And I probably laughed, Yeah, I did laugh at it

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as well. I was a kid. I laughed. But the

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difference is I had been I knew I'd had black

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friends when I was in the kids home. In fact,

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my girlfriend was black. So I didn't have that attitude.

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I didn't have that kind of but a lot of

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people in the town had never actually seen someone that

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was non white in the flesh, which is weird to imagine,

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but it's probably true actually, other than on television or

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in movies. So I didn't have that. I don't know,

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I just didn't have that attitude, that kind of that

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little brain defect that I think people that grew up

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in that time had a little bit if they lived

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in a completely kind of little, tiny little town in

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the mid love nowhere where you know, and obviously if

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you're in London it's different, or if you're in a

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big city it's multicultural, and it has been for for

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a long long time, since probably the fifties. I was

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going to say something mildly intelligent then, but I've forgot

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what it was. Yeah, I don't know. I just I

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don't mean know what I'm trying to say here. Just

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I don't why thinking of nature and nurture because we're

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not born like that, are we? Was it the two

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things that babies are born with two fears, the fear

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of falling and loud noises. That seems to be the

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only two. I don't think that's true, though. Everyone's got

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their own thing, and that babies that might be left

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on their own do they sometimes. I was quite a

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good father figure. Once in nineteen ninety five, I was

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dating this lady. She was I think she was two

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years old than me. I was twenty five, she was

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twenty seven. She had two kids wanted to She had

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a daughter who was about, I don't know, four five,

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and she had a son who was probably about a

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year old, basically a baby still. And that little boy

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bonded with me, like really bonded, like just automatically, I

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don't know why. And I used to be able to

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send him to sleep, so when he cried, he put

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his arms out for me to pick him up. Is

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like he connected with me. And I used to sing

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to him and I'd sing Michael Jackson songs and he'd

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fall asleep. And one time I went away, I was

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in Buttling's and I got a phone call from her dad,

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my girlfriend's dad, saying that the little boy, the little baby,

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was in hospital because he had an asthma attack. So

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I come back to London and I get in there.

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So I go into the Baby Ward, which is just

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a weird place to be, and the first thing the

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little boy does is put his arms out for me

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to pick him up, smiling, so happy to see me,

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and it was weird, Like, Wow, imagine if other human

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beings were happy to see me. Imagine having that kind

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of welcome from everyone that you meet in life. Life,

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you would just be almost blissful, wouldn't it. It'd be weird.

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Yeah's definitely weird, especially if you. Yeah, that would be weird,

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wouldn't it. Imagine you were robbing someone's house and they

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came in and caught you, and they were so excited

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to see you. Oh how are you? That'd be weird.

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Not that I rob people's houses, although funny enough. The

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lady downstairs who've got her flat robbed about three months ago.

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She found out who did it as a local neighbor,

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according to her.

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And.

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Apparently that same neighbor. Again, I don't have proof of this,

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but actually the dots fitar together because she knew stuff

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that she wouldn't know otherwise. She you know that I've

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not said to her the same neighbor was going around

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to people saying that I was a convicted I've been

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to prison for something really bad. And so the neighbor

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downstairs went online. Apparently the website can go on to

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check this stuff out, and it's weird. It's that really.

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I didn't know what to do with that information because

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this is someone that I actually visited it. I visited

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this person in the hospital last week, not not This

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isn't Uncle Sausages. This is another neighbor. When if it

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was Uncle Sausages, I wouldn't be visiting them anymore if

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I thought he'd said something like that about me. Yeah,

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that was weird. I said, like, okay, well if that

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was true, then I would not be living opposite a

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school for a fact. You know, there's a certain laws

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about stuff like that. But then it kind of like

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we had this conversation with me and the neighbor downstairs,

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and she said, yeah, but if you's going around telling people,

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you could end up really in a bad place. But

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you know, I said yeah, And it kind of explains

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why some people are used to sayloh to me, do

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now don't because it's the old saying, isn't it like

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the old no smoke about fire, that idiotic phrase. So, yeah,

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it's weird. I still trying to process this. It's not

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the best time to be trying to process any other

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serious stuff with what's going on with Uncle Sausages. I

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did not know what to do with that information. Also

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to find out that apparently the neighbor downstairs knows the

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person that broke into a flat. She's like a friend

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of a friend, and he didn't notice her flat. So

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he's gone and told her who organized it, which was

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the other neighbor. So I don't know if she's going

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to go to the police. I've got no idea. I can't.

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It's not for me to get involved in that stuff.

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And also it's not for me to know what's what

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is it. I don't know what's true and what's not true.

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But has absolutely blown my mind just thinking I'm walking

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around and people are thinking that of me. It's just absolutely, Yeah,

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it's weird. I should move on. I just it's all

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I've been thinking about since Friday. Yeah, Friday, that's when

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I Yeah, Friday, no Saturday, Saturday night, no Friday, Friday. Yeah,

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So since Friday afternoon, about five thirty, I remember roughly

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because uncle, well actually it was Auntie Landlord came around

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and got me to sign that form, that legal document

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that Auntie the uncle Sausages wanted me to sign. So

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I did that, and then what's her name called me

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up asked me for something. I said, a couple of

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black bags or some thing. As I went down and

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she started telling me all this stuff. Why why don't

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you know? I was like wow, because I said to

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her she was saying this stuff. I said, well, I

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don't know. I get on quite well with her, and

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she said, oh, you should hear what she said about you.

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And then when she was telling me, actually was things

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that she wouldn't know that makes sense, things that I've

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not because I've had hardly any conversations with the neighbor downstairs,

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hardly any conversations at all since she moved in. Helped

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her out a few times, actually, but we never really

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had any sit down, proper normal conversations. And it was

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the first time that we sat and talked for like

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half an hour, hadn't hadn't done that before, And she

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knew things that she wouldn't know unless she'd actually spoken

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to the other person. There's no way she'd know that stuff.

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It's very unusual, very unusual situation. I'm thinking that with

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people like that about here, I was like, I need

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to get out of here. I said to her, why

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didn't you tell me when? When she when you found out?

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When she said it, she said, I was going to,

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but you just let me know that you had bipolar,

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and I didn't want to. I was worried what your

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reaction would be. I said, I still got bipolar. You know,

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it wasn't just the weekend thing still here. I mean

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generally my reactions were internal most of the time, not always,

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but most of the time. And you know, it's kind

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of limited, limited to what I can do in these situations.

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But yeah, so that that's probably one of the biggest

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things that's happened this week for me, is hearing that

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how much of it is gossip, how much of it

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is true, how much of it But a lot of

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it was based on stuff that my neighbor would not know.

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She wouldn't know. There's no way in the world she

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could know. Should I say it one more time, she

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couldn't have known, which because I've not talked to anyone else.

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I don't talk to anyone anymore because my friend Luke's gone,

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so don't have conversations with people about what's going on locally.

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We used to chat about stuff. I suppose we'll have

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a little bit of a gossip, but generally, you know,

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since then, I don't have contact with pretty much anyone

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at all around here, apart from people I bump into

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when I'm walking over any Yeah, don't have anyone knock

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on the door or ring me. But there's this one

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person that I see that I don't see it very often,

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but i'd usually see a couple of times a week actually,

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And as I said, I visited her in hospital when

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she was lying there on oxygen. I mean you could argue, well,

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I was already I was at hospital anyway, so fair enough.

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But it's still, you know, it's a nice little bit

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of effort. I was going to give her a lift

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home as well, but she didn't get kicked out in time.

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She didn't get a parole. But the idea that someone's

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it's not even that they're going around if telling lots

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of people, you just say it to one person, that's

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enough to completely destroy everything for me. I suppose I'm

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lucky that the person she told didn't believe her, but

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at the same time still checked because it can be checked.

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You could check. There's a the whole website devoted to

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this subject. I've never even had I know, I don't drive,

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but I've never been arrested, never had a parking fine,

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never even had what do you call it a warning?

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Is it a warning about anything? I've never put in

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trouble for putting a cigarette out on the pavement. I've

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you know, it's literally nothing. My whole entire life. Saying that.

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When I was seven, I did get in trouble with

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the police, but that was because of stealing from the school.

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But the police didn't do anything to me. They just

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made me stand up and be humiliated. That's when I

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was Yeah, i was seven. But other than that, I've yeah,

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I've never had any nothing. I've got a very clean record.

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And without getting into obvious statements, I could not have

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been a counselor a therapeutic counselor counseling children adults for

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charities such as mind if I had, or, to be fair,

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possibly any criminal record. I mean, they can kind of

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override some of it, you know. If I had a

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criminal record for I'm trying to think something completely unrelated

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to human beings thirty years ago, you know, something like that.

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Maybe they can kind of override it and say, well,

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fair enough, it's a long time ago, it's not I'm

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trying to think of a scenario robin a bank. Maybe, No,

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it's probably not a good one.

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Is it.

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Stealing a tractor to carry home some pebbles from the

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beach for my petty. I'm just thinking something like that.

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It's like I stole attract I didn't, I'm saying, but like, okay,

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stole attractor is taking pebbles from a beach, stealing. Technically

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they're not owned by anyone, I guess. But then you know,

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steal detractor. It's not good. It's against the law. Get

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in trouble for that, get arrested, have a fine. The

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worst is going to be a suspended sentence, I imagine.

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But what I did notice, I've got got a friend

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who anyway, I won't go into that. Yeah, so that's very,

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very unusual. I can't live in the mode of like

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wanting to just get out of here now, move away.

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But I can't. There's no nowhere to go. But at

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the same time, I guess at least it's taken my

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attention off of Uncle's sausages for a few hours. They wow,

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he's phoning me up quite a lot when I'm not there.

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And because I gave him an iPad to watch his TV,

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you know, the sports channels, and he's struggling a little

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bit working a thing, and I said, I showed him

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how to do it, but I do understand that a

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new thing can take a while to learn, and he's

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getting confused with it, and maybe just play round of it,

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just practice, open up the different apps like that, you know,

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because it's not really any different from his TV. It's

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just instead of using a remote control, he's just touching

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the screen instead. But it's Yeah, he was saying something

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about the nurses. They're always walking off to go and pray,

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which is throwing him off a bit. And then he

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was talking about nurses on horseback and I thought an award.

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He said no, I said, well, what nurses on horses

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I don't really know what you're saying, so I'll try

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and find out what that was about. He said, they're

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on TV. I said, they're on TV. Okay, really was

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confused with that today. And then he talks about something,

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and then I'm not sure what he's talking about because

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I can't hear him very well because he's like, I

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think almost he's whispering to me because he doesn't want

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to other people to hear what is saying. Maybe or

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he doesn't want to disturb other people. I don't know.

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And I've noticed that he doesn't talk loudly anymore. He

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used to talk quiet. Not it wasn't loud, but he

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was very yeah, probably above normal normal volume level when

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he got animated and he was talking. He was never quiet.

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Now he's really quiet when he talks. I have to

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get my face really close to him. I mean literally,

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I have to get my ear inside his mouth in

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order for me to hear what he's saying, which is

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all weird visual. And it didn't used to be like that.

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I mean literally two weeks ago. He wasn't like that.

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Two weeks ago, he was with his neighbor, Del Boy,

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who is the bloke in a bed next to him.

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Uncle Sausages is walking around talking about football and stuff,

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and he was animated, and he was talking loudly and

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you know, enthusiastically, And now he's just sitting there. A

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Del Boy left, so he got out of the hospital,

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and it's just it kind of it feels a little

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bit like he's surrendered Uncle Sausages. He's just surrendered to

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the situation, which I understand is possibly part of the process.

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And he's he's having problems with his tummy, really quite

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bad problems with his tummy, which he didn't he was

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and experiencing before he went in there, although maybe it

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was a little bit, but it's you know, it's progressed.

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And he was saying, oh, I've got a tummy bug.

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I got I must have called it from from the hospital,

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which is possible, but no one else has got it.

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And well, it's kind of I think it's part of

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what he's going through and and also could be a

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reaction to the medication and stuff. I just wish I

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could just peek him up and take him out. You're

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not even allowed out of the hospital ward anymore, and

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he's in the discharge ward, so they're waiting for him

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to be I might just call this about Uncles Uncle

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Sausages update, because that way, if you don't want to

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hear about Uncle Sausages, you can just ignore this, because

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not everyone's going to want to listen to recordings that

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are like this, because you know, even though I'm not

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going to go into any kind of graphic detail or

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whatsoever it might, it's not necessarily something people are going

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to want to listen to. So I will just put

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down Uncle Sausages Update. That's fair, isn't it. Yeah, So

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if you get the Sunday Summary and let's record it

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Sunday Summary, Uncle Sausages Update. Ah, maybe I don't know,

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doesn't really matter, does anyone? Does anyone even bother worried

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about what the titles are of the recordings? Wait a minute,

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that's supposed to be Mondays, but are in objects? Does

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anyone care? I don't know. I just don't know. I

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don't know. It's weird. He was moaning about the food.

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He's still moaning about the food, and he's I think

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there's a little bit of a clash of cultures there

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because he's a you know, he's nearly eighty years old.

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He's got his religion. He hasn't really spent any time

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around people with an outwardly different religion to him, and

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you wouldn't even know what religion he was because he

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doesn't dress up or anything. So I think that's some

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kind it's a little bit of a little bit of

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a shock to his system to be around people that

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are dressed differently, and he's never been in hospital before,

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so it's kind of I think that it's a little

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bit of a culture shock being around people that are

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maybe speaking very different with a very different accent, and

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I think communication wise, he's struggling with that because I

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think they might struggle with him because he's got a

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very strong Irish accent, and some of his nurses and

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doctors have got a very strong accent from where they

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were born. So I think it's a little bit hard

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for both sides to understand what each other is saying.

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And because he can't understand, sometimes he's not asking for

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people to repeat. And I said to him, look if

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you don't if you don't know understand what someone's saying,

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maybe because they're not speaking loud enough. He's also I

467
00:40:05.119 --> 00:40:09.880
think he's a little bit he is hearing isn't as

468
00:40:09.920 --> 00:40:12.159
good as it used to be. He struggles to hear

469
00:40:12.199 --> 00:40:18.920
me on the phone, And how many people's hearing is

470
00:40:18.960 --> 00:40:22.599
as good as it used to be when they're seventy eight, realistically,

471
00:40:22.639 --> 00:40:27.400
you know, So I'm not saying anything prerogative. I'm not

472
00:40:27.400 --> 00:40:32.920
saying anything peroxide about him. So I said, look, I've

473
00:40:32.920 --> 00:40:38.119
got sausages. Just you can't ask people to repeat themselves,

474
00:40:38.599 --> 00:40:40.920
or you can even say I don't understand what you're saying.

475
00:40:41.880 --> 00:40:44.280
As long as you don't, you know, don't say it

476
00:40:44.280 --> 00:40:47.960
in a horrible way, but I don't understand what you're saying.

477
00:40:50.079 --> 00:40:55.320
And hopefully if that person has any communication skills, they

478
00:40:55.360 --> 00:40:59.920
will speak a little bit clearer and a little bit slower,

479
00:41:00.519 --> 00:41:03.480
and maybe a little bit louder, maybe or get closer

480
00:41:03.480 --> 00:41:06.840
to the person. It just seems like the obvious thing

481
00:41:08.079 --> 00:41:13.719
to do, although I've seen this so many times over

482
00:41:13.760 --> 00:41:19.000
the years, people with the same accent, like a really

483
00:41:19.039 --> 00:41:24.400
strong accent, not being able to understand each other. I've

484
00:41:24.440 --> 00:41:29.199
seen people from Glasgow, Liverpool, Newcastle talking to each other

485
00:41:29.719 --> 00:41:32.400
and they're talking so fast, and the other person says,

486
00:41:32.639 --> 00:41:40.679
huh what Now the person repeats exactly the same sentence

487
00:41:40.679 --> 00:41:44.400
as they did before, in exactly the same way, at

488
00:41:44.440 --> 00:41:48.840
exactly the same speed, with the exact same amount of mumbling,

489
00:41:50.920 --> 00:41:55.239
and then a person ah, and then they can kind

490
00:41:55.239 --> 00:41:57.960
of put it together after hearing it two or three times.

491
00:42:01.800 --> 00:42:06.760
I've noticed that for thirty forty years that people have

492
00:42:06.840 --> 00:42:09.719
the tends I say people with Some people have a

493
00:42:09.760 --> 00:42:14.639
tendency of they just repeat themselves exactly how they did before.

494
00:42:15.480 --> 00:42:18.599
But the fact that the person listening to them didn't

495
00:42:18.719 --> 00:42:23.800
understand what they said or didn't catch the full sentence

496
00:42:26.800 --> 00:42:31.360
means maybe you know, as I said, like speaking a

497
00:42:31.400 --> 00:42:36.400
little bit clearer. But I noticed that when people, For example,

498
00:42:36.559 --> 00:42:38.679
someone says I had a friend who used to sort

499
00:42:38.719 --> 00:42:44.199
of talk, and then he'd almost it's like his sentence

500
00:42:44.239 --> 00:42:47.960
would fall asleep at the end. So yeah, I'm going

501
00:42:47.960 --> 00:42:53.239
to head down to the what I'm now just going

502
00:42:53.320 --> 00:43:00.159
to head down to the world and it just drop off.

503
00:43:00.239 --> 00:43:02.280
Is like the last bit, the last word or the

504
00:43:02.360 --> 00:43:12.039
last two words were almost like fall asleep. Now, if

505
00:43:12.039 --> 00:43:15.360
someone asks me to repeat myself, because I'm perfect, of

506
00:43:15.360 --> 00:43:22.360
course I would think, oh, they didn't understand what I said,

507
00:43:22.679 --> 00:43:25.920
So maybe I'm mumbled, and I mumble everyone. I'm imagine

508
00:43:25.960 --> 00:43:30.480
everyone mumbled. Sometimes I love mumbling. It makes me makes

509
00:43:30.480 --> 00:43:31.079
me horny.

510
00:43:31.519 --> 00:43:33.039
So it.

511
00:43:34.760 --> 00:43:42.079
That was a really weird thing to say, and the

512
00:43:44.199 --> 00:43:53.960
has thrown me off. I thrown myself off. Wow, thrown

513
00:43:54.039 --> 00:43:56.639
myself off? That sounds weird as well. Isn't it. Stop

514
00:43:56.719 --> 00:44:02.599
throwing yourself off. There's people, we've got company. You're ruining

515
00:44:02.639 --> 00:44:10.400
the Christmas dinner. Well yeah, anyway, I just I don't

516
00:44:10.440 --> 00:44:12.119
even know why I'm talking about that while I'm talking

517
00:44:12.119 --> 00:44:16.440
about people mumbling, oh yeah, the nurses or the doctors.

518
00:44:17.239 --> 00:44:21.679
So in his last ward, so he'd been in one.

519
00:44:21.880 --> 00:44:25.119
This is fourth ward he's been in. The first one

520
00:44:25.280 --> 00:44:29.039
was in the accident emergency department, so it was in

521
00:44:29.119 --> 00:44:33.880
the ward there while he was being scanned and blood

522
00:44:33.960 --> 00:44:37.119
tests and all that stuff. So it was an award.

523
00:44:37.199 --> 00:44:41.880
But he then got moved after two days or it was.

524
00:44:41.880 --> 00:44:44.559
He had a Friday night, got moved on a Saturday

525
00:44:45.639 --> 00:44:52.800
to a new ward, to another ward. But he was

526
00:44:52.840 --> 00:44:57.800
only in there for about two days, maybe three days,

527
00:44:57.840 --> 00:45:01.320
two or three days, and then he got moved to

528
00:45:02.000 --> 00:45:04.519
the ward he was in before he moved to this

529
00:45:04.599 --> 00:45:09.239
new one to start with. He liked it in there.

530
00:45:09.800 --> 00:45:12.159
I wouldn't say liked. I mean he didn't. He didn't

531
00:45:12.159 --> 00:45:17.760
wake up every morning singing, you know, he didn't. He

532
00:45:17.840 --> 00:45:25.800
doesn't like it, but he liked the other patients. Dell

533
00:45:25.920 --> 00:45:29.039
Boy lived next to him. I think some other bloke

534
00:45:29.239 --> 00:45:34.159
that Big Paul or every Cardon was opposite, and then

535
00:45:34.159 --> 00:45:36.360
there was another bloke that was the other side opposite,

536
00:45:36.440 --> 00:45:40.360
but he he was asleep most of the time, but

537
00:45:40.519 --> 00:45:43.159
his wife used to come and chat to us. She

538
00:45:43.280 --> 00:45:52.320
was in here every single day. And excuse him, Alise

539
00:45:52.400 --> 00:46:05.639
going downside when the squeaky voice put off? What was

540
00:46:05.679 --> 00:46:11.679
I was gonna say? Yeah, when del Boy moved out,

541
00:46:17.159 --> 00:46:22.159
he had a new person move in and he didn't

542
00:46:22.239 --> 00:46:27.400
like him. Uncle Sausages took a dislike to this person.

543
00:46:27.800 --> 00:46:30.039
He thought that they were talking about him and stuff,

544
00:46:31.719 --> 00:46:35.719
and he thought that he was getting a preferential treatment.

545
00:46:37.599 --> 00:46:41.800
But the ward nurse because I called the ward nurse

546
00:46:42.880 --> 00:46:45.320
when Uncle Sausages told me this, and we got together

547
00:46:45.400 --> 00:46:49.960
and had a conversation. Has She explained that everybody's got

548
00:46:49.960 --> 00:46:53.559
different needs because they were all in the same ward

549
00:46:53.960 --> 00:46:59.840
for the same reason, but variations of that reason and

550
00:47:02.239 --> 00:47:08.400
at various stages of the condition as well. So this

551
00:47:08.400 --> 00:47:15.800
person had more personal needs than Uncle Sausages has. And

552
00:47:16.039 --> 00:47:19.039
Uncle Sausages was saying, Oh, I think he's private because

553
00:47:19.039 --> 00:47:21.679
he keeps clicking his fingers, which I'm sure he didn't,

554
00:47:21.719 --> 00:47:25.519
but kept asking for help with stuff, and that was annoying.

555
00:47:25.960 --> 00:47:29.679
Uncle Sausages and I tried to explain that if he

556
00:47:29.800 --> 00:47:33.360
was private, he wouldn't be in a ward with other people.

557
00:47:34.280 --> 00:47:38.639
You know that he his own places, in his own room,

558
00:47:38.840 --> 00:47:43.360
He definitely wouldn't be in that ward with everyone. But

559
00:47:45.639 --> 00:47:49.039
I think I think it's kind of just being stuck

560
00:47:49.079 --> 00:47:54.800
in one place. It was really just winding them up.

561
00:47:55.599 --> 00:47:57.360
And then he started thinking that they were saying that

562
00:47:57.400 --> 00:48:00.039
he was yeah, I want to say the word, but

563
00:48:00.480 --> 00:48:02.719
that they were kind of talking about him as if

564
00:48:02.719 --> 00:48:11.639
he was a criminal, some kind of you know, because

565
00:48:11.639 --> 00:48:16.760
of his name or his accent or whatever. And he

566
00:48:16.880 --> 00:48:21.960
started saying, don't you call me paranoid, because because he

567
00:48:22.039 --> 00:48:27.360
sort of said, maybe you're just you know, it might

568
00:48:27.440 --> 00:48:32.719
just be bored. It's almost like he was trying to

569
00:48:32.760 --> 00:48:38.239
create some drama but not meaning to. But then there's

570
00:48:38.280 --> 00:48:43.679
also confusion based on the condition, the medication. Just being

571
00:48:43.719 --> 00:48:48.920
in that environment. I feel confused now, just back and

572
00:48:48.960 --> 00:48:53.119
forward there when I'm in there, I just it is

573
00:48:54.719 --> 00:49:00.639
it's quite a confusing experience. So he must be yeah,

574
00:49:00.679 --> 00:49:10.840
all over the place. And then they moved him to

575
00:49:11.079 --> 00:49:15.800
this new ward and he was saying, oh, that bloke

576
00:49:15.920 --> 00:49:22.239
one he got uncle sausages kicked out and moved, which

577
00:49:22.280 --> 00:49:28.920
isn't true at all. It's basically he was moved to

578
00:49:28.960 --> 00:49:35.760
the discharge ward. I'm sure there's a few discharge wards

579
00:49:36.079 --> 00:49:38.840
in the hospitals, but he was moved to one of

580
00:49:38.880 --> 00:49:45.519
the discharge wards because he's being discharged, although it might

581
00:49:45.599 --> 00:49:53.000
take a while because he got asked by the hospice

582
00:49:54.320 --> 00:49:57.519
or a discharged nurse. But I think she's part of

583
00:49:57.559 --> 00:50:01.880
the hospice as well. And she said, he said, uncle, sausage,

584
00:50:01.920 --> 00:50:05.840
what have you? What have you decided? Because she she

585
00:50:05.880 --> 00:50:09.000
came a week before and she came in saying that

586
00:50:09.159 --> 00:50:12.280
you decided what you want to do yet? And he said, well,

587
00:50:12.280 --> 00:50:14.719
I don't want to go home. He didn't want to

588
00:50:14.760 --> 00:50:18.400
come back to the flat because of the mess and

589
00:50:18.480 --> 00:50:21.280
stuff like that there. She doesn't want to come back

590
00:50:21.320 --> 00:50:26.320
here what she did originally, And she said, or what

591
00:50:26.360 --> 00:50:29.559
do you want? He said, well, she said, do you

592
00:50:29.599 --> 00:50:34.440
want to go into a care home? She said, he said, no, hospice.

593
00:50:35.239 --> 00:50:37.400
That's what he told her, which I was a little

594
00:50:37.400 --> 00:50:41.000
bit surprised about because I've never I didn't think that

595
00:50:41.119 --> 00:50:44.360
was something that you could choose to do. I thought

596
00:50:44.400 --> 00:50:47.920
it was something that you I don't know, I just

597
00:50:49.000 --> 00:50:50.960
I thought it had gone for a care home, because

598
00:50:52.199 --> 00:50:54.639
I imagine that would be a much nicer environment and he'd

599
00:50:54.679 --> 00:51:02.639
make friends and stuff, and thinking about it as possibly

600
00:51:02.880 --> 00:51:06.719
where he should have been anyway, not not like a

601
00:51:06.800 --> 00:51:10.079
care home, but in a kind of a residential home

602
00:51:12.760 --> 00:51:15.239
where he was having his he was being looked after.

603
00:51:16.119 --> 00:51:19.119
He's got a few needs, just he'd have been looked after,

604
00:51:19.239 --> 00:51:21.239
and I think that's I think he'd have been much

605
00:51:21.280 --> 00:51:25.480
happier if he'd have had that for the last few years,

606
00:51:25.559 --> 00:51:30.440
just somewhere where he had his own room, ideally getting

607
00:51:30.440 --> 00:51:34.360
fed every day, he could watch you know, I have

608
00:51:34.559 --> 00:51:37.280
an own TV. He could watch sport all day long

609
00:51:37.320 --> 00:51:40.280
if he wanted. He'd also be able to have company,

610
00:51:40.800 --> 00:51:44.119
because he loves to talk to people. He's a people's person,

611
00:51:45.280 --> 00:51:51.199
and which is ironic because he's also solitary like me.

612
00:51:53.480 --> 00:51:55.480
And I think that's part of the reason why I've

613
00:51:55.519 --> 00:51:59.559
really tried to help him over the last year or so.

614
00:52:00.400 --> 00:52:02.280
I've always been there if he needed me since I've

615
00:52:02.280 --> 00:52:05.519
been there for ten years. But they kind of got

616
00:52:05.559 --> 00:52:07.800
a bit closer over the last year because of stuff

617
00:52:07.840 --> 00:52:11.480
with his flat and bills, and he couldn't he couldn't

618
00:52:11.480 --> 00:52:14.159
communicate on the phone anymore with people. So he helped

619
00:52:14.239 --> 00:52:20.079
got me to help him do it. And he loves chatting,

620
00:52:21.760 --> 00:52:27.760
loves people really, a bit like Finny loves humans. But

621
00:52:27.800 --> 00:52:31.679
he lives a solitary life what has done where he

622
00:52:31.719 --> 00:52:35.679
doesn't see anyone really unless he goes out to the

623
00:52:35.719 --> 00:52:38.760
petrol station or goes to the chip van. They all

624
00:52:38.800 --> 00:52:42.320
know him at the chip van because he chats to everyone.

625
00:52:42.480 --> 00:52:46.760
They feel like they know him because every you know,

626
00:52:46.800 --> 00:52:51.719
once a week he's there waiting for the chips, fish

627
00:52:51.800 --> 00:52:57.719
and chips and four cans of drink and a bad sausage.

628
00:52:58.519 --> 00:53:00.280
I even know what he gets now because got it

629
00:53:00.320 --> 00:53:07.840
fro him before. Mushy peas and curry source. I think.

630
00:53:09.199 --> 00:53:13.320
But they they really they love him in there. They're

631
00:53:13.360 --> 00:53:16.280
just because he talks then about because the thing is

632
00:53:16.400 --> 00:53:21.000
because they're I think they're I don't know what country

633
00:53:21.000 --> 00:53:29.280
they're from. Uncle Sausages does. And that's the thing. So

634
00:53:29.440 --> 00:53:32.079
Uncle Sosages hasn't he doesn't have a problem with people

635
00:53:32.119 --> 00:53:36.400
for being from other countries. It's just because his normal

636
00:53:36.440 --> 00:53:38.480
thing is. I've seen him do it with the security

637
00:53:38.480 --> 00:53:41.239
guards when we first went in to hospital. He was

638
00:53:41.280 --> 00:53:47.039
asking them where they were from. Specifically, so he could

639
00:53:47.079 --> 00:53:50.440
talk about sport. So if he saw someone who like,

640
00:53:50.480 --> 00:53:54.719
they're from India or from Pakistan or from that kind

641
00:53:54.719 --> 00:53:58.599
of part of the world, he'd go cricket. So where

642
00:53:58.719 --> 00:54:03.559
you're from, if they said old Bangladesh and it goes

643
00:54:03.599 --> 00:54:11.519
to cricket. If if he got someone that says, oh,

644
00:54:11.519 --> 00:54:16.440
they're from Cingali or they're from Jamaica or whatever, it'd

645
00:54:16.519 --> 00:54:21.239
talk about whatever, kind of probably football, you know, if

646
00:54:21.239 --> 00:54:25.760
someone is from Spain or Italy football, it kind of

647
00:54:25.800 --> 00:54:28.960
go with whatever is the national sport. But if someone

648
00:54:29.000 --> 00:54:35.199
was from Australia, he'd go cricket, do you know what

649
00:54:35.239 --> 00:54:38.280
I mean. So he's kind of that's he's interesting where

650
00:54:38.280 --> 00:54:41.800
people are from. But because people aren't talking to him,

651
00:54:41.840 --> 00:54:43.679
the nurses are not and the doctors are not there

652
00:54:44.159 --> 00:54:49.079
to talk about sport. They're there to, yeah, save people's

653
00:54:49.079 --> 00:54:53.000
lives and to do their rounds and they've got to

654
00:54:53.000 --> 00:54:59.000
get to the next person. So I think it's I

655
00:54:59.039 --> 00:55:01.480
guess since he feels like he's been silenced a bit,

656
00:55:02.360 --> 00:55:07.039
and I'm hoping that he gets out there as soon

657
00:55:07.079 --> 00:55:10.239
as possible. I hope it will be a care home

658
00:55:12.400 --> 00:55:18.920
because then he'll be around people and possibly he'll ever

659
00:55:19.440 --> 00:55:21.440
be able to have a nice chat with people and

660
00:55:21.599 --> 00:55:27.480
be able to just, I don't know, be himself again.

661
00:55:29.199 --> 00:55:30.679
But then I don't know how much of him not

662
00:55:30.679 --> 00:55:35.559
being himself is because of the see I'll tell you

663
00:55:35.599 --> 00:55:38.000
what it is breaking my heart. You know, this whole situation.

664
00:55:38.639 --> 00:55:40.880
I know it's supposed to perhaps I shouldn't call this

665
00:55:41.000 --> 00:55:44.119
to let me boy to sleep. It's hard. It's hard,

666
00:55:45.000 --> 00:55:48.599
but he doesn't seem to be himself anymore the way

667
00:55:48.639 --> 00:55:51.960
he used to. It goes in and out of it.

668
00:55:51.960 --> 00:55:58.880
It's not just personality wise. I mean, he's getting angry

669
00:55:58.920 --> 00:56:01.159
during the week, and I've never I've seen him angry before,

670
00:56:02.280 --> 00:56:05.400
but he's gone through a little periods of anger and

671
00:56:05.800 --> 00:56:09.599
telling me off, like okay, I would normally put up

672
00:56:09.599 --> 00:56:17.440
with that, Oh well yeah, it's sometimes I would be like,

673
00:56:18.039 --> 00:56:24.679
you know, go go yourself, like that's it. But I

674
00:56:24.719 --> 00:56:28.760
can't because that would be the wrong, wrong thing to do.

675
00:56:29.760 --> 00:56:33.800
So I'm kind of just trying to stick with it

676
00:56:33.880 --> 00:56:44.880
and hope that he gets released or gets discharged. It's

677
00:56:44.960 --> 00:56:48.199
quite funny, isn't it, Considering the nurses and care workers

678
00:56:48.239 --> 00:56:51.760
I have to deal with discharges all day long. He's

679
00:56:51.800 --> 00:56:58.639
in the discharge ward, which there are anyway, so he is.

680
00:57:00.559 --> 00:57:01.920
I don't know if he's going to be out of

681
00:57:01.920 --> 00:57:03.840
there by the end of the week, the end of

682
00:57:03.920 --> 00:57:07.480
next week, well it starts tomorrow, doesn't it really Monday?

683
00:57:08.519 --> 00:57:12.480
I don't know. But the nurse that he spoke to

684
00:57:12.679 --> 00:57:17.119
regarding getting discharged where he'd like to go, she's on it,

685
00:57:17.679 --> 00:57:23.519
and they've been on it for They started last Thursday,

686
00:57:23.639 --> 00:57:27.440
not this Thursday, got on the one before, so they've

687
00:57:27.440 --> 00:57:32.199
been on it for over a week already, trying to

688
00:57:32.239 --> 00:57:41.760
find him somewhere to move. And if he doesn't come

689
00:57:41.800 --> 00:57:48.280
back here. I didn't realize this, they literally will stop

690
00:57:48.320 --> 00:57:51.239
his money and give him twenty pounds a week to

691
00:57:51.280 --> 00:57:54.719
live on. Someone told me that. I don't know if

692
00:57:54.719 --> 00:57:59.480
it's true or not, and I realized that'll be getting

693
00:57:59.480 --> 00:58:04.039
all his meals and he'll be getting you know, he'll

694
00:58:04.119 --> 00:58:10.320
get somewhere to live in that, but he's twenty pounds

695
00:58:10.320 --> 00:58:18.960
a week. It's if you want some new clothes, what

696
00:58:19.000 --> 00:58:20.559
if he wants to buy you know what I mean,

697
00:58:20.719 --> 00:58:24.400
just he wants to because who know, if you don't know,

698
00:58:24.480 --> 00:58:31.119
they're giving him three an amount of time three and

699
00:58:35.719 --> 00:58:38.719
how long a give But he might you know, he

700
00:58:38.800 --> 00:58:41.880
may be around for a lot longer. Hopefully he is,

701
00:58:42.719 --> 00:58:46.199
so he might because I said to him, when you do,

702
00:58:46.320 --> 00:58:50.760
if you get a nice room in a care home,

703
00:58:52.840 --> 00:58:57.480
get yourself a big old TV. You know, just just

704
00:58:58.119 --> 00:59:00.280
I didn't say, I didn't say you must get awful

705
00:59:00.320 --> 00:59:03.679
to but get a nice TV. He's got a little

706
00:59:03.719 --> 00:59:06.599
one way he lives. I don't know why. It's not little,

707
00:59:06.599 --> 00:59:11.199
but it's kind of quite small, although he likes it.

708
00:59:11.280 --> 00:59:14.840
He likes to set up he's got before. But I said,

709
00:59:14.920 --> 00:59:20.280
just get a massive TV if you can. And what's

710
00:59:20.360 --> 00:59:24.199
weird is he's got a huge collection of magazines, sports

711
00:59:24.280 --> 00:59:33.119
magazines like football programs and things like that, cricket, rugby. Yeah.

712
00:59:33.280 --> 00:59:35.280
I said to him, what do you want to do

713
00:59:35.320 --> 00:59:37.039
with that stuff? And he said, just get rid of it.

714
00:59:42.679 --> 00:59:48.840
I mean, he had his whole flat cleared out just

715
00:59:48.840 --> 00:59:54.639
before Christmas because of I'd just say his collection is

716
00:59:54.719 --> 00:59:59.159
collecting and got out of hand. Okay, but he still

717
00:59:59.159 --> 01:00:02.559
managed to keep whold with thousands and thousands of magazines,

718
01:00:05.320 --> 01:00:13.599
like every drawer, every cupboard's full. And now he's willing

719
01:00:13.760 --> 01:00:20.239
to just like just chuck it away. And that just

720
01:00:20.320 --> 01:00:30.480
seems it just seems wrong. To do that. I mean, technically,

721
01:00:30.559 --> 01:00:32.519
I haven't got to do anything that council can come

722
01:00:32.519 --> 01:00:36.119
and do that, but i'd kind of like I'll speak

723
01:00:36.159 --> 01:00:38.039
to him and say, look, is there anything personal you

724
01:00:38.039 --> 01:00:40.559
want me to go through and get rid of or

725
01:00:41.719 --> 01:00:44.119
get for you to take into the home or put

726
01:00:44.119 --> 01:00:46.800
it into storage because he might have you know, he's

727
01:00:46.840 --> 01:00:48.960
got a big bible. I'm sure he doesn't want that

728
01:00:49.039 --> 01:00:52.760
chucked out, and he probably wants that to go to

729
01:00:52.840 --> 01:00:56.679
someone because honestly, it's like the size of the table massive.

730
01:00:57.360 --> 01:00:59.960
Someone gave it to him I think is uncle pay

731
01:01:00.039 --> 01:01:03.159
should go to him when he was a kid, so

732
01:01:04.079 --> 01:01:09.599
he's had that for forever. It's like big bound bible

733
01:01:10.360 --> 01:01:12.599
and it's like in a little booklet thing, so it's

734
01:01:12.760 --> 01:01:15.719
what big booklet thing. So it's very kind of kept

735
01:01:15.920 --> 01:01:22.400
kept well. And he might have personal stuff. He might

736
01:01:22.440 --> 01:01:27.320
have photographs, you know, family photographs, things like that. I

737
01:01:27.320 --> 01:01:30.280
don't know where they are, So I'm going to ask him,

738
01:01:30.480 --> 01:01:32.559
is this stuff in your flat that you want me

739
01:01:32.599 --> 01:01:36.800
to get for you? Photographs? Just I don't know any

740
01:01:37.440 --> 01:01:44.079
sentimental things because unless they allow him to come back

741
01:01:44.119 --> 01:01:51.639
to the flat to go through the stuff. But I

742
01:01:51.679 --> 01:01:53.519
imagine that'd be really hard for you. He said, he

743
01:01:53.519 --> 01:01:56.119
doesn't want to set foot in the place again. But

744
01:01:56.159 --> 01:01:59.199
I imagine that'd be hard, very hard for him to

745
01:01:59.239 --> 01:02:04.199
go back into that flat now after this, because he's

746
01:02:04.199 --> 01:02:10.760
lived there for thirty years, nearly twenty six years, ninety nine.

747
01:02:10.800 --> 01:02:17.679
I think he moved in there. So I don't know

748
01:02:18.000 --> 01:02:22.880
it's going to be. It just doesn't seem right that

749
01:02:23.400 --> 01:02:28.119
because I saw this with Luke. When Luke left, left me,

750
01:02:28.920 --> 01:02:34.199
left us, left the world. His flat was completely full

751
01:02:34.239 --> 01:02:42.880
of stuff. His family, immediate family came around because I

752
01:02:42.920 --> 01:02:44.880
had the key to his flat, I had a spare

753
01:02:44.960 --> 01:02:48.280
key up here, so I let.

754
01:02:48.079 --> 01:02:48.480
Them in.

755
01:02:50.159 --> 01:02:57.239
And they just took a few bits, like just like

756
01:02:57.440 --> 01:03:00.880
personal items like a T shirt still had his smell

757
01:03:00.920 --> 01:03:03.239
on and stuff like that, still like his sisters and

758
01:03:03.280 --> 01:03:07.239
his mum just keepsakes. And that was it. And then

759
01:03:07.239 --> 01:03:12.760
they tossed me the keyback, and he didn't want to go.

760
01:03:12.960 --> 01:03:15.199
They didn't want to set foot into that place again.

761
01:03:19.920 --> 01:03:22.920
And then I think a couple of week, yeah, then

762
01:03:22.960 --> 01:03:28.199
what happened is, no, I didn't take the key back.

763
01:03:28.320 --> 01:03:30.639
I said to a sister, keep the key. I don't

764
01:03:30.679 --> 01:03:34.559
want to I'm not going in there anymore. Either and

765
01:03:34.639 --> 01:03:36.239
I want to go in I didn't want to go

766
01:03:36.280 --> 01:03:42.559
in there. And so basically then another friend of his

767
01:03:43.079 --> 01:03:47.079
got ahold of the key, was given the key, and

768
01:03:47.119 --> 01:03:51.800
he went in there and started taking stuff out bit

769
01:03:51.880 --> 01:03:55.039
by bit, over like a week or two, got rid

770
01:03:55.079 --> 01:03:57.280
of as much as he could, anything that he could

771
01:03:57.280 --> 01:04:07.960
sell really to be honest or use. And then when

772
01:04:08.000 --> 01:04:11.880
the council came round to empty the place, this is

773
01:04:11.920 --> 01:04:17.880
something that I found very difficult actually, because they were

774
01:04:18.000 --> 01:04:26.840
very I only use the word unprofessional, but to be fair,

775
01:04:26.880 --> 01:04:32.199
what they're doing, they probably don't hire people with It's

776
01:04:32.320 --> 01:04:36.039
kind of perhaps they don't even think beyond what they're doing.

777
01:04:36.559 --> 01:04:40.960
They don't realize that actually when they're empty in someone's

778
01:04:41.000 --> 01:04:47.239
flat belongings, Okay, that person's not there anymore, but the

779
01:04:47.280 --> 01:04:53.119
other people around in the other flats, the neighbors may

780
01:04:53.119 --> 01:04:58.000
be very close to that person still be grieving. And

781
01:04:58.039 --> 01:05:03.159
the way they were treating his stuff, and we literally

782
01:05:03.199 --> 01:05:06.239
heard one and say what a bunch of junk as

783
01:05:06.239 --> 01:05:08.519
he was chucking it onto the back of a lorry

784
01:05:09.039 --> 01:05:11.840
and he was smashing this stuff up with a big hammer,

785
01:05:12.119 --> 01:05:17.000
a big mallet thing like outside the front, just to

786
01:05:17.039 --> 01:05:24.400
make more room and I just found that so disrespectful.

787
01:05:29.039 --> 01:05:31.679
But I don't think they did it with disrespect. I

788
01:05:31.679 --> 01:05:36.159
think they I think maybe they just to them it's

789
01:05:36.239 --> 01:05:39.599
just a job. They're clearing out a flat. They don't

790
01:05:39.679 --> 01:05:44.039
know what the situation is. A lot of people leave flats.

791
01:05:44.199 --> 01:05:48.000
They just move out, you know, it's and leave all

792
01:05:48.000 --> 01:05:51.760
their stuff in there, so that before they know it

793
01:05:51.760 --> 01:05:53.719
could be just someone that's just moved to a different

794
01:05:53.760 --> 01:05:56.920
town or just hadn't paid the rent for two years

795
01:05:56.960 --> 01:06:01.159
and skipped, you know, ran out, so they didn't they

796
01:06:01.159 --> 01:06:11.280
didn't know what the situation was. But still just I

797
01:06:11.320 --> 01:06:15.880
don't know, It's hard to explain it. I mean, I'm

798
01:06:15.960 --> 01:06:20.519
pretty sure if I'd have done that job, I might

799
01:06:21.159 --> 01:06:23.119
I might have said the same thing. I might have liked,

800
01:06:23.119 --> 01:06:25.480
Oh what a bunch of rubbish, what's all this stuff?

801
01:06:26.880 --> 01:06:30.480
I might have done, And maybe I might even do now,

802
01:06:30.480 --> 01:06:32.679
if you know. But maybe in the past, if I

803
01:06:32.960 --> 01:06:36.320
because I've had jobs where I've cleaned and stuff, so

804
01:06:36.480 --> 01:06:44.000
maybe I'd have had the same attitude. Perhaps I've become

805
01:06:44.039 --> 01:06:51.559
a bit more. I've always been quite sensitive, but I

806
01:06:51.599 --> 01:06:57.320
think I was more sensitive about myself towards myself when

807
01:06:57.360 --> 01:07:01.480
I was younger, I've become more sensitive towards other people

808
01:07:01.840 --> 01:07:07.400
as I got older. It's yeah, I think that's probably

809
01:07:07.400 --> 01:07:10.639
what it was. So I'm I've always been a sensitive person,

810
01:07:11.840 --> 01:07:14.960
I would say to a degree, depending on the situation,

811
01:07:15.840 --> 01:07:24.960
depending on my mood. But yeah, so I don't really

812
01:07:25.000 --> 01:07:28.000
want someone to be doing that with Uncle Sausages flat

813
01:07:29.000 --> 01:07:36.519
going in there shouting out about how whatever messy it

814
01:07:36.639 --> 01:07:42.760
is or or saw this rubbish or because that would

815
01:07:42.800 --> 01:07:52.000
just be disrespectful. So I'm kind of in my in

816
01:07:52.079 --> 01:07:55.320
my mind thinking, well, maybe I'll say to Uncle Sausages,

817
01:07:55.880 --> 01:07:59.800
if you want me to start bagging stuff up, clearing

818
01:07:59.840 --> 01:08:03.239
out the place so that when the council come, all

819
01:08:03.239 --> 01:08:05.119
they've got to do is just get rid of the furniture.

820
01:08:06.159 --> 01:08:08.000
So I can't I got nowhere to put the furniture,

821
01:08:08.039 --> 01:08:10.920
but I can get rid of the belongings and see

822
01:08:10.960 --> 01:08:14.000
if he's anything he needs. So, you know, because he's

823
01:08:14.000 --> 01:08:17.199
got thousands of well or thousands be probably hundreds of

824
01:08:17.760 --> 01:08:22.880
newspaper articles on various sporting events. He's got tickets from

825
01:08:23.399 --> 01:08:30.479
sporting events that he's attended, Yeah, so much. Because he

826
01:08:30.600 --> 01:08:34.920
loves sports. That's his it's not just a hobby, it's

827
01:08:35.000 --> 01:08:44.000
his life, but it's weird today. He said, the iPad's

828
01:08:44.039 --> 01:08:47.079
not working, or it wasn't working properly, or he couldn't

829
01:08:47.079 --> 01:08:51.279
get it to work. And I said, well, I'll try

830
01:08:51.319 --> 01:08:55.359
and talk it through with you. And I said, so

831
01:08:56.880 --> 01:08:58.960
you want the BBC app don't you actually want to

832
01:08:58.960 --> 01:09:02.760
watch Wimbledon? He said, oh, I can't involved. We've been Wimbledon.

833
01:09:04.600 --> 01:09:06.600
I didn't think I'd ever hear that sentence come out

834
01:09:06.640 --> 01:09:11.720
of his mouth. Didn't care about Wimbledon, the wimbled men's finals,

835
01:09:12.680 --> 01:09:14.600
which is one of the biggest sporting events in this

836
01:09:14.720 --> 01:09:19.319
country in a year. It's one of the biggest events

837
01:09:18.800 --> 01:09:23.640
the well, the men's and the female finals and maybe

838
01:09:23.680 --> 01:09:26.800
doubles and the wheelchair as well, but just the finals,

839
01:09:26.800 --> 01:09:30.960
you know, the final weekend, That's what I'm trying to say.

840
01:09:31.800 --> 01:09:34.359
And he just didn't have any interest. Yeah, he's been

841
01:09:34.359 --> 01:09:37.000
watching Wimbledon. He's had it on TV for the last

842
01:09:37.000 --> 01:09:41.520
two weeks in the other ward because he had a

843
01:09:41.560 --> 01:09:45.439
TV which was on the kind of not a ceiling

844
01:09:45.479 --> 01:09:49.199
but wasn't on the ceiling, but it was quite high up,

845
01:09:49.279 --> 01:09:51.920
so he had that and he was playing the whole time,

846
01:09:52.000 --> 01:09:58.600
you know, all day long. So yeah, it's kind of strange,

847
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:09.680
any any any very strange. I do hope though, if

848
01:10:09.720 --> 01:10:15.119
he gets to go into a care home, that it's

849
01:10:15.199 --> 01:10:20.560
not too far away, because it's cost me a fortune

850
01:10:20.640 --> 01:10:28.000
getting to him the last three and a bit weeks,

851
01:10:30.920 --> 01:10:33.199
and the further he is away, the less. So I'm

852
01:10:33.239 --> 01:10:36.079
going to be able to travel to see him, because

853
01:10:36.119 --> 01:10:41.399
it's not just about expense, which is quite a big thing,

854
01:10:41.479 --> 01:10:47.840
but it's also time and leaving a little Vinnie on

855
01:10:47.880 --> 01:10:52.279
his own for too long. I know, technically I should

856
01:10:52.279 --> 01:10:56.199
be able to leave him all day long, but he's

857
01:10:56.239 --> 01:11:01.359
never been left alone. And since I had him, I've

858
01:11:01.399 --> 01:11:04.640
been with him pretty much twenty four hours a day

859
01:11:06.239 --> 01:11:09.359
for two and a half years. However long it's been,

860
01:11:10.720 --> 01:11:17.319
so to suddenly be leaving him alone for five six

861
01:11:17.399 --> 01:11:22.159
hours is I think it's been a bit traumatic for

862
01:11:22.239 --> 01:11:32.520
him and he never gets used to it. I mean,

863
01:11:32.520 --> 01:11:35.439
I have left him alone for a few hours, like

864
01:11:35.840 --> 01:11:40.960
really rarely, very rare, but generally if I go out,

865
01:11:41.000 --> 01:11:45.119
I take him with me pretty much all the time,

866
01:11:46.359 --> 01:11:49.399
and I haven't been able to do that. And you

867
01:11:49.439 --> 01:11:51.800
know why I didn't go. I didn't take him to

868
01:11:51.840 --> 01:11:55.000
the hospital. Organized to take him to the hospital, but

869
01:11:55.039 --> 01:11:57.239
I couldn't take him, you know why not. This was

870
01:11:57.239 --> 01:12:00.239
a couple of weeks ago because I was is it

871
01:12:00.279 --> 01:12:05.119
in that other neighbor who was on oxygen, and I

872
01:12:05.119 --> 01:12:07.439
thought i'd go and visit her. Can't take Vinie into

873
01:12:07.439 --> 01:12:10.840
that ward, so I'd have to leave him here. Because

874
01:12:11.000 --> 01:12:13.560
you know, I was visiting uncle Sausages. I thought I

875
01:12:13.880 --> 01:12:16.840
visited her as well, So I didn't take Annie. So

876
01:12:17.039 --> 01:12:19.920
Uncle's Sausages, didn't get to say Vinny, who he's been

877
01:12:19.920 --> 01:12:24.920
looking forward to seeing. Then I find out what she's

878
01:12:24.960 --> 01:12:33.279
been up to. Absolutely amazing. Let it go, baby, let

879
01:12:33.279 --> 01:12:42.800
it go. I have no you haven't, I know, I haven't. Oh,

880
01:12:42.840 --> 01:12:52.600
so you know this. I'm hoping that something happens in

881
01:12:52.640 --> 01:12:58.359
a positive way. As far as his being moved out

882
01:13:00.079 --> 01:13:03.840
this week. It'd be great if he can find somewhere

883
01:13:03.880 --> 01:13:07.359
or if they can find somewhere for him that's relatively

884
01:13:07.439 --> 01:13:13.000
close to hear, although he's not going to ask for that,

885
01:13:13.640 --> 01:13:16.680
but he you know, as long as it's central, even

886
01:13:16.840 --> 01:13:20.159
central in the town, I can get to. If it's central,

887
01:13:20.159 --> 01:13:22.319
I can get there a lot lot easier than where

888
01:13:22.319 --> 01:13:25.000
he is at the moment. You know, if it's just

889
01:13:25.079 --> 01:13:36.039
one bus rather than two buses and then I can

890
01:13:36.199 --> 01:13:44.800
you know, just he'll have people around him. And all

891
01:13:44.840 --> 01:13:47.039
the nurses were saying that they liked him. He was

892
01:13:47.039 --> 01:13:53.119
a lovely man, and you know he's he's a friendly bloke.

893
01:14:04.439 --> 01:14:06.640
I think he's just, you know, kind of had enough

894
01:14:06.680 --> 01:14:10.960
of being there, really just wants to wants to get out,

895
01:14:14.199 --> 01:14:17.239
wants to have a bit of freedom. He wants his parole.

896
01:14:17.479 --> 01:14:20.439
That's what he wants. He wants his paroles. So he

897
01:14:20.479 --> 01:14:29.319
does bless him. So it was really weird. I didn't

898
01:14:30.000 --> 01:14:36.640
made an image yesterday, used chet GPT. All I asked

899
01:14:36.840 --> 01:14:46.239
is make a man, elderly man made of sausages. Okay,

900
01:14:46.319 --> 01:14:51.399
his uncle sausages. Isn't he have sitting on a bed,

901
01:14:51.960 --> 01:14:57.359
Have Jack Russell next to the bed licking his lips?

902
01:14:59.279 --> 01:15:05.520
And then I said, add a whiskey, wispy white hair

903
01:15:05.760 --> 01:15:12.720
or wavy white hair, and a baseball cap. And the

904
01:15:12.760 --> 01:15:19.880
ironic thing is the face actually looks like him, like

905
01:15:20.039 --> 01:15:23.279
he's got the same kind of same features. I'm talking

906
01:15:23.319 --> 01:15:26.079
about the same kind of eyes, same kind of mouth,

907
01:15:26.159 --> 01:15:32.560
same kind of jaw. He was uncanny. It's really strange,

908
01:15:32.960 --> 01:15:36.039
especially with that baseball cap and the hair, because he's

909
01:15:36.039 --> 01:15:39.199
got quite long hair and it's very you know, quite

910
01:15:39.479 --> 01:15:42.960
you know, I don't know, it looks like him, not

911
01:15:43.000 --> 01:15:47.239
the sausages park, because he's not made of sausages. We

912
01:15:47.319 --> 01:15:51.479
call him uncalled sausages or Vinnie does, because that's the

913
01:15:51.560 --> 01:15:55.680
thing that he gets thro him. He goes to the

914
01:15:55.920 --> 01:15:57.720
I don't know if he goes up the road to

915
01:15:57.800 --> 01:16:00.399
the shops, but he gets these sausage is in a

916
01:16:00.439 --> 01:16:03.640
pack and there's those robbery ones that I don't think

917
01:16:03.720 --> 01:16:06.159
are fit for human consumption, but I think they are

918
01:16:06.199 --> 01:16:12.600
sold for humans and their robbery and savaloi ish I think.

919
01:16:14.119 --> 01:16:19.520
Never liked savalois, could not, oh savalois. I couldn't believe

920
01:16:19.560 --> 01:16:21.279
when people used to come into the chip shop and

921
01:16:21.319 --> 01:16:26.159
actually ask for a savoy. They were willing to pay

922
01:16:27.600 --> 01:16:30.720
to eat a savaloi. Literally, they were willing to give

923
01:16:30.720 --> 01:16:35.319
their own money. You couldn't. Honestly, I wouldn't. I wouldn't

924
01:16:35.319 --> 01:16:38.720
eat it if you gave me money. Savalois, Oh, I

925
01:16:38.800 --> 01:16:42.039
never liked them. But anyway, it's there's kind of those

926
01:16:42.119 --> 01:16:46.920
kinds of sausages robbery, not really sausages, but this one

927
01:16:46.960 --> 01:16:51.199
air he loves them, absolutely loves them. He'd eat a

928
01:16:51.199 --> 01:16:56.439
whole pack if he could in one sitting. He doesn't

929
01:16:56.479 --> 01:16:59.319
get to, but he would if he could. So that's

930
01:16:59.319 --> 01:17:05.439
why he cause Uncle sausages, Uncle sausages. He's also got

931
01:17:05.479 --> 01:17:08.920
a lady who doesn't have a dog, but she likes.

932
01:17:08.960 --> 01:17:13.159
All the dogs love her around here because she's they

933
01:17:13.239 --> 01:17:17.800
all call her nanny treats. So she's known as Nanny

934
01:17:17.800 --> 01:17:21.800
Treats by all the dogs. Finnish started that one as well,

935
01:17:24.239 --> 01:17:26.960
and all the dogs even It's quite weird because some

936
01:17:27.000 --> 01:17:28.600
of the other dog owners are starting to call her

937
01:17:28.640 --> 01:17:36.039
nanny treats. That's funny. If you say something enough people

938
01:17:36.079 --> 01:17:38.680
to start to pick it up, won't they. I guess, Oh,

939
01:17:38.680 --> 01:17:45.600
it's nanny treats. Wow, it's catching on baby Vinny. If

940
01:17:45.640 --> 01:17:50.159
I actually say to vinny's nanny treats and he looks

941
01:17:50.239 --> 01:17:53.159
up like where you could say, oh, well, I've just

942
01:17:53.199 --> 01:17:57.600
said the word treats, but no, he's looking for nanny treats.

943
01:17:58.359 --> 01:18:01.560
He knows the difference between just saying treats and nanny treats.

944
01:18:03.359 --> 01:18:06.159
And he can spot off from a mile away, which

945
01:18:06.159 --> 01:18:11.319
is an exaggeration, but he can see her, you know,

946
01:18:12.479 --> 01:18:14.279
you know when you can see the outline of someone

947
01:18:14.319 --> 01:18:17.079
from a distance, but maybe not see their face properly

948
01:18:17.600 --> 01:18:21.880
to not really know whether or not to wave to them.

949
01:18:22.239 --> 01:18:27.039
He knows who it is. Maybe he's just got much

950
01:18:27.079 --> 01:18:33.199
better eyesight than me, and I don't generally, but sometimes

951
01:18:33.239 --> 01:18:35.199
I let him off the lead. Well, I let go

952
01:18:35.319 --> 01:18:40.600
of the lead and he runs to her, because I

953
01:18:40.680 --> 01:18:43.720
know that once he gets to her, he's not leaving

954
01:18:43.760 --> 01:18:49.640
her side. He will not leave her because I literally

955
01:18:49.720 --> 01:18:53.479
have to drag him away because he will eat every

956
01:18:53.520 --> 01:18:59.279
single treat that she gives him. He adores her, absolutely

957
01:18:59.319 --> 01:19:01.399
adores her, and even if she didn't give him any

958
01:19:01.439 --> 01:19:05.439
treats ever again, he'd still get excited to see her

959
01:19:05.840 --> 01:19:11.239
because he loves her, because he just she adores him.

960
01:19:11.439 --> 01:19:13.159
I mean, she loves all the dogs, but I think

961
01:19:13.199 --> 01:19:17.000
he's one of her favorite ones because he's been And

962
01:19:17.039 --> 01:19:20.119
there's another one who lives next door, but this one's

963
01:19:20.159 --> 01:19:23.640
been in a house at least once. She let him

964
01:19:23.640 --> 01:19:25.960
in and she ran her around and he loved it,

965
01:19:26.159 --> 01:19:33.039
absolutely loved it. So she's So that's Nanny treats and

966
01:19:33.079 --> 01:19:38.439
you've got Uncle sausages. There's no one else at the moment. Really,

967
01:19:39.680 --> 01:19:42.319
there's a few people that I see it. You know

968
01:19:42.439 --> 01:19:46.000
when I take him out. But there hasn't got any

969
01:19:46.079 --> 01:19:48.720
nicknames for any of them. There's del Boy, but that's

970
01:19:48.720 --> 01:19:51.439
a different person. That's not the one in the hospital.

971
01:19:51.520 --> 01:19:55.840
That's just a wheeler and dealer that me and Luke

972
01:19:55.960 --> 01:19:59.039
used to call Del Boy. He worked on the market

973
01:19:59.680 --> 01:20:01.960
for the as like selling stuff out of his garage

974
01:20:02.000 --> 01:20:04.479
and just it'd buy stuff and sell it. That's what

975
01:20:04.560 --> 01:20:10.199
it was, market trader, but we call him del Boy.

976
01:20:11.000 --> 01:20:16.119
Other than that, there was Pants, but he's don't live

977
01:20:16.159 --> 01:20:21.279
around her anymore. And the lawnmower man, he doesn't live

978
01:20:21.359 --> 01:20:27.199
anymore because he'd spent about literally about eight hours mowing

979
01:20:27.319 --> 01:20:32.479
a tiny little beer grass. He taking so many pills

980
01:20:32.560 --> 01:20:35.119
or whatever he's took, and he would literally just be

981
01:20:35.199 --> 01:20:42.880
standing there, one lader grass at a time. But with

982
01:20:42.960 --> 01:20:45.640
a lawnmower. I don't know how it's even possible. And

983
01:20:45.680 --> 01:20:48.960
all we hear is that lawnmower starting and stopping, starting

984
01:20:49.000 --> 01:20:54.479
and stopping from morning to night, all day and not

985
01:20:55.359 --> 01:20:58.560
so I called him a lawnmower man, among other things.

986
01:21:02.640 --> 01:21:12.000
We have a name of the people. No, that's it. Really,

987
01:21:14.520 --> 01:21:19.039
I'm now beginning to wonder what my nickname is. Oh please,

988
01:21:20.239 --> 01:21:27.840
I'm worried to even ask. But that's it, really, that's

989
01:21:28.079 --> 01:21:31.199
really what's happened this week, being a backward and forward

990
01:21:32.000 --> 01:21:41.600
dealt with taxi drivers and bus drivers, passengers, the heats,

991
01:21:43.359 --> 01:21:48.000
all the nurses, and it's been a very strange week.

992
01:21:48.800 --> 01:21:51.800
And then Uncle's sausages started to get a little bit

993
01:21:52.920 --> 01:21:59.039
agitated thinking that people were doing stuff, and like, ah,

994
01:22:00.000 --> 01:22:06.279
he got very very complicated, very difficult. But it seems

995
01:22:06.359 --> 01:22:14.960
to be hopefully headed towards the right direction in a

996
01:22:15.079 --> 01:22:20.840
sense of him being discharged. That's what I mean by

997
01:22:20.840 --> 01:22:28.159
the right direction, and fingures crossed, he will end up

998
01:22:28.840 --> 01:22:39.039
in a nice place where he's he feels okay, I

999
01:22:39.079 --> 01:22:41.359
know what I mean when I say that, but I'm

1000
01:22:41.399 --> 01:22:44.760
still I'm not sure what it means whatever okay is

1001
01:22:45.159 --> 01:22:51.920
that he feels I want to use a word happy,

1002
01:22:52.000 --> 01:22:56.239
but that's probably the last word. Maybe, But I'd like

1003
01:22:56.359 --> 01:23:01.720
him to feel that he's been looked after and that

1004
01:23:01.840 --> 01:23:04.680
he feels safe, And yeah, I guess that's it, isn't

1005
01:23:04.680 --> 01:23:08.079
it to feel safe and to feel looked after, to

1006
01:23:08.159 --> 01:23:14.760
feel heard when he speaks, to be listened to, and maybe,

1007
01:23:14.920 --> 01:23:20.439
you know, make a couple of friends along the way,

1008
01:23:20.560 --> 01:23:30.439
and yeah, very strange times. All my glasses just fell off. Well, actually,

1009
01:23:30.479 --> 01:23:34.840
I just what did I do? I did something and

1010
01:23:34.840 --> 01:23:37.439
I knocked my glasses off with my thumb. I didn't

1011
01:23:37.520 --> 01:23:39.760
just fall off at all. But you want to know that?

1012
01:23:39.800 --> 01:23:42.000
Why did I have to tell you the truth? Damn it.

1013
01:23:44.279 --> 01:23:46.199
So I'm going to have a Chelsea bun with icing

1014
01:23:46.279 --> 01:23:52.159
and a big cherry on the top, pretended, No, I

1015
01:23:52.159 --> 01:23:55.800
want to eat that, and then I might make myself

1016
01:23:55.840 --> 01:23:57.640
another couple of t year as well to have that with.

1017
01:24:00.880 --> 01:24:11.479
And then I will possibly edit this recording. It's now

1018
01:24:12.720 --> 01:24:17.439
what time is it? It's four o three, so I've

1019
01:24:17.439 --> 01:24:22.840
been talking for nearly an hour and a half. I

1020
01:24:22.960 --> 01:24:28.159
probably watched maybe I'll watch a move ov a move,

1021
01:24:29.119 --> 01:24:36.680
I don't know, and then I'll have an early night tonight,

1022
01:24:36.880 --> 01:24:39.640
even though I spent half a day in bed. Oh

1023
01:24:40.000 --> 01:24:43.520
I woke up. I I just remembered. Do you know what?

1024
01:24:43.640 --> 01:24:47.680
Here's how this is changing me. I woke up this morning.

1025
01:24:48.800 --> 01:24:51.239
I went to bed at eight, which I've been doing

1026
01:24:51.239 --> 01:24:58.439
a little bit during the week. Yeah, just I'm kind

1027
01:24:58.479 --> 01:25:01.560
of ready to go to bed at that time, so

1028
01:25:01.600 --> 01:25:03.560
we're in a bit of eight. Woke up at half

1029
01:25:05.199 --> 01:25:10.319
Oh yeah, I woke up at half twelve. I woke

1030
01:25:10.399 --> 01:25:12.199
up a couple of times in that period as well,

1031
01:25:13.399 --> 01:25:19.960
including getting a phone call, and I had this dream

1032
01:25:22.079 --> 01:25:26.560
where I actually said out loud and I felt it

1033
01:25:26.640 --> 01:25:32.640
that it's the first time I've ever been happy, And

1034
01:25:32.680 --> 01:25:42.159
it involved a lady that involved fall in love, and

1035
01:25:42.239 --> 01:25:44.680
it was weird. I was kind of pursuing her, not

1036
01:25:44.720 --> 01:25:48.199
in a kind of weird way, but just but she

1037
01:25:48.439 --> 01:25:52.279
was allowing me in a sense like she, I don't know,

1038
01:25:52.560 --> 01:25:54.680
it is a weird one because her dream so it's

1039
01:25:54.720 --> 01:25:59.119
all completely involved elephants and swings and stuff. You know,

1040
01:25:59.119 --> 01:26:04.880
it could be ice cream, all kinds of weird things involved.

1041
01:26:06.159 --> 01:26:18.159
But basically I remember saying to her in this stream,

1042
01:26:18.159 --> 01:26:20.279
telling her that I loved her or I love her,

1043
01:26:21.159 --> 01:26:22.960
I want to spend the rest of my life with her,

1044
01:26:23.159 --> 01:26:28.039
or something like that. And she was concerned. She said,

1045
01:26:28.039 --> 01:26:30.720
how long was that going to be? I said why?

1046
01:26:30.840 --> 01:26:32.840
She said, well, I've got things to do, I've got

1047
01:26:32.840 --> 01:26:36.720
to make plans. So it was weird, and then I

1048
01:26:36.760 --> 01:26:39.720
woke up, but there was that whole thing of like, Okay,

1049
01:26:40.199 --> 01:26:44.600
it's the first time I felt happy, like that was

1050
01:26:44.680 --> 01:26:50.560
the first time, and it was a strange time to

1051
01:26:50.600 --> 01:26:57.520
wake up, like, okay, brilliant, and I'm partially awake, you know,

1052
01:26:57.640 --> 01:27:00.560
because half twelve I've been spending a fair bit of

1053
01:27:00.600 --> 01:27:05.600
time in bed yesterday afternoon or during the day actually,

1054
01:27:08.680 --> 01:27:14.600
and the boxing was on Live Boxing, which was multiple

1055
01:27:14.600 --> 01:27:18.560
world title fights, well a couple, yeah, so I just

1056
01:27:19.840 --> 01:27:22.199
I thought another I could to watch it. I'm going

1057
01:27:22.279 --> 01:27:25.079
to go back to bed because you know, I don't

1058
01:27:25.119 --> 01:27:26.479
get up in the middle of the night anymore to

1059
01:27:26.520 --> 01:27:31.840
watch boxing. And this little voice, well it was not

1060
01:27:31.840 --> 01:27:34.119
really little voice, but a thought came into my head

1061
01:27:34.239 --> 01:27:39.399
said why are you putting it off? Why put off

1062
01:27:39.439 --> 01:27:44.119
something that you enjoy? And I thought of Uncle sausages,

1063
01:27:47.239 --> 01:27:51.399
and I thought, yeah, why am I putting that off?

1064
01:27:51.399 --> 01:27:56.399
Why am I not sitting up? Okay, it's disruptive to

1065
01:27:56.479 --> 01:27:59.079
the next day because I'm gonna be tired all day Sunday.

1066
01:28:03.119 --> 01:28:06.079
But at the same time, it's a lie. It's a

1067
01:28:06.199 --> 01:28:08.880
live event, it's a big event in the boxing calendar,

1068
01:28:09.920 --> 01:28:13.560
and it was a really good event as well. Every

1069
01:28:13.560 --> 01:28:19.880
fight was good. Why why am I just like and

1070
01:28:20.880 --> 01:28:23.439
I'll go to bed, and I need to make sure

1071
01:28:23.479 --> 01:28:26.960
on bed to at least four o'clock. It's twelve thirty's

1072
01:28:27.039 --> 01:28:32.119
too early to be getting up. So this whole thing

1073
01:28:32.159 --> 01:28:35.159
seems to be changing my attitude a little bit to

1074
01:28:36.920 --> 01:28:43.560
the whole idea of putting stuff off. Yeah, anyway, it's

1075
01:28:43.920 --> 01:28:46.119
it was a good night and I have been tired

1076
01:28:46.159 --> 01:28:51.520
all day, bless. But also in a few weeks time,

1077
01:28:51.600 --> 01:28:57.760
there's the Canelo Crawford fight, which is is it September

1078
01:28:58.199 --> 01:29:01.199
I think, but that it's going to be on during

1079
01:29:01.239 --> 01:29:04.640
the night and I'm watching it hopefully. I'm going to

1080
01:29:04.680 --> 01:29:10.840
watch that because that's arguably the biggest fight of the year,

1081
01:29:12.399 --> 01:29:17.880
arguably just from the sense of the two biggest names

1082
01:29:17.920 --> 01:29:23.600
in boxing fighting each other. It's huge, two unified world

1083
01:29:23.680 --> 01:29:32.880
champions fighting each other. I mean it, Yeah, it's quite rare,

1084
01:29:32.920 --> 01:29:36.479
and that happens, it does happen, but this is, like,

1085
01:29:36.760 --> 01:29:40.439
you know, it's a big deal in the boxing world.

1086
01:29:40.439 --> 01:29:41.920
So I'm going to be watching that and that's going

1087
01:29:42.000 --> 01:29:45.039
to be early hours in the morning on I think

1088
01:29:45.119 --> 01:29:55.159
September twelfth or thirteen, something like that or fourteenth. Yeah,

1089
01:29:55.239 --> 01:29:57.680
and then next week is the world heavyweight title fight,

1090
01:29:58.039 --> 01:30:01.520
but that's in England, so that's good. And that's Duboi

1091
01:30:01.800 --> 01:30:09.319
against Usik for all the belts. So that's something to

1092
01:30:09.359 --> 01:30:14.119
look forward to. So I hope that Uncle Sausages by

1093
01:30:14.199 --> 01:30:20.239
next weekend, Uncle Sausages is out of the hospital, living

1094
01:30:20.399 --> 01:30:25.319
in a decent place, I mean where you know, somewhere

1095
01:30:25.319 --> 01:30:31.520
that he wants to be, that he's happy with. And

1096
01:30:31.560 --> 01:30:36.399
I'm sitting here watching the boxing with Little Vinny. That's

1097
01:30:36.520 --> 01:30:43.000
my eating some pizza. I hope, Yeah, that's my dream.

1098
01:30:43.479 --> 01:30:46.319
So I'm going to go. Thank you for listening. Remember

1099
01:30:46.840 --> 01:30:50.279
to be kind to yourself, because you do deserve to

1100
01:30:50.319 --> 01:30:55.279
be happy. Be gentle of yourself. You deserve to feel safe,

1101
01:30:58.079 --> 01:31:15.920
lots of love by relax in a more deep and

1102
01:31:19.760 --> 01:31:27.119
meaningful way, maybe in a way that can not just

1103
01:31:27.399 --> 01:31:37.520
allow you to feel calmer now and throughout the time

1104
01:31:38.199 --> 01:31:46.560
we spend together here, not just relaxed at the end

1105
01:31:46.600 --> 01:31:51.039
of the recording when it's finished and you can enjoy

1106
01:31:51.239 --> 01:32:08.600
that sense of comfort and peace, but also I think

1107
01:32:08.680 --> 01:32:19.840
it would be nice to have those feelings of relaxation

1108
01:32:22.199 --> 01:32:36.399
continue for longer after the recording has ended, so that

1109
01:32:36.560 --> 01:32:49.000
you can still benefit from listening to my voice, maybe

1110
01:32:49.079 --> 01:33:01.800
in a few hours time, perhaps tomorrow, and by listening regularly,

1111
01:33:04.880 --> 01:33:09.520
especially if you find, like some people do, and myself

1112
01:33:09.560 --> 01:33:14.720
as well, sometimes I find one particular recording that really

1113
01:33:16.359 --> 01:33:23.359
resonates with me, and I just listen to it over

1114
01:33:23.399 --> 01:33:36.119
and over again every morning, every evening. There was this

1115
01:33:36.199 --> 01:33:43.119
recording from We're going back to about nineteen ninety nine.

1116
01:33:43.399 --> 01:33:48.960
It wasn't hypnosis, but it was a guided visualizations. It

1117
01:33:49.039 --> 01:33:50.880
kind of was hypnosis, really.

1118
01:33:53.079 --> 01:33:53.560
And.

1119
01:33:55.199 --> 01:33:58.560
I managed to find it again and it still has

1120
01:33:58.600 --> 01:34:04.199
the same effect on me. And part of it was

1121
01:34:07.840 --> 01:34:18.920
the person's voice relaxed me. She just felt so peaceful,

1122
01:34:20.960 --> 01:34:27.439
and I'd look forward to listening to her in the

1123
01:34:27.520 --> 01:34:38.199
morning and in the evening, and I knew before even

1124
01:34:38.960 --> 01:34:45.920
pressing the play button that as soon as I've done

1125
01:34:46.000 --> 01:34:50.479
that pressed the play button. This was in the days

1126
01:34:50.479 --> 01:35:04.640
of CD players pressed a play button. In fact, it

1127
01:35:04.680 --> 01:35:09.159
might have even been a tape recorder. I'd lie down

1128
01:35:09.199 --> 01:35:21.800
on a bed and then even without necessarily listening to

1129
01:35:22.000 --> 01:35:35.159
her words because I had them memorized. Really, it was

1130
01:35:35.159 --> 01:35:45.800
as if my body knew exactly what to do, and

1131
01:35:45.960 --> 01:36:07.720
the muscles just almost went into automatic relaxation, and I

1132
01:36:07.800 --> 01:36:21.439
remember my mind would slow down. Now. Now, I was

1133
01:36:21.960 --> 01:36:29.199
listening to this recording in the early days of learning hypnosis,

1134
01:36:31.760 --> 01:36:39.600
and long before I ever made any videos or audio

1135
01:36:39.640 --> 01:36:44.439
recordings myself. Because I didn't start doing that till two

1136
01:36:44.439 --> 01:37:00.439
thousand and six. I knew, I knew how how helpful

1137
01:37:02.319 --> 01:37:14.000
I found being able to just let go, to have

1138
01:37:14.079 --> 01:37:26.960
that trust in the person that I'm listening to, knowing

1139
01:37:27.039 --> 01:37:34.920
that it's going to be just as relaxing, if not

1140
01:37:35.119 --> 01:37:44.439
more so. Each time you hear my voice, you may

1141
01:37:44.479 --> 01:37:56.079
feel the same. Some people have been listening to me

1142
01:37:56.279 --> 01:38:10.239
for over a decade, maybe not solidly, obviously, not twenty

1143
01:38:10.239 --> 01:38:18.239
four hours a day, but maybe people come back. Some

1144
01:38:18.279 --> 01:38:33.439
people maybe listen every day. That's something that I do

1145
01:38:35.079 --> 01:38:49.560
which you may not realize by listening, is when I

1146
01:38:49.840 --> 01:39:06.039
record these recordings. Now, for example, I also am affected

1147
01:39:06.479 --> 01:39:19.279
by the words that I say. So if I set

1148
01:39:19.479 --> 01:39:29.960
you focus on your feet, notice your feet relaxing, I

1149
01:39:30.039 --> 01:39:39.359
will be focusing on my feet. I will be noticing

1150
01:39:41.479 --> 01:39:56.000
my feet relaxing. If I said, focus on your hands,

1151
01:39:58.760 --> 01:40:08.319
and maybe notice the difference between each hand. Perhaps notice

1152
01:40:08.439 --> 01:40:14.479
the air in the room, the temperature of the room.

1153
01:40:16.359 --> 01:40:26.760
On the backs of your hands. You may start to

1154
01:40:27.319 --> 01:40:35.399
notice what almost feels like a very light breeze, even

1155
01:40:35.439 --> 01:40:39.680
though there may not be any type of breeze at

1156
01:40:39.720 --> 01:40:52.720
all where you are right now and as you become

1157
01:40:53.359 --> 01:41:07.720
aware of your hands, I'm also aware of how relaxed

1158
01:41:08.039 --> 01:41:31.800
my hands our feeling now and when it comes to

1159
01:41:33.319 --> 01:41:39.359
potentially drifting off to sleep, which may be the reason

1160
01:41:39.680 --> 01:41:56.000
you're listening, I also feel drowsy when I make these recordings.

1161
01:42:00.640 --> 01:42:17.079
I also notice my mind drifting. In fact, at times

1162
01:42:19.119 --> 01:42:33.279
I've actually fallen asleep without even noticing, and then I

1163
01:42:33.399 --> 01:42:45.359
carry on talking. It's only when I listen back to

1164
01:42:45.399 --> 01:42:54.439
do the editing I hear snoring, and I think I

1165
01:42:54.479 --> 01:43:04.520
don't remember snoring. I remember talking. There is this snall, Yes,

1166
01:43:05.119 --> 01:43:11.479
a pick turned up. That's why I sound like when

1167
01:43:11.479 --> 01:43:22.399
I snow. How I get really into a whole experience.

1168
01:43:30.319 --> 01:43:39.359
I don't know how you feel. How relaxed do you

1169
01:43:39.439 --> 01:43:50.439
feel in your feet, how relaxed you feel in your hands.

1170
01:44:05.479 --> 01:44:17.680
I have noticed more and more that the more relaxed,

1171
01:44:19.439 --> 01:44:35.199
deeper level of comfort you feel, the easier your breathing becomes.

1172
01:44:41.760 --> 01:44:58.479
It's almost like that additional muscle relaxation. So this allows

1173
01:44:58.520 --> 01:45:29.640
you debreath easier without necessarily focusing on your breath. However,

1174
01:45:29.880 --> 01:45:58.640
being able to notice the ease in which you breathe

1175
01:45:58.840 --> 01:46:48.720
so naturally, you breathe so very easily and smoothly. Whenever

1176
01:46:48.800 --> 01:47:07.159
I imagine my breathing improving. When I've got my eyes closed,

1177
01:47:13.159 --> 01:47:26.039
I tend to visualize a beautiful field with trees and

1178
01:47:26.279 --> 01:47:59.640
flowers producing all that life giving oxygen, and it feels

1179
01:47:59.800 --> 01:48:21.720
not to if nothing else, just taking some time away

1180
01:48:26.399 --> 01:49:09.600
from everything, enjoying that feeling of peace, serenity, m with

1181
01:49:09.640 --> 01:49:46.119
a joyful heart. Time seems to just drip by, so

1182
01:49:47.319 --> 01:50:37.119
very slowly, relaxed, so deeply peaceful, completely unattached to any

1183
01:50:38.039 --> 01:51:41.520
thoughts whatsoever in this moment, completely free, noticing that your

1184
01:51:41.720 --> 01:52:28.920
mind has slowed down, loaded down, because nothing really requires

1185
01:52:28.960 --> 01:52:59.319
your attention. You can enjoy the physical sensations of allowing

1186
01:52:59.520 --> 01:53:12.520
this stressed drip out of your body, dripping out of

1187
01:53:13.000 --> 01:53:42.199
every part of your body and being released from your brain,

1188
01:53:47.640 --> 01:54:23.239
n your mind slowly but surely, the muscles, thing les,

1189
01:54:38.840 --> 01:55:15.119
relax res re so very deep, thing lacs so deeply,

1190
01:55:32.880 --> 01:56:00.920
and the feelings, the pleasant feelings in your arms and shoulders,

1191
01:56:00.960 --> 01:56:25.479
deepening each part of your body further and deeper and deeper,

1192
01:56:40.000 --> 01:57:09.640
Noticing the feelings in the back of your neck, the

1193
01:57:09.840 --> 01:57:49.000
feelings in your wrists, muscles in front of your body,

1194
01:57:59.399 --> 01:58:43.479
Oh so feeling peaceful deeping. There's a sense of peace

1195
01:58:48.000 --> 01:58:52.439
spreads through your very cool.

1196
01:59:22.640 --> 01:59:43.279
Even when you focus on your mind, your mind becomes.

1197
01:59:49.880 --> 02:01:12.760
Be and slower, deep relaxing, so very slower, your stomach

1198
02:01:26.880 --> 02:02:09.880
pay's fellin you's stomach held back. Notice. Notice how relaxed

1199
02:02:14.279 --> 02:02:52.319
you now feel in the hole of your back. A

1200
02:02:52.680 --> 02:03:01.760
spy from your brain all the way down the middle

1201
02:03:01.800 --> 02:03:08.760
of your back, sending and receiving.

1202
02:03:10.319 --> 02:04:39.720
Millions of messages every day, deepcomfort, increasing deeply relaxed, your knees, reles,

1203
02:04:43.199 --> 02:04:52.239
spreading those signals down your spine or cord into a

1204
02:04:52.760 --> 02:05:10.960
every part of your body, m your shins and your

1205
02:05:11.079 --> 02:05:41.880
calf muscles, no outpers.

1206
02:05:56.840 --> 02:06:14.319
Feelings of peace and tranquility spreading through your body, tips

1207
02:06:14.319 --> 02:06:30.239
of your toes to your eyes, your fingers, all the

1208
02:06:30.319 --> 02:06:44.680
way to your lower back and lettinger.

1209
02:06:46.359 --> 02:07:16.359
Reatin place.

1210
02:07:31.720 --> 02:07:58.199
To drift in mind there, wondering away, happy to let go,

1211
02:08:01.600 --> 02:09:07.800
let go completely liquor said, tranquil ther ole body enjoying

1212
02:09:07.960 --> 02:11:30.039
a sense listing go even more. He enjoy the space,

1213
02:11:32.479 --> 02:13:44.760
this space of peace and safety, fay Rex letting God.

1214
02:14:02.680 --> 02:14:10.239
Maybe we can just focus on the different parts of

1215
02:14:10.399 --> 02:14:44.800
your body, just to notice your forehead and your eyes

1216
02:15:17.680 --> 02:17:20.319
actual so loose, noticing the sense of complete freedom, absolute freedom, dress, day, pace, fall, energy,

1217
02:17:53.280 --> 02:19:05.399
pace to breathe silich ees. Yeah, yes, you may have

1218
02:19:09.000 --> 02:20:08.920
or may not have noticed your mind drifting peaceful move

1219
02:20:09.399 --> 02:20:29.879
ay even more deeply in the direction of total blissful pace,

1220
02:20:34.120 --> 02:22:37.879
blissphul pace arrest ty tol pace, sir, come letting go,

1221
02:23:02.840 --> 02:24:14.360
peace of mind, reaxed body c rex crax. Your body

1222
02:24:15.079 --> 02:24:54.959
feels almost invisible, so very refaxed and paceful, so pace

1223
02:24:55.120 --> 02:25:54.559
from right, let go on side, paceful, so fair, and

1224
02:25:54.760 --> 02:26:02.040
you could start to notice that you are feeling more relaxed,

1225
02:26:05.040 --> 02:26:14.760
even though I've not purposely focused your mind upon that

1226
02:26:16.159 --> 02:26:22.200
sense of physical comfort that is growing within you throughout

1227
02:26:22.319 --> 02:26:35.120
your body, and your mind starts to slow down, and

1228
02:26:35.280 --> 02:26:42.719
that could be almost in recognition of I guess my

1229
02:26:43.000 --> 02:26:57.719
speech not being particularly fast, and things just generally feel calmer.

1230
02:27:01.280 --> 02:27:09.239
Just by listening to my voice, you give yourself an

1231
02:27:09.319 --> 02:27:17.239
opportunity to take a break from the day, take a

1232
02:27:17.360 --> 02:27:25.000
break from your life as it is, and to give

1233
02:27:25.040 --> 02:27:33.159
yourself a rest, giving yourself permission to take some time

1234
02:27:33.280 --> 02:27:40.719
off and to allow your body to relax and allow

1235
02:27:40.920 --> 02:27:51.239
your mind to slow down, which in turn releases the

1236
02:27:51.479 --> 02:27:55.879
tension and it stresses that you had in your body.

1237
02:28:01.879 --> 02:28:05.760
It's almost as if the parts of your body just

1238
02:28:06.040 --> 02:28:17.760
open up, allowing the negativity out and at the same

1239
02:28:17.879 --> 02:28:29.159
time replacing that negativity with positive healing energy, which then

1240
02:28:29.360 --> 02:28:38.479
fills your body up and your mind to also starts

1241
02:28:38.680 --> 02:28:56.120
to appreciate those feelings of increasing confidence, an almost uplifting feeling,

1242
02:28:58.200 --> 02:29:12.200
positive healing, an energy that spreads through your body like

1243
02:29:12.319 --> 02:29:22.600
a wave of comfort. And all this comes from just

1244
02:29:26.159 --> 02:29:34.920
allowing yourself a few minutes, maybe half an hour, however

1245
02:29:35.079 --> 02:29:44.760
long you want it to be, to just rest and

1246
02:29:44.920 --> 02:29:54.920
allow your mind and your body to almost reset itself

1247
02:29:57.840 --> 02:30:13.600
to the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness, which allows

1248
02:30:13.959 --> 02:30:26.680
more room for feelings of pleasure and happiness to move

1249
02:30:27.239 --> 02:30:36.000
around your body and into your mind, almost as if

1250
02:30:36.079 --> 02:30:45.799
your mind and your body are sinking together, almost mirroring

1251
02:30:46.680 --> 02:30:59.520
each other with that growing positivity and calmness. And it

1252
02:30:59.600 --> 02:31:07.440
feels nice, really does feel nice to know that you

1253
02:31:08.799 --> 02:31:17.280
are the one that has allowed yourself to feel more

1254
02:31:18.600 --> 02:31:25.239
comfort and to experience.

1255
02:31:26.959 --> 02:31:28.120
More of this.

1256
02:31:29.879 --> 02:31:45.040
Deep relaxation spreading throughout your body. And as I focus

1257
02:31:46.639 --> 02:31:52.360
on each part of your body, you can notice that

1258
02:31:52.600 --> 02:32:07.120
that part becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on it.

1259
02:32:09.639 --> 02:32:19.319
It becomes even more calm and comfortable just by focusing.

1260
02:32:23.399 --> 02:32:29.120
And as I move down your body, starting at your head,

1261
02:32:31.840 --> 02:32:37.120
the parts that you have already focused on will continue

1262
02:32:38.479 --> 02:32:45.559
to relax deeply, and those parts that have not yet

1263
02:32:45.799 --> 02:32:58.639
focused on or just automatically release any remaining tension in

1264
02:32:58.840 --> 02:33:13.079
anticipation of even more comfort about to come. Now, I'm

1265
02:33:13.079 --> 02:33:19.559
going to start by focusing on your forehead. Just being

1266
02:33:19.719 --> 02:33:28.360
aware of the feelings of your forehead and any background

1267
02:33:28.600 --> 02:33:35.479
sounds like mister Herbert O Pigeon can just allow you

1268
02:33:35.680 --> 02:33:43.120
to feel even more relaxed. Just means you're in the moment.

1269
02:33:46.280 --> 02:33:51.639
This isn't this isn't a sterile environment. This is the world.

1270
02:33:55.079 --> 02:34:01.120
I live in the countryside, so there's lots of nature

1271
02:34:01.639 --> 02:34:12.120
sounds around. So as you focus on your forehead, just

1272
02:34:12.399 --> 02:34:20.159
notice how it becomes even more relaxed as you focus

1273
02:34:22.479 --> 02:34:26.959
only on my voice and that part of your body.

1274
02:34:32.159 --> 02:34:40.440
Moving down to your eyes, focusing on your eyes, noticing

1275
02:34:42.920 --> 02:34:52.600
how your eyelids feel so heavy yet so light at

1276
02:34:52.680 --> 02:34:59.120
the same time, and all the muscles around your eyes

1277
02:34:59.360 --> 02:35:11.159
relax and completely moving your focus down to your mouth,

1278
02:35:13.079 --> 02:35:20.639
your lips, your tongue, your teeth, You comes the whole

1279
02:35:20.840 --> 02:35:35.440
of your mouth, relaxing, calm and loose as you focus

1280
02:35:35.639 --> 02:35:43.159
now on your jaw, not just a part of your

1281
02:35:43.319 --> 02:35:48.079
jaw near your mouth, your chin, but all the way

1282
02:35:48.200 --> 02:35:54.520
up the size of your face to your ears, the

1283
02:35:54.799 --> 02:36:19.280
hole of your jaw, feeding more relaxed and calm. Focusing

1284
02:36:22.760 --> 02:36:27.920
on your neck, the front of your neck and your

1285
02:36:28.079 --> 02:36:41.360
throat relaxing and loose and calm. The sides of your neck,

1286
02:36:43.440 --> 02:36:49.840
the right and the left side of your leck relax

1287
02:36:50.319 --> 02:37:05.559
and lace and calm. And now the back of your neck.

1288
02:37:08.879 --> 02:37:18.120
Focus in on the back of your neck, letting go

1289
02:37:18.799 --> 02:37:24.600
of any tension that may have been there before, and

1290
02:37:25.239 --> 02:37:38.920
enjoying that sense of increasing comfort and release that you

1291
02:37:39.079 --> 02:37:49.799
can experience in the back of your neck. Moving down

1292
02:37:50.319 --> 02:37:57.600
your back, and moving either side of your spine right

1293
02:37:57.719 --> 02:38:02.639
from the top of your back all the way down

1294
02:38:03.280 --> 02:38:15.719
to the bottom of your back, down to your lower back.

1295
02:38:20.920 --> 02:38:28.079
As you move up and down your spine, you can

1296
02:38:28.239 --> 02:38:36.440
feel the muscles either side of your spine relaxing even more,

1297
02:38:43.959 --> 02:38:50.680
and as those muscles relax, that sense of comfort starts

1298
02:38:50.799 --> 02:39:00.920
to spread outwards from your spine into both sides of

1299
02:39:01.040 --> 02:39:08.120
your back, the top of your back, the middle end

1300
02:39:08.159 --> 02:39:17.639
your lower back. And as you scan gently and slowly

1301
02:39:18.879 --> 02:39:24.120
up and down your back, there's the muscles in the

1302
02:39:24.280 --> 02:39:34.079
top of your back relax and become looser. The muscles

1303
02:39:34.239 --> 02:39:39.879
in the middle of your back also seem to just

1304
02:39:40.319 --> 02:39:54.840
almost divide from each other, separating and almost melting, and

1305
02:39:55.040 --> 02:40:01.840
in your lower back seems to be an extra special

1306
02:40:02.120 --> 02:40:17.799
feeling of comfort. The spreads into your hips. Sit down

1307
02:40:17.879 --> 02:40:25.959
your lower back, into your hips, into the area where

1308
02:40:26.000 --> 02:40:34.520
your cosis are, and into your buttocks, and all those

1309
02:40:34.680 --> 02:40:43.920
muscles that spread bring your lower back into your hip

1310
02:40:44.040 --> 02:41:03.680
area start to melt, start to really let go, and

1311
02:41:03.680 --> 02:41:08.440
don't even know where about to focus on your shoulders.

1312
02:41:10.200 --> 02:41:17.200
Your back and your spine will continue until let go.

1313
02:41:20.280 --> 02:41:35.879
Continue to relax so calmly, and as you focus on

1314
02:41:36.040 --> 02:41:48.920
your shoulders, you may notice they're already feeling really loose.

1315
02:41:53.799 --> 02:42:20.200
They're already feeding calm and fear. Those muscles then move

1316
02:42:20.600 --> 02:42:36.440
from your neck into your shoulders. Feel so soft and gentle,

1317
02:42:40.520 --> 02:43:09.959
so smooth and calm. The feeling in your shoulders seems

1318
02:43:10.280 --> 02:43:17.959
to spread deep into your shoulders, that sense of relaxation

1319
02:43:19.159 --> 02:43:30.680
not just traveling deeply into your muscles, but also relaxing

1320
02:43:33.520 --> 02:43:43.399
the bones and moving all away to underneath your arms,

1321
02:43:46.239 --> 02:43:52.159
relaxing the whole area between the tops of your shoulders

1322
02:43:53.520 --> 02:44:11.319
and underneath your arms. Hea, you feel so relaxed and

1323
02:44:11.559 --> 02:44:19.920
comfortable in your shoulders, which sense that's.

1324
02:44:21.600 --> 02:44:23.600
Deep healing.

1325
02:44:26.600 --> 02:44:44.079
Message into your arms. You may feel almost as if

1326
02:44:44.200 --> 02:44:50.680
your arms are not even there because they're so relaxed,

1327
02:44:53.920 --> 02:45:09.639
so deeply relaxed, so so calm.

1328
02:45:24.840 --> 02:45:31.799
So this.

1329
02:45:39.360 --> 02:45:50.479
The feeling spreading all way down your arms to elbows,

1330
02:45:54.440 --> 02:46:22.440
including your elbows circumfort spreads or away into rests, your

1331
02:46:22.719 --> 02:46:38.280
forearments in your wrists so heavy, yet at the same

1332
02:46:39.520 --> 02:47:18.319
time sunlight and gentle fuy sin.

1333
02:47:20.559 --> 02:47:21.559
Now on.

1334
02:47:24.239 --> 02:47:48.319
Your hands, my hands.

1335
02:47:54.159 --> 02:48:18.799
So peaceful in your hands, the sense of.

1336
02:48:22.319 --> 02:48:23.719
Real pace.

1337
02:48:35.520 --> 02:48:45.360
It just seems to feel so familiar.

1338
02:48:48.159 --> 02:50:26.639
When your hands relax deeply els the things things you

1339
02:50:26.799 --> 02:50:28.239
think it tips.

1340
02:50:56.440 --> 02:51:28.239
May attention to your body, so comfortable, my manuw focus

1341
02:51:30.159 --> 02:53:11.840
till legs like my souls and your thighs and names

1342
02:53:15.840 --> 02:53:53.520
so relaxed. A cough mussels just shaves a puzzi A

1343
02:55:53.159 --> 02:56:22.000
see then you saints serve peaceful sacom say peaceful sircom

1344
02:56:52.120 --> 02:57:06.399
serve peaceful sycom so peace fall.

1345
02:57:14.760 --> 02:57:16.319
RelA sa.

1346
02:57:21.639 --> 02:57:41.319
Peace fall, calm, love that deep relaxation to spread your

1347
02:57:41.799 --> 02:57:43.360
chest storm.

1348
02:57:47.120 --> 02:57:49.319
So relad.

1349
02:57:56.479 --> 02:58:15.239
Lets me go everything. So I'm gonna start counting down

1350
02:58:15.399 --> 02:58:26.799
now from twenty down to one. You can imagine in

1351
02:58:26.920 --> 02:58:32.479
a way it's like just walking down some steps and

1352
02:58:32.600 --> 02:58:38.120
each step or twenty steps, and each step represents a

1353
02:58:38.360 --> 02:58:51.920
level of comfort. Each step represents a deepening of that comfort,

1354
02:58:58.559 --> 02:59:02.360
and the fervies you walk down those steps.

1355
02:59:02.040 --> 02:59:02.120
The.

1356
02:59:03.840 --> 03:00:22.000
Deeper more relaxed you feel. So starting with number twenty twenty, nineteen, eighteen,

1357
03:01:00.120 --> 03:02:13.879
seventeen sixteen in.

1358
03:02:15.799 --> 03:03:12.040
The sis.

1359
03:03:03.079 --> 03:05:54.440
Fifteen four four two too well.

1360
03:06:18.239 --> 03:07:19.520
Using us.

1361
03:07:44.799 --> 03:07:45.680
To US.

1362
03:10:12.399 --> 03:14:05.879
Eighth six us five.

1363
03:15:17.920 --> 03:19:03.159
Undistis one.

1364
03:19:57.799 --> 03:20:10.440
As you focus on your eyes, We're gonna count down

1365
03:20:10.840 --> 03:20:22.000
from ten down to one, focusing just on your eyes,

1366
03:20:25.760 --> 03:20:34.239
your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your eye walls themselves,

1367
03:20:35.760 --> 03:20:52.799
our whole area that makes up your eye. And as

1368
03:20:52.879 --> 03:21:01.399
we count down from ten down to one, whilst focusing

1369
03:21:01.680 --> 03:21:16.399
on your eyes, you will become twice is relaxed with

1370
03:21:16.799 --> 03:21:29.719
each number counting down that you may find the all

1371
03:21:29.840 --> 03:21:36.040
you want to do is just drift off to sleep.

1372
03:21:39.000 --> 03:21:45.600
And if that's what you want, then just allow yourself

1373
03:21:45.760 --> 03:22:00.559
to do that now, focusing on your eyes, going to

1374
03:22:00.680 --> 03:22:10.440
begin counting down from ten down to one right now,

1375
03:22:18.959 --> 03:24:14.799
ten nine, eight, seven.

1376
03:27:22.799 --> 03:31:17.000
Four three discuss one.

1377
03:31:23.360 --> 03:31:45.600
So cutting down from ten to one ten nine eight seven, six,

1378
03:31:47.840 --> 03:32:08.000
five four three two one. And maybe that was a

1379
03:32:08.079 --> 03:32:12.200
bit too quick in order to relax. Maybe it's a

1380
03:32:12.239 --> 03:32:18.360
bit too fast for you to notice the calming of

1381
03:32:18.479 --> 03:32:25.200
your body, maybe even a little bit of pressure there,

1382
03:32:25.360 --> 03:32:28.879
like you're counting down from ten to one. Would you

1383
03:32:29.000 --> 03:32:32.159
expect me to do man, expect me to just to

1384
03:32:32.280 --> 03:32:41.879
go with floppy just because you're counting down. We could

1385
03:32:41.920 --> 03:32:45.159
try it again, but this time I'll go a bit

1386
03:32:45.280 --> 03:32:52.559
slower this time. Did you focus on the whole of

1387
03:32:52.639 --> 03:32:59.399
your body before we focus on your legs? Just notice

1388
03:33:01.040 --> 03:33:13.799
how your body does start to feel more relaxed with

1389
03:33:15.079 --> 03:33:48.559
every number that I count down ten nine eight seven, six,

1390
03:33:57.000 --> 03:34:15.959
five four three.

1391
03:34:50.319 --> 03:34:50.559
One.

1392
03:35:01.920 --> 03:35:07.639
And just notice how how you feel generally, how your

1393
03:35:07.639 --> 03:35:22.520
body feels. It's not necessarily even about counting down from

1394
03:35:22.600 --> 03:35:30.280
ten to one. It's that space that you have, that

1395
03:35:32.879 --> 03:35:53.799
space between being active physically or mentally to just sitting

1396
03:35:54.040 --> 03:35:58.840
or lying down, just being there, not doing anything, not

1397
03:35:59.159 --> 03:36:06.159
saying anything, not needing to think about anything. So it

1398
03:36:06.280 --> 03:36:09.840
opens up a space, you know, a bit of a space,

1399
03:36:10.799 --> 03:36:20.639
a gap. And the more I came down from ten

1400
03:36:20.719 --> 03:36:28.079
to one, the bigger that gap becomes. So there's that

1401
03:36:28.319 --> 03:36:40.920
gap of calmness, of comfort, relaxation. It's a nice feeling,

1402
03:36:46.479 --> 03:36:55.200
and it moves those stresses or discomforts physically or emotionally,

1403
03:36:55.879 --> 03:37:06.600
moves them away. Allows you.

1404
03:37:09.319 --> 03:37:09.840
To just.

1405
03:37:12.840 --> 03:37:19.159
Slow down, someone to count a game from ten down

1406
03:37:19.200 --> 03:37:29.200
to one and notice that gap widening, the gap, And

1407
03:37:29.319 --> 03:37:34.319
as it widens, it's almost like the stress and attention

1408
03:37:35.159 --> 03:37:54.239
falls into the gap and gives you that distance, that space.

1409
03:37:56.639 --> 03:38:02.079
Now ten.

1410
03:38:06.479 --> 03:40:03.440
Nine, eight, seven, six, five, four three one. Now, how

1411
03:40:03.559 --> 03:40:07.319
does your body feel.

1412
03:40:09.280 --> 03:40:09.479
Now?

1413
03:40:22.159 --> 03:40:34.840
Can you notice that? Do you feeling calmer, the feeling

1414
03:40:37.200 --> 03:41:04.559
more relaxed as we now focus on your legs, just

1415
03:41:04.760 --> 03:41:26.120
your legs. We're just gonna start with focusing on your thighs.

1416
03:41:40.959 --> 03:41:44.920
Of course, it's not the most exciting thing to be

1417
03:41:45.040 --> 03:41:52.239
doing because I'm sure like most of your body is

1418
03:41:52.360 --> 03:42:04.440
not a lot going on right now. Just focusing on

1419
03:42:04.600 --> 03:42:10.000
the whole of your thighs, the tops of your thighs,

1420
03:42:10.799 --> 03:42:16.159
the sides of your thighs, the bottoms of your thighs,

1421
03:42:17.639 --> 03:42:23.079
your outer thighs, and your inner thighs, basically the whole

1422
03:42:23.159 --> 03:42:30.680
of your thigh that leads into your hip and it

1423
03:42:30.799 --> 03:42:41.479
goes down to your knee joint. Now, this is a

1424
03:42:41.600 --> 03:42:50.000
big area, it's a very heavy area. It's very strong,

1425
03:42:51.239 --> 03:42:56.239
probably the strongest muscles in your body or in your thighs.

1426
03:43:06.399 --> 03:43:14.120
But I don't think we perhaps give enough attention to

1427
03:43:14.360 --> 03:43:28.079
our thighs. Perhaps we don't acknowledge how important our thighs

1428
03:43:28.319 --> 03:43:48.079
are to our lives, how much they actually do for

1429
03:43:48.239 --> 03:44:01.959
us all through our lives. And it may seem to

1430
03:44:02.079 --> 03:44:07.239
sound really weird, but I think that all of our

1431
03:44:07.319 --> 03:44:18.159
body parts, especially our thighs, need some TLC, a bit

1432
03:44:18.200 --> 03:44:31.079
of love shown, a bit of acknowledgement. I thank you

1433
03:44:34.239 --> 03:44:46.760
gratitude for our thighs do for us. And I know

1434
03:44:46.920 --> 03:44:53.000
this may sound a bit strange. Maybe you think, why

1435
03:44:53.040 --> 03:44:56.200
am I surely how should be out in the garden

1436
03:44:56.399 --> 03:45:04.639
hugging a tree or something. Well, it's hard to set

1437
03:45:04.639 --> 03:45:07.840
a microphone up on a tree. That's why I'm doing

1438
03:45:07.879 --> 03:45:10.520
this indoors. Otherwise I wouldn't be outside in a tree.

1439
03:45:11.920 --> 03:45:20.559
I can't see the television from the tree. If you

1440
03:45:20.680 --> 03:45:25.879
move down to your knees, gain such an important part.

1441
03:45:30.200 --> 03:45:34.440
And I think we don't necessarily I want to speak

1442
03:45:34.479 --> 03:45:41.799
for myself here. I don't necessarily appreciate all that my

1443
03:45:42.000 --> 03:45:47.200
needs do for me until I have a problem with

1444
03:45:47.319 --> 03:45:52.399
my knee. It's occasionally, if I ever, maybe i'll bash it,

1445
03:45:52.760 --> 03:45:58.559
or it's aching for some reason. It's then that I

1446
03:45:58.760 --> 03:46:04.200
realize how much it does. You know, the benefit of

1447
03:46:04.319 --> 03:46:11.760
being able to use my legs without any kind of

1448
03:46:11.920 --> 03:46:20.280
physical discomfort is a beautiful thing that's possibly not appreciated

1449
03:46:20.399 --> 03:46:31.440
until it's temporarily removed. You know that's comfort. But as

1450
03:46:31.479 --> 03:46:36.840
you focus on your knees, regardless of how your knees feel,

1451
03:46:39.959 --> 03:46:45.680
you can have that sense of gratitude and love to

1452
03:46:45.760 --> 03:46:58.399
your knees for all that they do for you, and

1453
03:46:58.559 --> 03:47:01.479
you can still have that attention and on your thighs.

1454
03:47:02.280 --> 03:47:08.479
Maybe notice how your thighs feel. Maybe you've noticed that

1455
03:47:08.840 --> 03:47:27.559
they are relaxing more deeply as you focus now on

1456
03:47:27.680 --> 03:47:31.239
the bottoms of your legs and your shins and your

1457
03:47:31.319 --> 03:47:40.239
calf muscles, the bones between your knees and your feet incorporate,

1458
03:47:40.360 --> 03:47:51.159
and of course your ankles so important. You know, anyone

1459
03:47:51.239 --> 03:47:56.000
that's had even like the slightest sprain of an ankle

1460
03:47:57.200 --> 03:48:03.760
knows how how much. We take our ankles for granted,

1461
03:48:09.680 --> 03:48:11.680
and it's kind of strange in a way when you

1462
03:48:11.760 --> 03:48:17.360
think that. You know, logically, our wrists are a lot

1463
03:48:17.520 --> 03:48:22.360
thinner than the rest of our arms, which is okay,

1464
03:48:22.440 --> 03:48:26.319
it doesn't can't see any problem with that because we're

1465
03:48:26.399 --> 03:48:32.840
just picking stuff up by our ankles so much thinner

1466
03:48:34.120 --> 03:48:42.680
than the rest of our legs. And from a physics

1467
03:48:42.760 --> 03:48:48.479
perspective or logical even it doesn't really make sense that

1468
03:48:48.639 --> 03:48:56.399
all this weight would ultimately be resting on your ankles

1469
03:48:57.479 --> 03:49:10.879
then leading to your feet, that thin area, thin bone. Yeah,

1470
03:49:10.959 --> 03:49:16.680
it does so much great work. Supports us, supports our

1471
03:49:16.760 --> 03:49:28.639
body for a lifetime, helps us to balance, helps you

1472
03:49:28.799 --> 03:49:42.079
to get around and be mobile. And there's the calf muscles.

1473
03:49:42.159 --> 03:49:49.760
Of course, when I was younger, I couldn't see the

1474
03:49:49.840 --> 03:49:56.159
pointing calf muscles. Didn't seem to do anything. Okay, if

1475
03:49:56.200 --> 03:49:59.719
I walked around on tiptoes, then my calf muscles get

1476
03:49:59.799 --> 03:50:03.559
some work. But of course that's not true. The carved

1477
03:50:03.639 --> 03:50:13.280
muscles are being used whenever we use our legs, and

1478
03:50:13.440 --> 03:50:25.959
your shins there to protect your lower legs, shaped in

1479
03:50:26.040 --> 03:50:38.600
a way almost as a protector for the bone, leading

1480
03:50:39.959 --> 03:50:50.360
of course to your ankles and your feet, but we're

1481
03:50:50.399 --> 03:50:52.280
not going to focus on your feet. We're just going

1482
03:50:52.360 --> 03:50:58.639
to focus on the legs. And I realize, and now

1483
03:50:58.680 --> 03:51:03.280
that I've mentioned your feet, you'll probably focus on them anyway,

1484
03:51:03.799 --> 03:51:06.360
So maybe I should focus on your feet a little bit.

1485
03:51:10.399 --> 03:51:14.840
You can have them in your awareness the same as

1486
03:51:14.920 --> 03:51:19.280
you have your thighs in your awareness. Even though we

1487
03:51:19.399 --> 03:51:25.280
haven't been focusing on your thighs a few minutes, let

1488
03:51:25.360 --> 03:51:36.280
me focusing on your ankles. There's still that sensation of

1489
03:51:39.479 --> 03:51:52.239
comfort in your thighs and this that movement of energy

1490
03:51:54.319 --> 03:52:01.360
because the thighs hold lots of different sensations. Of course,

1491
03:52:01.399 --> 03:52:06.159
there's the muscles, the big straw muscles that we have

1492
03:52:06.399 --> 03:52:19.719
in our thighs. But the skin on the outside of

1493
03:52:19.799 --> 03:52:25.120
the thighs, as in the outside of all of our body,

1494
03:52:25.920 --> 03:52:37.479
can be very sensitive, sensitive to the touch, sensitive to temperature,

1495
03:52:44.040 --> 03:52:51.559
and inside your thighs the bones, there's the muscle, there's

1496
03:52:51.600 --> 03:52:56.399
the blood, vessels, the ar trees to all this stuff

1497
03:52:56.520 --> 03:53:05.600
that inside your thighs. I guess sometimes it'd be nice

1498
03:53:05.639 --> 03:53:09.959
if you could actually put your fingers inside your thighs

1499
03:53:10.600 --> 03:53:15.799
and a message, so you can message on the outside,

1500
03:53:15.920 --> 03:53:18.920
of course, but to be able to get deep into

1501
03:53:19.000 --> 03:53:23.840
the muscles and to be able to just message inside

1502
03:53:23.879 --> 03:53:30.879
your thighs, message in the bones of your leg massage

1503
03:53:30.959 --> 03:53:44.159
in all the veins, just gently healing your thighs and

1504
03:53:44.319 --> 03:53:50.879
you can move down message and inside your knees. Just

1505
03:53:51.079 --> 03:53:57.760
message in those bones, but with healing fingertips, spreading that

1506
03:53:58.200 --> 03:54:09.360
healing energy deep into the joints of your knees. Of course,

1507
03:54:09.440 --> 03:54:13.559
there's the back of your your knee and the inside

1508
03:54:13.760 --> 03:54:19.920
crease where your knee is. It's a very sensitive area.

1509
03:54:21.920 --> 03:54:26.280
Very it feels very nice when you stroke it. That

1510
03:54:26.440 --> 03:54:30.120
might be because it's an area that's not really touched

1511
03:54:30.319 --> 03:54:36.920
very often. It's almost like a hidden part, that crease

1512
03:54:39.000 --> 03:54:45.479
in your legs. It's almost like a part that has

1513
03:54:45.559 --> 03:54:56.559
a sensitivity which is a little bit different. Of course,

1514
03:54:56.600 --> 03:55:07.079
it's protected by your legs. So you can imagine putting

1515
03:55:08.000 --> 03:55:17.799
your fingers into that crease in your legs. Fold in

1516
03:55:17.920 --> 03:55:21.879
between your legs. You can just message with your fingertips.

1517
03:55:23.079 --> 03:55:29.239
Imagine your fingertips going inside, message in the muscle or

1518
03:55:29.360 --> 03:55:38.719
tissue you can cause. Field the bones of your knees,

1519
03:55:40.239 --> 03:55:50.680
heading through your fingertips, and then as you go down

1520
03:55:53.559 --> 03:55:56.360
to your calf muscles. Now that's the part I'd like

1521
03:55:56.440 --> 03:56:01.120
to be able to really put my fingertips steep inside

1522
03:56:01.920 --> 03:56:10.840
like carved muscles, massage in every single tissue of that muscle,

1523
03:56:12.440 --> 03:56:22.360
healing every part, and then doing the same for my shins,

1524
03:56:25.520 --> 03:56:32.399
massage in and gently stroking the bones, generally stroking them,

1525
03:56:33.319 --> 03:56:37.440
healing in a loving way, because they deserve to be

1526
03:56:37.639 --> 03:56:44.840
treated as the precious bones that they are, because their

1527
03:56:44.959 --> 03:56:48.520
legs are so precious as in all the other parts

1528
03:56:48.600 --> 03:56:56.239
of our body, the more precious of any chill on

1529
03:56:56.360 --> 03:57:12.680
the planet. When you start to think about your legs

1530
03:57:12.840 --> 03:57:23.920
in this way, it can change your perspective. It might

1531
03:57:24.120 --> 03:57:30.719
sound a bit a bit silly to start with the

1532
03:57:30.920 --> 03:57:39.079
idea of having love for your legs, showing appreciation for

1533
03:57:39.159 --> 03:57:45.200
your thighs, wanting to be able to put your hands

1534
03:57:46.200 --> 03:57:54.920
in your thighs, massage the muscles and the bones, and

1535
03:57:55.120 --> 03:58:00.639
to get your fingers deep in there and releasing all tension,

1536
03:58:03.520 --> 03:58:12.120
just to show how much you care about your legs,

1537
03:58:13.000 --> 03:58:16.760
how much you care for what your legs do for

1538
03:58:16.920 --> 03:58:30.520
you regularly, your knees, your calves, your ankles, the strength

1539
03:58:30.680 --> 03:58:38.719
of your ankles, considering how thin they are compared to

1540
03:58:38.840 --> 03:58:45.559
the rest of your legs, especially your thighs. Yeah, they're

1541
03:58:45.719 --> 03:58:57.959
so strong, so flexible, absolutely amazing things. Your ankles are

1542
03:59:01.840 --> 03:59:06.520
truly a gift because of what they do.

1543
03:59:06.680 --> 03:59:06.920
For you.

1544
03:59:12.399 --> 03:59:19.319
Supporting all that weight, regardless of how what weight you are,

1545
03:59:20.520 --> 03:59:25.000
even if you only eat eight stone, there's still a

1546
03:59:25.159 --> 03:59:31.680
lot of weight for these little ankles. Now I'm a

1547
03:59:31.799 --> 03:59:40.000
lot heavier than eight stone. Double down, Get my ankles

1548
03:59:41.760 --> 03:59:48.399
support my body all the time? Or do they do

1549
03:59:49.239 --> 03:59:51.559
give off a sigh of relief when I sit down?

1550
03:59:53.879 --> 04:00:02.000
That's in fact, my whole legs do feel or so

1551
04:00:02.239 --> 04:00:29.680
go my toes clap. We're so happy. Your legs really

1552
04:00:31.159 --> 04:00:37.559
are amazing. And I know that talking about talking about

1553
04:00:37.680 --> 04:00:44.399
your legs is probably possibly among the most most boring

1554
04:00:44.520 --> 04:00:52.000
things I've ever heard anyone say. Possibly boring or not,

1555
04:00:53.600 --> 04:01:09.079
everything I said is true. Your legs are amazing. Your

1556
04:01:09.200 --> 04:01:21.799
legs deserve not just respect, They deserve to relax deeply.

1557
04:01:29.079 --> 04:01:32.440
They deserve to take some time out of the day

1558
04:01:34.639 --> 04:02:03.360
to just let go completely. Your legs really can relax.

1559
04:02:11.000 --> 04:02:15.120
And because the legs are so such a most you know,

1560
04:02:15.360 --> 04:02:21.280
very important part of your body. When you relax your legs,

1561
04:02:21.399 --> 04:02:28.600
the rest of your body also naturally follows in that

1562
04:02:32.360 --> 04:02:43.200
journey of comfort. I can feel it in my hips.

1563
04:02:44.600 --> 04:02:51.719
My hips feel really loose, and also my lower back

1564
04:02:51.760 --> 04:02:58.360
as well. My lower back really feels it feels stretched,

1565
04:02:59.479 --> 04:03:02.520
even though I'm just sitting in a chair and there's

1566
04:03:02.639 --> 04:03:07.879
no stretching as far as I'm aware that I'm doing.

1567
04:03:08.920 --> 04:03:11.559
It's almost as if the muscles are just relaxed so

1568
04:03:11.799 --> 04:03:17.680
much that there is a natural stretch as the tension

1569
04:03:18.600 --> 04:03:39.840
has reduced a lot. And I'm now going to count

1570
04:03:39.959 --> 04:03:47.799
down from ten down to one, and you can continue

1571
04:03:49.680 --> 04:04:15.920
to feel wonderfully relaxed. Ten nine, eight, seven, six, five

1572
04:04:20.559 --> 04:04:48.639
four three two one relax. So I'm just going to

1573
04:04:48.719 --> 04:04:54.079
count down for five down to one, and as a countdown,

1574
04:04:55.399 --> 04:04:59.920
if you just focus on the numbers, just the number

1575
04:05:01.799 --> 04:05:10.799
counting down, and notice how you feel in this moment

1576
04:05:12.559 --> 04:05:16.920
as you hear the numbers counting down, knowing that those

1577
04:05:17.079 --> 04:05:30.159
numbers counting down represent you feeling calmer, not just in

1578
04:05:30.239 --> 04:05:38.799
your body, but also relaxing your mind. Just notice how

1579
04:05:38.840 --> 04:05:44.680
you feel there's nothing to do, there's nothing to say,

1580
04:05:45.360 --> 04:06:02.399
there's nothing to think about. Starting with number five four

1581
04:06:11.920 --> 04:06:47.879
three two one, as you notice the gradual letting go

1582
04:06:50.280 --> 04:06:57.200
of the tension in your body. You may also begin

1583
04:06:57.520 --> 04:07:03.479
to notice and be aware of how your mind is

1584
04:07:04.559 --> 04:07:12.399
starting to slow down. This is just a natural thing

1585
04:07:12.920 --> 04:07:20.280
that happens. It's not really a special procedure. It's just

1586
04:07:20.479 --> 04:07:26.719
natural because as your body relaxes, your mind also starts

1587
04:07:26.760 --> 04:07:31.440
to relax. And the more your mind relaxes, the more

1588
04:07:31.479 --> 04:07:36.719
your body relaxes. It's just a continuous circle of relaxation.

1589
04:07:42.799 --> 04:07:51.319
And is that calmness that comes from relative quietness. You know,

1590
04:07:51.440 --> 04:07:57.079
even even if this background sounds either your side or mind,

1591
04:07:58.760 --> 04:08:04.680
it's still and to be quite calm. You know, you

1592
04:08:04.760 --> 04:08:09.959
haven't got the television on, there's no music in the background,

1593
04:08:10.079 --> 04:08:12.719
unless you're listening to the recording with music. Of course,

1594
04:08:17.559 --> 04:08:19.760
you're very likely not going to be sitting in a

1595
04:08:19.879 --> 04:08:23.000
room with other people. Of course you might be, but

1596
04:08:24.280 --> 04:08:27.559
generally it's more ideal if you can do this on

1597
04:08:27.680 --> 04:08:39.000
your own, so no distractions, and when you stop thinking

1598
04:08:39.040 --> 04:08:56.239
about stuff, relaxation automatically rises. A sense of comfort starts

1599
04:08:56.280 --> 04:09:05.040
to grow, and without trying to build it up into

1600
04:09:05.159 --> 04:09:17.280
something fantastical or something magical, this is just a natural process,

1601
04:09:19.600 --> 04:09:30.280
something that's easy to accomplish. In fact, it's almost you know,

1602
04:09:30.440 --> 04:09:37.280
the sense of Relaxing completely happens really when you put

1603
04:09:37.479 --> 04:09:41.319
no effort into it. It's not something that you can

1604
04:09:41.440 --> 04:09:53.040
really force. It's something that happens naturally. And part of

1605
04:09:53.479 --> 04:10:03.680
the process of this recording and others is simply two

1606
04:10:05.280 --> 04:10:15.639
allow you to take advantage of this space this time,

1607
04:10:18.680 --> 04:10:29.559
to just let go, to just be here, to be

1608
04:10:30.239 --> 04:10:43.639
in tune with how you feel, yet with the intention

1609
04:10:45.879 --> 04:10:57.319
of wanting to relax deeply and maybe even to fall asleep,

1610
04:10:58.479 --> 04:11:03.639
depending on what it is that you wish for yourself

1611
04:11:05.440 --> 04:11:20.479
in this moment. As we know, relaxing is the majority

1612
04:11:21.719 --> 04:11:26.159
of the process of falling asleep. The actual falling asleep

1613
04:11:26.239 --> 04:11:33.040
part is the tiny bit at the end. The deeper

1614
04:11:34.360 --> 04:11:56.639
relaxed you become, the easier you find yourself drifting. But

1615
04:11:56.760 --> 04:12:03.360
you can also if you choose stay focused on my

1616
04:12:03.559 --> 04:12:32.479
voice and really enjoy the process gradually relaxing each muscle

1617
04:12:37.079 --> 04:13:03.959
in your body effortlessly and just observing the sensation of

1618
04:13:04.239 --> 04:13:19.840
letting go completely. This time, I'm going to count from

1619
04:13:20.079 --> 04:13:33.440
six down to one. You can notice your mind calming

1620
04:13:33.760 --> 04:13:46.280
down more with each number that you hear me say, naturally,

1621
04:13:47.360 --> 04:16:28.879
feeling calm and slow and be peaceful. Six, five, four, three, two, one,

1622
04:16:50.040 --> 04:17:03.319
being aware how your mind to slowe, write down, sinking

1623
04:17:05.959 --> 04:17:26.280
deeply into relaxation. And as you focus on your mind,

1624
04:17:26.559 --> 04:17:36.479
you may notice that there are some thoughts still there,

1625
04:17:39.079 --> 04:17:48.639
maybe some stubborn thoughts that for some reason perhaps need

1626
04:17:48.719 --> 04:17:49.319
your attention.

1627
04:17:56.360 --> 04:17:57.600
Something you can do is.

1628
04:18:03.159 --> 04:18:15.639
Send love to those thoughts. Sprinkle those thoughts with love

1629
04:18:17.399 --> 04:18:23.559
like little petals from a flower. Just sprinkle it over them, petals,

1630
04:18:23.600 --> 04:18:30.840
feel good love towards those thoughts, to let those thoughts

1631
04:18:31.040 --> 04:18:37.840
know that you're not abandoned in them. You just need them.

1632
04:18:39.079 --> 04:18:50.159
You require them to just calm down, slow down, quiet

1633
04:18:50.520 --> 04:19:06.479
down for now. So as you focus on those remaining thoughts.

1634
04:19:07.719 --> 04:19:11.799
As we count down this time from seven down to one.

1635
04:19:13.360 --> 04:19:27.440
With each number, just imagine sprinkling those flower petals love, love, kindness,

1636
04:19:29.040 --> 04:19:40.879
gratitude over those thoughts, which will allow them to just

1637
04:19:42.319 --> 04:19:57.319
melt away and relax deeply. With every number, those thoughts

1638
04:19:57.479 --> 04:21:32.639
will become more and more relaxed. Starting with number seven, six, five, four, three.

1639
04:22:23.920 --> 04:22:24.159
One.

1640
04:22:41.079 --> 04:22:58.479
Let you know, notice how relaxed your feeling in your body.

1641
04:23:06.879 --> 04:23:20.079
We're going to focus on your hands, because the more

1642
04:23:20.200 --> 04:23:27.239
relaxed your hands are, the more relaxed your body and

1643
04:23:27.559 --> 04:23:49.120
mind are ours you focus on your hands and your fingers.

1644
04:23:54.639 --> 04:23:59.399
There's nothing needed to be done. There's no clinching of

1645
04:23:59.680 --> 04:24:11.639
this sort, dancing the fingers or anything like that. It's

1646
04:24:11.920 --> 04:24:26.520
just noticing and focusing on your hands, noticing how they feel.

1647
04:24:41.159 --> 04:24:51.280
Because the more relaxed do your hands feel, the calmer

1648
04:24:51.479 --> 04:25:00.319
your mind feels, and the more comforts you feel out

1649
04:25:02.280 --> 04:25:03.719
throughout your body.

1650
04:25:12.440 --> 04:25:15.159
May have.

1651
04:25:19.200 --> 04:26:02.280
Already noticed you mind is starting dressed like said, just

1652
04:26:02.479 --> 04:26:19.639
on your hands and fingers, allowing them to experience a

1653
04:26:19.879 --> 04:26:27.799
real deepening of that relaxation in your hands and fingers,

1654
04:26:33.840 --> 04:26:56.159
more and more relaxed. With each number from eight down

1655
04:26:56.319 --> 04:27:09.120
to one, you can almost feel the healing and relaxing

1656
04:27:09.639 --> 04:27:28.680
energy spreading into your hands and fingers, becoming more relaxing

1657
04:27:31.840 --> 04:27:50.879
with each number you hear, going down eight down to one, drifting,

1658
04:27:54.559 --> 04:30:41.440
drifting again starting Louise, look eight, seven, six, five, three,

1659
04:32:01.239 --> 04:32:10.520
just being here now, nothing to think about, nothing to do,

1660
04:32:12.159 --> 04:32:26.079
nothing to say, and everything just feels calmer. And this

1661
04:32:26.360 --> 04:32:33.959
is your natural state of being. This is how you

1662
04:32:34.239 --> 04:32:40.479
just normally feel when you take away all of that

1663
04:32:40.959 --> 04:32:48.280
other stuff that we add, you know, things like stress

1664
04:32:48.440 --> 04:33:04.840
and worrying and overthinking, anxiety, tension, just generally thinking about stuff.

1665
04:33:07.080 --> 04:33:10.200
We take that away, which is what we do.

1666
04:33:11.000 --> 04:33:18.639
What we're doing now, you're.

1667
04:33:18.560 --> 04:33:29.720
Left with a real sense of peacefulness, which comes to

1668
04:33:29.840 --> 04:33:43.439
you very quickly, because ultimately it's just a feeling, a

1669
04:33:43.680 --> 04:33:52.319
feeling of comfort, almost as if you've gone inside yourself

1670
04:33:52.400 --> 04:34:04.040
and you've found a special place where everything is peaceful,

1671
04:34:06.959 --> 04:34:12.319
the place where you can feel relaxed and your natural

1672
04:34:14.520 --> 04:34:20.840
sense and comfort, a place where you can be you,

1673
04:34:25.560 --> 04:34:32.560
where you can accept yourself and who you are, the

1674
04:34:32.639 --> 04:34:39.040
place where you're not trying to please anybody else, in

1675
04:34:43.159 --> 04:34:51.720
the place where you can actually not just love yourself,

1676
04:34:51.840 --> 04:35:01.279
but in some ways more importantly, you can like yourself, appreciate.

1677
04:35:02.200 --> 04:35:03.240
Who you are.

1678
04:35:12.080 --> 04:35:18.680
That sense of gratitude, it's in the air around you.

1679
04:35:26.360 --> 04:35:34.159
That's also a place where you can actually feel the

1680
04:35:34.520 --> 04:35:49.799
healing energy soaking into your body. Healing energy soaking into

1681
04:35:49.919 --> 04:36:04.119
your body. The healing energy spreads through your vein, traveling

1682
04:36:04.279 --> 04:36:16.479
to each and every single part of your body, and

1683
04:36:16.680 --> 04:36:23.680
you start to realize that actually that healing energy, it's

1684
04:36:23.759 --> 04:36:30.520
not just entered into your brain, it's become part of

1685
04:36:31.000 --> 04:36:41.880
your brain, and that spinal fluid is now mixed with

1686
04:36:42.200 --> 04:36:53.439
healing energy, not just allowing you to feel so much

1687
04:36:53.680 --> 04:37:08.080
more relaxed and healthy in this moment. But also you

1688
04:37:08.240 --> 04:37:16.599
start to realize that actually, what's happening now without healing,

1689
04:37:17.639 --> 04:37:27.279
relaxing energy spreading through your body is actually changing your life.

1690
04:37:32.439 --> 04:37:37.560
It's actually changing the way you're going to feel not

1691
04:37:37.840 --> 04:37:45.200
just now, but tomorrow and the next day. As your

1692
04:37:45.319 --> 04:37:53.400
health improves, not just your physical health, but your mental health.

1693
04:37:57.360 --> 04:38:03.400
Things that used to bother you past, for some reason,

1694
04:38:04.599 --> 04:38:12.159
no longer have the effect that they used to because

1695
04:38:12.319 --> 04:38:23.959
something has changed deep within you. Maybe things that used

1696
04:38:24.000 --> 04:38:34.479
to cause you to feel anger no longer have that

1697
04:38:35.360 --> 04:38:43.360
power to control you the way they seem to be

1698
04:38:43.479 --> 04:38:52.560
able to before. As you realize that you're the one

1699
04:38:54.599 --> 04:39:09.200
who decides what effects, You're the one who decides to

1700
04:39:09.439 --> 04:39:22.279
feel relaxed and calm when you choose to enjoy noticing,

1701
04:39:23.400 --> 04:39:38.000
these natural developments of healing continue to grow and improve

1702
04:39:38.400 --> 04:39:49.400
your life day by day, including of course, your ability

1703
04:39:51.520 --> 04:40:06.599
to relax so much easier and sleeping. It's the most

1704
04:40:06.880 --> 04:40:17.840
natural thing in the world to you, because falling asleep

1705
04:40:18.080 --> 04:40:26.400
is something that you've done so many times in your life,

1706
04:40:29.639 --> 04:40:33.680
and you know that you were born, as we all were,

1707
04:40:34.520 --> 04:40:45.799
with the ability to fall asleep. Naturally, we're born with

1708
04:40:46.360 --> 04:40:58.799
that ability to just drift off into a deep, healing sleep.

1709
04:41:04.759 --> 04:41:09.560
Even when we're kids, sometimes will fall asleep and we

1710
04:41:09.639 --> 04:41:16.119
don't even want to try to stay awake. Maybe it's

1711
04:41:16.240 --> 04:41:20.680
a birthday in the morning, or it's Christmas or holiday

1712
04:41:20.880 --> 04:41:23.279
or something we look forward to. We don't want to

1713
04:41:23.319 --> 04:41:28.439
go to sleep. But the more we want to stay awake,

1714
04:41:30.639 --> 04:41:37.680
the more we just start to drift. And the more

1715
04:41:38.400 --> 04:41:42.599
you fight drifting, we'll try to stop yourself and drift

1716
04:41:42.680 --> 04:41:55.799
in asleep, the deeper and stronger that drifting becomes. Because

1717
04:41:55.880 --> 04:42:01.279
we're born not just with the need to relax deeply

1718
04:42:03.000 --> 04:42:12.840
and to naturally fall asleep, but it's our birthright, it's

1719
04:42:12.959 --> 04:42:23.479
part of our DNA. And sometimes as we get older

1720
04:42:23.560 --> 04:42:34.959
in life, perhaps at times we have forgotten that relaxing

1721
04:42:36.279 --> 04:42:50.720
completely is not only a wonderfully pleasant experience, it's also

1722
04:42:51.080 --> 04:43:10.560
really easy. It's very very easy to let go, because

1723
04:43:10.599 --> 04:43:11.319
that's all it is.

1724
04:43:11.520 --> 04:43:12.000
It is just.

1725
04:43:15.560 --> 04:43:26.959
Deciding to let go. And when you press the play

1726
04:43:27.040 --> 04:43:37.319
button on my recordings, you have given permission for my

1727
04:43:37.560 --> 04:43:46.720
voice to election. When you press that play button, you

1728
04:43:46.840 --> 04:43:57.639
have given me permission for my words to effect you

1729
04:43:58.279 --> 04:44:14.799
in a positive only a positive way, opening up your

1730
04:44:14.919 --> 04:44:37.680
mind to useful and healing suggestions that can have such

1731
04:44:37.680 --> 04:44:49.799
an amazing effect on how you feel right now, as

1732
04:44:49.919 --> 04:44:59.919
well as those changes that continue long after the record

1733
04:45:00.319 --> 04:45:10.240
the ends, those changes within you that continue to flourish

1734
04:45:11.080 --> 04:45:25.680
and grow, transforming your life in a positive, beautiful way,

1735
04:45:28.759 --> 04:45:35.799
allowing you to move forward in your life in the

1736
04:45:35.959 --> 04:45:53.200
direction that you choose for yourself. And this feeling, this

1737
04:45:53.479 --> 04:46:09.080
feeling that you can experience a safety, comfort, calmness, just

1738
04:46:09.360 --> 04:46:22.959
feels so nice. It's such a healthy place to be,

1739
04:46:30.880 --> 04:46:44.680
and that positivity grows within you each and every day.

1740
04:46:47.759 --> 04:46:57.520
Moving forward, you're going to find that you're more relaxed

1741
04:47:00.000 --> 04:47:12.319
physically and in your mind's more relaxed. And it's not

1742
04:47:12.479 --> 04:47:18.119
that you're thinking slower, it's just that your mind will

1743
04:47:18.159 --> 04:47:30.240
be less clogged up with unnecessary negativity because from now on,

1744
04:47:30.919 --> 04:47:40.560
your mind rejects negativity. From now on, you're going to

1745
04:47:40.720 --> 04:47:57.599
start noticing when negativity arises, and you can just say stop, stop,

1746
04:48:00.439 --> 04:48:07.240
and then negativity will turn around and leave you alone.

1747
04:48:15.200 --> 04:48:34.520
Stop and then negativity would disappear. And as you notice

1748
04:48:34.840 --> 04:48:43.159
that you feel way more relaxed than you probably expected,

1749
04:48:49.319 --> 04:48:58.159
you can now congratulate yourself because you are the person

1750
04:48:58.840 --> 04:49:04.400
that has done this. You are the one that has

1751
04:49:04.639 --> 04:49:12.479
opened your mind up to the simple facts that you

1752
04:49:12.799 --> 04:49:18.119
can feel more relaxed in your body and in your mind.

1753
04:49:24.319 --> 04:49:30.439
You've opened your mind up to the birthright of being.

1754
04:49:30.279 --> 04:49:31.040
Able to just.

1755
04:49:33.720 --> 04:49:48.520
Fall asleep easily when you choose. And that's a nice feeling.

1756
04:49:50.159 --> 04:49:58.400
Don't you think it feels nice? Doesn't it to feel

1757
04:50:00.159 --> 04:50:05.279
arm All that healing energy is spreading through your body

1758
04:50:06.439 --> 04:50:18.200
and your mind to spend time and a special place

1759
04:50:18.599 --> 04:50:35.439
where negativity can no longer enter. Negativity is banned. It's bad,

1760
04:50:36.880 --> 04:50:43.639
it's not allowed entry. Doesn't it doesn't. This doesn't deserve

1761
04:50:43.759 --> 04:50:51.919
to be here, doesn't belong here. Negativity has no place

1762
04:50:53.000 --> 04:51:09.759
in your life, which makes room feel more comfort, more healing,

1763
04:51:11.919 --> 04:51:39.159
more relaxation, more peace. It feels nice, doesn't it? Just

1764
04:51:42.919 --> 04:52:03.439
let go of everything. I'm gonna count down now from

1765
04:52:04.240 --> 04:52:13.799
twenty down to one. You can continue to relax. If

1766
04:52:13.880 --> 04:52:25.720
you choose, you can drift to sleep. With every number

1767
04:52:28.240 --> 04:52:37.000
you hear me say, you can fill twice as relaxed,

1768
04:52:40.040 --> 04:52:51.279
or if you choose, you can fill twice sleeping now

1769
04:52:56.720 --> 04:54:56.840
twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, two, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six.

1770
04:55:04.919 --> 04:55:05.200
Five.

1771
04:55:12.159 --> 04:55:50.799
Oh oh, this is your time to just take a break,

1772
04:55:55.400 --> 04:56:06.479
your time to relax, to allow your mind to slow down,

1773
04:56:15.159 --> 04:56:29.200
to give yourself permission to take a break from everything.

1774
04:56:34.080 --> 04:56:41.479
Ensure the only person that can make that decision. You're

1775
04:56:41.479 --> 04:56:48.840
the only person that can actually tell your mind to

1776
04:56:49.200 --> 04:57:13.279
just relax, to just take some time off so that

1777
04:57:13.439 --> 04:57:18.439
you can focus on your body, getting in touch with

1778
04:57:19.599 --> 04:57:35.919
how you feel physically. And in the process of this

1779
04:57:36.279 --> 04:57:41.159
body scan, where you focus on different parts of your body,

1780
04:57:47.599 --> 04:57:55.000
those parts that you focus on and observe. Even though

1781
04:57:55.200 --> 04:58:03.360
you're not purposely requesting for those parts of your body

1782
04:58:03.560 --> 04:58:12.040
to relax, it's kind of expected. You expect when you

1783
04:58:12.240 --> 04:58:25.279
listen to my voice to feel more relaxed naturally, because

1784
04:58:25.360 --> 04:58:35.159
when you're listening to me, your attention is focused on

1785
04:58:35.400 --> 04:58:46.880
my words, and as my words guide you to focus

1786
04:58:51.279 --> 04:59:06.200
on those parts of your body, your focus increases, which

1787
04:59:06.360 --> 04:59:22.279
actually calms your mind. And when your mind calms down,

1788
04:59:27.200 --> 04:59:49.240
a body relaxes, and when your body calms down, your

1789
04:59:49.400 --> 04:59:52.400
mind relaxes.

1790
04:59:59.599 --> 04:59:59.919
Mhm.

1791
05:00:00.040 --> 05:00:07.360
And even though we've not really started to focus on

1792
05:00:07.560 --> 05:00:21.000
your body, you can already feel that healing energy spreading

1793
05:00:21.200 --> 05:00:40.560
through your body, pushing out stress and tension, healing all

1794
05:00:40.639 --> 05:00:47.159
the parts of your body, including your skin, your bones,

1795
05:00:48.680 --> 05:00:52.759
your blood, all of your workings.

1796
05:00:52.279 --> 05:00:58.000
Inside your body, all of the muscles, all of the fat,

1797
05:00:59.759 --> 05:01:05.319
all of everything, every hair on your body.

1798
05:01:07.200 --> 05:01:09.520
Is filled with that healing energy.

1799
05:01:17.520 --> 05:01:18.240
And when your.

1800
05:01:18.200 --> 05:01:37.400
Brain fills without healing energy, the feeling of comfort relaxation

1801
05:01:41.279 --> 05:02:02.680
increases deeply, increases in a way that in your mind

1802
05:02:06.279 --> 05:02:19.799
starts to feel perhaps bit drowsing because it's not needed,

1803
05:02:23.200 --> 05:02:39.439
and it may start to drift if that's what's needed.

1804
05:02:42.599 --> 05:02:47.159
So if you're listening to this and what you need

1805
05:02:47.479 --> 05:02:50.520
is deep relaxation, that's what you get.

1806
05:02:52.720 --> 05:02:54.200
If what you need is.

1807
05:02:55.880 --> 05:03:06.200
To fall asleep naturally as your mind drifts, that's also

1808
05:03:07.680 --> 05:03:20.599
what will happen. Because by pressing a play button on

1809
05:03:20.759 --> 05:03:27.360
the podcast and listening to me, you give permission of

1810
05:03:27.560 --> 05:03:38.159
your body and your mind. In fact, you give the

1811
05:03:38.279 --> 05:03:47.200
command to your body and your mind to relax deeply

1812
05:03:51.159 --> 05:03:57.319
and to drift off to sleep. If that's what you want.

1813
05:04:00.599 --> 05:04:01.000
Or need.

1814
05:04:08.639 --> 05:04:14.319
Then as I focus on the different parts of your body,

1815
05:04:19.319 --> 05:04:28.119
you may start to just drift, and then you come

1816
05:04:28.240 --> 05:04:32.759
back again and you hear me talk again, and I'm

1817
05:04:32.880 --> 05:04:35.840
focusing on a different part of your body.

1818
05:04:41.599 --> 05:04:42.200
You may.

1819
05:04:44.159 --> 05:04:53.080
Find yourself drifting, be able to realize you're drifting. Until

1820
05:04:53.119 --> 05:05:01.720
you stop drifting, you're alert again to my voice. Focusing

1821
05:05:02.880 --> 05:05:07.720
on a different part of your body starts to relax

1822
05:05:07.880 --> 05:05:20.360
in deeper because I drifting. It's basically here already in

1823
05:05:20.479 --> 05:05:30.840
the sleep zone. And the more you drift, the longer

1824
05:05:30.959 --> 05:05:41.680
you drift, the longer you drift. Eventually, that drifting continues

1825
05:05:42.959 --> 05:05:52.880
into sleep, and that's the last you remember until you

1826
05:05:53.040 --> 05:06:02.200
wake up in your own time. When you experience the

1827
05:06:02.400 --> 05:06:11.720
right amount of sleep, fear because when you do and

1828
05:06:11.919 --> 05:06:22.680
if you do fall asleep, it's extremely pleasant. So relaxing,

1829
05:06:25.720 --> 05:06:28.720
so deep healing.

1830
05:06:30.799 --> 05:06:31.200
Sleep.

1831
05:06:41.360 --> 05:06:49.159
I feel so nice to relax into your own body

1832
05:06:49.400 --> 05:06:58.880
and mind. If you feel that healing energy is spreading

1833
05:06:59.279 --> 05:07:24.759
through you, relaxing is so deeply relaxes so deeply. Start

1834
05:07:24.959 --> 05:07:40.959
to focus on your eyes, moving down to your jaw,

1835
05:07:48.880 --> 05:07:59.880
down till lack, your shoulders.

1836
05:08:01.680 --> 05:08:44.639
Moss.

1837
05:08:30.959 --> 05:09:30.000
Chest, study your hips, your legs, your faince, your ties,

1838
05:09:47.680 --> 05:10:01.360
have feeing spreading grin inside your body. Feeling you are

1839
05:10:04.279 --> 05:10:16.560
Now Let's focus again on parts of your body. Okay, kay,

1840
05:10:17.279 --> 05:10:27.119
focusing this time on your forehead, Now on your mouth,

1841
05:10:28.360 --> 05:10:48.639
your lips, your tongue, the whole of your mouth. Focusing

1842
05:10:50.040 --> 05:11:00.599
on your fingers. Maybe you could move your fingers little bits.

1843
05:11:00.799 --> 05:11:16.240
You can focus on each one individually, both hands, and

1844
05:11:16.400 --> 05:11:19.240
even though if you focus on both of your hands

1845
05:11:20.200 --> 05:11:30.200
now they almost seem to just melt into one. Where

1846
05:11:30.319 --> 05:11:38.360
is your right hand starting left hand, and almost as

1847
05:11:38.439 --> 05:11:55.680
if just mixed together. Now focusing on your knees, just

1848
05:11:56.200 --> 05:12:21.479
noticing how your knees hell. Now, focusing your alpers, like

1849
05:12:21.720 --> 05:12:37.599
I said by Fowers, just obside the faith of alpers.

1850
05:13:01.720 --> 05:13:59.520
Now you say I'm sorry, vaca, back energy, back, neck, upside, ankles.

1851
05:14:13.119 --> 05:15:18.520
It's a goal of sensation, of accus am I to say,

1852
05:15:20.919 --> 05:15:49.919
now your ties, if you faint, you ties feel right now,

1853
05:16:20.959 --> 05:16:52.119
not too sent how you entire body feels. Noticing how

1854
05:16:54.479 --> 05:17:46.799
your mind feels now, letting go, letting go, letting go everything,

1855
05:17:55.040 --> 05:18:36.560
letting go, letting go, leting go, h everything everything. I'm

1856
05:18:36.599 --> 05:18:40.119
going to start now, and I would like you just

1857
05:18:40.159 --> 05:18:44.200
to first of all, just to see yourself lying down

1858
05:18:45.840 --> 05:18:51.400
on that message table, lying on your front. Your head

1859
05:18:51.520 --> 05:18:59.880
is supported, your arms are supported, and you feel comfortable,

1860
05:19:00.439 --> 05:19:10.200
and breathing is really easy, and you feel you feel confident,

1861
05:19:10.880 --> 05:19:13.159
in how you look as well, So there's none of

1862
05:19:13.200 --> 05:19:19.439
that issue of body problems or shyness, because I'm a

1863
05:19:19.560 --> 05:19:27.599
professional and this is a therapy session, so none of

1864
05:19:27.680 --> 05:19:37.520
that stuff matters on whatsoever. This is about you. This

1865
05:19:37.680 --> 05:19:45.040
is about how you feel and how you can enjoy

1866
05:19:46.000 --> 05:19:52.040
that sense of comfort and relaxation that comes from letting

1867
05:19:52.159 --> 05:19:58.000
go and allowing my hands my fingers to relax you

1868
05:20:00.880 --> 05:20:09.599
by messaging your body. So I want to start off

1869
05:20:09.799 --> 05:20:14.720
just by placing my hands on the back of your head,

1870
05:20:16.159 --> 05:20:21.520
just gently, just so you can feel my hands feel

1871
05:20:21.639 --> 05:20:28.360
like really on you. So you can maybe feel the

1872
05:20:28.439 --> 05:20:30.639
warmth of my hands on the back of your head.

1873
05:20:33.880 --> 05:20:36.159
You don't with my hands to the side of your head,

1874
05:20:37.159 --> 05:20:43.759
not pressing, but just holding that very gently, maybe over

1875
05:20:43.840 --> 05:20:47.479
your ears, and a little bit on your face, just

1876
05:20:47.599 --> 05:20:53.040
so you can feel my hands so you can become

1877
05:20:53.080 --> 05:21:06.080
accustomed to them. And now put my hands on the

1878
05:21:06.159 --> 05:21:10.840
back of your head again and gently let them slide

1879
05:21:10.919 --> 05:21:23.159
down onto the back of your neck. You can feel

1880
05:21:23.200 --> 05:21:33.200
my hands gently stroking the back of your neck to

1881
05:21:33.319 --> 05:21:39.799
start with, just so you can get used to the

1882
05:21:41.680 --> 05:21:45.360
feeling of my hands on your skin, get accustomed to it.

1883
05:21:49.200 --> 05:21:54.119
Realize that you're safe and it's all good, it's all fine,

1884
05:22:00.520 --> 05:22:04.599
and I want to start gently massaging the muscles in

1885
05:22:04.680 --> 05:22:20.520
the back of your neck with both hands. And this

1886
05:22:20.639 --> 05:22:26.880
is a very trusting situation really, because our necks are

1887
05:22:26.959 --> 05:22:32.159
so fragile and to have someone have their hands around

1888
05:22:32.200 --> 05:22:37.360
your neck in that way can sometimes be problematic for people,

1889
05:22:38.599 --> 05:22:43.040
which is why messages are quite good, because it allows

1890
05:22:43.119 --> 05:22:57.360
you to relax and get in touch with trust, to

1891
05:22:57.479 --> 05:23:10.040
feel peaceful and calm. There's a massage the sides of

1892
05:23:10.159 --> 05:23:18.040
your neck, gently moving from the bottom of your neck.

1893
05:23:19.759 --> 05:23:22.279
It would be sort of near where your shoulders start,

1894
05:23:22.319 --> 05:23:29.439
I guess, all the way up to your jaw, your ears,

1895
05:23:29.840 --> 05:23:35.599
kind of area the side of your neck. Of course,

1896
05:23:35.599 --> 05:23:38.159
it's a lot longer than the front of your neck.

1897
05:23:51.200 --> 05:23:58.799
Then massaging the back of your neck, especially that area

1898
05:23:59.000 --> 05:24:07.880
where perhaps we hold tension, and as that area's message,

1899
05:24:08.279 --> 05:24:12.319
you can actually feel a sense of release in the

1900
05:24:12.400 --> 05:24:20.279
back of your neck and maybe you can breathe it

1901
05:24:20.400 --> 05:24:26.360
out as well. Notice how it feels, Notice how you feel.

1902
05:24:36.119 --> 05:24:39.759
And they're moving down to that area between your neck

1903
05:24:39.799 --> 05:24:49.560
and your shoulders, that musty area, starting to message that

1904
05:24:49.759 --> 05:24:54.040
area on both sides. I mean, this would be the

1905
05:24:54.159 --> 05:24:56.959
area that a lot of people would message if they

1906
05:24:57.040 --> 05:25:01.840
were going to give you like a shoulder message. Even

1907
05:25:01.919 --> 05:25:05.880
that's not technically the shoulders, but it's all the muscles

1908
05:25:05.919 --> 05:25:12.279
that lead to the shoulders from the neck and again

1909
05:25:12.439 --> 05:25:19.439
that can hold tension and stress. And when massaged sometimes

1910
05:25:19.520 --> 05:25:26.520
a nice deep message is useful, and you decide how

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05:25:26.720 --> 05:25:44.680
deep that message is and just allow my knuckles just

1912
05:25:44.799 --> 05:25:48.919
to dig in to get to those muscles and to

1913
05:25:49.159 --> 05:26:00.159
really relaxed all the time being firm yet gentle.

1914
05:26:01.319 --> 05:26:01.639
With you.

1915
05:26:13.680 --> 05:26:20.159
And just stroking down the area to your actual shoulders,

1916
05:26:22.439 --> 05:26:32.040
moving to the muscles of your shoulders, and maybe initially

1917
05:26:32.240 --> 05:26:36.279
just pulling up the shoulders a little bit off the

1918
05:26:36.400 --> 05:26:39.439
table just to give you a little bit of a

1919
05:26:39.599 --> 05:26:50.479
stretch very gently, and you've got the muscles at the

1920
05:26:50.599 --> 05:27:02.520
front of your shoulders, the side and the back. Again,

1921
05:27:02.799 --> 05:27:06.639
this is a part that can really take quite a

1922
05:27:06.680 --> 05:27:14.919
bit of pressure, quite a bit of needing. If if

1923
05:27:15.000 --> 05:27:22.919
you wish to really release the tension to really get

1924
05:27:23.040 --> 05:27:29.639
into those muscles and you can let your fingers in there.

1925
05:27:30.680 --> 05:27:36.279
They can feel really nice. Sometimes it's just being stroked

1926
05:27:36.360 --> 05:27:46.919
gently or being massaged quite strongly can all be beneficial

1927
05:27:48.520 --> 05:28:06.639
to the relaxation of the muscles in your shoulders. Now

1928
05:28:07.040 --> 05:28:16.479
you move down your arms. We do one arm at

1929
05:28:16.520 --> 05:28:26.400
a time, Starting with your right arm. What I'll do

1930
05:28:26.759 --> 05:28:31.080
is I just lift your arm up, just hold it

1931
05:28:31.159 --> 05:28:36.680
to the side of you. Don't words still be attached,

1932
05:28:38.680 --> 05:28:53.360
and I just message the tops of your arms all

1933
05:28:53.400 --> 05:29:11.040
the way down to your forearms into your wrists, gently

1934
05:29:11.400 --> 05:29:24.040
massaging that part, the softer part, which is the under

1935
05:29:24.159 --> 05:29:29.720
part of the arm, which leads to the crease in

1936
05:29:29.840 --> 05:29:45.799
your elbow. The inside it's much more sensitive skin. Sometimes

1937
05:29:45.959 --> 05:29:56.479
just having that stroked feel really nice, pleasurable and relaxing.

1938
05:30:05.200 --> 05:30:15.799
Now moving down to your right hand, just holding your

1939
05:30:15.959 --> 05:30:29.159
hand in both of my hands, just pressing gently on

1940
05:30:29.279 --> 05:30:37.240
the back of your hand, stretching your fingers ever so lightly,

1941
05:30:40.560 --> 05:30:47.479
at the same time pressing down and massaging each finger,

1942
05:30:55.520 --> 05:30:59.560
and then starting to massage the palms of their hand.

1943
05:31:06.240 --> 05:31:17.639
Just turning the hand, stretching it gently and actually having

1944
05:31:17.720 --> 05:31:24.919
your hand held can really be an emotional experience. Sometimes,

1945
05:31:25.919 --> 05:31:30.759
even if it is a stranger, someone you don't know

1946
05:31:31.000 --> 05:31:36.319
very well, like a massage person or a therapist. Maybe

1947
05:31:38.360 --> 05:31:52.000
because it's intimate, you can feel nice, you can feel safe.

1948
05:32:00.040 --> 05:32:03.119
As I put that right arm back down, where it was.

1949
05:32:08.759 --> 05:32:15.720
I do the same with your left arm, exactly the same,

1950
05:32:20.400 --> 05:32:25.439
massaging the muscles in your arm all the way down.

1951
05:32:26.639 --> 05:32:38.959
Do you arrest, stroking the inside of your arm, just

1952
05:32:39.080 --> 05:32:52.639
being gentle or as firm as you require, and then

1953
05:32:52.799 --> 05:33:09.240
massaging your left hand, stretching the fingers, gently massaging the

1954
05:33:09.479 --> 05:33:28.919
palm of your left hand. You feel so so relaxing,

1955
05:33:36.599 --> 05:33:54.319
so comforting, and I just rest your left arm back down.

1956
05:33:59.599 --> 05:34:07.959
M the start message your back, the biggest part of

1957
05:34:08.080 --> 05:34:19.479
your body, starting at the top, starting again where you

1958
05:34:19.520 --> 05:34:23.319
already have been, the area at the top in between

1959
05:34:23.400 --> 05:34:30.319
your shoulders, near your neck. Going back and massage in

1960
05:34:30.400 --> 05:34:42.479
the area again, but this time moving downwards, taking it downward.

1961
05:34:42.639 --> 05:34:50.520
Stroke to the middle of a back, working from the

1962
05:34:50.959 --> 05:35:00.279
outside inwards. So massage in that your back, but the

1963
05:35:00.400 --> 05:35:10.799
outsides of your back, the parts where your arms would

1964
05:35:10.880 --> 05:35:24.080
maybe rest against, almost the part that connects your front

1965
05:35:24.279 --> 05:35:42.000
to your back. Just messaging down firmly but gently, as

1966
05:35:42.200 --> 05:35:50.159
firm as you want, moving down and moving across a

1967
05:35:50.200 --> 05:35:54.159
little bed, moving all the way down again being very

1968
05:35:54.279 --> 05:36:06.959
gentle yet firm as you choose. Eventually you get to

1969
05:36:07.040 --> 05:36:12.439
the spine. We can message the muscles and either side

1970
05:36:12.479 --> 05:36:16.119
of your spine from the top of your neck all

1971
05:36:16.319 --> 05:36:27.520
the way down to your lower back. We can do

1972
05:36:27.720 --> 05:36:36.880
that a few times. Sometimes people would use the knuckle

1973
05:36:37.759 --> 05:36:42.080
or the you know, the two fingers and just go

1974
05:36:42.279 --> 05:36:47.880
either side of the spine almost just push down all

1975
05:36:47.919 --> 05:36:51.680
the way down to the bottom of the spine, each

1976
05:36:51.919 --> 05:37:02.439
time releasing tension and opening up the body, stretching your

1977
05:37:02.520 --> 05:37:09.319
body so that you feel more relaxed but at the

1978
05:37:09.439 --> 05:37:25.759
same time rejuvenated. And now I'm going to move to

1979
05:37:25.880 --> 05:37:34.439
one side, to your right side, and from the bottom

1980
05:37:34.479 --> 05:37:40.200
of your ribs to your pelvis, I'm going to massage

1981
05:37:41.279 --> 05:37:46.599
that area of your back. I'll stretch over the other

1982
05:37:46.759 --> 05:37:52.040
side and I will pull the muscles gently and massage

1983
05:37:52.200 --> 05:37:56.479
and push from one end that side all the way

1984
05:37:56.560 --> 05:38:01.520
to my side to the middle the fact to where

1985
05:38:01.520 --> 05:38:08.200
your spine is massaging that side of your spine the

1986
05:38:08.279 --> 05:38:14.479
opposite side to where I'm standing. It's almost like kneading bread.

1987
05:38:16.919 --> 05:38:23.240
There's that big area which is firm yet lots there

1988
05:38:23.520 --> 05:38:33.000
to message. Potentially one of the most important places to

1989
05:38:33.119 --> 05:38:40.639
actually have a message, because you really feel it. You

1990
05:38:40.880 --> 05:38:45.840
really feel the release and the pleasure of having your

1991
05:38:45.919 --> 05:38:53.560
lower back massaged. It releases so much from your body

1992
05:38:55.080 --> 05:39:03.959
that's not useful starting a healing process which will continue

1993
05:39:04.159 --> 05:39:16.560
long after this recording is over. The message in this

1994
05:39:16.720 --> 05:39:20.639
part of your body not only feels really good for you,

1995
05:39:22.080 --> 05:39:26.560
it's actually fun to do because it is, as I said,

1996
05:39:26.720 --> 05:39:31.799
like kneading bread. It's a part that you can really

1997
05:39:31.959 --> 05:39:39.720
get hold of and really message deeply. If that's your choice,

1998
05:39:47.720 --> 05:39:49.599
They're not going to move over to the other side

1999
05:39:49.639 --> 05:39:56.119
of your body and do the same with the opposite

2000
05:39:56.240 --> 05:40:05.560
part of your lower bat kneeding and messaging from your

2001
05:40:05.720 --> 05:40:13.200
sides or way to the middle of your back where

2002
05:40:13.200 --> 05:40:26.840
your spine is pressing and kneading firm and gentle at

2003
05:40:26.880 --> 05:40:42.119
the same time. It feels so releasing this mixture of pleasure, comfort, release, calmness,

2004
05:40:42.479 --> 05:40:54.159
relaxation or mixed together. Plus there's that feeling from your

2005
05:40:54.200 --> 05:40:59.319
stomach as it's being stretched. Even though you're in your

2006
05:40:59.400 --> 05:41:03.720
stomach now, you can feel it being stretched because that

2007
05:41:03.880 --> 05:41:15.279
whole area is connected to your stomach. Now we're going

2008
05:41:15.360 --> 05:41:20.279
to move or move further up to your top of

2009
05:41:20.360 --> 05:41:24.799
your body, and then we did the same this time

2010
05:41:26.119 --> 05:41:32.919
starting with your upper back. Put my hands forward over

2011
05:41:34.200 --> 05:41:39.840
and mess it massage in that area up to your

2012
05:41:39.959 --> 05:41:44.200
spine from the side of your body up to your spine.

2013
05:41:45.959 --> 05:41:52.119
So some of that message area, that muscle tissue or

2014
05:41:52.159 --> 05:41:56.200
whatever fatty tissue even will be possibly from your chest

2015
05:41:58.000 --> 05:42:05.439
because all connected chest in the back connect together. I'm

2016
05:42:05.479 --> 05:42:08.680
going to be massaging and just pulling some of that

2017
05:42:08.919 --> 05:42:19.639
skin from your side up and massaging the area of

2018
05:42:19.759 --> 05:42:28.200
your upper back all the way to your spine. And

2019
05:42:28.319 --> 05:42:31.040
then I'll move down a bit and I'll continue with

2020
05:42:31.200 --> 05:42:34.040
the middle of your back, doing exactly the same thing

2021
05:42:37.919 --> 05:42:51.439
as gentle or as deep as you choose. Now I'll

2022
05:42:51.520 --> 05:42:55.599
move or the other side again and do the exact

2023
05:42:55.799 --> 05:42:59.520
same thing with the top of your back on the

2024
05:42:59.560 --> 05:43:09.119
other side from pretty much underneath your arm area really

2025
05:43:14.560 --> 05:43:24.119
to your spine, and then continue in that all the

2026
05:43:24.159 --> 05:43:29.159
way down, including your lower your middle of your back.

2027
05:43:42.840 --> 05:43:48.000
I'm gonna go to your thighs, the backs of your thighs,

2028
05:43:50.680 --> 05:43:58.080
and the sides of your thighs, starting with your right leg.

2029
05:44:00.400 --> 05:44:07.799
Massage in the back and the sides of your thighs

2030
05:44:10.240 --> 05:44:16.680
gently and firmly. There's a lot of muscles there. It's

2031
05:44:16.720 --> 05:44:19.959
an area that can be very tense at times and

2032
05:44:20.159 --> 05:44:23.560
maybe needs a little bit more pressure than the rest

2033
05:44:23.599 --> 05:44:31.759
of the body that's up to you. You can gently

2034
05:44:31.919 --> 05:44:39.159
stroke the back of your legs where you know, opposite

2035
05:44:39.240 --> 05:44:44.799
your knee joint or underneath your knee joint, very sensitive,

2036
05:44:45.040 --> 05:44:57.680
gentle area. And then working down to your calf muscles.

2037
05:45:00.599 --> 05:45:06.959
Massage in your calf muscles thoroughly and deeply, if you choose,

2038
05:45:10.439 --> 05:45:29.680
using both hands fingers digging deep to your ankles. In

2039
05:45:29.799 --> 05:45:36.000
the back of your back of your ankles, just gently

2040
05:45:36.200 --> 05:45:48.560
massage in that area, maybe lifting the leg and stretching

2041
05:45:48.560 --> 05:46:11.159
it a little bit. Moving to the right foot, massage

2042
05:46:11.279 --> 05:46:20.439
in the bottom of your feet and the side of

2043
05:46:20.520 --> 05:46:31.799
your feet gently but firm enough so they don't tickle,

2044
05:46:37.319 --> 05:46:42.799
and just allow the pleasure that you get from heaving

2045
05:46:42.880 --> 05:46:52.240
your feet massaged to just overtake you as I continue

2046
05:46:52.360 --> 05:46:58.959
to message your feet, the bottoms of your feet, the sides,

2047
05:47:01.599 --> 05:47:07.319
your arches, your heel. You can put a lot of

2048
05:47:07.400 --> 05:47:13.279
pressure into your heel and it feels amazing, Yet the

2049
05:47:13.479 --> 05:47:21.560
arches need to be a bit more gentle. Stretching your

2050
05:47:21.680 --> 05:47:28.159
toes gently and message in the bottoms of your toes

2051
05:47:28.880 --> 05:47:44.159
with my fingers, each one individually. Moving over to the

2052
05:47:44.360 --> 05:47:53.759
left leg to do exactly the same thing, starting at

2053
05:47:53.799 --> 05:47:58.200
the top of the thighs. Work in the back of

2054
05:47:58.279 --> 05:48:05.840
the thighs and the sides, massaging deeply and gently, a

2055
05:48:06.040 --> 05:48:20.040
whole area, working all the way down. And this is

2056
05:48:20.119 --> 05:48:26.279
an area that maybe you could like to spend more

2057
05:48:26.400 --> 05:48:35.240
time relaxing and massaging. Perhaps, if you wanted, I could

2058
05:48:35.279 --> 05:48:39.799
make a future recording. I want to spend more time

2059
05:48:39.959 --> 05:48:51.319
on one particular area. As you move down to your

2060
05:48:51.439 --> 05:49:05.279
calf muscles. Massage in your car muscles firmly and gently,

2061
05:49:11.000 --> 05:49:19.479
move down your ankle into your feet. Massage in the

2062
05:49:19.919 --> 05:49:30.000
backs of your feet, the bottoms of your feet, stretching

2063
05:49:30.240 --> 05:49:36.560
your toes and message in each tone individually. And that

2064
05:49:36.959 --> 05:49:42.400
feeling of pleasure and release that you experience when you're

2065
05:49:42.479 --> 05:50:04.400
having your feet and massaged feels really good. Now should

2066
05:50:04.400 --> 05:50:15.759
turn over in your mind. Laying on your back, I'm

2067
05:50:15.840 --> 05:50:29.279
just going to start again your neck area, in your shoulders,

2068
05:50:33.319 --> 05:50:43.680
just to get back in touch with that area, and

2069
05:50:43.840 --> 05:50:55.479
I should move up. I can clean my hands, make

2070
05:50:55.560 --> 05:50:59.119
them more fresh, because now I'm going to message your

2071
05:50:59.200 --> 05:51:15.639
face simply starting off with your forehead. Your eyes are closed,

2072
05:51:16.959 --> 05:51:22.799
I can just stretch your eyes a little bit, pushing

2073
05:51:22.919 --> 05:51:39.799
up on your eyebrows, just massaging around your scalp, massaging

2074
05:51:40.000 --> 05:51:50.240
down your cheeks, around your ears, into your chaw gently

2075
05:51:55.200 --> 05:51:56.759
the side of your neck.

2076
05:52:00.680 --> 05:52:00.919
Chin.

2077
05:52:12.240 --> 05:52:19.919
They're just moving down from your neck down to your chest,

2078
05:52:23.720 --> 05:52:27.319
starting him by message in the very top of your

2079
05:52:27.439 --> 05:52:35.919
chest where the collar phone is. Give a side of

2080
05:52:36.000 --> 05:52:47.840
the collarbone, and then just message in the hole of

2081
05:52:47.959 --> 05:53:08.759
the chest, moving the chest around. Because it's quite a

2082
05:53:08.959 --> 05:53:14.240
large area, you can move from one side to the next,

2083
05:53:18.759 --> 05:53:25.200
moving my hands underneath pretty much where your arms are

2084
05:53:29.560 --> 05:53:34.799
stretching up, stretching some of the muscles of your back

2085
05:53:34.880 --> 05:53:48.560
in the process, moving up over your chest, and they're

2086
05:53:48.599 --> 05:54:04.680
moving down again and then allowing my hands they just

2087
05:54:05.080 --> 05:54:13.240
massage gently and slide down towards your stomach, starting in

2088
05:54:13.360 --> 05:54:19.919
the middle of your chest, and then gradually my hands

2089
05:54:20.040 --> 05:54:27.439
moving apart and massaging and sliding at the same time,

2090
05:54:29.400 --> 05:54:45.799
moving down to just below your red cage, moving down

2091
05:54:48.279 --> 05:54:55.560
and then massaging up again, giving your chest all the

2092
05:54:55.680 --> 05:55:12.000
attention that it needs to feel completely relaxed. Remembering that

2093
05:55:12.040 --> 05:55:16.200
I'm also going to be focusing on your sides as well,

2094
05:55:17.799 --> 05:55:23.959
an area that really doesn't get much attention, that feels

2095
05:55:24.080 --> 05:55:34.439
really good when it's massaged. Just stroking my hands down

2096
05:55:34.599 --> 05:55:41.759
the sides of your body just below your arms all

2097
05:55:41.759 --> 05:55:54.319
the way down to your hips. Now moving to your

2098
05:55:54.400 --> 05:55:59.799
stomach area. I'm going to stand one side of you

2099
05:56:00.479 --> 05:56:05.000
like I did when I did your lower back. I'm

2100
05:56:05.000 --> 05:56:10.520
gonna do a similar process of just stretching the muscles

2101
05:56:10.560 --> 05:56:24.240
from your side, gently massaging from one side to the next,

2102
05:56:26.520 --> 05:56:33.479
moving the whole area from below your ribs all the

2103
05:56:33.560 --> 05:56:44.000
way down to below your belly button. And I'm gonna

2104
05:56:44.080 --> 05:56:47.279
move around to the other side of you and repeat

2105
05:56:47.360 --> 05:57:07.159
that process of relaxing, deeply, calmly. You feel loose, you

2106
05:57:07.319 --> 05:57:13.240
feel free. And it's something about having your stomach message

2107
05:57:14.479 --> 05:57:21.200
that's different from any other part because we do have

2108
05:57:21.360 --> 05:57:25.759
a tendency of holding a different kind of stress in

2109
05:57:25.880 --> 05:57:35.400
your stomachs that we may not be aware of. There's

2110
05:57:35.439 --> 05:57:40.959
an our message your stomach. In front of your stomach,

2111
05:57:42.919 --> 05:57:53.880
they can circles around your belly button thing going the

2112
05:57:53.959 --> 05:58:04.400
other way around. The gentleness and a freedom that comes

2113
05:58:06.279 --> 05:58:16.159
from feeling how you're feeling. As I now move down

2114
05:58:17.560 --> 05:58:24.720
the tops of your thighs muscles massaging them, and I

2115
05:58:24.799 --> 05:58:27.919
can do this to your legs at the same time,

2116
05:58:30.159 --> 05:58:39.439
pressing down, massaging deeply those muscles in your thighs, the

2117
05:58:39.560 --> 05:58:48.319
front of your thighs, and moving down to your knees,

2118
05:58:49.240 --> 05:59:01.919
gently massaging your knees, Sliding down your shins, put pressure

2119
05:59:01.959 --> 05:59:09.720
on either side of your shin gently softly but firmly,

2120
05:59:13.919 --> 05:59:23.599
moving down to your ankles, stroking the tops of your feet,

2121
05:59:29.759 --> 05:59:35.159
and then with each foot in each hand, just gently

2122
05:59:35.400 --> 05:59:43.720
messaging the whole of the foot, the top of the bottom,

2123
05:59:44.479 --> 05:59:52.759
your heel, your ankle, your toes, messaging every part of

2124
05:59:52.880 --> 06:00:02.639
your feet. Feels so good, just to let go and

2125
06:00:02.919 --> 06:00:26.959
enjoy the process. Enjoy feeling so deeply relaxed, so much

2126
06:00:27.200 --> 06:00:34.959
comfort and so many feelings become just from touching your skin.

2127
06:00:45.720 --> 06:00:51.639
And you can just lie there for as long as

2128
06:00:51.720 --> 06:01:05.799
you choose, enjoying the feeling of deep comfort from being massaged.

2129
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By me.

2130
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Enjoy fear, deepay.

2131
06:01:29.200 --> 06:01:29.880
Rased.

2132
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And all we're gonna do is blow out some candles.

2133
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In your mind, there're gonna be a hundred candles, and

2134
06:02:07.080 --> 06:02:13.599
you're going to blow each one out individually, one by one,

2135
06:02:16.200 --> 06:02:25.880
starting at one hundred. As I count down all the

2136
06:02:25.959 --> 06:02:33.759
way down to one, and each time I say the number,

2137
06:02:39.240 --> 06:02:46.119
you can imagine that candle in front of you, and

2138
06:02:46.159 --> 06:02:55.119
I'd like you to actually eat physically, generally blow that

2139
06:02:55.319 --> 06:03:09.919
candle out, just so it's not big. Blows, just a gentle,

2140
06:03:14.400 --> 06:03:23.840
and that candle will extinguish. And then I'll say the

2141
06:03:23.959 --> 06:03:27.400
next number, so we move down.

2142
06:03:30.400 --> 06:03:31.119
And you can just.

2143
06:03:34.880 --> 06:03:43.880
Blow that one out as well. And as we move

2144
06:03:44.279 --> 06:03:55.279
down the numbers, you'll find yourself feeling more and more relaxed,

2145
06:03:58.159 --> 06:04:03.639
and if you need to sleep, you'll also find yourself

2146
06:04:03.799 --> 06:04:16.959
becoming incredibly tired and sleepy. In fact, you may struggle

2147
06:04:19.720 --> 06:04:32.639
to blow out all one hundred of these candles as

2148
06:04:32.759 --> 06:04:50.919
you feel more and more deeply relaxed, more and more

2149
06:04:55.000 --> 06:05:10.720
deeply tired, and the further you go down, the more

2150
06:05:12.400 --> 06:05:24.560
your mind starts to drift. You may find that you

2151
06:05:25.919 --> 06:05:39.400
stop listening to me after a while. And even though

2152
06:05:39.560 --> 06:05:48.240
there may be background sounds where you are, you'll be

2153
06:05:48.319 --> 06:05:54.080
aware of those sounds at the moment.

2154
06:05:59.080 --> 06:05:59.720
He may.

2155
06:06:03.080 --> 06:06:17.880
Start to just not even notice them at all because

2156
06:06:18.000 --> 06:06:31.560
they're unimportant. Where I am, I've got the sounds of

2157
06:06:31.680 --> 06:06:38.959
the birds. There's horrors, the pigeon who likes to say hello.

2158
06:06:39.200 --> 06:06:51.159
Sometimes there's the odd plane that goes by, maybe traffic

2159
06:06:51.520 --> 06:07:02.159
and trains in the distance, but none of that scene

2160
06:07:02.360 --> 06:07:16.720
is important whatsoever, or candles you blow out, less important

2161
06:07:18.240 --> 06:07:34.240
anything is or candles you blow out the further seemed

2162
06:07:34.520 --> 06:07:54.680
to move away from sounds and general date days. Stuff

2163
06:07:56.319 --> 06:08:11.119
seems to just away on its own. You feel more

2164
06:08:13.680 --> 06:08:34.360
calma with every candle you blow out, guiding you to

2165
06:08:34.520 --> 06:08:47.639
the next number. Did you hear me say? And then

2166
06:08:47.720 --> 06:09:05.360
you blow that candle out to so easy, so simple.

2167
06:09:14.919 --> 06:09:28.919
I'm gonna start by introducing the first candle. This is

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a hundred. First candle, this is one hundred. When you

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06:09:47.200 --> 06:10:07.400
blow that candle out, you'll find immediately slight change in

2170
06:10:07.639 --> 06:10:15.840
how you feel, as well as a real sense of

2171
06:10:18.400 --> 06:10:47.159
positivity growing within you, relaxation and sleepiness expanding. Starting with

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06:10:53.639 --> 06:11:34.639
one hundred, blow out by candle now nineteen nine, candle

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06:11:37.200 --> 06:13:17.080
ninety eight, two ninety seven, cham ninety six, camp ninety five,

2174
06:13:37.479 --> 06:15:12.599
ninety four, candle ninety three, Can ninety two, ninety one,

2175
06:15:30.919 --> 06:17:16.599
candle ninety can eight two nine and eighty eight candle eight,

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06:17:50.159 --> 06:21:24.400
candle eight eight five, I hit it seven two.

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Two sets, candle.

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Seventy nine, can do seventy eight, candle seventy seven, candle

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06:24:06.200 --> 06:25:08.599
seventy six, candle seventy five, candle seventy four candle seventy three,

2180
06:25:20.479 --> 06:26:23.439
candle seventy two, candle seventy one, candle seventy one and

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06:26:27.720 --> 06:27:22.119
seventy and sixty nine, candle sixty eight, candle sixty seven,

2182
06:27:35.840 --> 06:28:40.639
candle sixty five, candle sixty four, candle sixty four, candle

2183
06:28:41.279 --> 06:30:22.119
sixty three, candle sixty sixty one, candle sixty Do fifty nine,

2184
06:30:43.639 --> 06:32:06.840
can do fifty eight, can fifty fifty six, candle fifty five,

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06:32:24.360 --> 06:33:45.159
candle fifty four, handle fifty three and fifty cand fifty

2186
06:34:18.040 --> 06:35:55.200
cantlone fifty can do fIF one candle fifty candle forty

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06:35:55.520 --> 06:37:49.599
ninehhhhhhhhhhh came fourty eight, candle forty seven, candle forty six,

2188
06:38:17.639 --> 06:41:05.040
candle forty five and forty two, two forty thirty nine

2189
06:41:39.159 --> 06:43:48.200
and sert eight candle thirty seven, at thirty five, canto

2190
06:43:53.240 --> 06:43:54.599
thirty four.

2191
06:44:27.759 --> 06:44:28.400
And two.

2192
06:44:32.240 --> 06:47:21.520
Thirty three, candle thirty one, candle thirty and twineteen nine,

2193
06:48:04.479 --> 06:50:30.840
twenty eight and twenty seven, twenty six can't went five

2194
06:51:09.360 --> 06:51:55.479
and two four end twenty thirty.

2195
06:52:33.479 --> 06:52:34.040
Can to.

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Go and.

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Twenty and wit yes.

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And do.

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06:55:03.520 --> 06:56:49.000
Ninety can do seventeen six day.

2200
06:57:46.279 --> 07:00:45.560
Four two and and.

2201
07:02:02.919 --> 07:08:29.279
Nine, save eight unt two candle or let go of

2202
07:08:29.479 --> 07:08:37.639
all of those thoughts, worries, concerns about the past, thoughts

2203
07:08:37.680 --> 07:08:42.560
about the future, and even things you've been thinking about today.

2204
07:08:44.639 --> 07:08:49.759
Just let it all go because none of it is

2205
07:08:49.959 --> 07:09:04.400
useful in this moment. This is your opportunity to just

2206
07:09:04.759 --> 07:09:19.119
focus on feeling relaxed, allowing yourself to get in touch

2207
07:09:19.279 --> 07:09:28.720
with that natural sense of peace that we all have

2208
07:09:29.040 --> 07:09:36.200
within us. It's available for everyone. It just sometimes takes

2209
07:09:37.040 --> 07:09:40.799
a little bit of effort to set up the right

2210
07:09:43.240 --> 07:09:47.319
time and place in order for you to just let go.

2211
07:09:50.880 --> 07:09:56.360
Because when you do decide to let go and relax,

2212
07:09:58.959 --> 07:10:05.639
that's what your body is starts to do because you've chosen,

2213
07:10:07.119 --> 07:10:14.119
You've chosen to just allow your body to unwind and

2214
07:10:14.240 --> 07:10:21.279
your mind starts to slow down. And it's a nice feeling.

2215
07:10:23.279 --> 07:10:26.439
It's a nice feeling at the beginning, just to know

2216
07:10:27.560 --> 07:10:37.639
that you have chosen to decide to relax deeply, and

2217
07:10:37.799 --> 07:10:44.319
because you've made that decision, your body or just follow suit,

2218
07:10:46.880 --> 07:10:51.560
because sometimes all the muscles in your body need is

2219
07:10:51.880 --> 07:11:00.279
just permission from you to relax because so often them

2220
07:11:00.880 --> 07:11:05.200
we're busy, we're going from here to there, we're walking

2221
07:11:05.279 --> 07:11:10.520
around and we're doing stuff, and the body doesn't have

2222
07:11:12.200 --> 07:11:21.599
any time or space to really relax deeply. So it

2223
07:11:21.759 --> 07:11:26.599
kind of waits for you to lead the way, waits

2224
07:11:26.720 --> 07:11:36.360
for your permission. And when you do give your permission,

2225
07:11:38.040 --> 07:11:40.560
when you give to say so, when you say okay,

2226
07:11:41.840 --> 07:11:48.880
it's time for your body to let go completely and

2227
07:11:49.040 --> 07:12:00.479
relax totally, your body just follows. So like a breath

2228
07:12:00.520 --> 07:12:09.639
of relief. Ah, we're like and now relax. Have feeling

2229
07:12:10.599 --> 07:12:13.880
at the end of a day of very physical day

2230
07:12:14.040 --> 07:12:17.720
that you may experience in the past, where you get

2231
07:12:17.840 --> 07:12:21.639
home and you just sit down on a chair, maybe

2232
07:12:21.720 --> 07:12:26.240
you kick your shoes off, and ah, feels so nice.

2233
07:12:28.119 --> 07:12:30.799
I know that you don't have to get up again

2234
07:12:32.240 --> 07:12:35.360
for a little while at least, and if you choose,

2235
07:12:35.520 --> 07:12:37.959
you can just sit there for maybe an hour to

2236
07:12:40.680 --> 07:12:52.919
feels blissful. And just by sitting down like that, your

2237
07:12:52.959 --> 07:12:58.639
body knows that it's time to relax. Your body has

2238
07:12:58.720 --> 07:13:05.599
been given permission from you because it's a mindset in

2239
07:13:05.680 --> 07:13:16.759
your mind, you're prepared to let go of everything and

2240
07:13:17.680 --> 07:13:26.080
just completely allow all the stress of your body to evaporate.

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07:13:29.759 --> 07:13:44.200
Any tensions can just gradually vanish. It's almost like magic, really,

2242
07:13:49.799 --> 07:13:56.799
because that sense of relaxation in your body, it's a

2243
07:13:56.959 --> 07:14:03.360
very natural state. It's not something unusual. It may feel

2244
07:14:03.520 --> 07:14:07.119
unusual when you first start to relax if you if

2245
07:14:07.159 --> 07:14:11.520
you haven't really spent a lot of time focusing and

2246
07:14:12.279 --> 07:14:16.759
giving yourself this space to let go completely and relax

2247
07:14:17.720 --> 07:14:24.400
may seem al most alien, but it isn't. It's actually

2248
07:14:25.720 --> 07:14:30.919
the most natural thing in the world to let go completely,

2249
07:14:32.639 --> 07:14:40.439
to relax totally, the most natural thing in the world

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07:14:43.080 --> 07:14:53.119
to allow yourself to feel really calm in your mind.

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07:14:55.720 --> 07:15:03.439
And it is almost like a literal unwinding. It's like

2252
07:15:03.599 --> 07:15:11.119
you press a button and all the tension just releases,

2253
07:15:12.520 --> 07:15:15.919
and it's like a wheel, like a cog, like the

2254
07:15:16.000 --> 07:15:19.959
inside of the clock just unwinding. And he's almost like

2255
07:15:20.080 --> 07:15:25.200
you could see the little wind up knob that's used

2256
07:15:26.080 --> 07:15:30.119
just going the opposite way that you choose to wind

2257
07:15:30.159 --> 07:15:38.720
it up. And the energy that frenetic stress for energy

2258
07:15:40.200 --> 07:15:50.520
gradually winding down, losing its power, losing its strength. As

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07:15:50.560 --> 07:16:00.360
a sense of relaxation becomes stronger and deeper, and may

2260
07:16:01.919 --> 07:16:08.840
find a the more relaxed you feel, that your mind

2261
07:16:09.319 --> 07:16:18.599
starts to wonder. Maybe you seem to stop listening to

2262
07:16:18.720 --> 07:16:24.639
me for a while, your mind goes somewhere else, and

2263
07:16:24.720 --> 07:16:30.799
then you realize you're listening to me again, and that's

2264
07:16:31.000 --> 07:16:39.560
just your mind drifting to sleep, which is quite natural,

2265
07:16:41.119 --> 07:16:49.119
because sometimes when we're stressed and tense, we may I

2266
07:16:49.200 --> 07:16:54.240
actually be aware of what we need or we physically

2267
07:16:54.400 --> 07:17:03.479
your emotionally need in this moment. But when you allow

2268
07:17:04.720 --> 07:17:08.799
your body and mind to relax completely.

2269
07:17:09.919 --> 07:17:13.080
And you let go of all thoughts.

2270
07:17:14.119 --> 07:17:22.680
Concerns, worries, ideas, all lengngo allow them to drop onto

2271
07:17:22.720 --> 07:17:32.759
the floor when you start to get in touch with

2272
07:17:33.560 --> 07:17:46.119
the feelings of such relaxation, feels so nice to be

2273
07:17:46.279 --> 07:17:53.000
in touch with the calmness of the different body parts

2274
07:17:53.159 --> 07:18:05.720
as they become looser and loose, so even your breathing

2275
07:18:06.360 --> 07:18:18.680
scenes easier and more natural, efftless as I call outs

2276
07:18:18.840 --> 07:18:25.840
through your mouth or nose into your lungs, breathing in

2277
07:18:27.639 --> 07:18:35.840
comforts and relaxation, and then just breathing out any excess

2278
07:18:36.439 --> 07:18:45.319
remain intentional stress from every part of your body and mind.

2279
07:18:49.000 --> 07:18:54.040
As you start to focus on your mind, maybe you

2280
07:18:54.360 --> 07:19:01.479
notice that things have come to a stance or or

2281
07:19:01.639 --> 07:19:10.720
maybe just much much lower than before because your mind

2282
07:19:10.919 --> 07:19:21.439
is not really needed when listening to my voice, which

2283
07:19:21.560 --> 07:19:28.000
allows your mind to relax just as deeply as your body,

2284
07:19:30.759 --> 07:19:42.720
and that's synchronicity between the relaxation of your body relaxation

2285
07:19:43.720 --> 07:19:44.520
of your mind.

2286
07:19:46.880 --> 07:19:48.119
Let you know that.

2287
07:19:50.240 --> 07:20:04.080
Feeling completely calm, loose, and relaxed is a great healing

2288
07:20:05.159 --> 07:20:22.400
experience fear and has so many positive benefits for your body, mind,

2289
07:20:22.799 --> 07:20:29.919
and your life. To be able to let go everything

2290
07:20:31.639 --> 07:20:39.919
and to relax completely. You know, all parts of your

2291
07:20:39.959 --> 07:20:50.799
body and mind, even your boneses are relaxed, all your

2292
07:20:51.000 --> 07:21:04.040
muscles are relaxed, even the skin that covers your body

2293
07:21:06.959 --> 07:21:14.560
is relaxed. Every hair.

2294
07:21:17.319 --> 07:21:17.919
That you have.

2295
07:21:19.680 --> 07:21:37.240
Is also deeply relaxed. And your brain really starts to

2296
07:21:37.479 --> 07:21:39.599
feel the benefits.

2297
07:21:40.840 --> 07:21:41.200
Of this.

2298
07:21:42.799 --> 07:21:54.959
Heathing relaxation. And as you focus on the inner side

2299
07:21:55.119 --> 07:22:00.360
of your scalp where your brain is, you can start

2300
07:22:00.919 --> 07:22:10.720
to realize and notice the benefits of your brain relaxing deeply.

2301
07:22:15.279 --> 07:22:27.720
Initial brain continues to relax sends those messages to the

2302
07:22:27.919 --> 07:22:36.599
rest of your body and your mind to really relax

2303
07:22:39.279 --> 07:23:02.560
more deeply, relax more completely, letting go any remaining thoughts

2304
07:23:04.599 --> 07:23:11.520
or concerns, allow them just to drop onto the floor

2305
07:23:13.680 --> 07:23:22.799
because they're no longer necessary in this moment, this moment

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07:23:23.080 --> 07:23:37.959
of deep relaxation and calmness, feeling your brain with deep

2307
07:23:39.279 --> 07:24:05.880
concentrated healing, calming, relaxing every part of your brain, feeling.

2308
07:24:08.479 --> 07:24:10.439
So loose.

2309
07:24:11.639 --> 07:24:26.959
And comfortable, so relaxed and be peaceful. Your brain feels

2310
07:24:28.599 --> 07:24:39.400
so light, that's so healthy. That sense of deep deep

2311
07:24:39.680 --> 07:24:54.799
comfort really does allow you to enjoy those ever increase

2312
07:24:54.959 --> 07:25:05.360
in sensations of comfort, that is spreading throughout your body,

2313
07:25:09.639 --> 07:25:16.080
relaxing each and every muscle of your body.

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07:25:18.200 --> 07:25:18.680
Eat.

2315
07:25:20.360 --> 07:25:39.560
Deeper and deeper, much more deeper than before, much more

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07:25:41.599 --> 07:25:50.439
comfort spreading through your body and your mind.

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07:25:53.439 --> 07:25:55.360
Be so.

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07:25:57.240 --> 07:26:13.279
Peaceful and calm, so very very peaceful in avery part

2319
07:26:15.959 --> 07:26:31.080
of your body, letting go the a everything averything, so

2320
07:26:32.479 --> 07:26:52.479
peaceful and calm, so relax very second the passes you

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07:26:52.799 --> 07:27:14.319
feel d dpath relaxed, dper and dper relax.

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07:27:16.759 --> 07:27:26.599
Card so calm peace, for.

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07:27:29.400 --> 07:27:42.200
So very peace. We head down to your ties. Such

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07:27:43.200 --> 07:27:55.439
peace and comfort growing all all the time, Such peace

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07:27:56.439 --> 07:28:10.040
and comfort spreading through your body, your mind deeper, deepert

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07:28:12.840 --> 07:28:26.119
such comfort spreading and sinking deeper into ay muscle of

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07:28:26.279 --> 07:28:44.319
your body. So you feel amazing, so relaxed, so peaceful,

2328
07:28:48.959 --> 07:29:09.279
so relax and peaceful, letting go everything. I'm going to

2329
07:29:09.360 --> 07:29:16.119
do a body scan focusing on firstly, how you feel

2330
07:29:17.080 --> 07:29:21.439
in your body. Not trying to change how you feel,

2331
07:29:22.599 --> 07:29:27.560
not trying to relax, not trying to move away from

2332
07:29:27.639 --> 07:29:36.159
any discomfort or stress or tension. Just accepting, observing and

2333
07:29:36.360 --> 07:29:41.000
accepting how you feel in the different parts of your body,

2334
07:29:43.000 --> 07:29:52.040
Just allowing yourself to be exactly as you are, to notice,

2335
07:29:52.799 --> 07:30:00.919
to get in touch with how you actually feel in

2336
07:30:01.080 --> 07:30:11.799
this moment. To start off by focusing on your hands,

2337
07:30:16.400 --> 07:30:24.119
just be aware of your hands. I'd like you to

2338
07:30:24.319 --> 07:30:29.520
move your hands around, just maybe move your fingers.

2339
07:30:29.200 --> 07:30:29.799
A little bit.

2340
07:30:32.240 --> 07:30:37.959
I've been enclosing in your hands very gently, just so

2341
07:30:38.400 --> 07:30:43.919
that you can get in touch with how your hands

2342
07:30:46.400 --> 07:31:06.680
and your fingers feel, very very slow movements. Focusing now

2343
07:31:07.560 --> 07:31:14.840
on your feet, and if you can just do kind

2344
07:31:14.840 --> 07:31:19.560
of an equivalent with your feet is you've just done

2345
07:31:19.799 --> 07:31:28.639
with your hands, maybe turning your ankles, moving your feet around,

2346
07:31:30.639 --> 07:31:41.040
moving your toes gently, only very gently and very slowly,

2347
07:31:44.040 --> 07:31:59.439
noticing how your feet feel in this moment. Focusing now

2348
07:31:59.639 --> 07:32:06.880
on your eyes, I'd like you to just focus on

2349
07:32:07.000 --> 07:32:12.759
your eyelids. Maybe you can open and close your eyes

2350
07:32:12.959 --> 07:32:17.319
a couple of times to really get in touch with

2351
07:32:18.200 --> 07:32:22.880
how you feel when you do close your eyes the

2352
07:32:23.040 --> 07:32:29.240
muscle changes in your eyes when you do close them,

2353
07:32:32.080 --> 07:32:38.479
maybe raising your eyebrows, it stretches the tops of your eyes,

2354
07:32:41.680 --> 07:32:49.119
perhaps squinting your eyes, scrunching up your eyes.

2355
07:32:49.959 --> 07:32:50.759
Just so you can.

2356
07:32:52.119 --> 07:33:03.560
Really get in touch with all aspects of your eyes feel.

2357
07:33:06.040 --> 07:33:06.520
Right now.

2358
07:33:15.880 --> 07:33:21.880
Now focusing on your thighs, then you know, it just

2359
07:33:21.919 --> 07:33:30.279
starts you to gently tense your thighs, just very very gently,

2360
07:33:32.639 --> 07:33:43.279
just enough so you can become more attuned to the

2361
07:33:44.560 --> 07:33:53.040
physical sensation of your upper legs, the front of your thighs,

2362
07:33:53.319 --> 07:34:04.360
and the backs of your thighs. Noticing and observing how

2363
07:34:06.720 --> 07:34:21.759
your thighs feel right now, moving your focus to the

2364
07:34:21.880 --> 07:34:28.400
back of your neck, just noticing the back of your

2365
07:34:28.520 --> 07:34:34.880
neck the muscles, and of course they lead to the

2366
07:34:35.159 --> 07:34:39.560
side of your neck. They also lead to the top

2367
07:34:39.639 --> 07:34:45.959
of your back, which leads to your shoulders. So as

2368
07:34:46.000 --> 07:34:51.840
your focus on the back of your neck, maybe you

2369
07:34:52.000 --> 07:34:58.639
can move your head gently upwards as if you're looking up,

2370
07:35:00.599 --> 07:35:06.240
Maybe moving your head down as if you were looking down.

2371
07:35:09.360 --> 07:35:16.639
Perhaps moving your head side decide right to left, only

2372
07:35:18.479 --> 07:35:31.000
very slowly, very gently, not trying to force anything. It

2373
07:35:31.200 --> 07:35:40.639
has to be very very gentle, just so that you can.

2374
07:35:42.200 --> 07:35:43.799
Be more.

2375
07:35:45.479 --> 07:35:54.880
In touch with the feelings, with the sensations, the physical

2376
07:35:56.240 --> 07:36:05.520
sensations of how back of your neck feels. Right now,

2377
07:36:13.080 --> 07:36:21.080
as we now focus on the tops of your arms,

2378
07:36:23.439 --> 07:36:28.279
the parts where your biceps and your triceps are between

2379
07:36:28.319 --> 07:36:36.040
your elbow and your shoulders. So you focus on those parts,

2380
07:36:37.040 --> 07:36:42.720
the tops of your arms. You may like to just

2381
07:36:43.520 --> 07:36:54.840
tense them, but very very gently and slowly, so you're

2382
07:36:55.279 --> 07:37:07.200
straining or putting any pressure whatsoever on your arms. It's

2383
07:37:07.439 --> 07:37:14.720
just slowly you can gain more of a sense of

2384
07:37:16.599 --> 07:37:28.560
how your upper arms are feeling in this moment. Just

2385
07:37:28.880 --> 07:37:41.119
notice them as you gently, very gently and slowly tighten

2386
07:37:41.360 --> 07:37:52.159
the muscles and then let go. Notice how the tops

2387
07:37:52.279 --> 07:38:10.919
of your arms feel right now, as now focus on

2388
07:38:11.119 --> 07:38:18.639
your stomach, the area the lower abdomen area below your

2389
07:38:18.680 --> 07:38:27.319
belly button, moving all the way down to your hips,

2390
07:38:28.400 --> 07:38:39.680
just above your grind. Maybe you're able to tense these

2391
07:38:39.880 --> 07:38:57.479
muscles in the area very very gently and slowly. If

2392
07:38:57.599 --> 07:39:01.959
that's a difficult thing to do, maybe you can just

2393
07:39:03.279 --> 07:39:12.680
move your body, pushing your stomach up, maybe moving a

2394
07:39:12.720 --> 07:39:18.439
little bit to a side using your hips just so

2395
07:39:19.720 --> 07:39:28.319
can get more in tune with how your lower up

2396
07:39:28.400 --> 07:39:46.200
to an area is feeling. In this moment, just noticing

2397
07:39:47.720 --> 07:40:08.520
the physical sensations or your lower abdomen as you move.

2398
07:40:10.240 --> 07:40:11.520
Your attention.

2399
07:40:13.479 --> 07:40:24.959
To your mouth, noticing in your lips and inside your mouth,

2400
07:40:27.240 --> 07:40:44.439
your teeth, your gums, your tongue, just noticing how your

2401
07:40:44.599 --> 07:40:46.919
tongue and your mouth feels.

2402
07:40:49.959 --> 07:40:50.000
It.

2403
07:40:50.159 --> 07:40:59.159
May help by moving your tongue around your mouth, moving

2404
07:40:59.240 --> 07:41:06.639
it to your left, maybe pressing it gently against the

2405
07:41:06.880 --> 07:41:13.080
side of your mouth, and then to the right, gently

2406
07:41:13.599 --> 07:41:20.279
to the side of your mouth, perhaps pressing up against

2407
07:41:20.400 --> 07:41:28.400
the top of your mouth, and then down gently against

2408
07:41:28.520 --> 07:41:35.880
the bottom of your mouth, always very slowly.

2409
07:41:38.759 --> 07:41:40.040
And a very.

2410
07:41:42.439 --> 07:41:59.439
Very gentle so that you can be aware of how

2411
07:41:59.639 --> 07:42:22.279
you feel in your mouth area. Now going to focus

2412
07:42:24.599 --> 07:42:38.400
on your wrists, I don't I ask you to maybe

2413
07:42:39.279 --> 07:42:48.159
just rotate your wrists by moving your hands in a

2414
07:42:48.400 --> 07:43:08.240
circular motion very gently and slowly, just soly can feel

2415
07:43:14.240 --> 07:43:26.959
the sensations that you are currently eperiencing in your risks.

2416
07:43:31.040 --> 07:43:41.080
Perhaps move in your hands up and down again very

2417
07:43:43.720 --> 07:44:23.759
very gently and slowly, very chins slow beween. Now start

2418
07:44:24.520 --> 07:44:30.639
to observe your lower back.

2419
07:44:36.279 --> 07:44:38.000
The back part is.

2420
07:44:39.560 --> 07:44:55.759
Just above your hips, where your coxis are a whole

2421
07:44:56.000 --> 07:45:03.000
area which also really does include the sides of your body,

2422
07:45:04.720 --> 07:45:14.360
because those muscles are very much connected as those muscles

2423
07:45:15.279 --> 07:45:21.400
also move into your hip AIA connect into your buttocks

2424
07:45:24.479 --> 07:45:39.279
the sides of your hips, and if you're physically able

2425
07:45:39.479 --> 07:45:48.639
to do so, maybe you can very gently just move

2426
07:45:48.840 --> 07:46:01.880
your body eviss slightly, very slowly, some side to side,

2427
07:46:05.599 --> 07:46:21.599
just enough feed to gauge how you feel in your

2428
07:46:21.720 --> 07:46:39.840
lower back, perhaps scretly, even move your hips gently up

2429
07:46:39.919 --> 07:46:50.720
and down, gently and slowly in order to.

2430
07:46:55.240 --> 07:46:56.759
Be in touch.

2431
07:46:59.119 --> 07:47:05.159
With a fizz the cause sensations of your lower back.

2432
07:47:22.200 --> 07:47:38.119
As we know your attention to your joe an area

2433
07:47:38.479 --> 07:47:43.880
for your chin all the way up the near your

2434
07:47:44.159 --> 07:47:49.599
ears are Oh your joe.

2435
07:48:00.080 --> 07:48:00.520
And just.

2436
07:48:02.560 --> 07:48:09.240
If it's okay to do so, gently open your mouth

2437
07:48:12.159 --> 07:48:23.560
nor wide, no stretching, just very gently and slowly open

2438
07:48:23.720 --> 07:48:33.360
in your mouth an enclose in your mouth very gently

2439
07:48:35.759 --> 07:48:58.639
and slowly, so you can be in touch with how

2440
07:48:58.840 --> 07:49:31.919
your jaw fel ouse. Now I like to sit down

2441
07:49:34.759 --> 07:49:49.639
your chest around. You don't need to do anything to

2442
07:49:49.880 --> 07:49:56.360
move your chest because it moves every time you breath.

2443
07:50:01.759 --> 07:50:14.799
The mood is very gently and slowly automatically with each

2444
07:50:15.319 --> 07:50:36.040
breath you take. As you focus on your chest feels

2445
07:50:41.279 --> 07:51:16.360
when you breathe. Move in your focus to your forearms

2446
07:51:18.639 --> 07:51:32.159
with your elbows. Maybe you're able to very gently.

2447
07:51:33.560 --> 07:51:35.759
And slowly.

2448
07:51:37.439 --> 07:51:46.000
Dense the muscles in your forearms, and when you do that,

2449
07:51:46.479 --> 07:52:10.040
you can feel your elbows as well. Very gently and slowly,

2450
07:52:18.520 --> 07:52:58.360
gently and softly absurd your forums and delpas. Now make

2451
07:52:58.400 --> 07:53:12.840
a focus the rest of your back, your upper back

2452
07:53:17.360 --> 07:53:34.799
and the middle the middle of your back. Again, this

2453
07:53:35.479 --> 07:53:45.599
part of your body moves also every time you brave.

2454
07:53:50.520 --> 07:54:04.159
You may not notice that usually by should sir your

2455
07:54:04.319 --> 07:54:11.520
upper back in the middle of your back. It can

2456
07:54:11.799 --> 07:54:18.080
really feel that sent.

2457
07:54:23.759 --> 07:54:25.159
And s.

2458
07:55:06.200 --> 07:55:16.919
Moving your focus into your hip area, your butt. As

2459
07:55:19.240 --> 07:55:25.639
a brain, there's a muscles at those bones.

2460
07:55:27.639 --> 07:56:07.919
In your midsection. Just noticing all your hips feel right.

2461
07:56:08.200 --> 07:56:16.520
Now you can.

2462
07:56:18.959 --> 07:56:32.599
Very very gently lose your hips, maybe side to side,

2463
07:56:34.080 --> 07:57:27.759
very gently and yeah, very gently softly m Everything starts

2464
07:57:28.040 --> 07:57:43.439
to slow down, including the thoughts in your mind and

2465
07:57:43.599 --> 07:57:53.639
your mind itself just starts to gradually. It doesn't have

2466
07:57:53.759 --> 07:58:01.520
to be instant, but just gradually starting to It's almost

2467
07:58:01.639 --> 07:58:12.799
like time is storing chin. It's a slower pace to

2468
07:58:13.040 --> 07:58:18.680
maybe what you're used to in your day to day life.

2469
07:58:21.840 --> 07:58:48.759
It's a slower movement of energy. Very small movements which

2470
07:58:48.880 --> 07:58:57.040
make up the larger movements, which is always the case. Now,

2471
07:58:57.119 --> 07:59:01.639
when you move your hand, it might seem like it's

2472
07:59:01.759 --> 07:59:07.479
one movement, but it's lots of minute different muscles moving

2473
07:59:09.680 --> 07:59:18.639
in accordance with each other. And what happens in this

2474
07:59:20.560 --> 07:59:35.159
space that we're sharing is we move from that big

2475
07:59:39.759 --> 07:59:56.840
movement into those smaller movements. Starting to focus on how

2476
07:59:56.959 --> 08:00:04.240
your body feels, not just as a whole, not just oh,

2477
08:00:04.279 --> 08:00:08.520
i'm feel in this way. I'm feeling stressed or tense,

2478
08:00:08.799 --> 08:00:14.200
or I'm feeling relaxed and calm, I'm feeling this way,

2479
08:00:14.360 --> 08:00:21.200
I'm feeling that way. Starting to notice that your body

2480
08:00:25.560 --> 08:00:35.200
begins to present to you small feelings around your body,

2481
08:00:41.720 --> 08:00:53.840
small physical sensations in your legs, whether pleasurable or not.

2482
08:00:59.240 --> 08:01:08.279
Maybe resisting the temptation to label them or to judge

2483
08:01:08.360 --> 08:01:15.840
them those feelings, just thinking them, thinking about them is

2484
08:01:16.000 --> 08:01:32.919
just being neutral, just feelings, not being particularly concerned, but

2485
08:01:33.200 --> 08:01:48.360
just noticing what your body is telling you. Feelings in

2486
08:01:48.439 --> 08:01:54.639
your arms instead of feeling the whole of the arm,

2487
08:01:56.040 --> 08:02:05.000
maybe notice those in your feelings, all those different muscles

2488
08:02:05.240 --> 08:02:17.720
and the skin, the hairs of your arms, the all

2489
08:02:17.799 --> 08:02:31.639
the internal parts of your arms, the veins, the bones,

2490
08:02:34.520 --> 08:02:40.520
just being aware of maybe your elbow on your right

2491
08:02:40.720 --> 08:02:51.319
arm has a certain feeling. Maybe your left wrist also

2492
08:02:51.599 --> 08:03:13.959
has its own individual physically called sensation. What about your

2493
08:03:14.080 --> 08:03:27.720
forearm on your right arm, your right forearm, there may

2494
08:03:27.840 --> 08:03:35.720
not be any particular feeling that you could even give

2495
08:03:35.759 --> 08:03:42.880
a name to, may not feel like anything other than

2496
08:03:43.040 --> 08:03:54.119
just a feeling. Yeah, it's there. The feelings in your shoulders,

2497
08:03:56.959 --> 08:04:00.720
perhaps your shoulders when you think about them, kind of

2498
08:04:00.759 --> 08:04:05.799
almost like they're the same, you know, the same fearing,

2499
08:04:07.639 --> 08:04:10.959
almost like you both of your shoulders are just one thing.

2500
08:04:12.759 --> 08:04:13.639
Of course they're not.

2501
08:04:22.319 --> 08:04:22.759
And when you.

2502
08:04:22.919 --> 08:04:28.959
Focus on your left shoulder and then on your right shoulder,

2503
08:04:31.000 --> 08:04:35.479
maybe find that you move the muscles a little bit,

2504
08:04:37.000 --> 08:04:51.840
maybe tense the muscles gently, noticing the difference in each shoulder.

2505
08:05:03.240 --> 08:05:19.080
Your lower back, the left side of your lower back

2506
08:05:19.319 --> 08:05:30.720
and the right side of your lower back of course

2507
08:05:30.840 --> 08:05:43.040
that connection to your buttocks and to your hips, and

2508
08:05:43.200 --> 08:05:56.479
also moving up into the middle of your back. And

2509
08:05:56.759 --> 08:06:01.279
sometimes like right now, actually when focus on that part,

2510
08:06:02.680 --> 08:06:07.080
when I focused on my buttocks and then I focused

2511
08:06:07.119 --> 08:06:11.240
on the middle of my back, I almost felt like

2512
08:06:11.439 --> 08:06:16.200
the muscles in my lower back were being stretched very gently,

2513
08:06:20.959 --> 08:06:26.240
just stretched a little bit. Even though I wasn't doing

2514
08:06:26.319 --> 08:06:35.119
anything to try to stretch your lower back, it just

2515
08:06:35.200 --> 08:06:47.479
seemed to happen. The feeling of very gently stretching your

2516
08:06:47.560 --> 08:07:06.680
lower back comes along. I have feeling in your chest,

2517
08:07:14.279 --> 08:07:27.680
just noticing what sensations you are experiencing in your chest

2518
08:07:27.959 --> 08:07:44.080
right now. And there's so much of the chest. Of course,

2519
08:07:44.279 --> 08:07:47.919
there's the collar bone leading to the chest. You've got

2520
08:07:47.959 --> 08:07:56.560
the chest bone, You've got the muscles in your chest.

2521
08:07:59.360 --> 08:08:05.959
Of course, your female, there's possibly the breasts. If you're male,

2522
08:08:07.959 --> 08:08:14.560
you've got the different well why not that different these days,

2523
08:08:14.599 --> 08:08:21.720
But there may be more muscles at the top of

2524
08:08:21.799 --> 08:08:29.400
the chest, but at the side underneath it's pretty much

2525
08:08:29.479 --> 08:08:32.919
the same. Whether you're a man or a woman. There's

2526
08:08:33.040 --> 08:08:39.840
muscles there, muscles that stretch out to your back as

2527
08:08:39.919 --> 08:08:43.759
well as breast tissue. It stretches and moves into your back.

2528
08:08:48.639 --> 08:09:07.599
To just being aware of your chest, being with whatever

2529
08:09:07.840 --> 08:09:27.319
feeling there is in your chest. And when I noticed

2530
08:09:27.400 --> 08:09:34.919
that I focus on my chest, I feel it in

2531
08:09:35.080 --> 08:09:39.799
my back, my upper back. I mean, I guess the

2532
08:09:39.919 --> 08:09:42.599
obvious reason would be because you know, I'm.

2533
08:09:42.479 --> 08:09:42.919
Grieve in.

2534
08:09:48.040 --> 08:09:53.880
In and it stretches my chest and my back at

2535
08:09:53.919 --> 08:10:14.720
the same time. It feels it feels okay, doesn't feel

2536
08:10:17.400 --> 08:10:21.680
I got a little bit of pain in my right chest,

2537
08:10:23.919 --> 08:10:30.159
a little bit, not pain, but a little discomfort, maybe stiffness, possibly,

2538
08:10:30.680 --> 08:10:39.599
I don't know. I notice my shoulders are also wanting

2539
08:10:39.799 --> 08:10:46.720
to flex for some reason. I think that's probably part

2540
08:10:46.799 --> 08:10:55.240
of my upper back, that connection between my shoulders and

2541
08:10:55.319 --> 08:10:59.439
my upper back, because I can move my shoulders and

2542
08:11:00.560 --> 08:11:07.200
stretch the muscles in my back, moving the shoulders backwards

2543
08:11:08.200 --> 08:11:13.680
or up, which then moves I think it's the scapulous

2544
08:11:16.360 --> 08:11:34.040
in your back. It feels quite nice. Actually, A good

2545
08:11:34.080 --> 08:11:37.439
thing about this is you can, if you want to,

2546
08:11:38.159 --> 08:11:53.080
you can just flex or stimulate the various muscles in

2547
08:11:53.200 --> 08:11:58.880
your body gently in order to get more of a

2548
08:11:59.080 --> 08:12:14.000
sense of how they feel. And when you're relaxing, when

2549
08:12:14.040 --> 08:12:18.080
you do tense and muscle, then you let it go

2550
08:12:18.400 --> 08:12:27.200
and you let it relax. It relaxes way more than

2551
08:12:27.240 --> 08:12:37.360
it would normally. But you have to feel that you're

2552
08:12:37.400 --> 08:12:41.040
able to do that. There's no point in doing it

2553
08:12:41.240 --> 08:12:47.080
if there's an issue with the per part of your body.

2554
08:12:50.520 --> 08:12:57.119
You need to be gentle with yourself at all times.

2555
08:13:00.200 --> 08:13:11.279
Lax in deeply. It's important to be kind to yourself

2556
08:13:18.840 --> 08:13:27.279
as you notice your mind. How much has your mind

2557
08:13:27.639 --> 08:13:54.880
slowed down since we started this recording, How came and

2558
08:13:55.119 --> 08:14:06.759
peaceful is your mind right now with nothing to think

2559
08:14:06.799 --> 08:14:16.599
about and just my voice to listen to. Because you

2560
08:14:16.799 --> 08:14:27.560
know the intention behind this recording, this relaxation. At the

2561
08:14:27.759 --> 08:14:34.040
very least, for you to feel more relaxed at the

2562
08:14:34.240 --> 08:14:42.639
end of recording than you did at the beginning, at

2563
08:14:42.680 --> 08:14:54.360
the very least, for your mind to slow down because

2564
08:14:54.400 --> 08:15:08.759
your body continues to relax, because that's what you want

2565
08:15:10.479 --> 08:15:29.479
to happen. That's what you expect to happen, for relaxation,

2566
08:15:32.799 --> 08:15:48.279
to feel your body maybe calm in your mind to

2567
08:15:48.439 --> 08:16:01.799
the point of boredom when you start maybe to drift

2568
08:16:07.439 --> 08:16:43.639
away drifting, it's almost as if you're moving further away

2569
08:16:43.959 --> 08:16:51.520
from your body in your mind, just leaving that there,

2570
08:16:59.479 --> 08:17:03.799
kind of like can an escape pod in a spaceship

2571
08:17:04.200 --> 08:17:07.599
a movie, a space movie, you know when they get

2572
08:17:07.639 --> 08:17:13.599
into a little part in it. Since the month far

2573
08:17:13.799 --> 08:17:42.840
away from the spaceship, safe to dream and continue to relax.

2574
08:18:03.119 --> 08:18:23.959
Drifting s slow.

2575
08:18:36.759 --> 08:18:37.720
And peace.

2576
08:18:53.919 --> 08:19:40.000
So rare and peaceful and focusing on the feeling of

2577
08:19:40.159 --> 08:19:53.080
those individual parts of your body that's relaxing. One by one,

2578
08:20:00.759 --> 08:20:13.119
you may find that every now and then you realize

2579
08:20:13.279 --> 08:20:24.119
that you weren't listening to my voice because your mind

2580
08:20:24.720 --> 08:20:39.479
started to imagine something different, maybe started to almost move

2581
08:20:39.639 --> 08:20:48.720
into some kind of a dreamy state. And then you

2582
08:20:48.880 --> 08:20:55.680
become aware of my voice again. And even though you

2583
08:20:56.680 --> 08:21:02.840
may want to focus on my voice, you may also

2584
08:21:03.599 --> 08:21:17.400
wish to allow your mind to just drift naturally into

2585
08:21:17.520 --> 08:21:38.919
that space of comfort and safety. As you feel more

2586
08:21:39.599 --> 08:21:52.840
comfort spreading through your body like a warm blanket covering

2587
08:21:52.959 --> 08:22:07.000
you chimbly, and your body it just the perfect temperature,

2588
08:22:17.400 --> 08:22:27.799
and even if you can hear background sounds, they just

2589
08:22:29.200 --> 08:22:43.000
don't seem to matter anymore. There's that sense of peace

2590
08:22:45.520 --> 08:22:59.919
spreads through your mind like a gentle breeze, Yes, strong

2591
08:23:00.200 --> 08:23:16.159
enough to blow away all negativity, strong enough to remove

2592
08:23:16.720 --> 08:23:26.720
from your mind any anxiety or stress that was there before,

2593
08:23:35.119 --> 08:23:43.959
and blow away any other thoughts or feelings that just

2594
08:23:45.799 --> 08:24:10.200
don't fit with the sense laxation that is feeling your

2595
08:24:10.279 --> 08:24:33.119
body and your mind. Unless you focus on your mind

2596
08:24:35.319 --> 08:24:41.279
and countdown from ten down to one, and with each

2597
08:24:41.840 --> 08:25:06.919
number you hear, your mind will become slightly more relaxed,

2598
08:25:09.639 --> 08:25:18.000
just just slightly so from ten down to nine, just

2599
08:25:18.119 --> 08:25:25.439
a slight movement from nine down to eight, just another

2600
08:25:27.360 --> 08:25:42.119
small change in how you feel. Eight down to seven.

2601
08:25:44.880 --> 08:25:50.279
That feeling is a gap, almost like a gap that

2602
08:25:50.680 --> 08:26:00.319
starts to get wider, the gap between those feelings that

2603
08:26:00.520 --> 08:26:07.439
you used to have in your mind compared to the

2604
08:26:07.599 --> 08:26:15.119
feelings you have there growing now, feelings of comfort and

2605
08:26:15.400 --> 08:26:27.040
security and confidence, and that gap becomes wider, made down

2606
08:26:27.159 --> 08:26:34.000
to seven, seven, down to six, and when you get

2607
08:26:34.040 --> 08:26:41.080
to five, your mind will start to have a certain

2608
08:26:42.479 --> 08:26:54.080
physical sensation, most like there's a magnet outside of your

2609
08:26:54.200 --> 08:27:01.000
head sucking the tension and the stress and the remaining

2610
08:27:02.080 --> 08:27:08.479
feelings that you don't want, sucking them out through your skull.

2611
08:27:14.240 --> 08:27:19.360
And then down to four you could start to really

2612
08:27:19.959 --> 08:27:33.000
experience that sense of not just emptiness, but space, a

2613
08:27:33.159 --> 08:27:40.479
place full of fresh air, place.

2614
08:27:40.240 --> 08:27:41.919
Where you can stretch.

2615
08:27:45.400 --> 08:27:48.040
It's almost as if as you go down to four

2616
08:27:48.840 --> 08:27:57.680
and three your mind is expanding with this sense of

2617
08:27:58.360 --> 08:28:10.560
peace and tranquility growing as it moves down to When

2618
08:28:10.599 --> 08:28:19.599
you get to one, in your mind just feels exactly

2619
08:28:19.799 --> 08:28:36.200
how you want to feel, almost perfect feeling, maybe a

2620
08:28:39.319 --> 08:28:48.400
sensation that you'd like to keep a place that's safe,

2621
08:28:49.439 --> 08:29:09.720
where nothing can affect you at all, and you can

2622
08:29:09.919 --> 08:29:18.880
stay in that that space of comfort and confidence, confident

2623
08:29:19.000 --> 08:29:25.439
in your own ability to create this space and this

2624
08:29:26.799 --> 08:29:33.200
feeling of comfort within your own mind just by counting

2625
08:29:34.319 --> 08:29:43.159
ten down to one. And this is something that you

2626
08:29:43.279 --> 08:29:52.279
can do yourself when you're on your own a time

2627
08:29:52.479 --> 08:29:55.959
when you can maybe sit down, maybe just for a

2628
08:29:56.080 --> 08:30:08.759
few minutes, close your eyes. It just counts slowly from

2629
08:30:09.000 --> 08:30:23.360
ten down to one and re experience these feelings in

2630
08:30:23.479 --> 08:30:32.360
your mind. And when you feel that way in your mind,

2631
08:30:34.119 --> 08:30:48.360
your body copies your mind, and that feeling is spread

2632
08:30:48.639 --> 08:30:55.840
through your spine and your nervous system into every part

2633
08:30:56.159 --> 08:31:08.880
of your body, travels through your bloodstream, heathing and relaxing

2634
08:31:11.080 --> 08:31:29.880
every particle of your existence. And we can practice this

2635
08:31:30.279 --> 08:31:38.279
a few times before the end of the recording, and

2636
08:31:38.400 --> 08:31:44.639
then you can practice on your own, and each time

2637
08:31:45.560 --> 08:31:57.560
you count from ten down to one, the feelings of comfort, calmness,

2638
08:31:57.799 --> 08:32:16.240
and deep deep relaxation becomes stronger and deeper feeling your

2639
08:32:17.520 --> 08:32:26.680
mind and your brain with these positive chemicals that spread

2640
08:32:27.040 --> 08:32:36.720
through your body, relaxing you so quickly, relaxing your whole

2641
08:32:37.000 --> 08:32:49.080
body and mind so very, very easily. Just by counting

2642
08:32:50.599 --> 08:33:01.319
from ten down to one. That's what we're going to do. Now,

2643
08:33:02.159 --> 08:33:06.119
I'm going to count from ten down to one. I'd

2644
08:33:06.319 --> 08:33:10.599
like you to repeat the number after me. So when

2645
08:33:10.680 --> 08:33:19.240
I say ten, you can just repeat to yourself ten.

2646
08:33:24.880 --> 08:33:34.200
Just notice, be aware of how you feel in your

2647
08:33:34.360 --> 08:33:43.880
mind and your body. And when I say nine, you

2648
08:33:44.000 --> 08:33:47.119
can repeat to yourself.

2649
08:33:49.479 --> 08:33:49.759
Nine.

2650
08:33:53.720 --> 08:34:04.680
Be gain noticing the increase in comfort and calmness in

2651
08:34:04.799 --> 08:34:15.000
your mind and in your body. The same. Want to

2652
08:34:15.080 --> 08:34:30.360
say eight when I say seven, six, when I say five, four,

2653
08:34:34.319 --> 08:34:46.319
when I say three, two, and lastly when I say one,

2654
08:34:48.880 --> 08:34:50.840
can we beat that number?

2655
08:34:58.319 --> 08:34:58.439
Now?

2656
08:34:58.560 --> 08:35:04.159
Of course, when you do this on your own without

2657
08:35:04.240 --> 08:35:09.279
listening to me, you can say the numbers or whatever

2658
08:35:10.880 --> 08:35:19.319
speed that you feel is necessary for you, so you

2659
08:35:19.479 --> 08:35:25.439
can adapt. So you feel you want to say the

2660
08:35:25.599 --> 08:35:33.119
numbers ten down to one faster than I do, then

2661
08:35:33.159 --> 08:35:36.040
you go ahead and do that. Or if you feel

2662
08:35:36.880 --> 08:35:40.000
when you do it yourself that you'd like to have

2663
08:35:40.599 --> 08:35:48.599
more more space between the numbers, maybe take a lot

2664
08:35:48.799 --> 08:35:56.400
longer to get from ten all the way down to one,

2665
08:36:00.599 --> 08:36:13.599
that's your choice also to do. So I'm gonna count

2666
08:36:13.720 --> 08:36:22.080
from ten down to one, and when I get to one,

2667
08:36:23.439 --> 08:36:28.959
that will be the end of this recording. The less,

2668
08:36:29.000 --> 08:36:32.959
of course, you're listening with music, and the music will

2669
08:36:33.040 --> 08:36:54.560
continue ten nine.

2670
08:37:19.279 --> 08:41:07.040
Fight usus.

2671
08:41:13.119 --> 08:41:59.000
Twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve eleven,

2672
08:42:03.959 --> 08:42:39.000
ten nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three.

2673
08:42:43.840 --> 08:42:50.720
Two one.

2674
08:42:59.119 --> 08:43:09.479
Now open your eye, noticing how you physically feel having

2675
08:43:09.599 --> 08:43:17.200
counted down from twenty to one, allowing stress and tension

2676
08:43:17.680 --> 08:43:22.319
to leave through your fingertips and your toast. And as

2677
08:43:22.360 --> 08:43:27.080
you focus on your fingertips, maybe they feel a little

2678
08:43:27.119 --> 08:43:34.840
bit tingling, which is suppose quite understanding considering the tension

2679
08:43:35.279 --> 08:43:45.520
has been exiting your body through your fingertips. So now

2680
08:43:45.560 --> 08:43:47.880
I'm going to count from twenty down to one again.

2681
08:43:48.360 --> 08:43:57.400
This time you're to feel relief of tension and stress,

2682
08:43:58.799 --> 08:44:11.200
any anxiety that may have leaving through your stomach, just

2683
08:44:11.759 --> 08:44:16.439
leaving through your stomach, almost as if it's just releasing

2684
08:44:18.080 --> 08:44:23.439
the whole of your stomach, your navel to just above

2685
08:44:23.520 --> 08:44:27.880
your chest or below your chest, rather so surrounding your belly,

2686
08:44:27.959 --> 08:44:33.479
gotton area, the whole area. You can feel the tension

2687
08:44:34.279 --> 08:44:40.200
of your body where it's left just releasing from the area,

2688
08:44:40.840 --> 08:44:44.360
and you may notice that your stomach will become very relaxed.

2689
08:44:45.880 --> 08:45:41.119
As I countdown from twenty down to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven,

2690
08:45:45.759 --> 08:46:26.919
ten nine eight, heaven six five four three two what.

2691
08:46:32.040 --> 08:46:34.639
You can open your eyes again if you choose, or

2692
08:46:34.680 --> 08:46:38.279
you can just keep them closed because it feels relaxing.

2693
08:46:40.599 --> 08:46:45.680
Just notice your stomach feels. I notice there's your focus.

2694
08:46:45.959 --> 08:46:51.360
Just do a little scan of your body. Notice saying

2695
08:46:51.479 --> 08:47:04.319
your body feels focusing your upper body, back, chest, stomach, legs, arms, hands, feet,

2696
08:47:07.319 --> 08:47:14.279
Just noticing, and you know, you may start to feel

2697
08:47:16.759 --> 08:47:20.520
more of a sense of tiredness, which may be the

2698
08:47:20.639 --> 08:47:26.720
reason you're listening to this recording because you would like

2699
08:47:26.959 --> 08:47:36.400
to let go completely of everything and drift off into

2700
08:47:36.520 --> 08:47:51.520
a nice, natural, calm, relaxing sleep. So now we're going

2701
08:47:51.560 --> 08:48:01.000
to focus on your forehead, and if you choose, you

2702
08:48:01.119 --> 08:48:05.919
can incorporate your eyes in this focus as well. So

2703
08:48:06.080 --> 08:48:11.479
your forehead and your eyes, it's that whole area basically

2704
08:48:12.439 --> 08:48:15.400
almost as if you were wearing a mask, you know,

2705
08:48:15.599 --> 08:48:20.959
like a I don't know, a Batman mask or something, or.

2706
08:48:23.040 --> 08:48:23.840
I'm trying to fa.

2707
08:48:24.439 --> 08:48:26.520
Zorrow or something. You know, the kind of mask that

2708
08:48:26.639 --> 08:48:29.479
covers your eyes, but also covers quite a lot of

2709
08:48:29.520 --> 08:48:36.680
the forehead. Focusing on that area because that's the area

2710
08:48:36.759 --> 08:48:40.799
that we're now going to release tension and stress from

2711
08:48:40.880 --> 08:48:47.080
your mind, your brain, from your mind, and any tension

2712
08:48:47.159 --> 08:48:51.159
that you may have remaining in your face, in your neck,

2713
08:48:51.639 --> 08:48:57.479
and your jaw, in your eyes, your forehead, or your scalp.

2714
08:48:59.080 --> 08:49:04.439
So basically any tension within your head area, including your

2715
08:49:04.560 --> 08:49:13.279
mind and your brain, that's going to be released through

2716
08:49:13.319 --> 08:49:20.119
your fullhead in your eyes. As I count down again

2717
08:49:20.279 --> 08:50:45.680
from twenty down to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirty, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five,

2718
08:50:51.279 --> 08:51:20.919
four three, What noticing as you scan your face with jaw,

2719
08:51:21.479 --> 08:51:30.279
your eyes, your cheap bones, your ears, your forehead, your scalp,

2720
08:51:31.919 --> 08:51:35.599
your neck, the back of your neck and the front

2721
08:51:35.680 --> 08:51:39.479
of your neck, the side of your neck, and your throat.

2722
08:51:45.799 --> 08:51:56.880
Noticing being aware of the comfort increased being in relaxation,

2723
08:51:59.040 --> 08:52:04.439
not just in head and neck and mind, also the

2724
08:52:04.520 --> 08:52:14.479
rest of your body. Just notice how loose and calm

2725
08:52:14.680 --> 08:52:21.119
you film, and how easily it is to just let go.

2726
08:52:23.919 --> 08:52:39.639
Completely, let go completely, how easily.

2727
08:52:47.479 --> 08:52:50.400
So what I'm going to do now, is I want

2728
08:52:50.560 --> 08:52:58.240
to focus on the top of your head. Am We're

2729
08:52:58.279 --> 08:53:07.040
going to allow every last piece of tension or stress,

2730
08:53:07.279 --> 08:53:13.000
the wine be lingering or hiding in your body or

2731
08:53:13.200 --> 08:53:20.720
mind or head, to just be sucked out on the

2732
08:53:20.840 --> 08:53:31.080
top of your head, released into the air. Was sucked

2733
08:53:31.119 --> 08:53:37.080
down into the clouds. Imagine a big cloud a prop

2734
08:53:37.080 --> 08:53:42.720
of your head, almost like a whirlpool. It's just gonna

2735
08:53:42.880 --> 08:53:44.680
suck that tension.

2736
08:53:45.880 --> 08:53:47.479
Out of the top of your head.

2737
08:53:49.639 --> 08:53:58.599
And just take it away. Good to focus. Imagine an

2738
08:53:58.720 --> 08:54:03.000
opening on the top of your head with a tension

2739
08:54:03.159 --> 08:54:07.919
and stress and any room made in issues, maybe worries

2740
08:54:08.080 --> 08:54:10.759
or concerns that are no use to you.

2741
08:54:10.919 --> 08:54:14.720
Now you can all be sucked down at the top

2742
08:54:14.720 --> 08:54:15.479
of your head.

2743
08:54:17.040 --> 08:54:23.000
And taken away. As I count down again, I'm twenty

2744
08:54:23.400 --> 08:55:03.759
down to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifty

2745
08:55:09.119 --> 08:56:16.959
fourteen thirteen to twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three.

2746
08:56:21.000 --> 08:56:21.240
Two.

2747
08:56:26.520 --> 08:56:53.080
Wha prey noticing how you feel, how relaxed and calm

2748
08:56:55.159 --> 08:57:09.479
if physically and mentally feel right now, How peaceful your

2749
08:57:09.759 --> 08:57:16.040
mind feels. It feels so nice to just let go,

2750
08:57:18.319 --> 08:57:27.599
to give yourself some space to breathe easily, to think calmly,

2751
08:57:32.479 --> 08:57:37.279
and just to take a break from all that pointless

2752
08:57:37.520 --> 08:57:41.319
worry and concerns about things.

2753
08:57:41.240 --> 08:57:44.000
That you don't need to think about.

2754
08:57:46.880 --> 08:57:54.240
Right now, because this is your time to let go.

2755
08:57:55.599 --> 08:58:05.360
This is your space to enjoy feel deeply relaxed, peaceful

2756
08:58:05.479 --> 08:58:12.759
in your mind, relaxed in your body. They can feel

2757
08:58:13.319 --> 08:58:23.159
so good, so nice to just not have to do anything,

2758
08:58:25.479 --> 08:58:34.400
to be able to really enjoy that serenity that comes

2759
08:58:35.919 --> 08:58:42.200
with letting go completely, that peacefulness that comes.

2760
08:58:41.959 --> 08:58:50.119
With being in this.

2761
08:58:51.959 --> 08:59:02.000
Peaceful space. And you can keep this sense of calmness

2762
08:59:02.840 --> 08:59:13.959
for as long as you choose. If you choose to

2763
08:59:14.240 --> 08:59:21.439
drift off into a deep, healing, natural sleep, then you

2764
08:59:21.560 --> 08:59:33.040
can do that. It's completely up to you, and you

2765
08:59:33.159 --> 08:59:37.799
can keep this feeling of calmness physically and in your

2766
08:59:37.880 --> 08:59:41.759
mind for as long as you choose.

2767
08:59:42.959 --> 08:59:54.319
To feel completely relaxed, completely relaxed.

2768
08:59:57.560 --> 09:00:03.159
And I'd like you to make up your mind that

2769
09:00:03.240 --> 09:00:14.200
you're going to relax, and I want to explore that

2770
09:00:14.439 --> 09:00:19.720
with you. What it feels like when you actually decide

2771
09:00:21.959 --> 09:00:26.639
that you're going to relax, not forcing yourself, but giving

2772
09:00:26.680 --> 09:00:32.599
yourself that. I guess it is a command, really isn't

2773
09:00:32.599 --> 09:00:39.479
it when you're telling yourself relax in a gentle but

2774
09:00:39.799 --> 09:00:46.919
firm way, that only you can really tell yourself in

2775
09:00:47.080 --> 09:00:49.840
that way. You can't really have someone else saying to

2776
09:00:49.880 --> 09:00:55.919
you and now it relax, relax, you know, and it

2777
09:00:56.000 --> 09:00:58.400
needs to be gentle, But you can't someone else can't

2778
09:00:58.439 --> 09:01:07.479
really have the same the same kind of influence or

2779
09:01:07.840 --> 09:01:15.959
power that you have over your own physicality, over how

2780
09:01:16.159 --> 09:01:26.319
you feel, because when you say it to yourself, it

2781
09:01:26.599 --> 09:01:34.400
means more. It's personal, and your brain and your unconscious

2782
09:01:34.599 --> 09:01:40.759
mind and your body listens to what you say. So,

2783
09:01:41.040 --> 09:01:44.840
for example, we'll test it out. We'll do a little test,

2784
09:01:44.959 --> 09:01:48.599
a few little tests along the way, and you can

2785
09:01:48.720 --> 09:01:54.959
get more of an idea of the force, a positive

2786
09:01:55.200 --> 09:02:01.599
force that you can have in creating a sense of

2787
09:02:01.880 --> 09:02:06.880
comfort and relaxation in your body and your mind quite

2788
09:02:07.000 --> 09:02:19.599
quickly just by you telling yourself to relax. So I

2789
09:02:19.720 --> 09:02:26.439
want to start by it's focus on your hands. So

2790
09:02:26.599 --> 09:02:29.599
focus on your hands and just tell your hands to relax,

2791
09:02:30.639 --> 09:02:35.520
and just say relax. As you focus on your hands,

2792
09:02:37.799 --> 09:02:42.319
you could say my hands are relaxed, or I want

2793
09:02:42.400 --> 09:02:46.680
my hands to relax. I think if you actually do

2794
09:02:46.799 --> 09:02:54.799
it directly by focusing and imagining that your hands can

2795
09:02:55.080 --> 09:02:57.680
hear what you're saying. You know, they've got little ears,

2796
09:02:58.479 --> 09:03:03.599
which is a bit weird. So talking to your hands

2797
09:03:04.360 --> 09:03:33.200
and just say relax noticin Now your hands start to relax. Now,

2798
09:03:33.319 --> 09:03:36.560
focus on your eyes and tell your eyes to relax.

2799
09:03:37.639 --> 09:03:41.919
So you just say in the same word relax and

2800
09:03:42.159 --> 09:03:48.680
find the right tone for you. You know, I might

2801
09:03:48.799 --> 09:03:58.240
say relax, but you you might say relax or relax.

2802
09:03:58.759 --> 09:04:02.799
You know, you might say it differently to yourself, and

2803
09:04:03.919 --> 09:04:09.919
that's important for you to gauge what feels right for you.

2804
09:04:11.799 --> 09:04:16.680
To just tell your eyes to relax, whilst focusing on

2805
09:04:16.799 --> 09:04:21.880
your eyes, your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your eyebrows,

2806
09:04:22.400 --> 09:04:57.959
and just tell your eyes directly relax now. Now, I

2807
09:04:58.159 --> 09:05:08.439
just did that myself, And sometimes you may feel that

2808
09:05:08.560 --> 09:05:13.520
you need a bit more time for the different parts

2809
09:05:13.639 --> 09:05:17.520
to relax, you know, because I started talking again and

2810
09:05:17.680 --> 09:05:22.639
maybe that part hasn't relaxed fully. But what happened is

2811
09:05:22.680 --> 09:05:25.439
that it would just continue to relax even though I'm talking.

2812
09:05:27.040 --> 09:05:32.799
And that's happened with my eyes. Something else I noticed

2813
09:05:32.919 --> 09:05:37.560
is when I started focusing on my eyes, that actually

2814
09:05:38.360 --> 09:05:41.159
almost became they got worse before they got better in

2815
09:05:41.279 --> 09:05:45.080
a way. So I felt a degree of tension growing

2816
09:05:45.200 --> 09:05:50.880
in my eyes and then disappearing. So I think what

2817
09:05:51.040 --> 09:05:55.599
that was really was just me becoming more aware of

2818
09:05:55.919 --> 09:06:00.080
the tension that was already there that I was, and

2819
09:06:01.119 --> 09:06:05.040
I wasn't focused on it before, so I wasn't really

2820
09:06:05.799 --> 09:06:23.160
acknowledging it or really conscious to those feelings. Yeah, my

2821
09:06:23.319 --> 09:06:27.480
eyes is still continuing to relax, as well as my hands. Actually,

2822
09:06:30.959 --> 09:06:36.360
my hands have got a certain kind of energy, like

2823
09:06:36.599 --> 09:06:41.760
not buzzing, but I can kind of feel a degree

2824
09:06:41.800 --> 09:06:47.720
of energy in my hands. Maybe that's where the tension

2825
09:06:47.839 --> 09:06:59.800
is being released. Maybe that's causing that. The next part,

2826
09:07:00.000 --> 09:07:02.120
I think we should focus on the back of the neck.

2827
09:07:02.800 --> 09:07:07.959
That's a part which quite often, well for me, holds tension.

2828
09:07:08.040 --> 09:07:10.839
I don't know about for yourself, but I think it's

2829
09:07:10.919 --> 09:07:17.239
quite a standard place where tension is sometimes held. So,

2830
09:07:19.400 --> 09:07:22.480
and I'm doing exactly what you're doing as you do

2831
09:07:22.599 --> 09:07:26.160
it as well, so I'm telling my body parts to

2832
09:07:26.319 --> 09:07:29.279
relax as well. So if you tell your neck the

2833
09:07:29.440 --> 09:07:32.239
back of your neck, focus on the back of your neck,

2834
09:07:32.400 --> 09:07:39.319
and just say relax in your own words, in your

2835
09:07:39.360 --> 09:07:43.000
own tone, in your own voice, you can say out loud,

2836
09:07:43.160 --> 09:07:47.319
or you can just say it to yourself internally, but

2837
09:07:47.440 --> 09:07:52.040
you're focusing and you're saying it literally to the back

2838
09:07:52.080 --> 09:07:54.839
of your neck, as if the back of your neck

2839
09:07:55.000 --> 09:08:01.639
can actually hear what you're saying. Okay, so do that now,

2840
09:08:01.839 --> 09:08:06.400
just say relax so back of your neck and I'll

2841
09:08:06.440 --> 09:08:06.959
do the same.

2842
09:08:45.800 --> 09:08:45.919
Now.

2843
09:08:46.000 --> 09:08:51.040
What I noticed, and you may have had similar thing, is,

2844
09:08:51.800 --> 09:08:54.400
even though I was focusing on the back of my neck,

2845
09:08:59.400 --> 09:09:06.080
other parts started to I don't know, showed themselves to

2846
09:09:06.199 --> 09:09:09.559
me or maybe because they want to be relaxed as well.

2847
09:09:09.639 --> 09:09:14.120
But I started noticing the feelings in my shoulders at

2848
09:09:14.199 --> 09:09:19.919
tension in my shoulders and in my upper back. Whether

2849
09:09:20.040 --> 09:09:25.680
that was because my back of my neck was saying, well,

2850
09:09:25.720 --> 09:09:30.680
I'm pretty much okay. It's the other parts that need attention,

2851
09:09:37.080 --> 09:09:40.120
but my low my back of my neck is still relaxing.

2852
09:09:41.559 --> 09:09:44.040
But I just became more aware of other parts that

2853
09:09:44.319 --> 09:09:52.919
needed attention that this might happen, and it's not. It

2854
09:09:53.040 --> 09:09:56.480
doesn't mean that it's going wrong. It just means you're

2855
09:09:56.559 --> 09:10:02.319
being notified of more places. Is that also wants to

2856
09:10:02.360 --> 09:10:09.120
feel relaxed. So I'm going to focus on my other

2857
09:10:09.239 --> 09:10:14.199
back so you can do the same even if you

2858
09:10:14.279 --> 09:10:19.319
don't have any feelings of tension that are obvious in

2859
09:10:19.440 --> 09:10:23.680
your upper back. You just focus on your back and

2860
09:10:26.199 --> 09:10:31.040
the whole area from the shoulder blades down to the

2861
09:10:31.120 --> 09:10:35.279
middle of your back that your spine, and with me,

2862
09:10:35.400 --> 09:10:43.480
it's more the shoulder blades more. Yeah, that's the parts

2863
09:10:43.559 --> 09:10:47.839
that are really sort of given me.

2864
09:10:49.559 --> 09:10:50.199
The nod.

2865
09:10:51.800 --> 09:10:54.239
That it needs relaxing and sounds going to ask that

2866
09:10:54.400 --> 09:10:57.720
part to relax, and you can do the same. Now,

2867
09:11:08.919 --> 09:11:24.879
relax your upper back. There's something strange happened there, And

2868
09:11:25.040 --> 09:11:27.480
this often happens.

2869
09:11:27.519 --> 09:11:28.440
I've been doing this for.

2870
09:11:31.360 --> 09:11:38.080
Sixteen years or something, and often I'm I'm surprised, but

2871
09:11:38.760 --> 09:11:45.199
amazed really that there can be a feeling. So when

2872
09:11:45.239 --> 09:11:48.519
I was focusing on the back of my neck, my

2873
09:11:48.639 --> 09:11:53.400
other back was starting to feel quite stressed and in

2874
09:11:53.639 --> 09:11:59.120
need of attention. As soon as I started talking to

2875
09:11:59.279 --> 09:12:03.959
you about my upper back and talking about, you know,

2876
09:12:04.480 --> 09:12:09.440
getting ready to ask the upper back to relax, why

2877
09:12:09.599 --> 09:12:15.199
the back already started to relax. It's almost as if

2878
09:12:15.239 --> 09:12:20.879
it doesn't need to hear the words, just needs intention,

2879
09:12:25.639 --> 09:12:36.959
just needs to be noticed. And that is something that

2880
09:12:37.279 --> 09:12:44.279
often happens in this type of situation. Is when you

2881
09:12:44.519 --> 09:12:49.680
start to relax a couple of parts of your body,

2882
09:12:50.760 --> 09:12:56.120
as we've done with our hands, our eyes and eyelids.

2883
09:12:57.360 --> 09:13:04.360
And now back of the neck, top of the back,

2884
09:13:06.279 --> 09:13:06.800
upper back.

2885
09:13:08.120 --> 09:13:12.120
The rest of the body seems to just take notice

2886
09:13:14.839 --> 09:13:23.120
and decide in its own way to start relaxing. Other

2887
09:13:23.239 --> 09:13:33.080
parts of your body start to just become looser. I

2888
09:13:33.199 --> 09:13:35.879
suppose it's kind of like a bit of an avalanche.

2889
09:13:36.040 --> 09:13:40.800
You know, a little ball starts rolling, and before you

2890
09:13:40.919 --> 09:13:43.919
know it, the whole of your body is completely relaxed

2891
09:13:43.959 --> 09:14:00.639
and can't And if you focus on your face, you

2892
09:14:00.760 --> 09:14:08.360
focus on your eyes, your eyelids, your eyebrows, and the

2893
09:14:08.519 --> 09:14:17.080
muscles around your eyes, maybe you start to notice that

2894
09:14:18.839 --> 09:14:23.919
your forehead is more relaxed than it was. Maybe your

2895
09:14:24.040 --> 09:14:29.839
face is more relaxed. I would say my entire face

2896
09:14:30.000 --> 09:14:44.599
is a lot more relaxed than it was. So we're

2897
09:14:44.599 --> 09:14:51.080
going to focus now on your shoulders again, just like before.

2898
09:14:52.480 --> 09:14:56.480
Just tell your shoulders and when you can do them individity.

2899
09:14:56.639 --> 09:15:00.559
You can do the right shoulder, left shoulder. I just

2900
09:15:00.720 --> 09:15:04.919
generally do both at the same time, and just tell

2901
09:15:05.279 --> 09:15:08.279
your shoulders as you focus on them in your mind,

2902
09:15:09.639 --> 09:15:14.559
focus on them how they feel, maybe you can see

2903
09:15:14.680 --> 09:15:21.599
them in your mind's eye. Just tell your shoulders.

2904
09:15:24.800 --> 09:15:25.440
To relax.

2905
09:16:02.760 --> 09:16:16.239
I feel as nice as they relax. But do you notice,

2906
09:16:17.959 --> 09:16:24.680
I mean, especially with my back, is the connection between

2907
09:16:24.919 --> 09:16:35.559
the different parts the back, with shoulders, the neck being

2908
09:16:35.639 --> 09:16:40.319
all connected and being such a large part of your body,

2909
09:16:43.279 --> 09:16:46.120
it's all it's hard to separate them from each other.

2910
09:16:51.599 --> 09:16:54.440
And my lower back is starting to relax on its own.

2911
09:17:00.599 --> 09:17:05.360
Maybe I'm going too slow and that could be an

2912
09:17:05.400 --> 09:17:12.800
issue because we all go at different speeds. And the

2913
09:17:13.000 --> 09:17:15.879
idea at the beginning of this recording was for you

2914
09:17:16.040 --> 09:17:30.919
to be able to just say to yourself, relax without

2915
09:17:31.080 --> 09:17:37.360
focusing on any particular part of your body. Because when

2916
09:17:37.440 --> 09:17:47.239
you know that, telling your hands to relax and your

2917
09:17:47.440 --> 09:17:56.120
hand relax, you tell your eyelids and your eyes and

2918
09:17:56.319 --> 09:18:07.319
muscles around your eyes, your eyebrows to relax and they relax.

2919
09:18:13.040 --> 09:18:24.319
You tell the back of your neck to relax, and

2920
09:18:24.720 --> 09:18:52.040
it relaxes. You tell your upper back to relax, and

2921
09:18:52.319 --> 09:18:53.279
it relaxes.

2922
09:18:59.519 --> 09:18:59.879
M hm.

2923
09:19:01.040 --> 09:19:39.959
You tell your shoulders to relax, and they relaxed. And

2924
09:19:40.160 --> 09:19:44.239
you told your hands to relax, they relaxed, and they

2925
09:19:44.360 --> 09:19:57.959
continued to relax. When you told your eyelids, the muscles

2926
09:19:58.000 --> 09:20:08.519
around your eyes, your eyebrows to relax, They relaxed and

2927
09:20:08.760 --> 09:20:20.000
continued to relax. When you told the back of your neck,

2928
09:20:21.360 --> 09:20:27.120
focused on the back of your neck and told it

2929
09:20:27.279 --> 09:20:46.800
to relax, they relaxed and continued to relax. When you

2930
09:20:46.959 --> 09:20:57.080
told your upper back to relax, be relaxed and continued.

2931
09:21:00.080 --> 09:21:14.120
As with your shoulders, You told your shoulders to relax,

2932
09:21:14.480 --> 09:21:26.800
and your shoulders relaxed and continued to relax.

2933
09:21:32.480 --> 09:21:37.440
And it's not just that, it's.

2934
09:21:40.120 --> 09:21:44.519
That the rest of your body has also been listening,

2935
09:21:46.239 --> 09:21:52.360
and their relaxation has been spreading. So from your eyes,

2936
09:21:52.639 --> 09:21:59.800
the relaxation spread to your forehead, around your face, and

2937
09:22:00.080 --> 09:22:13.239
to your skin, into your jaw, into the front of

2938
09:22:13.360 --> 09:22:17.879
the side of your neck, i way down your chest

2939
09:22:18.199 --> 09:22:28.519
and stomach. Your relaxed hands and shoulders.

2940
09:22:29.959 --> 09:22:32.959
Meet up through your arms.

2941
09:22:33.400 --> 09:22:34.519
Relaxing.

2942
09:22:35.959 --> 09:22:45.599
Your forearms, your up arms, elbows, your wrists, let you go,

2943
09:22:53.239 --> 09:23:03.199
your lower bag, your hips, buttons, or just start to

2944
09:23:03.400 --> 09:23:09.279
relax or continue even more comfort.

2945
09:23:10.400 --> 09:23:19.839
Spreading through your legs all the way down to your ankles,

2946
09:23:25.040 --> 09:23:29.080
the tops of your feet, the sight of your feet,

2947
09:23:30.919 --> 09:23:41.800
and the bottoms of your feet relaxing into your toes,

2948
09:23:45.599 --> 09:24:10.440
each toe, relaxing calm, and as your body relaxes more,

2949
09:24:11.000 --> 09:24:34.879
your mind becomes slower, more peaceful, to the point where

2950
09:24:37.040 --> 09:24:49.279
if you choose to fall asleep, you can easily do

2951
09:24:49.480 --> 09:25:05.239
that easy drift away because there's nothing going on in

2952
09:25:05.360 --> 09:25:22.639
your mind. Your brain is peaceful, your body continues.

2953
09:25:25.680 --> 09:25:26.319
To rise.

2954
09:25:50.120 --> 09:25:55.680
And with that connection between your body relaxing and the

2955
09:25:55.879 --> 09:26:09.559
word do you say to yourself relax means that you

2956
09:26:09.720 --> 09:26:16.400
don't need to focus on just one part. You can

2957
09:26:16.599 --> 09:26:34.480
just focus on your entire body saying the powerful word relax,

2958
09:26:44.199 --> 09:26:59.839
and there's those familiar sensations of comfort spreading throughout your body.

2959
09:27:05.199 --> 09:27:16.160
Who seeing you're calming and heathing every part to your

2960
09:27:16.239 --> 09:27:42.519
buddy feasing relaxed, So that all you need to do

2961
09:27:43.319 --> 09:28:03.120
now one is just tell yourself relax and observe feeding

2962
09:28:03.760 --> 09:28:56.160
completely comfort the boy. So, starting now with number twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen,

2963
09:29:09.680 --> 09:30:56.239
sixteen fIF four thirty too well.

2964
09:31:40.839 --> 09:34:13.199
Eight us.

2965
09:35:21.400 --> 09:37:17.639
Eighth us.

2966
09:38:02.480 --> 09:42:42.400
Six susan.

2967
09:42:14.919 --> 09:42:36.279
One, so counted down from ten to one ten nine

2968
09:42:37.959 --> 09:42:46.639
eight seven six five.

2969
09:42:48.599 --> 09:42:52.319
Four three.

2970
09:42:54.959 --> 09:43:07.000
Two one. And maybe that was a bit too quick

2971
09:43:07.599 --> 09:43:11.480
in order to relax. Maybe it's a bit too fast

2972
09:43:11.800 --> 09:43:20.599
for you to notice the calming of your body, maybe

2973
09:43:21.440 --> 09:43:25.199
even a little bit of pressure there. Like you'll count

2974
09:43:25.239 --> 09:43:27.559
it down from ten to one. What do you expect

2975
09:43:27.639 --> 09:43:31.319
me to do? Man, expect me to stick, go floppy

2976
09:43:32.639 --> 09:43:34.360
just because you're counting down.

2977
09:43:38.559 --> 09:43:38.720
Two.

2978
09:43:39.760 --> 09:43:43.040
If you try it again, but this time, I'll go

2979
09:43:43.120 --> 09:43:50.160
a bit slower this time, as you focus on the

2980
09:43:50.319 --> 09:43:54.440
whole of your body before we focus on your legs.

2981
09:43:56.879 --> 09:44:06.000
Just notice how your body does start to feel more

2982
09:44:06.519 --> 09:44:55.480
relaxed with every number that I count down ten nine, eight, seven, six, five,

2983
09:45:05.919 --> 09:46:01.080
four three two one, And just like tears,