April 28, 2025

(music) (10 hours) Monday’s Boring Objects | LMBYTS #1340 | 28th April 2025

(music) (10 hours) Monday’s Boring Objects | LMBYTS #1340 | 28th April 2025
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Hello, Hello, and welcome to Jasonnewland dot com. My name's

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Jason Newland and welcome to let Me boil you to sleep.

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This is Monday's Boring Objects and today it's Monday, the

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twenty eighth of April twenty twenty five. And I'll tell

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you what right, it's eleven twenty I don't know why.

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I mean, I haven't made a recording since the last

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recording I did was Friday. I think I can't remember,

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do you do? I bought a dudder let me boil

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your pain away recording and in on Saturday. Possibly, Yeah,

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I did, yad did so? I did qun a Friday Friday.

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H that's weird, but yeah, so, but you know what,

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it's eleven eleven. What time does it say it was?

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It's eleven twenty one. I've had one hundred and eighty

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five downloads today, like the whole day, and our don't

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know what's going on. I can't I can't believe. I

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can't believe it. Oh yeah, So I've got a website

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Jasonnewland dot com. If you like, you can send me

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messages on there. The website's pretty good. It's all got

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all my latest recordings. Ultimately all my recordings are on there.

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And also Jason Newland's boring group is my Facebook group,

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so that's pretty cool. And what else my YouTube channel

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at Jason Newland the YouTube channels again, it's ever since, right,

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ever since I've been just uploading the latest recordings on there.

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It's gone a bit. I mean, I've had a couple

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of new subscribers today. But so I can't really complain that.

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It's just it's not what it was. But is it

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my fault? I don't want to be on screen. I

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don't want to be on a video. It's not my

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fault videos why for some reason, I was only a

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little lie down just now. The vine was on the

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window sill in the bedroom, was looking out, and everything's peaceful.

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He's some bathing. I'm just having a little rest listening

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to an audio book. I'm not really asleep. I'm just

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listening to an audio book, just laying down, rested, my body, rested,

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my eyes, rested, my mind, and out of nowhere right

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right right like starts barking I was. I get up

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and I say stop, stop, get down off there. And

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all I do is I touch him, I touch his back.

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I prodded him. I literally just put my hands on him.

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That's get down.

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He's ground at me.

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Like he's crazy, like I can't. I know he's a dog,

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and I know the dog's bark Okay, I'm aware of that.

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I've been around the world and I've had him for

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two and a half years, so I know that he barks. However,

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I have to keep his barking to a minimum because

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there is a there's an after effect. There's consequences of

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him barking too much, and that is neighbors getting annoy

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also other dogs barking as well. But none of that

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bothers me personally, I don't care, but it affects my neighbors.

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And then the sound, you know, then maybe music's put

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on it's very loud to cover up the bark barking.

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Then someone else puts their music up to cover up

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it's like to try and cover up that music. And

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it can just be that role on effect. So if

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I can keep him quiet. It's not that I expect

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people not to have music on sub to do what

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they want, but I don't want people to feel they

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have to drown out his barking. Do you know what

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I mean? In it you get me swear down. So

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I'm just trying to explain that I don't know. I'm

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not in one second moaning about my neighbors downstairs because

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they are brilliant neighbors, really brilliant. So yeah, I'm not

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not complaining. I mean, none of the neighbors really are

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an issue to me. They're all all right. So while

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we're while I'm being false, let's talk about what can

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I what my I thought about doing it like a

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three pronged thing. So what am I We could not

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do it together? Maybe what am I? Yeah, that's it,

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and I write it down because I remember it, but

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it's it's one of those weird things that I was

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thinking about this last night in bed. So three the three,

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I don't know what to call them. So so grateful one

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think I'm grateful about one thing I forgive and one

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thing I'm looking forward to. So I'm going to I'm

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going to try and start doing that. In case I

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haven't already said it, please only listen to this when

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you could safely close your eyes. So I'm going to try.

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And this is just a new thing I used to do,

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the gratitude thing. Three things you're grateful for. I struggled

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to find one sometimes, so I thought, I know when

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I'm feeling grateful, the list is endless. Okay, so I thought, okay,

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listen instead of putting, because this isn't supposed to be

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a test, This isn't supposed to be something that puts

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you on the spot. It's just a relaxing, calm, chilled

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out thing. So one thing that we're grateful for, one

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thing that we're all that we all forgive. It might

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be something you've already forgiven. It might be something that

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you decide, yeah, I forgive that, I forgive that person,

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or I forgive whatever. It could just be something really small.

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But you know what, if we do a small thing

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every day, it means they never build up. And then

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something we're looking forward to, and I know that that

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the literal term of looking forward to something is you're

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thinking about something that's about it's going to happen in

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the future. Is literally the term looking forward to, but

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it's not used in that way, is it In the

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English language. Generally it's something you may be not necessarily

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excited about, maybe excited, but something that you're feeling positive about,

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something that you're feeling good. You know, you feel nice.

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You think about it and you feel nice. Maybe and

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I realized I've just explained the very simple term to

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people that know what it means. I'm sorry. Do that

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mean to be condescending? So I'm sorry about that. By

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the way, condescending is kind of it's like talking down

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to someone explaining to someone's explaining something to someone that

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maybe that they kind of obviously would understand. It's I

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guess being condescending is it's kind of expecting of a

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person not to be very very clever. So I like that.

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That makes me laugh. I'm sorry, sorry about being your

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ild don condescending. By the way, what condescending means is

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right grateful. So if you just think about this, what

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you're grateful for? What do you forgive? What you're looking

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forward to? So I'm want to say mine, you ain't

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got a join in with this, I mean it might

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be at home thinking shut up. I want to tell

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you what I'm grateful for. I don't want to tell you.

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I don't want to think about something I forgive. I

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don't want to look forward to anything. Just get on

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monkey boy and tell us about something boring so that

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that might be what you're thinking, which is fine, okay,

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So what am I grateful for right this minute? I'm

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grateful that I'm sitting here doing this because an hour

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ago I didn't want to, and all weekend I didn't

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want to. So yeah, I'm grateful that I actually am

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sitting here making this recording. So that's what I'm grateful for.

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What are you grateful for? Maybe you could just post

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on YouTube or whatever what you're grateful for on my

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I don't know, maybe on the Facebook, on Jason Leuland's

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boring group. Just maybe just put in what you're grateful

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if you want. If you don't, that's also fine. And

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I don't mean like go and grab your phone and

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do it now, because this is chill out time. Something

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that you forget, something I forgive. Let me think I

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forgive one of my neighbors for Yeah, I forgive her

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for borrowing money not paying it back. Yeah, I forgive that.

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It's actually someone I saw yesterday and I got really

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well for him, Like you know what, I don't care

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about it anymore, but you know I do. I forgive.

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I was holding on to it a bit, so I

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forgive that. And is there anything that you forgive Maybe

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you could forgive me, forgive me for making all these recordings.

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So I'm trying to think next is something that we're

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looking forward to. I'm going to do this at the

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beginning of every recording, so you probably I don't unless

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you don't want me to, then I won't. Okay. So

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I'm not here to I'm not here to annoy people.

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I'm not here just to not it's not my only

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intention it's to annoy people. So something to look forward to?

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What am I want to do this genuinely rather than

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there might have to be things that I make up

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in a sense of like okay, or I might have

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to search for it rather than make it up. What

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am I looking forward to? Maybe you'd like to think

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of something that you're looking forward to, or maybe you've

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already done it, Maybe it's already there, maybe it's in

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your mind anyway, something or am I looking forward to?

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M that's a good that's not supposed to be difficult,

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is it? Is it difficult? I'm looking for? This is

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what I'm looking forward to. I'm looking forward to getting

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myself some new glasses, going to the opticians, getting myself

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some new glasses, and then getting back to reading a

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bit more like I used to. That's what I'm looking

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forward to, because I realized, I mean, I do listen

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to a lot of audio books, so technically I am

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reading in a sense, but I yeah, I missed that

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because that used to be part of my identity as

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a child, not just as a child, but as an adult,

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you know, for decades. So reading something that are actually

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physically looking at book reading rather than looking at a

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computer screen. And yeah, so that's what I'm looking forward to,

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which means I need to make an appointment at the

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opticians and get that sorted.

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But it's just.

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Even though I do get discounts and stuff decent frames,

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they are quite expensive, and I get a for me,

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I don't care so much about the glasses that I'm

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reading with if I'm at home reading or even well

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that's the only place I would already be reading nowadays.

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But being out, you know, because I'm going to have

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separate I know, it said separate glasses, Separate glasses for reading,

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separate glasses for day to day and maybe even ask

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if I can get some separate glasses for screenwork because

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I think it's been affected my eyes. So I don't

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care what they look like. The ones I use to

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look at a computer, the ones I use to read with,

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I don't care. They can be pink and have little

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I don't know, little fireworks shooting at of them. I

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don't know. It doesn't matter to me. Little windmills, remember

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those little windmills. You get a sea sea fronts on

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a stick. They can have those sticking out. I don't care, because, okay,

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I don't want them to have little windmills, but I

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wouldn't necessarily have that on my normal glasses that I

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was walking around in. But the reason it costs a

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bit for my normal glasses is because I think I'm

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going to be talking about glasses. This is the boring

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objects today. I probably talked about it before, but I'm

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going to do it again. Boring objects glasses. Here we go.

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So I didn't know what I was going to talk about. Now, No,

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I'm going to talk about glasses. So I kind of

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led into it, and I by by discussing classes. So

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I need to have actor like classes because I've got

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a heredity. There's a couple of hereditary things in my

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family on my dad's side. One is prostate stuff, which

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I've so far been okay with got tested with that,

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but three of my family members haven't been or they've

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been affected by it, like, you know, badly affected by it.

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So the other thing I just don't like saying a word,

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to be honest with you, I just don't don't. Yeah,

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And then the other thing is osteoporosis. But that seems

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to be effected in the female side rather than the

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male side. But it can affect I mean it is

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the percentage of male to female. I think it's higher

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for females. I'm going to check that, make sure I'm

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not osteo porosis. Did it? Did it? Did it? Osteoporosis

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female to male to male ratio? Okay, here we go,

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Here we go. So, although female to ratio was three

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was three in several studies from the US, more recent

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data from Canada and Europe indicated that for ratio of

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one four. Oh no, whoa, I think she used to

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do with bone density. Really, it's nothing to do with sex.

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Well maybe it is, but not sex like so, I

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think in the old days it used to be called

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brittle bones. Like my nan had it really bad. And

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I think I think two of my aunties have got

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it so, but she was very old, elderly, my nan.

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She had to take this massive tablet. It's honestly, she

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had to like just suck on it for hours. Is

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it like vitmin d or something. Does she take like

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a calcium tablet you take once once a once a week?

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I think, But so that's another thing. I don't know.

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It was questioned a bit of me because I've had

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so many breaks, so many broken bones over the last

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few years, that maybe there's some density issues. But then

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I spoke to my doctor about that because I had

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to have a doctor's appointment on the phone, and he said, well,

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when you fractured your back falling down the stairs, that

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when you fractured your back trying to put your socks on,

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I don't think there's anything wrong with your back. Your

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back's fine, you know. No, when I fell down the

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stairs fractured my back and I had a CT scan.

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They we said they should sort of picked up on

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that if there were, you know, if there is an

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issue with your with your back and with you with

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your bones and stuffy, but they were if they're not

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looking for it, I don't know, hopefully not. You know,

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I'm not bothered but hopefully fine. But the other thing,

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let's talk about disease is yeah, no, it's macro degeneration,

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which is again it's in the family, which is my

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men had it, my dad's got it, which is an

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eye an I thing, So macro degeneration, it's an eye

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condition or mecula, not macro mecula. Sorry, is a it's

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a common idea ie disorder, especially among older dudes adults,

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where the central part of the retina, the macula, deteriorates.

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So it's kind of a what you're hustling me for? Vinnie?

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What is it? What do you want? He keeps trying

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to get into the window sill. Do you promise to

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behave if you go into the window sill?

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Right?

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Go on? Then? So he's gone.

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I put him.

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I told him, I said get out. But what I

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mean is, please go through the door. All right. It

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doesn't Vinnie, you can. I'm not leaving that door open.

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But if you want to go and go into the

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window sill in the bedroom, you can. But if you bark,

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you're gonna have to come in here. Nothing I do

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is good enough for him. It's just not good enough,

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is it. I don't know what you want, mate, I

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can open this window. Is that what you might from

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to at?

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Oh?

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Is that better? Is that more substantial? You've got a

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bit more bit more sun? Is that better for you?

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God?

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It's constantly moaning. Yes, it's it's just a nice thing.

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It's it's dig it's just aging. It's an aging thing.

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I think, maybe not always, but it's more common in

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more older people. But older could I mean it's I'm

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technically in the older group now and I am fifty four.

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So my optician did say that it looked like I

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might have the beginning of it.

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So what they did did? They started? I started having

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actor like glasses to sort of protect me from the

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sun and sun light and stuff. So I'll continue that.

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But it's expensive. It adds some fair bit of money

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to the lenses. And I have anti glow as well,

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or anti shine, I don't know what the right word,

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but yeah, I have that on there and it's like

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a coating thing. Although I think they might have actually

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come with them last time. I feel I should maybe

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make an appointment the opticians. Now, shall I Should I

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make an appointment? Should I do it on the phone

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so you can hear? But then I don't want to.

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I don't know I could day, I can make an

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appointment on the phone. So I'm just gonna yeah. I

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think reading because the glasses I've got at the moment,

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it's got all. It's basically got all three. It's like

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three free lenses in one. So the middle is kind

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of I think the top the bottom is for reading,

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and I think the middle is the middle is for distance,

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and I think the top is for my computer. I'm

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not sure. Maybe it's only got two. It's a long

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time ago. It's been over three years since I last

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got my eyes tested. I need to get them tested again.

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I do who am I with eyes? Eyes? Not eyes?

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Are us eye spotters? Nope? Do you know I was

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actually in I was in Iceland, the store, not the country,

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and I didn't have a passport at the time, so

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the store was the closest I could get to that environment.

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And I think I basically there was a little QB

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on me. I'd put all my stuff through, and the

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I think I'd packed all my bags and the lady

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behind the counter, because one knows like lowered counters, I

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think it might have had a like all mechanical thing

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that pushes along. I forget what they called conveyor conveyor

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belt or whatever, and she said, oh, you've forgotten something

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that I'm put into the bag. I said, thanks, this lady,

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there's this lady. That lady, A lady who was waiting

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next to be said, shouted out, should have gone to

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spec Shavers. And I thought, really, because bearing in mind,

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I was wearing glasses. So you know, it's a disability,

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isn't it, you know, eyesight and stuff. I'm not that.

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I'm just like, I wasn't upset. Just it's just like, okay,

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So if I was troubling, if I was in a

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wheelchair struggling to get upper upper ramp, should have gone

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to a different weight, should have got a better wheelchair.

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Like no, I said, I just it's a human error.

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I just didn't see it. How can you see it

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as a big pack of cokes? Okay, perhaps I need

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to get my ice tested. Perhaps you're right I should

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have gone to Specsavers. I do go to Specsavers. I

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meant lots of different vets opticians over the years. I

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get my luck between them two the looks I get, and.

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I just.

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I just found it weird. It's one of those like

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she wasn't really, I don't know, she just watched it

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too much TV. Because it's an advert should have gone

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to Specsavers. But it just seems weird to hear an

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advert being chucked out in a real life situation, especially

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as it's such an old phrase. It's like, what's thirty

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years old since I've been having their adverts? Should have

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gone to spect things thing, And I'm like, okay, And

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I just I didn't know really what to do or

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what to say. I just wanted to move on with

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my life. I just wanted to just to I suppose

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I should have put her down as one of the

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people I forgive. I thought I had let it go, man,

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let it go. It was fifteen years ago, I know,

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I know it was. It was a long time ago.

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Fifteen years maybe not fifteen years, probably nine years, eight

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years maybe since I've been wearing glasses, so I know, yeah,

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i'd been wearing glasses since. Were's the history. Here's the

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history of my glasses. I went to I started getting headaches, actually,

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that's what it was. When I was about fifteen. It's

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about fifteen, and I was getting headaches. So my mummy

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took me to the dentist because she was she wasn't

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too bright, took me to your doctors. Isn't it weird?

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I was fifteen, I was still going to the doctors

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with my mummy. That just shows I just wasn't. I didn't.

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I just did. Yeah, I didn't go to the doctors

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on my own until I was sixteen. I don't even

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I don't even know if that's normal, but I didn't

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want to go. I mean, if I'm honest with you,

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still don't. Oh what my mama? Mama and I. The

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doctor said to me, you've got looks like it's your eyes,

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and I said, yeah, I know, you look at my eyes,

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so they are my eyes. He said, no, no, I

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know they're your eyes. I said, well, you're looking at

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my eyes and saying it looks like it's your eyes.

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But if you're looking at my hand and said it

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looks like your eyes, that would be won't wouldn't it

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if my hand looked like my eyes. But if my

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eyes or my eyes looked like my hands, yeah, worrying.

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But if my eyes looked like my eyes, then that's normal,

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isn't it. He looked at my mum and she just

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shook her head as well. She said, I've had nine

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years of this. He said really, He said, yeah, nine years,

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so that coming. He's fifteen, while I've had since he

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was seven. Okay, it must be hard work, she said,

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don't matter. I found a way to escape from him.

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I'm moving away. You haven't told him yet. I'm moving away. Oh,

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it's going to be so lovely. I'm like, I'm right here,

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I can hear what you're saying. It's my eyes that

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the problem, not mears. And the doctor said, you are

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with them ears. I'm surprised you can't. There's nothing you

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can't hear. And they laughed, that's rude. Can't make fun

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of them. The size of my ears, he said, the

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size of your ears. The only reason no one mentions

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your is because your nose is so big. No one

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even notices your ears are massive. Wow. And I'm thinking,

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you're supposed to be my doctor. And he said, no,

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let me tell you something, Jason, I'm not your doctor.

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I'm your mum's doctor. She brings me, She brings you

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to me. When she moves away, I won't be seeing

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you again. You're gonna have to get your own doctor.

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I'm just seeing you as a favor to her. No

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one in this town wants to see you. It's like, wow,

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this is this is getting, this is getting why, he says,

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why all you do is fart everywhere you go? As

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far You're known famous in this town for farting everywhere

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you go, far far far far far far far far.

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You know how expensive it is to have to fumigate

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the entire doctor's surgery every time you walk past.

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What this is?

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Where is it all coming from? Well? Your bum apparently? Okay,

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I just wanted to a headache, I sall, I just

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wanted to get Jack checked out. He said, yeah, and

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luckily you can now go and see an opticians. He's

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a number three opticians. Go and make an appointment with opticians.

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So you're talking to me, he said, no, I'm not

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talking to you and talking to her. If you can

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go and make an opticians appointment, because I think it's

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his eyes, that's okay. So I go to the opticians

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and they this is a weird one. See. No one

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ever told me this apparently had a won key eye.

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Maybe I still do and no one tells me. But

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he said, I see again. I don't know if he

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was just friends with the doctors, and he thought the

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doctor said, just wind him up. You know you're going

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to meet for the first time. You're going to think

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lovely kid. But then he's going to let one go

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and it's going to stink the whole building out. So

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get in there first, make fun of him, do something

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like that, really get his self esteem down. It's okay,

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So I think that's what happened, but that this is

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what happened in the very first opticians I've ever been to.

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He said to me, right, you need glasses. I've realized

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over the years. I think that's the first thing people

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learn in optician college. It's the first thing I learn

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is you need glass Everyone, well, come to your first

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day of learning to be an optician. Now repeat after me,

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you need glasses. What do you mean? No, just everyone, repeat,

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you need glasses or you need new glasses. That's what

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you're going to have to say to every single person

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you see from now onwards. So when you're a professional,

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when you're all qualified, whether they've already got glasses or

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whether they haven't got glasses, you need glasses or you

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need new glasses. What if they don't need them, get out,

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get out. No, no, no, I've never ever ever known

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an oppetition to tell me that I didn't need glasses ever.

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I think that's it's just like what they're taught. So

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I went along. I didn't realize this at the time.

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I mean I did need glass I think I did,

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but I don't. I mean, I don't personally think I

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needed them all the time, but they He said, you

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need them all time. He definitely them for reading. So

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he gave me. I think he gave me different glasses

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for reading, or did he I'm not sure, but he

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gave me glasses. Now, I'm not sure if I needed Oh,

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he gave me glasses. Anyway, it's such a long time ago.

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I might have had two pairs, one for reading, one

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for you know, day to day. Just get a bit

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of extra money out of me. Well, I say out

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of me. I didn't pay for it. My mama paid

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for it, and she yeah, So it was weird. He said.

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This dentist said to me, you got a one KEI,

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I said, you got bad breath. You know, we've all

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got that wrong with us, he said. He came up

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to me, he said, missus Newland, do you want to

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pop out the room for a minute. She said why.

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He said, I just want to just I just want

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to punch your son. She said, really, you're going to

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punch him, she said. He said yeah. She said, okay, right,

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and I want me to wait outside for I'm like,

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00:38:15.559 --> 00:38:20.559
wait a minute, excuse me, I'm fifteen. You know just

467
00:38:20.599 --> 00:38:24.199
what you're doing. Anyway, nothing bad happened in the end.

468
00:38:24.639 --> 00:38:32.119
They calmed down and I said, what do you mean

469
00:38:32.480 --> 00:38:36.559
I've got a one key? I because I didn't really

470
00:38:36.639 --> 00:38:45.239
know what it meant. He said, well, okay, see I'm

471
00:38:45.280 --> 00:38:50.760
over here, right, and your right arm is looking over that.

472
00:38:50.960 --> 00:38:55.920
Your right arm, you're right, and well it was a

473
00:38:55.960 --> 00:38:58.960
funny moment. He really it cut through the tension, to

474
00:38:58.960 --> 00:39:01.840
be fair, said, I didn't mean you're right your right

475
00:39:01.920 --> 00:39:09.760
arm and you're so you're left. I is looking at me.

476
00:39:10.880 --> 00:39:14.840
Your right eye is looking through the window the other

477
00:39:14.920 --> 00:39:22.400
side of the room. I said, well, so, I mean

478
00:39:22.400 --> 00:39:25.199
that's quite a good thing. It's a safe thing to do.

479
00:39:25.239 --> 00:39:28.960
Isn't it be able to see three hundred and sixty degrees?

480
00:39:29.480 --> 00:39:36.199
That's quite a useful superpower. He said, yeah. If your

481
00:39:36.239 --> 00:39:38.519
eyes were at the side of your head, it would be.

482
00:39:39.000 --> 00:39:42.559
But they're not. They're both at the front of your head.

483
00:39:44.360 --> 00:39:49.480
So like, okay, so I've got a wonky eye. I said,

484
00:39:49.519 --> 00:39:53.039
which one is it? He said, it doesn't matter. I said,

485
00:39:53.039 --> 00:39:56.679
what do you mean it doesn't matter? He said, look

486
00:39:57.719 --> 00:39:59.519
for the sake of the podcast that you're going to

487
00:39:59.559 --> 00:40:07.360
be doing in forty years time, you won't even remember

488
00:40:07.440 --> 00:40:12.039
which I it was, So there's no point even remembering it.

489
00:40:13.079 --> 00:40:14.960
You can make one up. You can say right or left.

490
00:40:15.000 --> 00:40:21.280
There are two choices, really, but it doesn't matter. Yeah,

491
00:40:21.280 --> 00:40:24.800
it's gonna matter for now, isn't it. You know, Okay,

492
00:40:24.840 --> 00:40:26.880
it's not gonna matter in forty years time when I

493
00:40:26.920 --> 00:40:32.280
do the podcast, but it's it's going to matter now

494
00:40:32.480 --> 00:40:38.440
because this is now. This is nineteen ninety six or

495
00:40:39.480 --> 00:40:43.599
eighty five, eighty six, whatever year it was. And he said,

496
00:40:44.880 --> 00:40:48.000
you really don't know what year it is. At fifteen,

497
00:40:48.000 --> 00:40:51.000
you should know the year you're in. I said, come on,

498
00:40:51.079 --> 00:40:55.639
start having to go at me. And then I fighted

499
00:40:56.840 --> 00:41:03.039
and he changed his attitude. I think he was shocked.

500
00:41:04.480 --> 00:41:06.760
But anyway, what happened in the end, I was given

501
00:41:07.039 --> 00:41:11.880
a patch to wear. I think he was just making

502
00:41:11.920 --> 00:41:19.920
fun of me. He had me wearing a patch, and

503
00:41:20.360 --> 00:41:22.400
not only was it a patch. It was a pink patch,

504
00:41:23.800 --> 00:41:26.400
so I think somewhere along the line they were just

505
00:41:26.440 --> 00:41:29.960
winding me up. So I had to wear a patch

506
00:41:30.000 --> 00:41:34.559
over one eye, the normal eye, well was the one

507
00:41:34.559 --> 00:41:37.679
that wasn't one key, in order to get the other

508
00:41:37.800 --> 00:41:47.360
eye back to being where it should be. And I

509
00:41:47.360 --> 00:41:49.880
had to do these exercises where I'd look at a

510
00:41:49.920 --> 00:41:53.000
pencil with the patch on it and I would just

511
00:41:53.119 --> 00:41:56.960
practice these exercises of following it. I feel I might

512
00:41:56.960 --> 00:41:58.000
have to do it with the other eye as well.

513
00:41:58.039 --> 00:42:08.760
I can't remember. And I went to school, see, I

514
00:42:08.800 --> 00:42:14.559
think I might have worn a patch at school as well.

515
00:42:14.559 --> 00:42:16.320
I don't think. I think I had to wear the

516
00:42:16.360 --> 00:42:19.480
patch at home, or you know, I didn't have to

517
00:42:19.480 --> 00:42:22.519
wear the patch when I went out, I think, but

518
00:42:22.559 --> 00:42:27.159
I had to wear the patch at home, but I

519
00:42:27.199 --> 00:42:29.599
had glasses to wear at school, so you know, bearing

520
00:42:29.559 --> 00:42:36.039
in mind, I was fifteen last year as school. Probably

521
00:42:37.239 --> 00:42:41.079
either the end of the year nineteen eighty nineteen eighty

522
00:42:41.159 --> 00:42:45.840
five or the beginning of nineteen eighty six is around

523
00:42:45.920 --> 00:42:56.280
that kind of time. Yeah, around that time, and I

524
00:42:56.440 --> 00:42:59.440
so I wore glasses for the very first time, and

525
00:42:59.440 --> 00:43:07.280
I'm walking in walking to school, even people I'd never

526
00:43:07.400 --> 00:43:13.519
spoken to were making fun of me. People that didn't

527
00:43:13.679 --> 00:43:17.880
even notice me in the past were laughing at me.

528
00:43:21.039 --> 00:43:24.400
It was absolutely ridiculous. I mean, I thought maybe a

529
00:43:24.440 --> 00:43:29.239
little bit of ribbon, but you'd have thought i'd have

530
00:43:29.280 --> 00:43:36.360
walked in with like a I don't know, a pizza

531
00:43:36.480 --> 00:43:38.719
on my head or something like that. The way everyone

532
00:43:38.840 --> 00:43:46.519
was like, oh, look that that is wearing. It's wearing glasses.

533
00:43:50.159 --> 00:43:52.119
And it got to the point where I took them

534
00:43:52.119 --> 00:43:57.559
off because I didn't enjoy it. If I'm honest, I

535
00:43:57.639 --> 00:43:59.679
might have enjoyed it a little bit, like my friend's

536
00:43:59.679 --> 00:44:03.679
a bit of ribbing, like Okay, it's cool, but then

537
00:44:03.719 --> 00:44:10.079
it goes on a bit too long and I still

538
00:44:10.079 --> 00:44:13.199
get phone calls even, you know, got a phone call

539
00:44:13.280 --> 00:44:17.079
last night for someone from school, just randomly. They said,

540
00:44:17.280 --> 00:44:20.519
you right, goggles and I hung up. It's like, come on,

541
00:44:22.440 --> 00:44:29.840
so I didn't. I didn't. I thought it was right

542
00:44:29.880 --> 00:44:31.960
to wear glasses. I didn't really have an issue with it,

543
00:44:35.199 --> 00:44:37.239
but other people seem to have an issue with it.

544
00:44:38.719 --> 00:44:46.360
So I took them off. And I did wear them

545
00:44:46.559 --> 00:44:54.760
because I remember wearing them just before I left school,

546
00:44:55.039 --> 00:44:59.880
So I'm thinking it might have been nineteen eighty six.

547
00:45:00.599 --> 00:45:05.519
So I left school in April March April time, nineteen

548
00:45:05.559 --> 00:45:09.000
eighty six, so it might have been that period leading

549
00:45:09.079 --> 00:45:11.840
up because I got the chip shop shop, the chip

550
00:45:12.000 --> 00:45:16.599
shop job before I left school. I just remembered, this,

551
00:45:17.039 --> 00:45:21.000
isn't it weird? I got the chip shop job before

552
00:45:21.039 --> 00:45:27.800
I left school, and I worked on a Saturday and

553
00:45:27.920 --> 00:45:31.880
maybe a couple of evenings, and then when I left school,

554
00:45:31.920 --> 00:45:39.559
I went full time, and then the September nineteen eighty six,

555
00:45:40.280 --> 00:45:44.559
I went onto the YTS. So when I was full time,

556
00:45:44.599 --> 00:45:47.519
I was then in sixty pird a week, which is

557
00:45:47.559 --> 00:45:51.480
more than I've ever had who were like, yeah, never

558
00:45:51.519 --> 00:45:57.639
had sixty pounds a week cash. You know, I was

559
00:45:57.679 --> 00:46:00.920
still at school, and I wasn't still this was technically

560
00:46:01.239 --> 00:46:04.079
still at school, as in I had to go and

561
00:46:04.119 --> 00:46:07.400
do my exams, at least I thought I did. I

562
00:46:07.400 --> 00:46:09.960
didn't realize I didn't have to do anything, because once

563
00:46:10.000 --> 00:46:11.559
you leave school, you don't have to do any you know.

564
00:46:11.760 --> 00:46:15.400
I didn't have to go do my exams. There was

565
00:46:15.480 --> 00:46:21.400
no consequence for not doing them. And it was kind

566
00:46:21.400 --> 00:46:24.000
of weird because but I was still in that zone

567
00:46:24.039 --> 00:46:29.639
of being told what to do by schools, you know,

568
00:46:29.760 --> 00:46:33.360
that kind of I remember right before I left school,

569
00:46:34.639 --> 00:46:38.679
there was this deputy head teacher. I'd never had a

570
00:46:38.760 --> 00:46:43.760
run in with him ever, but for some reason, and

571
00:46:43.840 --> 00:46:47.400
this was the last week of school, he decided to

572
00:46:47.400 --> 00:46:49.519
have a go at me and he came up to

573
00:46:49.559 --> 00:46:54.639
me and he started shouting in my face about something.

574
00:46:55.440 --> 00:46:58.599
I don't know what it was. He was uhould teach French,

575
00:46:59.400 --> 00:47:05.679
so I didn't always understand what he was saying. I

576
00:47:05.719 --> 00:47:08.840
think he sometimes he forgot go in and out of French.

577
00:47:09.679 --> 00:47:12.360
And it was a deputy head and he was known

578
00:47:12.400 --> 00:47:17.760
for being really strict, and he was just chatting in

579
00:47:17.800 --> 00:47:22.360
my face, and I went from being oh, you know,

580
00:47:22.800 --> 00:47:27.079
like to remember him. I only had three days left

581
00:47:27.079 --> 00:47:30.960
to school, and I just started laughing at him. I

582
00:47:31.079 --> 00:47:35.159
just walked off, like what are you gonna do? Literally,

583
00:47:35.199 --> 00:47:40.800
it's nothing. It's like, yeah, I could walk out of

584
00:47:40.840 --> 00:47:43.400
school now and it would make no difference. I'm just

585
00:47:43.440 --> 00:47:47.440
sticking around because it's like the last three days. Just

586
00:47:47.440 --> 00:47:50.719
to say goodbye to people I've been at school with

587
00:47:50.840 --> 00:47:57.000
for years, that's all it was. It wasn't say goodbye

588
00:47:57.079 --> 00:47:59.599
to some of the kids in the younger years that

589
00:47:59.679 --> 00:48:01.719
I was friends with that I wasn't going to see

590
00:48:02.840 --> 00:48:09.239
regularly anymore, or even the ones in the older years actually,

591
00:48:09.239 --> 00:48:12.039
because they had a levels back then, so there was

592
00:48:14.639 --> 00:48:17.960
some of my karate friends were in the higher levels

593
00:48:18.000 --> 00:48:25.320
as well. I remember just like he was shit like okay.

594
00:48:26.880 --> 00:48:28.840
But then there was another weird thing happened and I

595
00:48:28.880 --> 00:48:32.280
still to this day don't know what happened, why happened.

596
00:48:33.119 --> 00:48:35.920
But I went into my classroom. This is my my

597
00:48:38.880 --> 00:48:40.880
the room that we went to first thing in the morning,

598
00:48:40.960 --> 00:48:43.440
we stayed in at breaks if we wanted to, and

599
00:48:43.480 --> 00:48:44.840
then would go in there at the end of the

600
00:48:44.920 --> 00:48:47.960
day and you do the register. So it was my

601
00:48:48.119 --> 00:48:49.880
form room. That's sort of they used to call it,

602
00:48:49.920 --> 00:48:53.159
isn't it. So it was my classroom for the entire year,

603
00:48:53.599 --> 00:48:55.400
and I had the same one for about three years

604
00:48:55.400 --> 00:49:00.519
in a row. I think, So I'm in there, I

605
00:49:00.599 --> 00:49:02.880
go in there the last day. This is somewhere that

606
00:49:02.920 --> 00:49:06.679
I spend a fair bit of time on the time,

607
00:49:06.800 --> 00:49:08.280
in the time so that I didn't want to go

608
00:49:08.320 --> 00:49:10.239
out or do anything. I wanted to be on my own.

609
00:49:10.440 --> 00:49:13.719
I'd go in there and there's be a color of

610
00:49:13.800 --> 00:49:15.719
us maybe just sitting on our own, just doing our

611
00:49:15.719 --> 00:49:21.719
own thing, you know. So I went in there and

612
00:49:21.760 --> 00:49:25.800
there was a couple of There was three kids, all

613
00:49:25.840 --> 00:49:29.880
three that didn't really know very well that I didn't

614
00:49:29.960 --> 00:49:33.239
really they weren't from that they weren't even in their class,

615
00:49:34.920 --> 00:49:38.639
and they were just in there and they were playing

616
00:49:39.119 --> 00:49:43.079
some song. I remember. It was something that was it

617
00:49:43.280 --> 00:49:47.159
don't think nothing, then your chicks for free, I own nothing.

618
00:49:48.400 --> 00:49:53.199
Whatever that song is direstraate, is it? And like I

619
00:49:53.239 --> 00:49:56.840
went in there, I must have said something to annoy someone.

620
00:49:56.880 --> 00:50:01.559
I don't know what, but something started on me and

621
00:50:01.559 --> 00:50:05.360
he was kicking me in the shins. I'm like, but

622
00:50:05.400 --> 00:50:07.679
it was surprised, Like I didn't know because he was

623
00:50:07.760 --> 00:50:10.079
I think this one was a judo man. We used

624
00:50:10.079 --> 00:50:12.079
to talk. Yeah, I didn't know him a little bit,

625
00:50:12.679 --> 00:50:16.199
and you know, I was interested because he did judo.

626
00:50:16.280 --> 00:50:19.800
I did karate, and you know he was I think

627
00:50:19.840 --> 00:50:21.880
he was more advanced than me. He'd been doing judo

628
00:50:21.920 --> 00:50:25.760
a long time. But for some reason, you know, I

629
00:50:25.840 --> 00:50:28.800
kind of had that mutual respect for him because we

630
00:50:28.800 --> 00:50:32.159
were both doing something. We both kind of understood what

631
00:50:32.199 --> 00:50:35.320
it was like to be passionate about a martial arts,

632
00:50:35.519 --> 00:50:39.000
you know, and he probably went through exactly the same

633
00:50:39.079 --> 00:50:43.239
thing of watching all the Bruce Lee movies and watching

634
00:50:43.280 --> 00:50:45.920
all the you know, all the kung fu movies and stuff,

635
00:50:45.960 --> 00:50:49.199
because that's just natural for anyone that does martial arts,

636
00:50:49.280 --> 00:50:53.719
especially when they're a kid. But he actually just kicked

637
00:50:53.760 --> 00:50:58.639
me in the shins and closed the door, slanting the

638
00:50:58.679 --> 00:51:00.920
door on me. Didn't want me in the class room, like,

639
00:51:04.400 --> 00:51:06.599
and I just I didn't understand. There was no one

640
00:51:06.639 --> 00:51:10.320
else around. I don't know where everyone else was. I

641
00:51:10.360 --> 00:51:13.079
think that was the very last day that I was there,

642
00:51:17.079 --> 00:51:19.840
and I was just like, I really didn't know. It's

643
00:51:20.039 --> 00:51:23.280
like to this day, I still not that it doesn't

644
00:51:23.280 --> 00:51:26.280
matter why, but it still bugged me, Like doesn't bug

645
00:51:26.320 --> 00:51:27.760
me now, but it bugged me for a long time.

646
00:51:29.000 --> 00:51:33.280
I never saw the kid again. Don't think I saw

647
00:51:33.320 --> 00:51:39.079
any of them again, and I didn't know why. And

648
00:51:42.800 --> 00:51:45.679
it was such a shock. I didn't get angry I

649
00:51:45.679 --> 00:51:51.599
did this. I was just confused. It didn't hurt. Well,

650
00:51:51.679 --> 00:51:53.719
probably a little bit, but it wasn't like they weren't.

651
00:51:53.719 --> 00:51:56.519
It wasn't like he was punching me or anything, but like,

652
00:51:56.920 --> 00:51:59.400
you're kicking me in the shins, the hell are you doing?

653
00:52:03.480 --> 00:52:06.400
And yeah, that's weird. That's just a really weird ending

654
00:52:06.440 --> 00:52:15.559
to being being at school unless I was in the

655
00:52:15.599 --> 00:52:19.519
other I might be maybe I was in the wrong room.

656
00:52:19.880 --> 00:52:24.039
Wait a minute, was that my school? I think it

657
00:52:24.119 --> 00:52:27.639
was my school? No me, I might have just gone

658
00:52:27.639 --> 00:52:30.760
into the wrong school and into some random classroom and

659
00:52:30.920 --> 00:52:37.159
sat down and maybe that annoyed them. It's possible. So

660
00:52:40.039 --> 00:52:43.960
there's one, really quite a vivid memory I had when

661
00:52:43.960 --> 00:52:47.920
I first got my classes. Boys too. Actually, my little

662
00:52:47.920 --> 00:52:54.960
brother he was old enough to be really annoying, really annoying,

663
00:52:55.039 --> 00:52:58.719
and he kept coming up to me and putting his

664
00:52:59.480 --> 00:53:02.639
putting his finger and thumb together to make some little

665
00:53:02.960 --> 00:53:06.719
glasses and he'd like, get right ploset to me and

666
00:53:06.800 --> 00:53:10.000
look look through them, he said, can you see me?

667
00:53:12.440 --> 00:53:14.400
I mean he was like seven, I suppose at the time,

668
00:53:14.960 --> 00:53:20.280
And yeah, it was funny to start with, but he

669
00:53:20.400 --> 00:53:25.400
kept doing it, and he'd just like pick random objects up.

670
00:53:25.480 --> 00:53:31.679
Can you see this? That is quite funny when you

671
00:53:31.679 --> 00:53:34.599
think about it. But he just kept doing it. Just

672
00:53:34.840 --> 00:53:39.840
it'd be random, and like we was all watching TV.

673
00:53:39.960 --> 00:53:42.800
I think we were watching I say all of us.

674
00:53:42.880 --> 00:53:45.000
At that point, the family was a little bit split.

675
00:53:45.400 --> 00:53:47.360
One of my brothers had moved out. I think maybe

676
00:53:47.400 --> 00:53:48.880
the other one had moved out as well, so it

677
00:53:48.880 --> 00:53:54.440
was only really me and my little brother potentially at

678
00:53:54.480 --> 00:53:58.719
that time, and my little brother. I think we're just

679
00:53:58.760 --> 00:54:02.559
watching TV. My little brother gets up stands by a

680
00:54:02.599 --> 00:54:10.000
television and says, can you see this? Like it amused

681
00:54:10.039 --> 00:54:15.360
the family, Come on, leave me alone. I'm wearing glasses.

682
00:54:16.320 --> 00:54:20.840
It's not something to make fun of. And my dad

683
00:54:20.960 --> 00:54:27.000
was leave him alone. He's only seven. I said, who

684
00:54:27.039 --> 00:54:30.320
is He said, your brother? I said, oh, I know,

685
00:54:30.480 --> 00:54:33.760
I know he's only seven. And then then my dad

686
00:54:33.800 --> 00:54:36.760
said he's sitting over there. I said, I know where

687
00:54:36.760 --> 00:54:40.320
he's sitting. I can see where he was doing it. Now, like,

688
00:54:40.400 --> 00:54:43.880
can you see where it is? He asked me to

689
00:54:43.880 --> 00:54:50.119
watch his van. I said, okay. He said it's on

690
00:54:50.159 --> 00:54:53.400
the driveway. I said, and it's a van. I'm not

691
00:54:53.400 --> 00:54:57.280
going to not know where it is. It's like it's

692
00:54:59.400 --> 00:55:01.400
so I don't know who started doing it, my dad

693
00:55:01.480 --> 00:55:06.480
or my little brother. Then I started getting a little

694
00:55:06.480 --> 00:55:09.679
bit touchy, because you know, some people do that they

695
00:55:09.719 --> 00:55:14.320
show you something, and I started to get a little

696
00:55:14.360 --> 00:55:22.480
bit oversensitive. Maybe we were the air show and I

697
00:55:22.519 --> 00:55:25.760
remember my auntie saying, oh that the red the red

698
00:55:25.840 --> 00:55:27.880
arrows are coming soon. So we're all waiting for the

699
00:55:27.920 --> 00:55:31.079
Red Arrows, but there's loads of other planes as well,

700
00:55:33.559 --> 00:55:37.159
and my Auntie said, the Red Arrows are coming. I said, okay,

701
00:55:37.480 --> 00:55:40.760
she said they're there. I was like, there they are. Look,

702
00:55:41.119 --> 00:55:44.119
I said, I can see. I do have eyes. You know.

703
00:55:45.760 --> 00:55:48.440
She wasn't being rude. She was just pointing where they were,

704
00:55:49.159 --> 00:55:52.000
and the fact is I couldn't see where they were.

705
00:55:52.400 --> 00:55:55.320
So I'm glad that she told me. It wasn't really

706
00:55:55.559 --> 00:55:58.440
you know, I only got hit by a car once

707
00:55:58.519 --> 00:56:01.159
because I was ignored someone that was telling me that

708
00:56:01.239 --> 00:56:05.280
the car was coming towards me because it annoyed me.

709
00:56:05.960 --> 00:56:10.280
So I'm walking across a zebra crossing and someone showing, wait, look,

710
00:56:10.320 --> 00:56:12.880
look is a car coming. It's not stopping because it

711
00:56:12.920 --> 00:56:15.559
was speeding and maybe I think police were after it

712
00:56:15.639 --> 00:56:19.840
or something, and I'm like, can't you see it? Look like,

713
00:56:20.320 --> 00:56:23.440
shut up, I've got glasses. They're just glasses. And then

714
00:56:23.440 --> 00:56:24.880
I look over and I have to sort of jump

715
00:56:24.960 --> 00:56:30.119
out the way. Another time, I'm talking to a friend

716
00:56:30.239 --> 00:56:33.920
from karate and he's he's an adult, so he's working

717
00:56:34.000 --> 00:56:37.880
up above Tesco's in a shipping office. So I'm just

718
00:56:37.960 --> 00:56:40.039
looking at really high build and I'm just waving to

719
00:56:40.119 --> 00:56:43.280
him because staying alone, you know, because I was just

720
00:56:43.400 --> 00:56:48.079
on my way home, and he started shouting look, look

721
00:56:49.000 --> 00:56:51.880
and pointing behind me. I was like, oh, you don't

722
00:56:51.920 --> 00:56:54.719
start now, come on, we're getting on so well, why

723
00:56:54.719 --> 00:56:58.079
have you got a start? It's bad enough it's at home,

724
00:56:58.159 --> 00:57:02.920
it's a school. Now it's karate people doing it. And

725
00:57:02.920 --> 00:57:06.960
he's like, well. It turned out it was a van

726
00:57:07.039 --> 00:57:13.960
backing and it bumped into me. Luckily it wasn't going fast,

727
00:57:14.320 --> 00:57:15.840
but it was back in study, you know, when I

728
00:57:15.880 --> 00:57:18.519
go do do do do do? Like that, it was

729
00:57:18.559 --> 00:57:21.840
making a sound, but I didn't wasn't listening because I

730
00:57:21.840 --> 00:57:24.159
was focusing on what I was what I was talking about,

731
00:57:24.199 --> 00:57:28.000
and probably when he was talking, I was focusing on

732
00:57:28.000 --> 00:57:29.559
what I was going to say next. So I wasn't

733
00:57:29.599 --> 00:57:32.719
really listening to what he was saying. But when he

734
00:57:32.760 --> 00:57:36.159
started pointing, hey, look, look like, I really took offence

735
00:57:37.440 --> 00:57:43.119
stopped saying, look like, I can't see anything. Yeah, So

736
00:57:43.159 --> 00:57:46.159
I had a band a van back over me, but

737
00:57:46.280 --> 00:57:49.320
luckily it just hit my back and knocked me, kind

738
00:57:49.320 --> 00:57:51.400
of knocked me out the way, but it wasn't moving

739
00:57:51.440 --> 00:57:59.639
particularly fast. But one of my memories of wearing glasses

740
00:57:59.679 --> 00:58:05.440
when I first got them, and this is just explain

741
00:58:05.559 --> 00:58:10.239
how I was. I've always been like this. This was

742
00:58:10.559 --> 00:58:18.719
a it was one of them days, one of them

743
00:58:18.840 --> 00:58:24.440
days where I had to get away. I had to

744
00:58:24.519 --> 00:58:29.960
remove myself from the situation. I had to be on

745
00:58:30.039 --> 00:58:34.679
my own. I was semi running away cat to be

746
00:58:34.760 --> 00:58:37.719
on my own. It was one of them things. And

747
00:58:38.000 --> 00:58:43.719
I walked to the next town on my own, wearing

748
00:58:43.800 --> 00:58:48.199
my glasses, and I just followed the bus route so

749
00:58:48.239 --> 00:58:51.480
I could get back again, which was actually quick. It

750
00:58:51.519 --> 00:58:54.360
was a much longer route actually, but it meant I

751
00:58:54.400 --> 00:58:59.480
knew how to get back. So it took me probably

752
00:59:03.480 --> 00:59:08.880
five hours to get there, and I maybe seven hours.

753
00:59:08.920 --> 00:59:14.840
I think I might just got the bus back, but

754
00:59:14.880 --> 00:59:19.119
it was a sunny day probably I'm saying. I'm thinking

755
00:59:19.199 --> 00:59:29.920
maybe April time, just after leaving school, possibly on a weekday,

756
00:59:31.559 --> 00:59:39.119
and I I mean, technically it's probably not a good idea,

757
00:59:39.199 --> 00:59:41.159
but I was walking at the side of the road

758
00:59:42.000 --> 00:59:45.639
on the grass verge. There wasn't any pavements most of

759
00:59:45.679 --> 00:59:48.480
the journey because once we got out of the town,

760
00:59:49.079 --> 00:59:52.840
a lot of countryside between or in England's huge amounts

761
00:59:52.840 --> 00:59:58.679
of countryside surrounding everywhere, every town, every village, every city,

762
00:59:58.760 --> 01:00:03.400
it's the countryside. So I'm just following the route. I've

763
01:00:03.400 --> 01:00:09.440
done the route many times, many times, I've I've done

764
01:00:09.440 --> 01:00:12.519
the route a few times. I hadn't really gotten a

765
01:00:12.599 --> 01:00:16.280
bust that many times as a kid on my own, well,

766
01:00:16.280 --> 01:00:17.599
I den'tinite I ever went on my own. I was

767
01:00:17.599 --> 01:00:21.559
also with her friend. So yeah, so I'm walking and

768
01:00:21.840 --> 01:00:31.039
it was very peaceful, very meditative, very I don't know.

769
01:00:31.599 --> 01:00:36.119
I was just thinking about things and a real, real

770
01:00:36.159 --> 01:00:41.199
good think, real good. It was like a separation from

771
01:00:42.000 --> 01:00:52.239
all the stuff that was going on, and it felt nice.

772
01:00:53.039 --> 01:00:57.119
I was hungry, though, but it felt nice. So it

773
01:00:57.159 --> 01:01:00.320
took me six six to seven hours walking in it

774
01:01:01.400 --> 01:01:05.159
and probably got blisters and all that stuff, but got

775
01:01:05.159 --> 01:01:09.960
the bus home. No one knew I was gone, No

776
01:01:10.000 --> 01:01:14.119
one noticed I hadn't been around. But there was no

777
01:01:14.159 --> 01:01:17.159
reason for them too anyway, because at that time, the

778
01:01:17.199 --> 01:01:21.679
whole family was busy. People were just busy doing stuff,

779
01:01:22.960 --> 01:01:27.559
and two of my brothers weren't really around anymore. My

780
01:01:27.599 --> 01:01:34.760
little brother was what seven, eight, yeah, seven or eight,

781
01:01:35.119 --> 01:01:38.719
so he was kind of doing his own thing as well.

782
01:01:41.679 --> 01:01:46.800
Both parents were working, so yeah, I was kind of

783
01:01:46.920 --> 01:01:50.760
just you know, I think kind of the family had

784
01:01:50.800 --> 01:01:54.880
pretty much at that point, the family had kind of

785
01:01:54.880 --> 01:02:03.519
come to an end. And then you know, by by

786
01:02:03.599 --> 01:02:07.760
this summer, the summer, I don't know when it was.

787
01:02:07.880 --> 01:02:18.880
It might have been May, maytime, maybe June, we moved

788
01:02:18.920 --> 01:02:26.280
out and stayed in my step mom's mom's flat until

789
01:02:26.320 --> 01:02:31.960
she moved away. So that was, Yeah, that was kind

790
01:02:31.960 --> 01:02:35.960
of a weird, weird period. And I didn't wear my

791
01:02:35.960 --> 01:02:43.280
glasses at all after that, like never ever again, didn't

792
01:02:43.280 --> 01:02:49.519
wear them. And then I the next time I went

793
01:02:49.599 --> 01:02:55.039
to see if I needy glasses was again. This was

794
01:02:55.199 --> 01:02:59.840
nineteen eighty nine because a few years later, nineteen eighty nine,

795
01:03:00.119 --> 01:03:06.440
in London, and I wanted to get back to reading

796
01:03:06.559 --> 01:03:10.079
again because i'd had a break from reading. We're not

797
01:03:10.119 --> 01:03:12.239
a complete break, but I hadn't really read much for

798
01:03:12.239 --> 01:03:14.639
a little while for a few months, and I thought,

799
01:03:15.719 --> 01:03:18.519
and I didn't have any hardly any of my belongings

800
01:03:18.559 --> 01:03:22.280
in London, so I'd left them at my dad's just

801
01:03:22.320 --> 01:03:29.199
store in storage and not they had much stuff, but

802
01:03:29.360 --> 01:03:31.440
I think it was under a bed. But there's a

803
01:03:31.480 --> 01:03:35.639
lot of the videos and some books and stuff, you know,

804
01:03:37.039 --> 01:03:42.519
So what I did is. I went to the opticians thinking,

805
01:03:45.559 --> 01:03:49.599
and they said, I just need glasses for reading. I

806
01:03:49.679 --> 01:03:53.840
don't need them all the time, just for reading. I said, okay, cool,

807
01:03:54.960 --> 01:03:57.840
so and that's when I started. I bought a couple

808
01:03:57.880 --> 01:04:01.199
of books and I got back into reading again because

809
01:04:02.000 --> 01:04:06.880
it was always a passion, and I not always I

810
01:04:06.920 --> 01:04:11.920
was born reading, but I kind of taught myself to read.

811
01:04:12.000 --> 01:04:17.119
Really with my book, it's over there, somewhere on the bookcase.

812
01:04:17.159 --> 01:04:23.639
It was a Jack Andry still I've literally memorized. I

813
01:04:23.760 --> 01:04:27.440
memorized it. And this is bearing in mind I haven't

814
01:04:27.519 --> 01:04:31.199
watched I haven't read this book since I was a

815
01:04:31.239 --> 01:04:34.239
little kid, okay, but I learned to read with it.

816
01:04:35.159 --> 01:04:40.320
And in the first the first page is a little rhyme,

817
01:04:40.840 --> 01:04:43.039
I'll tell you a story about Jack and Ry, and

818
01:04:43.079 --> 01:04:48.760
now my story. I'll tell you story. When I said,

819
01:04:48.760 --> 01:04:52.639
I memorized it, Uh, I'll tell you a story about

820
01:04:52.719 --> 01:04:56.039
Jack and Ry, and now my story has begun. I'll

821
01:04:56.039 --> 01:04:58.199
tell you another about Jack and his brother, and now

822
01:04:58.239 --> 01:05:04.559
my story is done. I tried to look for it

823
01:05:04.559 --> 01:05:06.519
the other day, I think while I was doing a recording,

824
01:05:06.639 --> 01:05:09.920
I could not find it. It's definitely there because I

825
01:05:09.960 --> 01:05:16.239
found it online because it's basically about Jack, Jack and

826
01:05:16.280 --> 01:05:18.559
the bean Stalk, and I think there's a few different

827
01:05:18.599 --> 01:05:23.400
stories about Jack, and that was what Jack and Noy

828
01:05:23.559 --> 01:05:26.840
was based on, which was a really famous TV show

829
01:05:27.679 --> 01:05:31.320
where people would just tell a story. They'd read out

830
01:05:31.320 --> 01:05:36.880
of a book and tell a story. And I, I said,

831
01:05:36.960 --> 01:05:39.559
taught myself to read. I mean, I'm sure that you

832
01:05:39.599 --> 01:05:43.159
know I did go to school and stuff at that time,

833
01:05:45.320 --> 01:05:50.199
but because I was what six, maybe six five or six,

834
01:05:51.079 --> 01:05:56.840
I moved around so much that I didn't I don't

835
01:05:56.880 --> 01:06:01.480
think I really had any kind of stable education as

836
01:06:01.519 --> 01:06:07.000
it were. And then when I moved to with my dad,

837
01:06:07.559 --> 01:06:15.920
I was seven and I was told by one of

838
01:06:15.920 --> 01:06:21.159
my parents that I was behind. Basically, I was behind

839
01:06:21.280 --> 01:06:25.079
because I was told I've been taught the wrong way.

840
01:06:25.960 --> 01:06:30.400
That's what the teachers told her. That it sounded like

841
01:06:30.400 --> 01:06:32.440
I've been told I've been taught the wrong way. I

842
01:06:32.480 --> 01:06:35.559
was behind. I mean, probably just being kind to me,

843
01:06:35.639 --> 01:06:37.159
trying to explain it to me in a way that

844
01:06:37.199 --> 01:06:43.320
I might understand it. So basically what it meant, I

845
01:06:43.440 --> 01:06:54.079
was in educational terms now, I guess remedial or special

846
01:06:54.119 --> 01:07:00.239
needs educational terms. Back then, I was a dunce. You know,

847
01:07:00.280 --> 01:07:01.920
it was a little bit different back then. This is

848
01:07:02.000 --> 01:07:10.119
nineteen seventy seven. Someone that was behind educationally was called

849
01:07:10.119 --> 01:07:16.039
a dunce. It's not good, really, it's not now, but

850
01:07:17.000 --> 01:07:20.360
that's what I was kind of classed as. But that's

851
01:07:20.400 --> 01:07:23.079
not how she she said that. She told me I

852
01:07:23.159 --> 01:07:26.119
was special. Now I didn't realize that meant special needs.

853
01:07:27.000 --> 01:07:29.880
But when she said I was special, I felt special,

854
01:07:31.199 --> 01:07:38.840
like loved, like I was, you know, special. Maybe she

855
01:07:38.960 --> 01:07:41.719
was about to say needs, but I just like made

856
01:07:41.760 --> 01:07:45.159
such a big I was so gushy and smiling when

857
01:07:45.239 --> 01:07:48.639
she said special. She thought, Okay, perhaps I won't say

858
01:07:48.679 --> 01:07:55.639
the word needs. Had a conversation with my dad later

859
01:07:55.679 --> 01:07:58.559
in the evening. Probably didn't they. So did you have

860
01:07:58.559 --> 01:08:01.360
a chat with him? Yeah, did you tell him that

861
01:08:01.400 --> 01:08:04.559
he special needs? Well? I told him part of it.

862
01:08:06.800 --> 01:08:11.639
But he seems so happy, he said, yeah, but he's happy.

863
01:08:11.639 --> 01:08:13.280
All you got to do is just wave a banana

864
01:08:13.360 --> 01:08:17.560
around and that gets his attention. He's happy. That's not true.

865
01:08:18.399 --> 01:08:25.800
I do like bananas, but not quite that distractable. Give

866
01:08:25.880 --> 01:08:30.720
him a cardboard give him a cardboard box. That's all

867
01:08:30.760 --> 01:08:37.239
he needs. It's like, no, I mean cardboard boxes were fun,

868
01:08:37.359 --> 01:08:42.199
but it's not all I needed. Also, I love television,

869
01:08:42.920 --> 01:08:49.439
so anyway, i'd kind of taught myself, I think, to read.

870
01:08:49.520 --> 01:08:55.840
Maybe I'll taught myself wrongly to read, but I think

871
01:08:55.880 --> 01:09:02.680
I ended up quite okay verbally. I think I was.

872
01:09:03.399 --> 01:09:08.279
I don't think I was behind verbally. And there's advantages

873
01:09:08.399 --> 01:09:12.720
to there's advantages to moving around a lot when you're little.

874
01:09:14.039 --> 01:09:16.279
From a verbal perspective, I think you get to learn

875
01:09:17.680 --> 01:09:20.680
quite you know, verbally, get to not always. But I

876
01:09:20.720 --> 01:09:23.800
think in my case, I think I became verbally quite

877
01:09:23.880 --> 01:09:29.119
competent being around adults a lot. That's another thing. Living

878
01:09:29.159 --> 01:09:32.680
in a kids home with lots of other kids, there's

879
01:09:32.800 --> 01:09:36.920
lots of conversations all the time, you know, it's living

880
01:09:36.960 --> 01:09:40.600
in dormitories and stuff like that. So I didn't really

881
01:09:40.600 --> 01:09:43.039
get any time to myself, but there was a lot

882
01:09:43.079 --> 01:09:45.600
of conversations going on. So I was hearing a lot

883
01:09:45.600 --> 01:09:55.960
of verbal stuff and absorbing that. So I think, you know,

884
01:09:56.079 --> 01:09:59.039
I think that my verbal skills would probably be quite good,

885
01:10:00.840 --> 01:10:06.359
but everything else was me being not so good. My

886
01:10:06.520 --> 01:10:12.199
mathematics skills was still yeah, it was never really a

887
01:10:12.239 --> 01:10:15.640
thing for me, and it wasn't really it wasn't really

888
01:10:15.760 --> 01:10:21.800
my forte as it were, nor science, nor geography, nor

889
01:10:21.840 --> 01:10:28.680
history anything. Really the only subject I liked too Ari

890
01:10:29.039 --> 01:10:35.439
and English Ari because I suppose in a way I

891
01:10:35.479 --> 01:10:39.479
had a little bit of an advantage being part, you know,

892
01:10:39.600 --> 01:10:42.800
for a couple of years being raised by nuns kind

893
01:10:42.840 --> 01:10:47.720
of church every day. I kind of understood the groundings

894
01:10:47.760 --> 01:10:52.720
of like Christianity or Catholicism or you know that kind

895
01:10:52.760 --> 01:10:54.840
of stuff. I guess I had a little bit more

896
01:10:54.960 --> 01:11:03.319
of an understanding of it, so it wasn't too difficult. Plus,

897
01:11:03.359 --> 01:11:05.520
both the IRA teachers I had, because I only had

898
01:11:05.520 --> 01:11:09.760
two IRA teachers this is religious education and throughout my

899
01:11:09.840 --> 01:11:12.760
high school. And they were both lovely. They're both to

900
01:11:12.960 --> 01:11:16.960
my best teachers. So I wasn't interested in the subject

901
01:11:17.000 --> 01:11:22.800
really not to start with. But it was, you know,

902
01:11:23.079 --> 01:11:26.680
it was more they were lovely. I liked being in

903
01:11:26.720 --> 01:11:31.119
the class because the teachers were lovely, and which is

904
01:11:31.159 --> 01:11:34.319
something that I think a lot of teachers could learn from.

905
01:11:34.600 --> 01:11:44.079
Is actually sometimes just I think just being nice, just

906
01:11:44.159 --> 01:11:47.600
being nice. In them days, there was a lot of

907
01:11:47.720 --> 01:11:56.640
strict teachers. It was where I was. It wasn't I

908
01:11:56.720 --> 01:11:59.840
think it was kind of like children should be seen,

909
01:12:00.119 --> 01:12:04.279
not heard kind of attitude. So it's a little bit

910
01:12:04.319 --> 01:12:06.880
different to how it is now. I don't know how

911
01:12:06.920 --> 01:12:10.439
it is now. I don't have kids, and I live

912
01:12:10.479 --> 01:12:14.199
on a council estate, so kids are definitely not treated

913
01:12:14.399 --> 01:12:17.680
that they should be seen and not heard. They're definitely heard.

914
01:12:19.239 --> 01:12:23.000
So it's I don't know what it's like in the

915
01:12:23.039 --> 01:12:33.279
mainstream country people around the country. But I'm talking about glasses,

916
01:12:33.359 --> 01:12:38.039
I'm talking about reading now it is. I was in

917
01:12:38.159 --> 01:12:44.840
like a remedial class once a week. I've just taken

918
01:12:45.359 --> 01:12:47.000
that and I've talked about this before, but I had

919
01:12:47.000 --> 01:12:50.960
my maths teacher, mister Johnson. It was lovely, big beard,

920
01:12:53.199 --> 01:12:59.319
lovely man, really friendly and he actually I think if

921
01:12:59.359 --> 01:13:03.800
i'd ever had him as my mass teacher all the

922
01:13:03.840 --> 01:13:07.159
way through high school. I'm not saying that I would

923
01:13:07.199 --> 01:13:11.680
have gone on to do a level or anything like that,

924
01:13:12.199 --> 01:13:15.720
or even well, I think I might have gone on

925
01:13:15.760 --> 01:13:19.680
to do GCSA, which I didn't. I wasn't even that

926
01:13:19.800 --> 01:13:22.479
level to do. I had to. I did CSSE, which

927
01:13:22.560 --> 01:13:25.880
is something you get like city and guilds. That's the

928
01:13:25.920 --> 01:13:29.600
kinds of things you get for block clearing, toilets and stuff.

929
01:13:30.920 --> 01:13:35.000
Back then, and I think it's a bit higher now,

930
01:13:35.039 --> 01:13:38.840
but it was very low when it comes to it's

931
01:13:38.880 --> 01:13:41.640
City and Guilds of people that are not academic. Really

932
01:13:43.159 --> 01:13:49.960
back then it was it's the lowest level, and it's

933
01:13:50.000 --> 01:13:52.880
different now. So I'm saying I'm not not going to

934
01:13:52.920 --> 01:13:55.159
be rude against City and Gills because there's going to

935
01:13:55.239 --> 01:13:58.479
be people probably taking City and Girls now. But back then,

936
01:14:00.439 --> 01:14:05.439
City and Gills and Maths was not an accomplishment. Necessarily

937
01:14:05.800 --> 01:14:08.279
it would have been for me because I didn't pass it.

938
01:14:08.319 --> 01:14:10.439
So if I had passed the City in Guilds, it

939
01:14:10.439 --> 01:14:14.640
would have been a really good accomplishment. But I didn't

940
01:14:14.680 --> 01:14:25.359
get any qualifications. I got you, which apparently is it

941
01:14:25.399 --> 01:14:30.960
stands for unclassified, so I got unclassified for every single thing.

942
01:14:32.760 --> 01:14:34.880
I'm not sure if I got a bit higher grade

943
01:14:34.880 --> 01:14:41.600
for English. If I'm honest, I think I might have

944
01:14:41.640 --> 01:14:43.960
actually passed English or might have been, but it still

945
01:14:44.000 --> 01:14:50.199
would have been low. Although English was the only, probably

946
01:14:50.199 --> 01:14:59.119
the only subject that I was adequate in. But the

947
01:14:59.159 --> 01:15:04.760
problem with English is I didn't like it. I did

948
01:15:04.800 --> 01:15:10.279
to start with when I was in junior school. Loved English, practicing, writing, practicing, handwriting,

949
01:15:10.960 --> 01:15:15.279
reading books I would take I got, I read every

950
01:15:15.319 --> 01:15:18.079
single book in the library. They had a little library

951
01:15:18.119 --> 01:15:21.479
in the English room, and it was just you know,

952
01:15:21.520 --> 01:15:24.119
little books. But I'd take them home and i'd finish them,

953
01:15:24.199 --> 01:15:27.239
so it would start reading them in class, would take

954
01:15:27.479 --> 01:15:30.640
turns reading it out loud and things. I'd take the

955
01:15:30.680 --> 01:15:32.600
book home with me and i'd read it overnight and

956
01:15:32.640 --> 01:15:35.640
bring it back. And I did it to every single book.

957
01:15:36.359 --> 01:15:38.439
Sometimes I take like two or three home at night

958
01:15:38.520 --> 01:15:43.079
the weekend. I'd bring them back and i'd get permission.

959
01:15:43.119 --> 01:15:46.800
I wouldn't just take them because I was a good boy.

960
01:15:48.680 --> 01:15:53.239
And this is possibly before I got my library card,

961
01:15:58.279 --> 01:16:00.680
although it might not have been if I don't know.

962
01:16:00.720 --> 01:16:06.319
Maybe it was because yeah, I was nine, I'm not sure.

963
01:16:06.319 --> 01:16:08.159
I don't think I had my library card. It nine,

964
01:16:10.479 --> 01:16:17.560
and so I loved English. I was more interested in

965
01:16:17.600 --> 01:16:21.119
crafts than doing other things. So I think that history,

966
01:16:23.520 --> 01:16:25.279
you know, would be talking about Romans, and I'm thinking,

967
01:16:25.279 --> 01:16:26.680
what are you telling me about Romans?

968
01:16:26.720 --> 01:16:26.800
For?

969
01:16:29.159 --> 01:16:31.039
What are you telling me about the Saxons? Are you

970
01:16:31.119 --> 01:16:37.960
telling me about the Why? What are you talking about Napoleon?

971
01:16:38.039 --> 01:16:43.239
For It's is just I think the only interesting thing

972
01:16:43.279 --> 01:16:47.439
about history would be probably about if they had done

973
01:16:47.479 --> 01:16:49.800
the history of the town I was living in, or

974
01:16:49.800 --> 01:16:54.279
if they had talked about the history of television or

975
01:16:54.319 --> 01:17:02.199
the history of my family or something like that would

976
01:17:02.199 --> 01:17:08.680
have been interesting to me, I guess, so I kind

977
01:17:08.720 --> 01:17:10.680
of went along with it and I just sat at

978
01:17:10.720 --> 01:17:19.039
the back and and just hid really and then I

979
01:17:19.039 --> 01:17:23.439
I was another thing. Oh yeah, that when I was eight.

980
01:17:27.039 --> 01:17:31.479
I was I had my adnoids out because I was

981
01:17:31.520 --> 01:17:34.119
having problems with my ears. I was getting earaches, and

982
01:17:34.319 --> 01:17:40.199
then I had had my head hit. It turned out

983
01:17:40.199 --> 01:17:45.079
I was partially deaf in one ear, so I had

984
01:17:45.119 --> 01:17:49.720
my adnoids out because I was blocked. Basically he was blocked,

985
01:17:50.520 --> 01:17:55.439
so to clear it out, so I should be okay.

986
01:17:55.640 --> 01:17:58.000
So this is eight years old, so I was partially

987
01:17:58.039 --> 01:18:02.279
deaf for however many years. Didn't even know it, didn't

988
01:18:02.319 --> 01:18:07.199
even know it, didn't even show it. I remember being

989
01:18:07.239 --> 01:18:11.000
in hospital and like listening to the and I had

990
01:18:11.000 --> 01:18:16.520
to like tap every time, and I could, like I

991
01:18:16.640 --> 01:18:19.600
do it both years. One ear was really clear, which

992
01:18:19.600 --> 01:18:23.479
I think is my left ear still is right right ear.

993
01:18:23.760 --> 01:18:26.359
It's not so good as the left ear. So the

994
01:18:26.439 --> 01:18:34.960
right ear was like, I mean, it's all it feels

995
01:18:35.199 --> 01:18:38.319
it's to me, it seems like the volume is lower

996
01:18:38.720 --> 01:18:41.199
when I talk on on my right phone, if I

997
01:18:41.239 --> 01:18:43.479
put my if I put my phone on my right ear,

998
01:18:43.960 --> 01:18:47.399
it feels like the volume is lower. But I did

999
01:18:47.439 --> 01:18:49.920
have an eye test a few years ago, and eye

1000
01:18:49.920 --> 01:18:53.520
test and ear test, but it wasn't Specsavers had an

1001
01:18:53.520 --> 01:18:57.760
ear tests and they said, yeah, here's fine. So it

1002
01:18:57.880 --> 01:19:02.359
might just be psychological. I don't know, but anyway, this

1003
01:19:02.680 --> 01:19:06.119
was real. So I definitely had a like a hearing issue,

1004
01:19:06.760 --> 01:19:11.279
but it was fixable. I remember. It's so funny because

1005
01:19:12.560 --> 01:19:18.359
after I'd had the op, came home for the next

1006
01:19:18.520 --> 01:19:22.399
year or so, whenever someone called over to me and

1007
01:19:22.399 --> 01:19:26.079
I said, I didn't hear them. Maybe I was focusing

1008
01:19:26.079 --> 01:19:29.079
on something else. I didn't hear them. My dad would

1009
01:19:29.119 --> 01:19:31.640
shout out, that's it, we're going back to the doctors.

1010
01:19:32.439 --> 01:19:36.199
We're going to get his ears tested. Like it's like.

1011
01:19:37.119 --> 01:19:39.720
Because I was in a house full of three four kids,

1012
01:19:39.720 --> 01:19:46.119
including myself and two adults, I had to block off

1013
01:19:46.239 --> 01:19:50.039
that sound. It was too much. I had to kind

1014
01:19:50.039 --> 01:19:52.880
of go inside myself to block it off. So when

1015
01:19:52.920 --> 01:19:57.720
someone did shout out my name or I would sometimes

1016
01:19:57.720 --> 01:20:02.319
I wouldn't hear it because I had to in order

1017
01:20:02.319 --> 01:20:06.079
for me to watch TV in a room with how

1018
01:20:06.119 --> 01:20:11.119
many people was at three for five other people? That's

1019
01:20:11.119 --> 01:20:16.640
those three kids, four kids and two adults. So three

1020
01:20:16.680 --> 01:20:21.119
other kids, two adults watching the TV. Even if they

1021
01:20:21.159 --> 01:20:24.159
weren't talking, there was like rustling of bags and food

1022
01:20:24.359 --> 01:20:30.399
and fidgeting, and there was maybe traffic outside and you know,

1023
01:20:30.640 --> 01:20:35.319
just general sounds. I had to really zone them out

1024
01:20:35.399 --> 01:20:39.800
in order to watch the TV and hear it. So

1025
01:20:39.880 --> 01:20:41.760
they were talking to me and I wouldn't hear them.

1026
01:20:42.159 --> 01:20:44.720
It wasn't because I wasn't listening. It's just because I

1027
01:20:44.800 --> 01:20:50.520
was focused. I had the zoned them out. I removed

1028
01:20:50.560 --> 01:20:56.800
them from the situation, removed them from my peripheral vision,

1029
01:20:57.039 --> 01:21:01.680
removed them from my thoughts of just focused on the TV.

1030
01:21:02.920 --> 01:21:06.319
And this is the only way I could really watch it.

1031
01:21:06.560 --> 01:21:10.000
I mean, even now, it seems like I'm just talking

1032
01:21:10.000 --> 01:21:13.880
about my inadequacies, doesn't it. But maybe I am. Maybe

1033
01:21:13.880 --> 01:21:18.520
that's what it is. But wearing glasses is not an inadequacy.

1034
01:21:18.720 --> 01:21:22.000
Wearing glasses is just it's just a natural thing. Millions

1035
01:21:22.000 --> 01:21:25.000
and millions of people with them, including me, and there's

1036
01:21:25.039 --> 01:21:30.800
nothing wrong with it. So but this, for some reason,

1037
01:21:32.439 --> 01:21:39.439
I can't have someone sitting next to me like if

1038
01:21:39.840 --> 01:21:42.359
when I'm at home, bearing in mind, this is the

1039
01:21:42.399 --> 01:21:45.720
most relaxed place I'm going to be. Really is being

1040
01:21:45.800 --> 01:21:48.800
here a part of I mean, the most relaxed place

1041
01:21:48.840 --> 01:21:51.880
I probably ever was before this was my name's. I

1042
01:21:52.119 --> 01:21:53.760
was sitting in the room with my name. I was

1043
01:21:53.800 --> 01:21:59.680
relaxed in a way that probably I wasn't. I mean,

1044
01:21:59.680 --> 01:22:03.560
it's more safety thing, to be fair, emotionally, I felt

1045
01:22:03.600 --> 01:22:08.920
safe with her, but I was relaxed with her here.

1046
01:22:11.119 --> 01:22:12.800
It's probably the only place that I would say I'd

1047
01:22:12.840 --> 01:22:16.760
probably feel relaxed when that front door was locked and

1048
01:22:16.800 --> 01:22:19.560
I got Finny cuddled up next to me and I'm

1049
01:22:19.600 --> 01:22:22.399
just stroking him or got my arm resting on him.

1050
01:22:22.680 --> 01:22:29.119
It's relaxing and relaxed. Put someone put up human beings

1051
01:22:29.119 --> 01:22:31.720
sitting next to me, and I will not feel relaxed.

1052
01:22:33.479 --> 01:22:37.840
And I'm not talking like some random stranger, just anyone,

1053
01:22:38.159 --> 01:22:40.439
anyone I know. I don't want them sitting next to me.

1054
01:22:40.560 --> 01:22:45.960
I cannot sit next to someone on a sofa, and

1055
01:22:46.000 --> 01:22:50.239
that includes even Luke, my friend downstairs. He'd always sit

1056
01:22:50.279 --> 01:22:54.039
on a different chair. I'd have a chair separate for him,

1057
01:22:54.479 --> 01:22:55.920
or we could sit on the sofa and I'd sit

1058
01:22:55.960 --> 01:22:58.680
on a chair. You know, I wouldn't like he'd have

1059
01:22:58.680 --> 01:23:01.560
a choice, So he'd sit on the sofa if I

1060
01:23:01.560 --> 01:23:03.479
was at the table. So if I was at my desk,

1061
01:23:04.560 --> 01:23:07.720
he'd sit on the sofa and we'd watch TV together,

1062
01:23:07.880 --> 01:23:12.359
or I'd be doing stuff and with chat. But if

1063
01:23:12.439 --> 01:23:14.720
I was sitting, if we were watching TV together, which

1064
01:23:15.000 --> 01:23:17.560
we didn't do that much, but if we're watching boxing,

1065
01:23:20.000 --> 01:23:21.920
I like to be comfortable when I'm watching boxing, and

1066
01:23:22.039 --> 01:23:25.000
I like to be in the sofa with my legs

1067
01:23:25.079 --> 01:23:27.800
up or in the chair with my legs up. Because

1068
01:23:27.800 --> 01:23:32.199
I used to have a not recycling reclining chair. That's it.

1069
01:23:32.439 --> 01:23:38.640
I used to have a reclining chair, and I had

1070
01:23:38.640 --> 01:23:41.159
that for a few years. I've had this one for

1071
01:23:43.279 --> 01:23:45.239
I probably had this world for a few years there

1072
01:23:45.319 --> 01:23:52.960
as well. But the last few years he was with

1073
01:23:53.039 --> 01:23:56.840
the boxing, he would sit on a chair while I

1074
01:23:56.840 --> 01:23:59.399
sat on the sofa because and I'd always make sure

1075
01:23:59.439 --> 01:24:01.600
that it was stuff on the other because there's there's

1076
01:24:01.680 --> 01:24:06.359
two chairs, two seats on the sofa. The other side

1077
01:24:06.359 --> 01:24:09.319
of the sofa. It's always got stuff on it. It's

1078
01:24:09.399 --> 01:24:16.800
never empty. This is before I got Vinnie. I used

1079
01:24:16.800 --> 01:24:19.840
to just keep that. That's where that's just stuff, where

1080
01:24:19.880 --> 01:24:22.159
it's a book where I can write stuff in a

1081
01:24:22.199 --> 01:24:25.840
book I'm reading, whether it's laptop, whatever, it's all stuff

1082
01:24:25.880 --> 01:24:29.800
that's my little like a little desk kind of people

1083
01:24:29.840 --> 01:24:35.560
don't sit there, and I can't sit next to someone.

1084
01:24:35.680 --> 01:24:42.960
I can't. It's especially I mean TV or just it's

1085
01:24:43.000 --> 01:24:45.359
about doable, but I can't do it. I don't do

1086
01:24:45.399 --> 01:24:48.680
it if I don't have to. But having a conversation

1087
01:24:48.800 --> 01:24:52.760
it's too close. I need distance when I'm talking to someone.

1088
01:24:52.800 --> 01:24:55.359
I need distance. I need at least maybe six to

1089
01:24:55.359 --> 01:25:01.119
ten foot or six foot probably just this not a

1090
01:25:01.159 --> 01:25:04.279
far enough away so that I need binoculars, but just

1091
01:25:04.760 --> 01:25:08.159
you know, or that they need to use a loud speaker,

1092
01:25:10.680 --> 01:25:14.680
but I do. I need that distance because I struggle

1093
01:25:14.760 --> 01:25:16.920
to focus with my eyes if someone is too close,

1094
01:25:17.720 --> 01:25:25.159
like I don't know what that is. Which makes being

1095
01:25:25.239 --> 01:25:28.840
on a bus a little bit difficult. And it's it's

1096
01:25:28.920 --> 01:25:32.079
great if there's no one on the bus, but a

1097
01:25:32.119 --> 01:25:39.920
busy bus all I'd rather stand. I'd rather stand and

1098
01:25:42.960 --> 01:25:46.960
pretty much be sniffing someone's arm pit. No, I don't

1099
01:25:46.960 --> 01:25:48.840
want to smith sniff someone's arm pet. I'm saying I'd

1100
01:25:48.920 --> 01:25:52.279
rather stand and be like squashed sending up than how

1101
01:25:52.319 --> 01:25:58.479
someone's sitting next to me. It's you know, I suppose

1102
01:25:58.479 --> 01:26:03.079
it's because my belly does give me distance. Someone might

1103
01:26:03.119 --> 01:26:04.800
be in it on my bum. We've got such a

1104
01:26:04.800 --> 01:26:09.399
big bum, big belly that people can't really get too

1105
01:26:09.399 --> 01:26:14.760
close to me if I'm standing up, which is good.

1106
01:26:16.159 --> 01:26:22.960
Oh I really painted a terrible picture of my body,

1107
01:26:23.600 --> 01:26:29.600
That's what I was going to say. Oh yeah, So

1108
01:26:31.239 --> 01:26:36.359
it turned out that after I had my ears thing done,

1109
01:26:37.000 --> 01:26:40.800
the teachers were saying they now, they said, oh, he's

1110
01:26:40.840 --> 01:26:43.279
so behind because he couldn't hear what was being said

1111
01:26:43.279 --> 01:26:45.920
in the classroom, and he was always sitting at the

1112
01:26:45.960 --> 01:26:48.319
back of the talking about me always sitting at the

1113
01:26:48.319 --> 01:26:57.680
back of the classroom and didn't didn't pretty much. I

1114
01:26:57.880 --> 01:27:03.399
wasn't able to hear what's going on well enough. It's

1115
01:27:03.439 --> 01:27:07.760
like they were trying to make excuses for me not listening.

1116
01:27:08.279 --> 01:27:10.199
But the fact is, I mean, it might have been true.

1117
01:27:10.199 --> 01:27:11.520
I might have been part of the reason why I

1118
01:27:11.560 --> 01:27:16.439
was so behind, but I genuinely wasn't interested in what

1119
01:27:16.479 --> 01:27:20.840
the teachers were talking about, and anything that did interest me.

1120
01:27:21.640 --> 01:27:26.760
It stuck. You know, if I'm interested in something, I'll

1121
01:27:26.800 --> 01:27:30.800
look it up now and that information generally stays with me.

1122
01:27:39.479 --> 01:27:41.800
I think sitting at the back was a good place

1123
01:27:41.840 --> 01:27:43.840
to be because I don't want to be I never

1124
01:27:43.960 --> 01:27:48.600
liked people being behind me. I never really enjoyed that,

1125
01:27:49.319 --> 01:27:53.680
even when I'll go to a theater. When I was

1126
01:27:53.720 --> 01:27:57.239
really little, I didn't care, like if I go to

1127
01:27:57.239 --> 01:28:00.199
the cinemation like going a front row. Because I was

1128
01:28:00.199 --> 01:28:04.359
so little, I didn't My head didn't even really fit

1129
01:28:04.439 --> 01:28:08.720
to the top of the headrest. So technically people were

1130
01:28:08.760 --> 01:28:11.880
behind me, but it didn't feel like they were because

1131
01:28:11.920 --> 01:28:13.920
I was. They probably didn't even know I was there.

1132
01:28:15.319 --> 01:28:17.520
And I spread my legs out, and I was lovely,

1133
01:28:17.760 --> 01:28:20.560
even though I had little legs. I spread my legs

1134
01:28:20.560 --> 01:28:24.199
out wherever I was in the cinema, but it was

1135
01:28:24.279 --> 01:28:25.960
I used to love to sit at the front and

1136
01:28:26.039 --> 01:28:34.319
had this big, massive screen, And yeah, that's what I

1137
01:28:34.319 --> 01:28:37.199
always used to do. When I was older, i'd moved

1138
01:28:37.199 --> 01:28:42.720
to the back. Now. I haven't been to cinema for

1139
01:28:42.760 --> 01:28:47.239
a long time, but now I probably choose, if possible,

1140
01:28:49.159 --> 01:28:53.119
like a middle aisle, but away from anyone. I don't

1141
01:28:53.159 --> 01:28:55.600
want people sitting near me or in front of me

1142
01:28:55.720 --> 01:28:58.960
or behind me. I just want my I want my

1143
01:28:59.000 --> 01:29:05.920
own cinema based simply, but enough distance, you know, I'm

1144
01:29:05.920 --> 01:29:09.039
gonna actually have seat. In the past, I'm sure I

1145
01:29:09.079 --> 01:29:11.039
was in the cinema once and someone just walked up

1146
01:29:11.439 --> 01:29:18.920
and sat right next to me. And I remember saying,

1147
01:29:19.960 --> 01:29:23.159
why you got all these other seats in this cinema?

1148
01:29:23.199 --> 01:29:26.479
Is probably two hundred seats in the cinema and there's

1149
01:29:26.479 --> 01:29:28.880
only like five people in there. Why did you come

1150
01:29:28.880 --> 01:29:32.000
and sit next to me? You know what I heard.

1151
01:29:32.039 --> 01:29:36.560
You know what response was. We came together, We came

1152
01:29:36.640 --> 01:29:38.760
to what do you mean why am I sitting next

1153
01:29:38.760 --> 01:29:41.239
to you? I've just been out to go and get

1154
01:29:41.279 --> 01:29:45.479
some popcorn for us. That's the point where I thought

1155
01:29:45.520 --> 01:29:51.399
maybe the relationship wasn't going to work out. Just going

1156
01:29:51.439 --> 01:29:54.000
to the cinema as someone doesn't it doesn't mean that

1157
01:29:54.039 --> 01:30:03.079
I want to sit with them. That was weird. So yeah,

1158
01:30:03.199 --> 01:30:12.720
I had glasses. Oh yeah, the eighty nine got them again,

1159
01:30:12.840 --> 01:30:16.920
started reading, started not using them to read a bit more.

1160
01:30:17.000 --> 01:30:26.520
That was nice, And really between nineteen eighty nine and

1161
01:30:26.680 --> 01:30:32.760
two thy thirteen, just reading glasses all those years, just

1162
01:30:32.840 --> 01:30:37.760
reading glasses, I go back, just need them for reading.

1163
01:30:39.159 --> 01:30:41.600
Never mentioned the one KEYI maybe I've still got one

1164
01:30:41.640 --> 01:30:45.279
kei and no one's told me, but I've had photographs taken.

1165
01:30:45.359 --> 01:30:48.560
It doesn't seem to be. Well, you know what, I've

1166
01:30:48.600 --> 01:30:50.680
had enough people in my life that would tell me.

1167
01:30:51.439 --> 01:30:54.159
They just make fun of me to my face about

1168
01:30:54.199 --> 01:30:59.319
having a one kei. So maybe I do, but I'm

1169
01:30:59.319 --> 01:31:09.840
pretty sure they tell me. I actually met someone who

1170
01:31:09.880 --> 01:31:15.399
had a one kei and there's a health spa thing,

1171
01:31:16.600 --> 01:31:19.279
and she's one of the people that have been most

1172
01:31:20.039 --> 01:31:22.640
I've most attracted to in my entire life was her.

1173
01:31:23.920 --> 01:31:28.520
I didn't met her once as a one kid. I

1174
01:31:28.600 --> 01:31:30.399
just liked just looking in a different direction. And I

1175
01:31:30.399 --> 01:31:32.560
had a friend. I had a friend who had like

1176
01:31:32.600 --> 01:31:37.119
an eye like that, like, who cares, He's got to

1177
01:31:37.119 --> 01:31:40.960
focus on one eye? But you can't look You can't

1178
01:31:41.000 --> 01:31:44.039
look at both eyes anyway, can you? Or can you?

1179
01:31:44.239 --> 01:31:48.560
I can't. I'm not glazed over a little bit when

1180
01:31:48.560 --> 01:31:52.560
I look at people, but I can't unless it is

1181
01:31:52.600 --> 01:31:54.720
at a distance. I need a real distance if I'm

1182
01:31:54.720 --> 01:31:57.239
gonna be able to get an idea of focusing on

1183
01:31:57.319 --> 01:32:01.840
both eyes too close and and I can't focus on either.

1184
01:32:01.920 --> 01:32:15.000
I so two thirteen between. Actually, yeah, I wore I

1185
01:32:15.039 --> 01:32:21.279
wore glasses for reading a lot during the twenties, during

1186
01:32:21.319 --> 01:32:26.319
my twenties, rather not the nineteen twenties, because I was

1187
01:32:26.359 --> 01:32:28.199
reading a lot. I'd read a lot of books, had

1188
01:32:28.199 --> 01:32:33.079
a lot of books. That stupid flies in this room.

1189
01:32:33.079 --> 01:32:35.680
It was in the kitchen earlier. Now it's here unless

1190
01:32:35.680 --> 01:32:37.640
it's just come in the window and it's a different fly,

1191
01:32:38.319 --> 01:32:39.880
or it's got out of a window in the kitchen

1192
01:32:39.880 --> 01:32:46.920
and coming this way, harassing me being earth by a fly.

1193
01:32:48.960 --> 01:32:56.960
And I don't know why I went to the opticians

1194
01:32:57.000 --> 01:33:02.880
in twenty thirteen. I think I might have been getting

1195
01:33:02.880 --> 01:33:04.800
a bit of eyes strained because I was working in

1196
01:33:04.800 --> 01:33:09.880
the call center, and yeah, I was told, yeah, you

1197
01:33:09.880 --> 01:33:12.640
need to wear glasses, and you need to need to

1198
01:33:12.680 --> 01:33:17.560
wear glasses all the time or act. You know what

1199
01:33:17.600 --> 01:33:24.399
they call them lenses? You know what's your names? Do

1200
01:33:24.479 --> 01:33:28.000
you put in your eye? Them lens and things? I

1201
01:33:28.000 --> 01:33:30.119
can't remember the name because I will never wear them

1202
01:33:30.319 --> 01:33:34.399
ever contact lenses. No never never never never know it

1203
01:33:36.920 --> 01:33:41.640
and I never never never never know no, no, no

1204
01:33:41.640 --> 01:33:47.720
no no. I mean for vanity. I understand why people do,

1205
01:33:47.800 --> 01:33:50.920
maybe because glasses can cover up the face and if

1206
01:33:50.920 --> 01:33:56.239
someone's particularly you know, if I was particularly facially attractive.

1207
01:33:56.720 --> 01:33:59.039
I didn't want my face to be covered up. Then

1208
01:33:59.039 --> 01:34:06.239
maybe I would wear contact lenses. I probably wouldn't have

1209
01:34:06.279 --> 01:34:08.920
wanted to wear glasses in my twenties. I'll be honest

1210
01:34:08.920 --> 01:34:12.640
with you. I wouldn't. I wouldn't know. I wouldn't not

1211
01:34:12.720 --> 01:34:15.159
have been happy wearing glasses all the way through my

1212
01:34:15.199 --> 01:34:24.159
twenties and probably not even through my thirties either. I

1213
01:34:24.199 --> 01:34:29.640
didn't mind wearing them, I didn't mind wearing reading glasses

1214
01:34:29.640 --> 01:34:31.960
in front of people, but I don't think I would

1215
01:34:31.960 --> 01:34:37.439
have particularly wanted to be wearing glasses. Yeah. Yeah, it

1216
01:34:37.479 --> 01:34:41.479
wasn't really for me. I'm used to it now. It's

1217
01:34:41.520 --> 01:34:48.079
been what twelve years now since I've been wearing them.

1218
01:34:48.279 --> 01:34:50.720
And it was really weird because the first paid glasses,

1219
01:34:50.880 --> 01:34:57.720
it was three lenses, and the reading one was more powerful.

1220
01:35:00.079 --> 01:35:02.560
I don't know what is. It made me look taller.

1221
01:35:02.800 --> 01:35:06.720
I felt taller because the ground was further away. It

1222
01:35:06.760 --> 01:35:09.119
looked because that was the reading part, so they were

1223
01:35:09.159 --> 01:35:15.079
a bit more and I don't know, but it just looked.

1224
01:35:15.319 --> 01:35:18.520
I felt that I was like at least five foot tall.

1225
01:35:19.840 --> 01:35:22.840
It was amazing, but at the same time it was

1226
01:35:22.920 --> 01:35:25.279
trippy because I was, well literally, I was tripping over

1227
01:35:28.159 --> 01:35:36.119
the vet, not the vet, And the optician did say,

1228
01:35:36.680 --> 01:35:38.319
you're you know, you get used to it, but it

1229
01:35:38.359 --> 01:35:42.840
might be a bit weird to start with. I said, thanks.

1230
01:35:43.880 --> 01:35:45.960
She says, it's a little bit like a prostate exam.

1231
01:35:46.000 --> 01:35:50.119
You know. I said, what I said, don't worry. So

1232
01:35:50.159 --> 01:35:53.720
what are you talk about prostate exams? She said, well,

1233
01:35:53.760 --> 01:35:57.279
it's a bit weird. So what's weird about prostate exam?

1234
01:35:58.359 --> 01:36:04.720
She said, I'm an optician. I'm not supposed to give them. Okay,

1235
01:36:05.359 --> 01:36:07.199
that's say. Is it going in a weird direction? I

1236
01:36:07.359 --> 01:36:10.960
just left. They came running after me. You gotta pay,

1237
01:36:11.159 --> 01:36:16.319
you gotta pay, I said, okay, okay, I don't want

1238
01:36:16.319 --> 01:36:17.760
to come back and just give you the money. Said,

1239
01:36:17.840 --> 01:36:20.000
but you've got to come back. I said why. She said,

1240
01:36:20.000 --> 01:36:25.600
you left your trousers here. Okay, But it was weird

1241
01:36:25.680 --> 01:36:29.920
wearing glasses all the time to start with. And I

1242
01:36:29.960 --> 01:36:32.359
think some people because I've got active lights. So what

1243
01:36:33.000 --> 01:36:36.600
active lights so that it goes dark in the in

1244
01:36:36.640 --> 01:36:42.960
the sun, sunlight all year round, So I think some

1245
01:36:43.000 --> 01:36:44.920
people think I'm walking around Well, actually a couple of

1246
01:36:44.920 --> 01:36:46.800
people have said it in the past. A lot of

1247
01:36:46.800 --> 01:36:49.840
other dog walkers. Why are you wearing shades in the winter,

1248
01:36:51.880 --> 01:36:54.319
I said, I'm not wearing shades. These are my glasses.

1249
01:36:56.039 --> 01:36:59.560
They just go they block out the sunlight in my

1250
01:36:59.600 --> 01:37:08.840
eyes to try and protect my eyes. Oh, okay, So

1251
01:37:08.880 --> 01:37:11.720
I think some people think I'm walking around with sunglasses

1252
01:37:11.720 --> 01:37:16.399
on in the winter or when I first go into

1253
01:37:16.439 --> 01:37:18.560
a place. So if I go and listen, was going

1254
01:37:18.600 --> 01:37:23.640
to go into the pet shop in the winter, I

1255
01:37:23.640 --> 01:37:25.960
would look like I was wearing sunglasses because it takes

1256
01:37:25.960 --> 01:37:27.960
a while for the lens to go down from dark

1257
01:37:28.039 --> 01:37:32.399
to be clear again. So the whole time I'm in

1258
01:37:32.399 --> 01:37:37.760
that pet shop, they might be thinking he's wearing sunglasses

1259
01:37:39.199 --> 01:37:49.119
and it's December, strange and it's raining, but they go dark.

1260
01:37:51.479 --> 01:37:54.760
It's just what they do. So I'm pretty sure my

1261
01:37:55.000 --> 01:37:59.399
first mma had some like this, our very first mother.

1262
01:38:04.560 --> 01:38:06.760
I just have a memory of her wearing dark glasses.

1263
01:38:07.319 --> 01:38:10.479
Maybe they were just sunshades, but she definitely wore glasses.

1264
01:38:10.560 --> 01:38:14.840
So I don't know when when Okay, let me check

1265
01:38:15.720 --> 01:38:34.000
when did actor like Okay, did glasses have history of

1266
01:38:34.000 --> 01:38:44.680
people's glasses look Sempty star glasses acting like what is

1267
01:38:44.800 --> 01:38:51.800
actor like glasses through the decades. Oh, I can't believe

1268
01:38:52.399 --> 01:39:02.439
did act aviators not aviators? What are they called? Oh,

1269
01:39:02.479 --> 01:39:07.000
I can't see. The glass has been around? What since

1270
01:39:07.119 --> 01:39:10.239
nineteen twenties? They were around since before then? Weren't they

1271
01:39:11.960 --> 01:39:14.479
eyeglasses history. I don't really want to go through the

1272
01:39:14.600 --> 01:39:21.920
whole eyeglasses history, So history now, I'm just going to

1273
01:39:22.000 --> 01:39:32.800
go for history history of dark glasses. Dark glasses semi

1274
01:39:32.880 --> 01:39:39.199
peppees is an ingredient Samuel Peppe Paul Peppe's has been

1275
01:39:39.239 --> 01:39:44.119
credited with ordering the first dark glasses made by English

1276
01:39:44.239 --> 01:39:49.720
opetition John Turlington, but, according to his diary, used more

1277
01:39:49.760 --> 01:39:52.279
for ogland women in church than to shield his eyes

1278
01:39:52.319 --> 01:39:59.800
from sunlight. Okay, I didn't know that was going to

1279
01:39:59.800 --> 01:40:06.239
be coming up the hint. I suppose they would be

1280
01:40:06.239 --> 01:40:10.319
called tinted. But like mine aunt sunglasses, they just go dark.

1281
01:40:12.079 --> 01:40:17.359
I might get some, really, I might get some glasses

1282
01:40:17.399 --> 01:40:22.520
just to annoy people go down like a bit of

1283
01:40:23.920 --> 01:40:27.439
you remember Elton John back in well, I'm not saying

1284
01:40:27.479 --> 01:40:29.920
remember him. He's still around, but remember when he was

1285
01:40:29.960 --> 01:40:32.000
like in the seventies and the eighties. He'd be wearing

1286
01:40:32.039 --> 01:40:38.119
like really crazy glasses and I might do that. Or

1287
01:40:38.239 --> 01:40:44.199
Danny LaRue was it Danny LaRue Liberaci. Yeah, I might

1288
01:40:44.239 --> 01:40:50.720
go down a Liberaci route just wear really colorful spectacles,

1289
01:40:51.920 --> 01:40:55.640
or I might just get some normal glasses. I quite

1290
01:40:55.720 --> 01:41:02.880
like these frames. But last time, because they've got reading

1291
01:41:02.880 --> 01:41:05.800
bits at the bottom, I got two pairs of the

1292
01:41:05.840 --> 01:41:09.479
same glasses. So this is the second pair, warning the

1293
01:41:09.479 --> 01:41:12.960
other ones out. This is the second pair, and needs

1294
01:41:12.960 --> 01:41:16.560
are nearly worn out as well. It's been I think

1295
01:41:16.720 --> 01:41:20.760
three or four years, maybe four maybe longer since I

1296
01:41:20.840 --> 01:41:28.199
last had these. Yeah, I talked myself into it. I'm

1297
01:41:28.199 --> 01:41:31.840
going to go and get an eyeglass, eyeglass test, eye

1298
01:41:31.840 --> 01:41:39.600
test for glasses. It's not really much of a history

1299
01:41:39.640 --> 01:41:43.560
of my glasses, is it, But that's that's kind of it.

1300
01:41:43.680 --> 01:41:45.920
I remember that when I bought I got my glasses

1301
01:41:46.000 --> 01:41:50.399
nineteen eighty nine, and they were my first reading only glasses,

1302
01:41:50.439 --> 01:41:57.199
I think. And when I got them, I was so excited.

1303
01:41:57.359 --> 01:42:01.439
Went to Collected Durman. I'd already bought a book to read,

1304
01:42:01.600 --> 01:42:03.640
and I was waiting for the to get the glasses

1305
01:42:03.680 --> 01:42:07.039
to anoint the book as it were, or anoint the

1306
01:42:07.039 --> 01:42:15.079
glasses with the book, and I sat on them. I

1307
01:42:15.119 --> 01:42:16.720
put them on the bed and I sat down and

1308
01:42:16.880 --> 01:42:22.560
I basically, yeah, sat on them. I had to take

1309
01:42:22.600 --> 01:42:29.199
them back and get them re shaped, and that's it

1310
01:42:29.319 --> 01:42:36.119
for me. So this is my Jason's was it Monday's

1311
01:42:36.119 --> 01:42:41.920
boring objects glasses? So thank you for listening. Remember to

1312
01:42:41.960 --> 01:42:44.640
be kind to yourself because you do deserve to be happy,

1313
01:42:46.680 --> 01:42:50.880
and be gentle with yourself, because you do deserve to

1314
01:42:50.920 --> 01:43:08.039
feel safe, relax in a more deep and meaningful way,

1315
01:43:10.520 --> 01:43:15.600
maybe in a way that can not just allow you

1316
01:43:16.039 --> 01:43:26.079
to feel calmer now and throughout the time we spend

1317
01:43:26.119 --> 01:43:34.079
together here, not just relaxed at the end of the

1318
01:43:34.159 --> 01:43:39.560
recording when it's finished and you can enjoy that sense

1319
01:43:39.680 --> 01:43:56.319
of comfort and peace, but also I think it would

1320
01:43:56.319 --> 01:44:12.199
be nice to have those feelings of relaxation continue for

1321
01:44:12.359 --> 01:44:24.319
longer after the recording has ended, so that you can

1322
01:44:25.920 --> 01:44:36.560
still benefit from listening to my voice, maybe in a

1323
01:44:36.600 --> 01:44:49.119
few hours time, perhaps tomorrow, and then by listening regularly,

1324
01:44:52.199 --> 01:44:56.800
especially if you find like some people do and myself

1325
01:44:56.840 --> 01:45:01.399
as well. I sometimes I find one particularly recording that

1326
01:45:01.640 --> 01:45:10.359
really resonates with me, and I just listened to it

1327
01:45:10.399 --> 01:45:23.279
over and over again every morning, every evening. There was

1328
01:45:23.279 --> 01:45:30.439
this recording from We're going back to about nineteen ninety nine.

1329
01:45:30.680 --> 01:45:36.039
It was it wasn't hypnosis, but it was a guided visualizations.

1330
01:45:36.159 --> 01:45:43.159
It kind of was hypnosis, really, and I managed to

1331
01:45:43.199 --> 01:45:46.680
find it again and it still has the same effect

1332
01:45:47.239 --> 01:45:58.199
on me. And part of it was the person's voice

1333
01:45:59.279 --> 01:46:08.840
relaxed me. She just felt so peaceful, and I'd look

1334
01:46:09.039 --> 01:46:16.000
forward to listening to her in the morning and in

1335
01:46:16.079 --> 01:46:27.800
the evening. And I knew before even pressing the play button.

1336
01:46:32.119 --> 01:46:35.560
As soon as I've done that, pressed the play button.

1337
01:46:36.359 --> 01:46:47.359
This is in the days of CD players, pressed the

1338
01:46:47.399 --> 01:46:52.760
play button. In fact, it might have even been a

1339
01:46:52.840 --> 01:46:57.359
tape tape recorder. I'd lie down on the bed and

1340
01:46:57.399 --> 01:47:15.880
then even without necessarily listening to her words because I

1341
01:47:15.960 --> 01:47:23.439
had them memorized. Really, it was as if my body

1342
01:47:25.359 --> 01:47:38.800
knew exactly what to do, and the muscles just almost

1343
01:47:38.880 --> 01:47:59.319
went into automatic relaxation, and I remember my mind would

1344
01:47:59.319 --> 01:48:10.720
slow down. Now. Now I was listening to this recording

1345
01:48:14.039 --> 01:48:20.119
in the early days of learning hypnosis, and long before

1346
01:48:21.720 --> 01:48:29.760
I ever made any videos or audio recordings myself, because

1347
01:48:29.800 --> 01:48:32.840
I didn't start doing that till two thousand and six,

1348
01:48:39.760 --> 01:48:55.720
I knew, I knew how helpful I found being able

1349
01:48:55.760 --> 01:49:04.800
to just let go, to have that trust in the

1350
01:49:04.920 --> 01:49:15.279
person that I'm listening to knowing that it's going to

1351
01:49:15.359 --> 01:49:26.159
be just as relaxing, if not more so. Each time

1352
01:49:26.399 --> 01:49:38.960
you hear my voice, you may feel the same. Some

1353
01:49:39.239 --> 01:49:53.439
people have been listening to me for over a decade,

1354
01:49:54.239 --> 01:50:01.279
maybe not solidly, obviously, not twenty four hours a day.

1355
01:50:02.239 --> 01:50:08.279
Maybe people come back, some people maybe listen every day.

1356
01:50:18.279 --> 01:50:24.279
That's something that I do which you may not realize

1357
01:50:26.680 --> 01:50:45.239
by listening, is when I record these recordings. Now, for example,

1358
01:50:49.800 --> 01:51:00.760
I also am affected by the words that I say.

1359
01:51:02.840 --> 01:51:09.239
So if I set to you focus on your feet,

1360
01:51:11.760 --> 01:51:19.479
notice your feet relaxing. I will be focusing on my feet.

1361
01:51:24.399 --> 01:51:41.800
I will be noticing my feet relaxing. If I said,

1362
01:51:41.920 --> 01:51:49.600
focus on your hands, and maybe notice the difference between

1363
01:51:49.640 --> 01:52:00.520
each hand, perhaps notice the air in the room, a

1364
01:52:00.600 --> 01:52:05.279
temperature of the room. On the backs of your hands,

1365
01:52:13.039 --> 01:52:16.960
you may start to notice what almost feels like a

1366
01:52:17.079 --> 01:52:25.159
very light breeze, even though there may not be any

1367
01:52:25.560 --> 01:52:30.479
type of breeze at all where you are right now.

1368
01:52:38.640 --> 01:52:49.239
And as you become aware of your hands, I'm also

1369
01:52:49.600 --> 01:53:17.760
aware of how relaxed my hands are feeling now. And

1370
01:53:17.960 --> 01:53:24.880
when it comes to potentially drifting off to sleep, which

1371
01:53:24.960 --> 01:53:39.079
may be the reason you're listening, I also feel drowsy.

1372
01:53:41.359 --> 01:53:54.800
When I make these recordings, I also notice my mind drifting.

1373
01:54:02.720 --> 01:54:15.319
In fact, at times I've actually fallen asleep without even noticing,

1374
01:54:20.159 --> 01:54:29.319
and then I carry on talking, and it's suddenly when

1375
01:54:29.600 --> 01:54:38.720
I listen back to do the editing, I hear snoring,

1376
01:54:40.640 --> 01:54:47.920
and I think, I don't remember snoring. I remember talking.

1377
01:54:50.800 --> 01:54:57.960
This snoring was a pig turned up. That's why I

1378
01:54:58.039 --> 01:55:06.159
sound like when I snore. How I get read into

1379
01:55:06.239 --> 01:55:25.600
a whole experience. I don't know how you feel. How

1380
01:55:25.720 --> 01:55:36.000
relaxed do you feel in your feet, how relaxed you

1381
01:55:36.159 --> 01:55:57.399
feel in your hands. I have noticed more and more

1382
01:56:03.319 --> 01:56:16.039
that the more relaxed, deeper level of comfort you feel,

1383
01:56:19.680 --> 01:56:35.840
the easier your breathing becomes. It's almost like that additional

1384
01:56:39.000 --> 01:56:59.560
muscle relaxation. So this allows you to breathe easier with

1385
01:56:59.720 --> 01:57:17.880
our necessarily focusing on your breath, however, being able to

1386
01:57:21.600 --> 01:58:01.840
notice the ease in which you breathe so naturally, you

1387
01:58:02.039 --> 01:58:46.760
breathe so very easily and smoothly. Whenever I imagine my breathing improving,

1388
01:58:52.479 --> 01:59:05.840
when I've got my eyes closed, I tend to visualize

1389
01:59:07.920 --> 01:59:22.319
a beautiful field with trees and flowers producing all that

1390
01:59:24.359 --> 01:59:57.159
life giving oxygen and it feels nice too, if nothing else,

1391
02:00:00.359 --> 02:00:34.479
just taking some time away from everything, enjoying that feeling

1392
02:00:34.840 --> 02:01:25.399
of peace, serenity with a joyful heart. Time seems to

1393
02:01:25.640 --> 02:02:00.760
just drip by, so very slowly, relaxed, so deeply, useful,

1394
02:02:10.640 --> 02:03:01.920
completely unattached to any thoughts whatsoever in this moment, completely free,

1395
02:03:19.920 --> 02:04:11.319
noticing that your mind has slowed down. Slowed down because

1396
02:04:11.479 --> 02:04:40.039
nothing really requires your attention. You can enjoy the physical

1397
02:04:40.399 --> 02:04:52.039
sensations of allowing the stress to drip out of your body,

1398
02:04:58.520 --> 02:05:21.479
to appear out of every part of your body, and

1399
02:05:21.880 --> 02:06:01.399
being released from your brain. Let your mind slowly, surely,

1400
02:06:08.199 --> 02:06:45.560
the muscles in your legs relax, res relax so very deeply,

1401
02:06:55.439 --> 02:07:26.439
relax so deeply. And the feelings, the pleasant feelings in

1402
02:07:26.520 --> 02:07:51.039
your arms and shoulders, deepening each part of your body

1403
02:07:54.359 --> 02:08:32.800
further and deeper and deeper, noticine, the feelings in the

1404
02:08:32.840 --> 02:09:33.199
back of your neck, the feelings in your wrists, muscles

1405
02:09:34.840 --> 02:10:12.079
in front of your body, I will say, feeling peace deeply,

1406
02:10:29.119 --> 02:10:39.399
there's a sense of pace spreads through your very core.

1407
02:11:09.960 --> 02:11:11.399
Even when you.

1408
02:11:14.399 --> 02:11:39.119
Focus on your mind, her mind becomes be and slower,

1409
02:11:55.039 --> 02:13:14.960
even deeper, relaxing, so fairy, slow, this stomach, peace full

1410
02:13:15.119 --> 02:14:01.640
in your stomach, held back. Notice, Notice how relaxed you

1411
02:14:02.039 --> 02:14:39.720
now feel in the hole of your back, in a

1412
02:14:39.960 --> 02:14:49.039
spy from your brain all the way down the middle

1413
02:14:49.079 --> 02:15:00.880
of your back, sending and receiving millions of messages every day,

1414
02:15:11.960 --> 02:16:31.119
deep comfort, increasing deeply relaxed. You need, yes, relax spreading

1415
02:16:31.359 --> 02:16:41.000
those signals down your spine or cord into every part

1416
02:16:41.440 --> 02:17:27.639
of your body, your shins and your calf muscles, your outbows,

1417
02:17:44.120 --> 02:18:01.559
feelings of peace and tranquility, spreading through your body, tips

1418
02:18:01.600 --> 02:18:17.520
of your toes, to your eyes, your fingers, all the

1419
02:18:17.600 --> 02:18:35.079
way till you'll know it. Back, letting go, reatting her,

1420
02:19:02.840 --> 02:19:33.959
pace to drift in mind, just wander in a way,

1421
02:19:43.440 --> 02:20:25.079
happy to let go, Let go completely, let go, said tranquil,

1422
02:20:49.440 --> 02:23:10.840
whole body enjoying a sense. Listener, Hey more, Hey, enjoy

1423
02:23:16.600 --> 02:23:21.399
the space, this space.

1424
02:23:24.079 --> 02:23:25.120
Of peace.

1425
02:23:28.360 --> 02:25:51.360
And safety, s very letting go. Maybe we can just

1426
02:25:54.239 --> 02:26:03.040
focus on the different parts of your body, just to

1427
02:26:03.360 --> 02:27:32.159
notice you forehead and your eyes uptual, so loose, noticing

1428
02:27:32.239 --> 02:28:52.040
in the sense of complete freedom, absolute freedom, day day,

1429
02:29:04.399 --> 02:30:30.479
peace fall energy, pace to breeze so much easier, lois.

1430
02:30:51.760 --> 02:31:41.879
You may or may not have noticed your mind drifting peaceful,

1431
02:31:55.959 --> 02:32:11.159
move any even more deeply in the direction of ttle

1432
02:32:15.799 --> 02:34:12.840
blissphul pace blisphul pace directed to pace. Come sir Colm,

1433
02:34:24.639 --> 02:35:26.159
let him go. Peace of mind rex foty c rex

1434
02:35:34.920 --> 02:36:23.280
c reax. Your body feels almost invisible, so very relaxed

1435
02:36:26.719 --> 02:37:42.079
and paceful. So pace from leo so so. And you

1436
02:37:42.159 --> 02:37:49.319
could start to notice that you are feeling more relaxed,

1437
02:37:52.319 --> 02:38:02.079
even though I've not purposely focused your mind upon that

1438
02:38:03.440 --> 02:38:09.520
sense of physical comfort that is growing within you throughout

1439
02:38:09.639 --> 02:38:22.440
your body, and your mind starts to slow down, and

1440
02:38:22.559 --> 02:38:30.040
that could be almost in recognition of I guess my

1441
02:38:30.319 --> 02:38:45.040
speech not being particularly fast and things just generally feel calmer.

1442
02:38:48.600 --> 02:38:56.520
Just by listening to my voice, you give yourself an

1443
02:38:56.600 --> 02:39:04.479
opportunity to take a break, break from the day, take

1444
02:39:04.520 --> 02:39:12.000
a break from your life as it is, and to

1445
02:39:12.120 --> 02:39:19.840
give yourself a rest, giving yourself permission to take some

1446
02:39:20.159 --> 02:39:27.079
time off and to allow your body to relax and

1447
02:39:27.600 --> 02:39:38.159
allow your mind to slow down, which in turn releases

1448
02:39:38.520 --> 02:39:43.200
the tension any stresses that you had in your body.

1449
02:39:49.159 --> 02:39:53.079
It's almost as if the parts of your body just

1450
02:39:53.360 --> 02:40:05.040
open up, allowing the negativity out and at the same

1451
02:40:05.200 --> 02:40:16.440
time replacing that negativity with positive healing energy which then

1452
02:40:16.639 --> 02:40:25.760
fills your body up and your mind to also starts

1453
02:40:25.959 --> 02:40:43.399
to appreciate those feelings of increasing confidence, an almost uplifting feeling,

1454
02:40:45.479 --> 02:40:59.479
positive healing, an energy that spreads through your body like

1455
02:40:59.600 --> 02:41:09.879
a way of comfort. And all this comes from just

1456
02:41:13.479 --> 02:41:22.239
allowing yourself a few minutes, maybe half an hour, however

1457
02:41:22.360 --> 02:41:32.600
long you want it to be, just rest and allow

1458
02:41:35.159 --> 02:41:45.159
your mind and your body to almost reset itself to

1459
02:41:45.319 --> 02:42:01.479
the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness, which allows more

1460
02:42:01.639 --> 02:42:15.000
room for feelings of pleasure and happiness to move around

1461
02:42:15.319 --> 02:42:23.520
your body and into your mind, almost as if your

1462
02:42:23.680 --> 02:42:34.200
mind and your body are sinking together, almost mirroring each

1463
02:42:34.440 --> 02:42:47.760
other with that growing positivity and calmness. And it feels nice,

1464
02:42:50.399 --> 02:42:56.280
really does feel nice to know that you are the

1465
02:42:56.399 --> 02:43:09.719
one that has allowed yourself to feel more comfort and

1466
02:43:09.920 --> 02:43:12.479
to experience.

1467
02:43:14.280 --> 02:43:15.399
More of this.

1468
02:43:17.200 --> 02:43:32.360
Deep relaxation spreading throughout your body. And as I focus

1469
02:43:33.920 --> 02:43:39.680
on each part of your body, you can notice that

1470
02:43:39.879 --> 02:43:54.399
that part becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on it.

1471
02:43:56.920 --> 02:44:06.600
It becomes even more calm and comfortable, just by focusing.

1472
02:44:10.639 --> 02:44:16.399
And as I move down your body, starting at your head,

1473
02:44:19.120 --> 02:44:24.399
the parts that you have already focused on will continue

1474
02:44:25.760 --> 02:44:32.879
to relax deeply, and those parts that have not yet

1475
02:44:33.079 --> 02:44:45.959
focused on or just automatically release any remain intention in

1476
02:44:46.120 --> 02:45:00.399
anticipation of even more comfort about to come now, And

1477
02:45:00.520 --> 02:45:07.440
to start by focusing on your forehead. Just being aware

1478
02:45:07.760 --> 02:45:16.399
of the feelings of your forehead and any background sounds

1479
02:45:18.159 --> 02:45:23.000
what mister Herbert the pigeon can just allow you to

1480
02:45:23.200 --> 02:45:30.440
feel even more relaxed. Just means you're in the moment.

1481
02:45:33.559 --> 02:45:38.920
This isn't this isn't a sterile environment. This is the world.

1482
02:45:42.360 --> 02:45:48.399
I live in the countryside, so there's lots of nature

1483
02:45:48.959 --> 02:45:59.399
sounds around. So as you focus on your forehead, just

1484
02:45:59.639 --> 02:46:07.479
notice how it becomes even more relaxed as you focus

1485
02:46:09.799 --> 02:46:14.239
only on my voice and that part of your body.

1486
02:46:19.479 --> 02:46:27.719
Moving down to your eyes, focusing on your eyes, noticing

1487
02:46:30.200 --> 02:46:39.920
how your eyelids feel so heavy yet so light at

1488
02:46:39.959 --> 02:46:46.399
the same time, and all the muscles around your eyes

1489
02:46:46.680 --> 02:47:01.079
relaxing completely. Moving your focus down to your mouth, your lips,

1490
02:47:01.559 --> 02:47:11.399
your tongue, your teeth, you comes the whole of your mouth, relaxing,

1491
02:47:14.920 --> 02:47:25.120
calm and lease. As you focus now on your jaw,

1492
02:47:28.239 --> 02:47:31.760
not just the parts of your jaw near your mouth

1493
02:47:32.600 --> 02:47:36.920
and your chin, but all the way up, the size

1494
02:47:36.959 --> 02:47:43.440
of your face to your ears, the hole of your

1495
02:47:43.559 --> 02:48:13.520
jaw feeding more relaxed calm, focusing on your neck, the

1496
02:48:13.680 --> 02:48:21.159
front of your neck and your throat relaxing and loose

1497
02:48:21.920 --> 02:48:32.040
and calm. The sides of your neck, the right left

1498
02:48:32.319 --> 02:48:50.760
side of your neck relax and loose and calm, and

1499
02:48:51.000 --> 02:48:57.959
now the back of your neck, focusing on the back

1500
02:48:58.200 --> 02:49:08.440
of your neck, letting go of any tension that may

1501
02:49:08.479 --> 02:49:19.000
have been there before, and enjoying that sense of increasing

1502
02:49:20.639 --> 02:49:29.200
comfort and release. Then you can experience in the back

1503
02:49:29.280 --> 02:49:41.760
of your neck, moving down your back and moving either

1504
02:49:41.959 --> 02:49:46.040
side of your spine right from the top of your

1505
02:49:46.159 --> 02:49:51.959
back all the way down to the bottom of your back,

1506
02:49:58.040 --> 02:50:09.319
down to your lower back. And as you move up

1507
02:50:09.399 --> 02:50:18.200
and down your spine, you can feel the muscles either

1508
02:50:18.360 --> 02:50:31.879
side of your spine relaxing even more. And as those

1509
02:50:32.040 --> 02:50:41.120
muscles relax, that sense of comfort starts to spread outwards

1510
02:50:43.079 --> 02:50:52.600
from your spine into both sides of your back, the

1511
02:50:52.760 --> 02:50:56.239
top of your back, the middle end your lower back.

1512
02:50:59.719 --> 02:51:06.920
And as you scan gently and slowly up and down

1513
02:51:07.120 --> 02:51:12.159
your back, there's the muscles in the top of your

1514
02:51:12.280 --> 02:51:22.239
back relax and become looser. The muscles in the middle

1515
02:51:22.280 --> 02:51:29.600
of your back also seem to just almost divide from

1516
02:51:29.639 --> 02:51:43.040
each other, separating and almost melting. And in your lower

1517
02:51:43.159 --> 02:51:53.840
back there seems to be an extra special feeling of

1518
02:51:54.079 --> 02:52:06.120
comfort spreads into your hips. Sit down your lower back,

1519
02:52:06.440 --> 02:52:14.399
into your hips, into the area where your cosix are,

1520
02:52:18.000 --> 02:52:24.159
and into your buttocks, and all those muscles that spread

1521
02:52:26.879 --> 02:52:36.639
bring your lower back into your hip area, start to melt,

1522
02:52:41.120 --> 02:52:51.959
start to reading, let go and don't even know where

1523
02:52:53.040 --> 02:52:58.840
about to focus on your shoulders. Your back and your

1524
02:52:59.040 --> 02:53:10.920
spine will continue till let go. Continue to relax.

1525
02:53:13.799 --> 02:53:18.040
So calmly.

1526
02:53:22.040 --> 02:53:27.639
And she focus on your shoulders, you may notice they're

1527
02:53:27.920 --> 02:53:58.879
already feeding, really loose, they're already feeding. Come I feeling

1528
02:54:03.079 --> 02:54:11.360
those muscles then move from your neck into your shoulders.

1529
02:54:17.959 --> 02:54:47.319
Feel so soft and gentle, so smooth and calm, And

1530
02:54:47.559 --> 02:55:00.399
the feeling in your shoulders seems to spread deep into

1531
02:55:00.479 --> 02:55:10.879
your shoulders, a sense of relaxation, not just traveling deeply

1532
02:55:11.280 --> 02:55:28.280
into your muscles, but also relaxing the bones and moving

1533
02:55:28.360 --> 02:55:36.600
all the way to underneath your arms, relaxing a whole

1534
02:55:36.840 --> 02:55:47.159
area between the tops of your shoulders and underneath your arms, healing.

1535
02:55:52.559 --> 02:56:05.600
You feel so relaxed and comfortable in your shoulders, which

1536
02:56:05.799 --> 02:56:07.200
sense that's.

1537
02:56:08.879 --> 02:56:10.799
Deep healing.

1538
02:56:13.920 --> 02:56:31.399
Message into your arms. You may feel almost as if

1539
02:56:31.479 --> 02:56:38.000
your arms are not even there because they're so relaxed,

1540
02:56:41.200 --> 02:56:51.559
so deeply relaxed, so.

1541
02:56:56.639 --> 02:56:56.959
Calm.

1542
02:57:12.120 --> 02:57:19.079
So this.

1543
02:57:26.639 --> 02:57:37.799
The feelings spreading all way down your arms to elbows,

1544
02:57:41.760 --> 02:58:10.520
including your elbows, circumfort spreads away into rists. Your form

1545
02:58:11.799 --> 02:58:35.280
ndr wrists so heavy. He had the same time silight

1546
02:58:38.559 --> 02:59:08.840
and gentle frey sip. Now on.

1547
02:59:11.520 --> 02:59:35.559
Your hands, your hands.

1548
02:59:41.479 --> 02:59:44.280
So peaceful.

1549
02:59:45.319 --> 02:59:46.319
In your hands.

1550
03:00:05.000 --> 03:00:30.879
The sense of real pace just seems to feel so

1551
03:00:31.280 --> 03:01:40.760
familiar when your hands relax deeply felse, I things things

1552
03:02:13.719 --> 03:02:47.879
when you think it taps, making your attention from your

1553
03:02:48.000 --> 03:04:38.920
body share counts. Then new focus to lights like my souls.

1554
03:04:40.600 --> 03:04:42.120
And you're fis.

1555
03:04:58.719 --> 03:07:40.239
Nies so relaxed, cough muscles, just shades, composition and the

1556
03:07:40.440 --> 03:08:01.479
faathing a new faints Sir pays off cycon' sir peaceful,

1557
03:08:08.600 --> 03:09:09.319
sircom sir, peaceful sycom so peace for RelA same peace,

1558
03:09:10.120 --> 03:09:29.479
fall calm, love, that deep relaxation to spread your chest

1559
03:09:30.280 --> 03:10:01.200
storm so relax, lets me go everything. So I'm going

1560
03:10:01.239 --> 03:10:07.280
to start counting down now, from twenty down to one.

1561
03:10:13.200 --> 03:10:16.399
You can imagine in a way it's like just walking

1562
03:10:16.520 --> 03:10:22.360
down some steps and each step or twenty steps, and

1563
03:10:22.479 --> 03:10:32.840
each step represents a level of comfort. Each step represents

1564
03:10:35.440 --> 03:10:47.920
a deepening of that comfort, and the furthes you walk

1565
03:10:48.000 --> 03:11:00.479
down those steps deeper and more relaxed you feel. So

1566
03:11:01.159 --> 03:14:51.040
starting with number twenty twenty, nineteen, eighteen, seventeen sixteen three

1567
03:15:33.799 --> 03:17:41.799
fourhhhhhhhh four too well.

1568
03:20:01.639 --> 03:22:00.120
Nohh I e.

1569
03:24:37.200 --> 03:25:53.159
Six five.

1570
03:26:06.200 --> 03:29:40.840
Us us us.

1571
03:31:40.280 --> 03:31:57.360
Now, as you focus on your eyes, you're gonna count

1572
03:31:57.479 --> 03:32:09.280
down from tenning down to one, focusing just on your eyes,

1573
03:32:13.040 --> 03:32:21.559
your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your eye walls themselves,

1574
03:32:23.079 --> 03:32:40.079
a whole area that makes up your eye. And as

1575
03:32:40.159 --> 03:32:48.520
we count down for ten down to one, whilst focus

1576
03:32:48.680 --> 03:33:03.680
in on your eyes, you become twice is relaxed with

1577
03:33:04.079 --> 03:33:17.040
each number counting down that you may find the all

1578
03:33:17.159 --> 03:33:23.319
you want to do is just drift off to sleep.

1579
03:33:26.319 --> 03:33:32.920
And if that's what you want, then just allow yourself

1580
03:33:33.040 --> 03:33:47.680
to do that. Now, focusing on your eyes, I'm going

1581
03:33:47.799 --> 03:33:57.440
to begin counting down from ten down to one right

1582
03:33:57.559 --> 03:40:30.479
nowhhhh T nine eighth seven four three.

1583
03:42:15.920 --> 03:42:25.879
Us US.

1584
03:43:04.040 --> 03:43:25.360
One. So counting down from ten to one ten nine

1585
03:43:27.079 --> 03:43:54.799
eight seven six five four three two one. And maybe

1586
03:43:54.920 --> 03:43:57.840
that was a bit too quick in order to relax.

1587
03:43:59.079 --> 03:44:03.280
Maybe it's a bit too fast for you to notice

1588
03:44:03.559 --> 03:44:11.639
the calming of your body, maybe even a little bit

1589
03:44:11.680 --> 03:44:15.760
of pressure there, Like you're counting down from ten to one.

1590
03:44:15.879 --> 03:44:19.280
Would you expect me to do man, expect me to

1591
03:44:19.319 --> 03:44:28.920
stick go with floppy just because you're counting down. We

1592
03:44:29.000 --> 03:44:32.280
could try it again, but this time I'll go a

1593
03:44:32.319 --> 03:44:39.719
bit slower this time, as you focus on the whole

1594
03:44:39.799 --> 03:44:46.040
of your body before we focus on your legs. Just

1595
03:44:46.319 --> 03:44:56.280
notice how your body does start to feel more relaxed

1596
03:45:01.079 --> 03:45:55.280
with every number that I count down ten nine, eight, seven, six, five, four,

1597
03:46:02.719 --> 03:46:54.200
three one, And just notice how how you feel generally,

1598
03:46:54.639 --> 03:47:08.920
how your body feels. It's not necessarily even about counting

1599
03:47:09.079 --> 03:47:15.799
down from ten to one. It's that space that.

1600
03:47:15.879 --> 03:47:17.600
You have, that.

1601
03:47:20.200 --> 03:47:41.079
Space between being active physically or mentally to just sitting

1602
03:47:41.319 --> 03:47:46.120
or lying down, just being there, not doing anything, not

1603
03:47:46.440 --> 03:47:53.440
saying anything, or needing to think about anything. So it

1604
03:47:53.559 --> 03:47:57.120
opens up a space, you know, a bit of a space,

1605
03:47:58.120 --> 03:48:07.920
a gap. And the more I camped down from ten

1606
03:48:08.000 --> 03:48:15.360
to one, the bigger that gap becomes. So there's that

1607
03:48:15.600 --> 03:48:28.239
gap of calmness, of comfort, relaxation. It's a nice feeling

1608
03:48:33.799 --> 03:48:42.479
and it moves those stresses or discomforts physically or emotionally

1609
03:48:43.200 --> 03:48:53.920
moves away. Allows you.

1610
03:48:56.639 --> 03:48:57.159
To just.

1611
03:49:00.159 --> 03:49:06.840
Slow down. Someone to count again from ten down to one,

1612
03:49:07.280 --> 03:49:17.520
and notice that gap widening, the gap, And as it widens,

1613
03:49:17.559 --> 03:49:23.600
it's almost like the stress and attention falls into the

1614
03:49:23.719 --> 03:50:33.440
gap and gives you that distance, that space. Now ten nine, eight, seven, six, five,

1615
03:50:44.559 --> 03:51:20.159
four three two.

1616
03:51:38.479 --> 03:51:38.719
One.

1617
03:51:50.239 --> 03:51:54.639
Then how did your body feel.

1618
03:51:56.600 --> 03:51:56.760
Now?

1619
03:52:09.479 --> 03:52:21.520
Can you notice that? Do you feeling calmer there? You're

1620
03:52:21.719 --> 03:52:50.120
feeling more relaxed as we now focus on your legs,

1621
03:52:51.840 --> 03:53:12.280
just your legs. We're just gonna start with focusing on

1622
03:53:12.760 --> 03:53:31.879
your thighs. Of course, it's not the most exciting thing

1623
03:53:32.040 --> 03:53:38.559
to be doing, because I'm sure like most of your

1624
03:53:38.600 --> 03:53:50.280
body is not a lot going on right now. Just

1625
03:53:50.479 --> 03:53:56.600
focusing on the whole of your thighs, the tops of

1626
03:53:56.719 --> 03:54:02.760
your thighs, the sides of your fighs, the bottoms of

1627
03:54:02.840 --> 03:54:09.799
your thighs, your outer thighs, and your inner thighs. Basically

1628
03:54:10.000 --> 03:54:13.639
the whole of your thigh that leads into your hip

1629
03:54:17.719 --> 03:54:28.479
and it goes down to your knee joints. Now, this

1630
03:54:28.680 --> 03:54:36.120
is a big area. It's a very heavy area. It's

1631
03:54:36.280 --> 03:54:42.680
very strong, probably the strongest muscles in your body are

1632
03:54:42.760 --> 03:54:59.120
in your thighs. But I don't think we perhaps give

1633
03:54:59.280 --> 03:55:11.639
enough attention and to our thighs. Perhaps we don't acknowledge

1634
03:55:12.319 --> 03:55:31.719
how important our thighs are to our lives, how much

1635
03:55:34.360 --> 03:55:47.840
they actually do for us all through our lives. And

1636
03:55:47.959 --> 03:55:53.639
it may seem to sound really weird, but I think

1637
03:55:53.719 --> 03:56:00.639
that all of our body parts, especially our thighs, need

1638
03:56:00.840 --> 03:56:15.280
some TLC, a bit of love shown, a bit of acknowledgement,

1639
03:56:18.040 --> 03:56:33.719
thank you, gratitude for our thighs do for us. And

1640
03:56:33.840 --> 03:56:39.680
I know this may sound a bit strange. Maybe you think,

1641
03:56:40.120 --> 03:56:43.040
why am I Surely I should be out in the

1642
03:56:43.159 --> 03:56:51.639
garden hugging a tree or something. Well, it's hard to

1643
03:56:51.719 --> 03:56:54.920
set a microphone up on a tree. That's why I'm

1644
03:56:54.959 --> 03:56:57.799
doing this indoors. Otherwise I wouldn't be outside hugging a tree.

1645
03:56:59.239 --> 03:57:07.879
I can't see it's division from the tree. If you

1646
03:57:08.000 --> 03:57:13.200
move down to your knees gain such an important part.

1647
03:57:17.479 --> 03:57:22.360
And I think we don't necessarily I'll speak for myself,

1648
03:57:22.440 --> 03:57:29.600
you know, I don't necessarily appreciate all that my needs

1649
03:57:29.879 --> 03:57:35.040
do for me until I have a problem with my knee.

1650
03:57:36.000 --> 03:57:40.079
It's occasionally if I ever maybe i'll bash it or

1651
03:57:41.040 --> 03:57:46.600
it's aching for some reason. It's then that I realize

1652
03:57:47.760 --> 03:57:51.799
how much it does. You know, the benefit of being

1653
03:57:51.799 --> 03:57:59.680
able to use my legs without any kind of physical

1654
03:58:00.200 --> 03:58:08.040
comfort is a beautiful thing that's possibly not appreciated until

1655
03:58:09.079 --> 03:58:18.840
it's temporarily removed. You know that's comfort. But as you

1656
03:58:18.959 --> 03:58:24.159
focus on your knees, regardless of how your knees feel,

1657
03:58:27.239 --> 03:58:32.959
you can have that sense of gratitude and love to

1658
03:58:33.079 --> 03:58:45.719
your knees for all that they do for you, and

1659
03:58:45.840 --> 03:58:49.840
you can still have that attention on your thighs. Maybe

1660
03:58:50.040 --> 03:58:56.319
notice how your thighs feel. Maybe you've noticed that they

1661
03:58:57.200 --> 03:59:15.000
are relaxing more deeply as you focus now on the

1662
03:59:15.079 --> 03:59:19.479
bottoms of your legs, your shins and your calf muscles,

1663
03:59:20.000 --> 03:59:27.680
the bones between your knees and your feet incorporate, and

1664
03:59:27.760 --> 03:59:40.079
of course, your ankles so important. Anyone that's had even

1665
03:59:40.520 --> 03:59:47.159
like the slightest sprain of an ankle knows how how

1666
03:59:47.399 --> 03:59:57.520
much we take our ankles for granted. And it's kind

1667
03:59:57.559 --> 04:00:03.040
of strange in a way when you think that. You know, logically,

1668
04:00:03.399 --> 04:00:06.479
our wrists are a lot thinner than the rest of

1669
04:00:06.559 --> 04:00:11.680
our arms, which is okay. You can't see any problem

1670
04:00:11.719 --> 04:00:16.600
with that because we're just picking stuff up by our

1671
04:00:16.719 --> 04:00:22.520
ankles so much thinner than the rest of our legs,

1672
04:00:28.959 --> 04:00:33.399
and from a physics perspective or logical even it doesn't

1673
04:00:33.440 --> 04:00:39.440
really make sense that all this weight would ultimately be

1674
04:00:40.520 --> 04:00:50.559
resting on your ankles then leading to your feet, that

1675
04:00:51.120 --> 04:00:59.959
thin area, thin bone. Yeah, it does so much great work.

1676
04:01:02.280 --> 04:01:11.799
Supports us, supports our body for a lifetime, helps us

1677
04:01:12.479 --> 04:01:21.840
to balance, It helps you to get around and be mobile.

1678
04:01:28.159 --> 04:01:35.959
And there's the calf muscles. Of course, when I was younger,

1679
04:01:36.360 --> 04:01:39.719
I couldn't see the pointing calf muscles. Didn't seem to

1680
04:01:39.840 --> 04:01:45.719
do anything. Okay, if I walked around on tiptoes, then

1681
04:01:45.920 --> 04:01:49.680
my calf muscles get some work. But of course that's

1682
04:01:49.760 --> 04:01:53.719
not true. The calf muscles are being used whenever we

1683
04:01:54.200 --> 04:02:07.719
use our legs and your shins there to protect your

1684
04:02:07.840 --> 04:02:16.840
lower legs, shaped in a way almost as a protector

1685
04:02:17.280 --> 04:02:32.000
for the bone, leading of course to your ankles and

1686
04:02:32.159 --> 04:02:39.079
your feet. But we're not going to focus on your feet.

1687
04:02:39.159 --> 04:02:43.559
We're just going to focus on the legs. I realize,

1688
04:02:45.600 --> 04:02:49.479
and now that I've mentioned your feet, you'll probably focusing

1689
04:02:49.719 --> 04:02:52.840
on them anyway, So maybe I should focus on your

1690
04:02:52.879 --> 04:02:58.719
feet a little bit. You can have them in your

1691
04:02:58.760 --> 04:03:05.159
awareness the same as you have your thighs in your awareness.

1692
04:03:06.000 --> 04:03:09.840
Even though we haven't been focusing on your thighs for

1693
04:03:09.879 --> 04:03:20.840
a few minutes, I've been focusing on your ankles, there's

1694
04:03:20.879 --> 04:03:36.120
still that sensation of comfort in your thighs, and there's

1695
04:03:36.239 --> 04:03:45.440
that movement of energy because the thighs hold lots of

1696
04:03:45.520 --> 04:03:51.719
different sensations. Of course, there's the muscles, the big straw

1697
04:03:51.920 --> 04:04:03.920
muscles that we have in our thighs, but the skin

1698
04:04:05.840 --> 04:04:10.280
on the outside of the thighs, as in the outside

1699
04:04:10.319 --> 04:04:19.719
of all of our body, can be very sensitive, sensitive

1700
04:04:19.879 --> 04:04:32.879
to the touch, sensitive to temperature, and inside your thighs

1701
04:04:35.399 --> 04:04:40.120
the bones, there's the muscle, there's the blood, vessels, the

1702
04:04:40.399 --> 04:04:45.879
ar trees, to all this stuff that inside your thighs.

1703
04:04:50.319 --> 04:04:53.680
I guess sometimes it'd be nice if you could actually

1704
04:04:53.760 --> 04:05:01.319
put your fingers inside your thighs and message. So you

1705
04:05:01.399 --> 04:05:04.879
can message on the outside, of course, but to be

1706
04:05:04.959 --> 04:05:08.120
able to get deep into the muscles and to be

1707
04:05:08.159 --> 04:05:13.280
able to just massage inside your thighs, message in the

1708
04:05:13.399 --> 04:05:22.360
bones of your leg, massage in all the veins, just

1709
04:05:22.639 --> 04:05:35.319
gently healing your thighs, and you can move down message

1710
04:05:35.399 --> 04:05:40.920
and inside your knees. Just message in those bones, but

1711
04:05:41.079 --> 04:05:48.040
with healing fingertips, spreading the healing energy deep into the

1712
04:05:48.280 --> 04:05:57.680
choice of your knees. Of course, there's the back of

1713
04:05:57.840 --> 04:06:05.719
your your need inside crease where your knee is. It's

1714
04:06:05.719 --> 04:06:11.280
a very sensitive area. Very it feels very nice when

1715
04:06:11.319 --> 04:06:16.000
you stroke it. That might be because it's an area

1716
04:06:16.079 --> 04:06:21.159
that's not really touched very often. It's almost like a

1717
04:06:21.319 --> 04:06:30.120
hidden part, that crease in your legs. It's almost like

1718
04:06:30.200 --> 04:06:34.920
a part that has a sensitivity which is a little

1719
04:06:34.959 --> 04:06:53.000
bit different. Of course, it's protected by your legs, so

1720
04:06:53.079 --> 04:06:58.120
you can imagine putting your fingers into that crease in

1721
04:06:58.239 --> 04:07:07.360
your legs. Fold in between your legs, you can just

1722
04:07:07.559 --> 04:07:15.079
message with your fingertips. Imagine your fingertips going inside, massage

1723
04:07:15.159 --> 04:07:24.840
in the muscle tissue you can cause field the bones

1724
04:07:25.280 --> 04:07:37.239
of your knees, heading through your fingertips, and then as

1725
04:07:37.280 --> 04:07:42.959
you go down to your calf muscles, and that's the

1726
04:07:43.040 --> 04:07:46.520
part I'd like to be able to really put my

1727
04:07:46.680 --> 04:07:55.440
fingertips deep inside my calf muscles, massage in every single

1728
04:07:56.479 --> 04:08:08.120
tissue of that muscle, heat every part, and then doing

1729
04:08:08.200 --> 04:08:16.520
the same for my shins, massaging and generally stroking the bones,

1730
04:08:18.280 --> 04:08:23.959
generally stroking them, healing in a loving way because they

1731
04:08:24.079 --> 04:08:30.440
deserve to be treated. There's the precious bones that they are,

1732
04:08:31.760 --> 04:08:35.040
because our legs are so precious as in all the

1733
04:08:35.120 --> 04:08:40.440
other parts of our body, the more precious of any

1734
04:08:40.600 --> 04:08:55.920
chore on the planet. When you start to think about

1735
04:08:59.280 --> 04:09:08.159
your legs in this way, it can change your perspective.

1736
04:09:10.879 --> 04:09:16.600
It might sound a bit a bit silly to start

1737
04:09:16.719 --> 04:09:23.440
with the idea of having love for your legs, showing

1738
04:09:23.520 --> 04:09:31.760
appreciation for your thighs, wanting to be able to put

1739
04:09:31.799 --> 04:09:40.360
your hands in your thighs, massage the muscles and the bones,

1740
04:09:42.239 --> 04:09:46.280
and to get your fingers deep in there and releasing

1741
04:09:47.000 --> 04:09:58.159
all tension, just to show how much you care about

1742
04:09:58.840 --> 04:10:02.920
your legs. Now, what do you care for? What your

1743
04:10:03.040 --> 04:10:12.680
legs do for you regularly, your knees, your calves, your ankles,

1744
04:10:17.000 --> 04:10:24.600
the strength of your ankles, considering how thin they are

1745
04:10:24.840 --> 04:10:32.600
compared to the rest of your legs, especially your thighs. Yeah,

1746
04:10:32.680 --> 04:10:44.760
they're so strong, so flexible, absolutely amazing things. Your ankles

1747
04:10:45.079 --> 04:10:54.200
are truly a gift because of what they do for you.

1748
04:11:00.079 --> 04:11:06.200
Brought in all that weight, regardless of how what weight

1749
04:11:06.319 --> 04:11:12.159
you are, even if you only ate stone, there's still

1750
04:11:12.280 --> 04:11:18.920
a lot of weight for these little ankles. Now I'm

1751
04:11:18.959 --> 04:11:26.639
a lot heavier than eight stone. Double down. Get my

1752
04:11:26.760 --> 04:11:35.719
ankles support my body all the time. Whether they do

1753
04:11:36.520 --> 04:11:38.840
give off a sigh of relief when I sit down,

1754
04:11:41.159 --> 04:11:49.000
that's you've had my whole legs. Do my feet feel

1755
04:11:49.040 --> 04:12:16.959
als go? My toes clap so happy? Your legs really

1756
04:12:18.440 --> 04:12:24.879
are amazing. I don't know that talking about talking about

1757
04:12:24.959 --> 04:12:31.680
your legs is probably possibly among the most most boring

1758
04:12:31.799 --> 04:12:39.319
things I've ever heard anyone say. Possibly you're boring or not.

1759
04:12:40.920 --> 04:12:56.399
Everything I said is true. Your legs are amazing. Your

1760
04:12:56.520 --> 04:13:09.079
legs deserve not just respect, they deserve to relax deeply.

1761
04:13:16.399 --> 04:13:19.719
They deserve to take some time out of the day

1762
04:13:21.920 --> 04:13:58.319
to just let go completely. Legs really can relax. And

1763
04:13:58.479 --> 04:14:02.399
because the legs are so such a most you know,

1764
04:14:02.680 --> 04:14:08.600
very important part of your body. When you relax your legs,

1765
04:14:08.680 --> 04:14:15.920
the rest of your body also naturally follows in that

1766
04:14:19.639 --> 04:14:30.479
journey of comfort. Like I feel it in my hips.

1767
04:14:31.879 --> 04:14:39.000
My hips feel really loose, and also my lower back

1768
04:14:39.079 --> 04:14:45.680
as well. My lower back really feels it feels stretched,

1769
04:14:46.799 --> 04:14:49.840
even though I'm just sitting in a chair and there's

1770
04:14:49.959 --> 04:14:55.159
no stretching as far as I'm aware, that I'm doing.

1771
04:14:56.200 --> 04:14:58.840
It's almost as if the muscles are just relaxed so

1772
04:14:59.079 --> 04:15:05.000
much that there is a natural stretch as the tension

1773
04:15:05.879 --> 04:15:27.159
has reduced a lot. And I'm now going to count

1774
04:15:27.239 --> 04:15:35.120
down from ten down to one, and you can continue

1775
04:15:36.959 --> 04:16:03.200
to fill wonderfully relaxed ten nine, eight, seven, six, five

1776
04:16:07.879 --> 04:16:35.920
four three two one. Relax. So I'm just going to

1777
04:16:36.040 --> 04:16:41.399
count down five down to one. And as a countdown,

1778
04:16:42.680 --> 04:16:47.440
if you just focus on the numbers, just the numbers

1779
04:16:49.079 --> 04:16:58.079
counting down, and notice how you feel in this moment

1780
04:17:00.120 --> 04:17:04.799
you hear the numbers counting down, knowing that those numbers

1781
04:17:07.360 --> 04:17:18.040
counting down represent you feeling calmer, not just in your body,

1782
04:17:18.200 --> 04:17:26.520
but also relaxing your mind. Just notice how you feel.

1783
04:17:27.440 --> 04:17:33.319
There's nothing to do, there's nothing to say, there's nothing

1784
04:17:33.479 --> 04:18:10.479
to think about, starting with number five, four three two.

1785
04:18:16.280 --> 04:18:16.520
One.

1786
04:18:25.959 --> 04:18:37.799
How as you notice the gradual letting go of the

1787
04:18:37.959 --> 04:18:45.559
tension in your body, you may also begin to notice

1788
04:18:45.719 --> 04:18:52.920
and be aware of how your mind is starting to

1789
04:18:54.280 --> 04:19:00.840
slow down. This is just a natural thing that happens.

1790
04:19:03.479 --> 04:19:08.680
It's not really a special procedure. It's just natural because

1791
04:19:08.760 --> 04:19:14.639
as your body relaxes, your mind also starts to relax.

1792
04:19:16.239 --> 04:19:19.879
And the more your mind relaxes, the more your body relaxes.

1793
04:19:20.040 --> 04:19:20.600
It's just a.

1794
04:19:20.760 --> 04:19:32.680
Continuous circle of relaxation. And there is that calmness that

1795
04:19:32.920 --> 04:19:39.879
comes from relative quietness. You know, even even if this

1796
04:19:40.120 --> 04:19:47.399
background sounds either your side or mine, it's still going

1797
04:19:47.479 --> 04:19:52.520
to be quite calm. You know, you haven't got the

1798
04:19:52.680 --> 04:19:57.840
television on, there's no music in the background, unless you're

1799
04:19:57.840 --> 04:20:05.399
listening to the recorded with music. Of course, you're very

1800
04:20:05.600 --> 04:20:07.479
likely not going to be sitting in a room with

1801
04:20:07.600 --> 04:20:12.399
other people. Of course you might be, but generally it's

1802
04:20:13.079 --> 04:20:15.319
more ideal if you can do this on your own,

1803
04:20:17.040 --> 04:20:27.079
so no distractions, and when you stop thinking about stuff,

1804
04:20:33.680 --> 04:20:43.959
relaxation automatically rises. A sense of comfort starts to grow,

1805
04:20:48.440 --> 04:20:55.120
and without trying to build it up into something fantastical

1806
04:20:55.559 --> 04:21:07.280
or something magical, this is just a natural process, something

1807
04:21:07.440 --> 04:21:17.600
that's easy to accomplish. In fact, it's almost you know,

1808
04:21:17.719 --> 04:21:24.600
the sense of relaxing completely happens really when you put

1809
04:21:24.760 --> 04:21:28.600
no effort into it. It's not something that you can

1810
04:21:28.719 --> 04:21:40.360
really force. It's something that happens naturally. And part of

1811
04:21:40.760 --> 04:21:51.000
the process of this recording and others is simply two

1812
04:21:52.600 --> 04:22:02.920
allow you to take advantage of this space, this time

1813
04:22:05.959 --> 04:22:16.879
to just let go, to just be here, to be

1814
04:22:17.520 --> 04:22:30.920
in tune with how you feel, yet with the intention

1815
04:22:33.159 --> 04:22:44.639
of wanting to relax deeply and maybe even to fall asleep,

1816
04:22:45.799 --> 04:22:50.959
depending on what it is that you wish for yourself

1817
04:22:52.719 --> 04:23:07.799
in this moment. As we know, relaxing is the majority

1818
04:23:09.000 --> 04:23:13.479
of the process of falling asleep. The actual falling asleep

1819
04:23:13.559 --> 04:23:20.319
part is the tiny bit at the end. The deeper

1820
04:23:21.680 --> 04:23:43.920
relaxed you become, the easier you find yourself drifting. But

1821
04:23:44.079 --> 04:23:50.639
you can also if you choose stay focused on my

1822
04:23:50.840 --> 04:24:18.840
voice and really enjoy the process of gradually relaxing each

1823
04:24:19.360 --> 04:24:45.920
muscle in your body effortlessly and just observing the sensation

1824
04:24:51.239 --> 04:25:06.879
of letting go completely. This time, I'm going to count

1825
04:25:06.959 --> 04:25:17.559
from six down to one. You can notice your mind

1826
04:25:20.159 --> 04:25:33.559
calming down more with each number that you hear me say, naturally,

1827
04:25:34.639 --> 04:25:50.479
feeling calm and slow, peaceful, sex.

1828
04:26:16.159 --> 04:28:38.920
Fivehhhhhhhh, four, three, one, being aware of.

1829
04:28:41.760 --> 04:28:57.799
How your mind to slow write down, sinking deeply into relaxation.

1830
04:29:11.520 --> 04:29:18.280
And as you focus on your mind, you may notice

1831
04:29:18.559 --> 04:29:27.680
that there are some thoughts still there, maybe some stubborn

1832
04:29:27.879 --> 04:29:43.680
thoughts that for some reason perhaps need your attention. That's

1833
04:29:43.760 --> 04:29:52.399
what you can do is send love to those thoughts.

1834
04:29:55.680 --> 04:30:06.559
Sprinkle those thoughts with love, my little petals from a flower.

1835
04:30:07.600 --> 04:30:14.479
Just sprinkle it over them, petals feel good love towards

1836
04:30:14.600 --> 04:30:21.200
those thoughts, to let those thoughts know that you're not

1837
04:30:21.280 --> 04:30:27.440
abandoned the number. You just need them. You require them

1838
04:30:30.239 --> 04:30:42.399
to just calm down, slow down, quiet down for now,

1839
04:30:50.280 --> 04:30:55.280
so as you focus on those remaining thoughts. As we

1840
04:30:55.479 --> 04:31:00.719
count down this time from seven down to one. With

1841
04:31:00.840 --> 04:31:14.719
each number, just imagine sprinkling those flower petals of love, kindness,

1842
04:31:16.360 --> 04:31:28.159
gratitude over those thoughts, which will allow them to just

1843
04:31:29.639 --> 04:31:44.639
melt away and relax deeply. With every number, those thoughts

1844
04:31:44.760 --> 04:32:53.399
will become more and more relaxed. Starting with number seven, six, five, four,

1845
04:33:19.360 --> 04:34:41.279
three one. Let you now notice how relaxed you're feeling

1846
04:34:45.000 --> 04:34:56.080
in your body. We're going to focus.

1847
04:34:59.520 --> 04:35:00.599
On your hands.

1848
04:35:06.439 --> 04:35:11.959
You guess, the more relaxed your hands are, the more

1849
04:35:12.080 --> 04:35:33.599
relaxed your body and mind are. There you focus on

1850
04:35:33.799 --> 04:35:44.360
your hands and your fingers. There's nothing needed to be done.

1851
04:35:45.319 --> 04:35:50.400
There's no clenching of fists or tents in the fingers

1852
04:35:50.520 --> 04:36:01.279
or anything like that. It's just no to sin and

1853
04:36:01.639 --> 04:36:29.000
focusing on your hands, noticing how they feel. Because the

1854
04:36:29.319 --> 04:36:40.240
more relaxed your hands feel, the calmer your mind feels,

1855
04:36:42.159 --> 04:36:51.000
and the more the comforts you feel throughout your body.

1856
04:36:56.959 --> 04:37:31.080
Jee may have already noticed you mind is starting to drift.

1857
04:37:44.720 --> 04:38:00.240
Fixaim just on your hands and fingers, allowing them to

1858
04:38:02.759 --> 04:38:14.159
experience are real deepening of that relaxation in your hands

1859
04:38:14.279 --> 04:38:32.560
and fingers, more and more relaxed. With each number.

1860
04:38:40.119 --> 04:38:41.080
From eight.

1861
04:38:43.240 --> 04:38:56.400
Down to one. You can almost feel that healing, relaxing

1862
04:38:56.919 --> 04:39:13.000
energy spreading into your hands and fingers, becoming e more

1863
04:39:15.240 --> 04:39:32.040
relaxing with each number you hear, going down eight down

1864
04:39:32.799 --> 04:42:28.720
to one, drifting drifting again starting with number eighth, seven, four, three,

1865
04:43:48.520 --> 04:43:57.799
just being here now, nothing to think about, nothing to do,

1866
04:43:59.439 --> 04:44:13.360
nothing to say, and everything just feels calmer. And this

1867
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is your natural state of being. This is how you

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just normally feel. When you take away all of that

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other stuff.

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That we add.

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You know, thinks like stress and worry.

1872
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In and.

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Overthinking, anxiety, tension, just generally thinking about stuff. You take

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04:44:55.040 --> 04:44:58.680
that away, which is what we do. What we do

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04:44:58.959 --> 04:45:16.279
now you're left with a real sense of peacefulness which

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04:45:16.479 --> 04:45:26.319
comes to you very quickly because ultimately it's just a feeling,

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04:45:30.720 --> 04:45:38.520
a feeling of comfort. It's almost as if you've gone

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04:45:38.560 --> 04:45:47.040
inside yourself and you've found a special place where everything

1879
04:45:50.400 --> 04:45:58.680
is peaceful, a place where you can film relaxed and

1880
04:45:58.840 --> 04:46:07.639
you're natural sense of comfort, a place where you can

1881
04:46:07.759 --> 04:46:17.240
be here, where you can accept yourself and who you are,

1882
04:46:19.799 --> 04:46:25.759
the place where you're not trying to please anybody else,

1883
04:46:26.279 --> 04:46:39.040
in a place where you can actually not just love yourself,

1884
04:46:39.159 --> 04:46:44.599
but in some ways more importantly, you can like yourself

1885
04:46:47.119 --> 04:47:05.000
appreciate who you are. That gratitude it's in the air

1886
04:47:05.240 --> 04:47:18.919
around you. That's also a place where you can actually

1887
04:47:19.439 --> 04:47:34.040
feel the healing energy soaking into your body. Healing energy

1888
04:47:35.000 --> 04:47:47.119
soaking into your body. The healing energy spreads through your veins,

1889
04:47:50.959 --> 04:48:03.759
traveling to each every single part of your body, and

1890
04:48:03.959 --> 04:48:11.000
you start to realize that actually that healing energy, it's

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04:48:11.040 --> 04:48:17.799
not just entered into your brain, it's become part of

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04:48:18.279 --> 04:48:29.159
your brain, and the spinal fluid is now mixed with

1893
04:48:29.479 --> 04:48:40.720
healing energy, not just allowing you to feel so much

1894
04:48:41.000 --> 04:48:55.360
more relaxed and healthy in this moment, but also you

1895
04:48:55.560 --> 04:49:03.880
start to realize that actually what's happening now without healing,

1896
04:49:04.919 --> 04:49:14.560
relaxing energy spreading through your body is actually changing your life.

1897
04:49:19.720 --> 04:49:24.840
It's actually changing the way you're going to feel not

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04:49:25.119 --> 04:49:32.479
just now, but tomorrow and the next day. As your

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04:49:32.639 --> 04:49:40.680
health improves, not just your physical health but your mental health.

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04:49:44.639 --> 04:49:49.799
Things that used to bother you in the past, for

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04:49:50.000 --> 04:49:56.000
some reason, no longer have the effect that they used

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04:49:56.040 --> 04:50:10.319
to because something things changed deep within you. Maybe things

1903
04:50:10.639 --> 04:50:20.279
that used to cause you to feel anger no longer

1904
04:50:20.680 --> 04:50:30.319
have that power to control you the way they seem

1905
04:50:30.439 --> 04:50:38.799
to be able to do before. As you realize that

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04:50:39.040 --> 04:50:51.759
you're the one who decides what affects you, You're the

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04:50:51.880 --> 04:51:02.520
one who decides to feel relaxed and calm when you

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04:51:02.840 --> 04:51:20.840
choose to enjoy noticing these natural developments of healing continuing

1909
04:51:21.200 --> 04:51:35.159
to grow and improve your life day by day, including

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04:51:35.279 --> 04:51:48.680
of course, your ability to relax so much easier than sleeping.

1911
04:51:53.279 --> 04:51:58.959
It's the most natural thing in the world to you,

1912
04:52:03.479 --> 04:52:10.639
because falling asleep is something that you've done so many

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04:52:10.840 --> 04:52:18.639
times in your life, and you know that you were born,

1914
04:52:20.119 --> 04:52:26.759
as we all were, with the ability to fall asleep naturally.

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04:52:31.000 --> 04:52:41.680
We were born with that ability to just drift off

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04:52:42.400 --> 04:52:55.520
into a deep, healing sleep. Even when we're kids, sometimes

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04:52:55.639 --> 04:52:59.959
will fall asleep and we don't even want to try.

1918
04:53:00.080 --> 04:53:04.959
I do stay awake. Maybe it's a birthday in the morning,

1919
04:53:05.119 --> 04:53:09.400
or it's Christmas or holiday or something we look forward to.

1920
04:53:10.000 --> 04:53:14.040
We don't want to go to sleep, but the more

1921
04:53:14.639 --> 04:53:19.520
we want to stay awake, the more we just start

1922
04:53:19.639 --> 04:53:28.319
to drift. And the more you fight drifting, we'll try

1923
04:53:28.400 --> 04:53:34.279
to stop yourself and drifting asleep, the deeper and stronger

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04:53:34.400 --> 04:53:45.599
that drifting becomes. Because we're born not just with the

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04:53:45.880 --> 04:53:55.240
need to relax deeply and to naturally fall asleep, but

1926
04:53:55.360 --> 04:54:09.639
it's our birthright, it's part of our DNA, and sometimes

1927
04:54:09.799 --> 04:54:15.200
as we get older in life, perhaps at times we

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04:54:15.560 --> 04:54:31.680
have forgotten relaxing completely. It's not only a wonderfully pleasant experience,

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it's also really easy. It's very, very easy to let go,

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because that's all it is, is just deciding to let go.

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And when you press the play button on my recordings,

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you have given permission for my voice to relax. When

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04:55:31.400 --> 04:55:35.520
you press that play button, you have given me permission

1934
04:55:36.720 --> 04:55:50.439
for my words to effect. You're in a positive, only

1935
04:55:50.959 --> 04:56:10.439
a positive way, opening up your mind to useful and

1936
04:56:12.080 --> 04:56:29.720
healing suggestions that can have such an amazing effect on

1937
04:56:29.959 --> 04:56:42.000
how you feel right now, as well as those changes

1938
04:56:42.319 --> 04:56:52.439
that continue long after the recording ends, those changes within

1939
04:56:52.639 --> 04:57:05.959
you that continue to flourish and grow, transforming your life

1940
04:57:08.200 --> 04:57:20.240
in a positive, beautiful way, allowing you to move forward

1941
04:57:20.720 --> 04:57:24.080
in your life in the direction that.

1942
04:57:24.400 --> 04:57:25.400
You choose.

1943
04:57:26.639 --> 04:57:42.799
For yourself. And this feeling, this feeling that you can

1944
04:57:43.000 --> 04:58:07.400
experience a safety, comfort, calmness, This feels so nice. It's

1945
04:58:07.520 --> 04:58:21.720
such a healthy place to be, and that positivity pros

1946
04:58:23.000 --> 04:58:23.560
within you.

1947
04:58:29.360 --> 04:58:31.959
Each and every day.

1948
04:58:35.040 --> 04:58:44.799
Moving forward, you're going to find that you're more relaxed

1949
04:58:47.159 --> 04:58:59.479
physically and in your mind is more relaxed. And it's

1950
04:58:59.560 --> 04:59:05.119
not that you're thinking slower. It's just that your mind

1951
04:59:05.200 --> 04:59:17.080
will be less clogged up with unnecessary negativity because from

1952
04:59:17.200 --> 04:59:27.479
now on, your mind rejects negativity. From now on, you're

1953
04:59:27.520 --> 04:59:38.360
going to start noticing when negativity arises and you can

1954
04:59:38.520 --> 04:59:52.479
just say stop, stop and that negativity will turn around

1955
04:59:53.080 --> 05:00:12.439
and leave you alone. Stop and the negativity would disappear.

1956
05:00:20.599 --> 05:00:27.080
And as you notice that you feel way more relaxed

1957
05:00:28.520 --> 05:00:43.880
than you probably expected, you can now congratulate yourself because

1958
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you're the person that has done this. You are the

1959
05:00:50.599 --> 05:00:55.680
one that has opened your mind up to the simple

1960
05:00:55.880 --> 05:01:03.759
facts that you can feel more relaxed than your body

1961
05:01:04.479 --> 05:01:13.759
and in your mind, you've opened your mind up to

1962
05:01:16.119 --> 05:01:22.680
the birthright of being able to just fall asleep easily

1963
05:01:23.720 --> 05:01:37.720
when you choose. And that's a nice feeling. Don't you

1964
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think it feels nice? Doesn't it? To feel calm.

1965
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Full?

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The healing energy is spreading through your body in your mind.

1967
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Spend time a special place where negativity can no longer enter.

1968
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Negativity is banned, it's barred, it's not allowed entry. Doesn't

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05:02:28.959 --> 05:02:32.400
it doesn't. This doesn't deserve to be here. It doesn't

1970
05:02:32.560 --> 05:02:51.279
belong here. Negativity has no place in your life, which

1971
05:02:51.439 --> 05:03:00.560
makes room for more comfort, more healing, more really vexation,

1972
05:03:05.400 --> 05:03:34.919
more peace. It feels nice, doesn't it? Just lecho with everything.

1973
05:03:48.599 --> 05:03:52.919
I'm gonna count down now from twenty down to one.

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You can continue to relax.

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05:04:00.919 --> 05:04:03.080
If you cheers, you can.

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05:04:06.040 --> 05:04:16.520
Drift to sleep. With every number you hear me say,

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you can fill twice as relaxed, or if you choose,

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05:04:28.360 --> 05:04:32.080
you can fill twice sleeping.

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Now.

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Twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twoeve eleven ten, nine, eight, seven,

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six five.

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Foh h.

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This is your time to just take a break, your

1984
05:07:43.080 --> 05:07:53.759
time to relax, to allow your mind to slow down,

1985
05:08:02.439 --> 05:08:16.520
to give yourself permission to take a break from everything.

1986
05:08:21.360 --> 05:08:28.759
Ensure the only person that can make that decision. You're

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05:08:28.799 --> 05:08:37.360
the only person that can actually tell your mind just relax,

1988
05:08:45.479 --> 05:09:01.080
to just take some time off so that you can

1989
05:09:01.880 --> 05:09:07.319
focus on your body, getting in touch with how you

1990
05:09:07.479 --> 05:09:24.479
feel physically. And in the process of this body scanned,

1991
05:09:24.759 --> 05:09:35.200
where you focus on different parts of your body, those

1992
05:09:35.520 --> 05:09:42.680
parts that you focus on and observe. Even though you're

1993
05:09:42.759 --> 05:09:51.599
not purposely requesting for those parts of your body to relax,

1994
05:09:53.840 --> 05:10:00.240
it's kind of expected. You expect when you listen to

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05:10:00.360 --> 05:10:13.000
my voice to feel more relaxed naturally, because when you're

1996
05:10:13.080 --> 05:10:23.279
listening to me, your attention is focused on my words,

1997
05:10:28.279 --> 05:10:39.159
and as my words guide you to focus on those

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05:10:39.360 --> 05:10:57.479
parts of your body, your focus increases, which actually calms

1999
05:10:57.680 --> 05:11:17.799
your mind. And when you're wind calms down, your body relaxes.

2000
05:11:25.279 --> 05:11:47.200
And when your body calms down, your mind relaxes. And

2001
05:11:47.959 --> 05:11:55.400
even though I've not really started to focus on your body,

2002
05:11:58.360 --> 05:12:09.439
you can all feel that healing energy spreading through your body,

2003
05:12:14.319 --> 05:12:28.639
pushing out stress and tension, healing all the parts of

2004
05:12:28.720 --> 05:12:38.479
your body, including your skin, your bones, your blood, all

2005
05:12:38.560 --> 05:12:43.119
of your workings inside your body, all of the muscles,

2006
05:12:44.479 --> 05:12:51.599
all of the fat, all of everything. Every hair on

2007
05:12:51.759 --> 05:13:05.159
your body is filled with that healing energy. And when

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05:13:05.240 --> 05:13:21.319
your brain fills with that he the energy, the feeding

2009
05:13:21.479 --> 05:13:45.880
of comfort relaxation increases deeply, increases in a way that

2010
05:13:49.360 --> 05:14:06.040
your mind starts to fill, perhaps spit drown because it's

2011
05:14:06.200 --> 05:14:25.400
not needed, and it may start to drift if that's

2012
05:14:25.599 --> 05:14:33.799
what's needed. So if you're listening to this and what

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05:14:34.000 --> 05:14:37.799
you need is deep relaxation, that's where you get.

2014
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If what you need is.

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05:14:43.159 --> 05:14:50.159
To fall asleep naturally and easily, that's your mind drifts.

2016
05:14:52.680 --> 05:15:06.919
That's also what happened because by pressing a play button

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05:15:07.880 --> 05:15:14.680
on the podcast and listening to me, give permission of

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05:15:14.880 --> 05:15:25.439
your body and your wind. In fact, you give the

2019
05:15:25.599 --> 05:15:34.479
command to your body and your mind to relax deeply

2020
05:15:38.439 --> 05:15:43.240
and to drift off to sleep, if that's what you

2021
05:15:44.119 --> 05:15:48.439
want or need.

2022
05:15:56.000 --> 05:15:56.159
Them.

2023
05:15:56.240 --> 05:16:01.599
As I focus on the different parts outs of your body,

2024
05:16:06.599 --> 05:16:10.599
you may start to just drift.

2025
05:16:14.720 --> 05:16:15.919
And then you come back.

2026
05:16:15.799 --> 05:16:20.959
Again and you hear me talking and I'm focusing on

2027
05:16:21.119 --> 05:16:33.520
a different part of your body, you may find yourself drifting.

2028
05:16:36.279 --> 05:16:41.599
Be the to realize you're drifting. Until you stop drifting,

2029
05:16:43.880 --> 05:16:50.439
you're a laugh again to my voice. Focusing on a

2030
05:16:50.599 --> 05:16:55.959
different part of your body starts to relaxing a deeper

2031
05:17:00.400 --> 05:17:08.840
because that drifting, it's basically here already in the sleep zone.

2032
05:17:15.400 --> 05:17:20.520
And the more you drift, the longer you drift, the

2033
05:17:20.680 --> 05:17:36.000
longer you drift. Eventually, that drifting continues into sleep, and

2034
05:17:36.159 --> 05:17:45.319
that's the last you remember until you wake up in

2035
05:17:45.479 --> 05:17:51.080
your own time. When you experience the right amount of sleep.

2036
05:17:51.959 --> 05:18:01.040
Fear because when you do and if you do sleep,

2037
05:18:01.240 --> 05:18:28.680
it's extremely pleasant. So relaxing, so deep he sleep, I

2038
05:18:28.959 --> 05:18:37.240
feel so nice to relax into your own body and mind.

2039
05:18:42.279 --> 05:18:49.919
You feel that heating energy is spreading through it, relaxing,

2040
05:18:50.159 --> 05:19:14.919
use so deeply, relax so st start to focus on

2041
05:19:15.119 --> 05:19:24.880
your eyes, move down.

2042
05:19:27.520 --> 05:19:52.759
To Joe, down till make your.

2043
05:19:45.639 --> 05:20:42.200
Shoulders, ou your chest, stuff you spind.

2044
05:20:48.680 --> 05:21:07.799
Your thames, your X, your face.

2045
05:21:16.279 --> 05:21:55.400
Yours spreading grimeside your body. Feeling you up. Now let's

2046
05:21:55.479 --> 05:22:05.759
focus again parts of your body. Focus in this time

2047
05:22:05.880 --> 05:22:18.840
on your forehead. Now on your mouth, your lips, your tongue,

2048
05:22:22.119 --> 05:22:43.880
a whole of your mouth. Focus on your fingers. Maybe

2049
05:22:44.200 --> 05:22:48.479
you could move your fingers a little bits. You can

2050
05:22:49.560 --> 05:23:04.200
focus on each one individually, both hands and even though

2051
05:23:04.439 --> 05:23:09.439
if you focus on both of your hands now they

2052
05:23:09.520 --> 05:23:17.880
almost seemed to just melt into one. Where is your

2053
05:23:18.000 --> 05:23:28.680
right hand starting left hand and almasked as if just

2054
05:23:28.919 --> 05:23:45.520
mixed together. Now focusing on your knees, just noticing how

2055
05:23:45.599 --> 05:24:09.439
your knees hell. Now focusing your helpers, like I said

2056
05:24:09.840 --> 05:24:49.200
by Fowers, just absurd, the feeling of your alms now

2057
05:24:49.680 --> 05:24:55.919
focusing I'm sorry to back of your neck.

2058
05:25:42.400 --> 05:26:02.680
Oopsis. It's a couple of sensations.

2059
05:27:04.799 --> 05:27:16.759
Can I just say now your ties of your faint

2060
05:27:23.680 --> 05:28:20.880
be your toes feel now ninety sent how you exire

2061
05:28:22.240 --> 05:29:09.240
body fails, noticing how you'll mind feels now, lett him go,

2062
05:29:18.040 --> 05:29:50.919
letting go, Let's say go everything, letting go, let him go,

2063
05:29:58.840 --> 05:30:24.119
Let's see go ah everything eh sing. I'm going to

2064
05:30:24.200 --> 05:30:28.000
start now, and I'd like you just, first of all,

2065
05:30:28.159 --> 05:30:34.400
just to see yourself lying down on the message table,

2066
05:30:36.200 --> 05:30:40.560
lying on your front. Your head is supported, your arms

2067
05:30:40.880 --> 05:30:50.040
are supported, and you feel comfortable and breathing is really easy,

2068
05:30:52.279 --> 05:30:58.880
and you feel you feel confident in how you look

2069
05:30:58.919 --> 05:31:02.520
as well. So there's none of that issue of body

2070
05:31:02.639 --> 05:31:11.400
problems or shyness, because I'm a professional and this is

2071
05:31:12.040 --> 05:31:17.200
a therapy session, so none of that stuff matters on whatsoever.

2072
05:31:21.080 --> 05:31:27.560
This is about you. This is about how you feel

2073
05:31:28.200 --> 05:31:35.000
and how you can enjoy that sense of comfort and

2074
05:31:35.119 --> 05:31:42.400
relaxation that comes from letting go and allowing my hands

2075
05:31:43.240 --> 05:31:50.759
and my fingers to relax you by a messaging your body.

2076
05:31:55.840 --> 05:31:58.040
So I want to start off just by placing my

2077
05:31:58.279 --> 05:32:05.119
hands on the back of your head, just gently, just

2078
05:32:05.240 --> 05:32:10.040
so you can feel my hands feel like really on you.

2079
05:32:14.520 --> 05:32:16.840
So you can maybe feel the warmth of my hands

2080
05:32:16.919 --> 05:32:22.400
on the back of your head. With my hands to

2081
05:32:22.439 --> 05:32:26.439
the side of your head, not pressing, but just holding

2082
05:32:26.639 --> 05:32:32.639
there very gently, maybe over your ears, and a little

2083
05:32:32.680 --> 05:32:37.439
bit on your face, so you can feel my hands

2084
05:32:39.520 --> 05:32:52.560
so you can become accustomed to them. And now put

2085
05:32:52.639 --> 05:32:55.040
my hands on the back of your head again and

2086
05:32:55.240 --> 05:33:01.759
gently let them slide down on to the back of

2087
05:33:01.840 --> 05:33:19.360
your neck. You can feel my hands gently stroking the

2088
05:33:19.439 --> 05:33:25.959
back of your neck to start with, just so you

2089
05:33:26.040 --> 05:33:30.400
can get used to the feeling of my hands on

2090
05:33:30.560 --> 05:33:39.479
your skin, get accustomed to realize that you're safe and

2091
05:33:39.520 --> 05:33:48.279
it's all good, it's all fine. And I'm going to

2092
05:33:48.319 --> 05:33:52.599
start gently messaging the muscles in the back of your

2093
05:33:52.680 --> 05:34:12.279
neck with both hands. And this is a very trusting situation, really,

2094
05:34:12.880 --> 05:34:17.360
because our necks is so fragile and to have someone

2095
05:34:17.560 --> 05:34:22.279
have their hands around your neck in that way can

2096
05:34:22.400 --> 05:34:27.479
sometimes be problematic for people, which is why massages are

2097
05:34:27.720 --> 05:34:32.880
quite good because it allows you to relax and to

2098
05:34:37.599 --> 05:34:46.919
get in touch with trust, to feel peaceful and calm.

2099
05:34:55.200 --> 05:35:02.599
There's a massage the sides of your neck, gently moving

2100
05:35:02.840 --> 05:35:07.959
from the bottom of your neck. It would be sort

2101
05:35:07.959 --> 05:35:11.119
of near where your shoulders start, I guess, all the

2102
05:35:11.159 --> 05:35:17.799
way up to your jaw, your ears, kind of area

2103
05:35:18.479 --> 05:35:23.159
on the side of your neck. Of course, it's a

2104
05:35:23.240 --> 05:35:39.240
lot longer than the front of your neck and message

2105
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in the back of your neck, especially that area where

2106
05:35:47.479 --> 05:35:55.599
perhaps we hold tension, and as that area's message, you

2107
05:35:55.720 --> 05:35:59.840
can actually feel a sense of release in the back

2108
05:35:59.840 --> 05:36:07.880
of your neck, and maybe you can breathe it out

2109
05:36:07.959 --> 05:36:13.639
as well. Notice how it feels. Notice how you feel.

2110
05:36:23.520 --> 05:36:27.119
They're moving down to that area between your neck and

2111
05:36:27.200 --> 05:36:37.360
your shoulders, that muscle area, starting to message that area

2112
05:36:37.439 --> 05:36:41.759
on both sides. I mean, this would be the area

2113
05:36:41.880 --> 05:36:44.439
that a lot of people would message if they were

2114
05:36:44.479 --> 05:36:49.439
going to give you like a shoulder message. Even that's

2115
05:36:49.840 --> 05:36:53.240
not technically the shoulders, but it's all the muscles that

2116
05:36:53.400 --> 05:36:59.759
lead to the shoulders from the neck. And again that

2117
05:37:00.159 --> 05:37:07.240
whole tension and stress, and when massaged sometimes a nice

2118
05:37:07.400 --> 05:37:15.000
deep message is useful, and you decide how deep that

2119
05:37:15.240 --> 05:37:32.520
message is, and just allow my knuckles just to dig

2120
05:37:32.599 --> 05:37:40.919
in to get to those muscles and to ready relaxed

2121
05:37:40.959 --> 05:37:48.639
and all the time and being firm yet gentle with

2122
05:37:48.840 --> 05:38:07.439
you and just stroking down the area to your actual shoulders,

2123
05:38:09.720 --> 05:38:19.319
moving to the muscles of your shoulders, and maybe initially

2124
05:38:19.560 --> 05:38:23.560
just pulling up the shoulders a little bit off the

2125
05:38:23.680 --> 05:38:27.319
table just to give you a little bit of a stretch,

2126
05:38:29.319 --> 05:38:38.159
very gently, and you've got the muscles at the front

2127
05:38:38.240 --> 05:38:50.119
of your shoulders, the sides and the back. Again, this

2128
05:38:50.319 --> 05:38:54.119
is a part that can really take quite a bit

2129
05:38:54.159 --> 05:39:02.319
of pressure, quite a bit of needing if if you

2130
05:39:02.439 --> 05:39:10.599
wish to really release the tension to really get into

2131
05:39:10.720 --> 05:39:16.919
those muscles, and you can let your fingers in there

2132
05:39:18.000 --> 05:39:23.560
make you feel really nice. Sometimes it's just being stroked

2133
05:39:23.680 --> 05:39:34.200
gently or being massaged quite strongly, can all be beneficial

2134
05:39:35.799 --> 05:39:43.840
to the real conversation with the muscles in your shoulders.

2135
05:39:53.759 --> 05:40:03.560
Now to move down your arms, we do one arm

2136
05:40:03.639 --> 05:40:13.599
at a time, starting with your right arm. What I'll

2137
05:40:13.680 --> 05:40:18.240
do is I just lift your arm up, just hold

2138
05:40:18.319 --> 05:40:23.279
it to the side of you not where it still

2139
05:40:23.319 --> 05:40:29.720
be attached, and I just message the tops of your

2140
05:40:29.880 --> 05:40:46.520
arms all the way down to your forearms, into your wrists,

2141
05:40:57.919 --> 05:41:10.119
gently messaging that part, the softer part, which is the

2142
05:41:11.040 --> 05:41:16.880
under part of the arm, which leads to the crease

2143
05:41:17.000 --> 05:41:22.880
in your elbow, the inside. It's much more sensitive skin.

2144
05:41:32.560 --> 05:41:43.759
Sometimes just having that stroked feel really nice, pleasurable and relaxing.

2145
05:41:52.520 --> 05:42:03.119
Now moving down to your right hand, just holding your

2146
05:42:03.279 --> 05:42:16.479
hand in both of my hands, just pressing gently on

2147
05:42:16.560 --> 05:42:24.560
the back of your hand, stretching your fingers ever slightly

2148
05:42:27.840 --> 05:42:34.799
at the same time pressing down and massaging each finger,

2149
05:42:42.799 --> 05:42:46.840
and then starting to massage the palms of their hand.

2150
05:42:53.520 --> 05:43:04.959
Just turning the hand, stretching it gently, and actually having

2151
05:43:05.040 --> 05:43:13.439
your handheld can really be an emotional experience sometimes, even

2152
05:43:13.520 --> 05:43:18.040
if it is a stranger. So when you don't know

2153
05:43:18.279 --> 05:43:23.639
very well, like a massage person or a therapist, maybe

2154
05:43:25.680 --> 05:43:39.279
because it's intimate, you can feel nice, you can feel safe.

2155
05:43:47.080 --> 05:43:50.000
And as I put that right arm back down where

2156
05:43:50.040 --> 05:43:58.279
it was, and I did the same with your left arm,

2157
05:44:01.599 --> 05:44:12.119
exactly the same, massaging the muscles in your arm all

2158
05:44:12.119 --> 05:44:20.119
the way down to your wrist, stroking the inside of

2159
05:44:20.279 --> 05:44:31.040
your arm, just being gentle or as firm as you require,

2160
05:44:39.639 --> 05:44:52.919
and then massaging your left hand, stretching the fingers, gently

2161
05:44:55.479 --> 05:45:12.360
massaging the palm of your left hand. You feel so

2162
05:45:15.240 --> 05:45:40.520
so relaxing, so comforting, and I'll just rest your left

2163
05:45:40.720 --> 05:45:54.759
arm back down the start message your back, the biggest

2164
05:45:54.919 --> 05:45:55.840
part of your body.

2165
05:45:59.759 --> 05:45:59.959
Hmm.

2166
05:46:00.919 --> 05:46:07.840
Starting at the top, starting again where we already have been,

2167
05:46:08.599 --> 05:46:13.279
the area at the top in between your shoulders, near

2168
05:46:13.360 --> 05:46:19.720
your neck. Going back, massage in the area again, but

2169
05:46:19.919 --> 05:46:33.520
this time moving downwards, making it downward. Stroke to the

2170
05:46:33.599 --> 05:46:42.119
middle of your back, working for me outside inwards, massage

2171
05:46:42.200 --> 05:46:49.520
in that your back, but the outsides of your back

2172
05:46:53.840 --> 05:47:09.439
parts where your arms would maybe rest against, almost the

2173
05:47:09.599 --> 05:47:21.919
part that connects your front to your back, and just

2174
05:47:22.159 --> 05:47:30.599
messaging down firmly but gently, as firm as you want,

2175
05:47:34.040 --> 05:47:38.639
moving down and moving across a little bed, moving all

2176
05:47:38.680 --> 05:47:44.520
the way down again, be very gentle, you have firm

2177
05:47:44.759 --> 05:47:56.400
as you choose. Eventually we get to the spine. We

2178
05:47:56.520 --> 05:48:00.560
can message the muscles on either side of your spine,

2179
05:48:01.439 --> 05:48:04.439
from the top of your neck all the way down

2180
05:48:07.240 --> 05:48:16.200
to your lower back. We can do that a few times.

2181
05:48:19.240 --> 05:48:26.000
Sometimes people would use the knuckle or the you know,

2182
05:48:26.159 --> 05:48:30.360
the two fingers and just go your side of the

2183
05:48:30.479 --> 05:48:35.799
spine almost just push down, go all the way down

2184
05:48:35.880 --> 05:48:43.240
to the bottom of the spine, each time releasing tension

2185
05:48:43.959 --> 05:48:53.119
and opening up the body, stretching your body so that

2186
05:48:53.240 --> 05:48:59.400
you feel more relaxed. But at the same time we

2187
05:48:59.599 --> 05:49:13.919
duve needed And now I'm going to move to one side,

2188
05:49:15.000 --> 05:49:22.040
to your right side, and from the bottom of your

2189
05:49:22.119 --> 05:49:29.159
ribs to your pelvis, I'm going to massage that area

2190
05:49:29.919 --> 05:49:34.919
of your back. I'll stretch over the other side and

2191
05:49:35.040 --> 05:49:40.000
i will pull the muscles gently and massage and push

2192
05:49:41.520 --> 05:49:44.599
from one end that side or way to my side

2193
05:49:46.639 --> 05:49:49.520
to the middle of fact to where your spine is

2194
05:49:50.919 --> 05:49:56.560
massaging that side of your spine the opposite side to

2195
05:49:56.639 --> 05:50:04.880
where I'm standing, almost likely kneading bread. There's that big

2196
05:50:05.080 --> 05:50:17.360
area which is firm yet lots there to message. Potentially

2197
05:50:17.520 --> 05:50:22.360
one of the most important places to actually have a message,

2198
05:50:24.040 --> 05:50:29.880
because you really feel it. You really feel the release

2199
05:50:30.279 --> 05:50:37.840
and the pleasure of having your lower back massaged. It

2200
05:50:38.040 --> 05:50:47.159
releases so much from your body that's not useful, starting

2201
05:50:47.240 --> 05:50:53.000
a healing process which will continue long after this recording

2202
05:50:53.159 --> 05:51:04.840
is over. The message in this part of your body

2203
05:51:05.400 --> 05:51:10.279
not only feels really good for you, it's actually fun

2204
05:51:10.400 --> 05:51:15.159
to do because it is, as I said, like kneading bread,

2205
05:51:17.560 --> 05:51:20.040
it's a part that you can really get hold of

2206
05:51:21.599 --> 05:51:35.240
and really massage deeply. If that's your choice. They're not

2207
05:51:35.360 --> 05:51:37.159
going to move over to the other side of your

2208
05:51:37.240 --> 05:51:46.479
body and do the same with the opposite part of

2209
05:51:46.599 --> 05:51:53.759
your lawer back. Kneading and messaging from your sides or

2210
05:51:53.919 --> 05:52:01.080
way in the middle of your back were your spine

2211
05:52:01.240 --> 05:52:14.959
is pressing and kneading firm and gentle at the same time.

2212
05:52:16.919 --> 05:52:29.400
It feels so releasing this mixture of pleasure, comfort, release, calmness,

2213
05:52:29.799 --> 05:52:41.439
relaxation or mixed together. Plus there's that feeling from your

2214
05:52:41.520 --> 05:52:46.639
stomach as it's been stretched. Even though you're in your

2215
05:52:46.759 --> 05:52:51.040
stomach now, you can feel it being stretched because that

2216
05:52:51.200 --> 05:53:02.560
whole area is connected to your stomach. Now we're going

2217
05:53:02.639 --> 05:53:07.560
to move or move further up to your top of

2218
05:53:07.639 --> 05:53:12.080
your body, and I'm gonna do the same this time,

2219
05:53:13.400 --> 05:53:20.200
starting with your upper back. Put my hands forward over

2220
05:53:21.520 --> 05:53:27.680
and massive massage in that area up to your spine,

2221
05:53:28.880 --> 05:53:31.479
from the side of your body up to your spine.

2222
05:53:33.279 --> 05:53:39.439
So some of that message area, that muscle tissue or

2223
05:53:39.439 --> 05:53:43.479
whatever fatty tissue even will be possibly from your chest

2224
05:53:45.319 --> 05:53:49.400
because it's all connected. The chest and the back connect together.

2225
05:53:52.599 --> 05:53:55.840
I'm going to be massaging and just pulling some of

2226
05:53:55.959 --> 05:54:03.919
that skin from your side up and messaging the area

2227
05:54:06.880 --> 05:54:11.040
of your upper back all the way to your spine.

2228
05:54:15.439 --> 05:54:17.680
And then I'll move down a bit and I continue

2229
05:54:18.279 --> 05:54:21.319
with the middle of your back, doing exactly the same thing.

2230
05:54:25.200 --> 05:54:39.000
There's gentle as deep as you choose. Now, I'll move

2231
05:54:39.200 --> 05:54:43.360
or the other side again and do the exact same

2232
05:54:43.560 --> 05:54:47.520
thing with the top of your back on the other side,

2233
05:54:48.599 --> 05:55:02.680
from pretty much underneath your arm area really to your spine,

2234
05:55:07.720 --> 05:55:14.639
and then continuing that all the way down, including your

2235
05:55:14.680 --> 05:55:32.000
lower your middle of your back. I'm gonna go to

2236
05:55:32.159 --> 05:55:38.759
your thighs, the backs of your thighs and the sides

2237
05:55:38.840 --> 05:55:49.880
of your thighs, starting with your right leg. Massage the

2238
05:55:50.040 --> 05:55:59.000
back and the sides of your thighs gently and firmly.

2239
05:56:01.119 --> 05:56:04.599
There's a lot of muscles there. It's an area that

2240
05:56:04.680 --> 05:56:08.880
can be very tense at times and maybe needs a

2241
05:56:08.919 --> 05:56:11.400
little bit more pressure than the rest of the body

2242
05:56:12.439 --> 05:56:20.159
that's up to you. You can gently stroke the back

2243
05:56:22.959 --> 05:56:27.319
of your legs where you know, opposite your knee joint

2244
05:56:28.599 --> 05:56:41.560
or underneath your knee joint, very sensitive, gentle area and

2245
05:56:41.919 --> 05:56:49.279
working down to your calf muscles. Massage in your half

2246
05:56:49.400 --> 05:56:58.959
muscles thoroughly and deeply, if you choose, using both hands

2247
05:57:03.479 --> 05:57:17.599
fingers digging deep to your ankles, on the back of

2248
05:57:17.720 --> 05:57:24.880
your back of your ankles, just gently massage in that area,

2249
05:57:30.319 --> 05:57:47.000
maybe lifting the leg and stretching a little bit. Moving

2250
05:57:47.759 --> 05:58:02.000
to the right foot, massage in the bottom of your

2251
05:58:02.040 --> 05:58:17.520
feet and the sides of your feet gently but firm

2252
05:58:17.639 --> 05:58:28.720
enough so they don't tickle, and just allow the pleasure

2253
05:58:28.799 --> 05:58:34.319
that you get from having your feet massaged to just

2254
05:58:34.520 --> 05:58:43.400
overtake you as I continue to message your feet, the

2255
05:58:43.520 --> 05:58:51.319
bottoms of your feet, the sides, your arches, your heel.

2256
05:58:53.759 --> 05:58:56.000
You can put a lot of pressure into your heel

2257
05:58:56.799 --> 05:59:01.799
and it feels amazing, yet the arches need to be

2258
05:59:01.880 --> 05:59:13.599
a bit more gentle. Stretching your toes gently and massage

2259
05:59:13.680 --> 05:59:19.720
in the bottoms of your toes with my fingers, each

2260
05:59:19.840 --> 05:59:33.479
one individually. Moving over to the left leg to do

2261
05:59:33.639 --> 05:59:42.360
exactly the same thing. Starting at the top of the thighs,

2262
05:59:44.599 --> 05:59:47.119
work in the back of the thighs and the sides,

2263
05:59:48.799 --> 05:59:59.200
massaging deeply and gently the whole area, working all the

2264
05:59:59.240 --> 06:00:12.360
way down. This is an area that maybe you could

2265
06:00:12.560 --> 06:00:21.560
like to spend more time relaxing and massaging. Perhaps if

2266
06:00:21.599 --> 06:00:26.119
you wanted, I could make a future recording. I want

2267
06:00:26.159 --> 06:00:34.799
to spend more time on one particular area. As you

2268
06:00:34.919 --> 06:00:47.319
moved down to your calf muscles, massagy and your calf

2269
06:00:47.479 --> 06:01:02.439
muscles firmly and gently moving down your ain, cool at

2270
06:01:02.639 --> 06:01:10.240
your feet, Massage in the backs of your feet, the

2271
06:01:10.400 --> 06:01:19.560
bottoms of your feet, stretching your toes and message in

2272
06:01:19.680 --> 06:01:27.639
each toe individually, and the feeling of pleasure and release.

2273
06:01:27.880 --> 06:01:35.959
The experience when your having your feet massaged feels really good.

2274
06:01:47.759 --> 06:01:55.479
Now she turn over in your mind. Laying on your back,

2275
06:02:02.919 --> 06:02:15.680
I'm just gonna start again with your neck area, in

2276
06:02:15.799 --> 06:02:24.080
your shoulders, just to get back in touch with that area.

2277
06:02:30.959 --> 06:02:41.319
And let's you move up. I can clean my hands,

2278
06:02:42.639 --> 06:02:46.439
make them more fresh, because now I'm gonna message your

2279
06:02:46.520 --> 06:03:02.919
face gently, starting off with your forehead. Your eyes are closed,

2280
06:03:04.279 --> 06:03:10.080
you can just stretch your eyes a little bit, pushing

2281
06:03:10.240 --> 06:03:27.080
up on your eyebrows, just messaging around your scalp, massaging

2282
06:03:27.279 --> 06:03:37.520
down your cheeks, around your ears, into your jaw, shiply

2283
06:03:42.520 --> 06:04:00.959
the side of your neck chin. They just moving down

2284
06:04:05.119 --> 06:04:12.560
from your neck down to your chest, starting by message

2285
06:04:12.680 --> 06:04:19.520
in the very top of your chest where the collar

2286
06:04:19.599 --> 06:04:32.840
bone is. Give a side of the collarbone, and then

2287
06:04:33.040 --> 06:04:45.479
just message in the hole of the chest, moving the

2288
06:04:45.639 --> 06:04:59.240
chest around. Because it's quite a large area, you can

2289
06:04:59.360 --> 06:05:07.439
move from one side to the next, moving my hands

2290
06:05:10.040 --> 06:05:20.639
underneath pretty much your arms are stretching up, stretching some

2291
06:05:20.799 --> 06:05:28.639
of the muscles of your back in the process, moving

2292
06:05:28.759 --> 06:05:49.799
up over your chest, and they're moving down again. Then

2293
06:05:50.000 --> 06:05:55.759
laying my hands They're just massage gently and slide down

2294
06:05:57.119 --> 06:06:02.000
towards your stomach, starting in the middle of your chest,

2295
06:06:05.439 --> 06:06:12.279
and then gradually my head's moving apart and massaging and

2296
06:06:12.560 --> 06:06:22.040
sliding at the same time, moving down to just below

2297
06:06:22.080 --> 06:06:37.240
your red cage, moving down and then messaging up again,

2298
06:06:40.040 --> 06:06:47.919
giving your chest all the attention that it needs to

2299
06:06:48.119 --> 06:07:00.400
feel completely relaxed, remembering them or so. Going to be

2300
06:07:00.479 --> 06:07:06.479
focusing on your sides as well, an area that really

2301
06:07:06.759 --> 06:07:14.319
doesn't get much attention but feels really good when it's massaged.

2302
06:07:19.240 --> 06:07:23.240
Just stroking my hands down the sides of your body,

2303
06:07:27.040 --> 06:07:30.479
just below your arms, all the way down to your hips.

2304
06:07:40.119 --> 06:07:45.959
Now moving to your stomach area. We're going to stand

2305
06:07:46.080 --> 06:07:48.560
on one side of you like I did when I

2306
06:07:48.639 --> 06:07:54.040
dig your lower back. I'm gonna do a similar process

2307
06:07:55.040 --> 06:08:05.720
of just stretching the muscles from your side, gently messaging

2308
06:08:09.919 --> 06:08:17.319
from one side to the next, move in the whole

2309
06:08:17.520 --> 06:08:22.360
area from below your ribs all the way down to

2310
06:08:22.479 --> 06:08:32.240
below your belly button, and then move around to the

2311
06:08:32.319 --> 06:08:48.400
other side of you and repeat that process of relaxing deeply, calmly.

2312
06:08:51.520 --> 06:08:58.720
You feel loose, You feel free. And it's something about

2313
06:08:58.840 --> 06:09:03.240
having your stomach mane massage that's different from any other

2314
06:09:03.400 --> 06:09:11.279
part because we do have a tendency of holding a

2315
06:09:11.400 --> 06:09:15.759
different kind of stress in her stomach that we may

2316
06:09:15.840 --> 06:09:24.639
not be aware of. There's an now message your stomach

2317
06:09:26.959 --> 06:09:34.200
in front of your stomach, making circles around your belly,

2318
06:09:34.240 --> 06:09:49.880
butttom anything going the other way around. There's a gentleness

2319
06:09:50.080 --> 06:09:56.040
and a freedom that comes from feeling how you're feeling.

2320
06:10:01.599 --> 06:10:08.799
As I now move down the tops of your thighs muscles,

2321
06:10:09.400 --> 06:10:14.319
massaging them, and I can do this to your legs

2322
06:10:14.360 --> 06:10:25.040
at the same time, pressing down massaging deeply those muscles

2323
06:10:25.119 --> 06:10:34.040
in your thighs, the front of your thighs and moving

2324
06:10:34.240 --> 06:10:45.279
down to your knees gently massaging your knees, sliding down

2325
06:10:45.400 --> 06:10:50.880
your shins, putting pressure on either side of your shin

2326
06:10:52.040 --> 06:11:09.040
gently softly but firmly moving down to your ankles, stroking

2327
06:11:09.319 --> 06:11:19.680
the tops of your feet, and then with each foot

2328
06:11:20.080 --> 06:11:25.360
in each hand, just gently messaging the hole of the foot,

2329
06:11:29.639 --> 06:11:35.159
the top, the bottom, your heel, your ankle, your toes,

2330
06:11:37.680 --> 06:11:47.639
messaging every part of your feet. Feels so good, just

2331
06:11:47.840 --> 06:12:04.319
to let go and enjoy the process, Enjoy feeling so

2332
06:12:04.680 --> 06:12:19.200
deeply relaxed, so much comfort and so many feelings to

2333
06:12:19.360 --> 06:12:33.799
come just from touching your skin. And you can just

2334
06:12:35.000 --> 06:12:44.400
lie there for as long as you choose, enjoying the

2335
06:12:44.720 --> 06:13:02.360
feeling of deep comfort from being massaged by me, and

2336
06:13:02.560 --> 06:13:24.520
enjoy fear deeply, ra And all we're gonna do is

2337
06:13:28.159 --> 06:13:44.840
blow out some candles. In your mind, there're gonna be

2338
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a hundred candles, and you're gonna blow each one out individually,

2339
06:13:59.720 --> 06:14:07.439
why by one, starting at one hundred. As I count

2340
06:14:07.560 --> 06:14:19.400
down all the way down to one, and each time

2341
06:14:19.799 --> 06:14:28.799
I say a number, you can imagine that candle in

2342
06:14:28.919 --> 06:14:35.560
front of you, and I'd like you to actually physically

2343
06:14:39.919 --> 06:14:56.119
generally blow that candle out, just so it's not big blows,

2344
06:14:56.520 --> 06:15:10.360
just a gentle, and that candle will extinguish. And then

2345
06:15:10.520 --> 06:15:17.720
I'll say the next number as we move down, and

2346
06:15:17.880 --> 06:15:30.200
you can just plow that one out as well. And

2347
06:15:30.360 --> 06:15:40.279
as we move down the numbers, you'll find yourself feeling

2348
06:15:40.720 --> 06:15:49.560
more and more relaxed. If you need to sleep, you'll

2349
06:15:49.560 --> 06:16:01.479
also find yourself becoming incredibly tired and sleepy. In fact,

2350
06:16:01.599 --> 06:16:11.639
you may struggle to blow out all one hundred of

2351
06:16:11.799 --> 06:16:30.200
these candles as you feel more and more deeply relaxed,

2352
06:16:36.919 --> 06:16:54.880
more and more deeply tired, and the fur you go down,

2353
06:16:57.520 --> 06:17:11.119
the more you mind starts to drift. You may find

2354
06:17:11.560 --> 06:17:25.959
that you stop listening to me after a while. And

2355
06:17:26.159 --> 06:17:30.319
even though there may be background sounds where you are,

2356
06:17:35.200 --> 06:17:46.439
you'll be aware of those sounds at the moment you

2357
06:17:46.759 --> 06:18:02.000
may start to just not even notice them at all

2358
06:18:04.759 --> 06:18:18.759
because they're unimportant. Where I am, I've got the sounds

2359
06:18:18.840 --> 06:18:25.599
of the birds, there's horrors, the pigeon who likes to

2360
06:18:25.720 --> 06:18:32.279
say hello. Sometimes there's the old playe that goes by,

2361
06:18:35.319 --> 06:18:48.759
maybe traffic and trains in the distance. But none of

2362
06:18:48.799 --> 06:19:00.720
that scene is important whatsoever, or can as you blow

2363
06:19:00.799 --> 06:19:15.599
out less important anything is more candles you blow out

2364
06:19:19.799 --> 06:19:21.880
the further seemed to.

2365
06:19:23.799 --> 06:19:42.360
Move away from sounds general date days, stuff.

2366
06:19:43.599 --> 06:19:57.639
Seems to just move away on its own. You feel

2367
06:19:58.119 --> 06:20:18.080
more calma with every candle you blow out, guyd in

2368
06:20:18.319 --> 06:20:34.639
here the next number, did you hear me say? And

2369
06:20:34.759 --> 06:20:52.680
then you blow that candle out too? So easy, so simple.

2370
06:21:02.240 --> 06:21:17.000
I'm gonna start by introducing the first candle. She's a hundred.

2371
06:21:21.400 --> 06:21:35.159
First candle, she is one hundred. When you blow that

2372
06:21:35.560 --> 06:21:55.080
candle out, you'll find immediately a slight change in how

2373
06:21:55.200 --> 06:22:06.560
you feel, as well as a real sense of positivity,

2374
06:22:07.479 --> 06:22:41.880
growing revenue, relaxation, and sleepiness expanding. Starting with one hundred

2375
06:22:44.799 --> 06:23:26.279
blow out back candle now ninety nine, candle ninety eight,

2376
06:23:46.759 --> 06:25:25.959
candle ninety seven, I this SI cant ninety five, ninety four,

2377
06:25:50.720 --> 06:27:41.599
candle ninety three, I like you too, and ninety and

2378
06:27:51.919 --> 06:29:49.720
eighty two, nine and eight, eight and eight, candle eight

2379
06:30:43.840 --> 06:35:02.479
eighty five, eight eighty two, seven two two, seventy nine,

2380
06:35:15.639 --> 06:35:54.880
can do seventy eight, candle seventy seven, candle seventy six,

2381
06:36:08.799 --> 06:37:08.279
candle seventy five, candle seventy four, candle seventy three, candle

2382
06:37:13.520 --> 06:38:15.639
seventy two, candle seventy one, candle seventy one, candle seventeen

2383
06:38:30.720 --> 06:39:23.720
and sixty nine, candle sixty eight, candle sixty seven, candle

2384
06:39:27.479 --> 06:40:30.319
sixty five, candle sixty four candle sixty four, candle sixty three,

2385
06:40:40.119 --> 06:42:31.599
candle sixty and sixty one sixty handle fifty nine, candle

2386
06:42:34.400 --> 06:43:54.080
fifty eight, candle fifty seven, can fifty six, candle fifty five,

2387
06:44:11.639 --> 06:46:09.599
candle fifty four, handle fifty three and fifty fifty candul fifty,

2388
06:46:42.000 --> 06:48:19.520
candle fifty one, candle fifty, candle forty nine, came fourty eight,

2389
06:49:01.360 --> 06:50:42.880
fourty seven fouries, candle forty five and forty two.

2390
06:51:23.000 --> 06:51:28.720
Kount Who do you.

2391
06:52:02.040 --> 06:54:50.639
Handle forty candle thirty nine, candle thirty seven, candle thirty

2392
06:54:51.000 --> 06:59:06.680
five four, handle thirty three, handle thirty one and twenty

2393
06:59:07.520 --> 07:01:29.919
ten nine can twenty eight, candle twenty seven, twenty six,

2394
07:02:10.840 --> 07:04:23.400
candle wenty five four D twenty thirty Can do it

2395
07:04:23.599 --> 07:08:36.080
wit tip, wait to wait y n cervaty six day

2396
07:09:33.599 --> 07:10:51.639
four two.

2397
07:11:53.400 --> 07:13:50.240
Eh no.

2398
07:14:48.479 --> 07:17:56.240
Two two eight can do.

2399
07:20:01.319 --> 07:20:08.919
Can or.

2400
07:20:14.759 --> 07:20:21.959
Let go of all of those thoughts, worries, concerns about

2401
07:20:22.040 --> 07:20:28.599
the past, thoughts about the future, and even things you've

2402
07:20:28.599 --> 07:20:36.360
been thinking about today. Just let it all go because

2403
07:20:36.439 --> 07:20:44.040
none of it is useful in this moment. This is

2404
07:20:45.040 --> 07:21:04.520
your opportunity to just focus on feeling relaxed, allowing yourself

2405
07:21:04.639 --> 07:21:12.439
to get in touch with that natural sense of peace

2406
07:21:15.080 --> 07:21:20.759
that we all have within us. It's available for everyone.

2407
07:21:21.919 --> 07:21:26.799
It just sometimes takes a little bit of effort to

2408
07:21:27.000 --> 07:21:33.040
set up the right time and place in order for

2409
07:21:33.159 --> 07:21:40.080
you to just let go. Because when you do decide

2410
07:21:42.479 --> 07:21:47.799
to let go and relax, that's what your body starts

2411
07:21:47.880 --> 07:21:58.119
to do because you've chosen, You've chosen to just allow

2412
07:21:58.279 --> 07:22:04.119
your body to unworry and your mind starts to slow down.

2413
07:22:07.439 --> 07:22:11.840
And it's a nice feeling. It's a nice feeling at

2414
07:22:11.880 --> 07:22:17.799
the beginning, just to know that you have chosen to

2415
07:22:17.959 --> 07:22:27.000
decide to relax deeply, and because you've made that decision,

2416
07:22:28.840 --> 07:22:35.880
your body will just follow suit. Because sometimes all the

2417
07:22:36.000 --> 07:22:40.759
muscles in your body need is just permission from you

2418
07:22:41.799 --> 07:22:50.279
to relax. Because so often we're busy, we're going from

2419
07:22:50.400 --> 07:22:54.360
here to there, we're walking around, and we're doing stuff,

2420
07:22:56.680 --> 07:23:03.000
and the body doesn't have any time or space to

2421
07:23:03.200 --> 07:23:10.200
really relax deeply. So it kind of waits for you

2422
07:23:10.479 --> 07:23:19.639
to lead the way, waits for your permission. And when

2423
07:23:19.720 --> 07:23:26.439
you do give your permission, when you get to say so,

2424
07:23:26.680 --> 07:23:34.439
when you say okay, it's time for your body to

2425
07:23:34.639 --> 07:23:43.360
let go completely and relax totally, your body just follows.

2426
07:23:46.520 --> 07:23:51.799
So like a breath of relief. Ah good, I can

2427
07:23:51.880 --> 07:23:58.919
now relax. That feeling at the end of the day

2428
07:23:59.000 --> 07:24:03.360
of physical day that you may experience in the past

2429
07:24:04.439 --> 07:24:06.959
when you get home and you just sit down on

2430
07:24:07.080 --> 07:24:10.799
a chair, maybe you kick your shoes off, and my

2431
07:24:11.240 --> 07:24:17.319
arm feels so nice knowing that you don't have to

2432
07:24:17.360 --> 07:24:21.799
get up again for a little while at least, and

2433
07:24:21.919 --> 07:24:24.560
if you choose, you can just sit there for maybe

2434
07:24:24.599 --> 07:24:37.639
an hour to it feels blissal. And just by sitting

2435
07:24:37.799 --> 07:24:43.040
down like that, your body knows that it's time to relax.

2436
07:24:44.639 --> 07:24:50.520
Your body has been given permission from you. Because it's

2437
07:24:50.560 --> 07:25:00.759
a mindset in your mind, you're prepared to let go

2438
07:25:00.959 --> 07:25:11.040
of everything and just completely allow all the stress of

2439
07:25:11.119 --> 07:25:23.040
your body to evaporate. Any tensions can just gradually vanish.

2440
07:25:29.560 --> 07:25:41.240
It's almost like magic, really, because that sense of relaxation

2441
07:25:41.560 --> 07:25:47.560
in your body, it's a very natural state. It's not

2442
07:25:47.759 --> 07:25:52.560
something unusual. It may feel unusual when you first start

2443
07:25:52.680 --> 07:25:57.360
to relax. You if you haven't really spent a lot

2444
07:25:57.360 --> 07:26:01.439
of time focusing and giving your yourself this space to

2445
07:26:01.639 --> 07:26:08.840
let go completely and relax may seem almost alien, but

2446
07:26:08.959 --> 07:26:15.200
it isn't. It's actually the most natural thing in the world.

2447
07:26:16.759 --> 07:26:26.319
To let go completely, to relax totally, the most natural

2448
07:26:26.560 --> 07:26:38.680
thing in the world to allow yourself to feel really

2449
07:26:38.959 --> 07:26:45.040
calm in your mind. And it is almost like a

2450
07:26:45.200 --> 07:26:54.919
literal unwinding. It's like you press a button and all

2451
07:26:55.159 --> 07:27:02.040
the tension just releases it like a wheel, like a cog,

2452
07:27:03.040 --> 07:27:06.439
like the inside of a clock, just unwinding. And you

2453
07:27:06.560 --> 07:27:10.360
should I you could see that the little wind up

2454
07:27:11.319 --> 07:27:16.200
knob that's used just going the opposite way that you

2455
07:27:16.439 --> 07:27:22.959
choose to wind it up, and the energy that frenetic

2456
07:27:24.159 --> 07:27:34.200
stress for energy gradually winding down, losing its power, losing

2457
07:27:34.319 --> 07:27:43.200
its strength. As a sense of relaxation becomes stronger and deeper,

2458
07:27:46.840 --> 07:27:55.599
and you may find a more relaxed you feel your

2459
07:27:55.799 --> 07:28:05.880
mind starts to wander, maybe seem to stop listening to

2460
07:28:06.000 --> 07:28:11.919
me for a while, your mind goes somewhere else, and

2461
07:28:12.040 --> 07:28:18.080
then you realize you're listening to me again, and that's

2462
07:28:18.279 --> 07:28:26.840
just your mind to drifting to sleep, which is quite natural,

2463
07:28:28.400 --> 07:28:36.319
because sometimes when we're stressed and tense, we're not may

2464
07:28:36.400 --> 07:28:40.840
I actually be aware of what we need or we

2465
07:28:41.000 --> 07:28:49.680
physically your emotionally need in this moment. But when you

2466
07:28:50.400 --> 07:28:57.520
allow your body and mind to relax completely, and you

2467
07:28:57.680 --> 07:29:07.200
let go of all for concerned worries ideas all longer

2468
07:29:08.200 --> 07:29:16.799
allow them to drop onto the floor. You start to

2469
07:29:18.959 --> 07:29:30.240
get in touch with the feelings of such relaxation. Feels

2470
07:29:30.520 --> 07:29:38.560
so nice to be in touch with the calmness of

2471
07:29:38.720 --> 07:29:47.439
the different body parts as they become looser and looser.

2472
07:29:51.599 --> 07:30:00.400
Even your breathing seems easier and more natural if less

2473
07:30:03.680 --> 07:30:09.119
as I call outs through your mouth or nose into

2474
07:30:09.200 --> 07:30:20.080
your lungs, breathing in comforts and relaxation, and then just

2475
07:30:20.240 --> 07:30:29.520
breathing out any excess remain intention stress from every part

2476
07:30:29.759 --> 07:30:37.680
of your body and mind. As you start to focus

2477
07:30:37.840 --> 07:30:45.959
on your mind, maybe you notice that things that come

2478
07:30:46.119 --> 07:30:53.159
to a standstill, or maybe just much much lower than

2479
07:30:53.240 --> 07:31:03.319
before because your mind is not really needed when listening

2480
07:31:03.799 --> 07:31:13.040
to my voice, which allows your mind to relax just

2481
07:31:13.439 --> 07:31:22.599
as deeply as your body. And that's synchronicity between the

2482
07:31:22.759 --> 07:31:31.799
relaxation of your body relaxation of your mind.

2483
07:31:34.159 --> 07:31:35.400
Let you know that.

2484
07:31:37.560 --> 07:31:44.799
Feeling completely calm, loose, and relaxed.

2485
07:31:46.520 --> 07:31:47.599
Real is.

2486
07:31:49.360 --> 07:32:05.360
A great healing experience fear and has so many positive

2487
07:32:05.720 --> 07:32:13.520
benefits for your body and mind and your life. To

2488
07:32:13.639 --> 07:32:22.240
be able to let go everything and to relax completely,

2489
07:32:24.159 --> 07:32:32.240
you know all parts of your body and mind. Even

2490
07:32:32.360 --> 07:32:47.680
your boness a relaxed. All your muscles are relaxed, even

2491
07:32:48.000 --> 07:33:01.599
the skin that covers your body is relaxed. Every hair.

2492
07:33:04.680 --> 07:33:05.200
Do you have.

2493
07:33:06.959 --> 07:33:07.880
Is also.

2494
07:33:09.720 --> 07:33:26.880
Deeply relaxed. And your brain really starts to feel the benefits.

2495
07:33:28.159 --> 07:33:28.479
Of this.

2496
07:33:30.080 --> 07:33:42.439
Heathing relaxation. And as you focus on the inside of

2497
07:33:42.560 --> 07:33:48.240
your scalp where your brain is, you can start to

2498
07:33:48.520 --> 07:34:03.119
realize and notice the benefits of your brain relaxing. Initial

2499
07:34:03.279 --> 07:34:15.560
brain continues to relax sends those messages to the rest

2500
07:34:15.759 --> 07:34:31.159
of your body and your mind to re relax e more, debate,

2501
07:34:33.599 --> 07:34:51.799
relax more completely, letting go of any remaining thoughts A

2502
07:34:52.080 --> 07:35:01.919
consers low just drop onto the floor because they're not

2503
07:35:02.119 --> 07:35:11.040
all been necessary in this moment, this moment of deep

2504
07:35:12.880 --> 07:35:30.319
relaxation and calmness and feeling your brain with deep concentrated heathing,

2505
07:35:35.599 --> 07:35:57.400
calming relaxing, every part of your brain feeling so bruse

2506
07:35:58.959 --> 07:36:16.479
and comfortable, so relaxed and beheaceful. Your brain feels so light,

2507
07:36:18.759 --> 07:36:30.240
that's so healthy. That sense of deep, deep comfort really

2508
07:36:31.200 --> 07:36:43.959
does allow you to enjoy those ever increase in sensations

2509
07:36:44.240 --> 07:36:58.639
of comfort that is spreading throughout your body relaxing each

2510
07:37:00.279 --> 07:37:03.439
and every muscle of your body.

2511
07:37:05.520 --> 07:37:06.000
Eat.

2512
07:37:07.680 --> 07:37:26.840
Deeper and deeper, much more deeper than before, much more

2513
07:37:28.919 --> 07:37:45.240
comfort spreading through your body, your mind, be so peaceful

2514
07:37:45.840 --> 07:37:49.799
and calm, so.

2515
07:37:52.200 --> 07:37:54.080
Very very.

2516
07:37:55.479 --> 07:38:08.799
Peaceful in a pot of your body, letting go of

2517
07:38:10.919 --> 07:38:35.000
everything and everything so peaceful, cal so relax very second

2518
07:38:35.759 --> 07:39:01.560
the passes you feel dper, DPA relaxed DPA and DPER relax.

2519
07:39:04.040 --> 07:39:13.880
Cal so calm, peace for.

2520
07:39:16.720 --> 07:39:26.000
So very peace from your head down to your ties.

2521
07:39:29.119 --> 07:39:41.520
Such peace and comfort growing all all the time, Such

2522
07:39:42.279 --> 07:39:57.200
peace and comfort spreading through your body and mind deeper deeper,

2523
07:40:00.159 --> 07:40:13.400
search comforts, spreading and sinking deeper into ay muscle of

2524
07:40:13.599 --> 07:40:31.080
your body. Sorden, you feel amazing, so relaxed, so pie

2525
07:40:31.319 --> 07:40:31.520
so so.

2526
07:40:36.240 --> 07:40:38.200
So relax.

2527
07:40:41.599 --> 07:41:00.520
And piece letting go everything. A body scan for sitting

2528
07:41:00.959 --> 07:41:06.639
on firstly, how you feel in your body, Not trying

2529
07:41:06.680 --> 07:41:13.040
to change how you feel, not trying to relax, not

2530
07:41:13.240 --> 07:41:18.840
trying to move away from any discomfort or stress or tension.

2531
07:41:20.119 --> 07:41:26.799
Just accepting, observing and accepting how you feel in the

2532
07:41:26.880 --> 07:41:33.159
different parts of your body, Just allowing yourself to be

2533
07:41:33.479 --> 07:41:40.959
exactly as you are, to notice to get in touch

2534
07:41:45.560 --> 07:41:52.840
with how you actually feel in this moment. I'm going

2535
07:41:52.919 --> 07:42:03.880
to start off by focusing on your hands. Just be

2536
07:42:04.040 --> 07:42:12.880
aware of your hands, like you to move your hands around,

2537
07:42:14.319 --> 07:42:19.919
just maybe move your fingers a little bit. I've been

2538
07:42:20.080 --> 07:42:26.400
enclosing your hands very gently, just so that you can

2539
07:42:28.360 --> 07:42:35.400
get in touch with how your hands and your fingers feel,

2540
07:42:40.799 --> 07:42:59.919
very very slow movements. Focusing now on your feet, if

2541
07:43:00.080 --> 07:43:04.040
you can just do kind of an equivalent with your

2542
07:43:04.200 --> 07:43:11.319
feet is you've just done with your hands, Maybe turn

2543
07:43:11.479 --> 07:43:19.680
in your ankles, moving your feet around, moving your toes gently,

2544
07:43:22.479 --> 07:43:35.000
only very gently and very slowly, noticing how your feet

2545
07:43:35.560 --> 07:43:51.040
feel in this moment. Focusing now on your eyes, I'd

2546
07:43:51.159 --> 07:43:58.040
like you to just focus on your eyelids. Maybe you

2547
07:43:58.200 --> 07:44:00.720
can open and close your eyes. Is a couple of

2548
07:44:00.880 --> 07:44:06.279
times to really get in touch with how you feel

2549
07:44:06.400 --> 07:44:14.400
when you do close your eyes. The muscle changes in

2550
07:44:14.520 --> 07:44:21.400
your eyes when you do close them, maybe raising your eyebrows,

2551
07:44:23.159 --> 07:44:30.959
it stretches the tops of your eyes, perhaps squinting your eyes,

2552
07:44:34.720 --> 07:44:40.000
scrunching up your eyes, just so you can herely get

2553
07:44:40.119 --> 07:44:50.599
in touch with all aspects of how your eyes feel.

2554
07:44:53.319 --> 07:45:08.880
Right now. Now focusing on your thighs, then you know

2555
07:45:08.919 --> 07:45:14.240
it just starts you to gently tense your thighs, just

2556
07:45:15.240 --> 07:45:25.880
very very gently, just enough so you can become more

2557
07:45:27.919 --> 07:45:38.959
attuned to the physical sensation of your upper legs, the

2558
07:45:39.080 --> 07:45:42.159
front of your thighs, and the backs of your thighs.

2559
07:45:46.639 --> 07:46:06.040
Noticing and observing how your thighs feel right now, moving

2560
07:46:06.279 --> 07:46:14.680
your focus to the back of your neck, just noticing

2561
07:46:14.880 --> 07:46:20.919
the back of your neck, the muscles, and of course

2562
07:46:21.080 --> 07:46:25.360
they lead to the side of your neck. They also

2563
07:46:25.680 --> 07:46:30.520
lead to the top of your back, which leads to

2564
07:46:30.599 --> 07:46:36.119
your shoulders. So as you focus on the back of

2565
07:46:36.200 --> 07:46:43.599
your neck, maybe you can move your head gently upwards

2566
07:46:44.759 --> 07:46:50.720
as if you're looking up. Maybe moving your head down

2567
07:46:52.159 --> 07:46:58.759
as if you're looking down. Perhaps moving your head side

2568
07:46:58.959 --> 07:47:11.360
to side, right to left, only very slowly and very gently.

2569
07:47:13.880 --> 07:47:19.040
I'm not trying to force anything. It has to be

2570
07:47:19.560 --> 07:47:32.799
very very gentle, just so you can be more in

2571
07:47:33.119 --> 07:47:44.599
touch with the feelings, with the sensations, the physical sensations

2572
07:47:44.880 --> 07:47:52.799
of how the back of your neck feels. Right now,

2573
07:48:00.360 --> 07:48:08.360
as we now focus on the tops of your arms,

2574
07:48:10.720 --> 07:48:15.560
the parts where your biceps and your triceps are between

2575
07:48:15.599 --> 07:48:23.319
your elbow and your shoulders. So you focus on those parts,

2576
07:48:24.360 --> 07:48:30.000
the tops of your arms. You may like to just

2577
07:48:30.799 --> 07:48:42.119
tense them, but very very gently and slowly, so you're

2578
07:48:42.560 --> 07:48:54.479
straining or putting any pressure whatsoever on your arms. It's

2579
07:48:54.720 --> 07:49:01.680
just so that you can gain all of a sense

2580
07:49:01.959 --> 07:49:12.400
of how your upper arms are feeling in this moment.

2581
07:49:15.799 --> 07:49:26.159
Just notice them as you gently, very gently and slowly

2582
07:49:27.919 --> 07:49:39.439
tighten the muscles, and then leto notice how the tops

2583
07:49:39.560 --> 07:49:58.240
of your arms feel. Right now, as now focus on

2584
07:49:58.439 --> 07:50:05.919
your stomach, the area the lower abdomen area below your

2585
07:50:06.000 --> 07:50:14.599
belly button, moving all the way down to your hips,

2586
07:50:15.720 --> 07:50:26.959
just above your grin. Maybe you're able to tense these

2587
07:50:27.159 --> 07:50:34.880
muscles in the area very very gently.

2588
07:50:37.840 --> 07:50:38.959
And slowly.

2589
07:50:44.599 --> 07:50:49.000
If that's a difficult thing to do, maybe you can

2590
07:50:49.200 --> 07:50:59.840
just move your body, pushing your stomach up, maybe moving

2591
07:50:59.880 --> 07:51:05.759
a little bit acide, using your hips, just so.

2592
07:51:07.520 --> 07:51:08.599
Get more.

2593
07:51:10.080 --> 07:51:22.080
In tune with how your lower abdomen area is feeling

2594
07:51:24.880 --> 07:51:25.799
in this moment.

2595
07:51:32.400 --> 07:51:34.080
Just noticing.

2596
07:51:35.000 --> 07:51:58.279
The physical sensations or your lower abdomen as your attention

2597
07:52:00.799 --> 07:52:12.279
to your mouth, notice in your lips, then inside your mouth,

2598
07:52:14.520 --> 07:52:31.720
your teeth, your guns, your tongue. Just noticing how your

2599
07:52:31.919 --> 07:52:41.119
tongue and your mouth feels. It may help by moving

2600
07:52:41.439 --> 07:52:47.919
your tongue around your mouth, moving it to your left,

2601
07:52:49.680 --> 07:52:55.360
maybe pressing it jently against the side of your mouth,

2602
07:52:56.919 --> 07:53:02.520
and then to the right to the side of your mouth,

2603
07:53:05.639 --> 07:53:11.119
perhaps pressing up against the top of your mouth, and

2604
07:53:11.279 --> 07:53:20.159
then down gently against the bottom of your mouth, always

2605
07:53:21.119 --> 07:53:36.119
very slowly and a very very gentle so that you

2606
07:53:36.360 --> 07:53:52.599
can be aware of how you feel in your mouth area.

2607
07:54:03.880 --> 07:54:24.040
Now I got to focus on your wrists, and I'll

2608
07:54:24.159 --> 07:54:33.040
ask you to maybe just routine your wrists by moving

2609
07:54:33.119 --> 07:54:43.520
your hands in a circular motion very gently and slowly,

2610
07:54:46.279 --> 07:55:05.000
just so you can feel the sensations that you are

2611
07:55:05.479 --> 07:55:20.840
currently experiencing in your wrists. Perhaps smooth in your hands

2612
07:55:22.520 --> 07:55:37.520
up and down the game very very jamply and slowly,

2613
07:55:46.520 --> 07:56:17.919
very chance and slow. Now start to observe your lower back.

2614
07:56:23.520 --> 07:56:33.880
There bad part is just above your hips where your

2615
07:56:34.000 --> 07:56:47.000
coxis are a whole area which also really does include

2616
07:56:47.799 --> 07:56:54.040
the signs like a body, because those muscles are very

2617
07:56:54.159 --> 07:57:05.840
much connected as those muscles also move into your hyperia,

2618
07:57:06.840 --> 07:57:22.200
connecting too your buttocks the side of your hips. And

2619
07:57:22.360 --> 07:57:30.799
if you're physically able to do so, maybe you can

2620
07:57:31.759 --> 07:57:44.439
very gently just move your body eviss slightly, very slowly

2621
07:57:47.520 --> 07:58:05.479
some side to side, just enough to gay how you

2622
07:58:05.799 --> 07:58:22.599
feel in your lawer back. I have sickly even with

2623
07:58:23.040 --> 07:58:37.119
your hips gently up and down, gently and slowly in

2624
07:58:37.479 --> 07:58:51.279
order's real be in touch with the physical sensations of

2625
07:58:51.520 --> 07:59:20.919
your lawer back as we know, your attention to your

2626
07:59:21.159 --> 07:59:28.720
jaw an area for your chin, all the way up

2627
07:59:30.279 --> 07:59:36.840
to the a where your ears are. Oh, your jaw,

2628
07:59:47.119 --> 07:59:55.799
you can just it's okay to do so. Gently open

2629
07:59:55.959 --> 08:00:05.680
your mouth, nor quide noe stretching, Just very gently and

2630
08:00:08.720 --> 08:00:20.680
slowly open in your mouth, closing your mouth very gently

2631
08:00:23.040 --> 08:00:45.959
and slowly, so you can be in touch with how

2632
08:00:46.119 --> 08:01:22.159
your jaw feels. Now I have to sit down your

2633
08:01:22.439 --> 08:01:37.439
chest area. You don't need to do anything to move

2634
08:01:37.560 --> 08:01:49.080
your chest because it moves every time you breath. It

2635
08:01:49.400 --> 08:02:03.880
moves very gently and slowly automatically with each breath you take.

2636
08:02:10.959 --> 08:02:29.680
As you focus on your chest fails when you breathe

2637
08:02:58.560 --> 08:03:07.159
leave in your foot because to your forearms, your elbows.

2638
08:03:13.119 --> 08:03:19.520
Maybe you're able to very gently.

2639
08:03:20.840 --> 08:03:23.000
And slowly.

2640
08:03:24.759 --> 08:03:33.279
Tense the muscles in your forearms, and when you do that,

2641
08:03:33.799 --> 08:04:06.360
you can feel your elbows as well, very gently and slowly, gently,

2642
08:04:10.520 --> 08:04:54.240
softly observing your forearms and delpas. No focus the rest

2643
08:04:54.360 --> 08:05:07.400
of your back, upper back back and the middle the

2644
08:05:07.759 --> 08:05:30.080
middle of your back again, this part of your body moves. Also,

2645
08:05:30.840 --> 08:05:41.919
every time you pray, you may not notice that usually

2646
08:05:47.319 --> 08:05:53.720
makes you observe your upper back. In the middle of

2647
08:05:53.919 --> 08:06:54.000
your back, you can really feel that shin't's maybe in

2648
08:06:54.200 --> 08:07:11.040
your focus et Eric, your butty as bray, there's muscles

2649
08:07:11.159 --> 08:07:48.119
and those bones in your midsection. Just noticing how your

2650
08:07:48.439 --> 08:08:11.759
hips feel right now, you can very very gently used

2651
08:08:12.000 --> 08:08:23.240
your hips maybe sighed the side very gently and.

2652
08:08:26.279 --> 08:08:44.360
Sor very.

2653
08:08:48.759 --> 08:09:27.040
Gently softly. No, everything starts to slow down, including the

2654
08:09:27.639 --> 08:09:36.360
thoughts in your mind and your mind itself just starts

2655
08:09:36.799 --> 08:09:42.159
to gradually. It doesn't have to be instant, but just

2656
08:09:43.080 --> 08:09:52.279
gradually starting to It's almost like time is storing chin.

2657
08:09:56.200 --> 08:10:02.159
It's a slower pace to maybe what you're used to

2658
08:10:04.479 --> 08:10:12.439
in your day to day life. It's a slower movement

2659
08:10:15.560 --> 08:10:38.159
of energy, very small movements which make up the larger movements,

2660
08:10:39.759 --> 08:10:46.200
which is always the case. Now, when you move your hand,

2661
08:10:47.799 --> 08:10:50.599
it might seem like it's one movement, but it's lots

2662
08:10:50.680 --> 08:10:58.560
of minute different muscles moving in accordance with each other.

2663
08:10:58.919 --> 08:11:10.880
And what happens in this space that we're sharing is

2664
08:11:16.200 --> 08:11:22.639
we move from that big.

2665
08:11:27.080 --> 08:11:38.680
Movement into those smaller movements, starting to focus on.

2666
08:11:44.000 --> 08:11:50.240
How your body feels, not just as a whole, not

2667
08:11:50.520 --> 08:11:55.000
just oh, i'm feel in this way. I'm feeling stressed

2668
08:11:55.200 --> 08:12:00.880
or tense, or I'm feeling relaxed and calm. I'm feeling

2669
08:12:01.040 --> 08:12:07.759
this way, I'm feeling that way. Starting to notice that

2670
08:12:07.919 --> 08:12:21.919
your body begins to present to you small feelings around

2671
08:12:22.000 --> 08:12:39.720
your body, small physical sensations in your legs, whether pleasurable

2672
08:12:40.919 --> 08:12:54.919
or not. Maybe resisting the temptation to label them or

2673
08:12:55.000 --> 08:13:02.759
to judge them those feelings. Just thinking and thinking about

2674
08:13:02.799 --> 08:13:19.000
them is just being neutral, just feelings, not being particularly concerned,

2675
08:13:20.159 --> 08:13:35.520
but just noticing what your body is telling you. Feelings

2676
08:13:35.599 --> 08:13:41.919
in your arms, instead of feeling the whole of the arm,

2677
08:13:43.360 --> 08:13:52.560
maybe notice those individual feelings, all those different muscles and

2678
08:13:56.680 --> 08:14:05.880
the skin, the hairs of your arms, all the internal

2679
08:14:06.040 --> 08:14:22.200
parts of your arms, the veins, the bones, just being

2680
08:14:22.240 --> 08:14:31.080
aware of maybe your elbow on your right arm has

2681
08:14:31.159 --> 08:14:42.479
a certain feeling. Maybe your left wrist also has its

2682
08:14:42.599 --> 08:15:03.319
own individual physical sensation. What about your forearm? When your

2683
08:15:03.439 --> 08:15:15.720
right arm, you're right forearm, there may not be any

2684
08:15:16.279 --> 08:15:23.520
particular feeling that you could even give a name to,

2685
08:15:27.279 --> 08:15:32.759
may not feel like anything other than just a feeling. Yeah,

2686
08:15:32.919 --> 08:15:45.360
it's there, the feelings in your shoulders. Perhaps your shoulders

2687
08:15:45.400 --> 08:15:49.040
when you think about them, kind of almost like they're

2688
08:15:49.040 --> 08:15:56.159
the same, you know, the same feeling, almost like both

2689
08:15:56.240 --> 08:16:00.959
of your shoulders are just one thing. Of course they're not.

2690
08:16:09.639 --> 08:16:14.959
And when you focus on your left shoulder and then

2691
08:16:15.040 --> 08:16:21.639
on your right shoulder, maybe find that you move the

2692
08:16:21.799 --> 08:16:32.479
muscles a little bit, maybe tense the muscles gently, noticing

2693
08:16:33.840 --> 08:17:04.759
the difference in each shoulder. Your lower back, the left

2694
08:17:04.919 --> 08:17:08.759
side of your lower back and the right side of

2695
08:17:08.880 --> 08:17:20.000
your lower back. Of course that connection to your buttocks

2696
08:17:21.200 --> 08:17:32.919
and to your hips, and also moving up into the

2697
08:17:33.040 --> 08:17:46.240
middle of your back, and sometimes like right now, actually

2698
08:17:47.000 --> 08:17:50.680
I want to focus on their part. When I focused

2699
08:17:50.720 --> 08:17:56.599
on my buttocks and then I focused on the middle

2700
08:17:56.639 --> 08:17:59.479
of my back, I almost felt like the muscles in

2701
08:17:59.560 --> 08:18:09.639
my lower back would being stretched very gently, just stretched

2702
08:18:09.720 --> 08:18:16.240
a little bit. Even though I wasn't doing anything to

2703
08:18:17.639 --> 08:18:23.360
try to stretch your lower back, it just seemed to happen.

2704
08:18:24.599 --> 08:18:42.200
The feeling of very gently stretching your lower back comes along.

2705
08:18:45.880 --> 08:19:10.200
I have fear in your chest, just noticing what sensations.

2706
08:19:10.799 --> 08:19:28.479
You are experiencing in your chest right now, and there's

2707
08:19:28.560 --> 08:19:32.319
so much of the chest of obviously there's the collar

2708
08:19:32.439 --> 08:19:34.119
bone leading to the chest.

2709
08:19:34.919 --> 08:19:43.200
You've got the chest bone, You've got the muscles in

2710
08:19:43.319 --> 08:19:51.240
your chest. Of course, if you're female, there's possibly the breasts.

2711
08:19:52.599 --> 08:20:00.720
If you're male, you've got the different well why not

2712
08:20:00.880 --> 08:20:07.560
that different these days, But there may be more muscles

2713
08:20:08.360 --> 08:20:14.759
at the top of the chest, but at the side underneath,

2714
08:20:15.919 --> 08:20:18.759
it's pretty much the same. Whether you're a man or

2715
08:20:18.799 --> 08:20:25.240
a woman. There's muscles there, muscles that stretch out to

2716
08:20:25.360 --> 08:20:30.279
your back as well as breast tissue stretches and moves

2717
08:20:30.319 --> 08:20:37.680
into your back. To just being aware of your chest,

2718
08:20:46.599 --> 08:21:13.720
being with whatever feeling there is in your chest. And

2719
08:21:13.799 --> 08:21:21.279
when I noticed that, I focus on my chest, I

2720
08:21:21.520 --> 08:21:26.479
feel it in my back, my upper back. I mean,

2721
08:21:26.560 --> 08:21:29.479
I guess the obvious reason would be because you know,

2722
08:21:29.520 --> 08:21:40.240
I'm breathe in in and it stretches my chest and

2723
08:21:40.639 --> 08:21:54.479
my back at the same time. It feels it feels okay,

2724
08:22:01.279 --> 08:22:06.080
doesn't feel I've got a little bit of pain in

2725
08:22:06.159 --> 08:22:14.080
my right chest, a little bit not pain, but little discomfort,

2726
08:22:14.240 --> 08:22:24.279
maybe stiffness possibly, I don't know. I notice my shoulders

2727
08:22:24.319 --> 08:22:33.200
are also wanting to flex for some reason. I think

2728
08:22:33.240 --> 08:22:41.599
that's probably part of my upper back. That connection between

2729
08:22:41.720 --> 08:22:45.959
my shoulders my upper back because I can move my

2730
08:22:46.080 --> 08:22:53.360
shoulders and stretch the muscles in my back, moving the

2731
08:22:53.400 --> 08:22:59.880
shoulders backwards or up, which then moves I think it's

2732
08:23:00.080 --> 08:23:15.720
the scapulous in your back. It feels quite nice. Actually,

2733
08:23:21.040 --> 08:23:24.240
a good thing about this is you can, if you

2734
08:23:24.360 --> 08:23:38.279
want to, you can just flex or stimulate the various

2735
08:23:38.520 --> 08:23:46.000
muscles in your body gently in order to get more

2736
08:23:46.040 --> 08:23:56.319
of a sense of how they feel. And when you're relaxing,

2737
08:24:01.159 --> 08:24:05.200
when you do tense and muscle and you let it

2738
08:24:05.360 --> 08:24:12.759
go and you let it relax, it relaxes way more

2739
08:24:14.360 --> 08:24:24.400
than it would normally. That you have to feel that

2740
08:24:24.479 --> 08:24:28.240
you're able to do that. There's no point in doing

2741
08:24:28.279 --> 08:24:33.840
it if there's an issue with the per part of

2742
08:24:33.880 --> 08:24:43.119
your body. You need to be gentle with yourself at

2743
08:24:43.360 --> 08:24:57.159
all times when relaxing deeply. It's important to be kind

2744
08:24:57.919 --> 08:25:13.919
to yourself. As you notice your mind. How much has

2745
08:25:14.000 --> 08:25:37.599
your mind slowed down since we started this recording, How

2746
08:25:37.840 --> 08:25:53.119
came and peaceful is your mind right now? We have

2747
08:25:53.279 --> 08:25:59.200
nothing to think about and just my voice to listen to.

2748
08:26:03.360 --> 08:26:11.919
Because you know, the intention behind this recording is relaxation

2749
08:26:14.639 --> 08:26:19.799
at the very least for you to feel more relaxed

2750
08:26:21.119 --> 08:26:24.000
at the end of the recording than you did at

2751
08:26:24.040 --> 08:26:36.680
the beginning, at the very least, for your mind to

2752
08:26:37.000 --> 08:26:53.200
slow down as your body continues to relax, because that's

2753
08:26:53.599 --> 08:27:09.479
what you want to happen. That's what you expect to happen,

2754
08:27:15.560 --> 08:27:33.520
for relaxation to fill your body, maybe calm in your

2755
08:27:33.720 --> 08:27:42.560
mind to the point of boredom. When you start maybe

2756
08:27:43.000 --> 08:28:25.720
to drift away breast in it's almost as if you're

2757
08:28:28.959 --> 08:28:37.159
moving further away from your body in your mind, just

2758
08:28:37.479 --> 08:28:49.319
leaving that there, kind of liking it an escape pod

2759
08:28:50.080 --> 08:28:54.279
in a spaceship a movie, a space movie, you know

2760
08:28:54.400 --> 08:28:58.279
when they get into a little pod in it, since

2761
08:28:58.400 --> 08:29:14.479
the man far away from the spaceship save to dream

2762
08:29:23.040 --> 08:30:41.240
and continue to relax, drift down size and peace, so

2763
08:30:42.040 --> 08:31:27.759
rare and peace, and focusing on that feeding of those

2764
08:31:29.240 --> 08:31:40.360
individual parts of your body, that relaxing. One by one.

2765
08:31:48.040 --> 08:31:48.520
You may.

2766
08:31:50.279 --> 08:32:00.599
Find that every now and then you really eyes that

2767
08:32:03.959 --> 08:32:11.439
you weren't listening to my voice. It gives your mind

2768
08:32:12.000 --> 08:32:26.759
started to imagine something different, maybe started to almost move

2769
08:32:26.959 --> 08:32:36.040
into some kind of a dreamy state, and then you

2770
08:32:36.159 --> 08:32:42.959
become aware of my voice again. And even though you

2771
08:32:43.959 --> 08:32:50.119
may want to focus on my voice You may also

2772
08:32:50.880 --> 08:33:04.720
wish to allow your mind to just drift naturally into

2773
08:33:04.840 --> 08:33:26.279
that space of comfort and safety. As you feel more

2774
08:33:26.880 --> 08:33:40.159
comfort spreading through your body like a warm blanket covering

2775
08:33:40.279 --> 08:33:54.319
you gently, keeping your body it just the perfect temperature,

2776
08:34:04.720 --> 08:34:15.080
and even if you can hear background sounds, they just

2777
08:34:16.520 --> 08:34:30.319
don't seem to matter anymore. There's that sense of peace

2778
08:34:32.799 --> 08:34:47.319
spreads through your mind like a gentle breeze, yet strong

2779
08:34:47.479 --> 08:35:04.240
enough to blow away all negativity, strong enough remove from

2780
08:35:04.319 --> 08:35:14.040
your mind any anxiety or stress that was there before,

2781
08:35:22.360 --> 08:35:31.279
and blow away any other thoughts or feelings that just

2782
08:35:33.080 --> 08:35:57.479
don't fit with the sense relaxation that is feeling your

2783
08:35:57.599 --> 08:36:20.439
body and your mind. Unless you focus on your mind

2784
08:36:22.639 --> 08:36:28.560
and countdown from ten down to one, and with each

2785
08:36:29.159 --> 08:36:54.200
number you're here, your mind will become slightly more relaxed,

2786
08:36:56.959 --> 08:37:05.479
just just slightly, from ten down to nine, just a

2787
08:37:05.759 --> 08:37:15.080
slight movement from nine down to eight, just another small

2788
08:37:19.599 --> 08:37:32.240
change in how you feel. Eight down to seven. That

2789
08:37:32.599 --> 08:37:38.479
feeling is a gap, almost like a gap that starts

2790
08:37:38.840 --> 08:37:47.840
to get wider, the gap between those feelings that you

2791
08:37:48.119 --> 08:37:55.479
used to have in your mind compared to the feelings

2792
08:37:55.599 --> 08:38:03.520
you have there growing now, feelings of comfort and security

2793
08:38:03.799 --> 08:38:15.880
and confidence, and that gap becomes wider, made down to seven, seven,

2794
08:38:16.040 --> 08:38:24.400
down to six, and when you get to five, your

2795
08:38:24.599 --> 08:38:38.200
mind will start to have a certain physical sensation, almost

2796
08:38:38.360 --> 08:38:44.599
like there's a magnet outside of your head sucking the

2797
08:38:44.880 --> 08:38:50.520
tension and the stress and any remaining feelings that you

2798
08:38:50.759 --> 08:39:01.799
don't want, sucking them out through your skull. And then

2799
08:39:01.959 --> 08:39:08.400
down to four you could start to really experience that

2800
08:39:09.479 --> 08:39:21.200
sense of not just emptiness, but space, a place full

2801
08:39:21.279 --> 08:39:33.319
of fresh air, place where you can stretch. It's almost

2802
08:39:33.360 --> 08:39:36.680
as if as you go down to four and three,

2803
08:39:37.159 --> 08:39:47.639
your mind is expanding with this sense of peace and

2804
08:39:47.880 --> 08:39:58.200
tranquility growing as it moves down to When you get

2805
08:39:58.240 --> 08:40:08.040
to one, your mind just feels exactly how you want

2806
08:40:08.200 --> 08:40:27.360
to feel. It's almost a perfect feeling, maybe a sensation

2807
08:40:27.799 --> 08:40:36.959
that you'd like to keep a place that's safe, where

2808
08:40:38.520 --> 08:40:57.479
nothing can affect you at all, and you can stay

2809
08:40:57.599 --> 08:41:06.360
in that that's space of comfort and confidence, confident in

2810
08:41:06.479 --> 08:41:14.599
your own ability to create this space and this feeling

2811
08:41:14.880 --> 08:41:21.840
of comfort within your own mind just by counting ten

2812
08:41:23.639 --> 08:41:30.720
down to one. And this is something that you can

2813
08:41:30.880 --> 08:41:39.919
do yourself when you're on your own, the time when

2814
08:41:40.000 --> 08:41:44.040
you can maybe sit down, maybe just for a few minutes,

2815
08:41:48.599 --> 08:42:00.240
closeure eyes, just count slowly from ten down to one

2816
08:42:04.680 --> 08:42:17.560
and re experience these feelings in your mind. And when

2817
08:42:17.599 --> 08:42:25.439
you feel that way in your mind, your body copies

2818
08:42:27.240 --> 08:42:38.000
your mind, and that feeling is spread through your spine

2819
08:42:39.279 --> 08:42:44.159
and your nervous system into every part of your body,

2820
08:42:46.240 --> 08:43:00.479
travels through your bloodstream, healing and relaxing every part article

2821
08:43:00.599 --> 08:43:17.200
of your existence. And we can we can practice this

2822
08:43:17.560 --> 08:43:25.599
a few times before the end of the recording, and

2823
08:43:25.680 --> 08:43:31.919
then you can practice on your own. And each time

2824
08:43:32.840 --> 08:43:44.840
you count from ten down to one, the feelings of comforts, calmness,

2825
08:43:45.080 --> 08:44:03.520
and deep deep relaxation becomes stronger and deeper feeling your

2826
08:44:04.799 --> 08:44:14.000
mind and your brain with these positive chemicals that spread

2827
08:44:14.319 --> 08:44:24.040
throughout your body, relaxing you so quickly, relaxing your whole

2828
08:44:24.279 --> 08:44:36.840
body and mind so very, very easily just by counting.

2829
08:44:37.919 --> 08:44:38.759
From ten.

2830
08:44:41.400 --> 08:44:49.639
Down to one. So we're going to do now. I'm

2831
08:44:49.680 --> 08:44:53.639
going to count from ten down to one. I'd like

2832
08:44:53.799 --> 08:44:58.000
you to repeat the number after me. So when I

2833
08:44:58.159 --> 08:45:13.000
say ten, you can just repeat to yourself ten. Just notice,

2834
08:45:13.639 --> 08:45:22.400
be aware of how you feel in your mind and

2835
08:45:22.520 --> 08:45:31.919
your body. Then when I say nine, you can repeat

2836
08:45:33.119 --> 08:45:48.439
to yourself nine again noticing the increase in comfort and

2837
08:45:50.720 --> 08:46:01.759
calmness in your mind and in your body the same

2838
08:46:02.040 --> 08:46:13.159
want to say eight when I say seven, six, I

2839
08:46:13.240 --> 08:46:27.560
want I say five, four when I say three, two,

2840
08:46:31.919 --> 08:46:38.439
and lastly want to say one. You can beat that number.

2841
08:46:45.599 --> 08:46:45.720
Now.

2842
08:46:45.840 --> 08:46:51.439
Of course, when you do this on your own without

2843
08:46:51.560 --> 08:46:56.560
listening to me, you can say the numbers or whatever

2844
08:46:58.159 --> 08:47:06.599
speed that you feel is necessary for you, so you

2845
08:47:06.759 --> 08:47:12.560
can adapt. So if you feel you want to say

2846
08:47:12.680 --> 08:47:18.520
the numbers ten down to one faster than I do,

2847
08:47:20.279 --> 08:47:22.840
then you go ahead and do that. Or if you

2848
08:47:23.040 --> 08:47:27.040
feel when you do it yourself that you'd like to

2849
08:47:27.240 --> 08:47:35.599
have more more space between the numbers, maybe take a

2850
08:47:35.720 --> 08:47:42.520
lot longer to get from ten all the way down

2851
08:47:43.159 --> 08:48:00.439
to one. That's your choice also to do. I'm gonna

2852
08:48:00.560 --> 08:48:08.919
count from ten down to one. I want to get

2853
08:48:09.000 --> 08:48:16.240
to one. That will be the end of this recording, unless,

2854
08:48:16.279 --> 08:48:19.959
of course, you're listening with music, and then the music

2855
08:48:20.080 --> 08:53:31.560
will continue. Ten nine f twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen,

2856
08:53:35.560 --> 08:54:21.479
thirty twelve eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four,

2857
08:54:25.799 --> 08:54:54.040
three two one. Now open your eyes, noticing how you

2858
08:54:54.200 --> 08:55:02.560
physically feel having counted down from twenty to one allowing

2859
08:55:03.360 --> 08:55:07.799
stress and tension to leave through your fingertips and your toast.

2860
08:55:09.319 --> 08:55:14.040
And as you focus on your fingertips, maybe they feel

2861
08:55:14.040 --> 08:55:20.200
a little bit tingly, which is I suppose quite an

2862
08:55:20.240 --> 08:55:25.240
understanding considering the tension has been exiting your body through

2863
08:55:25.279 --> 08:55:34.200
your fingertips. So now I'm going to count from twenty

2864
08:55:34.279 --> 08:55:41.720
down to one again. This time you're to feel relief

2865
08:55:41.840 --> 08:55:47.720
of tension and stress an anxiety that you may have

2866
08:55:52.400 --> 08:56:00.799
leaving through your stomach, just leaving through your stomach, almost

2867
08:56:00.840 --> 08:56:06.599
as if it's just releasing the whole of your stomach,

2868
08:56:07.479 --> 08:56:12.279
your navel to just above your chest or below your chest,

2869
08:56:12.400 --> 08:56:16.959
rather so surrounding your belly by an area, the whole area.

2870
08:56:19.080 --> 08:56:23.680
You can feel the tension of your body where's left

2871
08:56:23.959 --> 08:56:29.240
just releasing from the area, and you may notice that

2872
08:56:29.400 --> 08:56:35.599
your stomach will become very relaxed as I countdown from

2873
08:56:35.720 --> 08:57:59.720
twenty down to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirty, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four,

2874
08:58:03.880 --> 08:58:20.840
three two, or you can open your eyes again if

2875
08:58:20.840 --> 08:58:24.439
you choose, but you can just keep them closed because

2876
08:58:24.479 --> 08:58:31.799
it feels relaxing. Just notice your stomach feels I notice

2877
08:58:32.240 --> 08:58:35.759
as your focus, just do a little scan of your body.

2878
08:58:37.840 --> 08:58:48.639
Just notice saying your body feels focusing upper body, back, chest, stomach,

2879
08:58:48.919 --> 08:59:00.319
lax arms, hands, feet, just noticing, and you know, you

2880
08:59:00.439 --> 08:59:05.799
may start to film more of a sense of tiredness,

2881
08:59:07.119 --> 08:59:12.680
which may be the reason listening to this recording, because.

2882
08:59:12.439 --> 08:59:14.319
You like to.

2883
08:59:15.959 --> 08:59:27.840
Let go completely of everything and drift off into a nice, natural, calm,

2884
08:59:28.240 --> 08:59:43.439
relaxing sleep. So now we're going to focus on your forehead,

2885
08:59:47.360 --> 08:59:50.119
and if you choose, you can incorporate your eyes in

2886
08:59:50.279 --> 08:59:54.880
this focus as well. With your forehead and your eyes,

2887
08:59:57.000 --> 09:00:00.639
it's that whole area basically, or just as if you

2888
09:00:01.240 --> 09:00:06.599
were wearing a mask, you know, like a batman mask

2889
09:00:06.799 --> 09:00:12.880
or something or I'm trying to sorrow or something, you know,

2890
09:00:12.959 --> 09:00:15.720
the kind of mask that covers your eyes but also

2891
09:00:15.880 --> 09:00:22.040
covers quite a lot of the forehead. Focusing on that

2892
09:00:22.240 --> 09:00:24.840
area because that's the area that we're now going to

2893
09:00:24.959 --> 09:00:32.439
release tension, stress from your mind, your brain, from your mind,

2894
09:00:32.560 --> 09:00:36.799
and any tension that you may have remaining in your face,

2895
09:00:37.840 --> 09:00:43.159
in your neck and your jaw, your eyes, your forehead,

2896
09:00:43.959 --> 09:00:50.279
or your scalp. So basically, any tension within your head area,

2897
09:00:51.000 --> 09:00:58.159
including your mind and your brain that's going to be

2898
09:00:58.319 --> 09:01:06.319
released through your full head in your eyes as I

2899
09:01:06.439 --> 09:02:43.560
count down again from twenty down to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three.

2900
09:02:52.759 --> 09:02:53.000
One.

2901
09:03:01.319 --> 09:03:09.360
Noticing as you scan your face with jaw, your eyes,

2902
09:03:10.680 --> 09:03:19.720
of cheap bones, your ears, your forehead, your scalp, your neck,

2903
09:03:21.200 --> 09:03:24.479
back of your neck and front of your neck, the

2904
09:03:24.759 --> 09:03:35.639
side of your neck, and your throat. Noticing being aware

2905
09:03:35.919 --> 09:03:47.200
of the comfort increased in relaxation, not just in your

2906
09:03:47.400 --> 09:03:52.720
head and neck and mind, also the rest of your body.

2907
09:03:58.040 --> 09:04:03.919
Just notice how loose and calm you film, and how

2908
09:04:04.119 --> 09:04:18.200
easily it is to just let go completely, let go completely,

2909
09:04:25.840 --> 09:04:36.279
how easily. So what I'm going to do now is

2910
09:04:37.400 --> 09:04:39.759
I need to focus on the top of your head,

2911
09:04:45.159 --> 09:04:51.840
and am I going to allow every last piece of

2912
09:04:52.040 --> 09:04:58.400
tension or stress the mind be lingering or hiding in

2913
09:04:58.520 --> 09:05:02.279
your body, your mind, my head.

2914
09:05:03.599 --> 09:05:04.000
To just.

2915
09:05:05.720 --> 09:05:12.119
Be sucked out on the top of your head, released

2916
09:05:15.840 --> 09:05:22.959
into the air, was sucked down into the clouds. Imagine

2917
09:05:23.040 --> 09:05:28.400
a big cloud above your head, almost like a whirlpool.

2918
09:05:29.240 --> 09:05:33.959
It's is gonna suck that tension out of the top

2919
09:05:34.000 --> 09:05:44.319
of your head. Just take away good. Let you focus.

2920
09:05:45.279 --> 09:05:49.159
Imagine an opening on the top of your head. With

2921
09:05:49.400 --> 09:05:55.240
that tension and stress and any remaining issues, maybe worries

2922
09:05:55.319 --> 09:05:59.639
of concerns that are not used to you now, you

2923
09:05:59.759 --> 09:06:02.560
can't all be sucked down at the time, you head,

2924
09:06:04.360 --> 09:06:10.279
I've taken away. As I count down again, I'm twenty

2925
09:06:10.720 --> 09:06:57.839
down to one now, twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifty fourteen,

2926
09:07:03.680 --> 09:07:54.000
thirteen to twelve, even, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five.

2927
09:07:59.160 --> 09:08:04.239
Four three.

2928
09:08:13.800 --> 09:08:40.400
War pray noticing how you feel, how relaxed and calm

2929
09:08:42.440 --> 09:08:54.279
you physically and mentally feel right now, help pa so

2930
09:08:56.599 --> 09:09:03.319
your mind feels it feels so nice to just let go,

2931
09:09:05.639 --> 09:09:14.919
to give yourself some space to breathe easily, to think calmly,

2932
09:09:20.040 --> 09:09:25.160
just to take a break from all that pointless worry

2933
09:09:26.680 --> 09:09:30.959
concerns about things that you don't need to think about

2934
09:09:34.199 --> 09:09:41.519
right now, because this is your time to let go.

2935
09:09:42.879 --> 09:09:52.639
This is your space to enjoy feeling deeply relaxed, peaceful

2936
09:09:52.800 --> 09:09:59.959
in your mind, relaxed in your body. They can feel

2937
09:10:00.639 --> 09:10:10.440
so good, so nice to just not have to do anything,

2938
09:10:12.760 --> 09:10:21.680
to be able to really enjoy that serenity that comes

2939
09:10:23.239 --> 09:10:29.440
of letting go completely that peacefulness that comes.

2940
09:10:29.239 --> 09:10:37.440
With being in this.

2941
09:10:39.239 --> 09:10:49.279
Peaceful space. And you can keep this sense of calmness

2942
09:10:50.160 --> 09:11:01.279
for as long as you choose. If you choose to

2943
09:11:01.519 --> 09:11:08.720
drift off into a deep, healing, natural sleep, then you

2944
09:11:08.839 --> 09:11:20.360
can do that. It's completely up to you, and you

2945
09:11:20.480 --> 09:11:25.080
can keep this feeling of calmness physically and in your

2946
09:11:25.160 --> 09:11:33.199
mind for it's long. If you choose to feel completely relaxed,

2947
09:11:38.919 --> 09:11:47.680
completely relaxed, and I'd like you to make up your

2948
09:11:47.919 --> 09:12:00.559
mind that you're going to relax, and I want to

2949
09:12:00.680 --> 09:12:04.080
explore that with you. What it feels like when you

2950
09:12:04.239 --> 09:12:13.279
actually decide that you're going to relax, not forcing yourself,

2951
09:12:13.440 --> 09:12:19.599
but giving yourself that. I guess it is a command, really,

2952
09:12:19.680 --> 09:12:26.599
isn't it. When you're telling yourself relax in a gentle

2953
09:12:26.720 --> 09:12:33.760
but firm way that only you can really tell yourself

2954
09:12:34.199 --> 09:12:37.040
in that way. You can't really have someone else saying

2955
09:12:37.080 --> 09:12:42.000
to you and now it relax, relax, you know, and

2956
09:12:43.160 --> 09:12:45.400
it needs to be gentle, but you can't. Someone else

2957
09:12:45.480 --> 09:12:53.559
can't really have the same the same kind of influence

2958
09:12:54.720 --> 09:13:02.879
or power that you have over your own physicality, over

2959
09:13:03.080 --> 09:13:12.279
how you feel, because when you say it to yourself,

2960
09:13:13.559 --> 09:13:20.559
it means more it's personal, and your brain and your

2961
09:13:21.000 --> 09:13:25.680
unconscious mind and your body listens to what you say.

2962
09:13:28.000 --> 09:13:31.480
So for example, we'll test it out and do a

2963
09:13:31.519 --> 09:13:35.440
little test, a few little tests along the way, and

2964
09:13:35.599 --> 09:13:40.559
you can get more of an idea of the force,

2965
09:13:41.519 --> 09:13:48.239
a positive force that you can have in creating a

2966
09:13:48.440 --> 09:13:52.360
sense of comfort and relaxation in your body and your

2967
09:13:52.440 --> 09:14:01.760
mind quite quickly just by you telling yourself to relax.

2968
09:14:06.440 --> 09:14:10.080
So I'm going to start by it's focus on your hands.

2969
09:14:13.720 --> 09:14:15.879
So focus on your hands and just tell your hands

2970
09:14:16.279 --> 09:14:22.199
to relax, and just say relax. As you focus on

2971
09:14:22.319 --> 09:14:29.239
your hands, you could say my hands are relaxed, or

2972
09:14:29.319 --> 09:14:33.440
I want my hands to relax. I think if you

2973
09:14:33.559 --> 09:14:40.360
actually do it directly by focusing and imagining that your

2974
09:14:40.519 --> 09:14:44.319
hands can hear what you're saying. You know, they've got

2975
09:14:44.360 --> 09:14:50.080
little ears, which is a little weird. So talking to

2976
09:14:50.279 --> 09:15:07.319
your hands and just say relax. How your hands start

2977
09:15:07.440 --> 09:15:22.839
to relax. Now focus on your eyes and tell your

2978
09:15:22.879 --> 09:15:27.680
eyes to relax. You just say in the same word relax,

2979
09:15:29.160 --> 09:15:35.680
and find the right tone for you. You know, I

2980
09:15:35.839 --> 09:15:45.519
might say relax, but you you might say relax or relax.

2981
09:15:46.040 --> 09:15:50.080
You know, you might say it differently. To yourself, and

2982
09:15:51.199 --> 09:15:57.000
that's important for you to gauge what feels right for

2983
09:15:57.160 --> 09:16:03.879
you to just tell your eyes to relax whilst focusing

2984
09:16:03.959 --> 09:16:07.400
on your eyes, your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes,

2985
09:16:08.279 --> 09:16:45.199
your eyebrows, and just tell your eyes directly relax now. Now,

2986
09:16:45.199 --> 09:16:55.599
I just did that myself, and sometimes you may feel

2987
09:16:55.680 --> 09:17:00.839
that you need a bit more time for different parts

2988
09:17:00.919 --> 09:17:04.800
to relax, you know, because I started talking again and

2989
09:17:04.959 --> 09:17:09.919
maybe that part hasn't relaxed fully. But what happened is

2990
09:17:09.959 --> 09:17:12.720
that it would just continue to relax even though I'm talking.

2991
09:17:14.319 --> 09:17:20.120
And that's happened with my eyes. Something else I noticed

2992
09:17:20.239 --> 09:17:24.879
is when I started focusing on my eyes, that actually

2993
09:17:25.639 --> 09:17:28.480
almost became They got worse before they got better in

2994
09:17:28.559 --> 09:17:32.400
a way. So I felt a degree of tension growing

2995
09:17:32.480 --> 09:17:38.160
in my eyes and then disappearing. So I think what

2996
09:17:38.360 --> 09:17:41.239
that was really it was just me becoming more aware

2997
09:17:42.839 --> 09:17:47.440
of the tension that was already there that I wasn't.

2998
09:17:48.440 --> 09:17:52.319
I wasn't focused on it before, so I wasn't really

2999
09:17:53.080 --> 09:18:10.480
acknowledging it or really conscious to those feelings. Yeah, my

3000
09:18:10.599 --> 09:18:14.760
eyes is still continuing to relax, as well as my hands. Actually,

3001
09:18:18.239 --> 09:18:23.639
my hands have got a certain kind of energy like

3002
09:18:23.879 --> 09:18:29.040
not buzzing, but I can kind of fear a degree

3003
09:18:29.080 --> 09:18:35.000
of energy in my hands. Maybe that's where the tension

3004
09:18:35.160 --> 09:18:47.120
is being released. Maybe that's causing that. The next part,

3005
09:18:47.239 --> 09:18:49.400
I think we should focus on the back of the neck.

3006
09:18:50.080 --> 09:18:55.279
That's the part was quite often well for me, holds tension.

3007
09:18:55.319 --> 09:18:58.120
I don't know about for yourself, but I think it's

3008
09:18:58.199 --> 09:19:01.959
quite a stead and a place where at tension is

3009
09:19:02.040 --> 09:19:08.919
sometimes held. So and I'm doing exactly what you're doing

3010
09:19:09.360 --> 09:19:11.440
as you do it as well, so I'm telling my

3011
09:19:12.400 --> 09:19:15.800
body parts to relax as well. So if you tell

3012
09:19:15.839 --> 09:19:18.800
your neck the back of your neck, focus on the

3013
09:19:18.879 --> 09:19:25.519
back of your neck, and just say relax in your

3014
09:19:25.559 --> 09:19:28.519
own words, in your own tone, in your own voice.

3015
09:19:29.199 --> 09:19:31.239
You can say out loud, or you can just say

3016
09:19:31.239 --> 09:19:36.760
it to yourself internally. But you're focusing, and you're saying

3017
09:19:36.839 --> 09:19:41.040
it literally to the back of your neck, as if

3018
09:19:41.120 --> 09:19:44.760
the back of your neck can actually hear what you're saying.

3019
09:19:48.160 --> 09:19:51.760
So do that now, Just say relax, so the back

3020
09:19:51.800 --> 09:20:33.319
of your neck, and I'll do the same. Now, what

3021
09:20:33.639 --> 09:20:38.319
I noticed, and you may have had similar thing is

3022
09:20:39.120 --> 09:20:41.680
even though I was focusing on the back of my neck,

3023
09:20:46.720 --> 09:20:53.360
other parts started to I don't know show themselves to

3024
09:20:53.519 --> 09:20:56.839
me or maybe because they want to be relaxed as well.

3025
09:20:56.959 --> 09:21:01.800
But I started noticing the feelings and shoulders at tension

3026
09:21:01.879 --> 09:21:07.360
in my shoulders and in my upper back. Whether that

3027
09:21:07.639 --> 09:21:13.120
was because my back of my neck was saying I'm

3028
09:21:13.160 --> 09:21:18.000
pretty much okay, it's the other parts that need attention,

3029
09:21:24.400 --> 09:21:26.519
but my low of my back of my neck is

3030
09:21:26.599 --> 09:21:30.720
still relaxing. But I just became more aware of other

3031
09:21:30.879 --> 09:21:38.599
parts that needed attention. Now, this might happen and it's not.

3032
09:21:40.199 --> 09:21:42.720
It doesn't mean that it's going wrong. It just means

3033
09:21:43.559 --> 09:21:49.599
you're being notified with more places that also want to

3034
09:21:49.680 --> 09:21:56.760
feel relaxed. So I'm going to focus on my upper back.

3035
09:21:58.080 --> 09:22:01.800
So you can do the same even if you don't

3036
09:22:01.919 --> 09:22:06.839
have any feelings of tension that are obvious in your

3037
09:22:06.959 --> 09:22:10.959
upper back, if you just focus on your back and

3038
09:22:13.480 --> 09:22:18.319
the whole area from the shoulder blades down to the

3039
09:22:18.400 --> 09:22:22.599
middle of your back and your spine. And with me,

3040
09:22:22.720 --> 09:22:30.319
it's more the shoulder blades are more. Yeah, that's the

3041
09:22:30.480 --> 09:22:35.160
parts that really sort of given me.

3042
09:22:36.839 --> 09:22:37.199
The not.

3043
09:22:39.120 --> 09:22:41.919
That it needs relaxing, the sounds gonna ask that wad

3044
09:22:42.000 --> 09:22:56.680
to relax and you can do the same. Now relax

3045
09:22:56.800 --> 09:23:11.599
your upper back. There's something strange happened there.

3046
09:23:12.120 --> 09:23:12.400
And this.

3047
09:23:13.879 --> 09:23:20.080
Often happens. I've been doing this for sixteen years or something,

3048
09:23:20.839 --> 09:23:29.680
and often I'm I'm surprised, but amazed really that there

3049
09:23:29.720 --> 09:23:34.000
can be a feeling. So, when I was focusing on

3050
09:23:34.080 --> 09:23:38.080
the back of my neck, my upper back was starting

3051
09:23:38.160 --> 09:23:44.519
to feel quite stressed and in need of attention. As

3052
09:23:44.559 --> 09:23:47.839
soon as I started talking to you about my upper

3053
09:23:47.919 --> 09:23:53.120
back and talking about, you know, getting ready to ask

3054
09:23:53.440 --> 09:23:58.760
the upper back to relax, mia back already started to relax.

3055
09:24:01.480 --> 09:24:04.599
It's almost as if it doesn't need to hear the words,

3056
09:24:05.599 --> 09:24:23.559
just needs intention, just needs to be noticed. That is

3057
09:24:23.720 --> 09:24:31.080
something that often happens in this type of situation is

3058
09:24:31.279 --> 09:24:36.440
when you start to relax a couple of parts of

3059
09:24:36.519 --> 09:24:41.720
your body, as we've done with our hands, our eyes

3060
09:24:41.919 --> 09:24:51.199
and eyelids, and now back of the neck, top of

3061
09:24:51.279 --> 09:24:56.800
the back, upper back, the rest of the body seems

3062
09:24:56.839 --> 09:25:04.480
to just take notice and decide in its own way

3063
09:25:05.720 --> 09:25:12.760
to start relaxing. Other parts of your body start to

3064
09:25:13.040 --> 09:25:22.000
just become looser. I suppose it's kind of like a

3065
09:25:22.080 --> 09:25:26.239
bit of an avalanche, you know, the little ball starts

3066
09:25:26.400 --> 09:25:29.639
rolling before you know it, the whole of your body

3067
09:25:29.800 --> 09:25:41.959
is completely relaxed and can't and I can focus on

3068
09:25:42.040 --> 09:25:54.400
your face. You focus on your eyes, your eyelids, your eyebrows,

3069
09:25:54.639 --> 09:26:03.639
and the muscles around your eyes. Maybe you start to

3070
09:26:03.800 --> 09:26:08.680
notice that your forehead is more relaxed than it was.

3071
09:26:10.760 --> 09:26:16.120
Maybe your face is more relaxed. I would say my

3072
09:26:16.440 --> 09:26:20.319
entire face is a lot more relaxed than it was.

3073
09:26:31.599 --> 09:26:37.400
So we're going to focus now on your shoulders again,

3074
09:26:37.639 --> 09:26:42.639
just like before. Just tell your shoulders and you can

3075
09:26:42.800 --> 09:26:45.319
do them individually. You can do the right shoulder and

3076
09:26:45.400 --> 09:26:49.720
left shoulder. I just generally do both at the same time.

3077
09:26:51.519 --> 09:26:54.919
And just tell your shoulders as you focus on them

3078
09:26:55.000 --> 09:26:59.519
in your mind, focus on that how they feel. Maybe

3079
09:27:00.919 --> 09:27:07.519
you can see them in your mind's on. Just tell

3080
09:27:07.559 --> 09:28:02.279
your shoulders to relax as nice if they relax. But

3081
09:28:02.319 --> 09:28:11.239
I do notice, especially with my back, is the connection

3082
09:28:11.519 --> 09:28:17.040
between the different parts the back, with shoulders, the neck

3083
09:28:22.599 --> 09:28:27.000
being all connected and being such a large part of

3084
09:28:27.120 --> 09:28:33.400
your body, it's always hard to separate them from each other.

3085
09:28:39.120 --> 09:28:41.720
My lower back is starting to relax on its own.

3086
09:28:47.919 --> 09:28:52.639
Maybe I'm going too slow, and that could be an

3087
09:28:52.680 --> 09:29:00.160
issue because we all go at different speeds and the

3088
09:29:00.279 --> 09:29:03.160
idea of the beginning of this recording was for you

3089
09:29:03.360 --> 09:29:18.199
to be able to just say to yourself, relax without

3090
09:29:18.400 --> 09:29:24.680
focusing on any particular part of your body. Because when

3091
09:29:24.720 --> 09:29:34.519
you know that telling your hands to relax and your

3092
09:29:34.760 --> 09:29:43.440
hand relax, you tell your eyelids and your eyes and

3093
09:29:43.599 --> 09:29:53.760
muscles around your eyes and your eyebrows to relax, and

3094
09:29:53.879 --> 09:30:06.760
they relax. You tell the back of your neck relax

3095
09:30:11.559 --> 09:30:29.559
and it relaxes. You tell your upper back to relax,

3096
09:30:39.360 --> 09:30:50.319
and it relaxes. You tell your shoulders.

3097
09:30:51.599 --> 09:31:03.760
To relax, and they relax.

3098
09:31:27.480 --> 09:31:31.519
You told your hands to relax, they relaxed, and they

3099
09:31:31.639 --> 09:31:45.239
continued to relax. When you told your eyelids, the muscles

3100
09:31:45.319 --> 09:31:55.760
around your eyes, your eyebrows to relax, they relaxed and

3101
09:31:56.080 --> 09:32:06.760
continue to relax. When you told at the back of

3102
09:32:06.839 --> 09:32:13.839
your neck, pocus on the back of your neck and

3103
09:32:14.080 --> 09:32:25.680
told it to relax, it relaxed and continued to relax.

3104
09:32:33.879 --> 09:32:42.959
When you told your ulpa back to relax, be relaxed

3105
09:32:43.599 --> 09:32:59.879
and continued to relax. That's with your shoulders. He told

3106
09:32:59.879 --> 09:33:08.279
you shoulders to relax, and your shoulders relaxed and continued

3107
09:33:13.400 --> 09:33:14.120
to relax.

3108
09:33:19.800 --> 09:33:24.720
And it's not just that, it's.

3109
09:33:27.400 --> 09:33:31.839
That the rest of your body has also been listening,

3110
09:33:33.519 --> 09:33:39.599
and their relaxation has been spreading. So from your eyes,

3111
09:33:39.959 --> 09:33:47.360
the relaxation spread to your forehead, round your face, into

3112
09:33:47.440 --> 09:34:01.400
your skin, into your jaw, into fronts, the side of

3113
09:34:01.519 --> 09:34:13.000
your leck, ill way down your chest and stomach. Your

3114
09:34:13.040 --> 09:34:21.279
relaxed hands and shoulders meet up through your arms, relaxing

3115
09:34:23.239 --> 09:34:32.559
and full arms, your upper arms, elbows, your wrists, let

3116
09:34:32.680 --> 09:34:47.400
it go, get a lower bag, your hips, buttons growing,

3117
09:34:49.239 --> 09:34:56.080
or just start to relax and continue even more, comfort

3118
09:34:57.720 --> 09:35:07.120
spreading through your legs all the way down to your ankles,

3119
09:35:12.319 --> 09:35:16.400
the tops of your feet, the sight of your feet,

3120
09:35:18.199 --> 09:35:29.080
and the bottoms of your feet relaxing into your toes.

3121
09:35:32.919 --> 09:35:57.720
Each tone relaxing cal is and as your body relaxes more,

3122
09:35:58.279 --> 09:36:24.599
your mind becomes slower, peaceful, to the point where if

3123
09:36:24.959 --> 09:36:36.839
you choose to fall asleep, you can easily do that

3124
09:36:42.519 --> 09:36:52.559
easy drift the way because there's nothing going on in

3125
09:36:52.639 --> 09:37:13.599
your mind. Your brain is peaceful, your body continues to rise,

3126
09:37:37.440 --> 09:37:43.480
and with that connection between your body relaxing, the word

3127
09:37:44.800 --> 09:37:57.239
do you say to yourself relas means that you don't

3128
09:37:57.519 --> 09:38:03.919
need to focus on just one part, You can just

3129
09:38:04.160 --> 09:38:21.800
focus on your entire body, saying the powerful word who acts,

3130
09:38:31.519 --> 09:38:47.160
And there's those familiar sensations of comfort spreading throughout your body,

3131
09:38:52.639 --> 09:39:03.879
listening and calming and healing every part to your body.

3132
09:39:06.879 --> 09:39:31.080
Feeding relaxed. So all you need to do that one

3133
09:39:31.319 --> 09:39:54.120
is just tell yourself relax, sir, feeding completely. Come for

3134
09:39:54.239 --> 09:40:14.839
the boy, Come starting now with number twenty.

3135
09:40:21.839 --> 09:40:58.080
Nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen.

3136
09:41:14.319 --> 09:42:43.559
Fifty four eight too well.

3137
09:44:25.879 --> 09:50:22.680
Chi us us eighths usu