April 11, 2025

(music) (10 hours) Q&A Friday | Let me bore you to sleep #1325 | 11th April 2025

(music) (10 hours) Q&A Friday | Let me bore you to sleep #1325 | 11th April 2025
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Hello, and welcome to CUE and Cunie Cune Friday, Cooney Cooney,

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Cumbere Friday. My name's Jason Newland. This is Jason Newland

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dot com. Please don'tly listen someone who can safely close

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your eyes. It is eleventh what Friday? The eleventh of

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April two thousand and twenty five. Now little problem. No,

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I'm not talking about that. I'm talking about this what

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I don't really know what to do today because because

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because because because of the wonderful things he does, I

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haven't really had any questions hardly. Now does that mean

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we're at the end of the Q and A Friday?

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Does that mean that's kind of it now we'd sort

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of stop doing them? Or I don't know. I don't

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know what the what the solution is, if I'm honest.

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So I do have a couple of questions, but and

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I realized one question can take me the whole session.

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But the idea, what's going on? What's that? Or right? Okay?

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So maybe my problem is I posted them on all

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the different pages instead of just on the Jason Newlands

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Boring group on Facebook. But I posted, like the any questions.

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I think the two things that have been problematic is

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first of all, I have produced probably too many recordings

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in a sense that the post hello, do you have

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any questions for this sex q? And a Friday, eleventh

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of April twenty twenty five, which I posted on the

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ninth Wednesday, has got kind of hidden by all the

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other posts that I posted, because you know I've done.

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I did three recordings yesterday. This will be the second

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one today. I did two the day before that, two

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the day before that. So yes, quite a few, I guess.

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So I'm thinking what can I do to cover that?

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So I've got questions from Hillary where in high landage

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of visit? And I've got another question from Sebastian. Oh,

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that wasn't a question. Will podcast when? Don't make me

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start on my own? So he didn't. I didn't ask

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a question. He posted a picture of do you know?

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On YouTube? But what on Facebook at the moment is

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all these pictures of like action figures done by AI

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and people are doing their own ones. Well, he's done

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for me, and it says Uncle Smellie hours of boredom.

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And it's basically a very very short, plump man with

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hardly any hair, wearing pink glasses and it says comes

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with several cooled dysfunctionalities ages nine and up. No age

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is five and up, so it yeah, that was his

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thing for me, So it wasn't a question. So I say, hello,

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do you have any questions for this seach Q and

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a Friday Sebastian answers have aware of you of robbing

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yourself by not talking to me. Never mind, I'll keep

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on barding your dms and one day you will have

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to face it. So I say, do you have an

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actual question? And he says, do you like your action

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figure I designed for you? So no, Sebastian, I don't

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like it. I mean, it's nice that you took the

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time to I don't even know what the right word

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is to be honest, uncle Smellie ours of boredom. I mean,

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the thing is, I don't want to say nice things

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about him. But Sebastian's been doing AI and images and

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stuff like that. Before AI was even about, he was

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doing and making weird im making weird images and videos

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like ten years ago. So I'm a little bit scared

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what he could come up with with the new technology.

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Some of the things he's actually posted are very funny.

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There's one he did where there's me in a dressing

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gown and suddenly all these people just pulled my dresses

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and gown off and it's like a kung fu or

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karate dojo. So yeah, I do like the some of

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new stuff you post, but it's usually it's not aimed

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at making me feel good about myself? Is it a?

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So?

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Where a guess? Where did Thailand were entirely to go?

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So that's that one, seems there's any other questions, any

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other questions, any other questions? Nothing on Jason Newland's boring

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group Let Me Boy to Sleep. Let's see, I there's

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anything on that page?

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Oh?

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What come on Jason Newland Hypnosis. Let's all look on

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that page? Is there anything? You never know? There might

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be something? No, nothing on there, Let me Boy to Sleep?

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Anything on there? I wonder why trains make so much noise? Sometimes?

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Might not be a train? Actually, Oh, I didn't seem

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to post it on that one? Okay, fair enough? So

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did I post it on the Jason Newland Hypnotist or

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one word? I didn't? Okay fair enough? So the ones

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I posted on I didn't get any other responses, so

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only one question? And I don't believe if I'm correct,

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I've ever had only one question in a week, which

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is it We're not concerned as in like no, oh, no,

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what we're going to do, but a little bit like okay,

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because it seems a little bit of a shame to

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wave goodbye to the Q and a Friday, because I've

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kind of got a little bit used to it. It's

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it's almost the first regular thing that I've ever really done.

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Like like I'm saying like a lot to don't I

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regular as in, well, okay, we all know what regular means,

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don't me. But I don't know. I don't know what

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the solution is. So I'm thinking, if I go onto

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my website, is there a way general settings? Is there

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a way I can add something to the top of

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the page header and footer header layout? Because I'm thinking

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if there is, I know I need to I need

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to go to the page. So I go to pages

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because maybe if I can put so if I edit

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that homepage, if I can add a question or a

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button or or voice message as well, no not voice

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meage contact form review form. I wonder what the review

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form would do write a review for Hypnosis and Sleeping

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Deeply Blind it no, okay that it brings up. It

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brings up a different one for each podcast. So there's

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too many podcasts. It's a big, long old thing. So

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if I go to intake form, what's an intake form?

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Anyone intake form?

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Say?

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Look what this is? Intake form? Your name? Wow? Okay,

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that's a lot of stuff. What if I can Nopes

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not allow me to change stuff? Well, that's no good. No,

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that's probably more for me to fill in, isn't it.

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I suppose so people can know where to go. So

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let's do another one. So I'm thinking if I can

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do what would be quite nice if I could just

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have a section and you can ask. So if I

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could put a contact form at the top. And I

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don't know if I'm able to edit the contact form layout.

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I suppose, Yeah, I could put something at the top

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so you could just put your name in, email address

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and your message. I don't know if it allow me

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to edit what's in the form. Doesn't seem to, does

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it seem to. It's just added another one. That's no

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point to that. So maybe I'll do that. I'll put

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that at the top of the page for the Jasonnuland

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dot Com website, and then you can just ask your question,

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you know, add a question that you want for Q

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and A Friday, and I will just write them down,

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keep a track of them and answer them as I

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get them. Well not I get them, but whatever I

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get before that Friday our answer, and then whatever I

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get the following week leading up by answer that as well.

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That makes sense, I think. So I need to put

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a header head in head in head in ask question

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for Q and A Friday. This is real time, baby,

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I'm doing this in real time. But how do I'm

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not used to doing it like this? How do I

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get it to be I don't want largest. I think

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H two is fine. I don't need largest, but I

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do need it to be in the middle. How do

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I get it into the center? Styles typography, font font

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font font font font font While there was in many

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choices book antiguy and that'd be it. I don't know

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old text a line that's it, got it in the middle.

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So is that useful? Ask question for Q and a

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Friday for the next for yeah, I'll update that. So

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let's have a look how it looks on my website

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on the on the phone. Jess new Land dot com yeah,

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blind me, ask question for ask questions for Q and

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a Friday. Should it be more than that? Should ask questions?

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Ask questions for ask a question for the next Q

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and a Friday. What would be the best way to

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word it? I don't know? Uh to do? Do?

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Do?

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I'm going to ask Q and a chat GPT what's the

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best way to word a title? To form asking for questions? Yes,

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for the next Q and a Friday, and I can

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do it myself. I just thought i'd be interested to

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see what it comes up with. Got a question for

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Q and a Friday? See this is better. This is

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ask me anything Q and a Friday submission or submit

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your question for Q and a Friday. I think they

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ask me anything. I quite like that, so what okay,

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let's take get rid of that. Ask me anything Q

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and a Friday submission. Do you think that's okay? I

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think it's what you're doing. So just on new Land

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ask me anything Q and a Friday submission. So from

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now on we'll just see, we'll see and see how

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it goes. So every time I do recording, I'll just

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say you can go to my website ask a question

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for Q and a Friday. And just go to in fact,

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what I could do? Oh I could? I mean, it's

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going to come on the first page. I don't need

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to have it as a as a separate link. Do

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I really a separate page? I might do, though, but

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it's on the very first page. When you go to

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my web fite Jasonnewland dot com, is there, ask me

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anything Q and a Friday submission and you just put

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in your name, put in your email address. You can

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put any email address, it doesn't matter. I'm not going

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to respond unless you want me to respond. And then

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there's just a question and just under your message, that's it.

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I could probably change it a little bit, getting make

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it a bit more flashy, but I think that's all right.

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That does the job, doesn't It don't need flashy, just

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need functional, I would argue, So let me know what

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you think about it. So the question really is Thailand?

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So what I thought i'd just maybe talk about Thailand

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as I don't really have. I mean, you know, what

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did I do? Where did I go? What did I So, yeah,

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I'll just talk about my time in Thailand as I

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don't It's the only question I've got, So thank you, Hillary,

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And yeah, that's what I do. I think the first

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time I really heard about Thailand, I mean I heard

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about it when I was a kid, to see it

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on TV, movies and stuff like that. I didn't realize

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the connection with Vietnam and all that stuff, didn't know

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the history of that. But I think it was more

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when I got into Buddhism and learned a bit more

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about Tibet and Japan, China, India, Burma, all the different

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places where Buddhism was and Thailand being a Buddhist country.

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I mean, how many Buddhist countries are there? Not many? Right,

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I need to spell countries correctly, Oh dear, I still

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have to look at the keyboard and the type. So

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there's twelve recognized Buddhist countries in the world where Buddhism

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plays a significant role in shaping the culture. So the

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top ten, really, why is it doing? Whoops? The page

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is gone? Why is the page gone?

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Right?

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The page is gone? Buddhist by country? Okay, here we go. So, wow,

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there's some countries where there's none recognized.

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I was going to say Afghanistan is thirty one million,

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four hundred and ten Buddhists. But now that's the population

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of the country. There's about ten thousand Buddhists this estimate.

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I didn't realize there'd be any Boddy's in Afghanistan, Albania, Algeria,

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American Samoa, Andra, Angola about ten thousand, Argentina about ten thousand,

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No twenty thousand, Armenia ten thousand, Aluba ten thousand, Australia

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six hundred thousand. Well, now Australia, Australia has got quite

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a link to Thailand. There's a link there. There's like,

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I don't know how to express it. There's a lot

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of Australian visitors to Thailand, and I think there's a

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lot of Thailand visitors to Australia. There's a all I think,

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a good positive connection. I might be wrong, but it

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seems like it's almost like a a family, like they're

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related in some way, a bit like maybe England and Ireland.

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There's always going to be that connection, regardless of the

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blamely some of the weird history that went on this.

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I think the average person in England would think of

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Ireland as being what I do. Did I tell you

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I'm forty eight percent Irish. I'm going to you know,

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I'm going to be saying that until I'm ninety. It

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would never get boring for me. So yeah, I think

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Australia's six hundred thousand. Didn't think it would be that many,

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so it's quite a high. It's two point still only

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two point seven percent. Austria twenty thousand, alger Baijan ten thousand.

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I might mispronounce some of these words names, Bahamas ten thousand,

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and Bahrain thirty thousand, Bangladesh a million, a million and

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one thousand, so that doesn't surprise me. But there is

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one hundred and forty eight million, six hundred and ninety

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thousand people there, so it's still zero point six percent.

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So it's still a very very tiny percentage. But when

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you consider that India is where Buddhism came from, and

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the history of Bangladesh and all the other parts of

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that area sort of you know, with the religions and stuff.

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So yeah, the Barbados ten thousand, Blaris ten thousand, Belgium

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thirty thousand Buddhists, so it's zero it's still zero point

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two percent. That's weird. I just they've got ten million

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people in Belgium. Thirty thousand is zero point two percent,

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is it? Thirty thousand, three hundred thousand, three million. Yeah,

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I suppose blind me so it's a very small amount.

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Just it seems like quite a few people. So yeah,

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thirty thousand, believes ten thousand, ben In ten thousand, Bermuda

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ten thousand. Used to be more, but they just keep disappearing.

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Do Do Do Do Do Do Do do? Don't hear

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about the Muda triangle anymore? Do? We used to be

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such a big thing. It's like the Yetty and the

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lock Miss Monster, and you know, there's TV shows and

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movies about it, and it's almost like no one cares anymore.

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I still care. Bhutan is one of the most famous

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Buddhist countries. Seventy four point seven percent of the country

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is Buddhist five hundred and forty thousand, so seven hundred

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and thirty thousand people live in Bhutan. Seventy four point

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seven percent is big. So I'd quite like to.

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Go there.

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Because for me, it's it might I know something that, oh,

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you're going to Thailand. It's just to have a party

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lifestyle and stuff. It wasn't that party life. I've never

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been a party lifestyle person in my life, even when

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I was young and fruity. I didn't, never did never,

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just wasn't really a crowd person. The only place I

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ever felt comfortable in my life as an adult, like

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out like socially, I mean, would be the comedy club

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that used to frequent and I loved that place. It

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was the only place I really felt at home. So

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Bolivia ten thousand, zero point one percent, Botswana ten thousand,

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So I'm surprised that there's any just because some of

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the cultures ten ten thousand, two million people in Botswana.

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Brazil two hundred and fifty thousand. Again, I'm surprised at that.

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I didn't realize there'd be that many in Brazil. Brunei

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thirty thousand, eight point six percent. So that's interesting because

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Brunei is I think it's not known for being a

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Buddhist place, is it, But it's got one of the

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higher percentages in the world. You've got Bulgaria ten thousand.

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I didn't think there'd be any Buddhists in Bulgaria, Burkina

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Faso ten thousand, because these are very Catholic or Christian countries.

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Bulgaria is pretty sure. Cambodia Wa bam Van Cambodia, there's

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fourteen million, one hundred and forty thousand people living in Cambodia.

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How many people do you think are Buddhists according to

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these statistics, thirteen million, six hundred and ninety thousand, ninety

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six point nine percent in Cambodia. Wow, Cameroon ten thousand, Canarada,

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Canada two hundred and eighty thousand. So that's cool, a

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very tiny amount percentage wise, because it's thirty four million

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in Canada. Chad. I've got no idea where that is.

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Ten thousand is Chad? Is it near Brazil? Chile? Ten thousand? China.

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See this surprises me. I know, it doesn't really surprise me,

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but it kind of surprises me now considering just the

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way that China is portrayed in the West media that

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there's no freedom. Well, according to this is two hundred

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and forty four million, one hundred and thirty thousand Buddhists

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in China out of one point three out of one

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point three billion, so as eighteen point two percent. Again,

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one of the countries that one of the world's highest

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proportions of Buddhists. So I'd like to go to China.

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I'd like to go and visit the Buddhist temples and

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maybe even stay in one for a while. But I

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don't know what the rules are anymore, or you don't

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know regarding going to China, and if we're allowed to

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go there, and I know there's Chinese people will listen

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to this recording, so hello, See there's people from Russia

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put it from China. There's people from all over the world,

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and some countries that block maybe the Western Internet, they

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just choose VPNs and they get through that way. So

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it looks like I've got someone from maybe I don't know,

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trying to feel the country, Holland or Brussels or Scotland.

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But actually they're listening from China because they've got a

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VPN and they just put more of a Western country

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down so they can listen. So hello, Hello my Chinese friends,

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my Russian friends, my Egyptian friends, Costa Rican friends, my

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Cuban friends, Denmark friends. But I can't might Bermuda friends,

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mind you. And I used to have more more listeners

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from Bermuda, but for some reason they just keep vanishing.

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See I'm going to keep doing it. I can't help it. Sorry,

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I have no control. So China is definitely a place

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I'd like to go to visit because it's a because

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of the Buddhism. Really Costa Rica, Croatia, ten thousand, Cyprus, Kuba.

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I'm thinking this is just out loud, which is where

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they're putting ten thousand, is they don't know, they're just guessing. France,

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there's two hundred. I imagine they're guessing anyway. But France,

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you've got two hundred and eighty thousand, which is zero

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point five percent out sixty two million, seven hundred and ninety.

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So France has got less people than the UK, more

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than the United Kingdom. Germany eighty two eighty two million,

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three hundred thousand, so they've got more people, but they've

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got two hundred and ten thousand Buddhists. Ghana ten thousand, Greece, Guam, Guatemala, Guinea, Guyana, Haiti, Honduras,

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they've all got that ten thousand. Hong Kong is got

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thirteen point two percent, which is nine hundred and thirty thousand,

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But that's in China, isn't it controversial? Sorry? Seven million,

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fifty and that's a separate place, but it's now part

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of China, isn't it Hong Kong? So it's nine hundred

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and thirty thousand. That's blimey, that's good amount. Hungary ten thousand,

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Iceland ten thousand, India nine million, two hundred and fifty thousand,

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which is where Buddhism originated from. Some people think it

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originated from China, but it was India, originated from India

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one point two billion, so zero point eight percent still

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a small amount in India. I think it used to

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be a Buddhist country and then changed. I think it's

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gone through different phrases over the years. Indonese year two

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million and two million and sixty two thousand, one hundred

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and fifty so that's bliman. There's two hundred and sixty

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six million people and a half million people living there,

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so Iran ten thousand, Iraq ten thousand. See, I didn't

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that surprisingly just because I thought I didn't think they'd

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be allowed. But then that's just the way that these

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countries are portrayed on the news. Maybe there is more freedom,

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more religious freedom than is you know, presented in the media.

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What else we got, it's itally one hundred and ten

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thousand out sixty million, Jamaica ten thousand, Japan forty five million,

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eight hundred and twenty thousand, so out of one hundred

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and twenty six and a half million, So it's thirty

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six point two percent. So I knew Japan would be large.

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I was well, I thought it might be larger, but nope,

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it's still thirty six point two percent. Still one of

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the largest ones in the country in the world. Keeps

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saying country South Korea eleven million, our forty eight million

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is twenty two point nine percent. Guess South Korea Kuwait

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is eighty thousand our two point seven million, So that's

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that's interesting. Laos four point one million million, our six

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point two million set sixty six point one percent. And

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you've got other countries leven and Latvia, lesofa Liberia. Girl,

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you came and you've changed my world, Libya, Leitchenstein, Lithuania, Luxembourg.

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They'd like ten thousand part of Libya's twenty thousand. According

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to this, Macau or Mecca Macau ninety thousand, seventeen point

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three percent. That's quite HIGHPPP. Malaysia five million out of

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twenty eight point four million, so that's nineteen point eight percent. Mexico, Mauritius,

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Martinic Mutiniq, Malta, Mali, Maldives ten thousand. Blimey, I didn't

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realize there's so many countries, so I just skipped to

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the ones where there's actually a lot of people, because

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this is getting ridiculous. This is not this is taken

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forever forever. I tell you Laos four million point one

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hundred Malaysia did I do that? Five million? So that's

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nineteen point eight percent, Mongolia one point five million, fifty

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five point one percent, Burma or Mayan mar thirty eight

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point four million, so it's eighty nine point nine percent,

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Nepal two point four million, it's eight point two percent

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New Zealand fifty two thousand, and then you've got Netherlands

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forty thousand, Norway thirty thousand, so it's still a small proportion.

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Then you've got fifty thousand in Peru, still a small

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proportion of the people, sixty thousand in Portugal. One hundred

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and seventy thousand in Russia. Wow, okay, cool, ninety thousand.

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I mean's one hundred and forty two point nine million

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people in Russia according to this, so it's zero point

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one percent, so it's very small percentage. Ninety thousand in

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Saudi Arabia Singapore one point seven million, so thirty three

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point nine percent, and then you've got Sri Lanka fourteen

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point four million, sixty nine point three percent, Taiwan four

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point nine million, it's twenty one point three percent, Thailand

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sixty four point four million, ninety three point two percent,

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and then you've got Vietnam fourteen point three million, sixteen

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point four percent. So really, if I go to the

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just to the percentages, just to the percentages. So Cambodia's

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top a ninety six point nine percent, thirteen point six million,

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but Thailand ninety three point two percent second, but it's

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got a lot more Buddhists, sixty four point four million.

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So that's why I went to Thailand. That's why I

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wanted to go there for quite a few years. And

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there was a few things that appeal to me. Just

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seems like, what would it be like to be in

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a Buddhist environment unlike here where the Buddhists go to

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a center and it's not this is not a Buddhist country,

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and this is where I live, and it's kind of

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all kind of behind closed doors kind of for the Buddhists.

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I mean, it's you're free to practice in this country,

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whatever you want to do. But I think the general

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public probably don't ever hear about Buddhists. They don't make

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a fuss, they don't, you know, it's kind of quiet, quiet,

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i'd say. But in Thailand the thing, So I'll go

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through the thing. There's a thing in Thailand they've got.

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I saw this myself, and I've seen it on videos

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on YouTube. There is a the monks. Because I visited

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the monastery. It's on this massive, massive, massive hill and

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the steps and it was hard walking up there. If

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I was going to do it again and have to

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be early morning or in the evening because it's way

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too hot, or have someone carry me. When I say someone,

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I mean probably someone dragged me. It'd have to be

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a horse or something.

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And the.

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Wow, China has got more Buddhists than anywhere. I just

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realized that, BlimE me, China's got the most Buddhists. China,

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it's just it's not the biggest percentage. That two hundred

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and forty four million Chinese Buddhists, and then Thailand second

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at sixty four. So I realized I couldn't just go

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to China. There's visas and well, it's visas for Thailand

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as well, but it's a lot easier what it was

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just to go to Thailand. And basically what happened is

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I wanted to go. I've not really talked about this,

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but I received a back payment which was owed to

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me from money that I should have been getting and

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I didn't going back for a few years, so they

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called me up and sent that to me. So what

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I did is I at the time, paid off my debts,

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paid off bills, paid off phone contracts, paid off all

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the different things, got some new equipment for this play,

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you know, for the recording, and gave some of it

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away to friends. And then that's when I went over

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to a fortun and go to Thailand. So I did

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got the did during there was still needed a COVID

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pass at that time, even though we was out out

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of it in Thailand. That was still all wearing masks

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and also in the airports and all that stuff, not

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in England but in Thailand and on the plane. If

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you can believe that I had to wear a mask

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for twelve hours. You know, when it came to eating,

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because there was two meals during that time. I have

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never spent so long chewing on a little bit of food,

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as I did that day. I must have spent about

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three hours eating my dinner because there was such a

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break to not have that mask on, because it was very,

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very stifling, you know, to sort of be stuck with

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it and keep around and telling people put your mask on,

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put your mask on. I mean, it's nice that, you know.

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The good thing about that period is I wasn't I

467
00:41:11.760 --> 00:41:13.800
was being asked to put a mask on because everyone

468
00:41:13.840 --> 00:41:16.000
else had to, not just to cover up my face

469
00:41:16.760 --> 00:41:21.000
for other people because they were complaining. So it's nice,

470
00:41:21.079 --> 00:41:27.760
you know, there's a reason for it, and so got there.

471
00:41:28.079 --> 00:41:38.000
What was weird is so I got my friend to

472
00:41:38.039 --> 00:41:41.320
look after my flat. I wasn't gone for long anyway,

473
00:41:42.079 --> 00:41:44.920
a couple of weeks or whatever, but it just had

474
00:41:44.960 --> 00:41:55.079
to because I'd lost Andre a few months earlier, and

475
00:41:55.159 --> 00:41:57.280
I was very aimless at that time, and I was

476
00:41:57.280 --> 00:41:59.079
living on my own game. I didn't have anyone with me,

477
00:41:59.320 --> 00:42:01.559
but I had Onto with me for six years, five

478
00:42:01.639 --> 00:42:03.480
to six and a half years or whatever. Five and

479
00:42:03.519 --> 00:42:07.280
a half years. It's before I got Vinnie. I got

480
00:42:07.360 --> 00:42:08.880
Vin at the end of the year of that year

481
00:42:10.320 --> 00:42:19.559
two thousand and twenty three. I think it was, so

482
00:42:19.639 --> 00:42:23.840
I just thought, or was it twenty two? I really

483
00:42:23.920 --> 00:42:29.400
lose track. I think it's probably twenty two. Wasn't it

484
00:42:29.599 --> 00:42:30.320
twenty twenty one?

485
00:42:30.360 --> 00:42:30.480
Two?

486
00:42:30.559 --> 00:42:37.679
Yeah, twenty twenty two, endo, twenty two, twenty three, twenty four,

487
00:42:37.800 --> 00:42:42.519
twenty yeah, yeah, twenty two. Yeah, so it's it was

488
00:42:42.760 --> 00:42:52.400
twenty twenty two, And so I go over I didn't.

489
00:42:53.480 --> 00:42:56.119
I booked a hotel, I booked. It's just, you know,

490
00:42:56.280 --> 00:43:00.920
just everything over there is fairly cheap, an expensive place

491
00:43:01.000 --> 00:43:05.840
to go. The airfares are now like they went up

492
00:43:05.840 --> 00:43:09.800
to about double three times the amount because just after

493
00:43:10.960 --> 00:43:14.719
that whole period the fuel went up. So I managed

494
00:43:14.760 --> 00:43:17.440
to go there before the air price the air flights

495
00:43:17.480 --> 00:43:23.719
went up. And I had a couple of things in

496
00:43:23.800 --> 00:43:27.960
mind what I wanted to do. I was open to

497
00:43:28.000 --> 00:43:32.239
the idea of meeting someone because I was led to

498
00:43:32.280 --> 00:43:36.480
believe it's a very friendly place and maybe I might

499
00:43:36.519 --> 00:43:40.199
meet a female and go on dates and who knows.

500
00:43:40.800 --> 00:43:44.119
I didn't know, but I was open to it. And

501
00:43:44.280 --> 00:43:46.599
that is the kind of place. It's very friendly. People

502
00:43:46.639 --> 00:43:51.320
are friendly there, there's no What I did find out

503
00:43:51.519 --> 00:43:55.360
is talking to some of the tie girls, the Thai ladies,

504
00:43:57.360 --> 00:44:02.880
to them, they're very very up front, very straight, don't

505
00:44:02.920 --> 00:44:06.880
mince their words. And one of them said to me,

506
00:44:06.920 --> 00:44:11.119
you know, you all look the same to us, So

507
00:44:11.159 --> 00:44:12.480
what do you mean, So do you just all are

508
00:44:12.480 --> 00:44:15.320
the same. You've all got big noses, because here I've

509
00:44:15.320 --> 00:44:20.719
got a big nose, But in Thailand pretty much all

510
00:44:20.760 --> 00:44:23.679
Westerners have got big noses because they've got little noses

511
00:44:23.719 --> 00:44:27.039
over there. So it's that in their mind, like you

512
00:44:27.159 --> 00:44:30.760
just got big nose. You're English or you're American or European.

513
00:44:31.000 --> 00:44:34.079
They know straight away, and they've got names they've got

514
00:44:34.119 --> 00:44:46.000
like Arab, English, American. I think Arab kind of covers

515
00:44:46.440 --> 00:44:50.159
anyone from like in their mind, like anyone from like

516
00:44:50.239 --> 00:44:55.199
India from the Arabian. You know, it's like they kind

517
00:44:55.199 --> 00:44:59.320
of class as an Arab, which is I was always

518
00:44:59.320 --> 00:45:03.800
fort you don't say the word Arab, but they just do.

519
00:45:04.000 --> 00:45:07.719
And also when it comes because I think, you know,

520
00:45:08.599 --> 00:45:10.639
I tell you that it's the best place to go

521
00:45:10.840 --> 00:45:15.760
if for a trans person, because if you want to

522
00:45:15.760 --> 00:45:18.920
walk down the street test it out, if you want

523
00:45:18.920 --> 00:45:23.000
to test out dressing the way that you want to dress,

524
00:45:23.880 --> 00:45:27.480
you can do that in Thailand and no one cares.

525
00:45:28.639 --> 00:45:30.480
I mean, technically you can probably do it in London

526
00:45:30.519 --> 00:45:34.039
as well, maybe some of the other cities. And I've

527
00:45:34.039 --> 00:45:37.079
seen people in London walk around dressing gowns in the

528
00:45:37.079 --> 00:45:40.760
middle of winter in snow, eating and ice cream, So

529
00:45:42.000 --> 00:45:45.760
you know, I've seen some of the weirdest things. Probably

530
00:45:45.800 --> 00:45:49.920
the weirdest thing I saw in Thailand was someone on

531
00:45:49.960 --> 00:45:55.840
a bicycle with a ladder, but it was like it

532
00:45:55.880 --> 00:46:01.559
wasn't a foldable ladder. It's a full ladder, probably six

533
00:46:01.679 --> 00:46:05.440
foot but instead of having it on the side, he

534
00:46:05.599 --> 00:46:08.360
had it on front of him, so it was like

535
00:46:09.760 --> 00:46:13.119
stretching out both sides of the road and he's riding

536
00:46:13.159 --> 00:46:20.960
along like that. I was like, what, how I was

537
00:46:20.960 --> 00:46:26.599
spending the microphone and how how? Why? So that that

538
00:46:26.800 --> 00:46:31.960
was one of the weirdest things I saw. But when

539
00:46:31.960 --> 00:46:35.679
I got to I had this idea what I wanted

540
00:46:35.679 --> 00:46:42.480
to do. I needed a break from because I was

541
00:46:42.639 --> 00:46:45.400
taking care of my friend and I was that was

542
00:46:45.480 --> 00:46:48.559
just getting harder and harder. I needed a break from that.

543
00:46:49.920 --> 00:46:57.599
I gave him some money and I just needed because

544
00:46:57.639 --> 00:47:01.079
it was just getting too much for me and having

545
00:47:01.119 --> 00:47:03.239
lost Andrea and I don't want to go. I was serious,

546
00:47:03.239 --> 00:47:08.920
but yeah, I needed I started having I'd started having

547
00:47:08.920 --> 00:47:11.880
panic attacks again for the first time, I mean regularly,

548
00:47:11.920 --> 00:47:17.039
for the first time in years, you know, like properly,

549
00:47:17.320 --> 00:47:21.639
full on, constantly all the time. Kind of that moment,

550
00:47:21.719 --> 00:47:25.679
that situation, and it was like reverting back to two

551
00:47:25.719 --> 00:47:29.719
thousand and six, and I didn't think that would happen again.

552
00:47:31.480 --> 00:47:33.280
And I couldn't get a grip of them. I couldn't

553
00:47:33.440 --> 00:47:38.960
seem to sort out it. It couldn't. Sort of, it's

554
00:47:39.039 --> 00:47:43.440
almost like I could. I was struggling, really struggling, And

555
00:47:43.480 --> 00:47:50.760
I was also getting what's that thing where your ears

556
00:47:50.800 --> 00:47:52.400
go and your kind of dizzy and stuff. I was

557
00:47:52.400 --> 00:47:56.239
getting that as well, So it was all weird. I

558
00:47:56.280 --> 00:47:59.039
was going through some weird, weird things at that time.

559
00:48:02.960 --> 00:48:05.559
And then I thought, you know, I'm just going to go.

560
00:48:06.599 --> 00:48:10.679
So I went out there on the plane. My ears popped,

561
00:48:12.119 --> 00:48:16.639
and that's the last time I had any ear problems,

562
00:48:17.480 --> 00:48:19.559
balance problems, whatever you call it. I forget them, but

563
00:48:19.639 --> 00:48:22.119
forget the term. I know the term, but I forget

564
00:48:22.199 --> 00:48:24.599
what it is. But it's the last time that happened.

565
00:48:24.599 --> 00:48:30.519
Because both my ears popped on the plane. An expensive cure,

566
00:48:30.760 --> 00:48:35.800
to be fair, but it cleared whatever was going on

567
00:48:35.840 --> 00:48:38.679
in my ears in a vertigo. That's it. It cleared

568
00:48:38.719 --> 00:48:41.840
it and I haven't had it since I used to

569
00:48:41.840 --> 00:48:45.280
have it a few years ago. But that was course

570
00:48:45.400 --> 00:48:51.880
through a burst ear drum. This seemed to be caused

571
00:48:51.880 --> 00:48:55.039
by stress or something. I don't know what it was, grief,

572
00:48:55.519 --> 00:48:59.599
it could be anything, all kinds of stuff. So I

573
00:48:59.679 --> 00:49:03.280
need to get away. So I got away. I went there,

574
00:49:04.000 --> 00:49:07.639
stayed in this hotel. I think one of my happiest memories,

575
00:49:07.639 --> 00:49:09.079
and it's going to be weird to say this, but

576
00:49:09.159 --> 00:49:12.679
one of my happy, happiest times was sitting on the verandah.

577
00:49:13.599 --> 00:49:16.159
And this hotel was in a back alley, so it

578
00:49:16.199 --> 00:49:19.480
wasn't even like a near the sea or anything. I

579
00:49:19.559 --> 00:49:23.320
wasn't far from the sea, and I was sitting on

580
00:49:23.320 --> 00:49:28.880
the verandah taking in the smells. And that's the one

581
00:49:28.920 --> 00:49:31.920
thing about I'm not doing about the whole of Thailand,

582
00:49:31.960 --> 00:49:36.559
but anywhere I went it smelt nice because of the food.

583
00:49:36.679 --> 00:49:39.679
It's like just there's a lot of street food and

584
00:49:39.719 --> 00:49:44.960
it just smelt nice. There was no horrible smells. And

585
00:49:45.119 --> 00:49:49.320
the Thai people probably amongst the cleanest people I've ever

586
00:49:49.360 --> 00:49:53.280
been around. They have multiple showers a day because of

587
00:49:53.320 --> 00:49:56.760
the heeks. It's so hot and stuff, and it was like, wow,

588
00:49:58.039 --> 00:49:59.559
I have more showers in a day than I do

589
00:49:59.599 --> 00:50:02.760
any year. Yeah. I shouldn't say that out loud, should I?

590
00:50:02.840 --> 00:50:06.639
But yeah, it was very It was a very clean,

591
00:50:07.159 --> 00:50:10.960
very clean place from that perspective. From that perspective, what

592
00:50:11.079 --> 00:50:13.960
I did found weird, though I did found I found

593
00:50:14.599 --> 00:50:21.119
I find it weird is there was hardly any hot water.

594
00:50:21.760 --> 00:50:26.639
It was just warm like here I used to and

595
00:50:26.760 --> 00:50:29.599
I don't I don't scold my hands when I wash

596
00:50:29.639 --> 00:50:32.280
my hands, but I wash my hands quite regularly and.

597
00:50:32.719 --> 00:50:35.519
Every time I go out because we shared a banister

598
00:50:35.639 --> 00:50:39.199
and stuff, you know, outside in the hallway, and I

599
00:50:39.239 --> 00:50:42.679
always wash my hands when I get back, just so that,

600
00:50:43.000 --> 00:50:46.440
you know, got rid of any who knows what people

601
00:50:46.440 --> 00:50:51.239
have been doing with their hands. I don't know. I

602
00:50:51.320 --> 00:50:55.719
know what I've been doing with mine. So when I

603
00:50:55.760 --> 00:50:58.960
was out there, it just wasn't hot. The water wasn't

604
00:50:59.039 --> 00:51:03.199
hot to a level that I was used to, which

605
00:51:03.239 --> 00:51:08.639
is very strange. Maybe that's why they have so many showers,

606
00:51:08.679 --> 00:51:14.039
because it's like keeping a constant cleansing. The cleaning lotless

607
00:51:14.239 --> 00:51:22.719
miss ness ness thing cleanly ness. I mean, I don't

608
00:51:22.760 --> 00:51:25.760
know if every single person has lots and lots of showers,

609
00:51:26.320 --> 00:51:32.239
but it's you know, the whole time I was out there,

610
00:51:32.320 --> 00:51:40.000
I didn't meet one bad smelling person at all, A

611
00:51:40.079 --> 00:51:46.079
type person that smell weird, not weird. But when it's hot,

612
00:51:46.880 --> 00:51:49.880
there's a tendency you know, just naturally that it's gonna

613
00:51:50.320 --> 00:51:55.360
come across yourd with you'red wiffy person. It's just natural,

614
00:51:55.440 --> 00:51:58.719
especially climely on the tube. That's the person I was

615
00:51:58.760 --> 00:52:01.199
always stuck under their eyes put armpit and I couldn't

616
00:52:01.239 --> 00:52:06.480
get out. That's that was always. Yeah, I love the

617
00:52:06.519 --> 00:52:14.760
tube and I didn't, so that was strange. I just

618
00:52:14.800 --> 00:52:16.880
I just not have any hot water. That threw me

619
00:52:16.920 --> 00:52:20.239
off a bit. But one of my happiest memories of

620
00:52:20.320 --> 00:52:25.760
being there was sitting on the verandah. The first few

621
00:52:25.800 --> 00:52:31.760
mornings I had. There was no food in the restaurant

622
00:52:31.920 --> 00:52:35.440
because I had like a Thai restaurant part of the hotel.

623
00:52:35.960 --> 00:52:40.320
But because of that period, you know, two thousand and

624
00:52:40.360 --> 00:52:46.800
twenty twenty one, pretty much most of the tourism in Thailand,

625
00:52:46.840 --> 00:52:50.960
and I'd say probably the whole of the world pretty

626
00:52:51.039 --> 00:52:55.639
much closed down, So there was there wasn't a lot

627
00:52:55.679 --> 00:52:59.119
open when I went there. A lot of restaurants were closed.

628
00:52:59.320 --> 00:53:02.039
A lot of bars were closed, not that I'm really

629
00:53:02.079 --> 00:53:04.440
a bar person anyway, but there was a lot of

630
00:53:04.559 --> 00:53:12.800
things weren't open. They either hadn't they either they hadn't

631
00:53:12.880 --> 00:53:16.480
reopened them, or they were closed completely. There was parts

632
00:53:16.519 --> 00:53:21.119
of the area that were completely derelict that two years

633
00:53:21.159 --> 00:53:26.320
earlier had been really busy. So and the only real

634
00:53:26.800 --> 00:53:31.119
regular people they were getting was people that lived a

635
00:53:31.159 --> 00:53:35.079
bit closer. So they had people from India, they appealed

636
00:53:35.119 --> 00:53:39.519
from Emirates, they appeared from Australia coming over, but they

637
00:53:39.559 --> 00:53:42.760
didn't weren't getting a lot of They're still getting like

638
00:53:42.800 --> 00:53:47.960
Americans and English, but because of the the restrictions, they

639
00:53:48.000 --> 00:53:51.039
weren't getting as many as they would normally get. This

640
00:53:51.119 --> 00:53:54.880
is what I was told. None of the hotels were full,

641
00:53:56.480 --> 00:54:03.079
so it was fairly check the rooms. I mean, I

642
00:54:03.079 --> 00:54:07.480
think if that was in this country, what the people

643
00:54:07.559 --> 00:54:09.599
what to cut the hotels in this country would do

644
00:54:10.159 --> 00:54:12.280
is put the prices up to try and get their

645
00:54:12.280 --> 00:54:16.000
money back. But they didn't do that. They just treated

646
00:54:16.000 --> 00:54:19.039
people fairly because they were happy to have the customers.

647
00:54:20.119 --> 00:54:22.760
You know, the mentality in this country is well, if

648
00:54:22.800 --> 00:54:26.079
you've if you've got a hundred rooms and I can

649
00:54:26.119 --> 00:54:28.639
only fill fifty, then we'll try and charge them twice

650
00:54:28.679 --> 00:54:31.079
a price so we can get the money back for

651
00:54:31.119 --> 00:54:35.440
the other fifty rooms that we not fill in. But

652
00:54:35.519 --> 00:54:37.760
the way they see it over there more is well,

653
00:54:37.840 --> 00:54:42.840
actually we're grateful to have fifty rooms for so we'll

654
00:54:42.880 --> 00:54:46.840
let people have a cheaper have a cheaper time, you know,

655
00:54:47.000 --> 00:54:52.079
maybe stay for ten or twenty percent off the price

656
00:54:54.000 --> 00:54:56.559
because they've got such a choice of other hotels to

657
00:54:56.559 --> 00:55:01.079
stay in. So that's you know, that's I quite like that.

658
00:55:04.400 --> 00:55:08.800
But that was nice sitting on that veranda or that balcony. Rather,

659
00:55:10.719 --> 00:55:15.760
I bought some paper, some paper what are they called

660
00:55:17.679 --> 00:55:22.599
paper dishes, and some paper spoons or plastic spoons to eat,

661
00:55:22.719 --> 00:55:26.000
and I got some breakfast cereal, little boxes of breakfast cereal,

662
00:55:26.480 --> 00:55:29.360
and some milk put in the fridge, and a cup

663
00:55:29.400 --> 00:55:32.559
of coffee, so I had coffee anyway there. So I

664
00:55:32.559 --> 00:55:37.800
had a cup of coffee and my corn flakes on

665
00:55:38.000 --> 00:55:41.320
the veranda the balcony. What's the different to the veranda

666
00:55:41.320 --> 00:55:47.199
on the balcony. And I'm listening to my phone and

667
00:55:47.199 --> 00:55:51.280
I'm listening to LBC radio and it was Steve Allen,

668
00:55:51.760 --> 00:55:54.480
who does his four o'clock was what he used to

669
00:55:54.480 --> 00:55:57.480
do four till seven in the morning radio show, just

670
00:55:57.519 --> 00:56:02.320
a talk show where he just talked. He didn't the phones,

671
00:56:02.400 --> 00:56:05.079
but it would read out, you know, text messages and

672
00:56:05.119 --> 00:56:09.880
stuff like that. And I just remember, I don't know

673
00:56:09.880 --> 00:56:14.360
what time of the day it was for me. It

674
00:56:14.480 --> 00:56:22.440
was BlimE me. It's probably mourning for me, maybe ten

675
00:56:22.440 --> 00:56:27.920
o'clock in the morning or something. But it was just nice.

676
00:56:30.880 --> 00:56:36.880
It's very peaceful, and it wasn't busy. Really, it wasn't

677
00:56:36.960 --> 00:56:39.800
really busy where I was. It was quite quite kind

678
00:56:39.840 --> 00:56:43.320
of a little area. It wasn't a lot going on. The

679
00:56:43.400 --> 00:56:47.360
tourism was probably i'd say probably ten percent what it

680
00:56:47.360 --> 00:56:51.440
would normally be, which is why it was only ten

681
00:56:51.440 --> 00:56:57.960
percent of the place is open, probably, And I just thought, oh,

682
00:56:58.239 --> 00:57:01.199
so I had had my dinner, how many breakfast. But

683
00:57:01.239 --> 00:57:05.079
the very first night I got there, I went and

684
00:57:05.119 --> 00:57:08.199
had to look around. I went for walk, didn't know

685
00:57:08.239 --> 00:57:12.480
where I was going. But the good thing about you know,

686
00:57:12.480 --> 00:57:17.679
if you go to a seaside resort in Thailand, again,

687
00:57:17.760 --> 00:57:19.519
I don't know if all the places are same, but

688
00:57:20.079 --> 00:57:23.599
it's well lit. There's a lot of people around because

689
00:57:23.599 --> 00:57:27.960
it's a tourist destination. It's the safest I've ever felt

690
00:57:28.519 --> 00:57:33.480
walking around at two in the morning. I mean ever,

691
00:57:33.880 --> 00:57:37.519
never ever felt safe really, because the only time I'd

692
00:57:37.519 --> 00:57:39.000
walk around at two in the morning was when I

693
00:57:39.039 --> 00:57:43.559
was in London, and in London, two in the morning

694
00:57:43.639 --> 00:57:47.199
is not. Yeah, it's never. Even as a young person,

695
00:57:47.960 --> 00:57:49.880
it wasn't. I was worried, but I never really felt

696
00:57:49.920 --> 00:57:53.880
kind of I felt on guard, but here I didn't

697
00:57:53.880 --> 00:57:57.719
feel on guard at all. It seemed like the sort

698
00:57:57.719 --> 00:58:02.119
of place where, yeah, if you want trouble, you can

699
00:58:02.159 --> 00:58:05.199
have it. It's like, if you want trouble, they give

700
00:58:05.239 --> 00:58:09.639
it to you, but if you don't, they're fine. You know,

701
00:58:09.679 --> 00:58:12.360
it's not anywhere if you want to be a trouble maker.

702
00:58:12.639 --> 00:58:14.880
It's very easy to get into trouble anywhere you go,

703
00:58:15.920 --> 00:58:23.119
but there it's you won't. My experiences, I felt safe.

704
00:58:23.119 --> 00:58:26.800
That's pretty much what I'm saying. And I got to

705
00:58:26.840 --> 00:58:30.079
know a few of the people and some of the

706
00:58:31.519 --> 00:58:35.280
some of the Buddhist parts of their life, so it's

707
00:58:35.320 --> 00:58:39.760
basically they're indoctrinated into it. They're born into Buddhism. Now

708
00:58:40.920 --> 00:58:48.239
they have Buddhist holidays. They also absolutely love their role

709
00:58:48.360 --> 00:58:52.599
family out there. I mean like in a way that

710
00:58:53.199 --> 00:58:59.960
maybe we used to in this country. They're really important

711
00:59:00.039 --> 00:59:04.199
into them. I mean, I know there are people out

712
00:59:04.239 --> 00:59:06.559
there in this country that love the royal family, but

713
00:59:06.639 --> 00:59:10.440
I'm talking as a nation. There's a real loyalty to

714
00:59:10.480 --> 00:59:16.599
the royal family in Thailand. It's they're almost like say royalty,

715
00:59:16.599 --> 00:59:22.639
I suppose, but they're very Yeah, it's hard to explain

716
00:59:22.719 --> 00:59:27.239
what I mean, but it's huge. And when there's a birthday,

717
00:59:28.480 --> 00:59:33.760
there's no alcohol sold when there's a public a royal day.

718
00:59:34.320 --> 00:59:37.599
So if it's the King's birthday or whatever something like that,

719
00:59:37.960 --> 00:59:42.480
no alcohol during that day. They're still open. Bars will

720
00:59:42.519 --> 00:59:45.199
still open, but it will be soft drinks only, and

721
00:59:45.239 --> 00:59:48.039
they'll actually tell people. Because I went in on the

722
00:59:48.119 --> 00:59:52.400
day I went The day after I went there, it

723
00:59:52.440 --> 00:59:57.760
was a bank holiday due to a remember the royal family.

724
00:59:58.079 --> 01:00:01.440
I think it was a king's birthday. And I went

725
01:00:01.519 --> 01:00:07.360
in and there was this bar and I wasn't bored

726
01:00:07.400 --> 01:00:11.039
about drinking alcohol anywhere. I was still a bit jet lagged.

727
01:00:11.599 --> 01:00:17.519
I needed something to eat, and so I sat down

728
01:00:17.559 --> 01:00:21.000
and the first thing I was told is you can't

729
01:00:21.079 --> 01:00:26.880
serve your alcohol. I said, that's all right, and she

730
01:00:26.960 --> 01:00:31.679
said what I said, that's okay, I'm not bothered. I

731
01:00:31.800 --> 01:00:35.280
don't care if I drinking alcohol, she said. Turned out

732
01:00:35.280 --> 01:00:40.599
she couldn't speak English. She said what she was surprised

733
01:00:40.920 --> 01:00:45.320
because I think most people that go there are going

734
01:00:45.360 --> 01:00:49.039
to drink. And I wasn't really that bothered. So I

735
01:00:49.079 --> 01:00:51.599
had something to eat. I can't remember what I had.

736
01:00:52.920 --> 01:00:53.519
We have to.

737
01:00:53.679 --> 01:00:58.960
I found a burger and chips and the coke. That's

738
01:00:59.000 --> 01:01:02.159
back in the days when I drinking Coca cola. I'm

739
01:01:02.280 --> 01:01:06.039
like now when I just drink water. I don't even

740
01:01:06.119 --> 01:01:21.480
drink alcohol anymore. Blimey, And I think the So there

741
01:01:21.599 --> 01:01:25.719
was a lady called Ella there. I really I don't know.

742
01:01:25.719 --> 01:01:28.760
I just like really liked her because we were talking

743
01:01:28.800 --> 01:01:30.440
and she had the same kind of energy as me,

744
01:01:30.880 --> 01:01:34.960
quite low key. I'm quite low energy, really, and I

745
01:01:35.039 --> 01:01:37.199
in my moment, I do have my moments, but it

746
01:01:37.199 --> 01:01:41.159
doesn't everyone. But I'm quite low in. She're quite quiet.

747
01:01:44.199 --> 01:01:51.239
I don't get I'm not the most excitable person. Really,

748
01:01:51.559 --> 01:01:56.320
you know, I'm not particularly loud, and we seem to

749
01:01:56.400 --> 01:02:03.920
get on quite well. Now you're going to just probably

750
01:02:04.559 --> 01:02:07.800
I don't know I tell you this, but anyway, she

751
01:02:09.679 --> 01:02:11.480
is it Ella or is it Bella or was it

752
01:02:11.599 --> 01:02:14.840
Stella or was it Gee or is it nom? I

753
01:02:14.880 --> 01:02:18.440
don't know. I forget what her name was, but she

754
01:02:18.559 --> 01:02:22.199
invited me. I think of Ella because it's someone a

755
01:02:22.199 --> 01:02:24.599
big brother Cordella. That's what I'm thinking of that word,

756
01:02:24.840 --> 01:02:28.719
that name, she said. I went in there a couple

757
01:02:28.760 --> 01:02:32.920
of days in a row. I think the first night

758
01:02:35.360 --> 01:02:40.039
she I'm always at the second night because I went

759
01:02:40.079 --> 01:02:41.840
in there because I quite liked the vibe in there.

760
01:02:42.800 --> 01:02:47.320
And she said, I was got talking to another bloke.

761
01:02:47.679 --> 01:02:50.840
It was from Ireland, and he just, you know, he

762
01:02:50.920 --> 01:02:54.239
was just chatting and stuff. And they were closing up

763
01:02:55.719 --> 01:02:58.719
and we're going out, and the he was going back

764
01:02:58.840 --> 01:03:02.559
with the other waitress or the other there was like

765
01:03:02.559 --> 01:03:05.000
two managers. He was I don't know if that was

766
01:03:05.000 --> 01:03:09.440
his girlfriend or what. And she said, I'll bring bring

767
01:03:10.239 --> 01:03:14.000
Jason back and the other one said no, I don't know,

768
01:03:17.000 --> 01:03:20.599
and I thought, I don't care, it's fine, and I

769
01:03:20.599 --> 01:03:25.159
don't know. I didn't ask to go anywhere anyway. Well,

770
01:03:25.800 --> 01:03:28.920
a couple of nights later I went back and she's

771
01:03:28.960 --> 01:03:30.360
just there on her own, and at the end of

772
01:03:30.440 --> 01:03:38.559
the night she offered to take me home. And this

773
01:03:38.719 --> 01:03:41.719
is a bit where I should be saying, well, I'd

774
01:03:41.760 --> 01:03:44.239
like to be saying I went home. It was the

775
01:03:44.280 --> 01:03:49.000
best night of my life. We fell in love, and

776
01:03:49.639 --> 01:03:54.440
you know, we got married and we going to spend

777
01:03:54.440 --> 01:03:57.639
the rest of my life with our I say, I

778
01:03:57.639 --> 01:04:00.280
bet the rest of our lives together. But she's but

779
01:04:00.400 --> 01:04:06.280
younger than me. I don't know how much I would say.

780
01:04:07.239 --> 01:04:10.800
It's hard to guess under thirty. I would say, maybe

781
01:04:11.039 --> 01:04:15.000
maybe older, but it's hard, you know. And it's someone

782
01:04:16.039 --> 01:04:18.280
else that I got on with. She was thirty eight

783
01:04:18.360 --> 01:04:23.039
and didn't look I could. I would never have guessed

784
01:04:23.119 --> 01:04:28.840
her age. I'm no good at guessing ages anymore, not

785
01:04:28.920 --> 01:04:31.000
that ever was so if I ever was that good.

786
01:04:31.039 --> 01:04:33.440
But I think there was a period when I was

787
01:04:33.480 --> 01:04:36.519
in my twenties and I could kind of gauge in age,

788
01:04:37.440 --> 01:04:41.159
gauge and age, you know, if someone was nineteen or

789
01:04:41.199 --> 01:04:47.519
someone was like late twenties, maybe early thirties. But as

790
01:04:47.519 --> 01:04:52.880
I got older, people in the early twenties look just

791
01:04:53.280 --> 01:04:58.480
some of them are really really young, and then some

792
01:04:58.519 --> 01:05:04.920
people in their sixties look really really young, Like how

793
01:05:04.960 --> 01:05:07.159
can you can't be I know a couple of people

794
01:05:07.159 --> 01:05:11.280
and they're both BlimE me. I think they're both like

795
01:05:11.960 --> 01:05:17.440
nearly eighty, and neither of them look it. It's like,

796
01:05:17.719 --> 01:05:26.280
how can you be nearly eighty? So it's uh. Someone

797
01:05:26.320 --> 01:05:28.760
did say to me and said, you said, well, you

798
01:05:28.840 --> 01:05:31.000
look younger than you are. But it probably wouldn't do

799
01:05:31.039 --> 01:05:33.280
if you took your glasses off and we could see

800
01:05:33.320 --> 01:05:36.159
your eyes, because I've got like shades some of my

801
01:05:36.239 --> 01:05:40.199
glasses acted like or whatever I thought was a rude.

802
01:05:41.679 --> 01:05:45.559
If anything, I'm really younger without the glasses. Probably not.

803
01:05:47.239 --> 01:05:53.280
So in those situations, all you can do. You can argue,

804
01:05:53.440 --> 01:05:58.039
or you can just silently fart and walk away. So

805
01:05:58.159 --> 01:06:05.840
I chose to do that. So I yeah, So we

806
01:06:05.880 --> 01:06:08.800
didn't have a romance, and I didn't. What I did

807
01:06:09.119 --> 01:06:13.639
is first of all, I thought, yeah, But it wasn't

808
01:06:13.679 --> 01:06:15.400
do you want to come back to mine? It was

809
01:06:15.840 --> 01:06:25.960
as go then, and she called two mopeds, two moped taxis.

810
01:06:26.519 --> 01:06:28.400
She had her own moped, but she left it there

811
01:06:28.400 --> 01:06:31.239
because she had a couple of drinks. So she got

812
01:06:31.280 --> 01:06:35.159
a moped taxi for herself and one for me. And

813
01:06:35.199 --> 01:06:39.119
I said no. I said, no way in the world

814
01:06:39.159 --> 01:06:47.840
am I getting on the back of that. And I'm

815
01:06:47.840 --> 01:06:50.960
not sure days gone past when I wish that I

816
01:06:51.039 --> 01:06:54.119
had just got on the back of the moped because

817
01:06:57.280 --> 01:07:02.840
I put fear ahead of pleasure, maybe fear ahead of

818
01:07:04.239 --> 01:07:06.079
I wasn't scared of her. I was just scared of

819
01:07:06.119 --> 01:07:13.119
the motor journey, the being on a moped, just just

820
01:07:13.639 --> 01:07:16.840
having seen the way they ride those mopeds in and

821
01:07:16.840 --> 01:07:19.679
out of traffic, like seeing that and then thinking this

822
01:07:19.800 --> 01:07:23.320
is going to happen at eleven o'clock at night or

823
01:07:23.360 --> 01:07:26.840
half eleven at night, and it was dark at that point,

824
01:07:30.320 --> 01:07:33.199
and I didn't know where we were going. You know,

825
01:07:33.239 --> 01:07:34.960
It's like a part of me thinking and that this

826
01:07:35.079 --> 01:07:37.840
is my friend's He put this image in my head.

827
01:07:38.519 --> 01:07:40.519
He kept saying, well, be careful. You don't go home

828
01:07:40.559 --> 01:07:42.360
with someone and wake up in a bar full of

829
01:07:42.400 --> 01:07:46.320
ice and one of your organs missing. It's like brilliant,

830
01:07:47.360 --> 01:07:49.519
like thanks for that. I really wanted that in my head,

831
01:07:50.199 --> 01:07:57.599
and I kept I was thinking this, this lady's seriously,

832
01:07:58.880 --> 01:08:00.840
we're gonna say up my street. You know, as far

833
01:08:00.880 --> 01:08:03.840
as she just really lovely, I liked her a lot,

834
01:08:05.679 --> 01:08:12.239
but I did think, well, maybe I don't know, I

835
01:08:12.320 --> 01:08:16.159
might just is she gonna try and make some money

836
01:08:16.199 --> 01:08:19.600
from me by I'm going to wake up with only

837
01:08:20.640 --> 01:08:26.560
one liver, you know, so I thought, oh maybe, but

838
01:08:26.600 --> 01:08:28.600
there was that was it was more than moped to

839
01:08:28.600 --> 01:08:34.279
be fair. And then there was also I'm thinking, maybe

840
01:08:34.319 --> 01:08:36.720
she's just being friendly and she takes me back to

841
01:08:36.760 --> 01:08:41.359
her place and introduces me to a boyfriend or a husband,

842
01:08:42.640 --> 01:08:46.800
and she's just being friendly, just a friendly person. Because

843
01:08:47.000 --> 01:08:50.680
that happened in Bulgaria, I was I spent all day

844
01:08:50.720 --> 01:08:55.479
talking to a wait to she was work behind the bar,

845
01:08:55.640 --> 01:08:59.560
so I think she's like a bar manager all day

846
01:08:59.800 --> 01:09:03.600
in the hotel. This is when I went snowboarding, but

847
01:09:03.720 --> 01:09:07.479
I'd spent the day before traveling down a mountain on

848
01:09:07.520 --> 01:09:12.079
my face, so I took a day off. I was

849
01:09:12.159 --> 01:09:15.600
teaching her English, who was teaching me Bulgarian. It's just

850
01:09:15.640 --> 01:09:20.600
me and her pretty much for hours and hours. And

851
01:09:20.640 --> 01:09:24.520
then in the evening, when my fellow travelers that I

852
01:09:24.600 --> 01:09:29.840
traveled there with got back from the mountain slopes, you know,

853
01:09:29.840 --> 01:09:35.439
we're another dinner, trying not to laugh at the the

854
01:09:35.560 --> 01:09:40.560
music act, and then it's just I don't know, I'm

855
01:09:40.560 --> 01:09:42.600
not used to having music being played on a meeting.

856
01:09:43.399 --> 01:09:46.840
You know, when Summer starts playing a harpt chord and

857
01:09:46.880 --> 01:09:50.840
it's like what starts dancing. It's like, I'm this is

858
01:09:51.039 --> 01:09:59.520
this is confusing my senses. And we're in this bar,

859
01:09:59.640 --> 01:10:02.039
which is part of our hotel. Where I went to

860
01:10:02.239 --> 01:10:05.279
was part of another kind of hotel part because all

861
01:10:05.319 --> 01:10:07.239
part of this big old complex and there's this like

862
01:10:07.359 --> 01:10:11.119
underground trapped tunnels and stuff. And I just followed them

863
01:10:11.239 --> 01:10:16.199
until I found new other places to go to what

864
01:10:16.319 --> 01:10:18.520
didn't seem to even be part of the hotel. It's

865
01:10:18.600 --> 01:10:23.000
like part of something else. Anyway, I'm in the in

866
01:10:23.039 --> 01:10:28.239
the bar, another bar, with my my friends that have

867
01:10:28.359 --> 01:10:39.760
traveled to Bulgaria with and this this bloke came up

868
01:10:39.800 --> 01:10:44.239
to me, tapped me on the shoulder and he looked

869
01:10:44.399 --> 01:10:52.399
exactly how he was. He was a gangster, like proper gangster.

870
01:10:53.880 --> 01:10:58.319
It's like it's it's hard to explain, but I would

871
01:10:58.399 --> 01:11:00.880
bet any money I had that he had a gun

872
01:11:00.920 --> 01:11:08.720
on him. And he said he pointed, he pointed, and

873
01:11:08.760 --> 01:11:11.039
he's like, he's the lady that I've been talking to

874
01:11:11.119 --> 01:11:17.439
all day. He says, that's my fiance. M m mmmmm.

875
01:11:19.359 --> 01:11:21.319
I mean that's when I thought I really am gonna

876
01:11:21.399 --> 01:11:27.920
wake up in nice on a mountain, a mountain, and

877
01:11:28.000 --> 01:11:33.960
she comes over and he says and I thought, oh god,

878
01:11:34.000 --> 01:11:36.520
I don't know what to say here, because I really

879
01:11:36.600 --> 01:11:40.880
liked her, and I didn't realize she was I didn't

880
01:11:40.880 --> 01:11:43.960
ask if she had a boyfriend or anything, because I

881
01:11:44.000 --> 01:11:47.640
was just chatting to her. It was nothing. I wasn't flirting, really,

882
01:11:47.760 --> 01:11:54.079
just having a nice conversation during that whole day. And

883
01:11:54.159 --> 01:11:58.239
she said, and she came over smiling, and I thought,

884
01:11:58.239 --> 01:12:03.279
I wonder if he's smiling. I didn't look, and I

885
01:12:03.279 --> 01:12:06.920
think might still have his hand on my shoulder, and

886
01:12:07.920 --> 01:12:12.840
my knees were shaking. My knees were shaking. That sounds

887
01:12:12.840 --> 01:12:15.119
like a song, isn't it. And the hips were weak.

888
01:12:17.159 --> 01:12:21.079
And he said, I understand in it an accent. You've

889
01:12:21.119 --> 01:12:24.560
been teaching. You've been teaching whatever her name was, to

890
01:12:24.920 --> 01:12:27.319
some English words, and she's been I said, she's been

891
01:12:27.359 --> 01:12:31.199
teaching you some Bulgaria and I said yeah. He said, oh,

892
01:12:31.319 --> 01:12:40.319
very good, very good. I'm BlimE me. He it's so

893
01:12:40.479 --> 01:12:44.199
cool because he I think it's probably the only time

894
01:12:44.359 --> 01:12:47.439
ever that I've been thankful that I wasn't good looking,

895
01:12:49.359 --> 01:12:53.600
because I clearly was not a threat to him in

896
01:12:53.640 --> 01:12:56.319
any way. And I don't mean this physically, but I

897
01:12:56.399 --> 01:13:01.840
wasn't like a threat to his relationship. I was some handsome, strapping,

898
01:13:03.800 --> 01:13:06.720
you know, handsome guy that's gonna try and steal his

899
01:13:06.800 --> 01:13:11.399
fiance way. He didn't see any any threaten or at all,

900
01:13:12.479 --> 01:13:17.279
which is good for me. Really. It's the only time

901
01:13:17.319 --> 01:13:19.439
I've ever been grateful that I would look like I do,

902
01:13:23.000 --> 01:13:26.840
and he liked me, brought me a drink and he

903
01:13:26.960 --> 01:13:31.479
was chatting to me, and they were chatting, and she

904
01:13:31.760 --> 01:13:35.560
was like, you know, talking to me, and it's like

905
01:13:36.159 --> 01:13:43.920
really nice. I didn't know what to do next. I

906
01:13:43.960 --> 01:13:48.000
still wasn't sure because I'd seen the Sopranos. I mean,

907
01:13:48.000 --> 01:13:51.600
the Sopranos hadn't finished. The Sopranos were still going strong

908
01:13:51.640 --> 01:13:55.479
in those days, because this was two thousand and two,

909
01:13:55.680 --> 01:14:01.199
probably about March time, so the Sopranos are still you know, No,

910
01:14:01.319 --> 01:14:04.079
it's infancy because it went on to about twenty ten,

911
01:14:04.079 --> 01:14:08.880
didn't it. Well I suppose infancy, yeah, I guess, but

912
01:14:08.920 --> 01:14:10.800
I wasn't sure how this was going to play out.

913
01:14:13.199 --> 01:14:16.439
But it went okay, and I'm here, so it's fine.

914
01:14:17.199 --> 01:14:30.560
And then I yeah, that was just strange, very strange. Yeah,

915
01:14:30.680 --> 01:14:34.880
she was, it was. I didn't Yeah, I mean, it's

916
01:14:34.920 --> 01:14:37.680
not Thailand. It's a different story.

917
01:14:38.119 --> 01:14:38.520
It's just.

918
01:14:41.720 --> 01:14:44.560
When I go abroad or in the past, when I've

919
01:14:44.560 --> 01:14:50.680
gone abroad, I seemed to be different, maybe a bit

920
01:14:50.720 --> 01:14:57.439
more confident, maybe maybe a bit more relaxed, maybe a

921
01:14:57.439 --> 01:15:03.920
bit freer. I don't put any effort in. Yeah I don't.

922
01:15:03.920 --> 01:15:09.560
I'm not kind of like trying to get to know anyone.

923
01:15:09.760 --> 01:15:17.600
Just see what happens. Let it happen naturally. But on

924
01:15:17.600 --> 01:15:23.520
that occasion, I got to know three four women, five

925
01:15:23.640 --> 01:15:28.039
actually five, so there was the first waitress was the

926
01:15:28.439 --> 01:15:30.520
I say, when I get to know. I didn't do

927
01:15:30.640 --> 01:15:33.760
anything with anyone, but we've got to know them. The

928
01:15:33.840 --> 01:15:36.840
first one was the very first waitress that served us

929
01:15:37.279 --> 01:15:40.319
and I had a cheese toasty sandwich and it was

930
01:15:40.359 --> 01:15:44.439
the very first day we got there to the hotel,

931
01:15:45.920 --> 01:15:54.000
and she smiled at me. I mean some would view

932
01:15:54.039 --> 01:15:56.000
it and say she caught me looking down a top,

933
01:15:56.399 --> 01:15:58.760
but I'm just going to stick to you. She smiled

934
01:15:58.760 --> 01:16:02.239
at me, and she did smile at me when she

935
01:16:02.319 --> 01:16:05.439
caught me. She smiled and we had a bit of

936
01:16:05.439 --> 01:16:09.159
a connection that she chatted to me and the next

937
01:16:09.199 --> 01:16:17.960
hour was in there and we we decided to go

938
01:16:18.119 --> 01:16:22.960
out on a date. Yeah, I think like the next night,

939
01:16:23.840 --> 01:16:27.479
next evening, when she finished work, I'm when you go

940
01:16:27.520 --> 01:16:30.399
to a restaurant or something. So I went into the

941
01:16:30.439 --> 01:16:32.279
bar to see her, and there was this other bar

942
01:16:32.840 --> 01:16:35.319
the other side of the place, in the middle of

943
01:16:35.359 --> 01:16:38.399
nowhere came up. I kind of found my way around

944
01:16:38.439 --> 01:16:40.560
these places because I spent a lot of time on

945
01:16:40.600 --> 01:16:47.680
my own, just wandering around. And I got in there

946
01:16:47.680 --> 01:16:53.000
and she was just basically talking to another bloke and

947
01:16:53.039 --> 01:16:55.760
she waved to me, but then she carried on talking

948
01:16:55.760 --> 01:17:03.159
to this bloke. So I left. The day I went

949
01:17:03.239 --> 01:17:05.640
to a pizza place that was there that I found,

950
01:17:06.279 --> 01:17:12.239
and I got really well with the lady in the

951
01:17:12.279 --> 01:17:17.239
pizza place, and we were like talking and maybe talking

952
01:17:17.239 --> 01:17:25.000
about maybe doing something. And then I got to know

953
01:17:25.079 --> 01:17:26.760
the other one in the other bar, the one that

954
01:17:26.800 --> 01:17:31.119
I told you about the beginning. So what happened is

955
01:17:32.039 --> 01:17:35.600
it's very strange. The one that I was supposed to

956
01:17:35.640 --> 01:17:40.039
go on a date with and she was talking to

957
01:17:40.039 --> 01:17:45.279
another bloke. I saw her two days later. I think

958
01:17:45.319 --> 01:17:47.119
she might have had the day off. Saw her two

959
01:17:47.199 --> 01:17:52.000
days later and the first thing she said is where

960
01:17:52.000 --> 01:17:54.720
were you? I said, I was there. I'm not you know,

961
01:17:54.760 --> 01:17:56.560
you saw me in a wave to you. So where

962
01:17:56.560 --> 01:17:58.279
did you go? I said, we was talking to some

963
01:17:58.359 --> 01:18:03.000
bloke okay, and she had she had the LP with me, Like,

964
01:18:03.159 --> 01:18:07.239
I said, what's wrong? She said, I got talking to

965
01:18:07.319 --> 01:18:12.399
a friend of mine. I said, okay, she said, yeah,

966
01:18:12.560 --> 01:18:15.359
I told her. She said to me, I just met

967
01:18:15.760 --> 01:18:18.960
just met this this english man is really lovely and

968
01:18:19.000 --> 01:18:21.600
I've got on really well with him. And I said, yeah,

969
01:18:21.640 --> 01:18:25.479
same here, and we both said, what's his name is, Jason?

970
01:18:26.399 --> 01:18:30.640
It's you. We both we both met you and like

971
01:18:30.720 --> 01:18:32.640
I was playing them against each other, which I wasn't.

972
01:18:32.720 --> 01:18:36.000
I just only met them. I had gone out with

973
01:18:36.680 --> 01:18:41.399
either of them really some kind of playboy. But it

974
01:18:41.439 --> 01:18:47.680
wasn't like that at all. But she wasn't happy and

975
01:18:47.760 --> 01:18:52.479
she yeah. Ironically, the very very first night when I

976
01:18:52.520 --> 01:18:57.119
got there, the receptionist, I really liked the receptionist. I

977
01:18:57.159 --> 01:18:59.439
feel I was going through little phase of liking people.

978
01:19:01.319 --> 01:19:04.439
I really liked the receptionist who you know, we spoke

979
01:19:04.479 --> 01:19:07.560
to for it first of all, and then she disappeared.

980
01:19:07.560 --> 01:19:14.000
Didn't see her till the very last night. And she

981
01:19:14.119 --> 01:19:17.079
came up to me the very last night and we

982
01:19:17.159 --> 01:19:19.600
were sort of talking to me and I was like, okay, yeah,

983
01:19:20.119 --> 01:19:23.000
I just I don't know. I couldn't be bothered to

984
01:19:23.039 --> 01:19:25.960
talk to anyone. I thought I'd had enough of people

985
01:19:26.159 --> 01:19:29.680
by then, but I maybe had enough to drink and stuff.

986
01:19:30.600 --> 01:19:32.039
But the next day, because I didn't know, I didn't

987
01:19:32.039 --> 01:19:34.239
recognize her, because she hadn't been there the whole week

988
01:19:34.680 --> 01:19:38.119
other than that one time when we first got there,

989
01:19:39.560 --> 01:19:41.920
so we'd go to logout, you know, to I think

990
01:19:41.920 --> 01:19:45.880
we had to collect that passports and whatever to leave,

991
01:19:46.560 --> 01:19:48.760
and she's on a reception. I was like, oh my god,

992
01:19:48.760 --> 01:19:54.800
it's you. She said, yeah. I didn't realized that her.

993
01:19:54.840 --> 01:19:56.560
She was trying to talk to me the night before,

994
01:19:57.000 --> 01:20:00.000
and I just couldn't be bothered, not in a rude

995
01:20:00.159 --> 01:20:03.199
I just I think I just had enough. I wanted

996
01:20:03.239 --> 01:20:09.680
to go home, really, And she came out and followed

997
01:20:09.720 --> 01:20:11.560
me to the coach and saw me off on the

998
01:20:11.600 --> 01:20:14.880
coach and gave me a big hug, and I'm not

999
01:20:14.920 --> 01:20:19.600
sure she gave me a kiss. I can't remember. We

1000
01:20:19.640 --> 01:20:23.920
made love in the snow. We didn't, well, everyone watched

1001
01:20:24.199 --> 01:20:27.399
from the bus. We were on the top of the bus. No,

1002
01:20:27.479 --> 01:20:29.840
we wouldn't know. Nothing like that happened. But she did

1003
01:20:30.119 --> 01:20:33.880
like give me a big hug and everything like, what's

1004
01:20:33.920 --> 01:20:34.359
going on?

1005
01:20:34.439 --> 01:20:34.640
White.

1006
01:20:34.760 --> 01:20:41.159
It's almost like I was suddenly became attractive to women

1007
01:20:42.520 --> 01:20:45.359
out of nowhere for a week, and then when I

1008
01:20:45.399 --> 01:20:47.560
got back to the UK, I went back to being

1009
01:20:48.640 --> 01:20:57.279
invisible again. It's like brilliant. Then. I think three days

1010
01:20:57.359 --> 01:21:02.119
or two days before we left, I met this other

1011
01:21:02.439 --> 01:21:07.560
lady from Germany and we were just chat in and

1012
01:21:07.600 --> 01:21:10.479
we went for a little walk and she grabbed me

1013
01:21:10.560 --> 01:21:14.439
and start kissing me and everything, and she she palls

1014
01:21:14.520 --> 01:21:18.119
me to the actually the elevator, to the lift to

1015
01:21:18.199 --> 01:21:23.479
go up to my room. Right just as a lift

1016
01:21:23.600 --> 01:21:27.520
the lift doors about to close. What happens, This hand

1017
01:21:27.720 --> 01:21:32.800
comes through and stops the doors from closing. And it's

1018
01:21:32.880 --> 01:21:36.520
her friend. Her friend doesn't want it to have fun.

1019
01:21:37.960 --> 01:21:41.199
So there's a term. There's a term for that now,

1020
01:21:41.279 --> 01:21:48.760
isn't there. It's two words ones blocking. I was blocked

1021
01:21:51.520 --> 01:21:56.159
by her and it was weird. I was like, okay,

1022
01:21:56.159 --> 01:22:02.880
fair enough, yeah, ok, just google both both of us.

1023
01:22:02.880 --> 01:22:09.319
Probably a little bit tipsy or whatever, but she's the

1024
01:22:09.359 --> 01:22:12.119
one that kind of made the moves. But her friend

1025
01:22:12.279 --> 01:22:14.720
blame me. She didn't want to. She didn't want her

1026
01:22:14.760 --> 01:22:19.199
friend to have any fun. So that was that done

1027
01:22:19.239 --> 01:22:22.520
as well. I just had to accept, okay, fair enough,

1028
01:22:22.760 --> 01:22:28.199
see her, I need to pooh anyway, by I was

1029
01:22:28.279 --> 01:22:32.239
poohing a lot when I went there. I couldn't believe it.

1030
01:22:32.439 --> 01:22:35.720
It really changed my whole body being there. So I

1031
01:22:35.720 --> 01:22:37.760
don't know if it was the altitude or if it

1032
01:22:37.800 --> 01:22:41.319
was the food. Maybe a little bit too much alcohol,

1033
01:22:41.920 --> 01:22:48.279
I don't know, but yeah, nice fresh air though, that

1034
01:22:48.359 --> 01:22:55.319
was nice. And then there was the twins. Now there

1035
01:22:55.399 --> 01:23:05.800
wasn't I just h so I I did. I did

1036
01:23:05.840 --> 01:23:09.840
go and say goodbye to all three of the women

1037
01:23:10.359 --> 01:23:11.960
that I kind of got to know a little bit,

1038
01:23:12.960 --> 01:23:15.720
not the German one, but I didn't see her again.

1039
01:23:15.760 --> 01:23:17.760
I don't think I might have done. I think she

1040
01:23:17.800 --> 01:23:20.319
was with a family though it's like family holidays, so

1041
01:23:20.359 --> 01:23:25.119
I was like, okay, a bit of keep away. But

1042
01:23:25.199 --> 01:23:28.359
I went to see the other three. So there's one

1043
01:23:28.680 --> 01:23:32.000
that worked in one bar, there's another one worked in

1044
01:23:32.000 --> 01:23:34.600
a pizza place, and the other worked one worked in

1045
01:23:34.640 --> 01:23:38.239
the restaurant downstairs. Not need a reception. So I went

1046
01:23:38.279 --> 01:23:43.399
to each one and say goodbye, and it was just

1047
01:23:43.439 --> 01:23:46.640
like I thought, well, I've not dated anyone, I've not

1048
01:23:47.000 --> 01:23:52.640
actually gone out anywhere, so I'll just say goodbye. You know,

1049
01:23:52.680 --> 01:23:55.119
and they were all one of them that even took

1050
01:23:55.239 --> 01:24:01.319
me into a room I wait from the bar, and

1051
01:24:01.359 --> 01:24:04.000
it was like a storage room. There was nothing in

1052
01:24:04.039 --> 01:24:07.800
there but just empty, but there was a few storage

1053
01:24:07.840 --> 01:24:12.159
I guess, and crates of coke cans or whatever, and

1054
01:24:12.199 --> 01:24:15.880
that was it, and closed the door and just looked

1055
01:24:15.880 --> 01:24:21.359
at me, like what I'm supposed to do now? I

1056
01:24:21.439 --> 01:24:24.439
literally had about half an hour to get on the bus,

1057
01:24:25.680 --> 01:24:29.760
and I didn't know what I didn't know what she wanted.

1058
01:24:31.239 --> 01:24:39.000
And because I was so naive and very I was

1059
01:24:39.119 --> 01:24:45.479
quite a young person back then. I was only thirty one. Yeah,

1060
01:24:45.479 --> 01:24:48.479
I was still thirty one, so I was young, and

1061
01:24:48.520 --> 01:24:54.159
then I was only a youngster. I really was. I

1062
01:24:54.159 --> 01:24:57.159
didn't know, I didn't know what to do, but obviously

1063
01:24:57.199 --> 01:24:59.479
gave me a big hug, didn't see no way, let

1064
01:24:59.479 --> 01:25:03.720
me go, picked me up, rattled me around a little bit.

1065
01:25:04.880 --> 01:25:16.319
I didn't mind, to be honest. I mean, yeah, I

1066
01:25:16.600 --> 01:25:19.000
feel quite happy. We would have brought a home with

1067
01:25:19.079 --> 01:25:26.920
me and possibly got married. I know that life doesn't

1068
01:25:26.920 --> 01:25:29.359
work like that. I'll just bring someone home and get married,

1069
01:25:29.359 --> 01:25:34.279
But and there seemed to be a connection. Maybe there wasn't.

1070
01:25:35.119 --> 01:25:37.359
I feel like I'm making this up. Maybe I'm not.

1071
01:25:37.720 --> 01:25:44.760
I don't know, maybe I am the the bomber boom boom,

1072
01:25:45.000 --> 01:25:51.680
boom boom what else. So yeah, that was good.

1073
01:25:52.159 --> 01:25:52.720
And then.

1074
01:25:55.000 --> 01:25:58.359
I did give I got the address. Oh, one of

1075
01:25:58.399 --> 01:26:01.640
them gave me an address and telephone number, but I

1076
01:26:01.720 --> 01:26:07.520
tried to contact but didn't seem to do. I gave

1077
01:26:07.600 --> 01:26:10.199
me my tele I tried to phone. That's it. I

1078
01:26:10.279 --> 01:26:13.920
tried to phone. I've got one of those you know,

1079
01:26:14.000 --> 01:26:16.520
those cards that you can phone abroad and stuff, but

1080
01:26:17.399 --> 01:26:22.279
it didn't seem to work. It was Yeah, the language

1081
01:26:22.359 --> 01:26:25.600
barrier was definitely an issue. It'd be easier now with

1082
01:26:26.159 --> 01:26:31.039
all the different apps. And this is before Facebook and whatsappened,

1083
01:26:32.079 --> 01:26:35.399
all the different ways to communicate with people. There's no

1084
01:26:35.600 --> 01:26:41.479
smartphones back then, and it would have been easy, you know,

1085
01:26:42.119 --> 01:26:47.520
much easier to sort of keep in contact with someone.

1086
01:26:49.079 --> 01:26:52.640
So what happened then is in my Thailand side, I

1087
01:26:52.640 --> 01:26:58.960
did meet someone else, but at this point I had

1088
01:26:59.000 --> 01:27:06.720
a can rib and I wasn't really interested in her

1089
01:27:06.880 --> 01:27:10.039
as a as a other than just as a tourist

1090
01:27:10.079 --> 01:27:14.159
guide really if she showed me around, but she did

1091
01:27:14.239 --> 01:27:17.920
sort of try and take advantage of me. I think

1092
01:27:18.039 --> 01:27:24.880
financially a little bitter, but I wasn't that bothered. And

1093
01:27:24.920 --> 01:27:28.000
then she in a place. This is where I met

1094
01:27:28.039 --> 01:27:32.520
her because a couple of this man said can you

1095
01:27:32.520 --> 01:27:35.680
buy me some foods? I said all right. He actually

1096
01:27:35.720 --> 01:27:37.720
came up to me. He said you got any money?

1097
01:27:39.159 --> 01:27:42.199
I said, have you? Were you asking me if I've

1098
01:27:42.199 --> 01:27:44.439
got any money for? What's in your wallet? What's in

1099
01:27:44.479 --> 01:27:46.840
your wallet? And he got his wallet out and said,

1100
01:27:46.880 --> 01:27:49.960
look nothing. And he was a taxi driver, but there

1101
01:27:49.960 --> 01:27:55.279
was no customers. I said, so why are you asking? Well,

1102
01:27:55.359 --> 01:27:59.039
you showed me your wallet for and he said, I'm hungry.

1103
01:27:59.039 --> 01:28:01.319
You can I have some food? I said, I'm sure

1104
01:28:01.359 --> 01:28:03.560
you'll find someone to give you food. He said, well,

1105
01:28:03.560 --> 01:28:07.279
you get me some food. I said, yeah, right, and

1106
01:28:07.319 --> 01:28:10.239
he said what is this way? I think he led me.

1107
01:28:10.279 --> 01:28:12.039
I didn't realize he owned the place he led me

1108
01:28:12.079 --> 01:28:15.199
to actually had his name on the front. And I

1109
01:28:15.239 --> 01:28:16.840
don't know if he owned it or rented it or

1110
01:28:16.880 --> 01:28:21.319
it was a family thing. But I mean he was

1111
01:28:21.399 --> 01:28:24.399
hungry as well. There was no customers. There was no

1112
01:28:24.399 --> 01:28:28.920
one in there. There's this little bar restaurant. There wasn't

1113
01:28:28.920 --> 01:28:35.359
really a restaurant, more takeaway. So I gave him the food,

1114
01:28:35.720 --> 01:28:39.560
gave his fellow taxi driver. I like, because I had

1115
01:28:39.600 --> 01:28:45.119
moped taxis, gave them food, and then I just left

1116
01:28:45.840 --> 01:28:50.079
wait for a walk. Later on in the evening, I

1117
01:28:50.119 --> 01:28:52.279
forget all about it, and I walked past and they

1118
01:28:52.279 --> 01:28:56.159
all start shouting for me to come in. And I

1119
01:28:56.159 --> 01:28:58.119
didn't know who they were because I didn't realize where

1120
01:28:58.159 --> 01:29:01.680
I was because it was all still new. And they

1121
01:29:01.800 --> 01:29:04.760
was like, oh, come in, let me buy you, give

1122
01:29:04.800 --> 01:29:07.520
you a drink, and they were like all over me,

1123
01:29:08.039 --> 01:29:12.479
being nice to me and stuff, very very friendly. So

1124
01:29:12.560 --> 01:29:14.960
I stayed in there for a couple of hours, had

1125
01:29:15.000 --> 01:29:21.359
some drinks, and met this person that was a bit

1126
01:29:21.479 --> 01:29:24.479
friendly as well. But you know, it sort of became

1127
01:29:24.560 --> 01:29:27.680
my tour guide for a few days, showed me around

1128
01:29:27.760 --> 01:29:36.119
and that I had this idea. But maybe it was

1129
01:29:36.119 --> 01:29:39.119
a little bit drunk, but I had an idea, I thought,

1130
01:29:39.920 --> 01:29:42.479
And this is something I'd thought about before because I'd

1131
01:29:42.520 --> 01:29:49.439
seen on YouTube during twenty twenty and twenty twenty one,

1132
01:29:49.920 --> 01:29:59.119
because the tourists pretty much had disappeared, like completely for

1133
01:29:59.159 --> 01:30:05.359
about two years. They the people that would normally work,

1134
01:30:06.039 --> 01:30:08.600
didn't have any money for food, didn't have any food,

1135
01:30:10.159 --> 01:30:14.520
so there was charities and there was YouTubers and all

1136
01:30:14.560 --> 01:30:22.560
stuff giving out food to people queuing up along the beach.

1137
01:30:23.159 --> 01:30:25.159
Some people were running along to get the food, and

1138
01:30:25.159 --> 01:30:27.720
they were giving food out off the back of trucks

1139
01:30:27.760 --> 01:30:32.000
and stuff like that. I didn't see that when I

1140
01:30:32.039 --> 01:30:35.319
got there, but I did think to myself before I

1141
01:30:35.359 --> 01:30:39.479
got there, I want to give some food out. I

1142
01:30:39.520 --> 01:30:41.319
wasn't expecting to do it the way I did it,

1143
01:30:41.600 --> 01:30:45.199
but I was thinking I want to. It's been a dream,

1144
01:30:46.039 --> 01:30:49.560
really to be able to do something like that on

1145
01:30:49.600 --> 01:30:57.560
a more a bigger scale than just giving someone a

1146
01:30:57.600 --> 01:31:04.239
burger for McDonald's who's sitting in a a shop, a

1147
01:31:04.279 --> 01:31:12.920
shop what you call it a shop entrance, And I

1148
01:31:12.960 --> 01:31:18.640
thought it'd be nice to do something that was like

1149
01:31:18.680 --> 01:31:22.000
a one off situation that I'm possibly never going to

1150
01:31:22.039 --> 01:31:25.800
be able to do again. So what I decided is,

1151
01:31:27.760 --> 01:31:32.760
I said to the lady who was running this place

1152
01:31:33.439 --> 01:31:35.880
which sells food and it's like a little bar as

1153
01:31:35.920 --> 01:31:38.680
well where I got the food from during the day

1154
01:31:38.720 --> 01:31:44.119
for the taxi drivers or the motorbike taxi drivers. I

1155
01:31:44.199 --> 01:31:48.279
said to her act I said to the person I

1156
01:31:48.319 --> 01:31:52.079
was talking to that became my guide. I got an idea.

1157
01:31:53.000 --> 01:32:00.640
She said, what's that, I said, what if I because

1158
01:32:00.800 --> 01:32:03.079
she was telling me how people were hungry and how

1159
01:32:03.119 --> 01:32:05.720
there was no like there was. She was pointing out

1160
01:32:05.720 --> 01:32:08.239
the bar she used to work out, which had a

1161
01:32:08.279 --> 01:32:10.359
pool table in there was just like a small bar,

1162
01:32:11.359 --> 01:32:14.720
but it was empty. She was living upstairs and then

1163
01:32:14.760 --> 01:32:20.000
pretty much a derelict room, didn't have anything, didn't have

1164
01:32:20.319 --> 01:32:22.359
you know, she was like living from one day to

1165
01:32:22.359 --> 01:32:28.159
the next. And I kind of became a meal ticket

1166
01:32:28.199 --> 01:32:31.640
for a little while, which, you know, it is what

1167
01:32:31.680 --> 01:32:37.680
it is, is fine. But she sort of pointed me

1168
01:32:37.800 --> 01:32:40.039
towards the lady that was in charge of that place,

1169
01:32:40.479 --> 01:32:43.479
of the place we were sitting in, and I said, well,

1170
01:32:43.520 --> 01:32:48.640
how much would it cost to give away a meal

1171
01:32:50.920 --> 01:32:56.199
and a drink like a meal in a bottle of water,

1172
01:32:57.000 --> 01:33:02.199
I think something like that. And she was working out.

1173
01:33:02.279 --> 01:33:04.119
She said, how many do you want to do? I said, well,

1174
01:33:04.319 --> 01:33:08.000
it depends how much they are each. Bear in mind

1175
01:33:08.039 --> 01:33:11.319
I had to try and figure it out the currency change,

1176
01:33:11.359 --> 01:33:19.920
you know, from pounds to tie bart or tie bart

1177
01:33:19.960 --> 01:33:25.840
to pounds, you know, conversion. And I was like, okay,

1178
01:33:26.039 --> 01:33:30.119
well you know roughly what would it be? And I

1179
01:33:30.159 --> 01:33:32.439
couldn't even tell you how much it was per meal,

1180
01:33:34.039 --> 01:33:45.399
but we decided to do a lot of meals. I

1181
01:33:45.399 --> 01:33:47.359
don't know what it was, one hundred, two hundred and

1182
01:33:47.359 --> 01:33:51.359
fifty two hundred, I can't remember. And then so we

1183
01:33:51.439 --> 01:33:53.960
did that and when they were all like stacked up.

1184
01:33:54.159 --> 01:33:56.039
It's actually a photograph of me on one of my

1185
01:33:56.159 --> 01:34:02.279
podcasts with the staff there. They're all like hugging me.

1186
01:34:04.039 --> 01:34:08.399
And most of the people I gave the food out too,

1187
01:34:09.239 --> 01:34:14.920
were coming on mopeds because even though the job was

1188
01:34:16.199 --> 01:34:25.600
taxi drivers, they didn't really have any customers. So I

1189
01:34:25.680 --> 01:34:29.279
gave out not just me, the other staff did as well.

1190
01:34:29.560 --> 01:34:31.840
The other like everyone kind of muck did and gave

1191
01:34:31.880 --> 01:34:35.560
out the food. But I was it went really quickly,

1192
01:34:36.079 --> 01:34:40.079
like really quickly, and then they kept cooking more and

1193
01:34:40.119 --> 01:34:42.399
said you you want me to cook more? She said,

1194
01:34:42.439 --> 01:34:44.359
I bought more. I can cook it if you want.

1195
01:34:44.399 --> 01:34:51.199
And I lost track. I lost track of what I

1196
01:34:51.239 --> 01:34:54.119
was spending, I lost track of what I was given away.

1197
01:34:55.159 --> 01:34:58.199
And I did it the next day as well. I

1198
01:34:58.199 --> 01:35:03.800
think I did twice as much the next day. Yeah,

1199
01:35:03.800 --> 01:35:10.680
I spent a lot, a lot on that. It's the most. Yeah,

1200
01:35:10.800 --> 01:35:14.319
it's yeah, a lot. I've never never spent that much

1201
01:35:14.359 --> 01:35:17.880
money in one day. I don't think for that kind

1202
01:35:17.880 --> 01:35:22.760
of thing before, but it was one of the best

1203
01:35:22.800 --> 01:35:27.840
experiences of my life, given away food to people that

1204
01:35:27.960 --> 01:35:31.159
were hungry. I can't think of anything really better than

1205
01:35:31.159 --> 01:35:37.800
that were to be more more useful in a way.

1206
01:35:38.000 --> 01:35:45.000
I know it's short term solution, but it's still I mean,

1207
01:35:45.000 --> 01:35:48.399
it might be a short term solution, but it's going

1208
01:35:48.479 --> 01:35:49.840
to mean a hell of a lot to the person

1209
01:35:49.840 --> 01:35:52.359
that's eating. And how do I know, just because I've

1210
01:35:52.359 --> 01:35:56.399
given out a meal to someone, they might be sharing

1211
01:35:56.439 --> 01:36:00.640
that with three people, they might be taking at home

1212
01:36:01.119 --> 01:36:04.880
to their kid and not eating anything themselves. You know,

1213
01:36:05.000 --> 01:36:14.600
I don't know. I'll find out after the third day.

1214
01:36:15.319 --> 01:36:17.479
And this is weird. I find out to the third

1215
01:36:17.600 --> 01:36:26.560
day that I was being charged Western prices for the food.

1216
01:36:28.600 --> 01:36:31.520
So I was being charged the same amount as I

1217
01:36:31.560 --> 01:36:34.000
would have been charged if I'd have gone in there

1218
01:36:34.159 --> 01:36:40.399
as a tourist to order a meal. That's how much

1219
01:36:40.399 --> 01:36:42.359
I would have been charged. And I got charged that

1220
01:36:42.479 --> 01:36:46.479
amount for each and every meal. But if I had

1221
01:36:46.479 --> 01:36:48.680
been a tie, I'd have gone in there and ordered

1222
01:36:48.680 --> 01:36:52.159
the same thing. It would have been probably one third

1223
01:36:52.159 --> 01:36:59.239
of the price. But they charged me the full price,

1224
01:37:04.239 --> 01:37:06.880
and the lady that was going to be, like, give

1225
01:37:06.920 --> 01:37:10.439
me a bit as a tour guide. She told me

1226
01:37:10.479 --> 01:37:14.600
after about the fourth day, she said, you couldn't. She

1227
01:37:14.720 --> 01:37:16.279
fell out with them over it, but she said she

1228
01:37:16.319 --> 01:37:19.720
couldn't tell me because I seemed so happy doing what

1229
01:37:19.800 --> 01:37:22.680
I was doing, and they told her that you dared

1230
01:37:22.720 --> 01:37:25.880
tell them. So I think she was also her boss

1231
01:37:25.920 --> 01:37:30.680
for the other bar when it reopens, and just I

1232
01:37:30.720 --> 01:37:32.560
didn't go back there after that. I didn't go back,

1233
01:37:33.199 --> 01:37:37.319
didn't I just, you know, once I found that out,

1234
01:37:37.359 --> 01:37:41.199
I was a bit because it wasn't even about the money.

1235
01:37:41.279 --> 01:37:45.800
It was about the simple fact that I could have

1236
01:37:45.840 --> 01:37:52.640
given twice three till I was only given away one

1237
01:37:52.920 --> 01:37:56.359
given away. I was only given away one third of

1238
01:37:56.359 --> 01:37:58.640
what I could have been given away. I could have

1239
01:37:58.640 --> 01:38:03.359
given away two thirds more or food and meals to

1240
01:38:03.520 --> 01:38:09.720
people that needed it, and I wasn't. And that's hundreds

1241
01:38:10.600 --> 01:38:15.960
of meals that I didn't get to give away. So

1242
01:38:16.039 --> 01:38:19.359
that was, yeah, I didn't like that. That kind of

1243
01:38:19.479 --> 01:38:25.039
left a little bit of her horrible. I mean, I

1244
01:38:25.119 --> 01:38:27.199
understand they want to get paid for the work because

1245
01:38:27.199 --> 01:38:28.840
they were cooking and it was hard work and that,

1246
01:38:29.680 --> 01:38:31.800
but wouldn't they get paid? Don't they take that out

1247
01:38:31.840 --> 01:38:36.279
of the that would be the wages they would take anywhay,

1248
01:38:36.319 --> 01:38:39.399
isn't it if they're not going to work for nothing

1249
01:38:39.960 --> 01:38:42.560
when they give away the food to the tie people,

1250
01:38:42.760 --> 01:38:44.800
they're still going to make a profit, still going to

1251
01:38:44.840 --> 01:38:48.760
cover their wages and cover their costs. And bearing in

1252
01:38:48.800 --> 01:38:53.720
mind how many there's no. I can't imagine any day

1253
01:38:55.039 --> 01:38:57.039
in her history that she would have sold as many

1254
01:38:57.359 --> 01:39:02.760
meals as that in a day. Ever th what she

1255
01:39:02.880 --> 01:39:08.560
did that day, those two days with me, and all

1256
01:39:08.640 --> 01:39:10.000
she had to do was cooks. She didn't have to

1257
01:39:10.199 --> 01:39:14.920
she didn't have to deal with anyone else. And at

1258
01:39:14.960 --> 01:39:17.319
the end I think she said, oh, can you pay?

1259
01:39:17.600 --> 01:39:21.880
Can you pay my system give her a bit more money?

1260
01:39:22.680 --> 01:39:26.279
I just said yes, But I thought, BlimE me, that's

1261
01:39:26.359 --> 01:39:31.680
this is before I realized I've been ripped off. So yeah,

1262
01:39:31.920 --> 01:39:34.600
I said, it wasn't about the money rather than about

1263
01:39:34.920 --> 01:39:39.960
I could have given more free stuff out. So that

1264
01:39:40.039 --> 01:39:43.479
was that was weird. Some of the I quite like

1265
01:39:43.560 --> 01:39:49.960
some of the Buddhists rituals that they do. I like

1266
01:39:50.039 --> 01:40:00.239
the bowing. That's nice, it's very respectful. The what am

1267
01:40:00.239 --> 01:40:03.520
I going to say? Oh yeah, even when they're drinking,

1268
01:40:03.560 --> 01:40:06.119
they'll chuck a bit of the drink into the street.

1269
01:40:06.920 --> 01:40:11.520
It's like an offering to the Buddha. So it's kind

1270
01:40:11.520 --> 01:40:16.000
of even though they're doing and technically as a Buddhist

1271
01:40:16.319 --> 01:40:20.359
really it is like a non toxicant religion. You don't

1272
01:40:20.439 --> 01:40:24.319
take toxicants. It's one of the one of the I

1273
01:40:24.359 --> 01:40:30.920
don't say rules are one of the things, but it's

1274
01:40:31.439 --> 01:40:35.359
it's less that their Buddhists, as in not meditating and

1275
01:40:35.520 --> 01:40:40.640
not practicing, but they have a monk practice for them.

1276
01:40:42.199 --> 01:40:44.800
So the monk will come down from the mountain or

1277
01:40:44.800 --> 01:40:50.399
from the monastery and they will give offerings to the

1278
01:40:50.399 --> 01:40:58.840
monk in the form of usually food, and then the

1279
01:40:58.880 --> 01:41:02.000
monk will say some prayers.

1280
01:41:01.720 --> 01:41:03.920
For them, and.

1281
01:41:03.880 --> 01:41:06.960
They'll sit there and just have the monk offer prayers

1282
01:41:06.960 --> 01:41:10.920
to them. So it's a give and take situation. So

1283
01:41:11.039 --> 01:41:14.880
the monk sits in the monastery all day meditating and

1284
01:41:15.039 --> 01:41:21.079
practicing for the rest of the people in Thailand, and

1285
01:41:21.119 --> 01:41:24.920
they can just get on with their lives and not

1286
01:41:25.079 --> 01:41:28.560
have to do that. So it's a very different way

1287
01:41:28.640 --> 01:41:35.479
to how the Western meditators work. Really, I mean it isn't.

1288
01:41:35.479 --> 01:41:39.399
It isn't though we don't I say, we are not

1289
01:41:39.560 --> 01:41:43.800
that involved I've been involved for years. Really, in my

1290
01:41:43.880 --> 01:41:56.119
mind I am, but in practice I'm not. Yeah, I'm

1291
01:41:56.159 --> 01:42:02.880
trying to think other things. What this is the irony?

1292
01:42:03.239 --> 01:42:11.600
When I got back this my tour guide started contacting me,

1293
01:42:11.960 --> 01:42:15.840
asking me for stuff. So I ended up buying a television,

1294
01:42:16.840 --> 01:42:20.960
ended up sending them money, all these kinds of things

1295
01:42:21.520 --> 01:42:25.399
by I forget was called some app And in the

1296
01:42:25.479 --> 01:42:27.079
end I just had to cut her off because she

1297
01:42:27.159 --> 01:42:30.600
was just kept asking for more, more, more, more and

1298
01:42:30.760 --> 01:42:35.159
more and more. But she was a good tour guide.

1299
01:42:35.800 --> 01:42:39.840
So I paid her to do to take me around,

1300
01:42:40.199 --> 01:42:43.439
paid her for everything that she needed. Food, We went

1301
01:42:43.800 --> 01:42:49.600
and fed the dogs. We got food off her. What's it.

1302
01:42:49.760 --> 01:42:55.640
There's this uh street food vendor and he was making

1303
01:42:55.680 --> 01:42:59.319
these like meat stick things on sticks, almost like kebabs,

1304
01:42:59.359 --> 01:43:03.800
I suppose, and there'd be three in a pack, and

1305
01:43:03.880 --> 01:43:07.880
maybe they'd had vegetables on them as well. And I

1306
01:43:07.920 --> 01:43:12.159
bought the entire store and we walked through the beach.

1307
01:43:12.680 --> 01:43:15.239
And it's good to have her with me because she

1308
01:43:15.319 --> 01:43:21.119
knew who not to approach. She said, don't go near them.

1309
01:43:21.319 --> 01:43:24.920
They don't like foreigners, because some people didn't like the

1310
01:43:25.039 --> 01:43:30.119
you know people. She just knew who was who. So

1311
01:43:31.439 --> 01:43:36.960
we would give out the food along the beach and

1312
01:43:37.039 --> 01:43:40.079
I thought, and then we walked back after doing that,

1313
01:43:41.960 --> 01:43:45.199
I couldn't believe that stare was full again, full of food.

1314
01:43:46.640 --> 01:43:50.039
I thought I'd done him a favor. You go home now. Nope,

1315
01:43:50.840 --> 01:43:53.720
he just appeared out of nowhere. It's almost like he

1316
01:43:53.840 --> 01:43:55.520
just shook it like a magic trick and all the

1317
01:43:55.560 --> 01:43:59.760
food is there again. Wow. So we've got a load

1318
01:43:59.800 --> 01:44:03.880
of more food and fed the dogs. So there's a

1319
01:44:03.880 --> 01:44:08.399
lot of stray dogs around. To start feeding dogs, some

1320
01:44:08.479 --> 01:44:11.439
of them just have to kind of chuck the meat

1321
01:44:11.479 --> 01:44:13.920
and let them eat it. And there was this big

1322
01:44:14.039 --> 01:44:20.920
pound of massive gate and there's that waste ground or whatever, and.

1323
01:44:20.880 --> 01:44:21.239
It was.

1324
01:44:22.720 --> 01:44:27.119
Huge amounts of dogs behind there. So I'd be chucking

1325
01:44:27.159 --> 01:44:34.319
food over there for them and it was cool. I

1326
01:44:34.439 --> 01:44:37.920
got to do things that I probably never would get

1327
01:44:37.920 --> 01:44:41.319
to do here. I mean, I can't go around feeding

1328
01:44:41.399 --> 01:44:44.319
stray dogs in the UK because there ain't none. Really,

1329
01:44:48.520 --> 01:44:52.720
there's not going to walk on a beach and give

1330
01:44:52.720 --> 01:44:56.399
out food to people some bathing on a beach because

1331
01:44:56.399 --> 01:45:01.239
they probably don't want that. It's a different scenario. Plus

1332
01:45:01.239 --> 01:45:04.159
people aren't sleeping on the beach at night in this

1333
01:45:04.279 --> 01:45:06.319
kind Well maybe they are. I don't know. I've not

1334
01:45:06.840 --> 01:45:08.680
been everywhere, but there was a lot of people were

1335
01:45:09.680 --> 01:45:16.239
on the beach late at night, just sleeping, so there

1336
01:45:16.319 --> 01:45:19.119
was that. Another thing I quite liked there was this.

1337
01:45:20.159 --> 01:45:22.000
It sounds like I'm just bragging about what I did,

1338
01:45:22.039 --> 01:45:23.720
but this is just what I did. It's not really

1339
01:45:23.720 --> 01:45:29.600
bragging and just it was something I'm I'm glad I

1340
01:45:29.680 --> 01:45:33.840
got to do. And yeah, so I did a few

1341
01:45:33.840 --> 01:45:39.159
other things like that as well, but I'm glad I've

1342
01:45:39.199 --> 01:45:47.199
got to do that. Yeah, I am. It's a shame

1343
01:45:47.279 --> 01:45:50.560
to I don't think it kind of worked out so

1344
01:45:50.720 --> 01:45:53.600
well That's what I would have wanted it to, but

1345
01:45:55.039 --> 01:45:57.119
it's it was a great experience to be able to

1346
01:45:57.199 --> 01:46:04.039
do that. So yeah, that was my Thailand, one of

1347
01:46:04.039 --> 01:46:07.239
my one of my Thailand journeys. I think I've talked

1348
01:46:08.720 --> 01:46:12.680
forever about this now, so I didn't have any other questions.

1349
01:46:14.079 --> 01:46:21.279
So yeah, thank you, thank you. What I'm going to do,

1350
01:46:21.359 --> 01:46:23.960
Wait a minute, I'm going to go into my website. Okay,

1351
01:46:25.119 --> 01:46:30.119
go into my website and let me see if it works.

1352
01:46:30.159 --> 01:46:35.279
If I go to Jasonnewland dot com ask Me Anything

1353
01:46:35.399 --> 01:46:37.880
Q and a Friday submission right at the top of

1354
01:46:37.920 --> 01:46:45.319
the page. So I'm going to put in right Willie

1355
01:46:45.359 --> 01:47:06.159
Warmer email, Willy Warmer at booby So my question have

1356
01:47:06.279 --> 01:47:10.000
you I'd like to give different weird funny names. Have

1357
01:47:10.079 --> 01:47:22.640
you always been so handsome? Right? So that's the question.

1358
01:47:23.600 --> 01:47:26.159
So I'll see what comes through. I said, Look, so

1359
01:47:26.159 --> 01:47:29.279
I'm gonna submit that or it's asking me, Am I

1360
01:47:29.319 --> 01:47:32.920
a robot? No, I'm not a robot sending the message

1361
01:47:33.000 --> 01:47:36.840
was sent successfully, so let me see if the message

1362
01:47:36.880 --> 01:47:43.840
came up in the junk mail it has. Let me click.

1363
01:47:44.560 --> 01:47:52.239
So the message from Williwarmer. Oh, this message sent from

1364
01:47:52.560 --> 01:47:57.000
Jason dot com Williwarmer email, Williwarmer at boobies dot com

1365
01:47:57.800 --> 01:48:02.399
form type contact. Have you always been so handsome? There's

1366
01:48:02.439 --> 01:48:04.359
no d in that, so I should have done it wrong.

1367
01:48:04.720 --> 01:48:09.399
So it works so that if you have questions for

1368
01:48:09.560 --> 01:48:16.279
next Friday. For next Friday, you can start adding now

1369
01:48:17.600 --> 01:48:20.600
so that next Friday I can actually answer some questions

1370
01:48:20.680 --> 01:48:26.119
rather than this has been like a more like an

1371
01:48:26.239 --> 01:48:33.039
ordinary let me boy to sleep, really, isn't it? Which

1372
01:48:33.079 --> 01:48:38.000
is fine? But it's just weird. Just I don't think

1373
01:48:38.000 --> 01:48:40.560
I have a ever have a week where it was

1374
01:48:40.640 --> 01:48:44.960
just one question, because I haven't the whole time i've

1375
01:48:45.000 --> 01:48:48.920
been doing this, and the Q and a Friday is

1376
01:48:48.920 --> 01:48:52.079
wonderful was the first one. I don't know if I've

1377
01:48:52.079 --> 01:48:55.359
got it. I've got a something like Q and a

1378
01:48:55.479 --> 01:48:59.079
Friday one hundred and seventy two episodes. Okay, that's with

1379
01:48:59.159 --> 01:49:02.560
all the different ones. So let's see when was the

1380
01:49:02.600 --> 01:49:10.079
first one. The first one was, oh, my goodness, you

1381
01:49:10.119 --> 01:49:15.319
won't even believe this, that you might be asleep now

1382
01:49:15.359 --> 01:49:20.800
that if you are awake, you won't believe it. The

1383
01:49:20.920 --> 01:49:26.520
very first Q and a Friday was a tenth of

1384
01:49:26.560 --> 01:49:31.159
April twenty twenty four, and it's now the eleventh of

1385
01:49:31.199 --> 01:49:41.680
April twenty twenty five. So I have literally done every

1386
01:49:41.800 --> 01:49:49.239
single week since then. I don't know if I've missed

1387
01:49:49.239 --> 01:49:55.119
any out. I'm pretty sure I've done every week. In fact,

1388
01:49:57.079 --> 01:50:10.359
i'm pretty sure I have blimey wow wow a year.

1389
01:50:12.439 --> 01:50:14.920
So this is a year of letting boy to sleep,

1390
01:50:14.960 --> 01:50:22.279
and it's probably the worst one yet. One question I

1391
01:50:22.279 --> 01:50:23.880
should have put that If I have known that, I

1392
01:50:23.880 --> 01:50:28.439
could have put the first year anniversary Q and a Friday.

1393
01:50:29.840 --> 01:50:35.800
I think he's moaning now. I don't know what he wants. Wow, blimey. Okay, anyway,

1394
01:50:36.359 --> 01:50:39.960
I'm going to go. Thank you for listening. Remember Q

1395
01:50:40.119 --> 01:50:44.560
and it Oh. Tonight is the fiction night for celebrity

1396
01:50:44.600 --> 01:50:49.279
Big Brother. I think that's on at nine o'clock. So

1397
01:50:49.279 --> 01:50:52.720
I've been watching that at nine. It's now caught past seven,

1398
01:50:53.439 --> 01:51:01.039
which means probably get myself some food and then I

1399
01:51:01.079 --> 01:51:05.840
will watch the end of a movie that I started

1400
01:51:05.840 --> 01:51:10.079
to watch. Well, actually know what I'll do play watch

1401
01:51:10.600 --> 01:51:13.159
watch something while I do that. Well, maybe i'll try

1402
01:51:13.159 --> 01:51:17.159
and edit this now. I want to get this edited

1403
01:51:17.199 --> 01:51:21.760
before Big Brother starts. It's even out. I'll do it

1404
01:51:21.840 --> 01:51:24.880
first thing in the morning. I'd kind of like to

1405
01:51:24.920 --> 01:51:31.880
do it tonight. Yeah, we'll see. So thank you for listening,

1406
01:51:32.119 --> 01:51:35.479
Thank you Hillary for your question. And sorry, there's only

1407
01:51:35.520 --> 01:51:41.439
one one answer to give. Please and thank you for listening.

1408
01:51:41.479 --> 01:51:45.720
Remember to be kind to yourself and also be gentle

1409
01:51:45.760 --> 01:51:49.319
with yourself, because you deserve to be happy and you

1410
01:51:49.359 --> 01:52:02.600
do deserve to feel safe. What's of love? Bye? Relax

1411
01:52:06.239 --> 01:52:16.800
in a more deep and meaningful way, Maybe in a

1412
01:52:16.840 --> 01:52:24.399
way that can not just allow you to feel calmer

1413
01:52:25.560 --> 01:52:34.960
now and throughout the time we spend together here, not

1414
01:52:35.520 --> 01:52:41.439
just relaxed. At the end of the recording when it's finished,

1415
01:52:41.520 --> 01:52:48.079
and you can enjoy that sense of comfort and peace.

1416
01:52:52.800 --> 01:53:05.640
But also I think it would be nice to have

1417
01:53:06.119 --> 01:53:23.159
those feelings of relaxation continue for longer after the recording

1418
01:53:23.199 --> 01:53:36.680
has ended, so that you can still benefit from listening

1419
01:53:37.560 --> 01:53:46.479
to my voice, maybe in a few hours time, perhaps tomorrow,

1420
01:53:52.520 --> 01:54:00.359
and then by listening regularly, especially if you find like

1421
01:54:00.479 --> 01:54:04.359
some people do and myself as well. Sometimes I find

1422
01:54:04.439 --> 01:54:14.800
one particular recording that really resonates with me, and I

1423
01:54:14.960 --> 01:54:19.920
just listen to it over and over again every morning,

1424
01:54:20.119 --> 01:54:32.680
every evening. There was this recording from We're going back

1425
01:54:32.720 --> 01:54:38.199
to about nineteen ninety nine. It wasn't hypnosis, but it

1426
01:54:38.319 --> 01:54:43.640
was a guided visualizations. It kind of was hypnosis, really.

1427
01:54:45.840 --> 01:54:46.319
And.

1428
01:54:48.000 --> 01:54:51.319
I managed to find it again and it still has

1429
01:54:51.359 --> 01:54:56.960
the same effect on me. And part of it was

1430
01:55:00.600 --> 01:55:11.680
the person's voice relaxed me. She just felt so peaceful,

1431
01:55:13.720 --> 01:55:20.199
and I'd look forward to listening to her in the

1432
01:55:20.279 --> 01:55:30.960
morning and in the evening. And I knew before even

1433
01:55:31.720 --> 01:55:40.239
pressing the play button that since I've done that pressed

1434
01:55:40.239 --> 01:55:48.800
the play button. This was in the days of CD

1435
01:55:48.960 --> 01:55:57.640
players pressed the play button. In fact, it might have

1436
01:55:57.720 --> 01:56:02.079
even been a tape tape recorder I'd lie down on

1437
01:56:02.119 --> 01:56:14.960
a bed and then even without necessarily listening to her

1438
01:56:15.119 --> 01:56:28.079
words because I had them memorized. Really, it was as

1439
01:56:28.079 --> 01:56:38.800
if my body knew exactly what to do, and the

1440
01:56:38.960 --> 01:57:01.000
muscles just almost went into automatic relaxation, and I remember

1441
01:57:01.119 --> 01:57:15.159
my mind would slow down. Now. Now, I was listening

1442
01:57:15.199 --> 01:57:21.960
to this recording in the early days of learning hypnosis,

1443
01:57:24.520 --> 01:57:32.359
and long before I ever made any videos or audio

1444
01:57:32.399 --> 01:57:37.199
recordings myself, because I didn't start doing that till two

1445
01:57:37.199 --> 01:57:56.520
thousand and six, I knew, I knew how helpful I

1446
01:57:56.600 --> 01:58:07.039
found being able to just let go, to have that

1447
01:58:07.279 --> 01:58:19.880
trust in the person that I'm listening to, knowing that

1448
01:58:19.960 --> 01:58:28.279
it's going to be just as relaxing, if not more so.

1449
01:58:30.960 --> 01:58:37.920
Each time you hear my voice, you may feel the same.

1450
01:58:44.279 --> 01:58:58.880
Some people have been listening to me for over a decade,

1451
01:58:59.680 --> 01:59:03.760
maybe not solidly, obviously not twenty four hours a day,

1452
01:59:05.479 --> 01:59:22.079
but maybe people come back. Some people maybe listen every day.

1453
01:59:23.760 --> 01:59:29.720
That's something that I do which you may not realize

1454
01:59:32.119 --> 01:59:50.720
by listening, is when I record these recordings. Now, for example,

1455
01:59:55.239 --> 02:00:07.279
I also am affected by the words that I say.

1456
02:00:08.319 --> 02:00:17.640
So if I set you focus on your feet, notice

1457
02:00:17.760 --> 02:00:24.960
your feet relaxing, I will be focusing on my feet,

1458
02:00:29.840 --> 02:00:47.279
I will be noticing my feet relaxing. If I said,

1459
02:00:47.399 --> 02:00:55.079
focus on your hands and maybe notice the difference between

1460
02:00:55.119 --> 02:01:05.960
each hand, Perhaps noticed the air in the room, the

1461
02:01:06.079 --> 02:01:10.720
temperature of the room. On the backs of your hands.

1462
02:01:18.520 --> 02:01:22.399
You may start to notice what almost feels like a

1463
02:01:22.560 --> 02:01:30.600
very light breeze, even though there may not be any

1464
02:01:31.000 --> 02:01:35.920
type of breeze at all where you are right now.

1465
02:01:44.119 --> 02:01:54.720
And as you become aware of your hands, I'm also

1466
02:01:55.039 --> 02:02:08.520
aware of how really baxed my hands, our feeling now

1467
02:02:23.159 --> 02:02:29.000
and when it comes to potentially drifting off to sleep,

1468
02:02:30.119 --> 02:02:42.680
which may be the reason you're listening, I also feel

1469
02:02:42.840 --> 02:02:57.079
drowsy when I make these recordings. I also notice my

1470
02:02:57.359 --> 02:03:13.680
mind drift. In fact, at times I've actually fallen asleep

1471
02:03:19.279 --> 02:03:33.439
without even noticing, and then I carry on talking. And

1472
02:03:33.520 --> 02:03:39.000
it's only when I listen back to do the editing

1473
02:03:42.760 --> 02:03:48.880
I hear snoring and I think I don't remember snoring.

1474
02:03:52.159 --> 02:03:58.960
I remember talking. This snoring was a pick turned up.

1475
02:04:02.960 --> 02:04:10.439
That's why I sound like when I snore. How I

1476
02:04:10.439 --> 02:04:23.960
get really into the whole experience. I don't know how

1477
02:04:24.039 --> 02:04:33.279
you feel. How relaxed do you feel in your feet,

1478
02:04:36.399 --> 02:04:59.319
How relaxed you feel in your hands. I have noticed

1479
02:05:01.920 --> 02:05:18.159
more and more that the more relaxed, deeper level of

1480
02:05:18.359 --> 02:05:35.600
comfort you feel, the easier you're breathing becomes. It's almost

1481
02:05:36.000 --> 02:05:56.359
like that additional muscle relaxation. So this allows you to

1482
02:05:56.520 --> 02:06:22.880
breathe easier without necessarily focusing on your breath. However, being

1483
02:06:22.920 --> 02:06:52.600
able to notice the ease in which you breathe so naturally.

1484
02:07:07.239 --> 02:07:44.720
You breathe so very easily and smoothly. Whenever I imagine

1485
02:07:49.880 --> 02:08:05.960
my breathing improving when I've got my eyes closed, I

1486
02:08:06.239 --> 02:08:19.680
tend to visualize a beautiful field with trees and flowers

1487
02:08:26.479 --> 02:08:52.560
producing all of that life giving oxygen. And it feels

1488
02:08:52.680 --> 02:09:14.479
nice to, if nothing else, just taking some time away

1489
02:09:19.159 --> 02:10:02.479
from everything, enjoying that feeling of peace, serenity with a

1490
02:10:02.840 --> 02:10:54.760
joyful heart. Time seems to just drip by, so very slowly, relaxed,

1491
02:11:00.640 --> 02:11:39.760
so deeply peaceful, completely unattached to any thoughts whatsoever in

1492
02:11:39.920 --> 02:12:44.319
this moment, completely free, noticing that your mind has slowed down.

1493
02:12:52.600 --> 02:13:39.319
Slowed down because nothing really requires your attention. You can

1494
02:13:39.560 --> 02:13:55.600
enjoy the physical sensations of allowing the stress to rip

1495
02:13:56.439 --> 02:14:09.840
out of your body, to appear out at every part

1496
02:14:16.199 --> 02:14:40.960
of your body, and being released from your brain, your

1497
02:14:41.079 --> 02:15:32.279
mind slowly but surely. The muscles in your legs relax

1498
02:15:37.239 --> 02:16:25.680
res res so very deep, thing reacts so deeply. And

1499
02:16:25.920 --> 02:16:35.879
the feelings, the pleasant feelings in your arms and shoulders,

1500
02:16:53.719 --> 02:17:06.559
deepening each part of your body the earth, and deeper

1501
02:17:17.280 --> 02:17:38.559
and deeper, not to say, the feelings in the back

1502
02:17:38.639 --> 02:18:40.360
of your neck, the feelings in your wrists, muscles. In

1503
02:18:40.639 --> 02:19:17.520
front of your body, I will say, feeling peaceful deeply,

1504
02:19:34.600 --> 02:19:44.879
there's a sense of peace spreads through your very core.

1505
02:20:15.399 --> 02:20:35.319
Even when you focus on your mind. Her mind becomes

1506
02:20:42.639 --> 02:22:05.520
a and slower deep relaxing, so very slow, his stomach

1507
02:22:19.639 --> 02:23:01.600
paste fellow in your stomach, held back. Notice, Notice how

1508
02:23:01.840 --> 02:23:19.840
relaxed you now feel in the hole of your back.

1509
02:23:45.000 --> 02:23:52.639
In a spy from your brain all the way down

1510
02:23:54.000 --> 02:24:03.840
the middle of your back, sending into receiving millions of

1511
02:24:04.120 --> 02:25:05.719
messages every day, deep comfort, increasing deeply relaxed. Your knees

1512
02:25:31.399 --> 02:25:45.200
relax spreading those signals down your spine or cord into air,

1513
02:25:45.520 --> 02:26:05.040
every part of your body, your shins and your calf muscles,

1514
02:26:32.159 --> 02:27:01.680
your outbows, feelings of peace and tranquility spreading through your body,

1515
02:27:06.680 --> 02:27:22.959
tips of your toes to your eyes, your fingers, all

1516
02:27:22.959 --> 02:27:59.879
the way till you'll lower back, lettinger reatinker m hm,

1517
02:28:08.319 --> 02:28:50.159
place to drift in mind, the wandering away, happy to

1518
02:28:50.479 --> 02:29:55.680
let go, Let go completely like her said tranquil, Oh body,

1519
02:30:00.200 --> 02:32:16.319
joy and of sense, listing God for more. Ey enjoy

1520
02:32:22.040 --> 02:32:26.920
the space, this space.

1521
02:32:29.559 --> 02:32:30.639
Of peace.

1522
02:32:33.840 --> 02:34:56.799
And safety. Surery lett him go. Maybe we can just

1523
02:35:00.000 --> 02:35:07.959
because some of the different parts of your body. Just

1524
02:35:08.479 --> 02:36:17.399
to notice your forehead and your eyes mutual, so loose,

1525
02:36:37.079 --> 02:38:10.200
noticing in the sense of complete freedom, absolute freedom, day, pace,

1526
02:38:10.600 --> 02:38:53.879
fall energy, pace, to breathe, such easy.

1527
02:39:35.680 --> 02:39:57.840
Yes, you may.

1528
02:40:01.680 --> 02:41:01.680
You may not have noticed your mind drifting, peaceful move

1529
02:41:02.159 --> 02:41:22.639
ay even more deeply in the direction of total blissful pace,

1530
02:41:26.879 --> 02:42:46.879
blissful pace directed to pace.

1531
02:43:11.280 --> 02:43:57.040
Col sir Colm, let him go, peace with.

1532
02:43:57.399 --> 02:44:08.079
Mind x.

1533
02:44:12.479 --> 02:45:26.879
Foty cy rex cyrex. Your body feels almost invisible, so

1534
02:45:27.600 --> 02:45:39.680
very relaxed and paceful, so.

1535
02:45:47.399 --> 02:46:11.840
Pace from r like a.

1536
02:46:28.040 --> 02:46:50.120
So so, sir. And you could start to notice that

1537
02:46:51.159 --> 02:47:01.920
you are feeling more relaxed, even though I've not purposely

1538
02:47:03.360 --> 02:47:12.319
focused your mind upon that sense of physical comfort that

1539
02:47:12.520 --> 02:47:19.520
is growing within you throughout your body, and your mind

1540
02:47:21.639 --> 02:47:30.040
starts to slow down, and that could be almost in

1541
02:47:30.920 --> 02:47:39.520
recognition of I guess my speech not being particularly fast,

1542
02:47:46.079 --> 02:47:56.440
and things just generally feel calmer. Just by listening to

1543
02:47:56.600 --> 02:48:05.200
my voice, you give yourself an opportunity to take a

1544
02:48:05.319 --> 02:48:12.120
break from the day, take a break from your life

1545
02:48:13.280 --> 02:48:21.719
as it is, and to give yourself a rest, giving

1546
02:48:21.799 --> 02:48:29.239
yourself permission to take some time off, and to allow

1547
02:48:29.440 --> 02:48:35.600
your body to relax and allow your mind to slow down,

1548
02:48:39.680 --> 02:48:47.559
which in turn releases the tension any stresses that you

1549
02:48:47.799 --> 02:48:57.680
had in your body. It's almost as if the parts

1550
02:48:57.719 --> 02:49:02.879
of your body just open up, allowing the negativity out

1551
02:49:09.760 --> 02:49:15.719
and at the same time replacing that negativity with positive

1552
02:49:16.959 --> 02:49:25.079
healing energy, which then fills your body up and your

1553
02:49:25.239 --> 02:49:42.079
mind to also starts to appreciate those feelings of increasing confidence,

1554
02:49:45.959 --> 02:50:02.559
an almost uplifting feeling, positive healing, an energy that spreads

1555
02:50:03.040 --> 02:50:13.840
through your body like a wave of comfort. And all

1556
02:50:13.920 --> 02:50:25.959
this comes from just allowing yourself a few minutes, maybe

1557
02:50:26.120 --> 02:50:28.680
half an hour, however long you want it to be,

1558
02:50:30.239 --> 02:50:32.399
to just rest.

1559
02:50:37.479 --> 02:50:38.479
And allow.

1560
02:50:40.639 --> 02:50:50.639
Your mind and your body to almost reset itself to

1561
02:50:50.760 --> 02:51:06.920
the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness, which allows more

1562
02:51:07.120 --> 02:51:20.479
room for feelings of pleasure and happiness to move around

1563
02:51:20.760 --> 02:51:29.000
your body and into your mind, almost as if your

1564
02:51:29.120 --> 02:51:39.639
mind and your body are sinking together, almost mirroring each

1565
02:51:39.920 --> 02:51:53.239
other with that growing positivity and calmness, and it feels nice,

1566
02:51:55.840 --> 02:52:01.719
really does feel nice to know that you are the

1567
02:52:01.879 --> 02:52:15.159
one that has allowed yourself to feel more comfort and

1568
02:52:15.399 --> 02:52:29.239
to experience more of this deep relaxation spreading throughout your body.

1569
02:52:36.280 --> 02:52:41.559
And as I focus on each part of your body,

1570
02:52:43.959 --> 02:52:56.040
you can notice that that part becomes even more relaxed

1571
02:52:58.040 --> 02:53:06.879
just by focusing on it. It becomes even more calm

1572
02:53:07.159 --> 02:53:17.840
and comfortable just by focusing. And as I move down

1573
02:53:18.079 --> 02:53:25.559
your body, starting at your head, the parts that you

1574
02:53:25.600 --> 02:53:35.559
have already focused on will continue to relax deeply, and

1575
02:53:35.680 --> 02:53:41.760
those parts that have not yet focused on or just

1576
02:53:41.920 --> 02:53:54.200
automatically release any remain intention in anticipation of even more

1577
02:53:54.920 --> 02:54:06.680
comfort about to come. Now, I'm going to start by

1578
02:54:06.840 --> 02:54:14.399
focusing on your forehead. Just being aware of the feelings

1579
02:54:14.520 --> 02:54:24.799
of your forehead and any background sounds like mister Herbert

1580
02:54:24.920 --> 02:54:30.399
o Pigeon can just allow you to feel even more relaxed.

1581
02:54:34.319 --> 02:54:40.440
Just means you in the moment, this isn't this isn't

1582
02:54:40.440 --> 02:54:48.440
a sterile environment. This is the world. I live in

1583
02:54:48.520 --> 02:55:00.840
the countryside, so there's lots of nature sounds around, so

1584
02:55:00.920 --> 02:55:06.040
as you focus on your forehead. Just notice how it

1585
02:55:06.319 --> 02:55:16.200
becomes even more relaxed as you focus only on my

1586
02:55:16.520 --> 02:55:26.000
voice and that part of your body. Moving down to

1587
02:55:26.159 --> 02:55:39.120
your eyes, focusing on your eyes, noticing how your eyelids

1588
02:55:39.360 --> 02:55:46.360
feel so heavy yet so light at the same time,

1589
02:55:49.760 --> 02:56:00.440
and all the muscles around your eyes relaxing completely. Moving

1590
02:56:00.559 --> 02:56:07.680
your focus down to your mouth, your lips, your tongue,

1591
02:56:08.959 --> 02:56:21.159
your teeth, you comes, the whole of your mouth, relaxing, calm.

1592
02:56:22.319 --> 02:56:23.079
And loose.

1593
02:56:27.319 --> 02:56:35.159
As you focus now on your jaw, not just the

1594
02:56:35.280 --> 02:56:40.079
parts of your jaw, ney, your mouth, your chin, but

1595
02:56:40.239 --> 02:56:44.360
all the way up the size of your face to

1596
02:56:44.479 --> 02:56:58.239
your ears, the hole of your jaw, feeding more relaxed

1597
02:57:02.399 --> 02:57:19.799
and calm. Focusing on your neck, the front of your

1598
02:57:19.920 --> 02:57:32.399
neck and your throat relaxing and loose and calm. The

1599
02:57:32.760 --> 02:57:38.120
sides of your neck, the right and the left side

1600
02:57:38.319 --> 02:57:56.639
of your neck relaxt and lace and calm. And now

1601
02:57:56.959 --> 02:58:03.399
the back of your neck. Focus in on the back

1602
02:58:03.680 --> 02:58:13.920
of your neck, letting go of any tension that may

1603
02:58:13.959 --> 02:58:24.479
have been there before, and enjoying that sense of increasing

1604
02:58:26.079 --> 02:58:34.639
comfort and release that you can experience in the back

1605
02:58:34.719 --> 02:58:47.200
of your neck. Moving down your back and moving either

1606
02:58:47.440 --> 02:58:51.520
side of your spine right from the top of your

1607
02:58:51.600 --> 02:58:57.440
back all the way down to the bottom of your back,

1608
02:59:03.520 --> 02:59:14.920
down to your lower back. As you move up and

1609
02:59:15.079 --> 02:59:24.120
down your spine, you can feel the muscles either side

1610
02:59:24.159 --> 02:59:38.879
of your spine relaxing even more. And as those muscles relax,

1611
02:59:41.040 --> 02:59:48.879
that sense of comfort starts to spread outwards from your

1612
02:59:49.040 --> 02:59:58.559
spine into both sides of your back, the top of

1613
02:59:58.639 --> 03:00:05.559
your back, the middle en your lower back. And as

1614
03:00:05.639 --> 03:00:13.079
you scan gently and slowly up and down your back,

1615
03:00:15.479 --> 03:00:19.799
there's the muscles in the top of your back relax

1616
03:00:20.399 --> 03:00:28.000
and become looser. The muscles in the middle of your

1617
03:00:28.079 --> 03:00:35.520
back also seem to just almost divide from each other,

1618
03:00:36.479 --> 03:00:52.719
separating and almost melting. And in your lower back there

1619
03:00:52.799 --> 03:01:00.120
seems to be an extra special feeling. I've come that

1620
03:01:05.440 --> 03:01:11.600
the spreads into your hips, sit down your lower back,

1621
03:01:11.879 --> 03:01:19.879
into your hips, into the area where your cosicks are,

1622
03:01:23.440 --> 03:01:29.639
and into your buttocks, and all those muscles that spread

1623
03:01:32.360 --> 03:01:42.120
bring your lower back into your hip area start to melt,

1624
03:01:46.559 --> 03:01:59.040
start to really let go, and even nowhere about to

1625
03:01:59.520 --> 03:02:06.239
focus on your shoulders, your back and your spine will

1626
03:02:06.360 --> 03:02:27.559
continue to let go, continue to relax so calmly, and

1627
03:02:27.600 --> 03:02:33.120
as you focus on your shoulders. You may notice they're

1628
03:02:33.360 --> 03:03:04.200
already feeling really loose, they're already feating calm and fear.

1629
03:03:08.520 --> 03:03:16.840
Those muscles then move from your neck into your shoulders.

1630
03:03:23.399 --> 03:03:52.760
Feel so soft and gentle, so smooth and calm, and

1631
03:03:53.000 --> 03:04:05.840
the feeling in your shoulders seems to spread deep into

1632
03:04:05.920 --> 03:04:16.360
your shoulders, a sense of relaxation, not just traveling deeply

1633
03:04:16.719 --> 03:04:33.719
into your muscles, but also relaxing the bones and moving

1634
03:04:33.840 --> 03:04:42.079
all the way to underneath your arms, relaxing the whole

1635
03:04:42.280 --> 03:04:47.280
area between the tops of your shoulders and underneath your

1636
03:04:47.440 --> 03:04:52.600
arms healing.

1637
03:04:58.040 --> 03:04:58.680
You feel so.

1638
03:05:00.639 --> 03:05:12.719
Relaxed and comfortable in your shoulders, which sense that's.

1639
03:05:14.360 --> 03:05:16.280
Deep healing.

1640
03:05:19.360 --> 03:05:36.840
Message into your arms. You may feel almost as if

1641
03:05:36.959 --> 03:05:43.440
your arms are not even there, because they're so relaxed,

1642
03:05:46.680 --> 03:06:32.920
so deeply relaxed, so so calm, so this the feels

1643
03:06:33.159 --> 03:06:50.959
spreading all down your arms to elbows, including your elbows.

1644
03:07:00.840 --> 03:07:25.840
Circumfort spreads away into rests, your forarments, dr wrists so heavy,

1645
03:07:29.520 --> 03:08:10.959
yet at the same time, sunlight and gentle fuy cossine.

1646
03:08:13.319 --> 03:08:14.319
Now on.

1647
03:08:17.000 --> 03:08:41.040
Your hands, my hands.

1648
03:08:46.920 --> 03:08:49.799
So peaceful.

1649
03:08:50.799 --> 03:08:51.760
In your hands.

1650
03:09:10.639 --> 03:09:12.079
The sensor.

1651
03:09:15.079 --> 03:09:16.799
Real pace.

1652
03:09:28.559 --> 03:09:42.920
Just seems to feel so familiar when your hands relax

1653
03:09:44.239 --> 03:11:50.719
deeply else things things you think it taps maving attention

1654
03:11:52.120 --> 03:12:20.200
to affront to your body s couns my man new

1655
03:12:20.399 --> 03:14:04.559
focus till legs like muscles and your fis and niece,

1656
03:14:08.639 --> 03:14:46.319
I relaxed, cough muscles just shads a crazy a.

1657
03:15:01.639 --> 03:16:46.520
Us see then.

1658
03:16:48.000 --> 03:17:45.079
You faint, sir pas on cy sad peaceful sycom Sir,

1659
03:17:45.719 --> 03:18:09.399
peaceful sycom so peace for RelA, same.

1660
03:18:14.360 --> 03:18:16.159
Peace fall.

1661
03:18:20.120 --> 03:18:29.040
Col love, that.

1662
03:18:29.520 --> 03:18:49.520
Deep relaxation to spread your chest your stormy RelA lets

1663
03:18:49.600 --> 03:19:08.319
me go everything. So I'm gonna start counting down now

1664
03:19:11.000 --> 03:19:19.719
from twenty down to one. You can imagine in a

1665
03:19:19.760 --> 03:19:25.559
way it's like just walking down some steps and each

1666
03:19:25.760 --> 03:19:31.440
step or twenty steps, and each step represents a level

1667
03:19:31.959 --> 03:19:44.680
of comfort. Each step represents a deepening of that comfort,

1668
03:19:51.319 --> 03:19:57.479
and the furvies you walk down those steps deeper and

1669
03:19:57.680 --> 03:21:53.639
more relaxed you feel. So starting with number twenty, twenty, nineteen, eighteen, seventeen,

1670
03:22:40.000 --> 03:26:47.200
sixteenhhhhhhhhh three fourhhh four s too well.

1671
03:27:34.479 --> 03:30:02.479
Set usu.

1672
03:30:02.520 --> 03:31:05.639
No eight.

1673
03:32:05.079 --> 03:39:33.159
Shhhh six five us four hund.

1674
03:40:45.760 --> 03:40:45.799
No.

1675
03:40:50.559 --> 03:41:03.200
As you focus on your eyes, We're gonna count down

1676
03:41:03.600 --> 03:41:14.760
from ten down to one, focusing just on your eyes,

1677
03:41:18.520 --> 03:41:27.000
your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your eye walls themselves,

1678
03:41:28.520 --> 03:41:45.559
our whole area that makes up your eye. And as

1679
03:41:45.639 --> 03:41:53.959
we count down from ten down to one, whilst focus

1680
03:41:54.159 --> 03:42:09.159
in on your eyes, you'll become twice is relaxed with

1681
03:42:09.559 --> 03:42:22.479
each number counting down that you may find the all

1682
03:42:22.600 --> 03:42:28.799
you want to do is just drift off to sleep.

1683
03:42:31.760 --> 03:42:38.360
And if that's what you want, then just allow yourself

1684
03:42:38.479 --> 03:42:53.120
to do that. Now, focusing on your eyes, I'm going

1685
03:42:53.239 --> 03:43:02.879
to begin counting down from ten down to one right

1686
03:43:03.040 --> 03:49:35.959
nowhhh T nine eight seven four three.

1687
03:51:20.200 --> 03:52:09.760
Us one.

1688
03:52:16.120 --> 03:52:32.799
So counting down from ten to one ten nine eight

1689
03:52:35.600 --> 03:53:00.440
seven six five four three two one. And maybe that

1690
03:53:00.639 --> 03:53:04.719
was a bit too quick in order to relax. Maybe

1691
03:53:04.760 --> 03:53:09.079
it's a bit too fast for you to notice the

1692
03:53:10.360 --> 03:53:17.200
calming of your body, maybe even a little bit of

1693
03:53:17.319 --> 03:53:21.239
pressure there, like you're counting down from ten to one.

1694
03:53:21.360 --> 03:53:24.799
Would you expect me to do? Man, expect me just

1695
03:53:24.920 --> 03:53:34.399
to go with floppy just because you're counting down. We

1696
03:53:34.440 --> 03:53:37.760
could try it again, but this time I'll go a

1697
03:53:37.799 --> 03:53:45.159
bit slower this time. Did you focus on the whole

1698
03:53:45.280 --> 03:53:51.520
of your body before we focus on your legs? Just

1699
03:53:51.760 --> 03:54:01.760
notice how your body does start to feel more relaxed

1700
03:54:06.520 --> 03:54:41.319
with every number that I count down ten nine eight, seven, six,

1701
03:54:49.760 --> 03:55:58.680
five four three two one. I just notice how how

1702
03:55:58.799 --> 03:56:08.879
you feel, generally, how your body feels. It's not necessarily

1703
03:56:08.959 --> 03:56:19.360
even about counting down from ten to one. It's that

1704
03:56:19.680 --> 03:56:39.360
space that you have, that space between being active physically

1705
03:56:39.559 --> 03:56:49.159
or mentally to just sitting or lying down, just being there,

1706
03:56:49.920 --> 03:56:55.360
not doing anything, not saying anything, or needing to think

1707
03:56:55.440 --> 03:57:01.360
about anything. So it opens up a space, you know,

1708
03:57:01.559 --> 03:57:10.879
a bit of a space, a gap. And the more

1709
03:57:12.159 --> 03:57:15.520
I came down from ten to one, the bigger that

1710
03:57:15.719 --> 03:57:26.680
gap becomes. So there's that gap of calmness, of comfort, relaxation.

1711
03:57:32.639 --> 03:57:45.000
It's a nice feeling, and it moves those stresses or

1712
03:57:45.520 --> 03:57:59.360
discomforts physically or emotionally moves away. Allows you.

1713
03:58:02.120 --> 03:58:02.600
To just.

1714
03:58:05.600 --> 03:58:11.920
Slow down, someone to count a game from ten down

1715
03:58:11.959 --> 03:58:21.959
to one, and notice that gap widening the gap. And

1716
03:58:22.040 --> 03:58:26.520
as it widens, it's almost like that the stress and

1717
03:58:26.639 --> 03:58:44.239
attention falls into the gap and gives you that distance,

1718
03:58:46.239 --> 03:58:47.000
that space.

1719
03:58:49.399 --> 03:58:54.879
Now ten.

1720
03:58:59.200 --> 04:00:56.200
Nine eight seven, six, five four three two one. How

1721
04:00:56.319 --> 04:01:00.079
did your body feel.

1722
04:01:02.040 --> 04:01:02.239
Now?

1723
04:01:14.920 --> 04:01:27.000
Can you notice that that you're feeling calmer there, You're

1724
04:01:27.159 --> 04:01:55.600
feeling more relaxed. As we now focus on your legs,

1725
04:01:57.280 --> 04:02:17.719
just your legs. We're just gonna start with focusing on

1726
04:02:18.200 --> 04:02:37.360
your thighs. Of course, it's not the most exciting thing

1727
04:02:37.479 --> 04:02:44.040
to be doing, because I'm sure, like most of your

1728
04:02:44.079 --> 04:02:55.760
body is not a lot going on right now. Just

1729
04:02:55.959 --> 04:03:02.079
focusing on the whole of your thighs, the tops of

1730
04:03:02.159 --> 04:03:08.239
your thighs, the sides of your fires the bottoms of

1731
04:03:08.319 --> 04:03:15.280
your thighs, your outer thighs, and your inner thighs. Basically

1732
04:03:15.479 --> 04:03:19.120
the whole of your thigh that leads into your hip

1733
04:03:23.200 --> 04:03:33.920
and it goes down to your knee joint. Now, this

1734
04:03:34.120 --> 04:03:41.559
is a big area. It's a very heavy area. It's

1735
04:03:41.760 --> 04:03:48.159
very strong, probably the strongest muscles in your body or

1736
04:03:48.239 --> 04:04:04.600
in your thighs. But I don't think we perhaps give

1737
04:04:04.719 --> 04:04:17.959
enough attention to our thighs. Perhaps we don't acknowledge how

1738
04:04:18.040 --> 04:04:39.920
important our thighs are to our lives, how much they

1739
04:04:40.040 --> 04:04:53.479
actually do for us all through our lives. And it

1740
04:04:53.719 --> 04:04:59.239
may seem to sound really weird, but I think that

1741
04:04:59.440 --> 04:05:07.319
all of our body parts, especially our thighs, need some TLC,

1742
04:05:10.639 --> 04:05:23.319
a bit of love shown, a bit of acknowledgement. I

1743
04:05:23.479 --> 04:05:39.159
thank you gratitude for our thighs do for us. And

1744
04:05:39.280 --> 04:05:45.159
I know this may sound a bit strange. Maybe you think,

1745
04:05:45.559 --> 04:05:48.520
why am I Surely I should be out in the

1746
04:05:48.600 --> 04:05:57.120
garden hugging a tree or something. Well, it's hard to

1747
04:05:57.200 --> 04:06:00.399
set a microphone up on a tree. That's why I'm

1748
04:06:00.440 --> 04:06:02.920
doing this indoors. Otherwise I wouldn't be outside ar in

1749
04:06:02.959 --> 04:06:06.440
a try. I can't see the television.

1750
04:06:05.959 --> 04:06:06.399
From the tree.

1751
04:06:13.159 --> 04:06:17.399
If you move down to your knees gain such an

1752
04:06:17.479 --> 04:06:27.159
important part. And I think we don't necessarily I'll speak

1753
04:06:27.239 --> 04:06:34.559
for myself here. I don't necessarily appreciate all that my

1754
04:06:34.760 --> 04:06:39.920
needs do for me until I have a problem with

1755
04:06:40.040 --> 04:06:45.159
my knee. It's occasionally, if I ever maybe i'll bash it,

1756
04:06:45.520 --> 04:06:51.319
or it's aching for some reason. It's then that I

1757
04:06:51.520 --> 04:06:56.959
realize how much it does. You know, the benefit of

1758
04:06:57.079 --> 04:07:04.520
being able to use my legs without any kind of

1759
04:07:04.680 --> 04:07:13.040
physical discomfort is a beautiful thing that's possibly not appreciated

1760
04:07:13.159 --> 04:07:24.200
until it's temporarily removed. You know that's comfort. But as

1761
04:07:24.239 --> 04:07:29.600
you focus on your knees, regardless of how your knees feel,

1762
04:07:32.719 --> 04:07:38.440
you can have that sense of gratitude and love to

1763
04:07:38.520 --> 04:07:51.159
your needs for all that they do for you, and

1764
04:07:51.319 --> 04:07:55.319
you can still have that attention on your thighs. Maybe

1765
04:07:55.479 --> 04:08:01.239
notice how your thighs feel maybe you have noticed that

1766
04:08:01.600 --> 04:08:20.319
they are relaxing more deeply as you focus now on

1767
04:08:20.440 --> 04:08:24.959
the bottoms of your legs, your shins, and your calf muscles,

1768
04:08:25.440 --> 04:08:33.680
the bones between your knees and your feet, incorporating of course,

1769
04:08:33.799 --> 04:08:45.559
your ankles so important. You know, anyone that's had even

1770
04:08:46.000 --> 04:08:52.600
like the slightest sprain of an ankle knows how how

1771
04:08:52.840 --> 04:09:02.959
much we take our ankles for granted. And it's kind

1772
04:09:03.000 --> 04:09:08.520
of strange in a way when you think that. You know, logically,

1773
04:09:08.879 --> 04:09:11.959
our wrists are a lot thinner than the rest of

1774
04:09:12.000 --> 04:09:17.159
our arms, which is okay, I can't see any problem

1775
04:09:17.200 --> 04:09:22.079
with that because we're just picking stuff up by our

1776
04:09:22.159 --> 04:09:28.000
ankles so much thinner than the rest of our legs.

1777
04:09:34.440 --> 04:09:38.840
And from a physics perspective or logical even it doesn't

1778
04:09:38.920 --> 04:09:44.879
really make sense that all this weight would ultimately be

1779
04:09:46.000 --> 04:09:56.040
resting on your ankles then leading to your feet, that

1780
04:09:56.600 --> 04:10:05.559
thin area, thin bone. Yeah, it does so much great work.

1781
04:10:07.719 --> 04:10:17.239
Supports us, supports our body for a lifetime, helps us

1782
04:10:17.959 --> 04:10:27.280
to balance, helps you to get around and be mobile.

1783
04:10:33.600 --> 04:10:41.440
And there's the calf muscles. Of course, when I was younger,

1784
04:10:41.799 --> 04:10:45.120
I couldn't see the point in calf muscles didn't seem

1785
04:10:45.159 --> 04:10:50.239
to do anything. Okay, if I walked around on tiptoes,

1786
04:10:51.040 --> 04:10:54.879
then my calf muscles get some work. But of course

1787
04:10:54.959 --> 04:10:59.079
that's not true. The calf muscles are being used whenever

1788
04:10:59.159 --> 04:11:11.079
we use that legs and your shins there to protect

1789
04:11:13.040 --> 04:11:21.719
your lower legs, shaped in a way, almost as a

1790
04:11:21.799 --> 04:11:34.040
protector for the bone, leading of course to your ankles

1791
04:11:37.399 --> 04:11:44.000
and your feet. But we're not going to focus on

1792
04:11:44.120 --> 04:11:46.200
your feet. We're just going to focus on the legs.

1793
04:11:48.159 --> 04:11:52.799
And I realize, and now that I've mentioned your feet,

1794
04:11:52.840 --> 04:11:57.520
you'll probably focusing on them anyway, So maybe I should

1795
04:11:57.600 --> 04:12:03.559
focus on your feet a little bit. You can have

1796
04:12:03.719 --> 04:12:08.920
them in your awareness the same as you have your

1797
04:12:09.079 --> 04:12:13.280
thighs in your awareness. Even though we haven't been focusing

1798
04:12:14.000 --> 04:12:18.959
on your thighs a few minutes, I've been focusing on

1799
04:12:19.079 --> 04:12:36.280
your ankles, there's still that sensation of comfort in your thighs,

1800
04:12:41.280 --> 04:12:48.600
and there's that movement of energy because the thighs hold

1801
04:12:50.559 --> 04:12:55.840
lots of different sensations. Of course, there's the muscles, the

1802
04:12:56.159 --> 04:13:08.639
big straw muscles that we have in our thighs, but

1803
04:13:08.799 --> 04:13:14.440
the skin on the outside of the thighs, as in

1804
04:13:14.959 --> 04:13:20.719
the outside of all of our body can be very sensitive,

1805
04:13:24.639 --> 04:13:37.840
sensitive to the touch, sensitive to temperature, and inside your

1806
04:13:37.959 --> 04:13:45.399
thighs the bones, there's the muscle, there's the blood, vessels,

1807
04:13:45.559 --> 04:13:51.360
the ar trees, to all this stuff that's inside your thighs.

1808
04:13:55.799 --> 04:13:59.159
I guess sometimes it'd be nice if you could actually

1809
04:13:59.200 --> 04:14:04.239
put your finger is inside your thighs and a message,

1810
04:14:06.600 --> 04:14:10.159
so you can message on the outside, of course, but

1811
04:14:10.239 --> 04:14:13.360
to be able to get deep into the muscles, and

1812
04:14:13.440 --> 04:14:18.559
to be able to just message inside your thighs, message

1813
04:14:18.600 --> 04:14:27.360
in the bones of your leg massage in or the veins,

1814
04:14:27.799 --> 04:14:38.200
just gently healing your thighs and you can move down

1815
04:14:40.280 --> 04:14:45.319
message and inside your knees, just message in those bones,

1816
04:14:46.319 --> 04:14:53.360
but with healing fingertips spreading that healing energy deep into

1817
04:14:53.479 --> 04:15:02.920
the choice of your knees. Of course, there's the back

1818
04:15:03.079 --> 04:15:09.319
of your knee and the inside crease where your knee is.

1819
04:15:11.000 --> 04:15:16.520
It's a very sensitive area. Very it feels very nice

1820
04:15:16.559 --> 04:15:21.159
when you stroke it. That might be because it's an

1821
04:15:21.239 --> 04:15:26.479
area that's not really touched very often. It's almost like

1822
04:15:26.600 --> 04:15:33.159
a hidden part that crease in your legs. It's almost

1823
04:15:35.520 --> 04:15:40.120
like a part that has a sensitivity which is a

1824
04:15:40.159 --> 04:15:51.079
little bit different. Of course, it's protected by your legs.

1825
04:15:58.399 --> 04:16:02.680
So you can imagine putting your fingers into that crease

1826
04:16:03.559 --> 04:16:12.639
in your legs. Fold in between your legs, you can

1827
04:16:12.760 --> 04:16:18.280
just message with your fingertips. Imagine your fingertips going inside,

1828
04:16:19.959 --> 04:16:28.639
message in the muscle tissue you can cause field the

1829
04:16:29.719 --> 04:16:42.479
bones of your knees heading through your fingertips, and then

1830
04:16:42.559 --> 04:16:48.280
as you go down to your calf muscles, and that's

1831
04:16:48.360 --> 04:16:51.879
the part I'd like to be able to really put

1832
04:16:51.959 --> 04:16:58.799
my fingertips deep inside my calf muscles, message in every

1833
04:17:00.520 --> 04:17:13.239
single tissue of that muscle, healing every part, and then

1834
04:17:13.360 --> 04:17:21.120
doing the same for my shins, massaging and generally stroking

1835
04:17:21.280 --> 04:17:27.639
the bones, generally stroking them, healing in a loving way

1836
04:17:28.959 --> 04:17:35.360
because they deserve to be treated. There's the precious bones

1837
04:17:35.399 --> 04:17:40.079
that they are, because our legs are so precious, as

1838
04:17:40.120 --> 04:17:44.840
in all the other parts of our body, the more

1839
04:17:44.879 --> 04:17:59.040
precious at any chore on the planet. When you start

1840
04:17:59.159 --> 04:18:11.040
to think about your legs in this way, it can

1841
04:18:11.319 --> 04:18:20.799
change your perspective. It might sound a bit a bit

1842
04:18:21.079 --> 04:18:26.520
silly to start with the idea of having love for

1843
04:18:26.639 --> 04:18:35.959
your legs, showing appreciation for your thighs, wanting to be

1844
04:18:36.040 --> 04:18:43.440
able to put your hands in your thighs, massage the

1845
04:18:43.639 --> 04:18:49.479
muscles and the bones, and to get your fingers deep

1846
04:18:49.600 --> 04:18:59.000
in there and releasing all tension. Just to show how

1847
04:18:59.159 --> 04:19:06.559
much you care about your legs, how what you care

1848
04:19:06.879 --> 04:19:14.879
for what your legs do for you regularly, your knees,

1849
04:19:15.159 --> 04:19:28.000
your calves, your ankles, the strength of your ankles considering

1850
04:19:28.200 --> 04:19:32.680
how thin they are compared to the rest of your legs,

1851
04:19:32.879 --> 04:19:46.520
especially your thighs. Yeah, they're so strong, so flexible, absolutely

1852
04:19:46.799 --> 04:19:58.600
amazing things. Your ankles are truly a gift because of

1853
04:19:58.680 --> 04:20:09.959
what they do for you, supporting all that weight, regardless

1854
04:20:10.040 --> 04:20:14.000
of how what weight you are, even if you only

1855
04:20:14.040 --> 04:20:18.840
eat eight stone, there's still a lot of weight for

1856
04:20:19.000 --> 04:20:26.120
these little ankles. Now I'm a lot heavier than eight stone.

1857
04:20:27.719 --> 04:20:36.840
Double down, get my ankles support my body all the time,

1858
04:20:40.680 --> 04:20:43.360
or that they do give off a sigh of relief

1859
04:20:43.440 --> 04:20:48.719
when I sit down. That's in fact, my whole legs do.

1860
04:20:52.399 --> 04:20:59.799
My feet feet also go, my toes clap so happy.

1861
04:21:19.559 --> 04:21:28.799
Your legs really are amazing. And I know that talking

1862
04:21:28.840 --> 04:21:35.239
about talking about your legs is probably possibly among the

1863
04:21:35.319 --> 04:21:40.879
most most boring things I've ever heard anyone say. Possibly

1864
04:21:43.760 --> 04:21:50.440
you're boring or not. Everything I said is true, your

1865
04:21:50.600 --> 04:22:11.159
legs are amazing. Your les deserve not just respect, they

1866
04:22:11.239 --> 04:22:23.840
deserve to relax deeply. They deserve to take some time

1867
04:22:23.920 --> 04:22:29.559
out of the day to just let go completely.

1868
04:22:47.479 --> 04:22:48.440
Your lecks.

1869
04:22:53.600 --> 04:23:06.840
Really can relax. And because the legs are so such

1870
04:23:06.920 --> 04:23:11.399
a most, you know, very important part of your body.

1871
04:23:12.719 --> 04:23:15.280
When you relax your legs, the rest of your body

1872
04:23:15.959 --> 04:23:34.680
also naturally follows in that journey of comfort. Like I

1873
04:23:34.840 --> 04:23:39.760
feel it in my hips. My hips feel really loose,

1874
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and also my lower back as well. My lower back

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really feels it feels stretched, even though I'm just sitting

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in a chair and there's no stretching as far as

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I'm aware that I'm doing. It's almost as if the

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muscles are just relaxed so much that there is a

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natural stretch as the tension has reduced a lot. And

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I'm now going to count down from ten down to one,

1881
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and you can continue to feel wonderfully relaxed. Ten nine, eight, seven, six, five,

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four three two one relax. So I'm just going to

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count down for five down to one. And as a countdown,

1884
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if you just focus on the numbers, just the numbers

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counting down, and notice how you feel.

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In this moment.

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As you hear the numbers counting down, knowing that those

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numbers counting down represent you feeling calmer, not just in

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04:26:23.000 --> 04:26:31.559
your body, but also relaxing your mind. Just notice how

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you feel. There's nothing to do, there's nothing to say,

1891
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there's nothing to think about, starting with number five, four,

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three two one. How as you notice the gradual letting

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go of the tension in your body, you may also

1894
04:27:49.639 --> 04:27:55.079
begin to notice and be aware of how your mind

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04:27:56.200 --> 04:28:04.120
is starting to slow down. This is just a natural

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thing that happens. It's not really a special procedure. It's

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just natural because as your body relaxes, your mind also

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04:28:19.079 --> 04:28:23.920
starts to relax, and the more your mind relaxes, the

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more your body relaxes. It's just a continuous circle of relaxation.

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And there's that calmness that comes from relative quietness. You know,

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04:28:44.200 --> 04:28:49.799
even even if this background sounds either your side or mind,

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04:28:51.520 --> 04:28:57.440
it's still going to be quite calm. You know, you

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04:28:57.520 --> 04:29:02.719
haven't got the television on, there's no music in the background,

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unless you're listening to the recording with music. Of course,

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you are very likely not going to be sitting in

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a room with other people. Of course you might be,

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04:29:15.680 --> 04:29:20.079
but generally it's more ideal if you can do this

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on your own, so no distractions, and when you stop

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04:29:31.440 --> 04:29:46.840
thinking about stuff, relaxation automatically rises, a sense of comfort

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04:29:48.600 --> 04:29:57.479
starts to grow, and without trying to build it up

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into something fantas chastical or something magical, this is just

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a natural process, something that's easy to accomplish. In fact,

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it's almost you know, the sense of relaxing completely happens

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really when you put no effort into it. It's not

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something that you can really force. It's something that happens naturally.

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And part of the process of this recording and others

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is simply two allow you to take advantage of this space,

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this time, to let go, to just be here, to

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be in tune with how you feel, yet with the

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intention of wanting to relax deeply and maybe even to

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fall asleep, depending on what it is that you wish

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for yourself.

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In this moment.

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As we know, relaxing is the majority of the process

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of falling asleep. The actual falling asleep part is the

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tiny bit at the end. The deeper relaxed you become,

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04:32:32.520 --> 04:32:50.159
the easier you find yourself drifting. But you can also

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if you choose stay focused on my voice and really

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enjoy the process of gradually relaxing each muscle in your

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body effortlessly and just observing the sensation of letting go completely.

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This time, I'm going to count from six down to one.

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You can notice your mind calming down more with each

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number that you hear me say naturally, feeling calm and

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slow and peaceful sex fivehhhhhhhhhhhhh, four, three, two, one, being

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aware how your mind to slowed right down, sinking deeply

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into relaxation. And as you focus on your.

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Mind, you.

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May notice that there are some thoughts still there, maybe

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some stubborn thoughts that for some reason perhaps need your attention.

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So what you can do.

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Send love to those thoughts. Sprinkle those thoughts with love

1942
04:39:10.159 --> 04:39:16.319
like little petals from a flower. Just sprinkle it over them, petals,

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feel good love towards those thoughts, to let those thoughts

1944
04:39:23.799 --> 04:39:30.599
know that you're not abandoned in them. You just need them.

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You require them to just calm down, slow down, quiet

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down for now.

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So as you.

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Focus on those remaining thoughts as we count down this

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time from seven down to one. With each number, just

1950
04:40:10.200 --> 04:40:26.000
imagine sprinkling those flower petals love, love, kindness, gratitude, over

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04:40:26.159 --> 04:40:35.680
those thoughts, which will allow them to just melt away

1952
04:40:37.119 --> 04:40:50.639
and relax deeply. With every number, those thoughts will.

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Become more.

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And more relaxed. Starting with number seven, six, five, four, three, one,

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lets you know notice how relaxed your feeling in your

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04:43:50.919 --> 04:44:13.520
body to focus on your hands, because the more relaxed

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04:44:13.680 --> 04:44:20.880
your hands are, the more relaxed your body and mind are.

1958
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You focus on your hands and your fingers. There's nothing

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04:44:48.639 --> 04:44:53.360
needed to be done. There's no clenching of fists or

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04:44:54.439 --> 04:45:04.720
dents in the fingers or anything like that. It's just

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04:45:05.240 --> 04:45:19.279
noticing and focusing on your hands, noticing how they feel.

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04:45:33.919 --> 04:45:44.040
Because the more relaxed do your hands feel, the calmer

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04:45:44.240 --> 04:45:55.520
your mind feels, and the more comforts you feel throughout

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04:45:55.880 --> 04:46:28.479
your body. Ge may have already noticed you mind is

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04:46:31.360 --> 04:46:58.240
starting to draft quicks him just on your hands and fingers,

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allowing them to experience a real deepening of that relaxation

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in your hands and fingers more and more relaxed. With

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each number from eight down to one, you can almost

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04:47:57.240 --> 04:48:07.959
feel that healing, relaxing energy spreading into your hands and

1970
04:48:08.240 --> 04:48:33.479
fingers becoming more relaxing with each number you hear, going

1971
04:48:33.720 --> 04:48:54.319
down eight down to one drifting, drifting again, starting with

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04:48:58.919 --> 04:52:59.959
number eighth seven four three, just being here now, nothing

1973
04:53:00.159 --> 04:53:09.959
to think about, nothing to do, nothing to say, and

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everything just feels calmer. And this is your natural state

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04:53:21.639 --> 04:53:30.119
of being. This is how you just normally feel when

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you take away all of that other stuff that we add,

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you know, things like stress and worrying and overthinking, anxiety, tension,

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04:53:55.360 --> 04:54:02.439
just generally thinking about stuff. Take that away, which is

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what we do.

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What we do now.

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Be left with a real sense of peacefulness, which comes

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04:54:22.439 --> 04:54:31.799
to you very greatly, because ultimately it's just a feeling,

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04:54:36.159 --> 04:54:43.959
a feeling and comfort. It's almost as if you've gone

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04:54:44.000 --> 04:54:52.479
inside yourself and you've found a special place where everything

1985
04:54:55.880 --> 04:55:04.479
is peaceful, place where you can film relaxed and your

1986
04:55:04.680 --> 04:55:13.599
natural sense and comfort, a place where you can be you,

1987
04:55:18.319 --> 04:55:25.159
where you can accept yourself and who you are, in

1988
04:55:25.279 --> 04:55:31.240
the place where you're not trying to please anybody else,

1989
04:55:31.759 --> 04:55:44.479
in a place where you can actually not just love yourself,

1990
04:55:44.599 --> 04:55:50.040
but in some ways more importantly, you can like yourself,

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04:55:52.560 --> 04:56:09.880
appreciate who you are, a sense of gratitude. It's in

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04:56:10.000 --> 04:56:21.200
the air around it. That's also a place where you

1993
04:56:23.560 --> 04:56:31.479
can actually feel the healing energy soaking into your body,

1994
04:56:38.159 --> 04:56:50.479
healing energy soaking into your body. The healing energy spreads

1995
04:56:51.479 --> 04:57:00.319
through your veins, traveling to each and every single are

1996
04:57:00.599 --> 04:57:11.040
part of your body, and you start to realize that

1997
04:57:11.319 --> 04:57:18.639
actually that healing energy, it's not just entered into your brain,

1998
04:57:21.479 --> 04:57:30.959
it's become part of your brain, and that spinal fluid

1999
04:57:33.639 --> 04:57:44.400
is now mixed with healing energy, not just allowing you

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04:57:44.680 --> 04:57:52.680
to feel so much more relaxed and healthy in this moment,

2001
04:57:57.200 --> 04:58:06.599
but also you start to realize that actually, what's happening

2002
04:58:06.840 --> 04:58:18.119
now without healing, relaxing energy spreading through your body's actually

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04:58:18.560 --> 04:58:28.720
changing your life. It's actually changing the way you're going

2004
04:58:28.840 --> 04:58:35.639
to feel not just now, but tomorrow and the next day.

2005
04:58:37.520 --> 04:58:45.000
As your health improves, not just your physical health, but

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04:58:45.159 --> 04:58:52.560
your mental health. Things that used to bother you in

2007
04:58:52.680 --> 04:59:00.000
the past, for some reason, no longer have the effect

2008
04:59:00.119 --> 04:59:08.720
fact that they used to because something has changed deep

2009
04:59:09.200 --> 04:59:19.799
within you. Maybe things that used to cause you to

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04:59:20.000 --> 04:59:32.279
feel anger no longer have that power to control you

2011
04:59:34.799 --> 04:59:41.080
the way they seem to be able to before. As

2012
04:59:41.200 --> 04:59:52.720
you realize that you're the one who decides what affects you,

2013
04:59:56.400 --> 05:00:05.200
You're the one who decides to feel relaxed and calm

2014
05:00:06.840 --> 05:00:22.159
when you choose to enjoy noticing these natural developments of

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05:00:22.479 --> 05:00:34.040
healing continue to grow and improve your life day by day,

2016
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including of course, your ability to relax so much easier

2017
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than sleeping. It's the most natural thing in the world

2018
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to you, because falling asleep is something that you've done

2019
05:01:15.520 --> 05:01:23.200
so many times in your life, and you know that

2020
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you were born, as we all were, with the ability

2021
05:01:30.279 --> 05:01:43.560
to fall asleep naturally. We're born with that ability to

2022
05:01:44.000 --> 05:01:58.040
just drift off into a deep, healing sleep. Even when

2023
05:01:58.119 --> 05:02:02.840
we're kids, sometimes we'll fall asleep and we don't even

2024
05:02:02.919 --> 05:02:08.880
want to try to think of stay awake. Maybe it's

2025
05:02:09.000 --> 05:02:13.439
a birthday in the morning, or it's Christmas or holiday

2026
05:02:13.639 --> 05:02:16.040
or something we look forward to. We don't want to

2027
05:02:16.040 --> 05:02:21.200
go to sleep. But the more we want to stay awake,

2028
05:02:23.400 --> 05:02:30.439
the more we just start to drift. And the more

2029
05:02:31.119 --> 05:02:35.360
you fight drifting, we'll try to study yourself and drift

2030
05:02:35.439 --> 05:02:48.560
in asleep, the deeper and stronger that drifting becomes. Because

2031
05:02:48.639 --> 05:02:54.040
we're born not just with the need to relax deeply

2032
05:02:55.759 --> 05:03:05.599
and to naturally fall asleep, but it's our birthright, it's

2033
05:03:05.720 --> 05:03:16.240
part of our DNA, and sometimes as we get older

2034
05:03:16.319 --> 05:03:29.799
in life, perhaps at times we have forgotten relaxing completely.

2035
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It's not only a wonderfully pleasant experience, it's also really easy.

2036
05:03:56.279 --> 05:03:58.279
It's very very.

2037
05:03:58.639 --> 05:04:04.439
Easy to let go, because that's all it is, is

2038
05:04:04.680 --> 05:04:19.319
just deciding to let go. And when you press the

2039
05:04:19.479 --> 05:04:29.840
play button on my recordings, you have given permission for

2040
05:04:30.040 --> 05:04:38.400
my voice to elect you. When you press that play button,

2041
05:04:39.439 --> 05:04:47.840
you have given me permission for my words to effect

2042
05:04:50.360 --> 05:05:02.159
you in a positive, only a positive way, opening up

2043
05:05:07.400 --> 05:05:25.639
your mind to useful and healing suggestions that can have

2044
05:05:30.159 --> 05:05:37.599
such an amazing effect on how you feel right now,

2045
05:05:42.360 --> 05:05:52.200
as well as those changes that continue long after the

2046
05:05:52.319 --> 05:06:03.000
recording ends, Those changes within you to continue to flourish

2047
05:06:03.880 --> 05:06:18.439
and grow, transforming your life in a positive, beautiful way,

2048
05:06:21.520 --> 05:06:28.560
allowing you to move forward in your life in the

2049
05:06:28.720 --> 05:06:45.919
direction that you choose for yourself. And this feeling, this

2050
05:06:46.240 --> 05:07:01.840
feeling that you can experience of safety, comfort, calmness, just

2051
05:07:02.119 --> 05:07:15.720
feels so nice. It's such a healthy place to be,

2052
05:07:23.639 --> 05:07:37.400
and that positivity grows within you each and every day.

2053
05:07:40.479 --> 05:07:50.240
Moving forward, you're going to find that you're more relaxed

2054
05:07:52.639 --> 05:08:04.959
physically and in your mind is more relaxed. And it's

2055
05:08:05.040 --> 05:08:10.560
not that you're thinking slower, it's just that your mind

2056
05:08:10.680 --> 05:08:22.560
will be less clogged up with unnecessary negativity because from

2057
05:08:22.639 --> 05:08:32.919
now on, your mind rejects negativity. From now on, you're

2058
05:08:33.000 --> 05:08:43.799
going to start noticing when negativity arises, and you can

2059
05:08:44.000 --> 05:08:57.919
just say stop, stop, and that negativity will turn around

2060
05:08:58.560 --> 05:09:17.919
and leave you alone. Stop and then negativity would disappear.

2061
05:09:26.080 --> 05:09:32.520
And as you notice that you feel way more relaxed

2062
05:09:34.000 --> 05:09:49.319
than you probably expected, you can now congratulate yourself because

2063
05:09:49.520 --> 05:09:55.919
you're the person that has done this. You are the

2064
05:09:56.080 --> 05:10:01.119
one that has opened your mind up to the simple

2065
05:10:01.360 --> 05:10:09.200
facts that you can feel more relaxed in your body

2066
05:10:09.959 --> 05:10:19.200
and in your mind. You've opened your mind up to

2067
05:10:21.560 --> 05:10:23.200
the birthright of being.

2068
05:10:23.040 --> 05:10:23.799
Able to just.

2069
05:10:26.479 --> 05:10:41.279
Fall asleep easily when you choose. And that's a nice feeling.

2070
05:10:42.919 --> 05:10:53.000
Don't you think it feels nice? Doesn't it? To feel calm?

2071
05:10:54.639 --> 05:10:59.240
All the healing energy is spreading through your body and

2072
05:10:59.400 --> 05:11:15.400
your mind to spend time a special place where negativity

2073
05:11:16.919 --> 05:11:29.799
can no longer enter. Negativity is banned. It's bad, it's

2074
05:11:29.919 --> 05:11:36.560
not allowed entry. Doesn't it doesn't. This doesn't deserve to

2075
05:11:36.639 --> 05:11:45.759
be here, doesn't belong here. Negativity has no place in

2076
05:11:45.959 --> 05:12:02.520
your life, which makes room for more comfort, more healing,

2077
05:12:04.680 --> 05:12:06.000
more relaxation.

2078
05:12:10.840 --> 05:12:11.639
More peace.

2079
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It feels nice, doesn't it. Just let go with everything.

2080
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I'm gonna count down now from twenty down to one.

2081
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You can continue to relax. If you cheer, you can

2082
05:13:11.520 --> 05:13:26.360
drift to sleep with every number hear me say you

2083
05:13:26.520 --> 05:13:33.880
can fill twice is relaxed, or if you choose, you

2084
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can fill twice sleeping now twenty ninety, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, two,

2085
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wel eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five. Oh oh,

2086
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this is your time to just take a break, your

2087
05:16:48.520 --> 05:16:59.240
time to relax, to allow your mind to slow down,

2088
05:17:07.919 --> 05:17:21.959
to give yourself permission to take a break from everything.

2089
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Ensure the only person that can make that decision. You're

2090
05:17:34.240 --> 05:17:41.599
the only person that can actually tell your mind to

2091
05:17:41.959 --> 05:18:06.040
just relax, to just take some time off so that

2092
05:18:06.200 --> 05:18:11.200
you can focus on your body, getting in touch with

2093
05:18:12.360 --> 05:18:28.680
how you feel physically, and in the process of this

2094
05:18:29.040 --> 05:18:33.919
body scanned where you focus on different parts of your body,

2095
05:18:40.360 --> 05:18:47.759
those parts that you focus on and observe. Even though

2096
05:18:47.959 --> 05:18:56.119
you're not purposely requesting for those parts of your body

2097
05:18:56.319 --> 05:19:04.799
to relax, it's kind of expected. You expect when you

2098
05:19:04.959 --> 05:19:18.040
listen to my voice to feel more relaxed naturally, because

2099
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when you're listening to me, your attention is focused on

2100
05:19:28.119 --> 05:19:39.639
my words, and as my words guide you to focus

2101
05:19:44.040 --> 05:19:58.919
on those parts of your body, your focus increases, which

2102
05:19:59.119 --> 05:20:15.080
actually calms your mind. And when your mind calms down,

2103
05:20:19.959 --> 05:20:42.000
your body relaxes. And when your body calms down, your

2104
05:20:42.159 --> 05:20:59.000
mind relaxes. And THO I have not really started the

2105
05:20:59.159 --> 05:21:11.840
focus on your body, you can already feel that healing

2106
05:21:12.119 --> 05:21:26.560
energy spreading through your body, pushing out stress and tension,

2107
05:21:30.720 --> 05:21:38.000
healing all the parts of your body, including your skin,

2108
05:21:39.159 --> 05:21:46.080
your bones, your blood, all of your walkings inside your body,

2109
05:21:47.479 --> 05:21:54.240
all of the muscles, all of the fat, all of everything,

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every hair on your body filled with that healing energy.

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And when your brain fills without healing energy, the feeling

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of comfort relaxation increases, deeply increases in a way that

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your mind starts to feel perhaps bit drowsing because it's

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not needed, and it may start to drift if that's

2115
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what's needed. So if you're listening to this and what

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you need is deep relaxation.

2117
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That's where you get. If what you need is.

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To fall asleep naturally easily, that's your mind drifts. That's

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also what will happened because by pressing a play button

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on the podcast and listening to me give permission of

2121
05:24:20.319 --> 05:24:30.919
your body and your mind. In fact, you give the

2122
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command to your body and your mind to relax deeply

2123
05:24:43.919 --> 05:24:48.720
and to drift off to sleep. If that's what you

2124
05:24:49.560 --> 05:25:05.520
want or need. Then as I focus on the different.

2125
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Parts of your body, you may start to just drift,

2126
05:25:20.200 --> 05:25:24.080
and then you come back again. You hear me talking

2127
05:25:24.439 --> 05:25:28.639
and I'm focusing on a different part of your body,

2128
05:25:34.400 --> 05:25:43.799
you may find yourself drifting, being to realize you're drifting.

2129
05:25:45.560 --> 05:25:52.439
Until you stop drifting, you're a laugh again to my voice.

2130
05:25:53.880 --> 05:25:59.680
Focusing on a different part of your body starts to

2131
05:26:00.639 --> 05:26:13.080
yon depot because that drifting, it's basically here already in

2132
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the sleep zone. And the more you drift, the the

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longer you drift, the longer you drift. Eventually that drifting

2134
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continues into sleep, and that's the last you remember until

2135
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you wake up in your own time when you experienced

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the right amount of sleep for you. Because when you do,

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and if you don't fall asleep, it's extremely pleasant. So relaxing,

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05:27:18.479 --> 05:27:36.000
so deep he sleep, I feel so nice.

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To relax.

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Your own body and mind. If you feel that hearing

2141
05:27:50.400 --> 05:28:06.720
energy is spreading through you, relaxing so deeply a sight.

2142
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Start to focus on your eyes.

2143
05:28:29.159 --> 05:28:34.000
Make it down, till Joe.

2144
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Down, till back.

2145
05:28:50.720 --> 05:29:24.520
Your shoulders as chest.

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Studio us.

2147
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Your legs with faint, your sides spreading gray side your

2148
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body feeding you up. Now let's focus again on parts

2149
05:31:04.680 --> 05:31:18.840
of your body. Focusing this time on your forehead. Now

2150
05:31:19.200 --> 05:31:28.040
on your mouth, your lips, your tongue, the whole of

2151
05:31:28.119 --> 05:31:51.919
your mouth. Focus on your fingers. Maybe you could move

2152
05:31:52.000 --> 05:31:56.040
your fingers a little bitsy. You can focus on each

2153
05:31:56.360 --> 05:32:10.680
one individually, both hands and even though it should focus

2154
05:32:10.759 --> 05:32:15.880
on both of your hands, now they almost seemed to

2155
05:32:16.119 --> 05:32:24.599
just melt into one. Where is your right hand? Start

2156
05:32:25.880 --> 05:32:40.959
left hand and almast as if just mixed together. Now

2157
05:32:41.200 --> 05:32:52.119
focusing on your knees, just noticing how your knees hell.

2158
05:33:08.880 --> 05:33:16.479
Now focusing your opens you like I said by Fowers,

2159
05:33:22.799 --> 05:33:58.159
just subside the faith of your alps. Now focusing. I'm sorry,

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chang ops as it's a coup of sex sections as

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I just said. Now you tis you faint, you ties.

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Feel now.

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05:37:13.680 --> 05:37:48.000
Note sin how you exire body feels noticin your mind

2164
05:37:51.439 --> 05:38:48.799
feels now letting go, letting go, letting go everything, letting go,

2165
05:38:55.360 --> 05:39:29.479
letting go, letting go, a h everything everything. I'm going

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05:39:29.560 --> 05:39:32.959
to start now, and I would like you just to

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05:39:33.040 --> 05:39:38.639
first of all, just to see yourself lying down on

2168
05:39:38.799 --> 05:39:44.919
that message table, lying on your front. Your head is supported,

2169
05:39:45.319 --> 05:39:54.080
your arms are supported, and you feel comfortable and breathing

2170
05:39:54.319 --> 05:40:03.680
is really easy, and you feel you feel confident in

2171
05:40:03.799 --> 05:40:06.000
how you look as well. So there's none of that

2172
05:40:06.200 --> 05:40:12.919
issue of body problems or shyness, because I'm a professional

2173
05:40:14.119 --> 05:40:20.479
and this is a therapy session, so none of that

2174
05:40:20.639 --> 05:40:30.479
stuff matters on whatsoever. This is about you. This is

2175
05:40:30.520 --> 05:40:38.799
about how you feel and how you can enjoy that

2176
05:40:39.040 --> 05:40:44.959
sense of comfort and relaxation that comes from letting go

2177
05:40:45.479 --> 05:40:53.840
and allowing my hands my fingers to relax you by

2178
05:40:53.840 --> 05:41:02.360
a messaging your body. So I want to start off

2179
05:41:02.560 --> 05:41:07.479
just by placing my hands on the back of your head,

2180
05:41:08.919 --> 05:41:14.240
just gently, just so you can feel my hands feel

2181
05:41:14.400 --> 05:41:21.119
like really on you. So you can maybe feel the

2182
05:41:21.200 --> 05:41:23.400
warmth of my hands on the back of your head.

2183
05:41:27.080 --> 05:41:30.599
With my hands to the side of your head, not pressing,

2184
05:41:30.720 --> 05:41:37.040
but just holding there very gently, maybe over your ears,

2185
05:41:37.639 --> 05:41:40.599
and a little bit on your face, just so you

2186
05:41:40.680 --> 05:41:48.560
can feel my hands so you can become accustomed to them.

2187
05:41:57.200 --> 05:41:59.400
And now put my hands on the back of your

2188
05:41:59.439 --> 05:42:06.880
head again and gently let them slide down onto the

2189
05:42:06.919 --> 05:42:23.919
back of your neck. You can feel my hands gently

2190
05:42:24.159 --> 05:42:31.119
stroking the back of your neck to start with, just

2191
05:42:31.200 --> 05:42:35.240
so you can get used to the feeling of my

2192
05:42:35.439 --> 05:42:43.400
hands on your skin, get accustomed to realize that you're

2193
05:42:43.520 --> 05:42:53.400
safe and it's all good, it's all fine, And I

2194
05:42:53.520 --> 05:42:57.759
want to start gently messaging the muscles in the back

2195
05:42:57.799 --> 05:43:13.520
of your neck with both hands. And this is a

2196
05:43:13.639 --> 05:43:20.639
very trusting situation, really, because our next is so fragile

2197
05:43:21.959 --> 05:43:25.400
and to have someone have their hands around your neck

2198
05:43:26.159 --> 05:43:31.560
in that way can sometimes be problematic for people, which

2199
05:43:31.599 --> 05:43:35.919
is why messages are quite good, because it allows you

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05:43:36.040 --> 05:43:50.520
to relax and get in touch with trust, to feel

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05:43:50.639 --> 05:44:03.319
peaceful and calm. There's a massage the sides of your neck,

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05:44:04.080 --> 05:44:12.880
gently moving from the bottom of your neck. It would

2203
05:44:12.919 --> 05:44:15.439
be sort of near where your shoulders start, I guess,

2204
05:44:16.319 --> 05:44:22.799
all the way up to your jaw, your ears, kind

2205
05:44:22.799 --> 05:44:28.560
of area the side of your neck. Of course, it's

2206
05:44:28.560 --> 05:44:43.919
a lot longer than the front of your neck. And

2207
05:44:44.200 --> 05:44:52.000
massaging the back of your neck, especially that area where

2208
05:44:52.919 --> 05:45:01.040
perhaps we hold tension, and there's that areas message you

2209
05:45:01.159 --> 05:45:05.360
can actually feel a sense of release in the back

2210
05:45:05.439 --> 05:45:13.319
of your neck and maybe you can breathe it out

2211
05:45:13.400 --> 05:45:19.119
as well. Notice how it feels, Notice how you feel.

2212
05:45:29.000 --> 05:45:32.599
They're moving down to that area between your neck and

2213
05:45:32.680 --> 05:45:42.799
your shoulders, that musty area, starting to message that area

2214
05:45:42.919 --> 05:45:47.200
on both sides. I mean, this would be the area

2215
05:45:47.319 --> 05:45:49.880
that a lot of people would message if they were

2216
05:45:49.959 --> 05:45:54.880
going to give you like a shoulder message. Even that's

2217
05:45:55.279 --> 05:45:58.720
not technically the shoulders, but it's all the muscles that

2218
05:45:58.880 --> 05:46:05.040
lead to the shoulders from the neck and a game

2219
05:46:05.200 --> 05:46:10.799
that can hold at tension and stress, and when massaged

2220
05:46:11.680 --> 05:46:18.919
sometimes a nice deep message is useful, and you decide

2221
05:46:19.080 --> 05:46:36.279
how deep that message is, and just allow my knuckles

2222
05:46:37.400 --> 05:46:41.479
just to dig in to get to those muscles and

2223
05:46:41.639 --> 05:46:51.759
to ready relaxed all the time and being firm yet

2224
05:46:52.200 --> 05:47:11.520
gentle with you and just stroking down the area to

2225
05:47:11.680 --> 05:47:17.639
your actual shoulders, moving to the muscles of your shoulders,

2226
05:47:23.639 --> 05:47:28.400
and maybe initially just pulling up the shoulders a little

2227
05:47:28.439 --> 05:47:31.880
bit off the table, just to give you a little

2228
05:47:31.919 --> 05:47:42.319
bit of a stretch, but very gently, and you've got

2229
05:47:42.400 --> 05:47:45.959
the muscles at the front of your shoulders, the side

2230
05:47:46.200 --> 05:47:56.799
and the back again, this is a part that can

2231
05:47:56.919 --> 05:48:01.880
really take quite a bit of pressure, show quite a

2232
05:48:01.959 --> 05:48:12.159
bit of needing if if you wish to really release

2233
05:48:12.360 --> 05:48:20.720
the tension to really get into those muscles, and you

2234
05:48:20.759 --> 05:48:25.200
can let your fingers in there. Make you feel really nice.

2235
05:48:27.119 --> 05:48:34.680
Sometimes just being stroked gently or being massaged quite strongly

2236
05:48:38.479 --> 05:48:47.759
can all be beneficial to the real oversation with the

2237
05:48:47.880 --> 05:49:08.000
muscles in your shoulders. Now move down your arms. We

2238
05:49:08.159 --> 05:49:12.159
do one arm at a time, Starting with your right arm.

2239
05:49:18.759 --> 05:49:22.360
What I'll do is I just lift your arm up,

2240
05:49:23.279 --> 05:49:28.520
just hold it to the side of you. Don't words

2241
05:49:28.520 --> 05:49:34.959
still be attached, and I just message the tops of

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05:49:35.040 --> 05:49:51.279
your arms all the way down to your forearms into

2243
05:49:51.360 --> 05:50:14.959
your wrists. Gently message in that part, the softer part,

2244
05:50:15.040 --> 05:50:21.479
which is the under part of the arm, which leads

2245
05:50:21.639 --> 05:50:26.479
to the crease in your elbow. The inside. It's much

2246
05:50:27.000 --> 05:50:44.799
more sensitive skin. Sometimes just having that stroked feel really nice,

2247
05:50:47.560 --> 05:51:01.439
pleasurable and relaxing. Now moving down to your right hand,

2248
05:51:07.479 --> 05:51:19.560
just holding your hand in both of my hands, just

2249
05:51:19.720 --> 05:51:26.319
pressing gently on the back of your hand, stretching your

2250
05:51:26.479 --> 05:51:37.400
fingers ever slightly at the same time pressing down and

2251
05:51:37.560 --> 05:51:51.360
messaging each finger, and then starting to massage the palms

2252
05:51:51.560 --> 05:52:04.240
of their hand. Just turning down hand stretching it gently

2253
05:52:09.520 --> 05:52:13.240
and actually having your hand held. Can it really be

2254
05:52:15.000 --> 05:52:20.680
an emotional experience? Sometimes even if it is a stranger,

2255
05:52:22.680 --> 05:52:27.040
someone you don't know very well, like a massage person

2256
05:52:27.319 --> 05:52:41.080
or a therapist. Maybe because it's intimate, you can feel nice,

2257
05:52:43.720 --> 05:52:54.000
you can feel safe. And as I put that right

2258
05:52:54.279 --> 05:53:02.639
arm back down where it was, gonna do the same

2259
05:53:02.799 --> 05:53:15.040
with your left arm, exactly the same, massaging the muscles

2260
05:53:16.200 --> 05:53:19.959
in your arm all the way down, do your rest,

2261
05:53:24.119 --> 05:53:33.919
stroking the inside of your arm, just being gentle or

2262
05:53:34.000 --> 05:53:47.959
as firm as you require, and then massaging your left hand,

2263
05:53:54.479 --> 05:54:03.759
stretching the fingers gently. Message in the palm of your

2264
05:54:03.880 --> 05:54:44.360
left hand, you feel so so relaxing, so comforting, and

2265
05:54:44.400 --> 05:54:55.040
I'll just rest your left arm back down. The start

2266
05:54:56.240 --> 05:55:01.319
message your back. The big is part of your body.

2267
05:55:06.360 --> 05:55:13.279
Starting at the top, starting again where he already have been,

2268
05:55:14.040 --> 05:55:18.720
the area at the top in between your shoulders, near

2269
05:55:18.799 --> 05:55:24.000
your neck. Going back and massage in the area again,

2270
05:55:25.119 --> 05:55:38.840
but this time moving downwards, taking it downward. Stroke to

2271
05:55:38.880 --> 05:55:45.360
the middle of a back, working from the outside inwards,

2272
05:55:47.000 --> 05:55:54.959
massaging that your back, but the outside of your back

2273
05:55:59.319 --> 05:56:14.919
parts where your arms will maybe rest against almost the

2274
05:56:15.040 --> 05:56:28.319
path that connects your front to your back, just messaging

2275
05:56:28.520 --> 05:56:39.840
down firmly but gently, as firm as you want, moving

2276
05:56:40.000 --> 05:56:44.159
down and moving across a little bed, moving all the

2277
05:56:44.200 --> 05:56:52.119
way down again, being very gentle yet firm as you choose.

2278
05:56:58.520 --> 05:57:03.159
Eventually you get to the spine. We can message the

2279
05:57:03.319 --> 05:57:07.520
muscles and either side of your spine from the top

2280
05:57:07.599 --> 05:57:13.639
of your neck all the way down to your lower back.

2281
05:57:19.880 --> 05:57:25.959
We can do that a few times. Sometimes people would

2282
05:57:26.040 --> 05:57:32.759
use the knuckle or the you know, the two fingers

2283
05:57:32.840 --> 05:57:38.560
and just go either side of the spine almost just

2284
05:57:38.759 --> 05:57:41.919
push down. You're all the way down to the bottom

2285
05:57:41.919 --> 05:57:50.439
of the spine, each time releasing tension and opening up

2286
05:57:51.080 --> 05:58:00.319
the body, stretching your body so that you feel more

2287
05:58:00.400 --> 05:58:17.759
relaxed but at the same time rejuvenated. And now I'm

2288
05:58:17.799 --> 05:58:21.479
going to move to one side, to your right side,

2289
05:58:26.319 --> 05:58:30.840
and from the bottom of your ribs to your pelvis,

2290
05:58:31.919 --> 05:58:38.159
I'm going to massage that area of your back. I'll

2291
05:58:38.240 --> 05:58:41.279
stretch over the other side and i will pull the

2292
05:58:41.400 --> 05:58:48.200
muscles gently and massage and push from one end that

2293
05:58:48.479 --> 05:58:52.720
side or the way to my side to the middle

2294
05:58:52.799 --> 05:58:58.520
of fact to where your spine is massaging that side

2295
05:58:58.560 --> 05:59:02.919
of your spine the opposite side to where I'm standing,

2296
05:59:05.319 --> 05:59:11.200
it's almost like kneading bread. There's that big area.

2297
05:59:11.080 --> 05:59:11.520
Which is.

2298
05:59:13.000 --> 05:59:23.279
Firm yet lots there to message. Potentially one of the

2299
05:59:23.360 --> 05:59:30.000
most important places to actually have a message because you

2300
05:59:30.279 --> 05:59:35.959
really feel it. You really feel the release and the

2301
05:59:36.080 --> 05:59:44.520
pleasure of having your lower back massaged. It releases so

2302
05:59:44.840 --> 05:59:53.279
much from your body that's not useful starting a healing

2303
05:59:53.439 --> 05:59:59.000
process which will continue long after this recording is over.

2304
06:00:08.279 --> 06:00:11.639
Then messaging this part of your body not only feels

2305
06:00:11.840 --> 06:00:17.840
really good for you, it's actually fun to do because

2306
06:00:17.919 --> 06:00:23.279
it is, as I said, like kneading bread. It's a

2307
06:00:23.400 --> 06:00:27.560
part that you can really get hold of and really

2308
06:00:27.759 --> 06:00:41.040
massage deeply. If that's your choice. They're not going to

2309
06:00:41.119 --> 06:00:43.520
move over to the other side of your body and

2310
06:00:43.680 --> 06:00:52.799
do the same with the opposite part of your law back.

2311
06:00:55.360 --> 06:01:04.200
Kneading and messaging from your sides or way to the

2312
06:01:04.319 --> 06:01:12.040
middle of your back where your spine is pressing and

2313
06:01:12.479 --> 06:01:23.119
kneading firm and gentle at the same time. It feels

2314
06:01:23.560 --> 06:01:36.080
so releasing. This mixture of pleasure, comfort, release, calmness, relaxation

2315
06:01:37.520 --> 06:01:47.439
or mixed together. Plus there's that feeling from your stomach

2316
06:01:47.919 --> 06:01:52.639
as it's been stretched. Even though you're in your stomach.

2317
06:01:52.720 --> 06:01:56.880
Now you can feel it being stretched because that whole

2318
06:01:57.000 --> 06:02:08.159
area is connected to your stomach. Now we're going to

2319
06:02:08.279 --> 06:02:13.560
move or move further up to your top of your body,

2320
06:02:14.200 --> 06:02:22.080
and we do the same this time, starting with your

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06:02:22.200 --> 06:02:28.159
upper back. Put my hands forward over and massive massage

2322
06:02:28.240 --> 06:02:35.119
in that area up to your spine, from the side

2323
06:02:35.200 --> 06:02:39.159
of your body up to your spine. So some of

2324
06:02:39.240 --> 06:02:46.279
that message area, that muscle tissue or whatever fatty tissue

2325
06:02:46.319 --> 06:02:51.919
even will be possibly from your chest because it's all connected.

2326
06:02:52.080 --> 06:02:58.479
The chest and the back connect together. I'm going to

2327
06:02:58.520 --> 06:03:02.000
be massaging and just put in some of that skin

2328
06:03:03.319 --> 06:03:12.400
from your side up and message in that area of

2329
06:03:12.520 --> 06:03:20.959
your upper back all the way to your spine. And

2330
06:03:21.080 --> 06:03:23.799
then I'll move down a bit and I'll continue with

2331
06:03:23.959 --> 06:03:26.799
the middle of your back doing exactly the same thing.

2332
06:03:30.680 --> 06:03:44.479
There's gentle, as deep as you choose. Now I'll move

2333
06:03:44.680 --> 06:03:48.799
or the other side again and do the exact same

2334
06:03:49.000 --> 06:03:52.959
thing with the top of your back on the other side,

2335
06:03:54.040 --> 06:04:08.119
from pretty much underneath your arm area really to your spine,

2336
06:04:13.240 --> 06:04:20.080
and then continuing that all the way down including your

2337
06:04:20.159 --> 06:04:37.479
lower your middle of your back. I'm gonna go to

2338
06:04:37.599 --> 06:04:44.240
your thighs, the backs of your thighs and the sides

2339
06:04:44.319 --> 06:04:53.919
of your thighs. Starting with your right leg, massage in

2340
06:04:55.279 --> 06:05:06.840
the back and the sides thighs gently and firmly. There's

2341
06:05:06.840 --> 06:05:10.279
a lot of muscles there. It's an area that can

2342
06:05:10.360 --> 06:05:14.639
be very tense at times and maybe needs a little

2343
06:05:14.680 --> 06:05:18.119
bit more pressure than the rest of the body that's

2344
06:05:18.360 --> 06:05:28.479
up to you. You can gently stroke the back of

2345
06:05:28.599 --> 06:05:34.119
your legs where you know, opposite your knee joint or

2346
06:05:34.240 --> 06:05:47.159
underneath your knee joint, very sensitive, gentle area. And then

2347
06:05:47.400 --> 06:05:54.759
working down to your calf muscles. Massage in your calf

2348
06:05:54.880 --> 06:06:09.560
muscles thoroughly and deeply, if you choose, using both hands fingers,

2349
06:06:10.080 --> 06:06:23.360
digging deep to your ankles, on the back of your

2350
06:06:24.319 --> 06:06:30.319
back of your ankles, just generly message in that area,

2351
06:06:35.799 --> 06:06:52.439
maybe lifting the leg and stretching a little bit. Moving

2352
06:06:53.200 --> 06:07:07.439
to the right foot, massage in the bottom of your

2353
06:07:07.520 --> 06:07:22.959
feet and the side of your feet gently but firm

2354
06:07:23.119 --> 06:07:34.159
enough so they don't tickle, and just allow the pleasure

2355
06:07:34.240 --> 06:07:39.799
that you get from heaving your feet messaged to just

2356
06:07:39.959 --> 06:07:48.880
overtake you. As I continue to message your feet, the

2357
06:07:48.959 --> 06:07:56.799
bottoms of your feet, the sides your arches, your heel.

2358
06:07:59.240 --> 06:08:02.319
You can put a lot pressure into your heel and

2359
06:08:02.439 --> 06:08:07.400
it feels amazing, Yet the arches need to be a

2360
06:08:07.479 --> 06:08:19.200
bit more gentle. Stretching your toes gently and massage in

2361
06:08:19.319 --> 06:08:27.520
the bottoms of your toes with my fingers, each one individually.

2362
06:08:35.959 --> 06:08:39.840
Moving over to the left leg to do exactly the

2363
06:08:39.919 --> 06:08:50.279
same thing. Starting at the top of the thighs, work

2364
06:08:50.360 --> 06:08:54.959
in the back of the thighs and the sides, massaging

2365
06:08:55.159 --> 06:09:05.279
deeply and gently the whole area, working all the way down.

2366
06:09:12.319 --> 06:09:18.080
And this is an area that maybe you could like

2367
06:09:18.159 --> 06:09:27.599
to spend more time relaxing and messaging. Perhaps if you wanted,

2368
06:09:27.720 --> 06:09:31.959
I could make a future recording. I want to spend

2369
06:09:32.040 --> 06:09:40.959
more time on one particular area. As you move down

2370
06:09:43.840 --> 06:09:55.360
to your calf muscles, massagy and your calf muscles firmly

2371
06:09:57.360 --> 06:10:11.319
and gently. Move down your ankle into your feet, Massage

2372
06:10:11.479 --> 06:10:16.959
in the backs of your feet, the bottoms of your feet,

2373
06:10:22.119 --> 06:10:29.119
stretching your toes and massage in each toe individually. And

2374
06:10:29.279 --> 06:10:35.159
that feeling of pleasure and release. The experience when you're

2375
06:10:35.240 --> 06:10:56.959
having your feet and massaged feels really good. Now she

2376
06:10:57.159 --> 06:11:08.520
turn over in your mind, playing in your back. I'm

2377
06:11:08.599 --> 06:11:21.119
just going to start again at your neck area, in

2378
06:11:21.279 --> 06:11:29.560
your shoulders, just to get back in touch with that area.

2379
06:11:36.400 --> 06:11:46.759
And as you move up, I can clean my hands,

2380
06:11:48.080 --> 06:11:51.319
make them more fresh, because now I'm going to message

2381
06:11:51.759 --> 06:12:07.240
your face gently, starting off with your four head. Your

2382
06:12:07.279 --> 06:12:13.599
eyes are closed, I can just stretch your eyes a

2383
06:12:13.680 --> 06:12:25.360
little bit, pushing up on your eyebrows, just massaging around

2384
06:12:25.479 --> 06:12:40.759
your scalp, massaging down your cheeks, around your ears, into

2385
06:12:40.880 --> 06:12:49.520
your chaw shiply the side of your neck.

2386
06:12:53.439 --> 06:12:53.680
Chin.

2387
06:13:05.000 --> 06:13:12.680
They're just moving down from your neck down to your chest,

2388
06:13:16.479 --> 06:13:20.520
starting by message in the very top of your chest

2389
06:13:24.319 --> 06:13:29.560
where the collar phone is. Give a side of the collarbone,

2390
06:13:38.000 --> 06:13:41.240
and they just message in the hole of the chest,

2391
06:13:50.439 --> 06:14:02.479
moving the chest around because it's quite a large area.

2392
06:14:04.439 --> 06:14:11.880
You can move from one side to the next, moving

2393
06:14:12.279 --> 06:14:23.240
my hands underneath pretty much your arms are stretching up,

2394
06:14:25.439 --> 06:14:28.479
stretching some of the muscles of your back in the process,

2395
06:14:33.759 --> 06:14:42.400
moving up over your chest, and they're moving down again.

2396
06:14:55.159 --> 06:15:00.639
They're allowing my hands. They're just message gently and slide

2397
06:15:00.919 --> 06:15:07.479
down towards your stomach, starting in the middle of your chest,

2398
06:15:10.959 --> 06:15:17.759
and then gradually my head's moving apart, having massaging and

2399
06:15:18.000 --> 06:15:27.479
sliding at the same time, moving down to just below

2400
06:15:27.560 --> 06:15:42.680
your red cage, moving down and then messaging up again,

2401
06:15:45.520 --> 06:15:53.360
giving your chest all the attention that it needs to

2402
06:15:53.599 --> 06:16:05.799
feel completely relaxed, remembering that I'm also going to be

2403
06:16:05.919 --> 06:16:11.919
focusing on your sides as well, an area that really

2404
06:16:12.200 --> 06:16:19.759
doesn't get much attention that feels really good when it's massaged.

2405
06:16:24.680 --> 06:16:28.680
Just stroking my hands down the sides of your body,

2406
06:16:32.520 --> 06:16:35.919
just below your arms all the way down to your hips.

2407
06:16:45.560 --> 06:16:51.400
Now moving to your stomach area, We're going to stand

2408
06:16:51.560 --> 06:16:54.040
on one side of you like I did when I

2409
06:16:54.080 --> 06:16:59.520
did your lwer back. I'm gonna do a similar process

2410
06:17:00.479 --> 06:17:11.200
of just stretching the muscles from your side, gently massaging

2411
06:17:15.400 --> 06:17:23.279
from one side to the next, moving the whole area

2412
06:17:24.360 --> 06:17:28.279
from below your ribs all the way down to below

2413
06:17:28.360 --> 06:17:37.919
your belly button, and then move around to the other

2414
06:17:38.040 --> 06:17:53.840
side of you and repeat that process of relaxing, deeply, calmly,

2415
06:17:57.279 --> 06:18:04.759
feel loose, feel free. And it's something about having your

2416
06:18:04.840 --> 06:18:13.080
stomach message that's different from any other part because we

2417
06:18:13.240 --> 06:18:17.599
do have a tendency of holding a different kind of

2418
06:18:17.880 --> 06:18:22.080
stress in our stomach that we may not be aware of.

2419
06:18:27.959 --> 06:18:33.720
There's an owl message your stomach. In front of your stomach,

2420
06:18:35.680 --> 06:18:46.639
they can circles around your belly, buttom thing going the

2421
06:18:46.720 --> 06:18:56.560
other way around. There a gentleness and a freedom that

2422
06:18:56.799 --> 06:19:08.119
comes from feeling how you're feeling. As I now move

2423
06:19:08.639 --> 06:19:17.360
down the tops of your thighs, muscles, massaging them, and

2424
06:19:17.439 --> 06:19:20.680
I can do this to your legs at the same time,

2425
06:19:22.919 --> 06:19:32.200
pressing down, massaging deeply those muscles in your thighs, the

2426
06:19:32.319 --> 06:19:41.040
front of your thighs, and moving down to your knees,

2427
06:19:42.000 --> 06:19:54.680
gently massaging your knees, Sliding down your shins, putting pressure

2428
06:19:54.720 --> 06:20:02.479
on either side of your shin gently softly but firmly,

2429
06:20:06.680 --> 06:20:16.360
moving down to your ankles, stroking the tops of your feet,

2430
06:20:22.520 --> 06:20:27.919
and then with each foot in each hand, just gently

2431
06:20:28.159 --> 06:20:36.479
messaging the whole of the foot, the top, the bottom,

2432
06:20:37.240 --> 06:20:45.520
your heel, your ankle, your toes, messaging every part of

2433
06:20:45.639 --> 06:20:55.400
your feet. Feels so good, Just to let go and

2434
06:20:55.680 --> 06:21:19.720
enjoy the process, Enjoy feeling so deeply relaxed. So much

2435
06:21:19.959 --> 06:21:27.720
comfort and so many feelings become just from touching your skin.

2436
06:21:38.439 --> 06:21:44.400
And you can just lie there for as long as

2437
06:21:44.479 --> 06:21:58.560
you choose, enjoying the feeling of deep comfort from being massaged.

2438
06:22:00.479 --> 06:22:00.880
By me.

2439
06:22:08.040 --> 06:22:33.840
Enjoy fear deepay, and all we're gonna do is blow

2440
06:22:33.919 --> 06:22:50.400
out some candles in your mind. There're gonna be a

2441
06:22:50.639 --> 06:23:03.479
hundred candles, and you going to blow each one out individually,

2442
06:23:05.240 --> 06:23:12.919
one by one, starting at one hundred. As I count

2443
06:23:13.040 --> 06:23:24.880
down all the way down to one, and each time

2444
06:23:25.279 --> 06:23:34.279
I say the number, you can imagine that candle in

2445
06:23:34.360 --> 06:23:41.040
front of you, and I'd like you to actually physically

2446
06:23:45.360 --> 06:23:59.279
generally blow that candle out, just so it's not a

2447
06:23:59.599 --> 06:24:10.680
big blows, just a gentle and that candle will extinguish.

2448
06:24:15.360 --> 06:24:19.919
And then I'll say the next number, so we moved down,

2449
06:24:23.159 --> 06:24:29.680
then you can just blow that one out as well.

2450
06:24:35.639 --> 06:24:44.159
And as we move down the numbers, you'll find yourself

2451
06:24:45.279 --> 06:24:48.040
feeding more and more relaxed.

2452
06:24:51.080 --> 06:24:51.840
If you need.

2453
06:24:53.400 --> 06:25:02.639
To sleep, you'll also find yourself becoming incredibly tired and sleepy.

2454
06:25:06.479 --> 06:25:13.959
In fact, you may struggle to blow out all one

2455
06:25:14.080 --> 06:25:30.959
hundred of these candles as you feel more and more

2456
06:25:31.319 --> 06:25:59.040
deeply relaxed, more and more deeply tired, and the fur

2457
06:25:59.560 --> 06:26:09.240
you go down, the more your mind starts to drift.

2458
06:26:15.639 --> 06:26:22.080
You may find that you stop listening to me after

2459
06:26:22.240 --> 06:26:35.360
a while, and even though there maybe background sounds where

2460
06:26:35.439 --> 06:26:46.840
you are, you'll be aware of those sounds at the moment.

2461
06:26:51.840 --> 06:26:52.560
He may.

2462
06:26:55.840 --> 06:27:10.639
Start to just not even notice them at all because

2463
06:27:10.759 --> 06:27:11.919
they're unimportant.

2464
06:27:19.919 --> 06:27:20.599
Where I am.

2465
06:27:23.200 --> 06:27:27.880
I've got the sounds of the birds. There's all horrist,

2466
06:27:27.959 --> 06:27:36.000
the pigeon who likes to say hello. Sometimes there's the

2467
06:27:36.080 --> 06:27:46.639
old plane that goes by, maybe traffic and trains in

2468
06:27:46.759 --> 06:27:59.040
the distance. But none of that scene is important whatsoever,

2469
06:28:03.880 --> 06:28:18.240
or candles you blow out less important anything is. Or

2470
06:28:18.720 --> 06:28:38.000
candles you blow out the further seemed to move away, sounds,

2471
06:28:41.639 --> 06:28:56.000
general date days, stuff seems to just move away on

2472
06:28:56.240 --> 06:29:12.360
its own. You feel more calmer with every candle you

2473
06:29:12.560 --> 06:29:32.319
blow out, guiding here the next number? Did you hear

2474
06:29:32.479 --> 06:29:43.360
me say? And then you blow that candle out too?

2475
06:29:51.520 --> 06:30:15.000
So easy, so simple. I'm gonna start by introducing the

2476
06:30:15.319 --> 06:30:32.240
first candle. This is a hundred. First candle, This is

2477
06:30:32.720 --> 06:30:49.319
one hundred. When you blow that candle out, you'll find

2478
06:30:51.119 --> 06:31:06.840
immediately a light change in how you feel, as well

2479
06:31:06.919 --> 06:31:21.560
as a real sense of positivity growing within you, relaxation

2480
06:31:22.200 --> 06:31:51.040
and sleepiness expanding. Starting with one hundred, blow out back

2481
06:31:51.200 --> 06:33:34.119
candle now ninety nine, candle ninety eight, candle ninety seven, goodlie,

2482
06:33:34.360 --> 06:35:05.119
this can ninety five, Can ninety four, candle ninety three,

2483
06:35:36.680 --> 06:35:38.000
I like you two.

2484
06:36:04.279 --> 06:36:05.599
Night one.

2485
06:36:23.680 --> 06:36:59.080
Candle ninety and eighty two, nine.

2486
06:37:16.200 --> 06:37:25.040
And eight.

2487
06:37:26.959 --> 06:37:57.479
Eight and.

2488
06:38:09.080 --> 06:41:09.080
Eight, candle eight eight five, eight eighty two.

2489
06:42:16.439 --> 06:42:17.159
Seven two.

2490
06:42:25.560 --> 06:44:02.919
Two US, Can.

2491
06:44:06.799 --> 06:44:59.560
Seventy nine, Candle seventy eight, Candle seventy seven, Candle seventy,

2492
06:45:14.279 --> 06:46:13.759
Candle seventy five, candle seventy four, candle eighteen three, candle

2493
06:46:18.959 --> 06:47:21.040
seventy two, candle seventy one, handle seventy one, and seventy

2494
06:47:36.200 --> 06:48:14.880
and sixty nine, candle six ixty eight, candle sixty seven,

2495
06:48:28.599 --> 06:49:33.400
candle sixty five, candle sixty four, candle sixty four, candle

2496
06:49:34.040 --> 06:51:37.080
sixty three, candle sixty sixty one, sixty fifty nine, candle

2497
06:51:39.880 --> 06:52:59.520
fifty eight, candle fifty seven, Can fifty six, Canto fifty five,

2498
06:53:17.119 --> 06:55:15.080
handle fifty four, handle fifty three, fifty fifty, candulu fifty,

2499
06:55:47.479 --> 06:57:25.000
candle fifty one, candle fifty, candle fourty nine, came fourty eight,

2500
06:58:02.400 --> 06:59:48.119
Can forty seven, candle forty six, candle forty five forty two.

2501
07:00:33.520 --> 07:00:34.200
Who do you.

2502
07:01:07.479 --> 07:03:53.200
Candle forty, candle thirty nine eight, candle thirty seven, candle

2503
07:03:55.599 --> 07:08:07.840
thirty five four, Campo thirty three, handle thirty one and

2504
07:08:11.560 --> 07:10:35.360
twentyteen nine, Can twenty eight, candle twenty seven, twenty six,

2505
07:11:16.319 --> 07:14:49.919
candle wity five not twenty three to wit and wit.

2506
07:15:53.119 --> 07:15:57.159
To let see.

2507
07:16:45.560 --> 07:16:50.319
Eight, servt.

2508
07:17:40.759 --> 07:27:01.799
Six day four and none save to a two.

2509
07:29:06.759 --> 07:29:14.400
Can or.

2510
07:29:20.240 --> 07:29:27.439
Let go of all of those thoughts, worries, concerns about

2511
07:29:27.479 --> 07:29:34.040
the past, thoughts about the future, and even things you've

2512
07:29:34.080 --> 07:29:41.840
been thinking about today. Just let it all go because

2513
07:29:41.880 --> 07:29:49.520
none of it is useful in this moment. This is

2514
07:29:50.520 --> 07:30:09.959
your opportunity to just focus on feeling relaxed, allowing yourself

2515
07:30:10.119 --> 07:30:17.880
to get in touch with that natural sense of peace

2516
07:30:20.560 --> 07:30:26.200
that we all have within us. It's available for everyone.

2517
07:30:27.360 --> 07:30:32.279
It just sometimes takes a little bit of effort to

2518
07:30:32.439 --> 07:30:38.520
set up the right time and place in order for

2519
07:30:38.599 --> 07:30:45.560
you to just let go. Because when you do decide

2520
07:30:47.919 --> 07:30:53.240
to let go and relax, that's what your body starts

2521
07:30:53.319 --> 07:31:03.880
to do, because you've chosen chosen to just allow your

2522
07:31:03.959 --> 07:31:09.560
body to unwind and your mind starts to slow down.

2523
07:31:12.919 --> 07:31:17.319
And it's a nice feeling. It's a nice feeling at

2524
07:31:17.360 --> 07:31:23.279
the beginning, just to know that you have chosen to

2525
07:31:23.439 --> 07:31:32.479
decide to relax deeply, and because you've made that decision,

2526
07:31:34.279 --> 07:31:41.319
your body will just follow suit, because sometimes all the

2527
07:31:41.479 --> 07:31:46.200
muscles in your body need is just permission from you

2528
07:31:47.279 --> 07:31:55.759
to relax. Because so often we're busy, we're going from

2529
07:31:55.840 --> 07:31:59.799
here to there, we're walking around and we're doing stuff,

2530
07:32:02.119 --> 07:32:08.479
and the body doesn't have any time or space to

2531
07:32:08.680 --> 07:32:15.639
really relax deeply, so it kind of waits for you

2532
07:32:15.959 --> 07:32:25.119
to lead the way, waits for your permission. And when

2533
07:32:25.159 --> 07:32:31.919
you do give your permission, when you give to say so,

2534
07:32:32.119 --> 07:32:39.919
when you say okay, it's time for your body to

2535
07:32:40.080 --> 07:32:48.840
let go completely and relax totally, your body just follows

2536
07:32:52.000 --> 07:32:58.040
some like a breath of relief. Ah good like relax

2537
07:33:01.639 --> 07:33:05.560
have feeling at the end of a day, of very

2538
07:33:05.720 --> 07:33:10.080
physical day that you may experience in the past, where

2539
07:33:10.119 --> 07:33:13.040
you get home and you just sit down on a chair,

2540
07:33:14.119 --> 07:33:19.000
maybe you kick your shoes off, and ah, feels so nice.

2541
07:33:21.040 --> 07:33:25.040
Know that you don't have to get up again for

2542
07:33:25.119 --> 07:33:28.319
a little while at least, and if you choose, you

2543
07:33:28.400 --> 07:33:33.000
can just sit there for maybe an hour to kind

2544
07:33:33.040 --> 07:33:44.080
of feels polissal. And just by sitting down like that,

2545
07:33:45.560 --> 07:33:50.560
your body knows that it's time to relax. Your body

2546
07:33:51.240 --> 07:33:56.799
has been given permission from you because it's a mindset

2547
07:33:58.279 --> 07:34:07.040
in your mind, you're prepared to let go of everything

2548
07:34:09.479 --> 07:34:17.159
and just completely allow all the stress of your body

2549
07:34:17.959 --> 07:34:26.040
to evaporate. An intensions can just gradually.

2550
07:34:28.119 --> 07:34:28.479
Vanish.

2551
07:34:35.000 --> 07:34:46.680
It's almost like magic really, because that sense of relaxation

2552
07:34:47.040 --> 07:34:53.000
in your body, it's a very natural state. It's not

2553
07:34:53.200 --> 07:34:58.040
something unusual. It may feel unusual when you first start

2554
07:34:58.119 --> 07:35:03.279
to relax, you haven't really spent a lot of time

2555
07:35:03.520 --> 07:35:08.720
focusing and giving yourself this space to let go completely

2556
07:35:08.919 --> 07:35:16.560
and relax. They seem almost alien, but it isn't. It's

2557
07:35:16.720 --> 07:35:22.639
actually the most natural thing in the world to let

2558
07:35:22.680 --> 07:35:32.639
go completely, to relax totally, the most natural thing in

2559
07:35:32.720 --> 07:35:45.240
the world to allow yourself to feel really calm in

2560
07:35:45.360 --> 07:35:52.200
your mind. And it is almost like a literal unwinding.

2561
07:35:55.880 --> 07:36:01.360
It's like you press a button and all the tension

2562
07:36:01.720 --> 07:36:07.520
just releases, and it's like a wheel, like a cog,

2563
07:36:08.479 --> 07:36:12.040
like the inside of the clock just unwinding. And it's

2564
07:36:12.080 --> 07:36:17.080
almost like you could see the little wind up knob

2565
07:36:17.200 --> 07:36:22.200
that's used just going the opposite way that you choose

2566
07:36:22.319 --> 07:36:30.159
to wind it up, and the energy that frenetic stress

2567
07:36:30.599 --> 07:36:40.560
for energy gradually winding down, losing its power, losing its strength.

2568
07:36:43.080 --> 07:36:52.360
There's a sense of relaxation becomes stronger and deeper, and

2569
07:36:52.680 --> 07:37:01.080
you may find a the more relaxed you feel, your

2570
07:37:01.240 --> 07:37:11.200
mind starts to wonder. Maybe you seem to stop listening

2571
07:37:11.319 --> 07:37:15.919
to me for a while, your mind goes somewhere else,

2572
07:37:17.319 --> 07:37:23.159
and then you realize you're listening to me again, and

2573
07:37:23.319 --> 07:37:29.919
that's just your mind to drifting to sleep, which is

2574
07:37:30.119 --> 07:37:41.240
quite natural, because sometimes when we're stressed and tense, we're

2575
07:37:41.639 --> 07:37:46.200
mean I actually be aware of what we need or

2576
07:37:46.279 --> 07:37:54.880
we physically your emotionally need in this moment. But when

2577
07:37:55.080 --> 07:38:01.560
you allow your body and mind to relax completely.

2578
07:38:02.680 --> 07:38:04.680
And you let go of all.

2579
07:38:04.959 --> 07:38:14.479
Thoughts, concerns, worries, ideas, all lengo and allow them to

2580
07:38:14.720 --> 07:38:25.240
drop onto the floor, you start to get in touch

2581
07:38:25.479 --> 07:38:38.680
with the feelings of such relaxation. Feelings so nice to

2582
07:38:38.840 --> 07:38:45.080
be in touch with the calmness of the different body

2583
07:38:45.240 --> 07:38:58.479
parts this day become looser and looser. Even your breathing

2584
07:38:59.080 --> 07:39:11.439
scenes easier and more natural, efftless as I cool outs

2585
07:39:11.599 --> 07:39:18.599
through your mouth or notice into your lungs, breathing in

2586
07:39:20.400 --> 07:39:28.720
comforts and relaxation and then just breathing out any excess

2587
07:39:29.200 --> 07:39:38.080
remain intentional stress from every part of your body and mind.

2588
07:39:41.759 --> 07:39:46.799
As you start to focus on your mind, maybe you

2589
07:39:47.119 --> 07:39:54.720
notice that things that come to a standstill or maybe

2590
07:39:55.159 --> 07:40:03.720
just much much lower than before because your mind is

2591
07:40:03.880 --> 07:40:14.759
not really needed. When listening to my voice, which allows

2592
07:40:14.840 --> 07:40:20.759
your mind to relax just as deeply as your body.

2593
07:40:23.520 --> 07:40:35.479
And that's synchronicity between the relaxation of your body relaxation

2594
07:40:36.479 --> 07:40:37.279
of your mind.

2595
07:40:39.639 --> 07:40:40.880
Let you know that.

2596
07:40:43.000 --> 07:40:50.200
Feeling completely calm, loose, and relaxed.

2597
07:40:52.000 --> 07:40:53.040
Real is.

2598
07:40:54.799 --> 07:40:59.880
A great healing experience.

2599
07:41:02.799 --> 07:41:03.560
And has.

2600
07:41:07.840 --> 07:41:16.279
So many positive benefits for your body, mind, and your life.

2601
07:41:18.959 --> 07:41:27.720
To be able to let go everything and to relax completely,

2602
07:41:29.599 --> 07:41:37.720
you know, all parts of your body and mind, even

2603
07:41:37.840 --> 07:41:53.159
your boneses are relaxed, or your muscles are relaxed. Even

2604
07:41:53.439 --> 07:42:07.080
the skin that covers your body is flaxed. Every hair.

2605
07:42:10.080 --> 07:42:10.680
That you have.

2606
07:42:12.439 --> 07:42:13.319
Is also.

2607
07:42:15.200 --> 07:42:32.360
Deeply relaxed. And your brain really starts to feel the benefits.

2608
07:42:33.599 --> 07:42:33.959
Of this.

2609
07:42:35.560 --> 07:42:47.200
Heathing relaxation. And as you focus on the in the

2610
07:42:47.400 --> 07:42:52.439
side of your scalp where your brain is, you can

2611
07:42:52.720 --> 07:43:03.279
start to realize and notice the benefits of your brain relaxing. Dee.

2612
07:43:08.040 --> 07:43:20.479
Initial brain continues to reax sends those messages to the

2613
07:43:20.680 --> 07:43:29.319
rest of your body and do mind to re relax

2614
07:43:32.080 --> 07:43:55.319
more deeply, relax more completely, letting go of any remaining thoughts,

2615
07:43:57.240 --> 07:44:04.279
a concerns, low of them just drop onto the floor

2616
07:44:06.439 --> 07:44:14.880
because they're not not been necessary in this moment. This

2617
07:44:15.200 --> 07:44:30.680
moment of deep reaxation and calmness, feeling your brain with deep,

2618
07:44:32.040 --> 07:44:58.599
concentrated feeling, calming, relaxing every part of your brain, feeling.

2619
07:45:01.240 --> 07:45:03.240
So loose.

2620
07:45:04.400 --> 07:45:19.720
And comfortable, so relaxed and be peaceful. Your brain feels

2621
07:45:21.319 --> 07:45:32.159
so light, that's so healthy. That sense of deep deep

2622
07:45:32.439 --> 07:45:47.560
comfort really does allow you to enjoy those ever increase

2623
07:45:47.720 --> 07:45:58.119
in sensations of comfort, that is spreading throughout your body,

2624
07:46:02.400 --> 07:46:13.560
relaxing each and every muscle of your body, eat deeper

2625
07:46:18.080 --> 07:46:35.040
and deeper, much more deeper than before, much more comfort

2626
07:46:37.599 --> 07:46:52.319
spreading through your body, your mind, be so peaceful and calm,

2627
07:46:55.200 --> 07:47:09.680
so very fair, peaceful in avery part of your body,

2628
07:47:11.319 --> 07:47:30.799
letting go the a everything averything, so peaceful, calm, so

2629
07:47:31.680 --> 07:47:54.919
relax Every second the passes, you feel dper dpa relaxed,

2630
07:47:58.560 --> 07:48:06.840
dper and deer lest.

2631
07:48:09.520 --> 07:48:13.959
Cal so calm.

2632
07:48:17.680 --> 07:48:19.360
Peace, for.

2633
07:48:22.159 --> 07:48:31.479
So very peace from your head down to your ties.

2634
07:48:34.599 --> 07:48:47.000
Such peace and comfort growing all all the time, Such

2635
07:48:47.720 --> 07:49:01.319
peace and comfort spreading through your body, your mind deeper

2636
07:49:02.200 --> 07:49:18.680
depot such comforts, spreading and sinking deeper into ay muscle

2637
07:49:18.799 --> 07:49:19.720
of ebody.

2638
07:49:23.319 --> 07:49:25.040
So you feel.

2639
07:49:27.159 --> 07:49:37.000
Amazing, so relaxed, so pie, so so.

2640
07:49:41.720 --> 07:49:43.720
So relax.

2641
07:49:47.040 --> 07:50:02.159
And peace, Let it go, everything. You're going to do

2642
07:50:02.479 --> 07:50:09.880
a body scan, focusing on firstly how you feel in

2643
07:50:10.000 --> 07:50:15.400
your body, not trying to change how you feel, not

2644
07:50:15.880 --> 07:50:20.599
trying to relax, not trying to move away from any

2645
07:50:20.680 --> 07:50:29.799
discomfort or stress or tension. Just accepting, observing and accepting

2646
07:50:30.400 --> 07:50:33.759
how you feel in the different parts of your body,

2647
07:50:35.759 --> 07:50:44.799
just allowing yourself to be exactly as you are, to notice,

2648
07:50:45.560 --> 07:50:53.680
to get in touch with how you actually feel in

2649
07:50:53.840 --> 07:51:03.799
this moment. I'm going to start off by focusing on

2650
07:51:03.919 --> 07:51:16.439
your hands. Just be aware of your hands. I'd like

2651
07:51:16.560 --> 07:51:21.000
you to move your hands around, just maybe move your

2652
07:51:21.240 --> 07:51:27.000
fingers a little bit. I've been enclosing in your hands

2653
07:51:27.799 --> 07:51:34.639
very gently, just so that you can get in touch

2654
07:51:35.000 --> 07:51:47.759
with how your hands and your fingers feel, very very

2655
07:51:48.159 --> 07:52:05.560
slow movements. Focusing now on your feet, and if you

2656
07:52:05.720 --> 07:52:10.000
can just do kind of an equivalent with your feet

2657
07:52:10.200 --> 07:52:17.959
is you've just done with your hands, maybe turning your ankles,

2658
07:52:19.919 --> 07:52:29.639
moving your feet around, moving your toes gently, only very

2659
07:52:31.680 --> 07:52:43.400
gently and very slowly, noticing how your feet feel in

2660
07:52:43.599 --> 07:52:56.840
this moment. Focusing now on your eyes, I'd like you

2661
07:52:57.080 --> 07:53:04.279
to just focus on your eyelids. Maybe you can open

2662
07:53:04.400 --> 07:53:08.639
and close your eyes a couple of times. To really

2663
07:53:08.840 --> 07:53:12.360
get in touch with how you feel when you do

2664
07:53:12.599 --> 07:53:20.919
close your eyes. The muscle changes in your eyes when

2665
07:53:20.959 --> 07:53:29.599
you do close them, maybe raising your eyebrows, it stretches

2666
07:53:29.959 --> 07:53:40.759
the tops of your eyes, perhaps squinting your eyes, scrunching

2667
07:53:40.880 --> 07:53:41.880
up your eyes.

2668
07:53:42.720 --> 07:53:43.520
Just so you can.

2669
07:53:44.880 --> 07:53:54.759
Really get in touch with all aspects of how your

2670
07:53:54.880 --> 07:54:14.040
eyes feel. Right now, now focusing on your thighs, and

2671
07:54:14.040 --> 07:54:17.360
then you know it just starts you to gently tense

2672
07:54:17.599 --> 07:54:27.520
your thighs, just very very gently, just enough so you

2673
07:54:27.680 --> 07:54:41.319
can become more attuned to the physical sensation of your

2674
07:54:41.439 --> 07:54:46.799
upper legs, the front of your thighs, on the backs

2675
07:54:46.919 --> 07:55:01.240
of your thighs, noticing and observing how your thighs feel.

2676
07:55:02.520 --> 07:55:15.479
Right now, moving your focus to the back of your neck,

2677
07:55:19.159 --> 07:55:25.799
just noticing the back of your neck the muscles, and

2678
07:55:25.919 --> 07:55:28.919
of course they lead to the side of your neck.

2679
07:55:30.360 --> 07:55:35.479
They also lead to the top of your back, which

2680
07:55:35.680 --> 07:55:41.040
leads to your shoulders. So as your focus on the

2681
07:55:41.240 --> 07:55:46.799
back of your neck, maybe you can move your head

2682
07:55:47.720 --> 07:55:55.479
gently upwards as if you're looking up, Maybe moving your

2683
07:55:55.560 --> 07:56:03.360
head down as if you're looking down, perhaps moving your

2684
07:56:03.439 --> 07:56:16.799
headside decide it right to left bony, very slowly, very gently.

2685
07:56:19.360 --> 07:56:24.479
I'm not trying to force anything. It has to be

2686
07:56:25.000 --> 07:56:33.400
very very gentle, just so you can.

2687
07:56:34.959 --> 07:56:36.560
Be more.

2688
07:56:38.200 --> 07:56:41.880
In touch with the.

2689
07:56:42.240 --> 07:56:52.759
Feelings, with the sensations, the physical sensations of how the

2690
07:56:52.880 --> 07:57:08.400
back of your neck feels. Right now, as we now

2691
07:57:08.840 --> 07:57:17.200
focus on the tops of your arms, the parts where

2692
07:57:17.200 --> 07:57:21.799
your biceps and your triceps are between your elbow and

2693
07:57:21.919 --> 07:57:30.520
your shoulders. To focus on those parts and tops of

2694
07:57:30.639 --> 07:57:37.959
your arms, you may like to just tense them, but

2695
07:57:38.680 --> 07:57:50.479
very very gently and slowly. See you're straining or putting

2696
07:57:50.599 --> 07:57:55.240
any pressure whatsoever.

2697
07:57:56.159 --> 07:57:57.040
On your arms.

2698
07:58:00.240 --> 07:58:07.479
Just slowly you can gain more of a sense of

2699
07:58:09.360 --> 07:58:21.319
how your upper arms are feeling in this moment, just

2700
07:58:21.639 --> 07:58:34.159
noticing as you gently, very gently and slowly tighten the

2701
07:58:34.319 --> 07:58:45.040
muscles and then let go. Notice how the tops of

2702
07:58:45.159 --> 07:59:03.680
your arms feel. Right now, there's a mouth. Focus on

2703
07:59:03.880 --> 07:59:11.400
your stomach, the area the lower abdomen area below your

2704
07:59:11.439 --> 07:59:20.080
belly button, moving all the way down to your hips,

2705
07:59:21.159 --> 07:59:32.439
just above your grind. Maybe you're able to tense these

2706
07:59:32.639 --> 07:59:40.279
muscles in that area very very gently.

2707
07:59:43.279 --> 07:59:44.400
And slowly.

2708
07:59:50.040 --> 07:59:54.479
If that's a difficult thing to do, maybe you can

2709
07:59:54.680 --> 08:00:05.319
just move your body, pushing your stomach up, maybe moving

2710
08:00:05.360 --> 08:00:10.599
a little bit of a side using your hips, just

2711
08:00:11.159 --> 08:00:14.040
so get more.

2712
08:00:15.520 --> 08:00:16.560
In chain.

2713
08:00:18.159 --> 08:00:27.520
With how you're lower up to an area his feeling

2714
08:00:30.319 --> 08:00:47.919
in this moment, just noticing the physical sensations of your

2715
08:00:48.080 --> 08:01:01.279
lower abdomen as you move.

2716
08:01:03.000 --> 08:01:04.279
Your attention.

2717
08:01:06.240 --> 08:01:17.720
To your mouth, notice in your lips and inside your mouth,

2718
08:01:20.000 --> 08:01:37.200
your teeth, your guns, your tongue, Just noticing how your

2719
08:01:37.360 --> 08:01:39.680
tongue and your mouth feels.

2720
08:01:42.720 --> 08:01:42.759
It.

2721
08:01:42.919 --> 08:01:51.919
May help by moving your tongue around your mouth, moving

2722
08:01:52.000 --> 08:01:59.400
it to your left, maybe pressing it gently against the

2723
08:01:59.599 --> 08:02:05.840
sign of your mouth, and then to the right, gently

2724
08:02:06.360 --> 08:02:13.040
to the side of your mouth, perhaps pressing up against

2725
08:02:13.159 --> 08:02:21.159
the top of your mouth, and then down gently against

2726
08:02:21.240 --> 08:02:31.759
the bottom of your mouth, always very slowly and a

2727
08:02:32.360 --> 08:02:36.520
very very gentle.

2728
08:02:40.959 --> 08:02:42.200
So that you can.

2729
08:02:45.759 --> 08:03:09.400
Be aware of how you feel in your mouth area. No,

2730
08:03:14.000 --> 08:03:15.560
got to focus.

2731
08:03:17.360 --> 08:03:29.279
On your wrists, I don't.

2732
08:03:29.319 --> 08:03:38.080
I ask you to maybe just routine your wrists by

2733
08:03:38.159 --> 08:03:51.840
moving your hands in a circular motion very gently and slowly, just.

2734
08:03:53.599 --> 08:03:55.000
So can.

2735
08:04:00.680 --> 08:04:19.720
Feel the sensations that you are currently experiencing in your risks.

2736
08:04:23.799 --> 08:04:33.840
Perhaps smooth in your hands up and down again very

2737
08:04:36.479 --> 08:04:54.439
very chaply and slowly, very chancel.

2738
08:04:57.880 --> 08:04:59.639
And slow.

2739
08:05:12.599 --> 08:05:13.119
Between.

2740
08:05:13.279 --> 08:05:23.639
Now start to observe your lower back.

2741
08:05:29.000 --> 08:05:30.759
There. Bad part is.

2742
08:05:32.319 --> 08:05:48.520
Just above your hips where your coxis are the whole

2743
08:05:48.759 --> 08:05:55.360
area which also really does include the signs of your

2744
08:05:55.400 --> 08:06:06.319
body because those muscles are very much connected. There's those

2745
08:06:06.520 --> 08:06:14.159
muscles also move into your hyperia, connecting too your buttocks

2746
08:06:17.599 --> 08:06:32.279
side of your hips. And if you're physically able to

2747
08:06:32.479 --> 08:06:41.720
do so, maybe you can very gently just move your

2748
08:06:41.840 --> 08:06:54.639
body evis is slightly, very slowly, some side to side,

2749
08:06:58.360 --> 08:07:11.919
just enough to gauge how you feel.

2750
08:07:13.959 --> 08:07:15.159
In your law back.

2751
08:07:22.759 --> 08:07:37.479
Perhaps secretly move your hips gently up and down, gently

2752
08:07:37.919 --> 08:07:39.880
and slowly.

2753
08:07:42.520 --> 08:07:49.520
In order to be in touch.

2754
08:07:51.880 --> 08:07:56.319
With the physical sensations.

2755
08:07:56.720 --> 08:07:57.919
Of your law back.

2756
08:08:14.959 --> 08:08:30.840
As we know, your attention to your jawel an area

2757
08:08:31.240 --> 08:08:36.479
for your chin all the way up to near where

2758
08:08:36.520 --> 08:08:55.680
your ears are. Oh, your jaw, you can just it's

2759
08:08:55.840 --> 08:09:05.759
okay to do so. Gently open your mouth nor wide,

2760
08:09:06.279 --> 08:09:17.240
No stretch, just very gently and slowly opening your mouth.

2761
08:09:21.599 --> 08:09:39.680
Close in your mouth very gently and slowly, so you

2762
08:09:39.880 --> 08:09:56.599
can be in touch with how your jaw feels. Now,

2763
08:10:23.319 --> 08:10:38.880
I like to sit down the chest around you don't

2764
08:10:39.080 --> 08:10:46.439
need to do anything to move your chest because it

2765
08:10:46.680 --> 08:11:00.880
moves every time you bray. It moves very gently, slowly,

2766
08:11:03.360 --> 08:11:18.360
automatically with each breath you take. As you focus on

2767
08:11:20.840 --> 08:12:04.919
how your chest fields when you breath. Move in your

2768
08:12:05.159 --> 08:12:19.880
focus to your forearms with your elbows. Maybe you're able

2769
08:12:20.360 --> 08:12:24.919
to very gently.

2770
08:12:26.360 --> 08:12:28.520
And slowly.

2771
08:12:30.200 --> 08:12:38.759
Dense the muscles in your forearms, and when you do that,

2772
08:12:39.240 --> 08:13:12.400
you can feel your elbows as well. Very gently and slowly, jackly.

2773
08:13:15.240 --> 08:13:17.240
And softly.

2774
08:13:21.279 --> 08:13:59.919
Sur your forums and del bas no focus the restless

2775
08:14:00.040 --> 08:14:13.560
your back, your upper back and the middle the middle

2776
08:14:13.680 --> 08:14:29.880
of your back. Again, this part of your body.

2777
08:14:32.520 --> 08:14:33.000
Moves.

2778
08:14:35.119 --> 08:14:38.319
Also every time you breed.

2779
08:14:43.279 --> 08:14:44.799
You may not notice that.

2780
08:14:47.000 --> 08:14:59.080
Usually makes you ubsert your upper back in the middle

2781
08:14:59.159 --> 08:16:08.799
of your back hits focus into your hip area nor

2782
08:16:08.919 --> 08:16:21.599
butts bray, there's a muscle asn't those bones in your midsection.

2783
08:16:49.200 --> 08:17:09.119
Just noticing how your hips feel. Right now, you can

2784
08:17:11.720 --> 08:17:25.360
very very gently use your hips, maybe side to side,

2785
08:17:26.799 --> 08:17:28.880
very gently.

2786
08:17:28.599 --> 08:17:49.759
And yeah, very.

2787
08:17:54.200 --> 08:18:03.520
Gently softly.

2788
08:18:10.479 --> 08:18:10.799
Ms.

2789
08:18:17.279 --> 08:18:34.040
Everything starts to slow down, including the thoughts in your

2790
08:18:34.159 --> 08:18:45.919
mind and your mind itself just starts to gradually. It

2791
08:18:46.000 --> 08:18:52.479
doesn't have to be instant, but just gradually starting too.

2792
08:18:53.759 --> 08:19:02.560
It's almost like time is straight chin. It's a slower

2793
08:19:02.720 --> 08:19:10.599
pace to maybe what you're used to in your day

2794
08:19:10.639 --> 08:19:32.639
to day life. It's a slower movement of energy, very

2795
08:19:37.040 --> 08:19:45.479
small movements which make up the larger movements, which is

2796
08:19:45.560 --> 08:19:53.319
always the case. Now, when you move your hand, it

2797
08:19:53.439 --> 08:19:56.159
might seem like it's one movement, but it's lots of

2798
08:19:57.000 --> 08:20:09.400
minute different muscles in accordance with each other. And what

2799
08:20:09.759 --> 08:20:22.200
happens in this space that we're sharing is we move

2800
08:20:22.360 --> 08:20:43.040
from that big movement into those smaller movements. Starting to

2801
08:20:43.240 --> 08:20:54.279
focus on how your body feels, not just as a whole,

2802
08:20:55.680 --> 08:20:58.799
not just oh, i'm feel in this way. I'm feeling

2803
08:21:00.119 --> 08:21:05.840
dressed or tense, or I'm feeling relaxed and calm, I'm

2804
08:21:05.959 --> 08:21:12.959
feeling this way, I'm feeling that way. Starting to notice

2805
08:21:13.159 --> 08:21:25.400
that your body begins to present to you small feelings

2806
08:21:27.000 --> 08:21:44.200
around your body, small physical sensations in your legs, whether

2807
08:21:44.599 --> 08:21:57.400
pleasurable or not. Maybe resisting the temptation to label them

2808
08:22:00.319 --> 08:22:07.959
or to judge them those feelings. Just thinking them, thinking

2809
08:22:07.959 --> 08:22:08.639
about them is.

2810
08:22:08.759 --> 08:22:26.000
Just being neutral, just feelings, not being particularly concerned, just

2811
08:22:26.400 --> 08:22:28.799
noticing what your.

2812
08:22:28.799 --> 08:22:45.319
Body is telling you. Feelings in your arms, instead of

2813
08:22:45.479 --> 08:22:54.639
feeling the whole of the arm, maybe notice those individual feelings,

2814
08:22:56.119 --> 08:23:07.599
all those different muscles and the skin, the hairs of

2815
08:23:07.680 --> 08:23:13.439
your arms, all the internal parts of your arms, the veins,

2816
08:23:23.599 --> 08:23:32.720
the bones, just being aware of. Maybe your elbow on

2817
08:23:32.840 --> 08:23:41.200
your right arm has a certain feeling. Maybe you're left

2818
08:23:41.319 --> 08:24:06.520
wrist also has its own individual physical sensation. What about

2819
08:24:06.599 --> 08:24:20.279
your forearm on your right arm, you're right forearm. There

2820
08:24:20.360 --> 08:24:26.599
may not be any particular feeling that you could even

2821
08:24:28.279 --> 08:24:35.360
give a name to, may not feel like anything other

2822
08:24:35.479 --> 08:24:46.080
than just a feeling. Yeah, it's there. The feelings in

2823
08:24:46.159 --> 08:24:52.000
your shoulders. Perhaps your shoulders when you think about them,

2824
08:24:53.240 --> 08:24:57.520
kind of almost like they're the same, you know, the

2825
08:24:57.639 --> 08:25:02.599
same feeling, almost like you both of your shoulders are

2826
08:25:02.680 --> 08:25:15.479
just one thing. Of course they're not. And when you

2827
08:25:15.680 --> 08:25:21.720
focus on your left shoulder and then on your right shoulder,

2828
08:25:23.759 --> 08:25:28.240
maybe find that you move the muscles a little bit,

2829
08:25:29.759 --> 08:25:44.599
maybe tense the muscles gently, noticing the difference in each shoulder.

2830
08:25:56.000 --> 08:26:11.840
Your lower back, the left side of your lower back

2831
08:26:12.080 --> 08:26:23.479
and the right side of your lower back of course

2832
08:26:23.599 --> 08:26:35.799
that connection to your buttocks and to your hips, and

2833
08:26:35.959 --> 08:26:49.279
also moving up into the middle of your back. And

2834
08:26:49.520 --> 08:26:53.400
sometimes like right now, actually I want to focus on

2835
08:26:53.560 --> 08:26:59.159
their part. When I focused on my buttocks and then

2836
08:26:59.200 --> 08:27:03.040
I focused on why the middle of my back, I

2837
08:27:03.159 --> 08:27:06.000
almost felt like the muscles in my lower back were

2838
08:27:06.080 --> 08:27:17.840
being stretched very gently, just stretched a little bit. Even

2839
08:27:17.919 --> 08:27:26.520
though I wasn't doing anything to try to stretch your

2840
08:27:26.599 --> 08:27:31.439
lower back, it just seemed to happen. The feeling of

2841
08:27:33.720 --> 08:27:51.560
very gently stretching your lower back comes along. I have

2842
08:27:51.840 --> 08:28:17.159
feeling in your chest, just noticing what sensations you are

2843
08:28:17.360 --> 08:28:34.479
experiencing in your chest right now. And there's so much

2844
08:28:34.720 --> 08:28:38.680
of the chest. Of obviously there's the collar bone leading

2845
08:28:38.880 --> 08:28:45.279
to the chest. You've got the chest bone, You've got

2846
08:28:45.319 --> 08:28:53.479
the muscles in your chest. Of course, if you're female,

2847
08:28:54.159 --> 08:29:01.319
there's possibly the breasts. If you're male, you've got the

2848
08:29:04.200 --> 08:29:09.720
different well might not that different these days, but there

2849
08:29:09.799 --> 08:29:15.000
may be more muscles at the top of the chest,

2850
08:29:18.360 --> 08:29:22.639
but at the side underneath it's pretty much the same.

2851
08:29:23.400 --> 08:29:26.479
Whether you're a man or a woman. There's muscles there,

2852
08:29:27.840 --> 08:29:32.959
muscles that stretch out to your back as well as

2853
08:29:33.080 --> 08:29:41.680
breast tissue stretches and moves into your back. To just

2854
08:29:41.759 --> 08:30:01.319
being aware of your chest, being with whatever feeling there

2855
08:30:01.479 --> 08:30:20.959
is in your chest. And when I noticed that I

2856
08:30:21.119 --> 08:30:29.080
focus on my chest, I feel it in my back

2857
08:30:29.279 --> 08:30:33.040
and my upper back. I mean, I guess the obvious

2858
08:30:33.200 --> 08:30:35.000
reason would be because you know.

2859
08:30:34.959 --> 08:30:35.680
I grieve in.

2860
08:30:40.759 --> 08:30:46.639
In and it stretches my chest and my back at

2861
08:30:46.639 --> 08:31:07.479
the same time. It feels it feels okay, doesn't feel

2862
08:31:10.159 --> 08:31:14.439
I got a little bit of pain in my right chest,

2863
08:31:16.680 --> 08:31:22.919
A little bit, not pain, but little discomfort, maybe stiffness possibly,

2864
08:31:23.439 --> 08:31:32.360
I don't know. I notice my shoulders are also wanting

2865
08:31:32.560 --> 08:31:39.479
to flex for some reason. I think that's probably part

2866
08:31:39.560 --> 08:31:48.000
of my upper back, that connection between my shoulders and

2867
08:31:48.080 --> 08:31:52.200
my upper back, because I can move my shoulders and

2868
08:31:53.319 --> 08:31:59.880
stretch the muscles in my back, moving the shoulders backwards

2869
08:32:00.959 --> 08:32:07.200
or up, which then moves the I think it's the scapulous.

2870
08:32:09.119 --> 08:32:09.720
In your back.

2871
08:32:19.759 --> 08:32:27.439
It feels quite nice. Actually, A good thing about this

2872
08:32:27.759 --> 08:32:32.520
is you can, if you want to, you can just

2873
08:32:36.080 --> 08:32:47.759
flex or stimulate the various muscles in your body gently

2874
08:32:49.240 --> 08:32:52.680
in order to get more of a sense of how

2875
08:32:52.759 --> 08:33:07.639
they feel. And when you're relaxing, when you do tense

2876
08:33:07.759 --> 08:33:11.680
and muscle, then you let it go and you let

2877
08:33:11.720 --> 08:33:20.759
it relax. It relaxes way more than it would normally.

2878
08:33:25.680 --> 08:33:30.959
But you have to feel that you're able to do that.

2879
08:33:32.560 --> 08:33:36.360
There's no point in doing it if there's an issue

2880
08:33:38.279 --> 08:33:43.759
with the per part of your body. You need to

2881
08:33:43.840 --> 08:33:54.240
be gentle with yourself at all times when relaxing deeply

2882
08:33:57.240 --> 08:34:12.479
It's important to be kind to yourself as you notice

2883
08:34:12.680 --> 08:34:23.759
your mind. How much has your mind slowed down since

2884
08:34:23.840 --> 08:34:50.240
we started this recording, How came and peaceful is your

2885
08:34:50.360 --> 08:35:02.479
mind right now? We have nothing to think about and

2886
08:35:02.799 --> 08:35:10.159
just my voice to listen to. Because you know the

2887
08:35:10.360 --> 08:35:21.080
intention behind this recording, this relaxation. At the very least,

2888
08:35:22.680 --> 08:35:27.200
for you to feel more relaxed at the end of

2889
08:35:27.439 --> 08:35:36.279
recording than you did at the beginning, at the very least,

2890
08:35:40.400 --> 08:35:49.439
for your mind to slow down because your body continues

2891
08:35:51.479 --> 08:36:08.040
to relax, because that's what you want to happen. That's

2892
08:36:08.159 --> 08:36:29.360
what you expect to happen, for relaxation to fill your body,

2893
08:36:37.560 --> 08:36:42.680
maybe calm in your mind to the point of boredom

2894
08:36:46.279 --> 08:37:30.040
when you start maybe to drift away. Drifting, it's almost

2895
08:37:30.319 --> 08:37:39.520
as if you're moving further away from your body in

2896
08:37:39.639 --> 08:37:53.080
your mind, just leaving that there. Kind of liking it

2897
08:37:53.560 --> 08:37:59.439
an escape pod in a spaceship a movie, a space movie.

2898
08:37:59.520 --> 08:38:03.759
You know it gets a little part in it sends

2899
08:38:03.840 --> 08:38:19.959
the man far away from the spaceship, safe to dream

2900
08:38:28.520 --> 08:39:30.520
and continue to relax. Drifting m HM sizlo A peace.

2901
08:40:00.959 --> 08:40:01.919
And peace.

2902
08:40:22.880 --> 08:40:37.279
And focusing on that feeling of those individual parts of

2903
08:40:37.400 --> 08:40:56.080
your body that's relaxing. One by one, you may find

2904
08:40:56.639 --> 08:41:09.880
that every now and then you realize that you weren't

2905
08:41:10.240 --> 08:41:19.080
listening to my voice because your mind started to imagine

2906
08:41:21.439 --> 08:41:34.279
something different, maybe started to almost move into some kind

2907
08:41:34.360 --> 08:41:42.680
of a dreamy state, And then you become aware of

2908
08:41:42.840 --> 08:41:52.119
my voice again. And even though you may want to

2909
08:41:52.360 --> 08:41:59.880
focus on my voice, you may also wish to allow

2910
08:42:00.200 --> 08:42:11.439
your mind to just drift naturally into that space of

2911
08:42:11.799 --> 08:42:36.000
comfort and safety. As you feel more comfort spreading through

2912
08:42:36.119 --> 08:42:52.880
your body like a warm blanket covering you, chimpling, keeping

2913
08:42:53.000 --> 08:42:53.599
your body.

2914
08:42:53.720 --> 08:42:54.520
It just.

2915
08:42:57.159 --> 08:43:14.639
The perfect temperature, and even if you can hear background sounds,

2916
08:43:20.240 --> 08:43:32.560
they just don't seem to matter anymore. There's that sense

2917
08:43:32.680 --> 08:43:49.080
of peace spreads through your mind like a gentle breeze,

2918
08:43:52.080 --> 08:44:04.759
yet strong enough to blow away all negativity, strong enough

2919
08:44:04.840 --> 08:44:18.200
to remove from your mind any anxiety or stress that

2920
08:44:18.439 --> 08:44:32.720
was there before, and blow away any other thoughts or

2921
08:44:33.000 --> 08:44:54.400
feelings that just don't fit with the sense relaxation that

2922
08:44:59.520 --> 08:45:25.200
is your body and your mind. Unless you focus on

2923
08:45:25.360 --> 08:45:31.759
your mind and count down from ten down to one,

2924
08:45:33.119 --> 08:45:59.680
and with each number, your mind will become slightly more relaxed,

2925
08:46:02.400 --> 08:46:10.919
just just slightly, from ten down to nine, just a

2926
08:46:11.240 --> 08:46:20.560
slight movement from nine down to eight, just another small

2927
08:46:25.040 --> 08:46:37.680
change in how you feel. Eight down to seven. That

2928
08:46:38.080 --> 08:46:43.959
feeling is a gap, almost like a gap that starts

2929
08:46:44.279 --> 08:46:53.319
to get wider, the gap between those feelings that you

2930
08:46:53.599 --> 08:47:00.919
used to have in your mind compared to the feelings

2931
08:47:01.080 --> 08:47:07.880
you have that are growing now, feelings of comfort and

2932
08:47:08.159 --> 08:47:19.799
security and confidence, and that gap becomes wider, made down

2933
08:47:19.919 --> 08:47:26.759
to seven, seven, down to six, and when you get

2934
08:47:26.799 --> 08:47:33.840
to five, your mind will start to have a certain

2935
08:47:35.240 --> 08:47:46.840
physical sensation, most like there's a magnet outside of your

2936
08:47:46.959 --> 08:47:53.759
head sucking the tension and the stress and any remaining

2937
08:47:54.840 --> 08:48:01.200
feelings that you don't want, sucking them out through your skull.

2938
08:48:07.000 --> 08:48:12.119
And then down to four you could start to really

2939
08:48:12.720 --> 08:48:25.759
experience that sense of not just emptiness, but space, a

2940
08:48:25.919 --> 08:48:34.680
place full of fresh air, place where you can stretch.

2941
08:48:38.159 --> 08:48:40.799
It's almost as if as you go down to four

2942
08:48:41.599 --> 08:48:50.439
and three, your mind is expanding, with this sense of

2943
08:48:51.119 --> 08:49:03.319
peace and tranquility growing as it moves down to When

2944
08:49:03.360 --> 08:49:12.360
you get to one, in your mind just feels exactly

2945
08:49:12.560 --> 08:49:28.959
how you want to feel, almost perfect feeling, maybe a

2946
08:49:32.080 --> 08:49:41.159
sensation that you'd like to keep a place that's safe,

2947
08:49:42.200 --> 08:50:02.479
where nothing can affect you at all, and you can

2948
08:50:02.680 --> 08:50:11.639
stay in that that space of comfort and confidence, confident

2949
08:50:11.759 --> 08:50:18.200
in your own ability to create this space and this

2950
08:50:19.560 --> 08:50:25.959
fearing of comfort within your own mind just by counting

2951
08:50:27.080 --> 08:50:35.880
ten down to one. And this is something that you

2952
08:50:36.040 --> 08:50:45.040
can do yourself when you're on your own, a time

2953
08:50:45.240 --> 08:50:48.720
when you can maybe sit down, maybe just for a

2954
08:50:48.840 --> 08:51:01.959
few minutes, close your eyes, just counts slowly from ten

2955
08:51:04.919 --> 08:51:16.840
down to one, and we experience these feelings in your mind.

2956
08:51:22.720 --> 08:51:27.000
And when you feel that way in your mind, your

2957
08:51:27.119 --> 08:51:41.639
body copies your mind, and that feeling it's spread through

2958
08:51:41.840 --> 08:51:48.959
your spine and your nervous system into every part of

2959
08:51:49.080 --> 08:52:04.159
your body, travels through your bloodstream then and relaxing every

2960
08:52:05.200 --> 08:52:22.479
particle of your existence. And we can we can practice

2961
08:52:22.599 --> 08:52:30.360
this a few times before the end of the recording,

2962
08:52:31.000 --> 08:52:36.840
and then you can practice on your own. And each

2963
08:52:37.159 --> 08:52:47.119
time you count from ten down to one, the feelings

2964
08:52:47.319 --> 08:53:00.959
of comfort, calmness, deep deep relaxation becomes stronger and deeper

2965
08:53:07.720 --> 08:53:16.840
feeling your mind and your brain with these positive chemicals

2966
08:53:18.639 --> 08:53:20.599
that spread throughout your.

2967
08:53:20.520 --> 08:53:31.439
Body, relaxing you so quickly, relaxing your whole body and mind.

2968
08:53:34.040 --> 08:53:42.360
So very, very easily, just by counting.

2969
08:53:43.360 --> 08:53:44.240
From ten.

2970
08:53:46.880 --> 08:53:54.080
Down to one, that's what we're going to do. Now,

2971
08:53:54.919 --> 08:53:58.880
I'm going to count from ten down to one. I'd

2972
08:53:59.080 --> 08:54:03.080
like you to report heat the number after me. So

2973
08:54:03.200 --> 08:54:10.400
when I say ten, you can just repeat to yourself.

2974
08:54:11.759 --> 08:54:12.000
Ten.

2975
08:54:17.639 --> 08:54:26.959
Just notice, be aware of how you feel in your

2976
08:54:27.119 --> 08:54:36.639
mind and your body, and when I say nine, you

2977
08:54:36.759 --> 08:54:39.880
can repeat to yourself.

2978
08:54:42.240 --> 08:54:42.520
Nine.

2979
08:54:46.479 --> 08:54:58.240
Became noticing increase in comfort and calmness in your mind

2980
08:54:59.560 --> 08:55:08.520
and in your body the same. Want to say eight

2981
08:55:11.520 --> 08:55:23.119
when I say seven, six, when I say five, four,

2982
08:55:27.080 --> 08:55:39.080
when I say three, two, and lastly when I say one,

2983
08:55:41.479 --> 08:55:43.599
you can be that number.

2984
08:55:51.080 --> 08:55:51.200
Now.

2985
08:55:51.319 --> 08:55:56.880
Of course, when you do this on your own without

2986
08:55:57.000 --> 08:56:02.000
listening to me, you can say the numbers or whatever

2987
08:56:03.639 --> 08:56:12.080
speed that you feel is necessary for you, so you

2988
08:56:12.240 --> 08:56:18.200
can adapt. So you feel you want to say the

2989
08:56:18.360 --> 08:56:25.880
numbers ten down to one faster than I do, then

2990
08:56:25.919 --> 08:56:28.799
you go ahead and do that. Or if you feel

2991
08:56:29.639 --> 08:56:32.759
when you do it yourself that you'd like to have

2992
08:56:33.400 --> 08:56:41.360
more more space between the numbers, maybe take a lot

2993
08:56:41.560 --> 08:56:49.159
longer to get from ten all way down to one,

2994
08:56:53.360 --> 08:57:06.360
that's your choice also to do. So I'm gonna count

2995
08:57:06.479 --> 08:57:14.840
from ten down to one. I want to get to one.

2996
08:57:16.200 --> 08:57:21.720
That will be the end of this recording. The let's

2997
08:57:21.759 --> 08:57:25.720
of course you're listening with music, and the music will

2998
08:57:25.799 --> 08:58:12.560
continue ten nine, fight.

2999
09:01:00.639 --> 09:02:06.759
Us twenty.

3000
09:02:10.520 --> 09:02:56.959
Nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve eleven ten

3001
09:03:01.680 --> 09:03:52.040
nine eight, seven, six, five, four, three two one. Now

3002
09:03:52.119 --> 09:04:02.240
open your eyes, noticing how are you physical feel having

3003
09:04:02.360 --> 09:04:09.959
counted down from twenty to one, allowing stress and tension

3004
09:04:10.439 --> 09:04:15.080
to leave through your fingertips and your toast. And as

3005
09:04:15.119 --> 09:04:19.840
you focus on your fingertips, maybe they feel a little

3006
09:04:19.880 --> 09:04:27.599
bit tingling, which is suppose quite understanding considering the tension

3007
09:04:28.040 --> 09:04:38.279
has been exiting your body through your fingertips. So now

3008
09:04:38.319 --> 09:04:40.639
I'm going to count from twenty down to one again.

3009
09:04:41.119 --> 09:04:50.159
This time you're to feel relief of tension and stress

3010
09:04:51.560 --> 09:04:53.200
and the anxiety.

3011
09:04:52.599 --> 09:04:53.240
That you may have.

3012
09:04:57.880 --> 09:05:06.240
Leaving through your stomach. Just leaving through your stomach, almost

3013
09:05:06.319 --> 09:05:12.080
as if it's just releasing the whole of your stomach,

3014
09:05:12.919 --> 09:05:17.759
your navel to just above your chest or below your chest,

3015
09:05:17.880 --> 09:05:22.439
rather so surrounding your belly button area, the whole area.

3016
09:05:24.520 --> 09:05:29.119
You can feel the tension of your body where it's left,

3017
09:05:29.400 --> 09:05:34.720
just releasing from that area, and you may notice that

3018
09:05:34.840 --> 09:05:39.919
your stomach will become very relaxed as I count down

3019
09:05:40.919 --> 09:06:43.480
from twenty down to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine,

3020
09:06:48.279 --> 09:06:57.080
eight seven six.

3021
09:07:00.040 --> 09:07:05.480
By AH.

3022
09:07:09.319 --> 09:07:14.559
Three two.

3023
09:07:19.639 --> 09:07:19.680
What.

3024
09:07:24.800 --> 09:07:27.400
You can open your eyes again if you choose, or

3025
09:07:27.440 --> 09:07:31.040
you can just keep them closed because it feels relaxing.

3026
09:07:33.319 --> 09:07:38.440
Just notice saying your stomach feels I notice, there's your focus.

3027
09:07:38.720 --> 09:07:44.120
Just do a little scan of your body. Notice saying

3028
09:07:44.239 --> 09:07:57.080
your body feels focusing upper body, back, chest, stomach, lax arms, hands, feet,

3029
09:08:00.160 --> 09:08:07.080
Just noticing, and you know, you may start to film

3030
09:08:09.519 --> 09:08:13.319
more of a sense of tiredness, which may be the

3031
09:08:13.400 --> 09:08:17.959
reason listening to this recording, because you.

3032
09:08:19.440 --> 09:08:19.800
Like to.

3033
09:08:21.440 --> 09:08:27.279
Let go completely of everything and drift.

3034
09:08:28.480 --> 09:08:29.360
More into a.

3035
09:08:29.480 --> 09:08:48.000
Nice, natural, calm, relaxing sleep. So now the focus on

3036
09:08:48.160 --> 09:08:54.919
your forehead, and if you choose, you can incorporate your

3037
09:08:55.040 --> 09:09:00.360
eyes in this focus as well. Your forehead and your eyes,

3038
09:09:02.480 --> 09:09:06.879
it's that whole area basically, almost as if you were

3039
09:09:06.919 --> 09:09:08.160
wearing a mask.

3040
09:09:07.959 --> 09:09:08.639
You know, like a.

3041
09:09:10.599 --> 09:09:13.000
I don't know, a Batman mask or something.

3042
09:09:13.639 --> 09:09:13.720
Or.

3043
09:09:15.800 --> 09:09:18.760
I'm trying to sorrow or something, you know, the kind

3044
09:09:18.800 --> 09:09:21.919
of mask that covers your eyes but also covers quite

3045
09:09:21.959 --> 09:09:28.800
a lot of the forehead. Focusing on that area, because

3046
09:09:28.839 --> 09:09:32.160
that's the area that we're now going to release tension,

3047
09:09:32.599 --> 09:09:38.040
stress from your mind, your brain, from your mind, and

3048
09:09:38.760 --> 09:09:42.239
any tension that you may have remaining in your face,

3049
09:09:43.279 --> 09:09:48.639
in your neck and your jaw, in your eyes, your forehead,

3050
09:09:49.400 --> 09:09:55.720
or your scalp. So basically any tension within your head area,

3051
09:09:56.440 --> 09:10:03.599
including your mind and your brain, that's going to be

3052
09:10:03.760 --> 09:10:11.800
released through your full head in your eyes. As I

3053
09:10:11.919 --> 09:11:38.440
count down again from twenty down to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five,

3054
09:11:44.040 --> 09:12:13.680
four three one, Noticing as you scan your face with jaw,

3055
09:12:14.239 --> 09:12:23.040
your eyes, of cheap bones, your ears, your forehead, your scalp,

3056
09:12:24.680 --> 09:12:28.480
your neck, back of your neck and the front of

3057
09:12:28.559 --> 09:12:32.239
your neck, the side of your neck, and your throat.

3058
09:12:38.559 --> 09:12:51.839
Noticing being aware of the comfort increased in relaxation, not

3059
09:12:52.199 --> 09:12:57.160
just in your head and neck and mind, also the

3060
09:12:57.279 --> 09:13:07.239
rest of your body. Just notice how loose and calm

3061
09:13:07.400 --> 09:13:10.599
you film, and how easily.

3062
09:13:12.319 --> 09:13:13.879
It is to just let go.

3063
09:13:16.680 --> 09:13:40.760
Completely, let go completely, how easily. So what I'm going

3064
09:13:40.839 --> 09:13:44.199
to do now is I'm going to focus on the

3065
09:13:44.319 --> 09:13:53.839
top of your head. Am I going to allow every

3066
09:13:54.519 --> 09:14:02.559
last piece of tension or stress, the wine be lingering

3067
09:14:02.839 --> 09:14:09.080
or hiding in your body or mind or head, to

3068
09:14:09.360 --> 09:14:21.959
just be sucked down on the top of your head. Released. Yeah,

3069
09:14:23.080 --> 09:14:29.400
it's sucked down into the clouds. Imagine a big cloud

3070
09:14:29.519 --> 09:14:35.080
of pop your head. It's like a whirlpool. It's is

3071
09:14:35.199 --> 09:14:37.440
gonna suck that tension.

3072
09:14:38.639 --> 09:14:40.040
Out the top of your head.

3073
09:14:42.720 --> 09:14:43.959
Just take away.

3074
09:14:45.519 --> 09:14:46.199
You good.

3075
09:14:49.160 --> 09:14:52.919
You focus. Imagine an opening on the top of your

3076
09:14:53.000 --> 09:14:59.959
head without tension and stress and any maybe issues, maybe

3077
09:15:00.239 --> 09:15:01.760
worries of concerns.

3078
09:15:02.000 --> 09:15:03.519
They are not used to you.

3079
09:15:03.680 --> 09:15:07.440
Now you can all be sucked down at the top

3080
09:15:07.480 --> 09:15:14.400
of your head. I've taken away. As I count down again,

3081
09:15:15.040 --> 09:15:57.360
I'm twenty down to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifty.

3082
09:16:01.879 --> 09:16:03.480
Four, ten.

3083
09:16:16.279 --> 09:16:59.400
To twelve eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five.

3084
09:17:04.639 --> 09:17:19.720
Four three to wha.

3085
09:17:29.879 --> 09:17:30.160
Pray.

3086
09:17:34.919 --> 09:17:45.839
I notice it, how you feel, how relaxed and calm

3087
09:17:47.919 --> 09:18:02.239
if physically and mentally feel right now, help peace your

3088
09:18:02.519 --> 09:18:08.800
mind feels. It feels so nice to just let go,

3089
09:18:11.080 --> 09:18:20.360
to give yourself some space, to breathe easily, to think calmly,

3090
09:18:25.480 --> 09:18:30.599
just to take a break from all that pointless worry

3091
09:18:32.160 --> 09:18:36.440
concerns about things that you don't need to think about

3092
09:18:39.639 --> 09:18:47.000
right now, because this is your time to let go.

3093
09:18:48.360 --> 09:18:58.120
This is your space to enjoy feeling deeply relaxed, peaceful

3094
09:18:58.239 --> 09:19:05.519
in your mind, relaxed in your body. That can feel

3095
09:19:06.080 --> 09:19:15.919
so good, so nice to just not have to do anything,

3096
09:19:18.239 --> 09:19:27.160
to be able to really enjoy that serenity that comes

3097
09:19:28.680 --> 09:19:34.800
of letting go completely, that peacefulness that comes with.

3098
09:19:41.519 --> 09:19:42.879
Being in this.

3099
09:19:44.720 --> 09:19:54.760
Peaceful space. And you can keep this sense of calmness

3100
09:19:55.599 --> 09:20:06.720
for as long as you choose. If you choose to

3101
09:20:07.000 --> 09:20:14.199
drift off into a deep, healing, natural sleep, then you

3102
09:20:14.279 --> 09:20:25.800
can do that. It's completely up to you, and you

3103
09:20:25.919 --> 09:20:30.559
can keep this feeling of calmness physically and in your

3104
09:20:30.639 --> 09:20:38.680
mind for it's long as you choose to feel completely relaxed,

3105
09:20:44.400 --> 09:20:53.160
completely relaxed. And I'd like you to make up your

3106
09:20:53.400 --> 09:21:06.040
mind that you're going to relax, and I want to

3107
09:21:06.160 --> 09:21:09.559
explore that with you. What it feels like when you

3108
09:21:09.680 --> 09:21:18.760
actually decide that you're going to relax, not forcing yourself,

3109
09:21:18.879 --> 09:21:25.080
but giving yourself that guess. It is a command, really,

3110
09:21:25.120 --> 09:21:32.040
isn't it When you're telling yourself relax in a gentle

3111
09:21:32.199 --> 09:21:39.199
but firm way that only you can really tell yourself

3112
09:21:39.680 --> 09:21:42.519
in that way, you can't really have someone else saying

3113
09:21:42.559 --> 09:21:47.440
to you and now it relax, relax, you know, and

3114
09:21:48.639 --> 09:21:50.879
it needs to be gentle. But you can't someone else

3115
09:21:50.959 --> 09:21:59.000
can't really have the same the same kind of influence

3116
09:22:00.199 --> 09:22:08.319
or power that you have over your own physicality, over

3117
09:22:08.559 --> 09:22:17.760
how you feel, because when you say it to yourself

3118
09:22:19.040 --> 09:22:26.040
it means more. It's personal, and your brain and your

3119
09:22:26.440 --> 09:22:31.160
unconscious mind and your body listens to what you say.

3120
09:22:33.480 --> 09:22:36.919
So for example, we'll test it out and do a

3121
09:22:36.959 --> 09:22:40.919
little test, a few little tests along the way, and

3122
09:22:41.040 --> 09:22:46.040
you can get more of an idea of the force,

3123
09:22:47.000 --> 09:22:53.680
a positive force that you can have in creating a

3124
09:22:53.879 --> 09:22:57.839
sense of comfort and relaxation in your body and your

3125
09:22:57.919 --> 09:23:07.239
mind quite quick just by you telling yourself to relax.

3126
09:23:11.879 --> 09:23:15.519
So I want to start by it's focus on your hands.

3127
09:23:19.160 --> 09:23:21.360
So focus on your hands and just tell your hands

3128
09:23:21.760 --> 09:23:27.680
to relax, and just say relax. As you focus on

3129
09:23:27.760 --> 09:23:34.720
your hands, you could say, my hands are relaxed, or

3130
09:23:34.760 --> 09:23:38.919
I want my hands to relax. I think if you

3131
09:23:39.040 --> 09:23:45.839
actually do it directly by focusing and imagining that your

3132
09:23:46.000 --> 09:23:49.800
hands can hear what you're saying. You know, they've got

3133
09:23:49.839 --> 09:23:55.559
little ears, which is a little weird. So talking to

3134
09:23:55.720 --> 09:24:12.480
your hands and just say relax. Noticin how your hands

3135
09:24:12.519 --> 09:24:28.120
start to relax. Now focus on your eyes and tell

3136
09:24:28.160 --> 09:24:31.480
your eyes to relax. You just say in the same

3137
09:24:31.559 --> 09:24:40.919
word relax and find the right tone for you. You know,

3138
09:24:41.080 --> 09:24:48.000
I might say relax, but you you might say relax

3139
09:24:49.160 --> 09:24:54.519
or relax. You know, you might say it differently to yourself,

3140
09:24:55.519 --> 09:25:01.720
and that's important for you to auge what feels the

3141
09:25:01.879 --> 09:25:07.839
right for you. To just tell your eyes to relax,

3142
09:25:08.360 --> 09:25:12.319
whilst focusing on your eyes, your eyelids, the muscles around

3143
09:25:12.400 --> 09:25:21.680
your eyes, your eyebrows, and just tell your eyes directly relax.

3144
09:25:23.559 --> 09:25:23.760
Now.

3145
09:25:50.559 --> 09:26:00.480
Now, I just did that myself, and some times you

3146
09:26:00.599 --> 09:26:05.080
may feel that you need a bit more time for

3147
09:26:05.440 --> 09:26:08.839
the different parts to relax, you know, because I started

3148
09:26:08.919 --> 09:26:14.440
talking again and maybe that part hasn't relaxed fully. But

3149
09:26:14.599 --> 09:26:17.080
what happened is that it would just continue to relax

3150
09:26:17.199 --> 09:26:21.440
even though I'm talking. And that's happening with my eyes.

3151
09:26:24.360 --> 09:26:28.959
Something else I noticed is when I started focusing on

3152
09:26:29.080 --> 09:26:33.000
my eyes, that actually almost became they got worse before

3153
09:26:33.040 --> 09:26:35.839
they got better in a way. So I felt a

3154
09:26:35.959 --> 09:26:41.239
degree of tension growing in my eyes and then disappearing.

3155
09:26:42.959 --> 09:26:45.120
So I think what that was really was just me

3156
09:26:45.319 --> 09:26:51.839
becoming more aware of the tension that was already there.

3157
09:26:52.199 --> 09:26:52.879
That I wasn't.

3158
09:26:53.879 --> 09:26:57.800
I wasn't focused on it before, so I wasn't really

3159
09:26:58.559 --> 09:27:15.919
acknowledging it or really conscious to those feelings. Yeah, my

3160
09:27:16.080 --> 09:27:20.239
eyes is still continuing to relax, as well as my hands. Actually,

3161
09:27:23.720 --> 09:27:29.120
my hands have got a certain kind of energy, like

3162
09:27:29.360 --> 09:27:34.519
not buzzing, but I can kind of feel a degree

3163
09:27:34.559 --> 09:27:40.480
of energy in my hands. Maybe that's where the tension

3164
09:27:40.599 --> 09:27:52.599
is being released. Maybe that's causing that. The next part,

3165
09:27:52.680 --> 09:27:54.839
I think we should focus on the back of the neck.

3166
09:27:55.559 --> 09:28:00.720
That's a part is quite often well for me hold's tension.

3167
09:28:00.800 --> 09:28:03.400
I don't know about it for yourself, but I think

3168
09:28:03.440 --> 09:28:10.000
it's quite a standard place where tension is sometimes held. So,

3169
09:28:12.120 --> 09:28:15.239
and I'm doing exactly what you're doing as you do

3170
09:28:15.360 --> 09:28:18.919
it as well, So I'm telling my body parts to

3171
09:28:19.080 --> 09:28:22.040
relax as well. So if you tell your neck the

3172
09:28:22.199 --> 09:28:22.839
back of your.

3173
09:28:22.800 --> 09:28:25.440
Neck, focus on the back of your neck and just

3174
09:28:25.519 --> 09:28:32.720
say relax in your own words and your own tone,

3175
09:28:33.080 --> 09:28:34.000
in your own voice.

3176
09:28:34.680 --> 09:28:36.680
You can say out loud, or you can just say

3177
09:28:36.720 --> 09:28:42.199
it to yourself internally, but you're focusing and you're saying

3178
09:28:42.279 --> 09:28:46.519
it literally to the back of your neck, as if

3179
09:28:46.599 --> 09:28:50.239
the back of your neck can actually hear what you're saying.

3180
09:28:53.639 --> 09:28:57.279
So do that now, just say relax so back of

3181
09:28:57.360 --> 09:29:39.160
your neck and I'll do the same. Now, what I

3182
09:29:39.400 --> 09:29:44.800
noticed and you may have had similar thing is even

3183
09:29:44.919 --> 09:29:47.160
though I was focusing on the back of my neck,

3184
09:29:52.199 --> 09:30:00.400
other parts started to show themselves to me, or maybe

3185
09:30:00.599 --> 09:30:03.239
because they want to be relaxed as well, but I

3186
09:30:03.400 --> 09:30:07.400
started noticing the feelings in my shoulders at tension in

3187
09:30:07.440 --> 09:30:13.120
my shoulders and in my upper back. Whether that was

3188
09:30:13.239 --> 09:30:18.599
because my back of my neck was saying, well, I'm

3189
09:30:18.599 --> 09:30:23.440
pretty much okay. It's the other parts that need attention,

3190
09:30:29.839 --> 09:30:31.959
but my low of my back of my neck is

3191
09:30:32.040 --> 09:30:36.199
still relaxing. But I just became more aware of other

3192
09:30:36.319 --> 09:30:44.040
parts that needed attention that this might happen, and it's not.

3193
09:30:45.639 --> 09:30:48.199
It doesn't mean that it's going wrong. It just means

3194
09:30:49.040 --> 09:30:55.080
you're being notified of more places that also want to

3195
09:30:55.120 --> 09:31:02.239
feel relaxed. So I'm going to focus on my other back.

3196
09:31:03.519 --> 09:31:07.279
So you can do the same. Even if you don't

3197
09:31:07.360 --> 09:31:12.319
have any feelings of tension that are obvious in your

3198
09:31:12.400 --> 09:31:19.000
other back, you just focus on your back and the

3199
09:31:19.080 --> 09:31:22.000
whole area from the shoulder blades down.

3200
09:31:23.599 --> 09:31:25.559
To the middle of your back and your.

3201
09:31:25.639 --> 09:31:35.360
Spine, and with me, it's more the shoulder blades more. Yeah,

3202
09:31:35.480 --> 09:31:42.360
that's the parts that really sort of given me the

3203
09:31:42.559 --> 09:31:47.000
not that it needs relaxing. The sounds gonna ask that

3204
09:31:47.160 --> 09:31:50.480
hard to relax and you can do the same. Now

3205
09:32:01.680 --> 09:32:17.080
relax your upper back. There's something strange happened there.

3206
09:32:17.599 --> 09:32:17.879
And this.

3207
09:32:19.360 --> 09:32:20.199
Often happens.

3208
09:32:20.279 --> 09:32:21.160
I've been doing this for.

3209
09:32:24.080 --> 09:32:30.839
Sixteen years or something, and often I'm want surprised but

3210
09:32:31.519 --> 09:32:37.959
amazed really that there can be a feeling. So when

3211
09:32:38.000 --> 09:32:41.279
I was focusing on the back of my neck, my

3212
09:32:41.400 --> 09:32:46.160
upper back was starting to feel quite stressed and in

3213
09:32:46.400 --> 09:32:51.879
need of attention. As soon as I started talking to

3214
09:32:52.040 --> 09:32:56.720
you about my upper back and talking about, you know,

3215
09:32:57.239 --> 09:33:02.199
getting ready to ask the upper back to relax, why

3216
09:33:02.319 --> 09:33:07.959
the back already started to relax. It's almost as if

3217
09:33:08.000 --> 09:33:13.639
it doesn't need to hear the words, just needs intention,

3218
09:33:18.400 --> 09:33:30.440
just needs to be noticed. That is something that often

3219
09:33:30.639 --> 09:33:37.639
happens in this type of situation is when you start

3220
09:33:38.680 --> 09:33:43.680
to relax a couple of parts of your body, as

3221
09:33:43.760 --> 09:33:48.879
we've done with our hands, our eyes and eyelids.

3222
09:33:50.120 --> 09:33:57.120
And now back of the neck, top of the back,

3223
09:33:59.040 --> 09:33:59.760
upper back.

3224
09:34:00.879 --> 09:34:04.879
The rest of the body seems to just take notice

3225
09:34:07.599 --> 09:34:15.879
and decide in its own way to start relaxing. Other

3226
09:34:16.040 --> 09:34:25.879
parts of your body start to just become looser. I

3227
09:34:25.959 --> 09:34:28.639
suppose it's kind of like a bit of an avalanche,

3228
09:34:28.839 --> 09:34:33.559
you know, a little ball starts rolling, and before you

3229
09:34:33.680 --> 09:34:36.680
know it, the whole of your body is completely relaxed

3230
09:34:36.720 --> 09:34:53.879
and can't And if you focus on your face, focus

3231
09:34:53.959 --> 09:35:01.839
on your eyes, your eyelids, your eyebrowns, so the muscles

3232
09:35:02.279 --> 09:35:11.760
around your eyes, maybe you start to notice that your

3233
09:35:11.839 --> 09:35:17.080
forehead is more relaxed than it was. Maybe your face

3234
09:35:17.239 --> 09:35:22.800
is more relaxed. I would say my entire face is

3235
09:35:24.040 --> 09:35:37.480
a lot more relaxed than it was. So we're going

3236
09:35:37.519 --> 09:35:43.839
to focus now on your shoulders again, just like before.

3237
09:35:45.239 --> 09:35:49.279
Just tell your shoulders and you can do them individity.

3238
09:35:49.400 --> 09:35:53.319
You can do the right shoulder, left shoulder. I just

3239
09:35:53.480 --> 09:35:57.680
didally do both at the same time. And just tell

3240
09:35:58.040 --> 09:36:02.800
your shoulders as you focus something in your mind, focus

3241
09:36:02.959 --> 09:36:08.120
on how they feel. Maybe you can see them in

3242
09:36:08.239 --> 09:36:56.000
your mind's on. Just tell your shoulders to relax as

3243
09:36:56.120 --> 09:37:12.120
nice as they relax. But do you even notice, especially

3244
09:37:12.160 --> 09:37:18.599
with my back, is the connection between the different parts

3245
09:37:20.120 --> 09:37:29.839
the back with shoulders the neck. Being all connected and

3246
09:37:30.120 --> 09:37:36.239
being such a large part of your body, it's so

3247
09:37:36.440 --> 09:37:44.599
it's hard to separate them from each other. And my

3248
09:37:44.760 --> 09:37:53.639
lower back is starting to relax on its own. Maybe

3249
09:37:53.680 --> 09:37:58.440
I'm going too slow and that could be an issue

3250
09:37:59.319 --> 09:38:06.120
because we all go at different speeds. And the idea

3251
09:38:06.239 --> 09:38:08.839
at the beginning of this recording was for you to

3252
09:38:08.959 --> 09:38:24.440
be able to just say to yourself, relax without focusing

3253
09:38:24.599 --> 09:38:30.239
on any particular part of your body. Because when you

3254
09:38:30.400 --> 09:38:41.239
know that telling your hands to relax and your hand relax,

3255
09:38:43.800 --> 09:38:50.480
you tell your eyelids and your eyes and muscles around

3256
09:38:50.599 --> 09:38:59.919
your eyes and your eyebrows to relax, and they relax.

3257
09:39:05.800 --> 09:39:18.360
You tell the back of your neck relax and relaxes.

3258
09:39:26.319 --> 09:39:46.080
You tell your upper back to relax, and the relaxes.

3259
09:39:53.760 --> 09:40:32.959
You tell your shoulders to relax, and they relaxed. You

3260
09:40:33.120 --> 09:40:37.839
told your hands to relax, they relaxed, and they continued

3261
09:40:39.599 --> 09:40:40.239
to relax.

3262
09:40:46.080 --> 09:40:47.080
And you told your.

3263
09:40:47.040 --> 09:40:54.919
Eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your eyebrows to relax,

3264
09:40:56.959 --> 09:41:11.839
they relaxed and continued to relax. When you told the

3265
09:41:11.919 --> 09:41:15.239
back of your neck, focused on the back of your

3266
09:41:15.360 --> 09:41:29.080
neck and told it to relax and relaxed and continued

3267
09:41:30.559 --> 09:41:45.599
to relax. When you told your ulpa back to relax,

3268
09:41:47.599 --> 09:42:02.559
be relaxed and continued to relax. As with your shoulders,

3269
09:42:05.000 --> 09:42:11.559
you told your shoulders to relax, and your shoulders relaxed

3270
09:42:12.120 --> 09:42:19.559
and continued to relax.

3271
09:42:25.239 --> 09:42:30.199
And it's not just that, it's.

3272
09:42:32.879 --> 09:42:37.279
That the rest of your body has also been listening,

3273
09:42:39.000 --> 09:42:45.080
and their relaxation has been spreading. So from your eyes,

3274
09:42:45.400 --> 09:42:52.800
the relaxation spread to your forehead, round your face, into

3275
09:42:52.919 --> 09:43:06.879
your skin, into your jaw, into runs the side of

3276
09:43:07.000 --> 09:43:18.440
your neck. I'll way down your chest and stomach, your

3277
09:43:18.519 --> 09:43:26.720
relaxed hands and shoulders, me up through your arms, relaxing

3278
09:43:28.959 --> 09:43:38.120
fearms your upper arms, elbows, your wrists, let.

3279
09:43:38.160 --> 09:43:38.400
You go.

3280
09:43:46.000 --> 09:43:55.760
The lower bag, your hips, buttons growing, or just start

3281
09:43:55.919 --> 09:44:04.680
to relax and continue even more. Comfort spreading through your legs,

3282
09:44:09.919 --> 09:44:19.120
pour way down to your ankles, the tops of your feet,

3283
09:44:20.239 --> 09:44:25.319
the sight of your feet, and the bottoms of your feet,

3284
09:44:29.080 --> 09:44:40.199
relaxing into your toes, each toe relaxing.

3285
09:44:44.400 --> 09:44:48.360
Calm is.

3286
09:45:00.720 --> 09:45:11.959
And as your body relaxes more, your mind becomes slower,

3287
09:45:17.440 --> 09:45:27.919
more peaceful, to the point where.

3288
09:45:29.800 --> 09:45:42.080
If you choose to fall asleep, you can easily do.

3289
09:45:42.239 --> 09:45:58.000
That easy drift away because there's nothing going on in

3290
09:45:58.120 --> 09:46:15.319
your mind. Your brain is peaceful, your body continues.

3291
09:46:18.440 --> 09:46:19.680
To rese.

3292
09:46:42.919 --> 09:46:48.959
And with that connection between your body relaxing, the word

3293
09:46:50.279 --> 09:47:02.720
do you say to yourself relax means that you don't

3294
09:47:02.959 --> 09:47:09.400
need to focus on just one part. You can just

3295
09:47:09.599 --> 09:47:27.239
focus on your entire body saying the powerful words.

3296
09:47:36.959 --> 09:47:37.680
And there's.

3297
09:47:39.559 --> 09:47:58.680
Those familiar sensations of comfort spreading throughout your body, listening

3298
09:47:59.000 --> 09:48:18.760
and calming and heathing every part to your body feeding relaxed.

3299
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So all you need to do that one is just

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tell your something.

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Relax. I observe feeding completely comfortable, starting now with number

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twenty nineteen eighteen