May 18, 2025

(music) (10 hours) Q&A Friday | LMBYTS #1354 | 16th May 2025

(music) (10 hours) Q&A Friday | LMBYTS #1354 | 16th May 2025
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Hello, and welcome to jasonnew Land dot com.

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My name is.

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You all need rub hands together, that's my nickname. My

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name is Jason new Land. Please only listen when you

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can safely close short eyes. And this is let me

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boy to sleep. And today it is.

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Q and a Friday. Yes it's a little bit late,

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a little bit late, but I'll be busy day busy.

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So before I go on, I'll just give you a

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little update on what's been going on this week. Wow,

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I think the Actually I did go to do a

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recording on Wednesday, but I just gave up because I

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didn't I wasn't in the mood. So I kind of

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did about twenty minutes and I just turned it off.

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I did one on Tuesday, didn't do one Thursday. So yeah,

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done a little bit less than normal this week. But

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I have been very busy with my website. I've been

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working on my website, not just the website as far

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as what it looks like on a laptop or a tablet,

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but also adapting it for mobile phones to make sure

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it works correctly. So I've changed a few things. If

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you've been on there recently, you know, if you was

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a couple of weeks ago. I think you'll if you

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go back, you'll see it's very different. It's just nicer.

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It looks nicer. So I've got the podcasts, which is

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in the index, and they're all listed that there's images

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of the podcast and you just click on the podcast

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and that takes you to the all the latest recordings.

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Or if you want to find out where my podcasts

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are on the various different apps, just click on podcast apps.

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I've got Audible boring myself already, that's quick. There's Apple Podcasts, Audible, Apple,

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Amazon Music podcast App, cast Box, Deser, Luminary Podcast, Republic Player,

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FM Podcast, Addict Podcast Index, pod Chaser, pod Friend, pod First, Podbean, Spreaker, Spotify,

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and SoundCloud. Basically alphabetical order really from top top to bottom.

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Apart from it's not all actually it's just the age

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at the top and the s's are at the bottom,

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but other than that, it's yeah, it's kind of alphabetical.

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And again they're all got images. So before it was

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just text that you clicked on. This is images now.

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So if you click on Apple Podcasts, for example, and

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then it gives you a list of all the different

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podcasts and then you can click on let's say, for example,

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let me Boil your pain Away, and that takes you

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to let Me Boy Pain Away on Apple podcasts. It's

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just a different way of doing it. It might be

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a useful thing. So if you if you're on cast

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Box and you don't know where my let Me Boy

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to Sleep podcast is, you just click on podcast apps,

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go down, click on cast Box, click on let Me

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Boy to Sleep, and it brings you to the let

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Me Boy to Sleep podcast on cast Box. So it's yeah,

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it's kind of I think it's easy to use other

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than net. I'm in the middle of redoing the playlists.

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So at the moment, I've got four, four different podcasts

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that I've been working on said let me Boy to Sleep. Okay,

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it's a few changes. Okay, so let Me Boy to Sleep.

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The infrastrate is built for these, but they're not all

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updated yet. Let Me Boy Sleep, Deep Sleep, whisper Hypnosis,

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relax Asleep, hypnosis Daily and Relaxation of stress and panic attacks.

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So with these, so let's say, for example, you click

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on playlists and then you click on let Me Boy

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to Sleep. It gives you six different options without music,

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with music, five hours without music, five hours with music,

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ten hours without music, ten hours with music. At the moment,

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I'm working on the ones without music, because I think

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the first thousand of the let Me Boy You to

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Sleep ones are without music, although I might remedy that.

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So if you click on let me board asleep, you

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click on without music, and then you've got all the

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way up from one to fifty. Again, is it images?

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So it's not just text anymore. Just makes it a

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little bit easier visually to you know, manipulate and to

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maneuver to I don't know what's another word for that, navigate,

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And it goes down to the last one is thirteen

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hundred and fifty one to fourteen hundred. Only one the

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one to fifty is on there at the moment, and

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you click on that and they will take you to

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the podcast, and it's exactly the same as when you

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go onto the homepage. You can download, you can stream,

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you can save it for yourself. It tells you how

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big the file is, tells you how long the recording is.

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So yeah, and there's all fifty on there. That's it.

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So I'm quite pleased with that. It's taken a lot

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of hours to put this together. It may not seem

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like much, but it's taken a long time because I've

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been to get it so it works fine on the

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phone for the images and everything to be together and

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to be the same size, and it's taken a.

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Bit of code code work, as it were.

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So I'm going to have a break from the website

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today and do this recording now, and I'm probably not

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gonna bother with the website. I probably will actually, but

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probably yeah, I'm gonna not get The problem is if

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I could finish a sentence. That's one of the things

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I've got problems with. The problem is I struggled to

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stop doing something once I start, especially move that metal thing,

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keep banging it on my desk. Once I start doing

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these things, for example, working on the podcast apps, there's

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so much to do. There's a lot of it's quite

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intricate in a sense of you know, I don't matter.

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Some of it is just.

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Copy paste, but it's remembering where to paste and what

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to change and change in sizes of images and pasting

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in the link to the podcast, you know, and making

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it all kind.

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Of a line with each other.

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So there's quite a lot involved in it. I'm pretty

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pleased with how it's working out so far. I've got

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a few other ideas what I want to do as well,

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to make it a little bit easier to a gate

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around the website. In some ways, you could say I've

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turned my website into an app.

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Kind of in a way.

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Now kind of because you know, you've got the homepage.

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It's just the website basically the podcast. But if you

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click on podcasts, then it gives you all the different podcasts.

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Then you can choose one you want to say, for example, relax,

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let's say stop smoking. Click on that.

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Okay, that's not a good example because that link's not

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done yet. That's not a good example either, So I'll

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ask podcasts. Yeah, okay, so you can go directly to

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the podcast.

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BlimE me.

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Or if you want to go to the playlists, you know,

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the all the different types. Again you click on there,

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let me boidy sleep with music about music whatever.

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So yeah, it seems happy if that's such a word.

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So I'll get on the recording.

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Not a lot going on. I've just been working on this.

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I got a letter. I got a letter.

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Let me. I like to read you about my letters.

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To a look, oh.

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Read you my latest letters.

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What's this way?

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Your Income Related Employment and Support Allowance ESA payments will end,

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So it ends on the first of the fifth, twenty

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twenty five.

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Will end.

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They sent me this on the second of May. I

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didn't get it till about three days ago. How it

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takes so long to get here, I'll never know. And

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it's coming all the way from Wolverhampton. So unless they

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sent it on the back of a donkey, and we've

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received your Universal Credit you see claim, and we sent

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a plane to drop off monny planes, your final payment

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of the essay covers the period first of the fifth

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to the fourteenth of the fifth.

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So m.

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I I honestly I think I've had my last payment.

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Which means I've got.

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Wow, two weeks, two weeks.

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But then I've got another letter.

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This is from the Council, the council, City Council. This letter,

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it doesn't have a die. Sixth of May. This letter

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is important, Dearness the New Land. This letter is important.

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You must read all of it carefully, and you must

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inform this office immediately if your circumstances change. Go to

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blah blah blah blah blah dot blah blah blah. The

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Department for Working Pensions had advis us.

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Here's something all.

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Right, Okay, this is the first year I noticed because

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always looked for month, just like if there's any kind

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of financial thing on there, as in with pound signs.

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Because.

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It's just gives just it's the first thing I notice

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really of the additional award mentioned above. So the department,

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oh okay, the Department of for Work and Pensions has

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advised us that you have started claiming Universal Credit and

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that you qualify for an additional two weeks extension of

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your housing benefit known as Transition to Uce Housing payment

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of the additional award mentioned above, one hundred and sixty

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eight pound ninety has been recovered against previously notified overpayment

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over payment? How how is it own over payment? Then

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it says if you are worried about paying your rent

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bills or living expenses, where you can help, if you

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are struggling to find your to pay your bills for

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any reason, speak to the Financial Equality and Well Being

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Teams today.

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Okay, So you.

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Know, suddenly you owe this money and then it's been recovered.

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So I was like confused about that, like what's going on?

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So then it says another one another letter. Dear mister Newland,

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this letter is also important. You must also read all

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of this carefully and you must inform blah blah blah blah.

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So you claim. For you.

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To claim for benefit has been looked at because managing

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managed migration to Universal credits successfully and your benefit has

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been stopped from the first of May twenty twenty five.

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So pretty much I think.

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Oh no, I think it's the eighth of June before

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I get paid.

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Oh, I'm confused.

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The housing costs will now be paid within your Universal

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Credit award. Please contact your work coach if you have

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any changes or the costs so incorrect. If you are

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ad vont lah blah blah blah blah blah, as your

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intitement has ended, any overpayments which were previously overpaid or

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recovered or blah blah blah via deductions from the housing

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benefit payment will now end as such. If you have

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any outstanding over there's like too much information and then

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it says here you have been overpaid one hundred and

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sixty eight pound ninety housand. Benefit of this overpayment one

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hundred and sixty eight pound ninety is non recoverable and

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therefore only the balance of zero will be recovered.

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Does anyone understand what that means? Any ideas anyone?

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I really don't. You have been overpaid one hundred and

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sixty eight pound ninety. Housing benefit of this overpayment on

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hundred and sixty eight pound ninety is non recoverable, and

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therefore only the balance of zero will be recovered. I

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get from that that there's nothing to pay. They've written

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it off. But have they written it off? Because worded

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very strangely, the reason for the overpayment is managed migration,

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which has been calculated as follows, from the first of

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the fifth, twenty twenty five to the twelve of the fifth,

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twenty twenty five one week and four days old award

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one hundred and seven pounds forty eight new awards zero

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weekly amount overpaid one hundred and seven pound forty eight.

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Total amount overpaid one hundred and sixty eight pound ninety.

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It doesn't make sense. I don't understand it.

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I know one hundred and seven pounds that's the rent

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for a week. Your repayment will be accepted without prejudice

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to any further action.

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If you are. It doesn't make the way they've worded

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it is.

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So I'm gonna say of twos because I don't know

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what that means, but I heard someone say it once

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on a video in about nineteen eighty two. I think

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it was a Steve Martin movie.

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Ah, So I don't know.

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Confusing, very confusing, right, t WDDD. They've also they have

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agreed to pay my rent directly to the housing benefit

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and they've also agreed to pay me.

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Every two weeks from the eighth of I think it's

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the eighth of June, and.

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They'll let me know on the fourth of June what

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I'm getting. So is going to be an interesting period

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in next couple of weeks. So I'll find out Wednesday,

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on the twenty first, whether or not. Wow, that's fine,

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I'm just going to go around. I'm going have to

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start collecting the money. People lone me, aren't.

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I go around? Oh you know all that money that

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I've been lending you over the last ten years, and

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you thought that you didn't have to pay it back.

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You see this baseball back in my hand. You do

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have to pay it back.

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Okay, right back to seriousness. Any questions for this Friday?

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So let's add a look. Oh, today Viny started barking

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like proper man and it sounds like someone was at

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my door, and I went nothing, there he's barking again.

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It really sounds like someone was pushing on the door,

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the front door. So I just went out.

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As I do, just just like I wonder what's going on.

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There's a pigeon. Someone's left the back door open downstairs.

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It's come up, flying basically bashing into each window trying

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to get out. Poor little thing. So I got a hammer,

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I got my boathball. I just I thought, what am

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I going to do? So this has happened before, it's

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not the first time, so I didn't have a towel,

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but I did have like a T shirt. So I've

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got a T shirt, not the one I was wearing.

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It's a different T shirt. And I was trying to

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check it over the pigeon. It wasn't like a big pigeon,

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more like a dove sized pigeon.

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In fact, it might be a dove, And I was.

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Trying to check it over, but it wasn't going over.

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The pigeon was just moving its head and just knocking

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it off and just looking at me. And then when

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I went down, it flew off again and smashed against

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the window.

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In the end, it just it let it, let me

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pick it up, and actually wrapped his or her da.

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I think it's a girl, actually wrapped her hands fingers

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around my fingers, and I was stroking her and just

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carrying it. Carried it downstairs, and for a little while

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she was just standing on my hand, just looking around,

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and I was just talking to her, and then I

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started telling her a story. I thought i'd tell her

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about the chip shop that used to work in. Then

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she was off, but yeah, just went into the tree.

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I think it's probably a relative of Horrace, maybe his girlfriend.

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I'm going to say probably his daughter to be fair,

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because she's quite young. He's been around for ten years

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since I moved in, right, So other than that, anything

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else that's happened, I can't think of anything even mildly interesting.

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Well, it's never going to be anything interested. But it's

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not a lot going on. Uh Ah.

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A neighbor just phoned me up while I was doing

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this recording, asking me if I had any antidepressants. He's

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like cell Solita, Prahm or whatever they are, and I said, no,

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don't have those that medication.

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I said, I've got a few spare on my own.

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But you won't want to take my medication. It's a

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different medication and it's you know, shouldn't mix that stuff.

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Plus it takes it takes quite a few weeks to

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kick in the older floors a team. So Maria, first question,

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Hi Jason, how long ago did you last visit Thailand?

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How long did you stay and did you enjoy the

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food there? I don't think I ate any of the

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food there, to be honest, I just ate normal food,

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human food.

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I didn't.

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I mean, for one, I was not going to eat

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the street food. And it's smelled amazing, but I was

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not going to eat the street food just through is.

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I wouldn't eat street food in this country, so I'm

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definitely not going to eat street food abroad. Yeah, when

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I went, it was kind of during the COVID. Between

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the COVID, I just said the words sorry. That period

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like twenty twenty one, I think it was so they

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even though we were pretty much we were in lockdown here,

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they were in lockdown there, not not to the point

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of banning anyone visiting, but had to wear masks in

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every shop, had to. I mean people were wearing masks

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in the street.

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It was you know, it was pretty full on.

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Had to had to have your blood, your temperature done

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before entering any any places, any establishments, had to do that,

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and the hand washed everywhere.

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So it was it was a very step it was.

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It was. Yeah, it was a bit of a weird

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time and.

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A lot of the restaurants were closed. A lot of

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everything was closed when I went there, actually, so I

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stayed in a like a hotel place. Luckily when I stayed,

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I stayed in this place, which was a.

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Sports bar.

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Loads of TVs all around the place, including two outside.

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Remember I watched the boxing.

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That was cool. And they had food there, so I

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ate every day there.

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And it was really burgers and stuff like that.

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To be honest with you, you know, I.

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Wasn't very I wasn't very creative with my food choices.

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But they were catering for Westerners, well Westerners and Australians,

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mainly Australians. It was an Australian bar run by Australian people,

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and other than me, I think everyone in all the

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customers were Australian that were like staying living there and would.

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Visit as well.

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So it's a very I mean, there was a few

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people that weren't Australian. All the staff other than the owners.

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The staff weren't Australian. But there's the they wouldn't be

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allowed to work there. In Thailand, you have to be

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tied to work in most jobs. Actually most done a

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little bit of research into that, and.

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You can.

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If you've got a share in a place, you can work,

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but you can't take a tied job.

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So technically, if you've got forty you know, forty nine.

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Percent share in a restaurant, you're working that restaurant.

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You're not You're not.

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Taking someone else's job because it's your business, isn't it

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always fifty business?

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So that's when I visited. It's quite a long time ago.

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It wasn't long i'd I had.

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I had a chest infection, so it's just I can't remember.

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It was over two weeks, two and a bit weeks,

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and I came back. I was there for two days.

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I think it's getting vague, to be honest, it was

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a bit of a non event. Really it wasn't.

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It wasn't. Really. What I didn't realize.

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Is though that's it. He made it more nice, please brilliant, thanks.

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Too. That's a weird one. He has absolutely destroyed.

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His bag which had his treating chewy chicken twists. Right,

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he's destroyed it. It's empty and he's destroyed it. I

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gave him that bag when it had one left in it,

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and he just looked at it for about an hour

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and a half. So it would destroy it and rip

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it open when there's nothing in it. But when it's

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something in it, you won't even attempt to open it.

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What's weird, And that's strange behavior.

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Yeah, it wasn't. It wasn't the right time. It wasn't

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really the right time for me to go. Really. I

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just I just got like a.

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Rebate, a benefit rebate actually from from previous year is

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something that I should have got paid and I wasn't,

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and I decided just to I had to get away

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from it. Things just difficult living here for you know,

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and I basically turned into a care in some ways.

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I mean, my friend always said to me, I'm his

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care and I said, no, I'm not your care. But

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it did, I think emotionally I was, you know, I

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just constantly worried about him just for.

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Years, for years and years. So I needed to get away,

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and you know, I gave him a little bit of

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money as well.

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When I got that money, paid off my debts and

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went away, I did the old gave a load of

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food out to people that were home, well they were hungry.

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So that was that was the highlight for me. That was.

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You could say, almost the highlight of my life. He

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is handing out hundreds of meals and that's whatever it was.

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I can't remember how many it was, but I did

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it two days in a row, and it was kind

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of the best thing I've ever done or feeling why.

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It just felt amazing.

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So it's worth it for that.

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And I know I could have I could have done

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the same thing here.

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It's you know, I don't know.

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Just for some reason, I wanted to go to a

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Buddhist country, wanted to see how what Buddhist people like

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are people that were born into Buddhism, not just but

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in this country. You know, it's something that there are

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people born into it in this country, but there if

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they're Westerners, then the people their parents probably weren't born

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into it, and they they've just raised their kids in

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that kind of way. But to be a bit to

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live in a country where everybody going back many many,

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many many years, you know, all born as Buddhists, all

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raised as Buddhists. I just found that an interesting thing

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to be around. And I could see the difference, consider

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difference in the mentality. There might not be anything to

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do with the religion, but and most of them didn't

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practice the religion anyway, but you know, they it was

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the foundation of their belief system, was the foundation of

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their culture, which I just found it interesting. So enjoy

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the food. Probably the best food I had when I

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was there was apple pie and ice cream.

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Yeah, that was nice. So the cook in the.

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That bar, it was a bar, but it was also

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like hotel as well, the sports bar. The cook in

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now I got ridly well with her, and she would

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she made sure she got lots of pies in for

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me so I could have an apple pie and ice

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cream after my meals. And I had a cook breakfast

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every morning. And also so I basically ate. I'd eat

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twice a day there, so eat breakfast, cook breakfast. Then

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i'd have when I was out, i'd probably see if

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I could get something, maybe in McDonald's or I'm trying

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to think, just to have would look around see if

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there were places some places I went.

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I went in one place, which was it was terrible,

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it really bad. It was.

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I think it's called the Nag's Head, and apparently it

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used to be owned by Kevin Keegan. That's what they

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said because pictures of him on the wall. That was

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Kevin Keegan was like a superstar footballer in the early

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eighties in the UK, well worldwide as well, I think, and.

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He had curly hair stopped.

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I'd say it's not relevant, but it was because it

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was the fashion back then. The amount of people, the

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amount of boys that were getting their hair curled permed

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to look like Kevin Keegan because he was a superstar footballer.

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So I went in there and.

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I think that it was a it was a cooked

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breakfast and I think it was some beans, an egg

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which I'm not sure what kind of egg.

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It was.

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Some bacon that did not look like bacon, and some

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sausages the type that I give Vinny like, they're not sausages,

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they're those bendy rubbery ones. I just, I mean, I'm

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pretty sure they just didn't have any food in possibly

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was the only customer they'd had for a while, so

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I just I said thanks, and I yeah, left. Well,

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I ate it first but I ate some of it.

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Wasn't wasn't great.

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I did go to a Thai restaurant a pizza, so yeah,

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I don't think I had even one bit of typhood

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the whole time I was there. Yeah, I have had typhood.

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I've had it in this country, but I didn't have

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anyone kind of because you know, back when I was

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in London, I'd go on dates and the some of

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the people that I'd go on dates with there'd be

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much more open culturally to new things. And because you

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can pretty much eat any food from anywhere in the

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world in London, like any type of food. So you know,

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I've been in Vietnam, are Vietnamese.

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I've been Entai, I've been in Spanish, Italian, French, whatever,

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lots of different places, and.

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There's always I always felt that pressure to kind of

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be involved. You know, two show that I'm open minded

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and I ordered something without knowing what it is. Sometimes

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I deeply regret it, and as I got older, I

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just thought, you know what, no, if I go into

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a Chinese restaurant, I probably am going to order an

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omelet and chips, or an omelet and fried rice, egg

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fried rice. You know, I know what I like, and

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that's what I like. I like omelets, and yeah, I'm

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sure that sure, the typhoon's amazing. I mean people, I mean,

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some people go to Thailand for the tayphood. It's some

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of the thing they look forward to most because I

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guess it's the most authentic typhood you're going to get.

483
00:36:18.039 --> 00:36:20.719
It's like the most authentic any food you're going to

484
00:36:20.760 --> 00:36:22.239
get is in the country of.

485
00:36:22.199 --> 00:36:23.280
Origin, I imagine.

486
00:36:24.679 --> 00:36:28.199
I'm sure if you want to the best burger, then

487
00:36:28.360 --> 00:36:30.360
you have to go to where the first.

488
00:36:32.760 --> 00:36:35.599
I don't even know, America, is that where the.

489
00:36:35.519 --> 00:36:42.840
Burgers come from. Or if you want the first mushy pea,

490
00:36:42.880 --> 00:36:44.360
you want the best mushy peas, you've got to go

491
00:36:44.440 --> 00:36:49.159
up north. Or if you want the best fried mars bar,

492
00:36:49.280 --> 00:36:53.599
you've got to go up north. Or if you want

493
00:36:53.599 --> 00:36:57.679
the best fish and chips, probably gotta go up north,

494
00:36:58.679 --> 00:37:05.320
or maybe Scotland or or I don't know, but you Uk.

495
00:37:06.079 --> 00:37:07.400
I imagine for.

496
00:37:07.400 --> 00:37:09.400
Fish and chips, probably the best fish and chips you'll

497
00:37:09.400 --> 00:37:11.159
get in the world will probably be in this country.

498
00:37:11.719 --> 00:37:12.840
It might I might be wrong.

499
00:37:13.599 --> 00:37:17.000
It's just because it's our heritage, it's our you know,

500
00:37:17.199 --> 00:37:26.800
goes back centuries. I don't know if that's true or not, right,

501
00:37:29.599 --> 00:37:33.639
Kathleen asks me, I've got a lot of questions to

502
00:37:33.639 --> 00:37:36.239
get through. Just let you know that it's loads. I'm

503
00:37:36.280 --> 00:37:37.519
kind of surprised.

504
00:37:37.039 --> 00:37:38.440
At how is that?

505
00:37:42.679 --> 00:37:42.920
One?

506
00:37:43.599 --> 00:37:51.639
Two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine. There's nine,

507
00:37:51.639 --> 00:37:59.000
but there's thirteen comments, so I'm not quite sure. Okay,

508
00:37:59.079 --> 00:38:02.440
one's got one with one's got three replies, so there's

509
00:38:02.559 --> 00:38:08.719
nine questions. The next one is from Kathleen. A couple

510
00:38:08.760 --> 00:38:13.360
of questions, JJ or I loved in his flop it?

511
00:38:13.440 --> 00:38:17.639
There are Is he able to straighten it? Always floppy?

512
00:38:19.000 --> 00:38:19.480
He can?

513
00:38:19.760 --> 00:38:27.559
He can straighten it sometimes if he's I'm trying to think, oh,

514
00:38:27.639 --> 00:38:30.920
I'm just doing the straightening my hands to show you

515
00:38:31.400 --> 00:38:34.000
the ears not being floppy. But you can't see that,

516
00:38:34.079 --> 00:38:39.760
can you? When there's a sound, got his attention. His

517
00:38:39.960 --> 00:38:43.400
ears do stick up, both of them. But I saw

518
00:38:43.440 --> 00:38:48.039
a picture of his mummy, and his mummy also had

519
00:38:48.039 --> 00:38:51.280
a floppy ear. I said, well, look, I've got it

520
00:38:51.320 --> 00:38:55.440
on here. I think I've got it on here unless

521
00:38:55.760 --> 00:39:10.000
I haven't. Sometimes, Yeah, if I've got any pictures of Vinnie, right, Okays,

522
00:39:11.599 --> 00:39:14.280
I've got a picture of Vinnie when he was a baby.

523
00:39:15.519 --> 00:39:17.360
On here. I'm pretty sure it's a picture of him

524
00:39:17.400 --> 00:39:22.239
with his mummy, like his you know, birth mummy.

525
00:39:24.400 --> 00:39:48.000
Uh so cute when he was a baby.

526
00:39:44.480 --> 00:39:44.960
I do.

527
00:39:45.119 --> 00:39:49.559
That's something that I kind of wish that i'd, oh,

528
00:39:49.599 --> 00:39:52.840
there's a little cute. He's in a cage. I never

529
00:39:53.000 --> 00:39:55.400
liked the idea of put them dogs in cages. Never

530
00:39:55.519 --> 00:40:00.519
been something i've I don't know the it's something about

531
00:40:00.559 --> 00:40:01.320
being in a cage.

532
00:40:01.519 --> 00:40:06.280
I guess that he's I mean, it can be for

533
00:40:06.320 --> 00:40:07.840
their own safety anyway. I can't out.

534
00:40:07.840 --> 00:40:11.880
But he's in this cage, which is probably I guess

535
00:40:12.000 --> 00:40:17.119
was there prepared for multiple puppies, and he was the

536
00:40:17.159 --> 00:40:22.000
only puppy. And he's laying on his back, he's got

537
00:40:22.000 --> 00:40:26.400
his little hands in the air, and he's tiny, you know,

538
00:40:26.599 --> 00:40:32.519
absolutely tiny, and doesn't I don't have a date on this.

539
00:40:35.559 --> 00:40:37.519
I got a date when it was sent fortieth of

540
00:40:37.639 --> 00:40:40.039
January twenty twenty three.

541
00:40:43.440 --> 00:41:01.960
January twenty twenty three, really no, two thousand January two.

542
00:41:02.039 --> 00:41:03.800
Fairy No, I wouldn't have sent it to me in

543
00:41:03.800 --> 00:41:07.199
twenty twenty three.

544
00:41:08.119 --> 00:41:16.800
That's her date, isn't it? What's my date? Wasn't January

545
00:41:16.800 --> 00:41:20.760
twenty twenty three. I didn't even know jur January twenty

546
00:41:20.800 --> 00:41:23.039
twenty three. I didn't get him.

547
00:41:22.960 --> 00:41:35.079
Till I'm losing track of time.

548
00:41:37.000 --> 00:41:42.599
Twenty twenty three. But I thought I got him in

549
00:41:42.599 --> 00:41:47.639
November twenty twenty three, but I didn't do that. I

550
00:41:47.719 --> 00:41:53.679
got him.

551
00:41:54.320 --> 00:42:03.880
I got him in twenty twenty two, November twenty twenty two,

552
00:42:09.000 --> 00:42:14.639
twenty twenty two, stop at me, don't be bucking twenty

553
00:42:14.719 --> 00:42:21.760
twenty two, twenty twenty two. So November twenty twenty two,

554
00:42:22.280 --> 00:42:28.119
November twenty twenty three, November twenty twenty four. It was December,

555
00:42:28.159 --> 00:42:36.360
wasn't it, twoenty twenty three, twenty four, two years and

556
00:42:37.039 --> 00:42:39.679
like five months, four months, five months.

557
00:42:39.920 --> 00:42:42.639
So yeah, so I got.

558
00:42:42.519 --> 00:42:48.039
Him in December twenty twenty three and twenty twenty two,

559
00:42:48.320 --> 00:42:50.639
so she must have sent me those pictures yet in

560
00:42:50.679 --> 00:42:55.599
the January. Okay, yeah, Oh that just threw me off

561
00:42:55.599 --> 00:42:58.719
for a second. Then there's a picture of him with

562
00:42:58.760 --> 00:43:03.280
his mummy somewhere. Yeah, I just can't.

563
00:43:04.800 --> 00:43:09.880
Find it unless it's on my laptop, which it could be.

564
00:43:10.760 --> 00:43:14.119
Let's have a look to look. So look at my

565
00:43:14.280 --> 00:43:20.440
lap torp lap trp. Oh, Vinnie's found another fly.

566
00:43:21.880 --> 00:43:30.960
Vinnie Vinnie Vinnnnnnnnie. Oh, I don't know where Vinie Vini

567
00:43:31.039 --> 00:43:34.559
ven even I Annie Vinnie an if any any.

568
00:43:35.840 --> 00:43:41.440
Vinnie, somebab in Vinnie, my new set up with Vinnie

569
00:43:45.320 --> 00:43:56.400
Vinnie at mummy's. Nope, knows that is baby Vinnie. No,

570
00:43:56.639 --> 00:44:01.199
I can't fight it. It's here, somewhere, it's here somewhere.

571
00:44:01.199 --> 00:44:04.880
I've got a picture of Logi, Logi and Vinnie last

572
00:44:04.920 --> 00:44:14.400
stayed together. Oh, got the limage, Louggie, don't care. He's

573
00:44:14.480 --> 00:44:17.360
just there, just chill down. Then he's looking at me,

574
00:44:20.920 --> 00:44:23.639
he's looking at his watch. How much longer we got

575
00:44:23.679 --> 00:44:28.159
before we get rid of him? I said, you're missing

576
00:44:28.719 --> 00:44:29.360
when he's when.

577
00:44:29.280 --> 00:44:31.840
He's moved out, you're missing. I won't. I want my

578
00:44:31.880 --> 00:44:32.320
house back.

579
00:44:32.360 --> 00:44:36.079
I want my bed back. I said, it's my bed, Vinnie.

580
00:44:36.119 --> 00:44:40.039
It's not your bed, it's my bed. Okay, I want

581
00:44:40.119 --> 00:44:50.800
our bed back. He's got a proper attitude on him. So, yes,

582
00:44:50.920 --> 00:44:55.800
he's always had the floppy ear, but his mummy is biological.

583
00:44:55.920 --> 00:45:03.199
Mum had the floppy here as well. Don't about his dad, oh.

584
00:45:04.800 --> 00:45:11.800
Itchy bump. Yeah, the both his parents had were red,

585
00:45:14.000 --> 00:45:16.239
but he was the only one that was red. All over.

586
00:45:16.320 --> 00:45:17.599
I mean, he's got a little bit of white on

587
00:45:17.679 --> 00:45:20.599
his belly and a little bit on his neck, but

588
00:45:20.719 --> 00:45:22.199
it's pretty much and he's on his.

589
00:45:22.360 --> 00:45:27.480
He's got a little couple of little little socks, little

590
00:45:27.519 --> 00:45:30.719
white socks on other than that, and gloves, but he's

591
00:45:30.800 --> 00:45:32.079
pretty much red all over.

592
00:45:37.000 --> 00:45:37.159
Here.

593
00:45:37.239 --> 00:45:42.239
You he knows I'm talking about him, probably because I

594
00:45:42.360 --> 00:45:43.280
just keep saying his name.

595
00:45:44.000 --> 00:45:46.079
Phinni, Vinnie, Minnie.

596
00:45:48.320 --> 00:45:51.400
Will you be getting a new bathroom like your neighbors?

597
00:45:52.960 --> 00:46:05.079
Cheers Kathleen. It looks like no, so my neighbor's downstairs.

598
00:46:05.400 --> 00:46:13.000
To be fair, there was a a There was a

599
00:46:13.119 --> 00:46:16.840
reason why she got a new bathroom because she needed it.

600
00:46:17.000 --> 00:46:20.920
Wasn't because she needed a new bathroom, as in the

601
00:46:21.000 --> 00:46:22.119
old one was too old.

602
00:46:22.320 --> 00:46:23.119
It was it was.

603
00:46:27.079 --> 00:46:29.159
I don't know how to word it, but it was

604
00:46:29.239 --> 00:46:32.480
something that was required, if you know what I mean.

605
00:46:32.800 --> 00:46:35.559
So it wasn't something that they just got round to

606
00:46:35.639 --> 00:46:38.800
doing because it was time. It was needed to be done.

607
00:46:39.840 --> 00:46:42.280
She and my neighbor down stairs to get a kitchen,

608
00:46:43.159 --> 00:46:46.280
and that was basically due to time. It was time

609
00:46:46.360 --> 00:46:51.599
to redo them. My neighbor opposite has had his kitchen done,

610
00:46:52.400 --> 00:46:54.960
he's having his bathroom done. And he's having his windows

611
00:46:55.000 --> 00:46:59.320
done and when they came round to he knew. He's

612
00:46:59.360 --> 00:47:02.320
known about the wind for a few months. He's just

613
00:47:02.400 --> 00:47:04.039
waiting to sort of find out when they're going to

614
00:47:04.119 --> 00:47:06.039
come and do them. But he didn't know about the

615
00:47:06.039 --> 00:47:08.119
bathroom until the other day when they came to measure up.

616
00:47:10.119 --> 00:47:14.719
So but he's he's lived there for thirty odd years

617
00:47:15.400 --> 00:47:18.119
and he's never had anything new at all the whole

618
00:47:18.159 --> 00:47:18.880
time he's been there.

619
00:47:19.519 --> 00:47:20.480
So you know.

620
00:47:22.039 --> 00:47:26.880
It is I really don't know. I don't doesn't I

621
00:47:27.039 --> 00:47:31.239
asked the council. I saw the counsel lady, the late

622
00:47:31.320 --> 00:47:35.199
a lady from the council on Wednesday. They came round

623
00:47:35.320 --> 00:47:39.239
to check the bathroom downstairs to make sure it was

624
00:47:39.280 --> 00:47:44.840
all all okay and to sign it off. And I

625
00:47:45.000 --> 00:47:49.840
little word with the lady and I said, when am

626
00:47:49.880 --> 00:47:52.079
I going to have one? I cut a few onions

627
00:47:52.119 --> 00:47:57.199
first before I went down there, and just to so

628
00:47:57.280 --> 00:48:01.679
I can cry and see him upset. Here's a little

629
00:48:01.719 --> 00:48:04.119
clue though, if you're going to do that before going

630
00:48:04.199 --> 00:48:10.360
up to someone, and you know, cut up onions in

631
00:48:10.519 --> 00:48:14.199
order to cry to in order to get the older

632
00:48:14.920 --> 00:48:20.519
emotions going with the other person. If you're going to

633
00:48:20.559 --> 00:48:24.719
shake their hand. Put the onions down first. That's all

634
00:48:24.760 --> 00:48:33.280
I'm going to say. And Tammy asks, can hypnosis be

635
00:48:33.440 --> 00:48:36.320
in effected to all and reshaping our subconscious patterns?

636
00:48:36.760 --> 00:48:38.320
Don't know next.

637
00:48:39.280 --> 00:48:39.719
I don't know.

638
00:48:39.840 --> 00:48:49.039
That's that's that's a hard question. And I'll tell you

639
00:48:49.159 --> 00:48:55.119
what I tell you. The biggest thing, just based on

640
00:48:55.280 --> 00:49:02.360
my studies, the biggest thing that affect excess, let's say unconscious,

641
00:49:03.159 --> 00:49:04.960
I call it unconscious with subconscious.

642
00:49:05.079 --> 00:49:12.920
Unconscious patterning is our conscious mind, what we do, what

643
00:49:13.039 --> 00:49:21.119
we listen to, what we think, our experiences, stuff like

644
00:49:21.239 --> 00:49:27.360
that is what shapes us. Reshaping doing something different, thinking differently,

645
00:49:28.679 --> 00:49:35.159
on purpose, purposefully, and so for example, if someone was

646
00:49:35.360 --> 00:49:41.280
constantly thinking about their illness, start thinking about something different.

647
00:49:41.920 --> 00:49:47.679
Because we get what we think about, you know, we

648
00:49:48.239 --> 00:49:55.320
become what we think about because we're basically it's kind

649
00:49:55.360 --> 00:49:58.719
of weird. I've seen all these different angles, all these

650
00:49:58.800 --> 00:50:01.559
different things, and it all kind of points to the

651
00:50:01.679 --> 00:50:08.079
same thing, to the same conclusion, and that is that our.

652
00:50:08.079 --> 00:50:14.800
Thoughts are so powerful on ourselves.

653
00:50:15.679 --> 00:50:23.840
It's almost like what we consciously think, what you purposefully think,

654
00:50:24.320 --> 00:50:28.360
not what you think automatically. What you purposely think affects

655
00:50:31.000 --> 00:50:36.599
your brain affects your body, affects your let's say, unconscious

656
00:50:36.679 --> 00:50:46.679
mind affects those automatic thinking processes. Now none of that

657
00:50:46.800 --> 00:50:51.079
might have made any sense, not even to me, but.

658
00:50:54.519 --> 00:50:55.079
I kind of.

659
00:50:56.920 --> 00:50:59.519
I'm starting to look at hypnosis in a different way

660
00:50:59.679 --> 00:51:12.159
to help I used to look at it, and belief expectations.

661
00:51:14.800 --> 00:51:18.079
Is almost is so important.

662
00:51:19.239 --> 00:51:23.639
Just generally, what we expect to happen has a huge

663
00:51:23.920 --> 00:51:29.519
effect on what does happen, how we expect to feel.

664
00:51:32.960 --> 00:51:33.920
You know someone that.

665
00:51:37.440 --> 00:51:42.079
It's just proven so many times and experiments. It's just

666
00:51:42.280 --> 00:51:46.320
like when I was seventeen, I mentioned this a few

667
00:51:46.800 --> 00:51:49.159
a couple of weeks ago, went to a party. It

668
00:51:49.280 --> 00:51:51.840
was held it's at the chip shop, but we went

669
00:51:51.920 --> 00:51:53.480
to my boss's house.

670
00:51:54.559 --> 00:51:59.159
And we were drinking. They gave me. They all were

671
00:51:59.239 --> 00:52:03.679
in on it. They gave me non alcoholic lager. So

672
00:52:04.119 --> 00:52:05.840
every time I went to get a can, but no, no,

673
00:52:05.960 --> 00:52:06.599
I'll get it for you.

674
00:52:07.360 --> 00:52:10.920
I thought they would just be nice, But they were

675
00:52:10.920 --> 00:52:14.440
all in on it, and they were laughing when I

676
00:52:14.519 --> 00:52:16.239
was talking, so I thought I was also being funny.

677
00:52:17.320 --> 00:52:27.360
So you know, I got drunk and there was no difference,

678
00:52:27.440 --> 00:52:32.599
but not being drunk before, there was no difference. There

679
00:52:32.679 --> 00:52:38.519
really wasn't any difference between drinking alcohol and not drinking alcohol,

680
00:52:39.519 --> 00:52:43.159
because I thought I was drinking alcohol and all those

681
00:52:43.480 --> 00:52:47.400
chemicals in my brain kicked off. They just did their thing,

682
00:52:49.599 --> 00:52:51.679
and I was expecting to feel a certain way, and

683
00:52:51.800 --> 00:52:56.960
I felt that way. Now, good chance is if they

684
00:52:57.000 --> 00:53:00.599
hadn't told me I met, I may well gone home.

685
00:53:01.480 --> 00:53:03.440
I may well have been ill. I may well have

686
00:53:03.480 --> 00:53:08.280
woken up with her with her hangover. That's how powerful

687
00:53:09.280 --> 00:53:13.280
belief is when you believe that something's you know, you

688
00:53:13.400 --> 00:53:14.199
believe that non.

689
00:53:14.159 --> 00:53:22.280
Alcoholic lager is alcoholic lager. You know, it's just I mean,

690
00:53:22.320 --> 00:53:25.280
that was quite a good thing to happen. In one way,

691
00:53:25.360 --> 00:53:33.280
it was horrible, horribly embarrassing and quite I think it's

692
00:53:33.280 --> 00:53:35.719
a very cruel thing to do actually, to be honest.

693
00:53:35.880 --> 00:53:45.519
But hey, but it was a learning experience. And when

694
00:53:45.559 --> 00:53:46.400
you think that was.

695
00:53:48.639 --> 00:53:56.440
Forty years ago, thirty eight years ago, I mean, it's

696
00:53:56.559 --> 00:53:57.440
kind of crazy in it.

697
00:53:57.760 --> 00:53:58.760
Thirty eight years.

698
00:54:00.159 --> 00:54:00.199
On.

699
00:54:00.320 --> 00:54:03.559
All different things I've learned since then comes back to

700
00:54:03.679 --> 00:54:09.599
that is belief. And with all the religious stuff that

701
00:54:09.679 --> 00:54:12.760
I've kind of studied, and I've been interested in religion,

702
00:54:13.719 --> 00:54:16.480
different religions since I was a kid.

703
00:54:16.599 --> 00:54:21.559
I don't know why, just it wasn't so much interested

704
00:54:21.719 --> 00:54:29.639
in the specifics of the religion or the rules.

705
00:54:33.039 --> 00:54:36.719
I was fascinated by why people did it. I was

706
00:54:36.920 --> 00:54:41.159
fascinated and I still am't really I understand it a

707
00:54:41.159 --> 00:54:44.760
little bit more now than I used to, I think, but.

708
00:54:44.920 --> 00:54:49.039
Just fascinated how why.

709
00:54:50.159 --> 00:54:58.079
Well I kind of understand why people need religion, but

710
00:54:58.199 --> 00:55:01.840
I can there's like two sides to it because I've

711
00:55:01.960 --> 00:55:05.639
seen the damage, like from a I don't want to

712
00:55:05.639 --> 00:55:08.199
say damage, but how someone can turn it to be

713
00:55:08.280 --> 00:55:14.440
in a negative. So I knew someone that was they

714
00:55:14.599 --> 00:55:20.079
lost someone close to them. That person's gone to heaven.

715
00:55:21.760 --> 00:55:22.679
Good good thing.

716
00:55:23.000 --> 00:55:26.239
You know. That's a kind of a positive way to

717
00:55:26.360 --> 00:55:26.719
deal with it.

718
00:55:27.199 --> 00:55:32.159
They're gone to heaven. They're happy now, they're now, they're

719
00:55:32.199 --> 00:55:35.760
not suffering anymore. That kind of I know it's cliche stuff,

720
00:55:35.800 --> 00:55:40.920
but it was. It's got to be helpful. It can't

721
00:55:41.039 --> 00:55:46.199
not be really can It's like, so, Okay, I'm going

722
00:55:46.280 --> 00:55:50.440
to see them again soon. That's nice, so it's not

723
00:55:50.559 --> 00:55:52.719
the last time you ever see them. So there's that belief.

724
00:55:53.480 --> 00:55:58.599
It can be comforting. But then that belief turned for

725
00:55:58.719 --> 00:56:03.480
this one person. I'm thinking about turned into I want

726
00:56:03.519 --> 00:56:13.280
to be with them now, and it's like no, and

727
00:56:13.920 --> 00:56:16.360
they tried to be with them now as it were,

728
00:56:17.079 --> 00:56:18.760
this is a few years ago.

729
00:56:19.320 --> 00:56:24.360
And well it's really hard. So what do you do

730
00:56:24.480 --> 00:56:24.639
with that?

731
00:56:24.760 --> 00:56:28.679
It's like, okay, well, if you didn't believe in that

732
00:56:28.880 --> 00:56:32.679
belief system, that religious belief system, then you wouldn't be

733
00:56:32.760 --> 00:56:35.039
doing that because you wouldn't be trying to be with them.

734
00:56:35.079 --> 00:56:38.159
If you didn't believe you could be with them, you'd

735
00:56:38.840 --> 00:56:41.599
perhaps just have to find a way to move on

736
00:56:41.719 --> 00:56:42.199
with your life.

737
00:56:45.800 --> 00:56:46.679
So yeah, it's.

738
00:56:48.199 --> 00:56:50.320
A complicated thing. But I've just seen some of the

739
00:56:50.400 --> 00:56:52.920
things that people do. A lot of it's been on

740
00:56:52.960 --> 00:56:59.239
the news, to be fair, but based on belief, based

741
00:56:59.360 --> 00:57:06.320
on their expectations of what's going to happen to them

742
00:57:07.280 --> 00:57:10.880
or if they're going to be rewarded, even if it's doing.

743
00:57:12.280 --> 00:57:22.159
A non good thing. I'm keeping this very vague. So it's.

744
00:57:23.840 --> 00:57:30.920
Really powerful if you take anyone you having the chance

745
00:57:31.079 --> 00:57:35.239
to raise a child is a chance to raise your

746
00:57:35.280 --> 00:57:38.400
own little angel, or your own little monster, or your

747
00:57:38.440 --> 00:57:42.239
own little confused creature that doesn't know what I mean.

748
00:57:45.639 --> 00:57:50.920
I just don't think individual human beings necessarily always I

749
00:57:51.039 --> 00:57:54.880
know I wouldn't. I wouldn't have the capacity to raise

750
00:57:54.920 --> 00:57:57.840
a child in a way that they needed to be raised.

751
00:57:59.639 --> 00:58:00.320
I don't think.

752
00:58:00.440 --> 00:58:03.239
I mean, some people do have that, some people like

753
00:58:03.400 --> 00:58:11.280
me probably don't. I don't think I'm patient enough. But

754
00:58:11.360 --> 00:58:13.039
it's really weird to just think.

755
00:58:15.199 --> 00:58:15.760
How much.

756
00:58:17.800 --> 00:58:24.679
You can forge a child's brain and their mind by

757
00:58:24.840 --> 00:58:26.920
the stuff you say, by what they see you do,

758
00:58:27.079 --> 00:58:31.679
what they hear you say, the behavior, your belief structure,

759
00:58:32.400 --> 00:58:36.159
what you tell them things like as fact when it's

760
00:58:36.239 --> 00:58:39.400
just an opinion, and they believe it and they will

761
00:58:39.480 --> 00:58:43.039
literally do anything to back up because you've said it,

762
00:58:43.559 --> 00:58:44.639
so therefore it's true.

763
00:58:46.119 --> 00:58:49.880
And I've seen that in action. And I had a

764
00:58:50.000 --> 00:58:50.440
friend that.

765
00:58:53.679 --> 00:58:55.960
And I told his mum this, I said, you know what,

766
00:58:57.000 --> 00:58:58.440
I'm my friend who passed away.

767
00:59:00.079 --> 00:59:00.480
His funeral.

768
00:59:00.559 --> 00:59:04.199
I told his mum, do you realize that he believed

769
00:59:04.360 --> 00:59:07.920
every single thing you said to him? And she laughed

770
00:59:08.119 --> 00:59:11.480
and I said, serious, if you came in here now

771
00:59:11.840 --> 00:59:15.000
and told everyone, okay, if you okay, not now, but

772
00:59:15.519 --> 00:59:21.039
if you told him on a Tuesday that was a Thursday,

773
00:59:25.239 --> 00:59:28.559
he would stick to that. He says, a Thursday. My

774
00:59:28.679 --> 00:59:31.559
mom said it's a Thursday, so it's a Thursday. Even

775
00:59:31.639 --> 00:59:35.880
if everyone's walking around with T shirts on saying it's

776
00:59:36.000 --> 00:59:40.400
Tuesday and the TV comes on and saying we're celebrating

777
00:59:40.440 --> 00:59:47.480
Tuesday Day today, he would completely ignore that factual information

778
00:59:48.159 --> 00:59:51.760
because his mom said it was Thursday, and he wouldn't

779
00:59:51.800 --> 00:59:59.920
back down, not for anything. I've never had that connection

780
01:00:00.199 --> 01:00:07.039
with anyone to believe what they say. So I've heard

781
01:00:07.199 --> 01:00:11.280
so much bs ever since I was born, so much

782
01:00:11.480 --> 01:00:19.440
just silly stuff that I realized that nobody is going

783
01:00:19.519 --> 01:00:23.280
to be telling the truth the whole time because a

784
01:00:23.320 --> 01:00:24.880
lot of it is just made up. A lot of

785
01:00:24.960 --> 01:00:28.239
it is It might be truthful to them, but it

786
01:00:28.360 --> 01:00:33.719
might be someone else's lie and opinions and all that stuff.

787
01:00:33.800 --> 01:00:38.079
So I think I've benefited in a way from not

788
01:00:38.199 --> 01:00:42.480
being in that sort of stuck structure of I believe this,

789
01:00:44.480 --> 01:00:47.039
and I'm never going to change how I think I

790
01:00:47.199 --> 01:00:48.119
believe this, or.

791
01:00:50.039 --> 01:00:53.400
I kind of don't have that. I think life would

792
01:00:53.400 --> 01:00:55.320
be a lot easier if I did. To be fair.

793
01:00:56.159 --> 01:00:59.119
I've said to be fair three times now, to be honest,

794
01:01:00.599 --> 01:01:04.480
I don't like to be honest, and I've kind of

795
01:01:04.519 --> 01:01:08.320
moved away probably from what you were asking. So what's

796
01:01:08.360 --> 01:01:09.400
my favorite ice cream?

797
01:01:09.480 --> 01:01:11.000
Okay, it is.

798
01:01:11.719 --> 01:01:19.480
I like, no, everything we do, this is my little

799
01:01:19.519 --> 01:01:31.320
belief Everything we do affects us, whether it's our belief system,

800
01:01:31.960 --> 01:01:32.840
whether it's.

801
01:01:34.280 --> 01:01:35.039
And our beliefs.

802
01:01:35.199 --> 01:01:40.559
I mean, some people's it's hard for their belief system

803
01:01:40.679 --> 01:01:44.199
to change, but I've seen my belief systems changeing like

804
01:01:44.320 --> 01:01:52.800
an instant. One example is, ok, I have a real

805
01:01:53.119 --> 01:01:57.800
issue with motorbikes. Just this, just the sound of them,

806
01:01:58.199 --> 01:02:02.079
That's all it is. I don't like loud sounds, never

807
01:02:02.239 --> 01:02:08.000
have done, probably never will do. Maybe I've got a

808
01:02:08.079 --> 01:02:09.920
theory what that is, but it's it's.

809
01:02:11.679 --> 01:02:12.960
Just part of my brain. I can't.

810
01:02:13.000 --> 01:02:16.320
I can't deal with loud, really loud sounds. I don't

811
01:02:16.360 --> 01:02:20.320
even have loud music on, you know. I have it

812
01:02:20.400 --> 01:02:23.519
on loud enough so I can hear what I'm listening to, don't.

813
01:02:23.639 --> 01:02:25.559
I don't even like to put it on louder. If

814
01:02:25.599 --> 01:02:28.320
I have to cover up noise in the garden because

815
01:02:28.320 --> 01:02:29.079
it's too loud for.

816
01:02:29.159 --> 01:02:29.519
Me, then.

817
01:02:31.239 --> 01:02:35.440
So, because I got an issue. If I see a

818
01:02:35.480 --> 01:02:41.239
motorbike revin I go into that little angry mode.

819
01:02:42.920 --> 01:02:48.960
My little angry smurf pops up. It's like, how could

820
01:02:48.960 --> 01:02:52.719
you be so inconsiderate to me, even when they don't

821
01:02:52.760 --> 01:02:54.840
even know I exist, you know, not the smurf. I'm

822
01:02:54.880 --> 01:02:58.239
talking about the person on the bike. So I'm thinking,

823
01:03:01.320 --> 01:03:05.159
and I'm walking past, I'm just like, and then I

824
01:03:05.280 --> 01:03:10.559
hear we coming from that direction. I look over, puts

825
01:03:10.599 --> 01:03:12.920
his visor up, and it's someone that I see regularly

826
01:03:12.960 --> 01:03:19.880
who walks his dog. Instantly, that belief, Okay, not the

827
01:03:19.920 --> 01:03:22.360
whole belief about bikes and noise hasn't changed, because I

828
01:03:22.400 --> 01:03:25.360
still have an issue with noise, but the emotions connected

829
01:03:25.519 --> 01:03:31.480
to motorbikes seem to have eased, definitely eased in that

830
01:03:31.599 --> 01:03:39.719
moment anyway, which showed that the if it can bend,

831
01:03:39.880 --> 01:03:45.800
if a belief system can bend quite easily and be

832
01:03:46.079 --> 01:03:54.119
molded and sort of curved around quite easily, be manipulated

833
01:03:54.320 --> 01:03:58.760
and maneuvered, I'm trying to think of clever words, then

834
01:03:58.840 --> 01:03:59.679
it's not really.

835
01:04:01.599 --> 01:04:08.599
It's yeah, if it can be. If it's not that.

836
01:04:10.400 --> 01:04:14.039
Tightly structured so that it can be moved and changed

837
01:04:15.360 --> 01:04:23.920
so easily, says Vinney's Flappy Years, then it's not very strong.

838
01:04:23.719 --> 01:04:25.800
Is it that belief? That belief is not a very

839
01:04:25.840 --> 01:04:37.599
strong belief if it can almost transform instantly. It was

840
01:04:37.760 --> 01:04:38.800
never a strong belief.

841
01:04:41.719 --> 01:04:45.280
There was never a really however strong the emotions were

842
01:04:46.159 --> 01:04:53.119
at times, wasn't connected to a particularly strong foundation.

843
01:04:55.440 --> 01:05:03.239
M M yes, so yeah, I probably can't. I can't

844
01:05:03.360 --> 01:05:04.000
answer your.

845
01:05:04.000 --> 01:05:07.320
Question in a way that I may maybe you'd like

846
01:05:07.440 --> 01:05:10.559
to hear me answer it again. I can only assume

847
01:05:10.679 --> 01:05:13.159
on that one. I don't know, but I can't answer

848
01:05:13.159 --> 01:05:16.000
it in a way that you would get in a

849
01:05:16.039 --> 01:05:22.000
textbook or in a way that makes any cognitive sense. Probably,

850
01:05:24.000 --> 01:05:29.800
I'm just trying to explain from my perspective kind of

851
01:05:29.920 --> 01:05:34.320
how I map it out in front of me, going

852
01:05:34.480 --> 01:05:39.519
to like rituals. You got rituals, so you've got things

853
01:05:39.639 --> 01:05:42.480
like I know, you go go far back.

854
01:05:43.280 --> 01:05:45.599
Okay, take a breath.

855
01:05:46.079 --> 01:05:46.320
I go.

856
01:05:48.159 --> 01:05:51.559
From a religious point of view this country. Things like

857
01:05:51.719 --> 01:05:53.679
Christianity aren't from this country.

858
01:05:56.119 --> 01:05:56.320
You know.

859
01:05:57.199 --> 01:06:04.440
They're not from Africa, They're not from America. Christianity, Islam, Hinduism, Buddhism,

860
01:06:05.559 --> 01:06:10.280
none of these religions are from the countries you know.

861
01:06:13.440 --> 01:06:15.000
Are probably most of the people listening.

862
01:06:18.920 --> 01:06:21.960
So if you go back to your original country, the

863
01:06:22.079 --> 01:06:27.159
leaf systems, if you're in Australia, or if you're in Canada,

864
01:06:28.079 --> 01:06:33.079
if you're in America, if you're in England, in Scotland,

865
01:06:33.199 --> 01:06:40.639
in Wales. It's different. It's a completely different belief structure

866
01:06:41.480 --> 01:06:46.440
that we came from originally. Although I'm forty eight percent Irish.

867
01:06:46.519 --> 01:06:50.119
I don't know if I've mentioned that. So my ancestors,

868
01:06:50.599 --> 01:06:55.400
my ancestors were like pretty much Irish, so that would

869
01:06:55.440 --> 01:06:59.320
be Celtic. And there was a lot of ritual and

870
01:06:59.519 --> 01:07:04.960
it goes back to almost worshiping the sun and the

871
01:07:05.079 --> 01:07:08.960
wind and the trees. And I don't know, I'll make

872
01:07:09.039 --> 01:07:15.320
part of that up, but there's that belief system.

873
01:07:15.360 --> 01:07:16.239
You know, people.

874
01:07:19.960 --> 01:07:23.960
I guess like carrying a rabbit's foot or believe in

875
01:07:24.639 --> 01:07:32.880
something's good luck because it is for them, no matter

876
01:07:32.960 --> 01:07:38.360
how ridiculous it seems to everyone else. I've seen people

877
01:07:38.800 --> 01:07:43.639
that are superstitious, and I think nearly everyone i've seen

878
01:07:43.679 --> 01:07:50.599
that's superstitious in a working environment as successful. I've seen

879
01:07:50.639 --> 01:07:53.480
that a few times and they've been successful.

880
01:07:53.719 --> 01:07:54.480
They're actually good.

881
01:07:55.239 --> 01:08:00.440
And you mess with their superstitious thing, whether it's they

882
01:08:00.519 --> 01:08:06.199
might have a picture of their their daughter on the thing,

883
01:08:06.960 --> 01:08:10.000
so if you draw a mustache on their daughter photograph,

884
01:08:10.719 --> 01:08:17.039
this is their day up. Whether they're superstitious or not,

885
01:08:17.119 --> 01:08:19.119
I suppose, But.

886
01:08:20.800 --> 01:08:22.399
If they lose the the.

887
01:08:24.479 --> 01:08:28.119
The thing that they have as a I guess kind

888
01:08:28.159 --> 01:08:38.079
of like a talisman or whatever. So you know, it's

889
01:08:38.680 --> 01:08:46.279
it's belief, and I think next to that belief expectations.

890
01:08:47.119 --> 01:08:50.680
When you believe something, then you expect something. I think

891
01:08:50.680 --> 01:08:54.199
you kind of need both. When you got both together,

892
01:08:54.439 --> 01:08:55.319
it makes a very.

893
01:08:55.319 --> 01:08:57.359
Strong, super strong.

894
01:08:58.079 --> 01:09:03.560
So, for example, Paul, there was a time when I

895
01:09:03.800 --> 01:09:08.960
was confident going out, confident that I would be able

896
01:09:08.960 --> 01:09:16.520
to talk confidently to ladies. Yes, it's twenty twenty five

897
01:09:16.640 --> 01:09:21.239
years ago, so it's a while back. But I felt

898
01:09:21.319 --> 01:09:24.640
confident and I had that belief, but it wasn't just

899
01:09:25.439 --> 01:09:28.680
it was belief. So the expectations were based on my belief,

900
01:09:29.159 --> 01:09:34.079
but also that belief was based on previous experience. So

901
01:09:34.399 --> 01:09:37.159
all the previous experience and all the new experience was

902
01:09:41.319 --> 01:09:47.399
kind of backing up that belief, confirming it, new evidence,

903
01:09:48.800 --> 01:09:53.239
more evidence to confirm it. But I was ignoring the

904
01:09:53.520 --> 01:10:01.399
evidence that was confirming otherwise because that's what I focused on.

905
01:10:03.039 --> 01:10:05.600
So I was you know, that wasn't all I was doing.

906
01:10:05.640 --> 01:10:07.520
I'm just saying I've just had a period when I

907
01:10:07.680 --> 01:10:10.279
was fairly confident.

908
01:10:11.119 --> 01:10:11.880
Didn't last long.

909
01:10:13.560 --> 01:10:20.920
Three hours, Yeah, so I don't know, I probably haven't

910
01:10:20.960 --> 01:10:38.279
answered your question. Our subconscious patterns, we can change what

911
01:10:38.439 --> 01:10:46.640
we think about by just thinking on purpose. Sometimes it

912
01:10:46.800 --> 01:10:50.279
is that instead of just allowing I mean, it's just

913
01:10:50.399 --> 01:10:52.560
something to be said for allowing thoughts to come and go.

914
01:10:53.000 --> 01:10:55.119
And that's a kind of meditation in itself.

915
01:10:56.479 --> 01:10:59.159
But when you're doing that, you're not holding onto them,

916
01:11:00.239 --> 01:11:06.319
following the thoughts. So in a meditation, if, for example,

917
01:11:06.399 --> 01:11:13.359
you just sit and just breathe always made me laugh

918
01:11:13.439 --> 01:11:18.159
every time the meditation leader would say, don't forget to breathe.

919
01:11:18.560 --> 01:11:20.239
I've never once forgotten to breathe.

920
01:11:25.319 --> 01:11:28.840
It's like, you know, swimming, people are going swimming.

921
01:11:28.880 --> 01:11:34.600
Don't forget to swim. Really, don't forget to keep above

922
01:11:34.640 --> 01:11:44.239
the water. Okay, oh, don't forget to eat. I've never

923
01:11:44.279 --> 01:11:47.680
forgotten to eat anyway, So.

924
01:11:50.000 --> 01:11:53.119
On a recent show, So there's there's I could go

925
01:11:53.239 --> 01:11:54.800
on and on about that all day long, and it

926
01:11:54.840 --> 01:11:58.000
probably wouldn't make any more sense.

927
01:12:00.640 --> 01:12:02.680
Possibly, but.

928
01:12:08.079 --> 01:12:13.319
There's something to be said for just sitting down allowing

929
01:12:13.399 --> 01:12:16.560
your thoughts to just come, but don't follow the thoughts.

930
01:12:16.680 --> 01:12:19.399
You will follow them, but once you once you notice

931
01:12:19.439 --> 01:12:22.079
you're kind of focusing on something let it go.

932
01:12:27.760 --> 01:12:28.319
And then just.

933
01:12:30.159 --> 01:12:33.399
Just allow the thoughts to come and go, and then

934
01:12:33.439 --> 01:12:35.880
when you notice yourself focusing on something.

935
01:12:37.359 --> 01:12:38.079
Let it go again.

936
01:12:41.439 --> 01:12:45.119
And it's kind of a good way to it's it's

937
01:12:45.119 --> 01:12:47.720
a similar thing if you want to find out if

938
01:12:47.760 --> 01:12:51.720
you're going to buy take over a restaurant or let's

939
01:12:51.720 --> 01:12:57.479
say it's a fast food place or a chip shop.

940
01:12:58.119 --> 01:13:01.000
Yeah it's a chip shop, and you want to find

941
01:13:01.039 --> 01:13:04.199
out the kind of customers you're going to get. You

942
01:13:04.319 --> 01:13:05.960
want to find out what it's going to be, like,

943
01:13:06.079 --> 01:13:10.960
what kind of foot traffic you're going to get. Then

944
01:13:12.600 --> 01:13:14.520
you sit in the window and look out. You're sitting

945
01:13:14.560 --> 01:13:22.640
there and watch, and the longer you sit, the more

946
01:13:22.680 --> 01:13:24.600
of an idea you're going to get of what's going on.

947
01:13:24.720 --> 01:13:29.800
And you start seeing patterns. Oh, that bloke's coming, he

948
01:13:29.920 --> 01:13:38.600
comes in every Tuesday and every Thursday. Oh he's always

949
01:13:38.640 --> 01:13:39.800
got yogurt on his head.

950
01:13:40.560 --> 01:13:44.479
You know, just things like that, and it can be

951
01:13:46.079 --> 01:13:48.000
it could be quite interesting to see the.

952
01:13:51.239 --> 01:13:56.199
To see to notice what you're thinking without adding anything,

953
01:13:57.880 --> 01:14:03.840
without getting into an internal dialogue or being imaginative, which

954
01:14:03.920 --> 01:14:04.800
can also be fun.

955
01:14:05.039 --> 01:14:05.920
I suppose.

956
01:14:08.640 --> 01:14:12.239
I don't know if I've answered that. Jonathan On a

957
01:14:12.319 --> 01:14:15.399
recent show, you mentioned a disability of yours but didn't

958
01:14:15.399 --> 01:14:18.359
refer to what it was, and also implied that you

959
01:14:18.560 --> 01:14:24.239
maybe don't drive. But curious about both of these. Well,

960
01:14:26.920 --> 01:14:30.239
that's the thing with these recordings. I've mentioned it a

961
01:14:30.319 --> 01:14:33.800
few times, but I know that sometimes if people fall

962
01:14:33.840 --> 01:14:36.199
asleep or whatever, they just you're not going to hear

963
01:14:36.239 --> 01:14:39.640
what I've talked about. But I don't know if I'll

964
01:14:39.640 --> 01:14:40.359
mentioned it too much.

965
01:14:40.399 --> 01:14:46.880
But yeah, I have a We've got bipolar effective disorder

966
01:14:47.039 --> 01:14:49.199
and which is classed as a.

967
01:14:51.520 --> 01:15:03.119
Disability with me and eu PDS an emotionally unstable personality disorder.

968
01:15:04.199 --> 01:15:07.159
So they are the two things. It's not mental mental

969
01:15:07.239 --> 01:15:13.760
stuff that's my disability. I haven't got any physical disabilities.

970
01:15:15.199 --> 01:15:21.119
But I do have a disability bus pass. I do

971
01:15:21.680 --> 01:15:29.159
come like an old pension and now I do not

972
01:15:29.239 --> 01:15:30.199
allowed to drive.

973
01:15:30.039 --> 01:15:34.359
Because of the medication I'm on because it causes drowsiness

974
01:15:35.520 --> 01:15:42.239
and the d d w what is it called, the

975
01:15:42.359 --> 01:15:47.720
d LP PL DAL whatever d w L the driving

976
01:15:47.800 --> 01:15:53.960
people driving, I forget the name of the company the

977
01:15:54.079 --> 01:15:54.720
driving place.

978
01:15:55.600 --> 01:15:57.319
Yeah, they didn't ban me.

979
01:15:59.560 --> 01:16:01.640
Like in a way of like banning me for drink

980
01:16:01.760 --> 01:16:05.159
driving or whatever or speeding. They just banned me from driving.

981
01:16:05.199 --> 01:16:06.439
They said, you're not allowed to drive.

982
01:16:08.399 --> 01:16:12.479
This was quite a few years ago. However, I don't drive.

983
01:16:14.079 --> 01:16:19.640
I can't drive, so it's one of those weird things.

984
01:16:23.680 --> 01:16:25.960
When I first got my bus pass, I had to

985
01:16:26.079 --> 01:16:33.119
go to the driving place and get proof about me

986
01:16:33.279 --> 01:16:35.680
not being able to drive. That's the only reason they

987
01:16:35.720 --> 01:16:36.199
would give.

988
01:16:36.119 --> 01:16:39.800
Me a bus pass. So I just went scott let

989
01:16:39.880 --> 01:16:41.560
from the doctor just to tell them what I was,

990
01:16:41.720 --> 01:16:44.199
my situation and they banned me.

991
01:16:44.760 --> 01:16:50.119
Was like, wow, but yeah, I don't know quite it

992
01:16:50.239 --> 01:16:53.079
causes drowsiness to medications. I think it's probably more to

993
01:16:53.159 --> 01:16:54.840
do with that than my.

994
01:16:57.239 --> 01:16:59.600
My road rage potential. I don't know.

995
01:17:00.720 --> 01:17:02.520
Yeah, I don't know what kind of driver I would be,

996
01:17:02.840 --> 01:17:06.039
but yeah, I don't drive. Never driven. I've had two

997
01:17:06.119 --> 01:17:11.159
sets of driving lessons, one in London and one in Ipswich.

998
01:17:13.000 --> 01:17:19.199
Period in London nineteen ninety one, what's the point? I

999
01:17:19.399 --> 01:17:23.079
was walking fast and the traffic was driving. I didn't

1000
01:17:23.079 --> 01:17:27.760
really see the bigger picture, really like earth driving outside

1001
01:17:27.800 --> 01:17:30.720
of London. But inside of London it didn't seem any point.

1002
01:17:32.520 --> 01:17:36.600
It's everything was moving so slowly and you've got cars

1003
01:17:36.800 --> 01:17:38.760
you have, you can't even drive. You can You've got

1004
01:17:38.840 --> 01:17:42.159
stopped like every two seconds to let cars through because

1005
01:17:42.239 --> 01:17:46.680
people are parked both sides of the road, because you're

1006
01:17:46.680 --> 01:17:49.840
not allowed to park on the pavement in London, which.

1007
01:17:49.680 --> 01:17:50.680
Is I'm glad.

1008
01:17:51.760 --> 01:17:55.000
That's one of my big pet peeves, people parking on

1009
01:17:55.079 --> 01:17:55.560
the pavement.

1010
01:17:56.239 --> 01:17:57.000
I don't know what it is.

1011
01:17:57.640 --> 01:18:00.960
We've got someone locally it's an ambulance.

1012
01:18:01.880 --> 01:18:05.600
They park on the pavement. Anyway, Yeah, I just got

1013
01:18:05.640 --> 01:18:09.920
my little pet peeve, people parking on the pavement. You're

1014
01:18:09.960 --> 01:18:10.960
not allowed to do that in London.

1015
01:18:11.840 --> 01:18:14.039
You're not allowed to do it anywhere in this country,

1016
01:18:14.279 --> 01:18:17.279
but it's not enforced, but in London it's enforced.

1017
01:18:19.199 --> 01:18:21.119
So you literally got to stop.

1018
01:18:21.600 --> 01:18:23.399
And if there's another car company, you've got to let

1019
01:18:23.479 --> 01:18:28.800
them through or they'll let you through. And yeah, so

1020
01:18:29.039 --> 01:18:34.680
I just didn't see the point in driving. Plus I

1021
01:18:34.800 --> 01:18:36.880
was working whenever I had the money to pay for

1022
01:18:37.039 --> 01:18:41.600
driving lessons. I was working too many hours to have

1023
01:18:41.760 --> 01:18:55.079
any time to take driving lessons. So that's that, Joe Anne,

1024
01:18:56.399 --> 01:18:59.199
not a question. But if you are thinking about selling merch,

1025
01:19:00.039 --> 01:19:03.039
I would definitely wear a T shirt that said I

1026
01:19:03.239 --> 01:19:09.640
sleep with Jason every night, or Temmy says, that's shirt

1027
01:19:09.680 --> 01:19:13.239
I definitely could not wear to work, and I'm thinking

1028
01:19:14.359 --> 01:19:18.680
why and then tell me put someone by the same

1029
01:19:18.840 --> 01:19:21.880
name in my office so I don't want to give

1030
01:19:21.920 --> 01:19:28.520
them ideas. Yeah, that could get awkward. By the way,

1031
01:19:28.520 --> 01:19:30.520
I shouldn't be reading you about what other people have written,

1032
01:19:30.600 --> 01:19:34.439
because you need to join the boarding group Jason Newland's

1033
01:19:34.479 --> 01:19:35.000
boring group.

1034
01:19:35.439 --> 01:19:37.239
If you want to see what people have written, you

1035
01:19:37.359 --> 01:19:38.000
need to join.

1036
01:19:38.159 --> 01:19:38.319
Man.

1037
01:19:40.399 --> 01:19:42.800
So the next one, Oh, yeah, I've got to answer

1038
01:19:42.840 --> 01:19:47.760
that question, am I sorry? I was thinking about that.

1039
01:19:47.960 --> 01:19:52.039
I mean, you know, merch merchandise isn't going to happen

1040
01:19:52.039 --> 01:19:54.479
anywhere anytime soon, maybe in the future.

1041
01:19:56.000 --> 01:20:01.319
Unless you want to just make some yourself. That would

1042
01:20:01.319 --> 01:20:01.680
be cool.

1043
01:20:02.119 --> 01:20:04.920
Maybe put my website at the bottom, my website address,

1044
01:20:05.840 --> 01:20:09.119
just otherwise they won't know who you're talking about.

1045
01:20:09.319 --> 01:20:13.880
Man. But yeah, I used to have a T shirt

1046
01:20:13.960 --> 01:20:18.520
with let Me Boy to Sleep on it and my

1047
01:20:18.600 --> 01:20:23.640
website address. People did actually look they used to look

1048
01:20:23.680 --> 01:20:25.399
at it. It was quite a bright.

1049
01:20:26.800 --> 01:20:30.960
Picture an image, and I'm not sure if I had

1050
01:20:31.000 --> 01:20:33.119
Andre on there, might've had a picture of Andrea on

1051
01:20:33.159 --> 01:20:36.840
there as well. See, that's the weird thing. I don't

1052
01:20:36.920 --> 01:20:41.199
think about the future like that's the kind of thing

1053
01:20:41.239 --> 01:20:44.000
that I should have gotten and just kept one. Isn't

1054
01:20:44.000 --> 01:20:47.640
it because I got it printed for me, I should

1055
01:20:47.680 --> 01:20:51.119
have kept one and just kept it somewhere safe as

1056
01:20:51.399 --> 01:20:52.560
a kind of keepsake.

1057
01:20:54.560 --> 01:20:55.079
I had a.

1058
01:20:56.880 --> 01:21:00.680
T shirt with chronic pain relief on it of a website.

1059
01:21:00.680 --> 01:21:02.800
I had another one with free pain relief back in

1060
01:21:02.840 --> 01:21:06.680
two thousand and six T shirt. I remember collecting that

1061
01:21:08.159 --> 01:21:11.840
and again I just wore it until it wore out.

1062
01:21:15.279 --> 01:21:17.239
See you what I had. I had a T shirt

1063
01:21:17.279 --> 01:21:20.640
in nineteen ninety one and it was a picture of me.

1064
01:21:23.560 --> 01:21:25.880
It was in the West End, and there's this bloke

1065
01:21:26.000 --> 01:21:31.119
taking photographs, and I mentioned a lot of people would

1066
01:21:31.159 --> 01:21:34.399
take a photograph of their loved one, maybe of their kids,

1067
01:21:35.199 --> 01:21:37.159
and then having it printed on a T shirt for

1068
01:21:37.239 --> 01:21:41.439
them to wear. But I had a picture of me

1069
01:21:43.319 --> 01:21:44.960
and I had put it onto a T shirt and

1070
01:21:45.000 --> 01:21:49.279
I wore that T shirt of myself. No one ever

1071
01:21:49.359 --> 01:21:56.199
mentioned it, no one ever said anything. Maybe it was

1072
01:21:56.239 --> 01:21:56.960
a baseball bat.

1073
01:21:58.720 --> 01:21:59.000
Sean.

1074
01:22:00.560 --> 01:22:05.279
This is a question, Sean asks me, how are you

1075
01:22:05.439 --> 01:22:10.279
able to recall dates so accurately? I have often been

1076
01:22:10.479 --> 01:22:14.760
drifted in off and you'll be talking about something you've

1077
01:22:14.880 --> 01:22:18.560
seen or that happened to you in the past, and

1078
01:22:18.720 --> 01:22:23.479
you seem to be very accurately recall the specific year

1079
01:22:23.560 --> 01:22:27.279
it happened. It's quite impressive. Thank you very much.

1080
01:22:28.479 --> 01:22:32.920
This question finally being asked after you list the Lion

1081
01:22:33.439 --> 01:22:38.600
documentary release years in the Disney Triviury episode. You're able

1082
01:22:38.680 --> 01:22:43.359
to do it with your stories. So I start this

1083
01:22:43.560 --> 01:22:51.640
question again because I've just been rudely interrupted by three

1084
01:22:51.720 --> 01:22:52.680
different dogs.

1085
01:23:09.880 --> 01:23:11.520
And someone downstairs shouting as well.

1086
01:23:11.600 --> 01:23:17.479
Now brilliant, right here we go, Sean says, how are

1087
01:23:17.479 --> 01:23:20.279
you able to record date so accurately? I've often been

1088
01:23:20.359 --> 01:23:22.880
drifted off and you'll be talking about something you've seen

1089
01:23:23.600 --> 01:23:26.439
or that happened to you in the past, and you

1090
01:23:26.560 --> 01:23:30.920
seem to be very accurately recalling the specific year it happened.

1091
01:23:31.720 --> 01:23:34.800
It's quite impressive. I agree, Thank you very much.

1092
01:23:35.800 --> 01:23:36.119
And this.

1093
01:23:37.960 --> 01:23:42.439
Question finally being asked after you list the Lion documentary

1094
01:23:42.960 --> 01:23:48.920
release years in the True Disney Trivia episode. You're also

1095
01:23:49.000 --> 01:23:51.880
able to do it with your stories too, in X

1096
01:23:52.079 --> 01:23:56.279
year this happened, etc. I'm always amazed by your memory. Well,

1097
01:23:56.359 --> 01:23:59.680
thank you well, I mean to be saying, sometimes I

1098
01:23:59.800 --> 01:24:01.439
do it the laptop in front of me, so if.

1099
01:24:01.359 --> 01:24:07.520
I'm looking up stuff. So I don't always remember every

1100
01:24:07.600 --> 01:24:13.199
single year, but when it's when it's to do with

1101
01:24:13.319 --> 01:24:16.319
my life, not to do with my life.

1102
01:24:16.359 --> 01:24:24.760
I mean technically Madonna releasing The Like a Prayer album

1103
01:24:26.479 --> 01:24:30.600
in nineteen eighty nine wasn't to do with my life,

1104
01:24:30.760 --> 01:24:36.560
but it was. It signified a particular time. Remember listening

1105
01:24:36.600 --> 01:24:39.840
to it in France, in the France.

1106
01:24:41.159 --> 01:24:42.079
Very poor.

1107
01:24:43.079 --> 01:24:45.640
It might have been Dover, even Dover or France, but

1108
01:24:45.680 --> 01:24:48.920
I think it was France and it was be Calai

1109
01:24:48.960 --> 01:24:52.640
I suppose, wasn't it, and the video, The Like a

1110
01:24:52.680 --> 01:24:57.880
Prayer video was on. But there's a few ways I

1111
01:24:58.000 --> 01:25:00.840
do it. I don't do it on purpose. And I

1112
01:25:00.920 --> 01:25:02.520
had a friend that used to keep They used to

1113
01:25:02.600 --> 01:25:05.439
mock me for it when I'd sort of say the

1114
01:25:05.560 --> 01:25:09.560
year or sometimes the month as well, and they'd picked

1115
01:25:09.600 --> 01:25:11.079
me up on it to the point where I felt

1116
01:25:11.079 --> 01:25:15.039
a little bit self conscious. And I don't like feeling it.

1117
01:25:15.079 --> 01:25:18.520
I don't think anyone likes feeling self conscious today, So

1118
01:25:18.600 --> 01:25:23.439
I kind of felt, oh, and like I had to

1119
01:25:23.439 --> 01:25:28.399
stop doing it. This is with someone like in person,

1120
01:25:28.479 --> 01:25:30.800
you know, and they'd like start laughing every time I've

1121
01:25:30.840 --> 01:25:31.560
mentioned a year.

1122
01:25:33.840 --> 01:25:35.279
I don't know why I do it. I think it's

1123
01:25:35.479 --> 01:25:41.520
just I don't know how I do it. Rather, I

1124
01:25:41.600 --> 01:25:44.720
think the reason I do it is to I'd like

1125
01:25:44.800 --> 01:25:48.000
to treat it, try and be a little bit factual.

1126
01:25:49.199 --> 01:25:50.039
But also.

1127
01:25:52.039 --> 01:25:55.760
It's just me kind of talking out loud the process,

1128
01:25:55.880 --> 01:26:01.279
the brain process that's going on. I've got my life

1129
01:26:01.720 --> 01:26:06.640
broken into different parts in my memory, and there's a

1130
01:26:06.680 --> 01:26:09.199
lot of things I don't remember. I mean, I generally

1131
01:26:09.199 --> 01:26:14.039
don't remember much about Thailand. I don't remember much about

1132
01:26:14.039 --> 01:26:21.720
the last few years, last couple of years, or the

1133
01:26:21.800 --> 01:26:29.439
last week or so. There's and that's partly because nothing's

1134
01:26:29.520 --> 01:26:34.600
going on. Because even though I've generally had quite a

1135
01:26:34.640 --> 01:26:39.880
boring life, but at the same time, it wasn't boring,

1136
01:26:40.039 --> 01:26:40.720
if you know what I mean.

1137
01:26:41.199 --> 01:26:41.520
It was.

1138
01:26:46.520 --> 01:26:49.880
It's constantly on the move, constantly moving from place to place,

1139
01:26:50.600 --> 01:26:52.720
even if it was in the same part of town

1140
01:26:52.920 --> 01:26:55.680
or the same part of the country. I'd you know,

1141
01:26:56.600 --> 01:26:59.960
I'd been moving every couple of years, every year, sometimes

1142
01:27:00.359 --> 01:27:04.960
twice three times a year, and I'd be having different jobs,

1143
01:27:06.680 --> 01:27:09.960
and I'd be having different girlfriends, and i'd be different

1144
01:27:10.000 --> 01:27:15.279
lots of different things happening, and I've got those things

1145
01:27:15.439 --> 01:27:22.600
kind of broken up, so I could list. Yeah, I

1146
01:27:22.640 --> 01:27:28.279
could go by jobs, or I could go by where

1147
01:27:28.319 --> 01:27:28.760
I've lived.

1148
01:27:29.680 --> 01:27:30.720
I can pretty much.

1149
01:27:31.600 --> 01:27:36.439
I can't remember the addresses, but I can pretty much

1150
01:27:36.560 --> 01:27:40.760
remember all the moves, and a lot of them by date,

1151
01:27:41.479 --> 01:27:44.600
not day date, but by year, and sometimes even by

1152
01:27:44.760 --> 01:27:46.279
roughly what part of the year it was.

1153
01:27:49.560 --> 01:27:52.319
And then there's jobs.

1154
01:27:53.319 --> 01:27:59.239
So you know, I started working nineteen eighty six in

1155
01:27:59.319 --> 01:28:02.520
a chip shop, so that's kind of the start. But

1156
01:28:02.560 --> 01:28:04.319
if we go all the way back to the very

1157
01:28:04.640 --> 01:28:12.399
start of working, and I had a paper round, and

1158
01:28:12.560 --> 01:28:17.039
I worked in the bakehouse, which was a restaurant. I

1159
01:28:17.119 --> 01:28:20.680
worked in a bakery of the restaurant at the weekend

1160
01:28:22.000 --> 01:28:28.399
Saturday and Sunday, I think it was it was either

1161
01:28:28.479 --> 01:28:30.800
five o'clock on a Saturday or five o'clock on a

1162
01:28:30.880 --> 01:28:33.960
Sunday and six o'clock the other day. I forget which

1163
01:28:34.039 --> 01:28:39.439
was which, And I think it might have been six

1164
01:28:39.520 --> 01:28:43.279
o'clock Friday, at six o'clock Saturday, five o'clock Sunday, because

1165
01:28:44.319 --> 01:28:46.880
maybe Sunday was busier day because then they've got a

1166
01:28:46.880 --> 01:28:51.239
little coaches and stuff come to you know, they would

1167
01:28:51.239 --> 01:28:56.119
come to visit. They wouldn't drive into the outu restaurant.

1168
01:28:56.159 --> 01:29:02.000
They did park and let all the people off, you

1169
01:29:02.079 --> 01:29:03.319
know how coaches.

1170
01:29:02.960 --> 01:29:10.239
Work, So I I remember that.

1171
01:29:11.399 --> 01:29:14.479
But then when I've got like memories connected to each job,

1172
01:29:16.199 --> 01:29:19.319
so I remember some of the things I did, so

1173
01:29:19.520 --> 01:29:25.960
if I if I zoom in on a job, And

1174
01:29:26.079 --> 01:29:31.079
maybe it's because I've been I've focused on myself pretty

1175
01:29:31.159 --> 01:29:32.720
much the whole time, and.

1176
01:29:32.800 --> 01:29:38.199
It means some would say it's someone would argue it's

1177
01:29:38.279 --> 01:29:41.840
just me being selfish, or me.

1178
01:29:43.359 --> 01:29:48.680
Put myself first or whatever. But in some ways I

1179
01:29:48.760 --> 01:29:56.680
kind of had to. There hasn't been a safety net really,

1180
01:29:57.159 --> 01:29:59.880
so I've kind of not that. Probably many people have

1181
01:30:00.079 --> 01:30:02.880
safety in it, but I didn't have. I kind of

1182
01:30:04.319 --> 01:30:08.399
I never really knew what was going to happen next,

1183
01:30:09.159 --> 01:30:10.880
or where I was going to end up next, where

1184
01:30:10.880 --> 01:30:12.359
I was going to work next, where I was going

1185
01:30:12.439 --> 01:30:13.039
to live next.

1186
01:30:14.560 --> 01:30:14.760
You know.

1187
01:30:15.159 --> 01:30:18.319
It was there's always that kind of quite uncertainty in

1188
01:30:18.479 --> 01:30:18.880
my life.

1189
01:30:20.159 --> 01:30:21.720
Instability. Definitely.

1190
01:30:22.159 --> 01:30:27.920
I was unstable in lots of different ways. I'm not

1191
01:30:28.600 --> 01:30:30.359
I'm not being a victim. I'm just saying that's just

1192
01:30:30.439 --> 01:30:33.840
how it was, and I didn't seem to know how

1193
01:30:33.880 --> 01:30:34.520
to get out of that.

1194
01:30:34.920 --> 01:30:38.079
It's almost that that was.

1195
01:30:39.960 --> 01:30:45.000
In built, and I guess A lot of that would

1196
01:30:45.000 --> 01:30:47.600
have been because of when I was a little, very little,

1197
01:30:48.039 --> 01:30:52.000
we moved around a lot. I had stability at the

1198
01:30:52.039 --> 01:30:57.640
age of seven to the age of fifteen, I mean

1199
01:30:58.279 --> 01:31:03.239
we still moved so the ASA one, two, three, three

1200
01:31:03.319 --> 01:31:07.800
times four times, so I still moved four times in

1201
01:31:07.840 --> 01:31:10.720
those years. But there was a period between nine and

1202
01:31:12.319 --> 01:31:17.079
fifteen for six years where I stayed in the same place,

1203
01:31:18.520 --> 01:31:22.880
and until I moved here, that was the longest time

1204
01:31:22.960 --> 01:31:28.720
I ever lived anywhere six years. I've lived in places

1205
01:31:28.760 --> 01:31:32.760
for four years, three years, two years, a year, a

1206
01:31:32.840 --> 01:31:38.199
few months, and so yeah, I've got Sometimes when I

1207
01:31:38.319 --> 01:31:41.960
was younger, and maybe I was my brain was a

1208
01:31:42.000 --> 01:31:49.479
little bit too active to fall asleep, I would recall

1209
01:31:51.319 --> 01:31:56.560
all the different places I lived by year, So I

1210
01:31:56.640 --> 01:31:59.640
mean that's possibly why I remember. I'd recall all the

1211
01:31:59.640 --> 01:32:10.680
different places in order that I worked, and that used

1212
01:32:10.680 --> 01:32:13.439
to send me to sleep sometimes, so and I do

1213
01:32:13.560 --> 01:32:18.800
this in my twenties and my thirties. I don't know

1214
01:32:18.880 --> 01:32:21.039
how many times I moved around when I was very young.

1215
01:32:23.359 --> 01:32:25.079
A lot is going to be the answer to that,

1216
01:32:25.319 --> 01:32:28.399
but I don't know how many. So there's no stability,

1217
01:32:28.560 --> 01:32:35.279
really like proper stability. Until I was seven, and then

1218
01:32:35.800 --> 01:32:38.199
the stability was there because even though we moved a

1219
01:32:38.239 --> 01:32:40.920
couple of times, it was all of us together, so

1220
01:32:41.039 --> 01:32:49.359
it was it wasn't unstable from that perspective. Yeah, I

1221
01:32:49.439 --> 01:32:53.279
think the only stable thing I had up.

1222
01:32:53.239 --> 01:32:53.880
To the age of.

1223
01:32:57.039 --> 01:33:01.520
Fourteen whatever was my older brother, the one just a

1224
01:33:01.560 --> 01:33:03.880
bit older than me, because I was with him the

1225
01:33:04.000 --> 01:33:08.720
whole time. We we was in foster care together for

1226
01:33:09.359 --> 01:33:11.399
a year and a half or whatever when I was

1227
01:33:11.479 --> 01:33:15.640
six months old till about two, so we lived together

1228
01:33:16.840 --> 01:33:20.439
before that. Then we lived together just you know, my

1229
01:33:20.520 --> 01:33:23.520
older brother always stayed with my nano granddad, and then

1230
01:33:24.439 --> 01:33:28.319
we moved away. We got took away to Newcastle, then

1231
01:33:28.319 --> 01:33:30.199
we lived in the colored children's homes, and then we

1232
01:33:30.319 --> 01:33:32.439
came back and ended up living with my dad. And

1233
01:33:34.000 --> 01:33:37.520
so he was the only real consistent other than my

1234
01:33:37.600 --> 01:33:41.239
older brother who became consistent in my life from the

1235
01:33:41.359 --> 01:33:45.600
age of and he was there for the first six months,

1236
01:33:45.640 --> 01:33:47.319
but I didn't know anyone did like at that point

1237
01:33:49.560 --> 01:33:52.840
from their I'm sure there was a bond six months.

1238
01:33:52.880 --> 01:33:55.920
I probably would have bonded with him as in emotionally

1239
01:33:56.000 --> 01:33:58.640
known who he was because I see him every day,

1240
01:33:58.640 --> 01:34:04.079
I suppose. But from the age of two onwards, so

1241
01:34:04.399 --> 01:34:11.520
for five years of age two to fifteen. So what's

1242
01:34:11.560 --> 01:34:20.199
that thirteen years so thirteen years and fifteen years, so

1243
01:34:20.319 --> 01:34:22.479
thirteen years of my oldest brother, fifteen years.

1244
01:34:22.399 --> 01:34:24.880
My younger brother got my other older brother, but not

1245
01:34:24.960 --> 01:34:30.920
the oldest Other than my dad and my.

1246
01:34:31.079 --> 01:34:35.399
Nan, they were the only two people. But it's differently

1247
01:34:35.399 --> 01:34:38.399
because I lived with them. I lived with my dad

1248
01:34:38.560 --> 01:34:44.439
for seven to fifteen, and I did live with him

1249
01:34:44.720 --> 01:34:51.199
a few times after that for a short period. I

1250
01:34:51.359 --> 01:34:54.479
never lived with my nan. I just stay over sometimes,

1251
01:34:54.520 --> 01:34:57.720
but I'd never lived with her, but i'd see her regularly,

1252
01:35:02.760 --> 01:35:05.119
so I just I remember, Yeah, I just got these

1253
01:35:05.159 --> 01:35:10.439
little memories. Sometimes I do get modeled up. I do

1254
01:35:10.920 --> 01:35:14.840
think that, oh wait a minute, that's that that was

1255
01:35:14.880 --> 01:35:19.039
a different year, and like thinking about something that happened

1256
01:35:19.079 --> 01:35:24.560
over Christmas, and I'm thinking that wasn't me, that's someone

1257
01:35:24.600 --> 01:35:29.840
else's memory. I don't remember doing it. I've never flown

1258
01:35:29.880 --> 01:35:37.319
a plane, weird, so I have there's also jobs looking

1259
01:35:37.439 --> 01:35:40.920
at that, looking at the music, so there's connection with

1260
01:35:41.000 --> 01:35:43.840
the music and the years. I don't have that anymore

1261
01:35:44.920 --> 01:35:47.920
because I have lost track of the music.

1262
01:35:48.039 --> 01:35:53.840
Today I have I feel a little bit sad about that, but.

1263
01:35:56.239 --> 01:35:59.399
You know, I just there's so many albums that I

1264
01:35:59.479 --> 01:36:05.319
do listen to, so many songs from the past, you know,

1265
01:36:05.560 --> 01:36:09.359
my favorite song collection. There's so many that would take

1266
01:36:10.800 --> 01:36:13.560
I reckon. If I added continuously added songs that I.

1267
01:36:13.640 --> 01:36:15.640
Really like, I could sit for.

1268
01:36:17.880 --> 01:36:22.600
Possibly twenty four hours, if not more, listening to different songs,

1269
01:36:22.880 --> 01:36:29.319
all of them that I love. Possibly, I don't know,

1270
01:36:29.800 --> 01:36:30.279
I'm kind of.

1271
01:36:30.279 --> 01:36:30.840
Making that up.

1272
01:36:32.880 --> 01:36:35.399
But during that period there was a lot of music

1273
01:36:35.479 --> 01:36:39.479
connected so to the times that I remember when I

1274
01:36:39.560 --> 01:36:42.279
was in a chip shop, I used to go in

1275
01:36:42.359 --> 01:36:46.359
in the afternoon, going a.

1276
01:36:46.359 --> 01:36:47.239
Bit early.

1277
01:36:49.359 --> 01:36:53.319
Because I used to enjoy being in there on my own,

1278
01:36:54.560 --> 01:36:59.760
and I'll be preparing the kitchen. Maybe doing this is

1279
01:36:59.800 --> 01:37:02.800
an early afternoon, So I go in a little bit

1280
01:37:02.840 --> 01:37:07.560
early in the afternoon and just take my time. And

1281
01:37:07.960 --> 01:37:09.520
I don't know what it was I was doing, but

1282
01:37:09.560 --> 01:37:14.119
I was probably just getting getting the fryers on, you know,

1283
01:37:14.439 --> 01:37:19.039
setting up for the evening, the evening shift. And I'd

1284
01:37:19.119 --> 01:37:22.560
listened to I had a tape recorder downstairs, and I

1285
01:37:22.680 --> 01:37:27.239
had two tapes, and they were both the first two

1286
01:37:27.399 --> 01:37:35.520
albums from Madonna. I loved Papa Don't Preach True Blue. Sorry,

1287
01:37:35.560 --> 01:37:39.960
the album True Blue and my two favorite albums Versus

1288
01:37:40.079 --> 01:37:45.000
True Blue and Like a Prayer. They are are two

1289
01:37:45.119 --> 01:37:49.199
favorite Madonna albums. But during that period I quite liked

1290
01:37:49.239 --> 01:37:52.600
the first two albums that she did as well, Holiday

1291
01:37:53.840 --> 01:37:56.960
You Can Do. So that one subject like dancing a

1292
01:37:56.960 --> 01:37:59.479
little bit on my own, and so I remember that.

1293
01:37:59.600 --> 01:38:01.960
And there's other things like when I first moved above

1294
01:38:02.039 --> 01:38:07.600
the chip Shop, I was playing George Michael's first album

1295
01:38:07.920 --> 01:38:10.079
Faith was his album Faith?

1296
01:38:10.119 --> 01:38:10.920
I think it wasn't it?

1297
01:38:11.439 --> 01:38:11.800
So I was.

1298
01:38:12.119 --> 01:38:15.199
I was playing that album over and over again in

1299
01:38:15.359 --> 01:38:25.359
my kitchen, just little bits, little bits and bobs connected

1300
01:38:25.399 --> 01:38:35.720
to music. The Yeah, I'm trying to give an example. Now,

1301
01:38:35.720 --> 01:38:42.720
I can't think of any examples. Yeah, but there's there

1302
01:38:42.800 --> 01:38:43.520
are examples.

1303
01:38:43.960 --> 01:38:44.199
It is.

1304
01:38:45.560 --> 01:38:47.840
It's not necessarily going to pop up when I wanted to.

1305
01:38:49.560 --> 01:38:55.840
But if I was, for example, I don't know if I.

1306
01:38:55.920 --> 01:38:57.560
If you was, like, let's focus on the year two

1307
01:38:57.600 --> 01:39:04.920
thousand and five, straight way, Michael Jackson's album History came out,

1308
01:39:06.840 --> 01:39:08.239
so I would talk about that.

1309
01:39:09.960 --> 01:39:11.840
Was it two thousand and five or two thousand and four?

1310
01:39:11.880 --> 01:39:13.119
I think it was two thousand and five.

1311
01:39:14.640 --> 01:39:16.479
I was definitely listening to it in two thousand and

1312
01:39:16.520 --> 01:39:19.560
five anyway, and then we could say, well that was

1313
01:39:19.640 --> 01:39:23.760
the year, Yeah, it was two thousand and five, and

1314
01:39:23.880 --> 01:39:28.479
then I could say, okay, well I had I had

1315
01:39:28.560 --> 01:39:34.359
two girlfriends that year. I also went and worked at Butlin's.

1316
01:39:36.399 --> 01:39:40.359
And just going back through that year, I can remember

1317
01:39:40.479 --> 01:39:43.720
certain things that happened. I know remember where I was

1318
01:39:43.800 --> 01:39:48.000
living because I was living in one place. Then I

1319
01:39:48.039 --> 01:39:51.239
went to Butlan's. Then I come back and I was homeless,

1320
01:39:51.279 --> 01:39:55.239
didn't have anywhere to stay. But that was pretty much

1321
01:39:55.479 --> 01:40:01.479
the beginning of two thousand and six. So and the

1322
01:40:01.600 --> 01:40:03.800
only reason I went to Buttlings is because we were

1323
01:40:03.840 --> 01:40:07.199
being evicted. So I was evicted from the house. It

1324
01:40:07.319 --> 01:40:09.880
was a council house that my friend was living in

1325
01:40:10.119 --> 01:40:12.680
or council flat wherever it was, and he was being evicted.

1326
01:40:13.560 --> 01:40:18.239
Was it a council I can't remember. He had a

1327
01:40:18.279 --> 01:40:20.119
flat and a house. Anyway, I.

1328
01:40:21.840 --> 01:40:23.399
I had to get out of there, so I went

1329
01:40:23.439 --> 01:40:26.800
and moved. But I just went in to the job center,

1330
01:40:28.239 --> 01:40:29.800
like what am I going to do? Because I had

1331
01:40:29.880 --> 01:40:30.279
no job?

1332
01:40:32.600 --> 01:40:34.439
What am I going to do? It was like literally

1333
01:40:35.039 --> 01:40:36.479
he told me. I think he gave me about a

1334
01:40:36.520 --> 01:40:41.079
week's notice or five days. So we moved, Yeah, you have,

1335
01:40:41.239 --> 01:40:45.680
we have to be out in five days. He knew

1336
01:40:45.680 --> 01:40:46.039
about it.

1337
01:40:46.359 --> 01:40:51.199
He'd had the viction notice for about a month. So

1338
01:40:51.680 --> 01:40:54.920
I saw, So I went and I managed to. I

1339
01:40:54.960 --> 01:40:58.359
went into a job center and that is big signs.

1340
01:40:58.520 --> 01:41:03.239
Do you want to work at Buttling's? I laughed, but yeah, sure,

1341
01:41:06.560 --> 01:41:09.199
And then I thought I looked around as another jobs.

1342
01:41:09.840 --> 01:41:13.600
So I just well, there's other jobs, but nothing that

1343
01:41:13.800 --> 01:41:18.039
offered accommodation, because that was the problem. It's like, I

1344
01:41:18.239 --> 01:41:19.159
need somewhere to live.

1345
01:41:24.119 --> 01:41:26.960
And I said to I said, well, what's going on

1346
01:41:27.039 --> 01:41:31.800
with this Buttling's thing? They said, well, it's a holiday camp.

1347
01:41:31.800 --> 01:41:32.840
I said, no, I know what it is.

1348
01:41:33.960 --> 01:41:37.560
They said that, you know, there's music, they have families

1349
01:41:37.640 --> 01:41:39.760
go and have a holiday there. I said that I

1350
01:41:39.840 --> 01:41:45.000
already I'm not asking about the actual camp.

1351
01:41:45.119 --> 01:41:48.000
So what is it your What is it you're offering?

1352
01:41:48.560 --> 01:41:52.600
It's said, we offer entertainment variety. There's pubs, there's restaurants,

1353
01:41:53.319 --> 01:41:57.079
there's a swim pool. WAS like, no, it's like it's

1354
01:41:57.119 --> 01:42:00.279
trying to sell me a tickets to go going, is it?

1355
01:42:00.960 --> 01:42:01.000
No?

1356
01:42:01.199 --> 01:42:04.039
No, wait a minute, what what are you here for?

1357
01:42:04.760 --> 01:42:09.800
He said, I'm getting paid. I work for Buttling's. I said, okay,

1358
01:42:11.319 --> 01:42:13.680
how can I structure this question in a way that

1359
01:42:13.720 --> 01:42:18.079
you're going to understand it? I said, what what's the

1360
01:42:18.119 --> 01:42:21.399
big signs for? He said, that's so that people know

1361
01:42:21.560 --> 01:42:24.880
that we're here that are a bit further away.

1362
01:42:26.359 --> 01:42:27.720
He didn't say that that is funny.

1363
01:42:28.600 --> 01:42:30.520
Why the big signs ask for people that are further

1364
01:42:30.560 --> 01:42:31.279
away can see it?

1365
01:42:32.239 --> 01:42:36.359
And he said there's jobs. Do you want a job?

1366
01:42:36.600 --> 01:42:39.359
Do you want a job? And I said, I don't know.

1367
01:42:40.199 --> 01:42:43.000
I mean the problem I've got is got nowhere to

1368
01:42:43.079 --> 01:42:46.279
live in five days, and if I do get a job,

1369
01:42:46.560 --> 01:42:48.079
I have to work for a month before I get

1370
01:42:48.079 --> 01:42:48.520
any money.

1371
01:42:50.039 --> 01:42:51.760
And he said, oh, but this is this is a

1372
01:42:51.840 --> 01:42:53.239
good situation. I said why.

1373
01:42:54.079 --> 01:42:56.600
He said, you don't have to sign off because I

1374
01:42:56.760 --> 01:42:59.520
was temporarily unemployed. Then he said you don't have to

1375
01:42:59.560 --> 01:43:01.159
sign off to do this. This is part of the

1376
01:43:01.359 --> 01:43:04.840
unemployment program. I said really.

1377
01:43:05.000 --> 01:43:09.920
He said yeah. So you go to Buttling's in Bogna, Regis.

1378
01:43:10.920 --> 01:43:14.560
You can work, You still get your unemployment, you get

1379
01:43:14.640 --> 01:43:19.800
extra twenty quid on top, you get fed. There's a

1380
01:43:19.880 --> 01:43:23.000
restaurant which you get fed or canteen, get fed three

1381
01:43:23.079 --> 01:43:27.279
times a day. You get a big discount on drinks,

1382
01:43:30.600 --> 01:43:33.600
and you don't have to pay for any accommodation. You

1383
01:43:33.640 --> 01:43:37.079
get accommodation, have to share a bed or bedroom rather sorry,

1384
01:43:37.680 --> 01:43:38.479
with someone else.

1385
01:43:39.840 --> 01:43:41.760
So there's two people in a not a.

1386
01:43:41.800 --> 01:43:46.199
Very particularly big room, in fact, probably about the size

1387
01:43:46.239 --> 01:43:49.760
of this room, maybe a little bit smaller than this

1388
01:43:49.920 --> 01:43:54.039
room actually, And I said, I didn't have a lot

1389
01:43:54.079 --> 01:44:00.479
of options at that point. So yeah, so I had

1390
01:44:00.479 --> 01:44:02.159
to fill a form in it. I had to do

1391
01:44:02.239 --> 01:44:06.920
a questionnaire and like to test my intelligence. And I

1392
01:44:06.960 --> 01:44:09.760
remember when I handed it in and fireworks went off.

1393
01:44:09.800 --> 01:44:13.199
I said, Wow, you're the most intelligent person we've ever

1394
01:44:13.279 --> 01:44:17.520
seen it. Ever, how come you're not teaching in a university?

1395
01:44:20.159 --> 01:44:23.399
And that didn't happen.

1396
01:44:24.000 --> 01:44:28.159
So I just thought, I said, well, what kind of

1397
01:44:28.199 --> 01:44:30.880
work can you do? I said, what's available?

1398
01:44:32.960 --> 01:44:35.560
And it kind of broke down what I should what

1399
01:44:35.680 --> 01:44:38.840
I would have done. If I had looked at longer.

1400
01:44:38.880 --> 01:44:44.560
Further picture, the bigger picture, the more advanced picture, the future,

1401
01:44:46.000 --> 01:44:48.760
I would have chosen something that I wouldn't have disliked doing.

1402
01:44:50.680 --> 01:44:54.720
But I had experience working in the bar, and they

1403
01:44:54.960 --> 01:44:56.560
saw it as soon as they saw that acts. I

1404
01:44:56.560 --> 01:44:58.960
had to film a CV in and that they.

1405
01:44:58.840 --> 01:45:00.520
Said, okay, well you can work in a bar. Then

1406
01:45:01.880 --> 01:45:03.720
I didn't realize it was going to be the world's

1407
01:45:03.720 --> 01:45:09.800
busiest bar. And I've never I don't think I could

1408
01:45:09.880 --> 01:45:11.680
ever work anywhere with a bar that busy.

1409
01:45:13.039 --> 01:45:15.439
And I've been in bars. These these were like.

1410
01:45:18.000 --> 01:45:24.720
Thousands of people, you know, in this massive, massive hall venue.

1411
01:45:25.239 --> 01:45:31.640
There was like three bars and the show it was

1412
01:45:31.640 --> 01:45:35.479
a show on and there was hundreds.

1413
01:45:35.079 --> 01:45:38.600
Of tables, and there's people, families, and there was literally

1414
01:45:38.760 --> 01:45:42.520
it was non stop from the beginning of the evening

1415
01:45:43.000 --> 01:45:46.000
to the end. There was never The only breaks we

1416
01:45:46.079 --> 01:45:47.359
got is when we were allowed to have a break.

1417
01:45:47.880 --> 01:45:51.399
There was no standing around, no waiting. It was constant.

1418
01:45:52.359 --> 01:45:54.000
I mean, the amount of money that would have taken

1419
01:45:54.079 --> 01:45:55.279
would have been huge.

1420
01:45:57.319 --> 01:45:58.039
So I.

1421
01:46:01.039 --> 01:46:05.840
I said, okay, really I probably should have been better

1422
01:46:05.920 --> 01:46:11.119
off going and doing a cleaning becoming like cleaning the chalets.

1423
01:46:11.600 --> 01:46:16.279
But I had a little no had I wait a minute,

1424
01:46:17.239 --> 01:46:19.920
this is two thousand and five, Yes, I had. I'd

1425
01:46:19.960 --> 01:46:25.600
had a little test of doing that. In nineteen eighty nine,

1426
01:46:27.039 --> 01:46:30.640
I cleaned caravans for a little while and it was

1427
01:46:30.760 --> 01:46:32.680
kind of the same process. You know, you've got to

1428
01:46:32.760 --> 01:46:35.439
limits the time to do it, and you've got to

1429
01:46:35.960 --> 01:46:38.319
it's got to be kind of perfect, and.

1430
01:46:39.920 --> 01:46:43.079
It's very hard work. You know, if you ever.

1431
01:46:43.039 --> 01:46:49.840
Go anywhere that has a chalet or a caravan. I

1432
01:46:49.880 --> 01:46:51.560
don't know what I was I was going to sort

1433
01:46:51.600 --> 01:46:53.319
of say, just think about the people that have to

1434
01:46:53.359 --> 01:46:56.159
clean it. I'm not sure where I'm going with that,

1435
01:46:56.319 --> 01:46:59.840
but it's hard. It's really hard. It's not easy to

1436
01:47:01.079 --> 01:47:03.840
very difficult job. It kind of put me off.

1437
01:47:05.640 --> 01:47:10.920
Ah, I just had an interruption there. There's bark dogs.

1438
01:47:10.720 --> 01:47:13.439
Barking, so it sounded like someone was knocking on the door,

1439
01:47:13.800 --> 01:47:14.479
but they wasn't.

1440
01:47:16.079 --> 01:47:19.119
And I can't remember what I was talking about, but yeah,

1441
01:47:20.720 --> 01:47:24.239
that's kind of how I was saying about buttlings and

1442
01:47:24.439 --> 01:47:32.680
caravans or something. I It's almost like I've got things

1443
01:47:32.800 --> 01:47:37.039
mapped in my brain.

1444
01:47:41.439 --> 01:47:49.800
And yeah, because things would changing so often back then,

1445
01:47:50.880 --> 01:47:54.520
I've kind of compartmentalized them into like.

1446
01:47:54.640 --> 01:47:58.560
Little little flags or little arrows to different bits.

1447
01:47:58.640 --> 01:47:58.800
You know.

1448
01:48:00.399 --> 01:48:04.279
Since I've been living here, this is probably the most

1449
01:48:05.600 --> 01:48:10.479
the most stable. Maybe not emotionally, but it's the most

1450
01:48:11.560 --> 01:48:14.439
It's the first place I've ever lived for ten years,

1451
01:48:15.079 --> 01:48:20.000
never lived in the same building or the same premises

1452
01:48:20.039 --> 01:48:20.640
for ten years.

1453
01:48:20.680 --> 01:48:26.880
Ever in my life. So this is the first, which

1454
01:48:27.039 --> 01:48:28.039
means some of.

1455
01:48:28.039 --> 01:48:32.359
The stuff the last ten years has become very muddled,

1456
01:48:32.359 --> 01:48:33.920
a little bit, a bit mixed together.

1457
01:48:35.439 --> 01:48:40.359
So I haven't had that separation that, you know, because

1458
01:48:40.359 --> 01:48:41.119
I remember, like.

1459
01:48:43.359 --> 01:48:49.319
Two thousand and fifteen when I moved in it. I

1460
01:48:49.439 --> 01:48:53.560
remember that period, and I remember I broke my wrist

1461
01:48:53.640 --> 01:48:56.119
falling out of the bath, and there was a few

1462
01:48:56.239 --> 01:48:58.119
you know. I remember the first night I slept in

1463
01:48:58.239 --> 01:49:01.000
the bedroom, all I had was a bed.

1464
01:49:01.600 --> 01:49:06.800
I had no All I had when I moved here

1465
01:49:08.159 --> 01:49:14.239
was a bed and a bag of clothes and a chair.

1466
01:49:14.760 --> 01:49:15.119
That was it.

1467
01:49:16.199 --> 01:49:25.159
That was pretty much my entire belongings really, which was

1468
01:49:25.199 --> 01:49:28.960
a bit weird at age forty five. Well I was

1469
01:49:29.039 --> 01:49:33.159
forty four at the time, forty four, so like it's

1470
01:49:33.199 --> 01:49:38.159
not a lot of belonging, did it. But I had

1471
01:49:38.199 --> 01:49:41.319
to check a lot of stuff out from the place,

1472
01:49:41.800 --> 01:49:45.680
including clothes because it was moldy, so I had it

1473
01:49:45.840 --> 01:49:47.840
was just horrible when the place I lived before this,

1474
01:49:48.960 --> 01:49:51.560
A lot of stuff I'd had to check out and

1475
01:49:51.680 --> 01:49:53.319
other stuff I just didn't want to bring with me.

1476
01:49:53.399 --> 01:49:59.720
I wanted to like a fresh start. I brought a goldfish,

1477
01:50:00.239 --> 01:50:06.960
definitely put the goldfish. Unfortunately, they yeah, they didn't, so

1478
01:50:07.039 --> 01:50:09.439
they didn't survive the journey. They did survive the journey,

1479
01:50:09.520 --> 01:50:15.239
but they Yeah, that's a sad. I promised them to

1480
01:50:15.279 --> 01:50:19.319
get them a big, big bowl, like a proper big tank.

1481
01:50:19.960 --> 01:50:21.239
I didn't stick to that promise.

1482
01:50:22.520 --> 01:50:29.880
And they needed they needed a tank.

1483
01:50:31.159 --> 01:50:34.720
Because those gold those goldfish bowls, you know, the plastic ones.

1484
01:50:35.039 --> 01:50:35.880
They're okay, but.

1485
01:50:37.600 --> 01:50:43.359
Not enough room for fifty goldfish. I didn't really have

1486
01:50:43.520 --> 01:50:44.399
fifty goldfish.

1487
01:50:44.479 --> 01:50:48.039
Come on. So, yeah, I just remember certain things. I

1488
01:50:48.079 --> 01:50:51.439
remember certain years, like when I fractured my back. I

1489
01:50:51.520 --> 01:50:54.159
remember when that happened. That was the.

1490
01:50:56.079 --> 01:51:01.319
Literally a week after got Vinnie. I remember the month that,

1491
01:51:02.720 --> 01:51:07.399
you know. I remember certain things, certain times where big

1492
01:51:07.479 --> 01:51:16.880
things happen, which I'm sure most people do also, I

1493
01:51:16.880 --> 01:51:20.439
suppose because I've got dates on my podcasts, I can

1494
01:51:20.520 --> 01:51:24.399
sometimes go back and some of the images and some

1495
01:51:24.560 --> 01:51:30.560
are like just to remind myself. Oh, you know, if

1496
01:51:30.600 --> 01:51:33.279
I what's the first date I did the first time

1497
01:51:33.319 --> 01:51:34.520
I did and let me boy to sleep?

1498
01:51:34.560 --> 01:51:36.439
What was the very first date? And I can go

1499
01:51:36.560 --> 01:51:39.159
back and find that date. It was I think March.

1500
01:51:39.039 --> 01:51:45.520
Twenty eighteen, so it was like, okay, which is crazy. Really,

1501
01:51:48.000 --> 01:51:50.319
three years, I'll be ten years doing to let Me

1502
01:51:50.399 --> 01:51:54.359
Boy to Sleep. Next year it'll be twenty years of

1503
01:51:54.479 --> 01:52:02.079
making podcasts and videos online. Twenty years. You think i'd

1504
01:52:02.119 --> 01:52:05.640
have an audience by now, wudn't you? By keep going?

1505
01:52:06.319 --> 01:52:10.560
I'll keep at it so anyway, thanks Sean. I hope

1506
01:52:10.600 --> 01:52:13.920
I've answered these questions. It's been two hours so far,

1507
01:52:14.800 --> 01:52:20.960
so Jackie says, Tammy, I agree. I love that Jason

1508
01:52:21.079 --> 01:52:23.680
is so candid with his thoughts, and I love his awareness,

1509
01:52:24.199 --> 01:52:25.399
his inherent kindness.

1510
01:52:25.960 --> 01:52:29.479
Oh, thank you. Let's not got too crazy. This is

1511
01:52:29.560 --> 01:52:31.560
not a cult. O carry on.

1512
01:52:31.760 --> 01:52:34.560
You can say nice things. There's never a trust me.

1513
01:52:34.640 --> 01:52:36.960
I never get bored with hearing nice things said about me.

1514
01:52:37.600 --> 01:52:39.640
That's the one thing I will never get bored of.

1515
01:52:39.720 --> 01:52:43.439
That if you send me nice words saying how I'm

1516
01:52:43.520 --> 01:52:46.880
helping you, and not once have I ever seen a

1517
01:52:46.960 --> 01:52:51.239
message and thought I'll shut up, I'll not you against

1518
01:52:51.319 --> 01:52:54.600
being nice. No, I can't get enough of that.

1519
01:52:54.760 --> 01:52:55.159
Honestly.

1520
01:52:57.079 --> 01:53:03.399
It probably says something about my need for acceptance, possibly, but.

1521
01:53:03.479 --> 01:53:07.720
Yeah, it's not. It's nice to feel appreciated.

1522
01:53:08.800 --> 01:53:12.720
I think I don't feel appreciated in real life, so

1523
01:53:12.800 --> 01:53:18.119
it's nice that I mean, I know this is real life,

1524
01:53:18.319 --> 01:53:27.880
but technically it's kind of I suppose it'd be a

1525
01:53:27.920 --> 01:53:30.359
little bit like beyond a radio, wouldn't it being a

1526
01:53:30.479 --> 01:53:35.000
radio presenter, which is possibly what I should have done.

1527
01:53:36.039 --> 01:53:39.199
Maybe that was my calling to be a radio presenter,

1528
01:53:39.399 --> 01:53:43.479
just chatting over these years.

1529
01:53:43.520 --> 01:53:48.239
I could have done that, and maybe maybe I still could.

1530
01:53:48.439 --> 01:53:51.840
I don't know, I don't know. It might not be,

1531
01:53:52.119 --> 01:53:54.520
it might be too late. Maybe this is kind of

1532
01:53:54.600 --> 01:53:57.640
my version. This is the this today's version of a

1533
01:53:57.760 --> 01:54:02.880
radio show. Maybe don't know about you, but if he's

1534
01:54:02.920 --> 01:54:06.039
not discussing himself or his day to day impressions, I

1535
01:54:06.199 --> 01:54:10.520
get bored. Oh so bored, and being that bored is

1536
01:54:10.600 --> 01:54:13.840
not conducive to sleeping. What do you think about that?

1537
01:54:16.199 --> 01:54:17.640
What do you think about that? Then? What do you

1538
01:54:17.680 --> 01:54:22.119
think about that? Hey? Hey, JJ, if you see this,

1539
01:54:22.640 --> 01:54:24.800
why do you think this is? Yep?

1540
01:54:24.880 --> 01:54:26.720
I'm going to have to post this in your next

1541
01:54:26.880 --> 01:54:31.359
Q and A. I hope I can keep up. Actually

1542
01:54:32.520 --> 01:54:37.000
I posted it. I posted that. I realized I posted

1543
01:54:37.039 --> 01:54:42.359
that into the Q and A. Any questions for this Friday?

1544
01:54:43.079 --> 01:54:43.239
I do.

1545
01:54:43.399 --> 01:54:45.199
I will do that if I see a thing that's

1546
01:54:45.279 --> 01:54:48.119
kind of asking a question somewhere else, I'll post it

1547
01:54:48.199 --> 01:54:51.720
otherwise I forget if it's sort of somewhere.

1548
01:54:51.399 --> 01:55:00.680
Else, Well, I don't know. It's we're all different, we're

1549
01:55:00.680 --> 01:55:03.680
all like different things. I mean, some people would.

1550
01:55:05.359 --> 01:55:08.039
Find it really good just to hear me counting down.

1551
01:55:08.840 --> 01:55:13.359
So it's like count down for one thousand, like thousand,

1552
01:55:17.199 --> 01:55:23.439
nine hundred and ninety nine, nine hundred and ninety eight.

1553
01:55:27.159 --> 01:55:31.000
I think there's a few of you thinking, well, not now,

1554
01:55:31.119 --> 01:55:34.880
but like, is he going to continue? How long is

1555
01:55:34.920 --> 01:55:37.840
he going to continue for? Is he just going to

1556
01:55:37.920 --> 01:55:44.359
go down to maybe nine hundred and ninety or to

1557
01:55:44.479 --> 01:55:48.720
keep going, keep pushing it and go all the way down,

1558
01:55:48.800 --> 01:55:51.840
all the way down to one, which will take probably

1559
01:55:51.920 --> 01:55:52.479
two hours.

1560
01:55:54.359 --> 01:55:55.439
But no, I'm not going to do that.

1561
01:55:55.560 --> 01:55:58.520
But some people would like that, Some people would find

1562
01:55:58.560 --> 01:56:03.039
that useful, and different people like different things.

1563
01:56:04.720 --> 01:56:06.239
I do realize.

1564
01:56:08.520 --> 01:56:12.680
That the problem we've talked about myself is well, I

1565
01:56:12.760 --> 01:56:14.079
have no problem talking about myself.

1566
01:56:14.560 --> 01:56:14.960
I love it.

1567
01:56:15.079 --> 01:56:21.079
But when it's about my day to day life, it's

1568
01:56:21.079 --> 01:56:24.279
not always easier to do because there's nothing going on

1569
01:56:25.119 --> 01:56:30.800
a lot of time. So like with the Q and

1570
01:56:30.840 --> 01:56:32.760
a Friday, it makes it a little bit easier because

1571
01:56:32.760 --> 01:56:38.680
I've got something to talk about, and I'll still manage

1572
01:56:38.720 --> 01:56:40.680
to talk about my day to day life as well

1573
01:56:41.159 --> 01:56:45.640
during this, but there's not a huge amount going on

1574
01:56:46.119 --> 01:56:48.960
at the moment, and.

1575
01:56:50.640 --> 01:56:53.640
I do try and keep things positive. So if this.

1576
01:56:55.239 --> 01:56:58.600
Things something's there's things that aren't so great going on,

1577
01:56:59.039 --> 01:57:02.079
I don't like to really talk about that stuff because

1578
01:57:03.000 --> 01:57:09.399
I like to think this is a fairly I don't know,

1579
01:57:10.079 --> 01:57:14.439
just a nice a nice space. I mean, not everything

1580
01:57:14.520 --> 01:57:16.760
I say is going to be like super positive, but

1581
01:57:16.880 --> 01:57:27.880
I try to keep it light. Being bored, yeah, I

1582
01:57:28.000 --> 01:57:32.479
think I don't know why that is, Why being bored

1583
01:57:33.239 --> 01:57:38.079
doesn't send you to sleep. I'm not sure well that

1584
01:57:38.239 --> 01:57:40.119
that type of boring and.

1585
01:57:42.520 --> 01:57:44.680
We're all different. I think that's just what it is.

1586
01:57:46.479 --> 01:57:51.000
There's going to be some people who've listened to my

1587
01:57:51.119 --> 01:57:52.279
recordings and think.

1588
01:57:54.159 --> 01:57:58.960
Like we're just just talking. What's the point in this?

1589
01:58:00.039 --> 01:58:01.439
Yet they may like the.

1590
01:58:02.920 --> 01:58:09.960
Sleep hypnosis recordings I do, and some people absolutely can't

1591
01:58:10.079 --> 01:58:13.399
stand the whisper stuff, and other people prefer the Whisper

1592
01:58:13.439 --> 01:58:18.479
stuff it some people, really there's a few people that

1593
01:58:18.640 --> 01:58:24.760
really like the the boring, the was it bedtime, storytime

1594
01:58:25.159 --> 01:58:32.800
things that I've done. It's just everyone's different. Than they

1595
01:58:33.279 --> 01:58:36.279
some people like the I've had quite a bit of

1596
01:58:36.880 --> 01:58:41.039
positive her a lot, and I a fair amount of

1597
01:58:41.239 --> 01:58:44.159
positive feedback for the let Me Bore Your Pain Away.

1598
01:58:47.840 --> 01:58:49.880
That was kind of a bit of a passion project.

1599
01:58:50.000 --> 01:58:53.359
To be fair, I haven't done any this week. I

1600
01:58:53.479 --> 01:58:59.840
haven't felt it. I just haven't haven't it. I mean,

1601
01:59:00.039 --> 01:59:02.119
went to do a recording, I said on Wednesday, and

1602
01:59:02.199 --> 01:59:06.359
I'm just looking just there's no words.

1603
01:59:07.239 --> 01:59:09.520
There was words, but they weren't words I wanted to say.

1604
01:59:10.560 --> 01:59:13.479
I just wasn't in the mood.

1605
01:59:15.000 --> 01:59:18.119
So when I'm like that, there's no point me making

1606
01:59:18.119 --> 01:59:21.279
a recording because I'm never going to force myself to

1607
01:59:21.359 --> 01:59:22.760
do it because otherwise, if.

1608
01:59:22.640 --> 01:59:22.920
I'm not.

1609
01:59:24.920 --> 01:59:27.239
Enjoying it, or if I'm not relaxed, I think that's

1610
01:59:27.319 --> 01:59:28.279
going to come across.

1611
01:59:30.079 --> 01:59:33.199
I think. I don't know, maybe not.

1612
01:59:39.560 --> 01:59:41.640
So you won't have to post this to the next

1613
01:59:41.760 --> 01:59:46.560
Q and A because you we've done it today. So

1614
01:59:46.680 --> 01:59:49.560
I don't really know what the answer is. We're all different,

1615
01:59:49.640 --> 01:59:53.319
we all just like different things. I did do a

1616
01:59:53.439 --> 01:59:57.880
survey ages ago, like a little questionnaire what do you prefer?

1617
01:59:58.840 --> 02:00:01.800
And it was different but different people.

1618
02:00:02.680 --> 02:00:04.840
No one, There was no real.

1619
02:00:06.960 --> 02:00:08.840
I suppose to let Me Boy to Sleep was the

1620
02:00:09.000 --> 02:00:15.479
unanimous one because I think that I think that the

1621
02:00:15.560 --> 02:00:19.720
majority of people that come to this group have come

1622
02:00:19.880 --> 02:00:23.319
through the let me boy to Sleep, not necessarily through

1623
02:00:23.359 --> 02:00:27.000
the chronic pain or this, or through the stress and

1624
02:00:27.079 --> 02:00:31.119
pain relief, or through the stop smoking or whatever other

1625
02:00:31.199 --> 02:00:33.399
ones I've done, becase I've done lots of different podcasts,

1626
02:00:35.279 --> 02:00:42.640
thousands of recordings. I've done thousands. It's ridiculous really, So

1627
02:00:44.840 --> 02:00:49.880
you yeah, I'd like to get that feedback. I'd like

1628
02:00:50.000 --> 02:00:55.039
to just it'd be nice if if there was a

1629
02:00:55.119 --> 02:01:03.039
way of just finding out what everyone likes. But then

1630
02:01:03.119 --> 02:01:08.079
the problem with that is if I start to try

1631
02:01:08.159 --> 02:01:14.359
and change what I'm doing to suit every individual request

1632
02:01:14.479 --> 02:01:20.840
or need, I will be then micromanaging myself, and then

1633
02:01:20.840 --> 02:01:24.680
I wouldn't want to do it anymore. I've been micromanaged before,

1634
02:01:24.960 --> 02:01:25.840
and it's horrible.

1635
02:01:26.479 --> 02:01:27.319
It's like just.

1636
02:01:29.600 --> 02:01:33.960
Constantly like, no, do like that, do it? You're doing it,

1637
02:01:34.039 --> 02:01:37.399
You're doing it. It's like no, there needs to be

1638
02:01:37.520 --> 02:01:44.800
freedom there, and I don't want to do something that

1639
02:01:44.880 --> 02:01:52.119
I don't like doing. So you know, there was a

1640
02:01:52.239 --> 02:01:57.119
podcast that I did in I think it was during

1641
02:01:57.399 --> 02:02:06.880
kind of lockdown period, okay, and it was what was

1642
02:02:06.920 --> 02:02:11.720
it called relaxation for stress and panic attacks. I did

1643
02:02:11.880 --> 02:02:14.520
a lot of recordings. I lived every day I was

1644
02:02:14.600 --> 02:02:19.079
doing them, and I ended up doing I've now got

1645
02:02:19.119 --> 02:02:24.279
two hundred and thirty nine, and there's a few recent

1646
02:02:24.399 --> 02:02:27.560
years at most of them, like two hundred and twenty three,

1647
02:02:29.399 --> 02:02:33.720
two hundred and twenty nine, two hundred and thirty, two hundred. Okay,

1648
02:02:33.800 --> 02:02:36.720
So two hundred and thirty was seventh of May twenty

1649
02:02:36.880 --> 02:02:41.600
twenty one. Okay, let's have a look at where number

1650
02:02:41.640 --> 02:02:52.439
one was. So May twenty twenty one, so I started, okay.

1651
02:02:52.279 --> 02:02:54.920
Right, I started it a long time before that, so.

1652
02:02:56.880 --> 02:03:05.039
Yeah, probably about two two thousand and fifteen, but but

1653
02:03:06.199 --> 02:03:09.319
I didn't really start getting into it until about twenty nineteen.

1654
02:03:10.560 --> 02:03:14.199
So I did number fifty six, fifty four, fifty three

1655
02:03:14.720 --> 02:03:18.520
in twenty nineteen, all the way up to I'm reading

1656
02:03:18.560 --> 02:03:20.319
this off the scream, just in case you think that

1657
02:03:20.359 --> 02:03:26.520
I'm remembering it all. And but that was October September,

1658
02:03:26.520 --> 02:03:31.199
October December. But then number seventy in twenty twenty, so

1659
02:03:31.359 --> 02:03:39.159
seventy and we know, you know what happened in twenty twenty,

1660
02:03:40.279 --> 02:03:47.800
So number seventy all the way up to I mean honestly,

1661
02:03:47.960 --> 02:03:48.439
BlimE me.

1662
02:03:54.439 --> 02:03:59.680
A lot. I did a lot so twoenty twenty.

1663
02:04:01.239 --> 02:04:08.039
Two thousand, right twenty ninth of December twenty twenty, from

1664
02:04:08.159 --> 02:04:11.760
number seventy to two hundred and eighteen seventy to two

1665
02:04:11.880 --> 02:04:12.640
hundred and eighteen.

1666
02:04:13.840 --> 02:04:17.520
And it was so regular as well.

1667
02:04:17.560 --> 02:04:23.399
It was quite regular, and I was doing just I

1668
02:04:23.439 --> 02:04:26.960
had this little microphone, lapel microphone, and I was making

1669
02:04:27.039 --> 02:04:30.159
recordings while I was pacing, not pacing in it like

1670
02:04:30.479 --> 02:04:33.159
a weird way, but just walking around. And I was

1671
02:04:33.680 --> 02:04:36.880
I was quite energetic. I was getting quite passionate about

1672
02:04:36.920 --> 02:04:40.239
what I was talking about. So there's a ninth of January,

1673
02:04:40.359 --> 02:04:47.159
twelfth of January, thirteenth, fourteenth, fifteenth, seventeenth, eighteenth, nineteenth, twenty fourth,

1674
02:04:47.359 --> 02:04:51.399
twenty fifth, twenty sixth, twenty seven, twenty eight, twenty nine,

1675
02:04:51.880 --> 02:04:57.600
thirty thirty, first of January, like nearly, it's like wow.

1676
02:04:58.159 --> 02:05:10.640
And in February the first, second, third, fourth, fifth, six, seven, eight, nine, twelve, thirteen, fifteen, sixteen, eighteen, nineteen,

1677
02:05:10.800 --> 02:05:16.279
twenty one, twenty four, twenty six, twenty seventh February.

1678
02:05:17.520 --> 02:05:21.319
So you know, I'm quite regularly.

1679
02:05:21.000 --> 02:05:26.920
Doing his recordings, and after a certain time I started

1680
02:05:26.960 --> 02:05:32.680
giving them names instead of just a number, I started

1681
02:05:32.720 --> 02:05:38.560
giving them. Yeah, the first one number eighty, I gave

1682
02:05:38.600 --> 02:05:42.840
it a name to Smiley Mirror twenty sixth of January

1683
02:05:42.880 --> 02:05:45.159
twenty twenty, and then.

1684
02:05:47.119 --> 02:05:48.079
Meaning purpose.

1685
02:05:51.960 --> 02:05:57.279
The next one web page ball or sock silly song

1686
02:05:58.960 --> 02:06:01.600
that was a good one, actually silly song thirty for

1687
02:06:01.720 --> 02:06:02.920
January twenty twenty.

1688
02:06:05.760 --> 02:06:06.079
I don't know.

1689
02:06:06.159 --> 02:06:09.439
I thought it was funny self worth and not me

1690
02:06:09.600 --> 02:06:11.479
saying it, but I think the actual podcast, do you

1691
02:06:11.600 --> 02:06:15.560
the recording is quite a good recording. If I remember

1692
02:06:15.640 --> 02:06:20.760
rightly it is over five years ago, then you've got

1693
02:06:20.880 --> 02:06:29.760
self worth, gratitude, drip focusing, bath floater. Oh I like

1694
02:06:29.880 --> 02:06:33.520
some of these titles. I'm not sure if I yeah,

1695
02:06:35.840 --> 02:06:41.720
it's anyone's guess what I was talking about. Magic, relaxation, mirror, hopelessness,

1696
02:06:42.520 --> 02:06:43.359
Is it true.

1697
02:06:45.319 --> 02:06:46.279
You're not broken?

1698
02:06:47.079 --> 02:06:56.600
Relaxation sessions, reassuring letter, self sabotage, relapse, noise, sensitivity, question,

1699
02:06:56.760 --> 02:07:05.279
automatic thinking, evict self prejud just blimey, hash be kind free, anxiety,

1700
02:07:06.479 --> 02:07:13.039
brain plasticity. That was January February twenty twenty, Send healing,

1701
02:07:13.520 --> 02:07:16.760
don't feel guilty for be and ill give attention to

1702
02:07:16.840 --> 02:07:22.760
mini me. Stress and anxiety are natural germs. That's one

1703
02:07:22.760 --> 02:07:26.359
about germs. That was twenty twenty March. I wonder what

1704
02:07:26.479 --> 02:07:26.760
made me.

1705
02:07:26.800 --> 02:07:30.319
Think about that? M I wonder.

1706
02:07:34.720 --> 02:07:35.000
So this.

1707
02:07:35.239 --> 02:07:37.279
I was doing this at the beginning of the year.

1708
02:07:42.239 --> 02:07:44.239
Something kicked in and I was like nearly every day

1709
02:07:44.840 --> 02:07:46.640
making a new one. And they would lasted for like

1710
02:07:46.800 --> 02:07:49.239
forty fifty minutes, some of them, some of them like

1711
02:07:49.319 --> 02:07:59.640
twenty minutes. But yeah, never give up. Remember this is

1712
02:07:59.680 --> 02:08:04.479
ten prairie. It's being emotional. That's an hour and six minutes.

1713
02:08:06.159 --> 02:08:11.439
A safe, positive, healing, relaxation. How are you today? Relaxed

1714
02:08:11.479 --> 02:08:17.079
hands equals relaxed brain, feel safe, feel comfort, feel relaxed,

1715
02:08:19.359 --> 02:08:29.159
and reduce anxiety level. Compassion reduces stress. Funny memory, intrusive thoughts,

1716
02:08:29.199 --> 02:08:36.279
I just thoughts. We are born positive blind me taping

1717
02:08:36.439 --> 02:08:42.640
fingertips no mass. I like that one, but I'm kind

1718
02:08:42.680 --> 02:08:44.880
of talking about boxing, but it's still relevant.

1719
02:08:45.439 --> 02:08:46.520
See these are.

1720
02:08:46.439 --> 02:08:53.319
Amongst my favorite recordings I've ever made. Chained Elephant, Vice,

1721
02:08:53.479 --> 02:08:59.479
gript positive Butterflies. You can choose what you think about

1722
02:09:01.039 --> 02:09:11.920
bubble fark confidence. I can't no idea ringo tension release Okay,

1723
02:09:11.920 --> 02:09:15.079
I got no of that groovy relax or sleep session

1724
02:09:16.119 --> 02:09:24.319
TV remote amazing, loved and deeply relaxed. Stress licking ferret.

1725
02:09:25.800 --> 02:09:33.640
That's about Andre so stress versus love. Focus on feeling relaxed,

1726
02:09:35.319 --> 02:09:42.720
relax sleep neurons lighting up okay, Buckets of healing relaxing.

1727
02:09:43.680 --> 02:09:51.520
No bucket of relaxing healing you in the mirror, stress

1728
02:09:51.880 --> 02:09:55.560
sucking helmet. Some of these names are a bit weird.

1729
02:09:58.359 --> 02:10:05.880
Letting stress know it's not a prisoner, dissolving the rust

1730
02:10:05.960 --> 02:10:11.840
of anxiety. I don't know what was going on in

1731
02:10:11.920 --> 02:10:13.520
my brain at the time, but it seems to be

1732
02:10:14.119 --> 02:10:24.560
quite active. Removing stress batteries, hand squeeze, stress relief technique,

1733
02:10:27.880 --> 02:10:33.159
blind sports, recording yourself. I've got no idea what that was.

1734
02:10:43.600 --> 02:10:48.279
You are going to be okay. We don't reduce stress

1735
02:10:48.399 --> 02:10:50.319
when thinking of someone you dislike.

1736
02:10:51.800 --> 02:10:52.520
You've got a balloon.

1737
02:10:52.600 --> 02:11:01.479
Anxiety reduction technique, Overcoming hurdle too big to swallow. Choose

1738
02:11:01.560 --> 02:11:07.880
relaxation bubble or sleep bubble. Say nice things to yourself

1739
02:11:07.880 --> 02:11:20.760
whilst walking ah negativity fumigation, questioning your worries. There's some

1740
02:11:21.079 --> 02:11:26.279
I quite like these these titles from five years ago.

1741
02:11:27.399 --> 02:11:29.920
What it is now like four and a half years ago.

1742
02:11:29.920 --> 02:11:34.439
It's near the end of twenty twenty natural born positivity,

1743
02:11:37.560 --> 02:11:43.960
burping your anxiety war not taking yourself too seriously when

1744
02:11:44.000 --> 02:11:46.079
you're feeling agitated.

1745
02:11:47.960 --> 02:11:49.479
Positivity trigger.

1746
02:11:51.159 --> 02:11:54.000
You were born able to relax and seep naturally, which

1747
02:11:54.039 --> 02:12:02.960
is true. Put trust in your brain to relax or

1748
02:12:03.119 --> 02:12:15.199
sleep during noise, support networks and asking for help, making

1749
02:12:15.319 --> 02:12:26.359
friends with yourself, victim mentality, emotional abuse, never again, and

1750
02:12:26.640 --> 02:12:32.560
caring for carers. Okay, that was a really long one.

1751
02:12:32.640 --> 02:12:36.239
So I've got no idea what kind of that sounds

1752
02:12:36.279 --> 02:12:41.760
like a quite heavy one. The power of breathing.

1753
02:12:44.840 --> 02:12:47.800
Okay, so I'm talking about bereavema. I don't know why.

1754
02:12:49.199 --> 02:12:53.399
Make friends with your stress, hot water bottles, stress relief technique,

1755
02:12:55.880 --> 02:13:02.119
Pouring healing, relaxation and safety into your brain, tapping scalp

1756
02:13:02.239 --> 02:13:18.479
to relax, brain rehearsing feeling okay, ah, listen to my

1757
02:13:18.640 --> 02:13:30.840
boring voice, Superman re energizing. Right, there's quite a few,

1758
02:13:30.880 --> 02:13:31.119
isn't it.

1759
02:13:36.319 --> 02:13:38.680
Kettle anger release. I quite like that one, and so

1760
02:13:38.800 --> 02:13:40.560
it suddenly a short one, but it's quite good.

1761
02:13:41.800 --> 02:13:47.199
Holding safe hands and there's a quantum memory shift. That's

1762
02:13:47.199 --> 02:13:50.520
another one that's a bit more. That's me trying to

1763
02:13:50.560 --> 02:13:51.199
be advanced.

1764
02:13:52.760 --> 02:13:54.880
It didn't work. Maybe it did.

1765
02:13:54.920 --> 02:13:55.319
I don't know.

1766
02:13:57.039 --> 02:14:00.000
Hi, Jason from Cindy. You recently shared a story about

1767
02:14:00.119 --> 02:14:03.319
your grandfather has told you by your men. Are there

1768
02:14:03.319 --> 02:14:19.239
any other NaN's stories you can share. I'm trying to think.

1769
02:14:24.600 --> 02:14:27.680
I mean we used to talk about I mean, this

1770
02:14:28.119 --> 02:14:31.960
story is about her. She was really good swimmer.

1771
02:14:34.640 --> 02:14:36.960
But I feel like NaN's stories that she told me

1772
02:14:37.760 --> 02:14:41.239
she told me about in our family. She told me

1773
02:14:41.399 --> 02:14:47.880
about her parents. She told me I got a lot

1774
02:14:47.920 --> 02:14:51.600
of information about my very very young childhood from her

1775
02:14:52.920 --> 02:14:55.319
because no one else would talk about it, but she would.

1776
02:14:56.119 --> 02:14:58.520
So she told me she had pictures of me when

1777
02:14:58.560 --> 02:15:01.720
I was a baby, and.

1778
02:15:04.920 --> 02:15:05.319
There was.

1779
02:15:09.079 --> 02:15:19.760
I think I had blonde hair back then. Yeah, I'm

1780
02:15:19.800 --> 02:15:20.720
just trying to think.

1781
02:15:23.199 --> 02:15:23.520
It was.

1782
02:15:27.680 --> 02:15:29.399
I'll get back to you on that one. I might.

1783
02:15:29.680 --> 02:15:31.960
I'm just trying to think, off the top of my

1784
02:15:32.079 --> 02:15:42.319
head any particular stories that she told me. I can't

1785
02:15:42.359 --> 02:15:45.199
believe it's been over ten years since I last spoke

1786
02:15:45.239 --> 02:15:55.000
to her. She used to Yeah, she'd talk about stuff,

1787
02:15:55.079 --> 02:15:59.439
but a lot of things that we talk about would

1788
02:15:59.439 --> 02:16:03.520
be about what going on now. We didn't really focus

1789
02:16:04.079 --> 02:16:07.319
too much on the past. But when she did, she

1790
02:16:07.479 --> 02:16:11.640
talk about like how she remembered some of the stuff

1791
02:16:11.720 --> 02:16:14.520
that happened. I mean, there was one she said that

1792
02:16:14.800 --> 02:16:22.199
my dad, my biological mother, had moved out of her

1793
02:16:22.319 --> 02:16:25.199
house and bettered in mind. Both my dad and her

1794
02:16:25.279 --> 02:16:29.560
were very young, and it was before they got married,

1795
02:16:29.640 --> 02:16:32.719
and they got married in what sixty five I think,

1796
02:16:34.239 --> 02:16:36.680
which was five years before I got where I was born,

1797
02:16:37.399 --> 02:16:39.559
and my dad was twenty six when I was born,

1798
02:16:41.079 --> 02:16:45.559
so he would have got married at twenty one. They

1799
02:16:45.600 --> 02:16:48.479
were dating before that, and he was living at home.

1800
02:16:51.879 --> 02:16:56.079
And my dad was at work.

1801
02:16:56.239 --> 02:16:59.000
I think he was an apprentice at the time, see

1802
02:16:59.079 --> 02:17:00.799
less school than when an apprenticeship.

1803
02:17:04.239 --> 02:17:06.600
And it's not funny really, but.

1804
02:17:08.559 --> 02:17:11.760
My other biological grandfather, the one that I never met

1805
02:17:11.840 --> 02:17:16.799
because he passed away quite early before I was born,

1806
02:17:18.159 --> 02:17:23.159
I think, so basically, and apparently he was just a

1807
02:17:24.360 --> 02:17:25.159
huge man.

1808
02:17:25.680 --> 02:17:26.000
Huge.

1809
02:17:26.760 --> 02:17:30.360
My granddad wasn't huge, but it was it wasn't he

1810
02:17:30.479 --> 02:17:32.840
just what he was very slim, and but this bloke

1811
02:17:33.040 --> 02:17:35.799
was just, you know, apparently according to my name, he

1812
02:17:35.879 --> 02:17:41.479
was massive and he just shadowed my grand he'd like,

1813
02:17:41.639 --> 02:17:45.040
really just my name was worried for my granddad, my

1814
02:17:45.159 --> 02:17:50.799
other granddad that her husband or over. Well, what happened

1815
02:17:50.840 --> 02:17:54.200
next is so he knocks on the door, wording my door.

1816
02:17:56.600 --> 02:17:58.760
So I don't know.

1817
02:17:59.760 --> 02:18:02.360
So they didn't know she was in the house. So

1818
02:18:02.680 --> 02:18:07.239
she was in the bedroom upstairs. What they didn't know,

1819
02:18:08.399 --> 02:18:11.440
both my nan and my granddad because my granddad was

1820
02:18:11.479 --> 02:18:16.799
retired at this point. Was he retired, I don't know. Yeah,

1821
02:18:16.799 --> 02:18:18.879
he was retired. He was retired at this point.

1822
02:18:21.200 --> 02:18:27.920
He didn't know that she was upstairs.

1823
02:18:28.000 --> 02:18:32.159
Not only was she upstairs, she'd moved out of her

1824
02:18:32.239 --> 02:18:36.319
family home. She took us stuff and moved out into

1825
02:18:36.399 --> 02:18:37.319
my nan and granddad's.

1826
02:18:37.600 --> 02:18:38.280
They didn't even know.

1827
02:18:40.239 --> 02:18:42.040
So he's knock on the doorstairs, walk my dughter, I

1828
02:18:42.120 --> 02:18:46.239
want to bring her back. So they my name because

1829
02:18:46.280 --> 02:18:47.840
she was always around the house because she was my

1830
02:18:47.959 --> 02:18:51.719
dad's girlfriend or fiance however, so I don't know.

1831
02:18:51.840 --> 02:18:52.239
But so.

1832
02:18:54.840 --> 02:18:57.159
My name did say that she was worried for my granddad,

1833
02:18:58.440 --> 02:19:01.360
like her I keep saying, because they were both my granddads.

1834
02:19:01.520 --> 02:19:05.520
But she was worried for her husband, my granddad Newland.

1835
02:19:06.520 --> 02:19:09.479
She was worried for him because he was tiny compared

1836
02:19:09.479 --> 02:19:16.200
to this bloke, the other granddad. So but I think,

1837
02:19:16.280 --> 02:19:19.600
well I came my grandad would have been sixty then,

1838
02:19:21.239 --> 02:19:27.280
so this this would have been No, he'd have been fifty.

1839
02:19:27.319 --> 02:19:28.760
He would have still been at work, so it'd have

1840
02:19:28.760 --> 02:19:33.719
been about fifty five. Think he retired in nineteen seventy

1841
02:19:34.600 --> 02:19:37.120
when he was sixty, so I think you could retire

1842
02:19:37.120 --> 02:19:46.440
at sixty back then and then he I think so,

1843
02:19:46.639 --> 02:19:52.040
I'm not one hundred percent sure, but anyway, and I

1844
02:19:52.079 --> 02:19:55.079
don't know. I think my granddad was a boxer in

1845
02:19:55.200 --> 02:19:58.520
the army. But he was a boxer, he was, and

1846
02:19:58.639 --> 02:20:01.040
at fifty five, which she is nearly as old as

1847
02:20:01.079 --> 02:20:03.719
I am, he would have been a lot probably more,

1848
02:20:03.879 --> 02:20:06.479
much more fitter than I am, and.

1849
02:20:06.520 --> 02:20:07.280
He would have been.

1850
02:20:10.079 --> 02:20:12.200
Well able to take care of himself because not only

1851
02:20:12.360 --> 02:20:14.000
was he a boxer, but he's also had been in

1852
02:20:14.040 --> 02:20:17.200
the army. You know, he'd served time in the army

1853
02:20:17.319 --> 02:20:22.719
for I think twelve years as a career, and then

1854
02:20:23.079 --> 02:20:24.639
he was in the army game during the war for

1855
02:20:24.719 --> 02:20:29.159
for six years. So it's you know, done over twenty

1856
02:20:29.280 --> 02:20:36.559
years in the army pretty much nearly so I don't know,

1857
02:20:37.479 --> 02:20:40.120
but apparently, but they didn't come to blows. But my

1858
02:20:40.239 --> 02:20:42.200
name said that she was really worried that he was

1859
02:20:42.280 --> 02:20:49.319
gonna he was just like beat up my other granddad.

1860
02:20:50.239 --> 02:20:51.479
But they didn't Now.

1861
02:20:51.559 --> 02:20:54.000
I don't know how well they get on. I think

1862
02:20:54.079 --> 02:20:54.399
she was.

1863
02:20:54.559 --> 02:20:56.559
I think he was gone before they even got married,

1864
02:20:56.600 --> 02:21:01.440
before my dad got married to her. But she did

1865
02:21:01.520 --> 02:21:04.200
tell me stuff about my mom, about my biological mum,

1866
02:21:05.879 --> 02:21:08.600
and what she did say though, she said she was

1867
02:21:10.920 --> 02:21:16.799
even though she was a problem and just always causing,

1868
02:21:16.959 --> 02:21:20.840
just causing problems, causing. Sheared a chaotic life back then.

1869
02:21:21.319 --> 02:21:23.360
She might I don't know which she might have a

1870
02:21:23.399 --> 02:21:27.520
really good life now. But she said for all her faults,

1871
02:21:28.159 --> 02:21:31.360
the one thing she had to say is she was funny.

1872
02:21:32.840 --> 02:21:37.360
She made a laugh. She made my men laugh.

1873
02:21:37.920 --> 02:21:42.719
And that's the one thing that I kind of think, Okay, cool,

1874
02:21:44.040 --> 02:21:50.479
that means something to me, like us good because she, yeah,

1875
02:21:50.639 --> 02:21:54.120
she'd lived a chaotic life, but that's probably because of

1876
02:21:54.200 --> 02:21:56.120
where her background came from.

1877
02:21:56.959 --> 02:21:59.799
She'd, you know, she'd sort of learned that, and she

1878
02:22:00.159 --> 02:22:04.600
was whatever, you know, wasn't just her own decision to

1879
02:22:04.680 --> 02:22:09.840
be like that. And she also had a called to

1880
02:22:09.959 --> 02:22:11.520
my nan, she was.

1881
02:22:13.280 --> 02:22:19.760
Like biopolar or she had mental health stuff. But she

1882
02:22:20.000 --> 02:22:24.799
was best friends with my auntie. I think my auntie

1883
02:22:24.799 --> 02:22:28.680
and her went to school together. My auntie was probably

1884
02:22:28.719 --> 02:22:32.319
a couple of years younger than my dad, and it's

1885
02:22:32.360 --> 02:22:36.200
probably how they met, probably how him and my mum met,

1886
02:22:37.120 --> 02:22:41.799
because she'd be around, probably with her sister, and I

1887
02:22:41.840 --> 02:22:48.319
don't know, they just got together, so, you know, even

1888
02:22:48.440 --> 02:22:56.200
though she left when I was six months old, so

1889
02:22:56.280 --> 02:23:03.079
it was like nineteen seventy one, the fact is they've

1890
02:23:03.120 --> 02:23:06.440
been together quite a while. They got married sixty five,

1891
02:23:06.639 --> 02:23:09.200
so six years, and they were probably together a year

1892
02:23:09.280 --> 02:23:12.280
or two before that, so you know, it was it

1893
02:23:12.399 --> 02:23:15.879
wasn't like a short term, and they had three kids,

1894
02:23:17.520 --> 02:23:18.399
so it must have been.

1895
02:23:18.479 --> 02:23:22.120
It must have had a good time at some point.

1896
02:23:23.440 --> 02:23:23.959
I don't know.

1897
02:23:26.040 --> 02:23:33.159
She's told Why did she tell me? She that's just

1898
02:23:33.239 --> 02:23:36.799
one of the things. She's just basically she said that

1899
02:23:39.440 --> 02:23:41.639
when my mom took off, yeah, she used to. She

1900
02:23:41.719 --> 02:23:44.200
used to go into the butchers and the bakers, and

1901
02:23:45.399 --> 02:23:49.360
they'd all been asking her about the money that my

1902
02:23:49.520 --> 02:23:53.280
mum owed them. So apparently she just owed money to everyone.

1903
02:23:54.760 --> 02:23:55.719
That's what my name said.

1904
02:23:55.760 --> 02:23:58.959
Again, It's like, you know, I'm not here to say

1905
02:23:59.000 --> 02:24:01.639
horrible things about anyone, but that's.

1906
02:24:01.520 --> 02:24:02.040
All my name.

1907
02:24:02.120 --> 02:24:06.719
She's she said like this, she'd just be borrowing money

1908
02:24:06.760 --> 02:24:09.719
off everyone, but she'd make people laugh that if he

1909
02:24:09.920 --> 02:24:12.879
was like just funny, funny person.

1910
02:24:17.399 --> 02:24:23.440
So yeah, I think maybe it's the.

1911
02:24:28.879 --> 02:24:31.120
Maybe that's why I've got bipolar wybe and that's where

1912
02:24:31.200 --> 02:24:34.159
my my brain comes from.

1913
02:24:35.360 --> 02:24:45.319
I mean, yeah, inherited, well, he inherited this brain. But

1914
02:24:45.479 --> 02:24:45.879
that's it.

1915
02:24:45.959 --> 02:24:48.319
It's probably this loasure of stuff. But that's one off

1916
02:24:48.360 --> 02:24:52.399
the top of my head. I realized the time's going,

1917
02:24:52.440 --> 02:24:58.280
it's now, line is six o'clock. Dev asks Hello, Jason,

1918
02:24:58.399 --> 02:25:01.600
Hello all. I'm a nubie at this, a chronic pain sufferer,

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but also interested in learning about hypnosis in general, as

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well as applying it to creative writing. I find Jason's

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podcast very effective, actually, but both for pain relief and sleep.

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I'd also like to learn how a writer can place

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itself into a sort of fictional environment and develop a story. Equally,

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I would like to learn about immersing a reader into

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the story. I'm currently struggling with writing a sort of

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ghost story. Thanks and advance. I don't know, so I'm

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not a writer. I suppose to.

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Immerse someone into a story would be keeping it flowing. Well,

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then let's be teaching how to write. I don't.

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I don't know how to write, but it's my understanding

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of like writing with creative writing is one of the

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things I've done a little bit of red books.

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On it and played around of it.

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What I liked about it is there's no right or wrong,

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you know, it's it's art creativity. There's no there is

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no right or wrong. You just see what comes up

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and maybe something really cool or come up a fictional

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environment developer story. I tell you what you could do.

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You could tell the story. You could verbally tell the

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story and see what comes up. Transcribe it.

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There's loads of transcribing places you can get stuff transcribed.

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Just record it on your on your phone hm and

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then just look back at it and maybe start to.

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You could like map it out. It's like okay, well,

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as that's that, there's that character, where.

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Would they go? What would they do? And you know,

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I don't know.

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I mean, it's not something that I'm ever going to

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be doing. Well, if I ever wrote a book, it

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would be kind of it'd have to be factual.

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Pretty much it made up but about me maybe or

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I'm trying to think there's something else I was thought

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about doing. Yeah, just it'd have to be.

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That.

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That's the way you could do it.

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Maybe, But as far as hypnosis, I'm not really sure.

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It's something I don't really know about when it comes

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to writing. I used to write diaries and journals, but.

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It was more for me. It's like shouting, isn't he

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here that in the background.

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It's not a very good answer. Let me think about

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it a bit more. If I come up with I

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think of anything else, I'll mention it in the next recording.

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I might do a little bit of research. So thanks everybody,

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Thank you. Going down the list, Maria, Kathleen, Tammy, Jonathan, Joanne, Sean, Jackie,

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Cindy and dev a marathon, wasn't it There's a lot

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of I don't know how long I've been talking for.

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It's got to be nearly two and a half hours,

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which means I'm not sure when this is going to

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get edited. I'm literally this on a Saturday afternoon. I

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know it's Friday Q and a Friday, but I was

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got so caught up in building a website.

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But I did start this.

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I thought I started it at three. I definitely started

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it before four o'clock because I was already at two hours.

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Last time I went to a toilet, so I had

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a break.

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Lion.

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It's now seven minutes past six, and there's boxing on

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at seven, so this might be one of those Q

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and A Fridays that come out on Sunday morning.

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I apologize kind of.

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I'll do a little bit, just a little bit, so

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thank you. I just didn't expect to get this many questions.

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I'm pleased. Thanks, But there's been times when I get

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like two questions and I still managed to last.

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That an hour or so. So that's it.

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That is the end of this recording, So thank you

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for listening. Remember to be kind to yourself, because you

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do deserve to be happy and be gentle with yourself.

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You deserve to feel safe, lots of love.

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Bye. Relax in a more deep and.

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Meaningful way, maybe in a way that can not just

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allow you to feel calmer now and throughout the time

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we spend together here, not just relaxed at the end

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of the recording when it's finished and you can enjoy

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that sense of comfort and peace, but also I think

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it would be nice to have those feelings of relaxation continue.

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For longer after the recording has ended. You can.

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Still benefit from listening to my voice. Maybe in a

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few hours time, perhaps tomorrow, and then by listening regularly,

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especially if you find like some people do and myself

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as well, I sometimes I find one particular recording that

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really resonates with me, and I just listen to it

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over and over again every morning, every evening. There was

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this record bording from We're going back to about nineteen

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ninety nine. It was it wasn't hypnosis, but it was

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a guided visualizations. It kind of was hypnosis, really, and

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I managed to find it again and it still has

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the same effect on me.

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And part of it was the person's voice relaxed me.

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She just felt so peaceful, and I'd look forward to

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listening to her in the morning and in the evening.

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And I knew before even pressing the play button that

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since I've done that pressed the play button. This was

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in the days of CD players press the play button.

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In fact, it might have even been a tape recorder.

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I'd lie down on the bed and then even without

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necessarily listening to her words because I had them memorized. Really,

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it was as if my body knew exactly what to do,

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and the muscles just almost went into automatic relaxation, and

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I remember my mind would slow down. Now now I

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was listening to this recording in the early days of

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learning hypnosis, and long before I ever made any videos

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or audio recordings myself, because I didn't start doing that

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till two thousand and six, I knew.

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I knew how.

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Helpful I found being able to just let go, to

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have that trust in the person that I'm listening to,

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knowing that it's going to be just as relaxing, if

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not more so. Each time you hear my voice, you

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may feel the same.

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Some people.

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Have been listening to me for over a decade, maybe

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not solidly, obviously not twenty four hours a day, but

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maybe people come back. Some people may be listen every day.

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That's something that I do which you may not really

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realize by listening, is when I record these recordings. Now,

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for example, I also am affected by the words.

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That I say. So if I set you focus on

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your feet, notice your feet relaxing, I would be focusing

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on my feet. I will be noticing.

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My feet relaxing. If I said, focus on your hands,

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and maybe notice the difference between each hand, perhaps notice the.

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Air in the room, the temperature of the room. On

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the backs of your hands, you may start to notice

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what almost feels like a very light breeze, even though

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there may not be any type of breeze at all

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where you are right now. And as you become aware

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of your hands, I'm also aware.

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Of how relaxed my hands our feeling now and when

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it comes to.

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Potentially drifting off to sleep, which may be the reason

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you're listening, I also feel drowsy when I make these recordings.

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I also notice my mind drifting.

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In fact, at times I've actually fallen asleep without even noticing,

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and then I carry on talking.

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And it's only when I listen back to do the

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editing I hear snoring and I think, I don't remember snoring.

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I remember talking. This snoring was a pick turned up.

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That's why I sound like when I snare, how I

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get realday into the whole experience.

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I don't know how you feel, how relaxed you feel

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in your feet, how relaxed you feel in your hands.

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I have noticed more and more that the more relaxed,

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deeper level of comfort you feel, the easier your breathing becomes.

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It's almost like that additional muscle relaxation. So this allows

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you debreath easier without necessarily focusing on your breath. However,

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being able to notice the ease in which you breathe

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so naturally, You breeze so very easily and smoothly. Whenever

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I imagine my breathing improving. When I've got my eyes closed,

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I tend to visualize a beautiful field with trees and.

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Flowers producing all of that life giving oxygen. And it

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feels nice to, if nothing else, just taking some time

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away from everything, m enjoying that feeling of peace, serenity

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with a joyful heart. Time seems to just.

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Drip by, so very slowly, relaxed, so deeply, peaceful, completely

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unattached to any thoughts whatsoever in this moment, completely free,

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noticing that.

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Your mind has slowed down. Slowed down because nothing really

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requires your attention. You can enjoy the physical sensations of

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allowing the stress to drip out of your body, dripping

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out of every.

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Part of your body and being released from your brain,

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hunge your mind slowly but surely, the muscles in your

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legs relax res relax so very deeply, relax so deeply,

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and the feedings, the pleasant feelings in your arms and shoulders,

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deepening each part of your body further and deeper and deeper.

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Noticin the feelings in the back of your neck, the

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feelings in your wrists, muscles, in the front of your body,

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I will say, feeling peaceful, deeping. There's a sense of

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peace spreads through your very cool even when you focus

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on your mind, her mind becomes be and slowerven, deeper, relaxing,

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so very slow. Your stomach taste fell in your stomach,

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your back. Notice Notice how relaxed you now feel in

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the hole of your back. In a spy from your

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brain all the way down the middle of your back,

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sending and receiving millions of messages every day, deecomfort increasing

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deeply elaxed him relax spreading those signals down your spine

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or cord into air, every part of your body, your

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shins and your calf, muscles, your elbows, Feelings of peace

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and tranquility spreading through your body, tips of your toes,

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to your eyes, your fingers, all the way to your

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lower back. Letting go, rea, think base, drifting mind, just

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wander in a way, happy to let go, Let go completely,

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let go, so tranquil your whole body enjoying a sensor

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letting go, hey, no pace, enjoy space, this space of

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peace and safety. S firy, firy.

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Relaxed us using letting go.

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Maybe we can just focus on the different parts of

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your body, just to notice you forehead and your eyes.

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Ju said this, noticing a sense of complete freedom, absolute freedom.

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Dress day, dress day, PA's wall energy paste to breeze

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so much ease, ye.

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Lose.

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You may have or may not have noticed your mind

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drifting peaceful move ay even more deeply in the direction

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of total blissful pace, blissful pace, tosh to to pace,

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so come let him go peace with mind fty, so relaxed,

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so relaxed. Your body feels almost invisible, so very relaxed,

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but peaceful. So pace for let go imsite peaceful, And

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you could start to notice that you are feeling more relaxed,

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even though I've not purposely focused your mind upon that

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sense of physical comfort that is growing within you throughout

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your body, and your mind starts to slow down. And

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that could be almost in recognition of I guess my

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speech not being particularly fast, and things just generally feel calmer.

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Just by listening to my voice, you give yourself an

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opportunity to take a break from the day, take a

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break from your life as it is, and to give

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yourself a rest, giving yourself permission to take some time

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off and to allow allow your body to relax and

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allow your mind to slow down, which in turn releases

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the tension any stresses that you had in your body.

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It's almost as if the parts of your body just

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open up, allowing the negativity out and at the same

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time replacing that negativity with positive heathing energy, which then

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fills your body up and your mind to also starts

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to appreciate those feelings of increasing confidence and almost uplifting

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feeling positive healing, an energy that spreads through your body

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like a wave of comfort. And all this comes from

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just allowing yourself a few minutes, maybe half an hour,

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however long you want it to be, to just rest

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and allow your mind and your body to almost reset

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itself to the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness, which

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allows more room for feelings of pleasure and happiness to

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move around your body and into your mind, almost as

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if your mind and your body are sinking together, almost

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mirroring each other with that growing positivity and calmness. And

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it feels nice, really does feel nice to know that

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you are the one that has allowed yourself to feel

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more comfort than to experience more of this deep relaxation

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spreading throughout your body. And as I focus on each

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part of your body, you can notice that that part

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becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on it. It

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becomes even more calm and comfortable just by focusing. And

2157
03:31:47.159 --> 03:31:52.639
as I move down your body, starting at your head,

2158
03:31:55.399 --> 03:32:00.680
the parts that you've already focused on or can tinue

2159
03:32:02.040 --> 03:32:09.120
to relax deeply, and those parts that have not yet

2160
03:32:09.319 --> 03:32:22.200
focused on or just automatically release any remain intention in

2161
03:32:22.360 --> 03:32:36.600
anticipation of even more comfort about to come. Now, I'm

2162
03:32:36.639 --> 03:32:43.120
going to start by focusing on your forehead. Just being

2163
03:32:43.239 --> 03:32:51.879
aware of the feelings of your forehead and any background

2164
03:32:52.159 --> 03:32:59.280
sounds like mister Herbert's opinion, can just allow you to

2165
03:32:59.440 --> 03:33:06.680
feel a more relaxed just means you in the moment,

2166
03:33:09.799 --> 03:33:15.159
this isn't this isn't a sterile environment. This is the world.

2167
03:33:18.639 --> 03:33:24.680
I live in the countryside, so there's lots of nature

2168
03:33:25.200 --> 03:33:35.680
sounds around. So as you focus on your forehead, just

2169
03:33:35.959 --> 03:33:43.719
notice how it becomes even more relaxed as you focus

2170
03:33:46.040 --> 03:33:50.520
only on my voice and that part of your body.

2171
03:33:55.719 --> 03:34:01.319
Moving down to your eyes, focus sin on your eyes,

2172
03:34:03.440 --> 03:34:14.920
noticing how your eyelids feel so heavy yet so light

2173
03:34:16.000 --> 03:34:22.200
at the same time, and all the muscles around your

2174
03:34:22.280 --> 03:34:34.719
eyes relaxing completely. Moving your focus down to your mouth,

2175
03:34:36.639 --> 03:34:43.600
your lips, your tongue, your teeth, and your guns. The

2176
03:34:43.879 --> 03:34:51.959
hole of your mouth relaxing, calm.

2177
03:34:53.079 --> 03:34:54.000
And loose.

2178
03:34:58.120 --> 03:35:06.399
As you focus now on your jaw, just the parts

2179
03:35:06.440 --> 03:35:10.879
of your jaw ney, your mouth, and your chin, but

2180
03:35:11.040 --> 03:35:15.159
all the way up the size of your face to

2181
03:35:15.280 --> 03:35:19.440
your ears, the hole of.

2182
03:35:19.559 --> 03:35:20.239
Your jaw.

2183
03:35:22.680 --> 03:35:49.760
Feeding more, relaxed and calm. Focusing on your neck, the

2184
03:35:49.920 --> 03:35:57.399
front of your neck, and your throat relaxing and loose

2185
03:35:58.159 --> 03:36:07.799
and calm. The sides of your neck, the right and

2186
03:36:08.000 --> 03:36:20.600
left side of your neck relax and please and calm.

2187
03:36:26.959 --> 03:36:33.639
And now the back of your neck, focusing on the

2188
03:36:33.920 --> 03:36:44.360
back of your neck, letting go of any tension that

2189
03:36:44.559 --> 03:36:53.399
may have been there before, and enjoying that sense of

2190
03:36:54.440 --> 03:37:05.079
increasing comfort and release. Then you can experience in the

2191
03:37:05.200 --> 03:37:17.440
back of your neck, moving down your back and moving

2192
03:37:17.719 --> 03:37:22.040
either side of your spine right from the top of

2193
03:37:22.159 --> 03:37:27.680
your back all the way down to the bottom of

2194
03:37:27.799 --> 03:37:45.200
your back down to your lower back. As you move

2195
03:37:45.440 --> 03:37:53.120
up and down your spine, you can feel the muscles

2196
03:37:54.159 --> 03:38:07.879
either side of your spine relaxing even more, and as

2197
03:38:07.920 --> 03:38:15.079
those muscles relax, that sense of comfort starts to spread

2198
03:38:16.680 --> 03:38:25.040
outwards from your spine into both sides of your back,

2199
03:38:28.840 --> 03:38:32.520
the top of your back, the middle end your lower back.

2200
03:38:36.040 --> 03:38:43.200
And as you scan gently and slowly up and down

2201
03:38:43.399 --> 03:38:48.399
your back, there's the muscles in the top of your

2202
03:38:48.520 --> 03:38:58.479
back relax and become looser. The muscles in the middle

2203
03:38:58.520 --> 03:39:05.840
of your back also seem to just almost divide from

2204
03:39:05.920 --> 03:39:19.319
each other, separating and almost melting, and in your lower

2205
03:39:19.399 --> 03:39:30.920
back there seems to be an extra special feeling of comfort.

2206
03:39:36.239 --> 03:39:42.360
The spreads into your hips. Sit down your lower back,

2207
03:39:42.680 --> 03:39:50.639
into your hips, into the area where your cosix are,

2208
03:39:54.239 --> 03:40:00.440
and into your buttocks, and al those muscles that bread

2209
03:40:03.120 --> 03:40:12.920
bring your lower back into your hip area start to melt,

2210
03:40:17.360 --> 03:40:29.639
start to reading, let go and even know where about

2211
03:40:29.799 --> 03:40:35.799
to focus on your shoulders. Your back and your spine

2212
03:40:36.879 --> 03:40:53.639
will continue to let go, continue to relax so calmly,

2213
03:40:58.319 --> 03:41:03.239
and if you focus on your orders, you may notice

2214
03:41:03.680 --> 03:41:35.000
they're already feeling really loose, They're already feeding calm and fear.

2215
03:41:39.319 --> 03:41:47.639
Those muscles then move from your neck into your shoulders

2216
03:41:54.200 --> 03:42:23.600
feel so soft and gent so smooth and calm and

2217
03:42:23.799 --> 03:42:36.639
The feeling in your shoulders seems to spread deep into

2218
03:42:36.719 --> 03:42:47.120
your shoulders, a sense of relaxation, not just traveling deeply

2219
03:42:47.520 --> 03:43:04.520
into your muscles, but also relaxing the bones and moving

2220
03:43:04.600 --> 03:43:12.879
all the way to underneath your arms, relaxing a whole

2221
03:43:13.079 --> 03:43:18.040
area between the tops of your shoulders and underneath your

2222
03:43:18.239 --> 03:43:38.040
arms healing. You feel so relaxed and comfortable in your shoulders,

2223
03:43:41.600 --> 03:44:03.680
which sends that deep healing message into your arms. And

2224
03:44:03.920 --> 03:44:08.920
you may feel almost as if your arms are not

2225
03:44:09.079 --> 03:44:27.760
even there because they so relaxed, so deeply relaxed, so

2226
03:44:32.040 --> 03:45:08.559
so calm, so lo a feelings spreading all the way

2227
03:45:08.799 --> 03:45:33.559
down your arms, two elbows, including your elbows circumfort spreads

2228
03:45:38.360 --> 03:45:55.879
your way into wrists, your forearments, and your wrists so

2229
03:45:56.319 --> 03:46:41.680
heavy yet the same time, sunlight and gentle frey sin

2230
03:46:44.079 --> 03:46:45.079
now on.

2231
03:46:47.760 --> 03:47:11.799
Your hands, My hands.

2232
03:47:17.680 --> 03:47:47.280
So peaceful in your hands with a sense of real pace,

2233
03:47:59.360 --> 03:48:13.719
just seem to feel so familion when your hands relax

2234
03:48:15.040 --> 03:48:44.440
deeply else your fingers.

2235
03:49:16.440 --> 03:50:23.559
Things sadlish You think it tips moving your attention from

2236
03:50:24.000 --> 03:50:52.319
your body, so comfortable, marrying your focus.

2237
03:50:53.719 --> 03:52:40.559
To legs like musculs in your thighs. Nis I relaxed

2238
03:53:08.280 --> 03:55:26.719
comfmucls just shades compasi and the fathing in your faints. Sir,

2239
03:55:27.360 --> 03:56:28.680
peaceful circom sir, peaceful sircom sir peaceful sycom so peace

2240
03:56:29.360 --> 03:56:40.079
fa re sen.

2241
03:56:45.200 --> 03:56:47.000
Pieace fall.

2242
03:56:50.319 --> 03:57:20.200
Sycom love, the deep relaxation, just spread your chest, let

2243
03:57:20.360 --> 03:57:21.040
it go.

2244
03:57:25.159 --> 03:57:42.479
Everything. So I'm gonna start counting down now from twenty

2245
03:57:42.879 --> 03:57:51.000
down to one. You can imagine in a way it's

2246
03:57:51.200 --> 03:57:57.319
like just walking down some steps. In each step or

2247
03:57:57.479 --> 03:58:03.479
twenty steps, and each step rips sense a level of comfort.

2248
03:58:06.959 --> 03:58:22.319
Each step represents a deepening of that comfort and the

2249
03:58:22.559 --> 03:58:28.639
fervies you walk down those steps that deeper and more

2250
03:58:28.680 --> 03:59:23.719
relaxed you feel. So starting with number twenty twenty nineteenhhhh

2251
03:59:45.120 --> 04:02:27.479
eighteen week seven ten sixteenhhhhhhh three.

2252
04:03:10.040 --> 04:04:10.600
Four fi.

2253
04:05:17.280 --> 04:13:29.440
Too well no eight sivenssas possis six five.

2254
04:14:37.920 --> 04:17:22.680
Four last us us.

2255
04:19:16.280 --> 04:19:16.959
And now.

2256
04:19:21.360 --> 04:19:34.000
As you focus on your eyes, we're gonna count down

2257
04:19:34.399 --> 04:19:45.520
from ten down to one, focusing just on your eyes,

2258
04:19:49.280 --> 04:19:57.799
your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your eye walls themselves,

2259
04:19:59.280 --> 04:20:16.319
a whole area that makes up your eye. And as

2260
04:20:16.440 --> 04:20:25.239
we count down ten down to one, whilst focusing on

2261
04:20:25.440 --> 04:20:41.399
your eyes, you'll become twice is relaxed with each number

2262
04:20:42.399 --> 04:20:53.959
counting down that you may find the on we want

2263
04:20:54.079 --> 04:21:02.920
to do is just drift off to sleep. And if

2264
04:21:03.159 --> 04:21:16.559
that's what you want, then just allow yourself to do that. Now,

2265
04:21:19.559 --> 04:21:25.920
focusing on your eyes, I'm going to begin counting down

2266
04:21:27.479 --> 04:22:44.040
from ten down to one right now, ten nine eight

2267
04:23:37.440 --> 04:28:04.040
seven four.

2268
04:27:20.479 --> 04:28:06.760
Us three.

2269
04:30:40.319 --> 04:31:01.600
One two. Counting down from ten to one ten nine

2270
04:31:03.360 --> 04:31:31.040
eight seven six five four three two one. And maybe

2271
04:31:31.159 --> 04:31:34.079
that was a bit too quick in order to relax.

2272
04:31:35.319 --> 04:31:39.559
Maybe it's a bit too fast for you to notice

2273
04:31:39.840 --> 04:31:47.879
the calming of your body, maybe even a little bit

2274
04:31:47.920 --> 04:31:52.040
of pressure. They're like, you're counting down from ten to one,

2275
04:31:52.159 --> 04:31:55.520
would you expect me to do? Man, expect me to

2276
04:31:55.600 --> 04:32:05.159
STI go with floppy just because you're counting down. I

2277
04:32:05.239 --> 04:32:08.520
could try it again, but this time I'll go a

2278
04:32:08.559 --> 04:32:15.959
bit slower this time, as you focus on the whole

2279
04:32:16.079 --> 04:32:22.319
of your body before we focus on your legs. Just

2280
04:32:22.559 --> 04:32:32.520
notice how your body does start to feel more relaxed

2281
04:32:37.319 --> 04:33:02.639
with every number that I count down ten nine at eight, seven,

2282
04:33:11.799 --> 04:34:29.479
six five four three one, And just notice how how

2283
04:34:29.599 --> 04:34:39.680
you feel, generally, how your body feels. It's not necessarily

2284
04:34:39.759 --> 04:34:50.159
even about counting down from ten to one. It's that

2285
04:34:50.479 --> 04:35:10.119
space that you have, that space between being active physically

2286
04:35:10.360 --> 04:35:19.959
or mentally to just sitting or lying down, just being there,

2287
04:35:20.680 --> 04:35:26.159
not doing anything, not saying anything, or needing to think

2288
04:35:26.240 --> 04:35:27.080
about anything.

2289
04:35:28.880 --> 04:35:32.560
So it opens up a space, you know, a bit

2290
04:35:32.639 --> 04:35:43.400
of a space, a gap. And the more I came

2291
04:35:43.520 --> 04:35:48.080
down from ten to one, the bigger that gap becomes.

2292
04:35:51.119 --> 04:35:57.479
So there's that gap of calmness, of comfort, relaxation.

2293
04:36:03.439 --> 04:36:15.759
It's a nice feeling, and it moves those stresses or

2294
04:36:16.319 --> 04:36:30.159
discomforts physically or emotionally, moves them away. Allows you.

2295
04:36:32.880 --> 04:36:33.400
To just.

2296
04:36:36.400 --> 04:36:43.119
Slow down, someone to count again from ten down to one,

2297
04:36:43.520 --> 04:36:53.759
and notice that gap widening, the gap. And as it widens,

2298
04:36:53.840 --> 04:36:59.799
it's almost like the stress and attention falls into the

2299
04:36:59.840 --> 04:37:17.799
game appen and gives you that distance, that space.

2300
04:37:20.200 --> 04:37:25.639
Now ten.

2301
04:37:30.000 --> 04:39:27.000
Nine, eight, seven, six, five, four three one. Now, how

2302
04:39:27.080 --> 04:39:30.599
did your body you feel?

2303
04:39:32.840 --> 04:39:33.040
Now?

2304
04:39:45.720 --> 04:40:02.000
Can you notice that they feeling calmer, the feeling more relaxed.

2305
04:40:24.479 --> 04:40:28.799
As we now focus on your legs, just your les,

2306
04:40:44.840 --> 04:41:04.959
We're just gonna start with focusing on your thighs. Of course,

2307
04:41:05.080 --> 04:41:09.959
it's not the most exciting thing to be doing because

2308
04:41:13.400 --> 04:41:16.040
I'm sure like most of your body is not a

2309
04:41:16.200 --> 04:41:28.599
lot going on right now just focusing on the whole

2310
04:41:28.720 --> 04:41:35.080
of your thighs, the tops of your thighs, the sides

2311
04:41:35.279 --> 04:41:42.240
of your thighs, the bottoms of your thighs, your outer thighs,

2312
04:41:42.360 --> 04:41:47.279
and your inner thighs. Basically the whole of your thigh

2313
04:41:47.400 --> 04:41:56.159
that leads into your hip and it goes down to

2314
04:41:56.400 --> 04:42:10.400
your knee joints. Now, this is a big area. It's

2315
04:42:10.439 --> 04:42:11.680
a very heavy area.

2316
04:42:12.200 --> 04:42:18.159
It's very strong, probably the strongest muscles in your body

2317
04:42:18.880 --> 04:42:19.759
or in your thighs.

2318
04:42:29.959 --> 04:42:37.680
But I don't think we perhaps give enough attention to

2319
04:42:37.880 --> 04:42:51.599
our thighs. Perhaps we don't acknowledge how important our thighs

2320
04:42:51.880 --> 04:43:11.639
are to our lives, how much they actually do for

2321
04:43:11.799 --> 04:43:25.840
us all through our lives. And it may seem sound

2322
04:43:25.959 --> 04:43:31.560
really weird, but I think that all of our body parts,

2323
04:43:34.479 --> 04:43:42.759
especially our thighs, need some TLC, a bit of love shown,

2324
04:43:43.759 --> 04:44:01.720
a bit of acknowledgement. I thank you gratitude for what

2325
04:44:01.840 --> 04:44:10.959
our thighs do for us. And I know this may

2326
04:44:11.159 --> 04:44:16.799
sound a bit strange. Maybe you think, why am I,

2327
04:44:17.599 --> 04:44:20.400
Surely I should be out in the garden hugging a

2328
04:44:20.520 --> 04:44:28.880
tree or something. Well, it's hard to set a microphone

2329
04:44:28.959 --> 04:44:32.000
up on a tree. That's why I'm doing this indoors.

2330
04:44:32.040 --> 04:44:35.840
Otherwise I would be outside huging a tree. I can't

2331
04:44:35.840 --> 04:44:44.639
see the television from the tree. If you move down

2332
04:44:44.680 --> 04:44:54.439
to your knees gain such an important part. And I

2333
04:44:54.560 --> 04:45:01.360
think we don't necessarily I'll speak for myself here, I

2334
04:45:01.439 --> 04:45:06.599
don't necessarily appreciate all that my needs do for me

2335
04:45:07.880 --> 04:45:13.040
until I have a problem with my knee. It's occasionally,

2336
04:45:13.080 --> 04:45:18.080
if I ever maybe i'll bash it, or it's aching

2337
04:45:18.240 --> 04:45:24.599
for some reason. It's then that I realize how much

2338
04:45:24.759 --> 04:45:28.400
it does. You know, the benefit of being able to

2339
04:45:29.319 --> 04:45:38.560
use my legs without any kind of physical discomfort is

2340
04:45:39.360 --> 04:45:48.080
a beautiful thing that's possibly not appreciated until it's temporarily removed.

2341
04:45:49.240 --> 04:45:56.240
You know that's comfort. But as you focus on your knees,

2342
04:45:58.400 --> 04:46:04.040
regardless of how your knees feel, you can have that

2343
04:46:04.319 --> 04:46:10.479
sense of gratitude and love to your knees for all

2344
04:46:10.599 --> 04:46:22.799
that they do for you. And you can still have

2345
04:46:22.959 --> 04:46:27.119
that attention on your thighs and maybe notice how your

2346
04:46:27.240 --> 04:46:41.240
thighs feel. Maybe you've noticed that they are relaxing more deeply.

2347
04:46:48.040 --> 04:46:52.479
As you focus now on the bottoms of your legs

2348
04:46:52.840 --> 04:46:58.319
and your shins and your calf muscles, the bones between

2349
04:46:58.560 --> 04:47:04.720
your knee and your feet incorporate. And of course your

2350
04:47:04.840 --> 04:47:16.799
ankles so important. You know, anyone that's had even like

2351
04:47:16.959 --> 04:47:23.840
the slightest spray of an ankle knows how how much

2352
04:47:24.000 --> 04:47:27.319
we take our ankles for granted.

2353
04:47:33.200 --> 04:47:35.200
And it's kind of strange in a way when you

2354
04:47:35.319 --> 04:47:40.919
think that. You know, logically, our wrists are a lot

2355
04:47:41.080 --> 04:47:45.880
thinner than the rest of our arms, which is okay,

2356
04:47:46.000 --> 04:47:49.680
it doesn't I can't see any problem with that because

2357
04:47:49.720 --> 04:47:51.000
we're just picking stuff up.

2358
04:47:52.599 --> 04:47:58.799
Our ankles so much thinner than the rest of our legs,

2359
04:48:05.200 --> 04:48:09.639
and from a physics perspective or logical even it doesn't

2360
04:48:09.680 --> 04:48:15.680
really make sense that all this weight would ultimately be

2361
04:48:16.799 --> 04:48:26.799
resting on your ankles then leading to your feet that

2362
04:48:27.400 --> 04:48:36.360
thin area, thin bone. Yeah, it does so much great work.

2363
04:48:38.520 --> 04:48:48.040
Supports us, supports our body for a lifetime, helps us

2364
04:48:48.759 --> 04:48:58.080
to balance, helps you to get around and be mobile.

2365
04:49:04.439 --> 04:49:05.639
And there's the calf muscles.

2366
04:49:05.680 --> 04:49:13.279
Of course, when I was younger, I couldn't see the

2367
04:49:13.360 --> 04:49:16.599
pointing calf muscles didn't seem to do anything.

2368
04:49:18.119 --> 04:49:22.639
Okay, if I walked around on tiptoes, then my calf

2369
04:49:22.720 --> 04:49:23.759
muscles get some work.

2370
04:49:25.159 --> 04:49:27.720
But of course that's not true. The calf muscles are

2371
04:49:27.799 --> 04:49:37.680
being used whenever we use our legs, and your shins

2372
04:49:40.959 --> 04:49:49.959
there to protect your lower legs, shaped in a way

2373
04:49:51.799 --> 04:50:03.919
almost as a protector for the bone, leading of course

2374
04:50:04.000 --> 04:50:14.159
to your ankles and your feet. But we're not going

2375
04:50:14.200 --> 04:50:16.360
to focus on your feet. We're just going to focus

2376
04:50:16.400 --> 04:50:22.599
on the legs. And I realize, and now that I've

2377
04:50:22.720 --> 04:50:27.400
mentioned your feet, you'll probably focus on them anyway, So

2378
04:50:27.520 --> 04:50:29.919
maybe I should focus on your feet a little bit.

2379
04:50:33.959 --> 04:50:38.400
You can have them in your awareness the same as

2380
04:50:38.479 --> 04:50:42.799
you have your thighs in your awareness. Even though we

2381
04:50:42.959 --> 04:50:48.880
haven't been focusing on your thighs a few minutes, I've

2382
04:50:48.919 --> 04:50:59.799
been focusing on your ankles, there's still that sensation of

2383
04:51:03.040 --> 04:51:15.799
comfort in your thighs and this that movement of energy

2384
04:51:17.880 --> 04:51:24.880
because the thighs hold lots of different sensations. Of course,

2385
04:51:24.959 --> 04:51:29.720
there's the muscles, the big straw muscles that we have

2386
04:51:29.919 --> 04:51:43.240
in our thighs, but the skin on the outside of

2387
04:51:43.360 --> 04:51:48.639
the thighs, as in the outside of all of our body,

2388
04:51:49.439 --> 04:52:01.040
can be very sensitive, sensitive to a touch, sensitive to temperature,

2389
04:52:07.599 --> 04:52:15.119
and inside your thighs the bones, there's the muscle, there's

2390
04:52:15.159 --> 04:52:19.959
the blood vessels, the ar trees to all this stuff

2391
04:52:20.080 --> 04:52:29.159
that's inside your thighs. I guess sometimes it'd be nice

2392
04:52:29.200 --> 04:52:33.479
if you could actually put your fingers inside your thighs

2393
04:52:34.119 --> 04:52:39.319
and a message, so you can message on the outside,

2394
04:52:39.560 --> 04:52:42.479
of course, but to be able to get deep into

2395
04:52:42.560 --> 04:52:47.360
the muscles, and to be able to just message inside

2396
04:52:47.439 --> 04:52:54.439
your thighs. Message in the bones of your leg message

2397
04:52:54.520 --> 04:53:07.680
in all the veins. Just gently healing your thighs, and

2398
04:53:07.880 --> 04:53:12.880
you can move down. Message in the inside your knees.

2399
04:53:14.360 --> 04:53:21.200
Just message in those bones, but with healing fingertips, spreading

2400
04:53:21.279 --> 04:53:27.000
that healing energy deep into the choice of your knees.

2401
04:53:32.479 --> 04:53:36.279
Of course, there's the back of your your knee, the

2402
04:53:36.479 --> 04:53:43.479
inside crease where your knee is. It's a very sensitive area,

2403
04:53:46.400 --> 04:53:50.279
feels very nice when you stroke it. That might be

2404
04:53:50.439 --> 04:53:54.360
because it's an area that's not really touched very often.

2405
04:53:56.400 --> 04:54:03.279
It's almost like a hidden part, that crease in your legs.

2406
04:54:03.400 --> 04:54:10.720
It's almost like a part that has a sensitivity, which

2407
04:54:10.799 --> 04:54:21.200
is a little bit different. Of course, it's protected by

2408
04:54:21.279 --> 04:54:32.720
your legs. So you can imagine putting your fingers into

2409
04:54:32.799 --> 04:54:42.479
that crease in your legs. Fold in between your legs.

2410
04:54:43.200 --> 04:54:47.799
You can just message with your fingertips. Imagine your fingertips

2411
04:54:47.919 --> 04:54:58.279
going inside message in the muscle or tissue. You can

2412
04:54:58.360 --> 04:55:01.880
of course fielder the bones of your.

2413
04:55:01.880 --> 04:55:14.439
Knees, healing through your fingertips, and then as you go down.

2414
04:55:17.080 --> 04:55:19.880
To your calf muscles, and that's the part I'd like

2415
04:55:19.959 --> 04:55:24.680
to be able to really put my fingertips deep inside

2416
04:55:25.439 --> 04:55:34.400
my calf muscles, massage in every single tissue of that muscle,

2417
04:55:35.959 --> 04:55:45.880
healing every part, and then doing the same for my shins,

2418
04:55:49.080 --> 04:55:55.959
massage in and generally stroking the bones, generally stroking them,

2419
04:55:56.880 --> 04:56:01.000
healing in a loving way, so they deserve to be

2420
04:56:01.200 --> 04:56:08.400
treated as the precious bones that they are, because our

2421
04:56:08.520 --> 04:56:12.040
legs are so precious as in all the other parts

2422
04:56:12.119 --> 04:56:19.799
of our body, the more precious at any chul on

2423
04:56:19.919 --> 04:56:36.200
the planet. When you start to think about your legs

2424
04:56:36.400 --> 04:56:47.479
in this way, it can change your perspective. It might

2425
04:56:47.680 --> 04:56:54.279
sound a bit a bit silly to start with the

2426
04:56:54.439 --> 04:57:00.599
idea of having the love for your legs, showing atiation

2427
04:57:02.560 --> 04:57:08.200
for your thighs, wanting to be able to put your

2428
04:57:08.319 --> 04:57:16.599
hands in your thighs, massage the muscles and the bones,

2429
04:57:18.439 --> 04:57:22.560
and to get your fingers deep in there and releasing

2430
04:57:23.240 --> 04:57:34.400
all tension, just to show how much you care about

2431
04:57:35.080 --> 04:57:39.599
your legs. How much you care for what your legs

2432
04:57:39.880 --> 04:57:48.919
do for you regularly, your knees, your calves, your ankles,

2433
04:57:53.240 --> 04:58:00.840
the strength of your ankles considering how thin they are

2434
04:58:01.080 --> 04:58:08.840
compared to the rest of your legs, especially your thighs. Yeah,

2435
04:58:08.919 --> 04:58:21.000
they're so strong, so flexible, absolutely amazing things. Your ankles

2436
04:58:21.319 --> 04:58:30.439
are truly a gift because of what they do for you,

2437
04:58:35.919 --> 04:58:42.880
supporting all that weight, regardless of how what weight you are,

2438
04:58:44.080 --> 04:58:48.560
Even if you only eat eight stone, there's still a

2439
04:58:48.680 --> 04:58:55.240
lot of weight for these little ankles. How am a

2440
04:58:55.360 --> 04:59:03.560
lot heavier than eight stone? Double dock get My ankles

2441
04:59:05.319 --> 04:59:12.959
support my body all the time, or they do give

2442
04:59:13.040 --> 04:59:17.599
off a sigh of relief when I sit down. That's

2443
04:59:18.799 --> 04:59:28.639
my whole legs do my feet feels go, my toes clap,

2444
04:59:29.840 --> 04:59:58.279
They're so happy. Your legs really are amazing, And I

2445
04:59:58.279 --> 05:00:01.959
don't know they're talking about. Talking about your legs is

2446
05:00:02.040 --> 05:00:09.560
probably possibly among the most boring things I've ever heard

2447
05:00:09.599 --> 05:00:18.000
anyone say. Possibly be boring or not, Everything I said

2448
05:00:18.159 --> 05:00:34.799
is true. Your legs are amazing. Your legs deserve not

2449
05:00:35.200 --> 05:00:53.639
just respect, They deserve to relax deeply. They deserve to

2450
05:00:53.799 --> 05:00:59.040
take some time out of the day to just let

2451
05:00:59.200 --> 05:01:35.159
go compare. Lately, legs really can relax. And because the

2452
05:01:35.319 --> 05:01:39.759
legs are so such a most, you know, very important

2453
05:01:40.479 --> 05:01:45.360
part of your body when you relax reles, the rest

2454
05:01:45.439 --> 05:01:57.119
of your body also naturally follows in that journey of comfort.

2455
05:02:05.279 --> 05:02:09.080
Like I feel it in my hips. My hips feel

2456
05:02:09.799 --> 05:02:17.759
really loose, and also my lower back as well. My

2457
05:02:17.919 --> 05:02:23.639
lower back really feels it feels stretched, even though I'm

2458
05:02:23.759 --> 05:02:29.959
just sitting in a chair and there's no stretching as

2459
05:02:30.000 --> 05:02:33.119
far as I'm aware that I'm doing. It's almost as

2460
05:02:33.159 --> 05:02:37.080
if the muscles are just relaxed so much that there

2461
05:02:37.200 --> 05:02:45.880
is a natural stretch as the tension has reduced a lot.

2462
05:03:02.240 --> 05:03:05.319
And I'm now going to count down from ten down

2463
05:03:05.400 --> 05:03:16.720
to one, and you can continue to fill wonderfully relaxed

2464
05:03:20.520 --> 05:03:44.599
ten nine eight, seven, six, five, four.

2465
05:03:47.759 --> 05:03:52.479
Three two.

2466
05:03:56.720 --> 05:04:14.479
One relax. So I'm just going to count down from

2467
05:04:14.639 --> 05:04:19.119
five down to one. And as a countdown, if you

2468
05:04:19.279 --> 05:04:26.159
just focus on the numbers, just the numbers counting down,

2469
05:04:27.240 --> 05:04:36.360
and notice how you feel in this moment as you

2470
05:04:36.520 --> 05:04:44.040
hear the numbers counting down, knowing that those numbers counting

2471
05:04:44.119 --> 05:04:54.279
down represent you feeling calmer, not just in your body,

2472
05:04:54.439 --> 05:05:02.799
but also relaxing your mind. Just notice how you feel.

2473
05:05:03.680 --> 05:05:09.599
There's nothing to do, there's nothing to say, there's nothing

2474
05:05:09.720 --> 05:05:52.759
to think about. Starting with number five four three two one.

2475
05:06:02.200 --> 05:06:11.439
And as you notice the gradual letting go.

2476
05:06:13.799 --> 05:06:20.759
Of the tension in your body, you may also begin

2477
05:06:21.080 --> 05:06:27.040
to notice and be aware of how your mind is

2478
05:06:28.119 --> 05:06:35.959
starting to slow down. This is just a natural thing

2479
05:06:36.439 --> 05:06:37.119
that happens.

2480
05:06:39.720 --> 05:06:44.919
It's not really a special procedure. It's just natural because

2481
05:06:45.000 --> 05:06:50.880
as your body relaxes, your mind also starts to relax

2482
05:06:52.520 --> 05:06:56.159
and the more your mind relaxes, the more your body relaxes.

2483
05:06:56.279 --> 05:07:06.799
It's just a continuous circle of relaxation. And there's that

2484
05:07:08.040 --> 05:07:15.919
calmness that comes from relative quietness. You know, even even

2485
05:07:15.959 --> 05:07:22.919
if this background sounds either your side online, it's still

2486
05:07:23.439 --> 05:07:28.680
going to be quite calm. You know, you haven't got

2487
05:07:28.759 --> 05:07:33.880
the television on, there's no music in the background, unless

2488
05:07:33.919 --> 05:07:41.360
you're listening to the recorded with music. Of course, you're

2489
05:07:41.520 --> 05:07:43.639
very likely not going to be sitting in a room

2490
05:07:43.720 --> 05:07:48.240
with other people. Of course you might be, but generally

2491
05:07:48.439 --> 05:07:51.560
it's more ideal if you can do this on your own,

2492
05:07:53.279 --> 05:08:03.360
so no distractions, and when you stop thinking about stuff,

2493
05:08:09.919 --> 05:08:20.439
relaxation automatically rises. A sense of comfort starts to grow.

2494
05:08:24.720 --> 05:08:31.880
And without trying to build it up into something fantastical or.

2495
05:08:35.240 --> 05:08:43.919
Something magical. This is just a natural process, something that's

2496
05:08:45.119 --> 05:08:48.599
easy to accomplish.

2497
05:08:51.400 --> 05:08:55.759
In fact, it's almost you know, the sense of relaxing

2498
05:08:56.599 --> 05:09:01.080
completely happens really when you put no.

2499
05:09:01.240 --> 05:09:05.799
Effort into it. It's not something that you can really force.

2500
05:09:08.400 --> 05:09:17.799
It's something that happens naturally. And part of the process

2501
05:09:18.200 --> 05:09:29.400
of this recording and others is simply two allow you

2502
05:09:31.799 --> 05:09:47.119
to take advantage of this space, this time, to let go,

2503
05:09:50.279 --> 05:09:58.479
to just be here, to be in tune with how

2504
05:09:58.599 --> 05:10:11.959
you feel, yet with the intention of wanting to relax

2505
05:10:12.119 --> 05:10:23.439
deeply and maybe even to fall asleep, depending on what

2506
05:10:23.639 --> 05:10:29.759
it is that you wish for yourself in this moment.

2507
05:10:36.759 --> 05:10:46.119
As we know, relaxing is the majority of the process

2508
05:10:46.240 --> 05:10:51.400
of falling asleep. The actual falling asleep part is the

2509
05:10:51.560 --> 05:10:59.360
tiny bit of the end. The deeper relaxed you become,

2510
05:11:03.279 --> 05:11:20.959
the easier you find yourself drifting. But you can also

2511
05:11:21.119 --> 05:11:31.200
if you choose stay focused on my voice and really

2512
05:11:31.680 --> 05:12:01.360
enjoy the process gradually relaxing each muscle in your body

2513
05:12:06.439 --> 05:12:35.599
effortlessly and just observing the sensation of letting go completely.

2514
05:12:41.599 --> 05:12:45.639
This time. I'm going to count from six down to one.

2515
05:12:50.799 --> 05:13:01.279
You can notice your mind calming down more each number

2516
05:13:03.000 --> 05:13:14.959
that you hear me say naturally, feeling calm and slower

2517
05:13:18.959 --> 05:16:14.759
and peaceful sex five, four, three two four, being aware

2518
05:16:15.119 --> 05:16:30.000
of how your mind has slowed right down, sinking deeply

2519
05:16:32.799 --> 05:16:50.119
into relaxation. And as you focus on your mind and

2520
05:16:53.680 --> 05:17:02.919
may notice that there are some thoughts still there, maybe

2521
05:17:03.080 --> 05:17:12.880
some stubborn thoughts that for some reason perhaps need your attention.

2522
05:17:19.759 --> 05:17:28.639
That's what you can do is send love to those thoughts.

2523
05:17:31.919 --> 05:17:34.520
Sprinkle those thoughts.

2524
05:17:38.639 --> 05:17:39.439
With love.

2525
05:17:40.919 --> 05:17:45.159
Like little petals from a flower. Just sprinkle it over them,

2526
05:17:46.599 --> 05:17:53.720
petals fill good love towards those thoughts, to let those

2527
05:17:53.959 --> 05:18:00.400
thoughts know that you're not abandon the number. You just

2528
05:18:00.880 --> 05:18:10.959
need them. You require them to just calm down, slow down,

2529
05:18:13.279 --> 05:18:28.119
quiet down for now. So as you focus on those

2530
05:18:28.880 --> 05:18:33.799
remaining thoughts as we count down this time from seven

2531
05:18:34.680 --> 05:18:43.360
down to one. With each number, just imagine sprinkling those

2532
05:18:43.599 --> 05:19:03.040
flower petals of love, kindness, gratitude over those thoughts, which

2533
05:19:03.080 --> 05:19:09.080
will allow them to just melt away and relax deeply.

2534
05:19:13.240 --> 05:19:27.680
With every number, those thoughts will become more and more relaxed.

2535
05:19:33.279 --> 05:20:56.159
Starting with number seven six five four three.

2536
05:21:47.360 --> 05:21:47.599
Four.

2537
05:22:04.639 --> 05:22:22.040
As you now notice how relaxed you're feeling in your body,

2538
05:22:30.439 --> 05:22:43.639
We're going to focus on your hands, because the more

2539
05:22:43.759 --> 05:22:50.799
relaxed your hands are, the more relaxed your body and

2540
05:22:51.080 --> 05:23:12.639
mind are. There's you focus on your hands and your fingers.

2541
05:23:18.200 --> 05:23:22.959
There's nothing needed to be done. There's no clinching of

2542
05:23:23.240 --> 05:23:35.200
fists or dancing the fingers or anything like that. It's

2543
05:23:35.479 --> 05:23:49.400
just noticing and focusing on your hands. Noticing the early

2544
05:23:49.759 --> 05:24:14.840
film because the more relaxed your hands feel, the calmer

2545
05:24:15.040 --> 05:24:26.319
your mind feels, and the more comforts you feel throughout

2546
05:24:26.680 --> 05:24:59.240
your body. Jee may have already noticed you mind is

2547
05:25:02.159 --> 05:25:29.000
starting to drift. Huis him just on your hands and fingers,

2548
05:25:33.919 --> 05:25:46.360
allowing them to cheat. Experience a real deepening of that

2549
05:25:46.720 --> 05:26:02.240
relaxation in your hands and fingers, more and more relaxed.

2550
05:26:07.360 --> 05:26:25.720
With each number from eight down to one. You can

2551
05:26:25.799 --> 05:26:37.639
almost feel that healing, relaxing energy spreading into your hands

2552
05:26:38.720 --> 05:26:44.080
and fingers, becoming.

2553
05:26:47.840 --> 05:26:49.520
E more.

2554
05:26:51.479 --> 05:27:09.560
Relaxing with each number going down eight down to one,

2555
05:27:13.880 --> 05:31:06.639
drifting drifting again. Starting with November eight seven four three. Wow,

2556
05:31:24.759 --> 05:31:34.080
just being here now, nothing to think about, nothing to do,

2557
05:31:35.680 --> 05:31:49.959
nothing to say, and everything just feels calmer. This is

2558
05:31:51.080 --> 05:31:57.840
your natural state of being. This is how you just

2559
05:31:58.959 --> 05:32:05.520
normally feel when you take away all of that other stuff.

2560
05:32:07.919 --> 05:32:12.880
Do we add, you know, I think like stress and worry.

2561
05:32:12.680 --> 05:32:13.040
In and.

2562
05:32:15.959 --> 05:32:30.639
Over thinking, anxiety, tension, just generally thinking about stuff. We

2563
05:32:30.840 --> 05:32:34.840
take that away, which is what we do. What we're

2564
05:32:34.880 --> 05:32:48.720
doing now, you're left with a real sense of peacefulness

2565
05:32:52.279 --> 05:33:00.680
which comes to you very quickly because ultimately it's just

2566
05:33:01.880 --> 05:33:14.240
a feeling, a feeling of comfort. It's almost as if

2567
05:33:14.279 --> 05:33:18.680
you've got inside yourself and you've found a special place

2568
05:33:20.040 --> 05:33:32.479
where everything is peaceful, a place where you can film

2569
05:33:33.720 --> 05:33:43.080
relaxed and joy natural sense of comfort, a place where

2570
05:33:43.200 --> 05:33:52.720
you could be here where you can accept yourself and

2571
05:33:52.880 --> 05:33:57.840
who you are, a place where you're not trying to

2572
05:34:00.159 --> 05:34:10.319
please anybody else, in a place where you can actually

2573
05:34:13.720 --> 05:34:18.639
not just love yourself, but in some ways more importantly,

2574
05:34:19.279 --> 05:34:36.319
you can like yourself, appreciate who you are. That sense

2575
05:34:36.439 --> 05:34:50.119
of gratitude, he's in the air way around you. That's

2576
05:34:50.200 --> 05:34:58.560
also a place where you can actually feel the healing

2577
05:34:59.119 --> 05:35:14.000
energy soaking into your body. Healing energy soaking into your body.

2578
05:35:19.119 --> 05:35:28.520
That healing energy spreads through your veins, traveling to each

2579
05:35:30.000 --> 05:35:40.799
every single part of your body. When you start to

2580
05:35:40.959 --> 05:35:48.520
realize that actually that healing energy, it's not just entered

2581
05:35:48.599 --> 05:36:00.119
into your brain, it's become part of your brain and

2582
05:36:00.240 --> 05:36:06.720
the spinal fluid who is now mixed with healing energy,

2583
05:36:11.959 --> 05:36:18.240
not just allowing you to feel so much more relaxed

2584
05:36:20.279 --> 05:36:32.279
and healthy in this moment, but also you start to

2585
05:36:32.439 --> 05:36:43.279
realize that actually, what's happening now without healing relaxing energy

2586
05:36:44.200 --> 05:36:56.159
spreading through your body is actually changing your life. It's

2587
05:36:56.240 --> 05:37:01.759
actually changing the way you're going to feel not just now,

2588
05:37:03.599 --> 05:37:10.400
but tomorrow and the next day. As your health improves,

2589
05:37:14.000 --> 05:37:21.319
not just your physical health, but your mental health. Things

2590
05:37:21.720 --> 05:37:26.959
that used to bother you in the past, for some reason,

2591
05:37:28.159 --> 05:37:35.720
no longer have the effect that they used to because

2592
05:37:35.840 --> 05:37:47.520
something has changed deep within you. Maybe things that used

2593
05:37:47.560 --> 05:37:58.000
to cause you to feel anger no longer have that

2594
05:37:58.919 --> 05:38:06.919
power to control you the way they seem to be

2595
05:38:07.040 --> 05:38:16.119
able to before. As you realize that you're the one

2596
05:38:18.119 --> 05:38:29.880
who decides what affects you, you're the one who decides

2597
05:38:32.680 --> 05:38:43.720
to feel relaxed and calm when you choose to enjoy

2598
05:38:45.279 --> 05:39:00.799
noticing these natural developments of healing, continuing to grow and

2599
05:39:01.000 --> 05:39:12.360
improve your life day by day, including of course, your

2600
05:39:12.439 --> 05:39:29.720
ability to relax so much easier and sleep in. It's

2601
05:39:29.759 --> 05:39:40.080
the most natural thing in the world to you because

2602
05:39:40.360 --> 05:39:46.360
for in, the sleep is something that you've done so

2603
05:39:46.639 --> 05:39:54.240
many times in your life, and you know that you

2604
05:39:54.400 --> 05:40:01.119
were born, as we all were, with the ability to

2605
05:40:01.360 --> 05:40:14.840
fall asleep naturally. We're born with that ability to just

2606
05:40:15.360 --> 05:40:29.479
drift off into a deep, healing sleep. Even when we're kids,

2607
05:40:31.159 --> 05:40:34.040
sometimes we'll fall asleep and we don't even want to

2608
05:40:36.080 --> 05:40:40.560
try to think a stay awake. Maybe it's a birthday

2609
05:40:40.599 --> 05:40:44.759
in the morning, or it's Christmas or holiday or something

2610
05:40:44.840 --> 05:40:47.479
we look forward to. We don't want to go to sleep.

2611
05:40:49.720 --> 05:40:54.639
But the more we want to stay awake, the more

2612
05:40:54.919 --> 05:41:03.240
we just start to drift. And the more you fight drifting,

2613
05:41:04.119 --> 05:41:09.560
we try to stop yourself and drifting asleep, the deeper

2614
05:41:09.759 --> 05:41:21.360
and stronger that drifting becomes. Because we're born not just

2615
05:41:21.560 --> 05:41:28.240
with the need to relax deeply and to naturally fall asleep,

2616
05:41:31.479 --> 05:41:44.799
but it's our birthright, it's part of our DNA, and

2617
05:41:45.040 --> 05:41:50.520
sometimes as we get older in life, perhaps at times

2618
05:41:51.400 --> 05:42:03.159
we have forgotten that relaxing can cooltely. It's not only

2619
05:42:04.360 --> 05:42:27.840
a wonderfully pleasant experience, it's also really easy. It's very,

2620
05:42:28.639 --> 05:42:34.959
very easy to let go, because that's all it is.

2621
05:42:35.159 --> 05:42:35.560
Is just.

2622
05:42:39.080 --> 05:42:50.479
Deciding to let go. And when you press the play

2623
05:42:50.599 --> 05:43:00.840
button on my recordings, you have given permission from my

2624
05:43:01.080 --> 05:43:10.240
voice to relation. When you press that play button, you

2625
05:43:10.360 --> 05:43:21.200
have given me permission for my words to effect you

2626
05:43:21.840 --> 05:43:38.319
in a positive, only a positive way, opening up your

2627
05:43:38.479 --> 05:44:01.200
mind to useful and healing suggestions that can have such

2628
05:44:01.240 --> 05:44:13.360
an amazing effect on how you feel right now, as

2629
05:44:13.479 --> 05:44:24.360
well as those changes that continue long after the recording ends,

2630
05:44:26.119 --> 05:44:35.240
those changes within you that continue to flourish and grow,

2631
05:44:39.759 --> 05:44:53.400
transforming your life in a positive, beautiful way, allowing you

2632
05:44:54.080 --> 05:45:00.119
to move forward in your life in the direction and

2633
05:45:00.279 --> 05:45:17.439
that you choose for yourself. And this feeling, this feeling

2634
05:45:17.759 --> 05:45:33.279
that you can experience a safety, comfort, calmness. This feels

2635
05:45:33.400 --> 05:45:54.439
so nice. It's such a healthy place to be, and

2636
05:45:54.639 --> 05:46:12.439
that positivity grows within you each and every day. Moving forward,

2637
05:46:16.240 --> 05:46:27.240
you're going to find that you're more relaxed physically and

2638
05:46:27.439 --> 05:46:36.080
in your mind. It's more relaxed. And it's not that

2639
05:46:36.200 --> 05:46:41.759
you're thinking slower. It's just that your mind will be

2640
05:46:42.000 --> 05:46:53.799
less clogged up with unnecessary negativity because from now on,

2641
05:46:54.479 --> 05:47:04.119
your mind rejects negativity. From now on, you're going to

2642
05:47:04.279 --> 05:47:21.119
start noticing when negativity arises, and you can just say stop, stop,

2643
05:47:24.000 --> 05:47:30.759
and that negativity will turn around and leave you alone.

2644
05:47:38.759 --> 05:47:58.080
Stop and that negativity will disappear. And did you notice

2645
05:47:58.400 --> 05:48:06.720
that you feel way more relaxed than you probably expected.

2646
05:48:12.880 --> 05:48:21.720
You can now congratulate yourself because you are the person

2647
05:48:22.360 --> 05:48:23.200
that has done this.

2648
05:48:24.959 --> 05:48:30.439
You are the one that has opened your mind up

2649
05:48:31.119 --> 05:48:39.159
to the simple facts that you can feel more relaxed

2650
05:48:39.279 --> 05:48:48.919
in your body and in your mind. You've opened your

2651
05:48:49.080 --> 05:48:50.040
mind up to.

2652
05:48:52.360 --> 05:48:58.919
The birthright of being able to just fall asleep easily

2653
05:49:00.040 --> 05:49:14.000
when you choose. And that's a nice feeling. Don't you

2654
05:49:14.080 --> 05:49:25.680
think it feels nice? Doesn't it? To feel calm? All

2655
05:49:25.720 --> 05:49:30.319
that healing energy is spreading through your body in your

2656
05:49:30.439 --> 05:49:46.200
mind to spend time in a special place where negativity

2657
05:49:47.720 --> 05:50:00.599
can no longer enter. Negativity is banned. It's bad, it's

2658
05:50:00.680 --> 05:50:07.200
not allowed entry. It doesn't It doesn't. This doesn't deserve

2659
05:50:07.279 --> 05:50:15.479
to be here, doesn't belong here. Negativity has no place

2660
05:50:16.520 --> 05:50:33.319
in your life, which makes room for more comfort, more healing,

2661
05:50:35.439 --> 05:51:02.720
more relaxation, more peace. It feels eyes, doesn't it? Just

2662
05:51:06.439 --> 05:51:27.000
let go with everything. I'm gonna count down now from

2663
05:51:27.799 --> 05:51:38.119
twenty down to one. You can continue to relax. Futures

2664
05:51:38.639 --> 05:51:52.119
you can drift to sleep with every number you hear

2665
05:51:52.279 --> 05:52:03.840
me say, you can fill twice as next or if

2666
05:52:03.880 --> 05:52:39.360
you choose, you can fill twice sleeping now twenty nineteen, eighteen,

2667
05:52:46.279 --> 05:54:10.799
seventeen six, steam fifteen, fourteen, thirty two, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven,

2668
05:54:19.599 --> 05:55:14.319
six five. This is your time to just take a break,

2669
05:55:18.959 --> 05:55:30.000
your time to relax, to allow your mind to slow down,

2670
05:55:38.680 --> 05:55:52.759
to give yourself a permission to take a break from everything.

2671
05:55:57.639 --> 05:56:05.000
Endure the only person that can make that decision. You're

2672
05:56:05.040 --> 05:56:13.599
the only person that can actually tell your mind just relax,

2673
05:56:21.759 --> 05:56:37.360
to just take some time off so that you can

2674
05:56:38.119 --> 05:56:43.560
focus on your body, getting in touch with how you

2675
05:56:43.720 --> 05:57:00.599
feel physically, and in the process of this body scan

2676
05:57:01.000 --> 05:57:11.439
where you focus on different parts of your body, those

2677
05:57:11.759 --> 05:57:18.919
parts that you focus on and observe. Even though you're

2678
05:57:19.040 --> 05:57:27.840
not purposely requesting for those parts of your body to relax,

2679
05:57:30.080 --> 05:57:36.439
it's kind of expected. You expect when you listen to

2680
05:57:36.599 --> 05:57:49.279
my voice to feel more relaxed naturally, because when you're

2681
05:57:49.360 --> 05:57:59.560
listening to me, your attention is focused on my words,

2682
05:58:04.520 --> 05:58:15.400
and as my words guide you to focus on those

2683
05:58:15.639 --> 05:58:33.759
parts of your body, your focus increases, which actually calms

2684
05:58:33.919 --> 05:58:54.000
your mind. And when your mind calms down, your body relaxes.

2685
05:59:01.560 --> 05:59:23.479
And when your body calms down, your mind relaxes. And

2686
05:59:24.200 --> 05:59:31.639
even though I've not really started to focus on your body,

2687
05:59:34.639 --> 05:59:45.680
you can already feel that healing energy spreading through your body,

2688
05:59:50.599 --> 06:00:04.880
pushing out stress and tension, healing all the parts of

2689
06:00:04.959 --> 06:00:14.759
your body, including your skin, your bones, your blood, all

2690
06:00:14.799 --> 06:00:19.360
of your walkings inside your body, all of the muscles,

2691
06:00:20.520 --> 06:00:27.840
all of the fat, all of everything, every hair on

2692
06:00:28.000 --> 06:00:41.400
your body is filled with that healing energy. And when

2693
06:00:41.479 --> 06:00:57.759
your brain fills with that healing energy, the feeling of

2694
06:00:57.959 --> 06:01:25.759
comfort relaxation increases, deeply increases in a way that your

2695
06:01:25.919 --> 06:01:43.360
mind starts to fill perhaps spit drowsing because it's not needed,

2696
06:01:46.759 --> 06:02:03.000
and it may start to drift if that's what's needed.

2697
06:02:06.159 --> 06:02:10.720
So if you're listening to this and what you need

2698
06:02:11.040 --> 06:02:14.080
is deep relaxation, and that's what you get.

2699
06:02:16.279 --> 06:02:21.040
If what you need is to fall asleep.

2700
06:02:22.319 --> 06:02:31.279
Naturally and easily, that your mind drifts, that's also what

2701
06:02:31.360 --> 06:02:44.360
will happened. Because by pressing that play button on the

2702
06:02:44.439 --> 06:02:51.720
podcast and listening to me, give permission of your body

2703
06:02:51.919 --> 06:03:03.880
and your mind. In fact, you give the command to

2704
06:03:03.959 --> 06:03:14.959
your body and your mind to relax deeply and to

2705
06:03:15.119 --> 06:03:20.919
drift off to sleep, if that's what you want.

2706
06:03:24.119 --> 06:03:24.680
Or need.

2707
06:03:32.080 --> 06:03:37.880
Them. As I focus on the different parts of your body,

2708
06:03:42.840 --> 06:03:51.639
you may start to just drift. And then you come

2709
06:03:51.759 --> 06:03:55.240
back again and do you hear me talk again, And

2710
06:03:56.119 --> 06:04:05.200
I'm focusing on a different part of your body, you

2711
06:04:05.439 --> 06:04:16.720
may find yourself drifting being realize you're drifting. Until you

2712
06:04:16.959 --> 06:04:25.279
stop drifting. Drew a laugh again to my voice. Focusing

2713
06:04:26.439 --> 06:04:31.240
on a different part of your body starts to relax

2714
06:04:31.400 --> 06:04:41.520
in a deeper because that drifting, it's basically here already

2715
06:04:43.840 --> 06:04:53.639
in the sleep zone. And the more you drift, the

2716
06:04:53.759 --> 06:05:03.560
the longer you drift, the longer you drift. Eventually, that

2717
06:05:03.840 --> 06:05:14.000
drifting continues into sleep, and that's the last you remember

2718
06:05:16.080 --> 06:05:24.240
until you wake up in your own time. When you

2719
06:05:24.560 --> 06:05:33.319
experience the right amount of sleep, fear because when you do,

2720
06:05:35.200 --> 06:05:46.880
and if you don't fall asleep, it's extremely pleasant. So relaxing.

2721
06:05:49.240 --> 06:05:51.919
So deep here.

2722
06:05:54.360 --> 06:06:12.159
Sleep, I feel so nice to relaxite in your own

2723
06:06:12.360 --> 06:06:22.400
body and mind. You feel that he imagy is spreading

2724
06:06:22.840 --> 06:06:47.400
through you. Relaxing is so deeply, relaxes so deeply, to

2725
06:06:47.919 --> 06:07:13.400
start to focus on your eyes, to true down to

2726
06:07:21.520 --> 06:08:26.080
your shoulders. Thinks your chest stun you and spine, your apes,

2727
06:08:34.000 --> 06:09:25.000
your ex faint spies, spreading grimeside your body, feeling you up.

2728
06:09:27.799 --> 06:09:41.360
Now let's focus again on parts of your body, focusing

2729
06:09:41.520 --> 06:09:52.520
this time on your forehead. Now on your mouth, your lips,

2730
06:09:54.520 --> 06:10:14.439
your tongue, the whole of your mouth. Focusing on your fingers.

2731
06:10:19.840 --> 06:10:24.400
Maybe you could move your fingers a little bits. You

2732
06:10:24.560 --> 06:10:40.159
can focus on each one individually, both hands, and even

2733
06:10:40.240 --> 06:10:43.880
though it should focus on both of your hands, now

2734
06:10:45.599 --> 06:10:53.840
it almost seems to just melt into one. Where is

2735
06:10:54.000 --> 06:11:01.919
your right hand starting left hand? And no words, as

2736
06:11:01.959 --> 06:11:19.279
if just mixed together. Now, focusing on your knees, just

2737
06:11:19.799 --> 06:11:42.159
noticing how your knees hell. Now focusing on your elbows,

2738
06:11:45.000 --> 06:12:26.720
focusing on both your elbows, just observing the feelings to say,

2739
06:12:28.560 --> 06:14:48.439
sad ac energy ass it's a group of senactions as saves.

2740
06:15:00.680 --> 06:15:56.040
Where hell your toes feel right now, ninety cents high

2741
06:15:56.319 --> 06:16:45.000
in chile, body else noticing your mind feels now, lett

2742
06:16:45.159 --> 06:17:19.560
him go, lett him go, Let's go everything, letting go,

2743
06:17:26.159 --> 06:18:00.360
leting go, Let's go of everything everything. I'm going to

2744
06:18:00.479 --> 06:18:04.279
start now, and i'd like you just, first of all,

2745
06:18:04.439 --> 06:18:10.639
just to see yourself lying down on the message table,

2746
06:18:12.439 --> 06:18:16.799
lying on your front. Your head is supported, your arms

2747
06:18:17.159 --> 06:18:26.279
are supported, and you feel comfortable, and breathing is really easy,

2748
06:18:28.520 --> 06:18:35.119
and you feel you feel confident in how you look

2749
06:18:35.200 --> 06:18:38.799
as well. So there's none of that issue of body

2750
06:18:38.919 --> 06:18:47.639
problems or shyness, because I'm a professional and this is

2751
06:18:48.279 --> 06:18:53.439
a therapy session, so none of that stuff matters on whatsoever.

2752
06:18:57.319 --> 06:19:03.799
This is about you. This is about how you feel

2753
06:19:04.439 --> 06:19:11.240
and how you can enjoy that sense of comfort and

2754
06:19:11.400 --> 06:19:18.639
relaxation that comes from letting go and allowing my hands

2755
06:19:19.479 --> 06:19:27.000
and my fingers to relax you by messaging your body.

2756
06:19:32.119 --> 06:19:34.319
So I want to start off just by placing my

2757
06:19:34.520 --> 06:19:41.360
hands on the back of your head, just gently, just

2758
06:19:41.680 --> 06:19:46.319
you can feel my hands feel like really on you.

2759
06:19:50.759 --> 06:19:53.119
So you can maybe feel the warmth of my hands

2760
06:19:53.200 --> 06:19:58.639
on the back of your head. With my hands to

2761
06:19:58.720 --> 06:20:02.680
the side of your head, not pressing, but just holding

2762
06:20:02.880 --> 06:20:08.880
there very gently, maybe over your ears, and a little

2763
06:20:08.919 --> 06:20:13.720
bit on your face, so you can feel my hands

2764
06:20:15.799 --> 06:20:28.799
so you can become accustomed to them. And now put

2765
06:20:28.880 --> 06:20:31.279
my hands on the back of your head again and

2766
06:20:31.479 --> 06:20:38.439
gently let them slide down onto the back of your neck.

2767
06:20:46.080 --> 06:20:56.000
You can feel my hands gently stroking the back of

2768
06:20:56.080 --> 06:21:02.639
your neck to start with, just so you can get

2769
06:21:02.799 --> 06:21:07.279
used to the feeling of my hands on your skin,

2770
06:21:07.880 --> 06:21:16.400
get accustomed to realize that you're safe and it's all good,

2771
06:21:16.759 --> 06:21:26.319
it's all fine, and I'm want to start gently messaging

2772
06:21:27.080 --> 06:21:37.680
the muscles in the back of your neck with both hands.

2773
06:21:43.840 --> 06:21:49.840
And this is a very trusting situation really, because our

2774
06:21:49.959 --> 06:21:54.159
necks are so fragile and to have someone have their

2775
06:21:54.279 --> 06:21:59.360
hands around your neck in that way can sometimes be

2776
06:21:59.599 --> 06:22:04.560
problem metic for people, which is why massages are quite good,

2777
06:22:05.680 --> 06:22:14.119
because it allows you to relax and to get in

2778
06:22:14.319 --> 06:22:31.720
touch with trust, to feel peaceful and calm. There's a

2779
06:22:31.840 --> 06:22:40.560
massage the sides of your neck, gently moving from the

2780
06:22:40.639 --> 06:22:44.479
bottom of your neck. It would be sort of near

2781
06:22:44.520 --> 06:22:47.799
where your shoulders start, I guess, all the way up

2782
06:22:49.880 --> 06:22:54.840
to your jaw, your ears, kind of area on the

2783
06:22:55.080 --> 06:22:59.919
side of your neck. Of course, there's a lot longer

2784
06:23:00.279 --> 06:23:16.439
than the front of your neck. The message in the

2785
06:23:16.560 --> 06:23:24.279
back of your neck, especially that area where perhaps we

2786
06:23:24.479 --> 06:23:32.479
hold tension, and there's that area's message. You can actually

2787
06:23:32.680 --> 06:23:36.759
feel a sense of release in the back of your neck,

2788
06:23:42.319 --> 06:23:47.599
and maybe you can breathe it out as well. Notice

2789
06:23:47.680 --> 06:24:00.840
how it feels, Notice how you feel then moving down

2790
06:24:01.080 --> 06:24:05.720
to that area between your neck and your shoulders, that

2791
06:24:06.000 --> 06:24:14.599
muscle area, starting to message that area on both sides.

2792
06:24:16.799 --> 06:24:19.040
I mean, this would be the area that a lot

2793
06:24:19.040 --> 06:24:21.200
of people would message if they were going to give

2794
06:24:21.279 --> 06:24:27.680
you like a shoulder message. Even that's not technically the shoulders,

2795
06:24:28.240 --> 06:24:30.720
but it's all the muscles that lead to the shoulders

2796
06:24:32.560 --> 06:24:37.400
from the neck and a game that can hold tension

2797
06:24:38.479 --> 06:24:44.639
and stress, and when massaged sometimes a nice deep message

2798
06:24:44.799 --> 06:24:52.200
is useful, and you decide how deep that message is,

2799
06:25:03.560 --> 06:25:10.560
and just allow my knuckles just to dig in to

2800
06:25:10.720 --> 06:25:20.040
get to those muscles and to read relaxed and all

2801
06:25:20.119 --> 06:25:37.560
the time being firm yet gentle with you and just

2802
06:25:37.799 --> 06:25:46.720
stroking down the area to your actual shoulders, moving to

2803
06:25:46.880 --> 06:25:57.720
the muscles of your shoulders, and maybe initially just pulling

2804
06:25:57.840 --> 06:26:00.319
up the shoulders a little bit off the tip able

2805
06:26:01.680 --> 06:26:03.599
just to give you a little bit of a stretch,

2806
06:26:05.360 --> 06:26:14.040
but very gently, and you've got the muscles at the

2807
06:26:14.119 --> 06:26:26.080
front of your shoulders the sides of the back. Again,

2808
06:26:26.319 --> 06:26:30.159
this is a part that can really take quite a

2809
06:26:30.240 --> 06:26:38.439
bit of pressure, quite a bit of needing if if

2810
06:26:38.520 --> 06:26:46.479
you wish to really release the tension to really get

2811
06:26:46.599 --> 06:26:52.799
into those muscles and you can let your fingers in

2812
06:26:53.000 --> 06:26:59.799
there make you feel really nice. Sometimes it's just being stroked.

2813
06:27:01.520 --> 06:27:12.279
Being messaged quite strongly can all be beneficial to the

2814
06:27:12.400 --> 06:27:30.639
real conversation with the muscles in your shoulders. Now you

2815
06:27:30.799 --> 06:27:40.479
move down your arms. We're doing one arm at a time.

2816
06:27:41.400 --> 06:27:50.479
Starting with your right arm. What I'll do is I

2817
06:27:50.759 --> 06:27:54.880
just lift your arm up, just hold it to the

2818
06:27:55.080 --> 06:27:59.959
side of you. Don't worry it still be a tench

2819
06:28:02.200 --> 06:28:16.919
and not just message the tops of your arms all

2820
06:28:16.919 --> 06:28:34.599
the way down to your forearms, into your wrists, gently

2821
06:28:34.959 --> 06:28:47.599
massaging that parts, the softer part which is the under

2822
06:28:47.720 --> 06:28:53.279
part of the arm, which leads to the crease in

2823
06:28:53.400 --> 06:29:09.360
your elbow. The inside it's much more sensitive skin. Sometimes

2824
06:29:09.520 --> 06:29:20.000
just having that stroked I feel really nice, pleasurable and relaxing.

2825
06:29:28.759 --> 06:29:39.360
Now moving down to your right hand, just holding your

2826
06:29:39.520 --> 06:29:52.720
hand in both of my hands, just pressing gently on

2827
06:29:52.840 --> 06:30:04.240
the back of your hand, stretching your fingers slightly at

2828
06:30:04.279 --> 06:30:19.119
the same time pressing down and messaging each finger, and

2829
06:30:19.240 --> 06:30:29.840
then starting to massage the palms and the hand. Just

2830
06:30:30.080 --> 06:30:41.400
turning the hand, stretching it gently and actually having your

2831
06:30:41.599 --> 06:30:49.880
handheld can really be an emotional experience. Sometimes even if

2832
06:30:50.159 --> 06:30:55.000
it is a stranger, someone you don't know very well,

2833
06:30:56.040 --> 06:31:03.119
like a massage person or a therapist. Maybe because it's intimate,

2834
06:31:10.840 --> 06:31:23.639
you can feel nice, you can feel safe. And as

2835
06:31:23.720 --> 06:31:26.680
I put that right arm back down where it was,

2836
06:31:32.400 --> 06:31:39.279
I did the same with your left arm, exactly the same.

2837
06:31:43.959 --> 06:31:48.639
Massage and the muscles in your arm all the way

2838
06:31:48.759 --> 06:31:56.959
down to your rest, stroking the inside of your arm,

2839
06:32:02.479 --> 06:32:15.919
just being gentle or as firm as you require, and

2840
06:32:16.080 --> 06:32:32.479
then massaging your left hand, stretching the fingers, gently massaging

2841
06:32:32.759 --> 06:32:52.439
the palm of your left hand. You feel so so relaxing,

2842
06:33:00.159 --> 06:33:17.880
so comforting, and just rest your left arm back down.

2843
06:33:25.200 --> 06:33:31.520
The start to message your back, the biggest part of

2844
06:33:31.599 --> 06:33:43.040
your body, starting at the top, starting again where you

2845
06:33:43.080 --> 06:33:46.880
would have been, the area at the top in between

2846
06:33:46.959 --> 06:33:53.880
your shoulders, near your neck. Going back and massage in

2847
06:33:53.919 --> 06:34:06.000
the area again, but this time moving downwards, taking it downward.

2848
06:34:06.200 --> 06:34:14.080
Stroke to the middle of your back, working from the

2849
06:34:14.479 --> 06:34:24.799
outside inwards, massage in that your back, but the outsides

2850
06:34:25.119 --> 06:34:34.680
of your back, the parts where your arms would maybe

2851
06:34:35.159 --> 06:34:47.880
rest against, almost the path that connects your front to

2852
06:34:48.040 --> 06:35:06.000
your back. Just massaging down firmly but gently, as firm

2853
06:35:06.040 --> 06:35:14.000
as you want, moving down and moving across a little

2854
06:35:14.080 --> 06:35:17.720
bed and moving all the way down again being very

2855
06:35:17.840 --> 06:35:30.479
gentle yet firm as you choose. Eventually we get to

2856
06:35:30.560 --> 06:35:35.959
the spine. We can message the muscles and either side

2857
06:35:36.040 --> 06:35:39.639
of your spine from the top of your neck all

2858
06:35:39.880 --> 06:35:51.080
the way down to your lower back. We can do

2859
06:35:51.240 --> 06:36:01.360
that a few times. Sometimes people choose the knuckle or

2860
06:36:01.439 --> 06:36:06.400
the you know, two fingers and just go either side

2861
06:36:06.479 --> 06:36:11.520
of the spine, almost just push down, go all the

2862
06:36:11.599 --> 06:36:15.680
way down to the bottom of the spine, each time

2863
06:36:17.400 --> 06:36:26.360
releasing tension and opening up the body, stretching your body

2864
06:36:29.119 --> 06:36:33.200
so that you feel more relaxed but at the same

2865
06:36:33.400 --> 06:36:50.159
time rejuvenated. And now I'm going to move to one side,

2866
06:36:51.240 --> 06:36:58.279
to your right side, and from the bottom of your

2867
06:36:58.360 --> 06:37:06.200
ribs to your pelvis, I'm gonna message that area of

2868
06:37:06.360 --> 06:37:11.360
your back. I'll stretch over the other side and i

2869
06:37:11.360 --> 06:37:17.959
will pull the muscles gently and massage and push from

2870
06:37:18.040 --> 06:37:20.840
one end that side or the way to my side

2871
06:37:22.880 --> 06:37:25.799
to the middle of fact to where your spine is,

2872
06:37:27.159 --> 06:37:32.840
massaging that side of your spine the opposite side to

2873
06:37:32.880 --> 06:37:40.759
where I'm standing. It's almost like kneading bread. There's that

2874
06:37:40.919 --> 06:37:42.040
big area.

2875
06:37:41.880 --> 06:37:42.279
Which is.

2876
06:37:43.799 --> 06:37:54.040
Firm yet lots there to message potentially one of the

2877
06:37:54.119 --> 06:38:00.759
most important places to actually have a message because you

2878
06:38:01.080 --> 06:38:06.759
really feel it. You really feel the release and the

2879
06:38:06.840 --> 06:38:15.279
pleasure of having your lower back massaged. It releases so

2880
06:38:15.599 --> 06:38:24.040
much from your body that's not useful, starting a healing

2881
06:38:24.200 --> 06:38:29.799
process which will continue long after this recording is over.

2882
06:38:39.119 --> 06:38:41.959
The message in this part of your body not only

2883
06:38:42.119 --> 06:38:46.880
feels really good for you, it's actually fun to do

2884
06:38:48.319 --> 06:38:54.000
because it is, as I said, like kneading bread. It's

2885
06:38:54.040 --> 06:38:57.880
a part that you can really get hold of and

2886
06:38:58.080 --> 06:39:11.720
really massage deeply. If that's your choice. They're not going

2887
06:39:11.799 --> 06:39:13.759
to move over to the other side of your body

2888
06:39:14.279 --> 06:39:22.959
and do the same with the opposite part of your

2889
06:39:23.080 --> 06:39:30.360
lower back. Kneeding and messaging from your sides all way

2890
06:39:34.799 --> 06:39:37.520
to the middle of your back where your spine is

2891
06:39:41.959 --> 06:39:51.200
pressing and kneading firm and gentle at the same time.

2892
06:39:53.200 --> 06:40:05.680
It feels so releasing this mixed you're a pleasure, comfort, release, calmness,

2893
06:40:06.040 --> 06:40:17.680
relaxation or mixed together. Plus, there's that feeling from your

2894
06:40:17.759 --> 06:40:22.919
stomach as it's being stretched. Even though you're in your

2895
06:40:23.000 --> 06:40:27.279
stomach now, you can feel it being stretched because that

2896
06:40:27.439 --> 06:40:38.840
whole area is connected to your stomach. Now we're going

2897
06:40:38.919 --> 06:40:43.799
to move or move further up to your top of

2898
06:40:43.880 --> 06:40:50.159
your body, and we did the same this time, starting

2899
06:40:51.520 --> 06:40:57.799
with your upper back. Put my hands forward over and

2900
06:40:57.959 --> 06:41:05.319
massive massage in that area up to your spine, from

2901
06:41:05.400 --> 06:41:09.560
the side of your body up to your spine. So

2902
06:41:09.720 --> 06:41:16.000
some of that message area, that muscle tissue or whatever

2903
06:41:16.240 --> 06:41:21.799
fatty tissue even will be possibly from your chest because

2904
06:41:21.799 --> 06:41:29.000
it's all connected, chest and the back connect together. I'm

2905
06:41:29.040 --> 06:41:32.240
going to be massaging and just pulling some of that

2906
06:41:32.479 --> 06:41:43.200
skin from your side up and massaging the area of

2907
06:41:43.319 --> 06:41:51.759
your upper back all the way to your spine. And

2908
06:41:51.880 --> 06:41:54.599
then I'll move down a bit and I'll continue with

2909
06:41:54.759 --> 06:41:57.599
the middle of your back doing exactly the same thing.

2910
06:42:01.439 --> 06:42:15.479
There's gentle, as deep as you choose. Now move or

2911
06:42:15.759 --> 06:42:20.000
the other side again and do the exact same thing

2912
06:42:20.680 --> 06:42:23.759
with the top of your back on the other side,

2913
06:42:24.840 --> 06:42:38.919
from pretty much underneath your arm area really to your spine,

2914
06:42:43.959 --> 06:42:50.599
and then continue in that all the way down including

2915
06:42:50.759 --> 06:43:07.759
your lower your middle of your back. I'm gonna go

2916
06:43:08.200 --> 06:43:14.439
to your thighs, the backs of your thighs, and the

2917
06:43:14.639 --> 06:43:24.639
sides of your thighs, starting with your right leg, massaging

2918
06:43:26.080 --> 06:43:35.279
the back and the sides of your thighs gently and firmly.

2919
06:43:37.400 --> 06:43:40.840
There's a lot of muscles there. It's an area that

2920
06:43:40.959 --> 06:43:45.119
can be very tense at times and maybe needs a

2921
06:43:45.200 --> 06:43:47.639
little bit more pressure than the rest of the body

2922
06:43:48.720 --> 06:43:56.400
that's up to you. You can gently strike the back

2923
06:43:59.240 --> 06:44:03.560
of your leg where you know, opposite your knee joint

2924
06:44:04.840 --> 06:44:17.840
or underneath your knee joint, very sensitive, gentle area, and

2925
06:44:18.159 --> 06:44:25.520
working down to your calf muscles. Massage in your calf

2926
06:44:25.639 --> 06:44:40.360
muscles thoroughly and deeply, if you choose, using both hands fingers,

2927
06:44:40.880 --> 06:44:54.119
digging deep to your ankles and the back of your

2928
06:44:55.119 --> 06:45:01.119
back of your ankles. Just generally mess arge in that area,

2929
06:45:06.560 --> 06:45:23.240
maybe lifting the leg and stretching a little bit. Moving

2930
06:45:24.000 --> 06:45:38.240
to the right foot, massage in the bottom of your

2931
06:45:38.279 --> 06:45:53.759
feet and the size of your feet gently but firm

2932
06:45:53.919 --> 06:46:04.959
enough so they don't ticle, and just allow the pleasure

2933
06:46:05.040 --> 06:46:10.599
that you get from heaving your feet. Message to just

2934
06:46:10.759 --> 06:46:19.680
overtake you as I continue to message your feet, the

2935
06:46:19.759 --> 06:46:27.599
bottoms of your feet, the sides, your arches, your heel.

2936
06:46:30.040 --> 06:46:32.240
You can put a lot of pressure into your heel

2937
06:46:33.040 --> 06:46:38.040
and it feels amazing, Yet the arches need to be

2938
06:46:38.159 --> 06:46:49.840
a bit more gentle. Stretching your toes gently the message

2939
06:46:49.919 --> 06:46:55.959
in the bottoms of your toes with my fingers, each

2940
06:46:56.080 --> 06:47:09.720
one individually, moving her to the left leg to do

2941
06:47:09.880 --> 06:47:18.639
exactly the same thing, starting at the top of the thighs,

2942
06:47:20.840 --> 06:47:23.400
work in the back of the thighs and the sides,

2943
06:47:25.040 --> 06:47:35.439
massaging deeply and gently, a whole area, working all the

2944
06:47:35.479 --> 06:47:48.319
way down. And this is an area that maybe you

2945
06:47:48.400 --> 06:47:56.159
could like to spend more time relaxing and messaging. So

2946
06:47:56.279 --> 06:48:01.560
perhaps if you wanted, I could make a future recording

2947
06:48:02.200 --> 06:48:11.040
wants spend more time on one particular area. As you

2948
06:48:11.200 --> 06:48:23.599
moved down to your calf muscles, Massage in your calf

2949
06:48:23.720 --> 06:48:39.599
muscles firmly and gently, moving down your ankle into your feet,

2950
06:48:41.479 --> 06:48:47.200
Massage in the backs of your feet, the bottoms of

2951
06:48:47.279 --> 06:48:57.279
your feet, stretching your toes and massage in each toe individually.

2952
06:49:00.080 --> 06:49:05.959
That feeling of pleasure and release. The experience when your

2953
06:49:06.000 --> 06:49:28.159
having your feet messaged feels really good. Now shed turn

2954
06:49:28.319 --> 06:49:39.439
over in your mind. Laying on your back, I'm just

2955
06:49:39.520 --> 06:49:52.840
going to start again with your neck area in your shoulders,

2956
06:49:56.840 --> 06:50:07.240
just to get back in touch with that area and

2957
06:50:07.400 --> 06:50:18.799
lets you move up. I can clean my hands a

2958
06:50:18.880 --> 06:50:22.680
bit the more fresh because now I'm gonna message your

2959
06:50:22.759 --> 06:50:39.159
face simply starting off with your forehead. Your eyes are closed,

2960
06:50:40.520 --> 06:50:46.360
I can just stretch your eyes a little bit, pushing

2961
06:50:46.479 --> 06:50:56.959
up on your eyebrows. Just message him around, just scalp,

2962
06:51:02.680 --> 06:51:12.159
massaging down your cheeks, around your ears, into your jaw,

2963
06:51:13.360 --> 06:51:36.720
shently the side of your neck chin. They're just moving

2964
06:51:36.919 --> 06:51:48.119
down from your neck down to your chest, starting by

2965
06:51:48.240 --> 06:51:55.360
massage in the very top of your chest where the

2966
06:51:55.479 --> 06:52:08.880
collar bone is. Give a side of the collar, and

2967
06:52:08.919 --> 06:52:21.599
then just message in the hole of the chest, moving

2968
06:52:21.680 --> 06:52:35.279
the chest around. Because it's quite a large area, you

2969
06:52:35.319 --> 06:52:43.080
can move from one side to the next, moving my

2970
06:52:43.279 --> 06:52:56.720
hands underneath pretty much your arms up, stretching up, stretching

2971
06:52:56.840 --> 06:52:59.159
some of the muscles of your back in the process,

2972
06:53:04.560 --> 06:53:13.200
moving up over your chest and then moving down again,

2973
06:53:25.959 --> 06:53:31.439
then allowing my hands. They just massage gently and slide

2974
06:53:31.720 --> 06:53:38.240
down towards your stomach, starting in the middle of your chest,

2975
06:53:41.680 --> 06:53:48.360
and then gradually my hands moving apart and massage in

2976
06:53:48.520 --> 06:53:57.840
and sliding at the same time, moving down to just

2977
06:53:57.959 --> 06:54:13.479
below your red cage, moving down and then messaging up again,

2978
06:54:16.279 --> 06:54:24.159
giving your chest all the attention that it needs to

2979
06:54:24.360 --> 06:54:36.599
feel completely relaxed. Remembering that I'm also going to be

2980
06:54:36.720 --> 06:54:42.720
focusing on your sides as well, an area that really

2981
06:54:43.000 --> 06:54:50.560
doesn't get much attention but feels really good when it's massaged.

2982
06:54:55.479 --> 06:54:59.479
Just stroking my hands down the sides of your body,

2983
06:55:03.279 --> 06:55:06.720
just below your arms, all the way down to your hips.

2984
06:55:16.360 --> 06:55:22.200
Now move into your stomach area. We're going to stand

2985
06:55:22.360 --> 06:55:24.840
on one side of you like I did when I

2986
06:55:24.880 --> 06:55:30.279
dig your lower back, I'm gonna do a similar process

2987
06:55:31.279 --> 06:55:42.000
of just stretching the muscles from your side, gently massaging

2988
06:55:46.200 --> 06:55:54.080
from one side to the next, moving the whole area

2989
06:55:55.119 --> 06:55:59.040
from below your ribs all the way down to below

2990
06:55:59.119 --> 06:56:08.720
your belly button, and then move around to the other

2991
06:56:08.840 --> 06:56:24.639
side of you and repeat that process of relaxing deeply, calmly.

2992
06:56:27.799 --> 06:56:34.959
You feel loose, you feel free. And there's something about

2993
06:56:35.080 --> 06:56:39.919
having your stomach message that's different from any other part

2994
06:56:43.439 --> 06:56:47.959
because we do have a tendency of holding a different

2995
06:56:48.119 --> 06:56:52.119
kind of stress in our stomachs that we may not

2996
06:56:52.240 --> 06:57:00.880
be aware of. There's an our message that's your stomach.

2997
06:57:03.200 --> 06:57:10.119
In front of your stomach, they can circles around your

2998
06:57:10.159 --> 06:57:25.040
belly butttom and then going the other way around. The

2999
06:57:25.439 --> 06:57:32.319
gentleness and a freedom that comes from feeling how you're feeling,

3000
06:57:37.880 --> 06:57:45.080
as I now move down the tops of your thighs muscles,

3001
06:57:45.639 --> 06:57:50.560
messaging them, and I can do this to your legs

3002
06:57:50.639 --> 06:58:01.279
at the same time, pressing down, messaging deeply those muscles

3003
06:58:01.360 --> 06:58:10.279
in your thighs, the front of your thighs, and moving

3004
06:58:10.479 --> 06:58:21.520
down to your knees, gently massaging your knees, Sliding down

3005
06:58:21.680 --> 06:58:27.119
your shins, putting pressure on either side of your shin

3006
06:58:28.319 --> 06:58:45.279
gently softly but firmly, moving down to your ankles, stroking

3007
06:58:45.560 --> 06:58:55.919
the tops of your feet, and then with each foot

3008
06:58:56.319 --> 06:59:01.599
in each hand, just gently messaging the whole of the foot,

3009
06:59:05.880 --> 06:59:11.400
the top, the bottom, your heel, your ankle, your toes,

3010
06:59:13.919 --> 06:59:23.080
message in every part of your feet. Feels so good.

3011
06:59:23.880 --> 06:59:38.000
Just to let go and enjoy the process. Enjoy feeling

3012
06:59:40.560 --> 06:59:55.479
so deeply relaxed, so much comfort, so many feelings to

3013
06:59:55.639 --> 07:00:10.080
come just from touching your skin. And you can just

3014
07:00:11.240 --> 07:00:20.680
lie there for as long as you choose, enjoying the

3015
07:00:20.959 --> 07:00:29.319
feeling of deep comfort from being massaged.

3016
07:00:31.279 --> 07:00:31.639
By me.

3017
07:00:38.840 --> 07:01:00.799
Enjoy feeling deeply rased. And a we're gonna do is

3018
07:01:04.400 --> 07:01:20.919
blow out some candles. In your mind, there are going

3019
07:01:20.959 --> 07:01:31.360
to be a hundred candles, and you're going to blow

3020
07:01:31.520 --> 07:01:41.919
each one out individually, one by one, starting at one hundred.

3021
07:01:43.000 --> 07:01:50.360
As I count down all the way down to one,

3022
07:01:54.880 --> 07:02:03.799
and each time I say the number, you can imagine

3023
07:02:03.840 --> 07:02:10.240
that candle in front of you, and I'd like you

3024
07:02:10.400 --> 07:02:29.680
to actually physically generally blow that candle out, just so

3025
07:02:29.759 --> 07:02:38.240
it's not big blow, its just a gentle, and that

3026
07:02:38.599 --> 07:02:48.159
candle will extinguish. And then I'll say the next number,

3027
07:02:50.119 --> 07:02:59.319
move down, and you can just blow that one out

3028
07:03:00.080 --> 07:03:13.639
as well. And as we move down the numbers, you'll

3029
07:03:13.759 --> 07:03:22.479
find yourself feeding more and more relaxed. If you need

3030
07:03:24.200 --> 07:03:33.439
to sleep, you'll also find yourself becoming incredibly tired and sleepy.

3031
07:03:37.279 --> 07:03:44.720
In fact, you may struggle to blow out all one

3032
07:03:44.880 --> 07:04:01.759
hundred of these candles as you feel more and more

3033
07:04:02.119 --> 07:04:29.959
deeply relaxed, more and more deeply tired, And the further

3034
07:04:30.360 --> 07:04:40.040
you go down, the more your mind starts to drift.

3035
07:04:46.439 --> 07:04:52.880
You may find that you stop listening to me after

3036
07:04:53.040 --> 07:05:06.159
a while. And even though there maybe background sounds where

3037
07:05:06.200 --> 07:05:17.680
you are, you'll be aware of those sounds at the moment.

3038
07:05:22.639 --> 07:05:23.279
He may.

3039
07:05:26.599 --> 07:05:42.680
Start just not even notice them at all because they're unimportant.

3040
07:05:50.720 --> 07:05:55.919
Where I am, I've got the sounds of the birds.

3041
07:05:57.799 --> 07:06:03.439
There's horrors. The pigeon who likes to say hello. Sometimes

3042
07:06:06.479 --> 07:06:15.080
there's the odd plane that goes by, maybe traffic and

3043
07:06:16.479 --> 07:06:25.919
trains in the distance, But none of that scene is

3044
07:06:26.119 --> 07:06:42.279
important whatsoever or candles you blow out less important. Anything

3045
07:06:43.919 --> 07:06:58.080
is more candles you blow out. The further seemed to

3046
07:07:00.159 --> 07:07:18.599
move away from sounds, general date, days, stuff.

3047
07:07:19.880 --> 07:07:21.080
Seems to just.

3048
07:07:23.080 --> 07:07:42.959
Move away on its own. Feel calmer with every candy

3049
07:07:43.360 --> 07:08:03.759
blowout guiding the next number. Did you hear me say?

3050
07:08:10.840 --> 07:08:11.360
And then you.

3051
07:08:11.479 --> 07:08:38.639
Blow that candle out to so easy, so simple. I'm

3052
07:08:38.720 --> 07:08:53.200
gonna start by introducing the first candle, which is a hundred.

3053
07:08:57.639 --> 07:09:12.479
First candle is one hundred. When you blow that candle out,

3054
07:09:19.319 --> 07:09:32.000
you'll find immediately a slight change in how you feel,

3055
07:09:37.159 --> 07:09:45.400
as well as a real sense of positivity growing within you.

3056
07:09:51.479 --> 07:10:21.400
Relaxation and sleepiness, space ending starting one hundred, don't have

3057
07:10:21.639 --> 07:11:32.119
that candle now. Nineteen nine, candle ninety eight, cand ninety seven,

3058
07:12:04.639 --> 07:13:35.919
ninety six, capt ninety five, ninety four, candle ninety three,

3059
07:14:07.720 --> 07:15:29.919
ninety two, ninety one, candle ninety eight to nine.

3060
07:15:46.959 --> 07:15:47.040
And.

3061
07:15:55.319 --> 07:19:39.319
Eight eight eight, eight, eighty five eight it.

3062
07:20:47.680 --> 07:23:38.479
Two two, one, seventy.

3063
07:22:38.479 --> 07:23:30.400
Nine, can't do seventy eight candle, seventy seven, candle seventy

3064
07:23:30.799 --> 07:24:32.159
six candle seventy five, candle seventy four, candle seventy three,

3065
07:24:44.040 --> 07:25:47.479
candle seventy two, candle seventy one, candle seventy one, candle

3066
07:25:51.279 --> 07:26:45.680
seventy and sixty nine, candle sixty eight, candle sixty seven,

3067
07:26:59.360 --> 07:28:04.159
candle sixty five, candle sixty four, candle sixty four, candle

3068
07:28:04.840 --> 07:29:37.240
sixty thirty, candle sixty and sixty one, candle sixty and

3069
07:29:44.520 --> 07:30:55.599
fifty nine, candle fifty eight, candle fifty seven, candle fifty six,

3070
07:31:24.319 --> 07:32:39.520
candle fifty five, candle fifty four, hang fifty three and

3071
07:32:43.040 --> 07:34:49.919
fifty two fifty cant fifty, candle fifty one, candle fifty,

3072
07:35:13.439 --> 07:37:13.119
candle forty nine, candle forty eight, whotis candle forty six,

3073
07:37:41.159 --> 07:40:28.560
candle forty five, forty two, candle two four, thirty nine

3074
07:41:02.720 --> 07:43:18.119
and thirty eight, candle thirty seven, Canto thirty five, thirty four.

3075
07:43:51.319 --> 07:43:52.000
And two.

3076
07:43:55.799 --> 07:46:45.080
Thirty three, candle sat you four and twoe ten nine,

3077
07:47:28.040 --> 07:49:53.479
twenty eight and twenty seven and twenty six, candle twenty

3078
07:49:54.119 --> 07:53:58.560
five when not twenty two, A tap to wait yes

3079
07:54:23.880 --> 08:02:30.560
two se seven six day fourtyshish y nine two eight

3080
08:04:01.759 --> 08:07:56.479
canto two candle war lego of all of those thoughts, worries,

3081
08:07:56.799 --> 08:08:02.919
concerns about the past, thoughts about the future, and even

3082
08:08:04.400 --> 08:08:08.720
things you've been thinking about today. Just let it all

3083
08:08:08.799 --> 08:08:15.040
go because none of it is useful in this moment.

3084
08:08:19.959 --> 08:08:35.319
This is your opportunity to just focus on feeling relaxed,

3085
08:08:39.639 --> 08:08:46.040
allowing yourself to get in touch with that natural sense

3086
08:08:48.119 --> 08:08:56.240
of peace that we all have within us. It's available

3087
08:08:56.319 --> 08:09:01.159
for everyone. It just sometimes takes a little bit of

3088
08:09:01.319 --> 08:09:08.720
effort to set up the right time and place in

3089
08:09:08.959 --> 08:09:15.200
order for you to just let go. Because when you

3090
08:09:15.400 --> 08:09:23.200
do decide to let go and relax, that's what your

3091
08:09:23.240 --> 08:09:31.959
body starts to do because you've chosen, You've chosen to

3092
08:09:32.400 --> 08:09:39.479
just allow your body to unwind and your mind starts

3093
08:09:39.599 --> 08:09:47.040
to slow down. And it's a nice feeling. It's a

3094
08:09:47.159 --> 08:09:51.400
nice feeling at the beginning, just to know that you

3095
08:09:51.880 --> 08:10:02.159
have chosen to decide to relax deeply, and because you've

3096
08:10:02.240 --> 08:10:10.759
made that decision, your body will just follow suit. Because

3097
08:10:10.799 --> 08:10:15.439
sometimes all the muscles in your body need is just

3098
08:10:15.799 --> 08:10:25.040
permission from you to relax. Because so often we're busy,

3099
08:10:25.279 --> 08:10:29.479
we're going from here to there, we're walking around and

3100
08:10:29.599 --> 08:10:36.919
we're doing stuff, and the body doesn't have any time

3101
08:10:37.159 --> 08:10:45.560
or space to really relax deeply. So it kind of

3102
08:10:45.680 --> 08:10:51.240
waits for you to lead the way, waits for your permission.

3103
08:10:55.599 --> 08:11:02.080
And when you do give your permission, when you give

3104
08:11:02.159 --> 08:11:08.439
the say so, when you say okay, it's time for

3105
08:11:08.560 --> 08:11:18.200
your body to let go completely and relax totally, your

3106
08:11:18.240 --> 08:11:27.720
body just follows. So like a breath of relief. Ah good,

3107
08:11:27.799 --> 08:11:34.720
I can now relax and feeling at the end of

3108
08:11:34.799 --> 08:11:38.799
a day of very physical day that you may experience

3109
08:11:38.919 --> 08:11:42.200
in the past, where you get home and you just

3110
08:11:42.400 --> 08:11:46.400
sit down on a chair, maybe you kick your shoes

3111
08:11:46.520 --> 08:11:52.240
off and ar feels so nice. I know that you

3112
08:11:52.360 --> 08:11:56.479
don't have to get up again for a little while

3113
08:11:56.560 --> 08:12:00.279
at least if you choose, you can just sit there

3114
08:12:00.400 --> 08:12:12.599
for maybe an hour to kind of feels blissfule. And

3115
08:12:12.919 --> 08:12:17.880
just by sitting down like that, your body knows that

3116
08:12:18.040 --> 08:12:23.439
it's time to relax. Your body has been given permission

3117
08:12:23.680 --> 08:12:33.360
from you because it's a mindset in your mind, you're

3118
08:12:33.479 --> 08:12:45.200
prepared to let go of everything and just completely allow

3119
08:12:45.599 --> 08:12:54.560
all the stress of your body to evaporate. An intensions

3120
08:12:54.919 --> 08:13:13.720
can just gradually vanish. It's almost like magic, really, because

3121
08:13:14.119 --> 08:13:20.639
that sense of relaxation in your body, it's a very

3122
08:13:20.799 --> 08:13:27.560
natural state. It's not something unusual. It may feel unusual

3123
08:13:27.880 --> 08:13:30.759
when you first start to relax, if you if you

3124
08:13:30.880 --> 08:13:36.080
haven't really spent a lot of time focusing and giving

3125
08:13:36.159 --> 08:13:41.400
yourself this space to let go completely and relax, they

3126
08:13:41.599 --> 08:13:49.759
seem almost alien, but it isn't. It's actually the most

3127
08:13:50.119 --> 08:13:56.200
natural thing in the world to let go completely, to

3128
08:13:56.360 --> 08:14:06.680
relax totally, the most natural thing in the world to

3129
08:14:06.840 --> 08:14:19.319
allow yourself to feel really calm in your mind. And

3130
08:14:19.439 --> 08:14:27.159
it is almost like a literal unwinding. It's like you

3131
08:14:27.319 --> 08:14:36.080
press a button and all the tension just releases, and

3132
08:14:36.200 --> 08:14:40.000
it's like a wheel, like a cog, like the inside

3133
08:14:40.040 --> 08:14:43.680
of the clock just unwinding. And it's almost like you

3134
08:14:43.799 --> 08:14:49.680
could see the little wind up knob that's used just

3135
08:14:49.840 --> 08:14:54.040
going the opposite way that you choose to wind it up,

3136
08:14:56.840 --> 08:15:06.119
and the energy that frenetic stress for energy gradually minding down,

3137
08:15:07.400 --> 08:15:14.759
losing its power, losing its strength as a sense of

3138
08:15:14.919 --> 08:15:26.720
relaxation becomes stronger and deeper, and you may find a

3139
08:15:27.119 --> 08:15:34.119
more relaxed you feel Now your mind starts to wonder,

3140
08:15:37.240 --> 08:15:43.080
maybe you seem to stop listening to me for a while,

3141
08:15:44.759 --> 08:15:50.080
your mind goes somewhere else, and then you realize you're

3142
08:15:50.119 --> 08:15:55.360
listening to me again, and now it's just your mind

3143
08:15:55.759 --> 08:16:06.200
drifting to sleep, which is quite natural, because sometimes when

3144
08:16:06.279 --> 08:16:14.479
we're stressed and tense, we may not actually be aware

3145
08:16:14.759 --> 08:16:21.080
of what we need or we physically your emotionally need

3146
08:16:21.599 --> 08:16:29.319
in this moment. But when you allow your body and

3147
08:16:29.560 --> 08:16:39.319
mind to relax completely, and you let go of all thoughts, concerns, worries,

3148
08:16:40.080 --> 08:16:46.720
ideas all thego, allow them to drop onto the floor,

3149
08:16:52.240 --> 08:16:58.200
you start to get in touch with the feelings of

3150
08:17:00.119 --> 08:17:10.799
such relaxation. Feels so nice to be in touch with

3151
08:17:11.799 --> 08:17:20.279
the calmness of the different body parts as they become

3152
08:17:20.639 --> 08:17:36.639
looser and looser. Even your breathing seems easier and more natural, effortless,

3153
08:17:39.919 --> 08:17:45.360
as that cool outs through your mouth or nose into

3154
08:17:45.439 --> 08:17:56.319
your lungs, breathing in comforts and relaxation, and then just

3155
08:17:56.479 --> 08:18:04.840
breathing out any excess remain intention or stress for every

3156
08:18:05.479 --> 08:18:13.200
part of your body and mind. And as you start

3157
08:18:13.319 --> 08:18:19.400
to focus on your mind, maybe you notice that things

3158
08:18:21.840 --> 08:18:27.639
have come to a standstill or maybe just much much

3159
08:18:28.159 --> 08:18:37.240
lower than before, because your mind is not really needed

3160
08:18:38.759 --> 08:18:46.439
when listening to my voice, which allows your mind to

3161
08:18:46.639 --> 08:18:55.840
relax just as deep as your body and that's synchronicity

3162
08:18:56.759 --> 08:19:08.080
between the relaxation of your body relaxation of your mind.

3163
08:19:10.439 --> 08:19:11.639
Let you know that.

3164
08:19:13.799 --> 08:19:27.639
Feeling completely calm, loose, and relaxed is a great healing

3165
08:19:28.680 --> 08:19:46.000
experience fear and has so many positive benefits for your body, mind,

3166
08:19:46.360 --> 08:19:51.520
and your life. To be able to let go of

3167
08:19:52.880 --> 08:20:03.240
everything and to relax completely, you know, all parts of

3168
08:20:03.360 --> 08:20:14.360
your body and mind. Even your bones are relaxed, your

3169
08:20:14.560 --> 08:20:27.599
muscles are relaxed, even the skin that covers your body

3170
08:20:30.520 --> 08:20:38.080
is relaxed. Every had.

3171
08:20:40.880 --> 08:20:41.479
That you have.

3172
08:20:43.240 --> 08:21:00.799
Is also deeply relaxed, and your brain raised as the

3173
08:21:01.040 --> 08:21:17.040
feel the benefits this heathing relaxation. Unless you focus on

3174
08:21:17.200 --> 08:21:21.040
the in the side of your scalp where your brain is,

3175
08:21:22.919 --> 08:21:30.680
you can start to realize and notice the benefits of

3176
08:21:30.840 --> 08:21:43.080
your brain relaxing demail and as your brain continues to react,

3177
08:21:46.279 --> 08:21:54.680
sends those messages to the rest of your body and

3178
08:21:55.599 --> 08:22:17.000
to your mind to rely more deep, relaxy, more completely,

3179
08:22:20.599 --> 08:22:32.479
letting go of any remaining thoughts or concerns, allow them

3180
08:22:32.880 --> 08:22:38.759
just to drop onto the floor because they're not been

3181
08:22:39.000 --> 08:22:46.720
necessary in this moment, this moment.

3182
08:22:46.639 --> 08:22:47.639
Of deep.

3183
08:22:49.119 --> 08:23:18.680
Relaxation and calmness. Feeling your brain with deep, concentrated heathing, calming, relaxing,

3184
08:23:21.119 --> 08:23:36.319
every part of your brain feeling so bush and comfortable,

3185
08:23:39.560 --> 08:23:42.439
so relaxed.

3186
08:23:43.520 --> 08:23:56.240
And peaceful. Your brain feels so light, that's so healthy,

3187
08:23:59.439 --> 08:24:04.279
that's deep deep comfort.

3188
08:24:06.159 --> 08:24:20.200
Really does allow you to enjoy those ever increasing sensations

3189
08:24:20.520 --> 08:24:34.880
of comfort that are spreading throughout your body, relaxing each

3190
08:24:36.520 --> 08:24:53.200
and every muscle of your body, deeper and deeper, much

3191
08:24:53.840 --> 08:25:12.639
more deeper than before, much more comfort spreading through your body.

3192
08:25:13.400 --> 08:25:30.080
Your mind, be so peaceful and calm, so very very

3193
08:25:31.759 --> 08:25:45.080
peaceful in avery part of your body, letting go the

3194
08:25:46.520 --> 08:26:11.279
a everything averything, so peaceful, calm, so relax very second

3195
08:26:12.000 --> 08:26:37.959
the passes you feel d DPA relaxed, DPA and dper relax.

3196
08:26:40.279 --> 08:26:50.159
Call so cal bce for.

3197
08:26:52.959 --> 08:27:02.240
So very peace from your head it down to your ties.

3198
08:27:05.360 --> 08:27:17.759
Such peace and comfort growing all all the time, Such

3199
08:27:18.520 --> 08:27:33.479
peace and comfort spreading through your body and mind deeper deeper,

3200
08:27:36.400 --> 08:27:49.639
such comfort spreading and sinking deeper into a muscle of

3201
08:27:49.840 --> 08:28:07.759
your body. Say you feel amazing, so relaxed, so peace so.

3202
08:28:12.520 --> 08:28:14.439
So relax.

3203
08:28:17.840 --> 08:28:34.240
And peace letting go everything. Going to do a body scan,

3204
08:28:36.040 --> 08:28:42.400
focusing on firstly how you feel in your body, not

3205
08:28:42.560 --> 08:28:48.000
trying to change how you feel, not trying to relax,

3206
08:28:49.240 --> 08:28:54.240
not trying to move away from any discomfort or stress

3207
08:28:54.439 --> 08:29:01.880
or tension. Just accepting, observing an accepting how you feel

3208
08:29:02.880 --> 08:29:07.799
in the different parts of your body, Just allowing yourself

3209
08:29:09.200 --> 08:29:16.680
to be exactly as you are, to notice to get

3210
08:29:16.720 --> 08:29:25.360
in touch with how you actually feel in this moment.

3211
08:29:28.720 --> 08:29:35.360
I'm going to start off by focusing on your hands.

3212
08:29:39.919 --> 08:29:47.639
Just be aware of your hands. I'd like you to

3213
08:29:47.840 --> 08:29:53.080
move your hands around, just maybe move your fingers.

3214
08:29:52.759 --> 08:29:53.360
A little bit.

3215
08:29:55.799 --> 08:30:01.959
I've been enclosing your hands very gently, just so that

3216
08:30:02.240 --> 08:30:09.959
you can get in touch with how your hands and

3217
08:30:10.159 --> 08:30:31.159
your fingers fell, very very slow movements. Focusing now on

3218
08:30:31.360 --> 08:30:38.439
your feet, and if you can just do kind of

3219
08:30:38.439 --> 08:30:43.400
an equivalent with your feet is you've just done with

3220
08:30:43.560 --> 08:30:52.200
your hands, Maybe turn in your ankles, moving your feet around,

3221
08:30:54.200 --> 08:31:04.599
moving your toes gently by very gently and very slowly,

3222
08:31:07.599 --> 08:31:23.000
noticing how your feet feel in this moment. Focusing now

3223
08:31:23.240 --> 08:31:30.439
and your eyes. I'd like you to just focus on

3224
08:31:30.560 --> 08:31:36.319
your eyelids. Maybe you can open and close your eyes

3225
08:31:36.520 --> 08:31:40.880
a couple of times to really get in touch with

3226
08:31:41.720 --> 08:31:46.439
how you feel. When you do close your eyes, the

3227
08:31:46.560 --> 08:31:52.799
muscle changes in your eyes when you do close them.

3228
08:31:55.639 --> 08:32:05.680
Maybe raising your eyebrows, the tops of your eyes, perhaps

3229
08:32:05.919 --> 08:32:13.840
squinting your eyes, scrunching up your eyes just so you

3230
08:32:13.959 --> 08:32:22.240
can here it, get in touch with all aspects of

3231
08:32:23.400 --> 08:32:42.439
how your eyes feel right now. Now focusing on your thighs,

3232
08:32:44.799 --> 08:32:48.159
and you know it just starts you to gently tense

3233
08:32:48.360 --> 08:32:58.319
your thighs, just very very gently, just enough so you

3234
08:32:58.439 --> 08:33:11.799
can be come more attuned to the physical sensation of

3235
08:33:12.000 --> 08:33:17.080
your upper legs, the front of your thighs, and the

3236
08:33:17.240 --> 08:33:31.040
backs of your thigh. Noticing and observing how your thighs

3237
08:33:31.720 --> 08:33:45.759
feel right now, moving your focus to the back of

3238
08:33:45.840 --> 08:33:54.599
your neck, just noticing the back of your neck, the muscles,

3239
08:33:56.560 --> 08:33:59.680
and of course they lead to the side of your neck.

3240
08:34:01.159 --> 08:34:06.279
They also lead to the top of your back, which

3241
08:34:06.439 --> 08:34:11.840
leads to your shoulders. So as your focus on the

3242
08:34:12.000 --> 08:34:17.599
back of your neck, maybe you can move your head

3243
08:34:18.520 --> 08:34:26.240
gently upwards as if you're looking up. Maybe moving your

3244
08:34:26.360 --> 08:34:34.159
head down as if you're looking down. Perhaps moving your

3245
08:34:34.240 --> 08:34:42.240
head side to side, right to left, but only very

3246
08:34:43.599 --> 08:34:52.759
slowly and very gently. You're not trying to force anything.

3247
08:34:54.520 --> 08:35:04.200
It has to be very very gentle, just so you can.

3248
08:35:05.759 --> 08:35:07.360
Be more.

3249
08:35:09.000 --> 08:35:18.400
In touch with the feelings, with the sensations, the physical

3250
08:35:19.799 --> 08:35:26.720
sensations of how on the back of your neck feels

3251
08:35:28.520 --> 08:35:43.880
right now, as we now focus on the tops of

3252
08:35:44.000 --> 08:35:50.279
your arms, the parts where your biceps and your triceps

3253
08:35:50.360 --> 08:35:58.400
are between your elbow and your shoulders. To focus on

3254
08:35:58.680 --> 08:36:05.840
those parts the tops of your arms, you may like

3255
08:36:05.959 --> 08:36:15.479
to just tense them, but very very gently and slowly,

3256
08:36:18.040 --> 08:36:26.080
so you're not straining or putting any pressure whatsoever.

3257
08:36:26.959 --> 08:36:27.840
On your arms.

3258
08:36:30.560 --> 08:36:37.959
It's just slowly you can gain more of a sense

3259
08:36:38.200 --> 08:36:48.639
of how your upper arms are feeling in this moment,

3260
08:36:52.040 --> 08:37:04.720
just noticing as you gently, very gently and slowly tightening

3261
08:37:04.919 --> 08:37:15.840
the muscles, and then leto notice how the tops of

3262
08:37:15.959 --> 08:37:17.560
your arms feel.

3263
08:37:20.080 --> 08:37:20.560
Right now.

3264
08:37:28.720 --> 08:37:39.959
As now focus on your stomach, the area the lower

3265
08:37:40.080 --> 08:37:46.240
aptomen area below your belly button, moving all the way

3266
08:37:46.400 --> 08:38:00.240
down to your hips, just above your grind. Maybe you're

3267
08:38:00.279 --> 08:38:10.080
able to tense these muscles in the area very very

3268
08:38:10.240 --> 08:38:23.159
gently and slowly. If that's a difficult thing to do,

3269
08:38:24.599 --> 08:38:33.639
maybe you can just move your body, pushing your stomach up,

3270
08:38:35.319 --> 08:38:39.200
maybe moving a little bit of a side using your hips,

3271
08:38:41.360 --> 08:38:51.159
just so get more in tune with how you're lower

3272
08:38:51.759 --> 08:39:08.720
up to an area is feeling in this moment. Just

3273
08:39:09.159 --> 08:39:31.319
noticing the physical sensations or your lower abdomen. As you

3274
08:39:31.599 --> 08:39:44.840
move your attention to your mouth, noticing in your lips

3275
08:39:46.880 --> 08:39:55.279
and inside your mouth, your teeth, your guns, your tongue,

3276
08:40:04.919 --> 08:40:13.560
just noticing how your tongue and your mouth feels. It

3277
08:40:13.720 --> 08:40:22.720
may help by moving your tongue around your mouth, moving

3278
08:40:22.799 --> 08:40:30.159
it to your left, maybe pressing it gently against the

3279
08:40:30.439 --> 08:40:36.599
side of your mouth, and then to the right, gently

3280
08:40:37.159 --> 08:40:43.799
to the side of your mouth, perhaps pressing up against

3281
08:40:43.959 --> 08:40:51.959
the top of your mouth, and then down gently against

3282
08:40:52.040 --> 08:41:02.520
the bottom of your mouth, always very slowly and a

3283
08:41:03.119 --> 08:41:07.400
very very gentle.

3284
08:41:11.759 --> 08:41:12.959
So that you can.

3285
08:41:16.560 --> 08:41:40.159
Be aware of how you feel in your mouth area. No,

3286
08:41:44.599 --> 08:42:00.680
you got to focus on your wrists, and I ask

3287
08:42:00.880 --> 08:42:09.479
you to maybe just routine your wrists by moving your

3288
08:42:09.680 --> 08:42:22.560
hands in a circular motion very gently and slowly, just

3289
08:42:24.400 --> 08:42:45.840
soly can feel the sensations that you are currently experiencing

3290
08:42:46.520 --> 08:42:59.240
in your wrists. Perhaps move in your hands up and

3291
08:42:59.639 --> 08:43:23.799
down the game very very jape and slowly, very che

3292
08:43:24.240 --> 08:43:54.159
sol and slo. Now start tup, sir, you lower back.

3293
08:43:59.759 --> 08:44:10.959
The bad parts just above your hips where your coxis

3294
08:44:11.080 --> 08:44:24.080
are a whole area which also really does include the

3295
08:44:24.439 --> 08:44:30.599
sides of your body, because those muscles are very much

3296
08:44:30.799 --> 08:44:43.639
connected as those muscles also move into your hyperia, connecting

3297
08:44:43.880 --> 08:44:58.759
to your buttocks the side of your hips, and if

3298
08:44:58.840 --> 08:45:08.279
you're physically able to do so, maybe you can very

3299
08:45:08.599 --> 08:45:23.959
gently just move your body evers slightly, very slowly from

3300
08:45:24.240 --> 08:45:41.759
side to side, just enough, yeah, to gauge how you

3301
08:45:42.040 --> 08:45:59.799
feel in your law back. Perhaps secretly move your head

3302
08:46:00.479 --> 08:46:16.159
gently up and down, gently and slowly in order's real

3303
08:46:18.799 --> 08:46:28.319
be in touch with the physical sensations of your law

3304
08:46:28.479 --> 08:46:57.959
back between. Know your attention to your jewel.

3305
08:47:00.919 --> 08:47:06.560
An area from your chin all the way up to

3306
08:47:06.799 --> 08:47:23.400
near where your ears are, all of your jaw. You

3307
08:47:23.520 --> 08:47:27.840
can just, if it's okay to do so.

3308
08:47:29.680 --> 08:47:40.200
Gently open your mouth, not wide noe stretches, just very

3309
08:47:40.959 --> 08:47:56.919
gently and slowly opening your mouth, closing your mouth very gently.

3310
08:47:59.400 --> 08:48:22.520
It's about day. You cannot pain touch with how your

3311
08:48:22.840 --> 08:48:59.639
jaw feels. Now, I'd like to sit down. The chest aroun.

3312
08:49:09.319 --> 08:49:14.520
You don't need to do anything to move your chest

3313
08:49:16.759 --> 08:49:27.439
because it moves every time you breathe. It moves very

3314
08:49:27.880 --> 08:49:47.400
gently and slowly automatically with each breath you tape as

3315
08:49:47.520 --> 08:50:05.919
you focus on the how your chest hels when you breathe,

3316
08:50:34.799 --> 08:50:49.680
move in your focus to your form's john elbows. Maybe

3317
08:50:50.000 --> 08:51:02.599
you're able to very chackly and slly dense the muscles

3318
08:51:03.919 --> 08:51:10.400
in your forearms, and when you do that, you can

3319
08:51:10.720 --> 08:51:43.240
feel your elbows as well, very gently and slowly, gently.

3320
08:51:45.959 --> 08:51:48.040
And softly.

3321
08:51:51.560 --> 08:52:30.639
Obsurving your forearms and delpas the focus the rest of

3322
08:52:30.759 --> 08:52:44.360
your back of upper back and the middle the middle

3323
08:52:44.479 --> 08:53:03.759
of your back. Again, this part of your body moves.

3324
08:53:05.880 --> 08:53:15.560
Also every time you pray. You may not notice that

3325
08:53:17.759 --> 08:53:29.840
usually makes you upsert your upper back in the middle

3326
08:53:29.880 --> 08:53:47.400
of your back. You can really feel that gentle and

3327
08:54:30.240 --> 08:54:43.400
and your focus into your hip area nor butts bray,

3328
08:54:46.200 --> 08:54:52.360
there's a muscle as at those bones in your midsection.

3329
08:55:20.000 --> 08:55:39.880
Just noticing how your hips feel right now, you can

3330
08:55:42.479 --> 08:55:56.119
very very gently move your hips maybe side to side,

3331
08:55:57.639 --> 08:56:56.000
very gently and yeah, sort everything starts to slow down

3332
08:56:59.599 --> 08:57:07.279
m hm, including the thoughts in your mind and your

3333
08:57:07.400 --> 08:57:17.360
mind itself just starts to gradually. It doesn't have to

3334
08:57:17.439 --> 08:57:25.240
be instant, but just gradually starting to It's almost like

3335
08:57:25.560 --> 08:57:36.880
time is storing Chin. It's a slower pace to maybe

3336
08:57:37.159 --> 08:57:42.240
what you're used to in your day to day life.

3337
08:57:45.400 --> 08:58:12.319
It's a slower movement of energy, very small movements which

3338
08:58:12.439 --> 08:58:20.599
make up the larger movements, which is always the case. Now,

3339
08:58:20.639 --> 08:58:25.200
when you move your hand, it might seem like it's

3340
08:58:25.319 --> 08:58:31.439
one movement, but it's lots of minute different muscles moving.

3341
08:58:33.200 --> 08:58:42.200
In accordance with each other. And what happens in this

3342
08:58:44.080 --> 08:58:47.159
space that we're sharing is.

3343
08:58:52.439 --> 08:59:06.639
We move from that big movement into those smaller movements.

3344
08:59:13.080 --> 08:59:24.319
Starting to focus on how your body feels, not just

3345
08:59:24.439 --> 08:59:28.959
as a whole, not just oh, i'm feeling this way.

3346
08:59:29.040 --> 08:59:35.119
I'm feeling stressed or tense, or I'm feeling relaxed and calm.

3347
08:59:36.439 --> 08:59:43.040
I'm feeling this way, I'm feeling that way. Starting to

3348
08:59:43.279 --> 08:59:54.479
notice that your body begins to present to you small

3349
08:59:55.599 --> 09:00:11.959
feelings around your body, small physical sensations in your legs,

3350
09:00:14.759 --> 09:00:27.959
whether pleasurable or not. Maybe resisting the temptation to label

3351
09:00:28.040 --> 09:00:37.560
them or to judge them those feelings. Just thinking them,

3352
09:00:38.479 --> 09:00:51.439
thinking about them is just being neutral, just feelings, not

3353
09:00:51.680 --> 09:01:03.319
being particularly concerned, just noticing what your body is telling you.

3354
09:01:11.080 --> 09:01:17.279
The feelings in your arms. Instead of feeling the hole

3355
09:01:17.560 --> 09:01:27.279
of the arm, maybe notice those individual feelings, all those

3356
09:01:27.400 --> 09:01:39.159
different muscles and the skin, the hairs of your arms,

3357
09:01:41.119 --> 09:01:55.159
all the internal parts of your arms, the veins, the bones.

3358
09:01:58.040 --> 09:02:04.400
Just being aware of maybe your elbow on your right arm,

3359
09:02:07.159 --> 09:02:15.360
has a certain feeling. Maybe your left wrist also has

3360
09:02:18.560 --> 09:02:39.279
its own individual physical sensation. What about your forearm, on

3361
09:02:39.439 --> 09:02:51.639
your right arm, your right forearm, there may not be

3362
09:02:51.759 --> 09:02:59.759
any particular feeling that you could even give a name to,

3363
09:03:03.520 --> 09:03:09.000
may not feel like anything other than just a feeling. Yeah,

3364
09:03:09.159 --> 09:03:21.599
it's there. The feelings in your shoulders, perhaps your shoulders

3365
09:03:21.680 --> 09:03:25.279
when you think about them, kind of almost like they're

3366
09:03:25.279 --> 09:03:31.880
the same, you know, the same feeling, almost like you

3367
09:03:32.200 --> 09:03:36.799
both of your shoulders are just one thing. Of course

3368
09:03:36.919 --> 09:03:48.200
they're not. And when you focus on your left shoulder

3369
09:03:50.959 --> 09:03:56.119
and then on your right shoulder, maybe find that you

3370
09:03:57.520 --> 09:04:02.560
move the muscles a little bit, maybe tense the muscles gently,

3371
09:04:08.200 --> 09:04:40.560
noticing the difference in each shoulder. Your lower back, the

3372
09:04:40.720 --> 09:04:44.799
left side of your lower back and the right side

3373
09:04:44.959 --> 09:04:55.639
of your lower back of course that connection to your

3374
09:04:55.720 --> 09:05:09.040
buttocks and to your hips, and also moving up into

3375
09:05:09.119 --> 09:05:22.000
the middle of your back. And sometimes like right now,

3376
09:05:22.159 --> 09:05:26.959
actually when I focus on their part, when I focused

3377
09:05:26.959 --> 09:05:32.840
on my buttocks and then I focused on the middle

3378
09:05:32.880 --> 09:05:35.759
of my back, I almost felt like the muscles in

3379
09:05:35.840 --> 09:05:45.880
my lower back were being stretched very gently, just stretched

3380
09:05:45.959 --> 09:05:52.520
a little bit, even though I wasn't doing anything to

3381
09:05:53.880 --> 09:05:59.639
try to stretch your lower back. It just seemed to happen.

3382
09:06:00.840 --> 09:06:18.440
The feeling of very gently stretching your lower back comes along.

3383
09:06:22.160 --> 09:06:45.480
I have feeling in your chest, just noticing what sensations

3384
09:06:47.080 --> 09:07:04.720
you are experiencing in your chest right now. And there's

3385
09:07:04.800 --> 09:07:08.959
so much of the chest. Obviously, there's the collar bone

3386
09:07:09.120 --> 09:07:15.919
leading to the chest. You've got the chest bone, You've

3387
09:07:15.919 --> 09:07:24.239
got the muscles in your chest. Of course, if you're female,

3388
09:07:24.919 --> 09:07:32.120
there's possibly the breasts. If you're male, you've got the

3389
09:07:34.959 --> 09:07:40.519
different well why not that different these days, but there

3390
09:07:40.599 --> 09:07:45.760
may be more muscles at the top of the chest,

3391
09:07:49.160 --> 09:07:53.440
but at the side underneath it's pretty much the same.

3392
09:07:54.199 --> 09:07:57.279
Whether you're a man or a woman. There's muscles there,

3393
09:07:58.599 --> 09:08:03.760
muscles that stretch out to your back as well as

3394
09:08:03.839 --> 09:08:12.440
breast tissue stretches and moves into your back. To just

3395
09:08:12.559 --> 09:08:32.120
being aware of your chest, being with whatever feeling there

3396
09:08:32.279 --> 09:08:51.760
is in your chest. And when I noticed that, I

3397
09:08:51.919 --> 09:08:59.839
focus on my chest. I feel it in my back,

3398
09:09:00.199 --> 09:09:04.279
my upper back. I mean, I guess the obvious reason

3399
09:09:04.319 --> 09:09:14.440
would be because you know, I grieve in in then

3400
09:09:14.519 --> 09:09:18.080
it stretches my chest and my back at the same time.

3401
09:09:26.040 --> 09:09:41.239
It feels it feels okay, it doesn't feel I got

3402
09:09:41.239 --> 09:09:47.519
a little bit of pain in my right chest, a

3403
09:09:47.599 --> 09:09:53.680
little bit not pain, but a little discomfort, maybe stiffness, possibly,

3404
09:09:54.239 --> 09:10:03.160
I don't know. I notice my shoulders are also wanting

3405
09:10:03.319 --> 09:10:10.279
to flex for some reason. I think that's probably part

3406
09:10:10.360 --> 09:10:18.760
of my upper back, that connection between my shoulders and

3407
09:10:18.839 --> 09:10:22.959
my upper back, because I can move my shoulders and

3408
09:10:24.080 --> 09:10:30.760
stretch the muscles in my back, moving the shoulders backwards

3409
09:10:31.720 --> 09:10:37.239
or up, which then moves I think it's the scapulous

3410
09:10:39.919 --> 09:10:57.599
in your back. It feels quite nice. Actually, a good

3411
09:10:57.639 --> 09:11:00.959
thing about this is you can, if you want to,

3412
09:11:01.720 --> 09:11:16.599
you can just flex or stimulate the various muscles in

3413
09:11:16.720 --> 09:11:22.440
your body gently in order to get more of a

3414
09:11:22.639 --> 09:11:37.559
sense of how they feel. And when you're relaxing, when

3415
09:11:37.599 --> 09:11:41.639
you do tense and muscle and you let it go

3416
09:11:41.959 --> 09:11:50.760
and you let it relax, it relaxes way more than

3417
09:11:50.800 --> 09:12:01.199
it would normally. You have to feel that you're able

3418
09:12:01.319 --> 09:12:04.959
to do that. There's no point in doing it if

3419
09:12:05.040 --> 09:12:10.599
there's an issue with the per part of your body.

3420
09:12:14.080 --> 09:12:20.680
You need to be gentle with yourself at all times

3421
09:12:23.279 --> 09:12:34.800
when relaxing deeply. It's important to be kind to yourself

3422
09:12:42.400 --> 09:12:50.839
as you notice your mind how much has your mind

3423
09:12:51.160 --> 09:13:18.400
slowed down since we started this recording. How came and

3424
09:13:18.680 --> 09:13:30.000
peaceful is your mind right now? We have nothing to

3425
09:13:30.120 --> 09:13:40.000
think about and just my voice to listen to. Because

3426
09:13:40.080 --> 09:13:51.040
you know the intention behind this recording, this relaxation. At

3427
09:13:51.080 --> 09:13:57.519
the very least, for you to feel more relaxed at

3428
09:13:57.559 --> 09:14:00.919
the end of the recording than you did at the beginning,

3429
09:14:06.080 --> 09:14:14.720
at the very least, fee your mind to slow down

3430
09:14:17.599 --> 09:14:30.400
because your body continues to relax, because that's what you

3431
09:14:32.040 --> 09:14:41.519
want to happen. That's what you expect.

3432
09:14:45.120 --> 09:14:45.720
To happen.

3433
09:14:51.800 --> 09:15:10.279
For relaxation to fill your body, maybe calm your mind

3434
09:15:11.800 --> 09:15:19.279
to the point of boredom when you start, maybe to

3435
09:15:24.919 --> 09:16:07.199
drift away, drifting almost as if you're moving further away

3436
09:16:07.519 --> 09:16:15.080
from your body in your mind, just leaving that there,

3437
09:16:23.080 --> 09:16:27.360
kind of liking it an escape pod and a spaceship

3438
09:16:27.760 --> 09:16:31.120
a movie, a space movie, you know when they get

3439
09:16:31.160 --> 09:16:37.160
into a little pod in it since the man far

3440
09:16:37.360 --> 09:16:59.639
away from the spaceship, safe to dream and you can

3441
09:16:59.720 --> 09:18:32.400
see to drifting sizes and peace so rare and peace,

3442
09:18:53.639 --> 09:19:08.080
and focusing on that feeling of those individual parts of

3443
09:19:08.199 --> 09:19:16.639
your body that or relaxing one by one.

3444
09:19:24.319 --> 09:19:24.839
You may.

3445
09:19:26.559 --> 09:19:40.239
Find that every now and then you realize that you

3446
09:19:40.400 --> 09:19:48.800
weren't listening to my voice, be give your mind started

3447
09:19:49.000 --> 09:20:03.480
to imagine something different, maybe started to almost move into

3448
09:20:04.440 --> 09:20:12.720
some kind of a dreamy state, and then you become

3449
09:20:12.800 --> 09:20:20.400
aware of my voice again. And even though you may

3450
09:20:22.440 --> 09:20:27.400
want to focus on my voice, you may also wish

3451
09:20:27.760 --> 09:20:41.120
to allow your mind to just drift naturally into that

3452
09:20:41.480 --> 09:21:03.680
space of comfort and safety. As you feel more comfort

3453
09:21:05.559 --> 09:21:19.319
spreading through your body like a warm blanket covering you gently,

3454
09:21:23.319 --> 09:21:41.440
keeping your body it just the perfect temperature, and even

3455
09:21:41.599 --> 09:21:53.599
if you can hear background sounds, they just don't seem

3456
09:21:53.760 --> 09:22:10.519
to matter anymore. There's that sense of peace spreads through

3457
09:22:10.599 --> 09:22:24.239
your mind like a gentle breeze, yet strong enough to

3458
09:22:24.440 --> 09:22:40.680
blow away all negativity, strong enough to remove from your

3459
09:22:40.839 --> 09:22:58.680
mind any anxiety or stress that was there before, and

3460
09:22:58.919 --> 09:23:09.599
blow away the other thoughts or feelings then just don't

3461
09:23:09.959 --> 09:23:34.199
fit with the sense relaxation that is feeling your body

3462
09:23:39.199 --> 09:23:58.959
and your mind. Unless you focus on your mind and

3463
09:23:59.279 --> 09:24:05.800
countdown from ten down to one, and with each number

3464
09:24:06.319 --> 09:24:33.239
you hear, your mind will become slightly more relaxed, just

3465
09:24:33.680 --> 09:24:35.919
just slightly.

3466
09:24:38.440 --> 09:24:38.480
So.

3467
09:24:38.639 --> 09:24:45.680
From ten down to nine, just a slight movement. From

3468
09:24:45.879 --> 09:24:58.120
nine down to eight, just another small change in how

3469
09:24:58.279 --> 09:25:11.319
you feel. Eight down to seven feelings is a gap,

3470
09:25:12.199 --> 09:25:17.760
almost like a gap that starts to get wider, the

3471
09:25:17.919 --> 09:25:26.160
gap between those feelings that you used to have in

3472
09:25:26.319 --> 09:25:33.720
your mind compared to the feelings you have that are

3473
09:25:33.879 --> 09:25:46.040
growing now, feelings of comfort and security and confidence, and

3474
09:25:46.199 --> 09:25:52.519
that gap becomes wider. Eight down to seven, seven down

3475
09:25:52.639 --> 09:26:01.440
to six. When you get to five, your mind will

3476
09:26:01.599 --> 09:26:15.000
start to have a certain physical sensation, almost like there's

3477
09:26:15.040 --> 09:26:21.839
a magnet outside of your head sucking the tension and

3478
09:26:21.959 --> 09:26:27.559
the stress and any remaining feelings that you don't want,

3479
09:26:29.559 --> 09:26:38.599
sucking them out through your skull. And in down to

3480
09:26:38.879 --> 09:26:46.319
four you could start to really experience that sense of

3481
09:26:47.839 --> 09:26:58.360
not just emptiness, but space, a place full of fresh air,

3482
09:27:03.400 --> 09:27:10.160
place where you can stretch. It's almost as if as

3483
09:27:10.239 --> 09:27:15.400
you go down to four and three your mind is expanding,

3484
09:27:16.040 --> 09:27:29.120
with this sense of peace and tranquility growing as it

3485
09:27:29.279 --> 09:27:36.559
moves down to When you get to one, in your

3486
09:27:36.720 --> 09:27:48.480
mind just feels exactly how you want to feel. It's

3487
09:27:48.519 --> 09:28:06.440
almost perfect fearing, maybe a sensation that you'd like to

3488
09:28:06.720 --> 09:28:19.519
keep a place that's safe, where nothing can affect you

3489
09:28:20.559 --> 09:28:36.319
at all, and you can stay in that that space

3490
09:28:36.480 --> 09:28:46.360
of comfort and confidence, confident in your own ability to

3491
09:28:46.559 --> 09:28:53.239
create this space and this feeling of comfort within your

3492
09:28:53.480 --> 09:28:58.319
own mind just by counting ten.

3493
09:29:00.199 --> 09:29:00.559
To one.

3494
09:29:05.160 --> 09:29:09.680
And this is something that you can do yourself when

3495
09:29:09.720 --> 09:29:17.000
you're on your own a time when you can maybe

3496
09:29:17.199 --> 09:29:25.800
sit down, maybe just for a few minutes, close your eyes.

3497
09:29:29.400 --> 09:29:40.959
It just counts slowly from ten down to one and

3498
09:29:41.239 --> 09:29:53.879
re experience these feelings in your mind. And when you

3499
09:29:54.160 --> 09:30:04.040
feel that way in your mind, your body copies your mind,

3500
09:30:09.919 --> 09:30:15.800
and that feeling it's spread through your spine and your

3501
09:30:16.000 --> 09:30:23.800
nervous system into every part of your body, travels through

3502
09:30:23.839 --> 09:30:38.040
your blood stream, heathing and relaxing every article of your existence.

3503
09:30:50.760 --> 09:30:54.760
And we can we can practice this a few times

3504
09:30:59.480 --> 09:31:02.480
before the end of the recording, and then you can

3505
09:31:03.959 --> 09:31:10.040
practice on your own. And each time you count from

3506
09:31:10.199 --> 09:31:25.000
ten about one, the feelings of comfort, calmness, deep deep

3507
09:31:25.599 --> 09:31:42.080
relaxation becomes stronger and deeper, filling your mind and your

3508
09:31:42.279 --> 09:31:51.639
brain with these positive chemicals that spread throughout your body,

3509
09:31:53.199 --> 09:32:01.879
relaxing you so quickly, relaxing your whole body and mind

3510
09:32:04.800 --> 09:32:17.879
so very very easily, just by counting from ten down

3511
09:32:18.000 --> 09:32:25.879
to one. That's what we're going to do. Now, I'm

3512
09:32:25.919 --> 09:32:29.879
going to count from ten down to one. I'd like

3513
09:32:30.040 --> 09:32:34.239
you to repeat the number after me. So when I

3514
09:32:34.400 --> 09:32:41.120
say ten, you can just repeat to yourself.

3515
09:32:42.559 --> 09:32:42.800
Ten.

3516
09:32:48.400 --> 09:32:57.760
Just notice, be aware of how you feel in your

3517
09:32:57.919 --> 09:33:07.440
mind and your body, and when I say nine, you

3518
09:33:07.559 --> 09:33:22.959
can repeat to yourself nine a gain, noticing the increase

3519
09:33:23.319 --> 09:33:31.519
in comfort and calmness in your mind and in your body.

3520
09:33:37.519 --> 09:33:46.959
The same when I say eight, when I say seven, six,

3521
09:33:49.480 --> 09:34:03.800
when I say five, four, when I say three, two,

3522
09:34:08.199 --> 09:34:14.400
and lastly when I say one, you can repeat that number.

3523
09:34:21.879 --> 09:34:22.000
Now.

3524
09:34:22.120 --> 09:34:27.680
Of course, when you do this on your own without

3525
09:34:27.800 --> 09:34:32.800
listening to me, you can say the numbers or whatever

3526
09:34:34.400 --> 09:34:42.879
speed that you feel is necessary for you, so you

3527
09:34:43.000 --> 09:34:48.959
can adapt. So you feel you want to say the

3528
09:34:49.120 --> 09:34:56.680
numbers ten down to one faster than I do, then

3529
09:34:56.680 --> 09:34:59.599
you go ahead and do that. Or if you feel

3530
09:35:00.440 --> 09:35:03.559
when you do it yourself that you'd like to have

3531
09:35:04.120 --> 09:35:12.800
more space between the numbers, maybe take a lot longer

3532
09:35:14.080 --> 09:35:15.400
to get from ten.

3533
09:35:17.360 --> 09:35:25.559
All the way down to one, that's your choice also

3534
09:35:25.879 --> 09:35:37.480
to do. So I'm going to count.

3535
09:35:37.239 --> 09:35:45.199
From ten down to one, and I want to get

3536
09:35:45.239 --> 09:35:52.480
to one. That will be the end of this recording, unless,

3537
09:35:52.559 --> 09:35:56.519
of course, you're listening with music, and the music will

3538
09:35:56.559 --> 09:41:57.760
continue nine eight, twenty ninety, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four,

3539
09:42:02.080 --> 09:42:30.319
three two one. Now open your eyes, noticing how you

3540
09:42:30.440 --> 09:42:38.839
physically feel having counted down from twenty to one, allowing

3541
09:42:39.639 --> 09:42:44.080
stress and tension to leave through your fingertips and your tastes.

3542
09:42:45.599 --> 09:42:50.279
And as you focus on your fingertips, maybe they feel

3543
09:42:50.279 --> 09:42:57.080
a little bit tingling, which is I suppose quite understanding,

3544
09:42:57.239 --> 09:43:02.319
considering the tension has been exiting your body through your fingertips.

3545
09:43:08.800 --> 09:43:10.760
So now I'm going to count from twenty down to

3546
09:43:10.879 --> 09:43:18.720
one again. This time you can feel relief of tension

3547
09:43:20.319 --> 09:43:31.400
and stress, any anxiety that you may have leaving through

3548
09:43:31.480 --> 09:43:37.400
your stomach, just leaving through your stomach, almost as if

3549
09:43:37.959 --> 09:43:44.400
it's just releasing the hole of your stomach, your navel

3550
09:43:45.879 --> 09:43:48.839
to just above your chest or below your chest, rather

3551
09:43:49.959 --> 09:43:53.199
so surrounding your belly by an area, the whole area.

3552
09:43:55.319 --> 09:43:59.879
You can feel the tension of your body wherever's left,

3553
09:44:00.239 --> 09:44:05.480
just releasing from that area, and you may notice that

3554
09:44:05.639 --> 09:44:11.839
your stomach will become very relaxed as my countdown from

3555
09:44:11.959 --> 09:45:30.959
twenty down to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen seventeen sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five,

3556
09:45:35.760 --> 09:45:45.319
four three two.

3557
09:45:50.440 --> 09:45:50.480
What.

3558
09:45:55.599 --> 09:45:58.199
You can open your eyes again if you choose, or

3559
09:45:58.239 --> 09:46:01.839
you can just keep them closed because it feels relaxing.

3560
09:46:04.120 --> 09:46:09.239
Just notice how your stomach feels. I notice as your focus,

3561
09:46:09.519 --> 09:46:14.720
just do a little scan of your body. Just notice

3562
09:46:14.760 --> 09:46:27.879
how your body feels, focusing upper body, back, chest, stomach, legs, arms, hands, feet,

3563
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just noticing, and you know, you may start to feel

3564
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more of a sense of tiredness, which may be the

3565
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reason listening to this recording, because you.

3566
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Like to.

3567
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Let go completely of everything and drift or thing a

3568
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nice natural, calm, relaxing sleep. So now we're focus on

3569
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your forehead, and if you choose, you can incorporate your

3570
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eyes in this focus as well. Your forehead and your eyes,

3571
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it's that whole area basically almost as if you were

3572
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wearing a mask, you know, like a I don't know,

3573
09:47:41.680 --> 09:47:48.319
a Batman mask or something, or I'm trying to sorrow

3574
09:47:48.519 --> 09:47:50.519
or something, you know, the kind of mask that covers

3575
09:47:50.599 --> 09:47:53.680
your eyes but also covers quite a lot of the forehead.

3576
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Focusing on that area because that's the area that we're

3577
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now going to release tension. Stress from your mind, your brain,

3578
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from your mind, and any tension that you may have

3579
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remain your face, in your neck, your jaw, in your eyes,

3580
09:48:18.639 --> 09:48:25.319
your forehead, or your scalp. So basically any tension within

3581
09:48:25.440 --> 09:48:34.000
your head area, including your mind and your brain, that's

3582
09:48:34.080 --> 09:48:38.360
going to be released through your forehead and your eyes.

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As I count down again from twenty down to one

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now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five,

3585
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war three one, noticing she scared your face with jaw,

3586
09:50:45.040 --> 09:50:53.839
your eyes, the cheap bones, your ears, a forehead, your scalp,

3587
09:50:55.480 --> 09:50:59.760
your neck, back of your neck, in front of your neck,

3588
09:51:00.720 --> 09:51:11.440
the side of your neck, and your throat. Noticing being

3589
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aware of the comfort increased being relaxation, not just in

3590
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your head and neck and mind, also the rest of

3591
09:51:28.480 --> 09:51:38.720
your body. Just notice how loose and calm you film,

3592
09:51:39.760 --> 09:51:48.120
and how easily it is to just let go completely,

3593
09:51:50.959 --> 09:52:11.639
let go completely and easily. So what I'm going to

3594
09:52:11.760 --> 09:52:15.360
do now is I wanted to focus on the top

3595
09:52:15.400 --> 09:52:25.720
of your head, and we're going to allow every last

3596
09:52:27.639 --> 09:52:33.680
piece of tension or stress the mind be lingering or

3597
09:52:33.879 --> 09:52:40.199
hiding in your body or mind my head to just

3598
09:52:41.959 --> 09:52:47.919
be sucked out on the top of your head, at

3599
09:52:48.080 --> 09:52:56.160
least to be air. I want sucked down into the clouds,

3600
09:52:59.279 --> 09:53:03.639
a big cloud. How to put your head, almost like

3601
09:53:03.760 --> 09:53:09.720
a whirlpool. It's is gonna suck that tension out of

3602
09:53:09.800 --> 09:53:20.559
the top of your head, just take away good your focus.

3603
09:53:21.519 --> 09:53:25.440
Imagine an opening on the top of your head with

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a tension and stress and any remaining issues, maybe worries

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09:53:31.599 --> 09:53:33.879
of concerns that real use