July 22, 2025

(music) (10 hours) Not so Subtle Nurse | LMBYTS #1397 | Jason Newland | 22nd July 2025

(music) (10 hours) Not so Subtle Nurse | LMBYTS #1397 | Jason Newland | 22nd July 2025
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Hello, and we'll welcome to jasonnew Land dot com. My

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name is Jason new Land. Please only listen when you

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can safely close your eyes. This is mm hmm. Let

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me bore you to sleep. It is I don't know

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what it is. It's Tuesday again. I'm a little bit

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out of rhythm with the regular recordings that I have

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been doing for the past few months. You know, the

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Monday's boring objects, Trivia, Tuesday, Whisper, Wednesday Q and a Friday.

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Well that I've been doing a Q and a Friday.

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I'd see only one I've really kind of stuck to,

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as it were, So I thought I just do a general,

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lot general thing, just say hi, a little catch up,

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you know, not tomatos. So I'm sitting here in my

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living room, vinees colded up to me by my side,

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my left side. I got the window open, but for

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now it's fairly quiet. There was hours and hours of

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loud chit chat in the garden earlier. It's seemed gone forever.

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I don't know how people find that much to talk about,

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which is a weird cupboard for me, because I don't

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seem to run out of things to talk about.

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It just.

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I prefer to do it on my own rather than

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with someone. I did well earlier. Actually, someone asked me

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how I was, and I asked them how they were

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back afterwards. See, I'm learning. I'm learning to communicate with humans.

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It's about time. So I give a little update on

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what's going on. My daddy has finished his treatment that

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he was having and RT. I think it's called beginnings

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of ARE. The next next letter is T not hormone replacement.

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So he's had four weeks of that, five days a week,

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four weeks in a row. And I spoke. It was

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quite weird actually, because I spoke to him yesterday I

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think it was yesterday, yesterday afternoon, maybe it was Sunday,

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a loose track, and he he actually opened up about

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how he was feeling. And that was weird because he

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doesn't normally do that. Normally, he just says, yeah, everything's fine,

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and that's it. There's not nowhere to go after that.

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But he actually went through how he's feeling and what

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he's been through the last four weeks, and yeah, wow,

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So I was quite surprised. It seems to be doing

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quite well. I'm very tired, though, very very tired, So

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that's kind of to be expected, and everything seems to

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be going to plan. So outside of that, been going

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up to the hospital, went up yesterday to see uncle's sausages. Yeah,

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is a lot of confusion, a lot of you know,

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it's it's difficult to try and explain to someone that

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the because the blood's not clearing, it's the toxes for

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the blood that it can affect a person's mind. But unfortunately,

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kind of in the same way as when I'm going

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through a shall we say episode, it's hard to separate

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from that and realize that it's an episode rather than

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believe in it. So he was particularly agitated like yesterday,

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as he has been really for about two weeks, three

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weeks even. So I went and spoke to the nurse

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and I said, oh, nurse. She said, what, who are you?

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What do you want? And I said, oh, I want

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so many things right now, A big bar of chocolate.

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She said me too. I said I'd quite like to

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get on a cruise and she said me too. Should

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we run away together? And I said no, thanks, not really.

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She said, oh, oh, never mind. She said that anything else?

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I said, yeah, that uncle sausages. She said who, I said,

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Uncle sausage. And then I realized she didn't know who

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Uncle Sausages was, So I explained who I was talking about,

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and she said, why do you call him uncle sausages?

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And I said, because I've got a little dog called Vinnie,

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and he gives Vinnie sausages. That's something they do. He

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gives the buyers some sausages, and Vinnie loves the sausages,

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and so Vinny calls him Uncle sausages. And she said,

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but he's a dog. How can he call someone something

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he can't talk. I said no, but it's just a

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bit of fun. She said, no, we don't have fun here.

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This is this is a very serious place. I said,

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I don't know. It's a serious place, but we're still,

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you know, try and have a little bit of fun,

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little bit of verbal play. And in fact, he actually

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calls Vinie sausages now, so he's Uncle sausages and Vinnie's sausages.

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And she said, but what do you want? I said, Okay,

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if I'm BlimE me, I think it's because I didn't

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want to run away with her, but hey, it's just me.

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Maybe I'm just being a little bit egotistical. But I

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actually had that look at her eye when she said

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should run away together, almost like she had a bag

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packed already and it was hidden in the toilet. Why

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would it be hit not inside a toilet, but like

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maybe your little cabinet I lock her maybe anyway, So

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I said, well, here's a situation. Uncle's sausages. He's very,

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very agitated and anxious. Is there anything you can do?

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She said, oh, she said, we'll explain what you mean.

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So basically, when I go there and when he phones

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me up, he tells him all this stuff that he

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thinks is happening. Very I don't want to be rude

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about him, but it's like very conspiratorial, potentially hallucinatory, paranoy, parannoiary,

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you know. So he's already being told in the past,

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you know that he's being paranoid, and he's got very

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angry with that. He said, I never want to hear

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that word again. I said, okay, So I'm speaking to

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the nurse outside the ward. You know, just she said, Well,

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he doesn't tell us any of this stuff. He just

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says everything's fine. I said, I know, he's just you know,

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it's hard to help someone if they don't tell you.

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She said, well, I don't know what we can do.

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I said, well, is there any chance you can see

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get some kind of evaluation from the a psychiatrist to

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see whether it is if it's the condition he's got,

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or maybe it's a previous mental health issue that's a

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re arisen because I don't know his background. And you know,

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there's no judgment from my perspective, because I've a I'm

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a bit of a mental myself and know so I

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do have something. Oh, I've got something to tell you later.

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It's I.

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I've got a letter through today from the council tax people.

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So the council tax is kind of like it used

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to be corpor rates, and it covers things like, I

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suppose everything that's done by the local council roads and

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waste and all that kind of stuff. So I got

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letters saying that I was exempt from council tax for

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the next year due to being you get this right,

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and this is because of the benefits agency contacted them

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or my doctor. They contented my contact with my doctor

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and my doctor. You know, I'm not sure quite how

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they got their information. It's really weird seeing this in print.

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This is what they said. I'm not going to get

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up and read it because it means disturbing a little one,

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but it's etched in my brain as you are exempt

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from paying counsel tax for the next year due to

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severe what was it, severe mental impairment? Severe mental impairment.

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That doesn't sound good, does it. That doesn't make me

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sound like a hero. He I mean, I kind of

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in a way. Rather pay fifteen pound a month to

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not hear those words or not to see that in writing,

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to not be called severely mentally impaired. I know it's

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another way to explain my brain not working properly, but

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BlimE me, blimin neck. So I said to the nurse,

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I said, is there a chance she can go and

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have someone come and give him evaluation, see how he is,

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or something else you can do. She said, well, leadal

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with me. I'll go and find it out. We're going

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to find out. And she walks away and she turns

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back and says, are you sure don't want to do

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the cruise? I said no, I want to say I'm fine, thanks,

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And she turned away just honestly stomped. She was just

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slamming her feet on the ground as she walked away.

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I'm going to get that a lot, you know. I

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don't am I saying this anyway. So I go back

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into the room with mister sausages, mister Uncle's sausages, and

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we're just chatting. I managed to disrupt his flow and

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redirect him to something else other than what he was

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talking about, because I didn't I didn't really think it

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was much use to him getting angry, you know, so

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I thought, just distract him a little bit, focus on

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something different. And the nurse came back in probably about

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fifteen minutes later. Bearing in mind that, well, here's a subtlety.

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This is the subtlety, subtlety level of this nurse. She

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came in, she looked at me. First of all, she's

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talking about him in front of him. To me, didn't

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even look at him. I'm afraid, Uncle Sausages. He can't

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have a psychiatric review. They won't come and see him.

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I'm like, it's right there. It's like what's going on.

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It's like it's weird, very weird. And then she said,

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but we're going to give him some The doctors prescribed

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some medication to help him with the paranoia, and shouted

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that word out really loud again. Directed just talking to

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me he was not happy because it sounds like I

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was talking about it being paranoid, and it was just

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they know his situation, they know that what he's some

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of the stuff he said in the past. It's just

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the last few days he's been quiet, just telling me.

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So they said, we can't give him some medication tonight.

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Won't give it during the day because it'll be tired.

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I don't know what it was. I thought they were

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going to give him something to help clear away that stuff,

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you know, clear away the toxins from his blood. I

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really don't know what it was. I'm not great with medication.

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And I said to Uncle Sausages, you're okay with that?

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He said, because he was hiding his medication before he

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didn't want to take it. And I said, look, I

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wouldn't never let any want to hurt you. And he said,

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I know. I said, no, seriously, if this is if

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you know, this is a medication I would take if

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I had to, if it was going to help. The

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only medication they're going to give you is to help you.

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They're not here to do anything but help. That's the

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sole purpose, you know, when they come into your room,

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it's to help you. Nothing else, and he kind of,

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I think, pretended to agree with me, and then he

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was kind of cheered up for the rest of the day.

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The rest of the morning I was with him, cheered up.

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He was quite jovial. I went and got got some

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sort of stuff to eat from downstairs in the hospital,

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and we talked about the golf and he seemed all right.

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He seemed, you know, fairly okay, you know, all things considered.

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And I had a miss call for him yes late

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afternoon yesterday. I was probably having my mid afternoon nap.

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So I called him back. No answer. I called him

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back again, called him back again, and gooden back, called

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him back, called him back again quite a few times

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last night. Then I called him again this morning quite

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a few times, and he was not answering. Now either

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he had his phone on silent because his phone was

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on because it was ringing, or well, there's no way.

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It's really loud. Now. I know his hearing is not great,

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but it's very very loud. I mean the whole hospital

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can hear it. I mean, in fact, if I stick

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my head out of the window, I can hear it.

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I can't. I don't know why I said that. I

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really stick my head out of the window. And while

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my giraffe my head wouldn't fit out the window, we'd

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fit out the window. But there's a window there isn't

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there doesn't open that wide for me to just so.

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Eventually I called him up this afternoon and the answer

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was the phone and I said, uncle, sausages. He said, yeah,

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really quiet the way he was talking. I said, you're right,

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he said.

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H.

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I said, so you. I were trying to call you

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all morning and last night he said, I was asleep.

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I'm al to you know. I said, wow, is that okay?

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You know?

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And of course you're allowed to sleep. I'm not saying

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you're not allowed to sleep. I'm just making sure that

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you're okay because I did find the hospital earlier. I

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didn't tell him this about to find the hospital area

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this area earlier, early on, just to find out if

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he's okay. And they went into his room and they said, yeah,

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it's fine. I think he started barking. What was I

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talking about? Oh yeah, the nurses in there telling me

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that just oh no, I would have done that bit.

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Oh yeah. So I'm talking to him on the phone,

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and not only is he talking really quietly, he sounds

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like he's asleep, like he's almost half, well three quarters asleep,

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not even half asleep. Really, yeah, you know, I'm thinking

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I kind of hope it's the medication, to be fair,

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But at the same time, because I was hoping that

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whatever medication they gave him would reduce his anxiety levels,

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that's it, and then maybe he he'd be because it's

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he's stuck in there and he's had enough, you know,

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he's had enough of being there, and he's waiting to

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be moved into a nursing home, and he's just you know,

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he's just bored, bored. But even yesterday he said he

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wasn't even bothered about He said, you can take the

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iPad back if you want. I never expected that, because

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you can watch movies and you can watch I realized,

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I'm not sure how much meaning that stuff would have

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to him. But still there is still sport on. There's

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always some kind of sport on around the world. And

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he did say yesterday he just needed some sleep. He

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says it a couple of times, because he said he's

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not getting much sleep. I just need some sleep. So

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I think he got it last night. He got a

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good night's sleep for the first time, possibly in weeks.

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And I think that in itself might have cleared his

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brain a little bit, might have made him a little

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bit more himself. I was gonna this is this is

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a day I don't go and see him. On Tuesday.

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I nearly went up there, nearly, but I thought I'll wait, just,

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you know, in case he does call me. And he

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did in the end. One night, he did answer in

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the end, and then he hung up while he was

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talking to me. And he phoned me about an hour ago,

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and a half an hour ago, I answered, and there

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was nothing. I could just hear him, but he wasn't.

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I hear him breathing, but I couldn't hear him. He

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didn't say anything to me. I think he might have

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accidentally phoned me, just holding the phone or something. So

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I'll go and see him in the morning. And I

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want to speak to his nurse to see because he

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might not have actually had any table, because sometimes, you know,

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they're so busy in there, they might have just forgotten.

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Because he's in this little room on his zone. It's

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a little bit out the way. They might you know,

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they're busy with all the other people and it's you know,

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human error. Sometimes they forget stuff, so they might have

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forgotten to give him the medication. And because he's had

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twenty four hours, the staff are changing over, aren't they.

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So he's dealing with a different nurse at night, a

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different nurse during the day, and then maybe a different

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nurse a day after because all our different rotors and stuff.

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So I'm not sure if they do twelve hour shifts,

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so it might have three different nurses during the twenty

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four hours period. I mean, he hasn't had the same

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nurse three days in a row. I don't think it's different. Yeah,

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it's I've spoken to I think four different nurses so

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far in that ward, maybe five, and they've all been great.

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It's just it's I mean, one was a little bit.

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I don't know. There's something about talking about talking about

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the patient in front of the patient when the patient's

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actually looking that I don't know if I do, I'd

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enjoy that myself. I mean I've talked about him. I've

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asked questions to doctors when the doctor's been there and

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Uncle Sausages has been there and I'm there, and because

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Uncle Sausages won't ask any questions, I asked the questions,

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but I include Uncle sasages in it. I don't just

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like talk about him. I'm kind of talking with him,

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if that makes sense, Like I'm another mouth. That was weird.

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I'm uncle sausages second mouth. Yeah, that's very very strange,

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very strange visual. So I hope that when I see

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him tomorrow he's all right, because he sounded very It's

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like it wasn't there. And I know that different medication

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can have different effects in that, but just that was

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kind of I don't know. I don't know what to think.

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So I'll go and speak to his nurse tomorrow and

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ask what he's been given and whether or not that's

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normal for those sides of things, or whether it's there's

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another reason for it. But yeah, that's kind of it, really,

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Although he did he did say something about how he's

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jumper had been stolen this morning this afternoon, so I

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don't know what's going on there. I said, I'll speak

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to you tomorrow and we'll work it out. And the

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other day I took in I bought him some Tomato

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ketchup sachets because I took him in my tomato ketchup

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in a bottle. But that made a bit of a mess.

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So I thought he said, I'd rather have them in

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sachets because that's what he's used to. So I ordered

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lots of sachets online on Amazon, took them in his

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the old bag of them, and he found that funny.

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And I think he thought I was just going to

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go into McDonald's and just grab a handful something like that.

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It's like, no, no, no, no, no, no, no. Anyway

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I went. He did the same thing on for a Friday.

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He said, no, yesterday, Sorry, I've run out of sugar. No, no,

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he said the what did they say something about didn't

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have any sugar to put in his tea? It was

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it his tea or just something? What else would you

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have sugar on? He had something, but he didn't have

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any sugar, and he said it ruined it. Not ice cream,

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because that would be unnecessary, wouldn't it mind you? It

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might taste nice. It's sugar on some ice cream. Not

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something that I would do because I'm not supposed to

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really have sugar. Not a hot dog. What was he

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needed sugar for? Maybe it was yeah, maybe it was

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for a cup of tea cup of coffee. What isn't

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another book? But planes? Going past all day. Can you

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hear that? I don't really know why, because I don't

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think there's any kind of celebrations. There's no d D

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double DD Eday, King's Birthday, celebrations, V Day, VD Day.

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There's none of those stuff because there's a lot of

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those different days. And we get all the aircraft flying

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over towards London and fly back, and they probably come

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from different parts of the country to do a big

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old flyover over London Trafalgar Square or whatever they do it,

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but or the Senotaph. I don't know where the Senotaph is. However,

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today I don't think there is a particular thing on.

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I mean it might be, I'm just not aware of it.

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There might well be a big celebration going on today.

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I don't know. I didn't even know. Oh yes, anyways

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at all. She gave me tea but no sugar, so

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I thought, okay, and he asked for the sugar, but

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she didn't come back. So I thought, I'll sort you

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out some sugar, and so I bought him on Amazon. Again.

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They're not being delivered yet, No, they haven't. No one

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hundred and forty packs of sugar like the long ones

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that you get in cafes and you know, you open

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the end up and you just pour it in. So

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you've got one hundred and forty of then coming. So

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I'll hopefully it should be delivered today and I'll take

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him to him tomorrow morning. I'm just trying to kind

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of give him what he needs, just to it's those

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little comforts because in his situation, I'm sure as heck

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would not be drinking tea without sugar. I would be

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having sugar with everything because I like sugar. I just

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unfortunately have to be a little bit careful with it,

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A little bit careful, not as careful as I should be, probably, yeah,

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I mean not literally. I haven't bought a bag of

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sugar for well over a year now, yeah, well over

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probably a year and a half. Whenever it was that

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I was told that I had to cut down and

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loose some weight, and I stopped with the sugar. No

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more sugar and breakfast cereal, no more sugar and tea

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or coffee or though I don't drink coffee anymore, although

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I did drink coffee the other day, so I'm just

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pretty much just lied, didn't I I used to have coffee,

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used to have one cup of coffee every morning with

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my breakfast for quite some time, possibly years, and then

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the rest of the day I would have tea. This

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is when I stopped drinking coke before that old not

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really to you all. I just haven't can to coke,

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but I stopped drinking coke, So, you know, tea, cups

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of tea and a fair bit of water. I do.

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I've always been quite an avid, avid, regular water drinker,

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and yeah, since since I was a kid. Really anyway,

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I ran out of coffee. This is even more boring

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than I wanted it to be. I do you ever

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stop yourself at heart, like midway in a sentence and

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think this is really boring? This is even this is

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too boring. I can't finish this sentence. It's just too

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I've got to do a U turn. This is really

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gonna be tedious. Why am I even saying this? I'll

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think I'll continue, but I'm just just letting you know.

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I'm talking about coffee. What I talk about coffee? It's

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got to be more interesting things to talk about.

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Yeah, but it's suppose to be boring, isn't it. It's

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supposed to be bullying. Yeah, but there's a limit there's

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a limit to boredom. I mean, I might as well

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just count how many times I've cut my toenails in

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the last ten years.

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It's on the same level of like complete tedium. Anyway,

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I finished the exciting story. So I was drinking coffee

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every day, one cup of day. That was my limit,

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A little bit of kickstart to today it was yeah,

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all right, And then I ran out of coffee and

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there was no coffee available. But basically, I have my

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delivery delivered, the coffee was missing. There was none available,

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so I just had tea bags and I thought, what

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am I going to do? A cup of tea is

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not going to solve the issue. It's not the same

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as a cup of coffee. Now, at this time, I

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was drinking coffee and tea with sugar, so that's when

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the coffee finished before I stopped with the sugar, which

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is just as well, because there's no way in the

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world I'm ever what I say never, but generally I

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wouldn't drink coffee without sugar. It ain't happening. And I

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had a cost as coffee the other day, first coffee

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in a year, well over a year, and I had

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a couple of at least one or two sugars in it.

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I can't have I can't have coffee without sugar. Ain't

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gonna happen. But as I was only having one coffee,

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you know, one coffee a year is allowed, I would

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say I would hazard a gift that I'd be okay

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with that, although I did feel a bit weird having

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all that caffeine running through me, the buzz ah. So yeah,

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I haven't had coffee really other than you know, when

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I did have coffee. I never drink coffee apart from

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when I do drink coffee. That's just a weird sentence,

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very weird. You used to drink a lot of coffee.

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I've been through phases in my life where like between

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the ages of seven and fifteen, maybe sixteen, yeah, fifteen sixteen,

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I was drinking coffee regularly. I drinking tea regularly. Sorry,

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just part of that was the culture. I drink tea.

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I don't have the occasional coffee, but not that often,

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not in the evening. But i'd have a coffee sometimes

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eleven Z's with a cup of coffee and some biscuits,

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you know, on a weekend and stuff. Yeah, I have

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cups of tea that would be kind of normal. But

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then when I left school, didn't really drink much in

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a way of tea. I mean, I did drink tea,

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but not a lot of tea. I think, you know,

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once I got sort of sixteen, seventeen eighteen, it was

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I suppose I had a bit more choice, didn't have

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to stick to tea because I was the one buying

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what I was drinking. And yeah, I think I started

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drinking more coke and more water, just trying to think,

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just you know, bit's just whatever. Really I can't remember.

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Probably quite a bit of water because I was working

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in the hot environment, but definitely drinking coke other cans

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of drink. Lilt. I used to like lilt when I

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was about sixteen. Oh my goodness, lilt. It was lovely.

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It's gorgeous.

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M hmmm.

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It's a little bit like fencer really but lemon lemonee,

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not lemon. But I don't know how to explain a bit.

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I liked it, and so I went quite a few

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years where probably the only time I'd drink tea would

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perhaps be first thing in the morning with my breakfast,

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so that was kind of a regular thing. I'd have

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a cup of tea my breakfast and then during the nineties,

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i'd have a pie of milk with my evening meal

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and water. So that was all i'd have in the evening,

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milk and water unless I went out, and then i'd

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have For a lot of the nineties, I would never

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drunk alcohol, so i'd just be drinking. I'd order a coke,

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and I try to make the coke of coca glass,

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the glass of coke last as possible, So I'll try

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and get that sentence out properly. Now, I'd try and

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make a glass of coke last as long as possible.

466
00:40:37.440 --> 00:40:42.599
Because it wasn't just that I was tight, but I

467
00:40:42.800 --> 00:40:50.840
didn't have lots of money money, So I'd go out

468
00:40:50.960 --> 00:40:53.199
and i'd have like maybe ten pounds five or ten

469
00:40:53.239 --> 00:41:00.440
pounds to last me for the whole evening. You know

470
00:41:00.519 --> 00:41:06.360
that that was it. So what I did is I

471
00:41:06.400 --> 00:41:08.719
mean not all the time. There was periods when I

472
00:41:08.760 --> 00:41:11.960
had a bit more a bit more cash than others,

473
00:41:13.239 --> 00:41:22.320
and maybe I would drink, you know, I think ninety

474
00:41:22.559 --> 00:41:25.639
four in the summer I started drinking, like going out

475
00:41:25.719 --> 00:41:28.840
drinking and stuff really like regularly. But that was like

476
00:41:28.960 --> 00:41:33.239
a for a summer eighty nine, I did as well,

477
00:41:33.480 --> 00:41:38.159
but that was just for the summer. Outside of that,

478
00:41:40.920 --> 00:41:43.920
during the whole of the nineties, other than when I

479
00:41:43.960 --> 00:41:46.599
was working and earned a cup of tea from the

480
00:41:46.760 --> 00:41:54.159
machine or a cup of coffee, I didn't drink you know,

481
00:41:54.360 --> 00:41:57.000
tier coffee, so that'd be maybe two or three a day.

482
00:41:57.639 --> 00:42:01.239
But there was like tiny little those tiny little plastic cups,

483
00:42:02.559 --> 00:42:08.000
and yeah, so I didn't really bother with tea. And

484
00:42:08.039 --> 00:42:14.559
then in the two thousands, actually in two thousand, I

485
00:42:14.679 --> 00:42:21.119
got real really excited about tea again, which is weird,

486
00:42:22.440 --> 00:42:29.000
not excited, but I liked drinking tea, so I was

487
00:42:29.039 --> 00:42:38.039
getting through more tea during the day in two thousand

488
00:42:38.079 --> 00:42:45.000
and two thousand and one, and then two thousand and two, well,

489
00:42:45.000 --> 00:42:48.159
at the end of two thousand and one two thousand

490
00:42:48.159 --> 00:42:52.079
and two, I was drinking huge amounts of coffee at

491
00:42:52.119 --> 00:43:00.519
work and that didn't do me any good. In two

492
00:43:00.639 --> 00:43:04.920
thousand and three, I pretty much stopped drinking coffee. It

493
00:43:05.039 --> 00:43:08.599
came out from a machine, so that wasn't Yeah, it

494
00:43:08.679 --> 00:43:16.800
was a bit rubbish, so I stopped doing that. Didn't

495
00:43:16.880 --> 00:43:19.119
I think I really had much. I suppose I get

496
00:43:19.159 --> 00:43:24.960
the odd coffee or tea, you know, leading into two

497
00:43:25.039 --> 00:43:29.920
thousand and seven when I stopped working in insurance, So

498
00:43:29.960 --> 00:43:34.760
it was about now this time of the year in

499
00:43:34.800 --> 00:43:42.119
two thousand and seven, I basically as my second insurance job,

500
00:43:42.880 --> 00:43:47.440
second out three, and I was part time because i'd

501
00:43:47.480 --> 00:43:55.960
be nil in two thousand and six, nearing the I

502
00:43:56.000 --> 00:44:00.400
think it was September time two thousand and six, and

503
00:44:00.960 --> 00:44:05.000
I had some time off and they allowed me to

504
00:44:05.079 --> 00:44:07.840
go back part time after about a month off work,

505
00:44:08.400 --> 00:44:12.840
so I went back part time. That suited me perfectly

506
00:44:15.199 --> 00:44:19.519
because I could then do volunteering and I can do

507
00:44:19.639 --> 00:44:22.639
you know, the other stuff that I was doing. It's

508
00:44:22.960 --> 00:44:26.800
really good, and I was earning enough to get by

509
00:44:29.400 --> 00:44:31.039
just you know. It wasn't a lot, but I had

510
00:44:31.119 --> 00:44:34.559
enough to pay the rent and buy the food and

511
00:44:35.920 --> 00:44:43.119
have enough just bits and bops, you know. But then

512
00:44:43.719 --> 00:44:48.960
in I think it was June two thousand and seven,

513
00:44:49.519 --> 00:44:54.000
they hauled me into the office by a hold. They

514
00:44:54.039 --> 00:44:57.400
didn't they just asked me to go in there and

515
00:44:59.519 --> 00:45:02.679
about seven footsteps from where my desk was, so it

516
00:45:02.760 --> 00:45:06.559
wasn't a big deal anyway. I walked in there and

517
00:45:06.639 --> 00:45:12.320
my boss said, we need you to go full time again.

518
00:45:14.639 --> 00:45:18.599
I said, no, I don't want to he said, but

519
00:45:18.760 --> 00:45:21.079
we want you to, I said, I don't want to

520
00:45:21.119 --> 00:45:28.760
do because, other than anything else I had, I liked

521
00:45:28.880 --> 00:45:33.239
that job. Now, you won't hear me say that about

522
00:45:33.360 --> 00:45:39.639
many of my jobs I've had in the past. And

523
00:45:39.679 --> 00:45:43.280
I've had a lot of jobs, like lots and lots

524
00:45:43.360 --> 00:45:48.880
and lots. That's one of the few jobs that I

525
00:45:49.000 --> 00:46:01.039
actually I didn't Yeah, Sunday wasn't tarnished by thinking about

526
00:46:01.079 --> 00:46:03.880
going to work on the Monday. I didn't have that

527
00:46:04.440 --> 00:46:07.679
anymore because I was doing it part time. I liked

528
00:46:07.719 --> 00:46:15.000
the job full time as well, but I just I

529
00:46:15.079 --> 00:46:19.320
just struggled to keep it going. And I don't know

530
00:46:19.360 --> 00:46:23.760
how long i'd lasted part time, but I did quite

531
00:46:23.760 --> 00:46:36.280
well because I've been part time since probably October. Yes,

532
00:46:36.360 --> 00:46:39.880
I did like seven or eight months part time, so

533
00:46:39.920 --> 00:46:42.400
I was holding it together. I had a couple of

534
00:46:42.400 --> 00:46:45.840
weeks off, but other than that, I was doing all right.

535
00:46:47.840 --> 00:46:57.119
And I mean, chances are I I might still be

536
00:46:57.239 --> 00:47:03.599
there if they'll let me. I mean, I wouldn't still

537
00:47:03.639 --> 00:47:08.119
be there because the whole place closed down. They made

538
00:47:08.119 --> 00:47:13.280
everyone redundant, so and that was kind of coming. I

539
00:47:13.360 --> 00:47:15.360
kind of knew that as well. I think that's part

540
00:47:15.400 --> 00:47:18.400
of the reason why I was not so well, But

541
00:47:22.480 --> 00:47:27.880
it was, yeah, all things being equal and being good,

542
00:47:29.079 --> 00:47:31.280
I liked the job. I was good at the job.

543
00:47:32.679 --> 00:47:37.880
This is I'd moved from working in sales to listening

544
00:47:37.880 --> 00:47:41.360
to people's phone calls to make sure that they were

545
00:47:41.360 --> 00:47:44.880
doing the job correctly. So I was in compliance and

546
00:47:44.920 --> 00:47:53.199
I was very good at listening, concentrating. I had headphones

547
00:47:53.239 --> 00:47:57.679
and stuff, and I wasn't Actually, I wasn't sitting on

548
00:47:57.719 --> 00:48:01.880
the desk listening to people talking and you know it's

549
00:48:01.920 --> 00:48:04.400
actually recorded calls, because that would have been off putting,

550
00:48:04.400 --> 00:48:11.079
wouldn't it Just sitting there one egg cup from the

551
00:48:11.079 --> 00:48:16.599
customer and when it a cup with strength from the salesperson,

552
00:48:18.440 --> 00:48:23.239
a cup, yoga cup. Anyway, that's just a silly thing,

553
00:48:23.480 --> 00:48:33.639
silly visual. Uh. Yeah, I was quite good at it.

554
00:48:35.239 --> 00:48:40.480
Not not sure if not playing my own trumpet, violin

555
00:48:40.599 --> 00:48:43.480
or whatever instrument. It's just you know, it's a factual thing.

556
00:48:43.639 --> 00:48:46.840
Was for some reason, I was pretty good at doing that.

557
00:48:49.760 --> 00:48:54.000
So I didn't want to leave. But at the same time,

558
00:48:56.320 --> 00:49:01.960
I didn't feel like a go full time again. At

559
00:49:01.960 --> 00:49:04.519
that point, I didn't think I could go full time anywhere.

560
00:49:05.199 --> 00:49:10.519
I just didn't because I'd already. Oh man, the amount

561
00:49:10.559 --> 00:49:16.559
of times that I've had issues, you know, had to

562
00:49:16.599 --> 00:49:22.760
have time off and stuff with different jobs. So I

563
00:49:22.800 --> 00:49:26.000
was like, Okay, I want to stay here. I like

564
00:49:27.320 --> 00:49:31.559
I like the company, I like the people I work with.

565
00:49:32.840 --> 00:49:37.679
I like the job. It's easy. It's challenging at times,

566
00:49:37.679 --> 00:49:43.599
but generally quite easy for me. And I got really

567
00:49:43.599 --> 00:49:47.559
well with my little team, and I was in. But

568
00:49:47.599 --> 00:49:55.119
then yeah, it was a choice of like, go full

569
00:49:55.159 --> 00:49:58.880
time or leave. That was it. And I said, okay,

570
00:49:58.920 --> 00:50:00.000
I'll go back full time.

571
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:00.199
And then.

572
00:50:01.800 --> 00:50:05.599
I came back the next day. I said no, I'm leaving.

573
00:50:11.679 --> 00:50:17.840
And I had no idea what I was going to do. Well,

574
00:50:17.840 --> 00:50:19.559
I knew I was going to leave. That was it.

575
00:50:21.000 --> 00:50:25.960
I think I think I was sort of doing a

576
00:50:26.000 --> 00:50:32.960
little gamble. I was hoping that they would say, oh no, no, no, no,

577
00:50:33.639 --> 00:50:37.519
run after me. Oh no, juicy Jay Jay, we need you.

578
00:50:37.639 --> 00:50:40.760
It's it's okay, you can. You can stay part time.

579
00:50:42.840 --> 00:50:45.159
I'll employ someone else to come in and I'll pay

580
00:50:45.239 --> 00:50:48.559
out my own wages, someone extra to do the extra work.

581
00:50:49.639 --> 00:50:56.199
We can't lose you. But no, that didn't happen. It

582
00:50:56.360 --> 00:51:03.519
was weird because when I left, I just said goodbye

583
00:51:03.639 --> 00:51:06.199
to but by this point my boss had away left

584
00:51:08.159 --> 00:51:12.599
and all I had was the lady that I was

585
00:51:12.679 --> 00:51:14.320
sitting next to me, that I got really well with

586
00:51:15.119 --> 00:51:17.280
the people behind me, and I just said, see her,

587
00:51:18.760 --> 00:51:24.480
and I was left. And it's almost like no one

588
00:51:24.559 --> 00:51:28.559
knew I was leaving, or no one cared. It's hard

589
00:51:28.599 --> 00:51:37.440
to believe. It's very strange. Yeah, I feel a bit

590
00:51:37.559 --> 00:51:42.000
cold because I knew people in different departments because I've

591
00:51:42.000 --> 00:51:44.400
been in the sales department. I knew everyone in the

592
00:51:44.440 --> 00:51:50.920
sales department, not just because I'd worked with most of them. Well,

593
00:51:50.960 --> 00:51:52.840
I hadn't worked with most of my work at the time.

594
00:51:52.920 --> 00:51:56.559
I'd worked with everyone, and then they took on another

595
00:51:58.000 --> 00:52:03.239
probably twice as many different people, maybe three times. I

596
00:52:03.400 --> 00:52:08.559
never heard. They took on a lot more people, and

597
00:52:08.679 --> 00:52:10.199
I got to know them because I was listening to

598
00:52:10.280 --> 00:52:13.400
their cause. So I felt like I knew them and

599
00:52:13.519 --> 00:52:16.159
I would speak to them, you know, and give them

600
00:52:16.239 --> 00:52:22.000
feedback and stuff. So not everyone was in love with

601
00:52:22.119 --> 00:52:28.440
me because they sometimes lost money due to not doing

602
00:52:28.480 --> 00:52:31.400
the job properly. And that wasn't my fault. That was

603
00:52:31.480 --> 00:52:40.239
just the way it was, you know, just there was

604
00:52:40.400 --> 00:52:41.920
I did thought I was going to get in trouble.

605
00:52:41.960 --> 00:52:48.559
Once some lady was in renewals and he lost something

606
00:52:48.679 --> 00:52:56.760
like two hundred pound from his bonus because he failed

607
00:52:56.880 --> 00:53:07.400
every single one of his compliance things. And I said, well,

608
00:53:08.519 --> 00:53:12.159
I only marked two of them, and what's her name

609
00:53:12.239 --> 00:53:14.760
next to me? Mark two? We didn't do all four,

610
00:53:15.159 --> 00:53:18.880
so was it six three? I think I had six,

611
00:53:19.719 --> 00:53:23.079
Either four or six, I can't remember, but I didn't

612
00:53:23.079 --> 00:53:25.440
do all of them, so it couldn't all be blamed

613
00:53:25.519 --> 00:53:30.920
on me. So the team leader he calls the big fuss.

614
00:53:31.039 --> 00:53:33.840
The team leader came up, wanted to listen to the

615
00:53:33.920 --> 00:53:38.000
calls again and said, no, it was fine, and I said,

616
00:53:38.000 --> 00:53:41.199
I'd listened to it again, and no it wasn't. And

617
00:53:41.360 --> 00:53:43.800
then my boss would listened to it and said, no,

618
00:53:43.920 --> 00:53:47.719
it wasn't all these people listening to the call trying

619
00:53:47.800 --> 00:53:52.039
to trying to find a way to pay him. When

620
00:53:54.559 --> 00:53:56.960
I mean, when I listened back to the call, I

621
00:53:57.079 --> 00:54:01.679
didn't want myself to be wrong for because I quite

622
00:54:02.519 --> 00:54:05.079
I quite liked the idea that I was pretty good

623
00:54:05.119 --> 00:54:08.679
at a job. But at the same time i'd have

624
00:54:08.760 --> 00:54:13.039
been happy enough, and I wouldn't really, but I wanted

625
00:54:13.159 --> 00:54:14.440
him to have his money. I didn't want him to

626
00:54:14.480 --> 00:54:18.119
lose money. I wouldn't have been happy if I'd been wrong,

627
00:54:19.159 --> 00:54:22.719
just because that brings up doubts in other people's minds. Then,

628
00:54:23.239 --> 00:54:25.239
so how many other ones you has he done wrong?

629
00:54:25.920 --> 00:54:28.800
I lost one hundred pounds last month. Maybe that was

630
00:54:28.840 --> 00:54:32.960
because him he doesn't know what he's doing. But I

631
00:54:33.079 --> 00:54:37.159
really didn't know what I was doing, very very very

632
00:54:37.280 --> 00:54:39.280
rarely will you ever hear me say that. I was

633
00:54:39.360 --> 00:54:44.480
pretty good at that job. It was very simple, but

634
00:54:44.559 --> 00:54:47.960
I knew exactly what or I knew what needed to be,

635
00:54:48.599 --> 00:54:51.239
how things needed to be asked and as a certain

636
00:54:51.360 --> 00:54:54.119
way it was. I think it was ridiculous that the

637
00:54:54.239 --> 00:54:59.079
staff were made to do that. You know, I really

638
00:54:59.199 --> 00:55:02.000
did this, but it's just compliance. It's just the rules.

639
00:55:03.119 --> 00:55:18.400
It's the rules, it's the financial whatever organization. But yeah,

640
00:55:19.039 --> 00:55:23.400
it's weird because I left thinking, oh, I did give

641
00:55:23.480 --> 00:55:28.079
the month's notice. So during that month I applied to

642
00:55:28.199 --> 00:55:36.960
go to university to do my counseling degree. I applied.

643
00:55:37.280 --> 00:55:42.400
I didn't get a result, I think until i'd left,

644
00:55:45.559 --> 00:55:51.559
because that would have been in the August, or maybe

645
00:55:51.599 --> 00:55:55.239
it was in the July and August September. I started

646
00:55:55.360 --> 00:56:01.920
university in October, so I think I probably went for

647
00:56:02.000 --> 00:56:10.440
an interview in the July, because I think they did

648
00:56:10.519 --> 00:56:15.039
the interviews before the clothes. I don't know, Yeah, I

649
00:56:15.079 --> 00:56:18.480
think I did. It might have been June, BlimE me. Anyway,

650
00:56:18.480 --> 00:56:19.280
I think it was July.

651
00:56:20.880 --> 00:56:21.440
And then.

652
00:56:25.440 --> 00:56:31.360
I got accepted. I went on to I got benefits

653
00:56:31.760 --> 00:56:36.960
housing benefit just for three months while I was unemployed

654
00:56:38.199 --> 00:56:41.920
waiting to go to university. Remember the they said another one.

655
00:56:41.960 --> 00:56:46.119
I remember the lady as it was a lady in

656
00:56:46.199 --> 00:56:49.000
this situation. It's not always a lady in my stories.

657
00:56:49.320 --> 00:56:52.199
It's quite often men as well. It was a man.

658
00:56:52.480 --> 00:56:57.800
It was a man. And she said to me, yeah,

659
00:56:57.840 --> 00:56:59.800
you won't get any housing benefit because you're living in

660
00:56:59.800 --> 00:57:03.440
this shared accommodation. It's a religious house because I was

661
00:57:03.519 --> 00:57:09.079
living with Buddhists. There's no locks on the doors, because

662
00:57:10.000 --> 00:57:16.119
that's what makes it a multiple occupancy whatever. I said, yeah,

663
00:57:16.199 --> 00:57:19.480
but we trust each other, so it don't matter if

664
00:57:19.480 --> 00:57:21.679
there's no locks on the doors. Class as a family,

665
00:57:23.280 --> 00:57:25.800
I said, well, we do argue, so it's similar to

666
00:57:25.880 --> 00:57:33.119
be in her family. But I do pay rent. Well,

667
00:57:33.199 --> 00:57:35.199
it turns out she was wrong and I did get

668
00:57:35.239 --> 00:57:38.480
paid didn't get my rent paid, so that was good

669
00:57:38.559 --> 00:57:39.679
and only for a few weeks.

670
00:57:40.159 --> 00:57:40.480
What was it?

671
00:57:40.639 --> 00:57:49.199
Probably two months, really only two months, And so if

672
00:57:49.280 --> 00:57:55.239
I hadn't being told you either go full time or

673
00:57:55.320 --> 00:58:00.559
you leave, then I would never have probably gone to

674
00:58:00.719 --> 00:58:07.280
university because I was fairly kind of happy being there

675
00:58:08.239 --> 00:58:13.840
doing part time and then volunteering doing a free pain

676
00:58:13.960 --> 00:58:18.880
relief service. No, I'd stopped doing that at this point.

677
00:58:18.920 --> 00:58:20.519
So I was doing that in two thousand and six.

678
00:58:21.400 --> 00:58:24.000
I was doing that when I was full time, the

679
00:58:24.159 --> 00:58:27.960
free pay relief service, and I was doing on Saturdays.

680
00:58:29.079 --> 00:58:35.280
But then two thousand and seven I was doing the

681
00:58:39.039 --> 00:58:43.519
the Rehab Drug Rehab and Alcoholic Charity. So I was

682
00:58:43.800 --> 00:58:47.599
doing relaxation group sessions. I think I was doing two

683
00:58:47.679 --> 00:58:59.000
a week each one, and not while I was part time.

684
00:58:59.079 --> 00:59:00.960
I think I was doing one a week at each one,

685
00:59:01.800 --> 00:59:03.199
and then when I went.

686
00:59:04.920 --> 00:59:05.360
Or was I.

687
00:59:09.920 --> 00:59:17.719
I can't remember one two Yeah, I think it was

688
00:59:17.920 --> 00:59:21.119
two a week, one a week, and then I went

689
00:59:21.239 --> 00:59:25.239
two a week for each one when I left my job.

690
00:59:28.400 --> 00:59:31.079
That was a shame. I'd again, I'd probably still be

691
00:59:31.199 --> 00:59:41.800
there doing that if it hadn't been for circumstances. It's

692
00:59:41.840 --> 00:59:46.039
a shame. It's weird, isn't it. I know, you know, life.

693
00:59:46.960 --> 00:59:51.079
Just life is. It can be a bit unusual at

694
00:59:51.159 --> 00:59:57.800
times all the time, but there's certain in some ways.

695
01:00:00.920 --> 01:00:06.840
For a short period of time, everything was kind of

696
01:00:09.159 --> 01:00:18.639
going pretty well, even leading up to start in university,

697
01:00:20.039 --> 01:00:27.000
because I had everything planned very eloquently. I'm not sure

698
01:00:27.039 --> 01:00:34.559
if it's eloquent, but I had everything planned. So I

699
01:00:34.719 --> 01:00:41.960
had a part time job in a supermarket to start,

700
01:00:43.360 --> 01:00:48.400
and it was just going to be at weekends. I

701
01:00:48.559 --> 01:00:55.960
was starting university. Well i'd already started university, but it

702
01:00:56.079 --> 01:00:59.360
was in a different town, but that's okay, it was doable.

703
01:01:03.440 --> 01:01:07.280
I was still living at the Buddhist place again, that

704
01:01:07.519 --> 01:01:12.000
was what I wanted, and it's fairly cheap to live there.

705
01:01:16.760 --> 01:01:20.760
I was still doing the voluntary work. I had to

706
01:01:21.000 --> 01:01:24.559
base it around, you know, university, but I was still

707
01:01:24.639 --> 01:01:27.239
managing to go twice a week so I'll do at

708
01:01:27.320 --> 01:01:34.480
least one session per week at the two charities doing

709
01:01:34.559 --> 01:01:40.800
group relaxation sessions. I was still making my recordings and

710
01:01:40.880 --> 01:01:51.400
my videos, and I had a new girlfriend which came

711
01:01:51.480 --> 01:01:54.920
from me doing the voluntary work. She was in charge

712
01:01:54.920 --> 01:02:00.800
of the volunteers, volunteer coordinature or something. So everything was

713
01:02:00.880 --> 01:02:10.760
kind of going together quite nicely. Actually, and then, as

714
01:02:10.920 --> 01:02:17.760
sometimes happened, Hello for any Hello Hello, as sometimes occurs,

715
01:02:19.199 --> 01:02:26.280
things went a little bit awry. So I ended up

716
01:02:26.679 --> 01:02:29.880
moving to the town I was going to university, yet

717
01:02:32.880 --> 01:02:37.000
moving away from that job, so I didn't even get

718
01:02:37.039 --> 01:02:44.639
to start the job, and moving away from my friends.

719
01:02:46.639 --> 01:02:51.639
My girlfriend wasn't I moved away from her. She didn't

720
01:02:51.679 --> 01:02:57.159
take that greatly, and I wasn't able to do the

721
01:02:58.000 --> 01:03:06.320
volunteer work anymore. So the only thing I continued when

722
01:03:06.360 --> 01:03:11.880
I moved was doing recordings and videos and going to university.

723
01:03:15.480 --> 01:03:20.679
But the way it worked out, it did take a

724
01:03:20.800 --> 01:03:25.039
lot out of me doing their course, so I'm not

725
01:03:25.199 --> 01:03:34.360
sure if I'd have been able to maintain all the

726
01:03:34.400 --> 01:03:38.280
other things at the same time, you know, a part

727
01:03:38.400 --> 01:03:48.239
time job, a girlfriend, the volunteer jobs, volunteer work. Yeah,

728
01:03:52.320 --> 01:03:54.280
I don't know if I could have. I mean, it

729
01:03:54.400 --> 01:03:58.559
might have been much better. I don't know, but I

730
01:03:58.679 --> 01:04:06.159
don't know, no way of knowing. But that was with Sainsbury's.

731
01:04:06.400 --> 01:04:08.440
I tall it's weird. I actually got a part time

732
01:04:08.519 --> 01:04:11.000
job again in Sainsbury's in.

733
01:04:14.360 --> 01:04:14.519
Was it?

734
01:04:15.079 --> 01:04:15.679
Where was it?

735
01:04:22.800 --> 01:04:23.000
Yeah?

736
01:04:23.119 --> 01:04:25.599
When I moved here, I got a job part time

737
01:04:25.719 --> 01:04:31.000
job at Sainsbury's, and again I didn't go. I got

738
01:04:31.039 --> 01:04:34.480
the job, I just didn't go. I just couldn't face it.

739
01:04:35.880 --> 01:04:46.320
It's weird. I couldn't get out of bed. And then yeah,

740
01:04:46.360 --> 01:04:50.760
I think I kind of I think that particular, that

741
01:04:50.960 --> 01:04:54.400
particular ladder has been shortened. I don't think I can

742
01:04:54.440 --> 01:05:02.679
get onto the ladder anymore. For that company, I was

743
01:05:02.760 --> 01:05:04.239
going to be on the vegetable section.

744
01:05:10.519 --> 01:05:10.639
Hm.

745
01:05:17.719 --> 01:05:19.519
It was weird, well not weird, but the bloke that

746
01:05:19.599 --> 01:05:22.000
showed me around and he was going to be my supervisor.

747
01:05:22.960 --> 01:05:27.559
He was so enthusiastic about all the apples, the fruits

748
01:05:27.719 --> 01:05:33.079
and the vegetables and the cabbages and the beetroot, and

749
01:05:35.280 --> 01:05:42.960
really enthusiastic. He had a hat and everything. You're not.

750
01:05:43.199 --> 01:05:49.079
Really I can't really express to you how enthusiastic he

751
01:05:49.280 --> 01:05:53.519
was about that particular section. Now, it's quite a large

752
01:05:53.519 --> 01:05:57.239
section in the supermarket, isn't it, the whole vegetable, fruit

753
01:05:57.280 --> 01:06:02.119
and veg area. It's quite quite a big section of

754
01:06:02.199 --> 01:06:07.440
a bit of a large supermarket, so I'm guessing there'd

755
01:06:07.480 --> 01:06:11.840
be quite a few staff looking after that area. And

756
01:06:12.039 --> 01:06:14.920
he was I don't know if he was in charge

757
01:06:15.159 --> 01:06:21.039
overall in charge or if he was I don't know

758
01:06:21.280 --> 01:06:27.800
like a shift manager or something. Definitely loved his job,

759
01:06:28.119 --> 01:06:31.880
which was amazing. I always like that anyone. I've just

760
01:06:31.920 --> 01:06:35.639
got a thing about people enthusiastic about stuff, because I

761
01:06:37.440 --> 01:06:41.679
don't think I come across as being very enthusiastic. I

762
01:06:41.880 --> 01:06:42.960
hide it very well.

763
01:06:45.480 --> 01:06:46.480
I I just like that.

764
01:06:46.599 --> 01:06:51.039
I don't Yeah, whatever it is, as long as it's

765
01:06:51.079 --> 01:06:55.079
not hurting anyone else, and for me personally, it's useful.

766
01:06:57.719 --> 01:07:00.639
Just just for me personally. I mean, other people can

767
01:07:00.719 --> 01:07:03.320
be enthusiastic about whatever they want. That's up to them.

768
01:07:06.480 --> 01:07:09.360
I only really want to be enthusiastic about Well, actually

769
01:07:09.400 --> 01:07:15.440
it's not true because I'm enthusiastic about Let's try to

770
01:07:15.480 --> 01:07:17.880
say the word a little bit slower so it comes

771
01:07:17.960 --> 01:07:28.920
out more concisely and clearly enthusiastic. I am enthusiastic about boxing,

772
01:07:29.000 --> 01:07:32.280
and that's not helping anyone. The only one that's helping

773
01:07:32.440 --> 01:07:40.480
is to people that are getting paid. So I'm you know,

774
01:07:40.800 --> 01:07:48.880
I love watching the big fights. My stomach's hungry again.

775
01:07:50.320 --> 01:08:02.880
It don't stop being hungry. It's nearly time to take

776
01:08:02.960 --> 01:08:06.719
the little monkey out for a little climbing the trees.

777
01:08:09.480 --> 01:08:15.360
Mon care. So that's the end of this. Here a

778
01:08:15.599 --> 01:08:21.439
recording it's not you know, it's not in line with

779
01:08:22.560 --> 01:08:29.359
the regular Monday Tuesday kind of schedule that I've been

780
01:08:30.880 --> 01:08:35.479
building up over the last few months or I don't

781
01:08:35.520 --> 01:08:40.399
know how long it's been. But I will get back

782
01:08:40.479 --> 01:08:45.640
to that. I promise. I really do promise it just

783
01:08:47.319 --> 01:08:50.479
it might take a little while. I will get back

784
01:08:50.560 --> 01:08:53.199
to it. There's a bit of a blip with the

785
01:08:53.239 --> 01:09:00.680
adverts as well, but that's sorted now thanks to someone

786
01:09:00.840 --> 01:09:03.640
let me know that. I thank you that there was

787
01:09:04.279 --> 01:09:07.880
adverts playing mid role on some of the podcasts. I

788
01:09:07.920 --> 01:09:16.640
shouldn't have been. So that's all been sorted out. Yeah,

789
01:09:17.119 --> 01:09:27.520
it should should be sorted out. Please please please severely

790
01:09:28.199 --> 01:09:36.399
mentally deficient. Wow. Yeah, I feel like I need to

791
01:09:36.439 --> 01:09:39.720
print that only I might put that as my my

792
01:09:40.000 --> 01:09:46.159
screen as the image for this recording. It's like what.

793
01:09:48.279 --> 01:09:48.560
Wow.

794
01:09:50.239 --> 01:09:55.920
Anyway, I'm going to go. Thank you for listening. Please

795
01:09:57.119 --> 01:10:00.760
remember to be kind to yourself, because you do deserve

796
01:10:00.840 --> 01:10:06.279
to be happy. Be gentle with yourself. You deserve to

797
01:10:06.359 --> 01:10:40.520
feel safe lots of love by relax in a more

798
01:10:41.560 --> 01:10:51.520
deep and meaningful way, maybe in a way that can

799
01:10:53.159 --> 01:11:02.399
not just allow you to feel calmer now and throughout

800
01:11:03.520 --> 01:11:12.640
the time. We spend together here, not just relaxed at

801
01:11:12.680 --> 01:11:16.840
the end of the recording when it's finished, and you

802
01:11:16.920 --> 01:11:27.199
can enjoy that sense of comfort and peace, but also

803
01:11:34.800 --> 01:11:41.159
I think it would be nice to have those feelings

804
01:11:41.319 --> 01:11:57.520
of relaxation continue for longer after the recording has ended,

805
01:12:02.640 --> 01:12:12.119
so that you can still benefit from listening to my voice,

806
01:12:15.199 --> 01:12:26.640
maybe in a few hours time, perhaps tomorrow, and then

807
01:12:26.800 --> 01:12:34.720
by listening regularly, especially if you find like some people

808
01:12:34.880 --> 01:12:39.039
do and myself as well, sometimes I find one particular

809
01:12:39.199 --> 01:12:49.199
recording that really resonates with me, and I just listen

810
01:12:49.279 --> 01:12:54.560
to it over and over again every morning, every evening.

811
01:13:02.239 --> 01:13:06.880
There was this recording from We're going back to about

812
01:13:07.039 --> 01:13:12.239
nineteen ninety nine. It wasn't hypnosis, but it was a

813
01:13:12.399 --> 01:13:21.800
guided visualizations. It kind of was hypnosis really, and I

814
01:13:21.920 --> 01:13:25.159
managed to find it again and it still has the

815
01:13:25.279 --> 01:13:34.439
same effect on me. And part of it was the

816
01:13:34.560 --> 01:13:47.520
person's voice relaxed me. She just felt so peaceful, and

817
01:13:47.600 --> 01:13:54.439
I'd look forward to listening to her in the morning

818
01:13:54.920 --> 01:14:06.000
and in the evening. And I knew before even pressing

819
01:14:06.159 --> 01:14:12.600
the play button that as soon as I've done that

820
01:14:13.680 --> 01:14:17.079
pressed the play button. This was in the days of

821
01:14:22.199 --> 01:14:31.359
CD players. Press the play button. In fact, it might

822
01:14:31.359 --> 01:14:35.800
have even been a tape recorder. I'd lie down on

823
01:14:35.880 --> 01:14:48.680
the bed and then even without necessarily listening to her

824
01:14:48.920 --> 01:15:01.840
words because I had them memorized. Really, it was as

825
01:15:01.880 --> 01:15:12.560
if my body knew exactly what to do, and the

826
01:15:12.760 --> 01:15:34.760
muscles just almost went into automatic relaxation, and I remember

827
01:15:34.880 --> 01:15:48.920
my mind would slow down. Now. Now, I was listening

828
01:15:49.000 --> 01:15:55.600
to this recording in the early days of learning hypnosis,

829
01:15:58.319 --> 01:16:06.000
and long before I ever made any videos or audio

830
01:16:06.199 --> 01:16:10.760
recordings myself, because I didn't start doing that till two

831
01:16:11.000 --> 01:16:26.960
thousand and six. But I knew, I knew how helpful

832
01:16:28.880 --> 01:16:40.359
I found being able to just let go, to have

833
01:16:40.600 --> 01:16:53.479
that trust in the person that I'm listening to, knowing

834
01:16:53.600 --> 01:17:01.399
that it's going to be just as relaxing, if not

835
01:17:01.680 --> 01:17:10.960
more so. Each time you hear my voice, you may

836
01:17:11.039 --> 01:17:22.560
feel the same. Some people have been listening to me

837
01:17:22.840 --> 01:17:36.760
for over a decade, maybe not solidly, obviously not twenty

838
01:17:36.800 --> 01:17:44.640
four hours a day, but maybe people come back. Some

839
01:17:44.840 --> 01:17:59.760
people maybe listen every day. That's something that I do

840
01:18:01.640 --> 01:18:16.039
which you may not realize by listening, is when I

841
01:18:16.399 --> 01:18:32.479
record these recordings. Now, for example, I also am affected

842
01:18:33.039 --> 01:18:45.840
by the words that I say. So if I set

843
01:18:46.039 --> 01:18:56.479
you focus on your feet, notice your feet relaxing. I

844
01:18:56.600 --> 01:19:05.039
will be focusing on my feet. I will be noticing

845
01:19:08.000 --> 01:19:22.520
my feet relaxing. If I said, focus on your hands,

846
01:19:25.319 --> 01:19:34.840
and maybe notice the difference between each hand. Perhaps notice

847
01:19:34.960 --> 01:19:41.000
the air in the room, the temperature of the room.

848
01:19:42.920 --> 01:19:53.279
On the backs of your hands. You may start to

849
01:19:53.880 --> 01:20:01.920
notice what almost feels like a very light breeze, even

850
01:20:02.000 --> 01:20:06.159
though there may not be any type of breeze at

851
01:20:06.239 --> 01:20:19.199
all where you are right now. And as you become

852
01:20:19.880 --> 01:20:34.239
aware of your hands, I'm also aware of how relaxed

853
01:20:34.560 --> 01:20:58.319
my hands are feeling now. And when it comes to

854
01:21:00.000 --> 01:21:05.880
intentionally drifting off to sleep, which may be the reason

855
01:21:06.239 --> 01:21:22.399
you're listening, I also feel drowsy when I make these recordings.

856
01:21:27.159 --> 01:21:43.560
I also notice my mind drifting. In fact, at times

857
01:21:45.640 --> 01:21:59.720
I've actually fallen asleep without even noticing, and then I

858
01:21:59.800 --> 01:22:10.880
can area on talking. And it's suddenly when I listen

859
01:22:11.039 --> 01:22:20.439
back to do the editing, I hear snoring and I think,

860
01:22:20.880 --> 01:22:30.680
I don't remember snoring. I remember talking. Is this snoring

861
01:22:31.039 --> 01:22:37.720
was a pick turned up? That's why I sound like

862
01:22:37.840 --> 01:22:48.880
when I snore, I get ready into the whole experience.

863
01:22:56.840 --> 01:23:06.279
I don't know how you feel, how relaxed you feel

864
01:23:06.359 --> 01:23:16.920
in your feet, how relaxed you feel in your hands.

865
01:23:32.000 --> 01:23:44.199
I have noticed more and more that the more relaxed,

866
01:23:45.960 --> 01:24:01.760
deeper level of comfort you feel, the easier your breathing becomes.

867
01:24:08.359 --> 01:24:25.000
It's almost like that additional muscle relaxation. So this allows

868
01:24:25.079 --> 01:24:56.159
you to breathe easier without necessarily focusing on your breath, however,

869
01:24:56.439 --> 01:25:25.159
being able to notice the ease in which you breathe

870
01:25:25.399 --> 01:26:15.159
so naturally. You breathe so very easily and smoothly. Whenever

871
01:26:15.319 --> 01:26:33.640
I imagine my breathing improving. When I've got my eyes closed,

872
01:26:39.680 --> 01:26:52.560
I tend to visualize a beautiful field with trees and

873
01:26:52.840 --> 01:27:26.159
flowers producing all that life giving oxygen. And it feels

874
01:27:26.479 --> 01:27:48.199
nice too, if nothing else, just taking some time away

875
01:27:52.960 --> 01:28:36.199
from everything, enjoying that feeling of peace, serenity with a

876
01:28:36.600 --> 01:29:28.479
joyful heart. Time seems to just drip by, so very slowly, relaxed,

877
01:29:34.399 --> 01:30:13.520
so deeply peaceful, completely unattached to any thoughts whatsoever in

878
01:30:13.720 --> 01:31:18.079
this moment, completely free. Notice that your mind has slowed down.

879
01:31:26.399 --> 01:32:13.079
Slowed down because nothing really requires your attention. You can

880
01:32:13.359 --> 01:32:29.479
enjoy the physical sensations of allowing the stress to drip

881
01:32:30.199 --> 01:32:50.039
out of your body. Dripping out of every part of

882
01:32:50.199 --> 01:33:14.680
your body and being released from your brain. Hue your

883
01:33:14.880 --> 01:33:50.199
mind slowly but surely. The muscles in your legs.

884
01:34:05.399 --> 01:34:35.880
Relax, res relax, so very deeply, Relax.

885
01:34:40.560 --> 01:35:05.920
So deeply. And the feelings, the pleasant feelings in your

886
01:35:06.239 --> 01:35:34.000
arms and shoulders, deepening each part of your body further

887
01:35:39.000 --> 01:36:12.319
and deeper and deeper, Magician, the feelings in the back

888
01:36:12.399 --> 01:37:14.119
of your neck, the feelings in your wrists, muscles, in

889
01:37:14.239 --> 01:37:51.359
the front of your body. I will say, feeding, peaceful, deeping.

890
01:38:08.359 --> 01:38:18.680
There's a sense of peace spreads through your very core.

891
01:38:49.159 --> 01:39:09.079
Even when you focus on your mind, her mind becomes

892
01:39:16.439 --> 01:40:39.239
a and slowerven deeper, relaxing, so very slow. Your stomach

893
01:40:53.399 --> 01:41:36.399
taste felling your stomach, your back. Notice, Notice how relaxed

894
01:41:40.840 --> 01:42:18.840
you now feel in the hall of your back. A

895
01:42:19.239 --> 01:42:28.279
spy from your brain all the way down the middle

896
01:42:28.359 --> 01:42:40.159
of your back, sending and receiving millions of messages every day,

897
01:42:51.239 --> 01:43:09.319
decomfort increasing deeply, relaxed.

898
01:43:39.119 --> 01:43:39.760
Ms.

899
01:44:05.199 --> 01:44:18.640
Relax spreading those signals down your spine or cord into

900
01:44:18.760 --> 01:44:37.479
air every part of your body, your shins and your

901
01:44:37.640 --> 01:45:33.600
calf muscles, your elbows, Feelings of peace and tranquility spreading

902
01:45:34.399 --> 01:45:46.840
through your body, tips of your toes, to your eyes,

903
01:45:51.239 --> 01:46:10.640
your fingers, all the way to your lower back. Letting go,

904
01:46:12.880 --> 01:47:23.079
reletting base, drifting mind, just wander in a way, happy

905
01:47:23.920 --> 01:48:04.319
to let go, Let go completely, let go, sir, tranquil

906
01:48:28.479 --> 01:49:00.760
your whole body, enjoying a sense listening that.

907
01:49:04.439 --> 01:49:06.479
Hey, more.

908
01:50:14.479 --> 01:51:08.640
Space for joy, space this face of peace and safety

909
01:51:31.439 --> 01:53:30.239
s fairy firy, relaxed vigils letting go. Maybe we can

910
01:53:30.560 --> 01:53:41.760
just focus on the different parts of your body, just

911
01:53:42.239 --> 01:55:11.439
to notice you forelhead and your eyes atun sa, noticing

912
01:55:11.640 --> 01:56:31.279
the sense of complete freedom, absolute freedom, dress day, dress day,

913
01:56:43.680 --> 01:58:09.720
he's fall energyhhh, paste to breeze, such ease, yeah, loose.

914
01:58:31.039 --> 01:58:31.960
You may have.

915
01:58:35.560 --> 01:59:35.479
Or may not have noticed your mind drifted peaceful, move

916
01:59:35.960 --> 01:59:55.760
in even more deeply in the direction of total blissful

917
01:59:56.119 --> 02:01:20.359
pace hm less for pace, arrest toe to to pace,

918
02:01:51.159 --> 02:03:06.760
sirc lett him go, peace of mind re forty c rexed.

919
02:03:14.199 --> 02:03:15.680
C relaxed.

920
02:03:40.199 --> 02:04:07.640
A body feels almost invisible, so very relaxed, paceful.

921
02:04:13.399 --> 02:04:13.479
So.

922
02:04:21.199 --> 02:04:21.760
Pace on.

923
02:04:37.720 --> 02:05:26.640
Relea, and you could start to notice that you are

924
02:05:26.880 --> 02:05:38.399
feeling more relaxed, even though I've not purposely focused your

925
02:05:38.600 --> 02:05:47.000
mind upon that sense of physical comfort that is growing

926
02:05:47.119 --> 02:05:55.960
within you. Throughout your body, and your mind starts to

927
02:05:56.079 --> 02:06:06.119
slow down, and that could be almost in recognition of

928
02:06:08.399 --> 02:06:20.479
I guess my speech not being particularly fast and things

929
02:06:20.880 --> 02:06:30.960
just generally feel calmer. Just by listening to my voice,

930
02:06:34.039 --> 02:06:41.000
you give yourself an opportunity to take a break from

931
02:06:41.039 --> 02:06:47.560
the day, take a break from your life as it is,

932
02:06:51.000 --> 02:06:58.600
and to give yourself a rest, giving yourself permission to

933
02:06:58.720 --> 02:07:04.560
take some time and to allow your body to relax

934
02:07:06.319 --> 02:07:14.199
and allow your mind to slow down, which in turn

935
02:07:16.840 --> 02:07:22.439
releases the tension any stresses that you had in your body.

936
02:07:28.439 --> 02:07:32.319
It's almost as if the parts of your body just

937
02:07:32.600 --> 02:07:44.279
open up, allowing the negativity out and at the same

938
02:07:44.439 --> 02:07:55.720
time replacing that negativity with positive heathing energy, which then

939
02:07:55.880 --> 02:08:05.239
fills your body up and your mind also starts to

940
02:08:07.680 --> 02:08:22.640
appreciate those feelings of increasing confidence, an almost uplifting feeling,

941
02:08:24.720 --> 02:08:38.760
positive healing, an energy that spreads through your body like

942
02:08:38.880 --> 02:08:49.119
a wave of comfort. And all this comes from just

943
02:08:52.720 --> 02:09:00.640
allowing yourself a few minutes, maybe high off an hour,

944
02:09:01.119 --> 02:09:05.840
however long you want it to be, to just rest

945
02:09:11.279 --> 02:09:20.079
and allow your mind and your body to almost reset

946
02:09:20.800 --> 02:09:39.439
itself to the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness, which

947
02:09:39.520 --> 02:09:52.640
allows more room for feelings of pleasure and happiness to

948
02:09:52.960 --> 02:10:02.399
move around your body and into your mind, almost as

949
02:10:02.399 --> 02:10:11.520
if your mind and your body are sinking together, almost

950
02:10:11.880 --> 02:10:25.880
mirroring each other, with that growing positivity and calmness. And

951
02:10:26.039 --> 02:10:33.640
it feels nice, really does feel nice to know that

952
02:10:33.920 --> 02:10:43.039
you are the one that has allowed yourself to feel

953
02:10:43.560 --> 02:10:51.800
more comfort and to experience.

954
02:10:53.520 --> 02:10:54.640
More of this.

955
02:10:56.439 --> 02:11:11.600
Deep relaxation spread throughout your body. And as I focus

956
02:11:13.159 --> 02:11:18.920
on each part of your body, you can notice that

957
02:11:19.159 --> 02:11:33.640
that part becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on it.

958
02:11:36.199 --> 02:11:45.840
It becomes even more calm and comfortable just by focusing.

959
02:11:49.920 --> 02:11:55.640
And as I move down your body, starting at your head,

960
02:11:58.399 --> 02:12:01.960
the parts that you have all already focused on or

961
02:12:02.159 --> 02:12:11.600
continue to relax deeply, and those parts that have not

962
02:12:11.880 --> 02:12:23.800
yet focused on or just automatically release any remain intention

963
02:12:25.159 --> 02:12:37.039
in anticipation of even more comfort about to come. Now,

964
02:12:39.439 --> 02:12:45.640
I'm going to start by focusing on your forehead. Just

965
02:12:45.800 --> 02:12:54.279
being aware of the feelings of your forehead and any

966
02:12:54.359 --> 02:13:02.039
background sounds like mister Herbert's opinion, can just allow you

967
02:13:02.199 --> 02:13:09.680
to feel even more relaxed. Just means you in the moment,

968
02:13:12.800 --> 02:13:18.159
this isn't this isn't a sterile environment. This is the world.

969
02:13:21.640 --> 02:13:27.680
I live in the countryside, so there's lots of nature

970
02:13:28.199 --> 02:13:38.680
sounds around. So as you focus on your forehead, just

971
02:13:38.960 --> 02:13:46.720
notice how it becomes even more relaxed as you focus

972
02:13:49.039 --> 02:13:53.520
only on my voice and that part of your body.

973
02:13:58.720 --> 02:14:07.000
Moving down to your eyes, focusing on your eyes, noticing

974
02:14:09.479 --> 02:14:19.159
how your eyelids feel so heavy yet so light at

975
02:14:19.199 --> 02:14:25.680
the same time, and all the muscles around your eyes

976
02:14:25.920 --> 02:14:40.319
relaxing completely. Moving your focus down to your mouth, your lips,

977
02:14:40.800 --> 02:14:47.439
your tongue, your teeth, and your gums, the hole of

978
02:14:47.600 --> 02:15:02.359
your mouth relaxing, calm and loose as you focus now

979
02:15:03.199 --> 02:15:10.279
on your jaw, not just the parts of your jaw ney,

980
02:15:10.439 --> 02:15:14.840
your mouth, and your chin, but all the way up

981
02:15:15.600 --> 02:15:21.640
the size of your face to your ears, the hole

982
02:15:22.359 --> 02:15:32.720
of your jaw, feeding more relaxed.

983
02:15:36.119 --> 02:15:36.920
And calm.

984
02:15:45.119 --> 02:15:54.199
Focusing on your neck, the front of your neck and

985
02:15:54.319 --> 02:16:07.319
your throat, relaxing and loose and calm. The sides of

986
02:16:07.439 --> 02:16:12.680
your neck, the right and left side of your neck,

987
02:16:15.640 --> 02:16:31.479
relax and loose and calm. And now the back of

988
02:16:31.600 --> 02:16:44.399
your neck. Focusing on the back of your neck, letting

989
02:16:44.639 --> 02:16:49.280
go of any tension that may have been there before,

990
02:16:51.120 --> 02:17:02.360
and enjoying that sense of increasing on foot and release.

991
02:17:05.120 --> 02:17:09.120
Then you can experience in the back of your neck,

992
02:17:15.440 --> 02:17:21.879
moving down your back and moving either side of your

993
02:17:22.120 --> 02:17:28.319
spine right from the top of your back all the

994
02:17:28.399 --> 02:17:41.319
way down to the bottom of your back down to

995
02:17:41.399 --> 02:17:52.200
your lower back. As you move up and down your spine,

996
02:17:54.319 --> 02:17:58.760
you can feel the muscles either side of your spine

997
02:18:00.959 --> 02:18:15.520
relaxing even more. And as those muscles relax, that sense

998
02:18:15.639 --> 02:18:26.120
of comfort starts to spread outwards from your spine into

999
02:18:26.319 --> 02:18:32.920
both sides of your back, the top of your back,

1000
02:18:33.799 --> 02:18:40.040
the middle end your lower back. And as you scan

1001
02:18:41.760 --> 02:18:49.559
gently and slowly up and down your back, there's the

1002
02:18:49.719 --> 02:18:55.559
muscles in the top of your back relax and become looser.

1003
02:19:00.120 --> 02:19:06.079
Muscles in the middle of your back also seem to

1004
02:19:06.360 --> 02:19:15.520
just almost divide from each other, separating and almost melting,

1005
02:19:21.319 --> 02:19:27.280
And in your lower back there seems to be an

1006
02:19:27.360 --> 02:19:41.559
extra special feeling of comfort. The spreads into your hips

1007
02:19:43.840 --> 02:19:51.680
sit down your lower back, into your hips, into the

1008
02:19:51.879 --> 02:20:00.639
area where your cosix are, and into your buttocks, and

1009
02:20:00.760 --> 02:20:10.120
wise muscles that spread bring your lower back into your

1010
02:20:10.239 --> 02:20:23.479
hip area, start to melt, start to really let go,

1011
02:20:30.159 --> 02:20:35.000
and you know where about to focus on your shoulders,

1012
02:20:36.760 --> 02:20:43.760
your back and your spine will continue to let go,

1013
02:20:46.799 --> 02:21:03.479
continue to relax so calmly, and she focus on your shoulders.

1014
02:21:05.280 --> 02:21:24.959
You may notice they're already feeling really loose, they're already feeding,

1015
02:21:30.200 --> 02:21:47.959
calm and fearing. Those muscles then move from your neck

1016
02:21:49.399 --> 02:22:08.120
into your shoulders. Feel so soft and gentle, so smooth

1017
02:22:14.399 --> 02:22:36.879
and calm, and the feeling in your shoulders seems to

1018
02:22:37.319 --> 02:22:45.760
spread deep into your shoulders, a sense of relaxation, not

1019
02:22:46.319 --> 02:23:00.159
just traveling deeply into your muscles, but also relaxing the

1020
02:23:00.280 --> 02:23:09.959
bones and moving all the way to underneath your arms,

1021
02:23:12.799 --> 02:23:18.719
relaxing a whole area between the tops of your shoulders

1022
02:23:20.079 --> 02:23:37.799
and underneath your arms healing. You feel so relaxed and

1023
02:23:38.079 --> 02:23:53.639
comfortable in your shoulders, which sense that deep healing message

1024
02:23:59.040 --> 02:24:10.440
into your arm arms that you may feel almost as

1025
02:24:10.479 --> 02:24:17.239
if your arms are not even that because they're so relaxed,

1026
02:24:20.440 --> 02:25:06.719
so deeply relaxed, so so calm, so this that feelings

1027
02:25:06.959 --> 02:25:22.200
spreading all the way down your arms, two elbows, including

1028
02:25:23.920 --> 02:25:50.399
your elbows circumfort spreads your way into wrists, your forearms,

1029
02:25:50.920 --> 02:26:14.559
and your wrists so heavy hat the same time, sunlight

1030
02:26:17.799 --> 02:26:44.959
and gentle fuk sad.

1031
02:26:47.079 --> 02:26:48.079
Now on.

1032
02:26:50.760 --> 02:27:20.760
Your hands, my hands, so.

1033
02:27:22.120 --> 02:27:45.360
Peaceful in your hands, the sense of.

1034
02:27:48.840 --> 02:27:50.280
Real pace.

1035
02:28:02.079 --> 02:28:15.760
It just seems to feel so familiar when your hands

1036
02:28:16.120 --> 02:29:53.559
relax deeply felse your fingers thing this sadlish, you think

1037
02:29:53.719 --> 02:30:27.559
it tips moving your attention to the front your body

1038
02:30:40.719 --> 02:30:58.040
so comfortable, moving your focus to your legs.

1039
02:31:02.879 --> 02:32:18.440
Usus like mysels.

1040
02:32:19.840 --> 02:33:14.200
And your fins and names so relaxed, cough muscles just

1041
02:33:14.559 --> 02:35:29.760
shades a pusi and the feathing in your faints, sir,

1042
02:35:30.360 --> 02:36:31.680
peaceful circom sit peaceful, sircom sir peaceful sycom so peace

1043
02:36:32.360 --> 02:36:43.479
f b sener.

1044
02:36:48.200 --> 02:36:49.920
Peace fall.

1045
02:36:53.280 --> 02:37:05.959
Cycom that deep relaxation.

1046
02:37:06.600 --> 02:37:40.120
To spread your chest, sum let you go everything. So

1047
02:37:40.159 --> 02:37:46.520
I'm gonna start counting down now, from twenty down to one.

1048
02:37:52.440 --> 02:37:55.680
You can imagine in a way it's like just walking

1049
02:37:55.760 --> 02:38:01.600
down some steps in each step or twenty steps, and

1050
02:38:01.719 --> 02:38:12.079
each step represents a level of comfort. Each step represents

1051
02:38:14.680 --> 02:38:27.159
a deepening of that comfort, and the furvies you walk

1052
02:38:27.280 --> 02:38:32.959
down those steps to deeper and more relaxed you feel.

1053
02:38:39.680 --> 02:40:27.440
So starting with number twenty twenty, nineteen, eighteen, seven, ten,

1054
02:41:13.799 --> 02:53:32.440
sixteenhhhh three four fi two no eight sissie us six five.

1055
02:54:51.079 --> 02:55:22.920
Four us.

1056
02:55:55.239 --> 02:57:51.680
Concussis.

1057
02:59:19.280 --> 02:59:19.959
And now.

1058
02:59:24.360 --> 02:59:37.000
As you focus on your eyes. We're gonna count down

1059
02:59:37.399 --> 02:59:48.520
from ten down to one, focusing just on your eyes,

1060
02:59:52.280 --> 02:59:59.760
your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your eye will

1061
03:00:00.120 --> 03:00:18.920
themselves the whole area that makes up your eye. And

1062
03:00:19.159 --> 03:00:27.079
as we count down for ten down to one, whilst

1063
03:00:27.319 --> 03:00:42.920
focusing on your eyes, you'll become twice is relaxed with

1064
03:00:43.319 --> 03:00:56.280
each number counting down, that you may find the all

1065
03:00:56.319 --> 03:01:02.559
we want to do is just drift off to sleep.

1066
03:01:05.559 --> 03:01:12.159
And if fact's what you want, then just allow yourself

1067
03:01:12.280 --> 03:01:26.920
to do that. Now, focusing on your eyes, I'm going

1068
03:01:27.040 --> 03:01:37.000
to begin counting down from ten down to one right now,

1069
03:01:45.559 --> 03:08:07.040
ten nine eight seven four.

1070
03:07:24.319 --> 03:08:09.440
Us three.

1071
03:10:49.879 --> 03:11:09.760
So counting down from ten to ten nine eight seven

1072
03:11:11.840 --> 03:11:34.440
six five four three two one. And maybe that was

1073
03:11:34.520 --> 03:11:38.680
a bit too quick in order to relax. Maybe it's

1074
03:11:38.680 --> 03:11:44.639
a bit too fast for you to notice the calming

1075
03:11:44.879 --> 03:11:51.719
of your body, maybe even a little bit of pressure there,

1076
03:11:51.879 --> 03:11:55.440
like you're counting down from ten to one. Would you

1077
03:11:55.559 --> 03:11:58.719
expect me to do? Man, expect me to just to

1078
03:11:58.799 --> 03:12:08.440
go with floppy just because you're counting down. I could

1079
03:12:08.479 --> 03:12:12.239
try it again, but this time I'll go this lower.

1080
03:12:14.440 --> 03:12:19.319
This time that you focus on the whole of your

1081
03:12:19.360 --> 03:12:27.719
body before we focus on your legs. Just notice how

1082
03:12:27.840 --> 03:12:41.920
your body does start to feel more relaxed with every

1083
03:12:42.079 --> 03:13:23.840
number that I count down ten nine, seven, six, five

1084
03:13:34.280 --> 03:14:33.440
four three one, And just notice how how you feel generally,

1085
03:14:33.879 --> 03:14:48.159
how your body feels. It's not necessarily even about counting

1086
03:14:48.319 --> 03:14:55.440
down from ten to one. It's that space that you have,

1087
03:14:56.760 --> 03:15:15.239
that space between being active physically or mentally to just

1088
03:15:19.959 --> 03:15:25.159
sitting or lying down, just being there, not doing anything,

1089
03:15:25.319 --> 03:15:30.079
not saying anything, or needing to think about anything.

1090
03:15:31.920 --> 03:15:35.559
So that opens up a space, you know, a bit

1091
03:15:35.639 --> 03:15:46.399
of a space, a gap. And the more I came

1092
03:15:46.520 --> 03:15:51.079
down from ten to one, the bigger that gap becomes.

1093
03:15:54.079 --> 03:16:00.479
So there's that gap of calmness, of comfort, really vexation.

1094
03:16:06.440 --> 03:16:18.760
It's a nice feeling, and it moves those stresses or

1095
03:16:19.319 --> 03:16:33.159
discomforts physically or emotionally, moves them away, allows you.

1096
03:16:35.879 --> 03:16:36.399
To just.

1097
03:16:39.399 --> 03:16:45.440
Slow down. So I'm going to count again from ten

1098
03:16:45.520 --> 03:16:53.879
down to one, and notice that gap widening, the gap,

1099
03:16:55.680 --> 03:17:00.280
And as it widens, it's almost like the stress and

1100
03:17:00.440 --> 03:17:18.040
attention falls into the gap and gives you that distance,

1101
03:17:20.040 --> 03:18:24.079
that space. Now ten nine eight seven, six, five four

1102
03:18:42.440 --> 03:19:36.040
three two one. Now, how did your body feel? Now?

1103
03:19:48.719 --> 03:20:00.559
Can you notice that do you feeling calmer. What are

1104
03:20:00.639 --> 03:20:29.360
you feeling more relaxed as we now focus on your legs,

1105
03:20:31.079 --> 03:20:51.520
just your legs. We're just gonna start with focusing on

1106
03:20:52.000 --> 03:21:11.120
your thighs. Of course, it's not the most exciting thing

1107
03:21:11.280 --> 03:21:17.840
to be doing, because I'm sure, like most of your

1108
03:21:17.879 --> 03:21:29.559
body is not a lot going on right now. Just

1109
03:21:29.719 --> 03:21:35.879
focusing on the whole of your thighs, the tops of

1110
03:21:35.959 --> 03:21:42.000
your thighs, the sides of your thighs, the bottoms of

1111
03:21:42.079 --> 03:21:49.079
your thighs, your outer thighs, and your inner thighs. Basically

1112
03:21:49.239 --> 03:21:52.920
the whole of your thigh that leads into your hip

1113
03:21:56.959 --> 03:22:07.719
and it goes down to your knee joints. Now, this

1114
03:22:07.920 --> 03:22:15.360
is a big area. It's a very heavy area. It's

1115
03:22:15.520 --> 03:22:21.920
very strong, probably the strongest muscles in your body or

1116
03:22:22.000 --> 03:22:38.360
in your thighs. But I don't think we perhaps give

1117
03:22:38.520 --> 03:22:51.719
enough attention to our thighs. Perhaps we don't acknowledge how

1118
03:22:51.840 --> 03:23:13.719
important our thighs are to our lives, how much they

1119
03:23:13.840 --> 03:23:27.239
actually do for us all through our lives. And it

1120
03:23:27.479 --> 03:23:33.399
may seem sound really weird, but I think that all

1121
03:23:33.559 --> 03:23:41.120
of our body parts, especially our thighs, needs some TLC,

1122
03:23:44.440 --> 03:23:57.079
a bit of love shown, a bit of acknowledgement. I

1123
03:23:57.280 --> 03:24:06.360
thank you gratitude for what our thighs do for us.

1124
03:24:12.920 --> 03:24:18.520
And I know this may sound a bit strange. Maybe

1125
03:24:18.559 --> 03:24:21.600
you think, why am I Surely I should be out

1126
03:24:22.079 --> 03:24:30.520
in the garden hugging a tree or something. Well, it's

1127
03:24:30.600 --> 03:24:33.840
hard to set a microphone up on a tree. That's

1128
03:24:33.879 --> 03:24:36.319
why I'm doing this indoors. Otherwise I wouldn't be outside

1129
03:24:36.399 --> 03:24:40.200
hugging a tree. I can't see the television from the tree.

1130
03:24:46.959 --> 03:24:51.200
If you move down to your knees gain such an

1131
03:24:51.280 --> 03:25:00.959
important part. And I think we don't necessarily I'll speak

1132
03:25:01.040 --> 03:25:08.360
for myself here. I don't necessarily appreciate all that my

1133
03:25:08.559 --> 03:25:13.719
needs do for me until I have a problem with

1134
03:25:13.840 --> 03:25:18.959
my knee. It's occasionally, if I ever maybe i'll pash it,

1135
03:25:19.280 --> 03:25:25.079
or it's aching for some reason. It's then that I

1136
03:25:25.280 --> 03:25:30.760
realize how much it does. You know, the benefit of

1137
03:25:30.879 --> 03:25:38.319
being able to use my legs without any kind of

1138
03:25:38.479 --> 03:25:46.799
physical discomfort is a beautiful thing that's possibly not appreciated

1139
03:25:46.959 --> 03:25:58.000
until it's temporarily removed. You know that's comfort. But as

1140
03:25:58.040 --> 03:26:03.399
you focus on your knees, regardless of how your knees feel,

1141
03:26:06.479 --> 03:26:12.239
you can have that sense of gratitude and love to

1142
03:26:12.319 --> 03:26:24.959
your knees for all that they do for you, and

1143
03:26:25.079 --> 03:26:28.719
you can still have that attention on your thighs and

1144
03:26:28.840 --> 03:26:35.040
maybe notice how your thighs feel. Maybe you've noticed that

1145
03:26:35.399 --> 03:26:54.079
they are relaxing more deeply as you focus now on

1146
03:26:54.200 --> 03:26:57.799
the bottoms of your legs and your shins and your

1147
03:26:57.879 --> 03:27:04.600
calf muscles, the bones between your knees and your feet,

1148
03:27:06.200 --> 03:27:17.680
incorporating of course, your ankles so important. You know, anyone

1149
03:27:17.760 --> 03:27:22.559
that's had even like the slightest sprain of an ankle

1150
03:27:23.760 --> 03:27:30.319
knows how how much we take our ankles for granted.

1151
03:27:36.200 --> 03:27:38.200
And it's kind of strange in a way when you

1152
03:27:38.319 --> 03:27:43.920
think that. You know, logically, our wrists are a lot

1153
03:27:44.040 --> 03:27:48.879
thinner than the rest of our arms, which is okay,

1154
03:27:49.000 --> 03:27:52.680
it doesn't I can't see any problem with that because

1155
03:27:52.719 --> 03:27:59.360
we're just picking stuff up. Our ankles so much thinner

1156
03:28:00.639 --> 03:28:09.239
then the rest of our legs, and from a physics

1157
03:28:09.280 --> 03:28:15.000
perspective or logical even it doesn't really make sense that

1158
03:28:15.159 --> 03:28:22.920
all this weight would ultimately be resting on your ankles

1159
03:28:24.040 --> 03:28:37.440
then leading to your feet. That thin area, thin bone. Yeah,

1160
03:28:37.520 --> 03:28:43.200
it does so much great work. Supports us, supports our

1161
03:28:43.319 --> 03:28:55.159
body for a lifetime, helps us to balance helps you

1162
03:28:55.360 --> 03:29:08.639
to get around, don't be mobile. And there's the calf muscles.

1163
03:29:08.680 --> 03:29:16.280
Of course, when I was younger, I couldn't see the

1164
03:29:16.360 --> 03:29:22.680
pointing calf muscles. Didn't seem to do anything. Okay, if

1165
03:29:22.760 --> 03:29:26.319
I walked around on tiptoes, then my calf muscles get

1166
03:29:26.360 --> 03:29:30.079
some work. But of course that's not true. The calf

1167
03:29:30.200 --> 03:29:39.840
muscles are being used whenever we use the legs and

1168
03:29:39.959 --> 03:29:52.520
your shins there to protect your lower legs, shaped in

1169
03:29:52.600 --> 03:30:05.120
a way, almost as a protector for the bone, leading

1170
03:30:06.520 --> 03:30:16.920
of course to your ankles and your feet. But we're

1171
03:30:16.920 --> 03:30:18.840
not going to focus on your feet. We're just going

1172
03:30:18.920 --> 03:30:25.280
to focus on the legs. I realize, and now that

1173
03:30:25.399 --> 03:30:29.799
I've mentioned your feet, you'll probably focusing on them anyway,

1174
03:30:30.360 --> 03:30:32.920
So maybe I should focus on your feet a little bit.

1175
03:30:36.959 --> 03:30:41.360
You can have them in your awareness, the same as

1176
03:30:41.440 --> 03:30:45.799
you have your thighs in your awareness. Even though we

1177
03:30:45.920 --> 03:30:51.920
haven't been focusing on your thighs a few minutes, I've

1178
03:30:51.920 --> 03:31:06.520
been focusing on your ankles. Still, that sensation of comfort

1179
03:31:09.239 --> 03:31:21.159
in your thighs in this that movement of energy, because

1180
03:31:21.200 --> 03:31:28.159
the thighs hold lots of different sensations. Of course, there's

1181
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the muscles, the big strong muscles that we have in

1182
03:31:33.079 --> 03:31:46.879
our thighs. But the skin on the outside of the thighs,

1183
03:31:47.920 --> 03:31:52.600
as in the outside of all of our body, can

1184
03:31:52.639 --> 03:32:10.639
be very sensitive, sensitive to attached, sensitive to temperature. And

1185
03:32:10.799 --> 03:32:19.200
inside your thighs the bones, there's the muscle, there's the blood, vessels,

1186
03:32:19.319 --> 03:32:25.159
the ar trees, to all this stuff inside your thighs,

1187
03:32:29.440 --> 03:32:32.639
and I guess sometimes it'd be nice if you could

1188
03:32:32.639 --> 03:32:38.000
actually put your fingers inside your thighs and a message,

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03:32:40.399 --> 03:32:43.920
so you can message on the outside, of course, but

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03:32:44.000 --> 03:32:47.120
to be able to get deep into the muscles and

1191
03:32:47.239 --> 03:32:52.360
to be able to just message inside your thighs, message

1192
03:32:52.399 --> 03:33:01.159
in the bones of your leg, message in or the veins,

1193
03:33:01.600 --> 03:33:12.000
just gently healing your thighs, and you could move down

1194
03:33:14.079 --> 03:33:19.120
message and inside your knees just message in those bones,

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03:33:20.120 --> 03:33:27.159
but with healing fingertips spreading that healing energy deep into

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03:33:27.280 --> 03:33:36.680
the choice of your knees. Of course, there's the back

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03:33:36.840 --> 03:33:41.879
of your your knee, you know, the inside crease where

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03:33:41.879 --> 03:33:49.360
your knee is. It's a very sensitive area. Very it

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03:33:49.399 --> 03:33:53.280
feels very nice when you stroke it. That might be

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03:33:53.440 --> 03:33:57.360
because it's an area that's not really touched very often.

1201
03:33:59.399 --> 03:34:05.600
It's all just like a hidden part that crease in

1202
03:34:05.719 --> 03:34:12.040
your legs. It's almost it's like a part that has

1203
03:34:12.120 --> 03:34:23.079
a sensitivity, which is a little bit different. Of course,

1204
03:34:23.159 --> 03:34:33.639
it's protected by your legs. So you can imagine putting

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03:34:34.520 --> 03:34:44.360
your fingers into that crease in your legs. Fold in

1206
03:34:44.479 --> 03:34:48.440
between your legs. You can just message with your fingertips.

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03:34:49.639 --> 03:34:56.399
Imagine your fingertips going inside, massage in the muscle tissue

1208
03:35:01.000 --> 03:35:07.200
you can cause Fielder the bones of your knees healing

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03:35:07.440 --> 03:35:20.120
through your fingertips. And then if you go down to

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03:35:20.239 --> 03:35:23.000
your calf muscles, and that's the part I'd like to

1211
03:35:23.040 --> 03:35:28.479
be able to really put my fingertips deep inside my

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03:35:28.680 --> 03:35:37.399
calf muscles, massage in every single tissue of that muscle,

1213
03:35:38.959 --> 03:35:48.879
healing every part, and then doing the same for my shins.

1214
03:35:52.079 --> 03:36:00.559
Massage in generally stroking the bones, generally stroking them in

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03:36:00.639 --> 03:36:07.840
a loving way, because they deserve to be treated as

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03:36:07.920 --> 03:36:11.920
the precious bones that they are, because our legs are

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03:36:12.000 --> 03:36:15.760
so precious as in all the other parts of our body,

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03:36:18.280 --> 03:36:32.159
the more precious of any chure on the planet. When

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03:36:32.200 --> 03:36:40.000
you start to think about your legs in this way,

1220
03:36:44.559 --> 03:36:51.239
it can change your perspective. It might sound a bit

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03:36:54.280 --> 03:36:58.600
a bit silly to start with the idea of having

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03:36:59.479 --> 03:37:09.479
love for your legs, showing appreciation for your thighs, wanting

1223
03:37:09.639 --> 03:37:13.520
to be able to put your hands in your thighs,

1224
03:37:15.760 --> 03:37:22.120
massage the muscles and the bones, and to get your

1225
03:37:22.239 --> 03:37:30.760
fingers deep in there, releasing all tension. Just to show

1226
03:37:32.639 --> 03:37:40.000
how much you care about your legs, how much you

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03:37:40.120 --> 03:37:48.680
care for what your legs do for you regularly, your knees,

1228
03:37:48.959 --> 03:38:01.760
your calves, your ankles, the strength of your ankles, considering

1229
03:38:02.000 --> 03:38:06.479
how thin they are compared to the rest of your legs,

1230
03:38:06.639 --> 03:38:20.319
especially your thighs. Yeah, they're so strong, so flexible, absolutely

1231
03:38:20.600 --> 03:38:32.399
amazing things. Your ankles are truly a gift because of

1232
03:38:32.479 --> 03:38:43.760
what they do for you, supporting all that weight, regardless

1233
03:38:43.799 --> 03:38:47.799
of how what weight you are, even if you only

1234
03:38:47.840 --> 03:38:52.639
eat ate stone, there's still a lot of weight for

1235
03:38:52.760 --> 03:38:59.879
these little ankles. Now I'm a lot heavier than eight stone.

1236
03:39:01.520 --> 03:39:10.639
Double down, get my ankles support my body all the time.

1237
03:39:14.399 --> 03:39:17.399
What they do give off a sigh of relief when

1238
03:39:17.440 --> 03:39:26.760
I sit down. That's my whole legs, though my feet

1239
03:39:28.000 --> 03:39:54.000
feel also go my toes clap so happy. Your legs

1240
03:39:55.920 --> 03:40:03.760
really are amazing, and I know that talking about talking

1241
03:40:03.799 --> 03:40:10.479
about your legs is probably possibly among the most most

1242
03:40:10.559 --> 03:40:18.239
boring things I've ever heard anyone say. Possibly or boring

1243
03:40:18.399 --> 03:40:26.559
or not, everything I said is true. Your legs are amazing.

1244
03:40:35.479 --> 03:40:48.360
Your legs deserve not just respect, they deserve to relax deeply.

1245
03:40:55.639 --> 03:40:58.959
They deserve to take some time out of the day

1246
03:41:01.200 --> 03:41:29.920
to just let go completely. Your legs really can relax.

1247
03:41:37.559 --> 03:41:41.680
And because the legs are so such a most, you know,

1248
03:41:41.920 --> 03:41:47.840
very important part of your body. When you relax your legs,

1249
03:41:47.959 --> 03:41:55.159
the rest of your body also naturally follows in that

1250
03:41:58.879 --> 03:42:09.719
journey of comfort. I can feel it in my hips.

1251
03:42:11.120 --> 03:42:18.239
My hips feel really loose, and also my lower back

1252
03:42:18.319 --> 03:42:24.920
as well. My lower back really feels it feels stretched,

1253
03:42:26.040 --> 03:42:29.079
even though I'm just sitting in a chair and there's

1254
03:42:29.200 --> 03:42:34.440
no stretching as far as I'm aware that I'm doing.

1255
03:42:35.440 --> 03:42:38.120
It's almost as if the muscles are just relaxed so

1256
03:42:38.360 --> 03:42:44.239
much that there is a natural stretch as the tension

1257
03:42:45.159 --> 03:43:06.399
has reduced a lot. And I'm now going to count

1258
03:43:06.479 --> 03:43:14.360
down from ten down to one, and you can continue

1259
03:43:16.200 --> 03:43:42.479
to fill wonderfully relaxed ten nine, eight, seven, six, five,

1260
03:43:47.120 --> 03:44:15.520
four three two relax. So I'm just going to count

1261
03:44:15.600 --> 03:44:20.639
down from five down to one, and as a countdown.

1262
03:44:21.959 --> 03:44:26.680
If you just focus on the numbers, just the numbers

1263
03:44:28.360 --> 03:44:37.319
counting down, and notice how you feel in this moment

1264
03:44:39.079 --> 03:44:43.479
as you hear the numbers counting down, knowing that those

1265
03:44:43.639 --> 03:44:56.680
numbers counting down represent you feeling calmer, not just in

1266
03:44:56.799 --> 03:45:05.319
your body, but also relaxing your mind. Just notice how

1267
03:45:05.399 --> 03:45:11.239
you feel. There's nothing to do, there's nothing to say,

1268
03:45:11.920 --> 03:45:38.719
there's nothing to think about, starting with number five, four, three,

1269
03:45:49.319 --> 03:46:14.399
two one. And as you notice the gradual letting go

1270
03:46:16.840 --> 03:46:23.760
of the tension in your body, you may also begin

1271
03:46:24.079 --> 03:46:30.040
to notice and be aware of how your mind is

1272
03:46:31.120 --> 03:46:38.959
starting to slow down. This is just a natural thing

1273
03:46:39.440 --> 03:46:46.840
that happens. It's not really a special procedure. It's just

1274
03:46:47.040 --> 03:46:53.239
natural because as your body relaxes, your mind also starts

1275
03:46:53.319 --> 03:46:58.000
to relax. And the more your mind relaxes, the more

1276
03:46:58.040 --> 03:47:03.280
your body relaxes. It's just a continuous circle of relaxation.

1277
03:47:09.319 --> 03:47:17.840
And is that calmness that comes from relative quietness. You know,

1278
03:47:18.000 --> 03:47:23.600
even even if there's background sounds either your side, online,

1279
03:47:25.319 --> 03:47:31.239
it's still going to be quite calm. You know, you

1280
03:47:31.319 --> 03:47:36.520
haven't got the television on, there's no music in the background,

1281
03:47:36.600 --> 03:47:39.280
unless you're listening to the recorded with music of course

1282
03:47:44.120 --> 03:47:46.280
you're very likely not going to be sitting in a

1283
03:47:46.399 --> 03:47:49.520
room with other people. Of course you might be, but

1284
03:47:50.840 --> 03:47:54.079
generally it's more ideal if you can do this on

1285
03:47:54.200 --> 03:48:05.520
your own, so no distractions, and when you stop thinking

1286
03:48:05.600 --> 03:48:22.760
about stuff, relaxation automatically rises. The sense of comfort starts

1287
03:48:22.840 --> 03:48:31.600
to grow, and without trying to build it up into

1288
03:48:31.680 --> 03:48:43.799
something fantastical or something magical, this is just a natural process,

1289
03:48:46.159 --> 03:48:56.840
something that's easy to accomplish. In fact, it's almost you know,

1290
03:48:57.000 --> 03:49:03.840
the sense of relaxing completely happens really when you put

1291
03:49:04.000 --> 03:49:07.879
no effort into it. It's not something that you can

1292
03:49:08.000 --> 03:49:19.600
really force. It's something that happens naturally. And part of

1293
03:49:20.040 --> 03:49:30.239
the process of this recording and others is simply two

1294
03:49:31.840 --> 03:49:42.200
allow you to take advantage of this space, this time,

1295
03:49:45.239 --> 03:49:56.120
to just let go, to just be here, to be

1296
03:49:56.760 --> 03:50:10.159
in tune with how you feel, yet with the intention

1297
03:50:12.399 --> 03:50:23.879
of wanting to relax deeply and maybe even to fall asleep,

1298
03:50:25.040 --> 03:50:30.200
depending on what it is that you wish for yourself

1299
03:50:31.959 --> 03:50:47.040
in this moment. As we know, relaxing is the majority

1300
03:50:48.280 --> 03:50:52.719
of the process of falling asleep. The actual falling asleep

1301
03:50:52.799 --> 03:51:01.479
part is the tiny bit at the end. The deeper relaxed,

1302
03:51:01.840 --> 03:51:23.360
you become the easier you find yourself drifting. But you

1303
03:51:23.440 --> 03:51:30.440
can also if you choose stay focused on my voice

1304
03:51:32.159 --> 03:52:03.680
and really enjoy the process, gradually relaxing each muscle in

1305
03:52:03.840 --> 03:52:31.120
your body effortlessly and just observing the sensation of letting

1306
03:52:31.319 --> 03:52:46.920
go completely. This time, I'm going to count from six

1307
03:52:47.959 --> 03:52:59.879
down to one, and you can notice your mind calming

1308
03:53:00.319 --> 03:53:12.840
down more with each number that you hear me say, naturally,

1309
03:53:13.920 --> 03:55:26.600
feeling calm and slower and peaceful. Sex fivehhhh, four, three, two,

1310
03:56:16.559 --> 03:56:26.159
being aware of how your mind to slowed right down,

1311
03:56:29.399 --> 03:56:52.799
sinking deeply into relaxation. And as you focus on your mind,

1312
03:56:53.079 --> 03:57:05.920
you may notice that the some thoughts still there, maybe

1313
03:57:06.079 --> 03:57:15.879
some stubborn thoughts that for some reason perhaps need your attention.

1314
03:57:22.760 --> 03:57:31.639
That's what you can do. Send love to those thoughts.

1315
03:57:34.920 --> 03:57:45.799
Sprinkle those thoughts with love, my little petals from a flower.

1316
03:57:46.840 --> 03:57:53.719
Just sprinkle it over them, petals filled with love towards

1317
03:57:53.879 --> 03:58:01.159
those thoughts. To let those thoughts murder. You're not abandon

1318
03:58:01.319 --> 03:58:09.520
the number. You just need them. You require them to

1319
03:58:09.799 --> 03:58:17.559
just calm down, slow down, quiet down.

1320
03:58:21.239 --> 03:58:21.639
For now.

1321
03:58:29.520 --> 03:58:34.520
So as you focus on those remaining thoughts. As we

1322
03:58:34.719 --> 03:58:39.959
count down this time from seven, down to one. With

1323
03:58:40.079 --> 03:58:54.000
each number, just imagine sprinkling those flower petals of love, kindness,

1324
03:58:55.600 --> 03:59:07.079
gratitude over the those thoughts, which will allow them to

1325
03:59:07.399 --> 03:59:23.280
just melt away and relax deeply. With every number, those

1326
03:59:23.479 --> 04:00:32.639
thoughts will become more and more relaxed. Starting with number seven, six, five, four,

1327
04:00:58.600 --> 04:02:19.920
three four, And as you now notice how relaxed you're

1328
04:02:20.120 --> 04:02:39.840
feeling in your body, we're going to focus on your hands,

1329
04:02:45.680 --> 04:02:52.000
because the more relaxed your hands are, the more relaxed

1330
04:02:52.200 --> 04:03:13.200
your body and mind are. There's you focus on your

1331
04:03:13.399 --> 04:03:23.600
hands and your fingers. There's nothing needed to be done.

1332
04:03:24.600 --> 04:03:29.639
There's no clenching of fists or dents in the fingers

1333
04:03:29.799 --> 04:03:43.360
or anything like that. It's just noticing and focusing on

1334
04:03:43.559 --> 04:04:11.719
your hands, noticing how they feel. Because the more relaxed

1335
04:04:12.159 --> 04:04:21.879
your hands feel, the calmer your mind feels, and the

1336
04:04:22.200 --> 04:04:30.280
more comfort you feel throughout your body.

1337
04:04:36.239 --> 04:04:39.319
You may.

1338
04:04:41.600 --> 04:05:24.280
Have already noticed you mind is starting to drift. Fix

1339
04:05:24.559 --> 04:05:39.840
him just on your hands and fingers, allowing them cheap

1340
04:05:42.000 --> 04:05:53.399
experience a real deepening of that relaxation in your hands

1341
04:05:53.520 --> 04:06:19.600
and fingers, more and more relaxed. With each number from

1342
04:06:19.799 --> 04:06:33.120
eight down to one, you can almost feel that healing

1343
04:06:34.600 --> 04:06:46.479
and relaxing, energy spreading into your hands and fingers, becoming

1344
04:06:50.840 --> 04:07:11.280
e more relaxing, with each number going down, eight down

1345
04:07:12.040 --> 04:09:22.840
to one, drifting, drifting again starting with number eight seven f.

1346
04:10:07.719 --> 04:10:07.959
Three.

1347
04:11:27.760 --> 04:11:37.079
Just being here now, nothing to think about, nothing to do,

1348
04:11:38.680 --> 04:11:52.959
nothing to say, and everything just feels calmer. This is

1349
04:11:54.079 --> 04:12:00.840
your natural state of being. This is how you just

1350
04:12:01.959 --> 04:12:07.719
normally feel when you take away all of that other

1351
04:12:08.120 --> 04:12:15.559
stuff that we add, you know, thinks like stress and worry,

1352
04:12:15.680 --> 04:12:31.399
in and overthinking, anxiety, tension, just generally thinking about stuff.

1353
04:12:33.639 --> 04:12:37.559
You take that away, which is what we do. What

1354
04:12:37.680 --> 04:12:50.079
we do now you're left with a real sense of

1355
04:12:50.959 --> 04:13:03.360
peacefulness which comes to you very quickly, because ultimately it's

1356
04:13:03.639 --> 04:13:17.079
just a feeling, a feeling and comfort. It's almost as

1357
04:13:17.120 --> 04:13:21.239
if you've gone inside yourself and you've found a special

1358
04:13:21.360 --> 04:13:35.000
place where everything is peaceful, a place where you can

1359
04:13:35.200 --> 04:13:45.799
film relaxed and joy natural sense of comfort, a place

1360
04:13:45.840 --> 04:13:54.680
where you can be here, where you can accept yourself

1361
04:13:55.639 --> 04:14:00.760
and who you are, the place where I'm not trying

1362
04:14:00.799 --> 04:14:11.159
to please anybody else ever, A place where you can

1363
04:14:12.920 --> 04:14:21.639
actually not just love yourself, but in some ways more importantly,

1364
04:14:22.239 --> 04:14:39.319
you can like yourself, appreciate who you are, that sense

1365
04:14:39.440 --> 04:14:53.120
of gratitude. He's in the air way around you. That's

1366
04:14:53.200 --> 04:15:01.559
also a place where you can actually feel the healing

1367
04:15:02.120 --> 04:15:17.000
energy soaking into your body. Healing energy soaking into your body.

1368
04:15:22.120 --> 04:15:31.520
That healing energy spreads through your veins, traveling to each

1369
04:15:33.000 --> 04:15:43.799
every single part of your body, and you start to

1370
04:15:43.959 --> 04:15:51.520
realize that actually that healing energy, it's not just entered

1371
04:15:51.600 --> 04:16:03.079
into your brain, it's become part of your brain and

1372
04:16:03.239 --> 04:16:09.719
the spinal fluid who is now mixed with healing energy,

1373
04:16:14.959 --> 04:16:21.200
not just allowing you to feel so much more relaxed

1374
04:16:23.280 --> 04:16:35.280
and healthy in this moment, but also you start to

1375
04:16:35.440 --> 04:16:46.280
realize that actually what's happening now without healing, relaxing energy

1376
04:16:47.200 --> 04:16:59.159
spreading through your body, is actually changing your life. It's

1377
04:16:59.239 --> 04:17:04.760
actually changing the way you're going to feel not just now,

1378
04:17:06.600 --> 04:17:13.399
but tomorrow and the next day. As your health improves,

1379
04:17:17.000 --> 04:17:24.319
not just your physical health, but your mental health. Things

1380
04:17:24.719 --> 04:17:29.959
that used to bother you in the past, for some reason,

1381
04:17:31.159 --> 04:17:38.719
no longer have the effect that they used to because

1382
04:17:38.840 --> 04:17:50.600
something's changed deep within you. Maybe things that used to

1383
04:17:52.840 --> 04:18:02.280
cause you to feel anger no longer have that power

1384
04:18:05.159 --> 04:18:10.239
to control you the way they seem to be able

1385
04:18:10.319 --> 04:18:21.280
to before. As you realize that you're the one who

1386
04:18:21.440 --> 04:18:35.719
decides what affects you. You're the one who decides to

1387
04:18:35.959 --> 04:18:48.840
feel relaxed and calm when you choose to enjoy noticing

1388
04:18:49.959 --> 04:19:04.559
these natural developments of healing continue to grow and improve

1389
04:19:04.959 --> 04:19:15.959
your life day by day, including of course, your ability

1390
04:19:18.040 --> 04:19:33.159
to relax so much easier and sleeping. It's the most

1391
04:19:33.399 --> 04:19:44.399
natural thing in the world to you because falling asleep

1392
04:19:44.600 --> 04:19:52.959
is something that you've done so many times in your life,

1393
04:19:56.200 --> 04:19:59.879
and you know that you were born, as we all

1394
04:20:00.079 --> 04:20:10.959
where with the ability to fall asleep naturally. We're born

1395
04:20:12.319 --> 04:20:22.760
with that ability to just drift off into a deep,

1396
04:20:24.040 --> 04:20:35.840
healing sleep. Even when we're kids, sometimes will fall asleep

1397
04:20:35.879 --> 04:20:40.760
and we don't even want to try to us stay awake.

1398
04:20:42.120 --> 04:20:45.559
Maybe it's a birthday in the morning, or it's Christmas

1399
04:20:45.799 --> 04:20:49.559
or holiday or something we look forward to. We don't

1400
04:20:49.600 --> 04:20:54.239
want to go to sleep. But the more we want

1401
04:20:54.280 --> 04:20:59.399
to stay awake, the more we just start to drift.

1402
04:21:03.600 --> 04:21:08.120
And the more you fight drifting, we try to stop

1403
04:21:08.200 --> 04:21:15.079
yourself and drifting asleep, the deeper and stronger that drifting becomes.

1404
04:21:22.000 --> 04:21:27.319
Because we're born not just with the need to relax

1405
04:21:27.479 --> 04:21:35.840
deeply and to naturally fall asleep, but it's our birthright,

1406
04:21:39.239 --> 04:21:49.600
it's part of our DNA, and sometimes as we get

1407
04:21:49.680 --> 04:22:03.559
older in life, perhaps at times we have forgotten relaxing completely.

1408
04:22:05.319 --> 04:22:18.680
It's not only a wonderfully pleasant experience, it's also really easy.

1409
04:22:30.040 --> 04:22:37.520
It's very very easy to let go, because that's all

1410
04:22:37.600 --> 04:22:37.920
it is.

1411
04:22:38.079 --> 04:22:38.559
It is just.

1412
04:22:42.079 --> 04:22:53.479
Deciding to let go. And when you press the play

1413
04:22:53.600 --> 04:23:03.840
button on my recordings, you have given permission for my

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04:23:04.079 --> 04:23:13.479
voice to relaction. When you press that play button, you've

1415
04:23:13.559 --> 04:23:24.879
given me permission for my words to effect. You're in

1416
04:23:25.040 --> 04:23:41.799
a positive, only a positive way, opening up your mind

1417
04:23:43.639 --> 04:24:04.360
to useful and healing suggestions that can have such an

1418
04:24:04.440 --> 04:24:16.719
amazing effect on how you feel right now, as well

1419
04:24:19.479 --> 04:24:27.360
as those changes that continue long after the recording ends,

1420
04:24:29.120 --> 04:24:38.239
those changes within you that continue to flourish and grow,

1421
04:24:42.760 --> 04:24:56.399
transforming your life in a positive, beautiful way, allowing you

1422
04:24:57.040 --> 04:25:03.280
to move forward in your life in the direction that

1423
04:25:03.639 --> 04:25:20.799
you choose for yourself. And this feeling, this feeling that

1424
04:25:21.000 --> 04:25:37.159
you can experience a safety, comfort, calmness, just feels so nice.

1425
04:25:46.440 --> 04:25:59.159
It's such a healthy place to be, and that positivity

1426
04:26:00.520 --> 04:26:19.520
prows within you each and every day. Moving forward, you're

1427
04:26:19.639 --> 04:26:30.479
going to find that you're more relaxed physically and in

1428
04:26:30.600 --> 04:26:39.399
your mind is more relaxed. And it's not that you're

1429
04:26:39.600 --> 04:26:45.280
thinking slower, it's just that your mind will be less

1430
04:26:46.079 --> 04:26:57.639
clogged up with unnecessary negativity because from now on, your

1431
04:26:57.840 --> 04:27:07.559
mind rejects negativity. From now on, you're going to start

1432
04:27:07.840 --> 04:27:24.120
noticing when negativity arises, and you can just say stop, stop,

1433
04:27:27.000 --> 04:27:33.760
and then negativity will turn around and leave you alone.

1434
04:27:41.760 --> 04:28:01.079
Stop and then negativity will disappear. And that you notice

1435
04:28:01.360 --> 04:28:09.719
that you feel way more relaxed than you probably expected.

1436
04:28:15.879 --> 04:28:24.680
You can now congratulate yourself because you are the person

1437
04:28:25.360 --> 04:28:30.959
that has done this. You are the one that has

1438
04:28:31.200 --> 04:28:39.040
opened your mind up to the simple facts that you

1439
04:28:39.360 --> 04:28:44.639
can feel more relaxed in your body and in your mind.

1440
04:28:50.879 --> 04:28:56.959
You've opened your mind up to the birthright of being.

1441
04:28:56.799 --> 04:28:57.559
Able to just.

1442
04:29:00.239 --> 04:29:15.079
Fall asleep easily when you choose. And that's a nice feeling.

1443
04:29:16.680 --> 04:29:24.959
Don't you think it feels nice? Doesn't it? To feel

1444
04:29:26.440 --> 04:29:31.840
calm full, that healing energy is spreading through your body

1445
04:29:33.000 --> 04:29:44.760
in your mind to spend time in a special place

1446
04:29:45.159 --> 04:30:00.120
where negativity can no longer enter. Negativity is batter and

1447
04:30:01.280 --> 04:30:08.760
it's barred, it's not allowed entry. Doesn't it doesn't This

1448
04:30:09.280 --> 04:30:17.120
doesn't deserve to be here. It doesn't belong here. Negativity

1449
04:30:17.360 --> 04:30:31.479
has no place in your life, which makes room for

1450
04:30:31.840 --> 04:31:03.319
more comfort, more healing, more relaxation, more peace. It feels nice,

1451
04:31:03.440 --> 04:31:03.840
doesn't it.

1452
04:31:05.680 --> 04:31:09.799
Just let go.

1453
04:31:11.799 --> 04:31:31.680
With everything. I'm gonna count down now from twenty down

1454
04:31:31.760 --> 04:31:41.120
to one. You can continue to relax. If you choose,

1455
04:31:41.600 --> 04:31:55.120
you can drift to sleep with every number you hear

1456
04:31:55.280 --> 04:32:06.840
me say you can fill twice as relaxed, or if

1457
04:32:06.879 --> 04:33:25.720
you choose, you can fill twice sleeping now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen,

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04:33:32.319 --> 04:34:32.119
two eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five.

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04:35:00.119 --> 04:35:00.159
On.

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04:35:12.319 --> 04:35:22.119
This is your time to just take a break, your

1461
04:35:22.319 --> 04:35:33.040
time to relax, to allow your mind to slow down,

1462
04:35:41.720 --> 04:35:55.759
to give yourself a permission to take a break from everything.

1463
04:36:00.599 --> 04:36:08.000
Ensure the only person that can make that decision. You're

1464
04:36:08.040 --> 04:36:16.599
the only person that can actually tell your mind just relax,

1465
04:36:24.759 --> 04:36:40.360
to just take some time off so that you can

1466
04:36:41.119 --> 04:36:46.520
focus on your body, get in touch with how you

1467
04:36:46.720 --> 04:37:03.599
feel physically, and in the process of this body scan

1468
04:37:04.000 --> 04:37:14.439
where you focus on different parts of your body, those

1469
04:37:14.759 --> 04:37:21.919
parts that you focus on and observe even though you're

1470
04:37:22.040 --> 04:37:30.840
not purposely requesting for those parts of your body to relax.

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04:37:33.080 --> 04:37:39.439
It's kind of expected. You expect when you listen to

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04:37:39.599 --> 04:37:52.279
my voice to feel more relaxed naturally, because when you're

1473
04:37:52.319 --> 04:38:02.560
listening to me, your attention is focus on my words,

1474
04:38:07.520 --> 04:38:18.400
and as my words guide you to focus on those

1475
04:38:18.639 --> 04:38:36.759
parts of your body, your focus increases, which actually calms

1476
04:38:36.919 --> 04:38:57.000
your mind. And when your mind calms down, your body relaxes.

1477
04:39:04.520 --> 04:39:05.319
And when your.

1478
04:39:05.240 --> 04:39:29.040
Body calms down, your mind relaxes. And even though we've

1479
04:39:29.159 --> 04:39:37.959
not really started to focus on your body, you can

1480
04:39:38.680 --> 04:39:54.000
already feel that healing energy spreading through your body, pushing

1481
04:39:54.279 --> 04:40:08.479
out stress and healing all the parts of your body,

1482
04:40:10.439 --> 04:40:18.080
including your skin, your bones, your blood, all of your

1483
04:40:18.200 --> 04:40:24.000
walkings inside your body, all of the muscles, all of

1484
04:40:24.119 --> 04:40:31.520
the fat, all of everything, every hair on your body

1485
04:40:33.759 --> 04:40:45.080
is filled with that healing energy. And when your brain

1486
04:40:49.720 --> 04:41:08.639
fills with that healing energy, the feeling of comfort relaxation increases,

1487
04:41:16.080 --> 04:41:33.680
deeply increases in a way that your mind starts to

1488
04:41:33.880 --> 04:41:50.000
fill perhaps been drowsing because it's not needed, and it

1489
04:41:50.240 --> 04:42:09.400
may start to drift if that's what's needed. So if

1490
04:42:09.439 --> 04:42:16.639
you're listening to this and what you need is deep relaxation, that's.

1491
04:42:16.479 --> 04:42:20.720
What you get. If what you need is.

1492
04:42:22.439 --> 04:42:29.400
To fall asleep naturally and easily, that your mind drifts.

1493
04:42:31.919 --> 04:42:45.680
That's also what will happen because by pressing a play

1494
04:42:45.799 --> 04:42:52.080
button on the podcast and listening to me give permission

1495
04:42:54.119 --> 04:43:04.680
your body and your mind. In fact, you give the

1496
04:43:04.840 --> 04:43:13.720
command to your body and your mind to relax deeply

1497
04:43:17.680 --> 04:43:22.520
and to drift off to sleep. If that's what you

1498
04:43:23.360 --> 04:43:38.880
want or need. Then as I focus on the different

1499
04:43:39.040 --> 04:43:49.880
parts of your body, you may start to just drift.

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04:43:53.959 --> 04:43:57.240
And then you come back again and you hear me

1501
04:43:57.479 --> 04:44:01.799
talk again, and I'm focusing on a different part of

1502
04:44:01.880 --> 04:44:16.000
your body, you may find yourself drifting, be able to

1503
04:44:16.119 --> 04:44:23.840
realize you're drifting until you stop drifting. Drew a laugh

1504
04:44:24.000 --> 04:44:30.840
again to my voice. Focusing on a different part of

1505
04:44:30.959 --> 04:44:40.840
your body starts to relax even deeper, because that drifting,

1506
04:44:42.479 --> 04:44:54.880
it's basically here already in the sleep zone. And the

1507
04:44:55.000 --> 04:45:04.759
more you drift, the longer you drift. Longer you drift. Eventually,

1508
04:45:06.560 --> 04:45:16.400
that drifting continues into sleep, and that's the last you

1509
04:45:16.560 --> 04:45:27.119
remember until you wake up in your own time. When

1510
04:45:27.200 --> 04:45:31.680
you experience the right amount of sleep, fear.

1511
04:45:35.400 --> 04:45:36.360
Because when you do.

1512
04:45:38.200 --> 04:45:48.159
And if you do fall asleep, it's extremely pleasant. So

1513
04:45:48.520 --> 04:46:11.680
relaxing so deep here sleep, I feel so nice to

1514
04:46:11.880 --> 04:46:21.560
relax scenes in your own body and mind. If you

1515
04:46:21.799 --> 04:46:29.560
feel that heating imagy is spreading through it, relaxing, use

1516
04:46:29.759 --> 04:46:54.159
so deeply, relaxse so deeply to start to focus on

1517
04:46:54.360 --> 04:47:25.680
your eyes, moving down, toto down till back, you shoulders

1518
04:47:33.080 --> 04:48:29.119
a thingus, You're chest, stomach, your back, spine, your hips,

1519
04:48:37.000 --> 04:49:25.000
your legs, faint, your series, spreading grime inside your body,

1520
04:49:26.919 --> 04:49:38.520
feeling you up. Now let's focus again on parts of

1521
04:49:38.599 --> 04:49:53.000
your body, focusing this time on your forehead. Now on

1522
04:49:53.159 --> 04:50:01.680
your mouth, your lips, your tongue, m hm, the whole

1523
04:50:01.759 --> 04:50:23.880
of your mouth. Focusing on your fingers. Maybe you could

1524
04:50:25.479 --> 04:50:29.360
move your fingers a little bits. You can focus on

1525
04:50:29.599 --> 04:50:44.080
each one individually, both hands, and even though it should

1526
04:50:44.119 --> 04:50:49.599
focus on both of your hands, now they almost seemed

1527
04:50:49.639 --> 04:50:57.799
to just melt into one. Where is your right hand

1528
04:50:58.040 --> 04:51:09.119
starting left and the mast as if just mixed together.

1529
04:51:14.639 --> 04:51:25.919
Now focusing on your knees, just noticing how your knees hell.

1530
04:51:42.680 --> 04:51:50.240
Now focusing on your elbows, focusing on both your elbows

1531
04:51:56.560 --> 04:52:31.959
just absurd a few hows now like you say, I'm sorry,

1532
04:52:34.080 --> 04:53:26.080
I can get back energy back, can back obside echoes.

1533
04:53:39.639 --> 04:54:45.080
It's a good of sensation of echoes, not to say

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04:54:50.880 --> 04:54:56.560
tis fam.

1535
04:55:03.000 --> 04:55:03.759
Being with.

1536
04:55:05.799 --> 04:55:06.000
Hell.

1537
04:55:08.319 --> 04:55:59.439
Your toes feel right now, ninety cents, how you aren't.

1538
04:56:00.080 --> 04:56:48.479
My body feels noticing, your mind feels now. Letting go,

1539
04:56:57.279 --> 04:57:38.639
letting go, letsing go everything, letting go, letting go, letsing

1540
04:57:39.360 --> 04:58:06.159
go everything everything. I'm going to start now, and i'd

1541
04:58:06.279 --> 04:58:08.599
like you just, first of all, just to see yourself

1542
04:58:10.119 --> 04:58:16.319
lying down on that message table, lying on your front.

1543
04:58:17.560 --> 04:58:25.560
Your head is supported, your arms are supported, and you

1544
04:58:25.639 --> 04:58:32.279
feel comfortable, and breathing is really easy, and you feel

1545
04:58:35.799 --> 04:58:38.799
you feel confident in how you look as well. So

1546
04:58:39.200 --> 04:58:43.360
there's none of that issue of body problems or shyness

1547
04:58:44.279 --> 04:58:52.400
because I'm a professional and this is a therapy session,

1548
04:58:53.200 --> 04:59:00.599
so none of that stuff matters on whatsoever. This is

1549
04:59:00.680 --> 04:59:07.959
about you. This is about how you feel and how

1550
04:59:08.799 --> 04:59:15.959
you can enjoy that sense of comfort and relaxation that

1551
04:59:16.159 --> 04:59:22.720
comes from letting go and allowing my hands and my

1552
04:59:22.880 --> 04:59:35.200
fingers to relax you by messaging your body. So I

1553
04:59:35.319 --> 04:59:40.279
want to start off just by placing my hands on

1554
04:59:40.400 --> 04:59:44.959
the back of your head, just gently, just you can

1555
04:59:45.119 --> 04:59:54.040
feel my hands feel like really on you, so you

1556
04:59:54.119 --> 04:59:56.360
can maybe feel the warmth of my hands on the

1557
04:59:56.400 --> 05:00:02.119
back of your head. With my hands to the side

1558
05:00:02.159 --> 05:00:06.799
of your head, not pressing, but just holding that very gently,

1559
05:00:09.759 --> 05:00:12.360
maybe over your ears, and a little bit on your

1560
05:00:12.439 --> 05:00:19.240
face so you can feel my hands so you can

1561
05:00:19.319 --> 05:00:32.520
become accustomed to them. And now put my hands on

1562
05:00:32.599 --> 05:00:36.840
the back of your head again and gently let them

1563
05:00:36.959 --> 05:00:49.319
slide down onto the back of your neck. You can

1564
05:00:49.400 --> 05:00:59.479
feel my hands gently stroking the back of your neck

1565
05:01:00.240 --> 05:01:08.040
with just so you can get used to the the

1566
05:01:08.200 --> 05:01:11.759
feeling of my hands on your skin, get accustomed to

1567
05:01:15.759 --> 05:01:20.639
realize that you're safe and it's all good, it's all fine.

1568
05:01:27.040 --> 05:01:31.119
And I'm going to start gently messaging the muscles in

1569
05:01:31.240 --> 05:01:47.040
the back of your neck with both hands. And this

1570
05:01:47.200 --> 05:01:53.439
is a very trusting situation, really, because our next is

1571
05:01:53.520 --> 05:01:58.680
so fragile and to have someone have their hands around

1572
05:01:58.759 --> 05:02:03.880
your neck in that way can sometimes be problematic for people,

1573
05:02:05.119 --> 05:02:09.599
which is why massages are quite good, because it allows

1574
05:02:09.639 --> 05:02:19.599
you to relax and to get in touch with trust,

1575
05:02:23.880 --> 05:02:36.479
to feel peaceful and calm. There's a massage the sides

1576
05:02:36.560 --> 05:02:44.560
of your neck, gently moving from the bottom of your neck.

1577
05:02:46.319 --> 05:02:48.799
It would be sort of near where your shoulders start,

1578
05:02:48.880 --> 05:02:55.560
I guess, all the way up to your jaw, your

1579
05:02:55.639 --> 05:03:02.119
ears kind of area, the side of your neck. Of course,

1580
05:03:02.159 --> 05:03:04.680
it's a lot longer than the front of your neck.

1581
05:03:17.720 --> 05:03:24.759
The message in the back of your neck, especially that

1582
05:03:25.000 --> 05:03:34.439
area where perhaps we hold tension, and there's that area's message.

1583
05:03:34.799 --> 05:03:38.880
You can actually feel a sense of release in the

1584
05:03:38.959 --> 05:03:46.840
back of your neck and maybe you can breathe it

1585
05:03:46.959 --> 05:03:52.880
out as well. Notice how it feels, Notice how you feel.

1586
05:04:02.680 --> 05:04:06.279
And they're moving down to that area between your neck

1587
05:04:06.360 --> 05:04:16.119
and your shoulders, that muscle area, starting to message that

1588
05:04:16.319 --> 05:04:20.599
area on both sides. I mean, this would be the

1589
05:04:20.720 --> 05:04:23.520
area that a lot of people would message if they

1590
05:04:23.560 --> 05:04:28.360
were going to give you, like a shoulder message. Even

1591
05:04:28.479 --> 05:04:32.439
that's not technically the shoulders, but it's all the muscles

1592
05:04:32.439 --> 05:04:38.520
that lead to the shoulders from the neck and a

1593
05:04:38.599 --> 05:04:44.560
game that can hold tension and stress. And when massaged

1594
05:04:45.479 --> 05:04:52.720
sometimes a nice deep message is useful, and you decide

1595
05:04:52.880 --> 05:05:10.080
how deep that message is, and just allow my knuckles

1596
05:05:11.200 --> 05:05:15.279
just to dig in to get to those muscles and

1597
05:05:15.400 --> 05:05:25.560
to really relaxed and all the time being firm yet

1598
05:05:26.000 --> 05:05:45.319
gentle with you and just stroking down the area to

1599
05:05:45.479 --> 05:05:51.400
your actual shoulders, moving to the muscles of your shoulders

1600
05:05:57.400 --> 05:06:02.200
and maybe initially just pulling up the shoulders a little

1601
05:06:02.240 --> 05:06:05.680
bit off the table, just to give you a little

1602
05:06:05.720 --> 05:06:16.119
bit of a stretch, but very gently. And you've got

1603
05:06:16.159 --> 05:06:19.759
the muscles at the front of your shoulders, the sides

1604
05:06:20.000 --> 05:06:30.560
and the back. Again, this is a part that can

1605
05:06:30.720 --> 05:06:35.919
really take quite a bit of pressure, quite a bit

1606
05:06:35.959 --> 05:06:46.200
of needing if if you wish to really release the

1607
05:06:46.360 --> 05:06:54.680
tension to really get into those muscles, and you can

1608
05:06:54.759 --> 05:06:58.959
let your fingers in there. They can feel really nice.

1609
05:07:00.919 --> 05:07:08.479
Sometimes it's just being stroked gently or being messaged quite strongly,

1610
05:07:12.279 --> 05:07:22.200
can all be beneficial to the reorversation with the muscles

1611
05:07:22.240 --> 05:07:41.919
in your shoulders. Now you move down your arms. Were

1612
05:07:41.959 --> 05:07:45.959
doing one arm at a time, Starting with your right arm.

1613
05:07:52.520 --> 05:07:56.159
What I'll do is I just lift your arm up,

1614
05:07:57.080 --> 05:08:02.159
just hold it to the side of you, but where

1615
05:08:02.159 --> 05:08:08.639
it still be attached, and not just message the tops

1616
05:08:08.720 --> 05:08:22.080
of your arms all the way down to your forearms

1617
05:08:24.840 --> 05:08:48.720
into your wrists, gently messaging that part, the softer part,

1618
05:08:48.840 --> 05:08:55.479
which is the underpart of the arm, which leads to

1619
05:08:55.599 --> 05:09:02.119
the crease in your rowbo the inside much more sensitive skin.

1620
05:09:11.799 --> 05:09:21.919
Sometimes just having that stroked I feel really nice, pleasurable

1621
05:09:22.200 --> 05:09:41.319
and relaxing. Now moving down to your right hand, just

1622
05:09:41.520 --> 05:09:53.919
holding your hand in both of my hands, just pressing

1623
05:09:54.080 --> 05:10:00.759
gently on the back of your hand, stretching your fingers

1624
05:10:02.840 --> 05:10:12.000
ever slightly at the same time pressing down and messaging

1625
05:10:12.720 --> 05:10:25.400
each finger, and then starting to massage the palms of

1626
05:10:25.520 --> 05:10:43.360
their hand. Just turning the hand, stretching it gently and

1627
05:10:43.479 --> 05:10:49.520
actually having your hand held can really be an emotional

1628
05:10:49.639 --> 05:10:56.720
experience sometimes even if it is a stranger. So when

1629
05:10:56.759 --> 05:11:00.840
you don't know very well, like a message much person

1630
05:11:01.119 --> 05:11:14.880
or a therapist, maybe because it's intimate, you can feel nice,

1631
05:11:17.520 --> 05:11:27.799
you can feel safe. And as I put that right

1632
05:11:28.080 --> 05:11:36.400
arm back down where it was, gonna do the same

1633
05:11:36.560 --> 05:11:48.119
with your left arm exactly the same, massagy and the

1634
05:11:48.279 --> 05:11:53.759
muscles in your arm all the way down to your wrist,

1635
05:11:57.919 --> 05:12:07.720
stroking the inside of your arm, just being gentle or

1636
05:12:07.799 --> 05:12:21.720
as firm as you require, and then massaging your left hand,

1637
05:12:28.279 --> 05:12:38.319
stretching the fingers gently, massaging the palm of your left hand.

1638
05:12:50.479 --> 05:13:18.560
You feel so so relaxing, so comforting, and I just

1639
05:13:18.759 --> 05:13:30.599
rest your left arm back down. The start to massage

1640
05:13:31.119 --> 05:13:40.919
your back, the biggest part of your body, starting at

1641
05:13:40.959 --> 05:13:47.880
the top, starting again where you would have been the

1642
05:13:48.080 --> 05:13:53.040
area at the top in between your shoulders near your neck,

1643
05:13:54.759 --> 05:13:59.200
going back and message in the area again, but this

1644
05:13:59.560 --> 05:14:13.119
time moving downwards, making it downward. Stroke to the middle

1645
05:14:13.159 --> 05:14:21.360
of your back, working from the outside inwards, so massage

1646
05:14:21.479 --> 05:14:28.759
in that your back, but the outsides of your back,

1647
05:14:32.919 --> 05:14:46.479
the parts where your arms would maybe rest against, almost

1648
05:14:48.639 --> 05:15:00.959
the path that connects your front to your back. I'm

1649
05:15:01.119 --> 05:15:09.840
just messaging down firmly, but gently, as firm as you want,

1650
05:15:13.279 --> 05:15:17.680
moving down and moving across a little bed and moving

1651
05:15:17.759 --> 05:15:23.799
all the way down again, be very gentle yet firm

1652
05:15:24.000 --> 05:15:35.639
as you choose. Eventually we get to the spine. We

1653
05:15:35.759 --> 05:15:39.799
can message the muscles and either side of your spine

1654
05:15:40.680 --> 05:15:43.680
from the top of your neck all the way down

1655
05:15:46.520 --> 05:15:54.479
to your lower back. And we can do that a

1656
05:15:54.599 --> 05:16:05.240
few times. Sometimes people choose the knuckle or the you know,

1657
05:16:05.439 --> 05:16:10.159
the two fingers and just go either side of the spine,

1658
05:16:11.479 --> 05:16:15.200
almost just push down, go all the way down to

1659
05:16:15.279 --> 05:16:23.240
the bottom of the spine, each time releasing tension and

1660
05:16:23.560 --> 05:16:32.560
opening up the body, stretching your body so that you

1661
05:16:32.799 --> 05:16:51.040
feel more relaxed but at the same time rejuvenated. And

1662
05:16:51.200 --> 05:16:54.520
now I'm going to move to one side, to your

1663
05:16:54.639 --> 05:17:03.680
right side, and from the bottom of your ribs to

1664
05:17:03.880 --> 05:17:09.799
your pelvis. I'm going to message that area of your back.

1665
05:17:11.720 --> 05:17:14.880
I'll stretch over the other side and I will pull

1666
05:17:15.040 --> 05:17:21.439
the muscles gently and massage and push from one end

1667
05:17:21.959 --> 05:17:26.080
that side all the way to my side to the

1668
05:17:26.200 --> 05:17:31.759
middle of fact to where your spine is massaging that

1669
05:17:32.040 --> 05:17:36.720
side of your spine the opposite side to where I'm standing.

1670
05:17:39.119 --> 05:17:45.080
It's almost like kneading bread. There's that big area which

1671
05:17:45.200 --> 05:17:56.959
is firm, yet lot's there to massage. Potentially one of

1672
05:17:57.000 --> 05:18:01.639
the most important places to actually you have a message

1673
05:18:03.319 --> 05:18:09.119
because you really feel it. You really feel the release

1674
05:18:09.520 --> 05:18:17.080
and the pleasure of having your lower back massaged. It

1675
05:18:17.279 --> 05:18:26.400
releases so much from your body that's not useful, starting

1676
05:18:26.479 --> 05:18:32.240
a healing process which will continue long after this recording

1677
05:18:32.400 --> 05:18:44.119
is over. The message in this part of your body

1678
05:18:44.639 --> 05:18:49.520
not only feels really good for you, it's actually fun

1679
05:18:49.639 --> 05:18:54.400
to do because it is, as I said, like kneading bread.

1680
05:18:56.799 --> 05:18:59.279
It's a part that you can really get hold of

1681
05:19:00.840 --> 05:19:14.520
and really message deeply. If that's your choice, They're not

1682
05:19:14.599 --> 05:19:16.439
going to move over to the other side of your

1683
05:19:16.479 --> 05:19:25.720
body and do the same with the opposite part of

1684
05:19:25.840 --> 05:19:33.040
your lawer back. Kneading and messaging from your sides all

1685
05:19:33.080 --> 05:19:39.880
the way to the middle of your back where your

1686
05:19:39.959 --> 05:19:53.479
spine is pressing and kneading, firm and gentle at the

1687
05:19:53.599 --> 05:20:08.680
same time. It feels so releasing this mixture of pleasure, comfort, release, calmness,

1688
05:20:09.040 --> 05:20:20.680
relaxation or mixed together. Plus there's that feeling from your

1689
05:20:20.759 --> 05:20:25.919
stomach as it's being stretched. Even though you're in your

1690
05:20:26.000 --> 05:20:30.279
stomach now, you can feel it being stretched because that

1691
05:20:30.439 --> 05:20:41.840
whole area is connected to your stomach. Now we're going

1692
05:20:41.880 --> 05:20:46.799
to move or move further up to your top of

1693
05:20:46.880 --> 05:20:53.159
your body, and we did the same this time, starting

1694
05:20:54.520 --> 05:21:00.799
with your upper back. Put my hands forward over and

1695
05:21:00.959 --> 05:21:08.319
massive massage in that area up to your spine, from

1696
05:21:08.400 --> 05:21:12.560
the side of your body up to your spine. So

1697
05:21:12.720 --> 05:21:19.000
some of that message area, that muscle tissue or whatever

1698
05:21:19.240 --> 05:21:24.840
fatty tissue even will be possibly from your chest because

1699
05:21:25.000 --> 05:21:32.000
all connected the chest and the back connect together. I'm

1700
05:21:32.040 --> 05:21:35.240
going to be massaging and just pulling some of that

1701
05:21:35.479 --> 05:21:46.200
skin from your side up and massaging that area of

1702
05:21:46.319 --> 05:21:54.759
your upper back all the way to your spine. And

1703
05:21:54.880 --> 05:21:57.599
then I'll move down a bit and I'll continue with

1704
05:21:57.720 --> 05:22:04.639
the middle of your back doing exactly same thing as

1705
05:22:04.840 --> 05:22:18.799
gentle as deep as you choose. Now move or the

1706
05:22:18.880 --> 05:22:23.720
other side again and do the exact same thing with

1707
05:22:23.959 --> 05:22:28.040
the top of your back on the other side, from

1708
05:22:33.200 --> 05:22:41.919
pretty much underneath your arm area really to your spine,

1709
05:22:47.000 --> 05:22:53.919
and then continuing that all the way down, including you'll

1710
05:22:53.959 --> 05:23:11.240
lower your middle of your back. I'm gonna go to

1711
05:23:11.360 --> 05:23:18.040
your thighs, the backs of your thighs, and the sides

1712
05:23:18.119 --> 05:23:29.119
of your thighs, starting with your right leg, massaging the

1713
05:23:29.279 --> 05:23:38.279
back and the sides of your thighs gently and firmly.

1714
05:23:40.400 --> 05:23:43.840
There's a lot of muscles there. It's an area that

1715
05:23:43.959 --> 05:23:48.119
can be very tense at times and maybe needs a

1716
05:23:48.159 --> 05:23:50.639
little bit more pressure than the rest of the body.

1717
05:23:51.720 --> 05:23:59.400
That's up to you. You can gently stroke the back

1718
05:24:02.240 --> 05:24:06.560
of your legs where you know, opposite your knee joint

1719
05:24:07.840 --> 05:24:20.799
or underneath your knee joint, very sensitive, gentle area, and

1720
05:24:21.159 --> 05:24:28.520
working down to your calf muscles. Massage in your calf

1721
05:24:28.639 --> 05:24:38.200
muscles thoroughly and deeply, if you choose, using both hands

1722
05:24:42.400 --> 05:24:56.720
and fingers, digging deep to your ankles, in the back

1723
05:24:56.799 --> 05:25:03.439
of your back of your ankles, just gently message in

1724
05:25:03.560 --> 05:25:15.240
that area, maybe lifting the leg and stretching it a

1725
05:25:15.319 --> 05:25:40.479
little bit. Moving to the right foot, massage in the

1726
05:25:40.560 --> 05:25:47.560
bottom of your feet and the size of your feet

1727
05:25:54.720 --> 05:26:04.159
gently but firm enough so they don't tickle, and just

1728
05:26:04.319 --> 05:26:09.880
allow the pleasure that you get from heaving your feet

1729
05:26:10.000 --> 05:26:19.639
messaged to just overtake you. As I continue to message

1730
05:26:19.680 --> 05:26:29.200
your feet, the bottoms of your feet, the sides, your arches,

1731
05:26:29.880 --> 05:26:34.639
your heel. You can put a lot of pressure into

1732
05:26:34.720 --> 05:26:40.759
your heel and it feels amazing, Yet the arches need

1733
05:26:40.880 --> 05:26:49.279
to be a bit more gentle. Stretching your toes gently

1734
05:26:52.000 --> 05:26:56.319
the message in the bottoms of your toes with my fingers,

1735
05:26:58.759 --> 05:27:12.560
each one individually, moving her to the left leg to

1736
05:27:12.680 --> 05:27:20.919
do exactly the same thing. Starting at the top of

1737
05:27:21.000 --> 05:27:25.639
the thighs, work in the back of the thighs and

1738
05:27:25.759 --> 05:27:38.159
the sides, massaging deeply and gently, a whole area, working

1739
05:27:38.240 --> 05:27:47.279
all the way down. And this is an area that

1740
05:27:48.439 --> 05:27:56.240
maybe you could like to spend more time relaxing and massaging.

1741
05:27:59.119 --> 05:28:02.599
So perhaps if you wanted, I could make a future

1742
05:28:03.919 --> 05:28:13.959
recording wants spend more time on one particular area. As

1743
05:28:14.000 --> 05:28:26.119
you moved down to your calf muscles, Massage in your

1744
05:28:26.279 --> 05:28:41.799
calf muscles firmly and gently, moving down your ankle into

1745
05:28:41.880 --> 05:28:49.479
your feet, Massage in the backs of your feet, the

1746
05:28:49.639 --> 05:28:58.799
bottoms of your feet, stretching your toes and massage in

1747
05:28:58.919 --> 05:29:07.200
each tone totally. The feeling of pleasure and release. The

1748
05:29:07.599 --> 05:29:15.240
experience when you're having your feet messaged feels really good.

1749
05:29:27.000 --> 05:29:34.720
Now she turn over in your mind. Laying on your back,

1750
05:29:42.159 --> 05:29:47.919
I'm just going to start again with your neck area

1751
05:29:54.880 --> 05:30:02.560
in your shoulders, just to get back in touch with

1752
05:30:02.720 --> 05:30:19.799
that area and lets you move up. I can clean

1753
05:30:19.919 --> 05:30:24.599
my hands, beat them more fresh because now I'm gonna

1754
05:30:24.639 --> 05:30:41.000
message your face simply starting off with your forehead. Your

1755
05:30:41.080 --> 05:30:47.400
eyes are closed, I can just stretch your eyes a

1756
05:30:47.479 --> 05:30:59.159
little bit, pushing up on your eyebrows. Just message in around,

1757
05:30:59.279 --> 05:31:14.560
just scale, massaging down your cheeks, around your ears, into

1758
05:31:14.680 --> 05:31:38.840
your jaw, shimly the side of your neck chin, and

1759
05:31:39.080 --> 05:31:46.479
just moving down from your neck down to your chest,

1760
05:31:50.240 --> 05:31:54.279
starting by massage in the very top of your chest

1761
05:31:58.119 --> 05:32:03.319
where the collar bonies, give a side of the collarbone,

1762
05:32:11.840 --> 05:32:15.040
and then just message in the hole of the chest,

1763
05:32:24.240 --> 05:32:36.279
moving the chest around, because it's quite a large area.

1764
05:32:38.200 --> 05:32:45.680
You can move from one side to the next, moving

1765
05:32:46.040 --> 05:32:57.040
my hands underneath pretty much my arms are stretching up,

1766
05:32:59.200 --> 05:33:02.159
stretching side on the muscles of your back in the process,

1767
05:33:07.560 --> 05:33:16.159
moving up over your chest and then moving down again.

1768
05:33:28.919 --> 05:33:33.639
Then a laying my hands. They just massage gently and

1769
05:33:33.919 --> 05:33:40.639
slide down towards your stomach, starting in the middle of

1770
05:33:40.759 --> 05:33:50.279
your chest, and then gradually my hands moving apart and

1771
05:33:50.639 --> 05:33:56.680
massage in and sliding at the same time, moving down

1772
05:34:00.560 --> 05:34:15.159
to just below your red cage, moving down and then

1773
05:34:15.279 --> 05:34:22.639
messaging up again, giving you a chest all the attention

1774
05:34:24.439 --> 05:34:38.720
when it needs to feel completely relaxed, remembering that I'm

1775
05:34:38.759 --> 05:34:42.720
also going to be focusing on your sides as well,

1776
05:34:44.319 --> 05:34:50.520
an area that really doesn't get much attention but feels

1777
05:34:50.639 --> 05:35:01.000
really good when it's massaged. Just stroking my hand down

1778
05:35:01.159 --> 05:35:08.279
the sides of your body, just below your arms, all

1779
05:35:08.319 --> 05:35:20.840
the way down to your hips. Now move into your

1780
05:35:20.959 --> 05:35:26.240
stomach area. I'm going to stand on one side of

1781
05:35:26.360 --> 05:35:28.799
you like I did when I dig your lower back.

1782
05:35:31.360 --> 05:35:36.439
I'm gonna do a similar process of just stretching the

1783
05:35:36.560 --> 05:35:50.200
muscles from your side, gently massaging from one side to

1784
05:35:50.319 --> 05:35:59.319
the next, moving the whole area from below your ribs

1785
05:35:59.720 --> 05:36:10.439
or way down to blow your belly button, and then

1786
05:36:10.599 --> 05:36:13.799
move around to the other side of you and repeat

1787
05:36:13.880 --> 05:36:33.680
that process of relaxing deeply, calmly. You feel loose, you

1788
05:36:33.840 --> 05:36:39.799
feel free, and it's something about having your stomach message

1789
05:36:41.040 --> 05:36:47.720
that's different from any other part because we do have

1790
05:36:47.919 --> 05:36:52.319
a tendency of holding a different kind of stress in

1791
05:36:52.439 --> 05:37:01.959
your stomachs that we may not be aware of. There's

1792
05:37:02.000 --> 05:37:07.520
a now message your stomach. In front of your stomach,

1793
05:37:09.479 --> 05:37:20.279
they can circles around your belly button and then going

1794
05:37:20.400 --> 05:37:30.200
the other way around. There's a gentleness and a freedom

1795
05:37:30.319 --> 05:37:41.439
that comes from feeling how you're feeling. There's a now

1796
05:37:41.680 --> 05:37:49.560
move down the tops of your thighs, muscles, messaging them,

1797
05:37:51.080 --> 05:37:53.799
and I can do this to your legs at the

1798
05:37:53.880 --> 05:38:05.119
same time, pressing down, massaging deeply those muscles in your thighs,

1799
05:38:05.959 --> 05:38:14.840
the front of your thighs, and moving down to your knees,

1800
05:38:15.799 --> 05:38:28.479
gently massaging your knees, sliding down your shins, putting pressure

1801
05:38:28.520 --> 05:38:36.279
on either side of your shin gently, softly but firmly,

1802
05:38:40.439 --> 05:38:50.159
moving down to your ankles, stroking the tops of your feet,

1803
05:38:56.319 --> 05:39:01.080
and then with each foot in each head and just

1804
05:39:01.319 --> 05:39:10.240
gently messaging the whole of the foot, the top, the bottom,

1805
05:39:11.040 --> 05:39:19.319
your heel, your ankle, your toes, messaging every pile of

1806
05:39:19.439 --> 05:39:29.159
your feet. Feels so good. Just to let go and

1807
05:39:29.439 --> 05:39:53.520
enjoy the process, enjoy feeling so deeply relaxed, so much

1808
05:39:53.720 --> 05:40:00.759
comfort and so many feelings that come just from touching

1809
05:40:00.919 --> 05:40:17.319
your skin, and you can just lie there for as

1810
05:40:17.479 --> 05:40:27.279
long as you choose, enjoying the feeling of deep comfort

1811
05:40:30.360 --> 05:40:51.360
from being massaged by me, enjoy feeling deeply.

1812
05:40:55.720 --> 05:40:56.400
Relaxed.

1813
05:41:02.279 --> 05:41:08.759
And all we're gonna do is blow out some candles.

1814
05:41:11.279 --> 05:41:26.360
In your mind, there are going to be a hundred candles,

1815
05:41:33.479 --> 05:41:39.279
and you're going to blow each one out individually, one

1816
05:41:39.639 --> 05:41:47.040
by one, starting at one hundred. As I count down

1817
05:41:52.240 --> 05:41:59.080
all the way down to one, and each time I

1818
05:41:59.360 --> 05:42:08.439
say a number, you can imagine that candle in front

1819
05:42:08.520 --> 05:42:19.520
of you, and I'd like you to actually physically generally

1820
05:42:19.680 --> 05:42:35.360
blow that candle out, just so it's not big blows,

1821
05:42:35.759 --> 05:42:49.599
just a gentle, and that candle will extinguish. And then

1822
05:42:49.759 --> 05:42:53.959
I'll say the next number, so move down.

1823
05:42:56.959 --> 05:42:57.680
And you can just.

1824
05:43:01.439 --> 05:43:10.439
Blow that one out as well. And as we move

1825
05:43:10.840 --> 05:43:21.840
down the numbers, you'll find yourself feeding more and more relaxed.

1826
05:43:24.840 --> 05:43:25.680
If you need.

1827
05:43:27.159 --> 05:43:36.439
To sleep, you'll also find yourself becoming incredibly tired and sleepy.

1828
05:43:40.279 --> 05:43:47.720
In fact, you may struggle to blow out all one

1829
05:43:47.880 --> 05:44:04.200
hundred of these candles. As you you feel more and

1830
05:44:04.479 --> 05:44:32.279
more deeply relaxed, more and more deeply tired, and the

1831
05:44:32.599 --> 05:44:43.040
further you go down, the more your mind starts to drift.

1832
05:44:49.439 --> 05:44:55.880
You may find that you stop listening to me after

1833
05:44:56.040 --> 05:45:09.159
a while. And even though there maybe background sounds where

1834
05:45:09.240 --> 05:45:20.599
you are, you'll be aware of those sounds at the moment.

1835
05:45:25.639 --> 05:45:26.279
He may.

1836
05:45:29.599 --> 05:45:45.680
Start just not even notice them at all because they're unimportant.

1837
05:45:53.720 --> 05:45:58.919
Where I am, I've got the sounds of the birds,

1838
05:46:00.799 --> 05:46:05.479
there's all horrors, the pigeon who likes to say hello.

1839
05:46:05.759 --> 05:46:17.720
Sometimes there's the odd plane that goes by, maybe traffic

1840
05:46:18.040 --> 05:46:28.720
and trains in the distance, But none of that scene

1841
05:46:28.880 --> 05:46:42.520
is important whatsoever. Or candles you blow out, the less

1842
05:46:42.639 --> 05:46:59.479
important anything is. Or candles you blow out, the fur

1843
05:47:00.119 --> 05:47:20.360
you seem to move away from sounds, from general date days.

1844
05:47:20.799 --> 05:47:35.840
Stuff seems to just move away on its own. You

1845
05:47:36.560 --> 05:48:00.880
feel more calm with every candy blowout guiding you to

1846
05:48:01.080 --> 05:48:14.159
the next number. Did you hear me say? And then

1847
05:48:14.279 --> 05:48:31.919
you blow that candle out to so easy, so simple.

1848
05:48:41.439 --> 05:48:55.439
I'm gonna start by introducing the first candle, which is

1849
05:48:55.560 --> 05:49:14.080
a hundred. First candle is one hundred. When you blow

1850
05:49:14.360 --> 05:49:33.959
that candle out, you'll find immediately a slight change in

1851
05:49:34.159 --> 05:49:42.360
how you feel, as well as a real sense of

1852
05:49:44.919 --> 05:50:13.680
positivity growing within you, relaxation and sleepiness expending, starting with

1853
05:50:20.159 --> 05:51:01.159
one hundred No, I can't do now nineteen nine, Candle

1854
05:51:03.720 --> 05:52:42.759
ninety eight, candle ninety seven, cam ninety six, camp ninety

1855
05:52:43.319 --> 05:54:11.599
five and ninety four, candle ninety three, I like you too,

1856
05:54:29.200 --> 05:55:50.240
and I like you one, candle ninety eighty nine, hand

1857
05:55:58.360 --> 05:58:24.599
eighty eight and eight, cant of eighty eight five.

1858
05:59:00.400 --> 05:59:16.520
And and.

1859
05:59:28.159 --> 06:03:01.720
Con eighty two two D seventy nine, can't do seventy eight,

1860
06:03:10.639 --> 06:04:13.279
candle seventy seven, candle seventy six, candle seventy five, candle

1861
06:04:16.080 --> 06:05:13.200
seventy four, candle seventy three, candle seventy two, candle seventy one,

1862
06:05:33.919 --> 06:06:34.959
candle seventy one, candle seventy and sixty nine, candle sixty eight,

1863
06:06:44.759 --> 06:07:47.439
candle sixty seven, candle sixty five, candle sixty four, candle

1864
06:07:49.599 --> 06:08:42.040
sixty four, candle sixty three, candle sixty and sixty one,

1865
06:09:04.720 --> 06:10:31.639
candle sixty and fifty nine, candle fifty eight, candle fifty seven,

1866
06:10:50.959 --> 06:12:19.240
candle fifty six, candle fifty five, candle fifty four, handle

1867
06:12:21.799 --> 06:14:27.400
fifty three, hand fifty fifty two, cantul fifty, candle fifty one,

1868
06:14:47.520 --> 06:16:41.119
candle fifty candle forty nine, candle forty eight, who is

1869
06:16:41.319 --> 06:19:03.360
sirven candle forty six, candle forty five, forty two, candle.

1870
06:19:07.279 --> 06:19:07.959
What you.

1871
06:19:41.240 --> 06:19:41.840
Can Do.

1872
06:19:46.840 --> 06:22:26.959
Forty thirty nine and thirty eight, candle thirty seven, Canto

1873
06:22:29.400 --> 06:24:37.159
thirty five, candle thirty four, candle thirty three, candle thirty one,

1874
06:25:20.360 --> 06:28:30.000
can thirty and twoe ten nine, twenty eight, candle twenty seven,

1875
06:29:03.040 --> 06:31:21.520
candle twenty six, candle twenty five, and when twenty third

1876
06:32:00.200 --> 06:34:30.599
handle quit to handle twenty one wit ye down Sa

1877
06:35:19.400 --> 06:36:15.520
ten seventeen six day.

1878
06:37:12.880 --> 06:38:30.880
Fourty two.

1879
06:40:12.040 --> 06:40:16.919
Y y.

1880
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Nine to.

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Eight No.

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Can do, can do two candle lego. Of all of

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those thoughts, worries, concerns about the past, thoughts about the future,

1884
06:48:05.439 --> 06:48:11.439
and even things you've been thinking about today, just let

1885
06:48:11.520 --> 06:48:17.279
it all go because none of it is useful in

1886
06:48:17.439 --> 06:48:37.119
this moment. This is your opportunity to just focus on

1887
06:48:37.360 --> 06:48:46.080
feeling relaxed, allowing yourself to get in touch with that

1888
06:48:46.439 --> 06:48:56.119
natural sense of peace that we all have within us.

1889
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It's available for everyone, It just sometimes takes a little

1890
06:49:04.000 --> 06:49:10.279
bit of effort to set up the right time and

1891
06:49:10.479 --> 06:49:17.759
place in order for you to just let go. Because

1892
06:49:17.880 --> 06:49:25.799
when you do decide to let go and relax. That's

1893
06:49:25.880 --> 06:49:33.840
what your body starts to do because you've chosen. You've

1894
06:49:34.119 --> 06:49:40.959
chosen to just allow your body to unwind and your

1895
06:49:41.080 --> 06:49:47.799
mind starts to slow down. And it's a nice feeling.

1896
06:49:49.840 --> 06:49:52.959
It's a nice feeling at the beginning, just to know

1897
06:49:54.119 --> 06:50:04.200
that you have chosen to decide to relax deeply, and

1898
06:50:04.360 --> 06:50:10.880
because you've made that decision, your body will just follow suit.

1899
06:50:13.439 --> 06:50:18.119
Because sometimes all the muscles in your body need is

1900
06:50:18.400 --> 06:50:28.040
just permission from you to relax. Because so often we're busy,

1901
06:50:28.279 --> 06:50:32.479
we're going from here to there, we're walking around, and

1902
06:50:32.599 --> 06:50:39.919
we're doing stuff, and the body doesn't have any time

1903
06:50:40.159 --> 06:50:48.560
or space to really relax deeply. So it kind of

1904
06:50:48.680 --> 06:50:54.240
waits for you to lead the way, waits for your permission.

1905
06:50:58.599 --> 06:51:05.080
And when you do give your permission, when you give

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06:51:05.119 --> 06:51:11.439
the say so, when you say okay, it's time for

1907
06:51:11.560 --> 06:51:21.200
your body to let go completely and relax totally, your

1908
06:51:21.240 --> 06:51:30.720
body just follows. So like a breath of relief. Ah good,

1909
06:51:30.799 --> 06:51:37.720
I can now relax. That feeling at the end of

1910
06:51:37.799 --> 06:51:41.799
a day, of very physical day that you may experience

1911
06:51:41.919 --> 06:51:45.200
in the past where you get home and you just

1912
06:51:45.400 --> 06:51:49.720
sit down on a chair, maybe you kick your shoes off,

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06:51:49.799 --> 06:51:55.599
and ah feels so nice. I know that you don't

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06:51:56.279 --> 06:51:59.919
have to get up again for a little while at least,

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06:52:01.040 --> 06:52:03.439
and if you choose, you can just sit there for

1916
06:52:03.560 --> 06:52:04.119
maybe an.

1917
06:52:04.040 --> 06:52:04.520
Hour to.

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Kind of feels blissful. And just by sitting down like that,

1919
06:52:19.319 --> 06:52:24.360
your body knows that it's time to relax. Your body

1920
06:52:25.040 --> 06:52:30.560
has been given permission from you. Because it's a mindset

1921
06:52:32.080 --> 06:52:40.840
in your mind, you're prepared to let go of everything

1922
06:52:43.240 --> 06:52:50.919
and just completely allow all the stress of your body

1923
06:52:51.759 --> 06:53:09.439
to evaporate. Any tensions can just gradually vanish. It's almost

1924
06:53:09.680 --> 06:53:21.479
like magic, really, because that sense of relaxation in your body,

1925
06:53:23.119 --> 06:53:29.240
it's a very natural state. It's not something unusual. It

1926
06:53:29.360 --> 06:53:32.680
may feel unusual when you first start to relax, if

1927
06:53:32.720 --> 06:53:37.040
you if you haven't really spent a lot of time

1928
06:53:37.279 --> 06:53:42.520
focusing and giving yourself this space to let go completely

1929
06:53:42.720 --> 06:53:50.360
and relax, may seem almost alien, but it isn't. It's

1930
06:53:50.479 --> 06:53:56.439
actually the most natural thing in the world to let

1931
06:53:56.439 --> 06:54:06.400
go completely, to relax totally, the most natural thing in

1932
06:54:06.520 --> 06:54:19.040
the world to allow yourself to feel really calm in

1933
06:54:19.159 --> 06:54:25.959
your mind. And it is almost like a literal unwinding.

1934
06:54:29.639 --> 06:54:35.119
It's like you press a button and all the tension

1935
06:54:35.520 --> 06:54:41.279
just releases, and it's like a wheel, like a cog,

1936
06:54:42.279 --> 06:54:45.840
like the inside of the clock, just unwinding. And it's

1937
06:54:45.880 --> 06:54:50.840
almost like you could see the little wind up knob

1938
06:54:51.000 --> 06:54:56.000
that's used just going the opposite way that you choose

1939
06:54:56.119 --> 06:55:04.400
to wind it up. The energy that freymetic stress for

1940
06:55:04.919 --> 06:55:14.360
energy gradually minding down, losing its power, losing its strength.

1941
06:55:16.880 --> 06:55:26.119
As a sense of relaxation becomes stronger and deeper, and

1942
06:55:26.479 --> 06:55:34.880
you may find a more relaxed You feel that your

1943
06:55:35.040 --> 06:55:45.119
mind starts to wonder, maybe seem to stop listening to

1944
06:55:45.279 --> 06:55:51.159
me for a while, your mind goes somewhere else, and

1945
06:55:51.279 --> 06:55:57.159
then you realize you're listening to me again, and now

1946
06:55:57.200 --> 06:56:06.119
it's just your mind drifting to slap, which is quite natural,

1947
06:56:07.639 --> 06:56:15.680
because sometimes when we're stressed and tense, we may not

1948
06:56:15.720 --> 06:56:20.799
actually be aware of what we need or we physically

1949
06:56:20.919 --> 06:56:30.040
your emotionally need in this moment. But when you allow

1950
06:56:31.279 --> 06:56:37.119
your body and mind to relax completely, and you let

1951
06:56:37.200 --> 06:56:46.400
go of all thoughts, concerns, worries, ideas, all the goo,

1952
06:56:47.479 --> 06:56:56.040
allow them to drop onto the floor, you start to

1953
06:56:58.200 --> 06:57:09.520
get in touch with the feelings of such relaxation. Feels

1954
06:57:09.759 --> 06:57:17.799
so nice to be in touch with the calmness of

1955
06:57:17.959 --> 06:57:26.680
the different body parts as they become looser and looser.

1956
06:57:30.840 --> 06:57:43.080
Even your breathing seems easier and more natural, effortless as

1957
06:57:43.159 --> 06:57:49.080
that cool as through your mouth or nose into your lungs,

1958
06:57:51.840 --> 06:58:00.200
breathing in coomforts and relaxation, and then just breathing. How

1959
06:58:00.439 --> 06:58:09.279
any excess remain intentional stress from every part of your

1960
06:58:09.360 --> 06:58:17.840
body and mind. As you start to focus on your mind,

1961
06:58:19.599 --> 06:58:26.639
maybe you notice that things that come to a standstill

1962
06:58:28.000 --> 06:58:36.759
or maybe just much much lower than before because your

1963
06:58:36.919 --> 06:58:43.880
mind is not really needed when listening to my voice,

1964
06:58:47.759 --> 06:58:53.840
which allows your mind to relax just as deeper as

1965
06:58:54.000 --> 06:59:04.080
your body, and that's synchronicity. But between the relaxation of

1966
06:59:04.279 --> 06:59:17.240
your body relaxation of your mind, let you know, feeling

1967
06:59:18.279 --> 06:59:30.639
completely calm, loose, and relaxed real is the great healing

1968
06:59:31.680 --> 06:59:49.000
experience fear and has so many positive benefits for your body, mind,

1969
06:59:49.360 --> 06:59:54.639
and your life. To be able to let go over

1970
06:59:55.880 --> 07:00:06.240
everything and to relax completely you know, all parts of

1971
07:00:06.319 --> 07:00:17.119
your body and mind. Even your bones are relaxed, or

1972
07:00:17.200 --> 07:00:30.119
your muscles are relaxed. Even the skin that covers your

1973
07:00:30.240 --> 07:00:40.840
body is relaxed. Every hair.

1974
07:00:44.119 --> 07:00:44.439
You have.

1975
07:00:46.200 --> 07:01:03.799
Is also deeply relaxed, and your brain really starts to

1976
07:01:04.040 --> 07:01:05.919
feel the benefit.

1977
07:01:07.400 --> 07:01:07.720
Of this.

1978
07:01:09.319 --> 07:01:22.560
Heathing relaxation. Unless you focus on the inside of your scalp,

1979
07:01:23.040 --> 07:01:28.840
where your brain is, you can start to realize and

1980
07:01:29.119 --> 07:01:37.840
notice the benefits of your brain relaxing demail.

1981
07:01:41.840 --> 07:01:42.479
And as your.

1982
07:01:42.560 --> 07:01:54.799
Brain continues to relax sends those messages to the rest

1983
07:01:55.040 --> 07:02:03.119
of your body and to your mind to re relax

1984
07:02:05.840 --> 07:02:27.959
more deeply, relax more completely, letting go of any remaining

1985
07:02:28.599 --> 07:02:37.560
thoughts or concerns, allow them just to drop onto the

1986
07:02:37.759 --> 07:02:46.240
floor because they're not long been necessary in this moment,

1987
07:02:48.639 --> 07:03:01.759
this moment of deep relaxation and calmness. Feeling your brain

1988
07:03:03.720 --> 07:03:26.479
with deep concentrated heathing, calming relaxing, every part of your

1989
07:03:26.560 --> 07:03:47.880
brain feeling so bus and comfortable, so relaxed, and be peaceful.

1990
07:03:51.119 --> 07:04:03.240
Your brain feels so light, that's so healthy. That sense

1991
07:04:03.400 --> 07:04:17.240
of deep deep comfort really does allow you to enjoy

1992
07:04:19.400 --> 07:04:31.080
those ever increasing sensations of comfort that are spreading throughout

1993
07:04:31.279 --> 07:04:42.319
your body. Relaxing each and every muscle of your body

1994
07:04:44.759 --> 07:05:04.720
e deeper and deeper, much more deeper than before, much

1995
07:05:05.840 --> 07:05:17.279
more comfort spreading through your body. Your mind.

1996
07:05:20.000 --> 07:05:21.919
Be so.

1997
07:05:23.759 --> 07:05:29.040
Peaceful and calm, so.

1998
07:05:31.439 --> 07:05:33.240
Very very.

1999
07:05:34.759 --> 07:05:48.080
Peaceful. In avery part of your body, letting go of

2000
07:05:50.159 --> 07:06:12.479
everything and everything so peaceful, calm, so relax. A very

2001
07:06:13.840 --> 07:06:19.959
second the possis you feel.

2002
07:06:21.959 --> 07:06:40.959
Dper dper relaxed, dper d dper relax.

2003
07:06:43.279 --> 07:06:47.680
Call SoC.

2004
07:06:51.479 --> 07:06:53.119
Bce for.

2005
07:06:55.959 --> 07:07:05.240
So very peace from your head down to your tails.

2006
07:07:08.400 --> 07:07:21.959
Such peace and comfort growing all the time, Such peace

2007
07:07:23.000 --> 07:07:36.560
and comfort spreading through your body and mind deep deepert,

2008
07:07:39.400 --> 07:07:52.639
such comfort spreading and sinking deeper into a muscle of

2009
07:07:52.840 --> 07:07:53.479
your body.

2010
07:07:57.119 --> 07:07:58.759
Sullen, feel.

2011
07:08:01.000 --> 07:08:10.720
Amazing, so relaxed, so peace, so.

2012
07:08:15.520 --> 07:08:17.400
So relax.

2013
07:08:20.840 --> 07:08:36.279
And peace, letting go everything. I'm going to do a

2014
07:08:36.520 --> 07:08:44.240
body scan, focusing on firstly how you feel in your body.

2015
07:08:45.360 --> 07:08:51.000
Not trying to change how you feel, not trying to relax,

2016
07:08:52.240 --> 07:08:57.240
not trying to move away from any discomfort or stress

2017
07:08:57.439 --> 07:09:04.880
or tension. Just accept observing and accepting how you feel

2018
07:09:05.880 --> 07:09:10.799
in the different parts of your body, Just allowing yourself

2019
07:09:12.200 --> 07:09:19.680
to be exactly as you are, to notice, to get

2020
07:09:19.720 --> 07:09:28.360
in touch with how you actually feel in this moment.

2021
07:09:31.720 --> 07:09:38.360
I'm going to start off by focusing on your hands.

2022
07:09:42.919 --> 07:09:50.680
Just be aware of your hands. I'd like you to

2023
07:09:50.840 --> 07:09:55.799
move your hands around, just maybe move your fingers a

2024
07:09:55.880 --> 07:10:02.240
little bit. I've been in close your hands very gently,

2025
07:10:03.919 --> 07:10:09.560
just so that you can get in touch with how

2026
07:10:09.680 --> 07:10:23.880
your hands and your fingers fell, very very slow movements.

2027
07:10:32.279 --> 07:10:40.040
Focusing now on your feet, and if you can just

2028
07:10:40.200 --> 07:10:45.319
do kind of an equivalent with your feet is you've

2029
07:10:45.520 --> 07:10:51.720
just done with your hands, Maybe turn in your ankles,

2030
07:10:53.720 --> 07:11:03.439
moving your feet around, moving your toes gently, only very

2031
07:11:05.479 --> 07:11:17.200
gently and very slowly, noticing how your feet feel in

2032
07:11:17.360 --> 07:11:30.639
this moment. Focusing now and your eyes, I'd like you

2033
07:11:30.840 --> 07:11:38.080
to just focus on your eyelids. Maybe you can open

2034
07:11:38.159 --> 07:11:42.439
and close your eyes a couple of times to really

2035
07:11:42.639 --> 07:11:46.119
get in touch with how you feel when you do

2036
07:11:46.400 --> 07:11:54.720
close your eyes. The muscle changes in your eyes when

2037
07:11:54.759 --> 07:12:03.400
you do close them, maybe raising your eyebrows, it stretches

2038
07:12:03.759 --> 07:12:14.560
the tops of your eyes, perhaps squinting your eyes, scrunching

2039
07:12:14.680 --> 07:12:19.360
up your eyes, just so you can really get in

2040
07:12:19.560 --> 07:12:30.119
touch with all aspects of how your eyes feel.

2041
07:12:32.599 --> 07:12:33.080
Right now.

2042
07:12:42.439 --> 07:12:48.439
Now focusing on your thighs, then you know, it just

2043
07:12:48.479 --> 07:12:56.840
starts you to gently tense your thighs, just very very gently,

2044
07:12:59.159 --> 07:13:09.840
just enough so you can become more attuned to the

2045
07:13:11.119 --> 07:13:19.599
physical sensation of your upper legs, the front of your thighs,

2046
07:13:19.880 --> 07:13:30.919
and the backs of your thigh noticing and observing how

2047
07:13:33.240 --> 07:13:48.279
your thighs fear right now, moving your focus to the

2048
07:13:48.400 --> 07:13:55.279
back of your neck. Just noticing the back of your neck.

2049
07:13:56.759 --> 07:14:02.680
The muscles or stay lead to the side of your neck.

2050
07:14:04.159 --> 07:14:09.279
They also lead to the top of your back, which

2051
07:14:09.439 --> 07:14:14.840
lead to your shoulders. So as your focus on the

2052
07:14:15.000 --> 07:14:20.560
back of your neck, maybe you can move your head

2053
07:14:21.520 --> 07:14:29.240
gently upwards as if you're looking up. Maybe moving your

2054
07:14:29.360 --> 07:14:37.159
head down as if you're looking down. Perhaps moving your

2055
07:14:37.240 --> 07:14:45.200
head side to side, right to left, but only very

2056
07:14:46.599 --> 07:14:55.759
slowly and very gently. You're not trying to force anything.

2057
07:14:57.520 --> 07:15:07.240
It has to be very very gentle, just so you can.

2058
07:15:08.759 --> 07:15:10.360
Be more.

2059
07:15:12.000 --> 07:15:21.400
In touch with the feelings, with the sensations, the physical

2060
07:15:22.799 --> 07:15:29.720
sensations of how on the back of your neck feels

2061
07:15:31.520 --> 07:15:46.880
right now, as we now focus on the tops of

2062
07:15:47.000 --> 07:15:53.279
your arms, the parts where your biceps and your triceps

2063
07:15:53.360 --> 07:16:01.400
are between your elbow and your shoulders. To focus on

2064
07:16:01.680 --> 07:16:08.840
those parts, the tops of your arms, you may like

2065
07:16:08.959 --> 07:16:18.479
to just tense them, but very very gently and slowly,

2066
07:16:21.040 --> 07:16:29.080
so you're not straining or putting any pressure whatsoever.

2067
07:16:29.959 --> 07:16:30.840
On your arms.

2068
07:16:33.560 --> 07:16:40.919
It's just soly you can gain more of a sense

2069
07:16:41.240 --> 07:16:51.639
of how your upper arms are feeling in this moment.

2070
07:16:55.040 --> 07:17:07.720
Just noticing as you gently, very gently and slowly tightening

2071
07:17:07.880 --> 07:17:18.840
the muscles, and then lecko, notice how the tops of

2072
07:17:18.959 --> 07:17:37.479
your arms feel right now, as in now focus on

2073
07:17:37.680 --> 07:17:45.200
your stomach, the area the lower abdomen area below your

2074
07:17:45.240 --> 07:17:53.840
belly button, moving all the way down to your hips,

2075
07:17:54.959 --> 07:18:06.200
just above your grind. Maybe you're able to tense these

2076
07:18:06.400 --> 07:18:24.000
muscles in the area very very gently and slowly. If

2077
07:18:24.159 --> 07:18:28.520
that's a difficult thing to do, maybe you can just

2078
07:18:29.799 --> 07:18:39.200
move your body, pushing your stomach up, maybe moving a

2079
07:18:39.279 --> 07:18:44.959
little bit to a side using your hips, just so

2080
07:18:45.599 --> 07:18:54.159
you can get more in tune with how you're lower

2081
07:18:54.759 --> 07:19:11.680
up to an area is sphear in this moment, just

2082
07:19:12.119 --> 07:19:34.319
noticing the physical sensations or your lower abdomen as to

2083
07:19:34.599 --> 07:19:49.919
move your attention to your mouth, noticing your lips and

2084
07:19:50.119 --> 07:20:07.959
inside your mouth, your teeth, your guns, your tongue, just

2085
07:20:08.279 --> 07:20:16.880
noticing how your tongue and your mouth feels. It may

2086
07:20:17.119 --> 07:20:25.840
help by moving your tongue around your mouth, moving it

2087
07:20:26.360 --> 07:20:33.799
to your left, maybe pressing it gently against the side

2088
07:20:33.959 --> 07:20:40.200
of your mouth, and then to the right, gently to

2089
07:20:40.360 --> 07:20:47.000
the side of your mouth, perhaps pressing up against the

2090
07:20:48.279 --> 07:20:55.080
top of your mouth, and then down gently against the

2091
07:20:55.200 --> 07:21:06.360
bottom of your mouth, always very slowly and a very

2092
07:21:08.959 --> 07:21:25.959
very gentle so that you can be aware of how

2093
07:21:26.200 --> 07:21:48.840
you feel in your mouth area. Now got to focus

2094
07:21:51.119 --> 07:22:05.880
on your wrists, and I'll ask you to maybe just

2095
07:22:07.040 --> 07:22:15.520
rotate your wrists by moving your hands in a circular

2096
07:22:15.919 --> 07:22:40.799
motion very gently and slowly, just soly can feel the

2097
07:22:41.000 --> 07:22:58.119
sensations that you are currently experiencing in your wrists. Perhaps

2098
07:22:58.479 --> 07:23:07.639
move in your hands up and down the game very

2099
07:23:10.279 --> 07:23:46.680
very champily and slowly, very chem soul and slow. Because

2100
07:23:46.720 --> 07:24:03.479
we now start to observe you lower back. The bad

2101
07:24:03.799 --> 07:24:14.240
part is just above your hips where your coxis are

2102
07:24:21.720 --> 07:24:27.880
a whole area which also really does include the sides

2103
07:24:28.840 --> 07:24:34.360
of your body, because those muscles are very much connected

2104
07:24:39.639 --> 07:24:46.919
as those muscles also move into your hiperia, connecting to

2105
07:24:47.119 --> 07:25:02.040
your buttocks the sides of your hips. And if you're

2106
07:25:03.319 --> 07:25:12.040
physically able to do so, maybe you can very gently

2107
07:25:14.240 --> 07:25:27.560
just move your body ever so slightly, very slowly some side,

2108
07:25:27.759 --> 07:25:47.799
decide just enough fe e gauge how you feel in

2109
07:25:48.000 --> 07:26:03.919
your lower back. Perhaps secretly even move your hips gently

2110
07:26:06.240 --> 07:26:19.279
up and down, gently and slowly in order to really

2111
07:26:21.799 --> 07:26:31.680
be in touch with the physical sensations of your law back.

2112
07:26:48.799 --> 07:27:04.080
As we know, move your attension to your jaw, an

2113
07:27:04.319 --> 07:27:10.000
area from your chin all the way up to near

2114
07:27:10.080 --> 07:27:27.000
where your ears are. Oh, your jaw, you can just

2115
07:27:29.319 --> 07:27:38.720
it's okay to do so. Gently open your mouth, not

2116
07:27:39.159 --> 07:27:50.599
wide noe stretching, just very gently and slowly opening your

2117
07:27:50.720 --> 07:28:13.119
mouth and enclosing your mouth very gently. It's slowly so

2118
07:28:13.479 --> 07:28:30.400
you cannot pain touch with how your jaw feels. Now

2119
07:28:57.040 --> 07:29:12.680
I'd like to sit down your chest area. You don't

2120
07:29:12.880 --> 07:29:20.240
need to do anything to move your chest because it

2121
07:29:20.479 --> 07:29:33.360
moves every time you breathe. It moves very gently and

2122
07:29:34.000 --> 07:29:51.560
slowly automatically. With each breath you tape as you focus

2123
07:29:52.119 --> 07:30:38.319
on how your chest fils when you breathe. Move in

2124
07:30:38.520 --> 07:30:53.680
your focus to your forms, your elbows. Maybe you're able

2125
07:30:54.119 --> 07:30:58.720
to very gently.

2126
07:31:00.159 --> 07:31:02.200
And slowly.

2127
07:31:04.000 --> 07:31:12.520
Tense the muscles in your forearms, and when you do that,

2128
07:31:13.040 --> 07:31:46.240
you can feel your elbows as well, very gently and slowly, gently.

2129
07:31:49.040 --> 07:31:51.040
And softly.

2130
07:31:54.560 --> 07:32:33.000
Obsurving forearms and tell bas and now a focus the

2131
07:32:33.200 --> 07:32:45.040
rest of your back, your upper back and the middle

2132
07:32:46.599 --> 07:33:02.799
the middle of your back. Again, this part of your

2133
07:33:02.959 --> 07:33:17.680
body moves also every time you pray. You may not

2134
07:33:18.040 --> 07:33:32.080
notice that. Usually where you observe your upper back in

2135
07:33:32.240 --> 07:33:45.040
the middle of your back. You can really feel that gentle.

2136
07:33:50.360 --> 07:33:52.439
And low.

2137
07:33:57.200 --> 07:34:46.400
Moment, moving your focus into your hip area, your butts bray,

2138
07:34:49.200 --> 07:35:24.040
there's muscles and those bones in your midsection. Just noticing

2139
07:35:26.439 --> 07:35:46.720
how your hips feel. Right now, you can very very

2140
07:35:47.319 --> 07:36:02.119
gently move your hips maybe side to side, airy gently

2141
07:36:02.360 --> 07:36:54.639
and yeah, very gently, softly and slowly, everything starts to

2142
07:36:58.319 --> 07:37:10.279
slow down, including the thoughts in your mind and your

2143
07:37:10.400 --> 07:37:20.360
mind itself just starts to gradually. It doesn't have to

2144
07:37:20.400 --> 07:37:28.240
be instant, but just gradually starting to It's almost like

2145
07:37:28.560 --> 07:37:39.880
time is storing chin. It's a slower pace to maybe

2146
07:37:40.159 --> 07:37:45.200
what you're used to in your day to day life.

2147
07:37:48.400 --> 07:38:15.319
It's a slower movement of energy, very small movements which

2148
07:38:15.439 --> 07:38:23.560
make up the larger movements, which is always the case. Now,

2149
07:38:23.639 --> 07:38:28.200
when you move your hand, it might seem like it's

2150
07:38:28.319 --> 07:38:34.040
one movement, but it's lots of minute different muscles moving

2151
07:38:36.200 --> 07:38:45.200
in accordance with each other. And what happens in this

2152
07:38:47.080 --> 07:39:01.959
space that we're sharing is we move from that big.

2153
07:39:06.319 --> 07:39:17.919
Movement into those smaller movements, starting to focus on.

2154
07:39:23.240 --> 07:39:29.479
How your body feels, not just as a whole, not

2155
07:39:29.759 --> 07:39:34.240
just oh i'm feel in this way, I'm feeling stressed

2156
07:39:34.439 --> 07:39:40.119
or tense or I'm feeling relaxed and calm. I'm feeling

2157
07:39:40.279 --> 07:39:47.000
this way, I'm feeling that way. Starting to notice that

2158
07:39:47.159 --> 07:40:01.159
your body begins to present to you small feelings around

2159
07:40:01.240 --> 07:40:18.959
your body, small physical sensations in your legs, whether pleasurable

2160
07:40:20.200 --> 07:40:34.159
or not. Maybe resisting the temptation to label them or

2161
07:40:34.279 --> 07:40:42.040
to judge them, those feelings, just thinking them, thinking about

2162
07:40:42.080 --> 07:40:42.439
them is.

2163
07:40:42.560 --> 07:41:01.240
Just being neutral, just feelings, not being particularly concerned, just noticing.

2164
07:41:02.080 --> 07:41:15.599
What your body is telling you. The feelings in your arms,

2165
07:41:18.599 --> 07:41:22.880
instead of feeling the whole of the arm, Maybe me

2166
07:41:23.080 --> 07:41:36.680
notice those individual feelings, all those different muscles and the skin,

2167
07:41:39.919 --> 07:41:45.720
the hairs of your arms, all the internal parts of

2168
07:41:45.840 --> 07:42:02.119
your arms, the veins, the bones, just being aware of

2169
07:42:05.240 --> 07:42:11.639
maybe your elbow on your right arm has a certain feeling.

2170
07:42:13.720 --> 07:42:27.439
Maybe your left wrist also has its own individual physical sensation.

2171
07:42:39.880 --> 07:42:46.599
What about your forearm on your right arm, your right forearm,

2172
07:42:53.959 --> 07:42:59.959
there may not be any particular feeling that you could

2173
07:43:00.119 --> 07:43:07.959
even give a name to, may not feel like anything

2174
07:43:08.959 --> 07:43:19.759
other than just a feeling. Yeah, it's there. The feelings

2175
07:43:19.799 --> 07:43:25.799
in your shoulders, perhaps your shoulders when you think about them,

2176
07:43:27.000 --> 07:43:31.319
kind of almost like they're the same, you know, the

2177
07:43:31.400 --> 07:43:36.400
same feeling almost like you both of your shoulders are

2178
07:43:36.479 --> 07:43:49.279
just one thing. Of course they're not. And when you

2179
07:43:49.479 --> 07:43:55.479
focus on your left shoulder and then on your right shoulder,

2180
07:43:57.560 --> 07:44:02.040
maybe find that you move the muscles a little bit,

2181
07:44:03.560 --> 07:44:18.400
maybe tense the muscles gently, noticing the difference in each shoulder,

2182
07:44:29.799 --> 07:44:45.639
your lower back, the left side of your lower back

2183
07:44:45.840 --> 07:44:57.279
and the right side of your lower back. Of course

2184
07:44:57.360 --> 07:45:10.040
that connection to your buttocks into your hips, and also

2185
07:45:10.279 --> 07:45:24.000
moving up into the middle of your back. And sometimes

2186
07:45:24.360 --> 07:45:27.840
like right now, actually when I focus on their part,

2187
07:45:29.240 --> 07:45:33.599
when I focused on my buttocks and then I focused

2188
07:45:33.639 --> 07:45:37.759
on the middle of my back, I almost felt like

2189
07:45:38.000 --> 07:45:42.720
the muscles in my lower back were being stretched very gently,

2190
07:45:47.520 --> 07:45:52.799
just stretched a little bit. Even though I wasn't doing

2191
07:45:52.880 --> 07:46:01.639
anything to try to stretch your lower back, it just

2192
07:46:01.759 --> 07:46:14.040
seemed to happen. The feeling of very gently stretching your

2193
07:46:14.119 --> 07:46:33.200
lower back comes along. I have feeling in your chest,

2194
07:46:40.840 --> 07:46:54.240
just noticing what sensations you are experiencing in your chest

2195
07:46:54.479 --> 07:47:10.759
right now. And there's so much of the chest. Obviously,

2196
07:47:10.840 --> 07:47:14.439
there's the collar bone leading to the chest. You've got

2197
07:47:14.520 --> 07:47:23.119
the chest bone, you've got the muscles in your chest.

2198
07:47:25.880 --> 07:47:31.959
Of course, if you're female, there's possibly the breasts. If

2199
07:47:32.000 --> 07:47:40.159
you're male, you've got the different well why not that

2200
07:47:40.279 --> 07:47:47.759
different these days, But there may be more muscles at

2201
07:47:47.799 --> 07:47:54.040
the top of the chest, but at the side underneath

2202
07:47:55.200 --> 07:47:58.000
it's pretty much the same. Whether you're a man or

2203
07:47:58.040 --> 07:48:04.479
a woman. There's muscles there, muscles that stretch out to

2204
07:48:04.599 --> 07:48:09.080
your back as well as breast tissue. It stretches and

2205
07:48:09.279 --> 07:48:16.479
moves into your back to just being aware of your

2206
07:48:16.639 --> 07:48:37.439
chest being with whatever feeling there is in your chest.

2207
07:48:52.919 --> 07:48:56.080
And when I noticed that, I focus on my chest,

2208
07:49:00.479 --> 07:49:05.720
I feel it in my back, my upper back. I mean,

2209
07:49:05.799 --> 07:49:08.720
I guess the obvious reason would be because you know,

2210
07:49:08.759 --> 07:49:19.520
I'm breathe in in, and it stretches my chest and

2211
07:49:19.880 --> 07:49:33.720
my back at the same time. It feels it feels okay,

2212
07:49:40.319 --> 07:49:45.159
it doesn't feel I got a little bit of pain

2213
07:49:45.279 --> 07:49:51.880
in my right chest, a little bit not pain, but

2214
07:49:51.959 --> 07:50:01.759
a little discomfort, maybe stiffness, possibly, I don't know. I

2215
07:50:01.959 --> 07:50:10.000
notice my shoulders are also wanting to flex for some reason.

2216
07:50:12.159 --> 07:50:19.560
I think that's probably part of my upper back, that

2217
07:50:19.759 --> 07:50:24.680
connection between my shoulders and my upper back, because I

2218
07:50:24.720 --> 07:50:29.759
can move my shoulders and stretch the muscles in my back,

2219
07:50:32.240 --> 07:50:38.759
moving the shoulders backwards or up which then moves. I

2220
07:50:38.840 --> 07:50:54.959
think it's the scapulous in your back. It feels quite nice. Actually,

2221
07:51:00.319 --> 07:51:03.479
a good thing about this is you can if you

2222
07:51:03.639 --> 07:51:17.560
want to, you can just flex or stimulate the various

2223
07:51:17.759 --> 07:51:25.240
muscles in your body gently in order to get more

2224
07:51:25.279 --> 07:51:35.599
of a sense of how they feel. And when you're relaxing,

2225
07:51:40.400 --> 07:51:44.439
when you do tense and muscle, then you let it

2226
07:51:44.599 --> 07:51:52.000
go and you let it relax. It relaxes way more

2227
07:51:53.639 --> 07:52:03.919
than it would normally. You have to feel that you're

2228
07:52:03.919 --> 07:52:07.560
able to do that. There's no point in doing it

2229
07:52:07.799 --> 07:52:13.599
if there's an issue with the per part of your body.

2230
07:52:17.040 --> 07:52:23.680
You need to be gentle with yourself at all times

2231
07:52:26.279 --> 07:52:37.799
when relaxing deeply, It's important to be kind to yourself.

2232
07:52:45.400 --> 07:52:53.840
As you notice your mind. How much has your mind

2233
07:52:54.159 --> 07:53:21.400
slowed down since we started this recording. How came and

2234
07:53:21.680 --> 07:53:33.000
peaceful is your mind right now? We have nothing to

2235
07:53:33.119 --> 07:53:43.000
think about and just my voice to listen to. Because

2236
07:53:43.080 --> 07:53:54.040
you know the intention behind this recording, this relaxation. At

2237
07:53:54.080 --> 07:54:00.520
the very least, for you to feel more relaxed at

2238
07:54:00.560 --> 07:54:03.919
the end of the recording than you did at the beginning.

2239
07:54:09.080 --> 07:54:17.720
At the very least, fro your mind to slow down

2240
07:54:20.599 --> 07:54:33.400
because your body continues to relax because that's what you

2241
07:54:35.040 --> 07:54:44.520
want to happen. That's what you expect.

2242
07:54:48.119 --> 07:54:49.040
To happen.

2243
07:54:54.799 --> 07:55:12.400
For relaxation to fill mm hmm your body, maybe calm

2244
07:55:12.599 --> 07:55:21.119
your mind to the point of boredom. When you start

2245
07:55:21.479 --> 07:56:04.959
maybe to drift away, drifting, it's almost as if you're

2246
07:56:08.200 --> 07:56:16.400
moving further away from your body in your mind, just

2247
07:56:16.759 --> 07:56:28.560
leaving that there, kind of liking it an escape pod

2248
07:56:29.319 --> 07:56:33.520
and a spaceship a movie, a space movie. You know,

2249
07:56:33.639 --> 07:56:37.520
when they get into a little pod in it. Since

2250
07:56:37.639 --> 07:56:53.720
the month far away from the spaceship, safe to dream,

2251
07:57:02.319 --> 07:58:35.400
I continue to relax, drifting slo and peace and peace

2252
07:58:56.599 --> 07:59:10.400
and focus see on that feeling of those individual parts

2253
07:59:11.040 --> 07:59:27.360
of your body that are relaxing one by one. You

2254
07:59:27.520 --> 07:59:39.840
may find that every now and then you realize that

2255
07:59:43.200 --> 07:59:51.799
you weren't listening to my voice because your mind started

2256
07:59:52.000 --> 08:00:06.479
to imagine something different, maybe started to almost move into

2257
08:00:07.439 --> 08:00:15.720
some kind of a dreamy state, and then you become

2258
08:00:15.799 --> 08:00:23.400
aware of my voice again. And even though you may

2259
08:00:25.439 --> 08:00:30.400
want to focus on my voice, you may also wish

2260
08:00:30.759 --> 08:00:44.119
to allow your mind to just drift naturally into that

2261
08:00:44.479 --> 08:01:06.680
space of comfort and safety. As you feel more comfort

2262
08:01:08.560 --> 08:01:22.319
spreading through your body like a warm blanket covering you gently,

2263
08:01:26.319 --> 08:01:44.439
keeping your body it just the perfect temperature, and even

2264
08:01:44.599 --> 08:01:56.599
if you can hear background sounds, they just don't seem

2265
08:01:56.759 --> 08:02:13.520
to matter anymore. There's that sense of peace spreads through

2266
08:02:13.599 --> 08:02:27.240
your mind like a gentle breeze, yet strong enough to

2267
08:02:27.439 --> 08:02:43.680
blow away all negativity, strong enough to remove from your

2268
08:02:43.840 --> 08:03:01.639
mind any anxiety or stress that was there before, and

2269
08:03:01.919 --> 08:03:12.599
blow away any other thoughts or feelings then just don't

2270
08:03:12.959 --> 08:03:37.200
fit with the sense relaxation that is feeling your body

2271
08:03:42.240 --> 08:03:59.680
end your mind, and as you focus on your mind

2272
08:04:01.880 --> 08:04:07.200
and count down from ten down to one, and with

2273
08:04:07.560 --> 08:04:33.439
each number you hear, your mind will become slightly more relaxed,

2274
08:04:36.200 --> 08:04:44.560
just just slightly so from ten down to nine, just

2275
08:04:44.680 --> 08:04:51.959
a slight movement. From nine down to eight, just another

2276
08:04:53.880 --> 08:05:08.639
small change in how you feel. Eight down to seven.

2277
08:05:11.400 --> 08:05:16.840
That feeling is a gap, almost like a gap that

2278
08:05:17.200 --> 08:05:26.840
starts to get wider, the gap between those feelings that

2279
08:05:27.040 --> 08:05:34.000
you used to have in your mind compared to the

2280
08:05:34.159 --> 08:05:41.680
feelings you have there growing now, feelings of comfort and

2281
08:05:41.959 --> 08:05:53.599
security and confidence. And that gap becomes wider. Eight down

2282
08:05:53.720 --> 08:06:01.159
to seven, seven down to six. When you get to five,

2283
08:06:03.520 --> 08:06:12.799
your mind will start to have a certain physical sensation,

2284
08:06:17.040 --> 08:06:22.880
almost like there's a magnet outside of your head sucking

2285
08:06:23.840 --> 08:06:29.639
the tension and the stress and any remaining feelings that

2286
08:06:29.759 --> 08:06:40.840
you don't want, sucking them out through your skull. And

2287
08:06:40.959 --> 08:06:47.400
then down to four you could start to really experience

2288
08:06:47.599 --> 08:07:00.560
that sense of not just emptiness, but space full of

2289
08:07:00.799 --> 08:07:12.720
fresh air, place where you can stretch. It's almost as

2290
08:07:12.799 --> 08:07:16.599
if as you go down to four and three, your

2291
08:07:16.799 --> 08:07:21.560
mind is expanding, with this sense.

2292
08:07:24.159 --> 08:07:25.520
Of peace.

2293
08:07:26.880 --> 08:07:37.200
And tranquility growing as it moved down to When you

2294
08:07:37.279 --> 08:07:46.680
get to one, your mind just feels exactly how you

2295
08:07:47.040 --> 08:08:07.080
want to feel, almost perfect feeling, maybe a sensation that

2296
08:08:08.759 --> 08:08:18.119
you'd like to keep a place that's safe, where nothing

2297
08:08:21.680 --> 08:08:36.880
can affect you at all, and you can stay in

2298
08:08:37.000 --> 08:08:45.880
that that space of comfort and confidence, confident in your

2299
08:08:46.000 --> 08:08:54.159
own ability to create this space and this feeling of

2300
08:08:54.360 --> 08:09:03.080
comfort within your own mind just by counting ten down

2301
08:09:03.159 --> 08:09:10.159
to one. And this is something that you can do

2302
08:09:10.400 --> 08:09:19.319
yourself when you're on your own a time when you

2303
08:09:19.479 --> 08:09:23.279
can maybe sit down, maybe just for a few minutes,

2304
08:09:27.880 --> 08:09:38.919
close your eyes, it just count slowly from ten down

2305
08:09:39.040 --> 08:09:50.639
to one and re experience these feelings in your mind.

2306
08:09:56.479 --> 08:10:00.799
And when you feel that way in your mind, your

2307
08:10:00.880 --> 08:10:15.439
body copies your mind and that feeling. It's spread through

2308
08:10:15.639 --> 08:10:22.759
your spine and your nervous system into every part of

2309
08:10:22.880 --> 08:10:35.439
your body, travels through your blood stream, healing and relaxing

2310
08:10:37.639 --> 08:10:55.599
every particle of your existence. And we can we can

2311
08:10:55.759 --> 08:11:04.159
practice this a few times before the end of the recording,

2312
08:11:04.799 --> 08:11:10.639
and then you can practice on your own. And each

2313
08:11:10.919 --> 08:11:24.119
time you count from ten about one, the feelings of comfort, calmness,

2314
08:11:24.319 --> 08:11:42.759
and deep deep relaxation becomes stronger and deeper, filling your

2315
08:11:44.040 --> 08:11:54.000
mind and your brain with these positive chemicals spread throughout

2316
08:11:54.080 --> 08:12:03.880
your body, relaxing you so quickly, relaxing your whole body

2317
08:12:04.119 --> 08:12:17.319
and mind so very very easily, just by counting from

2318
08:12:17.520 --> 08:12:21.479
ten down to one.

2319
08:12:26.439 --> 08:12:27.880
That's what we're going to do now.

2320
08:12:28.720 --> 08:12:32.639
I'm going to count from ten down to one. I'd

2321
08:12:32.840 --> 08:12:37.159
like you to repeat the number after me. So when

2322
08:12:37.200 --> 08:12:45.799
I say ten, you can just repeat to yourself ten.

2323
08:12:51.400 --> 08:13:00.759
Just notice, be aware of how you feel in your

2324
08:13:00.919 --> 08:13:10.439
mind and your body, and when I say nine, you

2325
08:13:10.520 --> 08:13:25.959
can repeat to yourself nine a gain, noticing the increase

2326
08:13:26.319 --> 08:13:34.520
in comfort and calmness in your mind and in your body.

2327
08:13:40.520 --> 08:13:49.959
The same when I say eight, when I say seven, six,

2328
08:13:52.479 --> 08:14:06.799
when I say five, four, when I say three, two,

2329
08:14:11.200 --> 08:14:25.000
and lastly, when I say one, you can repeat that number. Now,

2330
08:14:25.119 --> 08:14:30.680
of course, when you do this on your own without

2331
08:14:30.799 --> 08:14:35.799
listening to me, you can say the numbers or whatever

2332
08:14:37.400 --> 08:14:45.880
speed that you feel is necessary for you, so you

2333
08:14:46.000 --> 08:14:51.959
can adapt. So you feel you want to say the

2334
08:14:52.119 --> 08:14:59.639
numbers ten down to one faster than I do, then

2335
08:14:59.680 --> 08:15:02.080
you go go ahead and do that. Or if you

2336
08:15:02.279 --> 08:15:06.279
feel when you do it yourself that you'd like to

2337
08:15:06.520 --> 08:15:15.119
have more space between the numbers, maybe take a lot

2338
08:15:15.360 --> 08:15:22.919
longer to get from ten all the way down to one,

2339
08:15:27.119 --> 08:15:39.680
that's your choice also to do. So I'm going to

2340
08:15:39.840 --> 08:15:48.200
count from ten down to one, and when to get

2341
08:15:48.240 --> 08:15:55.479
to one, that will be the end of this recording, unless,

2342
08:15:55.560 --> 08:15:59.959
of course, you're listening with music, then the music will continue.

2343
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No.

2344
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Eight twenty ninety eighty seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four,

2345
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three two one. Now open your eyes, noticing how you

2346
08:22:33.439 --> 08:22:41.840
physically feel having counted down from twenty to one, allowing

2347
08:22:42.639 --> 08:22:47.040
stress and tension to leave through your fingertips and your toast.

2348
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And as you focus on your fingertips, maybe they feel

2349
08:22:53.279 --> 08:22:59.880
a little bit tingling, which is I suppose quite understand

2350
08:23:00.080 --> 08:23:04.479
and considering the tension has been exiting your body through

2351
08:23:04.520 --> 08:23:13.439
your fingertips. So now I'm going to count from twenty

2352
08:23:13.520 --> 08:23:20.959
down to one again. This time you can feel relief

2353
08:23:21.080 --> 08:23:26.959
of tension and stress, any anxiety that you may have

2354
08:23:31.639 --> 08:23:40.040
leaving through your stomach, just leaving through your stomach, almost

2355
08:23:40.080 --> 08:23:45.840
as if it's just releasing the hole of your stomach,

2356
08:23:46.680 --> 08:23:51.520
your navel to just above your chest or below your chest,

2357
08:23:51.639 --> 08:23:55.840
rather so surrounding your belly by an area. The whole

2358
08:23:55.919 --> 08:24:02.319
area you can feel the tension of your body where

2359
08:24:02.319 --> 08:24:07.799
there's left. Just release from that area, and you may

2360
08:24:07.959 --> 08:24:12.959
notice that your stomach will become very relaxed. As my

2361
08:24:13.159 --> 08:25:39.000
countdown from twenty down to one. Now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four,

2362
08:25:43.159 --> 08:25:59.880
three two one, you can live in your hands again.

2363
08:26:00.040 --> 08:26:03.680
You choose where you can just keep them closed because

2364
08:26:03.720 --> 08:26:10.560
it feels relaxing. Just notice how your stomach feels. I

2365
08:26:10.680 --> 08:26:14.439
notice as your focus. Just do a little scan of

2366
08:26:14.520 --> 08:26:27.919
your body to notice your body feels focusing upper body, back, chest, stomach,

2367
08:26:28.159 --> 08:26:39.520
lex yns, hands, feet, just noticing, and you know you

2368
08:26:39.680 --> 08:26:46.560
may start to feel more the sense of tiredness, which

2369
08:26:46.720 --> 08:26:51.520
may be the reason of listening to this recording because

2370
08:26:51.680 --> 08:27:00.680
you would like to let go completely of everything, drift

2371
08:27:02.400 --> 08:27:17.639
or into a nice, natural, calm, relaxing sleep. So now

2372
08:27:17.799 --> 08:27:27.439
we're going to focus on your forehead, and if you choose,

2373
08:27:27.520 --> 08:27:30.759
you can incorporate your eyes in this focus as well.

2374
08:27:32.639 --> 08:27:38.040
Your forehead and your eyes. It's that whole area basically

2375
08:27:39.000 --> 08:27:41.919
almost as if you were wearing a mask, you know,

2376
08:27:42.159 --> 08:27:46.479
like a I don't know, a Batman mask or something,

2377
08:27:47.439 --> 08:27:52.279
or I'm trying to sorrow or something, you know, the

2378
08:27:52.360 --> 08:27:55.479
kind of mask that covers your eyes but also covers

2379
08:27:55.520 --> 08:28:01.799
quite a lot of the forehead. Focusing on that area

2380
08:28:02.319 --> 08:28:05.919
because that's the area that we're now going to release tension,

2381
08:28:06.360 --> 08:28:11.840
stress from your mind, your brain, from your mind, and

2382
08:28:12.560 --> 08:28:17.119
any tension that you may have remain your face, in

2383
08:28:17.200 --> 08:28:23.200
your neck and your jaw, your eyes, your forehead, or

2384
08:28:23.319 --> 08:28:29.520
your scalp. So basically any tension within your head area,

2385
08:28:30.240 --> 08:28:37.400
including your mind and your brain, that's going to be

2386
08:28:37.560 --> 08:28:45.959
released through your forehead and your eyes. As I count

2387
08:28:46.040 --> 08:29:57.560
down again from twenty down to one now twenty eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight,

2388
08:30:02.400 --> 08:30:12.520
seven six five.

2389
08:30:17.840 --> 08:30:22.759
W three.

2390
08:30:32.000 --> 08:30:48.599
One. Noticing she scared your face with jaw, your eyes,

2391
08:30:49.959 --> 08:30:58.959
the cheap bones, your ears, the forehead, your scalp, your neck,

2392
08:31:00.439 --> 08:31:03.759
back of your neck and front of your neck, the

2393
08:31:04.000 --> 08:31:14.919
side of your neck, and the throat. Noticing being aware

2394
08:31:15.200 --> 08:31:26.479
of the comfort increased being relaxation. Not just in your

2395
08:31:26.639 --> 08:31:32.000
head and neck and mind, also the rest of your body.

2396
08:31:37.279 --> 08:31:44.400
Just notice how loose and calm you film and how easily.

2397
08:31:46.119 --> 08:31:47.639
It is to just let go.

2398
08:31:50.479 --> 08:31:51.119
Completely.

2399
08:31:53.959 --> 08:31:54.319
They go.

2400
08:31:56.759 --> 08:32:15.279
Completely how easely. So what I need to do about

2401
08:32:15.479 --> 08:32:18.680
is I wanted to focus on the top of your

2402
08:32:18.799 --> 08:32:30.919
head that we're going to allow in every last piece

2403
08:32:31.000 --> 08:32:37.400
of tension or stress the mind be lingering or hiding

2404
08:32:37.599 --> 08:32:41.520
in your body or mind, my head.

2405
08:32:42.840 --> 08:32:43.240
To just.

2406
08:32:44.959 --> 08:32:50.919
Be sucked out at the top of your head at

2407
08:32:51.080 --> 08:33:02.040
least to yeah, I'm sucked down into the clouds man,

2408
08:33:02.279 --> 08:33:07.639
to be cloud about your head almost like a whirlpool.

2409
08:33:08.520 --> 08:33:13.319
This is gonna suck that tension out the top of

2410
08:33:13.400 --> 08:33:25.119
your head, just take away. Good to focus. Imagine an

2411
08:33:25.279 --> 08:33:29.560
opening on the top of your head with a tension

2412
08:33:29.680 --> 08:33:35.599
and stress and any remaining issues, maybe worries of concerns,

2413
08:33:35.799 --> 08:33:37.279
that are no use to you.

2414
08:33:37.479 --> 08:33:41.240
Now you can all be sucked down at the top

2415
08:33:41.279 --> 08:33:42.040
of your head.

2416
08:33:43.639 --> 08:33:49.520
You've taken away. As I count down again, I'm twenty

2417
08:33:49.959 --> 08:34:30.279
down to one now, twenty nineteen, eighteen seventy sixty fifty

2418
08:34:35.680 --> 08:35:33.159
fourteeneen twelve even nine, eight, seven, six, five.

2419
08:35:38.439 --> 08:35:43.520
Four three.

2420
08:35:53.080 --> 08:36:03.959
One breath.

2421
08:36:08.759 --> 08:36:21.759
You notice how you feel, how relaxed and calm you

2422
08:36:21.959 --> 08:36:36.040
physically and mentally feel right now, help be peaceful your

2423
08:36:36.319 --> 08:36:42.599
mind feels. It feels so nice to just let go,

2424
08:36:44.880 --> 08:36:54.159
to give yourself some space to breathe easily, to think calmly,

2425
08:36:59.000 --> 08:37:03.840
and just to take a break from all that pointless

2426
08:37:04.040 --> 08:37:09.840
worry concerns about things that you don't need to think

2427
08:37:09.919 --> 08:37:17.360
about right now, because.

2428
08:37:18.639 --> 08:37:20.799
This is your time to let go.

2429
08:37:22.119 --> 08:37:31.919
This is your space to enjoy feeling deeply relaxed, peaceful

2430
08:37:32.040 --> 08:37:39.319
in your mind, relaxed in your body. They can feel

2431
08:37:39.880 --> 08:37:49.680
so good, so nice to just not have to do anything,

2432
08:37:52.000 --> 08:38:00.959
to be able to really enjoy that serenity that comes

2433
08:38:02.479 --> 08:38:08.599
of letting go completely, that peacefulness that comes with.

2434
08:38:15.319 --> 08:38:16.680
Being in this.

2435
08:38:18.479 --> 08:38:28.520
Peaceful space. And you can keep this sense of calmness

2436
08:38:29.400 --> 08:38:40.520
for as long as you choose. If you choose to

2437
08:38:40.759 --> 08:38:46.479
drift off into a deep, healing, natural sleep.

2438
08:38:47.759 --> 08:38:48.560
Then you can do that.

2439
08:38:52.279 --> 08:39:00.479
It's completely up to you, and you can keep this

2440
08:39:00.840 --> 08:39:06.200
feeling of calmness physically and in your mind for as

2441
08:39:06.400 --> 08:39:20.759
long as you choose to feel completely relaxed, completely relax.

2442
08:39:24.080 --> 08:39:29.720
And I'd like you to make up your mind that

2443
08:39:29.799 --> 08:39:40.759
you're going to relax, and I want to explore that

2444
08:39:40.959 --> 08:39:46.279
with you what it feels like when you actually decide

2445
08:39:48.479 --> 08:39:53.159
that you're going to relax, not forcing yourself, but giving

2446
08:39:53.240 --> 08:39:59.200
yourself that. Yes, it is a command, really, isn't it.

2447
08:39:59.279 --> 08:40:06.639
When you're telling yourself relax in a gentle but firm

2448
08:40:06.720 --> 08:40:14.000
way that only you can really tell yourself in that way.

2449
08:40:14.880 --> 08:40:16.680
You can't really have someone else saying to you and

2450
08:40:16.720 --> 08:40:22.799
now it relax, relax, you know, and it needs to

2451
08:40:22.840 --> 08:40:26.159
be gentle, but you can't. Someone else can't really have

2452
08:40:26.479 --> 08:40:35.360
the same the same kind of influence or power that

2453
08:40:35.680 --> 08:40:43.279
you have over your own physicality, over how you feel,

2454
08:40:49.159 --> 08:40:54.040
because when you say it to yourself it means more.

2455
08:40:55.159 --> 08:41:01.639
It's personal, and your brain and your unconscious mind and

2456
08:41:01.759 --> 08:41:08.319
your body listens to what you say. So, for example,

2457
08:41:08.919 --> 08:41:11.639
we'll test it out and do a little test if

2458
08:41:11.639 --> 08:41:15.400
you little tests along the way, and you can get

2459
08:41:15.560 --> 08:41:22.040
more of an idea of the force, a positive force

2460
08:41:22.200 --> 08:41:28.919
that you can have in creating a sense of comfort

2461
08:41:29.119 --> 08:41:33.919
and relaxation in your body and your mind quite quickly,

2462
08:41:35.720 --> 08:41:46.400
just by you telling yourself to relax. So I'm going

2463
08:41:46.479 --> 08:41:53.439
to start by let's focus on your hands. So focus

2464
08:41:53.520 --> 08:41:56.159
on your hands and just tell your hands to relax,

2465
08:41:57.159 --> 08:42:02.080
and just say relax. As you focus on your hands,

2466
08:42:04.319 --> 08:42:08.880
you could say my hands are relaxed, or I want

2467
08:42:08.919 --> 08:42:13.240
my hands to relax. I think if you actually do

2468
08:42:13.360 --> 08:42:21.360
it directly by focusing and imagining that your hands can

2469
08:42:21.599 --> 08:42:24.240
hear what you're saying. You know they've got little ears,

2470
08:42:25.040 --> 08:42:30.159
which is a little weird. So talking to your hands

2471
08:42:30.880 --> 08:42:47.200
and just say relax, medicine. Now your hands start to relax.

2472
08:43:00.000 --> 08:43:03.119
Focus on your eyes and tell your eyes to relax.

2473
08:43:04.279 --> 08:43:08.959
You just say in the same word relax, and find

2474
08:43:09.000 --> 08:43:12.000
the right tone for you.

2475
08:43:14.560 --> 08:43:15.759
You know, I might say.

2476
08:43:16.200 --> 08:43:25.439
Relax, but you you might say relax or relax. You know,

2477
08:43:25.759 --> 08:43:31.400
you might say it differently to yourself, and that's important

2478
08:43:32.319 --> 08:43:38.400
for you to gauge what feels right for you. To

2479
08:43:38.599 --> 08:43:43.759
just tell your eyes to relax whilst focusing on your eyes,

2480
08:43:44.279 --> 08:43:49.000
your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your eyebrows and

2481
08:43:49.240 --> 08:44:24.720
just tell your eyes directly relax now. Now I just

2482
08:44:24.840 --> 08:44:35.159
did that myself, and sometimes you may feel that you

2483
08:44:35.360 --> 08:44:40.759
need a bit more time for the different parts to relax,

2484
08:44:41.599 --> 08:44:45.479
you know, because I start talking again and maybe that

2485
08:44:45.680 --> 08:44:49.319
part hasn't relaxed fully. But what will happen is it

2486
08:44:49.360 --> 08:44:53.959
will just continue to relax even though I'm talking. That's

2487
08:44:54.040 --> 08:45:01.639
happened with my eyes. Something else I noticed is when

2488
08:45:01.680 --> 08:45:05.799
I started focusing on my eyes, that actually almost became

2489
08:45:05.919 --> 08:45:08.080
They got worse before they got better in a way.

2490
08:45:08.799 --> 08:45:11.880
So I felt a degree of tension growing in my

2491
08:45:12.040 --> 08:45:17.959
eyes and then disappearing. So I think what that was

2492
08:45:18.080 --> 08:45:23.240
really was just me becoming more aware of the tension

2493
08:45:24.360 --> 08:45:28.720
that was already there that I I wasn't focused on

2494
08:45:28.840 --> 08:45:36.400
it before, so I wasn't really acknowledging it or really

2495
08:45:38.000 --> 08:45:51.959
conscious to those feelings. Yeah, my eyes still continuing to relax,

2496
08:45:52.599 --> 08:45:58.279
as well as my hands. Actually, my hands have got

2497
08:45:58.319 --> 08:46:04.520
a certain kind of energy, like not buzzing, but I

2498
08:46:04.599 --> 08:46:09.680
can kind of feel a degree of energy in my hands.

2499
08:46:12.919 --> 08:46:17.639
Maybe that's where the tension is being released. Maybe that's

2500
08:46:17.759 --> 08:46:27.639
causing that. The next part, I think we should focus

2501
08:46:27.680 --> 08:46:30.080
on the back of the neck that's the part was

2502
08:46:30.159 --> 08:46:34.919
quite often well for me, holds tension. I don't know

2503
08:46:34.959 --> 08:46:38.799
about it for yourself, but I think it's quite a

2504
08:46:39.000 --> 08:46:46.439
standard place where tension is sometimes held. So and I'm

2505
08:46:46.520 --> 08:46:49.599
doing exactly what you're doing as you do it as well,

2506
08:46:49.759 --> 08:46:53.720
so I'm telling my body parts to relax as well.

2507
08:46:54.479 --> 08:46:56.400
So if you tell your neck the back.

2508
08:46:56.279 --> 08:46:58.759
Of your neck, focus on the back of your neck,

2509
08:46:58.919 --> 08:47:05.880
and just say relax in your own words, in your

2510
08:47:05.919 --> 08:47:09.560
own tone, in your own voice. You can say out loud,

2511
08:47:09.680 --> 08:47:13.840
or you can just say it to yourself internally, but

2512
08:47:14.000 --> 08:47:18.599
you're focusing, and you're saying it literally to the back

2513
08:47:18.680 --> 08:47:21.400
of your neck, as if the back of your neck

2514
08:47:21.439 --> 08:47:28.159
you can actually hear what you're saying. So do that now,

2515
08:47:28.400 --> 08:47:32.919
just say relax the back of your neck, and I'll

2516
08:47:32.959 --> 08:48:14.680
do the same. Now. What I noticed, and you may

2517
08:48:14.880 --> 08:48:19.159
have had a similar thing, is even though I was

2518
08:48:19.279 --> 08:48:27.880
focusing on the back of my neck, other parts started

2519
08:48:27.959 --> 08:48:34.159
to I don't know, showed themselves to me, or maybe

2520
08:48:34.360 --> 08:48:37.040
because they want to be relaxed as well. But I

2521
08:48:37.159 --> 08:48:41.159
started noticing the feelings in my shoulders at tension in

2522
08:48:41.240 --> 08:48:46.919
my shoulders and in my upper back. Whether that was

2523
08:48:47.040 --> 08:48:52.400
because my back of my neck was saying, well, I'm

2524
08:48:52.400 --> 08:48:57.240
pretty much okay. It's the other parts to need attention,

2525
08:49:03.639 --> 08:49:05.759
but my low of my back of my neck is

2526
08:49:05.840 --> 08:49:10.000
still relaxing. But I just became more aware of other

2527
08:49:10.119 --> 08:49:17.840
parts that needed attention. Now, this might happen, and it's not.

2528
08:49:19.439 --> 08:49:22.000
It doesn't mean that it's going wrong. It just means

2529
08:49:22.799 --> 08:49:28.880
you're being notified of more places that also want to

2530
08:49:28.919 --> 08:49:35.720
feel relaxed. So I'm going to focus on my upper

2531
08:49:35.799 --> 08:49:40.720
back so you can do the same even if you

2532
08:49:40.840 --> 08:49:45.840
don't have any feelings of tension that are obvious in

2533
08:49:45.959 --> 08:49:50.080
your other back, if you just focus on your back

2534
08:49:50.159 --> 08:49:57.439
and the whole area from the shoulder blades down to

2535
08:49:57.520 --> 08:50:01.840
the middle of your back and your spy. For me,

2536
08:50:01.959 --> 08:50:10.040
it's more the shoulder placed more. Yeah, that's the parts.

2537
08:50:10.119 --> 08:50:14.400
They're really sort of given me.

2538
08:50:16.080 --> 08:50:16.439
That not.

2539
08:50:18.360 --> 08:50:20.639
Do needs relax in Yourself's.

2540
08:50:20.200 --> 08:50:23.599
Gonna ask that wad to relax and you can do

2541
08:50:23.720 --> 08:50:24.000
the same.

2542
08:50:24.119 --> 08:50:50.959
Now relax you up the back. Something strange happened.

2543
08:50:50.720 --> 08:50:51.639
There, and this.

2544
08:50:53.159 --> 08:50:54.000
Often happens.

2545
08:50:54.080 --> 08:50:54.959
I've been doing this for.

2546
08:50:57.520 --> 08:51:03.680
Over sixteen years or something, and often no one surprised

2547
08:51:04.599 --> 08:51:11.360
but amazed really that there can be a feeling. So

2548
08:51:11.560 --> 08:51:14.159
when I was focusing on the back of my neck.

2549
08:51:15.040 --> 08:51:19.159
My upper back was starting to feel quite stressed and

2550
08:51:19.919 --> 08:51:25.479
in need of attention. As soon as I started talking

2551
08:51:25.639 --> 08:51:30.520
to you about my upper back and talking about, you know,

2552
08:51:31.000 --> 08:51:35.880
getting ready to ask the upper back to relax my

2553
08:51:36.119 --> 08:51:41.759
the back already started to relax. It's almost as if

2554
08:51:41.799 --> 08:51:47.400
it doesn't need to hear the words, just needs intention,

2555
08:51:52.200 --> 08:52:04.240
just needs to be noticed. That is something that often

2556
08:52:04.439 --> 08:52:11.439
happens in this type of situation is when you start

2557
08:52:12.479 --> 08:52:17.479
to relax a couple of parts of your body, as

2558
08:52:17.560 --> 08:52:23.959
we've done with our hands, our eyes and eyelids, and.

2559
08:52:24.200 --> 08:52:32.919
Now back of the neck, top of the back, up

2560
08:52:33.000 --> 08:52:33.520
the back.

2561
08:52:34.680 --> 08:52:38.639
The rest of the body seems to just take notice

2562
08:52:41.400 --> 08:52:49.680
and decide in its own way to start relaxing. Other

2563
08:52:49.799 --> 08:53:00.560
parts of your body start to just become looser. It's

2564
08:53:00.720 --> 08:53:02.799
kind of like a bit of an avalanche, you know,

2565
08:53:04.439 --> 08:53:07.840
the little ball starts rolling. Before you know it, the

2566
08:53:07.959 --> 08:53:20.240
whole of your body is completely relaxed and can't and

2567
08:53:20.360 --> 08:53:28.400
if you focus on your face, you focus on your eyes,

2568
08:53:30.759 --> 08:53:36.240
your eyelids, your eyebrows, and the muscles.

2569
08:53:36.080 --> 08:53:42.919
Around your eyes, maybe you start to.

2570
08:53:43.040 --> 08:53:47.959
Notice that your forehead is more relaxed than it was

2571
08:53:50.000 --> 08:53:55.360
maybe your face is more relaxed. I would say my

2572
08:53:55.680 --> 08:53:59.560
entire face is a lot more relaxed than it was.

2573
08:54:10.840 --> 08:54:16.639
So you're going to focus now on your shoulders again,

2574
08:54:16.880 --> 08:54:17.639
just like before.

2575
08:54:19.040 --> 08:54:19.759
Just tell your.

2576
08:54:19.680 --> 08:54:23.520
Shoulders, and you can't do them individually. You can do

2577
08:54:23.639 --> 08:54:27.720
the right shoulder and left shoulder. I just didn't do

2578
08:54:27.880 --> 08:54:33.000
both at the same time. Just tell your shoulders as

2579
08:54:33.080 --> 08:54:37.080
you focus on them in your mind, focus on them

2580
08:54:37.080 --> 08:54:42.159
how you feel. Maybe you can see them in your

2581
08:54:42.240 --> 08:54:48.080
mind's eye. Just tell your shoulders.

2582
08:54:51.360 --> 08:54:52.479
To relax.

2583
08:55:29.599 --> 08:55:42.799
As nice as they were laxe, but I didn't notice,

2584
08:55:45.479 --> 08:55:52.400
especially with my back, is the connection between the different parts,

2585
08:55:53.919 --> 08:56:03.639
the back, the shoulders, the neck being all connected and

2586
08:56:03.880 --> 08:56:10.400
being such a large part of your body, it's almost

2587
08:56:10.520 --> 08:56:19.119
hard to separate them from each other. My lower back

2588
08:56:19.240 --> 08:56:20.759
is starting to relax.

2589
08:56:20.400 --> 08:56:28.080
On the same Maybe I'm going.

2590
08:56:27.959 --> 08:56:34.000
Too slow and that could be an issue because we

2591
08:56:34.119 --> 08:56:40.159
all go at different speeds. And the idea of the

2592
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beginning of this recording was for you to be able

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to just say to yourself, relax without focusing on any

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particular part heart of your body. Because when you know

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that telling your hands to relax and your hand relax,

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you tell your eyelids, your eyes, and muscles around your

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eyes and your eyebrows to relax, and they relax. You

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tell the back of your neck to relax, and it relaxes.

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You till you're up back.

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To relax, they relaxes. You tell your shoulders.

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To relax, but they relax.

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You told your hands to relax, they relaxed, and they continued.

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To relax.

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And you told your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes,

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your eyebrows to relax, they relaxed.

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And continue.

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To relax. When you told the back of your neck

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focused on the back of your neck and told it

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to relax, they relaxed and continued to relax.

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When you told your upper back.

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To relax, be relaxed and continued to relax. That's with

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your shoulders. You told your shoulders to relax, in your

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shoulders relaxed and continued to relax.

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And it's not just stand.

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It's that the rest of your body has also been listening,

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and their relaxation has been spreading. So from your eyes,

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the relaxation spread to your forehead, around your face.

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Into your skin, into your jaw.

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Into the fronts and sides.

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Of your neck, all the way down your chest and stomach.

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The relaxed hands and shoulders.

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Be tapped through your arms as.

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Your forearms, your up arms, your elbows, your wrists.

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Let you go a lower bag.

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Your hips, but exploiting you'll just start to relax and

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continue in comfort spreading through your legs all the way

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down to your ankles, the tops of your feet, the

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sight of your feet, and the bottoms of your feet,

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relaxing into your tours.

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Each time relaxing.

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Oh please, And if your body relaxes more, your mind

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becomes slow, peaceful. It's a point where if you choose

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to fall asleep, he can easily do that. Easy to

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the way, because there's nothing more in your mind to praise.

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Space on your body continues.

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To drive.

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With that connection between your body. Relaxing. The word, then

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you say to yourself, relax.

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Means that you don't need to.

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Focus on just one part. You can just focus on

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your entire body. Say the powful word. Who relacs, And

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there's those familiar sensations of comfort spreading throughout your body,

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loosening and calm.

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And heasing every part to your body.

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Easing relaxed.

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So all we need to do now just tell yourself.

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Relax, sir.

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Completely. He so.

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Starting down with number twenty ninety eighteen seventy sixty fifty

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four thirty.

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Too well, the dandy No. Eight the us spee.

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One.

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So get down ten to one, ten.

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Nine, eight.

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Seven six.

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Five four.

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Three two.

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One.

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And maybe that was a bit too quick in order

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to relax. Maybe it's a too fast for you to

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notice the calming of your body, maybe even a little

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bit of pressure there. Like you'll count it down from

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ten to one. What do you expect me to do? Man,

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expect me to just to go with floppy just because.

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You're out down If you try it again, but this time,

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I'll go this slower.

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This time, and you focus on the whole of your

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body before we focus on your legs. Just notice how

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your body does start to feel more relaxed with every

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number that I count down.

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Ten nine.

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At eight, seven, six.

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Five four.

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Three one.

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I just notice how how you feel, generally, how your

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body feels. It's not necessarily even about.

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Counting down from ten to one.

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It's that space that you have, that space between being

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active physically or mentally, just sitting and lying down, just

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being there, not doing anything, not saying anything, or indeed

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and to think about anything. So it it opens up

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a space, you know, a bit of a space, a gap.

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And the more I camp down from tens of works,

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the bigger that gap becomes. So there's that gap of calmness,

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of comfort and relaxation. It's a nice feeling, and it

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moves those stresses or discomforts physically or emotionally moves our

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way allows you.

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To just.

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Slow down, someone to count again from ten down to one,

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and notice that gap widening, the gap. And as it widens,

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it's almost like that the stress and attention almost.

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Into the camp.

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Gives you that distance, that space. Yeah, ten, nine, eight, seven, six,

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five four three.

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What how did you want? What do you feel?

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Can you notice? Do you feel calm?

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Do you feel.

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Relaxed?

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Now? Focusing relist, relix.

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You just can start with focusing.

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On your thighs. Of course, it's not the most exciting

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thing to be doing, because I'm sure like most of

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your body is not. I'm not going on right now.

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Just focusing on the hole of your fires, the tops

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of your thighs, the sides of your fires, the bottoms.

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Of your thighs, out of thighs, inner thighs. Basically the

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hole of your fire that leads into your head and

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it goes down to your joints. Now, this is a

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big area. It's a very heavy Area's face strong, probably

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the strongest muscles in your body, and in your thighs.

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I don't think we perhaps would give enough attention to

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our thighs. Perhaps we don't.

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Knowledge how important our thighs are.

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To our lives, how much they actually do to us.

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Walk for our lives may seem so really weird. I

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think that all of our body parts, especially advice, needs

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some TLC. I did love to show earth. Then thank

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you gratitude for what advice do for us. And I

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know this may sound is strange.

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And maybe you think, why am I?

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Surely I should be able in the garden hugging a

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tree or something. It's hard to set a microphone up

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on a tree. That's what I'm doing some doors. Otherwise

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I would be outside hugging a tree. Now I can't

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see the television from the tree. You move down to

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your knees, getting such an important part, and I think

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we've done necessarily. I want to speak for myself here.

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I don't necessarily appreciate all that I need do for

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me until I have a problem with my me occasionally

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if I wor a bash it all it's aching for

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some reason, then that I realize how much it does

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have the benefit of being able to use my legs

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without any kind of physical discomfort is a beautiful thing

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that's possibly not appreciating until it's temporarily removed. You know

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that's comfort. Don't you focus on these? We can't as

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how your needs feel. You can have that sense of

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conratitude and love to your needs they grieve you. You

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can still have that attention and your files and can

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ratice how your figs feel, maybe latice that they are

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relaxing more deeply if you focus now on the bottoms

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of your lex machines and cardi bottoms or bis between

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these you think incorporates and the course of encourse so

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important in anyone's head, even like the slightest spray of

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an ankle. Who knows how.

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How much we take.

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Now in course of the grants. And it's kind of

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strange in a way when you think that, you know,

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logically our lists are a lot of thinner than the

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rest of their arms, which is okay, it doesn't I

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can't see any calling that I was just picking stuff

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up of course so much, you know, and the rest

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of our legs. And from a physics perspective, logical even

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it doesn't really make sense. For all this weight will

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ultimately be resting on your ankles then leading to your feet,

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a thin area, thin bal It does so much great work,

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supports us, supports our God in my lifetime, helps us

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to balance, helps you to get around and be my

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while it's a car muscles.

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Of course.

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What most stronger I couldn't see the cart cut muscles

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I didn't seem to do. Okay, dictose and what car

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muscles get some works three the car muscles if we

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use them, and they will use the legs your shoes.

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This to protect Alex shaped them away the most is

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a protector. Believe coos to close, you can't focus on

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the p's gonna focus on the nest nature. You think

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nothing stand an so maybe it should practice can help

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them in awareness, the same for your foes. Focusing on

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addis as he stood, that sensational in what's an energy?

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Because the boys boo bats becausensers. It's the muscles gets.

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M m.

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It spill outside, that's outside.

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Yeah, con sense.

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Sense fete say see what's what in side sun light,

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and

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Ye m