June 28, 2025

(music) (10 hours) Q&A Friday | LMBYTS #1383 | Jason Newland | 27th June 2025

(music) (10 hours) Q&A Friday | LMBYTS #1383 | Jason Newland | 27th June 2025
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Hello, and welcome to Jasonnewlan dot com. My name is.

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It's got a smell of perfume for some reason. That's weird.

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It's got this picture. Wow, it's almost like Vinnie's just farted.

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But it's a nice smell, so it couldn't have been

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one of his farts. It couldn't have been. How strange.

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So yeah, welcome to me me. I'm Jason new Land.

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This is Q and A Friday. Please only listen when

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you can safely close your eyes. And it is the

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twenty seventh of June twenty and twenty five. Ooh ooh

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that's nice. Oh dear, so I've got many questions. I'll

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be honest with you. I'm recording this on Saturday morning.

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I am, I really am. Yes, it was dom dum dumn.

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So yeah, I'm doing this Saturday morning. It's nine forty

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seven am. I couldn't do it yesterday. I was so tired,

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so tired. I got home. What time did I get home?

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About two o'clock ish in the afternoon, And oh, I

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just yeah, I sat for a little while and then

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I went to bed when they'd lie down. Wow, I'm

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just on Facebook now and there's the politicians in America

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and not particularly loved. It seems not all of them

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are particularly cherished. Wow. Oh so anyway, let me have

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a look. Not particularly it makes me I'll tell you

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what makes me laugh, okay is people, you know, people

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say oh, we want our free speech, or they say

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something like, in this country, the prime minister is taking

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away our free speech and he's a Nobed or something

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like that, and it just makes me laugh because or

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they say, always this person is a dictator. He's a dictator.

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If the person in charge of your country was a dictator,

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you would not be standing there with a big placard

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calling that person names. You would be in a prison.

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You would not be allowed to do that. It makes

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us like, go do that in Russia or China. Go on,

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give it a go baby, go on. Ah, we don't

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have any free speech. No, I think you do. I

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think you do. It's a dictatorship. Okay. Well, the fact

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that you can say that online and you can walk

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around just freely saying that stuff means you're not living

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under the dictatorship means you don't understand what dictatorship means.

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I stopped now I'm moving back to Q and a Friday.

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I just find it funny you don't understand so Q

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and a Frido. I have six comments, but they're not

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all questions. I got one, two, three questions, a fourth

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one but wasn't really a question. But I have sorted

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out the issue, so I addressed that one first. Michelle

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asks me, not really a question. But when I listen

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to the playlists on your website, I'll get ads during

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the podcast anyway to avoid this? Thanks? And Jonathan writes

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in reply, no ads on Apple podcasts, and Michelle writes,

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I'm trying to listen to old podcasts from twenty twenty,

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not current ones, current ones, current ones, current ones. And basically,

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for anyone who doesn't know on my website, let's have

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a look my beautiful website, which is now back. There

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is the first but basically on the very first page

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you've got all the latest recordings, and then at the

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top of the page you've got four boxes that you

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can click on podcasts, playlists, podcast apps, and contact and

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then below that you've got the PayPal link and boring

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join the Facebook group link. If you click on playlists.

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At the moment, there's only four playlists, four different podcasts

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that I've got playlists for so clicking on let Me

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Buy You to Sleep, for example. And I'm still in

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the process of building this, okay, so it's gonna take

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a while, but I'm still in the process. So the

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only one that works at the moment is without music.

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There currently isn't any playlists old playlists with music at all,

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but there will be with music, without music, with music,

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five hours without music, five hours with music, ten hours

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without music, ten hours, or with music. But at the moment,

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just the without music ones. And I've got them in

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groups of fifty, so one to fifty, fifty one to

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one hundred. The last one I've got is one thousand,

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three hundred and fifty one to one thousand, four hundred,

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so I have Yeah, So I've updated all of that,

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so they were all now on there. So that's which

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wasn't before I did that yesterday, so I managed to

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make sure it's all updated. Now. What I didn't know

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is that the all right, I don't want to hearing

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someone's playing some a movie or something very loud in

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the garden. So I there was adverts in the middle

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of the podcast, which I would never have never, I

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would never do that, but the podcasts because all of

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the new podcasts that I've done, the ones like one

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hundred and one to one point fifty and all those,

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I'd set those up separate, and I didn't click the

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right box. I didn't cancel the adverts, so adverts were playing.

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I've now gone through every single podcast from the playlist

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days because it wasn't happening on the other podcast the

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normal podcasts, because as I said, I would never allow

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that to happen if I knew about it. I just

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didn't know about it, and I didn't even realize that

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the podcasts did that automatically had it that it's kind

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of a setting that you have to undo manually, and

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I didn't realize it did it. It's been quite a while.

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I don't know why it did it. Anyway, that has

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been reversed, so none of the playlists will have that anymore. So,

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just apologies to anyone that was affected by that. I've

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let Michelle know, but just letting everyone know as well. Now.

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So I've now got it changed anything else about my website,

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and so look, I will look at I think what

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I'm going to do is I'm going to have to

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do probably a little bit of reverse engineering with this one,

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because I can't go too far back with the podcasts

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because I'm only allowed to have the ones with music

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that have got the Spreaker music on them, the ones

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that because that's the only one that the podcast allows

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I put any other different music on there, they will

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just they might end up closing the podcast again, which

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I don't want to go through that game. So, you know,

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it might just be for the Let Me Boy to Sleep.

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It might only be the last one hundred, one hundred

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and fifty recordings maybe that has the music, and so

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I can't do that right now because I'm doing this,

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but I will look into that so that you can

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click on the you know, have the versions that are

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five hours of our music five hours with music. Technically

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I should be able to do five and ten hours

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of our music for every single one. But when I

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first started doing they Let Me Boy to Sleep, I

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didn't do more than just the initial recording. I didn't

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do different versions, didn't do longer versions, didn't do versions

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with music at all. So what I might do instead

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of going back and re making new, more and more recordings,

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I'm just going to leave the ones from the past

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as they were, but make sure that all future recordings

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are added and all more recent ones are as well.

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That made sense to me when I said it, but

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I'm not sure if it made sense after I said it.

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I'm not even sure if that sentence made sense. Did

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it make sense? I don't know. I'm not sure. I'm

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going to be sleeping a lot today. I am. I

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can feel it. I can feel when I've done this,

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I'm going to go and lie down very warm. Last night,

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very warm. Indeed, I got no chocolate. I got some

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groceries yesterday, and all that money I spent on groceries,

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and it's like, I don't know, there's like there's nothing

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to show for it. It's like what what what? What? What? Where?

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Where's all the stuff?

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Well?

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Here is everything. It's like this, there's hardly any fan

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theirs of breakfast, cereal and some milk, some bread rolls. Yeah,

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there's not a lot of stuff there. I'm not quite

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sure how it came to be one hundred and twenty

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two pounds. I don't know, one hundred and twenty two pounds.

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I'd spend less than that in a month back in

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nineteen ninety. That was quite a long time ago. To

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be fair. But yeah, I remember when thirty pound was

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quite a big shop. It was a good like two

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three bagfuls of food for thirty pound, and you know

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one hundred pound that would be an overloaded trolley full

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of stuff. Yeah, I need to look into that. I

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need to mix some changes. I think because I ordered

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my food on uber Eats, I get it delivered the groceries.

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I'm beginning to think that they just add on a

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lot more to the price because the delivery is two pound,

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and maybe they I can't remember if they charge any

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four the there's another charge, isn't there. I'm not sure. No,

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not a delivery. I think the delivery was No. Yeah,

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maybe the delivery was four pound. I always leave a

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tip of two pound, which is not a lot, but

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it does add up over the weeks. But then I

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also carried all the stuff up. Oh yeah, because I

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got quite a few bottles of water, so I sart

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four could of packs. I got four packs of water.

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But I ended up helping because when I first got

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stuff for muber eats a whole one of the main

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points of getting deliveries is so that I don't have

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to carry the stuff. It kind of seems to defeat

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the object of getting a delivery if I'm carrying it.

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I don't know. It just seems a bit of a

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weird concept really, and I the more time has gone by,

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the more often I end up helping them with the

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with the delivery. And part of the reason I don't

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want to sort of carry it is because of my back.

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So I was trying to avoid, you know, doing all

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the bending over and stuff if all possible. I don't know. Yeah,

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I seem to have I mean I did delivery. This

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is a few weeks ago. It was a takeaway delivery.

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I think it was pizza. Rub me up to come

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down and collect it. It's like, no, do you You

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come in and you knock on my door. That's that's

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how it works since the winter delivery driver is not

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even knock on your door anymore. Did you This is

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I'm just moaning today. Did you know in England, well,

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where I used to live, and probably the same in

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other places, maybe not London, but the same you know

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in like towns and stuff. In the eighties, the early eighties,

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maybe the middle eighties, even in the nineties, I think,

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but definitely in the eighties you'd order a taxi, they

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would knock on your door, don't actually knock on your

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door to come and collect, to let you know the

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taxes there. And then someone discovered the horn, and I

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think one of them must have seen the other one

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do it. I guess it's a bit like in an

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animal kingdom, isn't it. You see a monkey breaks a

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nut with a rock, like oh, and they all start

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doing it. It's a little bit like that, I think.

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And one taxi driver saw another taxi driver not getting

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out of the cab, not getting out of the car,

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and just bibbing his horn relentlessly until the person came out.

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Bear in the mind this is before mobile phone, and

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so the taxi couldn't phone, couldn't phone, you know, the

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person in the house. And then it just became that.

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That's how it became like everyone just bibbed their horn.

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And now they don't bid their horn. It's just they

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just sit there and maybe the phone you or there's

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you got apps now? And they said, you're a text,

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you're cars here, this is the registration of your car.

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The driver's name is unpronounceable. Potentially I try and pronounce

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the delivery driver's names. I do and they seem to

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like it. I think they appreciate the fact they've given

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it a go. But I get it wrong so often

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so hi abjubalandon bum bum dumb and they laugh. I

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remember one says that he said, name's my name is Jamie. Okay, sorry,

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I get it wrong, but I give it a go.

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I give it go, do I do? Because I don't

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know why. I just get bored. I guess baba di

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ba ba ba boom b b b b. I don't

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know about oper I'd kind of like to stop using them,

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really because it's expensive. But it's getting to the point.

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You know, McDonald's won't even deliver here now. They've delivered

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here before. They delivered either if you went on their

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website or downloaded their app, or if I was to

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go through Uber Eats or one of the other ones

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delivery or whatever, and they would deliver. McDonald's not anymore.

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They're decided it's too far away, which is kind of

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ironic because it's one of the closest places there is.

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I get deliveries from places way further away than that.

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The McDonald's here, well, the closest McDonald's probably about five

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minutes in the car from from my way. I live

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just one straight road. It's really it's not far at all.

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I wonder why that is. Maybe I don't know. I

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don't know, mind you. The McDonald's always seemed to be

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cold when it got to me. No, not, I've not

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ordered it many times, but I've done a bit of

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market research, and other neighbors that have got McDonald's they

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say the same thing, and the chips are cold, or

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the fryers are cold, and the burgers are kind of lukewarm.

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I've not used that term for years. Lukewarm where it

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came from. Lukewarm For those who don't know what it means,

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it just means slightly warm. It's a bit like when

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you fill your bath up and it's really way too hot,

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so you put some warm you put some cold water in,

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but then you put in too much cold water in

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and it goes from being too hot to too cold,

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too cool for a bath. It's not cold, but it's

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just lukewarm. And it's amazing how it's almost like three

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seconds too much to three seconds too much of cold

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water can turn it from being a nice bath to

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a cold bath. And then you need to put some

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more hot water in, but you have to unplug, you

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have to let some water out because it takes ages

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to get it hot again or warm. Strange and that

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it's one of those. It's an anomaly that needs to

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be sorted out. Forget space travel. We need to sort

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that one out. We need to figure out what going

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on there anyway, Tammy is the first question. Oh, by

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the way, my neighbor is he's doing all right? He's

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for those that want to know, still in the hospital.

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He's had a scan, like a full proper body scan,

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not like the ones I do with the recordings, but

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inside this big tube. And apparently the moment that because

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he kept moving around, I said, there wasn't the right

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time to start dancing.

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Was it?

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Really? We laughed. I mean, I think it's because you

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can't stop talking. He literally cannot stop talking. Is I

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was trying to figure what is it? What is it

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that creates someone that cannot stop talking? I can be

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a little bit like that myself. Is it disliking silences

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or pauses? But it's kind of talking without listening as well?

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So I do have a tendency of talking, but I

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can also listen, and it's it's not a monologue, not

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not like here when I do this, This is a monologue,

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isn't it? I guess, isn't it. It's a monologue monologo.

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But in person it's a two way street. But it

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depends on what the conversation or topic is. So if

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you start talking about boxing, providing your boxing fan and

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you know something about boxing, it's going to be a

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two way conversation like equally, but I'm going to be

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excited about what I'm going to say next, So I

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will be just waiting for you to stop talking so

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I can talk, but I will also be listening to

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what you're saying, and i'll readjust what I'm going to

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say depending on what you just said. It's almost like

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as a big cure things that I want to say,

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and they're just waiting impatiently to get on the ride

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the next roller coaster, which is my verbal diarrhea that's

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about to pop out my mouth when I talk next.

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It's a little bit like that. But I noticed that

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I can't listen to someone that's talking about something I'm

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not interested in, unless it's kind of in a scenario

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like this, you know, it's you know, never got my

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eyes closed and it's just relaxing. It's a kind of

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different thing. But in a real life situation, when there's

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a person just talking at me constantly for hours and hours,

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it's I find it hard. I just I don't, I

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don't not very good with that stuff. I've known a

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couple of people like that in my past, both really

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lovely people, genuinely really nice people. Where they once they

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start talking, I'd struggle to follow where they were going. One. Yeah,

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it's I think it's a there's a common thread, and

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I think I've kind of in some ways absorbed part

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of that kind of personality in order to produce these

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recordings in a way, because that's kind of how I

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started off. When with the let Me Boy to Sleep,

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it was I mean, it was just another version of

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something I'm previously done before anyway, which was speaking out

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quietly I think, or thinking out quietly, something like that.

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And there was another one, I forget the name of it,

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but it was where I was just I guess, stream

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of consciousness, just talking NonStop, and I realized I could

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do it. I could do it really easily. It was

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there was no no effort, nothing, it took, yeah, no energy.

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It was just the easiest thing in the world to

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just talk. I'm sure it could be with anyone else

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as well. I'm not I'm not saying I'm special, although

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all my teachers told me I was special. And but

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in a real life situation, you know, because if it's so,

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if you met me in real life, and of course

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as soon as you saw me, you'd want to rip

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my clothes off. Not because I'm sexiest, because I'm wearing

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really horrible clothes. It's unless you were, I mean to

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be fair, if you've if you're used to hearing me,

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listening to me just waffling on like I do, and

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you're used to just feeling relaxed, just maybe just the

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idea of listening to me when you think of me,

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maybe you feel quite relaxed in sign and perhaps my

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voice does send you to sleep. So if you saw

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me in person, met me in real life, it might

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be weird. I mean, it'd be weird, obviously, you know.

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I think if you've got together with all the people

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who have met me, they'll always say the same thing. Weird.

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Not in a bad way necessarily, but weird. But I

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can't quite put my finger on it is something not

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the same as other people, but not in a good way.

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You know, there's it's one good you know, you could

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feel sort of so proud of yourself. I'm not like

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other people, but with me, it's always been like I

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wish I was. And then you say other people, what's

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other people?

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What?

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Everyone is the same except you are? They obviously not?

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But I do have an abnormal brain, so I don't.

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I'm on the spectrum of something, but I just don't think.

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I don't think it's I don't think it's been discovered yet.

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Whatever spectrum I'm on, it's an unknown quantity. Wow, I

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would like my friend has just had this. I haven't

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ever started the podcast ever yet. Sorry, Sorry Tammy and

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Jonathan and Tina, who've got questions. I am going to

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answer the questions, I promise, but at the same time,

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I can't stop talking. It's I forgot what I was

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going to say. Now now that I've just I've interrupted,

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did myself rudely and completely forgot what I was going

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to say something about being on the spectrum and notes gone.

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It's gone out? Me ed, What was I going to

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say something about it? Should I get tested? Oh? So

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my neighbor he had a full scan. So I basically

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he had a scan to first of all, which was

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a cat scan, which scans the bones and the skeletal system.

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I do believe it scans other things as well, but this,

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this full body scan was it goes in depth, so

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scans your brain just you know it basically your entire body.

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And i'd like to I don't know if I particularly

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want to have a body scan, because who knows what's

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going on in there, and I think I perhaps rather

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not know in some ways, but I would like to

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have a brain scan because there's something not right with

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my brain. Then yeah, it's just and it's not it's

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just it's a fact there's something that never has My

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brain's never been correct, and so I've always been something off,

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a bit weird. So I'd love to get a brain

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scan and just for them to say, ah, because I

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might have only half a brain or something. You know,

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it might be one of those that it's like which

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would make make sense, but it might be just like,

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just have a what's that thing the brain? The brain stem.

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There might be a brain stem and just a little

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bit of jelly on the side. That might all. It

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might be maybe some peanut butter on the other side,

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a little bit of bread at the bottom. I don't

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know that, you know, there might not be anything in there,

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and it'd be nice to just find out, because that

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sort of bugs me. Doesn't bug me, but I just

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don't really understand it. Things like mental illness issues, mental

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health issues, conditions, you know, it's like bipolar schizophrenia. There's

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so many, isn't it so? And they're classed as brain conditions.

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So things like anxiety could be a brain condition, but

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quite often maybe is due to something that's happened in

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the past, due to a phobia, due to you know,

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social stuff, not necessarily also got autism as well. It's

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a brain thing, isn't it. So these are brain things.

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Then there's environmentally things that have changed someone environmentally behaviorally,

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which can technically be fixed with time, with therapy, with understanding.

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I guess that that you know, can hopefully be changed

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at least. So I wonder why, bearing in mind that

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there's millions of people with these brain conditions, let's just

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stay those three bipolar, schizophrenia and autism, and they're different things.

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I'm not saying autism is saying as bipolar schizophrenia I'm

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just saying, it's a it's a brain condition, isn't it.

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It's a brain thing, let's say call it. So why

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why are they're not just scan in every single person

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with everyone was bipolar. Just scan their brain, maybe every adult,

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not the kids. Maybe it's every adult with bipolar. Scan

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their brain once and then look and compare, do comparisons,

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and do the same with people with schizophrenia or there's

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lots of different conditions in between that, and you know,

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but then do the same with people with autism. Just

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scan the brains and look at it, look at them

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because at the moment, all they do the experts in

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this country anyway, I don't know. Maybe other countries they

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do more. But unless it's a brain injury, they don't

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tend to scan the brain all. So, which as guesswork

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based on how you feel and how you behave and

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previous history, previous medical history, you know, stuff like that.

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So just scan it. You know, if you get a

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broken bone, they scan the bone so they can see

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if it's broken or not. They can't tell if it's

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broken unless they scan it. I mean they probably can,

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but it probably it hurt a hell of a lot,

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could they have to really manipulate, you wouldn't they to

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sort of to feel where it's broken. But generally they

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do a scan so they can see if it's broken

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in one place, it's broken in two places, if everything's okay,

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you know, it's just as they're clean break And it's simple,

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simple process which is done probably millions of times a

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day around the world. So why can't they just do

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that with brains. And it's not about having lots of

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different scans, just one scan per person just to start with,

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because I know it's it's not safe to keep having

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keep having lots and lots and lots and lots of

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X ray scans and stuff. But just one per person

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and then they can get an idea what's really happening,

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because they do they do do brain scans on people,

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you know, when they do studies, but just do it

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on everyone. That's why, that's what I think, But only

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adults to start with. Leave the kids alone, you know,

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just to work on the adults first and then then

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perhaps move to the kids and work with that as well,

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because it's like a very different situation for kids to

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and for adults. So I don't know any ideas I

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suppose that any questions, but it could be, well, yeah,

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are you going to answer the questions that are for

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Q and A Friday, because that's why we're here. Weren't

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here to just be lectured about two about having brain scans.

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I don't know. I'm kind of quite passionate about that.

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I didn't realize I wasn't until just now quite passionate

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about possibly. It just makes sense to me. You know,

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I understand why they don't do full body scans for everyone.

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You know.

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It's simply because it's too expensive, apparently, and also they'd

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have to start treating people, you know, because you know,

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you know, you know, you know I'm saying, you know

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a lot. I know you know it would Yeah, it

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would open up a big old box of frogs. I

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don't think that's the correct terminology, because generally people only

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get a body scan when they're not when it's too late,

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but you know, when there's an issue. And if my

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friend hadn't turned yellow, he'd still be in this flat,

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unaware that he was unwell, because he feels fine, and

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he'd be enjoying the football or the rugby, or the

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cricket or the tennis. I don't know what other sports

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you likes, but you know that's what he lives for,

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that's his passion in life, So he'd be having the

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time of He just enjoys his life, so he'd be

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doing that all weekend and be happy. Instead, he's stuck

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in a hospital ward and he feels fine, physically, feels

468
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absolutely fine. It's strange. I've never known anything like this before.

469
00:40:30.239 --> 00:40:34.719
It just kind of doesn't make sense to me because

470
00:40:34.760 --> 00:40:39.239
he's not around. Everyone's around does not feel fine. He's

471
00:40:39.280 --> 00:40:42.960
the only one. I'm not saying he's the only one

472
00:40:43.000 --> 00:40:46.480
in the hospital that's sitting in the hospital bed feeling

473
00:40:46.519 --> 00:40:51.039
absolutely fine and kind of wondering why they're there. You know,

474
00:40:51.400 --> 00:40:53.199
there's no way I could say that, because it's no

475
00:40:53.320 --> 00:40:57.199
way of knowing. But I'm pretty sure there's not many

476
00:40:59.199 --> 00:41:04.440
that are just he feels perfect, or he feels exactly

477
00:41:04.480 --> 00:41:08.880
how he always has. And you know, he's slowed down.

478
00:41:08.960 --> 00:41:14.360
He's nearly eighty's he walks a lot slower than he

479
00:41:14.440 --> 00:41:17.320
would do that he did, you know, a year ago even,

480
00:41:17.880 --> 00:41:21.599
but he just he's aging a bit and he's careful

481
00:41:21.639 --> 00:41:23.440
when he walks up and down the stairs. But so

482
00:41:23.559 --> 00:41:26.880
am I. Ever since I fell down them stairs a

483
00:41:26.960 --> 00:41:33.000
couple of years ago. I'm full on both handles, I'm

484
00:41:33.039 --> 00:41:38.280
holding onto both banisters. I've got like five coats in

485
00:41:38.440 --> 00:41:41.199
case of fall. You know, there's a trampoline at the

486
00:41:41.199 --> 00:41:46.599
bottom of the stairs. That would be the worst thing

487
00:41:46.639 --> 00:41:48.159
to fall on, wouldn't it because you just end up

488
00:41:48.199 --> 00:41:53.119
banging into the ceiling. That would be such a really yeah,

489
00:41:54.480 --> 00:41:56.599
you know someone fell off of you know, if you're

490
00:41:56.599 --> 00:41:58.920
going to catch someone that has falling off of building

491
00:41:59.039 --> 00:42:01.480
or something, you know, and you're trying to save them,

492
00:42:02.119 --> 00:42:04.800
a trampoline wouldn't be the right thing to use. It

493
00:42:06.440 --> 00:42:09.679
end up back on the building or maybe onto another building.

494
00:42:15.039 --> 00:42:17.480
I wonder how much it would cost to have a

495
00:42:17.599 --> 00:42:21.800
brain scan. I'm going to look that up now. How

496
00:42:21.960 --> 00:42:32.519
much is it to have a brain scan? How much

497
00:42:32.599 --> 00:42:35.800
the brain scan cost? So I'm going to put in

498
00:42:36.000 --> 00:42:39.960
UK because it's coming up the US. It's a little

499
00:42:40.000 --> 00:42:49.199
bit different, I think in the UK because after your

500
00:42:49.280 --> 00:43:04.800
brain scan, three hundred and thirty five pound Oh oh, okay,

501
00:43:04.880 --> 00:43:08.039
so that's the brain scan. So if you have this

502
00:43:08.280 --> 00:43:13.440
is private MRI scans. Let's have a look. I'm braining

503
00:43:13.519 --> 00:43:18.039
head scans oh m r R MRI plus brain and

504
00:43:18.159 --> 00:43:26.679
head scans from one ninety nine. Humm, Noughfield Health. I

505
00:43:26.760 --> 00:43:30.840
think I'd probably want to use if I put in

506
00:43:30.960 --> 00:43:34.719
my town to see if anything comes up, because I

507
00:43:34.800 --> 00:43:36.639
want to I'd want to go somewhere that I knew,

508
00:43:37.000 --> 00:43:41.599
you know, not some I mean there's one here called

509
00:43:41.760 --> 00:43:44.559
scan dot com. I mean, it might as well just

510
00:43:44.639 --> 00:43:47.119
call usselves scam. I'm just I don't know. I'd be

511
00:43:47.199 --> 00:43:55.159
scared top MRI dot com. So no, Field Health. That's

512
00:43:55.280 --> 00:43:59.400
a hospital. I do believe I'd want to go somewhere

513
00:43:59.440 --> 00:44:08.079
that was like well known or well regarded, you know.

514
00:44:08.239 --> 00:44:13.360
I wouldn't want to just go to random places. You

515
00:44:13.480 --> 00:44:19.800
have to save up for that. That's for pets. HCA,

516
00:44:20.800 --> 00:44:24.400
all right, So HCA, that's an actual healthcare. So that's

517
00:44:24.760 --> 00:44:29.559
a place private. CT scan that's a cat scan, though,

518
00:44:29.559 --> 00:44:35.559
isn't it. I don't want a cat scan. I'm talking

519
00:44:35.639 --> 00:44:45.440
about brains, brains departments, tests and scans, all tests and

520
00:44:45.559 --> 00:44:59.800
scans's have a look coloscopopy HPV screaming there's loads, there's loads,

521
00:45:00.039 --> 00:45:17.519
it's bone density all BlimE me. Okay, yeah, see this

522
00:45:17.679 --> 00:45:22.039
is all I wonder if you can just I don't

523
00:45:22.079 --> 00:45:28.760
know how much it costs. It's not saying, oh, we'll

524
00:45:28.840 --> 00:45:31.760
come out of that. I think that's like an insurance

525
00:45:31.880 --> 00:45:33.239
thing that you need to be part.

526
00:45:33.079 --> 00:45:35.000
Of M M.

527
00:45:43.320 --> 00:45:52.760
House. This is weird alliance medical. I just if I was, Oh,

528
00:45:52.920 --> 00:46:00.320
this is this soul look self pay? Am all right?

529
00:46:03.159 --> 00:46:09.480
Have a referral? Do not have a referral? Okay? Our locations?

530
00:46:12.519 --> 00:46:15.079
Why is it put Oh there is this one. It's

531
00:46:15.159 --> 00:46:19.840
actually in the hospital. It's actually in the hospital area.

532
00:46:20.840 --> 00:46:25.320
How weird? I didn't. Wow, it's next to the hospital.

533
00:46:27.079 --> 00:46:29.679
Does it say how much four hundred and forty pound

534
00:46:34.320 --> 00:46:37.760
I might do that? Actually? Is that the whole body scan?

535
00:46:38.000 --> 00:46:38.920
Is that whole everything?

536
00:46:40.679 --> 00:46:40.960
Or no?

537
00:46:41.280 --> 00:46:45.559
It's four pound. It's four hundred and forty pound for

538
00:46:45.719 --> 00:46:53.000
one body part. Blimey. So let's see what body parts

539
00:46:53.320 --> 00:47:02.039
are they offering. They're not even offer the brain unless

540
00:47:02.159 --> 00:47:06.920
it's head brain head, Yeah, brain head, four hundred and

541
00:47:07.000 --> 00:47:18.360
forty check prices four hundred and forty pounds, So they're

542
00:47:18.400 --> 00:47:19.840
not offering it for the whole body.

543
00:47:21.599 --> 00:47:21.840
Wow.

544
00:47:23.559 --> 00:47:32.440
Left thumb check prices? You're joking, they're left thumb. They're

545
00:47:32.480 --> 00:47:36.800
going to charge four hundred and forty pounds for a thumb.

546
00:47:38.719 --> 00:47:44.800
A thumb all together? Now a thumb, I mean, not

547
00:47:44.920 --> 00:47:50.199
even both funds. Four hundred and forty pounds for one thumb.

548
00:47:52.400 --> 00:48:01.119
That's I don't know. I can't. That's but if you

549
00:48:01.199 --> 00:48:05.880
have your spine done four hundred and forty how can

550
00:48:06.400 --> 00:48:09.719
a spine be the same price or a brain the

551
00:48:09.840 --> 00:48:12.480
brain in the head be the same price as a thumb.

552
00:48:14.800 --> 00:48:18.440
It's just all about little finger.

553
00:48:29.039 --> 00:48:29.480
I don't know.

554
00:48:31.920 --> 00:48:34.039
I was going to say I could it, says groin,

555
00:48:34.440 --> 00:48:37.199
right and left. They can't. Not even going to offer

556
00:48:37.280 --> 00:48:40.320
the whole of the grain. I would like to get

557
00:48:40.400 --> 00:48:43.760
scanned to see if there's still anything down there. I'm

558
00:48:43.760 --> 00:48:47.000
not sure. I haven't seen anything for years. Right and

559
00:48:47.159 --> 00:48:58.559
left thumb, Oh toenails. I'll come back to that another time.

560
00:49:00.360 --> 00:49:06.400
That's quite interesting. I might do that. So Tammy asks,

561
00:49:06.559 --> 00:49:09.360
how are you doing with the week of chaos around

562
00:49:09.400 --> 00:49:13.960
the house? Is your friend up and about now? It's

563
00:49:14.079 --> 00:49:17.840
been a very very weird week. I'll beat it up

564
00:49:18.679 --> 00:49:23.599
up and back for the hospital. They're went back every

565
00:49:23.719 --> 00:49:33.360
day since Friday last week. So it's Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday,

566
00:49:34.320 --> 00:49:37.559
so it's eight days in a row. I'm not going

567
00:49:37.639 --> 00:49:43.199
up today. He's got another visitor come in later afternoon,

568
00:49:43.920 --> 00:49:46.280
and I can't go up Sunday because there's no buses

569
00:49:47.239 --> 00:49:50.760
or there is that. The buses are just really random

570
00:49:51.280 --> 00:49:53.039
every two hours, and I'm not going to do that.

571
00:49:54.480 --> 00:49:56.400
As it is, it takes two hours if I get

572
00:49:56.400 --> 00:49:59.440
a bus, it takes two hours there, two hours back

573
00:50:00.039 --> 00:50:02.719
because of the waiting around, and there's two buses to

574
00:50:02.880 --> 00:50:07.119
catch and a bit of walking. So yeah, I'm not

575
00:50:08.119 --> 00:50:12.119
I'm having two days off and Vinnie, little Vinceta here

576
00:50:14.119 --> 00:50:16.159
seems to be quite happy that I'm here with him

577
00:50:17.000 --> 00:50:22.199
because yesterday he didn't even bark when I left. He

578
00:50:22.360 --> 00:50:24.000
just sat on the sofa and just looked at me,

579
00:50:24.199 --> 00:50:32.320
and I left and nothing. That's never happened before. You know,

580
00:50:32.440 --> 00:50:37.800
even if I just go out and pop around a corner,

581
00:50:39.840 --> 00:50:46.320
he would bark, but this time nothing. What's what's been

582
00:50:46.519 --> 00:50:51.639
weird is Vinnie's behavior the last week now. It's been

583
00:50:51.719 --> 00:50:55.480
off his food. I think that's partly because of the heat,

584
00:50:57.239 --> 00:50:59.320
but I know it's not just because of that, because

585
00:51:00.159 --> 00:51:02.960
I left some food out and I gave him a

586
00:51:03.000 --> 00:51:05.719
treat which you'd normally just gobble down, and he'd be

587
00:51:05.840 --> 00:51:10.599
like chewing on it. The tree was still on the

588
00:51:10.679 --> 00:51:17.079
settee when I got back six hours later, and then

589
00:51:17.119 --> 00:51:25.000
he ate it. So he's sulking, basically. I think it's

590
00:51:25.079 --> 00:51:33.199
been sulking the last few days. He refused to get

591
00:51:33.239 --> 00:51:37.559
on my bed. I didn't want to sleep with me,

592
00:51:38.960 --> 00:51:42.079
which is a little bit upset and actually because for

593
00:51:44.360 --> 00:51:47.159
however long I've had him two and a half years,

594
00:51:47.320 --> 00:51:50.800
he slept in my bed. We sleep together, you know,

595
00:51:50.920 --> 00:51:54.320
that's that's our thing. And that sounds weird, doesn't it.

596
00:51:54.880 --> 00:52:00.559
That's our thing, that is, and I don't care who

597
00:52:00.679 --> 00:52:06.320
knows it. Yeah, so he's but it's not just that

598
00:52:06.519 --> 00:52:08.599
he's been sort of sitting there just staring at me

599
00:52:08.840 --> 00:52:18.800
from the floor making the odd dollm So I don't know.

600
00:52:19.079 --> 00:52:22.920
But last night he got in the bed with me,

601
00:52:23.079 --> 00:52:27.079
which is nice. So that was that was quite a

602
00:52:27.119 --> 00:52:32.320
pleasant experience again, But then I woke up and he

603
00:52:32.440 --> 00:52:35.800
wasn't in the bed. He wasn't in the bedroom, he

604
00:52:35.960 --> 00:52:41.480
wasn't in the living room. I thought, where's Vinnegon? He

605
00:52:41.599 --> 00:52:46.519
was lying down in front of the front door, leaning

606
00:52:46.559 --> 00:52:49.280
against the front door. Now there's a chance that was

607
00:52:49.400 --> 00:52:52.039
just the coolest place for him to be. I hope

608
00:52:52.039 --> 00:52:59.639
that's the reason. But I think he is pining for

609
00:52:59.760 --> 00:53:05.039
his uncle who's in hospital, because he's used to hearing

610
00:53:05.119 --> 00:53:09.639
him coming and going. He knows everyone in this building.

611
00:53:11.079 --> 00:53:13.840
He knows where everyone is and who they are, and

612
00:53:14.199 --> 00:53:16.599
because he can smell and hear them, can't I guess,

613
00:53:16.719 --> 00:53:22.000
And I suppose to him this building's his, his home,

614
00:53:22.519 --> 00:53:25.440
even though we live in one of the flats. He

615
00:53:26.360 --> 00:53:28.639
gets excited to say lo to all of them. He

616
00:53:28.760 --> 00:53:35.000
knows everyone here, and his uncle opposite me is one

617
00:53:35.039 --> 00:53:43.239
of his favorite people. So I think he's getting a

618
00:53:43.320 --> 00:53:49.559
little bit sad missing him, just missing because sometimes you know,

619
00:53:49.920 --> 00:53:52.119
I'll be in here and Vinie will be out of

620
00:53:52.159 --> 00:53:56.599
the front door and my neighbor be talking to Vinnie

621
00:53:56.639 --> 00:53:59.199
through the door, just saying hell lo to. They'll be

622
00:53:59.239 --> 00:54:03.920
having this big, full on conversation starts leaving to it.

623
00:54:07.320 --> 00:54:09.159
So it's been a bit strange. I managed to do

624
00:54:09.239 --> 00:54:12.039
a few little bits. I did some washing, some laundry,

625
00:54:13.320 --> 00:54:16.400
and kind of ran out of food. But I managed

626
00:54:16.400 --> 00:54:20.519
to get some food yesterday afternoon or like early evening,

627
00:54:21.079 --> 00:54:32.920
got a delivery and what else. Oh, the other day,

628
00:54:33.079 --> 00:54:40.719
Vinnie stayed with a friend. This was Thursday morning. He

629
00:54:40.880 --> 00:54:46.320
stayed with Archie so that was a neighbor around the corner,

630
00:54:47.320 --> 00:54:51.599
and he's never he's never had a playdate before with

631
00:54:51.760 --> 00:54:56.679
another dog. Ever, it's the first time where he's been,

632
00:54:57.360 --> 00:54:59.679
you know, like a dog he knows really well and

633
00:55:00.119 --> 00:55:06.239
gone around because it's not an Archie for years. They're

634
00:55:06.320 --> 00:55:09.000
best friends. But they see each other not all the

635
00:55:09.119 --> 00:55:12.519
time but usually a few times a week, depending on,

636
00:55:12.840 --> 00:55:18.559
you know, if we managed to bump into them. But

637
00:55:18.679 --> 00:55:21.159
they just get on so well. And they had a

638
00:55:21.239 --> 00:55:24.880
really good time together playing in the garden. Apparently they

639
00:55:24.920 --> 00:55:28.119
were jumping all over her, the mother of the dogs,

640
00:55:28.559 --> 00:55:30.519
jumping all over her like while she was trying to

641
00:55:30.639 --> 00:55:35.119
use her phone or whatever, and probably fighting over attention,

642
00:55:35.320 --> 00:55:39.199
to be honest. So they had a really good time.

643
00:55:41.440 --> 00:55:46.159
And I think Vinnie is trying to go back there

644
00:55:46.239 --> 00:55:48.760
now because he wants to go back and play because

645
00:55:48.800 --> 00:55:52.480
he had a good time. But I can't really invite myself.

646
00:55:52.559 --> 00:55:55.480
Can I kind of knock on the door? Can Vinnie

647
00:55:55.519 --> 00:55:59.559
come to play? Please? Can Archie come out to play? Please?

648
00:56:00.800 --> 00:56:07.360
Can't really do that, can we really?

649
00:56:08.400 --> 00:56:08.440
Not?

650
00:56:09.400 --> 00:56:09.960
Really?

651
00:56:11.360 --> 00:56:12.199
Not really?

652
00:56:15.960 --> 00:56:18.079
So he's a bit grumpy, but I think he's enjoying

653
00:56:18.119 --> 00:56:21.159
me being here, So he's lying down next to me.

654
00:56:21.280 --> 00:56:26.280
He's on his side, his feet and his hands both

655
00:56:26.360 --> 00:56:32.000
all touching me. So he's I think he's a little

656
00:56:32.000 --> 00:56:41.719
bit more. He looks relaxed. He looks very relaxed. As

657
00:56:41.800 --> 00:56:49.199
far as my neighbor goes, he's it's the same. He's

658
00:56:49.320 --> 00:56:59.000
still in the hospital. He's chatting. He's bored, like everyone

659
00:56:59.079 --> 00:57:01.639
in there, he's bored being there. He doesn't want to

660
00:57:01.679 --> 00:57:04.639
be there. No one does that. They really, let's face it,

661
00:57:04.880 --> 00:57:10.880
who wants to be in a hospital. So, yeah, but

662
00:57:11.079 --> 00:57:14.559
he's physically fine. It physically feels fine. I mean, he's

663
00:57:14.599 --> 00:57:19.199
not physically fine, but he's he feels okay. He's actually

664
00:57:19.320 --> 00:57:25.039
very unwell. So it's just he hasn't got any symptoms

665
00:57:25.079 --> 00:57:33.079
other than the jaundice yees, So it's kind of I

666
00:57:33.159 --> 00:57:35.639
don't know. I think this is a very confusing for him,

667
00:57:37.079 --> 00:57:42.840
understandably so, and he's just waiting to go home. But

668
00:57:44.199 --> 00:57:47.559
there are some benefits, I don't mean, yeah, there's there's

669
00:57:47.559 --> 00:57:49.880
the things he's getting there that he doesn't get at home.

670
00:57:51.599 --> 00:57:56.159
One is being fed three times a day. He doesn't

671
00:57:56.199 --> 00:58:01.719
eat three times a day at home. So I think

672
00:58:01.719 --> 00:58:07.079
he's quite enjoying getting food, like having cooked food. I

673
00:58:07.159 --> 00:58:11.000
think he has a breakfast cereal in the morning, but

674
00:58:11.079 --> 00:58:19.719
he's having too cooked meals a day. He's he's made

675
00:58:19.800 --> 00:58:24.440
friends with the person sitting oppositely next to him, so

676
00:58:24.599 --> 00:58:29.840
he's he's got a captive audience to talk to, and

677
00:58:29.960 --> 00:58:32.800
he doesn't have that normally because he lives on his own.

678
00:58:33.320 --> 00:58:35.320
I mean, you know, I speak to him and I

679
00:58:35.440 --> 00:58:38.920
see him and stuff, but like me, I live on

680
00:58:39.000 --> 00:58:41.679
my own, so I used to being on my own.

681
00:58:43.519 --> 00:58:45.920
I think the difference between this is I enjoy I

682
00:58:46.119 --> 00:58:52.679
enjoy the silence, the quiet, but if you brought someone

683
00:58:52.760 --> 00:59:01.039
in here, the chances are I wouldn't stop talking, you know.

684
00:59:01.239 --> 00:59:07.079
So there's some similarities between us in a sense. Because

685
00:59:07.800 --> 00:59:12.440
that's why I tried to explain this to a few

686
00:59:12.519 --> 00:59:15.679
people over the years, why I don't want anyone in

687
00:59:15.760 --> 00:59:16.960
here when I'm watching boxing.

688
00:59:18.360 --> 00:59:18.519
You know.

689
00:59:18.559 --> 00:59:20.119
I had a couple of friends and say I'll come

690
00:59:20.119 --> 00:59:22.239
around and watch the A J fight, or we watched

691
00:59:22.280 --> 00:59:26.239
the Tyson Fury fight, and I said, no, I don't

692
00:59:26.280 --> 00:59:28.559
want you. Okay, I don't don't say I don't want

693
00:59:28.599 --> 00:59:31.280
you here, but no, I don't don't like people being

694
00:59:31.320 --> 00:59:36.480
here when I'm watching the boxing. For two reasons. Three reasons,

695
00:59:36.519 --> 00:59:43.440
actually four reasons. There's a few reasons there's I'll go

696
00:59:43.599 --> 00:59:50.559
through them. The first one is I can't relax if

697
00:59:50.599 --> 00:59:54.360
someone else is here. I don't relax. There's there's not Yeah,

698
00:59:54.559 --> 00:59:58.000
it's not relaxing for me to have. I'm relaxed when

699
00:59:58.000 --> 01:00:04.199
I've got Vinny here and that's it. No one else

700
01:00:04.719 --> 01:00:06.719
I don't have. I don't feel relaxed with anyone else.

701
01:00:07.480 --> 01:00:09.719
I'm not saying I won't ever feel, but at the

702
01:00:09.760 --> 01:00:14.119
moment and there's no one, but I feel relaxed around.

703
01:00:15.280 --> 01:00:17.719
But it doesn't mean that I don't you know, I

704
01:00:17.760 --> 01:00:19.800
don't mean I dislike the person if I don't feel

705
01:00:19.840 --> 01:00:25.440
relaxed around them. I just feel if there's someone else

706
01:00:25.559 --> 01:00:28.079
in my home, it puts me on edge a little

707
01:00:28.079 --> 01:00:34.760
bit a lot sometimes. And the other thing is they

708
01:00:34.840 --> 01:00:36.559
might want to sit next to me on the sofa.

709
01:00:36.840 --> 01:00:40.400
I don't like that. The only one that sits next

710
01:00:40.480 --> 01:00:44.079
to me is Vinnie. I don't That other side of

711
01:00:44.159 --> 01:00:49.400
the sofa is for rubbish, well not rubbish, but just stuff,

712
01:00:51.559 --> 01:00:55.480
just bits and bobs. Is just messy, but that's what

713
01:00:55.639 --> 01:00:58.880
that's that's what that chair is for. This side is

714
01:00:58.960 --> 01:01:03.159
for me and then if I'm not sitting in it,

715
01:01:04.840 --> 01:01:07.280
and then he can sit to the side, so he

716
01:01:07.360 --> 01:01:09.199
takes up a little bit at the other seat and

717
01:01:09.239 --> 01:01:13.239
a little bit of this seat, and that's his area.

718
01:01:19.000 --> 01:01:25.599
So that's two reasons. The third reason would be it'd

719
01:01:25.639 --> 01:01:33.039
be distracting. Having someone here is a distraction, which I

720
01:01:33.119 --> 01:01:39.079
don't want when I'm watching boxing or which is why

721
01:01:39.079 --> 01:01:44.679
I don't want ever, maybe not when I'm at home.

722
01:01:46.039 --> 01:01:52.320
Don't need that distraction. Generally, It's probably not true all

723
01:01:52.320 --> 01:01:56.639
the times, but generally, you know, if it's if I'm

724
01:01:56.639 --> 01:02:00.519
going to watch the boxing, I want to be able

725
01:02:00.559 --> 01:02:03.280
to concentrate on that. Even if I don't want to

726
01:02:03.320 --> 01:02:05.840
concentrate on it, I don't want to have to concentrate

727
01:02:05.920 --> 01:02:15.559
on what someone else is saying. Another reason is there's

728
01:02:15.599 --> 01:02:23.000
the chance they're going to talk constantly, which will annoy me,

729
01:02:23.639 --> 01:02:27.159
distract me. It will be I lose, I lose my

730
01:02:28.280 --> 01:02:30.760
for me to focus, I can do one thing at

731
01:02:30.800 --> 01:02:35.639
the time. That's it. And the other reason is because

732
01:02:35.719 --> 01:02:46.760
I will talk. I will definitely talk constantly, and that

733
01:02:46.840 --> 01:02:52.360
will distract me because I I might end up talking

734
01:02:52.360 --> 01:02:58.280
about something completely irrelevant and I'll miss an important thing

735
01:02:59.360 --> 01:03:01.679
in what I'm watching, whether it's a movie, whether it's

736
01:03:02.559 --> 01:03:07.960
a TV series, or whether it's the boxing. If I

737
01:03:08.039 --> 01:03:12.719
miss something when I'm on my own, I can rewind,

738
01:03:13.320 --> 01:03:20.280
but you know, ultimately it's because I haven't focused. But

739
01:03:20.360 --> 01:03:24.320
if I miss something, an important bit of information, because

740
01:03:24.440 --> 01:03:27.119
someone else is talking to me or I'm talking to them,

741
01:03:27.800 --> 01:03:39.599
that's just yeah, I can't really do that. I'm trying

742
01:03:39.639 --> 01:03:41.360
to think of any other reasons, but I think that's

743
01:03:41.480 --> 01:03:47.719
enough reasons. It's I hope that I could meet someone

744
01:03:47.800 --> 01:03:53.360
one day that I don't feel that way with, you know,

745
01:03:54.119 --> 01:03:56.679
without getting all romantic. I think it'd be quite nice

746
01:03:57.039 --> 01:04:00.880
one day I had someone I could just, I don't know,

747
01:04:00.920 --> 01:04:08.320
maybe hold hands with or cuddle, you know, maybe and

748
01:04:08.440 --> 01:04:12.840
watch boxing and maybe they'd be into boxing or they're

749
01:04:12.920 --> 01:04:14.480
just I don't, I don't know.

750
01:04:16.840 --> 01:04:17.440
The thing is.

751
01:04:19.280 --> 01:04:21.039
They'd have to sit on top of Vinny, wouldn't they,

752
01:04:21.079 --> 01:04:25.400
because he's that's where he sits, so be quite hard.

753
01:04:26.480 --> 01:04:29.119
But knowing him, because he's got a real thing for women.

754
01:04:30.840 --> 01:04:34.239
He's really got I mean, he gets so much attention

755
01:04:34.400 --> 01:04:37.960
from women. He knows it. He's a little bit of

756
01:04:38.000 --> 01:04:43.079
a little stud, nothing thin ears, so he'd be all

757
01:04:43.159 --> 01:04:51.320
over equally, if I had a female friend romantically, he

758
01:04:51.639 --> 01:04:57.639
would probably not want me going anywhere near. It'd be

759
01:04:59.199 --> 01:05:04.559
should be his friend basically in his mind, so he'd

760
01:05:04.599 --> 01:05:06.639
be hogging her. He'd be all over sitting on a

761
01:05:06.760 --> 01:05:11.960
lap and probably wouldn't He probably wouldn't even want me

762
01:05:12.639 --> 01:05:18.679
and her even sitting next to each other. The other

763
01:05:18.840 --> 01:05:21.960
thing is when you got visitors here, there always breathing,

764
01:05:22.039 --> 01:05:30.599
and they always breathing, make a noise breathing. I don't know.

765
01:05:30.719 --> 01:05:31.039
I just.

766
01:05:36.519 --> 01:05:38.519
I'd love to wish. I'd love to be the kind

767
01:05:38.559 --> 01:05:41.719
of person that just enjoyed being around lots of people.

768
01:05:43.679 --> 01:05:45.920
I can be around one person. I can have a

769
01:05:46.039 --> 01:05:48.239
conversation that was lad, wasn't it? I can have a

770
01:05:48.280 --> 01:05:53.159
conversation one on one. I cannot have a conversation with

771
01:05:53.280 --> 01:06:03.639
more than one person at a time without feeling I

772
01:06:03.719 --> 01:06:05.840
feel unwell when it happens. I'll be honest, I do.

773
01:06:06.960 --> 01:06:13.679
And there's certain situations I can't I cannot avoid. So

774
01:06:13.840 --> 01:06:18.280
if I see my dad is if he speaks to

775
01:06:18.280 --> 01:06:20.039
me on the phone, there's always both of them, him

776
01:06:20.079 --> 01:06:22.840
and his wife. Now I can talk to either of

777
01:06:22.880 --> 01:06:25.679
them on their own. Talking to both of them is

778
01:06:25.760 --> 01:06:30.239
hard because I can't, especially on the phone, I cannot

779
01:06:30.320 --> 01:06:37.000
gauge what their emotions are, or even in person, I

780
01:06:37.039 --> 01:06:39.719
can't really gauge what their emotions are. But because there's

781
01:06:39.840 --> 01:06:44.760
too I can can't. I can like probe one that's wrong,

782
01:06:44.840 --> 01:06:49.360
isn't it, but kind of ask questions of one person

783
01:06:49.840 --> 01:06:52.440
to find out what they mean. When you've got two

784
01:06:52.599 --> 01:06:58.719
people talking and then they're talking, they're kind of maybe

785
01:07:01.679 --> 01:07:04.199
I don't want to say, contradicting each other, maybe saying

786
01:07:04.239 --> 01:07:08.079
different things, but maybe talking about different things as well.

787
01:07:09.760 --> 01:07:17.320
I find it confusing. And you know when a few

788
01:07:17.440 --> 01:07:21.960
years ago, I used to say to my if my

789
01:07:22.079 --> 01:07:25.360
dad phoned a say, could take my speaker phone please,

790
01:07:26.519 --> 01:07:29.960
so I could just have one on one conversation. Be refused.

791
01:07:32.760 --> 01:07:37.920
And it's just because I really really struggle to communicate

792
01:07:38.960 --> 01:07:44.920
with more than one person. And this is nothing bad

793
01:07:45.000 --> 01:07:49.320
about my dad's wife, because she's brilliant. You know, I

794
01:07:49.519 --> 01:07:52.360
love talking to her one on one, the two of

795
01:07:52.440 --> 01:07:57.360
them together, I just struggle with anyone two people, and

796
01:07:57.480 --> 01:07:59.320
when they're together, even in front of me, it's like,

797
01:08:02.039 --> 01:08:07.840
is those silences that do me? Where I say something

798
01:08:07.920 --> 01:08:12.840
and there's just nothing. Now in person, you can see

799
01:08:12.880 --> 01:08:16.600
a facial expression. It doesn't mean I understand what it means,

800
01:08:16.680 --> 01:08:23.359
but it's something there's and I can question it. But

801
01:08:23.520 --> 01:08:25.600
on the phone and it's just silent, I can't I

802
01:08:25.720 --> 01:08:32.560
say hello, Well, I do he's still there. What you're feeling.

803
01:08:34.239 --> 01:08:38.880
What's your internal response to what I just said? It's

804
01:08:39.520 --> 01:08:42.720
I can't really do that. I mean I suppose I could,

805
01:08:42.880 --> 01:08:48.319
but it would be weird. You know, how are you

806
01:08:48.439 --> 01:08:53.760
both feeling specifically about the last paragraph? Is there an

807
01:08:53.800 --> 01:08:57.600
emotional response from what I just said. Please explain it

808
01:08:57.680 --> 01:08:59.720
to me in a way that I'll be able to

809
01:08:59.760 --> 01:09:11.560
want stand. I don't know, so I I've really it's weird.

810
01:09:11.640 --> 01:09:14.640
To tell you, what's weird. My neighbor on the phone,

811
01:09:18.039 --> 01:09:25.359
he can have a conversation backward and forward in person,

812
01:09:26.520 --> 01:09:29.640
not so much. He can, but it doesn't happen so much.

813
01:09:31.399 --> 01:09:33.760
It's really weird. Like he was talking about some stuff,

814
01:09:34.439 --> 01:09:38.880
talk about cricket or some spot. I've told him before

815
01:09:39.079 --> 01:09:42.399
when you talk about sports, I switch off. I stopped listening.

816
01:09:43.800 --> 01:09:47.880
I've told him many times about that. But I can't

817
01:09:48.000 --> 01:09:51.760
say that to him at the moment because it's rude.

818
01:09:52.800 --> 01:09:55.079
I mean, you could argue it's rude before but it

819
01:09:55.199 --> 01:09:59.119
was truthful. And in the past we've been talking and

820
01:09:59.600 --> 01:10:01.439
he will remind me of something he said to me.

821
01:10:01.520 --> 01:10:08.119
I said, oh, I'll probably just stop listening, which is true. Again,

822
01:10:08.520 --> 01:10:11.960
may be rude, but he laughed because I've told him

823
01:10:11.960 --> 01:10:15.319
if you if you talk too much at me, I'm

824
01:10:15.359 --> 01:10:17.000
not going to hear it. I'm going to switch off.

825
01:10:17.319 --> 01:10:20.680
And it's not because I'm not purposely switching off. It's

826
01:10:20.880 --> 01:10:26.880
just I'm so bored with what you're saying. Again, that

827
01:10:27.000 --> 01:10:31.720
sounds rude, doesn't it. It's not in a not in

828
01:10:31.800 --> 01:10:35.960
a rude way. It's just a factual thing. If you

829
01:10:36.760 --> 01:10:40.279
if it's interesting, you've got my attention, or if it's

830
01:10:40.399 --> 01:10:44.880
interesting to me, I mean, if I'm enthralled. So sometimes

831
01:10:45.479 --> 01:10:49.359
that's a weird thing. The amount of people I said

832
01:10:49.399 --> 01:10:52.640
this to and I don't mean to so someone maybe

833
01:10:52.680 --> 01:10:58.439
I see regularly dog walker, maybe even a friend, someone

834
01:10:58.479 --> 01:11:00.079
that I speak to, you know, say a load to

835
01:11:00.239 --> 01:11:03.439
maybe someone I've known for years, and I say something

836
01:11:03.520 --> 01:11:08.239
I was like, zing, it's like, wow, Okay, this is

837
01:11:08.319 --> 01:11:12.159
the first time you've got my interest since I've known you.

838
01:11:13.720 --> 01:11:17.880
And I shouldn't say stuff like that. But it's kind

839
01:11:17.920 --> 01:11:22.319
of true because I'm all in. I'm completely focused on

840
01:11:22.439 --> 01:11:25.520
what they're saying, and there's nothing more important to me

841
01:11:26.119 --> 01:11:28.880
in that moment than what they're going to say next.

842
01:11:32.039 --> 01:11:39.640
It's like super charged, super excited, majorly interested because I

843
01:11:39.760 --> 01:11:46.920
can't pretend. I can't fake interest. I can't. I can't

844
01:11:47.039 --> 01:11:49.439
do it. I tried to do it when I was

845
01:11:49.479 --> 01:11:53.239
a counselor, and I realized I can't. But then I

846
01:11:53.279 --> 01:11:55.279
also realized I didn't need to, because when I was

847
01:11:55.319 --> 01:12:00.720
a counselor, I was interested in nearly every situation there was.

848
01:12:01.279 --> 01:12:07.800
There was there was one person that just would not

849
01:12:08.039 --> 01:12:13.359
talk about anything while they were there, and I managed

850
01:12:13.399 --> 01:12:15.000
to get them to open up in the end, but

851
01:12:16.199 --> 01:12:20.840
that was difficult. But this, you know, I wasn't going

852
01:12:20.920 --> 01:12:24.000
to be rude, because that's I don't want to be rude.

853
01:12:24.039 --> 01:12:26.560
I don't mean to be rude anyway. Ever, it's not

854
01:12:26.680 --> 01:12:31.600
my thing. But almost telling someone that's the most that's

855
01:12:31.640 --> 01:12:35.279
the first time you've piqued my interest. Well, it's the

856
01:12:35.359 --> 01:12:38.760
most interesting thing you've ever said to me. That's almost

857
01:12:38.840 --> 01:12:41.039
like an insult, And it wasn't meant to be an insult.

858
01:12:41.359 --> 01:12:45.119
It's I guess it wasn't even supposed to be a compliment.

859
01:12:45.159 --> 01:12:50.159
It was just me being honest. Yet I have to

860
01:12:50.159 --> 01:12:53.479
stop myself saying stuff like that because I don't want to.

861
01:12:54.640 --> 01:12:57.159
I don't want to annoy people. I just want to

862
01:12:57.199 --> 01:12:58.640
let them to know that, let them know that I

863
01:12:58.720 --> 01:13:05.239
actually am rested and I'm seriously focused on what they're saying.

864
01:13:06.000 --> 01:13:08.680
And it could be the most pointless thing as well.

865
01:13:11.399 --> 01:13:15.199
You know, it could be talking about the zebra crossing,

866
01:13:15.680 --> 01:13:18.920
and for some reason, I'm interested in what they're saying.

867
01:13:20.760 --> 01:13:24.760
For some reason, in that moment, I'm suddenly really excited

868
01:13:24.760 --> 01:13:27.720
about talking about zebra crossings. And I don't know why.

869
01:13:29.399 --> 01:13:36.079
It's I don't know. It's a way. It's a weird one. Okay,

870
01:13:36.199 --> 01:13:38.880
I've never been excited about talking about zebra crossings, but

871
01:13:40.159 --> 01:13:49.479
it's yeah, mind you the other way, it goes the

872
01:13:49.520 --> 01:13:53.000
other way because I used to have a friend who

873
01:13:53.079 --> 01:13:57.199
would ask me to explain stuff to him. Okay, explain

874
01:13:57.319 --> 01:14:00.399
hypnosis to me. They just sit there and stare at me. Said, no,

875
01:14:01.199 --> 01:14:05.039
who want to know about hypnosis? Read a book? That

876
01:14:05.159 --> 01:14:08.359
was my attitude, and it was just because I'm not

877
01:14:08.439 --> 01:14:14.000
going to I don't know. I think if someone wants

878
01:14:14.079 --> 01:14:15.880
me to sit there and talk at them, I don't

879
01:14:15.920 --> 01:14:20.600
want to do it. I kind of clamber up. It's

880
01:14:20.680 --> 01:14:21.960
when they don't want me to do it, I just

881
01:14:22.079 --> 01:14:25.199
want to enjoy it more. No, that's not that's not true.

882
01:14:25.279 --> 01:14:25.600
It's just.

883
01:14:27.199 --> 01:14:29.760
That whole because I feel I think in that situation

884
01:14:29.920 --> 01:14:38.640
like that almost it was. I feel like I'm put

885
01:14:38.720 --> 01:14:45.119
on the spot a bit, and it's like, yeah, I

886
01:14:45.119 --> 01:14:46.840
think it's a bit like when someone says.

887
01:14:47.079 --> 01:14:48.199
Oh, so you've.

888
01:14:49.840 --> 01:14:52.880
So you know about if you ever ever heard about

889
01:14:52.920 --> 01:14:55.119
this thing, and say, yeah, we'll explain it to me.

890
01:14:55.199 --> 01:15:01.720
Then no, you said you heard about it, Yeah, explain it.

891
01:15:01.840 --> 01:15:04.760
No that that that's not what I do. I don't

892
01:15:04.840 --> 01:15:08.239
explain anything to anyone. I do, you know, do the

893
01:15:08.319 --> 01:15:12.800
Q and A Fridays. But that's I invite these questions.

894
01:15:14.079 --> 01:15:14.159
But.

895
01:15:17.560 --> 01:15:21.399
I'm not even sure what I'm trying to explain. You

896
01:15:21.520 --> 01:15:24.119
imagine being with someone in a room with someone and

897
01:15:24.199 --> 01:15:28.359
then just saying it's just something you're interested in. But

898
01:15:28.520 --> 01:15:33.119
then it's deciding that they want you to explain that

899
01:15:33.720 --> 01:15:36.680
to them in a way that they're going to understand it,

900
01:15:37.800 --> 01:15:43.039
and there's going to be follow up questions. It almost

901
01:15:44.199 --> 01:15:49.880
it sort of turns into some kind of oral exam again.

902
01:15:50.000 --> 01:15:52.840
That sounds wrong, but you know what I mean. It's like,

903
01:15:53.119 --> 01:16:01.159
just no, I'm not I don't want to be tested. No,

904
01:16:04.239 --> 01:16:09.560
but I do like talking to people. This is not

905
01:16:09.680 --> 01:16:11.479
answering your questions, Tammy.

906
01:16:11.279 --> 01:16:11.439
Is it?

907
01:16:11.800 --> 01:16:15.159
Sorry? How are you doing with the week? Chaos around

908
01:16:15.199 --> 01:16:17.600
the house? Is your friend? And up? Okay? So I

909
01:16:17.680 --> 01:16:21.760
have answered the questions. I'm just I felt like my

910
01:16:21.880 --> 01:16:27.359
brain was fried yesterday the last three days really, but

911
01:16:29.479 --> 01:16:35.319
I got home yesterday and I just I was struggling

912
01:16:35.439 --> 01:16:44.279
to even put a sentence together, so tired and just

913
01:16:44.720 --> 01:16:46.119
it was overloaded.

914
01:16:46.399 --> 01:16:46.760
I was.

915
01:16:48.399 --> 01:16:49.159
Is that the right word?

916
01:16:49.319 --> 01:16:49.479
You know?

917
01:16:50.039 --> 01:16:56.479
It was too much, way, too much of everything, seeing

918
01:16:56.560 --> 01:17:05.279
too many people, spoken to too many people, and overload.

919
01:17:05.840 --> 01:17:10.720
Did I say it's overload? Probably for my senses were overloaded,

920
01:17:12.039 --> 01:17:19.079
my ears, my hears my hearing, my ears, my eyes physically, emotionally,

921
01:17:19.479 --> 01:17:24.079
probably smells, tastes. Maybe I don't know. Everything was just

922
01:17:24.399 --> 01:17:32.000
too much for me, And yeah, I don't ever want

923
01:17:32.039 --> 01:17:33.880
to go back there, but I kind of got to

924
01:17:34.079 --> 01:17:36.840
go back on Monday because I promised, plus he asked

925
01:17:36.880 --> 01:17:45.520
me to. But yes, it's too much for me. Really,

926
01:17:45.720 --> 01:17:54.399
I don't not when also, I was thinking how often

927
01:17:54.439 --> 01:17:58.279
have I actually left my flat and left this area,

928
01:17:59.520 --> 01:18:01.680
you know, this this little area that I live. How

929
01:18:01.760 --> 01:18:06.119
often have I left there to wander as far as

930
01:18:06.199 --> 01:18:18.359
town where we're on a bus a taxi. And really

931
01:18:18.680 --> 01:18:22.680
in the last two years, I can only think of

932
01:18:23.560 --> 01:18:33.000
three occasions, maybe four occasions, actually maybe five are come

933
01:18:33.159 --> 01:18:38.199
just find five, four or five. So yeah, in the

934
01:18:38.319 --> 01:18:42.119
last couple of years, I've left this little area maybe

935
01:18:42.199 --> 01:18:47.680
five times. Once it was to a funeral, another one

936
01:18:47.960 --> 01:18:53.119
was to the supermarket twice I think, another one was

937
01:18:53.199 --> 01:18:57.199
to the doctors, another one was to the dentist. So

938
01:18:57.680 --> 01:19:03.560
that's five times in probably two that I've left my

939
01:19:03.680 --> 01:19:10.479
little village. And this week I've done eight different days

940
01:19:10.520 --> 01:19:18.800
in a row. So yeah, it was a bit. There's

941
01:19:18.840 --> 01:19:20.479
a lot. It's a lot.

942
01:19:20.720 --> 01:19:20.920
Man.

943
01:19:22.359 --> 01:19:26.560
Jonathan asks what your normal dinner consists of? Ever go

944
01:19:26.720 --> 01:19:29.439
out to eat? And if so, what variety of Christine

945
01:19:30.359 --> 01:19:32.720
The answer to the next one, the last question is no,

946
01:19:34.000 --> 01:19:36.439
I don't go out to eat. If I did go

947
01:19:36.560 --> 01:19:40.960
out to eat, I'm quite open minded. But the last

948
01:19:41.039 --> 01:19:48.199
time I went out to eat, I know I did

949
01:19:48.319 --> 01:19:51.560
go out. No, I did. I went out just before Christmas.

950
01:19:51.600 --> 01:19:54.239
I forgot about that. So it's just up the road

951
01:19:54.279 --> 01:19:57.600
for me, it's not far. And it was a pub

952
01:19:58.319 --> 01:20:03.520
I went to just before Christmas. Went there with some

953
01:20:03.720 --> 01:20:11.479
family members to celebrate Christmas before Christmas, and so that

954
01:20:11.840 --> 01:20:16.399
was a roast dinner or Christmas dinner. It was weird

955
01:20:16.479 --> 01:20:18.239
because I thought the whole place was going to be

956
01:20:18.359 --> 01:20:22.239
busy and it wasn't. We were the only Christmas dinner

957
01:20:22.279 --> 01:20:25.760
there and everyone else was just in a pub like normal.

958
01:20:26.960 --> 01:20:31.119
I felt very a bit silly. I just figured the

959
01:20:31.159 --> 01:20:33.399
whole I really did. I thought the whole place would

960
01:20:33.439 --> 01:20:44.520
be busy, so it'd be kind of quite anonymous. Sitting

961
01:20:44.560 --> 01:20:49.359
there with Christmas hats on is not something I would

962
01:20:49.399 --> 01:20:52.960
normally do in a pub. I just know if everyone

963
01:20:53.000 --> 01:20:56.840
else is doing it, maybe, but not. No, not the

964
01:20:56.960 --> 01:21:01.720
only table and were just sitting there. It's a it's

965
01:21:01.760 --> 01:21:03.960
like we were celebrating Christmas in the summer. That's what

966
01:21:04.079 --> 01:21:09.720
it felt like a bit. So that was a Christmas dinner.

967
01:21:11.640 --> 01:21:19.680
Other than that, the last time I went out, oh,

968
01:21:20.359 --> 01:21:24.439
the last time I went out, I did go to

969
01:21:24.600 --> 01:21:31.560
the Child, not to the Indian restaurant locally. I think

970
01:21:31.600 --> 01:21:34.279
that was ten years ago, ten years something like that.

971
01:21:34.840 --> 01:21:38.079
I did go to a pizza place. A pizza hut

972
01:21:38.199 --> 01:21:45.159
in town. I think that was also probably nine years ago,

973
01:21:47.560 --> 01:21:52.359
ten nine, ten years ago. I used to go to

974
01:21:52.760 --> 01:21:55.600
the Wimpye in town because there was a time when

975
01:21:55.600 --> 01:21:58.279
i'd go. I'd go out quite regularly, and that kind

976
01:21:58.319 --> 01:22:04.720
of used over the years. And I do I did

977
01:22:04.800 --> 01:22:10.359
go to McDonald's yesterday. No, I didn't eat in but

978
01:22:10.960 --> 01:22:13.680
I think it was even Monday or Tuesday. I went

979
01:22:13.720 --> 01:22:17.760
into McDonald's and had a meal in there, which is

980
01:22:17.840 --> 01:22:26.399
the first time I've done that in quite some time. Yeah,

981
01:22:27.640 --> 01:22:29.359
I think the last time I went there was when

982
01:22:29.399 --> 01:22:32.600
I went to have my I went to the doctors,

983
01:22:32.760 --> 01:22:34.520
and the doctors is like a little bit out of

984
01:22:34.520 --> 01:22:37.520
the road, so I think I went to McDonald's after

985
01:22:37.600 --> 01:22:45.880
going to the doctors to have a check up. Yeah.

986
01:22:46.119 --> 01:22:50.479
So other than that, No, I don't. I don't go out.

987
01:22:51.600 --> 01:22:55.960
I don't really have any kind of fancy cuisine like

988
01:22:56.199 --> 01:23:02.439
French or Spanish, or Italian or Jamaica or Somalian or

989
01:23:02.720 --> 01:23:11.119
Thaie or German or I don't know what kind of Greek,

990
01:23:11.479 --> 01:23:14.159
you know. I don't. I've not really gone to many places,

991
01:23:15.319 --> 01:23:17.680
and I have been to places when I was living

992
01:23:17.720 --> 01:23:23.800
in London. I've been to there a Takeaspa, which wasn't

993
01:23:23.840 --> 01:23:30.199
act Spanish. I loved it, just so many different things

994
01:23:30.279 --> 01:23:33.880
to choose from. It's that perfect for me and I

995
01:23:34.039 --> 01:23:35.880
used to go there with my cousin. It's just up

996
01:23:35.880 --> 01:23:44.439
the road from where I lived. Outside of that, I'm

997
01:23:44.520 --> 01:23:46.479
trying to think I went to a pizza place, but

998
01:23:46.600 --> 01:23:49.279
that was that's a long time ago. I think I

999
01:23:49.359 --> 01:23:55.279
went to the me what was it, not the pizza

1000
01:23:55.399 --> 01:23:58.159
the Pizza Hut. It might have been the Pizza Hut,

1001
01:23:59.600 --> 01:24:07.680
and it was back in two thousand and twelve December,

1002
01:24:09.079 --> 01:24:19.000
not twenty twelve. Wow. Yeah, No, twenty thirteen December, I think.

1003
01:24:24.520 --> 01:24:28.840
I don't even know. No, twenty twelve December. I think

1004
01:24:28.880 --> 01:24:34.800
it was really wow. What whoa, whoa, whoa. It's just

1005
01:24:34.840 --> 01:24:37.880
a little while ago. That's the last time I had

1006
01:24:37.880 --> 01:24:42.000
a pizza, I think in a restaurant. No, it's not.

1007
01:24:42.239 --> 01:24:48.359
I had one with my ex girlfriend in I think

1008
01:24:48.399 --> 01:24:52.079
i'd moved here and I've been in maybe a year,

1009
01:24:52.560 --> 01:24:57.159
so thatut what he would have been around two thousand

1010
01:24:57.239 --> 01:25:03.479
and sixteen, I guess because I moved here twenty fifteen.

1011
01:25:08.880 --> 01:25:11.439
My normal dinner at the moment I ate a fair

1012
01:25:11.479 --> 01:25:18.279
amount of breakfast, cereal and then sandwiches or something I

1013
01:25:18.359 --> 01:25:21.399
can just stick in the airfryer. It's just.

1014
01:25:23.600 --> 01:25:23.840
For me.

1015
01:25:24.119 --> 01:25:26.920
Preparing food is a bit of a chore. I don't

1016
01:25:26.960 --> 01:25:29.760
really want to be bothered with it, but I do it.

1017
01:25:30.560 --> 01:25:32.079
But it's just bits and bobs.

1018
01:25:32.159 --> 01:25:32.359
Really.

1019
01:25:33.600 --> 01:25:37.960
I don't really cook myself much as in like a

1020
01:25:38.079 --> 01:25:40.319
full meal and stuff like I used to when I

1021
01:25:40.439 --> 01:25:44.239
was younger. All I'm going to try and get back

1022
01:25:44.279 --> 01:25:44.479
to that.

1023
01:25:44.600 --> 01:25:44.960
It's just.

1024
01:25:47.680 --> 01:25:49.560
Just don't feel like it a lot of the time.

1025
01:25:55.680 --> 01:26:00.479
Tina asks if there was a movey about you and Vinnie,

1026
01:26:01.319 --> 01:26:05.279
what song would be? What songs would be on your soundtrack?

1027
01:26:06.840 --> 01:26:09.199
I'd like dire straits. Why I worry to be one

1028
01:26:09.239 --> 01:26:23.399
on mine? O, Katina, I don't know. Wow, that's one

1029
01:26:23.439 --> 01:26:25.600
of the hardest questions I think I've ever been asked.

1030
01:26:27.000 --> 01:26:38.199
What songs there is? There are some songs that I

1031
01:26:38.239 --> 01:26:44.119
would have in my if it was a movie about me.

1032
01:26:45.199 --> 01:26:47.600
I can't think about him. I'm not sure what he

1033
01:26:47.640 --> 01:26:51.840
would like. But if I know, for going back in

1034
01:26:51.960 --> 01:26:59.840
the past about me, I would mix together an no

1035
01:27:00.119 --> 01:27:06.319
ario that happened on an occurrence with a song of

1036
01:27:06.520 --> 01:27:11.520
that particular period. So, for example, when I was in

1037
01:27:11.560 --> 01:27:15.159
the hospital having my appendix out. There was two songs

1038
01:27:15.600 --> 01:27:18.680
that were in the charts or that I were two

1039
01:27:18.760 --> 01:27:22.000
songs that I really liked because I asked for them

1040
01:27:22.079 --> 01:27:26.880
to be played on the hospital radio. So one was

1041
01:27:28.560 --> 01:27:33.359
totally Clips of the Heart by Bonnoy Tyler and the

1042
01:27:33.399 --> 01:27:39.199
everyone was down Under by men at work? Do you

1043
01:27:39.319 --> 01:27:42.119
come from a down up? Do you come from? Do

1044
01:27:42.239 --> 01:27:45.800
you come from a do you what? Do you come from?

1045
01:27:45.800 --> 01:27:46.840
A man? Down under?

1046
01:27:47.640 --> 01:27:47.800
Well?

1047
01:27:47.840 --> 01:27:51.039
We mingle and then thunder can you hear? Can you

1048
01:27:51.119 --> 01:27:56.239
hear it? And tutor the clips of the hard turn

1049
01:27:56.520 --> 01:27:59.760
around even now, and then I get a little bit,

1050
01:28:00.239 --> 01:28:07.920
I mean they turn around? What other songs? And then

1051
01:28:09.119 --> 01:28:17.560
when I was about sixteen fifteen, sixteen fifteen, yeah, fifteen,

1052
01:28:18.880 --> 01:28:27.319
living in my step mother's my step grandmother's flat, Papa

1053
01:28:27.399 --> 01:28:32.279
Don't Preach from Madonna that was on. I watched that

1054
01:28:32.520 --> 01:28:37.920
video a few thousand times. I had actually had it

1055
01:28:38.000 --> 01:28:42.520
on video, and I was just I used to freeze

1056
01:28:42.600 --> 01:28:46.840
and stop it at certain points. I just used to

1057
01:28:46.920 --> 01:28:50.479
enjoy watching the dance Madonna. I was. I was kind

1058
01:28:50.520 --> 01:28:52.800
of really in love with Madonna at that time, I think.

1059
01:28:54.720 --> 01:28:55.239
And then.

1060
01:28:58.880 --> 01:29:01.680
There was another period. I know, I'm not including Vinie,

1061
01:29:01.720 --> 01:29:03.760
and this said, I am sorry, as kind of it

1062
01:29:03.840 --> 01:29:05.960
seems to be like a question i'd need to ask him,

1063
01:29:07.920 --> 01:29:12.720
however strange that might sound, I'm not really sure what

1064
01:29:12.840 --> 01:29:18.199
it'd say. There was a period that I got really

1065
01:29:18.319 --> 01:29:22.399
stuck into this particular song, which was blamed on the

1066
01:29:22.399 --> 01:29:28.800
Boogie by the Old Jackson's. And I don't know why

1067
01:29:28.840 --> 01:29:32.000
I kept thinking about this song, but it was nineteen

1068
01:29:32.479 --> 01:29:38.960
eighty nine and I'd lost my previous job working in

1069
01:29:39.039 --> 01:29:46.680
a pub. I'd walked out of that, and then I

1070
01:29:46.880 --> 01:29:51.520
needed a new job, and then I had some problems

1071
01:29:51.560 --> 01:29:53.840
with the person I was living with that was living

1072
01:29:53.840 --> 01:29:55.880
in a house that I was in, so I needed

1073
01:29:55.920 --> 01:30:00.880
to get out of there. Everything was kind of went

1074
01:30:00.920 --> 01:30:04.720
a bit weird, and I remember walking on to the

1075
01:30:05.079 --> 01:30:07.800
pier just to get away from everything, and it's a

1076
01:30:07.880 --> 01:30:11.039
windy it's just like the beginning of the year, very

1077
01:30:11.119 --> 01:30:15.119
windy and cold, and I just just kept singing the

1078
01:30:15.239 --> 01:30:18.880
babies there was dancing when you see them, and don't

1079
01:30:18.920 --> 01:30:22.720
getting no loving. It's no way, believing on a certain shame,

1080
01:30:23.399 --> 01:30:26.840
believing in the moonlight, believing on a good time, believing

1081
01:30:26.920 --> 01:30:29.119
on a boot. I don't know why, but I just

1082
01:30:29.239 --> 01:30:35.520
kept singing it and it's weird just at that moment.

1083
01:30:36.279 --> 01:30:42.920
And then when I went to France, picked up a

1084
01:30:43.039 --> 01:30:50.399
hitchhiker on the way to Kent. I was gonna stay

1085
01:30:50.479 --> 01:30:56.199
in a tent for a couple of weeks or a week,

1086
01:30:57.319 --> 01:31:02.239
and because a land lady and landlord were going away

1087
01:31:02.680 --> 01:31:04.199
for some reason, they didn't want to leave me in

1088
01:31:04.239 --> 01:31:10.079
the flat on my own, which I don't really understand

1089
01:31:10.159 --> 01:31:14.760
what that was about, but they didn't so they because

1090
01:31:14.760 --> 01:31:21.039
I was looking after their kid. But it was now

1091
01:31:21.159 --> 01:31:23.279
summer holidays and the kid had gone to be with

1092
01:31:23.399 --> 01:31:29.479
the dad for I think the holiday season, summer season,

1093
01:31:29.560 --> 01:31:33.119
and they wanted to go and they didn't want to

1094
01:31:33.359 --> 01:31:35.600
they'd want me there, so they kicked me out for

1095
01:31:35.640 --> 01:31:38.760
a week. So I went to Dover. They gave me

1096
01:31:38.800 --> 01:31:42.319
a left because I were going that way anyway, and

1097
01:31:42.840 --> 01:31:45.279
picked up They picked up a hitchhiker and away, which

1098
01:31:45.359 --> 01:31:49.840
was annoying. She kept talking to me, trying to make

1099
01:31:49.920 --> 01:31:58.560
friends and stuff, and so we both got off at Dover.

1100
01:31:58.840 --> 01:32:01.560
That's it. Got off at Dover. He was going over

1101
01:32:01.640 --> 01:32:06.880
to France to see a friend. I ended up going

1102
01:32:06.920 --> 01:32:10.960
to France with him, so he went to France, spent

1103
01:32:12.199 --> 01:32:14.479
I don't know how many days. It was a week

1104
01:32:14.600 --> 01:32:22.520
or so, just traveling around France, going through the Alps, hitchhiking,

1105
01:32:23.079 --> 01:32:28.159
walking trains is a bit of everything, you know. So

1106
01:32:28.560 --> 01:32:39.439
we traveled across France. I think, BlimE me, oh yeah,

1107
01:32:39.560 --> 01:32:45.079
his friend was teaching a rock climbing. That's it. And

1108
01:32:45.359 --> 01:32:52.399
then we came back, went to Paris and went back

1109
01:32:52.520 --> 01:32:58.319
that way. But I just that period. I remember being

1110
01:32:58.560 --> 01:33:05.399
in the I don't know if it was in Dover

1111
01:33:05.720 --> 01:33:07.640
or if it was in Calais, but I was in

1112
01:33:07.760 --> 01:33:12.479
one place where on the monitor, the TV screen, they

1113
01:33:12.560 --> 01:33:20.680
were playing like a prayer. It Madonna's main song from

1114
01:33:20.760 --> 01:33:25.760
the album, after the one that she was singing Papa

1115
01:33:25.840 --> 01:33:30.840
Don't Preach, which was True Blue. So yeah, that would

1116
01:33:30.840 --> 01:33:32.000
be a song for that period.

1117
01:33:46.920 --> 01:33:47.439
I don't know.

1118
01:33:47.880 --> 01:33:52.000
I guess it's just different songs at different times of

1119
01:33:52.159 --> 01:33:55.600
my life with Vinnie. I don't know what song.

1120
01:33:59.079 --> 01:33:59.279
Knew.

1121
01:34:05.720 --> 01:34:07.880
I mean, there was one song I remember the Smiths.

1122
01:34:08.479 --> 01:34:11.560
There's a song called last Night I Dreamt Somebody Loved

1123
01:34:11.600 --> 01:34:14.840
Me and such a good song. I really like it,

1124
01:34:16.800 --> 01:34:22.119
and that would be quite representative of certain parts of

1125
01:34:22.199 --> 01:34:34.640
my life in the past. There was another song when

1126
01:34:34.680 --> 01:34:39.479
I was trying to do my dissertation for my degree.

1127
01:34:40.399 --> 01:34:44.600
There was I was really struggling to do it. I mean,

1128
01:34:44.760 --> 01:34:47.880
in reality, it almost loud, wasn't it. Again, in reality,

1129
01:34:47.960 --> 01:34:52.800
it wasn't difficult. I just wasn't interested in what I

1130
01:34:52.880 --> 01:35:00.159
was doing. I wasn't interested in the subject. I was

1131
01:35:00.199 --> 01:35:05.159
interested in counseling. But the specific dissertation I had to do,

1132
01:35:05.279 --> 01:35:08.399
which is I think it was? Was it fifty thousand words?

1133
01:35:08.560 --> 01:35:14.039
I can't remember. I just could. I did it, but

1134
01:35:14.159 --> 01:35:18.920
I just it took everything. But what I did. I

1135
01:35:19.000 --> 01:35:22.720
started listening to this song that really perked me up,

1136
01:35:23.199 --> 01:35:27.560
and it was I think it was not R Kelly.

1137
01:35:29.560 --> 01:35:39.560
What's his name, I forget his name, big Star, but

1138
01:35:39.640 --> 01:35:41.840
I forget his name. I think it was Will i

1139
01:35:41.880 --> 01:35:46.800
Am was on the thing boom boom, let me hear

1140
01:35:46.840 --> 01:35:51.920
you go ooh ooh, let me hear you go oh,

1141
01:35:53.640 --> 01:36:00.439
let me hear go ooh. That wasn't a good impression

1142
01:36:00.479 --> 01:36:13.199
of the song. Yeah, it wasn't. Actually whoops limerhugel bang

1143
01:36:13.359 --> 01:36:25.560
bang No. I think I think in the two different songs, Yeah,

1144
01:36:33.000 --> 01:36:36.000
I don't really know what song I would represent Vinnie

1145
01:36:40.600 --> 01:36:46.560
other than he's just a naughty boy sometimes Sleeping Beauty.

1146
01:36:47.000 --> 01:36:56.760
If there's a song there, mm hmm, I mean if

1147
01:36:56.840 --> 01:36:59.960
I was too, Yeah, if if it was a sound

1148
01:37:00.159 --> 01:37:09.199
track to my life, there would be. See even I

1149
01:37:09.279 --> 01:37:12.039
think it's not even so much a soundtrack about what's

1150
01:37:12.159 --> 01:37:15.039
going on for me, more just what I was listening

1151
01:37:15.079 --> 01:37:21.800
to at that time. So, when I was very very young,

1152
01:37:22.359 --> 01:37:25.880
I remember sitting laying down in a bed or something,

1153
01:37:27.039 --> 01:37:30.000
and I could see the radio, and the radio was

1154
01:37:30.039 --> 01:37:35.039
playing Gary Glitter I Love You Love like I Love you,

1155
01:37:35.319 --> 01:37:38.840
Love you Love me to love, I love you, love

1156
01:37:39.000 --> 01:37:44.039
me love Ooh, I love you loving it, And it

1157
01:37:44.159 --> 01:37:48.359
was such a good song. I really liked it. But

1158
01:37:48.479 --> 01:37:50.479
I'm not even sure if I could talk at that point,

1159
01:37:50.840 --> 01:37:54.119
but I liked listening to that song. That'stally. What year

1160
01:37:54.239 --> 01:37:59.199
was that I Love You Love? It was in the seventies?

1161
01:38:05.479 --> 01:38:13.119
I Love you isn't it weird? It's not coming up? Okay,

1162
01:38:13.439 --> 01:38:20.159
got it now? Nineteen seventy three, so yeah, I was.

1163
01:38:24.520 --> 01:38:31.479
It was another number one in nineteen seventy three, so yeah,

1164
01:38:31.520 --> 01:38:36.319
i'd have been two two and a half. I don't

1165
01:38:36.359 --> 01:38:38.279
know exactly when it came out. Let's have a look,

1166
01:38:39.119 --> 01:38:43.119
what what month did it come out in the UK

1167
01:38:44.079 --> 01:38:47.199
because they were playing it all November nineteen seventy three,

1168
01:38:47.279 --> 01:38:51.279
so I would have been three. It spent four weeks

1169
01:38:51.319 --> 01:38:59.680
at the top of the charts. Okay, yeah, so it was.

1170
01:39:00.000 --> 01:39:02.439
It was a really good, good song. So I remember

1171
01:39:02.600 --> 01:39:05.319
hearing that and lying down in my maybe it was

1172
01:39:05.439 --> 01:39:08.920
my cop It's weird. I've got that memory though, at

1173
01:39:08.960 --> 01:39:13.560
being so young. I just remember the song because it

1174
01:39:13.680 --> 01:39:16.479
was like like the radio used to be, they'd be

1175
01:39:16.600 --> 01:39:22.640
playing the same songs very irregular Arly. I've got another

1176
01:39:22.720 --> 01:39:26.840
memory of in the children's home in South End on

1177
01:39:26.960 --> 01:39:30.720
the radio then playing Rock around the Clock like but

1178
01:39:30.920 --> 01:39:34.880
quite often one, two, three o'clock, four o'clock Rock, four o'clock,

1179
01:39:34.920 --> 01:39:37.920
five o'clock, nine o'clock Rock, seven o'clock, two o'clock, five

1180
01:39:37.920 --> 01:39:43.079
o'clock Rock on a Rock, six round the clock, And

1181
01:39:44.079 --> 01:39:47.279
and I thought, I remember looking that up Rock around

1182
01:39:48.880 --> 01:39:55.199
the Clock, Rock around the Clock. So of course it

1183
01:39:55.319 --> 01:40:00.399
was a huge hit in the fifties, but also charted

1184
01:40:00.600 --> 01:40:04.520
in the sixties and the seventies in the UK. So

1185
01:40:04.640 --> 01:40:16.600
let's seve it, look suver, look, let's sever look, let's

1186
01:40:16.640 --> 01:40:24.439
save look so charts nineteen fifty six. Oh okay, so

1187
01:40:24.520 --> 01:40:30.439
we charted in nineteen fifty five fifty six. It was, yeah,

1188
01:40:30.479 --> 01:40:41.439
a huge hit in in OH. I don't know, we're

1189
01:40:41.479 --> 01:40:46.039
definitely in America. I don't know, doesn't oh UK singles. Yeah,

1190
01:40:46.039 --> 01:40:49.760
it was number one here as well, and then it

1191
01:40:49.920 --> 01:40:55.119
was also number forty one in nineteen sixty six, then

1192
01:40:55.239 --> 01:41:01.239
nineteen sixty eight. It was released again in nineteen seventy four.

1193
01:41:04.439 --> 01:41:08.279
See that doesn't make sense to me. Nineteen seventy four,

1194
01:41:10.720 --> 01:41:14.600
which makes you wonder how long was I that in

1195
01:41:14.720 --> 01:41:17.720
that children's home. But then just the fact that they

1196
01:41:17.760 --> 01:41:19.600
were playing it on the radio doesn't mean that'd just

1197
01:41:19.680 --> 01:41:23.319
be released. But it was number twelve in the UK singles,

1198
01:41:26.640 --> 01:41:29.880
so I just remember them playing it. One, two, three o'clock,

1199
01:41:29.960 --> 01:41:33.439
four o'clock Rock, five, six, seven o'clock, eared o'clock rock.

1200
01:41:35.439 --> 01:41:38.319
I tell you something strange about that song. For me,

1201
01:41:39.119 --> 01:41:44.000
it's got an atmosphere there's Maybe it's because I used

1202
01:41:44.039 --> 01:41:47.720
to hear it in weird periods of my life, maybe,

1203
01:41:49.279 --> 01:41:51.680
but there's a feeling connected to that song. For me.

1204
01:41:53.159 --> 01:41:56.720
It's a strange feeling. It's not a horrible feeling. It's

1205
01:41:56.760 --> 01:42:03.399
just a certain emotion and connected to it and the

1206
01:42:03.600 --> 01:42:10.239
sound of it. It's unlike any other song to me.

1207
01:42:10.800 --> 01:42:14.239
It's just that one, two, three, club four o'clock. But

1208
01:42:14.880 --> 01:42:19.840
verse six, I don't know, something unique. I mean all

1209
01:42:19.840 --> 01:42:23.720
I know all songs are probably uniquey in some way,

1210
01:42:23.800 --> 01:42:27.800
but this was just and then he had it. I

1211
01:42:27.880 --> 01:42:30.640
want to shake rel and roll. I want to shake

1212
01:42:30.840 --> 01:42:34.560
rail and roll, so that one as well. And I

1213
01:42:34.680 --> 01:42:37.439
imagine that's probably got re released at this quite often

1214
01:42:37.479 --> 01:42:51.279
as well, quite often. Ah is interesting Bill Haley and

1215
01:42:51.399 --> 01:42:54.399
the comics, Is that right? Bill Haley and the comics.

1216
01:43:09.359 --> 01:43:16.039
Let's have a look. I want to check. The thing

1217
01:43:16.159 --> 01:43:21.039
is they all looked really old for some reason. They

1218
01:43:21.119 --> 01:43:29.960
looked quite old in the like in the videos. I mean,

1219
01:43:30.079 --> 01:43:33.680
you know from the fifties and stuff. They looked quite

1220
01:43:33.760 --> 01:43:40.760
old there what Bill Haley did. But in reality he

1221
01:43:40.880 --> 01:43:43.880
probably wasn't he just because it was all in black

1222
01:43:43.960 --> 01:43:47.920
and white. It was born nineteen twenty five, thirty five,

1223
01:43:48.079 --> 01:43:52.319
forty five, fifty five, so yeah, it was like twenty

1224
01:43:52.359 --> 01:43:58.119
eight probably at the time, twenty two, twenty twenty eight,

1225
01:43:58.239 --> 01:44:02.279
twenty twenty six. They're not exactly old as it. He

1226
01:44:02.479 --> 01:44:07.000
just had his face. It's weird though, because if you

1227
01:44:07.079 --> 01:44:08.960
look at him, he's got that that what that that

1228
01:44:09.119 --> 01:44:12.000
crooked smile A bit like Elvis? And he had his

1229
01:44:14.319 --> 01:44:17.359
and he was a round before Elvis, wasn't he? I

1230
01:44:17.479 --> 01:44:25.560
think nineteen fifty two? When did Elvis decide to pop up?

1231
01:44:27.000 --> 01:44:31.760
Was it nineteen fifty four or was it nineteen fifty six?

1232
01:44:34.319 --> 01:44:41.720
I'm not sure. I want chic around and roll. I

1233
01:44:41.880 --> 01:44:45.439
want chic around and roll. Do do do Do Do

1234
01:44:45.560 --> 01:44:46.359
Do do do do?

1235
01:44:50.600 --> 01:44:50.920
Hmm?

1236
01:45:01.000 --> 01:45:18.279
Okay, all right, yeah, I'm just wondering how many hits

1237
01:45:18.319 --> 01:45:22.840
he had. How many hits did Shake Rout and roll

1238
01:45:22.960 --> 01:45:37.680
Man have? Billy Billy Bill Hayley nineteen fifty six studio albums, Ok,

1239
01:45:37.720 --> 01:45:41.960
I know singles. I want to know about the singles.

1240
01:45:43.359 --> 01:45:50.319
Fifty two nineteen fifty two. Stop beating around the mulberry bush. Okay,

1241
01:45:51.840 --> 01:45:59.000
I will stop. Crazy Man Crazy, Patty Cake? Why does

1242
01:45:59.079 --> 01:46:03.960
that sound for me? You are fifty three? Live it up,

1243
01:46:05.159 --> 01:46:12.399
Live it up, Leave it up? So the US in

1244
01:46:12.479 --> 01:46:16.199
America number twelve, and these were all in the top thirty.

1245
01:46:17.279 --> 01:46:21.279
So that's a hit, isn't that really? Crazy Man Crazy

1246
01:46:21.439 --> 01:46:27.279
was number twelve? And then Live it Up? Why does

1247
01:46:27.319 --> 01:46:34.760
that sound familiar? Chattanooga Cheu Chuo? I wonder why that

1248
01:46:34.840 --> 01:46:40.520
didn't hit. Yes, Indeed, the nineteen fifty four Rock around

1249
01:46:40.520 --> 01:46:47.680
the Clock and then Shake Out and Roll that wasn't

1250
01:46:47.720 --> 01:46:53.000
as successful, but it's still a hit. Birth of the

1251
01:46:53.039 --> 01:47:02.640
boogie wasn't so much razzle dazzle burn that candle rock

1252
01:47:02.680 --> 01:47:07.119
a beat boogie, See you Later, Alligator, see you later,

1253
01:47:07.199 --> 01:47:12.079
Alligator in a While, Crocodile, see you later, aig in

1254
01:47:12.239 --> 01:47:16.880
a while, Crocodile, and in the minute and to b

1255
01:47:18.680 --> 01:47:26.840
a Rock the Saints see you later ready. I think

1256
01:47:26.880 --> 01:47:30.960
that would be the same kind of sounders Rock around

1257
01:47:31.000 --> 01:47:31.680
the Clock as well.

1258
01:47:36.640 --> 01:47:37.560
Lean Jean.

1259
01:47:40.840 --> 01:47:45.560
Rock around the Clock re release ah nineteen seventy four,

1260
01:47:46.159 --> 01:47:49.520
Shake ROUTTL and Rolls on the back, and then again

1261
01:47:49.880 --> 01:47:53.720
later on they released see you Later Alligator. Now I'm

1262
01:47:53.720 --> 01:47:58.079
looking at this, I'm thinking, yeah, that's why they didn't

1263
01:47:58.199 --> 01:48:01.600
re release see you Later Radigator in any other country

1264
01:48:02.079 --> 01:48:07.399
according to this, except England or the UK. So Rock

1265
01:48:07.439 --> 01:48:11.199
around o'clock went to number twelve in the UK, and

1266
01:48:11.439 --> 01:48:18.079
see You Late Radygaia went to number fifty two nineteen

1267
01:48:18.119 --> 01:48:27.880
seventy four. I'm sure that's that said nineteen seventy three,

1268
01:48:27.960 --> 01:48:36.359
though earlier. See this is Wikipedia not always correct, not

1269
01:48:36.760 --> 01:48:47.000
always correct. Me, me, me, me, me, Oh, what have

1270
01:48:47.039 --> 01:48:48.039
I got any emails?

1271
01:48:51.760 --> 01:48:51.800
No?

1272
01:48:52.399 --> 01:49:04.079
No, no, no, no junk mail, just yeah, nothing. I

1273
01:49:04.159 --> 01:49:06.479
think I might have answered all the questions. I'm sorry

1274
01:49:06.560 --> 01:49:08.600
they're not very good. I'm not done a very good

1275
01:49:08.720 --> 01:49:16.199
job today. I think Tina with the if I was

1276
01:49:16.279 --> 01:49:19.560
going to do a new movie in my life, there's

1277
01:49:19.840 --> 01:49:22.319
I think I just want all the best, all the

1278
01:49:22.439 --> 01:49:24.680
songs that I like the best or that I really

1279
01:49:24.800 --> 01:49:39.399
love to be played throughout. There's quite a few. There's

1280
01:49:39.479 --> 01:49:54.880
quite a few songs. Yeah, that's a lot of songs.

1281
01:49:56.760 --> 01:49:59.239
So I'm finding myself falling asleep. So I'm going to

1282
01:49:59.319 --> 01:50:03.520
go thank you. If you hear any pauses, it's just

1283
01:50:03.680 --> 01:50:06.840
me to drift en off. So thank you for listening.

1284
01:50:07.039 --> 01:50:10.239
Remember to be kind to yourself because you do deserve

1285
01:50:10.319 --> 01:50:13.079
to be happy, and be gentle of yourself because you

1286
01:50:13.159 --> 01:50:16.279
deserve to feel safe. Lots of love.

1287
01:50:18.439 --> 01:50:18.720
Bye.

1288
01:50:29.600 --> 01:50:44.079
Relax in a more deep and meaningful way, maybe in

1289
01:50:44.199 --> 01:50:49.680
a way that can not just allow you to feel

1290
01:50:51.119 --> 01:51:00.279
calmer now and throughout the time we've spend together here,

1291
01:51:02.399 --> 01:51:08.079
not just relaxed at the end of the recording when

1292
01:51:08.119 --> 01:51:14.760
it's finished, and you can enjoy that sense of comfort

1293
01:51:14.960 --> 01:51:29.840
and peace. But also I think it would be nice

1294
01:51:29.960 --> 01:51:49.720
to have those feelings of relaxation continue for longer after

1295
01:51:49.840 --> 01:52:00.039
the recording has ended, so that you can still and

1296
01:52:00.159 --> 01:52:09.479
if it from listening to my voice, maybe in a

1297
01:52:09.560 --> 01:52:22.039
few hours time, perhaps tomorrow, and then by listening regularly,

1298
01:52:25.159 --> 01:52:29.760
especially if you find like some people do and myself

1299
01:52:29.840 --> 01:52:34.319
as well. I sometimes I find one particular recording that

1300
01:52:34.600 --> 01:52:43.199
really resonates with me, and I just listen to it

1301
01:52:43.359 --> 01:52:56.199
over and over again every morning, every evening. There was

1302
01:52:56.279 --> 01:53:01.920
this recording from We're Going Act to about nineteen ninety nine.

1303
01:53:03.680 --> 01:53:08.720
It was it wasn't hypnosis, but it was a guided visualization,

1304
01:53:09.000 --> 01:53:16.000
so it kind of was hypnosis really, and I managed

1305
01:53:16.039 --> 01:53:19.199
to find it again and it still has the same

1306
01:53:19.279 --> 01:53:28.880
effect on me, And part of it was the person's

1307
01:53:29.039 --> 01:53:41.560
voice relaxed me. She just felt so peaceful, and I'd

1308
01:53:41.600 --> 01:53:48.680
look forward to listening to her in the morning and

1309
01:53:48.920 --> 01:53:59.840
in the evening. And I knew before even pressing the

1310
01:54:00.079 --> 01:54:07.720
play button that as soon as I've done that pressed

1311
01:54:07.720 --> 01:54:16.239
the play button. This was in the days of CD

1312
01:54:16.479 --> 01:54:25.119
players pressed the play button. In fact, it might have

1313
01:54:25.199 --> 01:54:29.520
even been a tap tape recorder. I'd lie down on

1314
01:54:29.600 --> 01:54:42.399
the bed and then even without necessarily listening to her

1315
01:54:42.640 --> 01:54:55.560
words because I had them memorized. Really, it was as

1316
01:54:55.600 --> 01:55:06.279
if my body knew exactly what to do, and the

1317
01:55:06.479 --> 01:55:28.479
muscles just almost went into automatic relaxation, and I remember

1318
01:55:28.600 --> 01:55:32.880
my mind would slow down.

1319
01:55:38.560 --> 01:55:38.720
Now.

1320
01:55:40.920 --> 01:55:47.600
Now, I was listening to this recording in the early

1321
01:55:47.720 --> 01:55:55.520
days of learning hypnosis, and long before I ever made

1322
01:55:56.079 --> 01:56:03.399
any videos or audio recordings myself, because I didn't start

1323
01:56:03.479 --> 01:56:17.199
doing that till two thousand and six, I knew, I

1324
01:56:17.359 --> 01:56:30.760
knew how helpful I found being able to just let go,

1325
01:56:33.880 --> 01:56:39.199
to have that trust in the person that I'm listening to,

1326
01:56:46.920 --> 01:56:55.000
knowing that it's going to be just as relaxing, if

1327
01:56:55.079 --> 01:57:04.680
not more so. Each time you hear my've you may

1328
01:57:04.760 --> 01:57:16.279
feel the same. Some people have been listening to me

1329
01:57:16.560 --> 01:57:30.479
for over a decade, maybe not solidly, obviously not twenty

1330
01:57:30.520 --> 01:57:38.399
four hours a day, but maybe people come back. Some

1331
01:57:38.560 --> 01:57:52.159
people may be listen every day. That's something that I

1332
01:57:53.439 --> 01:58:09.760
do which you may not realize. Listening is when I

1333
01:58:10.119 --> 01:58:26.199
record these recordings. Now, for example, I also am affected

1334
01:58:26.760 --> 01:58:39.560
by the words that I say. So if I set

1335
01:58:39.760 --> 01:58:50.199
you focus on your feet, notice your feet relaxing, I

1336
01:58:50.279 --> 01:58:58.760
will be focusing on my feet. I will be noticing

1337
01:59:01.760 --> 01:59:16.239
my feet relaxing. If I said, focus on your hands,

1338
01:59:19.039 --> 01:59:28.560
then maybe notice the difference between each hand. Perhaps notice

1339
01:59:28.720 --> 01:59:34.720
the air in the room, the temperature of the room.

1340
01:59:36.640 --> 01:59:47.000
On the backs of your hands. You may start to

1341
01:59:47.600 --> 01:59:55.640
notice what almost feels like a very light breeze, even

1342
01:59:55.720 --> 01:59:59.760
though there may not be any type of breeze at

1343
02:00:01.880 --> 02:00:14.119
where you are right now. And as you become aware

1344
02:00:14.319 --> 02:00:28.319
of your hands, I'm also aware of how relaxed my

1345
02:00:28.720 --> 02:00:54.399
hands our feeling now and when it comes to potentially

1346
02:00:54.880 --> 02:01:00.640
drifting off to sleep, which may be the reason you're listening,

1347
02:01:06.359 --> 02:01:20.920
I also feel drowsy when I make these recordings. I

1348
02:01:21.159 --> 02:01:39.560
also notice my mind drifting. In fact, at times I've

1349
02:01:39.600 --> 02:01:54.000
actually fallen asleep without even noticing, and then I carry

1350
02:01:54.119 --> 02:02:05.239
on talking. And it's only when I listen back to

1351
02:02:05.680 --> 02:02:14.640
do the editing I hear snoring and I think, I

1352
02:02:14.760 --> 02:02:25.439
don't remember snoring. I remember talking. This snoring was a

1353
02:02:25.560 --> 02:02:32.279
pick turned up. That's why I sound like when I snore,

1354
02:02:37.840 --> 02:02:51.000
I get really into the whole experience. I don't know

1355
02:02:51.199 --> 02:03:00.760
how you feel. How relaxed do you feel in your feet,

1356
02:03:03.920 --> 02:03:26.800
how relaxed you feel in your hands. I have noticed

1357
02:03:29.399 --> 02:03:45.600
more and more that the more relaxed, deeper level of

1358
02:03:45.880 --> 02:04:03.159
comfort you feel, the easier your breathing becomes. It's almost

1359
02:04:03.520 --> 02:04:24.359
like that additional muscle relaxation. So this allows you debree

1360
02:04:24.800 --> 02:04:50.680
easier without necessarily focusing on your breath, however, being able

1361
02:04:50.800 --> 02:05:20.039
to notice the ease in which you breathe so naturally.

1362
02:05:34.760 --> 02:06:10.039
You breathe so very easily and smoothly. Whenever I imagine

1363
02:06:17.399 --> 02:06:33.439
my breathing improving. When I've got my eyes closed, I

1364
02:06:33.720 --> 02:06:47.159
tend to visualize a beautiful field with trees and flowers

1365
02:06:54.000 --> 02:07:26.840
producing all that life giving oxygen. And it feels nice to,

1366
02:07:28.560 --> 02:07:47.520
if nothing else, just taking some time away from everything,

1367
02:07:58.840 --> 02:08:31.319
enjoying that feeling of peace serenity with a joyful heart.

1368
02:08:56.720 --> 02:09:22.199
Time seems to just drip by, so very slowly, relaxed,

1369
02:09:28.119 --> 02:10:07.279
so deeply peaceful, completely unattached to any thoughts whatsoever in

1370
02:10:07.439 --> 02:11:10.199
this moment, completely free notice in that your mind has

1371
02:11:10.439 --> 02:11:49.960
slowed down, slowed down because nothing really requires your attention.

1372
02:12:06.479 --> 02:12:20.720
You can enjoy the physical sensations of allowing the stress

1373
02:12:21.079 --> 02:12:33.640
to drip out of your body, dripping out of every

1374
02:12:37.039 --> 02:13:02.439
part of your body and being released from your brain.

1375
02:13:07.720 --> 02:13:43.520
Hnge your mind slowly but surely, the muscles in you les,

1376
02:13:59.079 --> 02:14:00.439
relax yesh.

1377
02:14:04.800 --> 02:14:11.960
Rs really.

1378
02:14:16.920 --> 02:14:54.960
So very deep thing reas so deeply, and the feelings,

1379
02:14:57.560 --> 02:15:21.800
the pleasant feelings in your own hands and shoulders, deepening

1380
02:15:22.159 --> 02:15:45.600
each part of your body further and deeper and deeper.

1381
02:15:59.600 --> 02:16:06.720
Hmm noticine, the feedings in the back of your neck,

1382
02:16:29.880 --> 02:17:09.239
the feelings in your wrists, muscles, in front of your body.

1383
02:17:19.680 --> 02:18:03.719
I also feeling peaceful, deeping. There's a sense of peace

1384
02:18:08.280 --> 02:18:48.079
spreads through your very core. Even when you focus on

1385
02:18:48.239 --> 02:19:47.479
your mind. Her mind becomes and slower and deeper, relaxing,

1386
02:20:11.280 --> 02:21:17.879
so very slow, your stomach taste felling your stomach. He'll back. Notice,

1387
02:21:28.159 --> 02:21:46.600
Notice how relaxed you now feel in the hall of

1388
02:21:46.760 --> 02:22:19.399
your back. In a spy from your brain all the

1389
02:22:19.520 --> 02:22:28.159
way down the middle of your back, sending and receiving

1390
02:22:30.600 --> 02:23:03.159
millions of messages every day. Deecomfort increasing deeply relaxed.

1391
02:23:32.840 --> 02:24:00.239
M h.

1392
02:24:03.479 --> 02:24:12.680
Spreading those signals down your spine or cord into air

1393
02:24:13.000 --> 02:24:32.440
every part of your body, your shins and your calf muscles,

1394
02:24:59.600 --> 02:25:29.120
we albows. Feelings of peace and tranquility spreading through your body,

1395
02:25:34.200 --> 02:25:50.440
tips of your toes, to your eyes, your fingers, all

1396
02:25:50.440 --> 02:26:06.799
the way to your lower back. M letting her rea

1397
02:26:07.639 --> 02:27:16.799
think base, drifting mind, just wander in a way happy

1398
02:27:17.639 --> 02:27:58.040
to let go, let go completely, let go, so tranquil,

1399
02:28:22.239 --> 02:28:54.799
your whole body enjoying a sensor listening gird.

1400
02:28:59.680 --> 02:30:04.479
More could be sus.

1401
02:30:08.399 --> 02:31:02.360
Pace, enjoy the space, this space of peace and safety,

1402
02:31:25.159 --> 02:31:35.200
safe fery, relaxed.

1403
02:32:04.319 --> 02:32:37.920
Us us.

1404
02:33:04.319 --> 02:33:29.040
Letting go. Maybe we can just focus on the different

1405
02:33:29.399 --> 02:34:04.200
parts of your body, just to notice your forehead and

1406
02:34:04.479 --> 02:35:06.079
your eyes jure so this noticing in the sense of

1407
02:35:09.079 --> 02:36:53.719
complete freedom, absolute freedom, dress day, dress day, He's fall energyhhhh,

1408
02:37:13.520 --> 02:37:22.079
paste to breeze, so much easy.

1409
02:38:03.159 --> 02:38:03.440
Loose.

1410
02:38:24.760 --> 02:38:36.280
You may have you may not have noticed your mind

1411
02:38:37.040 --> 02:39:38.159
drifted paceful move an even more deeply in the direction

1412
02:39:38.440 --> 02:41:45.799
of total blissful pace, blissful pace, total pace. Com so calm,

1413
02:41:57.600 --> 02:42:59.399
lett him go, peace of mind X body so rexed,

1414
02:43:07.959 --> 02:44:00.760
so relaxed. Her body feels almost invisible, so very relaxed, peaceful,

1415
02:44:07.079 --> 02:45:15.040
so pace fall like God, I'm side paceful, And you

1416
02:45:15.159 --> 02:45:22.319
could start to notice that you are feeling more relaxed,

1417
02:45:25.319 --> 02:45:35.040
even though I've not purposely focused your mind upon that

1418
02:45:36.399 --> 02:45:42.479
sense of physical comfort that is growing within you throughout

1419
02:45:42.600 --> 02:45:55.399
your body, and your mind starts to slow down, and

1420
02:45:55.559 --> 02:46:03.000
that could be almost in recognition of I guess my

1421
02:46:03.280 --> 02:46:18.000
speech not being particularly fast, and things just generally feel calmer.

1422
02:46:21.559 --> 02:46:29.520
Just by listening to my voice, you give yourself an

1423
02:46:29.559 --> 02:46:37.520
opportunity to take a break from the day, take a

1424
02:46:37.639 --> 02:46:45.280
break from your life as it is, and to give

1425
02:46:45.319 --> 02:46:53.399
yourself a rest, giving yourself permission to take some time

1426
02:46:53.559 --> 02:47:00.959
off and to allow your body to relax and allow

1427
02:47:01.200 --> 02:47:11.520
your mind to slow down, which in turn releases the

1428
02:47:11.719 --> 02:47:22.319
tension any stresses that you had in your body. It's

1429
02:47:22.360 --> 02:47:26.920
almost as if the parts of your body just open up,

1430
02:47:28.239 --> 02:47:39.879
allowing the negativity out and at the same time replacing

1431
02:47:40.760 --> 02:47:50.239
that negativity with positive healing energy, which then fills your

1432
02:47:50.319 --> 02:48:02.120
body up and your mind to also starts to appreciate

1433
02:48:03.040 --> 02:48:21.399
those feelings of increasing confidence, an almost uplifting feeling, positive healing,

1434
02:48:24.600 --> 02:48:33.120
an energy that spreads through your body like a wave

1435
02:48:35.479 --> 02:48:47.600
of comfort. And all this comes from just allowing yourself

1436
02:48:50.440 --> 02:48:55.639
a few minutes, maybe half an hour, however long you

1437
02:48:55.760 --> 02:49:08.760
want it to be, just rest and allow your mind

1438
02:49:08.959 --> 02:49:19.680
and your body to almost reset itself to the settings

1439
02:49:19.879 --> 02:49:35.440
of comfort and relaxation, calmness, which allows more room for

1440
02:49:36.879 --> 02:49:48.840
feelings of pleasure and happiness to move around your body

1441
02:49:50.680 --> 02:49:57.079
and into your mind. Almost as if your mind and

1442
02:49:57.200 --> 02:50:08.760
your body are sinking together, almost mirroring each other, with

1443
02:50:09.200 --> 02:50:23.600
that growing positivity and calmness, And it feels nice, really

1444
02:50:23.719 --> 02:50:29.600
does feel nice to know that you are the one

1445
02:50:29.760 --> 02:50:45.520
that has allowed yourself to feel more comfort and to experience.

1446
02:50:47.239 --> 02:50:48.360
More of this.

1447
02:50:50.159 --> 02:51:05.319
Deep relaxation spreading throughout your body. And as I focus

1448
02:51:06.879 --> 02:51:12.639
on each part of your body, you can notice that

1449
02:51:12.879 --> 02:51:27.360
that part becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on it.

1450
02:51:29.920 --> 02:51:39.559
It becomes even more calm and comfortable just by focusing.

1451
02:51:43.639 --> 02:51:49.360
And as I move down your body, starting at your head,

1452
02:51:52.120 --> 02:51:57.360
the parts that you have already focused on will continue

1453
02:51:58.760 --> 02:52:05.319
to relax the play and those parts that have not

1454
02:52:05.600 --> 02:52:17.520
yet focused on or just automatically release any remain intention

1455
02:52:18.879 --> 02:52:30.760
in anticipation of even more comfort about to come. Now,

1456
02:52:33.159 --> 02:52:39.360
I'm going to start by focusing on your forehead. Just

1457
02:52:39.559 --> 02:52:48.000
being aware of the feelings of your forehead and any

1458
02:52:48.079 --> 02:52:55.760
background sounds like mister Herbert's opinion, can just allow you

1459
02:52:55.959 --> 02:53:03.399
to feel even more relaxed. Just means you in the moment,

1460
02:53:06.520 --> 02:53:11.879
this isn't this isn't a sterile environment. This is the world.

1461
02:53:15.360 --> 02:53:21.399
I live in the countryside, so there's lots of nature

1462
02:53:21.920 --> 02:53:32.399
sounds around, so as you focus on your forehead, just

1463
02:53:32.680 --> 02:53:40.440
notice how it becomes even more relaxed as you focus

1464
02:53:42.760 --> 02:53:47.239
only on my voice and that part of your body.

1465
02:53:52.440 --> 02:54:00.719
Moving down to your eyes, focusing on your eyes, noticing

1466
02:54:03.200 --> 02:54:12.879
how your eyelids feel so heavy yet so light at

1467
02:54:12.920 --> 02:54:19.440
the same time, and all the muscles around your eyes

1468
02:54:19.639 --> 02:54:34.040
relaxing completely. Moving your focus down to your mouth, your lips,

1469
02:54:34.520 --> 02:54:41.159
your tongue, your teeth, and your comes the hole of

1470
02:54:41.319 --> 02:54:56.079
your mouth relaxing, calm and loose as you focus now

1471
02:54:56.920 --> 02:55:03.799
on your jaw, not just the parts of your jaw

1472
02:55:03.920 --> 02:55:08.319
near your mouth and your chin, but all the way

1473
02:55:08.440 --> 02:55:14.799
up the size of your face to your ears, the

1474
02:55:15.079 --> 02:55:26.440
hole of your jaw, feeding more relaxed.

1475
02:55:29.719 --> 02:55:30.639
And calm.

1476
02:55:38.840 --> 02:55:47.920
Focusing on your neck, the front of your neck and

1477
02:55:48.040 --> 02:56:01.639
your throat, relaxing and loose and calm. Sides of your neck,

1478
02:56:03.719 --> 02:56:12.479
the right left side of your neck relax and release

1479
02:56:16.559 --> 02:56:30.159
and calm. Now the back of your neck, focusing on

1480
02:56:30.319 --> 02:56:40.200
the back of your neck, letting go of any tension

1481
02:56:41.040 --> 02:56:49.760
that may have been there before, and enjoying that sense

1482
02:56:50.079 --> 02:57:01.639
of increasing comfort and release that you can expects in

1483
02:57:01.760 --> 02:57:13.639
the back of your neck. Moving down your back and

1484
02:57:13.840 --> 02:57:18.639
moving either side of your spine right from the top

1485
02:57:18.719 --> 02:57:24.280
of your back all the way down to the bottom

1486
02:57:24.360 --> 02:57:41.440
of your back, down to your lower back. As you

1487
02:57:41.719 --> 02:57:49.000
move up and down your spine, you can feel the

1488
02:57:49.239 --> 02:58:04.280
muscles either side of your spine relaxing even more. And

1489
02:58:04.440 --> 02:58:11.120
as those muscles relax, that sense of comfort starts to

1490
02:58:11.360 --> 02:58:21.760
spread outwards from your spine into both sides of your back,

1491
02:58:25.559 --> 02:58:29.239
the top of your back, the middle end your lower back.

1492
02:58:32.760 --> 02:58:39.879
And as you scan gently and slowly up and down

1493
02:58:40.120 --> 02:58:45.159
your back, there's the muscles in the top of your

1494
02:58:45.239 --> 02:58:55.200
back relax and become looser. The muscles in the middle

1495
02:58:55.239 --> 02:59:02.559
of your back also seem to just almost define from

1496
02:59:02.639 --> 02:59:16.040
each other, separating and almost melting, and in your lower

1497
02:59:16.159 --> 02:59:27.639
back there seems to be an extra special feeling of comfort.

1498
02:59:32.959 --> 02:59:39.079
The spreads into your hips sit down your lower back,

1499
02:59:39.399 --> 02:59:47.360
into your hips, into the area where your cosix are,

1500
02:59:50.959 --> 02:59:57.159
and into your buttocks, and all those muscles that spread

1501
03:00:00.159 --> 03:00:09.639
your lower back into your hip area start to melt,

1502
03:00:14.079 --> 03:00:26.399
start to really let go, and you know where about

1503
03:00:26.520 --> 03:00:32.520
to focus on your shoulders. Your back and your spine

1504
03:00:33.600 --> 03:00:50.360
will continue to let go, continue to relax so calmly,

1505
03:00:55.040 --> 03:00:59.879
and if you focus on your shoulders, you may notice

1506
03:01:00.399 --> 03:01:30.799
they're already feeling really loose, they're already feeding calm, and

1507
03:01:31.000 --> 03:01:43.399
the feeling those muscles then move from your neck into

1508
03:01:43.479 --> 03:02:08.879
your shoulders feel so soft and gentle, so smooth and calm,

1509
03:02:20.280 --> 03:02:32.840
and the feeling in your shoulders seems to spread deep

1510
03:02:33.079 --> 03:02:42.840
into your shoulders, a sense of relaxation, not just traveling

1511
03:02:43.360 --> 03:03:00.600
deeply into your muscles, but also relaxing the bones and

1512
03:03:00.879 --> 03:03:09.079
moving all the way to underneath your arms, relaxing a

1513
03:03:09.319 --> 03:03:14.600
whole area between the tops of your shoulders and underneath

1514
03:03:14.639 --> 03:03:33.719
your arms healing. You feel so relaxed and comfortable in

1515
03:03:33.879 --> 03:03:53.959
your shoulders, which sense that deep healing message into your arms.

1516
03:04:00.639 --> 03:04:05.639
You may feel almost as if your arms are not

1517
03:04:05.799 --> 03:04:24.479
even that, because they're so relaxed, so deeply relaxed, so

1518
03:04:28.760 --> 03:05:05.280
so calm, so loose, that in spreading all the way

1519
03:05:05.520 --> 03:05:30.280
down your arms two elbows, including your elbows circumfort spreads

1520
03:05:35.079 --> 03:05:53.360
your way into wrists, your forearments, and your wrists so heavy,

1521
03:05:57.040 --> 03:06:38.680
yet the same top sunlight and gentle fk st.

1522
03:06:40.799 --> 03:06:41.799
Now on.

1523
03:06:44.479 --> 03:07:08.520
Your hands, my hands.

1524
03:07:14.440 --> 03:07:39.079
So peaceful in your hands, the sense of.

1525
03:07:42.559 --> 03:07:44.399
Real pace.

1526
03:07:56.079 --> 03:08:10.440
Just seems to feel so familiar on your hands, relax

1527
03:08:11.760 --> 03:09:48.079
deeply else your thing is things sidlish you think it's hips.

1528
03:10:16.719 --> 03:10:47.319
Moving your attention. Let from your body, so comfortable, marrying

1529
03:10:47.559 --> 03:10:51.760
your focus to legs.

1530
03:11:30.399 --> 03:12:12.120
Us love, muscles.

1531
03:12:13.559 --> 03:13:08.840
In your thighs and names I relaxed, cough muscles, just shades,

1532
03:13:12.520 --> 03:15:24.600
Composiu in the feathing in your feets, Sir, piece of

1533
03:15:26.840 --> 03:16:26.399
circom sid peaceful, sircom sir peaceful, Sycolm so peace fall

1534
03:16:35.040 --> 03:16:37.239
RelA sner.

1535
03:16:41.920 --> 03:16:43.719
Peace fall.

1536
03:16:47.040 --> 03:17:16.920
Cycom love that deep relaxation, Just spread your chest, let

1537
03:17:17.079 --> 03:17:17.760
you go.

1538
03:17:21.879 --> 03:17:39.200
Everything. So I'm gonna start counting down now from twenty

1539
03:17:39.600 --> 03:17:47.719
down to one. You can imagine in a way it's

1540
03:17:47.920 --> 03:17:54.040
like just walking down some steps and each step or

1541
03:17:54.200 --> 03:17:59.959
twenty steps, and each step represents a level of comfort.

1542
03:18:03.680 --> 03:18:19.040
Each step represents a deepening of that comfort, and the

1543
03:18:19.280 --> 03:18:25.360
fervies you walk down those steps, the deeper and more

1544
03:18:25.399 --> 03:19:07.520
relaxed you feel. So starting with number twenty twenty, nineteen

1545
03:19:41.840 --> 03:20:21.360
eighteen music seven ten.

1546
03:20:35.120 --> 03:22:24.200
Sixteenhhhhhhh three.

1547
03:23:06.760 --> 03:24:07.239
Four fi.

1548
03:25:14.000 --> 03:27:14.360
Two us.

1549
03:28:30.000 --> 03:34:45.200
No eight snails six five four.

1550
03:35:04.200 --> 03:38:46.239
Last us.

1551
03:39:13.000 --> 03:39:13.680
And now.

1552
03:39:18.079 --> 03:39:30.719
As you focus on your eyes, We're gonna count down

1553
03:39:31.120 --> 03:39:42.239
from ten down to one, focusing just on your eyes,

1554
03:39:46.000 --> 03:39:54.520
your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your eye walls themselves,

1555
03:39:56.040 --> 03:40:13.040
a whole area that makes up your eye. And as

1556
03:40:13.159 --> 03:40:22.000
we count down ten down to one, whilst focusing on

1557
03:40:22.159 --> 03:40:38.120
your eyes, you'll become twice is relaxed with each number

1558
03:40:39.120 --> 03:40:51.040
counting down. That you may find they want to do

1559
03:40:51.559 --> 03:41:00.280
is just drift off to sleep, and it's fat that's

1560
03:41:00.479 --> 03:41:06.479
what you want, then just allow yourself to do that.

1561
03:41:13.120 --> 03:41:21.280
Now focus in on your eyes. I'm going to begin

1562
03:41:21.760 --> 03:41:39.559
counting down from ten down to one right now, ten

1563
03:42:05.799 --> 03:48:00.760
nine eight seven four.

1564
03:47:18.040 --> 03:48:14.520
Us pree.

1565
03:50:37.079 --> 03:50:37.319
One.

1566
03:50:43.600 --> 03:50:58.360
So count and down from ten to one ten nine

1567
03:51:00.079 --> 03:51:27.760
eight seven six five four three two one. And maybe

1568
03:51:27.920 --> 03:51:30.799
that was a bit too quick in order to relax.

1569
03:51:32.040 --> 03:51:36.280
Maybe it's a bit too fast for you to notice

1570
03:51:36.559 --> 03:51:44.600
the calming of your body, maybe even a little bit

1571
03:51:44.680 --> 03:51:48.760
of pressure. They're like, you're counting down from ten to one.

1572
03:51:48.879 --> 03:51:52.319
Would you expect me to do? Man, expect me just

1573
03:51:52.399 --> 03:52:01.879
to go with floppy just because you're counting down. I

1574
03:52:01.959 --> 03:52:05.959
could try it again, but this time I go this lower.

1575
03:52:08.159 --> 03:52:13.040
This time that you focus on the whole of your

1576
03:52:13.079 --> 03:52:21.440
body before we focus on your legs. Just notice how

1577
03:52:21.559 --> 03:52:35.639
your body does start to feel more relaxed with every

1578
03:52:35.799 --> 03:53:17.559
number that I count down ten nine eight seven six five,

1579
03:53:28.000 --> 03:54:27.159
four three one, And just notice how how you feel, generally,

1580
03:54:27.600 --> 03:54:41.920
how your body feels. It's not necessarily even about counting

1581
03:54:42.040 --> 03:54:49.159
down from ten to one. It's that space that you have,

1582
03:54:50.479 --> 03:55:08.959
that space between being active physically or mentally to just

1583
03:55:13.680 --> 03:55:18.879
sitting or lying down, just being there, not doing anything,

1584
03:55:19.040 --> 03:55:23.799
not saying anything, or needing to think about anything.

1585
03:55:25.639 --> 03:55:29.280
So that opens up a space, you know, a bit

1586
03:55:29.360 --> 03:55:40.120
of a space, a gap. And the more I came

1587
03:55:40.239 --> 03:55:44.799
down from ten to one, the bigger that gap becomes.

1588
03:55:47.840 --> 03:55:54.200
So there's that gap of calmness, of comfort, relaxation.

1589
03:56:00.159 --> 03:56:12.479
It's a nice feeling, and it moves those stresses or

1590
03:56:13.040 --> 03:56:26.879
discomforts physically or emotionally, moves them away. Allows you.

1591
03:56:29.600 --> 03:56:30.120
To just.

1592
03:56:33.120 --> 03:56:39.840
Slow down, someone to count again from ten down to one,

1593
03:56:40.239 --> 03:56:50.479
and notice that gap widening, the gap, And as it widens,

1594
03:56:50.559 --> 03:56:56.600
it's almost like the stress and attention falls into the

1595
03:56:56.680 --> 03:57:14.520
gap and give you that distance, that space.

1596
03:57:16.920 --> 03:57:22.360
Now ten.

1597
03:57:26.719 --> 03:59:23.360
Nine, eight, seven, six, five four three two one. Now,

1598
03:59:23.559 --> 03:59:43.639
how did your body feel? Now? Can you notice that?

1599
03:59:44.719 --> 04:00:21.440
Do you feeling calmer, the feeling more relaxed. As we

1600
04:00:21.600 --> 04:00:41.840
now focus on your legs, just your legs. We're just

1601
04:00:41.959 --> 04:01:01.959
gonna start with focusing on your thighs. Of course, it's

1602
04:01:02.040 --> 04:01:10.680
not the most exciting thing to be doing, because I'm sure,

1603
04:01:10.840 --> 04:01:13.440
like most of your body, is not a lot going

1604
04:01:13.520 --> 04:01:26.159
on right now. Just focusing on the whole of your thighs,

1605
04:01:29.000 --> 04:01:32.719
the tops of your thighs, the sides of your thighs,

1606
04:01:34.920 --> 04:01:39.399
the bottoms of your thighs, your outer thighs, and your

1607
04:01:39.520 --> 04:01:44.719
inner thighs, basically the whole of your thigh that leads

1608
04:01:45.799 --> 04:02:01.319
into your hip and it goes down to your knee joint. Now,

1609
04:02:01.399 --> 04:02:08.399
this is a big area. It's a very heavy area.

1610
04:02:08.920 --> 04:02:14.879
It's very strong, probably the strongest muscles in your body

1611
04:02:15.600 --> 04:02:29.879
or in your thighs. But I don't think we perhaps

1612
04:02:31.920 --> 04:02:44.600
give enough attention to our thighs. Perhaps we don't acknowledge

1613
04:02:45.280 --> 04:03:04.680
how important our thighs are to our lives, how much

1614
04:03:07.319 --> 04:03:20.799
they actually do for us all through our lives. And

1615
04:03:20.920 --> 04:03:26.760
it may seem sound really weird, but I think that

1616
04:03:26.920 --> 04:03:34.840
all of our body parts, especially our thighs, needs some TLC,

1617
04:03:38.159 --> 04:03:50.840
a bit of love shown, a bit of acknowledgement. I

1618
04:03:51.000 --> 04:04:00.159
thank you gratitude for our thighs do for us. Yes,

1619
04:04:06.639 --> 04:04:12.239
And I know this may sound a bit strange, Maybe

1620
04:04:12.280 --> 04:04:15.319
you think, why am I surely I should be out

1621
04:04:15.840 --> 04:04:24.239
in the garden hugging a tree or something. Well, it's

1622
04:04:24.319 --> 04:04:27.559
hard to set a microphone up on a tree. That's

1623
04:04:27.600 --> 04:04:30.079
why I'm doing this indoors. Otherwise I would be outside

1624
04:04:30.120 --> 04:04:33.959
hugging a tree. I can't see the television from the tree.

1625
04:04:40.680 --> 04:04:44.920
If you move down to your knees gain such an

1626
04:04:45.000 --> 04:04:54.360
important part. And I think we don't necessarily I want

1627
04:04:54.360 --> 04:05:01.799
to speak for myself here. I don't necessarily appreciate all

1628
04:05:01.879 --> 04:05:06.879
that my needs do for me until I have a

1629
04:05:06.959 --> 04:05:12.040
problem with my knee. It's occasionally, if I ever maybe

1630
04:05:12.079 --> 04:05:17.680
i'll bash it or it's aching for some reason. It's

1631
04:05:17.920 --> 04:05:23.680
then that I realize how much it does. You know,

1632
04:05:23.760 --> 04:05:29.719
the benefit of being able to use my legs without

1633
04:05:31.479 --> 04:05:38.719
any kind of physical discomfort is a beautiful thing that's

1634
04:05:38.959 --> 04:05:47.360
possibly not appreciated until it's temporarily removed. You know that's comfort.

1635
04:05:51.440 --> 04:05:56.079
But as you focus on your knees, regardless of how

1636
04:05:56.159 --> 04:06:03.639
your knees feel, you can have that sense of gratitude

1637
04:06:05.159 --> 04:06:07.760
and love to your knees for all that they do

1638
04:06:07.959 --> 04:06:20.959
for you. And you can still have that attention on

1639
04:06:21.120 --> 04:06:27.280
your thighs and maybe notice how your thighs feel. Maybe

1640
04:06:27.600 --> 04:06:45.000
you've noticed that they are relaxing more deeply as you

1641
04:06:45.159 --> 04:06:50.360
focus now on the bottoms of your legs and your shins,

1642
04:06:51.239 --> 04:06:57.719
and your calf muscles, the bones between your knees and

1643
04:06:57.840 --> 04:07:05.399
your feet corporate, and of course your ankles so important.

1644
04:07:10.920 --> 04:07:15.520
You know, anyone that's had even like the slightest sprain

1645
04:07:15.680 --> 04:07:22.639
of an ankle knows how how much we take our

1646
04:07:22.840 --> 04:07:31.399
ankles for granted. And it's kind of strange in a

1647
04:07:31.440 --> 04:07:37.040
way when you think that. You know, logically, our wrists

1648
04:07:37.159 --> 04:07:40.040
are a lot thinner than the rest of our arms,

1649
04:07:41.159 --> 04:07:44.680
which is okay, it doesn't I can't see any problem

1650
04:07:44.719 --> 04:07:50.239
with that because we're just picking stuff up. Our ankles

1651
04:07:52.040 --> 04:08:01.959
so much thinner than the rest of our legs, and

1652
04:08:02.120 --> 04:08:06.600
from a physics perspective or logical even it doesn't really

1653
04:08:06.719 --> 04:08:13.959
make sense that all this weight would ultimately be resting

1654
04:08:15.000 --> 04:08:24.959
on your ankles then leading to your feet, that thin area,

1655
04:08:26.440 --> 04:08:36.079
thin bone. Yeah, it does so much great work. Supports us,

1656
04:08:36.159 --> 04:08:46.120
supports our body for a lifetime, helps us to balance,

1657
04:08:48.520 --> 04:09:01.440
helps you to get around and be mobile. And there's

1658
04:09:01.479 --> 04:09:09.360
the calf muscles. Of course, when I was younger, I

1659
04:09:09.399 --> 04:09:15.159
couldn't see the pointing calf muscles didn't seem to do anything. Okay,

1660
04:09:16.280 --> 04:09:19.840
if I walked around on tiptoes, then my calf muscles

1661
04:09:19.879 --> 04:09:23.399
get some work. But of course that's not true. The

1662
04:09:23.520 --> 04:09:27.920
calf muscles are being used whenever we use our legs,

1663
04:09:33.520 --> 04:09:46.120
and your shins there to protect your lower legs, shaped

1664
04:09:46.159 --> 04:09:50.879
in a way almost as a protector for the bone,

1665
04:09:58.479 --> 04:10:10.360
leading of course to your ankles and your feet. But

1666
04:10:10.479 --> 04:10:12.360
we're not going to focus on your feet. We're just

1667
04:10:12.440 --> 04:10:18.600
going to focus on the legs. And I realize, and

1668
04:10:18.760 --> 04:10:22.799
now that I've mentioned your feet, you'll probably focus among

1669
04:10:22.920 --> 04:10:26.120
them anyway, So maybe I should focus on your feet

1670
04:10:26.159 --> 04:10:32.280
a little bit. You can have them in your awareness

1671
04:10:34.440 --> 04:10:38.120
the same as you have your thighs in your awareness.

1672
04:10:38.959 --> 04:10:42.879
Even though we haven't been focusing on your thighs a

1673
04:10:43.000 --> 04:10:54.079
few minutes, I've been focusing on your ankles, there's still

1674
04:10:54.159 --> 04:11:09.239
that sensation of foot in your thighs, and this that

1675
04:11:09.719 --> 04:11:19.719
movement of energy because the thighs hold lots of different sensations.

1676
04:11:21.200 --> 04:11:26.040
Of course, there's the muscles, the big strong muscles that

1677
04:11:26.200 --> 04:11:39.040
we have in our thighs, but the skin on the

1678
04:11:39.200 --> 04:11:44.639
outside of the thighs, as in the outside of all

1679
04:11:44.719 --> 04:11:53.559
of our body, can be very sensitive, sensitive to a touch,

1680
04:11:56.360 --> 04:12:09.680
sensitive to temperature, and inside your thighs the bones, there's

1681
04:12:10.719 --> 04:12:15.520
the muscle, there's the blood, vessels, the ar trees, to

1682
04:12:15.680 --> 04:12:24.319
all this stuff that's inside your thighs. I guess sometimes

1683
04:12:25.200 --> 04:12:27.680
it'd be nice if you could actually put your fingers

1684
04:12:28.959 --> 04:12:34.959
inside your thighs and a message, so you can message

1685
04:12:35.000 --> 04:12:38.159
on the outside, of course, but to be able to

1686
04:12:38.239 --> 04:12:41.399
get deep into the muscles, and to be able to

1687
04:12:41.520 --> 04:12:47.840
just message inside your thighs, message in the bones of

1688
04:12:47.959 --> 04:12:59.200
your leg, message in all the veins, just gently heaving

1689
04:13:00.120 --> 04:13:09.600
thighs and you can move down message and inside your knees,

1690
04:13:11.120 --> 04:13:17.920
just message in those bones, but with healing fingertips spreading

1691
04:13:18.000 --> 04:13:23.719
that healing energy deep into the choints of your knees.

1692
04:13:29.200 --> 04:13:33.000
Of course, there's the back of your knee and the

1693
04:13:33.200 --> 04:13:40.200
inside crease where your knee is. It's a very sensitive area.

1694
04:13:42.200 --> 04:13:46.520
Very it feels very nice when you stroke it. That

1695
04:13:46.719 --> 04:13:50.399
might be because it's an area that's not really touched

1696
04:13:50.600 --> 04:13:57.200
very often. It's almost like a hidden part, that crease

1697
04:13:59.280 --> 04:14:05.760
in your leg. It's almost like a part that has

1698
04:14:06.040 --> 04:14:16.799
a sensitivity, which is a little bit different. Of course,

1699
04:14:16.879 --> 04:14:27.360
it's protected by your legs, so you can imagine putting

1700
04:14:28.239 --> 04:14:38.559
your fingers into that crease in your legs, folding between

1701
04:14:38.680 --> 04:14:43.760
your legs, you can just message with your fingertips. Imagine

1702
04:14:43.760 --> 04:14:50.120
your fingertips going inside, massage in the muscle or tissue.

1703
04:14:54.719 --> 04:14:59.000
You can of course field the bones of your knees,

1704
04:15:00.520 --> 04:15:10.959
healing through your fingertips, and then as you go down

1705
04:15:13.799 --> 04:15:16.600
to your calf muscles, and that's a part I'd like

1706
04:15:16.719 --> 04:15:21.399
to be able to really put my fingertips deep inside

1707
04:15:22.159 --> 04:15:31.120
my calf muscles, massage in every single tissue of that muscle,

1708
04:15:32.680 --> 04:15:42.639
healing every part, and then doing the same for my shins,

1709
04:15:45.799 --> 04:15:52.680
massage in and generally stroking the bones, generally stroking them,

1710
04:15:53.600 --> 04:15:57.719
healing in a loving way, because they deserve to be

1711
04:15:57.920 --> 04:16:05.120
treated as the precious bones that they are, because our

1712
04:16:05.239 --> 04:16:08.760
legs are so precious as in all the other parts

1713
04:16:08.879 --> 04:16:16.479
of our body, the more precious of any chul on

1714
04:16:16.639 --> 04:16:32.920
the planet. When you start to think about your legs

1715
04:16:33.120 --> 04:16:44.200
in this way, it can change your perspective. It might

1716
04:16:44.399 --> 04:16:51.000
sound a bit a bit silly to start with the

1717
04:16:51.159 --> 04:16:59.319
idea of having love for your legs. Showing appreciation for

1718
04:16:59.440 --> 04:17:04.920
your thigh is wanting to be able to put your

1719
04:17:05.040 --> 04:17:13.319
hands in your thighs massage the muscles and the bones,

1720
04:17:15.159 --> 04:17:20.920
and to get your fingers deep in there, releasing all tension,

1721
04:17:23.799 --> 04:17:32.399
just to show how much you care about your legs,

1722
04:17:33.280 --> 04:17:37.040
how much you care for what your legs do for

1723
04:17:37.159 --> 04:17:50.799
you regularly, your knees, your calves, your ankles, the strength

1724
04:17:50.959 --> 04:17:59.000
of your ankles considering how thin they are compared to

1725
04:17:59.120 --> 04:18:05.680
the rest of your legs, especially your thighs. Yeah, this

1726
04:18:05.959 --> 04:18:18.239
so strong, so flexible, absolutely amazing things. Your ankles are

1727
04:18:22.079 --> 04:18:27.159
truly a gift because of what they do for you,

1728
04:18:32.639 --> 04:18:39.600
supporting all that weight. Regardless of how what weight you are,

1729
04:18:40.799 --> 04:18:45.280
even if you only eat ate stone, there's still a

1730
04:18:45.440 --> 04:18:51.959
lot of weight for these little ankles. Now, I'm a

1731
04:18:52.079 --> 04:19:02.440
lot heavier than akestone double dock, yet my ankles support

1732
04:19:02.520 --> 04:19:09.879
my body all the time. What they do give off

1733
04:19:09.920 --> 04:19:15.360
a sigh of relief when I sit down. That's that

1734
04:19:15.520 --> 04:19:22.559
my whole legs do my feet feet or so go

1735
04:19:24.479 --> 04:19:52.200
my toes clap there, so happy. Your legs really are amazing.

1736
04:19:54.840 --> 04:19:58.479
And I know that talking about talking about your legs

1737
04:19:58.639 --> 04:20:05.399
is probably possibly among the most boring things I've ever

1738
04:20:06.079 --> 04:20:14.360
heard anyone say. Possibly you're boring or not. Everything I

1739
04:20:14.520 --> 04:20:30.440
said is true. Your legs are amazing, Your legs deserve

1740
04:20:31.479 --> 04:20:50.079
not just respect, they deserve to relax deeply. They deserve

1741
04:20:50.319 --> 04:20:55.200
to take some time out of the day to just

1742
04:20:55.559 --> 04:21:31.760
let go completely. Your legs really can relax. And because

1743
04:21:31.840 --> 04:21:35.760
the legs are so such a most, you know, very

1744
04:21:35.840 --> 04:21:41.559
important part of your body. When you relax your legs,

1745
04:21:41.680 --> 04:21:48.879
the rest of your body also naturally follows in that

1746
04:21:52.639 --> 04:22:03.440
journey of comfort. I can feel it in my hips.

1747
04:22:04.840 --> 04:22:11.959
My hips feel really loose, and also my lower back

1748
04:22:12.040 --> 04:22:18.639
as well. My lower back really feels it feels stretched,

1749
04:22:19.760 --> 04:22:22.799
even though I'm just sitting in a chair and there's

1750
04:22:22.920 --> 04:22:28.159
no stretching as far as I'm aware that I'm doing,

1751
04:22:29.120 --> 04:22:31.719
but it's almost as if the muscles are just relaxed

1752
04:22:31.799 --> 04:22:37.399
so much that there is a natural stretch as the

1753
04:22:37.559 --> 04:22:59.760
tension has reduced a lot. And I'm now going to

1754
04:22:59.799 --> 04:23:07.319
cat down from ten down to one and you can

1755
04:23:07.440 --> 04:23:36.200
continue to fill wonderfully relaxed ten nine, eight, seven, six, five,

1756
04:23:40.840 --> 04:24:08.920
four three two one acts. So I'm just going to

1757
04:24:09.000 --> 04:24:14.360
count down from five down to one. And as I countdown,

1758
04:24:15.639 --> 04:24:20.399
if you just focus on the numbers, just the numbers

1759
04:24:22.079 --> 04:24:31.040
counting down, and notice how you feel in this moment

1760
04:24:32.840 --> 04:24:37.200
as you hear the numbers counting down, knowing that those

1761
04:24:37.360 --> 04:24:50.399
numbers counting down represent you feeling calmer, not just in

1762
04:24:50.520 --> 04:24:58.840
your body, but also relax in your mind. Just notice

1763
04:24:58.920 --> 04:25:04.959
how you feel there's nothing to do, there's nothing to say,

1764
04:25:05.639 --> 04:25:22.680
there's nothing to think about. Starting with number five, four,

1765
04:25:32.200 --> 04:26:08.120
three two one. As you notice the gradual letting go

1766
04:26:10.520 --> 04:26:17.479
of the tension in your body, you may also begin

1767
04:26:17.799 --> 04:26:23.760
to notice and be aware of how your mind is

1768
04:26:24.840 --> 04:26:32.680
starting to slow down. This is just a natural thing

1769
04:26:33.159 --> 04:26:40.559
that happens. It's not really a special procedure. It's just

1770
04:26:40.760 --> 04:26:46.959
natural because as your body relaxes, your mind also starts

1771
04:26:47.040 --> 04:26:51.719
to relax, and the more your mind relaxes, the more

1772
04:26:51.760 --> 04:26:57.000
your body relaxes. It's just a continuous circle of relaxation.

1773
04:27:03.040 --> 04:27:11.600
And there's that calmness that comes from relative quietness. You know,

1774
04:27:11.719 --> 04:27:17.360
even even if there's background sounds either your side orline,

1775
04:27:19.040 --> 04:27:24.959
it's still going to be quite calm. You know, you

1776
04:27:25.040 --> 04:27:30.239
haven't got the television on, there's no music in the background,

1777
04:27:30.319 --> 04:27:33.000
unless you're listening to the recording with music. Of course,

1778
04:27:37.840 --> 04:27:40.000
you're very likely not going to be sitting in a

1779
04:27:40.120 --> 04:27:43.280
room with other people. Of course you might be, but

1780
04:27:44.559 --> 04:27:47.799
generally it's more ideal if you can do this on

1781
04:27:47.920 --> 04:27:59.239
your own, so no distractions, and when you stop thinking

1782
04:27:59.319 --> 04:28:16.479
about stuff, relaxation automatically rises, a sense of comfort starts

1783
04:28:16.559 --> 04:28:25.319
to grow, and without trying to build it up into

1784
04:28:25.399 --> 04:28:37.520
something fantastical or something magical, this is just a natural process,

1785
04:28:39.879 --> 04:28:50.559
something that's easy to accomplish. In fact, it's almost you know,

1786
04:28:50.719 --> 04:28:57.559
the sense of relaxing completely happens really when you put

1787
04:28:57.719 --> 04:29:01.600
no effort into it. It's not something that you can

1788
04:29:01.719 --> 04:29:13.319
really force. It's something that happens naturally. And part of

1789
04:29:13.760 --> 04:29:23.959
the process of this recording and others is simply two

1790
04:29:25.559 --> 04:29:35.920
allow you to take advantage of this space, this time,

1791
04:29:38.959 --> 04:29:50.520
to let go, to just be here, to be in

1792
04:29:50.760 --> 04:30:06.159
tune with how you feel, yet with the intention of

1793
04:30:06.479 --> 04:30:17.600
wanting to relax deeply and maybe even to fall asleep,

1794
04:30:18.760 --> 04:30:23.920
depending on what it is that you wish for yourself

1795
04:30:25.719 --> 04:30:40.760
in this moment. As we know, relaxing is the majority

1796
04:30:42.000 --> 04:30:46.440
of the process of falling asleep. The actual falling asleep

1797
04:30:46.520 --> 04:30:53.319
part is the tiny bit at the end. The deeper

1798
04:30:54.639 --> 04:31:16.920
relaxed you become, the easier you find yourself drifting. But

1799
04:31:17.040 --> 04:31:23.639
you can also if you choose stay focused on my

1800
04:31:23.840 --> 04:31:52.760
voice and really enjoy the process gradually relaxing each muscle

1801
04:31:57.360 --> 04:32:24.239
in your body effortlessly and just observing the sensation of

1802
04:32:24.520 --> 04:32:40.120
letting go completely. This time, I'm going to count from

1803
04:32:40.360 --> 04:32:53.680
six down to one. You can notice your mind calming

1804
04:32:54.000 --> 04:33:06.560
down more with each number. You hear me say naturally,

1805
04:33:07.599 --> 04:35:20.319
feeling calm and slower and peaceful sex fivehhhhhhhhh, four, three, two,

1806
04:36:10.279 --> 04:36:19.880
Being aware of how your mind has slowed and write down,

1807
04:36:23.119 --> 04:36:46.520
sinking deeply into relaxation. And as you focus on your mind,

1808
04:36:50.400 --> 04:36:59.599
may notice that there were some thoughts still there, maybe

1809
04:36:59.759 --> 04:37:09.599
some stubborn thoughts that for some reason perhaps need your attention.

1810
04:37:16.599 --> 04:37:17.880
So what you can do is.

1811
04:37:23.400 --> 04:37:35.919
Send love to those thoughts. Sprinkle those thoughts with love,

1812
04:37:37.680 --> 04:37:41.880
like at petals from a flower. Just sprinkle it over them,

1813
04:37:43.319 --> 04:37:50.479
petals feel good love towards those thoughts, to let those

1814
04:37:50.720 --> 04:37:57.119
thoughts know that you're not abandon in them. You just

1815
04:37:57.599 --> 04:38:07.680
need them. You require them to just calm down, slow down,

1816
04:38:10.000 --> 04:38:11.360
quiet down.

1817
04:38:14.959 --> 04:38:15.360
For now.

1818
04:38:23.279 --> 04:38:28.240
So as you focus on those remaining thoughts as we

1819
04:38:28.439 --> 04:38:33.680
count down this time from seven down to one. With

1820
04:38:33.840 --> 04:38:47.720
each number, just imagine sprinkling those flower petals of love, kindness,

1821
04:38:49.319 --> 04:39:01.159
gratitude over those thoughts, which will allow them to just

1822
04:39:02.599 --> 04:39:17.599
melt away and relax deeply. With every number, those thoughts

1823
04:39:17.720 --> 04:40:52.599
will become more and more relaxed. Starting with number seven, six, five, four, three,

1824
04:42:01.040 --> 04:42:18.000
And as you now notice how relaxed you're feeling in

1825
04:42:18.200 --> 04:42:39.720
your body, we're going to focus on your hands, because

1826
04:42:39.840 --> 04:42:46.080
the more relaxed your hands are, the more relaxed your

1827
04:42:46.200 --> 04:43:07.560
body and mind are. There's you focus on your hands

1828
04:43:08.439 --> 04:43:18.560
and your fingers. There's nothing needed to be done. There's

1829
04:43:18.639 --> 04:43:23.919
no clinching of fists or dancing the fingers or anything

1830
04:43:24.080 --> 04:43:38.000
like that. It's just noticing and focusing on your hands,

1831
04:43:45.000 --> 04:44:07.240
noticing how they feel, because the more relaxed your hands feel,

1832
04:44:10.720 --> 04:44:19.880
the calmer your mind feels, and the more comfort you

1833
04:44:20.159 --> 04:44:24.000
feel throughout your body.

1834
04:44:32.720 --> 04:44:35.439
May have.

1835
04:44:39.479 --> 04:45:18.400
Already noticed you mind is starting to drift. Huis him

1836
04:45:22.520 --> 04:45:37.159
just on your hands and fingers, allowing them to experience

1837
04:45:39.880 --> 04:45:48.080
a real deepening of that relaxation in your hands and fingers,

1838
04:45:54.119 --> 04:46:16.439
more and more relaxed. With each number from eight down

1839
04:46:16.599 --> 04:46:29.400
to one, you can almost feel that healing and relaxing

1840
04:46:29.880 --> 04:46:48.959
energy spreading into your hands and fingers, becoming more relaxing

1841
04:46:52.119 --> 04:46:54.080
with each number.

1842
04:46:56.119 --> 04:46:56.919
You hear.

1843
04:47:00.680 --> 04:47:21.479
Going down eight down to one, drifting drifting again starting

1844
04:47:21.759 --> 04:49:16.959
with Nober eight seven four.

1845
04:50:01.439 --> 04:51:03.400
Three. Wow.

1846
04:51:21.479 --> 04:51:30.799
Just being here now, nothing to think about, nothing to do,

1847
04:51:32.400 --> 04:51:46.680
nothing to say, and everything just feels calmer. This is

1848
04:51:47.799 --> 04:51:54.560
your natural state of being. This is how you just

1849
04:51:55.680 --> 04:52:02.639
normally feel when you take away all of that other stuff.

1850
04:52:04.599 --> 04:52:05.479
That we add.

1851
04:52:07.040 --> 04:52:09.720
You know, I think like stress and worry in and

1852
04:52:12.680 --> 04:52:27.400
over thinking, anxiety, tension, just generally thinking about stuff. We

1853
04:52:27.560 --> 04:52:31.560
take that away, which is what we do. What we're

1854
04:52:31.599 --> 04:52:45.439
doing now, you're left with a real sense of peacefulness

1855
04:52:49.000 --> 04:52:57.400
which comes to you very quickly because ultimately it's just

1856
04:52:58.599 --> 04:53:10.959
a feeling of feeling of comfort. It's almost as if

1857
04:53:11.000 --> 04:53:15.400
you've got inside yourself and you've found a special place

1858
04:53:16.759 --> 04:53:29.200
where everything is peaceful, a place where you can film

1859
04:53:30.400 --> 04:53:39.799
relaxed and you're natural sense of comfort, a place where

1860
04:53:39.919 --> 04:53:49.439
you can be here where you can accept yourself and

1861
04:53:49.599 --> 04:53:54.599
who you are, the place where you're not trying to

1862
04:53:56.880 --> 04:54:07.040
please anybody else, in a place where you can actually

1863
04:54:10.400 --> 04:54:15.360
not just love yourself, but in some ways more importantly,

1864
04:54:15.959 --> 04:54:33.040
you can like yourself, appreciate who you are. That sense

1865
04:54:33.159 --> 04:54:46.840
of gratitude it's in the air way around you. That's

1866
04:54:46.919 --> 04:54:55.279
also a place where you can actually feel the healing

1867
04:54:55.840 --> 04:55:10.720
energy soaking into your body, healing energy soaking into your body,

1868
04:55:15.840 --> 04:55:25.240
that healing energy spreads through your veins, traveling to each

1869
04:55:26.720 --> 04:55:37.520
every single part of your body. When you start to

1870
04:55:37.680 --> 04:55:45.240
realize that actually that healing energy, it's not just entered

1871
04:55:45.319 --> 04:55:56.840
into your brain, it's become part of your brain and

1872
04:55:56.959 --> 04:56:08.720
the spinal fluid who's now mixed with healing energy, not

1873
04:56:09.080 --> 04:56:17.040
just allowing you to feel so much more relaxed and

1874
04:56:17.360 --> 04:56:29.840
healthy in this moment, but also you start to realize

1875
04:56:30.080 --> 04:56:41.560
that actually, what's happening now without healing, relaxing energy spreading

1876
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through your body's actually changing your life. It's actually changing

1877
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the way you're going to feel not just now, but

1878
04:57:00.560 --> 04:57:10.759
tomorrow and the next day. As your health improves, not

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just your physical health, but your mental health. Things that

1880
04:57:18.919 --> 04:57:23.680
used to bother you in the past, for some reason,

1881
04:57:24.880 --> 04:57:32.439
no longer have the effect that they used to because

1882
04:57:32.560 --> 04:57:44.240
something has changed deep within you. Maybe things that used

1883
04:57:44.279 --> 04:57:54.720
to cause you to feel anger no longer have that

1884
04:57:55.639 --> 04:58:03.639
power to control you the way they seem to be

1885
04:58:03.759 --> 04:58:12.840
able to before. As you realize that you're the one

1886
04:58:14.840 --> 04:58:26.599
who decides what affects you, you're the one who decides

1887
04:58:29.400 --> 04:58:40.439
to feel relaxed and calm when you choose to enjoy

1888
04:58:42.000 --> 04:58:57.520
noticing these natural developments of healing, continuing to grow and

1889
04:58:57.720 --> 04:59:09.080
improve your life day by day, including of course, your

1890
04:59:09.159 --> 04:59:26.520
ability to relax so much easier than sleeping. It's the

1891
04:59:26.639 --> 04:59:37.439
most natural thing in the world to you, because falling

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04:59:37.560 --> 04:59:46.000
asleep is something that you've done so many times in

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04:59:46.159 --> 04:59:53.279
your life, and you know that you were born, as

1894
04:59:53.360 --> 04:59:59.720
we all were, with the ability to fall asleep naturally.

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We're born with that ability to just drift off into

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a deep, healing sleep. Even when we're kids, sometimes will

1897
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fall asleep when we don't even want to try to

1898
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think of stay awake. Maybe it's a birthday in the morning,

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or it's Christmas or holiday or something we look forward to.

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We don't want to go to sleep. But the more

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we want to stay awake, the more we just start

1902
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to drift. And the more you fight to drift, we

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05:01:01.119 --> 05:01:06.520
try to stop yourself and drifting asleep, the deeper and

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stronger that drifting becomes. Because we're born not just with

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the need to relax deeply and to naturally fall asleep,

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but it's our birthright, it's part of our DNA, and

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sometimes as we get older in life, perhaps at times

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we have forgotten that relaxing completely is not only a

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wonderfully pleasant experience, it's also really easy. It's very very

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easy to let go, because that's all it is, is

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just deciding to let go. And when you press the

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play button on my recordings, you have given permission from

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my voice to election. When you press that play button,

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you've given me permission for my words to effect you

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in a positive, only a positive way, opening up your

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mind to useful and healing suggestions that can have such

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an amazing effect on how you feel right now, as

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well as those changes that continue long after the recording ends,

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those changes within you that continue to flourish and grow,

1920
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transforming your life in a positive, beautiful way, allowing you

1921
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to move forward in your life in the direction that

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you choose for your self. And this feeling, this feeling

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that you can experience a safety, comfort, calmness, This feels

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so nice. It's such a healthy place to be, and

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that positivity grows within you each and every day. Moving forward,

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you're going to find that you're more relaxed physically and

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in your mind is more relaxed. And it's not that

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you're thinking slower, it's just that your mind will be

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less clogged up with unnecessary negativity, because from now on,

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your mind rejects negativity. From now on, you're going to

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start noticing when negativity arises, and you can just say stop, stop,

1932
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and that negativity will turn around and leave you alone. Stop,

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and that negativity will disappear.

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And that you.

1935
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Notice that you feel way more relaxed than you probably expected.

1936
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You can now congratulate yourself because you're the person that

1937
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has done this. You are the one that has opened

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your mind up to the simple facts. You can feel

1939
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more relaxed in your body and in your mind. You've

1940
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opened your mind up to the birthright of being able

1941
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to just fall asleep easily when you choose. And that's

1942
05:09:07.759 --> 05:09:15.000
a nice feeling. Don't you think it feels nice? Doesn't it?

1943
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To feel calm? All that healing energy is spreading through

1944
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your body and your mind to spend time in a

1945
05:09:37.520 --> 05:09:54.000
special place where negativity can no longer enter. Negativity is banned.

1946
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It's bad, it's not allowed. Intrigue doesn't it doesn't. This

1947
05:10:03.000 --> 05:10:11.279
doesn't deserve to be here, doesn't belong here. Negativity has

1948
05:10:11.520 --> 05:10:27.000
no place in your life, which makes room for more comfort,

1949
05:10:28.959 --> 05:10:33.520
more healing, more relaxation.

1950
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More peace.

1951
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It feels nice, doesn't it? Just leto with everything. I'm

1952
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gonna count down now from twenty down to one. You

1953
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can continue to relax. If you choose, you can drift

1954
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to sleep with every number you hear me say, you

1955
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can fill twice as relaxed, or if you choose, you

1956
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can fill twice sleeping now. Twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen,

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two eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five. Wh This

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is your time to just take a break, your time

1959
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to relax, to allow your mind to slow down, to

1960
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give yourself a permission to take a break from everything.

1961
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En you.

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You're the only person that can make that decision. You're

1963
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the only person that can actually tell your mind just relax,

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to just take some time off so that you can

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focus on your body, getting in touch with how you

1966
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feel physically and in the process of this body scared

1967
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where you focus on different parts of your body, those

1968
05:17:08.479 --> 05:17:15.639
parts that you focus on and observe, even though you're

1969
05:17:15.759 --> 05:17:24.560
not purposely requesting for those parts of your body to relax,

1970
05:17:26.799 --> 05:17:33.159
it's kind of expected. You expect when you listen to

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05:17:33.319 --> 05:17:46.000
my voice to feel more relaxed naturally, because when you're

1972
05:17:46.080 --> 05:17:56.279
listening to me, your attention is focused on my words,

1973
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and does my words guide you to focus on those

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05:18:12.360 --> 05:18:30.479
parts of your body? Your focus increases, which actually calms

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your mind. And when your mind calms down, your body relaxes.

1976
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And when your body calms down, your mind relaxes. And

1977
05:19:20.520 --> 05:19:28.360
even though we've not really started to focus on your body,

1978
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you can already feel that healing energy spreading through your body,

1979
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pushing out stress and tension, healing all the parts of

1980
05:20:01.680 --> 05:20:11.479
your body, including your skin, your bones, your blood, all

1981
05:20:11.520 --> 05:20:16.080
of your organs inside your body, all of the muscles,

1982
05:20:17.240 --> 05:20:24.560
all of the fat, all of everything, every hair on

1983
05:20:24.720 --> 05:20:38.119
your body is filled with that healing energy. And when

1984
05:20:38.200 --> 05:20:54.479
your brain fills with that healing energy, the feeling of

1985
05:20:54.680 --> 05:21:22.479
comfort relaxation increases, deeply increases in a way that your

1986
05:21:22.639 --> 05:21:40.080
mind starts to fill perhaps bit drowsing because it's not needed,

1987
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and it may start to drift if that's what's needed.

1988
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So if you're listening to this and what you need

1989
05:22:07.759 --> 05:22:10.799
is deep relaxation, that's what you get.

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If what you need is.

1991
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To fall asleep.

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Naturally and easily, that your mind drifts, that's also what

1993
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will happen. Because by pressing a play button on the

1994
05:22:41.159 --> 05:22:48.439
podcast and listening to me give permission of your body

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05:22:48.680 --> 05:23:00.599
and your mind. In fact, you give the command to

1996
05:23:00.720 --> 05:23:11.680
your body and your mind to relax deeply and to

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05:23:11.880 --> 05:23:17.639
drift off to sleep, if that's what you want.

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Or need.

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Them. As I focus on the different parts of your body,

2000
05:23:39.560 --> 05:23:48.360
you may start to just drift. And then you come

2001
05:23:48.479 --> 05:23:53.040
back again and you hear me talk again, and I'm

2002
05:23:53.159 --> 05:24:02.319
focusing on a different part of your body. You may

2003
05:24:04.439 --> 05:24:13.360
find yourself drifting, be able to realize you're drifting until

2004
05:24:13.400 --> 05:24:19.919
you stop drifting. Drew a laugh again to my voice.

2005
05:24:21.400 --> 05:24:27.240
Focusing on a different part of your body starts to

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05:24:27.439 --> 05:24:38.240
relax even deeper, because that drifting, it's basically here already

2007
05:24:40.560 --> 05:24:50.360
in the sleep zone. And the more you drift, the

2008
05:24:50.639 --> 05:25:01.000
longer you drift, the longer you drift. Eventually, that drifting

2009
05:25:01.200 --> 05:25:13.080
continues into sleep, and that's the last you remember until

2010
05:25:13.119 --> 05:25:22.119
you wake up in your own time. When you experience

2011
05:25:22.400 --> 05:25:30.040
the right amount of sleep. Fear because when you do,

2012
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and if you don't fall asleep, it's extremely pleasant, so relaxing,

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05:25:46.000 --> 05:26:06.159
so deep hearing sleep, I feel so nice to relax

2014
05:26:06.360 --> 05:26:15.840
since your own body and mind. As if you feel

2015
05:26:15.919 --> 05:26:24.319
that heating image is spreading through it. Relaxing, use so deeply,

2016
05:26:29.919 --> 05:26:48.799
relaxes so deeply to start to focus on your eyes,

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05:26:56.720 --> 05:26:57.799
moving down.

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05:27:00.520 --> 05:27:10.479
To now till.

2019
05:27:18.240 --> 05:27:51.880
You shoulders am, fingus, chest.

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Stop you.

2021
05:28:13.599 --> 05:29:17.759
Spine, your hips, your legs, faint utsies, spreading grime inside

2022
05:29:18.119 --> 05:29:31.639
your body, feeling you up. Now let's focus again on

2023
05:29:31.840 --> 05:29:39.680
parts of your body, focusing this time on your forehead.

2024
05:29:46.159 --> 05:29:55.439
Now on your mouth, your lips, your tongue, the whole

2025
05:29:55.520 --> 05:30:17.599
of your mouth. Focusing on your fingers. Maybe you could

2026
05:30:19.200 --> 05:30:22.959
move your fingers a little bit, as you can focus

2027
05:30:23.080 --> 05:30:37.599
on each one individually, both hands and even though if

2028
05:30:37.639 --> 05:30:42.880
you focus on both of your hands now it almost

2029
05:30:43.000 --> 05:30:51.159
seemed to just melt into one. Where is your right

2030
05:30:51.240 --> 05:31:02.840
hand starting left hand, and almost as if just mixed together.

2031
05:31:08.360 --> 05:31:19.639
Now focusing on your knees, just noticing how your knees hell.

2032
05:31:36.400 --> 05:31:50.319
Now focusing your elbows, focusing on both your elbows, just

2033
05:31:50.560 --> 05:32:25.680
absurd the feeling of your elbows. You say, I'm sorry

2034
05:32:27.599 --> 05:33:16.520
to back energy OPSI.

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05:33:19.080 --> 05:33:19.799
Echous.

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It's a good of sensation of eCos I to say.

2037
05:34:41.200 --> 05:34:45.520
Now you times.

2038
05:34:48.959 --> 05:35:42.319
If you faint your toes feel right now? Ninety cents

2039
05:35:52.479 --> 05:36:41.759
higher ensil body fails noticing your mind feels now lett

2040
05:36:41.880 --> 05:37:16.279
him go, lett him go, leting go everything, letting go,

2041
05:37:22.840 --> 05:37:57.720
letting go, leting go of everything. Everything. We can start now,

2042
05:37:59.319 --> 05:38:02.319
and you just first of all, just to see yourself

2043
05:38:03.840 --> 05:38:10.040
lying down on that message table, lying on your front.

2044
05:38:11.319 --> 05:38:19.279
Your head is supported, your arms are supported, and you

2045
05:38:19.360 --> 05:38:26.000
feel comfortable and breathing is really easy, and you feel

2046
05:38:29.520 --> 05:38:32.520
you feel confident in how you look as well. So

2047
05:38:32.919 --> 05:38:37.080
there's none of that issue of body problems or shyness,

2048
05:38:38.000 --> 05:38:46.119
because I'm a professional and this is a therapy session,

2049
05:38:46.919 --> 05:38:54.319
so none of that stuff matters on whatsoever. This is

2050
05:38:54.400 --> 05:39:01.680
about you. This is about how you feel and how

2051
05:39:02.520 --> 05:39:09.680
you can enjoy that sense of comfort and relaxation that

2052
05:39:09.880 --> 05:39:16.439
comes from letting go and allowing my hands and my

2053
05:39:16.639 --> 05:39:28.919
fingers to relax you by messaging your body. So I

2054
05:39:29.040 --> 05:39:34.000
want to start off just by placing my hands on

2055
05:39:34.119 --> 05:39:38.720
the back of your head, just gently, just you can

2056
05:39:38.840 --> 05:39:47.720
feel my hands feel like really on you, so you

2057
05:39:47.840 --> 05:39:50.080
can maybe feel the warmth of my hands on the

2058
05:39:50.119 --> 05:39:55.880
back of your head. With my hands to the side

2059
05:39:55.919 --> 05:40:00.520
of your head, not pressing, but just holding the ever gently,

2060
05:40:03.479 --> 05:40:06.479
maybe over your ears, and a little bit on your face,

2061
05:40:07.720 --> 05:40:12.959
just so you can feel my hands so you can

2062
05:40:13.040 --> 05:40:26.240
become accustomed to them. And now put my hands on

2063
05:40:26.319 --> 05:40:30.560
the back of your head again and gently let them

2064
05:40:30.720 --> 05:40:43.040
slide down onto the back of your neck. You can

2065
05:40:43.159 --> 05:40:52.919
feel my hands gently stroke in the back of your

2066
05:40:53.040 --> 05:40:59.720
neck to start with, just so you can get used

2067
05:40:59.799 --> 05:41:05.400
to the feeling my hands on your skin, get accustomed

2068
05:41:05.439 --> 05:41:13.639
to realize that you're safe and it's all good, it's

2069
05:41:13.680 --> 05:41:23.840
all fine, And I'm want to start gently messaging the

2070
05:41:24.040 --> 05:41:34.439
muscles in the back of your neck with both hands.

2071
05:41:40.560 --> 05:41:46.599
And this is a very trusting situation really, because our

2072
05:41:46.720 --> 05:41:50.880
necks is so fragile and to have someone have their

2073
05:41:51.000 --> 05:41:56.080
hands around your neck in that way can sometimes be

2074
05:41:56.360 --> 05:42:00.959
problematic for people, which is why I message are quite

2075
05:42:01.040 --> 05:42:10.720
good because it allows you to relax and to get

2076
05:42:10.799 --> 05:42:28.360
in touch with trust, to feel peaceful and calm. There's

2077
05:42:28.400 --> 05:42:36.040
a massage the sides of your neck, gently moving from

2078
05:42:37.240 --> 05:42:40.959
the bottom of your neck. It would be sort of

2079
05:42:41.040 --> 05:42:44.319
near where your shoulders start, I guess, all the way

2080
05:42:44.400 --> 05:42:51.560
up to your jaw, your ears, kind of area the

2081
05:42:51.799 --> 05:42:56.840
side of your neck. Of course, it's a lot longer

2082
05:42:56.959 --> 05:43:12.520
than the front of your neck. The message in the

2083
05:43:13.279 --> 05:43:21.000
back of your neck, especially that area where perhaps we

2084
05:43:21.200 --> 05:43:29.200
hold tension, and there's that area's message. You can actually

2085
05:43:29.400 --> 05:43:33.200
feel a sense of release in the back of your

2086
05:43:33.279 --> 05:43:41.360
neck and maybe you can breathe it out as well.

2087
05:43:43.919 --> 05:43:56.720
Notice how it feels, Notice how you feel. And they're

2088
05:43:56.759 --> 05:44:00.919
moving down to that area between your neck your shoulders,

2089
05:44:02.400 --> 05:44:11.319
that muscle area, starting to message that area on both sides.

2090
05:44:13.520 --> 05:44:15.720
I mean, this would be the area that a lot

2091
05:44:15.759 --> 05:44:18.040
of people would message if they were going to give you,

2092
05:44:18.959 --> 05:44:24.400
like a shoulder message. Even that's not technically the shoulders,

2093
05:44:24.959 --> 05:44:27.439
but it's all the muscles that lead to the shoulders

2094
05:44:29.279 --> 05:44:34.119
from the neck and a game that can hold tension

2095
05:44:35.200 --> 05:44:41.360
and stress, and when massaged sometimes a nice deep message

2096
05:44:41.520 --> 05:44:48.919
is useful, and you decide how deep that message is.

2097
05:45:00.560 --> 05:45:07.599
Just allow my knuckles just to dig in, to get

2098
05:45:07.680 --> 05:45:16.880
to those muscles and to really relaxed and all the

2099
05:45:17.000 --> 05:45:35.040
time being firm yet gentle with you and just stroking

2100
05:45:35.200 --> 05:45:43.639
down the area to your actual shoulders, moving to the

2101
05:45:43.799 --> 05:45:54.680
muscles of your shoulders and maybe initially just pulling up

2102
05:45:54.959 --> 05:45:58.560
the shoulders a little bit off the table, just to

2103
05:45:58.680 --> 05:46:02.159
give you a little bit of a stra wretch, but

2104
05:46:02.319 --> 05:46:11.119
very gently. And you've got the muscles at the front

2105
05:46:11.200 --> 05:46:23.080
of your shoulders, the side of the back. Again, this

2106
05:46:23.279 --> 05:46:27.080
is a part that can really take quite a bit

2107
05:46:27.119 --> 05:46:35.279
of pressure, quite a bit of needing. If if you

2108
05:46:35.439 --> 05:46:43.599
wish to really release the tension to really get into

2109
05:46:43.680 --> 05:46:49.880
those muscles and you can let your fingers in there.

2110
05:46:50.959 --> 05:46:57.040
They can feel really nice sometimes just being stroked gently

2111
05:46:58.040 --> 05:47:07.200
or being messaged quite strongly. It can all be beneficial

2112
05:47:08.799 --> 05:47:26.919
to the real oversation with the muscles in your shoulders. Now,

2113
05:47:27.080 --> 05:47:36.520
as you move down your arms, were doing one arm

2114
05:47:36.599 --> 05:47:46.599
at a time, Starting with your right arm, what I'll

2115
05:47:46.639 --> 05:47:51.200
do is I just lift your arm up, just hold

2116
05:47:51.279 --> 05:47:56.959
it to the side of you. Do words still be attached,

2117
05:47:58.919 --> 05:48:03.080
and I just mess sage the tops of your arms

2118
05:48:13.479 --> 05:48:19.520
all the way down to your forearms, into your wrists,

2119
05:48:30.880 --> 05:48:43.119
gently massaging that parts, the softer part which is the

2120
05:48:44.040 --> 05:48:49.840
under part of the arm, which leads to the crease

2121
05:48:49.959 --> 05:48:55.840
in your elbow. The inside. It's much more sensitive skin.

2122
05:49:05.520 --> 05:49:15.639
Sometimes just having that stroked I feel really nice, pleasurable

2123
05:49:15.919 --> 05:49:35.040
and relaxing. Now moving down to your right hand, just

2124
05:49:35.279 --> 05:49:47.639
holding your hand in both of my hands, just pressing

2125
05:49:47.799 --> 05:49:54.479
gently on the back of your hand, stretching your fingers

2126
05:49:56.560 --> 05:50:05.720
ever slightly at the same time pressing down and messaging

2127
05:50:06.439 --> 05:50:19.119
each finger, and then starting to massage the palms and

2128
05:50:19.240 --> 05:50:37.040
the hand, just turning the hand, stretching it gently and

2129
05:50:37.200 --> 05:50:44.119
actually having your handheld can really be an emotional experience

2130
05:50:44.560 --> 05:50:50.840
sometimes even if it is a stranger, someone you don't

2131
05:50:50.959 --> 05:50:56.159
know very well, like a massage person or a therapist.

2132
05:50:56.319 --> 05:51:11.479
Maybe because it's intimate, you can feel nice, you can

2133
05:51:11.560 --> 05:51:22.360
feel safe. And as I put that right arm back

2134
05:51:22.479 --> 05:51:30.599
down where it was, gonna do the same with your

2135
05:51:30.680 --> 05:51:43.759
left arm, exactly the same message and the muscles in

2136
05:51:43.880 --> 05:51:52.119
your arm all the way down, do you arrest, stroking

2137
05:51:52.200 --> 05:52:00.319
the inside of your arm, just being jen at all

2138
05:52:01.400 --> 05:52:14.680
or as firm as you require, and then messaging your

2139
05:52:14.799 --> 05:52:31.000
left hand, stretching the fingers gently, massaging the palm of

2140
05:52:31.119 --> 05:52:57.840
your left hand. You feel so so relaxing, so comforting,

2141
05:53:11.840 --> 05:53:21.959
And I'll just rest your left arm back down. The

2142
05:53:22.159 --> 05:53:28.840
start to massage your back, the biggest part of your body,

2143
05:53:33.880 --> 05:53:40.799
starting at the top, starting again where you already have been,

2144
05:53:41.560 --> 05:53:46.279
the area at the top in between your shoulders, near

2145
05:53:46.319 --> 05:53:51.520
your neck. Going back and message in the area again,

2146
05:53:52.639 --> 05:54:06.360
but this time moving downwards, taking it downward. Stroke to

2147
05:54:06.400 --> 05:54:12.880
the middle of your back, working from the outside inwards,

2148
05:54:14.240 --> 05:54:21.919
so massage in that your back, but the outsides of

2149
05:54:22.040 --> 05:54:32.639
your back, the parts where your arms would maybe rest against,

2150
05:54:39.759 --> 05:54:45.240
almost the path that connects your front to your back.

2151
05:54:54.840 --> 05:55:03.560
Just massaging down firmly but gently, as firm as you want,

2152
05:55:07.000 --> 05:55:11.040
moving down, and then moving across a little bed and

2153
05:55:11.159 --> 05:55:16.919
moving all the way down again, be very gentle, yet

2154
05:55:17.159 --> 05:55:27.919
firm as you choose. Eventually we get to the spine.

2155
05:55:29.319 --> 05:55:33.000
We can message the muscles and either side of your

2156
05:55:33.080 --> 05:55:36.959
spine from the top of your neck all the way

2157
05:55:37.159 --> 05:55:48.200
down to your lower back. We can do that a

2158
05:55:48.319 --> 05:55:58.840
few times. Sometimes people choose the knuckle or the you

2159
05:55:58.919 --> 05:56:03.240
know two things goes and just go either side of

2160
05:56:03.279 --> 05:56:08.479
the spine almost just push down, go all the way

2161
05:56:08.560 --> 05:56:14.680
down to the bottom of the spine, each time releasing

2162
05:56:15.799 --> 05:56:25.880
tension and opening up the body, stretching your body so

2163
05:56:26.080 --> 05:56:33.360
that you feel more relaxed but at the same time rejuvenated.

2164
05:56:44.759 --> 05:56:48.000
And now I'm going to move to one side, to

2165
05:56:48.119 --> 05:56:55.439
your right side, and from the bottom of your ribs

2166
05:56:57.360 --> 05:57:03.520
to your pelvis, I'm gonna massage that area of your back.

2167
05:57:05.439 --> 05:57:08.599
I'll stretch over the other side and i will pull

2168
05:57:08.759 --> 05:57:15.159
the muscles gently and massage and push from one end

2169
05:57:15.680 --> 05:57:20.200
that side all the way to my side to the middle,

2170
05:57:20.319 --> 05:57:26.040
in fact, to where your spine is massaging that side

2171
05:57:26.080 --> 05:57:30.439
of your spine, the opposite side to where I'm standing.

2172
05:57:32.840 --> 05:57:38.799
It's almost like kneading bread. There's that big area which

2173
05:57:38.919 --> 05:57:50.680
is firm yet lots there to message. Potentially one of

2174
05:57:50.759 --> 05:57:57.360
the most important places to actually have a message because

2175
05:57:57.439 --> 05:58:03.479
you feel it. You really feel the release and the

2176
05:58:03.560 --> 05:58:12.000
pleasure of having your lower back massaged. It releases so

2177
05:58:12.319 --> 05:58:20.759
much from your body that's not useful, starting a healing

2178
05:58:20.919 --> 05:58:26.520
process which will continue long after this recording is over.

2179
05:58:35.840 --> 05:58:38.680
The message in this part of your body not only

2180
05:58:38.840 --> 05:58:43.599
feels really good for you, it's actually fun to do

2181
05:58:45.040 --> 05:58:50.720
because it is, as I said, like kneading bread. It's

2182
05:58:50.759 --> 05:58:54.599
a part that you can really get hold of and

2183
05:58:54.799 --> 05:59:08.439
really massage deeply if that's your choice. They're not going

2184
05:59:08.520 --> 05:59:10.479
to move over to the other side of your body

2185
05:59:11.000 --> 05:59:19.720
and do the same with the opposite part of your

2186
05:59:19.799 --> 05:59:26.880
lawer back. Kneeding and messaging from your side all a

2187
05:59:26.919 --> 05:59:34.040
way to the middle of your back where your spine

2188
05:59:34.200 --> 05:59:47.919
is pressing and kneading, firm and gentle at the same time.

2189
05:59:49.880 --> 05:59:59.880
It feels so releasing. This mixture of pleasure and comfort, relief,

2190
06:00:00.000 --> 06:00:13.959
this calmness, relaxation or mixed together. Plus there's that feeling

2191
06:00:14.040 --> 06:00:19.319
from your stomach as it's being stretched. Even though you're

2192
06:00:19.360 --> 06:00:22.840
in your stomach now, you can feel it being stretched

2193
06:00:22.880 --> 06:00:35.240
because that whole area is connected to your stomach. Now

2194
06:00:35.279 --> 06:00:40.159
we're going to move or move further up to your

2195
06:00:40.240 --> 06:00:45.080
top of your body, and we did the same this time,

2196
06:00:46.360 --> 06:00:53.200
starting with your upper back. Put my hands forward over

2197
06:00:54.479 --> 06:01:00.680
and massive massage in that area up to your spine,

2198
06:01:01.840 --> 06:01:04.439
from the side of your body up to your spine.

2199
06:01:06.240 --> 06:01:12.400
So some of that message area, that muscle tissue or

2200
06:01:12.400 --> 06:01:16.479
whatever fatty tissue even will be possibly from your chest

2201
06:01:18.279 --> 06:01:22.400
because it's all connected, chest and the back connect together.

2202
06:01:25.560 --> 06:01:28.799
I'm going to be massaging and just pulling some of

2203
06:01:28.919 --> 06:01:36.880
that skin from your side up and massaging that area

2204
06:01:39.880 --> 06:01:44.000
of your upper back all the way to your spine.

2205
06:01:48.439 --> 06:01:50.639
And then I'll move down a bit and I'll continue

2206
06:01:51.279 --> 06:01:54.040
with the middle of your back doing exactly the same

2207
06:01:54.159 --> 06:02:11.439
thing as gentle or as deep as you choose. Now

2208
06:02:11.799 --> 06:02:15.880
move or the other side again and do the exact

2209
06:02:16.080 --> 06:02:19.799
same thing with the top of your back on the

2210
06:02:19.880 --> 06:02:29.400
other side, from pretty much underneath your arm area really

2211
06:02:34.840 --> 06:02:44.360
to your spine, and then continue in that all the

2212
06:02:44.439 --> 06:02:49.400
way down, including your lower your middle of your back.

2213
06:03:03.119 --> 06:03:08.279
I'm gonna go to your thighs, the backs of your thighs,

2214
06:03:10.959 --> 06:03:18.360
and the sides of your thighs, starting with your right leg,

2215
06:03:20.680 --> 06:03:30.959
massaging the back and the sides of your thighs gently

2216
06:03:31.240 --> 06:03:37.119
and firmly. There's a lot of muscles there. It's an

2217
06:03:37.119 --> 06:03:40.720
area that can be very tense at times and maybe

2218
06:03:41.439 --> 06:03:43.880
needs a little bit more pressure than the rest of

2219
06:03:43.959 --> 06:03:52.560
the body that's up to you. You can gently stroke

2220
06:03:52.680 --> 06:03:59.639
the back of your legs where you know opposite you'll

2221
06:03:59.680 --> 06:04:05.040
need point or underneath your knee joint. It's a very sensitive,

2222
06:04:05.319 --> 06:04:17.959
gentle area. And then working down to your calf muscles.

2223
06:04:20.880 --> 06:04:27.240
Massage in your calf muscles thoroughly and deeply, if you choose,

2224
06:04:30.720 --> 06:04:47.639
using both hands and fingers, digging deep to your ankles

2225
06:04:49.880 --> 06:04:55.520
and the back of your back of your ankles. Just

2226
06:04:55.840 --> 06:05:07.439
gently massage in that area, maybe lifting the leg and

2227
06:05:08.279 --> 06:05:22.799
stretching it a little bit. Moving to the right foot,

2228
06:05:30.799 --> 06:05:40.520
massage in the bottom of your feet and the size

2229
06:05:40.680 --> 06:05:52.040
of your fate gently but firm enough so they don't tickle.

2230
06:05:57.840 --> 06:06:03.599
Just allow the pleasure that you get from heaving your feet.

2231
06:06:03.720 --> 06:06:13.360
Message to just overtake you as I continue to message

2232
06:06:13.400 --> 06:06:22.880
your feet, the bottoms of your feet, the sides, your arches,

2233
06:06:23.599 --> 06:06:28.360
your heel. You can put a lot of pressure into

2234
06:06:28.439 --> 06:06:34.520
your heel and it feels amazing, Yet the arches need

2235
06:06:34.599 --> 06:06:43.000
to be a bit more gentle. Stretching your toes gently,

2236
06:06:45.720 --> 06:06:50.040
the message in the bottoms of your toes with my fingers,

2237
06:06:52.479 --> 06:07:06.279
each one individually. Moving her to the left leg to

2238
06:07:06.400 --> 06:07:14.639
do exactly the same thing, starting at the top of

2239
06:07:14.720 --> 06:07:19.360
the thighs. Work in the back of the thighs and

2240
06:07:19.479 --> 06:07:31.880
the sides, massaging deeply and gently the whole area, working

2241
06:07:31.959 --> 06:07:41.000
all the way down. And this is an area that

2242
06:07:42.159 --> 06:07:49.959
maybe you could like to spend more time relaxing and messaging.

2243
06:07:53.000 --> 06:07:58.279
Perhaps if you wanted, I could make a future recording

2244
06:07:58.959 --> 06:08:07.759
once spend more time on one particular area. As she

2245
06:08:07.919 --> 06:08:20.319
moved down to your calf muscles, Massage in your calf

2246
06:08:20.439 --> 06:08:36.319
muscles firmly and gently, moving down your ankle into your feet,

2247
06:08:38.200 --> 06:08:43.919
Massage in the backs of your feet, the bottoms of

2248
06:08:44.000 --> 06:08:54.000
your feet, stretching your toes, and massage in each tone individually.

2249
06:08:56.599 --> 06:09:02.439
And that feeling of pleasure to release the experience when

2250
06:09:02.520 --> 06:09:24.479
you're having your feet massaged feels really good now, she

2251
06:09:24.680 --> 06:09:36.040
turn over in your mind. Laying on your back, I'm

2252
06:09:36.119 --> 06:09:49.560
just gonna start again in your neck area, in your shoulders,

2253
06:09:53.560 --> 06:10:03.959
just to get back in touch with that area and

2254
06:10:04.119 --> 06:10:15.759
lets you move up. I can clean my hands, beat

2255
06:10:15.840 --> 06:10:19.799
them more fresh because now I'm gonna message your face

2256
06:10:21.240 --> 06:10:35.880
simply starting off with your forehead. Your eyes are closed,

2257
06:10:37.240 --> 06:10:43.080
I can just stretch your eyes a little bit, pushing

2258
06:10:43.200 --> 06:10:53.680
up on your eyebrows, just massage in around, just scalp,

2259
06:10:59.400 --> 06:11:10.520
massage down your cheeks, around your ears, into your jaw, shently,

2260
06:11:15.479 --> 06:11:33.439
the side of your neck, your chin. They're just moving

2261
06:11:33.639 --> 06:11:44.840
down from your neck down to your chest, starting by

2262
06:11:44.959 --> 06:11:52.080
message in the very top of your chest where the

2263
06:11:52.200 --> 06:12:05.599
collar bone is. Give a side of the collarbone, and

2264
06:12:05.639 --> 06:12:18.319
then just message in the hole of the chest, moving

2265
06:12:18.400 --> 06:12:32.000
the chest around. Because it's quite a large area. You

2266
06:12:32.080 --> 06:12:39.799
can move from one side to the next, moving my

2267
06:12:40.000 --> 06:12:53.439
hands underneath pretty much your arms are stretching up, stretching

2268
06:12:53.560 --> 06:12:55.959
some of the muscles of your back in the process,

2269
06:13:01.279 --> 06:13:09.919
moving up over your chest and then moving down again.

2270
06:13:22.639 --> 06:13:28.159
Then laying my hands. They just massage gently and slide

2271
06:13:28.439 --> 06:13:34.959
down towards your stomach, starting in the middle of your chest,

2272
06:13:38.400 --> 06:13:45.080
and then gradually my hands moving apart and massage in

2273
06:13:45.240 --> 06:13:54.560
and sliding at the same time, moving down to just

2274
06:13:54.720 --> 06:14:10.200
below your red cage, moving down and then messaging up again,

2275
06:14:13.000 --> 06:14:20.880
giving your chest all the attention that it needs to

2276
06:14:21.080 --> 06:14:33.319
feel completely relaxed, remembering that I'm also going to be

2277
06:14:33.439 --> 06:14:39.439
focusing on your sides as well, an area that really

2278
06:14:39.720 --> 06:14:47.279
doesn't get much attention but feels really good when it's massaged.

2279
06:14:52.200 --> 06:14:56.200
Just stroking my hands down the sides of your body,

2280
06:15:00.200 --> 06:15:03.439
below your arms, all the way down to your hips.

2281
06:15:13.080 --> 06:15:18.919
Now move into your stomach area. We're going to stand

2282
06:15:19.040 --> 06:15:21.560
on one side of you like I did when I

2283
06:15:21.599 --> 06:15:27.000
did your lower back. I'm gonna do a similar process

2284
06:15:28.040 --> 06:15:38.720
of just stretching the muscles from your side, gently massaging

2285
06:15:42.919 --> 06:15:50.799
from one side to the next, moving the whole area

2286
06:15:51.840 --> 06:15:55.759
from below your ribs all the way down to below

2287
06:15:55.840 --> 06:16:05.439
your belly button. I'm gonna move around to the other

2288
06:16:05.560 --> 06:16:21.360
side of you and repeat that process of relaxing, deeply, calmly.

2289
06:16:24.520 --> 06:16:31.680
You feel loose, you feel free. And it's something about

2290
06:16:31.799 --> 06:16:36.639
having your stomach message that's different from any other part

2291
06:16:40.159 --> 06:16:44.680
because we do have a tendency of holding a different

2292
06:16:44.840 --> 06:16:48.840
kind of stress in our stomachs that we may not

2293
06:16:48.959 --> 06:17:00.400
be aware of there's an our message your stomach. Front

2294
06:17:00.479 --> 06:17:07.560
of your stomach. They can circles around your belly button

2295
06:17:13.279 --> 06:17:23.080
and then going the other way around. The gentleness and

2296
06:17:23.200 --> 06:17:34.759
a freedom that comes from feeling how you're feeling. As

2297
06:17:34.799 --> 06:17:41.759
I now move down the tops of your thighs, muscles,

2298
06:17:42.360 --> 06:17:47.279
messaging them, and I can do this to your legs

2299
06:17:47.360 --> 06:17:58.000
at the same time, pressing down, messaging deeply those muscles

2300
06:17:58.080 --> 06:18:08.560
in your thighs, of your thighs, moving down to your knees,

2301
06:18:09.520 --> 06:18:22.200
gently massaging your knees, Sliding down your shins, putting pressure

2302
06:18:22.240 --> 06:18:30.000
on either side of your shin gently, softly but firmly,

2303
06:18:34.200 --> 06:18:43.880
moving down to your ankles, stroking the tops of your feet,

2304
06:18:50.040 --> 06:18:55.439
and then with each foot in each hand, just gently

2305
06:18:55.639 --> 06:19:03.959
messaging the whole of the foot, the top, the bottom,

2306
06:19:04.759 --> 06:19:13.040
your heel, your ankle, your toes, messaging every part of

2307
06:19:13.159 --> 06:19:22.880
your feet. Feel so good, just to let go and

2308
06:19:23.159 --> 06:19:48.080
enjoy the process. Enjoy feeling so deeply relaxed, so much comfort,

2309
06:19:49.240 --> 06:20:05.959
So many feelings come just from touching your skin, and

2310
06:20:06.200 --> 06:20:12.560
you can just lie there as long as you choose,

2311
06:20:16.560 --> 06:20:26.040
enjoying the feeling of deep comfort from being massaged.

2312
06:20:28.040 --> 06:20:28.360
By me.

2313
06:20:35.560 --> 06:20:57.520
Enjoy feeling deeply rased, and all we're gonna do is

2314
06:21:01.119 --> 06:21:17.639
blow out some candles. In your mind, there are going

2315
06:21:17.680 --> 06:21:28.080
to be a hundred candles, and you're going to blow

2316
06:21:28.240 --> 06:21:38.639
each one out individually, one by one, starting at one hundred.

2317
06:21:39.720 --> 06:21:47.080
As I count down all the way down to one,

2318
06:21:51.599 --> 06:22:00.520
and each time I say the number, you can imagine

2319
06:22:00.560 --> 06:22:06.959
that candle in front of you, and I'd like you

2320
06:22:07.119 --> 06:22:26.400
to actually physically generally blow that candle out, just so

2321
06:22:26.479 --> 06:22:35.759
it's not big blows, just a gentle, and that candle

2322
06:22:37.240 --> 06:22:46.560
will extinguish. And then I'll say the next number, so

2323
06:22:46.840 --> 06:22:47.680
move down.

2324
06:22:50.680 --> 06:22:51.400
And you can just.

2325
06:22:55.119 --> 06:23:04.159
Blow that one out as well. And as we move

2326
06:23:04.560 --> 06:23:15.560
down the numbers, you'll find yourself feeling more and more relaxed.

2327
06:23:18.599 --> 06:23:19.400
If you need.

2328
06:23:20.919 --> 06:23:30.159
To sleep, you'll also find yourself becoming incredibly tired and sleepy.

2329
06:23:34.000 --> 06:23:41.439
In fact, you may struggle to blow out all one

2330
06:23:41.599 --> 06:23:58.479
hundred of these candles as you feel more and more

2331
06:23:58.799 --> 06:24:26.720
deeply relaxed, more and more deeply tired, and the further

2332
06:24:27.040 --> 06:24:36.759
you go down, the more your mind starts to drift.

2333
06:24:43.159 --> 06:24:49.599
You may find that you stop listening to me after

2334
06:24:49.759 --> 06:25:02.880
a while, and even though the maybe background sounds where

2335
06:25:02.919 --> 06:25:14.000
you are, you'll be aware of those sounds at the moment,

2336
06:25:19.360 --> 06:25:34.959
be me start just not even notice them at all,

2337
06:25:37.720 --> 06:25:51.720
because they're unimportant. Where I am, I've got the sounds

2338
06:25:51.799 --> 06:25:58.599
of the birds, there's horrors, the pigeon who likes to

2339
06:25:58.680 --> 06:26:05.240
say hello. Sometimes there's the odd plane that goes by,

2340
06:26:08.279 --> 06:26:21.720
maybe traffic and trains in the distance. But none of

2341
06:26:21.799 --> 06:26:33.959
that scene is important whatsoever. Or candles you blow out

2342
06:26:36.000 --> 06:26:52.799
less important. Anything is more candles you blow out, the

2343
06:26:53.040 --> 06:27:09.599
further you seem to move away from sounds, from general

2344
06:27:13.040 --> 06:27:24.240
date days, stuff seems to just move away on its own,

2345
06:27:30.319 --> 06:27:56.360
film more calmer with every candle blowout guiding the next number,

2346
06:27:59.159 --> 06:28:08.680
do you hear me say? And then you blow that

2347
06:28:09.080 --> 06:28:36.479
candle out to So easy, so simple. I'm gonna start

2348
06:28:37.000 --> 06:28:55.880
by introducing the first candle. This is a hundred first candle,

2349
06:28:59.439 --> 06:29:09.200
she is one hundred. When you blow that candle out,

2350
06:29:16.040 --> 06:29:28.720
you'll find immediately a slight change in how you feel,

2351
06:29:33.880 --> 06:29:42.119
as well as a real sense of positivity growing within you,

2352
06:29:48.200 --> 06:30:18.439
relaxation and sleepiness expanding. Starting with one hundred, now by

2353
06:30:18.720 --> 06:31:28.840
candle now ninety nine, candle ninety eight, can nine seven

2354
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ninety six, candle ninety five, ninety four, candle ninety three,

2355
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ninety two, ninety one, candle ninety had eighty nine, hand

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eighty eight eight, Canto eight eighty five eight it two

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two one.

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US can.

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Seventy nine, can do.

2360
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Seventy eight, candle seventy seven, candle seventy six, candle seventy five,

2361
06:44:06.439 --> 06:45:00.919
candle seventy four, candle seventy three, candle seventy two, candle

2362
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seventy one, candle seventy one, candle seventy and sixty nine,

2363
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candle sixty eight, candle sixty seven, candle sixty five, candle

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sixty four, candle sixty four, candle sixty three, candle sixty

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cander sixty one, candle sixty fifty nine, candle fifty eight,

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candle fifty seven, candle fifty six, candle fifty five, candle

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fifty four, handle fifty three, Cando fifty two, fifty two,

2368
06:53:38.319 --> 06:55:16.080
cantu fifty two, candle fifty one, candle fifty, candle forty nine,

2369
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candle forty eight, Who is Sir? Candle forty six, candle

2370
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forty five, candle forty two, candle.

2371
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What You.

2372
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Foury thirty nine, thirty eight, candle thirty seven, Canto thirty five,

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thirty four canto thirty three, handle thirty one, can thirty

2374
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and twoe ten nine twenty eight, candle twenty seven, candle

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twenty six, candle twenty five when end twenty three, can

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do twenty typo.

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To ha.

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Wait two se caen seventeen six day four two s and.

2379
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Nine eight eight sick.

2380
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Can you t two candle war Let go of all

2381
07:27:50.080 --> 07:27:58.240
of those thoughts, worries, concerns about the past, thoughts about

2382
07:27:58.279 --> 07:28:02.799
the future, and even things you've been thinking about today.

2383
07:28:04.880 --> 07:28:10.040
Just let it all go because none of it is

2384
07:28:10.240 --> 07:28:24.680
useful in this moment. This is your opportunity to just

2385
07:28:25.040 --> 07:28:39.400
focus on feeling relaxed, allowing yourself to get in touch

2386
07:28:39.560 --> 07:28:49.000
with that natural sense of peace that we all have

2387
07:28:49.319 --> 07:28:56.479
within us. It's available for everyone. It just sometimes takes

2388
07:28:57.319 --> 07:29:01.040
a little bit of effort to set up the right

2389
07:29:03.520 --> 07:29:07.599
time and place in order for you to just let go.

2390
07:29:11.159 --> 07:29:16.639
Because when you do decide to let go and relax,

2391
07:29:19.240 --> 07:29:25.880
that's what your body starts to do because you've chosen.

2392
07:29:27.400 --> 07:29:34.400
You've chosen to just allow your body to unwind and

2393
07:29:34.520 --> 07:29:41.520
your mind starts to slow down, and it's a nice feeling.

2394
07:29:43.560 --> 07:29:46.680
It's a nice feeling at the beginning just to know

2395
07:29:47.840 --> 07:29:57.919
that you have chosen to decide to relax deeply, and

2396
07:29:58.080 --> 07:30:04.599
because you've made that decision, your body will just follow suit.

2397
07:30:07.159 --> 07:30:11.840
Because sometimes all the muscles in your body need is

2398
07:30:12.119 --> 07:30:21.759
just permission from you to relax. Because so often we're busy,

2399
07:30:22.000 --> 07:30:26.200
we're going from here to there, we're walking around, and

2400
07:30:26.319 --> 07:30:33.639
we're doing stuff, and the body doesn't have any time

2401
07:30:33.919 --> 07:30:42.279
or space to really relax deeply. So it kind of

2402
07:30:42.400 --> 07:30:47.959
waits for you to lead the way, waits for your permission.

2403
07:30:52.319 --> 07:30:58.799
And when you do give your permission, when you give

2404
07:30:58.880 --> 07:31:05.159
to say so, when you say okay, it's time for

2405
07:31:05.279 --> 07:31:14.919
your body to let go completely and relax totally, your

2406
07:31:14.959 --> 07:31:24.439
body just follows. So like a breath of relief. Ah good,

2407
07:31:24.520 --> 07:31:31.439
I can now relax. Have feeling at the end of

2408
07:31:31.520 --> 07:31:35.520
a day of very physical day that you may experience

2409
07:31:35.639 --> 07:31:38.919
in the past, where you get home and you just

2410
07:31:39.159 --> 07:31:43.439
sit down on a chair, maybe you kick your shoes off,

2411
07:31:43.520 --> 07:31:49.319
and ah feels so nice. I know that you don't

2412
07:31:50.040 --> 07:31:53.720
have to get up again for a little while at least,

2413
07:31:54.759 --> 07:31:57.159
and if you choose, you can just sit there for

2414
07:31:57.279 --> 07:32:10.000
maybe an hour to it feels blissful. And just by

2415
07:32:10.240 --> 07:32:15.279
sitting down like that, your body knows that it's time

2416
07:32:15.400 --> 07:32:20.720
to relax. Your body has been given permission from you.

2417
07:32:22.919 --> 07:32:33.200
Because it's a mindset. In your mind, you're prepared to

2418
07:32:33.400 --> 07:32:43.000
let go of everything and just completely allow all the

2419
07:32:43.279 --> 07:32:52.080
stress of your body to evaporate. An intensions can just

2420
07:32:52.439 --> 07:33:11.840
gradually vanish. It's almost like magic, really, because that sense

2421
07:33:12.080 --> 07:33:18.360
of relaxation in your body, it's a very natural state.

2422
07:33:20.200 --> 07:33:24.840
It's not something unusual. It may feel unusual when you

2423
07:33:24.959 --> 07:33:29.959
first start to relax. You if you haven't really spent

2424
07:33:30.080 --> 07:33:34.159
a lot of time focusing and giving yourself this space

2425
07:33:34.400 --> 07:33:39.880
to let go completely and relax, they seem al most alien,

2426
07:33:41.759 --> 07:33:47.680
but it isn't. It's actually the most natural thing in

2427
07:33:47.759 --> 07:33:58.000
the world to let go completely, to relax totally, the

2428
07:33:58.119 --> 07:34:09.080
most natural thing in the world to allow yourself to

2429
07:34:09.360 --> 07:34:17.159
feel really calm in your mind. And it is almost

2430
07:34:17.799 --> 07:34:24.880
like a literal unwinding. It's like you press a button

2431
07:34:27.520 --> 07:34:33.919
and all the tension just releases, and it's like a wheel,

2432
07:34:34.319 --> 07:34:38.520
like a cog, like the inside of the clock just unwinding.

2433
07:34:39.159 --> 07:34:43.080
And it's almost like you could see the little wind

2434
07:34:43.200 --> 07:34:49.040
up knob that's used just going the opposite way that

2435
07:34:49.159 --> 07:34:55.040
you choose to wind it up, and the energy that

2436
07:34:55.319 --> 07:35:05.520
frenetic stress for energy gradually minding down, losing its power,

2437
07:35:06.840 --> 07:35:14.240
losing its strength, as a sense of relaxation becomes stronger

2438
07:35:15.439 --> 07:35:24.959
and deeper, and you may find a little more relaxed

2439
07:35:26.319 --> 07:35:34.520
you feel. Now your mind starts to wander. Maybe you

2440
07:35:37.400 --> 07:35:41.599
seem to stop listening to me for a while, your

2441
07:35:41.720 --> 07:35:47.240
mind goes somewhere else, and then you realize you're listening

2442
07:35:47.319 --> 07:35:52.959
to me again, and now it's just your mind drifting

2443
07:35:53.360 --> 07:36:03.240
to sleep, which is quite natural, because sometimes when we're

2444
07:36:05.799 --> 07:36:11.520
stressed and tense, we may not actually be aware of

2445
07:36:11.720 --> 07:36:18.360
what we need or we physically or emotionally need in

2446
07:36:18.479 --> 07:36:26.599
this moment. But when you allow your body and mind

2447
07:36:26.959 --> 07:36:37.400
to relax completely and you let go of all thoughts, concerns, worries, ideas,

2448
07:36:38.919 --> 07:36:49.000
all lengo allow them to drop onto the floor, you

2449
07:36:49.240 --> 07:36:58.200
start to get in touch with the feelings of such relaxation.

2450
07:37:02.799 --> 07:37:09.520
Feels so nice to be in touch with the calmness

2451
07:37:11.479 --> 07:37:20.400
of the different body parts as they become looser and looser.

2452
07:37:24.560 --> 07:37:36.799
Even your breathing seems easier and more natural, effortless, as

2453
07:37:36.880 --> 07:37:42.840
that cool outs through your mouth or nose into your lungs,

2454
07:37:45.560 --> 07:37:53.919
breathing in comforts and relaxation and then just breathing out

2455
07:37:54.159 --> 07:38:03.000
any excess remain intentional stress for every part of your

2456
07:38:03.080 --> 07:38:11.560
body and mind. As you start to focus on your mind,

2457
07:38:13.319 --> 07:38:20.360
maybe you notice that things have come to a standstill

2458
07:38:21.720 --> 07:38:30.479
or maybe just much much lower than before because your

2459
07:38:30.639 --> 07:38:37.599
mind is not really needed when listening to my voice,

2460
07:38:41.479 --> 07:38:47.599
which allows your mind to relax just as deeply as

2461
07:38:47.720 --> 07:38:58.200
your body. And that's synchronicity between the relaxation of your

2462
07:38:58.439 --> 07:39:04.799
body relaxation of your mind.

2463
07:39:07.159 --> 07:39:08.360
Let you know that.

2464
07:39:10.520 --> 07:39:24.360
Feeling completely calm, believes, and relaxed is a great healing

2465
07:39:25.400 --> 07:39:42.720
experience fear and has so many positive benefits for your body, mind,

2466
07:39:43.080 --> 07:39:48.360
and your life. To be able to let go over

2467
07:39:49.639 --> 07:40:00.200
everything and to relax completely, you know all parts your

2468
07:40:00.240 --> 07:40:12.240
body and mind, even your bones are relaxed, your muscles

2469
07:40:12.560 --> 07:40:28.159
are relaxed, even the skin that covers your body is relaxed.

2470
07:40:33.319 --> 07:40:34.599
Every hair.

2471
07:40:37.599 --> 07:40:38.200
That you have.

2472
07:40:39.919 --> 07:40:57.520
Is also deeply relaxed. And your brain really starts to

2473
07:40:57.759 --> 07:40:59.880
feel the benefits.

2474
07:41:01.119 --> 07:41:01.439
Of this.

2475
07:41:03.040 --> 07:41:14.720
Heathing relaxation. And as you focus on the in the

2476
07:41:14.919 --> 07:41:19.959
side of your scalp where your brain is, you can

2477
07:41:20.240 --> 07:41:30.040
start to realize and notice the benefits of your brain relaxing,

2478
07:41:30.599 --> 07:41:44.080
demail and as your brain continues to relax sends those

2479
07:41:44.840 --> 07:41:52.919
messages to the rest of your body and your mind

2480
07:41:54.880 --> 07:42:17.959
to really relax more deeply, relaxy more completely, letting go

2481
07:42:18.119 --> 07:42:29.919
of any remaining thoughts or concerns, allow them just to

2482
07:42:30.200 --> 07:42:37.720
drop onto the floor because they're no longer necessary in

2483
07:42:38.400 --> 07:42:49.479
this moment, In this moment of deep reaxation and calmness,

2484
07:42:51.840 --> 07:43:15.400
filling your brain with deep, constant tracated heathing, calming, relaxing

2485
07:43:17.880 --> 07:43:26.119
every part of your brain, feeling.

2486
07:43:28.720 --> 07:43:30.720
So loose.

2487
07:43:31.919 --> 07:43:47.240
And comfortable, so relaxed and be peaceful. Your brain feels

2488
07:43:48.840 --> 07:43:57.959
so light, that's so healthy. In that sense of deep

2489
07:43:59.360 --> 07:44:14.119
deep comfort really does allow you to enjoy those ever

2490
07:44:14.479 --> 07:44:25.599
increasing sensations of comfort that are spreading throughout your body,

2491
07:44:29.880 --> 07:44:46.560
relaxing each and every muscle of your body deeper and deeper,

2492
07:44:49.680 --> 07:45:07.279
much more deeper than before, much more comfort spreading through

2493
07:45:08.720 --> 07:45:19.840
your body. In your mind, be so peaceful and calm,

2494
07:45:22.720 --> 07:45:37.200
so very very peaceful, in a free part of your body.

2495
07:45:38.840 --> 07:45:39.720
Let it go.

2496
07:45:41.759 --> 07:45:59.439
The a everything averything, so peaceful and calm, so really

2497
07:46:00.240 --> 07:46:22.439
mixt a very second, the passes you feel d DPA relaxed,

2498
07:46:26.040 --> 07:46:41.119
DPA and dper relax car so cal.

2499
07:46:45.200 --> 07:46:46.880
Bs for.

2500
07:46:49.680 --> 07:47:03.880
So very peace. We head down to toys. Such peace

2501
07:47:04.799 --> 07:47:16.759
and comfort growing all all the time, Such peace and

2502
07:47:17.159 --> 07:47:33.439
comfort spreading through your body and mind deeper deeper, such

2503
07:47:34.200 --> 07:47:51.240
comfort spreading and sinking deeper into ay muscle of your body. Sudenly,

2504
07:47:51.439 --> 07:48:04.479
you feel amazing, so relax, so peace, so.

2505
07:48:09.240 --> 07:48:11.040
So relax.

2506
07:48:14.560 --> 07:48:30.000
And peace, letting go everything. We're going to do a

2507
07:48:30.240 --> 07:48:37.959
body scan, focusing on firstly how you feel in your body,

2508
07:48:39.080 --> 07:48:44.720
not trying to change how you feel, not trying to relax,

2509
07:48:46.000 --> 07:48:50.959
not trying to move away from any discomfort or stress

2510
07:48:51.200 --> 07:48:58.599
or tension. Just accepting, observing and accepting how you feel

2511
07:48:59.639 --> 07:49:04.520
the diff for parts of your body, just allowing yourself

2512
07:49:05.919 --> 07:49:13.400
to be exactly as you are, to notice to get

2513
07:49:13.439 --> 07:49:22.080
in touch with how you actually feel in this moment.

2514
07:49:25.840 --> 07:49:36.880
To start off by focusing on your hands, just be

2515
07:49:37.000 --> 07:49:45.000
aware of your hands. I'd like you to move your

2516
07:49:45.119 --> 07:49:50.080
hands around, just maybe move your fingers a little bit.

2517
07:49:52.520 --> 07:49:58.200
I've been enclosing in your hands very gently, just so

2518
07:49:58.680 --> 07:50:04.200
that you can get in touch with how your hands

2519
07:50:06.680 --> 07:50:26.959
and your fingers fell, very very slow movements. Focusing now

2520
07:50:27.840 --> 07:50:35.080
on your feet, and if you can just do kind

2521
07:50:35.119 --> 07:50:39.799
of an equivalent with your feet, is you've just done

2522
07:50:40.080 --> 07:50:48.919
with your hands, maybe turning your ankles, moving your feet around,

2523
07:50:50.919 --> 07:51:01.319
moving your toes gently but only very gently, very slowly,

2524
07:51:04.319 --> 07:51:19.720
noticing how your feet feel in this moment. Focusing now

2525
07:51:19.959 --> 07:51:27.159
and your eyes, I'd like you to just focus on

2526
07:51:27.279 --> 07:51:33.040
your eyelids. Maybe you can open and close your eyes

2527
07:51:33.240 --> 07:51:37.599
a couple of times to really get in touch with

2528
07:51:38.439 --> 07:51:43.159
how you feel when you do close your eyes. The

2529
07:51:43.279 --> 07:51:49.520
muscle changes in your eyes when you do close them,

2530
07:51:52.360 --> 07:51:58.720
maybe raising your eyebrows, it stretches the tops of your eyes,

2531
07:52:01.959 --> 07:52:10.400
perhaps squinting your eyes, scrunching up your eyes, just so

2532
07:52:10.520 --> 07:52:18.959
you can really get in touch with all aspects of

2533
07:52:20.119 --> 07:52:39.159
how your eyes feel right now. Now focusing on your thighs,

2534
07:52:41.560 --> 07:52:44.880
then you know it just starts you to gently tense

2535
07:52:45.080 --> 07:52:55.040
your thighs, just very very gently, just enough so you

2536
07:52:55.159 --> 07:53:08.840
can become more attuned to the physical sensation of your

2537
07:53:08.959 --> 07:53:14.319
upper legs, the front of your thighs, and the backs

2538
07:53:14.439 --> 07:53:28.759
of your thigh noticing and observing how your thighs feel

2539
07:53:30.040 --> 07:53:43.000
right now. Moving your focus to the back of your neck.

2540
07:53:46.680 --> 07:53:53.319
Just noticing the back of your neck the muscles, and

2541
07:53:53.439 --> 07:53:56.400
of course they lead to the side of your neck.

2542
07:53:57.880 --> 07:54:03.000
They also lead to the top of your back, which

2543
07:54:03.159 --> 07:54:08.560
leads to your shoulders. So as your focus on the

2544
07:54:08.720 --> 07:54:14.319
back of your neck, maybe you can move your head

2545
07:54:15.240 --> 07:54:22.959
gently upwards as if you're looking up, Maybe moving your

2546
07:54:23.080 --> 07:54:30.880
head down as if you're looking down. Perhaps moving your

2547
07:54:30.959 --> 07:54:40.919
head side to side, right to left, but only very slowly,

2548
07:54:43.360 --> 07:54:51.639
very gently. I'm not trying to force anything. It has

2549
07:54:51.799 --> 07:55:00.759
to be very very gentle, just so that you can

2550
07:55:02.479 --> 07:55:14.040
be more in touch with the feelings, with the sensations

2551
07:55:14.080 --> 07:55:20.759
of the physical sensations of how on the back of

2552
07:55:20.840 --> 07:55:39.680
your neck feels. Right now, as we now focus on

2553
07:55:39.840 --> 07:55:45.799
the tops of your arms, the parts where your biceps

2554
07:55:45.880 --> 07:55:50.159
and your triceps are between your elbow and your shoulders.

2555
07:55:53.919 --> 07:55:58.799
To focus on those parts, the tops of your arms,

2556
07:56:01.000 --> 07:56:08.599
he may like to just tense them, but very very

2557
07:56:08.759 --> 07:56:18.360
gently and slowly, so you're not straining or putting any

2558
07:56:19.599 --> 07:56:29.520
pressure whatsoever on your arms. It's just slowly you can

2559
07:56:32.200 --> 07:56:39.400
gain more of a sense of how your upper arms

2560
07:56:40.959 --> 07:56:52.840
are feeling in this moment, just noticing as you gently,

2561
07:56:55.040 --> 07:57:04.639
very gently and slowly tighten the muscles and then let go,

2562
07:57:08.880 --> 07:57:17.279
notice how the tops of your arms feel right now,

2563
07:57:25.479 --> 07:57:36.279
as we now focus on your stomach, the area the

2564
07:57:36.400 --> 07:57:42.720
lower abdomen area below your belly button, moving all the

2565
07:57:42.799 --> 07:57:56.520
way down to your hips, just above your grind. Maybe

2566
07:57:56.759 --> 07:58:04.360
you're able to tense these muscles in the area very

2567
07:58:06.639 --> 07:58:07.799
very gently.

2568
07:58:10.840 --> 07:58:11.919
And slowly.

2569
07:58:17.560 --> 07:58:21.959
If that's a difficult thing to do, maybe you can

2570
07:58:22.200 --> 07:58:32.840
just move your body, pushing your stomach up, maybe moving

2571
07:58:32.880 --> 07:58:38.119
a little bit to a side using your hips, just

2572
07:58:38.680 --> 07:58:46.639
so you can get more in tune with how you're

2573
07:58:47.560 --> 07:58:58.799
lower up to an area, this feeling in this moment,

2574
07:59:05.400 --> 07:59:27.919
just noticing the physical sensations or your lower abdomen has

2575
07:59:27.959 --> 07:59:41.560
to move your attention to your mouth, noticing your lips,

2576
07:59:43.599 --> 07:59:52.040
the inside your mouth, your teeth, your guns, your tongue,

2577
08:00:01.639 --> 08:00:10.279
just noticing how your tongue and your mouth feels. It

2578
08:00:10.439 --> 08:00:19.439
may help by moving your tongue around your mouth, moving

2579
08:00:19.520 --> 08:00:26.880
it to your left, maybe pressing it gently against the

2580
08:00:27.159 --> 08:00:33.360
side of your mouth, and then to the right, gently

2581
08:00:33.880 --> 08:00:40.560
to the side of your mouth, perhaps pressing up against

2582
08:00:40.680 --> 08:00:48.680
the top of your mouth, and then down gently against

2583
08:00:48.759 --> 08:01:03.599
the bottom of your mouth, always very slowly and very gentle,

2584
08:01:08.479 --> 08:01:20.759
so that you can be aware of how you feel

2585
08:01:24.200 --> 08:01:45.919
in your mouth area. No, got to focus on your wrists,

2586
08:01:56.520 --> 08:02:03.599
and I'll ask you to maybe just rotate your wrists

2587
08:02:05.439 --> 08:02:13.479
by moving your hands in a circular motion very gently

2588
08:02:15.439 --> 08:02:37.360
and slowly, just slowly, can feel the sensations that you

2589
08:02:37.840 --> 08:02:53.159
are currently experiencing in your wrists. Perhaps move in your

2590
08:02:53.400 --> 08:03:10.479
hands up and down again very very champily and slowly,

2591
08:03:19.479 --> 08:03:49.880
very chance and slow. I now start to observe you

2592
08:03:50.159 --> 08:04:02.040
lower back. The bad part is just above your hips

2593
08:04:06.479 --> 08:04:18.959
where your coxis are a whole area which also really

2594
08:04:19.159 --> 08:04:26.319
does include the sides of your body, because those muscles

2595
08:04:26.400 --> 08:04:37.119
are very much connected as those muscles also move into

2596
08:04:37.240 --> 08:04:46.599
your hiperia, connecting to your buttocks the side of your hips.

2597
08:04:55.159 --> 08:05:03.799
And if you're physically able to so, maybe you can

2598
08:05:04.759 --> 08:05:17.400
very gently just move your body eviss slightly, very slowly,

2599
08:05:20.479 --> 08:05:38.479
some side to side, just enough to gauge how you

2600
08:05:38.799 --> 08:05:56.159
feel in your lower back. Perhaps secretly even move your

2601
08:05:56.400 --> 08:06:10.720
hips gently up and down, gently and slowly, in order

2602
08:06:10.840 --> 08:06:24.639
to be in touch with the physical sensations of your

2603
08:06:24.799 --> 08:06:25.439
lower back.

2604
08:06:42.520 --> 08:06:43.200
As we know.

2605
08:06:48.599 --> 08:06:59.599
Your attention to your jewel an area for your chin,

2606
08:07:00.880 --> 08:07:05.000
all the way up to near where your ears are,

2607
08:07:08.159 --> 08:07:09.840
all your jaw.

2608
08:07:20.080 --> 08:07:20.759
You can just.

2609
08:07:22.840 --> 08:07:29.520
If it's okay to do so, gently open your mouth,

2610
08:07:32.400 --> 08:07:44.000
not wide, nice stretching, just very gently and slowly opening

2611
08:07:44.159 --> 08:07:57.200
your mouth and closing your mouth very gently and slowly,

2612
08:08:06.799 --> 08:08:24.119
so you cannot pain touch with how your jaw feels. Now,

2613
08:08:50.880 --> 08:09:06.400
I like to sit down your chest around. You don't

2614
08:09:06.599 --> 08:09:13.959
need to do anything to move your chest because it

2615
08:09:14.200 --> 08:09:25.639
moves every time we breathe. It moves very gently.

2616
08:09:27.040 --> 08:09:29.080
And slowly.

2617
08:09:30.840 --> 08:09:45.880
Automatically with each breath you take. As you focus on

2618
08:09:48.360 --> 08:10:32.040
how your chest feels when you breathe, I move in

2619
08:10:32.279 --> 08:10:46.959
your focus to your forearms with your elbows. Maybe you're

2620
08:10:47.040 --> 08:10:52.439
able to very gently.

2621
08:10:53.840 --> 08:10:55.959
And slowly.

2622
08:10:57.720 --> 08:11:06.279
Dense the muscles in your forearms, and when you do that,

2623
08:11:06.759 --> 08:11:30.319
you can feel your elbows as well, very gently and slowly,

2624
08:11:38.759 --> 08:11:59.319
gently and softly obsurving your forearms and helpers.

2625
08:12:10.000 --> 08:12:10.040
No.

2626
08:12:18.439 --> 08:12:32.720
Make a focus the rest of your back, your upper

2627
08:12:32.880 --> 08:12:54.360
back in the middle, the middle of your back again,

2628
08:12:55.040 --> 08:12:57.400
this part of your body.

2629
08:12:59.520 --> 08:13:00.439
M hmm is.

2630
08:13:02.599 --> 08:13:12.279
Also every time you crave. You may not notice that

2631
08:13:14.479 --> 08:13:26.599
usually makes you observe your upper back in the middle

2632
08:13:26.680 --> 08:13:44.119
of your back. You can really feel that gentle and

2633
08:13:45.360 --> 08:14:40.119
sloman moving your focus into hip area, your butts gray,

2634
08:14:42.919 --> 08:15:16.759
there's a muscles at noose bones in your midsection. Just

2635
08:15:17.159 --> 08:15:39.479
noticing how your hips feel right now, you can very

2636
08:15:40.200 --> 08:15:54.560
very gently move your hips, maybe side to side very

2637
08:15:55.240 --> 08:16:52.720
gently and on, yeah, softly. It's everything starts to slow down,

2638
08:16:59.200 --> 08:17:04.919
including the thoughts in your mind and your mind itself

2639
08:17:08.119 --> 08:17:14.759
just starts to gradually. It doesn't have to be instant,

2640
08:17:14.880 --> 08:17:22.880
but just gradually starting too. It's almost like time is

2641
08:17:23.319 --> 08:17:34.439
storing chin. It's a slower pace to maybe what you're

2642
08:17:34.799 --> 08:17:42.400
used to in your day to day life. It's a

2643
08:17:42.680 --> 08:18:09.360
slower movement of energy. Yeah, very small movements which make

2644
08:18:09.479 --> 08:18:17.279
up the larger movements, which is always the case. Now,

2645
08:18:17.360 --> 08:18:21.919
when you move your hand, it might seem like it's

2646
08:18:22.040 --> 08:18:27.759
one movement, but it's lots of minute different muscles moving

2647
08:18:29.919 --> 08:18:38.919
in accordance with each other. And what happens in this

2648
08:18:40.799 --> 08:18:55.680
space that we're sharing is we move from that big.

2649
08:19:00.119 --> 08:19:11.639
Movement into those smaller movements. Starting to focus on.

2650
08:19:16.959 --> 08:19:23.200
How your body feels, not just as a whole, not

2651
08:19:23.479 --> 08:19:28.799
just oh, i'm feeling this way, I'm feeling stressed or tense,

2652
08:19:29.080 --> 08:19:34.479
or I'm feeling relaxed and calm. I'm feeling this way,

2653
08:19:34.639 --> 08:19:41.479
I'm feeling that way. Starting to notice that your body

2654
08:19:45.840 --> 08:19:55.479
begins to present to you small feelings around your body,

2655
08:20:02.000 --> 08:20:14.080
small physical sensations in your legs, whether pleasurable or not,

2656
08:20:19.520 --> 08:20:28.799
maybe resisting the temptation to label them or to judge them.

2657
08:20:30.279 --> 08:20:36.319
Those feelings, just thinking them, thinking about them is just

2658
08:20:36.560 --> 08:20:54.439
being neutral, just feelings, not being particularly concerned, just noticing

2659
08:20:55.799 --> 08:21:09.319
what your body is telling you, the feelings in your arms,

2660
08:21:12.360 --> 08:21:17.279
instead of feeling the hole of the arm, maybe notice

2661
08:21:17.560 --> 08:21:30.400
those individual feelings, all those different muscles and the skin,

2662
08:21:33.639 --> 08:21:39.439
the hairs of your arms, all the internal parts of

2663
08:21:39.560 --> 08:21:55.840
your arms, the veins, the bones, just being aware of

2664
08:21:58.959 --> 08:22:05.360
maybe your elbow on your right arm has a certain feeling.

2665
08:22:07.479 --> 08:22:21.159
Maybe your left wrist also has its own individual physical sensation.

2666
08:22:33.639 --> 08:22:40.319
What about your forearm on your right arm, your right forearm,

2667
08:22:47.680 --> 08:22:53.759
there may not be any particular feeling that you could

2668
08:22:53.840 --> 08:23:01.680
even give a name to, may not feel like anything

2669
08:23:02.680 --> 08:23:13.479
other than just a feeling. Yeah, it's there. The feelings

2670
08:23:13.520 --> 08:23:19.520
in your shoulders, perhaps your shoulders when you think about them,

2671
08:23:20.720 --> 08:23:25.040
kind of almost like they're the same, you know, the

2672
08:23:25.159 --> 08:23:30.119
same feeling, almost like you both of your shoulders are

2673
08:23:30.200 --> 08:23:43.000
just one thing. Of course they're not. And when you

2674
08:23:43.200 --> 08:23:49.240
focus on your left shoulder and then on your right shoulder,

2675
08:23:51.279 --> 08:23:55.759
maybe find that you move the muscles a little bit,

2676
08:23:57.279 --> 08:24:11.040
maybe tense the muscles gently noticing the difference in each

2677
08:24:11.639 --> 08:24:39.360
shoulder your lower back, the left side of your lower back,

2678
08:24:39.599 --> 08:24:51.000
and the right side of your lower back of course

2679
08:24:51.080 --> 08:25:03.319
that connection to your buttocks and to your hips, and

2680
08:25:03.439 --> 08:25:16.840
also moving up into the middle of your back. And

2681
08:25:17.000 --> 08:25:21.560
sometimes like right now, actually, when I focus on that part,

2682
08:25:22.959 --> 08:25:27.319
when I focused on my buttocks and then I focused

2683
08:25:27.400 --> 08:25:31.479
on the middle of my back, I almost felt like

2684
08:25:31.720 --> 08:25:36.479
the muscles in my lower back were being stretched very gently,

2685
08:25:41.240 --> 08:25:46.520
just stretched a little bit. Even though I wasn't doing

2686
08:25:46.599 --> 08:25:55.360
anything to try to stretch your lower back, it just

2687
08:25:55.479 --> 08:26:07.759
seemed to happen. The feeling of very gently stretching your

2688
08:26:07.840 --> 08:26:26.919
lower back comes along. I have feeling in your chest,

2689
08:26:34.560 --> 08:26:47.959
just noticing what sensations you are experiencing in your chest

2690
08:26:48.200 --> 08:27:04.479
right now. And there's so much of the chest. Obviously,

2691
08:27:04.560 --> 08:27:08.159
there's the collar bone leading to the chest. You've got

2692
08:27:08.240 --> 08:27:16.840
the chest bone, You've got the muscles in your chest.

2693
08:27:19.599 --> 08:27:25.680
Of course, if you're female, there's possibly the breasts. If

2694
08:27:25.720 --> 08:27:33.880
you're male, you've got the different well my not that

2695
08:27:34.000 --> 08:27:41.479
different these days, but there may be more muscles at

2696
08:27:41.520 --> 08:27:47.759
the top of the chest, but at the side underneath,

2697
08:27:48.919 --> 08:27:51.720
it's pretty much the same. Whether you're a man or

2698
08:27:51.759 --> 08:27:58.200
a woman, there's muscles there, muscles that stretch out to

2699
08:27:58.319 --> 08:28:03.240
your back as well as breast tissue stretches and moves

2700
08:28:03.319 --> 08:28:10.639
into your back, to just being aware of your chest,

2701
08:28:19.560 --> 08:28:46.680
being with whatever feeling there is in your chest. And

2702
08:28:46.799 --> 08:28:54.240
when I noticed that, I focus on my chest. I

2703
08:28:54.479 --> 08:28:59.479
feel it in my back, my upper back. I mean,

2704
08:28:59.520 --> 08:29:02.439
I guess the obvious reason would be because you know,

2705
08:29:02.479 --> 08:29:13.240
I grieve in in then it stretches my chest and

2706
08:29:13.599 --> 08:29:27.439
my back at the same time. It feels it feels okay,

2707
08:29:34.040 --> 08:29:38.880
it doesn't feel I got a little bit of pain

2708
08:29:39.000 --> 08:29:45.599
in my right chest, a little bit, not pain, but

2709
08:29:45.759 --> 08:29:56.000
little discomfort, maybe stiffness possibly, I don't know. I notice

2710
08:29:56.080 --> 08:30:05.919
my shoulders also watching to flex for some reason. I

2711
08:30:06.000 --> 08:30:13.919
think that's probably part of my upper back, that connection

2712
08:30:14.200 --> 08:30:18.840
between my shoulders my upper back, because I can move

2713
08:30:18.919 --> 08:30:26.240
my shoulders and stretch the muscles in my back, moving

2714
08:30:26.279 --> 08:30:32.720
the shoulders backwards or up, which then moves. I think

2715
08:30:32.759 --> 08:30:48.680
it's the scapulous in your back. It feels quite nice. Actually,

2716
08:30:54.000 --> 08:30:57.200
A good thing about this is you can, if you

2717
08:30:57.360 --> 08:31:12.000
want to, you can flex or stimulate the various muscles

2718
08:31:13.279 --> 08:31:19.040
in your body gently in order to get more of

2719
08:31:19.119 --> 08:31:29.319
a sense of how they feel and when you're relaxing.

2720
08:31:34.119 --> 08:31:38.159
When you do tense and muscle, then you let it

2721
08:31:38.319 --> 08:31:45.720
go and you let it relax. It relaxes way more

2722
08:31:47.360 --> 08:31:57.639
than it would normally. You have to feel that you're

2723
08:31:57.680 --> 08:32:01.279
able to do that. There's no point in doing it

2724
08:32:01.520 --> 08:32:07.319
if there's an issue with the per part of your body.

2725
08:32:10.799 --> 08:32:17.400
You need to be gentle with yourself at all times

2726
08:32:20.000 --> 08:32:31.520
when relaxing deeply. It's important to be kind to yourself

2727
08:32:39.119 --> 08:32:47.560
as you notice your mind. How much has your mind

2728
08:32:47.880 --> 08:33:15.119
slowed down since we started this recording, How came and

2729
08:33:15.400 --> 08:33:26.720
peaceful is your mind right now? We have nothing to

2730
08:33:26.840 --> 08:33:36.720
think about and just my voice to listen to. Because

2731
08:33:36.799 --> 08:33:47.759
you know the intention behind this recording, this relaxation. At

2732
08:33:47.799 --> 08:33:54.240
the very least, for you to feel more relaxed at

2733
08:33:54.279 --> 08:33:57.639
the end of the recording than you did at the beginning,

2734
08:34:02.799 --> 08:34:11.439
at the very least, for your mind to slow down

2735
08:34:14.319 --> 08:34:27.119
because your body continues to relax, because that's what you

2736
08:34:28.759 --> 08:34:48.560
want to happen. That's what you expect to happen, for

2737
08:34:48.799 --> 08:35:07.000
relaxation to fill your body, maybe calm in your mind

2738
08:35:08.520 --> 08:35:16.000
to the point of boredom. When you start maybe to

2739
08:35:21.639 --> 08:36:03.360
drift away, drifting it's almost as if you're moving further

2740
08:36:03.560 --> 08:36:11.799
away from your body and your mind, just leaving that there,

2741
08:36:19.799 --> 08:36:24.080
kind of liking it an escape pod in a spaceship

2742
08:36:24.479 --> 08:36:27.840
a movie, a space movie, you know, when they get

2743
08:36:27.880 --> 08:36:33.880
into a little pod in it sends the month far

2744
08:36:34.080 --> 08:37:03.159
away from the spaceship, safe to dream and continue to relax,

2745
08:37:23.400 --> 08:37:44.240
drifting size slow.

2746
08:37:57.000 --> 08:37:58.040
And peace.

2747
08:38:28.439 --> 08:39:03.080
And peaceful, and focusing on that feeling of those individual

2748
08:39:03.599 --> 08:39:13.360
parts of your body that are relaxing. One by one.

2749
08:39:21.040 --> 08:39:33.360
You may find that every now and then you realize

2750
08:39:33.560 --> 08:39:44.400
that you weren't listening to my voice because your mind

2751
08:39:44.959 --> 08:39:59.720
started to imagine something different, maybe started to almost move

2752
08:40:00.200 --> 08:40:09.000
to some kind of a dreamy state, and then you

2753
08:40:09.159 --> 08:40:15.919
become aware of my voice again. And even though you

2754
08:40:16.919 --> 08:40:23.119
may want to focus on my voice, you may also

2755
08:40:23.840 --> 08:40:37.680
wish to allow your mind to just drift naturally into

2756
08:40:37.799 --> 08:40:59.200
that space of comfort and safety. As you feel more

2757
08:41:00.240 --> 08:41:13.119
foot spreading through your body like a warm blanket covering

2758
08:41:13.240 --> 08:41:27.279
you chaplin, keeping your body it just the perfect temperature,

2759
08:41:37.680 --> 08:41:48.080
and even if you can hear background sounds, they just

2760
08:41:49.479 --> 08:42:03.279
don't seem to matter anymore, as that sense of peace

2761
08:42:05.759 --> 08:42:20.319
spreads through your mind like a gentle breeze, yet strong

2762
08:42:20.439 --> 08:42:36.439
enough to blow away all negativity, strong enough to remove

2763
08:42:37.000 --> 08:42:47.000
from your mind any anxiety or stress that was there before,

2764
08:42:55.360 --> 08:43:04.240
and blow away any other thoughts or feelings that just

2765
08:43:06.080 --> 08:43:30.479
don't fit with the sense relaxation that is feeling your

2766
08:43:30.560 --> 08:43:53.400
body and your mind. Unless you focus on your mind

2767
08:43:55.639 --> 08:44:01.520
and countdown from ten down to one, and with each

2768
08:44:02.119 --> 08:44:27.159
number you hear, your mind will become slightly more relaxed,

2769
08:44:29.919 --> 08:44:32.639
just just slightly.

2770
08:44:35.159 --> 08:44:35.200
So.

2771
08:44:35.360 --> 08:44:42.400
From ten down to nine, just a slight movement. From

2772
08:44:42.599 --> 08:44:54.840
nine down to eight, just another small change in how

2773
08:44:55.000 --> 08:45:08.040
you feel. Eight down to seven, that feeling is a gap,

2774
08:45:08.919 --> 08:45:14.479
almost like a gap that starts to get wider, the

2775
08:45:14.639 --> 08:45:22.880
gap between those feelings that you used to have in

2776
08:45:23.040 --> 08:45:31.919
your mind compared to the feelings you have there growing now,

2777
08:45:33.680 --> 08:45:43.479
feelings of comfort and security and confidence, and that gap

2778
08:45:43.919 --> 08:45:50.040
becomes wider. Eight down to seven, seven down to six,

2779
08:45:53.680 --> 08:45:58.720
And when you get to five, your mind will start

2780
08:45:58.840 --> 08:46:11.799
to have a certain physical sensation, almost like there's a

2781
08:46:12.119 --> 08:46:18.720
magnet outside of your head sucking the tension and the

2782
08:46:19.040 --> 08:46:26.680
stress and any remaining feelings that you don't want, sucking

2783
08:46:26.759 --> 08:46:35.840
them out through your skull. And in down to four

2784
08:46:37.840 --> 08:46:44.599
you could start to really experience that sense of not

2785
08:46:44.919 --> 08:46:55.080
just emptiness, but space, a place full of fresh air,

2786
08:47:00.119 --> 08:47:06.919
place where you can stretch. It's almost as if as

2787
08:47:06.959 --> 08:47:12.119
you go down to four and three, your mind is expanding,

2788
08:47:12.759 --> 08:47:15.279
with this sense.

2789
08:47:17.919 --> 08:47:19.240
Of peace.

2790
08:47:20.599 --> 08:47:30.919
And tranquility growing as it moves down to When you

2791
08:47:31.000 --> 08:47:40.400
get to one, your mind just feels exactly how you

2792
08:47:40.759 --> 08:47:56.479
want to feel. It's almost a perfect fearing, maybe a

2793
08:47:59.560 --> 08:48:08.680
sense station that you'd like to keep, a place that's safe,

2794
08:48:09.680 --> 08:48:30.000
where nothing can affect you at all, and you can

2795
08:48:30.159 --> 08:48:39.119
stay in that that space of comfort and confidence, confident

2796
08:48:39.279 --> 08:48:45.720
in your own ability to create this space and this

2797
08:48:47.080 --> 08:48:53.479
feeling of comfort within your own mind just by counting

2798
08:48:54.560 --> 08:49:03.400
ten down to one. And this is something that you

2799
08:49:03.560 --> 08:49:12.560
can do yourself when you're on your own a time

2800
08:49:12.720 --> 08:49:16.240
when you can maybe sit down, maybe just for a

2801
08:49:16.360 --> 08:49:29.000
few minutes, close your eyes. It just count slowly from

2802
08:49:29.240 --> 08:49:43.639
ten down to one, and we experience these feelings in

2803
08:49:43.759 --> 08:49:52.639
your mind. And when you feel that way in your mind,

2804
08:49:54.400 --> 08:50:08.639
your body copies your mind, and that feeling it's spread

2805
08:50:08.919 --> 08:50:16.119
through your spine and your nervous system into every part

2806
08:50:16.439 --> 08:50:28.200
of your body, travels through your blood stream, heathing and

2807
08:50:28.400 --> 08:50:49.040
relaxing every particle of your existence. And we can we

2808
08:50:49.200 --> 08:50:57.080
can practice this a few times before the end of

2809
08:50:57.159 --> 08:51:01.880
the recording, and then you can practice on your own,

2810
08:51:04.000 --> 08:51:13.720
and each time you count from ten about one, the

2811
08:51:13.919 --> 08:51:18.479
feelings of comfort, calmness.

2812
08:51:19.040 --> 08:51:19.680
Deep.

2813
08:51:21.439 --> 08:51:38.520
Deep relaxation becomes stronger and deeper, filling your mind and

2814
08:51:38.639 --> 08:51:48.360
your brain with these positive chemicals that spread throughout your body,

2815
08:51:49.919 --> 08:51:58.919
relaxing you so quickly, relaxing your whole body and mind.

2816
08:52:01.560 --> 08:52:02.439
So very.

2817
08:52:03.919 --> 08:52:15.200
Very easily, just by counting from ten down to one.

2818
08:52:20.319 --> 08:52:22.880
So we're going to do it now. I'm going to

2819
08:52:23.040 --> 08:52:27.119
count from ten down to one. I'd like you to

2820
08:52:27.279 --> 08:52:31.759
repeat the number after me. So when I say ten,

2821
08:52:34.799 --> 08:52:37.919
you can just repeat to yourself.

2822
08:52:39.279 --> 08:52:39.520
Ten.

2823
08:52:45.119 --> 08:52:54.479
Just notice, be aware of how you feel in your

2824
08:52:54.599 --> 08:53:04.159
mind and your body, and when I say nine, you

2825
08:53:04.279 --> 08:53:07.319
can repeat to yourself.

2826
08:53:09.759 --> 08:53:10.040
Nine.

2827
08:53:14.000 --> 08:53:25.200
Became noticing the increase in comfort and calmness in your

2828
08:53:25.439 --> 08:53:36.040
mind and in your body. The same when I say eight,

2829
08:53:39.040 --> 08:53:50.639
when I say seven, six, when I say five, four,

2830
08:53:54.599 --> 08:54:06.599
when I say three, two, and lastly when I say one,

2831
08:54:09.000 --> 08:54:11.119
you can repeat that number.

2832
08:54:18.599 --> 08:54:18.720
Now.

2833
08:54:18.840 --> 08:54:24.400
Of course, when you do this on your own without

2834
08:54:24.520 --> 08:54:29.520
listening to me, you can say the numbers or whatever

2835
08:54:31.119 --> 08:54:39.599
speed that you feel is necessary for you, so you

2836
08:54:39.720 --> 08:54:45.680
can adapt so you feel you want to say the

2837
08:54:45.840 --> 08:54:53.400
numbers ten out to one faster than I do, then

2838
08:54:53.400 --> 08:54:56.319
you go ahead and do that, or if you feel

2839
08:54:57.159 --> 08:55:00.279
when you do it yourself that you like to have

2840
08:55:00.880 --> 08:55:09.520
more space between the numbers, maybe take a lot longer

2841
08:55:10.799 --> 08:55:16.639
to get from ten all the way down to one,

2842
08:55:20.880 --> 08:55:33.400
that's your choice also to do. So I'm going to

2843
08:55:33.560 --> 08:55:41.919
count from ten down to one, and when to get

2844
08:55:41.959 --> 08:55:49.200
to one, that will be the end of this recording, unless,

2845
08:55:49.279 --> 08:55:53.240
of course, you're listening with music, then the music will

2846
08:55:53.279 --> 09:01:04.520
continue two nine eight five f twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen,

2847
09:01:08.520 --> 09:01:54.479
thirty twelve eleven ten nine eight seven six, five, four

2848
09:01:58.799 --> 09:02:27.040
three two one. Now open your eyes, noticing how you

2849
09:02:27.159 --> 09:02:35.560
physically feel having counted down from twenty to one, allowing

2850
09:02:36.360 --> 09:02:40.759
stress and tension to leave through your fingertips and your toes.

2851
09:02:42.319 --> 09:02:47.000
And as you focus on your fingertips maybe they feel

2852
09:02:47.000 --> 09:02:53.799
a little bit tingling, which is I suppose quite understanding

2853
09:02:53.959 --> 09:02:59.040
considering the tension has been exiting your body through your fingertips.

2854
09:03:05.520 --> 09:03:07.520
So now I'm going to count from twenty down to

2855
09:03:07.599 --> 09:03:15.439
one again. This time you can feel relief of tension

2856
09:03:17.040 --> 09:03:28.119
and stress, any anxiety that you may have leaving through

2857
09:03:28.200 --> 09:03:34.119
your stomach, just leaving through your stomach, almost as if

2858
09:03:34.680 --> 09:03:41.119
it's just releasing the hole of your stomach. You'll navel

2859
09:03:42.599 --> 09:03:45.520
to just above your chest or below your chest, rather

2860
09:03:46.680 --> 09:03:52.080
so surrounding your belly button area. The whole area. You

2861
09:03:52.200 --> 09:03:56.639
can feel the tension of your body where there's left

2862
09:03:56.919 --> 09:04:02.200
just releasing from the area, and you may notice that

2863
09:04:02.360 --> 09:04:08.599
your stomach will become very relaxed. As my countdown from

2864
09:04:08.680 --> 09:05:32.759
twenty down to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four,

2865
09:05:36.880 --> 09:05:53.799
three two what You can open your eyes again if

2866
09:05:53.799 --> 09:05:57.400
you choose, or you can just keep them closed because

2867
09:05:57.439 --> 09:06:04.279
it feels relaxing. Just notice how your stomach feels. I

2868
09:06:04.400 --> 09:06:08.160
notice as your focus, just do a little scan of

2869
09:06:08.279 --> 09:06:17.680
your body. Just notice how your body feels, focusing your

2870
09:06:17.800 --> 09:06:28.360
upper body, bag, chest, stomach, legs, arms, hands, feet, just noticing,

2871
09:06:32.599 --> 09:06:37.199
and you know, you may start to film more of

2872
09:06:37.239 --> 09:06:41.480
a sense of tiredness, which may be the reason you're

2873
09:06:41.959 --> 09:06:49.080
listening to this recording, because you would like to let

2874
09:06:49.239 --> 09:07:00.839
go completely of everything and drift off into a nice, natural, calm,

2875
09:07:01.239 --> 09:07:15.800
relaxing sleep. So now we're going to focus on your

2876
09:07:15.919 --> 09:07:22.919
forehead and if you choose, you can incorporate your eyes

2877
09:07:23.080 --> 09:07:27.839
in this focus as well, So your forehead and your eyes.

2878
09:07:29.959 --> 09:07:34.360
It's that whole area basically, almost as if you were

2879
09:07:34.440 --> 09:07:38.400
wearing a mask, you know, like a I don't know,

2880
09:07:38.440 --> 09:07:45.040
a batman mask or something, or I'm trying to sorrow

2881
09:07:45.239 --> 09:07:47.239
or something, you know, the kind of mask that covers

2882
09:07:47.279 --> 09:07:50.400
your eyes, but also covers quite a lot of the forehead.

2883
09:07:54.279 --> 09:07:57.319
Focusing on that area because that's the area that we're

2884
09:07:57.360 --> 09:08:03.760
now going to release tension, stress from your mind, from

2885
09:08:03.800 --> 09:08:07.639
your brain, from your mind, and any tension that you

2886
09:08:07.800 --> 09:08:12.559
may have remaining in your face, in your neck, your jaw,

2887
09:08:13.760 --> 09:08:19.879
in your eyes, your forehead, or your scalp, So basically

2888
09:08:20.120 --> 09:08:25.919
any tension within your head area, including your mind and

2889
09:08:26.120 --> 09:08:33.720
your brain, and that's going to be released through your

2890
09:08:33.800 --> 09:08:40.760
forehead and your eyes. As I count down again from

2891
09:08:41.319 --> 09:10:05.919
twenty down to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five,

2892
09:10:11.559 --> 09:10:41.199
war three one, noticing as you scan your face with jaw,

2893
09:10:41.760 --> 09:10:50.559
your eyes, your cheap bones, your ears, your forehead, your scalp,

2894
09:10:52.199 --> 09:10:56.480
your neck, back of your neck, the front of your neck,

2895
09:10:57.440 --> 09:11:08.160
the side of your neck and your throat, noticing being

2896
09:11:08.199 --> 09:11:19.959
aware of the comfort, increased feeling, relaxation, not just in

2897
09:11:20.080 --> 09:11:25.120
your head and neck and mind, also the rest of

2898
09:11:25.199 --> 09:11:35.440
your body. Just notice how loose and calm you film,

2899
09:11:36.480 --> 09:11:44.839
and how easily it is to just let go completely,

2900
09:11:47.720 --> 09:12:08.519
let go completely, how easily. So what I'm gonna do

2901
09:12:08.760 --> 09:12:12.760
now is to focus on the top of your head,

2902
09:12:18.199 --> 09:12:25.440
and we're going to allow every last piece of tension

2903
09:12:26.599 --> 09:12:31.639
or stress that might be lingering or hiding in your

2904
09:12:31.680 --> 09:12:35.279
body or mind, my head.

2905
09:12:36.559 --> 09:12:36.959
To just.

2906
09:12:38.680 --> 09:12:44.400
Be sucked out on the top of your head and

2907
09:12:44.599 --> 09:12:52.879
released into Yeah, I want sucked out into the clouds.

2908
09:12:55.639 --> 09:13:01.360
Let a big cloud above your head. It's like a whirlpool,

2909
09:13:02.120 --> 09:13:04.959
and this is gonna suck that tension.

2910
09:13:06.160 --> 09:13:07.800
Out of the top of your head.

2911
09:13:09.919 --> 09:13:11.120
And just take away.

2912
09:13:13.239 --> 09:13:13.440
Good.

2913
09:13:16.440 --> 09:13:20.199
Let your focus imagine an opening at the top of

2914
09:13:20.279 --> 09:13:25.839
your head with that tension and stress and any rop

2915
09:13:25.959 --> 09:13:30.120
made in issues, maybe worries or concerns that are no

2916
09:13:30.480 --> 09:13:34.400
use to you. Now you can all be sucked down

2917
09:13:34.440 --> 09:13:40.519
at the top of your head and taken away. As

2918
09:13:40.599 --> 09:13:48.360
I count down again, I'm twenty down to one now

2919
09:13:52.000 --> 09:15:22.040
twenty or nineteen eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifty fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six,

2920
09:15:26.360 --> 09:16:11.400
five four three one pree noticing how you feel, how

2921
09:16:11.559 --> 09:16:19.839
relaxed and calm you physically and mentally feel right now,

2922
09:16:25.480 --> 09:16:35.519
how peaceful your mind feels. It feels so nice to

2923
09:16:35.800 --> 09:16:44.400
just let go, to give yourself some space to breathe easily,

2924
09:16:46.319 --> 09:16:54.400
to think calmly, and just to take a break from

2925
09:16:56.199 --> 09:17:02.559
all that pointless worry can earns about things that you

2926
09:17:02.599 --> 09:17:12.680
don't need to think about right now, because this is

2927
09:17:12.919 --> 09:17:17.720
your time to let go. This is your space to

2928
09:17:18.040 --> 09:17:28.519
enjoy feeling deeply relaxed, peaceful in your mind, relaxed in

2929
09:17:28.639 --> 09:17:38.400
your body. They can feel so good, so nice to

2930
09:17:38.800 --> 09:17:46.599
just not have to do anything, to be able to

2931
09:17:47.919 --> 09:17:57.839
really enjoy that serenity that comes with letting go completely

2932
09:18:00.279 --> 09:18:02.400
peacefulness that comes.

2933
09:18:02.239 --> 09:18:10.400
With being in this.

2934
09:18:12.199 --> 09:18:22.279
Peaceful space. And you can keep this sense of calmness

2935
09:18:23.120 --> 09:18:34.239
for as long as you choose. If you choose to

2936
09:18:34.480 --> 09:18:41.720
drift off into a deep, healing, natural sleep, then you

2937
09:18:41.800 --> 09:18:53.319
can do that. It's completely up to you, and you

2938
09:18:53.440 --> 09:18:58.040
can keep this feeling of calmness physically and in your

2939
09:18:58.120 --> 09:19:14.559
mind long as you choose to feel completely relaxed, completely relaxed,

2940
09:19:17.800 --> 09:19:23.440
and I'd like you to make up your mind that

2941
09:19:23.519 --> 09:19:34.480
you're going to relax, and I want to explore that

2942
09:19:34.680 --> 09:19:40.000
with you. What it feels like when you actually decide

2943
09:19:42.199 --> 09:19:46.879
that you're going to relax, not forcing yourself, but giving

2944
09:19:46.959 --> 09:19:52.919
yourself that. I guess it is a command, really, isn't it,

2945
09:19:53.040 --> 09:20:00.360
When you're telling yourself relax in a gentle but firm

2946
09:20:00.480 --> 09:20:07.720
way that only you can really tell yourself in that way.

2947
09:20:08.599 --> 09:20:10.400
You can't only have someone else saying to you and

2948
09:20:10.440 --> 09:20:16.519
now it relax, relax, you know, and it needs to

2949
09:20:16.559 --> 09:20:19.879
be gentle, But you can't. Someone else can't really have

2950
09:20:20.199 --> 09:20:29.120
the same the same kind of influence or power that

2951
09:20:29.400 --> 09:20:37.000
you have over your own physicality, over how you feel,

2952
09:20:42.879 --> 09:20:47.760
because when you say it to yourself, it means more.

2953
09:20:48.919 --> 09:20:55.400
It's personal, and your brain and your unconscious mind and

2954
09:20:55.480 --> 09:21:02.040
your body listens to what you say. So, for example,

2955
09:21:02.639 --> 09:21:05.279
we'll test it out and do a little test, a

2956
09:21:05.319 --> 09:21:09.160
few little tests along the way, and you can get

2957
09:21:09.279 --> 09:21:15.720
more of an idea of the force, a positive force

2958
09:21:15.919 --> 09:21:22.639
that you can have in creating a sense of comfort

2959
09:21:22.839 --> 09:21:27.639
and relaxation in your body and your mind quite quickly

2960
09:21:29.440 --> 09:21:40.120
just by you telling yourself to relax. So I'm going

2961
09:21:40.199 --> 09:21:47.279
to start by focus on your hands. So focus on

2962
09:21:47.319 --> 09:21:50.959
your hands and just tell your hands to relax. I

2963
09:21:51.160 --> 09:21:58.080
just say relax. As you focus on your hands, you

2964
09:21:58.239 --> 09:22:02.680
could say my hands are relaxed, or I want my

2965
09:22:02.839 --> 09:22:07.120
hands to relax. I think if you actually do it

2966
09:22:07.279 --> 09:22:15.519
directly by focusing and imagining that your hands can hear

2967
09:22:15.639 --> 09:22:17.959
what you're saying, you know, like they've got little ears,

2968
09:22:18.760 --> 09:22:23.879
this is a bit weird. So talking to your hands

2969
09:22:24.639 --> 09:22:40.919
and just say relax. Noticing now your hands start to relax.

2970
09:22:53.319 --> 09:22:56.839
Now focus on your eyes and tell your eyes to relax.

2971
09:22:58.000 --> 09:23:02.760
You're just saying the same word relax. And find the

2972
09:23:02.959 --> 09:23:10.360
right tone for you. You know, I might say relax,

2973
09:23:11.080 --> 09:23:19.160
but you you might say relax or relax. You know,

2974
09:23:19.480 --> 09:23:25.160
you might say it differently to yourself, and that's important

2975
09:23:26.000 --> 09:23:32.120
for you to gauge what feels right for you. To

2976
09:23:32.319 --> 09:23:37.519
just tell your eyes to relax, whilst focusing on your eyes,

2977
09:23:38.000 --> 09:23:42.720
your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your eyebrows, and

2978
09:23:43.000 --> 09:24:18.480
just tell your eyes directly relax now. Now, I just

2979
09:24:18.599 --> 09:24:28.879
did that myself, and sometimes you may feel that you

2980
09:24:29.080 --> 09:24:34.480
need a bit more time for the different parts to relax,

2981
09:24:35.319 --> 09:24:39.199
you know, because I start talking again, and maybe that

2982
09:24:39.400 --> 09:24:43.040
part hasn't relaxed fully. But what will happen is it

2983
09:24:43.080 --> 09:24:47.360
will just continue to relax even though I'm talking. And

2984
09:24:47.440 --> 09:24:53.239
that's happened with my eyes. Something else I noticed is

2985
09:24:55.199 --> 09:24:59.000
when I started focusing on my eyes, they actually almost

2986
09:24:59.160 --> 09:25:01.839
became They got worse before they got better in a way,

2987
09:25:02.519 --> 09:25:05.480
so that I felt a degree of tension growing in

2988
09:25:05.599 --> 09:25:11.360
my eyes and then disappearing. So I think what that

2989
09:25:11.639 --> 09:25:16.239
was really was just me becoming more aware of the

2990
09:25:16.480 --> 09:25:21.800
tension that was already there that I wasn't. I wasn't

2991
09:25:21.879 --> 09:25:26.919
focused on it before, so I wasn't really acknowledging it

2992
09:25:27.440 --> 09:25:44.000
or really conscious to those feelings. Yeah, my eyes is

2993
09:25:44.239 --> 09:25:47.760
still continuing to relax, as well as my hands. Actually,

2994
09:25:51.199 --> 09:25:56.639
my hands have got a certain kind of energy, like

2995
09:25:56.879 --> 09:26:02.000
not buzzing, but I can kind of fear or degree

2996
09:26:02.040 --> 09:26:08.000
of energy in my hands. Maybe that's where the tension

2997
09:26:08.120 --> 09:26:19.440
is being released. Maybe that's the cause in that the

2998
09:26:19.559 --> 09:26:21.839
next part, I think we should focus on the back

2999
09:26:21.919 --> 09:26:26.680
of the neck. That's a part which quite often well

3000
09:26:26.760 --> 09:26:29.559
for me, holds tension. I don't know about for yourself,

3001
09:26:30.440 --> 09:26:34.720
but I think it's quite a standard place where tension

3002
09:26:34.879 --> 09:26:41.559
is sometimes held. So and I'm doing exactly what you're

3003
09:26:41.639 --> 09:26:44.239
doing as you do it as well, So I'm telling

3004
09:26:44.360 --> 09:26:48.519
my body parts to relax as well. So if you

3005
09:26:48.639 --> 09:26:51.599
tell your neck, the back of your neck, focus on

3006
09:26:51.720 --> 09:26:58.279
the back of your neck, and just say relax in

3007
09:26:58.360 --> 09:27:01.480
your own words, in your own in your own voice.

3008
09:27:02.160 --> 09:27:04.199
You can say out loud, or you can just say

3009
09:27:04.239 --> 09:27:09.720
it to yourself internally. But you're focusing and you're saying

3010
09:27:09.800 --> 09:27:14.040
it literally to the back of your neck, as if

3011
09:27:14.080 --> 09:27:17.760
the back of your neck can actually hear what you're saying.

3012
09:27:21.120 --> 09:27:24.800
So do that now, Just say relax, so back of

3013
09:27:24.839 --> 09:27:27.239
your neck, and I'll do the same.

3014
09:28:06.040 --> 09:28:06.199
Now.

3015
09:28:06.239 --> 09:28:11.279
What I noticed and you may have had similar thing is,

3016
09:28:12.080 --> 09:28:14.680
even though I was focusing on the back of my neck,

3017
09:28:19.720 --> 09:28:26.319
other parts started to I don't know, showed themselves to

3018
09:28:26.480 --> 09:28:29.800
me or maybe because they want to be relaxed as well.

3019
09:28:29.919 --> 09:28:34.800
But I started noticing the feelings in my shoulders, tension

3020
09:28:34.839 --> 09:28:40.360
in my shoulders, and in my upper back. Whether that

3021
09:28:40.599 --> 09:28:45.959
was because my back of my neck was saying, well,

3022
09:28:45.959 --> 09:28:50.959
I'm pretty much okay, it's the other parts to need attention,

3023
09:28:57.360 --> 09:28:59.720
but my low my back of my neck is still

3024
09:28:59.760 --> 09:29:04.160
really but I just became more aware of other parts

3025
09:29:04.279 --> 09:29:11.559
that needed attention. Now, this might happen and it's not.

3026
09:29:13.160 --> 09:29:15.720
It doesn't mean that it's going wrong. It just means

3027
09:29:16.559 --> 09:29:22.599
you're being notified with more places that also want to

3028
09:29:22.639 --> 09:29:29.440
feel relaxed. So I'm going to focus on my upper

3029
09:29:29.519 --> 09:29:34.480
back so you can do the same, even if you

3030
09:29:34.559 --> 09:29:39.559
don't have any feelings of tension that are obvious in

3031
09:29:39.720 --> 09:29:43.800
your upper back, if you just focus on your back

3032
09:29:43.879 --> 09:29:51.160
and the whole area from the shoulder blades down to

3033
09:29:51.279 --> 09:29:55.559
the middle of your back, there a spine and with me,

3034
09:29:55.680 --> 09:30:03.760
it's more the shoulder blades more. Yeah, that's the parts

3035
09:30:03.839 --> 09:30:12.120
that are really sort of given me the not that

3036
09:30:12.239 --> 09:30:15.000
it needs relaxing. The sounds. Gonna ask that part to

3037
09:30:15.120 --> 09:30:30.080
relax and you can do the same. Now, relax up

3038
09:30:30.160 --> 09:30:47.720
the back. There's something strange happened there, and this often happens.

3039
09:30:47.800 --> 09:30:48.680
I've been doing this for.

3040
09:30:51.199 --> 09:30:57.400
Over sixteen years or something, and often I'm I'm surprised,

3041
09:30:58.279 --> 09:31:05.120
but amazed really that there can be a feeling. So

3042
09:31:05.279 --> 09:31:07.879
when I was focusing on the back of my neck,

3043
09:31:08.760 --> 09:31:12.879
my upper back was starting to feel quite stressed and

3044
09:31:13.639 --> 09:31:19.199
in need of attention. As soon as I started talking

3045
09:31:19.360 --> 09:31:24.239
to you about my upper back and talking about you know,

3046
09:31:24.760 --> 09:31:29.639
getting ready to ask the upper back to relax. My

3047
09:31:29.639 --> 09:31:35.480
opper back already started to relax. It's almost as if

3048
09:31:35.519 --> 09:31:41.160
it doesn't need to hear the words, just needs attention,

3049
09:31:45.919 --> 09:31:57.239
just needs to be noticed. And that is something that

3050
09:31:57.559 --> 09:32:04.519
often happens in this type of situation is when you

3051
09:32:04.800 --> 09:32:09.959
start to relax a couple of parts of your body,

3052
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as we've done with our hands, our eyes and eyelids.

3053
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And now back of the neck, top of the back, upper.

3054
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Back, the rest of the body seems to just take

3055
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notice and decide in its own way to start relaxing.

3056
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Other parts of your body start to just become looser.

3057
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I suppose it's kind of like a bit of an avalanche,

3058
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you know, a little ball starts rolling. Before you know it,

3059
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the whole of your body is completely relaxed and can't

3060
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And if you focus on your face, you focus on

3061
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your eyes, your eyelids, your eyebrows, and the muscles around

3062
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your eyes, maybe you start to notice that your forehead

3063
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is more relaxed than it was. Maybe your face is

3064
09:33:44.919 --> 09:33:51.599
more relaxed. I would say, my entire face is a

3065
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lot more relaxed than it was. So you're going to

3066
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focus now on your shoulders again, just like before, just

3067
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tell your shoulders and when you can do them individually,

3068
09:34:16.879 --> 09:34:20.839
you can do the right shoulder, left shoulder. I just

3069
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didn't do both at the same time. And just tell

3070
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your shoulders as you focus on them in your mind,

3071
09:34:29.919 --> 09:34:35.120
focus on them they feel maybe you can see them

3072
09:34:35.599 --> 09:34:45.720
in your mind's eye. Just tell your shoulders to relax.

3073
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I feel as nice as they relax. But do you notice,

3074
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especially with my back, is the connection between the different

3075
09:35:45.760 --> 09:35:56.839
parts the back, with shoulders, the neck being all connected

3076
09:35:57.279 --> 09:36:03.720
and being such a large part of your body, it's

3077
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always hard to separate them from each other. And my

3078
09:36:12.279 --> 09:36:21.160
lower back is starting to relax on its own. Maybe

3079
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I'm going too slow and that could be an issue

3080
09:36:26.839 --> 09:36:33.639
because we all go at different speeds. And the idea

3081
09:36:33.720 --> 09:36:36.360
of the beginning of this recording was for you to

3082
09:36:36.440 --> 09:36:51.959
be able to just say to yourself, relax without focusing

3083
09:36:52.080 --> 09:36:57.720
on any particular part of your body. Because when you

3084
09:36:57.919 --> 09:37:08.760
know that, telling your hands to relax and your hands relax,

3085
09:37:11.319 --> 09:37:18.000
you tell your eyelids and your eyes and muscles around

3086
09:37:18.120 --> 09:37:27.559
your eyes and your eyebrows to relax and they relax.

3087
09:37:33.319 --> 09:37:44.519
You tell the back of your neck to relax and

3088
09:37:45.000 --> 09:38:12.319
it relaxes. You tell your upper back to relax, and

3089
09:38:12.599 --> 09:38:23.279
the reaxes. You tell your shoulders.

3090
09:38:24.559 --> 09:38:36.720
To relax, they relax.

3091
09:39:00.199 --> 09:39:04.279
When you told your hands to relax, they relaxed, and

3092
09:39:04.400 --> 09:39:17.559
they continued to relax. When you told your eyelids, the

3093
09:39:17.720 --> 09:39:25.199
muscles around your eyes, your eyebrows, to relax, they relaxed

3094
09:39:28.720 --> 09:39:39.760
and continued to relax. When you told the back of

3095
09:39:39.839 --> 09:39:46.800
your neck focused on the back of your neck and

3096
09:39:47.040 --> 09:39:58.680
told it to relax, they relaxed and continued to relax.

3097
09:40:06.839 --> 09:40:15.919
When you told your upper back to relax, be relaxed

3098
09:40:16.559 --> 09:40:32.919
and continued to relax. That's with your shoulders. You told

3099
09:40:32.919 --> 09:40:41.239
your shoulders to relax, and your shoulders relaxed and continued

3100
09:40:46.360 --> 09:40:47.120
to relax.

3101
09:40:52.760 --> 09:40:57.680
And it's not just that, It's.

3102
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That the rest of your body has also been listening,

3103
09:41:06.480 --> 09:41:12.599
and that relaxation has been spreading. So from your eyes,

3104
09:41:12.919 --> 09:41:20.319
the relaxation spread to your forehead, around your face, into

3105
09:41:20.400 --> 09:41:34.279
your skin, into your jaw, into the fronts and sides

3106
09:41:34.360 --> 09:41:39.120
of your neck, all the way down your chest and stomach.

3107
09:41:45.800 --> 09:41:48.720
Your relaxed hands and shoulders.

3108
09:41:50.239 --> 09:41:53.239
Let up through your arms.

3109
09:41:53.639 --> 09:41:54.839
Relaxing.

3110
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Your forearms, your upper arms, elbows, your wrists, let it go,

3111
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your lower back, your hips, buttocks gry, or just start

3112
09:42:23.440 --> 09:42:24.360
to relax, so.

3113
09:42:24.559 --> 09:42:37.639
Continue even more, comfort spreading through your legs, all the

3114
09:42:37.680 --> 09:42:46.639
way down to your ankles, the tops of your feet,

3115
09:42:47.760 --> 09:42:52.839
the sight of your feet, and the bottoms of your feet,

3116
09:42:56.599 --> 09:43:28.599
relaxing into your toes. Each tone relaxing became and if

3117
09:43:28.639 --> 09:43:45.959
your body relaxes more, your mind becomes slower and peaceful,

3118
09:43:53.680 --> 09:44:01.639
to the point where if you choose to fall asleep,

3119
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you can easy do that, easy drift away because there's

3120
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nothing going on in your mind. Your brain is peaceful,

3121
09:44:40.080 --> 09:44:42.919
your body continues.

3122
09:44:45.959 --> 09:45:10.959
To rise, and with that.

3123
09:45:11.239 --> 09:45:18.680
Connection between your body relaxing, the word do you say

3124
09:45:19.000 --> 09:45:32.800
to yourself relax means that you don't need to focus

3125
09:45:32.919 --> 09:45:39.959
on just one part. You can just focus on your

3126
09:45:40.279 --> 09:46:07.400
entire body, saying the powerful word relax and observe those

3127
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familiar sensations of comfort spreading throughout your body, listening and

3128
09:46:26.879 --> 09:46:46.279
calming and healing every part of your body feasing more relaxed,

3129
09:47:00.919 --> 09:47:04.360
so that all you need to do now one is

3130
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just tell yourself relax, observe feeding completely comfortable, come so relaxed.

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Starting now with number twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen fifty

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