July 8, 2025

(music) (10 hours) KARATE | Monday’s Boring Objects | LMBYTS #1389 | Jason Newland | 7th July 2025

(music) (10 hours) KARATE | Monday’s Boring Objects | LMBYTS #1389 | Jason Newland | 7th July 2025
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Hello, and welcome to jasonnew Land dot com. My name's

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Jason Newland. Please only listen when you can safely close

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shop eyes. I'm here with little Vinnie's laying by my side,

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and I'm sitting in my well on my sofa. But

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it's basically it's it's a reclining sofa, but there's two

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parts that recline. I'm in one part that reclines, and

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he's next to me. So I'll give you I mean,

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this is going to be my days boring objects, but

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i'll give you Anne you'd give you a little bit

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of an update on Uncle Sausages, my neighbor. Just let

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you know, I won't. You know, I'm not going to

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talk about it for any length of time, but I'll

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just give you a basic update. So I'm still visiting

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him in hospital. He is now awaiting to find out

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if he's able to come home with some kind of

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care plan or whether he needed to go into a

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nursing home. So it's going to just you know, I'm

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going to see I'm going to start clearing up his flat,

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tidying up and cleaning it, making it a bit more

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ready if he does get the opportunity to return and yeah,

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that's it. Really. I went there today, spoke to the

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pallative palliative nurse or palliative care nurse, spoke to the

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Oh do they call them therapist? Not universal, not unisex,

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not ambilical. I'm trying to think what the name is.

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But basically, what they do is they check him, see

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what he's capable of physically, and to get a layer

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of the land. Really, I suppose, so hopefully he's been

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had those meetings today. I spoke to them this morning,

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but they're going to come back and see him later

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on in the day and I left just before one o'clock.

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So I'll give him a call tomorrow find out how

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he's getting on. It's not always easy to actually hear

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what he's saying because he wants to be private. So

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when he's talking to me about I guess serious things,

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he whispers and I can't hear him even in the hospital.

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I have to get really close to him because he

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talks so so quietly. So yeah, just see, just wait

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and see tomorrow. Oh God, I will stop you ordering

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in a minute. Don't worry. Tomorrow. I'll do a little

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bit on his flat. Just I want to organize some

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of his stuff. He's got lots of diaries from years ago.

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Some can put them into one drawer important stuff. Put

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all his letters into another place, you know, because there's

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things like darted all around the place. And might have

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to get rid of his chair in the setti. He

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needs a new chair. He needs a new bed. He

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hasn't slept in his bed for years, I don't think

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because it's I think it's broken, but he's been sleeping

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in his chair, which is also really really just it

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needs to be removed.

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Yeah.

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He also needs a fridge because he hasn't got fridge.

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So there's a few little bits I need to try

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and organize for him. But I'll do it with him.

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I'm not just going to do it, you know myself.

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I'm gonna just confirm that that's what he wants as

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I go along. So I need to try and find

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him a fridge, freezer, a cheap one to put in

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his kitchen, and then once I've kind of tied it up,

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I'll then look at maybe trying to find him a chair,

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some kind of yeah, just some kind of chair that

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will be comfortable for him. Hmmm. It's going to be

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a bit weird though, because I don't know what he's

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gonna find comfortable, because it's not all chairs. It's nice

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to sit in a chair, isn't it first before buying

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it or you know, and it won't be a new chair,

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or it be a new chair which is cheap, like

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from Amazon or something. But then the problem with that

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is getting it into the flat. Although the one he's

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got now, I'm not sure how he got it in

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because it's quite a big thing. So I'm probably what

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I'll do is perhaps measure that chair and try and

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get one the same kind of size, perhaps from second

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hand shop or something, and it's it's not gonna it's

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weird to say this, but it's not going to be

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needed for long. This is weird to say that out loud.

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But and I'll ask him what he wants to do.

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He might want to buy a brand new chair, and

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I would, you know. Just one thinking of doing is

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if he does come out moving my TV into his

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flat so he has a big TV to watch because

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he loves watching sport, and I'll get all the sports

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packages that he wants that he needs so that he

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can pretty much watch whatever he wants and he can

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still have his other TV there as well, which is

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very quite small, so he can watch I'd be like

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Granddad from Only Fools and Horses, I have more than

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one TV at the same time, so that might be

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something that he'd like. But I am thinking of doing

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that to moving my TV temporarily into his flat so

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he can watch the big TV. Get them a new

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chair or a second end chair, get them a new bed,

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and outside of that, it's you know, it also depends

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what kind of bed he's going to need, because at

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some point they're going to need to have equipment in

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their hoists and he might have to have a special bed,

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you know. So it really I don't know at this

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point it's going to It's it's just it's a guessing

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game at this point, really. But if he does come

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home rather than into a care home, then I'm going

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to do everything I can to make it as comfortable

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and enjoyable, I suppose as possible so that you can

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have the best time. If that makes any sense, I

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don't know. It kind of makes sense when I say

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it out loud, but at the same time, it also

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seems like a ridiculous thing to say, just bearing considering

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the circumstances. I mean, but anyway, I'll do whatever I

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can to help. He did buy me, he bought me

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a sausage roll and a drink. Today we went into

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Costers and he brought his card down with him and

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he bought He sort of treated me, and he really

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felt good about it. He seemed to really be happy

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about that. And he brought me some chocolates, a couple

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of crunchy bars in W. H. Smith and he got

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himself a couple of chocolate bars. And he seemed in

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really good spirits today, really quite more energetic. Hmm. And

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another thing is we I said to him, well, you're

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gonna want to if you want to come home, then

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we've got to stop taking the lift and I have

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to start using the stairs now, because you need to

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prove to yourself as well as the people here, really,

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but you definitely need to prove to yourself that you

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can do the stairs. So we did walk up and

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down the stairs. It's only two little sets of stairs.

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I mean, there's probably there's more stairs here than there

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is in each little set, So there's probably one and

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a half the amount of stairs steps. So yeah, i'd

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say maybe fifty percent more steps than here. It's just

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not a lot. There's not a lot of steps here either,

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And he was cool and he did it fine. He

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is a little bit. I think he's a bit unsteady

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on his feet anyway, just generally with age, he's a

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little bit. He's a little bit more careful than he

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used to be. But at the same time, I think

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because he's been off his feet pretty much nearly solidly

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for over two weeks, he's you know, he hasn't had

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that circulation, that blood circulation in his legs that we

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all kind of get used to, I suppose when we're

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walking around a bit and he's and plus he's on

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medication now, so yeah, it's just okay. I don't know

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how that's going to affect him, but it was. It

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was weird. Weird figure we figured about it. It was

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pulling me out the way of people that were walking through.

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So he was. He was in a bit of a

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bossy mood today. It was funny. So yeah, that was

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quite good. I just figured though, if you want to

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come home, you're going to have to deal with the stairs,

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so we might as well do the stairs now. So

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when I see him next time I see him do

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the stairs again. If he's able to, I mean, I'm

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not I'm not forcing him. You can't force him to

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do anything. He only does what he wants to do.

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It just made sense really to test it out for him.

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And I was there with him anyways, who wasn't going

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to fall and there's there's a banister all the way around.

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So yeah, he had something for dinner today that was awful.

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It was really bad. It was just mush with It

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was supposed to be chicken and potatoes with gravy, and

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all you could see this is white stuff with gravy.

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And he'd had a hot sausage roll about an hour earlier,

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and he phoned me up later on. So I'm so

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thankful we had that sausage roll because that dinner was awful.

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And even the lady that delivered the sausage roll up

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that delivered the meal, she bought the tray in put

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it on to to take the bedside table thing you

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know that they have, and she she said to uncle sausages,

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She said, right, I don't know what you're going to

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think about this really, and she pulled the lid off

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because of a lot of metal lid thing pulled that off,

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the kind of things you see in like expensive restaurants

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that you pull it off. And she was on my

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laughing at the plate of the contents because she knew

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it was just wrong. She said, well, I'm allowed to

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be honest, like, wow, it was Yeah, it really wasn't good.

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I mean, I don't know what it tastes like. I

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didn't eat it. It might have been fine, but if you, yeah,

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it didn't look great. But then really, he's eating better

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than I am. He's getting he's eating four times a day,

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and they do have the calorie intake in the vitamins.

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They have it all very very well balanced meals. I

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don't know what they taste like. It's been a long

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time since I had a hospital food. I was twelve

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the last time. But yeah, I'd probably end up putting

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weight on. If I was eating four times a day

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cooked food. Well, I suppose breakfast is like cereal, but

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other than that it's cooked, and I was just sitting

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around or in bed, I'd probably put weight on. Yeah, probably,

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which in some situations is possibly needed with some people.

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Perhaps putting a bit of weight on is a good thing,

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but it wouldn't be a good thing for me, I

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don't need extra weight. Of all the things I need,

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that's not at the top of the list right now,

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and what else, Yes, So I s it. Really, I'm

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just waiting to see what happens, to find out what's

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happening with him. So at the moment, Uncle's Sausages is

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still in hospital, he's I realize this is going to

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sound weird, Like most things I say probably sound weird,

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but I kind of realized what it is about him

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that kind of grabs me a little bit emotionally. And

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I noticed this. I noticed this before, long before he

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was unwell, but I kind of ignored it. But what

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it is, he's got the same smile as my name.

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His eyes have the same smiley eyes as my name had.

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It's a weird, weird thing. I know they say smiling

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Irish eyes, smiling and that, but technically Scottish. But he's

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got the same kind of eyes as my name. It's

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it's weird as my name had. So maybe that's what

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it is. I kind of just when I see it

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looks at me the way my name used to look

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at me. You know, that look was sort of like,

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please leave me alone? Who are you? How did you

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get into my house. You know that that look stop

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eating all my biscuits. Right, So that's an update on there.

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I did a Q and A Friday, and I don't

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know if you realize, if you've listened to it or not,

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it was four four and a half hours long. The longest, Yeah,

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the longest recording I've ever done, I think, as in

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it was the whole episode was I think four nineteen minutes,

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nothing else added, just me doing the Q and A Friday.

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If that's a long recording, very much so this will

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not be that. This will be a standard standard length recording. Oh,

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I think my I just did some laundry, did some laundry. No, yesterday,

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I did some laundry, all my T shirts and my

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shirts and because I just kind of ran out because

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I didn't go in on Sunday, so I did them

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on Sundays. I did my laundry. I've done my tracksuit

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bombs because I've got seven pairs and underwear. I've done

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that now. So it's from the sound of it, it's done.

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But it's weird because I'm sure I only only put

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it on about an hour ago. It normally takes longer

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than an hour to finish up, but maybe not. Maybe

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it was longer. Maybe yeah, ah, because I think it's

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eight o'clock now and I put it on about quarter

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past six, so that, well, I guess that would make

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sense to finished now. So I hang them up when

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I've done this, and that will pretty much be all

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the lawn we've done now. And I told Uncle Sausages

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that I was gonna to get some like start washing

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some of his stuff because he's got some clothes that

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have been in the closet for I don't know how long.

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So what I do is I sought through it and

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maybe wash it and just so it's there so when

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he comes back he can just choose to, you know,

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wear what he wants and it will be clean. So

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that's that's another thing I'll do. If we do that

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last though, I'll leave that to the last last thing

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to do. Yeah. Yeah, he's got a brand new kitchen

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and they got a brand new bathroom that he hasn't

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even seen yet, and he saw part of it because

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they were in the middle of doing it. I think

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they just finished the the first week. YE had the

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first week of doing the bathroom because they started on

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Tuesday and the Fridays when he went into hospital, and

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then he came back the next week doing stuff and

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they might have yeah, so they finished it last week.

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He didn't get to see the finished result. And he

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had a brand new kitchen done about two months ago,

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three months ago, and he's got new windows coming as

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well in the next few months. So it's h hmm,

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you need to get rid of that wallpaper. I'm not

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going to, but it's the wall papers. I think the

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war paper is there before he moved in, because I

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think back in them days they didn't because when I

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moved in there, everything was bare. You know, there's nothing

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in the walls. It was just white walls, no carpet,

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no furniture, which I think is standard anyway. But I

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think when he moved in, there was war paper already

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there and they just left the wallpaper as it was.

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And he's lived here for thirty years. I'm just thinking,

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imagine if that's me in twenty five years, and I've

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got a neighbor coming into my flat looking for my stuff.

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I mean, I'm not looking for his stuff, but I

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had to look for something because he asked me to

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look for something. Put my money in there, because he

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asked me, I don't go into people's homes without him

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actually wanted me to do it. And I told him

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anytime I goes in, I goes in there, anytime I

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go in now and tell him and why. And he

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wanted me to look for some money because he had

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forty pounds in cash it wanted me to get for him.

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And it was in a I don't know where it

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was I found. I did find it in the end,

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but I can hear the washing machine. It's doing the

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old tumble bit, you know, the like that is that

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the draining, draining the water out, something like that. I

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don't know, summit simula. Raining today was raining, proper raining.

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So I got a taxi there because it was raining.

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I just didn't want to get wet. But I got

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two buses back. So I got the busses back because

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I thought, now this is just getting this is weird, Okay,

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this is this is just interrupted myself. Then the cost

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of a taxi to the hospital from where I live

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and back again. You know, So each journey either there

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or the journey back is around seventeen pound. At the weekend,

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it was more. It's a Saturday, seventeen sixty and the

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other person wanted eighteen pound forty or something, so it

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varies on a Saturday. But I've just been given them

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twenty pounds, you know, with a tip, twenty pound. And

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I've done that with every single taxi driver up till today.

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But today's taxi driver didn't want it. He wouldn't take

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it because I was paying on a card and he said, no,

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it's seventeen pound and he wouldn't take a tip. He wasn't.

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He was like really friendly taxi driver, but he said

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he didn't want it. He didn't. It's like, wow, okay,

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that was surprising because I've just automatically just said just

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take twenty pounds because just I don't know, it just

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seems the right thing to do. I'm not even going

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to work out how much. Oh Christine, just a big

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thank you to Christine for your PayPal gift. Thank you,

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thank you very much. I did send a message to you.

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Thank you. Well. Oh you know again. A taxi towards

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the hospital went round a corner from where I lived,

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and the taxi slowed down, and this pigeon was in

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the middle of the road, just standing there looking at us.

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Had attitude. Honestly, just like walked very slowly to the curb.

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Nothing wrong with it. It was just really like driver

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around me. Who do you think you are? I always

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here first? This is my manner, real, real attitude on it.

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This pigeon, Yeah, it's like King of the Pigeons or something. Yeah,

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all right, I should do Monday's boring objects. I've only

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been talking for half an hour. I should get on

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with it, really, shouldn't.

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I you.

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What have I not talked about? Though? Because I've done

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so many of these? Is there some object that I've

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not talked about that maybe I could talk about. I'm

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going to talk about karate. I know I've talked about

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martial arts and different things I've done, but I want

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to talk about you, and we'll talk about karate specifically

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the karate I did when I was at school and

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how I ended up doing it and so I didn't

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do it for long, only a few years or cup

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to and a half years or something. But yeah, I'll

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go through that. Let's do that, because I've never really

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I don't think I ever well, I probably have, but

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I don't recall going in depth into the karate situation,

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but saying that I probably have. But I'll do it

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again anyway. It will be different this time, I'll be better.

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It will be different. This time, it will work out. Okay,

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I've looked for my mistakes, so I don't actually remember

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which particlarly year it was, but I'm guessing I was

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probably thirty. Yeah, thirty would be probably the age where

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I because I was in the Secredets from eleven to

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for about it's about twelve and a half in fact,

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before I was eleven, and then I left there because

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I didn't like it. I started doing karate. So basically

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what happened is I was at school with my friend Stephan,

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and he was just saying, Oh, I'm going to go tonight.

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I'm going to go and see the karate because his

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brother had started doing karate and loved it so and

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because his brother was so excited I think as Paul

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his name was. Because his brother was so excited and

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enthusiastic in that, Stephan became a little bit interested because

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it was his younger brother that was doing it, like

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a year younger pretty much, So he said I'm going

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to go. Because it was in a different high school

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to the one that we were going to, there was

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two high schools in that town. There was nothing about

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high school those kind of sports or anything. I don't think, unless,

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of course there was. I don't think there was. There

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might have been no. I think that they might have

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had judo there. I kind of wish i'd done judo

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as well, but hey, so it was on different nights

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of the week because karate. He was a Tuesday Thursday,

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and I think they had judo on Monday and Wednesday.

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So I said to Stephan, Oi, Stephan, can I come along.

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All he was going to do is go there and

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just watch the evening. So his brother was already there.

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We rolled up. Unless we went I might have got

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a lift. I don't even know. I might got a

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lift with him with his family and got dropped off there.

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Or I might have walked up there with him and

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his brother. I really am not sure. Or I might

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just rolled up on my own and him and his

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brother was already there. It's a little bit, but he

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did say it's okay for me to come along. I

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don't technically I could do what I wanted, but you know,

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it just seems a nice thing to do, just to say,

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you don't mind if I hang along, Because I didn't.

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The thing is right, I wanted to do karate when

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I was a young kid, when I was younger, when

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I was like, I asked my dad and he said no, basically,

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and this is when I was twelve eleven. He said no.

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There was no ifs or buts like no. I don't

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know why, because he did judo when he was at school,

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so I don't know why he didn't want me to

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do martial arts. Anyway, at thirteen, I just did it.

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I didn't ask him. I just went along and he so.

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My friend Stephen was there. I still kind of remember it.

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We sat on these long do you know those long

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benches they're having gym gymnasiums. There are long seats like wooden,

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and maybe people sit on them when they're watching other

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people performing or whatever, doing football or whatever. I don't know,

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and sometimes you use them to jump over and stuff.

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I kind of can I know what I'm imagining in

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my head. I just don't know what the correct term

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is for them. Just benches probably probably they call them benches.

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And they were all stacked up on the well as

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you go into the door of the of the gym,

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because it was at the big gym in the school.

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As you go into the doorway, on the left hand

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side was all the benches and the rest of the room,

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big old room was used for the karate So me

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and Stephane were sitting on this on the benches, watching

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But I didn't even know whose brother was. I don't

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think I've ever met him before, even though I'd been

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to school with Stefann right from junior school. So I'd

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spent two years at junior school and then well was

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it what year would it be, two thousand and no,

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two thousand, Well, nineteen eighty No, nineteen seventy nine. So

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from nineteen seventy nine to nineteen eighty six I was

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at school with Stefan, so I knew him that whole time,

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and I would say I was pretty good friends. We

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never hung out outside of school, but we always got

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on really well in school. It's just one of those things.

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So anyway, I went along with him. He was one

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of the toughest kids in the school in the year. Well,

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in fact, probably I was best friends. I was good

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friends with two of the toughest kids, Carl and Stephan.

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They just happened to be I wasn't friends with him

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for that reason. They just one I was one I

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was friends with because he was also in the I

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guess they used to call it the dancers class, which

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was wrong. They shouldn't have done that. But we were

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taken out. Anyone that was disruptive or didn't do what

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they were supposed to do, or showed no sign of

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intelligence in my case, was taken out of the normal

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classes and put into this special room with toys and stuff,

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and we could just do whatever we wanted for a

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few hours. And we did do whatever we wanted. I mean,

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it's probably fair to say that we were going to

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do whatever we wanted anyway, but we got free reign

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to do that. And it was a probably about out

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of the whole year, yeah, because I did it by year.

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Didn't have anyone in other years in now I don't

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think so there's probably there might have been other people

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from other years, but this is in the first year.

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I think it only happened in the first year. So

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we had probably about I'm trying to remember the people,

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me her eight, at least eight people that I could remember.

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There may have been, so there's there's me. There was

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a pretty about eight maybe more of us three girls

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and five boys, one two, I don't know, maybe four boys.

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So there's about eight, maybe a little bit more. And

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so I got to know these people separately from the

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rest of the year and because they were the well

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I say they, but they kind of were the most

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the biggest trouble makers. Technically they're all okay actually, but

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they because they didn't go along with what they were

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supposed to go along with. Spose they were classes the

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rough kids and but they weren't really they were tough,

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but they were just just kids just like me. And

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so I was in that group. So I got to

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know that I kind of became part of that group.

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It's the only group I really became part of. But

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that was just for the first year. And after that

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we all kind of separated, but still, you know, knew

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each other and I knew them, and some of them

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had known from junior school. Anyway, anyway, what was my

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point mentioning that? Oh, yeah, just there was a point too,

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I can't remember. So I went to anyway, Stephan I

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went to this to the Crier Club. It was either

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Tuesday or or a Thursday evening, and I think it

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was seven till nine, I think, or it might have

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been seven thirty till nine. I don't recall if it

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was summer or winter, or spring or autumn. I don't know.

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It wouldn't have been summer because they closed during the summer.

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When the school was closed, no karate, which meant we

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would train in a park. We'd all meet up and

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train in the park and stuff. And also half term

471
00:38:45.920 --> 00:38:47.880
it was always nice to have a break, you know,

472
00:38:49.159 --> 00:38:56.360
have a bit of a break from it all. Yeah,

473
00:38:56.400 --> 00:39:04.199
so I was there. What was weird is, first of all,

474
00:39:04.199 --> 00:39:07.679
I was impressed. I mean, I suppose it's obvious cause

475
00:39:07.719 --> 00:39:12.039
I I went back, but I was really impressed at

476
00:39:12.039 --> 00:39:15.280
what I saw. But I also found it funny because

477
00:39:17.159 --> 00:39:22.519
there was a really tough kid there who was the

478
00:39:22.599 --> 00:39:26.199
toughest kid in the year below us. But he was

479
00:39:26.480 --> 00:39:32.440
known for every everyone was kind of he he was.

480
00:39:33.280 --> 00:39:36.320
It was like a little Mike Tyson. That's before Mike

481
00:39:36.360 --> 00:39:41.599
Tyson was even famous, you know, So he was he

482
00:39:41.639 --> 00:39:43.760
was doing that. It was basically a little bit of

483
00:39:43.760 --> 00:39:51.880
a terror. And so this would be in probably the

484
00:39:51.880 --> 00:39:56.039
third year school, so I'd known him for a couple

485
00:39:56.039 --> 00:40:04.559
of years or whatever, and he was there and he

486
00:40:04.639 --> 00:40:07.800
looked silly because he was just starting out, so he

487
00:40:07.840 --> 00:40:10.280
didn't know what he was doing. So I so used

488
00:40:10.280 --> 00:40:15.719
to him walking around flexing his muscles and trying to

489
00:40:15.760 --> 00:40:22.920
be a bully boy. And I saw him and he

490
00:40:22.960 --> 00:40:27.000
couldn't even punch properly in karate. I knew he could

491
00:40:27.000 --> 00:40:29.519
punch properly because I'd seen him, but he was more

492
00:40:29.519 --> 00:40:31.599
of a boxer. But the fact he was doing that,

493
00:40:31.639 --> 00:40:36.440
and I just it was quite amusing. And there's no

494
00:40:36.480 --> 00:40:38.199
reason why he would be any good because he was

495
00:40:38.280 --> 00:40:41.400
just starting, and no one's any good when they just

496
00:40:41.440 --> 00:40:45.679
start unless they've done it before. But it was quite

497
00:40:45.920 --> 00:40:49.119
I don't know, just I found it. It tickled me

498
00:40:49.159 --> 00:40:54.639
a little bit. I didn't tell him because because I'm

499
00:40:54.639 --> 00:41:02.079
not silly anyway, he didn't look at it, but he

500
00:41:02.199 --> 00:41:08.000
went along. He was best friends with Stephan's brother, who

501
00:41:08.079 --> 00:41:12.920
was also one of the tough kids. The thing is

502
00:41:12.960 --> 00:41:16.159
with Stephan and his brother, they were tough, but they

503
00:41:16.159 --> 00:41:23.239
didn't act tough. They were almost like adults around kids,

504
00:41:24.199 --> 00:41:29.039
you know. They just didn't take any rubbish. And they

505
00:41:28.840 --> 00:41:34.280
they were very physically mature. They were literally like physically

506
00:41:34.320 --> 00:41:39.320
adults before most of the other kids were. And they

507
00:41:39.360 --> 00:41:47.840
were both be glad and they had. Their mentality was

508
00:41:47.880 --> 00:41:52.679
also quite adult as well, so they weren't really like kids.

509
00:41:52.760 --> 00:41:55.679
He was never Stephan was never like a kid really.

510
00:41:56.360 --> 00:41:59.199
He was also really always had his head on his shoulders,

511
00:42:00.079 --> 00:42:02.840
was very mature. We used to have a good old laugh.

512
00:42:04.159 --> 00:42:08.800
But at the same time he was very intelligent, as

513
00:42:08.840 --> 00:42:12.559
his brother was as well. They sort of they knew

514
00:42:12.559 --> 00:42:17.760
what they wanted to do. And yeah, I remember one once.

515
00:42:17.920 --> 00:42:24.039
I was in the school yard and the year below,

516
00:42:25.760 --> 00:42:29.719
so not the year below me, but the year below him.

517
00:42:29.840 --> 00:42:33.079
So two years below this kid who was the toughest

518
00:42:33.119 --> 00:42:35.599
kid in that year and also one of the toughest

519
00:42:35.679 --> 00:42:38.480
kids in the school, they gained another big one and

520
00:42:38.519 --> 00:42:41.679
grew bigger than everyone else in that he jumped on

521
00:42:41.800 --> 00:42:46.599
me and pinned me to the ground. To the ground.

522
00:42:48.000 --> 00:42:51.639
Now this is where me and Stephan's brother and Stephane,

523
00:42:51.639 --> 00:42:55.119
we were doing karate at this point. Stephane had left,

524
00:42:55.800 --> 00:42:58.760
so I got to know his brother really well from

525
00:42:58.760 --> 00:43:03.880
the karate. So this this lad jumped on me and

526
00:43:04.000 --> 00:43:10.920
pinned my arms down. And like I probably didn't weigh

527
00:43:10.960 --> 00:43:14.800
more than eight stone at the time, if that, he

528
00:43:14.880 --> 00:43:23.039
probably weighed about twelve thirteen stone. Probably he was a

529
00:43:23.079 --> 00:43:28.679
big big, strong lad. Yeah, at least twelve stone, at

530
00:43:28.760 --> 00:43:33.880
least four stone heavy than me. And I didn't know

531
00:43:33.880 --> 00:43:36.840
what to do. I mean I could like cause I

532
00:43:36.880 --> 00:43:38.360
was in shock because I didn't know who was going

533
00:43:38.400 --> 00:43:41.360
to do it. None had ever done that to me before,

534
00:43:41.400 --> 00:43:50.400
I don't think, not recently anyway, And I'm like, oh,

535
00:43:51.000 --> 00:43:52.880
and then out of the corner of my eye, well,

536
00:43:52.920 --> 00:43:54.800
actually I was gonna say, I heard out the corner

537
00:43:54.800 --> 00:43:56.960
of my eye, you can't hear how if you like,

538
00:43:57.039 --> 00:44:01.239
can you not even the corner his voice? And it

539
00:44:01.280 --> 00:44:04.920
was Stephan's brother that I was at great with. He

540
00:44:05.079 --> 00:44:09.519
just shouted out, get off him. Now. He did, just

541
00:44:09.599 --> 00:44:13.960
stood up, sorry and ran off. And that was the

542
00:44:13.960 --> 00:44:18.480
toughest kid in the whole of his year. But as

543
00:44:18.559 --> 00:44:24.119
soon as Paul said get off him, he did. It

544
00:44:24.199 --> 00:44:28.280
was weird, It's like, and both of them were younger

545
00:44:28.320 --> 00:44:34.599
than me, but I was like a little kid. I

546
00:44:34.639 --> 00:44:41.559
was so underdeveloped in a sense. When I left school

547
00:44:41.880 --> 00:44:46.199
at fifteen, I was eight and a half stone. I

548
00:44:46.239 --> 00:44:49.880
don't know what that is in pounds or kilos, but

549
00:44:51.400 --> 00:44:53.800
I do know what it is roughly in kilos, it's

550
00:44:53.800 --> 00:45:00.880
about fifty kilos ish. Sixteen stone is around one hundred

551
00:45:00.960 --> 00:45:05.119
kilos ish, so I was around like, I don't know,

552
00:45:05.320 --> 00:45:13.559
forty eight kilos, maybe fifty kilos, which burning mind. Technically

553
00:45:13.599 --> 00:45:16.079
I was an adult and I was probably the same

554
00:45:16.159 --> 00:45:23.559
weight when I was sixteen seventeen. I might got I

555
00:45:23.559 --> 00:45:26.519
think I went up to about nine stone when I

556
00:45:26.559 --> 00:45:30.159
was about eighteen, like, you know, so I was very light,

557
00:45:31.519 --> 00:45:39.119
like really really super slim, but naturally didn't matter. Whatever

558
00:45:39.239 --> 00:45:43.559
I ate didn't make a difference. I just was slim,

559
00:45:43.800 --> 00:45:48.679
you know, just the way it was. And I looked

560
00:45:48.760 --> 00:45:53.280
nothing like my dad physically, because my dad's strong, broad,

561
00:45:53.920 --> 00:46:02.159
big bloke always was. But then in older age, once

562
00:46:02.199 --> 00:46:08.039
I hit thirty, I kind of almost grew into my father,

563
00:46:09.719 --> 00:46:12.920
and now I got the same and shape body as him.

564
00:46:13.920 --> 00:46:16.519
It's weird, isn't it. I don't quite show how. It's

565
00:46:16.559 --> 00:46:20.239
like it was always there. I just didn't like the

566
00:46:20.320 --> 00:46:23.800
bones were there, but there was no there was no fat.

567
00:46:23.880 --> 00:46:26.280
I didn't have any fat on me at all when

568
00:46:26.280 --> 00:46:29.679
I was in my twenties, which is probably a good thing.

569
00:46:29.880 --> 00:46:36.320
You know. My BMI was probably like minus zero fat.

570
00:46:38.679 --> 00:46:52.280
And then thirty yeah, well that's a whole new ball game. Yeah, anyway,

571
00:46:52.480 --> 00:46:54.719
so that was weird. So so I went to it.

572
00:46:54.800 --> 00:46:57.280
So I went there the very first night of karate.

573
00:46:58.760 --> 00:47:00.440
I fell in love with the place. I fell in

574
00:47:00.519 --> 00:47:06.519
love with everything about it. Bearing in mind I've loved

575
00:47:06.559 --> 00:47:12.320
martial arts since I was a little kid, from age

576
00:47:12.320 --> 00:47:18.400
of seven, having that picture of Bruce Lee on my

577
00:47:18.559 --> 00:47:21.519
wall in my little room, my very first room I

578
00:47:21.559 --> 00:47:24.559
ever had of my own, and a picture of Bruce

579
00:47:24.599 --> 00:47:30.920
Lee from Met a Dragon. From that, you know, from

580
00:47:30.920 --> 00:47:34.039
that moment on, I had to discover who he was.

581
00:47:34.079 --> 00:47:41.079
And I loved martial arts and kung fu the TV

582
00:47:41.199 --> 00:47:45.400
show was on. I mean, that was probably the closest

583
00:47:45.400 --> 00:47:47.800
thing I really got to see martial arts at that time,

584
00:47:49.360 --> 00:47:51.840
and there was very little kung fu in it, but

585
00:47:51.840 --> 00:47:54.840
when it was in it, it was the most exciting

586
00:47:54.840 --> 00:48:01.840
thing in the world. I loved it, absolutely loved it.

587
00:48:02.000 --> 00:48:07.599
So I kind of just you know this, this is

588
00:48:07.679 --> 00:48:13.920
like I'm home. I'm home, baby. But at the same time,

589
00:48:14.079 --> 00:48:20.079
I was nervous because it's new. But I was less

590
00:48:20.159 --> 00:48:25.519
nervous because I was with Stephan and he was joining

591
00:48:25.559 --> 00:48:28.880
with me, so I was kind of okay with that

592
00:48:28.920 --> 00:48:31.920
because I wasn't on my own. So we both went

593
00:48:32.000 --> 00:48:35.000
back the next even if it was if it was

594
00:48:35.000 --> 00:48:37.599
a Tuesday that we went, then we both went back

595
00:48:37.639 --> 00:48:41.719
on a Thursday night. If it was a Thursday night

596
00:48:41.760 --> 00:48:44.119
that we went to watch that, we both went back

597
00:48:44.360 --> 00:48:49.800
on the following Tuesday night. And we just had some

598
00:48:49.880 --> 00:48:53.840
tracksuit bottombs and a T shirt because I don't give you.

599
00:48:53.840 --> 00:48:57.840
You don't get a gee straight away kind of see

600
00:48:57.880 --> 00:48:59.480
how you get on and if you do like it,

601
00:48:59.519 --> 00:49:03.360
then you pay. We paid Paul was his name, the

602
00:49:05.039 --> 00:49:12.840
sense at the teacher. He got the gey's then it

603
00:49:12.880 --> 00:49:15.960
costs like twenty quid or fifteen creed or twelve cred

604
00:49:16.000 --> 00:49:18.920
I don't know how much it was back then. And

605
00:49:19.199 --> 00:49:22.760
there'd be a white belt and a gee which was

606
00:49:22.960 --> 00:49:27.280
a white like white trousers and a white top made

607
00:49:27.320 --> 00:49:32.719
of flannel kind of material. I think it might not

608
00:49:32.760 --> 00:49:37.239
be flannel, but it was white. And I do actually,

609
00:49:38.599 --> 00:49:42.400
I do have a picture of myself in my g

610
00:49:42.719 --> 00:49:50.559
my karate costume from when I was fourteen. It's in

611
00:49:50.679 --> 00:49:58.960
a photograph album that by my dad and stepmom put

612
00:49:59.000 --> 00:50:03.440
together few years back just before just yeah, about two

613
00:50:03.480 --> 00:50:09.920
thousand and twenty two, and there's a picture of me.

614
00:50:10.360 --> 00:50:14.679
I might have even have my nunchucks on me possibly. Wow.

615
00:50:15.840 --> 00:50:23.840
So it's strange. There's also a picture of me in

616
00:50:23.840 --> 00:50:27.840
my CI Caredet costume as well, So that's the kind

617
00:50:27.840 --> 00:50:33.000
of I think my dad was. He liked me being

618
00:50:33.000 --> 00:50:39.000
in the Ciccredets. I don't think he was interested in

619
00:50:39.000 --> 00:50:42.719
me being in karate. It didn't really suit what he

620
00:50:42.800 --> 00:50:45.760
wanted for me. I don't. I don't quite know why. Actually,

621
00:50:46.519 --> 00:50:49.280
even as an adult, when I told him I've started

622
00:50:49.480 --> 00:50:56.800
doing kung fu or boxing or what did I do?

623
00:50:58.519 --> 00:51:06.480
I kind of remember what I've done? What did I do?

624
00:51:08.360 --> 00:51:10.000
Another thing I did? Like it's got out of my

625
00:51:10.039 --> 00:51:12.679
head now, but I've done a few different martial arts

626
00:51:12.719 --> 00:51:15.159
and stuff, and every time I told him, he's like, oh,

627
00:51:15.199 --> 00:51:17.800
what are you doing that for? Can't you find something

628
00:51:17.800 --> 00:51:22.000
else a bit less violent? Like it's not violent, it's

629
00:51:23.880 --> 00:51:29.280
it's just fun kicking and punching is it's a sport.

630
00:51:29.320 --> 00:51:34.320
It's just controlled And although I can't do it anymore.

631
00:51:34.360 --> 00:51:37.800
I can't do the kicking taekwon do. That's what I

632
00:51:37.800 --> 00:51:40.960
was trying to think of. That's the last thing I did.

633
00:51:41.199 --> 00:51:43.559
Or I did try and give jiu jitsu a go.

634
00:51:44.599 --> 00:51:49.480
I just don't have the bending capacity to do that anymore.

635
00:51:51.119 --> 00:51:56.880
It's yeah, it's just not physically up my road anymore, unfortunately.

636
00:51:59.239 --> 00:52:02.119
But I still know a few little moves that I

637
00:52:02.119 --> 00:52:06.719
can do if needed. So I think, if anything, i'd

638
00:52:06.760 --> 00:52:08.599
like to if I was going to go back to

639
00:52:08.639 --> 00:52:15.960
something boxing. The problem is because of my age. It's

640
00:52:16.000 --> 00:52:18.880
not a problem for me because I know I can.

641
00:52:19.320 --> 00:52:28.119
I can't do all like the super exercisey bit cardiovascular.

642
00:52:28.719 --> 00:52:31.280
I could do some of it, but you know, that's

643
00:52:31.280 --> 00:52:33.880
something I kind of have to be careful with. Just

644
00:52:33.920 --> 00:52:38.119
take it easy, take it slowly. But punching a bag

645
00:52:38.880 --> 00:52:42.320
or punching someone with their holding the midst up and

646
00:52:42.360 --> 00:52:48.239
punching the pads and stuff is something that would be fun.

647
00:52:49.519 --> 00:52:54.280
But unfortunately, when I went to the the amateur boxing

648
00:52:54.320 --> 00:52:57.039
club in about two thousand and nine, when I was

649
00:52:57.079 --> 00:53:00.920
at university, I went along to the local AID, which

650
00:53:00.960 --> 00:53:06.880
is the Amateur Boxing Association. They let me go. I

651
00:53:06.920 --> 00:53:12.000
was pretty much the oldest person there. I was pretty

652
00:53:12.039 --> 00:53:15.119
much one of the only adults there, so that wasn't

653
00:53:15.159 --> 00:53:17.400
I didn't like that. Actually, I wanted to be around,

654
00:53:19.920 --> 00:53:22.840
not bothered that there was kids there, but I'd rather

655
00:53:22.960 --> 00:53:28.679
have adults around me just because I just don't look

656
00:53:28.719 --> 00:53:34.000
so silly, you know, because if you've got adults doing

657
00:53:34.119 --> 00:53:37.400
martial arts, you don't have people watching, you don't have

658
00:53:37.519 --> 00:53:43.079
families watching. But because there's so many kids there, a

659
00:53:43.079 --> 00:53:45.840
lot of their parents were sitting in the sidelines watching,

660
00:53:46.119 --> 00:53:49.480
and I'm sure they were laughing at me. If they weren't,

661
00:53:49.519 --> 00:53:53.039
they should have been, because I'd have a T shirt

662
00:53:53.079 --> 00:53:58.840
on and within about five minutes it would be soaked through.

663
00:54:00.639 --> 00:54:02.840
I lost a bit away of doing it. I did

664
00:54:02.840 --> 00:54:09.519
put on some muscle in that, but I just absolutely soaked.

665
00:54:08.599 --> 00:54:14.239
And but I enjoyed it. But I kept injuring myself

666
00:54:16.199 --> 00:54:19.559
they wouldn't let me spa That's the thing that kind

667
00:54:19.599 --> 00:54:22.039
of annoyed me a little bit. And I understand, of

668
00:54:22.119 --> 00:54:24.559
course I'm not going to spire a little kid, but

669
00:54:25.639 --> 00:54:27.920
a lot of those kids, especially some of them were

670
00:54:28.199 --> 00:54:31.800
as big as I was were tall Wise, anyway, they

671
00:54:31.800 --> 00:54:33.599
would have just boxed my head off. I wouldn't have

672
00:54:33.639 --> 00:54:37.360
stood a chance because they would have just out boxed me.

673
00:54:37.519 --> 00:54:42.880
I wouldn't be able to catch them. But even though

674
00:54:43.119 --> 00:54:47.639
because I was too old, I wasn't allowed legally for

675
00:54:47.760 --> 00:54:52.199
them to be sparring, and I'd been okay just to

676
00:54:52.239 --> 00:54:56.840
stand there and not do anything, just move around the

677
00:54:56.920 --> 00:54:59.679
ring and block the punches if I could, and not

678
00:54:59.719 --> 00:55:03.679
throw any punches, just to be a target almost that

679
00:55:03.679 --> 00:55:06.960
would have been fun for me. But they didn't even

680
00:55:07.000 --> 00:55:10.320
do that. And that's quite a good opportunity, isn't it,

681
00:55:10.360 --> 00:55:14.199
to have someone running jumping around. Because there was some

682
00:55:14.280 --> 00:55:17.159
lads there that were much bigger than me, like six

683
00:55:17.320 --> 00:55:25.519
six two six three on five eight, so you know, technically,

684
00:55:25.880 --> 00:55:29.280
and they had something with young sort of late teens

685
00:55:29.320 --> 00:55:34.880
that were you know, really well adults really, so I

686
00:55:34.920 --> 00:55:37.719
could have happily just got in the ring with them

687
00:55:37.719 --> 00:55:41.119
and danced around a little bit and tried to avoid

688
00:55:41.119 --> 00:55:43.880
them punch at me. I don't I'm not saying I

689
00:55:43.920 --> 00:55:46.440
wanted to be a punch bag, but it would have

690
00:55:46.480 --> 00:55:54.679
been a bit of fun, I don't know, just stuff.

691
00:55:54.960 --> 00:56:00.760
But they wouldn't wouldn't let me, And that's really I mean.

692
00:56:03.239 --> 00:56:07.079
I think if anyone goes to boxing, anyone starts boxing,

693
00:56:07.679 --> 00:56:10.719
I think they're probably telling FIBs if they say that

694
00:56:10.800 --> 00:56:12.639
they don't care whether or not they get to spa.

695
00:56:15.639 --> 00:56:18.639
I think most people that go to boxing want to spa.

696
00:56:19.159 --> 00:56:21.920
It's kind of the point of the whole thing is

697
00:56:25.280 --> 00:56:28.559
being able to put it into action in a safe environment,

698
00:56:33.400 --> 00:56:37.559
and I didn't get a chance. Mind you, I did

699
00:56:37.599 --> 00:56:39.840
do boxing when I was at school for I think

700
00:56:39.840 --> 00:56:45.159
I went once or twice, and they didn't have any rules.

701
00:56:45.440 --> 00:56:49.119
There was like few sit ups, few press ups, go

702
00:56:49.239 --> 00:56:51.840
on the punch bag, and then start sparring with each other.

703
00:56:52.840 --> 00:56:55.079
And I ended up with this. Bearing in mind, I

704
00:56:55.119 --> 00:56:58.400
was like quite a little. I ended up with someone

705
00:56:58.400 --> 00:57:05.039
that was probably I could six six six two and

706
00:57:05.519 --> 00:57:10.239
twice twice my height and twice my weight rather and

707
00:57:10.320 --> 00:57:12.920
it just kept punching me in the head like I

708
00:57:12.960 --> 00:57:17.960
couldn't like, can you just stop punching me, please, which,

709
00:57:18.000 --> 00:57:20.199
of course you can't really say when it comes down

710
00:57:20.239 --> 00:57:23.719
to boxing, please stop that. Could you just stop give

711
00:57:23.760 --> 00:57:26.480
me a chance let me punch you, because it wouldn't

712
00:57:27.960 --> 00:57:32.639
so it can't put me off a little bit. Why

713
00:57:32.679 --> 00:57:36.559
did you stop doing boxing? It kept punching me, Yeah,

714
00:57:36.639 --> 00:57:37.239
pretty much.

715
00:57:41.480 --> 00:57:41.559
So.

716
00:57:41.679 --> 00:57:44.880
I can't remember the first time I went to karate

717
00:57:45.360 --> 00:57:50.679
as in the first lesson, but I know that I

718
00:57:50.760 --> 00:57:56.039
went every single Tuesday and Thursday. I had a pay

719
00:57:56.159 --> 00:58:01.000
per round. I think I had an early morning paper

720
00:58:01.079 --> 00:58:05.920
under this point, so that's what paid for the karate

721
00:58:09.119 --> 00:58:16.199
and a few things. A few standout moments of going

722
00:58:16.199 --> 00:58:21.119
to that create club during those years. The first thing

723
00:58:21.239 --> 00:58:26.639
is every single grading I attended, I got a first

724
00:58:26.679 --> 00:58:32.639
class pass. That isn't the highest you can skip a grade.

725
00:58:33.039 --> 00:58:41.000
That's what Stephan's brother because we both had our first Yeah,

726
00:58:41.039 --> 00:58:43.000
we both had our first grade in at the same

727
00:58:43.079 --> 00:58:46.079
time because he had literally just started I think the

728
00:58:46.119 --> 00:58:51.360
week before I did, and he skipped right away through

729
00:58:51.360 --> 00:58:54.360
to the next belt because he was so good straight away.

730
00:58:55.400 --> 00:58:57.360
But I did get a first class pass, so that

731
00:58:57.519 --> 00:59:02.519
suff's okay. The weird thing about it though, because we

732
00:59:02.559 --> 00:59:08.840
did I did I think two possibly three contests competitions,

733
00:59:09.760 --> 00:59:12.320
and I didn't win. I didn't I didn't win any

734
00:59:12.360 --> 00:59:16.679
awards or any prizes, but I did win a couple

735
00:59:16.679 --> 00:59:26.159
of fights. The like Stephan's brother, he was bearing in mind,

736
00:59:26.199 --> 00:59:30.639
he was yeah, he was fourteen. He was younger than me,

737
00:59:30.880 --> 00:59:36.880
so thirteen, let's say it's thirteen years old. They put

738
00:59:36.960 --> 00:59:42.280
him in with another thirteen year old. The size difference

739
00:59:42.440 --> 00:59:52.840
was ridiculous, and the other kid just started crying, and

740
00:59:52.840 --> 00:59:58.440
there was a lot of cafore before kafore, whatever about it? Parents? Same,

741
00:59:58.519 --> 01:00:00.599
what have you put my kid in with a adult for?

742
01:00:01.519 --> 01:00:03.559
And all this stuff and I said, he's not an adult.

743
01:00:03.599 --> 01:00:08.519
It's thirteen. He can't be thirteen. He's bigger than me.

744
01:00:09.800 --> 01:00:14.880
And there was all that, but he was thirteen. I

745
01:00:14.920 --> 01:00:18.599
think it's a little They should have weight categories. They

746
01:00:18.599 --> 01:00:22.039
were just doing it by age. But with adults they

747
01:00:22.119 --> 01:00:24.280
do it by weight. With the kids, they were just

748
01:00:24.280 --> 01:00:27.400
doing it by age. That was a little bit didn't

749
01:00:27.440 --> 01:00:32.719
really seem very fair to put someone who probably weighed well,

750
01:00:34.719 --> 01:00:38.000
this thirteen year old he probably it was about my

751
01:00:38.119 --> 01:00:41.239
size because I was about the size of a thirteen

752
01:00:41.320 --> 01:00:45.280
year old, so it's about my size. So it's a

753
01:00:45.280 --> 01:00:49.159
lot littler than this other kid who was probably at

754
01:00:49.199 --> 01:00:57.559
that time twelve stone if not more. So. Yeah, he won,

755
01:00:57.800 --> 01:01:00.119
he won his category, but there was a lot of

756
01:01:02.559 --> 01:01:11.159
a lot of neshing of teeth. He won the trophy.

757
01:01:12.559 --> 01:01:15.880
He was naturally good. He just he took to it

758
01:01:16.199 --> 01:01:23.960
so quickly. It was yeah, it's very very good. Stephan.

759
01:01:25.559 --> 01:01:27.639
He stayed for a while and then he stopped going.

760
01:01:28.800 --> 01:01:31.079
I never really he just I don't think he didn't

761
01:01:31.079 --> 01:01:34.559
want to do it anymore. He'd lost interest, which is

762
01:01:34.639 --> 01:01:36.360
you know, I was still friends with him. I just

763
01:01:37.119 --> 01:01:40.320
but I liked it when he was coming because during

764
01:01:40.360 --> 01:01:43.079
break times. We were practiced doing karate with each other

765
01:01:43.559 --> 01:01:46.679
going down the hallway, and a good thing about it

766
01:01:46.719 --> 01:01:49.280
is if I had done that, if anyone else, I

767
01:01:49.320 --> 01:01:51.519
could have had other lads coming up to me and

768
01:01:51.519 --> 01:01:54.000
give me a hard time. Because I was doing the

769
01:01:54.079 --> 01:01:56.599
toughest kid in one of the toughest kids in the school,

770
01:01:56.719 --> 01:01:59.400
and the toughest kid in the year. No one gave

771
01:01:59.440 --> 01:02:02.239
us a hard time, so it was quite cool. So

772
01:02:02.280 --> 01:02:06.280
we were like kicking each other and blocking and running around

773
01:02:06.320 --> 01:02:10.519
and it was brilliant. And then he stopped. He stopped going.

774
01:02:11.639 --> 01:02:14.440
It's not about being me embarrassing him or something. I

775
01:02:14.440 --> 01:02:20.119
don't know, so but you know, we're still friends. It's

776
01:02:20.159 --> 01:02:23.119
just he didn't want to go anymore. So I continued

777
01:02:23.159 --> 01:02:29.440
because I loved karate. It was my life. Within a week,

778
01:02:29.920 --> 01:02:37.119
it was my entire life. There was nothing more important

779
01:02:37.159 --> 01:02:42.599
than karate to me in the entire world. Everything else

780
01:02:42.800 --> 01:02:46.480
was just in the background, a bit of a blur.

781
01:02:49.119 --> 01:02:55.920
And it was my new special interest above everything else.

782
01:02:58.159 --> 01:03:06.559
My previous special interest was I was very very into

783
01:03:06.920 --> 01:03:08.760
This is going to sound a bit weird, bear in

784
01:03:08.760 --> 01:03:13.119
the mind, I was like eleven. I didn't I never

785
01:03:13.239 --> 01:03:17.719
liked the see Caredets. I just went there when I

786
01:03:17.719 --> 01:03:20.519
was ten, because I was there before I was I

787
01:03:20.559 --> 01:03:22.559
wasn't even old enough to be there, but they let

788
01:03:22.559 --> 01:03:24.800
me go along because there was only a couple of

789
01:03:24.800 --> 01:03:30.800
months before my eleventh birthday, and I just didn't want

790
01:03:30.800 --> 01:03:33.519
to go home. I just wanted to go somewhere else.

791
01:03:34.400 --> 01:03:37.199
So me and my friend went there and we joined up,

792
01:03:37.239 --> 01:03:41.320
and it was just nice to I was never really

793
01:03:41.440 --> 01:03:47.000
particularly good at fitting in, and I think when you

794
01:03:47.239 --> 01:03:52.639
join a group, even if you don't fit in, you

795
01:03:52.760 --> 01:03:55.360
are still part of the group, So you might be

796
01:03:55.960 --> 01:03:58.159
like an odd ball in the group, or may they

797
01:03:58.239 --> 01:04:00.480
say me. I taught it to myself. I was an

798
01:04:00.480 --> 01:04:05.000
odd ball in the Cycadets, but I was still one

799
01:04:05.000 --> 01:04:11.360
of them. I still wore the Ciccuet uniform. Yeah, that

800
01:04:11.400 --> 01:04:17.840
motorbike is in the garden just behind us. Way too late.

801
01:04:18.039 --> 01:04:23.119
Was it nearly nine o'clock? It's quarter past nine, a motorbike.

802
01:04:25.280 --> 01:04:27.800
I never used to be this mooning, you know, I didn't,

803
01:04:30.079 --> 01:04:34.679
So I think that's part of the reason. Another reason

804
01:04:34.679 --> 01:04:36.880
I kind of I didn't like it, but I felt

805
01:04:38.400 --> 01:04:41.199
a part of something when I was in the cy Cadets,

806
01:04:41.599 --> 01:04:45.800
as I did want to join the karate club. I

807
01:04:45.880 --> 01:04:52.679
preferred the karate club membership side of it because I

808
01:04:52.760 --> 01:04:57.360
was around adults as well as kids, and I respected

809
01:04:57.440 --> 01:05:01.239
all of the adults well, apart from one who he

810
01:05:01.280 --> 01:05:04.480
wasn't he was an adult. He was probably eighteen, but

811
01:05:04.559 --> 01:05:10.280
he was. He was a bit of a div really,

812
01:05:11.079 --> 01:05:13.480
that's a nice word for him. He used to try

813
01:05:13.519 --> 01:05:16.679
and bully me when we were sparring. He kicked me

814
01:05:16.800 --> 01:05:20.719
and he was good six foot five, like really tall,

815
01:05:21.639 --> 01:05:24.559
and he was a brown belt, so he got his

816
01:05:24.599 --> 01:05:27.920
black belt as well, so he was very really good

817
01:05:28.400 --> 01:05:30.079
at what he did. He was one of the top

818
01:05:30.639 --> 01:05:33.800
karate people in there. But for some reason he enjoyed

819
01:05:35.159 --> 01:05:39.079
kicking me over on the floor, and I got a

820
01:05:39.079 --> 01:05:43.559
bit fed up with it, so I just I started

821
01:05:43.599 --> 01:05:47.760
hurting him. What do you mean you hurt him? I

822
01:05:47.800 --> 01:05:51.119
mean he was so big. So the good thing about

823
01:05:51.119 --> 01:05:54.800
it is I could punch him in the stomach and

824
01:05:55.039 --> 01:05:58.760
accidentally miss his stomach and he'd be on the floor.

825
01:05:59.800 --> 01:06:02.800
So I did that a few times, or i'd hurt

826
01:06:02.800 --> 01:06:06.639
his leg and he started to kind of back down

827
01:06:06.679 --> 01:06:09.280
a little bit with me. He didn't sort of take

828
01:06:09.360 --> 01:06:13.320
so many liberties, as it were, but he seemed to

829
01:06:13.400 --> 01:06:16.079
really enjoy just tripping me up and kicking me over,

830
01:06:16.159 --> 01:06:18.519
and no one else did that. It was the only

831
01:06:18.599 --> 01:06:21.920
person who did it. Everyone else treated me with respect,

832
01:06:22.920 --> 01:06:30.559
including the adults. They always liked the instructor. He seemed

833
01:06:30.599 --> 01:06:34.280
to really like me, and it pushed me, but it

834
01:06:34.320 --> 01:06:38.159
would never ever hurt me. Let's face it, he could

835
01:06:38.280 --> 01:06:42.840
in a second have hurt me, but he didn't. And

836
01:06:42.840 --> 01:06:46.119
that's I respected that because that's kind of what I

837
01:06:46.159 --> 01:06:48.800
think the other lad should have done because he was

838
01:06:48.840 --> 01:06:52.719
an adult compared to me. It was eighteen, so to

839
01:06:52.840 --> 01:06:55.559
take my key, I suppose he was an adult. He

840
01:06:55.679 --> 01:06:59.000
was in sixth form college, I think, or maybe left

841
01:06:59.320 --> 01:07:04.559
left his left six form college. I don't know, but

842
01:07:04.599 --> 01:07:07.400
he was just yeah, but I don't think he did

843
01:07:07.440 --> 01:07:11.280
it with anyone else. I don't know. Maybe he fancied me,

844
01:07:11.360 --> 01:07:15.360
I don't know, who knows. Maybe was his way, he's

845
01:07:15.360 --> 01:07:20.039
a way of flirting. But yeah, that's a few low

846
01:07:20.079 --> 01:07:23.559
punches and that kind of sort of down. I'd say

847
01:07:23.599 --> 01:07:31.599
a few, quite a few. Oh I did it again. Sorry, hmm.

848
01:07:34.599 --> 01:07:43.559
I a few stand up moments. Nice memories would be

849
01:07:44.679 --> 01:07:50.159
when one of the older men, I say older, it

850
01:07:50.239 --> 01:07:52.679
was old to me, probably in his twenties, to be fair,

851
01:07:53.760 --> 01:07:59.199
it's probably yeah, twenties. Yeah, in his twenties. I thought

852
01:07:59.199 --> 01:08:05.719
he was like old, maybe he was late twenties. He

853
01:08:05.800 --> 01:08:11.519
was getting married, and he asked me and another of

854
01:08:11.559 --> 01:08:14.719
the young ones like me to go to his wedding

855
01:08:17.039 --> 01:08:22.199
in our geese of course, you know, karate uniforms, and

856
01:08:22.439 --> 01:08:26.560
stand as they walked out of the church after getting married.

857
01:08:28.159 --> 01:08:36.199
We were standing outside. They had a cameraman filming or yeah,

858
01:08:36.479 --> 01:08:41.039
or taking pictures or whatever. As the newly married couple

859
01:08:41.319 --> 01:08:44.960
came out, and me and another lad were holding the

860
01:08:45.079 --> 01:08:50.520
swords above basically at the entrance or the exit of

861
01:08:50.560 --> 01:08:54.239
the church, just high enough so they could just walk through.

862
01:08:54.279 --> 01:09:00.399
Of course, And I've had it funny for if I

863
01:09:00.479 --> 01:09:03.960
slip cut his head off, that would be funny. It

864
01:09:04.000 --> 01:09:08.079
won't go down very well. But it didn't happen, clearly,

865
01:09:08.159 --> 01:09:10.960
otherwise I probably wouldn't. My whole life would have been

866
01:09:11.000 --> 01:09:17.319
different with it. But how amazing. I'd love to see

867
01:09:17.319 --> 01:09:20.239
that picture. I never got to see the picture unless

868
01:09:20.239 --> 01:09:21.920
I did, and I forgot and I got to see it.

869
01:09:24.960 --> 01:09:30.640
How cool is that? Got to just be a How

870
01:09:30.640 --> 01:09:34.640
many people get married and walk out to two people

871
01:09:34.680 --> 01:09:37.720
holding swords. I mean, I suppose the royal family do.

872
01:09:37.880 --> 01:09:44.840
But yeah, it was really cool and it was just

873
01:09:44.920 --> 01:09:48.920
really it was also cool that he asked me and

874
01:09:49.119 --> 01:09:54.800
the other lad I forget who it was, but just

875
01:09:54.880 --> 01:09:57.159
like out of all of us, I got to do

876
01:09:57.199 --> 01:10:04.279
it so cool. Honestly, was brilliant, and I think I

877
01:10:04.399 --> 01:10:07.720
used to go up to the cry contests with him,

878
01:10:07.960 --> 01:10:09.600
so I suppose you got to know me a little bit.

879
01:10:11.479 --> 01:10:18.199
What else I used to love the sparring. Apart from

880
01:10:18.239 --> 01:10:22.319
with that, you know, the big lanky, six foot nine

881
01:10:24.359 --> 01:10:29.279
bully boy, I didn't enjoy that, but everyone else I

882
01:10:29.359 --> 01:10:32.920
enjoyed sparring with It was fun. I loved the spirring.

883
01:10:33.079 --> 01:10:36.359
That was kind of the whole point really is to

884
01:10:36.439 --> 01:10:39.479
practice what you're learning, is practice the block in and

885
01:10:39.520 --> 01:10:42.880
the kicking and a punch in, the sweeping and all

886
01:10:42.880 --> 01:10:53.319
that stuff. And we sparred every single time. So half

887
01:10:53.359 --> 01:10:57.880
the night or half the evening was based on practicing drills,

888
01:10:57.960 --> 01:11:01.960
practicing not drills as in not that kind of drill,

889
01:11:02.800 --> 01:11:07.479
and practicing in the form, practicing kicks, punches, stuff like that.

890
01:11:08.319 --> 01:11:12.680
And then the next part of the evening was spiring.

891
01:11:12.720 --> 01:11:15.960
So would all stand up in a line facing each other,

892
01:11:16.039 --> 01:11:18.199
so that if there was like there's twenty of us,

893
01:11:18.640 --> 01:11:23.359
there'd be one line of ten people all facing each other,

894
01:11:25.560 --> 01:11:28.039
and then they would spile with that person. We'd have

895
01:11:28.239 --> 01:11:33.000
pads on her hands, pads on her feet. I didn't

896
01:11:33.000 --> 01:11:36.159
have any pads on the head, didn't have a gum

897
01:11:36.239 --> 01:11:38.720
shield or anything like that. Oh yeah, pads on the groin.

898
01:11:39.319 --> 01:11:41.760
I probably didn't really need it, but you know, I

899
01:11:41.800 --> 01:11:46.239
had it anyway. And if you get a good old punch,

900
01:11:46.359 --> 01:11:51.880
it doesn't stop it, as I found out when I

901
01:11:51.920 --> 01:11:58.840
did the Punch Days, and it was so much fun,

902
01:12:00.600 --> 01:12:03.720
just punching and kicking each other. It was great. And

903
01:12:03.760 --> 01:12:06.279
the thing is I could hardly reach anyone's head anyway,

904
01:12:06.279 --> 01:12:09.760
because everyone everyone was taller than me, apart from those

905
01:12:09.800 --> 01:12:13.760
that weren't.

906
01:12:11.079 --> 01:12:11.159
And.

907
01:12:13.079 --> 01:12:18.880
They generally were a fair bit younger because I started, Yeah,

908
01:12:18.880 --> 01:12:23.880
I think you could start twelve in the Create Club.

909
01:12:23.920 --> 01:12:27.880
That was their limit, that was their oldest was twelve.

910
01:12:31.119 --> 01:12:34.399
So I remember the spar and that was great, which

911
01:12:34.399 --> 01:12:37.319
brings me on to my next thing. Of the most

912
01:12:38.039 --> 01:12:44.760
I actually changed the Create Club, and I'm never going

913
01:12:44.840 --> 01:12:47.600
to be remembered for it, that's the funny thing about it.

914
01:12:47.680 --> 01:12:53.159
But I changed the direction of that club because my

915
01:12:53.239 --> 01:13:04.960
little brother was Burr would be eighty five, so he

916
01:13:05.000 --> 01:13:11.960
would have been seven. My little brother was interested in

917
01:13:12.000 --> 01:13:16.119
doing karate, and I kept asking if he could come along,

918
01:13:16.560 --> 01:13:21.720
and Paul, the instructor, said, no, not till he's twelve.

919
01:13:22.720 --> 01:13:25.800
Can't do it. Won't do it, can't do it, won't

920
01:13:25.840 --> 01:13:29.920
do it. And then I said to him one night,

921
01:13:29.920 --> 01:13:34.319
I said, well, why don't we do a separate one,

922
01:13:34.640 --> 01:13:41.000
like on a Saturday, like a completely separate thing. You

923
01:13:41.000 --> 01:13:42.800
can have, you know, come in on a Saturday and

924
01:13:42.840 --> 01:13:46.439
have like an extra spiring session for the adults, but

925
01:13:48.119 --> 01:13:52.000
I have allow some kids to come along under the

926
01:13:52.039 --> 01:13:55.880
age of twelve. Yeah, you can have a limit, maybe

927
01:13:55.560 --> 01:14:02.840
no one under five or something. And eventually I was

928
01:14:04.279 --> 01:14:07.079
I'm not saying I was hasslingmit every day. I wasn't

929
01:14:07.119 --> 01:14:09.560
phoning them up in the middle of the night. It's

930
01:14:09.640 --> 01:14:15.279
me again. Please come my little brother, hat come on, please,

931
01:14:16.560 --> 01:14:20.680
just the kids please. So eventually he gave up and

932
01:14:20.720 --> 01:14:27.840
he said, okay, we'll try it. So, I mean, he

933
01:14:27.960 --> 01:14:31.439
gave up his own time to come in, and I

934
01:14:31.439 --> 01:14:35.119
don't know if they even charge the kids. So we

935
01:14:35.239 --> 01:14:44.359
came in on a Saturday, and he got me to

936
01:14:44.439 --> 01:14:49.960
teach the kids because it was just basically teaching them

937
01:14:49.960 --> 01:14:53.600
a little bit disciplined to line up, how to kick,

938
01:14:53.760 --> 01:14:58.199
how to punch, how none of it was like hard stuff.

939
01:14:58.239 --> 01:15:01.560
It's very basic stuff. So he got me to teach

940
01:15:01.600 --> 01:15:10.039
them and it went from there. So that's where it started.

941
01:15:10.600 --> 01:15:14.960
And then they progressed to doing it on having like

942
01:15:15.039 --> 01:15:18.199
a separate group on a Tuesday and Thursday night at

943
01:15:18.239 --> 01:15:22.159
the back of the of the gym, so they wouldn't

944
01:15:22.199 --> 01:15:24.600
be part of the main thing, but they'd be doing

945
01:15:24.640 --> 01:15:28.680
they'd be taught by me, and then when I left,

946
01:15:29.159 --> 01:15:35.960
someone else taught. And so it went from that doing

947
01:15:35.960 --> 01:15:40.319
it every Saturday morning to them do it then including

948
01:15:40.359 --> 01:15:45.560
it on a Tuesday and a Thursday evening, and that

949
01:15:45.840 --> 01:15:52.279
was blood how many block how many years ago? Is

950
01:15:52.319 --> 01:16:00.640
that forty years ago? And the amount of blot belts

951
01:16:02.920 --> 01:16:04.880
that have come out of those kids. They still do

952
01:16:04.920 --> 01:16:08.880
it now. I've still got little kids train them. Not

953
01:16:08.920 --> 01:16:12.039
to say not the same little kids, but they've still

954
01:16:12.079 --> 01:16:18.720
got little kids training. So that was my idea and

955
01:16:18.760 --> 01:16:20.680
it might be the greatest thing I've ever done in

956
01:16:20.680 --> 01:16:25.439
my life, which is kind of sad maybe, but it

957
01:16:25.520 --> 01:16:28.319
was my idea because I wanted my little brother to

958
01:16:28.439 --> 01:16:32.279
come along and do cry and because I've already taught

959
01:16:32.319 --> 01:16:36.359
him some kary, which came in handy because it's a

960
01:16:36.359 --> 01:16:39.760
little local. Bully started on him, and he sorted the

961
01:16:39.760 --> 01:16:44.640
bully out and it set him up for the rest

962
01:16:44.640 --> 01:16:47.760
of his school because he had confidence that he knew

963
01:16:47.760 --> 01:16:51.199
that he could deal with, you know, situations like that.

964
01:16:54.680 --> 01:16:59.880
And it was my little brother lost interest. He went

965
01:17:00.039 --> 01:17:04.000
for probably two months, three months. I don't know how long.

966
01:17:04.279 --> 01:17:07.039
He got his first grade in I know that, so

967
01:17:07.159 --> 01:17:09.000
he must have been there for at least three months

968
01:17:09.640 --> 01:17:13.960
because the gradings were every three months, so he got

969
01:17:14.000 --> 01:17:18.720
his yellow belt. It might have been there six months,

970
01:17:18.720 --> 01:17:23.760
but then he left. He lost interest, but they kept

971
01:17:23.760 --> 01:17:27.720
the thing going because by then they had more kids joining.

972
01:17:28.520 --> 01:17:32.520
It started off. I think I kind of got some

973
01:17:32.560 --> 01:17:35.880
of the neighbors' kids to come along, and it started

974
01:17:35.880 --> 01:17:40.479
off with maybe three kids, and then it grew to five,

975
01:17:40.800 --> 01:17:43.800
and then there was seven, and there was ten, and

976
01:17:45.760 --> 01:17:50.680
ten's all you need, really, it's a good number. And

977
01:17:50.720 --> 01:17:53.439
then it grew and it just continued from nineteen eighty

978
01:17:53.479 --> 01:18:03.960
five to today. So tomorrow Moorday evening, Tuesday evening pretty

979
01:18:04.000 --> 01:18:09.720
much guaranteed that someone will walk into that gym, a

980
01:18:09.840 --> 01:18:16.520
kid maybe ten years old, for example, nine years old.

981
01:18:16.880 --> 01:18:20.159
We'll walk in there for the first time with their

982
01:18:20.239 --> 01:18:26.239
parents or older brother or sister or whatever, and we'll,

983
01:18:26.399 --> 01:18:31.760
you know, learn to start kicking and punching for the

984
01:18:31.800 --> 01:18:35.720
first time, and by the time they leave school, there'll

985
01:18:35.760 --> 01:18:42.399
be a black belt. And that's all thanks to me.

986
01:18:43.600 --> 01:18:48.039
I'm responsible for the success of every single black belt ever. No,

987
01:18:48.119 --> 01:18:51.159
that's not what I'm saying. But it was quite a

988
01:18:51.279 --> 01:18:56.319
nice a nice memory, quite a nice thing, that a

989
01:18:56.439 --> 01:19:03.479
positive thing that I'd probably created because it was it

990
01:19:03.520 --> 01:19:09.359
wasn't allowed, not allowed, not allowed. But in the end

991
01:19:09.359 --> 01:19:11.239
he gave up and he said okay, because I kept

992
01:19:11.279 --> 01:19:16.039
going on about it, and he clearly must the instructor

993
01:19:16.119 --> 01:19:20.159
must have liked me because he didn't tell me to

994
01:19:20.199 --> 01:19:22.560
stop hassling him, or he might have done, actually, but

995
01:19:22.600 --> 01:19:28.199
I just didn't give up. I was quite insistent because

996
01:19:28.199 --> 01:19:31.840
I wanted my little brother to go to I think,

997
01:19:31.840 --> 01:19:33.960
if I'm honest, I probably didn't care about the other kids.

998
01:19:34.039 --> 01:19:38.800
I was just focusing on my little brother. But because

999
01:19:39.720 --> 01:19:41.439
there had to be other kids as well, I kind

1000
01:19:41.439 --> 01:19:44.159
of got a few other kids from the neighborhood to

1001
01:19:44.239 --> 01:19:47.000
go along because some of his friends probably it's thinking

1002
01:19:47.000 --> 01:19:49.399
about it, Yeah, I think it was. And maybe some

1003
01:19:49.479 --> 01:19:52.479
of the kids of the adults that were going there,

1004
01:19:53.760 --> 01:19:56.600
they brought them along just to kind of support that

1005
01:19:56.760 --> 01:20:07.720
new venture. Yeah groovy. So I'm not going to remember.

1006
01:20:07.920 --> 01:20:10.359
I won't be remembered for it. I bet you. Not

1007
01:20:10.399 --> 01:20:14.800
one person remembers me ever, not even Paul, who was

1008
01:20:14.880 --> 01:20:18.000
my hero, he was the instructor. He won't remember me.

1009
01:20:19.000 --> 01:20:21.520
I mean, last time I saw him was probably about

1010
01:20:21.560 --> 01:20:24.560
nineteen eighty seven, and he said, when you're coming back?

1011
01:20:25.199 --> 01:20:34.079
I said soon. Never did, never went back. Yeah, that's weird.

1012
01:20:34.800 --> 01:20:37.119
It's at one of less school. I was working in

1013
01:20:37.119 --> 01:20:44.359
the evenings and I'd lost interest anyway. At that point

1014
01:20:44.600 --> 01:20:49.239
in everything, I had no interest in anything. So karate

1015
01:20:49.439 --> 01:20:52.159
was gone. Everything. I was just working in a chip

1016
01:20:52.199 --> 01:20:56.359
shop and that's it. That's what I did for two years.

1017
01:20:56.600 --> 01:21:01.239
There was nothing really else going on in my life

1018
01:21:02.239 --> 01:21:06.399
and what else. So with the karate, I have nice

1019
01:21:06.520 --> 01:21:19.399
memories of getting together equipment. So I had the so yeah,

1020
01:21:19.399 --> 01:21:22.560
I got some gym stuff, like you know, weights, and

1021
01:21:22.640 --> 01:21:27.840
my dad had this big studio thing at the bottom

1022
01:21:27.840 --> 01:21:30.800
of the garden, which was his office because he was

1023
01:21:30.800 --> 01:21:35.560
self employed, so his office but also kept his equipment

1024
01:21:36.079 --> 01:21:38.279
in part of it as well. And there was a

1025
01:21:38.319 --> 01:21:41.359
toilet down there, and I think it was this his

1026
01:21:41.560 --> 01:21:44.600
safe space, probably to be on his own, have a

1027
01:21:44.600 --> 01:21:48.000
bit of quiet piece and quiet from all of us.

1028
01:21:48.479 --> 01:21:50.279
But what he did, he did he took a bit

1029
01:21:50.279 --> 01:21:54.199
of interest in what I was doing because he he

1030
01:21:54.279 --> 01:21:57.239
let me put my weights down there. So I was buying.

1031
01:21:57.640 --> 01:21:59.800
I was buying weights bit by bits. I was buying

1032
01:21:59.800 --> 01:22:03.239
a our bell one week. Then I was buying the

1033
01:22:03.359 --> 01:22:05.319
you know, the weights to put on the bar bell.

1034
01:22:05.720 --> 01:22:08.000
Then I got a curl bar, put some weights for

1035
01:22:08.079 --> 01:22:12.239
the curl bar, got some dumb bells, little dumb bells set,

1036
01:22:12.319 --> 01:22:14.399
and then I got another dumb bell set, you know,

1037
01:22:14.560 --> 01:22:21.680
to sort of match it. And I can't think of

1038
01:22:21.760 --> 01:22:26.479
any other things weights wise I had. But I had

1039
01:22:26.560 --> 01:22:32.399
like a you know, a varied weight collection. And then

1040
01:22:32.640 --> 01:22:34.239
I told my dad that I wanted to get a

1041
01:22:34.239 --> 01:22:40.319
punch bag. So what he did is he found me

1042
01:22:40.359 --> 01:22:46.319
a kit bag and he filled it with sawdust. It's

1043
01:22:46.359 --> 01:22:52.439
really heavy, really heavy, and he attached it to the ceiling.

1044
01:22:54.079 --> 01:22:57.479
And then I got another punchbag which was already. I

1045
01:22:57.479 --> 01:23:00.520
think it was full of We put just cloth in it,

1046
01:23:00.560 --> 01:23:03.680
so I had a light bag and a really heavy bag.

1047
01:23:05.520 --> 01:23:10.439
I imagine the one full of swordusts is probably as heavy

1048
01:23:10.439 --> 01:23:15.880
as me nearly. Anyway, it was pretty sturdy stuff and

1049
01:23:15.960 --> 01:23:18.319
a kit bag. If you've don't know what that is,

1050
01:23:17.720 --> 01:23:21.920
it's the kind of thing that people in the forces

1051
01:23:22.000 --> 01:23:27.920
used to use, and it's a big, long thing and

1052
01:23:27.960 --> 01:23:30.600
they would just basically have all their belongings in it.

1053
01:23:32.479 --> 01:23:38.479
But it didn't have handles for some reason, or maybe

1054
01:23:38.520 --> 01:23:41.039
the handles had fallen off, but it was just like

1055
01:23:41.079 --> 01:23:45.680
a big punch bag. I'm thinking it might have belonged

1056
01:23:45.680 --> 01:23:47.920
to my granddad because he used to be a boxer,

1057
01:23:48.800 --> 01:23:54.239
and I think I might have had my granddad's boxing gloves,

1058
01:23:55.079 --> 01:23:57.920
but I did buy some boxing gloves as well, and

1059
01:23:57.960 --> 01:24:04.199
some bag gloves. But I also like to punch without

1060
01:24:04.239 --> 01:24:09.479
any gloves on as well, so yeah, so so my

1061
01:24:09.560 --> 01:24:12.239
dad helped me put all that stuff up, so that

1062
01:24:12.359 --> 01:24:19.159
was nice. I got all happy memories of practicing karate

1063
01:24:19.279 --> 01:24:23.439
in the guarden, say happy memories, but they're very vague memories.

1064
01:24:23.479 --> 01:24:25.920
But I do remember I used to practice my kicks

1065
01:24:25.960 --> 01:24:29.079
and my punches and my forms. That's when it's like

1066
01:24:29.479 --> 01:24:32.920
it's a sequence of different moves. Some people call it

1067
01:24:32.960 --> 01:24:37.119
the carter, some people call it form. But it's just

1068
01:24:37.159 --> 01:24:45.520
like practicing kicks and punches and blocks and stuff. And

1069
01:24:45.600 --> 01:24:51.880
in the evenings, I used to go and really really

1070
01:24:51.920 --> 01:24:55.800
go on that punchback proper, the heavy one. More than anything,

1071
01:24:59.159 --> 01:25:03.760
I loved it. I just really loved it. Especially if

1072
01:25:03.800 --> 01:25:05.880
one of my brothers was annoying me, I'd go down

1073
01:25:05.920 --> 01:25:12.199
the garden and just punch the punch, punch the bag

1074
01:25:12.279 --> 01:25:24.399
as it were. And yeah, it was useful, really useful. Yeah.

1075
01:25:24.520 --> 01:25:27.960
I like that punch bag, the one that was heavy

1076
01:25:28.279 --> 01:25:33.760
like that. The heavier the better, Like a big, big

1077
01:25:33.960 --> 01:25:38.560
heavy punch bag. That's kind of the perfect thing. You know,

1078
01:25:38.840 --> 01:25:42.319
something doesn't even move when you punch it. That's like perfect.

1079
01:25:43.760 --> 01:25:47.359
I don't want something to start moving and swaying around.

1080
01:25:48.119 --> 01:25:53.520
It's something really heavy, twenty stone or something that that'd

1081
01:25:53.560 --> 01:25:59.720
be nice, although my ceiling wouldn't take that. I do

1082
01:25:59.800 --> 01:26:02.960
have a punch bag in my bedroom. There's one that's

1083
01:26:02.960 --> 01:26:06.800
on a it's got like got a water base with water.

1084
01:26:06.840 --> 01:26:08.880
You can put concrete or sand in there, but I

1085
01:26:08.920 --> 01:26:12.319
just put water in so I can punch it. It

1086
01:26:12.319 --> 01:26:15.560
does move around, and then I just feel a little

1087
01:26:15.600 --> 01:26:21.920
bit self conscious that I'm gonna disrupt my neighbor downstairs

1088
01:26:22.239 --> 01:26:24.760
because they're going to hear it. How could they not

1089
01:26:24.840 --> 01:26:29.359
hear it? It's quite loud, you know what I mean.

1090
01:26:31.159 --> 01:26:43.399
So ooh, ooh, ooh ooh. Trying to think there's some

1091
01:26:43.520 --> 01:26:46.159
other Yeah, in the summers we used to well in

1092
01:26:46.680 --> 01:26:49.640
wasn't that many summers, was it. But I remember one

1093
01:26:49.680 --> 01:26:52.960
summer we met up in this park around the corner

1094
01:26:52.960 --> 01:26:56.399
from where I lived and would run around and then

1095
01:26:56.439 --> 01:27:01.319
we'd spar and stuff. It's brilliant. It wouldn't be something

1096
01:27:01.439 --> 01:27:04.760
I would do myself. I wouldn't go to a park

1097
01:27:04.800 --> 01:27:08.840
and start practicing karate. But when you've got a bunch

1098
01:27:08.880 --> 01:27:12.960
of black belts with you adults, it's kind of you

1099
01:27:13.119 --> 01:27:18.840
do what you want, really, So it was nice. I'm

1100
01:27:18.880 --> 01:27:23.840
trying to think other moments of the karate, getting my

1101
01:27:24.439 --> 01:27:27.479
getting my gradings was nice, getting my first class grade

1102
01:27:27.560 --> 01:27:32.119
ins and getting a new belt. That was always good,

1103
01:27:35.680 --> 01:27:40.279
feeling part of something that for the first time I

1104
01:27:40.439 --> 01:27:44.199
was quite good at. I'm not saying I was, but

1105
01:27:44.640 --> 01:27:47.199
for the okay, for the first time I felt I

1106
01:27:47.279 --> 01:27:54.319
wasn't really bad at something because previously that I'd been

1107
01:27:54.319 --> 01:28:03.239
in the cecredets, and it took me over two years

1108
01:28:05.239 --> 01:28:08.279
to get my first badge, and most people get it

1109
01:28:08.319 --> 01:28:14.239
within two or three months. And every Friday, where every

1110
01:28:14.239 --> 01:28:18.359
other Friday, they would read out who's got the next badge?

1111
01:28:19.119 --> 01:28:22.920
Sometimes people would get it in a month or six weeks,

1112
01:28:23.800 --> 01:28:30.039
and I got passed over every single time. It got

1113
01:28:30.039 --> 01:28:32.720
to the point where I was a laughing stock that'd

1114
01:28:32.760 --> 01:28:39.199
actually read out and not Newlan and it became a joke,

1115
01:28:39.319 --> 01:28:43.640
like a running joke that I didn't get promoted. I

1116
01:28:43.760 --> 01:28:46.479
was like at the lowest level for the whole time,

1117
01:28:46.520 --> 01:28:53.960
pretty much, and then one night they read my name

1118
01:28:53.960 --> 01:28:59.840
out and the whole place erupted because it was such

1119
01:28:59.840 --> 01:29:04.520
a build up over a long period of time, the

1120
01:29:04.560 --> 01:29:08.439
fact that I finally got my first was it junior

1121
01:29:08.600 --> 01:29:14.079
seaman or something. I forget the first badge, and I

1122
01:29:14.119 --> 01:29:16.520
think I got demoted the next week, but it still

1123
01:29:16.560 --> 01:29:19.640
had it for a little while. I was always getting

1124
01:29:19.640 --> 01:29:24.520
in trouble, always in trouble at school, in trouble at

1125
01:29:24.560 --> 01:29:28.000
the ciccredets, because I just didn't I wasn't good with

1126
01:29:29.239 --> 01:29:31.359
I wasn't a big fan of people telling me what

1127
01:29:31.479 --> 01:29:40.560
to do really, and it was weird. It's kind of

1128
01:29:40.600 --> 01:29:43.439
such a weird thing because my dad wouldn't let me

1129
01:29:43.560 --> 01:29:48.880
leave the Ciccredets because there was a point where I'm like,

1130
01:29:49.359 --> 01:29:52.199
when I first got there, I found it funny because

1131
01:29:52.239 --> 01:29:54.880
they'd be shouting at me. And I find it funny

1132
01:29:54.920 --> 01:29:58.800
because I knew that I could just walk out and

1133
01:29:58.840 --> 01:30:02.159
I didn't have to do it. You know, it is

1134
01:30:02.199 --> 01:30:06.680
a choice. And then when I said I wanted to leave,

1135
01:30:07.000 --> 01:30:14.760
I was told no, and I got this some weird

1136
01:30:14.880 --> 01:30:19.119
man adult shouting in my face. I was like, okay,

1137
01:30:20.880 --> 01:30:26.119
I can't. This is not funny anymore. So, yeah, I

1138
01:30:26.199 --> 01:30:30.039
left my first opportunity. I got out of there, and

1139
01:30:31.279 --> 01:30:35.560
there was a family, a family thing, a little family

1140
01:30:35.600 --> 01:30:41.039
adventure between the parents, and that gave me the opportunity

1141
01:30:41.119 --> 01:30:44.199
to get out of the cecretets. And then I started

1142
01:30:44.199 --> 01:30:53.279
doing karate, so yeah, well loved karates so much. And

1143
01:30:53.359 --> 01:30:57.119
I remember I had oh yeah, I had also to really,

1144
01:30:57.399 --> 01:30:59.720
I used to buy stuff and I had the like

1145
01:30:59.800 --> 01:31:04.479
the gym stuff, the bags, punch bags, the weights, but

1146
01:31:04.520 --> 01:31:10.000
I also had martial arts weapons as well, because next

1147
01:31:10.000 --> 01:31:12.920
to the way to do my grade which was in

1148
01:31:12.960 --> 01:31:16.840
the next town. They had a martial arts shop next

1149
01:31:16.920 --> 01:31:22.800
to the karate center the club. Because our club was

1150
01:31:22.880 --> 01:31:26.159
just in a gym, they actually had a purpose built club,

1151
01:31:28.680 --> 01:31:31.279
so I went into the I used to go into

1152
01:31:31.319 --> 01:31:39.000
the martial arts shop and I'd buy Bruce Lee magazines, nunchucks,

1153
01:31:39.640 --> 01:31:43.880
throwing stars, stuff like that, or i'd buy them. I

1154
01:31:43.920 --> 01:31:46.600
was gonna say I'd buy them online, but obviously can't

1155
01:31:46.680 --> 01:31:49.560
do that, but I would there. Used to be like

1156
01:31:49.600 --> 01:31:53.399
with the martial arts magazines. I don't even remember what

1157
01:31:53.479 --> 01:31:58.359
it's called, probably Martial Arts Monthly or something, and you

1158
01:31:58.399 --> 01:32:02.760
could order stuff through the post. So that's what I

1159
01:32:02.760 --> 01:32:07.640
would do from these martial arts shops in London. So

1160
01:32:08.359 --> 01:32:13.680
I had so I've got some nunchucks. I might have

1161
01:32:13.760 --> 01:32:16.359
had two pairs of nunchucks. I also had a plastic

1162
01:32:16.399 --> 01:32:22.760
pair of nunchucks, which is good for practicing multiple throwing stars,

1163
01:32:22.920 --> 01:32:25.960
which I used to play with in the garden, which

1164
01:32:26.000 --> 01:32:28.239
is weird because probably not a good idea to let

1165
01:32:28.239 --> 01:32:34.039
a kid play with throwing stars. And what else did

1166
01:32:34.039 --> 01:32:42.760
I have? I think it was mainly books. So I

1167
01:32:42.800 --> 01:32:46.840
had books on different kung fu styles, teaching different kung

1168
01:32:46.920 --> 01:32:49.439
fu moves and I used to practice all that stuff

1169
01:32:50.560 --> 01:32:57.279
and exercise books martial art exercises to help strengthen the body,

1170
01:32:57.359 --> 01:33:01.119
and yeah, I had lots of stuff like that to buy,

1171
01:33:01.840 --> 01:33:07.960
and the regular monthly weekly kung fu martial arts magazines

1172
01:33:08.600 --> 01:33:12.920
Karate monthly. I was also got into boxing as well.

1173
01:33:14.439 --> 01:33:16.760
Kind of a little bit later than that, but I

1174
01:33:16.800 --> 01:33:21.119
started buying ko which is a knockout monthly, I think,

1175
01:33:22.680 --> 01:33:25.800
and it kind of led me towards the fitness side

1176
01:33:25.800 --> 01:33:30.840
of things. I got into bodybuilding. Never worked with me

1177
01:33:30.840 --> 01:33:36.119
because my body would not build, but I got interested

1178
01:33:36.159 --> 01:33:38.560
in it and started to learn all that bodybuilding and

1179
01:33:38.800 --> 01:33:42.039
die at because I was into going to the gym

1180
01:33:42.239 --> 01:33:44.239
because the gym around the corners used to go there

1181
01:33:44.239 --> 01:33:51.399
as well. And the thing is, when I was fifteen,

1182
01:33:52.279 --> 01:33:54.800
I had a really good body, but no one knew

1183
01:33:54.800 --> 01:33:56.560
I had a good body because I was so little.

1184
01:33:58.640 --> 01:34:02.279
That might sound like a weird stay. I kind of

1185
01:34:02.359 --> 01:34:10.239
looked it was very muscular, but I was little. It's

1186
01:34:10.319 --> 01:34:14.319
hard to explain so because I'm obviously not explaining very well.

1187
01:34:15.560 --> 01:34:17.800
When I started working at a chip shop, I remember

1188
01:34:17.920 --> 01:34:23.239
my my boss laughing at me. I was fifteen, and

1189
01:34:23.279 --> 01:34:25.800
I said, I got muscles and he said. He started laughing.

1190
01:34:26.399 --> 01:34:32.079
So I pulled my top off, my sleeve up and

1191
01:34:32.199 --> 01:34:34.399
showed them. He's like, oh, wow, so I did. I

1192
01:34:34.479 --> 01:34:38.199
had muscles. I had biceps because I've been working out

1193
01:34:38.239 --> 01:34:40.840
for a couple of years. I'm not saying that they

1194
01:34:40.880 --> 01:34:45.520
were big, but they were fern, you know, fern muscles.

1195
01:34:46.319 --> 01:34:50.239
Chest I had six pack and all that stuff. I

1196
01:34:50.319 --> 01:34:56.119
was just one big, very sinewy muscle though, because I

1197
01:34:56.159 --> 01:35:02.920
was so little, so so light, and not particularly strong either.

1198
01:35:03.760 --> 01:35:08.359
But no foul on me at all. But I never

1199
01:35:08.439 --> 01:35:10.760
used to walk around the top off or anything because

1200
01:35:11.000 --> 01:35:13.680
if I had it done, people might have thought that

1201
01:35:13.720 --> 01:35:18.319
I looked okay. But I was embarrassed with how slim

1202
01:35:18.319 --> 01:35:25.439
I was, so I never did that. A strange one, really.

1203
01:35:28.239 --> 01:35:32.119
H what I say, I used to love doing I

1204
01:35:32.239 --> 01:35:35.560
used to love sort of avident magazines and the books.

1205
01:35:36.960 --> 01:35:39.560
That's always seems to be how I do things or

1206
01:35:39.600 --> 01:35:42.520
I have done things over the years. Want to get

1207
01:35:42.520 --> 01:35:47.319
a special interest. So before it used to be before karate,

1208
01:35:47.600 --> 01:35:59.199
it was it's really interested in like Werewes and vampires

1209
01:35:59.199 --> 01:36:02.479
and that kind of stuff. I just got really interested in.

1210
01:36:02.520 --> 01:36:08.319
It just became something that I was passionate about. And

1211
01:36:08.399 --> 01:36:11.680
I'd go to the library on my day on my

1212
01:36:11.760 --> 01:36:14.880
days off at the weekend on a Saturday, and I'd

1213
01:36:14.920 --> 01:36:21.359
study look through these big textbooks and encyclopedias and copy

1214
01:36:21.479 --> 01:36:26.920
stuff down. And I learned so much about it. There

1215
01:36:27.000 --> 01:36:29.159
was no reason for it other than I just became

1216
01:36:29.199 --> 01:36:33.279
interested and I learned more than I needed to about

1217
01:36:33.279 --> 01:36:38.880
the subject, and I started buying books about it, and

1218
01:36:39.279 --> 01:36:41.800
I learned quite a little bit, quite a lot about

1219
01:36:41.800 --> 01:36:46.960
all that whole thing. And then then I got obsessed

1220
01:36:46.960 --> 01:36:52.800
with karate. Yeah, so that was when I was about

1221
01:36:52.800 --> 01:36:58.520
eleven twelve, sort of same time possibly as the Secredets.

1222
01:36:59.479 --> 01:37:04.279
But I had no interest in the see Cadets, didn't

1223
01:37:04.279 --> 01:37:07.840
even like it. I had to laugh when I was there,

1224
01:37:11.279 --> 01:37:15.800
but didn't enjoy being there really. I had to start

1225
01:37:15.840 --> 01:37:18.640
with it was a nice relief and being at home,

1226
01:37:19.359 --> 01:37:24.760
and then it became a chore. And then once I

1227
01:37:24.840 --> 01:37:26.920
did karate, that was nice because I was out of

1228
01:37:26.960 --> 01:37:29.720
the house. I was also doing something that I enjoyed,

1229
01:37:30.880 --> 01:37:34.960
and for the first time my childhood, I had something

1230
01:37:35.000 --> 01:37:39.600
to look forward to, which was going to karate, and

1231
01:37:39.640 --> 01:37:43.880
that's all I talked about to anyone. I didn't talk

1232
01:37:43.880 --> 01:37:48.880
about anything else, just karate. Seriously, it must have been

1233
01:37:48.960 --> 01:37:52.520
really boring for people. I mean, you're probably going to

1234
01:37:52.560 --> 01:37:54.199
get an idea of how boring it is because you

1235
01:37:54.359 --> 01:37:58.439
just listen to me talking about it for the last

1236
01:38:00.079 --> 01:38:09.520
and a half. Also, I love the karate. I'm just

1237
01:38:09.520 --> 01:38:13.520
trying to think, is there any other aspects of karate

1238
01:38:13.760 --> 01:38:25.079
that I remember that stand out? Hmmm? So my little

1239
01:38:25.079 --> 01:38:39.720
brother going no, oh, I'll tell you what I did

1240
01:38:39.760 --> 01:38:45.159
do is another one of the black belts that like

1241
01:38:45.239 --> 01:38:48.680
the young black belts in the Cry Club. He left

1242
01:38:48.720 --> 01:38:51.239
to start his own club on a Friday night somewhere else,

1243
01:38:52.359 --> 01:38:59.840
and I basically talked him into having kids go straight

1244
01:39:00.119 --> 01:39:04.640
way as well as adults. So I got my little

1245
01:39:04.640 --> 01:39:09.239
brother to go and he was seven, so that whole

1246
01:39:09.359 --> 01:39:13.920
his club started off with little kids straight away and adults.

1247
01:39:15.920 --> 01:39:20.439
I don't know if he I don't think he continued

1248
01:39:21.359 --> 01:39:23.800
in that town, but he might have moved somewhere else

1249
01:39:23.920 --> 01:39:26.600
and did it. But he was It was a really

1250
01:39:26.640 --> 01:39:32.600
cool He was a cool dude. Dude, cool dude. He

1251
01:39:32.680 --> 01:39:40.359
was about eighteen nineteen, and he was just the kind

1252
01:39:40.399 --> 01:39:42.319
of person that I'd want to be, the kind of

1253
01:39:42.319 --> 01:39:45.359
person I'd still want to be now and never was,

1254
01:39:45.520 --> 01:39:51.439
never could be, never will be. He just almost like

1255
01:39:51.520 --> 01:39:56.479
the perfect person. He had everything. I'd say, obviously didn't

1256
01:39:56.520 --> 01:39:59.720
have everything, but from the outside it looked like he

1257
01:39:59.800 --> 01:40:05.000
had everything. You know, he was or clearly very tough.

1258
01:40:05.439 --> 01:40:12.439
He was brilliant at karate. It was a good looking bloke.

1259
01:40:13.439 --> 01:40:21.560
He was person great personality, extremely confident. But it's hard

1260
01:40:21.640 --> 01:40:24.039
not to be confident. I think if you're a black

1261
01:40:24.039 --> 01:40:27.159
belt when you're a teenager, he's going to have confidence

1262
01:40:27.199 --> 01:40:33.560
there and you. So that's the one thing I would

1263
01:40:33.680 --> 01:40:37.960
say to any any parent that's got a kid, get

1264
01:40:38.000 --> 01:40:44.720
him down to some kind of martial arts because the

1265
01:40:44.800 --> 01:40:50.239
confidence that comes from it is pretty cool. And whether

1266
01:40:50.279 --> 01:40:57.000
it's karate, judo, jiu jitsu, whatever, it's just something so

1267
01:40:57.279 --> 01:40:59.079
you know that they can take care of themselves. But

1268
01:40:59.159 --> 01:41:03.079
more than that, it's people are confident quite often never

1269
01:41:03.119 --> 01:41:09.239
ever need to use it. The higher they get in

1270
01:41:09.319 --> 01:41:12.000
the training, the less chance they ever going to need

1271
01:41:12.039 --> 01:41:15.560
to use it, because it's almost like an aura comes

1272
01:41:15.600 --> 01:41:23.000
often the confidence. Maybe now I know people have done

1273
01:41:23.039 --> 01:41:31.039
martial arts for decades and never ever had to use it. Yeah, man,

1274
01:41:34.039 --> 01:41:42.840
what else? What else? What else? What else? Because I'm

1275
01:41:42.840 --> 01:41:45.199
only talking about karates I'm not talking about any of

1276
01:41:45.199 --> 01:41:47.720
the other martial arts I've done, so just about the

1277
01:41:47.760 --> 01:41:51.520
karate when I was at school. I'm trying to think

1278
01:41:51.560 --> 01:42:09.319
of anything else that happened they are in that environment. No,

1279
01:42:09.439 --> 01:42:17.199
I can't think of anything now. It's pretty much it. Yeah,

1280
01:42:18.399 --> 01:42:21.319
I mean I've got to I quite like getting to

1281
01:42:21.359 --> 01:42:27.720
know a few adults, because I tell you, Okay, one

1282
01:42:27.720 --> 01:42:30.439
of the things I liked about the Charate Club I

1283
01:42:30.560 --> 01:42:33.520
got to know some adults that I would generally I

1284
01:42:33.520 --> 01:42:36.359
didn't know any adults other than I suppose friends of

1285
01:42:36.439 --> 01:42:40.439
the family and teachers, and I didn't want to know them.

1286
01:42:40.520 --> 01:42:44.840
So I got to know a few adults I could

1287
01:42:44.840 --> 01:42:47.279
say he lo too. And I was getting to the

1288
01:42:47.319 --> 01:42:49.960
point of leaving school anyway, you know, I was fourteen,

1289
01:42:50.359 --> 01:43:01.199
left school at fifteen, and yeah, that was quite cool.

1290
01:43:01.279 --> 01:43:05.159
Kind of go around and had a neighbor and I

1291
01:43:05.199 --> 01:43:08.479
go around his and would train together sometimes because he

1292
01:43:08.600 --> 01:43:18.279
was also doing judo. And another good thing is I

1293
01:43:18.399 --> 01:43:23.880
made some new friends. And there was this rivalry between

1294
01:43:24.640 --> 01:43:30.720
the two high schools, and there was less rivalry for

1295
01:43:30.880 --> 01:43:36.800
me because everything I did from the age of eleven

1296
01:43:38.920 --> 01:43:44.399
to leaving school I did with people from the other

1297
01:43:44.479 --> 01:43:48.840
school as well, So in the sigadets, probably half of

1298
01:43:48.880 --> 01:43:51.000
the kids in the cigaudettes were from the other school

1299
01:43:51.640 --> 01:43:55.359
as well as my school, so I knew them. And

1300
01:43:55.399 --> 01:43:58.600
then when I did karate, the karate club was actually

1301
01:43:58.600 --> 01:44:01.760
at the other school, and so there was more kids

1302
01:44:01.800 --> 01:44:03.920
from that school than there was for my own school,

1303
01:44:05.039 --> 01:44:08.039
so I got to know them. So it was kind

1304
01:44:08.079 --> 01:44:11.279
of quite good because then that rivalry wasn't there for me.

1305
01:44:12.079 --> 01:44:15.399
I got to meet different people differ from both the schools,

1306
01:44:16.680 --> 01:44:20.119
and there wasn't so much of that like them and

1307
01:44:20.239 --> 01:44:25.600
us when it came to me. Yeah, I liked that.

1308
01:44:26.239 --> 01:44:30.920
It was nice. Yeah, I made a few friends I

1309
01:44:31.039 --> 01:44:34.359
used to hang out with. It was one friend I

1310
01:44:34.359 --> 01:44:38.960
thought he was a girl when he first started, and

1311
01:44:41.079 --> 01:44:44.680
there was a boy and his mum was also there,

1312
01:44:44.840 --> 01:44:47.720
and yeah, I just ended up hanging around with room

1313
01:44:47.760 --> 01:44:52.560
for a little bit. He was probably about a year

1314
01:44:52.640 --> 01:44:55.560
younger than me, I think, but his mum was really

1315
01:44:55.560 --> 01:44:58.680
cool and I'd go around and she'd give me dinner

1316
01:44:58.720 --> 01:45:08.319
and stuff. I'm trying to think what else. Yeah, I

1317
01:45:08.359 --> 01:45:11.119
didn't have any friends at my school they did karate

1318
01:45:11.760 --> 01:45:17.920
other than Stephen's brother, I think nearly everyone else that

1319
01:45:18.039 --> 01:45:20.079
went to karate with me was from the other school,

1320
01:45:20.920 --> 01:45:22.920
which is for some reason, I don't know why that was.

1321
01:45:24.640 --> 01:45:27.520
I suppose it's I guess if you've got karate in

1322
01:45:27.560 --> 01:45:34.479
your school, you'd more like to go there. But yeah, so,

1323
01:45:34.960 --> 01:45:43.800
I mean there was a couple, there was two three, three,

1324
01:45:44.239 --> 01:45:47.760
three and me, so there's about four of us were

1325
01:45:47.800 --> 01:45:53.199
actually from my school and everyone else was from the school.

1326
01:45:53.239 --> 01:45:56.439
It was in other than you know, the kids I've done,

1327
01:45:56.600 --> 01:46:06.600
rather than adults. So there was probably i'd say ten

1328
01:46:06.640 --> 01:46:16.359
percent adults, like adult adults, m maybe twenty percent adults,

1329
01:46:18.880 --> 01:46:24.199
so people in their twenties plus, and then maybe twenty

1330
01:46:24.239 --> 01:46:30.560
percent of older teens you're like maybe seventeen to twenty

1331
01:46:31.399 --> 01:46:41.239
kind of, and then maybe I don't know, I would

1332
01:46:41.239 --> 01:46:54.479
say the majority was hmmm, yeah, I'd say probably thirteen

1333
01:46:55.119 --> 01:47:00.159
or twelve. Thirteen to sixteen there seemed to be the

1334
01:47:00.199 --> 01:47:03.079
main age group, but there was a few older and

1335
01:47:03.159 --> 01:47:09.800
a few even older than that. When I started, and

1336
01:47:09.840 --> 01:47:13.479
then when I left, there was probably another ten percent

1337
01:47:15.319 --> 01:47:20.560
of under under eleven or on the other twelve whatever

1338
01:47:20.800 --> 01:47:25.920
the rest of you know. The former age limit was

1339
01:47:26.720 --> 01:47:33.640
until my pestering allowed open the gates for kids to

1340
01:47:33.680 --> 01:47:41.119
go along like really young kids, like my little brother. Yeah,

1341
01:47:41.560 --> 01:47:43.920
I never realized that that was the proudest moment in

1342
01:47:43.920 --> 01:47:48.840
my life until this moment. It's the only thing I've

1343
01:47:48.880 --> 01:47:59.199
done my whole life. I'll tell you. What's weird is

1344
01:47:59.479 --> 01:48:05.159
it's now starting to get dark. It's nearly ten o'clock.

1345
01:48:07.079 --> 01:48:14.600
It's nine fifty six, and it's dark inside, not like

1346
01:48:14.920 --> 01:48:20.520
dark dark as in like I can't see anything dark,

1347
01:48:22.000 --> 01:48:26.319
but it's still light outside. It's not light light so

1348
01:48:26.359 --> 01:48:30.000
you can see everything, but it's light enough to go

1349
01:48:30.119 --> 01:48:36.960
out and not need a torch. That makes sense. And

1350
01:48:37.079 --> 01:48:40.880
what's weird is this is now the time, even though

1351
01:48:40.920 --> 01:48:46.840
this is technically probably the peak of the summer, like

1352
01:48:47.000 --> 01:48:53.640
beginning of July. Well maybe June is, but you know, roughly,

1353
01:48:54.079 --> 01:48:57.760
this is kind of the peak time. Last week is

1354
01:48:57.880 --> 01:49:03.199
very hot, This coming week exposed be very hot. But

1355
01:49:03.359 --> 01:49:06.760
now we've already had the longest stay, so it's starting

1356
01:49:06.800 --> 01:49:14.880
to get darker earlier and get lighter later. That might

1357
01:49:14.920 --> 01:49:21.159
it's only maybe, I don't know, a few minutes a week,

1358
01:49:24.520 --> 01:49:29.520
but it's really weird how quickly it starts to get darker,

1359
01:49:29.800 --> 01:49:35.239
because in a month's time it'll be completely pitch black

1360
01:49:35.399 --> 01:49:45.800
by now at ten o'clock, and then in September it'll

1361
01:49:45.840 --> 01:49:53.840
be dark probably by eight o'clock, if not earlier, possibly

1362
01:49:53.880 --> 01:50:05.720
seven o'clock, and then by November. December is just dark

1363
01:50:05.760 --> 01:50:11.600
all the time. It feels like it sometimes like it never.

1364
01:50:12.199 --> 01:50:14.000
There are days when it just doesn't seem to get

1365
01:50:14.079 --> 01:50:18.640
much brighter than this how it is now. I mean,

1366
01:50:18.800 --> 01:50:22.520
it's this kind of light at three in the afternoon

1367
01:50:22.560 --> 01:50:31.600
sometimes in December, especially unlike a cloudy day. You know,

1368
01:50:31.600 --> 01:50:33.960
I have to have the light on and look outside.

1369
01:50:34.239 --> 01:50:39.479
It's just, yeah, weird dark at four in the afternoon

1370
01:50:42.359 --> 01:50:47.000
in January. So we're not there yet, but it's kind

1371
01:50:47.000 --> 01:50:51.760
of weird that this is the kind of the peak,

1372
01:50:52.359 --> 01:50:56.960
the peak of the summer. It's a bit windy today.

1373
01:50:57.279 --> 01:51:01.399
Someone's put a brick in front of the the gate

1374
01:51:01.560 --> 01:51:06.159
that keeps slamming shut, so I'm guessing someone's been a

1375
01:51:06.199 --> 01:51:09.600
little bit mildly annoyed by it. So that was a

1376
01:51:09.640 --> 01:51:18.239
good idea. I'm surprised someone hasn't moved it. There's always

1377
01:51:18.520 --> 01:51:20.920
there's always like one person wants one thing and then

1378
01:51:20.960 --> 01:51:25.000
another person wants another thing. So someone wants it left open,

1379
01:51:25.079 --> 01:51:30.199
another possus wants it left closed. It's like, just leave

1380
01:51:30.279 --> 01:51:35.239
it be, man, Just chill out, chill out, and just

1381
01:51:35.439 --> 01:51:40.439
enjoy all the chocolate. That's what my things to say.

1382
01:51:41.279 --> 01:51:46.520
That's before the diveets. But I can't think of any

1383
01:51:46.600 --> 01:51:54.000
other things connected to karate that I can talk about.

1384
01:51:54.199 --> 01:52:01.119
I can't. Hmm, you think that's something else, wouldn't you?

1385
01:52:04.560 --> 01:52:11.760
What else? What else? What else? What else? Karaday kardaate Old,

1386
01:52:11.840 --> 01:52:15.920
the Karate Kid. I remember watching that and there was

1387
01:52:18.479 --> 01:52:20.960
I think it's the first time I was in tune

1388
01:52:22.840 --> 01:52:29.479
with what was going on. Like the Karate Kid was

1389
01:52:29.800 --> 01:52:34.960
so popular in the Western world, and loads of people

1390
01:52:35.000 --> 01:52:38.319
wanted to do karate because they wanted to be a

1391
01:52:38.439 --> 01:52:46.039
karate man. And I think at that time I was

1392
01:52:46.039 --> 01:52:48.840
already doing it. So I think the karate called was

1393
01:52:48.880 --> 01:52:52.000
a five, So I was already a karate kid before

1394
01:52:52.039 --> 01:52:55.840
The Karate Kid came out. It's like, yeah, I was

1395
01:52:55.840 --> 01:53:01.319
ahead of the curve, head of the curve, which is cool.

1396
01:53:04.319 --> 01:53:06.960
But there was a dream I'd had for years, you know,

1397
01:53:07.000 --> 01:53:09.159
ever since I was a little kid. Wanted to do

1398
01:53:09.239 --> 01:53:12.640
martial arts. I wanted to be kung Fu from a

1399
01:53:12.720 --> 01:53:16.920
TV show kung Fu. Technically his name was Kane, but

1400
01:53:17.319 --> 01:53:19.800
you know, that's why I wanted to be. I wanted

1401
01:53:19.800 --> 01:53:22.880
to be not just to be able to do the moves,

1402
01:53:22.960 --> 01:53:32.000
but also to be calm and peaceful and not not

1403
01:53:32.119 --> 01:53:38.399
react because he was so calmly just he did what

1404
01:53:38.479 --> 01:53:43.279
he needed to do, but he didn't overreact to people

1405
01:53:43.359 --> 01:53:48.560
trying to, you know, get him agitated. I never learned

1406
01:53:48.560 --> 01:53:51.359
that bit. That's a bit I never learned. I kind

1407
01:53:51.359 --> 01:53:55.039
of learned it now. It's taken me a little while.

1408
01:53:56.880 --> 01:54:03.520
I'm better than I used to be. Yeah, but I did.

1409
01:54:03.640 --> 01:54:08.279
I like the spiritual side of it as well, and

1410
01:54:08.319 --> 01:54:11.680
I guess I found that with maybe Buddhism when I

1411
01:54:11.720 --> 01:54:14.520
was older, reading Buddhism when I was in my twenties

1412
01:54:14.560 --> 01:54:20.920
and studying it, Taoism as well, and as well as well. Yeah,

1413
01:54:20.960 --> 01:54:30.119
I think I forget and that's it really. That was

1414
01:54:30.159 --> 01:54:38.479
my little karate career when I was at school. As

1415
01:54:38.520 --> 01:54:51.600
I got older, like moving towards leaving school, I started,

1416
01:54:54.000 --> 01:54:56.279
if you can hear that someone's doing it in the garden,

1417
01:54:58.399 --> 01:55:01.520
I started kind of going out and doing stuff and

1418
01:55:02.000 --> 01:55:05.840
kind of moved away from it a bit. But that's

1419
01:55:05.960 --> 01:55:19.840
kind of standard. I think sounds like the motorbike's gone.

1420
01:55:19.880 --> 01:55:22.960
Now what a silly time to be riding a motbike

1421
01:55:23.039 --> 01:55:28.239
in a garden three minutes past ten in the evening.

1422
01:55:28.800 --> 01:55:35.439
My goodness. So I started to move away from it,

1423
01:55:36.600 --> 01:55:42.199
started to do things with my friends, go to the cinema,

1424
01:55:43.479 --> 01:55:50.239
hang out, do things instead of going to karate. You know,

1425
01:55:50.399 --> 01:55:54.720
this was just pretty much just before I left school,

1426
01:55:55.119 --> 01:55:57.000
and then after I left school. That was kind of

1427
01:55:57.039 --> 01:56:04.319
it because I was working in a chip shop. For

1428
01:56:04.359 --> 01:56:08.039
some reason. I chose the job which didn't allow me

1429
01:56:08.119 --> 01:56:15.399
to continue doing karate. Possibly wasn't the best career move

1430
01:56:15.479 --> 01:56:19.199
I ever made, but it is what I did and

1431
01:56:19.239 --> 01:56:26.239
I can't change that, So there you go. But I'm

1432
01:56:26.279 --> 01:56:28.560
glad I did the karate. I'm glad I did that

1433
01:56:28.600 --> 01:56:33.520
at school. I wish i'd started earlier, but I wasn't

1434
01:56:33.520 --> 01:56:38.199
allowed to say, hey. I Also I wish i'd done boxing.

1435
01:56:39.800 --> 01:56:41.840
The thing is boxing was in a different town, so

1436
01:56:41.880 --> 01:56:44.159
I did go, so I had a friend that went,

1437
01:56:45.520 --> 01:56:49.319
but it was a lot of I mean, it was expensive,

1438
01:56:49.439 --> 01:56:52.359
the bus, I was getting home late, and it just

1439
01:56:52.600 --> 01:56:57.560
wasn't really practical, so I didn't go. I did sort

1440
01:56:57.560 --> 01:57:00.399
of stop going. I did a bit of kick boxing

1441
01:57:00.560 --> 01:57:03.359
before I did the karate as well. That was with

1442
01:57:03.439 --> 01:57:10.000
a neighbor opposite who was in the American Forces, and

1443
01:57:10.960 --> 01:57:15.319
the kid next door to me wanted He wanted to

1444
01:57:15.359 --> 01:57:20.560
teach him kickboxing, but needed someone else to teach him with.

1445
01:57:20.720 --> 01:57:25.079
He needed an opponent and someone to spar with. So

1446
01:57:25.720 --> 01:57:27.760
the kid asked me if I had come along. So

1447
01:57:27.840 --> 01:57:30.560
I did. There'd been my next door neighbor for a

1448
01:57:30.560 --> 01:57:34.600
few years. The thing I didn't like about that is

1449
01:57:34.640 --> 01:57:36.800
a couple of things. First, I didn't like the stretching.

1450
01:57:37.600 --> 01:57:42.600
I never stretched before. It was not fun and I

1451
01:57:42.640 --> 01:57:46.800
felt it for days afterwards. I know he still did

1452
01:57:46.840 --> 01:57:51.159
stretching in karate, but it was stretching in a kickboxing

1453
01:57:51.399 --> 01:57:54.560
It was really full on. And the other thing I

1454
01:57:54.600 --> 01:57:58.560
didn't like is but I didn't really appreciate it was

1455
01:58:00.119 --> 01:58:06.039
the man teaching us was so he had. It was

1456
01:58:06.079 --> 01:58:09.720
only two of us training, and so he talked to us.

1457
01:58:09.760 --> 01:58:12.640
He taught he had towards the basic punches, kicks and stuff,

1458
01:58:13.279 --> 01:58:17.960
and then he got aspiring, but he was shouting in

1459
01:58:19.319 --> 01:58:24.119
support of the other kid, not me. I didn't like that.

1460
01:58:25.600 --> 01:58:28.960
It bugged me, still still bugs me today. It's just

1461
01:58:29.039 --> 01:58:34.920
like what you're doing is he can't invite two kids

1462
01:58:35.359 --> 01:58:39.039
to come along and train them and then side with

1463
01:58:39.159 --> 01:58:43.079
one over the other, especially as neither of us were

1464
01:58:43.079 --> 01:58:48.159
really we were just neighbors. He hadn't known he'd known

1465
01:58:48.239 --> 01:58:52.199
us all the same length for time that he knew

1466
01:58:52.239 --> 01:58:56.439
my parents. The bloke he knew the parents next door,

1467
01:58:58.880 --> 01:59:03.920
so very strange. I knew his I knew his his

1468
01:59:04.079 --> 01:59:08.520
son because his son was Yeah, I used to go

1469
01:59:08.680 --> 01:59:11.119
up in there and I used to hang around with

1470
01:59:11.119 --> 01:59:14.680
his son sometimes, so I've been in his house a

1471
01:59:14.680 --> 01:59:19.359
few times, so he knew me. So I don't know

1472
01:59:20.279 --> 01:59:23.960
but decide maybe that's why, because he kind of got

1473
01:59:24.000 --> 01:59:28.600
to know me a bit and he thought, you know,

1474
01:59:28.880 --> 01:59:33.720
try and teach the other kid to win. But neither

1475
01:59:33.720 --> 01:59:38.439
of us won. Because we were both both the same size,

1476
01:59:38.479 --> 01:59:41.359
because he was younger than me, both pretty much the

1477
01:59:41.359 --> 01:59:43.880
same size. That's why I was picked to do it,

1478
01:59:44.039 --> 01:59:50.920
you know, probably the same kind of strength level, and

1479
01:59:51.000 --> 01:59:55.199
we couldn't hurt each other if we tried. We couldn't.

1480
01:59:55.359 --> 01:59:58.800
It was just we were padded up, really properly padded

1481
01:59:58.880 --> 02:00:07.199
up body, legs, feets, hands, maybe even elbows and head.

1482
02:00:07.720 --> 02:00:19.640
So there is almost like it's yeah, it be a

1483
02:00:19.640 --> 02:00:24.880
little bit like getting a little glass thimble wrapping it

1484
02:00:25.000 --> 02:00:31.800
up in bubble rap, like a whole two hundred foot

1485
02:00:31.840 --> 02:00:35.840
bit of bubble rap, and tying it all together all

1486
02:00:35.880 --> 02:00:41.479
around and then covering it in foam. So the ball

1487
02:00:41.560 --> 02:00:44.000
is probably about, you know, the size of a house,

1488
02:00:44.680 --> 02:00:50.800
and then just dropping a two inches. You're not you're

1489
02:00:50.840 --> 02:00:56.199
not going to make any difference to the little glass thimble,

1490
02:00:57.800 --> 02:01:01.000
little glass the little tiny little glass thing. It's not

1491
02:01:01.000 --> 02:01:03.640
going to break because it's you know, it's so protected.

1492
02:01:04.000 --> 02:01:06.119
That's a little bit like what we were like, we've

1493
02:01:06.159 --> 02:01:13.479
all a padding on. I seemed like a good analogy

1494
02:01:13.640 --> 02:01:16.600
until I started and I realized it was going on

1495
02:01:16.680 --> 02:01:20.560
a bit too far. And I also thought, I'm saying

1496
02:01:20.640 --> 02:01:23.520
glass thimble. Does anyone know what I mean when I

1497
02:01:23.520 --> 02:01:27.880
say glass stimble? And I'll explain what I meant is

1498
02:01:28.399 --> 02:01:31.399
because you can get metal thimbles. It's basically what people

1499
02:01:31.479 --> 02:01:34.119
use when they do sewing, because they use it to

1500
02:01:34.199 --> 02:01:40.159
push the needle through through the cotton or whatever, so

1501
02:01:40.199 --> 02:01:44.560
it's kind of it just protects the thumb. But you

1502
02:01:44.560 --> 02:01:46.760
can also get glass ones, or at least you used

1503
02:01:46.760 --> 02:01:48.720
to be able to, and they have little dents in

1504
02:01:48.760 --> 02:01:54.079
them so that it would it would catch the needle

1505
02:01:54.119 --> 02:01:55.720
or the end of the needle as you pushed it in.

1506
02:01:56.239 --> 02:02:07.079
So yeah, anyway, that's what explain that. So this brings

1507
02:02:07.199 --> 02:02:13.039
me to the end of the recording again, La la

1508
02:02:13.119 --> 02:02:18.239
la la la. So thank you for listening. Remember to

1509
02:02:18.279 --> 02:02:22.640
be kind to yourself, because you do deserve to feel

1510
02:02:22.680 --> 02:02:29.760
happy and be gentle with yourself. You deserve to feel safe,

1511
02:02:30.600 --> 02:02:46.920
lots of love. Bye bye bye. Relax in a more

1512
02:02:47.920 --> 02:02:58.079
deep and meaningful way, maybe in a way that can

1513
02:02:59.520 --> 02:03:07.199
not just to allow you to feel calmer now and

1514
02:03:08.239 --> 02:03:16.640
throughout the time we spend together here, not just relaxed

1515
02:03:18.880 --> 02:03:23.119
at the end of the recording when it's finished and

1516
02:03:23.159 --> 02:03:33.039
you can enjoy that sense of comfort and peace, but

1517
02:03:33.199 --> 02:03:46.600
also I think it would be nice to have those

1518
02:03:46.960 --> 02:04:03.920
feelings of relaxation continue for longer after the recording has ended,

1519
02:04:09.000 --> 02:04:21.199
so that you can still benefit from listening to my voice,

1520
02:04:21.560 --> 02:04:33.000
maybe in a few hours time, perhaps tomorrow, and then

1521
02:04:33.159 --> 02:04:41.119
by listening regularly, especially if you find like some people

1522
02:04:41.199 --> 02:04:44.760
do and myself as well. I sometimes I find one

1523
02:04:44.840 --> 02:04:55.159
particular recording that really resonates with me, and I just

1524
02:04:55.279 --> 02:05:00.960
listen to it over and over again every morning every evening.

1525
02:05:08.600 --> 02:05:13.239
There was this recording from We're going back to about

1526
02:05:13.359 --> 02:05:18.600
nineteen ninety nine. It wasn't hypnosis, but it was a

1527
02:05:18.720 --> 02:05:26.199
guided visualization, so it kind of was hypnosis, really, and

1528
02:05:28.119 --> 02:05:31.439
I managed to find it again and it still has

1529
02:05:31.479 --> 02:05:37.119
the same effect on me. And part of it was

1530
02:05:40.720 --> 02:05:51.800
the person's voice relaxed me. She just felt so peaceful,

1531
02:05:53.840 --> 02:06:00.319
and I'd look forward to listening to her in the

1532
02:06:00.399 --> 02:06:11.119
morning and in the evening. And I knew before even

1533
02:06:11.880 --> 02:06:20.319
pressing the play button that since I've done that, pressed

1534
02:06:20.359 --> 02:06:28.920
the play button. This was in the days of CD

1535
02:06:29.119 --> 02:06:37.800
players press the play button. In fact, it might have

1536
02:06:37.840 --> 02:06:42.199
even been a tape tape recorder. I'd lie down on

1537
02:06:42.239 --> 02:06:55.079
the bed and then even without necessarily listening to her

1538
02:06:55.279 --> 02:07:08.199
words because I had them memorized. Really, it was as

1539
02:07:08.239 --> 02:07:18.920
if my body knew exactly what to do, and the

1540
02:07:19.079 --> 02:07:41.119
muscles just almost went into automatic relaxation, and I remember

1541
02:07:41.239 --> 02:07:55.279
my mind would slow down. Now. Now, I was listening

1542
02:07:55.319 --> 02:08:02.119
to this recording in the early days of learning hypnosis,

1543
02:08:04.640 --> 02:08:12.479
and long before I ever made any videos or audio

1544
02:08:12.560 --> 02:08:17.319
recordings myself, because I didn't start doing that till two

1545
02:08:17.319 --> 02:08:33.359
thousand and six, but I knew, I knew how helpful

1546
02:08:35.239 --> 02:08:46.800
I found being able to just let go, to have

1547
02:08:46.960 --> 02:08:59.800
that trust in the person that I'm listening to, knowing

1548
02:08:59.840 --> 02:09:07.880
that it's going to be just as relaxing, if not

1549
02:09:08.000 --> 02:09:17.319
more so. Each time you hear my voice, you may

1550
02:09:17.359 --> 02:09:28.960
feel the same. Some people have been listening to me

1551
02:09:29.199 --> 02:09:43.119
for over a decade, maybe not solidly, obviously not twenty

1552
02:09:43.119 --> 02:09:49.119
four hours a day, but maybe people come back.

1553
02:09:50.960 --> 02:10:04.640
Some people may be listen every day. That's something that

1554
02:10:04.760 --> 02:10:06.640
I do.

1555
02:10:07.960 --> 02:10:22.439
Which you may not realize by listening, is when I

1556
02:10:22.720 --> 02:10:38.920
record these recordings. Now, for example, I also am affected

1557
02:10:39.399 --> 02:10:52.159
by the words that I say. So if I set

1558
02:10:52.399 --> 02:11:02.880
you focus on your feet, notice your feet relaxing, I

1559
02:11:02.920 --> 02:11:11.399
will be focusing on my feet. I will be noticing

1560
02:11:14.359 --> 02:11:28.880
my feet relaxing. If I said focus on your hands,

1561
02:11:31.680 --> 02:11:41.199
then maybe notice the difference between each hand. Perhaps notice

1562
02:11:41.319 --> 02:11:47.319
the air in the room, the temperature.

1563
02:11:46.840 --> 02:11:49.199
Of the room.

1564
02:11:49.239 --> 02:11:59.640
On the backs of your hands. You may start to

1565
02:12:00.239 --> 02:12:08.279
notice what almost feels like a very light breeze, even

1566
02:12:08.319 --> 02:12:12.560
though there may not be any type of breeze at

1567
02:12:12.600 --> 02:12:25.600
all where you are right now. And as you become

1568
02:12:26.239 --> 02:12:40.640
aware of your hands, I'm also aware of how relaxed

1569
02:12:40.920 --> 02:13:04.680
my hands are feeling now. And when it comes to

1570
02:13:06.239 --> 02:13:12.239
potentially drifting off to sleep, which may be the reason

1571
02:13:12.560 --> 02:13:28.880
you're listening. I also feel drowsy when I make these recordings.

1572
02:13:33.560 --> 02:13:49.960
I also notice my mind drifting. In fact, at times

1573
02:13:52.000 --> 02:14:06.159
I've actually fallen asleep without even noticing, and then I

1574
02:14:06.319 --> 02:14:17.640
carry on talking. And it's only when I listen back

1575
02:14:17.840 --> 02:14:26.840
to do the editing I hear snoring, and I think,

1576
02:14:27.239 --> 02:14:37.399
I don't remember snoring. I remember talking. This snoring was

1577
02:14:38.000 --> 02:14:44.359
a pick turned up. That's why I sound like when

1578
02:14:44.359 --> 02:15:03.279
I snore, I get really into the whole experience. I

1579
02:15:03.319 --> 02:15:12.760
don't know how you feel, how relaxed you feel in

1580
02:15:12.840 --> 02:15:38.479
your feet, how relaxed you feel in your hands. I

1581
02:15:38.520 --> 02:15:52.760
have noticed more and more that the more relaxed, deeper

1582
02:15:57.800 --> 02:16:08.159
level of comfort you feel, the easier your breathing becomes.

1583
02:16:14.760 --> 02:16:31.399
It's almost like that additional muscle relaxation. So this allows

1584
02:16:31.439 --> 02:17:02.520
you to breathe easier without necessarily focusing on your breath. However,

1585
02:17:02.760 --> 02:17:31.559
being able to notice the ease in which you breathe

1586
02:17:31.719 --> 02:18:21.639
so naturally, you breathe so very easily and smoothly. Whenever

1587
02:18:21.719 --> 02:18:40.040
I imagine my breathing improving, when I've got my eyes closed,

1588
02:18:46.040 --> 02:18:58.920
I tend to visualize a beautiful field with trees and

1589
02:18:59.159 --> 02:19:32.719
flowers producing all that life giving oxygen and it feels

1590
02:19:32.840 --> 02:19:54.600
nice too, if nothing else, just taking some time away

1591
02:19:59.280 --> 02:20:42.600
from everything, enjoying that feeling of peace, serenity with a

1592
02:20:42.959 --> 02:21:34.879
joyful heart. Time seems to just drip by, so very slowly, relaxed,

1593
02:21:40.760 --> 02:22:19.879
so deeply, peaceful, completely unattached to any thoughts whatsoever in

1594
02:22:20.079 --> 02:23:24.440
this moment, completely free, noticing that your mind has slowed down.

1595
02:23:32.760 --> 02:24:19.440
Slowed down because nothing really requires your attention. You can

1596
02:24:19.680 --> 02:24:35.799
enjoy the physical sensations of allowing the stress to drip

1597
02:24:36.559 --> 02:24:56.360
out of your body, appearing out of every part of

1598
02:24:56.559 --> 02:25:21.120
your body and being released from your brain. Hunge your

1599
02:25:21.200 --> 02:26:18.120
mind slowly but surely. The muscles in your legs relax, RELs,

1600
02:26:24.120 --> 02:27:07.559
relax so very deeply, relax so deeply. And the feelings,

1601
02:27:10.159 --> 02:27:35.079
the pleasant feelings in your arms and shoulders, deepening each

1602
02:27:35.440 --> 02:28:15.319
part of your body further and deeper and deeper, magicine,

1603
02:28:16.760 --> 02:28:43.479
the feelings in the back of your neck, the feelings

1604
02:28:43.479 --> 02:29:30.159
in your wrists, muscles in the front of your body.

1605
02:29:32.280 --> 02:30:16.360
I also failing peaceful deep There's a sense of peace

1606
02:30:20.879 --> 02:31:00.840
spreads through your very cool even when you focus on

1607
02:31:00.879 --> 02:31:59.879
your mind, her mind becomes be and slower and deeper, relaxed,

1608
02:32:24.000 --> 02:33:01.799
a fairy slow stomach, useful in your stomach.

1609
02:33:23.920 --> 02:33:24.600
You're back.

1610
02:33:30.000 --> 02:33:58.879
Notice Notice how relaxed you now feel in the hall

1611
02:33:59.200 --> 02:34:31.959
of your back. In a spy from your brain all

1612
02:34:32.000 --> 02:34:39.719
the way down the middle of your back, sending and

1613
02:34:40.040 --> 02:35:15.239
receiving millions of messages every day. Deecomfort increase, deeply relaxed

1614
02:35:45.479 --> 02:36:20.280
nys reles, spreading those signals down your spine or cord

1615
02:36:24.680 --> 02:36:43.559
into air every part of your body, your shins and

1616
02:36:43.680 --> 02:37:34.280
your calf muscles, h your elbows. Feelings of peace and

1617
02:37:34.440 --> 02:37:52.440
tranquility spreading through your body, tips of your toes, to

1618
02:37:52.600 --> 02:38:04.559
your eyes, your fingers. All wait till you know about

1619
02:38:16.440 --> 02:39:13.159
letting her read I think her pace to drift in mind.

1620
02:39:17.600 --> 02:39:34.719
Just wander in a way happy to let go, let

1621
02:39:35.399 --> 02:40:40.879
go completely, to let said, tranquil, whole body enjoying a

1622
02:40:41.200 --> 02:43:06.559
sense listeninker he nore hey, joy the space, this space

1623
02:43:09.680 --> 02:45:17.479
of peace and safety. So firy relaxed us to letting go.

1624
02:45:35.559 --> 02:45:43.159
Maybe we can just focus on the different parts of

1625
02:45:43.280 --> 02:46:18.000
your body, just to notice your forehead and your eyes.

1626
02:46:50.559 --> 02:46:51.200
Have ju.

1627
02:46:56.760 --> 02:47:37.399
SAIDs noticing in the sense of complete freedom, absolute freedom

1628
02:48:23.520 --> 02:49:28.040
dress day, dress day. He's fall energy, peace to breeze

1629
02:49:31.840 --> 02:50:42.239
so much ease. Yeah, loose. You may have you may

1630
02:50:42.360 --> 02:51:42.360
not have noticed your mind drifted peaceful, may have been

1631
02:51:42.600 --> 02:52:02.760
even more deeply in the direction of total blissful pace,

1632
02:52:07.000 --> 02:53:58.680
bliss for pace terreft gome to pace, sir, come.

1633
02:54:10.200 --> 02:54:10.799
Let him go.

1634
02:54:35.719 --> 02:55:47.239
Peace of mind, re body so relaxed, relaxed. Her body

1635
02:55:48.000 --> 02:56:51.959
feels almost invisible. So the very refaxed, peaceful, So pace leckr.

1636
02:57:27.440 --> 02:57:33.639
And you could start to notice that you are feeling

1637
02:57:34.040 --> 02:57:45.239
more relaxed, even though I've not purposely focused your mind

1638
02:57:46.239 --> 02:57:53.760
upon that sense of physical comfort that is growing within

1639
02:57:53.879 --> 02:58:03.040
you throughout your body, and your mind starts to slow down.

1640
02:58:07.959 --> 02:58:15.120
And that could be almost in recognition of I guess

1641
02:58:15.600 --> 02:58:28.040
my speech not being particularly fast, and things just generally

1642
02:58:29.760 --> 02:58:40.760
feel calmer. Just by listening to my voice, you give

1643
02:58:40.840 --> 02:58:47.719
yourself an opportunity to take a break from the day,

1644
02:58:49.920 --> 02:58:57.360
take a break from your life as it is, and

1645
02:58:57.559 --> 02:59:05.280
to give yourself a rest, giving yourself permission to take

1646
02:59:05.399 --> 02:59:10.920
some time off and to allow your body to relax

1647
02:59:12.639 --> 02:59:20.559
and allow your mind to slow down, which in turn

1648
02:59:23.200 --> 02:59:28.799
releases the tension any stresses that you had in your body.

1649
02:59:34.760 --> 02:59:38.639
It's almost as if the parts of your body just

1650
02:59:38.959 --> 02:59:50.639
open up, allowing the negativity out and at the same

1651
02:59:50.760 --> 03:00:02.040
time replacing that negativity with positive healing energy, which then

1652
03:00:02.239 --> 03:00:11.360
fills your body up and your mind to also starts

1653
03:00:11.559 --> 03:00:29.000
to appreciate those feelings of increasing confidence, an almost uplifting feeling,

1654
03:00:31.079 --> 03:00:45.120
positive healing, an energy that spreads through your body like

1655
03:00:45.239 --> 03:00:55.479
a wave of comfort. And all this comes from just

1656
03:00:59.079 --> 03:01:07.840
allowing yourself a few minutes, maybe half an hour, however

1657
03:01:07.959 --> 03:01:12.520
long you want it to be, to just rest.

1658
03:01:17.600 --> 03:01:18.559
And allow.

1659
03:01:20.760 --> 03:01:30.760
Your mind and your body to almost reset itself to

1660
03:01:31.440 --> 03:01:47.079
the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness, which allows more

1661
03:01:47.200 --> 03:02:00.600
room for feelings of pleasure and happiness to move around

1662
03:02:00.920 --> 03:02:09.120
your body and into your mind, almost as if your

1663
03:02:09.239 --> 03:02:19.760
mind and your body are sinking together, almost mirroring each

1664
03:02:20.040 --> 03:02:33.360
other with that growing positivity and calmness. And it feels nice,

1665
03:02:36.000 --> 03:02:41.879
really does feel nice to know that you are the

1666
03:02:42.000 --> 03:02:55.319
one that has allowed yourself to feel more comfort and

1667
03:02:55.520 --> 03:03:09.360
to experience more of this deep relaxation spreading throughout your body.

1668
03:03:16.399 --> 03:03:21.680
And as I focus on each part of your body,

1669
03:03:24.120 --> 03:03:36.159
you can notice that that part becomes even more relaxed

1670
03:03:38.159 --> 03:03:47.000
just by focusing on it. It becomes even more calm

1671
03:03:47.280 --> 03:03:58.000
and comfortable just by focusing and as I move down

1672
03:03:58.200 --> 03:04:05.680
your body, starting at your head, the parts that you

1673
03:04:05.719 --> 03:04:15.719
have already focused on or continue to relax deeply, and

1674
03:04:15.840 --> 03:04:21.879
those parts that have not yet focused on or just

1675
03:04:22.040 --> 03:04:34.319
automatically release any remain intention in anticipation of even more

1676
03:04:35.040 --> 03:04:46.840
comfort about to come. Now. I'm going to start by

1677
03:04:46.959 --> 03:04:54.520
focusing on your forehead. Just being aware of the feelings

1678
03:04:54.639 --> 03:05:04.280
of your forehead and then your background sounds like mister

1679
03:05:04.559 --> 03:05:09.479
Herbert the Pigeon can just allow you to feel even

1680
03:05:09.639 --> 03:05:19.639
more relaxed. Just means you're in the moment. This isn't

1681
03:05:20.120 --> 03:05:28.000
this isn't a sterile environment. This is the world. I

1682
03:05:28.159 --> 03:05:35.559
live in the countryside, so there's lots of nature sounds around.

1683
03:05:40.920 --> 03:05:46.000
So as you focus on your forehead, just notice how

1684
03:05:46.120 --> 03:05:56.959
it becomes even more relaxed. Focus only on my voice

1685
03:05:58.280 --> 03:06:06.879
and that part of your body. Moving down to your eyes,

1686
03:06:09.000 --> 03:06:20.120
focusing on your eyes, noticing how your eyelids feel so

1687
03:06:20.440 --> 03:06:30.200
heavy yet so light at the same time, and all

1688
03:06:30.239 --> 03:06:41.520
the muscles around your eyes relaxing completely. Moving your focus

1689
03:06:43.040 --> 03:06:49.639
down to your mouth, your lips, your tongue, your teeth,

1690
03:06:49.719 --> 03:07:00.879
and your gums, the whole of your mouth relaxing, calm

1691
03:07:02.440 --> 03:07:13.840
and lease. As you focus now on your jaw, not

1692
03:07:14.200 --> 03:07:18.200
just the parts of your jaw near your mouth and

1693
03:07:18.360 --> 03:07:22.600
your chin, but all the way up the size of

1694
03:07:22.680 --> 03:07:24.520
your face to.

1695
03:07:24.600 --> 03:07:39.040
Your ears, the hole of your jaw feeding more relaxed.

1696
03:07:42.520 --> 03:08:00.319
And calm, focusing on your neck, the front of your neck,

1697
03:08:00.479 --> 03:08:13.319
and your throat relaxing and loose and calm. The sides

1698
03:08:13.639 --> 03:08:19.040
of your neck, right and left side of your neck

1699
03:08:22.000 --> 03:08:37.840
relax and loose and calm. And now the back of

1700
03:08:37.920 --> 03:08:50.760
your neck, focusing on the back of your neck, letting

1701
03:08:50.959 --> 03:08:55.600
go of any tension that may have been there before,

1702
03:08:57.479 --> 03:09:11.639
and enjoying that sense of increasing comfort and release. Then

1703
03:09:11.719 --> 03:09:22.159
you can experience in the back of your neck, moving

1704
03:09:22.399 --> 03:09:28.959
down your back and moving either side of your spine

1705
03:09:30.280 --> 03:09:35.000
right from the top of your back all the way

1706
03:09:35.239 --> 03:09:47.879
down to the bottom of your back, down to your

1707
03:09:47.959 --> 03:09:58.520
lower back. As you move up and down your spine,

1708
03:10:00.639 --> 03:10:05.079
you can feel the muscles either side of your spine

1709
03:10:07.319 --> 03:10:21.879
relaxing even more. And as those muscles relax, that sense

1710
03:10:21.959 --> 03:10:32.440
of comfort starts to spread outwards from your spine into

1711
03:10:32.680 --> 03:10:39.280
both sides of your back, the top of your back,

1712
03:10:40.159 --> 03:10:46.399
the middle end your lower back. And as you scan

1713
03:10:48.079 --> 03:10:55.920
gently and slowly up and down your back, there's the

1714
03:10:56.040 --> 03:11:01.200
muscles in the top of your back relax and become

1715
03:11:01.319 --> 03:11:08.479
a looser. The muscles in the middle of your back

1716
03:11:10.000 --> 03:11:17.440
also seem to just almost divide from each other, separating

1717
03:11:17.680 --> 03:11:33.280
and almost melting, and in your lower back there seems

1718
03:11:33.280 --> 03:11:46.600
to be an extra special feeling of comfort. The spreads

1719
03:11:46.760 --> 03:11:53.000
into your hips. Sit down your lower back, into your hips,

1720
03:11:57.680 --> 03:12:04.719
into the area where your cosix are, and into your buttocks,

1721
03:12:06.920 --> 03:12:16.280
and always muscles that spread. Bring your lower back into

1722
03:12:16.319 --> 03:12:29.799
your hip area, start to melt, start to reading, let go,

1723
03:12:36.520 --> 03:12:41.319
and even know where about to focus on your shoulders.

1724
03:12:43.120 --> 03:12:50.079
Your back and your spine will continue to let go,

1725
03:12:53.159 --> 03:13:08.799
continue to relax so calmly, and as you focus on

1726
03:13:08.920 --> 03:13:21.840
your shoulders, you may notice they're already feeling really loose,

1727
03:13:26.680 --> 03:13:52.600
They're already feeling calm, and they feeling Those muscles then

1728
03:13:52.799 --> 03:14:05.200
move from your neck into your shoulders feel so soft

1729
03:14:08.479 --> 03:14:34.040
and gentle, so smooth and calm, and the feeling in

1730
03:14:34.159 --> 03:14:48.959
your shoulders seems to spread deep into your shoulders, a

1731
03:14:49.280 --> 03:14:58.159
sense of relaxation, not just traveling deeply into your muscles,

1732
03:15:01.639 --> 03:15:14.520
but also relaxing the bones and moving all the way

1733
03:15:14.799 --> 03:15:23.479
to underneath your arms, relaxing a whole area between the

1734
03:15:23.639 --> 03:15:38.200
tops of your shoulders and underneath your arms healing. You

1735
03:15:38.319 --> 03:15:51.799
feel so relaxed and comfortable in your shoulders, which sense

1736
03:15:52.159 --> 03:16:13.639
that deep healing messing into your arms, and you may

1737
03:16:13.879 --> 03:16:18.959
feel almost as if your arms are not even that,

1738
03:16:20.680 --> 03:16:42.559
because they're so relaxed, so deeply relaxed, so so calm,

1739
03:16:57.719 --> 03:17:19.559
so loose, not feeling spreading all way down your arms,

1740
03:17:22.280 --> 03:17:52.319
two elbows, including your elbows circumfort spreads your way into wrists,

1741
03:17:55.159 --> 03:18:10.479
your forearments and your wrists so heavy. It's at the

1742
03:18:10.840 --> 03:18:54.440
same time sunlight and gentle frey sin now on.

1743
03:18:57.120 --> 03:19:21.159
Your hands, my hands.

1744
03:19:27.040 --> 03:19:56.600
So peaceful in your hands, with a sense of real pace.

1745
03:20:08.399 --> 03:20:22.120
It just seems to feel so familiar when your hands

1746
03:20:22.479 --> 03:22:00.760
relax deeply else your fingers, things you think, your tips,

1747
03:22:29.360 --> 03:22:48.520
moving your attention to affront to your body, so comfortable,

1748
03:22:59.479 --> 03:24:49.920
moving new focuss love, mussels and your fids names, so relaxed,

1749
03:25:17.639 --> 03:27:37.360
cough mussels, just shades, composium and the faathing in your faints, Sir, peaceful,

1750
03:27:39.479 --> 03:28:38.040
circolm sad peaceful, sircolm m, so peaceful, sacm so peace

1751
03:28:38.719 --> 03:29:09.159
fa rea same piece fall s Colm loud of that

1752
03:29:09.639 --> 03:29:35.159
deep relaxation, the spread your chest storm lets me go everything.

1753
03:29:46.399 --> 03:29:52.399
So I'm gonna start counting down now from twenty down

1754
03:29:52.479 --> 03:30:00.600
to one. You can imagine in a world it's like

1755
03:30:01.399 --> 03:30:07.840
just walking down some steps and each step or twenty steps,

1756
03:30:07.920 --> 03:30:17.040
and each step represents a level of comfort. Each step

1757
03:30:17.600 --> 03:30:33.120
represents a deepening of that comfort, and the furvies you

1758
03:30:33.280 --> 03:30:39.280
walk down those steps, the deeper and more relaxed you feel.

1759
03:30:46.040 --> 03:33:34.120
So starting with number twenty twenty, nineteen, eighteen, seventeen sixteenhhhhhhh

1760
03:34:36.399 --> 03:38:33.360
three four four two.

1761
03:38:19.239 --> 03:40:42.719
Us no.

1762
03:41:37.319 --> 03:51:30.879
H eight seven dai six five four dissimus. Now, as

1763
03:51:30.920 --> 03:51:43.959
you focus on your eyes, we're gonna count down from

1764
03:51:44.159 --> 03:51:58.760
ten down to one, focusing just on your eyes. Your

1765
03:51:58.840 --> 03:52:08.799
eyelids muscles around your eyes, your eye walls themselves, our

1766
03:52:08.920 --> 03:52:25.799
whole area that makes up your eye. And as we

1767
03:52:26.079 --> 03:52:34.600
count down for ten down to one, whilst focusing on

1768
03:52:34.760 --> 03:52:50.760
your eyes, you'll become twice is relaxed with each number

1769
03:52:51.760 --> 03:53:03.319
counting down that you may find the all you want

1770
03:53:03.440 --> 03:53:12.280
to do is just drift off to sleep. And if

1771
03:53:12.479 --> 03:53:25.920
that's what you want, then just allow yourself to do that. Now,

1772
03:53:28.879 --> 03:53:35.280
focusing on your eyes, I'm going to begin counting down

1773
03:53:36.799 --> 03:54:53.639
from ten down to one right now, ten nine eight.

1774
03:55:13.760 --> 03:58:17.000
Seven III.

1775
03:59:01.920 --> 04:03:21.000
Four three swo counting down from ten to one ten nine, eight, seven, six, five,

1776
04:03:23.319 --> 04:03:41.079
four three two one. And maybe that was a bit

1777
04:03:41.159 --> 04:03:45.239
too quick in order to relax. Maybe it's a bit

1778
04:03:45.360 --> 04:03:51.840
too fast for you to notice the calming of your body,

1779
04:03:55.040 --> 04:03:59.600
maybe even a little bit of pressure there, like you're

1780
04:03:59.639 --> 04:04:02.399
counting down from ten to one. Would you expect me

1781
04:04:02.559 --> 04:04:05.399
to do? Man, expect me to just to go with

1782
04:04:05.600 --> 04:04:15.440
floppy just because you're counting down. We can try it again,

1783
04:04:16.799 --> 04:04:22.879
but this time I'll go glower this time, and you

1784
04:04:23.120 --> 04:04:28.360
focus on the whole of your body before we focus

1785
04:04:28.479 --> 04:04:37.159
on your legs. Just notice how your body does start

1786
04:04:38.959 --> 04:04:50.360
to feel more relaxed with every number that I count

1787
04:04:50.440 --> 04:06:02.440
down ten eight, seven, six, five, four three two.

1788
04:06:23.239 --> 04:06:23.479
One.

1789
04:06:34.840 --> 04:06:40.520
And just notice how how you feel generally, how your

1790
04:06:40.559 --> 04:06:55.399
body feels. It's not necessarily even about counting down from

1791
04:06:55.479 --> 04:07:06.159
ten to one. It's that's that you have that space

1792
04:07:06.360 --> 04:07:26.959
between being active physically or mentally to just sitting or

1793
04:07:27.120 --> 04:07:32.920
lying down, just being there, not doing anything, not saying anything,

1794
04:07:33.200 --> 04:07:39.680
or needing to think about anything. So it opens up

1795
04:07:39.719 --> 04:07:44.159
a space, you know, a bit of a space, a gap.

1796
04:07:50.399 --> 04:07:53.920
And the more I came down from ten to one,

1797
04:07:55.120 --> 04:08:03.200
the bigger that gap becomes. So there's that gap of calmness,

1798
04:08:04.639 --> 04:08:20.280
of comfort, relaxation. It's a nice feeling, and it moves

1799
04:08:21.879 --> 04:08:31.760
those stresses or discomforts physically or emotionally, moves them away,

1800
04:08:38.559 --> 04:08:39.520
allows you.

1801
04:08:42.239 --> 04:08:42.760
To just.

1802
04:08:45.719 --> 04:08:51.760
Slow down. So I'm going to count again from ten

1803
04:08:51.879 --> 04:09:02.079
down to one, and notice that gap widening app And

1804
04:09:02.200 --> 04:09:07.200
as it widens, it's almost like the stress and attention

1805
04:09:08.040 --> 04:09:27.159
falls into the gap and gives you that distance that space.

1806
04:09:29.559 --> 04:09:35.000
Now ten.

1807
04:09:39.360 --> 04:11:35.959
Nine, eight, seven, six, five, four three two one. Now,

1808
04:11:36.200 --> 04:11:56.280
how did your body feel? Now? Can you notice that?

1809
04:11:57.319 --> 04:12:11.360
Do you feeling calmer? What are you feeling more relaxed?

1810
04:12:33.840 --> 04:12:38.159
As we now focus on your legs, just your legs.

1811
04:12:54.159 --> 04:13:14.319
We're just gonna start with focusing on your thighs. Of course,

1812
04:13:14.440 --> 04:13:19.319
it's not the most exciting thing to be doing because

1813
04:13:22.719 --> 04:13:25.399
I'm sure, like most of your body is not a

1814
04:13:25.520 --> 04:13:37.959
lot going on right now, Just focusing on the whole

1815
04:13:38.079 --> 04:13:44.399
of your thighs, the tops of your thighs, the side

1816
04:13:44.600 --> 04:13:51.040
of your thighs, the bottoms of your thighs. You're outer

1817
04:13:51.239 --> 04:13:56.280
thighs and you're inner thighs. Basically the whole of your

1818
04:13:56.360 --> 04:14:05.280
thigh that leads into your hip and it goes down

1819
04:14:05.440 --> 04:14:15.120
to your knee joints. Now, this is a big area,

1820
04:14:19.600 --> 04:14:24.559
it's a very heavy area. It's very strong, probably the

1821
04:14:24.680 --> 04:14:39.319
strongest muscles in your body or in your thighs. But

1822
04:14:39.399 --> 04:14:47.799
I don't think we perhaps give enough attention to our thighs.

1823
04:14:53.760 --> 04:15:04.520
Perhaps we don't acknowledge how important our thighs are to

1824
04:15:04.719 --> 04:15:25.319
our lives, how much they actually do for us all

1825
04:15:25.440 --> 04:15:35.879
through our lives. And it may seem sound really weird,

1826
04:15:35.959 --> 04:15:44.360
but I think that all of our body parts, especially

1827
04:15:44.479 --> 04:15:52.120
our thighs, needs some TLC, a bit of love shown,

1828
04:15:53.079 --> 04:16:11.319
a bit of acknoledgement, thank you, gratitude for what our

1829
04:16:11.479 --> 04:16:20.799
thighs do for us. And I know this may sound

1830
04:16:20.879 --> 04:16:27.120
a bit strange. Maybe you think, why am I sure

1831
04:16:27.159 --> 04:16:29.719
that I should be out in the garden hugging a

1832
04:16:29.840 --> 04:16:38.200
tree or something. Wow, it's hard to set a microphone

1833
04:16:38.319 --> 04:16:41.360
up on a tree. That's why I'm doing this indoors.

1834
04:16:41.399 --> 04:16:45.159
Otherwise I wouldn't be outside hugging a tree. I can't

1835
04:16:45.200 --> 04:16:54.000
see the television from the tree. If you moved down

1836
04:16:54.040 --> 04:17:03.799
to your knees, gain such an important part. And I

1837
04:17:03.879 --> 04:17:10.719
think we don't necessarily I'll speak for myself here, I

1838
04:17:10.799 --> 04:17:15.760
don't necessarily appreciate all that my needs to do for

1839
04:17:15.920 --> 04:17:21.719
me until I have a problem with my knee. It's

1840
04:17:21.799 --> 04:17:26.840
occasionally if I ever maybe i'll bash it or it's

1841
04:17:27.040 --> 04:17:33.520
aching for some reason. It's then that I realize how

1842
04:17:33.760 --> 04:17:37.639
much it does. You know, the benefit of being able

1843
04:17:37.680 --> 04:17:46.239
to use my legs without any kind of physical discomfort

1844
04:17:47.879 --> 04:17:54.879
is a beautiful thing that's possibly not appreciated until it's

1845
04:17:55.520 --> 04:18:04.920
temporarily removed. You know that's comfort. But as you focus

1846
04:18:05.000 --> 04:18:12.879
on your knees, regardless of how your knees feel, you

1847
04:18:12.959 --> 04:18:18.799
can have that sense of gratitude and love to your

1848
04:18:18.840 --> 04:18:31.479
knees for all that they do for you. And you

1849
04:18:31.559 --> 04:18:35.440
can still have that attention on your thighs and maybe

1850
04:18:35.639 --> 04:18:41.879
notice how your thighs feel. Maybe you've noticed that they

1851
04:18:42.799 --> 04:19:00.600
are relaxing more deeply as you focus now on the

1852
04:19:00.680 --> 04:19:05.079
bottoms of your legs, your shins, and your calf muscles,

1853
04:19:05.559 --> 04:19:13.799
the bones between your knees and your feet, incorporating of course,

1854
04:19:13.920 --> 04:19:25.680
your ankles so important. You know, anyone has had even

1855
04:19:26.120 --> 04:19:32.719
like the slightest sprain of an ankle knows how how

1856
04:19:33.000 --> 04:19:43.120
much we take our ankles for granted. And it's kind

1857
04:19:43.159 --> 04:19:48.639
of strange in a way when you think that. You know, logically,

1858
04:19:49.000 --> 04:19:52.079
our wrists are a lot thinner than the rest of

1859
04:19:52.120 --> 04:19:57.280
our arms, which is okay, I can't see any problem

1860
04:19:57.319 --> 04:20:02.200
with that because we're just picking stuff up by our

1861
04:20:02.319 --> 04:20:08.120
ankles so much thinner than the rest of our legs.

1862
04:20:14.559 --> 04:20:18.959
And from a physics perspective or logical even it doesn't

1863
04:20:19.040 --> 04:20:25.040
really make sense that all this weight would ultimately be

1864
04:20:26.120 --> 04:20:36.159
resting on your ankles then leading to your feet. That

1865
04:20:36.719 --> 04:20:45.680
thin area, thin bone. Yeah, it does so much great work.

1866
04:20:47.879 --> 04:20:57.399
Supports us, supports our body for a lifetime, helps us

1867
04:20:58.079 --> 04:21:07.440
to balance, helps you to get around and be mobile.

1868
04:21:13.760 --> 04:21:21.559
And there's the calf muscles. Of course, when I was younger,

1869
04:21:21.920 --> 04:21:25.319
I couldn't see the pointing calf muscles. Didn't seem to

1870
04:21:25.440 --> 04:21:31.319
do anything. Okay, if I walked around on tiptoes, then

1871
04:21:31.520 --> 04:21:35.239
my calf muscles get some work. But of course that's

1872
04:21:35.360 --> 04:21:39.319
not true. The calf muscles are being used whenever we

1873
04:21:39.799 --> 04:21:53.319
use our legs and your shins there to protect your

1874
04:21:53.399 --> 04:22:02.440
lower legs, shaped in a way almost as a protector

1875
04:22:02.879 --> 04:22:17.600
for the bone, leading of course to your ankles and

1876
04:22:17.719 --> 04:22:24.680
your feet. But we're not going to focus on your feet.

1877
04:22:24.760 --> 04:22:29.120
We're just going to focus on the legs, And I realize,

1878
04:22:31.200 --> 04:22:35.079
and now that I've mentioned your feet, you'll probably focusing

1879
04:22:35.319 --> 04:22:38.440
on them anyway, So maybe I should focus on your

1880
04:22:38.479 --> 04:22:44.319
feet a little bit. You can have them in your

1881
04:22:44.360 --> 04:22:50.760
awareness the same as you have your thighs in your awareness.

1882
04:22:51.600 --> 04:22:55.479
Even though we haven't been focusing on your thighs a

1883
04:22:55.639 --> 04:23:06.719
few minutes, I've been focusing on your cause there's still

1884
04:23:06.799 --> 04:23:21.879
that sensation of comfort in your thighs, and there's that

1885
04:23:22.319 --> 04:23:32.360
movement of energy because the thighs hold lots of different sensations.

1886
04:23:33.840 --> 04:23:38.680
Of course, there's the muscles, the big straw muscles that

1887
04:23:38.799 --> 04:23:51.639
we have in our thighs, but the skin on the

1888
04:23:51.799 --> 04:23:57.239
outside of the thighs, as in the outside of all

1889
04:23:57.360 --> 04:24:06.159
of our body, can be very sensitive, sensitive to the touch,

1890
04:24:08.959 --> 04:24:22.280
sensitive to temperature, and inside your thighs the bones, there's

1891
04:24:23.360 --> 04:24:28.120
the muscle, there's the blood, vessels, the ar trees, to

1892
04:24:28.319 --> 04:24:36.920
all this stuff that inside your thighs. I guess sometimes

1893
04:24:37.799 --> 04:24:40.280
it'd be nice if you could actually put your fingers

1894
04:24:41.559 --> 04:24:47.680
inside your thighs and message. So you can message on

1895
04:24:47.760 --> 04:24:51.040
the outside, of course, but to be able to get

1896
04:24:51.239 --> 04:24:54.200
deep into the muscles and to be able to just

1897
04:24:54.479 --> 04:25:00.719
message inside your thighs, message in the bones of your

1898
04:25:00.799 --> 04:25:13.079
leg massage in or the veins, just gently healing your thighs,

1899
04:25:17.000 --> 04:25:22.239
and you can move down message and inside your knees.

1900
04:25:23.719 --> 04:25:30.520
Just message in those bones, but with healing fingertips, spreading

1901
04:25:30.639 --> 04:25:36.360
that healing energy deep into the choice of your knees.

1902
04:25:41.799 --> 04:25:45.479
Of course, there's the back of your your knee and

1903
04:25:45.600 --> 04:25:51.600
the inside crease where your knee is. It's a very

1904
04:25:51.840 --> 04:25:57.680
sensitive area. Three it feels very nice when you stroke it.

1905
04:25:59.120 --> 04:26:02.440
That might be because it's an area that's not really

1906
04:26:02.639 --> 04:26:09.120
touched very often. It's almost like a hidden part, that

1907
04:26:09.479 --> 04:26:16.360
crease in your legs. It's almost like a part that

1908
04:26:18.200 --> 04:26:29.440
has a sensitivity, which is a little bit different. Of course,

1909
04:26:29.479 --> 04:26:39.959
it's protected by your legs. So you can imagine putting

1910
04:26:40.879 --> 04:26:50.719
your fingers into that crease in your legs. Fold in

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04:26:50.799 --> 04:26:54.760
between your legs. You can just message with your fingertips.

1912
04:26:55.959 --> 04:27:02.760
Imagine your fingertips going inside, massage in the muscle tissue.

1913
04:27:07.360 --> 04:27:13.520
You can cause field the bones of your knees, healing

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04:27:13.799 --> 04:27:26.479
through your fingertips, and then as you go down to

1915
04:27:26.559 --> 04:27:29.360
your calf muscles. And that's the part I'd like to

1916
04:27:29.399 --> 04:27:34.799
be able to really put my fingertips deep inside my

1917
04:27:35.000 --> 04:27:43.719
calf muscles, massage in every single tissue of that muscle,

1918
04:27:45.319 --> 04:27:55.239
healing every part, and then doing the same for my shins,

1919
04:27:58.440 --> 04:28:05.319
Massage in and gently stroking the bones, generally stroking them,

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04:28:06.200 --> 04:28:10.920
healing in a loving way, because they deserve to be treated.

1921
04:28:14.000 --> 04:28:18.120
There's the precious bones that they are, because our legs

1922
04:28:18.159 --> 04:28:21.520
are so precious as in all the other parts of

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04:28:21.600 --> 04:28:29.760
our body, the more precious at any chul on the planet.

1924
04:28:38.319 --> 04:28:46.319
When you start to think about your legs in this way,

1925
04:28:50.879 --> 04:28:57.559
it can change your perspective. It might sound a bit

1926
04:29:00.639 --> 04:29:04.959
a bit silly to start with the idea of having

1927
04:29:05.840 --> 04:29:15.840
love for your legs, showing appreciation for your thighs, wanting

1928
04:29:15.959 --> 04:29:19.879
to be able to put your hands in your thighs

1929
04:29:21.799 --> 04:29:28.280
and massage the muscles and the bones, and to get

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04:29:28.319 --> 04:29:36.440
your fingers deep in there and releasing all tension, just

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04:29:36.559 --> 04:29:46.000
to show how much you care about your legs, how

1932
04:29:46.079 --> 04:29:52.000
much you care for what your legs do for you regularly,

1933
04:29:54.399 --> 04:30:04.559
your knees, your calves, your ankles, the strength of your ankles,

1934
04:30:07.479 --> 04:30:12.200
considering how thin they are compared to the rest of

1935
04:30:12.280 --> 04:30:22.040
your legs, especially your thighs. Yet this so strong, so flexible,

1936
04:30:25.840 --> 04:30:38.639
absolutely amazing things Your ankles are truly a gift because

1937
04:30:38.680 --> 04:30:47.440
of what they do for you, supporting all that weight.

1938
04:30:49.440 --> 04:30:53.840
Regardless of how what weight you are, even if you

1939
04:30:53.959 --> 04:30:58.680
only eat ate stone, there's still a lot of weight

1940
04:30:58.920 --> 04:31:05.600
for these little ankles. Now, I'm a lot heavier than

1941
04:31:05.680 --> 04:31:15.600
eight stone double down, yet my ankles support my body

1942
04:31:16.360 --> 04:31:22.600
all the time. Or that they do give off a

1943
04:31:22.719 --> 04:31:28.120
sigh of relief when I sit down. That's I've had

1944
04:31:28.120 --> 04:31:37.159
my whole legs though. My feet feel als go, my

1945
04:31:37.280 --> 04:32:04.840
toes clap. I'm so happy. You're eggs really are amazing.

1946
04:32:07.479 --> 04:32:11.079
And I know that talking about talking about your legs

1947
04:32:11.239 --> 04:32:17.840
is probably possibly among the most most boring things I've

1948
04:32:17.879 --> 04:32:26.879
ever heard anyone say. Possibly, but boring or not, everything

1949
04:32:26.959 --> 04:32:42.399
I said is true. Your legs are amazing. Your legs

1950
04:32:42.559 --> 04:33:02.079
deserve not just respect, they deserve to relax deeply. They

1951
04:33:02.239 --> 04:33:07.560
deserve to take some time out of the day to

1952
04:33:07.799 --> 04:33:43.919
just let go completely. Your legs really can relax. And

1953
04:33:44.080 --> 04:33:48.000
because the legs are so such a most you know,

1954
04:33:48.240 --> 04:33:54.159
very important part of your body. When you relax your legs,

1955
04:33:54.279 --> 04:34:01.520
the rest of your body also naturally follows in that

1956
04:34:05.240 --> 04:34:17.520
journey of comfort, like I feel in my hips. My

1957
04:34:17.720 --> 04:34:25.000
hips feel really loose, and also my lower back as well.

1958
04:34:27.040 --> 04:34:32.799
My lower back really feels it feels stretched, even though

1959
04:34:32.840 --> 04:34:36.439
I'm just sitting in a chair and there's no stretching

1960
04:34:39.159 --> 04:34:42.360
as far as I'm aware that I'm doing. It's almost

1961
04:34:42.360 --> 04:34:46.159
as if the muscles are just relaxed so much that

1962
04:34:46.279 --> 04:34:53.360
there is a natural stretch as the tension has reduced

1963
04:34:54.799 --> 04:35:13.400
a lot. And I'm now going to count down from

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04:35:14.000 --> 04:35:23.080
ten down to one, and you can continue to fill

1965
04:35:24.880 --> 04:35:57.360
wonderfully relaxed ten nine, eight, seven, six, five four three

1966
04:36:01.439 --> 04:36:22.200
two one. Relax. So I'm just going to count down

1967
04:36:23.720 --> 04:36:28.400
from five down to one, And as a countdown, if

1968
04:36:28.439 --> 04:36:35.520
you just focus on the numbers, just the numbers counting down,

1969
04:36:36.560 --> 04:36:45.720
and notice how you feel in this moment as you

1970
04:36:45.880 --> 04:36:53.360
hear the numbers counting down, knowing that those numbers counting

1971
04:36:53.479 --> 04:37:03.599
down represent you feeling calmer, not just in your body,

1972
04:37:03.799 --> 04:37:12.119
but also relaxing your mind. Just notice how you feel

1973
04:37:13.040 --> 04:37:18.919
there's nothing to do, there's nothing to say, there's nothing

1974
04:37:19.080 --> 04:38:02.119
to think about, starting with number five, four three two one.

1975
04:38:11.560 --> 04:38:23.400
And as you notice the gradual letting go of the

1976
04:38:23.560 --> 04:38:31.159
tension in your body, you may also begin to notice

1977
04:38:31.319 --> 04:38:38.520
and be aware of how your mind is starting to

1978
04:38:39.840 --> 04:38:46.439
slow down. This is just a natural thing that happens.

1979
04:38:49.080 --> 04:38:54.279
It's not really a special procedure. It's just natural because

1980
04:38:54.360 --> 04:39:00.319
as your body relaxes, your mind also starts to relax acts,

1981
04:39:01.840 --> 04:39:05.479
and the more your mind relaxes, the more your body relaxes.

1982
04:39:05.599 --> 04:39:16.119
It's just a continuous circle of relaxation. And there's that

1983
04:39:17.400 --> 04:39:25.279
calmness that comes from relative quietness. You know, even even

1984
04:39:25.279 --> 04:39:32.279
if there's background sounds either your side, online, it's still

1985
04:39:32.759 --> 04:39:38.040
going to be quite calm. You know, you haven't got

1986
04:39:38.080 --> 04:39:43.240
the television on, there's no music in the background unless

1987
04:39:43.240 --> 04:39:50.720
you're listening to the recording. With music. Of course, you're

1988
04:39:50.880 --> 04:39:52.959
very likely not going to be sitting in a room

1989
04:39:53.040 --> 04:39:57.599
with other people. Of course you might be, but generally

1990
04:39:57.759 --> 04:40:00.439
it's more ideal if you can do do this on

1991
04:40:00.560 --> 04:40:11.880
your own, so no distractions, and when you stop thinking

1992
04:40:11.919 --> 04:40:29.119
about stuff, relaxation automatically rises. A sense of comfort starts

1993
04:40:29.159 --> 04:40:37.919
to grow, and without trying to build it up into

1994
04:40:38.040 --> 04:40:50.159
something fantastical or something magical, this is just a natural process,

1995
04:40:52.479 --> 04:41:03.200
something that's easy to accomplish. In fact, it's almost you know,

1996
04:41:03.319 --> 04:41:10.159
the sense of relaxing completely happens really when you put

1997
04:41:10.360 --> 04:41:14.200
no effort into it. It's not something that you can

1998
04:41:14.319 --> 04:41:25.919
really force. It's something that happens naturally. And part of

1999
04:41:26.360 --> 04:41:36.599
the process of this recording and others is simply two

2000
04:41:38.159 --> 04:41:45.560
allow you to take advantage of this space.

2001
04:41:47.799 --> 04:41:52.040
This time, just.

2002
04:41:56.200 --> 04:42:07.479
Let go, just be here, to be in tune with

2003
04:42:07.680 --> 04:42:19.840
how you feel, yet with the intention of wanting to

2004
04:42:20.840 --> 04:42:32.200
relax deeply and maybe even to fall asleep, depending on

2005
04:42:32.759 --> 04:42:39.119
what it is that you wish for yourself in this moment.

2006
04:42:46.119 --> 04:42:55.439
As we know, relaxing is the majority of the process

2007
04:42:55.599 --> 04:43:00.759
of falling asleep. The actual falling asleep part is the

2008
04:43:00.880 --> 04:43:08.680
tiny bit at the end. The deeper relaxed you become,

2009
04:43:12.639 --> 04:43:30.279
the easier you find yourself drifting. But you can also

2010
04:43:30.439 --> 04:43:40.520
if you choose stay focused on my voice and really

2011
04:43:41.000 --> 04:44:10.720
enjoy the process, gradually relaxing each muscle in your body

2012
04:44:15.799 --> 04:44:44.919
effortlessly and just observing the sensation of letting go completely.

2013
04:44:50.959 --> 04:44:55.000
This time, I'm going to count from six down to one.

2014
04:45:00.159 --> 04:45:09.680
You can notice your mind calming down more with each

2015
04:45:10.279 --> 04:45:23.639
number that you hear me say, naturally, feeling calm and

2016
04:45:23.919 --> 04:48:23.200
slow and peaceful. Sex five, four, three, two, one, being

2017
04:48:23.560 --> 04:48:36.240
aware of how your mind has slowed right down, sinking

2018
04:48:38.840 --> 04:48:59.159
deeply into relaxation. And as you focus on your mind,

2019
04:48:59.400 --> 04:49:09.360
and you may notice that there was some thoughts still there,

2020
04:49:11.959 --> 04:49:21.520
maybe some stubborn thoughts that for some reason perhaps need

2021
04:49:21.599 --> 04:49:36.799
your attention. So what you can do is send love

2022
04:49:37.040 --> 04:49:50.680
to those thoughts. Sprinkle those thoughts with love, like all

2023
04:49:50.799 --> 04:49:56.439
petals from a flower. Just sprinkle it over them, petals

2024
04:49:56.520 --> 04:50:03.080
fill good love, to walk those thoughts, to let those

2025
04:50:03.319 --> 04:50:09.720
thoughts know that you're not abandon the number. You just

2026
04:50:10.240 --> 04:50:20.279
need them. You require them to just calm down, slow down,

2027
04:50:22.599 --> 04:50:37.479
quiet down for now. So as you focus on those

2028
04:50:38.240 --> 04:50:43.119
remaining thoughts, as we count down this time from seven

2029
04:50:44.040 --> 04:50:52.720
down to one. With each number, just imagine sprinkling those

2030
04:50:52.959 --> 04:51:12.599
flower petals love, lovedness, gratitude over those thoughts, which will

2031
04:51:12.639 --> 04:51:22.599
allow them to just melt away and relax deeply. With

2032
04:51:22.799 --> 04:51:37.000
every number, those thoughts will become more and more relaxed.

2033
04:51:42.599 --> 04:54:13.720
Starting with number seven, six, five, four, three one. And

2034
04:54:13.959 --> 04:54:31.400
as you now notice how relaxed your feeling in your body,

2035
04:54:39.759 --> 04:54:52.959
We're going to focus on your hands, because the more

2036
04:54:53.080 --> 04:55:00.159
relaxed your hands are, the more relaxed your body and

2037
04:55:00.439 --> 04:55:22.000
mind are. There you focus on your hands and your fingers,

2038
04:55:27.520 --> 04:55:32.279
there's nothing needed to be done, there's no clinching of

2039
04:55:32.599 --> 04:55:36.919
fists or dents in the fingers or anything like that.

2040
04:55:44.360 --> 04:55:58.560
It's just noticing and focusing on your hands, noticing how

2041
04:55:58.680 --> 04:56:23.400
they feel. Because the more relaxed your hands feel, the

2042
04:56:23.680 --> 04:56:33.080
calmer your mind feels, and the more comfort you feel

2043
04:56:35.159 --> 04:57:05.319
throughout your body. JE may have already noticed you mind

2044
04:57:08.599 --> 04:57:36.319
is starting to drift, wakes him just on your hands

2045
04:57:37.520 --> 04:57:44.479
and fingers, allowing.

2046
04:57:44.479 --> 04:57:46.439
Them cheat.

2047
04:57:48.360 --> 04:57:59.680
Experience how real deepening of that relaxation in your hands,

2048
04:58:00.200 --> 04:58:26.400
fingers more and more relaxed with each number from eight

2049
04:58:28.840 --> 04:58:42.040
down to one. You can almost feel that healing, relaxing

2050
04:58:42.520 --> 04:59:01.560
energy spreading into your hands and fingers, becoming more relaxing

2051
04:59:04.720 --> 04:59:23.759
with each number going down, eight down to one, drifting

2052
04:59:27.439 --> 05:03:34.159
drifting again starting with number eight seven f three, just

2053
05:03:34.400 --> 05:03:43.400
being here now, nothing to think about, nothing to do,

2054
05:03:45.040 --> 05:03:59.319
nothing to say, and everything just feels calm. This is

2055
05:04:00.439 --> 05:04:07.159
your natural state of being. This is how you just

2056
05:04:08.279 --> 05:04:14.040
normally feel when you take away all of that other

2057
05:04:14.439 --> 05:04:21.360
stuff that we add, you know, things like stress and

2058
05:04:21.599 --> 05:04:37.759
worrying and overthinking, anxiety, tension, just generally thinking about stuff.

2059
05:04:39.959 --> 05:04:42.919
We take that away, which is what we.

2060
05:04:43.080 --> 05:04:44.279
Do and what we do.

2061
05:04:44.560 --> 05:05:01.880
Now you're left with a real sense of peacefulness, which

2062
05:05:02.080 --> 05:05:11.240
comes to you very quickly, because ultimately it's just a

2063
05:05:11.520 --> 05:05:23.799
feeling of feeling of comfort. It's almost as if you've

2064
05:05:23.880 --> 05:05:29.639
gone inside yourself and you've found a special place where

2065
05:05:32.119 --> 05:05:43.639
everything is peaceful, a place where you can feel relaxed

2066
05:05:44.240 --> 05:05:52.560
and you're natural sense of comfort, a place where you

2067
05:05:53.080 --> 05:06:02.040
can be here, where you can exc accept yourself and

2068
05:06:02.200 --> 05:06:07.080
who you are, in the place where you're not trying

2069
05:06:07.159 --> 05:06:17.479
to please anybody else, in the place where you can

2070
05:06:19.240 --> 05:06:27.959
actually not just love yourself, but in some ways more importantly,

2071
05:06:28.599 --> 05:06:34.360
you can like yourself, appreciate.

2072
05:06:35.119 --> 05:06:36.119
Who you are.

2073
05:06:44.959 --> 05:06:51.560
That sense of gratitude he's in the air way around you.

2074
05:06:59.240 --> 05:07:07.080
That's also a place where you can actually feel the

2075
05:07:07.400 --> 05:07:22.680
healing energy soaking into your body. Healing energy soaking into

2076
05:07:22.799 --> 05:07:37.000
your body. That healing energy spreads through your veins, traveling

2077
05:07:37.200 --> 05:07:49.599
to each every single part of your body, and you

2078
05:07:49.759 --> 05:07:56.680
start to realize that actually that healing energy, it's not

2079
05:07:57.000 --> 05:08:04.439
just entered into your brain, it's become part of your brain,

2080
05:08:09.400 --> 05:08:16.040
and the spinal fluid is now mixed with healing energy,

2081
05:08:21.319 --> 05:08:27.560
not just allowing you to feel so much more relaxed

2082
05:08:29.639 --> 05:08:41.639
and healthy in this moment, but also you start to

2083
05:08:41.799 --> 05:08:52.599
realize that actually, what's happening now without healing, relaxing energy

2084
05:08:53.520 --> 05:09:00.200
spreading through your body is actually changing your life life.

2085
05:09:05.279 --> 05:09:10.439
It's actually changing the way you're going to feel not

2086
05:09:10.720 --> 05:09:18.080
just now, but tomorrow and the next day. As your

2087
05:09:18.200 --> 05:09:26.279
health improves, not just your physical health, but your mental health.

2088
05:09:30.240 --> 05:09:35.400
Things that used to bother you in the past, for

2089
05:09:35.560 --> 05:09:41.599
some reason, no longer have the effect that they used

2090
05:09:41.639 --> 05:09:55.919
to because something has changed deep within you. Maybe things

2091
05:09:56.240 --> 05:10:05.880
that used to cause you to feel anger no longer

2092
05:10:06.279 --> 05:10:15.919
have that power to control you the way they seem

2093
05:10:16.040 --> 05:10:24.919
to be able to before. As you realize that you're

2094
05:10:25.040 --> 05:10:37.720
the one who decides what affects you, you're the one

2095
05:10:38.360 --> 05:10:48.759
who decides to feel relaxed and calm when you choose

2096
05:10:52.360 --> 05:11:06.840
to enjoy noticing these natural developments of healing continue to

2097
05:11:07.040 --> 05:11:21.400
grow and improve your life day by day, including of course,

2098
05:11:21.520 --> 05:11:39.040
your ability to relax so much easier and sleeping. It's

2099
05:11:39.080 --> 05:11:49.439
the most natural thing in the world to you, because

2100
05:11:49.680 --> 05:11:56.840
falling asleep is something that you've done so many times

2101
05:11:58.599 --> 05:12:04.200
in your life, and you know that you were born,

2102
05:12:05.720 --> 05:12:12.360
as we all were, with the ability to fall asleep naturally.

2103
05:12:16.560 --> 05:12:27.240
We were born with that ability to just drift off

2104
05:12:28.000 --> 05:12:41.119
into a deep, healing sleep. Even when we're kids, sometimes

2105
05:12:41.240 --> 05:12:45.680
will fall asleep when we don't even want to try

2106
05:12:45.799 --> 05:12:50.520
to think stay awake. Maybe it's a birthday in the morning,

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or it's Christmas or holiday or something we look forward to.

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We don't want to go to sleep. But the more

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we want to stay awake, the more we just start

2110
05:13:05.200 --> 05:13:13.919
to drift. And the more you fights drifting we try

2111
05:13:14.000 --> 05:13:19.880
to stop yourself and drifting asleep, the deeper and stronger

2112
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that drifting becomes. Because we're born not just with the

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05:13:31.479 --> 05:13:40.840
need to relax deeply and to naturally fall asleep, but

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it's our birthright, it's part of our DNA, and sometimes

2115
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as we get older in life, perhaps at time we

2116
05:14:01.159 --> 05:14:17.279
have forgotten relaxing completely. It's not only a wonderfully pleasant experience,

2117
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it's also really easy. It's very, very easy to let go,

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because that's all it is.

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It is just.

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Deciding to let go. And when you press the player

2121
05:15:00.000 --> 05:15:10.200
button on my recordings, you have given permission from my

2122
05:15:10.439 --> 05:15:18.560
voice to relax you. When you press that play button,

2123
05:15:19.560 --> 05:15:28.000
you have given me permission for my words to effect

2124
05:15:30.479 --> 05:15:42.319
you in a positive, only a positive way, opening up

2125
05:15:47.520 --> 05:16:05.439
your mind to useful and healing suggest questures that can

2126
05:16:05.720 --> 05:16:17.759
have such an amazing effect on how you feel right now,

2127
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as well as those changes that continue long after the

2128
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recording ends, those changes within you that continue to flourish

2129
05:16:44.000 --> 05:16:58.560
and grow, transforming your life in a positive, beautiful way,

2130
05:17:01.639 --> 05:17:08.680
allowing you to move forward in your life in the

2131
05:17:08.840 --> 05:17:26.080
direction that you choose for yourself. And this feeling, this

2132
05:17:26.360 --> 05:17:41.959
feeling that you can experience of safety, comfort, calmness, This

2133
05:17:42.240 --> 05:17:55.880
feels so nice. It's such a healthy place to be,

2134
05:18:03.759 --> 05:18:17.560
and that positivity grows within you each and every day.

2135
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Moving forward, you're going to find that you're more relaxed

2136
05:18:32.759 --> 05:18:45.080
physically and in your mind is more relaxed. And it's

2137
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not that you're thinking slower. It's just that your mind

2138
05:18:50.799 --> 05:19:02.680
will be less clogged up with unnecessary negativity because from

2139
05:19:02.799 --> 05:19:13.040
now on, your mind rejects negativity. From now on, you're

2140
05:19:13.119 --> 05:19:23.919
going to start noticing when negativity arises and you can

2141
05:19:24.119 --> 05:19:38.040
just say stop, stop, and that negativity will turn around

2142
05:19:38.680 --> 05:19:58.040
and leave you alone. Stop and that negativity will disappear.

2143
05:20:06.200 --> 05:20:12.680
And as you notice that you feel way more relaxed

2144
05:20:14.119 --> 05:20:29.479
than you probably expected, you can now congratulate yourself because

2145
05:20:29.639 --> 05:20:36.040
you're the person that has done this You are the

2146
05:20:36.200 --> 05:20:41.279
one that has opened your mind up to the simple

2147
05:20:41.479 --> 05:20:49.360
facts that you can feel more relaxed in your body

2148
05:20:50.080 --> 05:20:59.319
and in your mind. You've opened your mind up to

2149
05:21:01.680 --> 05:21:08.240
the birthright of being able to just fall asleep easily

2150
05:21:09.319 --> 05:21:23.319
when you choose. And that's a nice feeling. Don't you

2151
05:21:23.439 --> 05:21:31.560
think it feels nice? Doesn't it? To feel.

2152
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Calm?

2153
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All the healing energy is spreading through your body in

2154
05:21:39.520 --> 05:21:51.759
your mind to spend time in a special place where

2155
05:21:54.720 --> 05:22:08.360
negativity can no longer enter. Negativity is banned. It's bad,

2156
05:22:09.759 --> 05:22:16.520
it's not allowed entry. Doesn't it doesn't. This doesn't deserve

2157
05:22:16.639 --> 05:22:24.840
to be here, doesn't belong here. Negativity has no place

2158
05:22:25.880 --> 05:22:42.639
in your life, which makes room for more comfort, more healing,

2159
05:22:44.799 --> 05:23:12.040
more relaxation, more peace. It feels nice, doesn't it? Just

2160
05:23:15.799 --> 05:23:36.360
let go with everything. I'm gonna count down now from

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05:23:37.119 --> 05:23:46.680
twenty down to one. You can continue to relax. If

2162
05:23:46.759 --> 05:23:58.639
you choose, you can drift to sleep with every number.

2163
05:24:01.319 --> 05:24:12.959
Hear me say, you can fill twice as relaxed, or

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05:24:13.040 --> 05:26:29.360
if you choose, you can fill twice sleeping now. Twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, two, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six,

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five four on. This is your time to just take

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05:27:23.279 --> 05:27:38.360
a break, your time to relax, to allow your mind

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05:27:38.520 --> 05:27:55.720
to slow down, to give yourself permission to take a

2168
05:27:55.880 --> 05:28:10.200
break from everything. Ensure the only person that can make

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05:28:10.319 --> 05:28:16.360
that decision. You're the only person that can actually tell

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05:28:16.400 --> 05:28:38.439
your mind just relax, to just take some time off

2171
05:28:45.919 --> 05:28:50.439
so that you can focus on your body, getting in

2172
05:28:50.639 --> 05:29:05.439
touch with how you feel physically, and in the process

2173
05:29:05.919 --> 05:29:13.400
of this body scan, where you focus on different parts

2174
05:29:13.439 --> 05:29:24.360
of your body, those parts that you focus on and observe,

2175
05:29:27.319 --> 05:29:35.680
even though you're not purposely requesting for those parts of

2176
05:29:35.759 --> 05:29:43.279
your body to relax, it's kind of expected. You expect

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05:29:44.639 --> 05:29:52.319
when you listen to my voice to feel more relaxed naturally,

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because when you're listening to me, your attention is focused

2179
05:30:08.000 --> 05:30:19.200
on my words, and as my words guide you to

2180
05:30:19.360 --> 05:30:31.720
focus on those parts of your body, your focus increases,

2181
05:30:38.840 --> 05:30:55.200
which actually calms your mind. And when your mind calms down,

2182
05:31:00.080 --> 05:31:22.119
your body relaxes. And when your body calms down, your

2183
05:31:22.279 --> 05:31:39.159
mind relaxes. And even though we've not really started to

2184
05:31:39.279 --> 05:31:51.959
focus on your body, you can already feel that healing

2185
05:31:52.240 --> 05:32:06.680
energy spreading through your body, shin out stress and tension,

2186
05:32:10.840 --> 05:32:18.119
healing all the parts of your body, including your skin,

2187
05:32:19.279 --> 05:32:26.200
your bones, your blood, all of your organs inside your body,

2188
05:32:27.599 --> 05:32:34.360
all of the muscles, all of the fat, all of everything,

2189
05:32:36.240 --> 05:32:42.400
every hair on your body is filled with that healing energy.

2190
05:32:50.439 --> 05:33:06.200
And when your brain fills with that healing energy, the

2191
05:33:06.400 --> 05:33:31.159
feeling of comfort relaxation increases deeply, increases in a way

2192
05:33:31.400 --> 05:33:51.439
that your mind starts to fill perhaps spit drowsing because

2193
05:33:51.479 --> 05:34:10.599
it's not needed, and it may start to drift if

2194
05:34:10.720 --> 05:34:12.360
that's what's needed.

2195
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So if you're listening to.

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This and what you need is deep relaxation, that's what

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05:34:23.000 --> 05:34:27.080
you get. If what you need is.

2198
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To fall asleep.

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Naturally and easily, that your mind drifts, that's also what

2200
05:34:40.720 --> 05:34:53.680
will happen. Because by pressing that play button on the

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05:34:53.799 --> 05:35:01.319
podcast and listening to me, give permission your body and

2202
05:35:01.439 --> 05:35:13.439
your mind. In fact, you give the command to your

2203
05:35:13.520 --> 05:35:24.840
body and your mind to relax deeply and to drift

2204
05:35:25.000 --> 05:35:41.759
off to sleep, if that's what you want or need them.

2205
05:35:41.799 --> 05:35:47.240
As I focus on the different parts of your body,

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05:35:52.200 --> 05:36:01.000
you may start to just drift, and then you come

2207
05:36:01.119 --> 05:36:06.360
back again and you hear me talking and I'm focusing

2208
05:36:06.520 --> 05:36:17.360
on a different part of your body, you may find

2209
05:36:17.520 --> 05:36:27.200
yourself drifting, being realize you're drifting. Until you stop drifting,

2210
05:36:29.439 --> 05:36:36.599
you alert again to my voice, focusing on a different

2211
05:36:36.720 --> 05:36:41.560
part of your body, starts to relax in on deeper

2212
05:36:45.959 --> 05:36:54.439
because I'm drifting. It's basically here already in the sleep zone.

2213
05:37:00.919 --> 05:37:06.119
And the more you drift, the longer you drift, the

2214
05:37:06.279 --> 05:37:21.599
longer you drift. Eventually that drifting continues into sleep, and

2215
05:37:21.759 --> 05:37:30.919
that's the last you remember until you wake up in

2216
05:37:31.080 --> 05:37:36.680
your own time. When you experience the right amount of sleep.

2217
05:37:37.520 --> 05:37:46.599
Fear because when you do and if you do fall asleep,

2218
05:37:46.840 --> 05:38:14.279
it's extremely pleasant, so relaxing, so deep healing sleep. I

2219
05:38:14.560 --> 05:38:22.880
feel so nice to relax since your own body and mind,

2220
05:38:26.680 --> 05:38:35.520
as if you feel that heating energy is spreading through it, relaxing,

2221
05:38:35.759 --> 05:38:58.639
use so deeply, relaxes so deeply. To start to focus

2222
05:39:00.479 --> 05:39:23.360
on your eyes, moving down, tail, jaw down, tail back,

2223
05:39:30.840 --> 05:40:11.279
your shoulders, arm, had fingus, your chest, stun.

2224
05:40:18.479 --> 05:40:18.959
You and.

2225
05:40:26.200 --> 05:41:27.840
Spine your hands, your legs, faint, your toes, spreading grime

2226
05:41:29.560 --> 05:41:41.919
inside your body. Feeling you up. Now, let's focus again

2227
05:41:44.240 --> 05:41:51.479
on parts of your body, kay, focusing this time on

2228
05:41:51.599 --> 05:42:04.439
your forehead. Now on your mouth, your lips, your tongue,

2229
05:42:07.720 --> 05:42:29.479
a whole of your mouth. Focusing on your fingers. Maybe

2230
05:42:29.799 --> 05:42:34.040
you could move your fingers a little bits. You can

2231
05:42:35.159 --> 05:42:49.759
focus on each one individually, both hands, and even though

2232
05:42:49.959 --> 05:42:55.040
it should focus on both of your hands, now they

2233
05:42:55.119 --> 05:43:03.479
almost seem to just melt into one. Where did your

2234
05:43:03.599 --> 05:43:11.479
right hand? Starting left hand and a worst as if

2235
05:43:14.240 --> 05:43:29.639
just mixed together. Now focusing on your knees, just noticing

2236
05:43:30.919 --> 05:43:54.919
how your knees hell. Now, focusing on your elbows, focusing

2237
05:43:55.200 --> 05:44:09.479
on both your elbows. M just observing the feeling of

2238
05:44:09.680 --> 05:44:41.319
your holms. Now focusing I'm sorry, the back of your neck,

2239
05:44:51.319 --> 05:44:56.880
feeling energy, the back of your neck.

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Upside echous, it's a cud of sensation of.

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05:45:48.360 --> 05:47:09.560
Say e cus sachs. But if of your faint being

2242
05:47:09.799 --> 05:48:05.200
aware how your toes feel right now, ninety cents how

2243
05:48:05.439 --> 05:48:54.840
you esire body feels. Noticing your mind feels now letting go,

2244
05:49:03.639 --> 05:49:44.959
letting go, letting go everything, letting go, letting go, leting

2245
05:49:45.680 --> 05:50:12.520
go off everything. I'm going to start now, and I'd

2246
05:50:12.599 --> 05:50:14.919
like you just, first of all, just to see yourself

2247
05:50:16.479 --> 05:50:22.680
lying down on the message table, lying on your front.

2248
05:50:23.919 --> 05:50:31.880
Your head is supported, your arms are supported, and you

2249
05:50:31.959 --> 05:50:38.639
feel comfortable, and breathing is really easy, and you feel,

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05:50:42.119 --> 05:50:45.119
you feel confident in how you look as well, So

2251
05:50:45.560 --> 05:50:49.720
there's none of that issue of body problems or shyness.

2252
05:50:50.599 --> 05:50:58.720
Because I'm a professional and this is a therapy session,

2253
05:51:00.240 --> 05:51:07.479
none of that stuff matters on whatsoever. This is about you.

2254
05:51:10.360 --> 05:51:16.119
This is about how you feel and how you can

2255
05:51:17.560 --> 05:51:23.200
enjoy that sense of comfort and relaxation that comes from

2256
05:51:24.599 --> 05:51:30.240
letting go and allowing my hands and my fingers to

2257
05:51:30.400 --> 05:51:41.880
relax you by messaging your body. So I want to

2258
05:51:41.959 --> 05:51:47.040
start off just by placing my hands on the back

2259
05:51:47.080 --> 05:51:51.959
of your head, just genterly, just you can feel what

2260
05:51:52.119 --> 05:52:00.560
my hands feel like really on you. So you can

2261
05:52:00.639 --> 05:52:02.959
maybe feel the warmth of my hands on the back

2262
05:52:03.000 --> 05:52:08.479
of your head. And with my hands to the side

2263
05:52:08.520 --> 05:52:13.159
of your head, not pressing, but just holding there very gently,

2264
05:52:16.080 --> 05:52:19.080
maybe over your ears, and a little bit on your face,

2265
05:52:20.479 --> 05:52:25.919
so you can feel my hands so you can become

2266
05:52:25.959 --> 05:52:38.959
accustomed to them. And now put my hands on the

2267
05:52:39.040 --> 05:52:43.720
back of your head again and gently let them slide

2268
05:52:43.799 --> 05:52:56.040
down onto the back of your neck. You can feel

2269
05:52:56.119 --> 05:53:06.080
my hands gently stroking the back of your neck to

2270
05:53:06.200 --> 05:53:12.680
start with, just so you can get used to the

2271
05:53:14.560 --> 05:53:18.119
feeling of my hands on your skin, get accustomed to

2272
05:53:22.119 --> 05:53:27.000
realize that you're safe and it's all good, it's all fine,

2273
05:53:33.400 --> 05:53:37.479
and I want to start gently messaging the muscles in

2274
05:53:37.560 --> 05:53:53.400
the back of your neck with both hands. And this

2275
05:53:53.520 --> 05:53:59.720
is a very trusting situation really, because our necks is

2276
05:53:59.799 --> 05:54:05.040
so fragile and to have someone have their hands around

2277
05:54:05.119 --> 05:54:10.240
your neck in that way can sometimes be problematic for people,

2278
05:54:11.479 --> 05:54:15.919
which is why massages are quite good, because it allows

2279
05:54:16.000 --> 05:54:25.919
you to relax and to get in touch with trust,

2280
05:54:30.240 --> 05:54:42.799
to feel peaceful and calm. There's a massage the sides

2281
05:54:42.880 --> 05:54:50.919
of your neck, gently moving from the bottom of your neck.

2282
05:54:52.639 --> 05:54:55.159
It would be sort of near where your shoulders start.

2283
05:54:55.200 --> 05:55:01.840
I guess all the way up to your jaw. Your

2284
05:55:01.959 --> 05:55:05.240
ear is kind of area that side of your neck.

2285
05:55:08.040 --> 05:55:10.599
Of course, it's a lot longer than the front of

2286
05:55:10.680 --> 05:55:26.759
your neck. And message in the back of your neck,

2287
05:55:30.599 --> 05:55:39.400
especially that area where perhaps we hold tension, and there's

2288
05:55:39.479 --> 05:55:44.119
that area's message. You can actually feel a sense of

2289
05:55:44.279 --> 05:55:52.319
release in the back of your neck and maybe you

2290
05:55:52.479 --> 05:55:57.759
can breathe it out as well. Notice how it feels.

2291
05:55:58.040 --> 05:56:10.639
Notice how you feel. And they're moving down to that

2292
05:56:10.880 --> 05:56:16.200
area between your neck and your shoulders, that musty area,

2293
05:56:18.919 --> 05:56:26.360
starting to message that area on both sides. I mean,

2294
05:56:26.400 --> 05:56:28.720
this would be the area that a lot of people

2295
05:56:28.759 --> 05:56:31.639
would message if they were going to give you like

2296
05:56:31.720 --> 05:56:37.639
a shoulder message. Even that's not technically the shoulders, but

2297
05:56:37.799 --> 05:56:42.040
it's all the muscles that lead to the shoulders from

2298
05:56:42.119 --> 05:56:48.479
the neck and again that can hold tension and stress.

2299
05:56:49.720 --> 05:56:54.720
And when massaged, sometimes a nice deep message is useful,

2300
05:56:57.799 --> 05:57:13.759
and you decide how deep that message is. Just allow

2301
05:57:15.639 --> 05:57:20.680
my knuckles just to dig in, to get to those

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05:57:20.880 --> 05:57:30.479
muscles and to really relaxed and all the time being

2303
05:57:30.759 --> 05:57:48.279
firm yet gentle with you and just stroking down the

2304
05:57:48.479 --> 05:57:57.000
area to your actual shoulders, moving to the muscles of

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05:57:57.080 --> 05:58:08.200
your shoulders, and maybe initially just pulling up the shoulders

2306
05:58:08.200 --> 05:58:11.560
a little bit off the table, just to give you

2307
05:58:11.680 --> 05:58:22.080
a little bit of a stretch, but very gently, and

2308
05:58:22.159 --> 05:58:24.720
you've got the muscles at the front of your shoulders,

2309
05:58:25.479 --> 05:58:36.400
the sides of the back. Again, this is a part

2310
05:58:36.560 --> 05:58:41.959
that can really take quite a bit of pressure, quite

2311
05:58:42.000 --> 05:58:50.040
a bit of needing if if you wish to really

2312
05:58:51.919 --> 05:58:57.360
release the tension to really get into those muscles and

2313
05:59:00.840 --> 05:59:04.159
you can let your fingers in there make you feel

2314
05:59:04.319 --> 05:59:12.400
really nice. Sometimes just being stroked gently or being messaged

2315
05:59:13.840 --> 05:59:27.720
quite strongly can all be beneficial to the reorversation with

2316
05:59:27.880 --> 05:59:41.479
the muscles in your shoulders. Now you move down your arms.

2317
05:59:48.080 --> 05:59:51.599
Were doing one arm at a time, Starting with your

2318
05:59:51.759 --> 06:00:02.000
right arm. What I'll do is I just lift your

2319
06:00:02.119 --> 06:00:04.919
arm up, just hold it to the side of you

2320
06:00:08.159 --> 06:00:12.959
that where it still be attached, and I just message

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06:00:14.479 --> 06:00:27.200
the tops of your arms all the way down to

2322
06:00:27.360 --> 06:00:54.159
your forearms into your wrists, gently messaging that part, the

2323
06:00:54.360 --> 06:00:57.799
softer part, which is the under part of the arm,

2324
06:01:00.919 --> 06:01:04.639
which leads to the crease in your elbow, the inside.

2325
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It's much more sensitive skin. Sometimes just having that stroked,

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06:01:23.680 --> 06:01:39.159
I feel really nice, pleasurable and relaxing. Now moving down

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06:01:40.560 --> 06:01:52.959
to your right hand, just holding your hand in both

2328
06:01:53.000 --> 06:02:03.240
of my hands gently on the back of your hand,

2329
06:02:05.560 --> 06:02:14.400
stretching your fingers ever so lightly at the same time

2330
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pressing down and messaging each finger, and then starting to

2331
06:02:29.880 --> 06:02:40.560
massage the palms and their hand. Just turning the hand,

2332
06:02:42.959 --> 06:02:52.840
stretching it gently and actually having your hand held can

2333
06:02:52.959 --> 06:03:00.799
really be an emotional experience sometimes even if it is stranger.

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So when you don't know very well, like a massage

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06:03:06.759 --> 06:03:20.439
person or a therapist, maybe because it's intimate, you can

2336
06:03:20.479 --> 06:03:33.439
feel nice, you can feel safe and as I put

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06:03:33.560 --> 06:03:42.240
that right arm back down where it was. We did

2338
06:03:42.279 --> 06:03:53.919
the same with your left arm, exactly the same. Message

2339
06:03:54.000 --> 06:03:58.319
in the muscles in your arm all the way down.

2340
06:03:59.520 --> 06:03:59.680
Do you.

2341
06:04:04.240 --> 06:04:14.080
Stroking the inside of your arm, just being gentle or

2342
06:04:14.159 --> 06:04:28.080
as firm as you require, and then massaging your left hand,

2343
06:04:34.599 --> 06:04:44.639
stretching the fingers, gently massaging the palm of your left hand.

2344
06:04:56.840 --> 06:05:24.880
You feel so so relaxing, so comforting, and I just

2345
06:05:25.080 --> 06:05:37.959
rest your left arm back down. Start to message your back,

2346
06:05:39.680 --> 06:05:47.720
the biggest part of your body, starting at the top,

2347
06:05:50.959 --> 06:05:54.880
starting again where you already have been, the area at

2348
06:05:54.919 --> 06:06:01.400
the top in between your shoulders, near your neck. Going

2349
06:06:01.520 --> 06:06:06.159
back and massage in the area again, but this time

2350
06:06:06.520 --> 06:06:19.520
moving downwards, making it downward. Stroke to the middle of

2351
06:06:19.680 --> 06:06:27.840
your back, working for the outside inwards. So massage in

2352
06:06:27.959 --> 06:06:39.279
that your back, but the outsides of your back, the

2353
06:06:39.439 --> 06:06:55.040
parts where your arms would maybe rest against, almost the

2354
06:06:55.159 --> 06:07:07.479
part that connects your front to your back, and just

2355
06:07:07.759 --> 06:07:16.200
messaging down firmly but gently, as firm as you want,

2356
06:07:19.639 --> 06:07:23.720
moving down, and then moving across the little bed and

2357
06:07:23.799 --> 06:07:29.520
moving all the way down again, be very gentle yout

2358
06:07:29.799 --> 06:07:40.520
firm as you choose. Eventually you get to the spine.

2359
06:07:41.919 --> 06:07:45.639
We can message the muscles and either side of your

2360
06:07:45.720 --> 06:07:49.599
spine from the top of your neck all the way

2361
06:07:49.759 --> 06:08:00.840
down to your lower back. We can do that a

2362
06:08:00.959 --> 06:08:11.560
few times. Sometimes people use the knuckle or the you know,

2363
06:08:11.759 --> 06:08:15.959
the two fingers and just go either side of the

2364
06:08:16.080 --> 06:08:21.400
spine almost just push down, go all the way down

2365
06:08:21.479 --> 06:08:28.840
to the bottom of the spine, each time releasing tension

2366
06:08:29.560 --> 06:08:38.720
and opening up the body, stretching your body so that

2367
06:08:38.840 --> 06:08:46.000
you feel more relaxed but at the same time rejuvenated.

2368
06:08:57.360 --> 06:09:00.639
And now I'm going to move to one side, to

2369
06:09:00.759 --> 06:09:08.040
your right side, and from the bottom of your ribs

2370
06:09:10.000 --> 06:09:16.119
to your pelvis, I'm gonna message that area of your back.

2371
06:09:18.040 --> 06:09:21.240
I'll stretch over the other side and I will pull

2372
06:09:21.360 --> 06:09:27.799
the muscles gently and massage and push from one end

2373
06:09:28.319 --> 06:09:32.439
that side or the way to my side to the

2374
06:09:32.560 --> 06:09:38.080
middle of fact to where your spine is, massaging that

2375
06:09:38.360 --> 06:09:43.080
side of your spine the opposite side to where I'm standing.

2376
06:09:45.439 --> 06:09:51.439
It's almost like kneading bread. There's that big area which

2377
06:09:51.560 --> 06:10:03.319
is firm yet lots there to message. Potentially one of

2378
06:10:03.360 --> 06:10:10.000
the most important places to actually have a message, because

2379
06:10:10.080 --> 06:10:15.919
you really feel it. You really feel the release and

2380
06:10:16.040 --> 06:10:24.200
the pleasure of having your lower back messaged. It releases

2381
06:10:24.599 --> 06:10:32.880
so much from your body that's not useful, starting a

2382
06:10:33.040 --> 06:10:39.119
healing process which will continue long after this recording is over.

2383
06:10:48.439 --> 06:10:51.319
The message in this part of your body not only

2384
06:10:51.439 --> 06:10:56.200
feels really good for you, it's actually fun to do

2385
06:10:57.639 --> 06:11:03.319
because it is, as I said, like eating bread. It's

2386
06:11:03.400 --> 06:11:07.240
a part that you can really get hold of and

2387
06:11:07.439 --> 06:11:21.040
really message deeply. If that's your choice. They're not going

2388
06:11:21.119 --> 06:11:23.119
to move over to the other side of your body

2389
06:11:23.599 --> 06:11:32.319
and do the same with the opposite part of your

2390
06:11:32.400 --> 06:11:39.479
lower back, kneading and messaging from your sides all the

2391
06:11:39.520 --> 06:11:46.680
way to the middle of your back where your spine

2392
06:11:46.840 --> 06:12:00.560
is pressing and kneading firm and gentle with this same time,

2393
06:12:02.520 --> 06:12:15.000
it feels so releasing this mixture of pleasure, comfort, release, calmness,

2394
06:12:15.400 --> 06:12:27.040
relaxation or mixed together. Plus there's that feeling from your

2395
06:12:27.119 --> 06:12:32.240
stomach as it's being stretched. Even though you're in your

2396
06:12:32.319 --> 06:12:36.599
stomach now, you can feel it being stretched because that

2397
06:12:36.759 --> 06:12:48.159
whole area is connected to your stomach. Now we're going

2398
06:12:48.240 --> 06:12:53.159
to move or move further up to your top of

2399
06:12:53.240 --> 06:12:59.520
your body and we do the same this time, starting

2400
06:13:00.880 --> 06:13:07.119
with your upper back. Put my hands forward over and

2401
06:13:07.319 --> 06:13:14.680
massive massage in that area. Up to your spine, from

2402
06:13:14.720 --> 06:13:18.880
the side of your body up to your spine, so

2403
06:13:19.040 --> 06:13:25.360
some of that message area, that muscle tissue or whatever

2404
06:13:25.599 --> 06:13:31.159
fatty tissue even will be possibly from your chest because

2405
06:13:31.159 --> 06:13:35.000
it's all connected. The chest and the back connect together.

2406
06:13:38.159 --> 06:13:41.400
I'm going to be massaging and just pulling some of

2407
06:13:41.520 --> 06:13:49.479
that skin from your side up and massaging that area

2408
06:13:52.479 --> 06:13:56.639
of your upper back all the way to your spine.

2409
06:14:01.040 --> 06:14:03.279
And then I'll move down a bit and I continue

2410
06:14:03.880 --> 06:14:06.919
with the middle of your back, doing exactly the same thing.

2411
06:14:10.799 --> 06:14:24.599
There's gentle as deep as you choose. Now, I'll move

2412
06:14:25.119 --> 06:14:29.319
the other side again and do the exact same thing

2413
06:14:30.000 --> 06:14:33.119
with the top of your back on the other side,

2414
06:14:34.200 --> 06:14:48.240
from pretty much underneath your arm area really to your spine,

2415
06:14:53.360 --> 06:14:59.880
and then continue in that all the way down including

2416
06:15:00.000 --> 06:15:16.240
and you'll lower your middle of your back. I'm gonna

2417
06:15:17.040 --> 06:15:23.639
go to your thighs, the backs of your thighs, and

2418
06:15:23.759 --> 06:15:31.000
the sides of your thighs, starting with your right leg.

2419
06:15:33.279 --> 06:15:40.680
Massage in the back and the sides of your thighs

2420
06:15:43.119 --> 06:15:49.560
gently and firmly. There's a lot of muscles there. It's

2421
06:15:49.599 --> 06:15:52.840
an area that can be very tense at times and

2422
06:15:53.040 --> 06:15:56.439
maybe needs a little bit more pressure than the rest

2423
06:15:56.479 --> 06:16:04.119
of the body that's up to you. And you can

2424
06:16:04.240 --> 06:16:10.919
gently stroke the back of your legs where you know,

2425
06:16:11.599 --> 06:16:17.680
opposite your knee joint or underneath your knee joint, very sensitive,

2426
06:16:17.959 --> 06:16:34.080
gentle area, and working down to your calf muscles. Massage

2427
06:16:34.200 --> 06:16:39.840
in your calf muscles thoroughly and deeply, if you choose,

2428
06:16:43.319 --> 06:17:00.319
using both hands and fingers, digging deep, do your ankles

2429
06:17:02.520 --> 06:17:08.119
in the back of your back of your ankles, just

2430
06:17:08.479 --> 06:17:20.040
gently massage in that area, maybe lifting the leg and

2431
06:17:20.919 --> 06:17:44.200
stretching a little bit. Moving to the right foot, massaging

2432
06:17:46.799 --> 06:17:53.560
the bottom of your feet and the size of your

2433
06:17:53.599 --> 06:18:10.240
fate gently but firm enough so they don't tickle, and

2434
06:18:10.439 --> 06:18:15.880
just allow the pleasure that you get from heaving your

2435
06:18:15.959 --> 06:18:25.279
feet massaged to just overtake you as I continue to

2436
06:18:25.479 --> 06:18:31.840
message your feet, the bottoms of your feet, the sides,

2437
06:18:34.520 --> 06:18:40.200
your arches, your heel. You can put a lot of

2438
06:18:40.319 --> 06:18:46.159
pressure into your heel and it feels amazing, Yet the

2439
06:18:46.360 --> 06:18:54.439
arches need to be a bit more gentle. Stretching your

2440
06:18:54.599 --> 06:19:01.040
toes gently the message in the bottom of your toes

2441
06:19:01.759 --> 06:19:17.080
with my fingers, each one individually. Moving over to the

2442
06:19:17.240 --> 06:19:26.639
left leg to do exactly the same thing. Starting at

2443
06:19:26.680 --> 06:19:31.080
the top of the thighs, work in the back of

2444
06:19:31.200 --> 06:19:38.759
the thighs and the sides, massaging deeply and gently the

2445
06:19:38.919 --> 06:19:52.919
whole area, working all the way down. And this is

2446
06:19:53.000 --> 06:19:59.119
an area that maybe you could like to spend more

2447
06:19:59.279 --> 06:20:08.119
time relaxing and messaging. Perhaps if you wanted, I could

2448
06:20:08.159 --> 06:20:13.279
make a future recording on spend more time on one

2449
06:20:13.400 --> 06:20:25.240
particular area. As you moved down to your calf muscles,

2450
06:20:31.240 --> 06:20:47.080
Massage your calf muscles firmly and gently, moving down your

2451
06:20:47.159 --> 06:20:53.919
ancord into your feet, Massage in the backs of your feet,

2452
06:20:55.799 --> 06:21:05.040
the bottoms of your feet, stretching your toes and message

2453
06:21:05.119 --> 06:21:13.200
in each toe individually. And the feeling of pleasure and release.

2454
06:21:13.479 --> 06:21:20.200
The experience when you're having your feet and massaged feels

2455
06:21:20.720 --> 06:21:40.439
really good. Now she turn over in your mind. Laying

2456
06:21:40.520 --> 06:21:53.159
on your back, I'm just going to start again with

2457
06:21:53.319 --> 06:22:08.119
your neck area and your shoulders, just to get back

2458
06:22:08.200 --> 06:22:17.680
in touch with that area. And as you move up,

2459
06:22:25.479 --> 06:22:30.319
I can clean my hands, make them more fresh, because

2460
06:22:30.360 --> 06:22:39.520
now I'm gonna message your face simply starting off with

2461
06:22:39.639 --> 06:22:51.439
your forehead. Your eyes are closed, I can just stretch

2462
06:22:52.680 --> 06:22:57.159
your eyes a little bit, pushing up on your eyebrows,

2463
06:23:03.919 --> 06:23:16.720
just massaging around your scalp, massaging down your cheeks, around

2464
06:23:16.799 --> 06:23:29.400
your ears, into your chaw chipley, the side of your neck,

2465
06:23:33.279 --> 06:23:51.959
your chin. They're just moving down from your neck down

2466
06:23:52.119 --> 06:23:59.799
to your chest, starting by message in the very top

2467
06:23:59.840 --> 06:24:08.159
of your chest where the collar bone is. Give a

2468
06:24:08.360 --> 06:24:20.080
side of the collarbone, and then just message in the

2469
06:24:20.279 --> 06:24:41.319
hole of the chest, moving the chest around. Because it's

2470
06:24:41.400 --> 06:24:46.360
quite a large area, you can move from one side

2471
06:24:46.479 --> 06:24:57.119
to the next, moving my hands underneath pretty much what

2472
06:24:57.240 --> 06:25:07.080
your arms are, stretching up, stretching some of the muscles

2473
06:25:07.119 --> 06:25:16.080
of your back in the process, moving up over your

2474
06:25:16.240 --> 06:25:36.520
chest and then moving down again, then laying my hands.

2475
06:25:37.200 --> 06:25:43.720
They're just massage gently and slide down towards your stomach,

2476
06:25:45.479 --> 06:25:51.959
starting in the middle of your chest, and then gradually

2477
06:25:52.279 --> 06:25:59.560
my hands moving apart and massaging and sliding out the

2478
06:25:59.639 --> 06:26:18.200
same time, moving down to just below your ribcage, moving

2479
06:26:18.400 --> 06:26:28.319
down and then messaging up again, giving your chest all

2480
06:26:28.400 --> 06:26:44.680
the attention that it needs to feel completely relaxed, remembering

2481
06:26:44.840 --> 06:26:48.479
that I'm also going to be focusing on your sides

2482
06:26:48.639 --> 06:26:53.799
as well, an area that really doesn't get much attention

2483
06:26:56.360 --> 06:27:05.560
but feels really good when it's a message. Just stroking

2484
06:27:05.639 --> 06:27:13.119
my hands down the sides of your body, just below

2485
06:27:13.200 --> 06:27:25.880
your arms all the way down to your hips. Now

2486
06:27:26.520 --> 06:27:32.000
move into your stomach area. I'm gonna stand on one

2487
06:27:32.200 --> 06:27:34.520
side of you like I did when I dig your

2488
06:27:34.599 --> 06:27:40.959
lower back. I'm gonna do a similar process of just

2489
06:27:41.159 --> 06:27:55.959
stretching the muscles from your side, gently massaging from one

2490
06:27:56.119 --> 06:28:05.000
side to the next, moving the whole area from below

2491
06:28:05.080 --> 06:28:09.279
your ribs all the way down to below your belly button.

2492
06:28:16.439 --> 06:28:18.560
And I'm gonna move around to the other side of

2493
06:28:18.639 --> 06:28:37.159
you and repeat that process of relaxing, deeply, calmly. You

2494
06:28:37.400 --> 06:28:44.680
feel loose, you feel free. And it's something about having

2495
06:28:44.759 --> 06:28:53.080
your stomach message that's different from any other part because

2496
06:28:53.159 --> 06:28:57.599
we do have a tendency of holding a different kind

2497
06:28:57.680 --> 06:29:01.639
of stress in your stomachs that we may not be

2498
06:29:01.759 --> 06:29:13.040
aware of. There's a now message your stomach. In front

2499
06:29:13.119 --> 06:29:20.200
of your stomach, they can circles around your belly button

2500
06:29:25.959 --> 06:29:35.479
and then going the other way around. There's a gentleness

2501
06:29:35.680 --> 06:29:41.639
and a freedom that comes from feeling how you're feeling.

2502
06:29:47.200 --> 06:29:51.840
As I now move down the tops of your thighs,

2503
06:29:53.799 --> 06:29:59.439
muscles a messaging them, and I can do this two

2504
06:29:59.560 --> 06:30:09.880
legs at the same time, pressing down, massaging deeply those

2505
06:30:10.000 --> 06:30:19.040
muscles in your thighs, the front of your thighs, and

2506
06:30:19.279 --> 06:30:30.439
moving down to your knees, gently massaging your knees, sliding

2507
06:30:30.639 --> 06:30:36.119
down your shins, putting pressure on either side of your

2508
06:30:36.200 --> 06:30:49.040
shin gently softly but firmly, moving down to your ankles,

2509
06:30:53.959 --> 06:31:03.639
stroking the tops of your feet, and then with each

2510
06:31:04.959 --> 06:31:10.400
foot in each hand, just gently messaging the whole of

2511
06:31:10.479 --> 06:31:19.279
the foot, the top, the bottom, your heel, your ankle,

2512
06:31:20.119 --> 06:31:32.439
your toes, messaging every part of your feet. Feels so good,

2513
06:31:33.159 --> 06:31:47.360
Just to let go and enjoy the process. Enjoy feeling

2514
06:31:49.880 --> 06:32:03.200
so deeply relaxed. So much comfort and so many feelings

2515
06:32:04.759 --> 06:32:19.400
become just from touching your skin. And you can just

2516
06:32:20.599 --> 06:32:30.000
lie there for as long as you choose, enjoying the

2517
06:32:30.319 --> 06:32:38.680
feeling of deep comfort from being massaged.

2518
06:32:40.639 --> 06:32:41.000
By me.

2519
06:32:48.159 --> 06:33:13.959
Enjoy feeling deeply. And all we're gonna do is blow

2520
06:33:14.040 --> 06:33:30.360
out some candles. In your mind, there are going to

2521
06:33:30.400 --> 06:33:41.080
be a hundred candles, and you're going to blow each

2522
06:33:41.159 --> 06:33:51.279
one out individually, one by one, starting at one hundred.

2523
06:33:52.360 --> 06:33:59.680
As I count down all the way down to one,

2524
06:34:04.200 --> 06:34:13.119
and each time I say a number, you can imagine

2525
06:34:13.159 --> 06:34:19.599
that candle in front of you and I'd like you

2526
06:34:19.759 --> 06:34:39.000
to actually physically generally blow that candle out, just so

2527
06:34:39.119 --> 06:34:48.360
it's not big blows, just a gentle, and that candle

2528
06:34:49.880 --> 06:34:59.240
will extinguish. And then I'll say the next number we

2529
06:34:59.439 --> 06:35:08.680
moved down, and you can just blow that one out

2530
06:35:09.360 --> 06:35:22.959
as well. And as we move down the numbers, you'll

2531
06:35:23.119 --> 06:35:31.799
find yourself feeling more and more relaxed. If you need

2532
06:35:33.520 --> 06:35:42.759
to sleep, you'll also find yourself becoming incredibly tired and sleepy.

2533
06:35:46.599 --> 06:35:54.080
In fact, you may struggle to blow out all one

2534
06:35:54.240 --> 06:36:11.080
hundred of these candles as you feel more and more

2535
06:36:11.439 --> 06:36:39.279
deeply relaxed, more and more deeply tired, And the further

2536
06:36:39.720 --> 06:36:49.400
you go down, the more your mind starts to drift.

2537
06:36:55.799 --> 06:37:02.880
You may find the stop listening to me after a while.

2538
06:37:11.479 --> 06:37:15.880
And even though there may be background sounds where you are,

2539
06:37:20.799 --> 06:37:32.040
you'll be aware of those sounds at the moment he

2540
06:37:32.360 --> 06:37:50.759
may start just not even notice them at all because

2541
06:37:50.880 --> 06:38:04.439
they're unimportant. Where I am, I've got the sounds of

2542
06:38:04.560 --> 06:38:11.200
the birds, there's all horrors, the pigeon who likes to

2543
06:38:11.279 --> 06:38:17.840
say hello sometimes, and there's the old plane that goes by,

2544
06:38:20.880 --> 06:38:34.319
maybe traffic and trains in the distance, but none of

2545
06:38:34.400 --> 06:38:46.599
that scene is important. Whatsoever, or candles you blow out

2546
06:38:48.639 --> 06:39:05.439
less important, anything is more candles you blow out. The

2547
06:39:05.680 --> 06:39:26.680
furva seemed to move away, sounds from general date days,

2548
06:39:27.159 --> 06:39:42.200
stuff seems to just move away on its own. You

2549
06:39:42.919 --> 06:40:07.240
feel more calmer with every candley blowout guiding you to

2550
06:40:07.400 --> 06:40:20.520
the next number. Did you hear me say? And then

2551
06:40:20.599 --> 06:40:38.279
you blow that candle out to so easy, so simple.

2552
06:40:47.799 --> 06:41:01.799
I'm gonna start by introducing the first candle. This is

2553
06:41:01.880 --> 06:41:19.159
a hundred. First candle, she is one hundred. When you

2554
06:41:20.080 --> 06:41:36.360
blow that candle out, you'll find immediately a slight change

2555
06:41:40.240 --> 06:41:48.520
in how you feel, as well as a real sense

2556
06:41:48.680 --> 06:42:20.040
of positivity, growing revenue, relaxation and sleepiness expanding. Starting with

2557
06:42:26.520 --> 06:43:07.520
one hundred blow out by candle now nineteen nine, candle

2558
06:43:10.080 --> 06:44:49.959
ninety eight, candle ninety seven, JAM ninety six, can ninety five,

2559
06:45:10.400 --> 06:46:44.479
ninety four, candle ninety three, I Like you, two like

2560
06:46:44.880 --> 06:48:07.319
you one candle ninety had eighty nine had eight eight

2561
06:48:49.240 --> 06:51:49.240
eight shadow eight eighty five and and and eighty two.

2562
06:52:57.040 --> 06:54:47.959
Two eight two, seventy.

2563
06:54:47.840 --> 06:55:40.479
Nine s candle seventy eight, candle seventy seven, candle seventy six,

2564
06:55:54.400 --> 06:56:41.479
candle seventy four five, candle seventy four candle seventy three,

2565
06:56:53.400 --> 06:58:01.240
candle seventy, candle seventy one, candle seventy one and seventeen

2566
06:58:16.279 --> 06:59:09.360
and sixty nine, candle sixty eight, candle sixty seven, candle

2567
06:59:13.040 --> 07:00:15.919
sixty five, candle sixty four, candle sixty four, candle sixty three,

2568
07:00:25.720 --> 07:02:17.200
candle sixty and sixty one, candle sixty fifty nine, candle

2569
07:02:20.000 --> 07:03:39.720
fifty eight, candle fifty seven, candle fifty six, candle fifty five,

2570
07:03:57.240 --> 07:05:18.520
candle fifty four, hand fifty three, hand fifty fifty two,

2571
07:05:50.919 --> 07:07:28.680
cantul fifty, candle fiftenty one, candle fifty, can fourty nine,

2572
07:07:59.200 --> 07:09:55.360
camp forty eight, forty seven, candle forty six, candle forty five,

2573
07:10:27.479 --> 07:12:37.919
forty two candle. What do you want? Candle forty thirty nine,

2574
07:13:12.000 --> 07:14:36.919
Can do thirty eight, can do thirty seven, candle thirty five,

2575
07:15:26.119 --> 07:17:31.720
thirty four, handle thirty three, handle thirty one, candle seven

2576
07:18:48.000 --> 07:18:54.400
and twoe ten nine.

2577
07:19:37.439 --> 07:19:38.319
What you ate?

2578
07:20:29.720 --> 07:23:26.720
Candle twenty seven, twenty six, Camp twenty five and four twenty,

2579
07:24:06.400 --> 07:25:29.840
candle twenty te, T handle twenty two, word e wit

2580
07:26:07.680 --> 07:30:37.240
and ninety seventy can six day FOURT two.

2581
07:30:41.319 --> 07:32:18.479
S y.

2582
07:33:35.759 --> 07:36:11.639
No tive t eight, Can't you.

2583
07:36:57.520 --> 07:36:58.799
Can do?

2584
07:37:40.919 --> 07:37:41.840
Can do.

2585
07:39:54.279 --> 07:40:06.959
Four. Let go of all of those thoughts, worries, concerns

2586
07:40:07.240 --> 07:40:13.959
about the past, thoughts about the future, and even things

2587
07:40:14.040 --> 07:40:18.200
you've been thinking about today. Just let it all go

2588
07:40:21.639 --> 07:40:29.319
because none of it is useful in this moment. This

2589
07:40:29.599 --> 07:40:49.439
is your opportunity to just focus on feeling relaxed, allowing

2590
07:40:49.560 --> 07:40:57.520
yourself to get in touch with that natural sense of

2591
07:40:57.720 --> 07:41:06.360
peace that we all have within us. It's available for everyone.

2592
07:41:07.520 --> 07:41:12.400
It just sometimes takes a little bit of effort to

2593
07:41:12.599 --> 07:41:18.639
set up the right time and place in order for

2594
07:41:18.759 --> 07:41:25.680
you to just let go. Because when you do decide

2595
07:41:28.080 --> 07:41:33.400
to let go and relax, that's what your body starts

2596
07:41:33.479 --> 07:41:43.720
to do because you've chosen, You've chosen to just allow

2597
07:41:43.840 --> 07:41:49.680
your body to unwind and your mind starts to slow down.

2598
07:41:53.040 --> 07:41:57.439
And it's a nice feeling. It's a nice feeling at

2599
07:41:57.479 --> 07:42:03.400
the beginning, just to know that you have chosen to

2600
07:42:03.560 --> 07:42:12.599
decide to relax deeply, and because you've made that decision,

2601
07:42:14.400 --> 07:42:21.439
your body will just follow suit. Because sometimes all the

2602
07:42:21.599 --> 07:42:26.319
muscles in your body need is just permission from you

2603
07:42:27.400 --> 07:42:35.880
to relax. Because so often we're busy, we're going from

2604
07:42:36.000 --> 07:42:39.959
here to there, we're walking around and we're doing stuff,

2605
07:42:42.279 --> 07:42:48.599
and the body doesn't have any time or space to

2606
07:42:48.799 --> 07:42:55.759
really relax deeply, so it kind of waits for you

2607
07:42:56.080 --> 07:43:05.240
to lead the way, waits for your permission. And when

2608
07:43:05.279 --> 07:43:12.040
you do give your permission, when you give the say so,

2609
07:43:12.279 --> 07:43:20.040
when you say okay, it's time for your body to

2610
07:43:20.240 --> 07:43:28.959
let go completely and relax totally, your body just follows.

2611
07:43:32.119 --> 07:43:37.400
So like a breath of relief. Ah good, I can

2612
07:43:37.479 --> 07:43:44.520
now relax. That feeling at the end of a day

2613
07:43:44.560 --> 07:43:48.919
of very physical day that you may experience in the past,

2614
07:43:50.040 --> 07:43:52.560
where you get home and you just sit down on

2615
07:43:52.680 --> 07:43:56.880
a chair, maybe you kick your shoes off, and ah,

2616
07:43:57.680 --> 07:44:03.119
feels so nice. Know that you don't have to get

2617
07:44:03.200 --> 07:44:07.639
up again for a little while at least, and if

2618
07:44:07.680 --> 07:44:10.319
you choose, you can just sit there for maybe an

2619
07:44:10.360 --> 07:44:24.200
hour to feels blissful. And just by sitting down like that,

2620
07:44:25.680 --> 07:44:30.680
your body knows that it's time to relax. Your body

2621
07:44:31.360 --> 07:44:36.919
has been given permission from you because it's a mindset

2622
07:44:38.439 --> 07:44:47.159
in your mind, you're prepared to let go of everything

2623
07:44:49.599 --> 07:44:57.279
and just completely allow all the stress of your body

2624
07:44:58.119 --> 07:45:15.759
to evaporate. Any tensions can just gradually vanish. It's almost

2625
07:45:16.040 --> 07:45:27.400
like magic, really, because that sense of relaxation in your

2626
07:45:27.479 --> 07:45:34.479
body it's a very natural state. It's not something unusual.

2627
07:45:35.560 --> 07:45:38.799
It may feel unusual when you first start to relax,

2628
07:45:38.919 --> 07:45:43.000
if you if you haven't really spent a lot of

2629
07:45:43.159 --> 07:45:47.520
time focusing and giving yourself this space to let go

2630
07:45:48.200 --> 07:45:55.000
completely and relax may seem almost alien, but it isn't.

2631
07:45:56.520 --> 07:46:02.400
It's actually the most natural thing in the world to

2632
07:46:02.599 --> 07:46:12.400
let go completely, to relax totally, the most natural thing

2633
07:46:12.720 --> 07:46:24.880
in the world to allow yourself to feel really calm

2634
07:46:25.319 --> 07:46:32.319
in your mind. And it is almost like a literal unwinding.

2635
07:46:36.000 --> 07:46:41.479
It's like you press a button and all the tension

2636
07:46:41.840 --> 07:46:47.639
just releases, and it's like a wheel, like a cog,

2637
07:46:48.639 --> 07:46:52.159
like the inside of the clock just unwinding. And it's

2638
07:46:52.200 --> 07:46:55.959
almost like you could see that the little wind up

2639
07:46:56.919 --> 07:47:01.799
knob that's used just going the sick way that you

2640
07:47:02.040 --> 07:47:08.560
choose to wind it up, and the energy that frymeetic

2641
07:47:09.759 --> 07:47:19.799
stress for energy gradually winding down, losing its power, losing

2642
07:47:19.880 --> 07:47:28.759
its strength. As a sense of relaxation becomes stronger and deeper,

2643
07:47:32.439 --> 07:47:39.520
and you may find a little more relaxed. You feel

2644
07:47:41.040 --> 07:47:50.799
your mind starts to wander. Maybe you seem to stop

2645
07:47:50.959 --> 07:47:56.040
listening to me for a while. Your mind goes somewhere else,

2646
07:47:57.479 --> 07:48:03.319
and then you realize you're listening to me again, and

2647
07:48:03.439 --> 07:48:09.959
that's just your mind to drift in to sleep, which

2648
07:48:10.040 --> 07:48:19.880
is quite natural, because sometimes when we're stressed and tense,

2649
07:48:21.200 --> 07:48:24.639
we're not may I actually be aware of what we

2650
07:48:24.919 --> 07:48:31.759
need or we physically or emotionally need in this moment.

2651
07:48:34.599 --> 07:48:41.080
But when you allow your body and mind to relax completely,

2652
07:48:42.799 --> 07:48:50.040
and you let go of all thoughts, concerns, worries, ideas,

2653
07:48:51.560 --> 07:48:56.080
all leng goo allow them to drop onto the floor,

2654
07:49:01.560 --> 07:49:07.560
you start to get in touch with the feelings of

2655
07:49:09.439 --> 07:49:20.319
such relaxation. Feels so nice to be in touch with

2656
07:49:21.119 --> 07:49:29.639
the calmness of the different body parts as they become

2657
07:49:30.000 --> 07:49:42.720
looser and looser. Believe in your breathing seems easier and

2658
07:49:42.919 --> 07:49:52.080
more natural, effortless, as that cool aird is through your

2659
07:49:52.240 --> 07:50:02.560
mouthful nose into your lungs, breathing in comfort and relaxation,

2660
07:50:05.200 --> 07:50:11.680
and then just breathing out any excess remain intentional stress

2661
07:50:13.599 --> 07:50:22.119
from every part of your body and mind. As you

2662
07:50:22.279 --> 07:50:28.000
start to focus on your mind, maybe you notice that

2663
07:50:28.319 --> 07:50:36.240
things have come to a standstill or maybe just much

2664
07:50:36.759 --> 07:50:46.599
much lower than before, because your mind is not really needed.

2665
07:50:48.119 --> 07:50:55.759
When listening to my voice, which allows your mind to

2666
07:50:56.000 --> 07:51:05.200
relax just as deeply is your body, and that's synchronicity

2667
07:51:06.080 --> 07:51:17.400
between the relaxation of your body relaxation of your mind.

2668
07:51:19.759 --> 07:51:29.680
Let you know that feeling completely calm, loose, and relaxed

2669
07:51:33.119 --> 07:51:48.759
is a great healing experience fear and has so many

2670
07:51:50.360 --> 07:51:59.119
positive benefits for your body, mind, and your life. To

2671
07:51:59.240 --> 07:52:07.840
be able to let go everything and to relax completely,

2672
07:52:09.720 --> 07:52:17.880
you know, all parts of your body and mind. Even

2673
07:52:17.959 --> 07:52:33.639
your bones are relaxed, your muscles are relaxed, even the

2674
07:52:33.959 --> 07:52:47.439
skin that covers your body is relaxed. Every hand.

2675
07:52:50.240 --> 07:52:50.799
That you have.

2676
07:52:52.560 --> 07:53:10.159
Is also deeply relaxed. Then your brain really starts to

2677
07:53:10.400 --> 07:53:23.360
feel the benefits of this heathing relaxation. And then as

2678
07:53:23.560 --> 07:53:29.759
you focus on the inside of your scalp where your

2679
07:53:29.840 --> 07:53:37.560
brain is, you can start to realize and notice the

2680
07:53:37.840 --> 07:53:49.200
benefits of your brain relaxing demail And as your brain

2681
07:53:50.799 --> 07:54:01.639
continues to relax sends those messages the rest of your

2682
07:54:01.759 --> 07:54:20.599
body and your mind to really relax more deeply, relaxly,

2683
07:54:22.639 --> 07:54:38.759
more completely, letting go of any remaining thoughts of concerns,

2684
07:54:41.080 --> 07:54:47.400
allow them just to drop onto the floor because they're

2685
07:54:47.479 --> 07:54:56.639
no longer necessary in this moment, this moment of deep

2686
07:54:58.439 --> 07:55:21.799
relaxation and calmness, and feeling your brain with deep concentrated heathing, calming,

2687
07:55:27.080 --> 07:55:38.720
relaxing every part of your brain, feeling.

2688
07:55:41.360 --> 07:55:43.279
So loose.

2689
07:55:44.520 --> 07:56:02.080
And comfortable, so relaxed and peaceful. Your brain feel so light,

2690
07:56:04.360 --> 07:56:15.840
that's so healthy. That sense of deep deep comfort really

2691
07:56:16.759 --> 07:56:29.880
does allow you to enjoy those ever increasing sensations of

2692
07:56:31.799 --> 07:56:45.919
comfort that are spreading throughout your body, relaxing each and

2693
07:56:46.560 --> 07:57:03.439
every muscle of your body deeper and deeper, much more

2694
07:57:04.279 --> 07:57:22.000
deeper than before, much more comfort spreading through your body,

2695
07:57:22.720 --> 07:57:23.599
your mind.

2696
07:57:26.319 --> 07:57:28.240
Be so.

2697
07:57:30.119 --> 07:57:46.200
Peaceful and calm, so very very peaceful in avery part

2698
07:57:48.840 --> 07:58:00.360
of your body, letting go of a everything, a thing,

2699
07:58:03.919 --> 07:58:26.319
so peaceful, calm, so relax very second the possis you feel.

2700
07:58:28.319 --> 07:58:47.279
Dper, dper relaxed, dper and dper relax.

2701
07:58:49.639 --> 07:58:53.840
Came so cam.

2702
07:58:57.799 --> 07:58:59.439
Base for.

2703
07:59:02.279 --> 07:59:11.599
So very peace from your head down to your toils.

2704
07:59:14.720 --> 07:59:27.119
Such peace and comfort growing all all the time, Such

2705
07:59:27.840 --> 07:59:38.240
peace and comfort spreading through your body and mind.

2706
07:59:40.439 --> 07:59:54.400
Deeper deeper, such comfort spreading and sinking deeper.

2707
07:59:56.439 --> 08:00:08.080
Into ay muscle of your body, so that you feel amazing,

2708
08:00:11.080 --> 08:00:13.240
so relaxed.

2709
08:00:15.840 --> 08:00:17.119
So piece, so.

2710
08:00:21.840 --> 08:00:23.799
So relax.

2711
08:00:27.200 --> 08:00:42.319
And peace so letting go everything I'm going to do

2712
08:00:42.599 --> 08:00:50.000
a body scan, focusing on firstly how you feel in

2713
08:00:50.119 --> 08:00:55.520
your body, Not trying to change how you feel, not

2714
08:00:56.000 --> 08:01:00.720
trying to relax, not trying to move away from any

2715
08:01:00.840 --> 08:01:09.919
discomfort or stress or tension. Just accepting, observing and accepting

2716
08:01:10.520 --> 08:01:13.880
how you feel in the different parts of your body,

2717
08:01:15.880 --> 08:01:24.279
Just allowing yourself to be exactly as you are, to

2718
08:01:24.520 --> 08:01:32.720
notice to get in touch with how you actually feel

2719
08:01:33.759 --> 08:01:42.599
in this moment. I'm going to start off by focusing

2720
08:01:43.880 --> 08:01:56.439
on your hands. Just be aware of your hands. I'd

2721
08:01:56.560 --> 08:02:01.119
like you to move your hands around, maybe move your

2722
08:02:01.360 --> 08:02:08.560
fingers a little bit. I've been enclosing your hands very gently,

2723
08:02:10.240 --> 08:02:15.919
just so that you can get in touch with how

2724
08:02:16.040 --> 08:02:30.200
your hands and your fingers feel, very very slow movements.

2725
08:02:38.639 --> 08:02:46.400
Focusing now on your feet, and if you can just

2726
08:02:46.560 --> 08:02:51.639
do kind of an equivalent with your feet is you've

2727
08:02:51.840 --> 08:02:58.080
just done with your hands, Maybe turn in your ankles,

2728
08:03:00.119 --> 08:03:08.360
moving your feet around, moving your toes gently but only

2729
08:03:09.599 --> 08:03:21.439
very gently and very slowly, noticing how your feet feel

2730
08:03:23.479 --> 08:03:36.799
in this moment. Focusing now and your eyes. I'd like

2731
08:03:36.919 --> 08:03:43.919
you to just focus on your eyelids. Maybe you can

2732
08:03:44.119 --> 08:03:48.319
open and close your eyes a couple of times to

2733
08:03:48.520 --> 08:03:52.240
really get in touch with how you feel when you

2734
08:03:52.439 --> 08:04:01.080
do close your eyes. The muscle changes your eyes when

2735
08:04:01.119 --> 08:04:09.720
you do close them, maybe raising your eyebrows. It stretches

2736
08:04:10.080 --> 08:04:20.919
the tops of your eyes, perhaps squinting your eyes, scrunching

2737
08:04:21.040 --> 08:04:25.720
up your eyes, just so you can really get in

2738
08:04:25.919 --> 08:04:39.400
touch with all aspects of how your eyes feel. Right now,

2739
08:04:48.759 --> 08:04:54.560
now focusing on your thighs, and then you know it

2740
08:04:54.720 --> 08:05:01.040
just starts you to gently tense your thighs, just very

2741
08:05:02.479 --> 08:05:14.279
very gently, just enough so you can become more attuned

2742
08:05:15.840 --> 08:05:25.000
to the physical sensation of your upper legs, the front

2743
08:05:25.080 --> 08:05:32.799
of your thighs, and the backs of your thighs, noticing

2744
08:05:34.959 --> 08:05:52.000
and observing how your thighs fear. Right now, moving your

2745
08:05:52.240 --> 08:06:00.319
focus to the back of your neck. Just notice in

2746
08:06:00.479 --> 08:06:06.520
the back of your neck the muscles, and of course

2747
08:06:06.680 --> 08:06:10.959
they lead to the side of your neck. They also

2748
08:06:11.279 --> 08:06:16.080
lead to the top of your back, which leads to

2749
08:06:16.200 --> 08:06:21.720
your shoulders. So as you focus on the back of

2750
08:06:21.799 --> 08:06:29.200
your neck, maybe you can move your head gently upwards

2751
08:06:30.360 --> 08:06:36.319
as if you're looking up, Maybe moving your head down

2752
08:06:37.759 --> 08:06:44.360
as if you're looking down. Perhaps moving your head side

2753
08:06:44.560 --> 08:06:55.479
to side, right to left, but only very slowly and

2754
08:06:56.000 --> 08:07:04.479
very gently, not truls of force anything it has to

2755
08:07:04.599 --> 08:07:16.439
be very very gentle, just so you can be more

2756
08:07:18.360 --> 08:07:26.959
in touch with the feelings, with the sensations of the

2757
08:07:27.240 --> 08:07:36.080
physical sensations of how on the back of your neck feels.

2758
08:07:37.840 --> 08:07:53.240
Right now, as we now focus on the tops of

2759
08:07:53.360 --> 08:07:59.599
your arms, the parts where your biceps and your triceps

2760
08:07:59.680 --> 08:08:07.279
are between your elbow and your shoulders. So you focus

2761
08:08:07.720 --> 08:08:14.000
on those parts, the tops of your arms, you may

2762
08:08:15.119 --> 08:08:24.840
like to just tense them, but very very gently and slowly,

2763
08:08:27.400 --> 08:08:37.200
so you're straining or putting any pressure whatsoever on your arms.

2764
08:08:39.880 --> 08:08:47.279
It's just soly you can gain more of a sense

2765
08:08:47.560 --> 08:08:58.000
of how your upper arms are feeling in this moment.

2766
08:09:01.400 --> 08:09:11.759
Just notice and as you gently, very gently and slowly

2767
08:09:13.520 --> 08:09:24.479
tighten the muscles and then let go, notice how the

2768
08:09:24.680 --> 08:09:39.479
tops of your arms feel right now. As we now

2769
08:09:40.159 --> 08:09:50.360
focus on your stomach, the area the lower abdomen area

2770
08:09:51.040 --> 08:09:59.439
below your belly button, moving all the way down, do

2771
08:09:59.520 --> 08:10:10.159
your hear just above your grind. Maybe you're able to

2772
08:10:11.599 --> 08:10:24.520
tense these muscles in the area very very gently and slowly.

2773
08:10:30.200 --> 08:10:34.599
If that's a difficult thing to do, maybe you can

2774
08:10:34.799 --> 08:10:45.439
just move your body, pushing your stomach up, maybe moving

2775
08:10:45.520 --> 08:10:50.720
a little bit to a side using your hips just

2776
08:10:51.279 --> 08:10:59.240
so you can get more in tune with hell you're

2777
08:11:00.200 --> 08:11:19.080
lower abdomen area is feeling in this moment, Just noticing

2778
08:11:20.599 --> 08:11:43.279
the physical sensations or your lower abdomen as. Move your

2779
08:11:43.360 --> 08:11:57.119
attention to your mouth. Notice in your lips and inside

2780
08:11:57.279 --> 08:12:15.159
your mouth, your teeth, your guns, your tongue, just noticing

2781
08:12:16.919 --> 08:12:19.799
how your tongue and your mouth feels.

2782
08:12:22.840 --> 08:12:22.880
It.

2783
08:12:23.040 --> 08:12:32.040
May help by moving your tongue around your mouth, moving

2784
08:12:32.119 --> 08:12:39.520
it to your left, maybe pressing it gently against the

2785
08:12:39.759 --> 08:12:45.959
side of your mouth, and then to the right, gently

2786
08:12:46.479 --> 08:12:53.159
to the side of your mouth, perhaps pressing up against

2787
08:12:53.279 --> 08:13:01.279
the top of your mouth, and then down gently against

2788
08:13:01.400 --> 08:13:11.840
the bottom of your mouth, always very slowly and a

2789
08:13:12.439 --> 08:13:31.880
very very gentle so that you can be aware of

2790
08:13:32.119 --> 08:13:54.279
how you feel in your mouth area. Now you're going

2791
08:13:54.479 --> 08:14:10.759
to focus on your wrists, and I'll ask you to

2792
08:14:11.000 --> 08:14:20.919
maybe just rotate your wrists by moving your hands in

2793
08:14:21.000 --> 08:14:34.560
a circular motion very gently and slowly, just so you

2794
08:14:34.759 --> 08:14:55.880
can feel the sensations that you are currently experiencing in

2795
08:14:58.919 --> 08:15:09.319
your wrist. Perhaps smooth in your hands up and down

2796
08:15:12.000 --> 08:15:39.319
the game very very gently and slowly, very chancel and slow.

2797
08:15:52.759 --> 08:16:09.159
As we now start to observe your lower back, the

2798
08:16:09.520 --> 08:16:20.319
bad part is just above your hips where your coxis

2799
08:16:20.439 --> 08:16:33.439
are a whole area which also really does include the

2800
08:16:33.799 --> 08:16:40.720
sides of your body, because those muscles are very much connected.

2801
08:16:45.959 --> 08:16:53.279
There's those muscles also move into your hiperia, connecting to

2802
08:16:53.439 --> 08:17:08.400
your buttocks the sides of your hips, and if you're

2803
08:17:09.639 --> 08:17:18.439
physically able to do so, maybe you can very gently

2804
08:17:20.599 --> 08:17:33.919
just move your body evers slightly, very slowly some side,

2805
08:17:34.119 --> 08:17:54.479
decide just enough to engage how you feel in your

2806
08:17:54.639 --> 08:18:12.720
lord back, perhaps secretly, even move your hips gently up

2807
08:18:12.799 --> 08:18:28.200
and down, gently and slowly in order to really be

2808
08:18:28.720 --> 08:18:38.040
in touch with the physical sensations of your lower back.

2809
08:18:55.119 --> 08:19:07.159
As we know your attention to your jaw.

2810
08:19:10.279 --> 08:19:15.919
An area for your chin, all the way up to

2811
08:19:16.159 --> 08:19:32.759
near where your ears are. All of your jaw, you

2812
08:19:32.880 --> 08:19:41.400
can just if it's okay to do so, gently open

2813
08:19:41.560 --> 08:19:51.279
your mouth nor wide, no stretching, just very gently and.

2814
08:19:54.319 --> 08:20:06.840
Slowly open in your mouth, closing your mouth very gently.

2815
08:20:08.639 --> 08:20:10.360
And slowly.

2816
08:20:19.439 --> 08:20:33.119
So you cannot be in touch with how your jaw feels.

2817
08:20:36.520 --> 08:21:19.400
Now to sit down your chest area. You don't need

2818
08:21:19.599 --> 08:21:27.240
to do anything to move your chest because it moves

2819
08:21:27.759 --> 08:21:41.000
every time you breathe. It moves very gently and slowly,

2820
08:21:43.479 --> 08:21:58.520
automatically with each breath you take as you focus on

2821
08:22:01.880 --> 08:22:45.759
your chest fim when you breathe, move in your focus

2822
08:22:47.759 --> 08:23:05.119
to your forms, your elbows. Maybe you have outs. Very gently.

2823
08:23:06.479 --> 08:23:08.599
And slowly.

2824
08:23:10.360 --> 08:23:18.880
Tense the muscles in your forearms, and when you do that,

2825
08:23:19.360 --> 08:23:42.919
you can feel your elbows as well. Very gently and slowly,

2826
08:23:51.400 --> 08:24:31.240
gently and softly absurd your forearms and depas. Now make

2827
08:24:31.279 --> 08:24:45.720
a focus the rest of your back, your upper back

2828
08:24:50.240 --> 08:25:07.680
in the middle, the middle of your back. Again, this

2829
08:25:08.360 --> 08:25:18.560
part of your body moves also every time you breathe.

2830
08:25:23.439 --> 08:25:37.040
You may not notice that usually makes you observe your

2831
08:25:37.200 --> 08:25:44.439
upper back in the middle of your back. You can

2832
08:25:44.720 --> 08:26:40.880
really feel that gentle and low mate in your focus

2833
08:26:42.840 --> 08:26:50.560
into your hip area, your butts.

2834
08:26:52.400 --> 08:26:52.720
Bray.

2835
08:26:55.560 --> 08:27:30.360
There's muscles at those bones in your midsection. Just noticing

2836
08:27:32.759 --> 08:27:53.080
how your hips feel. Right now, you can very very

2837
08:27:53.680 --> 08:28:08.799
gently move your hips maybe side to side and gently and.

2838
08:28:11.880 --> 08:28:29.959
Sl yeah, very.

2839
08:28:34.360 --> 08:29:05.360
Gently, softly and slow. Everything it's starts to slow down,

2840
08:29:11.840 --> 08:29:17.520
including the thoughts in your mind and your mind itself

2841
08:29:20.720 --> 08:29:27.400
just starts to gradually. It doesn't have to be instant,

2842
08:29:27.479 --> 08:29:35.479
but just gradually starting too. It's almost like time is

2843
08:29:35.919 --> 08:29:47.040
storing chin It's a slower pace to maybe what you're

2844
08:29:47.400 --> 08:29:55.040
used to in your day to day life. It's a

2845
08:29:55.279 --> 08:30:22.240
slower movement of energy, very small movements which make up

2846
08:30:22.560 --> 08:30:30.159
the larger movements, which is always the case. Now, when

2847
08:30:30.200 --> 08:30:35.360
you move your hand, it might seem like it's one movement,

2848
08:30:35.479 --> 08:30:43.400
but it's lots of minute different muscles moving in accordance

2849
08:30:43.520 --> 08:30:54.680
with each other. And what happens in this space that

2850
08:30:54.880 --> 08:31:14.080
we're sharing is we move from that big movement into

2851
08:31:14.159 --> 08:31:31.520
those smaller movements. Starting to focus on how your body feels,

2852
08:31:33.360 --> 08:31:37.720
not just as a whole, not just oh, i'm feeling

2853
08:31:37.840 --> 08:31:42.759
this way. I'm feeling stressed or tense, or I'm feeling

2854
08:31:42.880 --> 08:31:48.240
relaxed and calm. I'm feeling this way, I'm feeling that way.

2855
08:31:51.759 --> 08:31:59.759
Starting to notice that your body begins to present to

2856
08:31:59.799 --> 08:32:20.639
you small feelings around your body, small physical sensations in

2857
08:32:20.759 --> 08:32:36.240
your legs, whether pleasurable or not. Maybe resisting the temptation

2858
08:32:36.599 --> 08:32:46.040
to label them or to judge them those feelings, just

2859
08:32:46.360 --> 08:32:54.080
thinking them, thinking about them is just being neutral, just feelings,

2860
08:33:00.759 --> 08:33:09.240
not being particularly concerned, but just noticing what your body

2861
08:33:12.040 --> 08:33:25.439
is telling you. The feelings in your arms, instead of

2862
08:33:25.599 --> 08:33:33.119
feeling the hole of the arm, maybe notice those individual

2863
08:33:34.240 --> 08:33:46.919
feelings all those different muscles and the skin, the hairs

2864
08:33:47.680 --> 08:33:52.720
of your arms, all the internal parts of your arms,

2865
08:33:52.840 --> 08:34:12.119
the veins, the bones, just being aware of maybe your

2866
08:34:12.240 --> 08:34:20.400
elbow on your right arm has a certain feeling. Maybe

2867
08:34:20.680 --> 08:34:33.799
your left wrist also has its own individual physical sensation.

2868
08:34:46.240 --> 08:34:52.919
What about your forearm on your right arm, your right forearm.

2869
08:35:00.279 --> 08:35:06.360
There may not be any particular feeling that you could

2870
08:35:06.439 --> 08:35:14.319
even give a name to, may not feel like anything

2871
08:35:15.319 --> 08:35:25.560
other than just a feeling. You know, it's there. The

2872
08:35:25.639 --> 08:35:31.520
feelings in your shoulders, perhaps your shoulders when you think

2873
08:35:31.560 --> 08:35:36.360
about them, kind of almost like they're the same, you know,

2874
08:35:37.599 --> 08:35:42.720
the same feeling, almost like both of your shoulders are

2875
08:35:42.840 --> 08:35:55.599
just one thing. Of course they're not. And when you

2876
08:35:55.840 --> 08:36:01.840
focus on your left shoulder and then on your right shoulder,

2877
08:36:03.880 --> 08:36:08.360
maybe find that you move the muscles a little bit,

2878
08:36:09.919 --> 08:36:24.759
maybe tense the muscles gently, noticing the difference in each shoulder.

2879
08:36:36.159 --> 08:36:52.000
Your lower back, the left side of your lower back

2880
08:36:52.200 --> 08:37:03.599
and the right side of your lower back, of course

2881
08:37:03.720 --> 08:37:15.919
that connection to your buttocks and to your hips, and

2882
08:37:16.080 --> 08:37:29.400
also moving up into the middle of your back. And

2883
08:37:29.639 --> 08:37:34.159
sometimes like right now, actually when I focus on that part,

2884
08:37:35.560 --> 08:37:39.959
when I focused on my buttocks, and then I focused

2885
08:37:40.000 --> 08:37:44.119
on the middle of my back. I almost felt like

2886
08:37:44.319 --> 08:37:49.080
the muscles in my lower back were being stretched very gently,

2887
08:37:53.840 --> 08:37:59.119
just stretched a little bit. Even though I wasn't doing

2888
08:37:59.240 --> 08:38:08.000
anything to try to stretch your lower back, you just

2889
08:38:08.080 --> 08:38:20.360
seem to happen. The feeling of very gently stretching your

2890
08:38:20.439 --> 08:38:39.560
lower back comes along. I have feeling in your chest,

2891
08:38:47.159 --> 08:39:00.560
just noticing what sensations you are experiencing in your chest

2892
08:39:00.840 --> 08:39:17.080
right now. And there's so much of the chest. Obviously

2893
08:39:17.159 --> 08:39:20.799
there's the collar bone leading to the chest. You've got

2894
08:39:20.840 --> 08:39:29.439
the chest bone, You've got the muscles in your chest.

2895
08:39:32.240 --> 08:39:38.319
Of course, if you're female, there's possibly the breasts. If

2896
08:39:38.360 --> 08:39:46.479
you're male, you've got the different well why not that

2897
08:39:46.639 --> 08:39:54.119
different these days, But there may be more muscles at

2898
08:39:54.159 --> 08:39:59.720
the top of the chest, but at the side and

2899
08:40:00.119 --> 08:40:04.200
nief it's pretty much the same. Whether you're a man

2900
08:40:04.319 --> 08:40:09.360
or a woman. There's muscles there, muscles that stretch out

2901
08:40:10.799 --> 08:40:15.400
to your back as well as breast tissue stretches and

2902
08:40:15.599 --> 08:40:23.279
moves into your back. To just being aware of your chest,

2903
08:40:32.200 --> 08:40:59.279
being with whatever feeling there is in your chest. And

2904
08:40:59.400 --> 08:41:02.439
what I note is that I focus on my chest,

2905
08:41:06.799 --> 08:41:10.360
I feel it in my back and my upper back.

2906
08:41:11.840 --> 08:41:14.880
I mean I guess the obvious reason would be because

2907
08:41:14.919 --> 08:41:24.840
you know, I'm greath in in and it stretches my

2908
08:41:25.159 --> 08:41:36.000
chest and my back at the same time. It feels

2909
08:41:39.279 --> 08:41:50.919
it feels okay, it doesn't feel I got a little

2910
08:41:50.959 --> 08:41:57.360
bit of pain in my right chest, A little bit

2911
08:41:57.520 --> 08:42:03.040
not pain, but a little discomfort me be stiffness, possibly,

2912
08:42:03.599 --> 08:42:12.479
I don't know. I notice my shoulders are also wanting

2913
08:42:12.680 --> 08:42:19.639
to flex for some reason. I think that's probably part

2914
08:42:19.680 --> 08:42:28.119
of my upper back, that connection between my shoulders and

2915
08:42:28.200 --> 08:42:32.319
my upper back, because I can move my shoulders and

2916
08:42:33.439 --> 08:42:40.080
stretch the muscles in my back, moving the shoulders backwards

2917
08:42:41.040 --> 08:42:46.599
or up, which then moves I think it's the scapulous

2918
08:42:49.240 --> 08:43:06.959
in your back. It feels quite nice. Actually, A good

2919
08:43:07.000 --> 08:43:10.319
thing about this is you can, if you want to,

2920
08:43:11.040 --> 08:43:25.959
you can just flex or stimulate the various muscles in

2921
08:43:26.080 --> 08:43:31.799
your body gently in order to get more of a

2922
08:43:32.000 --> 08:43:46.919
sense of how they feel. And when you're relaxing. When

2923
08:43:46.959 --> 08:43:51.000
you do tense and muscle, then you let it go

2924
08:43:51.279 --> 08:44:00.159
and you let it relax. It relaxes way more than

2925
08:44:00.159 --> 08:44:10.240
it would normally. But you have to feel that you're

2926
08:44:10.279 --> 08:44:13.919
able to do that. There's no point in doing it

2927
08:44:14.159 --> 08:44:19.959
if there's an issue with the per part of your body.

2928
08:44:23.439 --> 08:44:30.040
You need to be gentle with yourself at all times

2929
08:44:32.639 --> 08:44:44.159
when relaxing deeply. It's important to be kind to yourself.

2930
08:44:51.720 --> 08:44:59.959
As you notice your mind, how much is your mind

2931
08:45:00.159 --> 08:45:23.759
and slowed down since we started this recording, How came

2932
08:45:27.720 --> 08:45:39.200
and peaceful is your mind right now? We have nothing

2933
08:45:39.319 --> 08:45:44.799
to think about and just my voice to listen to.

2934
08:45:48.919 --> 08:45:57.520
Because you know the intention behind this recording, this relaxation,

2935
08:46:00.240 --> 08:46:05.400
at the very least, for you to feel more relaxed

2936
08:46:06.720 --> 08:46:09.599
at the end of the recording than you did at

2937
08:46:09.639 --> 08:46:22.279
the beginning, at the very least, for your mind to

2938
08:46:22.599 --> 08:46:38.799
slow down because your body continues to relax, because that's

2939
08:46:39.200 --> 08:46:55.080
what you want to happen. That's what you expect to happen,

2940
08:47:01.159 --> 08:47:19.119
for relaxation to fill your body, maybe calm in your

2941
08:47:19.319 --> 08:47:28.159
mind to the point of boredom when you start maybe

2942
08:47:28.599 --> 08:48:15.040
to drift away. Drifting it's almost as if you're moving

2943
08:48:15.639 --> 08:48:23.520
further away from your body in your mind, just leaving

2944
08:48:23.759 --> 08:48:35.680
that there, kind of liking it. An escape pod in

2945
08:48:35.799 --> 08:48:40.119
the spaceship a movie, a space movie. You know when

2946
08:48:40.159 --> 08:48:44.000
they get into a little pod in it. Since the

2947
08:48:44.159 --> 08:49:08.680
man far away from the spaceship, safe to dream I

2948
08:49:08.880 --> 08:50:27.840
continue to relax drafting size slo and peace, so rare

2949
08:50:41.080 --> 08:51:15.680
and peace, and focusing on the feeling of those individual

2950
08:51:16.240 --> 08:51:25.959
parts of your body that or relaxing one by one.

2951
08:51:33.639 --> 08:51:46.000
You may find that every now and then you realize

2952
08:51:46.159 --> 08:51:57.040
that you weren't listening to my voice because your mind

2953
08:51:57.599 --> 08:52:12.360
started to imagine something different, maybe started to almost move

2954
08:52:12.560 --> 08:52:21.639
into some kind of a dreamy state. And then you

2955
08:52:21.759 --> 08:52:28.560
become aware of my voice again. And even though you

2956
08:52:29.560 --> 08:52:35.720
may want to focus on my voice, you may also

2957
08:52:36.479 --> 08:52:50.279
wish to allow your mind to just drift naturally into

2958
08:52:50.400 --> 08:53:11.840
that space of comfort and safety. As you feel more

2959
08:53:12.479 --> 08:53:25.720
comfort spreading through your body like a warm blanket covering

2960
08:53:25.880 --> 08:53:39.919
you gently, keeping your body it just the perfect temperature,

2961
08:53:50.279 --> 08:54:00.680
and even if you can hear background sounds, they just

2962
08:54:02.119 --> 08:54:15.919
don't seem to matter anymore. There's that sense of peace

2963
08:54:18.400 --> 08:54:32.919
spreads through your mind like a gentle breeze, yet strong

2964
08:54:33.080 --> 08:54:49.040
enough to blow away all negativity, strong enough to remove

2965
08:54:49.599 --> 08:54:59.599
from your mind any anxiety or stress that was there before,

2966
08:55:07.959 --> 08:55:16.880
and blow away any other thoughts or feelings that just

2967
08:55:18.680 --> 08:55:43.080
don't fit with the sense relaxation that is feeling your

2968
08:55:43.200 --> 08:56:06.040
body end your mind. Unless you focus on your mind,

2969
08:56:08.240 --> 08:56:14.159
the countdown from ten down to one, and with each

2970
08:56:14.720 --> 08:56:39.799
number you hear, your mind will become slightly more relaxed,

2971
08:56:42.520 --> 08:56:50.880
just just slightly so, from ten down to nine, just

2972
08:56:51.040 --> 08:56:58.319
a slight movement. From nine down to eight, just another

2973
08:57:00.240 --> 08:57:15.000
small change in how you feel. Eight down to seven,

2974
08:57:17.759 --> 08:57:23.159
that feeling is a gap, almost like a gap that

2975
08:57:23.560 --> 08:57:33.200
starts to get wider, the gap between those feelings that

2976
08:57:33.400 --> 08:57:40.319
you used to have in your mind compared to the

2977
08:57:40.520 --> 08:57:48.040
feelings you have there growing now, feelings of comfort and

2978
08:57:48.279 --> 08:57:59.880
security and confidence, and that gap becomes wider. Eight down

2979
08:58:00.119 --> 08:58:06.880
to seven, seven down to six, and when you get

2980
08:58:06.919 --> 08:58:13.959
to five, your mind will start to have a certain

2981
08:58:15.360 --> 08:58:26.959
physical sensation, almost like there's a magnet outside of your

2982
08:58:27.080 --> 08:58:33.880
head sucking the tension and the stress and any remaining

2983
08:58:35.000 --> 08:58:41.360
feelings that you don't want, sucking them out through your skull.

2984
08:58:47.159 --> 08:58:52.240
And then down to four you could start to really

2985
08:58:52.840 --> 08:59:05.880
experience that sense of not just emptiness, but space, a

2986
08:59:06.040 --> 08:59:14.799
place full of fresh air, place where you can stretch.

2987
08:59:18.279 --> 08:59:20.919
It's almost as if as you go down to four

2988
08:59:21.720 --> 08:59:27.880
and three, your mind is expanding, with this sense.

2989
08:59:30.520 --> 08:59:31.880
Of peace.

2990
08:59:33.200 --> 08:59:43.520
And tranquility growing as it moved down to When you

2991
08:59:43.639 --> 08:59:52.840
get to one, in your mind just feels exactly how

2992
08:59:53.000 --> 09:00:08.919
you want to feel. It's almost a perfect feeding, maybe

2993
09:00:09.040 --> 09:00:21.279
a sensation that you'd like to keep a place that's safe,

2994
09:00:22.319 --> 09:00:42.599
where nothing can affect you at all, and you can

2995
09:00:42.799 --> 09:00:51.759
stay in that that space of comfort and confidence, confident

2996
09:00:51.880 --> 09:00:58.360
in your own ability to create this space and this

2997
09:00:59.680 --> 09:01:06.080
fear of comfort within your own mind just by counting

2998
09:01:07.200 --> 09:01:16.040
ten down to one. And this is something that you

2999
09:01:16.159 --> 09:01:25.200
can do yourself when you're on your own, a time

3000
09:01:25.360 --> 09:01:28.840
when you can maybe sit down, maybe just for a

3001
09:01:28.959 --> 09:01:42.119
few minutes, close your eyes, just count slowly from ten

3002
09:01:45.040 --> 09:01:57.000
down to one and re experience these feelings in your mind.

3003
09:02:02.840 --> 09:02:07.159
And when you feel that way in your mind, your

3004
09:02:07.240 --> 09:02:21.759
body copies your mind, and that feeling it's spread through

3005
09:02:21.959 --> 09:02:29.080
your spine and your nervous system into every part of

3006
09:02:29.200 --> 09:02:44.319
your body, travels through your bloodstream, healing and relaxing every

3007
09:02:45.319 --> 09:03:03.200
particle of your existence. And we can practice this a

3008
09:03:03.319 --> 09:03:11.439
few times before the end of the recording, and then

3009
09:03:11.479 --> 09:03:18.479
you can practice on your own, and each time you

3010
09:03:18.759 --> 09:03:30.439
count from ten down to one, the feelings of comfort, calmness,

3011
09:03:30.680 --> 09:03:49.119
and deep deep relaxation become stronger and deeper, filling your

3012
09:03:50.400 --> 09:03:59.560
mind and your brain with these positive chemicals that spread

3013
09:04:00.080 --> 09:04:09.639
around your body, relaxing you so quickly, relaxing your whole

3014
09:04:09.880 --> 09:04:21.959
body and mind so very very easily, just by counting

3015
09:04:23.479 --> 09:04:33.639
from ten down to one. That's we're going to do.

3016
09:04:34.040 --> 09:04:34.200
Now.

3017
09:04:35.080 --> 09:04:39.000
I'm going to count from ten down to one. I'd

3018
09:04:39.200 --> 09:04:43.520
like you to repeat the number after me. So when

3019
09:04:43.560 --> 09:04:52.119
I say ten, you can just repeat to yourself ten.

3020
09:04:57.759 --> 09:05:07.599
Just notice, be aware of how you feel in your mind,

3021
09:05:07.959 --> 09:05:17.000
in your body, And when I say nine, you can

3022
09:05:17.080 --> 09:05:33.599
repeat to yourself nine again, noticing the increase in comfort

3023
09:05:34.000 --> 09:05:46.880
and calmness in your mind and in your body. The

3024
09:05:47.040 --> 09:05:56.279
same when I say eight, when I say seven, six,

3025
09:05:58.840 --> 09:06:13.120
when I say five, for when I say three, two,

3026
09:06:17.519 --> 09:06:23.720
and lastly when I say one, you can beat that number.

3027
09:06:31.199 --> 09:06:31.319
Now.

3028
09:06:31.440 --> 09:06:37.040
Of course, when you do this on your own without

3029
09:06:37.160 --> 09:06:42.160
listening to me, you can say the numbers or whatever

3030
09:06:43.760 --> 09:06:52.199
speed that you feel is necessary for you, so you

3031
09:06:52.360 --> 09:06:58.319
can adapt. So you feel you want to say the

3032
09:06:58.480 --> 09:07:06.080
numbers ten to one faster than I do, then you

3033
09:07:06.199 --> 09:07:09.959
go ahead and do that. Or if you feel when

3034
09:07:10.000 --> 09:07:13.760
you do it yourself that you'd like to have more

3035
09:07:15.559 --> 09:07:22.160
more space between the numbers, maybe take a lot longer

3036
09:07:23.400 --> 09:07:29.279
to get from ten all the way down to one.

3037
09:07:33.480 --> 09:07:46.000
That's your choice also to do. So I'm going to

3038
09:07:46.199 --> 09:07:54.519
count from ten down to one, and when I get

3039
09:07:54.599 --> 09:08:01.839
to one, that will be the end of this recording. Let's,

3040
09:08:01.879 --> 09:08:05.839
of course, you're listening with music, and the music will

3041
09:08:05.919 --> 09:08:27.480
continue two nine.

3042
09:08:52.239 --> 09:11:17.919
I US.

3043
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Twenty ninety eighty seventeen, sixteen fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve eleven, ten,

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nine eight, seven, six, five, four, three two one. Now

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09:14:32.239 --> 09:14:42.839
open your eyes, noticing how you physically feel having counted

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09:14:42.919 --> 09:14:50.639
down from twenty to one, allowing stress and tension to

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09:14:50.879 --> 09:14:55.319
leave through your fingertips and your toast. And as you

3048
09:14:55.400 --> 09:15:00.919
focus on your fingertips, maybe they feel a little bit tingling,

3049
09:15:03.160 --> 09:15:07.720
which is I suppose quite an understanding considering the tension

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09:15:08.160 --> 09:15:18.400
has been exiting your body through your fingertips. So now

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09:15:18.440 --> 09:15:20.760
I'm going to count from twenty down to one again.

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09:15:21.239 --> 09:15:30.279
This time you're going to feel relief of tension and stress,

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09:15:31.680 --> 09:15:32.959
any anxiety that you.

3054
09:15:33.040 --> 09:15:33.360
May have.

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09:15:38.000 --> 09:15:46.400
Leaving through your stomach, just leaving through your stomach, almost

3056
09:15:46.440 --> 09:15:52.199
as if it's just releasing the whole of your stomach.

3057
09:15:52.959 --> 09:15:57.440
You will navel to just above your chest or below

3058
09:15:57.480 --> 09:16:01.480
your chest, rather so surround under your belly button area.

3059
09:16:01.760 --> 09:16:07.440
The whole area you can feel the tension of your

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09:16:07.519 --> 09:16:13.760
body where there's left just releasing from the area, and

3061
09:16:13.879 --> 09:16:17.239
you may notice that your stomach will become very relaxed.

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As I countdown from twenty down to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four,

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three two. You can open your eyes again if you choose,

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09:18:07.519 --> 09:18:11.160
or you can just keep them closed because it feels relaxing.

3065
09:18:13.480 --> 09:18:18.559
Just notice how your stomach feels. I notice there's your focus.

3066
09:18:18.839 --> 09:18:24.080
Just do a little scan of your body. Just notice

3067
09:18:24.120 --> 09:18:37.199
how your body feels, focusing upper body, back, chest, stomach, legs, arms, hands, feet,

3068
09:18:40.239 --> 09:18:47.160
just noticing, and you know, you may start to feel

3069
09:18:49.639 --> 09:18:53.440
more of a sense of tiredness, which may be the

3070
09:18:53.559 --> 09:19:00.120
reason you're listening to this recording because you liked you

3071
09:19:01.559 --> 09:19:09.279
let go completely of everything and drift or off into

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09:19:09.400 --> 09:19:24.400
a nice, natural, calm, relaxing sleep. So now we're going

3073
09:19:24.440 --> 09:19:33.919
to focus on your forehead, and if you choose, you

3074
09:19:34.000 --> 09:19:38.800
can incorporate your eyes in this focus as well. So

3075
09:19:38.959 --> 09:19:44.400
your forehead and your eyes, it's that whole area basically

3076
09:19:45.360 --> 09:19:48.279
almost as if you were wearing a mask, you know,

3077
09:19:48.480 --> 09:19:52.839
like a I don't know a batman mask or something,

3078
09:19:53.760 --> 09:19:58.599
or I'm trying to sorrow or something, you know, the

3079
09:19:58.720 --> 09:20:01.800
kind of mask that covers your eyes but also covers

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09:20:01.879 --> 09:20:08.120
quite a lot of the forehead. Focusing on that area,

3081
09:20:08.639 --> 09:20:12.279
because that's the area that we're now going to release tension,

3082
09:20:12.720 --> 09:20:18.040
stress from your mind, from your brain, from your mind,

3083
09:20:18.120 --> 09:20:22.400
and any tension that you may have remaining in your face,

3084
09:20:23.440 --> 09:20:28.760
in your neck, and your jaw, in your eyes, your forehead,

3085
09:20:29.519 --> 09:20:35.839
or your scalp. So basically any tension within your head area,

3086
09:20:36.559 --> 09:20:43.639
including your mind and your brain, and that's going to

3087
09:20:43.720 --> 09:20:51.919
be released through your forehead and your eyes. As I

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counted down again from twenty down to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine,

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eight seven six five war three one L And you

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09:22:50.480 --> 09:22:57.480
scan your face, but jaw, your eyes, but cheap ones,

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09:22:57.680 --> 09:23:06.639
your ears, your forehead, your scalp, in your neck, the

3092
09:23:06.800 --> 09:23:09.080
back of your neck and the front of your neck,

3093
09:23:10.080 --> 09:23:20.760
the side of your neck, and your throat. Noticing being

3094
09:23:20.839 --> 09:23:32.599
aware of the comfort increased, being relaxation, not just in

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09:23:32.680 --> 09:23:37.760
your head and neck and mind, also the rest of

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09:23:37.839 --> 09:23:48.080
your body. Just notice how loose and calm you felm

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09:23:49.120 --> 09:23:57.440
and how easily it is to just let go completely.

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09:24:00.319 --> 09:24:21.000
Let go completely and easily. So what I'm going to

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09:24:21.080 --> 09:24:24.680
do now is we're going to focus on the top

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09:24:24.760 --> 09:24:35.040
of your head. Am I going to allow every last

3101
09:24:36.959 --> 09:24:43.040
piece of tension or stress the mind be lingering or

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09:24:43.239 --> 09:24:47.879
hiding in your body or mind or head.

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09:24:49.199 --> 09:24:49.559
To just.

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09:24:51.319 --> 09:24:57.000
Be sucked out at the top of your head and

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09:24:57.199 --> 09:25:05.480
released into the air. Was sucked down into the clouds.

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09:25:08.040 --> 09:25:14.000
Imagine a big cloud above your head, almost like a whirlpool,

3107
09:25:14.760 --> 09:25:19.199
and this is gonna suck that tension out of the

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09:25:19.360 --> 09:25:26.080
top of your head and just take it away. Good

3109
09:25:29.279 --> 09:25:33.040
to focus. Imagine an opening in the top of your

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09:25:33.120 --> 09:25:39.680
head with a tension and stress and in made in issues,

3111
09:25:39.879 --> 09:25:43.639
maybe worries of concerns that are no use to you.

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Now you can all be sucked down at the top

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09:25:47.639 --> 09:25:54.519
of your head and taken away. As I count down again,

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I'm twenty down to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen,

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09:26:28.720 --> 09:27:34.680
sixteen fifty Fourteeneen twelve eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six,

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09:27:38.959 --> 09:28:24.040
five four three one bre Noticing how you feel, how

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09:28:24.160 --> 09:28:32.440
relaxed and calm you physically and mentally feel right now,

3118
09:28:38.120 --> 09:28:48.160
how peaceful your mind feels. It feels so nice to

3119
09:28:48.400 --> 09:28:57.000
just let go, to give yourself some space to breathe easily,

3120
09:28:58.919 --> 09:29:07.040
to think harmly, and just to take a break from

3121
09:29:08.800 --> 09:29:15.160
all that pointless worry and concerns about things that you

3122
09:29:15.239 --> 09:29:25.319
don't need to think about right now, because this is

3123
09:29:25.519 --> 09:29:30.360
your time to let go. This is your space to

3124
09:29:30.680 --> 09:29:41.160
enjoy feeling deeply relaxed, peaceful in your mind, relaxed in

3125
09:29:41.239 --> 09:29:51.000
your body. They can feel so good, so nice to

3126
09:29:51.400 --> 09:29:59.239
just not have to do anything, to be able to

3127
09:30:00.519 --> 09:30:10.440
really enjoy that serenity that comes of letting go completely,

3128
09:30:12.599 --> 09:30:26.959
that peacefulness that comes with being in this peaceful space.

3129
09:30:31.480 --> 09:30:36.040
And you can keep this sense of calmness for as

3130
09:30:36.160 --> 09:30:48.040
long as you choose. If you choose to drift off

3131
09:30:48.279 --> 09:30:54.919
into a deep, healing, natural sleep, then you can do that.

3132
09:30:58.639 --> 09:31:06.839
It's completely up to you, and you can keep this

3133
09:31:07.160 --> 09:31:12.559
feeling of calmness physically and in your mind for as

3134
09:31:12.720 --> 09:31:14.639
long as you choose.

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09:31:15.839 --> 09:31:27.199
To feel completely relaxed, completely relaxed.

3136
09:31:30.440 --> 09:31:36.040
And I'd like you to make up your mind that

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09:31:36.120 --> 09:31:47.080
you're going to relax, and I want to explore that

3138
09:31:47.319 --> 09:31:52.599
with you. What it feels like when you actually decide

3139
09:31:54.839 --> 09:31:59.480
that you're going to relax, not forcing yourself, but giving

3140
09:31:59.559 --> 09:32:05.519
yourself that. Yes, it is a command, really, isn't it.

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09:32:05.639 --> 09:32:13.279
When you're telling yourself relax in a gentle but firm way,

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09:32:14.160 --> 09:32:20.360
that only you can really tell yourself in that way.

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09:32:21.199 --> 09:32:23.199
You can't really have someone else saying to you, now

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09:32:23.239 --> 09:32:29.720
it relax, relax, you know, and it needs to be gentle,

3145
09:32:29.879 --> 09:32:33.360
But you can't someone else can't really have the same

3146
09:32:36.839 --> 09:32:42.919
the same kind of influence or power that you have

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09:32:44.120 --> 09:32:56.000
over your own physicality, over how you feel, because when

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09:32:56.120 --> 09:33:02.800
you say it to yourself, it means more. It's personal,

3149
09:33:03.160 --> 09:33:08.760
and your brain and your unconscious mind and your body

3150
09:33:09.519 --> 09:33:15.760
listens to what you say. So, for example, we'll test

3151
09:33:15.800 --> 09:33:18.360
it out. We'll do a little test, a few little

3152
09:33:18.480 --> 09:33:22.199
tests along the way, and you can get more of

3153
09:33:22.279 --> 09:33:28.800
an idea of the force, a positive force that you

3154
09:33:29.000 --> 09:33:36.480
can have in creating a sense of comfort and relaxation

3155
09:33:36.760 --> 09:33:42.720
in your body and your mind quite quickly just by

3156
09:33:42.919 --> 09:33:53.279
you telling yourself to relax. So I'm going to start

3157
09:33:53.400 --> 09:34:00.319
byle's focus on your hands. So focus on your hands

3158
09:34:00.360 --> 09:34:05.279
and just tell your hands to relax, and just say relax.

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09:34:06.919 --> 09:34:12.319
As you focus on your hands, you could say, my

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09:34:12.639 --> 09:34:16.400
hands are relaxed, or I want my hands to relax.

3161
09:34:18.480 --> 09:34:24.239
I think if you actually do it directly by focusing

3162
09:34:24.919 --> 09:34:29.120
and imagining that your hands can hear what you're saying.

3163
09:34:29.279 --> 09:34:32.239
You know, they've got little ears, which is a bit weird.

3164
09:34:34.839 --> 09:34:45.720
So talking to your hands and just say relax, nodicin

3165
09:34:51.879 --> 09:35:06.959
how your hands start to relax. Now, focus on your

3166
09:35:07.080 --> 09:35:10.839
eyes and tell your eyes to relax. So you just

3167
09:35:10.919 --> 09:35:15.760
say in the same word relax and find the right

3168
09:35:17.040 --> 09:35:23.720
tone for you. You know, I might say relax, but

3169
09:35:23.879 --> 09:35:32.160
you you might say relax or relax. You know, you

3170
09:35:32.279 --> 09:35:38.680
might say it differently to yourself, and that's important for

3171
09:35:38.839 --> 09:35:45.000
you to gauge what feels right for you. To just

3172
09:35:45.160 --> 09:35:50.120
tell your eyes to relax, whilst focusing on your eyes,

3173
09:35:50.639 --> 09:35:55.360
your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your eyebrows, and

3174
09:35:55.599 --> 09:36:31.080
just tell your eyes directly relax. Now. Now, I just

3175
09:36:31.199 --> 09:36:41.480
did that myself, And sometimes you may feel that you

3176
09:36:41.680 --> 09:36:47.120
need a bit more time for the different parts to relax,

3177
09:36:47.959 --> 09:36:51.800
you know, because I start talking again and maybe that

3178
09:36:52.040 --> 09:36:55.639
part hasn't relaxed fully. But what will happen is that

3179
09:36:55.639 --> 09:36:58.319
it will just continue to relax even though I'm talking.

3180
09:37:00.120 --> 09:37:05.879
That's happened with my eyes. Something else I noticed is

3181
09:37:07.800 --> 09:37:11.599
when I started focusing on my eyes, they actually almost

3182
09:37:11.760 --> 09:37:14.440
became They got worse before they got better in a way,

3183
09:37:15.160 --> 09:37:18.120
so that I felt a degree of tension growing in

3184
09:37:18.199 --> 09:37:24.000
my eyes and then disappearing. So I think what that

3185
09:37:24.279 --> 09:37:28.879
was really was just me becoming more aware of the

3186
09:37:29.120 --> 09:37:34.440
tension that was already there that I wasn't. I wasn't

3187
09:37:34.519 --> 09:37:39.519
focused on it before, so I wasn't really acknowledging it

3188
09:37:40.080 --> 09:37:56.599
or really conscious to those feelings. Yeah, my eyes is

3189
09:37:56.839 --> 09:38:00.400
still continuing to relax, as well as my hands. Actually,

3190
09:38:03.839 --> 09:38:09.239
my hands have got a certain kind of energy, like

3191
09:38:09.480 --> 09:38:14.639
not buzzing, but I can kind of feel a degree

3192
09:38:14.680 --> 09:38:20.599
of energy in my hands. Maybe that's where the tension

3193
09:38:20.720 --> 09:38:32.720
is being released. Maybe that's causing that. The next part,

3194
09:38:32.839 --> 09:38:35.000
I think we should focus on the back of the neck.

3195
09:38:35.680 --> 09:38:40.839
That's the part was quite often well for me, holds tension.

3196
09:38:40.919 --> 09:38:43.720
I don't know about for yourself, but I think it's

3197
09:38:43.800 --> 09:38:50.120
quite a standard place where tension is sometimes held. So,

3198
09:38:52.279 --> 09:38:55.400
and I'm doing exactly what you're doing as you do

3199
09:38:55.519 --> 09:38:59.040
it as well, so I'm telling my body parts to

3200
09:38:59.199 --> 09:39:02.199
relax as well. So if you tell your neck the

3201
09:39:02.319 --> 09:39:05.120
back of your neck, focus on the back of your neck,

3202
09:39:05.279 --> 09:39:12.199
and just say relax in your own words, in your

3203
09:39:12.239 --> 09:39:15.879
own tone, in your own voice. You can say out loud,

3204
09:39:16.040 --> 09:39:20.199
or you can just say it to yourself internally. But

3205
09:39:20.319 --> 09:39:24.919
you're focusing and you're saying it literally to the back

3206
09:39:25.000 --> 09:39:27.760
of your neck, as if the back of your neck

3207
09:39:27.879 --> 09:39:34.519
can actually hear what you're saying. So do that now,

3208
09:39:34.760 --> 09:39:38.959
Just say relax to the back of your neck, and

3209
09:39:39.080 --> 09:40:20.639
I'll do the same. Now, what I noticed, and you

3210
09:40:20.879 --> 09:40:25.480
may have had similar thing is, even though I was

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09:40:25.599 --> 09:40:34.199
focusing on the back of my neck, other parts started

3212
09:40:34.319 --> 09:40:40.519
to I don't know, show themselves to me, or maybe

3213
09:40:40.720 --> 09:40:43.400
because they want to be relaxed as well. But I

3214
09:40:43.519 --> 09:40:48.199
started noticing the feelings in my shoulders, tension in my shoulders,

3215
09:40:48.519 --> 09:40:55.239
and in my upper back. Whether that was because my

3216
09:40:55.760 --> 09:40:59.599
back of my neck was saying I'm pretty much okay.

3217
09:41:01.239 --> 09:41:10.519
It's the other parts that need attention. But my low

3218
09:41:10.559 --> 09:41:14.480
of my back of my neck is still relaxing. But

3219
09:41:14.599 --> 09:41:21.559
I just became more aware of other parts that needed attention. Now,

3220
09:41:21.680 --> 09:41:26.599
this might happen and it's not. It doesn't mean that

3221
09:41:26.680 --> 09:41:31.199
it's going wrong. It just means you're being notified with

3222
09:41:32.199 --> 09:41:39.959
more places that also want to feel relaxed. So I'm

3223
09:41:40.000 --> 09:41:44.199
going to focus on my other back, so you can

3224
09:41:44.279 --> 09:41:50.080
do the same, even if you don't have any feelings

3225
09:41:50.120 --> 09:41:54.959
of tension that are obvious in your other back. If

3226
09:41:55.000 --> 09:41:59.839
you just focus on your back and the whole area

3227
09:42:00.080 --> 09:42:04.519
from his shoulder blades down to the middle of your

3228
09:42:04.599 --> 09:42:08.839
back that a spine And with me, it's more the

3229
09:42:08.959 --> 09:42:19.279
shoulder blades more. Yeah, that's the parts that really sort

3230
09:42:19.279 --> 09:42:26.480
of given me the nod that it needs relaxing. The sounds.

3231
09:42:26.559 --> 09:42:29.919
Gonna ask that part to relax, and you can do

3232
09:42:30.040 --> 09:42:43.120
the same. Now, relax up the back.

3233
09:42:55.319 --> 09:43:00.599
There's something strange happened there, and this often happens. I've

3234
09:43:00.599 --> 09:43:07.120
been doing this for sixteen years or something, and often

3235
09:43:08.919 --> 09:43:15.559
I'm I'm surprised, but amazed really that there can be

3236
09:43:15.639 --> 09:43:20.000
a feeling. So when I was focusing on the back

3237
09:43:20.040 --> 09:43:24.279
of my neck, my upper back was starting to feel

3238
09:43:24.400 --> 09:43:30.519
quite stressed and in need of attention. As soon as

3239
09:43:30.559 --> 09:43:34.599
I started talking to you about my upper back and

3240
09:43:35.680 --> 09:43:39.480
talking about, you know, getting ready to ask the upper

3241
09:43:39.559 --> 09:43:47.239
back to relax, MyPa back already started to relax. It's

3242
09:43:47.400 --> 09:43:50.199
almost as if it doesn't need to hear the words,

3243
09:43:51.199 --> 09:44:08.919
just needs attention, just needs to be noticed and that

3244
09:44:09.120 --> 09:44:14.839
is something that often happens in this type of situation

3245
09:44:16.599 --> 09:44:21.919
is when you start to relax a couple of parts

3246
09:44:21.959 --> 09:44:26.760
of your body, as we've done with our hands, our

3247
09:44:26.919 --> 09:44:36.720
eyes and eyelids, and now back of the neck, top

3248
09:44:36.760 --> 09:44:41.919
of the back, upper back, the rest of the body

3249
09:44:42.040 --> 09:44:49.639
seems to just take notice and decide in its own

3250
09:44:49.839 --> 09:44:58.199
way to start relaxing. Other parts of your body start

3251
09:44:58.319 --> 09:45:07.440
to just become looser. I suppose it's kind of like

3252
09:45:07.559 --> 09:45:11.400
a bit of an avalanche, you know, the little ball

3253
09:45:11.519 --> 09:45:14.639
starts rolling and before you know it, the whole of

3254
09:45:14.720 --> 09:45:26.919
your body is completely relaxed and can't And if you

3255
09:45:27.080 --> 09:45:37.959
focus on your face, you focus on your eyes, your eyelids,

3256
09:45:39.040 --> 09:45:48.760
your eyebrows, and the muscles around your eyes, maybe you

3257
09:45:48.839 --> 09:45:53.879
start to notice that your forehead is more relaxed than

3258
09:45:53.959 --> 09:46:01.319
it was. Maybe your face is more relaxed. I would

3259
09:46:01.360 --> 09:46:05.519
say my entire face is a lot more relaxed than

3260
09:46:05.559 --> 09:46:19.559
it was. So we're going to focus now on your

3261
09:46:19.720 --> 09:46:27.319
shoulders again, just like before. Just tell your shoulders and

3262
09:46:27.400 --> 09:46:30.040
when you can do them individity. You can do the

3263
09:46:30.199 --> 09:46:34.599
right shoulder, left shoulder. I just literally do both at

3264
09:46:34.639 --> 09:46:39.480
the same time, and just tell your shoulders and you

3265
09:46:39.680 --> 09:46:43.480
focus on them in your mind. Focus on that, and

3266
09:46:43.559 --> 09:46:49.160
they feel maybe you can see them in your mind's eye.

3267
09:46:52.720 --> 09:47:37.400
Just tell your shoulders to relax as nice as they relax.

3268
09:47:47.839 --> 09:47:56.160
But do you notice, especially with my back, is the

3269
09:47:56.360 --> 09:48:02.199
connection between the different parts, the back, the shoulders, the

3270
09:48:02.400 --> 09:48:12.480
neck being all connected and being such a large part

3271
09:48:12.559 --> 09:48:18.559
of your body, it's almost hard to separate them from

3272
09:48:18.639 --> 09:48:26.639
each other. When my lower back is starting to relax

3273
09:48:26.760 --> 09:48:37.639
on its own, maybe I'm going too slow, and that

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could be an issue because we all go at different speeds.

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And the idea of the beginning of this recording was

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for you to be able to just say to yourself,

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relax without focusing on any particular part of your body.

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Because when you know that, telling your hands to relax

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and your hand relax, You tell your eyelids and your

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eyes and muscles around your eyes and your eyebrows to relax.

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And they relax.

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You tell the back of your neck to relax and

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it relaxes. You tell your upper back to relax and

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it relaxes. You tell your shoulders.

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To relax, and they relax.

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You told your hands to relax, I relaxed and they

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continued to relax.