June 29, 2025

(music) (10 hours) Sunday Summary | LMBYTS #1384 | Jason Newland | 29th June 2025

(music) (10 hours) Sunday Summary | LMBYTS #1384 | Jason Newland | 29th June 2025
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Hello, oh, welcome to.

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Sweaty Heatwave. My name's Sweaty Heatwave. My website is Sweatyheatwave

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dot com.

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Blur blur. It's hot.

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It's hot, hot, hot, hot, hot hot hot. I can't

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take video out until it gets cooler down because it'll

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be too hot for him out there, so he's stuck

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inside with me me.

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So yeah.

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Jasonnewland dot com is my website. My name is Jason Newland.

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Please I'm listen when you can safely close your eyes.

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And Vinnie has spotted a fly? Is it a same

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fly from last year? Vin same fly has been visited

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ten years now, it's been visiting us ten years. One

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poe to chase the same fly. Eyes hot, I'm gonna

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scrunch my T shirt, T shirt, T shirt up so

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my bellies feeling the cool breeze.

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There's a little bit of a cool breeze coming in

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through the window a little bit. Well, it's a breeze.

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I don't know if it's cool, but it's breezy.

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I'm just gonna imagine it's cool.

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I mean, technically, I don't have to take all my

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clothes off because once I kind of expose my belly area.

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That's about ninety five percent of my body, isn't it

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so oh lovely? By the way, I there's any single

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women out there that are looking for a new boyfriend

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or come and let me know me and my big

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wobbly belly.

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War Okay, I'll stop now. Whoops.

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I want to say thank you to Tammy for your

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PayPal gift. Thank you very much.

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And it's Sunday, the.

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U.

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I don't know what the date is. I think it's

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a twenty ninth of or the thirtieth. It's either the

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twenty ninth for the thirtieth of June twenty twenty five,

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because the first of July is Tuesday, and it's Sunday today.

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So if there's thirty one days in June, then this

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is the thirtieth today. If there's thirty days in June, ten,

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today's or twenty ninth.

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Were you the April May, junely, September, thirty days in

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fourth Bednmber? I don't. I can't remember the rhyme. I

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can't remember the rhyme. I don't. I don't remember it.

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But I've told you a thousand times.

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Yeah, Unfortunately, when you start telling me something that I'm

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not interested in.

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My brain shuts down. Sorry, I can't help it. Oh,

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my friend's still in hospital. I haven't been there this

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week end.

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Today, I think you're going to hear me shuffling about

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a bit because he's hunting the fly today. Sunday is very,

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very difficult to travel anywhere unless you have a car

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of your own, and I was not going to ask

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neighbors for help today because it's Sunday.

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You know. So this is going to be like my

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summary of the week. That's what I'm going to talk about.

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Although I kind of went quite in depth, but.

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There's probably stuff I've forgotten that I didn't mention. So

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the buses and the trains are not very regular on

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a Sunday.

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Saturday.

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I needed. I needed to not go in yesterday. I

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needed a break. I just needed a little bit of

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time with my little baby boy over here. And I

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think he needed that because he's been acting strange towards me,

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especially the last few days before.

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You know, I had some time until I was back.

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For example, it's not really eating much at the moment,

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but that's I'm guessing that's down to the heat.

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A lot of that however, However, however, However, he stopped

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sleeping in bed with me again. It could be.

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Partially to do the heat, but he was just sitting

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down on the floor staring at me. There was he

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had definitely had an issue with me, really like he

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didn't he was angry or whatever. So I managed to

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get him back in the bedroom me and he's fine again,

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but for a few days.

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I mean, I woke up the other day he.

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Wasn't even in the same room because in the living room.

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He does do that occasionally, but it's rare, it's very rare,

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and I was starting to think, I wonder if I

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kicked him out of bed in my sleep one night

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and it upset him. Obviously, if it's in my sleep,

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I didn't. I'm not responsible for what I do. When

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I was step I might have been a bit having

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a dream or something, dreaming I was a dad daddy

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leg long lick leg long a long leg, daddy long leg,

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juggling or something. I don't know, and so I might

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have just acted. Then he kicked him out of the bed,

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and he might have he might have been a shock

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to him because if he was asleep, and you know,

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he's got every right to be annoyed with me for that,

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But at the same time, I would never do that.

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If I don't, I might do No, I wouldn't. I

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would never do that if I was awake, not necessar

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he really annoyed me.

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No, I would never do that. It's a little boy.

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It's only little line, It's only little baby. It's my

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little baby, man, little baby, my little baby. Vinny, Vinnie, Vinnie, Vinny.

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He's a big grumpy as well.

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I think the heat's got him a little bit. I

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don't care too much about the heat. Yeah, it's just

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heating it.

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I've been warmer, that's how I see it. It's like,

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you know what, I've been way hotter than this on

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numerous occasions. It's just you just have to adapt. It's

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not all, it's not forever. It's just for I don't know,

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a few days if that, and then everyone's going to

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start complaining, oh it's so cold.

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Guarantee you guarantee in October time. Guarantee people will be

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walking around saying, didn't you never summer? What happened to

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the summers? Almost it didn't exist completely. Forgetting the fact

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that they couldn't leave the house because it was so hot.

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It's just you could fry an egg on your head,

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especially baldies like me. It's like short term memory in it.

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That's what it is. So you know, I've been to Thailand.

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This is cool in Thailand. This is not a hot

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day in time. And also I worked in a bakery,

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like a proper big industrial bakery when I was in

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my twenties that was hot all the time, like hot

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with all in Movens, ridiculously hot. So yeah, this this

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isn't really and I'm not saying it's comfortable. I'm not

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hugely uncomfortable though, really, because I'm indoors, got the windows open,

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sitting down, just chatting with you, got me a little

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a little monkey lying by my feet, huge jelly belly.

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It wabbles even when I sit still.

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M hmmm.

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If you haven't met me, you probably think, wow, what

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I thought you said he was massively fat? Well it's

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all I mean. You know, if you met me, you

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wouldn't think, oh, I didn't realize he was slim, because

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I'm not slim. I had been doing some stomach x Okay,

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I had been doing some stomach exercises.

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Until last Friday, when any kind of routine I had

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went up in Pooh basically.

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Although it's kind of strange because it's all it's like

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I started a new routine, but I don't want I

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don't want this new.

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Routine really because it's involving going to a hospital every day,

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and that's not what let's face it, unless you work

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in the hospital, it's not what anyone wants to do

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is go to hospital every day.

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I mean, blome me, no, thank you, No, it's lovely,

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but I have enough now, thanks, bye bye bye bye. Yeah.

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Not.

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I'm not even sure if I would make a very

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good patient, because that's pretty much where the word patients

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come from, isn't it. It's like he's a patient person.

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Any idea is.

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To be because you have to wait around a lot,

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don't you, if you're a patient.

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And back in the old days.

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Is a little bit similar to how my neighbor is

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because he's been in there since Friday, so it's that Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday,

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Saturday Sunday, nine days he's been in there, and.

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It's rare to be in hospital that long because there's

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a there's a term in this country which is really

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there might be another country. So I'm not saying that

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we're special, but we are.

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And it's a term which is being used by I

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don't know if it was created by the NHS, but

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it's definitely on the news about the NHS and people

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that were in beds, So the lack of hospital bed

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availability to new patients, that's basically what the subject was.

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So people that were in beds were called bed blockers,

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which it's such a horrible term, you know, for someone

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that's unwell, Because someone a bed blocker, it's that's just

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like calling someone a coffin dodger, isn't it. It's you know,

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it's it's this in the kind of it's in that ballpark.

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So he actually said.

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To me and my neighbor, oh, I don't want to

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be in there because I'm just blocking the bed. And

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I said, if you were my size, you would be

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blocking the bed. You'd probably be breaking the bed, but

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you're not blocking anything. Yeah, but I should This bed

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could be used for someone that needs it more. So

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I'm like, okay, first of all, you're seventy eight years old,

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nearly you're nearly eighty years old. And I said, trust me,

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I'm not an expert on the NHS or anything, well anything,

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I'm not an expert on anything. However, I do know

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one thing about the NHS is they would not keep

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someone in the bed unless they had to, unless it

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was important. They get people out quickly as possible. I mean,

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there was a time when if I hope it's okay

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in need to say woman, but when a woman gives birth,

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I hope that's not offended anyone back in.

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I'm gonna I mean, the.

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Last time I really had any contact with births was

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nineteen eighty when my little brother was born and she

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was in hospital for a few days, and it was

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just a standard birth. I don't think there was any

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not that I know of any complications. I think she

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was a bit sore, like most people are, I guess,

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but when she pooed him out, she wasn't. There was

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nothing extra happening. But she was in hospital for probably

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three or four days probably, and then came out.

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And you know, nowadays they're just like, as soon as

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you've had the baby, they wheel you out. It's okay, well,

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thanks by, and it's like if they can ideal, if

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they will actually if you give birth in the ambulance

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they just turn around and say you're home again. Seriously,

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I'm making it up. Seriously. I mean I had my

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appendix out when I was.

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Twelve, eleven, twelve, but I lose track, to be honest

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with you, I think about twelve.

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Ish and.

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I was in hospital probably five or six days, maybe

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a whole week. Best time in my childhood. That was

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happiest moment, the happiest period of my life as a child.

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When I was in hospital strange and I literally I

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did have the time of my life.

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It was great. I mean there was parts I didn't enjoy,

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you know, like the.

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Pain being prodded around in that, but generally, you know,

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outside of the actual operation and the anesthetic, I had

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a jolly good time, jolly, jolly, jolly good time.

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I'm pretty sure that anyone had a kid having an

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operation now, providing everything goes to plan, they'll be out

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very fairly quickly. I've known people to have heart surgery

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and be out the next day. It's like what that

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used to be. Something you'd stay in hospital for weeks with,

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maybe even longer. It's changed. Everything's changed so much.

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At this point, my neighbor said, you ain't half going on.

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I just said that I feel that I'm blocking the bed.

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I mean, you give me a lecture. And I said, yeah,

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I know. How does it feel? How does it feel? Hey,

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how does it feel you do it to me? Now

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I'm doing it to you. How do you feel being

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on the receiving end? And he bunched me, But I said, like, look,

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they wouldn't keep you in here unless they need to.

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It's I think it's fair, it's safe to say that.

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I think they don't keep people in hospital beds unless

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it's necessary. And I think what happened is the news bulletins.

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This is a few years back. I mean it might

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even be going twenty years fifteen ten, fifteen, twenty years ago,

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but there was a big focus on it and a

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massive guilt trip on people.

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To an ole almost for being ill. People shouldn't feel

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guilty for being ill. It's ridiculous. And they haven't got

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to the point where they're saying, well, just don't go

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to the A and E unless you're really ill. Are

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you sure you need to go that this is the

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accident emergency? Are you sure you really need to go

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to the A and E? Don't block the A and E?

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Up, it's there for emergencies, and then they start giving

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examples of some people that would go in there because.

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I don't know, I'm trying to think of something really silly.

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But they'd always give the most extreme example as saying

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it's someone went in there because they wanted to order

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a taxi or something, you know, something said like that,

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or do they wanted to get a kebab. It's like, okay,

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there's going to be a kebab.

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There are going to be situations where someone walks into

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an emergency ward of a hospital and ask some how

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much for the suitcases or something like that, or I

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ordered where I need to get my dry cleaning done.

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It's going to happen occasionally, isn't it. But I wouldn't.

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I imagine It's not the norm.

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It's not the normal situation. But these news bulletins and

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even adverts they put on TV, you know, don't waste

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the NHA's time, don't go into the an unless it's

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an emergency. The thing is, most people, I'm guessing, you know,

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just from well I think it's a fair guess, but

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most people, I imagine, are not medically trained. You know, the

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vast majority of people are not medically trained or at

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least not enough to know whether something is an emergency.

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Now my friends in hospital, he feels absolutely fine. Now

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if it hadn't been for me, And I don't mean

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that as as she would just say it.

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Now, do it now, there's a he you will if

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you look inside your pants, right, we'll do that now,

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get that over and done with. If it hadn't been.

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For me, and this is this is truth. I'm not

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saying it's nothing good about it. But he would still

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be in his home, having fun, watching the sport.

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He'd know nothing about this. He'd know nothing if he

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doesn't look. He didn't have a mirror, he didn't know

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who's yellow, And he would have had hadn't spent the

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last nine year, nine days in what he thinks his prison,

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but it's honestly, he feels like he's locked up. But

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he wouldn't have been in hospital for the last nine days.

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But he also wouldn't have been having medication to help

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with his blood which is full of ammonia, which has

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caused him to be yellow. So who knows where he

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would be in nine you know, after nine days of

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no medication to help to clear that out of his blood.

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You know, he sort of goes different ways, doesn't it.

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Paramedics said it was the right thing to do. Everyone

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said it's everyone medical said it's the right thing to

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do to get him into the hospital, And the fact

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that he's still in there is kind of backing that up.

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I would say, but.

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He had no physical symptoms, so that was an emergency

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situation and.

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He didn't even know it.

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Now, I didn't call for an ambulance because I've still

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got that stuck in my head. Don't call for an

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ambulance unless it's an emergency. How are we supposed to

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know if something's an emergency. I was told that if

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someone turns yellow, that's a very serious situation. It's pretty

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much in most cases. I'm sure there are times when

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it's not. But you know.

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It's the liver.

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It's an organ malfunction. And I didn't realize that the pancreas,

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the gallbladder, and the liver were all connected and any

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of those organs could cause someone to go yellow.

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I didn't know.

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I've done a bit of research since since this all happened.

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Apparently we've only got one liver. I thought we had three.

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Just shows you what I know.

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So I think I didn't you know, I ended up

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calling one one one, which is what they brought into

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play to stop people from wasting the emergency accident emergency time,

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or the ambulances time. And there are time wasters out there,

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of course, there are that always will be. I mean

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I went to I knew someone that worked or was

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volunteered at the Samaritans. I've known a few people actually

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that have volunteered at Samaritans, especially people that were counselors

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when I was training and stuff. And I applied myself

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once that they turned me down, apparently something to do

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with not wearing any pants. But hey, I didn't know.

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I didn't think it was a normal interview. It's not

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always acceptable to take a pack lunch to a job interview.

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Where's the rules? Where's the rule book? No flasks of coffee?

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Apparently they get quite a few time wasters at the Samaritans.

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And again they don't promote this. The reason I don't

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promote it is because they don't want people to stop

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phoning up.

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By the way, the Samaritans.

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If you don't know what it is, it there might

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be a version in every country.

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I don't know. It's basically a helpline. It's a phone.

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It's some way that you can phone up and talk

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to someone about anything. You're not really phoning up to

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get help as such. You know, if you need an ambulance,

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you need to call for an ambulance. If you need

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a police, you need to call for the police. The Samaritans,

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I think they can signpost you to different places, but

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they're really just an ear for you. You can talk

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about whatever's going on. And I think it's proven its

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usefulness millions of times over.

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Now.

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I didn't know, I've never I think I might have

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called the Samaritans once. Actually, oh yeah, they were engaged.

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That's it.

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That's why I phoned phone once and they were engaged,

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which was just is a weird and it the one time,

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but it's an amazing it's an amazing service. I didn't

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realize that some people were phoned up. There's there's two

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I think probably two times. You could say three times,

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three types of time wasters. But the Samaritans don't class

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it as time wasters because if they start putting adverts

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on TV saying only call if it's serious, only call,

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don't wait, you know, it would be so negative that

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a lot of people wouldn't phone up thinking that they

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didn't need to, and that phone call could be it

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could be life saving for that person. They might not

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even realize how much they needed to talk to someone,

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because some people have the need to have a conversation

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with a human being so or to feel that kind

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of communication.

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That connection, I guess, and I suppose also if you're

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living someone's living on their own and things become normalized,

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don't they so to have I've had that a little

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bit in the past where someone's found out what I'm

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doing and they're like, no, that's not normal. You know,

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that's not normal behavior. And I didn't realize. Now you're

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probably wondering what I'm talking about right now. It's nothing horrible,

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it's just I'm not going to tell you what it was.

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But the psychiatrist said, no, that's that's weird. I said, okay, okay.

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Apparently sticking if you put if you kneel down and

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put shoes on your knees to pretend to be really short.

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And walk around, there's a thing you do that, but

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apparently it's weird if you do it around.

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Your house on your own. There's no one else around.

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It's and like just do that all the time. Apparently

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it's a strange thing to do. Yeah, okay, So there's

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three types of people that.

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Perhaps don't use the Samaritans in the best way potentially,

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But again I've always got a caveat for these I've

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always got like a.

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A defense for the people doing it sometimes.

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So one is they phone up to they use it

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as some kind of horny chat line. I think that's

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a that's a nice way of saying it, you know,

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one of those premium number chat lines.

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Some people use it like that. I know it's I

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was quite surprised at that, and I didn't think they

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could hear what I was doing. And then there's people

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that I guess.

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Are just sort of wind up, you know, they just

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sort of wind up. They just like they think it's

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funny just to mess around with people. There's always going

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to be those types around. And then there's the I

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suppose that they said they get some people that phone

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every single day and maybe they feel this, I don't know,

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they don't necessarily feel they're helping that person, but they

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don't know they might really be helping them. Yeah, they

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get on first name turns with some people that literally

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call up every single day and if that's what they need,

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then do it, because that's what they're there for. They're there,

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it's a free service. And the way I say, I'm

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going from a different perspective.

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If I remember.

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Someone saying when I was doing the counseling training, someone said,

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there's this whole theory about well, if someone comes in

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and just talks about it, talks absolutely rubbish for fifty minutes,

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a little bit like me now, really, but they come

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in and you know that you know why they're come in.

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You already they've already had a phone conversation with the

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counseling service to find out what's going on with them

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and the reason why they have applied for counseling or

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the reason that being sent by the doctor the counseling

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We're not going to have a full information, but it's

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going to have at least an idea. So let's say

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they're in there because I don't know for whatever thing,

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but maybe it's yeah, I can't think of anything that

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isn't problematic. But but then they come in and they

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end up talking about basketball or football, or they talk

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about UFOs, or they talk about dinosaurs for fifty minutes,

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or they come in and they just make stuff up, blatantly,

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just make stuff up. Now, this seemed to frustrate some

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of the other counselors, and I've read books and stuff

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as well on it, and some people get upset with

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it and say, you know, some counseling books will say, well,

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you've got to bring them back to why they're there,

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You've got to get them.

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Focused on all that stuff, which I do understand. But

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I kind of figured out that actually, sometimes people need

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to use I suppose they can still be gaining benefit

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from talking to someone, even if it is it's got

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nothing to do with why they're there, maybe just that

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human human interaction, maybe sitting in a room with someone

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that is listening.

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And what I've noticed that in most cases it's going

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back a while now they'd start talking about.

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Why they're there. Not always, but you know, something quite often.

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And I found that interesting that actually, I suppose you

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could some people use metaphors stories. So maybe the given example,

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it's a little bit like say I need advice for

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a friend, and you pretty much always know that the

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person is talking.

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About themselves, don't you.

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So you know, if someone comes up to you, if

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it's someone you know that or I need some advice

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for a friend. And he's thinking about getting an enlargement procedure,

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but he's not sure because he's seeing it on TV

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and he doesn't know everyone. Or it'd be safe if

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we're about getting a pump. But he didn't get it

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in the end, and he hasn't got a lot of

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money because you know, he's on benefits at the moment,

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and he's he's it's quite expensive, especially looking after his

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little dog Vinny. You know, if you make a mistaken

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if you give too much information away. But I think

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sometimes that's useful for counselors or for clients or rather patients.

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To do it in their own way.

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And I think, I guess that's what I'm saying with Samaritans.

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Sometimes if someone's just they're not even talking about their

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own life, it might help them sort out certain blockages

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in their mind or in their energies for whatever. I

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don't know blockages in their energies what you're talking about, Jay,

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I'm not one hundred percent sure, and I'll make it.

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I'll make most of what I say up. The video

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is about twelve inches away from the fly. He's staring

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at it. He wants it badly. She's rested his.

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He was rested his chin on my left leg, and

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the fly was on my right leg, and he was

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I guess he was thinking the dogs think. I don't know.

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I found a new technique, by the way, to stop

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internal dialogue, to turn it off. It's not really a

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new way, but it's a new way for me focus

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on the wind or the breeze. Because I noticed always

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noticing new things about myself, and then sometimes I forget

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about the thing I've noticed, and then I noticed it

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again a few years later, and then I forget about

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it again, and then I notice it again. Something that

477
00:35:46.760 --> 00:35:53.559
I've got a habit of doing is so if something happened.

478
00:35:53.760 --> 00:35:55.880
If something happens, it.

479
00:35:55.800 --> 00:36:01.800
Can be just the most simple thing, an interaction or

480
00:36:01.840 --> 00:36:05.519
a non interaction. Or if someone with a dog they

481
00:36:05.559 --> 00:36:11.519
say something rude, which happens occasionally, Vidy barks and maybe

482
00:36:11.519 --> 00:36:13.679
they don't like the fact that he's barking at their dog.

483
00:36:17.519 --> 00:36:19.960
And then I start thinking of all the different conversations

484
00:36:20.000 --> 00:36:23.559
I could have had with that person, how it could

485
00:36:23.599 --> 00:36:31.119
have gone. And I can go on for ages and

486
00:36:31.159 --> 00:36:33.719
then maybe I'll see them again, and I'll kind of

487
00:36:33.800 --> 00:36:38.639
keep my distance, and I start mentioning all the different

488
00:36:38.639 --> 00:36:42.239
scenarios and conversations I might have with them if I

489
00:36:42.280 --> 00:36:45.079
did see them, And it's weird, and I thought, you

490
00:36:45.079 --> 00:36:52.079
know what, I'll focus on the wind, the wind outside

491
00:36:52.159 --> 00:36:59.719
my pants, you know, in the air. It switches off

492
00:36:59.760 --> 00:37:00.360
into to me.

493
00:37:07.320 --> 00:37:14.679
I sometimes I feel that I'm rehearsing, practicing, rehearsing what

494
00:37:14.719 --> 00:37:17.480
I'm going to say. You know, I know I'm going

495
00:37:17.519 --> 00:37:22.239
to go out with Vin in a few hours, and

496
00:37:22.800 --> 00:37:25.519
I kind of know roughly who I'm going to see,

497
00:37:26.000 --> 00:37:29.519
what dogs are going to be there. And I've realized

498
00:37:29.559 --> 00:37:34.440
sometimes I kind of rehearse things that I'm going to

499
00:37:34.480 --> 00:37:38.360
say to these people. And it's weird because I don't

500
00:37:38.360 --> 00:37:41.920
rehearse anything I'm going to say here. I don't really

501
00:37:41.960 --> 00:37:44.239
think about what I'm going to say until I start

502
00:37:44.320 --> 00:37:51.079
doing a recording, unless it's like a specific recording where

503
00:37:51.079 --> 00:37:54.320
I might have a little bit of information in front

504
00:37:54.360 --> 00:37:56.719
of me and stuff, but not to let me put

505
00:37:56.760 --> 00:37:59.000
you to sleeps.

506
00:38:00.199 --> 00:38:04.360
But when I'm dealing with a human, I kind of

507
00:38:08.599 --> 00:38:12.000
it's almost like, actually, I think sometimes I just say

508
00:38:12.039 --> 00:38:15.480
the same thing to everyone, or it's hot today in

509
00:38:15.519 --> 00:38:22.360
it when there's one I was thing saying. I was

510
00:38:22.400 --> 00:38:26.239
walking around after him after Finny, and I had the

511
00:38:26.559 --> 00:38:31.119
Pooh bag on my hand. I was walking around and

512
00:38:31.159 --> 00:38:34.440
he literally took me on a It took me on

513
00:38:34.440 --> 00:38:37.920
a very long walk. So I saw about three different

514
00:38:38.440 --> 00:38:41.679
dog walkers during that journey of me just following him

515
00:38:41.719 --> 00:38:45.239
around the field finding somewhere to do a nice, big

516
00:38:45.320 --> 00:38:49.480
smelly one so I could pick it up. So I'm

517
00:38:49.480 --> 00:38:53.880
walking with him, walking behind him, with this Pooh bag

518
00:38:53.960 --> 00:39:01.159
on my hand ready to use. And I thought to myself,

519
00:39:02.280 --> 00:39:07.320
I must look like the world's worst ventoloquist. You know,

520
00:39:07.719 --> 00:39:11.880
it's just because Pooh bag on my head. It's the

521
00:39:11.920 --> 00:39:15.239
next person I see, I say it to them, and

522
00:39:15.360 --> 00:39:16.920
I say it to the next person. I say it

523
00:39:17.199 --> 00:39:19.079
three different people. I said, I must look like the

524
00:39:19.079 --> 00:39:24.840
worst world's worst vaniloquist. I just like I thought it's funny.

525
00:39:25.000 --> 00:39:28.320
So I think they did laugh. I'm not sure. I

526
00:39:28.360 --> 00:39:29.039
can't remember.

527
00:39:29.840 --> 00:39:40.239
I really don't want to be one of them people that.

528
00:39:36.000 --> 00:39:39.679
That is out of touch with reality. That worries me

529
00:39:39.679 --> 00:39:42.039
a little bit. I'm not saying I'm in touch with reality,

530
00:39:42.159 --> 00:39:46.800
but I don't want to.

531
00:39:46.960 --> 00:39:50.000
I don't want to be talking at people and not

532
00:39:50.159 --> 00:39:53.480
realizing that they don't want me to be because I

533
00:39:53.480 --> 00:39:59.599
have been that person, and I have to be very careful.

534
00:39:59.639 --> 00:40:05.880
I don't do that, because you know, a conversation has

535
00:40:05.920 --> 00:40:15.599
to be two ways. But I've got my little special

536
00:40:15.639 --> 00:40:25.119
in my little interests. So I've got a tendency of

537
00:40:24.000 --> 00:40:28.239
h of making weird noises with my throat which I

538
00:40:28.239 --> 00:40:29.239
want to just add some water.

539
00:40:31.559 --> 00:40:35.159
Oh, God of the I don't know.

540
00:40:35.199 --> 00:40:35.639
I just.

541
00:40:39.760 --> 00:40:42.599
I think sometimes I'm just a bit too self aware.

542
00:40:45.159 --> 00:40:49.599
It's almost like, oh, I just found something in my

543
00:40:49.639 --> 00:40:50.199
belly bun.

544
00:40:51.599 --> 00:41:01.159
What is that? Ah, Oh, that's a bit of chocolate.

545
00:41:02.880 --> 00:41:05.000
It's not, it's not really, it's a Mars bar. No,

546
00:41:05.079 --> 00:41:13.039
it's not. I'm constantly studying myself and I don't.

547
00:41:12.920 --> 00:41:21.199
Really know how useful that is. To be honest, I

548
00:41:21.280 --> 00:41:26.679
seem to be observing what I'm doing, what I'm thinking,

549
00:41:26.920 --> 00:41:34.960
how I'm talking, my behavior, the things that I want

550
00:41:35.000 --> 00:41:37.320
to say and don't say, the things that I do

551
00:41:37.480 --> 00:41:38.679
say and don't want to say.

552
00:41:43.920 --> 00:41:47.559
Yeah, it's weird. It's kind of weird. Perhaps a little

553
00:41:47.599 --> 00:42:01.679
bit too self conscious, perhaps mm hmm, perhaps just a

554
00:42:01.800 --> 00:42:03.239
really big egotist.

555
00:42:05.519 --> 00:42:07.760
But it's not I don't think it's really in that way,

556
00:42:08.280 --> 00:42:13.239
because I like to be in control of me, but

557
00:42:13.280 --> 00:42:14.119
I don't want to be.

558
00:42:14.079 --> 00:42:18.280
In control of other people. So that's that's a big difference.

559
00:42:18.360 --> 00:42:22.519
I think I do like to have control over my environment,

560
00:42:24.000 --> 00:42:26.000
but I know that I can only do that in

561
00:42:26.119 --> 00:42:29.400
my environment, which is in this home, this flat, and

562
00:42:29.480 --> 00:42:33.960
even then there's limitations because I've got a very.

563
00:42:34.360 --> 00:42:38.360
Stubborn little doggie here, and I've also got.

564
00:42:39.679 --> 00:42:44.360
People around here that are antisocial, that live outside and

565
00:42:44.440 --> 00:42:46.679
live in the other places, so I can't control them.

566
00:42:47.079 --> 00:42:51.280
I can't control him, but I've got, you know, a

567
00:42:52.199 --> 00:42:58.760
general control of the environment to a degree. When I

568
00:42:58.800 --> 00:43:03.639
go out that changes a little bit.

569
00:43:04.440 --> 00:43:08.000
I've noticed that the last week, getting on buses, getting

570
00:43:08.000 --> 00:43:14.360
in taxis, asking people for lifts.

571
00:43:15.679 --> 00:43:18.480
It's been, Yeah, it's been challenging.

572
00:43:20.000 --> 00:43:21.719
And there was someone on the bus the other day

573
00:43:21.760 --> 00:43:24.480
that was listening to I think he was watching a

574
00:43:24.480 --> 00:43:25.599
YouTube video.

575
00:43:25.360 --> 00:43:26.320
On his phone.

576
00:43:26.960 --> 00:43:33.519
Was very loud, and again I might have been reading

577
00:43:33.519 --> 00:43:35.840
the signals wrong, but it looked to me like he

578
00:43:35.960 --> 00:43:38.360
was doing it because he wanted someone to say something.

579
00:43:39.519 --> 00:43:42.440
You know, he was being antisocial and he was just.

580
00:43:43.920 --> 00:43:50.440
Almost egging, egging the passion passengers to say something so

581
00:43:50.480 --> 00:43:54.199
that he could I don't know what do what.

582
00:43:54.320 --> 00:43:54.880
I don't know.

583
00:43:55.719 --> 00:43:58.000
It wouldn't have ended well for him, but it was

584
00:43:58.199 --> 00:44:00.880
I don't know what he wanted out of it.

585
00:44:00.960 --> 00:44:03.000
In the end, the bus driver just showered at him.

586
00:44:03.239 --> 00:44:05.280
You turn it down. He did.

587
00:44:07.320 --> 00:44:09.079
He still had on a little bit, but he was

588
00:44:09.199 --> 00:44:14.760
really like he was looking for trouble, and.

589
00:44:13.400 --> 00:44:18.000
You're looking for trouble. You were in the red blush.

590
00:44:18.880 --> 00:44:20.519
I cannot I can relate to that.

591
00:44:21.000 --> 00:44:23.239
I was a little bit like that in my early twenties,

592
00:44:25.440 --> 00:44:28.119
but this bloke was in his at least in his thirties,

593
00:44:28.360 --> 00:44:32.480
maybe forties, so it was a little bit like yeah,

594
00:44:33.519 --> 00:44:35.519
and it was it's not good to be like that

595
00:44:35.599 --> 00:44:39.199
at any age. But I suppose there's always a little phase,

596
00:44:40.840 --> 00:44:42.239
because he's going through a little phase.

597
00:44:43.000 --> 00:44:48.079
Nice little phase. Oh oh, he's going through a phase.

598
00:44:49.000 --> 00:44:52.480
He's got his he's got his ra his radio thing.

599
00:44:53.320 --> 00:44:56.239
He's a it's a phone, his phone. He's got his

600
00:44:56.320 --> 00:45:00.599
phone on really loud. He's watching one of those movies things.

601
00:45:00.679 --> 00:45:04.800
It's YouTube. He's watching a YouTube movie. It's a video.

602
00:45:05.119 --> 00:45:09.280
He's watching a YouTube video on his radio, his phone,

603
00:45:09.800 --> 00:45:14.679
on his phone. Oh and it's really loud. He's going

604
00:45:14.679 --> 00:45:19.639
through a phase. It's a phase. Oh everyone, come on,

605
00:45:19.719 --> 00:45:22.880
let's give him a huk and pushing him off the bus.

606
00:45:23.760 --> 00:45:31.719
So yeah, bless him. A weird thing happened to A

607
00:45:31.800 --> 00:45:35.960
weird thing happened my neighbor.

608
00:45:36.400 --> 00:45:40.280
Actually, it got into kind of an argument with someone

609
00:45:40.320 --> 00:45:42.599
on one of the wards he was on, because he's

610
00:45:42.639 --> 00:45:47.719
now on a third ward since he's been there, and

611
00:45:47.760 --> 00:45:52.400
the second ward he was on, they some bloke was

612
00:45:52.440 --> 00:45:59.639
complaining about him being too noisy, and yeah, it's being

613
00:45:59.719 --> 00:46:05.599
a bit aggressive and stuff, and they ended up moving

614
00:46:07.000 --> 00:46:11.239
my neighbor, keeping that bloke there, but moving my neighbor.

615
00:46:12.440 --> 00:46:14.239
So I've only got one.

616
00:46:14.079 --> 00:46:16.760
Side of the story. There's there's the old sailor, isn't it.

617
00:46:16.880 --> 00:46:19.519
You know there's three sides to a story, the two

618
00:46:19.599 --> 00:46:22.760
sides and then the truth, both sides.

619
00:46:22.559 --> 00:46:30.239
Then the truth. So who knows what exactly occurred. But

620
00:46:30.280 --> 00:46:32.320
I did say to my neighbor, and I thought this

621
00:46:32.480 --> 00:46:35.360
was funny, actually, I said to him, because he told

622
00:46:35.360 --> 00:46:38.159
me on the phone. I said, well, because he'd been

623
00:46:38.199 --> 00:46:40.320
moved to a new warden act to try and find

624
00:46:40.320 --> 00:46:42.840
out where it was. I said, well, you know, when

625
00:46:42.840 --> 00:46:45.679
we go out for a walk, because I take him

626
00:46:45.719 --> 00:46:51.119
out for a sit down in the because in front

627
00:46:51.159 --> 00:46:52.480
of the hospital.

628
00:46:52.079 --> 00:46:56.679
There's all these chairs and stuff like that.

629
00:46:56.800 --> 00:46:59.599
You can sit down, there's a duck pond. It's very nice.

630
00:46:59.639 --> 00:47:05.079
That's that, you know, especially in this weather. And I

631
00:47:05.079 --> 00:47:07.079
said to him, when we go out, perhaps we'll make.

632
00:47:07.280 --> 00:47:09.360
A little visit to that bloke. Go back and over

633
00:47:09.320 --> 00:47:13.440
it all, make a little visit. Perhaps punch him or something.

634
00:47:14.480 --> 00:47:18.639
I was joking, okay, so I was go and see him.

635
00:47:18.840 --> 00:47:20.400
We go out for a walk that day and he said,

636
00:47:20.679 --> 00:47:21.920
on the way back, said we're going to go and

637
00:47:21.960 --> 00:47:29.280
visit that bloke. Then I said, I said no, every

638
00:47:29.480 --> 00:47:32.119
I said, like, look, every everyone's in here because they're

639
00:47:32.159 --> 00:47:34.920
run well. No one's in there for a jolly. They're

640
00:47:34.920 --> 00:47:37.880
not in there for fun, apart from well even in

641
00:47:38.000 --> 00:47:39.320
the nurses and doctors are.

642
00:47:39.199 --> 00:47:45.719
Not in there for fun, are they. But different people

643
00:47:45.800 --> 00:47:49.679
deal with with being unwell differently, and perhaps his way

644
00:47:49.719 --> 00:47:55.320
of dealing with it is by being annoyed by you, well,

645
00:47:55.360 --> 00:47:56.519
you know, by what's going on.

646
00:47:58.639 --> 00:48:02.599
And he was he was cool. I't I'm not sure

647
00:48:02.639 --> 00:48:04.320
if he really I don't know if he was just

648
00:48:04.440 --> 00:48:07.079
joking or not. When he said that to me, should

649
00:48:07.079 --> 00:48:10.960
we go and see him now? But I think twenty

650
00:48:11.039 --> 00:48:14.079
years ago, I think he would have well, that would

651
00:48:14.119 --> 00:48:18.400
have had a different outcome. He's a bit fiery, but

652
00:48:18.440 --> 00:48:25.280
he's you know, he's pretty old now, maybe thirty years ago, so.

653
00:48:27.239 --> 00:48:29.719
When that bloke would probably be a baby now, or

654
00:48:29.760 --> 00:48:33.159
he'd be only be about ten so the other blocks,

655
00:48:33.199 --> 00:48:37.519
so that probably wouldn't have been so good. I don't

656
00:48:37.559 --> 00:48:43.599
know old he was mabe forties, fifties, I don't know. Anyway,

657
00:48:44.199 --> 00:48:46.119
I find my dad up just to sort of see

658
00:48:46.119 --> 00:48:48.920
how he's getting on with his treatments. He's in treatment now,

659
00:48:50.320 --> 00:48:54.039
started last week for four weeks, it's going to be And.

660
00:48:56.280 --> 00:48:58.519
I told him I've thought it was a funny story

661
00:48:58.800 --> 00:49:01.519
that you know my neighbor, you know, the fact that

662
00:49:01.519 --> 00:49:03.800
he said or she would go and see him. I

663
00:49:03.840 --> 00:49:08.400
thought that was quite quite amusing. Told my dad, and

664
00:49:08.440 --> 00:49:10.639
he was like, we can't do that. Get kicked out

665
00:49:10.639 --> 00:49:15.920
of the wall, you get arrested around. Like my reaction was, well,

666
00:49:15.920 --> 00:49:19.000
I do what I want to do firstly, and tell

667
00:49:19.000 --> 00:49:20.800
me what I can do, but of course I'm not

668
00:49:20.840 --> 00:49:24.400
going to do it. Like it was so ridiculous. I

669
00:49:24.519 --> 00:49:29.440
just it was I don't know it. It turned a

670
00:49:29.559 --> 00:49:34.199
nice conversation into just awkwardness for no reason on the

671
00:49:34.239 --> 00:49:37.320
phone with my dad, like why, and his wife was

672
00:49:37.360 --> 00:49:40.239
there saying the same things, all but you're get in trouble,

673
00:49:40.280 --> 00:49:42.280
you won't be allowed back in the hospital.

674
00:49:42.400 --> 00:49:45.239
Like I didn't say I was going to actually do it.

675
00:49:46.360 --> 00:49:47.840
He really felt I'm going to walk up to side

676
00:49:47.880 --> 00:49:54.079
in the hospital bed and start, you know, being naughty, aggressive,

677
00:49:54.119 --> 00:49:57.000
and of course I'm not. I don't know what they

678
00:49:57.039 --> 00:50:00.039
think of me. Honestly, it's.

679
00:50:05.639 --> 00:50:07.760
I've got that off my chest now I can't move on.

680
00:50:08.239 --> 00:50:09.440
How does it really annoyed me?

681
00:50:10.719 --> 00:50:10.880
Oh?

682
00:50:12.760 --> 00:50:15.719
It's weird though, because my dad started treatment on Wednesday.

683
00:50:16.559 --> 00:50:21.880
I spoke to him on the Tuesday. I didn't know

684
00:50:22.039 --> 00:50:24.119
was having it. He had just been on holiday, just

685
00:50:24.159 --> 00:50:27.760
to see how his holiday was and when his treatment starts. Oh,

686
00:50:27.800 --> 00:50:30.480
it starts tomorrow. I said, well, I was going to

687
00:50:30.559 --> 00:50:33.079
say to you, which I thought about for quite a while,

688
00:50:33.880 --> 00:50:38.599
is going up to the hospital with him on the

689
00:50:38.599 --> 00:50:40.559
first day of his treatment, just to be a bit

690
00:50:40.559 --> 00:50:43.559
of emotional support. I know his wife's going to be there,

691
00:50:43.559 --> 00:50:45.599
but I thought it'd just be a nice thing. And

692
00:50:45.840 --> 00:50:48.360
he said no, I said, for he'd.

693
00:50:48.239 --> 00:50:49.639
Just cover a cup of coffee. I'm not gonnaed to

694
00:50:49.679 --> 00:50:53.360
drink coffee. It's really negative towards me.

695
00:50:53.960 --> 00:51:00.840
Like, okay, I just thought maybe it'd be no, and

696
00:51:00.880 --> 00:51:02.280
it just seemed weird that.

697
00:51:04.440 --> 00:51:07.760
My neighbor wants me to visit. He wants me to

698
00:51:07.800 --> 00:51:11.760
be there with him, but my own dad doesn't. I know.

699
00:51:11.840 --> 00:51:14.079
It was only it was a hospital visit and it

700
00:51:14.119 --> 00:51:17.599
was to have treatment. But I just thought it'd be

701
00:51:17.679 --> 00:51:20.000
a nice thing to do, just to be there for

702
00:51:20.079 --> 00:51:32.039
him in a time of need, maybe rather than just.

703
00:51:29.039 --> 00:51:32.039
Just I don't know. I don't know what I was thinking. Really.

704
00:51:33.920 --> 00:51:38.039
I thought maybe it'd be a nice thing. But it's strange,

705
00:51:41.440 --> 00:51:46.639
very strange. But yeah, he definitely didn't want me visiting.

706
00:51:46.800 --> 00:51:49.320
He said he didn't want me visiting or not visiting.

707
00:51:49.360 --> 00:51:52.599
He doesn't want me to go there. I said, well,

708
00:51:53.039 --> 00:51:55.199
I could just see you, give you a hub before

709
00:51:55.199 --> 00:51:58.519
you go in or no, it's right, just didn't didn't

710
00:51:58.559 --> 00:52:03.960
want me yet. Some bloke that i've a neighbor I've

711
00:52:04.000 --> 00:52:09.800
known for ten years is asking me when I'm going

712
00:52:09.840 --> 00:52:13.840
to go up next, phone me up, you know. As

713
00:52:13.880 --> 00:52:15.880
well as being seeing him every day, I'm speaking to

714
00:52:15.960 --> 00:52:19.159
on the phone probably twice, one in the morning before

715
00:52:19.159 --> 00:52:25.840
I go in and one in the evening. It seems

716
00:52:25.840 --> 00:52:28.880
to be strange that I had this weird relationship with family.

717
00:52:29.199 --> 00:52:32.400
I seem to be more appreciated by strangers than by

718
00:52:32.480 --> 00:52:36.880
people that actually know me or think. I think I'm

719
00:52:36.920 --> 00:52:41.920
just known. I think I'm the real me is known

720
00:52:41.960 --> 00:52:47.239
better by people that don't know me. I don't know

721
00:52:47.239 --> 00:52:48.079
if that makes sense.

722
00:52:50.719 --> 00:52:53.119
Family don't know me, they don't know me the real me,

723
00:52:55.800 --> 00:53:02.000
and I think neighbors I've got to see the real

724
00:53:02.119 --> 00:53:09.239
me people that I've helped, And so I think if

725
00:53:09.280 --> 00:53:14.039
you help people for no reason, they get to see

726
00:53:14.400 --> 00:53:16.320
it's not the reason to do it for me, but

727
00:53:17.320 --> 00:53:17.920
they get.

728
00:53:17.760 --> 00:53:24.519
To realize that. Oh, because I think that some people,

729
00:53:24.519 --> 00:53:29.599
it's quite an unusual situation to give without expecting anything back.

730
00:53:31.000 --> 00:53:34.280
I mean, I've got help this week from people that

731
00:53:34.400 --> 00:53:39.360
want something back, then I've got you know, so I've

732
00:53:39.360 --> 00:53:43.840
had lifts. I've had three lifts this week, two of

733
00:53:43.960 --> 00:53:48.679
them by someone that gets paid to take me. The

734
00:53:48.760 --> 00:53:54.159
other one was by someone They didn't want anything, so

735
00:53:54.199 --> 00:53:58.599
it's kind of I offered the money to both. One

736
00:53:58.639 --> 00:54:05.760
said no, the other person said yes, and one went

737
00:54:05.800 --> 00:54:07.960
out of their way to take me and the other

738
00:54:08.000 --> 00:54:11.039
one and he took me because it was going where

739
00:54:11.039 --> 00:54:18.280
they were going anyway, So it is that's the person

740
00:54:18.320 --> 00:54:19.599
that went out of their way to take me.

741
00:54:19.599 --> 00:54:20.960
It was the one they didn't want any money.

742
00:54:21.440 --> 00:54:24.199
It's kind of just a weird if they're both helping,

743
00:54:24.880 --> 00:54:28.440
and I was grateful for both. But it's just a different,

744
00:54:30.480 --> 00:54:33.920
different way of thinking. And I quite like that because

745
00:54:33.960 --> 00:54:41.719
that's the way I think is. I don't know, that

746
00:54:41.920 --> 00:54:49.880
just feels right, you know, helping someone feels right, It

747
00:54:50.000 --> 00:54:54.679
just feels nice. So technically, I suppose it could just

748
00:54:54.719 --> 00:55:01.960
be unselfish. I'm just just making myself feel nice by

749
00:55:03.000 --> 00:55:05.000
helping the neighbors and doing stuff.

750
00:55:05.840 --> 00:55:06.840
Maybe that's all it is.

751
00:55:06.880 --> 00:55:11.280
And to me, that's a win win because if I

752
00:55:11.360 --> 00:55:16.119
get to feel good and they feel the benefit as well,

753
00:55:16.559 --> 00:55:23.239
then that's a win win all around, I suppose. And

754
00:55:23.320 --> 00:55:26.599
I imagine my neighbor that gave me a lyft, that

755
00:55:26.719 --> 00:55:33.360
didn't want anything, felt good for helping me. And he's

756
00:55:33.400 --> 00:55:35.960
only a young lad, he's only like twenty twenty one

757
00:55:36.079 --> 00:55:42.119
something like that, and I was lovely such a you know,

758
00:55:42.199 --> 00:55:47.159
he potentially hear the dogs in the back ground. He

759
00:55:47.199 --> 00:55:52.159
potentially made himself late for work. So I said to him, look,

760
00:55:53.000 --> 00:55:54.000
can you hear that?

761
00:55:54.480 --> 00:55:56.880
Dide? I just swear that didn't I. I just said

762
00:55:56.920 --> 00:55:59.960
a naughty word. Bloody dog.

763
00:56:00.199 --> 00:56:03.360
H I can't moan about dogs because he does the same,

764
00:56:03.519 --> 00:56:09.079
this one except him, he's like, he screeches. It's so

765
00:56:09.320 --> 00:56:15.280
high pitched it rattles the windows, rattles the windows of

766
00:56:15.400 --> 00:56:16.079
mes Sole.

767
00:56:23.800 --> 00:56:26.480
So it's been a weird week. It's been a weird,

768
00:56:26.719 --> 00:56:39.880
weird week. It seems to have lasted. Really. The dog

769
00:56:39.960 --> 00:56:43.400
doesn't doesn't onnly bark quite so much. It's probably a

770
00:56:43.440 --> 00:56:47.000
cat in the garden or the kid. Maybe the kid

771
00:56:47.000 --> 00:56:51.519
out there just playing with it of been his tail's

772
00:56:51.559 --> 00:56:56.719
going now, so he's hearing. He's hearing the dog. Did

773
00:56:56.760 --> 00:57:00.239
your tail discope, Bennie, are you excited about it with

774
00:57:00.239 --> 00:57:11.679
the doggie? He excited? Yeah. The week feels like it's

775
00:57:13.880 --> 00:57:20.719
lasted a long time. It doesn't really feel as if

776
00:57:20.719 --> 00:57:23.280
it's gone. It's gone quickly at all.

777
00:57:25.039 --> 00:57:30.519
That might be partly because I've got a lot done.

778
00:57:31.639 --> 00:57:37.280
I know, I haven't made loads of recordings, but I've

779
00:57:37.280 --> 00:57:47.960
done a few, and I've done a lot of traveling,

780
00:57:48.400 --> 00:57:54.440
A lot of traveling and I worked it out the

781
00:57:54.519 --> 00:57:57.639
other day with yesterday that I think I've been out

782
00:57:57.880 --> 00:58:09.360
more in the last nine days, like probably than I

783
00:58:09.440 --> 00:58:14.960
have done in the last two years, maybe three years,

784
00:58:17.280 --> 00:58:18.440
maybe two years.

785
00:58:21.920 --> 00:58:30.599
Actually leave in the area that I live. Yees oh wait,

786
00:58:30.639 --> 00:58:33.039
wait a minute. In January, didn't I did? Did I

787
00:58:33.840 --> 00:58:34.760
jiu jitsu? Didn't I?

788
00:58:35.280 --> 00:58:37.079
So I went there a few times or a couple

789
00:58:37.119 --> 00:58:41.880
of times. That's two journeys out.

790
00:58:49.199 --> 00:58:53.639
Hm hmm. That was in the winter. It was cold.

791
00:58:54.440 --> 00:59:01.719
It was cold. It's really I try not to moan

792
00:59:01.760 --> 00:59:07.559
too much about the weather. The only weather that annoys me, well,

793
00:59:07.599 --> 00:59:11.960
the only okay, the only weather that affects me really

794
00:59:13.199 --> 00:59:21.320
is rain, just because of this little one. And he

795
00:59:21.519 --> 00:59:29.079
just refuses if it's raining, he refuses to do his business.

796
00:59:30.320 --> 00:59:34.079
Quickly. It's almost like he wants to take his time. Now.

797
00:59:34.159 --> 00:59:36.960
In reality, he might just be doing exactly what he

798
00:59:37.000 --> 00:59:42.199
normally does. But I'm getting wet and I don't want

799
00:59:42.199 --> 00:59:45.639
to get wet or the rain when it's windy as well,

800
00:59:45.679 --> 00:59:50.239
so I can't use me bolli, so the umbrella can't

801
00:59:50.239 --> 00:59:53.000
be used. It's just.

802
00:59:54.639 --> 01:00:03.159
Okay, yeah, especially at night, so I can't see anything much.

803
01:00:04.719 --> 01:00:09.400
It's raining and it's windy, or even if it's raining,

804
01:00:10.000 --> 01:00:12.559
and then I've got so.

805
01:00:12.519 --> 01:00:13.360
I've got my torch.

806
01:00:13.440 --> 01:00:15.000
My torch is broken, so I have to get a

807
01:00:15.039 --> 01:00:21.360
new torch. As holding a torch, holding a brolley and

808
01:00:21.400 --> 01:00:26.840
trying to steer this little one and pick up his

809
01:00:26.920 --> 01:00:33.119
bits and bobs after he's sprinkle them onto the floor,

810
01:00:33.719 --> 01:00:35.239
let them fall down like.

811
01:00:37.159 --> 01:00:44.599
Little anchors. Have a little boat fill. His poos are

812
01:00:44.719 --> 01:00:53.840
very much like angers. Yeah, it's something I didn't realize.

813
01:00:54.079 --> 01:00:56.840
I was watching Words or Gummage earlier, and it was

814
01:00:56.880 --> 01:01:00.719
the original words are coming from the probably early eighties,

815
01:01:02.039 --> 01:01:09.280
late seventies, early eighties, And there was another character in

816
01:01:09.360 --> 01:01:11.360
it that I'd not seen before, or at least i'd

817
01:01:11.400 --> 01:01:15.599
forgotten about, and it was Barbara Windsor. She was like

818
01:01:15.639 --> 01:01:21.599
this porcelain statue and Barbara Windsor, I mean, she looked

819
01:01:21.639 --> 01:01:29.599
young there and she would have been I mean, she

820
01:01:29.639 --> 01:01:31.280
wasn't old, but she would have probably been in her

821
01:01:31.320 --> 01:01:35.960
forties at that point. But she just looked so young

822
01:01:37.760 --> 01:01:40.159
and because she I wait a minute, no, she was

823
01:01:40.199 --> 01:01:45.920
in Was she in the carry On movies in the

824
01:01:46.000 --> 01:01:50.119
sixties or was the seventies that Barbara Windsor was in

825
01:01:50.119 --> 01:01:58.800
the carry On movies. I'm not sure because yeah, she

826
01:01:58.880 --> 01:02:04.159
might have just been still in a thirties. She just

827
01:02:04.239 --> 01:02:04.920
looked so young.

828
01:02:05.000 --> 01:02:07.920
I had not seen her outside of the carry On movies.

829
01:02:08.239 --> 01:02:12.599
I'd not seen Barbara Windsor look young like that kind

830
01:02:12.639 --> 01:02:17.119
of you know, young, because when she was in EastEnders

831
01:02:17.679 --> 01:02:22.639
she was a lot older, and she was probably in

832
01:02:22.679 --> 01:02:26.760
her seventies, sixties and seventies or whatever, fifties, sixties, seventies.

833
01:02:29.639 --> 01:02:34.519
I've forgotten, like what she looked like. I've never seen her.

834
01:02:34.880 --> 01:02:36.039
It was out of context.

835
01:02:36.440 --> 01:02:38.760
I've seen her in two different places, the carry On

836
01:02:38.840 --> 01:02:45.280
Movies and EastEnders, and there was many years between them.

837
01:02:45.679 --> 01:02:47.320
Never seen her in anything else.

838
01:02:48.719 --> 01:02:52.320
So this is the first time and I was like, wow, okay,

839
01:02:53.199 --> 01:02:56.119
that's the Barbara winds I remember from the carry On movies.

840
01:03:00.000 --> 01:03:00.880
It's for me nothing.

841
01:03:00.920 --> 01:03:04.960
If you don't know who Barbara Windsor is, and if

842
01:03:04.960 --> 01:03:06.840
you don't know what to carry On movies.

843
01:03:06.559 --> 01:03:12.199
Are, and they are a I haven't. I had to

844
01:03:12.239 --> 01:03:22.039
explain it. Really, they are a heritage from this country.

845
01:03:24.480 --> 01:03:26.920
They were they.

846
01:03:26.840 --> 01:03:31.079
Were comedy comedy movies, and I love them. I still

847
01:03:31.119 --> 01:03:32.480
love them.

848
01:03:32.960 --> 01:03:35.719
Not everyone's cup of tea, of course, never no one

849
01:03:36.079 --> 01:03:38.480
and no one, no one's ever going to love everything

850
01:03:38.639 --> 01:03:42.320
they By the way, I watched a movie called The Amateur,

851
01:03:45.360 --> 01:03:52.559
and it's really good. It's really good. It's got I

852
01:03:52.559 --> 01:03:53.480
can't remember his name.

853
01:03:57.079 --> 01:04:00.000
It's got quite a few famous people, quite yeah, quite

854
01:04:00.000 --> 01:04:01.239
a few big names in it.

855
01:04:01.239 --> 01:04:02.840
It's really good movie.

856
01:04:03.239 --> 01:04:06.320
Unfortunately, I think the problem with some of these movies

857
01:04:06.400 --> 01:04:11.039
that are coming out is the titles. The titles don't

858
01:04:11.039 --> 01:04:13.400
give away really. I mean it does, I guess if

859
01:04:13.400 --> 01:04:16.800
you think about it. But now seeing it, The Amateur

860
01:04:16.920 --> 01:04:23.119
makes kind of sense. But it's all like espionage, and

861
01:04:23.199 --> 01:04:24.679
that doesn't really interest me.

862
01:04:26.440 --> 01:04:35.199
So much, you know. But it's really good, really good. Yeah,

863
01:04:35.320 --> 01:04:42.480
I liked it. And I find myself not watching movies

864
01:04:42.559 --> 01:04:48.480
because they just don't look a bit bland. Like the cover.

865
01:04:49.199 --> 01:04:55.920
The descripture doesn't even sound interesting. Nice playing going past.

866
01:05:01.079 --> 01:05:02.960
I did watch a movie the other day called, I

867
01:05:03.000 --> 01:05:11.360
think it's called The Death of Stalin, very funny. Amando Nucci,

868
01:05:11.760 --> 01:05:18.400
I think is the person that wrote it. Amando Amando A.

869
01:05:18.440 --> 01:05:24.039
Nucci. I think that's his name, is phenomenal. I think

870
01:05:24.079 --> 01:05:26.000
he wrote in the thick of It or the thick

871
01:05:26.039 --> 01:05:32.000
of It, it's very, very funny, bloke, great writer and.

872
01:05:33.639 --> 01:05:37.800
Very different from anything. I think he's got a different

873
01:05:37.840 --> 01:05:43.039
way of looking at the world to any other writer or.

874
01:05:45.559 --> 01:05:46.840
Producer that I've seen.

875
01:05:47.480 --> 01:05:51.960
I don't know if he produced it, but he wrote it.

876
01:05:51.960 --> 01:05:56.679
It's really good. It's very funny. It's just and because

877
01:05:56.679 --> 01:05:59.880
they didn't do you know, when they do movies and

878
01:06:00.159 --> 01:06:03.920
they have they put on accents and stuff like that.

879
01:06:04.239 --> 01:06:08.840
They didn't bother with this. They didn't need it, and

880
01:06:08.880 --> 01:06:10.440
I don't think it's needed.

881
01:06:11.719 --> 01:06:12.079
Really.

882
01:06:13.679 --> 01:06:19.159
I know some some producers or directors are looking for

883
01:06:19.239 --> 01:06:26.159
some kind of authenticity, so they'll, you know, they'll have

884
01:06:27.199 --> 01:06:32.519
try and put on foreign accents. And this didn't even bother,

885
01:06:32.800 --> 01:06:37.639
even Starling. Starling himself was a company, like a Londoner.

886
01:06:39.800 --> 01:06:40.760
And it was funny.

887
01:06:40.840 --> 01:06:44.760
It's just it's great.

888
01:06:45.280 --> 01:06:49.159
It's a really, really, really good movie. I started to

889
01:06:49.199 --> 01:06:52.239
watch it years ago because not a new one started

890
01:06:52.239 --> 01:06:53.639
to watch it years ago, but I didn't.

891
01:06:54.840 --> 01:06:55.239
I don't know.

892
01:06:55.679 --> 01:06:59.719
Sometimes I'm not in the mood and I just give

893
01:06:59.800 --> 01:07:03.199
up watching something because it doesn't it doesn't catch me,

894
01:07:03.239 --> 01:07:04.280
it doesn't grab me.

895
01:07:07.559 --> 01:07:09.320
I'd tell you a couple of things were like that.

896
01:07:09.559 --> 01:07:16.519
One was You're gonna be surprised at this Sopranos.

897
01:07:17.920 --> 01:07:21.880
I thought it was a part of poo poop when

898
01:07:21.920 --> 01:07:24.360
it first came out. Watch a little bit of it,

899
01:07:24.440 --> 01:07:29.159
and I thought, naw, see you, I don't want anything

900
01:07:29.159 --> 01:07:31.480
to do with it. I thought, oh god, this is boring.

901
01:07:31.639 --> 01:07:35.960
It's just another one, another Robert de Niro Want to

902
01:07:36.000 --> 01:07:40.320
Be movie. You know, It's like, nah, it's being done

903
01:07:40.360 --> 01:07:44.360
to death. It ended up being one of my favorite

904
01:07:44.400 --> 01:07:50.079
TV shows probably ever, because it was a great show.

905
01:07:50.239 --> 01:07:54.159
I mean arguably by millions of people that loved it.

906
01:07:54.719 --> 01:07:59.719
I just at just the start, I just thought, and

907
01:07:59.800 --> 01:08:03.480
it was really promoted. It was, you know, this big thing.

908
01:08:03.519 --> 01:08:07.599
I watched a new TV show, The Soprano's new HBO show.

909
01:08:08.400 --> 01:08:11.000
It's going to be on Channel four on Sunday nights,

910
01:08:11.000 --> 01:08:18.560
starting with a double episode for Nyeah. Now you're right,

911
01:08:19.920 --> 01:08:22.920
And then I ended up watching it for what ten

912
01:08:23.000 --> 01:08:29.479
eleven years whatever it was on. Yeah. Wow. It started

913
01:08:29.520 --> 01:08:35.119
when I was in London, started when I was in London,

914
01:08:35.520 --> 01:08:39.359
and it finished when I was I think in the

915
01:08:39.479 --> 01:08:44.000
last the last year of university or the second year

916
01:08:44.000 --> 01:08:57.479
of university. That's crazy in it. Apologies for the squeaky

917
01:08:57.560 --> 01:09:05.199
sounds in the background to neighbors. I think it's quite

918
01:09:05.239 --> 01:09:08.079
a little echoy area dout there. That's what it was.

919
01:09:10.279 --> 01:09:11.199
I don't think it's so.

920
01:09:11.239 --> 01:09:14.319
Much that people are talking really loudly. They are, but

921
01:09:14.359 --> 01:09:16.640
I don't think it's it's I don't think they're talking.

922
01:09:17.159 --> 01:09:19.000
I think they probably just talking normal volume.

923
01:09:19.239 --> 01:09:19.760
No they're not.

924
01:09:20.520 --> 01:09:24.239
It's echoy. So it's like a little echo chamber. And

925
01:09:27.359 --> 01:09:30.159
we have a similar thing in this garden, but it

926
01:09:30.239 --> 01:09:34.720
seems to catch the wind sometimes, like the wind seems

927
01:09:34.760 --> 01:09:45.199
to move around the garden. M Another TV show was

928
01:09:46.039 --> 01:09:52.319
I tried to watch this multiple times. It was The

929
01:09:52.399 --> 01:09:56.079
Walking Dead. I tried to watch it and I only

930
01:09:56.119 --> 01:09:58.840
got as far as there's the beginning of heart. I'm

931
01:09:58.840 --> 01:10:00.479
not going to spoil it, really, I just tell you

932
01:10:00.880 --> 01:10:04.439
he wakes up in a hospital and he walked out

933
01:10:04.479 --> 01:10:09.039
of the hospital and then he sees her there were

934
01:10:09.239 --> 01:10:13.279
the first zombie or whatever, and I just turned it off.

935
01:10:14.119 --> 01:10:19.119
I just got off board. I tried to watch it

936
01:10:19.119 --> 01:10:20.000
probably about.

937
01:10:19.720 --> 01:10:23.319
Five six times, thinking to myself, well, this is a

938
01:10:23.359 --> 01:10:26.840
popular TV show, I should really give it another go.

939
01:10:28.039 --> 01:10:32.680
And at this point I think there's probably into season

940
01:10:33.800 --> 01:10:36.399
three at that time.

941
01:10:36.479 --> 01:10:41.199
Because I hadn't yeah, because I hadn't had any decent

942
01:10:41.279 --> 01:10:46.800
internet that was even fast enough to stream Netflix at

943
01:10:46.800 --> 01:10:50.479
that time, and back then, Netflix was pretty much the

944
01:10:51.119 --> 01:10:55.560
I think Amazon was around as well, but they were

945
01:10:55.600 --> 01:10:59.000
the two main ones, Amazon and Netflix. There was no

946
01:10:59.159 --> 01:11:02.920
Apple Teeth, there was no now TV I don't think

947
01:11:03.159 --> 01:11:13.199
which was Sky, and there was no Paramount streaming, and

948
01:11:13.399 --> 01:11:18.279
there would have been no Disney Plus streaming, so it's

949
01:11:19.479 --> 01:11:23.960
MGM streaming, so it's kind of a bit limited. Netflix

950
01:11:24.039 --> 01:11:25.199
was pretty much the main.

951
01:11:25.039 --> 01:11:30.680
One, and apparently I only needed five megabytes a second

952
01:11:31.279 --> 01:11:33.840
to stream Netflix and I didn't. My internet didn't even

953
01:11:33.920 --> 01:11:43.479
cover that. It's like wow. So it wasn't really until

954
01:11:43.960 --> 01:11:50.159
I I think I moved in here that I started

955
01:11:50.159 --> 01:11:53.239
watching The Walking Dead.

956
01:11:58.119 --> 01:12:01.680
Unless I did, I maybe downloaded it, I can't remember.

957
01:12:02.319 --> 01:12:07.479
I know I downloaded all of the episodes of Frasier.

958
01:12:08.199 --> 01:12:12.479
I think I downloaded all the episodes of Cheers and

959
01:12:12.840 --> 01:12:15.039
I watched them every day.

960
01:12:15.239 --> 01:12:18.880
This was during the period when I was I suppose.

961
01:12:20.960 --> 01:12:27.239
Probably waiting for this place, that year two year period

962
01:12:27.359 --> 01:12:32.319
when I was kind of in a bit of a

963
01:12:32.319 --> 01:12:43.119
limbo LIMBOI period. Yeah, I watched every single episode of Frasier.

964
01:12:44.079 --> 01:12:46.039
I think I probably watched a couple of episodes a

965
01:12:46.119 --> 01:12:53.960
day while I was having breakfast, And I don't think

966
01:12:54.039 --> 01:13:01.760
I even had a television at that time, which is weird.

967
01:13:05.159 --> 01:13:07.920
No, I must have had a television. How could I

968
01:13:07.960 --> 01:13:11.359
not have had a television. I think I did. Yeah,

969
01:13:11.399 --> 01:13:12.560
I did have a television.

970
01:13:16.720 --> 01:13:26.880
Yeah.

971
01:13:27.039 --> 01:13:43.199
Another one was what's his name? Hear the sounds? I

972
01:13:43.199 --> 01:13:47.359
don't know if you can hear them. I'm not I

973
01:13:47.399 --> 01:13:49.439
can hear them, so I mentioned you can hear it

974
01:13:49.479 --> 01:13:57.960
will be less. Why they shouted? I sometimes think that

975
01:13:58.000 --> 01:13:59.960
the adults are just saying to the kids, shout now

976
01:14:00.119 --> 01:14:06.359
on he's making a podcast up there, shall because they're bored.

977
01:14:07.840 --> 01:14:17.119
But I'm probably just imagining that. Maybe there was. Remember

978
01:14:17.279 --> 01:14:19.560
when I first moved in there, there was a little

979
01:14:19.560 --> 01:14:23.680
bit of a neighborly dispute going on between this bloke

980
01:14:23.720 --> 01:14:27.479
that lived downstairs and the bloke that lived upstairs and

981
01:14:27.560 --> 01:14:33.680
the bloke lived downstairs. I had a few friends, like

982
01:14:33.840 --> 01:14:37.479
other neighbors, and they were literally standing outside. This is

983
01:14:37.520 --> 01:14:44.119
early in the morning, and you know those things that

984
01:14:44.199 --> 01:14:48.920
go bang, you know, like little gunpowder, a little gunpowder

985
01:14:49.239 --> 01:14:51.239
packages and you used to chuck them on the floor

986
01:14:51.239 --> 01:14:55.720
and they go bang, but were really loud. They had

987
01:14:55.760 --> 01:14:57.560
them and they were chucking them up at his window,

988
01:14:58.720 --> 01:15:06.520
those bedroom window. And that was quite early on when

989
01:15:06.520 --> 01:15:13.960
I first moved in. And that's when I realized what

990
01:15:14.039 --> 01:15:16.960
I've done, because.

991
01:15:19.000 --> 01:15:22.079
That is the mentality of some of the people that

992
01:15:22.159 --> 01:15:27.960
have lived around it, because it's very That's not adult behavior,

993
01:15:28.039 --> 01:15:28.239
is it.

994
01:15:31.920 --> 01:15:38.399
And I thought, wow, that's very stray.

995
01:15:38.640 --> 01:15:40.760
I'll tell you one day, because I don't really tell

996
01:15:40.800 --> 01:15:44.439
I don't talk about what's happened around it. One day,

997
01:15:45.960 --> 01:15:48.199
I need to write a little book.

998
01:15:48.960 --> 01:15:51.319
I'll do it vaguely. I'm not going to just mention

999
01:15:51.439 --> 01:15:52.199
anyone's names.

1000
01:15:52.239 --> 01:15:56.199
The fact I can't remember anyone's names anyway, because they're

1001
01:15:56.239 --> 01:15:57.560
just people have come and gone.

1002
01:15:58.720 --> 01:16:03.239
Some of the things I've seen, Wow, some of the

1003
01:16:03.279 --> 01:16:09.680
things you wouldn't believe it. I saw a couple of

1004
01:16:09.680 --> 01:16:13.520
neighbors getting to punch up os and frozen sausages. Hm,

1005
01:16:14.079 --> 01:16:18.840
it's true. Wow. Uh.

1006
01:16:21.239 --> 01:16:25.119
I remember once my friend downstairs, he came home. He

1007
01:16:25.199 --> 01:16:27.520
was with his cousin and his cousin's.

1008
01:16:27.199 --> 01:16:31.520
Kid, but he was a little bit worse for where

1009
01:16:31.720 --> 01:16:36.079
before he even went out, he got escorted back by

1010
01:16:36.119 --> 01:16:40.760
the police. We got brought back by the police. And

1011
01:16:45.159 --> 01:16:45.920
I think.

1012
01:16:45.680 --> 01:16:49.640
This is before I got finny, but yeah, I'm not

1013
01:16:49.680 --> 01:16:52.479
sure I think it was yet. It would have probably

1014
01:16:52.479 --> 01:16:59.039
been before that. So my friend was telling me he

1015
01:16:59.119 --> 01:17:01.119
was a little bit bruied. So he said that he

1016
01:17:01.159 --> 01:17:08.960
got started on by there was like six blokes and

1017
01:17:09.279 --> 01:17:11.680
this is him outside. So he's outside the police car.

1018
01:17:11.840 --> 01:17:13.640
He's not in trouble or anything. The police had brought

1019
01:17:13.720 --> 01:17:17.319
him home. So I think he was struggling to really function,

1020
01:17:21.039 --> 01:17:22.840
and I think he just went up to them and

1021
01:17:23.000 --> 01:17:26.760
just they didn't like him approaching them or something.

1022
01:17:26.800 --> 01:17:31.479
I don't know. And yeah, well.

1023
01:17:33.359 --> 01:17:35.600
We stopped a few because he could he was struggling

1024
01:17:35.600 --> 01:17:37.920
to walk. It was because of what he had ingested,

1025
01:17:38.439 --> 01:17:41.399
whether it was alcohol or whatever. So he was very

1026
01:17:41.760 --> 01:17:44.760
worse aware as I said. So we were stopping.

1027
01:17:46.159 --> 01:17:51.800
Every few seconds, and he teld me this story. It'd

1028
01:17:51.840 --> 01:17:55.760
tell it over again, and it'd changed every time. By

1029
01:17:55.800 --> 01:17:59.319
the time we got inside his flat, there were thirty

1030
01:17:59.399 --> 01:18:04.720
men that started on him in the park, three hundred.

1031
01:18:05.560 --> 01:18:13.239
It just kept expanding, so, you know, I don't know,

1032
01:18:13.279 --> 01:18:15.119
I don't know what he was talking about. An end,

1033
01:18:15.920 --> 01:18:19.000
it was funny, you know, started off at six, ended

1034
01:18:19.039 --> 01:18:23.880
up at thirty, and it started off there was six

1035
01:18:24.399 --> 01:18:30.520
teenagers that were just being a bit obnoxious, and then

1036
01:18:30.560 --> 01:18:35.800
it ended up being like thirty raw marines in tanks.

1037
01:18:37.000 --> 01:18:42.640
It was like, what the heck's going on here? I

1038
01:18:42.640 --> 01:18:47.199
remember the only time because he used to love to lie,

1039
01:18:48.079 --> 01:18:53.039
but sometimes it was obvious. Sometimes it was less obvious,

1040
01:18:53.119 --> 01:18:54.920
and we'd laugh at stuff, you know.

1041
01:18:55.640 --> 01:18:58.000
But remember once he said something and I said, I'm

1042
01:18:58.039 --> 01:19:02.920
calling bs on that, and he couldn't stop laughing because

1043
01:19:02.960 --> 01:19:04.760
he wasn't used to people standing up to him to

1044
01:19:04.800 --> 01:19:07.600
be I think, like pulling it or pulling him up on.

1045
01:19:07.640 --> 01:19:08.359
Stuff like that.

1046
01:19:08.880 --> 01:19:13.479
But it was so ridiculous what he said, because I knew,

1047
01:19:14.319 --> 01:19:17.359
I literally knew the truth, I knew what was what.

1048
01:19:19.920 --> 01:19:20.640
I wasn't in the.

1049
01:19:20.600 --> 01:19:23.800
Mood for just going along with it. You know, sometimes

1050
01:19:23.840 --> 01:19:25.279
I just go along with it just for the sake

1051
01:19:25.319 --> 01:19:28.319
of it. It was easier if it depended on how

1052
01:19:28.359 --> 01:19:30.479
he was, what his mood was like, or what my

1053
01:19:30.600 --> 01:19:33.880
mood was like. But on that occasion, my mood wasn't

1054
01:19:34.640 --> 01:19:37.399
prepared to put up with it. And I said, I'm

1055
01:19:37.479 --> 01:19:41.199
calling BS on that. That might not be in the

1056
01:19:41.239 --> 01:19:45.479
words I used, but you know, and he just stopped

1057
01:19:45.520 --> 01:19:49.239
and looked at me, and literally he couldn't stop laughing.

1058
01:19:49.399 --> 01:19:50.800
It was just because.

1059
01:19:53.000 --> 01:19:54.800
He said, you don't normally say stuff like that to me.

1060
01:19:54.840 --> 01:19:57.079
I said, I know, but come on, I kind of bothered.

1061
01:19:57.720 --> 01:20:01.960
He's just talking rubbish, absolutely rubbish, and he.

1062
01:20:02.039 --> 01:20:06.119
Just said I know, but he just I don't know.

1063
01:20:06.159 --> 01:20:09.720
It's a very funny moment, a very funny moment. There

1064
01:20:09.760 --> 01:20:14.159
was another time with him, So we had another friend

1065
01:20:14.520 --> 01:20:17.319
who I'm still friends with, who came.

1066
01:20:17.119 --> 01:20:21.760
In here and he I think we was watching boxing.

1067
01:20:22.399 --> 01:20:24.359
Very likely it was boxing, because.

1068
01:20:26.359 --> 01:20:30.399
That was often the only time that Saturday evening where

1069
01:20:30.479 --> 01:20:35.119
my friend would be upstairs with me because normally, well

1070
01:20:35.159 --> 01:20:38.239
normally on a Saturday night, I watched boxing or I'm

1071
01:20:38.359 --> 01:20:39.000
left alone.

1072
01:20:39.359 --> 01:20:41.359
So if he's up here, it's usually because boxing's on

1073
01:20:42.960 --> 01:20:45.159
or when he was around is.

1074
01:20:46.800 --> 01:20:50.880
So my other friend comes up, well, it's more he

1075
01:20:50.960 --> 01:20:53.119
was like mutual friend of both of us and other neighbors.

1076
01:20:53.119 --> 01:20:53.760
So he came in.

1077
01:20:54.000 --> 01:20:56.439
He was just sitting next to me and he said,

1078
01:20:57.000 --> 01:20:59.800
I was sitting at my table, he was sitting on

1079
01:20:59.840 --> 01:21:01.760
him here, and.

1080
01:21:03.359 --> 01:21:06.319
My other friend, my friend downstairs, was sitting on a

1081
01:21:06.399 --> 01:21:13.039
chair over there. So the new friend that just come in,

1082
01:21:13.119 --> 01:21:15.680
he said, oh you O k if I if I

1083
01:21:15.960 --> 01:21:23.159
light up A A j O, I n T.

1084
01:21:28.279 --> 01:21:37.039
It rhymes with point point point shoint looint point. I

1085
01:21:37.079 --> 01:21:39.159
can't think of a word that is a proper word

1086
01:21:39.199 --> 01:21:47.560
that rhymes like that. Point hmmm, point point that said

1087
01:21:47.640 --> 01:21:51.239
rhymes of point anyway, I said.

1088
01:21:51.039 --> 01:21:53.239
Yeah, I suppose, I don't care.

1089
01:21:56.399 --> 01:21:58.199
I think he was just sitting there having a beer

1090
01:21:58.239 --> 01:22:04.399
and I was sitting there, probably drinking cocaine cola. And

1091
01:22:04.560 --> 01:22:08.000
this stuff was so pungent because I don't I don't

1092
01:22:08.039 --> 01:22:13.439
touch that stuff, and he's like so pungent, and I was,

1093
01:22:13.760 --> 01:22:21.279
I was coughing a little bit. He he my friend

1094
01:22:21.319 --> 01:22:24.840
downstairs away was like looking at me like, oh, it's

1095
01:22:24.920 --> 01:22:31.600
awful smell. So my friend with the with thing the

1096
01:22:31.680 --> 01:22:35.000
rhymes with point, he said, kind of borrow the toilet.

1097
01:22:35.119 --> 01:22:36.920
I said, as long as you give it back.

1098
01:22:37.079 --> 01:22:40.279
We all laughed and he said okay, So he went

1099
01:22:40.319 --> 01:22:41.399
to a toilet.

1100
01:22:43.039 --> 01:22:44.319
Luke, my mother friend.

1101
01:22:44.159 --> 01:22:47.239
From downstairs, he said to me, you can't please ask

1102
01:22:47.319 --> 01:22:50.039
him just to put that out is making me choke,

1103
01:22:50.960 --> 01:22:54.279
because Luke did have really bad lungs. Anyway, he had

1104
01:22:55.720 --> 01:23:01.520
I don't know asthma, and I see per COPD whatever.

1105
01:23:02.239 --> 01:23:05.039
So he said, can you ask him to put it

1106
01:23:05.079 --> 01:23:10.000
out because I just can't struggling to breathe with that

1107
01:23:10.079 --> 01:23:11.279
thing on there, and I.

1108
01:23:11.199 --> 01:23:13.399
Want to watch the boxing. We had the windows open

1109
01:23:13.439 --> 01:23:16.279
and everything, but it was just too much. So I said,

1110
01:23:16.279 --> 01:23:18.199
all right, I'll ask him.

1111
01:23:18.399 --> 01:23:21.319
So he comes out of the toilet and he sits

1112
01:23:21.359 --> 01:23:24.159
down and says, I don't mean to be rude or anything,

1113
01:23:24.159 --> 01:23:27.359
but are you okay to maybe smoke down in the

1114
01:23:27.479 --> 01:23:30.159
kitchen or put it out or maybe go in the

1115
01:23:30.159 --> 01:23:33.760
garden because it's a bit too pungent, too a bit

1116
01:23:33.800 --> 01:23:36.560
too smoky.

1117
01:23:37.520 --> 01:23:39.800
So he was fine with me. He said, that's that's okay,

1118
01:23:39.800 --> 01:23:44.920
that's fine, Luke. Luke pipes up. He says, I really,

1119
01:23:44.960 --> 01:23:46.680
I'm fine with it. It's okay with me. It's not

1120
01:23:46.720 --> 01:23:54.239
bothering me. And he looks at me and smiles. It's

1121
01:23:54.279 --> 01:23:57.600
almost like he did it purposely, just to make me

1122
01:23:57.720 --> 01:24:03.960
look silly. I didn't, I didn't say anything. I was like,

1123
01:24:04.479 --> 01:24:09.680
just shook my head. I can't believe. And then we

1124
01:24:09.720 --> 01:24:12.079
watched the box and he kept looking over and smiling

1125
01:24:12.079 --> 01:24:15.439
at me because he was so pleased with himself. And

1126
01:24:15.479 --> 01:24:21.079
when the other neighbor left. The other neighbor left, Luke

1127
01:24:21.159 --> 01:24:24.239
started laughing because he was holding the laughter in right away.

1128
01:24:24.359 --> 01:24:28.199
He's like giggling to herself and they started laughing as

1129
01:24:28.239 --> 01:24:32.119
soon as my other neighbor left because he could have

1130
01:24:32.279 --> 01:24:34.439
a boxing finished or he had to go and do something.

1131
01:24:36.600 --> 01:24:41.359
And I've told that neighbor since because since Luke passed,

1132
01:24:41.560 --> 01:24:44.880
or when he'd left, I told the other that neighbor

1133
01:24:44.920 --> 01:24:47.439
about the story. He found it funny.

1134
01:24:47.720 --> 01:24:52.640
Because it's just it's how how Luke was. He's just

1135
01:24:52.720 --> 01:24:57.960
had that his sense of humor was. It was just

1136
01:24:58.119 --> 01:25:01.039
it was a funny moment. That's one of my one

1137
01:25:01.039 --> 01:25:05.279
of my fond memories. Actually, another one was when the

1138
01:25:05.319 --> 01:25:09.960
same neighbor actually he spent the summer living in Luke's

1139
01:25:10.000 --> 01:25:13.600
flat because he had some problems. He had his own flat,

1140
01:25:13.640 --> 01:25:17.039
but he he Luke was kind of looking after him really,

1141
01:25:17.640 --> 01:25:21.000
sort of emotionally, and they're spending time with him, and

1142
01:25:24.239 --> 01:25:31.439
another neighbor opposite in the building opposite was mowing the

1143
01:25:31.560 --> 01:25:35.479
lawn and apparently this is what happened. Luke puts his

1144
01:25:35.600 --> 01:25:39.479
head out out of the window says, excusing, mate, I

1145
01:25:39.479 --> 01:25:42.119
suppose you could just hold off doing that for a

1146
01:25:42.159 --> 01:25:44.279
little while, because I've only just got into sleep.

1147
01:25:45.039 --> 01:25:47.279
So the neighbor came over, thinking it was a baby.

1148
01:25:47.319 --> 01:25:49.960
He looked through the window and there's a fully grown

1149
01:25:50.000 --> 01:25:51.520
man on the sofa asleep.

1150
01:25:54.119 --> 01:26:00.079
And they both started laughing. The neighbors started laughing. And

1151
01:26:00.520 --> 01:26:03.079
it's when I.

1152
01:26:03.079 --> 01:26:06.159
Was down there when this happened, and when when Luke

1153
01:26:06.239 --> 01:26:06.600
told me.

1154
01:26:06.760 --> 01:26:08.840
Honestly, it was one of the funniest things I heard

1155
01:26:08.880 --> 01:26:12.960
for a long time, because it was so ridiculous, like, oh,

1156
01:26:12.960 --> 01:26:14.560
can you keep it quiet. I've just got him off

1157
01:26:14.560 --> 01:26:17.119
to sleep, Like you don't think that's going to be

1158
01:26:17.119 --> 01:26:21.680
a grown man, a grown adult asleep on the sofa

1159
01:26:22.119 --> 01:26:25.239
when you say that, And I've just got him off

1160
01:26:25.279 --> 01:26:29.399
to sleep, like it'd be like cradling him and singing

1161
01:26:29.600 --> 01:26:35.039
sort of bedtime stories to him or something, lullabies.

1162
01:26:36.920 --> 01:26:38.960
I'll tell one maybe that as well. He found it funny.

1163
01:26:39.520 --> 01:26:40.640
So it is this.

1164
01:26:41.399 --> 01:26:45.920
It's weird because those two stories were kind of a

1165
01:26:46.000 --> 01:26:49.279
connection with that other neighbor. There's always going to be there,

1166
01:26:50.399 --> 01:26:57.119
however strange that might be. It's there's that connection because

1167
01:26:57.199 --> 01:27:00.880
we were both friends with Luke, and.

1168
01:27:03.600 --> 01:27:06.319
Yeah, Luke was kind of just looking out for him

1169
01:27:06.359 --> 01:27:16.399
for that summer. Yeah, wow, I don't know what I'm

1170
01:27:16.439 --> 01:27:26.000
talking about him. Mister Lukey, baby, I got a.

1171
01:27:28.640 --> 01:27:34.560
Thing in the winter, like before Christmas, and it was

1172
01:27:34.600 --> 01:27:38.359
going to be dangling on the tree outside because Luke

1173
01:27:38.479 --> 01:27:42.000
planted the Christmas tree that's in the front garden. It's

1174
01:27:42.039 --> 01:27:44.159
now as big as the building. But it was a

1175
01:27:44.159 --> 01:27:48.000
little sapling when he planted it, and it's grown to

1176
01:27:48.079 --> 01:27:57.000
be massive, so he is as funny as it grew.

1177
01:27:57.880 --> 01:28:04.159
Once he got above the length of the surrounding bushes

1178
01:28:04.600 --> 01:28:10.920
that are trimmed, the council kept coming out and starting

1179
01:28:11.000 --> 01:28:13.800
to trim the tree. So every time the trimmers were out,

1180
01:28:14.079 --> 01:28:15.960
Luke could rune out and say, don't touch the tree.

1181
01:28:16.960 --> 01:28:20.359
Don't touch the tree. And he did that for years,

1182
01:28:20.520 --> 01:28:22.720
don't touch the tree. And then the tree got too

1183
01:28:22.720 --> 01:28:24.760
big and everyone left the tree alone and they kind

1184
01:28:24.760 --> 01:28:28.079
of got to know. And now it is nearly as

1185
01:28:28.119 --> 01:28:31.119
tall as the building. So I kind of look at

1186
01:28:31.119 --> 01:28:33.560
that tree and I think of him because I know

1187
01:28:33.640 --> 01:28:37.399
that he planted it, and I was. I mean, he

1188
01:28:37.439 --> 01:28:40.800
planted it before I was even here, because he'd lived

1189
01:28:40.840 --> 01:28:44.520
there a couple of years before me, maybe three years

1190
01:28:44.520 --> 01:28:51.479
before me, so he'd already planted that. Yeah, he must

1191
01:28:51.479 --> 01:29:01.840
have been because he'd lived there for twelve years. Wow, so yeah,

1192
01:29:01.920 --> 01:29:05.119
maybe more than maybe more than two years before me.

1193
01:29:08.520 --> 01:29:10.239
I think he might have lived here for four or

1194
01:29:10.239 --> 01:29:18.600
five years before I got here. Yeah, maybe it's I

1195
01:29:18.640 --> 01:29:21.600
can't I could find out, but I don't know exactly.

1196
01:29:23.079 --> 01:29:24.039
It's not really important.

1197
01:29:24.079 --> 01:29:28.199
As I suppose my neighbor that's in hospital, he's been

1198
01:29:28.279 --> 01:29:33.359
here since about nineteen ninety nine, which if I do remember,

1199
01:29:33.399 --> 01:29:39.800
it's about the same time as a soprano starting roughly roughly,

1200
01:29:45.359 --> 01:29:46.399
that's a long time.

1201
01:29:47.680 --> 01:29:48.199
It's a lot.

1202
01:29:48.279 --> 01:29:50.600
It doesn't seem like a long time, but it does

1203
01:29:50.640 --> 01:29:54.319
as well. At the same time, how many times can

1204
01:29:54.359 --> 01:30:00.479
I say in the sentence times, time, time, time, A

1205
01:30:00.520 --> 01:30:01.319
lot's happened.

1206
01:30:03.840 --> 01:30:12.279
But then what is it now? Twenty nine, thirty nine,

1207
01:30:12.359 --> 01:30:19.720
forty nine fifty nine, So it's twenty twenty six years.

1208
01:30:21.159 --> 01:30:26.960
Because that period was potentially the highlight of my life,

1209
01:30:27.119 --> 01:30:31.319
of my adult life kind of. It was one of

1210
01:30:31.359 --> 01:30:35.800
the best periods of my life between the ages of

1211
01:30:39.279 --> 01:30:49.399
I'd say probably January nineteen ninety eight and two thousand

1212
01:30:49.920 --> 01:30:53.680
and one. Once it got to two thousand and one,

1213
01:30:53.800 --> 01:30:59.159
things when a little bit eerie, not eerie, bit bit

1214
01:31:00.159 --> 01:31:10.720
not so great, but eighty eight, eighty nine, ninety nine,

1215
01:31:11.159 --> 01:31:19.920
two thousand, eighty ninety seven, ninety eight, ninety nine, two thousand,

1216
01:31:20.000 --> 01:31:23.359
two thousand and one. So yeah, I had three three

1217
01:31:23.439 --> 01:31:32.119
years which things were going fairly well in some ways, and.

1218
01:31:34.159 --> 01:31:40.359
Because I just started my interest in hypnosis NLP, and

1219
01:31:40.399 --> 01:31:46.079
then in two thousand I became super interested in the

1220
01:31:46.119 --> 01:31:54.439
Internet and building websites. So during two thousand, the whole

1221
01:31:54.520 --> 01:31:59.479
year I devoted to building websites, to learning how to

1222
01:31:59.479 --> 01:32:02.279
build up sites, and it was the most exciting thing

1223
01:32:02.319 --> 01:32:05.399
I'd ever done in my life. For some reason, I

1224
01:32:05.479 --> 01:32:13.760
became obsessed with it, absolutely obsessed, and I missed that feeling.

1225
01:32:16.840 --> 01:32:21.039
And I kind of realize now that I was probably

1226
01:32:22.560 --> 01:32:25.159
for some of that period going through a very big

1227
01:32:26.479 --> 01:32:33.680
manic stage. But I didn't know. All I knew I

1228
01:32:33.720 --> 01:32:37.279
was enjoying myself and i'd be awake.

1229
01:32:39.520 --> 01:32:42.600
I was getting like four hours sleep at night if that,

1230
01:32:43.640 --> 01:32:47.199
I didn't need to eat really, just like I'd forget

1231
01:32:47.239 --> 01:32:49.920
to eat because I was so busy focusing on the

1232
01:32:49.920 --> 01:32:52.720
web pages and how to build them. Had all these

1233
01:32:52.840 --> 01:32:57.560
big pile of books, HTML code, how to. Yeah, I

1234
01:32:57.600 --> 01:33:02.039
just loved it, loved everything about it. It's like a

1235
01:33:03.479 --> 01:33:08.640
code I was trying to crack. I had had the books,

1236
01:33:08.680 --> 01:33:10.359
but I was trying to crack it on my own,

1237
01:33:10.880 --> 01:33:14.800
trying to figure it out on my own, and I

1238
01:33:14.840 --> 01:33:17.800
once spent there's a thing, you know, with on the

1239
01:33:17.840 --> 01:33:21.920
internet or you know on the phone, you press a link,

1240
01:33:22.520 --> 01:33:25.119
click a link, and it takes you somewhere else. Another

1241
01:33:25.199 --> 01:33:29.199
website opens up, another page on the website takes you

1242
01:33:29.279 --> 01:33:38.880
to an app whatever. They're called hyperlinks. So I wanted

1243
01:33:38.880 --> 01:33:44.439
to figure out how to build a hyperlink on.

1244
01:33:43.479 --> 01:33:47.199
A website, a web page, rather to take it to

1245
01:33:47.279 --> 01:33:48.000
other pages.

1246
01:33:48.159 --> 01:33:49.520
You could also do it so it took you to

1247
01:33:49.520 --> 01:33:51.800
another part of the page as well, but I wanted

1248
01:33:51.840 --> 01:33:53.199
just to figure out how to do it.

1249
01:33:54.359 --> 01:33:54.680
Now.

1250
01:33:55.720 --> 01:33:58.359
It's very easy to do if you just look into

1251
01:33:58.359 --> 01:34:05.800
a book, but I refused to do that. I wanted

1252
01:34:05.840 --> 01:34:13.039
to work out how to build a hyperlink by dissecting

1253
01:34:13.560 --> 01:34:19.439
a page. And I spent days doing this, just dissecting

1254
01:34:19.439 --> 01:34:23.520
a page, taking a little bit of code off, and

1255
01:34:23.560 --> 01:34:26.800
then seeing if that page works with the link, and

1256
01:34:26.840 --> 01:34:28.720
if it didn't work, I put it back to what

1257
01:34:28.760 --> 01:34:31.920
it was before and taken a bit more off.

1258
01:34:32.520 --> 01:34:34.399
So I stripped.

1259
01:34:33.960 --> 01:34:38.840
Down the page as bare as possible to the point,

1260
01:34:39.039 --> 01:34:41.479
and this was a big page from the Internet. It's

1261
01:34:41.479 --> 01:34:43.560
like an Internet page that I had copied.

1262
01:34:45.840 --> 01:34:50.159
I stripped it down to the bare minimum, to the

1263
01:34:50.239 --> 01:34:54.840
point where it pretty much was just the code for

1264
01:34:54.880 --> 01:34:58.600
the link. There was a little bit I suppose body whatever,

1265
01:34:58.760 --> 01:35:02.680
just so it had so it worked. But I broke

1266
01:35:02.720 --> 01:35:07.600
it down to its bare, bare minimum. And it took

1267
01:35:07.680 --> 01:35:11.880
me probably three three days, maybe four days even doing that,

1268
01:35:14.039 --> 01:35:20.439
eighteen hours a day, solidly focused on that one page,

1269
01:35:20.600 --> 01:35:24.199
and I loved every second of it. It was probably

1270
01:35:24.199 --> 01:35:27.600
a bit of frustration as well, because it didn't work

1271
01:35:27.640 --> 01:35:34.720
most of the time until it did, But it was

1272
01:35:35.039 --> 01:35:41.119
so satisfying when I figured out how to do it.

1273
01:35:41.399 --> 01:35:43.399
Yeah, I could have just looked in a book. I

1274
01:35:43.439 --> 01:35:47.359
mean I had probably five six books. Any of those

1275
01:35:47.359 --> 01:35:55.399
books would have told me how to build it, And

1276
01:35:55.479 --> 01:36:00.279
it was just I was determined to figure it out

1277
01:36:01.239 --> 01:36:06.000
myself by I guess reverse engineering it would be called now,

1278
01:36:10.039 --> 01:36:19.359
by unbuilding the page, starting from yeah, starting working my

1279
01:36:19.439 --> 01:36:22.880
way back to the beginning of the page being built.

1280
01:36:22.960 --> 01:36:28.119
You know, I did a similar thing for how to

1281
01:36:28.199 --> 01:36:32.840
make something, how to make text a different color, how

1282
01:36:32.880 --> 01:36:35.640
to make it a different size, how to make it bold,

1283
01:36:36.319 --> 01:36:36.880
how to.

1284
01:36:38.560 --> 01:36:43.520
Yeah, all different things. It took Yeah, so I devoted

1285
01:36:43.560 --> 01:36:47.800
a whole year to that. I loved it, I really did.

1286
01:36:50.000 --> 01:36:53.560
I remember I've told this story before, but not for ages.

1287
01:36:57.239 --> 01:37:04.720
When I started Churchill Insurance, we had information on a

1288
01:37:06.079 --> 01:37:10.880
They called it the intranet, so basically you could put stuff,

1289
01:37:11.000 --> 01:37:14.520
you could read stuff off the server. So it wasn't

1290
01:37:14.560 --> 01:37:16.800
the Internet. You couldn't access the Internet, but you can

1291
01:37:16.920 --> 01:37:20.279
access bits of information.

1292
01:37:21.880 --> 01:37:22.039
Now.

1293
01:37:22.079 --> 01:37:25.880
I decided that it's okay to have all that information,

1294
01:37:25.960 --> 01:37:29.000
but it's very much scattered.

1295
01:37:31.600 --> 01:37:33.399
And it would be easy if it was all in

1296
01:37:33.439 --> 01:37:40.960
one place. So I built a website in between calls, and.

1297
01:37:43.199 --> 01:37:46.039
I linked all the stuff that was on the computer

1298
01:37:46.119 --> 01:37:51.640
system on the Internet, so script to read out information

1299
01:37:51.760 --> 01:37:57.399
about no claims, bonus, information about each company, answers to

1300
01:37:57.960 --> 01:37:59.159
common questions.

1301
01:38:00.359 --> 01:38:03.840
A converter A converter.

1302
01:38:07.239 --> 01:38:11.680
Like a calculator, but it was specifically for converting sales,

1303
01:38:11.720 --> 01:38:16.119
to see what conversion you are and stuff. But someone

1304
01:38:16.119 --> 01:38:24.680
else built that. I added that to it and I

1305
01:38:24.720 --> 01:38:25.880
started using it myself.

1306
01:38:25.880 --> 01:38:28.800
I didn't and then someone on my team said, oh,

1307
01:38:28.880 --> 01:38:33.600
can you can you email that to me? So I did, and.

1308
01:38:32.520 --> 01:38:36.279
Eventually quite a few people around the saleslaw was using

1309
01:38:36.319 --> 01:38:39.520
it because it's useful because everything's in one place. You's

1310
01:38:39.560 --> 01:38:42.680
clicked on it, and it just gave you a list

1311
01:38:42.680 --> 01:38:45.560
of things you get click on and it's it's very simple,

1312
01:38:45.600 --> 01:38:50.039
but it was useful. It was weird because on one

1313
01:38:50.119 --> 01:38:53.279
day I'm on a phone.

1314
01:38:52.960 --> 01:39:00.199
Call and my manager on myself, my team leader, said

1315
01:39:00.199 --> 01:39:01.880
when you finish that call, can you come off?

1316
01:39:01.920 --> 01:39:05.039
Can you can you log out? It said okay? And

1317
01:39:05.079 --> 01:39:07.159
I was coming to the end of the car and

1318
01:39:07.239 --> 01:39:12.880
a lockdown and there was two blokes standing there with him,

1319
01:39:13.199 --> 01:39:18.199
and he said, can you come with us? And I thought, oh,

1320
01:39:18.239 --> 01:39:22.039
this is not looking good. I really did not know

1321
01:39:22.079 --> 01:39:24.640
what's going on. I thought I'd messed up big time,

1322
01:39:24.720 --> 01:39:30.199
you know, sold sold Lori insurance or Haulig insurance of

1323
01:39:30.319 --> 01:39:33.119
someone with a mini. You know, I just made a

1324
01:39:33.159 --> 01:39:37.760
mistake like that that has happened.

1325
01:39:37.760 --> 01:39:41.760
But yeah, but it wasn't. It wasn't anything like that.

1326
01:39:41.880 --> 01:39:46.079
So they took me up into the IT department and

1327
01:39:46.119 --> 01:39:48.159
there was another person in there and they all sat

1328
01:39:48.239 --> 01:39:51.199
me down and they said, did you is it is

1329
01:39:51.199 --> 01:39:54.079
it true that you built that website on the internet?

1330
01:39:55.039 --> 01:40:01.960
I said, yeah, how did you do it? See? They

1331
01:40:02.039 --> 01:40:09.520
thought I'd somehow infiltrated the intranet and brought in software

1332
01:40:10.079 --> 01:40:14.760
and maybe put some kind of virus onto the system

1333
01:40:15.000 --> 01:40:18.039
by using discs and stuff like that, which I hadn't

1334
01:40:18.560 --> 01:40:22.359
there's no access to do that. And I said, have

1335
01:40:22.439 --> 01:40:26.199
you done it? Then? I said, I said, well, if

1336
01:40:26.239 --> 01:40:28.319
you brought a disk in, if you've managed to, how

1337
01:40:28.359 --> 01:40:31.920
have you got it onto the Internet? I said, I

1338
01:40:31.960 --> 01:40:35.760
built it. It's what do you mean you built it?

1339
01:40:35.840 --> 01:40:39.279
You built the website out? I said, what do you

1340
01:40:39.279 --> 01:40:41.560
mean how? I just built it just I know how

1341
01:40:41.560 --> 01:40:47.600
to build websites. It's very basic, you know, it's nothing

1342
01:40:47.640 --> 01:40:51.880
special here. Probably couldn't do it now, but I could

1343
01:40:51.920 --> 01:40:55.079
then because I'd spent a year and a half doing it,

1344
01:40:55.119 --> 01:40:57.920
because I spent you know, half of two thousand and

1345
01:40:57.960 --> 01:41:02.000
one also doing it. And he said, And they said

1346
01:41:02.760 --> 01:41:05.640
they couldn't understand. How did I build a website.

1347
01:41:06.640 --> 01:41:10.880
In between phone calls without bringing in discs and code

1348
01:41:10.920 --> 01:41:16.680
and without infiltrating the their servers. I said, no, I

1349
01:41:16.760 --> 01:41:19.359
just built a website on the server from my computer,

1350
01:41:19.880 --> 01:41:23.880
and then people wanted it, so I shared it. It

1351
01:41:23.920 --> 01:41:29.119
was just on It wasn't on the Internet, but it

1352
01:41:29.199 --> 01:41:32.279
had a link to the internet. So the website was

1353
01:41:32.359 --> 01:41:40.760
just a website page. It was on my desktop. I

1354
01:41:40.880 --> 01:41:44.840
shared it out all the hyperlinks to the pages on

1355
01:41:44.880 --> 01:41:48.279
the internet. That's all it was. So it's just one page.

1356
01:41:48.640 --> 01:41:51.039
Opened it up and it was a website with the

1357
01:41:51.079 --> 01:41:53.239
links to all the other stuff. So all the other

1358
01:41:53.279 --> 01:41:57.039
stuff was already on there. And they're like, how did

1359
01:41:57.039 --> 01:42:00.079
you do that? I said, I just did it, know

1360
01:42:00.199 --> 01:42:02.560
how to do it, and they couldn't believe. They didn't

1361
01:42:02.560 --> 01:42:05.000
believe me that I'd done off of my own head.

1362
01:42:07.319 --> 01:42:11.960
I said yeah, And they were annoyed because they said

1363
01:42:11.960 --> 01:42:15.399
that they'd spent the last year trying to put together

1364
01:42:15.720 --> 01:42:20.439
some kind of website service which would do exactly what

1365
01:42:20.479 --> 01:42:26.399
I'd done. This would have been more complicated and more precise.

1366
01:42:25.800 --> 01:42:30.960
And much better version. But they were re peeved because

1367
01:42:31.159 --> 01:42:33.800
this bloke said that he was taken on. He'd been

1368
01:42:33.880 --> 01:42:36.720
there for nearly a year and they'd been planning to

1369
01:42:36.760 --> 01:42:37.000
do this.

1370
01:42:37.920 --> 01:42:43.000
He was the IT boss or part of the IT team,

1371
01:42:43.560 --> 01:42:44.359
and now it's one.

1372
01:42:44.199 --> 01:42:46.479
Of his jobs is to put together at the website

1373
01:42:47.479 --> 01:42:53.439
on the internet for all of the workers in this

1374
01:42:53.800 --> 01:42:58.279
because there was like hundreds of people working there, and

1375
01:42:58.319 --> 01:43:01.439
then they could update a new script to read out,

1376
01:43:01.840 --> 01:43:04.399
or there was a new raw, there's new, you know,

1377
01:43:04.520 --> 01:43:07.960
always changing stuff, so it'd be quite handy to have

1378
01:43:08.079 --> 01:43:17.640
that information, just stuff like the the new people, the

1379
01:43:17.640 --> 01:43:22.279
the phonetic alphabet. It's handy to have that because I

1380
01:43:22.359 --> 01:43:25.800
was learning that. I didn't know the phonetic phonetic alphabet

1381
01:43:26.640 --> 01:43:29.279
properly until I moved into.

1382
01:43:29.239 --> 01:43:30.840
Until I started working in that job.

1383
01:43:33.279 --> 01:43:35.199
So someone knew they could just have it on the screen,

1384
01:43:35.439 --> 01:43:38.000
just click a quick click and it's there, and they

1385
01:43:38.000 --> 01:43:40.000
can just read it, read it out, just get to

1386
01:43:40.039 --> 01:43:43.680
know it, and have it on a little have it

1387
01:43:43.720 --> 01:43:46.239
on a little page below what they're doing.

1388
01:43:46.760 --> 01:43:49.800
So it's just always there. So it's just simple things

1389
01:43:49.800 --> 01:43:52.079
like that. And he said, well, we're going to have

1390
01:43:52.079 --> 01:43:56.840
to take it off because it's I can't have it

1391
01:43:56.880 --> 01:43:59.199
on the internet. I said, it's not on the internet.

1392
01:44:00.479 --> 01:44:01.199
It said, what you mean.

1393
01:44:01.399 --> 01:44:06.920
I said, it's just on people's desktops, individual desktops. You

1394
01:44:06.960 --> 01:44:09.600
can just ask people to take it off their desktops.

1395
01:44:11.039 --> 01:44:15.039
It links to the Internet, but it's not on the internet.

1396
01:44:15.840 --> 01:44:18.880
So they basically they had no control over it. And

1397
01:44:18.920 --> 01:44:21.960
I think that's what annoyed them because this thing was

1398
01:44:22.000 --> 01:44:24.920
not on their own internet, which is what an internet

1399
01:44:25.000 --> 01:44:29.119
is is basically, it's a it's the company Internet, which

1400
01:44:29.119 --> 01:44:32.640
they have complete control over. But if you have a

1401
01:44:32.680 --> 01:44:36.920
link to that Internet and your part that you're in

1402
01:44:36.920 --> 01:44:42.039
that system, then it just logs into it. I don't

1403
01:44:42.039 --> 01:44:44.479
think they knew that was possible. Maybe they didn't realize

1404
01:44:44.560 --> 01:44:49.000
you could do that, so I didn't know. It wasn't

1405
01:44:49.000 --> 01:44:51.640
supposed to be done. I didn't know that it shouldn't

1406
01:44:51.640 --> 01:44:54.520
be able to be done because it's the Internet's supposed

1407
01:44:54.520 --> 01:44:58.319
to be very private and secure, which makes you wonder

1408
01:44:58.479 --> 01:45:01.079
maybe that link on the normal into the Internet might

1409
01:45:01.119 --> 01:45:02.199
have taken there as well.

1410
01:45:02.319 --> 01:45:02.800
I don't know.

1411
01:45:03.279 --> 01:45:08.199
I doubt it, though, So they told me you can't

1412
01:45:08.279 --> 01:45:10.319
use it, can't use it anymore because we're going to

1413
01:45:10.560 --> 01:45:12.840
They were going to build their own and they're in

1414
01:45:12.840 --> 01:45:13.720
the middle of doing it.

1415
01:45:14.119 --> 01:45:17.560
And I had a little hope then a little hope

1416
01:45:17.560 --> 01:45:22.039
in my chest at a little bit of a little

1417
01:45:22.039 --> 01:45:25.439
bit of maybe they're going to ask me to help

1418
01:45:25.479 --> 01:45:32.279
build it. But they didn't. They didn't at all, And

1419
01:45:32.279 --> 01:45:35.520
I was like, oh, okay, because I could have built

1420
01:45:35.560 --> 01:45:38.199
it so easily.

1421
01:45:38.359 --> 01:45:40.159
I already had, but I could have made it much

1422
01:45:40.199 --> 01:45:43.199
better and maybe looked into, you know, with the right

1423
01:45:43.279 --> 01:45:44.039
software and stuff.

1424
01:45:44.079 --> 01:45:45.960
I could have made it quite nice.

1425
01:45:46.279 --> 01:45:49.880
It's not that I was I didn't have any qualifications

1426
01:45:50.680 --> 01:45:53.119
or experience. I just had a year and a half

1427
01:45:53.159 --> 01:45:58.000
of phaneticism for building websites.

1428
01:45:58.119 --> 01:46:03.319
That was my obsession. I was obsessed with it.

1429
01:46:04.600 --> 01:46:08.800
That's all I did with my time. Loved it, loved

1430
01:46:08.800 --> 01:46:09.680
every second of it.

1431
01:46:09.680 --> 01:46:12.720
It's weird. I just absolutely loved it.

1432
01:46:13.760 --> 01:46:23.039
And they never built the Internet the Internet website while

1433
01:46:23.039 --> 01:46:25.840
I was there anyway, but they did tell people to

1434
01:46:25.880 --> 01:46:29.600
take it off. I didn't take it off mine, and

1435
01:46:29.680 --> 01:46:32.199
other people didn't take it off theirs either, so people

1436
01:46:32.239 --> 01:46:37.319
were still using it. So they just, you know, they

1437
01:46:37.319 --> 01:46:39.680
were still putting stuff on the internet like individual where

1438
01:46:39.680 --> 01:46:41.680
they didn't put it in a way that you could

1439
01:46:41.760 --> 01:46:46.560
just find it easily and quickly. So I just continued

1440
01:46:46.640 --> 01:46:51.199
using mine and updating it as I needed it. And

1441
01:46:51.600 --> 01:46:54.680
a year later they still hadn't I think the bloke left,

1442
01:46:55.720 --> 01:46:58.840
they still hadn't put it together. I'm sure they have

1443
01:46:58.960 --> 01:47:04.359
now twenty odd years later, but it was it was.

1444
01:47:04.239 --> 01:47:05.039
Like a little.

1445
01:47:07.399 --> 01:47:10.840
Quite a nice little moment for me, really, although to

1446
01:47:10.880 --> 01:47:13.000
start with, I was a little bit concerned. I've been

1447
01:47:13.039 --> 01:47:19.079
taken in the room with four men, thinking all what

1448
01:47:19.119 --> 01:47:20.520
I've had done.

1449
01:47:21.479 --> 01:47:23.199
But yeah, it was it was quite cool. They just

1450
01:47:23.199 --> 01:47:26.640
couldn't believe it, like how could you do that on

1451
01:47:26.680 --> 01:47:31.399
your own? The thing is it was quite basic code HTML.

1452
01:47:32.319 --> 01:47:38.000
It's once you see it even now, Actually even now

1453
01:47:39.600 --> 01:47:43.039
I can because I use code for my website. It's

1454
01:47:43.119 --> 01:47:45.000
code is already there, but I add my own code

1455
01:47:46.000 --> 01:47:49.479
and I can get chet GPT to make the code.

1456
01:47:49.479 --> 01:47:52.159
But I can change the code. I still know now

1457
01:47:53.279 --> 01:47:57.199
it's very basic. Just by changing the size of things,

1458
01:47:57.359 --> 01:48:02.920
the color of things. I can change the links, so

1459
01:48:02.960 --> 01:48:05.880
I can play around with the code. Even now, even

1460
01:48:05.920 --> 01:48:09.520
after all those years, is quite.

1461
01:48:09.640 --> 01:48:10.600
It's quite handy.

1462
01:48:10.680 --> 01:48:14.319
I can read through the code and kind of find

1463
01:48:14.520 --> 01:48:21.600
some stuff, you know, even after all those years. So

1464
01:48:21.720 --> 01:48:25.880
a year and a half of obsession, some of it

1465
01:48:25.920 --> 01:48:26.520
did stick.

1466
01:48:28.720 --> 01:48:32.880
But then again in two thousand and four, I.

1467
01:48:32.920 --> 01:48:36.199
Was building my own websites as well, So I took

1468
01:48:36.239 --> 01:48:45.760
a break from building websites for two years, so two

1469
01:48:45.840 --> 01:48:49.000
thousand and two, two thousand three, no, about a year

1470
01:48:49.000 --> 01:48:51.600
and a half, two years, and then I started again.

1471
01:48:52.359 --> 01:48:56.000
So in September two thousand and one or no, this

1472
01:48:56.119 --> 01:48:59.319
is summer two thousand and one, I was no longer

1473
01:48:59.359 --> 01:49:00.000
building website.

1474
01:49:00.079 --> 01:49:02.840
It's because I was evicted and.

1475
01:49:02.720 --> 01:49:06.680
Then I moved to a new place and I lived

1476
01:49:06.720 --> 01:49:15.680
there two thousand and one, two thousand and two, and probably.

1477
01:49:17.119 --> 01:49:21.279
Yeah, two thousand and three, I've got a computer and

1478
01:49:21.319 --> 01:49:24.960
I started building websites again. And then two thousand and

1479
01:49:25.039 --> 01:49:29.159
four I built a website which was helped with pain.

1480
01:49:30.359 --> 01:49:35.800
And then two thousand and six I built my website

1481
01:49:36.119 --> 01:49:39.439
free Pain Relief dot code at UK. So I built

1482
01:49:39.439 --> 01:49:49.000
that with code, and then eventually I started using.

1483
01:49:50.600 --> 01:49:53.199
Website builders because it was just easier. It was a

1484
01:49:53.239 --> 01:49:57.439
lot quicker, so I stopped using code. I stopped building

1485
01:49:57.439 --> 01:50:01.279
them from code, which was probably in some ways a

1486
01:50:01.319 --> 01:50:05.159
mistake because that was a skill that I could have

1487
01:50:05.880 --> 01:50:12.600
built upon. And I'm not saying I was skillful, but

1488
01:50:12.680 --> 01:50:15.000
it was definitely some knowledge.

1489
01:50:14.680 --> 01:50:16.439
I had which.

1490
01:50:18.560 --> 01:50:21.439
Everyone's doing something that I really enjoyed doing as well.

1491
01:50:22.640 --> 01:50:24.319
So there's a lot of shouting in the garden, So

1492
01:50:24.359 --> 01:50:28.159
I'm going to go, so thank you for listening. Remember

1493
01:50:28.159 --> 01:50:30.359
to be kind to yourself, because you do deserve to

1494
01:50:30.399 --> 01:50:30.840
be happy.

1495
01:50:32.199 --> 01:50:35.399
Be gentle with yourself. Do you deserve to feel safe?

1496
01:50:36.239 --> 01:51:01.760
Lots of love? Bye? Relax in a more deep and

1497
01:51:05.479 --> 01:51:12.840
meaningful way, maybe in a way that can not just

1498
01:51:13.159 --> 01:51:23.239
allow you to feel calmer now and throughout the time

1499
01:51:23.920 --> 01:51:32.279
we've spend together here, not just relaxed at the end

1500
01:51:32.319 --> 01:51:36.760
of the recording when it's finished and you can enjoy

1501
01:51:36.960 --> 01:51:54.359
that sense of comfort and peace, but also I think

1502
01:51:54.399 --> 01:52:00.680
it would be nice to have those fears of.

1503
01:52:04.680 --> 01:52:22.000
Relaxation continue for longer after the recording has ended, so

1504
01:52:22.079 --> 01:52:30.920
that you can still benefit from listening to my.

1505
01:52:31.000 --> 01:52:45.600
Voice, maybe in a few hours time, perhaps tomorrow, and

1506
01:52:45.640 --> 01:52:53.560
then by listening regularly, especially if you find like some

1507
01:52:53.680 --> 01:52:57.319
people do and myself as well. I sometimes I find

1508
01:52:57.399 --> 01:53:07.760
one particular recording that really resonates with me, and I

1509
01:53:07.920 --> 01:53:12.920
just listened to it over and over again every morning,

1510
01:53:13.079 --> 01:53:25.640
every evening. There was this recording from We're going back

1511
01:53:25.680 --> 01:53:30.960
to about nineteen ninety nine. It was it wasn't hypnosis,

1512
01:53:31.039 --> 01:53:36.359
but it was a guided visualizations. It kind of was hypnosis, really,

1513
01:53:38.800 --> 01:53:44.000
and I managed to find it again and it still

1514
01:53:44.079 --> 01:53:49.680
has the same effect on me. And part of it

1515
01:53:49.840 --> 01:54:04.560
was the person's voice relaxed me. She just felt so peaceful,

1516
01:54:06.680 --> 01:54:13.239
and I'd look forward to listening to her in the

1517
01:54:13.239 --> 01:54:23.960
morning and in the evening. And I knew before even

1518
01:54:24.720 --> 01:54:31.960
pressing the play button that as soon as I've done that,

1519
01:54:32.880 --> 01:54:36.319
pressed the play button. This was in the days of

1520
01:54:41.399 --> 01:54:50.560
CD players pressed the play button. In fact, it might

1521
01:54:50.560 --> 01:54:54.880
have even been a tape tape recorder. I'd lie down

1522
01:54:54.920 --> 01:55:07.560
on the bed and then even without necessarily listening to

1523
01:55:07.720 --> 01:55:20.880
her words because I had them memorized. Really, it was

1524
01:55:20.920 --> 01:55:31.520
as if my body knew exactly what to do, and

1525
01:55:31.680 --> 01:55:53.439
the muscles just almost went into automatic relaxation, and I

1526
01:55:53.520 --> 01:56:07.479
remember my mind would slow down. Now. Now, I was

1527
01:56:07.680 --> 01:56:14.960
listening to this recording in the early days of learning hypnosis,

1528
01:56:17.520 --> 01:56:25.359
and long before I ever made any videos or audio

1529
01:56:25.399 --> 01:56:30.159
recordings myself, because I didn't start doing that till two

1530
01:56:30.159 --> 01:56:49.520
thousand and six, I knew. I knew how helpful I

1531
01:56:49.600 --> 01:56:59.800
found being able to just let go, to have that

1532
01:57:00.239 --> 01:57:12.840
trust in the person that I'm listening to, knowing that

1533
01:57:12.960 --> 01:57:21.279
it's going to be just as relaxing, if not more so.

1534
01:57:23.920 --> 01:57:30.920
Each time you hear my voice. You may feel the same.

1535
01:57:37.239 --> 01:57:51.880
Some people have been listening to me for over a decade,

1536
01:57:52.680 --> 01:57:59.640
maybe not solidly, obviously, not twenty four hours a day.

1537
01:58:00.680 --> 01:58:11.199
Maybe people come back, some people maybe listen every day.

1538
01:58:16.720 --> 01:58:22.720
That's something that I do which you may not realize

1539
01:58:25.119 --> 01:58:43.680
by listening is when I record these recordings now. For example,

1540
01:58:48.239 --> 01:59:00.399
I also am affected by the words that I say.

1541
01:59:01.279 --> 01:59:10.640
So if I set you focus on your feet, notice

1542
01:59:10.720 --> 01:59:17.920
your feet relaxing, I will be focusing on my feet.

1543
01:59:22.840 --> 01:59:40.239
I will be noticing my feet relaxing. If I said,

1544
01:59:40.359 --> 01:59:48.039
focus on your hands, and maybe notice the difference between

1545
01:59:48.079 --> 01:59:59.039
each hand, perhaps notice the air in the room, the

1546
01:59:59.039 --> 02:00:11.560
temperature of the on the backs of your hands. You

1547
02:00:11.680 --> 02:00:15.720
may start to notice what almost feels like a very

1548
02:00:15.920 --> 02:00:24.279
light breeze, even though there may not be any type

1549
02:00:24.279 --> 02:00:37.199
of breeze at all where you are right now. And

1550
02:00:37.279 --> 02:00:48.520
as you become aware of your hands, I'm also aware

1551
02:00:51.159 --> 02:01:16.600
of how relaxed my hands are feeling now. And when

1552
02:01:16.600 --> 02:01:23.560
it comes to potentially drifting off to sleep, which may

1553
02:01:23.640 --> 02:01:40.000
be the reason you're listening, I also feel drowsy when

1554
02:01:40.039 --> 02:01:53.239
I make these recordings. I also notice my mind drifting.

1555
02:02:01.159 --> 02:02:13.760
In fact, at times I've actually fallen asleep without even noticing,

1556
02:02:18.600 --> 02:02:27.760
and then I carry on talking and it's suddenly when

1557
02:02:28.039 --> 02:02:37.159
I listen back to do the editing, I hear snoring,

1558
02:02:39.039 --> 02:02:46.359
and I think I don't remember snoring. I remember talking.

1559
02:02:49.000 --> 02:02:56.399
It's snoring. Was a pig turned up. That's why I

1560
02:02:56.479 --> 02:03:04.720
sound like when I snore, I get read into a

1561
02:03:06.600 --> 02:03:24.840
whole experience. I don't know how you feel, how relaxed

1562
02:03:24.960 --> 02:03:35.319
you feel in your feet, how relaxed you feel in

1563
02:03:35.359 --> 02:04:02.279
your hands. I have noticed more and more that the

1564
02:04:02.319 --> 02:04:19.119
more relaxed, deeper level of comfort you feel, the easier

1565
02:04:19.600 --> 02:04:38.960
your breathing becomes. It's almost like that additional muscle relaxation.

1566
02:04:43.319 --> 02:05:00.800
So this allows you to breathe easier without this necessarely

1567
02:05:03.640 --> 02:05:31.640
focusing on your breath, however, being able to notice the

1568
02:05:31.680 --> 02:06:01.560
ease in which you breathe so naturally, you breathe so

1569
02:06:01.920 --> 02:06:51.079
very easily and smoothly. Whenever I imagine my breathing improving. When

1570
02:06:51.119 --> 02:07:04.279
I've got my eyes closed, I tend to, yeah, visualize

1571
02:07:06.359 --> 02:07:20.760
a beautiful field with trees and flowers producing all that

1572
02:07:22.800 --> 02:07:55.560
life giving oxygen. And it feels nice too, if nothing else,

1573
02:07:58.800 --> 02:08:32.920
just taking some time away from everything, enjoying that feeling

1574
02:08:33.279 --> 02:09:23.880
of peace serenity with a joyful heart. Time seems to

1575
02:09:24.039 --> 02:09:59.159
just drip by, so very slowly, relaxed, so deeply peaceful,

1576
02:10:09.079 --> 02:10:56.000
completely unattached to any thoughts whatsoever in this moment, completely free,

1577
02:11:18.359 --> 02:12:09.720
noticing that your mind has slowed down, slowed down because

1578
02:12:09.920 --> 02:12:38.479
nothing really requires your attention. You can enjoy the physical

1579
02:12:38.840 --> 02:12:50.479
sensations of allowing the stress to drip out of your body,

1580
02:12:56.960 --> 02:13:19.920
to appear out of every part of your body, and

1581
02:13:20.319 --> 02:13:59.840
being released from your brain. Une your mind slowly but surely.

1582
02:14:06.640 --> 02:14:44.000
The muscles in your legs relax res res so very deeply,

1583
02:14:53.880 --> 02:15:25.159
res deeply. And the feelings, the pleasant feelings in your

1584
02:15:25.439 --> 02:15:53.239
arms and shoulders, deepening each part of your body further

1585
02:15:58.199 --> 02:16:31.560
and deeper and deeper. Noticine, the feelings in the back

1586
02:16:31.600 --> 02:17:33.360
of your neck, the feelings in your wrists, muscles in

1587
02:17:33.600 --> 02:18:10.360
front of your body, I will say, feeling peace deep.

1588
02:18:27.559 --> 02:18:37.840
There's a sense of pace spreads through your very core.

1589
02:19:08.399 --> 02:19:28.319
Even when you focus on your mind. Her mind becomes

1590
02:19:35.639 --> 02:20:58.520
a and slowerven, deeper, relax so faery slow, his stomach

1591
02:21:12.600 --> 02:21:55.639
peacefull in your stomach, held back. Notice Notice how relaxed

1592
02:21:59.559 --> 02:22:12.799
m you now feel in the hole of your back.

1593
02:22:37.959 --> 02:22:45.600
In a spy from your brain all the way down

1594
02:22:46.959 --> 02:22:56.799
the middle of your back, sending and receiving millions of

1595
02:22:57.079 --> 02:23:58.159
messages every day. Deep comfort, increase in deeply relaxed, your

1596
02:23:58.239 --> 02:24:34.520
knees relax spreading those signals down your spine or cord

1597
02:24:37.520 --> 02:24:56.399
into air. Every part of your body, your shins and

1598
02:24:56.520 --> 02:25:48.159
your calf muscles, your outbows, feelings of peace and tranquility

1599
02:25:52.040 --> 02:26:06.040
spreading through your body, tips of your toes, to your eyes,

1600
02:26:10.440 --> 02:26:29.879
your fingers, all the way till you'll lower back. Lettinger

1601
02:26:32.120 --> 02:27:31.719
Rea thinker hm peace to drift in mind, just wander

1602
02:27:31.879 --> 02:27:54.120
in a way, happy to let go, Let go completely,

1603
02:27:56.520 --> 02:28:54.479
let go, said tranquil, the whole body enjoying a sense

1604
02:29:19.239 --> 02:29:19.959
listening that.

1605
02:29:23.639 --> 02:29:25.159
He no.

1606
02:30:33.799 --> 02:31:27.840
He enjoying the space, this space of peace and safety.

1607
02:31:50.639 --> 02:33:49.799
So very lassists in letting go. Maybe we can just

1608
02:33:52.680 --> 02:34:01.520
focus on the different parts of your body, just to

1609
02:34:01.799 --> 02:35:30.680
notice you forehead and your eyes juw so loose, noticing

1610
02:35:30.680 --> 02:37:03.559
in the sense of complete freedom, absolute freedom, day, peace.

1611
02:37:03.600 --> 02:37:04.159
Fall.

1612
02:37:05.719 --> 02:37:46.319
Energy, pace to breeze, so much.

1613
02:37:46.159 --> 02:38:30.000
Easier los.

1614
02:38:50.239 --> 02:39:40.319
You may or may not have noticed your mind drifting peaceful,

1615
02:39:54.399 --> 02:40:09.600
move any even more deeply in the direction of total

1616
02:40:14.239 --> 02:41:39.920
blissphul pace blisphor pace directed to pace.

1617
02:42:04.239 --> 02:43:02.079
Colm so calm, let him go, peace of mind, relaxed.

1618
02:43:05.479 --> 02:44:19.879
Body c rex rex put. It feels almost invisible, so

1619
02:44:20.559 --> 02:44:41.280
very relaxed and paceful. So pace from.

1620
02:44:56.920 --> 02:45:21.920
Rel leo so so.

1621
02:45:40.280 --> 02:45:46.520
And you could start to notice that you are feeling

1622
02:45:46.879 --> 02:45:58.559
more relaxed, even though I've not purposely focused your mind

1623
02:45:59.079 --> 02:46:06.639
upon that sense of physical comfort that is growing within

1624
02:46:06.760 --> 02:46:15.920
you throughout your body, and your mind starts to slow.

1625
02:46:15.639 --> 02:46:27.719
Down, and that could be almost in recognition of I

1626
02:46:27.719 --> 02:46:40.200
guess my speech not being particularly fast and things just

1627
02:46:40.479 --> 02:46:49.760
generally feel calmer. Just by listening to my.

1628
02:46:49.799 --> 02:46:58.719
Voice, you give yourself an opportunity to take a break

1629
02:47:00.079 --> 02:47:06.479
from the day, take a break from your life, as

1630
02:47:06.520 --> 02:47:15.959
it is, to give yourself a rest, giving yourself permission

1631
02:47:17.719 --> 02:47:23.000
to take some time off and to allow your body

1632
02:47:23.120 --> 02:47:32.920
to relax and allow your mind to slow down, which

1633
02:47:32.959 --> 02:47:40.559
in turn releases the tension and it stresses that you

1634
02:47:40.760 --> 02:47:50.680
had in your body. It's almost as if the parts

1635
02:47:50.719 --> 02:47:55.879
of your body just open up, allowing the negativity out

1636
02:48:02.719 --> 02:48:08.760
and at the same time replacing that negativity with positive

1637
02:48:09.920 --> 02:48:15.959
heathing energy, which then fills.

1638
02:48:15.600 --> 02:48:24.440
Your body up and your mind to also starts to

1639
02:48:26.879 --> 02:48:45.200
appreciate those feelings of increasing confidence, an almost uplifting feeling, positive.

1640
02:48:46.479 --> 02:48:58.159
Healing, an energy that spreads through your body like a

1641
02:48:58.280 --> 02:49:12.399
wave of comfort. And all this comes from just allowing

1642
02:49:12.479 --> 02:49:21.000
yourself a few minutes, maybe half an hour, however long

1643
02:49:21.079 --> 02:49:31.079
you want it to be, to just rest and allow

1644
02:49:33.600 --> 02:49:43.600
your mind and your body to almost reset itself to

1645
02:49:44.280 --> 02:49:59.879
the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness, which allows more

1646
02:50:00.120 --> 02:50:13.520
room for feelings of pleasure and happiness to move around

1647
02:50:13.760 --> 02:50:22.000
your body and into your mind, almost as if your

1648
02:50:22.079 --> 02:50:32.680
mind and your body are sinking together, almost mirroring each

1649
02:50:32.879 --> 02:50:48.479
other with that growing positivity and calmness. And it feels nice,

1650
02:50:48.840 --> 02:50:54.840
really does feel nice to know that you are the

1651
02:50:54.840 --> 02:51:08.159
one that has allowed yourself to feel more comfort and

1652
02:51:08.360 --> 02:51:22.280
to experience more of this deep relaxation spreading throughout your body,

1653
02:51:29.239 --> 02:51:34.600
and as I focus on each part of your body,

1654
02:51:36.959 --> 02:51:38.559
you can notice that.

1655
02:51:38.319 --> 02:51:39.280
That part.

1656
02:51:43.000 --> 02:51:55.520
Becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on it. It

1657
02:51:55.600 --> 02:52:09.520
becomes even more car uncomfortable just by focusing. And as

1658
02:52:09.559 --> 02:52:17.639
I move down your body, starting at your head, the

1659
02:52:17.760 --> 02:52:24.280
parts that you have already focused on or continue to

1660
02:52:24.440 --> 02:52:32.120
relax deeply, and those parts that have not yet focused

1661
02:52:32.159 --> 02:52:45.520
on or just automatically release any remain intention in anticipation

1662
02:52:45.879 --> 02:52:58.959
of even more comfort about to come. Now, I'm going

1663
02:52:58.959 --> 02:53:05.920
to start by focusocusing on your forehead. Just being aware

1664
02:53:06.280 --> 02:53:14.840
of the feelings of your forehead and any background sounds

1665
02:53:16.600 --> 02:53:21.479
like mister Herbert the Pigeon, can just allow you to

1666
02:53:21.639 --> 02:53:28.920
feel even more relaxed. Just means you in the moment,

1667
02:53:32.000 --> 02:53:37.399
this isn't this isn't a sterile environment. This is the world.

1668
02:53:40.799 --> 02:53:46.879
I live in the countryside, so there's lots of nature

1669
02:53:47.360 --> 02:53:57.920
sounds around. So as you focus on your forehead, just

1670
02:53:58.120 --> 02:54:03.399
notice how it become. It's even more relaxed as your

1671
02:54:05.440 --> 02:54:14.520
focus only on my voice and that part of your body.

1672
02:54:17.879 --> 02:54:26.200
Moving down to your eyes. Focusing on your eyes, noticing

1673
02:54:28.639 --> 02:54:38.360
how your eyelids feel so heavy yet so light at

1674
02:54:38.399 --> 02:54:44.920
the same time, and all the muscles around your eyes

1675
02:54:45.120 --> 02:54:59.520
relaxing completely. Moving your focus down to your mouth, your lips,

1676
02:55:00.079 --> 02:55:09.879
your tongue, your teeth, You comes the whole of your mouth, relaxing,

1677
02:55:13.319 --> 02:55:23.639
calm and lease. As you focus now on your jaw,

1678
02:55:26.680 --> 02:55:30.239
not just the parts of your jaw near your mouth

1679
02:55:31.040 --> 02:55:35.360
and your chin, but all the way up the size

1680
02:55:35.399 --> 02:55:43.440
of your face to your ears, the hole of your jaw,

1681
02:55:44.879 --> 02:55:52.040
feeding more relaxed.

1682
02:55:55.239 --> 02:56:04.280
And calm.

1683
02:56:04.319 --> 02:56:13.479
Focusing on your neck, the front of your neck and

1684
02:56:13.520 --> 02:56:26.559
your throat relaxing and loose and calm. The sides of

1685
02:56:26.639 --> 02:56:31.920
your neck, the right and left side of your neck

1686
02:56:34.879 --> 02:56:50.719
relax and lace and calm. And now the back of

1687
02:56:50.760 --> 02:56:51.559
your neck.

1688
02:56:54.600 --> 02:57:04.719
Focusing on the back of your neck, letting go of.

1689
02:57:04.799 --> 02:57:11.719
Any tension that may have been there before, and enjoying

1690
02:57:12.040 --> 02:57:22.159
that sense of increasing comfort and release.

1691
02:57:24.319 --> 02:57:28.319
That you can experience in the back of your neck,

1692
02:57:34.639 --> 02:57:37.000
moving down your back.

1693
02:57:39.079 --> 02:57:43.840
And moving either side of your spine right from the

1694
02:57:43.879 --> 02:57:49.280
top of your back all the way down to the

1695
02:57:49.319 --> 02:58:06.559
bottom of your back down to your lower back. And

1696
02:58:06.680 --> 02:58:13.879
as you move up and down your spine, you can

1697
02:58:14.000 --> 02:58:22.200
feel the muscles either side of your spine relaxing even more.

1698
02:58:29.680 --> 02:58:36.479
And as those muscles relax, that sense of comfort starts

1699
02:58:36.559 --> 02:58:46.680
to spread outwards from your spine into both sides of

1700
02:58:46.760 --> 02:58:53.719
your back, the top of your back, the middle, and

1701
02:58:53.920 --> 02:59:03.399
your lower back. And as you scan gently and slowly

1702
02:59:04.639 --> 02:59:09.920
up and down your back, there's the muscles in the

1703
02:59:10.000 --> 02:59:19.879
top of your back relax and become looser. The muscles

1704
02:59:20.000 --> 02:59:25.639
in the middle of your back also seem to just

1705
02:59:26.040 --> 02:59:40.600
almost divide from each other, separating and almost melting, And

1706
02:59:40.760 --> 02:59:46.879
in your lower back there seems to be an extra

1707
02:59:47.040 --> 03:00:00.799
special feeling of comfort. The spreads into you your hips,

1708
03:00:03.040 --> 03:00:04.879
sit down your lower back.

1709
03:00:04.879 --> 03:00:12.879
Into your hips, into the area where your cosix are,

1710
03:00:16.440 --> 03:00:17.200
and into your.

1711
03:00:17.040 --> 03:00:26.120
Buttocks, and all these muscles that spread bring your lower

1712
03:00:26.159 --> 03:00:40.440
back into your hip area, start to melt, start to

1713
03:00:40.680 --> 03:00:53.040
really let go and even know where about to focus

1714
03:00:53.120 --> 03:00:59.959
on your shoulders, your back and your spine will continue

1715
03:01:00.159 --> 03:01:20.719
you till let go, continue to relax so calmly, and then

1716
03:01:20.799 --> 03:01:28.200
she focus on your shoulders. You may notice they're already

1717
03:01:28.799 --> 03:01:57.319
feeling really loose, they're already feeling calm, and I feeling

1718
03:02:01.520 --> 03:02:09.920
those muscles then move from your neck into your shoulders.

1719
03:02:16.360 --> 03:02:45.760
Feel so soft and gentle, so smooth and calm, and

1720
03:02:46.000 --> 03:02:58.879
the feeling in your shoulders seems to spread deep into

1721
03:02:58.920 --> 03:03:09.360
your shoulders, that sense of relaxation, not just traveling deeply

1722
03:03:09.680 --> 03:03:26.680
into your muscles, but also relaxing the bones and moving

1723
03:03:26.799 --> 03:03:35.120
all the way to underneath your arms, relaxing a whole

1724
03:03:35.280 --> 03:03:40.280
area between the tops of your shoulders and underneath your

1725
03:03:40.440 --> 03:03:59.520
arms healing. You feel so relaxed and comfortable in your

1726
03:03:59.600 --> 03:04:19.879
shot this which sense that's deep healing message into your arms.

1727
03:04:26.079 --> 03:04:31.120
You may feel almost as if your arms are not

1728
03:04:31.280 --> 03:04:50.000
even that because they're so relaxed, so deeply relaxed, so.

1729
03:04:54.239 --> 03:05:10.239
So calm.

1730
03:05:10.559 --> 03:05:17.600
So this.

1731
03:05:25.079 --> 03:05:36.440
The feeling spreading all way down your arms to elbows,

1732
03:05:40.000 --> 03:06:09.639
including your elbows circumfort spreads away into rests your forearments

1733
03:06:10.200 --> 03:06:33.760
under wrists so heavy, yet at the same time silight

1734
03:06:37.000 --> 03:07:07.280
and gentle f sin now on.

1735
03:07:09.959 --> 03:08:05.040
Your hands, my hands, so peaceful in your hands, the sensor.

1736
03:08:08.040 --> 03:08:34.360
Real pace just seems to feel so familiar when your

1737
03:08:34.479 --> 03:10:12.959
hands relax deeply. Else the things things you think, It

1738
03:10:13.159 --> 03:11:12.360
tips me think attention. Let affront your body counts and

1739
03:11:12.680 --> 03:12:40.120
the new focus to legs like mussels and your files

1740
03:12:57.159 --> 03:15:38.440
names I relaxed cough muscles just shines a puzzy when

1741
03:15:38.639 --> 03:15:59.879
the feathing you faints, sir, piece of circom side peaceful,

1742
03:16:07.040 --> 03:17:07.799
circom so peaceful, sycom so peace for RelA same peace

1743
03:17:08.559 --> 03:17:27.920
fall calm. Allow that deep relaxation to spread your chest,

1744
03:17:28.360 --> 03:17:59.479
your stomach so relax, Let you go everything So I'm

1745
03:17:59.479 --> 03:18:10.799
gonna stop counting down now from twenty down to one.

1746
03:18:11.639 --> 03:18:14.879
You can imagine in a way it's like just walking

1747
03:18:14.959 --> 03:18:20.840
down some steps and each step or twenty steps, and

1748
03:18:20.920 --> 03:18:31.399
each step represents a level of comfort, each step represents

1749
03:18:33.879 --> 03:18:46.360
a deepening of that comfort, and the furvies you walk

1750
03:18:46.440 --> 03:18:52.239
down those steps, the deeper and more relaxed you feel.

1751
03:18:58.879 --> 03:20:46.719
So start and with number twenty twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen

1752
03:21:33.000 --> 03:31:09.079
sixteenhhhhhhhhhi te four fie too well USUS no eight seven US.

1753
03:31:32.760 --> 03:31:52.360
The wily.

1754
03:32:35.600 --> 03:33:51.680
Six five.

1755
03:34:05.920 --> 03:36:14.600
U usus.

1756
03:37:08.319 --> 03:38:10.840
Using up.

1757
03:39:38.719 --> 03:39:55.840
Now, as you focus on your eyes, we're gonna count

1758
03:39:55.920 --> 03:40:07.840
down from turning down to one, focusing just on your eyes,

1759
03:40:11.479 --> 03:40:21.479
your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your eye walls themselves,

1760
03:40:21.479 --> 03:40:38.559
our whole area that makes up your eye. And as

1761
03:40:38.600 --> 03:40:47.159
we count down from ten down to one, whilst focusing

1762
03:40:47.399 --> 03:41:02.879
on your eyes, you become twice is relaxed with each

1763
03:41:03.239 --> 03:41:15.920
number counting down that you may find the all you

1764
03:41:15.920 --> 03:41:24.840
want to do is just drift off to sleep. And

1765
03:41:24.959 --> 03:41:31.600
if that's what you want, then just allow yourself to

1766
03:41:31.680 --> 03:41:46.319
do that. Now, focusing on your eyes, I'm going to

1767
03:41:46.440 --> 03:41:56.399
begin counting down from ten down to one right now

1768
03:42:31.239 --> 03:43:06.559
nine eight.

1769
03:45:11.879 --> 03:48:26.159
H four.

1770
03:48:28.399 --> 03:50:17.319
Three moss.

1771
03:50:17.600 --> 03:51:21.639
Pussis one. So counting down from ten to one ten

1772
03:51:23.559 --> 03:51:52.760
nine eight seven six five four three two one. And

1773
03:51:52.920 --> 03:51:56.319
maybe that was a bit too quick in order to relax.

1774
03:51:57.520 --> 03:52:01.760
Maybe it's a bit too fast for you to notice

1775
03:52:02.000 --> 03:52:10.120
the calming of your body, maybe even a little bit

1776
03:52:10.120 --> 03:52:14.239
of pressure there, like you're counting down from ten to one.

1777
03:52:14.319 --> 03:52:17.719
Would you expect me to do? Man, expect me to

1778
03:52:17.719 --> 03:52:21.760
just to go with floppy just because you're counting down.

1779
03:52:27.319 --> 03:52:30.639
We could try it again, but this time I'll go

1780
03:52:30.680 --> 03:52:37.840
a bit slower this time. As you focus on the

1781
03:52:37.879 --> 03:52:42.639
whole of your body before we focus on your legs.

1782
03:52:44.440 --> 03:52:54.760
Just notice how your body does start to feel more relaxed.

1783
03:53:00.799 --> 03:54:46.799
Every number that I count down ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three, two, one,

1784
03:54:47.680 --> 03:54:53.399
I just notice how how you feel, generally, how your

1785
03:54:53.399 --> 03:55:08.239
body feels. It's not necessarily even about counting down from

1786
03:55:08.360 --> 03:55:16.040
ten to one. It's that space that you have, that

1787
03:55:18.600 --> 03:55:39.559
space between being active physically or mentally to just sitting

1788
03:55:39.760 --> 03:55:44.600
or lying down, just being there, not doing anything, not

1789
03:55:44.879 --> 03:55:51.920
saying anything, or needing to think about anything. So it

1790
03:55:52.000 --> 03:55:55.600
opens up a space, you know, a bit of a space,

1791
03:55:56.520 --> 03:56:06.399
a gap. And the more I came down from ten

1792
03:56:06.440 --> 03:56:13.959
to one, the bigger that gap becomes. So there's that

1793
03:56:14.040 --> 03:56:26.719
gap of calmness, of comfort, relaxation. It's a nice feeling,

1794
03:56:32.239 --> 03:56:40.959
and it moves those stresses or discomforts physically or emotionally,

1795
03:56:41.639 --> 03:56:55.680
moves away. Allows you to just.

1796
03:56:58.559 --> 03:57:05.319
Slow down, someone to count again from ten down to one,

1797
03:57:05.719 --> 03:57:15.959
and notice that gap widening, the gap, And as it widens,

1798
03:57:16.000 --> 03:57:22.319
it's almost like the stress and attention falls into.

1799
03:57:22.000 --> 03:57:42.719
The gap and gives you that distance that space now

1800
03:57:47.360 --> 03:59:37.200
ten nine, eight, seven, six, five four three two one.

1801
03:59:49.040 --> 03:59:53.079
How did you work body feel.

1802
03:59:55.040 --> 03:59:55.200
Now?

1803
04:00:07.920 --> 04:00:23.159
Can you notice that the feeling calmer, the feeling more

1804
04:00:23.639 --> 04:00:51.760
relaxed as we now focus on your legs, just your legs.

1805
04:01:07.000 --> 04:01:27.200
We're just gonna start with focusing on your thighs. Of course,

1806
04:01:27.280 --> 04:01:32.159
it's not the most exciting thing to be doing, because

1807
04:01:35.600 --> 04:01:38.319
I'm sure, like most of your body is not a

1808
04:01:38.360 --> 04:01:50.840
lot going on right now. Just focusing on the whole

1809
04:01:50.920 --> 04:01:57.280
of your thighs, the tops of your thighs, the sides

1810
04:01:57.440 --> 04:02:04.520
of your fighs, the bottoms of your thighs, your outer thighs,

1811
04:02:04.559 --> 04:02:09.520
and your inner thighs, basically the whole of your thigh

1812
04:02:09.600 --> 04:02:18.360
that leads into your hip and it goes down to

1813
04:02:18.559 --> 04:02:32.600
your knee joint. Now, this is a big area. It's

1814
04:02:32.600 --> 04:02:38.159
a very heavy area. It's very strong. Probably the strongest

1815
04:02:39.120 --> 04:02:52.360
muscles in your body are in your thighs. But I

1816
04:02:52.360 --> 04:03:00.760
don't think we perhaps give enough attention to our thighs.

1817
04:03:06.600 --> 04:03:14.239
Perhaps we don't and acknowledge how important our thighs are

1818
04:03:17.319 --> 04:03:34.159
to our lives, how much they actually do for us

1819
04:03:38.000 --> 04:03:48.079
all through our lives. And it may seem to sound

1820
04:03:48.120 --> 04:03:53.799
really weird, but I think that all of our body parts,

1821
04:03:56.680 --> 04:04:04.040
especially our thighs, needs some e'l see a bit of

1822
04:04:04.159 --> 04:04:20.760
love shown, a bit of acknowledgement. I thank you gratitude

1823
04:04:23.680 --> 04:04:32.840
for our thighs do for us. And I know this

1824
04:04:33.000 --> 04:04:38.959
may sound a bit strange. Maybe you think, why am

1825
04:04:38.959 --> 04:04:42.479
I sure I should be out in the garden hugging

1826
04:04:42.520 --> 04:04:50.479
a tree or something. Well, it's hard to set a

1827
04:04:50.520 --> 04:04:54.239
microphone up on a tree. That's why I'm doing this indoors.

1828
04:04:54.239 --> 04:04:58.040
Otherwise I wouldn't be outside hugging a tree. I can't

1829
04:04:58.040 --> 04:05:06.840
see the television from the tree. If you move down

1830
04:05:06.879 --> 04:05:16.680
to your knees gain such an important part. And I

1831
04:05:16.719 --> 04:05:23.600
think we don't necessarily I'll speak for myself here. I

1832
04:05:23.639 --> 04:05:28.840
don't necessarily appreciate all that my needs do for me

1833
04:05:30.079 --> 04:05:35.280
until I have a problem with my knee. It's occasionally,

1834
04:05:35.280 --> 04:05:40.280
if I ever maybe i'll bash it or it's aching

1835
04:05:40.440 --> 04:05:46.879
for some reason. It's then that I realize how much

1836
04:05:46.959 --> 04:05:51.399
it does. You know, the benefit of being able to

1837
04:05:51.520 --> 04:06:01.520
use my legs without any kind of physical discomfort is

1838
04:06:01.559 --> 04:06:10.319
a beautiful thing that's possibly not appreciated until it's temporarily removed.

1839
04:06:11.440 --> 04:06:18.520
You know that's comfort, But as you focus on your knees,

1840
04:06:20.559 --> 04:06:26.239
regardless of how your knees feel, you can have that

1841
04:06:26.479 --> 04:06:32.719
sense of gratitude and love to your knees for all

1842
04:06:32.799 --> 04:06:45.079
that they do for you, and you can still have

1843
04:06:45.159 --> 04:06:49.360
that attention on your thighs and maybe notice how your

1844
04:06:49.399 --> 04:07:01.319
thighs feel. Maybe you've noticed that they are relaxing more

1845
04:07:03.079 --> 04:07:14.719
deeply as you focus now on the bottoms of your legs,

1846
04:07:15.159 --> 04:07:21.000
your shins, and your calf muscles, the bones between your

1847
04:07:21.920 --> 04:07:30.920
knees and your feet, incorporating of course, your ankles, so important.

1848
04:07:36.399 --> 04:07:41.000
You know, anyone has had even like the slightest sprain

1849
04:07:41.120 --> 04:07:48.799
of an ankle knows how much we take our ankles

1850
04:07:48.920 --> 04:07:57.120
for granted. And it's kind of strange in a way

1851
04:07:57.159 --> 04:08:02.799
when you think that. You know, logically, our wrists are

1852
04:08:02.840 --> 04:08:06.920
a lot thinner than the rest of our arms, which

1853
04:08:07.000 --> 04:08:10.319
is okay, it doesn't I can't see any problem with that,

1854
04:08:11.600 --> 04:08:17.600
because we're just picking stuff up by our ankles so

1855
04:08:17.760 --> 04:08:27.799
much thinner than the rest of our legs. And from

1856
04:08:27.799 --> 04:08:32.360
a physics perspective or logical even it doesn't really make

1857
04:08:32.479 --> 04:08:40.639
sense that all this weight would ultimately be resting on

1858
04:08:41.360 --> 04:08:51.239
your ankles then leading to your feet. That thin area

1859
04:08:51.920 --> 04:09:01.559
thin bone. Yeah, it does so much great work. Supports us,

1860
04:09:01.639 --> 04:09:11.639
supports our body for a lifetime, helps us to balance,

1861
04:09:13.799 --> 04:09:26.639
It helps you to get around and be mobile. And

1862
04:09:26.719 --> 04:09:34.559
there's the calf muscles. Of course, when I was younger,

1863
04:09:34.799 --> 04:09:38.120
I couldn't see the pointing calf muscles. I didn't seem

1864
04:09:38.120 --> 04:09:43.239
to do anything. Okay, if I walked around on tiptoes,

1865
04:09:44.000 --> 04:09:47.879
then my calf muscles get some work. But of course

1866
04:09:47.920 --> 04:09:52.079
that's not true. The calf muscles are being used whenever

1867
04:09:52.120 --> 04:10:04.120
we use their legs and your shins there to protect

1868
04:10:06.040 --> 04:10:14.719
your lower legs, shaped in a way, almost as a

1869
04:10:14.760 --> 04:10:27.079
protector for the bone, leading of course to your ankles

1870
04:10:30.399 --> 04:10:37.079
and your feet. But we're not going to focus on

1871
04:10:37.120 --> 04:10:39.280
your feet. We're just going to focus on the legs.

1872
04:10:41.159 --> 04:10:45.799
And I realize, and now that I've mentioned your feet,

1873
04:10:45.840 --> 04:10:50.559
you'll probably focus on them anyway, So maybe I should

1874
04:10:50.600 --> 04:10:56.600
focus on your feet a little bit. You can have

1875
04:10:56.719 --> 04:11:02.000
them in your awareness, the same as you have your

1876
04:11:02.040 --> 04:11:06.319
thighs in your awareness. Even though we haven't been focusing

1877
04:11:07.000 --> 04:11:11.799
on your thighs for a few minutes, I've been focusing

1878
04:11:11.879 --> 04:11:28.559
on your ankles, there's still that sensation of comfort in

1879
04:11:28.600 --> 04:11:40.479
your thighs. And there's that movement of energy because the

1880
04:11:40.559 --> 04:11:48.239
thighs hold lots of different sensations. Of course, there's the muscles,

1881
04:11:48.760 --> 04:11:52.959
the big strong muscles that we have in our thighs,

1882
04:12:01.559 --> 04:12:07.319
but the skin on the outside of the thighs, as

1883
04:12:07.360 --> 04:12:11.959
in the outside of all of our body, can be

1884
04:12:12.120 --> 04:12:29.840
very sensitive, sensitive to the touch, sensitive to temperature, and

1885
04:12:30.000 --> 04:12:38.399
inside your thighs the bones, there's the muscle, there's the blood, vessels,

1886
04:12:38.520 --> 04:12:44.760
the ar trees to all this stuff that's inside your thighs.

1887
04:12:48.639 --> 04:12:51.840
And I guess sometimes it'd be nice if you could

1888
04:12:51.840 --> 04:12:59.639
actually put your fingers inside your thighs and message, so

1889
04:12:59.680 --> 04:13:03.280
you can message on the outside, of course, but to

1890
04:13:03.280 --> 04:13:06.440
be able to get deep into the muscles, and to

1891
04:13:06.520 --> 04:13:11.639
be able to just massage inside your thighs, message in

1892
04:13:11.680 --> 04:13:20.319
the bones of your leg, massage in all the veins,

1893
04:13:20.760 --> 04:13:31.239
just gently healing your thighs and you can move down

1894
04:13:33.239 --> 04:13:38.399
message and inside your knees, just message in those bones,

1895
04:13:39.319 --> 04:13:46.399
but with healing fingertips, spreading that healing energy deep into

1896
04:13:46.440 --> 04:13:55.920
the choints of your knees. Of course, there's the back

1897
04:13:56.040 --> 04:14:01.239
of your you need and the inside crease where your

1898
04:14:01.319 --> 04:14:08.879
knee is. It's a very sensitive area, very it feels

1899
04:14:08.959 --> 04:14:13.000
very nice when you stroke it. That might be because

1900
04:14:13.840 --> 04:14:18.920
it's an area that's not really touched very often. It's

1901
04:14:18.959 --> 04:14:25.520
almost like a hidden part, that crease in your legs.

1902
04:14:25.559 --> 04:14:32.920
It's almost like a part that has a sensitivity, which

1903
04:14:32.959 --> 04:14:43.440
is a little bit different. Of course, it's protected by

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your legs. So you can imagine putting your fingers into

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that crease in your legs. Fold in between your legs.

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You can just message with your fingertips. Imagine your fingertips

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going inside, massage in the muscle tissue you can cause

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field the bones of your knees, healing through your fingertips,

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and then as you go down to your calf muscles,

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and that's a part. I'd like to be able to

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really put my fingertips deep inside my calf muscles, massage

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in every single tissue of that muscle, healing every part

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art and then doing the same for my sins, massaging

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and generally stroking the bones, generally stroking them, healing in

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a loving way because they deserve to be treated. There's

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the precious bones that they are, because our legs are

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so precious as in all the other parts of our body,

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the more precious at any chore on the planet. When

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you start to think about your legs in this way,

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it can change your perspective. It might sound a bit

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a bit silly to start with the idea of having

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love for your legs, showing appreciation for your thighs, wanting

1923
04:17:28.840 --> 04:17:32.840
to be able to put your hands in your thighs,

1924
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massage the muscles and the bones, and to get your

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04:17:41.440 --> 04:17:49.520
fingers deep in there and releasing all tension, just to

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04:17:49.639 --> 04:17:59.079
show how much you care about your legs, how much

1927
04:17:59.159 --> 04:18:04.879
you care for or what your legs do for you regularly,

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your needs, your calves, your ankles, the strength of your ankles,

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considering how thin they are compared to the rest of

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your legs, especially your thighs. Yet this so strong, so flexible,

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absolutely amazing things. Your ankles are truly a gift because

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of what they do for you, supporting all the hell

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weight regardless of how what weight you are, even if

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you only eat eight stone, there's still a lot of

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weight for these little ankles. Now, I'm a lot heavier

1936
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than eight stone double down, Yet my ankles support my

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body all the time. Whether they do give off a

1938
04:19:35.559 --> 04:19:40.959
sigh of relief when I sit down, that's in fact,

1939
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my whole legs do my feet feet also go, my

1940
04:19:50.159 --> 04:20:17.719
toes clap. I'm so happy, m Your legs really are amazing,

1941
04:20:20.319 --> 04:20:24.000
and I know they're talking about Talking about your legs

1942
04:20:24.079 --> 04:20:30.680
is probably possibly among the most most boring things I've

1943
04:20:30.719 --> 04:20:39.760
ever heard anyone say. Possibly you're boring or not. Everything

1944
04:20:39.799 --> 04:20:55.399
I said is true. Your legs are amazing. Your legs

1945
04:20:55.440 --> 04:21:15.000
deserve not just respect, they deserve to relax deeply. They

1946
04:21:15.079 --> 04:21:20.399
deserve to take some time out of the day to

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just let go completely. Legs really can relax. And because

1948
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the legs are so such a most you know, very

1949
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important part of your body. When you relax your legs,

1950
04:22:07.120 --> 04:22:14.360
the rest of your body also naturally follows in that

1951
04:22:18.079 --> 04:22:28.959
journey of comfort. I can feel it in my hips.

1952
04:22:30.319 --> 04:22:37.479
My hips feel really loose, and also my lower back

1953
04:22:37.520 --> 04:22:44.120
as well. My lower back really feels it feels stretched,

1954
04:22:45.239 --> 04:22:48.319
even though I'm just sitting in a chair and there's

1955
04:22:48.360 --> 04:22:53.639
no stretching as far as I'm aware that I'm doing.

1956
04:22:54.639 --> 04:22:57.319
It's almost as if the muscles are just relaxed so

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much that there is a net tru stretch as the

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tension has reduced a lot. And I'm now going to

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04:23:25.360 --> 04:23:32.879
count down from ten down to one, and you can

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continue to fill wonderfully relaxed ten nine eight seven, six,

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five four three two one. Relax. So I'm just going

1962
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to count down for five down to one, and as

1963
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a countdown, if you just focus on the numbers, just

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the numbers counting down, and notice how you feel in

1965
04:24:55.879 --> 04:25:01.639
this moment as you hear the numbers counting down, knowing

1966
04:25:01.760 --> 04:25:15.399
that those numbers counting down represent you feeling calmer, not

1967
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just in your body, but also relaxing your mind. Just

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notice how you feel.

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There's nothing to do, there's nothing to say, there's nothing

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to think about, starting with number five.

1971
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Four three two one. How as you notice the gradual

1972
04:26:33.079 --> 04:26:39.799
letting go of the tension in your body.

1973
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You may also begin to notice and be aware of

1974
04:26:47.120 --> 04:26:53.399
how your mind is starting to slow down.

1975
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This is just a natural thing that happens. It's not

1976
04:27:02.399 --> 04:27:07.680
really a special procedure. It's just natural because as your

1977
04:27:08.920 --> 04:27:14.920
body relaxes, your mind also starts to relax. And the

1978
04:27:15.000 --> 04:27:18.719
more your mind relaxes, the more your body relaxes. It's

1979
04:27:18.799 --> 04:27:29.079
just a continuous circle of relaxation. And there is that

1980
04:27:30.239 --> 04:27:38.120
calmness that comes from relative quietness. You know, even even

1981
04:27:38.159 --> 04:27:45.200
if there's background sounds either your side online, it's still

1982
04:27:45.600 --> 04:27:50.920
going to be quite calm. You know, you haven't got

1983
04:27:50.920 --> 04:27:56.079
the television on, there's no music in the background unless

1984
04:27:56.120 --> 04:28:03.600
you're listening to the recording. With music, of course, you're

1985
04:28:03.719 --> 04:28:05.840
very likely not going to be sitting in a room

1986
04:28:05.879 --> 04:28:10.520
with other people. Of course you might be, but generally

1987
04:28:10.600 --> 04:28:13.799
it's more ideal if you can do this on your own,

1988
04:28:15.479 --> 04:28:25.639
so no distractions, and when you stop thinking about stuff,

1989
04:28:32.120 --> 04:28:42.440
relaxation automatically rises, a sense of comfort starts to grow,

1990
04:28:46.879 --> 04:28:53.639
and without trying to build it up into something fantastical

1991
04:28:54.000 --> 04:29:05.760
or something magical, this is just a natural process, something

1992
04:29:05.879 --> 04:29:16.079
that's easy to accomplish. In fact, it's almost you know,

1993
04:29:16.159 --> 04:29:23.040
the sense of relaxing completely happens really when you put

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04:29:23.200 --> 04:29:27.120
no effort into it. It's not something that you can

1995
04:29:27.159 --> 04:29:39.159
really force. It's something that happens naturally. And part of

1996
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the process of this recording and others is simply two

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allow you to take advantage of this space, this time,

1998
04:30:04.399 --> 04:30:15.360
to just let go, to just be here, to be

1999
04:30:15.959 --> 04:30:29.399
in tune with how you feel, yet with the intention

2000
04:30:31.600 --> 04:30:43.040
of wanting to relax deeply and maybe even to fall asleep,

2001
04:30:44.239 --> 04:30:49.440
depending on what it is that you wish for yourself

2002
04:30:51.159 --> 04:31:06.239
in this moment. As we know, relaxing is the majority

2003
04:31:07.440 --> 04:31:11.920
of the process of falling asleep. The actual falling asleep

2004
04:31:12.000 --> 04:31:18.920
part is the tiny bit at the end. The deeper

2005
04:31:20.079 --> 04:31:42.360
relaxed you become, the easier you find yourself drifting. But

2006
04:31:42.520 --> 04:31:49.120
you can also if you choose, stay focused on my

2007
04:31:49.280 --> 04:32:17.360
voice and really enjoy the process of gradually relaxing each

2008
04:32:17.799 --> 04:32:44.399
muscle in your body effortlessly and just observing the sensation

2009
04:32:49.639 --> 04:33:05.360
of letting go completely. This time, I'm going to count

2010
04:33:05.400 --> 04:33:15.479
from six down to one, and you can notice your

2011
04:33:15.639 --> 04:33:23.919
mind calming down more with each number.

2012
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That you hear me.

2013
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Say, naturally, feeling calm and slow and peaceful. Sex fivehhhhhhhhhhh, four, three, two, one,

2014
04:36:35.759 --> 04:36:45.400
being aware of how your mind to slow write down,

2015
04:36:48.599 --> 04:37:12.040
sinking deeply into relaxation. And as you focus on your mind,

2016
04:37:12.279 --> 04:37:24.799
you may notice that there are some thoughts still there,

2017
04:37:24.799 --> 04:37:34.360
maybe some stubborn thoughts that for some reason perhaps need

2018
04:37:34.439 --> 04:37:49.680
your attention. So what you can do is send love

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04:37:49.880 --> 04:38:03.599
to those thoughts. Sprinkle those thoughts with love. My little

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04:38:03.639 --> 04:38:09.319
petals from a flower, Just sprinkle it over them, petals

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filled with love towards those thoughts. To let those thoughts.

2022
04:38:16.799 --> 04:38:17.200
Know that.

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You're not abandoned the number. You just need them. You

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04:38:25.040 --> 04:38:37.240
require them to just calm down, slow down, quiet down.

2025
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For now.

2026
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So as you focus on those remaining thoughts as we

2027
04:38:53.919 --> 04:38:59.159
count down this time from seven down to one. With

2028
04:38:59.279 --> 04:39:13.360
each number, just imagine sprinkling those flower petals, lovely love, kindness,

2029
04:39:14.759 --> 04:39:26.680
gratitude over those thoughts, which will allow them to just

2030
04:39:28.080 --> 04:39:43.119
melt away and relax deeply. With every number, those thoughts

2031
04:39:43.200 --> 04:42:22.919
will become more and more relaxed, starting with none, seven, six, five, four, three, one.

2032
04:42:26.799 --> 04:42:49.720
As you now notice how relaxed your feeling in your body,

2033
04:42:52.639 --> 04:43:05.840
We're going to focus on your hands, because the more

2034
04:43:05.959 --> 04:43:13.040
relaxed your hands are, the more relaxed your body and

2035
04:43:13.279 --> 04:43:35.000
mind are. You focus on your hands and your fingers.

2036
04:43:40.400 --> 04:43:45.119
There's nothing needed to be done. There's no clenching of

2037
04:43:45.439 --> 04:43:49.919
fists or tents in the fingers or anything like that.

2038
04:43:57.200 --> 04:44:11.439
It's just noticing and focusing on your hands, noticing how

2039
04:44:11.520 --> 04:44:36.279
they feel. Because the more relaxed your hands feel, the

2040
04:44:36.520 --> 04:44:46.000
calmer your mind feels, and the more comforts you feel

2041
04:44:48.000 --> 04:45:13.439
throughout your body. Jee Me, I have already noticed your

2042
04:45:17.720 --> 04:45:49.200
mind is starting to drift quicksim just on your hands

2043
04:45:50.360 --> 04:46:08.479
and fingers, allowing them che experience a real deepening of

2044
04:46:08.520 --> 04:46:24.479
that relaxation in your hands and fingers, more and more relaxed.

2045
04:46:29.520 --> 04:46:47.919
With each number from eight down to one. You can

2046
04:46:47.959 --> 04:46:59.240
almost feel that healing and relaxing energy spreading into your

2047
04:46:59.400 --> 04:47:22.159
hands and fingers, becoming more relaxing with each number you hear,

2048
04:47:26.159 --> 04:47:46.959
going down eight down to one, drifting, drifting again, starting

2049
04:47:47.240 --> 04:51:49.040
with number A, seven, five, three, just being here now,

2050
04:51:52.680 --> 04:52:00.959
nothing to think about, nothing to do, nothing to say,

2051
04:52:02.919 --> 04:52:14.080
and everything just feels calmer. And this is your natural

2052
04:52:14.200 --> 04:52:22.119
state of being. This is how you just normally feel

2053
04:52:22.840 --> 04:52:30.119
when you take away all of that other stuff that

2054
04:52:30.279 --> 04:52:34.919
we add, you know, I think like stress and worrying

2055
04:52:35.119 --> 04:52:52.880
and overthinking, anxiety, tension, just generally thinking about stuff. We

2056
04:52:53.040 --> 04:52:56.799
take that away, which is what we do and what

2057
04:52:56.880 --> 04:53:09.279
we're doing. Now you're left with a real sense of

2058
04:53:10.159 --> 04:53:22.599
peacefulness which comes to you very quickly because ultimately it's

2059
04:53:22.840 --> 04:53:36.319
just a feeling, a feeling of comfort. It's almost as

2060
04:53:36.319 --> 04:53:40.479
if you've gone inside yourself and you've found a special

2061
04:53:40.520 --> 04:53:54.240
place where everything is peaceful, a place where you can

2062
04:53:54.360 --> 04:54:05.000
film relaxed and you're natural sense and comfort, a place

2063
04:54:05.040 --> 04:54:13.880
where you can be here, where you can accept yourself

2064
04:54:14.840 --> 04:54:19.959
and who you are. The place where you're not trying

2065
04:54:20.000 --> 04:54:30.759
to please anybody else ever, a place where you can

2066
04:54:32.080 --> 04:54:40.840
actually not just love yourself, but in some ways more importantly,

2067
04:54:41.439 --> 04:54:58.560
you can like yourself appreciate who you are. That sense

2068
04:54:58.639 --> 04:55:12.319
of gratitude it's in the air way around you. That's

2069
04:55:12.400 --> 04:55:20.840
also a place where you can actually feel the healing

2070
04:55:21.319 --> 04:55:39.080
energy soaking into your body. Healing energy soaking into your body.

2071
04:55:41.319 --> 04:55:50.759
The healing energy spreads through your veins, traveling to each

2072
04:55:52.159 --> 04:56:03.080
every single part of your body, and you start to

2073
04:56:03.159 --> 04:56:10.720
realize that actually that healing energy, it's not just entered

2074
04:56:10.759 --> 04:56:22.279
into your brain, it's become part of your brain, and

2075
04:56:22.439 --> 04:56:34.400
the spinal fluid is now mixed with healing energy, not

2076
04:56:34.560 --> 04:56:42.560
just allowing you to feel so much more relaxed and

2077
04:56:42.799 --> 04:56:55.360
healthy in this moment, but also you start to realize

2078
04:56:55.520 --> 04:57:05.479
that actually what's happening now out without healing relaxing energy

2079
04:57:06.400 --> 04:57:18.400
spreading through your body is actually changing your life. It's

2080
04:57:18.439 --> 04:57:24.119
actually changing the way you're going to feel not just now,

2081
04:57:25.799 --> 04:57:32.759
but tomorrow and the next day. As your health improves,

2082
04:57:36.200 --> 04:57:43.560
not just your physical health but your mental health. Things

2083
04:57:43.919 --> 04:57:48.599
that used to bother you in the past, for some

2084
04:57:48.759 --> 04:57:54.560
reason no longer have the effect that they used to,

2085
04:57:57.560 --> 04:58:09.759
because somethings change deep within you. Maybe things that used

2086
04:58:09.759 --> 04:58:20.400
to cause you to feel anger no longer have that

2087
04:58:21.119 --> 04:58:29.159
power to control you the way they seem to be

2088
04:58:29.200 --> 04:58:39.680
able to before. As you realize that you're the one

2089
04:58:40.319 --> 04:58:52.119
who decides what affects you, you're the one who decides

2090
04:58:54.880 --> 04:59:05.959
to feel relaxed and calm when you choose to enjoy

2091
04:59:07.479 --> 04:59:23.040
noticing these natural developments of healing continuing to grow and

2092
04:59:23.200 --> 04:59:34.599
improve your life day by day, including of course, your

2093
04:59:34.599 --> 04:59:52.040
ability to relax so much easier and sleeping. It's the

2094
04:59:52.080 --> 05:00:02.959
most natural thing in the world to you, because falling

2095
05:00:03.040 --> 05:00:11.560
asleep is something that you've done so many times in

2096
05:00:11.599 --> 05:00:18.720
your life, and you know that you were born, as

2097
05:00:18.799 --> 05:00:25.240
we all were, with the ability to fall asleep naturally.

2098
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We were born with that ability to just drift off

2099
05:00:40.840 --> 05:00:54.040
into a deep, healing sleep. Even when we're kids, sometimes

2100
05:00:54.080 --> 05:00:58.560
will fall asleep and we don't even want to try

2101
05:00:58.639 --> 05:01:00.479
to think of stay away.

2102
05:01:01.319 --> 05:01:04.840
Maybe it's a birthday in the morning, or it's Christmas

2103
05:01:05.000 --> 05:01:07.319
or holiday or something.

2104
05:01:07.040 --> 05:01:09.680
We look forward to. We don't want to go to sleep,

2105
05:01:11.880 --> 05:01:16.919
But the more we want to stay awake, the more

2106
05:01:17.119 --> 05:01:25.439
we just start to drift. And the more you fights drifting,

2107
05:01:26.360 --> 05:01:31.159
we'll try to stop yourself and drift in asleep. The

2108
05:01:31.319 --> 05:01:43.240
deeper and stronger that drifting becomes. Because we're born not

2109
05:01:43.479 --> 05:01:49.639
just with the need to relax deeply and to naturally

2110
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fall asleep, but it's our birthright, it's part of our DNA,

2111
05:02:06.919 --> 05:02:12.040
and sometimes as we get older in life, perhaps at

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05:02:12.200 --> 05:02:26.599
times we have forgotten relaxing completely. It's not only a

2113
05:02:26.880 --> 05:02:51.159
wonderfully pleasant experience, it's also really easy. It's very, very

2114
05:02:51.599 --> 05:02:57.439
easy to let go, because that's all it is, is

2115
05:02:57.639 --> 05:03:12.319
just deciding to let go. And when you press the

2116
05:03:12.439 --> 05:03:22.799
play button on my recordings, you have given permission for

2117
05:03:23.000 --> 05:03:31.400
my voice to relax you. When you press that play button,

2118
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you have given me permission for my words to effect

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you in a positive, only a positive way, opening up

2120
05:04:00.360 --> 05:04:18.840
your mind to useful and healing suggestions that can have

2121
05:04:23.159 --> 05:04:30.880
such an amazing effect on how you feel right now,

2122
05:04:35.360 --> 05:04:45.240
as well as those changes that continue long after the

2123
05:04:45.319 --> 05:04:56.159
recording ends, those changes within you that continue to flourish

2124
05:04:56.840 --> 05:05:11.439
and grow, transforming your life in a positive, beautiful way,

2125
05:05:14.520 --> 05:05:21.639
allowing you to move forward in your life in the

2126
05:05:21.680 --> 05:05:38.959
direction that you choose for yourself. And this feeling, this

2127
05:05:39.200 --> 05:05:54.880
feeling that you can experience a safety, comfort, calmness. This

2128
05:05:55.080 --> 05:06:08.759
feels so nice. It's such a healthy place to be,

2129
05:06:16.599 --> 05:06:33.439
and that posivity prows within you each and every day.

2130
05:06:33.479 --> 05:06:43.279
Moving forward, you're going to find that you're more relaxed

2131
05:06:45.599 --> 05:06:57.959
physically and in your mind is more relaxed. And it's

2132
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not that you're thinking slowly, it's just that your mind

2133
05:07:03.680 --> 05:07:15.560
will be less clogged up with unnecessary negativity because from

2134
05:07:15.639 --> 05:07:25.919
now on, your mind rejects negativity. From now on, you're

2135
05:07:25.959 --> 05:07:36.840
going to start noticing when negativity arises, and you can

2136
05:07:36.959 --> 05:07:50.959
just say stop, stop, and then negativity will turn around

2137
05:07:51.520 --> 05:08:10.919
and leave you alone. Stop and then negativity would disappear.

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And as you notice that you feel way more relaxed

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than you probably expected, you can now congratulate yourself because

2140
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you are the person that has done this. You are

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05:08:48.840 --> 05:08:53.599
the one that has opened your mind up to the

2142
05:08:53.720 --> 05:08:59.040
simple facts that you can.

2143
05:08:59.240 --> 05:09:04.200
Feel more relaxed than your body and in your mind,

2144
05:09:10.040 --> 05:09:16.240
you've opened your mind up to the birthright of being.

2145
05:09:16.000 --> 05:09:32.880
Able to just fall asleep easily when you choose. And

2146
05:09:33.000 --> 05:09:40.000
that's a nice feeling. Don't you think it feels nice?

2147
05:09:40.080 --> 05:09:49.479
Doesn't it to feel calm. All the healing energy is

2148
05:09:49.560 --> 05:10:00.479
spreading through your body in your mind, to spend time

2149
05:10:02.720 --> 05:10:18.680
a special place where negativity can no longer enter. Negativity

2150
05:10:18.840 --> 05:10:27.840
is banned. It's bad, it's not allowed entry. Doesn't it doesn't.

2151
05:10:27.880 --> 05:10:36.360
This doesn't deserve to be here, doesn't belong here. Negativity

2152
05:10:36.520 --> 05:10:50.720
has no place in your life, which makes room for

2153
05:10:51.040 --> 05:11:22.560
more comfort, more healing, more relaxation, more peace. It feels nice,

2154
05:11:22.639 --> 05:11:47.919
doesn't it. Just let go with everything. I'm gonna count

2155
05:11:48.000 --> 05:11:56.360
down now from twenty down to one. You can continue

2156
05:11:56.439 --> 05:12:10.919
to relax future, you can drift to sleep With every

2157
05:12:11.080 --> 05:12:22.759
number you hear me say, you can fill twice as relaxed,

2158
05:12:25.759 --> 05:12:37.360
or if you choose, you can fill twice sleeping now.

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Twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twoeve eleven, ten, nine, eight,

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seven six five. Oh, this is your time to just

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05:15:35.919 --> 05:15:50.639
take a break, your time to relax, to allow your

2162
05:15:50.919 --> 05:16:08.080
mind to slow down, to give yourself permission to take

2163
05:16:08.520 --> 05:16:22.759
a break from everything. Ensure the only person that can

2164
05:16:22.840 --> 05:16:28.959
make that decision. You're the only person that can actually

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05:16:29.000 --> 05:16:48.520
tell your mind to just relax, to just take some

2166
05:16:48.720 --> 05:17:01.560
time off so that you can focus on your body,

2167
05:17:02.520 --> 05:17:17.479
getting in touch with how you feel physically, and in

2168
05:17:17.560 --> 05:17:25.360
the process of this body scan, where you focus on

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05:17:25.520 --> 05:17:35.680
different parts of your body, those parts that you focus

2170
05:17:35.720 --> 05:17:47.520
on and observe, even though you're not purposely requesting for

2171
05:17:47.680 --> 05:17:53.720
those parts of your body to relax, it's kind of expected.

2172
05:17:55.279 --> 05:18:00.880
You expect when you listen to my voice to feel

2173
05:18:01.840 --> 05:18:15.599
more relaxed naturally, because when you're listening to me, your

2174
05:18:15.599 --> 05:18:28.000
attention is focused on my words, and as my words

2175
05:18:28.840 --> 05:18:39.080
guide you to focus on those parts of your body,

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05:18:42.840 --> 05:19:05.000
your focus increases, which actually calms your mind. And when

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your mind comes down, your body relaxes. And when your

2178
05:19:24.439 --> 05:19:48.240
body calms down, your mind relaxes and can do If

2179
05:19:48.360 --> 05:19:57.159
not really started to focus on your body, you can

2180
05:19:57.840 --> 05:20:13.240
already feel that healing energy spreading through your body, pushing

2181
05:20:13.439 --> 05:20:27.720
out stress and tension, healing all the parts of your body,

2182
05:20:29.639 --> 05:20:37.360
including your skin, your bones, your blood, all of your

2183
05:20:37.360 --> 05:20:43.200
workings inside your body, all of the muscles, all of

2184
05:20:43.279 --> 05:20:50.759
the fat, all of everything, every hair on your body

2185
05:20:52.919 --> 05:20:55.479
is filled with that healing energy.

2186
05:21:03.279 --> 05:21:04.000
And when your.

2187
05:21:03.959 --> 05:21:27.880
Brain fills without healing energy, the feeling of comfort relaxation increases,

2188
05:21:35.240 --> 05:21:52.880
deeply increases in a way that your mind starts to

2189
05:21:53.080 --> 05:22:09.319
fill perhaps bit drowsing because it's not needed, and it

2190
05:22:09.439 --> 05:22:13.959
may start to.

2191
05:22:14.080 --> 05:22:29.720
Drift if that's what's needed. So if you're listening to

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05:22:29.880 --> 05:22:35.840
this and what you need is deep relaxation, that's.

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05:22:35.680 --> 05:22:42.159
Where you get. If what you need is to fall

2194
05:22:42.240 --> 05:22:51.959
asleep naturally and easily as your mind drifts, that's also

2195
05:22:53.439 --> 05:23:06.520
what will happens. By pressing a play button on the

2196
05:23:06.639 --> 05:23:14.080
podcast and listening to me, you give permission your body

2197
05:23:14.119 --> 05:23:26.080
and your mind. In fact, you give the command to

2198
05:23:26.159 --> 05:23:37.159
your body and your mind to relax deeply and to

2199
05:23:37.319 --> 05:23:46.959
drift off to sleep, if that's what you want or need.

2200
05:23:54.400 --> 05:24:01.360
Then as I focus on the different parts of your body,

2201
05:24:05.040 --> 05:24:13.880
you may start to just drift. And then you come

2202
05:24:13.959 --> 05:24:19.240
back again and you hear me talking, and I'm focusing

2203
05:24:19.360 --> 05:24:30.240
on a different part of your body, you may find

2204
05:24:30.360 --> 05:24:40.799
yourself drifting ben and realize you're drifting. Until you stop drifting,

2205
05:24:42.279 --> 05:24:49.479
you're alert again to my voice, focusing on a different

2206
05:24:49.599 --> 05:24:54.400
part of your body, starts to relax in a deeper

2207
05:24:58.840 --> 05:25:07.319
because I'm drifting, it's basically here already in the sleep zone.

2208
05:25:13.840 --> 05:25:19.000
Then the more you drift, the longer you drift, the

2209
05:25:19.119 --> 05:25:34.439
longer you drift. Eventually, that drifting continues into sleep, and

2210
05:25:34.599 --> 05:25:43.799
that's the last you remember until you wake up in

2211
05:25:43.919 --> 05:25:49.560
your own time, when you experience the right amount of sleep.

2212
05:25:50.360 --> 05:25:59.479
Fear because when you do and if you do fall asleep,

2213
05:25:59.639 --> 05:26:27.159
it's extremely pleasant. So relaxing, so deep healing sleep. I

2214
05:26:27.400 --> 05:26:35.040
feel so nice to relax scenes in your own body

2215
05:26:35.119 --> 05:26:44.599
and mind. If you feel that heating energy is spreading

2216
05:26:45.000 --> 05:27:09.840
through you, relaxing use so deeply relaxes. So take by

2217
05:27:10.119 --> 05:27:26.680
start to focus on your eyes, moving down to your jaw,

2218
05:27:34.599 --> 05:28:39.840
down till back, your shoulders, arms, thins, your chest, stuck spine,

2219
05:28:47.119 --> 05:29:40.720
your heaps, your ex your fate, your ties, spreading grime

2220
05:29:42.400 --> 05:29:54.799
inside your body, feeling you up. Now, let's focus again

2221
05:29:57.040 --> 05:30:05.159
on parts of your body, focusing this time on your forehead.

2222
05:30:11.599 --> 05:30:20.919
Now on your mouth, your lips, your tongue, a whole

2223
05:30:20.959 --> 05:30:42.799
of your mouth. Focus in on your fingers. Maybe you

2224
05:30:42.840 --> 05:30:48.479
could move your fingers a little bits. You can focus

2225
05:30:48.520 --> 05:31:03.040
on each one individually, both hands and even though if

2226
05:31:03.080 --> 05:31:08.400
you focus on both of your hands now they almost

2227
05:31:08.439 --> 05:31:17.000
seemed to just melt into one. Where is your right hand,

2228
05:31:17.200 --> 05:31:28.360
start left hand, and almost as if just mixed together.

2229
05:31:33.840 --> 05:31:44.720
Now focusing on your knees, just noticing how your knees

2230
05:31:44.880 --> 05:32:09.400
hell now focusing your elpers, focusing on both your holbers

2231
05:32:15.759 --> 05:32:51.279
just absurd. The feeling of your holpes now focusing, I'm sorry,

2232
05:32:53.119 --> 05:32:53.959
the back of your.

2233
05:32:53.919 --> 05:33:12.799
Neck energy.

2234
05:33:40.959 --> 05:35:07.159
Upside acos. It's course shows as not to say now

2235
05:35:09.759 --> 05:35:25.520
your ties, what if of your faint being with now

2236
05:35:27.479 --> 05:36:19.360
you ties feel right now? Ninety sent how you entire

2237
05:36:20.680 --> 05:37:07.919
body fails not to sing, your mind fails. Now letting go,

2238
05:37:16.479 --> 05:37:58.560
letting go, letting go everything, letting go, letting go, let's go,

2239
05:38:02.759 --> 05:38:25.159
h everything everything. I'm going to start now, and I

2240
05:38:25.159 --> 05:38:26.880
would like you just to, first of all, just to

2241
05:38:27.040 --> 05:38:35.000
see yourself lying down on the message table, lying on

2242
05:38:35.040 --> 05:38:40.080
your front. Your head is supported, your arms are supported,

2243
05:38:44.560 --> 05:38:50.799
and you feel comfortable and breathing is really easy, and

2244
05:38:50.959 --> 05:38:57.880
you feel you feel confident in how you look as well.

2245
05:38:57.919 --> 05:39:02.599
So there's none of that issue of body problems or shyness,

2246
05:39:03.479 --> 05:39:11.599
because I'm a professional and this is a therapy session,

2247
05:39:12.400 --> 05:39:19.840
so none of that stuff matters on whatsoever. This is

2248
05:39:19.880 --> 05:39:27.279
about you. This is about how you feel and how

2249
05:39:27.959 --> 05:39:35.200
you can enjoy that sense of comfort and relaxation that

2250
05:39:35.360 --> 05:39:41.959
comes from letting go and allowing my hands and my

2251
05:39:42.080 --> 05:39:54.479
fingers to relax you by messaging your body. So I

2252
05:39:54.520 --> 05:39:59.520
want to start off just by placing my hands on

2253
05:39:59.560 --> 05:40:04.000
a back of your head, just gently, just so you

2254
05:40:04.040 --> 05:40:13.040
can feel my hands feel like really on you, so

2255
05:40:13.200 --> 05:40:15.479
you can maybe feel the warmth of my hands on

2256
05:40:15.520 --> 05:40:20.759
the back of your head. And I with my hands

2257
05:40:20.759 --> 05:40:24.080
to the side of your head, not pressing, but just

2258
05:40:24.479 --> 05:40:30.759
holding there very gently, maybe over your ears, and a

2259
05:40:30.840 --> 05:40:35.319
little bit on your face, so you can feel my

2260
05:40:35.520 --> 05:40:50.520
hands so you can become accustomed to them. And now

2261
05:40:50.799 --> 05:40:52.959
put my hands on the back of your head again

2262
05:40:53.439 --> 05:41:08.360
and gently let them slide down of your neck. You

2263
05:41:08.400 --> 05:41:18.439
can feel my hands gently stroking the back of your

2264
05:41:18.479 --> 05:41:25.279
neck to start with, just so you can get used

2265
05:41:25.319 --> 05:41:29.479
to the the feeling of my hands on your skin,

2266
05:41:30.080 --> 05:41:38.159
get accustomed to it, realize that you're safe and it's

2267
05:41:38.159 --> 05:41:47.040
all good, it's all fine. And I'm going to start

2268
05:41:47.119 --> 05:41:51.360
gently massaging the muscles in the back of your neck

2269
05:41:58.959 --> 05:42:10.799
with both hands. And this is a very trusting situation really,

2270
05:42:11.319 --> 05:42:15.840
because our necks are so fragile and to have someone

2271
05:42:16.000 --> 05:42:20.759
have their hands around your neck in that way can

2272
05:42:20.840 --> 05:42:25.919
sometimes be problematic for people, which is why massages are

2273
05:42:26.159 --> 05:42:36.000
quite good because it allows you to relax and to

2274
05:42:36.040 --> 05:42:53.479
get in touch with trust to feel peaceful and calm.

2275
05:42:53.639 --> 05:43:01.080
There's a massage the sides of your neck, gently moving

2276
05:43:01.279 --> 05:43:06.400
from the bottom of your neck. It would be sort

2277
05:43:06.400 --> 05:43:09.560
of near where your shoulders start, I guess, all the

2278
05:43:09.599 --> 05:43:16.279
way up to your jaw, your ears, kind of area

2279
05:43:17.000 --> 05:43:21.840
the side of your neck. Of course, it's a lot

2280
05:43:21.919 --> 05:43:38.560
longer than the front of your neck, and message in

2281
05:43:38.560 --> 05:43:46.360
the back of your neck, especially that area where perhaps

2282
05:43:46.400 --> 05:43:54.279
we hold tension, and as that area's message, you can

2283
05:43:54.360 --> 05:43:58.479
actually feel a sense of release in the back of

2284
05:43:58.520 --> 05:44:09.360
your neck and maybe you can breathe it out as well.

2285
05:44:09.400 --> 05:44:22.200
Notice how it feels. Notice how you feel. And they're

2286
05:44:22.240 --> 05:44:26.479
moving down to that area between your neck and your shoulders,

2287
05:44:27.880 --> 05:44:36.840
that musty area, starting to message that area on both sides.

2288
05:44:39.000 --> 05:44:41.240
I mean, this would be the area that a lot

2289
05:44:41.240 --> 05:44:43.639
of people would message if they were going to give you,

2290
05:44:44.439 --> 05:44:49.959
like a shoulder message. Even that's not technically the shoulders,

2291
05:44:50.439 --> 05:44:53.000
but it's all the muscles that lead to the shoulders

2292
05:44:54.720 --> 05:45:01.360
from the neck and again that can hold tension and stress.

2293
05:45:02.560 --> 05:45:07.639
And when messaged sometimes a nice deep message is useful,

2294
05:45:10.639 --> 05:45:26.119
and you decide how deep that message is and just

2295
05:45:26.279 --> 05:45:33.240
allow my knuckles just to dig in to get to

2296
05:45:33.319 --> 05:45:42.799
those muscles and to really relaxed and all the time

2297
05:45:42.880 --> 05:46:00.560
and being firm yet gentle with you and just stroking

2298
05:46:00.680 --> 05:46:09.119
down the area to your actual shoulders, moving to the

2299
05:46:09.240 --> 05:46:20.200
muscles of your shoulders, and maybe initially just pulling up

2300
05:46:20.400 --> 05:46:24.119
the shoulders a little bit off the table, just to

2301
05:46:24.119 --> 05:46:28.439
give you a little bit of a stretch, but very gently.

2302
05:46:34.880 --> 05:46:37.599
And you've got the muscles at the front of your shoulders,

2303
05:46:38.319 --> 05:46:49.279
the sides and the back. Again, this is a part

2304
05:46:49.400 --> 05:46:54.840
that can really take quite a bit of pressure, quite

2305
05:46:54.840 --> 05:47:02.959
a bit of needing it if you wish to really

2306
05:47:04.759 --> 05:47:10.240
release the tension to really get into those muscles, and

2307
05:47:13.639 --> 05:47:16.680
you can let your fingers in there and you can

2308
05:47:16.720 --> 05:47:23.599
feel really nice. Sometimes it's just being stroked gently or

2309
05:47:23.680 --> 05:47:34.479
being messaged quite strongly, can all be beneficial to the

2310
05:47:34.560 --> 05:47:53.200
relaxation of the muscles in your shoulders. Now to move

2311
05:47:53.360 --> 05:48:04.080
down your arms, putting one arm at a time, starting

2312
05:48:04.200 --> 05:48:13.000
with your right arm. What I'll do is I just

2313
05:48:14.360 --> 05:48:17.560
lift your arm up, just hold it to the side

2314
05:48:17.560 --> 05:48:24.599
of you that where it still be attached, and I

2315
05:48:24.840 --> 05:48:39.439
just message the tops of your arms all the way

2316
05:48:39.520 --> 05:49:04.360
down to your forearms into your wrists, gently messaging that part.

2317
05:49:07.000 --> 05:49:13.720
The softer part which is the under part of the arm,

2318
05:49:13.759 --> 05:49:18.279
which leads to the crease in your elbow. The inside

2319
05:49:18.919 --> 05:49:33.759
it's much more sensitive skin. Sometimes just having that stroked

2320
05:49:36.360 --> 05:49:52.080
can feel really nice, pleasurable and relaxing. Now moving down

2321
05:49:53.439 --> 05:50:05.799
to your right hand, just holding your hand in both

2322
05:50:05.840 --> 05:50:15.520
of my hands, just pressing gently on the back of

2323
05:50:15.560 --> 05:50:26.560
your hand, stretching your fingers ever so lightly, at the

2324
05:50:26.639 --> 05:50:41.599
same time, pressing down and massaging each finger, and then

2325
05:50:41.799 --> 05:50:52.759
starting to massage the palms of their hand. Just turning

2326
05:50:52.840 --> 05:51:03.639
the hand gently, stretching it gently, and actually having your

2327
05:51:03.759 --> 05:51:12.080
handheld can really be an emotional experience sometimes, even if

2328
05:51:12.319 --> 05:51:17.279
it is a stranger, someone you don't know very well,

2329
05:51:18.200 --> 05:51:25.360
like a massage person or a therapist. Maybe because it's intimate,

2330
05:51:33.000 --> 05:51:45.880
you can feel nice, you can feel safe. And as

2331
05:51:45.880 --> 05:51:48.919
I put that right arm back down where it was,

2332
05:51:54.520 --> 05:52:00.799
we're gonna do the same with your left arm, exactly

2333
05:52:00.919 --> 05:52:10.599
the same, massaging the muscles in your arm all the

2334
05:52:10.639 --> 05:52:24.599
way down to your wrist, stroking the inside of your arm,

2335
05:52:24.639 --> 05:52:38.159
just being gentle or as firm as you require, and

2336
05:52:38.240 --> 05:52:54.639
then massaging your left hand, stretching the fingers gently, massaging

2337
05:52:54.919 --> 05:53:14.680
the palm of your left hand. You feel so so relaxing,

2338
05:53:22.319 --> 05:53:40.119
so comforting, and I'll just rest your left arm back down.

2339
05:53:47.639 --> 05:53:54.319
Start to message your back, the biggest part of your body,

2340
05:53:59.319 --> 05:54:06.279
starting to the top, starting again where we already have been,

2341
05:54:07.040 --> 05:54:11.759
the area at the top in between your shoulders, near

2342
05:54:11.799 --> 05:54:18.159
your neck. Going back, massage in the area again, but

2343
05:54:18.360 --> 05:54:32.000
this time moving downwards, making it downward. Stroke to the

2344
05:54:32.040 --> 05:54:39.759
middle of your back, working from the outside inwards. So

2345
05:54:39.959 --> 05:54:47.680
massage in that your back, but the outsides of your

2346
05:54:47.720 --> 05:55:05.720
back parts where your arms would maybe rest against, almost

2347
05:55:07.840 --> 05:55:20.000
the part that connects your front to your back, and

2348
05:55:20.319 --> 05:55:29.080
just messaging down firmly but gently, as firm as you want,

2349
05:55:32.479 --> 05:55:36.919
moving down, and then moving across a little bed, moving

2350
05:55:36.919 --> 05:55:43.000
all the way down again, be very gentle yet firm

2351
05:55:43.200 --> 05:55:54.840
as you choose. Eventually you get to the spine. We

2352
05:55:54.919 --> 05:55:59.000
can message the muscles on either side of your spine,

2353
05:56:00.040 --> 05:56:02.919
on the top of your neck, all the way down

2354
05:56:05.680 --> 05:56:15.319
to your lower back. We can do that a few times.

2355
05:56:17.680 --> 05:56:24.479
Sometimes people would use the knuckle or the you know,

2356
05:56:24.599 --> 05:56:30.319
the two fingers and just go your side of the spine,

2357
05:56:30.680 --> 05:56:34.439
almost just push down, go all the way down to

2358
05:56:34.479 --> 05:56:42.479
the bottom of the spine, each time releasing tension and

2359
05:56:42.720 --> 05:56:51.759
opening up the body. Stretching your body so that you

2360
05:56:52.000 --> 05:57:10.279
feel more relaxed but at the same time rejuvenated. And

2361
05:57:10.360 --> 05:57:13.759
now I'm going to move to one side, to your

2362
05:57:13.840 --> 05:57:22.919
right side, and from the bottom of your ribs to

2363
05:57:23.080 --> 05:57:29.000
your pelvis, I'm going to message that area of your back.

2364
05:57:30.959 --> 05:57:34.080
I'll stretch over the other side and I will pull

2365
05:57:34.200 --> 05:57:40.680
the muscles gently and massage and push from one end

2366
05:57:41.159 --> 05:57:45.319
that side or the way to my side to the

2367
05:57:45.400 --> 05:57:50.959
middle of fact to where your spine is massaging that

2368
05:57:51.240 --> 05:57:55.959
side of your spine the opposite side to where I'm standing.

2369
05:57:58.279 --> 05:58:04.520
It's almost like kneading. There's that big area which is

2370
05:58:05.959 --> 05:58:16.319
firm yet lots there to message. Potentially one of the

2371
05:58:16.319 --> 05:58:23.000
most important places to actually have a message because you

2372
05:58:23.279 --> 05:58:29.000
really feel it. You really feel the release and the

2373
05:58:29.040 --> 05:58:37.520
pleasure of having your lower back massaged. It releases so

2374
05:58:37.799 --> 05:58:46.319
much from your body that's not useful, starting a healing

2375
05:58:46.400 --> 05:58:52.040
process which will continue long after this recording is over.

2376
05:59:01.279 --> 05:59:04.159
The message in this part of your body not only

2377
05:59:04.279 --> 05:59:09.200
feels really good for you, it's actually fun to do

2378
05:59:10.479 --> 05:59:16.200
because it is, as I said, like kneading bread. It's

2379
05:59:16.240 --> 05:59:20.159
a part that you can really get hold of and

2380
05:59:20.279 --> 05:59:33.880
really massage deeply. If that's your choice. They're not going

2381
05:59:33.959 --> 05:59:36.040
to move over to the other side of your body

2382
05:59:36.439 --> 05:59:45.159
and do the same with the opposite part of your

2383
05:59:45.240 --> 05:59:52.319
lower back. Kneading and messaging from your sides or the

2384
05:59:52.400 --> 05:59:59.560
way to the middle of your back where your spine

2385
05:59:59.680 --> 06:00:13.439
is pressing and kneading firm and gentle at the same time.

2386
06:00:15.360 --> 06:00:28.000
It feels so releasing this mixture of pleasure, comfort, release, calmness,

2387
06:00:28.240 --> 06:00:39.919
relaxation or mixed together. Plus there's that feeling from your

2388
06:00:39.959 --> 06:00:45.119
stomach as it's been stretched. Even though you're in your

2389
06:00:45.200 --> 06:00:49.520
stomach now, you can feel it being stretched because that

2390
06:00:49.639 --> 06:01:01.000
whole area is connected to your stomach. Now we're going

2391
06:01:01.080 --> 06:01:06.040
to move or move further up to the top of

2392
06:01:06.080 --> 06:01:12.400
your body, and we did the same this time, starting

2393
06:01:13.720 --> 06:01:20.000
with your upper back. Put my hands forward over and

2394
06:01:20.159 --> 06:01:27.560
massive massage in that area up to your spine, from

2395
06:01:27.599 --> 06:01:31.759
the side of your body up to your spine. So

2396
06:01:31.880 --> 06:01:38.240
some of that message area, that muscle tissue or whatever

2397
06:01:38.439 --> 06:01:44.000
fatty tissue even will be possibly from your chest because

2398
06:01:44.000 --> 06:01:47.880
it's all connected. The chest and the back connect together.

2399
06:01:51.000 --> 06:01:54.319
I'm going to be massaging and just pulling some of

2400
06:01:54.360 --> 06:02:01.759
that skin from your side up and mess Sergeant that

2401
06:02:02.000 --> 06:02:09.479
area of your upper back all the way to your spine,

2402
06:02:13.919 --> 06:02:16.159
and then I'll move down a bit and I'll continue

2403
06:02:16.720 --> 06:02:19.560
with the middle of your back, doing exactly the same

2404
06:02:19.599 --> 06:02:37.159
thing as gentle, as deep as you choose. Now, I'll

2405
06:02:37.240 --> 06:02:41.319
move or the other side again and do the exact

2406
06:02:41.560 --> 06:02:45.319
same thing with the top of your back on the

2407
06:02:45.319 --> 06:02:54.919
other side, from pretty much underneath your arm area really

2408
06:03:00.279 --> 06:03:10.520
to your spine, and then continuing that all the way down,

2409
06:03:12.279 --> 06:03:29.159
including your lower your middle of your back. I'm gonna

2410
06:03:29.880 --> 06:03:36.479
go to your thighs, the backs of your thighs, and

2411
06:03:36.599 --> 06:03:43.880
the sides of your thighs, starting with your right leg.

2412
06:03:46.159 --> 06:03:53.639
Massage in the back and the sides of your thighs

2413
06:03:55.959 --> 06:04:02.400
gently and firmly. There's a lot of muscles there. It's

2414
06:04:02.439 --> 06:04:05.759
an area that can be very tense at times and

2415
06:04:05.880 --> 06:04:09.319
maybe needs a little bit more pressure than the rest

2416
06:04:09.319 --> 06:04:17.520
of the body that's up to you. You can gently

2417
06:04:17.639 --> 06:04:24.880
stroke the back of your legs where you know, opposite

2418
06:04:25.000 --> 06:04:30.520
your knee joint or underneath your knee joint, very sensitive,

2419
06:04:30.799 --> 06:04:43.880
gentle area. And then working down to your calf muscles,

2420
06:04:46.319 --> 06:04:52.759
massage in your half muscles thoroughly and deeply, if you choose,

2421
06:04:56.200 --> 06:05:15.400
using both hands fingers, digging deep to your ankles, in

2422
06:05:15.520 --> 06:05:21.759
the back of your back of your ankles, just gently

2423
06:05:21.959 --> 06:05:34.279
massage in that area, maybe lifting the leg and stretching

2424
06:05:34.400 --> 06:05:59.639
a little bit. Moving to the right foot, massaging the

2425
06:05:59.720 --> 06:06:06.439
plot some of your feet and the sides of your

2426
06:06:06.439 --> 06:06:23.119
feet gently but firm enough so they don't tickle, and

2427
06:06:23.319 --> 06:06:28.759
just allow the pleasure that you get from Heaven. Your

2428
06:06:28.799 --> 06:06:38.200
feet message to just overtake you as I continue to

2429
06:06:38.319 --> 06:06:44.680
message your feet, the bottoms of your feet, the sides,

2430
06:06:47.360 --> 06:06:53.119
your arches, your heel. You can put a lot of

2431
06:06:53.159 --> 06:06:59.040
pressure into your heel and it feels amazing, Yet the

2432
06:06:59.200 --> 06:07:07.319
arches need to be a bit more gentle. Stretching your

2433
06:07:07.439 --> 06:07:13.919
toes gently and massage in the bottoms of your toes

2434
06:07:14.599 --> 06:07:29.919
with my fingers, each one individually. Moving over to the

2435
06:07:30.080 --> 06:07:39.520
left leg to do exactly the same thing. Starting at

2436
06:07:39.520 --> 06:07:44.000
the top of the thighs, work in the back of

2437
06:07:44.040 --> 06:07:51.599
the thighs and the sides, massaging deeply and gently the

2438
06:07:51.759 --> 06:08:05.840
whole area, working all the way down. And this is

2439
06:08:05.880 --> 06:08:12.040
an area that maybe you could like to spend more

2440
06:08:12.119 --> 06:08:21.000
time relaxing and massaging. Perhaps if you wanted, I could

2441
06:08:21.000 --> 06:08:25.560
make a future recording. I want to spend more time

2442
06:08:25.680 --> 06:08:37.119
on one particular area as you moved down to your

2443
06:08:37.159 --> 06:08:51.080
calf muscles. Massagy and your calf muscles firmly and gently

2444
06:08:56.759 --> 06:09:06.159
moving down incordant your feet. Massage in the backs of

2445
06:09:06.240 --> 06:09:16.840
your feet, the bottoms of your feet, stretching your toes,

2446
06:09:17.040 --> 06:09:23.319
and message in each tone individually, and the feeling of

2447
06:09:23.520 --> 06:09:29.840
pleasure and release. The experience when you're having your feet

2448
06:09:30.200 --> 06:09:51.040
massaged feels really good. Now as you turn over in

2449
06:09:51.080 --> 06:10:02.319
your mind, laying on your back, I'm just gonna start

2450
06:10:02.360 --> 06:10:20.720
again your neck area and your shoulders, just to get

2451
06:10:20.799 --> 06:10:30.560
back in touch with that area. Unless we move up,

2452
06:10:38.319 --> 06:10:43.159
I can clean my hands, make them more fresh, because

2453
06:10:43.200 --> 06:10:52.360
now I'm gonna message your face simply starting off with

2454
06:10:52.520 --> 06:11:04.319
your forehead. Your eyes are closed, you can just stretch

2455
06:11:05.560 --> 06:11:10.119
your eyes a little bit, pushing up on your eyebrows,

2456
06:11:16.759 --> 06:11:29.599
just messaging around your scalp, massaging down your cheeks, around

2457
06:11:29.639 --> 06:11:42.279
your ears, into your chaw sently the side of your neck,

2458
06:11:46.119 --> 06:12:04.840
your chin, and just moving down from your neck down

2459
06:12:04.959 --> 06:12:12.680
to your chest, starting by message in the very top

2460
06:12:12.759 --> 06:12:21.040
of your chest where the collar phone is. Give a

2461
06:12:21.200 --> 06:12:33.080
side of the collarbone, and then just message in the

2462
06:12:33.119 --> 06:12:54.159
hole of the chest, moving the chest around because it's

2463
06:12:54.240 --> 06:12:59.240
quite a large area. You can move from one side

2464
06:12:59.319 --> 06:13:10.080
to the neck, moving my hands underneath pretty much where

2465
06:13:10.080 --> 06:13:19.959
your arms are, stretching up, stretching some of the muscles

2466
06:13:20.000 --> 06:13:29.400
of your back in the process, moving up over your chest,

2467
06:13:33.959 --> 06:13:49.479
and they're moving down again a little round my hands.

2468
06:13:50.080 --> 06:13:56.560
They're just massage gently and slide down towards your stomach,

2469
06:13:58.360 --> 06:14:04.799
starting in the middle of your chest, and then gradually

2470
06:14:05.080 --> 06:14:12.479
my head's moving apart and massaging and sliding at the

2471
06:14:12.520 --> 06:14:31.080
same time, moving down to just below your redcage, moving

2472
06:14:31.240 --> 06:14:39.479
down and then messaging up again, giving you a chest

2473
06:14:41.000 --> 06:14:42.279
all the attention.

2474
06:14:43.639 --> 06:14:44.680
That it needs.

2475
06:14:46.319 --> 06:14:58.720
To feel completely relaxed. Remembering that I'm also going to

2476
06:14:58.720 --> 06:15:04.360
be focusing on your sides as well, an area that

2477
06:15:04.599 --> 06:15:11.840
really doesn't get much attention, that feels really good when

2478
06:15:11.840 --> 06:15:21.159
it's massaged. Just stroking my hands down the sides of

2479
06:15:21.200 --> 06:15:28.159
your body, just below your arms, all the way down

2480
06:15:28.200 --> 06:15:43.200
to your hips. Now moving to your stomach area. I'm

2481
06:15:43.240 --> 06:15:46.479
going to stand on one side of you like I

2482
06:15:46.520 --> 06:15:50.959
did when I did your lower back. I'm going to

2483
06:15:51.000 --> 06:15:56.520
do a similar process of just stretching the muscles from

2484
06:15:56.520 --> 06:16:10.040
your side, gently massaging from one side to the next,

2485
06:16:12.279 --> 06:16:19.080
move in the whole area from below your ribs all

2486
06:16:19.159 --> 06:16:29.680
the way down to below your belly button, and then

2487
06:16:29.799 --> 06:16:33.040
move around to the other side of you and repeat

2488
06:16:33.080 --> 06:16:53.000
that process of relaxing deeply, calmly. You feel loose, you

2489
06:16:53.040 --> 06:16:59.000
feel free. And it's something about having your stomach message

2490
06:17:00.240 --> 06:17:07.000
that's different from any other part because we do have

2491
06:17:07.080 --> 06:17:11.560
a tendency of holding a different kind of stress in

2492
06:17:11.599 --> 06:17:21.159
our stomach that we may not be aware of. There's

2493
06:17:21.159 --> 06:17:26.720
an now message your stomach in front of your stomach,

2494
06:17:28.639 --> 06:17:39.919
making circles around your belly button, thing going the other

2495
06:17:40.000 --> 06:17:52.279
way around. The gentleness and a freedom that comes from

2496
06:17:52.439 --> 06:18:03.400
feeling how you're feeling. As I now move down the

2497
06:18:03.479 --> 06:18:10.680
tops of your thighs muscles, massaging them, and I can

2498
06:18:10.799 --> 06:18:17.159
do this to your legs at the same time, pressing down,

2499
06:18:19.599 --> 06:18:25.759
massaging deeply those muscles in your thighs, the front of

2500
06:18:25.840 --> 06:18:36.840
your thighs, and moving down to your knees, gently massaging

2501
06:18:36.880 --> 06:18:48.200
your knees, sliding down your shins, putting pressure on either

2502
06:18:48.319 --> 06:19:01.000
side of your shin gently softly but firmly, down to

2503
06:19:01.040 --> 06:19:15.919
your ankles, stroking the tops of your feet, and then

2504
06:19:16.080 --> 06:19:22.680
with each foot in each hand, just gently messaging the

2505
06:19:22.799 --> 06:19:30.919
whole of the foot. The top, the bottom, your heel,

2506
06:19:31.400 --> 06:19:39.360
your ankle, your toes, messaging every part of your feet

2507
06:19:44.200 --> 06:19:50.279
feels so good, just to let go and enjoy the process,

2508
06:19:55.880 --> 06:20:15.360
enjoy so deeply relaxed. So much comfort and so many

2509
06:20:15.400 --> 06:20:32.040
feelings become just from touching your skin. And you can

2510
06:20:32.240 --> 06:20:42.639
just lie there for as long as you choose, enjoying

2511
06:20:42.799 --> 06:20:51.599
the feeling of deep comfort from being massaged.

2512
06:20:53.479 --> 06:20:53.840
By me.

2513
06:21:01.000 --> 06:21:24.040
Enjoy fear deeply rased. And all we're gonna do is

2514
06:21:26.599 --> 06:21:43.240
blow out some candles. In your mind, there are gonna

2515
06:21:43.240 --> 06:21:54.240
be a hundred candles, and you're gonna blow each one

2516
06:21:54.279 --> 06:22:05.360
out individually, one by one, starting at one hundred. As

2517
06:22:05.400 --> 06:22:17.119
I count down all the way down to one, and

2518
06:22:17.200 --> 06:22:26.119
each time I say a number, you can imagine that

2519
06:22:26.279 --> 06:22:32.680
candle in front of you, and I'd like you to

2520
06:22:32.759 --> 06:22:52.119
actually physically generally blow that candle out, just so it's

2521
06:22:52.159 --> 06:23:07.880
not big blows, just a gentle, and that candle will extinguish.

2522
06:23:08.360 --> 06:23:12.959
And then I'll say the next numbers we move down,

2523
06:23:16.159 --> 06:23:22.720
and you can just plow that one out as well.

2524
06:23:28.599 --> 06:23:37.159
And as we move down the numbers, you'll find yourself

2525
06:23:38.240 --> 06:23:41.080
feeding more and more relaxed.

2526
06:23:44.040 --> 06:23:45.200
If you need.

2527
06:23:46.360 --> 06:23:58.560
To sleep, you'll also find yourself becoming incredibly tired and sleepy.

2528
06:23:59.439 --> 06:24:06.959
In fact, you may struggle to blow out all one

2529
06:24:07.080 --> 06:24:23.959
hundred of these candles as you feel more and more

2530
06:24:24.279 --> 06:24:52.200
deeply relaxed, more and more deeply tired, and the further

2531
06:24:52.560 --> 06:25:02.279
you go down, the more your mind starts to drift.

2532
06:25:08.639 --> 06:25:15.119
You may find that you stop listening to me after

2533
06:25:15.240 --> 06:25:28.080
a while. And even though there may be background sounds

2534
06:25:28.119 --> 06:25:38.959
where you are, you'll be aware of those sounds at

2535
06:25:39.000 --> 06:25:55.240
the moment, you may start to just not even notice

2536
06:25:55.319 --> 06:26:16.560
them all because they're unimportant. Where I am, I've got

2537
06:26:16.560 --> 06:26:23.599
the sounds of the birds, there's horrors, the pigeon who

2538
06:26:23.759 --> 06:26:29.799
likes to say hello sometimes, and there's the old plane

2539
06:26:29.919 --> 06:26:40.439
that goes by, maybe traffic and trains in the distance.

2540
06:26:46.720 --> 06:26:58.639
But none of that scene is important whatsoever. Or candles

2541
06:26:58.720 --> 06:27:02.439
you blow out less important.

2542
06:27:04.000 --> 06:27:06.439
Anything is.

2543
06:27:11.040 --> 06:27:22.560
More candles you blow out. The further seemed to move

2544
06:27:23.159 --> 06:27:42.919
away from sounds, from general date days. Stuff seems to

2545
06:27:43.159 --> 06:28:03.759
just move away on its own. You feel more calm

2546
06:28:03.799 --> 06:28:20.360
with every candle you blow out. Guide in you the

2547
06:28:20.520 --> 06:28:33.520
next number, did you hear me say? And then you

2548
06:28:33.680 --> 06:28:35.279
blow that candle out?

2549
06:28:36.159 --> 06:28:36.360
Too?

2550
06:28:44.520 --> 06:29:08.240
So easy, so simple. I'm gonna start by introducing the

2551
06:29:08.279 --> 06:29:25.240
first candle. This is a hundred. First candle. This is

2552
06:29:25.720 --> 06:29:42.360
one hundred. When you blow that candle out, you'll find

2553
06:29:44.080 --> 06:29:59.759
immediately a light change in how you feel, as well

2554
06:29:59.840 --> 06:30:16.119
as a real sense of positivity, growing revenue, relaxation, and

2555
06:30:16.520 --> 06:30:44.720
sleepiness expanding. Starting with one hundred, Blow out that candle

2556
06:30:44.840 --> 06:32:26.720
now h ninety nine, Candle ninety eight, Candle ninety seven,

2557
06:32:26.799 --> 06:34:29.080
Im this si cant ninety five, ninety four, candle ninety three.

2558
06:34:29.639 --> 06:34:57.159
I'd like you too good?

2559
06:34:57.279 --> 06:34:57.799
Might you?

2560
06:34:58.080 --> 06:36:18.159
One? Candle ninety eighty two, nine and eight.

2561
06:36:19.919 --> 06:38:43.880
Eight cand eightis candle eightius eighty five.

2562
06:39:19.560 --> 06:39:36.000
And eight.

2563
06:40:01.000 --> 06:41:17.080
Eighty two, seven two.

2564
06:41:18.520 --> 06:43:48.319
Two, nineteen nine, Candle seventy eight, Candle seventy seven, candle

2565
06:43:51.959 --> 06:45:01.720
seventy six, candle seventy five, candle seventy four, candle seventy three,

2566
06:45:06.200 --> 06:46:09.680
candle seventy two, candle seventy one, candle seventy one, candle

2567
06:46:13.479 --> 06:47:07.880
seventeen and sixty nine, candle sixty eight, candle sixty seven,

2568
06:47:21.560 --> 06:48:26.360
candle sixty five, candle sixty four, candle sixty four, candle

2569
06:48:27.000 --> 06:50:16.240
sixty three, candle sixty cader sixty one, candy sixty fifty nine,

2570
06:50:29.400 --> 06:51:47.080
candle fifty eight, candle fifty seven, candle fifty six, candle

2571
06:51:50.520 --> 06:53:05.759
fifty five, candle fifty four, handle fifty three and fifty

2572
06:53:06.799 --> 06:55:12.119
two can do fifty candulu fifty, candle fifty one, candle fifty,

2573
06:55:35.639 --> 06:57:35.360
candle forty nine, candle forty eight, candle seven forty six,

2574
06:58:03.360 --> 07:00:06.599
candle forty five, candle forty two. Do you candle forty

2575
07:00:45.119 --> 07:02:49.799
candle thirty nine eight, candle thirty seven, candle thirty five,

2576
07:03:38.959 --> 07:07:42.040
thirty four, handle thirty three, handle thirty one, can twoeyten nine,

2577
07:07:45.400 --> 07:10:16.639
can twenty eight, candle twenty seven, twenty six, candle twenty five,

2578
07:10:55.040 --> 07:11:41.200
can en twenty thirty.

2579
07:12:19.319 --> 07:12:19.799
And to.

2580
07:12:22.000 --> 07:14:49.759
Win te tohm wit, to wait and can't do ninety

2581
07:15:42.200 --> 07:20:07.319
serventy can six day four two and shh.

2582
07:20:31.400 --> 07:21:48.639
Y no.

2583
07:22:46.880 --> 07:28:15.000
Eight can can do eh and or let go of

2584
07:28:15.200 --> 07:28:23.360
all of those thoughts, worries, concerns about the past, thoughts

2585
07:28:23.400 --> 07:28:28.279
about the future, and even things you've been thinking about today.

2586
07:28:30.360 --> 07:28:31.080
Just let it all go.

2587
07:28:34.479 --> 07:28:42.159
Because none of it is useful in this moment. This

2588
07:28:42.439 --> 07:29:02.279
is your opportunity to just focus on feeling relaxed, allowing

2589
07:29:02.400 --> 07:29:10.360
yourself to get in touch with that natural sense of

2590
07:29:10.560 --> 07:29:15.319
peace that we all have within us.

2591
07:29:17.720 --> 07:29:23.159
It's available for everyone It just sometimes takes a little

2592
07:29:23.159 --> 07:29:29.479
bit of effort to set up the right time and

2593
07:29:29.680 --> 07:29:36.959
place in order for you to just let go. Because

2594
07:29:37.040 --> 07:29:44.959
when you do decide to let go and relax, that's

2595
07:29:45.080 --> 07:29:53.040
what your body starts to do. Because you've chosen, You've

2596
07:29:53.319 --> 07:30:02.119
chosen to just allow your body to unwind, your mind starts.

2597
07:30:01.759 --> 07:30:09.240
To slow down, and it's a nice feeling. It's a

2598
07:30:09.360 --> 07:30:13.560
nice feeling at the beginning, just to know that you

2599
07:30:14.040 --> 07:30:24.319
have chosen to decide to relax deeply, and because you've

2600
07:30:24.439 --> 07:30:32.959
made that decision, your body will just follow suit. Because

2601
07:30:33.000 --> 07:30:37.639
sometimes all the muscles in your body need is just

2602
07:30:38.000 --> 07:30:47.200
permission from you to relax. Because so often we're busy,

2603
07:30:47.479 --> 07:30:51.680
we're going from here to there, we're walking around, and

2604
07:30:51.799 --> 07:30:56.279
we're doing stuff, and the body doesn't have.

2605
07:30:57.919 --> 07:31:07.360
Any time or space to really relax deeply. So it

2606
07:31:07.520 --> 07:31:12.319
kind of waits for you to lead the way, waits

2607
07:31:12.439 --> 07:31:22.080
for your permission. And when you do give your permission,

2608
07:31:23.759 --> 07:31:26.279
when you give the say so, when you say okay,

2609
07:31:27.560 --> 07:31:31.479
it's time for your body.

2610
07:31:32.840 --> 07:31:41.799
To let go completely and relax totally, your body just follows.

2611
07:31:44.959 --> 07:31:50.240
So like a breath of relief. Ah, good, I can

2612
07:31:50.319 --> 07:31:57.360
now relax. That feeling at the end of a day

2613
07:31:57.439 --> 07:32:03.119
of very physical day experience in the past, where you

2614
07:32:03.279 --> 07:32:06.040
get home and you just sit down on a chair,

2615
07:32:07.119 --> 07:32:11.959
maybe you kick your shoes off, and ah, feels so nice.

2616
07:32:14.040 --> 07:32:18.040
Know that you don't have to get up again for

2617
07:32:18.080 --> 07:32:21.279
a little while at least, and if you choose, you

2618
07:32:21.400 --> 07:32:23.720
can just sit there for maybe an hour.

2619
07:32:23.639 --> 07:32:37.040
To feels blissful. And just by sitting down like that,

2620
07:32:38.520 --> 07:32:43.520
your body knows that it's time to relax. Your body

2621
07:32:44.200 --> 07:32:49.759
has been given permission from you. Because it's a mindset

2622
07:32:51.279 --> 07:32:59.919
in your mind, you're prepared to let go of everything

2623
07:33:02.439 --> 07:33:10.119
and just completely allow all the stress of your body

2624
07:33:10.959 --> 07:33:21.479
to evaporate. Any tensions can just gradually vanish.

2625
07:33:28.000 --> 07:33:39.680
It's almost like magic, really, because that sense of relaxation

2626
07:33:40.000 --> 07:33:43.799
in your body, it's a very natural state.

2627
07:33:45.680 --> 07:33:50.319
It's not something unusual. It may feel unusual when you

2628
07:33:50.439 --> 07:33:53.720
first start to relax, if you if you haven't really

2629
07:33:55.159 --> 07:33:59.040
spent a lot of time focusing and giving yourself this

2630
07:33:59.240 --> 07:34:04.279
space to let go completely and relax may seem al

2631
07:34:04.439 --> 07:34:12.720
most alien, but it isn't. It's actually the most natural

2632
07:34:12.840 --> 07:34:21.400
thing in the world to let go completely, to relax totally,

2633
07:34:23.400 --> 07:34:30.119
the most natural thing in the world to allow yourself

2634
07:34:34.479 --> 07:34:41.880
to feel really calm in your mind, and it is

2635
07:34:42.159 --> 07:34:49.840
almost like a literal unwinding. It's like you press a

2636
07:34:49.959 --> 07:34:58.680
button and all the tension just releases, and it's like

2637
07:34:58.840 --> 07:35:02.360
a wheel, like a cog by the inside of the

2638
07:35:02.479 --> 07:35:06.599
clock just unwinding. And he's almost like you could see

2639
07:35:06.799 --> 07:35:12.279
that the little wind up knob that's used just going

2640
07:35:12.439 --> 07:35:16.200
the opposite way that you choose to wind it up,

2641
07:35:19.000 --> 07:35:28.319
and the energy that fremetic stress for energy gradually winding down,

2642
07:35:29.599 --> 07:35:36.919
losing its power, losing its strength, as a sense of

2643
07:35:37.080 --> 07:35:49.040
relaxation becomes stronger and deeper, and you may find at

2644
07:35:49.319 --> 07:35:56.319
more relaxed, you feel that your mind starts to wander.

2645
07:35:59.439 --> 07:36:04.919
Maybe you seem to stop listening to me for a

2646
07:36:05.040 --> 07:36:10.720
while and your mind goes somewhere else, and then you

2647
07:36:11.599 --> 07:36:17.080
realize you're listening to me again, and that's just your

2648
07:36:17.240 --> 07:36:27.200
mind to drifting to sleep, which is quite natural, because

2649
07:36:27.279 --> 07:36:34.880
sometimes when we're stressed and tense, we're not may I

2650
07:36:34.919 --> 07:36:39.959
actually be aware of what we need or we physically

2651
07:36:40.119 --> 07:36:49.240
your emotionally need in this moment. But when you allow

2652
07:36:50.479 --> 07:36:54.520
your body and mind to relax completely.

2653
07:36:55.680 --> 07:36:58.799
And you let go of all thoughts.

2654
07:36:59.720 --> 07:37:07.959
Can worries, ideas all and go allowing them to drop

2655
07:37:08.119 --> 07:37:18.479
onto the floor. You start to get in touch with

2656
07:37:19.279 --> 07:37:31.840
the feelings of such relaxation. Feels so nice to be

2657
07:37:32.000 --> 07:37:38.720
in touch with the calmness of the different body parts

2658
07:37:38.919 --> 07:37:52.560
as they become looser and looser. Even your breathing seems

2659
07:37:54.279 --> 07:38:04.759
easier and more natural, effortless as like cool outs through

2660
07:38:04.799 --> 07:38:14.080
your mouth or nose into your lungs, breathing in comforts

2661
07:38:14.279 --> 07:38:22.599
and relaxation, and then just breathing out any excess remain

2662
07:38:22.840 --> 07:38:31.040
intentional stress from every part of your body and mind.

2663
07:38:34.720 --> 07:38:39.759
As you start to focus on your mind, maybe you

2664
07:38:40.080 --> 07:38:48.159
notice that things that come to a standstill maybe just

2665
07:38:48.880 --> 07:38:56.880
much much lower than before because your mind is not

2666
07:38:57.319 --> 07:39:07.919
really needed when listening to my voice, which allows your

2667
07:39:08.080 --> 07:39:16.520
mind to relax just as deep as your body. And

2668
07:39:16.680 --> 07:39:29.479
that's synchronicity between the relaxation of your body relaxation of

2669
07:39:29.680 --> 07:39:41.279
your mind. Let you know that feeling completely calm, loose,

2670
07:39:41.639 --> 07:39:43.240
and relaxed.

2671
07:39:45.000 --> 07:39:46.040
Real is.

2672
07:39:47.799 --> 07:40:03.799
A great healing experience fear and has so many positive

2673
07:40:04.159 --> 07:40:11.959
benefits for your body and mind and your life. To

2674
07:40:12.080 --> 07:40:20.680
be able to let go everything and to relax completely,

2675
07:40:22.599 --> 07:40:30.720
you know, all parts of your body and mind, even

2676
07:40:30.799 --> 07:40:46.119
your boneses are relaxed. All your muscles are rexed, even

2677
07:40:46.439 --> 07:41:03.319
the skin that covers your body is relaxed. Every you

2678
07:41:03.599 --> 07:41:22.599
have is also deeply relaxed, and your brain really starts

2679
07:41:22.959 --> 07:41:25.319
the feel the benefits.

2680
07:41:26.599 --> 07:41:26.919
Of this.

2681
07:41:28.520 --> 07:41:40.880
Heathing relaxation. And as you focus on the inside of

2682
07:41:41.000 --> 07:41:46.720
your scalp where your brain is, you can start to

2683
07:41:46.959 --> 07:41:56.520
realize and notice the benefits of your brain relaxing deeply.

2684
07:42:01.040 --> 07:42:13.479
Initial brain continues to relax sends those messages to the

2685
07:42:13.680 --> 07:42:22.319
rest of your body and your mind to really relax

2686
07:42:23.360 --> 07:42:47.159
e more deeply, relax more completely, letting go any remaining

2687
07:42:47.759 --> 07:42:56.759
thoughts a concens allow them just to drop onto the

2688
07:42:56.919 --> 07:43:07.880
floor because they're no longer necessary in this moment, this

2689
07:43:08.200 --> 07:43:23.680
moment of deep relaxation and calmness. Feeling your brain with deep,

2690
07:43:25.000 --> 07:43:51.040
concentrated healing, calming, relaxing, every part of your brain feeling

2691
07:43:54.200 --> 07:44:10.479
so loose and comfortable, so relaxed and be peaceful. Your

2692
07:44:10.639 --> 07:44:23.439
brain feels so light, that's so healthy. That sense of deep,

2693
07:44:24.840 --> 07:44:39.560
deep comfort really does allow you to enjoy those ever

2694
07:44:39.919 --> 07:44:51.080
increase in sensations of comfort that are spreading throughout your body.

2695
07:44:55.360 --> 07:45:06.560
Relaxing Each and every muscle of your body eat deeper

2696
07:45:11.040 --> 07:45:27.959
and deeper, much more deeper than before, much more comfort

2697
07:45:30.599 --> 07:45:45.319
spreading through your body, your mind, be so peaceful and calm,

2698
07:45:48.159 --> 07:46:02.639
so very fairy, peaceful in avery part of your body,

2699
07:46:04.319 --> 07:46:20.240
letting go of everything and everything, so peaceful and calm,

2700
07:46:23.759 --> 07:46:39.159
so relax a very second the passes you feel.

2701
07:46:41.159 --> 07:46:48.840
Da DPA, relaxed.

2702
07:46:51.520 --> 07:46:55.080
DPA and.

2703
07:46:56.919 --> 07:47:17.799
Dper relax col so calm, peace for so very piece,

2704
07:47:21.040 --> 07:47:30.279
from your head down to your tails. Such peace and

2705
07:47:30.680 --> 07:47:43.200
comfort growing all all the time, Such peace and comfort

2706
07:47:46.200 --> 07:47:50.119
spreading through your body and.

2707
07:47:50.439 --> 07:48:00.840
Mind deeper deepert, such comfort foods.

2708
07:48:02.880 --> 07:48:12.680
Spreading and sinking deeper into every muscle of your body.

2709
07:48:16.279 --> 07:48:26.080
Suddenly you feel amazing, so relaxed.

2710
07:48:28.680 --> 07:48:29.919
So piece, so.

2711
07:48:34.680 --> 07:48:36.639
So relax.

2712
07:48:40.040 --> 07:48:56.439
And peace, letting go everything. Gon do a body scan,

2713
07:48:58.240 --> 07:49:04.599
focusing on firstly how you feel in your body, not

2714
07:49:04.759 --> 07:49:10.159
trying to change how you feel, not trying to relax,

2715
07:49:11.439 --> 07:49:16.439
not trying to move away from any discomfort or stress

2716
07:49:16.639 --> 07:49:24.080
or tension, just accepting, observing and accepting how you feel

2717
07:49:25.080 --> 07:49:30.000
in the different parts of your body, Just allowing yourself

2718
07:49:31.400 --> 07:49:38.840
to be exactly as you are, to notice, to get

2719
07:49:38.919 --> 07:49:47.520
in touch with how you actually feel in this moment.

2720
07:49:51.040 --> 07:49:57.520
I'm going to start off by focusing on your hands.

2721
07:50:02.119 --> 07:50:09.840
Just be aware of your hands. I'd like you to

2722
07:50:10.040 --> 07:50:15.000
move your hands around. Just maybe move your fingers a

2723
07:50:15.080 --> 07:50:21.439
little bit. I've been closer in your hands, very gently,

2724
07:50:23.080 --> 07:50:28.759
just so that you can get in touch with how

2725
07:50:28.880 --> 07:50:43.080
your hands and your fingers feel, very very slow movements.

2726
07:50:51.479 --> 07:50:59.240
Focusing now on your feet, and if you can just

2727
07:50:59.400 --> 07:51:04.520
do kind of an equivalent with your feet is you've

2728
07:51:04.720 --> 07:51:10.919
just done with your hands, Maybe turn in your ankles,

2729
07:51:12.919 --> 07:51:22.639
moving your feet around, moving your toes gently, only very

2730
07:51:24.680 --> 07:51:36.360
gently and very slowly, noticing how your feet feel in

2731
07:51:36.560 --> 07:51:49.840
this moment. Focusing now and your eyes. I like you

2732
07:51:50.040 --> 07:51:57.279
to just focus on your eyelids. Maybe you can open

2733
07:51:57.360 --> 07:52:01.639
and close your eyes a couple of times to really

2734
07:52:01.840 --> 07:52:05.319
get in touch with how you feel when you do

2735
07:52:05.599 --> 07:52:13.919
close your eyes. The muscle changes in your eyes when

2736
07:52:13.959 --> 07:52:22.560
you do close them, maybe raising your eyebrows. It stretches

2737
07:52:22.919 --> 07:52:33.759
the tops of your eyes, perhaps squinting your eyes, scrunching

2738
07:52:33.880 --> 07:52:38.599
up your eyes, just so you can really get in

2739
07:52:38.759 --> 07:52:49.040
touch with all aspects of how your eyes feel.

2740
07:52:51.759 --> 07:52:52.400
Right now.

2741
07:53:01.599 --> 07:53:08.119
Now, focusing on your thighs, then it just starts you

2742
07:53:08.279 --> 07:53:18.400
to gently tense your thighs, just very very gently, just

2743
07:53:18.680 --> 07:53:30.880
enough so you can become more attuned to the physical

2744
07:53:31.520 --> 07:53:38.799
sensation of your upper legs, the front of your thighs,

2745
07:53:39.040 --> 07:53:50.080
and the backs of your thighs, noticing and observing how

2746
07:53:52.439 --> 07:54:07.479
your thighs feel right now, moving your focus to the

2747
07:54:07.599 --> 07:54:14.439
back of your neck, just noticing the back of your neck,

2748
07:54:15.959 --> 07:54:21.200
the muscles, and of course they lead to the side

2749
07:54:21.279 --> 07:54:25.439
of your neck. They also lead to the top of

2750
07:54:25.520 --> 07:54:31.799
your back, which leads to your shoulders. So as you

2751
07:54:32.200 --> 07:54:37.919
focus on the back of your neck, maybe you can

2752
07:54:38.880 --> 07:54:44.400
move your head gently upwards as if you're looking up.

2753
07:54:46.360 --> 07:54:51.959
Maybe moving your head down as if you're looking down.

2754
07:54:55.119 --> 07:54:59.880
Perhaps moving your head side to side, right to left,

2755
07:55:02.040 --> 07:55:14.919
only very slowly, very gently. I'm not trying to force anything.

2756
07:55:16.680 --> 07:55:25.880
It has to be very very gentle, just so you

2757
07:55:26.040 --> 07:55:39.520
can be more in touch with the feelings, with the sensations,

2758
07:55:39.759 --> 07:55:48.919
the physical sensations of how the back of your neck feels.

2759
07:55:50.680 --> 07:56:06.080
Right now. As we now focus on the tops of

2760
07:56:06.200 --> 07:56:12.439
your arms, the parts where your biceps and your triceps

2761
07:56:12.520 --> 07:56:20.119
are between your elbow and your shoulders. So you focus

2762
07:56:20.560 --> 07:56:26.840
on those parts, the tops of your arms, you may

2763
07:56:28.000 --> 07:56:37.680
like to just tense them, but very very gently and slowly,

2764
07:56:40.240 --> 07:56:48.279
so you're straining or putting any pressure whatsoever.

2765
07:56:49.159 --> 07:56:50.040
On your arms.

2766
07:56:52.720 --> 07:56:59.360
It's just so that you can gain more of a

2767
07:56:59.639 --> 07:57:10.840
sense of how your upper arms are feeling in this moment.

2768
07:57:14.240 --> 07:57:26.840
Just noticing as you gently, very gently and slowly tighten

2769
07:57:27.080 --> 07:57:38.040
the muscles. And then, Leo, notice how the tops of

2770
07:57:38.159 --> 07:57:56.639
your arms feel. Right now, as we now focus on

2771
07:57:56.840 --> 07:58:04.360
your stomach, the area the lower abdomen area below your

2772
07:58:04.439 --> 07:58:13.040
belly button, moving all the way down to your hips,

2773
07:58:14.159 --> 07:58:25.400
just above your grind, maybe you're able to tense these

2774
07:58:25.599 --> 07:58:33.319
muscles in that area very very gently.

2775
07:58:36.279 --> 07:58:37.360
And slowly.

2776
07:58:43.040 --> 07:58:47.439
If that's a difficult thing to do, maybe you can

2777
07:58:47.639 --> 07:58:58.319
just move your body, pushing your stomach up, maybe moving

2778
07:58:58.360 --> 07:59:03.560
a little bit to the side, using your hips, just

2779
07:59:04.119 --> 07:59:13.360
so can get more in tune with how your lower

2780
07:59:13.840 --> 07:59:20.880
abdomen area is feeling.

2781
07:59:23.319 --> 07:59:24.240
In this moment.

2782
07:59:30.840 --> 07:59:32.520
Just noticing.

2783
07:59:33.439 --> 07:59:42.759
The physical sensations or your lower abdomen.

2784
07:59:53.200 --> 07:59:53.400
As.

2785
07:59:53.799 --> 08:00:08.959
Move your attention to your mouth, noticing your lips and

2786
08:00:09.040 --> 08:00:17.520
then inside your mouth, your teeth, your guns, your tongue,

2787
08:00:27.119 --> 08:00:35.720
just noticing how your tongue and your mouth feels. It

2788
08:00:35.880 --> 08:00:44.880
may help by moving your tongue around your mouth, moving

2789
08:00:44.959 --> 08:00:52.360
it to your left, maybe pressing it gently against the

2790
08:00:52.639 --> 08:00:58.799
side of your mouth, and then to the right gently

2791
08:00:59.319 --> 08:01:05.439
to the side out of your mouth, perhaps pressing up

2792
08:01:05.560 --> 08:01:11.720
against the top of your mouth, and then down gently

2793
08:01:13.680 --> 08:01:24.520
against the bottom of your mouth, always very slowly and

2794
08:01:24.639 --> 08:01:29.520
a very very gentle.

2795
08:01:33.959 --> 08:01:35.119
So that you can.

2796
08:01:38.720 --> 08:01:51.040
Be aware of how you feel in your mouth area.

2797
08:02:02.319 --> 08:02:22.479
Now I'm going to focus on your wrists, and I'll

2798
08:02:22.639 --> 08:02:31.439
ask you to maybe just routine your wrists by moving

2799
08:02:31.560 --> 08:02:41.959
your hands in a circular motion very gently and slowly,

2800
08:02:44.720 --> 08:03:04.560
just so you can feel sensations that you are currently

2801
08:03:06.319 --> 08:03:21.200
experiencing in your risks. Perhaps move in your hands up

2802
08:03:21.360 --> 08:03:46.439
and down again very very champly and slowly, very chance

2803
08:03:50.840 --> 08:04:16.360
and slow. It's now start to observe your lower back.

2804
08:04:21.959 --> 08:04:32.319
There bad part is just above your hips, where your

2805
08:04:32.439 --> 08:04:45.439
coxix are a whole area which also really does include

2806
08:04:46.240 --> 08:04:52.479
the signs of your body because those muscles are very

2807
08:04:52.599 --> 08:05:03.840
much connected. There's those muscles also move into your hip

2808
08:05:03.919 --> 08:05:20.639
aia connecting to your buttocks side of your hips, and

2809
08:05:20.799 --> 08:05:29.240
if you're physically able to do so, maybe you can

2810
08:05:30.200 --> 08:05:42.880
very gently just move your body eviss slightly, very slowly

2811
08:05:45.959 --> 08:06:03.959
some side, decide just enough to e gauge how you

2812
08:06:04.240 --> 08:06:21.639
feel in your lower back, perhaps ely even move your

2813
08:06:21.840 --> 08:06:36.159
hips gently up and down gently and slowly in order

2814
08:06:36.240 --> 08:06:50.119
to be in touch with the physical sensations of your

2815
08:06:50.279 --> 08:07:19.799
lower back. As we know, your attention to your jaw,

2816
08:07:23.119 --> 08:07:28.759
the area for your chin, all the way up to

2817
08:07:29.000 --> 08:07:45.880
near where your ears are. Oh, your jaw, you can

2818
08:07:46.159 --> 08:07:54.959
just if it's okay to do so, gently open your mouth,

2819
08:07:57.880 --> 08:08:07.759
No wide, no straight chim just very gently and slowly

2820
08:08:08.880 --> 08:08:19.119
open in your mouth and enclosing your mouth very gently

2821
08:08:21.520 --> 08:08:33.159
and slowly, so you can.

2822
08:08:36.119 --> 08:08:37.319
Be in touch.

2823
08:08:43.840 --> 08:09:17.599
With how your jaw feels. Now like to sing. Now

2824
08:09:20.520 --> 08:09:35.360
your chest area. You don't need to do anything to

2825
08:09:35.599 --> 08:09:42.159
move your chest because it moves every time we breathe.

2826
08:09:47.479 --> 08:09:49.919
It moves very.

2827
08:09:50.040 --> 08:10:09.799
Gently and slowly, automatically each breath you take. As your

2828
08:10:10.159 --> 08:10:57.520
focus on your chest feels when you breathe, believe in

2829
08:10:57.720 --> 08:11:12.840
your focus to your forearms, your elbows. Maybe you're able

2830
08:11:13.319 --> 08:11:17.959
to very gently.

2831
08:11:19.360 --> 08:11:21.439
And slowly.

2832
08:11:23.200 --> 08:11:31.720
Tense the muscles in your forearms, and when you do that,

2833
08:11:32.200 --> 08:12:05.479
you can feel your elbows as well, very gently and slowly, gently.

2834
08:12:08.240 --> 08:12:10.240
And softly.

2835
08:12:13.759 --> 08:12:52.200
Observing your forearms and delpas. Now make a focus the

2836
08:12:52.360 --> 08:13:04.200
rest of your back, your upper back in the middle,

2837
08:13:05.799 --> 08:13:21.959
the middle of your back. Again, this part of your

2838
08:13:22.119 --> 08:13:36.880
body moves also every time you pray. You may not

2839
08:13:37.200 --> 08:13:51.240
notice that usually where you observe your upper back, in

2840
08:13:51.439 --> 08:14:03.319
the middle of your back, he can really fill sin't

2841
08:14:09.520 --> 08:15:03.040
ands man your focus into your hip area nor butty aks.

2842
08:15:04.959 --> 08:15:05.599
No gray.

2843
08:15:08.400 --> 08:15:43.240
There's a muscles, those bones in your midsection. Just noticing

2844
08:15:45.599 --> 08:16:05.919
how your hips feel. Right now, you can very very

2845
08:16:06.520 --> 08:16:21.680
gently use your hips maybe sighed to side very gently and.

2846
08:16:24.680 --> 08:16:42.720
Say very.

2847
08:16:47.200 --> 08:16:55.639
Gently softly.

2848
08:17:10.240 --> 08:17:27.759
Everything starts to slow down, including the thoughts in your mind.

2849
08:17:29.119 --> 08:17:30.119
And your mind.

2850
08:17:29.919 --> 08:17:40.240
Itself just starts to gradually. It doesn't have to be instant,

2851
08:17:40.319 --> 08:17:48.319
but just gradually starting too. It's almost like time is

2852
08:17:48.759 --> 08:17:59.840
straight chin. It's a slower pace to maybe what you're

2853
08:18:00.279 --> 08:18:07.880
used to in your day to day life. It's a

2854
08:18:08.119 --> 08:18:35.080
slower movement of energy, very small movements which make up

2855
08:18:35.400 --> 08:18:43.000
the larger movements, which is always the case. Now, when

2856
08:18:43.040 --> 08:18:48.200
you move your hand, it might seem like it's one movement,

2857
08:18:48.319 --> 08:18:53.560
but it's lots of minute different muscles moving.

2858
08:18:55.400 --> 08:19:04.360
In accordance with each other. And what happens in this

2859
08:19:06.279 --> 08:19:21.080
space that we're sharing is we move from that big.

2860
08:19:25.520 --> 08:19:37.119
Movement into those smaller movements, starting to focus on.

2861
08:19:42.439 --> 08:19:48.680
How your body feels, not just as a whole, not

2862
08:19:48.919 --> 08:19:54.279
just Oh, I'm feeling this way. I'm feeling stressed or tense,

2863
08:19:54.520 --> 08:19:59.880
or I'm feeling relaxed and calm. I'm feeling this way.

2864
08:20:00.119 --> 08:20:01.080
I'm feeling that way.

2865
08:20:04.599 --> 08:20:12.680
Starting to notice that your body begins to present to

2866
08:20:12.799 --> 08:20:18.919
you small feelings.

2867
08:20:19.959 --> 08:20:37.200
Around your body, small physical sensations in your legs, whether

2868
08:20:37.599 --> 08:20:50.400
pleasurable or not. Maybe resisting the temptation to label them

2869
08:20:53.319 --> 08:21:00.919
or to judge them, those feelings, just thinking them, thinking

2870
08:21:00.959 --> 08:21:14.119
about them is just being neutral, just feelings, not being

2871
08:21:15.200 --> 08:21:25.520
particularly concerned, but just noticing what your body is telling you.

2872
08:21:33.479 --> 08:21:39.759
Feelings in your arms instead of feeling the whole of

2873
08:21:39.880 --> 08:21:49.919
the arm, Maybe notice those individual feelings, all those different

2874
08:21:50.119 --> 08:22:01.680
muscles and the skin, the hair of your arms, the

2875
08:22:03.279 --> 08:22:17.360
all the internal parts of your arms, the veins, the bones,

2876
08:22:20.240 --> 08:22:26.240
just being aware of maybe your elbow on your right

2877
08:22:26.439 --> 08:22:37.040
arm has a certain feeling. Maybe your left wrist also

2878
08:22:37.360 --> 08:22:59.720
has its own individual physical sensation. What about your.

2879
08:22:59.759 --> 08:23:13.240
Four arm when your right arm, you're right forearm, there

2880
08:23:13.319 --> 08:23:16.080
may not be any particular.

2881
08:23:17.360 --> 08:23:25.840
Feeling that you could even give a name to, may

2882
08:23:25.919 --> 08:23:31.159
not feel like anything other than just a feeling. Yeah,

2883
08:23:31.319 --> 08:23:32.040
it's there.

2884
08:23:38.360 --> 08:23:44.080
The feelings in your shoulders, perhaps your shoulders when you

2885
08:23:44.159 --> 08:23:47.880
think about them, you're kind of almost like they're the same,

2886
08:23:49.040 --> 08:23:51.959
you know, the same feeling.

2887
08:23:53.360 --> 08:23:56.680
Almost like both of your shoulders are just one thing.

2888
08:23:58.479 --> 08:24:09.599
Of course they're not. And when you focus on your

2889
08:24:09.680 --> 08:24:17.880
left shoulder and then on your right shoulder, maybe find

2890
08:24:18.080 --> 08:24:23.439
that you move the muscles a little bit, maybe tense

2891
08:24:23.560 --> 08:24:49.119
the muscles gently, noticing the difference in each shoulder, your

2892
08:24:49.200 --> 08:25:05.080
lower back, the left side of your lower back and

2893
08:25:05.919 --> 08:25:16.599
the right side of your lower back. Of course that

2894
08:25:16.799 --> 08:25:29.240
connection to your buttocks and to your hips, and also

2895
08:25:29.439 --> 08:25:43.200
moving up into the middle of your back. And sometimes

2896
08:25:43.560 --> 08:25:47.040
like right now, actually when I focus on that part,

2897
08:25:48.400 --> 08:25:52.799
when I focused on my buttocks and then I focused

2898
08:25:52.840 --> 08:25:56.959
on the middle of my back, I almost felt like

2899
08:25:57.159 --> 08:26:00.360
the muscles in my lower back would be in stressed

2900
08:26:01.279 --> 08:26:11.159
very gently, just stretched a little bit. Even though I

2901
08:26:11.360 --> 08:26:20.159
wasn't doing anything to try to stretch your lower back,

2902
08:26:20.560 --> 08:26:28.759
it just seemed to happen. The feeling of very gently

2903
08:26:30.279 --> 08:26:51.680
stretching your lower back comes along. I have feeling in

2904
08:26:51.799 --> 08:27:12.959
your chest, noticing what sensations you are experiencing in your

2905
08:27:13.119 --> 08:27:28.360
chest right now, And there's so much of the chest,

2906
08:27:29.479 --> 08:27:32.520
of coursely there's the collar bone leading to the chest.

2907
08:27:33.360 --> 08:27:41.639
You've got the chest bone. You've got the muscles in

2908
08:27:41.759 --> 08:27:49.680
your chest. Of course, if you're female, there's possibly the breasts.

2909
08:27:51.040 --> 08:27:59.159
If you're male, you've got the different well why not

2910
08:27:59.279 --> 08:28:00.400
that different these days, But.

2911
08:28:02.560 --> 08:28:03.720
There may be more.

2912
08:28:05.439 --> 08:28:11.720
Muscles at the top of the chest, but at the

2913
08:28:11.919 --> 08:28:16.799
side underneath, it's pretty much the same. Whether you're a

2914
08:28:16.880 --> 08:28:21.919
man or a woman. There's muscles there, muscles that stretch

2915
08:28:22.040 --> 08:28:27.599
out to your back as well as breast tissue stretches

2916
08:28:28.200 --> 08:28:35.439
and moves into your back. To just being aware of

2917
08:28:35.560 --> 08:28:56.599
your chest, being with whatever feeling there is in your chest.

2918
08:29:12.119 --> 08:29:15.279
And when I noticed that, I focus on my chest,

2919
08:29:19.680 --> 08:29:23.200
I feel it in my back and my upper back.

2920
08:29:24.680 --> 08:29:27.720
I mean, I guess the obvious reason would be because

2921
08:29:27.799 --> 08:29:37.680
you know, I'm breathe in in and it stretches my

2922
08:29:38.000 --> 08:29:48.840
chest and my back at the same time. It feels

2923
08:29:52.119 --> 08:30:03.479
it feels okay, it doesn't. I feel I've got a

2924
08:30:03.520 --> 08:30:10.040
little bit of pain in my right chest, a little

2925
08:30:10.080 --> 08:30:16.479
bit not pain, but little discomfort, maybe stiffness possibly, I

2926
08:30:16.560 --> 08:30:25.560
don't know. I notice my shoulders are also wanting to

2927
08:30:27.919 --> 08:30:32.560
flex for some reason. I think that's probably part of

2928
08:30:32.759 --> 08:30:41.080
my upper back, that connection between my shoulders and my

2929
08:30:41.200 --> 08:30:46.720
upper back, because I can move my shoulders and stretch

2930
08:30:46.880 --> 08:30:54.319
the muscles in my back, moving the shoulders backwards or up,

2931
08:30:56.319 --> 08:31:02.680
which then moves. I think it's the scapulous in your back.

2932
08:31:12.720 --> 08:31:20.400
It feels quite nice. Actually, a good thing about this

2933
08:31:20.759 --> 08:31:25.479
is you can, if you want to, you can just

2934
08:31:29.040 --> 08:31:40.759
flex or stimulate the various muscles in your body gently

2935
08:31:42.200 --> 08:31:45.680
in order to get more of a sense of how

2936
08:31:45.759 --> 08:32:00.759
they feel. And when you're relaxing, when you tense and

2937
08:32:00.959 --> 08:32:05.400
muscle and you let it go and you let it relax,

2938
08:32:06.639 --> 08:32:18.880
it relaxes way more than it would normally that you

2939
08:32:19.040 --> 08:32:25.759
have to feel that you're able to do that. There's

2940
08:32:25.840 --> 08:32:31.279
no point in doing it if there's an issue with

2941
08:32:31.439 --> 08:32:36.840
the per part of your body. You need to be

2942
08:32:37.479 --> 08:32:50.400
gentle with yourself at all times when relaxing deeply. It's

2943
08:32:50.479 --> 08:33:06.240
important to be kind to yourself. As you notice your mind.

2944
08:33:10.599 --> 08:33:17.599
How much has your mind slowed down since we started

2945
08:33:19.000 --> 08:33:44.520
this recording, How came and peaceful is your mind right now?

2946
08:33:51.439 --> 08:33:56.720
We have nothing to think about and just my voice

2947
08:33:57.000 --> 08:34:07.919
to listen to. Because you know the intention behind this recording,

2948
08:34:09.400 --> 08:34:16.959
this relaxation at the very least, for you to feel

2949
08:34:17.200 --> 08:34:21.599
more relaxed. At the end of the recording, than you

2950
08:34:21.840 --> 08:34:33.720
did at the beginning, at the very least, for your

2951
08:34:33.919 --> 08:34:45.240
mind to slow down because your body continues to relax,

2952
08:34:50.639 --> 08:35:01.479
because that's what you want to happen. That's what you

2953
08:35:02.200 --> 08:35:30.880
expect to happen, for relaxation to fill your body, maybe

2954
08:35:31.279 --> 08:35:39.439
calm in your mind to the point of boredom. When

2955
08:35:39.520 --> 08:36:23.000
you start maybe to drift away, drift in, it's almost

2956
08:36:23.319 --> 08:36:32.479
as if you're moving further away from your body in

2957
08:36:32.599 --> 08:36:46.040
your mind, just leaving that there, kind of liking it

2958
08:36:46.520 --> 08:36:52.400
an escape pod in a spaceship a movie, a space movie,

2959
08:36:52.520 --> 08:36:54.360
you know, when they get into a little pod in

2960
08:36:54.439 --> 08:37:10.759
it since the month, far away from the spaceship, safe

2961
08:37:12.400 --> 08:38:23.119
to dream and continue to relax, drifting slow and peace,

2962
08:38:39.639 --> 08:39:25.720
so rare and peace and focusing on that feeling of

2963
08:39:25.919 --> 08:39:38.279
those individual parts of your body that or relaxing one

2964
08:39:38.360 --> 08:39:55.119
by one. You may find that every now and then

2965
08:39:58.000 --> 08:40:09.200
you realize that you weren't listening to my voice because

2966
08:40:09.200 --> 08:40:20.759
your mind started to imagine something different, maybe started to

2967
08:40:23.000 --> 08:40:34.159
almost move into some kind of a dreamy state. And

2968
08:40:34.240 --> 08:40:40.799
then you become aware of my voice again. And even

2969
08:40:40.919 --> 08:40:47.680
though you may want to focus on my voice, you

2970
08:40:47.840 --> 08:40:55.759
may also wish to allow your mind to just drift

2971
08:40:59.000 --> 08:41:15.439
naturally into that space of comfort and safety as you

2972
08:41:16.279 --> 08:41:33.360
feel more comfort spreading through your body like a warm

2973
08:41:33.560 --> 08:41:50.159
blanket covering you, chimling, keeping your body. It just the

2974
08:41:50.520 --> 08:42:07.639
perfect temperature, and even if you can hear background sounds,

2975
08:42:13.200 --> 08:42:25.520
they just don't seem to matter anymore. There's that sense

2976
08:42:25.680 --> 08:42:42.040
of peace spreads through your mind like a gentle breeze,

2977
08:42:45.040 --> 08:42:57.720
yet strong enough to blow away all negativity, strong enough

2978
08:42:57.840 --> 08:43:11.159
to remove from your mind any anxiety or stress that

2979
08:43:11.439 --> 08:43:25.680
was there before, and blow away any other thoughts or

2980
08:43:25.959 --> 08:43:47.360
feelings that just don't fit with the sense relaxation that

2981
08:43:52.520 --> 08:44:17.880
is feeling your body and your mind. Unless you focus

2982
08:44:18.119 --> 08:44:24.759
on your mind and countdown from ten down to one,

2983
08:44:26.119 --> 08:44:36.479
and with each number you hear, your mind will become

2984
08:44:42.560 --> 08:45:02.159
slightly more relaxed, just just slightly so, from ten down

2985
08:45:02.279 --> 08:45:09.319
to nine, just a slight movement, from nine down to eight,

2986
08:45:10.599 --> 08:45:27.040
just another small change in how you feel. Eight down

2987
08:45:27.159 --> 08:45:34.880
to seven. That feeling that is a gap, almost like

2988
08:45:34.959 --> 08:45:41.400
a gap that starts to get wider, the gap between

2989
08:45:42.520 --> 08:45:49.000
those feelings that you used to have in your mind

2990
08:45:52.319 --> 08:45:57.400
compared to the feelings you have that are growing now,

2991
08:45:59.119 --> 08:46:08.919
feelings of foot and security and confidence, and the gap

2992
08:46:09.360 --> 08:46:15.520
becomes wider. Makee down to seven, seven, down to six,

2993
08:46:19.159 --> 08:46:24.159
and when you get to five, your mind will start

2994
08:46:24.319 --> 08:46:37.240
to have a certain physical sensation, almost like there's a

2995
08:46:37.560 --> 08:46:44.159
magnet outside of your head sucking the tension and the

2996
08:46:44.479 --> 08:46:52.159
stress and any remaining feelings that you don't want, sucking

2997
08:46:52.240 --> 08:47:01.279
them out through your skull. And then down to four

2998
08:47:03.319 --> 08:47:10.080
you could start to really experience that sense of not

2999
08:47:10.360 --> 08:47:20.560
just emptiness, but space, a place full of fresh air,

3000
08:47:25.560 --> 08:47:32.360
place where you can stretch. It's almost as if as

3001
08:47:32.439 --> 08:47:37.599
you go down to four and three, your mind is expanding,

3002
08:47:38.200 --> 08:47:51.279
with this sense of peace and tranquility growing as it

3003
08:47:51.439 --> 08:47:58.759
moves down to When you get to one, in your

3004
08:47:58.919 --> 08:48:11.119
mind just feels exactly how you want to feel, almost

3005
08:48:13.959 --> 08:48:28.639
a perfect feeling, maybe a sensation that you'd like to

3006
08:48:28.919 --> 08:48:41.680
keep a place that's safe, where nothing can affect you

3007
08:48:42.759 --> 08:48:58.479
at all, and you can stay in that that space

3008
08:48:58.639 --> 08:49:09.119
of comfort, confidence, confident in your own ability to create

3009
08:49:09.400 --> 08:49:15.880
this space and this feeling of comfort within your own

3010
08:49:16.080 --> 08:49:27.560
mind just by counting ten down to one. And this

3011
08:49:27.799 --> 08:49:32.200
is something that you can do yourself when you're on

3012
08:49:32.279 --> 08:49:40.000
your own, a time when you can maybe sit down,

3013
08:49:41.000 --> 08:49:51.880
maybe just for a few minutes, close your eyes just

3014
08:49:52.200 --> 08:50:04.720
count slowly from ten down to one and re experience

3015
08:50:06.479 --> 08:50:16.799
these feelings in your mind. And when you feel that

3016
08:50:17.000 --> 08:50:32.159
way in your mind, your body copies your mind and

3017
08:50:32.279 --> 08:50:38.639
that feeling. It's spread through your spine and your nervous

3018
08:50:38.720 --> 08:50:47.159
system into every part of your body, travels through your bloodstream,

3019
08:50:52.720 --> 08:51:12.959
healing and relaxing every particle of your existence. That's and

3020
08:51:13.200 --> 08:51:22.000
we can we can practice this a few times before

3021
08:51:22.080 --> 08:51:26.720
the end of the recording, and then you can practice

3022
08:51:26.799 --> 08:51:32.599
on your own. And each time you count from ten

3023
08:51:33.720 --> 08:51:44.799
down to one, the feelings of comfort, calmness, and deep

3024
08:51:46.880 --> 08:52:04.000
deep relaxation becomes stronger and deeper feeling your mind and

3025
08:52:04.119 --> 08:52:13.840
your brain with these positive chemicals that spread throughout your body,

3026
08:52:15.400 --> 08:52:24.439
relaxing you so quickly, relaxing your whole body and mind.

3027
08:52:27.000 --> 08:52:27.840
So very.

3028
08:52:29.400 --> 08:52:40.639
Very easily just by counting from ten down to one.

3029
08:52:45.759 --> 08:52:48.360
So we're going to do it now. I'm going to

3030
08:52:48.479 --> 08:52:52.560
count from ten down to one. I'd like you to

3031
08:52:52.759 --> 08:52:57.240
repeat the number after me. So when I say ten,

3032
08:53:00.279 --> 08:53:12.119
you can just repeat to yourself ten. Just notice, be

3033
08:53:12.279 --> 08:53:21.400
aware of how you feel in your mind and your body,

3034
08:53:25.840 --> 08:53:32.279
and when I say nine, you can repeat to yourself

3035
08:53:35.200 --> 08:53:50.400
nine again, noticing the increase in comfort and calmness in

3036
08:53:50.560 --> 08:54:01.479
your mind and in your body. Want to say eight

3037
08:54:04.520 --> 08:54:16.080
when I say seven, six, when I say five, four,

3038
08:54:20.080 --> 08:54:32.040
when I say three, two, and lastly when I say one,

3039
08:54:34.479 --> 08:54:45.400
you can beat that number. Now, of course, when you

3040
08:54:46.680 --> 08:54:51.959
do this on your own without listening to me, you

3041
08:54:52.119 --> 08:54:58.919
can say the numbers or whatever speed that you feel

3042
08:54:59.799 --> 08:55:08.560
is necessary for you, so you can adapt. So if

3043
08:55:08.639 --> 08:55:12.919
you feel you want to say the numbers ten down

3044
08:55:13.080 --> 08:55:19.520
to one faster than I do, then you go ahead

3045
08:55:19.560 --> 08:55:23.040
and do that. Or if you feel when you do

3046
08:55:23.159 --> 08:55:29.319
it yourself that you'd like to have more more space

3047
08:55:29.560 --> 08:55:36.599
between the numbers, maybe take a lot longer to get

3048
08:55:36.720 --> 08:55:46.799
from ten all the way down to one, that's your

3049
08:55:47.000 --> 08:55:59.599
choice also to do. So, I'm going to count from

3050
08:55:59.720 --> 08:56:07.840
ten down to one. I want to get to one.

3051
08:56:09.159 --> 08:56:14.680
That will be the end of this recording. The let's

3052
08:56:14.720 --> 08:56:18.680
of course you're listening with music, then the music will

3053
08:56:18.759 --> 09:01:30.000
continue ten nine, eight, seve, twenty, nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen,

3054
09:01:34.000 --> 09:02:24.520
thirty twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three,

3055
09:02:29.560 --> 09:02:53.119
two one. Now open your eyes, noticing how you physically

3056
09:02:53.240 --> 09:03:02.240
feel having counted down from twenty to one, Allowing stress

3057
09:03:02.360 --> 09:03:06.200
and tension to leave through your fingertips and your toast,

3058
09:03:07.759 --> 09:03:12.479
and as you focus on your fingertips, maybe they feel

3059
09:03:12.479 --> 09:03:18.639
a little bit tingling, which is I suppose quite an

3060
09:03:18.680 --> 09:03:23.639
understanding considering the tension has been exiting your body through

3061
09:03:23.720 --> 09:03:32.639
your fingertips. So now I'm going to count from twenty

3062
09:03:32.720 --> 09:03:39.599
down to one again. This time you're going to feel

3063
09:03:39.759 --> 09:03:46.200
relief of tension and stress, any anxiety that you may have.

3064
09:03:50.840 --> 09:03:59.240
Leaving through your stomach, just leaving through your stomach, almost

3065
09:03:59.279 --> 09:04:02.799
as if it is just releasing.

3066
09:04:03.840 --> 09:04:09.159
The whole of your stomach, your navel to just above

3067
09:04:09.240 --> 09:04:13.279
your chest or below your chest, rather so surrounding your

3068
09:04:13.360 --> 09:04:18.599
belly byton area, the whole area. You can feel the

3069
09:04:18.799 --> 09:04:25.279
tension of your body where there's left, just releasing from

3070
09:04:25.360 --> 09:04:28.599
the area, and you may notice that your stomach will

3071
09:04:28.639 --> 09:04:35.720
become very relaxed. As I count down from twenty down

3072
09:04:35.799 --> 09:05:58.200
to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four,

3073
09:06:02.319 --> 09:06:19.279
three two. What You can open your eyes again if

3074
09:06:19.319 --> 09:06:22.879
you choose, or you can just keep them closed because

3075
09:06:22.919 --> 09:06:29.720
it feels relaxing. Just notice how your stomach feels. I

3076
09:06:29.879 --> 09:06:33.639
notice as your focus, just do a little scan of

3077
09:06:33.720 --> 09:06:43.160
your body, just noticing your body feels. Focusing on your

3078
09:06:43.239 --> 09:06:53.839
upper body, back, chest, stomach, lags, arms, hands, feet, just noticing,

3079
09:06:58.040 --> 09:07:02.680
and you know, you may start to feel more of

3080
09:07:02.720 --> 09:07:07.959
a sense of tiredness, which maybe the reason listening to

3081
09:07:08.080 --> 09:07:15.800
this recording because you would like to let go completely

3082
09:07:15.919 --> 09:07:26.279
of everything and drift moor into a nice, natural, calm,

3083
09:07:26.680 --> 09:07:41.879
relaxing sleep. So now we're going to focus on your forehead,

3084
09:07:45.800 --> 09:07:48.559
and if you choose, you can incorporate your eyes in

3085
09:07:48.720 --> 09:07:53.319
this focus as well. So your forehead and your eyes,

3086
09:07:55.440 --> 09:07:59.879
it's that whole area basically almost as if you were

3087
09:08:00.120 --> 09:08:03.879
in a mask, you know, like a I don't know,

3088
09:08:03.959 --> 09:08:10.519
a Batman mask or something, or I'm trying to sorrow

3089
09:08:10.720 --> 09:08:12.720
or something, you know, the kind of mask that covers

3090
09:08:12.760 --> 09:08:15.839
your eyes, but also covers quite a lot of the forehead.

3091
09:08:19.720 --> 09:08:22.760
Focusing on that area because that's the area that we're

3092
09:08:22.800 --> 09:08:29.199
now going to release tension, stress from your mind, from

3093
09:08:29.279 --> 09:08:33.080
your brain, from your mind, and any tension that you

3094
09:08:33.239 --> 09:08:37.400
may have remaining in your face, in your neck and

3095
09:08:37.519 --> 09:08:43.199
your jaw, in your eyes, your forehead, or your scalp.

3096
09:08:44.839 --> 09:08:50.160
So basically any tension within your head area, including your

3097
09:08:50.319 --> 09:08:59.000
mind and your brain that's going to be released through

3098
09:08:59.040 --> 09:09:06.239
your forehead, your eyes. As I count down again from

3099
09:09:06.800 --> 09:10:37.239
twenty down to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four,

3100
09:10:41.360 --> 09:11:06.639
three one sin as you scan your face with jaw,

3101
09:11:07.199 --> 09:11:16.040
your eyes, your cheap bones, your ears, your forehead, your scalp,

3102
09:11:17.639 --> 09:11:21.440
your neck, back of your neck and the front of

3103
09:11:21.519 --> 09:11:25.199
your neck, the side of your neck, and your throat.

3104
09:11:31.519 --> 09:11:44.800
Noticing being aware of the comfort increased, being relaxation, not

3105
09:11:45.160 --> 09:11:50.160
just in your head and neck and mind, also the

3106
09:11:50.279 --> 09:12:00.000
rest of your body. Just notice how loose you can't

3107
09:12:00.440 --> 09:12:06.639
you feel, and how easily it is to just let

3108
09:12:06.760 --> 09:12:33.639
go completely, let go completely, how easily. So what I'm

3109
09:12:33.639 --> 09:12:37.199
going to do now is wanting to focus on the

3110
09:12:37.319 --> 09:12:44.680
top of your head, and am I going to allow

3111
09:12:46.400 --> 09:12:54.720
every last piece of tension or stress the mind be

3112
09:12:55.040 --> 09:13:00.519
lingering or hiding in your body or mind my head

3113
09:13:02.040 --> 09:13:07.440
to just be sucked out on the top of your head,

3114
09:13:10.040 --> 09:13:21.400
released into the air's sucked down into the clouds. Imagine

3115
09:13:21.440 --> 09:13:26.800
a big cloud above your head, almost like a whirlpool,

3116
09:13:27.599 --> 09:13:32.360
and is gonna suck that tension out of the top

3117
09:13:32.440 --> 09:13:36.879
of your head. Just take away.

3118
09:13:38.519 --> 09:13:39.160
You good.

3119
09:13:42.160 --> 09:13:45.879
You focus. Imagine an opening on the top of your

3120
09:13:45.959 --> 09:13:52.519
head with that tension and stress and any remaining issues,

3121
09:13:52.720 --> 09:13:56.480
maybe worries of concerns that are no use to you.

3122
09:13:56.680 --> 09:14:00.519
Now you can all be sucked out the top of

3123
09:14:00.599 --> 09:14:07.360
your head had taken away. As I count down again,

3124
09:14:08.000 --> 09:14:36.080
I'm twenty down to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventy,

3125
09:14:41.559 --> 09:15:52.160
sixteen fifty fourteen, thirteen to twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five,

3126
09:15:57.599 --> 09:16:36.879
four three two war pray noticing how you feel, how

3127
09:16:37.000 --> 09:16:45.279
relaxed and calm you physically and mentally feel right now,

3128
09:16:50.959 --> 09:17:00.720
help peace so your mind feels. It feels so nice

3129
09:17:00.959 --> 09:17:07.440
to just let go, to give yourself some space to

3130
09:17:07.680 --> 09:17:19.080
breathe easily, to think calmly, and just to take a

3131
09:17:19.199 --> 09:17:26.680
break from all that pointless worry and concerns about things

3132
09:17:26.959 --> 09:17:36.160
that you don't need to think about right now, because

3133
09:17:37.800 --> 09:17:41.879
this is your time to let go. This is your

3134
09:17:42.080 --> 09:17:51.959
space to enjoy feeling deeply relaxed, peaceful in your mind,

3135
09:17:53.199 --> 09:18:02.519
relaxed in your body. They can feel so good, so

3136
09:18:03.120 --> 09:18:11.400
nice to just not have to do anything to be

3137
09:18:11.559 --> 09:18:22.199
able to really enjoy that serenity that comes of letting

3138
09:18:22.360 --> 09:18:27.879
go completely, that peacefulness that comes.

3139
09:18:27.720 --> 09:18:35.839
With being in this.

3140
09:18:37.680 --> 09:18:47.760
Peaceful space. And you can keep this sense of calmness

3141
09:18:48.599 --> 09:18:59.639
for as long as you choose. If you choose to

3142
09:18:59.800 --> 09:19:07.080
try if off into a deep, healing, natural sleep, then

3143
09:19:07.120 --> 09:19:18.480
you can do that. It's completely up to you, and

3144
09:19:18.760 --> 09:19:23.279
you can keep this feeling of calmness physically and in

3145
09:19:23.400 --> 09:19:29.199
your mind for as long as you choose to feel

3146
09:19:29.440 --> 09:19:44.919
completely relaxed, completely relaxed. And I'd like you to make

3147
09:19:45.120 --> 09:19:58.680
up your mind that you got to relax, and I

3148
09:19:58.800 --> 09:20:02.040
want to explore that with you. What it feels like

3149
09:20:02.279 --> 09:20:10.519
when you actually decide that you're going to relax, not

3150
09:20:10.839 --> 09:20:18.040
forcing yourself, but giving yourself that guess it is a command, really,

3151
09:20:18.120 --> 09:20:25.040
isn't it. When you're telling yourself relax in a gentle

3152
09:20:25.160 --> 09:20:32.199
but firm way that only you can really tell yourself

3153
09:20:32.639 --> 09:20:35.480
in that way. You can't really have someone else saying

3154
09:20:35.519 --> 09:20:41.639
to you, now it relax, relax, you know, and it

3155
09:20:41.760 --> 09:20:44.120
needs to be gentle, but you can't. Someone else can't

3156
09:20:44.199 --> 09:20:53.199
really have the same the same kind of influence or

3157
09:20:53.559 --> 09:21:01.680
power that you have over your own visit over how

3158
09:21:01.879 --> 09:21:12.040
you feel. Because when you say it to yourself it

3159
09:21:12.319 --> 09:21:20.160
means more. It's personal, and your brain and your unconscious

3160
09:21:20.319 --> 09:21:26.480
mind and your body listens to what you say. So

3161
09:21:26.800 --> 09:21:30.559
for example, we'll test it out and do a little test,

3162
09:21:30.720 --> 09:21:34.319
a few little tests along the way, and you can

3163
09:21:34.440 --> 09:21:40.680
get more of an idea of the force, a positive

3164
09:21:40.919 --> 09:21:47.319
force that you can have in creating a sense of

3165
09:21:47.599 --> 09:21:52.599
comfort and relaxation and your body and your mind quite

3166
09:21:52.720 --> 09:22:05.440
quickly just by you telling yourself to rely. So I'm

3167
09:22:05.480 --> 09:22:12.199
going to start by it's focus on your hands. So

3168
09:22:12.319 --> 09:22:15.319
focus on your hands and just tell your hands to relax,

3169
09:22:16.360 --> 09:22:21.239
and just say relax. As you focus on your hands,

3170
09:22:23.519 --> 09:22:28.080
you could say my hands are relaxed, or I want

3171
09:22:28.120 --> 09:22:32.400
my hands to relax. I think if you actually do

3172
09:22:32.519 --> 09:22:40.559
it directly by focusing and imagining that your hands can

3173
09:22:40.800 --> 09:22:43.440
hear what you're saying. You know, they've got little ears,

3174
09:22:44.199 --> 09:22:49.319
which is a bit weird. So talking to your hands

3175
09:22:50.080 --> 09:23:06.400
and just say relax, noticing how your hands start to relax.

3176
09:23:18.800 --> 09:23:22.279
Now focus on your eyes and tell your eyes to relax.

3177
09:23:23.480 --> 09:23:28.120
You just say in the same word relax, and find

3178
09:23:28.199 --> 09:23:35.839
the right tone for you. You know, I might say relax,

3179
09:23:36.519 --> 09:23:44.639
but you you might say relax or relax. You know,

3180
09:23:44.959 --> 09:23:50.599
you might say it differently to yourself, and that's important

3181
09:23:51.480 --> 09:23:57.559
for you to gauge what feels right for you. So

3182
09:23:57.800 --> 09:24:02.959
just tell your eyes to relax, whilst focusing on your eyes,

3183
09:24:03.480 --> 09:24:08.160
your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your eyebrows, and

3184
09:24:08.440 --> 09:24:14.639
just tell your eyes directly relax.

3185
09:24:16.559 --> 09:24:16.720
Now.

3186
09:24:43.519 --> 09:24:53.680
Now, I just did that myself, and sometimes you may

3187
09:24:53.800 --> 09:24:58.440
feel that you need a bit more time for the

3188
09:24:58.559 --> 09:25:02.239
different parts to relax, you know, because I started talking

3189
09:25:02.319 --> 09:25:07.599
again and maybe that part hasn't relaxed fully. But what

3190
09:25:07.879 --> 09:25:10.360
happened is that it would just continue to relax even

3191
09:25:10.440 --> 09:25:17.639
though I'm talking. And that's happened with my eyes. Something

3192
09:25:17.680 --> 09:25:22.480
else I noticed is when I started focusing on my eyes,

3193
09:25:22.800 --> 09:25:26.279
that actually almost became They got worse before they got

3194
09:25:26.400 --> 09:25:29.319
better in a way. So I felt a degree of

3195
09:25:29.559 --> 09:25:36.120
tension growing in my eyes and then disappearing. So I

3196
09:25:36.239 --> 09:25:38.760
think what that was really it was just me becoming

3197
09:25:38.919 --> 09:25:45.199
more aware of the tension that was already there that

3198
09:25:45.360 --> 09:25:49.919
I wasn't. I wasn't focused on it before, so I

3199
09:25:50.080 --> 09:26:08.720
wasn't really acknowledging it or really conscious to those feelings. Yeah,

3200
09:26:08.839 --> 09:26:12.279
my eyes is still continuing to relax, as well as

3201
09:26:12.319 --> 09:26:18.239
my hands. Actually, my hands have got a certain kind

3202
09:26:18.319 --> 09:26:24.319
of energy, like not buzzing, but I can kind of

3203
09:26:26.720 --> 09:26:32.599
feel a degree of energy in my hands. Maybe that's

3204
09:26:32.639 --> 09:26:37.480
where the tension is being released. Maybe that's causing that.

3205
09:26:44.879 --> 09:26:47.040
The next part, I think we should focus on the

3206
09:26:47.120 --> 09:26:49.919
back of the neck. That's the part was quite often

3207
09:26:51.959 --> 09:26:55.040
well for me, holds tension. I don't know about for yourself,

3208
09:26:55.919 --> 09:26:59.839
but I think it's quite a standard place where ten

3209
09:27:00.400 --> 09:27:07.040
is sometimes held. So and I'm doing exactly what you're

3210
09:27:07.120 --> 09:27:09.720
doing as you do it as well, so I'm telling

3211
09:27:09.839 --> 09:27:13.959
my body parts to relax as well. So if you

3212
09:27:14.080 --> 09:27:17.080
tell your neck the back of your neck, focus on

3213
09:27:17.199 --> 09:27:23.720
the back of your neck, and just say relax in

3214
09:27:23.839 --> 09:27:26.959
your own words, in your own tone, in your own voice.

3215
09:27:27.599 --> 09:27:29.680
You can say out loud, or you can just say

3216
09:27:29.680 --> 09:27:35.199
it to yourself internally. But you're focusing, and you're saying

3217
09:27:35.279 --> 09:27:39.480
it literally to the back of your neck, as if

3218
09:27:39.559 --> 09:27:43.199
the back of your neck can actually hear what you're saying.

3219
09:27:46.599 --> 09:27:50.199
So do that now, Just say relax to the back

3220
09:27:50.199 --> 09:28:31.760
of your neck, and I'll do the same. Then what

3221
09:28:32.080 --> 09:28:36.760
I noticed, and you may have had similar thing is

3222
09:28:37.559 --> 09:28:40.120
even though I was focusing on the back of my neck,

3223
09:28:45.160 --> 09:28:52.000
other parts started to I don't know showed themselves to me,

3224
09:28:52.279 --> 09:28:55.279
or maybe because they want to be relaxed as well.

3225
09:28:55.400 --> 09:29:00.360
But I started noticing the feelings in my shoulders, in

3226
09:29:00.440 --> 09:29:06.120
my shoulders and in my upper back. Whether that was

3227
09:29:06.239 --> 09:29:11.599
because my back of my neck was saying, well, I'm

3228
09:29:11.599 --> 09:29:16.400
pretty much okay. It's the other parts that need attention,

3229
09:29:22.800 --> 09:29:24.959
but my low of my back of my neck is

3230
09:29:25.000 --> 09:29:29.160
still relaxing. But I just became more aware of other

3231
09:29:29.319 --> 09:29:37.040
parts that needed attention. Now, this might happen and it's not.

3232
09:29:38.639 --> 09:29:41.160
It doesn't mean that it's going wrong. It just means

3233
09:29:42.000 --> 09:29:48.040
you're being notified of more places that also want to

3234
09:29:48.120 --> 09:29:55.199
feel relaxed. So I'm going to focus on my upper back.

3235
09:29:56.480 --> 09:30:00.279
So you can do the same. Even if you don't

3236
09:30:00.360 --> 09:30:05.319
have any feelings of tension that are obvious in your

3237
09:30:05.400 --> 09:30:11.959
upper back. You just focus on your back and the

3238
09:30:12.040 --> 09:30:17.080
whole area from the shoulder blades down to the middle

3239
09:30:17.120 --> 09:30:21.319
of your back, then your spine. And with me, it's

3240
09:30:21.440 --> 09:30:29.360
more the shoulder blades more. Yeah, that's the parts that

3241
09:30:29.599 --> 09:30:38.720
really sort of given me the nod that it needs relaxing.

3242
09:30:38.800 --> 09:30:42.239
The sounds going to ask that part to relax, and

3243
09:30:42.400 --> 09:30:56.000
you can do the same. Now, relax your upper back

3244
09:31:08.360 --> 09:31:10.040
something strange happened there.

3245
09:31:10.559 --> 09:31:10.839
And this.

3246
09:31:12.319 --> 09:31:13.199
Often happens.

3247
09:31:13.279 --> 09:31:14.160
I've been doing this for.

3248
09:31:17.080 --> 09:31:23.800
Sixteen years or something, and often I'm I'm surprised, but

3249
09:31:24.480 --> 09:31:30.919
amazed really that there can be a feeling. So, when

3250
09:31:30.959 --> 09:31:34.239
I was focusing on the back of my neck, my

3251
09:31:34.400 --> 09:31:39.160
upper back was starting to feel quite stressed and in

3252
09:31:39.360 --> 09:31:44.839
need of attention. As soon as I started talking to

3253
09:31:45.040 --> 09:31:49.680
you about my upper back and talking about, you know,

3254
09:31:50.199 --> 09:31:55.080
getting ready to ask the upper back to relax, my

3255
09:31:55.160 --> 09:32:01.040
opper back already started to relax, almost as if it

3256
09:32:01.160 --> 09:32:11.440
doesn't need to hear the words, just needs intention, just

3257
09:32:11.599 --> 09:32:24.080
needs to be noticed. That is something that often happens

3258
09:32:24.519 --> 09:32:31.720
in this type of situation is when you start to

3259
09:32:31.879 --> 09:32:36.879
relax a couple of parts of your body, as we've

3260
09:32:36.959 --> 09:32:43.559
done with our hands, our eyes and eyelids, and now

3261
09:32:44.839 --> 09:32:52.519
back of the neck, top of the back, upper back,

3262
09:32:53.839 --> 09:32:57.839
the rest of the body seems to just take notice

3263
09:33:00.599 --> 09:33:08.839
and decide in its own way to start relaxing. Other

3264
09:33:09.000 --> 09:33:18.839
parts of your body start to just become looser. I

3265
09:33:18.959 --> 09:33:21.599
suppose it's kind of like a bit of an avalanche,

3266
09:33:21.800 --> 09:33:26.519
you know, a little ball starts rolling and before you

3267
09:33:26.639 --> 09:33:29.639
know it, the whole of your body is completely relaxed

3268
09:33:29.720 --> 09:33:46.360
and can't. And if you focus on your face, you

3269
09:33:46.519 --> 09:33:54.080
focus on your eyes, your eyelids, your eyebrows, and the

3270
09:33:54.239 --> 09:34:02.800
muscles around your eyes. Maybe you start to notice that

3271
09:34:04.559 --> 09:34:09.639
your forehead is more relaxed than it was. Maybe your

3272
09:34:09.760 --> 09:34:15.559
face is more relaxed. I would say my entire face

3273
09:34:15.720 --> 09:34:30.319
is a lot more relaxed than it was. So we're

3274
09:34:30.319 --> 09:34:36.839
going to focus now on your shoulders again, just like before.

3275
09:34:38.199 --> 09:34:41.599
Just tell your shoulders and you can do them in

3276
09:34:41.680 --> 09:34:44.480
the digity. You can do the right shoulder, left shoulder.

3277
09:34:46.000 --> 09:34:50.000
I just generally do both at the same time, and

3278
09:34:50.199 --> 09:34:53.440
just tell your shoulders as you focus on them in

3279
09:34:53.559 --> 09:34:59.400
your mind, focus on them and they feel maybe you

3280
09:34:59.519 --> 09:35:06.120
can see them in your mind's on. Just tell your

3281
09:35:06.199 --> 09:36:00.720
shoulders to relax it as nice as they relax. But

3282
09:36:00.800 --> 09:36:09.680
I do notice, especially with my back, is the connection

3283
09:36:09.959 --> 09:36:15.480
between the different parts the back, with shoulders, the neck

3284
09:36:21.040 --> 09:36:25.440
being all connected and being such a large part of

3285
09:36:25.559 --> 09:36:31.839
your body, it's always hard to separate them from each other.

3286
09:36:37.319 --> 09:36:40.160
And my lower back is starting to relax on its own.

3287
09:36:46.360 --> 09:36:51.080
Maybe I'm going too slow, and that could be an

3288
09:36:51.120 --> 09:36:58.559
issue because we all go at different speeds and the

3289
09:36:58.720 --> 09:37:01.839
idea of the beginning This recording was for you to

3290
09:37:01.919 --> 09:37:17.440
be able to just say to yourself, relax without focusing

3291
09:37:17.559 --> 09:37:23.199
on any particular part of your body. Because when you

3292
09:37:23.360 --> 09:37:34.199
know that telling your hands to relax and your hand relax,

3293
09:37:36.760 --> 09:37:43.440
you tell your eyelids and your eyes and muscles around

3294
09:37:43.559 --> 09:37:53.040
your eyes and your eyebrows to relax, and they relax.

3295
09:37:58.760 --> 09:38:10.080
You tell the back of your neck to relax, and

3296
09:38:10.440 --> 09:38:37.760
it relaxes. You tell your upper back to relax, and

3297
09:38:38.040 --> 09:38:48.720
it relaxes. You tell your shoulders.

3298
09:38:50.040 --> 09:39:02.199
To relax, and they relax.

3299
09:39:25.680 --> 09:39:29.720
And you told your hands to relax, they relaxed and

3300
09:39:29.879 --> 09:39:43.040
they continued to relax. When you told your eyelids, the

3301
09:39:43.160 --> 09:39:50.639
muscles around your eyes, your eyebrows to relax, they relaxed

3302
09:39:54.199 --> 09:40:05.199
and continued to relax. When you told the back of

3303
09:40:05.279 --> 09:40:12.279
your neck, focused on the back of your neck and

3304
09:40:12.519 --> 09:40:24.120
told it to relax, it relaxed and continued to relax.

3305
09:40:32.279 --> 09:40:41.400
When you told your ulpa back to relax, it relaxed

3306
09:40:42.040 --> 09:40:58.360
and continued to relax. That's with your shoulders. You told

3307
09:40:58.400 --> 09:41:06.680
your shoulders to relax, in your shoulders relaxed and continued

3308
09:41:11.839 --> 09:41:26.080
to relax. And it's not just that, it's that the

3309
09:41:26.199 --> 09:41:32.319
rest of your body has also been listening and their

3310
09:41:32.440 --> 09:41:39.319
relaxation has been spreading. So from your eyes, the relaxation

3311
09:41:39.680 --> 09:41:46.639
spread to your forehead, round your face, into your skin,

3312
09:41:47.839 --> 09:42:00.440
into your jaw, into the fronts and sides of your neck,

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all the way down your chest and stomach. Your relaxed

3314
09:42:12.279 --> 09:42:22.800
hands and shoulders meet up through your arms, relaxing your forearms,

3315
09:42:23.120 --> 09:42:39.080
your upper arms, elbows, your wrists, let you go your

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09:42:39.199 --> 09:42:49.599
lower back, your hips, buttocks growing or just start to relax,

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09:42:49.760 --> 09:43:03.000
so continue even more comfort spreading through your legs all

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the way down to your ankles, the tops of your feet,

3319
09:43:13.199 --> 09:43:18.279
the sight of your feet, and the bottoms of your feet,

3320
09:43:22.080 --> 09:43:53.720
relaxing into your toes, each toe relaxing, be calm, and

3321
09:43:53.879 --> 09:44:11.440
as your body relaxes more, your mind becomes slower but peaceful,

3322
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to the point where if you choose to fall asleep,

3323
09:44:32.400 --> 09:44:49.800
you can easily do that easy drift away because there's

3324
09:44:49.959 --> 09:44:57.199
nothing going on in your mind. Your brain is peaceful,

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09:45:05.559 --> 09:45:08.360
your body continues.

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To rise.

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And with that connection between your body relaxing and the

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word do you say to yourself relax means that you

3329
09:45:55.440 --> 09:46:02.199
don't need to focus on just one art. You could

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just focus on your entire body, saying the powerful word.

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Who acts, and.

3332
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Those familiar sensations of comfort spreading throughout your body, listening

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09:46:52.000 --> 09:47:11.720
and calming and healing every part of your body. Feeding relaxed.

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So all we need to do and now one is

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just tell yourself relax and observe feeding completely. Come for

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the boy and come starting down with number twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen,

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fift four thirty Joel