April 19, 2025

(music) (10 hours) Q&A Friday | Let me bore you to sleep #1331 | 18th April 2025

(music) (10 hours) Q&A Friday | Let me bore you to sleep #1331 | 18th April 2025
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Hello, and welcome to jasonnew Land dot com. Money is

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Jason a new Land. Please only listen when you can

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safely close your eyes. And this is Q and a Friday,

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Q and a Friday, but being recorded on a Saturday.

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So should have done this yesterday, good Friday, the eighteenth

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of April twenty twenty five, but I am now doing

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it instead on Saturday. The I suppose still good Saturday.

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Maybe nineteenth of April. I'd say eighteenth April, yesterday, nineteenth

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of April today, twenty twenty five at seven forty four am.

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That's more information than any of us really needed, isn't it?

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And I wear my pink crocs. I mean my right

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buttck is itchier than my left buttock. I mean, what

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what stuff do we really need to hear about? Awe okay,

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me wants a treat, but for some reason he's gone.

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He's on a setty, happy to clean himself if I

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crink all the thing. Oh yeah, he's noticed. Do you

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want to treat chewy chicken twists with one hundred natural

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chicken breast meat promotes dental hygiene. Good boy, it's called

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and let meast say what is it? He's just looking

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at me like, who cares what it says on the packet?

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Just give me it a complete pet food? Okay here goo,

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good boy. He loves them. Basically, he loves them. I

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would say it's probably his favorite treat that he's had ever.

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Sorry about all the noise, the chairs, a bit clickery, clickery,

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it's just got that that will keep my occupied for

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about occupied. He'll keep him occupied for about ten minutes,

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I think, unlike most other treats, which keep him occupied

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for like treat treats will keep occupied and maybe ten seconds.

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You know, the ones that are edible. The only things

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that keep that last any amount of time is like

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a bone thing and thinking that can keep him going

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for an hour or two? What an hour? Maybe an

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egg because he likes to break up the eggshell into

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a million pieces, So you know, that can keep him

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going for puting about twenty minutes. I feel like I

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want to time him now just to see how long

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it actually takes, but I won't. So I'll briefly tell

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you about what happened last night. We yesterday just because

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the reason bloody fleas. So I will tell you what

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happened yesterday because.

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EO.

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But I posted yesterday on my Facebook group, which is

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Jason Newland's boring group. Wasn't able to do Q and

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a Friday today due to some neighbor drama, but will

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try and do it tomorrow. I'm going to bed. Well,

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I'm now going to bed now. That wasn't grammatically correct.

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I didn't put I wasn't able, just wasn't able. The

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English language is going downhill. The written English language is

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going downhill. And I understand why because there's so much

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stuff we don't need to really put in, because no

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one's gonna put wasn't able to do Q and a Friday.

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Is there anyone in the world reading that thinking who

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wasn't able to? Who's he talking about? Is he talking

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about Vinny? Is he talking about the Milkman? Is he

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talking about I don't know. I'm just confused. No, it's

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me obviously I'm in the first person, but it isn't,

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you know, grammatically correct. Hmmm. Mike wrote, I hope you

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update this on a drama in an upcoming episode. I

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will update you on a drama in this for this one,

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in this episode, I will tell you right now, Well,

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in a minute, what happened, because also got another message.

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But who is this? Oh, I did get you blame me,

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I did get a miss. It's a comment posted on

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my Facebook group by and We'll just want to welcome

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new a new member. Now I can't find it at

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Louisa Welcome, It says hi, Jason hid One. You've been

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my sandman for a couple of years now, and every

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single night I tell myself remember to join the Facebook

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group tomorrow, then forget the moment I wake up. But

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here I am. Lately, I've been really stressed. I have

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to leave London and move back to Paris. Thanks Brexit,

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and you've helped me unwind and let my mind wander.

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I haven't subscribed to a YouTube channel yet, but I

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will soon. But over the years I've built up this

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whole mental image of your flat, the windows, the guard

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and the setup, and I'm slightly scared would clash with

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my imagination. Are you planning to visit? Are you planning

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to move in? Don't worry it, I'm sure. I don't

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know if I've actually done. I haven't done much videos

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of of the flat really. I did a video when

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I first moved in, when I got the carpet put in,

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So when I late when I got the carpet laid. Yeah,

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I was quite pleased because everything was immaculate, really the

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whole factually only time ever that the flat was immaculate,

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and since then, because I moved in in April twenty fifteen,

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in November or maybe it was October, I don't know.

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I think about November time I got Andre in my

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little ferret, and from that moment on, the flat was

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no longer immaculate and hasn't been since. He destroyed the

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setti that I had, like literally ripped it to bits.

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He destroyed the carpet, He pretty much destroyed the bottoms

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of all the doors. He yeah, he made it his

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own and I still love him to bits, so, you know,

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even though he's not around anymore, but he Yeah, I

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mean I made my my impression as well. I mean,

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it's not like he's the only one. I can't blame

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him for everything. And then then a couple of years ago,

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I got Vinnie, and he's pretty much done the same,

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you know, ripped up the carpet and done. You know,

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just he's a little dog and he's he is. He

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keeps a place very messy. Yeah, and it's good because

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I can blame him, even though probably most of the

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messes me. So I'm messy, I'm a bit messy. I'm

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better off. I mean, I don't have much stuff really

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other than the equipment to make the podcast, television and

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some books. That's pretty much my belongings. I don't have

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lots and lots of belongings. I don't. So really it's

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I would say it's relatively tidy in here. Just there's

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stuff on the floor that I that needs to be

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picked up. These toys are all over the floor and

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the bedroom it's clothes on the bedroom floor, you know,

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things like that. So you can help tidy up when

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you move in. Right, what's next? I they did eat yesterday? Wow?

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So I I admit that I was running behind. I

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wasn't really feeling it yesterday anyway. I spent a lot

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of the day in bed. The morning I was relaxing,

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but I wasn't really I didn't have much in a

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way of energy. Okay. I took a little one out

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for a wa l k and it was you know,

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it was fine, said a load to a couple of people.

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It was nice enough. Came back, watched a bit of

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Telly and really just sort of spent a bit of

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time in bed in the afternoon, realizing I still hadn't

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done anything. Bearing in mind I've been making two to

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three recordings a day for the last week or so,

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so I having not made one recording, and I didn't

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think did I even make a recording Thursday. I don't

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think I did, So I've gotten right downhill. My work

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ethic is ridiculously bad, terrible if it was a job.

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The last recording I did was the seventeenth of April,

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so yeah, it was Thursday, Friday, Saturday. So I did

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do a recording on Thursday, but I did one. But

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Wednesday I did one two, but fit on. On Tuesday

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I did one two two, Monday one two three. Yeah, wow,

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Sunday I did three. Blim me, okay, well you want

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another one. That's the last one that didn't last ten minutes?

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Did it?

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He thinks it's his food and it's not his food.

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It's not it's a tree, but he thinks it's his food.

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He didn't even eat his bottle of food. Like yesterday afternoon. Anyway,

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I get a phone call. I'm hearing a bit of

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commotion in the garden. Not my garden, but a garden nearby,

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and I don't mean what's going on. There's always a

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bit of drama around here, you know, people shouting and

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stuff like that. And then get a phone. I get

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a phone call from my friend, a local neighbor. He said,

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I have just pop around and see you. I said, yeah,

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come around. He didn't seem very happy, but he came around.

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But his voice didn't seem great. So his voice is fine,

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but he didn't seem in a good mood. That's what

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I mean. So anyway, he came around. I'm not going

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to go in to specifics, but he came round and

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just told me he'd had a there's some problems he

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was having. And then later on I saw a lady

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outside better than mind. I was in the middle of

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watching Big Brother, so I had two goals yesterday catch

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up with Big Brother, so that I watched the final

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you know, the picture night live. Having caught up with it,

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so I'd already watched one episode, so it was two

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episodes behind, and I was going to watch Thursday's episode

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and I got about ten minutes into it, so there

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was still quite a bit of maybe fifteen minutes. There

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was still quite a lot to go, but I paused

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it where my friend said he was going to come

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around my neighbor. So he came around, and then I

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fast forward a little bit. There was a lady outside

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the front of my building laying on the pavement, and

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it was like, okay, what's going on here? So I

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went into sort of she was unconscious at this point,

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but she was breathing, like you know, she was kind

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of moving around a bit, but there was cans of

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drink on the floor next to her, like alcoholic drinks.

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So I'm like, oh, okay, now this this, this whole

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this kind of surprised me a little bit. So I

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called for an ambulance. I said, They said, is she breathing?

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And said, yeah, what's her name? I don't know what

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her name is, which I didn't I did find out later,

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and I was saying, do you know what's wrong with us?

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I said, novoice, I've called for an ambulance. I don't

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we don't know. I just found us. She's lying on

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the floor on the pavement, and I'm just concerned that

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she needs medical help. So when I told them about

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the cans of alcohol, and I said, she does you know,

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I think she might have been drinking immediately. It's almost

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like they lost interest in the conversation. Which was weird

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because I was talking to someone who literally was telling like,

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usually they're quite attentive and but they take it seriously.

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This bloke didn't seem to really be interested as soon

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as alcohol's involved. He wasn't like, oh, oh, well. And

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I was kind of surprised at that, and I said, yeah,

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but she's a vulnerable female. She's not able to protect herself.

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She's not able to really stop anyone doing anything they

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want to do right now, and no one's helping her.

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The weird thing is that I said this, people were

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starting to stop. It turned out she'd been out there

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for three hours, but she'd been knocking on people's doors

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and some of the neighbors were actually keep an eye

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out on her. But because she was drunk, they just

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didn't know what to do with her, you know, they

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didn't want to let her in her in their house,

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and that she was given the She was given her

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dad's phone number to different neighbors and stuff, so she

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had that down in her head. This is a mobile number.

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She had both her mom and her dad's phone number

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lodged in her head. So I don't know. She don't

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know how drunk she could have been, and she was

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able to recall two mobile phone numbers. But maybe that's

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just how what I show my ignorance. Maybe I don't know.

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I just don't know how much of it was like

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it exaggerated. But at the time I didn't know she

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was drunk. Yeah she had some cans, but yeah she

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she she might have had as far as I was concerned,

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I didn't know. She might have tripped over and hurt herself.

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She might have had a seizure, she might have It's

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it's all kinds of weird things. You know. Just because

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someone's been drinking alcohol doesn't mean that they're exempt from

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medical attention. That's my opinion. So I mean, yeah, if

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it's self inflicted, okay, But lots of things are self inflicted.

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Someone driving really rubbishly and speeding and know if they

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have a crash, ambulance still come. They don't say you

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were speeding. I'm not going to help you, do They?

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In fact, literally literal self inflicted wounds get treed by

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an ambulance. So then he stopped fidgeting. Please mate, be

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mind me. He's not even eating all of that treat

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so I accord an ambulance. I had this weird conversation

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and they said, is she injured? So I said, are

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you injured? Because at this point she had her eyes

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open and she's not a jess. I said, she's not

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in yes. Oh, I don't know what we're going to do, bloke. Really,

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I've never had a conversation with someone from embudence before.

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They usually like, stick to the script. You just it's

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almost like you just put the script down and went

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for cigarette break and just talking to me while I

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was on a cigarette break. Yeah, well, you know, not

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much we can. What you do is ah, really, well,

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can you send the police or something? Because she's not

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in a good way and she's vulnerable, vulnerable female because

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I realized they're not that bothered about men, so maybe

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they'll be care a bit more about women in that situation.

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But no, and it's weird, and they said, well, call

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call us back. Well, we'll call the police, but you know,

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whether we don't know if they're going to come or not,

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and if anything worse happened, and just call us back. Okay.

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So then she she's laying in the road, she's like

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half laying in the road, and I'm thinking, well, this

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is getting more dangerous now, because I mean lucky I was.

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I was standing in the road with her. I'm not

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going to push it in the road. No, I wasn't.

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I was standing in there with her to make sure

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no cars kind of ran her over because literally there

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was a car parked just in front so as a

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as a bend, so it would have been quite easy

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for a car to drive around the other car not

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knowing that she was behind the car. You know, it

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was kind of a bit of a blind spot I

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could imagine, especially if they were driving into park and

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they could have they could have hit her potentially. So

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I stopped. I was just stood there to make sure

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no one did that. And then two neighbors parked up

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in their cars. It's quite weird. So they were kind

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of standing around, like what were you going to do?

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A bloke stopped with his dog who was another neighbor

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and was walking his dog, and which I was.

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I was.

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I was glad to have that support, to be honest,

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I just didn't know what to do. I didn't know.

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And then so I called the police and the police

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are talking to me, and ah, so she's in the road.

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Can you not get her off the road? I said,

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I don't. I don't want to touch her. You know, she's,

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as I said before, she's a she's a female vulnerable.

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I don't want to be grabbing her. And I understand

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if there was who was a motorwhire, I'd have to

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have to think about it. But this is a very

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quiet road and there's no way anyone was going to

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hit her because I was stopping it. But she's like, oh,

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and she was telling me to get away from her,

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so that you know that that in itself wasn't particularly good.

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And he said, well, if you tried putting your trousers

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back on and then offering to help, And I said,

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I'm wearing trousers. What stupid? And he said, well, you

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know we can. That didn't That didn't happen. I don't

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know why I'm saying that. And she's it went weird

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after this that that wasn't the weird part. So I

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step away. She starts getting up, So she's getting up now,

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and she starts talking to someone else. She goes over

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to a car and starts trying to open a car door,

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pulling on it and hitting the car not hard. And

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I said to the police, I was just trying to

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get in a car. Now that peaked their interest. If

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it was criminal damage, they'd come to that, so her

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welfare wasn't particularly important to them. But and I don't

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know why, I guess just because she drink drunk or whatever.

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But the idea that she was maybe hurt in a

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car with that old criminal damage, and they really grabbed

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old of that. Also, she's trying to get into a car.

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She's doing like yeah. But I told her to get

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off and she did because it was a neighbor's car.

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So I said, can you get off? Actually I said

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it nicely, but Lee, can you leave that alone? And

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she looked at me, So that's a neighbor's car. Move away,

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and she did. I said, there's no damage, no damage,

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no harm done. You know. She I wanted to get arrested.

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I wanted to get some help. Well, in the meantime,

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I'm talking to the police for about ten minutes, well

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not the police, but they're nine nine nine. This bloke

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with a dog is he's actually on the phone because

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she's walked around the bushes and just she's falling down

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multiple times and you never see a toddler like balancing

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on a toy. You know that a toddler in the

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gardens and they're balancing on a toy and it's like, oh,

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they're going to fall, They're going to fall, but they

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don't what. It was a bit like that with this woman,

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but she actually did fall. She's going to fall, she's yeah,

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she's gone, but she kept getting up. It's like a weeble,

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you know, weeble's wobble, but they don't fall down. I mean,

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she did fall down, but she did get up again.

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And I guess I'm the one that wobbles really are. Anyway,

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she he got her telephone, her dad's telephone number. He's

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on the phone to her dad. He found a mom up. Mum,

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what didn't want to know? So this is this is

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someone that's in a I don't know, late thirties, possibly

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this this this lady maybe even early forties, middle thirties

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and early forties, I don't know, to be fair, and yeah,

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probably thirties. So I did see her dad, so he

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was he founded. My mom didn't want to know. He

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found the dad up and her dad said, I'm already

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on my way because it's from London, like he's ten

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minutes away. That's why he said, he's ten minutes away.

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How can it be ten minutes away from London if

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you just called him? It turned out that she'd already

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the neighbor across the road had already phoned their dad,

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because you'd be knocking on everyone's doors. I didn't know

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this at this point, and it was weird. It was

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just a strange situation. Prior to that, between the ambulance

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and the police phone calls, I I was saying to her,

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so where are you? I don't trying to sort of

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see if try and get her an ambulance, you know,

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sort of said to her, and she started swearing at

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me and being abusive to me verbally, wasn't abusive to

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anyone else, just me for some reason, and telling me

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to go whatever to my dad and whatever to my mum,

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and okay, you're not helping yourself here, you know. I

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was trying to help. And she said, I said where

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are you from? And said, oh, Stratford. I said, well,

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I know it Stratford. And you wouldn't get away of

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this behavior there. You know this, this you would not

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get away, You would not This is be a very

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dangerous situation for you if you did this in Stratford.

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And she's like, and I was losing a bit of

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sympathy and understand I suppose why the police an ambulance.

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They get so much hassle when they go just to

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people who were drunk trying to help someone that won't

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let you help them. So I do understand that. I

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just at the same time, I can't ignore someone that's

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lying on them on the floor, can't even hardly walk.

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She couldn't walk. That puts her in such a dangerous situation,

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which it would do if it was a man. It

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would make no difference to me man or woman. I

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can't really ignore it. I don't think or I can't.

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So it turned out so this was half four. I finally,

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after all the stuff, I finally got back up here.

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Just yeah, the police. I didn't realize i'd had it. Yeah,

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it was about ten past six. I was born twenty six.

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I was back upstairs, So I mean, the whole thing

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didn't start a half past four, but probably five five.

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I don't know. I lose track of the timing, So

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we're probably out there for about an hour, and I

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had two miscalls from the police that I got a

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text and the police just after I think it was

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I can tell you, actually, what's this guy to do

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with Q and a Friday? I don't know this was

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at how weird? Doesn't give me a time for the Texas.

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I thought Texas had times yesterday eighteen oh three. This

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is the Clinical Assessment Service of East Anglia Ambulance Service.

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We have attempted to contenterate with fun I've been able

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to be made. If there's been any worse than the

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patient's condition, please ring nine on nine. So I didn't

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have my phone switched on. It was on, but it

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wasn't on. If the volume wasn't on, then if it

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was on, I didn't hear it. But I think I

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might go on an editor mute just to forgot, because

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I thought I got it on mute most of the time.

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Oh dear, I wouldn't normally I would. I wouldn't do

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that if I you know, I didn't purposely do that.

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But I got a couple of emails, one saying we

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all continuing to rage help. This was probably about half

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an hour later. An hour later, actually, the clinician may

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call you back from a withheld number. Please keep your

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phone lying clear. I only call nine nine nine again

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if the patient's condition worsens. Alternatively, should you no longer

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require help, please reply cancel. So I just sent a cancel.

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I didn't I thought they just that was it. They

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weren't bothering. But it didn't tell me that the ambulance

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was still planning to come. But they just it wasn't

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a priority, which is fair enough. They've got their criteria.

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And.

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When I called them, I didn't know if it's a

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priority or not. Unfortunately, I've had to call the ambulance

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and the police so many times since I've lived there,

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and I've been in this situation before with my neighbor downstairs,

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the one directly below me, and she treas I say,

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was because she passed away. But she's only young. She's

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only in a little bit older than me, about a

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year older than me or something. And this was too fat. Yeah,

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twenty nineteen or twenty twenty, right at the beginning of

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the year. She basically her mom knocked on the door

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and she wasn't answering, and I heard her mum banging

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on the windows, like the bedroom windows out of the back.

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So I went downstairs because I saw this woman and

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I thought what was going on there? I just checked

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that she was all right because it seemed like a

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weird thing to be doing. Didn't look like a thief

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by far. I just go and check it out. And

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I said, all right. She said, yeah, I'm trying to

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get hold of my daughter. She's in there, but she's not.

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She should be in it because she arranged to pick

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her up. I think she had a doctor's appointment or something.

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And I said, oh, okay, and then she she said, well, no,

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I can hear her. She's in there, but I can't

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see where she is. She's not answering the door. Well,

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then she goes and she starts talking letterbox to her

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and it turns out she owed her money and she

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just didn't want to pay it. No, that's not true.

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She shed collapsed. She was on the floor, collapsed, and

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she'd been like that for days apparently. So she was

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able to talk to her mum, but wasn't able to

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move right, there's no way of getting into the flat.

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I couldn't get into the flat. Well, I couldn't get

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into the flat. Luckily, I know some people that do

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know how to do stuff. Like that, not luckily for

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the neighbors to get robbed. But yeah, I know people

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that know how to get into flats very quickly. So

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I got my my local my local breaking service. Well

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it's really weird. I know, if I ever, if I

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ever locked myself out up properly and I can't get

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a locksmith or whatever, a ladder, that's all the need.

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A ladder. You if all the windows are locked, I

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know someone can get through the windows in for like

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thirty seconds. It's just like and they won't have to

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be quiet either, so probably even quite even quicker because

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I'll be with them if they had to do it quietly.

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They put It's like, yeah, it's strange. It's just a weird,

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weird situation. But anyway, I called it. I said, you

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need to call an ambulance, and she said, no, my

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daughter would be in a minute. She'll know what to

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do because her other daughter was coming. She'd called her,

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and I said, I got angry, but it was like,

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you need to call an ambulance. She's lying on the

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floor and she can't move, and that is not a

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good sign. I mean, I'm no doctor, but I can

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I can conclude. I can conclude that's not a good sign.

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And I was correct, and I wish I hadn't been correct.

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So I called an ambulance and the ambulance said, oh,

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forty five minutes, and I said what he said, Yeah,

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forty five minutes. That's it. I said, she's lying on

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the floor, she can't move. No, be forty five minutes. Now.

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The ambulances are brilliant. And I'm not saying anything about

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ambulances or at police or anything. They've always been, you know,

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pretty much been great and I'm grateful. You know, ambulance

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services saved my friend's life multiple times, and so yeah,

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that's not But I was just surprised at this. So

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I went, this is I say, this is a few

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years back, and it's never that. It's not. It's not

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their fault anyways. They can't be everywhere all at once.

466
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Even Superman can't be everywhere, can they can he? You know,

467
00:36:00.320 --> 00:36:03.320
it's like remember Superman and movie the first one that I

468
00:36:03.440 --> 00:36:08.559
want to spoil it. I mean, it's fifty years ago,

469
00:36:08.599 --> 00:36:10.719
and since it came out, is it too soon to

470
00:36:10.719 --> 00:36:17.960
tell you what happened? But I think was it Superman one?

471
00:36:18.119 --> 00:36:18.280
Was it?

472
00:36:19.239 --> 00:36:21.719
There was? I don't know if it was a superhero

473
00:36:21.760 --> 00:36:25.840
movie where there was two missiles being sent at the

474
00:36:25.920 --> 00:36:31.440
same time, Yeah, it was two. It was Superman. So again,

475
00:36:31.519 --> 00:36:33.679
if you haven't seen it, you don't want to spoil it.

476
00:36:35.559 --> 00:36:40.119
The movie that was released in nineteen seventy five or

477
00:36:40.159 --> 00:36:42.800
was it nineteen seventy seven, but it's you know, it's

478
00:36:42.880 --> 00:36:49.639
nearly fifty years ago, and Lex Lufa launched two nuclear

479
00:36:49.679 --> 00:36:56.239
missiles or two missiles like really badness, so Superman couldn't

480
00:36:56.239 --> 00:36:58.679
and there were different areas. Superman couldn't get to both

481
00:36:58.679 --> 00:37:02.920
of them, so he had to choose one. It got

482
00:37:02.920 --> 00:37:06.039
to it and got rid of it, and he nearly

483
00:37:06.079 --> 00:37:07.880
got to the second one, I do believe, but he

484
00:37:07.920 --> 00:37:14.920
didn't get there in time and for some reason, I

485
00:37:14.960 --> 00:37:16.719
mean maybe it was just a fit the plot of

486
00:37:16.760 --> 00:37:23.679
the movie. But Lewis Lane or Lois Lois Lane, who

487
00:37:23.760 --> 00:37:26.840
was the love of his life? But was she? What

488
00:37:26.840 --> 00:37:32.039
about Lana Lane? The movie's never really dealt with Lana Lane.

489
00:37:34.719 --> 00:37:37.960
The more recent TV show did, but it was always

490
00:37:38.000 --> 00:37:43.119
like Clark Kent Loves l L Is it Lewis Lane

491
00:37:43.199 --> 00:37:46.440
or is it Lowis Lane? Or is it Lana Lane?

492
00:37:48.119 --> 00:37:48.440
L L?

493
00:37:50.199 --> 00:37:52.760
Who do you love Clark? I love it l L.

494
00:37:55.239 --> 00:37:58.400
So it's you know, it was always that really, I

495
00:37:58.400 --> 00:38:01.960
mean in the movies there was was Lewis Lane, but yeah,

496
00:38:02.000 --> 00:38:06.920
the thing for you know, Lana Lang as well, and

497
00:38:08.920 --> 00:38:12.280
for some reason Lewis Lane love with I can't I

498
00:38:12.360 --> 00:38:21.199
can't speak like that. Ol Lane. The the other missile

499
00:38:21.239 --> 00:38:25.639
pretty much landed on her head, so caused this big

500
00:38:27.039 --> 00:38:31.400
you know, catastrophic feing or whatever in the desert. She

501
00:38:31.440 --> 00:38:34.760
happened to be there. I think he chose the other

502
00:38:34.760 --> 00:38:37.400
one was going towards the city opposed to the one

503
00:38:37.440 --> 00:38:43.360
that was going towards the desert. And he finds her

504
00:38:43.400 --> 00:38:49.400
and he's like, oh, it's Lowis Lane and she's not survived,

505
00:38:49.639 --> 00:38:56.800
and it's very sad and he cries, and he then

506
00:38:57.079 --> 00:39:00.880
flies around the world lots of times and turns back

507
00:39:00.960 --> 00:39:09.159
time and it's very good. Why am I talking about Superman?

508
00:39:09.280 --> 00:39:12.360
Oh yeah, you can't. The ambulance they can't be everywhere.

509
00:39:14.400 --> 00:39:15.800
I mean, there's a lot more than them of them

510
00:39:15.840 --> 00:39:19.440
than there is a Superman. But at the same time, yeah,

511
00:39:21.519 --> 00:39:23.880
I'm so grateful that we've got an ambulance service that

512
00:39:23.880 --> 00:39:28.480
we've got in an NHS here, there've got police service, fire service.

513
00:39:28.960 --> 00:39:29.039
And.

514
00:39:30.679 --> 00:39:35.280
You know, I am. I'm grateful. We've got people to

515
00:39:35.360 --> 00:39:41.239
come and collect the rubbish, people that deliver the mail. Yeah,

516
00:39:41.360 --> 00:39:44.480
I am grateful for that. I don't always feel the gratitude,

517
00:39:44.519 --> 00:39:53.480
but you know, generally, i'm quite I am grateful. So, yeah,

518
00:39:53.599 --> 00:39:58.000
my neighbor downstairs, I phone the police, find I fhond

519
00:39:58.039 --> 00:40:03.719
the fires this next and I said, hello, I don't know it.

520
00:40:03.719 --> 00:40:08.599
I don't know if you can help me. My neighbors

521
00:40:08.880 --> 00:40:13.760
on the floor downstairs. She's collapsed. She can't move, but

522
00:40:13.920 --> 00:40:16.039
she's locked out. I didn't know there's anyway you can

523
00:40:17.000 --> 00:40:21.039
get into the place, you know, she's the front doors

524
00:40:21.159 --> 00:40:24.679
locked solid and we can't get in. And the ambulance

525
00:40:24.679 --> 00:40:29.239
would be here in about forty five minutes. And they said,

526
00:40:29.280 --> 00:40:32.679
what do you expect us to do it? And I'm

527
00:40:32.679 --> 00:40:40.079
like okay. And it was one of those like yeah,

528
00:40:40.119 --> 00:40:43.280
I know I need a locksmith, obviously, but I just

529
00:40:43.360 --> 00:40:45.719
thought maybe in a situation like that, they could come

530
00:40:45.760 --> 00:40:51.480
and remove the door in an emergency. It seemed like

531
00:40:51.519 --> 00:40:56.039
an emergency. It was an emergency. In fact, it was

532
00:40:56.159 --> 00:40:59.960
much more serious than realized. I just assumed it was,

533
00:41:01.360 --> 00:41:05.400
but no one else did for some reason. And then

534
00:41:06.239 --> 00:41:10.199
I called up the police and again they said, what

535
00:41:10.280 --> 00:41:12.199
do you want us to do about it? What do

536
00:41:12.199 --> 00:41:13.880
you what do you expect us to do about it?

537
00:41:14.960 --> 00:41:16.960
I mean literally those words, which I was a little

538
00:41:17.000 --> 00:41:22.039
bit surprised about. I said, well, she's locked. We can't

539
00:41:22.039 --> 00:41:24.000
get in there. The ambulance said they're going to be

540
00:41:24.079 --> 00:41:28.400
forty five minutes, and they said, well what I said?

541
00:41:29.440 --> 00:41:31.280
I said, yeah, but I think she had a heart attack,

542
00:41:35.079 --> 00:41:40.199
and they said, oh, okay. Five minutes later the ambulance

543
00:41:40.280 --> 00:41:45.519
was here. And in that five minutes, I got my friend.

544
00:41:46.719 --> 00:41:48.880
I asked my friend to get into the flat, and

545
00:41:48.920 --> 00:41:56.039
he did. He didn't go in, he took He removed

546
00:41:56.079 --> 00:41:59.199
the window from the bathroom or the kitchen, I think

547
00:41:59.199 --> 00:42:02.599
it was the bathroom. When he removed that in seconds,

548
00:42:03.679 --> 00:42:08.559
and just as he had removed that, her sister turned up,

549
00:42:09.079 --> 00:42:16.239
who was actually able to fit through the window. And

550
00:42:16.639 --> 00:42:19.000
just as she was pretty much climbing through the window,

551
00:42:19.320 --> 00:42:24.679
the ambulance turned up. So she came in. She opened

552
00:42:24.679 --> 00:42:27.920
the door from the inside, the ambulance went in there.

553
00:42:28.119 --> 00:42:32.480
We're there for about half an hour. Took her into

554
00:42:32.519 --> 00:42:35.599
the ambulance. The ambulance put you the paramedics. Rother took

555
00:42:35.639 --> 00:42:39.960
her into the ambulance and they were working on her

556
00:42:40.000 --> 00:42:42.400
in the ambulance for about an hour, maybe an hour

557
00:42:42.400 --> 00:42:46.480
and a half, and then it her that took her

558
00:42:46.519 --> 00:42:49.840
to the hospital and she died two days later. Now

559
00:42:49.840 --> 00:42:52.199
I'm not saying this is a sad story, although it

560
00:42:52.559 --> 00:42:55.239
is a sad story. The fact is she had had

561
00:42:55.239 --> 00:42:59.199
a heart attack, and she had another one in the ambulance.

562
00:43:00.559 --> 00:43:05.119
So there was part of me feeling guilty, like, am

563
00:43:05.159 --> 00:43:08.639
I lying saying that she said ah attack But I

564
00:43:08.639 --> 00:43:10.440
didn't say she had. I said I think she's had

565
00:43:10.880 --> 00:43:14.960
when I actually did believe that, and I was right.

566
00:43:16.440 --> 00:43:19.239
I just couldn't figure any other reason why she would

567
00:43:19.280 --> 00:43:21.119
be lying on the floor for a couple of days

568
00:43:21.400 --> 00:43:27.119
unable to move unless there was something really seriously had

569
00:43:27.159 --> 00:43:32.960
happened internally outside of like a fall or something like that.

570
00:43:33.039 --> 00:43:37.719
But she apparently she wasn't injured, wasn't physically like whatever,

571
00:43:37.880 --> 00:43:41.519
She hadn't broken a hip or anything, according to her mum,

572
00:43:41.760 --> 00:43:48.519
she just couldn't move. So I, yeah, I don't even

573
00:43:48.519 --> 00:43:50.280
know why I'm talking about this. I talked about it

574
00:43:50.280 --> 00:43:52.960
when it happened, But this just gives you an idea

575
00:43:53.000 --> 00:43:57.840
the kind of stuff that happens around here. And eventually,

576
00:43:57.920 --> 00:44:02.039
yesterday this lady, she got to her, a dad turned up.

577
00:44:03.519 --> 00:44:09.480
He said, right, he couldn't she wouldn't get up. He

578
00:44:09.519 --> 00:44:11.840
couldn't pick her up on his own. He called his

579
00:44:11.920 --> 00:44:18.159
wife over or his girlfriend over, and he shouted, Ory Doris,

580
00:44:18.280 --> 00:44:21.400
I don't know what her name was. Can you come here, please?

581
00:44:21.519 --> 00:44:23.440
Can you bring the camera as well so we can

582
00:44:25.079 --> 00:44:28.239
take another picture for the photo album, for the family

583
00:44:28.280 --> 00:44:31.920
photo album. And then he was going on and it's

584
00:44:32.000 --> 00:44:34.880
like he's had years of this since she was a kid.

585
00:44:35.920 --> 00:44:39.719
And he looked drained. He looked so much. I don't know.

586
00:44:40.480 --> 00:44:42.960
I have no idea what the background is behind the

587
00:44:43.000 --> 00:44:47.280
whole thing. But there was no winners, that's for sure.

588
00:44:48.639 --> 00:44:52.239
And it's weird because I felt relief as he drove off,

589
00:44:54.440 --> 00:44:57.639
but at the same time, I knew that the journey

590
00:44:57.719 --> 00:45:02.920
was nowhere near ending for him or for her, and

591
00:45:03.800 --> 00:45:06.039
you know, it was over for me. I'd kind of

592
00:45:08.239 --> 00:45:11.800
I had a degree of relief. I still wasn't quite there,

593
00:45:11.840 --> 00:45:15.320
but I was. It completely shattered me dealing with all

594
00:45:15.320 --> 00:45:20.519
the different people. So I kind of felt for him,

595
00:45:20.599 --> 00:45:24.360
but I felt for her as well, because you know,

596
00:45:26.239 --> 00:45:30.920
it's this addiction, isn't it. It's a horrible, horrible thing.

597
00:45:31.360 --> 00:45:33.360
And I've had to deal with it with lots of

598
00:45:33.360 --> 00:45:40.159
different people for for a long time actually, over the years,

599
00:45:41.000 --> 00:45:45.440
for good old twenty years. Really, I've dealt with my

600
00:45:45.559 --> 00:45:48.400
own issues and other people's issues. I had a little

601
00:45:48.400 --> 00:45:54.960
bit of fling with alcohol when I was younger, but yeah,

602
00:45:55.159 --> 00:45:59.360
I was very strange. And then my other name, my

603
00:45:59.400 --> 00:46:01.719
other neighbor, was it freaked out about some stuff and

604
00:46:01.760 --> 00:46:08.079
I just ended up ten to nine I think after

605
00:46:08.159 --> 00:46:12.039
taking him out, or maybe five to nine. I got

606
00:46:12.039 --> 00:46:18.400
home after sort of doing some other stuff, and that

607
00:46:18.559 --> 00:46:25.639
by the time I'd cooked some teacakes because I was hungry.

608
00:46:26.280 --> 00:46:30.719
The Big Brother Live episode was seven minutes in, so

609
00:46:30.800 --> 00:46:34.519
I couldn't watch yesterday's episode to see. I didn't even

610
00:46:34.519 --> 00:46:40.280
know who was evicted until, like I watched Disturb the

611
00:46:40.360 --> 00:46:43.920
live show. It just ruined it, you know, ruined the whole.

612
00:46:44.039 --> 00:46:47.159
I know, shouldn't all be about a TV show, but

613
00:46:47.280 --> 00:46:58.960
for me, this is what I enjoy. So that's why

614
00:46:59.000 --> 00:47:02.159
I'm late doing a Q Friday. And it took me

615
00:47:02.199 --> 00:47:07.760
what an hour to tell you that, Oh my goodness,

616
00:47:08.079 --> 00:47:10.719
it really did take nearly fifty minutes to tell you

617
00:47:10.760 --> 00:47:13.480
that I'm sorry. I'm going to do a Q and

618
00:47:13.480 --> 00:47:21.119
a Friday now, BlimE me. Wow, this is what this

619
00:47:21.159 --> 00:47:23.800
is what happens. This is how things work here. So

620
00:47:24.960 --> 00:47:28.039
I sometimes go on a bit. I've also got YouTube channel,

621
00:47:28.079 --> 00:47:30.880
by the way, hat Jason Newland.

622
00:47:31.320 --> 00:47:31.800
And.

623
00:47:33.239 --> 00:47:39.440
It's it's a weird thing because it's just weird because

624
00:47:39.440 --> 00:47:44.239
I've been uploading the latest recordings all six and yeah,

625
00:47:44.400 --> 00:47:47.239
I don't think it's really working so well. But hey,

626
00:47:48.039 --> 00:47:51.639
oh well, so questions. Do I have any questions? Well,

627
00:47:51.760 --> 00:48:03.800
yes I do. I put a like a little form

628
00:48:04.079 --> 00:48:06.440
on my website that you can fill in if you've

629
00:48:06.440 --> 00:48:10.280
got questions for qu and a Friday, and I've had

630
00:48:10.280 --> 00:48:13.079
a few people fill it in this week, so I'm

631
00:48:13.159 --> 00:48:16.679
just check in, did did did did LYD, did lid

632
00:48:17.679 --> 00:48:19.440
so QN A fri.

633
00:48:20.760 --> 00:48:21.000
Day?

634
00:48:21.079 --> 00:48:26.000
Where is it? I saved him in a folder one, two, three, four, five,

635
00:48:26.320 --> 00:48:31.280
six questions. This might be the longest Q and a

636
00:48:31.400 --> 00:48:35.679
Friday in the history. By the way, I'm going to

637
00:48:35.760 --> 00:48:40.239
go buy order. If I miss any out, I will

638
00:48:40.280 --> 00:48:42.840
answer them next week. Okay, So I don't want this

639
00:48:42.920 --> 00:48:46.599
to be like three hours long. I've got things to do.

640
00:48:47.920 --> 00:48:52.400
So the first question is from Ann if you don't

641
00:48:52.559 --> 00:48:55.239
mind me asking. I was wondering how old Andre was

642
00:48:55.280 --> 00:49:05.400
when he passed, and yeah, yeah, he was about six

643
00:49:05.440 --> 00:49:14.000
and a half. The reason what happened basically had spying injury.

644
00:49:14.960 --> 00:49:19.119
A little kid trod on him a year earlier, like stamped,

645
00:49:19.239 --> 00:49:24.400
probably stomped on him. And you know it wasn't anyone's fault.

646
00:49:24.440 --> 00:49:25.800
Is it was a little kid. It wasn't like a

647
00:49:25.880 --> 00:49:27.400
kid that knew what he was doing. Is like a

648
00:49:27.440 --> 00:49:32.480
little toddler really well, like three years old, four years old,

649
00:49:32.880 --> 00:49:36.360
and he just stomped on him. And at the time,

650
00:49:37.840 --> 00:49:42.159
Vinnie or Vinnie Andre seemed like he was just angry.

651
00:49:43.079 --> 00:49:45.039
I picked him up and he clung clung to me,

652
00:49:45.119 --> 00:49:46.559
but at the same time he wanted to have a

653
00:49:46.599 --> 00:49:50.920
fight with his kid. I thought nothing of it, really,

654
00:49:51.039 --> 00:49:54.199
I thought I didn't like it. But the mum was

655
00:49:54.199 --> 00:49:59.079
so but apologetic and basically she called me over, can

656
00:49:59.119 --> 00:50:02.280
you can my little boy have a little look sort

657
00:50:02.280 --> 00:50:05.559
of say loo to your ferret? And I've spoken to

658
00:50:05.599 --> 00:50:09.639
her numerous times. He's a very friendly person. Still speak

659
00:50:09.719 --> 00:50:11.760
to her husband. Don't see her anymore, but I see

660
00:50:11.760 --> 00:50:15.079
her husband regularly walking the dogs. He's also really friendly,

661
00:50:16.440 --> 00:50:20.000
but the kids, we were just talking and the kid

662
00:50:20.400 --> 00:50:22.960
it happened so quick. I saw it in a peripheral

663
00:50:23.360 --> 00:50:29.199
and just see his leg raised and on Andre's scream. Anyway,

664
00:50:29.199 --> 00:50:31.960
I thought nothing of it. Really, she was like apologetic,

665
00:50:32.119 --> 00:50:34.400
like it's not your fault. We didn't know this was

666
00:50:34.400 --> 00:50:41.960
going to happen. And the next day Vinnie was struggling

667
00:50:42.000 --> 00:50:46.199
to walk Vinida Vinny, Andre was struggling to walk, and

668
00:50:47.960 --> 00:50:51.599
he was basically he couldn't walk. It was limping really badly.

669
00:50:52.880 --> 00:50:58.679
And I left it a day because I thought, ah,

670
00:50:59.199 --> 00:51:01.480
see how I am. I didn't even connect the two.

671
00:51:02.760 --> 00:51:05.440
That's how slow I am. Sometimes didn't even connect it.

672
00:51:06.800 --> 00:51:10.599
And until I took him to the vets, and the

673
00:51:10.679 --> 00:51:13.199
vets said they did an X ray on his back.

674
00:51:14.239 --> 00:51:20.000
They said he's got spinal injury, like he's been trod on.

675
00:51:20.159 --> 00:51:24.039
It was like all okay, I said, yeah, a kid

676
00:51:24.079 --> 00:51:28.159
did stomp on him, trod on him on purpose. I said, okay,

677
00:51:28.239 --> 00:51:32.519
that'll do it. And I said what now. Then he said, well,

678
00:51:34.280 --> 00:51:40.800
in these cases, quite often, especially with ferrets, I mean,

679
00:51:40.800 --> 00:51:43.000
they're prone to have this kind of thing because they're

680
00:51:43.039 --> 00:51:47.079
so bendy. If you take that flexibility away from them.

681
00:51:48.000 --> 00:51:54.079
It kind of ruins their life, really because they're so

682
00:51:54.280 --> 00:51:59.920
bendy and he once you take that away, it's you know, quality,

683
00:52:00.159 --> 00:52:04.920
not great. And the weird thing about it, he nearly parts.

684
00:52:05.159 --> 00:52:06.800
Unless it's going to say, I'm just talking about death

685
00:52:06.840 --> 00:52:12.320
on this one, but he nearly died with the anesthetic

686
00:52:12.920 --> 00:52:15.800
that he yet to have to have the the X

687
00:52:15.920 --> 00:52:18.760
ray because he wou he wouldn't stand still or sit

688
00:52:18.800 --> 00:52:22.280
still for a second. And I wasn't allowed to hold

689
00:52:22.320 --> 00:52:27.400
him because this is during the old mask covering it period,

690
00:52:28.000 --> 00:52:32.159
if you remember that. So I couldn't be in the vets,

691
00:52:32.440 --> 00:52:37.760
couldn't even be inside the building. I had to stand

692
00:52:37.760 --> 00:52:40.280
in the car park. I had to hand over the

693
00:52:40.320 --> 00:52:44.400
bag with him in it to the receptionist or to

694
00:52:44.480 --> 00:52:46.719
the vet who had a mask on. I had a

695
00:52:46.719 --> 00:52:49.840
mask on. I would stand outside. He put his long arm.

696
00:52:50.119 --> 00:52:51.719
I couldn't believe that long as im once it was

697
00:52:51.760 --> 00:52:55.239
about like eighteen foot long, and he picked it up

698
00:52:55.840 --> 00:52:59.280
and he took the bag in and I had to

699
00:52:59.320 --> 00:53:02.159
wait for him to I think he phoned me to

700
00:53:02.320 --> 00:53:05.639
let me know how he was getting on. And I

701
00:53:05.679 --> 00:53:10.639
had to pick him up the next day because he

702
00:53:10.679 --> 00:53:15.800
was really groggy with the whole anesthetic, and they didn't

703
00:53:15.840 --> 00:53:18.000
know what to do because he wasn't He was like,

704
00:53:18.360 --> 00:53:24.039
wasn't coming back, wasn't to be in fully aware. Well,

705
00:53:24.079 --> 00:53:26.280
in the end I came and got him, took him home,

706
00:53:26.760 --> 00:53:30.079
and it took about a day or so, two days

707
00:53:30.079 --> 00:53:32.719
I think, before he was normal again. He's just like

708
00:53:32.840 --> 00:53:34.960
just lying there, just looking at me. It was weird,

709
00:53:36.320 --> 00:53:42.639
like he was drunk or something. There wasn't really much

710
00:53:42.679 --> 00:53:46.039
they could do, but he recovered. I got videos of

711
00:53:46.079 --> 00:53:49.119
him limping around, and then a video of him. He

712
00:53:49.199 --> 00:53:51.000
still wanted to go for a walk, still wanted to

713
00:53:51.000 --> 00:53:55.119
do everything as before, and eventually he got it back.

714
00:53:55.320 --> 00:53:58.480
His leg was fine, or his spine was fine, and

715
00:53:58.519 --> 00:54:03.679
his mobility was perfect, so I thought. And then a

716
00:54:03.760 --> 00:54:09.440
year later, for no reason other than just the injury,

717
00:54:10.119 --> 00:54:15.960
I guess that it got worse and he was limping again,

718
00:54:16.079 --> 00:54:22.239
and there was more war going on this time, and

719
00:54:22.280 --> 00:54:25.719
we were still in the masks, the mask episode, but

720
00:54:25.800 --> 00:54:31.079
this time I was allowed inside the veterinary reception, but

721
00:54:31.039 --> 00:54:33.719
I wasn't allowed to be in No, I was. I

722
00:54:33.760 --> 00:54:36.639
was allowed to go in there with him, but were

723
00:54:36.679 --> 00:54:38.719
still you know, everyone still had to wear a mask

724
00:54:38.800 --> 00:54:42.360
and stuff, so This was like two thousand and one,

725
00:54:42.880 --> 00:54:49.280
twenty twenty one, I think, And he said he had

726
00:54:49.280 --> 00:54:54.320
another X ray. He said that the spine's gone, like

727
00:54:54.400 --> 00:54:57.440
there was just warm. It was so damaged from before

728
00:54:58.119 --> 00:55:01.559
that it didn't heal proper plague, but it healed enough

729
00:55:01.559 --> 00:55:05.199
for him to because they've already determined old ferrets are.

730
00:55:06.000 --> 00:55:08.679
They don't care. They won't let anything get in their way.

731
00:55:08.719 --> 00:55:11.679
But he wasn't eating, and that's a sign that he

732
00:55:11.719 --> 00:55:18.119
was in pain. And there was no watch. Really, Yeah,

733
00:55:23.360 --> 00:55:25.440
so that was it. That's so, yeah, six and a

734
00:55:25.440 --> 00:55:27.639
half years ago where it was the end, It was

735
00:55:27.679 --> 00:55:33.679
like June twoy twenty one wasn't six and a half

736
00:55:33.719 --> 00:55:35.159
years ago, but I think it was about six and

737
00:55:35.159 --> 00:55:37.119
a half years when I got in went when he

738
00:55:37.320 --> 00:55:43.480
passed away. Yeah, So I would try and lighten it

739
00:55:43.559 --> 00:55:49.199
up if I can. Ja. This is from Maria r

740
00:55:50.119 --> 00:55:52.159
Hi Jason. What's the longest time you ever lived in

741
00:55:52.159 --> 00:55:55.360
one place? Are there any fond child of memories that

742
00:55:55.400 --> 00:56:00.760
you can recall? Thank you? Oh, I can't think of

743
00:56:00.760 --> 00:56:04.199
any childhood memories. So the longest time I ever lived

744
00:56:04.239 --> 00:56:10.239
in one place is here this place. Never lived anywhere

745
00:56:10.239 --> 00:56:16.400
for ten years before the second longest place was I

746
00:56:16.400 --> 00:56:19.119
guess like the family home would call it that I

747
00:56:19.199 --> 00:56:26.119
lived for between the ages of nine and fifteen, So

748
00:56:26.119 --> 00:56:32.199
what's that ten nine and fifteen? Six? It's not that long?

749
00:56:32.320 --> 00:56:38.320
Is it really six years? Wow? It seemed like forever,

750
00:56:38.400 --> 00:56:41.920
but then I was young, So yeah. The second longest

751
00:56:41.920 --> 00:56:48.679
place was there was six years, and I did live

752
00:56:48.719 --> 00:56:51.639
at a couple of places for about four years each.

753
00:56:53.960 --> 00:56:56.559
When I first moved to Stratford from ninety one to

754
00:56:56.679 --> 00:57:02.719
ninety four, well three and a half years, so I

755
00:57:02.760 --> 00:57:05.480
spent three and a half years living in that room

756
00:57:06.000 --> 00:57:09.000
and there was another room in Stratford where I moved in.

757
00:57:10.920 --> 00:57:19.239
Was it probably about June to June nineteen ninety seven.

758
00:57:19.840 --> 00:57:30.599
I moved out the summer two thousand and one, so yeah,

759
00:57:30.639 --> 00:57:35.000
that's four I was there for about four years, evicted

760
00:57:35.000 --> 00:57:40.119
from there. And when I was at university, I stayed

761
00:57:40.119 --> 00:57:48.840
in a place in a room from November nineteen ninety no,

762
00:57:49.000 --> 00:58:00.599
two thousand and seven, and I moved out. I spelled

763
00:58:00.639 --> 00:58:07.840
like March two thousand and eleven, two thousand and eleven, Yeah,

764
00:58:08.960 --> 00:58:15.440
so what's that two thousand and seven, November two thousand

765
00:58:15.480 --> 00:58:19.920
and eight, two thousand and nine, twenty ten, so again

766
00:58:20.039 --> 00:58:32.360
that's three years and probably three months. Yeah, I mean

767
00:58:32.559 --> 00:58:38.760
I lived at them set the YMCA from September two

768
00:58:38.800 --> 00:58:48.119
thousand and one until about March two thousand and four.

769
00:58:48.639 --> 00:58:52.119
But I lived in three different studio apartments. There were

770
00:58:52.159 --> 00:58:55.760
studio flats, so I didn't stay in the same place,

771
00:58:56.400 --> 00:58:58.320
but I moved around because I just started trying to

772
00:58:58.320 --> 00:59:03.119
find somewhere quiet. But you know, technically in the same well,

773
00:59:03.440 --> 00:59:06.800
not technically, I was literally in the same building. It's

774
00:59:06.840 --> 00:59:10.719
a very big building. From September two thousand and one,

775
00:59:11.480 --> 00:59:18.519
two thousand and two, two thousand and three. That's two years,

776
00:59:18.599 --> 00:59:23.320
and for two and a half years, I suppose I

777
00:59:23.400 --> 00:59:33.920
was living there. This seemed a lot longer at the time. No, yes, no,

778
00:59:37.400 --> 00:59:41.840
blind me see. It was weird because if I'd have

779
00:59:41.880 --> 00:59:45.199
stayed there, i'd have got I would have been shortlisted

780
00:59:45.239 --> 00:59:51.400
to get a council flat. That's not why I moved

781
00:59:51.400 --> 00:59:52.880
in there. I moved in there because it's the only

782
00:59:52.920 --> 00:59:57.159
place I could find anywhere to live when I moved

783
00:59:57.159 --> 00:59:59.159
from London, because I had a job to start and

784
00:59:59.199 --> 01:00:02.639
I could not find anywhere get a room or anything,

785
01:00:03.760 --> 01:00:09.519
and they basically I phoned them up. I had a

786
01:00:09.559 --> 01:00:13.719
friend say try to YMCA. So I did, and they said, yeah,

787
01:00:13.719 --> 01:00:16.000
we've got a place for you if you want to come.

788
01:00:16.079 --> 01:00:20.559
Never look tomorrow or Monday or whenever. Yeah, this is

789
01:00:20.559 --> 01:00:23.920
on I think this is on a Saturday. And I said, yeah,

790
01:00:23.960 --> 01:00:25.400
if you want to come Monday and have a look.

791
01:00:26.159 --> 01:00:34.199
Really yeah, because at the time I was staying in Yeah,

792
01:00:34.320 --> 01:00:37.000
I was staying in a bed and breakfast because I

793
01:00:37.079 --> 01:00:43.000
just started the job September I think it was the ninth.

794
01:00:44.840 --> 01:00:47.800
I think ninth September ninth, two thousand and one.

795
01:00:47.840 --> 01:00:48.199
It was a.

796
01:00:48.159 --> 01:00:54.880
Monday, I think, and I I stayed in the bed

797
01:00:54.960 --> 01:01:01.559
and Breakfast. I moved in on a Sunday, stayed in

798
01:01:01.599 --> 01:01:05.039
the bed and breakfast. I was still I was DJing

799
01:01:05.039 --> 01:01:10.000
in London, so I s I had my weekend hobby

800
01:01:10.199 --> 01:01:13.719
as a DJ. I didn't want to give that up,

801
01:01:13.760 --> 01:01:18.280
but I had to. But luckily I had three weeks

802
01:01:18.280 --> 01:01:21.639
where I could still do it, and then I had

803
01:01:21.679 --> 01:01:24.159
to give it up because I was moving away. But

804
01:01:24.199 --> 01:01:27.239
at this point what I was doing is going to London,

805
01:01:28.280 --> 01:01:32.480
staying over in London, and then coming back Sunday evening.

806
01:01:34.480 --> 01:01:37.320
So I think I did two weeks in the bed

807
01:01:37.320 --> 01:01:42.719
and Breakfast, but it was expensive. You know, I was not.

808
01:01:43.280 --> 01:01:47.320
I didn't have I hadn't hurt that I will learn

809
01:01:47.440 --> 01:01:52.239
to speak one day. I hadn't earned any money yet

810
01:01:54.440 --> 01:02:01.239
because I'd only done two weeks of work, So I

811
01:02:01.239 --> 01:02:02.960
I'm not quite sure how I got by it, but

812
01:02:04.079 --> 01:02:12.239
I did stop moaning. Finny, You like, why can't the

813
01:02:12.400 --> 01:02:20.400
sounds you make make me feel nice? That like it

814
01:02:20.440 --> 01:02:25.719
winds me up because it's just like, he's never never satisfied,

815
01:02:25.760 --> 01:02:30.400
don't you You're never satisfied? Well, no treat, but he

816
01:02:30.480 --> 01:02:38.039
had that whining just greats me a little bit. Sometimes.

817
01:02:38.440 --> 01:02:43.800
Come on, It's just like I wish they could talk

818
01:02:43.840 --> 01:02:49.000
so I could really know what he's talking about. And

819
01:02:49.039 --> 01:02:51.679
he's probably thinking, you know, I just want to Every

820
01:02:51.679 --> 01:02:53.440
time I go up to my daddy and I just

821
01:02:53.480 --> 01:02:55.280
want to talk about and ask him about his day,

822
01:02:55.320 --> 01:02:57.840
he sticks a treat in my mouth. I don't even

823
01:02:57.840 --> 01:02:59.599
want to treat. I don't even like him. I eat

824
01:02:59.599 --> 01:03:04.119
them just please him. I was just yeah, Okay, that's

825
01:03:04.159 --> 01:03:05.079
not likely, is it?

826
01:03:07.760 --> 01:03:07.840
So?

827
01:03:08.000 --> 01:03:10.960
Yeah, I'm trying to think, are there any fond childed

828
01:03:11.039 --> 01:03:23.320
memories that you can recall? Yeah? I'm sure there was loads.

829
01:03:25.519 --> 01:03:36.840
Recalling them is another thing I mean, Christmases were always good,

830
01:03:37.800 --> 01:03:43.440
like during the period between the ages of seven and fourteen.

831
01:03:47.920 --> 01:03:50.760
Things when even fifteen, but things have got a bit

832
01:03:50.920 --> 01:03:57.119
stressed at home by then. But during that period Christmases

833
01:03:57.159 --> 01:04:04.079
were brilliant. So every Christmas was great pretty much when

834
01:04:04.119 --> 01:04:06.599
I was a kid at tween the ages of seven

835
01:04:06.719 --> 01:04:15.320
and fourteen, every Christmas and unless I'm forgetting stuff, but

836
01:04:15.840 --> 01:04:19.920
generally I don't have I supdally. When I got a bike,

837
01:04:20.400 --> 01:04:24.119
that was cool because it was the only time I

838
01:04:24.159 --> 01:04:27.599
really got something. I was always happy what I got

839
01:04:27.639 --> 01:04:31.920
I got. That's the one thing about my parents at

840
01:04:31.920 --> 01:04:35.800
the time, very generous when it came to Christmas and

841
01:04:35.920 --> 01:04:40.159
birthdays and stuff like that. It can't be no way

842
01:04:40.239 --> 01:04:42.599
can then be folwed for that. It was so generous.

843
01:04:43.440 --> 01:04:49.119
I had multiple presents, loads and loads of thads, so

844
01:04:49.199 --> 01:04:53.599
it was brilliant. But only once did I you know

845
01:04:53.679 --> 01:04:56.519
that this I don't know, maybe it's the same four kids.

846
01:04:56.760 --> 01:05:00.960
There was that one present as a kid that you want,

847
01:05:01.679 --> 01:05:06.639
you want father Christmas to bring you and mine did.

848
01:05:07.119 --> 01:05:08.599
I did get that, and it was a bike. It

849
01:05:08.679 --> 01:05:17.480
was a racer and I was probably thirteen at the time.

850
01:05:17.960 --> 01:05:20.519
I had a paper around and I just wanted. I

851
01:05:20.639 --> 01:05:23.880
needed a bike to get me around because it was

852
01:05:24.000 --> 01:05:28.559
taking me so long. And I was yeah, so yeah,

853
01:05:28.599 --> 01:05:32.360
I got my bike for Christmas. It's brilliant. It's very

854
01:05:32.639 --> 01:05:40.239
very please, best present I ever had. And I'm trying

855
01:05:40.280 --> 01:05:47.599
to think, Yeah, so that was always good. And I

856
01:05:47.679 --> 01:05:50.360
used to like going to the library on my own.

857
01:05:51.199 --> 01:05:56.119
That was nice. When I discovered the library, the library

858
01:05:56.119 --> 01:05:59.679
became kind of like a second home for me. I

859
01:06:00.480 --> 01:06:04.400
loved going in there, reading the books, sitting down reading

860
01:06:04.400 --> 01:06:07.400
the books, going through every single book on the shelf,

861
01:06:08.199 --> 01:06:10.960
having a little dip. You know, that sounded weird, but

862
01:06:11.000 --> 01:06:12.480
you know what I mean, I look dipping in and

863
01:06:12.519 --> 01:06:19.119
have a little read. There was up upstairs. There was this,

864
01:06:20.920 --> 01:06:26.039
I don't know, like a partition thing upstairs where there

865
01:06:26.159 --> 01:06:32.119
was these kind of like encyclopedias and there's a big tables.

866
01:06:32.159 --> 01:06:35.679
So I suppose the research area maybe they would call it.

867
01:06:36.880 --> 01:06:39.760
And I went through a period when I was researching

868
01:06:42.119 --> 01:06:46.760
things that's very interested in. I don't want to say

869
01:06:46.760 --> 01:06:49.320
the occult because that sounds a bit bad, but I

870
01:06:49.360 --> 01:06:57.239
was really interested in were wolves and witches and vampires

871
01:06:58.800 --> 01:07:02.679
and all that stuff just fascinated me. I was interested

872
01:07:02.679 --> 01:07:06.880
in UFOs, and I just I'd literally go in and

873
01:07:06.920 --> 01:07:12.320
I would do my own research on a subject. So

874
01:07:12.400 --> 01:07:17.719
I researched vampires and Dracula and Led the Impaler, and

875
01:07:17.800 --> 01:07:20.320
I just I researched that. I went through all the

876
01:07:20.360 --> 01:07:23.960
different books and I copied out they what they wrote

877
01:07:24.559 --> 01:07:28.760
into my own pads, just for me. It was not

878
01:07:28.800 --> 01:07:36.519
for I wouldn't you wouldn't find me doing homework at all,

879
01:07:38.760 --> 01:07:42.639
but this, yeah, I was. There was no reason for it.

880
01:07:42.719 --> 01:07:47.920
I just got obsessed. So that's what I did. That

881
01:07:48.039 --> 01:07:52.920
was brilliant. I'd spent hours doing that. I'd love that.

882
01:07:53.239 --> 01:07:56.719
And I'd had only three or four five big massive

883
01:07:56.800 --> 01:07:58.679
textbooks out and I'd just been looking at all the

884
01:07:58.719 --> 01:08:04.360
different pictures and yeah, loved it to Yeah, absolutely loved

885
01:08:04.360 --> 01:08:19.399
it and reading. I think my favorite bit was when

886
01:08:19.399 --> 01:08:21.720
none of the family were around, when I could just

887
01:08:21.760 --> 01:08:24.840
be I didn't mind, obviously if they were around, but

888
01:08:25.239 --> 01:08:28.359
not around me, so I could be left on my

889
01:08:28.399 --> 01:08:34.039
own quiet. One of my favorite things to do. And

890
01:08:34.079 --> 01:08:41.680
I'm thinking back when I was like maybe ten eleven, ten, yeah,

891
01:08:41.720 --> 01:08:53.119
probably about ten, I would lie down on my Yeah,

892
01:08:53.279 --> 01:08:56.600
I'd lie down on the bed and I'd listen to

893
01:08:57.079 --> 01:09:00.920
classical music. There was an album which was basically the

894
01:09:03.359 --> 01:09:15.640
a lot of really really big movie scores. There's what

895
01:09:15.800 --> 01:09:19.760
was that do you Do Do do a million dollars?

896
01:09:20.399 --> 01:09:24.560
Fist full of million dollars or whatever, and there was

897
01:09:24.640 --> 01:09:31.079
the Pretty Star Wars and Superman. Definitely Superman because they

898
01:09:31.119 --> 01:09:36.239
had the long version where Louis Lane is actually talking

899
01:09:36.560 --> 01:09:39.680
in them in the song and it's the bit where

900
01:09:39.680 --> 01:09:44.760
they're singing no, it is a bit where they're yeah,

901
01:09:44.800 --> 01:09:47.239
there's a bit. There's some music from a Superman where

902
01:09:48.079 --> 01:09:51.079
she's flying with him or he's holding her and flying

903
01:09:51.119 --> 01:09:54.199
with her, and it's like a romantic one. And there's

904
01:09:54.239 --> 01:09:57.439
a song that it's really nice song. But anyway, I

905
01:09:57.520 --> 01:10:00.439
used to do that. I just lay down on the back,

906
01:10:00.880 --> 01:10:06.439
listened to the music and relax. When I was about ten,

907
01:10:08.680 --> 01:10:14.960
So that was a nice memory. Every time I visited

908
01:10:15.079 --> 01:10:22.119
my uncle, my uncle Terry, that was a nice memory

909
01:10:22.159 --> 01:10:28.720
because he was so brilliant. It was just lovely. It

910
01:10:28.760 --> 01:10:31.439
was lovely. I mean, yeah, he had money, but that

911
01:10:31.560 --> 01:10:34.199
wasn't the reason he was lovely. He was just lovely,

912
01:10:35.960 --> 01:10:40.840
best uncle you could wish for. So I visited him

913
01:10:41.159 --> 01:10:43.640
a few times, a couple of times when I was

914
01:10:43.640 --> 01:10:50.840
a bit older when I was in my teens, and

915
01:10:50.880 --> 01:10:54.279
it always treated me with respect, always treated me like

916
01:10:54.359 --> 01:10:57.840
a human, but didn't talk down to me. He didn't

917
01:10:57.840 --> 01:11:03.520
treat me like I was a kid, and he showed interest,

918
01:11:06.600 --> 01:11:09.560
and it was like almost like I was an equal

919
01:11:12.039 --> 01:11:14.319
in a way, in a weird way, and he was,

920
01:11:15.039 --> 01:11:17.039
you know, he's fairly well off. He was a wealthy

921
01:11:17.479 --> 01:11:20.479
owned his own shipping company. This is back in Dover,

922
01:11:21.520 --> 01:11:23.159
so he was, you know as well. Af lived in

923
01:11:23.199 --> 01:11:29.479
a really large house on the beach in deal or something.

924
01:11:29.560 --> 01:11:34.439
Can't deal with her so lovely though, And as someone

925
01:11:34.439 --> 01:11:35.960
said to me, oh yeah, it's easy to be nice

926
01:11:35.960 --> 01:11:39.399
if you're rich, Like I don't think it's that simple.

927
01:11:40.359 --> 01:11:44.319
It's not. It's a very simple way to look at it.

928
01:11:44.319 --> 01:11:50.640
It's there's nothing wrong with being wealthy. And I've met

929
01:11:50.680 --> 01:11:56.640
plenty of people that weren't so nice were now wealthy.

930
01:11:57.319 --> 01:12:00.000
And I've met lots of people that were really nice

931
01:12:00.359 --> 01:12:05.960
when they were had no money, but also met really

932
01:12:06.880 --> 01:12:12.039
unpleasant people that had no money as well. It's I

933
01:12:12.039 --> 01:12:14.800
think it's down to the personality and not what's in

934
01:12:14.840 --> 01:12:19.680
their bank account. I'm guessing that's just my personal take

935
01:12:19.720 --> 01:12:24.319
on it. But he was lovely and it can't be

936
01:12:24.439 --> 01:12:30.079
changed that those memories. And I think the fact that

937
01:12:30.119 --> 01:12:32.079
he left me left me to do what I wanted

938
01:12:32.119 --> 01:12:34.880
to do. By that, I don't mean I was left

939
01:12:34.920 --> 01:12:37.359
on my own, but he's just like if I wanted

940
01:12:37.359 --> 01:12:39.800
to go into a different room and watch movies on

941
01:12:39.840 --> 01:12:46.600
my own, I could and that was quite nice because

942
01:12:46.640 --> 01:12:49.079
I didn't really get to do that like at home

943
01:12:49.119 --> 01:12:54.079
because there's so many of us. So I think any

944
01:12:54.199 --> 01:12:58.840
time my family wasn't around, I was kind of happier.

945
01:13:00.239 --> 01:13:05.079
I think it was just crowd too many people constantly

946
01:13:05.199 --> 01:13:09.239
arguing between my brothers and me, they bring me into

947
01:13:09.319 --> 01:13:11.840
it as well. I'd probably argue more with my middle

948
01:13:11.880 --> 01:13:15.479
brother than with my oldest brother, but then he would

949
01:13:15.479 --> 01:13:20.800
probably argue with They would argue amongst themselves more as well,

950
01:13:20.840 --> 01:13:23.720
because it's like the age, because there was two years

951
01:13:23.800 --> 01:13:26.479
to me and my middle brother, those two years through

952
01:13:26.520 --> 01:13:30.560
my middle brother and my oldest brother, but that four

953
01:13:30.640 --> 01:13:35.439
year gap meant that we weren't really very different in age,

954
01:13:36.399 --> 01:13:40.439
so we didn't have so much to argue about. And

955
01:13:40.479 --> 01:13:42.479
then my little brother was eight years younger than me,

956
01:13:42.920 --> 01:13:47.319
so no one really argued with him until he got

957
01:13:47.319 --> 01:13:53.399
to about probably five or six, and then yeah, it

958
01:13:53.479 --> 01:14:02.039
was a bit of a bit of a little ruffian. Yeah,

959
01:14:02.159 --> 01:14:07.119
so I don't what do I want memories see one

960
01:14:07.119 --> 01:14:09.920
of my fondest memories. And it's going to be weird

961
01:14:09.920 --> 01:14:14.159
for anyone that from the UK that knows the person

962
01:14:14.199 --> 01:14:21.880
I'm mentioning. But my school, and I think it was

963
01:14:22.039 --> 01:14:31.520
nineteen seventy nine, maybe nineteen eighty. My school was on

964
01:14:31.560 --> 01:14:38.520
the Rolf Harris Show and we rehearsed for months before

965
01:14:38.600 --> 01:14:44.880
that before the filming. At the time, Rolf Harris was

966
01:14:45.079 --> 01:14:51.319
super famous in his country and it travel around different

967
01:14:51.399 --> 01:14:55.159
schools and they'd be singing and dancing and all that stuff.

968
01:14:56.279 --> 01:15:00.079
The thing is it wasn't filmed in the schools that

969
01:15:00.239 --> 01:15:03.680
their own studio that they filmed it in, but it

970
01:15:03.760 --> 01:15:06.119
was it was a school. It looked like a school,

971
01:15:06.920 --> 01:15:08.800
and it probably was a school, to be fair, but

972
01:15:09.119 --> 01:15:13.520
it was maybe they used it during the summertime. But

973
01:15:13.600 --> 01:15:16.960
then make out it was the school, you know, the

974
01:15:17.039 --> 01:15:20.199
actual school that makes sense, the school that they were visiting.

975
01:15:21.039 --> 01:15:27.479
So it wasn't just the it wasn't just the whole day,

976
01:15:27.680 --> 01:15:32.239
the traveling with all the kids, because you know, the

977
01:15:32.319 --> 01:15:35.960
whole school wasn't just like one year, so there's probably

978
01:15:37.399 --> 01:15:39.800
I don't know how many coachfuls of kids there was.

979
01:15:42.119 --> 01:15:48.079
We were all The rehearsing bit was really fun, so

980
01:15:48.079 --> 01:15:51.159
there's a lot of singing, a lot of dancing, you know.

981
01:15:52.960 --> 01:15:55.520
The sixth well I say six maybe maybe it's three

982
01:15:55.560 --> 01:15:58.319
months leading up to, but it seemed like quite a

983
01:15:58.359 --> 01:16:04.239
long time. And I think Rolf Harris came around and

984
01:16:04.239 --> 01:16:07.359
saw us first at the school to announce that he

985
01:16:07.439 --> 01:16:10.920
was going to be having us on his show, and

986
01:16:11.920 --> 01:16:14.960
it was one of the biggest shows on Saturday night TV,

987
01:16:15.520 --> 01:16:21.079
early TV, and he did a different different school each week,

988
01:16:21.880 --> 01:16:25.880
so it was exciting. The build up was exciting, the

989
01:16:25.920 --> 01:16:30.159
actual event was brilliant. I was on Camra quite a

990
01:16:30.199 --> 01:16:35.119
few times and I said I was like nine or ten.

991
01:16:36.479 --> 01:16:39.640
I'm not sure exactly that the act exact year is

992
01:16:39.680 --> 01:16:46.039
even nineteen seventy nine or nineteen nineteen eighty. It could

993
01:16:46.039 --> 01:16:50.520
be eighty one, because i'd have been ten in eighty one. Yes,

994
01:16:50.800 --> 01:16:52.920
maybe it was eighty one. I think it was nineteen eighty.

995
01:16:53.560 --> 01:17:00.560
I think it was brilliant, absolutely one of the best

996
01:17:00.640 --> 01:17:06.439
days of my childhood. So yeah, I mean Rolph House

997
01:17:06.600 --> 01:17:11.439
is no longer around and see Yeah, things didn't go

998
01:17:11.640 --> 01:17:16.119
quite so well with him and his career, but it

999
01:17:16.159 --> 01:17:18.279
doesn't take away the fact that that was one of

1000
01:17:18.319 --> 01:17:26.000
the highlights of my childhood positive highlights. What else childed

1001
01:17:26.199 --> 01:17:32.920
fond childed memories that I can recall. There was a

1002
01:17:32.960 --> 01:17:36.640
period when my dad was in a good mood. I

1003
01:17:36.239 --> 01:17:41.560
don't quite know why, but I remember coming home from school.

1004
01:17:42.079 --> 01:17:43.680
So I was a teenager at this point, so I

1005
01:17:43.680 --> 01:17:52.800
would have been probably thirteen, maybe twelve thirteen, and his

1006
01:17:55.439 --> 01:17:57.600
I don't know what it is he went. There was

1007
01:17:57.640 --> 01:18:00.439
this little period when he was buying stuff, so he

1008
01:18:00.600 --> 01:18:05.560
bought a new computer. And even though I don't have

1009
01:18:06.359 --> 01:18:12.199
they had no interest in computers back then, the fact

1010
01:18:12.239 --> 01:18:17.439
that everyone was happy was nice. My dad was excited,

1011
01:18:18.000 --> 01:18:21.399
My brothers were excited. My middle brother was more excited

1012
01:18:21.399 --> 01:18:24.840
than anyone about the computer, and he was learning to

1013
01:18:24.960 --> 01:18:30.199
code and all kinds of stuff. But it was just

1014
01:18:30.439 --> 01:18:34.760
and yeah, it was nice because it was a nice atmosphere.

1015
01:18:36.079 --> 01:18:43.359
So that happened a few times. Those kinds of things, Yeah,

1016
01:18:44.279 --> 01:18:48.520
I did. I'm never really I don't think I ever

1017
01:18:48.640 --> 01:18:53.199
really felt like I am superstitious. But I tried to

1018
01:18:53.279 --> 01:18:57.000
do the exact same walk and tried to do everything

1019
01:18:57.079 --> 01:19:02.720
the same as I did that day and on the

1020
01:19:02.760 --> 01:19:05.920
same day of the week, to see if I get

1021
01:19:05.960 --> 01:19:09.199
the same result. So I got home and things were nice.

1022
01:19:10.600 --> 01:19:13.000
It's weird. I'd be like looking at the floor at

1023
01:19:13.039 --> 01:19:16.359
which bit did I walk on? How did I feel?

1024
01:19:17.560 --> 01:19:19.760
What was I listening to? Or do you know? Just

1025
01:19:19.840 --> 01:19:23.159
really trying to focus on getting into that zone of

1026
01:19:24.479 --> 01:19:28.800
if I could get into the same zone, the same mindset,

1027
01:19:29.239 --> 01:19:32.439
feeling exactly the same way as I did the day

1028
01:19:32.520 --> 01:19:36.920
when I got home and the computer was there and

1029
01:19:37.319 --> 01:19:39.359
he was in a good mood and everyone was like

1030
01:19:39.439 --> 01:19:43.000
happy past. If I could get into that, then the

1031
01:19:43.039 --> 01:19:45.840
same would happen again, not a new computer, but just

1032
01:19:46.520 --> 01:19:53.720
it'd be the same vibe. And yeah, that's that's what

1033
01:19:53.800 --> 01:20:02.279
I used to try and do. One of my happy memories.

1034
01:20:02.439 --> 01:20:05.720
I think when I was a kid, Saturday evenings is nice.

1035
01:20:06.279 --> 01:20:10.920
Quite often we'd all sit down watch TV. When I

1036
01:20:10.920 --> 01:20:14.560
was really young, I would sit lay on my front

1037
01:20:15.720 --> 01:20:19.239
watching TV. I'd be on the floor. They want to

1038
01:20:19.279 --> 01:20:20.319
go a bit older. I was.

1039
01:20:22.800 --> 01:20:22.920
Well.

1040
01:20:22.960 --> 01:20:24.920
I was told I couldn't because my bomb was too big.

1041
01:20:25.039 --> 01:20:27.560
No one could see the TV. That's not true. I

1042
01:20:27.560 --> 01:20:30.840
don't know why I said it, and so we're all

1043
01:20:30.920 --> 01:20:34.760
over dressing gowns on. Would have eaten at dinner, which

1044
01:20:34.880 --> 01:20:40.279
was usually like in the evening, like a snack kind

1045
01:20:40.319 --> 01:20:43.479
of like crisps, the buffet kind of thing that would

1046
01:20:43.520 --> 01:20:49.399
have So that was nice. Then we'd watch TV or

1047
01:20:49.479 --> 01:20:56.560
like TV shows early evening and I'd probably be in

1048
01:20:56.600 --> 01:21:00.199
bed at eight or whatever time I don't know. By

1049
01:21:00.279 --> 01:21:06.279
them addressing gown on get a bag of sweets, which

1050
01:21:06.319 --> 01:21:13.680
is cool. So yeah, those were nice. And then there

1051
01:21:13.760 --> 01:21:16.800
was the period when we didn't always do it, but

1052
01:21:16.840 --> 01:21:21.800
there was appeared when we had Yeah, we used to

1053
01:21:21.840 --> 01:21:26.199
get videos, not not every week, but when we did

1054
01:21:26.199 --> 01:21:29.680
get videos, we'd get like four movies maybe on a

1055
01:21:29.760 --> 01:21:32.840
Friday night, maybe Saturday night, and we'd be able to

1056
01:21:32.920 --> 01:21:34.680
keep it for the weekend and take it back on

1057
01:21:34.720 --> 01:21:38.399
the Sunday or Monday or something like that. This is

1058
01:21:38.439 --> 01:21:45.920
like early days of the video take cossette, and that

1059
01:21:46.039 --> 01:21:48.239
used to be brilliant, going down to the video shop

1060
01:21:49.439 --> 01:21:54.600
and we'd all go down together and try and choose

1061
01:21:54.640 --> 01:22:02.840
some movies together and yeah, great, yeah, I think we

1062
01:22:02.840 --> 01:22:04.680
were allowed to take it back Monday. So what we

1063
01:22:04.760 --> 01:22:09.239
did is we took it back so we'd rent or

1064
01:22:09.399 --> 01:22:12.920
was it Sunday afternoon, So my dad would take us

1065
01:22:13.000 --> 01:22:15.520
up there in the car and we'd get the stuff,

1066
01:22:15.760 --> 01:22:17.279
and then one of us or a couple of us

1067
01:22:17.319 --> 01:22:20.720
would walk back and take the tapes backs down the seafront,

1068
01:22:21.159 --> 01:22:30.159
probably about thirty forty minute walk. Unless it was Monday,

1069
01:22:30.199 --> 01:22:32.800
we had to take it back. It's not really that relevant,

1070
01:22:32.800 --> 01:22:37.359
but yeah, that was cool. That was nice. I liked that.

1071
01:22:37.600 --> 01:22:44.439
I used to look forward to that childhood memories. Probably

1072
01:22:44.640 --> 01:22:48.000
some of my favorite childhood memories was when I got

1073
01:22:48.039 --> 01:22:55.600
my first television. I was fourteen, and it was a

1074
01:22:55.640 --> 01:23:03.119
black and white Poorboll TV. And it was the first

1075
01:23:03.479 --> 01:23:08.880
time that I had any kind of say of what

1076
01:23:08.920 --> 01:23:14.279
I watched outside of being in the living room on

1077
01:23:14.399 --> 01:23:17.000
my own, you know, because there's stuff I used to

1078
01:23:17.000 --> 01:23:18.680
be able to watch when I was a kid that

1079
01:23:18.760 --> 01:23:22.880
no one else watched, like Grange Hill. My little brother

1080
01:23:23.039 --> 01:23:26.520
was too young to watch it, and both my older

1081
01:23:26.560 --> 01:23:28.720
brothers were too old to watch it. So it was

1082
01:23:28.720 --> 01:23:31.039
a time when I had the TV to myself for

1083
01:23:31.079 --> 01:23:34.720
about an hour and a half two hours sometimes, you know,

1084
01:23:34.760 --> 01:23:40.880
when I was around about the maybe twelve mark, i'd watch, Yeah,

1085
01:23:40.880 --> 01:23:45.119
I'd watch Grange Hill. For example. My brothers were too old.

1086
01:23:45.199 --> 01:23:49.399
They like, wouldn't watch that no more. I remember watching

1087
01:23:51.079 --> 01:23:57.479
Mister Merlin. But then there was a period when when

1088
01:23:57.479 --> 01:23:59.840
my little brother was old enough, we used to watch

1089
01:24:01.039 --> 01:24:07.479
cartoons together, so things like Musca Hounds, what other ones,

1090
01:24:10.199 --> 01:24:27.439
Danger Mouse, Mighty Mouse, Scooby Doo, the Muppet Babies. So

1091
01:24:27.520 --> 01:24:29.920
this is something. I don't think my little brother even

1092
01:24:29.960 --> 01:24:34.119
remembered this, but he there was this. There was a film.

1093
01:24:34.399 --> 01:24:36.319
I sent him a birthday card with it once on it,

1094
01:24:36.399 --> 01:24:39.039
and he didn't I think he remembered how to point

1095
01:24:39.079 --> 01:24:41.760
out what it was. And it was a movie called

1096
01:24:41.920 --> 01:24:50.840
Animal Olympics, Animal Impics. He watched it over and over

1097
01:24:51.800 --> 01:24:56.720
and over and over and over and over again. I

1098
01:24:56.760 --> 01:25:02.239
mean probably hundreds of times. That is his favorite movie.

1099
01:25:03.960 --> 01:25:06.920
He just loved watching it. I'm not sure how much

1100
01:25:06.960 --> 01:25:09.840
he understood what was going on because he was little,

1101
01:25:10.000 --> 01:25:13.319
really little, but he loved watching it. And I sent

1102
01:25:13.399 --> 01:25:15.319
him a birthday card a couple of years back with

1103
01:25:16.359 --> 01:25:20.600
like an image from that, and he didn't know what

1104
01:25:20.640 --> 01:25:25.920
it was. I don't think I should tell him one day, well,

1105
01:25:25.920 --> 01:25:28.119
you have to move in here, you want another tree? Yeah,

1106
01:25:28.119 --> 01:25:31.600
that's what it is. This is what we're doing. We're

1107
01:25:31.640 --> 01:25:38.840
just feeding, feeding, feeding, feeding food food. Well, i'll put

1108
01:25:38.840 --> 01:25:43.000
it on there. I'll see if he takes up. Yeah,

1109
01:25:43.199 --> 01:25:45.479
when he really wants something, I could put it on

1110
01:25:45.520 --> 01:25:49.199
a chandelier if like, I've got a schandelier, but I

1111
01:25:49.239 --> 01:25:51.479
could put it like high up on the ceiling and

1112
01:25:51.720 --> 01:25:55.880
still get to it. Any our childhood memories, there probably

1113
01:25:55.920 --> 01:26:04.319
are a few. Can't really think of anything right now. Yeah,

1114
01:26:04.520 --> 01:26:08.159
just a few little bits every now and then. Having

1115
01:26:08.199 --> 01:26:10.560
my appendix out, that's one of the best memories of

1116
01:26:10.600 --> 01:26:15.319
my life. That was brilliant being in hospital again, I

1117
01:26:15.319 --> 01:26:18.079
think partly because I was away from the family. It

1118
01:26:18.119 --> 01:26:23.840
was a bit of peace and quiet really, and yeah,

1119
01:26:23.960 --> 01:26:31.239
I loved that. That was brilliant. Another time would be

1120
01:26:32.279 --> 01:26:34.119
I had it by in my mind just now and

1121
01:26:34.159 --> 01:26:40.720
it's gone. Well, that was weird my stomach. Oh yeah,

1122
01:26:40.800 --> 01:26:44.880
chicken pox. I loved having chicken pox because I didn't

1123
01:26:44.880 --> 01:26:48.399
have to go to school. It was brilliant, and it

1124
01:26:48.439 --> 01:26:52.199
was snowing outside, so I was there. Basically, I think

1125
01:26:52.199 --> 01:26:55.039
my oldest brother got it first. We all kind of

1126
01:26:55.039 --> 01:26:57.600
took turns getting it, so it was only I think

1127
01:26:57.640 --> 01:27:00.720
it was a point where I had to stay because

1128
01:27:01.079 --> 01:27:05.640
too many of my family had it. So I got

1129
01:27:05.680 --> 01:27:08.079
like two weeks off work, off work, off school, I

1130
01:27:08.119 --> 01:27:13.880
think because I had to be contaminated or whatever they

1131
01:27:13.920 --> 01:27:18.960
call it contained. And I did get it, and it

1132
01:27:19.039 --> 01:27:22.960
was brilliant. It was so cool to not have to

1133
01:27:23.000 --> 01:27:25.479
go to school. I mean, that's one of the benefits

1134
01:27:25.520 --> 01:27:28.159
of having the appendix out. Didn't have to go to

1135
01:27:28.159 --> 01:27:31.159
school for a couple of weeks, didn't have to go

1136
01:27:31.279 --> 01:27:40.479
to school with the older chicken pox. I just remember

1137
01:27:40.560 --> 01:27:46.000
sitting indoors, drawing and things like that. It was snowing outside.

1138
01:27:46.920 --> 01:27:49.359
Maybe a bit of music playing, I don't know, there was.

1139
01:27:49.640 --> 01:27:52.560
The whole family was in but everyone was quite chilled out.

1140
01:27:53.640 --> 01:27:59.399
We were just enjoying, enjoying it. Yeah, that was nice.

1141
01:28:00.880 --> 01:28:05.520
Basically illness, anything involved illness, it might I wasn't ill

1142
01:28:05.560 --> 01:28:08.680
with it. I wasn't ill with chicken pox. I mean

1143
01:28:08.720 --> 01:28:13.000
I got it. I had the blotches, bit itchy, that's it.

1144
01:28:13.000 --> 01:28:18.439
It wasn't nothing for me. That wasn't being ill. And appendicitis.

1145
01:28:19.439 --> 01:28:22.720
I I didn't really have it. I don't know I

1146
01:28:22.760 --> 01:28:28.039
had appendicitis. I was trying to get off off school,

1147
01:28:28.680 --> 01:28:30.960
so I kept using the thing about having a stomach ache,

1148
01:28:31.000 --> 01:28:34.399
and I did have a stomach ache, but I don't

1149
01:28:34.439 --> 01:28:36.239
know if it was appendicitis. I think it might have

1150
01:28:36.279 --> 01:28:40.760
been grumbling appendix or something. But they took it out anyway,

1151
01:28:40.920 --> 01:28:44.840
which was a win win situation for me. It was

1152
01:28:44.920 --> 01:28:48.960
just great. I just yeah. I mean, I was thinking,

1153
01:28:49.199 --> 01:28:51.159
at this rate, I'm going to run out of body

1154
01:28:51.159 --> 01:28:53.520
parts because I was trying to work out what else

1155
01:28:53.560 --> 01:28:57.039
can I have removed to get another two weeks off school.

1156
01:28:58.359 --> 01:29:10.520
But it didn't come to that. Other things. There's a

1157
01:29:10.520 --> 01:29:13.439
few bits, and bobsessed a few of them anyway. So

1158
01:29:15.720 --> 01:29:20.720
Georgie asks, do you have a hidden talent? I don't haven't.

1159
01:29:21.159 --> 01:29:24.319
I don't even have any on show, never mind any

1160
01:29:24.359 --> 01:29:33.439
hidden ones. I ain't got no talents. No, I don't. Yeah,

1161
01:29:33.520 --> 01:29:38.520
I do think so, I don't know. I used to

1162
01:29:38.560 --> 01:29:43.199
think I could sing, and I think I could when

1163
01:29:43.199 --> 01:29:45.680
I was younger. Maybe everything's when I was younger, really,

1164
01:29:45.760 --> 01:29:48.199
isn't it. But I used to think I could sing,

1165
01:29:48.279 --> 01:29:52.720
and I think I could now not so much. But

1166
01:29:53.199 --> 01:29:59.439
hidden talents I can be annoying. It's not so hidden,

1167
01:29:59.520 --> 01:30:06.640
is it. No, I don't think there is. I can't. No,

1168
01:30:08.520 --> 01:30:12.439
there's nothing. Really, I don't think there's anything that I

1169
01:30:12.479 --> 01:30:18.279
can do. That would surprise anybody. I'm just trying to think.

1170
01:30:21.920 --> 01:30:28.640
Mm hmmm, Vinny, I can see my peripheral begging, begging.

1171
01:30:28.760 --> 01:30:35.520
I tell you, you're begging again. Stop begging. Do you ever

1172
01:30:35.560 --> 01:30:38.920
see it on TV or movies where they're showing someone's

1173
01:30:38.960 --> 01:30:44.760
doing something and the person, like the start of show,

1174
01:30:44.840 --> 01:30:48.640
can't see them doing it, but it's literally in their peripherals.

1175
01:30:48.640 --> 01:30:50.920
In no way you would not see that person moving

1176
01:30:50.960 --> 01:30:55.680
around to the side of you, but they don't because

1177
01:30:55.720 --> 01:30:59.039
it's a movie. It's like, wait a minute, even the

1178
01:30:59.079 --> 01:31:03.720
actor can see that person. I can see, Vinny. I'm

1179
01:31:03.720 --> 01:31:05.439
not looking at him, but I can see him moving

1180
01:31:05.479 --> 01:31:09.720
around and doing his law. I haven't eaten him for

1181
01:31:09.760 --> 01:31:14.039
a thousand years. My daddy never gives me anything, you know,

1182
01:31:16.359 --> 01:31:24.840
not Tom Sawyer, what is it? The little kid? Tom? Please, sir?

1183
01:31:25.000 --> 01:31:31.640
Can I have familiar Oliver Twist? That's it? So I

1184
01:31:31.640 --> 01:31:33.680
looked at him. As soon as I saw him, I thought, yeah,

1185
01:31:33.720 --> 01:31:37.279
Oliver Twist, Oliver. I'm gonna call you Oliver now, I'm

1186
01:31:37.279 --> 01:31:39.720
gonna call you Oliver Twist. And you've got some food

1187
01:31:39.760 --> 01:31:46.039
on you on your mouth, clean up after yourself. Ah.

1188
01:31:46.159 --> 01:31:48.199
The other day and I talked about him. But I

1189
01:31:48.239 --> 01:31:51.720
still can't believe that. I went out. I had a

1190
01:31:51.760 --> 01:31:55.560
little bit of chocolate and the toffee was all over

1191
01:31:55.560 --> 01:31:58.920
my beard from the bit of chocolate I had, and

1192
01:31:58.960 --> 01:32:02.359
I went out took him out. I was talking to

1193
01:32:02.560 --> 01:32:05.279
different people. I was talking to two people when I

1194
01:32:05.359 --> 01:32:08.359
got back as well, not one punched person mentioned the

1195
01:32:08.399 --> 01:32:10.960
fact that I had this and it was stretched out

1196
01:32:10.960 --> 01:32:14.920
as well. It wasn't like just a little bit. Why

1197
01:32:14.920 --> 01:32:24.720
didn't anyone mention it? It was just do I don't

1198
01:32:24.760 --> 01:32:32.159
have any hidden talents? I don't think I really. I

1199
01:32:32.239 --> 01:32:41.000
used to write poems, I used to write songs, but again,

1200
01:32:41.800 --> 01:32:47.159
not something I would call talents. I suppose things that

1201
01:32:47.199 --> 01:32:52.239
I wanted to do. The poems were more just as

1202
01:32:52.279 --> 01:32:56.439
an expression, to be fair. The songs that was more

1203
01:32:56.520 --> 01:33:00.399
to do with romance. I was trying to be roman antick.

1204
01:33:02.319 --> 01:33:06.520
You know, it's a long time ago. No, I can't

1205
01:33:06.520 --> 01:33:10.000
think of any. Maybe I do, but they're hidden. They

1206
01:33:10.079 --> 01:33:17.359
must be hidden, very very well hidden, because I don't

1207
01:33:20.000 --> 01:33:27.720
really No, I don't think I have any. But then

1208
01:33:27.840 --> 01:33:30.159
you know, if they're hidden, I wouldn't know in a

1209
01:33:30.199 --> 01:33:31.640
sense I know you're talking about I I've got any

1210
01:33:31.680 --> 01:33:34.079
hidden talents that I kind of don't tell anyone about.

1211
01:33:35.439 --> 01:33:38.720
But I don't think I have. But you know, I

1212
01:33:38.880 --> 01:33:44.680
do believe that we're all we've all got hidden talents

1213
01:33:44.960 --> 01:33:48.880
that maybe we never find out about, you know, not

1214
01:33:48.960 --> 01:33:53.800
just just one thing, multiple things that you know, I

1215
01:33:53.880 --> 01:33:58.199
might be or you might be really really good. It's

1216
01:33:58.239 --> 01:34:01.399
something that you've never even attempted to do, but because

1217
01:34:01.399 --> 01:34:05.439
you've got no interest in it yet, if you did

1218
01:34:05.720 --> 01:34:09.680
have a go at it and you realized that you

1219
01:34:09.720 --> 01:34:13.800
were naturally gifted, I'm guessing that would make you interested

1220
01:34:13.800 --> 01:34:18.800
in it. Oh, Okay, I do have a talent, it's

1221
01:34:18.840 --> 01:34:22.000
not hidden so much. I am very good on the phone,

1222
01:34:23.760 --> 01:34:27.720
and I was very good at sales, but I didn't

1223
01:34:27.800 --> 01:34:32.560
enjoy it. I didn't enjoy the pressure or the stress.

1224
01:34:33.319 --> 01:34:36.439
So yeah, and I was very good at listening. I'm

1225
01:34:36.479 --> 01:34:43.680
good at listening. My job, apart from being a counselor

1226
01:34:43.760 --> 01:34:46.520
and stuff, later on, I did have a job where

1227
01:34:47.319 --> 01:34:50.840
my whole job was listening to phone calls and making

1228
01:34:50.840 --> 01:34:56.199
sure that the people the staff calls that they were

1229
01:34:56.239 --> 01:34:59.560
doing their job properly and they were sticking to the script.

1230
01:35:00.119 --> 01:35:06.640
And you know, I had to mark these calls and

1231
01:35:06.680 --> 01:35:09.399
I was I'd say I was pretty good at that,

1232
01:35:10.279 --> 01:35:12.279
but I don't know if that's much of a hidden talent.

1233
01:35:14.039 --> 01:35:16.359
Being pedantic really, isn't it. I don't know if I

1234
01:35:16.399 --> 01:35:24.640
mean literally my job was being pedantic, being quite inflexible.

1235
01:35:26.119 --> 01:35:31.960
So yeah, I've got hidden talent. I'm very inflexible, but

1236
01:35:32.119 --> 01:35:38.199
that's not so hidden, I don't think. If you ask

1237
01:35:38.319 --> 01:35:40.800
me that question again a different day, I will be

1238
01:35:40.920 --> 01:35:44.720
thinking about that. It's quite weird because Georgia. I also

1239
01:35:44.800 --> 01:35:51.960
know someone called Georgia Georgia, and I was drooping about

1240
01:35:51.960 --> 01:35:58.319
it last night. It's really weird. It's I had some

1241
01:35:58.600 --> 01:36:04.319
very very strange dreams last night, and I had this

1242
01:36:04.399 --> 01:36:09.960
conversation with this this female that I used to work with,

1243
01:36:11.159 --> 01:36:17.520
and I had this fear I never ever dated waitresses

1244
01:36:17.640 --> 01:36:22.720
that I worked with, just basically because I kind of

1245
01:36:22.800 --> 01:36:26.520
did nearly once and it was awkward. So I thought, no,

1246
01:36:26.600 --> 01:36:32.479
I'm not doing that anymore. And because you knowin't got

1247
01:36:32.479 --> 01:36:35.760
to work with them, it doesn't work out as awkward.

1248
01:36:38.600 --> 01:36:41.359
So there was this one waitress who I really liked

1249
01:36:43.199 --> 01:36:44.800
as a friend, you know, I just really liked her,

1250
01:36:46.800 --> 01:36:48.880
and she started giving me some hints that maybe she

1251
01:36:49.119 --> 01:36:54.000
liked me in a more, you know, my more, I

1252
01:36:54.000 --> 01:36:55.840
don't know for romance is the right word, but in

1253
01:36:55.840 --> 01:37:01.399
a more physical way and sort of telling me stuff whatever.

1254
01:37:03.359 --> 01:37:08.520
And she gave me three really massive hints over time,

1255
01:37:09.720 --> 01:37:13.960
you know, three different occasions. Once she danced with me,

1256
01:37:15.520 --> 01:37:19.319
and other times she told me some things that she liked.

1257
01:37:19.760 --> 01:37:23.159
And on the third time she told me I'm not

1258
01:37:23.159 --> 01:37:25.079
going to use the words, but it was on the

1259
01:37:25.159 --> 01:37:29.319
leaving do she said, you like, I'm gonna say blank,

1260
01:37:30.199 --> 01:37:35.359
and I've got blank. I still didn't take the hint,

1261
01:37:36.760 --> 01:37:43.600
and because I was just nervous, I just didn't know.

1262
01:37:44.520 --> 01:37:46.399
I felt like I was being watched by the other

1263
01:37:46.439 --> 01:37:50.439
people in the room, and I just yeah, I didn't

1264
01:37:50.479 --> 01:37:55.680
know really what to do, so I didn't pursue. I didn't,

1265
01:37:55.880 --> 01:38:01.600
which I kind of regret. And even now our dream

1266
01:38:01.680 --> 01:38:05.760
about her really weird. I mean literally last night, but

1267
01:38:05.840 --> 01:38:11.479
over the years. It's twenty twenty four years ago, so

1268
01:38:11.560 --> 01:38:15.760
it's way too long to be and it didn't seem

1269
01:38:15.840 --> 01:38:24.159
to bother me at the time, but this literally had

1270
01:38:24.159 --> 01:38:27.920
a I was conversing with her, explaining to us so

1271
01:38:28.079 --> 01:38:31.279
I disapologize and saying I know that you. I wish

1272
01:38:31.359 --> 01:38:34.520
i'd kind of done something and we didn't, you know,

1273
01:38:34.560 --> 01:38:41.039
blahlah blah blah blah. It's weird, very weird. And Hillary

1274
01:38:41.079 --> 01:38:43.760
asked me, Okay, let's try again. Where entire land did

1275
01:38:43.800 --> 01:38:47.760
you go? I've been there many times to many different parts.

1276
01:38:47.840 --> 01:38:50.479
Just interested where you went. So I went near bang

1277
01:38:50.560 --> 01:39:00.680
Kok bang Kok and it's yeah, I suppose I don't

1278
01:39:00.720 --> 01:39:03.920
go into great detail about where I've been. I don't

1279
01:39:03.960 --> 01:39:06.680
rejudge because that's where I went. Is a little bit

1280
01:39:06.680 --> 01:39:11.199
of a I think the class is some of it

1281
01:39:11.399 --> 01:39:15.199
like sex tourists, and I wasn't that. It wasn't for

1282
01:39:15.239 --> 01:39:17.680
that reason. I was just going because it's a Buddhist

1283
01:39:17.680 --> 01:39:23.079
country and I wanted I needed to get away. I

1284
01:39:23.119 --> 01:39:27.439
was talking to a friend about this. After I lost Andrea,

1285
01:39:28.520 --> 01:39:31.600
I started going back and my panic attacks came back,

1286
01:39:32.600 --> 01:39:35.600
not like the occasional one or the like the standard

1287
01:39:35.720 --> 01:39:39.640
kind of stuff that I had, but like really became

1288
01:39:39.680 --> 01:39:43.800
really bad again. And I think part of that because

1289
01:39:43.800 --> 01:39:49.640
I lost Andrea, I no longer had the emotional What

1290
01:39:49.760 --> 01:39:54.680
Vinnie gives me and what Andre gave me is emotional support.

1291
01:39:54.720 --> 01:39:58.359
I suppose really in reality, it's emotional support. It's an

1292
01:39:58.359 --> 01:40:08.640
emotional or emotional whatever, and so I was up here

1293
01:40:08.680 --> 01:40:10.760
on my own, and I was also dealing with all

1294
01:40:10.800 --> 01:40:15.720
the drama of downstairs and my neighbor and all that

1295
01:40:15.800 --> 01:40:23.760
came with that, and it got too much. So I

1296
01:40:23.840 --> 01:40:27.720
managed to go away. And I just basically chose the

1297
01:40:27.760 --> 01:40:30.800
first place because I'd done a bit of research, gone

1298
01:40:30.800 --> 01:40:34.359
on YouTube, and every time I put in Thailand there

1299
01:40:34.439 --> 01:40:41.880
was like Pattire came up and Bouquette Bangkok, those kinds

1300
01:40:41.920 --> 01:40:47.960
of areas, so I thought, yeah, I had there, That's

1301
01:40:47.960 --> 01:40:49.680
what I did. So I just went there and just

1302
01:40:50.279 --> 01:40:57.600
found somewhere to stay. And yeah, it was all right

1303
01:40:57.840 --> 01:41:01.079
the first time I went twice. The second time rainy season,

1304
01:41:01.159 --> 01:41:04.720
so that wasn't so good. At the moment they got

1305
01:41:04.760 --> 01:41:07.880
Sangrin Sangron, I think it's just come to an end

1306
01:41:07.880 --> 01:41:11.319
where there's basically two weeks of covering each other with

1307
01:41:11.399 --> 01:41:17.800
waters like a New Year thing. It's like the Thailand

1308
01:41:17.920 --> 01:41:24.800
New Year celebration Songrin song Grand or Songrin. I wouldn't

1309
01:41:24.840 --> 01:41:29.199
want to be there during that. Something I noticed about

1310
01:41:29.199 --> 01:41:32.600
myself is weird. Even though I was technically on holiday,

1311
01:41:35.039 --> 01:41:39.760
the bipolar didn't stay at home. It's weird, Honestly, I

1312
01:41:39.960 --> 01:41:45.239
thought in my mind bearing in mind that I hadn't

1313
01:41:45.399 --> 01:41:54.560
really been anywhere since two thousand and three was the

1314
01:41:54.640 --> 01:41:58.039
last time i'd really gone anywhere, like on my own holiday,

1315
01:41:59.199 --> 01:42:05.640
So that's yeah, twenty years or whatever. Really thought I'd

1316
01:42:05.680 --> 01:42:10.239
just go away and I'd be oh so happy, and no,

1317
01:42:10.359 --> 01:42:14.399
it wasn't like that. It was there was the relief

1318
01:42:15.439 --> 01:42:18.000
of not having to deal with people that we're here,

1319
01:42:18.319 --> 01:42:22.000
but then I had to deal with new people, although

1320
01:42:22.039 --> 01:42:23.800
most of those people were nice, but there was a

1321
01:42:23.840 --> 01:42:28.079
lot of It was quite It wasn't busy like it

1322
01:42:28.159 --> 01:42:32.279
normally is because of the the because it was a

1323
01:42:32.520 --> 01:42:37.079
mask wearing times. It was just after that during that period.

1324
01:42:41.079 --> 01:42:48.479
But there's still a fair bit of people around and yeah,

1325
01:42:48.600 --> 01:42:50.640
that's where it went. So I've met a couple of

1326
01:42:50.640 --> 01:42:54.520
people actually around here that went to Thailand and they

1327
01:42:54.880 --> 01:42:59.039
went to those parts. The thing is, there's lots of

1328
01:42:59.159 --> 01:43:01.199
islands that I could have gone. I could have gone

1329
01:43:01.199 --> 01:43:05.119
on excursions. There was a big old fairy full of

1330
01:43:05.239 --> 01:43:10.880
little little boats, which I could have traveled to multiple

1331
01:43:10.920 --> 01:43:14.239
different islands, because it is pretty much paradise, isn't it

1332
01:43:14.279 --> 01:43:20.640
out there. The thing is, once I got out there,

1333
01:43:20.680 --> 01:43:26.640
I just the first time. So I went out twice.

1334
01:43:26.680 --> 01:43:32.319
The first time I broke my rib because I just

1335
01:43:32.399 --> 01:43:37.479
had like a genuine message, like a proper tie message,

1336
01:43:38.039 --> 01:43:43.479
and this bloke he just pressed on my back and

1337
01:43:43.479 --> 01:43:47.079
and all I heard was click, a really loud click.

1338
01:43:47.479 --> 01:43:51.560
He found it funny. I couldn't breathe. I didn't find

1339
01:43:51.600 --> 01:43:53.880
it quite as funny. I mean maybe if I was

1340
01:43:53.920 --> 01:43:55.479
able to breathe, I might have been able to laugh.

1341
01:43:55.600 --> 01:44:00.840
But you know, and from and that was I think

1342
01:44:00.920 --> 01:44:06.159
the second day in So from then on I was

1343
01:44:07.079 --> 01:44:10.399
I just couldn't really do much. It didn't stop me

1344
01:44:10.479 --> 01:44:15.720
getting around, but I couldn't, you know. I wasn't sleeping really,

1345
01:44:16.119 --> 01:44:19.239
I wasn't able to, you know. It was just it

1346
01:44:19.319 --> 01:44:22.159
was very uncomfortable, to the point where I left early.

1347
01:44:22.520 --> 01:44:26.520
I got an early flight back. But I did manage

1348
01:44:26.520 --> 01:44:29.560
to give food out, so that was really good. I

1349
01:44:29.600 --> 01:44:31.760
loved that bit. So I made to give loads of

1350
01:44:31.760 --> 01:44:35.239
food out to people who were hungry. So the second

1351
01:44:35.319 --> 01:44:41.960
time I went, I thought I deserved once my Once

1352
01:44:42.000 --> 01:44:46.600
my group was held up, it started getting bad again downstairs,

1353
01:44:46.600 --> 01:44:49.279
and I thought, no more, I've got to get out

1354
01:44:49.319 --> 01:44:55.039
of here, and I had to go somewhere, so I

1355
01:44:55.119 --> 01:44:58.680
just thought to go there it's got a flight, didn't

1356
01:44:58.680 --> 01:45:01.319
book a hotel or anything. I just like just went there,

1357
01:45:01.960 --> 01:45:06.239
got to Bangkok and decided where to go next. And

1358
01:45:08.399 --> 01:45:11.600
I ended up in a sports bar, really nice. It

1359
01:45:11.680 --> 01:45:16.199
was full of Australians, run by Australians, full of Australian customers.

1360
01:45:16.960 --> 01:45:23.239
I was the only brick there, I think, and it

1361
01:45:23.319 --> 01:45:25.520
was really well. It was a sports bar. I was

1362
01:45:25.520 --> 01:45:28.359
aimed at all the different sports. The good thing I

1363
01:45:28.439 --> 01:45:31.159
did have boxing on once, so that was one of

1364
01:45:31.199 --> 01:45:35.399
the highlights of the holiday, sitting there having me breakfast

1365
01:45:35.520 --> 01:45:43.960
watching heavyweight boxing fight. It was and uies and and

1366
01:45:44.359 --> 01:45:51.720
Uiez and Otis Otis, I forget his name, but yeah,

1367
01:45:51.760 --> 01:45:54.359
it was really it was a Cuban fighter. But anyway,

1368
01:45:54.359 --> 01:45:59.560
that was that was good. So technically things are.

1369
01:45:59.439 --> 01:46:00.000
Going well there.

1370
01:46:00.039 --> 01:46:09.239
Yeah. I got there just before my birthday and I

1371
01:46:09.279 --> 01:46:12.720
had a really good birthday. Went on this big pub crawl.

1372
01:46:13.680 --> 01:46:16.359
It was part of another bar and it took us

1373
01:46:16.359 --> 01:46:23.119
all around different places, different pubs and stuff. And the

1374
01:46:23.159 --> 01:46:26.119
next day I had a chest infection. I was feeling

1375
01:46:26.119 --> 01:46:29.279
there during that day as well as it was going on,

1376
01:46:29.920 --> 01:46:33.920
and I had a chest infection that lasted about ten days.

1377
01:46:34.680 --> 01:46:39.720
So I was in bed, and then I tried to

1378
01:46:39.760 --> 01:46:43.000
get a ticket early to go home, couldn't, so I

1379
01:46:43.079 --> 01:46:46.359
ended up staying there for two and a half weeks,

1380
01:46:46.399 --> 01:46:53.079
three weeks, I can't remember. And then I was well

1381
01:46:53.119 --> 01:46:57.319
for about I was probably I was still coughing a bit,

1382
01:46:57.399 --> 01:47:01.039
but I was on my way to getting better. Wasn't

1383
01:47:01.079 --> 01:47:05.520
completely healed, wasn't completely back, but I probably had a

1384
01:47:05.600 --> 01:47:09.680
couple of days of feeling better, and I'd had probably

1385
01:47:10.399 --> 01:47:13.279
four days of being able to go out and walk around.

1386
01:47:14.800 --> 01:47:16.720
I waited until it was the evening when there wasn't

1387
01:47:16.760 --> 01:47:21.279
so many people around because unfortunately I dn't cough in

1388
01:47:21.359 --> 01:47:28.439
public because somebody would always shout out a certain word,

1389
01:47:29.159 --> 01:47:36.079
beginning with sea and then ended with it's. That was weird.

1390
01:47:36.560 --> 01:47:39.439
So yeah, but I didn't realize because they were putting

1391
01:47:39.439 --> 01:47:44.439
adverts on TV in Thailand that was just scaring everyone,

1392
01:47:45.000 --> 01:47:55.439
like proper. Yeah, it's weird, weird seeing what other countries do. So, Michelle,

1393
01:47:56.960 --> 01:47:59.039
how did you decide to start the boy you let

1394
01:47:59.079 --> 01:48:03.039
me bore you to sleep podcast? They great bay Away,

1395
01:48:03.159 --> 01:48:08.520
Thank you the grips bay Away. I'm slurring today? Am

1396
01:48:08.520 --> 01:48:10.640
I slurring? Or I A'm I just being lazy? A

1397
01:48:10.680 --> 01:48:15.159
little bit both a bit tired. Yesterday I was shattered,

1398
01:48:16.560 --> 01:48:17.680
like at the end of it, I had to go

1399
01:48:17.720 --> 01:48:21.960
to bed early. I just I hadn't eaten really much.

1400
01:48:22.239 --> 01:48:26.439
I just like it drained everything out of me. So

1401
01:48:26.479 --> 01:48:28.840
I woke up today. I'm still feel like I'm a

1402
01:48:28.880 --> 01:48:32.520
little bit recovering from that. It's weird. I'm not built

1403
01:48:32.520 --> 01:48:38.680
for that stuff anymore, taking on other people's stuff, like, oh,

1404
01:48:38.840 --> 01:48:43.399
I'm not so I think they let me boy to sleep.

1405
01:48:43.439 --> 01:48:49.399
It was twenty eighteen, had I did have precursors to

1406
01:48:49.439 --> 01:48:54.800
the let Me Boy to Sleep. In two thousand and ten,

1407
01:48:58.960 --> 01:49:06.720
I did a hypno chats, which was basically a mixture

1408
01:49:06.800 --> 01:49:12.359
between chatting and hypnosis. So I would just talk about

1409
01:49:12.399 --> 01:49:17.239
my day about a subject, and then I would ease

1410
01:49:17.359 --> 01:49:25.600
into a hypnosis session and I'd end up doing like

1411
01:49:25.760 --> 01:49:31.119
a a relaxation session at the end of it. So

1412
01:49:31.840 --> 01:49:35.760
that that's the hypno chats, and I'd choose a subject

1413
01:49:35.800 --> 01:49:37.840
and it could be all kinds of weird different things.

1414
01:49:38.720 --> 01:49:42.239
Weird things. I mean, I do still have them, but

1415
01:49:42.279 --> 01:49:43.760
no one ever listened to them, so I just got

1416
01:49:43.880 --> 01:49:46.439
rid of them. But I've still got them on here

1417
01:49:47.760 --> 01:49:57.720
on my Really, that's weird. Oh okay, hypno chats? Is

1418
01:49:57.760 --> 01:50:07.239
it hypno hip no chats? Yeah? I do, still got

1419
01:50:07.279 --> 01:50:10.720
it on it. Still got the recordings I've got twenty

1420
01:50:11.720 --> 01:50:16.800
twenty yeah, twenty different ones. They range, They do range

1421
01:50:16.920 --> 01:50:22.119
different subjects. Number one was future. Number two is public

1422
01:50:22.159 --> 01:50:27.319
transport and sending healing energy. Wow, I won. If it

1423
01:50:27.359 --> 01:50:31.640
tells me what year it was, No, it doesn't. It

1424
01:50:31.680 --> 01:50:41.359
says twenty fifteen, but it was long before that. Yeah.

1425
01:50:41.479 --> 01:50:43.600
And then so I did hit my chats. Then I

1426
01:50:43.680 --> 01:50:58.800
did another version talking out talking out loudly or thinking

1427
01:50:58.840 --> 01:51:01.479
out loudly, I don't know, something like that, which was

1428
01:51:01.520 --> 01:51:05.119
like another version of this where I just talked about stuff.

1429
01:51:05.840 --> 01:51:12.239
And then I did hypnotic Buffet hip not tick buffet.

1430
01:51:12.359 --> 01:51:17.199
See if that's still around on my Oh it's not

1431
01:51:18.399 --> 01:51:22.760
hypnotic buffet. Have I lost all those recordings a way? Okay,

1432
01:51:22.840 --> 01:51:26.680
I may have lost them all never mind, Oh no,

1433
01:51:26.760 --> 01:51:30.600
I don't. I don't really want to have lost them

1434
01:51:30.600 --> 01:51:36.199
more to be fair, hypnotic buffet. Oh no, they are

1435
01:51:36.359 --> 01:51:39.119
still on air. I was looking at the wrong in

1436
01:51:39.159 --> 01:51:44.760
the wrong folder. So there are thirty one hypnotic buffets.

1437
01:51:46.359 --> 01:51:57.920
And the last one I did was where is that's weird.

1438
01:51:58.199 --> 01:52:03.319
I don't want to see properties. That's it. According to

1439
01:52:03.359 --> 01:52:05.239
this the last one I did was the sixth of

1440
01:52:05.279 --> 01:52:10.680
all was twenty eighteen, but that I don't think that

1441
01:52:10.680 --> 01:52:18.439
would be true. It says created eleventh of September twenty eighteen. Yeah,

1442
01:52:18.479 --> 01:52:24.159
I don't think that's true either. Before that, so, yeah,

1443
01:52:24.199 --> 01:52:30.520
I did those. Did I have those named? I don't

1444
01:52:30.560 --> 01:52:36.520
know if a look or yeah. The underlying thing was

1445
01:52:37.000 --> 01:52:45.399
so hypnotic buffet thoughts and ideas to transform lives every Monday.

1446
01:52:45.920 --> 01:52:54.239
So this is what I did, probably two thousand, well

1447
01:52:54.239 --> 01:52:59.000
maybe it was twenty fifteen. Did what was it two thousand,

1448
01:53:00.560 --> 01:53:05.239
twenty eighteen, No, it wouldn't have been twenty eighteen. I

1449
01:53:05.239 --> 01:53:10.119
don't think so anyway. But I started to let me

1450
01:53:10.159 --> 01:53:22.159
boys to sleep in. That was previous versions general. Yeah,

1451
01:53:22.199 --> 01:53:24.920
eleventh of September two thousand and eight, that's just when

1452
01:53:24.960 --> 01:53:32.039
they were transferred. So after that, so I did the

1453
01:53:32.119 --> 01:53:37.199
three different things I used to do Jason Chats, which

1454
01:53:37.279 --> 01:53:39.680
was just a blog about my life, and I just

1455
01:53:39.720 --> 01:53:42.880
talked about that and someone posted, I think it was

1456
01:53:42.920 --> 01:53:46.800
on YouTube. They said, oh, I was fall asleep whenever

1457
01:53:46.840 --> 01:53:51.760
you do your blogs. Part of me it was a

1458
01:53:51.800 --> 01:53:54.479
little bit like, oh, that's a bit rude, A little

1459
01:53:54.479 --> 01:53:56.760
bit rude. You know, I'm talking about my life and

1460
01:53:56.800 --> 01:54:02.439
you're falling asleep. Dumber's game, it's time for food, baby food,

1461
01:54:02.479 --> 01:54:06.760
food food. But then another party thought, m there's something

1462
01:54:06.800 --> 01:54:14.760
in that. So regardless of what I talk about, you're bored.

1463
01:54:15.319 --> 01:54:17.239
Guess what the person said, you just bore me and

1464
01:54:17.319 --> 01:54:21.880
I fall asleep. They might have been trying to be rude,

1465
01:54:22.039 --> 01:54:27.399
but I thought about it and I thought, okay, So

1466
01:54:29.840 --> 01:54:32.159
I started a podcast, let Me Boy You to Sleep,

1467
01:54:32.399 --> 01:54:41.520
which was when was it, let Me Bore You to Sleep?

1468
01:54:47.840 --> 01:54:53.520
Twenty seventh of March twenty eighteen. That was the very first,

1469
01:54:53.560 --> 01:54:59.880
so we have I missed that. I could have put

1470
01:55:00.039 --> 01:55:07.680
down the what was it eighteen nineteen twenty, I could have.

1471
01:55:10.800 --> 01:55:13.279
I could have done a seventh year anniversary episode, but

1472
01:55:13.319 --> 01:55:20.600
I didn't think about it. Oh well, so yeah, it's

1473
01:55:20.880 --> 01:55:24.680
it was. So that was the very very very first

1474
01:55:25.000 --> 01:55:31.039
recording after Let Me Boy to Sleep. Now, I didn't

1475
01:55:31.079 --> 01:55:33.479
do any research. I didn't look online to see if

1476
01:55:33.520 --> 01:55:37.079
anyone else was doing boring recordings. I just did it.

1477
01:55:37.680 --> 01:55:41.680
There is another podcast, something like Bore Me to Sleep

1478
01:55:41.880 --> 01:55:44.920
that's been around a few more years than me, And

1479
01:55:45.199 --> 01:55:48.079
someone was saying, oh, you're just copying them, Like, No,

1480
01:55:48.680 --> 01:55:53.520
first of all, I didn't know they existed. Secondly, I

1481
01:55:53.520 --> 01:55:57.199
don't think anyone does what I do. I don't mean

1482
01:55:57.239 --> 01:55:59.399
it in a good way, because you know, I'll probably

1483
01:55:59.439 --> 01:56:02.319
be better off if I did copy other people. But

1484
01:56:03.640 --> 01:56:07.119
this is what I do is unique. Even if it

1485
01:56:07.159 --> 01:56:12.960
was the identical type of thing, it would still be different. Yeah,

1486
01:56:12.960 --> 01:56:15.600
if you got if you like, gave a topic and

1487
01:56:15.960 --> 01:56:22.079
talk about watching tennis, and you gave that topic to

1488
01:56:22.159 --> 01:56:24.840
any other podcasts and you gave it to me, mine's

1489
01:56:24.880 --> 01:56:27.079
going to be different from theirs, and there is probably

1490
01:56:27.079 --> 01:56:29.640
gonna be different from everyone else's as well. It's gonna

1491
01:56:29.640 --> 01:56:34.119
be different. So that's how I ended up doing this.

1492
01:56:35.520 --> 01:56:41.560
And I didn't expect it to lead anywhere. I really didn't.

1493
01:56:41.600 --> 01:56:49.560
I didn't think it would be Yeah, I didn't. I

1494
01:56:49.560 --> 01:56:52.159
didn't really think anything of it. It was just a

1495
01:56:52.239 --> 01:56:56.199
new thing. I thought maybe i'd do perhaps ten twenty,

1496
01:56:56.359 --> 01:57:03.000
you know, like the Hypnotic Buffet or the hypno Chats.

1497
01:57:03.840 --> 01:57:06.279
I didn't think it would lead to anything sort of

1498
01:57:06.319 --> 01:57:12.319
a lot ongoing, but it did, and seven years, over,

1499
01:57:12.359 --> 01:57:18.119
seven years later, here we are and I think it's

1500
01:57:18.119 --> 01:57:22.680
because I was getting feedback. People were telling me they're

1501
01:57:22.760 --> 01:57:26.039
very relaxing regardless of what I talk about, and some

1502
01:57:26.079 --> 01:57:30.880
people like the fact that I'm real. I do make

1503
01:57:30.920 --> 01:57:33.600
stuff up, obviously. I think that's obvious. I do that

1504
01:57:33.640 --> 01:57:38.840
as well. I don't generally take myself too seriously. I

1505
01:57:41.000 --> 01:57:43.359
can see the funny side to a lot of things.

1506
01:57:44.800 --> 01:57:49.079
And also something that I didn't know would happen is

1507
01:57:49.680 --> 01:57:51.279
I was getting a lot of people over the years

1508
01:57:51.279 --> 01:57:54.640
telling me that I'm company that actually it's a friendly

1509
01:57:54.800 --> 01:57:57.840
voice to listen to. It's like, you get to know me,

1510
01:57:58.640 --> 01:58:02.880
and do you to listen to me every day? And

1511
01:58:02.880 --> 01:58:10.439
it's something that some people look forward to. So that's

1512
01:58:10.000 --> 01:58:18.640
in some ways that's probably more of a compliment. And yeah,

1513
01:58:19.039 --> 01:58:22.640
I mean that's partly why there's a couple of if

1514
01:58:22.640 --> 01:58:25.840
I see an elderly person, not just elderly, but if

1515
01:58:25.880 --> 01:58:29.239
I see someone in the park, they're on their own

1516
01:58:30.680 --> 01:58:33.800
because generally I only talk to dog walkers because Vinnie

1517
01:58:33.840 --> 01:58:36.439
wants to say loa to them. He loves people, but

1518
01:58:36.520 --> 01:58:40.000
he loves dog walkers because they've got treats. There's a

1519
01:58:40.000 --> 01:58:44.279
few dog that says a loo too as well. But

1520
01:58:44.439 --> 01:58:48.039
Vinny wants to say low to everybody. So if the

1521
01:58:48.079 --> 01:58:53.239
person looks okay, some people don't look approachable, to be fair,

1522
01:58:53.600 --> 01:58:58.640
but if the person looks approachable, I'll let Vinnie take

1523
01:58:58.680 --> 01:59:00.359
me up to them and I'll just say, can he

1524
01:59:00.439 --> 01:59:05.239
say hello? He wants to say hello, and no one's

1525
01:59:05.239 --> 01:59:07.479
ever said go away yet. I think I did have

1526
01:59:07.560 --> 01:59:13.479
one person ignore me and just walk on. And but

1527
01:59:13.479 --> 01:59:16.439
it's like, as my mom, so you shi had a reason.

1528
01:59:18.479 --> 01:59:23.079
So I and a couple of times, one recently and

1529
01:59:23.479 --> 01:59:29.239
a man said that will be my only contact today,

1530
01:59:30.640 --> 01:59:36.159
so thank you. I was like, oh, so I'm avoiding

1531
01:59:36.239 --> 01:59:40.760
from now on and joking. And then I think yesterday

1532
01:59:40.800 --> 01:59:43.880
or the day before that, it was a bloke and

1533
01:59:43.920 --> 01:59:47.760
a man he said, oh, thank you for stopping, thank

1534
01:59:47.800 --> 01:59:53.279
you for talking to me. So these are like people

1535
01:59:53.319 --> 01:59:56.079
that live on the estate. Maybe they don't see anyone.

1536
01:59:56.359 --> 02:00:02.840
I don't know, but Finny absolutely loves people and he

1537
02:00:02.920 --> 02:00:07.239
knows when a person's friendly, because that's when this bloke

1538
02:00:07.319 --> 02:00:12.800
I think yesterday, said oh, he just wants to come

1539
02:00:13.039 --> 02:00:16.159
if he must like everyone. I said no, not necessarily.

1540
02:00:16.319 --> 02:00:20.039
He does love people, but he knows people. There's people

1541
02:00:20.079 --> 02:00:21.880
he doesn't want to go and say lo to. He

1542
02:00:21.920 --> 02:00:25.159
can tell who's friend and he's not friendly. He knows.

1543
02:00:25.439 --> 02:00:31.000
I think dogs actually do know. They can tell a

1544
02:00:31.039 --> 02:00:34.359
dog lover from someone that isn't a dog lover. Maybe

1545
02:00:34.359 --> 02:00:39.800
not instantly, but you know, there's people that clearly that

1546
02:00:39.880 --> 02:00:43.039
I kind of know that don't like Vinnie, but not

1547
02:00:43.119 --> 02:00:45.159
don't like him, but kind of keep the distance from him.

1548
02:00:45.319 --> 02:00:48.239
Not really into dogs, and he knows that. You know,

1549
02:00:48.359 --> 02:00:50.760
he gets excited to see them, but he doesn't try

1550
02:00:50.800 --> 02:00:53.920
and jump up, he doesn't doesn't really take much notice

1551
02:00:53.920 --> 02:00:57.359
of them really, so he knows. And this bloke was

1552
02:00:57.399 --> 02:01:00.960
so happy that I was telling him that, yeah, he's

1553
02:01:01.000 --> 02:01:05.239
fussy who he says hello to, because he doesn't he

1554
02:01:05.359 --> 02:01:08.439
knows if someone's not friendly. And he seemed to really

1555
02:01:08.479 --> 02:01:12.399
appreciate that, so that was nice. I don't know how

1556
02:01:12.439 --> 02:01:18.239
I got on to that subject. Last question Brooke Brook

1557
02:01:18.319 --> 02:01:23.000
Brook Brook, my friend Brooke. What is hypnosis and why

1558
02:01:23.039 --> 02:01:25.920
does it work? What are some myths about hypnosis are

1559
02:01:25.960 --> 02:01:31.199
important to dispel? What is your best tofu recipe? Okay,

1560
02:01:31.399 --> 02:01:33.159
the last one. I don't have one, so I want

1561
02:01:33.159 --> 02:01:34.119
to skip that one.

1562
02:01:34.640 --> 02:01:34.760
Now.

1563
02:01:34.800 --> 02:01:38.800
If you said toffee recipe, I'd say, I love anything

1564
02:01:38.800 --> 02:01:41.800
with toffee, especially ones where that I get ended up

1565
02:01:41.840 --> 02:01:47.199
with bits of toffee in my beard, scaring the neighbors.

1566
02:01:48.119 --> 02:01:50.119
Would you tell someone though, if you if you were

1567
02:01:50.119 --> 02:01:52.800
talking to someone I'm not talking about a complete stranger,

1568
02:01:52.840 --> 02:01:56.159
but someone that you see regularly, you know, something you

1569
02:01:56.239 --> 02:01:59.000
may see daily, even and you saw they had toffee

1570
02:01:59.039 --> 02:02:03.760
sticking out their beer? Would you mention it to them?

1571
02:02:04.119 --> 02:02:06.840
And there's ways of mentioning it without being rude, isn't

1572
02:02:06.840 --> 02:02:11.560
there is? You know, It's like if I'm going out

1573
02:02:11.560 --> 02:02:14.920
and I've got gravy all down my top and I

1574
02:02:15.079 --> 02:02:18.399
scream on my head like, okay, perhaps we shouldn't mention

1575
02:02:18.520 --> 02:02:22.520
that because there's something going on there, but just a

1576
02:02:22.520 --> 02:02:30.279
little I would have preferred, mind you, Something happened yesterday

1577
02:02:30.279 --> 02:02:33.119
and I wasn't particularly pleased with. Let's talking to my

1578
02:02:33.159 --> 02:02:37.399
neighbor and I was saying, oh, I wear a hack,

1579
02:02:37.479 --> 02:02:40.560
so I don't like to because I'm I'm a bit

1580
02:02:40.680 --> 02:02:44.199
conscious about my my board patch on the top of

1581
02:02:44.239 --> 02:02:45.960
my head. And he said, what about the one at

1582
02:02:45.960 --> 02:02:49.239
the front of your head? What do you mean? He said,

1583
02:02:49.239 --> 02:02:51.039
the one on the front, or you've got a comb over.

1584
02:02:52.960 --> 02:02:55.600
I said, I do not have a comb over. My

1585
02:02:55.680 --> 02:02:58.119
hair is not long enough. I can't even brush my hair.

1586
02:02:58.319 --> 02:03:01.239
It's not long enough to brush. He said, there's none there.

1587
02:03:02.000 --> 02:03:06.399
I said, technically, you're correct, that is probably the reason.

1588
02:03:06.439 --> 02:03:10.840
But from the distance he could see that, like the

1589
02:03:10.880 --> 02:03:15.960
front of the hair is pretty much just disappearing, which means,

1590
02:03:19.479 --> 02:03:24.319
and I really am not pleased to say this, It

1591
02:03:24.560 --> 02:03:29.039
means what I'm going to have is hair around the side.

1592
02:03:30.439 --> 02:03:33.680
And I've already got the ball patch at the back.

1593
02:03:35.000 --> 02:03:44.800
It's finning out on top. There's yeah, I don't know

1594
02:03:44.800 --> 02:03:49.039
how long it's going to take. Now, my decision will

1595
02:03:49.079 --> 02:03:51.359
have to be this if it does in fact happen.

1596
02:03:51.800 --> 02:03:56.840
So the board patch grows and the one on the

1597
02:03:56.840 --> 02:04:00.600
front kind of grows to the point of eating in

1598
02:04:00.640 --> 02:04:06.199
the middle. What do I do with a straight hair

1599
02:04:06.319 --> 02:04:09.720
the stray hairs? Do? I let them grow really long

1600
02:04:10.199 --> 02:04:16.560
and pretend that that's hair and hold on to that

1601
02:04:16.720 --> 02:04:21.039
because I know people that do that. They literally they

1602
02:04:21.119 --> 02:04:23.680
cherish those hairs, even though there's only like a little

1603
02:04:23.680 --> 02:04:29.359
fuzz now, because it's their hair. They cherish it. They

1604
02:04:30.399 --> 02:04:34.560
it's important to them, regardless of how ridiculous it might look.

1605
02:04:36.359 --> 02:04:39.880
They love it. They keep it. And I'm now in

1606
02:04:39.880 --> 02:04:42.319
that position where I'm thinking, yeah, I might have to

1607
02:04:42.399 --> 02:04:45.119
keep that have a little bit of fuzz on top,

1608
02:04:49.039 --> 02:04:52.000
like a little brillo pad. I don't know, just I

1609
02:04:52.039 --> 02:04:56.760
don't know what, because I used to have an attitude

1610
02:04:56.760 --> 02:04:59.399
when I was younger just to shave my head. I

1611
02:04:59.439 --> 02:05:02.800
still do shake my head sometimes like it doesn't matter.

1612
02:05:02.920 --> 02:05:04.920
If I ever go bored, it will not affect me

1613
02:05:04.960 --> 02:05:07.520
at all, because I've walked around for years with a

1614
02:05:07.640 --> 02:05:13.319
bald head, being bored would not affect me at all.

1615
02:05:15.279 --> 02:05:17.199
Now it's easy to say that when you're not baled,

1616
02:05:17.640 --> 02:05:21.840
when you're not naturally baled, So shaving my head bald

1617
02:05:22.359 --> 02:05:26.479
is a lot different from actually not need not needing

1618
02:05:26.520 --> 02:05:35.399
to save my head bald because it's doing it naturally. Ah. Yeah,

1619
02:05:35.520 --> 02:05:39.000
I didn't realize that, you know what, It's not as

1620
02:05:39.920 --> 02:05:48.920
non affecting me as I thought. And Brooke might be

1621
02:05:48.960 --> 02:05:51.239
listening to this thinking what's that got to do with

1622
02:05:51.279 --> 02:05:57.119
how hypnosis works? Okay, I'll go back to that hypnosis.

1623
02:05:57.920 --> 02:06:00.279
All I can do is my understanding. Because I've so

1624
02:06:00.359 --> 02:06:03.000
many books. I know what the theories are, all the

1625
02:06:03.079 --> 02:06:08.239
different theories, and like the myths about hypnosis, what's important

1626
02:06:08.279 --> 02:06:14.720
to dispel even now I see on Facebook and places

1627
02:06:15.279 --> 02:06:22.399
the idea hypnosis. If you it's like it's somehow harmful

1628
02:06:23.079 --> 02:06:26.239
given away control to someone and they can do make

1629
02:06:26.279 --> 02:06:28.079
you do whatever they want you to do, and it's

1630
02:06:28.640 --> 02:06:33.840
it's not true. It's really not. It's it's not how

1631
02:06:33.880 --> 02:06:39.640
it works. If I mean, maybe there's a degree of

1632
02:06:40.680 --> 02:06:44.640
I suppose if you was hypnotizing someone every day and

1633
02:06:45.239 --> 02:06:47.520
you wanted to, you know, you could sort of play

1634
02:06:47.560 --> 02:06:52.439
around of it and have fun with it. But ultimately

1635
02:06:55.199 --> 02:07:00.680
I can't just control someone completely. I don't think maybe

1636
02:07:00.680 --> 02:07:07.840
some people can. I don't have that. I mean, everyone's manipulatively, manipulaable, maniputable,

1637
02:07:09.479 --> 02:07:13.960
able to be manipulated, and as people were public we are.

1638
02:07:14.039 --> 02:07:18.439
That's why as adverts on TV constantly, everyone's being at

1639
02:07:18.520 --> 02:07:21.640
least are trying to manipulate us. And that is in

1640
02:07:21.720 --> 02:07:24.720
no way a conspiracy thing. It's just a factual thing.

1641
02:07:25.760 --> 02:07:30.720
And hypnosis has been used in advertising. It's one of

1642
02:07:30.720 --> 02:07:37.800
the first things that was used for Like generally, hypnosis

1643
02:07:37.800 --> 02:07:40.720
are used for advertising because they knew that it worked.

1644
02:07:41.239 --> 02:07:45.119
They knew that they wanted to advertise in this manipulation

1645
02:07:45.479 --> 02:07:47.840
to try and get you to buy a product or

1646
02:07:47.880 --> 02:07:53.239
to think a certain way. So yeah, it works. That

1647
02:07:53.359 --> 02:08:01.920
stuff works. It's I don't know he hypnosis some of

1648
02:08:01.960 --> 02:08:06.199
the myths with it, I would say, I think it's

1649
02:08:06.199 --> 02:08:10.640
a standard thing. Some people think that the hypnotists will

1650
02:08:10.640 --> 02:08:15.479
get them to do silly things, like like with stage hypnosis.

1651
02:08:16.079 --> 02:08:25.359
But that's not the case. The idea that maybe you'd

1652
02:08:25.359 --> 02:08:29.000
be under you being hypnosis and you're completely unconscious and

1653
02:08:29.079 --> 02:08:32.159
you don't know anything that's going on. I would say

1654
02:08:32.159 --> 02:08:38.039
that's not the case either, because the fact that the

1655
02:08:38.159 --> 02:08:43.520
unconscious you might be consciously unaware the unconsciously aware. But

1656
02:08:44.079 --> 02:08:46.199
you've got to remember your unconscious is looking out for

1657
02:08:46.239 --> 02:08:50.560
you all the time. That's the thing that pulls your

1658
02:08:50.640 --> 02:08:53.560
hand back when it touches a hot surface. Not your

1659
02:08:53.600 --> 02:08:59.720
conscious mind. Your unconscious, your automatic reflexes is looking out

1660
02:08:59.720 --> 02:09:03.640
for you. It's not your conscious mind that sees that

1661
02:09:03.680 --> 02:09:07.720
speeding car coming as you're walking, you're about to walk

1662
02:09:07.760 --> 02:09:12.359
out on the road between two cars, you're about to

1663
02:09:12.399 --> 02:09:16.079
walk out. You don't see it, but you move back

1664
02:09:17.680 --> 02:09:22.159
like in an instant. It's not your conscious minded does that,

1665
02:09:22.880 --> 02:09:25.720
because as your conscious minded does that, you'd get hit

1666
02:09:25.800 --> 02:09:30.399
by the car. Our conscious minds don't move that quickly.

1667
02:09:31.439 --> 02:09:35.119
So your unconscious mind or your subconscious mind, or whatever

1668
02:09:35.119 --> 02:09:41.520
you want to call it, I call it unconscious because

1669
02:09:41.520 --> 02:09:43.880
we're not really conscious of it, that's all. It's not

1670
02:09:43.960 --> 02:09:51.199
unconscious like being asleep. I like to believe it's looking

1671
02:09:51.199 --> 02:09:58.479
out for us, has our best interest at heart. But

1672
02:09:58.560 --> 02:10:01.199
when it comes to hypnosis, I suppose, going back to

1673
02:10:01.560 --> 02:10:04.920
theory and how it works, it doesn't always know what's right.

1674
02:10:07.239 --> 02:10:09.319
It can see if the car's coming towards us, that's

1675
02:10:09.760 --> 02:10:11.039
the right thing, is to get out of the way,

1676
02:10:11.560 --> 02:10:13.920
to put your hand on hot stove, you take it away,

1677
02:10:13.960 --> 02:10:18.239
it's the right thing. Things like that. Protecting our bodies

1678
02:10:19.479 --> 02:10:28.640
is standard. But sometimes but when it comes to things

1679
02:10:28.680 --> 02:10:33.520
like phobias and being worried about things and stuff like that,

1680
02:10:33.880 --> 02:10:37.760
then the unconscious mind doesn't always know it needs help,

1681
02:10:38.520 --> 02:10:43.119
needs us to let it know what's I mean, you

1682
02:10:43.119 --> 02:10:45.479
could say in a way like a computer, but programming

1683
02:10:45.680 --> 02:10:51.239
it needs guidance, needs supervision. So the unconscious mind just

1684
02:10:51.279 --> 02:10:54.680
needs to be It needs us to let it know

1685
02:10:55.640 --> 02:11:02.199
what it needs. And I think we need to be

1686
02:11:02.279 --> 02:11:06.399
quite specific as well. And there's different ways you can

1687
02:11:06.439 --> 02:11:12.000
do that. Just by you know, you can do affirmations,

1688
02:11:12.039 --> 02:11:15.159
you can do hypnosis, You can do all this stuff,

1689
02:11:15.159 --> 02:11:19.520
but you could also just just live the life. So

1690
02:11:19.640 --> 02:11:28.439
Brooke for example, and Brook, you're living the life. You're

1691
02:11:28.479 --> 02:11:32.359
doing what you do helping people have had strokes, and

1692
02:11:35.199 --> 02:11:38.439
you know you're living. If you live the life do

1693
02:11:38.479 --> 02:11:42.319
you want to live? Your unconscious mind helps you to

1694
02:11:42.399 --> 02:11:46.520
continue to live the life you live. So if you're

1695
02:11:46.800 --> 02:11:55.159
thinking positive things, your unconscious mind is basically hearing that, like, oh,

1696
02:11:55.239 --> 02:11:58.680
you want to you want to be positive, you want

1697
02:11:58.720 --> 02:12:04.279
to think more more positive thoughts. If you've got kind

1698
02:12:04.319 --> 02:12:06.439
of love in your heart and you're thinking about people

1699
02:12:06.479 --> 02:12:11.279
that you care about, your unconscious mind realized that and

1700
02:12:11.319 --> 02:12:16.680
if you need more of that. So our unconscious mind's

1701
02:12:16.720 --> 02:12:20.840
always listening to our thoughts. So what we say to

1702
02:12:20.880 --> 02:12:26.880
ourselves is hugely important. I mean, technically you say, that's

1703
02:12:26.920 --> 02:12:30.359
not hypnosis, it's just the brain, it's the mind. So yeah,

1704
02:12:30.439 --> 02:12:33.319
fair enough, but it's still part of that whole thing.

1705
02:12:34.359 --> 02:12:36.640
You get what you think about, You get more of

1706
02:12:36.720 --> 02:12:40.279
what you think about. We come what we think about.

1707
02:12:42.520 --> 02:12:50.399
And there's so many examples of this around us. You

1708
02:12:50.439 --> 02:12:55.680
can see it if you know someone that's constantly complaining,

1709
02:12:56.560 --> 02:13:07.000
like constantly, you can see even in their face, their behavior,

1710
02:13:08.000 --> 02:13:13.239
their interactions. You can see how they even their voice,

1711
02:13:13.319 --> 02:13:20.640
even their health is affected by that negativity, by that

1712
02:13:20.800 --> 02:13:32.359
internal looking at things in a negative way. So even

1713
02:13:32.439 --> 02:13:35.520
I guess because some people, some of the funniest people

1714
02:13:36.399 --> 02:13:42.560
can be really negative, like proper funny. But then some

1715
02:13:42.600 --> 02:13:47.680
of those people are not very happy. So it's one

1716
02:13:47.680 --> 02:13:50.760
of those things. What do you focus on? We get

1717
02:13:50.760 --> 02:13:56.079
what we focus on, and it's not like an instant thing,

1718
02:13:59.439 --> 02:14:02.199
but it's it's kind of like it works in different ways.

1719
02:14:02.399 --> 02:14:04.600
So you get what we get what we focus on.

1720
02:14:04.680 --> 02:14:09.000
So let's say itchy bum. Let's say I'm focused on

1721
02:14:09.039 --> 02:14:14.760
having an itchy bum. It gets itchyer. That's actually a

1722
02:14:14.800 --> 02:14:17.960
good example, you know, if you're kind of thinking of too,

1723
02:14:18.199 --> 02:14:20.760
and it works with the unconscious mind. It doesn't understand

1724
02:14:21.399 --> 02:14:25.119
negative and positive. Really, it's just focus on what you're

1725
02:14:25.159 --> 02:14:30.560
thinking about. So if you're thinking, oh, I don't want

1726
02:14:30.600 --> 02:14:33.319
to have that itch in the bottom of my foot.

1727
02:14:35.079 --> 02:14:36.720
I don't want to have that itch in the bottom

1728
02:14:36.760 --> 02:14:39.079
of my foot, all your unconscious mind is really going

1729
02:14:39.119 --> 02:14:42.119
to get from that is focus on the itch in

1730
02:14:42.199 --> 02:14:47.600
your foot. Just going to focus on it. So if

1731
02:14:47.640 --> 02:14:49.640
you put in a different language, I like my foot

1732
02:14:49.640 --> 02:14:54.479
to feel relaxed and calm, and you know, by imagining

1733
02:14:54.520 --> 02:15:02.079
that that might change it that way. And also our

1734
02:15:02.159 --> 02:15:05.039
brains don't know that, and this is the scientists say this.

1735
02:15:05.960 --> 02:15:09.079
Our brains don't know the difference between imagined and real

1736
02:15:09.880 --> 02:15:16.239
in a sense of if we imagine feeling relaxed, lying

1737
02:15:16.279 --> 02:15:20.800
on a beach, on a hammock or whatever, and actually

1738
02:15:20.840 --> 02:15:26.399
doing it, we have the same physiological effect on our

1739
02:15:26.439 --> 02:15:29.279
bodies and on our minds as if we were actually there.

1740
02:15:31.359 --> 02:15:33.039
I'm not saying that you can get a sun tanned.

1741
02:15:33.079 --> 02:15:38.800
I'm just you know, generally, our unconscious mind or our mind,

1742
02:15:38.840 --> 02:15:43.159
our brain doesn't know the difference. And I think that's

1743
02:15:43.239 --> 02:15:51.479
quite interesting actually. So my motto is not my motto.

1744
02:15:52.279 --> 02:15:56.960
I took it from Old Nightingale, but it has become

1745
02:15:57.000 --> 02:16:01.079
what we think about, and I try and remember that

1746
02:16:01.159 --> 02:16:07.960
every single day. Become what we think about. So if

1747
02:16:07.960 --> 02:16:14.600
you think about what do you want to become? If

1748
02:16:14.640 --> 02:16:19.600
someone wants to stay let's say someone wants to stay unhappy,

1749
02:16:20.279 --> 02:16:24.680
then just think about unhappy things. It's kind of basic, really,

1750
02:16:25.279 --> 02:16:27.720
and I don't think anyone could argue that that would

1751
02:16:28.199 --> 02:16:32.959
probably help the person to feel rubbish inside. If that's

1752
02:16:33.000 --> 02:16:38.760
all they focus on. And that's why I don't watch

1753
02:16:40.479 --> 02:16:44.000
these like true crime things. I'm not knocking anyone does,

1754
02:16:44.079 --> 02:16:47.239
but I just don't find it. It's useful for me

1755
02:16:48.639 --> 02:16:52.680
my mental states. It's really interesting, that's for sure. I

1756
02:16:52.719 --> 02:16:57.079
know that I understand why people get caught up in it,

1757
02:16:57.559 --> 02:16:59.879
especially the ones where you see all the film footage

1758
02:17:00.120 --> 02:17:04.360
the police arresting the people and any interrogation makes me

1759
02:17:04.399 --> 02:17:07.639
want to watch it now. But I've spent two hours

1760
02:17:07.639 --> 02:17:12.920
watching one of them, and it's so fascinating, but at

1761
02:17:12.920 --> 02:17:19.600
the same time, I don't feel good afterwards. It's you know,

1762
02:17:19.719 --> 02:17:25.399
there's been so much horrible stuff I've just ingested. That's

1763
02:17:26.479 --> 02:17:32.040
pretty much poison, really think about it, poison for the mind, negativity.

1764
02:17:32.760 --> 02:17:37.399
So yeah, we become what we think about. So I

1765
02:17:37.520 --> 02:17:44.680
try and remember that every day and try to focus.

1766
02:17:45.319 --> 02:17:51.120
I focus on doing these recordings helping people, and that's

1767
02:17:51.200 --> 02:17:59.200
my life. That is everything to me. So that's kind

1768
02:17:59.200 --> 02:18:02.600
of so I've can't I don't know if I have,

1769
02:18:02.760 --> 02:18:06.639
but I feel like I've become this in a way,

1770
02:18:09.040 --> 02:18:14.399
but with moods, with an unstable personality, but I've become

1771
02:18:17.319 --> 02:18:20.879
this person that I wanted to become or I've just

1772
02:18:20.959 --> 02:18:25.600
become me. In some ways, I feel like I've found

1773
02:18:25.639 --> 02:18:30.959
my voice. It took a long time, but I seem

1774
02:18:31.040 --> 02:18:33.559
to have found my voice since I've been doing these

1775
02:18:33.680 --> 02:18:39.239
Let Me Boy the Sleeps recordings. I do feel like

1776
02:18:39.319 --> 02:18:44.200
I've found me and I can just be me. And

1777
02:18:44.360 --> 02:18:48.280
I know that I do censor myself a lot sometimes

1778
02:18:48.479 --> 02:18:50.760
when I do these, I think because they will not

1779
02:18:50.840 --> 02:18:55.959
upset anyone, and I try not to swear, and my

1780
02:18:56.079 --> 02:18:59.479
natural would probably be to swear a little bit. And

1781
02:19:00.040 --> 02:19:09.879
but it's still ultimately it's just me being me, and

1782
02:19:09.959 --> 02:19:12.520
in a way, it can't really be anything more than ourselves,

1783
02:19:12.559 --> 02:19:16.360
can we There's got to come a point, especially at

1784
02:19:16.440 --> 02:19:18.760
my age, I was like, maybe I am good enough.

1785
02:19:23.239 --> 02:19:26.760
I may be better. I may become better. I just

1786
02:19:26.799 --> 02:19:29.200
remember years ago I was in the Buddhist center and

1787
02:19:30.000 --> 02:19:33.399
I said to someone because they pointed out one of

1788
02:19:33.399 --> 02:19:38.040
my flaws, which is sometimes Buddhists have a tendency to do,

1789
02:19:38.520 --> 02:19:44.440
especially when I'm around them, and I said, well, I'm

1790
02:19:44.479 --> 02:19:47.920
not doing this. I don't want to be perfect. And

1791
02:19:47.959 --> 02:19:49.840
he was confused by that, said, what do you mean

1792
02:19:49.840 --> 02:19:52.479
he don't want to be perfect? I said, antone I'm

1793
02:19:52.479 --> 02:19:57.000
not trying to be perfect, and that when against how

1794
02:19:57.079 --> 02:20:01.639
he was I guess attempting his life to be perfect.

1795
02:20:03.639 --> 02:20:05.600
I don't want to be I never wanted to be perfect.

1796
02:20:07.799 --> 02:20:12.719
I just wanted to be better. I wanted to be

1797
02:20:14.479 --> 02:20:18.239
I want to leave something, you know, I want to

1798
02:20:18.280 --> 02:20:25.799
be useful. I didn't want to be useful, not when

1799
02:20:25.840 --> 02:20:29.239
I was in my twenties, but since the age of

1800
02:20:30.520 --> 02:20:32.479
pretty much since two thousand and six, when I was

1801
02:20:32.520 --> 02:20:38.319
thirty five, although I started before then, but I didn't

1802
02:20:38.360 --> 02:20:41.319
really manage to do much until yeah, till two thousand

1803
02:20:41.319 --> 02:20:47.319
and six. I wanted to help people, but knowing that

1804
02:20:47.399 --> 02:20:52.559
I'm not really I don't. It's a struggle being around

1805
02:20:52.559 --> 02:20:56.879
people for any length of time. Generally not all people

1806
02:20:57.840 --> 02:21:00.000
I meet. The occasional person that I can spend time,

1807
02:21:00.200 --> 02:21:07.639
but it's yeah, it I had to make that decision, Like,

1808
02:21:07.799 --> 02:21:11.280
you know what, I can help one person. I could

1809
02:21:11.319 --> 02:21:14.680
spend fifty minutes or four hours, and I can help

1810
02:21:14.840 --> 02:21:20.360
four people in that four hours. Or I can make

1811
02:21:20.399 --> 02:21:29.319
a recording online and help hundreds of people with just

1812
02:21:29.399 --> 02:21:35.520
one recording uploaded to YouTube or Facebook or wherever I

1813
02:21:35.559 --> 02:21:39.239
was doing it, whatever podcast host I was using at

1814
02:21:39.239 --> 02:21:49.879
that time and my space to start with, and then

1815
02:21:49.920 --> 02:21:56.280
when the videos were getting thousands of yours, it made

1816
02:21:56.360 --> 02:21:59.440
sense that instead of doing a group session where I

1817
02:21:59.479 --> 02:22:06.760
was seeing maybe twelve, sometimes as eighteen people, I can

1818
02:22:06.799 --> 02:22:18.120
reach a thousand people or five hundred people. That's a

1819
02:22:18.200 --> 02:22:24.920
large audience, I mean down between a thousand and two

1820
02:22:24.959 --> 02:22:37.920
thousand people. That's a big old theater. So that's pretty

1821
02:22:37.959 --> 02:22:49.000
much why I went in this direction. What is hypnosis?

1822
02:22:49.040 --> 02:22:50.840
How does it work? I don't know if I've really

1823
02:22:50.879 --> 02:22:55.479
answered that question, but I've kind of given a my

1824
02:22:55.719 --> 02:22:59.079
version of what I think. It's more than just having

1825
02:22:59.159 --> 02:23:02.319
someone talk to you you and get you to relax

1826
02:23:02.399 --> 02:23:10.040
and focus on this and whatever. It's It's about thoughts,

1827
02:23:10.079 --> 02:23:14.120
it's about attitude. It's about expectation. What do you believe

1828
02:23:14.159 --> 02:23:18.600
is going to happen? Belief is so strong, so powerful,

1829
02:23:20.639 --> 02:23:24.360
like the most powerful thing. What you expect to happen,

1830
02:23:25.239 --> 02:23:28.559
what you really expect to happen, has such an impact

1831
02:23:29.159 --> 02:23:35.000
on what does actually happen. So expect things to go, well,

1832
02:23:37.440 --> 02:23:42.600
you know, just an idea. Right, the noisy people are

1833
02:23:42.600 --> 02:23:47.479
back in the garden and so they clearly you don't

1834
02:23:47.520 --> 02:23:50.399
have a break at Easter. Bless them. So I'm going

1835
02:23:50.479 --> 02:23:53.760
to go, so thank you for listening. Remember to be

1836
02:23:53.840 --> 02:23:56.239
kind to yourself, because you do deserve to be happy.

1837
02:23:57.000 --> 02:24:01.520
Thank you to Anne, Maria, Georgie, Hillary, Michelle, and Brooke

1838
02:24:02.159 --> 02:24:08.120
for your questions. I hope of answer them and saw

1839
02:24:08.200 --> 02:24:15.200
the introduction. So long, take care lots of love, by

1840
02:24:24.319 --> 02:24:38.920
relax in a more deep and meaningful way, maybe in

1841
02:24:38.959 --> 02:24:44.520
a way that can not just allow you to feel

1842
02:24:45.879 --> 02:24:55.120
calmer now and throughout the time we've spend together here,

1843
02:24:57.159 --> 02:25:02.840
not just relaxed at the end of the recording when

1844
02:25:02.840 --> 02:25:09.520
it's finished and you can enjoy that sense of comfort

1845
02:25:09.680 --> 02:25:24.600
and peace, but also I think it would be nice

1846
02:25:24.719 --> 02:25:44.520
to have those feelings of relaxation continue for longer after

1847
02:25:44.600 --> 02:25:55.120
the recording is ended, so that you can still benefit

1848
02:25:58.040 --> 02:26:05.319
from listening to my voice, maybe in a few hours time,

1849
02:26:07.239 --> 02:26:20.799
perhaps tomorrow, and then by listening regularly, especially if you

1850
02:26:20.879 --> 02:26:25.559
find like some people do and myself as well. I

1851
02:26:25.680 --> 02:26:32.440
sometimes I find one particular recording that really resonates with me,

1852
02:26:36.799 --> 02:26:39.159
and I just listen to it over and over again

1853
02:26:41.440 --> 02:26:54.479
every morning, every evening. There was this recording from We're

1854
02:26:54.479 --> 02:26:59.920
going back to about nineteen ninety nine. It wasn't hypnos

1855
02:27:00.360 --> 02:27:05.600
it was a guided visualizations. It kind of was hypnosis, really,

1856
02:27:08.079 --> 02:27:13.280
and I managed to find it again and it still

1857
02:27:13.360 --> 02:27:18.959
has the same effect on me. And part of it

1858
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was the person's voice relaxed me. She just felt so peaceful,

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and I'd look forward to listening to her in the

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morning and in the evening. And I knew before even

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02:27:54.000 --> 02:28:02.520
pressing the play button, since I've done that, pressed the

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02:28:02.600 --> 02:28:11.719
play button. This was in the days of CD players

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pressed the play button. In fact, it might have even

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been a tape recorder. I'd lie down on the bed

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02:28:24.959 --> 02:28:41.559
and then even without necessarily listening to her words because

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I had them memorized. Really, it was as if my

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02:28:50.799 --> 02:29:02.159
body knew exactly what to do, and the muscles just

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02:29:06.120 --> 02:29:24.120
almost went into automatic relaxation, and I remember my mind

1869
02:29:26.760 --> 02:29:37.760
would slow down. Now. Now, I was listening to this

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02:29:37.879 --> 02:29:47.360
recording in the early days of learning hypnosis, and long

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02:29:47.440 --> 02:29:56.000
before I ever made any videos or audio recordings myself,

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because I didn't start doing that till two thousand six,

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I knew, I knew how helpful I found being able

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02:30:23.479 --> 02:30:32.520
to just let go, to have that trust in the

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02:30:32.639 --> 02:30:43.000
person that I'm listening to, knowing that it's going to

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be just as relaxing, if not more so. Each time

1877
02:30:54.120 --> 02:31:06.680
you hear my voice, you may feel the same. Some

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02:31:06.959 --> 02:31:16.879
people have been listening to me for over a decade,

1879
02:31:21.959 --> 02:31:26.840
maybe not solidly, obviously not twenty four hours a day,

1880
02:31:27.760 --> 02:31:43.200
but maybe people come back. Some people maybe listen every day.

1881
02:31:46.000 --> 02:31:52.000
There's something that I do which you may not realize

1882
02:31:54.399 --> 02:32:12.000
by listening. Is yes, when I record these recordings now,

1883
02:32:12.120 --> 02:32:24.639
for example, I also am affected by the words that

1884
02:32:24.799 --> 02:32:36.959
I say. So if I set you focus on your feet,

1885
02:32:39.479 --> 02:32:47.200
notice your feet relaxing, I will be focusing on my feet.

1886
02:32:52.120 --> 02:33:09.520
I will be noticing my feet relaxing. If I said

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focus on your hands, and maybe notice the difference between

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each hand, perhaps notice the air in the room, the

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02:33:28.319 --> 02:33:32.959
temperature of the room. On the backs of your hands.

1890
02:33:40.760 --> 02:33:44.680
You may start to notice what almost feels like a

1891
02:33:44.799 --> 02:33:52.879
very light breeze, even though there may not be any

1892
02:33:53.239 --> 02:33:58.200
type of breeze at all where you are right now.

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02:34:06.360 --> 02:34:16.959
And as you become aware of your hands, I'm also

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02:34:17.280 --> 02:34:45.520
aware of how relaxed my hands our feeling now and

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02:34:45.680 --> 02:34:52.600
when it comes to potentially drifting off to sleep, which

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02:34:52.680 --> 02:35:06.799
may be the reason you're listening, I also feel drowsy

1897
02:35:09.040 --> 02:35:22.520
when I make these recordings. I also notice my mind drifting.

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02:35:30.440 --> 02:35:43.040
In fact, at times I've actually fallen asleep without even noticing,

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02:35:47.879 --> 02:35:57.000
and then I carry on talking. And it's only where

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02:35:57.319 --> 02:36:06.440
I listen back to do the editing. I hear snoring,

1901
02:36:08.360 --> 02:36:15.639
and I think, I don't remember snoring. I remember talking.

1902
02:36:18.399 --> 02:36:25.600
Is it snoring? Was a pick turned up? That's why

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02:36:25.600 --> 02:36:33.360
I sound like when I snare, how I get really

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02:36:33.479 --> 02:36:46.959
into a whole experience. I don't know how you feel.

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02:36:53.159 --> 02:36:59.719
How relaxed do you feel in your feet, how relaxed

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02:37:03.559 --> 02:37:24.600
you feel in your hands. I have noticed more and

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02:37:24.840 --> 02:37:43.760
more that the more relaxed, deeper level of comfort you feel,

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02:37:47.360 --> 02:38:03.559
the easier your breathing becomes. It's almost like that additional

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02:38:06.719 --> 02:38:30.079
muscle relaxation. So this allows you debreath easier without necessarily

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02:38:32.920 --> 02:39:00.920
focusing on your breath, however, being able to notice the

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ease in which you breathe so naturally, you breeze so

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02:39:31.200 --> 02:40:14.520
very easily and smoothly. M Whenever I imagine my breathing improving.

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When I've got my eyes closed, I tend to visualize

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a beautiful field with trees and flowers producing all that

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02:40:52.079 --> 02:41:24.840
life giving oxygen, And it feels nice to if nothing else,

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02:41:28.040 --> 02:42:02.200
just taking some time away from everything, enjoying that feeling

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of peace, serenity with a joyful heart. Time seems to

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just drip by, so very slowly, relaxed, so deeply, peaceful,

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02:43:38.360 --> 02:44:46.479
completely unattached to any thoughts whatsoever in this moment, completely free,

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02:44:47.639 --> 02:45:39.040
noticing that your mind has slowed down. Slowed down because

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02:45:39.159 --> 02:46:07.760
nothing really requires your attention. You can enjoy the physical

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02:46:08.120 --> 02:46:19.760
sensations of allowing the stress to drip out of your body,

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02:46:26.280 --> 02:46:49.959
dripping out of every part of your body and being

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02:46:50.440 --> 02:47:29.079
released from your brain. Lounge your mind slowly but surely,

1925
02:47:35.920 --> 02:48:11.760
The muscles in your legs relax h ex res so

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02:48:12.239 --> 02:48:53.079
very deeply, relas so deeply, and the feelings, the pleasant

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02:48:53.280 --> 02:49:18.159
feelings in your arms and shoulders, deepening each part of

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02:49:18.159 --> 02:49:59.799
your body further and deeper and deeper. Noticing the feelings

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in the back of your neck, the feelings in your

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wrists must thus in the front of your body. I

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also feeling peace for deeping. There's a sense of peace

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m spreads through your very core. Even when you focus

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on your mind, Your mind becomes a slower, deeper, relaxing,

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so very slower. His stomach PA's fellin you's stomach. You'll back. Notice,

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02:55:22.920 --> 02:55:41.399
Notice how relaxed you now feel in the hall of

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your back. In a spy from your brain all the

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02:56:14.239 --> 02:56:22.959
way down the middle of your back, sending and receiving

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02:56:25.360 --> 02:56:57.239
millions of messages every day, deep comfort, increasing deeply relaxed

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02:57:27.319 --> 02:58:01.959
you nicess spreading the signals, must down your spine or

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cord into air, every part of your body, your shins

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02:58:25.639 --> 02:58:56.639
and your calf muscles, your elburs.

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H.

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Feelings of peace and tranquility spreading through your body, tips

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02:59:29.319 --> 02:59:45.319
of your toes, to your eyes, your fingers, all the

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02:59:45.319 --> 03:00:02.920
way to your lower back. I'm letting go, re acting.

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God, place.

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Drifting mind swand in a way happy to let go,

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Let go completely, let go, so tranquil her whole body

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enjoying a sensor listing God even more steps pace, enjoy

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the space, this space of peace and safety. Fayy hey Rex,

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letting God. Maybe we can just focus on the different

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parts of your body, just to notice your forehead and

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03:07:59.200 --> 03:09:00.719
your eye. Yes, tu sids. Let's say, in a sense

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of complete freedom, absolute freedom, dress day, dress day. He's

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fall energy, paste to breeze, so much easy les you

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may have you may not have noticed your mind drifting,

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paceful move ay even more deeply in the direction of

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total blissful pace, blissful pace.

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To.

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Toe to to pace, Colm.

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So calm, letting go, peace of mind, x.

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Body so rex so relaxed. Her body feels almost invisible,

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so very relaxed and pasteful. So pace like God do

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Si paceful.

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So sa.

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And you could start to notice that you are feeling

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more relaxed, even though I've not purposely focused your mind

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upon that sense of physical comfort that is growing within

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you throughout your body, and your mind starts to slow down,

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and that could be almost in recognition of I guess

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my speech not being particularly fast, and things just generally

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feel calmer. Just by listening to my voice, you give

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yourself an opportunity to take a break from the day,

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take a break from your life as it is, and

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to give yourself a rest, giving yourself permission to take

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some time off, and to allow your body to relax

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and allow your mind to slow down, which in turn

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releases the tension any stresses that you had in your body.

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It's almost as if the parts of your body just

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open up, allowing the negativity out and at the same

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03:21:32.879 --> 03:21:44.200
time replacing that negativity with positive, healing energy. Which then

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03:21:44.360 --> 03:21:53.639
fills your body up and your mind to also starts

1983
03:21:53.680 --> 03:22:11.159
to appreciate those feelings of increasing confidence, an almost uplifting feeling,

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03:22:13.200 --> 03:22:27.280
positive healing, an energy that spreads through your body like

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03:22:27.360 --> 03:22:37.639
a wave of comfort. And all this comes from just

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allowing yourself a few minutes, maybe half an hour, however

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long you want it to be, just rest, allow your

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03:23:03.200 --> 03:23:13.639
mind and your body to almost reset itself to the

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03:23:13.760 --> 03:23:29.639
settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness, which allows more room

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03:23:30.120 --> 03:23:43.200
for feelings of pleasure and happiness to move around your

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03:23:43.239 --> 03:23:51.719
body and into your mind, almost as if your mind

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03:23:51.799 --> 03:24:02.440
and your body are sinking together, almost mirroring each other

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with that growing positivity and calmness, And it feels nice,

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03:24:18.120 --> 03:24:24.040
really does feel nice to know that you are the

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one that has allowed yourself to feel more comfort and

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to experience.

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More of this.

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Deep relaxation spreading throughout your body. And as I folk

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03:25:01.639 --> 03:25:07.600
on each part of your body, you can notice that

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03:25:07.600 --> 03:25:24.680
that part becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on it.

2001
03:25:24.680 --> 03:25:34.360
It becomes even more calm and comfortable just by focusing.

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And as I move down your body, starting at your head,

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03:25:46.840 --> 03:25:52.159
the parts that you have already focused on or continue

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03:25:53.479 --> 03:26:00.639
to relax deeply and those parts that have not yet

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03:26:00.799 --> 03:26:13.680
focused on or just automatically release any remain intention in

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03:26:13.840 --> 03:26:28.079
anticipation of even more comfort about to come. Now, I'm

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03:26:28.079 --> 03:26:34.600
going to start by focusing on your forehead. Just being

2008
03:26:34.719 --> 03:26:44.120
aware the feelings of your forehead and any background sounds

2009
03:26:45.879 --> 03:26:50.760
like mister Herbert the pigeon can just allow you to

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03:26:50.920 --> 03:26:58.200
feel even more relaxed. Just means you're in the moment.

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This isn't this isn't a sterile environment.

2012
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This is the world.

2013
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I live in the countryside, so there's lots of nature

2014
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sounds around. So as you focus on your forehead, just

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03:27:27.399 --> 03:27:38.239
notice how it becomes even more relaxed. Focus only on

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03:27:38.399 --> 03:27:48.040
my voice and that part of your body. Moving down

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03:27:48.239 --> 03:28:00.760
to your eyes, focusing on your eyes, noticing how your

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03:28:00.799 --> 03:28:08.760
eyelids feel so heavy yet so light at the same time,

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and all the muscles around your eyes relaxing completely. Moving

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your focus down to your mouth, your lips, your tongue,

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03:28:31.200 --> 03:28:39.159
your teeth, and your gums, the whole of your mouth relaxing,

2022
03:28:42.639 --> 03:28:52.959
calm and loose. As you focus now on your jaw,

2023
03:28:55.920 --> 03:29:01.040
not just a part of your jawney, your mouth, your chin,

2024
03:29:02.280 --> 03:29:05.440
but all the way up the size of your face

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03:29:06.559 --> 03:29:21.319
to your ears, the hole of your jaw, feeling more relaxed.

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03:29:24.680 --> 03:29:33.159
And calm.

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Focusing on your neck, the front of your neck, and

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your throat relaxing and loose and calm. The sides of

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03:29:55.920 --> 03:30:01.200
your neck, right and lefts eye, head of your neck

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relax and please.

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And calm.

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And now the back of your neck. Focusing on the

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03:30:25.399 --> 03:30:35.799
back of your neck, letting go of any tension that

2034
03:30:36.000 --> 03:30:44.879
may have been there before, and enjoying that sense of

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03:30:45.920 --> 03:30:56.639
increasing comfort and release that you can experience in the

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back of your neck. Moving down your back and moving

2037
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either side of your spine right from the top of

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your back all the way down to the bottom of

2039
03:31:19.239 --> 03:31:36.200
your back, down to your lower back. And as you

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03:31:36.440 --> 03:31:43.799
move up and down your spine, you can feel the

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03:31:44.000 --> 03:31:59.040
muscles either side of your spine relaxing even more. And

2042
03:31:59.159 --> 03:32:05.920
there's those muscles relax That sense of comfort starts to

2043
03:32:06.120 --> 03:32:16.520
spread outwards from your spine into both sides of your back,

2044
03:32:20.280 --> 03:32:24.000
the top of your back, the middle and your lower back.

2045
03:32:27.520 --> 03:32:34.680
And as you scan gently and slowly up and down

2046
03:32:34.840 --> 03:32:39.959
your back, there's the muscles in the top of your

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03:32:40.000 --> 03:32:49.959
back relax and become looser. The muscles in the middle

2048
03:32:50.000 --> 03:32:57.280
of your back also seem to just almost divide from

2049
03:32:57.360 --> 03:33:10.840
each other, separating and almost melting. And in your lower

2050
03:33:10.879 --> 03:33:22.440
back there seems to be an extra special feeling of comfort.

2051
03:33:27.680 --> 03:33:33.840
The spreads into your hips. Sit down your lower back,

2052
03:33:34.159 --> 03:33:42.159
into your hips, into the area where your cosix are,

2053
03:33:45.680 --> 03:33:52.520
and into your buttocks, and all those muscles that spread

2054
03:33:54.680 --> 03:34:04.399
in your lower back into your hip area start to melt,

2055
03:34:08.840 --> 03:34:21.159
start to reading, let go, and even know where about

2056
03:34:21.280 --> 03:34:27.559
to focus on your shoulders. Your back and your spine

2057
03:34:28.319 --> 03:34:45.120
will continue to let go, continue to relax so calmly,

2058
03:34:49.799 --> 03:34:54.760
and if you focus on your shoulders, you may notice

2059
03:34:55.159 --> 03:35:25.799
they're already feeling really loose, They're already feeding calm. I

2060
03:35:26.200 --> 03:35:39.120
feel those muscles then move from your neck into your shoulders.

2061
03:35:45.639 --> 03:35:57.319
Feel so soft and gentle, so smooth.

2062
03:36:02.840 --> 03:36:15.200
And calm, And.

2063
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The feeling in your shoulders seems to spread deep into

2064
03:36:28.200 --> 03:36:38.639
your shoulders, a sense of relaxation, not just traveling deeply

2065
03:36:38.959 --> 03:36:55.959
into your muscles, but also relaxing the bones and moving

2066
03:36:56.079 --> 03:37:04.399
all the way to underneath your arms, relaxing a whole

2067
03:37:04.559 --> 03:37:17.399
area between the tops of your shoulders and underneath your arms, healing.

2068
03:37:20.280 --> 03:37:33.360
You feel so relaxed and comfortable in your shoulders, which

2069
03:37:33.520 --> 03:37:55.760
sense that deep healing message into your arms. You may

2070
03:37:56.040 --> 03:38:01.360
feel almost as if your arms so not even that,

2071
03:38:02.799 --> 03:38:54.239
because they're so relaxed, so deeply relaxed, so so calm.

2072
03:38:39.840 --> 03:38:39.920
So.

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That feeling spreading.

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Oh down your.

2075
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Arms, two elbows, including your elbows circumfort spreads away into wrists,

2076
03:39:37.280 --> 03:39:52.879
your forearms, and your wrists so heavy. It's at the

2077
03:39:52.959 --> 03:40:08.159
same time sunlight and gentle.

2078
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F s.

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Now on your hands.

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My hands so peaceful in your hands with a sense of.

2081
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Real pace, just seems to feel so familiar. Your hands

2082
03:42:04.600 --> 03:43:42.239
relax deeply else your fingers, things sidis you think it

2083
03:43:42.440 --> 03:44:30.680
tips maving your attention to run to your body, so comfortable,

2084
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marrying your focus.

2085
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To lights, lud.

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Love musculs in your figs and names, so relaxed muscles

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just shades as the lady the faathing in your faints, Sir,

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03:49:18.840 --> 03:50:13.719
peaceful circolm, sir peaceful, sircolm, so peaceful, so calm.

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So.

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Peace fall RelA same peace fall cyclm. Love that deep

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relaxation to spread your chest storm let you go everything.

2092
03:51:28.559 --> 03:51:34.559
So I'm gonna start counting down now, from twenty down

2093
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to one. You can imagine in a way it's like

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03:51:43.520 --> 03:51:50.000
just walking down some steps and each step or twenty steps,

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and each step represents a level of comfort. Each stepp

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sense a deepening of that comfort, and the fervies you

2097
03:52:15.399 --> 03:52:21.479
walk down those steps, the deeper and more relaxed you feel.

2098
03:52:28.159 --> 03:54:56.520
So starting with number twenty twenty nineteenhhhhhh eighteen sn Jan

2099
03:55:02.280 --> 04:05:06.479
sixteenhhhhhhhhh three four four two two we no eight seven us.

2100
04:05:34.840 --> 04:06:20.639
US six.

2101
04:07:20.239 --> 04:09:15.040
Five four.

2102
04:10:02.120 --> 04:12:30.559
Us US.

2103
04:13:07.760 --> 04:13:24.719
And now as you focus on your eyes, we're gonna

2104
04:13:24.760 --> 04:13:36.239
count down from ten down to one, focusing just on

2105
04:13:36.399 --> 04:13:47.360
your eyes, your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your

2106
04:13:47.399 --> 04:14:06.120
eye walls themselves, a whole area that makes up your eye.

2107
04:14:07.399 --> 04:14:15.559
And as we count down ten down to one, whilst

2108
04:14:15.799 --> 04:14:31.399
focusing on your eyes, you'll become twice is relaxed with

2109
04:14:31.799 --> 04:14:44.600
each number counting down that you may find the what

2110
04:14:44.840 --> 04:14:51.079
you want to do is just drift off to sleep.

2111
04:14:54.040 --> 04:14:59.920
And if that's what you want, then just a let

2112
04:15:00.200 --> 04:15:15.120
yourself to do that. Now, focusing on your eyes, I'm

2113
04:15:15.200 --> 04:15:23.879
going to begin counting down from ten down to one

2114
04:15:24.959 --> 04:16:35.920
right now, ten nine eight.

2115
04:17:21.040 --> 04:20:44.399
Seven I four.

2116
04:21:57.639 --> 04:22:17.559
Three us.

2117
04:23:30.760 --> 04:24:50.920
H one. So cut down from ten to one ten

2118
04:24:52.840 --> 04:25:22.079
nine eight seven six five four three two one and

2119
04:25:22.159 --> 04:25:25.600
maybe that was a bit too quick in order to relax.

2120
04:25:26.760 --> 04:25:31.040
Maybe it's a bit too fast for you to notice

2121
04:25:31.280 --> 04:25:39.399
the calming of your body, maybe even a little bit

2122
04:25:39.399 --> 04:25:43.520
of pressure. They're like, you're counting down from ten to one.

2123
04:25:43.600 --> 04:25:47.120
Would you expect me to do man, expect me just

2124
04:25:47.159 --> 04:25:56.680
to go with floppy just because you're counting down. We

2125
04:25:56.719 --> 04:26:00.040
could try it again, but this time I go a

2126
04:26:00.079 --> 04:26:07.479
bit slower, this time that you focus on the whole

2127
04:26:07.520 --> 04:26:13.799
of your body before we focus on your legs. Just

2128
04:26:14.000 --> 04:26:24.040
notice how your body does start to feel more relaxed

2129
04:26:28.760 --> 04:27:23.079
with every number that I count down ten nine at eight, seven, six, five, four,

2130
04:27:30.440 --> 04:28:21.959
three one, And just notice how how you feel generally,

2131
04:28:22.360 --> 04:28:36.680
how your body feels. It's not necessarily even about counting

2132
04:28:36.799 --> 04:28:44.079
down from ten to one. It's that space that you have,

2133
04:28:45.239 --> 04:29:03.760
that space between being active physically or mentally to just

2134
04:29:08.440 --> 04:29:13.639
sitting or lying down, just being there, not doing anything,

2135
04:29:13.799 --> 04:29:20.440
not saying anything, or needing to think about anything. So

2136
04:29:21.120 --> 04:29:24.159
it opens up a space, you know, a bit of

2137
04:29:24.200 --> 04:29:35.200
a space, a gap. And the more I came down

2138
04:29:35.239 --> 04:29:42.639
from ten to one, the bigger that gap becomes. So

2139
04:29:42.760 --> 04:29:55.159
there's that gap of calmness, of comfort, relaxation. It's a

2140
04:29:55.280 --> 04:30:09.399
nice feeling, and it moves those stresses or discomforts physically

2141
04:30:09.520 --> 04:30:21.719
or emotionally, moves them away. Allows you.

2142
04:30:24.360 --> 04:30:24.879
To just.

2143
04:30:27.840 --> 04:30:33.920
Slow down. So ione to count a game from ten

2144
04:30:34.000 --> 04:30:42.440
down to one, and notice that gap widening, the gap,

2145
04:30:44.159 --> 04:30:48.799
And as it widens, it's almost like the stress and

2146
04:30:48.879 --> 04:31:08.520
attention falls into the gap. Give you that distance, that

2147
04:31:08.840 --> 04:32:13.000
space now ten nine, eight, seven, six, five, four.

2148
04:32:30.879 --> 04:33:08.560
Three one.

2149
04:33:17.959 --> 04:33:39.439
Now, how does your body feel now? Can you notice that?

2150
04:33:39.439 --> 04:34:16.200
Do you feeling calmer, the feeling more relaxed as we

2151
04:34:16.360 --> 04:34:36.639
now focus on your legs, just your legs. We're just

2152
04:34:36.720 --> 04:34:56.759
gonna start with focusing on your thighs. Of course, it's

2153
04:34:56.799 --> 04:35:05.520
not the most exciting thing to be doing because I'm sure,

2154
04:35:05.599 --> 04:35:07.840
like most of your body, there is not a lot

2155
04:35:07.919 --> 04:35:20.279
going on right now. Just focusing on the whole of

2156
04:35:20.319 --> 04:35:26.799
your thighs, the tops of your thighs, the sides of

2157
04:35:26.880 --> 04:35:33.799
your thighs, the bottoms of your thighs, your outer thighs,

2158
04:35:33.840 --> 04:35:38.799
and your inner thighs. Basically the whole of your thigh

2159
04:35:38.840 --> 04:35:47.639
that leads into your hip and it goes down to

2160
04:35:47.840 --> 04:36:01.880
your knee joints. Now, this is a big area. It's

2161
04:36:01.919 --> 04:36:07.439
a very heavy area, it's very strong probably the strongest

2162
04:36:08.400 --> 04:36:21.639
muscles in your body, or in your thighs. But I

2163
04:36:21.639 --> 04:36:30.040
don't think we perhaps give enough attention to our thighs.

2164
04:36:35.880 --> 04:36:46.680
Perhaps we don't acknowledge how important our thighs are to

2165
04:36:46.840 --> 04:37:07.520
our lives, how much they actually do for us all

2166
04:37:07.560 --> 04:37:18.040
through our lives. And it may seem sound really weird,

2167
04:37:18.080 --> 04:37:26.520
but I think that all of our body parts, especially

2168
04:37:26.599 --> 04:37:34.240
our thighs, need some TLC, a bit of love shown,

2169
04:37:35.240 --> 04:37:54.000
a bit of acknowledgement, thank you, gratitude for our thighs

2170
04:37:54.200 --> 04:38:03.080
do for us. And I know this may sound a

2171
04:38:03.119 --> 04:38:09.439
bit strange. Maybe you think, why am I Surely I

2172
04:38:09.520 --> 04:38:14.680
should be out in the garden hugging a tree or something. Well,

2173
04:38:18.799 --> 04:38:21.279
it's hard to set a microphone up on a tree.

2174
04:38:22.119 --> 04:38:24.400
That's why I'm doing this indoors. Otherwise I would be

2175
04:38:24.439 --> 04:38:28.360
outside hugging a tree. I can't see the television from

2176
04:38:28.360 --> 04:38:38.959
the tree. If you move down to your knees gain

2177
04:38:39.240 --> 04:38:47.439
such an important part. And I think we don't necessarily

2178
04:38:48.919 --> 04:38:56.599
I'll speak for myself here, I don't necessarily appreciate all

2179
04:38:56.639 --> 04:39:01.479
that one needs to do for me until I have

2180
04:39:01.560 --> 04:39:05.000
a problem with my knee. It's occasionally if I ever

2181
04:39:06.520 --> 04:39:10.520
maybe I'll bash it or it's aching for some reason.

2182
04:39:12.240 --> 04:39:18.479
It's then that I realize how much it does. You know,

2183
04:39:18.520 --> 04:39:24.520
the benefit of being able to use my legs without

2184
04:39:26.240 --> 04:39:33.520
any kind of physical discomfort is a beautiful thing that's

2185
04:39:33.720 --> 04:39:42.119
possibly not appreciated until it's temporarily removed. You know that's comfort.

2186
04:39:46.200 --> 04:39:50.840
But as you focus on your knees, regardless of how

2187
04:39:50.880 --> 04:39:58.400
your knees feel, you can have that sense of gratitude

2188
04:40:00.279 --> 04:40:02.919
love to your knees for all that they do for you.

2189
04:40:13.400 --> 04:40:16.680
And you can still have that attention on your thighs

2190
04:40:17.159 --> 04:40:23.200
and maybe notice how your thighs feel. Maybe you notice

2191
04:40:23.479 --> 04:40:41.599
that they are relaxing more deeply as you focus now

2192
04:40:42.520 --> 04:40:46.080
on the bottoms of your legs and your shins and

2193
04:40:46.119 --> 04:40:52.759
your calf muscles. The bones between your knees and your

2194
04:40:52.759 --> 04:41:00.200
feet incorporate, and of course your ankles so important. And

2195
04:41:05.680 --> 04:41:10.279
you know, anyone that's had even like the slightest sprain

2196
04:41:10.400 --> 04:41:17.560
of an ankle knows how how much we take our

2197
04:41:17.599 --> 04:41:26.159
ankles for granted. And it's kind of strange in a

2198
04:41:26.200 --> 04:41:31.799
way when you think that. You know, logically, our wrists

2199
04:41:31.959 --> 04:41:34.880
are a lot thinner than the rest of our arms,

2200
04:41:35.919 --> 04:41:39.400
which is okay, it doesn't I can't see any problem

2201
04:41:39.439 --> 04:41:44.400
with that because we're just picking stuff up by our

2202
04:41:44.439 --> 04:41:50.319
ankles so much thinner than the rest of our legs,

2203
04:41:56.680 --> 04:42:00.759
and from a physics perspective or a lot even it

2204
04:42:00.799 --> 04:42:07.000
doesn't really make sense that all this weight would ultimately

2205
04:42:07.119 --> 04:42:13.680
be resting on your ankles then leading to your feet,

2206
04:42:18.240 --> 04:42:27.040
that thin area, thin bone. Yeah, it does so much

2207
04:42:27.159 --> 04:42:34.240
great work. Supports us, supports our body for a lifetime,

2208
04:42:39.000 --> 04:42:48.759
helps us to balance, helps you to get around and

2209
04:42:48.840 --> 04:43:02.919
be mobile. And there's the calf muscles. Of course, when

2210
04:43:02.959 --> 04:43:06.080
I was younger, I couldn't see the pointing calf muscles.

2211
04:43:06.880 --> 04:43:11.799
Didn't seem to do anything. Okay, if I walked around

2212
04:43:11.799 --> 04:43:16.680
on tiptoes, then my calf muscles get some work. But

2213
04:43:16.759 --> 04:43:19.439
of course that's not true. The calf muscles are being

2214
04:43:19.560 --> 04:43:32.680
used whenever we use our legs and your shins there

2215
04:43:32.720 --> 04:43:43.720
to protect your lower legs, shaped in a way almost

2216
04:43:43.720 --> 04:43:55.520
as a protector for the bone, leading of course to

2217
04:43:55.599 --> 04:44:06.159
your ankles and feet. But we're not going to focus

2218
04:44:06.240 --> 04:44:08.560
on your feet. We're just going to focus on the legs.

2219
04:44:10.400 --> 04:44:15.040
And I realize, and now that I've mentioned your feet,

2220
04:44:15.119 --> 04:44:19.840
you're probably focusing on them anyway, So maybe I should

2221
04:44:19.880 --> 04:44:25.880
focus on your feet a little bit. You can have

2222
04:44:26.000 --> 04:44:31.279
them in your awareness the same as you have your

2223
04:44:31.319 --> 04:44:35.599
thighs in your awareness. Even though we haven't been focusing

2224
04:44:36.279 --> 04:44:41.279
on your thighs a few minutes, have been focusing on

2225
04:44:41.319 --> 04:44:58.119
your ankles, there's still that sensation of comfort in your

2226
04:44:58.159 --> 04:45:10.360
thighs in this that movement of energy, because the thighs

2227
04:45:10.560 --> 04:45:17.479
hold lots of different sensations. Of course, there's the muscles,

2228
04:45:18.040 --> 04:45:22.279
the big strong muscles that we have in our thighs,

2229
04:45:30.840 --> 04:45:36.599
but the skin on the outside of the thighs, as

2230
04:45:36.639 --> 04:45:41.240
in the outside of all of our body, can be

2231
04:45:41.400 --> 04:45:59.119
very sensitive, sensitive to the touch, sensitive to temperature, and

2232
04:45:59.279 --> 04:46:07.680
inside of thighs the bones, there's the muscle, there's the blood, vessels,

2233
04:46:07.799 --> 04:46:14.040
the ar trees, to all this stuff that's inside your thighs.

2234
04:46:18.040 --> 04:46:21.400
I guess sometimes it'd be nice if you could actually

2235
04:46:21.479 --> 04:46:28.959
put your fingers inside your thighs and a message, so

2236
04:46:29.000 --> 04:46:32.560
you can message on the outside, of course, but to

2237
04:46:32.599 --> 04:46:35.759
be able to get deep into the muscles and to

2238
04:46:35.799 --> 04:46:40.919
be able to just message inside your thighs, message in

2239
04:46:40.959 --> 04:46:49.599
the bones of your leg, message in all the veins,

2240
04:46:50.040 --> 04:47:00.560
just gently heaving your thighs and you can move down

2241
04:47:02.520 --> 04:47:07.680
message and inside your knees. Just message in those bones,

2242
04:47:08.599 --> 04:47:15.680
but with healing fingertips, spreading that healing energy deep into

2243
04:47:15.720 --> 04:47:25.200
the joints of your knees. Of course, there's the back

2244
04:47:25.360 --> 04:47:30.520
of your your knee and the inside crease where your

2245
04:47:30.599 --> 04:47:38.159
knee is. It's a very sensitive area. Three it feels

2246
04:47:38.240 --> 04:47:42.279
very nice when you stroke it. That might be because

2247
04:47:43.119 --> 04:47:48.119
it's an area that's not really touched very often. It's

2248
04:47:48.240 --> 04:47:54.799
almost like a hidden part, that crease in your legs.

2249
04:47:54.840 --> 04:48:02.200
It's almost like a part that has a sensitivity, which

2250
04:48:02.240 --> 04:48:12.720
is a little bit different. Of course, it's protected by

2251
04:48:12.759 --> 04:48:24.200
your legs. So you can imagine putting your fingers into

2252
04:48:24.279 --> 04:48:34.759
that crease in your legs, folding between your legs, you

2253
04:48:34.759 --> 04:48:40.560
can just message with your fingertips. Imagine your fingertips going inside,

2254
04:48:42.200 --> 04:48:50.319
massage in the muscle or tissue. You can of course

2255
04:48:50.439 --> 04:48:57.159
field the bones of your knees, heading through your fingertips,

2256
04:49:04.479 --> 04:49:09.840
and then as you go down to your calf muscles,

2257
04:49:10.200 --> 04:49:12.000
and that's the part. I'd like to be able to

2258
04:49:12.759 --> 04:49:20.119
really put my fingertips deep inside my calf muscles, massage

2259
04:49:20.200 --> 04:49:29.279
in every single tissue of that muscle, healing every part,

2260
04:49:35.240 --> 04:49:41.360
and then doing the same for my shins, massage in

2261
04:49:41.479 --> 04:49:49.080
and generally stroking the bones, generally stroking them, healing in

2262
04:49:49.119 --> 04:49:56.319
a loving way, because they deserve to be treated. There's

2263
04:49:56.400 --> 04:50:00.439
the precious bones that they are, because I eggs are

2264
04:50:00.479 --> 04:50:04.279
so precious as in all the other parts of our body,

2265
04:50:06.759 --> 04:50:20.639
the more precious of any june on the planet. When

2266
04:50:20.680 --> 04:50:28.479
you start to think about your legs in this way,

2267
04:50:33.040 --> 04:50:39.720
it can change your perspective. It might sound a bit

2268
04:50:42.799 --> 04:50:47.119
a bit silly to start with the idea of having

2269
04:50:47.959 --> 04:50:57.959
love for your legs, showing appreciation for your thighs, wanting

2270
04:50:58.119 --> 04:51:02.080
to be able to put your hair in your thighs,

2271
04:51:03.919 --> 04:51:10.439
the message the muscles and the bones, and to get

2272
04:51:10.479 --> 04:51:18.639
your fingers deep in there and releasing all tension, just

2273
04:51:18.680 --> 04:51:28.159
to show how much you care about your legs, how

2274
04:51:28.200 --> 04:51:34.159
much you care for what your legs do for you regularly,

2275
04:51:36.520 --> 04:51:47.319
your knees, your calves, your ankles, the strength of your ankles,

2276
04:51:49.599 --> 04:51:54.360
considering how thin they are compared to the rest of

2277
04:51:54.400 --> 04:52:04.200
your legs, especially your thighs. Yet this so strong, so flexible,

2278
04:52:07.959 --> 04:52:20.799
absolutely amazing things. Your ankles are truly a gift because

2279
04:52:20.799 --> 04:52:29.639
of what they do for you, supporting all that weight,

2280
04:52:31.560 --> 04:52:35.959
regardless of how what weight you are. Even if you

2281
04:52:36.080 --> 04:52:40.840
only eat eight stone, there's still a lot of weight

2282
04:52:41.040 --> 04:52:48.400
for these little ankles, how a lot heavier than maystone

2283
04:52:49.959 --> 04:52:59.200
double down. Yet my ankles support my body all the time,

2284
04:53:02.959 --> 04:53:05.680
or that they do give off a sigh of relief

2285
04:53:05.720 --> 04:53:11.080
when I sit down. That's that my whole legs though,

2286
04:53:14.639 --> 04:53:21.479
my feet feet or so go my toes clap. You're

2287
04:53:21.520 --> 04:53:50.040
so happy. Your legs really are amazing. And I know

2288
04:53:50.439 --> 04:53:56.880
that talking about talking about your legs is probably possibly

2289
04:53:57.080 --> 04:54:01.799
among the most most boring things I've heard anyone say.

2290
04:54:02.680 --> 04:54:10.159
Possibly be boring or not, Everything I said is true.

2291
04:54:12.560 --> 04:54:27.520
Your legs are amazing. Your legs deserve not just respect,

2292
04:54:33.319 --> 04:54:45.639
they deserve to relax deeply. They deserve to take some

2293
04:54:45.799 --> 04:54:51.880
time out of the day to just let go completely.

2294
04:55:09.759 --> 04:55:27.639
Your legs really can relax. And because the legs are

2295
04:55:27.799 --> 04:55:33.080
so such a most you know, very important part of

2296
04:55:33.159 --> 04:55:37.000
your body. When you relax your legs, the rest of

2297
04:55:37.040 --> 04:55:48.639
your body also naturally follows in that journey of comfort.

2298
04:55:56.720 --> 04:56:00.240
Like I feel it in my hips. My hip just

2299
04:56:00.279 --> 04:56:09.159
feel really loose, and also my lower back as well.

2300
04:56:09.159 --> 04:56:14.919
My lower back really feels it feels stretched, even though

2301
04:56:14.959 --> 04:56:18.599
I'm just sitting in a chair and there's no stretching

2302
04:56:21.279 --> 04:56:24.479
as far as I'm aware that I'm doing. It's almost

2303
04:56:24.520 --> 04:56:28.319
as if the muscles are just relaxed so much that

2304
04:56:28.400 --> 04:56:36.080
there is a natural stretch. As the tension has reduced

2305
04:56:36.919 --> 04:56:55.560
a lot. And I'm now going to count down from

2306
04:56:56.119 --> 04:57:07.520
ten down to one, you can continue to fill wonderfully

2307
04:57:07.599 --> 04:57:46.159
relaxed ten nine, eight, seven, six, five four three two.

2308
04:57:48.200 --> 04:57:48.479
One.

2309
04:57:54.479 --> 04:58:06.439
Relax. So I'm just going to count down from five

2310
04:58:06.599 --> 04:58:10.840
down to one, and as a countdown, if you just

2311
04:58:10.919 --> 04:58:18.759
focus on the numbers, just the numbers counting down, and

2312
04:58:18.959 --> 04:58:28.159
notice how you feel in this moment as you hear

2313
04:58:28.200 --> 04:58:35.840
the numbers counting down, knowing that those numbers counting down

2314
04:58:36.000 --> 04:58:46.119
represent you feeling calmer, not just in your body, but

2315
04:58:46.159 --> 04:58:55.400
also relaxing your mind. Just notice how you feel. There's

2316
04:58:55.479 --> 04:59:01.279
nothing to do, there's nothing to say, there's nothing to

2317
04:59:01.400 --> 04:59:50.720
think about. Starting with number five four three two one.

2318
04:59:53.840 --> 05:00:06.159
As you notice the gradual letting go that the tension

2319
05:00:06.319 --> 05:00:13.560
in your body, you may also begin to notice and

2320
05:00:13.639 --> 05:00:22.680
be aware of how your mind is starting to slow down.

2321
05:00:25.119 --> 05:00:31.520
This is just a natural thing that happens. It's not

2322
05:00:31.680 --> 05:00:37.599
really a special procedure. It's just natural because as your

2323
05:00:38.200 --> 05:00:44.279
body relaxes, your mind also starts to relax, and the

2324
05:00:44.279 --> 05:00:47.959
more your mind relaxes, the more your body relaxes. It's

2325
05:00:48.080 --> 05:00:59.799
just a continuous circle of relaxation. And is that calm

2326
05:01:00.360 --> 05:01:07.560
that comes from relative quietness. You know, even even if

2327
05:01:07.560 --> 05:01:15.119
this background sounds either your side online, it's still going

2328
05:01:15.200 --> 05:01:20.279
to be quite calm. You know, you haven't got the

2329
05:01:20.400 --> 05:01:25.560
television on, there's no music in the background, unless you're

2330
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listening to the recorded with music. Of course, you're very

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likely not going to be sitting in a room with

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other people. Of course you might be, but generally it's

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more ideal if you can do this on your own,

2334
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so no distractions, and when you stop thinking about stuff,

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relaxation automatically rises. A sense of comfort starts to grow,

2336
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and without trying to build it up into something fantastical

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or something magical, this is just a natural process, something

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that's easy to accomplish. In fact, it's almost you know,

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the sense of relaxing completely happens really when you put

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05:02:52.479 --> 05:02:56.360
no effort into it. It's not something that you can

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really force, something that happens naturally. And part of the

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process of this recording and others is simply two allow

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you to take advantage of this space, this time.

2344
05:03:33.680 --> 05:03:34.319
To just.

2345
05:03:38.319 --> 05:03:48.680
Let go, to just be here, to be in tune

2346
05:03:49.560 --> 05:04:01.680
with how you feel, yet with the intention of wanting

2347
05:04:01.919 --> 05:04:14.080
to relax deeply and maybe even to fall asleep, depending

2348
05:04:14.279 --> 05:04:20.599
on what it is that you wish for yourself in

2349
05:04:20.639 --> 05:04:36.799
this moment. As we know, relaxing is the majority of

2350
05:04:36.880 --> 05:04:41.520
the process of falling asleep. The actual falling asleep part

2351
05:04:41.720 --> 05:04:50.040
is the tiny bit at the end. The deeper relaxed

2352
05:04:50.279 --> 05:05:11.840
you become, the easier you find yourself drifting. But you

2353
05:05:11.919 --> 05:05:18.919
can also if you choose stay focused on my voice

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and really enjoy the process, gradually relaxing each muscle in

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your body effortlessly and just observing the sensation of letting

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go completely. This time, I'm going to count from six

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down to one. You can notice your mind calming down

2358
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more with each number that you hear me say, naturally,

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feeling calm and slier and peaceful sex five, four, three, two,

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being aware of how your mind has slowed right down,

2361
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sinking deeply into relaxation. And as you focus on your mind,

2362
05:10:41.560 --> 05:10:54.080
it may notice that there are some thoughts still there,

2363
05:10:54.080 --> 05:11:03.639
maybe some stubborn thoughts that for some reason perhaps need

2364
05:11:03.720 --> 05:11:18.919
your attention. So what you can do is send love

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to those thoughts. Sprinkle those thoughts with love. I at

2366
05:11:32.919 --> 05:11:38.599
petals from a flower, just sprinkle it over them. Petals,

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05:11:38.639 --> 05:11:46.520
feel good love towards those thoughts. To let those thoughts murder.

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You're not abandoned in them. You just need them. You

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05:11:54.319 --> 05:12:06.840
require them to just calm down, slow down, quiet down.

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For now.

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So as you focus on those remaining thoughts. As we

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count down this time from seven down to one. With

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each number, just imagine sprinkling those flower petals love, love, kindness,

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05:12:44.040 --> 05:12:55.959
gratitude over those thoughts, which will allow them to just

2375
05:12:57.319 --> 05:13:12.400
melt away and relax deeply. With every number, those thoughts

2376
05:13:12.479 --> 05:15:56.919
will become more and more relaxed, starting with number seven, six, five, four, three, four, leten. Now,

2377
05:16:01.080 --> 05:16:22.319
notice how relaxed your feeling in your body. We're going

2378
05:16:22.360 --> 05:16:36.119
to focus on your hands, because the more relaxed your

2379
05:16:36.240 --> 05:16:43.159
hands are, the more relaxed your body and mind are.

2380
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This can you focus on your hands and your fingers.

2381
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There's nothing needed to be done. There's no clenching of

2382
05:17:14.720 --> 05:17:19.119
fists or dents in the fingers or anything like that.

2383
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It's just noticing and focusing on your hands, noticing how

2384
05:17:40.799 --> 05:18:05.560
they feel because they're more Really your hands feel the

2385
05:18:05.759 --> 05:18:17.840
calmer your mind feels, and are comfort you feel throughout

2386
05:18:18.119 --> 05:18:50.759
your body. Je may have already noticed your mind is

2387
05:18:53.639 --> 05:19:21.439
starting to drest. Huisa just on your hands and fingers,

2388
05:19:25.400 --> 05:19:39.200
allowing them she experience how real deepening of that relaxation

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05:19:40.959 --> 05:19:48.880
in your hands and fingers.

2390
05:19:48.840 --> 05:19:49.560
More.

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05:19:52.360 --> 05:20:15.720
And more relaxed with each number from eight down to one.

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05:20:16.880 --> 05:20:28.279
You can almost feel the healing, relaxing energy spreading into

2393
05:20:28.360 --> 05:20:48.520
your hands and fingers, becoming more relaxing with each number

2394
05:20:50.880 --> 05:21:10.159
you hear, going down eight down to one, drifting, drifting

2395
05:21:10.279 --> 05:25:19.400
again starting Louise No. Eight, seven, three, just being here now,

2396
05:25:21.959 --> 05:25:28.080
nothing to think about, nothing to do, nothing to say,

2397
05:25:32.200 --> 05:25:43.360
and everything just feels calmer. And this is your natural

2398
05:25:43.439 --> 05:25:51.400
state of being. This is how you just normally feel

2399
05:25:52.119 --> 05:25:57.520
when you take away all of that other stuff.

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That we.

2401
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You know, things like stress and worry and over thinking, anxiety, tension,

2402
05:26:17.959 --> 05:26:24.759
generally thinking about stuff. We take that away, which is

2403
05:26:24.799 --> 05:26:34.080
what we do. We do it now you're left with

2404
05:26:36.799 --> 05:26:45.360
a real sense of peacefulness which comes to you very

2405
05:26:45.439 --> 05:27:00.880
quickly because ultimately it's just a feeling, a feeling and comfort.

2406
05:27:04.479 --> 05:27:07.880
It's almost as if you've gone inside yourself. And you've

2407
05:27:07.919 --> 05:27:22.599
found a special place where everything is peaceful, a place

2408
05:27:22.759 --> 05:27:30.680
where you can film relaxed and your natural sense and comfort,

2409
05:27:33.799 --> 05:27:34.840
a place where you.

2410
05:27:35.200 --> 05:27:36.439
Could be here.

2411
05:27:40.560 --> 05:27:47.560
Where you can accept yourself and who you are, the

2412
05:27:47.680 --> 05:27:54.040
place where you're not trying to please anybody else, in

2413
05:27:58.200 --> 05:28:06.799
a place where you can actually not just love yourself,

2414
05:28:06.840 --> 05:28:16.520
but in some ways more importantly, you can like yourself, appreciate.

2415
05:28:17.200 --> 05:28:18.279
Who you are.

2416
05:28:27.080 --> 05:28:33.720
That sense of gratitude it's in the air around you.

2417
05:28:41.360 --> 05:28:49.240
That's also a place where you can actually feel the

2418
05:28:49.520 --> 05:29:04.880
healing energy soaking into your body. Healing energy soaking into

2419
05:29:04.919 --> 05:29:19.159
your body. That healing energy spreads through your veins, traveling

2420
05:29:19.319 --> 05:29:31.759
to each every single part of your body, and you

2421
05:29:31.880 --> 05:29:38.840
start to realize that actually that healing energy, it's not

2422
05:29:39.159 --> 05:29:46.599
just entered into your brain, it's become part of your brain,

2423
05:29:51.520 --> 05:29:59.360
and the spinal fluid is now mixed with healing energy,

2424
05:30:03.439 --> 05:30:09.720
not just allowing you to feel so much more relaxed

2425
05:30:11.759 --> 05:30:23.799
and healthy in this moment, but also you start to

2426
05:30:23.919 --> 05:30:33.319
realize that actually what's happening now without a healing, relaxing

2427
05:30:34.400 --> 05:30:46.000
energy spreading through your body, is actually changing your life.

2428
05:30:47.439 --> 05:30:52.680
It's actually changing the way you're going to feel, not

2429
05:30:52.840 --> 05:31:02.040
just now, but tomorrow and the next day, your health improves,

2430
05:31:05.479 --> 05:31:12.840
not just your physical health, but your mental health. Things

2431
05:31:13.200 --> 05:31:18.439
that used to bother you in the past, for some reason,

2432
05:31:19.639 --> 05:31:27.240
no longer have the effect that they used to because

2433
05:31:27.319 --> 05:31:39.040
something has changed deep within you. Maybe things that used

2434
05:31:39.040 --> 05:31:49.599
to cause you to feel anger no longer have that

2435
05:31:50.400 --> 05:31:58.439
power to control you the way they seem to be

2436
05:31:58.479 --> 05:32:08.080
able to before. As you realize that you're the one

2437
05:32:09.599 --> 05:32:21.400
who decides what affects you, You're the one who decides

2438
05:32:24.159 --> 05:32:35.240
to feel relaxed and calm when you choose to enjoy

2439
05:32:36.759 --> 05:32:49.479
noticing these natural developments of healing, continue it to grow

2440
05:32:52.240 --> 05:33:03.599
and improve your life day by day, including of course,

2441
05:33:03.680 --> 05:33:21.159
your ability to relax so much easier than sleeping. It's

2442
05:33:21.200 --> 05:33:26.520
the most natural thing in the world.

2443
05:33:26.439 --> 05:33:26.799
To you.

2444
05:33:31.200 --> 05:33:38.439
Because falling asleep is something that you've done so many

2445
05:33:38.520 --> 05:33:46.360
times in your life, and you know that you were born,

2446
05:33:47.840 --> 05:33:54.479
as we all were, with the ability to fall asleep naturally,

2447
05:33:58.680 --> 05:34:10.599
were born with that ability to just drift off into

2448
05:34:10.680 --> 05:34:23.599
a deep, healing sleep. Even when we're kids, sometimes will

2449
05:34:23.639 --> 05:34:28.000
fall asleep and we don't even want to try to

2450
05:34:28.479 --> 05:34:32.919
stay awake. Maybe it's a birthday in the morning, or

2451
05:34:32.919 --> 05:34:37.200
it's Christmas or holiday or something we look forward to.

2452
05:34:37.720 --> 05:34:41.799
We don't want to go to sleep, but the more

2453
05:34:42.360 --> 05:34:47.240
we want to stay awake, the more we just start

2454
05:34:47.319 --> 05:34:56.080
to drift. And the more you fight drifting we're trying

2455
05:34:56.119 --> 05:35:01.279
to stop yourself and drift in asleep, the deeper and

2456
05:35:01.479 --> 05:35:13.119
stronger that drifting becomes. Because we're born not just with

2457
05:35:13.279 --> 05:35:19.720
the need to relax deeply and to naturally fall asleep,

2458
05:35:22.919 --> 05:35:36.279
but it's our birthright, it's part of our DNA. And

2459
05:35:36.520 --> 05:35:42.159
sometimes as we get older in life, perhaps at times

2460
05:35:42.880 --> 05:35:55.840
we have forgotten that relaxing completely is not only a

2461
05:35:56.119 --> 05:36:20.400
wonderfully pleasant experience, it's also really easy. It's very, very

2462
05:36:20.880 --> 05:36:26.560
easy to let go, because that's all it is. It

2463
05:36:26.639 --> 05:36:41.360
is just deciding to let go. And when you press

2464
05:36:41.520 --> 05:36:49.720
the play button on my recordings, you have given permission

2465
05:36:52.040 --> 05:36:59.720
from my voice to relax you. When you press that

2466
05:37:00.080 --> 05:37:09.439
lay button, you've given me permission for my words to

2467
05:37:09.599 --> 05:37:24.200
effect you in a positive, only a positive way, opening

2468
05:37:24.319 --> 05:37:47.639
up your mind to useful and healing suggestions that can

2469
05:37:47.840 --> 05:38:00.000
have such an amazing effect on how you feel right now,

2470
05:38:04.639 --> 05:38:14.479
as well as those changes that continue long after the

2471
05:38:14.599 --> 05:38:25.479
recording ends, those changes within you to continue to flourish

2472
05:38:26.119 --> 05:38:40.720
and grow, transforming your life in a positive, beautiful way,

2473
05:38:43.799 --> 05:38:50.919
allowing you to move forward in your life in the

2474
05:38:50.959 --> 05:39:08.240
direction that you choose for yourself. And this feeling, this

2475
05:39:08.479 --> 05:39:24.159
feeling that you can experience of safety, comfort, calmness, just

2476
05:39:24.360 --> 05:39:38.040
feels so nice. It's such a healthy place to be,

2477
05:39:45.880 --> 05:39:59.720
and that positivity grows within you each and every day.

2478
05:40:02.759 --> 05:40:12.560
Moving forward, you're going to find that you're more relaxed

2479
05:40:14.880 --> 05:40:27.240
physically and in your mind is more relaxed. And it's

2480
05:40:27.279 --> 05:40:32.880
not that you're thinking slower. It's just that your mind

2481
05:40:32.919 --> 05:40:44.840
will be less clogged up with unnecessary negativity because from

2482
05:40:44.919 --> 05:40:55.200
now on, your mind rejects negativity. From now on, you're

2483
05:40:55.240 --> 05:41:06.119
going to start noticing when negativity arises and you can

2484
05:41:06.240 --> 05:41:20.240
just say stop, stop, and that negativity will turn around

2485
05:41:20.799 --> 05:41:40.200
and leave you alone. Stop and that negativity would disappear.

2486
05:41:48.319 --> 05:41:54.840
And that you notice that you feel way more relaxed

2487
05:41:56.240 --> 05:42:11.639
than you probably expected. You can now congratulate yourself because

2488
05:42:11.759 --> 05:42:18.080
you are the person that has done this. You are

2489
05:42:18.119 --> 05:42:22.880
the one that has opened your mind up to the

2490
05:42:23.000 --> 05:42:31.080
simple facts that you can feel more relaxed in your

2491
05:42:31.119 --> 05:42:41.279
body and in your mind. You've opened your mind up

2492
05:42:41.400 --> 05:42:49.520
to the birthright of being able to just fall asleep

2493
05:42:49.880 --> 05:43:05.400
easily when you choose, And that's a nice feeling. Don't

2494
05:43:05.400 --> 05:43:16.680
you think it feels nice? Doesn't it? To feel calm?

2495
05:43:16.880 --> 05:43:21.479
All that healing energy is spreading through your body and

2496
05:43:21.639 --> 05:43:33.919
your mind to spend time in a special place where

2497
05:43:36.840 --> 05:43:51.080
negativity can no longer enter. Negativity is banned. It's bad,

2498
05:43:51.880 --> 05:43:58.680
it's not allowed entryue doesn't it doesn't, This doesn't deserve

2499
05:43:58.759 --> 05:44:06.040
to be here, doesn't a bit long here. Negativity has

2500
05:44:06.240 --> 05:44:21.799
no place in your life, which makes room for more comfort,

2501
05:44:23.680 --> 05:44:53.680
more healing, more relaxation, more peace. It feels nice, doesn't it?

2502
05:44:54.159 --> 05:45:19.200
Just let go everything. I'm gonna count down now from

2503
05:45:19.240 --> 05:45:28.840
twenty down to one. You can continue to relax. If

2504
05:45:28.880 --> 05:45:41.000
you choose, you can drift to sleep. With every number

2505
05:45:43.240 --> 05:45:52.040
you hear me say, you can fill twice as relaxed.

2506
05:45:55.040 --> 05:46:06.319
Or if you choose, you can fill twice sleeping now.

2507
05:46:11.720 --> 05:48:02.279
Twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, four, ten, thirty two, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven,

2508
05:48:11.080 --> 05:49:05.840
six five. This is your time to just take a break,

2509
05:49:10.439 --> 05:49:21.520
your time to relax, to allow your mind to slow down,

2510
05:49:30.159 --> 05:49:44.240
to give yourself permission to take a break from everything.

2511
05:49:48.959 --> 05:49:53.479
And you're the only person that can make that decision.

2512
05:49:56.319 --> 05:49:59.040
You're the only person that can actually tell your mind

2513
05:50:04.200 --> 05:50:28.319
just relax, to just take some time off so that

2514
05:50:28.439 --> 05:50:33.479
you can focus on your body, getting in touch with

2515
05:50:34.599 --> 05:50:50.959
how you feel physically, and in the process of this

2516
05:50:51.279 --> 05:50:56.240
body scared where you focus on different parts of your body,

2517
05:51:02.599 --> 05:51:10.159
those parts that you focus on and observe. Even though

2518
05:51:10.200 --> 05:51:18.400
you're not purposely requesting for those parts of your body

2519
05:51:18.560 --> 05:51:27.080
to relax, it's kind of expected. You expect when you

2520
05:51:27.240 --> 05:51:40.319
listen to my voice to feel more relaxed naturally, because

2521
05:51:40.400 --> 05:51:50.200
when you're listening to me, your attention is focused on

2522
05:51:50.400 --> 05:52:01.959
my words, and as my words guide you to focus

2523
05:52:06.319 --> 05:52:21.240
on those parts of your body, your focus increases, which

2524
05:52:21.360 --> 05:52:37.360
actually calms your mind. And when your mind calms down,

2525
05:52:42.200 --> 05:53:04.279
your body relaxes. And when your body calms down, your

2526
05:53:04.400 --> 05:53:21.279
mind relaxes. And even though we've not really started to

2527
05:53:21.439 --> 05:53:34.119
focus on your body, you can already feel that healing

2528
05:53:34.360 --> 05:53:48.840
energy spreading through your body, pushing out stress and tension,

2529
05:53:52.959 --> 05:54:00.319
healing all the parts of your body, including us again,

2530
05:54:01.400 --> 05:54:08.360
your bones, your blood, all of your organs inside your body,

2531
05:54:09.720 --> 05:54:16.520
all of the muscles, all of the fat, all of everything,

2532
05:54:18.360 --> 05:54:24.840
every hair on your body is filled with that healing energy,

2533
05:54:32.560 --> 05:54:49.040
and when your brain fills without healing energy, the feeling

2534
05:54:49.200 --> 05:55:13.799
of comfort relaxation increases deeply increases in a way that

2535
05:55:17.080 --> 05:55:33.799
your mind starts to fill perhaps bit drowsing because it's

2536
05:55:33.919 --> 05:55:53.159
not needed, and it may start to drift if that's

2537
05:55:53.319 --> 05:56:01.560
what's needed. So if you're listening to this and what

2538
05:56:01.720 --> 05:56:07.919
you need is deep relaxation, that's what you get. If

2539
05:56:07.959 --> 05:56:09.279
what you need is.

2540
05:56:10.880 --> 05:56:12.599
To fall asleep.

2541
05:56:13.799 --> 05:56:22.840
Naturally and easily, that your mind drifts, that's also what

2542
05:56:22.840 --> 05:56:35.799
will happen. Because by pressing that play button on the

2543
05:56:35.919 --> 05:56:43.360
podcast and listening to me, give permission of your body

2544
05:56:43.400 --> 05:56:55.360
and your mind. In fact, you give the command to

2545
05:56:55.439 --> 05:57:06.439
your body and your wind to relax deeply and to

2546
05:57:06.599 --> 05:57:15.639
drift off to sleep, if that's what you want or

2547
05:57:15.799 --> 05:57:28.479
need them. As I focus on the different parts of

2548
05:57:28.720 --> 05:57:42.720
your body, you may start to just drift. And then

2549
05:57:42.759 --> 05:57:47.840
you come back again and you hear me talkin I'm

2550
05:57:47.880 --> 05:57:58.279
focusing on a different part of your body, you may

2551
05:57:59.159 --> 05:58:08.200
find just off drifting, being realize you're drifting until you

2552
05:58:08.400 --> 05:58:17.520
stop drifting. Du A Lert again to my voice, focusing

2553
05:58:17.880 --> 05:58:22.680
on a different part of your body starts to relax

2554
05:58:22.880 --> 05:58:33.040
in a deeper because that drifting, it's basically here already

2555
05:58:35.319 --> 05:58:45.279
in the sleep zone. And the more you drift, the

2556
05:58:45.360 --> 05:58:55.759
longer you drift, the longer you drift. Eventually that drifting

2557
05:58:55.959 --> 05:59:07.680
continues into sleep, and that's the last you remember to

2558
05:59:07.959 --> 05:59:17.240
awake up in your own time when you experience the

2559
05:59:17.439 --> 05:59:26.759
right amount of sleep. Fear, because when you do and

2560
05:59:26.959 --> 05:59:37.680
if you do fall asleep, it's extremely pleasant. So relaxing,

2561
05:59:40.720 --> 06:00:00.880
so deep he sleep, I feel so nice to relax

2562
06:00:01.080 --> 06:00:10.599
since your own body and mind, as if you feel

2563
06:00:10.639 --> 06:00:19.119
that heating energy is spreading through it. Relaxing is so deeply,

2564
06:00:24.680 --> 06:00:43.560
relaxes so deeply. To start to focus on your eyes,

2565
06:00:51.439 --> 06:02:17.599
moving down to your job, you shoulders, chest, spine, hips,

2566
06:02:25.479 --> 06:03:16.680
your ex faint dotsies spreading grimeside your body, feeling you up.

2567
06:03:19.279 --> 06:03:32.840
Now let's focus again on parts of your body, focusing

2568
06:03:32.959 --> 06:03:44.000
this time on your forehead. Now on your mouth, your lips,

2569
06:03:46.000 --> 06:03:50.840
your tongue, a whole of your mouth.

2570
06:03:59.799 --> 06:03:59.919
Hm.

2571
06:04:03.040 --> 06:04:14.919
Focusing on your fingers. Maybe you could move your fingers

2572
06:04:14.919 --> 06:04:20.119
a little bit, as you can focus on each one individually,

2573
06:04:26.319 --> 06:04:33.520
both hands. And even though it should focus on both

2574
06:04:33.560 --> 06:04:39.000
of your hands, now they almost seem to just melt

2575
06:04:39.119 --> 06:04:48.799
into one where there is your right hand, start left hand,

2576
06:04:48.880 --> 06:05:04.159
and almost as if just mixed together. Now focusing on

2577
06:05:04.159 --> 06:05:32.200
your knees, just noticing how your knees help. Now focusing

2578
06:05:32.880 --> 06:05:51.520
your helpers, focusing both your elbows. Just absurd the feeling

2579
06:05:51.560 --> 06:07:30.360
of your helpers, says upside Acus. It's a good of sensations.

2580
06:07:32.159 --> 06:08:57.560
Accous I said, now you times fIF feet, you tis

2581
06:09:00.279 --> 06:09:51.959
feel right now? Ninety cents him in soil, body fails.

2582
06:10:01.560 --> 06:10:47.439
Noticing your mind feels now lett him go, lett him go,

2583
06:10:55.319 --> 06:11:32.080
letting go everything, letting go, letting go, leting go, oh,

2584
06:11:35.159 --> 06:11:54.919
everything everything. I'm gonna start now, and I'd like you

2585
06:11:55.080 --> 06:11:58.880
just to, first of all, just to see yourself laying

2586
06:11:58.959 --> 06:12:06.240
down on that message table, lying on your front. Your

2587
06:12:06.240 --> 06:12:14.400
head is supported, your arms are supported, and you feel

2588
06:12:14.400 --> 06:12:24.319
comfortable and breathing is really easy, and you feel you

2589
06:12:24.360 --> 06:12:27.880
feel confident in how you look as well. So there's

2590
06:12:27.919 --> 06:12:33.159
none of that issue of body problems or shyness because

2591
06:12:34.240 --> 06:12:41.799
I'm a professional and this is a therapy session, so

2592
06:12:42.319 --> 06:12:49.799
none of that stuff matters on whatsoever. This is about you.

2593
06:12:52.479 --> 06:12:58.400
This is about how you feel and how you can

2594
06:12:59.639 --> 06:13:06.279
enjoy that sense of comfort and relaxation that comes from

2595
06:13:06.720 --> 06:13:12.479
letting go and allowing my hands and my fingers to

2596
06:13:12.520 --> 06:13:24.040
relax you by messaging your body. So I want to

2597
06:13:24.080 --> 06:13:29.200
start off just by placing my hands on the back

2598
06:13:29.240 --> 06:13:34.319
of your head, just gently, just you can feel my

2599
06:13:34.479 --> 06:13:43.040
hands feel like really on you. So you can maybe

2600
06:13:43.040 --> 06:13:45.200
feel the warmth of my hands on the back of

2601
06:13:45.240 --> 06:13:51.520
your head. With my hands to the side of your head,

2602
06:13:52.159 --> 06:13:58.799
not pressing, but just holding there very gently, maybe over

2603
06:13:58.840 --> 06:14:02.680
your ears, a little bit on your face, just so

2604
06:14:02.840 --> 06:14:08.799
you can feel my hands so you can become accustomed

2605
06:14:10.400 --> 06:14:21.360
to them. And now put my hands on the back

2606
06:14:21.400 --> 06:14:26.200
of your head again and gently let them slide down

2607
06:14:28.759 --> 06:14:38.319
onto the back of your neck. You can feel my

2608
06:14:38.520 --> 06:14:48.759
hands gently stroking the back of your neck to start with,

2609
06:14:53.319 --> 06:14:57.400
just so you can get used to the feeling of

2610
06:14:57.439 --> 06:15:04.840
my hands on your skin, get a customed to realize

2611
06:15:04.919 --> 06:15:14.279
that you're safe and it's all good, it's all fine.

2612
06:15:15.520 --> 06:15:19.639
And I want to start gently massaging the muscles in

2613
06:15:19.680 --> 06:15:35.599
the back of your neck with both hands. And this

2614
06:15:35.639 --> 06:15:41.880
is a very trusting situation really because our necks are

2615
06:15:42.000 --> 06:15:47.200
so fragile and to have someone have their hands around

2616
06:15:47.240 --> 06:15:52.439
your neck in that way can sometimes be problematic for people,

2617
06:15:53.599 --> 06:15:58.080
which is why massages are quite good because it allows

2618
06:15:58.119 --> 06:16:08.080
you to relax and to get in touch with trust,

2619
06:16:12.360 --> 06:16:24.919
to feel peaceful and calm. There's a massage the sides

2620
06:16:25.040 --> 06:16:33.080
of your neck, gently moving from the bottom of your neck.

2621
06:16:34.799 --> 06:16:37.279
It would be sort of near where your shoulders start,

2622
06:16:37.360 --> 06:16:44.479
I guess, all the way up to your jaw, your ears,

2623
06:16:44.840 --> 06:16:50.080
kind of an area the side of your neck, and

2624
06:16:50.159 --> 06:16:52.759
of course it's a lot longer than the front of

2625
06:16:52.799 --> 06:17:08.919
your neck. And message in the back of your neck,

2626
06:17:12.720 --> 06:17:21.520
especially that area where perhaps we hold tension, and there's

2627
06:17:21.599 --> 06:17:26.279
that area's message. You can actually feel a sense of

2628
06:17:26.400 --> 06:17:34.479
release in the back of your neck and maybe you

2629
06:17:34.599 --> 06:17:39.959
can breathe it out as well. Notice how it feels.

2630
06:17:40.119 --> 06:17:53.680
Notice how you feel. They're moving down to that area

2631
06:17:53.919 --> 06:18:01.560
between your neck and your shoulders, that musty area, starting

2632
06:18:01.599 --> 06:18:08.599
to message that area on both sides. I mean, this

2633
06:18:08.639 --> 06:18:11.119
would be the area that a lot of people would

2634
06:18:11.200 --> 06:18:13.959
message if they were going to give you like a

2635
06:18:14.040 --> 06:18:20.119
shoulder message. Even that's not technically the shoulders, but it's

2636
06:18:20.159 --> 06:18:24.319
all the muscles that lead to the shoulders from the

2637
06:18:24.439 --> 06:18:31.959
neck and again that can hold tension and stress. And

2638
06:18:32.040 --> 06:18:40.080
when massaged, sometimes a nice deep message is useful, and

2639
06:18:40.279 --> 06:18:57.840
you decide how deep that message is just allow my

2640
06:18:57.959 --> 06:19:03.639
knuckles just to dig in, to get to those muscles

2641
06:19:03.720 --> 06:19:13.200
and to really relaxed, and all the time being firm

2642
06:19:13.799 --> 06:19:30.959
yet gentle with you and just stroking down the area

2643
06:19:33.759 --> 06:19:42.880
to your actual shoulders, moving to the muscles of your shoulders,

2644
06:19:45.880 --> 06:19:50.680
and maybe initially just pulling up the shoulders a little

2645
06:19:50.720 --> 06:19:54.119
bit off the table, just to give you a little

2646
06:19:54.159 --> 06:20:04.720
bit of a stretch, very gently, and you've got the

2647
06:20:04.799 --> 06:20:08.479
muscles at the front of your shoulders the sides of

2648
06:20:08.599 --> 06:20:19.479
the back. Again, this is a part that can really

2649
06:20:21.040 --> 06:20:24.520
take quite a bit of pressure, quite a bit of

2650
06:20:28.279 --> 06:20:35.279
needing if if you wish to really release the tension

2651
06:20:37.240 --> 06:20:43.360
to really get into those muscles, and you can let

2652
06:20:43.360 --> 06:20:49.919
your fingers in there. They can feel really nice. Sometimes

2653
06:20:49.919 --> 06:20:56.959
it's just being stroked gently or being messaged quite strongly,

2654
06:21:00.759 --> 06:21:10.680
can all be beneficial to the renaversation with the muscles

2655
06:21:10.720 --> 06:21:23.720
in your shoulders. Now, as you move down your arms,

2656
06:21:30.240 --> 06:21:33.799
we do one arm at a time, starting with your

2657
06:21:33.880 --> 06:21:44.159
right arm. What I do is I just lift your

2658
06:21:44.240 --> 06:21:47.080
arm up, just hold it to the side of you,

2659
06:21:50.279 --> 06:21:56.759
no word still be attached, and I just message the

2660
06:21:56.799 --> 06:22:09.680
tops of your arms all the way down to your

2661
06:22:09.799 --> 06:22:37.240
forearms into your wrists gently massaging the parts, the softer part,

2662
06:22:37.319 --> 06:22:43.840
which is the under part of the arm, which leads

2663
06:22:43.880 --> 06:22:48.799
to the crease in your rowbo the inside. It's much

2664
06:22:49.240 --> 06:23:06.159
more sensitive skin. Sometimes just having that stroked, I feel

2665
06:23:06.319 --> 06:23:23.000
really nice, pleasurable and relaxing. Now moving down to your

2666
06:23:23.080 --> 06:23:36.040
right hand, just holding your hand in both of my hands,

2667
06:23:41.759 --> 06:23:48.319
just pressing gently on the back of your hand, stretching

2668
06:23:48.439 --> 06:23:59.200
your fingers ever so lightly at the same time pressing

2669
06:23:59.279 --> 06:24:11.840
down and mess sarging each finger, and then starting to

2670
06:24:12.040 --> 06:24:22.680
massage the palms and the hand. Just turning the hand,

2671
06:24:25.080 --> 06:24:34.959
stretching it gently and actually having your hand held can

2672
06:24:35.080 --> 06:24:41.919
really be an emotional experience sometimes even if it is

2673
06:24:42.080 --> 06:24:47.560
a stranger. So when you don't know very well, like

2674
06:24:47.680 --> 06:24:54.639
a massage person or a therapist, maybe because it's intimate,

2675
06:25:02.279 --> 06:25:15.119
you can feel nice, you can feel safe. And as

2676
06:25:15.159 --> 06:25:18.200
I put that right arm back down where it was,

2677
06:25:23.759 --> 06:25:30.400
I did the same with your left arm, exactly the

2678
06:25:30.439 --> 06:25:39.919
same massage and the muscles in your arm all the

2679
06:25:39.919 --> 06:25:53.880
way down do you arrest, stroking the inside of your arm,

2680
06:25:53.919 --> 06:26:07.439
just being gentle, was as firm as you require, and

2681
06:26:07.520 --> 06:26:23.919
then massaging your left hand, stretching the fingers, gently massaging

2682
06:26:24.200 --> 06:26:43.959
the palm of your left hand. You feel so so relaxing,

2683
06:26:51.599 --> 06:27:09.400
so comforting, and I just rest your left down, back down.

2684
06:27:16.919 --> 06:27:23.599
Start to massage your back, the biggest part of your body,

2685
06:27:28.639 --> 06:27:35.560
starting at the top, starting again where you already have been,

2686
06:27:36.279 --> 06:27:41.040
the area at the top in between your shoulders, near

2687
06:27:41.080 --> 06:27:46.279
your neck. Going back and message in that area again,

2688
06:27:47.360 --> 06:28:01.119
but this time moving downwards, making it downward. Stroke to

2689
06:28:01.159 --> 06:28:09.040
the middle of a back, working from the outside inwards,

2690
06:28:09.279 --> 06:28:16.959
massage in that your back, but the outsides of your

2691
06:28:17.000 --> 06:28:35.000
back parts where your arms will maybe rest against, almost

2692
06:28:37.119 --> 06:28:49.639
the part that connects your front to your back. Just

2693
06:28:49.880 --> 06:28:58.360
massaging down firmly but gently, as firm as you want,

2694
06:29:01.759 --> 06:29:05.799
moving down, and then moving across a little bed and

2695
06:29:05.919 --> 06:29:11.639
moving all the way down again, be very gentle, yet

2696
06:29:11.880 --> 06:29:22.680
fern as you choose. Eventually you get to the spine.

2697
06:29:24.040 --> 06:29:27.799
We can message the muscles and either side of your

2698
06:29:27.840 --> 06:29:31.759
spine from the top of your neck all the way

2699
06:29:31.880 --> 06:29:43.040
down to your lower back. We can do that a

2700
06:29:43.080 --> 06:29:53.759
few times. Sometimes people juice the knuckle or the you know,

2701
06:29:53.919 --> 06:29:58.639
the two fingers and just go either side of the spine,

2702
06:30:00.000 --> 06:30:03.840
almost just push down all the way down to the

2703
06:30:03.840 --> 06:30:12.479
bottom of the spine, each time releasing tension and opening

2704
06:30:12.560 --> 06:30:21.720
up the body, stretching your body so that you feel

2705
06:30:22.319 --> 06:30:39.840
more relaxed but at the same time rejuvenated. And now

2706
06:30:39.880 --> 06:30:45.159
I'm going to move to one side, to your right side,

2707
06:30:48.560 --> 06:30:53.319
and from the bottom of your ribs to your pelvis,

2708
06:30:54.159 --> 06:31:00.400
I'm going to message that area of your back. I'll

2709
06:31:00.520 --> 06:31:03.560
stretch over the other side and i will pull the

2710
06:31:03.680 --> 06:31:10.520
muscles gently and massage and push from one end that

2711
06:31:10.720 --> 06:31:14.959
side or the way to my side to the middle

2712
06:31:15.080 --> 06:31:20.799
of fact to where your spine is, massaging that side

2713
06:31:20.799 --> 06:31:25.240
of your spine the opposite side to where I'm standing.

2714
06:31:27.560 --> 06:31:33.599
It's almost like kneading bread. There's that big area which

2715
06:31:33.680 --> 06:31:45.479
is firm yet lots there to message. Potentially one of

2716
06:31:45.479 --> 06:31:52.119
the most important places to actually have a message because

2717
06:31:52.200 --> 06:31:58.080
you really feel it. You really feel the release and

2718
06:31:58.159 --> 06:32:06.360
the pleasure of having your lower back massaged. It releases

2719
06:32:06.720 --> 06:32:15.119
so much from your body that's not useful, starting a

2720
06:32:15.159 --> 06:32:21.279
healing process which will continue long after this recording is over.

2721
06:32:30.560 --> 06:32:33.439
The message in this part of your body not only

2722
06:32:33.560 --> 06:32:38.479
feels really good for you, it's actually fun to do

2723
06:32:39.759 --> 06:32:45.479
because it is, as I said, like kneading bread. It's

2724
06:32:45.520 --> 06:32:49.439
a part that you can really get hold of and

2725
06:32:49.560 --> 06:33:03.159
really massage deeply if that's your choice. They're not going

2726
06:33:03.240 --> 06:33:05.279
to move over to the other side of your body

2727
06:33:05.720 --> 06:33:14.439
and do the same with the opposite part of your

2728
06:33:14.520 --> 06:33:25.360
lower back. Kneeding and messaging from your sides or way

2729
06:33:26.240 --> 06:33:29.040
to the middle of your back where your spine is

2730
06:33:33.400 --> 06:33:42.720
pressing and kneading, firm and gentle at the same time.

2731
06:33:44.639 --> 06:33:57.200
It feels so releasing this mixture of pleasure, comfort, release, calmness,

2732
06:33:57.520 --> 06:34:09.200
relaxation or mixed together. Plus there's that feeling from your

2733
06:34:09.240 --> 06:34:14.400
stomach as it's being stretched. Even though you're in your

2734
06:34:14.479 --> 06:34:18.799
stomach now, you can feel it being stretched because that

2735
06:34:18.919 --> 06:34:30.279
whole area is connected to your stomach. Now we're going

2736
06:34:30.360 --> 06:34:35.319
to move or move further up to your top of

2737
06:34:35.360 --> 06:34:39.919
your body, and then we did the same this time

2738
06:34:41.119 --> 06:34:47.959
starting with your upper back. Put my hands forward over

2739
06:34:49.200 --> 06:34:55.439
and MESSI massage in that area up to your spine,

2740
06:34:56.599 --> 06:34:59.439
from the side of your body up to your spine.

2741
06:35:00.959 --> 06:35:07.159
So some of that message area, the muscle tissue or

2742
06:35:07.159 --> 06:35:11.240
whatever fatty tissue even will be possibly from your chest

2743
06:35:13.040 --> 06:35:17.159
because it's all connected. The chest and the back connect together.

2744
06:35:20.279 --> 06:35:23.599
I'm going to be massaging and just pulling some of

2745
06:35:23.639 --> 06:35:31.639
that skin from your side up and massaging the area

2746
06:35:34.599 --> 06:35:39.680
of your upper back all the way to your spine.

2747
06:35:43.200 --> 06:35:45.439
And then I'll move down a bit and I'll continue

2748
06:35:46.000 --> 06:35:49.080
with the middle of your back, doing exactly the same thing.

2749
06:35:52.919 --> 06:36:06.439
There's gentle or as deep as you choose. Now I'll

2750
06:36:06.520 --> 06:36:10.680
move from the other side again and do the exact

2751
06:36:10.840 --> 06:36:14.599
same thing with the top of your back on the

2752
06:36:14.599 --> 06:36:24.200
other side, from pretty much underneath your arm area really

2753
06:36:29.560 --> 06:36:39.119
to your spine, and then continue in that all the

2754
06:36:39.200 --> 06:36:44.200
way down, including your lower your middle of your back.

2755
06:36:57.599 --> 06:37:02.400
Now I'm gonna go to your thighs, the backs of

2756
06:37:02.479 --> 06:37:12.159
your thighs, and the sides of your thighs, starting with

2757
06:37:12.200 --> 06:37:21.200
your right leg. Massage in the back and the sides

2758
06:37:22.080 --> 06:37:29.560
of your thighs gently and firmly. There's a lot of

2759
06:37:29.639 --> 06:37:33.479
muscles there. It's an area that can be very tense

2760
06:37:33.560 --> 06:37:37.840
at times and maybe needs a little bit more pressure

2761
06:37:38.040 --> 06:37:41.319
than the rest of the body. That's up to you.

2762
06:37:45.959 --> 06:37:51.919
You can gently stroke the back of your legs where

2763
06:37:52.880 --> 06:37:57.799
you know, opposite your knee joint or underneath your knee joint,

2764
06:37:58.919 --> 06:38:12.720
very sensitive, gentle area, and working down to your calf muscles.

2765
06:38:15.599 --> 06:38:22.040
Massage in your calf muscles thoroughly and deeply. If you choose,

2766
06:38:25.479 --> 06:38:42.400
using both hands and fingers, digging deep to your ankles,

2767
06:38:44.639 --> 06:38:50.319
in the back of your back of your ankles, just

2768
06:38:50.599 --> 06:38:53.560
gently massage in that area.

2769
06:38:58.040 --> 06:39:04.080
Maybe lifting the leg and stretching.

2770
06:39:03.680 --> 06:39:28.880
A little bit. Moving to the right foot, massage in

2771
06:39:28.919 --> 06:39:35.720
the bottom of your feet and the size of your

2772
06:39:35.720 --> 06:39:52.360
feet gently but firm enough so they don't tickle, and

2773
06:39:52.560 --> 06:39:58.040
just allow the pleasure that you get from heaving your

2774
06:39:58.080 --> 06:40:07.439
feet massage to just overtake you as I continue to

2775
06:40:07.599 --> 06:40:14.000
message your feet, the bottoms of your feet, the sides,

2776
06:40:16.639 --> 06:40:22.400
your arches, your heel. You can put a lot of

2777
06:40:22.439 --> 06:40:28.319
pressure into your heel and it feels amazing, Yet the

2778
06:40:28.479 --> 06:40:36.599
arches need to be a bit more gentle. Stretching your

2779
06:40:36.720 --> 06:40:43.240
toes gently and message in the bottoms of your toes

2780
06:40:43.880 --> 06:40:59.159
with my fingers, each one individually. Moving over to the

2781
06:40:59.319 --> 06:41:08.759
left leg to do exactly the same thing. Starting at

2782
06:41:08.799 --> 06:41:13.279
the top of the thighs, work in the back of

2783
06:41:13.319 --> 06:41:18.759
the thighs and the sides. Massage in deeply and gently

2784
06:41:20.840 --> 06:41:34.840
a whole area, working all the way down. And this

2785
06:41:35.000 --> 06:41:40.959
is an area that maybe you could like to spend

2786
06:41:41.040 --> 06:41:50.040
more time relaxing and massaging. Perhaps if you wanted, I

2787
06:41:50.080 --> 06:41:54.840
could make a future recording, I want spend more time

2788
06:41:54.959 --> 06:42:06.400
on one particular area. As you moved down to your

2789
06:42:06.439 --> 06:42:20.319
calf muscles. Massage in your calf muscles firmly and gently,

2790
06:42:26.000 --> 06:42:34.479
move down your ankle into your feet. Massage in the

2791
06:42:34.959 --> 06:42:45.000
backs of your feet, the bottoms of your feet, stretching

2792
06:42:45.240 --> 06:42:51.560
your toes and massage in each toe individually. And that

2793
06:42:51.959 --> 06:42:57.799
feeling of pleasure and release. The experience when your having

2794
06:42:58.520 --> 06:43:19.200
your feet and message just feels really good. Now you

2795
06:43:19.439 --> 06:43:30.799
turn over in your mind. Laying on your back, I'm

2796
06:43:30.880 --> 06:43:44.439
just gonna start again with your nick area in your shoulders,

2797
06:43:48.319 --> 06:43:59.040
just to get back in touch with that area. Unless

2798
06:43:59.080 --> 06:44:10.680
you move up, I can clean my hands, make them

2799
06:44:10.720 --> 06:44:16.360
more fresh, because now I'm gonna message your face simply

2800
06:44:20.759 --> 06:44:32.080
starting off with your forehead. Your eyes are closed, I

2801
06:44:32.080 --> 06:44:38.080
can just stretch your eyes a little bit, pushing up

2802
06:44:38.119 --> 06:44:55.319
with your eyebrows, just massaging around your scalp, massaging down

2803
06:44:56.240 --> 06:45:10.319
your cheeks, around your ears, into your jaw, shiply the

2804
06:45:10.479 --> 06:45:33.080
side of your neck chin, and just moving down from

2805
06:45:33.159 --> 06:45:40.439
your neck down to your chest, starting by message in

2806
06:45:40.560 --> 06:45:47.759
the very top of your chest where the collar bone is.

2807
06:45:50.040 --> 06:46:01.840
Give a side of the collarbone, and then just message

2808
06:46:01.959 --> 06:46:14.799
in the whole of the chest, moving the chest around.

2809
06:46:23.000 --> 06:46:27.799
Because it's quite a large area, you can move from

2810
06:46:27.799 --> 06:46:38.919
one side to the next, moving my hands underneath pretty

2811
06:46:38.959 --> 06:46:48.680
much your arms are stretching up, stretching some of the

2812
06:46:48.759 --> 06:46:57.959
muscles of your back in the process, moving up over

2813
06:46:58.080 --> 06:47:18.159
your chest and then moving down again, then allowing my

2814
06:47:18.279 --> 06:47:25.840
hands to just massage gently and slide down towards your stomach,

2815
06:47:27.639 --> 06:47:34.080
starting in the middle of your chest, and then gradually

2816
06:47:34.400 --> 06:47:41.639
my hands moving apart, having massage in and sliding at

2817
06:47:41.639 --> 06:47:50.840
the same time, moving down to just below your red cage,

2818
06:48:00.080 --> 06:48:08.759
moving down and then messaging up again, giving your chest

2819
06:48:10.279 --> 06:48:11.639
all the attention.

2820
06:48:12.919 --> 06:48:13.959
That it needs.

2821
06:48:15.599 --> 06:48:28.000
To feel completely relaxed. Remembering that I'm also going to

2822
06:48:28.000 --> 06:48:33.639
be focusing on your sides as well, an area that

2823
06:48:33.880 --> 06:48:41.119
really doesn't get much attention but feels really good when

2824
06:48:41.119 --> 06:48:50.400
it's massaged. Just stroking my hands down the sides of

2825
06:48:50.479 --> 06:48:57.439
your body, just below your arms, all the way down

2826
06:48:57.479 --> 06:49:12.479
to your hips. Now move into your stomach area. We're

2827
06:49:12.479 --> 06:49:16.000
gonna stand on one side of you like I did

2828
06:49:16.040 --> 06:49:20.479
when I did your lower back. I'm gonna do a

2829
06:49:20.599 --> 06:49:26.439
similar process of just stretching the muscles from your side,

2830
06:49:29.919 --> 06:49:42.000
gently massaging from one side to the next move in

2831
06:49:44.560 --> 06:49:48.799
the whole area from below your ribs all the way

2832
06:49:48.840 --> 06:49:59.319
down to below your belly button, and I'm gonna move

2833
06:49:59.360 --> 06:50:09.680
around to the outside of you and repeat that process

2834
06:50:10.000 --> 06:50:23.080
of relaxing deeply, calmly. You feel loose, you feel free.

2835
06:50:25.439 --> 06:50:30.159
And it's something about having your stomach message that's different

2836
06:50:30.200 --> 06:50:37.040
from any other part because we do have a tendency

2837
06:50:37.639 --> 06:50:41.599
of holding a different kind of stress in our stomachs

2838
06:50:42.959 --> 06:50:50.799
that we may not be aware of. There's an our

2839
06:50:50.959 --> 06:50:59.240
message your stomach in front of your stomach, making circles

2840
06:51:00.680 --> 06:51:09.479
around your belly, buttom and then going the other way

2841
06:51:09.520 --> 06:51:22.200
around the gentleness and a freedom that comes from feeling

2842
06:51:22.799 --> 06:51:33.159
how you're feeling. As I now move down the tops

2843
06:51:33.200 --> 06:51:40.240
of your thighs, muscles, massaging them, and I can do

2844
06:51:40.319 --> 06:51:49.639
this two legs at the same time, pressing down, massaging

2845
06:51:50.080 --> 06:51:55.799
deeply those muscles in your thighs, the front of your thighs,

2846
06:52:01.159 --> 06:52:06.799
and moving down to your knees, gently massaging your knees,

2847
06:52:11.919 --> 06:52:18.040
sliding down your shins, putting pressure on either side of

2848
06:52:18.119 --> 06:52:31.200
your shin gently softly but firmly, moving down to your ankles,

2849
06:52:36.119 --> 06:52:45.840
stroking the tops of your feet, and then with each

2850
06:52:47.080 --> 06:52:52.560
foot in each hand, just gently massaging the whole of

2851
06:52:52.599 --> 06:53:01.360
the foot, the top, the bottom, your your your ankle,

2852
06:53:02.240 --> 06:53:13.959
your toes, message in every part of your feet. Feels

2853
06:53:14.000 --> 06:53:19.520
so good. Just to let go and enjoy the process.

2854
06:53:25.159 --> 06:53:44.080
Enjoy feeling so deeply relaxed, so much comfort and so

2855
06:53:44.240 --> 06:54:00.759
many feelings be come just from touching your skin. And

2856
06:54:00.959 --> 06:54:07.400
you can just lie there for as long as you choose,

2857
06:54:11.319 --> 06:54:20.799
enjoying the feeling of deep comfort from being massaged.

2858
06:54:22.759 --> 06:54:23.119
By me.

2859
06:54:30.279 --> 06:54:52.319
Enjoy feeling deeply las And all we're gonna do is

2860
06:54:55.880 --> 06:55:12.360
blow out some candles. And you mind, there are going

2861
06:55:12.439 --> 06:55:22.840
to be a hundred candles, and you're going to blow

2862
06:55:23.000 --> 06:55:33.439
each one out individually, one by one, starting at one hundred.

2863
06:55:34.479 --> 06:55:41.880
As I count down all the way down to one,

2864
06:55:46.319 --> 06:55:55.279
and each time I say a number, you can imagine

2865
06:55:55.279 --> 06:56:01.759
that candle in front of you, and I'd like you

2866
06:56:01.880 --> 06:56:21.200
to actually physically generally blow that candle out, just so

2867
06:56:21.240 --> 06:56:30.520
it's not big blows, just a gentle, and that candle

2868
06:56:32.000 --> 06:56:41.319
will extinguish. And then I'll say the next number, so

2869
06:56:41.360 --> 06:56:42.560
we move down.

2870
06:56:45.439 --> 06:56:46.240
And you can just.

2871
06:56:49.880 --> 06:56:58.919
Blow that one out as well. And as we move

2872
06:56:59.279 --> 06:57:10.360
down the numbers, you'll find yourself feeding more and more relaxed.

2873
06:57:13.319 --> 06:57:14.400
If you need.

2874
06:57:15.639 --> 06:57:24.919
To sleep, you'll also find yourself becoming incredibly tired and sleepy.

2875
06:57:28.720 --> 06:57:36.240
In fact, you may struggle to blow out all one

2876
06:57:36.360 --> 06:57:53.240
hundred of these candles as you feel more and more

2877
06:57:53.560 --> 06:58:21.439
deeply relaxed, more and more deeply tired, and the further

2878
06:58:21.840 --> 06:58:31.560
you go down, the more your mind starts to drift.

2879
06:58:37.919 --> 06:58:44.400
You may find that you stop listening to me after

2880
06:58:44.479 --> 06:58:57.599
a while, and even though there maybe background sounds where

2881
06:58:57.680 --> 06:59:08.319
you are, you'll be aware of those sounds at the

2882
06:59:08.439 --> 06:59:29.479
moment he may start just not even notice them at

2883
06:59:29.520 --> 06:59:46.000
all because they're unimportant. Where I am, I've got the

2884
06:59:46.080 --> 06:59:53.240
sounds of the birds, there's horrors, the pigeon who likes

2885
06:59:53.279 --> 07:00:00.240
to say hello. Sometimes there's the old play that goes by,

2886
07:00:03.000 --> 07:00:16.520
maybe traffic and trains in the distance, But none of

2887
07:00:16.520 --> 07:00:28.759
that scene is important whatsoever, or candles you blow out,

2888
07:00:30.759 --> 07:00:47.599
less important anything is, or candles you blow out, the

2889
07:00:47.799 --> 07:01:04.360
further you seem to move away m sound as general

2890
07:01:07.759 --> 07:01:19.040
date days, stuff seems to just move away on its side.

2891
07:01:24.279 --> 07:01:49.599
You feelm more calma with every candy blowout, guiding the

2892
07:01:49.799 --> 07:02:02.759
next number. Do you hear me say? And then you

2893
07:02:02.959 --> 07:02:30.119
blow that candle out to so easy so simple. I'm

2894
07:02:30.159 --> 07:02:44.759
gonna start by introducing the first candle. She's a hundred.

2895
07:02:49.119 --> 07:03:02.919
First candle, she is one hundred. When you blow that

2896
07:03:03.279 --> 07:03:22.840
candle out, you'll find immediately a slight change in how

2897
07:03:22.919 --> 07:03:34.319
you feel, as well as a real sense of positivity

2898
07:03:35.200 --> 07:04:09.040
growing within you, relaxation and sleepiness expanding. Starting where one

2899
07:04:09.159 --> 07:04:54.040
hundred blow by candle now ninety nine, candle ninety eight,

2900
07:05:14.439 --> 07:06:32.119
can do, ninety seven, cham ninety six, camp ninety five,

2901
07:06:52.520 --> 07:09:20.000
ninety four, candle ninety three, ninety one, candle ninety eight,

2902
07:09:20.279 --> 07:12:12.840
two nine and eighty eight eight s eight, eighty five

2903
07:13:04.840 --> 07:16:43.919
eight ito sn two two can seventy nine, can't do

2904
07:16:49.159 --> 07:17:42.319
seventy eight, can seventy seven, candle seventy six, candle seventy five,

2905
07:18:01.200 --> 07:18:55.680
candle seventy four, candle seventy three, candle seventy two, candle

2906
07:19:00.639 --> 07:20:07.520
seventy one, candle seventy one and seventeen and sixty nine

2907
07:20:17.319 --> 07:21:05.240
candle sixty eight, candle sixty seven, candle sixty five, candle

2908
07:21:10.840 --> 07:22:11.119
sixty four, candle sixty four, candle sixty three, candle sixty

2909
07:22:13.479 --> 07:23:58.919
chick and sixty one candle sixty m St. Denie can

2910
07:23:59.200 --> 07:25:39.919
do fifty eight fifty seven fifty six candle, fifty five candle,

2911
07:25:43.919 --> 07:27:00.439
fifty four handle, fifty three candle, fifty candle, fifty dis

2912
07:27:33.799 --> 07:29:41.840
long candle, fifty one candle, fifty candle foty nine candle

2913
07:29:46.080 --> 07:32:04.919
fourteen eight WoT is seven forty six candle, forty five candle,

2914
07:32:09.599 --> 07:32:51.240
forty two candle.

2915
07:32:55.799 --> 07:33:49.560
What you oneh.

2916
07:33:29.959 --> 07:35:35.759
Z fourty thirty nine, ser eight came to thirty seven

2917
07:36:14.880 --> 07:39:14.479
candle thirty five, thirty four canto thirty three ten thirty one, fifty.

2918
07:40:30.080 --> 07:40:34.319
And two.

2919
07:40:36.159 --> 07:42:57.639
Nine tent you ate candle twenty seven, candle twenty six,

2920
07:43:38.560 --> 07:47:11.919
can wit five about twenty thirty to went to wait

2921
07:47:49.799 --> 07:50:04.000
y two nine can seventy six day.

2922
07:51:01.319 --> 07:54:00.599
Four y.

2923
07:55:17.919 --> 08:01:44.279
Nine eight eight two two candle or let go of

2924
08:01:44.479 --> 08:01:52.639
all of those thoughts, worries, concerns about the past, thoughts

2925
08:01:52.680 --> 08:01:57.560
about the future, and even things you've been thinking about today.

2926
08:01:59.560 --> 08:02:05.360
Just let it go because none of it is useful

2927
08:02:05.680 --> 08:02:20.240
in this moment. This is your opportunity to just focus

2928
08:02:25.520 --> 08:02:34.319
on feeling relaxed, allowing yourself to get in touch with

2929
08:02:34.479 --> 08:02:44.560
that natural sense of peace that we all have within us.

2930
08:02:46.959 --> 08:02:52.439
It's available for everyone, it just sometimes takes a little

2931
08:02:52.439 --> 08:02:56.000
bit of effort to set up the right.

2932
08:02:58.279 --> 08:02:58.560
Time.

2933
08:02:58.720 --> 08:03:02.319
And place in order for you to just let go.

2934
08:03:05.880 --> 08:03:11.400
Because when you do decide to let go and relax,

2935
08:03:13.959 --> 08:03:20.639
that's what your body starts to do because you've chosen,

2936
08:03:22.159 --> 08:03:29.119
You've chosen to just allow your body to unwind and

2937
08:03:29.240 --> 08:03:36.279
your mind starts to slow down. And it's a nice feeling.

2938
08:03:38.279 --> 08:03:41.439
It's a nice feeling at the beginning, just to know

2939
08:03:42.599 --> 08:03:52.639
that you have chosen to decide to relax deeply, and

2940
08:03:52.799 --> 08:03:59.319
because you've made that decision, your body or just follow suit,

2941
08:04:01.919 --> 08:04:06.560
because sometimes all the muscles in your body need is

2942
08:04:06.880 --> 08:04:16.479
just permission from you to relax. Because so often we're busy,

2943
08:04:16.759 --> 08:04:20.959
we're going from here to there, we're walking around, and

2944
08:04:21.080 --> 08:04:28.400
we're doing stuff, and the body doesn't have any time

2945
08:04:28.639 --> 08:04:37.040
or space to really relax deeply. So it kind of

2946
08:04:37.159 --> 08:04:42.720
waits for you to lead the way, waits for your permission.

2947
08:04:47.040 --> 08:04:53.560
And when you do give your permission, when you give

2948
08:04:53.599 --> 08:05:00.159
to say so, when you say okay, it's time your

2949
08:05:00.200 --> 08:05:10.000
body to let go completely and relax totally, your body

2950
08:05:10.200 --> 08:05:19.200
just follows some like a breath of relief. Ah God,

2951
08:05:19.279 --> 08:05:26.200
I can now relax. Have feeling at the end of

2952
08:05:26.240 --> 08:05:30.240
a day, of very physical day that you may experience

2953
08:05:30.360 --> 08:05:33.680
in the past where you get home and you just

2954
08:05:33.880 --> 08:05:37.880
sit down on a chair, maybe you kick your shoes

2955
08:05:37.959 --> 08:05:40.639
off and not ah, feels.

2956
08:05:40.599 --> 08:05:41.520
So nice.

2957
08:05:43.279 --> 08:05:47.279
Knowing that you don't have to get up again for

2958
08:05:47.360 --> 08:05:50.799
a little while at least if you choose, you can

2959
08:05:50.959 --> 08:05:59.880
just sit there for maybe an hour to It feels blissal.

2960
08:06:04.040 --> 08:06:08.720
And just by sitting down like that, your body knows

2961
08:06:09.319 --> 08:06:14.240
that it's time to relax. Your body has been given

2962
08:06:14.360 --> 08:06:21.279
permission from you. Because it's a mindset in your mind,

2963
08:06:24.639 --> 08:06:35.040
you're prepared to let go of everything and just completely

2964
08:06:36.240 --> 08:06:45.040
allow all the stress of your body to evaporate. Any

2965
08:06:45.240 --> 08:06:59.200
tensions can just gradually vanish. It's almost like magic, really,

2966
08:07:04.799 --> 08:07:11.799
because that sense of relaxation in your body, it's a

2967
08:07:11.959 --> 08:07:18.400
very natural state. It's not something unusual. It may feel

2968
08:07:18.520 --> 08:07:22.240
unusual when you first start to relax. You if you

2969
08:07:22.319 --> 08:07:27.560
haven't really spent a lot of time focusing and giving

2970
08:07:27.639 --> 08:07:32.880
yourself this space to let go completely and relax may

2971
08:07:33.040 --> 08:07:41.240
seem almost alien, but it isn't. It's actually the most

2972
08:07:41.560 --> 08:07:47.680
natural thing in the world to let go completely, to

2973
08:07:47.840 --> 08:07:58.119
relax totally, the most natural thing in the world to

2974
08:07:58.279 --> 08:08:10.759
allow yourself to feel really calm in your mind. And

2975
08:08:10.919 --> 08:08:18.639
it is almost like a literal unwinding. It's like you

2976
08:08:18.759 --> 08:08:27.560
press a button and all the tension just releases, and

2977
08:08:27.639 --> 08:08:31.479
it's like a wheel, like a cog, like the inside

2978
08:08:31.479 --> 08:08:35.159
of the clock, just unwinding. And it's almost like you

2979
08:08:35.279 --> 08:08:41.119
could see the little wind up knob that's used just

2980
08:08:41.319 --> 08:08:45.479
going the opposite way that you choose to wind it up,

2981
08:08:48.279 --> 08:08:57.599
and the energy that frenetic stress for energy gradually winding down,

2982
08:08:58.880 --> 08:09:06.080
losing its power, hour losing its strength. Has a sense

2983
08:09:06.159 --> 08:09:17.279
of relaxation becomes stronger and deeper, and you may find

2984
08:09:18.119 --> 08:09:25.599
at more relaxed, you feel your mind starts to wonder.

2985
08:09:28.720 --> 08:09:34.560
Maybe you seem to stop listening to me for a while,

2986
08:09:36.200 --> 08:09:41.520
your mind goes somewhere else, and then you realize you're

2987
08:09:41.599 --> 08:09:46.840
listening to me again, and that it's just your mind

2988
08:09:47.240 --> 08:09:57.639
drifting to sleep, which is quite natural, because sometimes when

2989
08:09:57.759 --> 08:10:05.919
we're stressed and tense, we may not actually be aware

2990
08:10:06.240 --> 08:10:12.560
of what we need or we physically or emotionally need

2991
08:10:13.040 --> 08:10:20.799
in this moment. But when you allow your body and

2992
08:10:21.040 --> 08:10:23.799
mind to relax completely.

2993
08:10:24.959 --> 08:10:26.919
And you let go of all.

2994
08:10:27.200 --> 08:10:36.720
Thoughts, concerns, worries, ideas, all longngo and allow them to

2995
08:10:36.959 --> 08:10:47.479
drop onto the floor, you start to get in touch

2996
08:10:47.720 --> 08:11:00.959
with the feelings of such relaxation, feelings so nice to

2997
08:11:01.080 --> 08:11:07.319
be in touch with the calmness of the different body

2998
08:11:07.520 --> 08:11:20.759
parts as they become looser and looser. Even your breathing

2999
08:11:21.360 --> 08:11:33.680
seems easier and more natural, effortless as that cool outs

3000
08:11:33.840 --> 08:11:40.840
through your mouth or nose into your lungs, breathing in

3001
08:11:42.599 --> 08:11:51.000
comforts and relaxation, and then just breathing out any excess

3002
08:11:51.479 --> 08:11:58.479
remain intentional stress from every part of your body.

3003
08:11:59.680 --> 08:12:00.319
And mind.

3004
08:12:04.000 --> 08:12:09.040
As you start to focus on your mind, maybe you

3005
08:12:09.360 --> 08:12:17.439
notice that things come to a standstill or maybe just

3006
08:12:18.159 --> 08:12:26.159
much much lower than before, because your mind is not

3007
08:12:26.599 --> 08:12:37.200
really needed when listening to my voice, which allows your

3008
08:12:37.360 --> 08:12:45.799
mind to relax just as deeply as your body. And

3009
08:12:45.919 --> 08:12:58.759
that's synchronicity between the relaxation of your body relaxation of

3010
08:12:58.959 --> 08:12:59.520
your mind.

3011
08:13:01.880 --> 08:13:03.119
Let you know that.

3012
08:13:05.240 --> 08:13:21.119
Feeling completely calm, believes, and relaxed is a great healing experience.

3013
08:13:22.200 --> 08:13:36.799
Fear has so many positive benefits for your body and

3014
08:13:37.080 --> 08:13:42.680
mind and your life. To be able to let go

3015
08:13:44.360 --> 08:13:54.680
everything and to relax completely, you know, all parts of

3016
08:13:54.799 --> 08:14:05.799
your body and mind, even your brain's axed, all your

3017
08:14:06.000 --> 08:14:22.880
muscles arised, even the skin that covers your body is relaxed.

3018
08:14:28.040 --> 08:14:29.560
Every half.

3019
08:14:32.560 --> 08:14:32.919
You have.

3020
08:14:34.680 --> 08:14:52.279
Is also deeply relaxed, and your brain really starts to

3021
08:14:52.520 --> 08:14:54.599
feel the benefits.

3022
08:14:55.880 --> 08:14:56.200
Of this.

3023
08:14:57.799 --> 08:15:10.159
Heathing relaxation. And as you focus on the side of

3024
08:15:10.279 --> 08:15:15.959
your scalp where your brain is, you can start to

3025
08:15:16.240 --> 08:15:25.840
realize and notice the benefits of your brain relaxing depain

3026
08:15:30.279 --> 08:15:40.200
And as your brain continues to react, sends those messages

3027
08:15:41.840 --> 08:15:49.639
to the rest of your body and your mind to

3028
08:15:50.000 --> 08:16:12.880
re works more deepay, relaxy, more completely, letting go of

3029
08:16:13.560 --> 08:16:25.240
any remaining thoughts of concerns, allow them just to drop

3030
08:16:25.520 --> 08:16:34.680
onto the floor because they're not long necessary in this moment,

3031
08:16:37.080 --> 08:16:47.400
this moment of deep reaxation and calmness, filling.

3032
08:16:49.599 --> 08:16:50.520
Your brain.

3033
08:16:52.200 --> 08:17:14.959
With deep concentrated heathing, calming relaxing, every part of your

3034
08:17:15.040 --> 08:17:36.319
brain feeling so bus and comfortable, so relaxed and beeaceful.

3035
08:17:39.599 --> 08:17:51.720
Your brain feels so light, that's so healthy. That sense

3036
08:17:51.840 --> 08:18:05.720
of deep deep comfort reading does allow you to enjoy

3037
08:18:07.880 --> 08:18:19.560
those ever increasing sensations of comfort that are spreading throughout

3038
08:18:19.759 --> 08:18:30.799
your body, relaxing each and every muscle of your body

3039
08:18:35.400 --> 08:18:54.560
deeper and deeper, much more deeper than before, much more

3040
08:18:56.599 --> 08:19:05.720
comfort reading through your body. Your mind.

3041
08:19:08.479 --> 08:19:10.360
Be so.

3042
08:19:12.240 --> 08:19:28.319
Peaceful and calm, so very very peaceful in any part

3043
08:19:31.000 --> 08:19:31.919
of your body.

3044
08:19:33.599 --> 08:19:34.479
Let it go.

3045
08:19:38.000 --> 08:20:02.720
At everything averything, so peaceful, calm, so relax very second

3046
08:20:03.479 --> 08:20:27.080
the passes you feel d DPA relaxed, DPA and dper

3047
08:20:28.200 --> 08:20:35.880
relax car so cal.

3048
08:20:39.919 --> 08:20:41.599
Bce for.

3049
08:20:44.400 --> 08:20:47.520
So very peace.

3050
08:20:50.599 --> 08:21:01.000
Your head bound to your ties, such peace like comfort.

3051
08:21:02.919 --> 08:21:06.279
Growing all all the time.

3052
08:21:08.919 --> 08:21:24.959
Search peace and comfort spreading through your body, your mind deeper, deeper,

3053
08:21:27.840 --> 08:21:41.080
search comfort, spreading and sinking deeper into ay muscle of

3054
08:21:41.319 --> 08:21:58.840
your body. Sudenly you feel amazing, so relaxed, so pa,

3055
08:21:59.080 --> 08:22:24.759
so so peaceful, letting go everything. Going to do a

3056
08:22:24.959 --> 08:22:32.680
body scan, focusing on firstly how you feel in your body,

3057
08:22:33.840 --> 08:22:39.439
Not trying to change how you feel, not trying to relax,

3058
08:22:40.720 --> 08:22:45.720
not trying to move away from any discomfort or stress

3059
08:22:45.919 --> 08:22:53.360
or tension. Just accepting, observing and accepting how you feel

3060
08:22:54.360 --> 08:22:59.279
in the different parts of your body, Just allowing yourself

3061
08:23:00.680 --> 08:23:08.119
to be exactly as you are, to notice, to get

3062
08:23:08.200 --> 08:23:16.799
in touch with how you actually feel in this moment.

3063
08:23:20.319 --> 08:23:26.799
I'm going to start off by focusing on your hands.

3064
08:23:31.400 --> 08:23:39.119
Just be aware of your hands. I'd like you to

3065
08:23:39.319 --> 08:23:44.279
move your hands around, just maybe move your fingers a

3066
08:23:44.360 --> 08:23:50.720
little bit. I've been enclosing in your hands very gently,

3067
08:23:52.360 --> 08:23:57.319
just so that you can get in touch with.

3068
08:23:57.880 --> 08:23:59.319
How your hands.

3069
08:24:01.400 --> 08:24:21.720
And your fingers fell, very very slow movements. Focusing now

3070
08:24:22.599 --> 08:24:29.840
on your feet, and if you can just do kind

3071
08:24:29.840 --> 08:24:34.560
of an equivalent with your feet is you've just done

3072
08:24:34.799 --> 08:24:42.720
with your hands, Maybe turn in your ankles, moving your

3073
08:24:42.840 --> 08:24:54.720
feet around, moving your toes gently, only very gently and

3074
08:24:55.000 --> 08:25:06.599
very slowly, noticing that how your feet feel in this moment.

3075
08:25:13.520 --> 08:25:15.520
Focusing now and your eyes.

3076
08:25:18.520 --> 08:25:19.680
I'd like you to just.

3077
08:25:21.319 --> 08:25:27.119
Focus on your eyelids. Maybe you can open and close

3078
08:25:27.200 --> 08:25:31.400
your eyes a couple of times to really get in

3079
08:25:31.599 --> 08:25:35.720
touch with how you feel when you do close your eyes.

3080
08:25:37.840 --> 08:25:44.240
The muscle changes in your eyes when you do close them,

3081
08:25:47.080 --> 08:25:53.479
maybe raising your eyebrows, it stretches the tops of your eyes,

3082
08:25:56.720 --> 08:26:04.119
perhaps squint in your eyes, scrunching up your eyes.

3083
08:26:04.959 --> 08:26:05.759
Just so you can.

3084
08:26:07.119 --> 08:26:17.040
Heally get in touch with all aspects of how your

3085
08:26:17.119 --> 08:26:18.279
eyes feel.

3086
08:26:21.040 --> 08:26:21.680
Right now.

3087
08:26:30.880 --> 08:26:36.680
Now focusing on your thighs, and then you know it

3088
08:26:36.840 --> 08:26:43.119
just starts you to gently tense your thighs, just very

3089
08:26:44.599 --> 08:26:56.400
very gently, just enough so you can become more attuned

3090
08:26:57.959 --> 08:27:06.680
to the physical cause sensation of your upper legs, the

3091
08:27:06.799 --> 08:27:09.799
front of your thighs, and the backs of your thigh,

3092
08:27:14.360 --> 08:27:33.759
noticing and observing how your thighs feel right now, moving

3093
08:27:34.000 --> 08:27:42.400
your focus to the back of your neck. Just noticing

3094
08:27:42.599 --> 08:27:48.639
the back of your neck the muscles, and of course

3095
08:27:48.799 --> 08:27:53.080
they lead to the side of your neck. They also

3096
08:27:53.400 --> 08:27:58.240
lead to the top of your back, which leads to

3097
08:27:58.319 --> 08:28:03.840
your shoulders. So as you focus on the back of

3098
08:28:03.919 --> 08:28:11.319
your neck, maybe you can move your head gently upwards

3099
08:28:12.479 --> 08:28:18.439
as if you're looking up. Maybe moving your head down

3100
08:28:19.880 --> 08:28:26.479
as if you're looking down. Perhaps moving your head side

3101
08:28:26.680 --> 08:28:39.080
to sign it right to left, only very slowly, very gently.

3102
08:28:41.560 --> 08:28:46.759
I'm not trying to force anything. It has to be

3103
08:28:47.279 --> 08:28:55.639
very very gentle, just so you can.

3104
08:28:57.200 --> 08:28:58.799
Be more.

3105
08:29:00.439 --> 08:29:09.080
In touch with the feelings, with the sensations of the

3106
08:29:09.360 --> 08:29:18.200
physical sensations of how the back of your neck feels.

3107
08:29:19.959 --> 08:29:35.360
Right now, as we now focus on the tops of

3108
08:29:35.479 --> 08:29:41.759
your arms, the parts where your biceps and your triceps

3109
08:29:41.799 --> 08:29:49.840
are between your elbow and your shoulders. To focus on

3110
08:29:50.119 --> 08:29:57.319
those parts, the tops of your arms, you may like

3111
08:29:57.439 --> 08:30:06.959
to just tense them, but very very gently and slowly,

3112
08:30:09.520 --> 08:30:17.479
so you're not straining or putting any pressure whatsoever.

3113
08:30:18.400 --> 08:30:19.319
On your arms.

3114
08:30:22.000 --> 08:30:29.759
It's just slowly you can gain more of a sense of.

3115
08:30:31.639 --> 08:30:34.479
How your upper arms.

3116
08:30:35.720 --> 08:30:47.599
Are feeling in this moment, Just noticing as you gently,

3117
08:30:49.759 --> 08:30:57.720
very gently and slowly tighten the muscles.

3118
08:30:58.560 --> 08:30:59.360
And then let go.

3119
08:31:03.639 --> 08:31:12.040
Notice how the tops of your arms feel right now.

3120
08:31:20.200 --> 08:31:31.400
As now focus when your stomach, the area the lower

3121
08:31:31.560 --> 08:31:37.720
abdomen area below your belly button, moving all the way

3122
08:31:37.840 --> 08:31:51.680
down to your hips, just above your grind. Maybe you're

3123
08:31:51.720 --> 08:32:01.560
able to tense these muscles in the area very very

3124
08:32:01.720 --> 08:32:14.639
gently and slowly. If that's a difficult thing to do,

3125
08:32:16.080 --> 08:32:25.080
maybe you can just remove your body, pushing your stomach up,

3126
08:32:26.799 --> 08:32:30.639
maybe moving a little bit of a side using your hips,

3127
08:32:32.799 --> 08:32:33.479
just so.

3128
08:32:35.240 --> 08:32:36.319
Get more.

3129
08:32:37.759 --> 08:32:39.040
In tune.

3130
08:32:40.439 --> 08:32:49.799
With how you're lower up to an area his feeling

3131
08:32:52.599 --> 08:33:10.159
in this moment. Just noticing the physical sensations or your

3132
08:33:10.360 --> 08:33:12.119
lower abdomen.

3133
08:33:22.479 --> 08:33:23.479
As you move.

3134
08:33:25.240 --> 08:33:38.319
Your attention to your mouth, notice in your lips and

3135
08:33:38.560 --> 08:33:56.439
inside your mouth, your teeth, your guns, your tongue, Just

3136
08:33:56.720 --> 08:34:05.000
noticing how are your time and your mouth feels. It

3137
08:34:05.159 --> 08:34:14.200
may help by moving your tongue around your mouth, moving

3138
08:34:14.240 --> 08:34:21.639
it to your left, maybe pressing it gently against the

3139
08:34:21.919 --> 08:34:28.080
side of your mouth, and then to the right, gently

3140
08:34:28.599 --> 08:34:35.279
to the side of your mouth, perhaps pressing up against

3141
08:34:35.400 --> 08:34:43.400
the top of your mouth and then down gently against

3142
08:34:43.520 --> 08:34:54.000
the bottom of your mouth, always very slowly and a

3143
08:34:54.599 --> 08:34:58.720
very very gentle.

3144
08:35:03.200 --> 08:35:04.400
So that you can.

3145
08:35:08.000 --> 08:35:31.639
Be aware of how you feel in your mouth area. No,

3146
08:35:36.240 --> 08:35:52.400
get to focus on your wrists, and I'll ask you

3147
08:35:52.840 --> 08:36:01.599
to maybe just routine your wrists by moving your hands

3148
08:36:03.000 --> 08:36:15.880
in a circular motion very gently and slowly, just so

3149
08:36:16.639 --> 08:36:37.319
you can feel the sensations that you are currently experiencing

3150
08:36:37.959 --> 08:36:48.959
in your wrists. Perhaps move in your hands.

3151
08:36:50.200 --> 08:36:51.720
Up and down.

3152
08:36:54.119 --> 08:37:21.560
Again very very gently and slowly, Harry chance and slower.

3153
08:37:35.560 --> 08:37:52.599
Now start to observe you lower back. The back part

3154
08:37:52.880 --> 08:38:02.680
is just above of your hips, where your coxis are

3155
08:38:10.159 --> 08:38:16.360
a whole area which also really does include the side

3156
08:38:17.319 --> 08:38:22.799
of your body, because those muscles are very much connected

3157
08:38:28.119 --> 08:38:34.919
as those muscles also move into your hip aia connect

3158
08:38:35.040 --> 08:38:50.240
into your buttocks the sides of your hips. And if

3159
08:38:50.319 --> 08:38:59.680
you're physically able to do so, maybe you can very

3160
08:39:00.119 --> 08:39:15.279
gently just move your body evices slightly, very slowly, some

3161
08:39:15.720 --> 08:39:33.200
side to side, just enough ye to gauge how you

3162
08:39:33.520 --> 08:39:50.919
feel in your lower back. Perhaps secretly even move your

3163
08:39:51.119 --> 08:39:52.880
hips gently.

3164
08:39:54.720 --> 08:39:55.680
Up and down.

3165
08:39:59.200 --> 08:40:11.479
Gently, in slowly in order to really be in touch

3166
08:40:14.159 --> 08:40:18.599
with the physical sensations.

3167
08:40:19.000 --> 08:40:20.159
Of your lower back.

3168
08:40:37.159 --> 08:40:44.759
Between know your attention.

3169
08:40:48.200 --> 08:40:49.479
To your jewel.

3170
08:40:52.400 --> 08:40:56.560
An area for your chin all the way up.

3171
08:40:58.000 --> 08:41:04.560
To me are your ears are, oh of your jaw,

3172
08:41:14.840 --> 08:41:15.319
you can.

3173
08:41:15.439 --> 08:41:24.240
Just it's okay to do so. Gently open your mouth

3174
08:41:27.159 --> 08:41:38.599
nor wide. No stretching, just very gently and slowly open

3175
08:41:38.759 --> 08:41:50.799
in your mouth and closing your mouth very gently and

3176
08:41:51.439 --> 08:42:46.479
slowly pain touch with how your joy feels. To sit

3177
08:42:46.720 --> 08:43:04.639
down just around you don't need to do anything to

3178
08:43:04.880 --> 08:43:11.439
move your chest because it moves every time you breathe.

3179
08:43:16.759 --> 08:43:30.680
It moves very gently and slowly automatically with each breath

3180
08:43:31.040 --> 08:43:51.040
you take. As you focus on how your chest feels

3181
08:43:56.319 --> 08:44:33.680
when you breathe, betin your focus to your forms with

3182
08:44:33.840 --> 08:44:47.159
your elbows. Maybe you're able to very gently.

3183
08:44:48.560 --> 08:44:50.279
And slowly.

3184
08:44:52.439 --> 08:45:01.000
Dance the muscles in your forms, and when you do that,

3185
08:45:01.520 --> 08:45:25.080
you can feel your elbows as well, very gently and slowly,

3186
08:45:33.520 --> 08:46:13.439
gently and softly absurding your forums and helpers. Make a

3187
08:46:13.759 --> 08:46:32.400
focus the rest of your back, your upper back and

3188
08:46:32.799 --> 08:46:50.759
the middle the middle of your back. Again, this part

3189
08:46:50.959 --> 08:47:05.560
of your body moves also every time you pray. You

3190
08:47:05.880 --> 08:47:19.599
may not notice that usually why should upset your upper

3191
08:47:19.799 --> 08:47:27.159
back In the middle of your back, you can really

3192
08:47:27.759 --> 08:48:25.400
feel that gentle and slom mate in your focus into

3193
08:48:25.479 --> 08:48:38.959
your hip area, buttecks gray. There's a muscle as a

3194
08:48:39.080 --> 08:49:17.040
nose bones in your midsection. Just noticing how your hips.

3195
08:49:19.240 --> 08:49:19.520
Feel.

3196
08:49:22.720 --> 08:49:40.560
Right now, you can very very gently move your hips

3197
08:49:45.479 --> 08:49:50.959
maybe side to side very gently and.

3198
08:49:53.959 --> 08:50:24.959
S yeah, yeah, softly.

3199
08:50:32.720 --> 08:50:56.040
M's everything starts to slow down, including the thoughts in

3200
08:50:56.159 --> 08:51:06.159
your mind and your mind itself just starts to gradually.

3201
08:51:08.119 --> 08:51:14.720
It doesn't have to be instant, but just gradually starting too.

3202
08:51:16.040 --> 08:51:24.799
It's almost like time is string chin. It's a slower

3203
08:51:24.959 --> 08:51:32.840
pace to maybe what you're used to in your day

3204
08:51:32.919 --> 08:51:54.919
to day life. It's a slower movement of energy, very

3205
08:51:59.279 --> 08:52:07.759
small movements which make up the larger movements, which is

3206
08:52:07.799 --> 08:52:15.560
always the case. Now, when you move your hand, it

3207
08:52:15.680 --> 08:52:18.439
might seem like it's one movement, but it's lots of

3208
08:52:19.240 --> 08:52:26.639
minute different muscles moving in accordance with each other. And

3209
08:52:31.639 --> 08:52:43.959
what happens in this space that we're sharing is we

3210
08:52:44.200 --> 08:53:05.080
move from that big movement into those smaller movements, starting

3211
08:53:05.240 --> 08:53:16.080
to focus on how your body feels, not just as

3212
08:53:16.119 --> 08:53:20.400
a whole, not just oh i'm feel in this way.

3213
08:53:20.520 --> 08:53:26.599
I'm feeling stressed or tense, or I'm feeling relaxed and calm.

3214
08:53:27.919 --> 08:53:34.520
I'm feeling this way, I'm feeling that way. Starting to

3215
08:53:34.759 --> 08:53:45.959
notice that your body begins to present to you small

3216
08:53:47.080 --> 08:54:03.439
feelings around your body, small physical sensations in your legs,

3217
08:54:06.200 --> 08:54:19.400
whether pleasurable or not. Maybe resisting the temptation to label

3218
08:54:19.520 --> 08:54:29.040
them or to judge them, those feelings, just thinking them,

3219
08:54:29.959 --> 08:54:42.919
thinking about them is just being neutral, just feelings, not

3220
08:54:43.119 --> 08:54:54.799
being particularly concerned, just noticing what your body is telling you.

3221
08:55:02.759 --> 08:55:09.040
Feelings in your arms, instead of feeling the whole of

3222
08:55:09.159 --> 08:55:20.599
the arm, Maybe notice those individual feelings, all those different muscles.

3223
08:55:20.240 --> 08:55:32.959
And the skin, the hairs of your arms, all.

3224
08:55:32.799 --> 08:55:46.599
The internal parts of your arms, the veins, the bones,

3225
08:55:49.520 --> 08:55:55.520
just being aware of maybe your elbow on your right

3226
08:55:55.720 --> 08:56:03.880
arm has a certain feeling, then maybe your left wrist

3227
08:56:06.040 --> 08:56:28.959
also has its own individual physical sensation. What about your

3228
08:56:29.080 --> 08:56:42.720
forearm on your right arm, your right forearm, there may

3229
08:56:42.840 --> 08:56:50.720
not be any particular feeling that you could even give

3230
08:56:50.759 --> 08:56:57.880
a name to, may not feel like anything other than

3231
08:56:58.080 --> 08:57:09.119
just a feeling. Yeah, it's there. The feelings in your shoulders,

3232
08:57:11.959 --> 08:57:15.720
perhaps your shoulders when you think about them, kind of

3233
08:57:15.759 --> 08:57:20.799
almost like they're the same, you know, the same feeling,

3234
08:57:22.639 --> 08:57:25.959
almost like you both of your shoulders are just one thing.

3235
08:57:27.759 --> 08:57:38.840
Of course, they're not. And when you focus on your

3236
08:57:38.959 --> 08:57:47.159
left shoulder and then on your right shoulder, maybe find

3237
08:57:47.360 --> 08:57:52.720
that you move the muscles a little bit, maybe tense

3238
08:57:52.840 --> 08:58:06.880
the muscles gently. Notice see the difference in each shoulder,

3239
08:58:18.279 --> 08:58:34.119
your lower back, the left side of your lower back

3240
08:58:34.319 --> 08:58:45.720
and the right side of your lower back. Of course

3241
08:58:45.840 --> 08:58:58.040
that connection to your buttocks and to your hips, and

3242
08:58:58.200 --> 08:59:11.560
also moving up into the middle of your back. And

3243
08:59:11.759 --> 08:59:16.319
sometimes like right now, actually when I focus on their part,

3244
08:59:17.680 --> 08:59:22.080
when I focused on my buttocks and then I focused

3245
08:59:22.119 --> 08:59:26.240
on the middle of my back, I almost felt like

3246
08:59:26.439 --> 08:59:31.200
the muscles in my lower back were being stretched very gently,

3247
08:59:35.959 --> 08:59:41.240
just stretched a little bit. Even though I wasn't doing

3248
08:59:41.360 --> 08:59:50.119
anything to try to stretch your lower back, it just

3249
08:59:50.200 --> 09:00:00.319
seemed to happen. The feeling of very gently stretch chin

3250
09:00:02.360 --> 09:00:21.680
your lower back comes along. I have feeling in your chest,

3251
09:00:29.279 --> 09:00:42.680
just noticing what sensations you are experiencing in your chest

3252
09:00:42.959 --> 09:00:58.799
right now. And there's so much of the chest of

3253
09:00:58.799 --> 09:01:02.759
obviously there's the column bone lead into the chest. You've

3254
09:01:02.799 --> 09:01:11.560
got the chest bone, You've got the muscles in your chest.

3255
09:01:14.360 --> 09:01:20.439
Of course, if you're female, there's possibly the breasts. If

3256
09:01:20.479 --> 09:01:28.599
you're male, you've got the different well, why not that

3257
09:01:28.759 --> 09:01:29.560
different these days?

3258
09:01:29.599 --> 09:01:33.000
But there may be more.

3259
09:01:34.720 --> 09:01:41.000
Muscles at the top of the chest, but at the

3260
09:01:41.200 --> 09:01:46.080
side underneath it's pretty much the same. Whether you're a

3261
09:01:46.159 --> 09:01:51.200
man or a woman. There's muscles there, muscles that stretch

3262
09:01:51.279 --> 09:01:56.880
out to your back as well as breast tissue stretches

3263
09:01:57.479 --> 09:02:04.759
and moves into your back. To just being aware of

3264
09:02:04.840 --> 09:02:25.880
your chest, being with whatever feeling there is in your chest.

3265
09:02:41.400 --> 09:02:48.959
And when I noticed, I'll focus on my chest. I

3266
09:02:49.240 --> 09:02:54.240
feel it in my back, my upper back. I mean,

3267
09:02:54.279 --> 09:02:57.200
I guess the obvious reason would be because you know,

3268
09:02:57.240 --> 09:03:07.560
I'm breath in hm in. Then it stretches my chest

3269
09:03:07.919 --> 09:03:21.439
and my back at the same time. It feels it

3270
09:03:21.520 --> 09:03:33.279
feels okay, doesn't feel I got a little bit of

3271
09:03:33.400 --> 09:03:40.119
pain in my right chest, a little bit, not pain,

3272
09:03:40.319 --> 09:03:50.240
but little discomfort, maybe stiffness possibly, I don't know. I

3273
09:03:50.400 --> 09:03:58.479
notice my shoulders also wanting to flex for some reason.

3274
09:04:00.639 --> 09:04:08.040
I think that's probably part of my upper back, that

3275
09:04:08.240 --> 09:04:13.319
connection between my shoulders my upper back, because I can

3276
09:04:13.400 --> 09:04:18.200
move my shoulders and stretch the muscles in my back,

3277
09:04:20.720 --> 09:04:26.639
moving the shoulders backwards or up, which then moves the

3278
09:04:27.200 --> 09:04:29.479
I think it's the scapulous.

3279
09:04:31.360 --> 09:04:31.959
In your back.

3280
09:04:42.000 --> 09:04:49.680
It feels quite nice. Actually, a good thing about this

3281
09:04:50.000 --> 09:04:54.759
is you can, if you want to, you can just

3282
09:04:58.319 --> 09:05:10.040
flex or stimulate the various muscles in your body gently

3283
09:05:11.479 --> 09:05:14.919
in order to get more of a sense of how

3284
09:05:15.040 --> 09:05:29.919
they feel. And when you're relaxing, when you do tense

3285
09:05:30.000 --> 09:05:33.919
and muscle, then you let it go and you let

3286
09:05:34.000 --> 09:05:43.000
it relax. It relaxes way more than it would normally.

3287
09:05:47.919 --> 09:05:50.200
But you have to feel.

3288
09:05:52.080 --> 09:05:53.200
That you're able to do that.

3289
09:05:54.840 --> 09:05:58.599
There's no point in doing it if there's an issue

3290
09:06:00.520 --> 09:06:06.000
with the per part of your body. You need to

3291
09:06:06.080 --> 09:06:16.480
be gentle with yourself at all times when relaxing deeply,

3292
09:06:19.519 --> 09:06:34.720
It's important to be kind to yourself. As you notice

3293
09:06:34.919 --> 09:06:46.000
your mind. How much has your mind slowed down since

3294
09:06:46.120 --> 09:07:12.519
we started this recording, How came and peaceful is your

3295
09:07:12.599 --> 09:07:24.720
mind right now? We have nothing to think about and

3296
09:07:25.040 --> 09:07:32.440
just my voice to listen to. Because you know the

3297
09:07:32.639 --> 09:07:43.360
intention behind this recording, this relaxation. At the very least,

3298
09:07:44.919 --> 09:07:49.480
for you to feel more relaxed at the end of

3299
09:07:49.519 --> 09:07:57.720
the recording than you did at the beginning. At the

3300
09:07:57.919 --> 09:08:09.559
very least, fe your mind to slow down because your

3301
09:08:09.680 --> 09:08:26.040
body continues to relax, because that's what you want to happen.

3302
09:08:30.000 --> 09:08:33.000
That's what you expect.

3303
09:08:36.599 --> 09:08:37.519
To happen.

3304
09:08:43.279 --> 09:09:01.000
For relaxation to fill your body. May be calm in

3305
09:09:01.080 --> 09:09:09.599
your mind to the point of boredom. When you start

3306
09:09:09.959 --> 09:09:53.360
maybe to drift away, drifting, it's almost as if you're

3307
09:09:56.680 --> 09:10:04.879
moving further away from your body in your mind, just

3308
09:10:05.199 --> 09:10:17.000
leaving that there, kind of liking it an escape pod

3309
09:10:17.760 --> 09:10:21.959
in the spaceship and a movie, a space movie, you know,

3310
09:10:22.080 --> 09:10:26.000
when they get into a little part in it. Since

3311
09:10:26.080 --> 09:10:42.199
the month far away from the spaceship, safe to dream

3312
09:10:50.720 --> 09:12:09.879
and continue to relax, drifting size and peace so real

3313
09:12:23.199 --> 09:12:57.839
and peaceful, and focusing on that feeding of those individual

3314
09:12:58.279 --> 09:13:06.080
parts of your body that or relaxing.

3315
09:13:07.360 --> 09:13:08.080
One by one.

3316
09:13:15.760 --> 09:13:16.319
You may.

3317
09:13:18.000 --> 09:13:19.000
Find that.

3318
09:13:23.319 --> 09:13:24.559
Every now and then.

3319
09:13:27.279 --> 09:13:38.160
You realize that you weren't listening to my voice. Be

3320
09:13:38.279 --> 09:13:49.839
gives your mind started to imagine something different, maybe started

3321
09:13:50.000 --> 09:13:58.519
to almost move into some kind of a dreamy state,

3322
09:14:03.400 --> 09:14:09.680
and then you become aware of my voice again. And

3323
09:14:09.839 --> 09:14:16.239
even though you may want to focus on my voice,

3324
09:14:16.919 --> 09:14:24.319
you may also wish to allow your mind to just

3325
09:14:24.680 --> 09:14:44.559
drift naturally into that space of comfort and safety. As

3326
09:14:44.639 --> 09:15:02.120
you feel more comfort spreading through your body like a

3327
09:15:02.319 --> 09:15:16.720
warm blanket covering you, champing, keeping your body at just

3328
09:15:19.400 --> 09:15:36.919
the perfect temperature, and even if you can hear background sounds,

3329
09:15:42.480 --> 09:15:54.839
they just don't seem to matter anymore. There's that sense

3330
09:15:54.959 --> 09:16:11.319
of peace spreads through your mind like a gentle breeze,

3331
09:16:14.319 --> 09:16:27.000
yet strong enough to blow away all negativity, strong enough

3332
09:16:27.120 --> 09:16:40.440
to remove from your mind any anxiety or stress that

3333
09:16:40.720 --> 09:16:54.959
was there before, and blow away any other thoughts or

3334
09:16:55.239 --> 09:17:16.639
feelings that just don't fit with the sense relaxation, that

3335
09:17:21.800 --> 09:17:47.160
is feeling your body and your mind. Unless you focus

3336
09:17:47.400 --> 09:17:54.040
on your mind and countdown from ten down to one,

3337
09:17:55.400 --> 09:18:05.800
and with each number you hear, your mind will become

3338
09:18:11.839 --> 09:18:31.440
slightly more relaxed, just just slightly so, from ten down

3339
09:18:31.559 --> 09:18:38.639
to nine, just a slight movement. From nine down to eight,

3340
09:18:39.879 --> 09:18:56.319
just another small change in how you feel. Eight down

3341
09:18:56.440 --> 09:19:05.080
to seven feeling is a gap, almost like a gap

3342
09:19:05.239 --> 09:19:13.599
that starts to get wider, the gap between those feelings

3343
09:19:15.279 --> 09:19:22.199
that you used to have in your mind compared to

3344
09:19:22.400 --> 09:19:29.760
the feelings you have there growing now, feelings of comfort

3345
09:19:30.080 --> 09:19:41.680
and security and confidence, and the gap becomes wider. Make

3346
09:19:41.839 --> 09:19:48.800
down to seven, seven down to six, and when you

3347
09:19:48.839 --> 09:19:55.199
get to five, your mind will start to have a

3348
09:19:55.680 --> 09:20:08.839
certain physical sensation, most like there's a magnet outside of

3349
09:20:08.959 --> 09:20:15.160
your head, sucking the tension and the stress and any

3350
09:20:15.239 --> 09:20:22.800
remaining feelings that you don't want, sucking them out through

3351
09:20:22.879 --> 09:20:33.440
your skull, and in down to four you could start

3352
09:20:33.599 --> 09:20:42.599
to really experience that sense of not just emptiness, but space,

3353
09:20:47.959 --> 09:20:56.919
a place full of fresh air, place where you can stretch.

3354
09:21:00.400 --> 09:21:03.040
It's almost as if as you go down to four

3355
09:21:03.839 --> 09:21:10.000
and three, your mind is expanding, with this sense.

3356
09:21:12.639 --> 09:21:14.000
Of peace.

3357
09:21:15.319 --> 09:21:25.639
And tranquility growing as it moves down to When you

3358
09:21:25.760 --> 09:21:34.959
get to one, in your mind just feels exactly how

3359
09:21:35.120 --> 09:21:55.040
you want to feel, almost perfect, fearing, maybe a sensation

3360
09:21:55.519 --> 09:22:04.680
that you'd like to keep, a place that's safe, where

3361
09:22:06.239 --> 09:22:25.199
nothing can affect you at all, and you can stay

3362
09:22:25.279 --> 09:22:34.040
in that that space of comfort and confidence, confident in

3363
09:22:34.199 --> 09:22:42.319
your own ability to create this space and this feeling

3364
09:22:42.599 --> 09:22:49.720
of comfort within your own mind just by counting ten.

3365
09:22:51.360 --> 09:22:52.040
Down to one.

3366
09:22:56.599 --> 09:23:01.120
And this is something that you can do yourself when

3367
09:23:01.199 --> 09:23:08.440
you're on your own the time, when you can maybe

3368
09:23:08.680 --> 09:23:17.279
sit down, maybe just for a few minutes, close your eyes.

3369
09:23:20.839 --> 09:23:32.440
It just counts slowly from ten down to one and

3370
09:23:32.680 --> 09:23:45.360
re experience these feelings in your mind. And when you

3371
09:23:45.599 --> 09:23:55.120
feel that way in your mind, your body copies your

3372
09:23:55.239 --> 09:24:06.959
mind and then feeling. It's spread through your spine and

3373
09:24:07.199 --> 09:24:14.639
a nervous system into every part of your body, travels

3374
09:24:15.080 --> 09:24:28.360
through your blood stream, heathing and relaxing every article of

3375
09:24:28.480 --> 09:24:46.239
your existence. And we can practice this a few times

3376
09:24:50.959 --> 09:24:53.919
before the end of the recording, and then you can

3377
09:24:55.440 --> 09:25:01.519
practice on your own. And each time you count from

3378
09:25:01.680 --> 09:25:16.440
ten about one, the feelings of comfort, calmness, deep deep

3379
09:25:17.040 --> 09:25:34.080
relaxation becomes stronger and deeper feeling your mind and your brain.

3380
09:25:35.720 --> 09:25:45.319
With these positive chemicals, the spread throughout your body, relaxing

3381
09:25:45.440 --> 09:25:56.319
you so quickly, relaxing your whole body and mind, so

3382
09:25:56.800 --> 09:26:04.559
very very easy, just by counting.

3383
09:26:05.599 --> 09:26:06.480
From ten.

3384
09:26:09.120 --> 09:26:09.919
Down to one.

3385
09:26:14.919 --> 09:26:16.319
That's we're going to do it now.

3386
09:26:17.199 --> 09:26:21.120
I'm going to count from ten down to one. I'd

3387
09:26:21.319 --> 09:26:25.639
like you to repeat the number after me. So when

3388
09:26:25.680 --> 09:26:34.239
I say ten, you can just repeat to yourself ten.

3389
09:26:39.879 --> 09:26:49.199
Just notice, be aware of how you feel in your

3390
09:26:49.360 --> 09:26:58.879
mind and your body. And when I say nine, you

3391
09:26:59.000 --> 09:27:01.519
can repeat to yourself.

3392
09:27:04.480 --> 09:27:04.760
Nine.

3393
09:27:08.760 --> 09:27:19.959
Became noticing the increase in comfort and calmness in your

3394
09:27:20.160 --> 09:27:30.760
mind and in your body, the same when I say eight,

3395
09:27:33.800 --> 09:27:45.360
when I say seven, six, when I say five, four,

3396
09:27:49.360 --> 09:28:01.360
when I say three, two. Lastly, want to say one,

3397
09:28:03.760 --> 09:28:05.839
you can repeat that number.

3398
09:28:13.319 --> 09:28:13.440
Now.

3399
09:28:13.559 --> 09:28:17.160
Of course, when you do this on your.

3400
09:28:17.080 --> 09:28:23.519
Own without listening to me, you can say the numbers

3401
09:28:23.760 --> 09:28:32.319
or whatever speed that you feel is necessary for you,

3402
09:28:34.080 --> 09:28:39.040
so you can adapt. So if you feel you want

3403
09:28:39.080 --> 09:28:41.559
to say the numbers.

3404
09:28:41.360 --> 09:28:43.080
Ten down to one.

3405
09:28:44.720 --> 09:28:49.279
Faster than I do, then you go ahead and do that.

3406
09:28:50.199 --> 09:28:53.879
Or if you feel when you do it yourself that

3407
09:28:54.000 --> 09:28:59.919
you'd like to have more more space between the numbers,

3408
09:29:02.599 --> 09:29:09.120
maybe take a lot longer to get from ten all

3409
09:29:09.480 --> 09:29:17.559
the way down to one, that's your choice also to do.

3410
09:29:27.559 --> 09:29:36.040
So I'm gonna count from ten down to one, and

3411
09:29:36.199 --> 09:29:39.480
when I get to one, that will be the end

3412
09:29:40.120 --> 09:29:45.760
of this recording. The less, of course, you're listening with music,

3413
09:29:47.000 --> 09:34:59.279
then the music will continue. Ten nine eight, twenty, nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen,

3414
09:35:03.279 --> 09:35:54.080
thirty twelve eleven, ten nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three.

3415
09:35:58.839 --> 09:36:05.720
Two one.

3416
09:36:14.160 --> 09:36:24.480
Now open your eyes, noticing how you physically feel having

3417
09:36:24.599 --> 09:36:32.199
counted down from twenty to one, allowing stress and tension

3418
09:36:32.720 --> 09:36:37.360
to leave through your fingertips and your toast. And as

3419
09:36:37.400 --> 09:36:42.080
you focus on your fingertips maybe they feel a little

3420
09:36:42.120 --> 09:36:49.319
bit tingling, which is I suppose quite understanding, considering the

3421
09:36:49.480 --> 09:37:00.319
tension has been exiting your body through your fingertips. So

3422
09:37:00.440 --> 09:37:02.879
now I'm going to count from twenty down to one again.

3423
09:37:03.360 --> 09:37:12.400
This time you can feel relief of tension and stress,

3424
09:37:13.800 --> 09:37:23.559
any anxiety that you may have leaving through your stomach,

3425
09:37:26.160 --> 09:37:29.839
just leaving through your stomach, almost as if it's just

3426
09:37:30.919 --> 09:37:38.000
releasing the whole of your stomach. You'll navel to just

3427
09:37:38.120 --> 09:37:42.319
above your chest or below your chest, rather so surrounding

3428
09:37:42.440 --> 09:37:47.080
your belly by an area, the whole area. You can

3429
09:37:47.279 --> 09:37:53.160
feel the tension of your body wherever's left, just releasing

3430
09:37:54.360 --> 09:37:57.680
from the area, and you may notice that your stomach

3431
09:37:57.720 --> 09:38:05.000
would become very relaxed. As my countdown from twenty down

3432
09:38:05.080 --> 09:38:47.599
to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen,

3433
09:38:51.639 --> 09:39:01.279
twelve eleven, dad.

3434
09:39:05.440 --> 09:39:32.160
Nine eight, seven, six, five, four, three.

3435
09:39:36.400 --> 09:39:41.959
Two what.

3436
09:39:47.080 --> 09:39:49.680
You can open your eyes again if you choose, or

3437
09:39:49.720 --> 09:39:53.279
you can just keep them closed because it feels relaxing.

3438
09:39:55.599 --> 09:40:00.720
Just notice saying his stomach feels Notice as your focus.

3439
09:40:00.959 --> 09:40:06.319
Just do a little scan of your body, just noticing

3440
09:40:06.480 --> 09:40:19.319
your body feels focusing. Bring upper body back, chest, stomach, legs, arms, hands, feet,

3441
09:40:22.360 --> 09:40:29.279
just noticing, and you know you may start to feel

3442
09:40:31.760 --> 09:40:35.559
more of a sense of tiredness, which may be the

3443
09:40:35.680 --> 09:40:43.839
reason listening to this recording, because you like to let

3444
09:40:44.000 --> 09:40:55.559
go completely of everything and drift or off into a nice, natural, calm,

3445
09:40:55.959 --> 09:41:11.160
relaxing sleep. So now we're going to focus on your forehead,

3446
09:41:15.080 --> 09:41:17.839
and if you choose, you can incorporate your eyes in

3447
09:41:18.000 --> 09:41:22.599
this focus as well. Put your forehead in your eyes.

3448
09:41:24.680 --> 09:41:29.120
It's that whole area basically, almost as if you were

3449
09:41:29.160 --> 09:41:30.400
wearing a mask.

3450
09:41:30.239 --> 09:41:30.879
You know, like a.

3451
09:41:32.839 --> 09:41:38.239
I don't know, a Batman mask or something, or I'm

3452
09:41:38.279 --> 09:41:41.000
trying to fin sorrow or something, you know, the kind

3453
09:41:41.040 --> 09:41:41.400
of mask