Sept. 14, 2025

(music) (10 hours) Q&A Friday | LMBYTS #1431 | Jason Newland | 14th September 2025

(music) (10 hours) Q&A Friday | LMBYTS #1431 | Jason Newland | 14th September 2025
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Hello, hell'll come to Qune Friday. Hello, Hello, Hello, hello Hello.

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So this is qun a Friday. My name is ad

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Jason new Land. Vinnie is sitting on the sofa staring

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at me, making some weird noises. I've got his food

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that's on the floor on a little plate. There's about

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a quarter of an apple also on the floor for

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him to eat, and some fresh water, and he's still

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staring at me as if to say, where's my food.

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So I don't really know what's going on with him.

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It's very very stage, very stage. Other than that, please

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only listen when you can safely close your eyes. And

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also my website is letmeboydsleep dot com for this podcast,

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but I do also have my Chasonnewland dot com which

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is still available. I've I did delete it, but I

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made it available again. It's a little bit different format,

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but it gives you links to all the different places

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that you could listen to my other stuff as well.

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I know I haven't been hugely active the last I

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don't know. I did a recording on the sixth, which

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was what was one, two, three, four, five, six, seven,

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eight days ago, and I did one on the fifth

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which was the Friday day before, one in the fourth,

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one on the third, one on the alright, and then

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one on the thirtieth of August, twenty ninth, twenty eighth,

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twenty seventh, August, twenty fifth, because I had my birthday off,

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then twenty fourth, twenty third, twenty second, twenty first, twentieth, nineteenth, eighteenth,

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seventeenth of August, fourteenth of August, twelfth of August, eleventh, tenth, ninth, eighth, seventh, sixth, fifth, fourth, third.

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So you know, it's not like I haven't done any recording.

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It's just been like a week and the stats have

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gone down to practically nothing. It's weird. And I did

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do recording, although I didn't you know. I'm still in

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the process of sorting some of the podcasts out I

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did start. If this is a bit echoy, I'm sorry.

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I've moved my microphone to a different part of the room,

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and I might need to get some kind of soundproofing

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on this wall here there because the bookcases aren't here anymore.

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I can get that sorid I'll sort that out at

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some point, or I could just move back to doing

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it on the chair, but that's a little bit uncomfortable.

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It's not uncomfortable as far as sitting, but making a recording,

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I'm kind of I don't really have the back support

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that I need. My neck's a little bit bent, and

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I'm kind of having to lean forward. Here I can

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just talk and I'm sitting up Drake, it's a little

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bit easier. And also because I'm looking at the laptop

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to get the Facebook questions, it's kind of handy to

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have it in front of me rather than to keep

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looking down. So yeah, I'd like to say thank you

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to those of you that have sent me lovely messages

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of support. Thank you and yeah, and also a big

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message shout out to Brooke. I do. I've got a

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message from Cara. I've not replied yet. I'm sorry.

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I just.

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I think I've missed a few messages that I've not

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replied to. And I do apologize. I'm not meaning to

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do that. Just kind of lost track of stuff, if

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I'm honest. But I did try and do the Q

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and A Friday on Friday and all it might have

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been Saturday morning, No, it's Friday. I think I ended

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up talking about something completely different from the Q and

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A Friday and it turned into I suppose quite a

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serious conversation, so I just ended up ditching it after

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about forty minutes. But this is Q and a Friday,

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and I will be focusing on just the questions if

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I can find it, here we go, right, okay, we go,

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here we go, Here we go, here we go. So

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no big long blah blah blah. I'm just going to

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get straight down to it, straight down to the nitty gritty.

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I'll drink of water as well. Spent half the night

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up last night watching The Boxing Canello Crawford. It was

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very good. So Hope is the first question, and Hope

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asks what are your top five favorite movies? Kic mm hmmmmmm.

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Off the top of my head. I'm just gonna shout

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one of men to shout them out. But the Wanderers, Airplane,

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It's a Wonderful Life, The Life of Brian, groundhog Day.

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I'm not going to say they're my absolute favorites. It's

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a Wonderful Life is my absolute favorite movie of all

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of them. But the others I love and have watched

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multiple times, although Airplane Life of Brian not so much

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because I kind of watch yeah it just because their

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comedy is good. To leave them a bit, you know,

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let them marinate and come back to them maybe a

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few years later, leave it a decade or so. But

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there are five off the top of my head. I'm

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just trying to think of any other ones that I

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really going back to when I was little boom boom

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boom boom boom boom boom movies. Just I'm trying to

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think it's a movie that blew me away. The End

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of the Dragon would be another one, So I'm going

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to add that on. In fact, I would add that

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probably number two out of all the ones. Well, I

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couldn't really watch it anymore. But as far as having

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an impact on my life, I think let me It's

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a wonderful life had an impact on me. I remember

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watching it the very first time. I was living above

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the co op where I was working. It's nineteen eighty eight.

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It's a story behind this. Shall I tell you the story? Yeah,

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go on it right. I was working at a chip shop.

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I probably mentioned this a few thousand times over the years.

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And what happened is my boss I said something that

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annoyed my boss. And this would have been the beginning

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of March time, maybe February March nineteen eighty eight, so

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I've been working there for nearly two years, what about

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two years at this point. I've been living upstairs in

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the flat for a year. So one day he was

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just talking about going to see Stevie Wondering concert, and

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I was getting annoyed because he was talking about nice

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things he was doing and I had no money to

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do anything. I just, I don't know, I was probably jealous, possibly,

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and I was a big fan, really a bigger fan

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of Stevie Wander than he was, because I listened to

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Stevie Wonder like nearly all the time when I'm back then,

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and I said something to the upset him, and he

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pushed me against the wall and he was like twice

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my size at this time. It wouldn't be now, but

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you know, back then he was twice and like pushed

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me against the wall and I just told him to

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get off. He did apologize, He did apologize, like because

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I walked out. I said, you know, I just walked out,

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went upstairs, and he apologized, and I couldn't let it

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go though, so I kind of said, no, don't worried,

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and then I went back to work and I just couldn't.

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I couldn't be there anymore, so I quit. I left.

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I was given a month to get out of the flat,

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but I didn't know where to go because I didn't

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have a job or anything. So what happened is I

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ended up moving in with my dad, who had a

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new house. So I was seventeen at this point. I

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stayed in his spare bedroom. It was only temporary. It's

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a temporary situation, and I yeah, it didn't ask me

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to leave. But I worked in a car. I got

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a job. I got two jobs. Actually, the first job

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I got when I was living at my dad's for

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the first time was in a care home like a

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residential home, and I was helping in the kitchen because

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I had whatever you want to call it experience, you know,

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catering experience. I've been to college, spent years at school

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working and doing I can't remember what it was called.

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What was it called domestic domestic education or whatever it

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was called that involved cooking and stuff. So I got

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a job working in the kitchen.

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Now I thought i'd be able to handle that, and

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I'll tell you right now, it's going to be very

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hard for me to move my way back to talking

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about movies.

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Because I'm going to get stuck on this, I think.

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But hey, I'm just just letting you know. So I'm

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in this. I go to this job. I wasn't enthusiastic

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about it, but back then I just took whatever I

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could get. It was just a job. I think that

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was the understanding. I could stay with my dad, but

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I had to work, and it's very easy to get

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a job back then at my age. You know, I

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basically I didn't have to take those menial jobs. And

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not that there's nothing wrong with working in a care home.

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Blame me. It's a really good job to happen. It's

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a you know, you know what I mean, Like if

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it's a it's although I wouldn't wasn't directly caring for

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elderly people. I was cooking for them. So that's a

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very important part of being alive, isn't it? Having food? Apparently,

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So I'll tell you right now it didn't work out

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very well, but I'll come to that. I could have

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done anything, really, I could have. You know, I lived

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in a place where there was a docks, one of

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the biggest docks in Europe. I could have got a

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job as a runner, just taking parcels from one place

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to another. You know, I could have got a job

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in I don't know. There wasn't there wasn't a lot going,

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but there was probably thousands of jobs that I could

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have applied for on the docks, and I didn't even

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think about it. All I wanted to do is just

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get the first available job, which is why I did that.

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Went to the job center. I said, I'll go for

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that one they phoned up. That's in the days, right.

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I don't know what it's like where you live, and

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I don't know what it's like now either. That's very slavery.

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It was out there like now. Anyway, I'm getting all

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ord to try feedback from my own mouth, even though

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I've not got headphones on. Back in those days, we

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had this little job center on a corner and it

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was little. There was no room. There was there's literally

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the seat was two desks, two seats with people even

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at the other side, and then some jobs in the window,

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some jobs in the other window the other side, and

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there's some jobs on the other side, and it's like

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it was the size of a corner shop, like a

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corner sweet shop that wasn't big at all.

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And.

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I have no idea where people used to go to

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sign on, because I never signed on when I was

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in that town, so or I was never unemployed, so

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I was, but I never like claimed benefits. I think

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it must have been somewhere else they went because there

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was no room in there. But I had these bits

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of cardboard, so there was this big plastic sheeting with

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I suppose pockets which you could put not like pockets

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in trousers, you know, you can put these I suppose

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post card size or index cards in and it advertise

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the latest jobs. So I'd look in the window and

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then have them either side so you could look outside

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and you could look inside different jobs, and then I

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could just like I think you'd maybe write down them

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the reference number, or maybe even take the card out

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and take it to the desk. I can't one million

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percent remember, and video's having a nice drink liphally there

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now just eleven thirty two. He hasn't had his breakfast chat,

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but he has also had a bit of a weird

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night because he's been up with me and then asleep,

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and then up, then asleep. So I went in because

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I needed to get a job, and this sent me

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for an interview at this care home residential home. I

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don't even know where it was. I've an idea at

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the time because I worked there, but I couldn't tell

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you now. So I know I can still remember the

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outlay of that town, but I don't remember where that

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nurse in the place was. Hmmm, I think, oh wait, now,

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don't I? So I turned up straight away. The woman

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in the kitchen, she was my boss. She didn't seem

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to take a liking to me. But in all fairness,

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I don't think I was particularly likable, not in a

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bad way. I just had a bit of an attitude

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on me, I think a little bit. I didn't want

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to be there. I was willing to work, I was

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a hard worker, but I just I wasn't interested in

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the job. It wasn't like it was my life's ambition

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to peel potatoes, which I've been doing for the last

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two years. To be fair, it's quite good at it,

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and I remember one point she was actually trying to say, no,

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that's not how you do it. I got a little

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with experience doing this. Baby. She said, don't call me baby. Sorry.

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So she didn't like me, and everything I didn't see

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to do anything right. It's all it was is just

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prep mainly just preparing the food. She did the cooking.

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I prepared the food, and then I got given responsibility

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of making the porridge. Now I've talked about the porridge incident,

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I don't need to talk about it. A game possibly,

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but no matter what I did, the porridge was not

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up to standard. It kicked every day for I was

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there for two weeks, so a two weeks trial, I

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think I maybe it was a week's trial. It seemed

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like about a year, and every day people would complain

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the porridge was too thick, or it was too thin,

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to runny, it was too sweet, too salty, and it

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was never Basically, we had probably I don't know, fifty

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people living there, maybe maybe more, maybe less. They're all

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like their porridge different. You can't, it can't. It's just

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an impossible situation. In that kind of situation, they have

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to add their own sugar, their own salt. Don't they

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to make it how they want it to taste, because

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I can't make one that's going to make everyone happy.

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So that got a bit frustrating, And back then I

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wasn't as amenable to criticism as perhaps I now I'm

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not saying I'm amenable now, but I was a little

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bit more reactive. So I was having arguments with people

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about it and just telling them what I thought. I said,

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just this is ridiculous. The whole situation was ridiculous. I mean,

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I can't I can't believe everyone. I think. I went

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into the into the where they all sat and ate,

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and I started shouting. I was like, like, you come

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and everyone, come in and cook your own porridge. And

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I got told off for that. The thing is, when

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I went there, I always had, you know, a bit

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a lot of respect for elderly people because because of

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how close I was to my Nan. I just I

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guess I just automatically had this questionable respect I guess

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to elderly people because my NN's always been old. When

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she's not around anymore. But I'm not saying she was

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born old, but ever since I've known her, ever since

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the age of seven, she's probably in her sixties then

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seven seventeen, twenty seven, thirty seven, forty seven, Okay, you no, yeah,

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she's well, I know she's probably it's probably about my age.

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But anyway, it just didn't feel right that I was

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being I mean, some people are coming and shouting at me.

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Why are you shouting at me? You're old, You're supposed

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to be nice. I didn't realize that being old doesn't

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he doesn't mean anything. Just doesn't mean someone's old. They're

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going to be like my name just because they were

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saying age as my name at this point, I was

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what seventeen my name probably getting onto seventy at this point.

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I mean she passed away when she was ninety five,

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I think ninety six, and that was ten years ago

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when I was forty forty four. So I can't work

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it out how old she'd have been when I was seventeen.

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You might be able to I can't. Forty four, thirty four,

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twenty four, So ninety eighty, seventy six, eight nine, ten, seven,

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sixty nine, So makes sact about sixty nine, maybe sixty

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sixty nine seventy roughly into a seventeen year old. That's old.

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It was to me. I mean, I've realized now that

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sixty nine is very very young. I keep saying it

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to myself. Maybe it would come true. And I wasn't

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sure what to do with that job because it wasn't

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going well. And then there was an added element. Now

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when my step mom kind of when the family broke up,

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let's say, and I went and lived with my step mom,

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my little brother, and my step mom's mom. I was

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sleeping on a look a camper bed in the living

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room for about blind me. It was nearly year, maybe

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ten months, yeah, nearly a year actually. So during that

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period she dated a couple of people, and she dated

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one particular person had a motorbike, and I wasn't a

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big fan of him. I probably wasn't going to be

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a big fan of anyone that she was dating, to

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be honest, but it was not really any of my business.

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Well after she left and moved away and they ended up,

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you know, starting a new life and that which was

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nineteen it was, yeah, just before I moved into the

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chip shop flat above the chip shop. That's when she moved.

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So that's when I didn't have anywhere to live. So

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you know, this all happened. That man on the motorbike

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was coming into the residential home every single morning to

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see the woman that was my boss because she was

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his not his actual mother, but like a mother to him,

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which is kind of ironic. Really, Now I've missed a

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little bit out. This is going back another year. So

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the previous year after my stepmom, who I classed with,

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my mom had moved away and I didn't really see

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her again after that. I had no regular contact since.

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And I was in a nightclub. I guess I was

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probably seventeen early setting on at late sixteen. I don't know.

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It's hard to keep track, but I don't know. I

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was living above the chip shops during that year that

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I was living up there. I was in a nightclub

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with one of my friends, and this bloke, the motorblike

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bloke who used to date my step mom for a

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little while, came up to me and he whispered something

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in my ear. I can't tell you what it was

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he whispered. I can tell you part of the sentence.

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The first bit was I. That was the first word,

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and then there was another word, and then the last

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two words was your mum. He giggled and walked away.

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Now wasn't the nicest thing anyone could have done, to

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be honest, and he was a lot older than me,

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a lot bigger. I just I just it was difficult

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what to do in that situation. I was still a kid,

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I was a teenager. And he was twenty six, twenty seven,

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twenty five, I don't know, three times bigger than me.

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And then he's in there, coming in. So a year later,

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he's in this place every day, walking in to all

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her how wonderful his mumm is, even though she's like

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she say, his actual mum, which was a similar situation

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to me really because my mom wasn't my mum either,

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really not biologically, and I could see the irony in

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that to see how close he was to her and

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how important she was to him. Yeah, he wasn't able

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to see that, you know, And maybe he just didn't

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he'd forgotten it, said it, but I hadn't. And the

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first he wasn't. I think it was he didn't come

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in the first day, but I think the second day

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came in and that was me done. That was like, nah,

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I stuck it. But I thought, I don't want to

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be here now if that, And I think I did say,

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what's that idiot doing it? And she said that's my

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Sunday is good and he's just I let him know

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that I didn't want him. I didn't want to know him.

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But it was really weird, like kept coming in like

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really and yeah, I had some weird thoughts back then,

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so that wasn't good. But everything worked out and I

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got sacked. Everything worked that well. I got sacked. Basically

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my trial ended and he said, you know you're not

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you know you haven't passed a trial. I said, yeah, good.

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The only reason I stayed for the whole trial because

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of my dad, so I promised I would. I wouldn't

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have lasted probably two hours there, if it had just

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been me on my own. I wouldn't put up with

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that stuff because I was living with my dad. And

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when I told him I had a two week trial, like,

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just promise me, you'll stick it out for the trial. Okay, okay,

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so I I you know, So I left there. My

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dad wasn't massively happy, but I managed to get another

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job within about a week, working at the co op.

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Now I can't remember why I'm talking. Oh yes, it's

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about movies, isn't it. So I started working at a

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co op, which is if you don't know what it is,

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it is like a it's a supermarket. It's big in

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the UK when England anyway, I don't know about other

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parts of the country or other parts of the land

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mass of which I live and I worked in this

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co op and it was a small one. It was,

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I'd say it probably wasn't much maybe a little bit

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bigger than the average small shop, you know, probably a

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little bit bigger. And there was space around the back

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for deliveries. In fact, if they'd have removed all that,

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they could have had a much bigger shop, but they

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would have had to delivered from the front. So they

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had a storage for palettes and stuff. So it was

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a professional set up. And I started working there, I

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think it was, but within a week of stopping other place.

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I think it's like April time, nineteen eighty eight, and

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I didn't love it. That would be kind of the

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like the stamp line or the headline or the standard

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you know, response to pretty much every job I've ever

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had is I didn't really love it. This can't say

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I particularly liked any job I did. Maybe a couple

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I didn't mind too much. But you know, I've had

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what fifty sixty jobs. Yeah, there was times I quite

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liked working in insurance. I like being good at something,

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but I didn't like doing a thing I was good at,

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so selling car insurance on the phone, I didn't like

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doing it. But I enjoyed being the second best out

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of two hundred and fifty people. That was nice, But

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the actual job itself, it was nice to see me

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myself on the leader board and sometimes the top salesperson

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of the week or the month, sometimes the second. It

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was all, you know. It was always like second or first,

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usually second, to be honest. So I could have just

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bragged and said first, you'd never know. But unfortunately, yeah,

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someone else was first most of the time because it

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was much better than me. It's as simple as that,

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wasn't it. Cody Cody, I think it's Cody's name.

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Was.

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It was just better than me. That's simple. So but

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it was still nice to be, you know, one of

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the best. But I didn't enjoy doing that kind of work.

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The only the only nice thing about it is perhaps

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being around people, and there was a bit of a

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social life, and I kind of got a little bit

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of respect, I think because of how well I was doing.

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Maybe I don't know. So it was this partly okay, hmmm, anyway,

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I get this job in the in the co op, really, Benny.

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They give me this horrible brown jacket when I go

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first go in there. So I've got trousers and a

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shirt and tie, and they give me this brown smelly

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It had a weird smell. It wasn't smelly as in

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covered in dog poo or anything like that. It was

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just smelly. It just had a weird smell. And I

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didn't like that because I didn't want customers coming in

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thinking that that was me. Because I was fairly hygienic

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back then. I'm not saying i'm not now, but I

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was proper, you know, because I hoped to be able

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to have a girlfriend one day, so I knew I

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needed to sort of smell nice and look presentable. I'm like, now,

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so I'm in there. They give me this and it's

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too tight, bearing in mind a way like maybe well

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nine stone or something, some skinny, really skinny, and this

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and they give me a jacket that's too small for

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me if I'm constricted. Now, it's very hard for someone

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a male being nine stone to where something that's constrictive

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because I was tiny. It's really really, really really little.

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I mean I wouldn't be able to even get my

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arms through it. Now it'd be you know, it would

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it would be ridiculous. But I struggled even then. Eventually,

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sorry about the noise. If you can hear the the

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screaming people in the garden. I managed to get a

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bigger one in the end, but then it was too big.

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You couldn't win. So the problem with I got, I'm

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broader than I am long. So I'm sure I realized

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that as I put weight on, I actually had the

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bone structure to have the weight, and then realize it

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back then. So I've got I'm not and I don't

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have long arms, so it's quite hard for me to

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buy stuff now as well. If I buy some trousers,

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it's hard for me to buy trousers that are the

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right length. And when I buy something that fits my

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upper body because like XL or xx L whatever, usually

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the sleeves are too long because of my arm, and

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my arms don't match my body like length wise, I'm

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more girthed than length as it were. And so I'm

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working in this shop. I remember getting in there and

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one of the things one of my main jobs to

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start with was to load the bread section, so to

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put the the bread and I suppose the cakes and

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all that stuff into the you know, the bread section,

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which was low down, which wasn't really an issue back

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then because I was able to bend down comfortably. And

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then other things, you know, I think when the deliveries came,

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had to kind of check everything off on the list

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from the palette. And then there was busy periods, especially

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kind of I think about half ten, and then at

469
00:39:51.119 --> 00:39:56.239
lunch time it seemed to get busy. So there'd be

470
00:39:56.280 --> 00:39:59.920
a separate till, and there's two separate tools, and then

471
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:02.079
as the big tool or the front you know, on

472
00:40:02.079 --> 00:40:04.719
the main counter where all the cigarettes would be high

473
00:40:04.760 --> 00:40:10.079
end and the alcohol and all that stuff, and there

474
00:40:10.119 --> 00:40:14.239
was a shutter for that section because it could only

475
00:40:14.280 --> 00:40:19.239
be they could only serve that stuff from half eleven

476
00:40:19.320 --> 00:40:23.559
in the morning till I think two o'clock in the afternoon,

477
00:40:24.559 --> 00:40:30.639
because that was the license in hours. I don't know

478
00:40:30.639 --> 00:40:34.920
if it was just the alcohol, and I don't think

479
00:40:35.000 --> 00:40:37.440
I was allowed to sell cigarettes. I wasn't allowed to

480
00:40:37.440 --> 00:40:41.199
sell alcohol anyway, because I was only seventeen, so I

481
00:40:41.320 --> 00:40:46.079
had to get every time every time I wanted to get.

482
00:40:46.400 --> 00:40:49.159
So every time I wanted alcohol, I had to ask permission,

483
00:40:49.559 --> 00:40:54.880
remember staff to sell this alcohol. So I wasn't asking

484
00:40:55.239 --> 00:41:00.480
the customer's age, I wasn't asking my own you because

485
00:41:00.480 --> 00:41:02.480
I knew what it was, but it was weird. I

486
00:41:02.480 --> 00:41:07.159
was kind of getting permission for myself rather than for them.

487
00:41:07.280 --> 00:41:12.039
And sometimes I'd have people coming that were younger than me,

488
00:41:12.079 --> 00:41:16.679
and I'd just deserve them if I could, because at

489
00:41:16.679 --> 00:41:19.400
that time I didn't like I wanted to be served,

490
00:41:20.880 --> 00:41:22.880
so it was hard. So if I saw someone that

491
00:41:23.400 --> 00:41:26.079
was able to get served, I'd always serve them. Then

492
00:41:26.199 --> 00:41:28.880
they could perhaps get me something in the future, you know,

493
00:41:28.920 --> 00:41:31.000
if I was out and I needed to get something

494
00:41:31.000 --> 00:41:33.440
from the shop, they'd go in and buy it for me.

495
00:41:34.599 --> 00:41:40.360
So that was that was quite good. I couldn't hear that.

496
00:41:42.599 --> 00:41:46.519
I don't know how loud that is on the microphone.

497
00:41:46.920 --> 00:41:52.360
I can't do anything about it. I suppose I could

498
00:41:52.400 --> 00:41:59.039
close the window. I'm just a bit a bit careful

499
00:41:59.039 --> 00:42:01.079
about closing the window when they're out there, because if

500
00:42:01.119 --> 00:42:02.960
they see me close the window, they might just up

501
00:42:03.440 --> 00:42:04.480
the volume, you know.

502
00:42:05.440 --> 00:42:05.960
So like.

503
00:42:09.119 --> 00:42:14.159
Anyway, so I'm in this shop, and one of my

504
00:42:14.239 --> 00:42:16.719
memories of this, there's two memories I got really of

505
00:42:16.840 --> 00:42:24.239
working there. One was every break time, not dinner lunch,

506
00:42:24.320 --> 00:42:30.039
but every morning break I would get a packet of biscuits,

507
00:42:30.320 --> 00:42:35.079
usually figure rolls, but there were nice figure roles. They weren't.

508
00:42:36.320 --> 00:42:38.199
I mean, I've never had a figure role I didn't like,

509
00:42:38.280 --> 00:42:40.960
but there were specific ones I liked. They were more

510
00:42:41.039 --> 00:42:47.639
flat than sausage, roll can't type, and a can of coke,

511
00:42:48.880 --> 00:42:52.000
and I'd buy that. Usually i'd buy it before my

512
00:42:52.079 --> 00:42:54.039
break so I could just go in and eat it,

513
00:42:54.039 --> 00:42:56.760
so i'd buy it first in the morning and then

514
00:42:56.800 --> 00:43:00.719
i'd go and eat it or pay for it later,

515
00:43:00.840 --> 00:43:03.800
you know, whichever way worked out, and I go and

516
00:43:03.880 --> 00:43:08.000
have my have my break, listen to the radio. It

517
00:43:08.119 --> 00:43:15.159
was like fifteen minutes because we had this little little

518
00:43:15.239 --> 00:43:20.880
room with sync with a little table about three chairs.

519
00:43:20.960 --> 00:43:29.679
I think, then, can it make a be more nice? Please? Okay,

520
00:43:29.679 --> 00:43:36.039
it doesn't want to. And I don't know what else

521
00:43:36.159 --> 00:43:39.639
was in there, probably a coat rack. I think it

522
00:43:39.679 --> 00:43:41.960
was locked as well, so we had to use the

523
00:43:42.000 --> 00:43:47.039
code to get in and out. And it'd be a

524
00:43:47.119 --> 00:43:51.079
radio playing. And I just remember this particular time because

525
00:43:52.039 --> 00:43:55.320
you can actually check the timings the years by these

526
00:43:55.400 --> 00:44:00.280
two songs Everywhere by Fleetwood Mac and Fast Car by

527
00:44:00.320 --> 00:44:07.840
Tracy Chapman. For some reason, those two songs kept playing,

528
00:44:08.679 --> 00:44:10.800
not for the duration of me working there, but like

529
00:44:11.760 --> 00:44:15.599
you know, regularly for a few weeks, those two songs

530
00:44:15.679 --> 00:44:20.719
just seemed to be playing on the radio, usually both

531
00:44:20.760 --> 00:44:23.960
of them in that fifteen minute section. For some reason.

532
00:44:24.039 --> 00:44:27.559
It's kind of weird, and it might be a lie

533
00:44:27.639 --> 00:44:35.519
as well. It might be a lie, it may be true.

534
00:44:37.000 --> 00:44:40.920
And another memory is I would go home while I

535
00:44:41.039 --> 00:44:45.440
go back to my dad's during lunch because he lived

536
00:44:45.440 --> 00:44:48.079
just up the road, and I was borrowing the bicycle,

537
00:44:48.480 --> 00:44:52.159
which I think my stepmum used to use, and it

538
00:44:52.199 --> 00:44:59.960
was a girl's bike. Did you just say girl's bike? Yeah?

539
00:45:00.239 --> 00:45:03.000
And there still are girls bikes you can buy. They

540
00:45:03.000 --> 00:45:07.280
still do exist, believe or not. I've had this conversation before.

541
00:45:07.519 --> 00:45:12.199
I don't understand, right, why are girls bikes so much

542
00:45:12.280 --> 00:45:21.480
more comfortable than men's bikes. I haven't got that crossbar

543
00:45:21.719 --> 00:45:24.639
thing that you have to like get your foot all

544
00:45:24.679 --> 00:45:33.079
the way over. I don't. It's like, why just a

545
00:45:33.199 --> 00:45:35.400
nice so you can get you she better put your

546
00:45:35.440 --> 00:45:40.599
foot over to the other pedal easily. Why does it

547
00:45:40.639 --> 00:45:44.199
have to be a struggle. So I liked that bike,

548
00:45:44.440 --> 00:45:46.440
and it had a basket in the front and the

549
00:45:46.559 --> 00:45:55.760
saddle was comfy, so all three things that my previous

550
00:45:55.760 --> 00:46:05.880
bike did not have a comfortable saddle. Before I had

551
00:46:05.880 --> 00:46:11.559
the saddle it used to Basically it was quite in

552
00:46:11.679 --> 00:46:20.679
true several times, very spiky, very thin, and difficult to

553
00:46:20.679 --> 00:46:26.519
get my leg over it. And it didn't have us

554
00:46:26.599 --> 00:46:29.760
like a basket at the front. I suppose. The only

555
00:46:29.840 --> 00:46:34.000
other difference for this is it was pink. So I

556
00:46:34.039 --> 00:46:37.000
was going backwards and forwards, and it took about six

557
00:46:37.119 --> 00:46:40.559
minutes to get there and get back, well to get

558
00:46:40.599 --> 00:46:44.719
there and you know, either side of the journey. So

559
00:46:44.760 --> 00:46:49.599
I would leave about seven minutes to the hour to

560
00:46:49.679 --> 00:46:55.239
get home to get to work, which wasn't really ideal,

561
00:46:56.440 --> 00:47:00.000
but anyway, I'd go back, so I'd have forty minutes.

562
00:47:00.039 --> 00:47:05.880
It's out of the hour and never watched Neighbors on TV.

563
00:47:06.800 --> 00:47:11.239
I get myself a sandwich, maybe a cup of tea

564
00:47:11.280 --> 00:47:14.840
I don't remember, and then I go back. So it

565
00:47:14.960 --> 00:47:21.280
got me out of the place, which was nice. So

566
00:47:22.239 --> 00:47:34.880
how did I end up? I just closed the window

567
00:47:34.920 --> 00:47:40.360
because it was excessively loud. I hope that that will

568
00:47:41.920 --> 00:47:48.000
keep some of the noise out. Where was I? Okay,

569
00:47:48.199 --> 00:47:51.480
so I'm working in this shop. I'm trying to get

570
00:47:51.519 --> 00:47:55.440
back to the movie question. Wow, this is a long

571
00:47:55.440 --> 00:47:58.039
way around the streets. Isn't it to get back to that.

572
00:48:02.039 --> 00:48:08.480
So what happened is I got on pretty well with

573
00:48:08.519 --> 00:48:13.159
the manager, or the manager is rather or the manager

574
00:48:13.519 --> 00:48:15.280
was yeah I was. So I got a marld with her,

575
00:48:16.360 --> 00:48:22.960
and she offered me to rent a room upstairs, because

576
00:48:22.960 --> 00:48:27.960
she being a manager, she had the flat upstairs, so

577
00:48:28.079 --> 00:48:30.880
she offered me to rent me a room up there.

578
00:48:32.800 --> 00:48:34.440
And I think part of the reason was so that

579
00:48:34.480 --> 00:48:39.119
i'd be on time for work, so because I would

580
00:48:39.199 --> 00:48:40.960
be late a little bit, I need a few minutes.

581
00:48:41.000 --> 00:48:44.280
But and I thought, yeah, it's quite good because then

582
00:48:44.280 --> 00:48:47.840
I can just go upstairs during my break and being

583
00:48:47.840 --> 00:48:50.320
with my dad was only ever temporary anyway, so it's

584
00:48:50.480 --> 00:48:55.119
just yeah, suited me, so I moved upstairs. It was

585
00:48:55.199 --> 00:48:58.880
quite good. Actually, at times she was a bit noisy

586
00:48:58.920 --> 00:49:03.159
because she was really into CBE radio, So all night

587
00:49:03.239 --> 00:49:13.239
all of hers over over. Do you copy? Do you

588
00:49:13.280 --> 00:49:16.880
copy all that stuff? Whatever? The CB radio thing is

589
00:49:16.960 --> 00:49:21.400
very loud, and I don't know how she managed to

590
00:49:21.400 --> 00:49:23.320
get up in the morning because she didn't seem to sleep.

591
00:49:26.119 --> 00:49:33.920
She was talking to men, very popular, and it was nice.

592
00:49:34.480 --> 00:49:38.199
She had a lovely living room kitchen. She'd cook on

593
00:49:38.199 --> 00:49:41.519
a Sunday and sometimes i'd have a meal and it

594
00:49:41.559 --> 00:49:44.000
was quite nice. I was kind of left alone to

595
00:49:44.000 --> 00:49:46.119
do what I wanted, and I had my own TV

596
00:49:46.239 --> 00:49:51.719
in my room. I didn't really get involved in her life,

597
00:49:51.760 --> 00:49:55.480
but we gone, well, you know, we did got on all right,

598
00:49:55.639 --> 00:49:58.480
and i'd go she'd drive. She had a car, so

599
00:49:58.519 --> 00:50:05.719
she'd drive me to KFC sometimes and she wanted she

600
00:50:05.920 --> 00:50:08.639
wanted to get something to eat, so I'd go with

601
00:50:08.679 --> 00:50:14.480
her and get myself for something. Yeah it was okay,

602
00:50:14.719 --> 00:50:20.239
And I made friends with some of her friends, and yeah,

603
00:50:20.480 --> 00:50:24.079
so it's okay. Anyway, I said that a lot of mate.

604
00:50:24.840 --> 00:50:28.519
So I'm at work. It's really good at singing as well.

605
00:50:33.400 --> 00:50:35.480
And I did stay friends with for quite a long time,

606
00:50:35.639 --> 00:50:43.719
even after what happens next happened. So it was weird

607
00:50:43.719 --> 00:50:49.400
because I'm at work. There's only me her one other

608
00:50:49.519 --> 00:50:57.320
person that was the manager who was like the assistant manager,

609
00:50:58.400 --> 00:51:02.280
but she didn't work full time, I don't think, and

610
00:51:02.320 --> 00:51:04.719
there was a couple of part time staff and me,

611
00:51:05.280 --> 00:51:07.800
so I was only I was the only full time

612
00:51:07.880 --> 00:51:11.159
staff member. And then the other lady who is the

613
00:51:11.199 --> 00:51:16.880
assistant manager. I think she did like thirty hours a

614
00:51:16.880 --> 00:51:20.079
week or something because she was a grandparent. She was lovely.

615
00:51:20.119 --> 00:51:22.840
She was thinking. Her name was Brenda, and she gave

616
00:51:22.920 --> 00:51:28.320
me Michael Jackson album The Bad Not Bad Thriller. She

617
00:51:28.400 --> 00:51:32.519
was lovely. I really liked her. So technically you could

618
00:51:32.559 --> 00:51:37.360
say this was quite a successful job because I got

619
00:51:37.400 --> 00:51:41.719
on well with the assistant manager. I became pretty good

620
00:51:41.760 --> 00:51:45.159
friends with the part time worker. We had a little

621
00:51:45.199 --> 00:51:46.840
bit of a conflict at the beginning, but that was

622
00:51:46.880 --> 00:51:51.320
just me. That's how I made friends. And then we

623
00:51:51.440 --> 00:51:53.800
became friends. And he was like a younger than me

624
00:51:53.920 --> 00:51:58.800
or something, and the manager I was living with her.

625
00:51:59.239 --> 00:52:02.639
So it was kind of quite a good set up really,

626
00:52:04.320 --> 00:52:09.119
and my job was very secure if I wanted to

627
00:52:09.159 --> 00:52:15.159
stay there. Now, the area men manager was called mister Cook.

628
00:52:15.400 --> 00:52:17.599
I don't know why I remember this, but it was

629
00:52:17.679 --> 00:52:21.960
like a troll. It was like a I had to

630
00:52:22.000 --> 00:52:24.760
explain it, you know, like something that lived under a bridge.

631
00:52:24.800 --> 00:52:29.239
It was like that. Just he talked like this. Nam

632
00:52:31.480 --> 00:52:35.280
he didn't like me. Perhaps I shouldn't have told him

633
00:52:35.360 --> 00:52:37.880
what he sounded like and did an impression of him

634
00:52:37.880 --> 00:52:39.880
in front of him. Perhaps that's why I didn't like me,

635
00:52:41.079 --> 00:52:43.199
But that's why I did the impression, because he wasn't

636
00:52:43.280 --> 00:52:47.880
very friendly, and I think he all but said pretty

637
00:52:47.920 --> 00:52:49.880
much the only reason I was still there is because

638
00:52:49.960 --> 00:52:54.239
the manager wanted me to stay, And I think she

639
00:52:54.280 --> 00:52:56.239
only wanted me to stay because she was getting rent,

640
00:52:57.280 --> 00:52:59.199
so you know, it was kind of for one of those.

641
00:53:00.280 --> 00:53:03.960
But he said no, he wasn't pleased with my progression.

642
00:53:06.639 --> 00:53:09.239
So even though the manager wanted me to stay, she

643
00:53:09.320 --> 00:53:11.639
was clearly not giving me a very good appraise or

644
00:53:11.760 --> 00:53:16.840
wash she so. Plus, I had a bit of an

645
00:53:16.840 --> 00:53:19.519
attitude on me as well back then. Hard to believe,

646
00:53:20.320 --> 00:53:24.639
but I was a little bit rude. By rude, I

647
00:53:24.639 --> 00:53:28.400
don't mean rude, rude, but I didn't play the game.

648
00:53:29.400 --> 00:53:33.599
I didn't suck up to anyone ever. At any point.

649
00:53:36.119 --> 00:53:39.920
I was an extra polite to people just because they

650
00:53:39.960 --> 00:53:46.199
were in a higher position, because at that time, everybody

651
00:53:46.960 --> 00:53:49.719
was at a higher position than me. In pretty much

652
00:53:49.760 --> 00:53:52.599
every job I've ever had, I've never been in a

653
00:53:52.679 --> 00:53:58.000
high position. So I just treat people the same way

654
00:53:58.039 --> 00:54:01.159
as I treat anyone else. I'd like to think, you know,

655
00:54:01.280 --> 00:54:06.000
fairly respectfully, but as soon as they don't with me

656
00:54:08.119 --> 00:54:14.440
back then, anyway, it would be gloves are off. So

657
00:54:14.559 --> 00:54:22.280
you know, if I was when I was fifteen, sixteen, seventeen, eighteen, nineteen, twenty,

658
00:54:22.480 --> 00:54:25.519
twenty one, twenty two, twenty three, twenty four, twenty five,

659
00:54:26.000 --> 00:54:29.880
twenty six, twenty seven, twenty eight, twenty nine, thirty thirty one,

660
00:54:30.079 --> 00:54:33.639
thirty two, thirty three, thirty four, thirty five, thirty six,

661
00:54:33.719 --> 00:54:41.239
thirty seven, thirty eight, thirty nine, forty pretty much until

662
00:54:41.280 --> 00:54:46.320
I was no longer working. Once I stopped working, I

663
00:54:46.360 --> 00:54:54.559
was a much better employee, much more patient and hm wow.

664
00:54:56.400 --> 00:54:58.039
But if people were nice to me, I'd be nice

665
00:54:58.079 --> 00:55:01.880
to them. As soon as someone kind of turned and

666
00:55:01.880 --> 00:55:07.159
they were rude, I'd like, okay. And I think one

667
00:55:07.159 --> 00:55:11.000
of the hardest things were always as I got older,

668
00:55:13.199 --> 00:55:18.920
my bosses became younger. So I'm in my thirties mid

669
00:55:19.000 --> 00:55:22.920
thirties and my boss was like twenty one, which wasn't

670
00:55:22.960 --> 00:55:25.239
an issue because I really liked him. He was one

671
00:55:25.239 --> 00:55:28.920
of the nicest people I've ever known. But I had

672
00:55:28.920 --> 00:55:31.320
a previous boss who was like twenty two when I

673
00:55:31.360 --> 00:55:35.079
was thirty one. Became a nice bloke, but he was

674
00:55:35.559 --> 00:55:38.079
just he didn't seem to know what he was doing.

675
00:55:39.519 --> 00:55:42.559
His answer to any question was what do you think

676
00:55:42.599 --> 00:55:49.239
The answer is it's okay, that's not a way to

677
00:55:49.360 --> 00:55:53.280
answer a question, what do you think The answer is

678
00:55:56.960 --> 00:56:01.119
where there's a moth inside here since this morning. I

679
00:56:01.119 --> 00:56:02.840
don't know how I got in, probably through the window

680
00:56:02.840 --> 00:56:08.000
because the window was open. That's a weird question. Seems

681
00:56:08.000 --> 00:56:13.039
to be interested in my shirt. But my shirts are

682
00:56:13.079 --> 00:56:17.639
clean that moths, don't you know what I mean. It's

683
00:56:17.679 --> 00:56:20.719
only been on the hangar for a few years. I

684
00:56:20.800 --> 00:56:25.400
don't think the moth would have got to it. So, yeah,

685
00:56:25.559 --> 00:56:32.000
I lived in this place upstairs. So I go to

686
00:56:32.079 --> 00:56:45.559
work one day. I'm just in there, just a normal day.

687
00:56:36.679 --> 00:56:36.760
And.

688
00:56:41.480 --> 00:56:46.599
Yeah, I remember the So I'm standing there. Two people

689
00:56:46.719 --> 00:56:49.519
come in, a man and a woman and stand at

690
00:56:49.559 --> 00:56:56.840
the counter, the assistant manager. So the manager's standing beyond

691
00:56:56.840 --> 00:57:02.320
the counter who I lived with. The assistant manager walks

692
00:57:02.400 --> 00:57:05.519
up to the door, closes it and locks it and

693
00:57:05.559 --> 00:57:09.679
puts closed sign up and tells me to go into

694
00:57:09.719 --> 00:57:14.800
the door into the staff room. And I'm walking in

695
00:57:14.840 --> 00:57:18.360
there and say, but I've got my my my figure

696
00:57:18.400 --> 00:57:20.760
roll was in my can of coke. And she said,

697
00:57:21.280 --> 00:57:26.000
this isn't a break. I said, Okay, We're just going

698
00:57:26.000 --> 00:57:27.639
into the other room. So I went into the storage

699
00:57:27.679 --> 00:57:32.360
room into the staff room. I had no idea what

700
00:57:32.440 --> 00:57:33.039
was going on.

701
00:57:33.360 --> 00:57:33.760
It's like.

702
00:57:36.280 --> 00:57:41.679
I asked her and she wouldn't tell me. And then

703
00:57:43.320 --> 00:57:49.840
I was in there for about an hour, maybe less,

704
00:57:49.880 --> 00:57:56.039
but about an hour, and then the what's the name

705
00:57:56.119 --> 00:58:03.840
that the assistant manager came in if I think that, yeah,

706
00:58:03.920 --> 00:58:05.599
maybe someone else, but I think she came in and

707
00:58:05.679 --> 00:58:11.639
she said what happened? Told me what happened. So the manager,

708
00:58:14.119 --> 00:58:19.400
the people at the front desk were under undercover police

709
00:58:21.400 --> 00:58:27.039
and the co op thought that someone was stealing money,

710
00:58:27.920 --> 00:58:30.559
so they set up the manager. They set her up.

711
00:58:30.599 --> 00:58:34.800
They basically gave us some marked money, and when they

712
00:58:34.840 --> 00:58:38.760
came back in, they searched her and she had that

713
00:58:38.840 --> 00:58:43.920
money in her pocket as like twenty could or something.

714
00:58:46.000 --> 00:58:49.400
And as I said earlier, I still stayed friends with her.

715
00:58:49.599 --> 00:58:53.039
I was living with her, and I still stayed friends

716
00:58:53.079 --> 00:58:56.199
with her for years afterwards. So you know, he made

717
00:58:56.199 --> 00:59:00.639
a mistake and actually lost a job on the spot,

718
00:59:05.920 --> 00:59:08.079
which was not good for me. It wasn't good for

719
00:59:08.119 --> 00:59:10.639
her either, to be honest. I mean she did get

720
00:59:10.639 --> 00:59:21.360
another job, but it was I was kind of with

721
00:59:21.559 --> 00:59:26.039
her during the process, during the whole because I think

722
00:59:26.079 --> 00:59:29.079
it went to court quite quickly, and I think she

723
00:59:29.239 --> 00:59:33.960
ended up getting suspended sentence or something like that. They

724
00:59:34.000 --> 00:59:38.079
couldn't prove previous money going missing or anything like that,

725
00:59:38.199 --> 00:59:40.400
so all they had proof of was just that one

726
00:59:40.440 --> 00:59:50.800
to twenty pound note the manager when it's the assistant.

727
00:59:50.800 --> 00:59:53.920
I said to the assistant manager, are you now going

728
00:59:53.960 --> 00:59:58.519
to be the new manager? And she said no, I'm

729
01:00:00.039 --> 01:00:04.199
don't do enough hours. I couldn't do that. I said, oh,

730
01:00:04.280 --> 01:00:06.360
and she's shouting. Straight away, she came back at me,

731
01:00:06.440 --> 01:00:08.960
said it was not going to be you either. I said,

732
01:00:08.960 --> 01:00:11.199
I don't know. He said no, you didn't you thought

733
01:00:11.239 --> 01:00:13.239
it was going to be you. I said no, I didn't.

734
01:00:13.599 --> 01:00:15.119
He said, yes she did. I could see a look

735
01:00:15.159 --> 01:00:17.119
on your face. She started looking around all the cakes

736
01:00:17.119 --> 01:00:21.840
she could buy with the extra money. I thought, wow,

737
01:00:22.119 --> 01:00:25.480
she could read my mind, because back then that's what

738
01:00:25.519 --> 01:00:30.199
I would do with money. I pay rise more cakes

739
01:00:30.239 --> 01:00:35.480
and biscuits. That's my mentality back then. It hasn't changed

740
01:00:35.480 --> 01:00:43.079
that much anyway. What happened next wasn't so good because

741
01:00:44.159 --> 01:00:46.679
we got a new lady. Well, it was just that

742
01:00:46.719 --> 01:00:52.599
they happened to be a thing we got. We got

743
01:00:52.639 --> 01:00:55.559
someone nice, came in for a week or two, and

744
01:00:55.599 --> 01:00:58.599
then we had this woman comes along and she didn't

745
01:00:58.719 --> 01:01:04.039
like me for some reason, and we didn't get on,

746
01:01:09.960 --> 01:01:18.559
and yeah, we really didn't get on, and in the

747
01:01:18.719 --> 01:01:27.559
end I didn't like her so much. I left. But

748
01:01:27.679 --> 01:01:33.039
in the meantime I was still living upstairs, so I

749
01:01:33.159 --> 01:01:36.480
think what's the name the manager who went upstairs. They

750
01:01:36.519 --> 01:01:42.760
had to give her three months notice to move out,

751
01:01:43.320 --> 01:01:47.079
eviction notice. So that was the very first time I'd

752
01:01:47.079 --> 01:01:51.039
ever been evicted. So that wasn't me specifically, but it was.

753
01:01:51.440 --> 01:01:53.440
I was part of the eviction because I was homeless

754
01:01:53.480 --> 01:01:59.360
as well when she got kicked out. So that was

755
01:01:59.480 --> 01:02:05.119
during this I think we I started working, so I

756
01:02:05.199 --> 01:02:16.320
moved in there probably June maybe, and I moved out

757
01:02:16.559 --> 01:02:23.679
possibly October, maybe November, because at that point I'd already

758
01:02:23.719 --> 01:02:27.519
got a new job in the September, so I had

759
01:02:27.519 --> 01:02:29.280
to wait till I was eighteen years old before I

760
01:02:29.320 --> 01:02:34.760
applied for this factory job. And I was working there

761
01:02:35.119 --> 01:02:37.199
and I'd been there for at least a month maybe

762
01:02:37.239 --> 01:02:43.400
two before I moved out. So yeah, so this this

763
01:02:43.480 --> 01:02:54.320
whole kind of police thing must have happened July Augusteber

764
01:02:54.559 --> 01:02:59.519
something like that. Anyway, in the meantime, I think it

765
01:02:59.719 --> 01:03:02.639
was before four before she and while she was still

766
01:03:02.679 --> 01:03:08.000
working there. I was sitting in my room. I had

767
01:03:08.000 --> 01:03:09.800
a TV on. I had a little black and white

768
01:03:09.840 --> 01:03:14.000
poor or TV, just watching TV. You know, it was

769
01:03:14.079 --> 01:03:19.480
three channels back then. No four channels sorry, BBC one,

770
01:03:19.599 --> 01:03:28.800
BBC two, ITV and Channel four. And it was either

771
01:03:29.119 --> 01:03:33.679
Saturday afternoon or Sunday afternoon. I couldn't tell you which

772
01:03:33.719 --> 01:03:37.719
one it was one of them. And I'm just sitting

773
01:03:37.800 --> 01:03:41.039
up in a bed watching a TV and this movie

774
01:03:41.239 --> 01:03:45.880
is on and I've never seen it before. I didn't

775
01:03:45.880 --> 01:03:47.960
realize it was black and white because the TV was

776
01:03:48.159 --> 01:03:54.880
in black and white. And before anyone says, how old

777
01:03:55.039 --> 01:03:58.719
are you? You're seventeen years old and you're watching a

778
01:03:58.760 --> 01:04:02.320
black and white TV. No, we did have color TVs

779
01:04:02.360 --> 01:04:06.280
back then. I just couldn't afford one. So I had

780
01:04:06.280 --> 01:04:12.039
a black and white TV and I or maybe I

781
01:04:12.039 --> 01:04:15.079
could have afford one. I don't know, probably could have done.

782
01:04:15.079 --> 01:04:19.519
I don't know how much they was back when. I

783
01:04:19.880 --> 01:04:25.599
know I was earning sixty pounds a week from working

784
01:04:25.679 --> 01:04:35.920
in the co op, or sixty two pounds something like that. Yeah,

785
01:04:36.719 --> 01:04:39.400
this is weird because when I was fifteen, I was

786
01:04:39.400 --> 01:04:41.760
earning sixty pounds a week working in the chip shop

787
01:04:44.039 --> 01:04:47.840
when I was fifteen. For the first few months up

788
01:04:47.880 --> 01:04:51.440
till September, so from like April to September, I was

789
01:04:51.880 --> 01:04:55.039
getting sixty pounds a week. Then I went onto the

790
01:04:55.119 --> 01:04:58.199
Hitts scheme, which is the youth training scheme, and my

791
01:04:58.280 --> 01:05:01.039
money went down to twenty seven pound thirty a week

792
01:05:02.320 --> 01:05:05.320
for the first year. Second year was thirty five pounds

793
01:05:06.119 --> 01:05:10.400
a week. So when I started working a co op

794
01:05:10.440 --> 01:05:12.960
and I was getting sixty pounds a week, it was

795
01:05:13.039 --> 01:05:18.360
like a huge amount of money. Again, still not very

796
01:05:18.519 --> 01:05:21.840
a good amount of money, but you know, it was okay.

797
01:05:22.360 --> 01:05:24.519
I was probably paying twenty five pounds a week for

798
01:05:24.599 --> 01:05:30.159
rent something like that. I can't i'd have to, I

799
01:05:30.199 --> 01:05:34.480
don't know, something like that. Probably, I think the average

800
01:05:34.559 --> 01:05:41.960
room was about twenty five thirty pounds a week and

801
01:05:42.000 --> 01:05:44.599
then but I didn't have to pay any rent once

802
01:05:46.519 --> 01:05:51.599
my what's the name my landlady, Well she wasn't really

803
01:05:51.599 --> 01:05:53.159
my land I did antmore was she because she was

804
01:05:53.239 --> 01:05:56.559
being a victed but she didn't work for the company anymore.

805
01:05:57.800 --> 01:06:01.320
Once she lost her job job, she didn't have to

806
01:06:01.320 --> 01:06:06.199
pay any rent because she was I think I think

807
01:06:06.239 --> 01:06:07.800
she got the flat with the job. But I think

808
01:06:07.800 --> 01:06:11.639
she was also paying rent. I don't know either that,

809
01:06:14.800 --> 01:06:19.519
or I just stopped paying rent. That might be in

810
01:06:19.519 --> 01:06:22.840
the situation. It's like, well, you don't work downstairs anymore,

811
01:06:22.960 --> 01:06:27.199
not paying rent. And then I left and I didn't

812
01:06:27.199 --> 01:06:31.360
have any money coming anyway, other than a couple of

813
01:06:31.400 --> 01:06:34.519
part time jobs cleaning. Yeah, I had a part a

814
01:06:34.599 --> 01:06:37.800
couple of part times jobs cleaning one in the morning,

815
01:06:39.559 --> 01:06:44.679
one in the evening, so that that game enough to

816
01:06:44.840 --> 01:06:49.880
like eat, you know. And then I got a job

817
01:06:51.719 --> 01:07:01.639
in this other company, so I the timescale is not

818
01:07:01.679 --> 01:07:03.679
quite working out, But anyway, I did get a job

819
01:07:03.719 --> 01:07:08.239
in this maybe I donely be now a month before

820
01:07:08.280 --> 01:07:10.880
we had to get out, and then I found a

821
01:07:10.960 --> 01:07:16.079
room on the seafront. The weird thing about that this

822
01:07:16.360 --> 01:07:21.440
lady that took over the manager's job. I left the

823
01:07:21.519 --> 01:07:24.280
job because of her, because she was I just didn't

824
01:07:24.280 --> 01:07:34.719
get on with her. The irony is this the room

825
01:07:34.760 --> 01:07:37.320
I moved into after I was evicted from the flap

826
01:07:37.440 --> 01:07:41.639
of the co op. I didn't really like living there,

827
01:07:41.760 --> 01:07:47.039
and I moved And the room I moved into was

828
01:07:47.079 --> 01:07:50.360
a house owned by the lady that was the manager

829
01:07:50.519 --> 01:07:54.960
of the co op. The new manager, so I literally

830
01:07:55.000 --> 01:07:59.760
lived rented rooms of two managers of the same co

831
01:07:59.840 --> 01:08:04.360
op at different times, except the second one owned her

832
01:08:04.440 --> 01:08:10.239
house and she had it as a I don't know,

833
01:08:10.440 --> 01:08:15.199
like lodging's thing. And I moved in there when I

834
01:08:15.239 --> 01:08:20.920
was eighteen, and I lived there. That was at the

835
01:08:21.079 --> 01:08:28.439
end of the end of nineteen eighty eight, so probably

836
01:08:29.319 --> 01:08:37.039
I was definitely in that house in December till probably

837
01:08:38.279 --> 01:08:44.920
February eighty nine. The weird thing about it is I've

838
01:08:44.920 --> 01:08:48.399
gotten really well with her then, so outside of work,

839
01:08:48.439 --> 01:08:50.960
I got on a cover. Inside work, we didn't get

840
01:08:50.960 --> 01:08:56.119
on so well, so I just turned up at the end.

841
01:08:56.199 --> 01:09:00.720
It was weird, you know. I phoned up up about

842
01:09:01.560 --> 01:09:03.880
a place, so going to come and a look at

843
01:09:03.880 --> 01:09:07.279
the room. Person on the phone said, yeah, turn up,

844
01:09:07.279 --> 01:09:09.319
and she answered the door, and I'm thinking, oh, God,

845
01:09:09.399 --> 01:09:12.800
don't tell me you live here as well. I thought

846
01:09:12.880 --> 01:09:15.800
she might rent a room, didn't know she owned the place.

847
01:09:17.520 --> 01:09:22.840
And I suppose because maybe because I was making her money,

848
01:09:23.039 --> 01:09:24.800
you know, I was paying her mortgage. I suppose it

849
01:09:24.840 --> 01:09:28.399
wasn't like me and the other five people that lived there,

850
01:09:30.560 --> 01:09:33.319
so she viewed me in a different way. I was

851
01:09:33.439 --> 01:09:36.680
no longer a thorn in her side. That maybe she

852
01:09:36.800 --> 01:09:44.840
thought of I was before hmm, yeah, that didn't work

853
01:09:44.880 --> 01:09:48.079
too well either, but so, yeah, so that was one

854
01:09:48.079 --> 01:09:51.560
of the many places that lived. But I just remember

855
01:09:51.600 --> 01:09:54.399
that movie watching It's a Wonderful Life on that black

856
01:09:54.399 --> 01:09:58.479
and white TV and it was one of the first

857
01:09:58.600 --> 01:10:03.239
movies that are really had an effect on me and

858
01:10:03.800 --> 01:10:10.279
really had I don't want to say spiritual, but it

859
01:10:10.439 --> 01:10:22.680
had emotional maybe. Yeah, so thank you for that. Hope.

860
01:10:24.880 --> 01:10:27.279
It's only taken me three hours to answer that one.

861
01:10:27.520 --> 01:10:33.239
So the next question I've got is Isabelle ooh, it

862
01:10:33.319 --> 01:10:38.319
says out there, ooh. Maybe this has been asked before,

863
01:10:39.239 --> 01:10:44.239
but what dog? What kind of dog is Vinnie? Also

864
01:10:44.520 --> 01:10:49.720
where are some of your listeners from? Oh, okay, that's

865
01:10:49.840 --> 01:10:56.199
going to involve me looking at the stats. Yeah, so

866
01:10:58.640 --> 01:11:05.520
Vinnie is a little red Jack Russell, which was I

867
01:11:05.520 --> 01:11:08.399
suppose kind of like is it a parson's dog or something?

868
01:11:09.640 --> 01:11:13.840
And yeah, so he's only a little thing. It's very

869
01:11:14.000 --> 01:11:20.960
noisy at times, screeches, hates being picked up. Apparently he

870
01:11:21.000 --> 01:11:23.119
didn't used to do when he was first born, and

871
01:11:23.159 --> 01:11:26.079
then he just took a dislike to it and been

872
01:11:26.119 --> 01:11:30.720
like that ever since. So I don't know, maybe someone

873
01:11:30.800 --> 01:11:34.600
dropped in maybe you know, by accident, maybe because he

874
01:11:34.680 --> 01:11:36.840
had kids in his house when he was born, so

875
01:11:36.880 --> 01:11:38.760
maybe one of them picked him up and dropped in

876
01:11:38.880 --> 01:11:42.600
by accident and that frightened him into being picked up,

877
01:11:43.800 --> 01:11:46.039
or maybe this swung him around or somebody, you know,

878
01:11:46.560 --> 01:11:50.520
little kids. So I don't know. I really don't know.

879
01:11:51.199 --> 01:12:08.279
It just be guesswork. Where am my listeners from? This

880
01:12:08.359 --> 01:12:14.039
goes into two questions because revel Reveal asks she adds

881
01:12:14.159 --> 01:12:17.039
to this question, I love the idea about where everyone

882
01:12:17.159 --> 01:12:21.520
is from. Very interesting to see how many cultures are

883
01:12:21.560 --> 01:12:28.439
represented by the listeners. I think Jason has touched himself. No,

884
01:12:28.680 --> 01:12:32.720
I've touched on this before, though I have. I'm happy

885
01:12:32.800 --> 01:12:37.520
to go over again because stats are the thing that

886
01:12:37.560 --> 01:12:40.720
I love most in the whole wide world, the whole

887
01:12:40.960 --> 01:12:45.399
world for me. Look, I based it on the last year,

888
01:12:46.960 --> 01:12:48.680
so I'm not going to go through the stats as

889
01:12:48.680 --> 01:12:51.880
in how many. I just go through the stats as

890
01:12:51.920 --> 01:13:10.640
in geolocation. Okay, so I've got countries here, one, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, ten, eleven, twelve, thirteen, fourteen, fifteen, sixteen, seventeen, eighteen,

891
01:13:11.680 --> 01:13:18.840
twenty two, twenty five, So it's twenty five different countries.

892
01:13:18.920 --> 01:13:22.439
This is on my spreaker. I'm always go on sound

893
01:13:22.479 --> 01:13:27.439
Glad as well, so there could be more. So according

894
01:13:27.439 --> 01:13:32.479
to this, there's twenty five different countries. The United States

895
01:13:32.560 --> 01:13:38.000
is number one, always number one, always has been since

896
01:13:38.000 --> 01:13:41.159
I've been doing this. So the most listeners that I've

897
01:13:41.239 --> 01:13:45.760
ever got on any podcast over you know, nineteen years

898
01:13:46.000 --> 01:13:51.760
is nearly twenty years is the United States. Second is

899
01:13:52.279 --> 01:13:58.840
United Kingdom, which is where I live. It's kind of

900
01:13:58.880 --> 01:14:03.920
stayed the same much, I would say, to start with

901
01:14:04.319 --> 01:14:08.359
United States, there still is a lot more. I'm getting

902
01:14:08.800 --> 01:14:11.399
more than double the amount in America. The name in

903
01:14:11.399 --> 01:14:15.880
my own country, but it used to be a higher percentage,

904
01:14:16.000 --> 01:14:20.199
So the amount of people listening to me now in

905
01:14:20.239 --> 01:14:22.479
my own country is a lot more than it used

906
01:14:22.520 --> 01:14:32.600
to be. Number three is Australia, which is pretty much

907
01:14:32.680 --> 01:14:39.199
been a kind of standard over the years. Canada is

908
01:14:39.279 --> 01:14:51.319
number four, Ireland it's number five, Weeden is number six,

909
01:14:55.159 --> 01:15:06.000
Denmark is number seven. New Zealand is number eight. Now,

910
01:15:06.159 --> 01:15:08.520
there was a time when New Zealand would be up

911
01:15:08.520 --> 01:15:15.119
there with Canada and Australia and Ireland. I don't think

912
01:15:15.159 --> 01:15:17.520
it's I've got less people in New Zealand listening. It's

913
01:15:17.560 --> 01:15:21.680
just I've got more people in Sweden and Denmark, Spain,

914
01:15:23.359 --> 01:15:42.840
then I've got France, Norway, Germany, United Arab Emirates, the Netherlands, Chechia, Iceland, Iraq,

915
01:15:44.680 --> 01:16:04.960
South Africa, Turkey, Mexico, India, Belgium, Malta, Israel, and Singapore.

916
01:16:06.600 --> 01:16:14.079
They're the ones listed. So I don't I mean, I

917
01:16:14.960 --> 01:16:19.560
guess I'm guessing that people only listen if they can

918
01:16:20.840 --> 01:16:25.479
understand English. I guess it makes sense that would be

919
01:16:25.520 --> 01:16:30.640
the case, wouldn't it. But there might be people in

920
01:16:30.680 --> 01:16:36.479
these other countries that maybe originally from England, or maybe

921
01:16:36.520 --> 01:16:40.479
people listening in one another are people listening in the

922
01:16:40.560 --> 01:16:47.880
second language, not their birth language, their birth tongue as

923
01:16:47.880 --> 01:16:53.199
it were. So I'm grateful. I'm grateful for anyone that listens.

924
01:16:53.640 --> 01:17:00.520
Everyone miss it's amazing that anyone listens. Really wouldn't really

925
01:17:00.520 --> 01:17:06.560
say that, should I? But I'm still amazed. Why is

926
01:17:06.680 --> 01:17:11.680
anyone this than ever? I don't know. Let's see if

927
01:17:11.720 --> 01:17:18.560
it's changed over the last month, current last month, Let's

928
01:17:18.600 --> 01:17:23.119
see what the geolocation is more recently rather than just

929
01:17:23.159 --> 01:17:30.600
over the entire year. Ah, this is interesting. So the

930
01:17:30.800 --> 01:17:35.159
United States is the top and it's still double what

931
01:17:35.359 --> 01:17:42.239
United Kingdom is. Then you've got Australia, Canada, Sweden, so

932
01:17:42.399 --> 01:17:48.279
one two three fourth, Sweden's fifth. Now Ireland was fifth

933
01:17:48.279 --> 01:17:54.119
for the whole year, but Sweden's fifth more recently then Ireland, France, Denmark,

934
01:17:54.600 --> 01:18:03.800
Church New Zealand, United Arab Emirates, Somalia, so that wasn't

935
01:18:03.800 --> 01:18:18.560
on the overall year. One was Spain, South Africa, Turkey, Iraq, Mexico, Finland, Malaysia, Greece, Belgium, Germany, Norway, Jordan, Algeria.

936
01:18:20.680 --> 01:18:23.359
So if I go by month, it breaks it down more.

937
01:18:23.600 --> 01:18:29.000
It shows more countries because I think what it is.

938
01:18:29.039 --> 01:18:31.720
If I go for like the whole year, it only

939
01:18:31.840 --> 01:18:36.720
shows it's limited to how many. It kind of shows

940
01:18:36.720 --> 01:18:40.600
then says others if that makes sense, so they last

941
01:18:40.600 --> 01:18:47.439
twelve months. Yeah, I mean there's there's a lot of

942
01:18:47.479 --> 01:18:52.199
others which it doesn't even mention. So it's four point

943
01:18:52.279 --> 01:18:56.680
five percent. So over the last year, four point five

944
01:18:56.720 --> 01:19:01.680
percent or just under five percent of my total listeners

945
01:19:03.880 --> 01:19:07.000
come from other countries than the ones that I already mentioned.

946
01:19:10.640 --> 01:19:16.119
So yeah, that's there's a lot of countries, probably pretty

947
01:19:16.199 --> 01:19:18.960
much every country in the world. I guess there might

948
01:19:19.000 --> 01:19:27.439
only be a few, but still quite nice as far

949
01:19:27.600 --> 01:19:40.680
as where abouts, and you've got United States, there are one, two, three, four, five, six,

950
01:19:40.800 --> 01:19:48.760
seven eight nine ten. Wow. These are regions are California,

951
01:19:48.880 --> 01:19:57.319
So Texas, Florida, Illinois, New York, Maryland, Pennsylvania, Arizona, North Carolina,

952
01:19:58.000 --> 01:20:40.520
New Jersey, Washington, Utah, Ohio, South Carolina, Massachusetts, Michigan, Indiana, Virginia, Oregon, Missouri, Connecticut, Minnesota, Colorado, Mississississippi, Maine, Montana, Wiconsin, Georgia, Alabama, Kentucky, Tennessee, Iowa, Kansas, Alaska, Nevada,

953
01:20:41.079 --> 01:20:53.359
New Mexico, Delaware, Oklahoma, Louisiana, District of Columbia, New Hampshire, Idaho, Hawaii,

954
01:20:54.119 --> 01:21:02.279
ar Kansas, North Dakota, West Virginia, Nebraska, Rhode Island, Vermont,

955
01:21:03.319 --> 01:21:10.920
South Dakota, Wyoming, and others some others as well. So

956
01:21:12.000 --> 01:21:15.520
how many is that? One, two, three, four, five, six, seven,

957
01:21:15.800 --> 01:21:22.399
eight nine ten outs in twenty, twenty two, twenty four,

958
01:21:22.560 --> 01:21:26.319
twenty six, twenty eight, thirty thirty two, thy fel thirty

959
01:21:26.319 --> 01:21:33.119
six eight forty fifty, it's like fifty. I mean, these

960
01:21:33.119 --> 01:21:40.439
are regions, not states, are they. There's states all regions.

961
01:21:40.960 --> 01:21:46.680
So it's like one, two, three, four, five, six, ten

962
01:21:46.800 --> 01:21:50.359
and five and six am and two is any of you?

963
01:21:51.399 --> 01:21:54.079
And if I have ten six times, twenty eight, ten, thirty,

964
01:21:54.359 --> 01:22:02.039
thirty two, thirty four, thirty six, thirty eight, forty forty

965
01:22:02.119 --> 01:22:07.119
two for six forty eight fifty fifty two fifty four

966
01:22:07.239 --> 01:22:18.520
fifty six fifty seven, so fifty seven districts or regions.

967
01:22:19.680 --> 01:22:21.680
So I don't know how many states there is in

968
01:22:22.560 --> 01:22:25.800
so I thought Alwa's every state. But California is a

969
01:22:25.840 --> 01:22:31.159
nice state, then is it? I don't know, but I'm confused.

970
01:22:32.640 --> 01:22:36.159
And then we click in California and you've got Los Angeles, Napa,

971
01:22:36.359 --> 01:22:43.319
Mountain Views, San Jose, Sorry, San Jos, Woodland, Elk Grove, Fresno,

972
01:22:43.760 --> 01:22:52.000
Palm Desert, Richmond. There's a lot, it's a lot, a lot, lot, lot,

973
01:22:52.079 --> 01:22:59.680
lot lot Texas. How many in Texas, Dallas, North Richland Hills,

974
01:23:00.439 --> 01:23:11.520
San Antonio, Houston, Austin, Waxahatchie, Frisco, Legal City, Grapevine, Abilene.

975
01:23:12.640 --> 01:23:18.880
I mean it's a lot, a lot of different places.

976
01:23:22.119 --> 01:23:26.800
If we go to United Kingdom, your England, Scotland, Wales,

977
01:23:26.880 --> 01:23:31.039
Northern Ireland, if we go to England, So England is

978
01:23:31.079 --> 01:23:43.000
the most however, however, no, there's no however. So however,

979
01:23:43.880 --> 01:23:50.000
England is eighty five nearly eighty six percent out of

980
01:23:50.000 --> 01:23:55.079
the United Kingdom. Scotland is seven zero point three six percent,

981
01:23:56.359 --> 01:24:00.359
Wales is three point two eight percent, Northern Ireland zero

982
01:24:00.399 --> 01:24:03.279
point four six percent, and other is two point nine

983
01:24:03.319 --> 01:24:08.199
four So that could be the Falkland Islands or Isle

984
01:24:08.199 --> 01:24:12.880
of White Island, man Jersey. Maybe I don't know places

985
01:24:12.960 --> 01:24:18.439
like that. I can't think of any other places. So

986
01:24:18.800 --> 01:24:25.800
England there is sid Cup. See if you from any

987
01:24:25.840 --> 01:24:31.680
of these places, contact me. Let me know sid Cup, Bristol.

988
01:24:33.279 --> 01:24:36.760
So this is this is over the last year. This

989
01:24:37.000 --> 01:24:45.840
is the top places in England. Like you know, that's

990
01:24:45.880 --> 01:24:51.119
the most viewed sid cups Number one. I don't haven't

991
01:24:51.119 --> 01:24:55.880
know where sid Cup is Bristol number two. I've never

992
01:24:55.920 --> 01:25:03.000
been to Bristol, Newcastle upon Tyme used to live there, Birmingham.

993
01:25:03.520 --> 01:25:06.479
So hello to everyone in Sidcup and Bristol and Newcastle

994
01:25:06.520 --> 01:25:16.920
on Tyme and Birmingham and all the other places I mentioned, Trowbridge, Hartleypool, Cambridge, Gosport,

995
01:25:17.600 --> 01:25:55.520
great Yarmouth, Leeds, Huddersfield, Manchester, ash Ford, Dagenham, London, Huntington, Huntingdon, Houndslow, Sunderland, Bexley, Heath, Leicester, Hackney, Aylesbury, Fulham, Portsmouth, Dewsbury, Suton, Wandsworth, Workstop, Islington,

996
01:25:56.880 --> 01:26:02.640
Milton Keynes, Sheffield, Milton Keynes. Why did I say like that?

997
01:26:02.720 --> 01:26:07.479
Milton Keynes. It's very postured of me. Sheffield is Milton

998
01:26:07.560 --> 01:26:40.960
Keynes a very posh place to live, Sheffield, Hule, Croydon, Eastleigh, Oxford, Lee, Maidstone, Cramlington, Liverpool, Swindon, Wembley, Luton, Nottingham, Kensington, Solihull, Newham, Watford, Chorley, Eastbourne, Wallingford.

999
01:26:42.319 --> 01:26:47.079
And then thirty three point two percent is in other places,

1000
01:26:47.680 --> 01:26:50.680
which is quite a big amount. So basically there's a

1001
01:26:50.720 --> 01:26:56.000
not enough room for them to cover everything. But Sidcup

1002
01:26:56.319 --> 01:26:59.119
is number one for the year, and so is Bristol.

1003
01:27:01.399 --> 01:27:06.600
So this is anyone out there that's this mad in

1004
01:27:06.600 --> 01:27:11.119
love with me, just contact me, especially if you're human.

1005
01:27:12.680 --> 01:27:14.920
Let's have a look what other thing. Let's say for

1006
01:27:14.960 --> 01:27:19.479
the year, for the month, so let's say the last

1007
01:27:19.960 --> 01:27:24.800
last month for the youth for England. Let's have the luck.

1008
01:27:26.039 --> 01:27:30.119
So I'm going to see which one's the top. Oh

1009
01:27:30.800 --> 01:27:43.399
last month, the top one was Portsmouth, Wembley, Wallingford, Manchester, Croydon, Birmingham,

1010
01:27:43.920 --> 01:27:50.119
Newcastle upon Tyne, Sheffield, Camden. These are places, some of

1011
01:27:50.199 --> 01:27:52.960
them I've not mentioned before. These must have been those

1012
01:27:53.000 --> 01:28:07.000
other thirty three percent you'ret Gosford, Fulham, Bristol, Wandsworth, Witness, Hartleypool, Leeds, London,

1013
01:28:07.840 --> 01:28:17.680
lewish Ham, Leighton, Buzzard, Sutton, Bromley, Harrow. I wish I

1014
01:28:17.680 --> 01:28:20.439
could say Bromley and actually roll my tongue, but I'm not.

1015
01:28:20.479 --> 01:28:28.239
I'm just making my lips vibrates. It's a skill, isn't it.

1016
01:28:28.239 --> 01:28:54.800
I suppose in some ways Harrow, Noddingham, Sleeveord, Gloucester, Glockhouse, Gloucester, Gloucester, Richmond, Sausages, Rochester, Amisham, Brent, Redditch, Lowestoft,

1017
01:28:55.479 --> 01:28:59.560
Saint Helen's Pete. Wow, there's loads, isn't there? This is

1018
01:28:59.600 --> 01:29:05.079
more than the other one? Wow, Petersfield, Whitney, Eastleigh, Ashford,

1019
01:29:05.439 --> 01:29:15.199
south Shields, Southampton, Walsall, City of Westminster, Windsor Swindon, Windsor

1020
01:29:15.760 --> 01:29:17.680
Does that mean members of the royal family are listening

1021
01:29:17.720 --> 01:29:26.119
to me? Hello, Your highness, thank you for listening. Wakefield, Corsham,

1022
01:29:26.920 --> 01:29:35.319
Ward and Forest, Hitching, Leicester, Oxford, Tamworth, Thetford. I used

1023
01:29:35.359 --> 01:29:38.640
to know someone that was from Tamworth, someone I worked with.

1024
01:29:38.720 --> 01:29:41.560
It was really nice bloke. It was a comedian as well,

1025
01:29:42.359 --> 01:29:49.479
really friendly, nice, nice man. It's a long time ago. Okay,

1026
01:29:49.520 --> 01:29:52.239
let's go it this month so far, because that was

1027
01:29:52.359 --> 01:29:55.439
current month. That's this month, not last month. That's the

1028
01:29:55.520 --> 01:30:00.279
current month. So Portsmouth, whoever you are in Portsmouth, Hello,

1029
01:30:01.000 --> 01:30:02.880
you're the one listening to the most to me at

1030
01:30:02.880 --> 01:30:10.279
the moment. And then Wembley, Wallingford, Manchester, Croydon, Birmingham, Newcastle

1031
01:30:10.359 --> 01:30:18.760
upon Tyne, Sheffield and Camden and Gossport, Fulham, so you're

1032
01:30:18.760 --> 01:30:21.680
the ones, you're the most one's listening to me the most.

1033
01:30:22.000 --> 01:30:29.560
But if I go last month, Astead of Look, England, Oh,

1034
01:30:29.880 --> 01:30:33.359
Newcastle upon Tyn was the top one, ports From the

1035
01:30:33.560 --> 01:30:45.119
number two, Gosport, Birmingham, Hartleypool, Wallingford, Leeds, Nottingham, one's Worth, Daggingham,

1036
01:30:45.640 --> 01:30:51.239
witch Church, Solihle. So many places I've not been to,

1037
01:30:52.560 --> 01:30:54.479
is it really weird? Like I think it would be

1038
01:30:54.560 --> 01:30:59.680
nice to travel the world on a boat, though, you know,

1039
01:30:59.760 --> 01:31:04.560
on a not a ferry like cruise. I'd like to

1040
01:31:04.560 --> 01:31:07.840
go on cruises, but I don't mean I want to

1041
01:31:07.840 --> 01:31:11.319
go cruise in Oh, let's go cruising. No, I mean

1042
01:31:11.560 --> 01:31:18.399
just on a cruise, just traveling around and have something

1043
01:31:18.399 --> 01:31:23.680
to talk about. It's that's kind of that's my new dream.

1044
01:31:23.960 --> 01:31:36.880
It's my new dream. Wimbledon, Sutton, Newham, Wembley, Abingdon, Ashford, London, Sleaford, Witness, Harrow, Stockport,

1045
01:31:37.239 --> 01:31:40.640
Oxford Hole. It's a lot of places up north that

1046
01:31:40.680 --> 01:31:46.520
I've not been to. I liked it in Nottingham. I

1047
01:31:46.560 --> 01:31:51.880
know technically it's middle, it's the middle. It is not North.

1048
01:31:51.920 --> 01:31:54.640
It's the middle. Isn't it like Middle East? Middle East?

1049
01:31:54.720 --> 01:32:02.520
Not Middle East. That's a different place. It's a Midlands,

1050
01:32:02.880 --> 01:32:07.159
I suppose, isn't it. Really it's kind of just like

1051
01:32:08.760 --> 01:32:13.039
Newcastle's up north, but it's not. There's those places that

1052
01:32:13.039 --> 01:32:18.439
are nowhere near the sea, but really as parts where

1053
01:32:18.479 --> 01:32:21.359
you can't get near the sea because you basically have

1054
01:32:21.399 --> 01:32:25.840
to go into Scotland to get into the sea. I'm

1055
01:32:25.880 --> 01:32:31.520
talking like I all, look, Bognor Regis, I used to

1056
01:32:31.600 --> 01:32:36.159
live in Bognor Regis. If you're listening from Bognor Regis, Hello,

1057
01:32:36.920 --> 01:32:42.800
do you remember me? No one? No one's going to

1058
01:32:42.800 --> 01:32:46.640
remember me from any time I don't think Bognor regis. Yeah.

1059
01:32:46.640 --> 01:32:54.319
I used to work at Buttlings momentarily Stratford upon Avon.

1060
01:32:54.680 --> 01:33:01.760
Not my Stratford, but Stratford upon Avon, Daventry, Prescott, Ellesmere Port,

1061
01:33:02.439 --> 01:33:09.600
Lower Stuffed, Hell's one. I've got a family and low Stuffed, Spennymore, Hackney,

1062
01:33:10.439 --> 01:33:20.319
Great Missenden, Southampton, Hayward, Safe Sheffield, Pontefract, Bushy, Acrington, Hereford,

1063
01:33:20.920 --> 01:33:28.560
Hammersmith and Lee and Lee. So I'm just trying to think.

1064
01:33:28.600 --> 01:33:31.880
If I look at the other one, the other studio

1065
01:33:32.119 --> 01:33:42.319
at the sound cloudlet s looks see, I think SoundCloud

1066
01:33:42.399 --> 01:33:49.439
is a less UK. Oh wow, that's weird. Got loads

1067
01:33:49.479 --> 01:33:55.680
of listeners on there today for some reason. Uh yeah,

1068
01:33:56.000 --> 01:34:01.399
predominantly there's something place so that it says on here.

1069
01:34:01.439 --> 01:34:03.359
So this is one of my SoundCloud Let me boil

1070
01:34:03.399 --> 01:34:08.680
this sleep podcast. Council Bluffs. That's a city wherever that is.

1071
01:34:08.720 --> 01:34:22.319
It's in America. So, but the countries are America, United Kingdom, Ireland, Germany, Canada, Australia, France, Norway, Philippines, Malaysia, Hungary,

1072
01:34:23.079 --> 01:34:47.079
Russian Federation, Singapore, Latvia, Vietnam, Brazil, Spain, Netherlands, Denmark, Thailand, Croatia, Croatia, Croatia, Poland, Italy, Pakistan, Sweden,

1073
01:34:48.640 --> 01:35:07.920
cass Kas, Kazakhs, Kazakhstan, Colombia, Pauchu, gal Ain, Deea, India, Togo, Barbados, Baraain,

1074
01:35:08.960 --> 01:35:13.319
the Gia. It's actually Takia, but we still call it Turkey.

1075
01:35:13.800 --> 01:35:17.680
They rebranded. Did you know that Turkey rebranded and decided

1076
01:35:17.720 --> 01:35:21.359
to change their name instead of t u r k

1077
01:35:21.560 --> 01:35:25.520
e y, Like the bird is now t u k

1078
01:35:25.880 --> 01:35:29.640
I y e. And it's supposed to be pronounced Turkia.

1079
01:35:30.039 --> 01:35:34.960
Maybe it was always pronounced Turkya by people in Turkey.

1080
01:35:35.760 --> 01:35:43.720
It's but then Germany's is pronounced deutsch Land, and Spain

1081
01:35:44.560 --> 01:35:53.279
has pronounced Transdespania, and France it's a Francis, Like you know,

1082
01:35:55.159 --> 01:36:02.239
most countries are pronounced wrongly by foreigners, like me being

1083
01:36:02.239 --> 01:36:07.239
a foreigner to another country. So it's just it's standard.

1084
01:36:07.239 --> 01:36:10.479
It's not disrespectful, it's just it's just how we're taught

1085
01:36:10.520 --> 01:36:17.560
at school, isn't it. I mean, I have very very

1086
01:36:17.600 --> 01:36:22.520
vague memories of school guests that I once went, but

1087
01:36:22.560 --> 01:36:25.920
they've got the cities or the towns. There's a council Bluffs.

1088
01:36:29.399 --> 01:36:33.680
That's a weird name. Isn't it council Bluffs because Bluffs

1089
01:36:33.800 --> 01:36:35.800
is like when you kind of lie, isn't it or

1090
01:36:35.840 --> 01:36:43.000
you missdirect? It's a council, a lying council, and they've

1091
01:36:43.000 --> 01:36:48.479
got boardman is that another city or town? Ashburn? So

1092
01:36:48.560 --> 01:36:50.960
that's in the United States. So that's the top three.

1093
01:36:52.319 --> 01:36:59.800
Then you've got Manchester, Dublin in course, Ireland, Sandy and

1094
01:37:00.039 --> 01:37:10.479
Phoenix and America Folkestein. I don't know where Folkstein is. Folkestein,

1095
01:37:10.760 --> 01:37:13.760
all right, don't shout, I'll find it. Oh yeah, it

1096
01:37:13.840 --> 01:37:18.119
is in Germany. I wonder if that's what's his name?

1097
01:37:18.640 --> 01:37:31.399
Sebastian Philadelphia, Melbourne, Sterling, Columbus, Huntington, Portland, Winnipegville, Gen, Schweiningen,

1098
01:37:32.720 --> 01:37:39.279
schwing In. And that is Germany as well. Yep, Germany.

1099
01:37:39.960 --> 01:37:42.479
I've got to be careful because I remember years ago

1100
01:37:43.079 --> 01:37:47.159
I learned about flex I know a lot about flegs.

1101
01:37:47.399 --> 01:37:50.760
I know more about flags than anyone that's ever existed. No,

1102
01:37:51.279 --> 01:37:53.960
I had a book of flags, but I noticed that

1103
01:37:54.079 --> 01:37:56.640
some of them are very similar to each other, but

1104
01:37:56.880 --> 01:38:00.880
just the colors in a different order. And sadly, be

1105
01:38:00.960 --> 01:38:05.039
a bit be careful because some people would take offense

1106
01:38:06.119 --> 01:38:08.279
and I'm not out to cause offense. I'm abut to

1107
01:38:08.279 --> 01:38:16.159
cause love in the world and sleep and we lack fation. Chicago,

1108
01:38:16.399 --> 01:38:23.560
City of Monty, Lupper, Mountain Lupper. I genuinely don't know

1109
01:38:23.600 --> 01:38:25.920
how to say that. I mean, I do mess up

1110
01:38:26.079 --> 01:38:29.319
the names on purpose sometimes, but on this occasion, I

1111
01:38:29.399 --> 01:38:32.840
don't know how to say it. And that's in the Philippines.

1112
01:38:34.079 --> 01:38:39.560
So whoever is from the Philippines or from wherever you're from, Hello,

1113
01:38:39.800 --> 01:38:46.960
maybe contact me, say Hi. Saint Helen's in England, kill Hay,

1114
01:38:48.920 --> 01:38:56.039
Kill Hay. What's that America Kill Hay. Yes, it's in America, Portland, Chicago,

1115
01:38:58.439 --> 01:39:13.439
bayn Lepaz, Bay and Lepus, lepers Lettuce Lepus. Where is that? Then? Malaysia, Okay, Malaysia,

1116
01:39:14.720 --> 01:39:23.359
Sydney and Lidney. Sorry at Alfaretta, Lakefield, Birmingham, Budapest, which

1117
01:39:23.439 --> 01:39:39.720
is in Hungary, Tronheim, Stockton on Tees, Brisbane, Sunderland, which

1118
01:39:39.760 --> 01:39:46.960
is near Newcastle, Oldbury, Riga, Reddin Wiley, Saint John's, Salt

1119
01:39:47.039 --> 01:39:55.199
Lake City, Saint John's Minis, Minneapolis, Albury, San Antonio, Millbrooks.

1120
01:39:55.239 --> 01:39:58.479
He has quite a few different places. But what about

1121
01:39:58.479 --> 01:40:03.600
the other countries? Actually keep focusing. Okay, let's go. We

1122
01:40:03.640 --> 01:40:06.479
could go to Scotland, the United Kingdom. You'll go to Scotland.

1123
01:40:07.279 --> 01:40:13.000
Let's have a book Scotland the top places for the

1124
01:40:13.079 --> 01:40:19.079
last last month. Okay, this is the last month. Glasgow

1125
01:40:19.920 --> 01:40:27.359
or Galasgow or Galaskie. Saf you're in Glasgow, Glasgie, Glasgow.

1126
01:40:27.880 --> 01:40:35.880
If you're there, say hello, grange Mouth. Is that how

1127
01:40:35.880 --> 01:40:43.000
you pronounce it? Grangemoulf Orange Wolf range Mouth. I don't know.

1128
01:40:45.119 --> 01:40:58.439
Edinburgh, Tory, Byrne, Folk, Kirk, Dundee, Kinross, bell Shill, ELNs, Hamilton, Ayer, Aberdeen,

1129
01:40:58.880 --> 01:41:06.199
kirk Coldi, eleven Strath, Migelo ardri airdri.

1130
01:41:06.000 --> 01:41:11.680
Rother in Vu in Varu. That sounds like like an

1131
01:41:11.760 --> 01:41:15.399
Australian name, isn't it. Where do you live? Mate? In Varu?

1132
01:41:16.520 --> 01:41:21.640
I live in v v kill Monarch. That was a

1133
01:41:21.720 --> 01:41:25.039
really bad Australian accent. I apologize, and I know I've

1134
01:41:25.079 --> 01:41:28.880
gotten a lot of people from Australia listening. Please forgive me, Molly,

1135
01:41:29.000 --> 01:41:31.760
Please forgive me. Forgive me.

1136
01:41:32.760 --> 01:41:36.279
I don't mean nothing by it.

1137
01:41:36.399 --> 01:41:40.960
In Varu. Oh, it's a invery. It's not in vu,

1138
01:41:41.000 --> 01:41:51.279
it's in very, invery, in very kill Maarnick Livingstone, bonnie Bridge,

1139
01:41:52.359 --> 01:42:00.680
Galashiel's bar Head Inverness, done Fermile Line Alo open, Hello,

1140
01:42:01.319 --> 01:42:04.000
where do you live? Hello? Well? Hello, yeah, but where

1141
01:42:04.039 --> 01:42:04.439
do you live?

1142
01:42:04.920 --> 01:42:05.239
Hello?

1143
01:42:06.520 --> 01:42:09.319
We've already done the greetings. Where do you live? I've

1144
01:42:09.319 --> 01:42:17.319
stopped there Oben Peter's Head. M So where about Wales?

1145
01:42:17.359 --> 01:42:20.319
We can't miss Wales out and we'll go to Northern

1146
01:42:20.319 --> 01:42:22.840
Island as well, so we can't miss, can't miss the

1147
01:42:22.840 --> 01:42:28.000
different parts of Northern Island of the United Kingdom and Wrexham.

1148
01:42:28.159 --> 01:42:32.199
Chepstowe Barry. This is in Wales, So Wrexham's the top.

1149
01:42:32.920 --> 01:42:38.199
This is last month Chepstow Berry COLDI coot d Side

1150
01:42:38.680 --> 01:42:49.880
my Stig Cardiff, Quimbran, Ferndale. Tony Pandy. That's my favorite

1151
01:42:49.960 --> 01:42:55.319
name ever, Tony Pandy. Why is it? Why do I

1152
01:42:55.359 --> 01:42:58.880
love that name so much? Tony? Where do you live

1153
01:42:59.119 --> 01:43:04.520
Tony Pandy? Wow? I wish I could live there? You can,

1154
01:43:04.560 --> 01:43:08.600
You've just got to buy a house. It's got to move. Oh,

1155
01:43:08.640 --> 01:43:14.119
I want to live in Tony Pandy. I mean, I

1156
01:43:14.159 --> 01:43:15.920
don't know if i'd want to move there. I don't

1157
01:43:15.920 --> 01:43:17.920
know what it's like. Maybe if you live in Tony

1158
01:43:17.960 --> 01:43:23.079
Pandy you can tell me Tony Pandy, what brilliant name.

1159
01:43:24.239 --> 01:43:28.560
I'm probably pronouncing it wrong. It's probably like it just

1160
01:43:28.600 --> 01:43:39.159
got some completely different sound. Abadair, Hollywell, Caerphilly, Kafiy, Newport.

1161
01:43:39.479 --> 01:43:46.119
I actually know someone lived in Newport, Bargode, Lanellie, Blackwood, Swansea,

1162
01:43:46.960 --> 01:43:52.920
Ponti Pool, Mountain, ash man A Bridge and Abba Stwift

1163
01:43:53.359 --> 01:43:58.680
a bur Stwift. So the top one is there, Wrexham

1164
01:43:58.720 --> 01:44:05.840
and Chaps though Barry Caldecott d Side. I did think

1165
01:44:05.880 --> 01:44:10.680
about maybe I'm thinking of getting married. I've I don't

1166
01:44:10.720 --> 01:44:12.880
met anyone yet, but I'm just thinking about it. I'm

1167
01:44:12.920 --> 01:44:21.199
just wondering maybe it'd be nice to get married because

1168
01:44:21.199 --> 01:44:25.439
I'm thinking I quite like to go away. I'd quite

1169
01:44:25.520 --> 01:44:29.960
like to go away and I don't know cruisers if

1170
01:44:29.960 --> 01:44:34.479
I can afford to do it one day and it

1171
01:44:34.600 --> 01:44:36.720
just seems like I could be much nicer. I'll be

1172
01:44:36.760 --> 01:44:42.600
able to do it, and it'd be more if I

1173
01:44:42.720 --> 01:44:46.319
had someone to look after Vinnie while I went on holiday.

1174
01:44:46.560 --> 01:44:51.680
So yeah, I'm thinking of getting married. I don't know

1175
01:44:51.680 --> 01:44:54.279
what you think, would you reckon? Do you want to

1176
01:44:54.319 --> 01:44:57.039
get married to me? Do you want to marry? Do

1177
01:44:57.199 --> 01:44:59.600
you love me? Will you will you love me forever.

1178
01:44:59.640 --> 01:45:04.279
I never ever, never know. Right. Last month Northern Ireland,

1179
01:45:04.920 --> 01:45:14.479
Newtown Abbey, Belfast, dung Gannon okay, because that's Uncle Sausages

1180
01:45:14.560 --> 01:45:18.079
was from Northern Ireland. So I just thought that would

1181
01:45:18.079 --> 01:45:23.279
be interesting. What other places are there so many different places.

1182
01:45:23.439 --> 01:45:27.960
I can't I just can't begin to go through it all.

1183
01:45:28.039 --> 01:45:38.880
I means France, lead de France, al Guererose, Alps, grand Este, nouvelle.

1184
01:45:39.600 --> 01:45:42.079
I can't even say the names. It's terrible, isn't it.

1185
01:45:42.760 --> 01:45:47.199
I'm so I'm such a lower class I am. I've

1186
01:45:47.239 --> 01:45:57.680
got no style at all. Brittany Ochitanne, Normandy Harts de France,

1187
01:45:58.479 --> 01:46:04.840
pays de la lawyer, Corsica. Of course, Corsica is that France,

1188
01:46:04.920 --> 01:46:10.560
is it? I didn't know that. I thought it was.

1189
01:46:13.520 --> 01:46:15.000
I don't know I thought it was. What was a

1190
01:46:15.000 --> 01:46:19.239
different country? Paris? So Paris is the top place in France.

1191
01:46:19.840 --> 01:46:23.199
The people listen to me, that's nice. I just want

1192
01:46:23.199 --> 01:46:27.920
to go back to the last year, the last twelve months.

1193
01:46:27.920 --> 01:46:34.800
So I want to see in the UK, United Kingdom,

1194
01:46:34.840 --> 01:46:40.000
England Sidcup. We've already done that when we sit Cup.

1195
01:46:40.119 --> 01:46:47.720
So we've done England, United Kingdoms to Scotland. Scotland, Glasgow

1196
01:46:48.000 --> 01:47:03.439
is number one. Edinburgh, Falkirk, grange Mouth, then Motherwell, bonnese Hamilton, Dundee, Pennycuick, Aberdeen, Livingstone,

1197
01:47:04.239 --> 01:47:15.079
dun firm Line, invu invY and Rue, Johnstone, Bell's Hill, Tory,

1198
01:47:15.119 --> 01:47:26.000
burn Wick, Bretching, Ayer, Kinos Cooper, alnz al Broth, Levin, Coatbridge,

1199
01:47:26.319 --> 01:47:33.960
Kirk coldy inver Gordon, Inverness, dal Keith, Hello, Hello, no

1200
01:47:34.000 --> 01:47:48.479
I did it Okay Elvskine, Perth, Greenock, Cumber Maude, the Cumber, Nord, Bathgate, Kilmarnock, Strath, Midlow, Gallashhuth,

1201
01:47:50.039 --> 01:48:00.479
Glen Ross's mac Duff, Paisley, Glen Village, Irvine, Dumfries, Preston,

1202
01:48:00.600 --> 01:48:09.520
pans Airdrie, bar Head, Broxburn, Alexandria. Forres. There's quite a few,

1203
01:48:09.600 --> 01:48:14.920
isn't it. And then you're a Wales. This is tiring me,

1204
01:48:15.000 --> 01:48:24.079
this is bangor so that the top one is Chepstow, Wrexham, Capilly, Pembroke,

1205
01:48:24.239 --> 01:48:35.439
doc caldecott Bridge and Blackwood, my Stag, Cardiff, hengoed Barry, Elbow, vil,

1206
01:48:35.640 --> 01:48:50.239
Epple Vale, Aberdare, Flint, Newport, Pontypool, d Side, Ferndale, Tredegar, Pembroke, Pontyprid,

1207
01:48:51.399 --> 01:48:56.880
Mountain Ash, Swansea, Hollywell. My favorite name of all time,

1208
01:48:57.039 --> 01:49:02.319
Tony Pandy, I love that name. I don't know why Bangod.

1209
01:49:02.600 --> 01:49:07.359
I think I might need to move to Tony Pandy Bargoed.

1210
01:49:09.560 --> 01:49:11.239
So if there's anyone out there that wants to be

1211
01:49:11.279 --> 01:49:16.159
a dog sitter, I mean my wife and yeah, if

1212
01:49:16.159 --> 01:49:22.680
you live in PONDI Pandy, Tony Pandy, oh Bargoed, have

1213
01:49:22.720 --> 01:49:29.760
a have a Ford West Abba Stwift co bran Port, Talbot,

1214
01:49:31.000 --> 01:49:37.079
full Top Port Talbot was in America, Rile Neath, men

1215
01:49:37.159 --> 01:49:42.039
a Bridge, pork PORTI by the way, don't don't contact

1216
01:49:42.079 --> 01:49:44.279
me and said, no, it really is in Wales. No,

1217
01:49:44.319 --> 01:49:46.880
I know it's in Wales, but I think maybe there

1218
01:49:46.960 --> 01:49:50.239
might be a port Toalbert in America as well. So

1219
01:49:50.319 --> 01:49:58.560
you got Bowld Buckley, Langdwyn, langdon No Port, Maddock, Abber, Gaviny,

1220
01:49:59.600 --> 01:50:07.840
roof In, Mrfeer Tid Phil cal Fridge, Calbridge, Rover, bangor.

1221
01:50:10.079 --> 01:50:10.279
Well.

1222
01:50:10.319 --> 01:50:16.439
I came. Well. Lastly, I do the mmm, what's the

1223
01:50:16.479 --> 01:50:19.239
other one? Northern Ireland? I do want to miss that one.

1224
01:50:19.279 --> 01:50:26.439
That so always a lot more in the year Bella Mina, Belfast, Cookstown,

1225
01:50:27.359 --> 01:50:36.640
dun Gannon, Londonderry, Newton Abbey, Newry, Omar, bally Money, bally Money.

1226
01:50:36.640 --> 01:50:40.920
That's a nice word, isn't it. But not because it's

1227
01:50:40.920 --> 01:50:47.359
got the word money and it just just bally Money.

1228
01:50:48.600 --> 01:50:55.279
Craig ivon bangor down Patrick that's another quite good. Maybe

1229
01:50:55.319 --> 01:50:57.319
it's just because of the names. It's got a name

1230
01:50:57.359 --> 01:51:09.399
in it on Patrick and you've got new Townhards. This

1231
01:51:09.640 --> 01:51:14.079
is the last twelve months. So what other places? Was thinking?

1232
01:51:14.399 --> 01:51:24.119
They go to Ireland? Leinster, Munster, Connacht, Ulster, Ulster. I

1233
01:51:24.119 --> 01:51:28.880
thought Ulster was northern Ireland. No, well I just showed

1234
01:51:28.880 --> 01:51:35.000
you what I know. I'm so out of touch with places.

1235
01:51:36.359 --> 01:51:46.920
Uh what about Sweden? Nor Venice just farted nor I

1236
01:51:46.960 --> 01:51:50.680
think I hope it's Vinny. No, I didn't feel anything,

1237
01:51:50.720 --> 01:51:53.359
So I'm just manning there so blindly out. I really

1238
01:51:53.359 --> 01:51:56.920
hope it is in. I wish i'd keep the window

1239
01:51:56.960 --> 01:52:05.520
open now, nor Bottom County, Stockholm County, vetra Gotterland County,

1240
01:52:06.279 --> 01:52:15.640
Ostroglotte Land County, Upsala, up Sala. That's very Viking up Sala,

1241
01:52:17.399 --> 01:52:29.279
isn't that? Now? I know this is Sweden? Upsala? Now

1242
01:52:29.279 --> 01:52:33.159
I watched the Vikings, and I realized, you know, so

1243
01:52:33.640 --> 01:52:37.359
it's the wrong country. But perhaps I can't remember. But

1244
01:52:37.439 --> 01:52:44.680
Upsala isn't that where some of the Vikings lived. I

1245
01:52:44.720 --> 01:52:47.039
watched every episode of the Vikings and there was about

1246
01:52:47.159 --> 01:52:50.880
seven thousand different series, you know, but of it its

1247
01:52:50.960 --> 01:52:54.680
went on for ages and I loved it very much.

1248
01:52:56.960 --> 01:53:01.119
Upsala Farmlands. Let's have a look at a click on

1249
01:53:01.199 --> 01:53:05.119
Upsidelet's see if there's any places that I remember. No,

1250
01:53:05.399 --> 01:53:13.680
just upsalah ah. So if you're in Sweden, I remember

1251
01:53:13.680 --> 01:53:17.760
going to Sweden. It's just on the airport on the

1252
01:53:17.800 --> 01:53:24.720
way to somewhere, and I just not surprised. But there's

1253
01:53:24.800 --> 01:53:30.960
just everyone was blonde, and you know, I see that

1254
01:53:31.000 --> 01:53:34.319
on the news, newspapers and TV shows and I kin't

1255
01:53:34.359 --> 01:53:41.199
of just assume it's a it's just a cliche. But

1256
01:53:42.039 --> 01:53:44.319
I don't know. Obviously, not everyone in Sweden is going

1257
01:53:44.359 --> 01:53:49.239
to be blonde, but it seems to be. There's a

1258
01:53:49.279 --> 01:53:56.119
few people that are. What about Belgium and it's like Belgium,

1259
01:53:56.399 --> 01:54:06.399
you've got Brussels Capital, Flanders, Walone wall oh cool so

1260
01:54:06.479 --> 01:54:19.920
hallo taking off from Belgium and India, Canada, Ireland, Sweden,

1261
01:54:20.039 --> 01:54:27.760
Denmark's St of Good Denmark Capital Region, Central Jetland, South Denmark,

1262
01:54:28.840 --> 01:54:39.640
Zealand and North Denmark. So fred Fredericksburg is the top

1263
01:54:39.680 --> 01:54:51.319
place for the year. Copenhagen More Municipal Valby from shoj Understead,

1264
01:54:52.479 --> 01:55:06.600
Von Loos, Bellerup Municipal Municipality, Glostrup moonicip Municipality. I can't

1265
01:55:06.600 --> 01:55:11.479
even say it, so thank you to everyone. I can't

1266
01:55:11.479 --> 01:55:15.439
go for every single country, but there's a lot of countries.

1267
01:55:15.479 --> 01:55:19.479
It's like I'm kind of covers everyone in the world,

1268
01:55:20.319 --> 01:55:23.720
kind of as far as not everyone, as in every

1269
01:55:23.760 --> 01:55:29.359
single person, but it's going to pretty much cover most cultures,

1270
01:55:30.760 --> 01:55:36.239
most religions, perhaps perhaps not. I mean it's I have

1271
01:55:36.319 --> 01:55:42.159
no idea. Jonathan asks what does a typical day's meals

1272
01:55:42.199 --> 01:55:46.720
and beverages consist of? It depends where you're going and

1273
01:55:46.760 --> 01:55:52.199
what you're buying. If I was when I was going

1274
01:55:52.199 --> 01:55:58.199
to visit Uncle sausages in hospital, I think it's about

1275
01:55:58.239 --> 01:56:05.359
twenty quid for a a coffee, maybe two coffees and

1276
01:56:05.399 --> 01:56:14.319
a couple of sandwiches, about twenty quid a day. It

1277
01:56:14.319 --> 01:56:17.000
does depend where you're going, because you know there's cheaper

1278
01:56:17.039 --> 01:56:20.960
places you can go and get something for Sometimes meal

1279
01:56:21.000 --> 01:56:24.319
deals if you're out, you can get like a meal

1280
01:56:24.399 --> 01:56:28.800
deal for five pound where you get drink sandwich and

1281
01:56:29.520 --> 01:56:34.159
maybe pack it at Crisps or a chocolate bar or something.

1282
01:56:34.159 --> 01:56:37.880
You know, you get enough for like a little meal

1283
01:56:38.159 --> 01:56:46.520
thing beverages. I mean, I only really just drink tea

1284
01:56:46.600 --> 01:56:51.560
and water most of the time. Occasionally I have fizzy drink,

1285
01:56:51.640 --> 01:56:55.199
but it's not often, so I don't know how much

1286
01:56:55.239 --> 01:57:03.560
fizzy drinks cost the I don't know how. It's weird

1287
01:57:03.600 --> 01:57:05.520
really because I don't because I don't go into pubs.

1288
01:57:07.199 --> 01:57:10.119
I don't drink olcos, so I don't. I don't know how.

1289
01:57:10.199 --> 01:57:13.279
I'm not even not even the faintest idea how much

1290
01:57:13.840 --> 01:57:17.880
a pint of largo would be. So if a pint

1291
01:57:18.720 --> 01:57:29.479
larger cost cost UK pint of lager four pounds sixty,

1292
01:57:30.239 --> 01:57:32.479
the cost the average cost of a pint lager in

1293
01:57:32.479 --> 01:57:37.479
the UK is for four sixty Ah, okay right, So

1294
01:57:37.520 --> 01:57:40.560
it depends where you are. According to this, it says

1295
01:57:40.640 --> 01:57:45.520
London's five pounds forty four for a pint and Wales

1296
01:57:45.640 --> 01:57:49.399
is four twenty one, so it's the cheapest place to

1297
01:57:49.439 --> 01:57:55.079
get a pint of larger, London's the most expensive, and

1298
01:57:55.439 --> 01:57:59.479
Southeast for ninety four the second most expensive. That's where

1299
01:57:59.479 --> 01:58:05.399
I live. Northeast England four fifty six. This is pounds

1300
01:58:05.439 --> 01:58:10.279
slightly above the national average, and then four ninety three

1301
01:58:11.239 --> 01:58:17.880
in Southwest are also month the highest prices. All let's

1302
01:58:17.880 --> 01:58:23.399
have a look what's the that's it's got a little

1303
01:58:23.520 --> 01:58:26.079
chart here, So I have a look at the chart.

1304
01:58:26.319 --> 01:58:31.960
There a chart. Yeah, see what? Oh go away, I

1305
01:58:31.960 --> 01:58:36.680
don't want to be a paid member. Go away right?

1306
01:58:36.800 --> 01:58:44.720
So according to this Southwest five sixteen, Southeast five twenty one,

1307
01:58:45.560 --> 01:58:50.600
London five pound fifty nine, East Midlands, Oh so nothing

1308
01:58:50.640 --> 01:58:54.479
for Knowrlwedge then no, they don't buy lager there East England,

1309
01:58:54.600 --> 01:58:58.520
East Midlands four pounds seventy four, four pounds seventy four

1310
01:58:58.560 --> 01:59:04.319
West Midlands and also Wales Northwest four pounds eighty seven,

1311
01:59:04.800 --> 01:59:13.000
Northeast four pound fifty six. Actually has realized the Northeast

1312
01:59:13.039 --> 01:59:17.239
and the Northwest does also have a Let's see, depends

1313
01:59:17.239 --> 01:59:23.439
where you live Scotland four pounds eighty seven. So it

1314
01:59:23.479 --> 01:59:25.600
depends what you're eating, I mean you can or what

1315
01:59:25.640 --> 01:59:28.640
you're drinking. So if you can drink alcohol, then you're

1316
01:59:28.680 --> 01:59:34.920
looking at like five quid roughly for a drink, And

1317
01:59:35.840 --> 01:59:42.399
if you're if you get a takeaway delivered, you're looking

1318
01:59:42.359 --> 01:59:48.479
at about twenty pounds, you know, roughly. It could be more.

1319
01:59:48.560 --> 01:59:51.159
Depends what you're ordering, depends where you're ordering it from,

1320
01:59:51.640 --> 01:59:55.119
what time of the day, what kind of delivery charges

1321
01:59:55.199 --> 01:59:59.039
there is there is you know, yeah, it really just

1322
01:59:59.039 --> 02:00:05.920
depends on what you get. But then you might be

1323
02:00:05.960 --> 02:00:11.439
talking about me specifically. So I get my everything I

1324
02:00:11.439 --> 02:00:14.119
get is delivered to me. And I just had a

1325
02:00:14.159 --> 02:00:21.199
delivery this morning from eats what it was called Uber Eats,

1326
02:00:21.960 --> 02:00:28.119
and that cost me I think like thirty four pounds

1327
02:00:28.119 --> 02:00:35.560
something like that. And for that, I got four milks.

1328
02:00:41.520 --> 02:00:48.159
Oh okay, it's some bananas, some apples, some pizzas. Those

1329
02:00:48.279 --> 02:00:53.800
two little pizzas. I got a packet of bags which

1330
02:00:53.920 --> 02:00:56.159
you know, can store stuff in for the freezer and

1331
02:00:56.199 --> 02:01:02.119
stuff and the fridge. I got some Jaffa cakes and

1332
02:01:02.159 --> 02:01:07.960
another little packet of biscuits, some bread rolls shebata.

1333
02:01:10.319 --> 02:01:15.039
And I think that's pretty much it.

1334
02:01:15.439 --> 02:01:24.119
I'm trying to think what else there was Boom boom cheese.

1335
02:01:24.279 --> 02:01:30.680
Got some cheese as well, some cheese slices, So you know,

1336
02:01:30.720 --> 02:01:34.239
you could buy stuff like I have. So I find this.

1337
02:01:34.439 --> 02:01:36.479
I have a cheese and tomato bread roll, which is

1338
02:01:36.479 --> 02:01:46.039
what I'm planning to earth for my lunch. Then a pound,

1339
02:01:46.279 --> 02:01:54.680
probably two pound, But then Vinnie has to he loves cheese,

1340
02:01:55.039 --> 02:01:59.479
so I can't have to share it with him. Where

1341
02:01:59.560 --> 02:02:03.159
is he He's not even under the table. I don't

1342
02:02:03.159 --> 02:02:08.039
know where he is. He's actually right under my chair,

1343
02:02:08.239 --> 02:02:12.239
like behind my chair. I didn't even know he was there.

1344
02:02:12.279 --> 02:02:15.840
I didn't know where he was. So yeah, it depends

1345
02:02:15.880 --> 02:02:18.920
really on what I'm eating before I get a takeaway

1346
02:02:20.760 --> 02:02:27.279
pretty much at least twenty pound, if not more. As

1347
02:02:27.319 --> 02:02:29.880
far as like a takeaway food, whether it's a pizza,

1348
02:02:29.960 --> 02:02:39.000
whether it's a roast dinner, whether it's yeah whatever, it

1349
02:02:39.039 --> 02:02:48.720
is really looking at roughly twenty But then I mean,

1350
02:02:49.079 --> 02:02:51.720
I guess most of my money really goes on food.

1351
02:02:52.880 --> 02:02:58.760
I mean there's priorities. You know, I got the bills,

1352
02:02:59.520 --> 02:03:06.079
so bill and food, and that's it. Really, that's the

1353
02:03:06.119 --> 02:03:08.720
two things I kind of prioritize on. And I include,

1354
02:03:08.960 --> 02:03:11.800
you know, we need's food as well in that I

1355
02:03:11.880 --> 02:03:15.479
get that delivered too, So yeah, that's kind of it.

1356
02:03:15.479 --> 02:03:17.960
That's really so I don't I guess I don't take

1357
02:03:18.039 --> 02:03:22.479
too much notice of how much things are I'm more

1358
02:03:22.520 --> 02:03:25.439
interested in that I've got enough to cover how much

1359
02:03:25.600 --> 02:03:30.399
things are, if that makes any sense. Because I've got

1360
02:03:30.439 --> 02:03:34.640
direct debits for all of my bills, I don't have

1361
02:03:34.680 --> 02:03:37.760
to pay anything like I have to pay it, but

1362
02:03:37.800 --> 02:03:39.960
I don't have to kind of go and do anything.

1363
02:03:40.199 --> 02:03:43.479
It just automatically goes out of my account. We know

1364
02:03:43.760 --> 02:03:49.840
how direct debits work. All right, Wow, is it Sunday today,

1365
02:03:50.560 --> 02:03:54.359
isn't it? I just seem to be very sarcastic towards myself.

1366
02:03:55.359 --> 02:03:59.720
I'm on a sarcastic Sunday, So yeah, Jonathan, that's kind

1367
02:03:59.720 --> 02:04:04.359
of it. Really, I just it depends what is my

1368
02:04:08.520 --> 02:04:11.600
You said typical days meals consist of? You didn't say cost,

1369
02:04:11.720 --> 02:04:17.479
did you. It's because I've been out half a night.

1370
02:04:17.479 --> 02:04:20.000
I'm not reading it properly. What does the typical days

1371
02:04:20.039 --> 02:04:23.640
meals and beverages consist of? Not cost? You didn't ask

1372
02:04:23.680 --> 02:04:25.359
me cost, But I'm telling you the price of stuff

1373
02:04:26.800 --> 02:04:39.600
I have in more recent years, be Jay eating, I

1374
02:04:39.720 --> 02:04:44.239
try and have something cooked and a sandwich and maybe

1375
02:04:44.279 --> 02:04:46.720
a couple of bowls of breakfast, cereal through the day

1376
02:04:48.800 --> 02:04:55.279
water juice, I've got it. If I don't have juice,

1377
02:04:55.319 --> 02:05:00.239
and I don't know water basically, and tea cuts tea

1378
02:05:00.279 --> 02:05:13.119
without sugar. Sometimes I have regular takeaways. Sometimes I'll go

1379
02:05:13.239 --> 02:05:16.000
without having a takeaway for a little while, but you know,

1380
02:05:16.039 --> 02:05:22.479
I do get. I haven't had one for over a

1381
02:05:22.520 --> 02:05:27.520
week now, which is a long time. But then I

1382
02:05:27.560 --> 02:05:29.439
haven't really been eating. I've been spend a lot of

1383
02:05:29.439 --> 02:05:32.960
time in bed, so I didn't really I couldn't face

1384
02:05:33.079 --> 02:05:39.279
kind of doing it. But yeah, I don't eat a

1385
02:05:39.359 --> 02:05:48.399
huge amount really, I've never been a big eater. I mean,

1386
02:05:48.439 --> 02:05:50.520
I'm because I'm a big eater, because I'm an eating

1387
02:05:50.560 --> 02:05:53.359
and I'm big, but I've never been a big consumer

1388
02:05:53.399 --> 02:06:00.279
of food other than when I am chocolate or Christen

1389
02:06:00.399 --> 02:06:03.279
asks any sign of new people moving in? I know

1390
02:06:03.399 --> 02:06:05.600
that you said there was a couple of empty places

1391
02:06:05.600 --> 02:06:12.640
in your block. Well it's weird because downstairs right the

1392
02:06:12.680 --> 02:06:16.399
flat downstairs where my friend used to live, and then

1393
02:06:16.399 --> 02:06:19.199
a lady moved in and she's moved out within a

1394
02:06:19.319 --> 02:06:24.920
year of moving in there, they're putting a new kitchen

1395
02:06:25.239 --> 02:06:29.279
downstairs because apparently they like to do it when there's

1396
02:06:29.279 --> 02:06:34.039
no one living there. I'd like a new kitchen, please,

1397
02:06:34.159 --> 02:06:38.640
can I? So they put a new kitchen in as

1398
02:06:38.720 --> 02:06:40.880
far as I know this, they're already started showing that

1399
02:06:40.920 --> 02:06:46.760
flat out to people. The flat opposite, which is Uncle's Sausages,

1400
02:06:48.439 --> 02:06:53.039
they came last week and I think it was last week.

1401
02:06:54.720 --> 02:06:58.520
They emptied his flat very quickly and they were checking

1402
02:06:58.520 --> 02:07:02.720
stuff out the window into a not a skip, but

1403
02:07:02.760 --> 02:07:06.920
it's like a van with a kind of big metal

1404
02:07:06.960 --> 02:07:10.680
cage on, like checking stuff in there out of his window,

1405
02:07:12.039 --> 02:07:15.560
which didn't sit well with me, to be honest. It

1406
02:07:15.680 --> 02:07:21.800
just seems a bit disrespectful. But hey, and the painters

1407
02:07:21.800 --> 02:07:24.680
have been in there. The painting's been downstairs, so I

1408
02:07:24.720 --> 02:07:27.319
think that one's nearly ready to go as well, because

1409
02:07:27.359 --> 02:07:29.239
all they had to do is just sort out two

1410
02:07:29.399 --> 02:07:34.119
rooms because both the kitchen and the bathroom were brand new.

1411
02:07:35.279 --> 02:07:39.800
The bathroom was literally being built or rebuilt when Uncle's

1412
02:07:39.800 --> 02:07:43.439
Sausages was in hospital. He never got to see it finished,

1413
02:07:44.760 --> 02:07:47.880
so there's probably less for them to do in there.

1414
02:07:51.279 --> 02:07:59.119
It's weird, really, so I don't know really what's going

1415
02:07:59.199 --> 02:08:01.880
to happen. There's been people coming in and looking around,

1416
02:08:03.199 --> 02:08:05.359
and I did see the lady from the council coming

1417
02:08:05.399 --> 02:08:08.600
in because she got the key off me and she

1418
02:08:08.760 --> 02:08:12.880
came in and she was she had her board on

1419
02:08:12.920 --> 02:08:17.159
her she was going into Gourd sausages flat. So it

1420
02:08:17.199 --> 02:08:20.680
looks like that's ready to go nearly. So they've really

1421
02:08:20.920 --> 02:08:22.640
pulled out all the stops to get them done as

1422
02:08:22.720 --> 02:08:26.960
quickly as possible, to let them out as quick as possible.

1423
02:08:29.760 --> 02:08:31.640
But when people do move in, I'll let you know.

1424
02:08:32.840 --> 02:08:35.279
But at the moment, still both the flats are still

1425
02:08:35.279 --> 02:08:41.319
empty that it looks like, I mean, what is it now, September.

1426
02:08:42.560 --> 02:08:46.760
I wouldn't be surprised if well, I'd say one hundred

1427
02:08:46.760 --> 02:08:53.800
percent they're both going to be full by Christmas. I

1428
02:08:53.800 --> 02:08:57.640
wouldn't be surprised if at least one of them isn't

1429
02:08:57.680 --> 02:09:03.119
occupied by the end of October, which is only well

1430
02:09:03.840 --> 02:09:07.680
six weeks away, so I wouldn't be surprised. It always

1431
02:09:07.720 --> 02:09:11.840
be surprised if both of them are occupied by like November.

1432
02:09:13.920 --> 02:09:16.079
It'd be lovely if it took six months or a year.

1433
02:09:16.880 --> 02:09:21.439
A little bit quiet, because you know, it's the thing is,

1434
02:09:21.479 --> 02:09:24.359
these doors they slam if you don't if you don't

1435
02:09:24.399 --> 02:09:26.880
close them quietly, they just slam on their own, which

1436
02:09:26.920 --> 02:09:30.600
is kind of part of the fire regulation safety thing.

1437
02:09:30.640 --> 02:09:33.760
You know, it's very noisy and it shakes the whole

1438
02:09:33.760 --> 02:09:40.960
building when they slam because they're heavy doors. So out

1439
02:09:41.000 --> 02:09:48.760
of the six flats, two are empty. So I'm going

1440
02:09:48.800 --> 02:09:51.640
to start at the top of the building. Uncle's sausages

1441
02:09:51.960 --> 02:09:56.800
close the door quietly. His next door neighbor closes the

1442
02:09:56.840 --> 02:10:02.439
door quietly. I close my door quietly. Below me closes

1443
02:10:03.880 --> 02:10:09.840
their door quietly. The one opposite lets their door slam continuously.

1444
02:10:10.399 --> 02:10:12.640
They don't like they're not aware of it. They just

1445
02:10:12.720 --> 02:10:15.279
let it slam, and it does shake. It makes Vinnie

1446
02:10:15.319 --> 02:10:19.640
bark and it shakes the building. The one next door

1447
02:10:19.760 --> 02:10:27.079
to that one used to let her door slam. So

1448
02:10:29.039 --> 02:10:32.079
I'm hoping that whoever moves in just doesn't it the

1449
02:10:32.079 --> 02:10:37.079
door slam, because then Vinnie's going to start, especially if

1450
02:10:37.079 --> 02:10:40.800
it's at night, he'll start barking. And if the person

1451
02:10:40.880 --> 02:10:44.520
lives in opposite me, let's say, door slam, it's just

1452
02:10:44.600 --> 02:10:49.359
going to be disruptive for me because it will literally

1453
02:10:49.399 --> 02:10:54.960
shake my flat. It's one of those things. The building's

1454
02:10:55.039 --> 02:10:59.600
not it's not like a flimsy building. It's not made

1455
02:10:59.600 --> 02:11:04.039
out hardboard, but it really you know that all the

1456
02:11:04.079 --> 02:11:10.800
flats are joined together, aren't they, And it just seems

1457
02:11:11.039 --> 02:11:17.520
and because everything echoes in the hallway, it would seem

1458
02:11:17.640 --> 02:11:20.960
natural that well, that someone wouldn't let the door slam.

1459
02:11:21.960 --> 02:11:24.760
I sometimes it's going to slam. My door slam sometimes,

1460
02:11:25.960 --> 02:11:27.760
you know, if I'm getting shopping in or something, and

1461
02:11:27.960 --> 02:11:32.359
sometimes it slams, but I don't I just continuously let

1462
02:11:32.399 --> 02:11:36.279
it slam. I'll try and stop it. But I once

1463
02:11:36.319 --> 02:11:37.880
I tried to stop it and I broke my heel,

1464
02:11:37.960 --> 02:11:43.760
So that wasn't so good. But other than that, because

1465
02:11:43.800 --> 02:11:45.760
it because it goes and you have to push it

1466
02:11:45.800 --> 02:11:47.920
to open it. So I was trying to stop it

1467
02:11:47.960 --> 02:11:51.640
from slamming, and it my heel got caught in between

1468
02:11:52.279 --> 02:11:54.600
the door and the doorfray in the bottom of the

1469
02:11:54.600 --> 02:12:02.640
door frame or I was limping around for about two

1470
02:12:02.680 --> 02:12:07.920
months after that was all painful. And so yeah, I'm

1471
02:12:07.960 --> 02:12:13.479
not sure, but it looks like soon. Maria asks, have

1472
02:12:13.560 --> 02:12:17.039
you ever fractured or broken any bones? Is so winn

1473
02:12:17.079 --> 02:12:21.960
and how thank you? Well? My favorite subject. It's not

1474
02:12:22.039 --> 02:12:29.439
really I have. I've probably broken more bones than I realized,

1475
02:12:29.520 --> 02:12:33.119
but I think all of us have potentially. I remember

1476
02:12:33.279 --> 02:12:38.079
an expert on toes well. I didn't speak to him personally,

1477
02:12:38.159 --> 02:12:40.479
but it was on the news or whatever. I think

1478
02:12:40.880 --> 02:12:44.880
this was during David Beckham pulled out the World Cup

1479
02:12:44.960 --> 02:12:49.119
or the European Cup because he had a broken toe

1480
02:12:49.479 --> 02:12:52.720
and people were mocking him. So, how can you pull

1481
02:12:52.760 --> 02:12:58.039
out such an important event with a little broken toe?

1482
02:12:58.479 --> 02:13:03.439
Oh you should toe hurting, David. Oh sorry, you're not

1483
02:13:03.439 --> 02:13:05.920
getting paid enough. Not a million pounds a weeks. Not

1484
02:13:06.039 --> 02:13:08.279
enough is it for you to just endure a little

1485
02:13:08.279 --> 02:13:14.079
bit of all the toe? And this expert was saying, actually.

1486
02:13:15.600 --> 02:13:16.199
Is acony.

1487
02:13:16.920 --> 02:13:19.199
It's to kick a ball around with a broken toe

1488
02:13:19.279 --> 02:13:21.920
is the most ridiculous thing ever. It's not something you

1489
02:13:21.960 --> 02:13:28.640
can do. It's And also they said that probably nearly

1490
02:13:28.680 --> 02:13:33.079
everybody's had a broken toe without even realizing. If you

1491
02:13:33.159 --> 02:13:36.159
stump your toe, quite often a little butter bone breaks

1492
02:13:38.159 --> 02:13:40.760
and we're in paying for weeks, but it gradually goes.

1493
02:13:41.399 --> 02:13:44.800
But it's just, you know, it's just one of those things.

1494
02:13:45.399 --> 02:13:54.920
So the first real bone I remember was I broke

1495
02:13:55.000 --> 02:13:59.960
my right hand punching a piece of frozen meat while

1496
02:14:00.119 --> 02:14:06.640
a box of frozen meat. And yeah, I had to

1497
02:14:06.680 --> 02:14:13.479
go went to hospital and I basically I pushed the bone.

1498
02:14:13.560 --> 02:14:16.840
It was the second knuckle in from my little knuckle

1499
02:14:16.880 --> 02:14:20.960
on the right hand. It compressed the bone right into itself,

1500
02:14:22.000 --> 02:14:26.199
so I don't have a knuckle on that hand. And

1501
02:14:27.680 --> 02:14:32.920
oh that was weird because I was twenty what was

1502
02:14:32.960 --> 02:14:39.199
I twenty four, twenty four? What was the twenty three,

1503
02:14:41.159 --> 02:14:47.760
twenty three, twenty four, something like that, And so I

1504
02:14:47.760 --> 02:14:54.960
had about five weeks off work unpaid, which was difficult,

1505
02:14:57.159 --> 02:14:58.960
and I had to learn because I couldn't do the

1506
02:14:59.079 --> 02:15:02.199
job because I I needed my hands to do the job,

1507
02:15:02.319 --> 02:15:08.800
do the manual work. And it was so weird having

1508
02:15:08.880 --> 02:15:12.119
to learn because there's certain things I needed my right

1509
02:15:12.159 --> 02:15:16.359
hand for because I was right handed, well pretty much

1510
02:15:16.359 --> 02:15:20.239
everything like writing in that but it's like toilet stuff.

1511
02:15:20.279 --> 02:15:22.880
I'm not going to it very difficult learning to do

1512
02:15:22.960 --> 02:15:27.439
stuff with my left hand. It just felt so weird.

1513
02:15:29.479 --> 02:15:33.279
It wasn't all bad, but you know, just generally. And

1514
02:15:33.439 --> 02:15:37.159
so that was the first time. The second time I

1515
02:15:37.239 --> 02:15:47.399
broke anything was I can't with you, I can go

1516
02:15:47.439 --> 02:15:53.600
through the bones. So I think two thousand and four

1517
02:15:53.840 --> 02:16:11.600
my rib when I was doing wing chun, and then I, oh, yeah,

1518
02:16:11.600 --> 02:16:13.479
I'm going to go. I can't go through the different years.

1519
02:16:13.479 --> 02:16:15.840
I can't remember, but I'll do it by body part

1520
02:16:15.960 --> 02:16:21.159
rather than the year I'm starting in my head. I

1521
02:16:21.239 --> 02:16:24.159
don't know what I've broken in my face, I couldn't

1522
02:16:24.159 --> 02:16:28.359
tell you. Maybe when I was very young, but not

1523
02:16:28.600 --> 02:16:34.239
that I can remember nothing in my shoulders, my arms.

1524
02:16:34.440 --> 02:16:37.879
I broke my left wrist when I first moved in there.

1525
02:16:37.920 --> 02:16:41.719
I fell out the bath, so I broke my left wrist.

1526
02:16:42.840 --> 02:16:47.920
I broke my right hand twice. So the second time

1527
02:16:48.079 --> 02:16:53.559
I punched the door, and this was about six years ago. Hey,

1528
02:16:54.479 --> 02:17:01.040
so I yeah, I broke my hand again. I've damage

1529
02:17:01.120 --> 02:17:04.840
my left hand numerous times, but I don't know about

1530
02:17:04.840 --> 02:17:07.680
whether it's broken or not. It might have been like

1531
02:17:07.760 --> 02:17:12.239
a little crack or something, you know, but not like proper.

1532
02:17:12.280 --> 02:17:18.200
Broke broke my rib again. So I've had my rib

1533
02:17:18.239 --> 02:17:23.200
broken twice, have my wrist broken once, had my right

1534
02:17:23.239 --> 02:17:33.200
hand broken twice, broke my toes a few different occasions,

1535
02:17:33.760 --> 02:17:38.079
had broken toes my big toe at least twice, the

1536
02:17:38.120 --> 02:17:44.440
top of my foot at least once. My heel, now

1537
02:17:44.600 --> 02:17:48.079
the heel, I didn't go and get anything sorted, but

1538
02:17:48.159 --> 02:17:50.920
I was hobbling around for two months, so I think

1539
02:17:50.959 --> 02:17:53.319
I broke something in my heel as well, but or

1540
02:17:53.440 --> 02:17:57.959
chipped the bone something like that. And then I fell

1541
02:17:58.000 --> 02:18:00.639
down the stairs A couple of years back, fractured my

1542
02:18:00.719 --> 02:18:04.840
back in two places. That was the first week that

1543
02:18:04.879 --> 02:18:09.079
I got Vinnie. And it was weird because it had snow,

1544
02:18:10.040 --> 02:18:14.760
really solid snow settled and everything. And I got Vinny

1545
02:18:14.840 --> 02:18:17.559
that week and we all week we was in the

1546
02:18:17.639 --> 02:18:21.079
snow and I was wearing my boots making sure I

1547
02:18:21.079 --> 02:18:24.000
didn't fall over. I slipped once, but it was in

1548
02:18:24.040 --> 02:18:27.040
the snow and in the fields. It didn't hurt because

1549
02:18:27.040 --> 02:18:29.040
it was in the snow. And he laughed at me,

1550
02:18:30.079 --> 02:18:31.760
and I said, don't laugh. The next time I'm going

1551
02:18:31.799 --> 02:18:35.200
to I'm going to land on you. He stopped laughing then.

1552
02:18:36.079 --> 02:18:40.799
And the last I think it was a Wednesday, maybe

1553
02:18:40.799 --> 02:18:46.440
it was a Thursday. It rained and everything melted away.

1554
02:18:46.879 --> 02:18:54.079
All the ice went, no snow, not a sight. You

1555
02:18:54.079 --> 02:18:56.959
couldn't see. It had even't been there, like it didn't exist.

1556
02:18:59.280 --> 02:19:05.319
And then Luke calls up. I think he might have

1557
02:19:05.559 --> 02:19:07.799
knocked on the door. He might have wrung me up,

1558
02:19:07.840 --> 02:19:09.559
I don't know. He said, I didn't want to bring

1559
02:19:09.639 --> 02:19:12.840
Vinnie down in the garden and play with LOGI. I said,

1560
02:19:12.879 --> 02:19:16.280
all right. This was like nine o'clock or something. He

1561
02:19:16.399 --> 02:19:18.319
was I think he was more excited about Vinnie than

1562
02:19:18.360 --> 02:19:23.559
I was, so Luke was downstairs at this point. I

1563
02:19:23.680 --> 02:19:26.639
let Vinnie out and he ran downstairs into the garden

1564
02:19:27.319 --> 02:19:33.079
to play with LOGI I come down. I got my

1565
02:19:33.280 --> 02:19:37.920
crocs on, but I did put my coat on because

1566
02:19:37.959 --> 02:19:43.600
it was cold, and Luke was standing at the bottom

1567
02:19:43.639 --> 02:19:46.319
of the stairs. I was just talking to him as

1568
02:19:46.360 --> 02:19:49.000
I was like getting ready to come down, and I

1569
02:19:49.040 --> 02:19:52.159
think I got down about two steps or three steps,

1570
02:19:53.319 --> 02:20:00.520
and I went and I bounced down the hole of

1571
02:20:00.559 --> 02:20:05.040
the staircase deady. It's not like it's concrete steps, it's

1572
02:20:05.079 --> 02:20:08.040
not like big, not loads of steps, but it was enough.

1573
02:20:09.120 --> 02:20:14.399
And Luke was laughing because he didn't not hurt myself.

1574
02:20:14.440 --> 02:20:17.239
He said, it was so funny to watch just you

1575
02:20:17.440 --> 02:20:20.440
bouncing off of each step and look on your face.

1576
02:20:21.600 --> 02:20:25.600
Because it happened so quick. I didn't really I didn't

1577
02:20:25.600 --> 02:20:28.600
really know what was going on. To be fair, I didn't.

1578
02:20:29.000 --> 02:20:31.399
I couldn't really process it because it was so quick.

1579
02:20:33.200 --> 02:20:35.159
One minute I was standing there, next minute I was

1580
02:20:35.200 --> 02:20:38.360
at the bottom of the stairs, having been on a

1581
02:20:38.440 --> 02:20:44.159
really really weird roller coaster. Well it wasn't a roller coaster.

1582
02:20:44.200 --> 02:20:45.559
It was falling down the stairs, but you know what

1583
02:20:45.600 --> 02:20:48.760
I mean. It was a kind of very strange experience.

1584
02:20:50.559 --> 02:21:00.760
So he's laughing, I'm not feeling great, and I mean

1585
02:21:01.120 --> 02:21:03.120
it ended up that I had a fracture back in

1586
02:21:03.159 --> 02:21:07.479
two places. So I mentioned, you know, I wasn't my

1587
02:21:07.559 --> 02:21:12.239
back wasn't feeling wonderful, and I couldn't get up. I

1588
02:21:12.239 --> 02:21:18.680
needed his help to get up, and he was He

1589
02:21:18.719 --> 02:21:21.479
said I needed to go to the hospital, and I said, no,

1590
02:21:21.559 --> 02:21:25.000
I'll be all right. But I couldn't sit down, I

1591
02:21:25.000 --> 02:21:26.959
couldn't stand up, I couldn't do anything. It was just

1592
02:21:28.559 --> 02:21:32.600
I knew something was broke, just for the simple fact

1593
02:21:32.600 --> 02:21:36.000
that well, I felt it. But at the same time

1594
02:21:36.079 --> 02:21:39.479
I thought, no, I don't. I can't face being in

1595
02:21:39.479 --> 02:21:44.600
a in the hospital for the next twelve hours thirty

1596
02:21:44.879 --> 02:21:46.799
I think it was thirteen and a half hours I

1597
02:21:46.840 --> 02:21:51.639
was in there. But he said, yeah, but what if

1598
02:21:51.639 --> 02:21:56.639
you got internal, something internal happened, you know, outside of

1599
02:21:58.399 --> 02:22:00.840
something else, you know, might say it might be serious.

1600
02:22:00.879 --> 02:22:04.479
So if you wanted to come with me, I said, no,

1601
02:22:04.680 --> 02:22:07.520
it's all right, I'll just get a taxi in. He

1602
02:22:07.600 --> 02:22:15.879
looked after Vinnie and yeah. The doctor even said, oh, no,

1603
02:22:16.120 --> 02:22:19.239
can't be fractured when he eventually sort of saw me.

1604
02:22:19.680 --> 02:22:21.799
So it can't be fractured. Because it was fractured, you'd

1605
02:22:21.799 --> 02:22:26.040
be in agony. I said that I'm what do you

1606
02:22:26.079 --> 02:22:28.360
think I'm in? He said, no, you won't be able

1607
02:22:28.360 --> 02:22:30.680
to You won't be able to stand up if you

1608
02:22:30.719 --> 02:22:32.319
had if you had a fracture in your back room

1609
02:22:32.360 --> 02:22:35.280
and be able to stand up. He said, I'm going

1610
02:22:35.319 --> 02:22:37.440
to give you an extra anyway with a cat scan,

1611
02:22:38.559 --> 02:22:40.200
and then he came back. He said, yeah, it's fractured

1612
02:22:40.200 --> 02:22:44.440
in two places. He said, I don't know how you

1613
02:22:44.440 --> 02:22:48.559
can stand up. I said, sitting down's worst, and standing

1614
02:22:48.639 --> 02:22:54.600
up it's hurts more than I sit down. I've just

1615
02:22:54.639 --> 02:22:57.239
spent the last twelve hours, twelve and a half hours

1616
02:22:57.280 --> 02:23:03.680
sitting down. Standing up was relief, but then it started

1617
02:23:03.760 --> 02:23:05.879
hurting the game and I was standing up, but it

1618
02:23:05.920 --> 02:23:08.799
was relief compared to sitting down for such a long time,

1619
02:23:09.879 --> 02:23:21.040
which oh so, yeah. So what I've got? I think

1620
02:23:22.559 --> 02:23:25.520
so my knuckles, no, guess I've got two hands to

1621
02:23:25.799 --> 02:23:33.760
my right hand twice, my wrist once, my ribs twice

1622
02:23:34.120 --> 02:23:41.680
two different times, and my foot the top of my

1623
02:23:41.719 --> 02:23:49.399
foot once and my big toe least twice. Yeah, and

1624
02:23:49.440 --> 02:23:51.760
the heel. I don't know, but that's the breaks I've

1625
02:23:51.760 --> 02:23:57.680
had a few little breaks along the way, but I

1626
02:23:57.719 --> 02:24:01.079
suppose the the scarier one would be when I fell

1627
02:24:01.079 --> 02:24:04.959
out the bath, to be honest, because I hurt my

1628
02:24:05.000 --> 02:24:07.799
shoulder and I couldn't I couldn't get up. I was

1629
02:24:07.840 --> 02:24:12.079
on my own and I was well, everything was out.

1630
02:24:12.079 --> 02:24:15.559
You know, I was naked, so it wasn't an ideal situation.

1631
02:24:20.879 --> 02:24:25.159
But when I fell down the stairs, but at least

1632
02:24:25.159 --> 02:24:26.319
I had a T shirt on the rest of me,

1633
02:24:26.399 --> 02:24:30.959
I was naked, and then I was when I was

1634
02:24:31.000 --> 02:24:35.079
at work. Yeah, pretty much was naked most places, most times.

1635
02:24:35.360 --> 02:24:41.079
It's weird, isn't it. Well, we weren't born naked. I mean,

1636
02:24:41.120 --> 02:24:43.479
it's not a bad thing. Is It's not an awful

1637
02:24:43.719 --> 02:24:48.799
state of undress? Really, is it? It's natural. It doesn't

1638
02:24:48.799 --> 02:24:53.120
hold up in court though, doesn't stand up in court. Wow.

1639
02:24:54.239 --> 02:24:59.200
So yeah, I've had a few, a few little knocks around,

1640
02:25:01.360 --> 02:25:04.239
but probably other than like falling out the bath, that

1641
02:25:04.360 --> 02:25:11.920
was not good. But the stairs one that was, Yeah,

1642
02:25:12.000 --> 02:25:14.399
that was probably the worst, the worst. I don't know,

1643
02:25:15.000 --> 02:25:19.159
none of them were nice, but that was you know,

1644
02:25:19.479 --> 02:25:22.879
sitting down, standing up whatever. It was just it took

1645
02:25:22.920 --> 02:25:29.920
a long time for that to calm itself down. Yeah,

1646
02:25:29.959 --> 02:25:31.239
that was weird. That was.

1647
02:25:35.520 --> 02:25:35.719
Yeah.

1648
02:25:35.840 --> 02:25:37.840
Since then, I've had a few problems with my upper back.

1649
02:25:38.639 --> 02:25:44.239
I don't know if it's to do with that, almost

1650
02:25:44.360 --> 02:25:49.680
like a misalignment or something. I don't know. I don't know.

1651
02:25:50.520 --> 02:25:57.159
I don't know that Maria. So that's I thank you

1652
02:25:57.200 --> 02:26:05.079
for Maria, Christine, Jonathan, Reveal, Isabelle, and Hope. Thank you

1653
02:26:05.159 --> 02:26:07.239
very much. That's all the questions I do believe I've

1654
02:26:07.280 --> 02:26:12.520
answered in this here particular Q and A Friday, and

1655
02:26:12.600 --> 02:26:17.440
Vinnie knows straight away I'm bringing this to an end.

1656
02:26:17.639 --> 02:26:22.280
He always knows. How does he always know? I don't know.

1657
02:26:26.120 --> 02:26:30.239
So yeah, thank you for listening. Remember to be kind

1658
02:26:30.280 --> 02:26:36.600
to yourself, because you do deserve to be happy and

1659
02:26:36.639 --> 02:26:43.079
be gentle with yourself. He deserves to feel safe. Lots

1660
02:26:43.120 --> 02:27:24.319
of love. Bye. Relax in a more deep and meaningful way,

1661
02:27:26.799 --> 02:27:31.879
Maybe in a way that can not just allow you

1662
02:27:32.319 --> 02:27:42.360
to feel calmer now and throughout the time we spend

1663
02:27:42.440 --> 02:27:50.399
together here, not just relaxed at the end of the

1664
02:27:50.479 --> 02:27:55.840
recording when it's finished and you can enjoy that sense

1665
02:27:55.959 --> 02:28:12.600
of comfort and peace, but also I think it would

1666
02:28:12.600 --> 02:28:28.479
be nice to have those feelings of relaxation continue for

1667
02:28:28.639 --> 02:28:40.559
longer after the recording has ended, so that you can

1668
02:28:42.200 --> 02:28:52.840
still benefit from listening to my voice maybe in a

1669
02:28:52.879 --> 02:29:05.399
few hours time, perhaps tomorrow, and then by listening regularly,

1670
02:29:08.479 --> 02:29:13.120
especially if you find like some people do and myself

1671
02:29:13.159 --> 02:29:18.280
as well. Sometimes I find one particular recording that really

1672
02:29:19.959 --> 02:29:26.920
resonates with me, and I just listen to it over

1673
02:29:26.959 --> 02:29:39.719
and over again every morning, every evening. There was this

1674
02:29:39.799 --> 02:29:46.680
recording from We're going back to about nineteen ninety nine.

1675
02:29:47.000 --> 02:29:52.319
It was it wasn't hypnosis, but it was a guided visualizations.

1676
02:29:52.440 --> 02:29:59.440
It kind of was hypnosis, really, and I managed to

1677
02:29:59.479 --> 02:30:02.959
find it game and it still has the same effect

1678
02:30:03.520 --> 02:30:14.680
on me. And part of it was the person's voice

1679
02:30:15.559 --> 02:30:25.120
relaxed me. She just felt so peaceful, and I'd look

1680
02:30:25.319 --> 02:30:32.319
forward to listening to her in the morning and in

1681
02:30:32.360 --> 02:30:43.639
the evening. And I knew before even pressing the play

1682
02:30:43.719 --> 02:30:51.120
button that as soon as i'd done that pressed the

1683
02:30:51.159 --> 02:30:59.920
play button. This was in the days of CD play

1684
02:31:00.079 --> 02:31:08.479
as pressed the play button. In fact, it might have

1685
02:31:08.520 --> 02:31:13.000
even been a tape recorder. I'd lie down on the

1686
02:31:13.040 --> 02:31:26.840
bed and then even without necessarily listening to her words

1687
02:31:29.760 --> 02:31:39.120
because I had them memorized. Really, it was as if

1688
02:31:39.159 --> 02:31:50.399
my body knew exactly what to do, and the muscles

1689
02:31:50.639 --> 02:32:12.000
just almost went into automatic relaxa, and I remember my

1690
02:32:12.200 --> 02:32:26.120
mind would slow down. Now. Now, I was listening to

1691
02:32:26.200 --> 02:32:35.440
this recording in the early days of learning hypnosis, and

1692
02:32:35.680 --> 02:32:44.559
long before I ever made any videos or audio recordings myself,

1693
02:32:45.760 --> 02:32:49.159
because I didn't start doing that till two thousand and six,

1694
02:32:56.040 --> 02:33:12.000
I knew, I knew how helpful I found being able

1695
02:33:12.040 --> 02:33:21.120
to just let go, to have that trust in the

1696
02:33:21.200 --> 02:33:31.600
person that I'm listening to, knowing that it's going to

1697
02:33:31.639 --> 02:33:42.440
be just as relaxing, if not more so. Each time

1698
02:33:42.719 --> 02:33:55.200
you hear my voice, you may feel the same. Some

1699
02:33:55.520 --> 02:34:08.319
people have been listening to me for over a decade,

1700
02:34:10.559 --> 02:34:15.399
maybe not solidly, obviously not twenty four hours a day,

1701
02:34:16.319 --> 02:34:22.840
but maybe people come back. Some people may be listen

1702
02:34:22.920 --> 02:34:39.479
every day. There's something that I do which you may

1703
02:34:39.600 --> 02:35:00.559
not realize by listening, is when I record these recordings. Now,

1704
02:35:00.719 --> 02:35:13.239
for example, I also am affected by the words that

1705
02:35:13.360 --> 02:35:25.520
I say. So if I set you focus on your feet,

1706
02:35:28.040 --> 02:35:35.799
notice your feet relaxing, I will be focusing on my feet.

1707
02:35:40.680 --> 02:35:58.079
I will be noticing my feet relaxing. If I said,

1708
02:35:58.200 --> 02:36:05.879
focus on your hands, and maybe notice the difference between

1709
02:36:05.920 --> 02:36:16.879
each hand, Perhaps notice the air in the room, the

1710
02:36:16.920 --> 02:36:21.559
temperature of the room. On the backs of your hands,

1711
02:36:29.360 --> 02:36:33.239
you may start to notice what almost feels like a

1712
02:36:33.360 --> 02:36:41.799
very light breeze, even though there may not be any

1713
02:36:41.840 --> 02:36:52.120
type of breeze at all where you are right now.

1714
02:36:54.920 --> 02:37:05.559
And as you become aware of your hands, I'm also

1715
02:37:05.879 --> 02:37:34.040
aware of how relaxed my hands are feeling now and

1716
02:37:34.239 --> 02:37:41.159
when it comes to potentially drifting off to sleep, which

1717
02:37:41.239 --> 02:37:55.479
may be the reason you're listening, I also feel drowsy

1718
02:37:57.639 --> 02:38:11.120
when I make these recordings. I also notice my mind drifting.

1719
02:38:19.000 --> 02:38:31.600
In fact, at times I've actually fallen asleep without even noticing,

1720
02:38:36.479 --> 02:38:45.559
and then I carry on talking. And it's only where

1721
02:38:45.920 --> 02:38:55.000
I listen back to do the editing I hear snoring,

1722
02:38:56.920 --> 02:39:04.200
and I think, I don't remember snoring. I remember talking.

1723
02:39:07.040 --> 02:39:14.280
It's snoring was a pick turned up. That's why I

1724
02:39:14.319 --> 02:39:22.440
sound like when I snow. How I get ready into

1725
02:39:24.159 --> 02:39:41.920
a whole experience. I don't know how you feel. How

1726
02:39:42.000 --> 02:39:52.200
relaxed do you feel in your feet, how relaxed you

1727
02:39:52.440 --> 02:40:13.680
feel in your hands. I have noticed more and more

1728
02:40:19.600 --> 02:40:32.319
that the more relaxed, deeper level of comfort you feel,

1729
02:40:35.959 --> 02:40:52.120
the easier your breathing becomes. So almost like that additional

1730
02:40:55.280 --> 02:41:18.680
muscle relaxation. So this allows you debree easier without necessarily

1731
02:41:21.479 --> 02:41:48.920
focusing on your breath, however, being able to notice.

1732
02:41:49.040 --> 02:41:50.399
The ease.

1733
02:41:53.399 --> 02:42:19.959
In which you breathe so naturally, you breathe so very

1734
02:42:20.239 --> 02:43:08.959
easily and smoothly. Whenever I imagine my breathing improving. When

1735
02:43:08.959 --> 02:43:24.280
I've got my eyes closed, I tend to visualize a

1736
02:43:24.399 --> 02:43:41.000
beautiful field with trees and flowers producing all that life

1737
02:43:41.079 --> 02:44:16.719
giving oxygen. It feels nice too, if nothing else, just

1738
02:44:17.159 --> 02:44:51.200
taking some time away from everything, enjoying that feeling of

1739
02:44:55.120 --> 02:45:42.000
peace serenity with a joyful heart. Time seems to just

1740
02:45:43.840 --> 02:46:27.879
drip by so very slowly, relaxed, so deeply peaceful, completely

1741
02:46:33.760 --> 02:47:33.479
unattached to any thoughts whatsoever in this moment, completely free,

1742
02:47:36.239 --> 02:48:27.600
noticing that your mind has slowed down. Slowed down because

1743
02:48:27.760 --> 02:48:56.360
nothing really requires your attention, you can enjoy the physical

1744
02:48:56.680 --> 02:49:08.360
sensations of allowing the stress drip out of your body,

1745
02:49:14.840 --> 02:49:38.680
Dripping out of every part of your body and being

1746
02:49:39.000 --> 02:50:17.680
released from your brain. Curte your mind slowly but surely,

1747
02:50:24.520 --> 02:51:01.920
the muscles in your legs relax res re so very deeply,

1748
02:51:11.760 --> 02:51:42.719
lacks so deeply, and the feelings, the pleasant feelings in

1749
02:51:42.840 --> 02:52:07.360
your arms and shoulders, deepening each part of your body

1750
02:52:10.639 --> 02:52:49.079
further and deeper and deeper. Noticine the feelings in the

1751
02:52:49.120 --> 02:53:51.200
back of your neck, feelings in your wrists, muscles, in

1752
02:53:51.479 --> 02:54:45.639
front of your body. I also feeling peaceful deeply. There's

1753
02:54:45.680 --> 02:55:27.000
a sense of peace spreads through your very core. Even

1754
02:55:27.239 --> 02:55:54.239
when you focus on your mind. Her mind becomes af

1755
02:55:54.360 --> 02:57:30.760
and slowerven deep relaxing, so very slow. His stomach day's

1756
02:57:31.000 --> 02:58:18.559
Formini's stomach. Look back. Notice, Notice how relaxed you now

1757
02:58:19.159 --> 02:58:30.600
feel in the hole of your back.

1758
02:58:55.879 --> 02:58:57.040
A spy.

1759
02:59:00.760 --> 02:59:05.440
From your brain all the way down the middle of

1760
02:59:05.520 --> 02:59:22.639
your back, sending and receiving millions of messages every day.

1761
02:59:28.280 --> 02:59:45.840
Deepcomfort increasing deeply relaxed.

1762
03:00:15.879 --> 03:00:50.559
Your knees, relax spreading those signals down your spine or

1763
03:00:50.639 --> 03:01:14.040
cord into air. Every part of your body, mr shins

1764
03:01:14.200 --> 03:02:06.000
and your calf missiles outputs. Feelings of peace and tranquility,

1765
03:02:09.920 --> 03:02:23.920
spreading through your body, tips of your toes, to your eyes,

1766
03:02:28.280 --> 03:02:46.760
your fingers, all the way till you'll lower back and

1767
03:02:47.159 --> 03:03:50.280
letting go dating mm hm, pace, drifting mind, just wounding away,

1768
03:04:00.079 --> 03:04:02.280
head to let go.

1769
03:04:05.200 --> 03:04:06.479
Let go.

1770
03:04:10.959 --> 03:05:37.799
Completely, Lecker said, tranquil your whole body, enjoying a sense listener,

1771
03:05:41.520 --> 03:08:09.000
heven morey joy the space, this space of peace and safety.

1772
03:08:09.079 --> 03:10:11.479
Say hey, letting go. Maybe we can just focus on

1773
03:10:11.639 --> 03:10:46.360
the different parts of your body, just to notice your

1774
03:10:46.520 --> 03:11:49.319
forehead and your eyes mutual, so loose, noticing a sense

1775
03:11:49.399 --> 03:13:57.239
of complete freedom, absolute freedom, dress, day, peace form, energy, pace,

1776
03:13:57.879 --> 03:15:13.000
to breathe, such ease. Yes, you may have or may

1777
03:15:13.079 --> 03:16:13.600
not have noticed your mind drifted peaceful move an even

1778
03:16:13.879 --> 03:16:39.120
more deeply in the direction of total blissful pace, blissful pace,

1779
03:17:07.719 --> 03:19:06.959
the rest to to pace, so com letting go, peace

1780
03:19:07.799 --> 03:20:17.959
of mind, relaxed foty, sir rex so relaxed. A body

1781
03:20:18.680 --> 03:21:15.040
feels almost invisible, so very hard and paceful, so paceful. Right,

1782
03:21:22.159 --> 03:21:58.719
my god, I'm so paceful, so fair. And you could

1783
03:21:58.840 --> 03:22:09.280
start notice that you are feeling more relaxed, even though

1784
03:22:09.360 --> 03:22:20.600
I've not purposely focused your mind upon that sense of

1785
03:22:21.000 --> 03:22:26.440
physical comfort that is growing within you throughout your body,

1786
03:22:29.639 --> 03:22:39.319
and your mind starts to slow down. And that could

1787
03:22:39.360 --> 03:22:47.680
be almost in recognition of I guess my speech not

1788
03:22:47.840 --> 03:23:05.000
being particularly fast, and things just generally feel calmer. Just

1789
03:23:05.280 --> 03:23:13.840
by listening to my voice, you give yourself an opportunity

1790
03:23:15.559 --> 03:23:21.360
to take a break from the day, take a break

1791
03:23:21.399 --> 03:23:29.159
from your life as it is, and to give yourself

1792
03:23:29.200 --> 03:23:37.159
a rest, giving yourself permission to take some time off,

1793
03:23:39.319 --> 03:23:44.719
and to allow your body to relax and allow your

1794
03:23:44.879 --> 03:23:55.479
mind to slow down, which in turn releases the tension

1795
03:23:56.920 --> 03:24:06.079
any stresses that you had in your body. It's almost

1796
03:24:06.120 --> 03:24:10.319
as if the parts of your body just open up,

1797
03:24:11.559 --> 03:24:23.239
allowing the negativity out and at the same time replacing

1798
03:24:24.079 --> 03:24:33.600
that negativity with positive healing energy, which then fills your

1799
03:24:33.639 --> 03:24:45.520
body up and your mind to also starts to appreciate

1800
03:24:46.360 --> 03:25:04.760
those feelings of increasing confidence, an almost uplifting feeling, positive healing,

1801
03:25:07.920 --> 03:25:16.520
an energy that spreads through your body like a wave

1802
03:25:18.799 --> 03:25:31.000
of comfort. And all this comes from just allowing yourself

1803
03:25:33.760 --> 03:25:39.000
a few minutes, maybe half an hour, however long you

1804
03:25:39.079 --> 03:25:51.639
want it to be, to just rest and allow your

1805
03:25:51.760 --> 03:26:02.239
mind and your body to almost reset itself to the

1806
03:26:02.319 --> 03:26:18.200
settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness, which allows more room

1807
03:26:18.719 --> 03:26:31.760
for feelings of pleasure and happiness to move around your

1808
03:26:31.840 --> 03:26:40.280
body and into your mind, almost as if your mind

1809
03:26:40.360 --> 03:26:51.040
and your body are sinking together, almost mirroring each other

1810
03:26:52.000 --> 03:27:06.360
with that growing positivity and calmness, and it feels nice,

1811
03:27:06.680 --> 03:27:12.680
really does feel nice to know that you are the

1812
03:27:12.719 --> 03:27:26.000
one that has allowed yourself to feel more comfort and

1813
03:27:26.200 --> 03:27:43.399
to experience more of this deep relaxation spreading throughout your body,

1814
03:27:47.079 --> 03:27:52.440
and as I focus on each part of your body,

1815
03:27:54.799 --> 03:28:06.879
you can notice that that part becomes even more relaxed

1816
03:28:08.840 --> 03:28:17.799
just by focusing on it. It becomes even more calm

1817
03:28:17.959 --> 03:28:28.719
and comfortable, just by focusing. And as I moved down

1818
03:28:28.920 --> 03:28:36.399
your body, starting at your head, the parts that you

1819
03:28:36.440 --> 03:28:46.399
have already focused on will continue to relax deeply and

1820
03:28:46.520 --> 03:28:52.639
those parts that we not yet focused on or just

1821
03:28:52.760 --> 03:29:05.120
automatically release any main intention in anticipation of even more

1822
03:29:05.760 --> 03:29:17.600
comfort about to come. Now, I'm going to start by

1823
03:29:17.639 --> 03:29:25.399
focusing on your forehead. Just being aware the feelings of

1824
03:29:25.479 --> 03:29:36.239
your forehead and any background sounds like mister Herbert Opigeon

1825
03:29:38.200 --> 03:29:45.239
can just allow you to feel even more relaxed. Just

1826
03:29:45.440 --> 03:29:51.319
means you're in the moment. This isn't this isn't a

1827
03:29:51.520 --> 03:29:59.440
sterile environment. This is the world I live in the

1828
03:29:59.479 --> 03:30:11.879
country's so there's lots of nature sounds around. So as

1829
03:30:11.920 --> 03:30:17.840
you focus on your forehead, just notice how it becomes

1830
03:30:18.120 --> 03:30:28.079
even more relaxed as you focus only on my voice

1831
03:30:28.959 --> 03:30:37.600
and that part of your body. Moving down to your eyes,

1832
03:30:39.680 --> 03:30:50.840
focusing on your eyes, noticing how your eyelids feel so

1833
03:30:51.159 --> 03:31:00.879
heavy yet so light at the same time, and all

1834
03:31:00.959 --> 03:31:12.479
the muscles around your eyes relaxing completely. Moving your focus

1835
03:31:13.719 --> 03:31:20.319
down to your mouth, your lips, your tongue, your teeth,

1836
03:31:20.559 --> 03:31:33.159
your comes, the hole of your mouth, relaxing, calm and

1837
03:31:33.360 --> 03:31:45.959
glose as you focus now on your jaw, just the

1838
03:31:46.120 --> 03:31:49.600
parts of your jaw, kney, your mouth, and your chin,

1839
03:31:50.879 --> 03:31:54.000
but all the way up the size of your face

1840
03:31:55.159 --> 03:32:09.879
to your ears, the hole of your feeling more relaxed.

1841
03:32:13.079 --> 03:32:21.840
And calm.

1842
03:32:22.159 --> 03:32:31.319
Focusing on your neck, the front of your neck, and

1843
03:32:31.360 --> 03:32:44.399
your throat relaxing and loose and calm. The sides of

1844
03:32:44.479 --> 03:32:53.440
your neck, the right left side of your neck, relax

1845
03:32:53.920 --> 03:32:56.079
and loose.

1846
03:32:59.799 --> 03:33:06.959
And calm.

1847
03:33:07.280 --> 03:33:14.319
Now the back of your neck, focusing on the back

1848
03:33:14.479 --> 03:33:24.760
of your neck, letting go of any tension that may

1849
03:33:24.799 --> 03:33:35.360
have been there before, and enjoying that sense of increasing

1850
03:33:36.920 --> 03:33:45.520
comfort and release that you can experience in the back

1851
03:33:45.559 --> 03:33:58.079
of your neck. Moving down your back and moving either

1852
03:33:58.239 --> 03:34:02.280
side of your spine, right from the top of.

1853
03:34:02.200 --> 03:34:03.000
Your back.

1854
03:34:04.639 --> 03:34:08.319
All the way down to the bottom of your back,

1855
03:34:14.319 --> 03:34:25.760
down to your lower back. As you move up and

1856
03:34:25.920 --> 03:34:34.959
down your spine, you can feel the muscles either side

1857
03:34:35.000 --> 03:34:49.760
of your spine relaxing even more. And as those muscles relax,

1858
03:34:51.840 --> 03:34:59.680
that sense of comfort starts to spread outwards from your

1859
03:34:59.760 --> 03:35:09.399
s into both sides of your back, the top of

1860
03:35:09.479 --> 03:35:16.440
your back, the middle, and your lower back. And as

1861
03:35:16.479 --> 03:35:23.959
you scan gently and slowly up and down your back,

1862
03:35:26.319 --> 03:35:30.719
there's the muscles in the top of your back relax

1863
03:35:31.239 --> 03:35:38.879
and become looser. The muscles in the middle of your

1864
03:35:38.920 --> 03:35:46.399
back also seem to just almost divide from each other,

1865
03:35:47.319 --> 03:36:03.600
separating and almost melting. And in your lower back there

1866
03:36:03.639 --> 03:36:16.319
seems to be an extra special feeling of comfort. The

1867
03:36:16.680 --> 03:36:23.000
spreads into your hips. Sit down, your lower back, into

1868
03:36:23.040 --> 03:36:34.360
your hips, into the area where your cosis are, and

1869
03:36:34.479 --> 03:36:43.399
into your buttocks, and all those muscles that spread bring

1870
03:36:43.440 --> 03:36:52.959
your lower back into your hip area start to melt,

1871
03:36:57.399 --> 03:37:09.760
start to reading, let go, and you know where about

1872
03:37:09.840 --> 03:37:16.520
to focus on your shoulders, Your back and your spy

1873
03:37:16.920 --> 03:37:33.719
will continue to let go, continue to relax so calmly.

1874
03:37:38.440 --> 03:37:44.159
As you focus on your shoulders, you may notice they're

1875
03:37:44.200 --> 03:38:19.680
already feeling really loose, They're already feeding calm feet. Those

1876
03:38:19.799 --> 03:38:34.600
muscles that move from your neck into your shoulders feel

1877
03:38:35.079 --> 03:38:45.920
so soft and gentle, so smooth.

1878
03:38:51.399 --> 03:39:03.520
And calm.

1879
03:39:03.600 --> 03:39:16.239
And the feeling in your shoulders seems to spread deep

1880
03:39:16.399 --> 03:39:26.200
into your shoulders, that sense of relaxation, not just traveling

1881
03:39:26.680 --> 03:39:43.959
deeply into your muscles, but also relaxing the bones and

1882
03:39:44.200 --> 03:39:52.959
moving all away to underneath your arms, relaxing the whole

1883
03:39:53.120 --> 03:39:58.159
area between the tops of your shoulders and underneath your

1884
03:39:58.280 --> 03:40:03.440
arms healing.

1885
03:40:08.840 --> 03:40:09.600
You feel so.

1886
03:40:11.440 --> 03:40:25.559
Relaxed and comfortable in your shoulders, which sense that deep

1887
03:40:26.360 --> 03:40:47.239
healing message into your arms, and you may feel almost

1888
03:40:47.319 --> 03:40:52.319
as if your arms are not even there because they're

1889
03:40:52.600 --> 03:41:42.239
so relaxed, so deeply. That's so so calm.

1890
03:41:28.399 --> 03:41:28.559
So.

1891
03:41:35.280 --> 03:41:50.200
This the fine spreading all the way down your aunts

1892
03:41:53.000 --> 03:42:23.000
to elbows, including your helpess circumfort spreads go away into rests,

1893
03:42:25.879 --> 03:42:41.479
your forearments und your wrists so heavy yet at the

1894
03:42:41.520 --> 03:43:25.120
same time silight and gentle for a percent. Now on.

1895
03:43:27.799 --> 03:44:00.000
Your hands, my hands, peace.

1896
03:44:01.639 --> 03:44:22.520
In your hands, the sense of.

1897
03:44:25.879 --> 03:44:27.319
Real pace.

1898
03:44:39.120 --> 03:44:52.959
It just seems to feel spher familiar. When your hands

1899
03:44:53.159 --> 03:45:24.520
relax deeply as things.

1900
03:45:56.479 --> 03:47:03.680
Things sidlish, you think it tips you'ving your attention left front,

1901
03:47:04.040 --> 03:48:55.399
your body scunstable, my man, your focus to legs, muscles.

1902
03:48:57.079 --> 03:49:56.760
You're fives niece, sir, relaxed calf muscles just shades composi

1903
03:50:17.959 --> 03:52:08.680
un saints, sir peaceful.

1904
03:52:10.159 --> 03:52:18.399
Circom say peaceful.

1905
03:52:24.879 --> 03:53:06.319
Sircom serve peaceful, so calm, so.

1906
03:53:08.319 --> 03:53:10.000
Peace fall.

1907
03:53:18.319 --> 03:53:20.520
Re sener.

1908
03:53:25.239 --> 03:53:44.440
Peace fall, sir calm, have a deep relaxation to spread

1909
03:53:44.680 --> 03:53:47.440
your chested story.

1910
03:53:59.600 --> 03:53:59.639
M.

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03:54:00.120 --> 03:54:19.159
Let you go everything. So I'm gonna start counting down now,

1912
03:54:21.840 --> 03:54:30.520
from twenty down to one. You can imagine in a

1913
03:54:30.600 --> 03:54:36.399
way it's like just walking down some steps and each

1914
03:54:36.600 --> 03:54:42.239
step or twenty steps, and each step represents a level

1915
03:54:42.799 --> 03:54:55.520
of comfort. Each step represents a deepening of that comfort.

1916
03:55:02.159 --> 03:55:07.840
In the firties, you walk down those steps that deeper

1917
03:55:08.239 --> 03:55:10.280
and more relaxed. Do you feel.

1918
03:55:16.719 --> 03:55:16.760
So?

1919
03:55:17.440 --> 03:55:51.559
Starting with number twenty twenty nineteen.

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Shhhhhh eight.

1921
03:57:03.639 --> 03:57:52.360
Seventeen sixteen.

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03:58:18.079 --> 03:59:45.600
Us ussire.

1923
03:59:50.079 --> 04:03:04.120
Four fur two.

1924
04:01:57.600 --> 04:04:04.559
Well USU.

1925
04:05:13.319 --> 04:06:16.479
Nohhhhhhhhh eight.

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04:07:15.879 --> 04:11:28.520
Seven sixt five four.

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04:11:56.479 --> 04:15:56.639
STI no.

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As you focus on your eyes, You're gonna count down

1929
04:16:14.440 --> 04:16:25.559
from ten down to one, focusing just on your eyes,

1930
04:16:29.319 --> 04:16:37.840
your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your eye walls themselves,

1931
04:16:39.360 --> 04:16:56.360
our whole area that makes up your eye. And as

1932
04:16:56.479 --> 04:17:04.799
we count down from ten down to one, whilst focus

1933
04:17:04.959 --> 04:17:19.959
in on your eyes, you'll become twice is relaxed with

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04:17:20.360 --> 04:17:33.360
each number counting down that you may find the ony

1935
04:17:33.440 --> 04:17:39.600
you want to do is just drift off to sleep.

1936
04:17:42.600 --> 04:17:49.200
And if that's what you want, then just allow yourself

1937
04:17:49.319 --> 04:18:03.719
to do that. Now focus sitting on your eyes. You've

1938
04:18:03.760 --> 04:18:09.319
got to begin counting down from ten down to one

1939
04:18:13.520 --> 04:25:02.280
right now, ten nine eight seven four three u.

1940
04:26:03.559 --> 04:26:06.760
U u.

1941
04:26:39.559 --> 04:27:39.440
U one. So counting down from ten to one ten

1942
04:27:41.399 --> 04:28:10.600
nine eight seven six five four three to one. And

1943
04:28:10.760 --> 04:28:14.120
maybe that was a bit too quick in order to relax.

1944
04:28:15.360 --> 04:28:19.559
Maybe it's a bit too fast for you to notice

1945
04:28:19.840 --> 04:28:27.920
the calming of your body, maybe even a little bit

1946
04:28:27.959 --> 04:28:32.079
of pressure there, like you're counted down from ten to one.

1947
04:28:32.159 --> 04:28:35.559
Would you expect me to do? Man, expect me to

1948
04:28:35.600 --> 04:28:39.600
just to go with floppy just because you're counting down.

1949
04:28:45.159 --> 04:28:48.479
You could try it again, but this time I'll go

1950
04:28:48.520 --> 04:28:55.559
a bit slower this time, and you focus on the

1951
04:28:55.719 --> 04:28:59.840
whole of your body before we focus on your legs.

1952
04:29:02.280 --> 04:29:11.440
Just notice how your body does start to feel more

1953
04:29:11.920 --> 04:29:30.920
relaxed with every number that I count down ten nine

1954
04:29:36.479 --> 04:31:05.559
at eight, seven, six, five four three two one, And

1955
04:31:05.799 --> 04:31:11.959
just notice how how you feel generally, how your body feels.

1956
04:31:18.639 --> 04:31:26.920
It's not necessarily even about counting down from ten to one.

1957
04:31:29.879 --> 04:31:43.319
It's that space that you have, that space between being

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04:31:46.879 --> 04:31:59.159
active physically or mentally, just sitting or lying down, just

1959
04:31:59.399 --> 04:32:03.920
being there and not doing anything, not saying anything, nor

1960
04:32:04.760 --> 04:32:07.120
needing to think about anything.

1961
04:32:08.959 --> 04:32:12.600
So it opens up a space, you know, a bit

1962
04:32:12.680 --> 04:32:23.440
of a space, a gap. And the more I came

1963
04:32:23.559 --> 04:32:28.120
down from ten to one, the bigger that gap becomes.

1964
04:32:31.120 --> 04:32:37.520
So there's that gap of calmness, of comfort, relaxation.

1965
04:32:43.479 --> 04:32:55.799
It's a nice feeling, and it moves those stresses or

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04:32:56.360 --> 04:33:10.159
discomforts physically or emotionally, moves them away. Allows you.

1967
04:33:12.919 --> 04:33:13.439
To just.

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04:33:16.400 --> 04:33:23.119
Slow down, someone to count again from ten down to one,

1969
04:33:23.560 --> 04:33:33.799
and notice that gap widening, the gap. And as it widens,

1970
04:33:33.880 --> 04:33:39.880
it's almost like the stress and attention falls into the

1971
04:33:40.000 --> 04:35:01.119
gap and gives you that distance, that space. Now ten nine, eight, seven, six, five, four,

1972
04:35:19.479 --> 04:36:10.919
three two one. Now, how does your body feel.

1973
04:36:12.880 --> 04:36:13.040
Now?

1974
04:36:25.759 --> 04:36:42.040
Can you notice that the feeling calmer, the feeling more relaxed.

1975
04:37:04.520 --> 04:37:08.880
As we now focus on your legs, just your legs.

1976
04:37:24.880 --> 04:37:45.000
We're just gonna start with focusing on your thighs. Of course,

1977
04:37:45.119 --> 04:37:50.000
it's not the most exciting thing to be doing because

1978
04:37:53.400 --> 04:37:56.279
I'm sure like most of your body is not not

1979
04:37:56.479 --> 04:38:08.799
going on right now. Just focusing on the whole of

1980
04:38:08.880 --> 04:38:15.360
your thighs, the tops of your thighs, the sides of

1981
04:38:15.439 --> 04:38:22.279
your fires the bottoms of your thighs, your outer thighs,

1982
04:38:22.400 --> 04:38:27.319
and your inner thighs. Basically the whole of your thigh

1983
04:38:27.439 --> 04:38:29.599
that leads into.

1984
04:38:29.479 --> 04:38:30.200
Your hip.

1985
04:38:34.000 --> 04:38:44.759
And it goes down to your knee joint. Now, this

1986
04:38:44.959 --> 04:38:52.400
is a big area, it's a very heavy area. It's

1987
04:38:52.560 --> 04:38:58.959
very strong, probably the strongest muscles in your body or

1988
04:38:59.080 --> 04:39:15.400
in your thighs. But I don't think we perhaps give

1989
04:39:15.560 --> 04:39:28.759
enough attention to our thighs. Perhaps we don't acknowledge how

1990
04:39:28.880 --> 04:39:50.759
important our thighs are to our lives, how much they

1991
04:39:50.840 --> 04:40:04.279
actually do for us all through our lives. And it

1992
04:40:04.520 --> 04:40:10.040
may seem to sound really weird, but I think that

1993
04:40:10.279 --> 04:40:18.159
all of our body parts, especially our thighs, need some TLC,

1994
04:40:21.479 --> 04:40:34.680
a bit of love shown, a bit of acknowledgement, thank you,

1995
04:40:37.799 --> 04:40:50.319
gratitude for our thighs do for us. And I know

1996
04:40:50.520 --> 04:40:56.599
this may sound a bit strange. Maybe you think, why

1997
04:40:56.639 --> 04:40:59.759
am I sure house should be out in the garden,

1998
04:41:00.040 --> 04:41:07.959
hug in a tree or something. Well, it's hard to

1999
04:41:08.000 --> 04:41:11.200
set a microphone up on a tree. That's why I'm

2000
04:41:11.240 --> 04:41:14.080
doing this indoors. Otherwise, I would be outside hugging a tree.

2001
04:41:15.520 --> 04:41:24.159
I can't see the television from the tree. If you

2002
04:41:24.279 --> 04:41:29.479
move down to your knees gain such an important part.

2003
04:41:33.759 --> 04:41:38.000
And I think we don't necessarily I want to speak

2004
04:41:38.080 --> 04:41:45.400
for myself here, I don't necessarily appreciate all that my

2005
04:41:45.520 --> 04:41:50.759
knees do for me until I have a problem with

2006
04:41:50.880 --> 04:41:56.000
my knee. It's occasionally, if I ever maybe i'll besh it,

2007
04:41:56.360 --> 04:42:02.119
or it's aching for some reason. It's then that I

2008
04:42:02.319 --> 04:42:07.799
realize how much it does. You know, the benefit of

2009
04:42:07.919 --> 04:42:15.360
being able to use my legs without any kind of

2010
04:42:15.520 --> 04:42:23.840
physical discomfort is a beautiful thing that's possibly not appreciated

2011
04:42:24.000 --> 04:42:35.040
until it's temporarily removed. You know that's comfort. But as

2012
04:42:35.080 --> 04:42:40.439
you focus on your knees, regardless of how your knees feel,

2013
04:42:43.520 --> 04:42:49.279
you can have that sense of gratitude and love to

2014
04:42:49.360 --> 04:43:02.000
your knees for all that they do for you. And

2015
04:43:02.119 --> 04:43:05.759
you can still have that attention on your thighs and

2016
04:43:05.880 --> 04:43:12.080
maybe notice how your thighs feel. Maybe you've noticed that

2017
04:43:12.439 --> 04:43:31.119
they are relaxing more deeply as you focus now on

2018
04:43:31.240 --> 04:43:35.759
the bottoms of your legs, your shins and your calf muscles,

2019
04:43:36.279 --> 04:43:44.520
the bones between your knees and your feet, incorporating, of course,

2020
04:43:44.639 --> 04:43:57.040
your ankles so important. Anyone has had even like the

2021
04:43:57.279 --> 04:44:04.439
slightest sprain of an ankle, knows how much we take

2022
04:44:05.759 --> 04:44:14.560
our ankles for granted. And it's kind of strange in

2023
04:44:14.639 --> 04:44:19.840
a way when you think that. You know, logically, our

2024
04:44:19.919 --> 04:44:23.360
wrists are a lot thinner than the rest of our arms,

2025
04:44:24.479 --> 04:44:28.080
which is okay, it doesn't can't see any problem with

2026
04:44:28.119 --> 04:44:33.560
that because we're just picking stuff up by our ankles

2027
04:44:35.360 --> 04:44:45.279
so much thinner than the rest of our legs. And

2028
04:44:45.439 --> 04:44:49.919
from a physics perspective or logical even it doesn't really

2029
04:44:50.040 --> 04:44:57.279
make sense that all this weight would ultimately be resting

2030
04:44:58.319 --> 04:45:08.279
on your ankles then leading to your feet, that thin area,

2031
04:45:09.759 --> 04:45:19.400
thin bone. Yeah, it does so much great work. Supports us,

2032
04:45:19.479 --> 04:45:29.439
supports our body for a lifetime, helps us to balance,

2033
04:45:31.799 --> 04:45:44.759
helps you to get around and be mobile. And there's

2034
04:45:44.799 --> 04:45:52.680
the calf muscles. Of course, when I was younger, I

2035
04:45:52.720 --> 04:45:58.479
couldn't see the pointing calf muscles didn't seem to do anything. Okay,

2036
04:45:59.599 --> 04:46:03.799
if around on tiptoes, then my calf muscles get some work.

2037
04:46:05.200 --> 04:46:07.759
But of course that's not true. The calf muscles are

2038
04:46:07.799 --> 04:46:17.720
being used whenever we use the legs and your shines

2039
04:46:21.000 --> 04:46:30.000
there to protect your lower legs, shaped in a way

2040
04:46:31.840 --> 04:46:43.919
almost as a protector for the bone, leading of course

2041
04:46:44.040 --> 04:46:54.159
to your ankles and your feet. But we're not going

2042
04:46:54.240 --> 04:46:56.360
to focus on your feet. We're just going to focus

2043
04:46:56.439 --> 04:47:02.639
on the legs. And I realize, and now that I've

2044
04:47:02.759 --> 04:47:07.439
mentioned your feet, you'll probably focus on them anyway, So

2045
04:47:07.560 --> 04:47:09.720
maybe I should focus on your feet.

2046
04:47:09.479 --> 04:47:09.959
A little bit.

2047
04:47:14.000 --> 04:47:18.400
You can have them in your awareness the same as

2048
04:47:18.479 --> 04:47:22.840
you have your thighs in your awareness. Even though we

2049
04:47:22.959 --> 04:47:28.720
haven't been focusing on your thighs a few minutes and

2050
04:47:28.959 --> 04:47:39.880
be focusing on your ankles, there's still that sensation of

2051
04:47:43.080 --> 04:47:55.840
comfort in your thighs in this that movement of energy

2052
04:47:57.880 --> 04:48:04.919
because the thighs hold lots of different sensations. Of course,

2053
04:48:05.000 --> 04:48:09.759
there's the muscles, the big straw muscles that we have

2054
04:48:09.959 --> 04:48:23.279
in our thighs, but the skin on the outside of

2055
04:48:23.400 --> 04:48:28.680
the thighs, as in the outside of all of our body,

2056
04:48:29.479 --> 04:48:41.080
can be very sensitive, sensitive to the touch, sensitive to temperature,

2057
04:48:47.639 --> 04:48:55.159
and inside your thighs the bones, there's the muscle, there's

2058
04:48:55.200 --> 04:48:59.919
the blood, vessels, the ar trees to all this stuff

2059
04:49:00.200 --> 04:49:08.799
that's inside your thighs. And I guess sometimes it'd be

2060
04:49:08.959 --> 04:49:13.080
nice if you could actually put your fingers inside your

2061
04:49:13.159 --> 04:49:19.360
thighs and a message, so you can message on the outside,

2062
04:49:19.639 --> 04:49:22.520
of course, but to be able to get deep into

2063
04:49:22.599 --> 04:49:27.400
the muscles and to be able to just message inside

2064
04:49:27.479 --> 04:49:34.479
your thighs, message in the bones of your leg message

2065
04:49:37.319 --> 04:49:47.959
or the veins. Just gently healing your thighs and you

2066
04:49:48.040 --> 04:49:55.159
can move down message and inside your knees, just message

2067
04:49:55.240 --> 04:50:02.159
in those bones, but with healing fingertips, spreading that healing

2068
04:50:02.439 --> 04:50:12.919
energy deep into the joints of your knees. Of course,

2069
04:50:13.040 --> 04:50:17.680
there's the back of your knee and the inside crease

2070
04:50:18.680 --> 04:50:25.639
where your knee is. It's a very sensitive area. Very

2071
04:50:26.319 --> 04:50:29.840
it feels very nice when you stroke it, and that

2072
04:50:30.040 --> 04:50:33.720
might be because it's an area that's not really touched

2073
04:50:33.919 --> 04:50:40.479
very often. It's almost like a hidden part, that crease

2074
04:50:42.599 --> 04:50:47.080
in your legs. It's almost it's like a part that

2075
04:50:48.880 --> 04:51:00.360
has a sensitivity which is a little bit different. It's

2076
04:51:00.439 --> 04:51:11.720
protected by your legs. So you can imagine putting your

2077
04:51:11.840 --> 04:51:22.520
fingers into that crease in your legs, folding between your legs,

2078
04:51:23.240 --> 04:51:27.840
you can just message with your fingertips. Imagine your fingertips

2079
04:51:27.959 --> 04:51:38.319
going inside, message in the muscle or tissue you can

2080
04:51:38.560 --> 04:51:45.639
cause fielder the bones of your knees heating through your fingertips,

2081
04:51:53.080 --> 04:51:58.360
and then as you go down to your calf muscles,

2082
04:51:58.759 --> 04:52:02.680
and that's a part to be able to really put

2083
04:52:02.759 --> 04:52:09.639
my fingertips deep inside my calf muscles, massage in every

2084
04:52:11.319 --> 04:52:24.080
single tissue of that muscle, healing every part. And then

2085
04:52:24.200 --> 04:52:31.919
doing the same for my shins, massage in generly stroking

2086
04:52:32.119 --> 04:52:38.479
the bones, generally stroking them, healing in a loving way

2087
04:52:39.759 --> 04:52:46.159
because they deserve to be treated. There's the precious bones

2088
04:52:46.240 --> 04:52:50.919
that they are. Because our legs are so precious as

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04:52:50.959 --> 04:52:55.639
in all the other parts of our body, the more

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04:52:55.720 --> 04:53:10.040
precious at any chore planet. And when you start to

2091
04:53:11.560 --> 04:53:22.560
think about your legs in this way, it can change

2092
04:53:22.720 --> 04:53:32.439
your perspective. It might sound a bit bit silly to

2093
04:53:32.599 --> 04:53:38.000
start with the idea of having love for your legs,

2094
04:53:39.439 --> 04:53:47.080
showing appreciation for your thighs, want them to be able

2095
04:53:47.119 --> 04:53:54.279
to put your hands in your thighs and massage the

2096
04:53:54.439 --> 04:54:00.360
muscles and the bones, and to get your fingers deep

2097
04:54:00.439 --> 04:54:10.159
in their releasing all tension, just to show how much

2098
04:54:10.279 --> 04:54:17.759
you care about your legs, how much you care for

2099
04:54:18.880 --> 04:54:19.400
what your.

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04:54:19.319 --> 04:54:20.560
Legs do for you.

2101
04:54:22.159 --> 04:54:34.279
Regularly, your knees, your calms, your ankles, the strength of

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04:54:34.400 --> 04:54:42.479
your ankles, considering how thin they are compared to the

2103
04:54:42.560 --> 04:54:50.240
rest of your legs, especially your thighs. Yet this so strong,

2104
04:54:51.799 --> 04:55:06.240
so flexible, absolutely amazing things. Your ankles are truly a

2105
04:55:06.400 --> 04:55:17.240
gift because of what they do for you, supporting all

2106
04:55:17.439 --> 04:55:24.319
that weight. Regardless of how what weight you are, even

2107
04:55:24.360 --> 04:55:28.880
if you only eat ate stone, there's still a lot

2108
04:55:28.919 --> 04:55:35.560
of weight for these little ankles. Now I'm a lot

2109
04:55:35.799 --> 04:55:45.759
heavier than eight stone double down, Yet my ankles support

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04:55:45.840 --> 04:55:53.000
my body all the time. Or though they do give

2111
04:55:53.080 --> 04:55:57.639
off a sigh of relief when I sit down, as

2112
04:55:58.479 --> 04:56:05.880
I've had my whole legstone. My feet feet also go,

2113
04:56:07.799 --> 04:56:35.520
my toes clap so happy. Your legs really are amazing.

2114
04:56:38.159 --> 04:56:41.799
And I know that talking about talking about your legs

2115
04:56:41.959 --> 04:56:48.560
is probably possibly among the most most boring things you've

2116
04:56:48.560 --> 04:56:57.560
ever heard anyone say. Possibly you're boring or not. Everything

2117
04:56:57.639 --> 04:57:13.119
I said is true. Your legs are amazing. Your legs

2118
04:57:13.279 --> 04:57:25.360
deserve not just respect, but they deserve to relax deeply.

2119
04:57:32.680 --> 04:57:36.000
They deserve to take some time out of the day

2120
04:57:38.200 --> 04:58:06.959
to just let go completely. Your legs really can relax.

2121
04:58:14.599 --> 04:58:18.680
And because the legs are so such a most you know,

2122
04:58:18.959 --> 04:58:24.880
very important part of your body. When you relax your legs,

2123
04:58:24.959 --> 04:58:32.200
the rest of your body also naturally follows in that

2124
04:58:35.959 --> 04:58:46.759
journey of comfort. I can feel it in my hips.

2125
04:58:48.159 --> 04:58:55.279
My hips feel really loose, and also my lower back

2126
04:58:55.360 --> 04:59:01.959
as well. My lower back really feel it feels stretched,

2127
04:59:03.080 --> 04:59:06.119
even though I'm just sitting in a chair and there's

2128
04:59:06.240 --> 04:59:11.479
no stretching as far as I'm aware that I'm doing.

2129
04:59:12.479 --> 04:59:15.159
It's almost as if the muscles are just relaxed so

2130
04:59:15.360 --> 04:59:21.279
much that there is a natural stretch as the tension

2131
04:59:22.200 --> 04:59:43.439
has reduced a lot. And I'm now going to count

2132
04:59:43.520 --> 04:59:51.400
down from ten down to one, and you can continue

2133
04:59:53.240 --> 05:00:19.520
to feel wonderfully relaxed. Ten nine eight, seven, six, five,

2134
05:00:24.159 --> 05:00:52.880
four three two one relax. So I'm just gonna countdown

2135
05:00:54.400 --> 05:00:59.080
for five down to one. And as a countdown, if

2136
05:00:59.119 --> 05:01:06.200
you just focus on the numbers, just the numbers counting down,

2137
05:01:07.279 --> 05:01:16.400
and notice how you feel in this moment as you

2138
05:01:16.560 --> 05:01:24.080
hear the numbers counting down, knowing that those numbers counting

2139
05:01:24.159 --> 05:01:34.319
down represent you feeling calmer, not just in your body,

2140
05:01:34.479 --> 05:01:42.840
but also relaxing your mind. Just notice how you feel.

2141
05:01:43.720 --> 05:01:49.639
There's nothing to do, there's nothing to say, there's nothing

2142
05:01:49.759 --> 05:02:42.360
to think about starting with number five four three two one. Now,

2143
05:02:42.439 --> 05:02:54.680
as you notice the gradual letting go of the tension

2144
05:02:54.919 --> 05:03:02.040
in your body, you may also begin to notice and

2145
05:03:02.200 --> 05:03:11.200
be aware of how your mind is starting to slow down.

2146
05:03:13.720 --> 05:03:20.040
This is just a natural thing that happens. It's not

2147
05:03:20.279 --> 05:03:25.439
really a special procedure. It's just natural because is your

2148
05:03:26.759 --> 05:03:32.759
body relaxes, your mind also starts to relax. And the

2149
05:03:32.840 --> 05:03:36.479
more your mind relaxes, the more your body relaxes. It's

2150
05:03:36.639 --> 05:03:48.720
just a continuous circle of relaxation. And is that calmness

2151
05:03:48.919 --> 05:03:56.119
that comes from relative quietness. You know, even even if

2152
05:03:56.119 --> 05:04:02.959
there's background sounds either your side and online, is still

2153
05:04:03.479 --> 05:04:08.720
going to be quite calm. You know, you haven't got

2154
05:04:08.799 --> 05:04:13.959
the television on, there's no music in the background, unless

2155
05:04:13.959 --> 05:04:21.400
you're listening to the recorded with music. Of course, you're

2156
05:04:21.560 --> 05:04:23.680
very likely not going to be sitting in a room

2157
05:04:23.720 --> 05:04:28.279
with other people. Of course you might be, but generally

2158
05:04:28.439 --> 05:04:31.599
it's more ideal if you can do this on your own,

2159
05:04:33.319 --> 05:04:43.360
so no distractions, and when you stop thinking about stuff,

2160
05:04:49.959 --> 05:05:04.799
relaxation automatically rises. A sense of comfort starts to and

2161
05:05:06.639 --> 05:05:11.880
without trying to build it up into something fantastical or

2162
05:05:15.240 --> 05:05:23.959
something magical. This is just a natural process, something that's

2163
05:05:25.159 --> 05:05:34.080
easy to accomplish. In fact, it's almost you know, the

2164
05:05:34.400 --> 05:05:41.080
sense of relaxing completely happens really when you put no

2165
05:05:41.279 --> 05:05:45.840
effort into it. It's not something that you can really force.

2166
05:05:48.439 --> 05:05:57.840
It's something that happens naturally. And part of the process

2167
05:05:58.240 --> 05:06:11.880
of recording and others is simply to allow you to

2168
05:06:12.040 --> 05:06:27.159
take advantage of this space this time, to just let go,

2169
05:06:30.319 --> 05:06:38.520
to just be here, to be in tune with how

2170
05:06:38.639 --> 05:06:52.000
you feel, yet with the intention of wanting to relax

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05:06:52.119 --> 05:07:03.479
deeply and maybe even to fall asleep, depending on what

2172
05:07:03.680 --> 05:07:09.799
it is that you wish for yourself in this moment.

2173
05:07:16.799 --> 05:07:26.159
As we know, relaxing is the majority of the process

2174
05:07:26.279 --> 05:07:31.439
of falling asleep. The actual falling asleep part is the

2175
05:07:31.599 --> 05:07:39.360
tiny bit at the end. The deeper relaxed you become,

2176
05:07:43.319 --> 05:08:01.000
the easier you find yourself drifting. But you can also

2177
05:08:01.159 --> 05:08:11.240
if you choose stay focused on my voice and really

2178
05:08:11.720 --> 05:08:41.400
enjoy the process gradually relaxing each muscle in your body

2179
05:08:46.479 --> 05:09:15.639
effortlessly and just observing the sensation of letting go completely.

2180
05:09:21.680 --> 05:09:25.680
This time, I'm going to count from six down to one,

2181
05:09:30.560 --> 05:09:39.720
and you can notice your mind calming down more with

2182
05:09:40.119 --> 05:09:53.840
each number. That you hear me say naturally feeling calm

2183
05:09:54.279 --> 05:11:25.799
and slow, peaceful six five four three.

2184
05:12:03.479 --> 05:12:32.279
Two on.

2185
05:12:53.599 --> 05:13:06.919
Being aware how you mind this load right down, sinking

2186
05:13:09.520 --> 05:13:29.840
deeply into relaxation. And as you focus on your mind,

2187
05:13:30.119 --> 05:13:40.080
you may notice that there are some thoughts still there,

2188
05:13:42.680 --> 05:13:52.200
maybe some stubborn thoughts that for some reason perhaps need

2189
05:13:52.279 --> 05:14:07.759
your attention. What you can do is send love to

2190
05:14:07.919 --> 05:14:21.959
those thoughts. Sprinkle those thoughts with love, my little petals

2191
05:14:22.040 --> 05:14:27.439
from a flower, Just sprinkle it over them, petals, feel

2192
05:14:27.479 --> 05:14:34.680
good love towards those thoughts, to let those thoughts know

2193
05:14:34.959 --> 05:14:41.439
that you're not abandoned in them. You just need them.

2194
05:14:42.680 --> 05:14:54.599
You require them to just calm down, slow down, quiet down.

2195
05:14:58.279 --> 05:14:58.680
For now.

2196
05:15:06.560 --> 05:15:11.560
So as you focus on those remaining thoughts, as we

2197
05:15:11.759 --> 05:15:17.000
count down this time from seven down to one. With

2198
05:15:17.119 --> 05:15:31.040
each number, just imagine sprinkling those flower petals love, love, kindness,

2199
05:15:32.639 --> 05:15:44.479
gratitude over those thoughts, which will allow them to just

2200
05:15:45.919 --> 05:16:00.919
melt away and relax deeply. With every number, those thoughts

2201
05:16:01.040 --> 05:16:18.520
would become more and more relaxed. Starting with number seven

2202
05:16:37.720 --> 05:18:50.119
six five four three one. Don't let you now notice

2203
05:18:50.360 --> 05:19:11.000
how relaxed your feeling in your body. We got to

2204
05:19:11.479 --> 05:19:25.479
focus on your hands because the more relaxed your hands are,

2205
05:19:27.840 --> 05:19:48.799
the more relaxed your body and mind are. Purpose you

2206
05:19:49.040 --> 05:19:59.799
focus on your hands and your fingers, there's nothing needed

2207
05:20:00.119 --> 05:20:05.880
to be done. There's no clenching the fists or tensing

2208
05:20:06.040 --> 05:20:17.560
the fingers or anything like that. It's just noticing and

2209
05:20:17.919 --> 05:20:45.279
focusing on your hands, noticing how they feel. Because the

2210
05:20:45.599 --> 05:20:56.520
more relaxed do your hands feel, the calmer your mind feels,

2211
05:20:58.439 --> 05:21:07.319
and the more comfort you feel throughout your body.

2212
05:21:16.040 --> 05:21:18.720
May have.

2213
05:21:22.759 --> 05:22:05.840
Already noticed you mind is starting to drift wixin just

2214
05:22:06.080 --> 05:22:15.159
on your hands and fingers, allowing.

2215
05:22:15.200 --> 05:22:17.080
Them cheat.

2216
05:22:19.040 --> 05:22:30.439
Experience a real deepening of that relaxation in your hands

2217
05:22:30.560 --> 05:22:48.840
and fingers, more and more relaxed. With each number.

2218
05:22:56.439 --> 05:22:57.360
From eight.

2219
05:22:59.520 --> 05:23:12.720
Don't one, you can almost feel that healing and relaxing

2220
05:23:13.200 --> 05:23:24.119
energy spreading into your hands and fingers, becoming.

2221
05:23:27.880 --> 05:23:29.639
E and more.

2222
05:23:31.520 --> 05:23:48.319
Relaxing with each number you hear, going down eight, down

2223
05:23:49.080 --> 05:26:45.000
to one, drifting drifting again. Starting wis eight, seven, three,

2224
05:28:04.799 --> 05:28:14.119
just being here now, nothing to think about, nothing to do,

2225
05:28:15.720 --> 05:28:29.639
nothing to say, and everything just feels calmer. And this

2226
05:28:29.959 --> 05:28:37.520
is your natural state of being. This is how you

2227
05:28:37.840 --> 05:28:45.919
just normally feel when you take away all that other stuff.

2228
05:28:47.959 --> 05:28:48.799
That we add.

2229
05:28:50.439 --> 05:29:01.919
Nothing like stress and worrying and overthinking, okay, anxiety, tension,

2230
05:29:06.200 --> 05:29:13.159
just generally thinking about stuff. We take that away, which

2231
05:29:13.240 --> 05:29:22.439
is what we do. What we do now you're left

2232
05:29:22.560 --> 05:29:33.479
with a real sense of peacefulness which comes to you

2233
05:29:33.720 --> 05:29:47.680
very quickly because ultimately it's just a feeling, a feeling

2234
05:29:48.720 --> 05:29:55.880
of comfort. It's almost as if you'd gone inside yourself

2235
05:29:55.959 --> 05:30:07.599
and you've found a special place where everything is peaceful,

2236
05:30:10.560 --> 05:30:15.880
a place where you can feel relaxed and your natural

2237
05:30:18.080 --> 05:30:23.119
sense and comfort, a place.

2238
05:30:22.880 --> 05:30:24.720
Where you can be here.

2239
05:30:29.119 --> 05:30:36.119
Where you can accept yourself and who you are, the

2240
05:30:36.240 --> 05:30:42.639
place where you're not trying to please anybody else, in

2241
05:30:46.759 --> 05:30:55.319
a place where you can actually not just love yourself,

2242
05:30:55.439 --> 05:31:00.880
but in some ways more importantly, you can lie give yourself,

2243
05:31:03.400 --> 05:31:20.680
appreciate who you are, a sense of gratitude. It's in

2244
05:31:20.799 --> 05:31:31.759
the air way around you. That's also a place where

2245
05:31:31.959 --> 05:31:42.319
you can actually feel the healing energy soaking into your body.

2246
05:31:49.000 --> 05:32:01.319
Healing energy soaking into your body. The healing energy spreads

2247
05:32:02.319 --> 05:32:11.720
through your veins, traveling to each and every single part

2248
05:32:13.439 --> 05:32:22.560
of your body, and you start to realize that actually

2249
05:32:23.400 --> 05:32:29.479
that healing energy it's not just entered into your brain,

2250
05:32:32.279 --> 05:32:41.799
it's become part of your brain, and that spinal fluid

2251
05:32:44.479 --> 05:32:55.200
is now mixed with healing energy, not just allowing you

2252
05:32:55.479 --> 05:33:03.520
to feel so much more relaxed and healthy in this moment,

2253
05:33:08.000 --> 05:33:17.439
but also you start to realize that actually, what's happening

2254
05:33:17.680 --> 05:33:28.279
now without healing, relaxing energy spreading through your body is

2255
05:33:28.520 --> 05:33:39.240
actually changing your life. It's actually changing the way you're

2256
05:33:39.360 --> 05:33:45.799
going to feel not just now, but tomorrow and the

2257
05:33:45.919 --> 05:33:55.680
next day. As your health improves, not just your physical health,

2258
05:33:55.799 --> 05:34:03.159
but your mental health. Things that used to bother you

2259
05:34:03.360 --> 05:34:10.479
in the past, for some reason, no longer have the

2260
05:34:10.639 --> 05:34:19.560
effect that they used to because something has changed deep

2261
05:34:20.040 --> 05:34:30.639
within you. Maybe things that used to cause you to

2262
05:34:30.799 --> 05:34:43.119
feel anger no longer have that power to control you

2263
05:34:45.639 --> 05:34:51.919
the way they seem to be able to before. As

2264
05:34:52.000 --> 05:35:02.520
you realize that you are the one who decides what

2265
05:35:02.840 --> 05:35:14.560
affects you, you're the one who decides to feel relaxed

2266
05:35:15.439 --> 05:35:28.200
and calm when you choose to enjoy noticing these natural

2267
05:35:29.240 --> 05:35:42.599
developments of healing continue to grow and improve your life

2268
05:35:44.000 --> 05:35:55.840
day by day, including of course, your ability to relax

2269
05:35:56.479 --> 05:36:10.919
so much easier and sleep in. It's the most natural

2270
05:36:11.159 --> 05:36:21.680
thing in the world to you, because falling asleep is

2271
05:36:21.840 --> 05:36:30.000
something that you've done so many times in your life,

2272
05:36:33.240 --> 05:36:37.240
and you know that you were born, as we all were,

2273
05:36:38.080 --> 05:36:48.000
with the ability to fall asleep naturally. We were born

2274
05:36:49.360 --> 05:36:59.759
with that ability to just drift off into a deep,

2275
05:37:01.080 --> 05:37:12.880
healing sleep. Even when we're kids, sometimes will fall asleep

2276
05:37:12.919 --> 05:37:16.880
and we don't even want to try to think of

2277
05:37:17.080 --> 05:37:21.439
stay awake. Maybe it's a birthday in the morning, or

2278
05:37:21.479 --> 05:37:25.720
it's Christmas or holiday or something we look forward to.

2279
05:37:26.279 --> 05:37:30.319
We don't want to go to sleep. But the more

2280
05:37:30.919 --> 05:37:35.799
we want to stay awake, the more we just start

2281
05:37:35.919 --> 05:37:44.639
to drift. And the more you fight drifting, we try

2282
05:37:44.720 --> 05:37:50.560
to stop yourself and drifting asleep, the deeper and stronger

2283
05:37:50.680 --> 05:38:01.880
that drifting becomes. Because we're born not just with the

2284
05:38:02.159 --> 05:38:11.560
need to relax deeply and to naturally fall asleep, but

2285
05:38:11.639 --> 05:38:25.959
it's our birthright, it's part of our DNA. And sometimes

2286
05:38:26.119 --> 05:38:31.479
as we get older in life, perhaps at times we

2287
05:38:31.840 --> 05:38:45.439
have forgotten that relaxing completely is not only a wonderfully

2288
05:38:45.840 --> 05:39:09.840
pleasant experience, it's also really easy. It's very very easy

2289
05:39:11.240 --> 05:39:15.240
to let go, because that's all it is. It is

2290
05:39:15.520 --> 05:39:30.159
just deciding to let go. And when you press the

2291
05:39:30.279 --> 05:39:40.680
play button on my recordings, you have given permission for

2292
05:39:40.840 --> 05:39:49.240
my voice to relax you. When you press that play button,

2293
05:39:50.240 --> 05:39:58.680
you have given me permission for my words to effect.

2294
05:40:01.159 --> 05:40:13.000
You're in a positive, only a positive way, opening up

2295
05:40:18.200 --> 05:40:36.479
your mind to useful and healing suggestions that can have

2296
05:40:41.000 --> 05:40:48.439
such an amazing effect on how you feel right now,

2297
05:40:53.200 --> 05:41:03.040
as well as those changes that continue long after the

2298
05:41:03.159 --> 05:41:13.799
recording ends. Those changes within you to continue to flourish

2299
05:41:14.680 --> 05:41:29.240
and grow, transforming your life in a positive, beautiful way,

2300
05:41:32.360 --> 05:41:39.400
allowing you to move forward in your life in the

2301
05:41:39.520 --> 05:41:57.479
direction that you choose for yourself. This feeling, this feeling

2302
05:41:57.799 --> 05:42:12.639
that you can experience out of safety, comfort, calmness, just

2303
05:42:12.959 --> 05:42:26.560
feels so nice. It's such a healthy place to be,

2304
05:42:34.479 --> 05:42:39.880
and that positivity grows within you.

2305
05:42:45.639 --> 05:42:48.240
Each and every day.

2306
05:42:51.319 --> 05:43:01.080
Moving forward, you're going to find that you're more relaxed

2307
05:43:03.439 --> 05:43:15.799
physically and in your mind it's more relaxed. And it's

2308
05:43:15.880 --> 05:43:21.400
not that you're thinking slower. It's just that your mind

2309
05:43:21.479 --> 05:43:33.360
will be less clogged up with unnecessary negativity because from

2310
05:43:33.479 --> 05:43:43.759
now on, your mind rejects negativity. From now on, you're

2311
05:43:43.799 --> 05:43:54.639
going to start noticing when negativity arises and you can

2312
05:43:54.799 --> 05:44:08.759
just say stop, stop, and then negativity will turn around

2313
05:44:09.360 --> 05:44:28.759
and leave you alone. Stop and then negativity would disappear.

2314
05:44:36.880 --> 05:44:43.360
And did you notice that you feel way more relaxed

2315
05:44:44.799 --> 05:45:00.000
than you probably expected. You can now congratulate yourself because

2316
05:45:00.080 --> 05:45:06.599
issue are the person that has done this. You are

2317
05:45:06.720 --> 05:45:11.400
the one that has opened your mind up to the

2318
05:45:11.560 --> 05:45:20.040
simple facts. You can feel more relaxed in your body

2319
05:45:20.759 --> 05:45:30.040
and in your mind. You've opened your mind up to

2320
05:45:32.400 --> 05:45:38.959
the birthright of being able to just fall asleep easily

2321
05:45:40.000 --> 05:45:54.319
when you choose. And that's a nice feeling, don't you think?

2322
05:45:56.919 --> 05:46:05.520
It feels nice, doesn't it? And the feel calm for

2323
05:46:05.759 --> 05:46:10.759
that healing energy is spreading through your body and your mind.

2324
05:46:17.400 --> 05:46:29.279
Spend time a special place where negativity can no longer enter.

2325
05:46:35.759 --> 05:46:44.959
Negativity is banned. It's bad, it's not allowed. Intrigue doesn't

2326
05:46:45.240 --> 05:46:49.680
it doesn't. This doesn't deserve to be here, doesn't belong here.

2327
05:46:53.439 --> 05:47:08.279
Negativity has no place in your life. Which makes room

2328
05:47:08.479 --> 05:47:39.400
feel more comfort, more healing, more relaxation, more peace. It

2329
05:47:39.560 --> 05:48:05.040
feels nice, doesn't it. Just Let go with everything. I'm

2330
05:48:05.080 --> 05:48:12.720
gonna count down now from twenty down to one. You

2331
05:48:12.840 --> 05:48:22.759
can continue to relax if you choose. You can drift

2332
05:48:23.959 --> 05:48:37.479
to sleep with every number hear me say, you can

2333
05:48:37.720 --> 05:48:44.959
fill twice as relaxed, or if you choose, you can

2334
05:48:45.119 --> 05:49:52.479
feel twice sleeping now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seveneen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen,

2335
05:50:01.639 --> 05:51:29.840
thirty two, eleven, ten, nine, eight seven five. Oh h,

2336
05:51:49.400 --> 05:51:59.159
this is your time to just take a break, your

2337
05:51:59.319 --> 05:52:10.040
time to relax, to allow your mind to slow down,

2338
05:52:18.720 --> 05:52:32.799
to give yourself permission to take a break from everything.

2339
05:52:37.639 --> 05:52:45.040
Ensure the only person that can make that decision. You're

2340
05:52:45.080 --> 05:52:52.439
the only person that can actually tell your mind to

2341
05:52:52.799 --> 05:53:17.040
just relax. Suggest take some time off so that you

2342
05:53:17.200 --> 05:53:23.360
can focus on your body, get in touch with how

2343
05:53:23.560 --> 05:53:40.159
you feel physically, and in the process of this body

2344
05:53:40.319 --> 05:53:44.759
scared where you focus on different parts of your body,

2345
05:53:51.200 --> 05:53:58.599
those parts that you focus on and observe. Even though

2346
05:53:58.759 --> 05:54:06.919
you're not purposely requesting for those parts of your body

2347
05:54:07.159 --> 05:54:15.599
to relax, it's kind of expected. You expect when you

2348
05:54:15.799 --> 05:54:28.880
listen to my wise to feel more relaxed naturally, because

2349
05:54:28.959 --> 05:54:38.720
when you're listening to me, your attention is focused on

2350
05:54:38.959 --> 05:54:50.479
my words, and as my words guide you to focus

2351
05:54:54.880 --> 05:55:09.759
on those parts of your body, your focus increases, which

2352
05:55:09.919 --> 05:55:25.880
actually calms your mind. And when your mind calms down,

2353
05:55:30.759 --> 05:55:52.840
your body relaxes. And when your body calms down, your

2354
05:55:52.959 --> 05:56:09.840
mind relaxes, and even though we've not really started to

2355
05:56:10.000 --> 05:56:22.680
focus on your body, you can already feel that healing

2356
05:56:22.919 --> 05:56:37.360
energy spreading through your body, pushing out stress and tension,

2357
05:56:41.560 --> 05:56:48.799
healing all the parts of your body, including your skin,

2358
05:56:50.000 --> 05:56:56.880
your bones, your blood, all of your walkings inside your body,

2359
05:56:58.319 --> 05:57:05.080
all of the muscles, all of the facts, all of everything.

2360
05:57:06.919 --> 05:57:13.119
Every hair on your body is filled without healing energy.

2361
05:57:21.119 --> 05:57:36.880
And when your brain it fills without healing energy, the

2362
05:57:37.119 --> 05:58:01.840
feeling and comfort relaxation increases deeply increases in a way,

2363
05:58:05.680 --> 05:58:22.159
your mind starts to feel perhaps a bit drowsing because

2364
05:58:22.200 --> 05:58:41.279
it's not needed, and it may start to drift if

2365
05:58:41.400 --> 05:58:43.040
that's what's needed.

2366
05:58:46.200 --> 05:58:50.759
So if you're listening to this and what you need

2367
05:58:51.080 --> 05:58:51.799
is deep.

2368
05:58:51.680 --> 05:58:54.119
Relaxation, that's what you get.

2369
05:58:56.319 --> 05:59:01.119
If what you need is to fall asleep.

2370
05:59:02.360 --> 05:59:11.319
Naturally and easily, that your mind drifts, that's also what

2371
05:59:11.400 --> 05:59:24.400
will happen. Because by pressing a play button on the

2372
05:59:24.479 --> 05:59:31.759
podcast and listening to me give permission of your body

2373
05:59:31.959 --> 05:59:43.919
and your mind. In fact, you give the command to

2374
05:59:44.000 --> 05:59:54.959
your body and your mind to relax deeply and to

2375
05:59:55.159 --> 06:00:00.680
drift off to sleep. If that's what you you want.

2376
06:00:04.040 --> 06:00:04.799
One need.

2377
06:00:12.279 --> 06:00:17.919
O as I focus on the different parts of your body.

2378
06:00:22.880 --> 06:00:23.520
You may.

2379
06:00:24.840 --> 06:00:32.400
Start to just drift, and then you come back again

2380
06:00:33.439 --> 06:00:38.200
and you hear me talking. I'm focusing on a different

2381
06:00:38.319 --> 06:00:39.439
part of your body.

2382
06:00:45.200 --> 06:00:45.840
You may.

2383
06:00:47.759 --> 06:00:56.680
Find yourself drifting, be able to realize you're drifting until

2384
06:00:56.720 --> 06:01:03.240
you stop drifting to a laugh again to my voice,

2385
06:01:04.680 --> 06:01:10.560
focusing on a different part of your body, starts to

2386
06:01:10.720 --> 06:01:21.560
relax in deeper because I drifting. It's basically you already

2387
06:01:23.880 --> 06:01:33.720
in the sleep zone. And the more you drift, the

2388
06:01:33.919 --> 06:01:44.319
longer you drift, the longer you drift. Eventual out drifting

2389
06:01:44.520 --> 06:01:56.400
continues into sleep, and that's the last you remember until

2390
06:01:56.439 --> 06:02:05.439
you wake up in your own time. When you experience

2391
06:02:05.720 --> 06:02:13.360
the right amount of sleep. Fear because when you do,

2392
06:02:15.240 --> 06:02:17.840
and if you don't fall asleep.

2393
06:02:17.520 --> 06:02:17.840
It's.

2394
06:02:20.400 --> 06:02:45.560
Extremely pleasant. So relaxing, so deep he sleep, I feel

2395
06:02:45.799 --> 06:02:53.560
so nice to relax into your own body and mind.

2396
06:02:58.520 --> 06:03:14.159
You feel that heating images spreading through you. Relaxing, use deeply, relaxing,

2397
06:03:14.439 --> 06:03:32.080
use sight deep bank. We start to focus on your eyes,

2398
06:03:40.040 --> 06:03:44.840
moving down, till jaw.

2399
06:03:52.479 --> 06:03:52.720
Down.

2400
06:03:53.400 --> 06:05:06.240
T'll make you show us things chest stuff spye, oops,

2401
06:05:14.040 --> 06:06:01.080
your legs, you faint, ut ses things spreading cry inside

2402
06:06:01.439 --> 06:06:14.959
your body. Feeling you up now let's focus again on

2403
06:06:15.159 --> 06:06:23.000
parts of your body, focusing this time on your forehead.

2404
06:06:29.479 --> 06:06:38.720
Now on your mouth, your lips, your tongue, a whole

2405
06:06:38.799 --> 06:06:54.479
of your mouth. Focusing on your fingers.

2406
06:07:00.159 --> 06:07:01.119
Be could.

2407
06:07:02.520 --> 06:07:06.240
Move your fingers a little bit as you can focus

2408
06:07:06.360 --> 06:07:20.720
on each one individually, both hands and even though you

2409
06:07:20.799 --> 06:07:26.200
should focus on both of your hands now and almost

2410
06:07:26.319 --> 06:07:34.159
seemed to just melt into one. Where there is your

2411
06:07:34.279 --> 06:07:44.959
right hand starting left hand, and words as if just

2412
06:07:45.240 --> 06:08:01.799
mixed together. Now focusing on your knees. Just say hell,

2413
06:08:01.880 --> 06:08:25.000
your needs help now like I said, your elbers, like

2414
06:08:25.279 --> 06:08:41.119
I said, both your holwers. Just observing feeling of your helpers.

2415
06:09:06.279 --> 06:10:03.080
You say abside to accupuac energy, the baccac absidy echos

2416
06:10:16.680 --> 06:11:22.319
physical sensation of him to angles. Not to say.

2417
06:11:24.479 --> 06:11:28.840
Now your ties.

2418
06:11:31.880 --> 06:11:53.479
But if your faint now your ties fail right now,

2419
06:12:24.520 --> 06:12:58.200
not too sn hw esire body fails notice sent your

2420
06:12:58.520 --> 06:13:50.360
mind feels now letting go, letting go, letting go everything,

2421
06:13:58.639 --> 06:14:40.319
letting go, letting go, letting go everything everything. We're going

2422
06:14:40.360 --> 06:14:44.319
to start now. And I'd like you just first of all,

2423
06:14:44.479 --> 06:14:50.680
just to see yourself lying down on that message table,

2424
06:14:52.479 --> 06:14:56.840
lying on your front. Your head is supported, your arms

2425
06:14:57.159 --> 06:15:06.319
are supported, and you feel comfortable and breathing is really easy,

2426
06:15:08.560 --> 06:15:15.159
and you feel you feel confident in how you look

2427
06:15:15.240 --> 06:15:18.840
as well. So there's none of that issue of body

2428
06:15:18.919 --> 06:15:27.680
problems or shyness because I'm a professional and this is

2429
06:15:28.319 --> 06:15:33.479
a therapy session, so none of that stuff matters whatsoever.

2430
06:15:37.360 --> 06:15:43.840
This is about you. This is about how you feel

2431
06:15:44.479 --> 06:15:51.279
and how you can enjoy that sense of comfort and

2432
06:15:51.400 --> 06:15:58.680
relaxation that comes from letting go and allowing my hands

2433
06:16:00.040 --> 06:16:12.240
angers to relax you by messaging your body. So I

2434
06:16:12.360 --> 06:16:17.319
want to start off just by placing my hands on

2435
06:16:17.439 --> 06:16:21.759
the back of your head, just gently, just so you

2436
06:16:21.880 --> 06:16:30.840
can feel my hands feel like really on you. So

2437
06:16:31.000 --> 06:16:33.279
you can maybe feel the warmth of my hands on

2438
06:16:33.360 --> 06:16:38.759
the back of your head. With my hands to the

2439
06:16:38.919 --> 06:16:43.080
side of your head, not pressing, but just holding there

2440
06:16:43.240 --> 06:16:49.080
very gently, maybe over your ears, and a little bit

2441
06:16:49.159 --> 06:16:53.720
on your face, just so you can feel my hands

2442
06:16:55.799 --> 06:17:08.400
so you can become accustomed to them. And now I

2443
06:17:08.680 --> 06:17:10.799
put my hands on the back of your head again

2444
06:17:11.279 --> 06:17:18.040
and gently let them slide down onto the back of

2445
06:17:18.119 --> 06:17:35.639
your neck. You can feel my hands gently stroking the

2446
06:17:35.720 --> 06:17:42.240
back of your neck to start with, just so you

2447
06:17:42.319 --> 06:17:46.680
can get used to the feeling of my hands on

2448
06:17:46.840 --> 06:17:55.759
your skin, get accustomed to realize that you're safe and

2449
06:17:55.759 --> 06:18:04.560
it's all good, it's all fine, and I want to

2450
06:18:04.639 --> 06:18:08.880
start gently massaging the muscles in the back of your

2451
06:18:08.959 --> 06:18:25.240
neck with both hands. And this is a very trusting

2452
06:18:27.479 --> 06:18:33.000
situation really, because our necks are so fragile and to

2453
06:18:33.119 --> 06:18:37.240
have someone have their hands around your neck in that

2454
06:18:37.400 --> 06:18:42.680
way can sometimes be problematic for people, which is why

2455
06:18:42.840 --> 06:18:47.479
massages are quite good, because it allows you to relax

2456
06:18:48.880 --> 06:19:01.959
and to get in touch with trust, to feel peaceful

2457
06:19:02.560 --> 06:19:14.159
and calm. There's a massage the sides of your neck,

2458
06:19:14.919 --> 06:19:23.720
gently moving from the bottom of your neck. It would

2459
06:19:23.720 --> 06:19:26.240
be sort of near where your shoulders start. I guess,

2460
06:19:27.159 --> 06:19:33.599
all the way up to your jaw, your ears kind

2461
06:19:33.639 --> 06:19:39.360
of area the side of your neck. Of course, it's

2462
06:19:39.400 --> 06:19:54.759
a lot longer than the front of your neck. And

2463
06:19:55.000 --> 06:20:02.840
massaging the back of your neck, especially that area where

2464
06:20:03.759 --> 06:20:11.880
perhaps we hold tension and there's that area's message. You

2465
06:20:12.000 --> 06:20:16.200
can actually feel a sense of release in the back

2466
06:20:16.240 --> 06:20:24.159
of your neck and maybe you can breathe it out

2467
06:20:24.240 --> 06:20:29.919
as well. Notice how it feels. Notice how you feel.

2468
06:20:39.799 --> 06:20:43.439
They're moving down to that area between your neck and

2469
06:20:43.520 --> 06:20:53.639
your shoulders, that muscle area starting to message that area

2470
06:20:53.720 --> 06:20:58.040
on both sides. I mean, this would be the area

2471
06:20:58.159 --> 06:21:00.720
that a lot of people would message if they were

2472
06:21:00.759 --> 06:21:05.720
going to give you like a shoulder message. Even that's

2473
06:21:06.119 --> 06:21:09.520
not technically the shoulders, but it's all the muscles that

2474
06:21:09.720 --> 06:21:15.880
lead to the shoulders from the neck and a game

2475
06:21:16.040 --> 06:21:23.040
that can hold tension and stress. And when massaged sometimes

2476
06:21:23.119 --> 06:21:30.119
a nice deep message is useful, and you decide how

2477
06:21:30.319 --> 06:21:48.279
deep that message is, and just allow my knuckles just

2478
06:21:48.400 --> 06:21:52.479
to dig in to get to those muscles and to

2479
06:21:52.759 --> 06:22:03.439
ready relaxed and all the time being firm yet gentle

2480
06:22:04.880 --> 06:22:22.639
with you and just stroking down the area to your

2481
06:22:22.720 --> 06:22:34.479
actual shoulders, moving to the muscles of your shoulders, and

2482
06:22:34.680 --> 06:22:39.400
maybe initially just pulling up the shoulders a little bit

2483
06:22:39.560 --> 06:22:42.840
off the table, just to give you a little bit

2484
06:22:42.880 --> 06:22:53.840
of a stretch, very gently, and you've got the muscles

2485
06:22:53.880 --> 06:23:06.119
at the front of your shoulders the sides of the back. Again,

2486
06:23:06.360 --> 06:23:10.200
this is a part that can really take quite a

2487
06:23:10.279 --> 06:23:18.479
bit of pressure, quite a bit of needing. If if

2488
06:23:18.560 --> 06:23:26.520
you wish to really release the tension to really get

2489
06:23:26.639 --> 06:23:33.200
into those muscles and you can let your fingers in there.

2490
06:23:34.279 --> 06:23:39.840
They can feel really nice. Sometimes it's just being stroked

2491
06:23:39.959 --> 06:23:49.759
gently or being messaged quite strongly. It can all be

2492
06:23:49.840 --> 06:24:00.159
beneficial to reorisation of the muscles in your shoulder. Yes,

2493
06:24:10.040 --> 06:24:19.840
now you move down your arms. We do one arm

2494
06:24:19.919 --> 06:24:29.759
at a time, starting with your right arm. What I

2495
06:24:29.959 --> 06:24:34.520
do is I just lift your arm up, just hold

2496
06:24:34.599 --> 06:24:39.560
it to the side of you. I'm where it still

2497
06:24:39.599 --> 06:24:46.000
be attached, and I just message the tops of your

2498
06:24:46.159 --> 06:25:02.279
arms all the way down to your forearms into your

2499
06:25:02.360 --> 06:25:26.080
wrists gently message in that part, the softer part, which

2500
06:25:26.200 --> 06:25:32.680
is the underpart of the arm, which leads to the

2501
06:25:32.840 --> 06:25:38.040
crease in your elbow, the inside it so much more

2502
06:25:38.200 --> 06:25:55.639
sensitive skin. Sometimes just having that stroked feel really nice,

2503
06:25:58.360 --> 06:26:12.279
pleasurable and relaxed. Now moving down to your right hand,

2504
06:26:18.319 --> 06:26:19.599
just holding.

2505
06:26:19.240 --> 06:26:20.119
Your hand.

2506
06:26:23.200 --> 06:26:32.919
In both of my hands, just pressing gently on the

2507
06:26:33.000 --> 06:26:44.279
back of your hand, stretching your fingers ever slightly at

2508
06:26:44.319 --> 06:26:59.119
the same time pressing down and messaging each finger, and

2509
06:26:59.240 --> 06:27:09.840
then start into massage the palms and the hand. Just

2510
06:27:10.119 --> 06:27:21.240
turning the hand gently, stretching it gently, and actually having

2511
06:27:21.319 --> 06:27:29.720
your handheld can really be an emotional experience sometimes, even

2512
06:27:29.799 --> 06:27:35.040
if it is a stranger, someone you don't know very well,

2513
06:27:36.040 --> 06:27:43.159
like a massage person or a therapist. Maybe because it's intimate.

2514
06:27:50.880 --> 06:28:03.680
You can feel nice, you can feel safe. And as

2515
06:28:03.759 --> 06:28:06.680
I put that right arm back down where it was,

2516
06:28:12.439 --> 06:28:18.639
and I did the same with your left arm, exactly

2517
06:28:18.759 --> 06:28:28.439
the same, massaging the muscles in your arm all the

2518
06:28:28.479 --> 06:28:36.959
way down to arrest, stroking the inside of your arm,

2519
06:28:42.520 --> 06:28:56.000
just being gentle or as firm as you require, and

2520
06:28:56.080 --> 06:29:12.479
then massaging your left hand, stretching the fingers, gently massaging

2521
06:29:12.799 --> 06:29:32.479
the palm of your left hands. You feel so so relaxing,

2522
06:29:40.159 --> 06:29:57.919
so comforting. I just wrest your left arm back down.

2523
06:30:05.240 --> 06:30:11.560
The start to massage your back, the biggest part of

2524
06:30:11.639 --> 06:30:23.040
your body, starting at the top, starting again where you

2525
06:30:23.119 --> 06:30:26.919
would have been, the area at the top in between

2526
06:30:27.000 --> 06:30:34.000
your shoulders, near your neck. Going back, massage in the

2527
06:30:34.159 --> 06:30:46.040
area again, but this time moving downwards, taking it downward.

2528
06:30:46.240 --> 06:30:54.119
Stroke to the middle of your back, working from the

2529
06:30:54.520 --> 06:31:01.959
outside inwards, So massage in the your back, but the

2530
06:31:03.959 --> 06:31:14.360
outsides of your back, the parts where your arms will

2531
06:31:14.479 --> 06:31:27.639
maybe rest against, almost the path that connects your front

2532
06:31:27.880 --> 06:31:45.599
to your back. Just messaging down firmly but gently, as

2533
06:31:45.799 --> 06:31:53.639
firm as you want, moving down, and then moving across

2534
06:31:53.680 --> 06:31:57.479
a little bed, moving all the way down again, being

2535
06:31:57.599 --> 06:32:10.439
very gentle yout firm as you choose. Eventually you get

2536
06:32:10.479 --> 06:32:15.520
to the spine. We can message the muscles on either

2537
06:32:15.720 --> 06:32:19.040
side of your spine from the top of your neck

2538
06:32:19.479 --> 06:32:30.959
all the way down to your lower back. We can

2539
06:32:31.080 --> 06:32:40.439
do that a few times. Sometimes people juice the knuckle

2540
06:32:41.360 --> 06:32:46.040
or that you know, two fingers and just go your

2541
06:32:46.200 --> 06:32:51.479
side of the spine. Almost just push down, go all

2542
06:32:51.520 --> 06:32:55.279
the way down to the bottom of the spine, each

2543
06:32:55.479 --> 06:33:06.040
time releasing tension and opening up the body, stretching your

2544
06:33:06.080 --> 06:33:12.880
body so that you feel more relaxed but at the

2545
06:33:13.000 --> 06:33:29.319
same time rejuvenated. And now I'm going to move to

2546
06:33:29.479 --> 06:33:38.000
one side, to your right side, and from the bottom

2547
06:33:38.080 --> 06:33:43.799
of your ribs to your pelvis, I'm going to message

2548
06:33:44.880 --> 06:33:50.200
that area of your back. I'll stretch over the other

2549
06:33:50.319 --> 06:33:55.639
side and I will pull the muscles gently and massage

2550
06:33:55.799 --> 06:33:59.959
and push from one end that side all the way

2551
06:34:00.119 --> 06:34:05.080
to my side to the middle of fact to where

2552
06:34:05.119 --> 06:34:11.799
your spine is massaging that side of your spine the

2553
06:34:11.880 --> 06:34:18.080
opposite side to where I'm standing. It's almost like kneading bread.

2554
06:34:20.479 --> 06:34:26.840
There's that big area which is firm yet lots there

2555
06:34:27.119 --> 06:34:36.560
to message. Potentially one of the most important places to

2556
06:34:36.680 --> 06:34:44.720
actually have a message, because you feel it, you really

2557
06:34:45.000 --> 06:34:49.759
feel the release and the pleasure of having your lower

2558
06:34:49.840 --> 06:34:58.880
back massaged. It releases so much from your body that's

2559
06:34:59.000 --> 06:35:07.959
not useful, starting a healing process which will continue long

2560
06:35:08.040 --> 06:35:20.520
after this recording is over. The message in this part

2561
06:35:20.560 --> 06:35:24.240
of your body not only feels really good for you,

2562
06:35:25.680 --> 06:35:30.119
it's actually fun to do because it is, as I said,

2563
06:35:30.319 --> 06:35:35.400
like kneading bread, it's a part that you can really

2564
06:35:35.520 --> 06:35:43.279
get hold of and really massage deeply. If that's your choice,

2565
06:35:51.319 --> 06:35:53.200
then are going to move over to the other side

2566
06:35:53.240 --> 06:35:59.680
of your body and do the same with the opposite

2567
06:35:59.759 --> 06:36:09.159
part of your lower back. Kneeding and messaging from your

2568
06:36:09.319 --> 06:36:15.959
side or a way to the middle of your back

2569
06:36:16.560 --> 06:36:30.159
where your spine is pressing and kneading firm and gentle

2570
06:36:30.319 --> 06:36:40.159
at the same time. It feels so releasing this mixture

2571
06:36:40.200 --> 06:36:55.599
of pleasure, comfort, release, calmness, relaxation or mixed together. Plus

2572
06:36:55.680 --> 06:36:59.959
there's that feeling from your stomach as it's being stripped.

2573
06:37:02.000 --> 06:37:05.159
Even though you're in your stomach now, you can feel

2574
06:37:05.200 --> 06:37:09.000
it being stretched because that whole area is connected to

2575
06:37:09.080 --> 06:37:20.439
your stomach. Now we're going to move or move further

2576
06:37:20.639 --> 06:37:25.560
up to your top of your body, and we did

2577
06:37:25.639 --> 06:37:34.279
the same this time, starting with your upper back, put

2578
06:37:34.360 --> 06:37:39.240
my hands forward over and mess it. Massage in that

2579
06:37:39.560 --> 06:37:46.240
area up to your spine, from the side of your

2580
06:37:46.279 --> 06:37:51.520
body up to your spine. So some of that message area,

2581
06:37:52.200 --> 06:37:58.200
that muscle tissue or whatever fatty tissue even will be

2582
06:37:58.479 --> 06:38:03.720
possibly from your chest. It's all connected. The chest and

2583
06:38:03.840 --> 06:38:10.360
the back connect together. I'm going to be massaging and

2584
06:38:10.560 --> 06:38:15.759
just pulling some of that skin from your side up

2585
06:38:17.439 --> 06:38:26.119
and massaging the area of your upper back all the

2586
06:38:26.200 --> 06:38:32.799
way to your spine. And then I'll move down a

2587
06:38:32.880 --> 06:38:35.720
bit and I'll continue with the middle of your back,

2588
06:38:35.919 --> 06:38:45.159
doing exactly the same thing as gentle, as deep as

2589
06:38:45.279 --> 06:38:56.840
you choose. Now, I'll move from the other side again

2590
06:38:56.959 --> 06:39:01.479
and do the exact same thing with the top of

2591
06:39:01.560 --> 06:39:11.400
your back on the other side, from pretty much underneath

2592
06:39:11.479 --> 06:39:25.080
your arm area really to your spine, and then continue

2593
06:39:25.159 --> 06:39:31.720
in that all the way down, including the lower your

2594
06:39:31.919 --> 06:39:49.040
middle of your back. I'm gonna go to your thighs,

2595
06:39:50.360 --> 06:39:55.840
the backs of your thighs, and the sides of your thighs.

2596
06:39:59.639 --> 06:40:06.560
M starting with your right leg. Massage in the back

2597
06:40:09.000 --> 06:40:17.639
and the side of your thighs gently and firmly. There's

2598
06:40:17.680 --> 06:40:21.119
a lot of muscles there. It's an area that can

2599
06:40:21.159 --> 06:40:25.479
be very tense at times and maybe needs a little

2600
06:40:25.479 --> 06:40:28.959
bit more pressure than the rest of the body that's

2601
06:40:29.200 --> 06:40:39.319
up to you. You can gently stroke the back of

2602
06:40:39.439 --> 06:40:44.880
your legs where you know, opposite your knee joint, what

2603
06:40:45.080 --> 06:40:58.000
underneath your knee joint, very sensitive, gentle area, and then

2604
06:40:58.200 --> 06:41:05.560
working down to your calf muscles. Massage in your calf

2605
06:41:05.680 --> 06:41:15.200
muscles thoroughly and deeply, if you choose, using both hands

2606
06:41:19.360 --> 06:41:33.759
and fingers, digging deep to your ankles. On the back

2607
06:41:33.840 --> 06:41:40.479
of your back of your ankles, just generally massage in

2608
06:41:40.599 --> 06:41:52.279
that area, maybe lifting the leg and stretching it a

2609
06:41:52.360 --> 06:42:17.520
little bit. Moving to the right foot, massage in the

2610
06:42:17.599 --> 06:42:24.599
bottom of your feet and the size of your feet

2611
06:42:31.759 --> 06:42:41.720
gently but firm enough so they don't tickle. Just allow

2612
06:42:44.319 --> 06:42:47.639
the pleasure that you get from having your feet massaged

2613
06:42:50.360 --> 06:42:57.200
to just overtake you as I continue to message your feet.

2614
06:43:00.000 --> 06:43:07.639
In terms of your feet, the sides, your arches, your heel.

2615
06:43:10.040 --> 06:43:12.279
You can put a lot of pressure into your heel

2616
06:43:13.040 --> 06:43:18.080
and it feels amazing, Yet the arches need to be

2617
06:43:18.200 --> 06:43:29.880
a bit more gentle. Stretching your toes gently, the message

2618
06:43:29.959 --> 06:43:36.000
in the bottoms of your toes with my fingers, each

2619
06:43:36.119 --> 06:43:49.759
one individually moving over to the left leg to do

2620
06:43:49.919 --> 06:43:58.639
exactly the same thing. Starting at the top of the thighs,

2621
06:44:00.880 --> 06:44:03.439
work in the back of the thighs and the sides,

2622
06:44:05.080 --> 06:44:15.479
massaging deeply and gently the whole area, working all the

2623
06:44:15.520 --> 06:44:28.360
way down. And this is an area that maybe you

2624
06:44:28.439 --> 06:44:36.759
could like to spend more time relaxing and messaging. Perhaps

2625
06:44:37.680 --> 06:44:42.200
if you wanted, I could make a future recording. I

2626
06:44:42.240 --> 06:44:51.080
wants spend more time on one particular area. As you

2627
06:44:51.240 --> 06:45:03.599
move down to your calf muscles. Massage in your calf

2628
06:45:03.759 --> 06:45:19.639
muscles firmly and gently, moving down your ankle into your feet.

2629
06:45:21.479 --> 06:45:27.240
Massage in the backs of your feet, the bottoms of

2630
06:45:27.319 --> 06:45:37.319
your feet, stretching your toes and massage in each toe individually.

2631
06:45:39.919 --> 06:45:45.439
And the feeling of pleasure and release that you experience

2632
06:45:45.599 --> 06:46:04.200
when your having your feet massaged feels really good. Now,

2633
06:46:07.759 --> 06:46:11.759
she turn over in your mind. Laying on your back,

2634
06:46:19.240 --> 06:46:31.959
I'm just gonna start again with your nick area in

2635
06:46:32.080 --> 06:46:39.759
your shoulders, just to get back in touch with that

2636
06:46:40.040 --> 06:46:57.000
area and lets you move up. I can clean my

2637
06:46:57.159 --> 06:47:02.200
hands with them more fresh because now I'm gonna message

2638
06:47:02.560 --> 06:47:18.439
your face gently, starting off with your forehead. Your eyes

2639
06:47:18.520 --> 06:47:24.439
are closed and I can just stretch your eyes a

2640
06:47:24.520 --> 06:47:36.200
little bit, pushing up on your eyebrows, just messaging around

2641
06:47:36.319 --> 06:47:51.599
your scalp, massaging down your cheeks, around your ears, into

2642
06:47:51.680 --> 06:48:00.119
your chaw gently the side of your neck.

2643
06:48:04.279 --> 06:48:04.520
Chin.

2644
06:48:15.840 --> 06:48:23.520
They're just moving down can your neck down to your chest,

2645
06:48:27.279 --> 06:48:31.319
starting by message in the very top of your chest

2646
06:48:35.159 --> 06:48:40.360
where the collar bone is. Give a side of the collarbone,

2647
06:48:48.840 --> 06:48:52.080
and then just message in the hole of the chest,

2648
06:49:01.279 --> 06:49:13.319
moving the chest around. Because it's quite a large area,

2649
06:49:15.240 --> 06:49:22.680
you can move from one side to the next. Moving

2650
06:49:23.080 --> 06:49:34.080
my hands underneath pretty much where your arms are stretching up,

2651
06:49:36.240 --> 06:49:39.279
stretching some of the muscles of your back in the process,

2652
06:49:44.560 --> 06:49:53.240
moving up over your chest and they're moving down again.

2653
06:50:05.959 --> 06:50:11.439
Then allowing my hands to just massage gently and slide

2654
06:50:11.759 --> 06:50:18.279
down towards your stomach, starting in the middle of your chest,

2655
06:50:21.720 --> 06:50:28.599
and then gradually my hands moving apart and massaging and

2656
06:50:28.840 --> 06:50:38.319
sliding at the same time, moving down to just below

2657
06:50:38.400 --> 06:50:53.520
your red cage, moving down and then massaging up again.

2658
06:50:56.319 --> 06:51:00.119
Giving your chest all the attention.

2659
06:51:01.479 --> 06:51:02.439
And it needs.

2660
06:51:04.159 --> 06:51:16.520
To feel completely relaxed. Remembering that I'm also going to

2661
06:51:16.560 --> 06:51:22.159
be focusing on your sides as well, an area that

2662
06:51:22.439 --> 06:51:29.639
really doesn't get much attention but feels really good when

2663
06:51:29.680 --> 06:51:38.959
it's massaged, just stroking my hands down the sides of

2664
06:51:39.040 --> 06:51:45.959
your body, just below your arms, all the way down

2665
06:51:46.040 --> 06:52:01.040
to your hips. Now move into your stomach area. I'm

2666
06:52:01.080 --> 06:52:04.520
gonna stand on one side of you like I did

2667
06:52:04.639 --> 06:52:09.000
when I dig your lower back. We're gonna do a

2668
06:52:09.159 --> 06:52:15.000
similar process of just stretching the muscles from the side,

2669
06:52:18.520 --> 06:52:33.159
gently massaging from one side to the next, moving a

2670
06:52:33.319 --> 06:52:37.639
whole area from below your ribs all the way down

2671
06:52:38.599 --> 06:52:48.279
to below your belly button. And I'm gonna move around

2672
06:52:48.360 --> 06:52:58.240
to the other side of you and repeat that process

2673
06:52:58.560 --> 06:53:11.639
of relaxing, deeply, calmly. You feel loose, you feel free.

2674
06:53:14.000 --> 06:53:18.680
And there's something about having your stomach message that's different

2675
06:53:18.759 --> 06:53:25.599
from any other part because we do have a tendency

2676
06:53:26.200 --> 06:53:30.080
of holding a different kind of stress in your stomach

2677
06:53:31.520 --> 06:53:39.360
that we may not be aware of. There's an now

2678
06:53:39.520 --> 06:53:46.799
message your stomach. In front of your stomach, they can

2679
06:53:47.119 --> 06:53:58.439
circles around your belly, buttomthing going the other way around.

2680
06:54:05.040 --> 06:54:11.560
The gentleness and a freedom that comes from feeling how

2681
06:54:11.680 --> 06:54:21.799
you're feeling. As I now move down the tops of

2682
06:54:21.919 --> 06:54:28.919
your thighs muscles massaging them, and I can do this

2683
06:54:29.919 --> 06:54:38.200
to your legs at the same time pressing down, massaging

2684
06:54:38.680 --> 06:54:44.279
deeply those muscles in your thighs, the front of your thighs,

2685
06:54:49.680 --> 06:54:55.240
and moving down to your knees, gently massaging your knees,

2686
06:55:00.520 --> 06:55:06.560
sliding down your shins, put pressure on either side of

2687
06:55:06.680 --> 06:55:19.720
your shin gently, softly but firmly, moving down to your ankles,

2688
06:55:24.680 --> 06:55:34.319
stroking the tops of your feet, and then with each

2689
06:55:35.680 --> 06:55:41.080
foot in each hand, just gently messaging the whole of

2690
06:55:41.200 --> 06:55:49.959
the foot, the top, the bottom, your heel, your ankle,

2691
06:55:50.840 --> 06:56:02.439
your toes, messaging every part of your feet. It feels

2692
06:56:02.560 --> 06:56:08.080
so good just to let go and enjoy the process,

2693
06:56:13.759 --> 06:56:32.599
Enjoy feeling so deeply relaxed, so much comfort, and so

2694
06:56:32.799 --> 06:56:49.279
many feelings that come just from touching your skin. And

2695
06:56:49.520 --> 06:56:55.319
you can just lie there for as long as you

2696
06:56:55.560 --> 06:57:07.840
choose enjoy and the feeling of deep comfort from being

2697
06:57:08.000 --> 06:57:23.639
massaged by me. Enjoy feeling.

2698
06:57:27.520 --> 06:57:39.639
Deep Alas, and all.

2699
06:57:39.599 --> 06:57:48.959
We're gonna do is blow out some candles. In your mind,

2700
06:58:00.560 --> 06:58:10.840
there are going to be a hundred candles, and you're

2701
06:58:10.840 --> 06:58:17.159
going to blow each one out individually, one by one,

2702
06:58:19.799 --> 06:58:29.479
starting at one hundred. As I count down all the

2703
06:58:29.520 --> 06:58:37.360
way down to one, and each time I say a number,

2704
06:58:42.840 --> 06:58:49.680
you can imagine that candle in front of you, and

2705
06:58:49.720 --> 06:58:59.520
I'd like you to actually physically generally blow that candle out,

2706
06:59:05.840 --> 06:59:18.000
just so it's not big blows, just a gentle, and

2707
06:59:18.200 --> 06:59:28.200
that candle will extinguish. And then I'll say the next number,

2708
06:59:29.799 --> 06:59:38.799
so we moved down, and you can just blow that

2709
06:59:38.959 --> 06:59:48.919
one out as well. And as we move down the numbers,

2710
06:59:53.479 --> 07:00:02.119
you'll find yourself feeling more and more relaxed. If you

2711
07:00:02.319 --> 07:00:11.439
need to sleep, you'll also find yourself becoming incredibly tired

2712
07:00:12.680 --> 07:00:24.000
and sleepy. In fact, you may struggle to blow out

2713
07:00:24.159 --> 07:00:41.040
all one hundred of these candles as you feel more

2714
07:00:41.159 --> 07:01:08.840
and more deeply relaxed, more and more deeply tired, And

2715
07:01:08.840 --> 07:01:19.000
the further you go down, the more your mind starts

2716
07:01:19.439 --> 07:01:31.000
to drift. You may find that you stop listening to

2717
07:01:31.159 --> 07:01:43.639
me after a while. And even though there may be

2718
07:01:44.639 --> 07:01:52.639
background sounds where you are, you'll be aware of those

2719
07:01:52.799 --> 07:01:57.639
sounds at the moment.

2720
07:02:02.639 --> 07:02:03.159
Being me.

2721
07:02:06.639 --> 07:02:13.560
Start just not even notice them.

2722
07:02:17.799 --> 07:02:18.479
At all.

2723
07:02:21.040 --> 07:02:35.040
Because they're unimportant. Where I am, I've got the sounds

2724
07:02:35.119 --> 07:02:42.520
of the birds. There's horst, the pigeon likes to say hello.

2725
07:02:42.799 --> 07:02:54.759
Sometimes there's the old plane that goes by, maybe traffic

2726
07:02:55.080 --> 07:03:06.880
and trains in the distance, None of that scene is important.

2727
07:03:09.159 --> 07:03:24.040
Whatsoever or candles you blow out less important. Anything is.

2728
07:03:28.919 --> 07:03:29.159
More.

2729
07:03:29.520 --> 07:03:41.400
Candles you blow out the fur they seemed to move away,

2730
07:03:48.200 --> 07:03:58.639
sounds general date days, stuff.

2731
07:04:00.200 --> 07:04:01.119
Used to just.

2732
07:04:03.119 --> 07:04:21.680
Move away on its side. You feel more calmer with

2733
07:04:21.919 --> 07:04:38.159
every candley you blow out. Guide in you to the

2734
07:04:38.400 --> 07:04:51.360
next number, did you hear me say? And then you

2735
07:04:51.520 --> 07:05:18.680
blow that candle out to So easy, so simple. We're

2736
07:05:18.759 --> 07:05:32.639
gonna start by introducing the first candle. This is a

2737
07:05:32.880 --> 07:05:52.520
hundred first candles, one hundred. When you blow that candle out,

2738
07:05:59.360 --> 07:06:12.000
you'll find and immediately light change in how you feel,

2739
07:06:17.200 --> 07:06:25.520
as well as a real sense of positivity, crying, venie,

2740
07:06:31.520 --> 07:07:02.240
relaxation and sleepiness expanding starting with one hundred, I can

2741
07:07:02.400 --> 07:08:12.159
do now ninety nine candle, ninety eight, can do ninety seven,

2742
07:08:34.560 --> 07:09:42.240
can little one, ninety six and ninety five and ninety four,

2743
07:10:07.000 --> 07:11:06.360
candle ninety three, ninety two and.

2744
07:11:15.119 --> 07:11:16.400
Night one.

2745
07:11:34.680 --> 07:12:09.880
And ninety and eight to nine.

2746
07:12:35.400 --> 07:13:20.479
Eight eight cant eight.

2747
07:13:53.759 --> 07:13:54.279
Can do.

2748
07:14:05.759 --> 07:16:25.759
Eighty eighty five, ahhhhhhhhhh.

2749
07:16:18.840 --> 07:16:19.919
Eighty two.

2750
07:17:27.720 --> 07:18:25.200
Two two, US.

2751
07:19:17.599 --> 07:20:10.439
Seventy nine candle, seventy eight candle, seventy seven, candle, seventy

2752
07:20:10.840 --> 07:21:12.159
six candle, seventy five candle seventy four, candle seventy three,

2753
07:21:24.080 --> 07:22:27.000
candle seventy two, candle seventy one and seventy one and

2754
07:22:31.319 --> 07:23:25.720
seventy and sixty nine, candle sixty eight, candle sixty seven,

2755
07:23:39.439 --> 07:24:44.240
candle sixty five, candle six four, candle sixty four, candle

2756
07:24:44.880 --> 07:26:25.159
sixty three, candle sixty sixty one, Can sixty and fifty

2757
07:26:25.400 --> 07:28:10.439
nine and fifty eight fifty seven, fifty six, candle fifty five,

2758
07:28:27.959 --> 07:29:01.639
candle fifty four, handle fifty three.

2759
07:29:19.560 --> 07:29:25.119
And fifty two.

2760
07:29:48.279 --> 07:31:58.799
Fifty two, cant see fifty one, candle fifty candle foty

2761
07:31:59.119 --> 07:33:53.159
nineh can food it ate, can forty seven, candle forty six,

2762
07:34:21.240 --> 07:34:59.159
candle forty five, forty two.

2763
07:35:39.680 --> 07:36:24.439
Two four.

2764
07:37:07.360 --> 07:39:07.599
Certain nine and cert eight candle thirty seven, candle thirty five,

2765
07:39:51.159 --> 07:42:02.400
candle thirty fourhhhhhhhhh two thirty three candle THIRTI, can five

2766
07:43:18.720 --> 07:45:07.040
and two one ten nine What she thaid? Handle twenty seven,

2767
07:45:40.040 --> 07:47:56.599
candle twenty six, cant wit five showing four end on

2768
07:47:56.959 --> 07:47:59.040
twenty thirty.

2769
07:48:18.439 --> 07:48:41.200
Ashhhhhhh, can ten deep.

2770
07:49:14.520 --> 07:53:50.279
And tent to wait and see Can seventeen sixteen fourt

2771
07:56:09.880 --> 07:59:05.400
hay no mt.

2772
07:59:10.360 --> 08:03:42.959
Eight two.

2773
08:04:17.599 --> 08:04:36.520
Candle or let go of all of those thoughts worries,

2774
08:04:36.840 --> 08:04:42.919
concerns about the past, thoughts about the future, and even

2775
08:04:44.439 --> 08:04:48.759
things you've been thinking about today. Just let it all

2776
08:04:48.840 --> 08:04:55.080
go because none of it is useful in this moment.

2777
08:05:00.000 --> 08:05:15.360
This is your opportunity to just focus on feeling relaxed,

2778
08:05:19.639 --> 08:05:26.080
allowing yourself to get in touch with that natural sense

2779
08:05:28.159 --> 08:05:36.279
of peace that we all have within us. It's available

2780
08:05:36.360 --> 08:05:41.200
for everyone. It just sometimes takes a little bit of

2781
08:05:41.360 --> 08:05:48.759
effort to set up the right time and place in

2782
08:05:49.000 --> 08:05:55.240
order for you to just let go. Because when you

2783
08:05:55.439 --> 08:06:03.240
do decide to let go and relaxes, that's what your

2784
08:06:03.279 --> 08:06:11.959
body starts to do because you've chosen. You've chosen to

2785
08:06:12.439 --> 08:06:19.520
just allow your body to unwind and your mind starts

2786
08:06:19.639 --> 08:06:27.080
to slow down. And it's a nice feeling. It's a

2787
08:06:27.200 --> 08:06:31.400
nice feeling at the beginning, just to know that you

2788
08:06:31.919 --> 08:06:42.159
have chosen to decide to relax deeply, and because you've

2789
08:06:42.279 --> 08:06:50.799
made that decision, your body will just follow suit. Because

2790
08:06:50.840 --> 08:06:55.479
sometimes all the muscles in your body need is just

2791
08:06:55.840 --> 08:07:05.080
permission from you to relax. Because so often we're busy,

2792
08:07:05.319 --> 08:07:09.520
we're going from here to there, we're walking around and

2793
08:07:09.639 --> 08:07:16.959
we're doing stuff, and the body doesn't have any time

2794
08:07:17.240 --> 08:07:25.599
or space to really relax deeply, so it kind of

2795
08:07:25.720 --> 08:07:31.279
waits for you to lead the way, waits for your permission.

2796
08:07:35.639 --> 08:07:42.119
And when you do give your permission, when you get

2797
08:07:42.200 --> 08:07:48.479
to say so, when you say okay, it's time for

2798
08:07:48.599 --> 08:07:58.240
your body to let go completely and relax totally, your

2799
08:07:58.279 --> 08:08:07.759
body just follows. It's like a breath of relief. Ah good,

2800
08:08:07.840 --> 08:08:14.759
I can now relax and feeling at the end of

2801
08:08:14.840 --> 08:08:18.840
a day of very physical day that you may experience

2802
08:08:18.959 --> 08:08:22.240
in the past, where you get home and you just

2803
08:08:22.439 --> 08:08:26.720
sit down on a chair, maybe you kick your shoes off,

2804
08:08:26.840 --> 08:08:33.400
and feels so nice. I know that you don't have

2805
08:08:33.560 --> 08:08:37.000
to get up again for a little while at least,

2806
08:08:38.040 --> 08:08:40.479
and if you choose, you can just sit there for

2807
08:08:40.599 --> 08:08:53.319
maybe an hour to It feels blissful. And just by

2808
08:08:53.520 --> 08:08:58.599
sitting down like that, your body knows that it's time

2809
08:08:58.680 --> 08:09:04.000
to relax. Your body has been given permission from you.

2810
08:09:06.240 --> 08:09:10.119
Because it's a mindset in your mind.

2811
08:09:13.200 --> 08:09:14.560
You're prepared.

2812
08:09:16.479 --> 08:09:25.799
To let go of everything and just completely allow all

2813
08:09:26.279 --> 08:09:35.080
the stress of your body to evaporate and intensions can

2814
08:09:35.360 --> 08:09:54.200
just gradually vanish. It's almost like magic, really, because that

2815
08:09:54.759 --> 08:10:01.680
sense of relaxation in your body, it's a very natural state.

2816
08:10:03.520 --> 08:10:08.159
It's not something unusual. It may feel unusual when you

2817
08:10:08.279 --> 08:10:11.560
first start to relax, if you if you haven't really

2818
08:10:13.000 --> 08:10:16.880
spent a lot of time focusing and giving yourself this

2819
08:10:17.119 --> 08:10:21.919
space to let go more politically and relax may seem

2820
08:10:22.000 --> 08:10:30.560
almost alien, but it isn't. It's actually the most natural

2821
08:10:30.680 --> 08:10:39.279
thing in the world to let go completely, to relax totally,

2822
08:10:41.240 --> 08:10:47.959
the most natural thing in the world to allow yourself

2823
08:10:52.360 --> 08:10:59.720
to feel really calm in your mind. And it is

2824
08:10:59.799 --> 08:11:07.720
almost like a literal unwinding. It's like you press a

2825
08:11:07.799 --> 08:11:16.560
button and all the tension just releases, and it's like

2826
08:11:16.680 --> 08:11:20.639
a wheel, like a cog, like the inside of a clock,

2827
08:11:20.840 --> 08:11:25.919
just unwinding. And he's almost I could see the little

2828
08:11:26.040 --> 08:11:31.279
wind up knob that's used just going the opposite way

2829
08:11:32.319 --> 08:11:38.360
that you use to wind up, and the energy that

2830
08:11:38.599 --> 08:11:48.799
frenetic stress for energy gradually winding down, losing its power,

2831
08:11:50.119 --> 08:11:57.560
losing its strength. There's a sense of relaxation becomes stronger

2832
08:11:58.759 --> 08:12:09.720
and deeper, and you may find a more relaxed you

2833
08:12:09.919 --> 08:12:21.479
feel your mind starts to wonder, maybe seem to stop

2834
08:12:21.639 --> 08:12:26.720
listening to me for a while, Your mind goes somewhere else,

2835
08:12:28.159 --> 08:12:34.000
and then you realize you're listening to me again, and

2836
08:12:34.119 --> 08:12:40.759
that it's just your mind drifting to sleep, which is

2837
08:12:40.919 --> 08:12:51.959
quite natural, because sometimes when we're stressed and tense, we

2838
08:12:52.479 --> 08:12:56.959
may not actually be aware of what we need and

2839
08:12:57.080 --> 08:13:05.720
we physically your emotionally need in this moment. But when

2840
08:13:05.919 --> 08:13:13.560
you allow your body and mind to relax completely and

2841
08:13:13.759 --> 08:13:22.479
you let go of all thoughts, concerns, worries, ideas all

2842
08:13:22.959 --> 08:13:32.919
longo allow them to drop onto the floor, you start

2843
08:13:33.040 --> 08:13:41.520
to get in touch with the feelings of such relaxation.

2844
08:13:46.119 --> 08:13:52.840
Feels so nice to be in touch with the calmness

2845
08:13:54.799 --> 08:14:03.720
of the different body parts as they become loser and loser.

2846
08:14:07.959 --> 08:14:20.119
Even your breathing seems easier and more natural, effortless as

2847
08:14:20.200 --> 08:14:26.119
I call outs through your mouthful notice into your lungs,

2848
08:14:28.840 --> 08:14:37.240
breathing in comforts and relaxation, and I'm just breathing out

2849
08:14:37.439 --> 08:14:46.319
any excess remain intentional stress from every part of your

2850
08:14:46.400 --> 08:14:54.159
body and mind. And as you start to focus on

2851
08:14:54.279 --> 08:15:02.439
your mind, maybe you notice that things are come to

2852
08:15:02.560 --> 08:15:13.520
a standstill, maybe just much much lower than before, because

2853
08:15:13.639 --> 08:15:20.919
your mind is not really needed when listening to my voice,

2854
08:15:24.799 --> 08:15:30.880
which allows your mind to relax just as deep as

2855
08:15:31.040 --> 08:15:41.520
your body. And that's synchronicity between the relaxation of your

2856
08:15:41.759 --> 08:15:54.240
body relaxation of your mind lets you know that feeling

2857
08:15:55.319 --> 08:16:09.720
completely calm, loose, and axed is the great healing experience

2858
08:16:10.759 --> 08:16:24.959
fear and has so many positive benefits for your body,

2859
08:16:25.360 --> 08:16:30.959
your mind, and your life. To be able to let

2860
08:16:31.240 --> 08:16:42.759
go everything and to relax completely, you know, all parts

2861
08:16:43.240 --> 08:16:54.159
of your body and mind, even your boness ariused, or

2862
08:16:54.240 --> 08:17:07.159
your muscles a arised, even the skin that covers your

2863
08:17:07.279 --> 08:17:18.119
body is relaxed. Every half.

2864
08:17:21.119 --> 08:17:21.479
You have.

2865
08:17:23.279 --> 08:17:40.840
Is also deeply relaxed, and your brain really starts to

2866
08:17:41.080 --> 08:17:43.119
feel the benefits.

2867
08:17:44.439 --> 08:17:44.759
Of this.

2868
08:17:46.360 --> 08:17:48.360
Healing relaxation.

2869
08:17:53.639 --> 08:17:54.319
And as you.

2870
08:17:54.560 --> 08:18:01.040
Focus on the inside of your scalp where your brain is,

2871
08:18:02.919 --> 08:18:10.720
you can start to realize and notice the benefits of

2872
08:18:10.880 --> 08:18:19.200
your brain relaxing demail in its.

2873
08:18:19.279 --> 08:18:20.200
Your brain.

2874
08:18:21.479 --> 08:18:31.840
Continuous to reacts to sends those messages to the rest

2875
08:18:32.080 --> 08:18:47.439
of your body and do mind to rely, relax e more, debate,

2876
08:18:49.880 --> 08:19:09.479
relax more completely, letting go of any remaining thoughts or consers,

2877
08:19:11.720 --> 08:19:18.119
allow them just to drop onto the floor because they're

2878
08:19:18.200 --> 08:19:27.360
no longer necessary in this moment, this moment of deep

2879
08:19:29.159 --> 08:19:35.959
relaxation and calmness, feeling.

2880
08:19:38.159 --> 08:19:39.159
Your brain.

2881
08:19:40.799 --> 08:20:03.919
With deep, concentrated healing, calming relaxing every part of your brain,

2882
08:20:08.360 --> 08:20:24.919
feeling so loose and comfortable, so relaxed and be peaceful.

2883
08:20:28.159 --> 08:20:40.279
Your brain feels so light, that's so healthy. That sense

2884
08:20:40.360 --> 08:20:54.279
of deep deep comfort really does allow you to enjoy

2885
08:20:56.439 --> 08:21:08.119
those ever increasing sensations of comfort that is spreading throughout

2886
08:21:08.319 --> 08:21:29.840
your body, relaxing each and every muscle of your body, deeper, deeper,

2887
08:21:33.000 --> 08:21:50.639
much more deeper than before, much more comfort spreading through

2888
08:21:52.040 --> 08:21:52.680
your body.

2889
08:21:53.439 --> 08:21:54.319
Your mind.

2890
08:21:57.040 --> 08:22:14.840
Be so peaceful and calm, so very very peaceful in

2891
08:22:15.119 --> 08:22:30.919
avery part of your body, letting go at everything averything,

2892
08:22:34.639 --> 08:22:56.080
so peaceful, calm, so relax Every second the passes you

2893
08:22:56.400 --> 08:23:24.720
feel deep dpa relax, dper and dper relax car SoC.

2894
08:23:28.479 --> 08:23:30.159
Pece for.

2895
08:23:32.959 --> 08:23:47.200
So very piece so your head bound duties. Such piece

2896
08:23:48.119 --> 08:24:01.200
and comfort growing all the time, Such peace and comforts

2897
08:24:04.040 --> 08:24:18.240
spreading through your body, your mind deep and deeper, such comforts,

2898
08:24:20.720 --> 08:24:30.520
spreading and sinking deeper into a re muscle your body.

2899
08:24:34.159 --> 08:24:47.759
Sudenly you feel amazing, so relaxed, so peace so so

2900
08:24:53.279 --> 08:25:14.279
relax and peace letting. Going to do a body scan,

2901
08:25:16.080 --> 08:25:22.439
focusing on firstly how you feel in your body, not

2902
08:25:22.599 --> 08:25:28.000
trying to change how you feel, not trying to relax,

2903
08:25:29.279 --> 08:25:34.279
not trying to move away from any discomfort or stress

2904
08:25:34.520 --> 08:25:41.919
or tension. Just accepting, observing and accepting how you feel

2905
08:25:42.919 --> 08:25:47.840
in the different parts of your body. Just allowing yourself

2906
08:25:49.240 --> 08:25:56.680
to be exactly as you are, to notice to get

2907
08:25:56.759 --> 08:26:05.400
in touch with how you actually felt in this moment.

2908
08:26:09.360 --> 08:26:20.680
Start off by focusing on your hands. Just be aware

2909
08:26:20.759 --> 08:26:29.159
of your hands. Like you to move your hands around.

2910
08:26:30.639 --> 08:26:36.200
Just maybe make your fingers a little bit by been

2911
08:26:36.360 --> 08:26:42.319
enclosing in your hands very gently, just so that you

2912
08:26:42.520 --> 08:26:50.360
can get in touch with how your hands and your

2913
08:26:50.560 --> 08:27:11.919
fingers fell, very very slow movements. Focusing now on your feet,

2914
08:27:15.959 --> 08:27:19.279
and if you can just do kind of an equivalent

2915
08:27:19.959 --> 08:27:24.319
with your feet is you've just done with your hands,

2916
08:27:25.639 --> 08:27:34.560
Maybe turn in your ankles, moving your feet around, moving

2917
08:27:34.639 --> 08:27:48.159
your toes gently, only very gently and very slowly, noticing

2918
08:27:48.680 --> 08:28:03.279
how your feet feel in this moment. Focusing now and

2919
08:28:03.439 --> 08:28:11.439
your eyes. I'd like you to just focus on your eyelids.

2920
08:28:13.880 --> 08:28:16.919
Maybe you can open and close your eyes a couple

2921
08:28:17.000 --> 08:28:22.599
of times to really get in touch with how you feel.

2922
08:28:22.680 --> 08:28:30.680
When you do close your eyes, the muscle changes in

2923
08:28:30.799 --> 08:28:36.560
your eyes when you do close them. Maybe you're raising

2924
08:28:36.639 --> 08:28:45.720
your eyebrows. It stretches the tops of your eyes, perhaps

2925
08:28:45.959 --> 08:28:53.880
squinting your eyes, scrunching up your eyes, just so you

2926
08:28:54.000 --> 08:29:06.080
can heally get in touch aspects of how your eyes

2927
08:29:06.599 --> 08:29:25.080
feel right now. Now focusing on your thighs, and you

2928
08:29:25.119 --> 08:29:29.119
know it just ASTs you to gently tense your thighs,

2929
08:29:30.479 --> 08:29:40.319
just very very gently, just enough so you can become

2930
08:29:41.880 --> 08:29:52.959
more attuned to the physical sensation of your upper legs,

2931
08:29:55.200 --> 08:29:58.439
the front of your thighs, and the backs of your thighs.

2932
08:30:02.959 --> 08:30:22.319
Noticing and observing how your thighs feel right now. Moving

2933
08:30:22.560 --> 08:30:31.000
your focus to the back of your neck, just noticing

2934
08:30:31.159 --> 08:30:37.479
the back of your neck. The muscles. Of course, they

2935
08:30:37.720 --> 08:30:42.200
lead to the side of your neck. They also lead

2936
08:30:42.560 --> 08:30:47.639
to the top of your back, which leads to your shoulders.

2937
08:30:49.279 --> 08:30:52.919
So as you focus on the back of your neck,

2938
08:30:54.919 --> 08:31:01.360
maybe you can move your head gently upwards as if

2939
08:31:01.400 --> 08:31:08.799
you're looking up, Maybe moving your head down as if

2940
08:31:08.880 --> 08:31:15.799
you're looking down. Perhaps moving your head side to side,

2941
08:31:16.959 --> 08:31:30.400
right to left, but only very slowly, very gently. You're

2942
08:31:30.599 --> 08:31:32.799
trying to force anything.

2943
08:31:34.560 --> 08:31:36.240
It has to be very.

2944
08:31:38.400 --> 08:31:44.279
Very gentle, just so you can.

2945
08:31:45.759 --> 08:31:47.400
Be more.

2946
08:31:49.040 --> 08:31:58.439
In touch with the feelings, with the sensations of physical

2947
08:31:59.720 --> 08:32:09.080
stations of how the back of your neck feels right now.

2948
08:32:16.680 --> 08:32:24.639
As we now focus on the tops of your arms,

2949
08:32:27.240 --> 08:32:32.040
parts where your biceps and your triceps are between your

2950
08:32:32.080 --> 08:32:40.680
elbow and your shoulders. To focus on those parts, the

2951
08:32:40.840 --> 08:32:47.840
tops of your arms, you may like to just tense them,

2952
08:32:48.720 --> 08:32:59.680
but very very gently and slowly, so you're not straining

2953
08:33:00.159 --> 08:33:06.119
or putting any pressure whatsoever.

2954
08:33:07.000 --> 08:33:07.880
On your arms.

2955
08:33:10.599 --> 08:33:18.279
It's just slowly he can gain more the sense of

2956
08:33:20.200 --> 08:33:32.119
how your upper arms are feeling in this moment, just

2957
08:33:32.479 --> 08:33:45.759
noticing as you gently, very gently and slowly tightening the muscles,

2958
08:33:47.119 --> 08:33:56.639
and then leto notice how the tops of your arms

2959
08:33:56.959 --> 08:34:18.360
feel right now as now focus in your stomach, the

2960
08:34:18.520 --> 08:34:25.919
area the lower abdomen area below your bellygotten moving all

2961
08:34:26.000 --> 08:34:33.159
the way down to your hips, just above your grime.

2962
08:34:39.520 --> 08:34:46.759
Maybe you're able to tense these muscles in that area

2963
08:34:47.479 --> 08:35:02.759
very very gently and slowly. If that's a difficult thing

2964
08:35:02.919 --> 08:35:12.400
to do, maybe you can just move your body, pushing

2965
08:35:12.560 --> 08:35:18.520
your stomach up, maybe move a little bit aside using

2966
08:35:18.599 --> 08:35:21.479
your hips, just.

2967
08:35:21.959 --> 08:35:24.880
So you can get more.

2968
08:35:26.360 --> 08:35:27.599
In tune.

2969
08:35:29.000 --> 08:35:38.680
With how your lower up to an area is feeling.

2970
08:35:41.159 --> 08:35:42.119
In this moment.

2971
08:35:48.680 --> 08:35:50.360
Just noticing.

2972
08:35:51.279 --> 08:36:11.880
The physical sensations or your lower app as you move

2973
08:36:13.840 --> 08:36:26.880
your attention to your mouth, notice in your lips and

2974
08:36:27.159 --> 08:36:45.000
inside your mouth, your teeth, your guns, your tongue. Just

2975
08:36:45.319 --> 08:36:53.919
noticing how your tongue and your mouth feels. It may

2976
08:36:54.159 --> 08:37:02.840
help by moving your tongue round your mouth, moving it

2977
08:37:03.400 --> 08:37:10.799
to your left, maybe pressing it gently against the side

2978
08:37:10.959 --> 08:37:17.200
of your mouth, and then to the right, gently to

2979
08:37:17.400 --> 08:37:24.000
the side of your mouth, perhaps pressing up against the

2980
08:37:25.360 --> 08:37:32.119
top of your mouth, and then down gently against the

2981
08:37:32.240 --> 08:37:43.360
bottom of your mouth, always very slowly and a very

2982
08:37:46.000 --> 08:37:47.360
very gentle.

2983
08:37:51.799 --> 08:37:52.959
So that you can.

2984
08:37:56.599 --> 08:38:08.880
Be aware of how you feel in your mouth area.

2985
08:38:20.159 --> 08:38:40.319
Now I'm going to focus on your wrists and I'll

2986
08:38:40.479 --> 08:38:49.319
ask you to maybe just rotate your wrists by moving

2987
08:38:49.400 --> 08:38:59.799
your hands in a circular motion very gently and slowly,

2988
08:39:02.599 --> 08:39:22.400
just silly can feel the sensations that you are currently

2989
08:39:24.159 --> 08:39:38.959
experiencing in your risks. Perhaps smooth in your hands up

2990
08:39:39.240 --> 08:40:10.119
and down the game very very champly and slowly rycheinz slow.

2991
08:40:23.479 --> 08:40:40.520
As we now start to observe lower back. The back

2992
08:40:40.840 --> 08:40:51.279
part is just above of your hips where your coxix are,

2993
08:40:58.799 --> 08:41:04.919
the w area which also really does include the side

2994
08:41:05.880 --> 08:41:11.400
of your body because those muscles are very much connected.

2995
08:41:16.680 --> 08:41:24.040
As those muscles also move into your hyperia, connect into

2996
08:41:24.119 --> 08:41:39.080
your buttocks. The sides of your hips, and if you're

2997
08:41:40.360 --> 08:41:49.040
physically able to do so, maybe you can very jolly

2998
08:41:51.319 --> 08:42:05.439
just move your body emvisis slightly, very slowly side to side,

2999
08:42:09.159 --> 08:42:22.720
just enough to gauge how you feel.

3000
08:42:24.799 --> 08:42:26.000
In your lower back.

3001
08:42:33.560 --> 08:42:44.000
Perhaps it live move your hips gently up and down,

3002
08:42:47.799 --> 08:43:02.759
gently and slowly in order that's sun really be with

3003
08:43:02.959 --> 08:43:07.159
the physical sensations.

3004
08:43:07.560 --> 08:43:08.759
Of your law back.

3005
08:43:25.799 --> 08:43:41.680
As we know. Your attention to your joe an area

3006
08:43:42.080 --> 08:43:47.799
for your chin all the way up the al e

3007
08:43:48.000 --> 08:43:48.279
is a.

3008
08:43:51.479 --> 08:43:53.200
Oh, your joe.

3009
08:44:03.439 --> 08:44:04.080
You can just.

3010
08:44:06.319 --> 08:44:07.799
It's okay to do so.

3011
08:44:09.720 --> 08:44:20.240
Gently open your mouth, your wide no stretching, just very

3012
08:44:21.000 --> 08:44:33.639
gently and slowly open in your mouth, closing your mouth

3013
08:44:35.919 --> 08:44:54.840
very gently and slowly, so you can be in touch

3014
08:45:02.040 --> 08:45:35.479
how your jaw feels. Now i'd have to sit now

3015
08:45:38.360 --> 08:45:53.200
you chest area, You don't need to do anything to

3016
08:45:53.439 --> 08:45:59.880
move your chest because it moves every time you pray

3017
08:46:05.319 --> 08:46:19.240
and lose very gently and slowly, quantumatically with each bread

3018
08:46:19.599 --> 08:46:39.599
you take. As you focus on how your chest else

3019
08:46:44.880 --> 08:47:19.880
when you breathe, move in your focus to your forearms

3020
08:47:22.200 --> 08:47:35.799
with your elbows. Maybe you're able to very gently.

3021
08:47:37.159 --> 08:47:38.880
And slowly.

3022
08:47:41.040 --> 08:47:45.159
Tense the muscles in your forearms.

3023
08:47:48.599 --> 08:47:50.599
And when you do that you can.

3024
08:47:50.759 --> 08:48:22.680
Feel your elbows as well, very jetly and slowly, jackly,

3025
08:48:26.799 --> 08:49:10.680
softly absurd your forms dopas no focus the rest of

3026
08:49:10.799 --> 08:49:24.400
your back, your upper back and the middle the middle

3027
08:49:24.560 --> 08:49:40.720
of your bank. Again, this part of your body.

3028
08:49:43.319 --> 08:49:43.880
Moves.

3029
08:49:45.959 --> 08:49:55.599
Also every time you bray, you mean on notice that

3030
08:49:57.799 --> 08:50:09.840
usually why should save your upper back in the middle

3031
08:50:09.919 --> 08:50:21.680
of your back. You can really feel that she'd told

3032
08:50:27.400 --> 08:51:27.360
AND's move in your focus into area. Butte bray, there's muscles,

3033
08:51:27.639 --> 08:52:05.159
those bones in your midsection, snow descent. How your hips

3034
08:52:07.799 --> 08:52:20.200
feel right now you can.

3035
08:52:22.520 --> 08:52:29.439
Very very gently mean your hips.

3036
08:52:34.080 --> 08:53:13.560
Maybe side to side very gently and ye yeah, softly

3037
08:53:21.439 --> 08:53:44.599
m's everything starts to slow down, including the thoughts in

3038
08:53:44.720 --> 08:53:54.720
your mind and your mind itself just starts to gradually.

3039
08:53:56.720 --> 08:54:03.200
It doesn't have to be instant, but just gradually starting to.

3040
08:54:04.599 --> 08:54:13.400
It's almost like time is string chin. It's a slower

3041
08:54:13.560 --> 08:54:21.400
pace to maybe what you're used to in your day

3042
08:54:21.479 --> 08:54:43.479
to day life. It's a slower movement of energy, very

3043
08:54:47.880 --> 08:54:56.319
small movements which make up the larger movements, which is

3044
08:54:56.360 --> 08:55:04.119
always the case. Now, when you move your hand, it

3045
08:55:04.279 --> 08:55:07.000
might seem like it's one movement, but it's lots of

3046
08:55:07.799 --> 08:55:15.240
minute different muscles moving in accordance with each other. And

3047
08:55:20.200 --> 08:55:32.520
what happens in this space that we're sharing is we

3048
08:55:32.759 --> 08:55:38.919
move from that big.

3049
08:55:43.360 --> 08:55:54.959
Movement into those smaller movements. Starting to focus on.

3050
08:56:00.279 --> 08:56:06.520
How your body feels, not just as a whole, not

3051
08:56:06.799 --> 08:56:11.279
just oh, i'm feel in this way. I'm feeling stressed

3052
08:56:11.479 --> 08:56:17.159
or tense, or I'm feeling relaxed and calm. I'm feeling

3053
08:56:17.319 --> 08:56:24.040
this way, I'm feeling that way. Starting to notice that

3054
08:56:24.200 --> 08:56:38.200
your body begins to present to you small feelings around

3055
08:56:38.279 --> 08:56:56.000
your body, small physical sensations in your legs, whether pleasurable

3056
08:56:57.240 --> 08:57:11.200
or not. Maybe resisting the temptation to label them or

3057
08:57:11.319 --> 08:57:19.080
to judge them, those feelings, just thinking them, thinking about

3058
08:57:19.119 --> 08:57:35.319
them is just being neutral, just feelings, not being particularly concerned,

3059
08:57:36.479 --> 08:57:51.840
but just noticing what your body is telling you. Feelings

3060
08:57:51.880 --> 08:57:58.200
in your arms instead of feeling the whole of the arm,

3061
08:58:00.159 --> 08:58:09.159
notice those individual feelings, all those different muscles.

3062
08:58:08.799 --> 08:58:21.479
And the skin, the hairs of your arms, all.

3063
08:58:21.400 --> 08:58:35.159
The internal parts of your arms, the veins, the bones.

3064
08:58:38.080 --> 08:58:44.080
Just being aware of maybe your elbow on your right

3065
08:58:44.279 --> 08:58:54.880
arm has a certain feeling. Maybe your left wrist also

3066
08:58:55.200 --> 08:59:18.200
has its own individual physical sensation. What about your forearm

3067
08:59:19.279 --> 08:59:31.479
when your right arm you're right forearm. There may not

3068
08:59:31.639 --> 08:59:39.400
be any particular feeling that you could even give a

3069
08:59:39.479 --> 08:59:46.680
name to, may not feel like anything other than just

3070
08:59:47.279 --> 08:59:57.680
a feeling. You know, it's there. The feelings in your shoulders,

3071
09:00:00.520 --> 09:00:04.279
perhaps your shoulders when you think about them, kind of

3072
09:00:04.319 --> 09:00:09.360
almost like they're the same, you know, the same feeling,

3073
09:00:11.200 --> 09:00:14.520
almost like you both of your shoulders are just one thing.

3074
09:00:16.360 --> 09:00:27.439
Of course they're not. And when you focus on your

3075
09:00:27.520 --> 09:00:35.720
left shoulder and then on your right shoulder, maybe find

3076
09:00:35.919 --> 09:00:41.319
that you move the muscles a little bit, maybe tense

3077
09:00:41.439 --> 09:01:06.759
the muscles gently, noticing the difference in each shoulder and

3078
09:01:06.880 --> 09:01:22.680
your lower back, the left side of your lower back

3079
09:01:22.880 --> 09:01:34.319
and the right side of your lower back of course

3080
09:01:34.400 --> 09:01:46.599
that connection to your buttocks and to your hips, and

3081
09:01:46.759 --> 09:02:00.159
also moving up into the middle of your back. And

3082
09:02:00.319 --> 09:02:04.240
sometimes like right now, actually I want to focus on

3083
09:02:04.360 --> 09:02:10.000
their part. When I focused on my buttocks and then

3084
09:02:10.040 --> 09:02:14.639
I focused on the middle of my back, almost felt

3085
09:02:14.759 --> 09:02:18.119
like the muscles in my lower back were being stretched

3086
09:02:19.119 --> 09:02:29.000
very gently, just stretched a little bit. Even though I

3087
09:02:29.200 --> 09:02:38.000
wasn't doing anything to try to stretch your lower back,

3088
09:02:38.400 --> 09:02:46.599
it just seemed to happen. The feeling of very gently

3089
09:02:48.119 --> 09:03:09.520
stretching your lower back comes along. I have fearing in

3090
09:03:09.680 --> 09:03:30.520
your chest, just noticing what sensations you are experiencing in

3091
09:03:30.680 --> 09:03:46.240
your chest right now. And there's so much of the chest.

3092
09:03:47.439 --> 09:03:51.360
Obviously there's the collar bone leading to the chest. You've

3093
09:03:51.360 --> 09:03:59.959
got the chest bone, You've got the muscles in your chest.

3094
09:04:02.919 --> 09:04:09.000
Of course, if you're female, there's possibly the breasts. If

3095
09:04:09.040 --> 09:04:17.159
you're male, you've got the different well why not that

3096
09:04:17.319 --> 09:04:18.240
different these days, But.

3097
09:04:20.400 --> 09:04:21.560
There may be more.

3098
09:04:23.279 --> 09:04:29.599
Muscles at the top of the chest, but at the

3099
09:04:29.759 --> 09:04:34.680
side underneath it's pretty much the same. Whether you're a

3100
09:04:34.720 --> 09:04:39.759
man or a woman. There's muscles there, muscles that stretch

3101
09:04:39.880 --> 09:04:45.439
out to your back as well as breast tissue stretches

3102
09:04:46.080 --> 09:04:53.319
and moves into your back. To just being aware of

3103
09:04:53.400 --> 09:05:14.439
your chest, being with whatever feeling there is in your chest.

3104
09:05:30.119 --> 09:05:37.560
When I noticed that, I focus on my chest, I

3105
09:05:37.799 --> 09:05:42.759
feel it in my back, my upper back. I mean,

3106
09:05:42.840 --> 09:05:45.759
I guess the obvious reason would be because you know,

3107
09:05:45.799 --> 09:05:56.959
I'm breathing in and it stretches my chest and my

3108
09:05:57.080 --> 09:06:10.760
back at the same time. It feels it feels okay,

3109
09:06:17.559 --> 09:06:22.360
doesn't feel I've got a little bit of pain in

3110
09:06:22.480 --> 09:06:29.040
my right chest, A little bit not pain, but a

3111
09:06:29.080 --> 09:06:39.319
little discomfort. Maybe stiffness possibly, I don't know. I notice

3112
09:06:39.400 --> 09:06:49.239
my shoulders also watching to flex for some reason. I

3113
09:06:49.319 --> 09:06:57.239
think that's probably part of my upper back, that connection

3114
09:06:57.519 --> 09:07:01.879
between my shoulders and my other back. Because I can

3115
09:07:01.959 --> 09:07:06.760
move my shoulders and stretch the muscles in my back,

3116
09:07:09.279 --> 09:07:15.800
moving the shoulders backwards or up, which then moves I

3117
09:07:15.879 --> 09:07:32.000
think it's the scapulous in your back. It feels quite nice. Actually,

3118
09:07:37.440 --> 09:07:41.000
good thing about this is you can, if you want to,

3119
09:07:41.760 --> 09:07:56.639
you can just flex or stimulate the various muscles in

3120
09:07:56.760 --> 09:08:02.480
your body gently in order to get more of a

3121
09:08:02.680 --> 09:08:17.599
sense of how they feel. And when you're relaxing, when

3122
09:08:17.639 --> 09:08:21.680
you do tense and muscle and you let it go

3123
09:08:22.000 --> 09:08:29.279
and you let it relax, it relaxes way more.

3124
09:08:30.680 --> 09:08:31.559
Than it would normally.

3125
09:08:36.680 --> 09:08:41.760
You have to feel that you're able to do that.

3126
09:08:43.400 --> 09:08:47.160
There's no point in doing it. If there's an issue

3127
09:08:49.080 --> 09:08:54.559
with the per part of your body. You need to

3128
09:08:54.639 --> 09:09:05.040
be gentle with yourself or times when relax in deeply,

3129
09:09:08.080 --> 09:09:23.319
its important to be kind to yourself. As you notice

3130
09:09:23.519 --> 09:09:34.599
your mind. How much has your mind slowed down since

3131
09:09:34.680 --> 09:10:01.080
we started this recording? How came and peaceful is your

3132
09:10:01.160 --> 09:10:13.279
mind right now? We have nothing to think about and

3133
09:10:13.599 --> 09:10:21.000
just my voice to listen to, because you know the

3134
09:10:21.199 --> 09:10:31.919
intention behind this recording, this relaxation, at the very least,

3135
09:10:33.480 --> 09:10:38.040
for you to feel more relaxed at the end of

3136
09:10:38.080 --> 09:10:46.319
the recording than you did at the beginning. At the

3137
09:10:46.480 --> 09:10:58.639
very least your mind just slowed down as your body

3138
09:10:59.319 --> 09:11:14.599
continue use to relax because that's what you want to happen.

3139
09:11:18.599 --> 09:11:36.959
That's what you expect to happen, for relaxation, to fill

3140
09:11:39.599 --> 09:11:52.519
your body, maybe calm in your mind to the point

3141
09:11:52.720 --> 09:12:26.279
of boredom. When you start maybe to drift away. Drifting

3142
09:12:39.879 --> 09:12:47.760
it's almost as if you are moving further away from

3143
09:12:49.480 --> 09:13:03.279
your body and your mind just sleeving that there kind

3144
09:13:03.319 --> 09:13:08.400
of liking it an escape pod and a spaceship a movie,

3145
09:13:09.199 --> 09:13:12.199
a space movie. You know, when it gets a little pardon,

3146
09:13:12.319 --> 09:13:19.760
it sends the man far away from the spaceship.

3147
09:13:28.239 --> 09:13:31.080
Save to dream.

3148
09:13:39.319 --> 09:13:46.959
And continue to relax.

3149
09:14:40.319 --> 09:14:41.279
And pees.

3150
09:14:57.480 --> 09:15:12.800
So and peace.

3151
09:15:33.680 --> 09:15:48.120
And focusing on that feeling of those individual parts of

3152
09:15:48.239 --> 09:16:07.559
your body that's relaxing. One point one, you may find that.

3153
09:16:11.919 --> 09:16:13.080
Every now and then.

3154
09:16:15.879 --> 09:16:27.040
You realize that you weren't listening to my voice because

3155
09:16:27.080 --> 09:16:38.599
your mind started to imagine something different, maybe started to

3156
09:16:40.879 --> 09:16:52.000
almost move into some kind of a dreamy state, and

3157
09:16:52.120 --> 09:16:58.639
then you become aware of my voice again, And even

3158
09:16:58.800 --> 09:17:05.519
though you may want to focus on my voice, you

3159
09:17:05.680 --> 09:17:13.639
may also wish to allow your mind to just drift

3160
09:17:16.839 --> 09:17:33.279
naturally into that space of comfort and safety as you

3161
09:17:34.120 --> 09:17:51.199
feel or comfort spreading through your body like a warm

3162
09:17:51.400 --> 09:18:10.599
blanket covering you gently, keeping your body it just perfect temperature,

3163
09:18:21.000 --> 09:18:25.919
and even if you can hear background sounds.

3164
09:18:31.040 --> 09:18:36.839
They just don't seem to matter anymore.

3165
09:18:42.199 --> 09:18:58.599
There's that sense peace spreads through your mind like a

3166
09:18:58.800 --> 09:19:15.559
gentle greed, yet strong enough to blow away all negativity, strong.

3167
09:19:15.319 --> 09:19:15.760
Enough to.

3168
09:19:19.160 --> 09:19:29.319
Remove from your mind any anxiety or stress there was

3169
09:19:29.519 --> 09:19:44.599
there before, and blow away any other thoughts or feelings

3170
09:19:45.000 --> 09:20:10.440
that just don't fit with the sense relaxation, that it's

3171
09:20:10.720 --> 09:20:36.040
filly your body and your mind. Unless you focus on

3172
09:20:36.160 --> 09:20:42.639
your mind and count down from ten down to one.

3173
09:20:44.160 --> 09:20:46.680
With each number, your.

3174
09:20:50.040 --> 09:20:51.000
Your mind.

3175
09:20:53.959 --> 09:21:20.160
Become slightly relaxed, just just slightly so. Ten down to

3176
09:21:20.440 --> 09:21:28.480
nine just a slime movement, Nine down to eight, just

3177
09:21:28.599 --> 09:21:45.720
another small change in how you feel. Eight down to seven.

3178
09:21:48.480 --> 09:21:53.639
That feeling is is a gap, almost like a gap

3179
09:21:53.800 --> 09:22:02.120
that starts to get wider, the gap between those feelings

3180
09:22:03.839 --> 09:22:10.800
that you used to have in your life compared to

3181
09:22:10.959 --> 09:22:18.360
the feelings you have the growing now beings of comfort

3182
09:22:18.639 --> 09:22:28.440
and security and confidence. Then the gap becomes the wider

3183
09:22:30.080 --> 09:22:37.360
eight down to seven, seven, down to six. When you

3184
09:22:37.440 --> 09:22:44.680
get to five, line will start to have a certain

3185
09:22:46.080 --> 09:22:57.639
physical sensation, most like there's a magnet outside of your

3186
09:22:57.760 --> 09:23:04.559
head sucking a tension and the stress and any remaining

3187
09:23:05.680 --> 09:23:12.040
feelings that you don't want, sucking them out through your skull.

3188
09:23:17.839 --> 09:23:19.400
And then down to four.

3189
09:23:21.160 --> 09:23:27.919
You could start to really experience that sense of not

3190
09:23:28.239 --> 09:23:44.080
just emptiness, but space, place full of fresh air, place.

3191
09:23:43.800 --> 09:23:45.519
Where you can stretch.

3192
09:23:49.000 --> 09:23:51.639
It's almost as if as you go down to four

3193
09:23:52.440 --> 09:23:58.519
and three, your mind is expanding with this sense.

3194
09:24:01.199 --> 09:24:02.559
Of peace.

3195
09:24:03.879 --> 09:24:06.800
And tranquility growing.

3196
09:24:09.040 --> 09:24:17.360
To move down to When you get to one, in mind.

3197
09:24:20.400 --> 09:24:28.959
Just feels exactly how you want to feel, the most

3198
09:24:32.080 --> 09:24:44.199
perfect fearing, maybe a sensation that.

3199
09:24:45.800 --> 09:24:47.160
You'd like to keep.

3200
09:24:50.239 --> 09:24:53.480
A place that's safe where.

3201
09:24:54.800 --> 09:25:13.400
Nothing can affect you at all, and you can.

3202
09:25:13.480 --> 09:25:22.919
Stay in that that space comfort, confidence, confident in your

3203
09:25:23.040 --> 09:25:31.160
own ability to create this space and this fear and

3204
09:25:31.400 --> 09:25:38.279
comfort within your own mind just by counting ten.

3205
09:25:39.919 --> 09:25:40.599
Down to one.

3206
09:25:45.160 --> 09:25:48.559
And this is something that you can do yourself.

3207
09:25:49.559 --> 09:25:50.720
When you're on your own.

3208
09:25:55.400 --> 09:25:59.319
A time when you can maybe sit down, maybe just

3209
09:25:59.400 --> 09:26:11.440
for a few its close your eyes. Just counts slowly

3210
09:26:12.120 --> 09:26:25.839
from ten down to one, and we experience these feelings.

3211
09:26:26.919 --> 09:26:27.680
In your mind.

3212
09:26:33.519 --> 09:26:37.839
And when you feel that way in your mind, your

3213
09:26:37.919 --> 09:26:52.440
body copies your mind and then feeling its spread through

3214
09:26:52.680 --> 09:27:00.480
your spine and your nervous system into every part body,

3215
09:27:02.519 --> 09:27:16.720
travels through your blood stream, heathing and relaxing every article

3216
09:27:16.879 --> 09:27:33.480
of your existence. Now we can we can practice this

3217
09:27:33.839 --> 09:27:41.879
a few times before the end of the recording, and

3218
09:27:41.959 --> 09:27:48.239
then you can practice on your own. And each time

3219
09:27:49.120 --> 09:28:01.080
you count for ten out to one, the feelings and comforts, calmness,

3220
09:28:02.360 --> 09:28:09.879
deep deep relaxation becomes stronger.

3221
09:28:11.400 --> 09:28:12.199
Deeper.

3222
09:28:18.559 --> 09:28:34.559
Feeling, mind grain with these positive chemicals spread through your body, relaxing.

3223
09:28:36.040 --> 09:28:37.319
So crickly.

3224
09:28:38.919 --> 09:28:42.239
Relaxing the body and mind.

3225
09:28:44.839 --> 09:28:45.760
So very.

3226
09:28:47.239 --> 09:28:52.839
Very easy, just by count.

3227
09:28:54.559 --> 09:29:04.319
Dead down to the world so you can do.

3228
09:29:04.680 --> 09:29:09.680
Now, I will count from ten bounts of one. I'd

3229
09:29:09.879 --> 09:29:14.199
like you to repeat the number after me. So when

3230
09:29:14.239 --> 09:29:21.279
I say ten, you can just repeat to yourself.

3231
09:29:22.559 --> 09:29:22.800
Ten.

3232
09:29:28.120 --> 09:29:31.160
You just notice, be aware.

3233
09:29:32.239 --> 09:29:33.559
How you feel.

3234
09:29:37.440 --> 09:29:45.000
In your mind and your body, and when I say mine,

3235
09:29:47.440 --> 09:29:50.080
you can repeat to yourself.

3236
09:29:53.040 --> 09:29:58.120
Nine became.

3237
09:30:00.120 --> 09:30:00.559
The scene.

3238
09:30:02.400 --> 09:30:10.440
Increase in comfort, go home and see your mind and

3239
09:30:10.800 --> 09:30:19.319
in your pudding the same want, the same pain.

3240
09:30:22.360 --> 09:30:30.959
When I say seven, six, let's say five.

3241
09:30:33.760 --> 09:30:49.239
Four, When I say three two, last name, when I

3242
09:30:49.360 --> 09:30:50.080
say one.

3243
09:30:52.680 --> 09:30:54.440
You paint a number.

3244
09:31:01.879 --> 09:31:06.040
Now, of course, when you do this on your own.

3245
09:31:07.400 --> 09:31:12.279
About listening to me, you can say the numbers or

3246
09:31:12.400 --> 09:31:22.680
whatever speed that you feel it's necessary for you, so

3247
09:31:22.919 --> 09:31:29.000
you can adapt. So if you feel it, say the

3248
09:31:29.160 --> 09:31:36.800
numbers ten out one faster than I do, then you

3249
09:31:36.879 --> 09:31:40.639
go ahead and do that. Or if you feel when

3250
09:31:40.639 --> 09:31:44.360
you do it yourself that you'd like to have more

3251
09:31:46.279 --> 09:31:53.239
more space between the numbers, then you take a look longer.

3252
09:31:54.120 --> 09:32:05.199
To get from ten all way down, that's your choice.

3253
09:32:05.239 --> 09:32:18.199
Also to do you a con from tamp.

3254
09:32:18.120 --> 09:32:25.680
Down to one, get to one.

3255
09:32:27.199 --> 09:32:35.639
Hook lets recorded. Listen, course you're listening with music. The

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music will continue.

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Say no, I am.

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Five us.

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Twenty nineteen, eighteen sixty sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirty twelve, eleven.

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Nine eight, seven, six, five, four, three.

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Two.

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Now open your eyes.

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Noticin the physically a film have been counted down from

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twenty to one, allowing stress attention.

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To leave through the fingertips. And as you focus on fingertips,

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maybe they feel a little bit taper, jez. It's quite understanding.

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Attention has been exiting the body. Three of the wisdoms.

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So now go count from twenty down to one again,

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this time.

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The feel of belief, attention, stress, the anxiety that.

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He may have.

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Through your stomach. Just leave him through your stomach, poice

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as if it's just releasing the hold of stomach, Mabel

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to just the d chest of the late chest right

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surrounding anybody who can feel at tension of everybody where

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his life. Just then you may notice that your stomach last.

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As can.

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Twenty. That's yeah, twenty nineteen eighteen seventy six, day fifty

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eighteen thirteen nine.

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Eight chet se